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EDAnonymous,doitliketweety,2019/05/14,"How to suppress appetite 😫 Do you guys take anything to suppress your appetite?
I was very close to binging the entire cinema today (big trigger for me) but I got diet coke instead and I'm super proud. I'm still struggling rn though ahhhhh. 

I just want to STOP being hungry.",1.2557075471698127,3.9182389811320775,3.24658018867925,83.58609669811322,93.15094339622641,4.159433962264152,23.60613207547169,5.985473137389443,0.9442094339622652,218,9,36,2,8,73,43,53,0.126,0.6940000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.5188,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,2,5,3,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,10,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,2,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876430328172179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795604254277449,0.0,0.0,0.3461012337770813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791444498421017,0.2922325091872409,0.0,0.3654168741606517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628118542924235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434229414708017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313246568457316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884085060593973,0.2061687485363777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RecoveryForMyself,2019/05/14,"DAE restrict really hard when not counting calories I'm so scared I'm eating a lot of calories, I've been eating so little these past few days after deleting MFP. I got some sick sort of validation from my boyfriend while we were fooling around and he told me he could feel that I got skinnier when touching my waist and thighs. Kinda fueling me to restrict harder but I'm trying not to worry him. I'll be eating a lot later this month so I feel like that's also making me feel like I have to restrict.",2.799607843137256,4.7620840588235325,3.984901960784317,86.6787254901961,76.05882352941177,5.7098039215686285,24.07843137254902,6.42735559955562,0.7735607843137262,402,13,77,3,9,131,68,102,0.14,0.7609999999999999,0.099,-0.0703,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,2,0,5,6,2,1,0,20,15,10,0,1,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,4,3,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,5,11,2,8,8,4,10,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,5,10,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145340521655924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16179059235599202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510770601768436,0.0,0.0,0.11720977253149235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5579081098308184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27568551185731777,0.2596757399538124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907143798766525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280682560509013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775817669801875,0.18215512171453715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090243088891622,0.0,0.0,0.12131545657501952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506623754819029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17349510594654627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164297885387812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195733747149964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736640735482803,0.0,0.12339217004167882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18456974042967506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LilTricky420,2019/05/14,Skin and Bones by Cage the Elephant That’s it that’s the tweet,-1.9388095238095249,-0.7214782142857104,-1.1271428571428572,111.4554761904762,116.85714285714286,1.866666666666667,11.809523809523812,3.1291,-2.204733333333333,51,1,13,0,3,15,11,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kimchiwitch,2019/05/14,"Im fucked Pregnant, bf hasnt touched me, needs porn, cant kick him out, gonna sleep in the car tonight, dk how ill make it through work this week
29 weeks need this baby out so i can at least control my weight and feel attractive again

I am in such a bad place",4.844210526315791,3.5824927192982483,4.6550877192982485,95.52894736842107,69.17543859649122,8.301754385964912,29.52631578947368,6.42735559955562,0.9660105263157892,203,6,53,1,3,62,51,57,0.18,0.772,0.049,-0.8316,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,2,0,4,5,1,3,0,9,10,3,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,6,9,1,11,0,0,0,2,2,6,1,0,4,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22677197855018896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046188990379353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732749971741073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25108685978420336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933711439784075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129296911126005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027711630156112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28376084350663033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717929381552663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4357171316801309,0.3307317267315784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19772570087881444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laisserai,2019/05/14,"Every time my mom yells I find myself seeking comfort in food... My mom is a narcissist. r/raisedbynarcissts fits my mom to a tee.

I noticed that everytime she starts raising her voice or yelling (not at me - even if she yells at my dad) I find myself somehow standing by the pantry eating anything I can get my hands on (Crackers, cookies whatever) and I'm not even hungry!!

This is an issue that needs to stop ASAP because

1) my mom is literally always yelling at either me or my dad (she loves to pick fights over random things)

2) a bitch is eating too many calories!!!!!


Do any of you guys do this?? I need to do something else I'm so stressed out!!!",1.965108173076924,4.254278515625003,3.3687500000000017,88.44740384615385,80.25,5.500961538461539,25.47115384615385,6.67199483983844,0.9990112980769226,502,20,100,5,13,164,86,128,0.102,0.85,0.047,-0.7989,0,0,1,0,3,0,28.0,0,1,0,0,5,5,2,1,5,0,8,5,1,1,0,16,15,5,0,3,6,6,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,21,2,13,15,1,12,0,0,0,1,14,8,1,5,3,64,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202736893927871,0.0,0.0,0.09829610434002664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894888172059123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881137813292868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29581288959144386,0.12074947267591425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19094228240887684,0.0,0.12178607523561905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642244948844273,0.0,0.17478536161468228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551921739891378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312307277771294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086826662944736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045823279351765,0.0,0.0,0.1465467592862446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6771612010625757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143577663006045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456635745949752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127842284470152,0.0,0.0,0.10231026501568292,0.0,0.0,0.12084676562395075,0.16557673168465806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602981026537738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428582151915633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pumpkintoskeleton,2019/05/14,"What’s your aesthetic? I hope this is allowed.

Basically I can’t sleep so I’m thinking and I’ve come to the conclusion that I think I’ll change when I’m skinny, as if I’ll be a new person. And this is the aesthetic I’m going for: 

I want to be thin, elegant and ethereal. Light. I want to wear cute and elegant clothes, flowy dresses, long hair that reach my butt. I’m effortlessly thin and toned. I don’t eat much, and when I do it’s healthy food. I don’t workout a lot, I just do yoga and body weight fitness and that keeps me in shape. My apartment is small but comfy. All white and beige. Well lit and always clean. I’m productive, I study and work and never miss a day of school. People wish they were as productive as me.",-0.010546955624352705,2.238133875816996,2.126996904024768,94.15569659442728,89.32679738562092,5.835431716546268,19.817337461300312,7.273561745256523,0.5049294117647065,565,18,129,10,19,189,93,153,0.0,0.813,0.187,0.9596,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,2,5,4,0,0,5,0,11,9,6,1,2,28,26,20,0,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,13,4,1,3,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,7,16,3,9,23,3,15,0,1,2,1,3,7,1,3,6,71,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17413705572025226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324620076597456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22138963948099516,0.1802754961363396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496776790615106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141448636755766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25306123399259145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893818968283905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20786146220245602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18601696481995614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185205502446376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779216881779411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384428871611014,0.0,0.16140901727600696,0.20212315118178825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508784349940498,0.18273452129600612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118017187988792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094303345012204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26819531639418603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468765835672141,0.0,0.0,0.2548456800595449,0.18816713023756215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406607466611536,0.0,0.0,0.15235774687744955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ChaosSauces,2019/05/14,"I have customers who I watch suffer from EDs and it straight up breaks my heart. I work at Starbucks and I can literally always tell when someone has an ED by the way they order and what they order. I’ve had an ED for so fricken long that I feel like I have X-ray vision to see someone’s ED. 

It kills me. Watching these humans suffer. I want to reach out to help them and I do so by being friendly and nonjudgmental. I always offer a smile and conversation that doesn’t have to do with calories. It’s hard for me to have regulars with EDs because it’s fucking triggering to watch someone use behaviors and lose weight/ gain weight. 

I wonder if I trigger any of them who see though. Do they hate me? They definitely have noticed that I’ve lost 30% of my body weight in 2019 so far. I wonder if they’re ever worried about me the way I worry about them. Some of them look so sad. 

I’m writing this because I just saw a woman who I haven’t seen in a few months. She’s so emaciated that I wanted to hold her and cry for her. What pain she must be in. Her teeth are rotting and her make up was obviously redone after a purge. It was all smudged under her eyes. I. Could. Just. Tell. 

I don’t know why I’m not strong enough to really reach out to these people and tell them that I hope they treat themselves with compassion tonight because they ARE worthwhile. They are special. They do deserve to not spend every waking minute living in the hell of an ED.  

But alas - I am just like everyone else. Courageous sometimes but also still timid. 

If you’re reading this- please be kind to yourself tonight. Whatever that could mean for you. Take a shower. Don’t wash your hands 10000 times. Eat a real meal. Don’t eat all the candy in your stash. 

Whatever. It. Is. 

Please find just any way to do something nice for yourself tonight. I believe in your ability to be courageous for me- because I am definitely feeling courageous for you.",1.9638446475195792,4.336854911227157,2.9943805483028747,90.64848988250654,80.82767624020887,5.501018276762402,23.674216710182773,6.742157984588678,0.7418407832898177,1513,54,307,16,40,482,196,383,0.083,0.7559999999999999,0.161,0.9809,1,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,5,13,5,16,23,4,1,13,0,33,15,6,4,5,51,55,23,1,9,11,0,7,2,1,1,2,0,1,2,21,15,6,1,7,1,1,0,7,11,0,0,6,16,54,12,45,42,5,30,1,5,9,1,38,14,2,7,12,202,75,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746912715038785,0.16121182651899868,0.0,0.0,0.13175362459038434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23621099013932556,0.0,0.0,0.10914244982275227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760382015217056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15469006440747005,0.0,0.10641020001210663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825007647000584,0.08092477722919783,0.0,0.0,0.10009547744513857,0.0,0.0,0.08762697556272482,0.08161949522142023,0.09256609266214004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979635765179316,0.06920593337340959,0.0,0.0,0.08853996590282709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484366950879573,0.08955732410381333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677898310844316,0.09564181459611312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479471069988832,0.06493178242965647,0.0,0.0,0.09621652854404653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717537815081876,0.10087809316357196,0.05323874643463846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946542941296644,0.0,0.08554043951344971,0.08572936187319702,0.08134873714964902,0.10837586169953288,0.10574808278361653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466333286574162,0.0,0.0,0.1055228566261995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07732292875935927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029030207505658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307946793695087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715938821722439,0.0,0.0,0.21267444413514225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968989951294836,0.1102624317671584,0.0620591834241292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543901269650207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462399763375828,0.07457739880399661,0.0958096564302377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736272722725314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283627457831984,0.0,0.2540132386279437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517701447983233,0.0,0.05648729703627262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366697867010442,0.0,0.0,0.11427615103811617,0.23067931107278494,0.0,0.35389484500826,0.0,0.0,0.08741261633439583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21010879514314812,0.07052453757427446,0.19675802077152896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orthofuckyrself,2019/05/14,"Me vs. grief vs. ED Grief: Hey, ortho, you know what'd make everything ok with the world again? If you went down the street and single handedly put the Indian Buffet out of business. 

​

Me: No, that would not. All that would happen is I would feel even worse. 

​

ED: You're right- the answer is to go back down to your LW, where you felt like absolute shit! :D 

​

Me: No, I need to STUDY, fuck off. 

​

Grief and ED: Ok, you do that. We'll just stand here and stare at you.",0.6126839826839827,3.1187931616161637,1.1133116883116898,99.67568181818184,92.13131313131314,4.444733044733044,15.152236652236653,6.1826913282559595,-0.6703339105339108,389,8,85,4,14,117,68,99,0.209,0.698,0.09300000000000001,-0.9268,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,1,6,0,0,6,8,2,0,4,2,7,3,2,1,1,20,16,4,3,5,5,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,2,4,12,3,10,10,2,15,0,3,1,1,8,9,2,1,3,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792742794567572,0.5374904783434835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503287475125951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304020846823082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938647546947796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055914990705652916,0.0,0.10617873695573804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223385308867852,0.0,0.0,0.06284788253937502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778976140298076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060774506564254115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054026140782452416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381620362794047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08199721790197151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116825405646133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443880336187338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351369409505804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251320489575633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126953448657376,0.23566877828130545,0.0,0.5374904783434835,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad-but-rad-,2019/05/14,"I think I just purged a throat scab????? *** Sorry this is TMI/gross and possibility triggering, but I need advice: 

I had managed to lay off purging for a couple days. I purged just now and when I looked at my toothbrush, I’m 99% positive there was a scab (???) on it. I rinsed it off examined it closely in my hand (yeah, we all know bulimia is disgusting) and that’s the only thing I can think of it being. More blood than usual, as well. I’ve only eaten ice cream today so there’s no chance of it being food. 

I’m sipping some honey vanilla chamomile tea now. Any other recommendations to heal my throat? Has this happened to anyone else?",0.5054222222222222,2.987643600000002,2.5055333333333323,89.46798888888891,93.0,5.017777777777779,18.944444444444443,6.691623216298621,0.3624311111111109,490,15,98,7,18,163,88,125,0.035,0.838,0.127,0.9237,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,0,0,9,2,1,0,4,1,8,10,4,1,1,16,17,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,10,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,4,12,1,13,12,3,12,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,1,6,64,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245573089960034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562714686180236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16068107994314124,0.2354566364041701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542686594869782,0.0,0.14820159881355152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919679071374266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778743403499904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321084589358612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262917376062944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929736151717986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039333946337284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349545589798736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259064289638489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572416085201091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526685068756064,0.29449234658427825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21782295652825973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25309156755338863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066172537190902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dainty_dragonfly,2019/05/14,"Good news and bad news So the good news is I'm starting to delete all the thinspo from my phone (got a good 3000 photos to delete so it's gonna take a while)

The bad news is that I have the world's most disgusting flesh prison and I don't need pictures of other people to remind me how much I hate existing whilst looking this god awful",2.1016666666666666,3.619701388888892,3.0205555555555565,94.78000000000002,76.77777777777777,5.911111111111111,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.020683333333333387,268,6,61,2,6,85,52,72,0.248,0.615,0.138,-0.884,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,6,1,4,1,1,1,1,10,12,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,5,3,5,10,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4450832992833978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6706588567022422,0.21316861178912289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631434701691475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22381830664583027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593042212723236,0.19762882437823368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847785358793851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886515030066156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003975993938416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_G_T_S_W_,2019/05/14,My nose bleeds every time I purge? I’m wondering why this is happening.  Any ideas why?,0.2433333333333323,2.497315294117648,1.8905882352941177,91.60098039215687,101.94117647058823,6.972549019607843,17.43137254901961,7.793537801064563,1.1818784313725494,68,2,14,2,3,22,15,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404038314534241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978535039704082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126141091379939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.399077909840198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613873323312976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6379886078880772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38337434382933694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,donout_disturb,2019/05/14,"I feel so freaking dumb. (Tw numbers) I've been restricting everyday for almost 2 weeks under 1000 calories but today I ate almost 1300. I am so mad at myself because now I feel like I fucked up and I'm legit panicking. I also feel very fucking stupid, why am I so worried about numbers.",0.8072368421052651,3.3596887368421093,3.1291008771929825,85.31891447368422,91.4561403508772,4.955263157894739,24.668859649122812,6.6274283507984215,1.3154228070175442,226,10,40,3,8,77,42,57,0.429,0.526,0.045,-0.983,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,5,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,8,10,6,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,3,8,1,5,8,0,7,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,5,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5077248680732241,0.0,0.0,0.20273887403972746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454269312887264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845601324820923,0.1811138646464434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4687480476079472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385646851048375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403061570283413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091795413152383,0.0,0.0,0.2033574705581284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228761263543078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574606237144456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanillacokezerobunny,2019/05/14,"Anyone watched (or watches) Gilmore Girls? Rewatching it since discovering an excellent podcast (which oof I’m late to the game in), Gilmore Guys, I’ve become hyper focused on all the food that they eat. The guys mention it in their podcast, but they just eat so much, and they eat so much junk. Unhealthy, excessive amounts. Yet they never gain weight. They’re still so thin. 

Why is it that shows thinks it’s cool to like romanticise woman and girls eating so much? I know that part of it is about how people (more specifically men but I don’t want to call out all men because I know that isn’t the case and don’t want to alienate male ED sufferers especially). But this show really does a lot in showing strong woman, but then things like this really detracts from it. How can they think it was okay to show a character (who was played by someone who was originally a model) like Rory eating a crazy amount like that?",5.3588446969696975,6.469675073863634,5.349318181818184,82.83356060606064,68.14772727272728,8.593939393939394,28.87121212121212,8.841846274778883,2.1006189393939394,727,25,142,12,12,227,108,176,0.08199999999999999,0.731,0.18600000000000005,0.9488,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,6,3,10,10,0,0,9,2,9,7,0,3,3,23,16,15,0,2,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,9,18,4,7,0,4,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,5,9,9,14,13,10,12,0,1,2,0,20,6,0,2,10,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100302871135084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933746704072407,0.14373906374018622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289642029059304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389404392944474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6658732897433267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573763792349795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577354392914887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305269329106945,0.0,0.14681345339889965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543364112345766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064780895535807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870229083546361,0.0,0.1003787356680553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409384080846293,0.0,0.0902287526252092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675323757229002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766038690031676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027460940897854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039369559892612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646504317394538,0.1667881214201792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153530203843262,0.0,0.0,0.15848610930515475,0.0,0.0,0.11743899914704264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,e_liz,2019/05/14,"Questions about refeeding syndrome? TW: calorie/BMI numbers. Sorry for the double posts in one day guys. I know I Just posted a little while ago about ""saving up calories"" so I could eat 1800 today. This might be silly of me to ask, but does anyone know how underweight a person has to be or the degree of malnourishment they must be experiencing in order to be at risk for refeeding syndrome symptoms? I have been in a restriction phase for around 2 years and have lost a lot of weight, currently right between 16 /17 BMI from like, BMI 37. I haven't reached maintenance calories at all during those 2 years and 1800 is actually above my TDEE. This could be completely stupid and not apply to me/my situation at all, but is refeeding syndrome something that could be a possibility in my situation? I didn't know if amount of weight lost or the length of restriction phase factored into this at all.",5.699642857142859,7.215182059523808,5.954523809523812,77.30714285714286,67.69047619047619,8.457142857142857,30.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.537645238095238,718,28,127,12,12,229,102,168,0.132,0.843,0.026000000000000002,-0.9495,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,2,6,7,1,1,8,0,19,4,0,1,4,29,25,11,0,5,7,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,5,3,2,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,3,10,3,27,10,6,23,0,2,0,0,5,13,0,6,8,88,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.13922381409976345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646696105905555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975708818282876,0.0,0.0,0.1270051561736647,0.13337572953908705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958514155304767,0.0,0.0,0.34172741312846205,0.0,0.0,0.09200933903923976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485011042661527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598542801077133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126418268337373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23522052520953735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970059173554521,0.14299125396786946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31147890384436483,0.12129160305430232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134866568692726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667582503078563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457257599302088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083722611046455,0.2732738504183917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982130036697334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183806545844073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32073060096307626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983313276026507,0.0,0.15970563450602834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482871325532937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13523299625770044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474634417246765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837475913986874
EDAnonymous,stupidthrowawaynya,2019/05/14,"all my safe foods are becoming fear foods, i’m even scared of water now. idk what to do. the only safe food i have now is egg in a cloud and turkey bacon. i’m now scared of smoothies, halo top, everything. fuck man, even water. water is freaking me out now because of water weight. on my bad days i have a hard time drinking it. just, what the fuck? it’s water. 

can anyone give me more safe food ideas? under 100 calories preferred.",0.2229310344827589,2.6238284482758623,1.8857758620689682,94.45556034482763,92.10344827586206,3.8195402298850576,16.445402298850574,5.46131890053228,-0.5811908045977008,333,8,68,2,12,108,59,87,0.247,0.6509999999999999,0.102,-0.932,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,7,10,2,3,4,0,7,14,0,0,1,9,12,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,12,3,2,1,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,6,3,8,12,2,11,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,0,6,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518119468104613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559923313731078,0.09169815207777393,0.16613344259653268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701217605934967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473599851231195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987096023603164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519298092586388,0.0,0.0,0.16927081004943995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7275817439006995,0.0,0.0,0.2781323974978843,0.0,0.14430210377765354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347519416524862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981238238176435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440557514155322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012048718605404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771447511463036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317806069885026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shinywetmeat,2019/05/14,How can I wear gloves 24/7 without looking like Willy Wonka? My fingies are so cold :(,2.293125,5.122662062500002,2.2800000000000007,92.965,84.625,3.2,26.75,3.1291,0.4419749999999998,67,3,12,0,2,20,16,16,0.27399999999999997,0.726,0.0,-0.6472,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35696846261132703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6135787901160298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7043398221176016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,morose_adipose,2019/05/14,"Conflicted/Relapsing So, here I am. Again. It’s familiar. The same old dance to a different song. I was doing so well. I was weight restored. I had learned coping skills that actually stuck with me this time. I was getting healthy. I had started to get my friends back. 

Then one tiny little setback and here I am again. Obsessed. Counting. Starving. Depressed and anxious. I can’t reach out this time because it’s failure and I’m not ready to be a failure again. 

I swear I didn’t mean for this to happen again. But at the same time, goddamn it feels comfortable. I missed the calm of hunger. The rush I get when my heart flutters. It makes my emotional pain quiet and honestly that’s all so fucking want. I just don’t want to feel anything anymore. Nothing good because good goes away. And nothing bad because then I’m reminded that I am a human with feelings and I fucking hate that so much. 

So I’m conflicted about this relapse. I am upset with myself for failing but I’m comforted by the fact that it has all come back so easily and it feels safe. 

Idk what the point of this was. I just have no one to talk to anymore.",0.4329150579150571,2.868538031531536,1.8197503217503241,93.31321621621623,96.61261261261262,4.69930501930502,24.360875160875157,6.474141703775902,0.9759761647361644,881,40,176,12,35,281,121,222,0.16399999999999998,0.693,0.14300000000000002,0.0603,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,19,19,3,2,9,0,17,6,1,1,3,33,40,18,0,2,5,0,5,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,17,12,2,2,6,2,0,3,5,10,1,2,8,7,22,9,19,31,5,22,0,3,0,2,3,5,2,0,14,122,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.13252582272754224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534206853548691,0.26936359319177705,0.0,0.0,0.1117557183699232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759301070585016,0.2088509034818651,0.11339127382999975,0.2483559018371197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698374666988975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169684117002854,0.0,0.0,0.14188703434172692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276203818579412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27466780021765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492239460262497,0.2510985621321301,0.2128570929563186,0.0,0.0,0.2278131222905227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009167089806075,0.0,0.0,0.13407905140708196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092925444993536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611201285834498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065070929563243,0.0,0.0,0.14793115937787046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983209966685512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26061659497167355,0.0,0.1425042153584322,0.0,0.18404959428690948,0.0,0.14450580364767332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837936224861632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612328420457583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915469474740852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375664839220221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020229221232002,0.0,0.0,0.1653735705348142,0.12210475836751222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jayrambling,2019/05/14,"EDs and tattoos I love tattoos and have quite a few, and I've always wanted a sternum/underboob and stomach tattoo. The thing is, I don't want it to get ruined from weight fluctuations. I feel like if I got that tattoo it would either motivate me to stay in shape or it'll trigger the fuck out of me to full on restrict for the rest of my life.  I'm so incredibly jealous of people with healthy relationships with their body and can decorate it the way they want without a second thought.",5.5418900343642665,5.949075989690727,6.286134020618558,78.7887199312715,67.45360824742268,8.940893470790376,32.66151202749141,8.841846274778883,2.636004810996563,389,16,75,6,6,128,71,97,0.149,0.7340000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.2994,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,2,1,5,2,0,7,0,6,6,2,2,0,21,16,8,0,5,4,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,8,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,2,9,2,14,12,4,7,0,1,0,2,4,5,1,2,1,54,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979921283502168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26430702797144295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031385931415395,0.16999038270247335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199794592188249,0.12431821672421695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19030907046277912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806999010869564,0.1162495677698379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147577188494031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496345831376935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25308741036482096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554675291892965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536213316696272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808234216061054,0.0,0.0,0.188904448503448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210443895883972,0.1888723623316388,0.0,0.2897570444564458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293737639602272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690317144951789,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hottNpopular69,2019/05/14,Why is white rice so damn good? It’s one of those cravings and I could just eat a whole ass bag pretty often. Fuck me.,-1.6950000000000005,0.2267852692307705,0.10653846153846304,105.87596153846157,100.15384615384615,2.6,10.346153846153848,3.1291,-2.1820461538461537,91,1,23,0,4,29,26,26,0.301,0.516,0.183,-0.6265,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062335304454176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39246748691347855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545858700441637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217036110798425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599034616819433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902083217840931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460942912925717,0.4282199688020675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitterfly,2019/05/14,Trader Joe’s recommendations? What foods are worth it to here from Trader Joe’s? I’m going to be near one so I’m looking to pick up some snacks/meals that are tasty (and hopefully low-cal lol)!,0.5857500000000009,2.9912160750000005,2.2800000000000007,92.965,88.25,5.2,15.5,6.742157984588678,-0.37665000000000015,153,3,34,2,5,50,32,40,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.643,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,4,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,6,7,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6094963678381655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864618711653775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5006330058029986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232730427274057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34155570374604033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waterdrinker68,2019/05/14,"I want to break up with food Food and I used to get along just fine, but recently we've developed a horrible terrible relationship. I crave food ravenously all the time. I never feel satisfied even when I'm full. I always want more. I restrict, end up looking at food videos, then give up and binge mindlessly, then know i can't let myself gain that weight and I purge. When i let myself digest things, i try to make sure it's not highly caloric. I'm terrified of this being a cycle for the rest of my life. I don't know how to make it go away. I want food so badly but won't allow myself to gain much weight. I hate how much i love food for how little it makes me feel better. I wish i had no desire to eat. Food is eating me away.",1.1058658008658,3.0422220974026004,2.8958181818181856,92.5870606060606,81.27272727272728,6.184588744588745,18.058874458874463,7.3011,0.13950874458874465,569,12,128,8,15,189,95,154,0.244,0.614,0.142,-0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,1,0,4,0,8,14,0,8,3,30,28,13,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,5,12,1,4,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,1,5,22,4,18,23,6,19,0,0,1,1,3,9,0,0,8,82,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661301984849253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17301327930681928,0.0,0.07687802028330958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143205141747982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188429563407642,0.0,0.0,0.08155031583789099,0.0,0.0,0.06081406892048428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311085413839808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7793544965945194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04810491247699748,0.08832585824003081,0.05232782792396417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090410298321787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728133265808632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012030252464173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883039930932677,0.06503465362702306,0.0,0.092282428196494,0.0,0.0,0.07731904722463251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310046219475513,0.0,0.1843805126937971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537010254634493,0.0,0.07101321538454275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909120572400758,0.09885311627038476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677874138140097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116993497955789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05368914306690318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251226407855681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952245236500312,0.0,0.0,0.16292305378713795,0.0,0.0,0.2242428765543184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588066097961292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clithub,2019/05/14,"DAE drink? Been going on a lot of dates and we usually go for drinks. I actually don't mind because I love getting drunk and I hate myself less lol. 

I only get Vodka Water with Lemon or lime but I feel like it's super boring. I also get Rum and Diet too when I want to mix things up.

What do you all get? I really wanna do beer but  I can't find one that isn't super carby.",-1.3708871851040527,0.6095231927710856,2.1382694414019703,93.17154435925522,94.18072289156626,4.463964950711938,12.364731653888281,6.1124844417494595,-0.8891831325301203,287,4,66,3,11,104,65,83,0.106,0.6920000000000001,0.20199999999999999,0.8842,0,0,4,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,2,3,6,1,0,1,1,6,7,0,0,1,15,16,8,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,6,0,2,6,0,2,3,2,0,1,1,1,12,4,7,15,3,7,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,4,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.2166783946901238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17756480325896595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353531385163054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350281009199263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226977656004283,0.15862496965981446,0.0,0.0,0.20293996078684792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4640256240979502,0.0,0.2523801807322525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21921790804640945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847722010681007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18876993141680204,0.20039919962014335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22419646649497726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045962293493514,0.16887094568752575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224410549670707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751309062506393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445449955920663,0.0,0.13096457274446902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oatmilkslut,2019/05/14,You guys ever like “wow I need to see a therapist*” *After I get skinny though,-2.461874999999999,-3.3648784374999963,1.145500000000002,92.54950000000002,145.875,3.78,9.45,5.6839178017228535,-0.7724600000000001,59,1,12,1,5,21,15,16,0.0,0.636,0.364,0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753226421293013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167807393147922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41084013577454903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027109776041491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076609944926473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33064082149971663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48175891020907397,0.0,0.0,0.4076608637368637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachelrayromano,2019/05/14,"I took a second job and now I don't have time/energy to binge I'm so damn tired and I haven't binged hard in two weeks, which is a small victory I thoroughly enjoy. I got so so small two years ago and then got into such a nasty cycle of binge and restrict, but the binge was winning out over the restrict part. Everyone in my family comments on my binges bc I cannot stop eating during family meals bc I saved all my calories for it and my hand keeps pushing food into my mouth even though my stomach is begging for a break omg. 

But now I'm working so much and I'm so so tired. I love being too tired to binge, but I don't love being tired, if that makes sense. I've saved a lot on groceries, but I feel like that money is hanging over me, waiting to drop and give me the ultimate binge. I just want to be normal, whatever that is...",3.215,3.7527323785310784,4.5625,88.62307203389831,72.67231638418079,7.707909604519775,24.3545197740113,7.793537801064563,1.014194350282486,649,17,146,8,12,216,101,177,0.13699999999999998,0.6629999999999999,0.201,0.9399,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,14,8,1,0,8,0,13,12,3,1,1,29,27,20,0,3,6,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,10,3,5,1,0,1,3,4,1,0,3,4,3,19,7,16,20,4,23,0,0,0,2,4,11,1,2,8,94,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235477495833022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123858153840288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116714677437417,0.0,0.0,0.13189305001989274,0.0,0.0,0.2602437532755314,0.0,0.06979183481886221,0.0986082632374714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669057530402392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241042122457164,0.0,0.0,0.22078951312813505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236472711619446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697292607793987,0.12268691297238912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743421479292698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734769833770453,0.2491539266623781,0.0,0.09213572649375194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146752410072443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13523954987947406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947243829097526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153987967448212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356132291048609,0.0,0.08048607950523166,0.6345781692680597,0.0,0.0,0.15335579239002975,0.0,0.0,0.2696694230143133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141334300435307,0.0,0.11071889513951713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004870800354958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888643724198897
EDAnonymous,thisisfine23,2019/05/14,"Salad dressing recipe Some people can eat plain lettuce, but I’m not one of them. And tbh the calories in salad dressing freak me out. Bolthouse has some great alternatives so I usually stuck with those. I tried the walden farms 0 cal dressing and it was straight up sad. Just bleh. Well here’s my recipe to make it edible:

2-4 tbsp Walden farms ranch
1-2 teaspoons cilantro paste, or to taste (7cal per tsp)
Salt and pepper to taste
Mix well 

If you don’t like cilantro there are other options like Italian herb paste, and dried herbs/seasonings; you can mix in basically anything and there’s tons of low cal options. The ratio of dressing to herbs/seasoning is up to you, taste as you go to tweak it. The pastes I use are in the refrigerated section with the tofu etc. and the brand is gourmet chef. It sounds weird but it works!",2.7923059006211157,5.21649895652174,2.9927600931677034,91.52839479813666,78.06832298136645,5.764130434782609,24.348214285714285,6.9077264865688965,0.8003071428571431,656,23,133,7,16,200,104,161,0.09,0.785,0.125,0.7371,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,4,1,1,7,9,0,0,7,0,9,6,0,2,0,21,14,12,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,9,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,2,5,10,5,18,12,5,14,0,2,0,0,5,9,0,6,6,75,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859189306257994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22206927539068474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420386299240412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333948685858795,0.0,0.0,0.2392692340780737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120534920769274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486490728808815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706077657832498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6215206161056994,0.15045680629875693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14734474713953766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18743866996902767,0.2390207835072415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39026047645489975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799573180746512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaybunnyrabbit,2019/05/14,"so much for not binging honestly I just wanna fucking die!!! I havent binged in literally for ever, like a really long fucking time. and ofc j had to ruin an okay day by eating 800 fucking calories of fucking fig newton bars????? I exersoze like 300 ish off but I still have ti eat today and like. idk I'm fucking disgusted with myself and!!! the idea of eating a fucking crumb right now is making me wanna bash my head in!!!!!! I might just take a nap so I dont fucking RIP my thighs open with something and fucking bleed to death ahah",0.5711481975967985,3.0230889252336475,2.719686248331108,89.17656542056076,89.65420560747661,4.926301735647531,21.66154873164219,6.5431188927421005,0.6498950600801066,413,15,81,5,14,139,75,107,0.187,0.74,0.07200000000000001,-0.9437,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,7,15,9,0,5,1,6,15,2,1,1,17,17,7,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,2,0,0,3,10,0,0,1,0,10,5,14,15,1,12,0,1,0,8,0,5,8,1,10,49,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07239805962444315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650758781847348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156724181951013,0.0,0.0,0.3446083353641816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015451014171893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8302564364795728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521058472752825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672725717566105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645328935851901,0.0,0.0,0.0993460825269868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493405599882856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908953848488167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252361404608649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191627959543369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586895873499453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642281074235128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965054347423479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440513713281635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545938929759446,0.0,0.1064088344562679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlesmol,2019/05/14,Pain meds and starving I just took something they gave me two years ago for my wisdom teeth that had TEC on one side and just a line on the other and google says it’s ratio-Oxycocet I guess?? Anyway I’ve been restricting a lot lately and I just took it without thinking because I was upset and my head hurt a lot and now I’m regretting it because could I die from that? Google’s not giving me any answers about it. Has anyone else taken that while restricting before?,2.481903073286052,4.698120500000002,3.4216312056737586,89.13388888888889,78.04255319148936,5.879905437352246,22.14657210401891,6.937597516519254,0.6730132387706855,373,11,73,4,9,119,65,94,0.266,0.701,0.034,-0.9702,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,4,0,5,3,2,0,0,20,13,7,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,6,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,7,1,10,1,6,5,2,10,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,3,5,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872103402644198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943474165165078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330870839998622,0.1950213252147388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23205364238757775,0.0,0.16196158518670953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519674967949183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753831300991856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15900097878055733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182587260632001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20967613298548046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533924763270766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037582070653674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147068584583504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236330582260212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114199545618172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897633522589955,0.0,0.20253050864427732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136251654362054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652965149547648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195937344038042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229397320178488,0.0,0.0,0.1859302340745765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18347673584897545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256989240920335
EDAnonymous,thoughtfulfox,2019/05/14,"I Just Want To Be Comfortable I want my body to feel normal. I want to feel normal in my body. I  want to enjoy appropriate amounts of food. I want my weight to stay in a small, healthy range without yoyoing. I want to stop binge eating thousands of calories in one sitting. I want to stop feeling like restriction means being good and eating means being bad. I want to not live in shame. 

I want to recover. I know I'm getting better, but there's so many bad days still. I'm still getting past the damage of heavy restriction from last year (hello hair breaking off!) and still trying to reduce the amount of binge eating. EDs feel so isolating and lonely. Recovery is so hard.

Like damn. I'm so tired of spending my whole life feeling fucking uncomfortable in my skin.",2.208481717011125,4.876263202702702,3.11340222575517,88.24717806041336,82.51351351351352,5.644515103338633,23.570747217806037,7.048011613610866,1.0357586645468992,606,22,114,8,17,192,82,148,0.218,0.602,0.18,-0.961,0,2,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,9,13,2,1,3,0,4,12,4,0,0,30,27,8,0,11,4,0,9,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,4,8,0,1,0,2,7,0,2,0,10,15,6,23,24,3,19,0,2,0,1,1,7,2,0,11,62,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796028502401126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425106829585483,0.0,0.23674688300731986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872778627337355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32713816010804003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694208643809188,0.07613246903593539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288629031489403,0.0,0.0,0.09852074629911002,0.11135515591990536,0.0,0.0,0.08938449760211023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954643326436508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058567192390536475,0.0868674498497107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752723954990782,0.10412785097576327,0.0,0.09410182834236898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804360659404376,0.0,0.2321684058888601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20882876354565671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221348952071323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173157325910484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358770933521553,0.2553169279598514,0.1781918681358694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224846712550212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723529319038112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5657111027721669,0.0,0.0,0.12977157215790858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118979785915628,0.0,0.1027281114657074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862654009779584
EDAnonymous,memedisaster_96,2019/05/14,"I’m so much meaner when I’m restricting heavily My entire personality changes and I’m more angry and resentful. Honestly, maybe this is who I need to be since being a considerate person and pushover has fucked me up and is probably part of why I developed an ED in the first place.

Can’t wait until I finally become underweight, maybe I’ll be the bitter bitch I was meant to be by then.",5.2323376623376605,5.9500714545454585,6.966649350649352,72.54425974025976,68.22077922077922,11.354805194805195,30.984415584415583,11.20814326018867,3.7285812987012994,310,12,59,10,5,108,59,77,0.24100000000000002,0.69,0.069,-0.9399,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,4,0,4,0,9,1,0,0,0,9,16,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,1,6,1,7,10,3,8,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,5,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587436142576624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478369463700057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566420511301392,0.0,0.1992782640166457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658788455231032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707310633915906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222259732321096,0.17371549078912255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537021749456616,0.0,0.0,0.4091281404184649,0.244772509667377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25259323119228744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19379865774914054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140106456400226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Auredious,2019/05/14,"Exam period blues/bingeing Exam season is upon me- and I am just bingeing. Last couple of semesters were awful- massive BP cycle. I couldn't focus on my exams and I couldn't focus on food. Right now, I know i'd rather focus on exams. My girlfriend broke up with me recently -so it's not as though anyone will touch me. 2 weeks and then it's summer break woooo",0.06454337899543461,2.3716621095890424,2.1386643835616432,90.56452625570778,99.13698630136986,3.5292237442922367,14.302511415525114,5.46131890053228,-0.6358118721461183,286,6,53,2,12,95,54,73,0.08800000000000001,0.912,0.0,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,10,7,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,9,0,8,3,0,15,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,8,35,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560929105131597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052524484111132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428750952030862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128330397583166,0.2985454244948563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616310719559283,0.0,0.0,0.3127784236981744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598421304035785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29378640539653794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PhoneWalletSanity,2019/05/14,"Ramadan is so detrimental to any attempt at recovery Just as a preamble: I'm not religious but I put up an act for my parents because it would be too much of a hassle to defy them rn. 

I conveniently decided to recover a few days before Ramadan started and now that I'm more than a week in, I am beyond frustrated. How can I try to eat normally if the whole month is about messing up not only your eating schedule but what you eat as well?

I tried eating above me TDEE to kick my metabolism back into life (idk if it's pseudoscience but I haven't been losing weight for the past few months) but that turned into eating whatever and basically whenever so full disclosure, I broke my fast twice. I just got so scared of being hungry because no matter how much food I consumed, I still ended up hungry. This triggered restricting because *clearly I'm destined to balloon if I follow my natural hunger cues.*

Obviously I know on the surface that I'm supposed to be hungry but I can't justify that to my ED brain. I miss being able to eat at my own predetermined times because at least then, I wasn't eating based on ravenous hunger. 
And it was technically a longer fast than Ramadan! I comfortably do anywhere from 18-6 to 20-4 IF as long as I get protein but the only difference is there's a sleep cycle during the fasting period and there's no urgency to break my fast at any point. I like <6 hours between my first and last meal, not >16 hours. 

I know you're not supposed to fast if you have a medical condition and anorexia 100% counts but I don't feel comfortable telling my parents I can't fast because of my mental health. While my mum has straight up told me I shouldn't be fasting since my BP keeps getting super low, it would feel like I'm just not strong enough to overcome my demons for a measly month. 

Absolutely can't wait for this whole ordeal to be over.",4.098477088948787,5.564841010781668,5.28962938005391,80.73827156334234,71.50673854447439,8.534501347708893,29.692048517520213,9.04235418022936,2.5256291105121296,1489,61,285,30,28,494,201,371,0.115,0.8109999999999999,0.075,-0.9416,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,3,1,5,17,14,1,1,14,0,25,17,2,3,2,46,44,29,0,9,20,3,3,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,11,8,12,3,5,0,0,3,14,7,1,2,5,3,41,7,45,30,11,52,4,4,0,0,9,20,0,5,30,191,52,0,0.08918152843727922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129299500453683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857509052104299,0.0,0.27182115991172595,0.0,0.07588691217018348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955607983826552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057514708038276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931757158962075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6387847744902301,0.0,0.0,0.07898836371539279,0.0921483586009518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018572076599424,0.06371130173490422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585776253034479,0.10783865818252464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318733555326668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132661517895891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479579441254847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565168251966387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926864011876758,0.0,0.0,0.09802367146134186,0.07269484857642358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299155094637998,0.08713918012290678,0.0,0.0,0.07892284628795486,0.0,0.0997713185698056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984100752791503,0.08987400494543102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213551535471676,0.0,0.131117369519157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737896283715894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565314210026574,0.0,0.0,0.19805106681452075,0.0,0.0851338599936648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430537039067268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965206818290265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928626780914127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737718818998036,0.0,0.08924593427055715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312314484271403,0.0,0.0712204838104878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794858668916389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0520024664106314,0.0,0.0,0.08521677221226033,0.0,0.1210968075592784,0.0970038938191998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153604276551583,0.10859907599296248,0.08018490433611462,0.0,0.0,0.19913598328846716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12670399811758098,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,invisiblefatty4003,2019/05/14,"BED management First time posting 🙌

So I’m managing my BED by calorie counting and having nothing that takes under a half hour to cook in my house. I also have single serve/prepackaged portions of food for lunch to prevent overeating.

But, I was hoping someone here might know of some self-help books that are actually worth reading as everything I’m doing at this point has simply been ideas I came up with. 

Also if any of you have suggestions that have worked that would be great. 
I’m down 35lbs and my only downfalls have been holidays. But, I’ve gotten better about not letting one meal ruin my day or week.",5.6483974358974365,6.851406264957267,5.645373931623932,80.63677884615387,67.54700854700855,7.901282051282053,30.009615384615394,8.07648339933343,2.1264538461538462,491,18,87,6,8,154,92,117,0.032,0.838,0.13,0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,3,5,4,0,0,1,0,15,4,0,0,0,16,23,10,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,4,1,2,4,1,1,1,1,0,3,5,0,8,3,16,14,3,14,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,5,5,61,13,5,0.0,0.0,0.18666030731134456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059308316493424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007599745348927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917036490412132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21877174476895625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335886365152644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190885905367514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270146722579407,0.23129482500804116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21088531593450333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821000397110782,0.0,0.0,0.18998279494456316,0.18837087671282504,0.2207098062674367,0.0,0.21593024067161995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512170829741864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19559531333170674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20291635185371484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353696172805864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961531995448242,0.1454759837180374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808200901270916,0.0,0.183192010752915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19133034833606025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19954528112598632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206972488543986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438176914832691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153608150497796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343214364938207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925308845870393,0.0,0.0,0.13587881918385245,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohh_hello_,2019/05/14,my apologies I’m sorry to anyone that i made worry. I’m okay now (i believe). I will continue to be okay,-2.1723913043478262,-0.4947622608695621,2.043804347826089,90.65092391304348,106.3913043478261,4.039130434782609,18.793478260869566,5.985473137389443,0.2024869565217391,80,3,17,1,4,30,16,23,0.183,0.652,0.165,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146576381311762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070074627846151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258105902656752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5037496449155355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570072646156581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DelicateBones,2019/05/14,“..Part of me just misses a thicker version of you..” Says the guy I’m hopelessly in love with and constantly seeking validation from. Annnndddd... emotionally charged binge initiated. 😭😭😭😭,3.279090909090911,6.442870242424245,5.22036363636364,69.39054545454547,89.0,8.700606060606061,36.90303030303031,8.841846274778883,4.811550303030304,150,10,23,5,5,51,29,33,0.19699999999999998,0.684,0.12,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,3,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399562713538191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579595577162971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031166404041548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674451889281631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408754785695608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237612431277294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gkelleyr,2019/05/14,Former ketoers- how is keto effecting ur current food rules Eg. I used to eat ten servings of fruit a day which was 100s of grams of sugar and so many carbs so overnight I stopped. A main premise of keto is ur body takes in all sugar the same so if I had leftover macros for sugar/carbs I would use them for halotop/sweets. Now I’m not keto so I eat more sweets but still don’t eat non low impact fruit cause I’m like WhY hAvE aLl tHaT SuGaR — then eats frozen yogurt.,0.025761381475668088,2.3537932244897988,1.4377551020408177,98.18142072213504,91.24489795918369,3.83171114599686,16.722135007849296,5.369823440869387,-0.7646712715855575,368,9,82,2,13,117,70,98,0.046,0.893,0.061,0.3376,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,7,3,0,0,3,0,7,11,1,5,2,14,12,9,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,10,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,6,6,2,8,9,5,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,8,44,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084658986156415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19279510800973715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103559331676254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7681582360829546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269387504656916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168908899175217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027416329367924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987841907451793,0.15690566838759767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141109111277949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241838787554829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934853789321105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331975516211866,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deadliftsandcoffee,2019/05/14,"I’m eloping and my ED/body dysmorphia is ruining everything I had one job: to get a simple, not too fancy dress before our courthouse wedding 

Instead I cried in the dressing room because of the way my body looked 

I’ve been “recovered” for years but this feeling of hating my body seems like it will never go away and I fucking hate it",4.224090909090911,5.74440534848485,5.112545454545458,81.9188181818182,71.27272727272728,7.704242424242422,31.381818181818186,8.238735603445708,2.4352218181818177,267,12,49,4,5,87,54,66,0.185,0.742,0.073,-0.8423,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,3,0,4,3,2,0,1,7,13,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,2,2,7,1,6,10,0,7,0,1,1,1,2,3,1,1,3,31,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18584216508934312,0.0,0.0,0.12057870112371412,0.0,0.1683155443958387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6591426857274768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21727699792810465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777232879521576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001499766796162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18286542569732,0.10334375629404303,0.0,0.11241584316272524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3905784661522212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962886764306216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663641674932208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610446546578486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255765048664804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403624107964632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800721657695926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700659081026586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737846535406325
EDAnonymous,mizerybiscuits,2019/05/14,"Recovery win also = recovery loss Made a goal to stop/reduce binges so I could reduce purging. Turns out not bingeing was relatively easy, but I still purge, and since I eat “regular” meals more often than binges happened I’m purging more than I was before",4.685624999999998,6.8454529791666685,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,71.29166666666666,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.5211916666666667,205,8,35,4,4,66,37,48,0.038,0.86,0.10099999999999999,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,7,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,4,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,21,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839895610575093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021812039708429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28353464862044303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633767041613865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140316923968398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33602339709246715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29375916682028824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835995157765173,0.2968964568220418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862688912471366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nuwamba,2019/05/14,"DAE restrict knowing that the problem isn't your weight but just your shitty bone structure. I'm here sitting around sipping my blue monster feeling a little skinner than usual, and then caught my reflection in the mirror across from me -- triggering myself. FML getting skinny doesn't matter if I have the bone structure of a line backer. If I get any thinner I'll just have less ass, less hips, less titties (legit them becoming negative integers) and a wide ass back and pot belly. Like fuck this honestly, I feel like I can't win...",7.134848484848487,7.766596979797982,6.816717171717173,75.57840909090909,64.05050505050505,9.024242424242424,35.69191919191919,8.841846274778883,3.2335979797979792,427,19,70,6,6,134,75,99,0.24100000000000002,0.653,0.105,-0.9504,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,1,5,6,1,0,6,0,5,8,6,1,0,17,13,7,0,3,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,4,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,4,11,4,6,12,3,10,0,0,1,3,3,5,3,2,5,45,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192975131630124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526178200300129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21820365008467246,0.0,0.0,0.31340459484983463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28696795450263857,0.2027272364436186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623432404399499,0.2965189926092525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559540260541257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27727396382173675,0.2844147430623077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715320998187948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125354806927089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455586364879176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Quesokinesis,2019/05/14,"God: ""Haha, watch this: vomiting makes humans feel better. This'll go to shit so quickly. It'll be funny."" am I relapsing, or do I just have a mild stomach flu? who knows!

god is a douchebag, and I'm gonna vape on her grave",-0.8401552795031044,1.2988451086956552,1.3380745341614926,97.17369565217396,97.91304347826087,4.367701863354037,19.614906832298136,6.1826913282559595,0.055481987577639995,169,6,38,2,7,56,42,46,0.251,0.613,0.136,-0.7901,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,1,6,4,2,1,0,6,12,3,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,9,0,3,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,1,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4973575940009594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843437539859605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31959949605263765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090557849520906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753765525072098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772496695513107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,camaradaries,2019/05/14,"[vent] i keep wanting to fast but all i do is eat and eat aand eat and eat and eat and eat and eat like a fucking lardass. i used to starve myself for weeks on end, now i can't even hold off eating for a day. what the hell happened to me. i'm losing my fucking mind i have no right to act like this i'm so fucking fat as is. i'm just anticipating getting triggered the fuck out of getting my period again fun fun fun. this wouldn't be happening if you stuck to starving yourself for once you fucking dipshit",1.883611111111112,3.3474860648148166,3.5122222222222237,91.255,77.24074074074073,5.911111111111111,25.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,0.7755666666666667,397,15,89,3,9,132,69,108,0.239,0.614,0.147,-0.9265,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,5,12,6,0,4,0,7,14,1,2,1,17,23,9,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,6,9,2,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,1,0,11,5,13,20,1,12,1,1,0,5,2,4,6,1,9,52,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639032263107551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8111298215296339,0.0,0.0,0.08776209520287924,0.0,0.0,0.06544634501334665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580238858570384,0.10353823563172132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524545993967228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807350365899977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968182737574178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085354281283494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100050106590046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552493070537762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462016520882576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557976708633583,0.0,0.0,0.05844436206980767,0.0,0.07948199836428553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,External_Interaction,2019/05/14,"Is recovery failure? I've done a lot since recovering. Graduated uni. Made friends. Have had grad offers and job offers. Got a well paying job. All with a healthy BMI. Got a boyfriend. 

But I don't look as beautiful. I don't feel as beautiful. My stomach is soft. My thighs touch just a little at the top. Am I a failure to you? Would you look at me in disgust? Am I a worthless fatass lard piece of shit?

Is this who I really am?",-1.0710227272727266,0.8023153068181834,1.5731818181818191,93.57977272727274,106.1590909090909,4.927272727272729,20.272727272727273,6.6274283507984215,0.6044863636363638,329,13,72,6,16,112,61,88,0.253,0.648,0.099,-0.9503,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,2,5,2,0,8,0,12,3,3,1,1,9,18,4,0,1,2,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,5,5,10,2,8,12,3,5,0,1,2,0,6,5,1,1,0,47,12,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460209063758269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121557535180818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18573866558887128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845525637674658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771357945740335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24095202682585176,0.0,0.0,0.4037644328419774,0.0,0.0,0.20438632980628213,0.0,0.22747991281590035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401155491685395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24677541191238414,0.19886802596297168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21615571172511047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077898339019118,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,G0thGirlClique69,2019/05/14,"I’m having a complete mental breakdown I had wondered what triggered me this time and made me relapse on my ED and I realized it’s because my life is really REALLY unmanageable right now. I work overnights, almost every night, and I barely sleep during the day. That, plus managing my sobriety, school, recovering from cancer, and losing friends from a breakup, and getting attention from band dudes has caused me to spiral. Oh yeah and it’s finals right now. I didn’t work last night because they double booked and sent me home, but I had taken caffeine pills and I forgot how strong they were so I stayed up all night in bed having a panic attack, wondering how I’m going to make it through this week while keeping up the illusion that I’m perfect. The perfect daughter, employee, student, friend, lover, sponsee, ect. And I realized last night that I can’t. I just can’t. I overbooked myself this week and I just can’t do it. I’m going to have to let someone down and cancel something and that terrifies me. I don’t want people to be angry with me but I can’t keep up with this pressure. I feel like I’m drowning, l feel so lost. The only thing I can control is my food and even then I’m still consuming a whopping 600 calories a day and not exercising because I just don’t have the time. I also blew like $500 on random shit this week and now I’m scared I won’t have money to go on this trip I’ve been planning because I have to pay my mom rent or else I’ll let her down TOO. I’m sorry for the rant, I just don’t know who else to talk to.",2.1577378873854194,4.128776844936708,3.6710475774770863,88.15094936708863,78.01898734177216,6.2573548668703625,24.5041466608468,7.237678284180719,1.0639920558707991,1217,43,248,15,29,402,168,316,0.145,0.745,0.11,-0.8869,2,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,2,9,15,15,2,3,11,1,27,8,2,7,3,50,53,26,1,1,8,2,2,2,3,1,4,0,3,0,17,18,1,4,8,3,3,5,10,7,0,0,10,2,37,8,26,39,2,37,0,2,0,1,12,11,1,5,22,156,54,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467943696354017,0.0,0.0,0.08359878556131717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892676035461892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549009216736092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738904578640134,0.0,0.0,0.10960582184203957,0.0,0.11724795412849467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483637636512652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465572020833595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904618528201238,0.0,0.08807754688384017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571483541106673,0.07468177577918544,0.0,0.11451597433981407,0.0,0.0,0.12640743904787258,0.0,0.16153118301544156,0.0,0.05461664971315501,0.0,0.17823360447896108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485986748926526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858358767272688,0.0,0.0,0.057451202956020374,0.17042440615248133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137938248049232,0.07383809081997493,0.10214370973926797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695098106183913,0.11411528206567273,0.0,0.0,0.09891612851019507,0.06977974706529455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534944512105207,0.0,0.0,0.12243332687894748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39240631514506197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950565493252088,0.0,0.12265250319463485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0724733000166878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393909439854204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785493018567061,0.0,0.0,0.10466050529665284,0.10579776458407604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730647843019356,0.0,0.0,0.10461322671023417,0.0,0.08857448007861603,0.08047825242994146,0.0,0.11702143101311915,0.0,0.11142331185712387,0.08348396686275855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084023468207221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945022326675081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191358301240755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061659062111688825,0.0,0.2515615861142083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267334195675241,0.15220942613791433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SecretFinn,2019/05/14,"*Buys binge food for the next day* \*Roommate finds its hiding place (!?!) and eats it in the middle of the night\*

Is this the universe telling me to recover? Or just the universe wanting me to be broke?",1.7057894736842132,4.444468526315792,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,87.42105263157896,5.145263157894737,23.389473684210525,6.742157984588678,0.7944042105263165,156,6,31,2,5,47,31,38,0.142,0.858,0.0,-0.7289,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22836070958139745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623255669173559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236346125237309,0.0,0.4281706948156364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37658195222200186,0.3322923197227221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699518492496278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094929136275609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20885324206310307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatfatfat159,2019/05/14,"Fuck the scale I went out of town over the weekend at ate a lot/ really bad. My weight was like 1.6 lbs down yesterday which was surprising and I was super happy

I still ate a lot yesterday but way less than when out of town.. & the scale is up 3 lbs

Now I’m upset and miserable. The funny thing is.. I was prepared for the scale to be up.. so If it was up yesterday I would have accepted it. But the false hope from yesterday has fucked with me and now I’m wallowing in self pity",1.5066666666666677,3.1480073137254934,3.4064705882352966,90.82578431372549,78.80392156862746,8.062745098039215,21.13725490196079,8.841846274778883,1.2097372549019614,374,10,87,9,9,126,67,102,0.177,0.65,0.17300000000000001,-0.5341,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,12,2,2,8,0,11,5,0,0,0,14,19,8,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,6,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,0,0,8,1,7,6,16,9,3,22,0,2,0,2,1,11,2,4,10,60,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26598236410467496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049693120183727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4538929477605768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26132282574149823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438215087440705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993133172142392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41740430371441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726366314462567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560938821912517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604424685172228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630890005070877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948541777346888,0.0,0.2989339993601409,0.0,0.22756660024423755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438515266309784,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,srirachahotsex,2019/05/14,"i feel like i’m enormous when i’m not looking in a mirror and when i am, i’m satisfied and scared. my blood levels are all fucked up. my sugar levels are consistent with someone with diabetes- i’m assuming due to my mainly sour patch, soy milk and red bull diet. my lipoproteins are too high and i don’t even smoke cigarettes anymore (i heard that’s usually the cause but i might be wrong). i’ve also made myself anemic but won’t take the iron pills because they cause constipation. also, when i eat a normal sized meal, i don’t shit for a week. i’m bugging out but don’t want to stop! my ed wants me dead, people! call the police!",0.9100256410256408,3.264401746153851,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,85.38461538461539,5.620512820512822,19.43589743589744,7.0316486544052195,0.4219128205128211,497,14,103,7,15,165,87,130,0.152,0.8079999999999999,0.04,-0.9522,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,7,5,2,1,6,0,10,10,2,3,1,22,23,12,1,3,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,7,5,1,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,6,15,1,8,18,2,14,0,0,2,1,3,7,2,2,8,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31196779558684185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344026806984055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890256253968536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991710286993596,0.0,0.0,0.4007465378738713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958802172641013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883073642446022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862471070176833,0.1393459773602493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18032345275483785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608431484959666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529309470963916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637954830256686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845639643692936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20692052067797348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911106294442301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522526370031213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952821856392487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20021920954521955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526786310256242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307312988444653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466556604855371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21482343853186647,0.0,0.2300947502500137,0.0,0.15645983560534102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325995063561265,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pathetichuman7,2019/05/14,"A thought Sorry. I’ve made three posts here within a span of eight hours. All I want to say is the following (perhaps to keep myself accountable):

I’m not going to eat for the rest of the summer. Unless I am around other people and am obligated to, I will not eat for two months from this date. I live alone in a small apartment and am working. I will see family during the summer. 

Don’t know why I feel the need to say this on here. I’m just done with the waste of time that comes from binging and/or b/p, etc. 

I honestly cba at this point. 

I’m done looking in mirrors. 

I’m done standing on scales. 

I’m done eating for the sake of eating. 

I’m done. 

We’ll see how two months from now ends up.",0.9938775510204074,2.820816517006804,2.7131632653061217,94.31219387755104,81.10884353741497,5.560544217687075,18.663265306122447,6.5431188927421005,-0.13858367346938838,536,12,123,5,14,177,89,147,0.046,0.9209999999999999,0.032,-0.2023,0,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,10,0,13,4,0,2,1,18,32,4,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,5,5,4,1,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,7,6,9,1,25,22,3,26,0,0,3,0,3,12,0,0,9,77,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223385396036981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051534267742603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175145357798797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6043979557218853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834722770924095,0.0,0.0,0.10462083598435838,0.0,0.1317370079087175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135470087628434,0.0,0.059725920734268426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713132924627023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632615870788812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499206473563892,0.0,0.0,0.06491664070604859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043036951395831,0.0,0.09919254481166136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176968355989436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885673544463802,0.0,0.0,0.08758580257348715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189076878975908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166326169286553,0.0,0.11312801261390458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18787035978822286,0.0,0.0,0.18825552951465796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322276610604939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377549836721373,0.06887775937139147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23077562905762494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06967128581172713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658653307553564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599406209329333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poopybuttholeboy,2019/05/14,"Tiny rant: I love all ED subreddits but the r/Fasting subreddit makes me want to punch people... I have had a range of ED's for 12 years now (I seem to swing casually from Anorexia, to orthorexia, to bulimia and back again). This subreddit and others like it make feel like I'm not alone in the world and seem so positive, providing me with support regardless of where I am at - if I am in recovery or if I was starving myself.  But the r/fasting sub makes me so mad, I don't know why, I think it's because I see people on there who seem to be incomplete denial that they have eating disorders and I see them encouraging others to engage in disordered behaviour or telling people that their achievements aren't good enough and it pisses me off. I just saw a post by someone who was probably about size (166cm, 65kg, female) showing off her achievements after a four day and daily strength training, and there where comments from people were telling her she needs to fast for longer and the 1.5kg weigh loss is nothing/barely noticeable (trust me as someone with that body shape - 1 fucking kg is very noticeable).   
 I don't care where you are in your journey with an ED but I can't stand people who don't recognise or acknowledge the signs and symptoms, and instead tout it as a healthy life style, encouraging others into behaviour that can lead to serious illnesses.",9.009796437659034,7.216260221374051,8.598282442748097,72.30470101781172,61.290076335877856,12.244783715012725,39.39058524173028,11.038039088145766,4.2302279898218815,1086,46,202,23,12,348,158,262,0.111,0.731,0.158,0.9356,0,1,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,3,5,13,17,3,0,10,0,18,9,2,4,1,41,37,22,0,5,10,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,15,14,2,0,7,2,0,2,6,5,0,1,5,5,27,12,31,31,2,25,0,1,3,2,17,14,2,9,9,135,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317564926114924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978205705751338,0.0,0.07754915306688626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413073136798664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970428773537662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204322464641818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291599085369497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301728214815593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314472200826494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432378430730704,0.09088250325940736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760832349233033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670200241147956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991409999871248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985579761060122,0.12430175817932633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148166076987706,0.0,0.2547512304281508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432839550829863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28967050220201435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4409747127907994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183691424142333,0.0,0.1371594099431756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20274795141351212,0.3474355872856257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21557790747361186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443622044337256,0.0,0.1322252138237248,0.0,0.0,0.222383234714637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815143086879286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496579255538956,0.07503477059659547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479185384379792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192236286433675
EDAnonymous,Bomby57,2019/05/14,"GOAL: 30 days purge-free That's it. I've had enough of the pain in my teeth, the gastric reflux, the puffy face, the dry skin. I started purging 6 months ago and I've lost exactly zero pounds, too. 

I'm gonna try intuitive eating, no binge, and definitely 0 purge. 

I'm going on vacation for 2 of these 4 weeks so I hope that breaking the routine will help trigger a change... I feel exhausted and haven't had a proper enjoyable meal experience in months. I need a change! 

You guys are inspiring and I want to thank you all for the continuous support. Never give up 💖",2.0133971291866075,4.141600052631578,3.771116427432218,86.48433014354067,79.17543859649123,7.303349282296653,24.39872408293461,8.296473431620573,1.5668350877192978,442,16,92,9,11,148,85,114,0.113,0.72,0.16699999999999998,0.7208,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,2,8,0,0,9,0,5,7,3,1,3,13,18,5,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,3,2,8,5,9,13,2,14,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,8,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18576567260194188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44338144617373293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515132022744694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443609459263954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165354349607885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049936176533279,0.0,0.0,0.10596175867811428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20103270155713973,0.1190999422341756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075011187980268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404662039690167,0.0,0.0,0.20814414787242835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287636533265968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345436664813691,0.0,0.0,0.15538890923444354,0.1616285289435608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299066845940066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833034285288674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378105273683243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293819983245555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422800703958519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360616434566522,0.0,0.16809944713919778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Redrose12345678,2019/05/14,"Gained back all the weight I lost and I physically feel like shit I lost 15 lbs over a month and I just gained it all back in 2 weeks from monstrous binging. I’m bloated, I have heart burn, my heart is pounding, I feel disgusting. I’m so angry and upset with myself and just have to start all over again now. FUCKKKKK.",1.2557802197802204,3.5372258307692306,2.191428571428574,95.89,83.0,4.945054945054945,20.05494505494506,6.1826913282559595,-0.09719780219780194,249,7,55,2,7,78,44,65,0.252,0.6409999999999999,0.107,-0.8849,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,7,6,2,1,2,0,3,4,3,0,3,12,10,5,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,8,1,6,8,3,10,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,8,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543241301232725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23299259845778506,0.16459658598127608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460461711558875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125609677001798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030139050746857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390171870370267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365005360277729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307709707052245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848116125896665,0.2805630502346171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kakmanki,2019/05/14,All of my clothes are too big now What do?,-1.3580000000000003,0.05599120000000113,0.1100000000000012,112.085,87.0,4.0,20.0,3.1291,-1.1759999999999995,32,1,10,0,1,10,10,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitymctootieroll,2019/05/14,"will i be sent to inpatient/hospitalized if i dont recover by myself? tw: numbers


i recently weighed myself and according to a calculator, i have a bmi of 12.9 :/ soo my question is, if i dont help myself right now will i be hospitalized/forced into inpatient if my doctors find out? im a minor so i know i can be forced


also: uh im kinda scared, what are some health risks of weighing so little?",1.03777777777778,3.342263148148149,4.2360493827160495,80.72222222222226,84.18518518518519,7.550617283950618,25.049382716049386,8.515128840125781,2.159923456790123,309,13,61,8,9,112,53,81,0.177,0.823,0.0,-0.898,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,3,0,11,4,0,0,0,11,13,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,13,0,7,7,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,6,2,44,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18095223672684044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23160230782584101,0.0,0.0,0.5303858186656967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20681148038150493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405200110417043,0.0,0.0,0.15166753127988575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888322008998754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435496051452158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22678724646060794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534800669985319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22341951262536536,0.0,0.0,0.19323782827735686,0.0,0.0,0.22654100060460575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depressionNapsRUs,2019/05/14,"dysmorphia.. i tried looking on normalnudes yesterday after seeing a post about it here... it’s a mindfuck, i showed my so pictures i thought look like me and apparently i see myself completely differently to how i look... i also think i look about 20kg heavier than i am.. why! am! i! like! this! been stuck in a binge cycle for a while now and since seeing this i’m feeling kind of motivated to get myself together.. here’s hoping 🤞🏻",0.5684072398190061,3.055137152941178,3.2023529411764717,83.74904977375567,95.11764705882356,6.380090497737558,23.009049773755656,7.61054688173877,1.7135248868778277,338,14,64,8,13,117,60,85,0.026000000000000002,0.8,0.174,0.8877,3,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,2,0,8,17,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,13,4,10,14,0,7,0,0,7,0,0,2,0,1,6,43,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530542207060839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006683893102588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999614317264271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677234927680334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999318415089656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900930904612624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993028513861207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870066148593196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6428763574781675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832983638439255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575382756308677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831948253845454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226347491266818,0.0,0.15194199051319932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12994099795287184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269937541659613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cerareece,2019/05/14,"even if i get skinny again I'm fucked I've been through it all, BED, anorexia, bulimia. Been underweight and obese and everything in between.

I'm losing weight now just bc of my job but I will have loose skin and horrid stretch marks and probably ugly droopy tits for the rest of my life because of all the fucking yo yo for 16 years.

Even if I lose enough to look good under clothes I will always be disgusting. I'm too old for snapback and it wouldn't happen Any way. Will never be able to afford a boob job or tummy tuck. It's so hopeless and I hate it. I wish I never learned how to restrict.",1.260037523452155,3.492004772357728,2.5861788617886208,93.37300187617262,82.57723577235772,5.410631644777986,22.46966854283928,6.67199483983844,0.5221724828017518,469,16,100,5,13,151,85,123,0.298,0.6509999999999999,0.051,-0.9892,3,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,4,0,3,0,9,9,4,1,4,20,19,12,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,4,6,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,3,9,1,13,11,4,10,0,3,1,4,0,3,4,3,6,62,13,3,0.17977648704424404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958843881491968,0.0,0.0,0.12225417598850875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959007787714617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857571684008892,0.0,0.237481348360586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157151450056387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324009307853705,0.09392579447974853,0.0,0.0,0.15078798789505593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897575377225898,0.0,0.0,0.17749206171511864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568008468487833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698144942170494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509669712519158,0.4022478079161078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27730941935479403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18864518149274007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19382945941771287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269820750903986,0.0,0.21891932915229728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673408786070355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577016345283693
EDAnonymous,SilentProtagonist16,2019/05/14,"I feel disgusting. I’ve recently been having more days where I eat over maintenance to gain as I know it’s what I have to do to get healthy but it just makes me feel so fat and gross. I ate 1800 calories yesterday and it’s made me wake up hating myself. When I’m restricting I feel so skinny and confident. Recovery is so hard. I’m still hanging onto my eating disorder and thinking of it as a friend and my safety net for not becoming out of control and fat. I still don’t want it to go away. I know that being 5’5 and 6 stone is bad, but I love it. I’m so sick of these battles. I’m not sure I’m strong enough.",1.0393358395990009,2.661763052631585,3.282875939849625,91.26661967418549,80.12781954887218,7.140100250626568,22.36152882205514,8.07648339933343,1.0212160401002506,478,15,111,9,12,164,83,133,0.254,0.596,0.15,-0.9549,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,9,9,3,0,1,0,8,9,4,3,1,25,27,16,0,1,5,0,4,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,9,8,6,2,6,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,3,4,14,4,15,23,2,14,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,6,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18847219432687,0.0,0.16749430143573815,0.0,0.2215491625048336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22499221475545086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293717027878465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299072858740775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105318786370475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727550339604534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042912150805292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498461738139527,0.0,0.10480627208231164,0.0,0.11400674668097185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797000011100209,0.19805295675807186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204912399456276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105114846875547,0.18981447475111968,0.1339034011637416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807028671390248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204020529081086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890650229231503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285376697707831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832026449731695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anathinmints,2019/05/14,I’m confused The are voices telling me I’m fat or I need to stop eating sounds like me. But I don’t hate myself I just feel bad when I here those things then I stop eating. I’m so confused with myself,-2.392666666666667,-1.0734498222222228,-0.004444444444445139,104.00000000000004,113.88888888888887,2.0,11.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.9356666666666664,158,3,38,0,9,52,31,45,0.34,0.608,0.052000000000000005,-0.9136,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,2,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,10,8,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,9,1,2,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528387865156765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6197129163848955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311291371079808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989681966688573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794064574376778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245342937682148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5063356208982897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646746098217545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20117755470911872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hon3yg1rl,2019/05/14,"Asian Diet Culture I’m not Asian but Asian diet culture is so fascinating?? In my culture people totally starve themselves thin but it would be taboo to be so open about it. I would just like to know peoples experiences with relatives or being pressured into dieting and just anything you would think would be interesting to share ! 

(I searched through this sub and reddit but couldn’t really find much so I decided to make my own post !)",5.008285714285716,7.481653400000006,5.387142857142859,76.79500000000003,71.25,8.571428571428571,31.42857142857143,9.23628265651192,3.1532321428571435,352,16,59,8,7,112,56,80,0.07,0.752,0.17800000000000002,0.903,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,1,1,24,14,9,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,9,5,3,5,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,1,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748123472345925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466311961444497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304419497258424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856387230623607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317782069795645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829851185742156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853443171055586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34958993275776257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414705277969009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16152072209227472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155451132708928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7164227315349216,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ibehapa,2019/05/14,"i feel like i've failed i feel like i don't belong here because im not underweight. i want to be underweight. i want collar bones and thighs that don't touch. at the height of my restricting phase, i wasn't even close to underweight. i feel like i've failed. i've been binging so much and i hate my body and every ounce of fat that oozes out of it but i can't stop. im torn between restricting so that i'll finally love myself, trying to eat so that i can have a social life and have energy to study and binging because just being alive is overwhelming. i need an escape but i can't find it.",1.75417748917749,3.408960579365079,3.393145743145745,91.13720779220779,78.12698412698413,7.121500721500722,20.978354978354982,8.00094639256281,0.779009523809524,467,12,105,8,11,155,71,126,0.115,0.695,0.191,0.8857,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,1,3,0,12,7,4,0,0,21,20,10,0,3,4,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,7,2,3,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,4,15,4,10,16,1,6,0,3,0,1,2,4,0,0,5,61,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319525891636564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113278867632256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19467603311762674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256601297702915,0.0,0.16029612535532267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28859248086208994,0.407749751744782,0.0,0.20841255947070048,0.17388754285741834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878351766341922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110111785248113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438112527913712,0.2788436124739658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171051121440034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985764277040186,0.14106998403278498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19393869284920032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905979607081186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916911096044495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22443197158026865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachycleo,2019/05/14,"DAE trigger themselves by looking at r/gonewild? Sometimes,  I get really curious and just look at the subreddit, and then I always end up feeling gross and ugly because of how perfect their bodies look.  I compare my body to the girls around my age on there,  and I feel so disgusting.  I want to be petite and have a flat stomach :(",5.808333333333334,6.493359317460321,6.285833333333333,78.04875,66.93650793650794,8.839682539682537,36.38492063492063,8.841846274778883,3.2757015873015884,259,13,46,4,4,84,50,63,0.19,0.68,0.13,-0.7426,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,1,0,3,0,2,3,3,2,1,13,9,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,8,1,9,8,0,8,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,0,3,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20207755776144626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619537294185792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804416349114027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5395216381247309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151003666450548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559290369416184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688343637809296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6118194112108127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558124355770808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24019306522904516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324411558874828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jem088,2019/05/14,"vicious cycle rn eating bc it makes you feel better when you're depressed/anxious and then making yourself more depressed/anxious because you ate too much 

:) Fml",3.5742857142857147,6.635050714285718,3.0297142857142885,83.31528571428574,95.42857142857142,2.24,30.6,3.1291,1.3184628571428574,132,7,17,0,5,39,24,28,0.08,0.732,0.188,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,4,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27884481978461984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045592814945293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680646468901317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312901344978669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106755791162901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362633660131176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ChubbieToad,2019/05/14,I’ve gone weeks without purging And my house is full of binge food. I’m so upset because as I type this I have sweets stuffed in my mouth. I feel out of control. How can I make this stop?? Mid binge can I stop?,-1.111666666666668,0.9194640652173902,0.4826086956521749,105.25768115942031,93.13043478260867,3.066666666666667,18.536231884057973,3.1291,-1.0979159420289857,161,5,41,0,6,51,34,46,0.18899999999999997,0.743,0.068,-0.6914,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,3,0,9,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,1,6,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,23,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19785127931951355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36402626667034216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16410937466843106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924642306809578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745034257358821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166490750494605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5427002863711422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26034576526730097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31286823632320193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imnotverycreative685,2019/05/14,"Starving but taking care of myself? I feel like when I’m heavily restricting I take way better care of myself. I brush my teeth for longer, I shower more, I add lotion, I keep my nails painted. But it’s more than that. I also try way harder in school, I spend more time studying and working on my assignments, I spend far less time on my phone. I just take better care of myself and I’m more regimented.

But when I’m binging/not calorie restricting/tracking—everything slips. My grades fall, I stop showering as often, I don’t do my laundry enough, I don’t take care of my skin, ect. 

Does anyone else do this?",1.7913668150031796,4.199644652892562,3.2532231404958694,88.31661792752703,81.80991735537191,6.037126509853784,21.704386522568345,7.321109707123232,0.8681883026064843,477,15,94,7,13,156,71,121,0.064,0.7090000000000001,0.22699999999999998,0.9733,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,5,7,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,12,17,9,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,23,7,10,17,6,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,6,56,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236267789446252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698870590438188,0.15677764198743815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706512286905186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6240188146621943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390077827935226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782088573884096,0.0,0.0,0.15810105413393194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751623681852349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736685567389398,0.10931094289105793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600302547777554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475334581627498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485509392071484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792387642292907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601803032043048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784436506935305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388428626431367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429056948317885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113936814868794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OkWorking7,2019/05/14,"I AM SO SICK OF BEING COLD! :'( I've been in a good restrict pattern since the beginning of this month and I am just slightly underweight. I'm not sure if this has made my circulation bad or if I'm just in rooms that aren't heated properly but waaaahhhhhh I'm so sick of being cold all the time!!

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My little nose is constantly chilled and my hands get so cold. I'm trying to do an assignment and the cold/cold in my hands is just so distracting. It surpasses uncomfortable and becomes downright painful and gets into my core. I put on more jackets etc but then I'm so overloaded with clothes that it affects my mobility and I knock things over. I just want to do my assignment and not be cold. y it like this.",2.7195032051282046,4.761700020833338,4.217500000000005,84.5544230769231,76.56944444444444,8.041880341880344,27.743589743589745,8.841846274778883,2.228728205128206,569,24,117,13,13,189,84,144,0.18600000000000005,0.7709999999999999,0.043,-0.9712,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,5,0,12,6,3,2,2,26,22,18,0,3,11,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,9,9,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,7,12,3,12,17,3,14,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,3,6,77,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530595136963507,0.2837979939591002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19501080305321372,0.0,0.25794597025386345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252392744545517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26047841242231634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440483659275621,0.0,0.0,0.19589699640617805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410442412052316,0.2340860282819461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099780610471426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642341245105445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24852170597740664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23478985220644386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932012233438843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22012523192416467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516526178895673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618928877372158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857024899586986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775829744239415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837979939591002,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadgab_,2019/05/14,"When you’re a skinny little bulimic and you order your binge food from noodles... ...and the man gives you 3 forks in the togo bag

 like haha yes thanks for believing in me that I’m not gonna ravish through all this food all by myself in 20 minutes",2.8614705882352967,4.245117058823531,4.190343137254903,87.72904411764708,74.49019607843138,6.668627450980392,22.553921568627448,7.1686216300943375,0.7224862745098037,194,5,40,2,4,64,43,51,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,0,2,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,7,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35400211882333743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7598773271316209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014146460854534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350498697823536,0.3149165599858971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28927830531260496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babyybyebyebye,2019/05/14,"Nearly passed out the other day vs. my fear of bringing a snack. Long time lurker, first time poster. 👀 Just so frustrated at the moment that I gotta vent.

I was at a theme park with friends last week and I blacked out on an attraction; I didn’t actually lose consciousness, but my vision was completely black for the better part of a minute and I was drenched in sweat. All I could think about was what a horrible ordeal it would be if I passed out and they had to shut down the attraction to get me off. I know it was a combo of the heat, the rides we’d already ridden, and the fact that I’d restricted super heavy the day before in anticipation of theme park food. My wife was very upset and is now concerned that I’m not eating enough, which I’m definitely not but?????

I’m restricting insanely heavy this week because my mom is coming to visit this weekend and we’ll be eating soooo much. Because of last week I’m paranoid I’m going to black out at work, and THAT would be such a nightmare. I put a Clif bar and a mini beef jerky stick in my work bag just in case, but now I’m afraid I’m going to eat them just because I’m hungry, and not because I feel faint. Literally is it even worth bringing them at all. 🙃🙃🙃",3.8272634271099757,4.452293418972332,4.905817251801906,86.3973959544292,71.33201581027667,8.008277144850036,25.554289700069752,8.124751697461798,1.2904440362706353,957,27,209,13,17,315,138,253,0.083,0.795,0.122,0.8709,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,2,0,3,6,9,10,1,3,17,0,19,8,1,0,3,38,37,14,0,4,11,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,12,15,6,2,4,2,1,11,4,5,0,1,8,4,21,5,29,20,5,43,0,1,3,0,9,17,0,1,15,126,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.13528546542954167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298457323535314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33803669937124986,0.0,0.11796617178283428,0.0,0.0,0.1226093103702316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941974997932647,0.14535369273712714,0.0,0.0,0.11068688795340176,0.0,0.0,0.17881317698807678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255674225434456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143244583148254,0.0,0.09156555583896003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600026999584313,0.0700968317460418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792085868045235,0.16763514698636467,0.0,0.10710723914523697,0.0,0.07242983618313892,0.0,0.1575762561116615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618887721021374,0.22600822064447895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268553004128115,0.0,0.15509447108627974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623648805954305,0.0,0.0,0.101910946789633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15012564700077785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936410078503658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883020242861485,0.0,0.0,0.1616756225887899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438645252420634,0.0,0.0,0.33360824158780444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20185243618198992,0.0,0.0,0.19696130966550485,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,totallymyname5,2019/05/14,"Slightly tmi and possibly triggering?? Im not sure but watch out lads I find it like, so much easier to restrict the week before my period?? And im not entirely sure why but like its a warning sign for me now, like eating barely anything? You finna be bleedin next week. Its strange? Does anyone else get this? Im not sure whAt the fuck my bodies doing",0.6408571428571435,3.155854228571428,2.4800000000000004,89.75000000000004,92.42857142857142,5.6571428571428575,19.857142857142858,7.1686216300943375,0.8225428571428575,276,9,54,5,10,91,53,70,0.24600000000000002,0.598,0.156,-0.7107,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,3,0,2,3,1,1,3,15,4,5,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,5,6,3,3,1,6,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,8,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715478254516085,0.17167466789809202,0.13787928768184374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257262029452947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861101622936087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466240425037501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17144537180174108,0.13996643801680425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531375689110544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489717837128106,0.08753790494400268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5429479159944762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455692467611262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231684516069768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17819121449757655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18888733215232087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4737413804362093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687968391626931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118771981791196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,judepalace,2019/05/14,"Getting worse? DAE have a few days or a week where they don’t restrict or purge as much as they should, and it feels like a week of binging?? I haven’t really been restricting as much as I should and it makes me feel so fucking awful I feel like I’m gaining back every bit of weight I’ve lost with everything that I eat, even if I’m purging most of it...",3.2747368421052627,3.6058075263157896,4.311684210526316,91.22278947368423,72.42105263157895,7.658947368421052,25.72631578947368,7.554174236665415,0.9988084210526318,276,8,65,3,5,90,50,76,0.19,0.711,0.099,-0.8014,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,2,4,4,1,0,3,1,6,3,0,1,0,15,15,10,0,3,3,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,4,7,2,8,11,5,5,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,4,6,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808027618544946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386409097644993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409708385121631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236695580266989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437496612804093,0.0,0.18416937584686716,0.0,0.196452328524396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315731865424357,0.3123178725794363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020805989790816,0.11420293416873345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135815986584429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386140510968306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14590883736483148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213738912196823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400327341621268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35067537596767423,0.2661806575491213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22275931215141093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stegasaurus-,2019/05/14,"hey yall having the worst night of my life and if you think i’m gonna do that vaguebooking thing
where i don’t tell the whole story until someone asks bc i need vALidAtIOn then ya damn straight. i want to kill my self rn, please send help. this is all my fault and i don’t know what to do.",0.6091145833333336,2.2804850156250005,2.0293750000000017,99.51145833333337,81.65625,5.5166666666666675,16.916666666666664,6.42735559955562,-0.6396583333333337,227,4,58,2,6,73,50,64,0.205,0.677,0.11800000000000001,-0.8402,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,1,8,13,5,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,10,0,4,12,3,6,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,1,3,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28187120127592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20209583482104987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33357620427432977,0.0,0.1657020414800798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129654690995335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356588593078247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829467624854953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33096749946112397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145407450642078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554684918138049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635330783335387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030988359560548,0.19319546929268802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778384427472328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366252097184032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaineeRose,2019/05/14,"Gained three pounds overnight I was the one freaking out over eating Mexican food for Mother's Day. Well, I did it, and I woke up three pounds heavier. Even though I know that it's water weight, I'm still having so much anxiety. How long before it goes away? I've been drinking lots of water all day. I feel like I'm having a panic attack--can't stop thinking that I've ruined everything...

Why am I like this? :(",1.6209214092140911,4.0409826097561,2.641382113821141,92.35307588075884,82.65853658536584,5.107859078590786,18.86720867208672,6.42735559955562,0.029597289972899787,322,8,65,3,9,102,61,82,0.174,0.69,0.136,-0.6514,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,1,2,0,6,6,0,1,1,9,12,4,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,6,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,4,2,6,3,6,8,3,9,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,7,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465540565073153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24486269878762598,0.20222186567184108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18315048898044672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776195947241797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21084992116563725,0.0,0.2202407700304306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216174071109625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344077258524128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883008930646508,0.1537650661046825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602649444061164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828840340441026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103074560877473,0.0,0.0,0.1904776130164768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298645569565936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822366238469046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584988678826502,0.0,0.0,0.2525337683103699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17188822238625678,0.17994743064418325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791491887168525,0.2114688612632856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621001870036648,0.19352354731571145,0.0,0.19421754860987026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theflyingroar,2019/05/14,it’s just one long cycle everything follows the same cycle. i’ll spend a week or two restricting then a week or two binging and it’s just constantly going back and forth. sometimes one of them will last a lil longer and i’ll gain or lose a shit ton of weight. but it’s always back and forth and i’m so fucking tired of spending my life like this,0.9401712328767148,3.1874238904109617,2.193407534246578,95.5895633561644,84.06849315068494,5.293835616438357,20.08390410958904,6.6274283507984215,0.13480958904109608,276,8,61,3,8,88,48,73,0.146,0.78,0.075,-0.6378,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,2,5,4,2,0,5,0,1,5,1,0,0,13,5,11,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,3,0,4,0,1,2,1,3,4,2,10,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,9,36,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460300390078454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227067467553582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267616020072447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858992045168613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939929364673396,0.0,0.0,0.11925643919526654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104693491270245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821561535338318,0.1025168217742395,0.0,0.0,0.18570106708385387,0.0,0.2347563626275817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843849120295015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21539689820410607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20753631016580734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24117926367365486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099647673219449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366406586007767,0.2555275847836665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rocksnowls,2019/05/14,"How many of you feel like recovering 100% from your ED/dysmorphia is possible? I'm gonna go ahead and say it: I don't want to recover and (for me at least) 100% recovery seems impossible.

It's not that i ""don't"" want to recover; i would love for all this distress to vanish. I blame dysmorphia on why I don't want to recover. I simply *can not* fathom the idea of me ever reaching a point where i would be okay with gaining weight. I can't wrap my mind around people not wanting to be rail thin. My overwhelming desire to be able to consciously feel a complete lack of fat hanging off of me is the main source for my food-related anxiety.

Words cannot explain just how much I wish I didn't feel this way about my body. I'm teetering near the edge of being classified as ""underweight"" and i *still* hate everything about myself :(((

Has anyone here gone through or are currently going through recovery? Is it even possible for intense dysmorphia to ever go away? Can my thirst for being underweight ever go away?",3.371478053150192,5.374311659898481,4.742609734249033,81.70035234398331,74.53299492385788,9.102299193789193,27.83189011645267,9.627879704456738,2.774025022394744,795,32,154,22,17,264,118,197,0.091,0.8029999999999999,0.107,0.6242,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,0,2,13,6,1,2,5,1,20,5,3,2,4,34,40,7,0,9,5,0,5,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,5,3,0,7,0,0,6,9,3,0,0,2,6,22,3,33,30,5,23,0,1,0,1,5,10,0,2,7,108,28,0,0.13728112575824736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050196854500942,0.0,0.0,0.09599015507532788,0.0,0.0,0.1222093072136682,0.0,0.0,0.2579602733363841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248838290294664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439366484748047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067288883418964,0.3725359132233297,0.0,0.0,0.12337942389342375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20824038605901388,0.09807366367175784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600088218904566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120801096527862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553669028701795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497368106500306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706862370797179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390157580981688,0.0,0.0,0.13918151439415974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861480256594966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091742320109044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517344729502314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977503702279725,0.3095276848484949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917146126388244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249755809718084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963288436379574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32388785921414537,0.10896736771646796,0.0,0.1671714274229384,0.0,0.0,0.12387486328364185,0.0,0.1578665195918371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19504114590148008,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,knoxox,2019/05/14,"I can't focus on anything but just can't bring myself to eat. So I guess I'm going to fail finals and be one of those freshman fuck ups who should've taken a gap year. I feel consumed by pain. The crippling, falling to your knees type.",2.247,3.5876623000000016,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,76.0,5.0,22.5,3.1291,-0.10400000000000008,185,5,40,0,4,60,43,50,0.294,0.706,0.0,-0.9505,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,5,10,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,1,1,5,0,7,8,0,7,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,1,2,24,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29895069581125056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717288800622245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368664080394576,0.0,0.0,0.3979584239634403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33584898813914893,0.0,0.0,0.2064619215635789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001968340409569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461697489775071,0.0,0.38655838984667396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23394213825137936
EDAnonymous,Skiinky,2019/05/14,"Sending some love ❤ I've seen so many posts recently about people struggling to balance their eating disorder with finals, and I'm in the same boat so I totally get it. Just wanted to say we got this, y'all are strong and smart and talented and beautiful and your eating disorder is a bitch trying to get in the way of all that. Best of luck with whatever tests/exams/projects/etc you have!",5.354675324675323,6.102794857142861,5.893922077922081,80.23516883116886,67.96103896103897,9.796363636363637,29.685714285714287,9.888512548439397,2.763776103896104,312,11,60,7,5,101,60,77,0.128,0.607,0.265,0.9312,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,3,1,2,4,8,1,1,3,0,3,3,0,0,2,15,10,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,6,6,10,8,5,7,0,0,1,1,8,2,1,2,2,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232427310452985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4876046727583453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.435343450684128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372456346439961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23303084964512416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22228102866521532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701363527463917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19199345002485635,0.0,0.0,0.215670696305234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747736965813926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037326304480592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21004118457816487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16916819140767578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22238732147640505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444269373758612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547126036382866,0.16885193534684842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OkieNope,2019/07/22,"(potential trigger, talk of weight gain?) Im trying to semi recover and gain around 5lb, as this would put me around 100lb. I have gone through recovery and semi recovery before, so I know that weight tends to go right to the midsection to protect organs and whatnot and then over time it will redistribute. 

My question is, if anyone has experienced  a small deliberate amount of weight gain (like 5lb or so over time) does it distribute? Or does that only happen of it's a significant amount of gain?

Im worried and right now this is what holds me back the most I think. :(",4.686959459459459,6.009956468468468,5.448277027027029,80.71403716216219,69.9009009009009,9.153603603603603,28.289414414414416,9.516144504307137,2.46526036036036,452,16,88,10,8,147,70,111,0.047,0.821,0.132,0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,1,0,17,12,12,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,7,3,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,14,9,3,15,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,5,6,52,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362242967049735,0.0,0.0,0.289315469968112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495098636648873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827389006598284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28440631437243025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235139864801306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369650772820716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35105160346908176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930469025484421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938834950705018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358710561191588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16335544385190273,0.18203502920526932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775449299075277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060979433499054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412220265793708,0.0,0.0,0.18950786421505886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032552370981956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5936366205588586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502467917543978,0.0,0.11543396750246596,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,internerderner2,2019/07/22,"I so want to truly, fully, completely recover. But I guess I never will. (swearwords inside) So yeah, hello people, I've had an ED for the last three years. Full blown Anorexia nervosa, then turned into slightly underweight EDNOS with brief stints of bulimia and anorexia in between. 

I was an adult male at onset. I don't know why it happened to me. I had comfortably maintained a weight in the lower half of a healthy BMI for my whole adult life without having a fucking clue what a calorie was. I never felt deprived and just ate whatever the fuck I wanted. Used to say that I'd never get Anorexia because why would I not eat? Yet here I am, surprise surprise.

I don't want to spend my life with a fucking ED. I don't want to be one of those boring fuckers who are ""in recovery"" forever and whose life is a ""constant battle"" against their disorder. It's not me. The real me doesn't give two fucks about calories, weight decimals and all that shit. The real me just want to eat a sandwich for lunch and get on with his day.

Yet I can't. Last time I've tried to recover I worked with a therapist and a dietitian. The therapist focused on my non-existent family issues, my common and irrelevant insecurities and my body image which has been badly compromised by my ED - I was not that much heavier than now but I was so much better proportioned, while now I just look like a lifeless potato with no muscle. The dietitian focused on getting my to my previous ""natural"" weight, only to be puzzled when I was still hungry as fuck - not being able to sleep kind of hungry - and prescribed me an appetite suppressant. No seriously. How on Earth can you even begin the process of thinking to prescribe appetite suppressants to someone with a restrictive ED. It's like prescribing cocaine to a heroine addict.

So I inevitably relapsed, and now I'm here, desperate for a change that never comes. I know how a normal person eats, I perfectly remember how I used to eat; it's just that it would never ever satisfy me now. I am never satisfied by normal meals. Nothing fully satisfies me. I feel like my choices are either letting my hunger loose and become infinitely obese as a result, or restricting forever and constantly being the weirdo who embarasses himself by pretending he doesn't like that food and is into healthy/diet stuff. 

I am not like that. I've never been like that. I don't want to be like that. But I guess I am actually like that, and I will just be like that forever.

I hate that this happened to me. It's just awful and sometimes I don't think I am strong enough to sustain it for much longer.",4.757331419595952,6.278882773547096,5.749890050371015,77.85964306992366,69.96192384769539,8.761328061528463,31.322157829171857,9.21561531244674,2.9234475545685963,2060,89,366,42,37,680,242,499,0.134,0.727,0.139,-0.1202,1,0,1,0,0,1,62.0,0,1,1,4,26,30,9,1,27,2,40,27,3,6,10,83,74,31,0,10,17,0,5,9,0,4,5,1,0,4,27,24,14,4,7,1,1,2,23,14,0,5,11,7,54,16,53,52,8,41,0,1,1,6,15,11,7,4,37,274,81,1,0.06962157416523633,0.0,0.06794061335245816,0.07589779237042482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058131106332876666,0.042440665407039634,0.07689155877622167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06157462461193874,0.0,0.0773338738371808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736503939755269,0.0599728214278734,0.07299689590637068,0.1504723763105414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04490015568745178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07979235572367621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849610056643257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193769713257317,0.0,0.04598439311943443,0.06297669974279989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563302396156012,0.0,0.03520275979218527,0.04973766649469311,0.06684762931942305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418668383570553,0.0,0.0,0.3218201172433051,0.1091231969304952,0.06678735792587169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153392026297366,0.0,0.1231322562110777,0.0,0.0,0.06873689068915133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726668351756712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250015583661115,0.07652439279950488,0.11350175042477673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119277658992015,0.14752733036239662,0.306122259740278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846458765728159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353960331732988,0.0,0.37587515021093504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642872124415645,0.06680377811578309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04717738047486563,0.05295034442094792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048266833352461715,0.060790873131782164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848918700476408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886767161444444,0.0,0.0,0.055365870181567856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146554539171082,0.0,0.0,0.0696718540334647,0.0,0.05899013385965705,0.0,0.06885751706846051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055599879062211366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797000456035135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167202737639869,0.0,0.08922138705826171,0.0,0.0,0.040596899777617663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04726847877804136,0.07572828035347996,0.06801016154904432,0.0,0.0,0.12026137294497224,0.0,0.0,0.2463876496526604,0.0,0.0,0.2543409635159256,0.0,0.0,0.125645283481986,0.07773000122573502,0.0,0.06711271304361999,0.0,0.050685335181238377,0.0,0.0,0.0989143374928712,0.0,0.0,0.044834011129439744
EDAnonymous,rottentothepit,2019/07/22,"Getting the nutritional info instead of estimating and being able to die at peace I had a sad, disappointing matcha latte for lunch at McDonald’s last week. I ordered it at the kiosk so I could get an estimate of the calories but I still wanted to know the rest of its nutritional value, and how much it’s changed by the subs I made. None of that info is on the website because it’s only available at McCafe and not every McDonald’s. Okay, whatever, I can live with guestimating.

I felt so unsatisfied I ended up binging on a box of kraft dinner cooked with butter, leftover red cooked pork (at least 100g of  cooked pork belly - all that fat!), and a cup of rice (~49g uncooked) when I got home that night. Felt disgusting. I was already stuffed from the KD and my stomach hurt from being stretched so far but I couldn’t stop eating and had to eat the pork belly too :/ 

Now I felt like I *needed* to know what was in that latte. Like somehow logging the nutritional info as accurately as possible into MFP would make me feel better. It caused this train wreck and damn right I am going to obsess over it!!!

I emailed ol McDickles and I got a generic email telling me to check the website. I replied saying the info wasn’t on the website. And now, a whole damn week later, they have responded with the info for the stupid matcha latte.

For anyone curious, here’s what they sent over:

Iced Matcha Latter Skim Milk

Calories: small 110, medium 170, Large 230
Fat: small 0.4g, medium 0.5g, Large 1g
Carbohydrates: small 22g, medium 33g, Large 44g
Fibre: small 1g, medium 1g, Large 2g
Sugar: small 21g, medium 31g, Large 41g

The kiosk said my medium with skim milk would’ve been 190 calories. It’s actually 20 less. I got to eat an extra spoonful of KD. I can die peacefully now.",2.45160099579363,4.569543872521248,3.992016482101469,85.49428963859563,77.69688385269122,6.431762383037173,23.72813117005752,7.463857097105799,1.1069894239848912,1389,46,274,19,33,461,188,353,0.147,0.789,0.064,-0.9845,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,0,2,1,13,12,4,1,22,1,16,14,3,4,1,40,34,18,2,5,3,0,4,2,0,1,2,2,1,0,14,14,13,1,11,3,1,2,4,8,0,0,15,9,25,4,40,14,8,36,0,3,1,0,9,21,2,1,14,150,39,0,0.12904616129643404,0.0,0.12593043829275816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240564792669647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09023207645116724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866534216314118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413084284163218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325659550525686,0.13651372774127074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303285921348897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678590833286877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961393182472127,0.0,0.0,0.11429659597869245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872695660754443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524961655478168,0.0,0.3717136559551915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484258618699507,0.0,0.07333990733471757,0.0,0.30963001133982665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294438215611792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381465846640237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184079079969286,0.10518984501830547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609087207210362,0.0,0.11395012466002473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210659802433135,0.08613931472523452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486377679450256,0.09568609346333334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110108054999502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814542070867566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14548015731969993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020471665090854,0.12275245066649793,0.10262268699657724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305643110705437,0.1078883691484173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127920329128842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611476940338674,0.0,0.2070260932950881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407543058336664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833413809394817,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pleasestopsnooping,2019/07/22,"I binged today, but don't feel that bad 5 spoonfuls of peanut butter then tostado chips with barbecue seasoning sprinkled on it dipped in corn chips. This is after having dinner and before dinner I had already had consumed 900 calories.

  I promised my boyfriend I wouldn't purge so it's just gonna sit in me and I feel that bad about. I'll do better tomorrow and will get back to the weight I was today by end of this week so I'll be fine.
  It's weird that 6 months ago I would of been purging my guts out by now and looking at thinspo but now I feel peace? And like dont feel as bad as I would feel?? is this recovery?????",0.8572417582417593,3.039699976923078,2.191428571428574,95.89,83.84615384615384,4.945054945054945,20.824175824175825,6.1826913282559595,0.05287912087912083,487,15,108,4,14,156,83,130,0.015,0.7609999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.9833,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,0,0,1,0,15,4,1,0,0,18,23,12,0,3,3,0,6,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,7,3,0,5,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,8,12,4,16,13,0,19,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,14,67,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659937622057423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20664490979222566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439905751234283,0.4690602088061601,0.0,0.0,0.15934357570221133,0.0,0.0,0.16561532542346882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194660968693182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658558498868892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4734187626420837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783507348355076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914852650309744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725035713384175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946830876644168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549991813701987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15020783584237435,0.2280309554283579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660467732636801,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,509tellus,2019/07/22,"I feel undeserving of food I'm trans and can't stand being in this body, having no control over being this way makes me want punish my body, to starve it for the betrayal I feel. I'm sure others can relate, I'm sick of living like this.",2.3412000000000006,3.70525932,4.153000000000001,87.55150000000002,75.8,6.6000000000000005,18.5,7.1686216300943375,0.15119999999999978,186,3,40,2,4,63,38,50,0.31,0.5870000000000001,0.102,-0.9246,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,5,4,2,2,1,7,12,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,6,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6410857552483007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32366251850709543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918253894239461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34894724078024203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098365549149755,0.0,0.254817892116655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262671868192968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719794618112493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020959964882293,0.22905819413926404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annielovesbacon,2019/07/22,"I HATE waiters’ comments on food Like when you don’t eat very much and they say “oh did you not like it?” or if you eat all of it and they say “guess you liked this, huh!” or “I guess someone was hungry!”

...bro it took me ten hours to work up the confidence to even eat out and now I will never do it again for another millenium",0.18957142857142628,1.9879422428571445,2.1328571428571443,97.58214285714287,83.71428571428572,5.7142857142857135,18.57142857142857,6.868970318607317,-0.15828571428571436,247,6,62,3,7,82,51,70,0.085,0.795,0.12,0.3901,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,2,1,4,4,1,0,1,1,5,4,0,0,2,12,9,7,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,2,10,3,7,5,2,9,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,5,8,43,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974736999817618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5781061300254878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438595232060995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22772162751872196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41491932316754215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859305522576159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18546079714789007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27601617433864345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843950437670907,0.0,0.14524675917515634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995249484192075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956596314310445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092344331837465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553866811535892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710181340945338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heyapeeps,2019/07/22,"Can’t afford binge food till next month, maybe its a good thing? Soo yeah I now have £5 in my bank account and only getting payed for my summer job at the end of the month.  I’m a student living at home with parents atm so no serious expenses (rent, groceries etc), but I literally can’t afford to buy binge food (or alcohol tbf) which honestly is a blessing in disguise. Hopefully being forced into this situation will help me to get back on track to being a ‘normal’ human being. 
But I won’t lie I’m scared as fuck for the next week but if I can get through it I hope it’ll push me in the right direction",1.5385714285714298,3.50079928571429,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,79.95238095238095,6.73968253968254,23.198412698412696,7.793537801064563,1.1609174603174597,474,16,100,8,12,162,91,126,0.133,0.7020000000000001,0.165,0.6681,5,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,1,8,1,11,4,0,0,0,11,19,9,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,6,3,3,0,0,0,7,1,4,3,0,0,0,0,9,5,17,13,1,19,1,0,0,1,3,8,1,4,10,61,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880185620505534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286498742440307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818563098518656,0.0,0.1865931528588859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046200948016131,0.0,0.0,0.15467397029460522,0.26223528636215016,0.0,0.0,0.1403303938130227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214333039985074,0.0,0.16782402144988773,0.33235009256463943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16602782506109515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477364306346825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680838304189489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670880244736513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558688790559387,0.0,0.16392676254834576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724561892230796,0.0,0.0,0.18577623919990047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288050606076674,0.0,0.0,0.16750495023903858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18806171290699625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111523029572002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342047503805357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,finalaccountnow,2019/07/22,"Final questions before moving on Let me start by apologizing for another post like this. This is like my 5th account and post in the past couple of months. But I cant seem to move on after my eating disorder so this is my final post with everything I still want to know.


I am a 17 year old boy

When I was 11, in 2016, I developed an eating disorder. It started near the end of june I think, until I got help in the beginning of september. So it lasted for about 3 months. During this eating disorder I was just obsessed with what I should eat. I think at the worst moment I only ate 2 loafs of Bread, 1 apple and dinner (piece of meat, potatoes and Some vegetables for example). I was very skinny and weighed 30 kg at 157 cm height. 

When I got help, I had to go to the hospital and had to rest. I started to eat much again, though mostly healthy food. I was still skinny but about a year later I looked “normal” again. I grew a lot the past couple of years and am now 190 cm tall and weigh 80 kg. I am even taller than my father (186 cm). My face also has more fat now and isnt as skinny as before.

So I wonder if this eating disorder could have affected my maximum height, but I doubt it as I grew a lot and am taller than my father.




The thing I am more worried about is if my eating disorder could have affected my testosterone. I know at around 11 years old men hit puberty and become able to masturbate. So could this eating disorder that lasted 3 months have affected my testosterone forever? 

I have pretty much facial hair growth, lots of body hair and have had lots of acne. But maybe if I wouldnt have had an eating disorder I would have had more testosterone than now.


Another problem is more if my sex drive is OK and if this could have been affected by my eating disorder. I dont really have random boners, but do get boners in the morning, at night, When thinking about sex while im in the shower or looking at porn or naked pictures. 


So basically, I am just really curious if my eating disorder which lasted 3 months could have caused any lasting effects regarding:


-my current height
-my current testosterone levels
-my sex drive



Thanks a lot if you read all this and thank you even more if you have an answer for me so I can finally try to move on from all this",4.620673992673988,5.3025713494505515,5.600164835164835,81.92566849816849,69.57142857142857,8.967765567765568,26.815018315018314,9.120678840339163,2.0165589743589742,1784,53,356,33,30,589,201,455,0.10800000000000001,0.8220000000000001,0.07,-0.9355,3,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,3,0,1,27,9,0,2,17,1,47,33,9,6,2,70,69,44,0,19,17,2,2,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,16,16,22,0,10,1,1,9,4,4,0,0,13,4,51,5,52,46,19,77,0,0,2,6,11,22,0,22,45,253,67,1,0.04995256689066172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03994704969509684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033969458432157304,0.10475924365880132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044468375091871966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05516868555687337,0.08501191048711093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05548604081541534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05131504626454065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19941529992415827,0.11054313030302032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5152497240972421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058544036368549934,0.0,0.0,0.5622534126125667,0.0,0.0,0.04424314755775957,0.0,0.0,0.06598639863480703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04489414616121984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416178609962015,0.0,0.0,0.060402842165351314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026098154484204016,0.0,0.028389194921318788,0.0,0.07990326199258246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696430526378318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05395734414542997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05490524878124989,0.16287203638471787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05107988403565352,0.0,0.0488086019623249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389515062540963,0.0,0.0,0.212339430248721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05018406752300019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948664926735748,0.15927501972513625,0.07344176856129601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046877100147202914,0.04894290961866127,0.0,0.0,0.10483363205109228,0.0,0.0,0.037991178069221115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537075469579184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352225274919533,0.05081971879976526,0.0,0.04779786027284708,0.0,0.0,0.05595830709952692,0.0,0.04996608476468485,0.0,0.06400178691747163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04547494081005176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607005184898348,0.0,0.07978436889048725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197922450780524,0.0,0.0,0.03318626582365335,0.09602276360186443,0.04907814334704014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0339145139461516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04121609914080896,0.029463318178493025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417142795908112,0.0,0.05072925643276604,0.0,0.035484870309965694,0.0,0.0,0.12867126127339318
EDAnonymous,ilovemargo,2019/07/22,Why is maintaining so hard? Wish I could just hard code my weight lol.,-0.5930952380952377,0.9584792142857168,-0.2842857142857138,105.41261904761903,114.0,4.723809523809524,11.809523809523812,6.42735559955562,-0.8225904761904759,55,1,13,1,3,16,13,14,0.20199999999999999,0.486,0.312,0.4671,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921885272233726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6556548635627432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4456395392985294,0.0,0.0,0.3302211260344585,0.0,0.4208348528578471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blimpopotamus,2019/07/22,"i don’t want to bond with you over hating my body, karen i work at a bakery AND a restaurant, three days a week each. i’m surrounded by food constantly. 

whenever i tell a woman over 25 this, they always, immediately say with a little laugh, “ooh, that’s *dangerous!*”

the implication here, of course, is that it’s dangerous for my figure. 

but when they say it’s dangerous, they’re more right than they know. the fact is that i *was* gaining weight rapidly, until i started throwing everything up. 

but they don’t know that. i try to project having a healthy relationship with food, partially for my own benefit to hide my bulimia/purging disorder, partially because i want to encourage that healthy mindset in others. 

now that i’m an adult, even just barely, it’s as if i’m supposed to be disappointed with my body and afraid of food. and i am, of course, but i’m not going to let it be a piece of small talk upon meeting any other woman.",3.278653846153848,5.3436685549450536,4.7308653846153845,81.40475961538462,74.98901098901098,8.286263736263738,27.85851648351648,9.017664075816787,2.438878021978022,735,30,141,17,16,245,109,182,0.099,0.769,0.132,0.7348,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,4,2,5,9,4,1,10,0,10,6,2,0,1,20,21,10,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,13,8,4,0,3,0,0,2,3,6,0,1,1,3,18,3,26,17,4,19,0,1,0,0,15,10,0,1,7,95,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329841269311647,0.0,0.0,0.10868396639686884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742558276741023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35505087651142264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17271005074793094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307151860705398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18316905925499966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556046317604344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363708160219454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5797696611459491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083012945363647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779044858942187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566721664023066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342811031781174,0.0,0.0,0.16018293194900246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158826773359062,0.0,0.13648651932595054,0.0,0.2541926294571865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131223407039064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845830925177076,0.13969086303939696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850817364224888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18853349041444986,0.0,0.12819900881829965,0.19461929067723432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635181188687475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,androjennous,2019/07/22,"How do I tell my mom/how did you guys open up to your parents if your ED wasn’t obvious. I’ve been dealing with my ED since I was 13 but I’ve maintained a BMI around 18-19 the whole time (save for a few awesome months there in the middle when I was at a 17)

Since I’ve moved out last year I’ve been getting help through EDA and meetings multiple times a week and my psychiatrist is well aware and weighs me every month/I have a diet plan etc. 
He now wants me to go to outpatient. 

Which means I have to tell my mom for insurance purposes. 
How do I open up about any of this. Pls help.",2.4628783902012263,3.1217694960629916,3.7574278215223096,93.25710411198601,74.51181102362204,7.534208223972003,24.34733158355205,7.793537801064563,0.84240927384077,454,13,112,6,9,149,85,127,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.9514,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,1,8,2,0,0,7,0,11,2,0,2,1,16,15,8,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,0,14,2,16,9,3,19,0,0,0,0,13,9,0,1,8,64,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231194987334144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611719557359169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665352413680794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019174444312379,0.0,0.0,0.1525415542802298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459060715906588,0.0,0.10289429415363184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926693123689288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427065981512245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757906368617518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197215389756857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42408469896294654,0.2890230992596649,0.19242638823614291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010334402980956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29953113515862106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164895357654905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21114220477905354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678736525646708,0.0,0.14522655205822846,0.0,0.16278475484062302,0.0,0.0,0.202134694104508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165895919493048
EDAnonymous,h8bb,2019/07/22,"i promise to myself that i will eat meals i dont know who to tell the significance of this promise to. im still going to restrict as i want to lose weight. but im going to do it in a healthy manner. im not going to restrict until 7 then eat 800-2000 calories of chocolate and chips. no more eating out of jars or parking in the gas station to eat my binge and hide it or any of that. im going to cook food, and put it on a plate, and eat it. and i mean it.",1.8042445054945049,1.939167528846156,4.160054945054945,91.69923076923077,75.63461538461539,6.327472527472527,24.472527472527474,5.288315135182226,0.30680659340659355,349,10,87,1,7,123,60,104,0.11699999999999999,0.789,0.094,-0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,0,3,9,0,0,0,15,10,11,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,6,9,2,2,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,0,1,7,2,19,9,1,12,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,3,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757802857186463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509347374506122,0.0,0.0,0.6588946192350771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572699952058125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927653060960024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564384061839511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077671632759475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407716435779686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028431902841987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294642182519333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284764698610373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125635252381182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596056694313716,0.0,0.0,0.1568250990889296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,webtrauma,2019/07/22,Green tea is amazing That’s it that’s the fucking post,2.2324999999999977,3.783030583333337,2.8566666666666656,95.955,76.5,4.800000000000002,28.66666666666667,3.1291,0.5680666666666667,45,2,10,0,1,14,10,12,0.0,0.703,0.297,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6945110198533674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7194820660045915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,haneulbot,2019/07/22,summer break sucks i got like 5 weeks of summer break left and i wish they‘d end faster. i just want to be busy and skip meals without anyone noticing. 😭,-0.4624731182795721,1.4230118387096802,0.12822580645161352,103.34567204301077,108.03225806451613,2.066666666666667,11.618279569892476,3.1291,-1.9169397849462368,121,2,26,0,6,36,26,31,0.081,0.71,0.21,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492247580463299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156919645279898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850703345382688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872631929653971,0.0,0.0,0.17413412347341722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057989181800785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102321672557039,0.0,0.2859073515761799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40987792048066346,0.3435866481163464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PinkyOutYo,2019/07/22,"It makes me so angry that incel subs which actively encourage hatred and violence are tolerated whilst our support subs were removed. Inspired by a post on r/IncelTears where an incel saw a homeless woman and said how ridiculous it was that she had a meal ticket or cash machine or something between her legs and was too stupid to use it so deserves to be homeless.

But we were the toxic community.

Sure.",8.4178,8.178960080000003,8.2425,69.36375000000001,61.53333333333333,10.166666666666668,40.08333333333333,9.516144504307137,4.049733333333333,326,16,52,5,4,105,60,75,0.198,0.654,0.14800000000000002,-0.7678,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,2,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,5,0,7,2,1,3,1,12,12,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,4,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,7,2,5,4,5,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,1,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775920199575796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982821406534543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955812841551896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201519293811607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719168091977781,0.39194629233043504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35917241786784976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,c_hampagne,2019/07/22,"Well, that was fun while it lasted. (TW, numbers) 178.6 was what the scale read this morning. Less than 2 lbs from my all time HW (which was 8 years ago). 

After 4+ times in treatment, I’m discharging myself from PHP tomorrow. I’d rather die then keep doing this. 

/end rant",0.7438095238095244,3.2298950740740766,1.6222751322751314,97.17166666666668,89.0,4.567195767195766,16.973544973544975,6.1826913282559595,-0.3925788359788358,210,5,45,2,7,65,49,54,0.111,0.794,0.095,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,2,5,3,2,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,24,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197505699138439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37436344869035015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31948491208450475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32061854845674553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940294774318655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.360810906986488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42066964367665066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32432457019407457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322875341433668
EDAnonymous,idkhowigotheretbh,2019/07/22,"Can't take a compliment I decided to wear shorts for the first time in a while and the first thing my grandma did was come in, pat my leg, and tell me I looked pretty today. I get that she was trying to be nice but the fat on my thighs jiggled and I just didn't like it.",2.476500000000001,2.70819165,3.830000000000002,94.32000000000002,74.16666666666666,7.333333333333332,21.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,0.2541666666666673,209,4,53,2,4,69,44,60,0.079,0.85,0.071,-0.1134,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,0,6,4,4,0,0,7,10,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,1,9,3,6,5,0,10,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,6,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815906853440816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561126265620147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17078889558637042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970415128980844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745090678545525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33256924941091426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24578399789675265,0.0,0.28572022054544244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171741949066914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906148244996736,0.0,0.3098577839289695,0.0,0.0,0.2219399224078296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,livw17,2019/07/22,“Wow this is the first time I’ve seen you eat anything at work” Haha brb just gonna go throw that out real quick,-0.6841333333333317,1.3457979200000023,0.8760000000000012,103.62466666666668,89.8,3.333333333333334,12.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.840466666666667,88,1,22,0,3,28,25,25,0.0,0.755,0.245,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,2,2,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,10,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37038568425794094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605543908391319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828462872854801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25579649474981303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5123009080165271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624510733101849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327670849061645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallMeFrida,2019/07/22,"I unmade 4 weeks of restriction in 4 days. And I want to die! 

Seriously, how the fuck did I gain 2.5 kg in 4 days how is that humanly possible? 

Tell me your binge stories. Let’s compete over who gained the most in the least amount of time and we can all wallow in collective self pity.",0.5066585956416461,2.8130258644067823,2.4971428571428578,92.1715254237288,86.96610169491525,6.761259079903147,20.292978208232448,7.957251820313856,0.9417147699757876,222,7,50,5,7,74,46,59,0.21100000000000002,0.677,0.11199999999999999,-0.75,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,1,1,0,3,2,3,1,0,3,0,4,1,0,2,1,9,6,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,8,4,4,9,0,1,0,1,6,5,1,1,4,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42767899975223816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441241994621623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30653725746708205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390595758008785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738028373212863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459067460215899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898125951116409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19334500319767994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19557249104781269,0.0,0.26597077738644304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,refinnejjjj,2019/07/22,Getting into a new relationship has got me back on my bullshit Seeing a new guy and getting ~serious~ literally has me spiralling lmao can’t eat unless he thinks I’m fat but I need to binge on pizza with him to seem like a cool girl!!!! This is completely throwing off months of progress and making me sad af lol anyone relate?,2.349397321428569,4.941854609375003,3.8319642857142884,83.87375000000002,81.03125,6.1571428571428575,24.767857142857146,7.447530270364453,1.4371232142857149,261,10,48,4,7,86,53,64,0.08800000000000001,0.682,0.23,0.8926,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,3,2,4,3,1,1,0,10,13,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,9,12,0,9,0,1,1,0,5,4,0,1,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18319750545301372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146294241917584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27470353520273744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268092891755709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737698874929411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954649359659,0.0,0.0,0.2594226269919083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800067410897786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488800213564054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20912705749451335,0.0,0.0,0.1942707551290075,0.0,0.5060852654695925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812915056503915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878123395249065,0.2385162797019081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16787994979973692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isthised,2019/07/22,"So, what’s residential like? I’m still not doing great in treatment. It feels like no amount of groups or support can make eating any easier. 

This may mean I get referred to residential. 

I don’t want to miss more work. I don’t want to be separated from my wife and home. But I’m also kind of scared of myself if I just drop out altogether. Also, I’m finally starting to LIKE my treatment team, in program and out, and I’m so ducking scared of starting over. 

But I’m just sucking at meeting meal compliance expectations. 

So, if anyone could share their residential stories I’d appreciate it. Idk if I want to be reassured that residential can be helpful or to be “scared straight” enough to stay in PHP. 

Thanks!",3.093127090301003,5.400076239130438,4.62536231884058,80.80821070234116,76.46376811594203,7.724414715719062,28.006688963210696,8.617729084823388,2.2790227424749165,563,24,108,12,13,188,83,138,0.129,0.655,0.21600000000000005,0.888,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,8,14,1,3,0,0,11,2,0,1,0,25,29,15,0,8,10,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,3,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,9,9,19,23,3,14,0,1,0,0,8,8,1,6,7,66,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271782054880491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555658410741555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188173176659994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567334859938213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17387834078288994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17558061866034205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592049216522113,0.12139629988107747,0.0,0.18614736215209846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878014907789393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18734576113104895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138988775588434,0.0,0.1704512216856627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769534294558264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490541023382416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342798175301542,0.0,0.0,0.18510095482974828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103814667288089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24055123697353914,0.18112019483768305,0.1357043879955249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928318084605128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644648875104322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006830749430073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370930489654257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amykarma,2019/07/22,"fvck y’all (tw numbers) i can feel myself descending into madness. before 800 seemed low for how much i could eat by 7pm but now i’m like... 300 or die bitch. but also maybe 300 and die. fuck

yesterday i had eaten 900 calories by 10pm and my boyfriend made me sanity-eat like 700 before i went to bed and i’m so thankful for him but i also felt so fat by the end of it fuck",-0.4757563587684075,1.3933112771084382,2.223534136546185,95.54673360107095,86.83132530120483,5.13467202141901,17.655957161981252,6.42735559955562,-0.2582251673360103,288,7,69,3,9,100,60,83,0.284,0.619,0.09699999999999999,-0.9640000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,6,8,4,0,1,0,3,5,1,2,0,14,14,12,2,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,5,2,10,3,8,8,1,6,0,1,0,2,2,2,3,2,5,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31424461761704275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33437432185630755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568706203585959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4078234933128495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020893339351028,0.0,0.0,0.17401999762912465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934449946594373,0.0,0.1886483990012983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632790003322954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19197713694931293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591096013616995,0.0,0.0,0.1973872066848618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144432947206465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788649661875577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808893050599623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18213582619784005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,synedchdochee,2019/07/22,"You know what I want? I want to be one of those people who don't give their bodies a second thought. Who aren't insecure, and can flaunt their bodies even with societal ""flaws."" I see people who are heavier than I am, and even heavier than I once was wearing incredible outfits and I am struck by how good they look. I am jealous of their confidence- and if not confidence- their APATHY towards beauty standards. I want to be someone who doesn't obsess over calories and eats a big plate of chili cheese fries every once in a while and whose body is strong and healthy.

 But instead I'm in the middle of am X day fast bc I ate too much on Sunday after a nice dinner with my mom, and I won't ever be caught dead wearing anything other than a hoodie and jeans and I just. Hate it. I want to be happy, and no matter if I starve myself skinny or ate like a normal human being I'm forever going to be unhappy. 

It sucks man. Life would be way cooler if I didn't have a body and was rather a sentient, shapeless cloud of gas.",3.162740384615386,4.509794408653846,4.400192307692309,86.6698076923077,73.66346153846153,6.7384615384615385,24.05769230769231,7.1686216300943375,0.9301865384615388,799,23,162,8,16,263,128,208,0.10800000000000001,0.703,0.18899999999999997,0.9136,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,5,1,8,10,3,2,9,0,23,12,7,1,1,34,40,19,1,10,8,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,10,14,5,0,2,0,0,2,7,5,0,2,7,2,22,5,21,24,1,16,0,0,2,0,16,7,1,4,7,116,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704873592656913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6319719112510059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173094466019142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455437171691813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789207992212745,0.12866129461111733,0.119840606768139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644646304891753,0.08083642980127133,0.1193014477493037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141367823539226,0.0,0.14042935529691955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816960468811818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004660315771154,0.06948969735071278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944305699745728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658597680025722,0.0,0.0,0.10456038618284696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936182722419696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029550192578109,0.09638331117774128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19721812325094965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133442840114648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051674702967136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292010118005633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355797102734652,0.1129009212518128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104091488923092,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vydka,2019/07/22,"I feel so guilty. I’m in recovery. Kind of. I’m following my meal plan the best that I can following residential, but it’s really fucking hard. 

My husband and I had a fight the other night and he brought up that he’s having trouble accepting the fact that he may not get the life that he always wanted. That with treatment and being out of work we may never get a house or be able to start a family and that those things are non negotiable for him. I feel like there’s a time frame on me getting better and I’m not living up to it. 

I’m doing my best but I’ve only been out of residential since mid June. I’m trying so fucking hard to get back to my regular life and get to a point where I can handle a job again, but I’m doing everything for him not for me. The only thing motivating me is to not be a disappointment. 

I hate that I allowed my disorder to take away my entire life and even knowing that I want to run right back to it and keep losing weight.",3.244679802955666,3.911246152709364,5.120172413793107,84.17956896551726,72.69458128078819,8.558620689655173,24.84482758620689,8.841846274778883,1.5677251231527096,751,21,165,14,14,259,108,203,0.09699999999999999,0.753,0.15,0.9237,2,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,1,0,0,7,8,13,4,0,12,0,14,7,0,2,2,33,39,14,0,2,8,1,5,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,15,12,2,1,5,0,0,4,5,7,0,0,3,5,20,6,23,31,2,23,0,2,0,2,9,11,2,3,9,111,35,3,0.135667650560735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288635337542148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274642236077736,0.2086400980338135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847496584692067,0.11998701200628885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548688123663348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960720368327975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121929336423381,0.0,0.12789538683696414,0.0,0.13719528096060749,0.09692099666826744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508451136480062,0.3544037397110192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430631341202496,0.13394371756827642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654225365965058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462920931963138,0.12058764137038724,0.0,0.14127698095846133,0.07455939273260194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28747822128040224,0.0662803612262475,0.0,0.1197970209917094,0.0,0.0,0.15177739853642175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463525575779982,0.0,0.0,0.1273148996725573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636272333982048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824978143987564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691217091794118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585943230341887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122256824946575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602626134445352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020051891742379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026311741031828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910889805230993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210942927226856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004059065668536,0.0,0.0,0.16520664930511736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876766540213486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jackandjill_nash,2019/07/22,"Bulimia support friend? Hi everyone. I've been bulimic for quite awhile now. Have been in therapy and one of the things suggested is to find a ""buddy"" who you can call or text when feeling the urge to binge and purge and just vocalize that urge. Would someone/anyone be up for trying to be this person for me? Very happy to reciprocate. 

I'm a 30 year old male, in a relationship (she knows about the bulimia), and living in the USA",2.1888095238095246,4.688530738095238,3.923809523809524,83.55452380952383,80.90476190476191,8.019047619047619,23.619047619047624,8.841846274778883,2.0423190476190483,338,12,66,9,9,113,64,84,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.8946,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,10,12,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,3,13,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,1,4,44,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17452160170292375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25486290355527835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384973170012172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620198979688668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281239675123532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19283534455240456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656969571893549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717007837322967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203956625189477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26190642686805243,0.0,0.16913103758002934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179354458574044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654734455586041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26797004680898484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832357835782913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854319574258073,0.0,0.16581885284162212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945762524519445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594080438132087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730408474696213,0.0,0.0,0.1607300520900387
EDAnonymous,karinamarquez,2019/07/22,"Coworker’s Comments I’ve been struggling with b/p for a few months now, and I’m trying to get back on track in these early stages. 

I used to restrict while at work, work out after, and then have most of my calories in an OMAD fashion. But after a few particularly bad binge cycles I decided to take advice and eat “normally” with a schedule. I started out with a bit of fruit once in my office, then I’d eat at night and that was that. Recently I’ve been opting to bring light sandwich as well (with that 35 cal per slice bread of aldi that TOTALLY derailed my perception of regular bread servings). So I’m eating about 200-300 calories before 6:00 PM which is pretty usual and not at all indulgent? Right?

Everyone has this complaint but coworkers are always inviting me to lunch and I keep refusing or at least going and only buying coffee or something—but for the sake of recovery I’ve gone with more and more. Still not eating with them but at least I’m participating. Except I binged and purged HARD at the office potluck and I felt absolutely awful the next day. Which is when they invited me to and Indian food buffet—which is my dream situation because (1) I love Indian food and (2) buffets are where you can go to town with minimal judgement right? I knew I’d feel even worse if I went, and I’m sure my throat would’ve felt even more raw with spices, and honestly I was barely dealing with the commentary on my nine plates of food the day prior.

So I said I couldn’t go, and I didn’t even have a financial excuse because it was paid for by our boss. I had to explain how I felt sick yadda yadda, but how I still felt okay to go to work etc. My coworker who’s in the same office space as me then commented something along the lines of “makes sense you can’t go since you always bring a lot of food.” I hadn’t brought lunch that day, but holy shit did that throw me off. A lot of food? Does he think I’m a pig? Why did he use that tone? Why comment at all? 

I was just trying to make a good personal choice ya know?! Avoid an u healthy environment. And then he unknowingly shamed me for eating a handful of cherries with a ham and cheese sandwich once in a while. While they were gone for lunch I heated up some broccoli and then I worked out like crazy when I was off and tried reassuring myself it’s a normal meal and that it’s okay to eat in the day. Idk it just really stuck with me. Doesn’t help he allegedly doesn’t usually take lunch and works out everyday. I want that so badly but I still end up gorging at my dorm",3.962429744920016,4.914217618677043,4.94642671854734,85.02943687851277,71.2568093385214,8.27920449632512,25.950929528750553,8.59863814320734,1.6093067012537827,1992,60,418,33,36,652,257,514,0.106,0.8029999999999999,0.09,-0.8815,0,1,2,0,0,0,45.0,1,4,3,5,20,15,1,3,23,3,26,26,3,7,4,87,65,47,0,5,14,0,7,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,18,37,21,4,11,1,2,12,8,6,1,1,25,11,46,9,70,39,17,75,0,0,0,1,25,29,1,8,34,259,64,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955478374490877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845238938095673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05473185507771743,0.11886211001007628,0.08677947761092865,0.0,0.06056764121834338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770846160696587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361691636249108,0.07338188414931122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062288764715163335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4370001089850956,0.0,0.0,0.06304300355783415,0.0,0.07938281681795563,0.14103813788808542,0.0,0.0,0.06801408487358933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035989976546434266,0.0,0.2733700000333321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303464834370353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03718781634721234,0.0,0.20226184338402192,0.059701129303900174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376193433943497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04770943262435412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326670063755589,0.0,0.0,0.039117829373930144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034774208403082915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102679122603073,0.06424135430959843,0.0,0.09502437195425703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056813981103304524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569911758410881,0.06679617871904214,0.13947958929422358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516055095658443,0.0,0.05413443903504913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062150300464107036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241410003479354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04559875487021327,0.0,0.07028015880930698,0.0,0.0,0.12157206055740333,0.06770703114853534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730636835779216,0.05887957155100705,0.08000759018985677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479666891007428,0.0,0.0,0.05038049223604064,0.0,0.1705296705638786,0.0,0.0,0.07441119846056575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708487202584344,0.0,0.10703471257293476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04560829387558424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497654041757704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295070094738315,0.15678607236203762,0.0,0.041982909790209216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399799883892464,0.06598316110468534,0.12845500842495314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590938942272757,0.0,0.07253694881147807,0.050563147711856285,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rolliesharpener,2019/07/22,"TDEE (i'm a dumb bitch) Me calculating my TDEE for maintenance like: huh okay so it says 1,800 cals, but that seems like a lot so i'm just gonna knock off 300 cals to even it out,, then we're down to 1500 but yikes better cut that down to 1000 just in case ... .. .

my rat brain: so basically if i go over 1000 cals i am gaining weight : )",-0.9450000000000004,1.0802645000000055,0.9688888888888912,102.365,91.5,4.866666666666667,13.555555555555555,6.42735559955562,-1.0535111111111108,252,4,67,3,9,82,52,72,0.062,0.758,0.18,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,3,0,2,2,1,2,1,0,0,8,6,7,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,4,10,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,3,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32491763152665465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101174237818673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426509328107261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087904408157788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589664852264962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31233321950182497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29215521036760483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33444882689054745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473696969957043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,netflixandnothing,2019/07/22,"DAE actively avoid shops without self serve checkouts? There's a show called Years and Years which just aired in the UK and one of the characters goes on this rant about self serve checkouts and how they're taking away jobs. I definitely will travel further for a self serve checkout so nobody can see what I'm buying. Got me thinking if I could actually look a cashier in the eye while buying binge food or Diet Coke in every flavour lol. The answer is no, I cannot, unless I was completely desperate. I've gone without eating/drinking before because the only shop nearby had no self serve. And like, they probably aren't judging me? I'm just one person in a sea of faces that day, but my brain is still mortified by it. I had to stop going to my local off-license for that very reason because I would always buy Diet Coke and chicken breasts almost every damn day and got paranoid they would start remembering me as ""that girl with the Diet Coke and chicken breasts"" lmao. Anyway, it's not just me right?",7.789793814432992,7.0421207628866025,7.364659793814432,76.81513402061856,63.02061855670103,9.615670103092784,33.832989690721654,8.548686976883017,2.660535670103092,804,28,147,9,10,253,126,194,0.091,0.843,0.065,-0.4486,1,1,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,0,9,3,1,1,10,1,12,12,5,2,0,29,23,15,0,4,10,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,6,8,8,7,2,4,4,5,3,7,2,0,2,6,4,14,1,19,13,0,21,0,0,3,2,9,10,1,3,9,87,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.1283047684990318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165746299562472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094012571649304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12352907051454455,0.0,0.0,0.16029704417727542,0.0,0.1118791461688572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677431047985148,0.13425500049924796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378534777398495,0.0,0.0,0.10497547160478878,0.0,0.0,0.1695864607863612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879959688396356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22155385443357892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589852143990185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472267991671487,0.0,0.21031191221592385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047285442648615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06423411357245565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104094445813163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818746642208144,0.09999588387036423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480259772699153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14175685436581806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518255272919044,0.0,0.0,0.14894034435711842,0.11228254939067696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477192863909372,0.0,0.5486460719737144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930616801571579,0.0,0.10499948792989648,0.10992252877850747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885602288786408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424658570777091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848413954851198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534825838481208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679815425597365,0.0,0.0,0.16933663489329254
EDAnonymous,bruno_guy,2019/07/22,"anyone else? does anyone else experience or have orthorexia nervosa, i have a lot of the symptoms and its like i cant relate sometimes when people talk about binging. i have never binged before and tank god i never have but its like i never see people having a problem with saying that they find it hard to recovery because the lack of safe foods that i can eat. and i know recovery you should make more bad foods safe but its really hard when your ed is surrounded by healthy food",3.9315322580645145,6.058596494623657,4.550201612903226,83.14530241935486,73.3010752688172,7.230645161290322,24.528225806451612,8.07648339933343,1.5293451612903226,386,12,70,6,8,123,64,93,0.142,0.688,0.17,0.4424,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,1,0,3,6,0,0,4,0,9,5,0,1,3,19,12,8,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,4,4,2,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,4,10,4,6,11,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,7,49,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683621831669255,0.303090819831684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234938930118435,0.09016107422961957,0.0,0.12585564573881014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943202917939414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134299932528106,0.2471100889073294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467876313981062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351818293186817,0.0,0.5365393151350694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649863609816402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128432239929373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451711724578412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257429268752434,0.0,0.0,0.09872725313930436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422186884160562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050764050460974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415244178163635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475126690815143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761941721111238,0.0,0.0,0.11786055923480213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628111147962816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372917494412608,0.0,0.11887985503264135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LowCalPal,2019/07/22,"Just EDNOS things Feeling like I can't decide what kinda ED day I'm gonna have.  It's noon so I guess I've been ""fasting"" for 17 hours, but really I've been vacillating between:

* Eating a can of tuna and some spring mix

* Exercising for 90 minutes and *then* eating a can of tuna and some spring mix

* Eating a bowl of cereal

* Eating three bowls of cereal and then purging 

* Actually fasting on purpose

* Cutting up some carrot sticks and cauliflower and eating those

I literally cannot decide what I should do, so I'm just sitting here, putting off making a decision, because they all seem like bad ideas.",1.5628448275862077,4.296544681034483,3.716810344827589,81.32797413793107,89.25862068965517,6.003448275862072,21.90517241379311,7.413659706084162,1.3713379310344829,477,17,84,9,16,162,75,116,0.06,0.882,0.057999999999999996,-0.3071,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,4,0,9,6,0,1,1,23,16,11,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,6,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,5,2,10,12,4,14,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,6,11,52,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.16058571882527667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373997824857117,0.10031355952670283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612685727505873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8419240288276667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320590890952098,0.11756088932119108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128014739314266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205733869397795,0.0,0.0,0.18576693360163368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16079030299197475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984432327719454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16542711541070254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542062563512404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498082144830614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093256008659353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SalehRobbins,2019/07/22,"I just binge ate today. This morning, I woke up feeling extremely sick. I wished I was dead because I was in so much pain. I didn't have any food to throw up, but I began to throw up stomach acid involuntarily. Then, I passed out. 

I barely managed to chug down water and eat a 390 calorie salad. It was a big salad. It had bacon, ham, eggs, and lettuce. I used a 15 calorie fat free dressing and then after I finished I just layed back down, wishing for death. 

It feels good not to be sick but I ate a lot of food. I hate it. This is why I'm fat.",-0.1586339522546396,1.8683656034482787,2.334827586206899,94.2160079575597,86.93103448275862,4.2588859416445635,20.129973474801066,5.369823440869387,-0.2739236074270557,414,13,95,2,13,142,75,116,0.187,0.7140000000000001,0.099,-0.9123,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,4,0,8,15,3,1,0,15,19,8,2,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,4,11,0,2,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,9,3,14,3,14,9,2,18,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,1,7,60,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478141051857951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713851682900122,0.0,0.13250229832782626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22241633008226205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198102473281792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5256717344011658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18231353917570228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460068801631946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479401395557046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597866113295703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23128926226505114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206034445653348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773160319754975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613604871347,0.0,0.4999128080729733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theyogithatcould,2019/07/22,"Lol paranoid and making a fool of myself to my bf over this sub There’s a concerned boyfriend here who just recently made a post about his Gf. He also replied to one of my posts. I lurked him and he sounded EXACTLY how my bf speaks. So my hands start shaking, stomach drops, get that ringing in the ear lmao. I call my bf and ask ummm boyfriend I have an embarrassing question to ask and welllll did you stumble on my reddit account? The way in which he replied to that question has me 99% confident this is true that it isn’t him but y’all I just hand deleted some things in a panic and totally made an ass out of myself lol",4.710859375000002,4.996604617187502,5.307812500000002,85.5059375,69.234375,8.275,32.40625,8.07648339933343,2.1782468750000006,493,21,104,6,8,159,87,128,0.11800000000000001,0.763,0.11900000000000001,0.0398,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,8,5,0,3,8,2,5,5,5,4,3,19,12,9,0,0,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,4,0,0,9,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,4,0,1,3,6,18,1,14,9,2,13,0,0,0,1,19,6,1,3,2,70,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840577882552873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937395053641637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21503214551042013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002264410932958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985236758719974,0.14056798279874652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426987190991845,0.0,0.0,0.2470776361965573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033669059000918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4718096760978383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079285545682001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905405887738424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990417277372405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715359382125286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mangerinez,2019/07/22,"oh no? I was gonna meet up with my ex on a holiday, we’re on good terms and we were probably gonna end up having sex. So we were talking and i mentioned how i lost weight and I don’t really have a butt anymore (like i used to, i mean) and i feel like now he doesn’t even wanna see me. I am so confused, now i hate how i look even more, it feels like shit, i’ll look like shit either way, fat or whatever i am now, because I’m definitely not skinny.",-1.433823529411768,0.3754884607843145,1.8387254901960801,97.01926470588238,90.86274509803923,5.3607843137254925,17.323529411764707,6.816661863887847,-0.18203529411764707,341,9,88,5,12,122,67,102,0.179,0.67,0.151,-0.5934,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,1,9,10,3,1,2,0,9,7,5,3,0,18,21,9,0,1,3,1,3,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,3,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,6,15,5,7,15,3,10,0,1,3,2,7,4,3,2,9,52,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888680300755743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609213005071005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686757461398168,0.0,0.0,0.251571274631282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258714861055914,0.2721046709207815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973433945746165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880227837295592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721628233293528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198478840317365,0.0,0.20789075346388816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20744798008840287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532949009859688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200249935306333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175821148369872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909734831058168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307066501571331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644813861199368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116458702323227,0.0,0.2319079584837368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnieme,2019/07/22,"Why is this one of the least triggering places on Reddit? It's been about 2 weeks since I've used this account (not my main) where I'm subbed to every ED/fasting/low-cal diet sub I could find. In those 2 weeks I've been maintaining my weight. I've been feeling much more mentally and physically healthy than I have in years. I've been doing okay. And today just scrolling through the front page I find some fat-shaming shit. A few of the comments are saying that's not cool, but most are downvoted. The replies that insist that everyone is just being too sensitive and that shaming fat people is responsible and fair are much better received. 

Goodbye, all belief that I'll be worthy of love and respect if I gain a pound. Goodbye, budding healthy relationship with my body. Hello, first b/p in about 2 years. Nice to see you again, skinnieme account. 

I'm not so triggered by people taking about their habits. I generally find it helpful and destressing to read posts from all you lovely people who are having the thoughts I feel crazy and alone for thinking. 

But the humiliation I feel when I come across an echo chamber of people saying that fat people need to shamed and ridiculed into losing weight.... That fucks me up.",5.689009740259743,6.992867411255418,5.416382575757577,81.94457386363636,67.52813852813853,7.852922077922077,30.021915584415584,8.07648339933343,2.0315474025974027,976,36,179,12,16,301,145,231,0.11599999999999999,0.696,0.188,0.9624,0,1,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,1,4,10,13,3,2,9,2,17,10,4,3,2,38,32,13,0,3,8,0,5,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,13,11,5,0,9,1,2,3,3,6,0,2,5,9,15,7,24,24,11,21,1,1,1,3,14,9,2,3,8,111,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13159439166769926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237300719213557,0.0,0.14113346229343096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094497341416254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014459539695984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705235125436033,0.12140993814074034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19273393890297089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483877780975672,0.1080759810212465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174636291409692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516470190576526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214607408044308,0.0,0.0,0.22935069603015065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280451852096259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18680538242924846,0.09421234261682196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609819627516313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404321784859202,0.0,0.1327491949002758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168701742498622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709298476614034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641338701719696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202084198395774,0.0,0.0,0.10124925458818028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042382794706495,0.10510418765535627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553225524201732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141402105800571,0.0,0.10087033653453703,0.0,0.0,0.12043669708498657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097378360976739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383749117747216,0.3094462922300213,0.0,0.0,0.11465062461494535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364314640495498
EDAnonymous,regattadeblanc,2019/07/22,"surgery screwed me over hi everyone;

last month I had to get an osteotomy on my left foot (they break my big toe bone and then realign it by putting metal pins in the bone to keep it in place. it was painful i guess but i was under anesthesia for the whole thing). my big toe was really crooked and I have no arch which is the perfect recipe for walking in pain every day. unfortunately, this also meant I had to sit and recover for over a month. 

I had to go a fucking month without exercising. 

I literally wanted to die. I was considering taking my meds and ending it right then and there. I couldn’t exercise AND I actually had to eat so that I could get nutrients. 

I was at 125lbs before my surgery and today I got my cast off. I went and weighed myself, and i’m at 128lbs. I hate myself so much I put on weight. FROM DOING NOTHING. 

all my hard work from fasting and purging during the school year was all for nothing. i’m so pissed.",1.785588972431075,3.9975696084656094,3.3360345307713746,88.86223057644112,80.42857142857143,6.518629908103592,24.23308270676692,7.669130373188453,1.1878825396825397,732,27,155,12,19,241,113,189,0.16399999999999998,0.8029999999999999,0.033,-0.9815,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,2,5,7,4,0,7,0,15,16,7,0,3,21,29,17,1,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,8,10,3,1,1,2,0,5,3,6,0,0,13,2,27,1,25,14,4,34,0,0,0,2,2,16,3,1,11,105,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.14208757195186456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116438705369119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389747019652375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625218648782253,0.0,0.0,0.0939019209142877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111297670125745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898826856977665,0.0,0.0,0.12896108379469984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226768482625867,0.1391299526291814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346076722244109,0.15214316670985462,0.0,0.0827495679490859,0.0,0.11645205906567613,0.0,0.16039817347763702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043173220191856,0.14375286621089758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294186796612445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186859179978211,0.0,0.0,0.15819813834439758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173216314891098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486568928010699,0.0,0.10703499403042764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794201041559862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309863819000214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212419576910852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292742559371448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327704131921558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434420795207615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14735805856989467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947537203233836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673219569494086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380146651654251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858804505155544,0.0,0.0,0.17730528751827004,0.0,0.13497548479672788,0.0,0.1625606039893154,0.0,0.1403561430038985,0.0,0.10600075351259708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376358952188472
EDAnonymous,MyNamelessFace,2019/07/22,"I have to stop dreaming... The last few days I commented on a few posts on here about the same topic and I started to think about it a little more.

**Yes. My life is on hold.**   
I have this perfect fantasy of me and my life, when I reach my goal weight. I can see it, I can feel it, I can smell it. I'll be the pretty, skinny girl in cute pyjamas sitting in her bed while reading her favourite book, a pocket calender on her bedside table and also a sweet perfumed candle, fairy lights around her shelf.  
I'll be the flexible girl in a nice sports bra practising some yoga in the morning, taking a refreshing shower and then using fancy lotions for my then super soft and perfect skin.   
My freckles will suddenly look cute and I'll be happy with my body, focused during the day and relaxed with little yoga- and reading-routines in the evening.   


No. I won't suddenly be pretty and cute, flexible, super focused and talented when I reach my goalweight. And no, my room won't be magically tidied up and decorated.  
I can't change my face or my height. And I'll have to work hard to reach any of those other goals. And I have to accept and internalize this! **But some changes have to be done!**  


God damn, I'm so tired of dreaming and wishing and hoping and being sad, because I never reach my goals while sitting in front of my laptop studying. I just have to do it. I have to go to bed a little earlier, then get up a little earlier, wear that sports bra, practice yoga, make a habit out of it. 

I'm gonna use those fancy bath bombs and perfumed lotions, and I'll put more effort into my hairstyles and I'll fucking have to tidy up my room and clear my wardrobe out.   


I really don't want to be miserable, when I reach my goalweight and cry because I haven't achieved anything else/any other goal.",2.7458796421794536,4.622350946778717,4.105772115297731,86.13772567091354,75.9467787114846,6.6232583355923005,26.081955362790275,7.4822170145007005,1.3964071383392067,1396,52,275,18,31,460,172,357,0.066,0.7340000000000001,0.2,0.9929,1,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,0,11,11,18,2,1,16,1,28,10,5,3,4,52,46,35,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,4,3,0,6,2,13,29,2,4,3,12,0,3,8,4,0,0,1,12,39,14,38,33,7,46,0,2,2,1,7,24,2,4,16,182,52,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420613645789747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17722590518201614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723122434434132,0.11600049561240434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588673809602255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447412508521081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27569419766071684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313567521482307,0.16807394677626003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334888754766572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606627664605622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588692940036665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046634678417698,0.06807981736418595,0.0,0.07405624051039507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387137927730132,0.1167291137529066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294238501422938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621726622006804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840788024877069,0.0,0.5224057614111722,0.0,0.0,0.10942472073601413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869806636048588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005004787428942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247976973592221,0.26513730512871003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099411828820334,0.0,0.0,0.1303418572084113,0.0,0.08347774105943467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383748487986234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922316781959838,0.0,0.0,0.10894214765590897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797434212804718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349520413759523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976826138076654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250861192586252,0.0,0.0,0.07685820550065163,0.0,0.0,0.15867832717020008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984615272584015,0.0,0.0,0.09486475266241813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evian-x,2019/07/22,"i thought i had ""recovered"" i thought i was getting better-- eating a regular amount, excersing in a healthy manner, and overall not worrying about my weight. until i weighed myself this morning and felt a crushing feeling of ,,, failure, really. 
and on top of that i had slacked off from my ""healthy"" changes, i wasn't sticking to anything and i feel like it's all my fault for gaining weight again, even if that meant i was at a ""healthy"" weight. 

i hope I'm not alone in this?

sorry if i didn't tag this right. im a bit out of sorts right now,",3.723888888888887,4.982518981481481,4.2064814814814815,88.9491666666667,72.14814814814815,7.251851851851853,33.87037037037037,7.645422480735847,2.2556259259259246,422,22,88,5,8,133,69,108,0.094,0.73,0.175,0.7536,0,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,0,1,18,15,7,0,3,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,10,6,15,3,14,5,3,12,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,4,4,58,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049701040000968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341400735408605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413264646610209,0.19026386836043135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436052526933291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832749375043855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510742050487152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623800596026615,0.12450255627525207,0.1673319501649051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105183203708736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309503933758394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882476034568101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514227759913964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164544136655677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297660898798783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19508731746282407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767107921818189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6366623598359213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698537798441666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kriegers69,2019/07/22,"Uhh weird anecdote/DAE type situation to vagina owners; This sounds like a troll post I know but i swear on my life I’m trying to figure out if this is normal or if there’s something wrong with me on a primal level....lmfao

When purging...does anyone else get super wet? Like I get no “thrill” from the act, obviously but my body begs to differ? Please tell me this is normal 💀",0.9505116959064316,3.3638120921052637,2.7638596491228107,90.28757309941521,85.97368421052632,4.430409356725146,15.023391812865498,5.82211442006289,-0.6391415204678363,293,5,59,2,9,97,59,76,0.11599999999999999,0.679,0.205,0.8523,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,3,0,2,3,2,0,1,12,6,6,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,7,4,8,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,3,3,31,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644367936272672,0.2439009552795495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26440969379121565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487019974160023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19885256431449205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487330122774618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308210119557449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813527419684918,0.2325894460945249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4664589347281761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612973432145179,0.0,0.0,0.2279773095115553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675678604946584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832554564849466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805817287139866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161409456860226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602602735466911,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hesheorthey,2019/07/22,"New to this SUB and need help understanding Hi there,

New to the sub. I have a partner that struggles with an ED and I am at my wits end. She’s beautiful and has a perfect body but she complains constantly that she feels disgusting. She’s nearing unhealthy at how skinny she is. For years(?) I have been consoling and nothing works. I don’t understand the phycology and the more I scroll through this sub the more weirded out I am and disturbed from the lack of self love. I’m not trying to be offensive.. all I want is for you guys to be happy and just know there is going to be someone out there that is happy with your body. But that’s the argument right? “It’s not what people think, it’s what I think”",1.9242757242757271,4.081822111888116,3.1642007992008025,90.56959790209793,79.62937062937063,6.603196803196802,24.200299700299702,7.7094869923839395,1.166325074925075,554,20,118,9,14,179,83,143,0.149,0.6990000000000001,0.152,0.1053,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,2,5,10,2,2,9,0,14,4,3,1,2,28,25,10,0,3,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,10,11,1,0,6,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,1,1,16,4,17,21,4,12,0,0,0,1,14,6,0,0,5,86,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39527835581007703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922782040768199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759241752959188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996632601082788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112123812006643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761778356105237,0.0,0.3788177842370623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926216077791603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778520932766804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16058800754531324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193221253641124,0.0,0.34369016973832106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072782123331534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335367143180193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195052461070702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561891165282832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075879407098136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860101834443383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280196337618889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080221541963322,0.0,0.0,0.3704610468974233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049472245194712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953454262684405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145805409989383
EDAnonymous,until_im_enough,2019/07/22,"I tried explaining my ED to my Korean mom last night... We were having a very nice, wholesome heart to heart about things and I mustered up the courage to confess my eating issues to her because tbh I'm sick of having this illness because it's ruining my sanity.

And her response was objectively kind but so triggering. 

I dont know if it's just that... Koreans don't understand that an eating disorder is an actual illness or not. I tried explaining my ED in a way she might understand, but all her responses was so invalidating. 

For example, I confessed that I've been skipping breakfast and lunch most days of the week and she said 'as long as your one meal dinner is big enough it's okay'. I stated that I'm literally afraid of eating Mexican or Indian ect because of how many calories it is and her response 'oh it's ok I don't like eating it either, it's so greasy and they use too much oil and butter anyways'. I tell her that even though I'm eating candy while 'dieting' it's only okay and 'safe' because I know exactly how many calories it is and she replies 'well that's why you aren't losing weight! If you're on a diet you have to eat clean whole foods! Rice is very healthy eat some rice! Just eat homecooked food, and you will lose weight'. Even though I literally just explained that the concept of NOT knowing what's in my food is what scares me, therefore the delicious food mom makes with unknown amounts of oil, meats, seasonings, veggies, would be terrifying to me as opposed to a gummy strip that I know is exactly 37.6 calories per strip. My dad said that as long as I don't eat after 6pm and skip breakfast I wont gain weight like it's normal to just fast for 18 hours everyday. I just... I thought that my attitude towards food was abnormal, and part of disordered thinking, but hearing my mom and dad unfazed by anything and just say 'its okay' to all of my issues is so invalidating and now I'm wondering if I even have a disorder in the first place. They completely normalized OMAD, normalized avoiding certain foods, normalized borderline orthorexic behavior.... 

At this point I'm wondering if I even have an ED. Or did I inherit an ED from my parents?

Also my boyfriend tried to label my ED last night (admittedly I asked him for his opinion and thoughts) and he said that I am ' a bulimic with no gag reflex' and that if I continue having issues with food I'll develop even more serious conditions like anorexia. Guess me restricting to 500 calories a day isn't enough for me to be aNorEXic because I don't look like bones yet, and I can eat normally around people. 

Hahaha.... Why am I like this.",5.492258736679165,6.262438506876229,6.282429005179497,77.4929499315354,67.66404715127703,10.09897005417634,33.49889861284753,10.161004565491616,3.4242280288146687,2076,92,393,50,33,684,243,509,0.11800000000000001,0.815,0.067,-0.9784,1,1,0,0,0,0,53.0,1,4,2,4,27,22,0,3,16,4,36,33,3,6,5,87,65,45,0,11,20,6,3,5,0,4,3,5,1,0,29,24,27,4,17,0,1,0,11,7,1,2,11,12,58,15,44,48,12,32,2,3,1,0,37,11,0,15,24,255,87,0,0.0,0.0,0.05069371421207653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04154276388934268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04274874384486882,0.046244696944693485,0.04856432902518205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833496762485344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05446644645742468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700427176567635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861058405729152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060882620833104424,0.0,0.0,0.5315573068126631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735225602380104,0.0,0.171555684294396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0441869072232512,0.43970974593397616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572265332901109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058549125037663914,0.12311716261093784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051158275305045985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266051747198115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054095805129778116,0.11419695841443064,0.0846890396581309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268957434007102,0.0,0.0,0.09194461767378803,0.0436232019697817,0.11623295626263447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03467566588590417,0.10533415335066312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055108575025924665,0.0,0.18252246452748672,0.0,0.0,0.03818772693158553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749928057747646,0.2544898501722199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03520128131108058,0.03950876353708155,0.0,0.0,0.05768206062826104,0.056254577095897415,0.0,0.03601417377847515,0.0,0.0542745603934572,0.0,0.049107612136389096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482432143637823,0.04131110188138714,0.05200896916007355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045404805695921216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0345119155483017,0.033286154436615326,0.10207721154654648,0.08248175329823726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058077622282874,0.0,0.0,0.10815931432163242,0.0,0.04486635732295606,0.0,0.08572501289157923,0.0,0.04123387172221401,0.041669519102068495,0.1897758568944979,0.04670745366616688,0.0,0.09374990566965033,0.057998040838988116,0.0,0.0,0.11267069074835155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03690233947644421,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanillabake,2019/07/22,I got a call from the hospital that my white blood cell count and iron is low Finally I’m doing something right. Still feel fat though honestly,5.082857142857144,6.445201571428572,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,69.0,9.885714285714286,28.285714285714285,10.125756701596842,2.7058000000000013,116,4,23,3,2,36,27,28,0.075,0.8190000000000001,0.107,0.2263,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,4,0,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146941552412299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20534658759088886,0.0,0.0,0.4448848539353619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248114425877149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468244519365913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126511893530628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243281351601801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990110576851947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vfgoiugkjgdslk,2019/07/22,"I don't care what you prefer! My body is not designed to please you When I was bigger, I had people telling me they actually *liked* bigger girls, or that they actually *liked* that my body was soft. Now that I'm thin I get the same shit. People who refer small girls, people saying they ACTUALLY *like* that I have small boobs, it just goes on. Why does it feel bad when people say that? Why does it feel like when people are saying ""well I actually *like* x"" I'm apologizing for my body existing the way it is? Does that even fucking make sense? I don't know how else to word it. It's like, my body is an inherent consolation that they're so graceful for being able to excuse. Why can't it feel like a compliment?

I'm me, and I am nobody else. I'm not going to fit perfectly into your expectations of what you wanted me to be like when you built up this ""dream girl"" image in your head. I'm not that girl. No one is. I can't be what anyone wants me to be. I'm flawed. Really flawed. I'm anxious, I'm scared, I'm angry, I can be irrational. I can also be brave, strong, undeterred, gentle, and kind. I am so much more than what gets built up, and somehow so much less.",0.06147382920109834,2.3256751198347128,2.379140495867769,92.37295316804408,89.12396694214874,5.540716253443526,15.917906336088155,7.0316486544052195,-0.10451779614325084,897,19,201,14,30,304,122,242,0.10099999999999999,0.733,0.16699999999999998,0.9516,1,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,6,3,2,14,20,2,1,4,0,23,8,7,2,1,24,44,13,0,4,5,0,5,8,0,0,0,3,0,4,21,4,0,0,6,1,0,1,8,4,1,1,3,8,29,16,15,35,5,18,0,0,0,2,20,11,3,2,13,120,50,0,0.09537512332506468,0.0,0.3722894493532881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627145166497126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774674190779038,0.0,0.06668850381095799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963424415486631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237610449267312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724129464866448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503902394301349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934735453914112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299436945199426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467358416489645,0.13627201432055389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817276465975989,0.09965913094859878,0.0,0.0542038805062138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978823922552618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931851422365387,0.052415673504498224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3727637413845073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366363541945068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022337929252465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06462865189265628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306055083281925,0.0,0.0,0.10469324479891806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109974622164512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227538378435714,0.09548713677317863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790119351582882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336206161483356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250943764272163,0.07570433354886327,0.0,0.0,0.08575368996107736,0.0,0.2581836424482357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,k4i-666,2019/07/22,"Pecan Crumble Crisis So today i weighed in at abt 99.0  and lemme tell you when i say i was sh00k... i was frikin sh00k. Okay i did eat a little bit in the night time but thats whatever. 

I was 98.6 yesterday so i knew what was coming. The worst part though is i let myself have some of the pecan crumble ive been saving in the fridge for MONTHS. (this morning)

I just eat like a little at a time because im afraid of the high calorie content (even though its gluten free). But yeah ive been wanting some for days. 

im gonna feel bad tmr bcuz the scale is gonna probably read 99 or above tmr morning :((",-0.6940332458442668,1.4880135118110258,0.912847769028872,101.08463473315835,94.98425196850391,3.7671041119860016,16.50437445319335,5.46131890053228,-0.8192481189851271,464,12,109,3,18,148,82,127,0.105,0.8340000000000001,0.061,-0.8151,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,7,7,0,1,9,2,13,3,0,0,0,12,19,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,8,2,13,5,9,8,5,17,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,3,9,61,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736665508027094,0.10759022655791413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926877464564853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520355390957643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11382521637130752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611986153557154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165738384730297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924160036559688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18647754641368794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812915904475576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804789554813617,0.0,0.0862269528109867,0.3537903998018289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087729649554348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562939071390798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911277965145209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190292368217202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654360337876066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035657686514236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426514448838113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468125355200807,0.0,0.2058322885719094,0.0,0.16729742024348487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041018199289145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,livipup,2019/07/22,"Definitely on the verge of a relapse 🙃 I had a peanut butter sandwich for breakfast which was maybe 300 calories max because I barely put any peanut butter on it and then I made some pierogies for lunch which were probably no more than 400 calories from the way I prepared them and the entire time I was even thinking of eating lunch I was so focused on how I already had breakfast and how the calories would add up. I still have about 900-1000 calories to eat today to reach maintenance and I'm already so worried about how much I ate. Considering the times I've been falling asleep lately I might not even get around to eating dinner before passing out. As things are I'm already down to 2 lbs underweight again. I know there are reasons why I should make an effort to maintain a healthy weight because those are the reasons why I forced myself to get back to a healthy weight in the first place, but the past few weeks and I'm slowly finding it harder and harder to come up with reasons why I should care about all of those things that motivated me before. Even if I did care my body dysmorphia is coming back for some reason and it's becoming a motivator to lose weight again.",5.6705362318840615,6.530367299999997,5.524782608695652,82.76297101449276,67.30434782608695,7.698550724637681,30.98550724637681,7.554174236665415,1.945298550724638,949,36,178,9,15,295,135,230,0.047,0.85,0.10300000000000001,0.9091,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,5,18,3,0,0,14,0,17,15,2,11,1,37,31,16,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,13,13,0,9,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,10,5,19,2,31,17,6,30,0,1,0,0,1,11,0,4,13,124,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293650812396682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765579294646258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856612135544895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530014862079406,0.0,0.12129489333010307,0.1098775588259293,0.16931527552568998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105096242945404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287091635611065,0.0,0.0,0.171401576955309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054056273664135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971342345169554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093095722006728,0.08462511911661459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395757940000612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467644046544122,0.0,0.11222769539833463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130251455827014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413870438361056,0.06640954392251441,0.0,0.099949867859338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055418905503708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313571244193537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949733132444966,0.0,0.0,0.10394461678642608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072657491431799,0.0,0.0,0.10001371904416632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40916420879837306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945188105956197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219187074857164,0.06374840334266196,0.0,0.0,0.11602543411683272,0.0,0.09430374575850478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896957550121157,0.07980391113884197,0.3634516535410245,0.0,0.0,0.2693194918932075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103570171416648,0.0,0.07067398625791545,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alchademy,2019/07/22,"when will people learn to stop commenting on what others eat in an attempt to overcome my orthorexia, i let myself have some fried pickles at a restaurant. my boyfriend (who for the record is one of the unhealthiest eaters i know) proceeded to pick up one of the friend pickles, dab a napkin on it, and show me the grease. i responded like ""yeah? i know? i'm not eating this for health?"". He then just proceeded to shake his head at me, as if he'd reached some weird moral high ground. mindless of the fact that he literally ate 10+ popsicles before we left. i brought this up to him since he wants to act like a health guru, to which he responded ""yeah but that's just water"". hahaha, yeah sure just colored water, not a fuckton of sugar in disguise. 

i would never bring that up but if he wants to stoop that low, so be it. especially since he knows my ed struggles!! i'm on a second attempt of recovery and he had the audacity to say that to me?? i almost cried in the fucking restaurant. i stopped eating the second the convo was over. i never EVER comment on what he eats, but i pay attention and it is pure garbage. he eats a shitton of processed junk food. i'm trying to layback on being so strict, i'm already vegan and will continue to be, but I had been trying previously to completely eliminate sugar oil and salt. but that was competely taking up my mental health so i'm trying not to be so strict on myself. then here he goes to just bounce me back to my over obsessive thoughts. hell i used to be scared of fucking spinach because oxalates and i just fucking can't anymore oh my god i'm done.",2.33167376749848,4.575444044025159,3.772909312233722,86.28344187461961,78.68553459119498,6.744735240413878,25.66686954757557,7.831003766801068,1.5663119091093534,1258,49,248,21,31,414,166,318,0.111,0.8220000000000001,0.067,-0.9374,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,0,0,3,13,14,4,4,16,3,20,18,1,2,6,44,40,21,0,5,15,0,0,2,1,3,3,1,0,0,16,7,11,2,6,1,1,4,6,10,0,4,9,7,29,4,44,21,2,37,2,1,1,3,21,21,4,5,14,163,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793220394742503,0.0,0.11894463552397347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689484273143078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288085341257144,0.0,0.06570540275748002,0.0,0.09171802757707828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301166934056528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839796353549012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030259718041054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5514604173785351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974986933228243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033537328385408,0.0,0.08327526921626392,0.29893952249990074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061962922015528,0.3437147343651159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388192667986127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17770925602037335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710990702472795,0.11021858433181164,0.0,0.1053176825489147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862303167062153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626256172183448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607729428435187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472530637386349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571582854341538,0.1079126840054878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17832354236064552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802280026455141,0.0,0.11268142881520465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015871184464688,0.0,0.081041728900084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557011918940609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21953904864998516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309257842369074,0.0,0.0,0.12715006232530046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656814898076958,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Flesh-And-Bone,2019/07/22,Y'all ever have one of those days where you can FEEL the watery bloat? And it's disgusting and you feel squishy and your clothes don't fit right and you just want to puke even though you haven't eaten anything.,4.634285714285717,5.885215761904764,3.3557142857142885,95.93928571428572,69.95238095238095,6.552380952380951,23.523809523809533,6.42735559955562,0.2810380952380949,170,4,37,1,3,48,33,42,0.19699999999999998,0.774,0.028999999999999998,-0.8229,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,6,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,9,8,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,6,0,2,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33959832877319895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661427759709504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27256952339624096,0.3732903245972915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173241749159048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796408789764497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35242423539430845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40545343943710266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24340781614796275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,haveyourspacecowboy,2019/07/22,Plateau Best way to jumpstart after a plateau,4.942499999999999,8.430078250000005,2.2800000000000007,92.965,79.0,3.2,45.5,3.1291,2.8738500000000005,38,3,6,0,1,10,7,8,0.0,0.588,0.41200000000000003,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7975585173317526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6032415862915754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nfae-v0id,2019/07/22,"Buying new clothes, but not for my current size. So I’ve had this problem for about a year now where I’ll buy myself clothes, but not for my current size. I’ll usually buy clothes that should fit around my UGW. So in my closet I have a collection of clothes that I’m nowhere close to fitting right now. Pants, shirts, jackets and lingerie sets. Does anyone else do this? 

I think part of it is supposed to be mildly motivating to me - seeing this “goal” clothing in my closet. Another part of it is me not wanting to admit my current size. I don’t want to buy clothes for my current size because I’m ashamed of me and how I look. 

I’m a mess. I just needed to get this off of my chest. I’ve never told anyone about this.",2.5264639639639657,4.008583493243247,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,75.55405405405405,6.014414414414415,27.873873873873876,6.42735559955562,1.0522684684684678,559,23,121,4,12,180,79,148,0.091,0.848,0.061,-0.6679,4,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,1,3,0,8,2,2,2,1,20,20,7,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,9,4,0,0,3,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,2,2,17,0,21,16,2,20,0,0,2,0,2,9,0,0,10,75,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22826762906408654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044287304022018,0.22304979811767198,0.0,0.19379083307654807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270220072093927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050255625991452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18185260600841865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373438064254306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280532060358906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141485985836565,0.1678964507639115,0.2102469878904604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4714755238993432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20830055387484914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18590662707694167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734712648700976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948737962108132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801274658997032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23975549770092905,0.0,0.2567991730398623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401856424012825
EDAnonymous,NoMindNeverMatter,2019/07/22,gained all the weight back again for the past 4 years I’ve been in a horrible cycle of restricting from 170 lbs to 130 lbs and then gaining 40 lbs again. over and over. and as soon as I hit 170 it’s like a click and then I automatically go to restriction mode. as soon as I hit 130 it’s another click and I binge eat like crazy. why am I like this,0.7934398496240647,2.4403625921052665,2.7732330827067675,94.51763157894736,80.97368421052632,6.974436090225563,18.75187969924812,7.957251820313856,0.26847218045112786,271,6,69,5,7,91,47,76,0.133,0.7040000000000001,0.162,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,8,5,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,3,12,2,1,13,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,12,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35283711204459395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25873857891736457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443113308967363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912339417404265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4931732673274401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32121596610581743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097518556761597,0.0,0.0,0.3036281730949561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21668730436192488
EDAnonymous,itwasajuniormint,2019/07/22,Advice on overcoming laxative abuse? Been taking Dulcolax every day for the last 7 years. Does anyone have advice/tips on how to ween off of them?,3.4800000000000004,6.391074777777781,4.527407407407409,78.63333333333334,79.0,8.044444444444443,20.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.9197999999999995,117,3,19,3,3,38,25,27,0.16,0.84,0.0,-0.6767,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,11,1,0,0.0,0.4689449247713857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38676016591759177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27674468231062194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552509878331401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34635738448114706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334690749496371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226206398746567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975838681741292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548749654449355
EDAnonymous,swordlady00,2019/07/22,my skinny jeans aren't as tight as they used to be.... oh no. validation to continue killing myself with this illness. whatever will I do? woe is me.,0.7101724137931029,3.2320888965517263,3.106465517241382,85.70383620689658,91.06896551724138,7.037931034482759,24.49137931034483,8.07648339933343,1.9816827586206889,114,5,23,3,4,39,27,29,0.353,0.647,0.0,-0.9104,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,0,3,6,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.788251914172751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6153526792035556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frickingdarn,2019/07/22,"I hate being so painfully aware of every inch of fat on my body Whenever I eat a little bit too much I feel it, everywhere, I can’t thinj about anything elkse. I’ve been binging for weeks, it’s horribly exhausting and discouraging. I feel disgusting",4.195,6.232968500000003,5.560833333333335,76.56750000000002,72.33333333333334,9.8,30.75,10.125756701596842,3.529525,200,9,36,6,4,67,40,48,0.373,0.627,0.0,-0.9617,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,6,0,5,4,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25794523101228417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422096515046166,0.34817578197338017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207408217645623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26409779441661685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169826574075574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30947008702165485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141623991362736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23042412850650826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335362471666289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514332063173359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xerox13ster,2019/07/22,"My supervisor called me fat. Not in so many words. 

Last week he was walking around offering everyone a flannel shirt that someone left behind when they left the company.

He caught me in the middle of some work task, dissociating with my mind in a different fucking universe and I kinda stared at him blankly until he offered it again. 

Don't get me wrong, I love my flannel, but I was wrastling with the idea of it having been someone else's and internally debating whether I wanted it, and his voice cuts through my fog: ""it's a Large, so it might be on the small side."" Fucking execuse me? I just looked at him flabbergasted. Idk how he thought that would be appropriate, but this is by far not the first issue I've had with him. I just flatly refused.

I've been binging for 8 months now, after having been good on restriction for almost a year. It all started with one pack of candy and I haven't gotten a grip on it since. I've definitely put on weight. Close to a third of what I'd lost. I don't know because I haven't been able to stop eating long enough to get a true measure of damage done. 

This is exactly the kick in the padded pants I needed, but fuck it hurt so bad.",3.2612890276538806,4.88811000847458,4.304210526315789,86.32678412132027,73.91525423728814,7.341302408563782,26.404103479036568,8.032893268588372,1.5029440677966104,926,33,192,14,19,301,145,236,0.145,0.7909999999999999,0.063,-0.9683,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,3,10,12,4,0,14,0,20,8,2,1,3,37,35,14,0,3,8,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,13,10,3,3,3,0,0,3,6,9,0,3,12,5,23,3,30,19,3,34,0,3,2,4,14,18,3,4,13,125,36,1,0.14140834407189873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416000301950259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588340653391358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807006066955758,0.08620121404143231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439372969809158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774162232331398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447098319139673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469603861735114,0.11812852634967964,0.0,0.0,0.14611262025934435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512173268215366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120281865229071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39218920641231336,0.14776004672679996,0.0,0.0,0.11860660993406627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513805570059043,0.15963280817437572,0.0,0.14759357216987726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771432775423218,0.115266673938865,0.0,0.0,0.3072811591786972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514193464254986,0.11874739441887908,0.0,0.1543639119098552,0.0,0.12762655147524854,0.0,0.0,0.14336586597167295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001190648497031,0.14278211652505,0.0,0.11287079112389314,0.0,0.0,0.10485249535069124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582195361982783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215444303896696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697444348978199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23962966208939734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008955375884254,0.0,0.0,0.11822370749060784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226242972777674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834063050974672,0.0,0.1134292439946518,0.17219726744987848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294695864959176,0.0,0.0,0.10045243042507962,0.15460782558887298,0.0,0.09106233732762704
EDAnonymous,radnuggets,2019/07/22,"Best clothing to hide your body Hey friends

Just wondering what clothes I should order online since I currently don’t like leaving the house due to how disgusting I am

I am a guy so I know my options are a bit limited

I hope you all have a good day",1.7042307692307688,3.74292865384616,3.216000000000001,90.529,79.76923076923076,7.236923076923077,27.707692307692305,8.238735603445708,1.8931107692307696,198,9,43,4,5,65,43,52,0.124,0.601,0.276,0.8625,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,2,3,6,1,0,4,0,6,1,1,1,1,9,9,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,9,5,2,8,3,4,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,4,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021433943449464,0.0,0.314322748303133,0.3198026946384617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856778933480748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224382661479377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24148493808196114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850757990447048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28595922573780336,0.0,0.33220905783280746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822760330342908,0.0,0.0,0.3048547275761886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065810246773838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381618213268617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122257126140883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayalleno,2019/07/22,"DAE get cigarette cravings when they restrict? I haven’t smoked in years, and suddenly a cigarette sounds like the most amazing thing to me. It’s all I can think about. Fml.",2.391363636363636,5.2013268484848485,2.6456818181818207,90.78852272727272,83.54545454545455,6.936363636363637,26.431818181818183,8.07648339933343,1.9462181818181823,138,6,27,3,4,42,31,33,0.076,0.731,0.193,0.6115,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,3,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917888512129348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663605046039312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4981964901374819,0.48050202508426004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48290738018404794
EDAnonymous,MoosieGoose,2019/07/22,"Ooops (Possible Trigger) Thought I was being careful to ""diet"" like a normal person. 
Just caught myself counting calories & panicking over a very small lunch.
The thing is, I'm still not to the goal I set when I stepped this ""diet"". I'm afraid of the relapse, but I'm also afraid of the number on the scale.",4.988499999999998,5.8441121833333325,5.403333333333336,83.04000000000002,68.83333333333334,7.333333333333332,30.0,7.1686216300943375,1.7710000000000004,241,9,45,2,4,77,44,60,0.036000000000000004,0.882,0.083,0.1406,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,2,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,6,9,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,2,6,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,28,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746959229051593,0.0,0.3721808830389461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35021999181739955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781619749251553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33655596170377866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29992996464526595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387243365214322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743186419655433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22820538657510245,0.0,0.0,0.2726997342479113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28342254255199045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ItsLilly22,2019/07/22,I think you should know that when I asked u/MetaEsoTeric to guess how many calories were in one (1) apple he came up with 700. Tbh that made me laugh but it also saddens me cos damn I wish I was that innocent towards food.,0.11702898550724684,2.4533382391304386,1.7652173913043503,96.06202898550728,90.52173913043478,4.8057971014492775,18.536231884057973,6.42735559955562,-0.11443768115941964,173,5,39,2,6,56,40,46,0.141,0.688,0.171,0.1406,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,11,10,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,7,1,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,24,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539723716136447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968988257787777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632322937932053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840246825242232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498553542954126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453624677472449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30050632410381256,0.0,0.3219810411464481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152036133712254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034954536651316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652067342534877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plantbasedmood,2019/07/22,"I always just wanted boys to think I’m hot And now that I’m skinny and they do I can’t stand the compliments and feel an irresistible urge to tell them fuuuuuck you 


Apparently I don’t deserve love",3.7838211382113833,4.9800330731707385,5.857073170731707,77.41211382113823,71.92682926829268,9.369105691056909,25.861788617886177,9.725611199111238,2.2476276422764228,160,5,33,4,3,56,31,41,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.8519,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,9,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,2,9,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590884580328322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789742431315885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4979631807524485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822414854610997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35353007935551906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254281221349049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brenwitching,2019/07/22,"DAE foods you used to love but now hate the taste of because you binged on them too much? peanut butter, milk chocolate, and cool ranch doritos for me",5.147241379310344,6.286358379310348,3.4925862068965543,95.84853448275864,68.65517241379311,5.8000000000000025,24.84482758620689,3.1291,0.07215862068965473,119,3,25,0,2,33,28,29,0.138,0.71,0.152,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751202793305713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5457375314608521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455847330701254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.407333619164472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317718839375396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897952847814061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RefurbishedDalek,2019/07/22,"A good weekend results in lots of... pooping? TW: food, poo, weighing. So I went camping recently.  I was really anxious about it, eating-wise.  But when it came down to it, I worked so hard (physically) that I was ravenous and just ate WHATEVER. Hot dogs.  S'mores.  You name it.

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Since I've been home, I have (OFC!) wanted to try to figure out my calories for the trip.  And to weigh myself (OFC!)  But I haven't. 

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Also, I have pooped TWICE A DAY since I got home.  What.  Like good, solid, easy poos.  WHAAAAT.

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Yesterday I decided not to count kcal until I'd finished eating for the day, and I came in under my TDEE even with some portion sizes over-reported.

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Is this some kind of modern miracle?  Like I'm not cured or anything, but damn.

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Just wanted to share my joy.  I feel like we get so little joy when we're living with ED.",1.4990048474479636,4.1388785868263485,2.7030453378956385,89.8471656686627,86.48502994011976,5.3366410037068714,22.92244083262048,6.868970318607317,0.9131410892500718,672,25,129,9,21,215,109,167,0.039,0.782,0.179,0.9713,0,0,0,0,0,0,63.0,1,1,0,1,10,10,1,0,4,0,7,7,2,1,0,27,17,14,0,2,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,9,5,0,3,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,8,3,17,9,19,9,4,20,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,4,13,76,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806702808362901,0.0,0.4611143541935325,0.5171247142397306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615656116750347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004300329124273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19469946739021415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978522421247516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709465318015998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056218144810381857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043037076570349664,0.06080670305394096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292229301991787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04446946214466607,0.0,0.0,0.14278209211241394,0.06807483430610198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624698634908521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17075605817269424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863494727465017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474975645948708,0.08530833413872567,0.07515875953197441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236236003569244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05452732380444973,0.0,0.0840415267331467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081724260090578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057788001638045185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004069397464683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890314552309448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061965273861086176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5171247142397306,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachihc,2019/07/22,"Ther is never a right choice. I left work early. I am super anxious, sweating cold and with a dead ache of sleep deprivation. I had planned to go to the gym but I don't feel fit to go. But I feel super guilty to be lazy. 

If I don't go to the gym to rest I will feel like a disgusting fat lazy potato and either don't eat and be worse tomorrow or binge and purge till I fall asleep. 
If I let my guilt take me to the gym I will rot inside as my body dysmorphophobia stabs me every time I look in one of the many mirrors. The I will go home and starve or binge and purge till I fall asleep. 

No matter what option misery awaits.",1.5576969696969698,2.8251808370370384,3.181548821548823,94.11151515151516,77.66666666666666,6.094276094276093,18.1986531986532,6.574015621080383,-0.3150740740740741,483,8,117,4,11,160,79,135,0.303,0.61,0.087,-0.9872,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,0,6,1,1,8,0,12,7,6,0,1,20,21,15,1,2,7,0,3,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,3,3,0,6,5,3,0,1,1,5,17,3,14,14,2,16,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,7,69,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370671500067446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330924848071826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21472566156228368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680497702557674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31831453714474783,0.149914593651004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4770430824501864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21049344717553775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22799915886003755,0.214582567409015,0.0,0.10252054520532904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762184581488166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275171532253465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184678643152306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219762047266368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792080179886324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20999834576986767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777867552982347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236335482890932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277096742307014,0.0,0.21385181377772186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pathetic-noose,2019/07/22,"I had a sudden realization Vomiting involuntarily from heat exhaustion after eating a full day of food, has made me not want to b/p anymore. The nausea that came with it made the act of vomiting so much worse for me. And what’s worse? The fact that my mom was concerned that I just vomited up (however many dollars it was) worth of food. That made me feel like a real piece of shit person; I b/p on food that was worth more money than that on a regular basis & I just feel so done with it. I don’t want to do it anymore. This still might not stop me from b/p completely, but I feel this is a start.",3.827142857142857,4.020088658730163,5.536626984126986,83.42017857142856,71.14285714285714,9.157142857142855,26.067460317460323,9.188382445141503,1.7537174603174606,465,13,105,9,8,160,75,126,0.091,0.857,0.052000000000000005,-0.5509,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,8,0,10,9,1,3,1,21,20,4,0,2,5,1,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,13,4,4,1,3,0,4,2,3,2,0,0,9,3,11,1,16,10,4,12,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,7,71,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501713182013546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837755416700679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636348593752057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000699221164504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226881802136212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641108243701395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639712698242435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21702265754209504,0.10220979478448868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5190052701418265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989715698409191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061310978650148,0.0,0.1450513164434581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177548972596605,0.0,0.16756276995983255,0.0,0.0,0.1051734862285274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492388777893908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628458713583376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14686010107506134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126623542194453,0.0,0.1142565107994634,0.11961357949546572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16877370735461894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916026981521989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrashcanDarling,2019/07/22,"Today is the third time in a week I've been asked ""if I ever eat"" by a customer at work Like no, Karen, I survive purely off of air and misanthropy, what did you think??",4.316666666666666,3.4615951111111163,5.524444444444447,87.515,70.1111111111111,8.311111111111114,26.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.0279333333333334,128,3,30,1,2,43,33,36,0.065,0.851,0.084,0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,2,5,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,5,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881676308810903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248660376961335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755834707913817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20285185062150166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660513996209717,0.0,0.0,0.2421137434022296,0.0,0.3935728933270376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330584162177381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022796396657873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crankyhedgiebutt,2019/07/22,"I went on a first date and didn’t hide my eating disorder, AMA! Hey there you lovely people,

I know how many of us don’t want others to know about our eating disorders because it’s such a private and vulnerable journey. It’s a path we feel we have to endure alone. It’s sometimes embarrassing and shameful. “How can I be a grown ass adult who is afraid of bread, and calories?” 

But ya know what? Last night I said “fuck it”and decided to be open and honest. My date went well enough to the point where talking about my gag reflex was relevant. I told him I have issues with it since I used to be bulimic. All he said was,   “Oh, okay.” And we continued what we were doing.

Y’all it felt great. It felt so amazing and relieving to let that out, and so casually. It was like my ED didn’t have its grips on me. I had my grips on it. In that moment, I didn’t let my ED take the wheel.

Of course, it’s a day by day process. Tomorrow I could restrict hardcore or think to myself that I’m fat. But tomorrow I will face my ED again.

Hope this brings you guys comfort, hope, and motivation. Hang in there and try to attack it one day at a time with me. ♥️",0.3925334578275788,2.5832813781512627,2.3250887021475286,94.0930049797697,86.05882352941177,5.710799875505757,19.319016495487087,7.093109894594671,0.2565261126672889,880,25,201,13,27,292,142,238,0.114,0.728,0.157,0.9006,0,1,0,0,0,0,31.0,6,4,0,2,12,17,2,3,8,1,22,8,3,4,1,39,43,17,0,4,3,0,5,1,0,1,1,2,0,2,19,18,4,1,9,1,0,6,4,5,1,2,15,7,32,12,23,21,2,30,0,0,0,3,21,10,2,3,15,131,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582219762905925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919145899808098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994214315399943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470516436232973,0.0,0.0,0.25372467461415593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30059716843171463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683793160362017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550338165497575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630866966227962,0.0,0.2518312425738927,0.0,0.0,0.11154819796796317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123744826222185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458306597661127,0.0,0.12984989408045433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605045766621501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687680163464228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21621446925769175,0.10689715976015284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682004668446164,0.0,0.0640687135428474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835958648310553,0.0,0.0,0.13295606921958078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306664728355822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886432074947707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091643744145232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397033385132288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24948964089762454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848092814939883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297014887472235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860147295787768,0.10540591347595143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840296544387694,0.0,0.0,0.07646918686370463,0.0,0.0,0.12531054251859214,0.0,0.0890359154576117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774609472458334,0.1132634443835654,0.0,0.0,0.07735017257231526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791122338137923,0.2431374539696409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretschuylersister,2019/07/22,"I FIT CLOTHES THAT WERE TOO SMALL FOR ME OMG oh my god !!!!! ok so after going through “recovery” my weight ballooned (ugh) and ive been slowly but surely losing it all!! so a few months ago i bought this super cute denim skirt with a rainbow ribbon on the waist (gay rights)  from forever 21 that was like 3 letter sizes too small for me bc it was the only size they had left ,,, ive been keeping it hanging in my room for so so long and i tried it on today after being scared to try it on just in case i didn’t fit it and omg it fits so good now i’m so happy im going to cry 



anyways thanks for reading i’m just so happy oh my god",-1.1799275362318866,0.8342488333333336,1.4231884057971025,98.51420289855074,93.27536231884058,3.646376811594204,14.913043478260873,5.033348758259628,-1.074147826086956,481,10,114,2,18,164,88,138,0.065,0.636,0.298,0.9921,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,13,12,0,1,4,1,10,3,1,0,2,10,17,11,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,4,2,1,0,1,1,3,1,3,0,0,8,1,13,9,16,8,2,23,0,1,0,1,2,13,0,0,8,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815491910988208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22497104963924755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23279325905237064,0.17178252985382175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360420630670853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212268792446878,0.0,0.0,0.18204201524733565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22252357996521072,0.0,0.0,0.10005843378167664,0.0,0.0,0.1812478928084124,0.0,0.229126825805495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347512214237622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576507510136345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20486258498516186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490419666758675,0.0,0.0,0.20504769731808656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19302832569310244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885589173770676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19413324140042176,0.0,0.0,0.2781012371989783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493999470425733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Merigo,2019/07/22,"Can an eating disorder be related to having anxiety around preparing food for other people? So basically I've always had trouble with eating alone and around other people, I've never really been able to comfortably prepare food for anyone to the point where I just won't do it because it causes me too much anxiety.  


My question is do you think these two things could be related, my general difficulty eating and anxiety around preparing food?",10.027531645569619,9.64422058227848,10.484651898734178,55.069762658227894,58.36708860759494,14.482278481012655,40.003164556962034,13.427899808715575,6.1685924050632925,362,16,50,13,4,123,56,79,0.179,0.7879999999999999,0.033,-0.8577,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,0,11,6,0,1,1,13,12,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,6,6,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,5,1,9,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,1,42,11,0,0.1428033454016004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479011986004483,0.0,0.0,0.1188238231116169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277325050868384,0.0,0.0,0.0998514194479624,0.0,0.0,0.38137576042441457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705159390408422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669837271934494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401685128920537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16366500573187412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383704197202992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5180351163048761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497689003369076,0.0,0.1101387435207084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800371816685364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13499531952489574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159972428930703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148347975290863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487219728623074,0.09150261758698328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949811831971315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mstrldn,2019/07/22,"im full of anxiety because i'm out of control here mention of numbers

first of all i hope this post is allowed. 
So i'm currently in a summer camp which specializes in group competition and language and etc idk. They have three meals here, very timed and i've never been happier. I'm not allowed snacks and it's the best thing ever - but what i'm doing here involves a lot if physical activity - i have to run around all day from one place, to another, i stand pretty much all day, i play competitive sports like volleyball and football and participate in dancing, etc. you get it. Due to all of this, my master plan of 'easy restriction' with these three meals have been kinda ruined. I have to eat a bit more of i'll physically not be able to stay on my feet - especially i'm not sleeping much, so my only energy source is food. I eat around 300 each meal, which in retrospect is not much but i was hoping to eat less. I know that, now that i'm so active(and will be for next 2 weeks) my bmr is much higher, but i can't shake off the anxiety that it won't be enough. How much will my bmr go up exactly if it's 1300(resting) with all the activities? i really need to know or i'll go nuts soon ;(",2.679959016393447,4.257209864754103,4.4016065573770495,85.23478688524591,75.35245901639344,8.158688524590165,24.904918032786888,8.841846274778883,1.7184055737704915,933,31,200,20,20,315,141,244,0.064,0.815,0.121,0.9415,3,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,1,5,12,8,0,1,6,0,19,10,2,4,8,42,33,16,0,5,10,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,14,12,8,2,2,3,0,5,7,2,0,4,3,0,17,6,28,24,20,33,0,1,0,0,5,12,0,7,14,134,31,0,0.12400159372720858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300264829211087,0.18972175958805426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207754165635184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559022059492469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013202232632762,0.0,0.13537762421890956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13907833143459555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994153911630132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806537622442369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812679403561195,0.276589110693613,0.0,0.11216654075147868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547569227812008,0.14994321934548688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478571474542542,0.0,0.14094592666604294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463231236864113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394300000570306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629606598127858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605809151326785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542172064791784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557771959786904,0.09194561053023624,0.09563767353819323,0.0,0.13187710169629574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402668909602604,0.09430879975535904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295552730510684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875924958420565,0.1261542001982192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943859618392632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409114619521106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216919997616622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238114892063951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230632649673675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231430132240878,0.0,0.0,0.09946659882713642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wetbookshelf,2019/07/22,"recovered for like 6 months, gained 20 pounds, then a relapse just hit me like a truck believe it or not the eugenia cooney vid trigged the fuck out of me, that and i looked at pictures of me at my lw and HOLY FUCK did i look good at 90 lbs. looked at skinnygossip for the first time in forever lol. is it fucked up to miss my ed? i feel like i was more complete then",1.2906593406593387,2.9526155384615396,2.5223809523809533,96.82500000000002,79.51282051282051,6.508424908424907,22.68131868131868,7.447530270364453,0.5423164835164838,284,9,70,4,7,91,57,78,0.152,0.674,0.175,0.0173,0,0,0,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,8,3,0,5,1,3,3,0,0,0,7,12,5,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,4,9,4,12,9,1,12,0,1,3,3,0,7,3,1,8,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417163633214709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494413327052626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084793290435321,0.15326948004607968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18249006854172084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5950243207752336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17994839317754127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314444450169568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5404859686549286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124608409862954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510168166136554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shsldepression2,2019/07/22,"Any other Greeks/Cypriots here? I doubt it tbh, but I don't want to feel like I'm the only one in the entire country with an ED lol.",2.084,2.2182040666666687,4.026666666666667,92.91,75.0,6.0,21.66666666666667,3.1291,-0.2273333333333327,102,2,25,0,2,35,27,30,0.099,0.677,0.22399999999999998,0.7066,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026299211597245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993698823282169,0.4229770465070704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892569453124369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012039659586389,0.45029817185119375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492199764974925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Zyxxn,2019/07/22,"Feeling so much guilt for eating a toasted roll with low fat spread... Having to go out later with my anxiety support worker,  have been feeling light headed when moving today, and realised I'd probably not be able to manage without something to keep me going, so I relented, toasted a roll, and after an hour of feeling bad about it, I instantly consider throwing up and realise I've waited too long. I consider Bisacodyl, but it's the first scrap of food I've eaten in 10 days, and then I consider binging and starting the cycle all over again.

I've lost more than 20% bodyweight in the past six months, and struggle alot with my body image and self hate.

I suffer from the most crippling depression at the moment, and it seems that this has propelled my issues with food to the centre stage.  Between food and self harm, it seems like this is all i can control in my life :/

Mental health team don't care, or are perhaps oblivious to it all, and in the mean time i'm busy trying to destroy my life by not eating, and feeling absolutely wrecked when I do.

How do I dig myself out of this hole ?",9.498815513626834,6.850828273584909,9.014591194968556,72.38743186582809,61.07547169811321,11.309014675052412,39.59329140461215,9.150863307647796,3.61924360587002,862,34,158,10,9,277,137,212,0.19,0.764,0.046,-0.9894,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,5,8,13,2,2,11,0,11,12,3,2,3,38,29,19,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,9,17,7,3,7,1,0,4,4,10,0,2,3,5,15,3,30,25,7,31,0,4,0,0,3,10,0,5,17,107,24,3,0.12804138765476822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795131109120804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690921039939616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222511681983305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305467282251899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360930383500373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825761024376135,0.0,0.11028185956616864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26203661027659764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25896629124594184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891193892917267,0.4644844625946153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553774263828242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641436181872032,0.13140740367502493,0.13610200759179916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609497486651686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364194251469755,0.0,0.11380906849394964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808788374685224,0.06255455438781092,0.0,0.0,0.11331259884697725,0.0,0.0,0.13977229996206458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947460777507514,0.0,0.0,0.12903560310022835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220141403994257,0.13608773158068013,0.09412515255714124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222999270148145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805027209208756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331281408453901,0.2671501842259056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857251575285952,0.0,0.0,0.09062835320745047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385665914255535,0.0,0.0,0.14529984935153892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466196282305898,0.0,0.12136826401023068,0.0,0.0,0.08693169736016175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342732853162283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,glittervalleys,2019/07/22,"do your parents ever get mad at you for having an eating disorder? my mom never fails to make me feel like shit when i’m restricting. she gets angry and keeps on telling me how i’m killing myself and then goes on to tell me how she wouldn’t care if i died because it’s my fault i’m not eating. i get that she’s worried but it just makes me feel even more worthless. 

it gets even worse after she finds out that i’ve purged. she calls me disgusting and ungrateful for the food that “god has given me” and how there are people who need it more than i do. i mean she isn’t wrong, but damn, can you at least TRY to comfort me? you’re my mother for fucks sake.

it angers me since she’s the one who used to make fun of me for my stretch marks, how big my butt looked or how i was “getting fat”, and now she wants to act surprised that i have an eating disorder. fucking bullshit.",3.5907657657657666,3.8924463783783807,4.199797297297298,92.41086711711712,71.70270270270271,7.247747747747747,24.605855855855857,6.816661863887847,0.6070450450450453,680,17,159,5,12,216,112,185,0.276,0.642,0.08199999999999999,-0.9924,1,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,3,0,1,12,17,8,0,4,0,10,9,3,9,2,32,33,16,2,4,6,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,11,6,5,2,4,0,0,1,4,12,0,1,2,3,32,5,17,30,3,14,0,2,1,3,19,7,5,2,7,102,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805289818591819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348923001693263,0.0,0.1346881793163036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710243081037446,0.0,0.30280378994752977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055241494619167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450604620851187,0.1194950517976063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335908557280919,0.09437466647742092,0.0,0.0,0.12074007739937592,0.0,0.15973990677030486,0.0,0.0,0.2442548544878116,0.3450927650698501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741953577490567,0.14615279463106334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645390286909635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093355096352586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645400549514542,0.0,0.0,0.14389928600643115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471785813028446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795296725087133,0.10188625481969593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951665531129993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466851474318405,0.0,0.0,0.09158383616661743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356022002296654,0.1092772641606758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309283179234113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968950966062461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409488785535872,0.0,0.0,0.07791798415863384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415737410027553,0.13462460931487086,0.0,0.14443428576481146,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MuddyWalruss,2019/07/22,"Got told i was looking great today Someone who knows about my ED saw me today and went on about how much better i'm looking. I know heaps of people on here have had this happen to them and it was just waiting to happen to me one day. 

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Oh and wanna know what i did afterwards? Binged. Even after I've binged the past 3 days hahahahahaha kill me",2.8866666666666667,4.5996765555555585,4.167777777777779,86.555,75.1111111111111,5.911111111111111,21.722222222222207,6.42735559955562,0.3411222222222219,280,7,57,2,6,92,54,72,0.063,0.843,0.094,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,1,1,6,3,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,10,18,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,8,3,8,2,10,10,1,10,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,7,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20763359662862985,0.2328543090161162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694832615248047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24717405511897714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657137537155902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326591504177725,0.21127536831007776,0.0,0.0,0.33891975002824565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120128285841409,0.0,0.3159484225751337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32184585979392905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087184402907585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298550557712464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293478416478584,0.13285375902175334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236948819954325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36329016619334537,0.1831129451082051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776451301209792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328543090161162,0.0
EDAnonymous,bamboobamwho,2019/07/22,"Recovered from an ED... but seeing a photo from myself when I was at my lowest is kinda 'triggering'. Idk what to do.... So, I've recovered (yay) gained a bunch of weight and I look normal now, healthy, whatever you wanna call it.

My sister and I was just going through some old photos on my sister's phone and fuck... I saw a photo when I was at my lowest point of life and my lowest weight as well. 

I miss that so much... even though I look sick? Skinny as a cancer patient? Even though I was struggling to walk a kilometer without wanting to faint? Even though I was having high af high rate to the point where my therapist is concerned? Even though I know I could die from a heart attack due to the electrolyte imbalances? I MISS IT SO MUCH???? Why??

I have no desire to go back to my old horrible horrible habits but sometimes, I truly truly miss it. 

I don't understand why...",2.2989667630057795,4.3364401791907525,3.7008634393063597,87.78748013005783,77.84393063583815,6.6371387283237,21.795158959537574,7.645422480735847,0.9240638728323702,673,19,135,10,16,221,98,173,0.27,0.627,0.102,-0.9885,3,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,1,18,8,2,1,9,1,12,9,2,1,0,18,25,17,1,5,4,2,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,2,0,0,3,3,6,1,0,6,6,24,2,20,18,4,18,0,3,4,1,5,8,1,2,7,99,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398041295979049,0.0,0.0944941577559052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548354458508928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098116973092068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753951832478164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32466845331106364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360902321619475,0.0,0.0,0.13968145248934646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456242142505535,0.0,0.2596782321162966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753665364859207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680022887596234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20639184254164375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18067530506694104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040525847134227,0.0,0.0,0.2579029457371811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23233990385828734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792672846270001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154049476847915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847040386543232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268375505040504,0.0,0.0,0.4829517967800453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793192133366355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248319456986721,0.0,0.0,0.2992917148501769,0.1104920889262829,0.0,0.22177665663639107,0.0,0.0,0.11846073886844707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nontanu,2019/07/22,"I binge and then cry about it What the actual fuck, brain?

I have never eaten so many calories in my goddamn life. First I told myself I'm gonna enjoy the day, next thing I know after having finished eating is my brain freaking the fuck out about everything I've eaten, telling me to go purge, but since I didn't drink anything because this meal was supposed to be ~guilt free~ barely anything came up. And what I did next will shock you! 

Ya. Kept on binging throughout the day because the day was ruined anyway. So now I'm at a surplus of like 5000 calories. Holy fuck.

I better have the energy to lift a fucking mountain or at least hit a new bench PR or something today. Ugh. Anyway I'm back on track. Just wanted to share because I'm pissed I've lost a week of progress and nobody could understand better than you guys. 

Oh and yeah, language. Sorry.",1.5792603550295825,4.147562710059173,2.5776893491124246,91.63221449704143,84.62130177514793,4.326745562130177,21.46775147928994,5.6839178017228535,0.18819502958579906,674,22,129,4,20,213,114,169,0.193,0.677,0.13,-0.8999,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,0,5,9,17,5,1,10,1,11,13,3,0,1,16,31,10,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,6,5,1,2,1,1,2,2,11,0,1,10,0,14,7,17,16,1,24,0,2,0,4,7,7,5,2,16,75,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.12807567505783124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21600603983764047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091889980139987,0.0,0.2400162408180621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23215014479469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930244778236211,0.0,0.1501087151224288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047880335827033,0.0,0.14416589268511987,0.2539254857785609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856961990632992,0.0,0.13429586283053666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795407116198868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163648312806948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853336080356174,0.0,0.0,0.07458925949845523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995266417353976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212853095204373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270185383629602,0.06411942092078783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432688478407665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306129770441494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122382984889017,0.12675673149512515,0.2791599755454029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856678570949048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103840864399398,0.0,0.14691744427603354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147134557165557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719299720071831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12440441599586645,0.12540971992809574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663012674099145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741139160134661,0.0,0.10527640105449687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stonesandsticks82,2019/07/22,Grandma basically called me a fatass First off she said that why don’t I go work for my sister for her stupid business and she proceeds say: “you can buy whatever you want to eat”,1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,82.8888888888889,5.822222222222222,22.88888888888889,7.1686216300943375,0.8720222222222218,142,5,29,2,4,46,33,36,0.095,0.868,0.036000000000000004,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,8,0,4,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,2,18,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047195163650637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055668545413917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371366500801785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22525586953883106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37702133828324585,0.3151948704860512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337785687191791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576458630959269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885488407497494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imachichio,2019/07/22,"That's it I'm caving! Fuck this I'm getting phentermine, it may be a short term fix but it stops me from thinking about food and dieting and binging. 

Can't wait 🙏",-1.1536190476190455,0.7985416857142873,1.182142857142857,96.97702380952384,103.57142857142858,4.61904761904762,20.11904761904762,6.42735559955562,0.3494761904761909,129,5,29,2,6,43,30,35,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.5334,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,7,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6286903008383817,0.0,0.0,0.4806584060737787,0.2716371615276849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346770732606075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331442581842504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,j01ene,2019/07/22,Today I got diagnosis changed from bulimia nervosa to anorexia nervosa. I feel proud and motivated to prove that my new therapist is right. I feel like now I am not allowed to eat because anorexics do not eat.. Fuck me.. Why do I feel that way even?,2.504375000000003,5.00408235416667,4.379000000000001,80.76600000000002,79.625,8.006666666666666,32.516666666666666,8.841846274778883,3.1974116666666665,195,11,37,5,5,66,35,48,0.0,0.773,0.22699999999999998,0.8873,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,1,9,9,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,7,2,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,22,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523387892527774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26436465447972896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114271203198042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650588346142291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790759937667004,0.17853103436034226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310316605446063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19987057301554545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209017503194253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413582548388153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213416132732606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901571013360839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368791967482932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19836168183800554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254989427874625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amberlangley,2019/07/22,"Binging/restricting cycle - please help me Struggling with binge eating more since school ended, as I couldn't get a summer job and am bored alone at home all day. Currently having one of my worst binges ever after a day of reasonably clean eating, feeling sick and like total crap. I went through treatment for anorexia last year but this cycle has only gotten worse. 

**Any advice or ways to prevent this from happening again?**",4.576973684210525,7.621441434210527,4.1071052631578935,82.53723684210526,75.44736842105263,5.905263157894738,23.97368421052632,7.1686216300943375,1.3286631578947374,343,11,53,4,8,103,68,76,0.19,0.6940000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.7964,2,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,2,0,4,4,1,1,3,12,9,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,3,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,2,1,4,1,10,6,4,13,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,11,33,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097149360488656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21300483296020567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985788570592605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652712289914529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4208891652481602,0.0,0.0,0.1821563651584713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860339489119749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10398938724140833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745042386463513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18186710287249336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785156702841425,0.0,0.2062967477369303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20408878328640984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764278634938098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047654849055178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393625646454327,0.15641597144830238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22575620361790685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114558068751102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20814192573499696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012655061684132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21500361140356744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16324570866287388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19065165220862496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209588157122996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13244022265435862
EDAnonymous,mfpbitch,2019/07/22,birthday lunch it’s my dads birthday today and we’re going for lunch. i’m fucking terrified and i hate that i’ve managed to make HIS DAY all about me in my head. honestly such a shit daughter,0.7035000000000018,3.1382123500000034,2.575000000000003,90.85000000000002,88.0,5.2,25.5,6.742157984588678,1.1655999999999995,154,7,31,2,5,51,34,40,0.264,0.669,0.067,-0.8707,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,1,4,5,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,5,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,2,16,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628635691181633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376812878874906,0.0,0.0,0.2316443216740737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024134023589797,0.4183076957969171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27207128907225725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183880443846933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38635021651097895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rhabarberjunge,2019/07/22,"i have to weigh myself this week an i’m terrified 🤡🔫 someone please just shoot me

i’m getting my wisdom teeth out in a week and since i told the to knock me tf out while doing it the obviously want to know my weight for the anesthesia. 

i haven’t weighed myself in months, bc i know i gained weight and i’m so scared of being over 55kg. 
i eat like 1000cals or less a day and still can’t loose the weight.

the only good thing is that i won’t even be allowed to eat solid food for a couple of days, so hopefully i’ll loose more weight that way lol.",0.023634615384615643,2.014374658333334,1.875000000000004,98.06076923076924,85.75,5.0256410256410255,16.73076923076923,6.297961479604792,-0.5478653846153847,429,9,104,4,13,141,78,120,0.11800000000000001,0.698,0.184,0.7311,1,0,0,1,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,9,1,8,10,1,1,1,13,17,7,0,2,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,9,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,13,4,13,13,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,8,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622987588124938,0.0,0.18919308097188745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001807554619915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968808334591101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773661788898271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663430678093076,0.0,0.0,0.12302832238188305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14568645188216053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612231118308502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166049573721854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707866944015975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155683812385317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101072051189058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146852384993858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133530797400205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428158656665415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171389303710574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744775162483814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015913698620874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086515732958873,0.11642784894084145,0.2353158834143379,0.7144674633186081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,landfill7707,2019/07/22,"I haven’t felt pretty in so long I know part of that came from being in a toxic relationship with a toxic person but beyond that, i just can’t remember the last time I was genuinely in love with being alive and being myself. Granted, it‘s not all misery anymore and I’m taken aback sometimes by how much better things are than before, but I feel like I’m just cashing in one scraped-together moment of happiness and beauty at a time but inevitably wasting them by being so disgusted by what I look like.",6.040606060606059,6.400570989898991,6.816717171717173,75.57840909090909,66.37373737373737,9.024242424242424,29.631313131313128,8.841846274778883,2.4145070707070717,404,13,71,6,6,134,68,99,0.079,0.604,0.316,0.9829,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,6,6,1,0,4,0,8,1,0,1,1,18,17,9,0,0,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,4,3,8,5,15,9,3,12,0,0,1,1,4,6,0,0,7,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216006942605985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013806529804714,0.0,0.0,0.19762188353658133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555653544303024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129821860817097,0.1596315267424264,0.21454543165007264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23786489505296454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280135475319788,0.1821402066598576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183311278112251,0.0,0.0,0.1977447345248943,0.1876403145912377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20167083569459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426022784688418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141436668957273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419727591473737,0.0,0.0,0.19510645701617188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273272758184437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398998759181535,0.25312339154024016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099610520537466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844913711550656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260589028365528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hazyjays,2019/07/22,"anyone else prefer to talk about food in terms of numbers not by name? i don’t discuss food much outside my doctors + psyh appointments but i always hate naming foods. 

like “last night i had a taco for dinner” makes me way more uncomfy than saying “i had 220 calories for dinner” even though that’s my only intake for the day + even though i know it’s better for me for my doctor not to know what i’m eating in terms of calories y’know? same goes for feeling the need to explain foods - if i say i had spaghetti i feel kind of like i need to immediately justify that it was shirataki noodles not proper spaghetti even though letting my doctor think it was regular pasta is smarter. does this make sense even a little bit?",4.030390524967988,5.6336646126760614,4.817784891165172,83.51396286811783,71.88732394366197,6.853777208706785,26.289372599231754,7.348242739294969,1.3724140845070418,573,19,107,6,11,185,91,142,0.036000000000000004,0.846,0.11800000000000001,0.8907,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,0,4,0,8,11,0,2,0,19,20,5,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,0,8,0,7,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,4,15,4,18,14,6,9,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,7,67,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589533979885324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058388921189359,0.1180849139731505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019272475701866,0.1258206671894143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432524864808464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35388279109791426,0.10085406109961854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792719466520896,0.09627468626969347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044801426814123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654542549322094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574320278533195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378326897862324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200127711603226,0.19001140760152532,0.0939422780740156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784860744864065,0.0,0.11260843444280512,0.11550849747035775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538575031765644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472033870978382,0.1709094561054713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815218315144028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765108839452289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329923381591506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263175613478336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738460889088362,0.3396909150523749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147828004741383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bigladvodka,2019/07/22,"Checking the nutritional info of trash on the ground (I've been lurking for ages and this is my first post so please let me know if I need to add a TW or something.)

So yeah I got a summer job picking up trash (how fitting) and I just HAVE to check the calorie count on every candy wrapper etc. I pick up. Also if an ice cream wrapper I pick up has a smaller calorie count than the ice cream I had yesterday it makes me feel really guilty so like :))) Why can't I just function like a normal person without obsessing over dumb shit like this?? EDs are so great amirite (not)

But on the plus side I get a bunch of exercise since I have to walk a lot and we have to bring our own lunches so I guess that's cool",1.2954440154440157,3.1717394324324357,2.8044787644787665,93.78472972972976,80.35135135135134,5.5799227799227795,22.73359073359073,6.5431188927421005,0.4060563706563705,548,18,123,5,14,179,100,148,0.053,0.76,0.187,0.9679,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,2,0,0,1,9,8,2,1,12,2,10,3,1,5,0,26,18,15,0,4,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,3,1,2,2,3,3,0,1,3,4,15,5,17,14,4,17,0,0,2,0,3,10,2,5,7,80,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270143119899514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408501117484726,0.0,0.0,0.1819538202762396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919478824884606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836936545204298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282907412378256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272123734936334,0.2380943148775915,0.2379019419142329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143048638529736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868479796672694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208315544143637,0.0,0.3165183215551794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359965896772806,0.0,0.0,0.1441535556523266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013002475372076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21159286111743425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18856608283765902,0.0,0.2370568911296035,0.0,0.0,0.20682794388970266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834814190667455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167765090589608,0.1786425823145469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625491963457553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948683882353932,0.0,0.0,0.20817568090870225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,season2episode3ga,2019/07/22,"I'm in recovery and my osfed(atypical anorexia) has switched to bulimia I decided to go into recovery myself after struggling about three years with an ED, it mainly consisted of fasting/restricting and allowed me to get at my lowest weight, eventually I got into binging and got back at my highest. Since then it's bounced. My family hasn't really realized my weight fluctuations after affecting my long term relationship with my boyfriend, I decided to go to therapy for my Ed, where I got diagnosed with atypical anorexia. It fucking awful. I hate therapy. It's a bunch of HAES and shit I know is true but I don't care to hear. All I do is nod my head and smile. I'm just so fucking tired of it. I was fine for a few weeks but then started to feel disgusted again. I go into my work washroom and throw up. My eyes are so red and watery after and I claim it's just anxiety attacks. I fucking hate recovery. Purging makes me feel somewhat useful. I just can't do it. I've been in therapy for a few months now too. I feel like if I tell my therapist she's gonna hospitalize me. I'm so scared all the time. Idk rip",2.2458499796168,4.509638022421528,4.5021952710966175,80.83807072971872,79.0896860986547,8.53885038728088,28.522013860578884,9.218907990703514,2.8662125560538114,881,41,171,25,22,305,123,223,0.18100000000000002,0.758,0.061,-0.9808,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,12,14,8,2,5,1,11,10,3,4,3,35,36,16,0,1,6,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,7,14,2,0,7,0,0,4,3,10,0,1,5,8,32,4,28,30,8,28,0,0,2,3,4,9,4,2,16,115,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622457488371412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309769547255416,0.0,0.09672029180669246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282453832009625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766832344986798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857815685646594,0.0,0.1908008249717257,0.08986026337498222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488564204909367,0.0657170571625739,0.0,0.21445819242578465,0.0,0.30180336538858604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483717285596236,0.1290908862202749,0.0,0.1417679442077893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912771121166096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061451810455118674,0.0,0.0,0.11131506593991776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396193561421235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039975482666748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058058457558859,0.0,0.0,0.13504516603674974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593193550624118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911568201176232,0.1040499967300566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903070987664162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149696494979055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109940942012781,0.0,0.4315356123765493,0.14604516038122348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334578325289381,0.144570443566977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863716985823224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089650452380458,0.3063425579220583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09157240155448984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100090599703147
EDAnonymous,5525Jello,2019/07/22,"It’s 3 am and I just got out of my hotel room bed to open a pack of hard boiled eggs that I bought from walgreens, 
 took it to the bathroom sink where I peeled off the whites, and now I’m eating three egg whites from a glass cup in my bed in the complete darkness. All while my randomly assigned roommate is asleep.


That’s all.",2.944782608695654,3.8702895652173934,3.302144927536233,95.96713043478262,73.63768115942028,6.0997101449275375,23.94492753623189,5.6839178017228535,0.18511362318840607,256,7,60,1,5,79,50,69,0.055,0.945,0.0,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,2,5,1,0,2,8,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,4,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,6,0,10,3,2,10,0,0,2,0,0,7,0,1,2,36,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4774271263594746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659380113687533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641859949224529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079052834490888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059119976977492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bumblebee-babe,2019/07/22,"DAE feel like you’re not going to be a person until you’re thin enough? like i’m not exactly grotesque but my brain is still all “oh you can’t learn a new skill or make a new friend or use a damn bath bomb bc you’re literally not human”

is this my ed or could it maybe be something else?",0.4619270833333324,2.096739671875003,2.213750000000001,98.18958333333336,81.96875,5.5166666666666675,16.916666666666664,6.42735559955562,-0.5885645833333335,225,4,57,2,6,74,47,64,0.124,0.757,0.11800000000000001,-0.3421,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,4,0,6,1,1,2,2,14,11,5,0,1,7,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,2,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,3,6,27,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29609154267652515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176968387069695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157097880562035,0.0,0.0,0.27406010459221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411149390563826,0.18948493800944768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049209856148357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507399591735878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25916221603014633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177047357391138,0.0,0.26646561519435336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5123339381308195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315941948773368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20419193991697107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21181813261303686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290790903895796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,numberonesleepygirl,2019/07/22,"How did it get so bad so fast Flipping through my favourite vegan cookbooks, studying each recipe, drinking whiskey and diet cokes at 2 am. Feeling increasingly disgusted with each recipe with all the oil and butter and indulgence. How did I get like this? How is looking at fun food making me nauseous and less hungry? Two months ago I would have been salivating, now I just feel sick. I’m too old for this",5.044780701754384,7.007457776315793,4.565789473684212,84.88885964912285,69.92105263157895,7.698245614035088,31.08771929824561,8.344100000000001,2.3235245614035094,325,14,60,5,6,98,60,76,0.138,0.775,0.087,-0.7392,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,1,0,7,7,1,4,1,17,14,9,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,8,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,6,5,2,6,10,5,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,6,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721938333093851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563857311891056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30080595709133684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31052171130241885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713031774761907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208566795490322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001602860980598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578565418890753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20496769813536392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450956673358725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222121616428577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29995704704452425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21812955526749545,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loveourearth,2019/07/22,"I feel like I’m never going to fully recover. Every fucking time I think I’m getting better, something happens and I crawl right back to my ED. How the fuck am I suppose to progress in life, finish school, have a career, be in a relationship, or raise kids if I can’t fucking stop making myself puke. I feel like such a failure of a human being and I can’t ever see myself getting better. 

Sorry this is so negative; I just needed to rant.",2.284522471910112,4.200214573033712,4.658862359550561,81.47570926966293,77.42696629213485,5.798314606741574,24.608146067415728,6.6274283507984215,1.1081337078651683,343,12,62,3,8,120,63,89,0.221,0.637,0.142,-0.8193,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,6,7,3,0,5,0,7,4,0,2,2,14,22,6,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,3,11,4,7,20,0,10,0,0,1,3,3,3,3,2,8,43,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510458246595784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33379327257963104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706969294242207,0.15899438644300118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083257866244255,0.26962565463239363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233717174579836,0.1971839820236552,0.0,0.1072469416260738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668736067001543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328983789168689,0.18438611239281186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259638632468529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399243775050602,0.14554302112620354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026014610354248,0.0,0.161155355155229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098227939148574,0.15037561457019616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527641629232466,0.0,0.21124283410334754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776809718868148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091628230769905,0.0,0.0,0.11003698454323088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,y5mme,2019/07/22,"hungry need to vent because no one to talk to about this irl. 

i’m really tired of obsessing over calories and my weight and obsessively measuring my waist and thighs and checking to see how many ribs i can see or how far my hip bones are sticking out. 
i did everything i could in December to try to get down to my lowest weight possible (i did it) by eating roughly 600-800 calories a day, and then burning between 200-400 everyday- usually surviving off of 400-600 calories a day. and fuck i loved it. i loved that i could see my ribs on my chest, and i loved that my thighs didn’t touch (still don’t) when i am sitting down, and i loved the feeling of doing ab exercises on the gym floor because it hurt my spine laying the ground. 
i have countless pictures of me in my phone in different positions seeing how my abs looked, and how my ribs/hip bones looked in those angles. i have my measuring tape hanging on my shoe rack and everytime i miss place it i tear up my entire room until i find it. 
i constantly am feeling my shoulder/collar bones, and i do this thing where i see how far down my thigh i can completely wrap my hands around- if i was able to do this with my arms i would do it too. 
i don’t particularly like the way my body looks right now because my waist gained an inch since December and my abs aren’t as defined as before, but i don’t want to feel like this anymore, i don’t want to constantly be in this cycle 
i don’t want to recover because recovery means (a pretty big) weight gain and that is my worst fear.",4.527747603833866,4.945122054313104,5.404873801916932,84.18667172523963,69.67092651757189,9.071501597444088,29.388019169329077,9.120678840339163,2.1986129073482434,1205,43,257,22,20,395,160,313,0.079,0.809,0.11199999999999999,0.8078,3,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,12,13,1,3,8,0,26,28,17,5,0,36,50,26,0,8,3,0,9,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,16,16,6,0,5,2,1,1,8,7,0,1,4,17,48,6,38,42,1,40,0,2,8,5,6,26,1,2,13,166,64,0,0.10112744503487743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002912517195046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002486634444147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465854074490076,0.0,0.08605200733640764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232979388318176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603020208891184,0.21856568379934468,0.0,0.16148407209050847,0.0,0.0,0.13043767196540826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056566561819575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347862276500952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088682686204938,0.0,0.0,0.11379649076751056,0.15339922424812605,0.07224546693913537,0.0,0.0,0.09242865268373916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934906933888046,0.05283491614935345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825902147740324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881152299897028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547647526943181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650858696921549,0.0,0.0,0.10252735668523474,0.0,0.11015743416937064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498471911215834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852657395448132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056566561819575,0.0,0.0,0.11400599959899632,0.0,0.10288296757322273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478483080556674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636228550881317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029274033917559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365366755503277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076050823649926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128240967949954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718458093134996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623112161945895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865889699884845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137759352809762,0.0,0.17894276160997427,0.08027025877357633,0.0,0.36943795248050504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183803546463301,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ulzzangwhore,2019/07/22,"yet another post about vacation struggles i relapsed because of this trip, i’m going with friends who KNOW i’ve relapsed, i binged today and gained back 3 pounds,,,

i just want to hit my GW and feel good before i go on the beach, and i’m terrified i won’t be able to bring my scale or that my friends will take it from me, and that i won’t have any safe foods with me there?? 

i only have one swimsuit that “fits” me and i still don’t feel comfortable in feminine stuff like that so it’s a wonderful shitstorm of dysphoria and dysmorphia and ED and to top it off the girl i want to look like more than anything is on the trip so i get to be walking next to my IRL thinspo 

this trip is gonna be HELL",3.2794630872483204,3.7597721476510064,4.3176442953020135,90.64572818791949,72.48993288590603,8.10765100671141,27.651677852349,8.238735603445708,1.4999712751677845,546,19,128,8,10,178,93,149,0.075,0.7240000000000001,0.201,0.9414,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,8,9,1,1,4,0,11,1,0,0,0,19,27,11,0,2,2,0,2,2,2,4,0,0,0,1,11,10,1,1,4,1,0,7,3,2,0,1,0,3,17,7,17,19,1,19,1,0,1,0,4,6,1,2,7,78,28,0,0.20333190642406412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382726689165352,0.21321123272114748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673248339857754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634968511055308,0.0,0.12394924289758635,0.0,0.17302047626432976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20562144265642024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458697483513851,0.0,0.31418745303326,0.0,0.1062325288916228,0.0,0.231116416412836,0.17054515609154622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174589818192199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986753975749768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17074759094699835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162457892321771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778296206404503,0.1546430773221171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473576022393727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623811231247887,0.0,0.0,0.21256665668445174,0.2327663861231548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288028866291833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927348723142359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23986085311390534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205047789584753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,averybluebitch,2019/07/22,Have been maintaining for a year now after gaining it all back from my lw and I am Not Happy Also mom bought a shitload of cookies and fkdndjd fuck everything,3.1844086021505404,5.614005290322582,4.807741935483873,78.99827956989247,76.74193548387099,8.004301075268819,29.68817204301075,8.841846274778883,2.914991397849463,128,6,22,3,3,43,29,31,0.18899999999999997,0.7290000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.5716,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,5,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,3,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316926450589505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31893370653096503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3727699092057326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834495986863178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44153200948611604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857754064627986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26709926841031273
EDAnonymous,Geeawf0,2019/07/22,Lmao I nearly past out today bc I eat so irregularly LMAO so I was helping my girlfriend's sister and brother in law move into their new apartment and was moving a couch and it wasn't even like heavy or whatever but i don't know I guess bc it was so warm today and I only either binge or fast and its been a fast heavy week that when I got back inside I just fuckin collapsed and couldn't see for a few seconds and it felt like I could feel all the blood leaving my head and limbs!!!! And I totally embarrrased myself in front of my gf's sister and her husband!!! WOOOO!!! WOW isn't life GRAND when you don't eat anything??? Love it good times my therapist is going to be PLEASED when she hears about it.,0.9401712328767148,3.1874238904109617,2.4358732876712352,93.85120719178086,84.06849315068494,5.019863013698631,19.39897260273973,6.322622252153567,-0.04176575342465716,552,15,120,5,16,179,94,146,0.099,0.728,0.174,0.9291,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,1,0,10,8,1,0,4,0,12,7,2,0,2,26,21,19,0,2,5,4,3,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,7,12,2,0,3,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,7,5,19,7,9,11,4,22,0,0,1,2,13,6,1,3,14,78,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14602467557884252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364466439396772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416778773404714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631474345097008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172028035897595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897230965085251,0.0,0.17037801388867713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084785062598088,0.148835056318826,0.14192146435095598,0.0,0.19547909965530635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18211295539884265,0.0,0.1999969173381028,0.0,0.11893972818234605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975208409928482,0.0,0.0,0.1878919277874902,0.0,0.0,0.12533684837865847,0.17338436731304252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015384797825102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771985184787933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713804911003667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495728433470744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939430037210595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19478473892326187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414031699742037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20603093337928696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347142037149916,0.0,0.33640012103413786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233817092934992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gingyshae,2019/07/22,"I cant stop shaking?? I feel nauseous, lightheaded, and clammy but i dont want any doctors involved😅😅😅",-0.2078787878787871,2.0803751818181797,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,92.63636363636364,4.751515151515153,30.06060606060606,6.42735559955562,1.8002242424242432,82,5,16,1,3,29,17,22,0.087,0.7140000000000001,0.19899999999999998,0.1852,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33237006006040554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5002613022149249,0.0,0.0,0.5728170474914976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24712913904437175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4086209419815486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28828027541629125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imokayjustfine,2019/07/22,"Why are eating disorders so stigmatized? Like no, friend, I don’t hate you because you’re fat. 

I’m not fatphobic. I’m not ass backwards. This isn’t a political statement. 

I’ve taken fucking introductory Women’s Studies courses too, okay—and regardless, I am FULLLY AWARE that standards of beauty are highly questionable, ever-changing, culturally varied and largely patriarchal, not even just for women but across that big gender board! 

I know. Believe me. 

Fucking shit, Susan. I don’t hate you for being fat. 

I hate myself for being fat because I believe I am worthless in general. 

I don’t believe *everyone* is worthless in general! It’s me. I’m a piece of shit.

And should I say so? Should I wear a big dumb sign that says it? Would you be satisfied? Is That Voice Right? *Do* I *deserve* to feel this way? The mind demands answers. 

This is a mental illness, after all.

I mean, I didn’t just wake up one day and arbitrarily decide that ravaging my own digestive tract might be fun—or HEY, that maybe I was interested in delightfully PANICKING at Social Eating Events where the restaurant doesn’t offer nutritional information. For the rest of my life.

It baffles me because I feel like people tend to be at least *a little* less shitty when it comes to lots of other mental illnesses, but suddenly you’re a goddamn lepur if you’re at all open about struggling with an eating disorder (or an addiction for that matter)! 

Even if you’re actively getting help! 

Unless you’re a famous #recoverywarrior or something, in which case you’re really, *really* actively countering the stigma. 

And that burden falls on you. 

It’s fucked up. 

My head hurts just typing this out. 

Now that I think of it, I should probably supplement electrolytes to make sure I don’t die. But whatever. I’m just an asshole, right? 

Maybe I am. Maybe I’m just an asshole, and the ED Voice really loves it.

For fuck’s sake, even just here on Reddit, people on unrelated subs often get *so weird* about seeing ED Posts in your history. 

This used to be my ED Side Account for that reason. Now it’s just my account because fuck it. 

I’m tired, folks. I’m so tired.

TL;DR: *having an eating disorder doesn’t make you a bad person*, “you” as in literally anyone reading this. 

Except me. I am a bad person. 

Unless I’m not? I don’t know. One can’t be certain. 

I’m going to sleep (fingers crossed).",1.7377599295852129,4.50966606935123,3.7139538636447007,81.48714600066015,88.53020134228187,6.421080426889647,23.658965049327026,7.696955130343263,1.7791011038984863,1851,73,325,39,61,623,221,447,0.228,0.6829999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.9977,0,0,1,0,0,0,89.0,0,7,0,0,23,26,11,1,19,0,34,28,11,4,4,63,68,20,1,7,21,0,3,2,1,5,10,4,0,4,27,9,8,0,12,1,2,4,15,19,0,2,3,8,38,7,42,53,8,39,0,3,1,7,22,26,9,8,9,208,65,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863107747341725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055359934941559816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322130899211835,0.19305366320208195,0.0,0.0,0.2676041839124892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837550390461927,0.06820093864088449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106034183649119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216956768476416,0.0,0.2722189865587771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240569244475273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688000158614845,0.07161694135283576,0.0,0.07565364874085245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006497621473521,0.05656154671370486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061169230769646,0.36597301155673145,0.08272974636357439,0.0,0.04499611067763993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345022471501,0.08125482740677625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053068311719501236,0.08365112378660249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475684302286833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702334313430081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05592256718042312,0.07736032184091336,0.07935262206496413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731045759612977,0.07145715277369316,0.0,0.10569781937092597,0.0,0.2386211933213401,0.08624312531444887,0.0,0.0,0.159576482998896,0.0839905458203059,0.0799426404298047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072999920430145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977783807686917,0.13826244987898956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582630395478893,0.0,0.08536239754071792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869241225621592,0.0,0.07919490096254045,0.0,0.15216166726566868,0.08140351913325716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352274309535389,0.0,0.1259238510095282,0.0,0.0,0.06309100934560961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254086968575174,0.0,0.0,0.07923065363278972,0.08070738771694627,0.0,0.06095160950259764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276930699257994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462006367506041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050731166212792285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199652638701647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838046236454523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284421962651034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144174698848517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056242565394127884,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vodkamom,2019/07/22,"I’m dreading work tomorrow because I know I’ll be forced to eat food. I work a 9-6 M-F and I sometimes hate my office. The girls are all super thin and don’t gain weight regardless of what they eat, BUT they still keep a weight scale in the kitchen area and weigh themselves throughout the day. It’s so demoralizing being around that and still struggling to drop the pounds.

On top of that, they also are a bit judgy if I skip lunch. If I haven’t eaten by 1PM they’ll remind me every 15 minutes to eat. When I get my period I get really nauseous and will throw up after most meals - that’s exactly what happened all of last week but they were still pressuring me to eat! I. DONT. WANT. TO. 

I really dread having to go into work and figure out how to make it seem like I’m not starving myself, or eating just enough that I won’t feel horrible and cry but still “please” them into seeing that I ate.",3.10060231660232,4.335375372972976,4.233841698841701,88.24412162162163,73.64864864864866,7.231660231660233,22.40347490347489,7.7094869923839395,0.7985907335907334,704,17,151,9,14,230,120,185,0.153,0.767,0.081,-0.9278,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,6,6,10,7,1,4,7,0,12,14,0,2,3,32,28,17,0,4,8,0,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,9,11,14,1,4,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,3,5,22,2,19,20,5,24,0,0,1,0,7,10,0,5,12,95,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588856815489856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674152029449943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07309341946934983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090600074874176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171081295945888,0.07732927564697553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052862136844094,0.0,0.0,0.6134674762891282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238946708714431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102574816822868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060627939342868115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144990483450716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529158894469394,0.0,0.06814518901529049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603224015369588,0.0,0.0,0.11838208322076915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657772126437136,0.0,0.0,0.06589705284879584,0.0977391727337004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05857988251362853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003800518602479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162048341960472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15362936070907238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955493417602983,0.10915767233092667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858983195555813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3830274802491897,0.0,0.0,0.12535150226832453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07072350561034442,0.0,0.09618114319604948,0.29202575024384536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26187839633157645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pessimistic_Sheep,2019/07/22,DAE get triggered by those sketchy “Lose Your Belly Fat With This Cool Trick!!!” ads Like I just wanna watch game of thrones illegally why do you have to do me like hat,1.3922727272727258,3.9540857272727297,1.5729545454545466,98.47943181818184,85.66666666666667,4.512121212121213,20.37121212121212,5.985473137389443,-0.2107515151515149,131,4,29,1,4,39,31,33,0.1,0.691,0.209,0.6458,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,1,5,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,5,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28788774367307995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5384058209662229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6164558652915043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4972142245956096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yugogrl2000,2019/07/22,"That moment when you let something slip I was watching 30 Rock with my husband. There was a scene where Jenna Maroney was eating a jar of baby food with a pair of chopsticks. My husband laughed at this, but I said, ""man, that's a good idea!"". Totally did not mean to think out loud there. My husband chuckled though. I was so relieved that I didn't have to hear a lecture about why I shouldn't think that way. You gotta love the people in your life that just understand and let it be.",3.7371428571428567,4.765244142857141,3.8373469387755113,92.48622448979592,71.85714285714286,6.416326530612245,27.26530612244898,6.1826913282559595,0.8450857142857142,378,13,82,2,7,116,70,98,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.9652,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,0,8,5,0,0,6,0,11,4,0,0,1,14,19,5,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,7,4,2,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,4,11,5,10,7,1,7,0,0,1,1,10,4,0,0,2,56,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314017689078281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734542224491473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896788578675889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548807236412591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25528904965367155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624951234422102,0.1597321950700937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041037892480151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463371123814323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567797754124398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21511473045151366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740966995934581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898078878064043,0.22218533180067948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354238793927843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795025810603999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040597855476822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tired_and_alonex,2019/07/22,"Stomach ache, you know what that means Not eating and it being allowed

All jokes aside, i don't actually condone and I am in actual pain whenever i eat and drink literally anything",15.795294117647051,8.577753823529411,15.022941176470585,47.91323529411767,54.88235294117648,18.30588235294118,54.58823529411765,14.554592549557764,7.448329411764708,146,7,24,4,1,50,30,34,0.16899999999999998,0.774,0.057,-0.5994,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,8,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.5575177036930006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23507038174837355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27983393108212257,0.0,0.5845943894259635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698895566615287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111629061550937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039579085865924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InevitableIncident,2019/07/22,"i’m tired i’m tired of b/p 2 or more times a day. i just came back from a two week stint of not acting out and the second i arrive home i’m back to disordered eating. i see someone for other issues, but i’m too afraid to talk about my disordered eating for fear of being forced into recovery. how do i talk to a therapist or primary care doctor about my eating disorder without being involuntary hospitalized? i want to get help, but i don’t know how. it’s been on and off for 4 years, but it’s never been as bad as it is now as far as the amount of purging i do in a day. maybe this is more of a vent post than anything. i don’t know, i’m just tired.",1.6331628787878818,2.5593673541666675,4.183510101010104,88.38522727272729,76.84722222222223,7.4585858585858595,21.424242424242426,8.00094639256281,0.7673416666666668,505,12,119,8,11,179,83,144,0.138,0.769,0.092,-0.7597,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,2,7,0,10,7,0,2,1,20,22,13,0,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,5,5,3,0,2,0,0,2,5,3,0,2,3,1,10,1,26,17,3,18,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,2,9,79,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744380703673126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20079273347673013,0.10901625726848273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933148938120985,0.13311964101678914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840714834459766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4489161412042981,0.13363873152357655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008015363637377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692183794004748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821478356420077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751491590834151,0.0,0.13096726369922554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627585811001686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351013457363215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117001458952415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069971793360824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250451050585271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404333958535257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062723582657076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20988627930023168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159593926061854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613345676093837,0.4501955174273169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275429582544948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07701057459237365,0.0,0.10473130592943562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585992685660066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407952987642979
EDAnonymous,Sal4Sale,2019/07/22,"My desire to relapse is conflicting with my job Just a heads up, I’m a very career oriented person, it may not be healthy but my job means everything to me. I go in almost every day I and work my ass off. If you were to do the most basic of profile stalking you’ll see I’m in emergency services, a line of work that requires a ton of discipline, and more importantly a healthy body. Because of recent events pertaining to my work that I’ll leave out, I’ve been feeling like I’m losing control over my life, and am remembering the control I had over my diet back when I was restricting. I know I can’t go back, it would ruin my career, but at the same time I feel like I’m being torn apart by this, like if I don’t do something drastic I’ll crack under the pressure.

I like to tell people I recovered, and for the most part I did, my anorexia only lasted a few years, before I found my job. I never got proper help, never talked to a counselor or anything. Mostly because I’m a guy and I feel like if I tell people about me and what I was they’ll think lesser of me, especially given my line of work. I feel like getting help now is useless, because I haven’t relapsed yet. Then there’s the other aspect, that being I don’t even want help, I want to go back to restricting myself again. Because I had some control then.  I dunno, I’m not sure what to do, the logical answer is to seek help, but I don’t think I can bring myself to do that now.

I get tons of comments at work still, mostly about my body and still being thinner than most guys, it hurts a lot more considering I spent years obsessing about keeping myself at a constantly rising standard that I could never reach. Now that I’m trying to get better I’m still reminded that I’ve barely made any headway after a year in “recovery.” I’ve been playing the doctor and the patient for too long, and I can’t handle the fact that every time I try and recover I’m hit with comments at work and home. It took a lot but I confided in two of my coworkers about my history with an ED and nothing really changed, which only perpetuates the idea that I’m alone in this, and even if I reach out for help nobody will reach back",4.229986145320201,4.674630566964289,5.632595443349754,82.19473214285716,70.33928571428571,8.322167487684728,28.17149014778325,8.326086129247049,1.8546704741379307,1706,57,348,24,29,577,207,448,0.157,0.764,0.079,-0.9863,3,1,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,2,1,12,22,15,0,2,24,0,33,7,4,4,5,76,69,25,0,9,12,0,4,6,0,5,2,0,1,3,19,18,1,9,13,1,1,6,11,6,0,1,14,5,54,9,49,44,15,53,0,4,1,1,16,17,1,16,36,240,73,14,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630940582235828,0.07892654182190265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05182276435649657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271113091676071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343911621055781,0.0,0.18581813621389176,0.0,0.06484578218207034,0.0,0.0,0.06739810670806927,0.0,0.1692956055802276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061595411320545,0.0,0.0,0.08235172637356421,0.2564148787850902,0.060844373587462225,0.0,0.0,0.049146633102575984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07800017720202151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10066682676189732,0.0,0.12841385976001615,0.0,0.06848913302946816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412838492122669,0.2177666254530262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355606030929832,0.0,0.0,0.11944363311020766,0.0,0.12992905626827098,0.0,0.06094898342031116,0.0,0.0,0.15091204934999394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820944879613033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553967278365844,0.0,0.07644093639426128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158021112190399,0.0860274162707701,0.0,0.0,0.2268684001049696,0.06773548724031705,0.0,0.0,0.041880882134287735,0.06211814635406258,0.0,0.08069126149382845,0.0,0.0,0.05382662537143875,0.22338272037352855,0.0,0.0,0.06744000451751897,0.0,0.08525513829692463,0.0,0.12957540997421635,0.0,0.07210805877270883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830107885102238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763245375079601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312181266756353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591635307574805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252378506675759,0.0,0.10566343539247712,0.06654023114284888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048819581984842965,0.0,0.07524433473379835,0.0,0.08632666103589465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072639894008484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058667182425614216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825748807535936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182335173690772,0.0,0.0,0.06125158025315008,0.1332149887060961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976595895385896,0.0,0.0,0.0888727848678806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846677862128728,0.1034778854662426,0.0,0.07444229102822288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287801725582283,0.08989666986737171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328737106178326,0.0,0.0,0.05413463025814299,0.0,0.0,0.1472226985692509
EDAnonymous,anirose1o,2019/07/22,Can anorexia cause infertility that is permanent And how can I keep anorexia from taking my abilify to have kids,5.471499999999999,8.581775149999999,6.599999999999998,65.555,72.5,10.0,35.0,10.125756701596842,4.6530000000000005,93,5,14,3,2,31,18,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.661635865148085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5724777614588378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4842594290097231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fishonthesun,2019/07/22,"Confused, upset, aaaaa,,,, Potential trigger warning here, calorie numbers maybe mentioned

Idk guys I'm confused. I did a fasted 3.5 hour workout, really dangerous for me because of hypoglycemia. I didnt eat until 4. Found out friends were having a DND and specifically didnt invite me even though it was at a place they knew I'd be at tonight. Decided maybe for once it would be okay to eat a little extra. Did so. It was controlled. I knew what kind of foods I wanted (fruity and cheesy, separate) and found foods that would meet it, and planned how much I would have of them before touching them. The amount I ate got me up to maybe 2200 max, whereas I burned 2800 so far and will get to at least 2900 by the end of the night. 

This is the most I've eaten in probably 2 months without purging. And I ate doritos. Got acid reflux from them plus the lactose free (!) Milk I had (instead of using lactose milk to have diarrhea like a lax) . And even tho I ate literally 1500-1600 cals in the one sitting (again, all planned and in control) nd am getting reflux, I am STILL hungry. 

Please please tell me I'm not getting extreme hunger. I'm not underweight and havent been underweight due to purposeful restricting (I was naturally underweight up until a few years ago). Yes I undereat and workout intensely but surely I havent restricted enough and for long enough to get extreme hunger

Ugh my body hates me, and I get it, cause i treat it like shit",3.1627725511898213,5.459057352517989,3.860575539568345,86.42835085777534,76.19424460431655,7.0107360265633645,27.59878251245157,8.012643519586192,1.86376104039845,1136,47,218,19,26,360,164,278,0.092,0.8,0.10800000000000001,0.5419,0,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,4,4,11,15,3,3,12,2,24,14,2,6,2,40,45,21,0,4,4,0,1,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,9,14,12,4,5,2,1,0,7,7,1,1,20,2,26,9,29,19,9,27,0,0,0,0,9,12,1,3,16,135,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967725552950042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854649256474117,0.0,0.09568389860678854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490298531237627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115513782848661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522371739774551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301221866890301,0.0,0.0,0.09959444084258498,0.2323750947036101,0.0,0.14854003021981904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27194210280394043,0.2465841056607131,0.08687607689170768,0.0,0.2937439181383283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986786969124954,0.0,0.0,0.11133995722346353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110178815850002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073739397006946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709598201004008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987160021560194,0.112701180141297,0.0,0.09951183156643087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33890361016707216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975391971662586,0.0,0.08266129647313014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552365360957948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975211444370595,0.07619682511876795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748291632203987,0.2468655195936704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123661061449778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203626474190485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154249686908898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980011647287275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597972719178904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828341214598656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047835685423404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711788478498687,0.0,0.0,0.06632400408500179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839465030821707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239636825947718,0.0,0.0,0.07241201760286048
EDAnonymous,Eau_De_Chloroform,2019/07/22,"WHY IS VACATION ME SUCH A FUCKING CUNT. JUST CAUSE YOU CAN TIME FITTING IN TWO FREE  BREAKFASTS A DAY AT THE HOTEL DOESN'T MEAN YOU NEEDED TO. WE WERE AT AN ALL TIME LOW WEIGHT BEFORE WE LEFT YOU FUCK.    

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EDAnonymous,angrily-average,2019/07/22,Who needs food when your ex is around The girl who led me on and dumped me on my birthday is helping out at my uni club. Who needs food when you could deal with your sadness by starving yourself instead ???,7.315365853658534,5.84508504878049,5.9318292682926845,89.04701219512198,64.36585365853661,8.200000000000001,35.134146341463406,3.1291,1.6591853658536584,161,6,35,0,2,47,31,41,0.182,0.773,0.045,-0.7744,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,8,5,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,7,4,0,8,0,1,0,0,10,5,0,0,2,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26853104924194915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24084172004440996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31098627830322256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7295089397958403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021885791541849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44733696628351577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tumjin,2019/07/22,"update on my life: relapse time Okay, I haven't posted here since May, so here are a couple of updates in my life I guess.


I broke up with my girlfriend. Our relationship was toxic and I felt like we needed to take time to work on ourselves. I'm not even sad about our break up. If anything I'm thriving because our relationship has help me try to better myself.

I'm trying to recover. At the beginning of summer break, I was at a pretty bad point with my bulimia. I was literally binging and purging five times a day because I was bored and I needed a high. Welp, my mom found out a while later and she forced me to go to the doctor. Needless to say I a.) lied to the doctor about everything, and b.) drank electrolyte rich water. Since then I have been vegetarian and 2 months free of binging and purging. I know I'm on a verge of a relapse, but I'm gonna try not to!!!

I got high off of cough syrup a total of 3 times. I'm warning all of y'all not to do it, I literally felt like I was gonna die. You don't even feel high high, you just feel dizzy and almost puke on the bed (I mean I wouldn't have mind but still). Like if you wanna get high, just do weed, or drink tea that works too. 

And lastly, I have a strange addiction to peanut butter.

Maybe I'll make another update and a month or so!",1.3000000000000007,3.049191791208792,3.2783238095238083,91.00834285714286,79.8058608058608,5.9797216117216125,21.176410256410254,6.918507183188421,0.3656957948717947,1001,28,225,11,25,338,146,273,0.106,0.81,0.083,-0.8402,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,4,4,0,3,12,11,0,0,15,1,17,10,0,1,2,43,42,20,1,6,11,1,4,3,1,4,6,1,1,0,2,14,4,0,7,1,2,1,6,4,0,1,11,6,34,8,34,27,2,39,0,2,0,0,15,18,0,7,20,136,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322523800085747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040030908929576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890867780701713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854698235223982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672068243658024,0.12662698852092907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185776435332696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492165981230135,0.0,0.06698259139311019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779266999038356,0.0,0.0,0.21261493080140825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017455135235617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720013962624336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334473844843663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503179951016232,0.0,0.19944819218310048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387965141853125,0.0,0.0,0.05426376515919297,0.0,0.05902733877988925,0.0,0.0830681695681442,0.0,0.11441603334249816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961671058161926,0.5486811136238877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057080004022431526,0.08466163707791215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672202857925268,0.15222562094774705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932889196802941,0.0,0.10434364071411163,0.11313649332590332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487131551025104,0.12164227085166135,0.165803794423635,0.0,0.0,0.1540251593067022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818344506530692,0.0,0.09947137351563076,0.10566529859710093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230184823271656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259546994248773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183193621731704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829445672004931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809152401838775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24225177022191635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21154705265186585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512259832549548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BiTcH442,2019/07/22,"So i’m Going on vacation with my family and I’m panicking It’s stupid I kno,, but it’s my family and i’m Trying to keep them out of it ,and there gonna be around 25/8 so it’s not like I can just not eat or they’ll kno something’s up. I just don’t kno what to do . I hate eating in restaurants because I feel so disrespectful if I don’t eat the food but feel disgusting if I do. Instead of enjoying the heat i’m Gonna be freaking out the whole time over calories. What a shit show this is gonna be",-0.17633971291866146,1.407985114035089,2.7360287081339716,93.90538277511965,83.82456140350877,6.601594896331737,20.012759170653904,7.686295010490155,0.4863964912280707,389,11,98,7,11,138,65,114,0.223,0.736,0.04,-0.9677,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,8,7,4,0,4,0,10,5,1,0,0,19,22,11,0,2,9,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,7,4,1,2,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,0,2,11,2,12,15,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,3,2,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870616892610688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280942831063374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6450513095827579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961867737852482,0.0,0.2124977182000836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540919848831085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942264019704014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207461467706514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18677463579592665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265969371132314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156970847642786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176958455825807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252943547136752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266557426774035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23460444569782185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,woah_speedracer,2019/07/22,"Me: lectures everyone I know about maintaining a healthy, balanced diet Also me: every other day I consume 15 light beers and a big ass plate of Napa cabbage. Rest of the week are binges and/or purge days It’s ok guys, I’m hella overweight so you don’t have to do anything except for comment “LOL same”",3.6293220338983048,5.609837355932207,4.412000000000003,84.44783050847458,73.74576271186443,6.07593220338983,28.749152542372883,6.742157984588678,1.5689769491525425,240,10,43,2,5,77,53,59,0.102,0.7609999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.2824,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,4,4,1,0,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,6,6,2,4,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,3,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129659838519361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32205133754415355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047824427687402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32973297316080963,0.3739559141423877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875023989696957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21507815138558672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31392090514616605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hopemakermachine,2019/07/22,"I'm so excited tomorrow because I know no one will be home so I can eat NOTHING I live with my family and tomorrow they're gone so I can eat nothing, and they'll never know.

The only thing that makes me excited anymore is feeling hungry. I love it so much. I just want to be bones and then I'll tell them I told you so.

If someone sends me to the hospital for ED I'm going to kill myself.",-0.7765989304812848,1.3301933294117667,2.416577540106953,91.50005347593584,92.17647058823529,5.9144385026737964,20.668449197860962,7.348242739294969,0.8453529411764706,303,11,68,6,11,108,56,85,0.081,0.7709999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.5789,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,1,2,0,6,4,1,0,2,0,7,4,1,1,1,12,18,10,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,2,1,14,3,5,12,1,7,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,1,4,45,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374001918970587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138027698432406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441065844454229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20317506298942872,0.0,0.10897445381105607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248618101294607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618624750081505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384432808828908,0.0,0.2368906289671071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903099704210897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945171175351771,0.0,0.1438626810313905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584335480953455,0.0,0.16622393665071306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135985516850598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146043358527423,0.16391427537056474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261118320116115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837582241729608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318331231602682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594061074186887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712052362368564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greenteamelodrama,2019/07/22,my roommate... I’ve been at this summer program for writing for about a month now and my roommate is soooo thin and it’s that natural/high metabolism type and I try so hard to not have that affect my eating choices but my fucked up mind takes that as an initiative to restrict even more🙃🙃🙃,2.782,4.469013200000003,4.036666666666669,87.495,75.33333333333334,6.8000000000000025,27.0,7.554174236665415,1.4283999999999994,232,9,48,3,5,76,47,60,0.182,0.818,0.0,-0.8986,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,9,5,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,8,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,3,31,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884305717834015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250725450253852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509386047000961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400514201838857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010734089160371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832927265475176,0.0,0.3029970022181474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285415635492176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577268029537242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway-duckie,2019/07/22,"i hate jumping between ed and recovery thoughts fuck, it's so exhausting. 

one minute i'm okay and eating normally, next i want to purge and get a fucking ana coach ~~because i'm not traumatised enough apparently~~.

i can't stand recovery anymore.

am i doing better?
yeah, kinda. 

am i gaining? 
no fucking idea, i stopped weigging myself. 

do i want to continue restricting and purging, even though i rationally know i can recovery if i keep going? yes. fucking yes. i don't want to get better, i want to be sick.

ugh. rant over i guess, i'm just.
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EDAnonymous,celestialmisstep,2019/07/22,I know there’s r/drunkorexia but can we have a sub for drugorexics 😔✊ Who else out there a worthless drug addict like me?,-1.2580769230769209,0.4457016538461538,1.868769230769232,90.9262307692308,109.3846153846154,5.1569230769230785,16.73846153846154,6.742157984588678,0.21251692307692327,97,3,22,2,5,34,24,26,0.153,0.7170000000000001,0.129,-0.1531,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5613173796105404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5971209316649192,0.0,0.4301331687626978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829757645180461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515543005801399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hereinthemoment,2019/07/22,"If you’re eating less, be sure to drink tons of water. Just a daily reminder. I tend to forget myself. A lot of our water intake comes from food, so it’s important to drink more water when you’re not eating. It’ll help with headaches/dizziness as well. 

Don’t forget to sleep and always aim for nutritious foods when you decide to eat. Love you all ❤️",1.1904166666666676,3.5328138750000018,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,83.8611111111111,4.711111111111111,15.944444444444445,5.985473137389443,-0.4753388888888885,277,5,56,2,8,90,55,72,0.085,0.77,0.146,0.6533,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,1,2,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,3,12,1,0,2,12,6,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,10,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,11,4,5,3,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,2,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565629475680527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714957830306167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3900588446401723,0.0,0.6111469700283586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814734715297262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344378910047636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925660939037904,0.1796837494068833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19923073282509635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18763709862018696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900308157415662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Melusedek,2019/04/01,As a bulimic who can purge without using their fingers... Weird flex but ok,0.7526190476190457,2.6384366428571475,2.2442857142857164,87.28404761904763,111.14285714285714,4.723809523809524,26.095238095238088,6.42735559955562,1.7309809523809532,59,3,10,1,3,19,14,14,0.08900000000000001,0.726,0.185,0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6673029976041073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7447863515052976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ramenramenramenn,2019/04/01,"how many calories does doing a jumping jack burn? hey folks a random question (i dont trust google)

if this is not allowed tell me asap lol ill take it down",-0.6592708333333306,1.2522582812500005,0.8712499999999999,98.31541666666668,106.8125,2.1333333333333333,17.833333333333332,3.1291,-0.9167041666666664,123,4,25,0,6,39,31,32,0.16,0.758,0.08199999999999999,-0.4023,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,2,0,6,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36489909165037626,0.0,0.4886935487828857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227488937285248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671092971485133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313514560543333,0.0,0.3644559863505748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,agnesiscalling,2019/04/01,"Losing/gaining the same 10lbs For the past three weeks I’ve been gaining and loosing the same 10lbs and it’s. so. annoying. I’ve lost 55 lbs total from my heaviest weight (~230 lbs) and 40 of those have been just within this past year. I’ve been doing so well and now I’ve been going from 175 to 185 back to 175 and it’s just really... blah. I’ve been so stressed with life changes so now I’ve been chewing and spitting and purging more than ever and it’s just exhausting. I’m so tired of being fat. The moment I hit a goal I fuck it up somehow. The only time I’m happy is when someone tells me it looks like I’ve lost weight and then boom, I gain it back. ",-0.14655819774718282,2.0245846737588664,1.6205924071756392,98.21647058823532,88.7872340425532,4.452398831873175,17.513975803087188,5.900188976854957,-0.5032589904046723,513,13,119,4,17,167,80,141,0.15,0.748,0.102,-0.7341,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,16,9,2,1,6,0,10,9,2,0,2,18,18,16,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,10,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,8,4,5,3,11,8,4,16,0,2,1,1,1,2,1,1,14,71,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28214569147804125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940810729645774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595410829590454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16960993766556404,0.0,0.0,0.10426708098999103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530132998666644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295863743233913,0.08963146837940618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154063940333126,0.0,0.4005462626013945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953298963310776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502751744634806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175320314387796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544884223715902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101579199387214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603560252275675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697960245119087,0.21086540893102146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471641240158892,0.4468205751840503,0.1649565834191009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814509761073168
EDAnonymous,cloakofdirt,2019/04/01,"What's your skin care routine? By which I mean how do you try and mitigate the damage that restricting can do to it? My complexion just breaks down when I'm restricting: acne that doesn't heal for weeks, blotchiness, huge dry patches... how do you guys look after yourself? ",3.710588235294118,6.316671823529415,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,75.86274509803921,8.00156862745098,25.88627450980392,8.841846274778883,2.1973027450980385,217,8,40,5,5,67,44,51,0.158,0.7440000000000001,0.09699999999999999,-0.5329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,0,7,9,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,9,0,6,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,3,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552342761043089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421030314386589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749457081156652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863670117867207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30314270496314105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35815361186432626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Isaidbiiiitttttttchh,2019/04/01,"I kinda want to use my CICO knowledge to profit & help people. I don’t want to be a dietitian. 

I just see so many  people who think calorie counting and logging takes forever so I want to find a way to profit off their laziness and help people lose some weight. 


Especially when I see people throwing money at MLM’s that are supposed to be weight-loss products. 

Anyone else thought of this? ",4.2391228070175435,6.001693789473688,5.0315789473684225,81.5493859649123,71.63157894736842,6.64561403508772,28.456140350877188,7.1686216300943375,1.6881298245614045,312,12,55,3,6,101,54,76,0.036000000000000004,0.774,0.19,0.8187,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,13,13,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,7,2,9,10,1,5,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,2,1,32,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958789223845103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640807545526686,0.1852341313087629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102147495526153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652329076577188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423508322111957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225057199793706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18328616470833592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013302581943371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881221980599408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359267457222671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158388118289874,0.0,0.1435219607274498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613895961706345,0.0,0.0,0.3198925002865458,0.1434975829516654,0.0,0.44029136936095903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oharacopter,2019/04/01,im so skinny a🅱️ril fools im a chungus,-7.762500000000001,-10.47361558333333,-0.6533333333333324,105.09000000000003,163.16666666666669,1.2000000000000002,11.333333333333336,3.1291,-2.0175666666666663,31,1,10,0,4,14,9,12,0.366,0.634,0.0,-0.5367,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rose_04,2019/04/01,"what i was supposed to eat today vs what i’ve eaten 😪 i was supposed to have matcha for breakfast, a 50cal apple sauce for snack, 50cal rice cake for lunch another apple sauce for snack and a 150 cal cabbage roll for dinner. 300 cals total. BUT dumb ol me snuck on a bagel with peanut butter & jam (100), an eggo with butter, (100) 10 grapes and a banana (75) and i know that doesn’t seem like a lot but for me that’s a binge bc i’m used to eating 0-350 cals not 575 :( help ?",1.0449019607843155,2.5715513333333355,2.828039215686278,94.97284313725493,79.78431372549021,4.925490196078432,16.235294117647058,5.033348758259628,-0.8475176470588242,364,5,84,1,9,121,70,102,0.054000000000000006,0.895,0.052000000000000005,-0.0459,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,7,0,4,8,0,1,1,14,9,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,8,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,5,1,12,6,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320493181713756,0.0,0.0,0.32135006578193004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6271702440368352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054137005002141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842241974458494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972089243410078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260541361297968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789897045903647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904882782496501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264683072837518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Stormi,2019/04/01,"It’s April first (April fools day) So that means that today is like a prank, it doesn’t set the tone for how the month is going to go. So what if you binged. It’s okay, that doesn’t mean its going to be a month of binging. It’s going to be okay.

I know people are stressing about Easter, but think about seeing family, and being with people. Don’t focus on the food. It’s one day out of 365, so it won’t hurt you that horribly.
It’s going to be okay, and I love you all ❤️❤️.

(This post is inspired by my eating 750 calories of junk at a pool party today and being the fattest person there by at least 20 pounds, and having a comment being made about how huge the waves you make when you jump in are. It’s fun y’all.)

Also I’m just scared and happy that I’m going to be 14 this month!! Yeet!",0.13477310924369945,1.8204837142857144,2.314991596638656,96.80018487394959,83.28571428571429,4.574789915966387,14.294117647058822,5.0885558068054335,-1.1419949579831932,610,7,146,2,17,206,100,175,0.091,0.7290000000000001,0.18,0.9492,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,6,0,1,12,12,0,2,9,3,17,3,0,4,1,20,33,14,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,17,7,2,0,5,1,0,7,4,4,0,2,1,1,9,8,20,24,2,26,0,1,1,1,9,6,0,1,12,92,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984869201764364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330380501647704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533514913057148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14128139504483772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747690666701614,0.18121993195793076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110376718266038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953634971745628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16043586537248467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08236305686604685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321751104328023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526093862660873,0.14180790476556349,0.10003747493393364,0.0,0.0,0.32649848552093913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35886754694394096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155384783053456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077979998126052,0.13085819978494515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435312861959865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15004314454435805,0.0,0.11942470154127086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167229436443693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602880737911236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841130369303486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chpbnvic,2019/04/01,"Instagram weight loss accounts from people who have had weight loss surgery Ok it low key annoys me (super jealous) seeing the results these people put up. 20, 30, 40+ lbs per month! Here I am only able to lose 5lb in March. Why can’t I have those results when I’m eating 1,000 calories or less per day and feeling starving and they’re only able to eat 500 calories per day and feel full because their stomach has been chopped in half. It’s not fair. It’s just not fucking fair.",2.36187857961054,4.427835268041235,2.9679725085910644,92.9800916380298,77.76288659793816,4.723482245131732,25.21076746849943,5.033348758259628,0.40271454753722796,379,14,77,1,9,118,75,97,0.19,0.773,0.037000000000000005,-0.9262,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,4,3,9,3,0,1,1,7,6,1,2,0,11,12,5,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,0,2,0,1,1,3,7,0,1,2,5,4,2,6,10,2,11,0,4,1,1,2,5,1,1,5,36,10,0,0.3876598159927455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181569128504265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500085110189077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966727711397376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19601245084012306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919262660912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21684608727762467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471318331751582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29483275868281994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26875450548647195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948525937161737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154457341430323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720652197166851,0.0,0.0,0.1749013436531284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hetleyx,2019/04/01,"Didn’t Binge :) Been “recovering” for the past month (though in reality I’ve just been binging, but I guess it’s somewhat better than restricting?) Feel like my hunger has gone down drastically.

I just had a Quest Bar; I didn’t wolf it down like it was my last meal. I ate it slowly. It didn’t turn into a binge.

Anytime I eat something I consider remotely “unhealthy” I binge. I know Quest Bars aren’t that bad, but to me it tastes like a candy bar, which usually would’ve triggered a binge for me. But honestly? I don’t have any desire to binge. Literally haven’t had that feeling after eating a food in like, 4 months. I just feel satisfied. I’m really happy. ",1.8009378407851668,4.197525740458019,3.5524154852780825,86.25963740458016,81.67175572519083,7.1016357688113425,22.33424209378408,8.192908349453996,1.3764608505997824,516,17,105,11,14,172,79,131,0.084,0.652,0.264,0.9761,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,6,0,13,10,0,1,0,16,22,4,0,1,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,10,1,4,3,0,1,6,1,0,0,10,4,14,7,11,12,1,12,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,10,61,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371486554846646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641774964309737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17390289554402946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024023233148257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29826548992789065,0.14047222009946814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377652836301711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21660966424556785,0.0,0.0,0.209315857422896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806248167530294,0.16027936160862422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38425314681040745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31389572939691085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18770519504855265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12596595188032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137506668273548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931875761906596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138765329230572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165597164097348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13968002086280235,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fragilelavender,2019/04/01,"How do I talk to my therapist about my ED? The following situation recurs in every therapy session I have. My therapist asks me how I’m doing and how my ED has been since the last session. And no matter how bad it has been and how horrible I feel I ALWAYS dial it down, because I feel like I’m not entitled to have an ED and also because I can’t express my thought eloquently on how badly I want to lose weight. I also feel so ashamed of what I do in order to achieve my goals or my ED in general, that I don’t know how to talk about it... how can I open up more? Any tips? ",3.146854838709679,3.296581104838712,5.490483870967744,83.30572580645162,72.62903225806451,9.103225806451613,29.20967741935484,9.188382445141503,2.2620838709677416,443,17,100,9,8,158,69,124,0.17,0.79,0.039,-0.9548,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,13,5,0,1,3,0,12,1,0,8,0,23,22,16,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,4,19,1,14,19,1,11,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,3,72,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994220639107665,0.15577294981469708,0.0,0.0,0.12730859264102248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501521646338916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126235206268503,0.2282418325451872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773172238736288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28397560436047065,0.1337422026539094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288521327041697,0.15260038494672445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146089916342556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943907193628072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486128379948785,0.21043084730620146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009431309153863,0.0,0.0,0.21408989600517728,0.4347283371476577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862309639123802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042076456207987,0.0,0.0,0.227970222456167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Scarab-Beetle,2019/04/01,Have a formal dance coming up and I got to lose weight! I’ve got until May to loose this weight and it’s going to be hard. I see pictures of the girls at my bfs school and I just keep thinking about how my fat butt is going to look next to them. When I started dating him I was my low weight and I would be 10x more comfortable going if I still looked like that. I mean I only have 10 or 20 pounds to loose and my ED brain is going crazy. I know I’m not fat but I also kind of don’t know that. Events like this are such a huge stressor and I’m just hoping I can manage to loose this weight without being 100% miserable. ,0.08530462184873855,1.949096080882356,1.9073949579831933,98.68970588235297,84.51470588235293,4.473949579831934,14.861344537815125,5.288315135182226,-1.0877567226890754,481,7,116,2,14,158,86,136,0.11900000000000001,0.752,0.129,0.6631,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,8,8,0,1,3,0,13,8,4,1,0,23,32,13,0,3,7,0,5,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,7,6,1,4,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,3,8,18,5,14,24,1,17,0,3,3,1,3,4,1,4,9,72,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141684104244902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555309473012458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001473852304345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167227058833245,0.0,0.22285923761957904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480636509624565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383795333802805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383700431939634,0.0,0.14508384028714064,0.1531369506020739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613271287486342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339930666421878,0.15586720284552527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15176398360914728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817197446318306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596169379871204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100267892844634,0.1110226800489975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861379164356723,0.0,0.11126381565338253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927278376704703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6786332765478527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134302747740306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897131790492747,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gainsforagirl,2019/04/01,"The 1st of the month... March for me was a month where I attempted 'recovery' which was really just excuses to binge eat and go out and spend money on food after I restricted so hard for a bikini body in Cabo. My friends asked me if I was eating during that trip (surprisingly, I thought I was binging that whole time lol). So I came back, wanting to gain a little weight and recover a little, and help grow muscle.

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Welp. I just gained weight, feel bloated and ugly, and feel like a failure. Not to mention that I have one month left of school until my friends from home see me again, and I sure as fuck don't want them to see me like this. I hate this. I hate this cyclic thought process of ""Gain weight! Be healthy! Balance"" and ""RESTRICTRESTRICTBINGEBINGENOOO."" 

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But. Here I am. It's the first of April and its gonna be February all over again lol. ",2.6320042268404364,5.094016772455092,2.9381824586121894,91.49405776681931,78.88023952095809,6.085100387460374,22.997182106375483,7.285733465282438,0.7776138781261004,679,22,140,9,17,208,106,167,0.133,0.696,0.171,0.7066,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,5,9,9,3,0,8,2,9,8,1,0,2,25,24,15,0,3,5,0,6,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,9,11,6,1,4,0,2,4,2,3,0,2,7,8,19,6,18,14,2,24,0,0,2,1,7,8,1,1,14,88,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25157149241452553,0.28212922660638506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853044598037474,0.0,0.0,0.08926766205655262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895215647924407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277843971408845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375824096842403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739931194396255,0.08293622231106294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874788437715716,0.14037903300055735,0.0,0.17938494318009338,0.10732527948696953,0.0,0.0,0.06597781806044073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399572239242576,0.22923383620238585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778140902107776,0.0,0.11644984590768336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613441070301554,0.0,0.0,0.11343347597492022,0.23270957344421406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779908295460978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866701417394667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437157454600825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174914071339472,0.1850207528235428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094154341490269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432832596243984,0.06769423944437936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694826159213855,0.0,0.0,0.4241067219190397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961268825477756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28212922660638506,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sargassso,2019/04/01,"What are your safe/fear foods? Here's mine

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Safe foods:

\- Soups (broth based)

\- Instant oatmeal

\- Prepackaged/frozen meals

\- Chobani yogurt

\- Chicken

\- Veggie burgers

\- Wraps

\- Fruits (especially berries)

\- Pizza

\- Most vegetables 

\- Most fish

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Fear foods:

\- Chips and other snack foods

\- Nuts and granola

\- Anything deep fried/breaded (french fries, chicken nuggets, etc.)

\- Creamy pasta sauces

\- Creamy salad dressings

\- Drinks with calories

\- Bagels and croissants

\- Ice cream (I haven't discovered Halo Top yet)

\- Extra/unnecessary cheese

\- Butter

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EDAnonymous,__peewee,2019/04/01,"oh my god you guys I fasted for like 22 hours and last night i drank like 2 beers and four shots of tequila, then this morning i was HEAVILY hungover and  ordered a bleu cheese burger with POUTINE and chicken with waffles for my boyfriend. 

honestly after that 1st shot i was drunk immediately. 

i blacked out after i got to my boyfriends house, thankfully the only embarrassing thing i did was lament to my friends how much i love them. 

my head is ringing and i feel really strange/still drunk so today’s gonna be a blast. 

weirdly enough tho i do not feel bad about what i ate at all. I might fuck around and eat some pizza today too. pray i don’t get bubble guts 😣

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EDAnonymous,smolcal,2019/04/01,"March was the worst month for me this year, I was either binging 3000+ calories a day or fasting. No in between I’m so terrified April will turn out to be the same. I’ve always had a few binges here and there but it would be like once or twice a week not every other day. I don’t know what happened. I swear my appetite is just sooo high all of a sudden it’s not even emotional hunger and i don’t have any triggers. My ONLY trigger is feeling hungry and insatiable. 

I have NO IDEA how I managed to maintain 112.6lbs after this horrible binge/fast cycle of 4 weeks. I lost from 120.4 (Jan 1st) to 112.6 (feb 19th) and managed to not gain anything despite this cycle. Must be god still has some mercy on me. 

I’m upset  cause  in the last 6 weeks that I ended up maintains I could have easily lost 7 pounds and gotten to my goal weight all while having a Healthy deficit of 1200 plus exercise. But no my dumbass brain decides to binge like there is no tomorrow and fast on repeat instead 🤷🏼‍♀️

Here is to April to finally be the month I lose at least 5 pounds and stop this binge cycle for good😌

Have any of u ever been in a long binge cycle and managed to get out of it and restrict again? HOW??",1.9341511500547668,3.687631244979922,3.2779061701350862,91.72053943044908,77.91566265060241,5.973055859802848,23.36637458926616,6.782984794422108,0.6266771084337353,936,30,202,9,22,305,154,249,0.21100000000000002,0.7040000000000001,0.085,-0.9874,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,5,14,7,0,1,10,0,24,4,1,5,4,40,34,18,0,3,9,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,10,12,2,2,4,1,0,0,9,5,0,1,7,2,16,2,29,19,8,36,0,3,0,0,0,10,0,3,28,133,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973204665450827,0.0,0.0,0.21205227608094815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283030557288514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405039200005876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601655260316723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448378686618113,0.0,0.0,0.2011018813937516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538105955104102,0.13809257747434073,0.0,0.0,0.10297901899761737,0.1410321702490873,0.13136336695167758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883426144153914,0.0,0.0,0.1707949924952997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081458070209455,0.0,0.0,0.13077236740697734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787328799410736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473056945111295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760067187856712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568566817239176,0.12708984636263548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234236305401602,0.0,0.0,0.13797803566085298,0.0,0.1744266863023154,0.3403947590083828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488964244838511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16604218068427246,0.0,0.11857880802934133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451226631047715,0.13035018976405502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958849496878653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375191840790582,0.18985994404486586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075607123224332,0.0,0.0,0.10040281431672722
EDAnonymous,snaafuuu,2019/04/01,"Do you punish yourselves with not eating? I do. If I'm mad at myself, I don't eat. If I'm mad that I'm mad at myself I don't eat. If I feel worthless, loveless, scum of the earth, a leech on human society, I don't eat.

I know some like to restrict for control, I restrict when I'm out of control. I haven't eaten in three days. And I'm mad that this is how I choose to react. ",-1.0435012919896636,0.5884054767441889,2.1320155038759734,96.79657622739019,87.25581395348837,4.28733850129199,18.857881136950905,5.033348758259628,-0.5454506459948316,285,8,71,1,9,102,48,86,0.287,0.684,0.028999999999999998,-0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,2,7,5,0,2,0,7,5,0,4,0,17,15,6,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,5,4,3,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,1,12,1,11,14,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,4,3,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4677664274257072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448407379079158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.853509666648425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543862205036454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460218712471235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187682707107892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KimHyorin,2019/04/01,"sTOP telling me it’s about control!! My eating disorder doesn’t make me feel in control. In fact it makes me feel very OUT of control. It’s a series of compulsions which make me feel mentally and physically like utter shite, as well as destroying my social and academic life. 

But for some reason, when I try to talk to people about it, they just tell me I have an ED because I “”””want to feel in control “””””. 

I’m sure this applies to a lot of sufferers but I don’t think it should be assumed to apply to everyone. ",3.2530339805825257,4.678441718446604,4.782706310679612,83.70473907766991,73.5631067961165,8.256796116504855,28.408980582524272,8.841846274778883,2.223816504854369,399,16,81,8,8,134,67,103,0.087,0.852,0.062,-0.5321,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,4,5,5,1,0,3,0,5,2,0,8,2,27,15,7,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,3,1,5,7,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,12,3,18,13,2,6,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,3,3,54,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094953912498092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6693516725679248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099350137807104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266650443151766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425648054945485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017553799706069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538275477158446,0.0728904647680924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684255755875348,0.0,0.0,0.29877188960372514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035619985871804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343490627035516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340009457518464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208827628727944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247359660706082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061707585666333,0.0,0.0,0.11991946767323798,0.2608107491383437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559986813607384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012954513971574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310373587919245,0.08800067485228359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13414665908494106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paperclip1213,2019/04/01,"Fuck. FUCK. Strained my leg muscles but I have to lose 10lbs in 10 days. I'm at a loss. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. This isn't a thread asking for tips, but if you have any useful advice please do share. Mods, please don't delete. I feel like it'll come across as one of *those* threads, but I pinky promise it isn't.

Once upon a time ago I was diagnosed with bulimia. My poison is fasting and working out too hard and too much. I don't purge by puking. The idea of puking makes me wanna puke. It's not my thing.

Laxatives are a last resort for me. I'm THIS close to doing a salt water flush but I really don't want to. Last time I did that it resulted in an immediate 10lb water weight gain.

I'm going out of my mind trying to lose this fucking weight. FUCK. I've got a wedding coming up this Saturday, another next Saturday, the Sunday after AND the Monday after that. MOTHER FUCKING FUCKERS. FUCK. I'm South Asian so we can't just wear anything to weddings. My Indian clothes are a size smaller than I currently am. And I'm 10lbs away from them fitting. If my clothes don't fit, I'm screwed. Missing the weddings isn't an option because one is my best friend of 13 years, the next is neighbour, another is my cousin, they're all close to me.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.",0.4790553435114511,2.8256821870229065,2.690911259541988,90.3529317748092,87.81679389312977,5.2597328244274815,20.401240458015266,6.770275591412753,0.3922324427480913,991,32,212,13,32,335,150,262,0.205,0.662,0.133,-0.9702,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,1,1,1,6,4,20,9,2,14,0,24,16,2,3,1,31,48,12,0,4,8,2,4,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,13,12,4,0,3,0,0,3,10,15,0,2,3,5,23,5,30,44,3,34,0,4,0,8,12,14,8,3,18,123,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645337298270473,0.0965673452196462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408186805287009,0.22846288472774226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964704572806778,0.0,0.10184272643594876,0.0,0.10235124101182093,0.0,0.0,0.0664078557935036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432416131014685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18768162274153008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025627509373544,0.0,0.0,0.1105702133064947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05508254343780918,0.07782563615360027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841655607787791,0.6042709387057902,0.0,0.0,0.06191222025186654,0.0,0.08712801418000822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758743558499583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297822743030848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059869712137831176,0.17759872052497505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053221814201710516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24374847558089385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271724794079479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999675943693003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008228066092589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171451235322435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601587257632122,0.14763899902335026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391633650705189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978874778114807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906637288530338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237385225982912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704574917659864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396204305858481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408782632722087,0.0,0.0,0.06425470850699788,0.0,0.0,0.2653153190940115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930847448501055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015277722847202
EDAnonymous,i_b_p_r,2019/04/01,"mean people at school today i was walking down the hall to the bathroom and three guys were sitting on the ground against the wall. they weren’t on their phones and i was the only other person in the hall.
as i walked by, the one guy looked at me and said “damn, mama got ass” and then the other guy said “she’s ugly as fuck though.” needless to say that hurt my feelings but whatever, i just went to the bathroom. 
i then was walking back to my classroom and the guys were gone but there was like three girls in the same spot. as i walked by them they said “she’s ugly and big as fuck.” i’m pretty sure they were talking about me because this was during class and i was the only other person in the hall near them.
i don’t know what i want by writing this post, i just really needed to talk about what happened because honestly? my feelings are really hurt. i’ve been feeling good about myself this week and this just like ruined that feel good streak.
also i’m a senior and i think these people were seniors too, so i honestly don’t get how they can act like fucking middle schoolers and think it’s fine.
we are about to graduate and they are just gonna spend their last month being mean? i don’t understand it.",3.3092939666238763,4.716348577235773,3.8497175866495503,90.5226893453145,73.39024390243901,6.317158750534874,22.703465982028238,6.5966054737557815,0.4605317073170734,954,24,199,7,19,300,125,246,0.107,0.7490000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.8693,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,9,0,15,16,4,0,14,0,20,4,1,1,1,34,47,23,0,2,6,0,4,3,0,1,0,4,0,7,14,12,0,0,10,0,1,7,4,7,0,3,18,9,31,9,27,27,1,34,0,3,1,4,27,16,5,0,12,136,45,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936222257457671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859248020542919,0.0,0.1362371040686617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22600597814927495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099186149682236,0.058382010876998076,0.0,0.0,0.18745236062512954,0.08937247102246307,0.0,0.0,0.4425794164428409,0.09881549831246997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23925009558302365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06141198285670624,0.09108687173193274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377849623697818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938374320549096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434455465654069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891935797404606,0.0,0.0,0.0828573035762875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572112302903504,0.16997380965076975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493945571865045,0.195142381248002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702056507694538,0.11368456637535955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317307464114756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188844909894273,0.08886389675369151,0.0,0.1130916355204755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531808836870322,0.0,0.0,0.17963236707342542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14320302565037726,0.10978863277263484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059209408758966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633020789936965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06590993870506619,0.0,0.08963488444084695,0.0,0.0,0.10358848697501499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatterfly,2019/04/01,"anyone else's ed makes them really slutty? lol It's no secret that I live for attention but recently I noticed that when I'm feeling shitty about my body (so like 99% of the time) I'm way more responsive to guys' advances just because they validate me? Like I might not want this specific guy but fuck it I'll let him because I can't get enough attention 

I also send a lot of nudes which I obvs spend hours taking so I'd look skinny and then send them out to all the guys I'm sexting


Like ok if I'm gonna hate my body I need to at least surround myself by people who love it even if I consciously and subconsciously think they're lying to me ya know? 


Can anyone relate? I feel like most people who hate their bodies do the opposite of what I do",1.533333333333335,3.506092439490448,3.5238471337579615,88.44063269639065,80.01910828025478,6.7344373673036095,20.65774946921444,7.793537801064563,0.8257909978768572,591,16,125,10,15,200,107,157,0.16399999999999998,0.65,0.185,0.4037,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,4,1,7,9,3,0,4,2,6,7,5,1,1,24,25,11,0,4,6,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,3,10,3,1,0,8,0,1,3,3,3,0,0,0,3,21,6,12,22,6,12,0,0,1,3,15,3,1,5,9,74,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090035496226933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939330793656444,0.14209149755246814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16907304636069564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4621183543351242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584726522784472,0.0,0.0,0.14329093907608478,0.0,0.09159518771895833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402390321001268,0.09907124113722328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282051237430803,0.07245327547965617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119376144226701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27383066204822715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656941328457356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621353298438573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180715007048025,0.0,0.2710033068348641,0.0,0.12245478237097457,0.0,0.11645418191062265,0.0,0.0,0.1178986601854583,0.12516186746545654,0.0,0.09256831503900867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711492350675656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282761678357144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788526473617884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19228304916565064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888403642013934,0.0,0.13692731133825795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426822918998828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885894911042629,0.0,0.0,0.08086397152792002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179558864298847,0.11007575284694347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThnksFrThMemeries,2019/04/01,"Stomach bug making its round I guess there’s a stomach bug going around in my town because people at work and in class are getting it. My natural reaction is, “What about me??” Which I know is already fucking sick in itself. Why would I want to wish illness upon myself for the sake of losing water weight?

DAE?",3.7239999999999998,5.6449834000000045,4.626666666666669,83.265,73.33333333333334,6.133333333333334,27.0,6.742157984588678,1.3783999999999996,244,9,43,2,5,79,52,60,0.151,0.75,0.099,-0.6545,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,0,4,7,2,1,0,8,12,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,0,10,11,0,8,0,1,1,1,0,7,1,1,0,30,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31177697152169004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25151005982505503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222661109597626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611928330705705,0.14760936018202864,0.0,0.1605673267416316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31123674198989154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155270148472389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160768662644759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885898141330156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19586952883283185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664249373645065,0.0,0.0,0.3440433193739652,0.0,0.0,0.2549378192678661,0.0,0.3248935673736923,0.0,0.0,0.20568394549912986,0.0,0.0,0.20069997691854244,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notsoskinny_legend,2019/04/01,Straight from my dietician’s office to the hardware store title says it all. I got it in my head that I NEEDED to know my body fat percentage and i needed to know ASAP so I literally ubered directly to the hardware store to buy a tape measure and now i’m in the bathroom at my school that i worked so hard to get into measuring my forearms because nothing matters except losing weight. sigh ,3.2770129870129883,5.487017480519483,4.637662337662338,81.40506493506496,75.49350649350649,6.997402597402598,29.181818181818183,7.957251820313856,2.2006935064935065,314,14,56,5,7,104,52,77,0.040999999999999995,0.887,0.07200000000000001,0.3058,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,5,4,0,1,10,7,4,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,10,0,12,6,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,36,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651593150383236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009474406141228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415522297383149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21669127802236945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427043280494104,0.0,0.27805722855437937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977973172021348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031066941368869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4017893832412996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599692094776817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154581957655109,0.0,0.27420044174914265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299255475662253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972437321784463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MonstersareComing,2019/04/01,"Why do friends from high school feel obligated to comment on your weight? I just rant into a friend from high school and her first sentence was Oh you've gained a lot of weight. And I was like yeah I've put on some weight and she insisted that it was *a lot*. 

I haven't seen you in such a long time, how in the world is your first fucking comment about my weight? This is like the third time this happened with friends from high school.

I know I've put on weight, it's my body, trust me I've noticed and you commenting on it doesn't really bring anything to the conversation.

Ugh, why are people like this.",0.5633064516129025,2.999941540322581,1.2308870967741932,100.04133064516131,89.24193548387099,4.712903225806452,18.233870967741925,6.322622252153567,-0.3400064516129029,477,13,110,5,16,145,71,124,0.04,0.755,0.205,0.961,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,3,4,9,1,0,7,1,9,7,1,1,0,13,15,5,0,0,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,6,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,2,0,3,4,7,13,7,15,11,3,19,0,0,1,1,13,11,1,3,8,64,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906022326454834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021394137107043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472197746963282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184112816832862,0.0,0.0,0.2508438590452213,0.10005257149737536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957032998257063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430380019510307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059477809742369186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862028525937052,0.0,0.0,0.09577600932224803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401860679592386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321525284788926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07502981535641616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175926926587534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933191616370586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285894283841221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621411776135233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6589464650539926,0.0,0.0,0.19531304967155405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-PM-ME-NICE-STUFF-,2019/04/01,"I've noticed comments referring to caffeine abuse and chest pains. I, a heart attack victim at 20, thought I'd list some symptoms so you know the danger signs Heart attacks are super f*cking sore, I was so sure I was going to die. It was like having a hot iron needle tear it's way through your chest in slow motion for hours. It completely ruined my life and I wouldn't wish it on anyone else. I can't have spicy food, caffeine or alcohol anymore and I lost two years in college.

Here's some things to look out for:

**Random palpitations** - the week before my heart attack I began to have random occurances of palpitations so severe I had to leave my college class because I thought I'd vomit. I used to have several cans of monster a day, but that incident was brought on by, I kid you not, a cup of tea. This was very unusual for me!

**Cold sweats**

**Squeezing pressure** - *this does not have to be in your chest!* This can be in your jaw, neck, arms, back and stomach too. For me, it was pain in my chest and in my left arm in the vein where my elbow is. It feels gross, think Violet Beauregard from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory when she had to be juiced.

**Nausea/Vomiting** - this can be accompanied with heartburn and indigestion.

**Coughing/Wheezing**

**Anxiety** - some people have the misfortune of having a panic attack at the same time as a heart attack because, you know, one isn't cruel enough.

**Shortness of breath**

If you think you're having a heart attack and if you're capable, call your emergency number immediately because time is of the essence. I got seen within minutes so they managed to prevent clotting.

Also, if you can, take an aspirin because they act as blood thinners and can prevent clots from occuring, which in turn prevents blockages and further damage. You can't heal heart scars unfortunately so it's important to do what you can. If you haven't got access to aspirin, take a deep shallow cough every three seconds or so.

I didn't post this to upset or hurt anyone, I just want you all to stay safe. The ED world is full of health problems and injuries and I want to help in any way I possibly can.

Stay safe my lovelies xo

Sources:

www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/heart-attack/symptoms-causes/syc-20373106

www.nhs.uk/conditions/heart-attack/symptoms/

www.webmd.com/heart-disease/features/never-ignore-symptoms#1

www.bhf.org.uk/informationsupport/conditions/heart-attack

Personal experience",3.5922858701582108,6.827885137115843,3.7692765957446817,79.62969230769231,88.88179669030733,5.629081651209312,24.7110020003637,7.137427946048943,1.5950483287870512,1955,77,316,32,65,603,234,423,0.16699999999999998,0.745,0.08800000000000001,-0.9890000000000001,0,0,1,0,1,0,113.0,0,13,2,2,13,26,9,3,17,0,38,36,20,1,2,53,61,30,1,9,11,0,3,1,0,1,13,0,0,2,16,14,3,5,8,0,0,4,8,20,0,4,17,6,41,6,47,39,7,41,0,4,2,1,22,22,0,12,11,205,57,4,0.0,0.06528545966020176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05888601764853524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04406410457297743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03747044600456972,0.0,0.042151975264047715,0.0,0.05464520582850672,0.07705554677651523,0.05645729997179085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5641662199569766,0.0,0.04236912818470863,0.0,0.13435578989524824,0.0,0.046886738097612735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05626409623472197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05777215976316235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03553546949576443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05718595020950886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821909750613144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04602966339674865,0.0,0.0,0.056933874791986826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0464248159870004,0.0,0.0,0.05389917342048178,0.0,0.0,0.02786062938110309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662812833473854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031315064899753366,0.0,0.08813831607182053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058569593336578574,0.0,0.6529473511280222,0.03693291710304079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054263206916596515,0.0,0.05898656572729685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06056393757157218,0.0,0.0,0.0583438107632728,0.05986720042240048,0.0,0.03891933756590227,0.02691947662398578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04627080996644277,0.0,0.060149052268569723,0.0,0.049730639892211256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04249714801345141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06273264696252914,0.0,0.0,0.037337740573206574,0.0,0.11726231136393893,0.06464893826647455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038199969643599466,0.048111909295651935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062117893704184614,0.052771352761220136,0.0,0.0,0.05272404168775977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449648195179068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746028205011698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193186925752332,0.11454169610358035,0.08285791612172863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03660653537123608,0.07061275912378885,0.0,0.08748778998858181,0.06425946064473488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0599338678288781,0.05382549312192006,0.0,0.0,0.047589415719989765,0.0,0.045463945810589566,0.06499978061926187,0.08747292983953282,0.04419855289624253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336322186013986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0354831205030369
EDAnonymous,alcoholhas2manykcal,2019/04/01,"It's like a worm in my brain You know those mind controlling parasites that infect snails or ants or mice that make them do self-destructive things?

This disorder is fucking with my head. I had a moment of clarity where maybe everyone else is right and I'm wrong about starving being good for me. Or productive. Maybe I'm not completely worthless and hideous- What even is real",3.3069366197183108,6.2067476338028165,3.493785211267608,85.8212411971831,79.70422535211267,8.057042253521129,25.77640845070423,8.841846274778883,2.402139436619718,306,12,56,8,8,94,59,71,0.113,0.747,0.14,0.2784,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,3,5,1,0,2,0,6,4,2,2,0,12,11,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,2,5,9,0,4,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,3,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473510697197945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323172568283092,0.0,0.248515294298134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539442392368262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850975483156792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463482513026865,0.0,0.0,0.21172448532539445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484259200836666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18584666541799524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22739995755966244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177186985071135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825039240658373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790308715302847,0.0,0.4452039012399118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372766789519888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25220095118237984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892239085426478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311511332544993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720463825997918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24225756767849604,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xiaoyingdou,2019/04/01,"going to china and panicking help I'm going to china and taiwan and will be surrounded by so much food, and my grandma will make me eat so much and there won't even be a scale to weigh myself on and I won't even be able to accurately track my calories and AGH life sucks :( and I know I'll gain weight because I'll keep thinking that I won't be able to eat these foods again but this time it might actually be true 

any advice? ;-; ",5.112527472527475,4.348354098901105,6.031076923076927,84.23892307692311,68.45054945054945,9.038241758241758,26.991208791208788,8.238735603445708,1.4278202197802201,337,8,76,4,5,112,57,91,0.062,0.852,0.086,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,0,1,0,11,7,0,1,1,15,19,11,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,4,8,6,1,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,7,1,7,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,47,11,0,0.37917646073046296,0.0,0.185010764405448,0.0,0.0,0.18526342450118327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892649790579522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557122553631115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879921808344596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504424762141001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585016814140997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21549472075808865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707699446543527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851473020161242,0.0,0.0,0.10419273324816776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391177389704134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655161594552766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20112315203789968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27873832723963465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148048278082045,0.0,0.0,0.1105504217541282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23086738921821945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carbslut,2019/04/01,"I can’t decide whether to eat zero calories today or 10,000 There’s no in between. ",5.632941176470588,5.632298176470589,6.310588235294119,80.09764705882355,67.23529411764707,6.8000000000000025,34.64705882352941,3.1291,1.947988235294117,67,3,12,0,1,22,17,17,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7336070785181236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6795738770347958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheryshyne,2019/04/01,"Recovery is hard for one reason My boyfriend is the main reason for my recovery and he literally said my body was scary and what i’m doing scared him. the one thing i’m not ready to lose is the feeling of my collarbones and hip bones, i don’t know why but feeling them are just so comforting to me in a weird way that i never thought they’d be. i dont want to lose them at all and i’m scared that gaining weight will make it harder",3.6406451612903226,3.9130170967741975,4.665752688172045,89.2186290322581,71.58064516129029,8.350537634408601,26.252688172043012,8.344100000000001,1.338643010752688,342,10,80,5,6,112,64,93,0.14,0.7,0.16,0.6013,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,3,2,6,0,2,4,0,11,4,3,3,2,17,21,6,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,3,5,12,1,8,15,2,4,0,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173922580916264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293733716971477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19791605056259134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753197894476335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755836817899553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379040309938663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306394877759411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094540004722545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652394549346353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024497044885279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18616722607400693,0.0,0.3918843325566067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002256349544095,0.0,0.0,0.1553737141948224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11543619215871635,0.1553473233515798,0.0,0.2383248704198224,0.0,0.0,0.1765999201864579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moth-wristed,2019/04/01,"I gained weight after water/coffee fasting for two days : /

i know its probably water weight but fuck fuck fuck fuck ",4.454285714285714,7.1407070476190535,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,73.76190476190476,6.104761904761905,20.02380952380953,7.1686216300943375,0.7015523809523807,92,2,15,1,2,28,15,21,0.562,0.385,0.053,-0.9648,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,5,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,3,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613958869026135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7806201599608169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601295364113964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275974126460433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621031883487864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141166161526955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pothosgonerogue,2019/04/01,"Chewing noises The last few weeks I’ve fallen back into my old ways. 

When I realized it was happening my partner’s chewing started driving me insane. I’m registering it so loud like he constantly has his mouth open but he chews with it closed. I’ve tried having music playing or a movie going while we eat but it drives me insane. I want to leave the room. 

Idk. Any of y’all experienced that?",0.7203846153846172,3.242093474358977,2.6783333333333346,87.43750000000001,95.02564102564102,5.1641025641025635,20.602564102564106,6.816661863887847,0.8078256410256413,313,11,59,5,12,104,63,78,0.13,0.799,0.071,-0.544,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,3,5,1,0,0,10,8,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,5,5,4,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,9,2,4,7,1,17,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,9,32,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416708498112025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421661240809314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34033362364194464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222578589914865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898522384166082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784966116108893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25671464064638266,0.0,0.3334714477734365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386168173907885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304720537303531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229131191838315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138206767383416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857572436946963,0.2499813105534707,0.2526224329707125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,artsypear,2019/04/01,"3 days so far of normal eating lately ive been attempting to slowly get out of an ed. i stopped using laxatives (and i am having normal bms now!!) and ive been eating normal portioned(maybe a bit less but i get full very easily and that usually triggers a binge) meals, breakfast lunch and dinner. with the support of my boyfriend i think i can beat this. 💖 much love to everyone here! ",3.848399999999998,5.5868116400000005,5.0183333333333335,81.34750000000003,72.6,8.200000000000001,25.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.050733333333333,303,10,56,6,6,100,56,75,0.019,0.7979999999999999,0.183,0.9362,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,0,7,7,0,2,0,14,13,6,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,8,2,7,11,4,8,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178498625324049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868907439742394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083657116199007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906724021242309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850652584259405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250938027403344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800958340421837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046830472637656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466874604459098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5865309013741774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682733301157476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264396425983105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278594421465538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17234154907815874,0.21976901617110264,0.16464431701167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zyz129492,2019/04/01,"I woke up this morning and immediately had a breakdown First time poster (on this account, old one got found by RL people). I've been restricting again. I have felt so out of control in my life recently and at least food can be controlled. 

I'm the primary caretaker of my mother-in-law who has cancer, in school full-time, and desperately trying to pretend I am healthy and sane. 

This morning I just completely broke down. I can't eat any of my safe foods because her sense of smell is so intense and it makes her throw up so I just don't eat. I have so much homework to do but I can never do it because I am always busy with doctors appointments or doing what she needs and I am exhausted and cannot keep going like this. ",3.594719800747196,4.925600041095893,4.700062266500623,85.00564757160649,72.56164383561644,7.774844333748442,28.341220423412203,8.296473431620573,1.870912328767123,570,22,117,9,11,187,99,146,0.11199999999999999,0.85,0.038,-0.8516,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,2,0,18,8,0,3,1,23,27,13,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,8,9,4,5,2,1,1,2,4,2,0,2,6,2,16,2,16,20,2,16,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,1,7,81,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671145832462468,0.0,0.0,0.1199029055162552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149647428723844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848670232723588,0.0,0.3955133021263525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046987638421325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608365274424232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929380477968078,0.0,0.0,0.1499767753778402,0.4264110534190488,0.19332458484184226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020610022769984,0.0,0.14101833993425786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672034920412542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453926100453973,0.08614051356098537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769424203807488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296146868861418,0.13073823816307065,0.13598801365603574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501703675747566,0.0,0.1194782570667468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223733206542922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174093653054791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17844415085646675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281297475444398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970896649519785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Suffering_Skye,2019/04/01,"Rejection girl back at it again with a shocking 7 rejections I got rejected from all the schools I originally wanted to go to, ended up with Virginia Tech. At first I cried a lot, thought I was hella worthless, etc. But now, after two days, I suddenly see the light. Legit watched like 5 youtube videos and suddenly love VT???? Why did I apply anywhere else???? Ivy league who????? 

So yea just an update that I'm better now, thanks for all the replies in my last post, they helped a ton.",4.052857142857143,5.491600430107528,4.563471582181262,86.00806451612905,71.58064516129029,7.894930875576037,29.414746543778804,8.418075326091056,2.0495972350230414,372,15,75,6,7,118,77,93,0.188,0.69,0.122,-0.7816,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,2,6,9,0,0,7,1,2,1,0,1,2,11,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,0,2,4,3,8,4,11,6,5,19,0,4,2,1,5,4,0,1,14,46,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18947886948581108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21793512946152352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27067665638592664,0.1589180819900619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584913961897544,0.0,0.21825163839534445,0.0,0.2748192321620969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096015182300373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004402142080274,0.0,0.19708156862310586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651676038503663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20086211510688745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038652236661833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949426569262886,0.22240026711200944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23599863133463456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493863789547218,0.1963618306381152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22686695630045586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19562696060891985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24071284973804444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534267609745685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223523187875613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,citrus_juuiice,2019/04/01,Bloating and good weight Middle of last week I got down to 116. But now after eating semi normal and normal I was at 125 yesterday. I took some laxatives and drank magnesium citrate and I got down to 123. Yet I’m bloated as fuck. I know this isn’t real food weight but it’s frustrating.,0.6289655172413795,3.1307121551724144,2.699568965517244,88.62107758620691,91.24137931034485,5.658620689655173,19.31896551724137,7.1686216300943375,0.7563379310344831,227,7,44,4,8,76,44,58,0.111,0.8540000000000001,0.035,-0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,11,9,7,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,2,5,1,8,4,1,11,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,6,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257926674119445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668257835420699,0.0,0.0,0.20399878230297105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508110578287448,0.35296767046779765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127025402649838,0.17986926263535086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324044942149801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251162057814398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451639845830808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700202306023274,0.537414579004151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3cats_in_atrenchcoat,2019/04/01,"Sometimes I can't stand to be around people. Warning! Compete rant because I literally have no one in my life I can talk to about anything. 

I was going to start a new routine today focusing on health and productivity but nope. Apparently my very presence in the morning pisses my girlfriend off so much all she can do is give me shit about things or alternatively angrily hid from me in an apartment with 3 rooms. 

My sins today folks:
- a broken tiny toothbrush thing. (I'll admit to that one I should have cleaned it up last night and immediately did when she reminded me. I didn't need have my face dragged through the dirt about it) 
- being awake, my god. I woke up at 7:30 on my day off? The very fucking first thing I hear his morning is her upset that I'm even awake. 
- cleaning up after the mess of last night. Apparently illegal 

I was going to try doing a small work out and then eating a protein bar for breakfast. Not happening today. 

Is this a record? Day ruined in 5 minutes of getting up? Why the fuck do I even try.   ",2.769772191673212,5.0095514079602035,4.093003404032469,84.5600549882168,77.2089552238806,6.420633673736581,26.499345378371306,7.475848149327749,1.4634517412935324,807,32,157,11,19,265,131,201,0.23800000000000002,0.74,0.022000000000000002,-0.9933,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,8,8,4,1,11,0,19,10,3,0,1,13,32,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,0,8,6,3,0,1,1,0,2,5,8,0,3,5,1,24,0,30,24,2,36,1,1,0,2,9,18,4,1,15,110,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11843892579114383,0.128124752613612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773602119732984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856408693584836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727234241967574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012367741076214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242347622064645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661147402604335,0.07519545249971726,0.1380670400546075,0.16359305095717006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127273384352007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298672536564162,0.16221518696869572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346379795343757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165926837482134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10580225170114356,0.10671938738890084,0.0,0.13900473455615814,0.0,0.2701298101041565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950561148690541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978024315889146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773808434035196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423466036447177,0.0,0.10187164192370092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568235594128334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868543379451484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40927537226181177,0.0,0.0,0.19543276318885827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375082289471599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298709286152186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477992272753778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,curvylucifer,2019/04/01,"Please comfort this fatty I've been the same weight for 2 years. I've gone up and down 10 pounds during this period. I binged really hard last night and I'm up 5 lbs. To top that in also on my period.

I've been at work for an hour and I've already cried 3 times. 

I wish I could just lose these last 15 lbs. Can anyone else relate, or as least just tell me it's going to be ok?

Feeling very pathetic and alone.",-0.3403333333333336,1.6218622999999999,1.948888888888892,97.12000000000003,87.11111111111109,5.377777777777778,13.444444444444445,6.742157984588678,-0.7314222222222226,317,4,77,4,10,107,68,90,0.142,0.7190000000000001,0.139,-0.3071,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,0,0,11,10,7,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,3,5,2,11,5,2,17,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,1,8,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244019782602426,0.2390977521506437,0.17326876068015776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514988131823572,0.22200125231772327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299120782259858,0.0,0.23799885396970186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18099772612128567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955349646644903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231370190857448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194091342052884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133736451491527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532255336655997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423952861617884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033275826069938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378356302640557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880261978229375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893767692686881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634044440241127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877321285819606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638423995950526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491567009202581,0.0,0.0,0.1577363741211918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952663679897553
EDAnonymous,iron_blanket,2019/04/01,"My bmi keeps creeping up and all I can do is binge Title says it all. I'm pushing an obese bmi now. This is by far the heaviest I've ever been in my life and I feel its because I'm only periodically engaging in problem behaviour rather than all the time.

I've started another antipsychotic and it's making me so fucking hungry all the time. I wish I didn't have to trade my body for my mental health.

I want to dive back in and every time I start it just ends with me binging a weeks worth of calories. How did I become so out of control. What has happened to me.

I'm doing everything I can not to purge because I don't want to get into the trap again. But fuck I'm desperate. How did I used to restrict so well. Why do I even want to go back. 

I'm so ashamed to leave the house. I'm trying to work out but I hate wearing gym clothes.

I just wish I could just be happy 

Sorry for the long rant",0.9163960852043758,2.643782818652852,3.2041018998272897,91.18821387449628,80.91709844559584,5.946919976971791,22.63932066781808,6.937597516519254,0.5715379389752449,696,23,159,8,18,239,113,193,0.11900000000000001,0.7809999999999999,0.1,-0.5584,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,18,8,3,1,8,0,16,7,2,5,5,35,39,12,0,8,7,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,8,1,3,1,1,2,2,3,5,1,0,4,2,21,3,23,33,4,24,0,0,0,2,1,8,2,0,14,102,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513510524159506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219741341426764,0.0,0.1759742966567378,0.15941005925229262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032705809062908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618874198393256,0.11524220472482605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784068901586654,0.0,0.0,0.09533393455038967,0.1305620486473753,0.12161104999048213,0.0,0.12972175116014728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298166552518713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668764414446997,0.0754106847155818,0.0,0.08203065196952994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276376794207116,0.15365056043777076,0.0,0.14250396261916434,0.0,0.1534246198234006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16654675462821447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829430935735664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15283317632006052,0.0,0.0,0.10195024806665258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773465069993953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634678313500668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545882679932365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977560704859697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811204057730286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478342729251352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615746532503076,0.20432645898621968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249406964854165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799607554715736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466175021053533,0.0,0.0,0.2554030016771478,0.0,0.1157792941446877,0.0,0.12977726005232598,0.0,0.1302426586442698,0.0,0.3319633164878531,0.0,0.0,0.1050798346796182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,winEblues,2019/04/01,"Twice today, I nearly said, ""I have an eating disorder!"" Had a doctor appointment. Just wanted to shout, ""help me"" but also I can't do that yet until I reach #goal.

Fiance asked me if I'm hungry: ""no, because I like feeling hungry and I don't want to give that up"".

I honestly don't know how long I can keep this going.",1.268636363636361,2.9798082878787886,3.8969696969696974,86.71545454545458,79.75757575757575,6.218181818181819,18.575757575757574,7.1686216300943375,0.3490484848484852,241,5,50,3,6,85,50,66,0.022000000000000002,0.779,0.19899999999999998,0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,1,0,10,17,6,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,3,10,2,5,15,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,36,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257356867913509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638895716053444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17207257925875158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235122805644646,0.2889210267041331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888383980467409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272701938982435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707844665007525,0.16042372245087255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892033774033776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508995135625142,0.0,0.0,0.15513128174277527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13790559464825053,0.0,0.0,0.24980501384845535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685087258975131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675642530517024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33298691217191745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slicerpunk,2019/04/01,"anyone else really insecure about or scared that you will trigger someone with your ribs showing/hipbones sticking out/etc? im in a relationship with a person who also struggles with an eating disorder. i keep on feeling really bad about having my bones stick out even though i really like that they do. i just feel like im triggering my significant other when we’re doing things which have me naked/in only underwear. 

i feel like they compare themselves to me. they’re fit meanwhile i have no muscles whatsoever. so our bodies can’t be compared especially since our bone structure is very different. 

idk i just feel like i’m a bad person because of my body?",5.168292682926825,7.3208840813008145,5.995617886178862,73.98464634146345,69.97560975609754,8.822439024390244,30.99918699186993,9.3871,3.181722601626017,534,23,87,12,10,175,88,123,0.177,0.6920000000000001,0.131,-0.7932,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,2,2,0,9,9,0,3,4,0,9,6,5,2,0,14,15,5,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,17,4,10,13,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,1,5,55,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152791056210991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079513247375653,0.14770178832866684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407234749722574,0.08787433356605004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202429820714385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506092083040523,0.16521183199262976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750451144499802,0.12042133795387552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076870514821326,0.09521169993577204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915523615622593,0.3089488056631637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114199632889777,0.0,0.0,0.12812981383395364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817035062052983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963485570873792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517376865852619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277044317802419,0.0,0.0,0.15476637908175847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432230520383585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924485496206105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214037292237233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070001928082202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576885082265224,0.0,0.14162959502076355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894132564003085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,barbie12312,2019/04/01,"The Infamous Green Tea Does drinking tons of green tea make up for the binge weight? I’ve been binging nonstop for like two or three months now and I’ve gained a little weight, but not a crazy amount. Whenever I go out with friends they keep saying I lost like 2kg or I’m actually underweight (which I’m pretty sure they’re exaggerating). 

Anyway, I always drink tons of green tea after a binge until I can physically not function. Yeah, my stomach gets a little bloated, but I haven’t really become that chubby. 

The worst thing about all of that is whenever I think about that, my mind is like “cool, now binge on whatever you want because you’ll never gain weight” and I’m worried it’s going to go overboard. But I don’t know, could it be because of all the green tea? Or are my friends exaggerating? Or am I blind by seeing that I haven’t gained weight? I don’t really know.

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EDAnonymous,Zi657,2019/04/01,"Idk why I would so much rather get to my goal weight over night and go into recovery, I feel like it’d be so much easier, I wouldn’t need to tell anyone, I could just change my calorie aim on MFP and eat like a human being again",7.837600000000003,3.94797436,8.084,81.63200000000002,65.4,11.6,29.0,8.841846274778883,1.7855999999999996,178,2,43,2,2,59,40,50,0.028999999999999998,0.804,0.16699999999999998,0.7703,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,10,10,4,0,5,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,5,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,27,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569184584880647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29606570541295696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22345368959207895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863772228605741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415108507609534,0.19993942355880467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622069904509272,0.0,0.15905676124474954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27346101819821844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114737976832902,0.2075203075043375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626393508736212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446190089586053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408066710581138,0.0,0.0,0.2525394466882688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988118564241034,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,N7girl,2019/04/01,"Why do I do this? Today I ordered Korean food, barely finished it, then later ordered a large New York pepperoni pizza and ate two slices. It’s not a full blown binge, but I feel so much guilt and shame, like I can’t fucking control my cravings. The pizza didn’t even satisfy me. It’s like I’m wracking my brain to figure out the perfect fix. Now I’m stuck feeling so dissatisfied and ashamed. Please tell me I’m not alone. ",2.2373255813953503,4.28259127906977,3.6955232558139532,87.71444767441862,78.06976744186046,6.16046511627907,25.86627906976745,7.1686216300943375,1.2354232558139535,334,13,67,4,8,110,62,86,0.17800000000000002,0.601,0.22,0.5036,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,3,4,0,4,6,1,1,1,12,12,7,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,2,8,3,2,9,2,10,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,8,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27277609250423185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29401254946946714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953963988978136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395608001471174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26633967238593304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184729538880853,0.0,0.0,0.24348507077224135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573425203989158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19361023533009966,0.0,0.0,0.2543683044235714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891056236878302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302005335812158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249647809520003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25727818291547644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376541202804975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,matchamichelle,2019/04/01,"New Month, New Me (?) I'm hoping that April will be a completely binge-free month for me. I'm going to give it all I've got. My 2nd goal is to restrict at least below 900 cal every day. For the weekends, I'm setting the ideal bar at <800, and weekdays <700. Ultimately, I wan't to lose 5 pounds or more by the end of this month, in time for summer, and repeat the process in May. 

If you'd like to join me in tracking your days binge-free, your daily intake, or weight loss, feel free! 

I'm ready to start fresh this month!",2.8397477064220173,3.820861724770644,3.580630733944953,93.65883600917431,73.95412844036696,6.1839449541284415,20.9644495412844,5.985473137389443,-0.0799275229357801,404,8,93,2,8,128,76,109,0.042,0.769,0.18899999999999997,0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,4,0,6,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,1,11,15,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,1,1,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,8,5,16,10,3,23,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,5,16,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091889608943004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25734291289037203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17671215151988326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681010205580399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088139571009093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19139413850294296,0.11338966577624812,0.0,0.15957134742428325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19816462474961824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974735472219734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232076160986512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6370077737787181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853880174107249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121860754134685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163395124486209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429570061855568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coolestcitrus,2019/04/01,"A month of hard work down the drain (literally) Idk what’s wrong with me. I’ve been doing so well. I’ve been purge free for over a month now. But something in my horrible brain decided that today was a binge day, which means that I purged in response. 

I didn’t even feel that post-purge high that I used to get. I just want to cry and cry because I’m so disappointed in myself. I talked myself out of purging just a few nights ago. I thought that I’d finally gotten rid of this beast. Yet here I am, post-purge and with a mixture of vomit and toilet water on my face. 

I’m just really upset and disappointed. I don’t think being purge free is possible for me right now. I don’t want to hurt my body more, but I can’t stop myself. I hate this illness and what it makes me do to myself. I’m just so tired.",0.7867801857585164,2.714068888888889,2.686157550739594,93.72003095975231,82.33333333333333,5.894874441004473,18.245958032335746,7.048011613610866,0.0011627794977639994,624,14,145,8,17,208,99,171,0.222,0.728,0.05,-0.9818,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,13,9,1,1,6,0,12,7,3,2,0,24,26,10,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,11,8,1,1,5,0,2,0,4,6,1,0,6,2,21,5,19,19,2,20,0,3,0,0,1,9,0,0,11,91,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754695533715778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146573782797824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848872653792981,0.0,0.1858120813576691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656727216725249,0.10734580576728454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993796472524904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416159269978593,0.0,0.0,0.1823366938524815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696270887452448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14910556945494016,0.16433388267797935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586245926372304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781870485261576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110596972255447,0.0,0.0,0.1813117077910381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657159351632524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620106837249678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876461869467355,0.3188241756174345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663146251437304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214649780481176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814053724554622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391587791736661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337853647689502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665376922201304,0.0,0.13214187745912118,0.0,0.19130858773353326,0.15777414663761474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375845455103606,0.0,0.0,0.19635181198613552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965759994129774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121176821378717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198580230916794,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RachLizbeth_,2019/04/01,"Yikes 😬 So I work around a lot of social workers/therapists/etc. who have a lot of experience working with people with eating disorders as well as an array of mental health issues. I usually have my first meal of the day when I first get to work. I arrive a little early and it keeps me from being a hangry bitch throughout the night. We CONSTANTLY have things like pizza and cupcakes in the break room. Not a huge deal because I’m vegan so I walk right past. So the HEAD OF THE MENTAL HEALTH DEPARTMENT comes into the break room, grabs a slice of pizza. I’m watching TV while slowly eating a plate of cucumbers and celery. I look over after a few minutes.. and she’s looking at my food super suspect. I hope I’m just overreacting because the last group of people I want to notice my eating habits are the people at work. But I feel like she was really studying me. She quickly looked away when I noticed her, but she had actually been facing me and just watching. I feel like she might be thinking about the other times she’s seen me eating right before work and my food choices. I’m pretty sure aside from cucumbers and celery, she’s only ever seen me eat salad and zero calorie soda. If I have another meal later, on my lunch break, it’s always a carefully measured concoction of safe foods. IM SUPER NERVOUS.",3.5593536931818197,5.589370148437502,4.850525568181818,81.01237215909094,74.078125,6.998295454545455,24.13636363636364,7.84624498591911,1.4625531249999997,1042,32,185,15,22,345,148,256,0.037000000000000005,0.831,0.132,0.9717,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,9,12,12,1,1,19,0,11,19,2,0,2,33,29,19,0,3,6,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,5,14,15,2,4,1,0,3,1,2,1,3,5,10,31,10,27,21,3,37,0,0,7,0,13,14,1,5,20,122,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.08770968904993713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478716777140408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942467743628838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08001204986201968,0.0,0.0,0.08444500146181406,0.0,0.0,0.10957974567031742,0.0,0.07648106330293544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163841447845046,0.0,0.0,0.07742346233463702,0.0,0.0971280997150815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057965015317273015,0.09266209503982482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301000187883047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598472100280037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023970087150524,0.0,0.08130139660613442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879196604755418,0.0,0.0,0.09089182339448178,0.12842024959909107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529033708761672,0.3260489196529135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04695846955465896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224257311709023,0.19107598256361225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927089057895737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708557376488024,0.09381112714477062,0.0,0.0798892682478006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326400767634919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173214512009998,0.09008314061411514,0.0,0.0,0.2264291070166249,0.0,0.0,0.1528251306294206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18115533403454398,0.09534823112956096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843460744094168,0.0,0.0,0.2046574250276616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683576143205422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580040944078618,0.18693394433197502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144003724399333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057579281405259974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351366294487798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162110547968404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471061842381898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597121246353284,0.05759132667000776,0.0,0.0,0.05240961598939517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898986723052372,0.0,0.05301341635100649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081270629008094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271677107973452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingofsomecosmos,2019/04/01,Guess who forgot what happens when you eat too much sugar free candy Went to the movies and loaded up on candy at cvs to take in. I grabbed sugar free to rationalize the binge to come. A pack of red vines and life savers down and my guts are rumbling. I guess I don't have to worry about all the popcorn I ate. :/,4.3031538461538466,4.360037123076925,4.9075000000000015,88.82125000000002,70.07692307692308,7.115384615384617,23.94230769230769,5.985473137389443,0.4207692307692304,243,5,54,1,4,78,50,65,0.036000000000000004,0.831,0.134,0.7654,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,3,6,1,0,1,8,11,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,6,4,12,8,2,8,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,1,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26066838112436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30964161040606925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.666709523086339,0.0,0.26759359595356685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373965440558496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22245031934083975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275221453427461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805189084953025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073112076263163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Little_Bear716,2019/04/01,"Lost over the sauce I got Popeyes for dinner tonight.
They forgot my sauce. 
I had a breakdown. 

-a poem by me",-0.6963636363636354,1.2700307272727258,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,105.36363636363636,2.2,19.13636363636364,3.1291,-0.8622181818181818,84,3,18,0,4,26,20,22,0.113,0.887,0.0,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910134840085335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8066616773592848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aerienne,2019/04/01,"Welcome to April: What are your goals this month? March was....interesting. But it's moved on. April doesn't give a flying fuck about March. We all know an 'April'. She's pretty damn confident and knows she can do whatever she sets her mind to. People doubt April? Psh, what's new. Doubt all you want, but April brings the results. 

Want know what's even better? It's Monday! You know how wonderful it is to have the first day of the month start on a Monday? So pure and fresh and a clean slate. 

It's Spring and I want you to do some spring cleaning! Marie Kondo the shit out of your life. But here's something she won't tell you to do: bring some more things into your life. Bring in the good and the wholesome and the things that make you feel fuzzy inside. Pet a puppy, read a book, wash your sheets. 

I only ask one thing of you: don't strive for perfection this month. Strive for your best. Learn from mistakes. Use them as a stepping stone toward your goals. 

Whatever you want to do this month: you've got this!
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EDAnonymous,pushthesky_away,2019/04/01,"Bradycardia? I'm moderately active, but I also smoke cigarettes, drink a lot of caffeine, and have anxiety. I'm underweight by about 6kg (13lbs). My resting heart rate is sitting at 55BPM. It never used to be so low.

It's weird because my anxiety and panic disorders have always made me worry about my heart - I get palpitations when I'm particularly high-strung. So I never know how to separate anxiety symptoms from something solely physical.

What's your experience with heart issues? I'm trying to at least maintain right now but I'm honestly wondering how worried I should be - I have white coat syndrome in spades but know I should go in for a check-up. What can I expect if I'm up-front about my restriction?",3.64897435897436,6.176088074074078,5.242222222222225,75.97461538461539,75.66666666666667,8.894586894586894,28.903133903133906,9.466822959209583,3.1584928774928778,570,25,99,16,13,192,89,135,0.196,0.7609999999999999,0.043,-0.9620000000000001,0,0,4,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,1,2,0,9,5,3,4,2,21,22,12,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,13,1,15,17,3,12,0,1,1,0,1,6,0,3,4,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468989713888814,0.129738689498876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578372131336781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950479408602707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17869887371435236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274313422666574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525205709908483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081462241216518,0.0,0.0886134475915895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5543010949950725,0.0,0.16473900437188765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274092279275618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713801113016718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255838375214432,0.0,0.14753613711609204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24051163938744746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293959540774465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315560706562848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003553580388597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206152880759836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586006445377316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466560613294115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908957812004793,0.0,0.31669050980304403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,finding_ferris,2019/04/01,"My boyfriend's friend triggers me so much I hate this disorder for making me have these thoughts at all. I know that most of the thoughts I have pertaining to these things are quite delusional when I think about them logically, but the ED makes them make perfect sense.

My boyfriend has a close friend who is a bit younger than us, is a trans woman, and is so skinny. I think the main reason shes skinny is because she has some serious GI problems, which SUCKS!! Like, thats horrible and I feel so bad for her bc of that. 

So shes tiny, has tiny legs and hips because biological dudes tend to have narrower hips, and less body fat, and is skinny because shes sick all the time and cant digest food properly...

But my ED brain is all like:

""Your boyfriend is secretly in love with her, because she's so much smaller than you"". 

And I've been getting so jealous because they're in a band together and I hate that my ED makes me think these things, my bf would never cheat on me with anyone, especially not like one of his long time friends. And I know that, but.. Shes so much thinner than me. She weighs less. So he MUST be secretly in love with her. 

We all hung out the other night and I had a really good time, all 3 of us made music, I shaped and plucked her eyebrows, and we watched some tv and it was awesome. But in the back of my mind the whole time I'm thinking ""fuck I'm so fat, hes leaving me soon"". 

Fuck EDs. Fuck my ED for sucking the joy out of everything, making me compare myself to people who are literally biologically different from me on every level, like my bfs friend, teenagers, and even literal kids. Fuck my ED for making me jealous. It makes me feel so disgusting.",3.654408284023667,4.886539387573965,4.415344378698227,87.4873479289941,72.28402366863905,7.774863905325444,27.721183431952664,8.238735603445708,1.6441830532544377,1315,48,282,20,25,422,167,338,0.172,0.675,0.153,-0.8801,2,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,4,2,2,2,15,28,12,0,13,0,27,20,10,10,8,64,59,29,0,3,5,0,2,4,5,2,4,0,0,2,17,22,8,0,14,2,0,0,3,15,0,1,6,3,51,13,30,50,16,23,0,0,1,6,36,13,6,3,14,183,68,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430091637395118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071194436251782,0.07678317223040591,0.28029132138491103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039704310855213,0.10214737906556012,0.0,0.10265832571250602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607914460380626,0.10539469448796332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607390397248182,0.0,0.07748068335986404,0.0,0.08264816336437424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929959788699315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119899572267136,0.0,0.284193801638677,0.3400639836166601,0.04804556316926647,0.0,0.0,0.07713210026815942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815839005762309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10107816628338458,0.0,0.0,0.0973728862818277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17970901124091396,0.0,0.0,0.08138214435069377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599587444141012,0.08701524399163524,0.4296904120296991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285388507801028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280463506395036,0.0,0.070925603019073,0.0,0.0,0.08629869509269864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062314811447727325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375382840808509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879937742910057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978113061982201,0.0,0.0,0.05891224795512781,0.09455070497930433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218893347017724,0.23569828827619374,0.0,0.14601272207212834,0.21449161691818014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22123430565772007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267060869973167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532609725574944,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ffj_,2019/04/01,ICE CREAM FOR BREAKFAST S/O to Halo Top who made a breakfast ice cream so good that even having a shitty cooler in an even shittier store didn't ruin the flavor of PANCAKES AND WAFFLES,2.1622972972972967,4.678890027027029,3.6445270270270282,85.4084121621622,81.16216216216216,4.781081081081081,22.763513513513516,5.985473137389443,0.6494378378378376,149,5,26,1,4,49,32,37,0.155,0.6459999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.2295,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7223938717146384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586815728289337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174536779812373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,livpagano,2019/04/01,"Recovery kinda sucks. I hate to be a downer and my judgement is definitely skewed because I’m in the early stages of a relapse but all of that aside, recovery sucks. I was unhappy in my eating disorder and I’m still unhappy! I’ve been discharged for about 5 months and I know it’s still early but I’m not as happy as I thought I’d be in recovery which sucks!!! Anyone else? ",0.4648051948051979,2.8833939870129868,3.1974155844155843,85.85326623376626,89.64935064935068,6.716363636363638,23.284415584415584,7.908726449838941,1.687245194805195,295,12,59,7,10,103,50,77,0.31,0.667,0.022000000000000002,-0.9741,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,10,14,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,6,1,10,9,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,5,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20895942129280515,0.30620208987875913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821731807657835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425023407047213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057931131510722,0.2496467088497428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31812613379548604,0.0,0.29504763633408165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423743488413453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23853528356000775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773161175402245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372496040969277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fat_cacao,2019/04/01,"is being full a binge trigger for anyone else? I've been trying to think more about my binge triggers, and for some reason being full (from eating a normal amount of food) often triggers a binge for me. like being full makes me want to feel even more full or something? does anyone else experience this? it sounds counterintuitive so I thought I would ask. ",4.33727272727273,6.810620303030305,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,73.24242424242425,5.612121212121212,21.60606060606061,6.42735559955562,0.4488969696969698,284,7,50,2,6,87,47,66,0.0,0.93,0.07,0.5171,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,5,0,15,12,3,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,8,6,8,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,1,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096781666794109,0.4537919431456777,0.0,0.0,0.20702063460139689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378749926910646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265929195198109,0.3699767860947792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626194717397153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21661512906787386,0.0,0.0,0.11196894954620068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26777146480869435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818655525296868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14781586611036227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696850894387448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276817394479506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704787289476534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418926391701007,0.0,0.17580212939813106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034622133799536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061365299968122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730775839049124,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Annielizabeth319,2019/04/01,"Flavored Aligners?! What in the...?! Is this a joke lmao? Food flavored aligners. I can get a zero cal taste of food and straighten my teeth at the same time! Sorry for the long a** link, I’m on mobile. 

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EDAnonymous,zevix_0,2019/04/01,"Anyone else here feel like it's hypocritical that (society, Reddit, your mom, ect) rip you apart for having a sub 18.5 BMI goal weight while at the same time celebrating underweight bodies in pop culture? I don't know if this is going to make any sense, but it's been on my mind lately. **Also I think I should make a disclaimer that I do know underweight BMIs carry health risks even at the higher underweight spectrum.** I'm just ranting about the hypocrisy I see from people who think that wanting to be at a sub 18.5 BMI weight is terrible while at the same time looking at celebrities, models, influencers, etc who are underweight and calling them ""beautiful, goals, stunning"" and so on.

I feel like the vast majority of people seem to think that <18.5 BMI automatically means that you look sickly, frail, and skeletal. Whenever I see women discussing goal weights that would put them in the underweight BMI they get downvoted, accused of having an eating disorder, and told that they would look sickly and terrible when they're underweight. 

This might be controversial, but I don't think there's anything inherently disordered or unnatural in aspiring to look like the body type that *society praises more than any other. 

Idk this opinion might separate me from healthy minded individuals and ED minded individuals, but I personally find 16-18 BMI bodies attractive and I feel like most of *society does as well. Most VS models that walk the runway have low 16 to mid 17 BMI (and that's if we're to believe their agents I wouldn't be surprised if they were lower). Despite this I've heard on many an occasion non-disordered people in my life praise VS Angels for being ""fit"" models that have muscle tone and aren't skin and bones like ""other models"". 

This is even more extreme in SE Asia where kpop idols are held as the ideal body standard, and they're even tinier than most Western models.

[This video is a great example of the point I'm trying to make.](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4hEMv9QUIzE) In this video the girl states that her BMI is 17.5. If I saw this girl walking down the street I would probably clock her as underweight, but only because I have a neurotic obsession with calculating BMI and I look at thinspo all day. I'm pretty sure no one would raise eyebrows seeing this girl at the beach or call or anorexic/sickly. Hell some people might even say she's the ideal body type (and looking at her comments section that seems to be a popular opinion).

Even on Reddit looking at a lot of GW posts and other NSFW subreddits you see women who are obviously underweight get hundreds of upvotes and called beautiful. 

I feel like the average person doesn't see underweight unless you look like death, but when people hear ""oh yeah I'm on a diet and my goal weight is (insert underweight BMI goal here)"" people flip out.

I guess the point I'm trying to make is that it's hard to hear people preach about the dangers of wanting an underweight goal weight when at the same time those people don't (usually) make a peep when models/celebrities/your neighbor are underweight.

*(Obviously each individual has their type but it's hard to deny that most  Hollywood celebrities and models that people hold up as beautiful are underweight or near underweight)",7.263617756512495,8.369786981481486,6.8356087187666175,73.89622009569379,63.86531986531986,10.02367534999114,32.29824561403509,10.064110947511567,3.2857717171717185,2633,99,443,56,38,822,269,594,0.092,0.774,0.134,0.9862,2,0,0,0,0,0,87.0,0,5,7,10,19,24,2,2,30,1,40,19,8,5,4,92,87,44,1,14,18,1,12,7,1,9,4,4,1,7,36,20,7,2,14,3,0,4,7,7,1,1,6,30,37,17,57,67,16,55,5,1,14,0,41,36,1,22,20,267,73,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04423954090478022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523926083618182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03868116743316713,0.0566820784327746,0.045523807876399085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03372267813261083,0.0,0.0,0.06232691719900705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072413345958766,0.0,0.0,0.16946431642954074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0356769500155127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020521264489848,0.0,0.048411076480203326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566063714022801,0.046212925382410217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061696641982891876,0.18269233922436495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188621351394444,0.15808303684036645,0.0,0.0,0.05056165710583141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057805038502501994,0.0,0.03143974234797158,0.0,0.0,0.06099071159454361,0.06094143295497247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911205958080767,0.0,0.0,0.0588027816586772,0.12469976330618228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06080506615344301,0.0,0.062403590878025175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03907429058003758,0.18918657468435127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716402564028212,0.0,0.0,0.04703125252996608,0.0,0.0,0.18463330261873706,0.056085996086342564,0.0,0.060259911319791325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605795793156018,0.1675728844034453,0.0647903451730978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03748639663481153,0.04207350202436577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34516852716920465,0.09660692302356932,0.0,0.0,0.1045909329302568,0.0,0.052981456033314715,0.05628052749256213,0.05964452803737435,0.0,0.0,0.05561207670949397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04399284039866243,0.0,0.0,0.22041517015882145,0.1007228578562924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05213863021941041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178779194219618,0.0,0.0,0.09677295381109023,0.0,0.0,0.05286081815240794,0.0,0.07511756379699149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092738052245859,0.0,0.0652585700168983,0.0,0.0,0.3368254780458349,0.04973950006134779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719152063149555,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pandatopixie,2019/04/01,"I can feel myself backsliding and idk what to do  I've been working towards a healthier relationship with food for a month now...it was sort of working but my ex-girlfriend commented on how skinny my arms are now and she's showing some weird interest in me again and I DON'T EVEN LIKE HER but my ED freaking loves the validation...

Unrelated but my clothes are now way too loose and it loves that validation too.

I want to be healthy and happy but I don't know how to.

I guess this is a rant but I also wanted to throw in that I ate ice cream for the first time in ages last week and even though I felt guilty I kept it down and it didn't ruin more than a day which was super nice so that's a rave I guess; I just really don't want to lose the progress I've made towards keeping a healthy mindset towards food but I feel like I'm going to

​",1.5604064771976205,3.5385008370786544,3.011506939854596,92.12083608724392,79.95505617977528,6.210707204230008,23.391936549900866,7.285733465282438,0.7743340383344353,671,23,150,9,17,219,106,178,0.1,0.6409999999999999,0.259,0.9882,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,6,13,12,0,0,9,0,13,7,2,3,0,31,30,18,0,3,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,8,4,2,4,1,0,2,4,4,0,1,8,4,20,8,19,21,2,21,0,2,1,2,6,8,0,4,12,99,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257983375775088,0.0,0.17044205050175973,0.19114520261315354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144999043835966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779955752287746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590782744354333,0.1123801401811867,0.15103937283624508,0.0,0.0,0.1338052394920845,0.3804324568325008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940118365497482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465827537327981,0.0,0.0,0.1674562086558736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398216744273296,0.0,0.0,0.08645180399653582,0.1282261867362378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370449215168056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759862765571767,0.0,0.0,0.2839513879032716,0.14884767096357931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556093314009725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077488147010907,0.0,0.0,0.16888882938915126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545533122363758,0.0,0.09172696689373323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27835120300460264,0.12486296117311242,0.1261821732578373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22904271447498464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114520261315354,0.0
EDAnonymous,ginsengdew,2019/09/24,"Got stood up for a date and now I’m binge eating Got stood up for a first date at my house with a cute gal I was talking to so I’ve been binge eating and even made rice crispy treats aaaaaa 
Ask me anything y’all like how it feels to be a total loser",0.465789473684211,1.8222555789473704,1.8981052631578983,101.7587368421053,80.9298245614035,4.5600000000000005,14.908771929824562,3.1291,-1.439621754385965,196,2,51,0,5,63,43,57,0.062,0.838,0.1,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,2,1,7,11,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,7,1,4,3,8,3,1,7,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297885044376725,0.0,0.2610491802101251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5714589368925289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443360237600326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119076846761494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375191037987853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44666315349151536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222023518171088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642123942341694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642210838978191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22444036353765795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slushypandaboobs,2019/09/24,"I love all of you. This community feels like such a hug and really helps me not feel alienated. I have always been a Reddit lurker but I found this sub and decided to make an account to tell you all how much. Your support, humor, and general shitposting is really good for me and helps me not feel alone. I was finding myself get sucked into the other “healthy” “sustainable” weight loss subs and going mad. I really wanted to say you’re all loved and I know you will beat this bullshit. I am so much better and my relationship with food is getting better each day. I am glad to consider you guys my friends.",4.205047080979283,5.760918525423733,5.323333333333334,80.24925612052732,71.37288135593221,8.973258003766476,25.822975517890768,9.444778638647367,2.2479404896421844,478,15,91,11,9,158,81,118,0.11199999999999999,0.565,0.32299999999999995,0.9847,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,5,0,4,3,14,2,0,4,0,8,5,0,2,3,27,22,10,0,1,3,0,4,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,10,2,0,7,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,3,5,19,11,8,18,6,3,0,1,0,3,14,1,1,0,2,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806182722185948,0.0,0.0,0.1451087200909481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30847239226279577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246888247528798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26453460973051085,0.12458619980130813,0.0,0.0,0.1593917940944774,0.0,0.21087637905336515,0.19121262503192693,0.13473538913165736,0.0,0.18222600527765345,0.0,0.09911140626230283,0.14627234632492606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267621880653006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378353921152226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584168260095337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519947803363588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31479249171730456,0.0,0.11640850018974135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25639744207873066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351613416092709,0.0,0.0,0.18723252532486429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868409699819914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978988012027026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242693103169502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286134939428082,0.0,0.0,0.21236336115361912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lillgall,2019/09/24,"“On a break” My boyfriend told me he wants to be on a break and I literally can’t handle that. “We aren’t considered anything but we won’t be romantic with others” what???? I have literally no appetite which is a win I guess but it sucks because I was finally eating a “normal” amount and still losing weight and I felt great, but now I feel sick and nauseous at 0 calories. I ate some avocado toast and strawberries with dark chocolate hummus which came out to 300 calories. That’s all I ate today and I feel fat as fuck and full and like I can throw up any second. This sucks. I’m on a break with food I guess (:",0.1821505882352952,2.565798528000002,2.098447058823531,93.11416470588236,91.72,5.181176470588237,19.352941176470583,6.794906146795322,0.2999317647058821,476,15,103,7,17,157,82,125,0.159,0.675,0.166,0.4606,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,2,2,7,3,0,5,0,9,8,1,0,1,27,23,12,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,15,6,0,3,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,6,4,15,3,12,14,4,16,0,1,0,1,4,7,3,3,5,67,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456435138544596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493844796206434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295891808888335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431393647032772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752641573318135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149776287785992,0.0,0.20411389512350853,0.23287528685181094,0.0,0.0,0.2570573127302261,0.0,0.0,0.1965304030327044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23437451575712304,0.4683702965565877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385776238979323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23782702299296274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082870999568341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976978838779133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015046937604336,0.2031330399841461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538750038195307,0.0,0.0,0.2588699369059879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mfuku44,2019/09/24,Has anyone tried using pre-workout or energy gels to combat lack of energy while restricting? Any success with it?,5.471499999999999,8.581775149999999,6.599999999999998,65.555,72.5,10.0,25.0,10.125756701596842,3.6830000000000003,93,3,12,3,2,31,19,20,0.256,0.455,0.289,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,8,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4628919647272673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4759536814182174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4621432521409626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878968758514974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkybrewster215,2019/09/24,"To the girl behind me at 7-11 I see your large Diet Coke. And I see your swollen cheeks and the bags under your eyes. And I see everyone bone and muscle outline in your legs. 

I see you, not because I know you and not because I’m judging you. I see you because I was you, I’ve been you, and I can relate. 

I see you because I want to, because I’m here for you and your not alone. I see you because I care for you, and you should too. Sending love.",-0.28530612244897924,1.4595718979591863,1.9585306122449,98.47575510204081,85.12244897959185,4.328163265306123,21.02448979591837,4.935628992294339,-0.3526644897959179,338,11,83,1,10,114,46,98,0.0,0.882,0.11800000000000001,0.857,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,16,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,8,4,0,0,14,17,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,8,29,2,8,14,0,4,0,0,8,1,19,3,0,0,0,56,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798332633261882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5225995955563674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456783765129608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365304878742358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852456353606957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895716323894782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7970127681690841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08427588442439042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nothingelsetosaynow,2019/09/24,"Volume eating and still never full? I eat massive quantities of low calorie foods to the point where I’ll feel uncomfortably stuffed. Veggies in particularly are the only foods that make me “full” - although sometimes I’ll still feel unsatisfied or want to eat even more despite physical fullness.

Whenever I eat “normal” foods, I am still hungry. So, I can’t justify eating a variety (especially lower volume/higher calorie foods) because I figure I’ll still be hungry after anyways, so what’s the point? I know fats are supposed to make you full, but in my experience they don’t. Nothing does! Maybe I need to retrain my body or perhaps it's a mental thing? I am a super fast eater, too.

Has anyone else dealt with this or anything similar? What has helped? Any insights? Thanks so much.",3.8781250000000007,6.719038895833336,4.8706666666666685,77.24100000000003,76.70833333333334,6.8955555555555526,29.04444444444445,8.021203637495839,2.4366477777777766,627,28,101,11,15,204,97,144,0.05,0.865,0.085,0.8295,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,1,11,3,0,0,6,0,9,11,2,2,1,17,17,9,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,10,0,5,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,13,2,9,16,6,17,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,3,7,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422135659538344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763157077747954,0.1118304648177336,0.08981584190016635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653289495976034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123387924042932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09551225598632272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5584054961102082,0.09117543091210883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208828532401337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676333476655477,0.0,0.0,0.1103725164101054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5279072548869586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315662082266705,0.11531615282190433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059982440651653764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570833408781853,0.0,0.10964936572275084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999102742018343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023306736358525,0.08092855926696392,0.0841782341370716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693750549121084,0.10472617970677006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300858786388655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20635186585797316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794576160311307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486487196129491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004847168110577,0.0,0.0,0.07251012478417469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437569351824064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,llamatimev,2019/09/24,"Please help me with my eating habits or how to break this cycle. Hi everyone,

This took a lot to admit and I have been struggling with this for a long time, but I have only just now realised how bad it is. When I workout or am extremely busy my eating schedule and what I eat and track will almost be normal. But I am pretty sure I have a sugar addiction. These past three weeks I have been going to the cornershop DAILY, I will feel the need to devour 4 buenos and a bag of crisps in one sitting outside of my 'normal' eating routine so this easily adds up to 3000> kcal. Apart from this being an awful dent in my wallet, I do not know how to stop this. A couple of times I managed to convince myself that I do not need to go there, however, that was one day out of the three weeks.  Does anyone have any tips on how to stop this or how to fight a sugar addiction or how I can get support with disciplining through it? Obviously it is comfort food for me, but this is extremely unhealthy and I do not want my health to suffer.

Any and all tips are welcome, I am desperate.",4.4395216251638265,4.874486674311927,5.476435124508518,83.53366972477066,69.87155963302753,8.24692005242464,27.03931847968545,8.192908349453996,1.6123043250327649,837,25,172,11,14,277,124,218,0.14,0.737,0.12300000000000001,-0.7291,1,0,0,0,1,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,11,9,1,1,10,1,23,10,0,6,3,44,34,21,0,5,11,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,15,11,7,3,3,1,0,3,3,4,0,4,4,3,22,5,27,26,2,23,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,6,12,130,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845255141925357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067551650325385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774870718997906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124766869156782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896089598508386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443942398677364,0.0,0.08416081341303458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420022095507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5341306652620003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469702290836993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598402284208475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577994481684848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818014232756772,0.0,0.14833074510859326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871392967144094,0.0,0.0,0.08747047356384517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171862820227122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548717131704453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094525925099327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352614498365986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557218783991257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685848321325695,0.09925008028898052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457569812038292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324829572930334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276401068558707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21820537775291327,0.0,0.13642549093062215,0.0,0.0,0.14808828643196872,0.12299340407739577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218958843328015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498876744382316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769714666248875,0.0,0.20935624131096275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drinkpiss69420,2019/09/24,"How EDs r perceived by normies I hate how people think the only EDs that r worth talking about are anorexia and bulimia and even then they only think bulimia is like, throwing up a lot or something. Sucks how much shit people with BED, ARFID, n EDNOS get from media just cause people are simply too lazy to do actual research into these disorders. Remember the kid that went blind from only eating fries and chicken nuggets or something?? Nope, no ARFID here no disorder here! He’s just a PICKY EATER guyz haha! Veg good fries bad!!!!!",4.882045454545455,6.931304414141415,4.850391414141416,82.3289204545455,70.51515151515152,7.374242424242425,27.52651515151515,8.07648339933343,1.9207666666666656,423,15,73,6,8,131,75,99,0.17,0.706,0.124,-0.7993,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,10,7,3,0,4,1,4,3,1,4,0,18,10,9,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,5,1,0,4,0,1,2,3,4,0,0,1,1,2,3,8,9,2,5,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,3,2,41,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.17733471441691193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517304986165075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866788212552766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165389129328138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18594724151695807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002584049640275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494238182955536,0.0,0.0,0.1524200120035131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794131121105947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878031829565919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449376910038765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358677214522333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146239079762232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779500074850792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20585589873789786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653529100395386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797973515881357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606147105453154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328805763318171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845835790494607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aliyah_200018,2019/09/24,"what more random food and drink are you terrified of? I don't mean like the obvious pasta, pizza, cookies, whatever, I mean the random food and drink and such that you just. can't.

for me its:

milk

protein powder/drinks

any nut milk that is sweetened

any kind of dressing or condiment 

salt added on ANYTHING

non diet soda 

yogurt of any kind 

​

idk why but they just spark PURE FEAR and I avoid like the plague, even low calorie options??? surely I'm not the only one??",2.1157042957042966,4.852866824175823,2.678121878121882,90.59642357642359,84.05494505494505,4.627772227772229,21.45954045954046,6.1124844417494595,0.37699120879120906,375,12,69,3,11,116,67,91,0.195,0.743,0.061,-0.9105,0,1,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,1,0,4,8,0,2,4,0,4,10,0,0,3,18,7,6,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,10,1,2,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,7,5,5,7,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,4,2,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592217196627358,0.19729098016391336,0.3312408556411139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361238007421258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771670162695552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072404063006675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18270551829326453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926642744288515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381558672998538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864646089796672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35372568992289544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002257738153214,0.12348573209859025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530268842259187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650896028326718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19729098016391336,0.0
EDAnonymous,gaycowboysex,2019/09/24,"my mom called me fat today (tw bmi numbers) this isnt the first time she's done this. in medical recovery shed tell me i need to exercise, that my clothes make me look fat, that im eating too much overprocessed shit, she even showed me thinspo and said i should be like this.

im >!a 16 bmi,!< and today she told me i have fat, flabby arms. she poked and pinched the very prominent and grotesque muscle in my forearm, and called it flab. she then proceeded to compare my body to her >!30 bmi!< body, and told me i have no right to call her arms fat (which ive never even done).

i was already having a shit ed day. i engaged in low restriction, i engaged in calorie counting, i engaged in weighing myself, and i engaged in exercise. ive been doing pretty decent recovery wise, and i had a bad day- nothing out of the ordinary. but her comment was the cherry on top to pushing me into full blown RELAPSE. fuck everything im DONE.",3.013033783783784,4.937219259459464,3.972347972972973,87.17690033783785,75.32432432432431,7.003378378378378,28.859797297297305,7.865858978985527,1.8892770270270285,733,32,145,11,16,236,111,185,0.08800000000000001,0.812,0.1,-0.4891,1,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,2,4,11,3,0,6,0,16,17,11,1,1,16,23,10,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,7,1,0,0,7,10,6,1,0,3,0,1,3,5,0,1,10,2,32,6,15,11,2,23,0,1,1,1,17,13,3,0,10,92,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365622889365059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332690318545418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27491889279290393,0.0,0.0,0.3790907748626616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961829500242253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799206684750967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662815186804294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347271661012405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112194055851286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526252441144476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440579130600205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010168979218123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045848024591784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391965970936463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826047432638017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466609787327936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449356576816631,0.0,0.0,0.09097121276318744,0.09175978715023687,0.0954443884466086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874240745162333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589924077441686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568266481392682,0.11771552518908128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540572149960514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816381521829783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216019438768362,0.0,0.23460292744323885,0.23649873832409246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021075226715916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ballycat18,2019/09/24,"I do not need fried chicken ED: chicken tenders are so good you want it 
Me: not really I’m trying to lose weight you told me that earlier today...
ED: hah fuck u you’re eating the chicken tenders and then you can cry about how fat you are after you eat them 😎",2.6579090909090897,3.5355765636363685,4.361590909090912,88.28238636363638,74.27272727272727,6.954545454545455,24.65909090909091,7.1686216300943375,0.926545454545454,201,6,44,2,4,68,42,55,0.154,0.7140000000000001,0.132,-0.5177,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,1,1,3,5,1,0,1,1,4,7,1,1,0,6,9,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,9,3,3,8,0,3,0,1,0,1,7,0,1,0,3,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015636435163517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5618353821427681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538030466745484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23026680845488454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071342758458964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035641139760763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587405591663902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26022693896938354,0.2623298158079888,0.0,0.1863911434173668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619277685323326,0.0,0.0,0.3343094893478362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roughsyrup,2019/09/24,"Anyone at that weird middle height where even if you get skinny, youll never be a short dainty doll, but youll also never be a Zendaya-esque runway model waif Im 5'7. My whole life ive wanted to be short and tiny. BUT if i couldn't be short and tiny, could i at least be like 5'11 or smthn so i could be THAT beautiful tall skinny girl who looks like she does catwalks on the side? ty",2.567510040160645,3.383671554216871,3.8796987951807225,91.88573293172692,74.42168674698793,6.015261044176707,17.447791164658636,5.46131890053228,-0.5391751004016068,301,3,68,1,6,99,57,83,0.016,0.8009999999999999,0.182,0.9423,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,12,3,2,0,2,13,15,9,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,9,2,4,4,2,13,0,0,1,0,6,11,0,3,4,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266185530383223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981455958687454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525110822195477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479873859130804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871695443464169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805413794818625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30609858173153104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015938256018967,0.27688990393408514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23796748178872415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371196139984572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714462230078844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163831883935101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skeet_yeet_repeat,2019/09/24,"Seriously, fuck the ""totally non disordered"" diet subs I wont name names because, ya know, rules and things. But the subs that tout extreme restriction fOr HEaLtH.

These fuckers are full of threads that are entirely interchangeable with edmemes in their severity and disordered thoughts. People terrified of consuming cough drops due to 10cals/sugar. And even worse, people coming in with legit worries and concerns (I'm feeling ill/my heart is racing/I'm not dropping fast enough) and are met with ""JUST KEEP FASTING SWEETIE, USE THAT WILLPOWER

holy shit it is 10x worse than most ed spaces are/were. But, no, reddit ain't gonna shut them down because ""uwu autophagy is a science, bodies need famine sweaty, it's totally natural"" and they'll nuke ed spaces because ""owo WE GOTTA HEWP THEM THEY AW STAWVING""


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EDAnonymous,helloaveragejoe,2019/09/24,"There’s a beast inside me Who here relates? Whenever I’m doing OMAD I’m a total boss at restricting. However, once I eat breakfast/lunch or a snack it seems like I’ve awoken a beast inside me and I am unable to restrict and end up B/P. 

It feels so lucid since I’m the one who eats the damn food and can’t contain myself. But it feels like I’m not controlling the behavior? Dunno.. the point is: I’ve been B/P since lunch because I ate 1 egg and tomato soup 🙃",0.478900000000003,2.3491330899999987,3.0599999999999987,90.935,83.1,6.0,20.0,7.1686216300943375,0.4455,359,10,80,5,10,125,68,100,0.094,0.85,0.057,-0.504,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,8,0,5,7,0,2,1,17,13,7,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,7,4,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,6,2,3,11,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,3,3,39,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959594280547778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752413467115609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5022189201831061,0.0,0.0,0.21735502019974345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481671759836837,0.1753165988529453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967433761766628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978390442480504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26134714983754626,0.1662920372134323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23198601189203516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22340649849667849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060012925012688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,horehoundtea,2019/09/24,wow. just wow. by shitpost i mean this literally. i think i just shat my brains out. thanks 3 cups of black coffee i had today? anyways something about getting food out of me pleases the ed overlords im my brain,-0.7142857142857117,0.3940166190476225,0.9384761904761908,95.81485714285715,120.90476190476193,2.6323809523809523,20.866666666666667,4.935628992294339,-0.11966476190476172,166,7,33,1,10,53,33,42,0.0,0.708,0.292,0.9217,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,6,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,6,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6185740724858055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33501820316618025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475075191522765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29926890581964105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30179609597551554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041251867408835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21329187369125036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550766935674076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775268214304918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26261746735063396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SarcasticVerbacity,2019/09/24,"I've rediscovered hard candy and OMG I'm a little obsessed!!! Gum and I have a complex relationship but hard candy is amazing. Takes ages to completely finish, satisfies a craving and i can have 6 and only hit 120 cals!! I am afraid about tongue sores thoh :(",1.5828571428571436,4.331824428571434,3.515510204081636,82.32591836734697,90.42857142857142,6.06530612244898,23.3265306122449,7.447530270364453,1.5900938775510194,203,8,36,4,7,68,37,49,0.147,0.6559999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.7672,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,8,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800711342144789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6494520950862056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633171551269724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756952499313141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38918604203087603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725525779902896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluediner,2019/09/24,"referring to a dietician I got referred to the school dietician after my gyno appointment today due to a low bmi. I went ahead and made the appointment but tbh is there a point in going if I don’t plan on changing my eating habits? Like i’m willing to go and be honestly with the dietician, but I’m not in a place where I’m looking to weight restore/pursue recovery/eat more so like... would I just be wasting their time if I went?",4.154583333333331,4.9663040795454565,5.684545454545457,80.43015151515155,70.70454545454545,9.503030303030306,30.57575757575757,9.725611199111238,2.8729484848484863,341,14,68,8,6,116,59,88,0.062,0.8440000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.5439,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,4,4,0,0,7,0,6,3,0,1,0,13,16,7,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,4,2,8,3,11,8,1,16,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,2,7,44,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397629771999755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638339010561213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576179673808168,0.0,0.1812706911791296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22145701671150766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903267971945494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445932187538844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23679837293888914,0.0,0.2142551237358859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293793458191643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215996589244308,0.0,0.21483530603167086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759955665534844,0.0,0.42020896182766704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16100386409972553,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theneighborhoodgoat,2019/09/24,"I don't want to spend the rest of my life restricting, but I don't want to get fat, either. A lot of eating disorder recovery influencers/organizations support fully intuitive and unrestricted eating. I hate to say it, though, but so do a lot of overweight/obese influencers. I want to recover, sure, but I don't want to swing from one extreme to the other, and if I become overweight I'll be just as unhealthy. Is there anyone who's recovered and stabilized at a healthy, hopefully not too high end of healthy weight without restriction?",7.2034333333333365,7.766117010000002,7.666,69.78633333333336,63.9,11.866666666666667,37.66666666666667,11.538034831475384,4.731066666666665,431,21,74,13,6,142,66,100,0.209,0.618,0.17300000000000001,-0.2474,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,5,0,6,6,1,1,1,22,14,10,0,6,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,2,7,3,14,13,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,1,53,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469870797048988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127562834430807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22078268825767933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3942386229143092,0.0,0.0,0.17062229319400538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064670377289486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019259891736773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203535251734481,0.0,0.191335470786258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606767337331113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32755210715735955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053817990117988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531954476785193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186061423155388,0.181561379656909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892683008740292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544974026683985,0.0,0.0,0.23458421611863836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856985555527345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amie0926,2019/09/24,"Apple Pay/Samsung pay Fuck that shit, cuz when I purposely leave my wallet at home so I can’t buy binge food, my dumbass realizes that I can use Apple Pay at virtually any store and any sense of self control i possessed is gone lol",2.8841489361702126,4.70012076595745,4.558457446808512,83.30875,75.38297872340425,8.104255319148937,26.643617021276608,8.841846274778883,2.093855319148936,184,7,37,4,4,62,37,47,0.285,0.66,0.054000000000000006,-0.872,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,1,3,3,1,3,0,5,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,1,1,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,6,0,3,5,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,18,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209336825422058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34712434624009864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37424192145212015,0.0,0.0,0.28612263496237234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104481713100396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32770993858913394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32287021303955393,0.0,0.3176916087728619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26730383735763674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayayayzhshsh,2019/09/24,"applesauce, why WHY is a single cup of mott's cinnamon applesauce 100 calories?? is it just me or is that a crazy amount of cals for such a small serving of food?",4.946363636363635,5.034545000000001,5.863181818181817,82.41477272727273,68.6969696969697,10.236363636363636,31.65151515151515,10.125756701596842,2.9325878787878783,127,5,27,3,2,42,25,33,0.095,0.905,0.0,-0.4479,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566357080804053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8307566963256003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pufferfish76,2019/09/24,"The Binge Do you ever go to order your food for your Binge and in the middle of the waiting you’re like what the hell am I doing? Ordering 2,000 calories worth of food. But you do it anyway, and purge it all even though your throat is still raw from the night before?",3.4286363636363646,4.497734000000001,3.717954545454546,92.8969318181818,72.63636363636364,6.227272727272728,19.204545454545453,5.985473137389443,-0.2516363636363637,210,3,46,1,4,65,41,55,0.084,0.8420000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,5,0,0,5,2,1,0,5,0,5,3,1,0,2,6,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,6,7,1,8,1,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,4,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580623453813893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200308459101756,0.2743271103313269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7334360104402433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235660704262631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14816350114957044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846004598496717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421936084329588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979634431582722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Swallowed_Bones,2019/09/24,"Just figured something out So...if you haven’t eaten all day and your stomach starts growling, maybe don’t chug close to 40 ounces of water. 

Source: I just threw up a ton of water and bile

*Also the rules state no harmful tips...I don’t think this counts???? Like seriously. Don’t do this. Slow sip is better.*",0.3356102003643002,2.7749176065573806,1.36808743169399,97.32604735883429,94.24590163934424,3.3668488160291434,16.61384335154827,5.033348758259628,-0.8291326047358836,238,6,50,1,9,74,49,61,0.085,0.872,0.044000000000000004,-0.3313,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,4,1,0,1,9,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,5,8,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732745968956943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128188023798949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010270645478005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280395093203272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4689316912816579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593411917763152,0.0,0.0,0.33038114327872736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990864043767408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sucks_tosuck,2019/09/24,"I did this to myself again I binged on bread, now it will be hell getting it out if I ever manage to

Thanks for coming to my TED talk",2.241,2.4141991000000007,4.026666666666667,92.91,74.66666666666666,6.0,18.33333333333333,3.1291,-0.6596666666666664,103,1,25,0,2,35,25,30,0.142,0.769,0.08900000000000001,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,6,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,3,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722721908922011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4959270425264544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864400354723233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406657189737335,0.0,0.5047585327667294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doesismattwatsongay,2019/09/24,"well, im back on my bullshit not even 24 hours later i wrote this whole ass thing about wanting to recover last night and here i am not even 24 hours later, back on my bullshit, i genuinely couldn’t be more disappointed in myself, im honestly kinda scared to post this because i know i look like im attention seeking, also
i also got a lot of support and i feel like im letting everyone down but subreddit is the only place i can talk about my ED and i haven’t been on here for long but ive received nothing but support, so TL;DR i relapsed not even 24 hours later after posting about how I wanted to recover, i fucking hate myself and i apologize if ive let anyone down",3.5806474820143883,4.61709371942446,5.4511438848920895,80.73801079136692,72.23741007194245,8.149928057553957,29.727338129496413,8.548686976883017,2.3081447482014394,533,22,104,9,10,184,83,139,0.12300000000000001,0.773,0.10400000000000001,-0.6694,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,15,10,2,1,2,0,11,2,1,1,0,21,22,12,0,4,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,3,2,20,6,15,15,3,22,0,1,1,2,4,7,2,3,14,75,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19482100513970252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517158818992708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873269914328384,0.0,0.07425355140934581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413608127328132,0.0,0.0,0.11639358721110027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159022034433768,0.08702027502688496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112610329697252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742167402945033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202610326099856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598715762879054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5262978919002257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694296472864089,0.09929047977201318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491156274668995,0.0,0.11901931389605146,0.0,0.0,0.10779700936670436,0.10228876535277147,0.0,0.0,0.10355753816013397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430936500216088,0.0,0.11687888785636345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926411281231058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272643346207571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23331843656316095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219519201350573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764545051637283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979053488728498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092439509232488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369204499699076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952079518586284,0.0,0.0,0.13599524387066445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Shans1431,2019/09/24,"Afraid I’m going to end up like my mom.... So ED runs in my family. My grandma had bulimia, one of my aunts did too, my other aunt says she didn’t but she said she had severe self esteem issues, and my sister has had issues but nothing severe. Everyone of them seemed to recover except for my mom. She developed AN when she was 17 and is currently 65 and still suffering. We tried for years to help her but she always kept just enough weight on her that her mental health was never really questioned. I remember seeing her drink cans of coke all day but nothing to eat and when she did eat I could hear her in the bathroom purging since I was about ten years old. I never had an issue with my weight until I was 12 my dad mentioned that I had “jelly roles”. I had developed bulimia and BED around 12 and had always been chubby until I got to high school and joined dance where I leaned out for a while. It hasn’t been until recently that my ED has gotten out of hand. The past couple of months I have been restricting and purging. I’m losing weight but I’m afraid I’m going to end up like her. She has lost all her teeth, her hair is fried, had rapid aging, and her bones are destroyed. I’m so scared I won’t be able to stop and that’ll be me in 40 years. Is anyone else scared they’re down a path like this?",3.4640143717226657,4.299009291512918,4.472262575257332,88.40291318702664,72.3210332103321,7.624082346086618,21.643231695474853,7.85451343220497,0.7164789667896674,1022,20,222,13,19,333,144,271,0.127,0.81,0.062,-0.9662,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,1,2,10,11,1,4,6,0,33,12,4,0,4,33,48,23,0,1,7,6,5,3,0,2,1,3,1,1,7,15,7,3,3,2,0,4,5,8,0,2,23,9,41,3,31,20,3,38,0,3,1,0,33,12,0,2,25,148,48,1,0.1031919883123203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717280016273592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215423756121091,0.10573238669096548,0.0,0.09186274756995856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239040585887694,0.11417997232459602,0.0,0.06655029560125085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108886294582177,0.0,0.21118233190325567,0.08620366492821549,0.0,0.1827949452797423,0.10662490888386728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860436702792967,0.0,0.0,0.09728022272908288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729277003639098,0.0,0.08253205982089634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109688258101077,0.11630487059325476,0.0,0.06916741457199042,0.10902800128526872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231168770334446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124317918220412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154454394331332,0.1126462451575467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399325320414164,0.0,0.0,0.24171441905779015,0.08236686056189907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917604594150092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19803099177797304,0.0,0.10828263297292884,0.0,0.06992556191007662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850842926097074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559864350576755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661074300947486,0.0,0.10188963928418693,0.0,0.11689640668195947,0.0,0.09815921161256552,0.08206241092909079,0.2066263645770882,0.10443580132939304,0.08223065437315395,0.09394211053950016,0.10765174914615684,0.23315514872246185,0.0,0.08536147908853509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240925516474443,0.0862731228604661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006058636405221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769801250426897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19935677157269924
EDAnonymous,rusted17,2019/09/24,"I love binging and downing laxatives every week haha :))) (tw: numbers ig) I’m usually so good at restricting but my old binge habits r poppin back in lol I fucking hate myself I wish I could just restrict but instead I eat like 1500 cals and then drink enough laxatives and I have a fucking meeting I do this to myself literally every week I hate it I literally dream abt being healthy and eating normally but I just can’t and I wish I could tell someone besides the void of this internet this but I CANT cause I’ll sound like a psychopath haha 

And it sucks even more cause I lost weight and went from ob to ow (but everyone calls me skinny haha like thanks for lying!) and I just wanna yell like I just stopped binging and eating for that matter and I just wanna curl into a ball and scream ykno? 

Anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk :,)",1.3907544463568584,4.011051632530123,2.9181583476764215,88.22010040160644,86.89156626506025,5.330579460699943,22.36259323006312,6.868970318607317,0.8889051061388411,665,24,126,9,21,217,101,166,0.142,0.5870000000000001,0.27,0.9748,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,10,18,5,0,4,4,7,9,1,2,0,36,21,18,0,7,10,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,13,6,3,0,3,0,2,2,7,0,0,2,4,22,11,14,16,2,13,0,1,0,3,5,4,3,0,11,82,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068078552484123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369907875049247,0.0,0.0,0.26901223172905275,0.0,0.11278874366359865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20908158046652955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826626481534434,0.0,0.401936990666456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352906581424295,0.0,0.08648120606284354,0.0,0.22063644647303948,0.12511382050001174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24209424099346724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982190511360726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25854203152657634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25587253441751484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293081048478926,0.0,0.11817377660387815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282883121253993,0.0,0.0,0.13739405579477332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094063824527582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946736268265307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524043925764116,0.11444279371396505,0.24109435982960786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144206193105915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100560108414488,0.1594433225704343,0.0,0.12137787915280222,0.0,0.0,0.3011371356263154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,holyokepigeon,2019/09/24,DAE have a hard time ordering at restaurants or coffee shops? I’m always paranoid they’re not going to make my drink like I ordered (like they’ll make it with 2% instead of nonfat) or something and I’ll drink it and it’ll have more calories than I thought and then I won’t log it correctly and I’ll go over my calorie limit and everything will be terrible,2.2371624266144816,4.398188136986303,3.510019569471627,88.47191780821919,78.58904109589041,6.36320939334638,26.866927592954998,7.447530270364453,1.5076982387475546,286,12,57,4,7,93,51,73,0.09699999999999999,0.866,0.037000000000000005,-0.4588,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,1,14,13,8,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,1,3,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,6,2,6,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24291791929574286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5719811799605616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26237733631607585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318330776072433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261521384261708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28525480641056555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38974515985954217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247500935276693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23176818168749755,0.17023287880278226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ALonelyComputerVirus,2019/09/24,"exactly why Brandy Melville makes me want to restrict and I can't talk myself out of it, spoiler, I Want To Be a Cool Girl®™ Like fuck. 

This girl did a video essay and I haven't seen anyone else articulate it so well https://youtu.be/pJOCRpjUZEU

but I still have this fantasy?! Of being able to wear their clothes. And it's kind of sad lol but my heart wants it 😭😂longs for it honestly

I really want to be that girl",0.28135658914728623,2.7013276395348846,1.7491860465116282,95.28641472868219,92.3720930232558,5.657364341085271,17.631782945736436,7.1686216300943375,0.21687131782945768,331,9,74,6,12,106,61,86,0.1,0.7040000000000001,0.196,0.6568,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,2,2,7,3,2,1,1,13,14,6,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,2,9,5,9,9,0,2,0,1,1,1,4,1,1,0,2,43,17,0,0.2430330553188116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16993436307890966,0.2490160854918563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20302293239834768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246801434597615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28799534071133004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25308152818037866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187336747549714,0.0,0.0,0.2150766061529027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622264516079095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556931984542769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408651191619866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953407639367447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5733887711854949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851590382820188,0.0,0.21929953105163047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,karmarell,2019/09/24,"Am I the only one who does not care for ice cream? Whether it's people with or without an ED, everybody seems to love ice cream or at least halo top and such. I never ~really~ liked it like all cold foods and most drinks. Maybe there is a connection to the facts that I don't sweat easily and have sensitive teeth...",4.821249999999999,5.1344136250000005,5.215624999999998,86.166875,69.0,9.525,25.375,9.516144504307137,1.76879375,248,6,54,5,4,79,54,64,0.10400000000000001,0.77,0.126,0.36200000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,0,4,5,2,0,3,14,7,6,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,3,4,6,7,3,3,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,4,3,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034745404432993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26047597411192863,0.0,0.0,0.2915841908804476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599201878268001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29083401634899425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686412135251206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990299522553269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956642903519706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20169569423624686,0.2263766315665048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063533914689596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906825435923032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709698525933801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869244776450151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,110_percent_bot,2019/09/24,"tightness in chest with EC stack? If I take 100mg caffeine 12.5mg ephedrine (half a bronkaid pill) then I feel GREAT on that day. However, the next day I wake up and when I breathe in I feel a tightness in my chest. Has anyone else had this? I'm worried I'm going to spontaneously have a heart attack but I'm too scared to go to a doctor because I don't want a medical professional to know I have an ED, if they even will believe me since I'm on the high end of normal weight",1.4604901960784318,3.0903617156862744,3.0594117647058816,93.31401960784315,78.90196078431373,6.101960784313726,24.07843137254902,6.937597516519254,0.6426784313725493,373,13,87,4,9,123,71,102,0.102,0.866,0.032,-0.6459,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,1,8,0,6,9,5,0,0,12,17,6,0,4,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,5,10,1,12,15,0,15,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,6,47,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370024794951944,0.21057349779209866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338019752820967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252794972527859,0.0,0.0,0.23154403162472365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650792053869516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21035240552083265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716806724460657,0.0,0.18202450644935467,0.0,0.0,0.13574013499141915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782822353883448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23359681574649965,0.0,0.0,0.2265800377896179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24353521629587754,0.0,0.21713694645920814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294518318162958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703385011373088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21856659326611014,0.0,0.2013601983426182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575548177226885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700034000075761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452103825576616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212175499674615,0.0,0.0,0.2502608267681173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20870956011124692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AngeloLacrime,2019/09/24,Fuel for my ED .. Knowing you're not good enough and that the person you love will never love you back.. 🙃😔 makes me want to never eat again..,0.5259999999999998,2.4079316000000013,2.0766666666666684,97.985,83.0,4.0,13.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.4956666666666665,108,1,25,0,3,35,26,30,0.065,0.674,0.261,0.8071,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,7,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,5,1,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328508428215376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098617296569288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128952918883666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539920902748708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16642263497436358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5466159871155917,0.0,0.2021355302749845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671088198607382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644118278857846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861181417785948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xdgyfxck,2019/09/24,"my mother (who is partly the cause of ED) is worried about my weight okay so my mother is a piece of shit human being. if she thought I had gained weight when i was younger she'd starve me. if she found a hidden stash of sweet she'd take them, burn them, and beat me with a broom and lock me in the closet to think about what i was doing. she'd make comments about my body and my weight. and now that I'm grown and at my lowest weight aince 6th grade, she says she worried im ""too skinny"" and that im ""unhealthy"". like bitch wtf?! you made me this way!! you dont get to be fucking worried about me! you can bite my bony fucking ass and get the fuck over it.",0.8288216039279881,2.4886304964539043,1.8626950354609944,101.02615384615385,80.91489361702128,4.338461538461538,17.229132569558107,3.1291,-1.1093954173486091,504,9,124,0,13,158,85,141,0.183,0.752,0.065,-0.9581,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,2,8,8,5,0,6,1,14,11,4,3,0,16,26,11,0,2,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,6,8,5,0,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,6,6,27,3,13,15,2,7,0,0,0,4,18,3,6,2,3,78,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458539554114367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488982741988598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389238706921232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397280842511198,0.0,0.3641773109393184,0.13720636774654638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836710621789632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415061833290593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424711855921038,0.08764933117817862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219412755880306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442165586815992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478611575779026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987275240754278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413707709211947,0.0,0.10424414825632576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422644197318867,0.0,0.6395926944003372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40004995474885424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sassygillie,2019/09/24,"I'm totally not restricting again... I say as I order just pickled cucumbers for lunch because I'm suddenly scared of the rice bowl I usually order.

But yeah, definitely not relapsing...",5.193636363636365,7.879684121212126,7.293939393939392,62.3609090909091,71.42424242424242,12.884848484848485,38.27272727272727,11.855464076750405,6.426018181818183,148,9,22,7,3,52,26,33,0.085,0.7,0.215,0.5365,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397459697398019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432148053033279,0.5579891140762471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6138252690936566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,judgejudystan,2019/09/24,What’s the worst depression meal you’ve ever had? I used to quite frequently put brown sugar and chocolate chips in a bag and eat it with a spoon. I don’t think I ever did this without crying while doing so.,3.809922480620157,4.69718611627907,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,71.55813953488372,7.593798449612403,23.635658914728683,7.793537801064563,1.0424635658914725,165,4,34,2,3,54,38,43,0.184,0.7559999999999999,0.06,-0.7388,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,2,8,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,4,4,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390547975945473,0.0,0.0,0.26585333077561074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158420881785477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5584116270782645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102943008137182,0.0,0.32830398569804553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778052883391886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665880762850937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975427375631031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stupidfuckingbitxh,2019/09/24,"DAE randomly log calories?? Like I will randomly add 100-300 calories on MFP even if I didn't eat that, just because seeing it go to red stresses me tf out so it makes me eat less calories but I think I've eaten more",0.5765217391304347,2.7130714347826093,2.6197391304347843,92.66656521739132,84.65217391304347,5.419130434782609,24.417391304347824,6.742157984588678,0.8480226086956515,170,7,37,2,5,57,37,46,0.055999999999999994,0.902,0.042,-0.1556,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,9,7,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,5,1,3,4,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21081894713236404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7077549163257004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284219921856335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19654706408096945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895842668626762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308487974210592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755872112063837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39615496823282337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22159830319474594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ughhhh-owo,2019/09/24,"Some people love having a meal cooked for them, I hate it. Stop you aren’t doing me any favours just stop you are wasting my food",3.1133333333333333,4.2203160740740735,3.223148148148152,95.9991666666667,73.44444444444444,5.4,20.907407407407405,3.1291,-0.44261481481481546,102,2,23,0,2,31,24,27,0.302,0.503,0.196,-0.4215,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,6,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25720417558019537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573479807712438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734162783098489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413604479912476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622117627895931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6324216596889993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imnatastic,2019/09/24,"Boyfriend’s dad kind of harassing me about eating Long-ish post, needed to rant desperately.

So long story short, due to an abusive situation with my mother, I’m (21F) living with my boyfriend and his family for a sec while I figure out a new living situation. Now the food situation is probably the only thing that I don’t like about this new arrangement. Everyone kind of just cooks for themselves, but his dad still asks me every day about eating. 

Last night, after finding out that my boyfriend and I were going to Taco Bell, my boyfriends dad started this conversation with me:

Boyfriends dad: so do you eat any vegetables?
Me: I eat vegetables all the time. I have broccoli like, every day. Y’all tease me about it, that’s how much I eat it
Bfd: yeah but like just broccoli, you don’t like any other vegetables.
Me: what? Yeah I do, I like a ton of vegetables.
Bfd: like what?
Me: I’m not going to sit here and name all of the vegetables I like.
Bfd: just trying to get a feel for what you favor, so we can cook for you. Right now we only make one thing that you like: broccoli beef

 (this isn’t true, I’ve eaten every dinner they’ve made for me)

Me: ...
Bfd: it’s okay to eat you know.
Me: I know
Bfd: it’s okay to eat healthy, too... just give it a thought.

And another time he blindsided me on the stairs to say there was a whole drawer of vegetables in the refrigerator for me to eat. That conversation lasted like 5 minutes and it just seemed like he was saying I needed to change my diet?? I’m a healthy weight leaning towards underweight, I buy all of my own groceries and keep it pretty healthy aside from snacks sometimes so I just feel like this isn’t warranted.",1.821967240797029,4.284495316109425,3.0379964539007105,89.5590277777778,82.16109422492401,6.330327592029718,21.9048463356974,7.594959193182576,0.9389796690307332,1305,42,268,22,36,420,151,329,0.1,0.7170000000000001,0.184,0.9818,0,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,2,7,0,0,21,19,2,0,14,4,12,22,0,3,4,41,33,14,0,2,9,5,3,11,0,0,0,2,0,0,22,13,22,1,8,2,1,2,5,2,0,1,6,5,42,17,36,27,7,29,0,0,0,0,26,8,0,1,28,161,64,0,0.0,0.09014552636839522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034776532453392,0.07977931640578857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112702884448095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804853798263532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813405983864178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6228125482726926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923088002513625,0.07270025449810602,0.0,0.0,0.07172397291525169,0.0,0.07693937098968888,0.05435347678971079,0.0,0.0,0.06953818476365127,0.0,0.09199947018734726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03975005644339693,0.07298543266514723,0.08647907277796446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06762577554567441,0.0,0.1584567920144028,0.08362609468858766,0.12403506622014301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4088716603524563,0.0,0.13436478830765558,0.13466154283707368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199126479000255,0.05078577501584343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559295188359264,0.11282867597158222,0.0,0.14696223935955355,0.0,0.07139843462425262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05155558825650905,0.11572860245859197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286616953594648,0.07740343065065741,0.08202998968412699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497418702912229,0.0,0.1210079906011303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926280802934806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25656033655646826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524770902102962,0.0,0.053851707541275315,0.0,0.06075972093385356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010918944812146,0.0,0.0,0.060401143841038486,0.08872883692814151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05165514076582857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264819891654652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849435873300965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,someone52207,2019/09/24,"So EDNOS definitely feels like a participation ribbon This really isn't to downplay people diagnosed with EDNOS- all eating disorders are a bitch and fairly unique to each person anyway. 

But I had a doctor's appointment yesterday for an ED evaluation and she left on my file EDNOS. It really doesn't make much sense to me because I b/p much more than 1x a week and I'm underweight- I thought it would at least be BN if not AN-BP. Logically, I think it's just so it can be coded for insurance and not an actual diagnosis. 

But I'm left here knowing how shitty EDNOS feels. It shouldn't feel 'lesser', but it really does.",3.187093889716841,5.3400674262295125,5.661684053651264,74.22526825633386,75.55737704918033,9.354396423248883,23.38599105812221,9.800150414767053,2.5408754098360653,494,15,90,15,11,175,84,122,0.043,0.9229999999999999,0.034,-0.2408,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,6,0,9,3,0,2,1,25,18,11,0,3,7,0,3,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,6,1,0,7,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,3,7,1,9,12,6,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,3,60,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.19782089037198994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235733650982197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575176196621225,0.0,0.0,0.23232929576672826,0.20748769891903895,0.1773975247505898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074283594165367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30749683916664633,0.14481985053567806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140702719477463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4405015322956161,0.0,0.0,0.0990364558372169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353140365903013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29803813984847205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053726450314674,0.17700318051345246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895938352289505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989177869595053,0.0,0.1609333043603765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260598573738194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14400313264678027,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Birdie49,2019/09/24,"Feeling like control over food will fix all my other problems... help? I'm an actor and my current show opens tonight. Yesterday I ate lunch a bit early because I was hungry and I ended up forgetting a line in dress rehearsal and ruining a scene. I'm trying to eat lunch right now but I'm so paranoid and scared that changing my eating schedule is going to cause me to mess up, especially because during another rehearsal I was restricting hard and was pretty much perfect on my lines. I feel like if I eat less, I'll perform better, and I know that can't be true. Plus I'm hungry and trying to be fairly healthy. Could someone give me some sanity to combat the obsessive ED anxiety?",6.147462406015038,6.469426857142861,6.952396616541357,74.82829417293236,66.14285714285714,9.356766917293234,34.670112781954884,9.188382445141503,3.218835338345865,544,24,95,9,8,181,91,133,0.18600000000000005,0.652,0.161,-0.426,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,4,2,10,0,2,5,0,9,7,0,2,3,24,19,11,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,9,7,2,3,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,4,3,13,5,11,11,5,15,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,2,9,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856143136491098,0.13026957352090635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076115216437639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060557354277182,0.18590999165897776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493230748011782,0.1801417368963492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19099206080866227,0.13596081890967007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5227402842389356,0.0,0.0,0.15082429922333232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220508812529678,0.2433070387784377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059124823520579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16335541481940333,0.0967783863915336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254427170569596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414021121804255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358562995889708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663878723236796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518100416023556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17324374276705606,0.0,0.1629422674011934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454247085633051,0.0,0.0,0.17048762803977704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428415925049687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312282503296324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pizzaslut91,2019/09/24,"Brain Fog Ugh, I eat like 600-700 cals a day as of late, not even that long and already have severe brain fog. I feel so awful like I have a cold but without the cold, I'm 2-3 pounds from being underweight so I think my body is trying to force me to eat some real food. What helps? Should I eat a good meal every 2 days or so to regain energy? 

I'm a student and a mother and pretty soon I'll be working again too so I can't deal with severe anxiety+ brain fog",1.337647058823528,2.342812323529415,3.4962254901960783,92.70551470588238,77.72549019607844,6.276470588235295,18.63235294117647,6.6274283507984215,-0.13614117647058774,355,6,85,3,8,122,71,102,0.09300000000000001,0.726,0.18100000000000002,0.8727,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,6,1,7,9,4,0,0,13,11,10,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,8,3,8,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,8,46,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790389393408892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639612588435587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690069527080012,0.0,0.5095570035421237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962513478848298,0.1568623845768126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670694950830893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049518752422693,0.0,0.12819491119766946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693279625323204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839832170262223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761816643306104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198450823415127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17163447011783353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866789849057915,0.0,0.0,0.13465003554056687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15479363251738176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318267664463993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437776781431085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749307770903473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033014533093099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466694290182506,0.0,0.11076871778077506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluebrainbethany,2019/09/24,I instantaneously lost 4 pounds; here’s my secret. Don’t poop for 13 days and then shit an 18 inch long brick because you binged 6 hours ago and finally got things moving. Bam. Your welcome 😂,2.16,4.604149473684213,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,80.57894736842105,5.905263157894738,20.026315789473685,7.1686216300943375,0.3433999999999999,152,4,32,2,4,48,37,38,0.156,0.765,0.079,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,8,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,6,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957712828920863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033972939556512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151844245943494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655104758740385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668600288352769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32858991657289643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952804220882022,0.0,0.0,0.36423155191041867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35462996375571304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34249930825372193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167024558915804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,msnkz,2019/09/24,"Why does anyone think its okay to comment on another person's body? SHUT UP THATS RUDE i cant stop crying idk what to do and my bf called me fat and told me i need to stop eatig

brb i need to starve myself i dont deserve to eat",-2.057307692307692,-0.2255109615384612,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,100.92307692307692,3.3692307692307697,12.269230769230768,5.148860815047168,-1.4976230769230767,178,3,45,1,8,60,39,52,0.122,0.7020000000000001,0.17600000000000002,-0.0276,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,0,7,7,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,8,1,7,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608997120707101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17397422585417807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27637259619465204,0.0,0.0,0.254063542348493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733068695641924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177359193711694,0.0,0.29160428614317524,0.0,0.0,0.25459546070167377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689799612292665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172519052613753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41603377068295067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15942784936194682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377492854106103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451295578855615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plutocity,2019/09/24,"Hair extensions? My hair is thinning. So, as the title says, my hair is thinning and the growth is just sad. I am going to try to supplement better but also, I am looking into buying extentions.

Does anyone here wear extensions? I am looking for a cheap clip in set that looks realistic, can be washed, heat styled, dyed, but I have no idea where to go. I'm afraid I will get bad quality and be out of money. I would love to hear if anyone has some suggestions or experience with hair extensions!",3.5571875000000013,5.436738677083337,4.946250000000003,80.97375000000002,73.6875,8.55,25.541666666666664,9.188382445141503,2.181191666666666,387,13,74,9,8,129,70,96,0.10099999999999999,0.805,0.094,-0.1783,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,3,0,13,7,5,0,0,13,22,9,0,2,5,0,6,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,3,0,0,0,11,8,2,11,18,2,10,0,1,3,1,4,6,0,3,0,49,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850981182709593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236837977054824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19325905592754716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20470716234874586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255181172074246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22641185321191146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092806157757102,0.0,0.2630875921637117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608717344794406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26128965825794115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5831031815121023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089012803883017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406592402741634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571458408423433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442222320788485,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ray_rays_kitchen,2019/09/24,"My alcoholism keeps beating my ED Try to restrict, get drunk instead, drunkenly eat junk food but it's ok because I won't eat tomorrow, too hungover to not eat, eat something but it's ok because I won't eat tomorrow, end up getting drunk again that same night, repeat for 5 days straight. Now I'm torn between not drinking and not eating until Friday, or drinking again tonight. Please send help.",5.977599999999999,7.0788808933333325,5.678666666666667,81.06600000000002,66.73333333333333,8.133333333333333,37.66666666666667,8.238735603445708,3.163266666666667,317,17,56,4,5,98,54,75,0.134,0.69,0.175,0.6542,0,0,4,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,2,2,12,0,0,0,10,6,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,12,2,0,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,6,4,1,14,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,11,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14778494661683875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859488916233722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891825881957307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709339261027245,0.0,0.8490024020263639,0.0,0.0,0.12247974394300044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721515195507786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449673927186768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268973179769413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12291434190786392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297714005389029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179574970443568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645879159101797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093886651682119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oldangst,2019/09/24,Heated Jackets? Does anyone have experience with heated jackets because I am in enough layers that I look like a snowman and look ridiculous but I absolutely cannot stay warm.,5.615376344086023,8.648767096774192,5.949677419354843,70.81118279569894,71.58064516129029,6.713978494623658,32.913978494623656,7.793537801064563,2.9201526881720428,144,7,20,2,3,46,26,31,0.14300000000000002,0.7959999999999999,0.061,-0.3388,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,2,5,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496225181018903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762372728657384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124128772972274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36887616233760795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492142475311523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441203967713112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5995797360019635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805142213492768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,phosphatidylserine_,2019/09/24,"shopping definitely took a different turn yesterday I went shopping with my mother (yay! gotta love being triggered) and we were looking for clothing for my little brother. she found a pair of pants, held them up to me, and said ""yeah this should fit."" 

why tf am I lowkey pleased that I'm roughly the same size as my 8 year old brother???",2.3427032967032986,4.894114523076921,3.0991208791208815,89.3823076923077,80.69230769230771,5.560439560439562,27.747252747252745,6.868970318607317,1.399417582417582,264,12,51,3,7,83,56,65,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.9158,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,1,0,9,14,3,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,9,2,7,5,1,8,0,0,1,1,8,3,0,0,3,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951007557777118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309692499221678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830896991488585,0.0,0.0,0.2371873632398544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549226900678593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296384386698087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100459355633263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686751968788135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138130043322946,0.0,0.30722514019977515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618345318021126,0.25486773008057473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188892301087933
EDAnonymous,loafloafloafloaf,2019/09/24,"looking at food that's >300 cal makes me sad :( even tho i could eat three meals that are 400 cal and be around my tdee.

im trying to eat more to be healthy but damn it's an anxiety trip looking up calories for a restaurant and wanting to cry when i see ""500 cal"" WHEN I ATE 100 CAL THAT DAY AND I'D BE WELL UNDERNEATH MY LIMIT IF I ATE THAT N A LIL MORE.",-1.4435212888377436,0.5472839113924053,0.6539470655926358,103.16570771001152,95.96202531645572,3.8853855005753744,17.308400460299197,5.565023196281405,-0.7683772151898731,275,8,70,2,11,90,55,79,0.16699999999999998,0.764,0.069,-0.7917,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,3,0,5,6,0,1,0,10,12,8,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,3,7,1,8,6,2,8,0,1,3,0,0,4,1,1,3,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888474575112057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197580087256526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970978662036693,0.0,0.2711644531926262,0.15920447437408433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.505199441174523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304890314749604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985044604891296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666514906610967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41460096540718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647811703779963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967157018408332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16760194264590805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456046037207109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22195706077603206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayawayawayfae,2019/09/24,"The dysmorphia is so much more than people think. When I told my friends that I felt fat, the almost universal response is ""if you think YOU'RE fat, what do you think about ME?""

It's so much more than that.

It's not about weight, it's about worth. You're my friend, of course I think you're worth a lot. I mean, I personally am attracted to girls who have some curves on them. But you can never really seem to explain that to anyone. You can't tell someone that their weight really doesn't mean anything to you, but that YOURS does.

Does anyone else feel that?",3.2537400793650804,4.8685626875000025,3.3811904761904787,92.98603174603176,73.91071428571429,7.120634920634919,20.48015873015873,7.793537801064563,0.4524968253968251,439,9,97,6,9,134,67,112,0.0,0.91,0.09,0.7438,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,6,2,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,8,4,2,0,1,18,19,6,0,1,4,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,11,0,4,0,10,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,16,3,11,17,6,3,0,0,0,0,16,1,0,5,2,63,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066255348564648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437383595471808,0.16439492667616354,0.13203261533072275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808131101867077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403126155196746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112584424948947,0.0,0.15405242079397985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24791891400655136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364046542563142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495434174905323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358911634273864,0.0,0.12374512304180607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123240416613936,0.1400944396005632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20557043046687265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606315867137035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594458048193833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402360562071896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41122686931033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331213259079038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907577230547809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Invisiblimp,2019/09/24,"Lunch break... You have 30 minutes so you:

1) Spend 10 deciding where to get food.
2) Spend 25 minutes staring at menus or picking things up and putting them down.
3) Stress the f out that you're now late.
4) Spend additional untold minutes at your desk working up the courage to eat because you're out of time and have to do so at your desk in front of people.

Bonus points for taking the time to write a reddit post while you procrastinate the meal. Awesome.",2.982666666666667,5.0232878777777765,3.219722222222224,92.01625,75.7777777777778,5.833333333333334,25.69444444444445,6.6274283507984215,0.7994444444444451,359,13,75,3,8,110,64,90,0.028999999999999998,0.858,0.113,0.8402,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,1,2,4,3,0,1,5,0,3,4,0,1,0,9,5,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,16,5,0,20,0,0,1,0,7,11,0,1,5,40,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764356007413688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961620991332903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499833943346381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121673690863074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264929019482521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006563199881539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736076300210114,0.0,0.2771966979203436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909599920898989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315443927483022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176175097256776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19228634848769194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375412864904343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107105879634984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Skadij,2019/09/24,Dating someone thinner than me got me 🙃🙃🙃 Sometimes I can see myself objectively and think “a normal weight for your height.” But. I’m seeing someone roughly my height but at least ten-fifteen pounds lighter and she looks AMAZING and i feel like a fat fucking mess. I’m popping ye olde EC stack again and fasting restrictively. she says im attractive but i just dont see it. i didnt have this issue with my ex because they were built/jacked but i can barely stand to be naked around this new person.,0.9343285714285728,3.517582290000004,2.063714285714287,92.98900000000002,91.1,4.057142857142857,22.142857142857146,5.773587663045528,0.2619857142857147,399,15,79,3,14,126,74,100,0.038,0.8240000000000001,0.138,0.8936,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,7,3,1,0,0,15,17,8,0,1,5,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,6,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,8,15,3,6,13,1,10,0,0,4,1,8,4,1,0,6,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230342143565975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483596277184565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24000827807605565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354621843781314,0.14629953190743542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932183927895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378648888140085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22120458480820926,0.21374392328055386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004835025835564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196910129135518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977840986102406,0.0,0.0,0.20064731081503093,0.0,0.0,0.21488900555683246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881169162556018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285446145881136,0.0,0.0,0.4895650316044405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470299102892415,0.0,0.2025391061822104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121893408638835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24937481342727266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raininginkyoto_,2019/09/24,"Forgot the website I use for its calorie calculator So this is kinda random, but i was hoping someone would randomly know what im talking about. 

I used to use a calorie calculator where you put in your height/weight, activity level, and number of calories you intend to eat daily, and it would calculate how much weight you would lose week by week if you stuck to it, up to like a year away. 

I had to clear my browser history for some tech issues and now I can't for the life of me remember what the website was. I feel like it was a blog type thing that had a random calculator page on it? Hope anyone knows what I'm talking about hah",5.042031250000001,5.410031640625,6.1374999999999975,79.5575,68.53125,8.9,29.28125,8.841846274778883,2.177465625,502,17,100,8,8,168,83,128,0.046,0.809,0.14400000000000002,0.9161,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,5,0,1,6,5,0,0,7,1,10,3,0,5,1,26,21,7,0,6,2,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,11,3,2,1,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,2,13,4,17,11,3,11,0,1,0,0,7,6,0,8,6,69,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048397066978856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845519965512127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616832451745007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989439016794557,0.11288207391774745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138783268369643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17067745855170335,0.16492094699585685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17367586324996026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116068376645217,0.1543909966350126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767723002196614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615522046266298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884326817885513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17899404946655972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388100246870474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25400422660106364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049745423780674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094086277149514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534915045635031,0.3848261953473988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367364115560182,0.0,0.0,0.10175298752470666
EDAnonymous,wastedweeds,2019/09/24,"Drug rehab This is my first time posting so I hope everything is okay. 
I'm ip for the first time ever and I feel so lost. 
I'm here because of drug abuse (weed), depression and anxiety and nobody knows about my ed. 
The food is horrible and I only have limited options because I'm vegan. 
I just want to go home and sleep forever. Also I am sick of having this fucked up relationship with food. I want to get better but feel like it's Impossible. 
The last few days my parents commented on 'how thin' I look and I'm scared that the doctors are going to notice how much I struggle with food. I'm just so lost.",1.3056017369727044,3.5260902177419347,3.5461290322580648,86.62765508684866,82.30645161290323,7.041191066997517,22.44168734491315,8.139509932561175,1.3695081885856075,473,16,98,10,13,162,78,124,0.212,0.703,0.086,-0.9496,1,0,2,0,1,0,12.0,0,0,0,6,11,10,1,2,4,1,7,10,1,2,1,22,25,13,0,3,3,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,4,8,3,1,3,0,0,2,0,6,0,2,2,4,11,4,11,23,2,13,0,3,1,1,3,3,1,2,8,58,15,1,0.0,0.1607158857111962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847440810520828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376724119425347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537457104407455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996604005542115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747911838103346,0.0,0.11682992492359374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883731813237038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146078076505445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269770756244458,0.0,0.0,0.12190802498300053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717130125944252,0.09690405631492262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307573285113826,0.4920635642759136,0.0,0.0,0.12540063482048427,0.07086835903828452,0.0,0.15417915161085965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360619294109923,0.13472503651025156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454636085610991,0.11056791351659408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06626877640172453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139067450093268,0.0,0.2961427631924968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971390172356212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544315223032236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316332709757428,0.0,0.0,0.150616540623204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299093970286869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563082594221094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580324508086736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574189829642086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180449531470596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819014197947062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001261793407173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,die4creamyjalapeno,2019/09/24,Cheap binge foods? I am broke but am planning a binge for after class. What’s cheap but filling?!,0.576666666666668,3.0469242105263166,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,96.36842105263159,2.533333333333333,16.859649122807017,3.1291,-1.2044877192982462,76,2,16,0,3,22,15,19,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.3720000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinnt,2019/09/24,"Weight nice numbers etc How come that I consider myself at 60kg obese, but 58kg is goals? I want to weigh below 60, as long as my weight after a day of eating is below 60, I'm happy, even if it's 59kg... 60 sounds too much for me :(",0.6580188679245254,1.2698555094339632,3.38127358490566,94.42021226415095,78.81132075471697,6.054716981132076,17.023584905660385,5.985473137389443,-0.58148679245283,174,2,45,1,4,62,42,53,0.071,0.774,0.155,0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,0,5,5,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,9,5,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424714858928852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815323542757051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880259625106068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31392640528940463,0.185915950960575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996424116358542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491023701842909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206921373567696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16602514854384265,0.0,0.0,0.6855375471626795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,etherealaqua,2019/09/24,what is WRONG with my body I’ve only been successfully restricting for a little over a week and yet I already need to hold on to something when I stand up and my chest is wonky??? uhh for a short girl whose bmr is 1100 you’d think it’d be easier for me to restrict below that with no problem but APPARENTLY NOT. why is my body so weak I’m annoyed. is my body weak or is my willpower just weak lol how fast do the effects of restricting hit you guys??,0.029701754385961013,2.3101438210526304,2.0301315789473726,94.60800438596493,89.73684210526315,5.271929824561403,19.49561403508772,6.816661863887847,0.2151929824561405,353,11,80,5,12,117,68,95,0.29,0.642,0.068,-0.9782,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,2,5,7,1,0,4,1,11,7,4,2,0,17,15,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,10,1,13,10,0,11,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,4,51,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246711222498306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7449960379657221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22136601136555392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22407239365107431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577174738587466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700324185042991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139229735575653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211243538936227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325240364086028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17933158308500094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173401757561116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444349018273418,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HonestSpeak,2019/09/24,"I feel like my ED is invalid because I'm maintaining instead of losing weight, and feel ashamed I can't starve myself right so I'm purposefully hiding my ED until I fit the AN diagnostic criteria perfectly I know you're all going to be in the comments like ""you're valid!!!!"" But honestly I hate that for myself I can't even have an ED right and the loathing of myself is enough that I'm close to doing things to myself I might regret.",5.942386363636363,5.703422102272729,6.8285454545454565,77.4528181818182,66.61363636363637,9.76727272727273,31.236363636363638,9.3871,2.6288563636363644,347,12,68,6,5,116,55,88,0.198,0.629,0.17300000000000001,-0.5308,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,8,1,1,5,0,8,1,0,0,2,11,16,5,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,3,13,4,8,14,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,3,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790244324328069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845976846501262,0.0,0.1819220288316187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27853613138845057,0.19677061246766506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653589357302264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27193475354277785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513717138446913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691269739560333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081409879737514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29219270162834177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704394762371204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298658308046584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354052752755272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blahblahjj,2019/09/24,Started a med for binge eating disorder And I went from binging 3 times a day to 3 days with 0 binges 😊 just wanted to share some good news! I hope you all have a wonderful day!,2.008070175438597,3.2165012105263173,3.6342105263157904,91.56780701754387,76.36842105263158,7.171929824561403,23.19298245614036,7.793537801064563,0.8728666666666669,138,4,32,2,3,46,32,38,0.069,0.616,0.315,0.8619,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,5,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,5,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5527425753589991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274274630113146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923339532202129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23962466071213925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837563410338668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173390970312185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221407030876945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658913977101386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850837884451916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648390872464071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098204842298014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sharpteethangel,2019/09/24,it’s not even fall yet and i’m freezing 24/7 I couldn’t get out of bed this morning bc it was so cold it felt impossible and now that I finally did i’m wearing 2 shirts and im still cold.... it’s still in the 70’s how am I gonna deal when winter comes oh No,-3.4182697947214087,-2.0828988387096783,0.1210850439882698,104.2334457478006,109.96774193548387,3.5448680351906163,13.700879765395895,5.565023196281405,-1.2159870967741937,200,5,56,2,11,71,47,62,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,1,0,9,10,6,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,3,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,7,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980349874400323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566947989486441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228519480983073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321993511439277,0.3790090779602083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807626068624529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737226014584958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526072932187232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starving-princess,2019/09/24,"Why do I feel worse than ever in recovery? So the past week, my gf, mother, sister, and therapist have been really aggressive with my recovery. I was basically thrown into it after nearly having a heart attack from fasting and I’ve hated every minute of it. Why is it that I feel fatter than ever and just want to go back to my old habits (that aren’t even that old)? Something about fasting and heavily restricting felt somehow rewarding and I miss the comfort of it even if I was physically in pain for most of it. Is that weird? I feel I wasn’t even that bad to be thrown into recovery like this. I wasn’t overweight and this guilt is over me like I was faking my ED because of it. Because I wasn’t skinny therefore it never got “bad” in my eyes and that need to be skinny is just coming back stronger than ever. I wish I could escape everyone and stop therapy. I want to go back...",3.3322760290556914,4.880070706214691,4.940714285714289,82.15843220338985,73.57627118644069,7.994995964487491,25.07223567393059,8.634040054169528,1.7780947538337366,693,22,135,13,14,234,95,177,0.19899999999999998,0.695,0.106,-0.9592,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,14,14,3,1,3,0,18,6,4,1,4,33,32,10,0,6,3,2,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,15,12,3,2,4,0,0,3,5,10,0,0,9,5,19,4,24,20,1,25,0,1,1,0,3,7,0,3,17,103,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586382906833368,0.0,0.3160469142388613,0.2287881711985472,0.16703487745999585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801832961451915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938794988895348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271473034038586,0.3717886568277755,0.11543326053216445,0.13091487348367062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782268415492391,0.0,0.1315470135160625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572705969010472,0.0,0.10957602077338983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526482211255686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235248345982206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386818633362718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015880339217696,0.1056672870794862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28752899335816284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578378665052344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307874989971007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776939711740397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547372637626408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454294880387947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667802499600156,0.15907424531712547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161909210060788,0.0,0.10989775539541703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24725277429744116,0.0,0.15754986081553768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962057262397448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Brief_Somewhere,2019/09/24,"I just realized we all lack patience. Not meant to be a dig. It occurred to me this morning that.. we starve, we binge, we purge we work out.
all expecting INSTANT results or regret or what have you. Ya know. not able to wait until the hunger subsides,
wanting to be instagram thin after a 24 hour fast.

When it takes a solid 30 days of diet and exercise to see results from a ""plan.""
Im so impatient to become super skinny but i've been sticking with heavy restriction. I had one night of binge eating but i didn't wake up a whale the day after. 
I guess what im getting at is..
Cut yourself some slack.
Relax.
Give yourself some time.",0.7853641732283485,3.250300031496064,2.5575935039370097,90.86347687007874,88.05511811023621,5.064763779527559,22.11072834645669,6.6274283507984215,0.6812838582677161,492,18,98,6,16,162,93,127,0.113,0.826,0.06,-0.5622,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,5,2,0,3,3,4,1,0,7,0,7,6,2,2,2,31,16,8,0,4,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,8,4,2,3,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,2,12,2,16,10,5,14,0,1,1,0,8,4,0,5,10,64,18,1,0.24229190478003546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267592372921371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125164685479044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479251068303161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265875200179858,0.2324284729425943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266911849346088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23860872022079585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5234336693240926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315729438638393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273745393323033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16418326524273366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19307527847102715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821733587949889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14128235813712292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291004300605528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639139236252438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,convolutedDoggo,2019/09/24,Basically my body dysmorphia is ruining everything I’m on a trip in New York w/ my mom and brother rn. We still haven’t left the hotel bc I keep changing clothes bc I think I look bad in everything. And my mom and brother are really pissed at me now and my mom basically said that there are other people with lives way worse than me and my body dysmorphia is an insignificant thing that only causes problems for other people. I mean it’s true but like damn that really hurt to hear,2.841458333333332,5.067289395833335,4.549166666666668,81.44583333333334,76.91666666666666,8.433333333333334,24.20833333333333,9.150863307647796,2.1257583333333336,386,13,75,10,9,130,67,96,0.19899999999999998,0.7509999999999999,0.05,-0.9265,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,3,0,5,3,3,1,1,14,12,6,0,1,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,7,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,6,0,0,1,3,12,2,8,11,0,10,0,2,1,0,8,5,2,0,4,44,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082384462186614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480792069205984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609567050050967,0.16574994534972845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816333362684864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659324213282793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773250014614552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392671392632032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023664761267307,0.0,0.0,0.07654744874691616,0.0,0.13835404869164572,0.0,0.1315743431366961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17067383014144138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5505160624048331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15132551523564958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916455867076205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21724866788990568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499245670782471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20075041311602632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904150905672042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512732680120214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409329012121686,0.1003962044917768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436775252287252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596734656629032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yoni1660,2019/09/24,"I’m either losing or gaining If I’m not restricting I’m gaining. I’ve been eating what should be my tdee and sometimes above, but never over 2,000 calories. Somehow I’ve gained 16 fucking pounds. I’m not even binging! I’m so fucking mad y’all. I have Hashimotos so I already have a sluggish metabolism, on top of years of restricting I think my tdee is significantly lower than it should be. I don’t want to have to be constantly hungry. I’m sick of this life. I know I’m probably underestimating or something but it’s definitely not warranting this amount of weight gain. I’m so fat rn you guys. Only ONE pair of pants fit me and I bought a bunch of small clothes recently. Fml",0.9543150154798778,3.541848742647062,2.992755417956655,86.35503095975236,90.98529411764706,5.804334365325077,24.069659442724447,7.273561745256523,1.3653294117647057,543,23,107,10,19,182,87,136,0.125,0.6890000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.6963,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,6,5,4,3,0,2,0,11,7,1,0,1,20,25,10,0,4,9,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,2,3,2,2,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,2,1,11,0,11,18,3,9,0,1,0,2,3,5,2,4,4,59,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578417297307928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524957237720312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390851966859622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543255035588324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4320165889321745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313530559984667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840949561565865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650359176408263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26139777266984965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802074818884543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832921790356794,0.1777035209566098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519172906476502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23070400093584734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987737890309066,0.2310886427880243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971531156474552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378145044579408,0.0,0.0,0.2845262244249344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504647745625871
EDAnonymous,back2decembr,2019/09/24,God bless whoever invented Quest bars That’s the post.,2.265000000000001,4.741069500000002,2.8800000000000026,83.32000000000005,104.0,10.0,25.0,8.841846274778883,3.809000000000001,45,2,8,2,2,14,10,10,0.0,0.588,0.41200000000000003,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gingerbearry,2019/09/24,"Sometimes I wish my ex and I were still in contact so she could see how much weight I’ve lost She used to give me shit for being fat bc it was unattractive but GUESS WHO LOST AN ENTIRE TODDLERS WORTH OF WEIGHT AND IS MARRYING SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY MAKES ME FEEL BEAUTIFUL BITCH


Like I’m fucked up and engaging in behaviours with no real end game but at least I’m almost skinny


Spite is a hell of a motivator even when she can’t see it 😂 💃",0.32181159420289873,2.708983934782609,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,90.08695652173913,5.67536231884058,19.6231884057971,7.1686216300943375,0.5182797101449284,350,11,76,6,12,116,72,92,0.293,0.5579999999999999,0.149,-0.9619,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,3,5,9,5,0,3,0,7,6,3,4,0,16,20,8,0,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,2,1,1,0,2,7,0,0,4,5,8,2,9,14,2,7,1,2,2,1,9,4,4,2,4,44,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.1835322214539888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832804842140896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501610713864652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657694874238194,0.0,0.0,0.12422051266509453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509541329063023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738705558038943,0.0,0.18041686055420933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20718372966135187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188301958683287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106080236937481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554025857746676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825537278076505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21406836891890216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997398309369423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305434048877332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15935373228035926,0.0,0.18600911071879905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501954252888941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243477827609867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580447515112776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627479005563385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_confusedintern,2019/09/24,"UGhhhh what do you say to your friends when they ask how you got so small like i don't feel small and i don't want them to have my terrible eating habits

i'm literally bringing two of my friends to pure barre tonight and hoping its enough to convince them lol.",5.7994444444444415,5.312659314814816,5.6337037037037065,86.73166666666668,66.96296296296296,9.422222222222222,30.962962962962962,8.841846274778883,2.044785185185185,209,7,47,3,3,65,40,54,0.07,0.662,0.268,0.9053,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,3,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,7,11,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,10,5,5,10,1,5,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,1,3,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044124061146636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331923697962934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364543401917222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646441544685533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5031491548838642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604294814633587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234158970325931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15908235262259685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25894750685096946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180851617775112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206016085118516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nolongercontent,2019/09/24,"First time eating in 3 days I got to school and realized I needed change and was already late so I went to the nearest store, McDonalds and couldn’t decide what to get so I impulsively bought a banana chocolate muffin. My dumbass though it would be “okay” to eat it, yeah no. I logged it and 430 CALORIES. What the hell how do people eat like this regularly. My stomach hurts so bad and it already feels like I’ve gained 5 pounds. I really need to stop fucking up.",1.438231225296441,3.9892561630434815,2.9348616600790542,88.91764822134388,85.19565217391305,5.954150197628458,21.40711462450593,7.348242739294969,0.8824217391304354,365,12,73,6,11,119,67,92,0.2,0.685,0.115,-0.8946,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,2,0,3,2,5,5,1,1,0,14,13,10,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,3,1,3,0,2,1,2,4,0,1,4,1,8,3,7,6,0,9,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,7,42,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987236121476328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084279998150985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911133702392076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651017210505893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5545780739206859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913466677156042,0.12906289509860713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366853574277636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16701642420971166,0.0943869218296081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444895835103836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933992999752791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379133053725287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652181884426935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679128628215309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524627085943776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115734843672393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828366512407891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103909459306547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774966456897599,0.0,0.10534377236789713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747279300052878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833503924990908,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,u-w-a,2019/09/24,"My uni has so many toilets literally would be so easy for me to have b/p sessions in a rarely used building / when classes are on 


don’t wanna get into that tho rip",4.5451428571428565,4.011949371428571,6.069285714285716,82.71821428571431,69.57142857142857,8.142857142857144,31.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.8407142857142853,128,5,28,1,2,44,34,35,0.0,0.892,0.10800000000000001,0.5777,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,8,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,20,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270859590435257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6347177441294759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.540707305303544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447288732195677,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM-NUDES-4-RATING123,2019/09/24,"I keep binging and feeling bad after After school and always when I have a snack or smth similar in my hands, I can't just take one. I always end up taking so many and all I can think about is food. I'm honestly scared of how fat will I be soon if I don't stop. I always feel so quilty when I eat a cookie or anything like that.",1.0415525114155244,2.2260244109589067,3.2180136986301378,93.66117579908678,78.86301369863014,5.962557077625571,19.015981735159816,6.42735559955562,-0.15470593607305894,254,5,61,2,6,87,54,73,0.094,0.7759999999999999,0.13,0.125,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,2,0,7,5,2,1,1,14,14,11,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,10,2,6,12,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,8,41,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5604919030934982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847727058262055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874768717722096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229754778848912,0.0,0.0,0.19887086125503048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706271048052906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715079262385865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957651974834276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969618172203408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276426718074272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215034200773386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247981366145322,0.2272408323375815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18772083899984454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376438981692366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387259761647014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugerfly,2019/09/24,when is the only time you don't feel guilty eating? mine is on my period because i binge so much to the point i don't count the calories or care enough to. i love eating on my period it makes me the happiest,0.1306666666666665,2.209847400000001,2.6044444444444466,92.42000000000004,86.11111111111109,6.266666666666668,15.666666666666668,7.554174236665415,0.09580000000000012,163,3,37,3,5,56,32,45,0.0,0.721,0.27899999999999997,0.9317,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,1,0,3,8,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,8,2,4,8,2,7,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,4,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878092682025538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141190638317392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6305075265290695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183401137816404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577994576362056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780639403090213,0.0,0.2056529752132177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264821585820776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343169067071673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29124535271204355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965020023607176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ButtJam2,2019/09/24,Anyone in Canada try to get help? How did that go? I’m not ready to talk to anyone but I would like to know how to get help and what I can expect in the case that I decide to 👀 I’m really sick of being sick,-1.342653061224489,0.13960534693877769,1.9585306122449,98.47575510204081,87.36734693877554,4.736326530612245,9.8,5.6839178017228535,-1.6443991836734688,158,0,42,1,5,57,32,49,0.204,0.645,0.151,-0.6179,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,9,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,9,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029759170357115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758229673434135,0.0,0.2044073936775534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4821552406235734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766391462839691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571542877166746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304122834544048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28908720430463225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441907008207561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25549755374003874,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grapesIut,2019/09/24,"Someone just tried to break into my house while I was about to purge It’s 4 in the morning and I just finished my second binge of the night and was about to purge. Then my dog ran as fast as she could to the back door and was growling and stuff. The back door was open and honestly I’m more pissed at the fact I had to wake up my mom so now I can’t purge. :(

Im pretty sure the person ran off cause my sisters watering pale was knocked over and there there were footprints leading to the fence. 

Lmao they picked the wrong house to break into cause I’m up all night binging and purging",2.3346341463414646,3.7834127479674815,2.733829268292684,97.37001219512196,75.99186991869921,5.5704065040650415,22.05609756097561,5.6839178017228535,-0.08307414634146283,460,12,107,2,10,141,74,123,0.081,0.8240000000000001,0.095,0.228,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,10,4,1,0,8,0,9,3,2,4,3,21,13,12,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,10,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,9,0,11,2,20,3,2,23,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,9,70,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076930685997525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110675072710726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974486280095498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.461723003851853,0.0,0.0,0.21611703166441493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23432726363514456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755166195557483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469914583603444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20354980310786408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952423064717548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290398076672372,0.0,0.0,0.1885698018178184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583885938916207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187523235350425,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hockeybe,2019/09/24,"Why is it so hard to go back the second time? (TW: numbers) 

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Before, i was able to lose weight all the way down to 103lbs simply by eating 1200 calories\~ a day. Once i started gaining weight, and hit about 109, shit went insane. I'm barely eating 600-800 a day and i'm all the way up to 115lbs now. I feel like i'm losing control of my own body. It's the most terrifying feeling, i feel like my body is fighting back. I just want to go back.",1.101251461988305,2.935013136842109,2.6866666666666674,94.60111111111117,80.78947368421053,4.643274853801169,20.029239766081872,5.033348758259628,-0.3625321637426904,348,9,78,1,9,114,63,95,0.196,0.6970000000000001,0.107,-0.8773,0,0,0,0,2,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,7,6,2,0,6,0,3,7,3,1,2,11,15,3,0,1,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,1,2,6,7,2,10,12,4,15,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,1,10,41,9,0,0.1426863568476298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460060803067668,0.17337954136989994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291510027379355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141558033057055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169847522422537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003488207180447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404179203787285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29200752948632663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643952780245607,0.20387032368405786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621838896097839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781894927877102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941869317895145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192590711118374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195631326380651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646549484604754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099413777940068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320156213113909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416011014476264,0.226515577124844,0.0,0.3475070854241452,0.0,0.13227168231119082,0.12875224361189516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17337954136989994,0.0
EDAnonymous,Damaya_Syenite_Essun,2019/09/24,"Honesty in therapy I am making a feeble attempt toward recovery, but honestly kind of sucking at it. Part of my problem is I am so used to lying and people pleasing I keep wanting to lie to my therapist about how I am doing.  I’m an adult so it’s not like she can do anything against my will, but I keep wanting to just say I’m fine and I’m doing great which obviously isn’t self serving because I would like at least partial recovery. Does anyone else have this issue? It’s like all the years of people questioning my eating has conditioned an almost automatic white lie.",3.7846491228070143,5.434339745614038,5.600877192982459,77.46780701754389,72.59649122807018,8.224561403508767,31.08771929824561,8.841846274778883,2.8076035087719307,457,21,82,9,9,157,77,114,0.163,0.693,0.14400000000000002,-0.0969,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,0,4,0,13,1,0,3,2,19,23,7,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,2,5,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,11,7,13,21,3,5,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,2,4,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547364738639352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951192679853613,0.1897824104057379,0.15242239220069165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290995881412795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208951821775636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18952892882691846,0.15472968905641107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042085360807944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19332423957417805,0.0,0.3292686593629637,0.0,0.19288080266931476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714711736009477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363750300269548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057799228699727,0.0,0.25682001512685376,0.0,0.0,0.2033187593342098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772329835616519,0.0,0.0,0.20749166731930732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472964210611144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19322753488073116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211818149818612,0.21505767849527985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997282954822614,0.0,0.0,0.21849814015072155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315767986356116,0.0,0.0,0.1192772615967875
EDAnonymous,bakedeggwhites,2019/09/24,"I just really want to stop thinking about food at this point.. And my weight
And my stomach
And arms
And thighs
And face
And men
And cigarettes",4.74642857142857,6.025212214285716,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,69.71428571428571,8.457142857142857,24.714285714285715,8.841846274778883,1.4347285714285718,114,3,24,2,2,34,21,28,0.085,0.86,0.055,-0.2193,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,11,2,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061904927858132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957261496180278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681752621030755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499805892075392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682313628732137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469097647267945,0.0,0.0,0.5097598645925093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unicorn6642,2019/09/24,"Why are all ana discords like this A) 13 year old girls ""training"" themselves to be anorexic. idk why this gets me so pressed but does really no one else find it extremely wannorexic to do shit like ""ana boot camp"" or ""ana coaching""???? Or am I just that much of a judgmental bitch.

Or

B) 13 year old girls who dont want to hear anything negative and controversial and just maintain the ""uwu"" persona all the time as well as forcing their recovery idealogies on everyone.

Like shit dude is there not a single space to talk to people about this topic in a mature way besides this subreddit?",6.1023552123552145,6.806224846846849,6.115006435006437,79.46432432432434,66.29729729729729,9.946460746460748,33.87516087516087,9.957137785484203,3.293521492921493,462,20,87,10,7,146,83,111,0.212,0.6809999999999999,0.107,-0.9467,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,6,0,6,2,2,0,2,13,9,9,0,1,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,7,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,1,1,0,2,3,4,11,8,4,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,3,8,52,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792616942513324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794236297243634,0.0,0.22491793273801866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603167798130784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833789156248558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540291990052728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026542956334276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21629732733073706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281273649738378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410764595854245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027560322953146,0.0,0.1300436695049875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304672835499806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294292038898445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939871892999499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425056603517218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119046832288678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131939139725783,0.15232979559089924,0.0,0.0,0.1725507834304474,0.0,0.34633914718297826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471684212736654
EDAnonymous,slavicraccoon,2019/09/24,Broke up with my boyfriend but I haven’t purged in a week! ... because I haven’t eaten anything in a week!,-0.4219696969696969,1.8131092272727287,0.6790909090909096,103.25530303030304,93.0909090909091,2.9333333333333336,20.96969696969697,3.1291,-0.7043212121212119,81,3,19,0,3,25,16,22,0.134,0.866,0.0,-0.3578,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,2,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323650301636003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202831096113697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8428992884024168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zseir,2019/09/24,Just made banana muffins with my mom :) Just checked the calorie count on one of those bad bois and it's pretty reasonable for muffins but my anxiety is going haywire and it's not even out of the oven yet wowie someone save me,0.7289523809523821,3.2467975777777798,1.3393650793650806,96.91,95.44444444444444,4.34920634920635,24.20634920634921,6.1826913282559595,0.6769682539682544,181,8,37,2,7,55,37,45,0.083,0.754,0.162,0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,11,3,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,6,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778985349077234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30331307061800483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23993466420013515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645321130666447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437323580026079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254543397527648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24615936351881376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695735005163654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37349934657965705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077952539675034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,user728282,2019/09/24,I got so mad just by looking at my sister It was so irrational and I know it but I literally couldn't help feeling angry just by looking at her thinner body and comparing it to my obviously fatter one :(((,2.1903658536585344,4.4018030975609745,5.1001829268292695,76.75320121951222,79.0,8.002439024390245,29.76219512195122,8.841846274778883,2.8646536585365863,161,8,30,4,4,58,30,41,0.193,0.728,0.078,-0.4928,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,9,7,5,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,6,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475315507303403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371856339375471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222362798141684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27005566569416123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214235397696753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6766697768732125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730157587574638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Annieboot,2019/09/24,"Ambivalence is a beast! (Tw numbers / behaviours) Today I calorie counted - semi restricted (as in, I’ve given myself a budget for a date tonight but am hoping to not use it all up which keeps me closer to my normal goal ) I’ve lost some water weight through the day and overall am feeling so much happier. I’m even excited for my date tonight - things feel good

But

Everyone is telling me this weight looks good on me - that I look healthy. But I feel fat. I have boobs which I hate. I saw old photos of me at my lowest weight a few months ago and I really want to go back to that. But I don’t want people to be worried and I don’t want to look “sick” - I just want to be that small.

I like being able to eat a more normal amount of food - makes dates and socialising easier... but I desperately want to be that small again too...",1.3418907563025222,3.4646809761904787,3.0141176470588253,91.05441176470586,81.5,6.33389355742297,21.19187675070028,7.510576382923642,0.7098889355742299,636,19,138,10,17,210,104,168,0.127,0.6709999999999999,0.201,0.8991,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,1,0,6,0,11,9,2,2,1,28,32,11,0,8,7,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,4,7,2,3,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,3,10,20,5,19,25,6,20,0,1,4,1,1,7,1,2,13,86,29,1,0.13363415319511354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184586137840518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275641506304524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618297353318705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674110052151986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826409785165719,0.0,0.0,0.12769316014375448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027083293374584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16159094848945196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594736886105191,0.2241719749412135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193605991598514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13272886685078975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878017547826278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652868971293243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366570961871526,0.0,0.1458774642143479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920183494394407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666550613615054,0.0,0.0982364787411458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618661938278678,0.0,0.0,0.14022656409409442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264509571641616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560946043484811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168021400562588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878059341292653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666955179756806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541700204480397,0.0,0.0,0.3941044294799955,0.0,0.0,0.4881911920235109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357119693258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jasmine-404,2019/09/24,"I hate my arms I hate my arms  

**I hate my arms**   

*i hate my arms*  

^i ^hate ^my ^arms   

~~I hate my arms~~  

>I hate my arms",-5.354415584415584,-8.944846571428569,-2.3758441558441543,116.62993506493507,175.42857142857144,1.0181818181818183,2.5454545454545454,3.1291,-3.602614285714286,88,0,27,0,11,29,11,28,0.526,0.474,0.0,-0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,13,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smileshinji,2019/09/24,just found out i’m at the weight i told myself i’d never get to again actually i specifically remember telling myself that i would kill myself if i were to get to this weight again. i feel completely numb and dead inside but whatever back to same old same old,4.000576923076924,5.555729442307693,5.1376923076923084,81.38230769230772,71.88461538461539,9.046153846153846,24.538461538461537,9.516144504307137,2.0145615384615385,209,6,42,5,4,69,36,52,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.7564,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,12,8,3,2,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,8,0,6,4,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,6,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2139078299286826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685514665104054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22982729805303906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083423571086416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24034176671935106,0.0,0.0,0.2290461733022507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24251260614590825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906075076527458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600275906331239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483111596160381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159068546676436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094552383164857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338537180544252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15571357276514686,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notoftheearth,2019/09/24,"I don’t know whether this classes as an ED On the weekdays I fast. I just drink coffee and have no food for five days straight.

However, on the weekends I allow myself to eat whatever I want, as long as it’s incorporated into dinner (as I don’t have breakfast and lunch). For example, I will have pizza with two sides (which means I consume 4 portions worth of food) and then I will eat two family packets of chocolate. 

I haven’t seen anyone who has disordered eating like this routine so it’s made me wonder whether this classes as an ED or not.",4.00644495412844,5.277338577981652,5.096227064220184,82.79278096330276,71.4770642201835,7.651834862385322,30.13876146788991,8.07648339933343,2.09007247706422,431,18,84,6,8,142,72,109,0.022000000000000002,0.8809999999999999,0.096,0.6486,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,9,10,0,2,0,16,15,13,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,10,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,0,3,2,1,12,1,14,11,1,10,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,2,6,60,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319395699945447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169233133660347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21626022543096474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848487567621296,0.0,0.5792446917228539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788436534944005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563402360908822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370155316067514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218659314813593,0.0,0.0,0.16698867973232118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785472824128785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055436098504456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686541833437432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129689507646108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20463111782517826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hanban97,2019/09/24,"I feel way better eating nothing and doing no exercise than I do eating a small amount and working it off Even if I work out until I’m at a deficit for the day, I  still feel better if I’d just eaten nothing and done no exercise.",20.37204081632652,5.194826612244898,18.69142857142857,48.328571428571465,58.38775510204081,21.232653061224493,61.24489795918368,11.20814326018867,7.22657551020408,180,6,37,2,1,63,34,49,0.055999999999999994,0.746,0.198,0.7074,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,9,7,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,6,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,27,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42515243062204655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550103670638308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24596863943266198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4918903889151792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875351761069956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24306342076098905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612580071686579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919493937199556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19078418204367414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34996548635098745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlefoxling,2019/09/24,"I can't eat any of my foods I want to eat because I keep binging on things I don't want to eat. I have a freezer full of lean cuisine white cheddar mac n cheeses, lean cuisine pizzas, vegan sausages, and veg burgers. All my favorite safeish-type foods which I would usually easily fit into my daily calories... that is until I fucking binge on *stale tinned cookies from past christmas*(I mean really wtf) and semi-sweet chocolate chips straight from the bag. Which then results in the logic of ""hurdur now I have to fast to make up for it"". So the food I actually want continues to just sit there... waiting. Then the cycle repeats.


God, does anyone else do this? Or am I just a next level clown? I just want to eat the good stuff again but I can't get out of this shitty food cycle 😔",3.1284416873449103,4.933610012903227,3.981290322580645,87.7550124069479,74.6774193548387,6.317617866004963,26.761786600496286,7.010146845296331,1.2394416873449132,612,23,121,6,13,196,105,155,0.040999999999999995,0.853,0.106,0.1243,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,0,7,0,9,10,0,2,1,21,19,8,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,9,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,15,1,20,18,2,22,0,0,1,1,0,10,1,1,11,74,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.12527659574764735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730017851236227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976358312010847,0.13153652788819867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825690439202514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234282665001913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5254433680964281,0.10724179346330814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6209317601245405,0.0,0.0,0.1186816743092924,0.06707123547066587,0.0,0.0,0.1076758168325934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141066132061752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569207139361748,0.0,0.0,0.13983925298817088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652948301671342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225495532469192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822410435857309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469599684410145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528740416482565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138818315831775,0.0,0.3028782977728055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119472772092982,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blueberry0666,2019/09/24,"Probiotics? Hey friends,

Anyone have experience with/advice on probiotics? I’ve been feeling *excessively* large lately, and I’m eating under maintenance for sure so I’m thinking maybe it’s just bloat? My BMs are all kinds of fucked up (alternate flair: shitpost) and have been considering probiotics for a while now but haven’t been able to commit. 

My biggest fear is that somehow it’s gonna trigger some sort of extreme hunger — tell me this is irrational lol. I’ve also heard that, while some strains can be beneficial in weight loss, other strains can actually prevent it, which obviously terrifies me. So yeah any advice? Good brands, dosages, just experiences in general? I trust you guys the most with stuff like this haha",4.963864042933813,7.973133186046512,5.111007751937986,76.0933094812165,73.72868217054264,8.620393559928441,30.85330948121646,9.265573868473778,3.3153012522361363,587,27,96,15,13,184,97,129,0.16399999999999998,0.606,0.231,0.8707,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,7,12,1,3,2,3,12,4,0,1,4,20,19,8,0,0,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,10,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,3,6,7,11,13,4,10,0,1,0,1,6,6,1,5,5,57,16,0,0.198592374807971,0.0,0.19379751051811075,0.0,0.0,0.3881243404811534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588142503844856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504962489212755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388604059684406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20320957806927675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885228989024617,0.0,0.2234716336256607,0.10041427173612226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343197614695295,0.18359545043507475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656986183752173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19663767370858112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068033981445056,0.0,0.0,0.22402084885837556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970222030428544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995127331240166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273407563457325,0.0,0.0,0.18717096301229552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17357848889541105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724997496831034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24183201141884014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowkeydyingbutitsok,2019/09/24,"ARE BOYS SHITTY OR AM I CRAZY I'm sorry I jut really need to rant 

‪My ex bf used to go to parties (he's in a frat so there was *a lot* lol), meet all these girl, and when he got home, he'd search up and follow the girls he thought were pretty on Instagram (probably like 5+ girls after every party) all while I was in PHP (Partial Hospitalization Program) and gaining hella weight that made me feel gross and extra insecure. I'd literally cry every night because I couldn't cope with the weight gain. 

He'd tell me that I was being crazy and that a follow doesn't mean anything and he'd never do anything further like message them. But remembering their names so you can search them up on Instagram to follow them because you thought they pretty *is* doing something? He'd tell me he still thought I looked beautiful despite gaining 20lbs in a month then turn around and follow all these super skinny, conventionally pretty, sorority girls and ask why I was so insecure. Kinda made me relapse hard as fk. Idk I'd personally never meet a cute guy at a party and search them up on IG later because that just feels really wrong??

I know I am more insecure that ""normal"" girls, but it's hard not being insecure in a relationship while having an ED that makes me feel like I'm the ugliest thing on the planet bc I'm not skinny enough. My disordered thoughts would make me feel like he was going to leave me because I was gaining so much weight and him following all those girls just kinda confirmed it. I D K.  A part of me feels like I am just ""fucking crazy"" like he'd always say, but another part of me feels like what he was doing was not okay.",3.3747977732333574,5.177937990797549,4.574717109747784,83.76938536696206,74.0,7.283617359690979,24.95750965689616,8.045849151850463,1.464122608498069,1299,42,253,20,27,427,167,326,0.125,0.743,0.132,0.7536,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,6,5,11,17,1,4,13,2,29,6,2,5,6,54,62,23,0,4,10,1,11,7,1,1,0,1,1,9,13,12,5,0,13,0,0,7,7,7,0,0,16,13,36,10,23,37,11,32,1,0,1,1,40,14,1,4,18,152,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429550101823112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362717601561577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695428081745734,0.07948603362230038,0.08347304977166749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21771869021464701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807964209645567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233279220934667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225928155549086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045946494789958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708828436261088,0.2551519751092626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254613086169313,0.0,0.0,0.10148985643680247,0.0,0.07141247410268846,0.0,0.0,0.0884100292671876,0.0,0.0,0.15997059687515156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956402690091939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049070833391716334,0.0,0.0,0.09454403171917364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053542565962535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498017129681615,0.0,0.0,0.07591021285225666,0.0,0.1689745945126025,0.11920204159966527,0.0,0.0,0.09726176635055417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712695322225206,0.0,0.06563760057663304,0.06620657321171107,0.13773017762108158,0.0,0.0,0.08379156537018538,0.08748414466426485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19338231200003067,0.0,0.0,0.0779636060622476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27251667295117793,0.0962685145564577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440148591665796,0.0,0.0,0.09586284178649564,0.10114689531545132,0.0,0.0,0.0710061012410853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873894215355701,0.0,0.09995159107287677,0.0,0.0,0.0713062149793106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560848335313458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931956442320421,0.0,0.0,0.28354158850822697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712066159094944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711692415127504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32618940415713665,0.0,0.0,0.08056932628466927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342825859307033,0.0976233735755884,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cele5ticle,2019/09/24,"Thought today was good and then surprise pastries Started today not restricting and for once feeling satisfied and not hating myself for eating. I was feeling confident I could eat 3 ‘normal’ meals until I get home and see a bag of rich sweet cakes and breads my mum bought from Breadtop (Chinese Bakery) 


obviously I want them and I’m scared if I don’t eat them today the rest of the family sure will, but I don’t see how I can eat them when I haven’t been restricting. it’s not even Friday, I shouldn’t be having these treats, I haven’t done anything special!??!? Ahhhhh :0",4.74642857142857,6.025212214285716,5.4628571428571435,80.83214285714288,69.71428571428571,8.1,27.392857142857146,8.472884824447931,1.9305321428571425,456,15,85,7,8,148,76,112,0.019,0.75,0.23199999999999998,0.9381,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,0,3,9,1,1,3,0,14,6,0,1,2,23,25,12,0,5,5,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,6,6,2,3,0,2,0,8,2,0,0,6,5,15,7,6,15,1,7,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,7,56,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929295524577922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544421949020684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078406131417652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6430749434855819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377353539148156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811483794588534,0.0,0.15888498646416807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820865455321365,0.0,0.0,0.13178131846109134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551193714811991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576000053529124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394017156726986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732324973999602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730037229619412,0.0,0.25040197698935984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120740543764696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480798267543274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473243279945452,0.0,0.0,0.4467823566920838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267099750867526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeealpha,2019/09/24,"Forgot to eat all day but felt good about it I hate these kinds of days. Today I had a huge exam in med school so i had to study for that and then go to class right after. 

I was also sick so I took a shit ton of medicine (DayQuil, ibuprofen, paracetamol, and Zyrtec) to help with my fever and congestion. Except I took all that on an empty stomach and didn’t realize until halfway through my exam. 

Once I got home I took a “nap” and my friends who were supposed to wake me up to go out to dinner didn’t. And I woke up at 1am in a cold sweat. 

My poor pet bird didn’t get to hang out with me all day and was freaking out when I finally did wake up. My roommate went to the dinner without waking me up. 

And to top it all off I was so fucking happy I didn’t eat anything for over 24 hours. Like what a shitty day but my stupid ED is like, at least you’ll lose weight.",0.4275413711583909,2.133504638297872,2.229078014184399,97.68388888888893,82.40425531914894,5.028841607565012,19.486997635933804,5.82211442006289,-0.3445399527186765,664,17,161,4,18,219,112,188,0.17600000000000002,0.688,0.135,-0.8959,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,6,12,4,0,7,0,13,16,6,0,4,24,26,17,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,1,4,0,2,0,7,13,5,1,2,1,1,7,5,6,0,0,19,3,22,6,36,6,6,35,0,1,0,1,4,17,2,0,13,106,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167477784410758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013694823794302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766046907972637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29876748138281706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017284787170067,0.15992439974361142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127911526428788,0.13496497271681562,0.07627350657179574,0.0,0.16593843420689222,0.1224490955798216,0.1167611675834755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540857473329456,0.0,0.14413444156268074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785370802185063,0.0,0.14643940692198285,0.0,0.1437702846794283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202563528766885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264622522587905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332494705272269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216146246429067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547409025345588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246742652660076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774920348768994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985615981073747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838100912641768,0.0,0.4865992353021914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777592389054625,0.0,0.13533376160505153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072870214691466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway_Fmylife,2019/09/24,"Safety Clothes I cycle between the same three outfits because I'm too disgusted with my body to wear my other clothes. I hate how wide my hips are, it fucking disgusts me and literally the only way to hide it is with big sweaters. So I find myself wearing the same thing for periods of time because it hides my body and I've gotten the "" those pants again?"" comments plenty of times, but I just cant wear my other fitting clothes. Wearing my big sweater and baggy pants makes me feel safe and hidden. The other day I decided for some fucking reason beyond me, that I would wear shorts to the grocery store and I had a damn panic attack. I thought I would be fine but I kept attempting to hide my legs because I felt fat and disgusting. I ended up ditching the damn groceries, had a breakdown in the bathroom and ran out the back door to my car. I literally can't go out without wearing my ""safey clothes.""",4.4039634941329835,5.778059418079097,4.920000000000002,84.03911342894395,70.63841807909606,7.028074750108647,32.259452411994786,7.321109707123232,2.0908143415906117,715,33,135,7,13,228,105,177,0.17300000000000001,0.784,0.043,-0.9714,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,12,9,1,11,0,9,13,11,3,0,30,21,11,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,9,11,1,2,6,0,1,3,3,10,0,1,7,2,26,2,18,11,3,21,0,0,0,2,1,10,4,1,7,92,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166956974271456,0.0,0.14646546905731356,0.0,0.34834001720164365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231552087186804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284225403881265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870656172294227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963111662988611,0.0,0.1828883071121259,0.0,0.17409301871704913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35218682868176204,0.0,0.0,0.10825277426307596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880571338471908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714523553417004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448667507096981,0.0,0.22348434987798224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958426328018508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654481230619882,0.0,0.0,0.1512178884304968,0.2221379680901215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15119220347078707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836135491895928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706195555080431,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sparklypinktutu,2019/09/24,"DAE feel other insecurities compound the ED I’m painfully short and that makes me feel like my body proportions are that much grosser. And my oily, now broken out skin. I feel like I just look fatty and greasy and sloppy. And my big ass nose ;(( I just want to feel pretty again.",2.984444444444442,5.196809296296298,3.4812592592592613,89.3396666666667,76.4074074074074,5.801481481481483,20.059259259259264,6.742157984588678,0.18390814814814813,218,5,44,2,5,68,39,54,0.215,0.64,0.145,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,5,4,1,0,14,9,5,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,7,2,2,9,1,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,4,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31383698717451597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5714405615664871,0.40369164577607297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760684374474332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23726148887087145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885968875319512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076985764286298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006412747348192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874436020806048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664874396180476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ashtrashbdash,2019/09/24,"Has anyone heard of this challenge called 75 Hard? Apparently it was conceived by a podcast host (I don’t listen to them, so I’m not familiar with them), but a friend of mine is doing this challenge with great results. And by that, I mean she seems to be making good progress physically and intellectually/emotionally. 


From what I understand, there are 5 rules.  I think it’s more geared towards entrepreneurs, but I’m modifying slightly toward mental health and ED recovery (or at least treading water- no sinking lmao)

1. Follow a diet. No cheating. 

2. Workout twice a day for 45 mins each. 1 of them must be outside. 

3. Drink a gallon of water every day

4.  Read 10 pages of personal development book. 

5. Take progress photos every day. 


I have literally never done a “challenge”- it’s not really my thing, but I’m in a recovery slump and could use a little weight loss, so figured why not. I’m starting tomorrow, so naturally I’ve been eating shitty all day. 😩",1.9147513812154704,4.7364615138121575,3.8579093922651917,80.2985546961326,88.55801104972376,6.210917127071824,24.919558011049727,7.554174236665415,1.847406453038674,758,32,132,15,25,255,129,181,0.102,0.762,0.136,0.7491,1,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,3,6,4,8,1,0,8,0,13,7,0,3,3,26,28,11,0,2,7,0,2,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,8,7,6,0,5,4,0,1,7,2,0,1,4,4,11,6,17,20,5,14,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,2,8,80,19,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040368059348446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758317098592367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748476106596236,0.0,0.0,0.4442095602868709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621663511342836,0.0,0.1686868516261678,0.0,0.17619983868512307,0.0,0.19369769891231375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290165676556523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330384606035464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443011527522054,0.0,0.18984706629361126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425409258069128,0.0,0.0,0.1830366509250952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725859644064138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494239016356585,0.0,0.0,0.18757228896143965,0.0,0.0,0.17353340380108215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280842845450092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035519704707098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224293291154089,0.0,0.11031338098794033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676107535722067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188145159254707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294702131735819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439959293925155,0.11033645793240356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926245666755222,0.0,0.14872234510511706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20968874501757948,0.0,0.0,0.15538040813311207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VioletVendetta06,2019/09/24,"Looking the mirror makes me want to kill myself I feel so ugly and it ruins every other aspect of my life too. I go theough every day constantly aware that i want to lose weight ir that I should eat less. But I don’t !!! Because I can’t!! I was so skinny last year and I thought that if i did it before I could do it again but I can’t!!! I gained 30+ lbs back and even though my husband tells me I’m not even overweight I want to cry when i see myself in the mirror. I’m uncomfortable in my clothes, all eating does is make me feel guilty but it doesn’t make me stop eating it. It makes me feel so worthless because the solution is so easy- DONT FUCKING EAT- and i cant even do that. I went to take a relaxing hot shower but I examined myself in the mirror and saw the cellulite on the back of my thighs and i feel miserable. I want to restart the whole week and just not eat anything at all. No food is worth feeling this way and yet I eat it like it’ll solve my problems. I hate this so much. This is worse than when I was scared to eat over 500 calories because back then I felt like i would just lose weight slower than i wanted, but now I feel like I can’t lose any at all. I would be 100x happier if i lost the weight again. I have all the tools to do it but I can’t and its making me resent myself so much. My confidence has tanked and I don’t feel like myself in my body anymore and I want to die",0.8334449648711909,2.476946488524589,2.547394613583137,96.20038934426228,80.8360655737705,5.4063231850117095,19.41744730679157,6.1826913282559595,-0.2280749414519909,1089,26,260,8,28,359,141,305,0.205,0.6409999999999999,0.154,-0.9743,2,0,0,0,0,2,25.0,0,0,0,5,22,18,4,2,10,0,27,17,3,5,4,54,58,29,2,13,12,1,12,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,18,11,13,1,10,1,1,2,12,13,0,0,8,15,51,5,20,44,8,27,0,7,3,1,2,8,1,2,20,178,69,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052445010329347376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648343400491793,0.0,0.0,0.06346411561663966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17790415665360615,0.0,0.14103696793476758,0.0,0.06562439805330368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566418535964407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334053950867126,0.0,0.06157494377038384,0.0,0.08471393566792454,0.049736746248931527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003955301373991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748921714122284,0.0,0.09038538539559816,0.0,0.0,0.5523991570183734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528133292841745,0.0,0.129955749855732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729633100302871,0.11019069575974247,0.07404837524276013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325517177762696,0.0,0.0,0.07129723834612416,0.0,0.0,0.04382971320734906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614114556627917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532309956020166,0.0,0.0,0.06286401097340003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05447293209176576,0.15070994665325138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06476232245384575,0.2588364397846889,0.08418681931730633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573947525631373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338580267610412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379450222135821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721170109360631,0.0,0.0614555525785565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447671465689545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057985488968323215,0.0,0.06740726344366915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577111480659098,0.06122555959279721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729282298027705,0.06121516018801997,0.06186191546540318,0.2817382650331356,0.0,0.07149205651808889,0.0,0.08610298311223802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859301611592047,0.10956927050564788,0.0,0.0,0.049663476678988544
EDAnonymous,pierrottriste,2019/09/24,does anyone else feel personally attacked by their baby face like no matter how much weight i lose i still look chubby and people who weigh more than me but have super mature faces look way skinnier ughhshsnndbj,6.470175438596487,8.786886368421058,5.4973684210526335,78.20991228070176,66.89473684210526,7.171929824561403,23.19298245614036,7.793537801064563,1.3031298245614042,174,4,27,2,3,52,36,38,0.11800000000000001,0.626,0.256,0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,2,2,4,2,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19103179112845145,0.2799315451532048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31081094670900483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390841658656857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22822832129719084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814102047901344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347451418741454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588479908131805,0.3056473163314025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083763897499254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940644580030064,0.2385526958627503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181824401696099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168579831243529,0.0,0.3326909637873066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shrinkingviolet85,2019/09/24,Pooped 3 times today after not pooping for a week Praise Goddess Ana (and also sugar free gummy bears),8.39736842105263,8.018169789473685,7.967368421052632,71.78157894736844,61.631578947368425,7.6,29.52631578947368,3.1291,1.6017999999999994,82,2,12,0,1,26,19,19,0.0,0.685,0.315,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5036190619015616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672182789350049,0.0,0.5969391018126486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051557035533821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,radicalcantaloop,2019/09/24,"help my scale is acting up???? okay I’ll try to keep this relatively tw free so I’ll try not to mention numbers okay


anyways so I bought a brand new scale from target the other day bc I wanted one for my apartment. I tried it out (on tile) at my parents house and it worked perfectly fine. But I brought it to my apartment today and tried it out and it is VERY inaccurate. Like it is more than 100 lb off. While I’m happy to see such a low number, it actually really freaks me out that I might not be able to weigh myself (and that I’d be out like 30 bucks).

The majority of my apartment is carpeted, and the only places that aren’t are the shared bathroom and kitchen. Neither of which I’d be comfortable putting my scale in. I know carpets can mess up scales but I didn’t expect it this much???

If anyone has any suggestions other than put it in the bathroom/kitchen then please let me know. Or if anyone knows where I could get like a nice big slab of tile or something to put it on then lmk lmao",2.0450724637681184,3.7539442560386505,3.3742270531401,91.35380434782611,77.45410628019323,6.339130434782609,23.09420289855073,7.1686216300943375,0.6599739130434781,779,24,173,9,18,254,121,207,0.022000000000000002,0.797,0.18100000000000002,0.9831,2,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,5,15,0,0,8,2,15,2,0,0,1,27,25,17,0,5,8,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,18,10,2,1,3,0,3,5,5,3,0,1,3,1,17,13,25,16,4,30,0,1,1,0,5,19,0,5,9,109,35,1,0.15242049104080582,0.0,0.14874041233566315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365116062909636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21315190257733746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121695359527848,0.0,0.0,0.09829860728870524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963341564504915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622544469604521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021642422585928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587278229423373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547833573559775,0.0,0.0,0.25129894720746115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586027889343956,0.0,0.2233948585984542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169405418382546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204659864146642,0.0,0.0,0.14720866003940716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328406940256286,0.1159226517669084,0.0,0.0,0.16924491755181706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592469720898163,0.16731192814838292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596740769543616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764446951047186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145939741202268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734074059465965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14447680344645672,0.0,0.0,0.4139340330916242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576286787382385,0.08990155469461837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096393279699354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oldconcrete,2019/09/24,"A monologue of my dumb ed brain vs myself Me: passes out literally 3 times this morning and cannot lower my heart rate or regain vision

ED: ur fine lol

Me: loses a FUCKING FULL HANDFUL OF MY SHORT ASS HAIR IN THE SHOWER

Me: time to cut my hair into a bob and try to recover

ED: wait no,,",26.13409836065573,5.0165696229508185,23.28852459016393,36.74295081967215,57.68852459016394,25.71147540983607,70.8360655737705,11.20814326018867,8.714855737704918,221,6,47,2,1,78,48,61,0.174,0.7020000000000001,0.124,-0.6646,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,4,1,1,7,6,0,0,7,3,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,3,8,1,7,3,1,8,0,1,0,2,1,5,3,1,2,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352670513290785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36046430327182855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620436778990858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362080920787891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547177882690188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647224078997558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugarsweetguro,2019/09/24,"i hate how i can never escape even when im eating normally and everything feels relatively fine, if i see the words eating disorder in a book or hear someone talking about eds whether irl or on tv or something it makes me spiral so hard. i cant even handle stuff where the characters are starved or dont eat for a little while. i wish i could just live my life how i did before this stupid fucking disorder took over my brain. whether or not im starving myself its still all i can think about sometimes.",3.629232673267328,5.2586203762376265,4.4050371287128725,85.96715965346534,72.96039603960395,7.426237623762375,27.476485148514854,8.07648339933343,1.7215435643564354,402,15,80,6,8,129,76,101,0.19399999999999998,0.743,0.063,-0.9264,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,11,4,3,0,4,0,7,6,1,3,2,22,16,14,0,4,10,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,3,0,2,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,4,12,1,6,13,1,10,0,0,1,1,2,5,1,6,4,55,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005983447568298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17062556499564835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203429261356015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503472157711561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913319759556276,0.0,0.0,0.4691957677166706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190535737673185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736722737317233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728302272064247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130273637463725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369190950682874,0.15090279046971952,0.0,0.0,0.1722674195181221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301976491572234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795894120820074,0.0,0.15319084033801356,0.13496493218051525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202522204037416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178834839141755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975564452763362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121797673320926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950506955371335,0.11766754565480166,0.1511676097983146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206221166170438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497095317452716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285101854012935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793690216188077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698164150345233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757642028715869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n0tmiki,2019/09/24,"active and wanting to increase cals i have a very active job (10,000+ steps a day) and i always work out for 90mins after work. i KNOW my body could handle more calories than i eat, but im scared of gaining weight. rn i’m kinda only eating calories i burn off. does anyone have advice? i know my tdee and bmr but i feel like i fucked up my metabolism so i cant trust that. thank you 😊 xo",-1.3848709122203076,0.5318855301204835,1.0811790017211709,97.87051204819281,103.33734939759034,2.8533562822719447,13.157487091222027,4.65589566412798,-1.3526585197934595,301,6,67,1,14,101,62,83,0.191,0.6679999999999999,0.142,-0.8066,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,3,1,5,1,1,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,12,11,6,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,13,3,8,10,2,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,3,35,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998376636579644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880207167678674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025304008601625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23868951030434585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156870299842206,0.0,0.0,0.13858346468186505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804787698186634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4397633244201348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865263925416377,0.1535143485026271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19865831718870985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232113372338825,0.0,0.21324084634484267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23619106269146264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498227238616012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343021696924284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21513801883979056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19783783212229164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773031626693731,0.12674512155878695,0.0,0.0,0.2616728264070837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128786192579139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadlylavender,2019/09/24,"the universe doesn’t want me to eat ice cream the last time i went to the grocery store and i bought light ice cream, they forgot to bag it and i didn’t notice so i left without it. and i go and buy some light ice cream today and the guy makes fun of it. like, thank you, it’s not like i was only going to eat this tonight anyway 🙃",0.1497683397683396,1.741505405405405,1.7679922779922812,101.21581081081085,82.78378378378378,4.228571428571429,15.976833976833975,3.1291,-1.278673359073359,256,4,65,0,7,83,48,74,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,11,11,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,1,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,0,5,5,9,4,6,6,1,8,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,6,36,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148043375207627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859274553432873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490776475867181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20504978671960494,0.0,0.0,0.2733137601678474,0.0,0.0,0.24579279892630784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791400452684874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863954804239608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131787465147115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315967895607373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668294735057266,0.0,0.2384434323275627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837285129244487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23319273960077086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424887271652912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadgorlthrowwaway,2019/09/24,"Recovering from my fasting obsession. I have eaten at least something every day for TWENTY DAYS now!!!!!

I’m a weird fucking ritualistic eater and have been having a hard time when thrown out of routine. There have been a few ugly bumps in the road.. 

BUT, on days that I can follow my routine and rituals I have been eating healthy foods and I’m very proud of that :)",3.714333333333333,5.7705325285714295,4.637142857142859,82.59619047619049,73.71428571428572,6.9523809523809526,25.952380952380953,7.793537801064563,1.5116666666666667,287,10,54,4,6,93,51,70,0.085,0.74,0.17600000000000002,0.8981,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,4,0,9,4,0,0,0,5,14,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,1,5,1,8,10,2,13,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,7,37,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6048175246975346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319875301548572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26338512560567945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780059775623099,0.0,0.0,0.2890004035678103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280034730721442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24066036549293054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18228382550838695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579337542491277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bonnginn,2019/09/24,"If I could just always be the skinniest girl in the room, I’d be happy. And yes, that includes children.",1.9871428571428569,4.0607850952380975,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,79.0,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.1634571428571427,81,3,16,1,2,27,18,21,0.0,0.726,0.27399999999999997,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5301885412949235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087399688468199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.678294740343236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,olivia1135,2019/09/24,"PLEASE SOMEONE pls someone else tell me u have this issue. 
i CANNOT sleep with my legs touching it grosses me out like feeling the thigh fat🤮🤮",0.8725862068965498,3.434842379310344,1.8857758620689644,94.45556034482763,90.72413793103449,2.9000000000000004,24.49137931034483,3.1291,0.09271724137931114,115,5,22,0,4,36,26,29,0.06,0.664,0.27699999999999997,0.6739,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930935390671085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740235020969908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662004745811623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714095670340184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851323885894421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511074336776161,0.0,0.5945549978278153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066619051604071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sophiegarrettt,2019/09/24,"ruh roh posting because maybe I'll actually stop if I hold myself accountable: I've been binging for the last week. I was honestly doing fine and even felt... somewhat recovered??? for a long time and I don't know what happened but I feel like I can't stop eating. If I actually had access to a scale I'd probably cut my stomach off at the realization. on top of that, I haven't had access to a gym for the last 2 weeks so my self esteem is nonexistent. I am so full of self hate and it's impacting my life and schoolwork, but midterms are coming up so this squishy bitch needs to get her shit together. sighhh let me back into that recovery feeling please :'((( I'm literally so miserable god just kill me",2.9509574468085127,4.783522907801423,4.725833333333334,82.10875,75.24113475177305,8.387943262411348,28.062056737588648,9.075114841892004,2.4150609929078013,554,23,111,13,12,188,101,141,0.222,0.6729999999999999,0.105,-0.977,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,1,7,9,5,1,6,0,12,4,2,0,0,20,22,12,1,3,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,6,1,3,4,1,1,1,3,6,0,0,5,3,15,3,13,16,2,18,0,1,0,0,3,7,2,3,10,68,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.33377270156243505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315002782933304,0.0,0.10424939406660856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731461522475753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499143738796016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129540518096262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294103862937854,0.12217342835295793,0.1642015926117688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934848255802312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122834405336713,0.0,0.0,0.1688422916003138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920319032560315,0.0,0.0939855855716659,0.2788007349507709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487482230162107,0.12079322705429915,0.08354948093651167,0.0,0.0,0.15134323807247602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180794467606178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680574430689107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18772354259608354,0.0,0.0,0.16378547001872135,0.0,0.18438351434704775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35681269641522845,0.0,0.17554483965488896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859530461898134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972044882447773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743564597638344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JuBelen,2019/09/24,"Body hair (Not much of a story but i didn't know how to tag it)

Little 12 yo feminist me: Shaving is dumb and i'm not going to do it.

Me now 23 yo sicko: If I shave, my body will burn calories growing new hair... genius.",-2.16591836734694,-0.3480569795918349,1.1073469387755104,99.59122448979595,98.3877551020408,3.6163265306122447,15.16326530612245,5.288315135182226,-0.9870489795918372,164,4,41,1,7,58,40,49,0.092,0.866,0.042,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,4,4,4,1,0,7,7,4,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,3,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7835769775345162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20045690072830885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384374997089265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535145692428064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592871927260567,0.0,0.0,0.3406557688441651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,avahs,2019/09/24,:( the last time i took a day off of purging was 3 months ago. i was so proud today because i thought i wouldn’t purge. and then i purged everything. even though my digestive organs are in so much pain. wow i actually suck,-0.21304761904761804,2.0708273777777784,1.6015873015873048,95.03000000000002,97.44444444444444,5.238095238095238,19.761904761904766,6.868970318607317,0.4578571428571432,172,6,38,3,7,56,38,45,0.19,0.647,0.163,-0.0832,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,7,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,7,2,3,2,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,7,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.29677576306248377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26958267960968324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538780030895954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19613125799497508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008673852587705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733220766520976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478971481792044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427444661688073,0.0,0.2235620722587181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236035005243015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298794858680922,0.24143609966523694,0.17733392907377607,0.0,0.2882687557090367,0.0,0.33788681692439193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Striped_Sponges,2019/09/24,I’m not actually losing weight and the scale is lying The scale says I’m going down but everything still looks identical. I’ve lost 25 pounds but it’s not noticeable at all. I feel like I’m just as big as my sw and it makes me so so angry. No matter what I do I’ll always be fat and have big thighs and rolls,0.9073913043478256,2.3336903913043514,3.260217391304348,92.17119565217394,79.8695652173913,6.918840579710146,17.297101449275363,7.793537801064563,0.12533623188405807,243,4,59,4,6,84,50,69,0.201,0.715,0.085,-0.8947,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,3,2,1,1,13,12,10,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,4,4,1,4,10,1,6,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.2887289131581277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461896502280159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26591115568041684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960204321729964,0.21137139748112946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815117951581468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445483750636346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484584112444468,0.33100568439776945,0.3229798219513842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19749721400146286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368528411059286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352897145724649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362841879285861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602930380123768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,naomii_love,2019/09/24,"Why can't I just fucking eat I keep forgetting I'm supposed to stop losing weight aka no more restriction, but I can't stop, I just can't i feel all guilty eating thinking it's a binge, but I log it all after I eat, and then I realize that I'm still not eating enough",1.314237288135594,2.7197411016949182,3.4120000000000026,91.61732203389832,78.66101694915254,6.753898305084746,21.969491525423727,7.554174236665415,0.6850786440677967,211,6,49,3,5,72,38,59,0.188,0.753,0.059000000000000004,-0.5421,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,2,16,9,4,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,4,3,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,9,4,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7860466475599528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843552114232813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710455384938188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754402830430474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706998817019496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21485107164190032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533686984284158,0.32111918827595737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230557353352565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338610754160109,0.0,0.0,0.17329222577750605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dalos_,2019/09/24,"I post to places because I need the truth *I* can never see my true shape or size, so... having others comment and trying to see what they see really helps me.",0.3796874999999993,2.7339725937500035,2.2800000000000007,92.965,88.6875,4.45,14.25,5.985473137389443,-0.6767750000000001,121,2,25,1,4,40,27,32,0.068,0.782,0.15,0.4331,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,6,0,4,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18758223350400527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20625710541862372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281692373485299,0.23733134085635574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215001529281473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29470909214095675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19713223723022394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7356349887865105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089205420905336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fatherviolet,2019/09/24,"I FEEL LIKE IM RELAPSING... A rant, I guess.
Life’s a bitch. 
Long story short it all started when I was 13, battled with Ana for about a year and after trying to 'recover' and get better for the followings 2 years till about last year I felt like I was finally recovering, I gained the weight I had lost and felt mentally okay, I was eating pretty much whenever I felt like without thinking about it eight hundred times, I was finally able to talk about my ED and not have a breakdown every time (only did when I was alone) and when I thought everything was going to be better... I went shopping, I know, the dressing rooms are scary, but even though it wasn’t my first time shopping after starting recovery this time I noticed different things about my body that I didn’t like, things I felt self conscious about and wish I could change, my first immediate thought was to starve of course (fuck my life) but after giving it a second thought I decided I was going to be healthy and just start exercising and eating cleaner, at first it was great, I was happy about the way I looked but most importantly how I felt, I was on top of the world, I felt amazing but... the obsessive and controlling part of my brain didn’t like me going on a 'diet'...I realized that now I can’t skip the gym without feeling gross, I have literal panic attack’s over not working out and missing my training session, I freak out at sugar and carbs and it’s exhausting, all I think about it’s food, and although I wasn’t restricting my portions I was too controlling over everything which led to a few moments where I lost control and overate when I knew I wasn’t hungry, recently I’m going through a really hard time and I just feel like I’m back on the bullshit, I’m counting calories again and restricting, I’m not gonna lie, I kind of like my body now and tend to get compliments about how 'healthy and fit' I am, but obviously my stupidity thinks it’s never enough, some days I feel like the most disgusting thing in this planet and the only thing I can control is my weight, I kinda feel like if I look 'good' then everything will be fine which of course it’s untrue, it’s messed up because although I have built some good muscle that I really don’t want to loose and haven’t touched a scale in years because it’s bad for my mental health I still want to be controlling and suffer, I hate myself. 
I never recovered and I feel like I never will it’s overwhelming and I just want to disappear.

Sorry for the long ass rant btw....",5.66,5.925431515151516,6.12540404040404,80.53477272727272,67.18181818181819,9.50909090909091,31.24747474747475,9.3871,2.620850505050505,1980,73,391,36,30,641,226,495,0.16699999999999998,0.657,0.17600000000000002,0.263,1,1,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,0,15,27,40,7,3,20,1,36,16,4,8,6,90,86,40,0,6,14,0,16,10,0,3,5,0,1,1,23,26,6,7,23,4,2,8,16,19,0,5,32,19,63,21,49,46,11,68,0,5,2,2,3,19,3,7,50,262,86,2,0.06132611064833584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351535564439889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976730418726848,0.0,0.04715599365367221,0.05120474079800734,0.07476765568569148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847592250986504,0.0,0.13623896789657702,0.0,0.06846022124603869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487489351385536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439122387857044,0.04896390920165585,0.0,0.0,0.03955026798562515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407273303021954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550384254710978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336626580244001,0.0,0.04050531770290139,0.0,0.05166989319468685,0.0,0.1653478617608468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860499451235021,0.2190569285035371,0.35329610064480743,0.13435951323729034,0.0,0.15649187516704893,0.07415577642314887,0.0,0.0,0.056695001098604786,0.06408072334376311,0.05882959342963477,0.13941216776889492,0.10287486402842352,0.0,0.06761225348997955,0.0675576248459907,0.0,0.0,0.06528278513954731,0.054936149465183735,0.06054683788132861,0.0,0.06518678788096134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624272311362575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386170712407813,0.033703226595976965,0.04998896526534771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663289115895388,0.29960839961276176,0.0,0.0,0.10854335620723704,0.102996975137918,0.0,0.13388938826807145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360459095672198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04508174759925584,0.0,0.14189543150038725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982018343985492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932825412168852,0.0,0.07195297739713181,0.0,0.06641020164629187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239070166410885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857415365226858,0.0,0.060552135828116915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397650813397396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06864956002818291,0.13022081028195406,0.0,0.04897511118192757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04929160474734814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296937167302322,0.11788588639091102,0.060252592342319174,0.1460582449852364,0.17879874145281258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041636403578592364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085151868953807,0.048677812137161526,0.0,0.1493573628385468,0.0,0.05684991897101869,0.0,0.0,0.07052200070973746,0.11823236447526768,0.0,0.04464613894244117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796801840804278
EDAnonymous,toosicktotouch,2019/09/24,"dietician increasing mealplan because i can't finish? i'm in res but dietician upped my snack mealplan, then added an ensure because i can't finish meals but now it's even more difficult to eat them???? then i learned my friend is making a trip to visit and i can go out to eat with her and her family if i'm finishing foods but either way i, m getting another increase on friday???? the day before.  

also i don't want to be here but my family is going to call police or somethng if i ama lol. she said ""how many more weeks do you expect to continue to be here?"" idk laady like 2-3 more months? i haven't been outpatient in a year i have plenty of time lol.  
if i don't finish my mealplans am i going to be put back inpatient they don't do ng here but i'm eating enough to not need ng so what can they even do? if im put in inpatient i'll make certain i get one lol

i barely touched dinner but i noticed everone else finished and watching me,. so i asked ""can we get additional hour of phone time if we all finish100%?"" , so i ate to be helpful but i doubt other girls would do it if they were the one.",0.2736018487949821,2.3981821459227497,2.5916952789699583,92.4429011224827,85.90987124463518,5.8163750412677455,20.97870584351271,7.1686216300943375,0.5950859689666551,852,28,190,13,26,290,131,233,0.043,0.8170000000000001,0.14,0.9762,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,2,1,4,0,12,5,0,1,5,3,24,8,0,3,2,35,40,24,0,10,16,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,8,8,0,1,0,0,9,7,2,0,2,4,3,32,3,19,31,8,33,0,0,1,0,18,6,0,8,18,124,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356448550354856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890873917671196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327591744800761,0.0,0.0,0.10919609714436572,0.0,0.173134644420232,0.0,0.1208391351780788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14500698932020972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158400810641608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359317465585255,0.11863023411484402,0.0,0.0,0.14673318024123752,0.0,0.1875911104422239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677467508302648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171775502364892,0.0,0.10971574269146074,0.0,0.22258140532625176,0.0,0.24212083293064124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951855885782414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398501849742566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533940071615796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937838729400914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18958411945411685,0.1439747601180757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335016857925458,0.0,0.0,0.10529781802371417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616781016116308,0.0,0.0,0.1924578447311296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855163842179539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508300678195098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561309159860094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376054291134798,0.11272007418490147,0.11391099327458765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087906542960604,0.0,0.0,0.0914490913417764
EDAnonymous,MieptheMiep,2019/08/19,"I didn’t b/p for a week and totally destroyed it today I hate Bulimia so much. |: I was doing so much better, but I already felt bingey while waking up this morning, but tried to just ignore it. Fast foward to work and I shit you not, I was in such a binge mode for the whole day straight. When we finished up early, I was just „floating“ straight to the next grocery store.

Like, I use so many skills and do everything to keep in check, but wtf was that. 
I ate, I waited, I drank a lot of water. Ugh I feel gross and hate myself. I was doing so good. ):",0.8149686520376171,2.58124460344828,2.560658307210033,95.48653605015673,81.41379310344827,5.252664576802507,20.028213166144198,6.1124844417494595,-0.1158517241379311,418,11,97,3,11,138,77,116,0.268,0.62,0.11199999999999999,-0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,1,0,3,8,10,4,0,5,0,9,5,2,1,1,19,18,13,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,3,2,0,2,0,2,7,0,0,9,2,16,3,11,9,5,15,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,10,67,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428136883802994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460275144841213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419041348982261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19775293970171876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125612145118184,0.0,0.21126775315883944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455461019925284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4344772912029751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955768912732136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749780702053302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870655759683199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22308058147002907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323501544672098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340093278143389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258623881937853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085671035573889,0.0,0.0,0.1493890719587791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900392752334991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649850984077625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456608092042449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018783299965988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cisheterpatriarchy,2019/08/19,"Something I wish i could instill inside me: the dopamine I get from binging isnt comparable to the confidence I feel when I eat healthy and am losing weight These days I struggle to find the balance between not eating at all and binging on upwards of 500 calories. When I restrict slightly and exercise and eat healthily, I feel so good about myself. My skin drastically clears up, I feel confident in my body, I feel like my face looks pretty, I glow... 

why can’t I just do that? Just eat healthily. Just have a healthy relationship with food. I only keep that up for about a week then I get off track and binge. Nothing compares to the energy I have when I take care to myself. Late night dopamine hits from stuffing food inside myself are nothing in comparison.",4.969412878787878,6.724261812500004,5.084898989898992,81.9227272727273,69.7638888888889,7.4585858585858595,32.535353535353536,8.00094639256281,2.4128277777777782,607,28,110,8,11,190,91,144,0.051,0.743,0.207,0.9688,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,0,1,6,0,8,11,3,0,2,21,20,10,0,2,4,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,7,2,5,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,23,3,19,18,1,15,0,1,2,0,1,7,0,0,9,74,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514300170626633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240389976578186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151593359962354,0.0,0.0,0.09007624453284337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5716732344364286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28248743023027023,0.09978099498931273,0.0,0.0,0.1276567696361473,0.0,0.3377814710657433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594467243185866,0.0,0.0,0.11714941365094288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414600811973615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755497903302848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682361987469259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172884684629482,0.1562561298733737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107177807687087,0.0,0.2680361954716685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062260943004376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209562629802025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14995439062329027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752556455277447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601446187634745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501521465689724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203565663187,0.17008165839376047,0.0,0.0,0.12603135897905954,0.0,0.16061476456201199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,timetogetboneywoo,2019/08/19,Currently eating a jar of chocolate frosting after being triggered my narcissistic ex bf AMA I'm bored and binging,6.177999999999997,9.463752799999998,7.190000000000001,61.32500000000002,71.0,8.0,40.0,8.841846274778883,4.824500000000001,96,6,11,2,2,32,20,20,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.2732,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ks788,2019/08/19,Why do people judge me so much for eating salads Ever since I moved into the dorm I have been eating salads everyday and people keep constantly judging me ugh.,13.823,8.49631263333334,13.023333333333335,55.12500000000003,56.0,14.666666666666664,40.0,11.20814326018867,4.657,129,3,19,2,1,43,25,30,0.094,0.9059999999999999,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,14,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31123935238858874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5894176794013483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605239277017585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559988734998679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30611186298971066,0.21172243426201454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993434096758053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382470373406053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598866158723275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheRainWillStop,2019/08/19,"if I binge, not eating for the next few days evens it out right?? I successfully stayed under 1000 cals yesterday but I've been feeling extra miserable recently and cut myself again for the first time in ages the other day and I was so hungry so I went out and ordered and ate a whole bunch of fried chicken at 1am (why is my local KFC open so late oMg) and then I added the calories and I went to 3000, so I guess if I don't eat for at least the next two days it evens out right? 🙃 if I end up dying that's only a win win anyway ayyyyyyy I really need help hahahaha",0.7174316939890701,2.591382737704919,2.8831967213114744,92.4994398907104,82.27868852459017,6.033879781420765,18.36338797814207,7.1686216300943375,0.1056863387978142,442,10,102,6,12,150,85,122,0.055999999999999994,0.792,0.152,0.9154,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,4,8,5,1,1,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,18,10,15,1,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,10,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,5,1,12,3,13,5,5,30,0,1,0,0,1,12,0,4,14,67,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350957733863552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975251660947789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35445025047254297,0.0,0.0,0.1534023077489291,0.0,0.0,0.2287917200602709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757427702485758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732240656046694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907974812723608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609118622106787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19537525431466865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284243632198063,0.0,0.0,0.368396766543868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317251305936278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095528183633306,0.0,0.17101245089660996,0.0,0.0,0.2958208460069591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18460636942128505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099333599022836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918959658735325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32111316450024324,0.1562845488176874,0.19336974432317575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,primeclone,2019/08/19,"Scared surgery will trigger a relapse So basically I’m having surgery Friday to kind of open my stomach so I don’t get nausea and vomiting and stomach pain (gastroparesis) whenever I eat. It’s sort of like the opposite of weight loss surgery. I have to be on a liquid diet for about 3 days prior, so starting tomorrow, and then for probably about 2 weeks after. I’m terrified I’m going to relapse because of this. I can’t afford to lose any weight. My BMI (which I know isn’t a measure of health) is already around 15. I’m really scared that a liquid diet is going to kickstart ED thoughts and that if the surgery is successful then my mind will start to go crazy because I won’t be able to rely on my illness to make it hard to eat if that makes sense. Uggggh I’m just really scared",3.110667634252536,4.781791484276732,4.616477987421384,83.7490711175617,74.40880503144653,7.659603289791969,28.58297048863087,8.384062270229773,2.099921722302855,622,26,123,11,13,208,91,159,0.177,0.7859999999999999,0.038,-0.9642,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,7,9,0,3,6,0,13,12,2,3,0,16,28,11,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,7,6,6,0,2,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,1,3,10,3,22,22,0,16,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,3,10,70,17,1,0.1533561169874698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692322885370971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428741835680867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651945750372765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18696893103109116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890200862190016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138431861495173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012224158564421,0.0,0.2614674461312458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737695860959453,0.0,0.0,0.16301038110234964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969679676735574,0.08428051128737453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492205244339938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156626793345434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20473279783780102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548459612425762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631817208848551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653438319036979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964877108999528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606086788861151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21709249784666693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174762684355485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301302674897033,0.3734928722245607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheNerdSpider,2019/08/19,"Yooooo egg whites? I've recently discovered the ABSOLUTE BEAUTY of egg whites!

Idk if this behaviour classifies as any sort of disorder, but I'm a former bulimic who does weight lifting now, so I'm determined to get a decent amount of protein in.

I'm a relatively lucky one, with a BMR of roughly 2400 kcal, so I can get a decent amount of protein in with a great caloric deficit, but my cravings KILLED me.

IN COMES EGG WHITES!!! I love them!!! With a little hot sauce, they kill my savory cravings, and I have quest and halo top for my sweet cravings! I don't even remember what bread or noodles taste like, so I don't really get specific cravings like that.

SEE YOU AT MY RECORD LOW FELLAS",3.1745555555555534,5.262837362962966,4.26861111111111,84.49625000000003,75.37037037037038,8.055555555555555,27.546296296296298,8.841846274778883,2.2720740740740744,544,22,106,12,12,177,89,135,0.151,0.631,0.218,0.898,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,2,1,5,9,2,0,8,0,4,7,0,0,0,13,13,10,2,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,9,13,6,15,13,2,11,0,1,4,1,5,7,0,4,5,56,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090376801426325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19115246957943768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543236333892543,0.0,0.19419153705923325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656689643096024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478103595101633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446522757188455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910124773141896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168242382295594,0.2224082245435347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027893301776808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503693268275687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215873981007546,0.0,0.2191055180875013,0.0,0.2513763708317791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683044375936255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702218668043012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rawanadel,2019/08/19,Bf broke up w/ me so i binged AND- LIKE INSTEAD OF GAINING A FUCKTON i somehow stayed the same?? my scale is being more sensible than a SO idk if i wanna cri or be happy,-1.6707207207207233,0.21910954054053988,1.4852702702702736,95.39745495495498,102.24324324324324,3.547747747747748,19.68018018018018,5.46131890053228,-0.13123063063063034,131,5,29,1,6,46,33,37,0.121,0.623,0.256,0.7823,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,4,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699388773140475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523317873225594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534867997761344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5530313871547655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justcallmeamess,2019/08/19,"Sad post binge post I just ate too much for what feels like the millionth time and I’m sure it won’t be the last. My binges are always somewhat planned; I’ll say to myself, “I’m home along tonight, I’ll order in some thai curry and treat myself.” But inevitably I end up ordering some nasty greasy cheesy Italian food and eating until I feel like I’ll burst. Then I’ll gather up all the evidence and take it out to the dumpster before my boyfriend gets home. 
Today I had some chocolate and crackers from my work pantry and I just feel lousy. I have zero self control and it makes me sick. I hate this part of myself so much. I just want to cut out that part of my brain that makes me binge. 
I’ve been locked in this binge/restrict cycle for the past 10 months now, and my weight is constantly fluctuating. I feel and look disgusting. My boyfriend is awesome but everyone has a limit to how much bs they can take before they snap. I wanna die, honestly. 
Sorry for being depressing. 
I start therapy at the beginning of next month. It seems so far away.",2.4547129186602845,4.662215272727273,3.052007177033492,91.79380023923443,78.0909090909091,6.0938755980861234,21.933253588516745,7.1686216300943375,0.6120007655502389,828,24,171,10,20,258,130,209,0.125,0.805,0.07,-0.889,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,2,4,8,10,3,0,7,0,11,6,1,4,2,35,29,16,1,2,5,0,5,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,9,12,4,2,5,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,3,7,24,5,22,23,10,28,0,2,1,0,5,9,0,5,17,104,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755181794303717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144079919139884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21997563596979589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429307604432265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396804292634799,0.14497223035647225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132849141539956,0.0,0.13414790915593985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322617365741618,0.0,0.0,0.11448295263049355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351018855956618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26142401520309544,0.18468183401861607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629755340836488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753122118307378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761409945281682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25930975048217825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536135342722383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262964588836865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854296185005943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255952380507658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20634271656909686,0.0,0.2850553467175705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746582496821355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799445313455415,0.12339001850985908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475841219849519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10279000974301387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767032370007285,0.13484278877874478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469214392334528,0.09148846312292896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182278433659717,0.0,0.19436970381756288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478161487343172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537054344115986,0.0,0.12252011156792225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762388719058031,0.0,0.0,0.15739967620312756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410031992673146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HoneyBeeControversy,2019/08/19,"Realizing other people's perception of calories Was feeling really good about my intake lately and decided to treat myself at ihop with my partner and roommate. I ordered a shake and fries, which is normally way out of my comfort zone. Roommate starts lecturing me about how that's not a ""real dinner"" and I'm eating ""basically nothing,"" and I'm like ""that's like, 1000 calories my dude."" (it really was. 650 milkshake, 350 fries--no way was I planning to finish it, but still). He's like ""no way, that's not even 500""-- I wasn't about to get into a calorie argument and tip off suspicion for my roommate who is already getting sus about my eating lately, but like...is this how people really think? shits wild. ",2.7202487562189086,5.459698686567164,4.273104477611945,80.33781592039804,80.7910447761194,6.856915422885572,26.097512437810945,8.021203637495839,2.114996616915423,560,23,95,11,15,186,81,134,0.114,0.785,0.10099999999999999,-0.6879,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,1,8,8,1,1,3,0,6,4,1,2,0,22,13,10,0,1,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,9,9,3,0,5,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,1,11,6,15,9,0,14,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,8,59,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18962208185932375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35165628763561474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349413184346738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688397062740938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955138920638214,0.0,0.0,0.14412543887520662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876704081126478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33579586222700203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835993938099827,0.16487847912708686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23825485024638865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19558366943066754,0.3302420222762748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638419212983386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216243417659093,0.0,0.13722612340186668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11010370235556924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091793133732773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cornelius_Rex,2019/08/19,"A story of dieting and hunger and binging Can you all provide some input?

Three years ago I was over 300lbs and I just had enough.  I spent 22 months dieting down to 160lbs as a 5'11"" male.  I didn't realize how lean I was due to the excess skin.  You could see my quad feathering, what's refered to the 'christmas tree' in my back, and you could see everything - every fiber - in my arms, shoulders, traps, and chest.  You could see the different heads in my calves.  If it wasn't for the skin curtain I was probably damn close to stage ready.

It destroyed my hormone profile.  After working out hard - hard, 3+ hours a day, stacking more weight on the bar for every exercise every day and refusing to quit - finally I just met my match.  I was working on my 8th set of triple at just 275 for squats on a 30-second rest timer - so I had been in the gym maybe 20 minutes and only working hard for 4 or 5 minutes and...  My strength vanished.  I got two reps, set the bar on the pins, sat down and just couldnt stand up for 10 minutes.

I took a week off.  I did not recover.  My bloodwork showed my hormone profile is now basically garbage and I'm now on treatment for Test as it was 200.  I feel loads better and my strength has bounced back.  But I'm mentally worn out.  It has been 34 months of counting calories every day, daily weigh ins, constant restriction.  I binge and restrict because I have this mentality I can't do this ever again so I need to enjoy the binge when it happens and I mentally berate myself as a failure.

Today I am 200lbs and maybe 15% bodyfat and I feel I am a fatty.  I caved.  I said fuck it.  10 days.  *Eat anything and everything you want.*  Ifeel no remorse.  Zero.  Not this time.  I'm clear of 8000 calories (maybe, just a guess at this point) and have only stopped because today is leg day and a disdended stomach would suck, but I have two pounds of 90/10 bison waiting for me for dinner.

My plan is not to restrict anymore but on September first I plan to clean up my diet and get bsck to nutrient-dense foods but this time no counting.  If I want to eat 3lbs of ribeye and potatoes, so be it.  If I want 2lbs of salmon and steamed vegetables and rice, *so be it.*  if I want a huge bowl of oats and full fat greek yogurt with berries and real cocoa and real honey and real maple syrup, get it, brother.  I'm gonna weigh myself on Mondays.  I wont even consider restriction until I start to feel like the weight is detrimental.  I'm gonna continue to lift and do cardio because *I like lifting heavy shit and I like doing cardio.*

I just want to heal my broken mind and my relationship with food.",1.8771969585117392,4.08840879078695,3.175081573896353,90.14417558688913,80.0940499040307,6.003853536099218,24.798501402628087,7.1686216300943375,1.0780272848073231,2024,77,415,26,52,656,263,521,0.08900000000000001,0.8440000000000001,0.067,-0.7729,2,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,5,0,10,19,12,5,0,20,0,36,31,10,1,3,85,70,48,0,15,18,1,10,3,1,4,5,1,2,1,15,34,17,7,5,5,1,1,10,5,0,5,19,15,56,7,58,41,7,63,0,0,3,1,12,26,4,7,35,259,71,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108908336032994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953307077022985,0.0,0.0,0.06599463092077815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233318392454285,0.0,0.14666055856295945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092701266800892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666359078942616,0.0,0.19209039542790265,0.0,0.0,0.2585995392834271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378794929160525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412144601790546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286410169750535,0.0,0.052968826913163965,0.07254204485366691,0.2702749944415316,0.0,0.14415032834803482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164880933330555,0.057292173907338866,0.0,0.08785100579884125,0.0,0.06821483794497861,0.19394710170056007,0.0,0.0,0.07414008506390578,0.08379839822915403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641402189215667,0.0,0.08834514429386695,0.0,0.07091722565232095,0.0,0.2155201013585868,0.0,0.08230442717847138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897709250947534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753942218565795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24170355480095854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424566904553645,0.0,0.08097529017901615,0.0,0.12802366691894326,0.0,0.0,0.05946445846057045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198563200958053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581132091512263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646505637133177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529851923304355,0.0,0.2738424629936709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861006950940783,0.0,0.0,0.07628494109636008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19171794033749706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232023622180948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056763275799239135,0.0,0.0,0.06704760549204743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352608620696926,0.0,0.15203322138090514,0.0,0.08910091749763828,0.0,0.0,0.15668004864481527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365089523253443,0.0,0.06432854597474695,0.19531470802005166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515134358374687,0.0,0.0,0.05696907218370852,0.0,0.0,0.051643716796916775
EDAnonymous,CatsAreKids,2019/08/19,"I’m considering quitting therapy. I have a group therapy session for eating disorders tonight, and it’ll be the second one that I’ve attended. After tonight, I think I’m going to be done, I don’t think I’m going to go anymore, to any sort of therapy. Because truly, who the hell cares? Do I want to get better? No, not really.

Maybe I’m scared, I don’t know.

I feel like I’m being pushed more and more to go to inpatient care, and I can’t.",1.0066666666666677,2.8953645053763424,3.91956989247312,85.36602150537635,81.36559139784947,7.574193548387097,24.31182795698925,8.515128840125781,1.763486021505377,341,13,73,8,9,122,57,93,0.10800000000000001,0.716,0.175,0.6365,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,1,3,0,10,1,0,0,0,10,27,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,4,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,1,1,7,4,9,22,2,9,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,40,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546585845989475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839019212465944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350495039090364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016914566895784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462329461150539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945988297201047,0.0,0.0,0.17375838774303082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737418256273129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585303437086686,0.12130098936287195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871044611311435,0.0,0.3859917601126363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933144356296188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295285509279811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705810661987803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505692426805815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805970007507564,0.0,0.0,0.10877449347849086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999358554674898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825232951761153,0.0,0.0,0.21759449699252847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014900100191758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dontyell_atme,2019/08/19,"Ruining everything in the evening TW calories!!/restricting/weight

I can't believe I ALWAYS fuck everything up in the evening, the whole day is going fine, staying under my limit and in the evening I eat and destroy everything. 
I have SUCH a low bmr and tdee, I really really can't afford to eat more than my limit. It takes so long to lose weight, even when I medium restrict, and I hate hate hate myself for not staying. under. my. Goddamn. Calorielimit. 
I calculated how much weight I would lose with how many calories and eating 100 calories more or less makes such a huge difference. 
And I eat so little and still it takes forever to lose weight and I just wish I could fast but then I would binge and I hate my body so much and I am so afraid of gaining ajanndiwnsmlqox",2.558549284578696,5.313279155405407,3.432321144674088,85.96069157392687,81.77027027027026,6.7255961844197145,23.570747217806037,7.928766900206844,1.5145424483306842,617,22,116,12,17,196,83,148,0.18600000000000005,0.742,0.07200000000000001,-0.9324,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,6,15,13,6,1,6,0,8,9,1,3,0,25,18,20,0,4,4,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,11,7,3,0,0,0,1,3,12,0,0,0,3,20,1,13,15,6,18,0,5,0,1,0,9,1,1,6,84,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036459488830605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881569863100683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728167531734063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711347627394599,0.0,0.0,0.0622878912583755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090842947167344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953131088731908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551680130593577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26040707579801586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928920695573778,0.0,0.0,0.05489020927266209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814219266844318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680130050984223,0.0,0.08547270489687724,0.0,0.32415421656900434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06446974346848669,0.09791976118543708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199888573299094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374678068402048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20588874663349693,0.0771311183220175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523643397763436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704471372232644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783120436295206,0.11106540954735768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721924575357486,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,QuasarCzar,2019/08/19,"Getting sent pictures of myself My mom, bless her heart, takes pictures of me sometimes but most times they're not flattering angles. Or the pictures themselves aren't what I would consider flattering. But what do I know, I have a very distorted image of myself. 

She'll send them to me anyway double chin and stomach rolls or not. And I'll open the pictures like the big dumb dumb I am and analyze them for all imperfections. Successfully triggering myself hardcore. 

And I remember older pictures, where I look sharper and more defined in the face. I remember friends playfully jealous comments about how I fit into such a small dress. Another poking my hip bone as we lay next to each other. I remember an older shopkeeper whispering to my mom 'shes so skinny'. I was never dangerously underweight, probably not even underweight at all. 

But these things stand out when I compare them to now, when none of that happens anymore. Anyway I guess it's just tough not to fall back into old habits. I don't mean to romanticize any of it, just wanted to get some stuff off my chest.",5.167192211055276,7.260277562814071,5.685750628140706,76.45113850502514,69.85427135678394,8.995100502512562,31.53297738693467,9.516144504307137,3.243293718592965,861,38,145,20,16,277,132,199,0.125,0.764,0.111,-0.4684,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,3,1,14,13,4,0,7,0,9,7,7,2,3,37,19,15,0,2,11,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,9,11,1,0,5,1,0,3,8,5,0,0,2,2,29,8,21,15,8,25,1,0,1,0,15,11,2,5,11,109,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136426937153196,0.17171949698987,0.0,0.0,0.16240861987622107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592342785627436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081637360675057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652267590883015,0.0,0.17111853059908633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040310550794386,0.0,0.14481483780398868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940596188462271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999971146725425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000619596918074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751944517856746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783856173476577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835938509944328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263039099752027,0.0,0.1741635169929946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171841433125145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656391657951653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5565337349091712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196552345732762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874691414288394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312918946065728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10879667846343964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549136249988688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512139960452466,0.09659149876533588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633234199789187,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shonamairead,2019/08/19,Browsing through the plus sized underwear section on ASOS Because I truly believe I have the same body as these models even though I’m well below the first plus size :) body dysmorphia sure is fun !,8.372499999999999,8.524800138888892,6.835555555555558,78.11500000000002,61.5,9.422222222222222,37.444444444444436,8.841846274778883,3.2790444444444447,159,7,27,2,2,47,30,36,0.0,0.6759999999999999,0.324,0.9168,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,2,2,2,0,1,4,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,6,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904420751270765,0.0,0.0,0.3493952236611472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6889392875076187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048290966186022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637850306777676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922812355491725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046879955103309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27883207656875925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,razrusha,2019/08/19,You know it’s hitting you bad when you get dizzy because the YouTube video you’re watching moved too fast. That’s it that’s the post. I’m 30h deep into a fast which would be fine except I heavy restricted for 3 days prior immediately following a 48h fast,5.89551282051282,5.785493423076925,6.1469230769230805,81.86474358974361,66.69230769230771,9.241025641025642,30.794871794871803,8.841846274778883,2.181402564102564,206,7,43,3,3,66,40,52,0.16399999999999998,0.799,0.037000000000000005,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,3,4,0,11,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,6,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38882976009417664,0.2838788867006897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003300275100597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433025916751282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559297695385146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4949523041522289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460000684220417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308111658583349,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,youcantbemysenpai,2019/08/19,"It’s 87 F and I’m FREEZING The ac is at 79 F and I’m bundled up in an oversized sweater and am wearing two pairs of bike shorts. To make matters worse, I don’t have energy to get up and get a blanket :/",-1.1970212765957449,0.442611000000003,1.884510638297872,98.294,87.93617021276596,4.611063829787233,24.293617021276606,5.6839178017228535,0.25710553191489405,155,7,40,1,5,55,37,47,0.16699999999999998,0.764,0.07,-0.6633,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,1,0,6,9,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,21,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561377431622476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552685056218146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5199126146397129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.542389134000804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the-worthless-one,2019/08/19,"Uhhhh new problems for new people (me, send help) Uhm well I’m afraid that I am developing an eating disorder, which is mildly ironic considering I’ve been very close to underweight my whole life up till very recently, with a BMI of 17. I had gained a bit of weight (mostly muscle) since I started taking a karate class, and I was feeling better about how I looked than I had in a long time. And then woopedy doo I see a cute girl in my home room class who looks dangerously thin and I have suddenly found myself almost incapable of eating the last 4 days. Don’t know if I should be concerned, but I’ve had enough mental health issues in the past that if I’m not careful I’ll get locked in a ward again since my parents keep a pretty close eye on me. How fix pls help",6.586346153846152,5.485167891025643,6.991923076923076,79.66557692307694,65.6025641025641,10.107692307692307,29.115384615384606,9.188382445141503,2.107707692307692,605,15,126,9,8,198,112,156,0.07,0.809,0.121,0.8215,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,1,10,0,11,6,1,2,0,20,24,10,0,4,4,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,4,6,3,1,3,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,6,7,15,4,15,16,4,24,0,0,4,0,6,10,0,4,13,70,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935507587050853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319136118599282,0.162836327392758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520713135294273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619127598638187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094213580120649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30524128838237585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411480812833722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541618354786105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353844709507093,0.0,0.0,0.07792622981476707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854254909226684,0.0,0.0,0.19994807849459856,0.0,0.14961251148194013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567686771726225,0.0,0.1325739432364875,0.0,0.0,0.08197052855124773,0.12157951384451822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535109832881444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319956155191329,0.25050172769638146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031103362211454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28810558432119554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561663509336289,0.0,0.14238331205622642,0.10340383495135362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517421122136917,0.0,0.14271917374580628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727048653941527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885554373405607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467616265090403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055711843769253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214441219457744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697225056151983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24613351228791774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18162803997462906,0.13410636211182322,0.0,0.0,0.1665238769409447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway71871127198,2019/08/19,"when you’re already feeling faint and then there’s no seats on your hot, overcrowded bus so you have to stand having vision without black spots is overrated anyway",4.7650000000000015,7.699797500000002,4.043333333333333,83.885,74.0,6.666666666666668,26.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.8506666666666671,135,5,22,2,3,40,29,30,0.07200000000000001,0.8140000000000001,0.114,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7119284023938459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32620233780733576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6218922613073545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PiperLoves,2019/08/19,Just brought home food from mcdonalds and its horrible But you know im gonna keep eating it cause the feeling of eating somehow overrides the fact that its so appaling despite the fact that i want to gag with every fucking bite,5.813787878787878,7.037615227272728,5.684545454545457,80.43015151515155,67.18181818181819,8.593939393939394,35.12121212121212,8.841846274778883,3.0970393939393936,186,9,33,3,3,58,37,44,0.129,0.81,0.061,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,0,0,4,0,1,2,12,7,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948491116040832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5873872418717695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24182714597000166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451261861769515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.347066321620414,0.0,0.0,0.2653458224653641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287904958515302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100313873591753,0.0,0.0,0.2551170035824064,0.0,0.0,0.15773895771325985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929212428363513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wiisportsresot,2019/08/19,tips on how to get vomit smell off hands?? only thing i’ve found that works is soaking my hand in soapy water for a few minutes but that takes a looong time and if anyone catches me it’s hard to explain. does anyone know a faster/more discreet way? i’m tired of my hands always smelling like vomit :(,1.8756284153005431,4.037247737704924,2.4963114754098363,95.2732103825137,79.81967213114754,4.066666666666666,20.002732240437158,3.1291,-0.5261169398907102,236,6,49,0,6,73,52,61,0.151,0.767,0.08199999999999999,-0.6694,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,7,3,1,0,7,7,4,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,7,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551103428117199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42875459110044617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26830202755468524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361639348155663,0.0,0.0,0.16018244336541548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746475442611329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16849576296074345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978609166229076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23317816335027464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305201470391373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368709017430384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877712848483476,0.3523841128748633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433596401209199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22320371086535504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yieldtotraffic,2019/08/19,"My friend lost weight and now Im conflicted One of my closest friends (who’s struggling w an ED)  lost 12 lbs in three weeks and she’s boasting about how skinny and happy she is. I’m on the lower side of healthy weight and I’ve been eating pretty “normal” the past month and avoiding weighing myself . But after hearing this, it makes me want to spiral. I know that losing weight won’t make me happy, but god I wish I was skinny. I feel so fat and disgusting compared to her and everyone around me. I know other people who are going through ED too and it’s all so triggering but this really felt like a big kick in the face.  Maybe the reason I wasn’t happy before was because I wasn’t skinny enough in the first place? Part of me wants to slip back into this but another part of me knows it’s wrong.",2.520435540069688,4.260685085365857,3.6566202090592337,89.71085365853662,76.1951219512195,6.149128919860628,21.470383275261323,6.868970318607317,0.4648480836236937,630,16,130,6,14,204,104,164,0.11199999999999999,0.723,0.166,0.8563,1,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,4,8,13,1,2,7,0,8,10,5,5,1,31,23,15,0,4,4,0,5,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,10,10,9,2,6,0,0,1,3,7,0,3,8,6,18,6,16,14,4,18,0,3,0,0,8,10,0,0,8,84,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873572832684613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929190503911324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440304964000013,0.0,0.0748398471146744,0.0,0.10446877841786913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562502197494166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685489738552772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173126147729398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620765281503988,0.0,0.11787907447403548,0.0,0.0,0.10442864992695836,0.0,0.0,0.18970459520907648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697733881453377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920749110767313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837144227352974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13261336669760554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20241461117766613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059979536915138174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373489508803986,0.2680373286112636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16390072088493288,0.0,0.12333961676964207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799435942241344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202891677361592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831925679804286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265897294357155,0.11719847469338085,0.08511370861326155,0.0,0.12826919609086124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490188520950905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865002042087671,0.12622867290847112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834653698600068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448266173813766,0.0,0.0984792079008611,0.4485047216383544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118018554773948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423043002900192,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adendorffie,2019/08/19,the constant fight  i am honestly so done with the constant fight between 'i want to recover and get over this shit and be healthy' or 'i want my ED to become bad enough that I actually lose weight and become beautiful and skinny'.,9.05227272727273,7.175521500000002,8.812727272727274,71.06409090909091,61.27272727272727,12.436363636363636,40.18181818181819,11.20814326018867,4.393854545454547,182,8,34,4,2,59,32,44,0.261,0.535,0.204,-0.6652,0,0,0,0,2,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,8,6,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,5,1,5,4,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,2,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.22526117400608134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927371657786538,0.0,0.5098771396494207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4989001787098386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362238378233905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23851374475104065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060149905888748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582447606460956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23694829736680945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723043379734676,0.0,0.0,0.2810942341768069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nervouslynervosa,2019/08/19,"Anyone else have a bigger problem w macros than calories? Maybe this is the product of attempting recovery so many times but at this point i have a bigger issue with the thought of eating 30g of sugar than say, 500 calories with 20g of protein.  I used to be wayyy more freaked out abt calories so maybe this is a good thing? but now i’m way too freaked out about eating over my limit of carbs and fats. idk.",3.759196787148596,4.871344698795183,4.164036144578315,89.84717871485947,71.89156626506025,6.497188755020081,27.086345381526108,6.42735559955562,0.983475502008032,322,11,67,2,6,101,58,83,0.124,0.83,0.046,-0.664,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,5,0,5,4,1,1,0,11,8,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,1,15,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,2,40,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625135795000265,0.23814191946319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756476936735131,0.19415721968679464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949430026165472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24258626177489215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23563756185912285,0.4669945790477738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197121754806292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22239470353087948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482983942800368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440962643553768,0.0,0.0,0.18451564499084605,0.1355260640276158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073639390039325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844843042747668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,06mi,2019/08/19,Lost weight after binge? I eat around 700-800 calories a day normally and I weigh myself every morning. Yesterday I binged and ate 1500+ calories I think (not sure bc I feel ashamed when I binge so I stop tracking) and this morning I weighed myself and I lost 0.5 lbs??? I usually lose around 0.2-0.3 lbs a day. Can anyone explain the science behind this or should I be expecting a gain/plateau in the next couple of days.,1.1827272727272735,3.797394216867474,2.2804381161007683,92.15226725082148,88.7590361445783,4.9458926615553125,24.41292442497262,6.574015621080383,0.9459975903614466,332,14,65,4,11,105,58,83,0.188,0.7809999999999999,0.03,-0.8985,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,4,5,0,1,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,16,9,7,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,13,1,6,4,0,12,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,9,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441767372857592,0.0,0.0,0.3677290414194812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22853274522542966,0.0,0.3996039263194357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21134213413433495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401898263249227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443290462924117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310655946071437,0.4509259394809893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21965779046783485,0.0,0.2023654923433472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267681192304793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19466164511946227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234258706632002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22747479316988065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515102579359362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katebishophawkguy,2019/08/19,How to stop stomach from growling? It’s literally the most embarrassing thing for me and I keep having to go out more lately and I’m like oh god clench clench,0.07666666666666799,2.1709850000000017,1.9775000000000027,90.38416666666667,105.25,4.633333333333333,17.833333333333332,6.42735559955562,0.19048333333333334,128,4,26,2,6,42,28,32,0.147,0.721,0.133,-0.1263,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,7,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29291343634369704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581107929163274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5813931310874069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517981817297016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308970940548288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34240855328102165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kkardash,2019/08/19,I just tried a microwaved Quest bar for the first time. And oh my god I’m???? Full???????? What is this sorcery??????,-3.6309090909090886,-8.402823181818174,-1.8592727272727243,112.31109090909092,189.9090909090909,0.8800000000000001,11.290909090909093,3.1291,-2.300796363636364,78,2,20,0,10,24,21,22,0.0,0.855,0.145,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6889113637618749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722666324306407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5498775870795026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sleepiestever,2019/08/19,"I’m coming to terms with my disordered eating and food obsession First time poster, let me know if I need any TWs

I am in my mid-20s and have obsessed about my weight for as long as I can remember. I grew up poor and fending for myself food-wise and didn’t do a great job at it. I was very malnourished and underweight, doctors worried and accused me of an ED. I denied it because I hated being skinny. I wanted nothing more than to gain weight and develop curves and develop like my school mates. I was given a lot of the usual “eat a cheeseburger” type treatment that some of you may be aware of. Classic bullying about my weight but it fucked with me bad back then. I continued to be 5’5/5’6 and weighing 100lb. I felt and looked sick and hated it. 


BUT I didn’t eat. I didn’t have an appetite and even if I did I would deny myself food as... punishment? I can’t explain it but I would just suffer though it on purpose. I still don’t understand it but i thought of food as a reward and I felt like a failure who didn’t deserve it. I was in high school when this started. 


Mid-20s come, I put on weight from regular metabolism slowing but I also am diagnosed bipolar 2 and with medication I am feeling better and start eating. I get up to 135 and now I hover around 130. This is perfectly normal but I feel L A R G E. 


I have begun binge eating now. I sit and eat until I’m sick and then feel bad and work out and then think about food all day. I feel fat. I feel like being 5’7 and having wide hips makes me look so big and a lot of weight goes to my face and I hate it. I have trouble monitoring food intake, I think about my weight and food all the time. I feel like my life has revolved around either feeling too fat or too skinny always and I’m always chasing something better. 


Anyway, rant over.",1.9346359300476976,3.855581643243245,3.483847376788553,89.4677901430843,78.51351351351352,6.298887122416534,23.314785373608903,7.285733465282438,0.8823672496025439,1408,46,296,18,34,465,189,370,0.188,0.7140000000000001,0.098,-0.9895,1,0,1,1,0,0,36.0,0,1,0,7,19,20,5,2,11,0,30,33,6,1,3,73,63,46,0,7,11,0,15,4,1,3,9,0,0,0,13,33,23,0,16,0,1,4,6,11,0,1,12,17,50,9,38,43,8,40,0,1,2,1,4,14,1,7,25,200,63,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05025353739797525,0.1045766855903944,0.0,0.0,0.04273370531088089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188276319594474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0483204773677758,0.104938410884711,0.03830699487466707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115465824095408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082630793378562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04052693371545665,0.0,0.0,0.06378180026762872,0.0,0.0,0.07202067480396944,0.0643199302109367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38580921194696893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04150556770603005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224183688450817,0.08978655340187372,0.1206734988324681,0.0,0.0,0.05345211022933823,0.5319090039460757,0.0,0.0,0.058095043815025615,0.032831575608224715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692818899871164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18612599690011825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639445461957884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06235951500479552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03453550379857392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425868449015956,0.04438611438553819,0.12280280635381405,0.0,0.0,0.05561187858275348,0.10554041216165884,0.0,0.0,0.10684951785441724,0.0,0.0,0.04194653194088555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330520802766805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046595445860709385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061570362709139084,0.060297169267879314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631720745636772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118605383152936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719591279824033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048377698803356066,0.0,0.0,0.08895768036410333,0.0,0.05018451670917863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053132965687687,0.06174048724345205,0.04988834981062594,0.07328561966658613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654191926382142,0.0,0.0,0.06920994958415587,0.051850006330393085,0.037064964077511794,0.0,0.0,0.4591369099602462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04574864358008929,0.06381759365894778,0.0,0.08928019820212353,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,junebug-2019,2019/08/19,"Pigged out So I ate wing and fries for lunch and now I am freaking out that I ate over 700 calories in one me. That's over half my daily limit.....wtf. I ate like I was going to die, I inhaled them. I am such a pig. Now that big lunch makes me think I am not really that sick and I dont need to recover bc I am not sick.",-2.5179729729729705,-0.8087554999999966,0.6905945945945966,103.29156756756758,97.24324324324324,4.0410810810810815,12.805405405405404,5.6839178017228535,-1.3301524324324323,239,4,66,2,10,84,47,74,0.096,0.7859999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.1571,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,6,7,0,1,0,10,13,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,4,1,14,1,8,9,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513263429593855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5096643335897594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24714660976974415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124554876603932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29027906328091224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224505519708916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946791273998894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785888204948765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786470997233895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_awkward_drawkwa_,2019/08/19,Gained 4.2 pounds since last Friday?? I know I probably didn’t gain that and that it’s water weight but I’m low key freaking out. I only see my bf on the weekends and he always wants to go out. I love him but also hate that we always eat high calorie food!! Plz just kill me now.,-1.1406666666666678,0.9285676000000008,0.9733333333333364,99.95833333333334,98.0,3.333333333333334,13.333333333333336,5.033348758259628,-1.298166666666666,216,4,50,1,9,71,50,60,0.251,0.599,0.15,-0.892,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,1,0,0,2,3,5,2,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,10,8,5,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,2,8,1,4,7,0,9,0,1,1,1,5,5,0,0,3,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19851430265821216,0.4131046069429669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540074809800114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30016805202263885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107828427503086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450817354977564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622750465265565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746364421331092,0.0,0.13642405706150673,0.202345535979618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22404275304400934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18879472399437508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26764047837210203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781201569676185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20534344971566676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464160709449957,0.0,0.0,0.302284668982914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strippingforfun,2019/08/19,oops i did it again eating 4 giant cucumbers so u can finally take a shit and then weighing yourself and crying bc u gained 10lbs of water/food/bloat,4.91,5.746114666666667,5.993333333333332,78.81000000000002,69.0,8.666666666666668,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.254333333333334,120,4,22,2,2,40,28,30,0.22899999999999998,0.6829999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296994693146015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40028095352254106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285251589269813,0.0,0.0,0.4730236826768133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015468233867716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941231999338015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,allevana,2019/08/19,"My miscarriage happened because I have an ED and it's all my fault TW Miscarriage, exact weights, abortion

I can get really long winded sometimes so I'll try to keep it short.

I'm 18 right now. Turning 19. I had a miscarriage exactly 2 months and 3 weeks ago. I didn't know I was pregnant until after I passed the tissue and my feelings were confirmed. It was one of the most painful things I've ever gone through and I feel like nobody actually gets it. Because so many people, friends I loved were 100% there for me for the emotional part (so grateful for that) but I was crying on the floor in pain the night it happened, knowing oh god oh fuck this isn't a period and something is wrong. I was at the doctor's weekly for 3 weeks, totaling 5 appts because my hCG wasn't going down normally and I was still bleeding. for weeks. nobody was there for that, what happened to this shitty body in the real world which I feel was my fault.

The reason I'm telling you beautiful ppl is because you guys understand what I've gone through with my ED. You just know. Some backstory - in 2015-2016 summer was the worst part of my anorexia. I was 42kg/92.5lb at 5'3. Underweight. And I'd started at 55kg and lost that much weight in 3 months (this episode was all in all 5 months long). A lot of things triggered me into that mental state - in 2015 my then boyfriend passed away due to a freak football training accident, one of my friends that I just loved so damn much moved away, I was really unhappy with my appearance because a crush didn't like me back.. because I was too fat in my mind lol etc. Anyway - I seriously went HAM this one summer and i've never gone that low ever again. I didn't eat for 3 and a half WEEKS at one point. I know these days that's a good old extended fast for certain subreddits but I'm in awe that I didn't die then. Snapped out of it because I needed great grades.

Because I needed great grades I fucking gained it all back! Lol! and got up to 68-70kg at the end of 2018 through a combination of bulimia binge purge cycles, just straight fucken binge eating whole pantries, and happy relationship weight and Implanon birth control which was bad lmao. So just to clarify, no restriction or anorexic type behaviours. Also I'm really academic and my brain needed food to do well in what I studied in my final year to get into University. 

After that year ended I got back to a normal ish weight very slowly which was a huge relief.  About 60kg (yes that seems kind of high for an ED sufferer but it's a healthy weight and i've never had body dysmorphia so I could live with that). In April I noticed a bit of weight gain. towards beginning of May I noticed weight gain in my stomach. I dismissed pregnancy because I was on birth control, and I don't know why but I was really badly triggered. I have PTSD from an abortion experience that just sucked at the end of 2017 so when I saw my stomach not looking good it just fucking sent me. I went into restrict mode for the first time in like 4 years. lost 7kg in less than 30 days because I miscarried on the 27th of May. I basically didn't eat at all to get rid of that belly weight and my baby died because of that. 

I've got a lot of guilt over it but I'm healing. I'm really young, I have a lot of time to have a kid but I loved that baby so much even though I didn't think or know I was pregnant until it fell out of me. I'm still hurting over it because my boyfriend tried his best to be supportive but made some things incredibly difficult around the time it just happened. Really, really sucked. And I felt like if I could just lose more weight he'd be a more supportive person through this and not make me feel weird and skanky for wanting a family young at the time (he actually thinks it's okay that I really want a family and baby this going but his wording at the time fucked me up about it).

I just can't believe my terrible ED brain and behaviour killed something I loved so much even though my baby barely existed. I know I would have loved them (in my heart I feel she was a girl) so much and I would have been holding her around December had I taken better care of my body. It's so much my fault. I need to get better from this cycling, restricting, binging, puking, so I can make a nicer home for any other children I can bring into the world. This can't happen again. My heart won't be able to deal with it.",2.4629316647919026,4.427747080989878,3.6498367547806563,88.6876460208099,77.0652418447694,6.874696287964006,24.610812710911137,7.822599999999999,1.2680943644544436,3461,120,718,54,80,1123,362,889,0.139,0.696,0.166,0.9797,0,0,2,0,0,0,84.0,0,3,1,12,46,56,8,1,40,4,58,37,10,8,13,124,137,54,3,13,22,0,15,4,2,5,6,0,1,5,52,35,14,7,18,0,0,14,17,29,1,6,46,17,93,27,103,80,28,127,0,6,2,9,26,53,7,13,63,461,145,5,0.041725070887067166,0.0,0.08143530054388326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03698675779466837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033367524113534705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028374479016853364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07428831863645077,0.0,0.0,0.07840415520748469,0.09625201193170513,0.06967738266665159,0.3052225912157987,0.0,0.0,0.04700986651367875,0.043787887663673,0.07380486889538213,0.04555297071006363,0.1390414425348806,0.0,0.09315795683882266,0.0,0.0,0.04254149059956625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359642990927476,0.06662814780680865,0.0,0.04583303111105522,0.05381843778633609,0.043016715942851814,0.0,0.0,0.08660807208329696,0.0,0.0,0.042707378095552175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808549257850846,0.0,0.046935088706945724,0.11086808444630276,0.0,0.04653448356345438,0.05511803160478432,0.07548543084548484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040815125740928916,0.07866936679222898,0.0,0.10548724769302567,0.02980839897878416,0.04006261141647728,0.04570777565142973,0.0,0.03549132398127699,0.05045412133967369,0.0,0.06447337252766919,0.15429662274503492,0.10899813699850262,0.0,0.04742663867951239,0.06999401965498442,0.1001140525384592,0.09200407591086347,0.0,0.04131438018449645,0.18448671193135374,0.044417113833823484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888881979911623,0.0,0.0440848282575436,0.04185364815406038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466755136304777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03708716015562717,0.046162608852973776,0.04345024050198088,0.16051705428260854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153904808272702,0.0,0.03684400203201593,0.07385074944729189,0.035038550817503566,0.04667968146283885,0.09109568758642514,0.10641948949658836,0.1882925276555489,0.03948127094335064,0.05570361763520535,0.042302672870649816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04204905761275536,0.0,0.042130427115277376,0.0,0.09991366050498206,0.044347147051967996,0.18403636830109635,0.12375444546522728,0.06436189387426725,0.0,0.0,0.03915615249369376,0.08176342079588818,0.0,0.09500853951366747,0.043783442983570335,0.0,0.11309595154559518,0.0,0.08879683452014514,0.0,0.0,0.09036837138443726,0.0,0.028926910476714387,0.036432722487577035,0.0,0.0,0.03944367872305764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04877437500978896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474922654500208,0.21384119073406005,0.04290032217264802,0.0,0.044797110960842254,0.0,0.03563298255564132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037984937451518784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424399614278067,0.041267162014609414,0.0,0.0295332199316274,0.0,0.06664339101776631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946982319563665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03646955106224112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316084919118642,0.053471481279825664,0.08198934059357471,0.0,0.12165112189190246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665716845346516,0.045384895469404565,0.0,0.04343727030709553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03442755328475695,0.04922105573700382,0.0,0.1673466752406379,0.4572890598681396,0.037515849707040014,0.07735911747581692,0.03765038655596248,0.046584551557224935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05928058641480916,0.045619814903645535,0.0,0.08060873292325745
EDAnonymous,fatnewlife,2019/08/19,"Not really ED related but I need somewhere to vent So I have this friend. And he was like a father figure to me. And he knew I had troubles with schizophrenia.

He thought it would be amusing to ply me with crystal meth and play mind games with me. I had a massive psychotic episode and was seconds from jumping in front of a train.

He doesn't think he did anything wrong. I want to get back at him. I want him to apologize. I don't know how to do it.",0.3799613152804646,2.629916957446809,1.927833655705996,96.46136363636364,86.87234042553192,5.120309477756287,23.439071566731144,6.574015621080383,0.5607148936170208,350,14,79,4,11,113,63,94,0.081,0.723,0.19699999999999998,0.8664,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,1,0,20,19,7,0,4,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,5,3,0,2,3,2,0,1,7,0,12,4,13,10,0,5,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,0,2,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775432946617042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25933871076538395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26057285932712626,0.0,0.17620890675040005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535398486621868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647723864344926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405451096385447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500803699657417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216062881182376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161080803328776,0.0,0.26775357005740924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978594799577675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395859142945636,0.3687502342557203,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Appolinaris9,2019/08/19,"How do I tell him I don't wanna meet cause I'm too fat? Ok so I met this guy on a dating app and we talked last week on monday, he asked me out and I asked if this week was ok too (because I was in binge mode and wanted to fast or whatever till I see him lol). We didn't text again and he texted me yesterday if tomorrow or so is fine. I binged even more, I look SO swollen and I literally can't let anyone see me. I gained back like 40ish lbs from my LW and due to purge-face, I look really bad. I had two dated in the last weeks and althought they went fine, I didn't hear from them again. I SWEAR it's because I'm suddenly so chubby!  
The worst? He's a doc/researcher and is currently doing some scientific research on why obesity is correleating with gut biomes and basically why being a fat fuck like i am now is a no-go even in rational medical aspects. Ugh.  


I can't bear being dumped because how I look. I don't want to be mean, so what do I say/do? Just delete the convo? Act like I'm mad because he didn't text me the rest of the week and now I have some other date or so? I can't delay it to next week again, I really just want to lose like 20lbs and then think about going outside again. Help me ppl :(",0.4883018867924562,2.1538325471698165,2.7930566037735858,93.9175094339623,82.01886792452831,6.353207547169813,18.901886792452828,7.404127859558343,0.18290490566037754,935,22,228,14,25,320,143,265,0.107,0.778,0.115,-0.547,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,2,0,2,2,22,15,3,0,9,3,24,7,3,3,0,34,44,26,0,6,7,0,0,4,0,0,5,1,0,1,6,15,3,1,2,0,0,3,8,7,0,1,8,6,34,8,19,32,5,38,0,1,5,1,19,7,1,7,32,136,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846437159095818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263381493182547,0.0,0.0,0.09308299270925813,0.10107496725411913,0.29517338560153833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435572226717667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990994570556535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119123989342942,0.0,0.0,0.13759546550243626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986241343909773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643656641849652,0.0,0.08113989125399848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973502042396412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378583544153765,0.0,0.2365633236920704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30496441522100765,0.13542837272925606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186320767856366,0.0,0.1219490894605111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874221785783366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551004825657126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626693638949113,0.0,0.0,0.19292860358798986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729855591682007,0.10580646224969886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756646436110093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825209057872813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142022162614297,0.0,0.4855107661249362,0.0,0.0,0.11221819715995228,0.21846466917134627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SaintAelphaba,2019/08/19,"Diet products I’m not sure if this question is allowed - apologies if not. I’ve tried to find an answer elsewhere and just can’t. 

I came across weight loss pills today (wasn’t even looking 😬) and I’m really tempted to get some. They supposedly ‘fill you up’. 

They contain glucomannan and ‘KiOnutrime-CsG’ (Chitosan) and instructions are to take them 30 minutes before a meal. Question is: if I took them and then didn’t have a meal, would anything terrible happen?",4.0446511627906965,6.538813174418608,4.518779069767444,81.8121220930233,74.23255813953489,6.625581395348838,30.51744186046513,7.645422480735847,2.2157720930232556,367,17,63,5,8,116,64,86,0.09300000000000001,0.907,0.0,-0.7478,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,4,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,8,5,0,1,1,21,16,9,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,4,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,4,2,7,1,5,11,1,7,0,1,1,0,8,2,0,6,2,38,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838715871770968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051401448812036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757297112088941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592301513819701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034148638267248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595362605886518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318502285732216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20244531919719955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401264439266668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444113378556115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272137413624531,0.0,0.1812611156952232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22851433820930814,0.0,0.26784721143022794,0.16367655460569747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935688058199101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125533104166013,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notasskinnyuwu,2019/08/19,"Today’s the day I stop bingeing every night and finally stop gaining weight

I looked down at my body in the middle of the night and realized how big I really do look. No more eating for me",6.435384615384617,5.2967111282051285,7.4457692307692325,76.4117307692308,65.92307692307692,10.876923076923077,29.756410256410252,10.125756701596842,2.6887333333333334,150,4,30,3,2,51,32,39,0.16899999999999998,0.762,0.069,-0.4703,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,5,3,1,12,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,7,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731424797109417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858690707385115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516198654161299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20718364167746853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693744028231929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129926940323506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4615260771068698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575315748579479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41117135827677737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330870195871325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29944325825909696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plum-daisy,2019/08/19,"looking closely at my raspberries, noticed their little fuzzy hairs and thought, omg... they have lanugo low cal, easy to count *and* they understand the ed    s t r u g g l e? what legendary queens ... we stan 😩🙏🙏💞💞💞",-2.428545454545453,-1.8657866222222204,0.4276767676767683,99.28272727272729,126.33333333333331,3.414141414141415,19.646464646464647,5.565023196281405,-0.0021111111111111747,162,7,37,2,11,55,39,45,0.057,0.865,0.078,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,3,0,4,0,1,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4613328184427406,0.0,0.0,0.3865287755486504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240447105840085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654198874438222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4791794898261041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crossdressingcarp,2019/08/19,my boss just tried to educate me on chemicals bold of u to assume i care about my body like that,6.115714285714287,4.0697386666666695,7.209523809523812,80.77714285714288,67.0952380952381,12.20952380952381,30.523809523809533,11.20814326018867,2.9114380952380947,76,2,18,2,1,26,19,21,0.0,0.6579999999999999,0.342,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,11,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6442148845937342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5913171128853146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833435889302537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937609237709872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nasihljeung,2019/08/19,"think i'm ready (real vent-y sh!t) dumped my bf on our 1yr bc he was treating me like shit but still miss him which is wack

impulse decided to move back north to the city since i got let go from my job

and then after i made that decision and scheduled everything came the worst manic phase of my life, riddled with anxiety and didn't sleep for ~80hrs days, then just got a few hours for 3 more days

finally acknowledging that my ephedrine abuse has been really bad and i need to stop or at least take a break unless i want to have a full-on heart attack

talkin to a boy who lives up north already which probably isn't the best decision

((TW//SH)) >!relapsed, but i've always been a sporadic person so i've never considered myself clean, but it's been much much more frequently lately and it's still fuckin summer!<

last month i was up 8lbs from my LW and i've lost 4 in the last 3wks which is much slower than i'd like

and hghdhdj i just triggered myself and i'm supposed to be doing some freelance work right now this shit sucks and i haven't slept for 30hrs again :// and i'm out of cigarettes

but ANYWAYS, i had all this shit go on and now i feel like the fog is clearing and i can go back to being a lazy sad piece of shité soon, but i think i'm ready to just not eat now, no more negotiating with myself because i'm sick of this bitch (me, i'm the bitch)

ik it's ramble-y i just needed to write it all out",3.039333538083536,4.148904462837836,3.8890294840294857,91.14417690417692,73.62837837837839,7.13857493857494,22.914004914004913,7.520522993642371,0.6784513513513519,1115,28,251,13,22,357,170,296,0.226,0.713,0.061,-0.9958,2,0,1,0,1,0,32.0,1,0,0,3,15,19,9,0,12,0,19,10,6,2,4,49,43,22,0,3,12,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,1,2,13,17,1,1,7,0,0,5,6,14,0,0,13,1,24,5,31,27,14,41,0,3,0,1,8,11,7,2,27,151,37,2,0.0,0.14461711039687525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469249159023408,0.0,0.10156086771422576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337296377991534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885700147280738,0.0,0.18770798030675706,0.10191216145199894,0.0744045695659901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280908698471548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960023245161568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743281710265822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489437174345633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096966004898384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0617154835993225,0.08719725836674964,0.0,0.13370703759312447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208102733193452,0.0,0.19523962382887755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463765691917416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020116310722273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112234038342942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19898483693286215,0.1376851595354635,0.0,0.0,0.1248111415685316,0.08621218517317777,0.1788920661516113,0.0,0.10777821266876317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323919564119804,0.0,0.0,0.11549290471941386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974244124463204,0.12972684786160302,0.2691769317609212,0.18100684244976856,0.0941375733249246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657511388030017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315976571651929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389271306994776,0.078192582446153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423566822537454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758680331237441,0.10096647958919916,0.0,0.12214474633012183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194949114481073,0.102044781690734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177137195172216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564178797971777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199214418121642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885865740555622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingdomkeys89,2019/08/19,"I wish somebody liked me I keep thinking if I make myself smaller I'll be more attractive and then people will be automatically drawn to me... I don't know how to function as an adult, it seems. I'm really tired of being lonely.",0.8337681159420285,3.3480981739130438,3.5608695652173914,83.18811594202901,89.0,5.67536231884058,20.71014492753623,7.1686216300943375,0.8725188405797111,180,6,35,3,6,63,38,46,0.11800000000000001,0.703,0.18,0.4588,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,0,9,12,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,2,4,8,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34729854063726723,0.0,0.0,0.21473484340985224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908908115723331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608151315946452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708828001807381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503114728872218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557056751650135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503638366522211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4490863507109852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44931991114354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mhthrowaway7382,2019/08/19,"Slipping back into disordered eating (possible TW, weight mention) I’m trying so hard but the more I notice that I’m slipping the harder it is. I don’t own scales bc I know that if I own scales I’ll be obsessed and be weighing myself all the time, today I was shopping and walked past scales and I was so tempted but that temptation made me sick. I also am really really tempted to get myfitnesspal again, I used to use it a lot before during a bad period of disordered eating and that just made it worse so I know I shouldn’t get it but I also want to get it. I’ve been on binge/restrict cycles again and been tempted to get laxatives again and this is all bad habits and I know that but it’s so hard to stop myself sometimes. I already keep track of everything I eat, I write it down in a list on my phone notes every time I eat something, I don’t calorie count or anything I just write down what I ate/how many of something I ate. I’ve talked to my doctor about this and she’s organising for me to see a psychiatrist but it could be a couple of months before that appointment so I’m just scared of how far I could slip because I’m already trying but it’s just getting harder and harder to see the reasons why I should stop myself from buying the scales, why I should stop myself from downloading the app, why I should stop myself from getting laxatives again. It’s so hard. And like it’s not like I’m unhappy with my body, I like my body and I don’t want to lose weight necessarily it’s just I want to stop eating or just not eat as much, idk it’s confusing. I know I’m at a healthy weight for my height, when I was weighed at the doctors a couple of months ago I was 51kg and I’m around 162cm tall. My weight has been fairly consistent, I haven’t lost or gained significant amounts of weight, all of my clothes mostly fit, just sometimes they’re a bit looser than they used to be. Idk what’s going on in my head or why I’m like this, it’s all just so confusing for me right now and sometimes this scares me bc I don’t want this to happen but it’s still happening",2.007615245009074,3.728206565517244,3.549875983061104,90.00074863883849,77.59770114942529,6.6019358741681815,22.251966122202052,7.475848149327749,0.7353218390804597,1636,47,357,22,38,541,172,435,0.15,0.767,0.083,-0.9829,0,0,2,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,3,28,13,0,5,15,0,26,20,3,7,4,75,61,37,0,11,22,0,8,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,28,16,14,6,5,1,2,2,8,9,0,0,11,10,51,4,41,40,12,39,0,2,2,0,7,16,0,9,25,224,79,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058281966403907225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510993099995298,0.10515790165565286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054105309568661684,0.05852999220705553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050556441099403056,0.10979429173636188,0.04007959845545263,0.0,0.11189404712984406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717801955840748,0.14606324291441125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049894530790896,0.1454986502612712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070666524889684,0.13459249330162884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40366200339758507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055395840687713034,0.0,0.05909039895273568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610487009113093,0.0,0.037366316040926884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628213974786845,0.0,0.17669288606634714,0.0,0.06747679999465721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058440175648977015,0.0,0.0,0.14453434723682498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848533757260305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355561257533193,0.07177211683336818,0.05589691627828295,0.0,0.12442540216572405,0.0,0.06665853148658757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495944949036444,0.0,0.04833261989767116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485495942574966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06276426244036518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741214126612123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424018376605692,0.06760027871227707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05614875204006835,0.0,0.0,0.13165118427640168,0.0,0.10478588300391173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123262075666507,0.1950804688103882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05250673630144195,0.274842922853788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284605241077981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766768110734325,0.0,0.06232177067108113,0.0,0.0,0.08927766003921989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035645498632154,0.0,0.0,0.15512037755536515,0.0,0.0,0.40031903327951296,0.0,0.0,0.23731072364120964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700321001198642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kaiisea,2019/08/19,"SSRIs and ED Hey guys, I normally lurk here but I had a question I was wondering if people here could help. I'm currently struggling really bad with restricting and fasting and today was put on SSRIs. I need to eat when taking them and they recommended the morning but I only  eat in the afternoon. I don't know safest way to take this and how others here found it, especially with fasting. I want to get better with my ED but I'm trying to take it one step at a time with my illnesses and I'm scared about pushing myself too much at once",1.5627675840978623,3.9757924862385363,3.6497477064220174,85.07413226299695,82.8532110091743,6.936085626911316,21.92737003058104,8.07648339933343,1.3873113149847094,427,14,84,9,12,145,72,109,0.207,0.6990000000000001,0.094,-0.9401,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,8,4,0,2,4,0,5,3,0,1,0,24,17,12,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,10,2,1,4,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,4,0,12,1,13,12,1,15,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,3,7,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579987585599177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735814714706534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510843868660539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872581133681747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074804192474208,0.0,0.0,0.09886462247583644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736699141103352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268365692920472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399560428660913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910548209768814,0.1403113033344123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854047681895124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152328021281574,0.12822683099223936,0.1439175892494292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118793414386398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902279493765376,0.21198038769868133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12122528635510425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18945177704284602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782379731822675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268311838290861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034126427105924,0.0,0.17936747423865634,0.0,0.0,0.12847443369097794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116124831878511,0.15020159788375914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20521135996007075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,personfromaplacee,2019/08/19,DAE have vivid dreams that you’ve eaten something really high cal then woken up panicking before realizing you haven’t? almost every night for the past week i’ve had a dream i’ve eaten something and then wake up feeling so shit and anxious before i realize that it was just a dream. shits stressful man,4.428103448275864,6.688623534482763,5.0064137931034525,79.82996551724139,72.27586206896551,7.398620689655173,25.393103448275863,8.238735603445708,1.8200372413793104,247,8,42,4,5,79,43,58,0.244,0.633,0.124,-0.8744,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,1,3,0,4,5,3,0,0,7,8,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,2,2,0,3,3,0,8,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,5,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360190497716766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662733991045632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011259091164123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858703413722706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917677303317692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24902951239874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211880583031807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250018877429415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099516535531854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838843961734408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629060533142847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26999303494899696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906395957024166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aggressivemonster,2019/08/19,"I shit myself at a party Title, and throwaway (obviously). Honestly, I dont know where else to post this. I just really need some help. Its barely ED related but ive been here since proed days and i always felt this community was so supportive. 

Anyways,,, this happened like a month ago. Im in college, I rarely go out, but when i went out this time, i went OUT. I drank waaay to much. And my stupid fucking ed stomach couldnt handle it. And i forgot to eat before drinking. I was wearing short shorts and i started throwing up in the toilet.. and i threw up so hard i shit myself. Apparently. I barely remember that night. I just remember looking down at my legs and seeing shit running down it. Everything happened in the bathroom, allegedly, so i hope i didnt track shit around this persons house. I kept weaving in and out of awareness and it was just awful. I didnt even have any friends at this party- so this random girl was trying to be nice and coax me into getting up so i could leave because the house owner didnt want the chick that was throwing up and shitting on herself. I ended up home somehow and passed out in the shower and woke up like 4 hours later with the water still running. 

I wish i could just forget it. It makes me hate myself even more and every day i just want to die when i remember it. I feel so fucking stupid, what if I run into these people again? I know one person for a fact, i will run into again. Hes the one who got me an uber home and helped me to my room because i couldnt even get the fucking key in the door. But like, how can you look someone in the face when theyve seen you shit your pants?

Honestly, any help is appreciated. I just need to get this off my chest and i need help on how to get over this and move forward.",1.8537009803921551,3.862606013888893,3.32218954248366,90.10294117647058,79.1388888888889,5.790849673202615,22.532679738562088,6.794906146795322,0.5810473856209151,1375,43,288,14,34,451,184,360,0.14800000000000002,0.711,0.141,-0.5871,2,0,1,0,0,1,44.0,0,3,0,0,28,21,12,0,14,1,21,18,11,3,2,66,58,32,1,12,10,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,5,4,21,27,4,2,7,1,0,13,6,12,0,2,19,7,49,9,42,33,3,65,0,0,4,3,16,36,9,5,20,198,70,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367497749335965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915697230321963,0.0,0.0,0.11303986764981172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398851007628736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133026376235668,0.0,0.07072334645335097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271850745453753,0.0,0.0,0.10720248080808134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625854416468984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740823710809997,0.08141944969555129,0.0,0.0850457149676399,0.06943054611225198,0.0,0.07361376623546331,0.0,0.0,0.16468676818759187,0.0,0.07002658914438042,0.0,0.07469692739510221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04202461130962077,0.0,0.07980185802767636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421317456732774,0.23051088185027105,0.17369319765227756,0.0,0.0472352369555687,0.0,0.06647334530272743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699373678355454,0.0,0.07445324404441149,0.08205723445821231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22283652886010746,0.0,0.16673895034994868,0.08255031833968328,0.08184991616270534,0.191803313277744,0.0,0.0,0.08977668945055649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135385640468566,0.0,0.0,0.08800504597759126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181496616319085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958857692855856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055478812151575664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06634028976757042,0.08833634672946193,0.06109788160677618,0.1848825064967196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779962566525713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263952535348914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0576203378018598,0.145142757534751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959962274137805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053244545662624106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28245369943077064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662305859623283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118880084708731,0.06875222898007775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042167890214429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05882806289343748,0.0,0.06637443542054487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943160542318739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04846406769246386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056428514683818064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804482441404737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409383192161138,0.0,0.0,0.0955762604488662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway413vander,2019/08/19,Crying on the floor of someone else's apartment at 4am Idk why I'm making this post. I just feel so fat and ugly and unlovable,-0.9403571428571418,1.1819042500000023,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,95.78571428571428,2.8000000000000003,17.714285714285715,3.1291,-0.8842428571428571,101,3,22,0,4,34,26,28,0.37,0.63,0.0,-0.8948,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4885612082393813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715499729828667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22489011063604067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968887947779226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4259686742372668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768539116946773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40133759213721104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aspenisbi,2019/08/19,"I reached out and was ignored !TW may apply!
To preface I'd like to say I've been diagnosed by 4 different therapists with Gender Dysphoria, including the one I'm going to talk about here today. I'm 14 and have a hormone blocker and T gel, but I'm not here to discourse about that. (I'm much happier than I used to be now that I've started transitioning). I have also since found a new psychologist.

I'd say this was around a year ago or so. I had finally started to realize that I was displaying signs of an eating disorder. Checking my weight daily, calorie restriction, excessive worry over food, etc. I've always been thin, I have a fast metabolism and was born underweight, so no one really noticed. After identifying what was happening I finally gathered up the courage to tell my therapist. This therapist was transgender himself, but I'm no longer afraid to say that treating anything besides gender dysphoria was not his strong suit. I'll give him credit where credit is due but I was diagnosed with things and even after asking about my diagnosis he failed to mention some of my most crucial diagnosis.

We sat down in his office and I explained my issue. He seemed kind of perplexed but talked about it with me anyway. I talked about my fear of gaining weight, my fear of food, my lack of appetite. He brought out an assessment sheet and we went through that. I ended up scoring extremely high on it and instead of believing what I had was an eating disorder he said ""Well, you also have to remember that gender dysphoria has a lot of these problems as well. So in reality most of these symptoms are probably because of that."" 
I'm horrible at refuting statements. I'm horrible at saying ""yeah I dont really fuckin think that's right"". But I was able to just quietly say ""I really dont think this is because of my gender dysphoria.""
He looked at me and told me ""look, I dont think you have an eating disorder. This is probably just something that'll pass over soon enough. We might talk about it again if it continues. But I dont see it as an issue right now.""
I was 82 pounds. I was 5'4, 13, and 82 fucking pounds. I dont know what about that ""isnt an issue"" but god damn. 
I never spoke to him about it again. I ended up working my hardest to recover, albeit alone. 

Not only did I have to try and be my own rehabilitator, but ever since then I developed a fear of mentioning diagnosis. I'm so scared I'm going to be brushed off again. It was just recently that I finally mentioned my issues with eating to my current therapist. He told me that what I was feeling definitely wasnt just gender dysphoria, and that its definitely something we should be working on.

I cant really show too many emotions in therapy (or in any place other than my house) but I came home and cried tears of Joy's just because someone finally listened. Someone finally acknowledged the thing that I've had to fight by myself for what feels like forever. I feel like I might finally be able to get better now.

So idk how to end this but uh? Hope yall have a good day. Moral of the story here, if your therapist sucks ass, please dont wait as long as I did to get a new one asap. Dont struggle alone.",3.9485874799357963,5.618021675762441,5.4302086677367605,78.77622792937402,72.2102728731942,9.194863563402887,30.049759229534512,9.65795288546158,2.9938622792937406,2516,108,475,64,49,848,280,623,0.15,0.7559999999999999,0.094,-0.9914,2,2,2,0,1,0,75.0,4,4,0,6,40,29,5,6,18,1,53,14,1,2,2,81,98,40,0,6,22,0,6,3,0,5,3,9,1,0,37,25,8,4,14,1,3,6,16,14,3,3,31,19,63,15,77,57,9,67,1,1,3,3,42,25,5,13,39,324,100,5,0.1031321737976294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04571022471615367,0.0,0.0,0.10681382901809942,0.0,0.08247476212533612,0.04290711517290796,0.0,0.0,0.03506670736766003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04243449580237196,0.04590474998523506,0.04820733034033839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430262386320877,0.0,0.0,0.05809732159130738,0.0,0.04560601338839823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058977866049948986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05664292510144794,0.03325586009380328,0.0,0.0,0.10467698548939014,0.0,0.053875585527133285,0.1772976091868975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230454886086468,0.0,0.0,0.2110599215407782,0.0,0.058004907155618714,0.13701674210061535,0.053281552250381975,0.05750981777165341,0.03405891406531894,0.04664447781416748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407855196006813,0.07822008877077354,0.07367764556780915,0.0,0.3389287660034204,0.0,0.0,0.12470783392779655,0.05653955268585367,0.0,0.04767201641309996,0.053882304185763036,0.04946688930609375,0.05861239105107063,0.043251187154303816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04559972034500463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05448240198322652,0.05172498960124342,0.05121675947626913,0.0,0.05950034088587745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21528638972955275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053698144301871364,0.02833937278991216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557775606530688,0.0,0.0,0.0456343642153285,0.0866050514883103,0.0,0.0,0.04383964306065435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052279918498021945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940693855700248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03790700714063205,0.0,0.039770945164786485,0.09960569611100248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058708331712023276,0.0,0.0,0.1048275450703654,0.03921833274341767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053875585527133285,0.056604078409627875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119392654974093,0.04934178101001258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213822276999887,0.0,0.050915289833503234,0.0,0.05841432424847873,0.08807431291855151,0.04905115715585421,0.2050371100655744,0.05162664876230603,0.0,0.04109149497457831,0.04694382882590081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531199990387664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738355618217764,0.07939618597155129,0.0,0.0,0.07299748343234749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05390807022445592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05359690858990377,0.0,0.16578746944244746,0.045071032816847344,0.0,0.05897031439782966,0.2993610067266219,0.06851643364215527,0.09912439901229046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048878620915795534,0.09854721169584782,0.0,0.035009988117452484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044536542603396866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255872037161271,0.09272820992022407,0.047802279173718897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508145082293592,0.05236786432317043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03320686930226735
EDAnonymous,anon3992489202,2019/08/19,"Vitamin recommendations? Today was officially my worst b/p session ever. Lasted the ENTIRE day (about 1pm-3am). I’m absolutely destroying my body and I know that the most important part is to stop purging, as vitamins can only do so much for you if you throw them up + all your food. I was wondering what you guys think are some of the most essential vitamins for a (hopefully) recovering bulimic?",5.307083333333331,7.6212666527777815,7.28166666666667,64.23000000000002,69.97222222222223,12.022222222222226,34.22222222222222,11.538034831475384,5.191122222222223,317,16,51,13,6,111,61,72,0.139,0.804,0.057,-0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,1,0,3,3,1,0,4,0,6,5,1,0,2,12,11,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,9,1,7,9,7,7,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,6,5,39,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162163321280915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359564624111765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575101959088188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442373057969723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28187887426749625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28275239395097324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645319191132165,0.2320529505932051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20927323645879206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165126724798983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082817009656013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380060013513884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824120425051036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698442310347054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30872432063314004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roseprints,2019/08/19,"What do you think about Blogilates 90 day journey? So a few days ago, Cassey Ho (blogilates) said she wasn’t happy in her body and wanted to lose weight and get back to a certain weight. Since then, I’ve been reading the comments on her daily blog posts about it and there are so many condescending assholes says what she’s doing is super unhealthy and not sustainable. A lot of people have accused her of relapsing. She posts what she eats in a day and it honestly seems like normal portions.

So is my lizard brain just screwed up or is this skeezy to you?",4.6397222222222245,6.125823342592592,4.3157407407407415,88.16583333333334,70.2037037037037,6.881481481481483,27.38888888888889,7.1686216300943375,1.266088888888889,443,15,87,4,8,134,79,108,0.13,0.745,0.124,-0.1837,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,2,8,7,1,0,5,0,9,7,2,0,1,14,14,10,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,5,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,4,10,5,11,11,3,13,0,1,0,2,12,4,1,3,7,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419840611835426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243320120684744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575276675476484,0.0,0.20678195308568104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583810354514245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895402118872849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677690845129466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718460689037834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904957782858274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20722901252554493,0.0,0.15747897893866955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18779779234686295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148959484364985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284176520843766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548051625244024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852837224129497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619956745489154,0.14730518993044153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686297085208111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322714440775193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869020863732503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925557390493586,0.0,0.0,0.4511292343693454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,phaeo15,2019/08/19,"Vitamin supplements. Do they do anything or no??? I keep reading & hearing that your body doesn’t actually absorb the vitamins from supplement pills and that you’re just peeing out anything you take/it’s a waste of money. But then I’ve been told that it depends on your diet and that they’re mostly useless if you have a half decent diet but that they help if you have a crap one. Which is it???? I know I’m hella magnesium deficient and also iron. I want to take those , a multivitamin, and a Vitamin D, as well as evening primrose which I *have* been taking for a while and I think helps with PMS and cramps but don’t know if that’s placebo. 
I’m either high restricting or on an absolute shite diet. I want to take some supplements to help with my mood and cravings, and to keep my electrolytes up. But I can’t figure out what the true deal is. Can anyone shed some light?",2.261001680672269,4.474816451428573,3.6635630252100846,87.13161344537819,78.77142857142857,6.860504201680674,23.43697478991597,7.928766900206844,1.280347899159664,689,23,139,12,17,226,102,175,0.07,0.7859999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.9171,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,5,2,0,4,5,1,0,9,0,13,12,3,1,1,37,27,22,0,5,11,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,12,12,3,3,4,1,1,0,4,2,1,2,3,2,16,2,16,24,4,8,0,1,0,0,13,6,1,9,2,96,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.16854386867772808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811925699867608,0.0,0.1871354568746128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076558654190613,0.0,0.2842576749687433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19184622618485975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806046455031405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407591325294625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946611368869294,0.0,0.3472994936695479,0.1824817359276688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070321302507628,0.0,0.0,0.18983810381181931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703542000813087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276065580578318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5194374841879824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066810411013407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503554915425914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20374228618082568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529055346088902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,min2y,2019/08/19,Bathroom TMI TMI TMI ok fuck you ed for ruining my bowel movements. i couldn’t shit at all this week and suddenly today after a binge i went to the bathroom 5 times in the span of an hour,0.997,2.9959167000000018,3.0599999999999987,90.935,82.0,6.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7697499999999997,148,5,32,2,4,50,35,40,0.335,0.617,0.048,-0.9,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,1,1,3,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,6,1,1,11,0,1,0,1,1,3,2,0,6,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899892695670027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154327391686607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43301823523744587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24598144184672294,0.0,0.3998601087734852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383789300399986,0.0,0.0,0.39105490686720296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mysadbitchass,2019/08/19,"Anyone else attracted to chubby body types? I've always found chubby guys and girls attractive. I'm not a chaser or anything (my boyfriend and literal soulmate is pretty thin, and I couldn't be more attracted to him) but it's been a preference I've had since I knew what physical attraction was. not sure why I have the exact opposite energy for myself but here we are I guess",3.334011741682976,5.7674685068493154,4.803170254403135,79.20068493150687,76.26027397260273,9.102935420743641,25.497064579256357,9.606745405546679,2.7897530332681018,303,11,54,9,7,101,58,73,0.033,0.736,0.231,0.9101,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,0,8,1,1,0,2,16,12,6,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,1,8,5,3,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,34,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436993202994066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047882521633861,0.3000897992877732,0.24101498650311634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253232520086013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24466335543704376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211274051879168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226399399848503,0.2899968873589976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29796388322428424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422730624766533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760355920300082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642783181142681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cocoakobra,2019/08/19,"Bang Energy makes coffee.  I was craving some sweet/creamy coffee this fine evening but am struggling with the idea of allowing myself additional sugar/calories. So, what's my solution? Try some of Bang's ""keto coffee"". They're zero sugar and lower in calories than most other coffees, plus come in sweet/fun flavors. Sounds like a win, right? I get to have my fear drink without so much fear.

Wrong. 

Oh, so wrong.

Ya'll that was probably the nastiest coffee I've ever had. Made me extremely nauseous, so much so that just getting some fucking Starbucks or Dutch Bros would have been worth it.

Long story short, heed my warning: Just listen to your coffee craving, that bed of lies known as sugar free cookies n' cream coffee ain't worth it. Indulge a little (\*tho tbh just eating/drinking what you're craving isn't indulging, that's just being human) because my ED cutting corners gave me a horrible tummy ache.",4.292761976047906,6.961203167664671,4.520145958083834,81.2457279191617,74.20958083832335,6.0911676646706585,27.802769461077844,7.1686216300943375,1.7779943113772458,727,29,116,8,16,227,118,167,0.23,0.65,0.12,-0.9774,1,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,1,12,11,2,3,5,0,11,4,0,3,1,23,19,11,0,1,7,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,10,5,3,0,2,1,3,1,3,7,0,1,6,6,10,5,12,11,6,9,0,0,1,1,5,6,1,5,3,70,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188913141278536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811031315323812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596142423119389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212316950107044,0.16602963610219162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130849636731347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968712928587346,0.19179246452176207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720330276357554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896722607903353,0.1839632734424096,0.0,0.1624341666898152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736775156253514,0.12251968707020985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698577364873283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19789574272198132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674895302800654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188417797270946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461701490668588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693368134517048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130387202936181,0.40136175591317613,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovenote123,2019/08/19,"Started lifting so I can tone up and love myself more, but lowkey got buff Tw: numbers 

Wanted to start lifting to stop restricting and tone up. It actually has worked and I’ve gained more confidence to wear nicer clothes and not hide in hoodies all the time.

I stayed the same weight, actually lost like 3 lbs in 6 months (trying to maintain) and my BMI is at a 17.8. My legs have gotten so damn toned and thicc that I hate them now. I liked them better when I wasn’t lifting and they were decently slim ugh. 

But I’m just trying to look at the pros to continue

Pros:

- for health, strong bones
- I can do chores like lifting the vacuum to vacuum the ceiling fan without dying anymore. Also carrying the laundry to the common laundromat is easy af now.
- more confident in clothes I guess
- flatter tummy
- more energy
- I can carry my 20lb dog easily now

Cons:

- my body dysmorphia telling me my thighs are too toned and thicc which I honestly think is true anyway

I’m 5’4 and have long ass thighs/legs and a short torso so I think I gain muscle on my legs easily

Ugh",3.1930196703880886,5.142279947368422,4.182352472089313,85.75785619351413,74.88516746411483,7.706645401382244,24.529771398192448,8.515128840125781,1.6260428495481123,835,27,166,16,18,270,131,209,0.11900000000000001,0.612,0.26899999999999996,0.9899,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,3,6,11,14,2,0,9,0,13,10,7,0,2,24,27,17,1,1,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,10,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,5,2,22,9,18,22,6,22,0,1,1,2,6,9,2,1,15,95,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.3535034363950973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448454706908646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796271735448636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601902037750071,0.0,0.20118886776431505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18797899004806587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486208219867164,0.0,0.19952943363354295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178823283061,0.0,0.19252723724271095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654653464632616,0.0,0.0,0.16028978548377149,0.15209924980404718,0.0,0.19771916102417014,0.0,0.16347224147072914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457212083471255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564021907923477,0.19305498212103228,0.0,0.1514284781268071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831109528897114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321149704773119,0.0,0.0,0.10561535192451986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24594375671178395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683212458121392,0.0,0.0,0.2205612622121618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459788421132466,0.0,0.13186104214613198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Statusw,2019/08/19,I swear my cortisol levels must be holding me back because I’m consistently eating under my TDEE but barely losing Anyone else in the struggle? My TDEE is around 1750 and I eat about 1000 but vary between 119-123lbs. I want to restrict more but I was losing so much hair I don’t think it’s worth it in the long run. What else can I do to see the scale start to drop? I feel like it’s due to my high stress levels and sleeping only 3-4 hours every night but Saturday when I get 7.,3.2642436974789923,3.9010868529411806,4.553641456582636,88.36852941176474,72.62745098039215,7.0050420168067244,23.394957983193283,6.868970318607317,0.6139899159663864,377,9,83,3,7,125,73,102,0.191,0.742,0.067,-0.9191,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,2,3,0,7,4,2,0,1,13,14,8,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,2,2,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,1,3,13,1,10,11,2,17,0,2,1,0,0,7,0,0,9,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348891718322892,0.19561015801188325,0.0,0.16995063792597392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467982327029037,0.0,0.11637714389615025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906977852836419,0.31896210887770504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085015747170334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652998138896338,0.13638635292818765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974274963088997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20170720842106515,0.0,0.0,0.18800818467214175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326912690911714,0.0,0.0,0.16894960352111374,0.0,0.42715957439360586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034103328058628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915637928477154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451958821316041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521307879142733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104816818020928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512728944508426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21868709795927316,0.1995808914535268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232760844709988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260383833467487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherryybrat,2019/08/19,Had my first non 0-cal drink today since February:') I've been trying to recover since about February and it's been extremely difficult finding any good doctors or programs besides my therapist so i've been having to do a lot of this on my own but i finally had a milkshake today & didn't cry!!!,3.697241379310345,5.776232862068966,5.616758620689655,75.45410344827587,73.82758620689657,9.467586206896552,32.289655172413795,9.888512548439397,3.7717613793103446,238,12,41,7,5,82,45,58,0.034,0.856,0.11,0.644,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,0,0,5,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,0,4,1,5,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,28,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26144061029484583,0.0,0.16408735462482804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26504877234868457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469733696431625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23637504879146104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643244299912423,0.22053721601565213,0.2052435028238375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20238492340111125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051384802712799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39919973766601213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801594980479889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4574346555946906,0.0,0.0,0.16382194870503974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ibapconflicted,2019/08/19,"(TW- rant, numbers) low bmi but i look horrible i’m at a bmi of like 16.6. my
doctor says he’s fine with that and won’t push treatment on me so woohoo.
but i look so disgusting. my stomach sticks out and you can’t see my hip bones or anything like all the dumb thinspo pics have. my legs are so huge and flabby. i just don’t know what to do. i can lose more weight but i’ll probably still look bad and it’s really stressing me out. thanks for listening to my rant",-0.5807461538461531,1.5791117100000065,1.3339999999999996,99.19930769230773,91.9,5.0769230769230775,17.69230769230769,6.67199483983844,-0.16924615384615338,361,10,87,5,13,118,72,100,0.26,0.5660000000000001,0.174,-0.904,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,6,10,2,1,2,0,7,6,4,0,1,14,15,11,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,7,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,7,12,4,9,14,2,8,0,2,4,0,4,6,1,1,3,48,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19185552970953634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946633534499165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386301298631489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812843125476006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22780224987547454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5873402422239694,0.26082562185215874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513658908313382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935636823919668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854034205800293,0.0,0.0,0.18578353261508065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18618704498212268,0.0,0.26706271723977626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21464530269534246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28390344975361065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,debubun,2019/08/19,"binge level: skin hurts 🤧🤧 i have been on a pretty gnarly binge cycle and the scale is my enemy and and *and*

i know this cycle is bad when my skin starts to hurt from the weight gain 🤪🤪🤪

send 4 help",-2.376024844720497,-0.6184976086956517,0.3119875776397514,104.53021739130438,101.17391304347824,3.4981366459627328,6.571428571428571,5.288315135182226,-2.270170186335404,154,0,41,1,7,52,33,46,0.24600000000000002,0.584,0.17,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,2,0,0,5,6,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,3,5,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775281194165621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227910831053853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7116513884016745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267045101057805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381556830885029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352642614936547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047561552270577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,howunfortunate_,2019/08/19,"just found out my ex that exacerbated my ED moved to my college and the campus is super small so im bound to run into him MMMMM

also hes way more successful than me already bc my healths been suffering (WONDER WHY) and so are my grades ahahshajhhhsjdb

feeling a big death/restriction/crying day coming on, boys. god i hate this",2.4229910714285694,5.033727281250002,4.3850892857142885,79.90812500000001,80.875,7.4071428571428575,23.205357142857146,8.418075326091056,1.839154464285714,262,9,48,6,7,89,56,64,0.09699999999999999,0.7390000000000001,0.165,0.5849,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,10,9,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,9,2,6,7,1,10,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,1,1,29,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096439572516436,0.2243920080490292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24170805706477205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082208272627465,0.18096079415192812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418774449843104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30765832927392345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770298262043517,0.0,0.29825974649374026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030911392505581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982284614338602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22272353616215024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531936686212715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30429369856852123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lotsofsqs,2019/08/19,"Mama's 'bout to hit one year BP-free Exactly one year marks when I stopped meeting the criteria for BN.

I had two slips five months ago during some hard time I cannot even remember, but besides that, I have not purged for ONE ENTIRE YEAR. I was purging on a daily basis. I could not even imagine my life without the binge or the purge.

Yes, I overeat occasionally, but I get over it quickly. I do not consider overeating a character flaw.

If you are interested, my main motivations have been to *create a life worth living*, and to *treat myself with kindness.* It's taken a lot of consideration to understand that I owe no one but myself. *I only owe myself to live my best life.* 

Nothing else matters. Everyone else can figure out their shit for themselves. You are allowed to be selfish, as is everyone else.",3.1550216450216446,5.600339090909091,4.5049090909090905,81.05069696969697,76.92207792207795,7.223549783549784,27.799134199134198,8.238735603445708,2.1602230303030305,636,27,116,12,15,210,104,154,0.1,0.8029999999999999,0.09699999999999999,0.3897,3,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,1,2,4,6,1,0,7,1,13,5,1,2,1,25,19,8,0,2,9,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,6,0,3,0,6,2,0,6,4,1,20,4,17,12,4,13,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,4,9,85,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325406312629748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775683771188526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002229910398618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767318032246108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19857652037616355,0.0,0.0,0.28728400373841123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853862027528666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466169409750875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654037920399672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31853702894002417,0.0,0.0,0.2654794994389805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780095919708595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998799947107493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442409142136425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074565051159426,0.11432895417931922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028894736839925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430647626262778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567845064788172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876557300099725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468457047541446,0.15649365082684055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490795816954702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904131593560487
EDAnonymous,Lawliet_The_Panda,2019/08/19,My emotions and my eating If feels like whenever I’m like in a bad emotional state I either eat my feelings or don’t eat and same with stress. Like there was a week I practically starved myself because I was depressed and now recently because I have to cope with the fact that my girlfriend and I have to break up because she’s going to another country in less than 10 days I’ve been eating so much and I don’t know what the fuck to do. I know in 10 days I’m going to be an actual wreck and I’m already feeling the effects right now because I’ve consistently had nightmares every day this month and I’ve been eating so much and I feel like shit and in the past months I’ve barely been eating and I don’t know what the fuck to do,3.331131964809384,4.215280212903227,4.674486803519064,86.64627565982407,72.67741935483872,7.442815249266863,26.994134897360702,7.686295010490155,1.3913225806451621,583,20,125,7,11,194,79,155,0.168,0.7490000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9485,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,5,10,3,1,8,0,14,9,1,1,1,25,28,14,0,1,3,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,12,6,0,8,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,6,4,15,4,14,21,5,20,0,1,0,2,2,6,3,2,14,77,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.10548914880195764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929006829512763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335135391040252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025825089566077,0.2635848837661585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20914497106346605,0.0,0.09310561468724024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636743277544741,0.0,0.2431939232039572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910781718848097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863265476822752,0.15445206756382604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998717913200245,0.0,0.0,0.12287044344224615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822534991982866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21124708127610248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725673744263393,0.0,0.15893058424726306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319284285245647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673484100626462,0.0,0.0,0.09231605885813716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096219448196193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382717810163653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671059458525446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Apology2MyBody,2019/08/19,". To my mutuals and anyone else that also suffer from an ed, remember, a small snack is better than nothing at all. make sure you drink lots of water and take some vitamins if you need to.


i know the thought of gaining weight from your anti depressants scare you but they’ll make you feel so much better if you take them.

we’ll get though this together",3.364782608695652,5.4014387391304375,3.9442753623188413,87.26684782608696,74.65217391304348,7.498550724637681,23.09420289855073,8.344100000000001,1.3472202898550725,279,8,55,5,6,88,56,69,0.105,0.769,0.126,0.3716,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,1,6,2,3,3,6,0,1,3,0,3,5,0,2,2,16,12,8,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,11,3,8,9,4,2,0,2,0,0,9,2,0,4,0,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220131686932727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505654858483077,0.22063358591407994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38088818253067935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18546556070695472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094386522175612,0.0,0.0,0.17988266705487266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887857848758836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250234008121723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834110673171624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306798520142267,0.0,0.0,0.2874722223479863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15829415884272194,0.15966631510503154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20661733460060666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24392973802903026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155853905685476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20294832631446316,0.0,0.3238064725808593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115630810877944,0.17094994658373192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622169655850393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jungwoos,2019/08/19,pls help i am Bloated. i have been eating more than usual the past few days and it’s been making me bloat really really badly since i‘ve been restricting really harshly the past few weeks. does anyone have advice to help reduce or prevent the bloating? :(,6.846737588652482,7.831701617021282,7.090212765957446,72.13333333333334,64.74468085106382,9.670921985815603,26.30496453900709,9.725611199111238,2.5446794326241124,204,5,32,4,3,66,36,47,0.16699999999999998,0.691,0.142,-0.5222,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,2,4,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24062660190365004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217939789978046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20560329632910415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880688666351805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154896181570378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519688931875115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301040714396525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436965576113274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701351607746768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732502717152106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20369542482976535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712027684297013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19752193175108365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainbowraptor16,2019/08/19,"I emotionally ate and feel so alone. I know y'all are here. But it's all online. I didn't feel bad before I ate. Now I definitely do. I plan to weigh myself as punishment tomorrow for eating just now. I had 3-4 double stuff oreos, 2-3 mini donuts, at least 200 calories of a cookie, and a baby food packet. I'm on my period but that's not an excuse. I didn't even have cravings or was even really hungry. I just ate. 

I usually feel bad when I emotionally eat. Or any other emotions but this time I was just numb. I'm disappointed in myself. Fuck. 

The worst part of all this is that I wasn't even hungry. I ate because the food was there. Wtf. 

:(",-0.7080379256965976,1.466607213235296,2.5589318885448904,89.46532507739941,94.51470588235294,5.510216718266253,15.246130030959751,7.0608816371341465,0.05459411764705902,495,11,108,9,19,177,86,136,0.231,0.715,0.055,-0.9785,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,12,7,2,0,5,0,11,11,0,0,2,17,22,10,0,0,9,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,9,0,4,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,11,3,18,0,8,11,6,10,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,2,7,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16654065843425112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934974596111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685231362065849,0.0980223953810019,0.0,0.136829246689345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290777853916881,0.0,0.5426362214846231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186213260662708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439164517632417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888808212413248,0.0,0.0,0.14865732415567254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837166212337419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741310994280823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301281597497278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407791930462156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376397196129924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709885791442673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mortzm,2019/08/19,"Does anyone else think their anorexia stems from having overweight abusive parents? 
I'm sorry for the lengthy post but this realisation just really clicked. 

I don't really want to go into detail about what my father did to me. The abuse was never sexual, but it was hellish emotional abuse and constant beatings. The worst things, from the top of my head are:
- Slamming the car breaks when I was 7 so my face would smash into the back of the seat in front of me. It broke my nose so badly I still can't breathe through it properly.
- Randomly shoving me into sharp wall edges 
- Lots of 'typical' style beatings
- Choking me
- Trying to get my pet parrot to fly outside and subsequently die

Last year I literally ran away one day when he beat me so badly I thought I was going to die. I remember laying on the bathroom floor with blood all over my face, and hearing a little voice in my head saying 'You can die like this or you can run'. So I fucking ran. Without my purse, without a change of clothes, without even grabbing my phone. 

He was always obese and developed diabetes in his 40's. He disgusted me so badly I think I started to equate fatness to badness.

Also, I genuinely believe he had binge eating disorder. He would buy pints upon pints of ice cream, Magnums, crisps, etc. He'd hide them and freak out if anyone ever took something.  I have had an ED since I was 14 but I was at my highest weight because my father would eat ALL of the food in the house - a week's worth for 4 people - in one night. This made it impossible to eat, and since I couldn't drive to the shops, I ordered takeout almost every day. I still get triggered by the smell of Indian food. Chinese was my favourite because my dad hates it so I knew he'd leave the leftovers and I'd have food for the next day.

In essence, I associated fatness with my dad and with my fence sitting mother. It just clicked that this is most likely the root cause of my disorder.

( I don't intend to fat shame anyone, and obviously people with binge eating disorder aren't inherently abusive. But his abusive personality extended to his disorder. )",4.407443249701314,6.034620641975312,5.180223018717643,81.19229390681006,70.97530864197532,7.793707686180804,29.85463958582239,8.360895534625662,2.2343994424532063,1660,68,309,26,31,538,222,405,0.251,0.728,0.021,-0.9989,2,0,1,0,2,0,46.0,0,2,2,4,17,14,4,1,19,0,28,22,10,5,5,53,46,24,3,6,11,6,3,2,0,3,6,3,1,1,13,17,13,1,5,1,3,9,9,12,0,2,17,11,51,2,50,23,6,49,1,1,3,1,24,19,1,6,19,199,64,0,0.0,0.4309501867752164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07284285539057847,0.0,0.0,0.05817354796808856,0.060529040845009624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525934064717116,0.07453507747146801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834561456134522,0.055935835635493,0.2429536305455259,0.0886884354510954,0.0,0.0,0.08195785564736148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747283798963843,0.07695376768247854,0.0,0.0,0.07861068803704963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407420638168241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22649113035559415,0.0,0.3334848368761105,0.0,0.06365898068132096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977421008195101,0.06076848395117165,0.0818274866600752,0.0,0.0,0.08112906437222844,0.04804688901336465,0.06580133601222814,0.06129016545103405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26388789632288473,0.0,0.0,0.06725088407841645,0.07601173319949968,0.0,0.08268446381578272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181988353065061,0.14931316808036735,0.0,0.08198805315266781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393709409872653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592962702728057,0.0,0.07702565403223383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107832916780228,0.0729088459980887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061844557359672724,0.0,0.06883236530373807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05610484775364237,0.0,0.07736433184886593,0.0682655478898337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858676867735618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077387748669196,0.0,0.0,0.10086340289797946,0.06351747052096775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696688801677907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320365458037597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240505109983079,0.0,0.0,0.05784914487906726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034958551610392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056002075229756185,0.0,0.08143122875084018,0.05148875237188337,0.0,0.11618729909168027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04832804528768482,0.093223152265437,0.0,0.05775080643127346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082153491932545,0.049388568590661625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04290644156296721,0.0,0.05835104700179158,0.08858289531597065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21036857439550302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502627760053805,0.0,0.0,0.0468449099929459
EDAnonymous,sewnp,2019/08/19,"Accountability post hello I've been binging a lot these last two days and I hate myself a lot and! because of this, I'm going to start a week long fast and see what happens. I don't want to put my weight up for myself and for others, but lets just say that my body is full of shit (literal shit because constipation) and food shit. Anyways wish me luck I want to commit suicide :)",2.2371428571428567,4.1888685584415635,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,77.70129870129871,5.9584415584415575,22.688311688311693,6.868970318607317,0.6010831168831166,297,9,62,3,7,98,56,77,0.265,0.59,0.146,-0.9133,0,0,0,0,0,2,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,3,0,4,6,4,0,1,14,13,6,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,0,1,1,3,8,1,8,11,3,11,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,3,6,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147436102359604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19564909152642426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135941371324584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129862037657176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010301895570599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575783851211825,0.0,0.0,0.17389934772953106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357559795866578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801125609249492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155876173763267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29949166322105925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869106746817794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770668699317702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14007163568968553,0.0,0.0,0.1403588090024993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5424079386259687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467105225890013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266587255558812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206077571712844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778096077003333,0.0,0.1412869043238734,0.2144880631680005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20254947001595194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BroItsJesus,2019/08/19,Why does Monster Zero Ultra have to have 13 kcal??? There's ZERO right there in the name. Please. For the love of god. Why does that have to mean sugar and not calories!!!!!!!,-0.02117647058823735,2.3299086470588217,0.9443529411764722,100.40358823529414,94.88235294117644,2.72,12.682352941176472,3.1291,-1.6680400000000004,130,2,28,0,5,40,26,34,0.0,0.7440000000000001,0.256,0.8836,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,5,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,17,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5465272517457392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818297246686461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34014616197922226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34277121676059835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26667106198579715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635379273332676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vomitcomets,2019/08/19,"ok sorry for spamming but one more thing before i log out of this burner account and forget it exists: the vegan low cal options at souplantation are actually not half bad... 60 for a ladle of soup (which i watered down cause that shit is salty as fuck also more soup 😛) , 70 for a slice of sourdough bread, 30 for a cup of smart balance.. ok i see you 😌",5.363333333333333,4.768228666666668,6.671666666666668,79.29,67.8888888888889,8.866666666666667,29.11111111111111,8.07648339933343,1.8386277777777789,272,8,56,3,4,93,59,72,0.218,0.685,0.09699999999999999,-0.872,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,4,2,2,4,1,1,0,7,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,0,1,4,3,12,4,2,4,0,1,1,1,1,4,2,1,0,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.32961088621480616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27011134287960065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820204959826633,0.0,0.0,0.2874139827309001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469787171327749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122592181970071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288789785712309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691557660183667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467119383833763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781013762868846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243967175349787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,primo2314,2019/08/19,"I feel like most people with an ED don't ""look like it"" It's super frustrating that when normal people think of eating disorders, they think of a super skinny girl who looks like she's about to die. I'm probably reaching here, but I want to say ~90% of people suffering do not ""look"" like how society and the media portrays an ED. From my experience, out of the many people I know with EDs, only one of them ""looks"" like it. 

What do you guys think?",5.782,5.2908820888888926,6.638888888888893,79.52500000000002,67.0,9.866666666666667,26.88888888888889,9.3871,1.9978222222222213,348,8,71,6,5,116,61,90,0.087,0.7140000000000001,0.19899999999999998,0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,2,2,4,9,1,0,5,0,3,2,1,1,0,15,14,4,1,2,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,4,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,6,8,7,12,14,1,2,0,1,4,0,8,1,0,1,6,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359438457822828,0.0,0.18065689780852814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129418292271375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419175641384603,0.0,0.0,0.07970213839003043,0.11261044308910208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560778444303261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662897143753415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38504870473732905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5294758347226118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15981142560550626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544433005418869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681373078941332,0.11988422793416982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371213909609935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995110580805894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535319029945435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030075786947247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297387792954644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,calamityecho,2019/08/19,"My family constantly telling me I’m fat is honestly the most motivational thing ever “You’re still hungry?!” 

“You seriously need to lose some weight”

“You need to put your daughter on a diet”

“I can’t believe you let her get that big”
 
Like THANKS as if I haven’t been TRYING to lose weight!

Before I never had the motivation to just cold turkey stop eating, but recently, I think we may have just hit that mark.",3.242035714285713,5.276709275000002,4.797142857142859,81.02500000000002,75.0,8.071428571428571,22.67857142857143,8.841846274778883,1.6129821428571427,322,9,63,7,7,108,62,80,0.11199999999999999,0.81,0.078,-0.1743,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,4,0,4,4,6,0,0,3,0,8,5,1,2,2,16,15,3,0,3,4,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,3,12,3,6,10,2,9,0,2,0,0,8,2,0,4,7,41,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240983542198165,0.21503655337318495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20625443748205266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952998728694167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264595799458188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799280741004596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997177207360764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19516972414970427,0.0,0.09324572246944206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270523853287798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830440861782588,0.14720484074620782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191869417564026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884535833994705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242295046075094,0.1595695035171343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682214065019285,0.17572044468779496,0.0,0.0,0.1268004904208533,0.1222969122325284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958303364435236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4648379425280199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cryingtoliability,2019/08/19,"everyone got internships this summer while i just relapsed ahaha when u couldve been building up ur resume but instead u decided to hate urself for 3 months straight and now u have to hear about how everyone else was thriving all summer while u cried almost everyday bc of weight gain

love that for me",8.397368421052633,8.018169789473685,7.760350877192984,73.26578947368422,61.631578947368425,11.108771929824565,36.54385964912281,10.504223727775694,3.8651333333333326,246,10,42,5,3,77,49,57,0.128,0.68,0.193,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,7,7,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,1,7,4,1,10,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,8,24,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846108135594531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31220840021049384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237433960590657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5431793512369124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273211220810459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806138690171041,0.0,0.0,0.32034283094501803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565246391341087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22686610761753065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461101266300877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xxxanon1117,2019/08/19,"Pumpkin spice season Everyone on my social media sites is posting about how hype they are for Starbucks pumpkin spice lattes, pumpkin pie, candy corn, apple cider, etc. all of the typical Halloween/Fall things (in America, at least). 

Here I am, crying over the fact that Fall is my favorite season and candy corn and pumpkin spice because I can't bring myself to consume any of it. 

Last year, I tried to make ""low cal"" PS coffee drinks but couldn't stomach them.",7.29529411764706,7.707539705882358,6.727058823529411,77.11176470588238,63.70588235294118,8.211764705882354,33.47058823529412,7.554174236665415,2.478341176470588,365,14,60,3,5,113,67,85,0.044000000000000004,0.9309999999999999,0.025,-0.1531,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,2,2,8,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,8,0,10,7,3,13,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201627889921955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973565074257445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556268980791673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31715417747505104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610695963635618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093593696562956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639014826429525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161072950138994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100653832992624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300248832180704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21508676255654668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219806682894628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20848598309030095
EDAnonymous,thiccspo,2019/08/19,"cant eat sweets and enjoy it like i used to my body seems to be rejecting sweets i used to like.  i wanted to have a cheat day so that i can have a nuts/berries/""rabbit food"" diet all week starting Monday. but i ate candy and cookies and now ive had low energy all day, have felt sick and just keep feeling like i have to shit which is annoying. i cant really enjoy sweets anymore.  at least i still like chips.",4.695581395348839,4.357520651162794,5.524976744186045,86.0863023255814,69.23255813953489,8.74046511627907,25.339534883720933,8.238735603445708,1.2568865116279069,320,7,71,4,5,105,56,86,0.26,0.537,0.203,-0.7795,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,14,3,0,2,0,11,7,2,2,2,15,20,6,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,5,10,9,6,16,3,9,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,11,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212397724708627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477964689275173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877419552800702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22827102627214105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279817161846566,0.1593715343424821,0.21419600079007847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697545325238244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19828765787167932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359510623505375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291357402810687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20308765217012947,0.0,0.0,0.22899292275632785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579002809888388,0.0,0.17815548375890375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853465769331716,0.0,0.0,0.13158095442070425,0.0,0.17894484315776807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,weegey,2019/08/19,"dessert should not be this big of a deal jeSUS CHRIIIST Every time I convince myself to have dessert, my brain decides to play a slideshow of every thin person I have ever seen in my life immediately after.  I just want to eat some damn ice cream and move on.",6.0023529411764684,6.093462960784315,6.310588235294119,80.09764705882355,66.45098039215686,8.368627450980393,30.72549019607843,7.793537801064563,1.9417137254901955,205,7,40,2,3,66,41,51,0.054000000000000006,0.833,0.113,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,4,5,1,0,1,8,6,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,2,8,3,1,8,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,3,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513898590562524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245163003815955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220905274696202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847294617193821,0.5304182825200321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233290266894887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345530168528517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748469299749628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354619197838054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18566078974821254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Imaskinnybitchyall,2019/02/16,"DAE feel like their ED is just the physical manifest of their mental health? I noticed that whenever I'm really struggling with anxiety/depression/even just the teeniest bit stressed is when I want to restrict and exercise the most. I've lost a lb a week since my semester started (whoops) and the other night I had this thought like, ""well, at least if you get too skinny this time maybe people will actually see that you're struggling and stop pressuring you to go to school..."" 

I feel like 100% of my depression/anxiety is coming from college, so I guess at this point I'm just looking for approval from people who will never actually approve of me dropping out. ",7.634562211981567,7.755403838709679,7.591152073732718,72.18887096774196,63.03225806451614,11.601843317972353,37.87557603686636,11.20814326018867,4.43392534562212,532,25,93,14,7,171,84,124,0.14300000000000002,0.764,0.09300000000000001,-0.7554,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,2,3,7,9,0,4,6,0,6,3,1,0,1,19,20,6,0,2,4,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,6,1,2,3,1,0,2,1,5,1,0,3,4,12,4,13,15,3,14,0,1,2,0,5,4,0,3,10,58,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.3215842820425568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604890424884094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988660056344266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193510898184536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882929456171132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666257290754484,0.23542401195571935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608573283707867,0.0,0.09364281489465397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815131708923065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514322914002908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414954822508497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836563668585705,0.0,0.17986635460298536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553401245584948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16604980779406878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270810894920318,0.0,0.0,0.15462585762114173,0.0,0.0,0.1875921913676142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284620962957135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576128556726393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555613679518654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675644047333854,0.13130067511820964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362997767542113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662533649027827,0.0,0.0,0.13775543150528102,0.1887439353687894,0.3445075930758859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308092917844735,0.09607894471316583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718585039194018,0.0,0.13216887529129814,0.0,0.14814837684246884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3owlsinatrenchcoat,2019/02/16,"Go get the skinny girl Ok my dudes, I've been having a huge struggle for the last six months about being able to successfully restrict. I've gained weight (idk how much though because I'm scared to get on the scale and avoid all mirrors) but within the past couple of weeks I've finally gotten back into the old routine and feel like I look more like a human than a bloated whale.

Anyway, I work at a hospital as a CNA and put one of my patients on the toilet and told him to buzz  when he's done so we could get him back to bed. I was busy when he buzzed so a different nurse aide went to go help with his transfer but he refused her help and told her to, ""go get that skinny girl."" and holy fucking shit balls guys, he was talking about me! Like I know my view of what skinny is and what other people think skinny is is hella different but at this point I'm going to take what I can get.

Have any of you had anything similar? ",3.6860821044240737,4.29379359067358,4.5678756476683935,88.75579115185336,71.64248704663213,7.181984854523716,24.172578716620173,7.010146845296331,0.7414738142686321,725,18,158,6,13,235,121,193,0.076,0.8029999999999999,0.121,0.8463,2,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,3,11,10,2,3,12,1,13,7,5,1,1,22,34,17,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,10,5,3,3,1,0,6,0,5,0,2,9,4,16,5,23,23,3,24,0,0,2,1,21,8,2,0,13,94,22,3,0.13801376217727934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385409097411512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135735667372492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224812806640367,0.0,0.08413190842584238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019275881651903,0.15270960278544904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883900134867267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123599606211118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978390500639521,0.09859705927590197,0.0,0.1511873304058099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759149920875942,0.3605324721483112,0.0,0.3137456062949813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665532304828598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501543116436392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584875432093534,0.1124996366259401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022796585662476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589680057469548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016126824180833,0.0,0.10145599526730577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482222699134847,0.0,0.09352169707556378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174975258091587,0.09568136514045184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046761524780073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874195064506392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381758526349343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416691435639225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428195022812856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376917313268602,0.1109302341697022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843364605173264,0.13559782060503225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637561284204672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070631515681156,0.16806358120791895,0.0,0.12794014023905312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047566260103362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LisichkaYenotik,2019/02/16,"I used to be so thin and then I moved country and I'm almost back to square 1 again 😐 2017 - January. I weighed in at 65kg.
2017 - August. I weighed in at 55kg.
2018 - January. I weighed in at 60kg.
2018 - September. I weighed in at 59kg.
2019 - February. I don't weigh myself but I just took a nude for my boyfriend and I'm gonna hazard a guess that I'm 65kg. I'm so sad about it. 

I am so so so mad at myself. My goal was 52kg. I was SO CLOSE. 

Slow and steady (ha!) Wins the race I guess. Today I ran 12km and did weights. Tomorrow I'm going to do my 500kcal workout (it probably doesn't burn that much but it certainly gets my heart rate going and it's a lot of bodyweight exercises which helps). 

Yesterday I consumed 512 kcal, today 921kcal.

God I hate myself so much. ",-2.0243940390094224,-0.20922752662721847,1.0948980933596353,98.36114179268029,102.37278106508877,4.633881218496604,18.68529476221784,6.42735559955562,0.02740613631382871,584,21,144,9,27,204,96,169,0.11199999999999999,0.8190000000000001,0.069,-0.8664,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,11,6,2,0,4,1,8,9,2,1,1,16,23,16,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,6,0,0,2,0,5,2,3,0,0,5,3,21,3,15,16,3,25,0,1,1,1,1,11,0,4,9,77,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845771514070732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600741270854845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876311850827157,0.0,0.2366218939696027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586576164469585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553023000259205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466889967830861,0.13953566474666113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769833850136694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125763536596985,0.3060659244056473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22444842316013985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39465210848130095,0.0,0.2312906655444837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979681211932355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535017038953704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallalilySkies,2019/02/16,"Did anyone else's parent ever get them a waist trainer/faja? Waist trainers have gotten really popular, but I remember it being a big thing in Latinx communities for a long time before the popularity, though in Spanish they're called fajas. My mom always used to wear them and she even bought me one when when I was 13. I remember that was the year I ""suddenly"" started hating the way my body looked, at least from a weight perspective (otherwise I've had body hair issues for forever), and I tried on clothes the week before eighth grade and wanted to cry because I though I was so fat. A few days later my mom gave me a faja and I was so happy. I wore one all through the rest of junior high and high school (13-18) and then stopped once I started college. Truthfully, going to college in a different state was the best thing for me, because I got away from my mom and her constant comments on my body. But I keep thinking about a lot of the things she's said/done to me and how terrible they were in hindsight. 

Has anyone else experienced something similar? If so, do you know how that's affected you? My biggest problem is that I never realize how bad things affect me. I experience the consequences but it's always hard to pinpoint what started things. I want to say that my experience was just a blip and had no effects on me, but I know that's totally wrong. ",5.947794943820224,6.1878205280898895,6.695653089887643,76.78033356741574,66.56554307116104,9.821067415730338,32.417837078651694,9.673873057562805,2.9788578651685387,1079,42,204,21,16,357,152,267,0.11,0.789,0.10099999999999999,0.1739,2,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,3,2,14,10,1,0,17,0,15,9,8,7,5,39,34,25,0,4,6,4,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,13,9,4,2,7,0,1,1,2,5,0,2,15,6,37,5,24,18,7,33,0,0,1,0,16,13,0,2,17,145,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15985570038963254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433180462270858,0.1968452968436451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09024953916120468,0.0,0.08020431645469618,0.11711198267454816,0.0,0.1634763597172793,0.0,0.10080681749662762,0.0,0.0,0.3200959459323194,0.0,0.0,0.09808583416579518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380444179225352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551506932732098,0.061949385153621625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036003846489497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604880637131653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634453230015752,0.08688985078866902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792607504933956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0501862770283667,0.0,0.05459190617466605,0.0,0.07682626072768861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225539816774057,0.08604899171132123,0.0948372683873491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298084578376285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025946884301057,0.0,0.08538065626714691,0.0,0.0,0.1055817961118656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500819996962895,0.08066442539398154,0.0,0.0,0.08166497349042633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375054800608616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408575790815322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022985059281184,0.13018260933973466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666090671983668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919144171082344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153713685952019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176297026238598,0.0,0.09137303976826174,0.0763890806998228,0.0,0.09721570162732794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395004806080321,0.0,0.0,0.20397078305779145,0.0,0.0,0.0803086878608587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190829319312464,0.06155001008556962,0.18875275640989986,0.0,0.056012121603165516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652169942979737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296316569068707,0.0,0.0,0.11331485137584905,0.07624627306233893,0.07705183624852363,0.11697261823076995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105024211045397,0.0,0.0618581245635999
EDAnonymous,deanhipchester,2019/02/16,What's something you're proud of/want to brag about today? Copied from an /r/askmen thread but what's something you're proud of or just want to brag about? ED or not ED related. Let's spread some positivity around here 💕,1.7006666666666668,4.169797733333333,2.0800000000000023,96.18000000000002,82.77777777777777,5.377777777777778,17.88888888888889,6.742157984588678,-0.2639777777777779,178,4,40,2,5,54,31,45,0.0,0.726,0.27399999999999997,0.9092,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34920071685597565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011194941420433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6039724661568506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718231657555533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4627383756491719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AlcoholicRacoon,2019/02/16,Why do I do this to myself?? Binged goldfish crackers and cookie dough. Counted it and It was like 1300 calories altogether 😭,1.3482608695652196,3.331748173913041,2.621391304347828,84.46165217391305,110.7391304347826,3.5791304347826087,26.33913043478261,5.6839178017228535,1.2802069565217398,100,5,16,1,5,32,20,23,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761170522694845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8793819150620605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twentyfourthousand,2019/02/16,I feel so disgusted in the shower I cringe when I comb my hair and I have to take out the large clumps from the brush. It’s so much worse in the shower when the long strands gather on the shower mat. This sucks. ,0.33999999999999986,2.471174111111111,1.2933333333333366,101.82000000000004,85.66666666666667,4.488888888888889,13.444444444444445,5.6839178017228535,-1.2704222222222223,165,2,40,1,5,51,32,45,0.20600000000000002,0.794,0.0,-0.8615,3,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,6,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,6,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,3,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834061631740889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960257757718458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4120327509198665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42142702118184977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711984370007329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GuavaSama,2019/02/16,"My bf kinda triggers me.. Y I K E S First of all, i love him so much it hurts ok haha.
But this week he was extremly distant, like not texting/talking to me for over 24h, on multiple days. 

And i just think ""maybe if i would be skinnier, he would give me more attention"", ""If i get skinny enough he would care more"". Is this even relatable? 

I'm so lonely and hurt, he doesn't seem to care. 
The last few days i restricted so heavy and slept so little.
It feels like im dying, but tbh if he does not even care, whats the point in trying to get better.. 

Sorry for this sad rant, i just cant really talk to anybody about this ",0.8761363636363626,2.4898207045454583,2.9136363636363636,93.76545454545456,80.5909090909091,6.218181818181819,19.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.17480606060606085,471,11,111,6,12,159,88,132,0.127,0.7390000000000001,0.134,0.017,0,2,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,9,13,0,0,2,2,8,3,2,1,1,23,20,12,1,6,9,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,1,12,9,11,14,6,10,0,4,0,1,10,5,0,5,7,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353073298004902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4679508751856982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197331943539529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15877959202624525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388268625156494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15807969228151145,0.0,0.20209706464959315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735640223724742,0.10929617332331043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013331913908902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986204803264067,0.14676206509307976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275581784300627,0.0,0.165255584388375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470736829047994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494864910089676,0.1533362936266736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13807955772983624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536991402532083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112465342525024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462511553514235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980093893283556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927646064893215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712599154627545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459353288961724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802989234634082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387024992025423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271944719472175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260393783030043,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cat_whisker,2019/02/16,"Today was a ""fat"" day. ^ As the title says, today was a ""fat"" day. I felt exactly like I did 30lbs ago, at 102lbs. I've been forced into recovery, and all was well up until Wednesday, when *someone* caught me binning my packed lunch. And that little snitch grassed me up to my teacher. Now I have to eat with the school counsellor. Great. Just what I fucking wanted. :))

Anyway, back on track, this is pretty irrational, as when I've done the body checks, I can ***clearly see*** bones. Because that's all I am. But noooppppeeeee. Dickhead brain decides to make me feel like a fucking cow, even though I've ate 670 calories today, *and* (TMI ahead I'm sorry) I've took two reasonably sized shits today, so I'm a few pounds lighter.


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EDAnonymous,tentaclebarn,2019/02/16,"EDanon IRL? Have any of you been to an ED support group IRL? I found one that meets in my city and I'm thinking of trying it out, but I'm scared everyone else will be thinner than me and I'll spend the time comparing myself to them, or it'll just generally make me fixate on it more.",0.7946448087431683,2.687773737704924,2.689754098360656,93.88632513661207,82.11475409836065,6.033879781420765,20.002732240437158,7.1686216300943375,0.2647027322404374,222,6,52,3,6,74,49,61,0.07,0.899,0.031,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,10,11,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,7,1,8,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24535539008041105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301400896498589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447584815058876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955969934321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24083583747314066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24448643877745824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36122229591769095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094299251764059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311851459862316,0.0,0.0,0.21038453920354924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449585357760181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DootDeeDootDeeDoo,2019/02/16,"Overweight with ED- Do compliments make you lean into your bad behaviors? My boyfriend's co-worker (M) hadn't seen me in a couple months, I came in to pick my boyfriend up one night and M says:

""Wow! I didn't recognize you!"" clarified by my boyfriend later to mean he was shocked by how much weight I'd lost. When I met my boyfriend (and his coworker M) I weighed around 250-270lbs (I was in a period of denial and refusing to use a scale) that night I weighed 225.

I proceeded to heavily B/p (with a lot more p than b, some days probably negative in calories because of n.e.a.t. from my job) for the next week and lost an additional ten pounds or so. Back to ""normal"" (for me) levels of disordered behavior and I've gotten down to 212 as of this morning (ALMOST IN THE UNDER 200 CLUB WOO!!!! - *ahem* sorry).

I don't regularly see many people, I'm kinda a homebody when I'm not at work, but (almost) everyone who does see me is all compliments and support. ""You're doing so good!!"" ""You look great!!"" ""Your clothes are so loose on you!!"", ""How much have you lost!"". Etc. 

Only my roommate actually addresses the real issue, but she's bitter that she's not losing weight, so from her I get comments about how she wishes she could throw up to be skinny too, or ""I can't eat like that, I'll gain weight. Probably because I digest it, though"" (like, yeah, I have an eating disorder. BUT ***you***wouldn't have to have one to lose weight if you didn't do shit like eat snacks while waiting for your dinner to cook, hmm, Karen?- but that's a whole other issue). 

Anyway.... Does anyone who's overweight ever use this positivity to fuel their disordered behaviors, to get more, even though they know that if people knew HOW you were looking weight, they'd test you differently? Maybe even tell you to stop/slow down?

I know I'm hurting my body, I know this is not a safe way or timescale to be losing this much weight (I'm terrified about all the loose skin I'm gonna have if I keep losing this fast) ... But it's finally going away. I keep telling myself that as soon as I'm not ""fat"" (officially fat, whatever that is) anymore, I'll switch to healthy maintenance, but... Idk. Most people say the disordered habits never really go away.

I just... I think I'm at a point where I'm okay with that risk, or at least okay putting off dealing with it until I ""get there"", because having people proud of me for what I'm doing with my body feels so much better than the alternative.

I just keep thinking of all the people who haven't seen me in a while (I'm not active on social media, especially pictures. I hate my picture being taken and even more sharing it) and what they'll think when I suddenly start posting a ton of skinny/sexy pictures. How many of them wouldn't recognize me, when I finally reach my GW.

And, compared to that a little heart trouble risk seems... Inconsequential. I've actually caught my disordered brain trying to rationalize it a couple times like ""well, overweight people *are* supposed to do activities that get their heartrate up some every day, aren't we?"" ...

SMH. 

I'm a mess. Anyone else?",2.5831975443226805,4.853471728785364,3.8245846003786816,86.09819883527456,77.96838602329451,7.006724424809227,24.005995754202765,8.047967983731553,1.4217143037466289,2403,82,476,43,58,783,290,601,0.132,0.7709999999999999,0.098,-0.9604,2,0,0,0,0,0,151.0,1,12,6,11,32,34,3,2,22,3,33,27,9,9,5,81,86,44,0,7,20,0,8,4,0,3,6,2,1,0,26,19,21,6,10,2,0,6,15,17,1,3,17,17,66,17,69,61,18,61,0,8,6,0,39,26,1,15,31,295,92,3,0.0,0.0,0.1127021759328175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564716363221746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726782608286046,0.08075372001280245,0.05916688915106525,0.0,0.05140556429951893,0.0,0.0,0.1085072300960714,0.04440257525571518,0.04821491777760163,0.10560300614147228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05107102978310714,0.0,0.12828403254986098,0.0,0.0644628580668965,0.0,0.06604524556727183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04610492738437336,0.12778816363138662,0.0,0.0744818893442474,0.059532874022253074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603315534205082,0.3309056126050688,0.0,0.10106661135177156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726358990037433,0.04823879273746793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644012795247818,0.11442068832874687,0.05223393448967485,0.048652910123826526,0.05517811369192308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02919776133634237,0.0,0.0,0.12651431844815886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206781543660899,0.0,0.06563597531613766,0.04843402225273458,0.0,0.0636644027871846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057011533788598724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842846463606381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06181754348034385,0.0,0.0,0.12054219175154435,0.05730330511504603,0.1539800413626161,0.0,0.0,0.09520592862144572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284575707388625,0.057875965996712325,0.0,0.0,0.09698302559925566,0.2584089031452785,0.18910746581368293,0.04909299344724198,0.0,0.0,0.03854543958755522,0.11708935187700988,0.058012920520150016,0.0629015659251045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046091751648726816,0.0,0.16979777418213565,0.0,0.044536739217154134,0.0,0.06141278713368624,0.10838011421885692,0.0565781385582381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825942646035004,0.04391790667000977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401999426759211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05458797829926438,0.0,0.055304040057440815,0.0,0.1245184113366743,0.0,0.0,0.058049981036485815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657267993173551,0.0369931211324108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184276876491916,0.0,0.0,0.0920310637900636,0.05256915704696432,0.0,0.0,0.059274725914583874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05886406656311127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646411414381415,0.040872424198928926,0.0,0.0,0.048277660769361935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552868797188237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094388385765696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100257966150376,0.11346893824273868,0.0,0.033671751808658675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039205271695760484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974680638555093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04583553540570049,0.04631980064856304,0.4219093499846516,0.051919964262593286,0.0,0.0,0.06447057099672142,0.06640425110528587,0.0,0.0,0.08407853978555631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RedditRabbitt,2019/02/16,"How do you deal with knowing your SO prefers your lw? Hey guys! I’m really struggling with this. I know my husband prefers petite women. Like small! Think Ariana grande.  Now before everyone shouts “leave him!” ... honestly it’s partially my fault. I like, beat it out of him! MADE him tell me. I know he thinks I’m beautiful at every size and has watched my weight fluctuate through 2 pregnancies and called me beautiful every step of the way (and means it). But idddkkkk can’t get it out of my head and it’s so triggering! I’m already 6lbs from underweight and I have a feeling that when I get below that he will just think I’m hotter than ever with no concern. He does love me so if he knew I was underweight or hurting he would do everything in his power to help me.. but he won’t know that just looking at me. Idk! Any responses I’m sure would be helpful :) ",0.7693211289092261,3.2920181111111115,2.421845919145692,90.94132723112128,90.11111111111113,6.482684973302822,22.639460971268754,7.7425588080867325,1.3985634884312228,671,26,138,15,23,219,109,171,0.057,0.785,0.158,0.9576,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,0,2,9,9,0,1,2,0,11,3,1,3,2,35,31,14,0,5,6,1,2,2,0,4,0,1,0,2,9,10,1,0,12,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,5,22,6,16,23,0,12,0,1,2,1,23,7,0,2,5,79,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17791699172878905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963926511658437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719152176915891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462985689765705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662170121573621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109003171492634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583822243911473,0.2716798570994661,0.15405843149656126,0.14489960748073302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152075186554053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684679480105271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963917009665304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546447488199093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21613288986713894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17259585640649205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544225551574199,0.0,0.0,0.17071514268621665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753384061758596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538930389169165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455128345922166,0.1525560180162828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756224694306219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328555719830143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854850788510087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519536751932713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409187028674927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30992149188359386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797376022734444,0.0,0.19632993453188535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22906076711891016,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beautifulchaos22,2019/02/16,"Chest pains?? TW for numbers and in general Has anyone experienced severe chest pains due to an ED? 

I started having severe chest pains yesterday (I had experienced them before but not this intense), and I had shortness of breath. I ended up going to the ER and they did multiple ECGs, multiple sets of bloodwork and a chest X-ray and everything came back normal, so I was sent home. 

But this morning and all day up until now, my chest hurts like mad, even when I’m sitting down. It’s like a stabbing pain that spreads to my left arm and shoulder and to my back. 

I’m not asking for medical advice, just wondering if others have experienced it? 

ED background: 
 
I haven’t really gotten a specific ED diagnosis (I just put EDNOS for my flair), but my general psychiatrist for my partial hospitalization program for general mental health said quite bluntly, that there is no doubt that I do have an eating disorder. 

I binge and purge occasionally but mostly restrict. Like I haven’t had any food whatsoever from Wednesday to yesterday, then I binged and purged last night around 11:30pm. I also don’t drink very much but water and occasionally some electrolyte drink. I’m planning to restrict again (no food at all) for as long as I can. 

I know this is so unhealthy but as you guys know, EDs are complicated. I’m so fixated on losing weight. I’ve lost 3lbs in 2 days and previously 5 lbs in 5 days. I still have a normal weight and BMI but my GW is severely underweight. 

Anyways, can anyone relate? ",4.557912734024448,6.5941990106761565,5.635992573108464,76.41584248800869,71.34875444839858,8.730372891845892,29.299241838155645,9.318704503766252,2.787107256691939,1186,48,211,27,23,392,164,281,0.188,0.78,0.033,-0.9927,0,0,2,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,2,4,16,12,1,1,7,0,20,22,8,0,2,42,35,31,0,3,12,0,2,3,0,0,6,1,1,1,9,15,8,2,3,2,0,4,7,9,1,0,10,6,25,3,28,25,5,37,0,3,0,0,7,11,0,5,23,135,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289804007872687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420845279055249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160767962936841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725655805019222,0.0,0.0,0.09373941487989536,0.09844138004190478,0.0,0.0,0.16193855588781902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960263030097099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043526336959212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20372956181158594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206830386116888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063080217843204,0.0,0.10774829160485984,0.0,0.0,0.0932646348318518,0.0,0.0,0.06954972365505821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463694106183926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546586004082547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059844474086082323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042636553284434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192908339432696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562458702963792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272593607564292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157403634370754,0.08583363659824349,0.0,0.0,0.11440886792838352,0.0,0.0,0.1543329314237861,0.0,0.0,0.09318727585569757,0.0,0.11780387838686095,0.11494749927269607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607877370656046,0.10611773504149978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740769027941083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881701163999236,0.20634348346186787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.448186927037065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585568566942324,0.0,0.11199961914522763,0.0,0.0,0.06745794111564167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016450960849343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568774252179993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453195352173826,0.0,0.08409279674492783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688361131048801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564543102083882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419346782070385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitluvr22,2019/02/16,"Losing My Ass :( Okay honestly I’ve cried enough over the fact I have disordered eating boohoo but, I was doing a body check the other night and was comparing before and after pics and man I really lost my ass :( I used to get so many compliments on how thick I was and now I attained the body I wanted but lost my ass in the process. I’ve seen people share similar experiences here so please, a moment of silence for our asses. ",1.9105751633986927,4.309130305882352,3.641568627450983,85.77594771241833,81.23529411764707,7.071895424836601,20.03267973856209,8.167268648758528,1.1318758169934642,336,9,66,7,9,112,59,85,0.27399999999999997,0.591,0.135,-0.9384,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,4,5,7,0,0,6,1,5,7,6,2,1,10,11,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,6,2,11,4,7,5,1,8,0,3,1,4,3,4,4,0,4,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883382749870289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668889803752576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23085495345295834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408658053520129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21504993022436564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171552800748433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055804236527148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980185788837817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351194199919125,0.4588370048355119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21307300302322832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19722439346038045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570104594345795,0.0,0.0,0.2306966291571021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346362463286035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151395697253736,0.0,0.0,0.12395999408743745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunainterlude,2019/02/16,fuck!!!!!!!!! got back in my restrictive ways because my teeth hurt and im tired of purging and not wanting to purge means I cant binge! which was going so well until last night I binged still didnt purge but now im going to a party tonight and stressing about this extra bloat weight on me I feel it and it's gross im freaking out!!! i stayed up late last night to workout and woke up early before work to do yoga as well it's not enough I just wanna have a good time at the party and I cant because of how I look and im already anticipating the alcohol calories fuck fuck fuck I was literally working out everyday restricting looking good feeling good why did I have to fuck it up the night before going out love this constant hell!!!! ,0.8246431199411361,3.218154205298013,2.607494481236205,91.30968175128773,86.41721854304636,4.94495952906549,21.63392200147167,6.42735559955562,0.4157016924208978,579,20,120,6,18,191,89,151,0.213,0.614,0.174,-0.8456,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,9,16,6,1,5,0,9,10,1,1,0,22,26,12,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,10,2,2,3,2,0,3,5,10,2,0,6,5,12,6,20,20,2,29,1,1,2,6,1,9,6,0,15,73,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159837271562643,0.0,0.0,0.1152353832356442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029623920256529,0.0,0.1273127995063636,0.0,0.17771565755618746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284613054919533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789875139975612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560065108568656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4826953073279965,0.0,0.0,0.17804109144322333,0.26275974854728995,0.08351806625995689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178892732294343,0.0,0.4511868908648714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024032795977392,0.11779574301141173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538109394013154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942474751680825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374923987292886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939868529922223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130296171282714,0.08339379446264826,0.0,0.11961827608504505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089095107720052,0.1200209666599839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061592463148701114,0.08288755987052936,0.0,0.12716129598739104,0.18778090440964826,0.0,0.09422715590958317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204502224348956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,percussivesilence,2019/02/16,"Anxiety vs. EDs I live in a city center in a huge apartment building. The store I want to go to is a 10 min walk. On that walk I have to pass a bunch of people. Even to talk the elevator to the lobby I have to see people. In the store there will be 100 people. Too many people that will be judging me. People will be hanging outside pubs and drinking. Watching me go get food to eat then throw up. 
It’s a Saturday night and I’m too petrified of people seeing me to go get bp food. ",0.2169638128861422,2.218270184466021,2.7258958517210954,92.19692850838484,85.01941747572816,5.2988526037069725,20.0432480141218,6.574015621080383,0.1921533980582524,371,11,83,4,11,128,61,103,0.054000000000000006,0.898,0.049,-0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,9,0,9,4,0,0,0,4,18,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,15,12,1,20,0,0,3,0,1,8,0,0,4,51,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679624807603518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236927542871607,0.0,0.16960088982727806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947454334029676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008446406723463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319227012190208,0.0,0.2825940691514572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635792243835494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804176998898362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554263417629244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6894499435083037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26415831337926915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322141946413651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776206520169096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JanuaryEmber,2019/02/16,"I’m scared for my health  I stopped Talking to my in real life eating disordered classmate. She got mad at me for telling her how I’m eating less and my pants are lose and how I’m scared. So I can’t go to her at every Ed issue i want to rant about when she can with me. 

I have no appetite to eat unhealthy foods anymore. Normally I use to do small-medium binges. But since I become vegan the urge it’s gone. I’m eating less and it’s only fruits, veg. It’s scaring me. I also can’t really eat anything being a vegan in Alabama. 

I’m tired everyday. Granted I’m not taking b12 or any vitamin supplements but I don’t think it would help much. I’m tired when I wake up. I’m exhausted when I get home from school. My knees feel weak.",0.2576470588235296,2.3052562484076446,2.8181341326339466,91.30703634319971,85.2420382165605,6.241888347695768,20.063319595354066,7.510576382923642,0.6608609216935175,569,17,127,10,17,197,97,157,0.196,0.753,0.052000000000000005,-0.9575,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,1,3,2,0,9,16,2,3,0,18,26,13,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,1,0,4,4,7,1,2,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,2,2,21,0,15,22,3,12,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,1,5,69,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09915829678693984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843204608755101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229691511954478,0.0,0.0,0.10203684667513926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694210054429276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210835329764104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6343862595251902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447065080589704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626953068402199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993455075962073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478196932410113,0.0,0.07046888911788482,0.0,0.09916966869117236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180027541783784,0.0,0.0,0.08311084931376625,0.0,0.12437651805256587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941796482268295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875809292509145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871804490685846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115016927586253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214882098834764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430334753196286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113280135960402,0.07943400364352927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724201509529588,0.12548897773554352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256946959241088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366489131123097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322837622104177,0.0996620219016056,0.10837659262975753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945062079436048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850267021896201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709137184586498,0.0,0.0,0.0731351243851594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808208186832703,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orkestrels,2019/02/16,"can you gain weight on a plateau? i’ve been high restricting for the past four days (800-900) and i usually walk for 2-3 hrs every day, with exercise being higher on weekends, to give you an idea of my activity level.

i’m trying to get comfortable with a higher intake but increasing it has made me gain about five pounds, with the last two gained in the last two days. is this normal during a plateau, or is it more typical to stay at the same weight?? i weigh and measure all my food, usually overestimating weight by a few grams to compensate for any error.. i just feel really bad and i don’t even know if this is a plateau, or just something to get used to with a higher intake. or am i just doing something wrong? plz help :(",5.03720700152207,5.290632294520549,5.9311872146118745,81.43245814307461,68.52054794520548,9.502587519025877,27.86605783866057,9.444778638647367,2.1625610350076108,569,17,118,11,9,188,95,146,0.09699999999999999,0.784,0.11900000000000001,0.3227,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,3,5,3,0,0,11,0,10,6,0,2,1,24,18,8,0,2,8,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,5,1,3,2,0,2,1,2,0,4,2,4,10,1,20,15,5,18,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,4,9,75,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953317335288936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220860519793493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831798195089711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667265769585608,0.0,0.12331876852884452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400650778407464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698505768816628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293927276789954,0.14040658043282284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810532919721686,0.15464258746686402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522819349960668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804383392782368,0.23861391055430944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849403834561413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340655789959372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972188986895914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376512382253528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22535775198422886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600554386179138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937218170619258,0.0,0.28595454332491577,0.0,0.0,0.12641230809056264,0.3224005903345114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5346991715242996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002707723494353,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thecowardlylion8,2019/02/16,"NON calorie-counting nutrition tracking apps Hi all,

I'm looking for some advice. Nutrition is still really important to be, but every time I try to track nutrients in an app I get completely obsessed by the calories and it destabilizes my recovery. Does anyone know of any nutrition apps that let you track micro and macronutrients, but DOES NOT include calories?    

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Thanks! ",5.31296153846154,8.871428661538463,5.369519230769232,71.0373557692308,77.76923076923076,9.403846153846157,35.817307692307686,9.516144504307137,4.9391923076923065,313,18,42,10,8,98,54,65,0.038,0.8759999999999999,0.086,0.4937,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,6,6,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24484692790059254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27148453349185464,0.3044610529377681,0.17039119849052842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519923520515582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627101780488816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385381382009377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110984466965055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090864636054406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377026831608463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562172922766692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21040952553241984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051685369349064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009966104127255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306844298300314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610509990027876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701155963098326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044610529377681,0.0
EDAnonymous,noonelovesacowgirl,2019/02/16,"DAE an instacart (or similar) shopper? Does having an ED complicate things ever? Sorry if this is too niche a question. I just graduated college and the job search is about as terrible as everyone says. Basically, I quit my shit part time job too early and can't start full time work (as a substitute teacher) for at least two weeks. I need to get out of the house and do things or I will binge like crazy. 

I have a car and actually love grocery shopping most of the time--reading labels, comparing options for macros/calories/price, etc. And the idea of doing it for someone else seems like it will take the pressure off when passing the baked goods aisle or whatever. Almost seems like the pleasure of baking for others but not eating anything yourself in a way. 

Just wondering if being around food so much has been triggering for others, does it wear off after a while? Or if it's just awful or not worth it for any other reason? ",5.583305084745764,6.7092676271186455,5.895833333333336,79.06375000000001,67.64406779661017,8.611864406779661,30.56920903954802,8.841846274778883,2.4976971751412425,738,28,133,12,12,236,122,177,0.09,0.852,0.057999999999999996,-0.6766,2,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,1,1,14,1,12,7,2,2,1,33,20,20,0,4,14,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,2,0,11,7,4,0,6,1,2,2,3,3,0,1,1,1,6,6,22,16,6,19,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,15,12,97,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.14216027118262586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587501978007758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906572714195212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988020826959693,0.12968390185246764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549668053586038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906449854801254,0.12169489719823699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246897251049713,0.0,0.13177368104080145,0.0,0.13920113859142322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17615386752490755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611050544724493,0.0,0.0,0.12218741441191892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809232966336538,0.0,0.16445221810979802,0.0,0.0,0.2891249730500937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135120723444848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314796733819409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708975857896386,0.10801805488463707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775458672766932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319219199560372,0.15494600254709492,0.145716968951264,0.0,0.0,0.1497807804024552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584863207580935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652387342048602,0.0,0.0,0.14953590807893827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343211244036892,0.0,0.0,0.16307408655319186,0.10311131723800422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953138520241884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356337761535194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548372466827841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423057951924793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115632055710432,0.11685374069885135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798108503266567,0.1060549888910656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,usr687,2019/02/16,"Adult to girls bra size conversions? Well the day has finally come where my 32a bra is too big. I’ve always been small chested (32b-30c) my whole life, but my weight loss put me down into a 32a about a month and a half ago and now even this bra is gapping in the cups. I’ve looked for AA cups but can’t seem to find them anywhere at a decent price. I saw someone mention shopping in the girls department for bras and them fitting better and I’m thinking of going that way. Anyone know what the conversion for sizes is like? I don’t want to spend too much time awkwardly shopping in the girls department and I’d like to have an idea of what I need going into it ",2.8299064171122987,4.3743588088235335,3.54799465240642,91.64620320855616,74.88235294117645,6.7101604278074864,24.128342245989305,7.348242739294969,0.8547735294117644,522,16,113,6,11,165,90,136,0.044000000000000004,0.855,0.10099999999999999,0.7789,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,2,7,6,0,1,10,0,8,3,1,0,0,17,19,7,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,5,8,1,0,5,2,4,6,2,2,2,1,2,3,9,4,17,17,2,24,0,1,2,0,9,11,0,1,8,65,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19363608651424524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817616499872899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274006741380675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931946300610705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18816886213269976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408773341679426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427920386492227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392930694155026,0.19965247761050176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24829180111995955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24659498127343246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005027924020745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15429239015739166,0.21343993242781745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343667469036493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743587107301277,0.0,0.16058036379737115,0.16197233778680584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21959503575754447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988618379430041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508561213477187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996912668887262,0.0,0.0,0.1273755720573649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884303971605274,0.17338948018010097,0.0,0.2660041029645633,0.19640603158179454,0.0,0.0,0.2438832380399242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WhyRedTape,2019/02/16,"That causal fraudster feeling Kind of looking for some grounding reassurance whilst I lose my mind.

I was chatting to someone about bulimia and relapsing and that shit. The topic came to purging and, bless her, the girl I was talking to was really struggling with purging right now. She asked if I ever had purging via vomiting and I said only once - which is true and I'm glad because boy did it feel amazing. She had a bit of a limited reaction and now I'm questioning everything. 

I'm not crazy right? Sure I don't vomit as I promised I'd never do it again but fuck me, the use of laxatives is valid. Right? Right? 

I feel like a fraud for some reason even though I'm diagnosed and I'm recovery.. ",2.440375391032326,4.866756817518251,3.8162095933263838,85.13169708029199,79.36496350364962,7.41793534932221,28.03388946819604,8.418075326091056,2.292777267987487,552,25,106,12,14,181,89,137,0.174,0.713,0.113,-0.8643,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,7,13,2,1,6,0,10,5,1,2,4,26,24,11,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,5,9,0,1,5,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,8,5,13,9,11,16,3,12,1,1,1,1,11,5,2,4,7,64,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506338997646212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822276605559384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591117750632482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842886942748904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16354258189109272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642420999434847,0.14575043973661125,0.0,0.0,0.1448123897477984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444150490867809,0.1151106169850262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896119928755774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16779109793486804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871950905393164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530781058502,0.1802621783771844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269439571491093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427264744182973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159716685076812,0.0,0.12254589419701248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805013987396771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322338772593123,0.1656674871288689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5504132724358551,0.15327061337331374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653966420818912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365241110645777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844705544500915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186221148752452,0.0,0.0,0.12950941733298504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583084617969441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391637547032805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,datnastaythrowaway,2019/02/16,"Was doing well until I got ghosted by the first guy to show me interest in forever Guess I’ll be going hungry until I feel like I’m good enough for anyone to be interested
 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  ",6.5327027027027045,5.960372675675679,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,65.48648648648647,10.643243243243244,32.013513513513516,10.125756701596842,3.1536054054054063,147,5,27,3,2,51,31,37,0.0,0.68,0.32,0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,9,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,3,5,7,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479370723448013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663855185950855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792909964669684,0.2533186557082065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016134642669169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152126190346206,0.297412668476998,0.28359744317469626,0.0,0.3906200736433078,0.35109914011830257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17323441341771226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31881835124061797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snefferu,2019/02/16,"What was that all about I’ve lost weight. I’m sure it’s just a blip but I haven’t had any blips since December, only incremental gains and plateaus. What disturbs me is the fleeting, yet undeniable rush of glee I think I felt for a brief moment, like I’d forgotten which way I’m trying to go. I tried to pretend it wasn’t there, because it doesn’t match my “frontal lobe” intentions. It was something underneath. Why do I not feel this from my gains? I feel accomplished, responsible and virtuous when I gain. But I don’t get that visceral dopamine hit 😬",1.64076923076923,4.221921454545456,2.8354545454545463,89.8047202797203,84.45454545454545,7.020979020979023,24.825174825174827,8.139509932561175,1.686314685314685,440,18,92,10,13,141,80,110,0.079,0.645,0.276,0.9787,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,1,3,0,9,1,0,1,2,13,19,5,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,2,1,0,4,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,6,4,11,2,7,12,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,50,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19059697457073815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708533644553701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28343146324051044,0.0,0.26910846626816665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643239887098575,0.0,0.15928704525298185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692846893078547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305953854520132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21316217374596125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23184681849048985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576979954196301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641563744151845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795892455275966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805773804185486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22246967359582745,0.0,0.34130009444753384,0.0,0.0,0.2529050758860785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minisxule,2019/02/16,"Why does everyone love Peach? Since Peach is down, I’ve been seeing it mentioned everywhere on this sub. 

Why does everyone love it so much? I’ve never tried it,  but all the praise for the app really makes me want to start an account!",3.16,5.145793043478268,3.77326086956522,88.49293478260874,75.08695652173913,8.078260869565218,22.369565217391305,8.841846274778883,1.43888695652174,184,5,38,4,4,58,36,46,0.0,0.76,0.24,0.9118,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,5,8,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,4,7,2,4,1,0,1,2,4,2,0,0,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142470644951627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523229049740733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272326247540199,0.0,0.15798823157575367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398977904766094,0.0,0.1825450881961256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162566183482246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18860629394562486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957872321378689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752596645668158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069272033052473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396021996830973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4271405156537363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HoldenCaulfield7,2019/02/16,"Why does it feel like it’s mentally and emotionally so much easier to steadily lose weight than to maintain? I want to lose but I know I’m ok where I am. Really struggling. I know I’m at a healthy (still underweight) weight. I know I look attractive at this weight. But I can’t help but want to lose another 5 pounds. Why? Because I know it’s possible. Maintaining is what feels *impossible.*  You are ok with your weight. No one thinks you look sickly. You are at a conventionally, “hot,” weight but yet you’re still unhappy. Nothing beats stepping on the scale in the AM and seeing you dropped a pound over night. Nothing beats that rush in the morning. You don’t need coffee anymore. You have that, “fuck yes, I did it,” feeling for about 4 hours. It’s blissful.

Maintaining is what’s scary.. it’s what leads to laziness. It’s what leads to eating full meals on dates, (not just ordering Brussel sprouts and lying saying you ate before, sure, I’ll have a teeny tiny sexy bite of your steak though).

Fuck. I know I’m ok. I know I don’t need to lose more. But I want to. I want the rush. ",0.2030050505050518,2.5994473981481505,1.6580976430976442,94.83303030303031,95.85185185185185,5.2107744107744125,19.508417508417512,6.850034144686104,0.4147240740740745,842,28,181,14,33,269,117,216,0.149,0.652,0.19899999999999998,0.769,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,9,0,8,8,13,2,1,8,4,12,11,0,2,1,30,37,10,0,6,7,0,9,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,14,4,8,0,10,0,0,5,5,7,0,1,2,13,23,6,21,35,3,23,1,4,3,2,11,10,2,0,7,99,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935154299757516,0.0,0.0,0.09396456001592576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057757503570941136,0.0,0.080623572537187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291461643950912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695086154036994,0.0,0.10657875130916088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372231242634145,0.06768799269817807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518600514494084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350758960599419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330769800689878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31242614940116264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04628908864887599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591289202468036,0.4239951216781241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548370265317574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965068448566017,0.14050888823279992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889145829659717,0.0,0.18182652962998572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420369933202627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681413790164243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069799726278001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753474153633263,0.0,0.0,0.07550189179801133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513317561202473,0.0,0.0,0.09905118535221256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929887208956475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607106949455028,0.0930894324679474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22353930942042327,0.0,0.0,0.576887715575694,0.0,0.0,0.17099067226639214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prlncesss,2019/02/16,"No more diet coke My fiancé is worried about my diet soda consumption. Its linked to early death, stroke, and heart issues in women. And I can tell it really worries him. He gets pretty bad anxiety. So. Im going to try and stop drinking diet soda every day. Which sUCKS bc i live on mcdonalds diet coke. 
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EDAnonymous,GlassSnowdrops,2019/02/16,"Considering asking to go into inpatient to give my parents a break My mum is on the verge of a nervous breakdown, my dad isn't much involved but when he is gets angry and upset at everything. Only problem is, when we go to the clinic, they act like everything is perfect. I feel like my home isn't a good environment to recover in, nor is my mum able to cope with being my sole 'carer' like the clinic appears to push for. She doesn't deserve this stress.

My clinic is actually famously fucking awful to it's inpatients but I'm willing to do it if it means she's not under so much pressure. I've never fought with her before.",4.948571428571427,5.420053182539686,6.660436507936506,75.36303571428572,68.76190476190476,9.157142857142855,31.62301587301588,9.188382445141503,2.8116539682539687,495,20,92,9,8,172,83,126,0.191,0.6920000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.8967,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,1,1,4,12,2,4,6,1,12,4,0,0,2,15,23,8,0,2,4,4,1,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,5,6,7,0,0,1,1,13,5,17,20,2,15,0,0,0,1,14,6,1,2,6,64,17,0,0.2097629110485699,0.0,0.2046983425197104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961000059188486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849278753391218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770427577197406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606243049642868,0.14985466556570975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939224311898855,0.10959246337799963,0.20122369808134705,0.2384261926741687,0.17593917765363382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104093028040726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074386884132929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22849330423644276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30839975050116425,0.0,0.16178208847393494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595341461312208,0.0,0.0,0.2329168889525489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20071477677355404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402827058912393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flightless_bird666,2019/02/16,"i miss purging hahaha (tw) just a cringey vent about what happened yesterday and today I just need to get this off my chest and I need help, anyways, so I've been stuck in a shitty starve/binge cycle for about a month. i fast like 3 days then binge in 3 days. I'm not losing weight anymore. I tried EVERYTHING and still can't get out of this cycle. so after thinking a lot I decided that I'll do what someone suggested and ""break the rules""  eat ""normally"" for 3 days 3 meals a day. without counting calories. no binging or purging. or weighing myself or checking my body every minute.  but yet I did. :) it's the second day and I binged too much yesterday and today also. it's getting suspicious and my mom actually asked why I'm in the kitchen every minute???  I eat like it's the last time i'll ever do idk why, it's 3:30pm and I already ate 5 SANDWICHES. it feels so disgusting I'm so full of bread and I wanted to purge so bad. so I did. honestly I don't think I can do this and I'm thinking i'm just gonna start restricting again tomorrow but I know I'll end up binging again I don't know what to do anymore::""))))",0.33475369458128057,2.6270702586206944,2.544014778325124,91.58103448275864,87.79310344827586,5.728078817733991,22.509852216748765,7.1686216300943375,0.9012766009852222,868,33,186,14,28,293,125,232,0.12,0.787,0.094,-0.8273,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,1,19,7,1,0,9,0,11,11,2,0,1,35,35,23,0,4,10,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,12,11,9,1,7,0,1,0,6,4,0,1,5,2,20,3,17,29,3,31,0,2,0,0,4,7,0,4,25,108,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.1261908895216427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270017343224886,0.10341160457197032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564876092072885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208902518578826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797100077633452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363765424138986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169811182352817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646390797004931,0.0,0.0,0.1145329859197071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697106292599865,0.2179036546730751,0.0,0.11621823703766893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538456679434512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268220448154606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143511088093564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667581597678073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421341480592289,0.10540740023984377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635165511254662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466823323647746,0.0,0.10993733636661238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15144988890239347,0.10321644798820298,0.0,0.0950599754862384,0.1917679857655741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266993396187631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956653314466384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09152844696882002,0.0,0.10326957396981397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24857575553877745,0.0,0.0,0.07540348315935827,0.0,0.2451473147863601,0.0,0.0,0.08779507703870494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627219111569182,0.0,0.0,0.1574684656896025,0.0,0.0,0.2333698402829788,0.0,0.0,0.12465317192899232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,buddyflies,2019/02/16,"Woo hate myself yaaaaaay I fucking suck at having an eating disorder. 15 years and i still have zero self control. Oh I’m sad ok I gonna eat all the bread in the world call myself a fat bitch then try purge. Purging doesn’t undo the damage so shame shame shame shame shame but maaaaaaaaaaan that doesn’t help oh you fat bitch don’t you dare eat tomorrow. Shit I woke up at 2pm and I’m hungry. Fuck. Ok I’ll have something small. Oh shit it’s 20 minutes later and I’ve eaten more than anyone who’s ever existed. You fat bitch. Purge. Oh it made no difference. You fat bitch. You fat useless bitch. Fuck I’m ugly. Fuck I’m ugly with terrible teeth and I’m fat.  
Eating disorders are so glamorous ",-0.8391666666666673,1.0276806388888922,1.076111111111114,96.84666666666668,107.19444444444444,3.8,15.75,5.82211442006289,-0.4601416666666665,548,15,116,6,27,178,88,144,0.447,0.474,0.079,-0.9974,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,0,1,4,25,13,5,5,2,7,19,9,2,2,11,22,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,4,5,12,1,0,0,0,0,4,22,0,1,3,0,11,3,6,18,2,12,0,3,0,4,9,6,12,0,6,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877729848169968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424958773439114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584431571288598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475941383043992,0.3238088594346229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5782063794873584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778425407875166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5223969347066179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947209587479387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946884145035695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367042357893422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473724803545487,0.0,0.2900174651103407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875437861575736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281615425784153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591114375249377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097143376727852
EDAnonymous,rutsuma,2019/02/16,"I drank almost a litre of liquid in attempt to stop myself from binging And it's working only because i have no precooked food in my fridge. 
I wish i can just fall sleep until tomorrow, but insomnia won't let me. ",4.248062015503876,5.244149,5.641860465116278,80.14248062015506,70.62790697674419,7.593798449612403,30.6124031007752,7.793537801064563,2.175486821705426,169,7,31,2,3,57,39,43,0.084,0.867,0.049,-0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,6,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,6,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537372872244192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21534305867357728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42716149294302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612306762701021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26866895266762203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535135466687734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953398633866246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062297579706335,0.0,0.0,0.257176342621926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HonestRaspberry,2019/02/16,"I binged again I was on my period and thought I could eat slightly more. I wanted pancakes and made a lot of them. I don't even know why but I finished the whole stack of pancakes. In the morning I ate almost a loaf of bread with butter. I feel so useless. I can't throw away food as my parents bought them. If the house is empty of food I'm craving, I even went out at night to bought food to binge. I wish I am of at least a normal bmi and never ever binge. ",-0.5899333333333311,1.4633949400000006,1.4660000000000009,99.39466666666668,89.6,3.733333333333334,17.333333333333336,4.7782277997778095,-0.8676666666666666,354,9,84,1,12,117,67,100,0.079,0.8809999999999999,0.04,-0.5536,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,6,0,6,6,0,1,2,19,17,7,0,5,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,3,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,7,2,16,0,15,9,4,14,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,3,6,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788287598184302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690057540620618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418327405961839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177218929250194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346618279541841,0.16068742542479572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982116976525893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644416500190965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497510181034492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762743769813112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102493810787,0.0,0.16808922488293074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370085181508711,0.0,0.0,0.16670505190946244,0.17405151476857925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972504997847216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102796332163464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047778973304039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467598159131233,0.16029434062077236,0.19833103078186595,0.2042796172951369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FakeStegosaurus,2019/02/16,"Just relapsed into purging And I want to binge to feel something good. I've gained so much weight recently though. I was maintaining at about 20lbs overweight before my bulimia made a reappearance, but now I'm bordering on obese again. All the purging isn't enough to negate my food addiction. ",5.109433962264152,7.922742962264158,4.574188679245285,81.14769811320755,72.20754716981132,8.768301886792452,31.35471698113208,9.3871,3.3118483018867924,239,11,40,6,5,72,46,53,0.035,0.866,0.099,0.2846,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,0,1,1,8,6,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,7,4,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32573141173103504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542531293207279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087358263242926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510800813279682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361304940740863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506156529156841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28272771142967873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219649215887099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29502470208485304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300275240456077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935652535212253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623744259199792,0.0,0.0,0.3638526607938473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vomitandthrowaway,2019/02/16,"WYR bulimia edition: purge in a toilet you've just peed it, it risk peeing yourself while purging? Sure we all know its rare to find plumbing that can give a good flush without a wait period between, so if you have one flush before someone else uses the toilet would you:
Purge first and risk peeing yourself, or pee first and risk getting splashback of your own urine?
Definately not had to make this choice recently..",4.5615584415584385,7.090613207792213,4.331168831168832,83.60246753246757,72.76623376623377,6.477922077922077,27.883116883116887,7.447530270364453,1.7384857142857149,335,13,57,4,7,102,62,77,0.083,0.851,0.065,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,3,0,2,2,5,0,3,4,0,4,4,4,2,2,16,10,6,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,4,2,6,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,5,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23586162364243385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315501479729641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25333949512466314,0.4715420492051377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448162511686806,0.2658984085605376,0.0,0.2324872656034717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233207970312326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850212605600512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18782582180066115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736839677618311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348555655018625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26124092864736304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393964117645252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671937346628565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969022711780756,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sioclip,2019/02/16,"Anyone else don't eat vegetables? I noticed that almost everyone on here loves vegetables. Yes they do taste great, and are quite filling.

However, for some reason I choose to eat unhealthy junk instead. I still manage to lose weight because I'm still at a deficit. 

So yeah!! I'd like to know if there are others who are like this. If so, do you know any low calorie ""junk""?! 


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EDAnonymous,asheristrasher,2019/02/16,"sooo.... i relapsed 
So I’m a recovered kleptomaniac. Not the ‘uwu, I shoplift lingerie because fuck the man!’ idiots on tumblr, but a full blown, out-of-control klepto.

I’ve been ‘clean’ for about a year, but I honestly can’t function without being addicted to something. My drug and alcohol habits are borderline unhealthy, I self harm, and of course, I have an ED. I used to be more bulimic than anorexic, but I stopped purging and taking laxatives and now I’m a full time ana. Of all my problems, the two things I thought I had control over were purging and kleptomania. 

And then. And fucking then.

I hear from my therapist that I’m this close to being sent to inpatient again. Not for ED related stuff, but because I ‘can’t take care of myself’. Which, I admit, isn’t wrong. I quit my job and am taking this semester off because I’m *very* mentally unstable, and now I leech off my boyfriend and do nothing because uh, severe depression.

He called my therapist. Says he’s worried about me and thinks Im not taking my meds. And yeah, I’ve been cheeking the stupid Prozac. They don’t work and i don’t want them to make me gain weight, so I hid them away for a rainy day (I.e. if I ever wanted a ride in the ambulance again). And now I’ve been told that if I’m not taking my meds to take one misstep it’s back to inpatient for me.

So, what did I do? I walked to the dollar store for tape and walked out with a box of laxatives I didn’t pay for. 

There’s 25 of them. Little orange pills in a sheet, staring me in the face next to my collection of Prozac and other pills I compulsively hoard. I broke a year long clean streak. It’s been a month since I used laxatives. I’m too dissociated to process what I’ve done. 
 
I want to throw them out, but I can’t. I was raised with the mentality of ‘hide that in case you ever need it’ because my dad was a paranoid narcissist who periodically raided my room looking for anything he could use as an excuse to punish me. Which, through a bizarre series of events, led to this shitshow. 

Fuck. It’s 2:30 in the morning. I’m exhausted. ",2.1857417361754687,4.2580294746987954,3.686746987951807,87.5832746370096,78.34939759036145,6.955205437133149,25.821748532591904,7.969615865706242,1.5311433426011742,1612,63,336,28,39,532,210,415,0.155,0.7759999999999999,0.069,-0.9898,1,0,3,0,0,0,65.0,0,1,5,4,16,14,6,0,23,1,26,14,2,6,3,52,58,29,0,8,12,1,1,0,0,0,8,2,3,1,18,21,2,2,3,0,3,6,12,12,1,2,14,5,49,2,49,40,4,43,0,2,2,3,19,17,3,2,20,214,67,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384231586328266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179892578642953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838697950826726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949547156496415,0.07324543088401839,0.0,0.2903336740768653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726629148577623,0.0,0.09711910681798194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136737934197656,0.07605359042120301,0.0,0.0,0.06143177559699076,0.0,0.08204323344524657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974792237947688,0.0,0.0,0.1104658837350594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232770921192828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26418591547039666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073596239741959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289204873981912,0.0,0.0945261676841522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547081543907428,0.0,0.08429792566122132,0.0799904448958616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06358363934850805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116142855575611,0.0,0.19198983676092926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603185604140437,0.0,0.0,0.07063058345480304,0.0,0.0,0.10130507137232704,0.0,0.0,0.09140001061036088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645474432373907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091146438853577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013157159289601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575082225553922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937203188089144,0.10761135353493508,0.0,0.07879615230282379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333216861785695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963767967870831,0.0,0.0,0.10904450645264213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297206972513212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211974447312018,0.0632833756868506,0.061035737452322124,0.0,0.07562205253395933,0.05554412003451276,0.0,0.0,0.09102050251493153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305056783497076,0.0,0.0,0.2468099351537293,0.0,0.07859558228498384,0.16855209710956826,0.0,0.0,0.11599526962738615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182269113051447,0.0,0.06934697862934756,0.09673636106600388,0.0,0.0,0.1041466957128411,0.0,0.12268255504452305
EDAnonymous,whatever171,2019/02/16,"Mega food favourites/ safe foods appreciation post? :D Whether it's your favourite binge food, or foods that you eat when restricting.. whatever goes

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EDAnonymous,fatass_1,2019/02/16,"purging for the first time checked my weight. still a 22 bmi. just as i thought i was getting more muscle so i can finally burn more than three fucking calories i checked my body fat %. twenty-fucking-nine. i'm so fucking disgusting. i'm a pig and if i cant get my disgusting ass back in control i'm gonna beat my body into submission until i have control again. fuck every cell of fat on my body.

here goes nothing.",0.553283422459895,2.990386552941178,2.2777540106951872,92.49534759358288,89.35294117647058,4.973262032085562,26.550802139037433,6.574015621080383,1.1914705882352938,327,16,67,4,11,107,60,85,0.182,0.818,0.0,-0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,7,5,5,0,3,0,4,10,6,2,0,7,14,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,0,1,5,0,2,2,1,11,0,8,11,2,10,0,0,0,4,1,3,4,1,7,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355994949733786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5876432817262313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955749611555383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857944620964067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317885944310664,0.0,0.15000015619037038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.489088210479514,0.18426742922140504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920912512551847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083046136845184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999934205715214,0.10282900290868552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21474240496558228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittenbun,2019/02/16,"TODAY, on this morning's episode of How Self-Destructive Can You Be? we have this hoe > stood on the scales

> scales weigh me 2lbs heavier than yesterday

> thinks 'fuck this body' 🙃🙃🙃

> eats the following for breakfast, to spite herself:

- 2 strips of Cadbury Dairy Milk Big Taste Peanut Caramel Crisp Chocolate Bar @ 380kcal 

- 4 Lotus Biscoff Biscuits @ 160kcal

- 5 Cadbury Milk Chocolate Tree Decorations @ 250kcal

- 1 cup of tea @ 100kcal 

TOTAL: 890kcal

We caught up with this hoe and asked her why she did this and received the following comment: ""BECAUSE WE LOVE EATING 900 CALORIES BEFORE 9AM AND UNDOING 2 WEEKS OF RESTRICTING AND FASTING FOR 17H A DAY EVERY DAY""

Thanks for tuning in!",3.5564784946236543,6.652655669354843,3.4307741935483875,85.18949462365593,81.01612903225806,5.5647311827957004,31.65376344086021,7.0316486544052195,2.259444731182796,549,29,90,7,15,166,94,124,0.083,0.856,0.062,-0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,3,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,4,0,4,12,1,1,1,13,13,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,9,1,1,1,0,4,0,2,0,0,3,2,8,2,14,9,1,15,0,0,0,2,11,5,1,0,6,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327215599214292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15174907754478853,0.0,0.2118262044663388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765117819243876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32108625733554275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094473582243133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20973931995655726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301373244677113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467446278984726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596945431773149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291868269470269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159508139817148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359622245418929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996814468821505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22462602416080715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ccyybb,2019/02/16,"worst fears confirmed! knew i had gained weight these past two weeks, so weighed myself and it was a whopping 3 kilos. i mentioned it to my friend at work and she said “oh i wasn’t going to say anything but you do look like you have!” yippeeeeee! worst of all is i just want to binge and make myself feel better lol. the cycle never ends ",0.1866176470588244,2.5893138382352947,0.7708235294117642,101.64770588235297,94.44117647058823,2.72,15.623529411764707,3.1291,-1.3346576470588234,263,6,57,0,10,79,56,68,0.128,0.657,0.215,0.7119,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,3,2,6,0,1,2,1,6,2,0,1,2,11,13,5,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,5,5,10,3,5,8,3,6,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,5,37,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22756341905818425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445713125616333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449265054374828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111769463317671,0.1398235916569002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213649012326256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716029912168056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510024686099287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322184021718523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845881861640421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327959929168014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26398241262198485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26304658085562943,0.21991045218321295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701329416526146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631065590582133,0.0,0.22181840644927436,0.33674317235555684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013196025314996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aprlls,2019/02/16,"Worried about a friend who might have an eating disorder Hey, so one of my friends has expressed kind of concerning thoughts and behaviors to me over the last month-ish. It’s stuff like him avoiding food for days and talking about their anxieties related to it.

I am looking for help phrasing questions  to be less invasive and maybe some topics that might be best to avoid I guess?

Like how can I ask more about their reasons for not eating? Should I ask if they find their thoughts and behaviors worrying? 

Are there things I shouldn’t ask about? Like weight and body goals?

Should I directly tell them that I am concerned they are developing an eating disorder? 

I’m obviously really worried, but I want to ask things pretty gently.

Also, does environment matter? Just whenever we have some time alone?",5.0255216016859885,7.581039191780825,4.711917808219179,81.28371443624872,71.46575342465755,8.601896733403583,29.723919915700737,9.265573868473778,2.8584695468914645,646,27,113,15,13,197,98,146,0.102,0.7290000000000001,0.168,0.9054,0,3,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,6,2,9,9,0,2,4,0,15,6,1,2,1,29,25,10,0,5,4,0,1,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,8,6,5,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,18,7,15,16,5,4,0,0,1,0,21,1,0,7,6,79,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019481799901235,0.0,0.09280670035231924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877942206019312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339716195732229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217893588878874,0.0,0.0,0.12890755144615498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484390529054039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660111718214337,0.0,0.10155784116977512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.356250343560585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606937740239013,0.0,0.14033047536815355,0.0,0.17932289325751208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784430379750975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778717402602031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085024459060392,0.0,0.09459782632197654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17009135836716488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745440732836834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658977953606653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462255531624051,0.0,0.0,0.0926315571595756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863980295960138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806655186397502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000474074675625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434584914029124,0.11932073028097193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285171450904718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932781592951566,0.10143451716407482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541995141877144,0.0,0.0,0.1842645661052704,0.06767082375384112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06845044533819641,0.0,0.0,0.14132000727271915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35356915743113426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carolineeo,2019/02/16,Down the drain again Made it almost a week without purging and just like clockwork I fucked it all up as soon as the slightest evidence of concrete progress reared its head,7.323437500000002,8.258084468750003,5.400000000000002,84.845,63.6875,7.65,37.875,7.1686216300943375,2.6873875,141,7,25,1,2,40,29,32,0.12,0.736,0.14400000000000002,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,6,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,6,1,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42249681094523206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39006274402655305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330166425233515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061311795075243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992355142410847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384426810479059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067205187963687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jd060087,2019/02/16,"What is Peach? I’ve fairly new to Reddit and this sub, what is Peach? You all talk about it and I’m super curious. Could someone send me a private message if it’s an ‘issue’ to type it here? ",-1.2411382113821148,0.8073561463414656,1.4652439024390242,96.7284349593496,97.29268292682929,3.7089430894308943,16.589430894308947,5.46131890053228,-0.6271008130081301,146,4,33,1,6,50,33,41,0.0,0.8390000000000001,0.161,0.7744,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980371835477855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.520337816644345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.481485248601617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224044900522679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007010846577096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bingeyboa,2019/02/16,"Anyone else like lying to their therapist? I know I shouldn't, but I was a goody two shoes, honest kid, and now I get a weird fun thrill from making shit up to tell her...",1.5783333333333331,2.9663846111111134,2.8566666666666687,95.955,77.8888888888889,5.911111111111111,14.777777777777779,6.42735559955562,-0.7866555555555559,130,1,31,1,3,42,31,36,0.203,0.488,0.309,0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,2,0,2,2,2,1,0,5,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,6,4,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25337146135966543,0.3712819958246895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027063869795861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931883460648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914430576569014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770314381400354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241878995927401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719586893158792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167197667708694,0.0,0.0,0.42072942333510266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539743580110967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lunar_Heart,2019/02/16,"Does anyone know of any online resources where I can find HONEST reviews of residential treatment centers? Not the self-written ""beautiful facility staffed by compassionate professionals"" fancy-fonted lines, but patient-written rundowns of what it was like. 

I'm finally medically stable enough to enter res rather than IP and I'm considering actually doing it but Id need to find a place that isn't just going to make me worse like other treatment has in the past. ",8.654268292682925,9.714889060975608,8.937707317073173,60.193878048780526,60.82926829268293,10.950243902439025,39.57073170731707,10.793553405168565,4.8426897560975615,381,19,54,9,5,126,67,82,0.07200000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.162,0.7713,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,11,11,3,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,9,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,32,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.24397737967982625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001794047733942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481544473344002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21878873949535266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583310626819817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738778701607385,0.4570161223126196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14208859001894414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740103242781113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442882037635624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16688613633839114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518625757362811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853820464017676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386664380818968,0.0,0.0,0.2612111823701338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26081889351755905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547853962086811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,incognitomiscreant,2019/02/16,i'm full (of tea) but i can't stop drinking tea is this bad??? i've had a lot of water and 5 cups of tea (so far. i'm already plotting my next tea.) will my kidneys be chill with this? should i not make a habit of it or can i just be drinking tea at all times from now on? ,-1.9926339285714287,-0.4786330312499985,0.8819642857142859,105.02375,90.25,3.6571428571428566,16.955357142857142,3.1291,-1.2964705357142858,202,5,58,0,7,70,46,64,0.109,0.853,0.038,-0.7442,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,8,9,1,1,1,11,11,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,8,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,8,6,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659773178161444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769088243947275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6497695761988828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819518051280199,0.0,0.0,0.221374895031478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527070763956122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772691711274025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933842395346405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mxrikruz,2019/02/16,"Relapse: competition Right now, I’m battling with a relapse. For some reason, I feel extra competitive about getting skinner this time. In my other relapses, I wasn’t like this. So here I am competing with a girl that barely knows me but I feel like I need to be thinner than her. I feel the need to be thinner to please everyone. I don’t know what’s going on anymore. I feel so toxic and not like myself. ",1.1111111111111107,3.6303048641975337,3.3023333333333333,85.81350000000002,86.77777777777777,5.709135802469136,24.14938271604938,7.1686216300943375,1.2927767901234564,318,13,61,5,10,108,57,81,0.021,0.812,0.16699999999999998,0.875,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,15,16,4,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,4,12,3,10,13,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,44,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480851279348484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23903246082116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059406547793204,0.17870976382302542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069491812704326,0.0,0.1421680413525069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749557252622437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666372027123081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709714120654583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745935054261372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25719953791756256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136297860667049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586656114997235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daintyyeo,2019/02/16,"Myth or Truth? are multivitamins bad? I googled if multivitamins have calories, when i stumbled upon an answer which said that multivitamins can be bad if they're an excuse for bad eating habits.:

""Taking certain vitamin and mineral supplements may even do more harm than good. For some people, vitamin and mineral supplements offer important health benefits. ... But people who take supplements as an “insurance policy” against poor eating habits might increase their risk of health problems.""

is this true or a myth?
source: https://www.healthline.com/health/do-you-need-take-vitamins",9.800452196382427,14.125736848837215,7.620387596899228,57.447739018087866,64.23255813953489,10.798966408268736,33.974160206718345,10.504223727775694,5.0974563307493534,483,21,57,15,9,142,66,86,0.177,0.608,0.215,-0.207,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,0,2,11,0,1,4,0,8,6,0,0,3,15,11,9,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,3,5,7,7,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,7,1,37,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408984933294786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602170048040694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625703186019615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763402712564205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5612909295856182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672535943387036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051377281081095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24405492395098655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842372002579403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743170170696492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39702680276633306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vitaminsplz,2019/02/16,"Olive garden house salad I'm worried that, even though I got the salad without ANY sauce or ANY croutons, that the salad is somehow still super high cal and that they must have done something else to the greens (like, adding a spritz of oil or something)

 :( help",6.6340136054421786,7.227100428571429,5.228979591836733,86.66482993197279,65.12244897959185,6.533333333333332,28.578231292517003,3.1291,0.9081782312925166,207,6,38,0,3,60,39,49,0.09300000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.121,0.3612,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,0,1,6,6,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,2,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669066542388255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276069088919785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253588039835545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818100336158998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576027315108487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18082161397150148,0.2850275564365641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112791681810481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179633758245568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153653299797868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21543922983515335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265048343465339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26004932841827083,0.0,0.0,0.27396524126139193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,everybhodyhurt,2019/02/16,"for the love of shitty chop stick eating skills i posted 2 days ago about my first binge free day within MONTHS. i adore all your support & love all of you!! but today is day 3. i feel like my desire to just stuff my face with cereal puffs and pizza rolls and sugary pastries is.. gone. i feel like my body has taken so much of a beating, it’s done. i feel nauseous eating even half of my servings, it’s strange. it’s not really even by choice i guess? it’s more so just learning to stop when my body says enough is enough. well today my mom brought home a bowl of white rice & chicken from a Chinese restaurant. just normal bowl size????
well my sister said i should attempt to eat my food with chopsticks. ya’ll im like 20 bites in and i literally pick up like 2 grains of rice every attempt lol. im officially now using chopsticks for any “heavy” meals to prevent myself from eating excessively ",1.883710673331372,4.282415759776541,2.7847691855336656,91.8771008526904,81.3463687150838,4.885739488385768,20.03557777124375,6.05967700443912,0.0050603351955302855,707,19,143,5,19,223,114,179,0.06,0.7340000000000001,0.205,0.9777,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,5,12,11,0,0,4,1,6,12,3,2,2,24,18,7,0,3,5,2,3,4,0,1,0,2,1,0,5,5,7,2,4,0,1,2,1,0,2,2,5,6,20,12,21,12,6,17,0,0,1,2,8,3,0,1,15,80,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109478528950586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471373115178292,0.0,0.07755510444670215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533585102257533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065045993611915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670852397102258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4667895986922279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23567974640651496,0.0,0.15065244706225892,0.0,0.09608856676943868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299506026740086,0.16294878893215678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700736132229182,0.1379047223366046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563438676637678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439730936154625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246378226442612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22286821149331004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058617060801151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335691481068112,0.09103032777581244,0.0,0.08383683894898226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174074131860452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922442115290187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306070656194531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848374147503327,0.09069385568404276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953474564728523,0.0,0.0,0.1305552393608562,0.0,0.12941790518747107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21620430515990244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849901723270714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050818723901932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BluntCakes_,2019/02/16,"Why do I feel guilty? Things have gotten rougher lately. My parents made me eat today, and I ended up having some fruits/vegetables, around 200 calories. I know it’s not a lot in calories and I know I’m still losing weight but I feel disgusting for having eaten. I can feel the weight of the food in my stomach and I can’t stop thinking about how much I wish I didn’t eat. I’m visiting home and they know about the ED stuff but man, it’s going to make this weekend rough. How do I survive this?

I just want to drop five to seven pounds, that’s it. That’s all I want. Having that weight in my stomach and ON me just defeats me. I want to be empty. I want to be skinny. I feel like a failure right now. ",-0.12648023862788804,2.052807093959732,1.734977628635345,97.36728374347506,88.79865771812081,4.11648023862789,17.673750932140194,5.46131890053228,-0.5820964951528711,543,14,123,3,18,178,85,149,0.163,0.75,0.087,-0.9203,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,3,9,4,1,0,5,0,11,10,3,4,1,32,31,9,0,5,5,1,8,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,10,6,8,1,8,1,0,2,3,3,0,2,4,8,22,1,15,25,4,17,0,2,0,0,4,7,0,2,8,83,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276282862400996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293403363365268,0.0,0.0,0.1269818627057685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899655157711937,0.10242242514172796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336165788985855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147957482274465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381021094150429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23637459631906185,0.0,0.161725818102388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004256631096586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160392585447819,0.0,0.1218867005050379,0.0,0.1356586618615016,0.09569953105206942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539228204937827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919365962300336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243584403775765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449420233146802,0.11986241551154828,0.0,0.0,0.16412253589518813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524760518077577,0.09186469210403124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589649487839442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382496255641384,0.0,0.0,0.5237523215723107,0.0,0.0,0.12936769604197235,0.0,0.16486660312187618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slowelevator,2019/02/16,"Goal weight met.. I feel worse than ever I met my “goal” weight a couple months ago (F, 5’3”, 110 lbs) and still absolutely hated myself. Recently, I got myself down to 105 lbs and felt better. I binged hard because I CoUlD CoNtRoL mySeLf nOw. I went to donate blood at work and thought I’d get turned away for being less than 110 lbs. Nope. They had me step onto the scale.. back to 110 lbs. I feel fucking huge and terrible. I know that’s selfish because giving blood is important but god damn. 


Yesterday, I made biscuits and gravy (dairy free hell yeah) for the guy I’m seeing. It was fine, I went on a run before and felt ok about the calories. But after he lifted me up and kinda struggled a bit. Side note, he does have a broken arm he’s healing from, but it didn’t make me less uncomfortable knowing that. I made a comment about not wanting to be lifted up because I “don’t want to hurt his arm” i.e. “I’m huge put me down.” He told me how little I am and that I shouldn’t want to get “too thin” and should keep a little “biscuits & gravy” on my body. Keep. *Keep*. I have been thinking about that over and over and over and feel like I need to restrict to get back down closer to 105 lbs.


I feel so uncomfortable in my body right now and I hate it. I don’t classify myself as having an ED but I thought this community would be a good place to vent. Thanks, guys. ",0.4006113445378148,2.718894510714289,1.9924789915966377,95.44546218487396,87.82142857142858,4.57983193277311,17.878151260504197,6.068283710208149,-0.3348445378151266,1053,27,232,9,34,341,154,280,0.154,0.7240000000000001,0.121,-0.9297,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,1,5,12,16,5,1,11,2,18,10,6,5,1,48,57,20,0,8,5,0,10,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,8,13,2,5,11,0,2,5,6,9,0,0,16,11,34,8,34,34,3,39,1,1,1,1,13,23,3,1,12,135,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399869882080976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489507419311233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996287456792272,0.1630775340495789,0.0,0.1939243132925856,0.0,0.0902328411768772,0.0,0.0,0.09378439820705807,0.11576900029841702,0.23557466617293266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893368262482812,0.08466488511171162,0.1173320380952922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279694735652004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591990083038064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446949376594932,0.07575551048546261,0.20363143833360964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980329355373327,0.166205696243457,0.10172391972167724,0.0,0.08894192361130843,0.08481044958969873,0.0,0.0,0.20999396602914566,0.0,0.0,0.0949916552576302,0.2093865116850907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351878234224196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28276158864271644,0.0,0.0,0.11655441136819505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180613873628463,0.21256131566977746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006765836069996,0.07078300301947517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464068982049087,0.0,0.0,0.07862784913185257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078998121770588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660021073706133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047024166727052,0.0,0.0,0.0905581942037028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450072350764902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468425477373806,0.0,0.0,0.1108567828862358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762804657640832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679466106792609,0.0,0.16836897125410458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132645080341286,0.0,0.0,0.11534185137085615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876366895775271,0.0,0.0,0.2582580551980551,0.0,0.1966016168549157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719890600800858,0.0,0.10806455146513287,0.07532828396667253,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luckyskunk,2019/02/16,"getting into relationships -- did you gain, lose, or maintain? you always hear about the stereotype of gaining weight when you get into a relationship, something about feeling secure and happy and stuff, but that's typically not about folx with EDs, and I'm wondering what your experiences are/were? 

personally i've found myself losing, finally dropping below that same 5-10lbs i gain and lose and regain ad nauseum. im happy (so, so happy) but it's like i'm extra motivated to be my """"best,"""" to look as good as i can for a reason outside of myself. i wanna look cute in lingerie and pretty outfits out on dates and (tmi) i wanna be able to ride some dicc without feeling like im a huge lumpy pile of dough. it's weird. i know (well, hope, ED logic will always tell me different) that he likes me the way that i am and that he wouldn't want me hurting myself but I'm losing regardless. 

so, yeah. thoughts? experiences?",4.123896103896101,5.899598272727275,5.470811688311692,78.23068181818184,71.95454545454545,7.755844155844157,27.34415584415585,8.418075326091056,2.0469428571428576,720,26,130,12,14,241,114,176,0.083,0.624,0.293,0.9927,1,0,1,0,0,1,35.0,0,4,0,9,8,18,0,0,5,1,7,1,0,2,0,35,23,18,0,6,6,0,3,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,9,12,1,1,9,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,3,6,17,12,22,16,4,13,0,5,2,0,11,7,0,4,6,82,26,1,0.1152992126500065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918763627043087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099941028005047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046313703278767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255695083120276,0.0,0.0,0.11659749253911432,0.08236978055503666,0.0,0.1263046516770919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641963546806054,0.0,0.0,0.12047815962024122,0.0,0.0,0.09670750923673313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682144675382381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995059234808964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451813385968458,0.0,0.0,0.12343019181686846,0.0,0.2490858702124687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336543193753562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898811393781435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936445995545374,0.5159613062358279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067482518803413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730075008023373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854679366095648,0.0,0.2475764097206613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876296690784749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199001338931488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077659387461788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153469579707484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800646292056581,0.09151914826498064,0.0,0.1404033792189714,0.1036678390511353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114432653260793,0.1250370777838092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bollarcones,2019/02/16,"I overcame the urge to binge!! Today's a hungry day. A day where no matter what I eat, I'm not going to be full. Halfway through my 12 hour shift, I even started to think about food I might eat (realistically, binge on) after I was done work.

But I came to realize that I've been saving so much money since I stopped binging. I got paid today and met the halfway mark of my monetary goal. If I had that much diligence towards my weight, I'd have gotten to my goal six months ago.

So I came home. I had a small (6g) milk chocolate egg for 35 calories and a glass of water. I brushed my teeth. And I didn't binge. I'm under my 650 calorie goal for the day. There's two hours left until I go to sleep, and I'm playing a video game until then.

I'm really proud of myself ❤️",0.5546084337349413,2.3165171566265097,2.8152861445783164,93.3573870481928,82.25301204819277,5.113855421686747,20.61596385542169,5.985473137389443,-0.044516867469879706,592,17,137,4,16,202,106,166,0.028999999999999998,0.9229999999999999,0.048,0.41700000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,8,0,9,9,2,0,0,15,23,11,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,6,7,1,2,3,2,4,3,0,0,2,12,2,21,3,19,9,3,26,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,2,15,79,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178998784934707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.365890605987218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309472204166626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368895931058766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32734671396370746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564841983323088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341758181175445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818116245666926,0.0,0.12793020294615867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044737676548973,0.0,0.3150458680282888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737910012624968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968641682425953,0.0,0.0,0.12767413306524286,0.0,0.23516988224194416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102470930286038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231599171617495,0.0,0.16006998866700686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321659818101636,0.0,0.0,0.13372910042824182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249236663352487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032362719185803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562522763233471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19478145425360674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644876027193632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kbkaitlineliz,2019/02/16,"Anyone else know this feel? Sudden tummy bug makes you lose your appetite for days and everytime you regain some appetite you lose it after you eat and you're losing weight and then all of a sudden youre no longer sick but you never regain your appetite and oh my god it's back


Sorry for run on sentence from hell but I had to get it out the way it was in my head. ",0.0977922077922102,2.425223779220783,1.6649480519480555,96.84027922077922,90.42857142857142,3.59948051948052,14.193506493506494,4.935628992294339,-1.1270405194805195,289,5,62,1,10,93,56,77,0.203,0.748,0.049,-0.9001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,8,0,3,1,4,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,2,13,6,7,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,2,11,0,9,4,2,12,1,3,0,0,8,3,1,1,7,41,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960123746975038,0.21922060885446829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451700810923872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798228506647015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189278083471748,0.1787306661891963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818130054121984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178185491560293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957798077755866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758322905716273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7180776008388052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281559933584656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501410210446096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23950338756084574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982630188910808,0.0,0.2605376811031339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jdeneev,2019/02/16,"What else can I do After four months of not looking at the scale or even looking at the mirror because I was to ashamed to even look at the state of my body, I finally said fuck it and weighed myself. And after months of starving myself, skipping meals, purging, making excuses, exercising, running, calorie tracking, and hating myself, I figured out that I have not lost a single fucking pound!!!! Everyone eventually loses weight after they restrict, but I weigh more than before I developed this fucking disorder! This doesn’t make any sense. After being in at least a 1000-1500 calorie deficit everyday for the past six/seven months, I haven’t lost a single pound? After all my hard work? I honestly don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I’ve literally tried everything I can possibly do. I feel like a failure, an embarrassment to everyone around me and the people reading this, and an invalid piece of shit. 
I don’t know what to do anymore.",6.774829545454548,7.573215460227272,7.076136363636363,72.82795454545455,64.85227272727272,9.581818181818182,36.45454545454545,9.573946990214177,3.669915909090909,755,36,125,14,11,245,105,176,0.193,0.7290000000000001,0.078,-0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,4,3,13,5,2,11,0,13,10,2,2,1,20,29,7,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,7,4,1,5,2,0,1,6,10,0,1,4,8,20,3,23,24,6,20,0,3,3,3,3,7,4,1,13,93,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808044257069006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569050773056895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153034030941066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895634224946828,0.0,0.1102149849465393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387144385235878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844518781660992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820028997976353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17109814120256114,0.0,0.0,0.2475305687890985,0.11640739785742775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309819779506364,0.18506327272585654,0.0,0.14188669705295642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35922725163887315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602764268215734,0.12787767143530013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236549051156613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265573094338321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263014338915161,0.14490370025344146,0.2827804688194571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291592529974448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101533399400697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364486614767298,0.08979530780030821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460183198341541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955858181806634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320653848660468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329540431771101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879379753407851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772476680735525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942946731211022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilmisssuccubus,2019/02/16,"When you have only had 15% of your daily calories but can’t decided/won’t decide on dinner It is the best and the worst feeling. I’m hungry as fuck but every time I think I know what I’ll make myself for dinner I change my mind simply because I don’t feel the taste will be worth the calories. 

Topo Chico and cucumber slices it is. ",1.4511801242236049,3.609193869565221,2.9615320910973075,91.38652173913046,81.31884057971014,5.102277432712215,18.55279503105589,6.1826913282559595,-0.09732049689440993,263,6,54,2,7,86,54,69,0.138,0.73,0.131,-0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,1,0,4,0,8,4,0,1,0,11,15,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,5,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,8,1,4,12,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190705384366806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648076860321008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677378253167212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29288640225210305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35153610543961816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32137079972050103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104387819787733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23204028485227485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509989736321343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26438208210537223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22274204574824805,0.0,0.0,0.2027010968031308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,linedryonly,2019/02/16,"Relapsing hard I was in a moderately stable place for the past 4 months or so and now I'm back to my old shit. 

Had a majorly stressful life event and started binging, gained 2kg, now I'm physically incapable of going above 800cal. And that number drops every day. I hate this.",1.2529350649350626,3.8460398000000002,3.5651948051948037,83.49636363636365,87.36363636363636,6.779220779220778,22.402597402597397,7.957251820313856,1.5872597402597406,219,8,42,5,7,75,47,55,0.248,0.65,0.102,-0.8687,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,1,3,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,4,5,1,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,9,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326480373248585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195124553839432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549177381101129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195039642702742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710320865068821,0.2987128869082914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137053058825658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414985053498873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174831945750904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288825363363358,0.0,0.0,0.3161081854195939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105709199878423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141517516907074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465785874375012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minicemilo,2019/02/16,"Dreaming about food. I’ve been constantly dreaming about eating unsafe foods such as mcdonalds, chocolates, fried foods etc. I always wake up really scared and confused because IT FELT AS IF I REALLY DID EAT ALL THESE FOODS. Anybody experiencing this as well? ",4.299448051948051,7.688686931818182,4.293246753246756,75.47772727272728,88.77272727272728,7.059740259740257,26.740259740259727,7.957251820313856,2.798244155844155,211,9,30,5,7,65,35,44,0.126,0.8290000000000001,0.046,-0.5657,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,5,3,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,2,1,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978561750676824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024084269481914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154332889609748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343802436316394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18735926098774944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130191405251645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8125627417867297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21524428980736987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819268664327874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510480258549304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mynewaccount190712,2019/09/26,"Stressed out from school and told my bf I couldn’t hang out tonight because of too much hw, now am at the store buying binge foods already having a stomachache from 3 pieces of pizza and a massive bowl of cereal 🙃 Yet somehow want to cry if I think about not binging tonight ha ha lol y am I like this 🙃🙃🙃",2.4399999999999977,3.5171890606060643,3.3246666666666687,94.737,75.06060606060606,5.8860606060606075,26.83636363636364,5.6839178017228535,0.6193127272727272,242,9,56,1,5,77,52,66,0.149,0.748,0.10300000000000001,-0.4537,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,3,4,2,0,0,0,10,7,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,10,5,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,5,32,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669222015790636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268901518097035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652358196025054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020605208319968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244278598955425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444258801410815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365079195649641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808778170196678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21305268075414785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31771815781768753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961172128267658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RetailSlaveNo1,2019/09/26,"DAE sleep to avoid eating? I went to bed at 7pm last night so I didn't have to eat. My boyfriend was like ""wow u must be tired AF"" but really I just had gone over my limit the day before and would've died if I did yesterday too",-1.2457051282051277,0.5732391730769244,1.1784615384615411,102.04987179487179,89.96153846153845,5.005128205128205,12.512820512820511,6.42735559955562,-1.1384333333333334,175,2,47,2,6,59,45,52,0.16399999999999998,0.7559999999999999,0.08,-0.6486,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,1,0,7,4,1,0,1,7,9,4,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,0,6,2,5,1,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427665344724244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18399281183470764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960930001991741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5838596313606785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325549420606151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938158880259588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26773168803396385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182768413519572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28550280356682683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279066632703712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644729600278505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20266663675697266,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CongratulatoryBlob,2019/09/26,Currently watching Intervention. Does anyone have the list of ED episodes? Rn I’m watching “Katie” S13E3,4.245000000000001,6.636738058823532,3.420441176470587,78.10948529411766,109.58823529411764,6.405882352941178,33.661764705882355,7.1686216300943375,3.618541176470588,85,5,12,2,4,25,16,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6242256248996201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7812441162777988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yesdeath,2019/09/26,"do you guys get hungry? do you have any appetite at all? i have absolutely no appetite due to other health issues i have. i feel like this was a catalyst for my ED. i’m not sure if i’d be able to starve myself for weeks at a time if i was hungry during all of it. 

have you lost your appetite? do you just look past it?",-0.012285714285713569,1.7359486285714318,2.47,95.165,84.14285714285714,5.142857142857143,17.142857142857142,6.1826913282559595,-0.4798571428571426,244,5,59,2,7,84,46,70,0.151,0.813,0.036000000000000004,-0.7972,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,0,3,8,15,2,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,11,2,7,11,2,6,0,1,1,0,6,2,0,2,5,41,15,0,0.3068637741184981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086778892077701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515954441907473,0.21922354154453635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032365664170903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038433814311537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261818422909654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202860544682661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991813974635312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25768828464314425,0.0,0.3349780588072586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29293619475590155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28921547552308885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17893473442159838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461476098603428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Carodactyl,2019/09/26,"I don’t know what I have without my eating disorder sometimes, when I’m very lonely, it strikes me that this seems to be all I have. Logically, I know it’s not true. I have a family and a roommate and coworkers and so many people who I love and care about. I have a job and a life plan and I go to college and I have so much, really. But my eating disorder has always been my coping mechanism and, for lack of a better word, my best friend, too. It’s been so long that it feels like it’s the only thing that truly knows me. It’s the only thing that never changes, and it’s always there for me without fail or second thought. It’s strange, I know, but it genuinely brings me so much comfort that I feel relieved when I slip back into what’s familiar and start restricting again. I know in theory I have so many great things to care about, but my eating disorder takes up so much space that it feels like the most important one. It feels like it gives me fulfillment and stability and accomplishment, all the while murdering me slowly. It’s sick, and I want to hate it but it feels like home. I’m trying very hard to recover, but sometimes those thoughts just creep in and they’re hard to stave off. What do you do when those sorts of thoughts become overwhelming? How do you, for lack of a better word, dump your eating disorder?",4.0129450029568305,5.084612194756557,4.8283540311452775,85.4749497338853,71.24719101123596,8.617307313226886,25.663118470333142,8.99025400887824,1.7477835205992511,1044,31,219,20,19,338,128,267,0.127,0.667,0.20600000000000002,0.9671,1,2,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,3,0,6,17,21,3,1,10,0,14,7,0,1,4,53,40,31,1,3,10,0,7,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,31,15,4,1,15,0,0,2,5,6,0,2,5,7,29,15,21,34,9,17,0,3,0,1,7,6,0,4,13,154,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148293217088608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852004344630827,0.0,0.0,0.09841492773860694,0.0,0.0,0.09351538440357428,0.1576210010087552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170704543119195,0.0,0.09426650098375833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4085108455399002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647268598415768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400492086838397,0.0,0.2252833156387267,0.2546406358184475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884611861194866,0.0,0.0,0.08548237425198052,0.05064323245219544,0.0,0.0,0.0982440234567178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965000656217287,0.08797761728094024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938453541950543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842786557959005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448624630410345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629409859294583,0.1741384623054944,0.0,0.0,0.0788594927905715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080425199951526,0.0,0.0,0.18068698564235053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965181771053166,0.0,0.06872707919623458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06038320154027724,0.13554424966433234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177761242138935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057086109366620036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112234265804594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17626401842819878,0.0,0.0630724741918225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699958502545307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776020537728112,0.0,0.0,0.21223001609468964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060499799942843664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470500657271726,0.05255935138216675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179760456546375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kazak451,2019/09/26,When you want to build muscle but you don’t want to eat So then you’re constantly in this cycle of “I’ll lose 10 pounds and then start eating enough to build muscle” which actually never happens because you always need to lose another 10 pounds before you’re comfortable enough with the thought of gaining weight (even if it’s muscle weight),6.839307692307693,7.52611073846154,6.178269230769235,79.71048076923078,64.69230769230771,8.961538461538463,28.55769230769231,8.841846274778883,2.1136923076923075,278,8,50,4,4,85,46,65,0.099,0.752,0.15,0.3919,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,9,7,7,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,8,6,2,7,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.1803128249811872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374681679154276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19375170878853198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263654971622045,0.0,0.15722911266810818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19967511268577853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781399769991596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818419867752344,0.0,0.12204152154759275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339508776986522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41342981127702816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700762149082216,0.14250914318606495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307840280835662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668996124832676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21796905148555407,0.0,0.0,0.4500100443316973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stupidandsadbaby,2019/09/26,"rant this is just a dumb rant and isn’t completely about ed’s but it plays a part. i just feel very grossed out and need to talk about it. so i’ve become really good friends with this guy and i was so happy because i haven’t had such a good irl friend in a looong time and it felt so nice. but this is just platonic, i’m gay and he has a gf. so anyway he came to my house today and i had just got a package with some new clothes i bought, which i had ordered in a smaller size because somehow i thought they would fit. well of course they didn’t fit and he was there and i just wasn’t fitting into these pants and i’m feeling like shit, i make a negative comment about my body and he disproves it saying i’m beautiful or some shit. i also realized trying on these clothes that one of the only things that fit was sent in 2 sizes bigger than the one i ordered so like i’m on a roll already. later he was getting extremely weird and flirty and i felt so gross i didn’t talk for a long time and eventually i made him leave but of course, i’m his ride home lmao! finally he’s gone but my heavily restrictive self decided to go to mcdonalds, and they didn’t even have what i wanted so i had to compromise. thankfully i had looked up the calories of all my options so i knew how to order. but like wow i feel like a steaming pile of shit i hate everything",1.0646279761904758,2.9841893020833368,2.802678571428572,93.28875000000002,81.3263888888889,6.336507936507938,22.785714285714285,7.447530270364453,0.7933130952380956,1061,36,242,16,28,351,149,288,0.126,0.63,0.244,0.9919,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,3,0,24,22,5,0,14,0,20,5,4,3,1,51,46,30,0,3,11,0,5,4,3,1,0,1,1,2,14,19,0,1,9,1,1,5,7,8,1,2,23,7,29,14,26,22,4,28,0,0,1,1,21,13,4,5,11,151,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734060007812718,0.09952764236617777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173478658091366,0.1374521835235947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824287071867605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142344829096183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13049004198206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220219934243622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185327971835762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878650439021186,0.17782318298320346,0.23899509281822534,0.13633577165959762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230922681711224,0.0,0.06502326969693421,0.0,0.07073137217288747,0.20877604620256446,0.09953905662856576,0.0,0.0,0.12323128445466425,0.0,0.13248602460131076,0.0,0.12287481050219327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248397966544808,0.0,0.0,0.14360583761019582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317812307364583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24321220803926594,0.0,0.0,0.11013989162718314,0.104511930310679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177635416173438,0.08307553349830687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228275483954552,0.0,0.12020065101981807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16866959292803474,0.0946546093592319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477402335518127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972988002541131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897262937910144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983504322656425,0.0,0.3832577496334864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20006648751997574,0.0,0.1145826216429551,0.0,0.0,0.0826832224551213,0.0,0.0,0.09880438463205188,0.14514291575131158,0.0,0.11797000140397672,0.0,0.0,0.08449764477774763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026894653378836,0.0734075386535964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190114256007992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841017067785993,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katerrr13,2019/09/26,"probs a poor career choice in palliative nursing, we diagnose anorexia at the drop of a hat, but i can’t get an official diagnosis because i haven’t lost enough weight 🤪🤪🤪 we love getting triggered by the people who are supposed to help me NOT do this!!!!",5.817647058823527,5.862880568627451,6.7733333333333325,76.78000000000003,66.84313725490196,9.937254901960783,36.607843137254896,9.725611199111238,3.5275960784313725,203,10,39,4,3,68,44,51,0.11900000000000001,0.69,0.191,0.7887,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,1,0,5,8,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,5,7,1,3,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578933534680356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592929263181676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657668347500216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698908725190733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372723837297206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864224689057141,0.0,0.31949026497714145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24541245497755615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310650877107719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icewater-nolemon,2019/09/26,"Binged without purging, or compensating at all. I ate an entire bag of skinny pop (700)
Ate spoonfuls of peanut butter (400?)
Tons of candy corn (600)
A cliff bar (260)
A Reese’s candy bar (300)
Cheese (150)
A Klondike bar (150)
And now I really want to take my own life because I’m too tired to purge I’m really close to being overweight and I’m so scared",-0.036666666666665286,2.3026219999999995,1.9680000000000002,93.77700000000004,92.88888888888887,4.546666666666667,16.92222222222222,6.2581,-0.2381044444444447,272,7,58,3,10,90,53,72,0.131,0.846,0.023,-0.82,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,1,9,1,0,1,7,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,8,5,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,25,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358946713003943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733299204893381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4958086214827172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874266963491051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29095494735894656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447676367056452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282462392686332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.373027407361913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rivka90,2019/09/26,"I don't want to die but... I don't know how to live. 

264 hours of no appetite. Nothing. I have been able to drink liquids, so there's that. Chickpea miso broth is literally saving my life right now. I've gone long periods without eating before, but this? This feels different. This is like I literally just don't want to eat. I sit in coffee shops , immersed in the aromas of breakfast foods, and the smells are orgasmic but I feel...numb, I guess. Numb to food. It's what I thought I always wanted, but now I'm just sort of scared. Scared of how easy this is. Scared of that weird heartbeat thing that keeps happening. Scared of how no one even notices. How enabled I feel to continue. 

And I just made quite possibly THE worst decision I've made in a long time. I just bought a scale on Amazon. 

I think I'm trying to kill myself and I don't even want to die. I haven't gone downhill this quickly since I was a teenager. It felt like a process back then, fighting cravings and all the bs that went along with denial of food.. But this is just a totally different thing. 

Can anyone relate or am I really just alone now?",1.170995879120877,3.6018794374999987,2.4146428571428578,93.0957417582418,84.98214285714286,5.589010989010989,21.115384615384613,7.010146845296331,0.5372780219780218,870,28,184,12,26,278,124,224,0.209,0.7120000000000001,0.079,-0.9847,2,1,1,0,2,3,36.0,0,0,0,2,19,12,2,4,9,0,15,10,1,6,2,42,36,16,3,4,13,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,15,6,7,1,7,2,2,3,8,9,0,1,10,5,19,3,22,26,3,21,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,3,14,116,34,0,0.10868912800085173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256915768293592,0.0,0.0,0.09043806140121667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599796544629614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083575230453171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248644259618496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22560431012919285,0.22711401091844424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647396705764596,0.0,0.22243222443084645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357628794596586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486946658037002,0.0,0.10435860761218108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39428197502413537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973332821357816,0.0,0.09611343693979564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703689732325898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966078909309286,0.12024841649889853,0.0,0.05973270228300799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677034542638904,0.1062000356826003,0.0,0.09597449130188636,0.19237291606671572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568856181515624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429014967880967,0.1237432926156596,0.0,0.0,0.07365056603011884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253066097938901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156042664381184,0.0,0.0,0.0696290385415283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281992144542144,0.0,0.0,0.4352671124021452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990876984476237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444164541883292,0.06964360454830881,0.0,0.08628702693926618,0.06337750459211061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379278337083894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564306549324259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007559105665667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047724408122435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adonis_humble,2019/09/26,"Binging on space cakes is not a good idea Everything is in the title

*Out of the blue, I'm a French guy and here, ""faste"" means opulent... English is quite surprising*",2.7433333333333323,4.944792500000002,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,77.125,8.016666666666666,26.291666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.092216666666667,128,5,26,3,3,41,28,32,0.079,0.9209999999999999,0.0,-0.3412,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,14,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643696617701394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400510808984814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40143428560438055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576752425242795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416264536408848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4312191717995696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saladsushi,2019/09/26,got a lil tipsy and binged it wasnt even a binge but i feel so guilty i just kept eating and eating and eating i wasnt even that drunk OR hungry at all wtf is wrong w me lmao,-2.8780139372822333,-1.3483948292682904,-0.06668989547038251,105.9729268292683,107.04878048780488,2.342857142857143,5.857142857142858,3.1291,-2.7669052264808367,136,0,36,0,7,46,31,41,0.284,0.5579999999999999,0.158,-0.8111,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,1,9,6,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,4,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8430361896465879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627771920886083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13885970309545534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964436326351616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002615999245885,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway199502,2019/09/26,"How to handle this .. (relationship type thing, weight gain) Hey everyone. Long time no lurk on this sub. I’ve pretty much gained all my recovery weight back! Been feeling pretty decent.
I’ve been talking to someone for the past few months, getting more and more serious. In general I really like him. He threw me off a bit today, but it wasn’t his fault, and not sure how to handle it.

Basically I was complaining about my water weight gain. He asked how much I weigh, and when I told him, he inserts my height and goes “that’s like x-kg, but ok you have a LOT of muscle” etc etc. basically started making jokes I’m fat even though I know for a fact I’m really not and he doesn’t think I am... but I got pretty upset and admitted I used to have an eating disorder. He apologized profusely and said how much he loves my body etc and how he’s dealt with it before and knows how serious it is.

I can’t help but feel really gross now, I actually just threw out my food and changed my plans of having a dinner tonight... of course. But yeah, this affected me pretty badly. I get that it’s not his fault but how do I move past it without feeling the need to drop 30 pounds again? It just happened and I told him I just don’t want to talk right now. 

Tldr; recovered but triggered by guy I REALLY like without him realizing it. Now he knows I’ve had an Ed, feels bad, but I’m gonna struggle to move past it.",2.132508710801396,3.8710990871080138,3.853053658536584,87.88523902439026,77.29268292682926,7.5188292682926825,22.281393728222994,8.364918446050245,1.1723305644599304,1086,31,236,21,25,364,155,287,0.146,0.684,0.17,0.7812,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,0,4,19,17,0,2,8,2,14,11,2,11,3,57,43,28,0,2,16,0,7,3,0,1,1,1,0,1,15,13,9,0,10,1,0,4,10,10,0,0,11,8,30,7,21,31,12,26,0,0,0,1,29,6,0,1,18,140,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.09027943312239478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648725315373386,0.0,0.0,0.07113685765304151,0.1544891359541981,0.0,0.0,0.07872182782059416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100033634749064,0.10276119020239717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786658508450212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602801898274776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466398956358572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095296586635569,0.06110402509561224,0.0,0.0,0.08840022446131544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871095971356774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118671986917937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666854500592678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399117131754825,0.0,0.0,0.09160250647934998,0.08180902218345494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06200957582173725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252832866259686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355916719607638,0.0,0.0,0.08187117566015177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865132295831526,0.08349667794872584,0.0,0.06175320763092216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384306782054932,0.19665355292891454,0.20402330307817845,0.06859728587209236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26494264464579464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764762965869528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23706502399761706,0.0,0.0,0.09932443930470954,0.0,0.07900567552642522,0.0880011362685256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838604307317958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06548124304568796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671477104448706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719249484963656,0.0,0.0,0.1487170388627376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146158789300937,0.059278654169834674,0.09089364368316127,0.0,0.05394512821714748,0.0,0.08769159443397889,0.1768004489226309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990160848025503,0.0,0.0,0.05456661889800408,0.0,0.0,0.3379680705398088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835863969764248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plzsendhelpobama,2019/09/26,"i relapsed today I've been trying to recover from my anorexia, but it's just hard bc i also want to lose weight. yesterday, after watching like 45,000 videos on weight loss i accidentally stumbled upon a 7 day fast video. and i knew to just ignore it and try to not get triggered. and then i watched it, and tried my hardest not to get triggered, but i got triggered and i relapsed. my mind is just a mess, and ""food, weight, ur belly is popping out"". i havent been in this spot in a minute, in fact i was struggling w binge eating for some months, and once i finally got the hang of it, this happens. ik the cycle will end eventually, but how do i bread out of it? how do i stop caring? i mean, fuck, this morning i was going to the store to buy a scale. i dont have much money at the moment bc i only work once a week, and just got out of high school n im so lost but i still live w my mum. she ran out of money, and after working for 40 dollars babysitting literally last night, she asked me if she could have the 40. n i flipped, even tho i normally wouldn't bc she's my mum n idc abt giving my money away. but i need a scale. i need to see progress. im currently 178 lbs n i havent felt this fucking gross n ugly in so long. i want to get better, but it's hard. it's all so hard. seeing old friends get skinny, but getting fatter n fatter as the days go on. im not asking for help, bc ik exactly what i need to do. i just wanted to rant abt my stupid relapse. who fucking knows when i'll get out of it? 
ps: not only that but i saw a picture of this old friend n she lost so much weight, n we have similar bodies n i couldnt help but cry. it's like im cursed...",-0.9581731924093192,1.0839356160220994,1.6586884458323323,97.1871703098727,92.01104972375693,4.25279846264713,17.53807350468412,5.7926816847441245,-0.5077169829449915,1271,35,303,10,46,435,178,362,0.172,0.73,0.098,-0.9808,1,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,1,0,0,8,16,18,4,1,13,0,19,12,2,5,3,60,54,30,0,11,19,2,8,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,17,15,8,2,4,2,6,4,9,12,0,0,13,13,41,6,38,37,4,41,0,4,5,3,17,15,3,2,24,172,58,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540864891663724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152928060132999,0.0,0.07684582536184831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233795263758186,0.0,0.09085194003488993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339190566101266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530387320666718,0.0,0.08984414398047316,0.10549752778871783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585905217584408,0.0,0.0,0.08369314413695557,0.0,0.0,0.07244300962550611,0.0,0.0,0.054022527502289176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853268573082736,0.08959861211674665,0.0,0.0,0.0989026305300702,0.0,0.12638385077013578,0.2268448265403165,0.25639615997558696,0.07846187881581007,0.09296801129533427,0.0,0.1962484507939169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232797093032155,0.0,0.21980740902621107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964626340059676,0.08641723144445966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533955079657148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04495048030611128,0.06667100529036922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991841035152722,0.0,0.07222341056519911,0.07238292128586629,0.0,0.09150378931185993,0.17857021176897134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909494318097752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258611896150163,0.0,0.06528521085062672,0.0,0.12025235636443896,0.1819421268963316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675580072024155,0.0801383235217657,0.0,0.0,0.1716528826489898,0.17421059862230226,0.0,0.12441227310782547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277738478352882,0.13035450355915784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531881344961868,0.06838137302143267,0.0,0.08550625544639588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752879723744077,0.0,0.0,0.16659321923499934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472827275347705,0.0,0.0656082236784326,0.39840014591648654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909040124458957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rhymeswithpanda1987,2019/09/26,"I Just Want To Be Okay. I've been so strong and done so many things in my life.

This ED, in all its various forms, is the ONE THING I can't seem to cure. It's been with me since I was 2 years old, according to my mother.

I want some hope that I'll get better. It's completely hijacked my life.

I have moments where I believe that I can and will get better, but they pass, and then things get dark again.

I am sick of this swinging pendulum and not knowing which end I'll wind up on, only to give it a big kick and wind up swinging again.

I just want to be okay.",1.1858536585365869,2.349302747967481,2.733829268292684,97.37001219512196,78.4308943089431,6.220813008130082,20.430081300813008,6.742157984588678,-0.032505040650406165,430,10,109,4,10,141,79,123,0.038,0.8240000000000001,0.138,0.6778,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,7,6,0,0,2,2,12,3,0,0,1,18,22,9,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,14,6,12,15,4,15,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,3,7,72,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22016167787215515,0.0,0.34565092343782106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488508567569394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999736594055246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730764575210142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062830997771085,0.1874563757922922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940875653578692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739296911417492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760496351294677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19811644083203628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505134315745904,0.0,0.13241579002134085,0.14861913946530722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789515655744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16164629045719106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894678596008654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457760366500224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583850446493575
EDAnonymous,bitterviaproxy,2019/09/26,"@ anyone who ever relapsed but got back on track again - how? To cut it short: I've been in recovery for ~3 months, seen a dietician and therapist intermittently. Recent weight gain has made my anxiety shoot up and today I kind of hit a wall (crushingly bad body image, comments at work, restrictive thoughts) and I'm really considering packing all this recovery stuff away and moving back to ED land. The devil you know, right?

Has anyone relapsed but managed to get back on track? If so, how?",3.927666666666667,6.654490655555558,4.830000000000002,78.24500000000002,75.77777777777777,8.444444444444445,26.66666666666667,9.150863307647796,2.6743333333333337,389,15,67,10,9,126,72,90,0.19,0.765,0.045,-0.9433,0,0,0,1,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,8,4,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,3,2,15,11,10,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,2,3,1,11,5,1,19,1,0,1,0,3,10,0,1,8,40,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537076917346393,0.0,0.0,0.28098399081360953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18877640893627648,0.4634986275223422,0.16776465544562846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231832751346213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817488948679844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497544079835884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606987220873201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20923330779281152,0.1104235683876375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901208559470428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037706151240844,0.2135523339263099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871821640895492,0.0,0.19838999368777688,0.0,0.0,0.17158954059875653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300119769458489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332903472771008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951264644031382,0.0,0.0,0.19045417057748112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24467350214427436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462763798805867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,broketreebranch,2019/09/26,"A joke Me: I’m hungry.

ED: HI HUNGRY, I’M ED

me: plz no

ED: WHY DON’T YOU HAVE A PIECE OF SUGAR FREE GUM AND A DIET COKE YOU FAT PIG

me: 😢",-5.287016806722692,-4.771560205882351,-0.5074789915966367,107.35205882352942,121.64705882352942,1.9428571428571428,4.857142857142857,3.1291,-2.948179831932773,99,0,30,0,7,38,26,34,0.063,0.72,0.217,0.6523,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HeraB3,2019/09/26,"Wow I kind of want the earth to swallow me whole My SO decided to go through my phone without my permission for the 3rd time since getting together. I've asked them to please respect my privacy in the past, when it comes to notes or apps that I might keep journals on. I dont care if they read my texts, I have nothing to hide except for idk the large amount of lists of bad and good food, all my rules and numbers, days I'm supposed to fast and mean comments I write to myself inside the apps I asked him not to go through. I said it was just personal thoughts and stuff I don't want to share. Yeah, they decided to snoop today and found all of it and now I'm fucking mortified and kind of mad they went through my phone for the 3rd time looking for shit that isn't there. It was supposed to be a nice day but all I can think about is that they are probably judging me now and will pester me even more now to eat and all that shit. I feel very betrayed and maybe I'm overreacting?? But I dont think I am.",3.143647798742137,3.9610516037735866,3.7814339622641526,93.12457232704405,73.05660377358491,7.351446540880502,26.86918238993711,7.554174236665415,1.10785748427673,788,27,185,9,15,249,120,212,0.106,0.8220000000000001,0.071,-0.9071,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,5,0,9,13,4,0,7,1,14,6,2,0,4,36,37,16,0,3,8,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,9,11,3,1,8,1,0,4,6,5,0,0,6,3,29,8,29,28,7,17,0,0,1,1,15,2,3,3,11,117,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25797806752451724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520428529552572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067583575509396,0.0,0.0,0.1188541981325894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796634786237492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234139374232468,0.0,0.0,0.1411840022735223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911319167699518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697648649428015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684125513034762,0.15128367861922526,0.0,0.12755668673647474,0.07208682066334987,0.0,0.15683000147068887,0.11572781153234675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263950268656235,0.0,0.2873617642555437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586517892134934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861554378787685,0.15029642858247189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637084434797898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239179500213766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171380555749598,0.0,0.1204754138263684,0.0,0.15145633100847153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487615788369122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380134443552947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124687307482044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832609802043509,0.11413526073978507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579496309462241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17681903506641658,0.0,0.10953761613220116,0.16090995403778988,0.0,0.13078521542364954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384473752749967,0.16276376438538978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279052326424359,0.0,0.15404539500681486,0.0,0.1330040425544287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mdwi0,2019/09/26,"Have to wear a bikini at school tomorrow Tried it on and looked in the mirror, big mistake!!! I’ve been crying continuously for 2 hours :) life is great. I love being confident",2.2486363636363653,5.023149545454551,4.0759848484848495,80.53397727272728,83.84848484848484,6.936363636363637,20.37121212121212,8.07648339933343,1.3583393939393944,137,4,25,3,4,46,32,33,0.12300000000000001,0.535,0.34299999999999997,0.8974,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,0,2,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,5,4,0,7,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,3,14,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183012434701165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198437068735593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750205498930864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26897694045014586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197839859388512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436953504715915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38539944232403217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25854458499760663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vastminds,2019/09/26,"whats a good way to disguise buying a bunch of binge food? i work at a grocery store and im a cashier. when i get off i wanna buy some binge food but obviously one of my coworkers is gonna ring me up or see all the shit im buying. whats something small i can buy along with a bunch of cookies and candy and stuff that would make it look like i wont be the only one eating it? lol

i feel like getting just a bday card or like confetti looks weird idk any ideas??",0.7086299892125147,2.1077492912621345,2.735469255663432,95.83442286947144,80.35922330097088,5.742826321467099,20.182308522114347,6.42735559955562,-0.09012966558791824,359,9,89,3,9,121,73,103,0.05,0.738,0.212,0.9623,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,8,1,5,4,1,1,2,17,13,7,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,6,5,3,0,2,0,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,5,8,4,10,9,4,6,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,3,4,51,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639464192015848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19018639907610704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397897942995699,0.13278206492879807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4494976345705949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421368741547265,0.0,0.0,0.15589482798238494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20981907487722232,0.4015324062845984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272412899073991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31215974618241765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406639784429754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518940046394257,0.14135878432605406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811042105611846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190787854701358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14308803490565902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127710722271832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753106546191827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531200680054364,0.0,0.0,0.1320332346589766,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chodegalaxies00,2019/09/26,How do I handle my friends eating disorder in a way that's comfortable for her and doesn't make her feel pressured? She's never directly mentioned her ED but talks about it in a roundabout way. Often time when we hang out we don't eat but if we do end up going to a restaurant she'll get the least calorically dense appetizer and take a couple of bites and push the rest of it around on her plate until we leave. Most of the other things she eats have been posted here as safe foods. Sometimes she tells me about how she goes to the Dr and and they try to make her gain weight but she's never officially disclosed it as treatment for ED. If I ask her directly about it she'll clam up and will most likely avoid me. If anyone can identify with this can you tell me how you would like your friend to act around you? I don't bring up the subject of weight or looks but when she feels like talking about it I listen quietly. Other than that I don't know how to act in a way that makes her feel comfortable. If anyone has any pointers or suggestions I'm all ears TIA.,4.021780821917808,4.8329176621004555,4.59806392694064,88.10093150684935,71.00913242009132,7.8491324200913235,24.64566210045662,8.021203637495839,1.1084944292237449,844,22,183,11,15,269,122,219,0.034,0.8170000000000001,0.149,0.9834,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,4,4,1,1,15,10,0,2,10,0,15,8,1,7,3,44,30,25,0,5,10,0,5,3,2,4,1,3,0,0,12,14,6,2,4,0,0,6,6,2,0,0,1,9,33,8,30,25,5,27,0,0,1,0,34,10,0,9,10,129,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884958548079963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18271342137893945,0.0,0.0,0.2326205289264968,0.12214438250410665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456679262033242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149741452463071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.401076718093926,0.0,0.0,0.11572116549116099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818862349089533,0.0933396483346241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798802029687822,0.0,0.20188678777961389,0.0,0.06826161837011477,0.0,0.0742540010147759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180433277552879,0.0,0.0,0.1383443207762942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914936645624278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971692957372103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616388128428345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153771239610327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251309583431072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922070698775626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823597376343787,0.21003038271361835,0.22839569971497006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680108833574864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618572835786577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870587418743851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111225399913468,0.0,0.3182041266344084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281325530040717,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,holdmecloser_letmego,2019/09/26,"Cringing over the time I def let my ED show (TW: numbers) I remember in college I was hanging with a couple of my roommates and talking about how bad our diets had gotten, and I said something along the lines of “at this rate I’m gonna eat so much shit and be like 150 lbs” 

At my height that would be pretty heavy, but I didn’t even stop to think that one friend that was part of the conversation was probably near that weight and shorter than I am. She was definitely a little heavier but also carried her weight well, I think most of it was her tits lol, she’s always looked really good imo. 

When I said that she got this hurt look on her face and said “150 isn’t even that heavy” and I tried to backtrack and said that I’d meant to say I’d gain 150 more lbs than I have now, but I felt like such a vain, judgmental asshole. I’ve always wanted to apologize for it because I didn’t mean to hurt her feelings but obviously had little grip on reality at the time, especially back then when I was restricting so heavily

Just the little things that keep me up at night and wanted to vent ¯\_(ツ)_/¯",7.916116071428572,5.5315112366071455,7.843321428571433,78.7266785714286,63.86607142857143,11.102857142857143,34.00714285714285,9.3871,2.697065714285714,863,26,186,12,10,279,133,224,0.11599999999999999,0.752,0.132,0.4311,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,1,14,10,1,0,8,1,17,7,3,1,1,31,36,19,0,3,5,0,5,2,1,2,0,5,0,0,13,10,4,3,7,1,0,1,3,5,1,1,18,12,25,5,26,13,4,24,0,2,2,1,17,14,2,1,11,120,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543839704957002,0.1986055461621342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917672494998602,0.09964625618742502,0.07275026547228935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205054242412473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211748221018465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576495926694907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06034330743112989,0.0,0.11458780706050298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220395414241454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000990816129835,0.0954493423395409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25551787946348925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060773674525648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203610256702027,0.0,0.11660973135862253,0.35883852554129386,0.0,0.0,0.20043579581057516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999929983651118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773069252265599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199513682559488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086977244386892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292366266008416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141453593642512,0.1286717274240535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645405603584995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519213217096426,0.0,0.4540893424116384,0.09490618761941623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250367305755125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918759208963712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099775927760438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592322503729364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792860558775923,0.15294009959650115,0.0,0.0,0.13917949720381734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102592988571268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078295544624272,0.0,0.0,0.2906547676825113,0.10730351307486304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477770367884473,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,larissssaaaa,2019/09/26,DAE ever spit out food because it didnt taste as good as you thought it would and its not worth the calories literally happens to me once a week ill just change my mind mid chew,2.8128828828828847,4.366142000000004,3.2524324324324314,93.71126126126127,74.94594594594594,6.014414414414415,25.84684684684685,6.42735559955562,0.6347009009009006,142,5,32,1,3,44,35,37,0.177,0.823,0.0,-0.7070000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,1,8,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,4,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20110115033764756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489855498081488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29840924126144824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39891078050025175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767005773715093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917253785989227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331002724280713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513277932820487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619000672902831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646221599418573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23434819958552355,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jessezaibet,2019/09/26,"same weight Exactly one year ago on September I started to count calories, fasting and not eating more than 500 calories per day. Until I reach 110lbs on January… after that I been weighting between 118 to 110.. Last month I decide to lose weight again, all I’m doing is eating less and less every day and right now I weight 110. BUT I don’t look skinny like I was last year, even though I weight the same!! How is that possible",3.4660714285714285,5.322991559523814,3.9804761904761934,87.89785714285715,73.88095238095238,6.704761904761906,23.904761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.027590476190476,337,10,66,4,7,106,58,84,0.024,0.9129999999999999,0.063,0.465,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,6,8,1,1,2,11,9,7,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,6,8,1,9,7,6,17,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,15,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185293593432948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246888702937155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736455294042096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831681071705487,0.0,0.11265977989647345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21798945094880265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532588760794897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228605123412157,0.1495917206059335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672920864492122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060804109567064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074240109655068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419099282121425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464343042106342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313732886170476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8141379139254087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722148148969096
EDAnonymous,rainesaway,2019/09/26,"how to stop calorie counting ? So my nutritionist told me that I need to stop counting my calories and now I feel like I can’t eat at all, whereas before I was okay with eating as long as I stayed within my limit. Any suggestions on how to overcome this fear ? I want to start counting again but I don’t want to disappoint people. sos.",2.641840796019899,4.630197985074631,3.91126865671642,86.90978855721393,76.61194029850745,6.257711442786071,26.092039800995025,7.1686216300943375,1.2563950248756224,263,10,52,3,6,86,48,67,0.145,0.7659999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.6893,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,2,1,13,9,7,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,11,2,11,7,1,10,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897241884896724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114350479662145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5085066169872099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796049415762521,0.12563709374063678,0.17751153332079075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139297938296162,0.0,0.0,0.2198937249298224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842420435380652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226219484681166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175872818855337,0.2648426972856112,0.0,0.41547466066237904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374297728680621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931155437687997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheLittlestPineapple,2019/09/26,"Monthly weigh-ins at doctors, F Basically got to get weighed monthly at the doctors, and see a dietitian. Went to the hospital a couple of times bc of something unrelated to my ED, and they noticed my weight loss. I’m scared and depressed and I feel insanely out of control :/ I already know I’m going to fake the weigh-ins, but fuck, I’m still a wreck. Can anyone offer solidarity?",2.950308880308878,5.237633027027028,4.957181467181467,78.350945945946,76.83783783783784,7.4718146718146725,32.19305019305019,8.418075326091056,2.8353806949806946,300,16,55,6,7,103,50,74,0.235,0.728,0.036000000000000004,-0.9231,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,1,5,1,1,6,0,1,5,0,1,0,9,12,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,2,3,5,0,10,10,0,9,0,2,1,1,2,3,1,0,4,28,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23987430774375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199085984389002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24380006396771006,0.0,0.24051688101956115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18722132688283727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449768659630055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990931068745337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095599015744886,0.1135673777230808,0.0,0.12353695066196982,0.0,0.17385144879708272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946141883507412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470069224645199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474783283226013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762629528062385,0.0,0.17321654674957462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734281835678416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735927642636133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675078024979478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646993222940792,0.0,0.20150509808302905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SatansKitty666,2019/09/26,"Hello Diet Coke My Old Friend I set myself up for disaster.

Ive been doing good eating and admit i did gain about 10lbs. Ive been looking for a trigger to get me back into restricting AND BOY DID I GET ONE. 

The new guy ive been seeing drunkenly told me he loved me...but also called me his exs name. Of course my brain tells me of i was smaller he wouldnt have made that mistake so i need to try harder. 

At least this diet coke loves me.",-0.7784451718494232,1.3748842978723417,1.6661702127659588,95.99576923076923,94.31914893617022,4.1689034369885425,14.677577741407529,5.8734145424116955,-0.7264409165302785,340,7,76,3,13,115,68,94,0.08900000000000001,0.725,0.185,0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,0,12,8,1,2,0,11,22,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,8,2,17,4,10,13,1,7,0,0,2,2,15,3,0,0,3,47,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853560770307077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822614265364894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587455000420014,0.2366754585577544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23717097247128416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790742903789605,0.0,0.2421931817171061,0.0,0.0,0.1944078448061367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950073879911398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463860435899646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183848240184148,0.21931784549988648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186350452984833,0.0,0.2238566151059753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432163442129768,0.0,0.15706156257817308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470034011713946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258778844265896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221477747756312,0.0,0.1573648443988461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MajorArcanine,2019/09/26,"Has anyone ever successfully built muscle while in a caloric deficit? (TW calories) I really want to recomp my body for aesthetic purposes (skinny fat and curves in all the wrong places), but I struggle with the mental hoop of eating above 1000-1200 calories per day. 

For some reason, when I have a good workout at the gym, my mind tells me to eat less and my hunger cues go away. Those days I usually eat 600-800, not including whatever I burned during the workout. I try to eat as much protein as possible (60-100g), but I feel like I'll never get the lean muscular body i desire with these bad habits... 

I still have fat to lose so the idea of eating at or above maintenance is scary. Has anyone successfully recomped here? What types of changes did you need to make to your diet, if any? 

I feel like I've seen people with ED who have very visible muscles, but I'm assuming those muscles were already there before they started restricting? Idk. I would ask a fitness community but I don't want to be berated for my disordered habits.. :/",5.014178033022255,6.2575696030150745,5.6078427853553485,80.17433417085428,69.0502512562814,9.102799712849963,29.792175161521893,9.424239791934726,2.6445431442928924,817,31,154,17,14,264,137,199,0.14300000000000002,0.736,0.122,-0.6682,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,3,6,9,0,1,9,0,11,13,6,2,3,29,23,13,0,6,7,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,5,10,1,5,3,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,3,20,5,23,18,4,17,0,1,1,0,6,7,0,4,11,89,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421525826402075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270858303366149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17008484734855722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370214894946627,0.0,0.11426987923391768,0.0,0.10155107317441857,0.0,0.0,0.10349318155036127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701939934165424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866220892313388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687501179314173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939179668203805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6222592722639185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001599397132923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299363494397753,0.17377661387706322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06354359112003746,0.0,0.06912179922144197,0.10201255471607963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729884521126245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883881858818054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360662977445648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118505509335043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256852261449805,0.0,0.12280570604443004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894077340874042,0.09018275562404117,0.0938040314421582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431886187758966,0.0,0.1270713355644995,0.0,0.0,0.13711293878600067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791553577662139,0.1250498681043545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860861893363945,0.0,0.09712919198205874,0.0,0.0,0.12714795420045136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063048555161183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257480461054885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395180268815046,0.10035264956959547,0.14347413297035125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639829652662848,0.13297689965328802,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,robreinerstillmydad,2019/09/26,"DAE with binge eating disorder just wish they had anorexia?? I want to clarify. I know no one WANTS anorexia. And it’s a terrible disease. But sometimes my sick ED mind goes “you POS, you’d be better off if you just quit eating and drank white monster all day instead!!” It tells me that that’s the “better” disorder. Sometimes I get jealous of people who restrict better than I ever could. How do you do it?? I want that! (Realistically of course I don’t want it! Because it’s terrible and deadly!) 

I hope this makes sense and doesn’t offend. I don’t mean to minimalize the suffering of people with anorexia. This is just the shit my BED brain tells me as I’m stuffing cupcakes in my mouth one after another.",2.475093167701864,4.887422347826089,3.987619047619052,84.03000000000002,79.14492753623189,6.551552795031056,25.799171842650104,7.7094869923839395,1.614708488612837,556,22,105,9,14,184,86,138,0.195,0.6609999999999999,0.14400000000000002,-0.8729,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,4,1,4,6,10,3,0,4,0,10,7,3,2,2,26,22,8,1,8,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,11,6,3,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,2,1,18,4,12,17,1,5,0,1,1,0,8,2,1,2,3,70,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616592865449688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078625162511653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951490376124732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625496186430386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890836326386485,0.0,0.0,0.09604742982120554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413730117100805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047848250665809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471557183504704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780969752833508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479209407782885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184794834770366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941182846751094,0.0,0.0,0.16222826225344736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037668903571874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20183743556926328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649840599140648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840522304467902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287434643712886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29459085105772664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26034249899024753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513707265450053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126197264912038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boo_snug,2019/09/26,"Just some thoughts So just some background, I’ve never been diagnosed with an eating disorder, but I do exhibit disordered eating. I’ve always had absolute garbage body image, depression, etc. Never have been happy with my weight (except when I was underweight in the middle of drug addiction in my early twenties) but now I am 30. I gained 30 pounds (am I allowed to say that I’m sorry if I’m not) in 2016/2017 from a toxic abusive relationship and here I am still trying to lose that same weight. 

I am actually very happy and in content in my job and mostly in life and I am 100% sure if I lost weight I would be happier. I know some people say that’s not true blah blah but like I know it is?! If I lost weight I could get a bf and I’m a pretty awesome person in a relationship.  I just choose to restrict, count calories, purge occasionally and chew/spit because some days I just love food dude. Idk. Sometimes it’s the best. Sometimes it’s the worst. I just need to lose some weight. My goal weight isn’t even that crazy low it’s like a normal BMI. so that’s why I feel like I don’t have an eating disorder. 

But I love this subreddit and I relate to a lot of what everyone says. I find a lot of support here. Lots of laughs too.  I can’t talk to people irl about this obviously. But I love you guys. 

Okay so really what I wanted to say is one thing that has developed from purging and c&s is I’m like appalled by the amount of food that goes in my stomach. Like the volume?! God it kills me. I just had a pretty okay lunch (~500 calories) and I’m at work so I can’t do anything about it but sitting here imagining the volume of food in my stomach makes me want to rip my hair out. Does anyone else ever feel this way? 

K bye love you",0.8154346641231811,3.131148594972071,2.7136898760049064,91.15890925194168,85.39664804469274,5.727319798337648,20.46355089249216,7.11905507035037,0.5386844801744108,1359,42,290,20,41,452,176,358,0.159,0.624,0.217,0.9804,2,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,0,8,21,26,1,0,16,2,25,25,4,2,6,63,47,23,1,9,18,0,9,7,1,1,4,4,0,2,19,12,13,1,8,0,0,0,8,8,0,1,8,13,38,18,33,36,14,23,0,6,0,4,17,13,0,12,14,186,57,3,0.0,0.08463482619764982,0.06970698752692381,0.07787104362217002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059436856149918824,0.07739616433716989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049946671455932325,0.07319016815644691,0.058782162646824725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04354407162642755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496311105420878,0.0,0.0,0.07934446147860719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570323611148028,0.0,0.0,0.046067505693910514,0.0,0.06152397659283782,0.07250162244266255,0.0,0.0,0.24560058280543576,0.0,0.06251031941997284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283803745690503,0.2192772366263616,0.05967197874988672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966517330114284,0.04717993199414649,0.06461401813793526,0.0,0.06825600395106605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223597835412741,0.05103078595975653,0.0,0.0,0.06528723519257272,0.0,0.2591263088673431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03732008957033682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07072856525288766,0.0,0.1520806421450039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07088489182830214,0.0,0.07902853868121948,0.0,0.07851393490823565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050454287796426335,0.17448948335976933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982749258658152,0.15595217101020314,0.18218590653970335,0.2578794166959659,0.0,0.047681181917040835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05296566433003682,0.11018498620472587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699878518960743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04840393558495028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904342585221676,0.0623713626658719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534333902379878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04576094493323907,0.0,0.0,0.15338172188887206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227221264673743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129545927193066,0.07996188543228601,0.0,0.0,0.05704540899832505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810597913892024,0.06732348598916148,0.0,0.0,0.05741405553018665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047456015090774524,0.0,0.0,0.056708752137452786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0484974023343635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05893859324826457,0.0842644773312391,0.056699119930384186,0.0,0.5219070448897837,0.0,0.0,0.06445595481350419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052003092891546636,0.0,0.0,0.05074299560764884,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SheDontCarrie,2019/09/26,"Breaking my restriction for the past couple days and I feel better Be me, refusing to eat over 300 calories. 

Yesterday, I was feeling so weak after exercise I could not complete my school work. 

I have terrible periods every month and this one is especially bad. I could not think straight. 

Finally broke down and had an egg and some mushroom and went over 400 cal for the day.

Today, I had two meals over 100 calories already.

Normally I would still be under 200 calories. 

I am able to focus on my school work and my mood feels so much better.

I plan to eat over 300 cal again today. It seems to be really helping me.

I am still losing weight yet I also feel so much better during exercise. 

For me I realize an extra 100-200 calories per day is the difference between functioning and getting nothing done.",3.310392156862747,5.8170766405228775,4.506954248366019,80.91729411764706,76.7124183006536,7.740130718954247,27.84705882352941,8.648137234880735,2.4961262745098045,638,27,112,14,15,209,93,153,0.139,0.7829999999999999,0.078,-0.8692,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,7,8,9,0,0,5,0,15,8,0,0,0,23,23,11,0,4,2,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,7,2,0,1,2,5,0,2,5,5,19,3,16,12,4,25,0,2,0,0,2,8,0,2,15,80,21,4,0.13201978092885536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14568711113480975,0.10557617111137252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023100260566084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35028230327361776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842022852246155,0.0,0.0,0.2108141050486914,0.1460773765414133,0.0,0.2554255109254077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793257209263707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510207217913378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701783893293193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123235939902253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26701267195282713,0.0,0.0,0.1446212169316502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897488661981344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849007629906544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769636550726314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537692959523308,0.0,0.1940994587467847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935135485668806,0.12667654039441825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946002025617772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260278192461798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457525222271871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26722213299944336,0.0,0.12018585024142228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086233517337427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459294489409756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25027863130549943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896414274304305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076452683528852,0.0,0.12238365957063566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922239457284177,0.0,0.0,0.09378306453929773,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Momoandpear,2019/09/26,My fam is concerned I’m making up bullshit about being stressed to cover the fact that I’m really sobbing over REALLY wanting some cheese,12.221538461538458,8.842108846153849,11.342307692307696,60.052692307692354,56.69230769230769,13.476923076923079,45.23076923076921,11.20814326018867,5.316815384615385,114,5,17,2,1,37,23,26,0.302,0.698,0.0,-0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448269809357034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6618799220853334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.591750631601697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046974104879686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yourqueerpeer,2019/09/26,"Is the Cold Bath™️ Thing even true? And how did people come up with it in the first place? I’m sure most of you people know about the cold bath / shower thing, which is that if you take cold baths / showers your body burns calories heating you back up. 
Anyways, Is it true? Some sources [that I found] say so and others disagree. And if it’s not, how did people even think it up?",2.6419230769230744,3.8596185769230793,2.792820512820516,98.19384615384618,74.76923076923076,5.2,20.69230769230769,3.1291,-0.5544769230769231,291,6,68,0,6,88,52,78,0.035,0.855,0.11,0.7181,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,1,8,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,1,2,3,18,11,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,10,5,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,4,5,3,7,8,2,8,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,4,2,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093142338289174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758111752638666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138930011024361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32800657411187645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21120833329582944,0.0,0.27225390895813834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364620810204239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.516430822846245,0.0,0.2594261549727554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197462314592381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340247756113076,0.0,0.1866946588409097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32992597218787184,0.15910398899078734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EzraCelestine,2019/09/26,"""All bodies are beautiful"" posts that come out of nowhere can go to hell I just want to see funny jokes on the Twitter app but some asshole has to do that ""all bodies are beautiful being chuhby is beautiful your body is beautiful because it's yours"" bullshit and now *I'M AWARE I HAVE A PHYSICAL FORM* and I'm remembering that I *HATE* it thanks",0.1543496801705757,1.97497813432836,1.951055437100216,89.5983955223881,110.94029850746269,5.49637526652452,21.20362473347548,6.868970318607317,1.2494997867803836,273,11,52,6,14,89,51,67,0.09300000000000001,0.593,0.314,0.9581,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,9,3,3,0,2,11,17,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,6,16,4,6,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,1,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552578345510322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7955157490938255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564220048389328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567407424829367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356935211517052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286345072452673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704311911911753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902345371065523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978777788096454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408073891925734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yoonthrowaway,2019/09/26,"sick of bipolar disorder messing with my ed I thought I finally got to a comfortable place with my ED, when I had a huge manic episode. I almost completely stopped eating and sleeping for a little more then a week (and I don't mean on purpose, it just kinda.. happened) and now after crashing out of it I am 5lbs lighter and it makes me want to stick with this weight loss and it's giving me a lot of old feelings I haven't felt in a while. Fuck you bipolar disorder :(",3.5511879699248112,4.733873442105266,4.608120300751882,86.19684210526316,72.47368421052632,7.533834586466164,31.46616541353384,7.957251820313856,2.151932330827069,367,17,75,5,7,120,66,95,0.198,0.7070000000000001,0.095,-0.8754,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,0,6,0,4,7,1,1,0,20,14,8,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,9,2,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,3,12,1,13,10,2,15,0,1,0,1,2,6,1,3,9,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029922535578106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125453997858327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646635431976505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074305698902025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025000386755029,0.0,0.19464055179354456,0.2220670685084388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740902508056434,0.0,0.19446505929788485,0.0,0.0,0.1621316712299916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926238025575447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031761505516932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17234313511478552,0.0,0.0,0.13531547857304338,0.0,0.0,0.2208187424303599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21271787335955625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21179659932551298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20286385996956555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694808735169388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093501935649487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119568010044534,0.0,0.1626077185585371,0.2468552536888918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moistmantis,2019/09/26,"Yea, I refueled after my workout... ...with zero calorie hi-ball. That counts right?",1.7619047619047592,3.8984047142857183,3.087142857142858,81.24119047619047,109.0,4.723809523809524,26.095238095238088,6.42735559955562,1.9645523809523813,62,3,9,1,3,20,14,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iceberglettuce6,2019/09/26,watermelon who made watermelons so heavy?,9.044999999999998,13.567113500000005,10.350000000000003,31.545000000000016,80.66666666666666,15.733333333333334,39.333333333333336,11.20814326018867,8.721533333333335,35,2,4,2,1,12,6,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stupidminnow,2019/09/26,"Doing this wild ass thing lately where I:

- Eat when I'm hungry and not put it off til my ~allotted eating window~ ( *gasp!* a protein bar *before* 11 am?? Send it)

- Eat *a lot* when I'm hungry because I'm conscious of how fucked my hunger cues have become after ~20 years of ignoring my natural inclinations to eat (*three* protein bars back to back to back *before* 11 am?? Yuppers!)

- No longer willingly weigh myself but even when I'm forced to at the doctor's and I'm up 10 lbs from my lowest weight just a couple months prior NOT have an internal crisis over it because I...kinda...*like* what I see in the mirror??!?

- Have more energy from regularly eating 2500+ calories a day so I'm hitting new PR's on my lifts for the first time in years and seeing muscles I thought were never gonna grow actually fucking grow

- Don't add extra cardio sessions for the week following a night of eating 4k+ calories of Mexican food as punishment, just stick to my normal schedule of workouts

- NOT PURGE because now that I'm eating to *complete* satiety (and yes, some days that's well over 3k calories) which means my lil lizard brain isn't constantly on the verge of a 10k calorie binge because it knows food is plentiful and available now that we are no longer putting it in a forced famine

Guys I don't want to make the declaration I'm ~recovered~ but holy shit, the last month of me taking all these steps has completely transformed my life. I have LOST WEIGHT eating when I'm hungry, eating *a lot* of food at that (like I said, probably averaging about 2700 calories these days and I'm a 5'5 female), doing *less* cardio and it's all because I'm not having these insane binges. 

I pray any of you struggling can try to slowly incorporate these changes into your life no matter how hard your own brain is telling you not to. Your body is desperate for homeostasis and I feel like I'm finally giving mine the balance it has craved for so many years of me constantly in the binge/purge, restrict cycle.

It blows my mind I'm eating this much, NOT gaining, love how my body looks, and not having crippling anxiety over the fear of eating. I never thought I could feel like this so I promise ya'll if *I* can achieve this SO CAN YOU",2.48301881928332,4.984141823665894,3.5044980665119887,86.99615416344419,79.71925754060325,6.1512967259602975,23.730910028357826,7.3871296695380915,1.1655691776230983,1750,61,332,25,45,561,227,431,0.157,0.7709999999999999,0.071,-0.9916,1,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,1,6,0,4,22,14,4,2,20,1,25,34,6,4,4,50,59,25,0,4,12,0,5,3,0,2,5,1,1,1,23,12,20,2,7,3,0,7,15,8,1,2,5,9,33,6,44,50,11,56,1,1,3,4,13,16,4,5,36,203,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.06154526929699002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0428884019728764,0.0,0.04824684656421616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14548619468830187,0.0,0.19222833388839264,0.06965364982794463,0.10733244384025503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010865831892108,0.0,0.14080948931263845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671758036004266,0.0,0.13225119393890147,0.1363082030735777,0.0,0.05035466526362197,0.06978354125433876,0.0,0.12202092549232255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455276933478593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7098773864443347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0416558184912508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096903275465077,0.06377815049056829,0.09011158208830068,0.0,0.06908791009907908,0.0,0.05364560767986213,0.22878622397813198,0.0,0.0,0.11661069751123462,0.0,0.060500571401354813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062447234487035964,0.0,0.0,0.056496539232575874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034660522846632284,0.05140883670959597,0.07114344985272948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909358558694068,0.09243551578287733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052961235027983264,0.0,0.06884617097077958,0.10723631473120716,0.05692133138221533,0.0,0.042098379023331065,0.06394105201106604,0.0,0.06869953986284402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368070026363318,0.0,0.1006805500998266,0.0,0.046362235917692035,0.0,0.09728385760230612,0.06091146637760175,0.0,0.059185044661553714,0.061793248356888715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799796982373497,0.0,0.0,0.1268015168653139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999210941815289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005140594272878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473839460017135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593236602250163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04741928629339224,0.0,0.05512421090793281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04189957609910548,0.0,0.0,0.10013789278866037,0.03677545736118959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042819031387922514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03719913981018141,0.0,0.05058934454642765,0.15359966418159313,0.05670570520903195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184117065492088
EDAnonymous,acrylakai,2019/09/26,I'm so relieved I binged for a week straight and then fasted for 3 days and today I very anxiously stepped kn the scale and I'm down 10 lbs. I was so scared I'm crying actual tears.,-0.5917500000000011,1.5212533250000035,1.6900000000000013,97.195,90.75,5.2,18.0,6.742157984588678,-0.0524,143,4,34,2,5,48,29,40,0.267,0.619,0.114,-0.7509999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.3668493992355565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246892046725938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41293689139575707,0.24244107208856516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763673541736336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563337476045052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31017819435337823,0.0,0.0,0.3015450393924136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,speedayyyy,2019/09/26,"Does anyone else have huge thighs/big ass??? TW; number talks


I’m fucking 5’8. My thighs are HUGE. Like they are actually big, not just body dysmorphia. I also have a big butt. All I want to be is small and dainty, legs that don’t touch and a tiny booty. I *hate* my body. I feel disgusted with it. I want to be slim, not curvy. I want to weigh 100 pounds. Only ya know, 40 fucking pounds to go. If I can’t be short and cute at least let me be skinny.",-2.0233455882352938,-0.33824277083333243,0.2561029411764721,103.28448529411767,106.91666666666666,3.5088235294117656,10.855392156862745,5.5289334501034215,-1.5459159313725488,338,5,85,3,17,111,66,96,0.07200000000000001,0.757,0.172,0.6881,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,0,2,6,4,0,2,0,12,10,7,0,1,14,22,5,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,2,12,2,6,17,2,8,0,0,0,4,3,7,4,1,1,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.21582831514030787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686817539150645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546459878650863,0.22661301597548544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4913361499097498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354583231823366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18475769921490184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182931621210374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089329798808231,0.0,0.0,0.12569501740159242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835786539725566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154829011750948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261595276134916,0.0,0.10805163883662594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820842583780865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777666674473073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3913523051377497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDA-Throwaway,2019/09/26,"Finally seeking treatment, but my girlfriend says I’m vain if I feel like my biggest issue is my eating 🙃 Hey guys,

I’ve lurked on here for awhile, but never felt the need to post until recently. I guess the signs were all there that I had a problem with eating, but I’ve been reluctant to say that I might have an eating disorder. 

As if thinking about food 24/7 is normal, as if binging nearly every night around 2000+ calories is normal, as if feeling guilty and shitty and out of control is normal. I don’t know. I was scared to get help. 

I mentioned to my partner at one point I thought I might have something like BED. Everything points to it, from my long history of dieting, to my nightly sessions, to my attempts to help myself or stop which never work out long term. She told me to stop diagnosing myself and see someone for real. 

I was really reluctant to get help at first. My last therapist wasn’t very good, and I was never comfortable enough to disclose my eating issues since they’ve been a constant source of shame. Plus, I went off my medication a while back and was anxious they’d be upset with me. 

Yesterday, I finally set up an appointment. Different therapist and I was upfront that the eating issues played a huge role in why I wasn’t doing so hot. I was over the moon thinking that something I’ve struggled with for years might get the help it needed. I told my partner about it and she was proud too. Until I told her my main reason was the eating. 

She told me I was vain for focusing on that when I have depression and anxiety. That I’m scared of driving as an adult and *that* was my problem. That should be a priority for me and not the eating issues. That I had already looked up all the symptoms online to “tell them exactly what they wanna hear to diagnose you”. And that my eating habits “weren’t even that bad, you just crash diet and then wonder why you end up overeating all the time”. The worst is that she called me a monster whose vain and obsessed with looking skinny, so much that it’s preventing me from actually getting help for my “real problems”. 

I’m so heartbroken. I’ve spent my whole life feeling ruined by my weight and my relationships with food. I binge no matter what kind of meal plans I try. Healthy ones, ones that meet my calorie recommendations. 3x a day or just 1. Counting calories, or just letting loose. I binge every time. She knows this. I lament about it a lot. She just says I have no impulse control and struggle with crash dieting. 

Now it seems like she won’t believe me even if they were to diagnose. She’s ready to write me off and the impact it plays in my life. Now I’m second guessing. Maybe I’m focusing on the wrong things. Maybe I’m wasting time and money. I just... I don’t know who to turn to for support. I just want to be a healthy weight for the first time in my life. I can’t live the rest of myself resenting myself for my eating and appearance. 

Thank you all for listening. I just needed some friends.",3.0622546193159472,5.107597088586033,4.0298764906303255,86.27635974970516,75.5587734241908,6.900393133272178,25.768870397064603,7.815909333733263,1.4873370724675667,2349,85,459,35,52,757,264,587,0.2,0.6920000000000001,0.107,-0.9966,2,0,2,0,0,0,65.0,0,4,4,8,23,31,1,7,26,0,42,26,1,3,8,98,85,42,0,17,19,0,7,3,4,5,8,5,1,4,28,28,18,5,13,2,2,3,13,19,0,6,27,15,82,12,73,48,13,61,0,2,3,0,47,23,0,18,36,324,110,2,0.0,0.0,0.05346199272927851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060456310779814525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04191016774627858,0.06189114993706293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04877002386295694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04212607495524052,0.04574296037026762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061723629064384174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05594133362716165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920282943677872,0.12289146406722315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03533161798897963,0.0,0.0471860068262478,0.16681604023097746,0.0,0.05723838148849932,0.06278804578082071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5045260932709325,0.0,0.0,0.048523008940766436,0.056607269956645424,0.0,0.07236959365844584,0.0,0.09231699408709823,0.0,0.04923698190154846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310241526509211,0.03913822135687791,0.05260193124993618,0.1200279855653716,0.0,0.09319972503162907,0.13249182358062164,0.0,0.042326545739815716,0.0,0.11449103902214887,0.0,0.0,0.045950831456332414,0.0,0.0,0.12070311099630912,0.054245494970524805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06174637123597317,0.0,0.18360524524079014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287240943008563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05704986477088121,0.09032476297135668,0.044656866169947886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05602109719973189,0.11608822284673935,0.0802951539437489,0.0,0.04837591942554966,0.09696552241187607,0.09201074897687146,0.0,0.0,0.04657601749054988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007724773304424,0.0,0.0,0.05518985083969982,0.0,0.17435381978709033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040273079439851735,0.12186654717592542,0.12676008117000032,0.0,0.0,0.10282351392790984,0.161032207614504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137065066733387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357855382245512,0.0,0.05246862650128627,0.0,0.0,0.15726476049252705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124714031051817,0.035096500252012885,0.05632782581411092,0.05409331062619895,0.05881829635271407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070104623908568,0.10969814204029013,0.0,0.04365633602447117,0.04987395972735141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045318493973356716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04641892311368199,0.084351921875313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916049731134478,0.0,0.11454578761885445,0.0,0.0,0.06216906126107578,0.0,0.056942310147666174,0.0,0.0,0.04788426789630199,0.0504384179191862,0.0,0.12721858584475113,0.0363965396261542,0.07020768448850559,0.0,0.04349295532657988,0.12778166422977796,0.0,0.0,0.20939662529826356,0.0,0.037195234839078335,0.05959005334048885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520313896071874,0.03231345259812839,0.0,0.0,0.13342608170369258,0.0,0.05078599266428534,0.09886939343827747,0.06116519347299506,0.0,0.0,0.05941170165981036,0.03988393520798807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05989850093020676,0.0,0.035279569299616516
EDAnonymous,lioneyssy,2019/09/26,I ate 1100 kcal and I feel like shit Why I am like this,-3.8000000000000007,-2.3880052857142857,-1.0599999999999987,115.13000000000002,101.85714285714286,2.8000000000000003,7.0,3.1291,-2.9746,42,0,14,0,2,14,11,14,0.217,0.48200000000000004,0.301,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266911519350068,0.3771169138839102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.515790099895597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5418602806793937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4763287553493412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basicomplex,2019/09/26,"I'm on the toilet trying to massage my belly to get the shit out so I can step on the scale and see my UGW I feel crazy RN. I took hella laxatives last night and dropped like 5 pounds of poo weight (TMI) and I'm legit 1 LB away from being my satisfaction weight. I feel the poop in my belly, I'm on the toilet massaging my diaphragm, chugging water and chain smoking cigarettes in hopes to just get a massive BM out. Has anyone else done this? I'm praying to the gods right now that I take a 4 lb shit and get below my goal weight. LEL.

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Ahh, eating disorders rock.",1.7504354469060353,3.649557504201681,3.4038808250572963,89.9268143621085,79.0,6.007944996180291,21.742551566080976,6.980632752743323,0.5532117647058823,449,13,95,5,11,149,77,119,0.02,0.823,0.157,0.946,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,8,0,4,8,3,0,0,11,17,6,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,5,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,6,11,2,15,14,0,16,1,0,1,0,0,10,2,1,4,48,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17556104041412987,0.1968859829023732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329617793236035,0.16602039881012526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522339088027536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857021133321262,0.0,0.0,0.16581445972452416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657986547996205,0.13535650975236732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638559691399676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25396428141220845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093381940768872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207728190009066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916039638996215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205556725959454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383739982247208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911811092802192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326459706399117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182750756747658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800229357095562,0.11000873859991138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5919320717313008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968859829023732,0.0
EDAnonymous,karentakethekids,2019/09/26,"Thought on the representation (or more like lack there off) of bulimia in ""Rocket man"" So i just watched ""Rocketman"" the Biopic about Elton John and in the first few minutes it is mentioned that he has bulimia. But from what i have picked up (i mean i am not bulimic myself) the only representation of bulimic behaviours was when Elton ordered the whole menu at a restaurant and then purged it.
Fellow bulimics who have seen this film, what did you think?",5.97232931726908,7.634166253012053,6.1543975903614445,75.57729919678718,67.19277108433735,9.870682730923695,31.90562248995984,10.125756701596842,3.3586562248995984,361,15,64,9,6,115,66,83,0.031,0.935,0.034,0.0553,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,6,0,7,0,0,1,0,11,11,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,6,1,10,7,4,10,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,1,4,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37984879961625584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21816958387080174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4864412741266478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396335554344034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861414523245136,0.0,0.3545235110287757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4985749756478034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bumdagirl,2019/09/26,"A guy said my body wasn't that bad and I'm still thinking about it days later. I'm 16(f) and I currently have a fuck buddy now I never felt extremely uncomfortable in my body because I would always wear a shirt during sex and that was enough for me to be semi comfortable with having sex. My fuck buddy (who's also one of my closest friends) knows that I have issues with food and that I hate my body. He was really supportive and sweet about me not wanting to get totally naked. 

After we were done I had to put on my bra and he saw my stomach (my biggest insecurity) and he said ""your body isn't even that bad. Why do you hate it so much??"" This still sticks to me. It made me feel bad because of the ""that bad"" part. Does he feel pity for me? How disgusting is my body!? I probably crushed him. That's my self hatred part of my brain and my normal brain is saying ""You know he's a bit awkward and doesn't always think about what he says before he says it, so he honestly probably meant something more like- your body isn't bad instead of your body isn't that bad."" IDK why that one word fucking set me off but it did. 

My dumbass is still thinking about it because I love latching onto anything that confuses me or hurts me.",1.984569547895376,3.9064070239043858,3.4278399445695484,89.92399792135805,78.36254980079681,6.596293088515504,22.86523471332063,7.586124646067393,0.9084258098042612,957,30,205,14,23,314,131,251,0.121,0.7709999999999999,0.10800000000000001,-0.7538,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,1,5,0,0,14,24,6,3,5,0,20,19,12,2,2,33,44,15,0,3,3,0,3,1,1,1,0,5,0,2,19,12,1,0,9,0,0,1,7,17,0,2,13,10,36,7,21,29,7,17,0,2,1,6,25,6,3,2,10,132,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061998425967280724,0.12901758234716607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379823060208725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38839154228107975,0.14177947516158762,0.0,0.06596988612301906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463955768932868,0.6028062282391774,0.0,0.17309185634160168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04999859173575046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784452279046907,0.07933718122045039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010626008467905,0.0,0.05120594489246723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840010297839807,0.0,0.07443821242202693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374612560340163,0.0,0.05989727616464392,0.21501777543585907,0.040504730913086165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676405754700913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308400080725112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299440698383495,0.0,0.0,0.08091819213207839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521377743191051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037875844629636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997127084601103,0.07335805453670433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699136839650702,0.0,0.059793709879408685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596013677546573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506879316608628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790867563317854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717473916999834,0.0,0.0,0.07793618898942385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049665871175257024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749212763609582,0.18495808067385408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087771521629354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05968418011998738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18573982280637225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797687990278072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902878299607192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04572751591875245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991237081821747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055073055999452135,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,talkingdonkeys,2019/09/26,"Lost ton of weight still hate my body Today I went bra shopping and nearly cried because I could find my band size in anything other than non underwired bras. My boobs are shit. My body is shit, so many ribs that stick out and upset me and make my mum worry. Loose skin from loosing, yet when I get on the scale and see the number go down I feel like I’ve beaten the demons in my head. Like I can face another day, like I’m not a looser who wasted her life. 
That’s it, feeling in control and out of control all at once. Fuck me im in hard core self pity mode",1.156737967914438,2.908399815126053,2.412284186401834,97.03605805958748,80.26050420168067,4.999541634835753,18.38120702826585,5.565023196281405,-0.5354436974789913,434,9,101,2,11,139,89,119,0.244,0.662,0.094,-0.9664,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,4,11,5,1,4,0,4,12,9,3,1,16,15,7,0,1,1,1,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,3,2,1,2,1,8,0,0,2,6,14,3,14,12,2,17,1,2,1,2,5,10,4,0,8,53,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16687241422310709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095885545207248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701041140969406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35353785549299604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569786156054634,0.12706052991276448,0.0,0.1748080777320901,0.1026322875436472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160932170947069,0.1136898171348652,0.0,0.0,0.14545129358066314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471225847863854,0.08314420557924375,0.0,0.09044306409466576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255839405439108,0.15711803716611114,0.16332379515645554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17189876459858278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240545575310472,0.23324364399294384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372036771996266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622734396443692,0.16134322230466766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16947915866581212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681416496021064,0.0,0.1660179744226002,0.0,0.3267103328176411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708959886523588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084633692879915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378993607803094,0.0,0.147524594088396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161463555903674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,relapse_central,2019/09/26,"Called out on my bullshit and I do not like it 🙃🙃🙃 Context: As per previous posts, I'm staying with my olds while I recover from a spinal surgery, during which there were complications and the wound became infected and blah blah blah. So I've been taking antibiotics - ready made excuse for needing an empty stomach. Finished them today. 

Today is my dad's birthday. He wants to go for lunch. We went for lunch on Tuesday for my daughter's birthday, so you see how that's a problem. I have been hounded by my mother all day, and my (usually oblivious) father seems to be in cahoots. Anyway, I have not gone for lunch under the guise of having one more pill to take, so expect ww3 later when everyone gets home! 

THEN. Ranted to none-SO, because I'm completely honest with him, whereupon he says ""well you don't need to starve yourself, you're perfect""...and I promptly told him what he thought was irrelevant, so now he's never gonna let me live that down. That's about how my day's going, how about you?? 😂",2.5967384370015942,4.849720348484852,3.7903721424774086,86.44854066985648,77.83838383838383,6.390643274853801,25.5725677830941,7.475848149327749,1.3972484848484847,791,30,152,11,19,257,134,198,0.096,0.841,0.062,-0.677,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,3,1,0,14,4,0,0,5,0,12,8,2,4,2,23,30,15,0,5,2,4,0,4,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,8,3,0,2,0,0,4,4,1,1,1,9,2,20,3,24,18,2,26,0,0,1,0,19,6,0,1,15,91,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007788322616388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438900534112124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893312394230532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23291407178456164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725487799319618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434387525718277,0.0,0.20525180551979824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811331582923723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184651915158515,0.0,0.08822065670961772,0.0,0.15945253870401713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17086604429421018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677906771391337,0.13927188698356655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948487547216888,0.0,0.12236344857041685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729425672377886,0.0,0.0,0.17278751912787876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436018435175305,0.0,0.0,0.1438962544232506,0.16439025011166974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924707408784672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715424180028881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335773303981536,0.0,0.0,0.3423312038419752,0.1725487799319618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887972871115525,0.0,0.106508819103544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162360144053509,0.16739641451955464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,I_am_Xander,2019/09/26,"Care after a purge? So i have a question. Ive started purging(throwing up) again after years of not doing it, then i didnt take care of myself after in the right way. I dont know the ""no no""s or what could help decrease the damage etc. My knowlagde about aftercare is ""dont brush your teeth right away and drink water since throwing up dehydrates you"" and thats about it.
What is some good ways to take care of myself after a purge?

Thank you and be safe.",3.418276397515527,4.76436825,3.9009316770186366,90.50369565217392,73.02173913043478,6.561490683229812,21.838509316770182,6.868970318607317,0.4155291925465838,357,8,75,3,7,112,63,92,0.087,0.743,0.17,0.7901,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,0,4,7,0,0,6,0,10,3,1,0,0,10,18,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,1,2,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,1,10,6,14,15,2,17,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,3,8,55,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675879885366293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.545591709015746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424169068758532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41810535996020987,0.17473834520248147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19893385694552265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14961141960563254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956014947681393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802953566813467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981939736205426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046603770556617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14755259051594025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262538422932676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682296881454716,0.0,0.0,0.16422256286532766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831695242921481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486683219229404
EDAnonymous,bulimiccunt,2019/09/26,low kcal foods suggestions after +72 hours of fasting plsss lol left college early bc i was almost collapsing and  im pretty sure i need to eat somethin lol suggestions anyone?,3.765000000000001,6.960115500000002,4.492500000000003,77.1025,81.5,6.95,26.75,8.07648339933343,2.5626,144,6,21,3,4,46,28,32,0.105,0.604,0.29100000000000004,0.7959999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,1,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,7,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200176986469458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234609031818703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32701471332935433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864428287863633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147263431222061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452060856388015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472294789149939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23696784678155025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251323147567752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30120459574094743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iced_peach_tea,2019/09/26,"my ultimate thinspo is someone i know.. is this normal???? this is my biggest secret because im low key ashamed

my ultimate thinspo is my ex boyfriends ex... he clearly has a type and i feel like shes the prettier, petite (im 6' and shes 5'4) and skinner version of me. 
i was never threatened by her or anything to do with him, and i just really want to be her. i hate that im so envious of her and that i know deep in my bones it fuels my ed, this has been going on for years and i just hate it 

i feel like this isnt normal??? how can i get over this?? just when i think im over it, she'll upload a photo and ill just crumble (i cant unfriend her it'll look like im being shady)",-0.3327593818984553,1.313858682119207,2.6366622516556326,94.08885651214129,84.69536423841059,5.351169977924945,21.987196467991165,6.42735559955562,0.30966984547461385,515,18,124,5,15,183,84,151,0.126,0.759,0.115,-0.5759,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,7,8,3,1,3,0,18,2,1,1,2,25,29,11,0,3,5,2,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,11,8,0,0,6,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,3,26,3,11,23,1,11,0,1,1,0,12,7,0,1,6,81,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807266267572294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746470441322601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509664022574767,0.20500575362988374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496291644356799,0.0,0.08154357612048953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28331562517931824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7749206717162389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770684395301912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21029275189804997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048792894837805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066141599999936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811618918471357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919176221413918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157101147796152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919368507956344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462882921861108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239707939275832
EDAnonymous,clever__name69,2019/09/26,"Purged for the first time and praying it doesnt become a habit I ate my dinner way too fast last night since I was starving, and I threw up a little. For context, I have narrow esophogeal sphincters, but my dumbass doctor at the time didn't dilate them during my last endoscopy because I wasn't having one of my autoimmune flairups in that exact moment. I'm working with my really good primary care doctor at my out of state college to find someone here who can dilate them since I constantly get undigested food stuck in my throat,  along with literally dozens of pills I have to take everyday. 

Anyways, because my food just weirdly stays stuck in my esophagus all the time I constantly get horrible acid reflux. Because I ate too fast last night, I started throwing up my dinner, and instead of stopping there I forced myself to puke out all of it, since it was so tempting :( thankfully I'm seeing my doctor monday so we can talk about getting me to see a GI asap so I don't develop bulemia on top of my severe annorexia. Thankfully I'm super upfront with her about my ed since it stemmed from my thyroid disease that went undetected for a little over a decade now. I'm just so scared guys 😥 I already have a million of autoimmune diseases, and a bunch of awful comorbid diseases associated with them, I really can't afford to develop another one

Thankfully I have my boyfriend and doctor to talk about it with. I have amazing friends, but because they're so amazing I don't want to talk to them about it because I feel like they'd try and force me into recovery, which I'm really not ready for. I also don't want to stress out my boyfriend since he's been really anxious amd depressed over one of his own medical issues, so I guess I just really needed to get this off my chest in a safe space",9.58803809523809,7.088957537142861,9.38942857142857,69.3042380952381,60.771428571428565,12.533333333333333,41.04761904761904,10.93419730881044,4.4333904761904765,1438,62,261,28,15,471,179,350,0.157,0.7040000000000001,0.14,-0.5462,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,5,4,21,15,0,2,11,1,19,15,2,0,3,34,47,15,0,3,6,0,1,1,1,0,7,0,0,1,11,17,6,2,2,0,0,3,8,4,0,6,11,4,49,11,50,35,4,46,1,1,2,0,15,21,0,1,20,175,60,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960382320693955,0.06959674567786497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125708273797728,0.0,0.09831755434673314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652591556751683,0.09611625908270996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873146511983311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880940136529991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495761179526557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563098684542709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04400427868108758,0.062173254321535774,0.0,0.0,0.07954257025903566,0.07402648876467635,0.2104706743796481,0.0,0.06723808598346592,0.0,0.18187542100479268,0.0,0.0,0.07299546661484974,0.0,0.0,0.09587182244365446,0.08617200367505573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083525509987847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128197910888742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042517781458101145,0.17445105515582765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767216580784347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453060945009567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334090462060485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691850952440474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27876377110591144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713081799861043,0.0,0.1387010644988793,0.0,0.0,0.09831755434673314,0.0,0.3599548157263597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373905640123307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159929605913422,0.09276091567404228,0.0,0.07275981244225553,0.09969097542640162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543468171662611,0.2098508934738404,0.0,0.24037274634462025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224124204594705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05908671153225189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266345463536357,0.06907925749015549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806763907101613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335786249504992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SynonymScroll,2019/09/26,"Today was going to be my day Standing under the hot water of the shower, my belly bulges out in front of me, sore and painful. I'm so full that my stomach doesn't just hurt from the stretch of being over full. My skin feels tender and sore as well. 

I've already made the commitment to myself not to purge and I'm not going to do it. But I can't shake the desperation to do it, for no reason other than for the instant relief I know it would bring me.

I literally feel like I am about to explode. I don't know how I can forget how bad this feels. I already know I won't sleep tonight because there's no way in hell I'll be able to lie down without pain. Maybe today will be the day my stomach ends up rupturing and I die, ashamed and in agony. I feel guilty for thinking it, but I wish my stomach would just reject all the food I've devoured. It wouldn't be purging if it was involuntary right? But that's never happened to me, even after more than ten years. 

I've definitely decided not to purge, but I can't help but wondering if I should do it anyway. I was shocked when I looked at the state of my teeth in the mirror last night and finally faced the reality of my worst fears coming true. I said I wouldn't purge anymore. I know that won't fix what I've done, but maybe it will slow any further damage. 

I know I've said that before and I knew when I ate everything in sight that it could only end this way or that way. But I couldn't stop myself. I don't even remember piling all those plates full. I don't remember the taste, the texture or making it. It wasn't happening to me. I was just there. 

I did it. I'm sorry.",1.8760054129911763,3.3954163459302364,3.5117882919005616,91.01244186046516,77.40116279069768,6.372734562951082,22.32718524458701,7.0983637204850245,0.5440065356856456,1269,36,285,14,29,422,167,344,0.141,0.779,0.08,-0.9634,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,0,15,17,1,3,13,0,34,16,7,5,5,62,62,24,1,10,18,0,6,1,0,9,5,2,1,0,23,9,4,1,16,0,0,6,19,12,1,1,12,11,40,5,36,34,7,45,1,3,2,0,3,17,1,5,18,192,63,0,0.1081671573064594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387302956688709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355737617826588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727275466579794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031505820571452,0.06593769512276128,0.0,0.09204228398021533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317642824485484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636267346751142,0.0,0.0,0.13951773603401774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226043189236196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069255675938576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19160799132057088,0.0,0.0,0.14288677450431936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972136663284796,0.0,0.0,0.12171812422955168,0.21877025917429616,0.07727463879255457,0.0,0.1184918336603471,0.0,0.0,0.13079615597248126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229477764207584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19130371995715845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725021654767004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157951790629241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972292042004146,0.08817067008293525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052845009325778236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083316954272716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023503796158207,0.07220241743380341,0.0,0.21733689633687747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342518000847014,0.0,0.0,0.10150754968792312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822659973303469,0.2301949634514164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121385292564996,0.0,0.0,0.2450646066021721,0.0923741613244098,0.20578347325645527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082452743338495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108427682897895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043258691288708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930914680359511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205059634945586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575741641093709,0.0,0.0,0.09725526477187296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438689269043698,0.10426927968941696,0.11730266799684455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367769016630506,0.0,0.0,0.06965610290580249
EDAnonymous,nosleeptill8,2019/09/26,"The lengths my brain will go to I got rid of my home scale a few years ago, as I was weighing myself way too often. 

Now, I weigh myself at my gym and using the scale at my sport club- between the two I weigh myself maybe 4x a week?

One scale routinely weighs 2-4 pounds more than the other. I don’t know which is accurate, so it’s been frustrating to try and see a trend, as the numbers are all over the shop.

Till it hit me today; I charted all of the measurements in Excel, and used the trend line function.  

Officially have an average negative trendline (slope) value! I’m losing again!!! After a plateau that took way too long. 

So happy. I love math 💕",3.1392481203007483,4.34454792481203,4.324819548872181,87.74452255639099,73.51127819548874,7.4252631578947375,24.578195488721803,7.908726449838941,1.1746246616541356,506,15,108,7,10,166,96,133,0.07,0.818,0.11199999999999999,0.7633,0,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,1,0,13,0,7,6,1,2,2,9,17,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,4,0,1,4,1,2,2,2,0,2,4,1,15,3,14,11,4,17,0,1,1,1,1,4,0,1,9,71,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19578662958231235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24656233035484898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552467819737315,0.0,0.17664874393826924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351186622405645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154914884128266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213835704695804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546170289758888,0.0,0.2470953943657799,0.0,0.0,0.19934247586593476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218921298726007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966623524722986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600362622431193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093575454323513,0.0,0.2453930688785479,0.14995523688183704,0.0,0.2157564649657536,0.0,0.0,0.38151899815476814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506303245494865,0.17716741596579333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223209489875266
EDAnonymous,common_potato,2019/09/26,"I just binged and feel nothing but relief (TW!) I've been restricting for the past two months and it's gotten harder and harder to ignore my binge urges. I wanted to binge literally every day for the past week and spent every minute debating the pros and cons. 

Yesterday, I finally gave in and bought the binge food I've been craving and planned a binge for this morning. 

I got done purging an hour ago and since then I've just been lying on the couch finally at peace.  Usually I feel ashamed and gross after purging but strangely not this time. Food has been consuming all of my thoughts for days and finally the fight is over and I can go back to restricting.",5.998750000000001,6.604376375000001,5.860937500000002,81.54031250000001,66.5,9.525,30.84375,9.516144504307137,2.6313718750000006,528,19,102,10,8,165,79,128,0.22699999999999998,0.74,0.033,-0.9818,0,0,0,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,8,0,8,2,0,0,1,24,18,14,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,11,2,3,3,0,2,1,1,4,0,1,11,2,8,1,13,7,1,22,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,17,60,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466292149191631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719288186226005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21335623210325885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169275588204071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787362586064649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672762170621107,0.0,0.0,0.5436076849458119,0.0,0.0,0.40003766983539024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400838584497599,0.0,0.13229640193195652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289911930028764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320315925037829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587188526500911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158120802867793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13683187565547533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131995645386005,0.09645402603856433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158509464693507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217975940405567,0.0,0.0975652529518227,0.0,0.13268484762080993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,French_STIXX,2019/09/26,TW: Does anyone else always think I'm not gonna get that bad But then like you do things like eat chilli to maintain your two day fast but because your stomach has stopped screaming at you to wat you suddenly get the irrational fear that that bit of chilli is gonna make you gain like 5 pounds instead of losing and you went two days without eating for nothing,3.6062499999999993,5.4979871250000025,3.3483333333333363,92.43,73.58333333333334,5.911111111111111,25.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,0.7907055555555553,291,10,59,2,6,87,55,72,0.213,0.6579999999999999,0.129,-0.8151,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,7,0,2,1,7,0,1,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,8,11,4,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,1,1,7,3,7,8,1,8,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,9,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16290949868552407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689800798637333,0.2006057247207255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347299413411576,0.11934922771647224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374742358805185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525313330623641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713335034695247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006755741122915,0.1635539423417261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22031349592746086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045800359112948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869532081744362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190342691390809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068856507561108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878617889280031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368572465812706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300714090353398,0.12545165749721873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825086237410688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149543041600466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873055817792775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,probaby-joseph,2019/09/26,h i was taking zoloft for a while but now i’m in a ed relapse and i stoped taking it cuz i thought it’d make me ok with being fat and now all this anxiety is coming back at full speed please help oh god,-2.2392401215805458,-0.4411125531914895,0.5860182370820688,102.82000000000002,100.06382978723404,3.5367781155015194,13.097264437689967,5.288315135182226,-1.365350151975684,158,3,41,1,7,54,39,47,0.048,0.7040000000000001,0.248,0.8637,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,1,2,1,9,10,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,4,6,2,9,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29102230321323563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29252155307577105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277004474483408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25498929842269763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539350879358889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4175898556396985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5720610110948099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020131083540118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittykat23317,2019/09/26,"Does anyone remember that family guy episode where Lois makes, and completely consumes a pan of brownies and then cries over the pan with crumbs all over her face? Cause that’s just about what happened tonight",9.715135135135137,9.933244972972972,6.614189189189191,80.59263513513514,58.729729729729726,10.643243243243244,37.41891891891892,10.125756701596842,3.589551351351352,172,7,30,3,2,47,33,37,0.07400000000000001,0.9259999999999999,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,8,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23312828620798265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425042969908291,0.0,0.0,0.3495744345357017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662356409263405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917696657634024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143096285581669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301286897146525,0.2948336932936353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22255401412480955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.377688960132354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lipsaredelicious,2019/09/26,"Restrict. Feel good. Weighed myself yesterday and BMI not that far off the safe zone where in my head I know I ought to be.

Cue a day of serious restricting until evening when I have to be social with family.

But you know what, I felt proud of myself all day. Felt the best I've done for ages apart from the headache and the hunger and the being disgusted with myself for eating too many lettuce leaves.

Today I'm going to see if I can get by with less.",3.3670807453416174,4.700456826086956,4.029192546583853,89.58413043478262,73.13043478260869,7.431055900621117,22.92546583850932,7.957251820313856,0.9416161490683236,356,9,76,5,7,113,68,92,0.11900000000000001,0.75,0.131,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,4,6,1,0,6,0,7,4,1,0,1,19,16,7,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,3,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,4,10,4,15,9,3,13,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,7,53,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445850691486113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30061249879293905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385042004774562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23848146698977354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393580611763066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21971090115769235,0.0,0.11784357340762933,0.0,0.4475537463161158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176571329320135,0.0,0.13245498150094742,0.19548205052496945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391897099314302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25617048076851684,0.0,0.0,0.24677989332236505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23628913659204995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18572090676053815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23757821256205094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22091631865188213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rerrerofocher,2019/09/26,I'm still alive because I hope that someone's going to pop out and yell PSYCH And I'll wake up as like a 5 year old before I ruined my entire life 👌,0.14819047619047865,1.3186453428571454,2.782857142857144,95.8904761904762,81.28571428571428,4.666666666666667,17.38095238095238,3.1291,-0.8926190476190481,117,2,29,0,3,41,31,35,0.091,0.674,0.235,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,4,3,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,12,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24857012013638866,0.0,0.34697848543225845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317425828921661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050032396069817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288016896686851,0.19921367121282524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278813952424425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454984628474845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325642128499007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26258767212430423
EDAnonymous,BEDBulimic,2019/09/26,"“switching” from BN to ortho restriction? Can anyone else relate?

I’ve been on and off bulimia recovery, plagued with feeling like I’m pseudo-recovering despite some wins earlier this year:

* 5+ extreme b/p’s every day ➡️ ~2 moderate b/p’s every day

* 16 lax  ➡️ 4 lax every other day

Recently decided to buckle down on recovery. I’m now 5 days b/p-free and drinking lots of water, where before I would drink none at all except caffeine. 

But I’m worried I’m morphing from “bulimic” to “ortho restrictive”? 

I eat high protein and love healthy fats but I’m very anxious about net carbs and cals. 

Would love some support or advice 😕",1.1655300000000004,3.743272928000003,3.882475000000003,81.14211250000002,87.72,6.9650000000000025,27.0125,8.07648339933343,2.45085,496,24,89,12,16,174,88,125,0.068,0.787,0.145,0.8821,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,19,13,7,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,5,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,14,10,5,14,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,4,8,36,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370544061117262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892578196656106,0.0,0.11713877008759108,0.1716512037827072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425531337828952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43216421040179975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282253537772092,0.0,0.17142193902604153,0.1399473077124219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234461559554376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470668228554519,0.1196813186881346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700146806804326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184522763250086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242546031108896,0.30239930732244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654126969367932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19010764862009827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822731570582975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013179535738848,0.0,0.2380127413008635,0.0,0.0,0.10788189217968976
EDAnonymous,Aerodragneel,2019/09/26,"My Only Solution It seems like every time I have a bad moment my only solution is to deprive myself of food. Like eating is only ok when I’ve done everything right (and you can guess how often that happens). Like I’ve been in a slump at work recently and I made a mistake and I just could not bring myself to eat anything, despite having the food right next to me.

I’m pretty new here and don’t really know what to tag it but please let me know if it needs one.",1.5364146620847663,3.3973459175257767,3.5762199312714777,88.61926689576175,79.51546391752578,6.3729667812142035,20.0561282932417,7.3871296695380915,0.5658073310423828,362,9,76,5,9,123,69,97,0.062,0.782,0.156,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,5,7,0,0,4,1,10,4,0,2,0,18,19,8,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,4,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,3,0,10,4,7,14,0,11,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,4,9,49,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275194029092974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469477743560168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880023899175172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650855305050314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301395901188432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13591836723545128,0.0,0.14498327753925866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901355868700728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771126463865844,0.0,0.14265401857761156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773136055161295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495979180046128,0.0,0.23643720918072625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264410915177848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961612829483555,0.0,0.15580306979899566,0.1715647786195048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931405170011096,0.3680715183404851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708001698085446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411960189094835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334519786100498,0.0,0.15928322908209952,0.0,0.0,0.2755313974786207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468589232295124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406651146133524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744228472776658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mediocrecrocs,2019/09/26,"I lost my wallet because I was binging I’m so fucking disgusted at myself and so sad. I binged yesterday basically, daily total came into about 3950 calories. I was at university so I was just eating whatever I could. I stopped by to buy food 4 different times. On the last time I had class right after and after that I’m not completely sure where my wallet went. I was too busy emotional eating and shoving my mouth full that I wasn’t focused on where I put my shit and where my shit is. 

My everything was in there and I fucking lost it all because I was a fucking gross fat fuck and couldn’t stop eating all day. 

Tomorrow I get to spend the day searching for it and fucking hoping for the best. Wish me luck but honestly I don’t think I’m going to find it. My university is too big and i’m sure some people would love to take whatever the fuck I had. Including but not limited to my debit card, my drivers license, my SIN, as well as my personal health card. I’m not the type to lost shit so I just had fucking everything in there but all because I binged and lost control I lost fucking everything

thanks for coming to my ted talk",1.939,4.171886900000004,3.8039130434782606,85.60152173913045,80.0,7.130434782608695,25.65217391304348,8.18289091462,1.796521739130435,897,36,179,18,23,302,113,230,0.19699999999999998,0.682,0.12,-0.9549,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,8,15,29,12,0,6,0,16,19,5,1,6,39,45,18,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,12,5,4,2,0,3,5,6,20,1,0,17,0,33,9,23,25,7,29,1,6,0,9,3,13,11,3,11,119,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506696492004788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646156429293937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423040446073412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097032904202791,0.08638269132880927,0.0,0.09240561915600227,0.06578044971665836,0.0,0.0,0.10626743072306803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607836388114001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25291176721358605,0.0,0.09267588381974036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213619957347147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530152369248493,0.0,0.09962440503091492,0.0,0.0,0.6093341368791759,0.04304454922462517,0.0,0.04682323797944428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757503827429369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183029132538701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715755889674316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44968346666773995,0.0,0.07435876610817407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05711775706535074,0.07193839086099067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282311837926835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035926089532997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537115888928529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377608171986091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530022248055764,0.0,0.06194583880742791,0.06622069153389169,0.0,0.07585218831020013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052791173121029995,0.0,0.0,0.0960827010204552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407708442945718,0.07637489116458725,0.0,0.0,0.09474261751649828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05852637004318601,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,impossiblyshy,2019/09/26,God I’m stupid Sorry this probably has nothing to do with an Ed except triggering it but I don’t know where else to rant. I’m pretty impulsive I do a lot of dumb shit and I almost hooked up with this random guy from tinder and I didn’t have a good feeling about it so I chickened out and now I’m crying in my dorm I feel so dumb rn and I feel like all of my friends think I’m crazy or like fucking weird. I feel like I don’t deserve anything good right now and the only thing I can do right is starve myself yeah that’s my damage I’m fat dumb and slutty woo,-1.7257999999999996,0.16230672000000368,0.8187000000000033,100.32485,101.8,3.4600000000000004,14.25,5.341637118332708,-1.0748000000000002,440,10,105,3,20,148,78,125,0.28800000000000003,0.49,0.222,-0.9168,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,6,14,6,0,4,1,10,3,2,1,1,23,22,10,0,0,3,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,1,1,6,9,1,0,6,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,1,4,14,6,12,21,2,8,0,1,0,1,2,6,5,4,5,61,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895504764439406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577273359043134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793043760207475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813074630254512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828506916088935,0.2704631700599357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462479814053388,0.1749991409588375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31754144955249625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18743070102009346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403096547399412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774382831306217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093088677172854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816325822513513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396652494124385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925799273916383,0.20409081773912102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233118768823672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943074466387228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21189899990018352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125758442070488,0.12129187435591053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YearsToDays4795,2019/09/26,I'm just sick of nothing tasting good anymore... That's it. That's the post.,-1.3952083333333327,0.3335315625000028,0.5025000000000013,100.95916666666668,108.375,2.1333333333333333,24.08333333333333,3.1291,-0.2082666666666664,59,3,13,0,3,19,14,16,0.342,0.6579999999999999,0.0,-0.6914,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282222849688284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467417685377704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110694124083862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5101088762280087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsoobak,2019/09/26,binges and binges and binges And bINGES for the past 3 weeks straight telling myself every day i’ll stop ~tomorrow~ and now i am a fat whale and no one will ever love me. all of my friends are in relationships and i’m coping with my one true love FOOD but it’s like a toxic relationship and now i’m sad and fat instead of just sad help send helpp,0.497747336377472,2.862664589041098,1.6363470319634708,97.77756468797566,88.04109589041096,4.888280060882801,17.700152207001523,6.42735559955562,-0.3467674277016739,277,7,64,3,9,87,51,73,0.139,0.6509999999999999,0.21,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,3,0,3,5,2,0,3,15,7,9,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,9,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,5,5,5,6,1,11,0,2,0,2,8,2,0,0,9,35,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454315449623598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676133832949174,0.20190073780771334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897646007535613,0.0,0.1851394945909538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062063045296834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170723475414984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325554198727973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247624017255896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22875636035752775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145513043460482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003435211615673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094493893188124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922187573620837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WeirdWiredWonderful,2019/09/26,"Guess who just had a mild panic attack because they thought multi vitamins might have calories?? This bitch ☝🏻
Decided multivitamins were a better idea than food today and didn’t count how many I had and was so completely freaked out for too damn long.

Nope I’m just a lunatic 

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EDAnonymous,fitgeek69,2019/09/26,"I’m anorexic. I suspect my new housemate is too. I’m a college student in recovery from anorexia. I live with 100 other housemates in a large old mansion. We have communal dinners every night and I met a housemate who struck me firstly for how perfectly thin she was.

I don’t like my anorexic thoughts but I do have them. I envied this girl for her super thin toned and boney body. She’s skinnier than me (I’m a size 2) and around my height. I didn’t suspect anything until I kinda internet stalked her and saw that she had lost some weight since heigh school probably 10-20 lbs.

I know she works out regularly and eats healthy. Not just that but I noticed she always eats small plates. Always. Then I started noticing what her meals look like. I know how to count calories and it makes sense that she is maintaining at her weight because she doesn’t eat much calorically. Still, I didn’t suspect anything until I saw her today with lanugo! I still couldn’t believe it. She probably shaves it off usually since I’ve seen her before and never noticed but still I am 90% sure she has lanugo because her body hair was a soft blond peach fuzz all over and her naturally hair color is dark brown.

Am I exaggerating? I am not gonna say anything but I can’t believe she might seriously have an eating disorder and look so happy. What should I do? I am sort of concerned for her well-being but also don’t really want to be her friend because she associates herself with some rather nasty people in our house.",3.65580204778157,5.675714075085327,4.324827303754265,84.93032627986348,73.77815699658703,6.8723003412969295,28.102252559726963,7.699297019823105,1.7326044778156997,1196,48,227,16,25,381,170,293,0.092,0.7959999999999999,0.11199999999999999,0.8766,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,2,0,1,5,11,9,0,0,6,0,26,12,4,3,4,46,43,21,0,4,9,0,8,2,1,3,0,1,0,1,11,15,8,0,6,0,0,0,10,2,0,1,11,17,51,7,21,27,4,26,0,1,8,0,30,12,0,6,16,148,62,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053445707177685,0.16759072161808958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24861707939443364,0.08964958544429376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416811197893604,0.0,0.08569328783940593,0.2269220853075017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372306371753906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541766497644344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121890322052049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484904859414896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566037137982581,0.0,0.0,0.07780511425473298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720328350197604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620106624976236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069063759999104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839961372543532,0.0,0.08892513840414877,0.0,0.16913515411381186,0.0,0.10993236591948916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722195791214634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068330258798856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07403041028836017,0.0,0.07767058415300486,0.09726236791523557,0.0,0.09450564780802008,0.0,0.0,0.3439629407720444,0.10567388210816243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981677819665191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21715594622155265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451476642660271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008535902705953,0.0,0.10191972853405623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660989172724294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128014127395911,0.0,0.24127154121966665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949141015324742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799492209749899,0.0,0.0,0.0954574004563641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091330088037972,0.0,0.05939893812306224,0.0,0.0,0.24526526675083066,0.09054668178144278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331508115170347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ready2rope,2019/09/26,"I haven’t eaten today because my boyfriend didn’t notice It’s getting worse. It’s getting way worse. 

When we first started dating I had a rule that I could only eat half of what I had on my plate when we ate together so he wouldn’t think I’m a fatass. I was only about 6 kg heavier and much more okay, mental health wise, but now that I’m doing heaps worse I can’t even bring myself to eat in front of him at all. 

Some weird part of me keeps waiting for him to try to get me to eat. I *revel* in it when he comments on how little I’ve eaten or asks me if I have yet. We live together now too, and I hate myself every time I snack in front of him and can only bring myself to eat in front of him when we sit down for meals together - something that happens once in a blue moon, only when we cook dinner together. The rest of the time he would usually eat breakfast before I do because I’d still be asleep, and then I would eat mine separately afterward because I can’t eat in front of him (he’s usually on the couch in the living room watching YouTube or something while I eat in the kitchen) but today I felt like I couldn’t even “get away” with doing that because god forbid he hears me eating in the kitchen and thinks I’m a fat ass. 

So I haven’t eaten yet, and I’m waiting to see if he notices. And I’m *elated* by this, the thought of going as long as I can to see what I can get away with. I have no reason to tie so much of my insecurities around eating with approval from my boyfriend, he never makes serious comments about food around me to make me ashamed but I’m in a downward spiral and i think I might be really sick in the head now.",3.1122435897435916,3.6853326495726506,4.502353988603988,88.83165064102567,72.93162393162393,7.103561253561252,25.16631054131054,6.996647511020387,0.8608413105413106,1284,37,288,11,24,428,161,351,0.113,0.843,0.044000000000000004,-0.9789,0,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,5,0,0,2,22,9,1,2,13,1,24,28,4,4,2,47,59,28,0,7,7,0,1,1,0,4,3,1,4,0,10,18,23,4,6,1,0,7,9,6,0,2,10,6,46,3,49,41,7,57,0,0,4,1,21,23,1,6,26,188,56,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255902638438188,0.06594493313433332,0.0,0.13254841029782347,0.0,0.0,0.17200095728588974,0.0,0.06002393974304944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563200703426355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7217954362480964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318138112228418,0.0,0.059432591612248474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772900545361105,0.0,0.0,0.06000088337963745,0.08529667284660468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842699503150401,0.0,0.040089237273858935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0623778684251139,0.0,0.0,0.06964317645587939,0.07239390263957729,0.07498021581050653,0.07950317060244802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269877034042551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03446204850993505,0.07069913479980032,0.1245753846956133,0.062425259303137914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417136050819193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710872494747606,0.07483128807006863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370933356249114,0.0,0.05440442980486922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061943201770998,0.0,0.07512229127505256,0.0,0.2145939476130351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638743084796994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04518942556836497,0.07252637937620589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124217362528746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860954419278243,0.0,0.0,0.049928238402082915,0.0,0.056332955268025786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559663683298226,0.0,0.05600050299505237,0.08226432782827364,0.0,0.13372644223334676,0.0,0.0,0.04789170669978656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537864065206758,0.0,0.0,0.05599099108691715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156574050279933,0.10021850844527178,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squigglerabbit,2019/09/26,"I really wish I could just self destruct sometimes (tw?) I wish I lived alone no roommate, no friends, no boyfriend, no mom no brother I wish I was just alone and free to do whatever I want no one judging me for eating way to much or not at all or excercising whenever or fucking purging like I used to I wish I had my own room and just my own space I hate constantly being around people and having them judge me for everything I do. I can't talk to anyone in my life about this besides my bf but he doesn't get it he tries and I'm grateful but he just doesn't understand I have being this fucking huge I wish I was back at my LW again I'm so flabby and squishy i hate my body so bad I wish no one gave a shit about me so I could just get back to my LW I can't even talk to my own mom about this because she literally has said that I'm only doing it for attention and that ive never been skinny even at my LW which just fucked me more I've litERALLY BEEN TUBED BECAUSE I WAS REFUSING TO EAT AND MY BMI WAS 15 I DONT KNOW WHY THE FUCK SHE WOULD SAY THINGS LIKE THAT TO ME SHE DIDNT EVEN COME VISITE OR PICK ME UP MY DAD VISITED ME AND THATS THE ONLT PERSON THAT CAME THE WHOLE TIME I FUCKING JATE MY MOM I CANTFUCKING WAIT FOR HER TO KICK ME OUT IN JANUARY FUCK YOU",-0.06675666199158314,1.9880607137681168,2.161968209443668,95.41996493688644,86.78985507246378,5.590275829827021,19.410472183263206,6.968188349444268,0.17369181860682525,991,29,235,14,31,334,139,276,0.192,0.693,0.115,-0.9791,0,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,19,15,10,0,4,0,25,12,3,2,2,44,53,17,0,10,13,5,0,2,2,1,1,2,1,2,12,12,3,2,3,0,1,4,15,11,0,2,11,2,51,5,24,37,7,22,0,0,0,6,26,11,7,4,8,162,63,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183004979819622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058003162038309374,0.0,0.0,0.0738463881357545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757256344684373,0.0692628819594843,0.10113562200371383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214287002181057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487694387059996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145727500091889,0.0,0.08964348948461154,0.0,0.13246357311669754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097221129033246,0.0,0.0,0.1697647072581305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437042713611275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455344468052548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408982972678595,0.4601362031234005,0.08667977823276389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16379922717459372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045589188988956815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585926578343795,0.08105398403757287,0.0,0.07324964474820603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29146314387379546,0.0,0.0,0.06098052082349442,0.0,0.06397901424382614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242316002990806,0.0630900336618566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05750965691081177,0.07243197894479589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314227007761016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890797337975207,0.06596811884175778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653880992276926,0.0,0.08515079011728288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204333923090405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335009797928676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05511075818998775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04837097476033877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563201231241018,0.0,0.0,0.08635773649294999,0.0,0.0716453703020461,0.0,0.0,0.04892824677045413,0.06584479295388558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485281966547502,0.09261485354810436,0.5723560281233139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058927934750096285,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littledahmer,2019/09/26,"work sucks sometimes Today at work two fat customers came up and ordered yogurt. I was in the middle of drinking a smoothie, and I took one look at them and immediately went to dump it out. I know it's such a horrible, disordered thing to do - but I convinced myself that if I drank the smoothie, I'd end up looking like them. I felt so satisfied with myself, watching the smoothie go down the  drain. The sad part is, I do it all the time when working with my overweight coworkers.",5.343546099290776,5.955153425531917,5.960425531914892,80.23333333333333,67.93617021276596,8.394326241134753,33.751773049645394,8.344100000000001,2.6146794326241127,378,17,72,5,6,123,67,94,0.132,0.7509999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.1342,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,3,3,5,2,0,8,0,4,4,1,0,1,12,14,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,2,1,0,4,0,3,0,2,6,4,12,2,12,8,2,17,0,1,3,0,2,8,1,1,5,53,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491092278369096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496217280590945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133645518984613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929092901649261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091255559010507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378277186259624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969913029912772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640780864655232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658002391059287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758931645306705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358600105367867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21541327166742036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469899491006522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700299652042782,0.0,0.2064522901482187,0.0,0.2419877485277737,0.0,0.0,0.2127624118561174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190606495875071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47569071650209294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ObeseSqueegee,2019/09/26,"I made an alt so I can tell you all how awful I am. TW: numbers Hoooo boy

I am truly a garbage person. I've struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember (thanks childhood trauma!) Going from chonky to pretty thin since I was young until adulthood where I fuckin ballooooned up to 230. I lost 60 pounds and I've gained back 50. I. Feel. Disgusting.  

So what exactly makes me terrible? My  sister who's been overweight since early childhood is now losing weight. She was heavier than me and is under 200 now and I.cant.stand.it. wtf is wrong with me. I should be happy for her for getting healthy but I'm just an awful jealous ogre.

Anyway, I gotta stop eating forever now. Thanks anyone who wasted their time reading this.",1.5213773796192598,4.232074411347522,2.619104143337065,89.50263157894737,88.57446808510639,4.670548712206048,20.896229936543488,6.339386263674448,0.4554453900709223,576,19,107,6,19,183,103,141,0.21600000000000005,0.693,0.091,-0.9523,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,3,10,12,3,1,3,2,12,5,0,3,2,16,22,10,0,1,2,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,4,5,4,1,2,1,0,1,0,9,0,0,5,4,20,3,14,14,1,17,0,2,0,1,10,4,1,0,12,68,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130042504111317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300820010097307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903053804807314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940377730715216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716759415424098,0.0,0.10569750332920816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19798063569503815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458766745663678,0.0,0.2080655903179649,0.20302064430516106,0.0,0.0,0.17598007715351244,0.1241440143003318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239176604713926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892099234203322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603170767610616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106806469078264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076914363041225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554887600989576,0.0,0.194428117667332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255592224718,0.3424533318248853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844723741069874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529504306120206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033414415151848,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pondsandbeyond,2019/09/26,"what do you say when you meet other people with casual ED behaviors? do you commiserate? help? ignore it like you don’t see the problem? over the past several months, my coworker I’m mentoring has mentioned behaviors that I recognize in myself as part of an ED

Like skipping breakfast and lunch, checking calorie counts on any packaged snacks, feeling dizzy when standing up too fast. 

maybe she has an ED, or did, or doesn’t. but when she brings up her behaviors, I never know whether to commiserate with her or try to talk about it, or help.... 

like I’m not in recovery myself so it feels hypocritical to direct her to resources, I don’t want to open up about my ED because we aren’t that close, but ignoring these red flags feels wrong too. 

idk what do you do when someone is sort of talking about having an ED but also like maybe not?",4.1288915432393685,5.986939614906834,4.851180124223603,82.34039178213091,72.1055900621118,8.183659818442429,28.53368370759675,8.841846274778883,2.2935337792642136,662,26,126,13,13,213,97,161,0.114,0.7929999999999999,0.092,-0.7754,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,5,0,0,11,9,0,0,5,0,13,3,0,0,1,26,22,16,0,2,10,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,6,3,2,4,1,1,1,7,4,0,0,1,6,18,5,20,21,1,19,0,0,2,0,18,9,0,5,12,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559612788895388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262356596298416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888532072388598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958312280065488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614420531329249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718054127941108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38111710581665226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39185729161504257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566695147324885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041516485054165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111928761080114,0.18617325915863392,0.13520565496322234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866124150152621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550915653787309,0.0,0.0,0.15540953238468458,0.0,0.0,0.22032253611658573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652438979499845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135071274144528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240905169044628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503069234199748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132290262492268,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,red_ossifrage,2019/09/26,"Met my new boss today, and I’m p sure she has an ED If I’m right, this will be the second boss in a row with an ED. Gotta love entertainment /s

My last boss was competitive about my ED, and I’m just PRAYING that’s not how it’s gonna be this time around. I definitely feel like she’s already clocked me - mannn, why did I order an iced green tea and literally nothing else - and I just hope she won’t be as weird about it.

Anyone else with this problem at work?",0.26821782178218,2.0529980495049536,2.48563366336634,95.23102475247528,83.35643564356435,5.624158415841586,19.01089108910891,6.742157984588678,-0.14568594059405982,357,9,89,4,10,121,70,101,0.046,0.7390000000000001,0.214,0.9478,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,4,1,19,17,7,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,2,10,5,8,7,0,10,1,0,1,1,5,4,0,2,6,47,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26939298877718804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17069469584004274,0.25013025148170176,0.0,0.217318958462868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4078626249147427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343463532644655,0.17439969939867472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424666908937754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19899075037443206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926492165012705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220328238665328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23577305336347926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23424015727258574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335903029914725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084775318125973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23008063658356925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234859849104647,0.0,0.23139764385904754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22028073705928325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17772259622337125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,davidriot,2019/09/26,"i'm 'recovered' but i want nothing more than to relapse. I am disgusting for even thinking this. I was a shell of myself when I was in the depths of my bulimia. my sister doesn't look concerned when she sees me anymore. my boyfriend is by his own admission wildly more attracted to me. I've heard a million times how ""healthy"" I look now.

but I know what that means. i've visibly gained weight. I'm not the fragile, dainty, skinny girl anymore. my legs are like tree trunks. my torso is like a barrel. 

I know the torturous weight an ED puts on a person. the stress, the tears, the absolute hatred it burns. 

but I want to be thin again. and I know exactly how to get there.",1.3494278606965149,3.748398768656717,2.7760895522388083,91.07065174129356,83.70149253731344,6.2599004975124375,23.112437810945273,7.554174236665415,1.1217876616915432,521,19,108,9,15,169,89,134,0.15,0.732,0.11800000000000001,-0.8206,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,8,6,2,1,11,0,8,4,2,2,1,15,22,8,0,2,4,1,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,3,0,5,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,3,8,19,3,11,18,3,10,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,0,7,70,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963906371696223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319975882164459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441222797687318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294933760361053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952710824210664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356436409538539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21769284344705966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175935566067567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449939195948394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009022390464359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925282357653325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289249816374917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805440183181666,0.0,0.0,0.11653286030745832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23575082264685984,0.0,0.0,0.486721566330157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohmsdeceiver,2019/09/26,"i haven’t had a chance to weigh myself in a month I’ve been away at school, so I haven’t had easy access to a scale. Tomorrow I’m going home which means I’ll be stepping on the scale for the first time in a month. I’m looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time. 

I binged a couple times in the last few weeks, so I’m super worried that I’ve gained weight since the last time I weighed myself. I’m also kinda worried that I’ll be at a new low weight and that’ll trigger a binge, because for some reason I binge whenever the number on the scale gets lower. I know I shouldn’t care so much about one number, but it’s all I can think about.",3.3419170579029718,3.40031317605634,4.3576995305164345,91.9219640062598,72.16901408450704,6.874491392801253,23.524256651017215,5.82211442006289,0.2769176838810643,509,11,120,2,9,166,77,142,0.07200000000000001,0.828,0.1,0.3731,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,0,1,14,0,10,4,0,2,1,13,21,7,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,4,0,4,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,3,3,10,2,16,14,5,25,0,1,1,0,0,11,0,2,13,70,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491905623811262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585106313214523,0.0,0.0,0.1028453689713102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17201329481703642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18667680001310366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350648013026135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814514211790371,0.0,0.095883010519655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16923205599115296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271979288365642,0.2750458620139708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167572613909318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18377700577313436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693288786777647,0.0,0.12402285248069468,0.0,0.0,0.1629432588700774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143237283276111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17346420310210733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17074571662665974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956044511319748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810394210521712,0.0,0.0,0.39350967725664815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533072104018942,0.41089192776848893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426707831397162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Shrekulous,2019/09/26,THANK!!! Y'ALL For teaching me about low cal ice cream! Guess who's a happy girl now? Did bishhhh,-0.9378947368421072,-0.3769921578947368,0.17621052631579026,100.56747368421057,128.4736842105263,3.6252631578947376,14.326315789473686,5.6839178017228535,-0.6096400000000002,75,2,16,1,5,23,19,19,0.087,0.578,0.335,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,8,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6163621386406457,0.0,0.0,0.595607633583304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151206274918779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lelouch_19,2019/09/26,"I Don't Care Anymore I don't really want to recover. I don't get why I can't just drink all my calories or eat the same things that I crave. It's cheaper that way. It's less stressful that way. I hate being in program because they give me so much food, foods that I may not be craving, and overall I'm just consuming a shit ton of calories. I'm only going to IOP because my boyfriend & psychiatrist want me to. 

My psychiatrist wants me to work on improving my impulsivity. I don't know how to do that. I don't think I can do that. I don't know what to do.",1.0415702479338833,2.6963443966942187,3.5231404958677714,89.39561983471077,80.2396694214876,6.7140495867768575,25.049586776859503,7.686295010490155,1.1763487603305791,436,17,101,7,11,152,70,121,0.14400000000000002,0.83,0.026000000000000002,-0.9003,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,2,1,2,0,14,5,1,1,1,15,27,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,1,4,0,3,1,0,1,8,3,0,0,0,0,19,1,9,24,5,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,66,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20483411160999287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874854420673866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304845803113693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927476777050616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519568582464468,0.0,0.19344394452152497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4571967075817814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877010647508314,0.18135267218379228,0.10744069305044836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866463832559241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779236598692316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897249525647562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378000196458182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110939323813755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19405570198246025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216554566924381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559550947928366,0.12113472864819125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345173401468313,0.30011600599258753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705869839321905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376296541907079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chubbyUsagi,2019/09/26,"Has anyone else had a SO/Partner trigger you indirectly? My SO follows at least a thousand IG models/cam girls/lewd cosplayers/ whatever.

A majority of them are heavily photo shopped, obviously. 

Not only does he follow/like pictures, he screenshots them and saves them in his phone, when he’s right next to me

It upset me and it took me a while to say something because I didn’t want to be annoying. (Been dating a bit over a year, will officially have been together 1 year closer to the end of this year)

A little while ago I saw a picture that this guy keeps a picture of his girlfriend's butt in his wallet, so I made a joke to my SO that he should keep one of mine in his wallet

""Someone would see it and say, what is that? Pancakes in your wallet?"" I laughed at the time but it really hurt 

I can't help but feel like he compares me to these models he follows on social media (Instagram, Facebook, Reddit, Twitter, you guys it's everywhere, I don't even want to look over in his direction when he's on his phone in case I accidentally see something)

I used to like my butt, it's small, especially since I recently lost 60 pounds, it's gotten smaller. I never really hated it until he said something 

It's all I can think about now, I won't wear certain clothes now because of it

I don't want to be naked around him.

My tits shrank too but I want to lose more weight. 

He's obviously obsessed with women's looks and I feel like he's going to see me in the way that I see myself, a fucking gremlin. 

Has anyone else experienced anything close to this? 

I don't want to paint him in a bad light, this is genuinely the only bad thing about him. Everything else is fine, this is the only subject in our relationship that causes discourse.

(He blocked me on Instagram so he could take time to unfollow all these pages to make me feel better, so I guess that's a step.)

When we first started dating, I was heavier. 225 pounds, 5'10. When I was about 30 pounds into my weightloss, I told him happily and he said ""that's great, keep going!"" Bad way to reply but he's just trying to be supportive I guess.

Now he's telling me my legs are getting to skinny and I need to work out so he can have a ""better pillow"" as he was laying his head on my ass/legs while we were watching TV

I don't know how to feel. I dunno. thanks for reading my rant if you stuck around to the end.",2.4177857142857166,4.247735350000003,3.985892857142858,86.84125000000002,76.75,6.738095238095237,24.55357142857143,7.62386473244151,1.1839196428571437,1848,63,382,26,42,615,232,480,0.105,0.784,0.111,-0.4449,0,0,3,0,0,0,62.0,3,4,3,6,22,24,3,2,20,0,33,9,7,6,6,57,78,27,0,10,7,0,5,3,1,4,0,4,1,3,26,14,2,4,6,4,1,6,9,11,0,3,17,19,64,13,54,53,7,60,0,3,8,4,53,26,4,5,29,237,90,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476482075689746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794892127970776,0.17283837202144522,0.0694069541831082,0.1501659825935367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112681944766012,0.10282920015991263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918874005076976,0.092080514571976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664330918576807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734087853542807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380896994248097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211372809809296,0.0,0.1494054080527033,0.0,0.0,0.0557076369910792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580188793799295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058505554210826,0.12050905456872125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174195939573952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797357777997826,0.044065642199671316,0.0,0.09586793629386507,0.0,0.0,0.09298825653449484,0.1858262497040178,0.16702530383030506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832710729586297,0.08656006597113299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05653321421040387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029073296576362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249033205460508,0.0,0.0,0.04635260798120548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361692423345975,0.08453366304674292,0.0,0.0,0.1416534526218851,0.0943580412463538,0.09207015105156327,0.0,0.0,0.07980721537478523,0.05629948711816012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253913214319844,0.06505038216377129,0.0,0.08969954565622774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05715287747427309,0.1924395451665621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843656441183107,0.0,0.10806434011078796,0.0,0.08327835931294607,0.09055262399606734,0.0,0.07202830722811301,0.16045867179383394,0.13414559108170448,0.0,0.0,0.2688412297672742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976925207470848,0.0,0.0,0.08597688319690007,0.0714633974743073,0.19479366979068607,0.0,0.0,0.05969828193160644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571123234858712,0.0,0.0,0.06341530386116855,0.0,0.0737193420247833,0.07765153661377378,0.0,0.0,0.05603362171119782,0.054043473284217464,0.0,0.0,0.09836195293045824,0.0,0.0,0.08059317870656127,0.09370797612089388,0.057263238204502485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07284511606651932,0.0,0.0,0.2487379016884809,0.13389480897036404,0.0,0.1027068323717738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061402577298650465,0.0,0.0,0.05991471923913622,0.0,0.0,0.16294203189977113
EDAnonymous,tokieofrivia,2019/09/26,"At least some humor can come out of this awful disease. My dad and I were in the grocery store and I was doing my normal routine: picking food up and putting it back about 10 times, calculating calories, trying to figure out if I was the Jell-O cups with 10 calories or 5 calories (and even tearing up over not being able to make the decision because obviously 5 calories but the 10 calorie ones taste so much better, there's still no sugar, AND they were half off), you know, the usual bs. 

Well, apparently my dad had a lot of work to do when we got home and was getting a bit frustrated with me and says loudly (and jokingly) ""Your anorexia is making me late! Hurry up!""

I don't know why it made me laugh so hard but I'm still giggling about it an hour later.",5.325098039215689,5.247994189542485,6.156339869281047,81.20352941176473,67.8888888888889,8.368627450980393,30.72549019607843,7.793537801064563,1.963086274509804,593,21,119,6,9,196,108,153,0.07400000000000001,0.8190000000000001,0.107,0.7393,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,2,1,2,11,7,1,0,8,1,12,3,0,4,1,31,21,15,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,14,3,0,4,1,1,2,3,1,1,2,8,5,14,6,18,12,5,20,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,4,9,85,18,1,0.1943683193950977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494572399744852,0.0,0.11848512344173527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190298333102805,0.21219986382607972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743109661169622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837844182918334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23503094333599625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154942462739916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554541009041498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411583634931554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496727217735965,0.0,0.19141364208777573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136394903377088,0.0,0.2192559303657511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524499447283456,0.0,0.18391600344099407,0.259484724981926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288307906086195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043968470544664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170900351376166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953938458821184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545694889560814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104455818894373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333773010790092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319633301977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140692436643728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476046183294994,0.0,0.17538717619594169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150245143514248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,not_the_cicada,2019/09/26,"Oh I found the most amazing appetite suppressant... It’s heartbreak :(

I feel so fucking stupid, and I can’t stop crying and all I’ve eaten today is adderall.",3.0380000000000003,5.543852133333335,4.043333333333333,83.885,77.66666666666666,5.333333333333334,30.0,6.42735559955562,1.7470000000000003,124,6,21,1,3,40,26,30,0.40700000000000003,0.488,0.105,-0.8952,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,8,6,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4856142942794026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235336136499562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4847280561030219,0.0,0.4087043980490311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696064176300333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190489272731385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DinosaursAndStarStuf,2019/09/26,"Another My 600lb Life Shitpost I've been watching a ton of this show lately since I realized it was on Hulu, and I keep having moments where I picture Dr. Now talking maaaaad shit to me. I'm at the low end of a healthy BMI currently, but every time I eat more than I plan to or spend 5min less on the treadmill than I was going to, I picture Dr. Now telling me off for not trying hard enough and telling me I'm gonna die if I don't lose tirty pount.



I fuckin love that man.",8.410145631067962,4.2290562038834985,8.543762135922332,79.67156553398061,64.63106796116507,11.46504854368932,39.342233009708735,8.07648339933343,3.0266135922330086,371,14,86,3,4,123,76,103,0.092,0.789,0.12,0.4178,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,2,0,4,0,5,7,1,0,0,8,11,5,1,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,1,1,1,1,2,4,0,0,3,2,13,1,12,7,4,14,0,2,1,2,5,6,2,2,7,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486822770566028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461339827366112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426732417336191,0.0,0.0,0.21005280860273853,0.24504902522104344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981699726648375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478313493425387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124482120788385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21079814428187826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675260985476077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675126761987996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26532067127125714,0.0,0.0,0.21404559014698027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434406845531247,0.19618068105319555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19061971763615435,0.4145754840464477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828953544576386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610156442302324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carmensimone,2019/09/26,"binged today I ate a whole box of snack cakes today and feel like a failure, so naturally I will eat everything in the pantry since I already messed up today 😪",13.262812500000004,6.610252156250002,12.3775,63.31750000000002,58.6875,15.3,44.5,11.20814326018867,4.7513375,127,4,25,2,1,42,27,32,0.183,0.737,0.08,-0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,3,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29394058511053706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27255806373357083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393918365599364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468223169226684,0.19029132835653498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013256585528954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203400184866141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7574490984847163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973871962404672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zlrnq,2019/09/26,i just wanna go into the kitchen and eat EVERYTHINGGVGDD i’m so tired of being sick i just want my disorder to GO AWAY but i’m scared i’ll gain weight if i try to recover arghdhsuf currently going insane !!!,0.5735714285714266,3.07185635714286,2.873333333333335,86.93000000000004,92.57142857142857,6.609523809523811,21.285714285714285,7.793537801064563,1.4218285714285712,165,6,33,4,6,56,33,42,0.29100000000000004,0.595,0.114,-0.8358,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,8,7,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,6,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28635151078564897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493050998095392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118667559775675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5196417052676955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051386611717834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503005922818675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069260964620148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797675599648598,0.0,0.0,0.3711407976400223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bumblebatty00,2019/09/26,"I'm just so over it Pre anorexia: underweight without being aware or trying, ah the good ol days. This doesn't count. I wasn't really even a person here yet?

First round: clueless and ignorant af. Keto before it was cool in that my safe food was 2 slices of bacon and an egg. That's it. Water was the enemy because I had no idea how water weight worked. Salads were a treat. I cried when the scale didn't move down even though I was dehydrated af and already a low weight. 10 grapes omg failure end of the world fuck me. Isolated. Cried in bathrooms every day. Irrational. No clue about anything.

Second round: oh hi nice to meet you Reddit! Community! All this weird body checking is a _thing_ I'm not alone. Okay I got this. I remember being clueless. I know more now. I'm the Diet Expert™️. I loooove talking about diet and nutrition. I won't get ""that bad."" I stay hydrated! Spoilers: got a new kind of bad. Sure I know more and eat more but I'm just as underweight and just as mentally fucked in the head when my (ex) fiance's family wants to go out for Tex Mex and I bring my own Trader Joe's 230 calorie salad with me. Oh also, hiyo untreated trauma. You might be relevant to all this.

Maybe third round? Jaded af. Don't fucking talk to me about diet fads. Let me eat this bagel with full fat cream cheese, it's all I'm eating today and I will fight you. Yes I'm having a diet coke to go along with it. No I don't need to hear about your intermittent fasting. Leave me alone. I know how calories work. Just leave me alone. I have no patience anymore.",0.11623769338959278,2.5004368544303834,2.010691983122367,93.15427988748243,93.43037974683544,4.960787623066103,17.465260196905767,6.640361216903883,0.06614087201125196,1210,33,254,17,45,398,190,316,0.17300000000000001,0.763,0.064,-0.9826,0,3,0,0,1,0,49.0,0,4,0,3,20,18,4,0,13,4,21,22,3,2,4,37,42,19,0,2,8,1,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,14,13,17,2,5,0,1,4,12,10,1,3,10,8,29,8,27,25,8,25,0,1,4,3,12,9,3,2,11,146,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259106432629096,0.11575135954722834,0.0838824055658844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402506443644054,0.0,0.0,0.08631749871479552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17516152687045286,0.06394142674255891,0.0,0.08925569732732692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651179785362625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304387278414745,0.13529382671471868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219933010018696,0.0,0.0,0.09290352292041174,0.0,0.0,0.13856086730721415,0.0,0.08837636168218606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888320914107557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892214124769326,0.12683629310597122,0.0,0.0,0.29091397017891196,0.05480194396518371,0.0,0.11922552379988648,0.08797875928565455,0.1677840511291023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764985254221524,0.0,0.11822134572025728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841073960611245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922928184066226,0.17293834142136458,0.0,0.0,0.22213178931612046,0.0,0.1072595744026359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537850321964372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057068571325516,0.11127424869457148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148400948316664,0.0,0.07777637733754267,0.0,0.1013057228968794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158798816399556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671967502998303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882262915827715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180133026977933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885983525750576,0.0,0.0,0.16861705800835455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968584239097436,0.0,0.1030562395991495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994257200021763,0.0,0.0,0.07121504679606189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06186824868491843,0.0,0.0,0.2554613431922908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111251987724984,0.0,0.15272581687070488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scudderbuggy,2019/09/26,"Tip for any NYC folks here! I just discovered the essex street trader joes and its the best thing ive ever found. Its ALWAYS empty even during peak time which if u live here u know thats the struggle with this beautiful hell hole. They carry everything and its emptiness allows for anyone like me who takes 10 years to grocery shop so i can look at the labels, do math, put items down and picked back up again. I used to get up to get to tjs right at open to avoid the crowds and take my time but this place is amazing. 

Its 5 minutes walk from the essex/delancy FMJ stop and i wish i knew about it sooner",3.5392114695340524,4.622773064516132,3.962365591397852,91.19410394265232,72.38709677419354,6.801433691756272,21.035842293906807,6.937597516519254,0.2779992831541218,476,9,103,4,9,149,94,124,0.094,0.784,0.122,0.7678,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,9,6,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,3,1,20,14,8,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,9,3,15,12,2,18,1,0,1,0,3,9,1,1,8,61,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18206433141180284,0.0,0.0,0.1487957558082941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529944201949806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824850311131526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22962366414886315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451946706101715,0.1979227835072726,0.0,0.0,0.19664895225715556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399097636042424,0.0,0.0,0.2286344734894344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025019484141455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689768330329397,0.0,0.1932099308713262,0.0,0.18374214547590784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22860596474242406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21996071981820148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685934525603806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293182571917435,0.0,0.22874380446143866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32903014425099913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536515251037704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551753724335327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889783505557263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516163935165949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090405363849312
EDAnonymous,CATrashanator,2019/06/29,"I hate myself. I showed my husband this tiny little bath towel (from like the 80s) I got for free randomly. And I said “what normal person could even use this? It’s so small?” And he said “it seems normal.” and I said “Maybe for a man, who just wraps it around his waist, but not for an obese woman to wrap around herself.”  His response was “Nah, you’d be fine.”
 
Um. I didn’t specify that I was the obese woman (even though I know I am). So, that’s cool.",-0.17120889748549215,1.9418492872340456,1.4257059961315302,100.06136363636364,88.04255319148935,4.2692456479690515,13.86460348162476,5.565023196281405,-1.162370212765958,339,5,81,2,11,109,66,94,0.045,0.843,0.11199999999999999,0.7075,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,8,5,1,0,4,1,7,3,1,1,0,15,15,7,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,4,9,5,3,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,7,4,15,5,7,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,14,4,0,2,1,52,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560335902598488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596607589957113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641582289180846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993526400457733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974301939640942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989896081941407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769584427308396,0.20042371136619588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20089798308508744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918587039282283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174607168775364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5706553110805299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204630155708346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647072265440224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727109413072528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImonQuak,2019/06/29,Documenting how I’m doing I’m 5’2 105 pounds today i ate 900 calories,-1.032,0.6251738000000024,2.879999999999999,83.32000000000002,111.0,4.666666666666667,18.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.5823333333333336,57,2,11,1,3,21,12,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietcokecomrade,2019/06/29,"I’m HHHHHNNGG gonna scream I fucking had anxiety for months about moving back in with my parents and how I wasn’t going to be able to restrict blah blah blah. I’m home for a week and my parents tell me they’re going on a low cal diet where my 6’3 dad is eating 1000 CALORIES A DAY and my 5’2 mom is eating 800 (arguably more normal, but shit man). So basically it’s family restriction time and I don’t have to worry :)))) they don’t give a shit anyway I spent the whole day with them at the fair and only drank a Diet Coke and it went right over their heads. My only problem is competitive ED brain can’t let me not be the lowest consumer in the house so I think I’m striving for 600 a day. My TDEE is 2100 so minus 600 /// 3 lbs a week hopefully.",0.9770833333333327,2.739848375000001,3.3200000000000003,90.25833333333335,80.875,6.0166666666666675,20.041666666666664,7.0316486544052195,0.31409166666666666,580,15,130,7,15,200,101,160,0.187,0.7440000000000001,0.069,-0.9486,3,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,0,8,7,3,0,11,0,13,11,4,1,0,17,26,11,0,3,2,4,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,8,6,2,1,0,1,4,5,6,0,0,5,1,16,1,14,17,2,20,0,1,0,1,10,8,3,1,8,73,18,0,0.14880424676897056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383484148312828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442128062734835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661147519132669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28789928669338755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045277869311762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027940061496594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756712833822568,0.0,0.1427465926906802,0.1691377652680369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271608721119598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149262792265953,0.14779619269479502,0.0,0.17170012193078568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15216242411744252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742777353617454,0.11877413009566833,0.15815536494310112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579656770047153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22634467008793965,0.0,0.0,0.3304590124832012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423855677054135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270780136881098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054908418677266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006147048875027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534775287741692,0.0,0.0,0.08676895294304036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387235820485385,0.0,0.0,0.13794302756079002,0.0,0.1661346274115432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111793572391746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flippdipp,2019/06/29,WHY CAN I SUCK IN MY STOMACH BUT NOT MY THIGHS?!?!?!?! I NEED ANSWERS MAN!!! Wish I didn't need to do either but here we are.,-3.8288888888888906,-3.211796296296292,-0.7238888888888884,108.2675,123.07407407407408,1.8,11.907407407407408,3.1291,-2.068525925925926,88,2,24,0,6,30,22,27,0.163,0.769,0.068,-0.5566,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,9,8,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,2,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7121931860703571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333476451252943,0.0,0.5522596166472031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BigFrameSkinnyAddict,2019/06/29,"You know what sucks? When I was 10 years old my weight slowly crept to the high 140's. The day I decided to lose weight was when I came back from vacation I weight 1 4 9 pounds. W t f. My brain finally clicked and went ""you dont need to weigh this much holy fuck"" I realized I needed to lose weight right then and there. I started working out like crazy, ate as healthy as I could and made sure to watch portion sizes. Also I stopped drinking soda/milk completely, and within a month I dropped 10 pounds. I was so happy for myself I kept going, but as time went on I became more disordered. I lost another 10 pounds, and another. Finally to about 2 years ago I got under 120 lbs. I was so happy but then, I for some reason felt awful. I HATED my body, almost everything about it. During the first half of my 8th grade year I refused to look at the scale (this was after a long period of my extream disordered eating). Then in gym we had to do the test and shit. I got weighed but would see it till school got out. I got the letter and my weight was 112lb. Then I went to the doctor during that month and weight 116, then got sick, went to the doctor and weight 113. Now my weight goes between 112 and 116. I'm 14 years old now. And. During all of this. I was NEVER congradualted about my weight loss. My mom was proud, but that was it. My own doctors who TOLD me to lose weight never said anything and it made me feel awful so I kept losing weight and they still havent cared.... This is a really long post but I just really needed to get that out.",1.0473772204806655,3.1648439780564246,2.5323510971786867,94.12427377220484,82.57366771159873,5.747544409613376,17.817136886102407,6.980632752743323,-0.02870198537095092,1195,26,267,15,33,388,169,319,0.158,0.785,0.057999999999999996,-0.9858,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,1,2,1,9,15,16,4,0,11,2,16,24,3,3,4,47,50,33,0,5,6,1,13,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,13,18,16,4,6,2,0,6,4,10,0,2,29,18,42,6,35,19,6,52,0,6,4,1,10,10,3,2,35,161,55,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04933268032436912,0.0,0.05572804928599368,0.0,0.0,0.04450537161021376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167132267395493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0457973556057449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04279342137858005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061817503032586874,0.0,0.062126717485135825,0.0,0.06365175910035259,0.05674154430949016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058350702094170426,0.0,0.0,0.044434080091658085,0.0,0.0,0.03589132902117991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756542371873558,0.17088841169394506,0.0,0.0,0.06522444370814172,0.054518370017536885,0.0,0.056946513079479885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050016976805012485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02813963147366072,0.0,0.053435232494300745,0.12192942658385734,0.0,0.04733808110397128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05144994059271017,0.02907619142153648,0.0,0.031628660422528425,0.0,0.22255237839783668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848647507086928,0.0,0.05494542996221004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880003734465239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030585218670863324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02718905381859655,0.0,0.0,0.0985016160222485,0.04673417540691376,0.24904413801650505,0.06075139729167502,0.0,0.0,0.10531968922828283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517966347998795,0.08884276369204294,0.0,0.04091107136171035,0.12379711403906192,0.08584544644861772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679610352438485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053299815978833716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130497326388065,0.05722015136619425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04752702432530248,0.0529383758346521,0.0,0.0,0.05632341183820935,0.04434792430401049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05712660377364345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03939120335782122,0.0,0.04444424573604176,0.046528073396137806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05245192571407651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032451484072816915,0.0,0.0,0.05317845319770585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7454687384994,0.0,0.20636210579992584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040515762444160365,0.0,0.0,0.03953401694841824,0.0,0.0,0.14335382317934126
EDAnonymous,Reasonable_Ticket,2019/06/29,"MODS PLEASE REPLY - Can I ask for tips on getting help? Hey guys!  I want to make a post explaining my situation and asking for advice on how to get help so I can recover from my ed, but the first rule of this subreddit is ""no asking for/giving tips"". Does anyone know if its okay for me to ask for tips on getting help, or is recovery advice banned too?",2.3633333333333333,3.9463597777777792,4.167777777777779,86.555,76.22222222222223,7.5777777777777775,21.722222222222207,8.344100000000001,1.1019555555555551,272,7,58,5,6,92,51,72,0.086,0.745,0.16899999999999998,0.5601,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,10,15,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,12,15,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,2,1,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468836057433468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410558497208345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6637191697171452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532325843279168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097345090147093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781946071075225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757436423504299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569047114875821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754421602292117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847638293966516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948314273960409,0.0,0.0,0.16998697376566926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19950692013994656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468858030696856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tad-confused,2019/06/29,I can’t tell if I’m fat lol I literally can’t tell if my legs are fat and I wish I knew  it’s driving me insane,-2.6290804597701154,-1.424757586206896,2.014482758620691,97.83712643678163,90.3793103448276,5.2459770114942526,16.563218390804597,6.42735559955562,-0.6287333333333334,86,2,26,1,3,34,20,29,0.10300000000000001,0.687,0.21,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,3,0,0,5,6,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,13,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8354406377399327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5495806954512633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FormalFlannel,2019/06/29,"Comments mocking overweight people are not only incredibly common on Reddit, but are seemingly always upvoted - and they always send me into a spiral of feeling disgusting and refusing to eat for the rest of the day. Apologies for the new account, I recently discovered this sub, but a few people IRL know about my account and I don't feel like I can talk openly about ED related stuff on there.

I was very overweight for most of my life (even as a small child), up until recently. I got mocked constantly in school, and as a result, I meticulously avoid any situation that might involve fat people getting made fun of. That includes never, ever browsing the front page of Reddit, and only looking at subs I consider ""safe"". However, it seems like whenever there's any sort of post involving an overweight person, the comments are not only filled with people talking about how fat they are and how easy it would be to diet and exercise, but those comments are the most upvoted ones. It's not fucking easy to lose weight - it took me a long ass time to get down to where I am now via eating less (can't exercise beyond walking and arm weights due to one of my knees being constantly unstable and painful, but apparently exercise is super easy for everyone???). But every time I see comments like that, it just fills me with terror of getting back up to the weight I was at, and having those kinds of comments directed at me.

There's a gif of an overweight guy falling onto a baggage carousel that's been making the rounds on Reddit, and against my better judgement, I ventured into the comments. Nothing there but people saying he should ""put the fork down"" and all the variants thereof. 

Now I feel like a fat, disgusting pig and am regretting the fact that I ate lunch earlier (or ate anything besides salads this past week at all). I don't want to leave my apartment and let people see me. The thought of some picture or video of me ending up on the internet and getting comments like that is terrifying. I CANNOT let myself be overweight again. I always feel that way, granted, but usually not this intensely. Does anyone else have these kinds of reactions?",9.909874686716787,8.152211729323309,9.350238095238094,67.50726190476192,59.526315789473685,12.174937343358398,41.46491228070175,10.864195022040775,4.598910776942356,1716,77,285,33,18,551,212,399,0.183,0.748,0.069,-0.9939,2,1,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,2,3,18,21,5,2,24,0,27,27,6,5,5,64,50,29,0,4,14,0,8,5,0,3,13,1,0,3,19,20,18,3,8,4,2,8,9,10,0,2,9,12,30,11,52,33,9,54,0,2,4,2,21,22,2,9,27,205,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948584158605655,0.0,0.0,0.11958616105552244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06148029987362508,0.09009115832732736,0.07235607261508006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761010245595586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776390302322865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19003476436653632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05670536157730595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694513109901252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17994165737541318,0.07345136403799099,0.0,0.07787684016235095,0.0,0.0,0.058074668090276636,0.07953461352604878,0.07408192473766333,0.08401760255013868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778332562078653,0.12562951372488187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812866941404955,0.18375200838912648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032290768331023,0.0,0.0,0.08706112488827956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312397755337864,0.048322141613335486,0.0,0.0,0.0931015386056356,0.0,0.17982174344005694,0.06210513440062373,0.21478239588432815,0.0,0.0,0.07781224469557035,0.07383617120732533,0.09836733746053787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831982434444683,0.058691666073783226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932761924130318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781438878679467,0.08492002608265277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436791219956204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916263438903972,0.2006163484331879,0.09356006631733613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393585707154726,0.3657432624280832,0.07677408660970897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420934580884673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839048507525323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17363375427238525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992273500212813,0.0,0.08898637973724663,0.14013217963469202,0.16009008817618162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883314501781984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065488269427196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134408752628055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980387251522394,0.10254137632982938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768965090915543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968386911151848,0.07254862599262435,0.0518613671742839,0.06979201604988279,0.07052938820672816,0.32121261227879405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062460510290396024,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theangrytourist,2019/06/29,"My job is hosting a weight loss challenge. I love the competition even though my body is practically already screaming no.

I won last year and first prize was a paid day off.

Get ready to lose again, bitches. 😎

Last year everyone thought I was on crack. Let’s see if I hear that again this year.",1.5528571428571425,4.1477213793103465,2.0862561576354715,94.86293103448278,85.20689655172413,5.383251231527094,23.802955665024644,6.868970318607317,0.7048541871921183,232,9,50,3,7,71,47,58,0.19899999999999998,0.5820000000000001,0.218,0.3182,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,6,4,8,1,0,3,0,5,3,1,0,0,3,12,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,5,4,6,4,3,6,0,11,0,2,1,1,2,2,1,1,9,27,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24264377666938414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442378453983408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180483582449044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522910259334787,0.0,0.0,0.2101053939978376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870303775943703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487856993256837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24782148495453274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819762751943086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584641709666908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22484287285098725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459902159351777,0.0,0.0,0.19845088092060875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752164184663117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21603163266069247,0.17456068362143168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677554084361308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4247878090993139
EDAnonymous,Gingerella95,2019/06/29,"I have a bruise on my back that perfectly matches the contours of my spine During my latest (attempted) hookup we ended up on a hardwood floor. Honestly I'm nearly as pleased by the bruise as I was by the guy.

God it hurts to lie down.",4.625,4.889419833333335,5.645833333333336,83.08250000000002,69.41666666666666,8.9,30.583333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.312283333333333,184,7,38,3,3,61,37,48,0.057999999999999996,0.713,0.22899999999999998,0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,0,2,1,1,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,11,2,0,9,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544169281666571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082358917241189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563805603717082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4934214680328082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059487491201835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cinnamonbicycle,2019/06/29,"Me: ok guys i'm gonna recover FOr rEaL tHiS tImE Also me: tailors all my shirts too small so I can still wear them if I lose more weight

Also me: starts compulsively exercising the same day I promise my team I'll gain five more pounds

Also me: counts every calorie """"to make sure i eat enough!!1!1"" but overestimates everything I log

Me: ""yup i'll be sOOo stable in college!! on my own! with nobody to make sure i don't relapse!! don't worry about a thing i'll be fINE!!!""

\*i'm in danger meme\*",-0.21860000000000213,2.043859040000001,1.8335000000000008,93.04925,98.6,4.5,17.25,6.322622252153567,-0.08449999999999935,384,11,81,5,16,127,73,100,0.09,0.77,0.14,0.4602,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,3,8,7,1,0,2,2,5,5,2,2,3,10,11,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,15,5,8,8,5,8,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,47,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4991501462848927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417977413442325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128946035472385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149788526389636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529728498761948,0.0,0.18698852434867666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060094803817168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327629479033584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27775978420019365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368148059783992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726405829989042,0.0,0.16615486294524626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.392183167197689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822405381591174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131990990492054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25335779290134364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21129233124523664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BlueFunkyPelican,2019/06/29,"Mother in law So me and my sister in law have the same prescription medicine for our mental health and I was discussing them with my mother in law. Later on in the night she asks 'so what other medication do you take, besides the ones prescribed by doctor X?' (I've known her for 3 years and we are quite close, so I didn't see anything weird in her asking me that), I tell her I'm on the pill, why are you asking?
'ok I'm gonna say it, cause I've noticed you gained weight'
My heart just broke.",2.4154807692307685,3.5769334326923072,3.435769230769232,93.5842307692308,75.25,5.9692307692307685,20.69230769230769,5.985473137389443,-0.09851538461538477,383,8,88,2,8,123,71,104,0.027999999999999997,0.905,0.067,0.4363,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,3,1,2,4,3,0,0,4,1,6,6,1,1,0,13,14,6,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,3,18,1,11,11,1,11,0,1,1,0,19,8,0,0,3,52,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698406668505733,0.0,0.5691022771956458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084524856215557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769497537266604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21569214158049266,0.0,0.2404585800942495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20441834403657907,0.20449342419909847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19042461725631094,0.0,0.0,0.2310232699176075,0.0,0.0,0.13750235859981866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21582806699601806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613683858507753,0.0,0.0,0.16169922152439334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256893856586645,0.0,0.17735910860126572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24709922438799695,0.0,0.0,0.1831017603332195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067241575807398
EDAnonymous,bangblood,2019/06/29,why cant it always be autumn im going to pride this weekend for the first time! BUT its gonna be like 90 degrees outside. which means i need to wear shorts. in front of thousands of ppl. i really wanna enjoy this but my dumb brain is just focusing on a bunch of strangers judging me and my chonky thighs lmao. im going to buy different shorts today so hopefully i find some :/ ugh i wish it could just be like 60\* constantly so i can just wear jeans and flannels lol,0.5759374999999984,2.9789663854166686,2.157083333333333,93.84625,88.27083333333334,5.283333333333333,19.458333333333336,6.816661863887847,0.2996833333333337,367,11,78,5,12,119,71,96,0.099,0.6679999999999999,0.233,0.9362,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,0,2,1,7,4,4,0,0,15,14,6,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,1,1,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,8,5,10,9,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,8,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691861035975774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507727137910803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24275621027821376,0.0,0.17935689024711954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347011571033926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053170383986239,0.19107880706791508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553363618360063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22311836789435127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852998468822874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949567231304315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446989919742233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656783374242104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439102400385308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13098948498985746,0.0,0.21293260712271495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027028056928613,0.0,0.25832510000806724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goombawrangler,2019/06/29,"So happy I found this sub! Is there another subreddit like the proed sub that had a very real platform about the struggles of this illness? Since all of the ED community subs on here that I followed got deleted, I’ve been struggling to find elsewhere to engage with a community like this. I’m not even going to start about the BS with the community on Instagram. 
Any direction would be appreciated 😊",6.291599999999999,7.470870959999999,7.094666666666665,70.91400000000003,66.06666666666666,10.266666666666666,35.0,10.355215969177356,3.8494,322,15,56,8,5,107,54,75,0.096,0.723,0.18100000000000002,0.7897,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,2,7,0,5,1,0,0,1,8,11,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,0,2,4,11,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486171351363292,0.2696301574715277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983630688314194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350182046276228,0.0,0.0,0.2819370224950328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14613666211749102,0.0,0.20565563821478305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737267045396409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512479199626433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926777584287041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21270606233513345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200261720231012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5376300336857452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21216463413755768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266247130792365,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-youbetcha-,2019/06/29,"did some very stupid things today i had my mom drop me off at target earlier while she ran some other errands, and i bought a scale. then i walked almost 2 miles home on an empty stomach and since then i've only had some yogurt..",4.441631205673758,4.829224510638298,5.081702127659575,86.53333333333335,69.85106382978725,7.117730496453903,22.04964539007092,6.42735559955562,0.4097858156028367,180,3,37,1,3,58,39,47,0.16699999999999998,0.833,0.0,-0.7645,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,5,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,5,0,6,0,3,0,3,11,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,4,4,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879032296789437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885718383922845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536925712852574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946185155428972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204431832188793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573568094035464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671891620230248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196275178202961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeeandcamels,2019/06/29,How do I stop chewing and spitting? It’s been years and I can’t do it anymore. But even eating normally doesn’t stop me. I’m drowning. I’m on the verge of losing it if i can’t stop this. Please help.,-1.992380952380952,-0.15044966666666326,0.8149206349206359,100.67000000000002,101.22222222222223,3.4603174603174613,17.539682539682538,5.288315135182226,-0.6903650793650793,155,5,38,1,7,53,31,45,0.207,0.674,0.12,-0.4357,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,1,1,0,9,8,5,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,7,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746552106311308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28338406834158325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829196857587511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18563052279448167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30983082725907496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27134748471761805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30400265303514096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6946157377199189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17834362205892548
EDAnonymous,luhanshoelyflute,2019/06/29,"Why does the most random shit trigger me? I'd assume thinspo or meanspo or something like that would trigger me but instead it's usually non Ed related content and idk why? Like I've now saved Eugene from try guys I'm gay interpretive dance video to my trigger playlist bc it triggers me. Why though? I don't relate to him, I'm not triggered by his or anybody's body in the video, it's just the combination of the music and the dance ig but I still don't understand it. Also fucking BTS edits trigger me. For no reason. And sometimes a random ass video of someone with a go pro going around on like a motorbike track or videos of people going on airplanes and showing their hotel rooms. There just seems to be no clear pattern or anything, and like those things do a better job of triggering me than thinspo or whateverspo ever does. I don't get it and I'm just wondering if people experience something similar or if anyone knows the causes of this?",3.678306451612905,5.742475473118278,4.867405913978494,80.87110887096777,73.83870967741936,7.015591397849463,29.366935483870968,7.865858978985527,2.123216129032257,762,33,136,11,16,251,114,186,0.07400000000000001,0.805,0.121,0.8756,1,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,11,8,2,0,10,0,6,5,3,9,2,45,18,19,0,3,15,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,9,8,0,0,7,8,0,5,6,2,0,0,0,0,12,6,17,16,1,14,0,0,0,3,4,5,3,15,8,85,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214344835395519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617713235459987,0.0,0.1249597076543571,0.13517879804243338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429908833690882,0.0,0.16867124760158395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559918989889148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26577012101551983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735712422492616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485385519790828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038298609740288,0.07933541864328843,0.0,0.2588997622868624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503554894690555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15068781006229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345285296726251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967451872827533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105475025466343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612721066717572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382386432392311,0.0,0.0,0.15587196274593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866211118870702,0.2338032772695615,0.1501836483083387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126769942580515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088247021146768,0.0,0.14919196876658014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309626160079972,0.0,0.0,0.15808132686627696,0.0,0.0,0.167241450427508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41106333489992897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646749741725854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786996617894327,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thorn-prince,2019/06/29,"Today I ate at Chili's I had some chips from our appetizer. I even had some fries from my friend's. Then I ate all my broccoli and had some of my boyfriends asparagus, and a couple bites of rice. I ate half my chicken. Then I came home, got in my swimsuit, and didn't throw it up.

This is the best victory I've had yet. And later, I'm going to have some ice cream.",0.906528028933092,2.417516506329114,2.7025678119349017,95.78759493670887,80.13924050632913,6.033273056057867,20.14647377938517,6.868970318607317,0.03994611211573229,280,7,69,3,7,93,53,79,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,0,1,10,14,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,10,1,12,2,8,4,6,11,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,4,5,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823296032853406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166831059501396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031112949027858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406288163428434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28147143258319085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070504986535148,0.0,0.2913786439780819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654409826227245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453311715365253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ManWithTheHands,2019/06/29,"What the fuck. I'm getting bad again, i have more free time and I'm so afraid of my urges to binge that i plan on going straight from work, to the gym, and wearing myself out at the gym until i fall directly asleep, all the while avoiding food like the plague.

Why can't i even be near food without having to shove it all into my face like some sort of animal. My entire life, i have either been not eating, or eating everything, and its the one thing that keeps me unhappy.",6.2359793814433,5.1023761030927846,6.3306391752577325,84.22853608247424,66.31958762886596,9.409484536082473,27.64742268041237,8.238735603445708,1.5394016494845353,370,8,80,4,5,118,71,97,0.11800000000000001,0.7809999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.4033,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,7,1,2,6,0,6,9,3,0,2,15,12,7,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,4,2,0,2,1,2,3,4,0,1,1,0,10,4,13,10,5,12,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,3,6,56,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062031965305806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672142112463956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507894872202186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051806256712128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5521206663915555,0.0,0.0,0.21105895789569332,0.11927692413846434,0.0,0.12974771266036114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20292284392230436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125449663277105,0.22307094231848285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470146559771836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516718629848949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133123116016734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060045439621178,0.0,0.0,0.22007230930548374,0.0,0.16620455730954833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alienOsc,2019/06/29,"I can't stop crying I promised myself that I will lose weight for my trip to other European countries, and I practically ate nothing for few days.
Now I just binged my way up and the jeans, that were tight af are still tight af and it's going to be extremely uncomfortable to go with them but now I must to.
I just hate myself and I wish I would be able to fast as much as I want to and not to binge every GOD DAMN DAY
I want to be fucking beautiful but nothing works",2.2178030303030307,3.6053280909090937,3.658472222222226,90.87437500000004,76.17171717171719,6.970202020202023,22.476010101010104,7.645422480735847,0.7069282828282821,367,10,84,5,8,121,64,99,0.139,0.684,0.177,0.4869,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,5,5,3,0,1,0,9,3,0,0,1,19,17,9,0,5,5,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,3,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,3,16,1,14,9,2,12,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,7,59,20,1,0.2215420924342128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24335358572375246,0.285752643800085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665876790792127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20481209457371224,0.0,0.0,0.25181495313977353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21872695027772154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478489331613153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285892889901069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251512254278033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692380119554962,0.1852191092732305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261342532150778,0.17584980103868578,0.0,0.2697785847976772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547624728636895,0.0,0.0,0.16128528184569318,0.0,0.0,0.1573771461121071,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cdd_skin,2019/06/29,New to reddit Needed a safe place w people who understand to let it out. Binged last night and I feel like utter trash,3.017500000000002,4.763005750000001,3.84,88.905,74.83333333333334,6.466666666666668,16.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.11068333333333367,94,1,19,1,2,30,23,24,0.0,0.779,0.221,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818154377020926,0.2568854162968446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931072812935474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676969053942492,0.0,0.1756735771526006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666254590237033,0.0,0.3472864871538636,0.0,0.3374433004967625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492888479277671,0.0,0.3756866037103858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743374903690294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PurplePoogle,2019/06/29,"Feeling legit sick/lightheaded/shaky when I eat. Anyone else? So I've been trying to reduce purging a lot, which I was kinda already doing but now I really gotta get it together. anyways, I've been fasting like 3 days a week, and the other days I'm scared to eat but I make myself eat like 300-500 calories a day. 

Ok so the question, when I'm actually eating I feel so sick. Almost like I'm drunk. Shaky, weak, my vision gets funky? Please tell me I'm not alone in this .do you think it's a mental things or my body is actually that mad at me",0.3176856187290973,2.4821728086956547,2.8408695652173925,90.45093645484951,86.13043478260867,5.2775919732441485,18.411371237458194,6.67199483983844,0.09842474916387944,423,11,91,5,13,146,80,115,0.19899999999999998,0.631,0.171,-0.7591,0,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,7,8,1,2,6,1,6,8,1,1,0,14,17,9,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,1,5,0,4,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,2,11,4,4,13,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,6,11,47,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.2938708188895687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077493578790602,0.15594596952912146,0.16615865448442774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528262490108226,0.15427760841402596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672502477607722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913171857535897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6162861943248894,0.12578260718279538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226627103930868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733408761683898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22068390493599088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800993473880448,0.0,0.0,0.1005071978628485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173998145357398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528155517009094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686737887427191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645952893529723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074766757800634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316055416216025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003256854684132,0.0964797077311265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022277094711026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077883709635755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fawnfreckles,2019/06/29,"im so disappointed with myself ughhh(poss tw w/numbers) my ldr boyfriend is coming down to see me in two weeks for the first time and i kept telling myself how small id be by the time he got here because i had three months to be ""slim""

nope, still the same weight i was (26 bmi)
hes six inches taller than me and i weigh 20 pounds more than him, and he says he doesn't care how much i weigh but I DO

god i wanna come up with a reason to postpone the trip but all im doing is crying in my room for being a whale lol",1.2595845410628037,2.2330671130434823,3.0402898550724657,96.0238164251208,77.86956521739131,5.806763285024156,18.864734299516908,5.82211442006289,-0.484468599033816,398,7,101,2,9,133,81,115,0.095,0.848,0.057,-0.4872,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,6,1,11,3,0,3,1,16,17,8,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,3,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,4,3,15,1,15,10,4,17,0,1,1,0,7,8,0,0,6,65,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314901161950654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226974380994475,0.0,0.0,0.3763052167334767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23992809055140024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185791019872455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746933225567769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4718699832795133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17434364986593678,0.0,0.1605664930877246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22457586010366665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736992297700142,0.0,0.0,0.1740553460029735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17443338534625316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091187158075015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547291390633738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21336813887079606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520625312047852,0.2659811258981913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwthisaway512,2019/06/29,"Is peach down or am I just a dumb bitch? Does anyone know what the 503: service unavailable back end server is at capacity means? 

Or am I just going nuts? Thanks y'all today is tough and I needed some friends.",0.46142857142857,2.9318599047619074,2.030476190476193,92.97285714285721,92.8095238095238,4.704761904761905,16.523809523809526,6.42735559955562,-0.19507619047619013,164,4,34,2,6,53,35,42,0.23600000000000002,0.64,0.124,-0.6641,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,3,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25817840409762705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839197009259237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32312092151567456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270335107442643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852708262149865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20984533413228676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20292245532235206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022062612895243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27378382362805764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399429105609238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499925648507779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,is-butter-a-carb1,2019/06/29,"i feel guilty im visiting my grandfather who has cancer. im sitting here watching him feed himself through a feeding tube because he cant eat without throwing up due to the type of cancer. i feel guilty because we had a nice breakfast this morning (which i felt guilty for eating), & now i feel guilty for feeling guilty for eating when he cant eat at all. just a rant sorry",4.91,5.746114666666671,5.206666666666667,84.45000000000003,69.0,7.066666666666667,33.66666666666667,6.742157984588678,2.0848666666666675,300,14,57,2,5,95,52,75,0.316,0.632,0.051,-0.9690000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,4,9,0,0,1,9,9,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,7,0,5,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,9,7,1,8,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,3,33,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937450994920412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21800694031290976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7318862270131251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616553076753445,0.0,0.17168966362013866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863000184118521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001678452844108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17237049756895487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plshealme,2019/06/29,i got a new dress today and felt really cute for a few minutes before returning to the usual self-hatred my brain: iS tHiS rEcOvErY?,1.92448717948718,4.530831192307693,4.582307692307693,77.64602564102567,83.23076923076924,8.082051282051282,20.2051282051282,8.841846274778883,2.0394512820512825,105,3,18,3,3,37,25,26,0.0,0.8640000000000001,0.136,0.5095,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994512652204865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928502717451958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378907892755839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28145624256439383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398788850900468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254438932026427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.367121054362568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33357150906482297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875814444260032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elllxvi,2019/06/29,"hate my stomach so much i literally have a bmi of 17.5 but my stomach still hangs over my waistband and i have that horizontal fat person belly button and i can pinch so much fat and it makes me want to die :)

could all of this fat go to my ass and tits please i’m sick

i want to try gaining muscle but what if it makes me look bigger rather than toned fuck",0.6726315789473674,2.747354421052634,2.2439473684210505,95.89513157894736,83.73684210526315,4.852631578947369,17.394736842105264,5.985473137389443,-0.5501526315789476,280,6,65,2,8,91,52,76,0.24600000000000002,0.615,0.139,-0.9253,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,0,1,0,4,9,7,2,1,14,13,9,1,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,0,7,12,3,5,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,1,1,41,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22166610095866704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28813758572303866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566657777592249,0.0,0.0,0.1577843362559858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741035529507264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23314047286676776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706422626752542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081820825855075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242417050659934,0.0,0.30475593235781395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22171681380676955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849351266454725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275084140692838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alwayscongested,2019/06/29,"this aspect of summertime is such a trigger its not just clothing-related. yes, the fact that everyone else is wearing shorts and tank tops and bikinis (when i feel like i can't) sucks. the fact that this is amplified even more by my black, winter wardrobe and that people notice it and comment on it makes this harder.



but what really gets me is just how summer makes me FEEL fat. i've had high BMI and low BMI and it's always agonizing for me during this time. i feel like i can't breathe. i'm always sweating. i feel like i ""look"" fatter because i look more tired.

i hate this so much.

i know i can't be the only one who feels this way.",2.465690492713392,4.112062938931299,3.6469118667591935,90.1274253990285,76.09923664122137,6.595697432338652,22.596113809854263,7.348242739294969,0.7176503816793893,499,14,107,6,11,162,83,131,0.142,0.768,0.08900000000000001,-0.8788,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,4,1,9,5,4,4,2,22,23,10,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,15,6,1,0,6,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,8,14,3,4,21,3,10,0,1,3,0,2,5,1,0,7,65,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958233031470597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083616457481454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849676616969548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740966993239195,0.0,0.0,0.16985855121183674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4494073018616131,0.38097814998984586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287294858424516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550249335749898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781458568252274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769296810149013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605355936140713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29854946315139075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23731411192202065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306750176465075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023824316703294,0.0,0.0,0.12045566536982,0.13519548785004015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232373113607375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387844817310358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365405042507844,0.2043104781606671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109865519325962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ihopeyouareoknow,2019/06/29,"How often do you fast? I'm scared to fast too often because I feel like it will slow my metabolism down next to nothing, but I feel guilty every day that I'm not fasting. Nice thoughts my brain is having.",3.625,4.625247690476193,4.479523809523811,87.88214285714287,72.09523809523809,6.552380952380951,25.904761904761905,6.42735559955562,0.8234190476190473,161,5,34,1,3,52,33,42,0.113,0.778,0.109,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,1,0,8,9,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,2,3,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,7,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128829228916552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898480396906489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252197577338089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942351953637518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531549906929686,0.2494847740875509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061257638083696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714023143553636,0.0,0.0,0.335088609217107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496328555045126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772438235020832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alliebreanne,2019/06/29,"I went grocery shopping and got all healthy, plant-based food ...and three boxes of sugary cereal I am fully going to binge and purge in one sitting. 

Why am I like this.",5.517272727272727,5.747254212121213,5.863181818181817,82.41477272727273,67.48484848484848,7.8121212121212125,28.62121212121212,7.1686216300943375,1.5650121212121215,131,4,25,1,2,42,28,33,0.0,0.8390000000000001,0.161,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,3,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552138602700473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259503855344075,0.0,0.3651953604022741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230781890483654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094129825245966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232850944096487,0.4120224725387368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brainsandb00bs,2019/06/29,"My 15 year battle with eating disorders - use me as a cautionary tale It started when I was 10, the weight gain that is. My family moved us to a new neighborhood where we were a minority (didn’t have anyone from my ethnicity in school with me until high school), and for some reason in this new school kids didn’t play outside much. To top it all of, my bike was stolen in our old neighborhood and we couldn’t afford me a new one yet after we moved. 

I was teased in school from day one. The bullying was unlike something I have ever experienced at that point in time. I didn’t understand why everyone was so mean to me, I also didn’t understand why I looked SO different than everyone around me that looked like they just walked out of a Justice/Limited Too ad. I didn’t have any friends, and was used to having tons at my old school, the social isolation really took its toll on me. 

The only thing that made me happy, the only thing I looked forward to, was my daily peanut butter sandwich before dinner. White bread, tablespoons upon tablespoons of that creamy brown good stuff. That was when I started using food for comfort, and it quickly expanded to more food, and I gained a lot of weight by the time I was 11 due to that and the sudden drop in my activity levels. 

The kids at school came in hot and ready with the fat jokes the next school year. My family even made daily fat jokes about me. I didn’t feel safe or welcomed anywhere. I started associating being thin with being loved, and decided the upcoming summer break I was going to turn my life around. 

That’s when the anorexia started over the summer when I was 12. My parents got me a gym membership and I would go with my dad every morning. They watched me carefully weigh everything I ate, and shun “bad foods” that I once loved. The list of bad foods continued to grow, until I was basically eating the same thing everyday. Breakfast was one hard boiled egg and one medium orange. Lunch was one raw bell pepper and one raw cucumber. Dinner was one small chicken breast, and a vegetable side. 

I lost a lot of weight, and my family was proud of me. I go back to school and people who teased me throughout elementary school suddenly wanted to be friends. People treated me differently when I was thin, they treated me better, and I became deathly terrified of gaining the weight back.

I would go to the store and steal chocolate flavored laxatives and diuretics, so my family wouldn’t know what I was doing as they’d never buy that for me if I asked. I am surprised I never got caught because that went on for years. I worked out daily, running 5-6 miles a day followed by Pilates for another hour. I kept the same restrictive diet all throughout high school, with the added help of my daily laxatives and diuretics to ensure I was as lovely as possible. I also made the mistake of dating an asshole at the time who encouraged my eating disorder.

By the time I was 16 I stopped getting periods. My nails were brittle and my hair was falling out. Then I started having fainting spells. I was dragged to the doctor where they told me I was severely malnutritioned and if I didn’t start eating better, I would end up killing myself like this and that I needed to gain some weight.

My disordered ass only heard that as “sweet, they think I’m skinny, better stay the course.” 

I didn’t take recovery seriously until I met a man when I was 18 that made me feel so beautiful. I can’t even put into words how beautiful he made me feel, I never felt so attractive. He didn’t think I needed to diet, or work out as much as I did. Slowly, I started accepting that for myself. I slowly started incorporating “bad food” into my diet. My body filled up really nicely, we got married a year later, I thought I was recovered. 

I was so wrong. 

I traded in one eating disorder for another by the time I was in my early 20s. The binging urges from my childhood days came back, and I was eating to cope with the pain of my failing marriage and divorce proceedings. I ballooned up to nearly 200 pounds in a short period of time. I’m a very short woman so this was significant. I was bullied even more severely in college than I was in grade school. People would make fake accounts on Facebook just to message me about how fat I was. I found out my nickname amongst my group of people I thought were friends was “land whale”. I started isolating again, until I decided to start restricting again. 

I lost 60 pounds quickly, around the same time the dawn of the instagram influencer started which really fucked with my head. I never felt thin enough. I never felt smooth enough. My skin didn’t feel tight enough. I was driving myself crazy. Suddenly, I also started getting very sick very often. 

When I was 24/25 I was diagnosed with several illnesses. My GI system is destroyed from my abuse of laxatives and diuretics. My kidneys suck. I have the colon of a woman three times my age. My heart is weak. I had so many problems at such a young age, all lifestyle related illnesses, that my doctors were kind of in awe at this anomaly in their office. 

Que the binging again to cope with the reality of living with chronic illnesses. Over the next two years after that, I got back to nearly 200 pounds by last summer. Which lead to a lot of teasing again from my family. It all came to a head when I got into an argument with my sister who told me that I was a fat loser. She was never one of the people who teased me in the past so seeing her join in on it hurt. For some reason being called fat is the worst thing you can say to me. I decided to make a real change this time, something sustainable, so she never has the luxury to talk to me like that again. 

Since then, I’ve been trying to lose weight in a more healthy way. I’ve lost about a half pound to a pound a week for the last few months. But, I still have a lot more to lose and I still look chubby. It’s very hard to look in the mirror and not see the drastic changes week by week I’m used to when I used to restrict, when now I’m putting what feels like more thought and effort than ever before. 

The desire to compulsively exercise and restrict to 800 calories a day is so big. It never goes away, it’s a daily battle for me right now. Hence why I’m here writing this while I’m contemplating fasting for the rest of the day only because I ate 125 calories over my goal of 1200 yesterday. If I go down that dark path again, and my health gets worse than it already is, then I’d be almost guaranteeing death before I hit 50. 

My biggest regret is not taking recovery seriously when I was younger and jumping from one extreme to another and calling it recovery. I’m writing this to remind myself why I have these issues to begin with and how far I’ve come, and that it’s not worth it. Hopefully someone here can find some use in this fat girl’s story, and choose to not take that laxative today or eat a real meal for dinner. The health effects of eating disorders are very real, trust me, you don’t want these problems. Recover while you can, and take it seriously. You don’t want to end up like me.",5.371925747105951,6.03202799567412,6.014180958013011,79.70117681845062,67.88968997837058,9.146469220611943,29.49919395996533,9.21480111736418,2.4218650859100967,5598,193,1070,101,89,1825,525,1387,0.125,0.7829999999999999,0.092,-0.9924,5,1,2,0,2,1,137.0,6,4,7,22,65,69,10,0,75,0,93,72,17,21,14,184,201,87,3,20,13,3,24,5,3,5,21,2,0,6,59,68,43,8,27,6,5,26,27,34,0,13,89,40,172,35,173,99,29,224,0,9,10,6,64,73,3,17,127,732,231,21,0.0,0.036570496638046984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03090727745242145,0.0,0.03406077812890153,0.07404923836939596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02098955612426491,0.0970953082179728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021581831766218373,0.0,0.0,0.08243035048172545,0.028855017814209776,0.0,0.02899909484021913,0.09493446583055458,0.07731405393583961,0.037630568799238935,0.0,0.07879264266004725,0.0,0.0,0.08189391443998907,0.0,0.034284543279792634,0.0,0.0,0.06303412591116286,0.10590551458673103,0.03146937090965155,0.0,0.06530308116063158,0.02658784165117877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952826973189592,0.0,0.0,0.031327769653598785,0.0,0.06449562625273976,0.17687232886875862,0.06318416693567211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526643874667681,0.0,0.0,0.054675233085177716,0.09567674429382614,0.0,0.061158991702039936,0.05583911113767216,0.02600546256105353,0.0589864970523989,0.027739865278801044,0.0,0.14548593901628126,0.0,0.07803246376900477,0.022050274930794308,0.08890698190207884,0.0,0.028210450973711138,0.0,0.1866130495172336,0.03384235941795377,0.07153968203537915,0.028534599886114426,0.048377751977997686,0.0,0.0877076979772554,0.025888464825003156,0.12342955109622003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032856832477493346,0.05529873935610079,0.0,0.06335368772153926,0.06561703409474029,0.0,0.036575692403075004,0.020688452341147943,0.0652220593294901,0.0,0.030656344100374613,0.0303962388630122,0.0,0.033042089537972004,0.0,0.0,0.03221549796963693,0.0,0.0,0.034148033829501226,0.03214160376609705,0.01696283741338387,0.05031890272254255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02180117151685603,0.07539646917547747,0.0,0.027254747057529918,0.0,0.12959597045994636,0.06906105964765794,0.10107981433622533,0.1049627658327532,0.08357178804217136,0.1460281177022765,0.041205838809737376,0.03129270940613695,0.0,0.03362151027623446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024636497977689117,0.06561015139311882,0.045379296410075265,0.045772662066796414,0.19044262739562756,0.08943009648290244,0.06565148651993599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06477616968906136,0.03287068391699281,0.20915219456394668,0.0938982251840648,0.032843001993281,0.0,0.034272415997464944,0.0,0.029464552876206918,0.10699104124377956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02917781531119382,0.03479614350109673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590681110103869,0.0,0.06205658015818885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539487655857356,0.05931956942618531,0.06346962137750642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026358915234438292,0.0,0.02454543498570641,0.0,0.3436121796760725,0.04919151552816089,0.0,0.0,0.1046074776457942,0.0,0.025532209101946125,0.0,0.0,0.031463426859818795,0.0261521852849406,0.04752344393301542,0.0,0.0,0.2621605888518179,0.032898449916532124,0.04929835699354673,0.025804888062760382,0.0,0.0,0.0353335417885322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282787189480256,0.024808469740812657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202250153048549,0.039554652499658303,0.0,0.07351112972858488,0.16198096494472575,0.0,0.029256826032515507,0.0589864970523989,0.03429263708140208,0.020955606204956102,0.03357273309170363,0.03015104780607613,0.06426401855372321,0.037127321311048185,0.1599469692013617,0.0,0.1273360933714974,0.05461570472926256,0.02449954785695437,0.07427517728349177,0.22551472825077845,0.0,0.028612570067239395,0.1114050272073374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494081264648856,0.0,0.0314545180252784,0.0877036857588766,0.03374651089557988,0.0,0.09938164989705736
EDAnonymous,TreatyPie,2019/06/29,"Am I faking?? Ugh help Like I’m heavily restricting but my BMI is also 22 so like that’s normal. But I know I’m fat like there’s fat EVERYWHERE on my body. And I’m restricting to <500cal/day after exercise but like that’s just so I can be more “fit”. Like you have to push yourself to the limit when you exercise, right??   

And I SEE the changes. I don’t look in the mirror and see what’s NOT there. I feel like if I lost about 15-20lbs I could be happy with that weight. I can look at a good picture of me and be like “damn ok you go girl, keep it up”. But on my actual body like hell yeah all this fat gotta GO.    

And like I wanna kill myself but doesn’t everybody? My cuts aren’t deep - just shallow scratches honestly. To punish myself for going over my calorie limit. There’s no point in getting “help” because like am I just faking this ED? I’m just dieting right? You have to restrict and over exercise when you diet, right? Right??    

I’m eating so much fucking miso soup and jello it’s disturbing.",-0.21001025290498987,2.0667583732057397,2.0004972658920046,94.01473086124405,92.06220095693779,5.282365003417636,17.99060150375939,6.868970318607317,0.18948790157211226,776,22,170,12,28,260,114,209,0.188,0.555,0.257,0.965,1,0,0,0,0,2,29.0,0,5,0,3,15,25,6,1,4,2,14,13,5,0,1,31,33,19,1,4,11,0,3,10,0,1,6,0,0,1,8,8,7,6,2,3,0,4,5,11,0,0,1,7,24,14,19,27,3,22,1,1,4,1,8,15,3,1,13,100,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.11936693103294177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781946951749754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456529652379071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717404724312513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939861835833175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766277610558112,0.0,0.0,0.07888644983977745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516416555496332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061848799899463375,0.08738561978255505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130831113952696,0.06390728843596888,0.0,0.20855227170178936,0.10259643251850753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302121936868708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16397738675342138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872386935242744,0.1353292469101712,0.0,0.06722401717400561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5975950149369017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054364262669293,0.0,0.13352701574015338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991946709364351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984788594107128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563218521637494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178433424139168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949468242896268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895312613364367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FakingReallyWell,2019/06/29,"I feel like my weight loss isn't 'real' I have lost over 10 lbs over the past couple of months, but I feel like I'm going to wake up tomorrow and be the size I was before I lost the weight. I'm not overeating, and the number on the scale keeps going down, my clothes are getting baggier but it just doesn't feel real somehow.

It's so stupid, and doesn't make any logical sense. Is it some kind of weird dissociation? Is it a form of body dysmorphia where I think I look smaller than I am, and at some point soon I'll get over it and be able to see how fat I really am again? 

Why am I like this?",3.427848837209304,3.33123646511628,4.78557170542636,89.4727761627907,71.94573643410854,8.31046511627907,23.87693798449613,8.07648339933343,0.8874565891472868,460,10,112,6,8,154,80,129,0.081,0.807,0.11199999999999999,0.2442,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,7,9,1,0,6,0,13,5,3,2,0,22,29,9,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,3,1,5,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,3,7,12,4,14,24,3,17,0,3,2,0,0,10,0,3,8,69,18,0,0.16409635971939704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159115171313568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963391585322135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822740627720108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18156950086686832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24891615005417564,0.2344609443430805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146715025180986,0.0,0.18651948566125406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585638429088973,0.0,0.17088110681957752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24050757759481084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779961344002364,0.0,0.35826112218064954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953559434181354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13098014875743114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566485432422962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512410056567186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3735551652515595,0.10512432996368183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076355306904608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514632138759238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39965031664305894,0.0,0.0,0.14807144109074605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sriacha-latte,2019/06/29,"Me, knowing this brand of laxative gives me horrible abdominal pain all day and doesn't stop until I'm shitting water: PULLING MY CLOTHES OFF BETWEEN ROUNDS OF DIARRHEA TO WEIGH MYSELF AYYYYYYYY

for good measure I'm reading weight loss stories while on the porcelain throne because I'm 👏 a 👏 skinny 👏 king 👏",13.534137931034484,8.725883793103451,11.792413793103455,62.16896551724139,55.89655172413793,14.358620689655172,54.86206896551725,11.20814326018867,6.2946620689655175,252,15,42,4,2,79,49,58,0.19899999999999998,0.72,0.08,-0.7971,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,1,6,2,0,1,4,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,4,1,8,6,1,7,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,4,19,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443210790253608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268587199769805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374441424028742,0.0,0.2950430067853962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933203296482444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743017643362794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518592554393341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361080755774556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940905076937668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283538630510066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stylechild39,2019/06/29,If I fast one day then eat the next day because I know I shouldn’t be fasting again but then I fast the next day cause I ate and then eat the next day cause I fasted and then fast the next da- it’s still recovery cause I’m not purging right guys!?,-0.2332121212121229,1.7113308000000025,1.072272727272729,103.70174242424244,86.45454545454545,4.393939393939394,16.439393939393938,5.46131890053228,-1.0199696969696972,194,4,50,1,6,61,31,55,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,3,0,10,5,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,2,0,20,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,19,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415418491057677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760027390072825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3984421564143336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160915476029801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293449056423325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488429388078214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6570575357954525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466253915261063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190351664712102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334776667664672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,why_am_I_here_0,2019/06/29,"Pulled myself back from entering a relapse then boyfriends brother called me a whale hello darkness my old friend

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Guess I am back to heavy restricting now :)",9.857241379310343,12.166209379310349,6.340862068965517,75.4278448275862,58.6551724137931,8.558620689655173,42.086206896551715,8.841846274778883,4.206641379310345,148,8,20,2,2,40,26,29,0.136,0.68,0.183,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535585494167529,0.5086511255290146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218815528230112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21372135137243425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170666603572614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305704058551687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962786542304746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086511255290146,0.0
EDAnonymous,unmellojello,2019/06/29,"Eating in front of guests... Being all polite, having a normal meal with everyone, but secretly waiting for them to leave so you can binge alone. I'm a monster.",1.9450000000000005,4.753604500000002,3.4616666666666696,83.6025,87.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.1093333333333333,125,4,21,2,4,41,29,30,0.132,0.868,0.0,-0.4215,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579898197378973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4524849277895296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225447223000116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682300206358026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332658774604277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,88lbs,2019/06/29,"thank god i have this sub i’m so fcking annoyed w/ my workmates rn who keeps on telling me i look EXACTLY like this girl from another department. and she’s so overweight. i have nothing against overweight people. it’s just so triggering that i’m underweight and they keep on insisting we’re basically twins. jesus christ give me a break. 

brb purging that only meal i ate since yesterday",1.4365949119373802,3.816337013698632,2.6079549902152617,85.6520890410959,103.52054794520548,6.4692759295499025,27.132093933463803,7.447530270364453,2.496417612524461,314,16,55,8,14,100,57,73,0.127,0.7759999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.5041,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,1,7,10,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,9,2,4,9,0,5,2,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,2,28,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251620654526244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29747176464438563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5512540805042943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149694930611698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604020371478249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975449003847477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358415257406935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149811062610001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565141199774369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710370483053796,0.28549418242364216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arabella_05,2019/06/29,top tip to stop smoking !! become so nauseated from restriction and exercise that even then thought of a cigarette makes you want to throw up haha 😄😄,5.755714285714286,7.285180285714286,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,67.57142857142857,11.314285714285715,35.42857142857143,11.20814326018867,4.5568714285714265,120,6,21,4,2,40,26,28,0.13699999999999998,0.662,0.201,0.2779,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,6,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681519078995244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397787884681017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433886726778098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43008983757791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084031129843971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034264867323088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnylegendthrow,2019/06/29,quick little 5 am rant-ish thing idk I was restricting more than usual about a month or two before my graduation a week ago to fit into a specific dress. It messed up my metabolism so for a few days afterwards I could binge and lose more weight that I did restricting. That has gone away and now I’m sad :(,4.62822580645161,5.145889080645162,5.680806451612908,81.94120967741938,69.48387096774194,10.070967741935485,25.177419354838708,10.125756701596842,2.1017612903225813,241,6,52,6,4,80,51,62,0.271,0.69,0.038,-0.9217,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,1,5,0,7,3,3,14,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,1,8,35,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663760252251125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28233060249894554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557042371755072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399256144512263,0.0,0.0,0.1937982996635587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011809689657147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361837789587977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23985704918824505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996395267090831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293545834446454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33095942178557936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410437942828536,0.3659292899211697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fieryirishplease,2019/06/29,"Day 0: Soylent Experiment Mods if this isn't okay please do let me know. 

Basically I would like to do a periodic update for y'all here. I am doing some dumb shit. I am going to be ""eating"" nothing but Soylent for an undetermined amount of time. I am starting to hate food and hate how good it is so why not just switch to an easily measurable chocolaty, oatmeal tasting shake? Fool proof right? /s 

If its okay I will vent here about the ups and downs of this little stint of idiocy.",1.9156249999999984,4.269100979166666,3.641500000000004,86.05350000000004,80.875,6.756666666666668,22.1,7.908726449838941,1.1394950000000006,378,12,77,7,10,126,74,96,0.23199999999999998,0.6890000000000001,0.079,-0.9425,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,6,10,4,1,4,2,12,4,1,1,1,13,17,7,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,6,0,0,0,1,7,4,12,13,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,4,6,51,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431099268144344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24483554113740816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340544552595589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893293030802812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598409755471896,0.20069045291885684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4724641896528257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149792953319794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24467238162403546,0.0,0.11689647609150855,0.2398139425296391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22958845371661604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262649394860652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043374403467948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456098221280248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693583341390063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952174126255873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21590624935477795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997234614509338,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugarxxfree,2019/06/29,"I found a picture of me at my highest weight. After recovery for a long time, it's been creeping back. I found a picture of my self the other day at a pow weight and a young age that really triggered me, and it shouldn't have. 

Then today, today I found a picture of me at my highest weight ever, in front of a mirror with my shirt off for a ""before"" picture. I felt like i look exactly like that now, even 45 lbs lighter... so I took another pic, in the same room, same mirror, same angle. I compared them side by side and... I see no difference. I'm huge again. 

So what did I do after that? I sat my thinnest picture of me and my largest picture of me side by side and stared at it all day. I've cried a lot.",1.2324307692307706,2.724030653333333,3.1486666666666667,93.03946153846157,79.13333333333333,5.948717948717951,23.538461538461537,6.67199483983844,0.5524307692307686,538,18,124,5,13,181,81,150,0.036000000000000004,0.91,0.054000000000000006,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,11,0,5,4,1,1,3,19,14,8,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,6,3,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,7,22,2,20,5,5,30,0,0,3,0,2,13,0,1,17,85,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595621973901275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700837239716365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294843945784503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715022152903064,0.1962725043546726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898395147739938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050602119964938,0.13764534204016146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610585883071606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5005355252928749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868392532527305,0.0,0.0,0.1346645512085964,0.1277834214588798,0.0,0.0,0.12936842573397905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097483194807206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125878873060245,0.0,0.1587451882233267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873081915187545,0.0,0.2884763560312632,0.0,0.16906507515461472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559016121986664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misszipping,2019/06/29,"What people consider dieting vs and ED seems so unfounded So I’m restricting. But I’m trying the whole 1200 calorie/day thing. Well, at least that’s what I’m saying. But tbh I usually only hit 600-800 a day. I still hate my body and have the same feelings about myself, fears about food. (I just spent the last week eating mainly scrambled egg, outshine fruit bars, cucumber salad, and quest bars. Wow, much health)

But because I call it ‘counting calories’ instead of ‘restricting’, nobody bats an eye??? It’s just so incredibly strange how people can call it one or the other. Probably because I’m overweight, I suppose. 

It makes me think how many people must have at least traits of disordered eating, without even realizing it isn’t healthy.",4.527895377128953,6.886676868613143,4.8829379562043815,80.38868917274941,72.28467153284672,7.778345498783455,29.664841849148413,8.59863814320734,2.543574695863746,589,25,101,11,12,186,96,137,0.107,0.831,0.062,-0.7343,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,13,4,1,1,6,0,5,13,2,3,1,22,16,12,0,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,10,3,10,2,4,2,1,0,2,2,1,1,1,4,8,2,7,13,6,7,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,5,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003304979656712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825175607737657,0.0,0.0,0.3355691459245088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21193990389489512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831988380331366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33627170791285416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852888714060403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18490070355777694,0.08308289150627499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869104469893611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622276112815794,0.0,0.17465977175842748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393912397753854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968192178927176,0.16659020201026686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207908535167562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111344485679036,0.12496939861294942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417471899175574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771599805280586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067033984269782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958672759863034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122262990622646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916396629330588,0.1052867852515146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155948900502057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097039078288504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318040423560411,0.0,0.14773943481993984,0.0,0.0,0.18345247067969928,0.0,0.1583943500285638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jobbluetooth,2019/06/29,"anybody ever purge after having dental work how long do you wait after?? I feel like I should give it a day or two, but also I wanna day fuck it",0.6015053763440861,2.389570870967745,3.2851612903225837,89.91440860215056,82.2258064516129,4.133333333333334,13.559139784946234,3.1291,-1.1550086021505377,111,1,23,0,3,39,26,31,0.16,0.785,0.055,-0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,8,7,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,3,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,7,19,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798059953795522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512987389576824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164945058930506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691432088378412,0.24996067189613216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32346661355498685,0.0,0.3356452772688801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093802370127167,0.0,0.0,0.3096406312364607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417905759285562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547232576448836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kladarling,2019/06/29,Guess who's wine drunk and needs validation This bitch right here,6.157500000000002,8.682906416666674,3.84,88.905,68.16666666666666,8.133333333333335,20.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,0.8272333333333335,55,1,11,1,1,15,12,12,0.408,0.5920000000000001,0.0,-0.7351,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6977460103555052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696476414232771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5409081233800505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CastleInTheAttic,2019/06/29,"Is anyone else a pain to cook with? My boyfriend and I have been cooking together.
And each time I choose a safe recipe but I still end up being a massive anal retentive bitch the whole time.
I feel like I can’t eat anything unless it’s perfect so I micromanage everything he does.  He knows I have “control issues with food” and is really understanding but I just feel so bad.....
He really likes to cook together? How do I chill the fuck out?",1.6517241379310337,4.182594229885062,3.2650689655172407,87.14932758620691,83.71264367816093,7.1581609195402285,22.49310344827586,8.238735603445708,1.516881379310345,346,12,70,8,10,114,61,87,0.13,0.7090000000000001,0.16,0.4271,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,5,8,2,0,5,0,8,8,1,2,1,21,13,9,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,5,3,5,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,10,4,7,11,2,6,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,6,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054693680971326,0.22060640477839472,0.17717846390099587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977148740143126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241483947535062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841570085359308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203117533422508,0.17986050626207956,0.0,0.19069717875418515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350311829297406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177303302035152,0.15381462438416385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26034882745693433,0.0,0.0,0.19904689520698826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22472348916739776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183265276019528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037523790548945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22910072691156624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758610287492485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17194362173527908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510932792201688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241411026910447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24038142085320194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,animperfectangel,2019/06/29,"purged for the first time yesterday, round two today, i have the urge to purge after eating anything and i’m so scared yesterday i ate a little more than i should have, not even a binge per se, maybe 600 calories, so what do i do? shove my fingers down my throat in the shower till i’m puking water so i can get the food out of my body. i felt soo guilty and texted my friend saying i never wanted to do it again. 

weighed in this morning at my LW of all time, felt so amazing so after dinner today, back to the bathroom, on my knees, dinner coming back up.

it’s so scary because i want to do it again",2.252142857142857,3.5504492936507965,3.5589206349206366,91.98885714285716,75.90476190476191,5.674920634920635,20.536507936507935,5.6839178017228535,-0.0789149206349209,465,10,102,2,10,152,81,126,0.10400000000000001,0.821,0.075,-0.5896,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,1,7,0,8,11,4,0,2,12,17,9,0,3,1,0,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,5,4,7,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,3,5,14,2,18,13,2,24,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,0,15,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406078096062518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065994548587545,0.0,0.12153132983825328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214500748006029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173568492337046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20400063028163054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167900158989773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828441995339946,0.0,0.0,0.16958015266105714,0.24107349738981246,0.0,0.15402925460857886,0.0,0.10416022080059824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199816559307918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028939429535525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15376292801179814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854341034205244,0.19959959825539805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325031980514516,0.0,0.37795027691953975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947510788602956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23518181937711935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whonoses,2019/06/29,"Did Natalia Dyer get a lot thinner or... Before I thought she was thin but not shockingly. I definitely regarded her as thinspo but I figured she could just be naturally thin. 

But her pictures at the Stranger Things premiere were insanely thin. I'm honestly a bit worried. Naturally thin is one thing but most naturally thin people don't lose even more weight. 

Could be a non ED thing. I'm just shocked",2.541599999999999,5.498385626666668,3.855,80.7825,86.06666666666666,7.2666666666666675,31.5,8.238735603445708,3.0706,322,18,57,8,10,105,53,75,0.11199999999999999,0.7759999999999999,0.11199999999999999,0.006999999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,4,0,9,1,0,0,0,14,13,6,0,2,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,4,6,7,1,2,5,4,6,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,3,0,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21821473743615225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799701491593794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094989237565652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937867376401125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398127146435945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868949528021914,0.0,0.2180192999007685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377291716644885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777858022132588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5111094839558621,0.0,0.0,0.20358768700738045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122793927952723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604310692320139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,somiserablymiserable,2019/06/29,"What would you bring to a potluck Every time there is a lot of food in front of me, I end up eating wayyyy too much or bingeing. I always want to try everything. It’s especially bad when I don’t know the calories 

I’m thinking if I bring something I know the exact calorie count for then I can just eat that then I’ll be fine and mostly avoid everything else 

What would you bring to a potluck?",2.290679442508712,3.973863085365856,3.2249128919860617,92.80597560975613,76.6829268292683,6.149128919860628,23.90940766550523,6.868970318607317,0.6216773519163765,311,10,69,3,7,99,60,82,0.081,0.877,0.042,-0.5984,0,1,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,1,5,0,6,3,0,0,1,14,14,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,3,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,8,11,3,11,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,5,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903677094980886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910261814639748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682089866523316,0.19112077339995825,0.0,0.20263588180711128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927614951234468,0.0,0.4112349775060532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27664811075777673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514688514894349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194505093177182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168183530731664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613011274913146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659639175850192,0.0,0.0,0.13340655688515649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553302108663539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494350627446086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250450468825099,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mommyslittlemanlet,2019/06/29,"Tips for getting past a mandatory weigh in? I saw the doctor for a weigh in on tuesday and after checking my weight the fucker silently turned to his computer and opened up a hospital admission criteria sheet. I need to see him again next Friday and odds are looking bad for not restricting between now and then so I’m hedging my bets I’m gonna be down a couple pounds which is enough to get me admitted which I really don’t want. Anyone have any tips for getting by weigh ins in the past? It’s fully clothed, no shoes so I’m thinking I wear some kilo weights and hide them behind a jumper (it’s winter here), or fill my wallet with coins or something like that but I’ve got no clue what they can catch and what they can’t. Send help.",4.407599999999999,5.118930560000003,4.970666666666666,86.14200000000002,70.06666666666666,8.133333333333333,27.666666666666664,8.238735603445708,1.670066666666666,584,19,121,8,10,187,107,150,0.081,0.846,0.07400000000000001,-0.4652,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,0,5,3,1,0,8,0,7,9,2,0,0,19,23,12,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,8,5,1,2,0,3,3,5,2,0,0,2,5,13,1,19,19,2,20,0,0,3,1,8,8,1,4,10,74,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791020322253106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418017030552088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932860684181145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439312059376995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20757326288742653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095454706317474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178621580768908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621968027772348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359318248483105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907729658209292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702999960279366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037281137095046,0.0,0.0,0.21567892608645428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871889858900975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299181654311863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160446326614605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612449762718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12994534358728646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22058696315450516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961604291458285,0.0,0.0,0.4939088408001914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheAdjunctTavore,2019/06/29,"DAE HATE the way their stomach looks after eating? I swear to god none of the other skinny people I know look like they are about to give  fucking birth after eating anything larger than a cliff bar.



Do they not eat? Am I a freak?!? 


My stomach literally distends. From a 24 inch totally flat wasp waist to swallowed a beach ball and it looks CREEPY. 



I swear no one else I see in real life ever looks like that.",2.239907407407408,4.50603649382716,3.218009259259261,90.0247916666667,79.12345679012346,5.037654320987656,20.001543209876548,5.985473137389443,0.033332098765432416,320,8,63,2,8,102,63,81,0.10800000000000001,0.764,0.128,0.4069,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,0,2,5,2,0,6,0,3,11,4,0,2,6,12,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,7,0,1,3,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,5,9,2,10,12,2,7,0,0,5,1,4,2,1,0,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802647578638545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5521885397956006,0.15026722937392564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16271237669192498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629679344198692,0.0,0.1725579426275873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17759493425540396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885771942771138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270550465400487,0.17576123177855918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6042178805101504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189180656520884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470661692731873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047435988455752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14334161560936454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427809138957862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SppookyGirl,2019/06/29,"DAE just “snap” in and out of this behavior? It’s weird, like one month I’m eating normal and maintaining a healthy weight, and then one day I look in the mirror for to long, and something snaps.

I’ll be like this for awhile, lurk here on my main, get back to/ close to my LW and then freak out about about my hair/teeth falling out, or my skin looking like shit.
Then I scurry back to loseit, or a similar sub and find a different food related thing to be obsessed about, which is mostly either going sugar free, or only eating nutrient dense foods.

But I feel like this time gonna be different since I’ve been prescribed Adderall lol I’m not impulsive anymore, I can focus and I think before I do shit.

Probably a bad thing tbh

Anyway, is anyone else like this?",3.464451754385962,5.0346130328947405,4.255263157894738,87.11517543859651,73.27631578947368,7.435087719298244,23.85087719298245,8.07648339933343,1.2360903508771934,599,17,121,9,12,192,101,152,0.127,0.7390000000000001,0.134,0.3094,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,8,12,2,1,5,1,8,9,3,0,0,23,17,14,0,1,7,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,11,6,0,3,0,1,2,1,6,0,2,1,6,10,7,17,12,3,18,0,0,2,0,0,7,2,4,14,73,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275944348423222,0.10065299241173288,0.14749350107472128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22137690100549454,0.12019200483722325,0.0,0.0,0.12249061077036585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283566183439644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30079364208409193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29459300477699796,0.12025152125711998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278530449768855,0.10283770994637667,0.0,0.0,0.1315674377664769,0.0,0.3481291497488063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520778828360036,0.0,0.081809944165848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35163281421132725,0.0,0.0,0.12739097387264164,0.2417630231315956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489929450203115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410401638480427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19508811374662066,0.10948024997721166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520214684109093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955246414279018,0.11907669732721968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081952851325023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912675975229768,0.0922371692315914,0.0,0.0,0.08393824033739539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529198075214278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kyokeen,2019/06/29,"I'm moving out of my college dorm room soon quick Q U I C K! eat Everything in sight, or you're gonna have to  t h r o w  it away and that's WASTE.",-4.753070175438598,-3.6065913947368418,-0.07789473684210435,106.90140350877192,107.68421052631581,3.5859649122807014,11.596491228070176,5.46131890053228,-1.6360666666666663,109,2,35,1,6,42,37,38,0.13699999999999998,0.863,0.0,-0.5893,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,2,14,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4777692268749121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5203406766829487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570230229905632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5404739609796637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsmebutprivate,2019/06/29,"Random body dysmorphia reminder A group I’m in ordered custom shirts and we received samples before hand.
The samples were a large and while looking at them I instantly regretted ordering a medium. So I asked if I could switch to a large and everyone started laughing. They thought I was joking. Someone even held the shirt up to my frame and said “More like switch to a small, this thing would swallow you whole”  

Like is my self image really such a drastic difference???",3.9951033591731293,6.8784786395348885,4.190155038759691,82.04076227390182,76.55813953488372,7.078036175710594,30.485788113695094,8.167268648758528,2.6548981912144707,377,18,62,7,9,117,66,86,0.03,0.805,0.165,0.8893,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,2,0,3,5,0,0,8,0,5,5,4,0,0,12,12,7,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,5,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,5,10,4,6,5,2,9,0,1,1,0,9,4,0,2,4,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497166017771756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272953136123275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967047082222285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21326970715347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790784729544281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642703341104773,0.0,0.0,0.2552399670918005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609979337351301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243094463198433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711208011418783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540876707281303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786593508749665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22632579471797745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890654737808443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745943256158195,0.0,0.0,0.21205958731128524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29822451908140346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18975093441334376,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aaaaaaelena,2019/06/29,"to get bubble tea or naw really contemplating on whether or not i shud get bubble tea...been craving it so badly but.... calories... lol. i live in a boarding school and today im going out, the next time i'll have a chance to get it is in around 2 weeks. so maybe i should j go for it? but if i do, i'll feel like shit and wanna restrict even more tomorrow so.. :(",0.7079220779220776,2.2798260259740286,3.105194805194806,92.39207792207796,80.94805194805195,5.9584415584415575,20.090909090909093,6.868970318607317,0.17926493506493513,272,7,64,3,7,94,56,77,0.18600000000000005,0.731,0.08199999999999999,-0.8858,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,1,4,2,1,0,0,15,10,11,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,9,9,1,12,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,3,6,37,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288144256139176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146123453294612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169768288932983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996392667651258,0.1836248771271652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028683901007621,0.0,0.29215627133407146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776404283444508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255736486880205,0.0,0.2269654049792212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25822482970249583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27335818222845004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646623255463002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26013175663525456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26384132823720075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987837706870044,0.0,0.24363782774648535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20617687451495015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SanforizedJeans,2019/06/29,I'm getting triggered to all hell by Marie Kondo of all things I fuckin hate my ED brain sometimes like. I just want to learn how to CLEAN you don't have to obsess over this woman's TINY WRISTS you DUMBASS,3.809922480620157,4.69718611627907,3.995348837209304,91.94713178294576,71.55813953488372,6.663565891472868,23.635658914728683,6.42735559955562,0.4403705426356588,165,4,36,1,3,51,36,43,0.24,0.589,0.171,-0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,2,5,3,1,0,0,2,3,2,2,2,7,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,7,6,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,1,20,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5262421841641103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462888608995639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654133397610704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303039279401341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4662300936976349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131795243286145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278045985086588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,K0B3ryant,2019/06/29,"I recently purged for the first time and it’s affecting me in ways I never thought of. I finally successfully purged a few days ago. I didn’t have it in me to get the whole meal up but I was successful (and unsuccessful obviously bc purging is awful) 


Every single time since, when I eat I get nauseous. 


Also now, I’m lying in bed and I haven’t overeaten today but I want to throw up. I probably don’t even have anything in my stomach to throw up. 

And in complete contrast, I don’t want to binge because even though I do want to throw up and it’s all I think about, I don’t want to throw up. 

This is a really weird experience for me and I just wanted to share with the only people in this world I ever could.",0.7385989932885906,2.884034751677852,3.24724412751678,88.3680473993289,84.03355704697988,6.409563758389263,21.39303691275168,7.645422480735847,0.9139963087248328,554,18,120,10,16,192,82,149,0.07400000000000001,0.812,0.114,0.3737,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,9,4,0,0,5,1,12,3,1,1,4,23,22,11,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,2,0,0,4,6,1,0,1,3,0,20,3,23,18,4,29,0,0,0,0,1,12,0,0,12,87,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551492183412727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996753413581806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14403076981849544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669369541688424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18351052000519455,0.0,0.0,0.1397433252887506,0.0,0.0,0.11287673011585372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790944042255494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312048968299825,0.1583202514917296,0.1474662217553484,0.0,0.0,0.17120816294200036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19173147600030574,0.0,0.14887628713392514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288681424691247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13499017109031314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311449916453608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134038821151155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18870669413262134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121255807813024,0.0,0.17281620180912746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478259713673705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11214903682786198,0.17196130269146176,0.1389504036263079,0.20411712296218892,0.0,0.1659033591669287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5161717854483838,0.1389268023476772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954093084072381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sun_berry,2019/06/29,Uncertainty when buying clothes “Should I get the correct size of this so I don’t look super fat in it or should I get a size too small so that I can keep wearing it once so lose weight?” -Me every time I go shopping.,-0.292536231884057,1.9420468478260915,1.5086956521739123,97.90115942028986,91.3913043478261,3.936231884057971,18.536231884057973,5.46131890053228,-0.5350898550724632,169,5,39,1,6,55,36,46,0.128,0.782,0.09,-0.1846,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,2,0,4,3,2,0,1,5,9,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,2,7,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30112778274475405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37345705485552705,0.0,0.2031205909876152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176765673725699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001288452042617,0.39984298908121296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806229611178543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840479916755247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352210613123555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisaintheavymetal,2019/06/29,"i HATE that i don’t know what my body looks like when i look in the mirror i feel like i look exactly the same as i did 25 lbs ago, which is obviously not true, so clearly my view of my body is so distorted that i can’t even tell what i fucking look like. i don’t know if its dysmorphia, but sometimes i can see a physical difference in how skinny i look, even if the scale has gone down. i can be fatter and technically weigh less than i did. its so exhausting and fucking annoying. it doesn’t help that i have an unusual body shape/comp because those online body visualizers don’t even work. i at least know (or hope) i don’t look like that. it drives me up the fucking wall insane.",4.1357731157731115,4.335103447552449,5.459813519813519,84.2182672882673,70.46853146853147,9.432478632478633,27.77700077700078,9.444778638647367,2.045048795648796,535,17,121,11,9,180,85,143,0.135,0.763,0.102,-0.7685,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,12,5,0,6,0,15,10,5,1,4,18,32,12,0,3,5,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,2,2,0,4,0,0,2,7,6,0,0,3,9,20,6,8,28,3,10,0,0,8,3,2,6,3,4,6,79,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474793726983067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203352123908953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5250277006851672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345938984581788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341446153117565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059748798018240665,0.08441854578542854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32773052959862503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666547232185187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920486554803881,0.0,0.0,0.11736651793112593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948245186955965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309217569441133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5953832358217729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941638192471979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168702085759286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328318767851524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860270010677662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bddjkdbsbaka,2019/06/29,"Joint pain after losing weight?? I worked a pretty physically demanding job for a bit more than 2 years. When I started I was decently overweight (was only over weight for like a yr and a half). Other than initial foot pain and the occasional pinched nerve it wasn’t too bad. 

Like a year and a half in I relapsed into my ED and quickly lost a decent amount of weight (70 or so pounds). I’m currently a healthy weight, with a still unhealthy relationship with food (it’s getting better than it was at least). 

But since I lost the weight I’ve been having massive amounts of joint pain, like hobbling around like an old lady some days. Some nights I can barely sleep because my hips and my back just won’t settle down comfortably. 

All the info I find online is about weight loss helping joint pain. 

Has anyone else experienced this?

I’m scared to go to my drs. about this because I don’t want them to take away certain medications",4.329114126097366,6.0614776536312895,4.5584397446129294,85.15358938547487,71.3463687150838,7.125458898643258,26.752194732641662,7.7094869923839395,1.4530507581803682,736,25,142,9,14,230,118,179,0.192,0.6679999999999999,0.14,-0.905,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,6,10,17,0,1,13,0,11,17,3,0,2,19,20,9,0,1,3,0,6,4,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,9,8,0,2,0,0,1,3,10,0,2,7,7,13,7,22,12,8,20,0,4,0,0,3,7,0,3,16,86,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746046221635019,0.09885428657408296,0.0,0.08588689481024714,0.0,0.0,0.09064533367548093,0.0741865080611007,0.08055605707042765,0.11762558397079192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532796444515968,0.10533023967915783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222106772435245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059594664647993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881801916831318,0.0,0.11666296644699592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050406371815823664,0.0,0.05483132210064901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646679379485925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574066554389543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18853934976992887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793548609424357,0.21063676984509094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719258959114103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053914295348613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123863430973506,0.0,0.0,0.07337673813822289,0.410642455012978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815397647933344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358249661633873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659245618546958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980854665533309,0.0,0.0965488222017217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828843619650839,0.0,0.077048370715616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725403109015246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05690590006783507,0.0,0.0,0.704913650017662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023796743370088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242588138115902
EDAnonymous,orangepop0,2019/06/29,"Scale difference I’m conflicted. My scale at home (always on the same spot in my room, on hardwood and calibrated) is constantly saying I’m 138-140 lbs BUT the scale at planet fitness is saying I’m 127 lbs. Which one would you guys go by? I don’t know much about the PF as it’s a little run down and I don’t know if it’s calibrated or anything like that :(",1.2892293233082697,3.0592942763157893,3.5495488721804516,88.9518421052632,79.92105263157895,6.974436090225563,21.383458646616546,7.957251820313856,0.8679458646616545,279,8,63,5,7,96,53,76,0.053,0.866,0.081,0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,11,6,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,5,1,9,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,2,2,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360697900339191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334694950684155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065901649895088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29641699545849104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612391650318733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809179123898252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28458467518650993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31183964511469703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386065763504352,0.2843523658413161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20855979667804825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19224951739595275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512358132424989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153973636450664,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FameuxCelebrite,2019/06/29,I can eat lunch and be normal for one day ❗️ 🧠 you cheated eat all the calories you diligently avoided this week and ruin your progress ♻️,-1.003,1.0234313666666708,1.3033333333333346,96.40500000000002,102.0,3.733333333333334,22.66666666666667,5.6839178017228535,0.3188666666666671,111,5,24,1,5,37,26,30,0.27699999999999997,0.6409999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.7717,0,1,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,3,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497753890503089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7926057823655365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794701421928329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26244337869361123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106673670495753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flortotheno,2019/06/29,"Am I actually better? About a year ago I self diagnosed with anorexia. I know it is tricky, but somehow I'm better. I used to restrict to WARNING: NUMBER (<300) cals. Now I don't have a set number of food I can eat, I still track it, because that makes me feel secure and therefore I can eat more, but I always "" pushed myself"" 1500>... till about a month (some issue happened, but that's not the point) but Its not because I dont feel good, or because I want to lose weight or because my body dysmorphia is bad. Its because I just dont feel like it. I eat as much as I can, still kinda restricting (tbh idk why), eat 4> meals a day, dont push myself on exercise, etc.. I think I have atypical ana now? Am I even still disordered?  Help? Like I always believed ana was about the mindset. I dont feel like I have that mindset anymore, even if I am almost always under maintenance.",2.511694915254239,4.214618474576273,3.878666666666668,88.2715593220339,76.11864406779661,6.527909604519775,25.359322033898305,7.3011,1.1447396610169491,678,24,140,8,15,223,100,177,0.18,0.71,0.11,-0.9081,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,3,14,9,0,0,6,0,17,10,1,3,0,28,28,11,0,2,10,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,2,7,3,6,1,0,2,7,2,0,0,1,5,25,7,13,27,4,16,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,7,13,92,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.09860952497322696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957409359511469,0.0,0.10118626171931193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25224329836008474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021373730435428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437193158553834,0.30799352911526395,0.0,0.0,0.11384794002130955,0.0,0.17873976061678762,0.0,0.1122429749620144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516842879522458,0.0,0.0,0.10256289652594468,0.0,0.0,0.11581123434355592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4737160346437828,0.0,0.0,0.41359457941124855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269666320182425,0.13348419856517213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20437421739751815,0.14437925783432806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218919571778936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475534544660253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935754841413082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773120526003817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546919941401227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05553404400161175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810272838387825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130483017612644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745118195195816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065657468715168,0.0,0.07428285086346811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552423570859997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054164415879896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420942669939185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474830120847946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727413746775316,0.0,0.0,0.059601485995513286,0.0,0.0,0.12305080548030715,0.0,0.0,0.09118126189860784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507242607868602
EDAnonymous,fuckoffcoreytaylor,2019/06/29,"it's my birthday today. and im bawling my eyes out. birthdays are so stressful. with the expectation to eat cake. but what was worse is that my family bought me a cake, put it in the fridge, then left. ): so I'm eating half of my birthday cake in my room in the dark. i used to come to this sub a lot and have been trying to recover even going as far as deleting my old account but I have no one to talk to. 


so how are your days going?",-0.09468085106383127,1.8187463404255344,2.261106382978724,95.59400000000002,85.59574468085106,5.036595744680851,18.974468085106388,6.2581,-0.19214978723404208,332,9,79,3,10,113,64,94,0.136,0.8640000000000001,0.0,-0.9227,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,0,7,3,1,2,0,11,13,11,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,2,3,1,10,0,14,10,1,15,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,1,4,55,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991681597001006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911223393537912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731739955965766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527129578777345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179655431702117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26280554889475544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497480024414904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512118770656803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965676753890929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426174843120409,0.0,0.1566748374503419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324313313871471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648518927530806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858389758776913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21916138496724372,0.0,0.0,0.15697737251478158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969242535357332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356241830961331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,purplelizard16,2019/06/29,I want to purge but I hate barfing I’m in the bathroom of a bar and I just had 3 rum and diet cokes and half of a pizza. I feel disgusting and fat but I hate puking and I don’t know what to do.,-2.7820567375886505,-1.1877312978723396,1.0224468085106402,101.6841666666667,96.02127659574468,3.984397163120569,14.21631205673759,5.46131890053228,-1.1782453900709218,147,3,41,1,6,54,31,47,0.364,0.613,0.023,-0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,3,0,3,5,1,0,0,11,9,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,6,0,5,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306775217556622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9008416209960448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507254742107653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690891885967759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,settingdot,2019/06/29,"dysmorphia is crazy tw for weight mentions and weight loss, not exact numbers but fairly close

a few days ago i went to the doctor and i was already dreading it for countless reasons but i dont know, unexpected stuff happened and i cannot stop thinking about it and its launched some weird stuff in my brain.

of course i got weighed. it was a scale that i had to face too. i looked. i thought i did the proper math but the number was nearly 10lbs less than what i was expecting to see. it was in double digits. i wasnt even that small as a freshman aged 14 in highschool. for my height that's still barely considered underweight but geez.

the doctor also commented on it, saying it was a little on the small side. then asked about my eating habits and now im terrified that my pause and my face before answering made it so the doctor automatically knew lmao. the next appointment is in a little under two weeks and im scared that if i lose weight they'll straight up accuse me of having an ed which i am not at all prepared to deal with, but at the same time if i go back and i havent lost weight i know my ed will kill me.

and i cant get my mind off that number. it's only a few lbs away from my ~ugw~ and i feel like i havent lost weight at all. i know that's just the nature of an eating disorder, that you'll keep going lower and never be satisfied, but im still in such shock for some reason. also, if im smaller than i was as a freshman, why dont i look it! the answer is probably that i do and am just blinded but 🙃 that doesn't count to my dumb brain. all i see is the fat hanging off my body that needs to go. i dont think it helps that the past few days or really the whole month ive had to eat much more than normal; my birthday just passed, another person in my family had a birthday, we went on a brief vacation. i told myself id increase my daily calorie allowance up and give myself another 150 - 200 calories a day so that the doctor wouldn't be suspicious of me, except today i miscalculated and went FOUR HUNDRED over what i normally eat.. it was only two hundred past my New Allowance and it was still at a deficit but i feel like a pig. and its obviously impossible, but i feel like my cheekbones are gone and my face is puffy and my stomach and legs are giant... i look in the mirror and in no way do i see someone who has a weight in double digits. i really wish i didnt live this way.

how can this even be possible? for a brain to screw you over so much. i could be one foot in the grave and still itll be screaming for me to starve more. isnt it supposed to be protecting my body and keeping me safe? fucked up if true!",2.5650559396605916,3.8053202828828847,4.092729939241568,88.70847265870525,75.0,7.036664571548292,23.357427194636497,7.5712925761633665,0.864145610727006,2067,58,455,26,43,689,255,555,0.14,0.779,0.08199999999999999,-0.9889,1,0,0,0,0,1,47.0,1,2,1,4,21,19,4,2,32,0,51,30,12,7,7,86,88,45,2,11,20,0,9,3,0,5,6,2,0,1,37,25,12,5,14,0,0,11,16,14,0,4,26,18,65,5,57,50,18,71,0,5,7,2,14,36,3,7,25,319,102,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398541013944366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720620136637713,0.09740564364182323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12772084088688787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05693458118640823,0.0,0.057218863288995815,0.046829411846319016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05182259967520507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529543633419772,0.0,0.20395828700162735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04862480656118145,0.0,0.0,0.11782908033283875,0.06278666180796078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979827240063835,0.24934062458440465,0.0,0.0,0.2141279363830785,0.0,0.0,0.24926931554443005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804495911423744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05741241304882655,0.0,0.0923807222488148,0.1305239015598554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05630235629373316,0.03181846412689709,0.05842216537098315,0.10383499500804122,0.0,0.048708407272089665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05385490052511281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040820919849100516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631358198317243,0.0,0.0,0.10826391234526522,0.06737836784368646,0.0,0.10040943832533847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08926003282505282,0.1220783899156726,0.053777045609647765,0.0,0.15342549463857086,0.06813308057277738,0.13296212886755632,0.0,0.0,0.05762637040358608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061493045694749865,0.0,0.04861091070159635,0.0,0.08953906222747793,0.045157611084140264,0.04697090858088848,0.05881894466903567,0.06476932215645638,0.0,0.11934086871237527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04126835990325512,0.09263650709598747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627454113201087,0.0,0.053176747118718726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686571697821479,0.0,0.0,0.06566200195994194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802998339685062,0.1252335498267719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843123195928887,0.06097291852895127,0.0,0.14559157540051776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051601552488877496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945437238457299,0.05091629136655386,0.0,0.0,0.1394350484560688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804630683447161,0.0,0.048348903133416436,0.035512091899033635,0.0,0.057727399363606775,0.05819389069442525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898362289868016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09668138175989284,0.048851423790600035,0.4449689370145468,0.0,0.1693686038179611,0.054954034398365804,0.06799423014961771,0.07003359614723162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kerkitt,2019/06/29,"i used to eat 500 cal meals without even flinching but now i see something thats even 200 cals and ill stay the fuck away i was just browsing edfood and now i feel like 100 calories is a lot. what the fuck brain.

i looked up how many calories is in a rice cake and its 35 and bro thats not a lot but i was like ""fuck thats too many calories""",-0.256973684210525,1.5868575131578948,1.157105263157895,103.68723684210528,85.71052631578947,3.8,18.71052631578948,3.1291,-1.0177842105263155,265,7,68,0,8,84,49,76,0.218,0.703,0.079,-0.9253,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,3,0,5,0,4,7,1,2,0,14,11,7,0,0,5,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,3,6,2,5,9,2,6,0,0,2,3,1,3,3,2,4,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397316113802267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185925447374961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20036602144558646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586658445130366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900915259645776,0.13988915189706208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5430790759278883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19132909974307685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443396242284905,0.0,0.0,0.3329471478064887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970481631748095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603794985239447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074674324656204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20871106015664864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911993115965196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875715671511464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,things2bethankful4,2019/05/29,"At what BMI did you lose your period? And at BMI what did it come back, for those of you in recovery?",0.5549999999999997,2.088921772727275,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,81.27272727272728,8.036363636363637,15.545454545454547,8.841846274778883,0.3401090909090909,77,1,20,2,2,26,17,22,0.127,0.873,0.0,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,5,1,0,6,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782675530392098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5357844216367029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6958413621230849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway19031903,2019/05/29,"how am i still gaining weight??? (not asking for advice just harm reduction) my diet for the past month or so has been an rx bar (200 cal) for lunch, fruit/ nuts (50-200 cal) as a snack, and whatever my mom made for dinner (never more than 500 cal) and my weight has still fucking stayed the same!!!! i’m so mad!!! i feel like i fucked up my body somehow. no matter how much i work out, eat healthy, nothing changes. i’m thinking about not taking my meds anymore bc i heard they make u gain weight?",0.8250545454545488,3.052834960000002,1.7614545454545478,98.6257272727273,84.4,4.4363636363636365,19.090909090909093,5.565023196281405,-0.4504999999999999,376,10,85,2,11,117,74,100,0.16699999999999998,0.718,0.115,-0.8351,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,3,9,5,3,0,4,0,4,14,1,4,1,17,15,8,0,0,4,1,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,10,0,2,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,6,11,1,9,12,3,8,0,0,0,2,4,2,2,2,6,46,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16124848588206134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364824317223806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426458528999146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329189345741576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174561540704413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688491720966649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343537155297694,0.11788509505109915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30510313638964764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061686272088815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613899227555664,0.1101472485035174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329189345741576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19326086218439464,0.1317115507603095,0.0,0.121303309991451,0.0,0.12726795529067067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833412156141036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575232792947615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588156644831962,0.2635586866053615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406900294956845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573346555247344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6028229865319906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013119988599845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxfloat,2019/05/29,"Why. Do. I. Eat. So. Fast. I swear to god I can finish an entire plate of food faster than large, starving men can eat half of theirs. If I wasn’t afraid of the calories I could be a speed eater and own every competition.",-0.8401552795031044,1.2988451086956552,0.8250310559006238,100.85195652173915,97.91304347826087,3.4981366459627328,13.093167701863356,5.288315135182226,-1.3532136645962731,169,3,40,1,7,54,39,46,0.099,0.853,0.048,-0.2911,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,6,3,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,5,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285661712493589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7322054789146762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014487694102646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43263428982120655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32284475116454536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitchesrule,2019/05/29,"binge-balance-starve (MAJOR TW) for the last two months I've been struggling with daily binging, but then for a week i (somewhat) balanced my eating, now i'm struggling. i'm not suicidal or depressed, i just have no motivation whatsoever. my parents are getting a divorce and i just learned that they've been lying to me about their love life for at least a year. i feel like i'll never eat again. my stomach was hurting really bad but 0 cal lukewarm sparkling water on my desk fixed that. i woke up at noon today and haven't gone downstairs yet. im chewing gum now. i gained about 18 pounds from the binging, and now i've lost already 3.2 pounds after a day of this. fuck, i cant go back to a hospital. i just want to go to high school and have friends and get this over with.",2.9384615384615387,4.6320260700637,3.7008917197452256,90.03934345908871,74.92356687898089,6.104654581087702,27.36354728074473,6.67199483983844,1.0980195002449775,611,24,127,5,13,194,107,157,0.171,0.647,0.182,0.2526,1,0,0,0,1,0,22.0,0,0,1,3,11,10,1,2,7,0,8,8,1,1,1,20,21,9,1,1,7,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,3,0,0,3,5,7,0,1,6,1,14,3,19,15,3,25,0,3,0,2,5,6,1,2,17,76,18,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19502502545667005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589381711459728,0.14756146869705267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397568936718425,0.0,0.15221656868880834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36167610742198825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935957467209886,0.12625534899497085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365405125440867,0.1633832629461666,0.1846673863476167,0.0,0.20087851153636355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867240632749524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18919222364496174,0.0,0.1908978223656824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440578551564061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248290339689077,0.08634094185777633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929207576083991,0.0,0.1595049691143539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410635314049114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363044251195194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962368204587681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132172268998952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885934755950414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695113852990873,0.0,0.19331301946021467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751858164189032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17263871200099656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042394389312788,0.0,0.14176147401068226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138077863503264
EDAnonymous,algorthin,2019/05/29,purging just because i want the nausea to be gone i cannot handle the nausea that comes with refeeding and i only have a really small amount of zofran. feel like Shit,1.820454545454545,4.488617636363639,2.6456818181818207,90.78852272727272,84.75757575757575,4.512121212121213,17.340909090909093,5.985473137389443,-0.2074181818181815,134,3,25,1,4,42,29,33,0.111,0.772,0.11699999999999999,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,7,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870852329269525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056795821597021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23812521311069626,0.3364449975966589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300811665174672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581768055674443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30170103631611617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834208546981898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777770451698498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wildhcnt,2019/05/29,TW: I found a picture of myself from 2 years ago and now I want to die I’ve been attempting  ‘recovery’ for the last 5ish months and have gained almost 6kg since. Imagine my surprise when I accidentally managed to come across a body check where I was about 50kg. I literally want to die. Recovery is bullshit. I thought I’d be happier being able to eat whatever whenever but I was wrong - I’d rather be sad and thin than happy and fat.,1.2747727272727258,3.6882442045454593,3.396545454545457,86.38481818181822,84.22727272727272,7.156363636363636,24.70909090909091,8.238735603445708,1.7805645454545456,342,14,71,8,10,116,65,88,0.19,0.669,0.141,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,2,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,3,0,8,3,2,0,0,13,13,6,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,5,1,9,2,10,5,0,10,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,6,39,9,1,0.2352257630334292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085134462187378,0.0,0.2355446233869073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26128279487775435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026261665408184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882544093403154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406946797593169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579129079194179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504021987543758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917403920366193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877549598686004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945811819372171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867429808758416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27748449905297423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571824455181436,0.0,0.1514776792139475
EDAnonymous,4gotmyfuckinpassword,2019/05/29,"Recovery vs looking skinny at a party: a memoir Sooooo I’m technically in recovery for bulimia rn, and part of my recovery plan is eating no less than 2,000 calories a day, 3 meals a day and 2 large snacks in between. I really want to recover and I haven’t been sticking to this meal plan at all, so today I tried. I had breakfast, and lunch and dinner.......but I also had 2nd dinner and 3rd dinner and so on and so forth and essentially I find myself having eaten like 12+ Oreos, a package of tea biscuits, 2 Greek yogurts, and a container of cottage cheese in the span of 15 minutes, ya know, like a fucking fatass. 

So yeah. This whole recovery thing is going great. 

That being said, my boyfriend invited me to his friends birthday bash next weekend and there will be an open bar and fancy attire and shit and I wanna look skinny for it. I really want to be someone he can show off because we only recently became official. 

So now for the internal war of the year - do I try again tomorrow and stick to my dieticians plan, or be a massive pussy and just throw back adderall all weekend and restrict as much as possible so I can look skinny af for this party and maybe have lost some weight even??? 


Like I’m already too anxious to eat normally tomorrow because I binged. FML   


I WANT TO RECOVER BUT I WANT TO BE SKINNY MORE 😭😭😭😭",4.089754784688992,5.255129981060609,5.6963716108452935,78.97047846889953,71.1590909090909,8.739712918660286,30.18261562998405,9.134995656068208,2.672215151515152,1041,43,196,21,19,355,160,264,0.046,0.863,0.091,0.8088,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,1,0,4,14,9,3,0,12,1,17,19,5,0,2,37,32,29,1,6,4,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,6,20,17,2,2,4,0,2,2,4,0,0,6,5,21,5,29,20,8,24,0,1,3,1,6,9,2,2,16,128,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15738511559441434,0.114053451708597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112041342701594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096662547027788,0.0,0.17388009745221825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395666919159329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918724704230036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419940380531963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035242679029407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101881376492686,0.13185022621975295,0.0,0.0,0.08105443823056607,0.0,0.0,0.1572394522468837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838042093493343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090313140531164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592955518670664,0.0,0.15568697230348932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328132278760014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484237594432226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516783726399631,0.0,0.13973767327691705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846921177767137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444395344721976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078302869167466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827325113912413,0.0,0.140820401310882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356646236923771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639775175538874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084176963134045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475063103274152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351874267119576,0.0,0.0,0.1936597274693212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364847379413096,0.0,0.0,0.17367317837773835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592305405495598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091842836930023
EDAnonymous,NeuntyNeun,2019/05/29,"I don’t even know what I want anymore I’ve reached my goal weight. Sure I don’t *see it* but I’ve accepted at this point I’ll never be happy with progress. I know I’m skinny but it’s just not enough. I can’t go back to eating more because I’ll be miserable if I gain even a sliver of weight. I’m scared to eat even at maintenance because I know I’ll gain just because I heavily restricted before. It all sucks and I’m overwhelmed. I feel like I’m on the verge of saying ‘fuck it’ and gaining all the weight back but I’m dreading the misery and disgust that comes with it.

Life is just a lot sometimes.",-0.1941153846153832,1.996525953846156,1.8295192307692325,96.41735576923081,89.46153846153845,4.788461538461539,20.43269230769231,6.322622252153567,0.10742307692307662,474,16,108,5,16,157,73,130,0.22699999999999998,0.585,0.187,-0.9,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,5,8,11,3,4,5,0,6,8,1,0,4,26,21,7,0,2,8,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,6,6,1,5,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,0,6,10,4,9,19,5,10,0,2,1,1,1,5,2,2,4,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496536123750824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206768059117894,0.0,0.2759642268221046,0.0,0.12840595295427934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998817004832686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088195517529953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592145550464126,0.0,0.29900679858293483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630026763940495,0.1078039701349497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395058865973336,0.0,0.0,0.08576072709316218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063731623527394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487943425180552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658610155594107,0.07372278791791953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282909499839537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163844406737292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14265057194448816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000282755899062,0.1510785980862247,0.0,0.12024885602412172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924531520607495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222275703689544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900553878219541,0.0,0.0,0.5512716532025222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DuckieIsMyHero88,2019/05/29,"Price of Vyvannse for you For those of you who use Vyvannse, how much do you pay for it (if you don't mind answering)? I had some difficulty filling my prescription last month and had to pay full price which was almost $300, when I usually pay around $30. So, basically I'm trying to find another pharmacy besides CVS. 

Thanks!",5.557187500000001,6.053140343750003,6.506250000000001,76.91375000000002,67.4375,10.775,33.1875,10.686352973137794,3.5400437500000006,258,11,51,7,4,86,48,64,0.11,0.8440000000000001,0.046,-0.2481,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,10,8,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,7,1,8,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,3,4,32,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189116658320156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339539966052099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835146773842245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910849047687239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596036663984448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32157396131419885,0.0,0.2542076578057305,0.0,0.23411940819925064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29321354905036845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21622698064007867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27506442170085105,0.350760670681069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_PLATITUDES,2019/05/29,"I'll buy fuckin' anything if it claims I'll lose weight. I can understand flat earthers. I get conspiracy theorists now. Or rather, I guess, I have more empathy for them even if I still think they’re nuts. Insidiousness preys on inherent vulnerabilities, even when it defies reason. Case in point, it just happened to me. I consider myself smart, well-informed, well-rounded, patient, and open to hearing feedback and ideas from others. I’m not in a bubble. But when it comes to my body problems, I can be persuaded to do anything in the name of progress, sparing no expense- monetary, emotional, or social.

I was reading the article on incels in the New Yorker. Poor idiots! I thought, and then I came to the paragraph about mastic gum and jawline strengthening. I fucking hate my chin, I hate my jawline. Thought I was fine, I draw the line at surgery. But I forgot that I all but kiss it on the forehead, too, and suddenly I blinked and the article was twelve tabs of different brands of mastic gum and something called the Jawzrcize for $40. I impulse-spent a ton last month so it’s not expensive but it’s definitely an unwanted expense. So I decided to pause and counter-research for an hour. Detriments, design flaws, anything that could pause the justification of another $200 down the drain.

Good news! Experts and people who are good at their jobs don’t buy any of this shit, reiterating a healthy diet, consistent exercise, and moderate BMI is the best way to maximize your jawline. Bad news! I read all those and decided the randos reviewing on Amazon were more credible than the peer-reviewed studies and am eagerly awaiting my stupid modified ball gag.

So I get it now. I was swayed by the siren song of the Alex Jones of body dysmorphia. Fuck me.",4.619325274725277,6.92445140615385,5.238939560439565,78.17559615384619,71.86153846153846,8.704395604395605,33.145604395604394,9.330973305703688,3.3589450549450555,1397,70,245,33,28,449,202,325,0.129,0.759,0.113,-0.6698,3,0,1,0,0,0,55.0,0,1,2,3,14,18,8,0,20,0,15,11,4,2,2,46,32,26,0,6,12,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,14,15,2,1,9,5,6,2,4,11,0,0,9,3,32,7,32,21,6,27,0,1,0,4,8,13,4,5,11,156,46,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536438878750006,0.13162866318040445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30990033592511823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481191883943664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173550303725307,0.0,0.0,0.2788700308487908,0.0,0.0,0.12817969087350548,0.14357234725687626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813257975988763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022511973159354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115164708431848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120383171707784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582214871039092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321000657806273,0.13116800260299855,0.0,0.0,0.21057643747675828,0.0,0.0,0.13828493576943646,0.0,0.1110053537482154,0.0,0.0,0.24786885585599144,0.0,0.0,0.14148090981057515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362130654970035,0.0,0.0,0.14170756616539915,0.0,0.0,0.12456869454083802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232332570391484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043544110549575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019647768056683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123720768991865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702637433056548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866598585737613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011481241865644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511270113157858,0.0,0.0,0.12906526949375005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288542643678497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796155321949226,0.0,0.09663876930987188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024804926953833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043425774096846,0.0,0.19931285893510986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068067357854313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963950242669846,0.0,0.15286115648607346,0.2257322559602247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hell-is,2019/05/29,"Do you ever binge on weird snacks and hurt the roof of your mouth and tongue FML! I ate takis, a big breakfast granola bar, dry cheerios and my mouth is... a painful disaster",2.938137254901964,4.935020852941179,2.712352941176473,95.8022549019608,75.76470588235293,5.7098039215686285,26.03921568627451,6.42735559955562,0.7072862745098041,135,5,29,1,3,40,30,34,0.315,0.685,0.0,-0.9079999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,7,2,0,1,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5140455592484037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6083599487608438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6046944151889444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Contessa_,2019/05/29,"I'm feeling like a mess Is this even the right thread? I don't know. Tw emotional and social struggles

I'm meeting with friends to have cocktails and all I want is to drink so much so it would become okay to throw up because I feel guilty for leaving my home in a mess(still need to wash the dishes, do cleaning and stuff) and won't come back for 4 days(a trip with my mom, another reason why I can't get completely drunk)  and eating so much today. Also I completely hate the makeup I did(and it isn't dark enough yet to hide it) and there will be people I don't know which freaks me out as well. Also I'm always the first and in such a fear to end up alone(because the others don't show up). 

Let's hope that I can keep my shit together and won't cry or throw up.",3.4071548821548814,4.003704462962965,4.13882154882155,91.62015151515152,72.27160493827161,7.12547699214366,24.603815937149268,6.980632752743323,0.7002395061728399,601,16,137,5,11,192,103,162,0.133,0.7490000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.6795,0,1,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,11,11,2,2,8,1,16,6,1,1,1,24,30,15,0,4,1,1,2,1,1,4,1,0,2,0,8,12,5,1,5,4,0,4,7,6,1,1,0,2,12,5,18,24,4,17,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,2,6,87,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23701352749184554,0.12330519615413026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553891843481863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139482649781373,0.0,0.18066939071283566,0.16366321005838788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765178164367733,0.3107468881754323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627787597052844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451688944890941,0.0,0.1516344370915278,0.0,0.16669278337411333,0.1312515511163509,0.15311894601057205,0.0,0.09787749800230147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675392810076614,0.14985771552039526,0.10586631730312017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604956639180642,0.0,0.0,0.11449052527904173,0.0,0.07742268456045144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630604917711634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864574239376466,0.1471852057205613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171727430586774,0.0,0.0,0.1628816995346049,0.0,0.0,0.15691085215879166,0.0,0.15153338721596046,0.0,0.07239770528320111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355727413562394,0.0,0.0,0.21787206770978398,0.10988033440355394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273565800385392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236306796511107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655267531734904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211397393334986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15106011792774968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491941479939556,0.1696410570012362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046593240952848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740576621302246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323979096658162,0.0,0.1337176066569555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526927957070044,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snackqueen18,2019/05/29,"DAE just crave the flavor of food but not actually the food itself? I get so frustrated because I will eat a food solely for the flavor and not because I am actually hungry or want the food. If I am fasting, it’s not even the thought of eating that makes me obsess, it’s the idea of a certain flavor!",2.6983870967741908,4.194493354838713,4.852451612903226,82.35867741935486,75.12903225806451,6.895483870967742,25.30322580645161,7.554174236665415,1.3292477419354838,236,8,47,3,5,82,39,62,0.14,0.794,0.065,-0.7745,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,8,0,3,6,0,1,1,13,7,5,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,5,1,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.32400157228370985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20239502768854786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397371959089333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964734446771007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8029547153663802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867328235486267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740389558158813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081226185179678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179256131019276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791637865730952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sillymoonbin,2019/05/29,"My boyfriend saved pictures of other girls to his phone and I can’t eat anymore Last night my boyfriend and I were looking at pictures on his phone and I stumbled upon screenshots (taken by him) of NSFW girls on Instagram that not only looked nothing like me (all Asian), but also had completely different bodies than me. My eating had been getting better over the past couple of weeks, but I can’t eat now. How am I supposed to eat after that? I feel so inadequate and fat. I’ve struggled with my eating for so long and finally felt as if I could be okay with my body. He never intended to hurt me. He’s a wonderful man and boyfriend honestly, and I know this was a natural sexual attraction thing, but I’m hurting. We had a long talk and my eating even came up because he knows about my disorder. Maybe I shouldn’t have brought it up because I’d never want to guilt him or make him feel as if my disorder is his fault. Y’all I’m hurting. I’m hungry and hurting.",3.17280440414508,4.930647455958553,4.460488989637304,84.56772830310882,74.44041450777202,7.519300518134714,28.12467616580311,8.278499904357787,2.003974352331606,761,31,149,13,16,251,118,193,0.149,0.711,0.141,-0.1876,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,1,7,13,0,2,4,1,14,9,3,3,3,36,31,21,0,5,7,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,6,13,7,0,6,0,0,2,6,7,0,0,10,5,28,6,23,18,1,20,0,4,2,0,17,7,0,4,12,100,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042858021686147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974187296070099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226173268458589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894907512690438,0.0,0.2234289399943564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502927461394727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054493863166427,0.0,0.0,0.08029974463114488,0.11128264904242367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050778866318982,0.23053185589187736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6174707047136374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642783880573773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170595257911927,0.0,0.09656631834724877,0.11017333764431624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05254549528603822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306639864162339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054511508697257,0.08198081424934194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049135124973716714,0.0,0.0,0.17800874004875766,0.16891279589815714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671335827030275,0.0,0.10103958442962126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551369447359115,0.0,0.0,0.0943814033401802,0.0,0.096502972057579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649066792655942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600877227404613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514124414920667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08083715818869971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06681655499638572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059320847663618524,0.0,0.08067398376829052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906765511655957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluecokezero,2019/05/29,Is peach down for anyone else? Honestly please tell me it’s just me bc they take forever to get back online 🤠,-0.7389130434782629,1.2947576086956545,1.5307608695652206,94.3291847826087,103.34782608695652,5.778260869565218,14.445652173913045,7.1686216300943375,0.19553043478260929,87,2,19,2,4,29,22,23,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945555174723976,0.4316317229314274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239237407138829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35190954806232944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009150910498032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624181250943366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167358792574133,0.0,0.36820072116370456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,northxts,2019/05/29,"I ate 1397 calories today and I am about to rip my eyeballs out So I arrived home from uni today, my Dad surprises me with breakfast at a little coffee shop I like. Played it cool, got some eggs and some granary toast. That’s it for today I thought, no need to stress!!? 

Mid afternoon, my extended family is at our house and they’re ordering food. I’m still full from breakfast, sorry guys!! Thought I’d gotten away with it. 

My sweet, sweet mum ordered me a pasta dish she knows I like. She’s so happy and is telling me I deserve it, I worked so hard this year at Uni and I need to treat myself. My heart is breaking because she’s so kind, I missed her so MUCH. She’s just trying to do nice things for me, she’s worried! So I sit with my family and eat my damn pasta like the fat idiot I am. 

I didn’t even eat excessively? This is normal and fine and I’d still lose weight eating this way. But it’s TOO MUCH. I know I’m being stupid but I’m sick and tired of getting so far and fucking up. I need to get my head back into this before the scale goes up again.",0.8280363636363609,2.7088751511111115,2.6110808080808106,94.5583181818182,81.93333333333334,5.335353535353535,19.560606060606066,6.351523495107088,-0.07019999999999982,819,21,187,7,22,271,128,225,0.10800000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.11599999999999999,-0.6615,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,0,2,15,20,4,1,4,1,9,18,3,0,0,28,26,19,0,4,3,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,11,15,13,0,4,2,1,0,2,7,0,0,6,5,35,13,22,19,5,26,0,2,0,1,11,12,2,2,12,113,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625773098758772,0.09514836282641324,0.0,0.07543070858722661,0.0,0.1052935606512846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798504989996594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817290521646059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333019737867599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962680614057394,0.0,0.0,0.1143955649538913,0.1292980052476653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896612033118636,0.0,0.0,0.12252197819611466,0.0,0.13172344903589386,0.11084666606727983,0.0,0.1269928600320874,0.0,0.0,0.14663240461505792,0.0,0.0,0.12412123196958814,0.0,0.0,0.14277925757549173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885608825852274,0.1360084512745756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135922819204192,0.12401991055407408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843332246184165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18192616229978406,0.2752547551467213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212388521291773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851671313316755,0.0,0.0,0.19763772480018935,0.0,0.14174366379597916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815414681561092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220730655905642,0.0,0.0,0.19647135405818766,0.0,0.14222083868376434,0.3518729356050279,0.0,0.0,0.08401128525841951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821899130868904,0.0,0.15068189056230002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008413772578923,0.12566389835005212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968445348032396
EDAnonymous,realityisgone,2019/05/29,Trying to get 90g of protein while eating at low restriction and also being vegetarian is not a great combination This is an impossible situation,6.989615384615385,9.28717334615385,10.35692307692308,43.96307692307696,65.53846153846153,12.892307692307696,36.07692307692308,12.161744961471696,6.000523076923077,121,6,16,5,2,46,25,26,0.263,0.737,0.0,-0.7575,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36128743284309983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622826138840656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360358351244654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4980878455925743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5078184260790686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067282258201551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aghbugs,2019/05/29,"Has anyone ever struggled with edema after heavy purging/diuretic abuse? So back in November I started using diuretics heavily, it wasn’t intentionally eating disordered. It just... idk it made me feel light, especially since I was starting to do some minor lifting. This was on top of coffee and herbal teas that (unbeknownst to me) had diuretic properties. I got SWOLLEN with water come December that wouldn’t really go away, and it got worse and worse. That’s when I started purging. I was so confused about my rapidly changing body that could go up and down two or three sizes each day that I needed that kind of control. That lasted a couple months but I’ve stopped because afterwards I ALWAYS swell with water. I can’t drink coffee (I’ll get distended and bloated. I can literally feel the water collecting in my legs and feet and arms). I can’t drink a lot of teas cause they tend to have diuretic herbs in them. Alcohol! Can’t have a sip. Food that’s too salty? Rip. Anything that dehydrates me makes me swell, and my clothes can go from being loose to not fitting in an HOUR. 

I really don’t know what to do or how to find a doctor who is qualified to deal with this. Obviously one solution is to lay off the diuretics but sometimes you just need a cup of coffee lol. I’m really sick of dealing with it. Have you ever drank seven liters of water in a day and STILL peed dark yellow? That’s where I’m at some days. 

Does anyone have any experience with edema? Is there anything I can do to ease it? How do I go about finding a doctor who specializes in this kind of eating disordered behavior and would know how to treat it? I’m lost & at this point kind of scared. I’m tempted to start weightlifting to see if that will accelerate the healing process. I’m soooo lost and so confused.",3.1022962382445165,5.436689485632186,4.289968652037619,83.08826018808777,76.5574712643678,7.666457680250784,26.062695924764892,8.575989854853784,2.050613793103449,1423,54,268,30,33,465,185,348,0.10800000000000001,0.8420000000000001,0.05,-0.9626,0,0,3,0,1,0,41.0,0,2,2,4,18,11,0,4,11,1,29,22,4,9,3,56,60,23,0,6,8,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,25,19,13,2,6,3,0,5,7,6,0,4,11,6,24,5,43,44,4,40,0,2,2,0,8,17,0,8,18,173,49,3,0.0,0.11278465654116612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172922592771047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792057561635477,0.10313839118646112,0.0,0.06473250560026225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311820768382976,0.0,0.15666661876014315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943419565585327,0.0731952810799316,0.0,0.05802697758628991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573469856734924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977864138261488,0.10069846265253043,0.08199780873851574,0.0,0.0,0.10676374744480817,0.07600151792174896,0.10532599181264517,0.0,0.18416914315847632,0.1962735459580851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819211328232546,0.19486212170456468,0.08330146374490928,0.0,0.0,0.18650004084276087,0.0,0.1948063929967004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220971958784664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931141450749035,0.0,0.0,0.09626190983791023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400398225006622,0.0,0.11510419945461713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049732877981533266,0.0,0.21639482100091845,0.0,0.15226437491619396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374303538282927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973774004756121,0.1046279360418504,0.0775926044600934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078223922048225,0.08092718572586853,0.0,0.09007113719789937,0.06354010479600468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597979842308182,0.0,0.0,0.14116444797765246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450324878602917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998537567222704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829435714291536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530185697476708,0.0,0.0758541542174604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874220202151498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941454042074558,0.0,0.26950406010730066,0.0,0.07601890557559976,0.0795831532190287,0.0,0.09951331960303128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298685781660147,0.0,0.0,0.0822136496382176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401360868903966,0.06762028810827161,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaytruerateme9,2019/05/29,"is she dying is she dying i lost 20lbs to get to 120 at 5’8 which is literally only SLIGHTLY underweight but i feel like my body is fucking screaming. ive been maintaining for 3 months but i have a heart rate that drops as low as 38, i havent had my period in 6 months and it feels like literally no matter how much i eat im never full. i get light headed and spacey when eating, i wont shit for like a week and then one day it all comes at once. recently i was waking up in the middle of the night literally drenched in sweat, my lips/ hands turn blue. i get RAVENOUSLY hungry then take one bite and feel full.

the crazy part is i still look extremely healthy, i hold all of my weight in my ass and thighs so only when u see my collarbones and arms do i even look thin. im somewhat lanky so my collarbones and neck do look kinda gaunt, but u wouldnt see me and think im underweight. i used to complain about being cold all the time but now dont get it so often, except when i say that im not cold my friends always point out the goosebumps on my arms. idk how to explain my body being cold but me not feeling it LMAO

this obviously isnt ~normal~ normal but does anyone else have experience with it? like im not dangerously underweight and part of me thinks im just adjusting to the loss, but im scared theres something seriously wrong.",1.5468817204301106,3.5697560179211507,3.2851612903225806,89.91440860215056,80.21863799283153,6.570609318996418,21.086021505376344,7.662118739084242,0.7189698924731185,1055,30,231,17,27,351,153,279,0.158,0.7559999999999999,0.086,-0.9653,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,15,16,3,1,8,0,20,19,15,3,5,48,42,28,2,3,12,0,7,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,9,12,3,1,8,0,0,1,10,11,0,2,4,19,30,5,24,34,9,33,0,3,6,2,6,15,3,3,20,138,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070490392760344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941556864797419,0.08706557081171913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18877319190241246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319729613034068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05480099008023855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17637851614898986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436103480851787,0.0,0.09958851316232052,0.0,0.0,0.1738985645547522,0.0709846011040491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612431031922182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312055841279774,0.0,0.0,0.17186097113758586,0.12141041947218162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565044980226767,0.0785567924326833,0.17758095017573194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720750450416953,0.0,0.0,0.10069421290845687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6425030468794912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605537986344526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140694551632027,0.0,0.09275880306290946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565035189740565,0.0,0.0624654276396956,0.0,0.06553693590571996,0.0,0.0,0.07974203684269758,0.1665123179439238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049418964672816,0.11516072137528392,0.12925261638540494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18403641679332386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032758791743272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08390125184638343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757447621616633,0.08507347152408393,0.0,0.13542603331456984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722425533113445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06541688573928205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786008587944009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388962779846354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889539851843696,0.0,0.0,0.04954883269198583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242695658635264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338997164808406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816075580812532,0.10347504297948967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929053732076825,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ednosonline,2019/05/29,"Let's talk about $$$ Heya people. I haven't been posting at all recently because I've tried to recover (yeah, no...). Now I'm back, and I'd like to reconnect. Find the flow. And then I got curious about people's money situation.

Care to share? I know it's a bit of stigma to talk about money, but wth, we're anonymous anyways. And EDs can be effing expensive. Also, I just got hired longterm and feel like my new salary is big and grownup and would like some perspective:3

I'll start. My monthly salary is 3100 € before taxes. That should be around 3450 in USD. And I work as a translator in a Nordic country.",1.779005376344088,3.8595336209677455,3.2851612903225837,89.91440860215056,79.7258064516129,6.713978494623658,23.23655913978495,7.793537801064563,1.1112010752688168,475,16,101,8,12,156,88,124,0.04,0.8420000000000001,0.11800000000000001,0.7184,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,0,0,4,1,10,0,0,0,1,17,17,11,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,0,3,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,7,5,13,9,3,14,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,10,53,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16244482875204824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808308155875559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619620185268435,0.0,0.12382756607043552,0.0,0.17285062784822153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22176786329621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710692024345545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270979548085628,0.1451177573440996,0.0,0.0,0.18565924424159366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32492691726138345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163620097022438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077165417266018,0.0,0.2977205468706967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213826569308462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961864433496772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28165272333224484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454459463967932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056864244834288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228329218684376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437780890774511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32654010013252943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791349930074462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788273536154134,0.0,0.0,0.1442993593967101,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiny-monaco,2019/05/29,"Was I the only straight girl who had family thinking they were gay because they stumbled on your thinspo? Just chuckled at the memory of my brother trying to gently get me to confess that I was into girls. I wanted to HAVE their bodies, not *have* their bodies, tho.😂",3.1564705882352944,5.624924647058824,4.352705882352943,82.02317647058824,77.0392156862745,5.648627450980393,25.88627450980392,6.742157984588678,1.3796556862745095,211,8,35,2,5,69,41,51,0.0,0.861,0.139,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,2,0,0,6,9,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,10,1,7,5,0,4,1,0,0,1,10,4,0,0,0,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21202165704973744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7726766731755687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32788417344669896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18171629194053407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645250647653969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228625087158849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361400581405196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514726169240766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CalmConcern,2019/05/29,"Some bulimia prevention stories? Hi guys, so I’ve been going through a slump in my ED recovery(3 months now!) and even though I know I shouldn’t, I’m so tempted to start purging. I’ve sat by the toilet just talking myself out of it almost every other day now. 

I was wondering if anyone with experience can share some prevention methods or warning stories to help me reinforce my refusal to start purging? I don’t mean to make anyone feel bad about their EDs, i just feel like hearing from experienced members might help me in my recovery, a bit like a therapy group? 

Much love 💕",6.1023552123552145,6.806224846846849,6.752844272844275,74.89135135135137,66.29729729729729,9.946460746460748,35.676962676962674,9.957137785484203,3.674512483912484,462,22,82,10,7,152,81,111,0.052000000000000005,0.7909999999999999,0.157,0.8941,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,0,4,0,6,1,0,1,0,21,19,6,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,3,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,4,12,4,13,14,4,10,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,7,8,51,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987834356150263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776116836533777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657511814852262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167262439083748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280253262590443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311168489686335,0.0,0.1672568928337995,0.0,0.0,0.19418511589026488,0.0,0.0,0.20074962942156616,0.14181868376296508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282027387008155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19656040642834285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22374008813474752,0.0,0.2661199544516286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090982893592711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19396815781028467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916694186438886,0.0,0.13250986306716656,0.0,0.0,0.21624031212597744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21059234318786146,0.0,0.0,0.15845225180595798,0.0,0.1459308808430919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810189424105998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955830645457894,0.0,0.0,0.2270184478490553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503933059018125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21528033307092515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,a_sandwitch,2019/05/29,"Trick yourself into health Idk if I have an actual eating disorder. But part of the reason I picked my career, a somewhat physically demanding medical job, was because I’d feel too guilty not eating and getting too weak to do my work. Patients would suffer! They might even die! So I carry peanuts with me and always eat lunch, ususally.",5.205322580645159,7.324091467741938,5.804064516129035,75.53609677419358,69.80645161290322,8.185806451612903,30.14193548387097,8.841846274778883,2.791989677419355,269,11,43,5,5,87,55,62,0.29600000000000004,0.7040000000000001,0.0,-0.9559,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,3,0,5,7,0,2,0,13,7,5,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,7,0,4,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,30,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.2065822690830541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761459079819048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904636164671465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197043779832906,0.0,0.24261903282159364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6498457429829289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982152654022575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703856849405698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106010897809233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22502023706178784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21007308330375807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132588785935131,0.0,0.22457329575738955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22924337589786675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21765612307267052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154115352133431,0.0,0.0,0.1503809523923368,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,u2b52,2019/05/29,"White Monster and acne coming back? Anyone else? Tl;Dr. I've read that B vitamins are terrible for people with acne and Monster has a lot of them. Anyone else see a change in skin with increase in Monster consumption???

I'm no stranger to acne. Got a face full of it when I was 9, and I'm STILL fighting it even though I'm pushing 40. I've been on accutane 3x in my life, fun!

Point of this post though... I'm curious if anyone started drinking Monster and noticed an uptick in clogged pores? After 29 straight years of acne (comedonal lately), I finally reached a point where for 6 months now I've had no real yucky clogged pores ""en masse"". I've got plenty of problem areas and specific pores I need to keep on top of, but overall my skin has been pretty clog free and I've actually finally had entire swaths of my face look, dare I say, normal.

I discovered White Monster about 30 days ago and I've been having at least one every other day since then. I've noticed more and more pores clogging in these past 30 days and this morning I realized my chin and nose area are practically at pre-accutane status. I've got tons of hard clogs, despite the fact I use Tazorac, which is the strongest retinoid out there.

Anyone else?",4.194416666666665,5.646550275000003,4.900833333333335,83.6741666666667,71.25,7.5,29.583333333333336,7.984000788550335,2.003083333333334,966,39,184,13,18,311,143,240,0.053,0.847,0.1,0.9186,0,0,1,0,2,0,34.0,0,0,1,1,11,5,1,0,7,0,12,8,5,1,1,25,26,16,0,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,14,1,1,1,2,1,3,2,3,0,1,9,9,12,3,26,17,7,40,0,0,4,0,3,19,0,2,17,96,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.11270187261026167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237518219743144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230140107006567,0.3550003794686518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880491150446354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217342337585912,0.09948466678653572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22344506665916133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313652586793027,0.0,0.0,0.2894319774559661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076280253587366,0.0,0.09730555836229147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530279559042055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771044281860629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345662372171664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265308463087183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13027808820960005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157421397213634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698276458265193,0.0,0.0,0.09818572264027377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218325519811044,0.0,0.0,0.08563459368741308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315597257176888,0.0,0.2629729428305189,0.0,0.0,0.07825921583576312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024855884733878,0.080066432070164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218351325532624,0.0,0.11060778242829944,0.11749515407679476,0.0,0.11050861929061312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115521552788835,0.13145324484525425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184252158261656,0.0,0.0,0.0920308161009906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553476916839734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174462839273251,0.0,0.09223070234452901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269372657130931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974653793060764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437196636280226
EDAnonymous,Noodle-The-Noodle,2019/05/29,"Are fast metabolisms real? I’m aware that my ED can make me irrational regarding these things so I’m looking for an outside perspective if any of you are knowledgeable about this. It’s my belief that (non disordered) naturally skinny people do not think about food often, often forget to eat, and do not realize how many calories they are actually eating. 

Outside of this sub, these thin people will often defend themselves by saying that no matter how much they eat, they cannot gain. I see these discussions a lot in a reality show sub I frequent. When a contestant is very thin or shows signs of disordered eating, people will comment their concern or disdain. There are generally several people that defend them by saying they have been skinny all their life, have been ridiculed for it, but still can’t gain weight. Personally I agree that the person in question shouldn’t be judged or put down (this sub is REALLY bad about it for certain women in particular), but I also think there’s a good chance they do have an ED. 

Honestly, my first instinct is that they either are lying or simply don’t think about food and therefore don’t eat as much as they should. But I also can’t trust myself do my ED. 

So are “fast metabolisms” real? Could a woman A eat 2200 calories everyday and weigh 110 pounds, while woman B eats the same amount and weighs 130? Assuming they have the same activity level

Also excluding people with medical conditions that result in weight loss",7.547237084870851,8.054648767527677,7.561750461254611,71.01613122693729,63.169741697416974,10.612638376383764,31.69764760147601,10.411451182825502,3.3507138376383763,1180,40,197,26,16,380,149,271,0.10099999999999999,0.8220000000000001,0.077,-0.6938,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,11,4,18,7,1,0,11,0,31,17,2,5,2,46,39,23,0,4,11,0,4,0,0,4,2,2,0,5,17,5,15,0,8,2,0,1,9,3,0,1,2,8,23,4,21,31,8,17,1,1,2,0,22,8,0,11,8,141,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0899616870441706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22116689507074674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269065096603929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07697269920599624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360420531755597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113096888569899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6603156816844908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841462755003556,0.22294694530426268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773224885167836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651147468828069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774142692928831,0.0,0.0,0.07837450299442307,0.0,0.0,0.061535862008958775,0.09346364027650587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928691924073466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553681723834454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31955597266551544,0.16098911193080645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267388466461207,0.10327108116937067,0.0,0.0,0.20985908041838056,0.05905766341343498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662237623211485,0.0,0.0,0.07346148990024051,0.0,0.0,0.10414561779685898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362104451339074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061245268651306126,0.17721005384237698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606432968540065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451904227625136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aygurlitsyaalt,2019/05/29,"Time frames for weightloss on some subreddits Whenever I see posts on weightloss subs where the poster looks like I want to, I always go to the comments to see what they did to lose and how long it took.

But some of them say they took years because they didn't pay attention to the numbers... or they don't ever answer a time frame or method...and it just makes me irrationally angry. 

Like how dare you not be as stupidly obsessive as me??? 

This dumb bitch juice sure is tasty...",5.311935483870967,5.999415838709678,4.919516129032259,87.39927419354841,68.03225806451613,8.350537634408601,27.32795698924731,8.344100000000001,1.5484279569892467,375,11,78,5,6,114,67,93,0.174,0.708,0.11800000000000001,-0.83,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,5,1,5,8,3,1,4,0,5,0,0,3,2,16,13,8,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,3,5,0,0,4,4,11,3,11,8,2,12,0,1,3,0,8,3,2,4,7,47,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406622231595924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14217497411844324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109700818807708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325501058081984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278890039815144,0.0,0.0,0.20640140068543292,0.19585463982006096,0.2609249522743492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568297937664025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22337007489952806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854740279072964,0.0,0.0,0.3717085694014129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21981671719149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719968275622016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5182547003754155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756522341840496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019261151585978
EDAnonymous,fluentsyntax,2019/05/29,"ugh i’ve been restricting and exercising heavily this week and every night i wake up in the middle of the night in complete agony. obviously i know why, but as soon as i’m able to fall asleep and wake up again, i feel a bit sore and then an hour later, i have no appetite in the a.m. it’s nice i guess, but i was so close to calling uber eats at three am this morning. 😭",0.5259999999999998,2.4079316000000013,2.6175000000000037,94.10750000000002,83.0,6.0,20.0,7.1686216300943375,0.24112500000000026,288,8,69,4,8,97,59,80,0.149,0.804,0.047,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,4,6,3,0,1,12,8,10,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,6,1,11,6,1,17,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,8,41,9,0,0.269072576638477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29375756450285656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27475318486546224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821174772854432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27532841994356066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267052508229881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605117947474255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964137786778036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649822874458217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14787525126470835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5050127713979716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158337907717615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24279614885417825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Raunchey,2019/05/29,"anyone ever wish for hyperthyroidism? lol ever since i heard about it in health class, i’ve been so envious of people who have it. i know it’s fucked up. tbh i don’t even know the full scope of what it does, all i know is it makes your metabolism really fast so that you can eat and eat and eat and still lose weight. one of my friends has hypothyroidism and i feel so bad for her. it’s so much harder for her to lose weight even though f*tlogic likes to go “MUH GEBETICS” it’s like....yeah, sometimes genetics really help or fuck you over, dawg. 

my mom even got my thyroid tested because i couldn’t magically lose weight when i was a teen, and it turned out i have a normal thyroid, i was just fat lol. 

what ended up being “the problem” was that my brain wasn’t making enough dopamine and norepinephrine (a neurotransmitter) because of my adhd. and that doesn’t just make it so you can pay attention, but it also raises your blood pressure? and one of the reasons i couldn’t restrict was because i would get TERRIBLE headaches and feel woozy if i didn’t eat every hour, which didn’t, like, help the weight loss thing. but then i eventually got out on straterra which doesn’t make you lose your appetite or any of the good stuff, but it DOES help you keep norepinephrine in your system which helped keep my blood pressure up so i wouldn’t pass out from not being a pig all day lol 

anyways! blood is weird, brain chemicals are weird, hormones are weird, neurotransmitters are weird and so many factors effects peoples’ appetite and metabolism and some of us just get a shit deal or the deal of the century",4.8481206293706265,6.0657679903846144,5.069114219114219,83.97891608391608,69.41666666666666,8.236829836829838,27.002331002331005,8.575989854853784,1.7058474358974358,1271,40,257,20,22,400,155,312,0.159,0.7490000000000001,0.091,-0.9615,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,9,0,6,21,22,4,2,12,3,27,20,7,6,4,53,48,30,0,8,11,1,6,2,1,2,4,1,0,0,22,15,9,3,8,0,1,2,10,18,0,2,11,7,32,4,25,31,6,23,0,5,0,2,22,11,3,5,11,167,54,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945608048662896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617957759872832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627660684472687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786459961830395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909742145347744,0.1513410321628977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184765109109582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05337047884650295,0.17063466148078216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448398661937021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387183205054323,0.0,0.0,0.07329684768610392,0.08550859756045599,0.0,0.16397776640243994,0.14971425243342726,0.06972511394234772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368737783029169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063936727006303,0.15301233144287735,0.08647271090375289,0.0,0.04703188201884771,0.0694114229069371,0.1323743347203607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796527206684945,0.0,0.0,0.22187718344032906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149753972522622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471138574791782,0.0,0.0,0.1364408460711257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129053405842367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703291369347707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22095986943925824,0.08390113130213374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692229142387213,0.0,0.0,0.06083484585955171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108286118094231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215459492809322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474454682771447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918587798408347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106030639461266,0.08508648081214946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494737535282172,0.06845624009392436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184734778440927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608868330020444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473529730179528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054979105367024494,0.0,0.08130690053026911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001426660569391,0.0,0.0,0.09954472844731883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4030958261441541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516478999485134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587871631618249,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idontwanttoworkout,2019/05/29,"Hello can I disappear now Holy heck I want to die. Let me paint the picture for you. 
I have this guy over at my house, he is absolutely shredded and in literally such great shape. We’re kind of wrestling, playing around and things started getting heavy. He’s kissing my neck and body and eventually gets to my stomach and starts SUCKING ON MY FAT!!!!!! I want to die. I’ve gained 17lbs recently from nonstop binging and cannot even articulate how gross I feel. He did it one more time and I smacked him away and told him not to suck on my fat and he said he likes it and I just kind of hid my face and he said what you don’t believe me and I couldn’t even say anything I was mortified.",1.1746808510638296,3.4033870354609945,2.470326241134753,94.09400000000002,82.90070921985816,5.745815602836879,24.293617021276606,7.0316486544052195,0.7828502127659576,536,21,121,7,15,172,93,141,0.09699999999999999,0.76,0.142,0.6889,0,0,0,0,0,2,15.0,0,2,0,1,7,9,2,0,1,0,9,7,6,1,0,20,21,13,2,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,13,2,0,1,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,5,4,21,6,15,14,1,14,0,0,0,1,16,8,3,0,6,72,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506107407577756,0.15692403579038194,0.0,0.0,0.165618184443026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986039827175189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19580417401796035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658957007721718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328587891879044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913102321466197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18419506986171488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194346179400718,0.0,0.17454209204697954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20340016285283227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671310494453969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802553282871039,0.0,0.08612011103835403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944995844461202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740524186860882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353598720638148,0.1401826643588545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495397471161471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711070519444253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278862333189599,0.0,0.0,0.16844037033395884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20794565966456224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gwiyeoun_As_Hell,2019/05/29,Stuck My girlfriend who knows about my ed is encouraging me to attend a treatment center rather than start my first year of college. It's honestly frustrating because I can barely afford either..,9.234705882352939,10.128654823529416,8.392941176470586,65.16823529411766,59.58823529411765,10.329411764705883,37.588235294117645,10.125756701596842,4.2291647058823525,160,7,22,3,2,50,32,34,0.128,0.705,0.16699999999999998,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,5,2,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,17,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008354718446598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5593104312924981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613714676858928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654162235854801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234396853442559
EDAnonymous,dahliadame93,2019/05/29,"i literally can’t even function normally for a birthday party so my friends kinda know me as a really good baker (thanks, food fixation) and so for my birthday party i decided to make two cakes (i’m supposed to be ‘recovered’ and thought it would be a good idea). fast forward to t-minus 3 hours until the party starts and i’m having a fucking breakdown over frosting and how mine is always messed up and how all my friends will hate me. i hate my fucking brain. apparently i can’t have a normal interaction food, coolcool",4.235470297029703,6.015432881188122,5.690185643564359,76.75329826732674,71.67326732673267,8.218316831683168,32.426980198019805,8.841846274778883,2.9734247524752475,415,20,73,8,8,140,67,101,0.092,0.71,0.198,0.8871,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,10,4,0,6,0,9,5,1,3,1,17,20,11,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,1,0,11,5,9,15,1,7,0,0,0,2,3,3,2,1,5,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148437435260264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914581216263036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782702778391055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314275371464104,0.0,0.2756522914537713,0.3298432822402301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29925550889518937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522527092170035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17568136988689406,0.0,0.0,0.2013842115255928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980402387078958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907884791368276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495749239705595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428325353957094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626762691322782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424049297800278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162427606973968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426423729490875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672541270392418,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toastedfingies,2019/05/29,"Any other baristas here with EDs? Hello friends, working at Starfucks has brought me in the path of many people with disordered eating habits - just seeing if anyone here works for the siren or at any other coffee shop so we can talk about our hellish existence :,)",7.548226950354607,8.70742410638298,6.0859574468085125,79.33333333333334,63.255319148936174,7.9687943262411345,32.687943262411345,7.793537801064563,2.409998581560284,211,8,34,2,3,62,41,47,0.079,0.863,0.057999999999999996,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,8,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,0,23,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42573485961982893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188740453331414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587532564088958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203022639338384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24184199281668556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173577651493188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21701181127809616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24944004096467834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515972781882148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557712047358484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kmthyn95,2019/05/29,"Will it ever end? Am I the only one who goes through these phases where I feel so tired of feeling so empty and sad, and I just wonder why I can’t be normal and eat properly like everyone else? Sometimes I tell myself I’m tired, I want to treat myself better, I want to do things normal people do. I want to go out with my friends when they invite me to eat with them and not care about gaining weight. I want to eat and not worry about all the calories. I want to live my life and not have my whole life fixated on food and weight and my body and everything. I want to stop thinking about food and calories for once. I want to believe I’m not as hideous as I am. I want to feel normal. 

So I try. For a day, I try. Try to eat normal, try to be normal, try to function normal. 

I don’t even last a day. I realize how much I hate myself and my body and how I’m probably gaining so much weight despite eating how “normal” people do. I’m reminded of how disgusting I am, how much of an ugly and monstrous sight I must be. I just want to love myself but I can’t. My brain won’t leave me alone and I’m tired. I’m tired of feeling so worthless, so empty, and so hollow. I feel like I’m being eaten alive by something I can’t name. I know it’s there but acknowledging it is hard and accepting it is even harder. Everyday, I see myself and it’s as if I’m being reminded that I can never accept myself for who I am, for what I see. I’m just too worthless and ugly. My brain constantly reminds me of that, like a ringing in my head. I want it to go away, but it’s just a never ending cycle. I want to get better but at the same time, I don’t. 

I don’t think it’ll ever go away.",1.7014404104183145,2.717553157458564,3.9576677190213085,89.71526243093923,76.81767955801105,6.607892659826362,22.04459352801895,7.021680442328713,0.5171820047355964,1281,33,293,13,28,445,145,362,0.161,0.7090000000000001,0.13,-0.9698,0,1,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,2,4,27,16,2,0,8,0,26,23,5,5,6,79,65,39,0,20,13,0,9,3,1,4,6,1,0,0,15,21,11,1,13,0,0,3,13,5,0,1,1,13,53,11,40,55,6,24,0,3,3,1,8,7,0,2,17,201,68,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594903738168655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965122391930892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174094344566115,0.0,0.1126323327018462,0.0,0.141459158899413,0.0,0.14216674516917965,0.0,0.0,0.06492183232023341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881103562489373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08213138619400069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257817546525279,0.05319305069641513,0.0,0.11279590954062987,0.0,0.0,0.08411467382159896,0.11519700919979305,0.0,0.0608450591813274,0.057227800561588237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098226249550754,0.04549008163468003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539943222164577,0.0,0.04919584882157326,0.0,0.03326803397672561,0.0,0.10856545834908968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05704110664150576,0.06286677661279504,0.06534985244755476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034994613949824366,0.051904363999998614,0.0,0.06742359284712993,0.0,0.0,0.08995235434896386,0.09332649724841026,0.0,0.0562269936529508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746999334212844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042735780149554,0.0,0.09822157200012263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367220934220653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678127642156298,0.0431484434305132,0.048428397632010935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882897145842277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865339896580981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148290958425073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049020825156580836,0.06297710152807139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053235910583109634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05565555051052088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042303444086445735,0.08160190187597086,0.0,0.0,0.03712993421586828,0.2927443580876323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21615880980158853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41313470571441696,0.0,0.0,0.23262030587255475,0.0,0.0,0.057457603114712874,0.0710918776537243,0.0,0.0,0.06905380635252302,0.0,0.06466597581222648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beachedlandwhale,2019/05/29,"Anyone ever go to an EDA meeting? So I saw a post on here for  an EDA meetup, and realized there’s actually meetings across the US! Here’s the [link](http://www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org/meetings.html).

Has anyone gone to one of these meetings? I’m thinking of attending one of them in Manhattan NYC, possibly this Saturday. Pm me if you’d like to come with! :)",5.650476190476191,8.634002539682541,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,71.22222222222223,8.644444444444442,29.54761904761905,9.2995712137729,3.0615523809523815,292,12,47,7,6,90,50,63,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.7539,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,1,5,1,11,5,0,10,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,3,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.295412674598112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233400502746208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607679075443913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738290749874373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204369709378292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478945132972295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102640661871079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412731898451441,0.2899236727991589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939718180457142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641368870038041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,martpogboi,2019/05/29,"I got fired from my therapist and other options seem nonexistent, help? So a few months back I did the big thing and came clean to my mom about my eating disorder (to which she replied it was no secret and promptly found me a local therapist) 


I tried my best, sincerely, I did. The therapist had me keep food logs and I did, she asked me to buy ensures, and though I couldn’t drink them, I bought them, and I even told her I wouldn’t be able to, that it wasn’t good advice to stuff me with ensure to put weight on without acknowledging the other issues first.
 A few weeks go by and surprise surprise I make no progress pretending to live off ensures and my last meeting she suggests I try local AA meetings (even though I’ve literally only drank once in my life ??) and tells me “between the childhood trauma, severe unchecked depression and anxiety, with a full blown eating disorder on top, you really should be inpatient, there’s not much more I can offer you” and sends me on my way with ZERO direction to where I could find this inpatient if I wanted to.  

Now fastfoward a couple months and I still haven’t been able to find another solution and have dropped down to a ~15 bmi and am feeling very defeated with myself and my options. I’ve been doing more research on my own and I’m struggling. I knew my local rural area didn’t have many options but I didn’t realize statewide was also null of choices. 


I guess maybe I’m asking if anyone’s been in a similar situation and was able to get help? Or specifically anyone who’s done inpatient or any other more intensive than just therapy treatment in the state of Michigan and where?",6.6910129688047695,6.632114801261827,6.9124027339642495,76.87139414651246,65.02523659305993,10.325201542236245,33.69943918682089,9.994966539143718,3.2263285664213104,1300,51,244,26,18,420,179,317,0.068,0.8420000000000001,0.09,0.6612,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,2,5,14,9,0,1,12,0,26,7,0,1,0,51,45,27,0,7,8,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,11,23,6,1,9,2,2,4,10,4,1,2,21,3,43,5,33,18,9,34,0,2,0,0,22,18,0,9,9,175,54,1,0.3074480150159914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014488066800628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195535551012664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969173101751318,0.10746201687684144,0.07839896332167014,0.0,0.0,0.14331653374772715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161492773910535,0.0,0.0,0.07880284863796774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107549241241371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172128746975152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818240742391992,0.11339512695349653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826817494176127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349080408367969,0.0,0.0,0.1048753543440732,0.0,0.10039400267797034,0.0,0.2097307158949677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537767620451638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05181831805710736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18733461055613185,0.08717170817090368,0.12392245337935545,0.1123669598151942,0.0,0.0,0.05354296613233181,0.0,0.058243264025291425,0.0859576027410469,0.08196475450632162,0.0,0.11289621684527125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738394915946972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696528339156616,0.0,0.09109130737639996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353705559265755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723865417745994,0.0,0.0,0.09049407665595673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684079791320455,0.1039013437840424,0.10295761830182164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002646645257785,0.1636013815737372,0.0,0.07533655548625197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914070065809876,0.0,0.07794268985260529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302339093420697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565302369186696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329637531021984,0.0,0.11577624845662032,0.0,0.0,0.11519481681494607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184279397952067,0.0,0.0,0.10713713980517048,0.1173181403000578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957437214792703,0.0,0.11719786651032728,0.3569708419872531,0.06808493329020257,0.0,0.201377409169585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792658458100403,0.0,0.13915801385207974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455893698302905,0.06044693498660938,0.08134597459751437,0.08220541755581473,0.1247962851039984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878963838913823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snow-white-waif,2019/05/29,"a youtuber i have a crush on triggers me every time i watch her sigh she's 5'6 and looks like she weighs 110 lbs max. 

in a recent video of her she was admiring how flat her tummy was in the mirror and her brother said ""it's because you never eat anything""

and my friend asked me before if i think she has an ED, and i was like ""nah i think she's just naturally skinny, good genes and fast metabolism"" but now i am pretty sure she has an ED

one time she was in the car on her way to the gym and her brother said ""we are gonna get big and strong"" and she said ""i don't want to be big and strong, i want to be small and weak"" 

:)))))))))))))

i love her but she's basically me once i'm underweight and its really triggering lol",2.972129032258064,3.078457600000004,4.615000000000002,89.58250000000002,73.0,8.006451612903223,23.241935483870968,7.908726449838941,0.7676322580645158,548,12,134,7,10,186,91,155,0.054000000000000006,0.727,0.21899999999999997,0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,1,0,2,3,11,0,0,8,1,12,5,1,3,2,25,25,15,0,3,4,2,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,12,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,1,1,7,5,31,9,9,15,0,16,0,0,2,1,26,8,0,1,8,81,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803117003086886,0.0,0.1795299007022122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706477402637752,0.0,0.16341046126885536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650313805453634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180056243118618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483683253380239,0.0,0.10033209318772378,0.0,0.0,0.16107262692718646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18764044037713334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126381801520415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17332207642730738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811178685604695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20451453738924455,0.13013013183178115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953720047706078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302466163021596,0.0,0.18961466780052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5480172399932962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809938386470492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461007954074847,0.0,0.0,0.22395817092208065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22653834675500265,0.1524310753272903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obscenethoughts111,2019/05/29,"Competitiveness Why do I have to compete with my best friends? Why do I have to compete with my best friend who is relapsing with her ED and is getting skinnier again? Why do I have to compete with my other friend who is 2 sizes bigger than me because she's lost some weight and will probably over take my progress? I hate being so competitive. I hate feeling like I need to win. I'm not even skinny enough too, only 'healthy' range, so it means they can overtake me at any moment. And then I KEEP FUCKING BINGING.",3.769133663366336,5.433269415841585,4.288205445544556,86.80478341584158,72.66336633663366,6.6341584158415845,29.45668316831682,7.1686216300943375,1.5628306930693068,405,17,81,4,8,128,67,101,0.08199999999999999,0.655,0.263,0.9666,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,9,5,11,3,0,0,0,12,3,1,0,0,13,23,6,0,1,1,0,2,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,4,7,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,16,7,11,20,4,6,0,1,0,1,8,3,1,1,4,57,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841134781344476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614532160957016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654680526877373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991824408865836,0.0,0.1150082862714414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804311204475508,0.1243953306470319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035869135013069,0.16097626895149544,0.09097341525446974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34382587071462994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477079307755712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506895031593527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900786114996889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18967377507950686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911189203455622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243033029747847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773679794594586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092074649699526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120380152067382,0.0,0.0,0.4713636872564987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eatingshouldbeeasy,2019/05/29,"School holidays are coming soon (next week) Can't wait to be alone to restrict and exercise more, been binging and purging through the term. Especially through the exam season.

I teach.",4.500937499999999,7.878842218750003,4.123750000000001,79.74625000000002,79.9375,6.95,33.0,8.07648339933343,3.1688500000000013,149,8,23,3,4,45,28,32,0.135,0.789,0.076,-0.25,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,15,1,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4821931044746275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40104981998732997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4951420501925855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4711846203050051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734544893348616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chzkayla,2019/05/29,"I can feel the fat rolls again and I haven't felt them in 14 months, I never knew this day would come back. gsus, give me back the ability to eat 700cal I rather faint every other day, than to feel my fat rolls",1.2556666666666665,2.8673425111111115,2.1708333333333343,99.53625000000004,79.44444444444444,5.388888888888888,13.472222222222221,5.985473137389443,-1.1824444444444446,163,1,40,1,4,51,35,45,0.0,0.9440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,2,0,1,9,9,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,7,0,4,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609909093516036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582150369361117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866383165986607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30672734269913504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525591044147579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30313337620522585,0.0,0.287814757799338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28755525724989706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392640334911653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311919048955218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21293953411838368,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CoffeeBonez,2019/05/29,"How do you stop panicking about your size I feel so enormous lately, I've been bingeing these past months and avoiding the scale and stupidly assuming I was eating at maintenance but nope, put on over a stone / 14+pounds so I'm back to strict calorie counting

And these past few days I've been good and at 1200 (and I purged the other day for the first time in a long time) so I know I'm on the right track but I still feel like a massive fucking troll, and I know I'm doing everything right to start losing but I can't lose fast enough, how do you calm down and just chill and accept you've gained a few but will lose it eventually?? I'm just freaking out and envision shaving off fat from my thighs or some drastic shit, I can't calm down",3.668367224880385,4.765067427631577,4.005669856459331,90.9555980861244,72.09210526315789,7.10622009569378,25.660287081339717,7.348242739294969,0.9814526315789474,587,18,128,6,11,183,94,152,0.11900000000000001,0.72,0.161,0.8264,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,5,10,13,3,1,8,0,9,5,3,2,0,28,19,19,0,0,7,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,10,2,2,6,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,3,2,12,5,15,15,4,29,0,3,0,1,3,13,2,3,16,77,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277659982813817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143175906160153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17002211690148653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168664214928814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933297611272187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802994435504734,0.11870400762312487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133474244714833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361129840942667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936626802083482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826332585827412,0.0,0.1874345654119911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081176884005774,0.0,0.0,0.14704546748056158,0.0,0.5576681862202996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262651159358418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172350930050958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703566706724401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28379771996007075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055980392392475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760818037877442,0.0,0.1326947750705143,0.13891634634622896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937772734549877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alittlewiser,2019/05/29,Do y’all masturbate to curb cravings? I want to know if I’m crazy for doing this or not.,-0.18049999999999847,1.5259539500000017,2.4700000000000024,95.165,84.5,6.0,20.0,7.1686216300943375,0.28200000000000003,69,2,17,1,2,24,18,20,0.128,0.802,0.07,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6817012600483475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7316306390853894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ladylochness,2019/05/29,"immediately bled after 24 hours fast my body is so fucking useless. ive finally worked up the ability to fast for 24 hours and my body immediately rewarded me with irregular and painful spotting...it’s not even the time of the month yet...

every time i fast for more than 20 hours this happens. or eat under 1000 calories a day. plus i get super cold and faint.

I GUESS I’M DESTINED TO BE FAT LULZ WHY AM I SO WEAK -_-",1.6238821954484592,4.014449674698795,3.6452208835341366,85.35396251673363,82.3734939759036,6.5804551539491305,24.88487282463186,7.793537801064563,1.457557965194109,325,13,67,6,9,110,63,83,0.11699999999999999,0.741,0.141,0.2966,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,4,6,1,0,4,0,4,8,3,0,0,8,9,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,8,2,11,8,1,15,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,13,37,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436922974444311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880418530773272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436549504728874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191451570566726,0.0,0.16827442231992265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21878571906469432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18463979637713127,0.10434651627674872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200163304272926,0.0,0.17661352954732906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5900578991852256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941621709087686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21251831897611648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329190410062243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18021806527030784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145400014879977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,almondmilkicedchai,2019/05/29,"""I just care about your health!!1"" In high school I had a friend who was about 5'7 and very thin. She smoked a lot of weed, only ate a tofu and hummus sandwich a day, drank, and did cocaine on more than one occasion. No one ever told her she was unhealthy because of her weight or eating habits but because I was 5'1 and chubby because I was struggling with recovery everyone thought they could tell me about why I should be more like my friend. 
""You should go with (friend) to a few dance classes! It'll help you keep your weight off and stay healthy!"" 
They never cared about my health, it was just because I was fat. I was eating regularly and trying to get better but I got so many unsolicited comments about how I should ""get healthy.""",5.585003885003887,6.144288370629373,5.0472261072261055,87.17630924630926,67.3916083916084,7.754156954156954,29.175602175602172,7.3871296695380915,1.483160683760684,579,19,118,5,9,175,91,143,0.07,0.792,0.138,0.9054,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,4,2,1,10,8,0,1,5,0,15,9,1,1,2,23,26,11,0,4,5,0,3,1,3,4,2,0,0,0,3,8,8,1,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,2,14,3,22,7,15,6,4,11,0,0,0,0,18,5,0,2,4,81,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34275975386207963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432240973204285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866402016066472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223340702720844,0.0,0.0,0.0906557788632556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28767563852095585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271532732572787,0.0,0.13432030033037556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258112299157424,0.0,0.14688365416287644,0.0,0.07988895711590119,0.0,0.11242637011084188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298837875338304,0.0,0.0,0.0942208563212397,0.14851952624887052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494474117152085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867521815715738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950726805863884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251553611836465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841596037124814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050723126433855,0.10690953385491712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226396479817288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982851649139256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695389262007874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286404779962384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159658019130957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432030033037556,0.0,0.09543754790369646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598466197687653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34235186628853154,0.0,0.0,0.12684222203863402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HipHopSpaceBop,2019/05/29,"I’m sick of living like this It’s ruining my life. It’s ruining my relationship with my boyfriend, my friends, my family. I think about food all the time and it consumes my thoughts, making me worse at my job and staying present day to day. It makes me lethargic and lazy and depressed. Fuck this. I’ve tried almost every form of treatment and I can’t escape. Anyone who’s come close to being fully recovered or got there, how? I need guidance because I’m done with it ruining everything I care about.",2.200974025974024,4.8175681326530615,3.2967903525046403,87.2943135435993,81.95918367346941,6.420779220779222,26.25602968460111,7.686295010490155,1.7107224489795922,399,17,76,7,11,128,66,98,0.22,0.6829999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.9081,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,3,1,18,14,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,8,9,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,3,0,13,3,9,10,2,8,0,4,0,1,3,2,1,2,5,44,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085232264572582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560691085383914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694174748194084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212315522347848,0.0,0.0,0.17938113553266435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26859636485486976,0.0,0.17935762111857434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21310278683717374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754519778421786,0.0,0.1871535342551526,0.0,0.19631103033607436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25180577774450963,0.0,0.1608864378376888,0.19251539845523746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665493071939169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20664700618606927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470867381392965,0.10173600725691892,0.0,0.18388056992277546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780048961190844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440802238888815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235728433413827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219571404371736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343238939957494,0.0,0.1653200498935313,0.12142696988123095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138193261932994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21221531386534884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Scarlet_Flames2,2019/05/29,"What percentage of ED specialists do you think had ED’s themselves? What the title says

I imagine many people are inspired to go into the profession due to their own struggles",7.7650000000000015,8.809320500000002,7.243750000000002,71.62625000000001,62.75,10.15,37.875,10.125756701596842,4.203325,144,7,22,3,2,45,28,32,0.07400000000000001,0.831,0.095,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853275243705273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5090015763505031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480594022183671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992516256033479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248533951578344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216944274945717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nerdytrashkid,2019/05/29,"Help? Anyone else? So; after a long binge cycle I‘ve been trying to get back restricting more. I am seeing results, e. g. my collar bones and others are more visible, even though my scale says I technically gained weight. My problem is, that even though I seem to lose some weight and get skinner at some parts, my thighs just keep getting fatter?? My thigh gap is about to be completely gone. Why am i gaining so much fat in only one or so place? This is really really upsetting. Does anyone else get this??",2.8478125,5.432821489583333,3.641500000000004,86.05350000000004,78.89583333333334,6.756666666666668,20.016666666666666,7.908726449838941,0.9714741666666667,397,10,74,7,10,126,70,96,0.121,0.802,0.077,-0.6738,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,1,1,0,8,6,4,1,0,11,16,8,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,2,4,9,0,7,13,6,7,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,4,3,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201452837147084,0.32259347548603245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104727219728585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650532509847698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776045132405404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630106132958656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795058432784508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32898455361410506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551618740234214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399232955328108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931290771349494,0.0,0.17611418176247845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572277774177492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667275537729266,0.11972600175561693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047194073344102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644717660387809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15063093575342096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20169624745203185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251877460486778,0.0,0.0,0.12544440457614825,0.14331045047723245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30933128032113233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687873771272836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38339349790752336,0.0,0.0,0.14204824912147326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxiety-and-theatre,2019/05/29,My crush/Best friend invited me to his birthday dinner and I said yes and that’s slowly sinking in I oofed. I’m going but I’ll be so afraid of ordering the wrong thing or being judged for it.,1.156463414634146,3.1111040975609785,3.085548780487805,91.19710365853659,81.1951219512195,6.051219512195122,20.006097560975608,7.1686216300943375,0.4161170731707315,152,4,33,2,4,51,37,41,0.10300000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.099,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49129248157220506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361690011490621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26605931745842404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453159872649175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110167533283775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118463864944671,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychedelic_karma,2019/05/29,"rant on these korean daily vlogs ok so i've been watching lots of these daily korean vlogs lately (like ondo, lenny etc.) and they're quite addictive but i get soooooo angry when i see the amount these girls eat with (what they claim) as little to no exercise... like they walk a lot i guess but the amounts and types of food they're eating (lots of snacking, eating out) makes me highkey jealous
anyway my ed has turned me into a bitter mean piece of crap so what's new",2.4753763440860226,4.72886643010753,3.158279569892475,90.82408602150541,78.24731182795698,5.853763440860216,18.935483870967747,6.937597516519254,0.1987548387096778,370,8,74,4,9,116,68,93,0.195,0.7559999999999999,0.048,-0.9411,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,4,6,3,0,4,1,2,8,1,1,0,13,8,8,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,3,8,3,10,7,7,8,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,4,5,43,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884944050795134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599405605868594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20343088267525372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22056603303093056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529959514572772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20094074975689216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20576188859585373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782286946555486,0.18281871005161604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652251196173757,0.0,0.0,0.1217574069376162,0.0,0.0,0.1986935845409048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616883050994378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401121074438427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14535394854345215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840532522243226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psybeams,2019/05/29,"i’m binging after a 4 day fast and i’m kinda okay with it i took mad kratom pills but fuck it mannnnn i’m omw to get a big ass bag of peanut m&ms and when i get home im gonna put on american dad and smoke some more.

u know i purged like half this binge lmao but it’s cool and im chilling i expected this to happen anyways it’s all a never ending cycle of self hatred. as long as i’m under 100lbs tomorrow i won’t be that mad but idk i ate A LOT. 

also i have to see my bf and if i’m bloated i’m gonna be so uncomfortable the whole time but i can’t ditch him so whatever. life sucks honestly i’m tired and done with it and ik i’m rambling at this point but you’re the only people who understand me.",-2.626647677475898,-1.0432935092024531,0.7969215600350559,99.7176610429448,106.79141104294479,4.046362839614374,14.410385626643295,5.985473137389443,-0.7452154250657315,550,14,139,7,28,195,105,163,0.214,0.685,0.10099999999999999,-0.965,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,8,4,0,6,2,6,6,1,0,2,23,26,19,0,2,6,1,0,1,1,3,3,0,1,1,10,9,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,3,2,11,4,13,18,5,16,0,0,1,2,5,5,3,4,10,71,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831588910839026,0.0,0.21449953382744533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767374947535182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20259121402368704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534194129535774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18301932541642799,0.20686146099855868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506350023883593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985792382255923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276813921184089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087986890629854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983149300244707,0.09671774605111114,0.0,0.0,0.1751965027475099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16830632524394631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526860431528294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505644892479296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724690917125162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18714487312571124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990137146399774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775581266441396,0.0,0.20652503984988332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154374262700398,0.2275364605835252,0.0,0.0,0.21995105347325164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20609290775397685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22102552989558474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spud_simon_salem,2019/05/29,"Anyone else feel like restricting is way harder on you body as you get older? When I was a teenager, or even in my early 20's, I could restrict for months without feeling dizzy, lightheaded, weak, or dehydrated. I could work out for an hour every day without feeling like I was dying. But now just 2 days of restricting makes me feel like I've been hit by a bus. And the same deficit results in slower weight loss. I wish I was 22 again.",4.335172413793103,5.272590965517246,4.9845402298850585,85.15198275862069,70.3793103448276,7.639080459770115,28.29310344827586,7.793537801064563,1.6345724137931037,342,12,69,4,6,110,67,87,0.198,0.675,0.127,-0.6782,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,2,5,5,0,0,4,0,7,3,1,2,0,21,15,6,1,3,6,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,5,10,3,11,8,1,14,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,12,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609998189712388,0.1847826613975338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003203589836224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28797833747428525,0.0,0.0,0.2326125631484017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716750676245125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065339132288766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191148158014598,0.0,0.15194671118269906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647472513083592,0.38651111264134097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942217465556368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760147571746707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643193636515136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038031767296448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14394801992006653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431478372510267,0.0,0.2196091250733599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073854891376173,0.3476883311850629,0.0,0.1312918134695764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisismyedaccount,2019/05/29,"Me: food is not comfort. Eating and then purging will not make you feel better. Also me: Hummus Good

WHEN will my brain learn that eating only creates problems? 

The issue is that eating DOES comfort me, the same way that purging does, and so saying that food doesn’t help is untrue. It’s a nice blanket that I can put on at the end of a hard, lonely day. 

As much as I hate myself before and after the binge, I thrive during it. I love the drama of setting everything out while getting ready, turning the oven on and trimming my nails, picking out a good show to watch during. If it’s frantic and hurried, I love eating whatever I can see and pulling my hair back with whatever rubber band is within arm’s reach. No matter how I’m feeling, a good binge and a good purge makes me feel safe for just a minute. 

I really don’t have any other coping mechanism as effective as b/p. Does anyone else feel this way? I hate myself when I’m debating if I should engage or not, and I hate myself after for following through with it, but once the decision is made, I’m so calm. I don’t know that anything else will ever make me feel as at peace as this does.",4.5139798850574735,5.019959564655178,5.446310344827584,83.56305747126437,69.73275862068965,7.738390804597701,26.673563218390804,7.554174236665415,1.4063283908045978,897,26,178,9,15,295,128,232,0.079,0.75,0.171,0.9561,0,2,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,2,9,19,3,1,13,0,15,11,3,7,1,41,37,26,0,4,8,0,7,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,13,12,6,1,9,3,0,3,7,6,0,0,1,10,23,13,23,32,2,23,0,1,2,2,6,7,0,3,10,116,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239765687662781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006784735147344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204499632140407,0.10557230826175253,0.08478964800269312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922813637444094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087675839445076,0.0,0.0,0.09112675310241926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502197970720035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644953870814635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606691378131333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217252053202974,0.17214630581817786,0.0,0.09125909721572616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320174024340873,0.0,0.0,0.09260189374174012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604898706507302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491824903767356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383192988509023,0.0,0.0,0.3456860146604626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229979912373884,0.3051794325828722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906269537077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754255977231994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662575689987195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859875852149504,0.097494923662131,0.2063315017204453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574313613289373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972971745561612,0.0,0.07836333543477624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985913032441658,0.0,0.10357939348349923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600734369832778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193816875268603,0.0,0.0,0.0821061574768181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207331510559207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356997444426105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mgonzo11,2019/05/29,"So I work at Subway... today an older woman came in to get some sammiches. I ask her, “Anything else with the sandwiches?” she begins to ask for some raspberry cheesecake cookies, then very suddenly rolls her eyes and scoffs at her own damn self. she says, “You know what, I don’t need it. Look at me, a fatass. I do not need that shit”


....me too bitch. strong woman",0.4292957746478905,2.8888590422535247,1.970549295774649,93.58061267605636,92.38028169014083,5.093521126760563,16.959154929577466,6.742157984588678,0.05578197183098599,276,7,57,4,10,89,56,71,0.08800000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.084,-0.0711,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,2,4,3,0,3,0,2,3,2,0,0,9,11,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,3,12,1,8,10,3,10,0,0,2,0,12,4,3,2,5,36,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157949506560416,0.0,0.4903038565841202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29992404654271776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190615508185245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370056242349722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411608850741722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22020920078234088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888840561799972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20853775784363046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735656208575548,0.0,0.26917782652355204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24856568669468845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636922238063988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19090833612089028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Turtle_data,2019/05/29,"I don't know if I'll ever be happy. I've lost 39kg and most of that was last year. I'm now considered underweight but I don't know if I'll ever be happy because I HATE the sight of my stomach. I thought that by now it would look great (aka tiny?) but instead I've got loose skin. The physical symptoms of restriction and a hatred of exercise/leaving the house means I've barely exercised at all so I've left myself in horrible physical condition. I'm scared of gaining muscle because scale weight. I'm scared I'll never be happy with how i look because of the loose skin and I just want to keep losing to compensate. I'm 23 and considering plastic surgery to fix it but that's so expensive and probably disordered but what if it would really help? I'm so stuck because I hate myself and how I look just that much (I know people on here will be able to relate and I'm sorry about that) :( 
I'm sure stretching my skin with insane binges while b/p for the past three years hasn't helped either. Eating disorders are the fucking worst.",2.1939099526066386,4.301053450236966,3.8477227488151686,86.26703436018957,78.478672985782,7.253175355450237,24.29407582938389,8.238735603445708,1.5817562085308057,822,29,165,16,20,274,117,211,0.247,0.632,0.121,-0.9867,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,14,13,3,2,7,0,12,9,4,2,5,37,35,20,0,6,10,0,4,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,9,9,2,2,5,1,1,0,4,8,0,1,5,8,13,5,18,23,5,15,0,2,4,1,2,5,1,4,10,94,22,0,0.11920317573855545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906605981053893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732343333504235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197460788598938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21565219393225524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020141515591084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533766905546376,0.13142192207593556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806819914432151,0.0,0.2353769146642498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597987520048998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375444602775596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595325965151213,0.0,0.0,0.19653284386064124,0.09716649806285227,0.0,0.1262189515273006,0.12951459922372546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003019366002637,0.1333578626599593,0.13012434761081418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984720398771182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762804986102803,0.0,0.0919368377722582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379291936293265,0.08264047297755514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852118480094973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636460674988033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386863481528709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343819593157366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234758242195007,0.12389774167317022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463400641247406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030912149838782,0.0,0.0,0.14515735452704456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935703187695209,0.0,0.0,0.1535258738919902
EDAnonymous,bl3rb,2019/05/29,"Meds and Restriction? Hey party people. How do you take certain meds when you can’t eat? My Zoloft and Concerta tear my my stomach apart in the morning, and The Zoloft helps me eat, blah blah. 


Tips?",1.5818421052631564,4.289735605263161,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,87.68421052631578,5.145263157894737,20.757894736842104,6.742157984588678,0.4530884210526316,155,5,31,2,5,47,28,38,0.11199999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.6174,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,1,1,1,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6280247390507139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20569356866125765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6817436066124395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275026981545295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23073374371381955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BronArianwyn,2019/05/29,"The worst part is it works. Heavy restricting. 
God its like the results are instant after only two weeks and some panic and will power.
I about died at a party because big surprise i drank on an empty stomach hoping to counteract all the alcohol calories i knew I would be drinking. Been throwing up the whole next day.
I can't even cuddle my boyfriend for very long now because my face is so bony it HURTS HIM.

I cant lay on his chest. with out my bones stabbing him.
But I just cant seem to make myself stop.
I cannot give up my sense of control and zen.",2.325,4.143249394736846,3.3472280701754364,91.36926315789476,76.98245614035088,5.612631578947369,24.55789473684211,6.2581,0.6366063157894737,437,15,91,3,10,140,89,114,0.177,0.7240000000000001,0.099,-0.8884,1,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,1,6,0,11,8,4,3,1,18,17,5,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,3,2,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,3,0,16,3,13,11,5,15,1,1,0,1,4,7,0,3,8,63,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297253451057935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620735060134868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410943217436347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863049870573038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230930647321321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21057756929799573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197811239681568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20620785373110076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135023688534715,0.0,0.0,0.2301176019269475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501790245729582,0.0,0.0,0.19023157577177616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434865189350112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22861088466492654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634856837649597,0.0,0.2522075740056167,0.0,0.2327791906927084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569021468501152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17971499508745029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099832944507188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736333782232894,0.0,0.0,0.17242680389541587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399935739495035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649240377146126,0.0,0.0,0.15270040521948453,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Odinheim,2019/05/29,"I'm in need of a good bitch sesh; I feel fucking low, and am trying to prevent myself from being stupid. So, let me get the part I'll be judged on out of the way: I'm 345lbs, on a 5' 6"" frame. I haven't seen under 200 since I was 14 years old, or under 300 since I was 26.

I'm hurting right now. BED has destroyed my life, while SSRIs and other various medications have destroyed my body, namely, my fucking thyroid. I've already got PCOS, so why not hypothyroidism as well? Let's just stack *everything* against me so I can't lose weight.

Hunger out of whack? Check.

Mood swings and treatment resistant depression? Check.

An ugly body that was ruined the minute I hit over 200 for the first time as a child? Check!


I have 225lbs to lose to hit my goal of 125-130. Part of me just wants to say fuck it, stay fat, and die early -- food is great. But, the logical part of me is screaming to get healthy, because I kinda like being alive, and I love my super supportive, body positive Fiance. (Not a HAES advocate)

I've been on and off Keto for two years, going from 268 to 355 and back, and forth, and back and forth. I can't take this anymore. I'm starting to develop Orthorexia because of Keto, and Intermittent Fasting, and OMAD, and pretty much anything that fits in that group.


I binge on useless carbs, swell and bloat, and look fucking awful, so then I fast, and fast, and eat Keto, and my weight just *doesn't fucking move*. I feel like I'm falling apart, and I don't know what to do. I just want to lay in my bed, and never see the sun again, I feel so fucking low.

I was over on r/Instagramreality earlier to try and make myself feel better about my body dysmorphia, not that I think I'm fat, I think I'm a fucking Tess Holiday blue whale, but it just made me feel worse.


I could really use someone to talk to. Thanks for taking the time to read my screams into the abyss.",1.9337556390977468,3.863905465789472,3.3011278195488742,90.73289473684211,78.55263157894737,6.237593984962406,22.172932330827063,7.225922671290522,0.6397090225563913,1447,43,312,18,35,472,204,380,0.111,0.7909999999999999,0.098,-0.7832,0,0,0,0,0,0,70.0,0,0,0,6,16,32,11,0,14,1,23,22,6,3,1,55,66,33,1,4,11,0,7,2,0,0,5,3,2,1,9,24,7,1,9,2,3,3,9,21,1,2,8,14,36,10,45,50,5,44,0,8,4,8,6,21,8,2,20,179,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09000130767862022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088364462632834,0.0,0.0,0.06711530465186002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542617253466656,0.0,0.09943402901145096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213144458636554,0.0,0.3623703154012589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651174458182622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702458066613047,0.0,0.08464435267900279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834542196517344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329909318197257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061909376825349,0.058265068723155074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937321364749165,0.0986202864942463,0.0,0.0,0.5277935535947577,0.08522140283258736,0.0,0.046351304609428996,0.06840700113263645,0.06522940235131461,0.08991800951087997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730955163728797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482215712649685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679721076365775,0.05760684438908944,0.07969026185442109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06848819934256252,0.18248513449803735,0.0,0.0,0.07360930100080551,0.07717217440725692,0.05444061440457771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216112895561338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668327247289725,0.05995453191036958,0.06047424146261144,0.06290257608947157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558142677135222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649581770323212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297383116294517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158009487367564,0.0,0.052248158660035834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965010696794259,0.0,0.06485821427490025,0.0,0.0,0.0649911858659351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493128068904925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910384916605931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772718924478482,0.08693000206519286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255107925833372,0.0,0.0,0.12264296822488813,0.06555325041984376,0.0,0.0750876709381213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451817736723744,0.0,0.0,0.09511427946634014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074508952829272,0.0,0.07967033871504099,0.0,0.0,0.07043994675672433,0.0,0.0,0.09621007143603894,0.06473696332820518,0.0,0.19863140302263074,0.07333045840348587,0.0,0.07359343122379212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311459426916756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504138708920843
EDAnonymous,oldfl4mes,2019/05/29,"daes thighs swell the fuck up usually they stay pretty much the same throughout the day, but sometimes for short period of time they just go up by like 0.5inches and i usually notice when i think my thighs look big, so i grab my tape and my thoughts are confirmed lol

the weird thing is that within 2 hrs or so they're usually back down?? 

for weeks it doesn't even happen either?? just some days

.....and as i'm writing this post i realised that my thighs start doing this as i increase my intake and as i get used to that intake consistently it stops

lmfao what is this mess of a post but does this happen to anybody else omg i feel so alone w/ it",1.5852126499454755,3.928219587786263,2.471499454743729,94.00925572519085,82.12977099236642,5.269574700109051,19.280806979280268,6.5431188927421005,0.019285278080698458,510,13,108,5,14,160,86,131,0.096,0.778,0.126,0.7409,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,0,8,4,1,0,5,1,5,4,3,1,0,18,17,14,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,3,14,1,14,16,5,23,0,0,1,1,3,6,1,2,13,69,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509290543283454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999502015890688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21805660259610013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794362831888794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122610677950131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166108872613163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548070808177373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629122068448753,0.0883257278390646,0.0,0.09607944905484517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989945251669122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259310626233787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141965981649052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427694199393978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19247343657778512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323821299135602,0.17199256960037745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720249635289866,0.0,0.1196599876715322,0.1801931310270227,0.0,0.14133989861613466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11231449660200972,0.10832541804678736,0.0,0.13421301677064607,0.09857896822299507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460116674787608,0.5585798784381962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356079773389152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sofdesoft,2019/05/29,"mom figured out i relapsed and her response was ""just eat"" she literally said ""you better eat"" so yeah",0.7765789473684208,2.727562315789477,2.4098684210526318,86.24532894736844,110.05263157894736,4.0052631578947375,25.802631578947373,5.985473137389443,1.2586736842105264,80,4,14,1,4,26,18,19,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.659,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285357164332308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7602146886114443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43506208630439225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533537764161838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lameanonymous,2019/05/29,"starting to run again ever since I had my obsession with exercise, it’s always been so much more dreadful, and I’ve always enjoyed running so it was rly sad I couldn’t do it without being disordered, or without thinking disordered things, or remembering all the horrible runs I had while on NO FUEL (for 8 miles heh, yeah was not a good time)

and I’ve run three times in the past week and I actually feel really good about it so far, I don’t feel obligated to go everyday or to do multiple miles, and my mile time is still under 9 min despite not having run for so long, so I am actually really happy rn w my exercise schedule even tho it’s only been 4 days :)",4.292056384742949,5.0293228656716416,6.419651741293535,75.55561359867332,70.34328358208955,10.134660033167496,30.560530679933663,10.25414643259724,3.1795714759535656,520,21,102,14,9,184,87,134,0.155,0.7559999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.8079,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,2,3,2,14,2,0,0,2,19,19,14,0,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,2,0,6,7,3,0,1,6,2,9,5,12,11,3,28,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,3,15,69,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.3316596044787082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827952390644629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095925334017748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895151932534231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223894576183754,0.1537138560975007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184615818327334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657666958400606,0.2850629729319605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808965191731972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503850921440772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492008730200092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924147590895696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221999055908615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177264781564113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250062284620872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057008558290088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202792397902185,0.0,0.13570847383415507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289573508726596,0.10888601266106386,0.0,0.0,0.2972673720236427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13630976186114327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276181177239064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chubby_jones,2019/05/29,fitbit tells me i’ve been at a deficit for the past month so it makes perfect sense i’ve gained like 8 pounds. love my life. love agonizing everyday  for the past month over my food and exercise only to just be fucking wrong. guess the few nights where i let myself go a little bit added up more than i realized. god i am so frustrated. i would do anything to be at 115 again.,1.4273051948051965,3.651894766233767,2.7221915584415584,92.68900162337664,81.85714285714286,6.447402597402598,21.313311688311693,7.645422480735847,0.7463779220779228,295,9,65,5,8,95,59,77,0.14800000000000002,0.635,0.217,0.7462,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,2,0,5,0,7,6,0,1,1,7,13,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,4,9,8,3,14,0,0,0,3,3,6,1,1,8,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414189447858486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23102980732771225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558868444867126,0.0,0.0,0.1956355341289899,0.0,0.0,0.12026622002402294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331188246781172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163916444006053,0.1494706024041128,0.10338486313075834,0.2120947735487407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819833104838456,0.0,0.1412552886136465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378196617558602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858723207955525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094346434648854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040227347020661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496166603194428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032589800626886,0.2313688192719057,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,getfreefromfood,2019/05/26,"My eating disorder is ruining my relationship And I’m even in fucking recovery. 

I think it might be done for. And I have no one to talk to now who knows I’m back in IOP. 

I’m fucked 😅",-1.0173170731707302,0.9553531219512196,2.573853658536585,91.21443902439024,90.95121951219512,7.182439024390242,20.39512195121951,8.238735603445708,1.1740887804878053,142,5,35,4,5,52,31,41,0.267,0.733,0.0,-0.8834,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,5,12,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,4,0,5,9,0,4,0,1,0,2,3,2,2,1,2,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222438536535097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315400504372647,0.0,0.0,0.2960339726558518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29600575560702186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910667742025388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348695720781312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898077465145435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068804657918866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19602367871304596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31057856152244634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325123822857399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18535900398665384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cupidduffle,2019/05/26,"recovery struggles :/ im trying to gain weight, but how do i get over the feeling of ""guilt"" when it comes to eating in a surplus? my ed voice is telling me im gonna become a binge eater and it sucks :(",0.7038372093023249,2.368221186046512,2.5978488372093054,95.58421511627908,81.32558139534882,5.230232558139536,22.377906976744185,5.985473137389443,0.1428651162790695,153,5,36,1,4,51,37,43,0.222,0.695,0.083,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,5,7,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,5,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187500368455939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486142737137552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29532283029730444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593124602249116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507882165303032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6235024547291724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017206442290136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25226020892502543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594906894767228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514524991747901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sidehothrowaway,2019/05/26,"I can't handle this. Stopped purging and restricting and now I swell constantly I'm inanely uncomfortable. My hands and calves and feet are huge. I gained weight that puts my bmi on your borderline overweight zone and I literally physically feel like fucking garbage. My feet and hands swell to the point of pain. I have chankles. A friend asked what was going on with my weight and I  lost it today because I gained so much. Literally none of my clothes fit. Binge without purge of bad. I was on two year restrict cycle that just decided to fuck off and I have control anything. Work is a mess. I'm starting a potato and squash veg Mono tomorrow to try and restart my craving cycle. I just can't do this. 25lb gain in 3 months. I've never gained this month. I haven't purged via lax or vomit the whole time so that it a win but the weight is a major emotional setback. 


I'm in a horrible scale, clothing, body image, and self love place,. Hands and feet the size of 350lb make football players don't help either. I hate everything today. I threw away all of my clothes over my desired size. All of them. I'm wearing leggings all the time now and even those look horrible. This is horrible. I can't handle this.",1.5926079397276138,4.212248252100842,2.534219066937119,91.51088235294121,85.38655462184875,5.635699797160244,24.173283106345988,7.0983637204850245,1.0545460446247472,956,38,193,14,29,301,136,238,0.13699999999999998,0.726,0.13699999999999998,-0.249,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,8,7,11,3,0,11,0,14,19,9,2,4,32,30,17,0,1,6,0,7,1,1,0,4,0,0,1,12,14,4,4,2,0,0,3,8,7,0,1,4,8,24,4,19,26,8,29,0,1,1,3,7,12,2,1,15,111,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353935300446835,0.0,0.12898536894148155,0.0,0.12962941042069548,0.0,0.11520101212534956,0.08410656391377044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532559949332802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490989174420468,0.15474753850116096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520013859019566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112932754098953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400050418998967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976288279192328,0.09856735717588036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106596968572372,0.2551061252227351,0.0,0.0,0.07841277281785759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362189691074454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924798478806382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740624078696543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586188697394373,0.0,0.1506129393582047,0.0,0.12452528456951588,0.0,0.09209750546055503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202561649096193,0.0,0.1014254319204742,0.0,0.10641265548237384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681213356115128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415156838379806,0.0,0.1304283122281556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387001550040426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393508051048026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976574233197305,0.0,0.0,0.11535092539882855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090538228369886,0.0,0.26156299913995396,0.0,0.0,0.0936740574946925,0.0,0.13477877748263947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5040388575126794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404101828774214,0.0,0.13300026365970893,0.0,0.100445394576792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884956412449299
EDAnonymous,zuhurjamila,2019/05/26,How do I just rewire my brain? I’m really trying to stop calorie counting bc starting in 2 weeks I won’t really have internet for 2 months and I’ll just be in a tough situation so I need to get used to it. But I still know the calories of everything. And add them in my head. I’ve eaten exactly 600 calories today. I don’t want to know that. But I just can’t stop counting.,0.04925925925925867,2.108220345679012,3.070617283950618,89.07777777777781,86.28395061728395,6.562962962962962,21.34567901234568,7.793537801064563,1.0402938271604945,292,10,65,6,9,104,54,81,0.092,0.889,0.019,-0.6282,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,2,2,1,17,15,6,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,9,0,9,12,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28163246330228736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22673665943962498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180801666296585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589162451365709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772974598883402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20137074191276472,0.0,0.0,0.18706544509816786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32323927738199154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835778708393805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856796694206142,0.0,0.20147438836195347,0.4218415668395509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391358045090527,0.0,0.0,0.17128432671499216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178924393931351,0.0,0.0,0.1488036840217025,0.0,0.20236706760330184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spicymaemaes,2019/05/26,"I only eat if there are people around when I’m out with friends I will eat close to the same as the rest of them, but if I’m home and there isn’t anyone else around, I will eat nothing until something or someone reminds me to eat. It sucks because I ate 1600 cals last night while hanging out with a friend, where if I was home I probably would have had 300.

as my social life gets better, my mental health deteriorates :((((",2.8408803986710964,4.421518337209303,3.6084053156146174,91.0743023255814,74.93023255813954,5.84451827242525,22.75083056478405,6.1826913282559595,0.2868458471760804,331,9,71,2,7,105,63,86,0.038,0.8440000000000001,0.11800000000000001,0.7876,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,6,4,1,0,3,0,8,7,0,0,0,15,13,11,0,4,5,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,1,8,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,10,3,12,7,2,12,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,4,5,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030320253902108,0.16163459359145554,0.0,0.280863760563034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616357631000866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951798483461464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6456748298068127,0.13178076068112346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24375614089369724,0.0,0.08241841305247455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768199011473925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164743321586933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285881610668874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142423235713478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897595565523198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803867472593898,0.0,0.15136638770909633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997678258645952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109364715840719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17008231377240393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080733012304366,0.133661953330492,0.12144446584233864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206182031340067,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kenziixoxo,2019/05/26,"help, im having a panic attack in the target dressing room [TW numbers] so i am attempting recovery and am currently at my HW and buying my first swimsuit

I am a SIZE FUCKING LARGE in the target swimsuit!!!!

I weigh 135 lbs at 5’5” which I know is like a manatee but like..... I’m so upset that I’m a large at TARGET

I wear an XS and a 0 in target usually (which is CRAZY because vanity sizing!!!!!!!!!!) but my true non-vanity size is a solid size 6 and 32D bra/Medium top

SO WHY AM I A SIZE LARGE IN TARGET SWIMSUITS


DOES ANYONE ELSE FIND THAT TARGET SWIMSUITS RUN LARGE??????

I am freaking the fuck out right now",-0.30768941176470577,1.9542940240000064,2.664847058823529,89.05336470588236,92.76,5.181176470588237,18.552941176470586,6.794906146795322,0.4316117647058819,463,14,94,7,17,163,71,125,0.2,0.7120000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.955,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,3,4,9,3,2,11,0,9,4,1,0,1,10,14,9,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,6,0,1,0,0,10,3,8,14,0,16,0,0,0,2,1,11,2,0,6,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135081187414866,0.2510917017939357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787897644855865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938557080980894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445260857022544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204715183352135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22397930490995926,0.20844689132425495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531058262295438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16425774899349485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647055578664848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467790843510086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23944670397967865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875237026320952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209278877458986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698976481494905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211274518495583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretsofacat,2019/05/26,"I know I’m preaching to the choir but WHY DO PPL COMMENT ON WHAT OTHER PPL EAT :-) This is a big ol rant but I’m gonna slap on a TW for talking about restrictive urges

I just made some fish n eggs for myself, it comes out to be a low calorie meal & I plan on going to the gym after.

And my father, I’m sure meaning very well, walks into the kitchen to see I had cooked food, and asks me “oh, were you not going to be home for dinner?”

And in my brain, all I hear is “you’re eating food NOW, so you should not be eating food LATER” and I’m sure he didn’t mean it like that, and he doesn’t know I struggle with food, but now here I am staring at a plate of tilapia and scrambled egg whites and I have never wanted to throw a plate of food away so badly. All I can hear in my head now is this voice telling me that I don’t NEED this meal if i did indeed plan on having dinner later, fuck it I don’t even NEED dinner either, I don’t need or deserve it so just fucking throw it away",-0.013789864569680788,1.6048621513761532,1.9906815203145487,99.27998470948013,83.44954128440367,4.335867190913063,16.802970729576234,4.375723439535773,-1.0226075141983402,751,14,187,1,21,250,121,218,0.08800000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.08,-0.5923,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,2,12,9,2,1,8,0,20,21,2,1,5,38,43,15,0,6,10,1,0,1,0,2,0,4,2,0,12,11,17,1,4,3,0,6,8,5,1,0,5,7,21,4,25,33,4,26,1,1,3,2,11,13,2,3,8,116,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517259180869678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937320507776097,0.0,0.19973877799565345,0.0,0.0887534291450661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866243830009385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156532350766737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263046416213453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020806645471295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6426728605494115,0.0,0.0,0.1965394486707482,0.0,0.0,0.12082189814071086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909123402593476,0.0,0.2396085491667898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662440676554867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168359369475631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05193127130785655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058064896013752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23157686175878694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364533006255247,0.08198268317483794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847048265944671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111245464111215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003670449917736,0.0,0.0,0.08543738101610729,0.09290813151350348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770603298103193,0.0626966357749019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557363326117983,0.0,0.09591637307806897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fabluous,2019/05/26,Man everyone is so stressed and unhappy today Negative energies feed off of each other. When those around me are feeling under the weather I try to be reciprocative and bounce back whatever energy they're projecting so they can return to normal on their own time. Unfortunately sometimes you just have to wait things out. How is everyone else doing?,6.7529508196721295,9.341835114754096,7.158163934426232,65.47167213114757,66.70491803278688,11.437377049180329,33.511475409836066,11.20814326018867,4.849594098360655,286,13,42,10,5,93,54,61,0.17600000000000002,0.745,0.079,-0.8307,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,0,7,1,0,1,1,0,7,1,0,1,0,10,9,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,9,8,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,36,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26388226311815605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279335361145332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476261465292354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5664960871075132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988204962648224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904348478458429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931732015142295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33955533811747635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693246969096107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728485659383155,0.0,0.2809774829293958,0.0,0.0,0.20125400746425184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HarryHardying,2019/05/26,"Will I gain weight if I start eating more normally again? I’ve been severely restricting to about 600-700 calories a day for a few weeks now and I’ve lost about 15lbs. If I increase my calorie intake to say, 1700, will I gain weight back. I’m currently in a healthy BMI range and do not want to gain any weight. I’m an 18 year old, 6’2, male if that helps.",2.215600000000002,3.5484632933333344,3.1303333333333363,94.8835,76.06666666666666,7.133333333333333,23.166666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.7528666666666668,277,8,66,4,6,88,53,75,0.114,0.6629999999999999,0.223,0.865,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,9,9,5,0,5,4,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,5,5,0,7,5,3,11,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,3,9,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140639499127272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902594182172006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337686534415066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21162067869759285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13862196788496328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22576012527313094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202632205878318,0.0,0.0,0.21701478598494706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446549235312452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23363910403777916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463828553938418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198329035849605,0.0,0.16589240332820449,0.7555252297676471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318038153085096
EDAnonymous,Virtual_Calm,2019/05/26,"Eating disordered girls in my gym class In my gym class today there were two girls who I really think were struggling with disordered eating. Their bmis can't have been higher than 14 honestly, and it was a pretty damn intense class (les mills body combat). 

When I was at that bmi I had hospital staff supervising me while taking the elevator, to make sure I wouldn't try to sneak off to burn calories walking the stairs... I just got so worried and triggered at the same time and can't stop thinking about it. 

I really don't want to judge them or assume anything but I'm hella triggered and thinking about if I should tell the gym staff to look over the frequency of their gym visits? Since most gyms will talk to people and sometimes cancel their memberships if it's obvious that they're dealing with a serious eating disorder...",8.422500000000003,7.709019108280255,7.847189490445862,73.7563893312102,61.73885350318472,11.162101910828026,34.27468152866243,10.411451182825502,3.43005796178344,668,23,119,13,8,210,106,157,0.07400000000000001,0.87,0.055999999999999994,-0.3962,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,0,6,5,1,1,7,0,13,4,1,3,2,27,22,12,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,6,7,3,1,4,5,0,2,4,3,0,1,7,1,14,2,18,12,2,14,0,0,1,0,11,7,1,5,5,75,20,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518435943631312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897448371704651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568322487553902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5230387969971101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.466979763418397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216667493669278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277451008844911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154335850679193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546301176584458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476389413695707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949079217478357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583781023269092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045364753326046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718173324336274,0.0,0.15903210611775626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433742327448722,0.0,0.1143776482595109,0.12227079509425932,0.1329623049744048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924230430980984,0.0,0.0,0.08870420994140774,0.0,0.14419492287527585,0.0,0.0,0.1032816074159939,0.0,0.14860217605881196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972615282398687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448840445459952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patheticgorlt69,2019/05/26,"am i that bad? i’m an atypical ana. currently, i am pretty high and have been for the past two days so therefore didn’t fast. i usually stick 500 cals a day and only water. high, that’s all out the window. atm i’m eating cheese and worrying that eating a hot dog and cinnabon yesterday then this will make me gain weight. is this irrational?",0.31391304347825866,2.74886655072464,2.1502753623188404,91.93584782608696,93.63768115942028,6.2382608695652175,18.49420289855073,7.554174236665415,0.8111437681159419,268,8,56,6,10,88,53,69,0.128,0.779,0.09300000000000001,-0.3421,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,7,4,0,2,1,8,10,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,4,0,2,7,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,8,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19325890677974947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29854429236933033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4736814410015748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890990670752362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450092750124667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603528165807758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22095415986084652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23547739152497374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22610217317417494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25491979690087485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818551584466493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350582266276613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadslap,2019/05/26,"why am i so bloated if IM NOT EATING ANYTHING !??! !?! ?!? today is one of those days where even though i've been restricting heavily, i still just feel so bloated and big today :( i have a pretty social day and the weather is FINALLY NICE and i was looking forward to all these possible cute outfits i could wear, but now everything i try on makes me feel sooooooo ugly and makes me want to hide

anyone have tips on how to get rid of bloat? anyone else feel bloated despite heavy restriction? im so done with this life i just want to be happy and enjoy the clothes and friends i have, but my self hate gets me every time...im literally just constantly shooting myself in the foot",4.867548770144193,5.910307900763364,5.39964376590331,82.27485156912641,69.22900763358778,8.264970313825277,30.586089906700593,8.515128840125781,2.2983835453774386,529,21,101,8,9,170,91,131,0.10099999999999999,0.72,0.179,0.8959999999999999,0,0,0,1,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,12,6,1,0,4,0,11,4,2,3,1,26,22,14,0,4,7,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,7,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,4,13,5,10,17,1,14,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,9,65,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066871020225732,0.1514361549212314,0.12162487002573535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971674996380433,0.0,0.11800439445423146,0.0,0.0,0.19063451020321887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512483067803106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151233890256357,0.12346596880483188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761895170628038,0.0,0.12452589177147727,0.0,0.1328309947709462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22419279292143807,0.0,0.0,0.1619050976243903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418809518178168,0.0,0.1544363405141307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733334315589045,0.0,0.14591957743568162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4789404617896631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439384873181218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241127994061034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19731215362648102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001515104101338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666196396049348,0.0,0.15036334086655806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541851789356415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506610881735787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803139154086535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521043743403947,0.0,0.08618199632477187,0.0,0.2801897750173585,0.0,0.0,0.10034490038997193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17434976261037735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336438765749611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TubbsIsGood,2019/05/26,"TW: I just wanna eat and drink... But I have like 50 lbs to lose so I guess low cal alcohol for me.

Been drinking more and more lately and that makes me wanna eat.

God I hate myself.",-1.6346153846153832,0.3021679743589765,0.8629487179487221,100.45288461538463,100.02564102564102,3.6256410256410256,11.628205128205128,5.46131890053228,-1.3938410256410254,137,2,33,1,6,46,30,39,0.20199999999999999,0.6920000000000001,0.106,-0.6344,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,0,9,5,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,4,4,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800215162207009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133630354085592,0.0,0.5362272349854051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288646448093801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586921866717148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295571895536975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280105695906865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29313526477803664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490152238495366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fluffyfinaland,2019/05/26,"I wish I could override my brain I was doing so “well” last year with being at a healthy weight (definitely not GW but I was healthy and trying to maintain that and override the need to restrict with willpower) but then I started letting myself have a treat every once in a while, which turned into a few times a week, which turned into daily, which turned into near daily binging. 

I’ve been afraid to step on the scale but I’m certain I’ve gained back 20-30 pounds since ~September. Every day I tell myself “okay, that was the last binge, tomorrow we eat healthy and low calorie and no sugar yadda yadda yadda”. And every god damn day I find myself binging on anything I can get my stupid fat hands on. 

Now I’m trying to trick myself into taking small steps to be healthier and trying to go to a state park to wander around and get some exercise but when I was trying to pick a T-shirt to wear I completely broke down because EVERYTHING is going to look disgusting on me. And there’s not even going to be other people around?? I hate being in this constant loop of wanting to do something to feel better about myself but then feeling so bad and gross that I just can’t bring myself to do anything.

*eternal screaming*",5.124558823529412,6.075412747899161,5.432258403361344,82.60998424369748,68.57983193277312,7.126470588235295,27.90021008403361,6.9077264865688965,1.438696638655462,966,31,177,7,16,307,140,238,0.16399999999999998,0.7120000000000001,0.124,-0.9465,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,2,12,16,5,1,10,1,18,8,4,1,1,37,38,20,0,4,8,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,18,4,1,3,1,0,6,4,11,1,0,5,7,22,5,34,27,2,41,0,2,1,0,2,17,1,1,17,123,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078336569891187,0.2248301030141922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710072931668304,0.10543766106328324,0.07697848495886718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168348255331098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096908785325038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324010921996641,0.13646269969443878,0.0,0.10082347810534123,0.0,0.0,0.1628789711984109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921490672926902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834060653888775,0.0,0.3191864230303524,0.0,0.11349139118877072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277008778813286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154166862344426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13195109443601855,0.0,0.21530173765501745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467433428026488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20586842133793531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912879733026386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060425263939411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363425244073002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134482976379729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875459342967401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445926474332548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721571665600716,0.0,0.0,0.08938090135089664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494606603663973,0.0,0.11037338134318496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736342799750171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34294051214762017,0.4120657558670819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448260530685889,0.0,0.10129336865883536,0.15377375956651024,0.11353995499044905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521457764370296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131951321387157
EDAnonymous,Chloe0713,2019/05/26,Someone give me a reason to not binge on fiber one bars I just bought the cinnamon coffee cake ones and heated them up in the microwave... so good! I have no self control.,2.661078431372548,4.589147264705887,3.4064705882352966,90.82578431372549,76.35294117647058,5.7098039215686285,23.098039215686285,6.42735559955562,0.5181686274509811,133,4,27,1,3,42,32,34,0.069,0.8170000000000001,0.114,0.3756,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073310683058404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34839006056168703,0.0,0.3046135288356717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921928625780616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37340385906146256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37887019515067255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077165641245825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ILoveKissing,2019/05/26,"I just had a small slice of cake and a sandwich. I hate myself but it was delicious It's fine I'll just starve myself :D

Gotta get that summer body somehow amirightguys????????",0.3717142857142832,2.819862742857147,1.6371428571428588,95.79285714285713,93.0,3.9428571428571435,18.42857142857143,5.6839178017228535,-0.28545714285714263,136,4,28,1,5,43,29,35,0.14400000000000002,0.535,0.32,0.8611,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7051249855495836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316592882300681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6267382797343912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leftshoelauren,2019/05/26,"About to panic myself off a bridge 🤪 I have a “safe meal” at my favorite theater in town. It is a Chicago hot dog with french fries and I allow myself a cookie for dessert. I have been restricting to 300> cal all week for this movie tonight and running 6-8 miles everyday since Monday. 

I was going to wake up early today and go do 8 miles before work, but I overslept and now I don’t have time to work out before work/my movie and I am about to lose my mind. 

The gym closes early on Sundays so I can’t even work out after the film gets out. I hate myself because I know I still don’t have the willpower to *not* order my meal. I’m still going to eat all of it like a monster and then hate myself. I’m a fool.",1.3859879336349934,2.8219633856209185,3.1908496732026173,93.14805429864256,78.5424836601307,5.230568124685774,20.265962795374566,5.369823440869387,-0.20241337355454947,550,13,124,2,13,184,91,153,0.146,0.795,0.059000000000000004,-0.9413,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,7,7,2,1,9,0,12,5,1,1,2,20,21,9,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,11,4,2,1,2,0,4,4,5,0,0,2,1,18,2,22,19,2,31,0,1,0,0,0,12,0,0,15,80,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201517682924177,0.0,0.31272347923645005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18802696148134287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213682650179285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600426134627388,0.0,0.3132961401871777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628395026982975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098679307894493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977327844337442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20557453834191505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18553989301031806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559658150610145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200381012861616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29349352679117136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714885979508132,0.0,0.17417799656330832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739695913750278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351025228774169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obviouslynotjackie,2019/05/26,"Me: *reaches new lw* Also me: that’s probably bc I didn’t drink enough water yesterday 

Also also me: *drank so much water the day before that I peed 5x in a hour*",-1.41901960784314,0.42207376470588187,2.23764705882353,89.11274509803923,105.47058823529413,4.6196078431372545,14.490196078431374,6.42735559955562,-0.049298039215686096,124,3,25,2,6,45,27,34,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6777976274734212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404052016980331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822031571865418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27676375917975865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919204919805468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782270154176217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768599461972465,0.0,0.0,0.2728612679689735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046062321074406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,l0nelyiamsol0nely,2019/05/26,i'm relapsing again and i can't stop. i swear to god anorexia is an addiction. there is no better feeling in this entire world than micromanaging every single thing you put into your body. it makes me feel so in control and it's such a great fucking cope when i'm forced to live in this world. i just got out of a 2 year long b/p cycle bc of depression and man oh man did i miss prolonged restriction.,1.0113095238095262,3.2185679880952383,2.9404761904761934,90.60452380952385,83.40476190476191,6.114285714285715,21.238095238095237,7.3871296695380915,0.7342238095238094,317,10,68,5,9,106,66,84,0.14400000000000002,0.6990000000000001,0.156,0.0093,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,2,6,5,1,0,3,0,4,3,1,2,0,12,12,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,2,7,2,10,10,1,13,0,2,0,1,4,7,1,0,5,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890847753073361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345297005965635,0.0,0.2945546219942333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297421335639049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283986976680344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22342514911001146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681654258151393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451541563385809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120882548696148,0.2923613130134346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341583392715309,0.2346754952069144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770093621417919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665786205984529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217019193430498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617346347715224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707668909554628
EDAnonymous,Shiddyfardy,2019/05/26,"When you are the physical embodiment of a trash can but your husband is supportive Earlier this week I threw my binge free streak away for doritos and icecream. It's been 4 days and I cant stop. I was actually starting to feel like a healthy person. I didnt eat any sugar, wheat, or dairy for a *week and a half.*


Then fast forward to today, hunched over a tub of chocolate ganache eating it hurriedly with a spoon for breakfast like a goblin. A goddamn ganache goblin.


Anyways I told my husband I'm having trouble with binging this week and hes been amazing. I've been really open about my eating problems. I actually will mark the days that I binge eat on our big shared whiteboard calendar, so he knows how big a deal it is for me. If I say something about feeling bad he will ask me if I binged or what I ate. This man gets it. 


He told me to go ahead and throw out all the trigger foods and we can buy a buttload of fruit and veg tomorrow. I really dont know what I did to deserve someone who cares so much about seeing me happy and healthy. 



I didnt throw away the ganache though lmao I ate the whole rest of that bitch.",2.7781498506090583,4.442121606986904,3.847644219719605,88.94393702597107,75.28820960698691,6.917122500574582,27.773155596414608,7.669130373188453,1.522863755458515,884,36,187,12,19,286,135,229,0.086,0.721,0.193,0.9786,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,2,2,0,1,9,12,1,0,15,0,18,10,0,2,1,27,35,19,0,3,5,2,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,2,12,13,10,1,4,0,2,5,4,4,0,1,12,6,26,9,23,21,4,26,0,0,1,0,19,9,1,4,16,118,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.2527407972395413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806240537064991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106222069149435,0.0,0.2433334016291148,0.0,0.1081245917134204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203082911321584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670297129311315,0.1335057279756042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517695277073012,0.0,0.0,0.5300310683107581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095515533180074,0.09251268764302624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658829483336992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765684134187308,0.0,0.07359613331194345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785197189013393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233633676578303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265313929029862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519520022815348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307179154026975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391114670266552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591819723086496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029812175594976,0.0,0.0,0.10319234850873332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972239375888378,0.09969312260492418,0.0,0.0,0.09165864803983796,0.0,0.0,0.10826529630609967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695166888301492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723015184058792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274802090528698,0.2474798792346981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116240635195811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457878365997998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plsBpretty,2019/05/26,"What is it like going to a psych consultation (for an eating disorder)? I’m not sure if this kind of post is allowed or not, but I would find it very helpful to hear what it is like going to this kind of appointment.

What kind of questions do they ask? Did you find the experience uncomfortable (invasive?)?

I got a referral to one in order rule out having an eating disorder as a cause for being slightly underweight, but I’m really hesitant and uncomfortable about the idea of going.

I met twice with like a general psychologist (not sure what their title is) that wrote the referral, and I found it incredibly uncomfortable. Will the experience likely be similar?",6.656475409836067,7.802661491803278,7.960778688524588,65.14969262295085,65.22950819672131,12.329508196721315,33.2827868852459,11.93303328291395,4.6416852459016384,530,22,89,19,8,182,74,122,0.16,0.748,0.092,-0.8475,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,2,0,1,9,0,0,10,0,11,2,0,2,2,23,22,7,0,2,7,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,11,4,2,0,5,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,5,1,7,9,15,13,0,7,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,3,4,65,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544233884485754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488306759009937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33208784764117183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29649484018382666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28343898922562344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648336233475491,0.0,0.0,0.15885238197076054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470142799819273,0.0,0.11587299783131826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632891999456896,0.0,0.0971093620599168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355079378821846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452607655590604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831223100681504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817378242035037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875406557742487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229767435000705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281321853139272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730935485061853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119540375380462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291790842914428,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blxckbutterflies,2019/05/26,"wtf is going on?¿? (((first post lol hi))) 
so ive been restricting on and off for a pretty long time now, overall lost around 30lbs. this past week ive eaten around or below 1000cals because ive been around family, the highest ive had is around 1500cals. so why the fuck have i gained like 4lbs??? 2/3 days ago i was 4lbs lighter??? i weighed in yesterday and thought it was just water weight so ive been drinking SO MUCH to stay hydrated and try lose it but im even heavier today and i just don't fucking get it there's no way im gaining from 1000-1500cals when im still overweight and my bmi is still kinda high, right?? idk what to do lol help",-0.4702238805970147,1.7668060820895517,1.1125522388059714,99.01957462686569,96.38805970149254,3.8740298507462687,19.386567164179105,5.6839178017228535,-0.26483462686567183,501,17,112,4,20,160,91,134,0.125,0.736,0.139,0.6113,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,5,16,5,2,0,3,2,17,8,0,0,0,16,24,12,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,9,6,1,1,1,0,1,2,4,0,1,9,1,10,1,12,15,1,27,0,2,0,2,2,10,2,2,14,64,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470487916320372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009423021193595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575759863108998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907273600210626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781344740462795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929182210177271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262116585256414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966286131371212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601139278215361,0.07349981622542738,0.0,0.07995203686788231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942952524388354,0.1486367962098057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455877623197639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872944362066315,0.0,0.0,0.12449791945894922,0.0,0.15738562618860533,0.15356951230788413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034164407255838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429556767440542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473314377727266,0.1431227635146159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014047861384435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994682002170734,0.22469544559795607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168469605681268,0.08203199934320649,0.0,0.13334877596465314,0.0,0.0,0.09551290471230664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116657259670423,0.11284550557311028,0.17131109244284332,0.0,0.0,0.1269423757544388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drawitl,2019/05/26,"Avoiding calories was a good thing? So I went with some friends and got stoned. Typical weekend stuff, but then a friend gave us Lindt chocolates. He said there wasn’t anything in them. Being my stoned and open self I said uh, yeah..... there’s calories. My friends ignored it and ate the chocolates. 
Few minutes later they started tripping. Turns out the friend had been lied too. There was something in the chocolate he gave us and he didn’t know. Thanks avoiding calories. I avoided that.",2.282054574638842,5.178524853932585,1.3409711075441422,96.77126404494385,92.59550561797752,2.992295345104334,27.70545746388443,4.65589566412798,0.6022963081861956,388,19,70,1,14,109,62,89,0.136,0.6679999999999999,0.196,0.81,0,3,1,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,2,0,5,10,0,3,5,1,7,1,0,0,0,14,18,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,4,7,1,4,1,1,0,2,2,4,1,0,13,2,9,6,4,4,2,10,0,0,0,0,16,4,0,1,4,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552288237476887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5829493161162347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821634688253894,0.15086698113466246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366772176139358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588662141398963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19678527886970976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452188405373694,0.0,0.0,0.13351535437721998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159395677569852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736678526327013,0.0,0.0,0.12531933278047602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20517845382248268,0.0,0.0,0.4538043632231921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748646102254442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peafowlontheprowl,2019/05/26,"DAE online shop for clothes that will look good at GW? I spend WAY too much time filling carts and wish lists of tiny bikinis and dresses on ASOS, Nordstrom rack/HauteLook, revolve, you name it with the new wardrobe I’ll get when I’m finally an XS. This has gone on for YEARS. Let’s hope I get some money when I get skinny!!!",3.296363636363637,4.586252878787882,3.1458787878787886,96.0188181818182,73.24242424242425,5.8860606060606075,26.83636363636364,5.6839178017228535,0.5697672727272729,254,9,57,1,5,76,56,66,0.0,0.857,0.14300000000000002,0.8547,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,7,11,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,7,8,2,12,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,6,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261973232230813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4667245345259164,0.0,0.0,0.2497590566121269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29575718890412706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044945204153235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500555173248309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21889846187704745,0.0,0.0,0.2875923914541925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17363465958546212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363594752156507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34242588865628626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175696427447544
EDAnonymous,beefanoodle,2019/05/26,"Does being conventionally unattractive influence your ED? I feel like, if I was prettier I wouldn’t worry so much about my weight. I’m constantly around people who are more beautiful but also bigger than me, and I don’t see them as fat/gross because they have pretty faces. With me, I have a bulbous and pointy nose (what a combination), thin lips, and small/too close together eyes. Basically I’m ugly as shit and I feel like being on the smaller side helps me feel less hideous.",4.029148351648352,6.2805678901098885,4.795700549450551,80.93992445054947,73.39560439560441,8.066483516483517,25.660714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.029537362637363,382,13,71,8,8,123,70,91,0.136,0.687,0.17800000000000002,0.47600000000000003,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,2,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,8,6,5,1,0,14,14,10,0,2,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,13,2,7,10,3,7,1,0,2,0,5,6,1,1,3,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015530384728002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22436540831237106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363876080218414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27236129793899105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22055833674507636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823108101215954,0.3601090309092772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689343680966789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24626404463415316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852754047836761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472997637986404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25641114466791776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008400013310692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25871125555476004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069118582460514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559547163440415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sleepygirl97,2019/05/26,"The almost fainting feeling If this isn't allowed feel free to remove it but the rules wasn't too clear on it. Okay so idk why but I can't stop loving the almost fainting feeling, every time it happens I start feeling better. Probably because it's a sort of indication that I'm ""doing good"" or whatever. My friends thinks it's fucked up but they're still pretty cool about my ed, might help that I'm normal weight atm though. I haven't had the fainting feeling for a while now but I didn't eat the last few days because of nausea so now when I stood up too fast I almost fainted and it felt so freaking good... My friends are right, it's a fucked up thing but I can't help being thrilled about it. Do any of you guys feel the same? I'd love to hear from you! 

Stay safe <3",1.0698910675381264,3.234537666666668,2.257334785766158,95.85153594771243,82.82716049382717,4.552505446623093,21.25780682643428,5.5289334501034215,-0.10699099491648534,610,19,134,3,17,194,99,162,0.16,0.585,0.255,0.9403,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,12,15,2,0,9,2,12,10,0,1,1,27,30,14,0,2,7,0,8,0,2,1,4,1,0,1,12,1,2,2,8,0,2,1,6,3,0,0,5,10,12,13,13,23,2,18,0,0,0,4,10,5,2,7,11,79,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093053982265102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926549703519406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611400525947295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050244050769618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787026106310024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394182134624852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147968708017308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4133538931953508,0.0,0.13082178780481685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21053350147830416,0.2519226696171987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22856080677617766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490935529881073,0.12048581272046358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356414647912248,0.0,0.1826515936733494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110622924157393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459426804919228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454018368494587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349650094397386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861567878953002,0.1469010172492507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635712995058528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964387615905462,0.14522483865760358,0.10880977612375367,0.11391146740955407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051873706268396,0.08730377938770026,0.13386536396598964,0.0,0.07944872633946612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659163279132437,0.0,0.0,0.12294482827366705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rocketquids,2019/05/26,hopefully crying gets out water weight lol just had a breakdown triggered by my fat self for eating so much at a party yesterday,5.17625,7.457937458333337,5.8066666666666675,74.80500000000002,70.25,8.133333333333335,28.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.725566666666667,105,4,16,2,2,34,23,24,0.105,0.609,0.28600000000000003,0.6557,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,4,1,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42677554943813795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975572139795503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298783945820686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858921591139185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856099640162319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4053154360486703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731177615947258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HappyShape,2019/05/26,"Anxiety + ED = I can’t trust anything, I expect the worse If the scale says I’m weighing lower today, then I think it must just be because I have less water in my system. The weight I see when I weigh myself right after I eat my one meal of the day, that’s my true weight, the worst I could possibly get.

Me having a BMI of 22 is bad, even if it’s “healthy”, because it means I’m closer to being overweight than underweight. It increases my chances of becoming overweight, therefore, I should have as close a BMI to underweight as I can to avoid this.

I don’t trust the calories I consume or burn. That bag of pretzels is only 110 calories? Well, but what if it they’re lying and those 13 small pretzels are actually 600 calories? Multiple websites say consistently that exercising for this long in this matter will burn X amount of calories? Well, I must be the exception and I’m definitely burning less. 

I wanted a place to let all this out, I’m sorry if it’s sort of long-winded but I figure doing this is better than giving into the temptation to purge.",3.0478883622959434,4.915900710900472,4.528586097946288,83.47343733543973,75.0663507109005,7.153343865192207,26.4141653501843,7.984000788550335,1.6875621906266458,834,31,161,13,18,278,128,211,0.102,0.7709999999999999,0.126,0.7120000000000001,1,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,0,1,11,0,20,10,0,1,4,29,30,13,0,10,9,0,2,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,16,5,9,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,2,1,0,5,21,6,22,21,6,17,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,6,6,110,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.16286279833264014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767214331708285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733813266580486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393480891676703,0.20347197913660486,0.1843194197480858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760266614842635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332499116116134,0.0,0.0,0.10763171893803676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077247506368096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023078205384394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871943321191757,0.16009828979057267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706586715129407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953888457123658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179462749990333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309053337921154,0.12692910528104126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743669194759174,0.0,0.0,0.18814597840021635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252510184628506,0.0,0.2654388915541215,0.0,0.0,0.13299154571171878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682225245246906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693783916878907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819437457484484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843739533932877,0.0,0.0,0.4064596908472945,0.3001124192731537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007749921443782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chillinthetrees,2019/05/26,Dae get super achy during recovery? I'm used to the general aches of being underweight during my restriction but i've been eating this week (somewhat unwillingly) and my arms have been aching even more than usual.,6.470175438596487,8.786886368421058,6.73947368421053,69.30464912280705,66.89473684210526,10.329824561403509,28.456140350877188,10.504223727775694,3.5994456140350892,174,6,26,5,3,56,34,38,0.17600000000000002,0.7659999999999999,0.059000000000000004,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,1,0,6,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,3,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4901257752093902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163680065299222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25025221194363856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4136930841115375,0.5275391951522381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38421643519428855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theblueshadow0,2019/05/26,"I'm haveing a relapse I am recovered for an year or so and i got to an healthily waight , still skinny . In the last days i realised that i have put some belly fat and its not a lot but its so triggering gor my ed so i decided im ging to be anorexic again.  

Summer is coming and  i want a nice budy but im so guilty becauze im not going to be able to engoy enithing becoze im gonna fell like **** most of the time .

I dont know what to do , if i really wanna do this again , if its worth it",-2.3036824324324314,-0.51910545045045,1.2543637387387392,98.42586993243245,99.0,4.216441441441442,15.946509009009011,5.985473137389443,-0.5890139639639647,369,10,93,4,16,133,74,111,0.047,0.85,0.10300000000000001,0.5894,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,7,0,9,2,2,1,0,19,16,12,0,4,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,2,0,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,9,2,9,12,3,13,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,9,61,16,0,0.1881382285066082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206442496120996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133359309945176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22049660262933327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692329090748276,0.0,0.15047132809099095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8128862858769599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339585014749304,0.15335776670774573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191483521933504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994839398959929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18913088377653667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052616673600347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502474323134345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970491400975893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096880166661628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115485080413678
EDAnonymous,strugglingpianist,2019/05/26,"adventures in the Sims 4 I know I sound batshit crazy buttt
I saw that the sims is free for a few days so instead of paying $50 i downloaded it. 

now i don’t even know the first thing about this game but i spent about 1 hour making my character look just like me except skinnier as a way of triggering myself :))))

(sorry remove this if its not allowed)

so yeah. fun times",-0.6585020242914972,1.4197545263157918,1.2847368421052645,96.26431174089069,102.42105263157896,4.443724696356276,16.372469635627528,6.297961479604792,-0.1814704453441296,288,8,62,4,13,94,62,76,0.022000000000000002,0.772,0.20600000000000002,0.9333,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,5,1,2,0,0,3,0,10,8,5,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,9,5,8,6,1,8,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,6,41,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23080518085332824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23637860510420766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044154303677113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35244305095109063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.393366705512714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484374791830296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30053191400236684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388899431365952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006211569429831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23776182323351486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086846838679472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840711784290661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PieldeSapo,2019/05/26,"One of the ""funny"" things I tell myself Tw loosing weight

I always tell myself that ""When I loose x ammount of weight I'll let myself enjoy dinner with my parents (or similar), because when I'll weight y kg I'll be able to afford eating those things"" but then when I've lost the weight I get more protective of it and I won't eat said things in fear of loosing the progress lol rip. The lower I go the more I get like this, wonderful.",2.7919047619047603,4.110733555555555,3.977619047619047,89.44500000000002,74.55555555555556,6.476190476190476,22.857142857142854,6.868970318607317,0.6007142857142855,340,9,72,3,7,111,58,90,0.11900000000000001,0.684,0.196,0.8601,3,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,5,1,3,7,0,0,0,5,9,7,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,2,7,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,5,11,2,7,4,2,6,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,43,18,0,0.1475443298985712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276870200544612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994165404921046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019493679371561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660283909013092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417164540872158,0.0,0.08385284284177481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087407375547954,0.0,0.07208270683646861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106206527446146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997985641654243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16383051765813125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034844504511682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579204952218745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940656901678947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7186769805702378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000553195526626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xStingx,2019/05/26,"The cold, hard truth is we really are fucked up Hi, all. I've recently joined the EMT program at my school and I'm hoping to become a emergency medical tech by august (ikr?) In my last class we had to do a scenario where we assist in delivering a baby. For some context, there are two skinny girls in my class who, in my mind, are much thinner than I am. So thin that I'm jealous and constantly staring at their bodies, wishing I could look like that. Now, I've lost quite a bit of weight. I'm 5'8 and  Last year my highest was 200+ pounds, now I'm around 123-126 depending on how well I've starved the day before. Anyway, I never really thought I had body dysmorphia. I mean...i knew the way I viewed my body was a little distorted but I know I'm not that 200+ pound girl anymore. So, back to the scenario, the teacher needs someone to stick a biker's helmet under their shirt and pretend to be the pregnant woman. She then states, ""Don't take this the wrong way but you (points to me), and you (points to one of the skinny girls I envy), which one of you wants to be the momma?"" At this point, my heart sinks a little. All the other girls in the class, other than the second girl that I envy, are clearly heavier than the two of us. So with that being said, she was pointing at us because we were the smallest. I didn't know whether I wanted to scream because I was considered one of the smallest girls or because the way I see  myself must be... Wrong. All wrong. It made me sad because I don't want to add body dysmorphia to my list of problems (bulimia, damn-near anorexia, depression, and I just recently got on meds for panic attacks). Sigh. But I guess I have to now because I'm not the thick sis I thought I was. This was confirmed another time when I was practing taking blood pressures on one of my classmates. When she put the cuff around my arm, she said, ""wow, girl"" and put it on as far as it could go pretty much. When she got my blood pressure she said it was pretty low and asked the teacher if that was normal to which he replied, ""with someone her size, yes."" Okay so, it's nice to hear that I'm not what I thought I was but again, it makes me sad at the same time. I'm sorry to all my BD people our there. It truly is tragic. The scary part Is, I still don't belive them. Everyday I wake up in disgust and wishing I were nearly every girl I pass up when I leave my apartment. Yikes.",2.1325973147879864,3.766778742393512,3.4207171834250936,91.44456558485466,76.99188640973631,6.074548440065684,23.50280112044818,6.7636006534598385,0.6209563797932964,1852,58,401,17,42,603,237,493,0.159,0.774,0.067,-0.9933,0,0,0,0,0,0,81.0,7,3,3,2,23,26,4,3,29,2,35,15,12,4,8,62,73,28,0,13,11,2,4,1,0,1,1,5,0,9,23,18,3,0,6,1,0,4,8,18,2,7,26,14,64,7,54,40,10,65,0,6,4,1,39,34,1,6,24,263,87,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862913987608625,0.0,0.0,0.07436575527636699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350650359978278,0.07010159214120976,0.08530716243368985,0.0,0.057659444595108175,0.0,0.22855321065742895,0.08281591469979596,0.06380738507997791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818650624985321,0.3331692373538042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103300075809525,0.0,0.11974010474712694,0.0,0.0,0.04835963170211443,0.0,0.06458515181281971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317876293255029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932315536966804,0.0,0.0,0.04261615300904882,0.0,0.11994597410865313,0.0,0.08260530263433775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717253992398209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451443613041087,0.0888585232430544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447780987356488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824204592467866,0.12224685558543605,0.0,0.07939912545537164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03663426974856202,0.15031092388481548,0.0,0.0,0.06296917869067152,0.0,0.08185584871155192,0.0,0.0,0.07095336841741545,0.0500535976909732,0.0,0.0,0.08168150911330943,0.08329230933845105,0.07554029541287909,0.0,0.0,0.07571427274928688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024636855457368,0.055601013800861854,0.057833664659072886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347015407790311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20324925020895912,0.0,0.0,0.08797966901414052,0.0,0.0812023042181433,0.0,0.05198570580913841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835432397493905,0.0,0.0,0.15257501442010066,0.0,0.07175127482615355,0.0,0.1507628621107743,0.0,0.07975661879127853,0.0,0.0,0.09607563552565887,0.0,0.14807884429447846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139859761192868,0.0,0.0,0.07588962367748991,0.05975396689349712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707043456015002,0.0,0.0,0.08394045372035794,0.0,0.0,0.05988374946508436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127599652997152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785910259093681,0.08744963537139404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650044366916293,0.0,0.18039734735918564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326856868391906,0.17856069151340073,0.0,0.09131249201012244,0.06742123143845513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245991771578886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24595557260330375,0.0,0.04828839082520461
EDAnonymous,idkidkidkidkidkidkk,2019/05/26,"anyone else wanna post their binges? sorry if this triggers anyone. please tell me so i can take it down. 
i think posting this will make me feel better, somehow...

today i had:
- a whole plate of spicy bulgogi with rice (and so..much..oil)
- a whole plate of korean fried chicken (more..oil..)
- 8 ice cream bars
- large bubble tea
- instant noodle
- a bowl of frosted flakes 
- 2 apples
- 3 packs of chocolate biscuits

:( tmr is a new day...amirite...",2.2588888888888903,4.866668962962965,2.779259259259259,91.1666666666667,81.5925925925926,4.587654320987656,21.34567901234568,5.82211442006289,0.20584938271604925,330,10,62,2,9,102,66,81,0.057,0.872,0.071,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,2,0,9,8,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,7,6,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,2,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064298706030069,0.22451599980371206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937952709239745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131532089423773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18304800093722126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11079447766337487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626538645251275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16107960711612282,0.0,0.0,0.21162903123114613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24052974368477245,0.0,0.0,0.4197158926161767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452887198680144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475219226758145,0.0,0.19152195876402275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040428980395375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077016796468457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892829389183633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b-ees,2019/05/26,"me: let's lose weight!! face:

waist:

hips:

thighs:

literally any other body part:

titties: aight BET",2.459803921568625,5.264304000000003,1.8905882352941177,91.60098039215687,97.23529411764706,4.6196078431372545,17.43137254901961,6.42735559955562,0.04364313725490199,76,2,14,1,3,22,17,17,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.508,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26372490613037264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4307708035680371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965632142578005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338615205823109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41996172416698535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47224954946521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fat-tangerine,2019/05/26,"I have to admit some things I just want to get this off my chest because I haven't had anyone to speak to about what I've done. It's really been heavy on my mind. Okay so, first, hi. I have had an ED for 10 years now. It's fluctuated over the decade to different things and I honestly couldn't keep up with all of them, but I got better for a while there and recently I have relapsed. I dont necessarily have a binge-purge thing because I purge every other meal, but I especially purge if it was 700 calories or more. I was only eating between 725-1150 kcal a day for the last month an a half until the last couple days. But I'm going back to my normal schedule in the morning. I just wanted to give a short intro (I guess?) about my situation before I tell yall what I have on my mind.


Alright. So. I took a party drug a few times in the last couple months and I can't get my mind off of it because it was the best appetite suppressant/diuretic I've ever had in my life. I dropped all my water weight in 3 days and even lost a size. My face and hands were so slim. It's not an addictive drug, but the results/the euphoria are craveable. I haven't told anyone this, the only other person that knows is my bf because he did it with me, and I just feel like I needed to say how I felt and that it was on my mind. He doesn't know I have an ED and I thought maybe this could be somewhat relevant or relatable. I won't say the drug because it's easily abused and can be fatal if done too much, but just know that it wasn't meth. Lol

Thanks for your time!",1.798991521642126,3.1163166144578334,3.6356760374832677,90.89763275323514,77.13253012048195,6.725747434181169,21.332440874609553,7.3871296695380915,0.4890431503792949,1204,30,278,15,27,406,172,332,0.057999999999999996,0.8320000000000001,0.11,0.9377,1,0,4,0,1,0,34.0,0,2,1,4,16,9,0,0,21,3,32,12,3,1,3,50,54,24,1,8,14,0,4,1,1,1,5,3,0,1,23,11,4,1,7,0,0,2,9,2,0,2,19,7,40,7,31,30,8,34,0,1,0,0,15,12,0,7,20,191,63,0,0.0,0.11333767985649985,0.0,0.10428004414554012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337709336378936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355418359602725,0.0,0.2915575225569251,0.0,0.0813969012346901,0.0,0.10038592224278807,0.08460067641282427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637418041592554,0.21168488527998985,0.0,0.18507219002012545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994100863225057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957802592533617,0.11210907080822406,0.0,0.3327945973672533,0.09788079904025232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318042191658088,0.08652706256945955,0.0805949894374276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04836695812254463,0.06833724533710991,0.09184554014999896,0.0,0.0,0.08136563510081903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995347196816687,0.09176273005257778,0.05436397045784076,0.0,0.07650549067152049,0.0,0.10537676244781168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502416933615389,0.0,0.0,0.15771144607993734,0.2339192058536856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06756523495782715,0.046733086347153736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442070968281457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610012442536472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863444441928053,0.0,0.15270470883765133,0.0,0.07031876295723435,0.07092831375591861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937233655270584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550263140169112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352383825459468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128020295879555,0.0,0.09444956135466888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521402719729152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752226412834134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360826960375996,0.08806794024515333,0.0,0.0,0.19065040553386692,0.0,0.0,0.07594082345967765,0.11155651221896908,0.0,0.0,0.09140418278905532,0.10627823738449092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128417317563826,0.0,0.0,0.11648422646258265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159985045390385
EDAnonymous,SongRiverFlow,2019/05/26,"So sick seeing post after post saying that they're only concerned about fat people's ""health"" I can't stand the euphemism that comes up all the time on this site, that people are only concerned with fat people because they're not ""healthy."" What a load of bullshit. People never seem concerned when someone who has anorexia is ""unhealthy"". I'd almost prefer they just come out and be open about the fact that they hate fat people, at least it's honest.",5.7123921568627445,7.151929905882351,4.92794117647059,84.964068627451,67.58823529411765,5.666666666666668,25.93137254901961,3.1291,0.6343725490196079,362,10,62,0,6,108,63,85,0.127,0.835,0.038,-0.8313,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,0,4,0,5,5,3,0,3,14,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,8,6,3,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,9,9,2,15,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,2,4,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858499477753515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480403978326092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244587289613016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859365930663769,0.0,0.20018566907297206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452514781838651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28646645330078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.652820520515321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607355953346901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976733993207533,0.0,0.0,0.1500743912701127,0.17144828970797826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957114737698322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981656513739782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nctdeadinside,2019/05/26,"Why? (Tw: mentions b/p) I'm bulimic, my therapist will ask me why I do what I do, (bc how else will we fix it right?)

The problem lies in that sometimes I do it to cope with bad grades or life circumstances and other times it seems like I'm just b/p for the hell of it???

Ex: My bf broke up with me last week and I didnt fuck up my recovery but my parents leave for the weekend and all of a sudden I'm back into it -_- 

Idk I just felt a lot better about my body when I was b/p 2+ times a day,, anyways I have 10 minutes to go fix this latest binge so rant end I guess.",-1.7348205128205123,-0.037360738461533316,1.405384615384616,100.42294871794874,91.0,4.6974358974358985,17.128205128205128,6.079149491110277,-0.600625641025641,424,11,114,4,15,150,87,130,0.147,0.794,0.059000000000000004,-0.8485,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,1,8,7,2,0,6,0,8,3,1,1,1,18,17,8,0,1,4,2,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,9,7,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,3,1,16,2,13,12,2,17,1,1,0,1,6,5,2,4,12,66,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111140311373967,0.0,0.0,0.15719154191438442,0.17068778612702096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180798835935282,0.0,0.2270720196224679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318383332868948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707723069398998,0.0,0.1810614115326138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962817255022544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889892238721471,0.0,0.0,0.11618042540978715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251990976079841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663507477914616,0.0,0.2164583971390248,0.0,0.0,0.14439264965755336,0.09987257749569983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379630106412491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269916986898481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956087784654575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457931606366564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861024232437541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021832696476993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373551973492867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23840574810265105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639787972472916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689266664225358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3-months-to-45,2019/05/26,"A year wasted God fuck I just realized that it's been a whole ass school year almost and I've ended at exactly the same weight. It's like a cruel joke, I weighed in today at 117.9 pounds, exactly what my first weigh in of the school year was. I was at 110 less than a month ago. What the goddamn fuck happened? I think I'm going to cry, but I also think I'm too numb to. I dont know where to go from here.",0.575333333333333,2.0180307000000006,2.5641666666666687,96.71625000000002,80.8888888888889,5.833333333333334,17.916666666666668,6.6274283507984215,-0.31833333333333336,313,6,78,3,8,105,61,90,0.214,0.73,0.057,-0.9109,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,3,0,7,0,4,7,1,0,2,11,14,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,3,0,4,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,3,1,7,2,11,11,3,16,0,0,0,3,0,6,3,1,9,45,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728968017361681,0.0,0.19531072354453652,0.0,0.0,0.15597847838169365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21424923311656247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285928442973294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275315417656786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590630732790282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606343754081923,0.0,0.0,0.2216986465887678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247882408525572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107192361206075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528978390306038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568411850682085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947945948067625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499556232720109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18488111318842665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375138822478108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177622601924533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37681032200246495
EDAnonymous,anatookover14,2019/05/26,"Honestly at this point I dont know if Im fasting. I could eat in 5 minutes or I could eat in 5 days, I honestly dont know 😒😒 I could eat in 5 minutes or I could eat in 5 days, honestly I dont know  I feel like l'm in control at times but a minute later Im completely out of control and have no rein over my own actions. I hate this disorder so much 😒😒",-1.0407142857142873,0.2808808809523846,2.6930952380952395,94.45607142857143,85.42857142857143,6.5809523809523816,23.595238095238088,7.645422480735847,0.9279809523809526,270,11,72,5,8,101,43,84,0.18,0.741,0.079,-0.8622,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,1,0,8,4,0,2,0,17,13,6,0,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,3,4,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,10,4,10,9,2,16,0,0,0,0,0,10,0,3,6,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358556916679321,0.0,0.29065612824349235,0.4138166272438798,0.0,0.0,0.16712879722284832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850283073074685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4555786783503485,0.0,0.0,0.5303454899311385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551641985327235,0.09256756742440804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792732775453144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799239348459108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21363115891763435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330322652092124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525167131239308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248914784930374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555554014154492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ijuanaexpire,2019/05/26,"meal prep has anyone tried this? if so, what are your experiences with it? thinking of doing this as i'm really prone to binging, and maybe having a meal planned out earlier would really help me",4.467747747747747,6.4320355945945975,5.484864864864863,77.70585585585587,71.43243243243242,9.257657657657658,25.84684684684685,9.725611199111238,2.5571333333333337,155,5,28,4,3,51,34,37,0.0,0.91,0.09,0.5192,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,6,7,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873281870333447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4019633220284378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754342433996919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128292114572953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5264979211357886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633040307832084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789909774238679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919092005049921,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nothinginlifematters,2019/05/26,"I feel like a fake... I know my relationship with food is like, sad as hell, and very disordered. However, every few weeks, I allow myself to eat just a bit more than usual, maybe a few hundred calories more, a “normal” day of eating. Today was that day, and I feel awful. I don’t know how people do this every day I hate this and I want to shoot myself, all because I couldn’t help myself and I made cookies. Whyyyyyyyy did I do this I hate this feeling

Send me love and reassurance, I want to hear that I’m not an absolute dumbass",1.3596464646464668,3.507333314814815,3.4261279461279446,87.98621212121212,81.5925925925926,6.149494949494951,20.929292929292927,7.348242739294969,0.7090999999999994,410,12,85,6,11,139,68,108,0.175,0.624,0.201,-0.2619,1,0,0,1,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,5,1,7,4,0,3,1,21,20,7,0,4,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,6,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,3,4,17,4,7,16,6,7,1,1,0,1,6,0,1,0,8,55,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182125341356696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18235585600402046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231657717931761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19143332449397213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418311952988308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814635949504556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25336943409910434,0.1193278073231058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20197594893178505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298193512564403,0.0,0.0,0.18825738202465225,0.0,0.11195813487704342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835930119574727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320695093101534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075304431112638,0.15804986693021122,0.0,0.0,0.16780625374328836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365605092970553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579906731236655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793300280626213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832695558902385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839623243328031,0.1378190236883699,0.19703978933606625,0.0,0.13398312223001324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tofu_snob,2019/05/26,How are you guys spending your Saturday night? Just pulled into the grocery store to get binge/purge food so I can play games and watching KUWTK. What a fucking life I have at 23.,2.0541428571428604,4.673188057142858,1.9825000000000017,96.43375000000002,82.71428571428572,4.642857142857143,23.035714285714285,5.985473137389443,0.28428571428571425,142,5,29,1,4,42,34,35,0.0,0.9179999999999999,0.08199999999999999,0.3976,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,3,5,0,5,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,0,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.543509080438689,0.0,0.0,0.4155340203943169,0.23483305480935185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4450526574786107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174787270843644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218034893936419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marshallcat,2019/05/26,"Sad drunk bad I feel like a bitch.

I've been in recovery for uhh 5 months? I don't know but I've been hitting a slippity slope. My body image, bad. My thoughts about food and weight, bad. I eat (a lot) but feel BAD afterwards and I think about starving myself but I don't because I'm commited to recovery and I want to have a life.

Today I was in a pissy mood. I feel chubby, I have acne, I feel UGLY. My mom, an ex-bulimic, was hearing me complain about pimples and bloating and downright asked if I had been purging. I said no, I hadn't. I said ""If I were purging, I'd be losing weight and not gaining it"". She said ""Well, you don't always lose weight by purging"". Her response made me mad, for some reason, and I blurted out ""Well, I would, because I do it right"" (which is a blatant lie btw! I sucked at purging). I could tell this hurt her (no one wants to think about their daughter throwing up), but I didn't apologize because... I'm a prideful bitch I guess.

I'm writing this in a bathroom stall in a restaurant. I came here for dinner with my dad and brother. They probably think I'm purging. In a way, I wish I was. I had over 2000 calories today. I can't stop counting calories even though I'm  not supposed to. I tell myself it'll get easier and one day I won't think about my ED, recovery, food, and weight so much. I believe in full recovery, but damn this half-recovery state sucks.

PS: I'm a bit drunk in case you were wondering why this makes no sense.",0.7764542079207928,2.8861912607260716,2.6288851072607287,93.07966429455446,83.5874587458746,5.503671617161716,23.990202145214518,6.770275591412753,0.7669538778877896,1124,44,246,13,32,373,155,303,0.261,0.6890000000000001,0.05,-0.9968,0,0,0,0,0,0,61.0,0,2,2,4,11,20,6,0,12,0,25,12,1,3,2,48,58,19,0,7,9,4,8,1,0,3,1,4,0,0,8,13,10,1,12,2,0,2,12,15,2,2,18,12,46,4,25,34,5,23,0,4,0,0,21,13,5,6,7,149,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938718942122351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891937024849524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186471422548865,0.17447969254931311,0.0,0.0,0.10749226685244599,0.0,0.0,0.10416094421504102,0.10597690054533218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912145934069163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617561136713412,0.0,0.0,0.06153033719450455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976263138588138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301615597992673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19296482580310054,0.06815957191751029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307357274997497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04984679897039615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051027881364668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075318725531202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213635363897433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052433801402988825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738956872659717,0.04661158266027285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21347453836868985,0.0,0.08111256218904456,0.0,0.09027745932189547,0.0636856534122239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174082380123992,0.07615384211653496,0.0,0.07013593769093933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12930200727046354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286607796773532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809542593992188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147800352730278,0.2722648788274215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976545096409192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16678178456986875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24453465457316825,0.0937379823826577,0.07574338111729566,0.0,0.0,0.1808714625373149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254834889823846,0.07573051580279834,0.0,0.4647254932016101,0.17156669554600815,0.0,0.08609097831821427,0.0,0.10971461646930854,0.0,0.10346602404587504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777518302690769,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carlacoutoure,2019/05/26,"Binged & purged all day... & I just purchased Black Swan to trigger myself into starting off this week RESTRICTING. I spent $200 the last two days on food just to yak it all up (& they were pretty crappy purge sessions too) and now I’m going to buy the ultimate ED motivational cinematic experience to get me on the right track to start restricting tomorrow. I refuse, REFUSE, to continue wasting my precious time & energy every weekend throwing up my feelings. I really just want to be stronger, continue working out and eating 1200 calories a day at the most. I’m 5’6, 130-140lbs depending on how much water I’m retaining since I’m constantly vacillating between restricting, binging and purging. Last night I legit FELL asleep on a mini popcorn/halo top binge and I cannot account for this laziness anymore! I swear bp’ing once FELT like the easy way out now but it now seems like it’s totally delaying any progress I’ve made. I wish I never started bp’ing and just stuck to good old restricting.

Also too, DAE does else have there bp’ing sessions triggered after a long night of drinking/partying/drugs? Just wondering... it always seems like the morning after an alcohol/drug binge I am CRAVING food all day long and here we find ourselves again, bent over a toilet. I feel so bad for my roommate I literally feel like she thinks I’m a basket case who does the same dumb shit every weekend. 

Sorry if I bored anyone to tears here, hoping there’s a few that can relate and be reassured WE are not alone in this crazy cycle!!!",5.526413690476193,7.133237663194442,5.860654761904764,77.47125000000005,68.2013888888889,8.81904761904762,31.42261904761905,9.23628265651192,2.908861904761905,1229,51,213,24,21,393,185,288,0.15,0.706,0.14400000000000002,-0.4576,0,1,4,0,0,0,44.0,2,0,1,4,18,12,2,0,14,0,8,6,2,6,5,53,32,12,0,4,8,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,12,4,8,10,2,4,3,3,4,0,1,5,5,22,8,28,25,8,50,0,0,1,0,8,16,2,7,34,119,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895190980464074,0.0,0.10558786875789312,0.0,0.08152815453936056,0.08482929387147295,0.4418444981357963,0.0,0.0693284554882969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110548776143276,0.07128474056821359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512271396907017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017007809538673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26299331637444456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843158604154272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364557171544639,0.10431873616253702,0.08516486485251867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179196577028258,0.0,0.0,0.09972516593162917,0.0,0.0,0.15464462875794285,0.07283200726084055,0.09788651875096854,0.0,0.09317905452868216,0.0,0.2465529889321368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053263867750449966,0.0,0.05793966484281805,0.08550953963269807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012578338871932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620321968537613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199227491091688,0.0,0.0,0.180442375445656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646610722232808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749438557116299,0.0,0.07862894490422716,0.0,0.0,0.1913434656290692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697776957271728,0.1085717931964568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371824501629356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531080035233879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706343625046742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562011614515986,0.0,0.0,0.1046486393048691,0.08433282780076673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412296539950333,0.21647895514554968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532446300775814,0.0,0.0,0.05944697264168081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958884139205527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013184893585186,0.08092195008929688,0.08177691311015058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723570906495355,0.0,0.11055876676689567,0.07421970028151534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NewBullMoose,2019/05/26,JFC I want to drink so bad. But calories :( haven't been drink since last summer and I truly miss it,1.09,2.9408134761904776,1.9907142857142863,99.49178571428571,80.90476190476191,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.304638095238095,77,1,18,0,2,24,19,21,0.331,0.515,0.154,-0.6995,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344549326317459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7848021467310571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265138295710929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33135139759522586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23626353704100936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oanbjfknabd,2019/05/26,"Most diets I've seen people try seem disorderly and I'm having a hard time figuring the line between eating disorder and not. Like, my sister says she's tried the coffee diet where you drink nothing but coffee and  takes small bites, chews her food like a lot until she's not hungry. My other friend went periods of not eating for 3 days, one will crash diet, and a few try diets but they end up binging. I'd want to say it's the interference with their life that makes it disorderly and the distress but there's people that can also be in denial and think everything is fine.",9.016578947368425,6.678800482456143,9.035333333333334,70.89300000000001,61.719298245614034,11.576140350877195,32.449122807017545,9.888512548439397,2.90996701754386,461,11,86,7,5,152,83,114,0.10800000000000001,0.797,0.095,-0.1419,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,0,3,5,0,1,7,0,5,10,0,1,0,21,13,11,0,1,6,1,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,5,7,9,1,3,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,4,8,4,8,9,3,10,0,0,1,0,10,4,0,3,7,52,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289954265184599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402828080956772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5546079825731621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15801733901013956,0.0,0.3301102531066489,0.0,0.0,0.1428682151321142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497039397028225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505045923336534,0.0,0.12462372335436105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449745789934088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393438259513125,0.15761079919433024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713561116871428,0.0,0.0,0.10767223679865258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477634949294633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930433778586464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236569391309146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256552174589624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468458729860682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128116903920723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335763167197537,0.0,0.0,0.09405815248084208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32854620491688435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514177702966374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953120764865088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oil-of-okay,2019/05/26,"i don’t feel hungry anymore? and then suddenly i’m too hungry but like in a way where i don’t have energy to eat and i just wanna sleep? my relationship is so stressful right now and it makes it hard to eat bc i already feel like i’m choking kind of? and making restrictive choices just feels second nature? and now it’s nighttime and i don’t really have the energy to make food/leave my bedroom and i just wanna like wilt until tomorrow. i wish someone would bring me a sandwich or a protein bar but i can’t really do it myself. 

last time i weighed myself a couple weeks ago i was 97lbs and i really didn’t wanna be under 100. i don’t wanna lose more weight. my goal which was for my stomach to be flat has been more or less reached. even tho i look really bad in every other way. i don’t wanna lose more i just don’t have energy for shifting this mindset?",0.5967142857142846,2.8947854333333325,3.0273015873015865,88.62500000000004,86.33333333333334,5.8730158730158735,19.12698412698413,7.2636822038024595,0.5845317460317458,678,19,139,11,21,233,100,180,0.135,0.74,0.125,-0.71,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,11,8,0,1,5,0,20,8,2,3,0,30,31,16,0,7,8,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,8,6,1,3,1,0,1,8,4,0,1,4,6,22,4,16,24,4,18,0,2,1,0,1,5,0,2,13,99,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748000858953007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869930607780566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262213079256594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007639856069145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912442844265814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943096514839008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498598365154293,0.0,0.12116719257125935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181458885903958,0.10273879584015093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389715144715792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288266452630462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497573013336173,0.0,0.11722537451204212,0.0,0.15227536402242514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107767584213584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076524208953285,0.3217760381634219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28798540658898325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36851671323706703,0.0,0.0,0.1543994778287245,0.0,0.12281403380856835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391512292022518,0.0,0.12185081742500177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473531719073736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385750462259324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283013752301519,0.11535672153551678,0.17512337674867282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537585646462913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215939590197877,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kriskross88,2019/05/26,Anyone from ProEd active on peach still? I need more people! I’m @k_besso,0.7526190476190457,2.6384366428571475,0.5585714285714296,99.36976190476193,111.14285714285714,1.866666666666667,11.809523809523812,3.1291,-1.737590476190476,59,1,11,0,3,17,13,14,0.0,0.7859999999999999,0.214,0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760798009870766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5048561235084518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720291972849891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5437432800123724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fragilmountain,2019/05/26,"dae log calories for days months in advance? i just logged my christmas eve meals, and my christmas breakfast. and now i’m gonna try to log the rest of the christmas week, and then i’ll get started on new year’s eve/day. 

it’s funny because i can barely log a week in advance but here i am logging 7 months away lmao",2.774328358208954,3.843173597014925,3.5494328358208977,93.48176119402989,74.22388059701494,5.36,28.32537313432836,3.1291,0.6169725373134329,249,10,55,0,5,79,49,67,0.0,0.8809999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,7,5,1,17,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,11,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882692002766528,0.0,0.0,0.18703573393379405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957493829185438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16030173758547872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4898044996767321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963304261257577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171700637231535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083118757774824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4922279143283998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19758319282618364
EDAnonymous,anotheraccountyay,2018/11/28,"literally cant lose weight i was so excited that i finally hit 135.8 pounds. i had been waiting for like a month for it to finally come down and i was anxiously tracking everything and hoping one day i would wake up and it would happen and it did. It was supposed to be 135.0 but whatever, it's progress.

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Then i moved to college and as soon as i started walking 5k steps a day i ballooned to 140. it HAS NOT COME DOWN FROM 140 SINCE THEN. 4 FUCKING MONTHS OF NOTHING DESPITE MY TRACKING AND CONSISTENCY. i should be at EXACTLY 133.0 pounds, but no.

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ON TOP OF THAT, my periods have started making me crave food much more than they did before, so now i have to take 2 steps forward 1 step back every 30 days. i basically am fighting off food demons every month.

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holy fuck i wish it would come off like normal bodies do",3.1986947791164653,5.363837704819278,4.0802168674698835,85.52040562248999,75.56626506024097,7.077269076305221,28.53654618473896,8.021203637495839,1.9625755823293176,673,29,130,11,15,216,107,166,0.073,0.802,0.126,0.7837,0,0,0,0,2,0,28.0,0,0,1,3,5,8,3,0,2,0,19,7,2,1,1,22,33,14,0,7,3,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,9,3,1,0,0,0,9,3,4,0,1,7,1,16,4,20,19,2,33,1,1,0,2,2,9,2,1,19,86,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354974608851294,0.37624946395739656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660260925790225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936530929817966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782763843705388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464765120832715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667295496221365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969376159634333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392474368869054,0.0,0.09276222153802026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261321096008759,0.0,0.0,0.24961391653811754,0.0,0.0,0.1908396345498703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912719307990678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251493849748218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085043898443108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547023120516332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889624570833566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24715364624432976,0.10970030563419143,0.07587427524472874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112795125800426,0.0990367593500083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699405783420679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537981036554444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611101133810347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760419464067432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256870270267183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869117719713028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21996110957007112,0.0,0.37624946395739656,0.0
EDAnonymous,whatsupbitchezzz,2018/11/28,"New scale = insta-relapse :( So I won't quite say I was ""recovered"", but I was pretty close. I had cut B/P down from 2-3 times per day to 2-3 times per week and I was feeling way more comfortable with the way I look. The only thing that was bugging me was I didn't really know how much I weighed because my cheap little scale was super inaccurate.

Well, today I went out and bought a big beautiful digital glass scale to replace the old one. I told myself I can handle it, right?? WRONG. I've stepped on it maybe 85 times since I brought it home earlier this afternoon -- every time I drink a couple sips of water, every time I pee, every time I eat a snack, every time I get up to walk around for Christ's sake. 

And to top it all off I've already had a B/P episode because a good scale gives me ""license"" to binge and purge since I'll have the ability to monitor right after and make sure I haven't gained.

Lol. I'm a crazy person :(",4.733070500927647,4.078139561224488,5.9284786641929506,84.29444341372914,69.20408163265307,9.3721706864564,28.532467532467532,8.841846274778883,1.8770571428571432,718,21,162,11,11,242,125,196,0.111,0.7120000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.9396,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,1,0,10,1,13,6,1,2,2,16,24,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,7,9,5,0,2,1,2,4,3,2,1,1,13,3,21,5,17,10,3,32,1,0,1,0,4,12,0,0,14,81,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773286492462666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110891522230054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15216816332990804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810182256345813,0.0,0.08049325050230215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226799437293533,0.0,0.12771357504856504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206371150616501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06310856875528917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520898566797301,0.1197307993614934,0.0,0.1046861705670346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519635737755785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06859327127977599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509415832631246,0.0,0.0,0.10481043167354882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331280937577527,0.0,0.12539017430709787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917509940490761,0.0,0.0,0.12054396166426408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309689314253772,0.0,0.08457566898074369,0.09492495677135653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898080205583174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697841592094414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327526548408826,0.0,0.0,0.07995760022709819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131770975874448,0.0,0.09925530968812117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649113148015336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176335931539296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291937783485598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094511280349332,0.0,0.11830694098677998,0.1192629716230878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19813950831810592,0.10011645380232144,0.0,0.11222074859416216,0.11570173861863545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646205055175714,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,delicatedead,2018/11/28,"Onision cured my ED /s Hey guys, I was wondering how people on this sub felt about Eugenia cooney, and also onion boy’s seeming obsession with her. I’ve been a long time lurker (rip r/proED 5ever in our hearts) and it isn’t something I’ve really seen discussed. YouTube is a huge crutch for me in regards to my ED, and also often a major trigger, and having had the video I’ll link below in my recommendations constantly, I finally watched it and oh boy it made me angry. Does he expect someone to be cured of an ED so that onision finds them attractive .. wow 

Tw: photoshopped images 
Tw: general insensitivity and ignorance about EDs
Tw: onision 

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EDAnonymous,yssjfs,2018/11/28,Just learned that the state I moved to requires a prescription for bronkaid 😒 Hey unrelated but does anyone have music suggestions for an impromptu 3 hour road trip across state lines?,4.942499999999999,8.430078250000005,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,79.0,8.200000000000001,29.875,8.841846274778883,3.16385,152,7,25,4,4,44,30,32,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,12,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38178802909963505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4778234655896267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.537717106372598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5803300354818931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tomorrowsaffair,2018/11/28,"People whose ED developed a little later — have you ever looked back and recognized the disordered behavior that previously went other your radar? So, I didn’t slip into ED hell until I was almost 20, which I know is sort of later, at least given my observations.

Anyway, my best friend from high school is coming home from the graduate school he attends out of state for the holidays. He was talking about treating me to a night out in lieu of a Christmas gift, since he didn’t have any gift ideas, and to tell him if I had anything in mind. I was kicking some ideas around mentally, thinking about where to go to eat because I feel like that’s an expectation. I ruled out a food truck we would go to sometimes because, on top of the menu being horrible, I used to hate when he would do his “burger thing”, where he’d take a fork and a knife to burgers and eat them like that.

And something kind of clicked, I guess. I thought back and remembered he would just destroy the burgers with a fork and knife and barely eat any of them. I never really thought anything of it because I thought it was just a strange quirk, but he never used to finish it. I wracked my brain a little more and remembered all the times he wouldn’t let me buy him anything to eat because “I ate before I came”. I chalked it up to him not having a lot of money and feeling guilty about having me buy him things. I’m not so sure if that was the reason anymore.

It feels very strange to notice these things retrospectively. Part of me is like “I should have known something was off about this” and another part of me is like “how could you have known? The only reason you recognize this as disordered behavior now is because you’ve developed an eating disorder since.” And I worry about all the awkward positions I’ve put him in the past, with taking him out to meals and such. All we would do before he went to college was eat meals together. I feel awful about it. I think I’m just going to ask him if he’d be interested in seeing a movie or play instead of anything food related.

I’m wondering if anyone else has any experiences with this—recognizing disordered behavior retrospectively, when you didn’t previously have the context to understand it. It’s a weird mix of worry for that person and affirmation that you’re not the only one you know struggling with these feelings & anxieties. But mostly I’m just worried. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, let alone him.",7.732212280701759,6.755944995789478,7.729592105263157,74.89635307017545,63.252631578947366,10.94824561403509,34.94956140350877,10.125756701596842,3.31951403508772,1943,72,370,36,24,628,222,475,0.126,0.805,0.069,-0.9838,0,1,2,0,0,0,40.0,2,6,2,2,25,18,3,2,26,1,40,12,1,5,7,91,77,28,0,14,14,0,5,4,1,7,0,0,1,1,25,28,11,0,22,2,3,9,10,7,0,1,19,8,51,11,58,44,12,46,1,0,3,0,35,21,1,12,19,255,76,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611068194287131,0.06837803868353175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153392842626309,0.0,0.13469001317143922,0.06922897096134184,0.05050602727301736,0.0,0.06547527698584966,0.04616354895177727,0.06764650800524258,0.21731924580657708,0.05877285364831138,0.0617208975493781,0.0,0.0,0.10153243496781153,0.0,0.20122951374846146,0.0,0.11235833472888852,0.0,0.06928516247137148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370147910141768,0.0,0.07551064957239227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05687140660170944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052712545549337686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026639999938611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40533693845615404,0.0551522300039601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971994333823261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458138926385719,0.0,0.0,0.16691147906484838,0.04716554911530721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966616253424246,0.0,0.051007805228781775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125640859278235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272978066830749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518225365837348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975500877792756,0.06622463350246129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905976777445995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875090654572552,0.07256703543760369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350222733615879,0.0,0.12901846824777452,0.13234114733028038,0.0,0.0,0.05544116913787901,0.0,0.0,0.05612885216511988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653382804954963,0.0,0.06666257824745263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183921883364308,0.0,0.0,0.0619564115108037,0.0,0.0,0.07516555887478042,0.0,0.0,0.044737664887359134,0.10042417533702036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298902339695035,0.06302469335212242,0.04577077815600338,0.05764715384798778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636952801190356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04229486289930255,0.13576155189929395,0.0,0.0,0.14957826940022995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133633931697985,0.05261033816997157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092268161009051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165267036289256,0.06529664200464855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901967928774062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222418732761846,0.0,0.0992794322262457,0.053065329194685096,0.05770542735500848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315846288755474,0.08460742149777534,0.0,0.15724034328901645,0.03849748501158035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873038392844791,0.0,0.11404221573031728,0.0,0.05447439349318225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240460339447888,0.0,0.0,0.07592110669375939,0.0,0.07159716092124675,0.0,0.20114316013464476,0.0,0.18759822774258506,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Pulltab_,2018/11/28,"Met a friend for breakfast, screwed up my entire day I met a friend for breakfast this morning. We've been trying to get together for a few weeks. I'm not going to lie - I almost hoped she would cancel on me so I could skip eating and go to they gym instead. After, I was so busy all day I was able to keep from eating (I normally only eat dinner but when I do eat an earlier meal, it tends to fuck with me). 

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I did fine until I got home this afternoon where I proceeded to eat a Quest bar, an entire bag of Whisps and a spoonful of peanutbutter. Now, I'm already at 900 calories for the day and I still have to eat dinner or my family will think something's wrong. I had just gotten back down after picking up a bunch of water weight, etc. from Thanksgiving. 

  
I'm so angry with myself. Why do I have to be like this? I shouldn't have to completely isolate myself and stop hanging out with friends in order to prevent myself from binging.",2.394715073529415,4.272038869791665,3.8719975490196066,87.4183455882353,76.96875,6.39264705882353,23.794117647058826,7.285733465282438,1.0210327205882352,741,24,148,9,17,245,122,192,0.12300000000000001,0.7909999999999999,0.086,-0.8806,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,0,10,9,2,0,9,0,15,16,0,1,1,24,30,11,0,5,4,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,8,14,3,1,2,0,3,2,3,0,0,9,1,23,6,33,16,4,26,0,0,0,2,7,8,2,3,15,105,27,0,0.11650184837255145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665977248797935,0.0,0.1285626866810906,0.0,0.0,0.12622970403770134,0.14156249753540553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958273016855993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214997147819877,0.0,0.0,0.09301724608380137,0.0,0.0,0.2254021627285496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7152628536207062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993035680821136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098275742466582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700271171719093,0.1077040815346494,0.06086740733819139,0.0,0.13242137043254054,0.0,0.09317717078991912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686085289776707,0.11571262249055582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355219577011264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05691691837916345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414707572056125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860490546167342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968881464252795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303852660189213,0.09740076184690118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464968029867187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790971076627889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345075548129657,0.14186786553708108,0.0,0.0,0.10512479745289663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275957048253524,0.12737648242883426,0.14156249753540553,0.0
EDAnonymous,Icanmakeyouhappy,2018/11/28,"Classic hypocrisy at work A colleague of mine, mind you - she’s pretty old coming to retirement age. Compliments me first, I’ve lost about 20lbs (she, like others have mentioned it). Then she says “if I find out you are doing anything dodgy to lose weight, I’m going to be angry...” to my response “whaaat no?! It’s all healthy eating and exercise”. She then says “well you look much more healthy now and beautiful”. 

Walked away thinking wtf. 1) You’re not my mum. My own family are probably grateful I’m losing weight because they’re all overweight/obese. 2) YOU JUST COMPLIMENTED ME. Therefore means what I’m doing is correct, even good, if you and others are impressed. Thus, I must continue. You proved my point. I was fat and ugly before. 

And side note, started intermittent fasting and it’s helping with the binge urges 🌿🌿. Everyone stay safe 🌞",2.155638939119953,5.014183563291142,2.8037793851717936,88.36162447257387,86.78481012658226,5.541169379144063,24.61241711874623,7.07126945348624,1.3198163954189273,665,27,121,10,21,207,113,158,0.094,0.6940000000000001,0.213,0.9644,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,6,0,5,5,10,0,0,2,0,10,5,1,2,5,25,20,10,0,3,4,1,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,9,4,1,4,1,0,3,2,3,1,1,2,5,20,7,10,16,5,18,0,3,1,0,15,5,0,2,10,70,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783375269654247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736665416282208,0.0,0.0,0.10210313009437658,0.0,0.1425255353242005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442817337958439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138875153182076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062857822690464,0.0,0.0,0.16004823138560828,0.0,0.0,0.1578989659979025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308699483958452,0.14247078849231998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519101924423863,0.1404864915049835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226807397512736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182938229768266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065324712122346,0.3747671418563798,0.1828400998161504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824506802444727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912175983624209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312777491269007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575736673189502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583364996943,0.0,0.0,0.1704021844811979,0.18058746644231133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663967961727254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11855351275696943,0.17852691675492013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732375190916993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079265053478349,0.1505977261243059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193803566116247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AltruisticJacket,2018/11/28,"Secret to stopping a binge cycle: emotional trauma 🌈 I was just slightly going back and forth between binging and restricting and the same 5lbs and it was driving me nuts I couldn’t lose. I was drinking too much and eating too much. Then on Sunday night I woke up at 5 am to my “boyfriend” telling me not to touch him. I couldn’t understand why. He wouldn’t tell me. He told me to get out. I figured out he went through my phone while I was asleep and saw I had briefly talked to some random from Tinder. 

For context: we’ve been dating for a year but he refuses to make it official or exclusive.  But whenever he thinks I’m talking to or hooking up with other guys he loses it. He’s allowed to sleep with his ex but I can’t do anything without him acting like this? And then I end up apologizing even though I want to be with him....and I am with only him...

So, he wouldn’t come out and say it. I begged him to tell me. Briefly last night he said “we can still be friends.” So I guess he’s ending it but he won’t actually say what I did wrong. I’ve been so physically ill with anxiety and panic that I have been completely unable to eat in 2 days. I’ve never gone an entire day without a calorie. I’m on day 2 and well on my way to day 3. No cravings. No desire at all. I’m so broken even my ED is broken hearted ",0.4338009592326131,2.5164264568345374,2.582992805755396,93.04875779376499,84.7913669064748,5.433285371702636,21.856594724220624,6.742157984588678,0.4606816306954444,1017,35,228,12,30,343,157,278,0.168,0.779,0.053,-0.9849,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,1,0,0,2,13,8,0,1,5,0,23,7,3,2,2,51,40,24,0,6,10,1,1,1,1,3,1,3,0,1,9,20,3,3,4,1,0,6,12,5,1,0,15,5,31,3,36,18,5,38,0,2,1,0,33,12,0,5,20,145,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.1171653767892942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184881342079224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988026377175552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232198787984486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342470980149916,0.1258850691993254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097260033097961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176172442829564,0.0,0.24571137903709345,0.0,0.13505610751752287,0.2126825557844078,0.0,0.0,0.1586025936597061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276133242745534,0.0,0.06272860887339061,0.0,0.06823527332278215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226429429161135,0.11888247206809785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422767000874333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786837871020078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05865732199579062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26864234210325144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014381116256379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652205936017248,0.0,0.09260094205199694,0.0,0.0,0.22534430793046464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131426328194607,0.0,0.14086951397872732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420858474830352,0.1909598021271276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015094693201275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588345554033016,0.10037907906800088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19300617306400025,0.31482430810760986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693231571309084,0.11796250421124653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472652462522975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499110602500348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081699831494111,0.09530140357448334,0.0,0.0,0.1079521690750617,0.11130075147518027,0.10833929997507112,0.0,0.0,0.23147528181162685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312713962260919,0.0,0.07731743279538936
EDAnonymous,sstephenn,2018/11/28,I just dropped the sandwich I was making BITCH DO U WANT ME TO RECOVER OR NOT???,-2.8294117647058816,-3.404656294117645,0.3124705882352963,98.87811764705884,141.35294117647058,3.7129411764705886,21.04705882352941,5.6839178017228535,0.4275976470588234,61,3,14,1,5,21,16,17,0.266,0.628,0.106,-0.6174,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7493651113130254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6621570281638768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starrubytears,2018/11/28,"I always thought maybe I didn't really have an eating disorder, maybe I was faking it But today I wanted to hurl myself into traffic because the number on the scale this morning was the exact same as it was yesterday so o boi that's a thing... ",3.246632653061223,4.9433209591836755,5.322193877551023,78.72369897959184,74.10204081632655,7.348979591836735,24.494897959183675,8.07648339933343,1.6770775510204083,193,6,34,3,4,67,40,49,0.12300000000000001,0.848,0.028999999999999998,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,1,6,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,5,0,4,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26066118707342417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096315208068615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.359028295499089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205478244735281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6294326592801507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006852818361252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811903637929066,0.0,0.0,0.2486970477091968,0.0,0.0,0.2969381488147175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184771538335414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Serenescence,2018/11/28,"how bad is losing your period? i personally wouldn't consider myself to be underweight enough to even lose my period yet, but im about 2 and a half weeks late. i took a test today and it came back negative thank god but ill be doing another test in a couple days just to make sure.

but how bad is this really? like what are the consequences for my body? obviously it means im not fertile which i am 100% okay with as i never want kids anyway but are there any real health risks? i dont even know if i have actually lost it yet but im just wondering in case it doesn't show up.",1.1034972677595611,3.0733377377049216,3.656967213114754,86.95189890710384,81.45901639344262,8.001092896174864,18.36338797814207,8.841846274778883,1.084128961748633,452,10,101,12,12,158,87,122,0.203,0.6859999999999999,0.111,-0.9082,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,3,12,10,0,1,4,1,12,3,1,3,3,25,21,11,0,3,9,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,6,0,1,3,0,10,4,10,15,1,15,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,2,11,67,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.14606392996321835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017860286185627,0.15695021153206762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509298003622273,0.2499494021356958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625828020331893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119151503680086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656156256815273,0.0,0.09652979082845256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17542125298101086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465716656364584,0.0,0.1977215348691036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910048956469647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4850330881491993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225899796016692,0.0,0.16884306454954492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312500677765046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349023177102065,0.16339098698855653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991108586358202,0.0,0.0,0.16304299085295465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154407375716032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306928712795063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703660915636531,0.09588742381382737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106954397652693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13780319749227898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187704181086996,0.0,0.16629753000533354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882838374742807,0.0,0.120062493236599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231917643207674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nextlvlrattata,2018/11/28,"Pro recovery discord servers? Are there any discord servers mainly centered around people in recovery? I feel like a lot of these servers can be triggering even if they're ""not pro""",5.539895833333333,8.435954031250002,4.42625,82.32708333333336,71.1875,8.016666666666666,38.79166666666666,8.841846274778883,3.9178416666666656,147,9,24,3,3,43,27,32,0.168,0.759,0.073,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,6,4,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443800958880384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4508174102542374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344828463271737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560590342745124,0.3617835341570615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24740916988000206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4305365862450224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510849379048913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Light__Bright,2018/11/28,"When people joke about eating disorders Hi all, I haven't posted in this new sub yet! I am someone who probably falls under the category of EDNOS (or ""atypical anorexic"" as the head of the ED team at my university said) and you would never know by looking at my that I have a problem. Although my weight has yo-yo'd a ton in the past 10 years, it's usually in a normal-ish range. This leads to me hearing a lot of people either joking about eating disorders or talking about them in front of me. I never know quite how to react. I do theatre, and the other day my director made a comment during a dinner scene that, ""You keep forgetting to act like you're eating. We've been joking that (your character) has an eating disorder."" Everyone laughed! Then some other actors behind me started making jokes to each other about purging/bulimia. I was just sitting there fuming. Why do people think that it's a joke!? I guess because I go to group therapy and talk to you guys in here I forget how ignorant and insensitive people in the real world can be about it. ",4.5190406504065015,5.89786347317073,5.97219512195122,76.58674796747971,70.36585365853661,8.588617886178861,28.300813008130078,9.029198982220553,2.4735300813008125,832,30,147,16,15,282,132,205,0.063,0.8640000000000001,0.073,0.2677,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,4,1,3,12,10,1,0,14,0,12,7,1,6,3,31,24,12,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,13,5,6,2,3,7,0,5,3,3,0,0,4,5,21,7,27,18,6,28,0,0,1,0,15,10,0,5,12,110,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324170832031973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748615802455855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131034507627198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.491769642614266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480750756115532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828343910471807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235765675425765,0.11896638859611625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12330752537579093,0.0,0.13541664241150844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679394165657664,0.0,0.0,0.13206148402850554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05869872691208412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089489020009854,0.0,0.0,0.10214637361224277,0.0,0.11368787817559392,0.08020038292001405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853326140495116,0.11604064196856295,0.0,0.0,0.11772049886641618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469580484212245,0.3331847223451031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506951891301205,0.0,0.12954093112765167,0.11496635569703433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277932388987833,0.0,0.1367558530856837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142892020818368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180184821534327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504207259531886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19314241188582054,0.0,0.0,0.1374008396505001,0.0,0.0,0.07698662054638332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232713651623487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630909989339785,0.0,0.0,0.10841577430929124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535039431955829,0.0,0.0,0.0773720094743784
EDAnonymous,WITCH79,2018/11/28,"Fasting today because I messed up yesterday... start of the cycle Every morning after a binge (not even a binge really, just went over maintenance by 400 cals lmao) my mind is clear and I’m going to stay clean and light today but I know that I’ll end up eating like 900 cals and feeling guilty, slowly breaking the habit by recognizing that this happens over and over again

Somehow managed not to use my parents scale when I visited them a whole week and when I came back I swore I wouldn’t weigh myself until I had done 1200 for a week because I just knew I had gained... but first thing I fucking do is weigh myself after I come back LOL. Only gained a pound miraculously and felt great, like borderline ecstatic. Today I’m 3 pounds over my fucking “ideal” my psychologist and I set. I know its not fat and I had drank yesterday so its water weight and I’ve already lost 1 lb of it by shitting but I feel huge. Fuck this shit my psych appointment isn’t until Friday and I’m going to starve today and fuck up recovery progress",3.4501941466241703,5.327741837438428,4.4128716314111855,84.69303100550566,73.97536945812806,7.141002607939727,24.74905824398725,7.928766900206844,1.397574558099102,815,26,157,12,17,264,120,203,0.134,0.6809999999999999,0.185,0.8907,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,6,10,12,6,0,7,1,9,13,3,1,1,33,32,19,0,2,8,1,4,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,13,7,0,6,0,0,6,5,8,0,1,10,5,23,4,20,21,1,38,0,1,0,4,3,8,6,1,23,96,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692861654012087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082425273665413,0.0,0.15127962449352889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419178342652693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688647101090536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697993453981118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696783120254487,0.0,0.0,0.1099006604756548,0.0,0.0,0.08195561564542506,0.0,0.10454523374348433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548013164784996,0.0,0.1191390870611508,0.0,0.0,0.10554489056551554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588507368968375,0.0,0.0,0.1410383955233692,0.0,0.0,0.13680188612738367,0.0,0.0,0.1097261394466915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363854842552044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124131958627042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545119340112166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528840348999534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437067190133352,0.0,0.0,0.1377794274182581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949071259757859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547387221051909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782654790154612,0.1322559107821087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824351958227821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704644970618632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716782574981698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19906370958822134,0.15109960021043653,0.0,0.11502613416925825,0.0,0.1385341780640446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BeginningBarnacle,2018/11/28,"Walking Dead extra It’s possible they are no longer making new episodes, but I used to be obsessed with The Walking Dead, and when they need extras for zombies, they prefer very thin people. It occurred to me that more and more, I’d make a very good walking dead extra ✅🤷‍♀️
Although the part where the zombies feed, they are eating ribs... I’d be hanging back, exercising my pretend eating acting chops",2.1566104078762294,4.79446817721519,3.2181434599156127,87.6242897327708,82.41772151898734,4.5237693389592115,25.233473980309423,5.82211442006289,0.8160621659634324,322,13,58,2,9,103,57,79,0.231,0.72,0.049,-0.9423,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,1,4,0,4,5,1,3,0,9,8,5,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,2,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,7,1,4,6,6,10,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19761149042236303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5259352938592271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21555324819320812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430891889497572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055679920848315,0.0,0.2482051100548315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782980043418389,0.0,0.17816635033064293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28972060749675904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219591426984015,0.0,0.4240917138037607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imrevolting,2018/11/28,"7 pound gain in 3 days? Hi loves!

I was super excited to have hit my first goal weight on Friday. Fast forward to Sunday and the scale is showing 7 pounds up!! :(((((((((((((((

Now, I know I didn’t actually gain 7 pounds but that’s a hell of a lot to fluctuate. Here are some factors that may have played a part:

-Had a flight on Friday (maybe altitude contributes to dehydration?)
-Binged over the weekend but no where near an obscene amount. I would say...eh... medium gluttony. Lots of peanut butter.
-My period isn’t set to start for another 10 days.

Halp? Any ideas? Has something similar happened to you? Was the weight on Friday a false achievement? So disappointed in myself!",1.2865037593984925,3.9570082936507935,2.5423475355054315,88.64680451127823,93.04761904761904,5.827234753550544,21.7109440267335,7.273561745256523,1.1560222222222225,519,19,99,10,19,166,94,126,0.156,0.74,0.10400000000000001,-0.9204,0,0,1,0,0,0,45.0,0,1,0,6,4,6,1,0,9,0,12,3,0,0,0,10,17,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,3,0,1,3,2,0,1,4,3,8,4,17,10,5,20,1,1,0,1,3,10,1,4,10,61,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.2113962427485905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473134676006807,0.2271518028087469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794123792175227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842624142038227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156212344701215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445449824404371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905227461305605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683362552366182,0.19551389934427094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176304641383818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345854199148551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227010995870262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667696848054288,0.0,0.0,0.15332937161445168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275855035867406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15388527029836166,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,serendipi7y_,2018/11/28,"Relationship with food Just want to have a healthy relationship with food.
To eat normally, healthily.
If I cant any of the above, I wish God will take away my appetite to eat. 

Here I am, going to restrict tomorrow, because I got too hungry and overeat caramel popcorn and some leftover biscuits in the kitchen. I feel like I am going in circles.. like I can never be satisfied with myself and my body. ",4.548991228070175,6.388526092105267,5.0315789473684225,81.5493859649123,70.97368421052632,7.698245614035088,35.03508771929825,8.344100000000001,2.921550877192983,317,17,58,5,6,101,54,76,0.063,0.759,0.17800000000000002,0.7825,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,7,7,1,0,1,15,14,4,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,6,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,10,2,11,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358956219769285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877528999064306,0.0,0.0,0.12181843012883795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22197321875788426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089651048709185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104330111127993,0.14276318225798168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832859977222405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22714329161072044,0.0,0.15982744482302705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952599666768735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541261708181765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579726763298225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290990684394422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502521219750262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178687013031716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298020270187253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chezpajama,2018/11/28,"Anyone else obsessed with fake / miniature food? I can’t get enough of that shit. Literally been looking at it for hours on instagram.

I also always buy fake food keychains and cutting boards shaped like avocados etc etc.",4.941923076923079,8.000846205128205,4.8535256410256435,77.63105769230769,74.12820512820512,6.976923076923077,30.262820512820515,8.07648339933343,2.5564820512820514,178,8,28,3,4,55,35,39,0.28600000000000003,0.659,0.055,-0.8591,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,2,1,5,3,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849274981713251,0.19241535854608405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169271591579307,0.23693905364626444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931765226167576,0.0,0.0,0.23893913489253896,0.5158012680115908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.55924763252025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081659227627467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22773092055507266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129752099219563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194188562513138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373708955271371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallest_madeline,2018/11/28,"Success in quitting? Has anyone decided to quit bingeing (and purging) successfully? How did you do it? How long were you successful for?

I purged last night and was just overall disgusted with myself. I used to be a strict faster and restricter. The purging is more recent like a few years old cycle. I’ll go like two years without purging. Lately it’s only been a few days. 

Any tips to just stopping? Eating a normal amount isn’t an option! I want to hear your success stories? Cross-posting for maximal help

Thanks!",2.4269951923076936,5.3656972604166695,3.146250000000002,85.65836538461541,86.8125,5.037179487179489,26.134615384615394,6.67199483983844,1.4490826923076925,411,18,69,5,13,129,73,96,0.047,0.6890000000000001,0.264,0.9732,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,6,4,8,1,0,6,0,9,1,0,3,0,16,14,5,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,1,7,7,9,9,4,13,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,13,44,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808873111323205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419852685808386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095781917259894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778253037026725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154044864106525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288649821077233,0.0,0.13610779168326725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552216223222788,0.22906213020933386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19841110878611729,0.0,0.0,0.17970296964537322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055939000391234,0.19895708080622826,0.0,0.0,0.2130788051396001,0.0,0.0,0.1544373627137165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944767121543453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319616379969032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049865799077066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697684423629213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869516764070368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983615045799957,0.0,0.0,0.17537987219026022,0.0,0.0,0.11977088859921345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957439657921976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615297979428755
EDAnonymous,RichardStarrkey,2018/11/28,"Tommy Will Be No More I walked away smiling, having gotten away with it all. Left them behind sleeping, waiting for their prize in the morning. I looked in the mirror and in the reflection, was my own Spud… Murphy. He shook his head, begged wordlessly for me to stop, to stay. 



I crossed the bridge with my future in front of me. My riches and success, the mates of mine would no longer trigger me. The very cat who I turned to drinking would not stop me being sick like him. And sober like I knew I could be. I kept walking, I bought a ticket to the country I've always read about. 



Amsterdam.



When the plane landed I ran. Didn't have a plan, thought or consider for when I'd return. This is manic depression. This is alcoholism. They were avoiding me anyway, it had to be a gift from god, from me that I'm no longer a problem in their lives. They're unburdened by this. Won't have to deal with me running out of class for a drink, or the compulsive need to flirt with a stranger at six in the morning. The purchases, the shoutings. The moods I adapted to when I was starving myself. I never really liked the attention I got, but I loved it at the time. It's a curse, a disease one thinks they'd grow out of by the time they're twenty, thirty. I can see myself heading on into the post office. The woman at the counter asks about my kids. I'm there with my mouth open, having forgotten about my kids who are now in college, raised to hate me for forgetting them. I'm fifty, going sixty. And what am I on about?



There I was, thinking about my next meal, drink, or tea, her words slap me and I feel remorse. Having been just a name in the lives of others, as I think I am so lowly. When really it was selfish to forget. The people who tried to bring me out of it. 



I wish that I could find better words to say I'm sorry. You shouldn't have had to suffer so much. I know that you will live a better life without me. I'm sorry for all the things I've destroyed. You're all so much of the beauty in this world, one where I only made ugly. You only need things to be simpler. I know how embarrassed you are of me. I could not be the person you needed me to be. I've tried and tried and it's always been a disaster but, I love you more than anything and though I'm finished through. I only want to see you smile again. I'm sorry. I love you all dearly. 



Richard. 

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EDAnonymous,yandereb4be,2018/11/28,i can’t deal with myself i can’t fucking sleep because all I’m thinking about is how much I want a milkshake from McDonald’s even tho I’m not fucking hungry because I binged on macadamia nuts and cream cheese (lmao I felt bad wasting food so if I ate it all in one night then it would be out of the house) i won’t even take my make up off incase I fucking go but i know if I do it I’ll hate myself because I feel so full and gross already and also I’m scared the ice cream machine will be down and I’ll cry w h a t i s m y l i f e i a m s o t i r e d ,-3.5770518207282933,-2.1245963382352926,0.2974789915966376,104.46460784313729,104.2941176470588,2.8845938375350144,16.035014005602246,4.375723439535773,-1.2713721288515405,422,13,119,1,21,154,88,136,0.213,0.7759999999999999,0.011000000000000001,-0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,4,1,5,0,9,6,1,2,2,20,25,13,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,4,0,0,1,4,7,0,1,2,4,18,0,10,18,4,10,0,0,2,3,1,7,3,2,2,66,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037485736395836,0.14765200645900536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541619528098274,0.3376541203378442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202812141009297,0.0,0.19034988627348665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24389846638984464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335666455034074,0.0,0.1772779106865445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232605639118179,0.0,0.0,0.5120743869241315,0.0,0.0,0.10493194425827704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18228817525054025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21304322656774916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147019879514976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324484853713105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357274763560855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17326681060413332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511299992830535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485117337894336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18476767003496067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882203763069156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830622302748142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089021111496138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115893013864088,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unlicensedrussian,2018/11/28,"How many of you here have actually been diagnosed? I apologise if I come across as rude but I was just wondering how many people here had actually been diagnosed with an ED or whether you’d just self diagnosed it because you fit the criteria? Like I’d never say that I actually have an ED, even though I do fit most of the criteria, I just relate to a lot of the content that’s posted here, and I was just wondering whether it was the same for anyone else or whether everyone had been professionally diagnosed",7.92848484848485,6.996394575757581,8.699676767676767,67.95618181818182,62.838383838383855,13.576565656565654,38.9919191919192,12.688352899677879,5.084751919191918,409,19,78,14,5,139,56,99,0.021,0.856,0.12300000000000001,0.8723,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,11,2,1,0,7,0,12,4,0,2,1,22,15,12,0,1,11,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,8,1,10,1,8,6,3,6,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,7,2,63,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.4403029630713785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516242449441444,0.15410147079123654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168178801732094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955535565281004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106069672791751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256390020955427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933707074681827,0.0,0.0,0.14371261692838766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347731724257542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786378672789026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30496180544781953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599692186090928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426767679645624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404059493122182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960326080417795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689887834613234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14776617905059494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262024346204508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lillylourose,2018/11/28,"The reason why I stoped with eating? Well, for those who think I did it for the attention: I didn’t. That’s the last thing I want to achieve. I never wanted to be the center of attention. 
See. I’m not happy, I’ve never been happy. I know this feeling will stuck in my life forever. I wanted this feeling to stop. Then I stoped with eating. Now I have a certain control, the one thing I can control in life. My own choice, my own life. I feel -in some weird kind of way- happier than ever. I’m still waiting though for the point where I will be weightless, to see what I can achieve.",0.4789642857142837,2.747789158333333,2.109523809523811,95.20500000000004,86.58333333333334,4.761904761904762,19.404761904761905,6.1826913282559595,-0.062273809523809565,449,13,98,4,14,146,70,120,0.105,0.7909999999999999,0.105,-0.2491,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,0,7,0,10,5,0,3,4,23,24,2,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,9,2,2,4,8,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,4,6,16,5,15,16,3,15,0,0,2,0,1,6,0,1,8,71,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520281130475508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32116391835945673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14195516756822482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380505973910592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341168628994836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342189750400826,0.0862464454891695,0.12792159692901428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33253992330522525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24207329355069604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634207537217163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835270753372906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135358451394066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501110668656006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532714767975148,0.1312032779317319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085190417952352,0.10055653124291436,0.15418618470355236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776900046844966,0.1245663604065989,0.0,0.0,0.1411018966700579,0.0,0.14160790692181052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frankxcastle,2018/11/28,"What's your experience telling someone IRL about your ED? I want to tell someone about my bulimia. It's at the point now where I can't handle this on my own anymore. I'm scared of their reaction and the stigma associated with it. 

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Basically, I just want to hear your stories about coming out to someone. Maybe some advice on how to do it? I really don't  know where to start or how to talk about it.",2.305243902439024,4.545214097560977,3.9489634146341466,85.00685975609757,78.75609756097559,7.0268292682926825,24.88414634146341,8.07648339933343,1.5207512195121955,324,12,66,6,8,108,54,82,0.043,0.9229999999999999,0.034,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,1,0,10,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,12,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,10,0,16,10,2,10,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,2,2,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965895718489276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21797712007413092,0.24445423332413665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995152877440972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732977021999285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967914464062013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22674310212307724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056259417733046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211112106309306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017897033472075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888027557753118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20141505100191429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5113743729385484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239537332968008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169987987681134,0.35167823560696954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373209092533052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24445423332413665,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bleepbloopbroke,2018/11/28,JustCICO Has the ideal body weight thing now and it makes me feel so bad When you see the IBW% and it's over 100%...... Fml. I've gotten so fat and I can't seem to lose it ugh. Motivation though?,-1.9450000000000005,-0.15253883333333285,0.7976190476190474,100.0307142857143,104.0,4.3047619047619055,10.761904761904765,6.1826913282559595,-1.2134666666666667,147,2,37,2,7,50,35,42,0.151,0.6829999999999999,0.16699999999999998,-0.0601,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,3,5,4,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,2,0,8,7,7,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,3,1,2,6,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,21,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29092290719653635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38702506834552897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761757149681462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898019161582825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325784603782816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776520822216677,0.3171958535223058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314801454524393,0.0,0.3423288362986382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242915551472619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckingilluminated,2018/11/28,"Fiancee broke up with me My fiancee, gf of nearly 5 years, broke up with me. She gave me an ultimatum that I couldn't go through with. I had to leave our apartment, do rn I'm couch hopping at a friend's place. I brought my few belongings and left some things behind. I really hope I get my ukulele and art supplies and books and crystals and ugh.
 And I'm just grieving rn. And I have no appetite. Everything tastes like mush. 
Idk what the point of this post is. But I'm just so empty without her.  ",0.08315126050420217,2.447043225490198,1.4808403361344562,97.42235294117648,92.23529411764707,4.4829131652661065,21.991596638655466,6.1826913282559595,0.2522890756302525,387,15,86,4,14,123,74,102,0.182,0.763,0.055,-0.8799,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,17,13,9,1,2,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,4,10,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,4,0,0,3,1,15,3,13,9,2,12,0,3,0,0,8,8,0,2,2,54,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275712083850438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370157486795197,0.0,0.16027872613169727,0.0,0.1743488797511501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30469955171735025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32483336948376623,0.3333149511551965,0.0,0.0,0.14987612536981065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320517481513711,0.0,0.29000415758328324,0.0,0.2938083081202222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19652969874734705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20380952279604336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29572282859504945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755482958709344
EDAnonymous,sadboyofearth,2018/11/28,"Today's episode of why EDs suck - exercise flashbacks from 6 years ago I was 15 years old doing lying down leg rises in dance class.  Or instructor had us lay on our backs and slowly lift and lower our legs at least 50 times as he called out counts of 8 to make sure we went slow enough.  We were not supposed let our legs touch the floor until the end of each set and this was after doing cardio and other exercises.  IT WAS HELL.  Everyone legs burned and I remember one particular day I had not eaten all day.  I went to school came home and this class was around dinner time.  My muscles were honestly cramping pretty regularly because of how little I was eating and that day he had us do a few extra sets.  And I was so determined to do them absolutely perfectly.  It hurt so much that my eyes watered but I didn't rest my legs for a second.

This all came to mind as I was doing the same exercise now.  Today I've eaten though it was restricted and as I did the exercise I began to compare myself now to then.  ED me is pissed that I don't have the self discipline to do that now.  I'm weak now and can barely do a forth of what I did back then.  But there is a part of me that still sees how messed up it all is.  What I was doing at fifteen is frankly terrifying and I was being rewarded for it.  I got dancer of the month that same month.  People would complement me on how healthy I looked as I dropped weight.  and even though I was miserable then I feel like that person was stronger and better than me now.  I idolize him just like everyone else did.",3.2480801687763687,4.541108639240509,4.444367088607598,86.64994725738397,73.36708860759494,7.79831223628692,23.926160337552748,8.344100000000001,1.2768464135021105,1214,34,258,20,24,399,175,316,0.114,0.789,0.09699999999999999,-0.7713,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,7,0,1,3,19,14,3,1,10,0,39,20,7,4,5,43,53,31,0,1,6,0,3,2,0,1,7,0,1,2,18,20,6,2,2,5,0,6,4,7,0,2,29,6,37,7,33,21,13,49,1,2,3,0,14,11,3,1,31,191,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774127510842063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819978085110256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186919411443478,0.0,0.074091992941653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749564382126696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12410984370205964,0.27802753238924915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351571531478857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243696854056952,0.10153427695695257,0.0,0.1076517606056529,0.1255872710068607,0.0,0.0802785559028064,0.0,0.0,0.2322806836418357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145621434146195,0.08683093913621429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09720970711234628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191837535723896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13011518788811938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428680488412205,0.0,0.11876035553495046,0.12181885215583052,0.0,0.0,0.10206620877629907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113145284978257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272462386299475,0.0,0.19403025705068888,0.0,0.08934870283917888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275398076758892,0.0,0.08236124734674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316201276208384,0.0,0.08426319054539029,0.1061273874902496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365377474866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376854701154796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300884869837027,0.09685469918741764,0.0,0.12679672635506056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970650626592396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455362492305507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23883239914918145,0.0,0.14174637381049734,0.0,0.2304186853471266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924045334734669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480076454414671,0.0,0.2253447032145131,0.10967440505015223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863412522525445,0.0,0.0,0.15654048796310568
EDAnonymous,kalianda,2018/11/28,"scientists question the true calorie content of nuts http://doctormurray.com/maybe-nuts-are-not-high-a-high-calorie-food-after-all/

It was initially a really happy time for me reading this article. Happy good time 😍  

...right up until the end when they said ""limit to 1/4 cup per day"" and then I threw my phone across the room and it broke a hole in the wall

I mean...maybe a pound a day sounds more realistic?!  AT LEAST.  I mean, geez.  Let's be reasonable here. We're talking about nuts.

Also....cashews please.  Almonds are ok.  But cashews are manna from heaven.  The clouds part. The light shines. On the 6th day God created cashews.

Discuss ☺️",3.8082364933741104,7.040226954128442,3.1184556574923583,83.49044597349646,91.38532110091744,5.358002038735983,21.651885830784913,6.937597516519254,0.9705164118246692,514,17,87,8,18,151,87,109,0.063,0.718,0.21899999999999997,0.953,0,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,1,1,3,7,0,0,11,1,5,0,0,1,1,8,8,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,4,6,6,11,3,3,18,1,1,1,0,6,8,0,1,9,45,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947852766809074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374471134699833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447871940129346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109016699980564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628988914236898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713331333621329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36855518059661374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17834976733273608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752219476514497,0.3799751776983757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18887297939123768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914538050946063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538319712253693,0.0,0.1744608422777383,0.0,0.11173384612270268,0.17932627403723267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894829854240346,0.165907315261306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401870799488342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20340399620805508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trickasfuck,2018/11/28,Scared and falling into disordered habits Not sure how to flair this but I’m panicking a bit. Y’all every time I eat more than a tiny bowl of food I feel really anxious and nauseous and like I need to get it out and I’ve been fighting the disordered thoughts for some time now but it’s getting more and more difficult and I’m really scared and don’t know what to do. I don’t want to fall into this because I know what could happen but idk how to get out or who I can talk to cause I don’t look sick and I don’t feel like I’ll be taken seriously when I’m having these thoughts and feelings. I’m just so scared of what this could turn into and I don’t want it at all. And I guess I’m just making this post to ask for help because y’all are the only people I thought could understand?,2.313814479638012,3.415389123529416,3.739411764705881,91.54427601809955,75.41176470588233,7.113122171945702,23.07692307692308,7.61054688173877,0.7491674208144796,621,17,144,8,13,205,89,170,0.204,0.722,0.07400000000000001,-0.9705,0,0,0,0,2,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,7,9,1,3,4,0,14,3,0,4,2,46,41,19,0,6,7,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,16,2,0,9,0,0,2,6,6,0,0,5,4,13,3,18,32,6,13,0,0,1,0,7,6,0,3,6,89,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024906254614165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243344971288927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214780661211334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519857634156022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662483536037848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31856250168838274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048527948589033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608941328824062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205593879552372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20174225235106036,0.09501327854748448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608208306701392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084567579593908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14651149067387126,0.0,0.1176090494596447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914526876309736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14618364634199826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995149946655862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168421326798303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877671260109071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861579287473628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115041935450587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220356331778796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737462388271167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040291760219972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994604161023263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534835603199054,0.0,0.0,0.10689817035019447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167549369413101,0.15510355907616438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466284211212235,0.0,0.13845485180092632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689047514661106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deathsultimatestan,2018/11/28,"Looked in the changeroom mirror after ""recovery"" gains and want to never eat again. Just four months ago I was bone thin, to the point everyone was scared and shocked and I had apparently gotten unattractively underweight but I loved it. the fact it had taken months of starving myself didn't matter. I was finally skinny. Even if it had been torture eating barely anything but jello infused with protein powder but I did it. 

Of course when school started. I had agreed to get into recovery and my mom forcing me to eat and yelling if I didn't. but I look in the mirror now and all I see is a mass of blubber. I know realistically I'm just normal range weight, but I can feel muscle and fat in my thighs when I used to only feel bone. I hate it. I don't want this body anymore. I saw another girl at the gym who was close to my lowest weight and I swear it triggered my disorder all over again. I hate that I had to gain back this weight. 
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EDAnonymous,sunnshine67,2018/11/28,"What’s something you told yourself you’d never do ED wise but now you do? For me it was using stimulants (EC stacks), drinking not to eat, and the biggest one, purging. I remember specifically saying to a friend that I don’t want to start purging because it’s so bad for you but here we are, purging at least twice a week. ",3.4027692307692305,4.809440661538467,4.547692307692311,85.61230769230772,73.15384615384616,7.046153846153848,29.92307692307693,7.554174236665415,1.820907692307692,253,11,51,3,5,83,50,65,0.12,0.794,0.086,-0.5046,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,1,4,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,2,1,10,10,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,2,1,8,2,6,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,4,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590838253419751,0.1891532887874169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039715107678705,0.0,0.3175098156486275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397335741941046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393190592559428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026429693338225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515043725587703,0.0,0.0,0.24675947775511656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388806760374052,0.0,0.0,0.219628789191418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965006979043108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679957299026985,0.0,0.0,0.1830203563862762,0.0,0.2489003755323705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,breathypedantic,2018/11/28,"Hello hi I feel so worthless So.

fucking Jesus. 

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\~trigger warning for etc drug stuff (lol if you can even call it that I guess) and binging.\~

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Hi I'm a perfectionist who got less than 80% on her final written exam for something and proceeded to cry and waste a whole day over it. 

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I stopped taking sudofed/ephedra about a week ago because it was making me feel WEIRD. Like palpitations and stuff weird but now my brain is garbage and I can't focus on anything and of course it's finals and I'm trying so hard to just feed myself and be responsible but this semester has really not helped my relapse that started in February and so I can't think about anything but how fat and stupid I am and I just binged like crazy and I feel so worthless and stupid and my face is covered in acne scars but when I wear makeup I look like a pig in a wig. 

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I know that it's stupid that my marks \*that aren't even that bad\* have completely derailed me- and I KNOW that drugz r bad but they worked so well and made my brain capable of thinking of more than just ""your ass is so inexcusably enormous and no-one will ever love you because you have so little direction or drive in your life that you can't direct or drive yourself to a gym"". I probably have ADD- I've been medicated for it once and my doctor has recommended it a second time after that and I'm going to try and go back on a super low dose but right now I don't have coverage for that at school so I'm sort of stuck. I'm also most definitely procrastinating right now. I don't know. 

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I hate being eating disordered. Everyone thinks it's about being skinny- but sometimes you NEVER FUCKING ARE! and when you are (like my first ""bout"" of it) I didn't even realize and fucking hated my body unless I was doing body checks. It also shat on my academic progress back then too. It's been years since high school- I'm a mature student- and yet somehow me + school = just FUCKED self image and food issues.

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But it's not really a problem right, because I'm not skinny. So I don't get to cut myself any slack. Back to sitting in front of a textbook and obsessively googling. 

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yay.",2.5547602245388963,4.902015558620693,3.654659182036891,86.87870088211712,78.47126436781609,6.2534081796311165,24.828922747928356,7.397020576406223,1.2363958834536222,1748,64,340,24,43,564,224,435,0.15,0.725,0.125,-0.9017,0,0,3,0,0,1,74.0,0,8,1,4,36,27,10,1,11,2,30,23,10,4,2,67,65,53,0,2,19,0,4,4,0,1,6,0,0,1,26,26,6,1,10,1,1,5,12,19,1,2,9,5,43,8,34,52,5,48,1,3,1,6,18,18,5,7,28,225,69,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04862886301176577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774084866626355,0.0,0.4160750973819464,0.4666146561674849,0.03730574766246976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028795181650706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654869423316806,0.09160932449189722,0.10032392984218813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187113560161199,0.0,0.12248074153242268,0.056016791909374974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057518226865449676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060259625990650774,0.035379276187817624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287273947278255,0.05615012947416724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361859106324548,0.05613407107279793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06118187052493389,0.1087008175980324,0.04962276899677785,0.0,0.052419769181919186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321451065319058,0.0,0.0,0.12018988920657996,0.0,0.04666272025174655,0.06633526973698882,0.0,0.0,0.2028636673779501,0.02866136849335803,0.0,0.062354844083873005,0.0,0.04387545558397333,0.0,0.0604329626511757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04914255461759152,0.10832307384016246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036770581426143735,0.05796115155955455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572581540534208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904466004574018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03874827073707533,0.10720461688848787,0.054982756309271116,0.0,0.0,0.046067430329910924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049512052850551325,0.05190855946047167,0.03661855962450235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055264295459982384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042310355205569215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05842264755101309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05914687857590885,0.0524922973884332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028768260933158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054690359872818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16655957839468408,0.0,0.0,0.05722951236706389,0.0,0.0,0.04537962329377149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04223285135046402,0.05425658500897479,0.0,0.03882921867129653,0.0,0.0,0.045864268726232116,0.0,0.0,0.12560000661095225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04124686039630166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054535796011701,0.0,0.0,0.03198850666798213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744908136758949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04400428169956822,0.0,0.04932449408789818,0.0,0.0,0.061247698127987374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03993773394755264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666146561674849,0.035327157290891774
EDAnonymous,crazy-mcgee,2018/11/28,"This is why we can’t have nice things, y’all. I’d post this on peach 🍑 but am having connectivity issues til Saturday, so my rant will go here instead.

I just binged the heck out of the rest of the ONE bars and only TV dinner in my house (1,090 cal total). I was supposed to break my fast tomorrow at 68 hours and wasn’t even hungry, but just lost control and couldn’t stop 🤷‍♀️ The only reason I’ve stopped now is because I only have 100% safe food left and also because I’ve consumed 39g of fiber and like 70g of protein within an hour. Yeah, I know.

Harm reduction plan: Eat at maintenance tomorrow as originally planned (work event), then wait a week or so to fast again for a max of 42 hours because that always works well, unlike this nonsense today...

Sigh. It’ll be soup, Soylent, and quest bars forever until I’m thin 💀 because if I eat anything else it’ll apparently never happen 😭",4.1551449275362335,4.638589152173914,5.460652173913044,83.22275362318841,70.52173913043478,8.089855072463768,27.833333333333336,8.07648339933343,1.6617768115942035,700,23,146,9,12,235,135,184,0.109,0.805,0.085,-0.7444,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,1,0,6,11,7,0,0,7,1,14,6,0,3,2,25,20,17,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,8,6,5,2,3,0,1,4,2,2,1,3,1,10,4,17,12,2,31,0,1,0,0,2,8,1,2,21,79,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155228085893494,0.12020041829786154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887641770250185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522404085900352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16202164745974929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956326794854525,0.12067591173237527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541297989679788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467888184435912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209866700878747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277435091510393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267853478575747,0.16668484549769166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077635722564287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939020020151158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695376547872672,0.0,0.0,0.07057475864981691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576926961160585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114147205106696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978883083906469,0.3295998797663309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835059042080386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14852662396854235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415462908185079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597130861485716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692905375309214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587529159256105,0.0,0.12988486379830708,0.0,0.13035064827165913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21033392151765068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,35ants,2018/11/28,"My mom won't stop commenting on my weight and body and it makes me want to lose more weight Since childhood my mom has been on top of me about my weight. I remember when I was 12 she made me weigh myself in front of her and when the scale said 108 lbs (at 5 feet tall) she told me I was gaining too much weight and would be obese by the time I was 20. I never even thought I was fat until then. 

 She still does this now. I recently had surgery and so my mom has seen me shirtless at checkups after it. I went from fluctuating between 97-100 lbs from water weight to about 92 pounds (with 1-3 pounds of tissue removed from surgery) in a week because I had no appetite. 

Since then she has made comments about how ""we need to get some meat on my bones"" or saying how she needs to fatten me up. After a 24 hour fast I was 91.4 lbs this morning, a new low, which triggered a major binge. 

A few hours later my mom saw me shirtless at the doctors office and said that it looked like I gained some weight back and that I don't look emaciated anymore. 

Could one midday binge have really made me that much fatter? I feel like a whale now. I binged again when I got home and now I'm afraid to look at the scale. I feel like I need to fast until she thinks I'm skinny again. 

My original GW was 90 lbs but I was less than a pound and a half away from that and she thinks I just look heavier. I didn't want to go too low and get negative effects from being underweight but now it seems like taking the risk and losing another 10 pounds (on top of the weight I gained from this binge) is the only way to go. ",3.5754871099050187,3.967719961194032,4.19162143826323,92.13215400271372,71.77611940298506,7.2849389416553585,23.58548168249661,6.980632752743323,0.5116865671641793,1237,28,289,10,22,393,173,335,0.057999999999999996,0.8640000000000001,0.077,0.0372,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,0,8,21,10,0,2,15,0,22,17,5,9,1,45,55,25,0,7,4,4,9,4,0,2,4,3,1,0,12,14,12,1,8,0,0,5,6,6,0,2,22,18,47,4,41,28,8,53,0,4,6,0,19,17,0,4,34,184,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799866323422062,0.0,0.0,0.07564964255637639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166793060795963,0.05865490584219635,0.0,0.04649981332695844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473030907481938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090367864966671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807620404046495,0.06675347700542435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05038247340138309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713930699394064,0.10898944138317504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970670328003063,0.0,0.08670379881926442,0.0,0.061008390445807865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651544343937552,0.0,0.150241623028594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490669677995358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25622523928197033,0.17067647310412085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165350276750631,0.0509177478250682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573546494843591,0.0,0.0,0.11214971653683277,0.16968281183358286,0.058832133727747975,0.07367206901127947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05168956151597639,0.05801466842138229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04886716647254001,0.0,0.07531767545026588,0.0,0.08641080370514702,0.0,0.14512022409007735,0.060661222048146474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944279558191721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619984177218982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060917612214568526,0.06377381560417357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057353354631387216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775477842280292,0.0,0.06055810331700603,0.04447970462308872,0.0,0.0,0.07288917465959767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998429222724029,0.060547817282331565,0.0611875218953899,0.6502226931036212,0.0,0.07071267904715058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541873953278706,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tomathoe,2018/11/28,"Can someone please tell me how many calories are in this Chinese snack? [Photos of said snack.](https://imgur.com/a/zoJVBAU)

I want to figure out how many calories are in each individual packet (there are 8 packets total). The back seems to indicate that something is 2930 calories?? I'm really hoping that isn't the case cause that would mean each packet is like 366 calories...or that each packet is 2930 calories, which better not be the case >:( 

Please help me! These snacks are so yummy but i'm scared to eat more. ",3.413866028708135,6.397072147368423,3.3044976076555024,86.7533014354067,80.15789473684211,5.138755980861244,22.320574162679424,6.574015621080383,0.6802631578947373,414,13,72,4,11,125,64,95,0.04,0.8009999999999999,0.16,0.7725,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,3,0,11,3,0,3,1,16,18,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,3,7,15,5,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644816413060715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914456334728828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22236910382930247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214976566576541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509187493755646,0.0,0.0,0.21499851080728272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575382726511587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389229126223357,0.0,0.23579375990869805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4752269643036448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867297251319685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059077116499144,0.0,0.21671915043764872,0.0,0.0,0.197061535957524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341002672101572,0.16664527317050265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891998836954576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767661994132154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15377047054868767,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Internet_Soup,2018/11/28,"DAE eating something again after purging? I have a tendency to snack on something after I finished purging which is super dumb and I hate it but I usually have something sugary because I feel so drained. 

Does anyone else do through this? I want to stop so bad ",2.6468027210884344,5.535631265306122,3.4888775510204084,84.5948129251701,83.28571428571429,4.899319727891157,30.615646258503407,6.42735559955562,1.922915646258504,208,11,34,2,6,66,37,49,0.319,0.611,0.07,-0.9455,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,1,6,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872603557022073,0.2744050108518844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236118076481175,0.1632556905955488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343640588736847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740385036753869,0.22372253526478286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354137784038881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26440887415932945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.618524213664306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22390279795674956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29495704772489506,0.0,0.15796243811792834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gigi-has-issues,2018/11/28,"Has anyone done the Master Cleanse before? In my early 20s I did every fad diet out there except this one. I know no diet is magic and it's CICO as far as weight loss, but tons of people say they feel better after doing this one (plus lose weight).  I definitely want that ""detox"" feeling.  I once did an Aloe Vera juice 'cleanse' where I just drank aloe vera juice for a few days (upon the recommendation of an older friend...I think it was big in the 70s). I did feel like it was anti-inflammatory but I'm into astrology and crystals and nonsense and deep down I know cleanses are fake and we don't really need to 'detox'.  To be honest, MC doesn't seem very anti-inflammatory but wanted to get your input.  Thank you!  ",2.5066793066088806,4.5544239366197194,4.458732394366198,82.55089382448539,77.23943661971829,6.059371614301193,18.66955579631636,7.010146845296331,0.2866201516793065,557,11,108,6,13,190,101,142,0.096,0.7509999999999999,0.153,0.8313,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,2,1,4,3,7,0,0,6,0,13,7,0,0,0,24,27,11,0,3,5,0,5,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,9,5,0,7,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,7,6,12,4,17,19,2,14,0,2,0,0,5,10,0,1,5,70,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797339863447222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790803198047413,0.0,0.0,0.17451687797962798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272575357260729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20193077090905875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662538236548765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993185475632338,0.1409681720245974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524518890792359,0.0,0.10309354848411438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168880152306596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640244822464986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22075487419469855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631310767115874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21014342177228768,0.2674234460581432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367994871218652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641068790208673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691981675255193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17963618914321444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816692564806824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643713231343695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281281182816365,0.23277339575683806,0.0,0.0,0.4805744917907153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HangryHangryHedgie,2018/11/28,"When you hit normal BMI and your body rebels. I finally am above underweight... 

Then I start getting a stabbing pain in my side whenever I eat. Great... 

Go to doc... cool I now have IBS. 

So she tells me to avoid fats and oils and sugars.

.... 

...

..

And use a fiber supplement. 

Fuck. 

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EDAnonymous,invincibletitan33,2018/11/18,"What is your goal for this week? Doesn't have to be ED related. :)

Mine is to say no when my work colleagues offer me snacks. I have 0 will power so it's gonna be tough but I really need to get back on track after a weekend of eating crap. ",-1.8546698113207545,0.03531850943396364,1.0201650943396243,99.54836084905662,99.75471698113206,4.159433962264152,12.285377358490566,5.985473137389443,-1.0793754716981128,183,3,45,2,8,63,47,53,0.122,0.8390000000000001,0.039,-0.5023,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,3,3,2,1,0,1,0,8,3,1,0,0,2,11,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,7,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,5,30,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35554404035361376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731333156376856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415760704116711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428511882716372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296214435243034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36770557671358295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37089580899577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33662038260428445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whitechocolateonly,2018/11/18,I wonder what it’s like to enjoy eating. And I don’t just mean enjoying the food. What’s it like to enjoy the experience of food and eating? To not worry about the calories or weight gain. To not plan your entire day around ONE meal because you’re going to a restaurant for dinner. To just say “that was a good meal” and that be the end of it. ,2.1016666666666666,3.619701388888892,3.6761111111111116,90.08,76.77777777777777,5.911111111111111,18.944444444444443,6.42735559955562,-0.06457222222222248,268,5,58,2,6,89,47,72,0.0,0.7040000000000001,0.29600000000000004,0.9702,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,4,6,0,0,6,0,3,8,0,0,0,11,6,4,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,4,8,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,3,6,11,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928520014182778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320593167146058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971232127479274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44334549585190747,0.0,0.0,0.1918752267860062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119116122629444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5239143089386029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311925155616164,0.18170402864860055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211674848820436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359801520769157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679818448045198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227767084619386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26380432958430444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349325398108461,0.0,0.22000441017482056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unpollutedfantasy,2018/11/18,"Is this the new proedmemes? I honestly love memes, but I feel like this new subreddit is mostly memes
Like maybe memes can have a separate thread?
Because I’m not really seeing a lot of text posts, like I wanted to do a text post, but I felt like it’ll just be lost among the memes
Like I feel like people seeking support through their struggles aren’t going to get as much support as they could because this sub is basically the new r/proedmemes and I feel like it might make people apprehensive to seeking support on this sub.

I really do think the memes are great, but I feel like they are taking away from the main purpose of this sub which is to support one another and to help each other make better choices.

I hope nobody is mad at me for saying this...",6.879200000000001,6.258208753333335,6.826500000000002,79.51575000000003,64.8,9.633333333333333,32.083333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.4489333333333336,603,20,118,8,8,192,84,150,0.057,0.609,0.33399999999999996,0.9944,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,2,1,21,1,2,8,0,16,1,0,2,0,22,37,7,0,3,5,0,5,8,0,2,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,2,7,13,17,16,31,5,10,0,1,1,1,6,4,0,4,11,75,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430748760959615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241937746455178,0.0,0.0,0.13290412860437795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641132802354699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703637456370478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22047685019912905,0.3115097824642447,0.10466760875163783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05695372295838149,0.0,0.06195343596187601,0.0,0.0,0.12018495899937273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306774301612683,0.0,0.0,0.10827247179263083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42605795683072817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899833098917563,0.09267721279560873,0.09838663990536682,0.0,0.1455313133755067,0.0,0.10951615296627884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564339280699497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013559239878948,0.0,0.0,0.3158503690836047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386864204076778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511489361836824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20880471647622675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967041398062366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668988410445445,0.0,0.0,0.08686761474266069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396191544443535,0.0,0.0,0.4948173442235567,0.0,0.0,0.08196266903509494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06984981612638272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429748363962587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,libismanaged,2018/11/18,"And then I bought a full length mirror... PTW: 
I was having a bad day. I didn’t eat dinner last night after working a double. I slept til 1pm then went grocery shopping, picked up my prescription, and then went to Walmart with my bf and I did it.. I bought a full length mirror. I was feel big. Like really big so my intentions were to pick myself apart infront of it when he left to go play hockey. I ate a piece of pizza (victory 1) and then spent 30 minutes bodychecking. Going through the pictures I realized I wasn’t as big as I was feeling.. which wAS AMAZING. 
It was such a bizarre foreign feeling to beat that feeling! ",1.0114666666666672,3.462544280000003,2.669599999999999,90.76546666666668,86.2,5.253333333333334,23.53333333333333,6.742157984588678,0.8810533333333339,485,19,97,6,15,159,78,125,0.05,0.841,0.109,0.7118,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,7,0,10,5,1,3,0,13,23,13,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,5,3,4,4,2,1,0,0,16,4,15,3,13,7,4,22,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,11,65,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641847757138344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716047482311086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26522300582040165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5242307027091351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946149969051759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112799633294175,0.0,0.0,0.2816180506671403,0.0,0.0,0.12663045003504028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24323861161030502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16604808895493595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805560079797598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18869833669267566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skeletonsofawhale,2018/11/18,"welp I fucked up I've been in self-recovery and I finally told my mom about my ED since she asked me about my weight loss tips. I told her to try intuitive eating and I told her about diet culture and how crash diets make you gain weight at the end and want to binge on junk food. Out of concern, she asked me if I will gain some weight back. Since I am in the extreme hunger part of my recovery, I told her that it's a possibility, since I've been eating CRAZY amounts of food. I told her that \*hopefully\* these extra calories will help to repair my body and finally get my period and hair back.

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She fucking told me to ""stop eating"" and ""just eat vitamins and eat like a normal person lol"". I tried to tell her about intuitive eating and how prior to my ED, I was losing weight effortlessly without worrying about food so much, until I made the STUPID decision to start counting again. It started at 1200, then 1000, then 800, then 600, 400, and lastly, 200.

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All she had to respond with was ""well 800 doesn't sound so bad! I think 1000 calories a day is fine and dandy for you to maintain! just stop eating so much and eat these vitamins. "" Which by the way, 1000 is pretty dang low and 1000 would actually cause me to lose 1 or even 1.5 lbs a week, as a SEDENTARY 5'2 FEMALE. I've seen people on proED restrict to 1200 and even they had struggles. And of course, the entire 1200IP community and how many people on there seem to be quite disordered as well, because it's pretty hard to eat   


I am pretty committed to recovery so I am 95% sure that I will just ignore my mom, let extreme hunger run it's course, and pray to god that the extra calories are ACTUALLY going towards fixing my body. Now I'm worried that my mom is now going to restrict to 800 calories a day, rapidly lose weight, and constantly trigger THE FUCK out of me during recovery, since she clearly only cares about me maintaining my weight, not trying to get my mental and physical health on track. I tried to warn her, but she doesn't seem to be listening. And the worst part is that I'm worried that my mom will somehow magically stick to her brand new 800 calorie a day program, lose more weight than me, and end up skinnier than me.

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I should have kept my damn mouth shut.",5.399486607142858,5.856270332589286,5.663392857142856,82.95660714285714,67.77232142857143,8.721428571428572,28.94642857142857,8.634040054169528,1.9819633928571432,1791,58,359,26,28,570,212,448,0.124,0.8059999999999999,0.07,-0.9745,0,0,0,0,0,0,67.0,0,2,1,8,27,22,5,1,15,1,26,33,4,7,4,60,56,37,0,6,8,4,9,1,0,6,3,2,0,1,14,24,23,6,4,0,0,3,4,15,2,0,15,12,55,7,54,32,11,45,1,6,1,3,34,15,5,7,27,223,69,1,0.0,0.0,0.09697553960446023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150894765779913,0.18112701902497053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290209024817606,0.0,0.0,0.07641314215295089,0.041486933413377884,0.030288999656720838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110383079795857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050659652250535966,0.051042683558827684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0536944662707854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961328565771044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05694610609763193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575838613726434,0.0,0.0,0.08801664014079814,0.0,0.0,0.06563616541120669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886031434312528,0.0,0.0,0.18024673364644228,0.0,0.0,0.13780570112020193,0.051919268821828464,0.0,0.056477029578752315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04451018283326897,0.0,0.0,0.052815420722814685,0.0,0.0,0.03330444082321651,0.0,0.0,0.049350835002597265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04050189183748094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050808769490579664,0.0,0.02427477130263508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22235012424292605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0470154531073184,0.033166749198547105,0.0503752611084378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05007324863568975,0.0,0.0,0.2327732969474985,0.0,0.0,0.07305196478533173,0.0,0.0,0.047988435078272974,0.0,0.0,0.04868313740252638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037789533896500055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761330184395454,0.0,0.06889402344767291,0.04338515237121834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05601511814412136,0.0,0.15164995536820713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0528487040772999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046715077124833,0.0518348319239592,0.0,0.0,0.16440784126331068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033804554042103,0.0,0.0,0.08308184230162116,0.0,0.05194409615446735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046829820176424765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04342900891594845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03183770254379181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28487084505734217,0.0,0.13493802924629286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029306936967863163,0.03943957374591237,0.03985626386613041,0.4235413761712816,0.08934994393738505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047896914971616654,0.0,0.0,0.15138000869707366,0.0,0.03529652876117955,0.0,0.18112701902497053,0.0
EDAnonymous,emotional_low,2018/11/18,"Upcoming Drs appointment, not too sure what to expect or do. So lately I've been opening up to those around me about my ED/ED behaviours (woot woot lookatallofmuhprogressguyssss)

I have now told my best friend, my therapist, and Psychiatric Doctor. I've been working on telling my parents, and I've invited my mum to one of my upcoming psych Drs appointments. 

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When I told my Psychiatric Doctor she requested bloods/ekg/blood pressure. I had them on the Tuesday that's just gone. Then I had a therapy appointment on Wednesday just gone, and My GP then rang on the Thursday just gone asking to see me sometimes this coming week (I have an appointment for Thursday, but could have had one on Tuesday, it's just transport was an issue). They also asked me to have more bloods done in a months time. 

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I'm trying to figure out whether that's good or bad. Good as in there isn't anything wrong and I'm all good as far as physical goes etc. 

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Mostly because I may have broken down and told my therapist that I felt like everything was okay, I'm faking it, if it were really that bad they would have notified me earlier, saying things like I don't know if I'll be able to stick to it if it comes back fine, because if it's all fine, do I really have a problem? etc. Ya know. 

So I don't know if my GP wants to see because I told my therapist that I don't think I'll stop unless I do get physical consequences. I said it was okay for her tosee my blood results, but after giving her the green light to call my GP about it, I feel like he's called me in just to lecture me about how 'just because you're fine now doesn't mean it's healthy for you to keep doing this' yadayadayada etc etc etc because she may have told him about what I said in the appointment???

However, I feel like if it were that serious he would have asked me in for Friday, not for this week. 

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I guess what I'm trying to ask you guys is, do you think my bloods came back bad, or do you think I'm fine? 

Is this standard procedure (I'm in the U.K. just for reference)?

Also any advice you guys have on 'coming out' as EDd/Bullimic to parents would be amazing. 

Also again just for reference I usually purge via vommiting, but over the past few months I've been reducing this and tend to fast instead/ in conjunction as a way to purge calories. I then miserably try to restrict inbetween, thus my weight has maintained for the past 4 months. IDK if any of that would really show up on bloods though, which is another reason why I'm sceptical that they would have found anything. 

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Thank you for reading if you managed to get through this absolute dumpster fire of a post, your help would really be appreciated. Thanks guys :)",5.492267019167218,6.12105057303371,5.738290372328709,81.89577660277597,67.61423220973782,9.578233090989203,30.687155761180872,9.627879704456738,2.661454241022251,2162,80,429,44,34,688,227,534,0.09,0.7709999999999999,0.139,0.9797,3,0,0,0,0,0,81.0,0,9,4,2,29,29,1,2,14,2,50,9,4,4,3,79,97,38,0,18,26,3,5,4,1,8,4,4,0,3,30,14,1,3,15,2,0,8,7,10,0,2,25,13,60,19,63,60,11,60,0,1,3,0,45,23,0,15,31,280,90,7,0.0535515452360572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05232995022238162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847545413290365,0.0,0.29011538444834345,0.3253549448526437,0.07283377424250476,0.056153464425250495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813671768381694,0.047672228846992785,0.20025386347394328,0.0,0.0,0.08235566549382603,0.13413991026770672,0.16322262464213966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05619904285745357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936423021542198,0.06124870145561818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838974332897472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275655134209665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962455144474008,0.0,0.05480182347586839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298620643249439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048128675834597935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05415454063049815,0.0765144692334879,0.05141788143034752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058716505272625764,0.04137379100902624,0.0,0.05595694425463975,0.05137152186010073,0.0,0.13474948622445015,0.0,0.0,0.058993064532110964,0.1590733474369351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03589447195360258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055893900098198966,0.0,0.04759907395068218,0.0,0.0,0.08829158630351804,0.0,0.06040847556739985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046503200372183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833333193550504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282329974876334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257582595367258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892530717306872,0.0,0.10224201882292812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051287577321785134,0.0,0.0,0.0512415964967482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053566037044733006,0.0,0.13722596457561434,0.055059907499931136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187956539991233,0.04258633817335258,0.0,0.0,0.0853472964224062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052963847547926636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0447714896968079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05047169762847824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046806410916215915,0.09860613595270527,0.061240859040876325,0.18653241451215266,0.03557726711744661,0.10294100361192372,0.052614121298380064,0.0,0.031226336677263974,0.0,0.0,0.2558539818705346,0.0,0.109073951998596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897946137219288,0.0,0.0315860888529209,0.04250672398912743,0.08591163881790309,0.06521135522723465,0.0,0.0,0.0483219401655134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03898616272767517,0.0,0.0,0.2282488876008083,0.058550208053219886,0.3253549448526437,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunasouseiseki,2018/11/18,"We are finally getting warm weather - ProED disappears Without my stockings to control my gut and hide my thighs and my two or three jumpers to hide my rolls upon rolls I'm feeling very exposed. 

I can't believe this is going to be another fat summer.",6.293125,6.971867062500002,6.629166666666666,76.0325,65.875,8.9,41.0,8.841846274778883,3.935825,201,12,34,3,3,65,38,48,0.14800000000000002,0.7829999999999999,0.068,-0.4576,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,1,0,7,8,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,7,1,5,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,22,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.365231837383005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924244103492664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906576059650815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761152457782769,0.0,0.0,0.38155494236874016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18197681811480945,0.0,0.1979517503335166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34024679847087425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873909946884776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33575696968928986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CrushedOats,2018/11/18,"Sharing your ED Do any of you feel like when you’re open with your eating disorder, like with a significant other or a good friend, feel like you have to be “worse” in a fucked up kinda way to validate the fact that you have a ED? Like, “I told you about this now I can’t eat my omad in front of you because I would feel like I’m faking my ED by eating with you here”. ",8.564958333333337,3.889645912500004,8.675,80.36333333333334,64.875,12.166666666666668,32.91666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.2586666666666666,283,5,70,3,3,94,51,80,0.138,0.593,0.26899999999999996,0.8568,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,8,0,0,4,10,1,0,5,0,6,4,0,0,1,11,12,2,0,1,1,0,3,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,13,8,12,9,0,8,0,0,0,1,11,4,1,2,7,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483778094396078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190605167503412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103936730785875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635313570028108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27846419126275074,0.3934395813709969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183014164853766,0.16971278996168265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397459963734048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44842910670203534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541446217545614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571385742916307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18707933639426075,0.13040692054091801,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tornessa,2018/11/18,"About to go to my first ED support group I'm pretty nervous. I've talked to my therapist and nutritionist, but never a room full of strangers about it. I really feel like I need more support though. Has anyone else gone to one? How was your experience?",2.694489795918365,5.1794776326530645,3.885061224489796,84.66351020408162,78.79591836734693,7.185306122448982,24.08571428571429,8.238735603445708,1.5933559183673474,200,7,39,4,5,65,40,49,0.03,0.7490000000000001,0.221,0.8743,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,9,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,1,5,3,7,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726380647503356,0.2529779987527054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20625308215568847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415153582114524,0.0,0.0,0.12483994573498755,0.17638524998715585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100128241462509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403188330492066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062275962911477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830730561539229,0.1904243288735408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730567867887838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511858352318723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817031934532946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5603578819799695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19844868831639564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866696708394938,0.0,0.0,0.2425777772763429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PoorLama,2018/11/18,All I want is pasta... But it's 300kl for one cup with tomato sauce on top. I'm straight up freaking out from how high that number is for one meal and also how much I want it. ,1.2530769230769216,2.125816358974358,2.792820512820516,98.19384615384618,77.71794871794873,5.2,18.128205128205128,3.1291,-0.8870410256410257,134,2,34,0,3,44,31,39,0.071,0.736,0.193,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,9,5,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,7,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402358787071109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44951612918062894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31275807413787343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5765980766418962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5018882759352907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GohanCake,2018/11/18,Trying to recover Today I realized I weighed the same as I did in eighth grade.... 13 years ago. I’m terrified of my weight and my disorder but I cannot get help for around 45 more days. I know I will lose more weight without help and I am getting into dangerous territory. Can anyone offer tips to help me trick my body into eating enough calories to function? I don’t want to be like this but I feel trapped in a cycle.,1.4210335917312662,3.6650716976744206,3.366899224806204,87.94308785529718,82.02325581395348,6.612919896640828,23.50904392764857,7.793537801064563,1.2968749354005171,330,12,68,6,9,111,63,86,0.285,0.664,0.05,-0.9679,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,2,0,7,5,1,0,0,13,13,5,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,3,13,1,13,10,4,9,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,44,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359793525628315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448219777258171,0.0,0.0,0.1843792579905356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300618138900425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357421203480524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23737559211113324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119337962724233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21400863901163175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472526940492967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21642159619182694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41648122595707937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113826837715091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118757200792992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171247349054244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963239938994062,0.0,0.0,0.14061977537029605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216377892077628,0.0,0.0,0.5044287452111951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19965471444511826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333774375006956
EDAnonymous,249947,2018/11/18,"Tall person ED problems? Does anyone dislike being tall purely because it means never weighing 99 pounds/any low number others treat as a milestone? 

I weigh 122 pounds and that seems like such a big number to me, but my BMI is already low. If I were 5’4, I’d weigh 96 lbs. If you were to use the new BMI calculation, my 122 lbs is comparable to 91 lbs. 

Despite knowing this I still feel ashamed of my weight because it’s not as low as some other people’s numbers are.",3.723434650455928,5.014879063829792,4.710972644376903,85.20500000000001,72.19148936170212,6.222492401215807,27.258358662613983,6.1826913282559595,1.071001823708206,368,13,72,2,7,120,68,94,0.157,0.782,0.062,-0.8782,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,1,3,0,6,4,0,1,2,14,11,7,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,8,2,7,8,1,9,0,3,0,0,2,6,0,4,4,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972111611417642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831529016728365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832104347496426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283608203230307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23569155337025785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618079467103775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480161311879392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131580506263411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933781509841764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20772306714829095,0.2601195497855238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18671876185264147,0.2351676249448517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577114033245062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451869340041324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21508642387709556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23261371313722945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279700676260157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soapparently,2018/11/18,"DAE have problem areas that influence you tremendously? What I mean about this is that I have love handles. Even when I was at a 18 to 19 BMI at like 15years old, I had love handles.

I finally got down to a point where I got rid of ONE love handle (tf? maybe due to my scoliosis?) so I have... love handle(?) and it really is influencing my image of myself.

Am I the only one who has an issue like this?",0.4889424364123158,2.5976181084337355,3.2187148594377533,88.41179384203484,84.78313253012048,6.5804551539491305,20.065595716198125,7.793537801064563,0.8324977242302536,305,9,67,6,9,107,57,83,0.03,0.722,0.249,0.9685,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,0,4,0,9,4,0,2,0,5,16,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,12,6,9,12,0,10,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,0,6,48,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663402042899766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21002779769460325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066835445138195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20011340513391407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873364701175722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6921652054552885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19261576213876336,0.20884714907909865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118546514828853,0.0,0.2598386520976319,0.14581719018687905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18124419438726605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345705598369466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282536643429227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greycat91,2018/11/18,"Are recipes allowed? Let me know if this should be removed

Does anyone have a recipe for cranberry sauce made with diet soda? There was one on the old sub but I didn’t screenshot it. I’d like to have a thanksgiving dish that’s safe and low cal ",1.0114666666666672,3.4625442799999995,1.8200000000000005,96.85666666666668,86.2,4.933333333333334,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.10193333333333364,194,6,42,2,6,60,47,50,0.052000000000000005,0.802,0.146,0.7013,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,8,3,0,2,0,9,10,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,2,2,4,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30381788595738235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802406155023397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23879406801974656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443135610384878,0.0,0.21227851390631333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41114169076312257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559427380522969,0.0,0.29443366199911664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crydontsmile,2018/11/18,"I keep dreaming about breaking my fast? So I’m pretty deep into a fast right now - about 55 or 56 hours. But for the past two nights, I’ve had a dream involving being forced to/accidentally breaking the fast. Does anyone else experience this? It’s causing me some major dream stress that is filtering through into real life. 

Also, sad to see proED gone, because that was where I was going to go for support with this, but glad to see this one up and running for people who need the support 💖 ",5.6062499999999975,6.114388791666666,6.0145833333333325,80.43875,67.33333333333334,8.066666666666668,29.541666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.842179166666667,388,13,74,4,6,125,72,96,0.06,0.7879999999999999,0.152,0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,5,0,5,1,0,1,0,12,15,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,0,3,0,4,0,2,0,2,4,2,4,3,13,10,2,19,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,2,7,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721163183854214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745914467505227,0.2014279955028616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983843301187636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20195038739266186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203578917996554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642243400997063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923011278749322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234513784736793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359992426538886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473675746767486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388561648558455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576776997795407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844848484744317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332133531717723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876658237571804,0.13628960856124922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20000102593477811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237605800688835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16788537608561724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31331092388342585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251912898183861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44617225801438304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19203825177468026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ikeafamous,2018/11/18,Healthy thanksgiving appetizers? So.... like everyone im not feeling super great abt thanksgiving. I’m in charge of bringing something to snack on before the actual meal so I’m bringing a veggie tray but can y’all think of anything else voluminous and low cal I could make/buy to bring??,2.8842048517520205,5.918717150943397,4.060970350404315,79.43301886792453,85.0377358490566,7.556873315363883,28.32614555256065,8.418075326091056,2.8671692722371964,231,11,39,6,7,75,44,53,0.165,0.7659999999999999,0.069,-0.6117,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,6,8,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.3266057186251464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27541845021191186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847935377703685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672199150708449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795876022308905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31980726770480983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922753699424894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689930181213917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615188234171047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351090508175042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22340581966616369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25765799828118946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445357790430947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anavosa,2018/11/18,"I was just diagnosed with Lyme Disease And part of me is a little happy that I have it. Ugh I can’t stand the fact that I just admitted that. It’s because you lose a lot of weight with Lyme Disease and my ED brain is like omg yayyyy lose weight even if it means death. I feel so pathetic right now for being happy about this. Like is this really what it’s come to? Is this really how I want to be? Part of me is saying yes, yes it is. I hate myself 😂 ",0.028787878787877474,1.8197565757575769,2.574030303030302,94.24104545454549,84.25252525252526,5.980202020202023,15.960606060606061,7.1686216300943375,-0.19790181818181807,347,6,83,5,10,120,62,99,0.17600000000000002,0.6409999999999999,0.183,-0.4517,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,7,8,1,0,3,2,11,4,1,1,1,15,17,5,1,2,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,12,5,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,4,12,4,9,14,3,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,59,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703174694141457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960049973149429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512463526400336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820968541250046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159687267013833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877836484372394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738156813721768,0.0,0.17334858959493624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155873145832606,0.17597697185584107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928575142804409,0.0,0.14927157028662036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19125775105195209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802713797428587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249616857107068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149944092531477,0.0,0.1396280135957023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035614479422498,0.0,0.0,0.4276175123204155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anteater_ghost,2018/11/18,"How do you fight against black and white thinking and the urge to binge all the way when you don’t have a « perfect day » ? So today I ate 1900 calories instead of the 1200 I told myself I was gonna eat. Do you guys ever manage to not turn this kind of day into a full on binge? I always have this kind of black and white thinking, like « today wasn’t perfect, so might as well go all the way and eat 8000 calories »

It even affects other parts of my life, like if I don’t eat the right amont I will give up on everything and not study, not even shower lol

And then I tell myself that I will start over the next day and this time I will do everything right",5.731273291925465,4.3004532246376845,5.779730848861284,88.73804347826089,67.47826086956522,8.465424430641823,27.685300207039344,6.1826913282559595,0.9394169772256732,507,11,118,2,7,160,77,138,0.036000000000000004,0.853,0.111,0.8804,1,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,3,0,2,9,8,1,0,8,1,13,5,0,2,5,22,22,14,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,1,1,6,8,4,0,2,0,0,1,6,1,1,0,4,4,15,7,13,13,4,22,0,0,4,0,8,8,0,2,13,80,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231147276614318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843985112809122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512372203572042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941773956770228,0.13296523793006748,0.0,0.0,0.2642189470279998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410108337464826,0.08354054849541745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554799064231405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30614498727790546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382679447550457,0.14362849635320746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593828356690922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156330667658078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918107465108453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510655606307474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404369614284943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847995910945215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883767013372076,0.0,0.0,0.08571386656016672,0.0,0.278667819399977,0.14045985789236567,0.0,0.0,0.15988816270713727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333553055275096,0.0,0.0,0.13216600413014934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zombeezinthetrap,2018/11/18,"I just want to eat 😔 Does anyone else get so hungry during fast that when it’s time to break the fast, you can’t/don’t because your brain is just like *eating = impending sense of doom* but like your still hungry, so you just suffer???? 

I just want to turn my brain off and eat. I did php and currently doing iop but I feel I still struggle with the desire to eat even when my stomach is growling loudly. 😭😔😢",1.448029411764704,3.3428963176470603,2.713750000000001,94.530625,79.94117647058823,5.191176470588236,17.683823529411768,5.985473137389443,-0.4206176470588234,317,6,70,2,8,102,57,85,0.036000000000000004,0.8190000000000001,0.146,0.7998,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,0,11,5,0,1,2,0,4,7,3,0,0,13,9,8,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,11,2,7,8,0,10,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,10,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064598319661438,0.17679055560991333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518052916477554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852298019168187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099342411657946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7062177060524801,0.14413742369037272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396293519990193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724285699791061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901465256432863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859145695810573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755859101252877,0.0,0.0,0.18037926582037375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061113227388084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876770904491125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20354050469901128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mentalcasethrowaway,2018/11/18,"I love MEALS! Hey guess what today I cooked and ate a whole entire meal. Not a giant bag of crisps, not a shop-bought sandwich or a wrap, not plain noodles, not several mini snacks spread out through the day that add up and prevent me from eating anything substantial - one whole bowl full of HOT FOOD.

It was a new recipe and everything - I went out and bought fresh ingredients, cooked it up with an OVEN, then sat down at my own dining table and ate. It had PROTEIN (chicken breast), CARBS (rice) and it had VEGETABLES. There was even fat too because I grated cheddar into it (kind of regret that part bc I didn't measure it and now I'm anxious that I under-estimated the amount).

It was called Hunter's Chicken, and in total it was 409kCal!

(okay so in truth there were two days between me cooking it and being able to eat it BUT it was still hot and delicious and homemade, and I feel FULL and SATISFIED)",4.244302477183833,5.57874243502825,4.58666666666667,86.42894393741852,70.9774011299435,7.254063450673621,27.17470664928292,7.61054688173877,1.4297973924380702,709,24,141,8,13,223,119,177,0.02,0.897,0.083,0.8665,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,8,1,10,17,2,0,2,30,19,17,0,1,6,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,15,18,15,1,1,3,1,1,5,1,0,2,14,3,10,4,17,4,8,20,0,1,0,2,3,12,0,2,7,96,25,0,0.1874138897663385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117243501931278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422566257938594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424576768872577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19137053558048395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24173290907005335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835423943196733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237851066481758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843551960461195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476209382317848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22662161942406506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064575288063818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951627261652693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914835264090647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181005502586196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126996502015261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295097926671135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117243501931278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496689744597886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764645376754612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18307613799844047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373455343281086,0.0,0.4184818299765259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Spicy_Lemon_,2018/11/18,"Donating blood before or after Thanksgiving? So while it doesn't completely burn calories instantly it could help for those who are anxious about all the extra calories they are going to be consuming.

(I know everyone on here can't due to low weight or just health issues in general, I had a year I couldn't donate blood so I understand the awkwardness of it)


I'm debating on going on Wednesday even though my iron might be extra low and I'll risk being too tired for a rare social outing that Friday.

Anyone else?",5.515408163265307,6.9851878877551075,6.125102040816326,76.08418367346937,68.08163265306122,9.681632653061223,28.285714285714285,9.957137785484203,2.9240653061224497,415,14,71,10,7,135,73,98,0.096,0.838,0.065,-0.4581,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,2,4,0,11,5,2,0,1,11,16,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,2,0,2,2,3,4,0,0,1,1,6,0,11,9,3,13,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,3,5,52,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590538780538653,0.0,0.16033817104765322,0.234954149271564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195125053223366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404261035422683,0.0,0.0,0.1830845620962928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19155822914031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145641912831845,0.0,0.0,0.2191145579378836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26064315638833696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437447235778741,0.0,0.0,0.1537009761784201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23933899957121485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260222188784693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24326059118996726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337516283252408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252949093326661,0.0,0.0,0.2635569406713069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387187359880417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27923656236814226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476674654200076
EDAnonymous,101_honey,2018/11/18,"group therapy what is it like???? 

my therapist/counselor wants me to attend the one she runs at our university. any idea what i should expect??? its a general ed group.",1.269677419354842,3.894821129032264,3.19574193548387,83.19361290322581,95.77419354838707,7.6412903225806454,22.32903225806452,8.238735603445708,2.218736774193548,129,5,24,4,5,43,29,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,16,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916036714996129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4840712521935796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949358909271945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905709271600149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490378523640701,0.4978783308626811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529216582174467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mostlyoff,2018/11/18,"appointment tomorrow so a couple of my friends at school went to our head of year and raised some 'concerns' or whatever about my wellbeing. now i've been rereferred to some service and i've been offered an initial assessment appointment tomorrow. it's the same appt i've been avoiding for the last year except it looks like there's no way out of it this time because my mum is taking me there. i really really *really* don't want to go as i don't think it's at all necessary, but it doesn't look like i have much of a choice. i'm panicking a lot about it and i'm really scared about what's going to happen, so i just thought i'd ask if anyone here has any experience with that sort of thing and could tell me what to expect? thanks",3.6497953040337126,4.7844470198675495,4.9239012642986175,84.21042745334138,72.17880794701986,9.19951836243227,26.31005418422637,9.573946990214177,2.1825841059602653,584,19,123,14,11,194,95,151,0.087,0.838,0.075,-0.198,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,0,10,6,0,2,6,0,10,1,1,0,1,23,24,10,0,4,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,11,6,0,1,2,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,5,2,10,4,20,18,6,14,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,6,9,78,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307244799133445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654526145672185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691916521818649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103235865020195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449761792704385,0.20025067049845469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177032939953775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982451946561678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057099451525152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600398107452672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18573745416546894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752266559705582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683514556273974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039548476373861,0.0,0.0,0.15386252646910778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304095294459048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4637610933647586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811923194883576,0.1831611868042932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607426198394,0.0,0.15818429384056878,0.1666218545569145,0.0,0.0,0.120234915807246,0.11596452740017132,0.0,0.14367771979460014,0.10553075785628284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106746555922188,0.14365331556251876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677700576730066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23309007328856896
EDAnonymous,crazyloco43,2018/11/18,"Confused about how calorie deficits work. So let's say I've been eating 800 calories for a few months. My TDEE is 1800. If I increase to 1200, will I end up still losing, or gaining? What about if I went to 1400?

I know it's less than my TDEE but it's still a calorific increase, so I'm just confused.",-0.6535069444444446,1.5366899687500035,0.8270833333333343,101.79847222222223,94.625,2.844444444444445,21.17361111111111,3.1291,-0.6211784722222222,234,9,54,0,9,74,46,64,0.11800000000000001,0.775,0.107,-0.1669,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,8,3,0,2,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,9,7,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,6,0,7,3,4,8,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,5,4,34,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32955464699602105,0.0,0.0,0.2852555094046376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769994403047045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32933503028684635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603102655113754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570705741527865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561203735335968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5144057791248148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29855906557146145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344683996968241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brlouse,2018/11/18,"If you haven't gotten Peach yet, give it a chance! The refugee community is going strong there and although I didn't love the app at first I actually like it a lot now so - reconsider!! also, feel free to add me - calamyst - I'm adding everyone <3",2.021632653061225,4.339498918367351,3.644244897959183,86.39004081632655,80.22448979591837,7.185306122448982,24.08571428571429,8.238735603445708,1.4598865306122448,193,7,41,4,5,64,43,49,0.064,0.7070000000000001,0.22899999999999998,0.8228,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,5,4,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,9,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,4,5,2,7,1,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,4,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3826642710598001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31358782264444235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746989351290098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19827372392543208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335472830464717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761687505546926,0.22285765506977415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191575890241068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33337660779204353,0.353914444277101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tahinibitch,2018/11/18,"DAE feel like their face is basically shapeless at higher weights Right now my biggest motivation to not gain weight is that my face finally has a resemblance to a bone structure.. I've always been told that I have baby face, which I suppose can be good when aging, but I feel like all weight on my face just adds to the plumpness of my cheeks and lack of real cheekbones etc... and I don't know whether this is a case of 'face dysmorphia' or what? I am just frustrated",5.179057971014494,5.916817630434785,5.396521739130439,83.68253623188406,68.34782608695652,8.742028985507247,30.55072463768116,8.841846274778883,2.25862463768116,370,14,75,6,6,117,66,92,0.10099999999999999,0.8059999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.4191,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,0,4,0,10,10,7,1,1,16,14,6,0,1,6,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,10,3,8,11,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,6,50,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829704182645935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22557406080423856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045380973679981,0.2889900602226913,0.0,0.22156662703611468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16964661511776405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115714931054012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19762864849517447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021687045792094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727294676577245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19326869380313327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7388968516587641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,concentratedregret,2018/11/18,"Anyone else kind of... spite restrict/purge/etc? Last week I got pulled aside by my manager at my weekend job and told if I was caught chatting to anyone again, I'd be fired. First time I'd spoken with anyone on the shop floor before, ten minutes from closing, store entirely empty, all work finished. It was done in front of everyone so it was a bit humiliating too. Anyways, I digress.

After she did it, I just stopped eating. It was partly to punish myself (despite knowing I've done nothing wrong) and some illogical part of me felt it was a fuck you to her as well. It makes no sense, but it's how I felt.

I've felt similarly before when I've been angry or upset with someone. It has no consequence or effect to them, I'm too pathetic to actually stand up for myself, so why? Does anyone ever feel the same?",4.4356352343308885,5.331900683229815,5.8026538678712605,79.52940146809715,70.11801242236024,8.090570299265952,28.300959909655557,8.296473431620573,1.94828695652174,634,22,122,9,11,214,114,161,0.188,0.789,0.023,-0.9764,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,3,11,7,3,1,4,0,11,2,0,3,2,23,22,11,0,1,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,1,1,6,3,2,3,2,5,1,2,15,5,14,2,19,6,6,21,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,4,11,82,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.1378520412677431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950967246759996,0.144740354432884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404083473294377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542223079242667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361996175797407,0.2891216241213015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454703296814922,0.11800687949655085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157545278416591,0.0,0.12778022133555866,0.0,0.13498258649894096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142667774333822,0.0,0.4069031040882628,0.0,0.0,0.12015800090225914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13059511209552216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298070500827205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018145641138766,0.0,0.0,0.147103388991479,0.0776342987916568,0.11514797417523825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429396521810568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554539359078202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305947528361443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969144766216495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810196262147372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237143039104015,0.0,0.0,0.13498258649894096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133124363867766,0.0,0.1270121538809198,0.0,0.1274676364327328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284094553027263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444861294114812,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dreaming_Lightly,2018/11/18,"Update on my period and binging I’ve eaten anything and everything I could get my disgusting hands on. My stomach is bulging out and I can feel like legs growing with each bite I take. I hate myself. Why can’t I control my eating? It not like food will make things better, if anything, I feel even worse! I just want to purge or restart this entire weekend. Somebody come and kill me for being absolutely fat sand uncontrolled. Fuck I hate myself!!! ",2.9633986928104576,5.6234499411764745,3.641568627450983,85.77594771241833,79.0,6.130718954248366,25.91503267973856,7.3871296695380915,1.5164640522875814,355,14,64,5,9,112,65,85,0.257,0.634,0.11,-0.9561,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,2,2,9,5,1,0,0,6,8,4,2,0,18,17,6,1,3,4,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,8,4,1,2,1,0,2,2,6,0,0,1,4,15,3,6,13,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,5,40,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34873595059982665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740008725616186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18252505864895796,0.0,0.0,0.23765341493562064,0.16917746619686266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168170641016956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399517956839125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043368030224725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142765887178183,0.15137474405676105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562190512089487,0.0,0.0,0.1958895192046051,0.11070413478131126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183963570722819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344256430908891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703816637283529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143867418988812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931542116268024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077075246273665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497861290194714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19119838112081672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159347051430971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tehertory,2018/11/18,"I wish i was anorexic again I know it sounds bad, but fuck it was some good times of my life really. I mean i did have shittones of health problems and my hormones were fucked. But i somehow didnt have any food cravings back then and if i ate, i ate only healthy stuff in pretty low portions. Life was great because i loved how i looked and others complimented me on how skinny i was. Even after recovery i didnt binge at all! I didnt even had urges tbh. I looked great even after recovery.
But then life hit and i developed BED and just a food addiction in general, i cant keep up eating healthy, my longerst streak in a year was 1 month of healthier eating but i always ended up binging. Ugh im such a fucking food addict right now. I hate it and my willpower is gone! Im still surprised how i could go days without thinking about food when i was fucking anorexic! And i was only 13-14!",1.6633028083028094,3.790872412087911,3.070915750915756,91.05463980463982,80.37362637362638,5.8026862026862025,24.3968253968254,6.937597516519254,0.8957975579975588,697,26,146,8,18,227,105,182,0.139,0.6579999999999999,0.203,0.9315,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,15,15,5,0,3,0,18,20,1,3,1,28,36,18,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,5,7,9,1,3,0,0,2,5,9,0,0,16,3,26,6,14,18,3,25,0,1,2,5,1,9,4,3,14,96,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23103186999994896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817018101016076,0.0,0.0,0.07205886304817677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147944662735608,0.08847515706190492,0.06459441036951223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460329042716175,0.0,0.0,0.06833773821202098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685437731305227,0.0,0.0,0.09385227371381456,0.0,0.0,0.20996382110849512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5125262906391609,0.0,0.0,0.3918464617650509,0.0,0.0,0.0602215402688535,0.08887721733171129,0.0,0.2336504258632265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461709028631017,0.0,0.11263432264759315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891768380612115,0.0,0.0,0.09418529210396416,0.0,0.0,0.05823480834196655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22453561523487808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779654268376462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563626141130044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542539490233722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845791127382956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118014380455015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780304797772354,0.0,0.10139282833359677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788297799235464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049231206852926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846226459975347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130293912235085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789717873300008,0.0,0.0,0.061788211349071566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185287908647327,0.10214510271631702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823706663482107
EDAnonymous,SorryStop,2018/11/18,"oops you've been banned 🤷 ​

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EDAnonymous,IJustLikePornThanks,2018/11/18,"I need a buddy before I ruin my IRL relationships 🙃🙃🙃 Hi! So. I finally found this sub (yay). And I’ve had an eating disorder.... my whole life. Like since I was 9 years old. I’m 22. 
Because of my elite sports I do, I need to be a certain weight to be good enough. Which fucks up my brain even more. 

I’ve never been malnourished enough to be in danger, so I’ve never seen a doctor or anything about it. 

Uhhhh and I need someone to talk to! I’m pretty bad right now, and my impulse control is so bad I’m starting to blurt out random anorexic thoughts in my mind, and my boyfriend is starting to become annoyed and worried. 
And the least thing I want is fucking up our relationship and/or him taking control of my life to “save me”. 

So does anyone want to listen to my unheatlhy thoughts in here? Maybe you have some secret stuff you need off your chest too! ❤️ thanks! ",0.3970275791624118,2.7404303370786534,2.2823084780388183,93.11036772216549,88.32584269662922,4.809397344228807,20.450459652706847,6.351523495107088,0.2147662921348319,672,22,143,7,22,222,112,178,0.126,0.769,0.105,-0.7825,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,3,0,3,9,13,4,0,5,1,11,9,2,2,3,27,31,11,0,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,7,2,2,4,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,7,3,23,6,20,21,6,16,0,1,1,2,11,8,2,3,9,87,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595534110628159,0.0,0.10116071189509916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20528241687580648,0.07493683604338339,0.13576625337684167,0.10460416505069806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723025893909188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757523403920688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088814633402633,0.12582381051577374,0.10757665469553936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578782610629866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540385907553674,0.0,0.08119394205289651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466353494694985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134786128402914,0.0,0.22729315037858785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310764391344493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736578391071635,0.060057267579405126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349945912313508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241240065461513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646034149383454,0.18962200679127025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289940960872679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506375218956373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639610977091629,0.0,0.10498133683509414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168876146972372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415798024894128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402062286679054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072515576181371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924278749751147,0.09880627844733056,0.0,0.11317719983611495,0.0,0.0,0.08166906514023335,0.0,0.0,0.1951849839678307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145014305879014,0.0,0.0,0.14969532090125734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724667843069985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124841130669491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916273010688414
EDAnonymous,Doctordoomduck,2018/11/18,"Thank god I don’t have to do this alone Oh my god, I can’t describe how relieved I am to not have to face this illness alone.",1.5741379310344854,1.8257817586206928,3.085689655172416,98.76577586206898,76.24137931034483,5.8000000000000025,24.84482758620689,3.1291,-0.04060000000000042,97,3,26,0,2,32,19,29,0.225,0.501,0.27399999999999997,0.1717,0,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,1,0,2,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9138042083000592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061549813717693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,definitely-not-julie,2018/11/18,"Thanksgiving Yeah so since /r/proed is gone, let’s move on. We’re all thinking about thanksgiving I’m sure. Shits super scary and I’m not looking forward to it. Luckily for me I’m scheduled to work! How are you guys coping?",0.4149523809523821,2.854807511111112,1.8638095238095247,93.15,96.11111111111113,5.238095238095238,21.984126984126984,6.868970318607317,0.8914126984126987,178,7,36,3,7,57,39,45,0.12300000000000001,0.643,0.23399999999999999,0.69,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,3,3,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,2,6,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,5,7,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,2,16,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36331033799739465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375202471093289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081219585916261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3899798789845268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766400260443837,0.3035215619645369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458195194887897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351087182022503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671234908807423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soclosetoit,2018/11/18,"Fasting for 3 to 7 days for thanksgiving?? Did anyone else see that comment on 1200isplenty? I don’t know, usually I try to mind my own business (please let me know if it’s not allowed to post about specific comments) but the whole hypocrisy of the sub deletion is getting to me. Is there any world in which fasting for days on end before what should be maybe a heavier but all-in-all benign meal is a healthy mindset or legitimate suggestion?! I just can’t imagine it is.... Just me??",4.324711246200607,5.7654983404255375,4.8365045592705185,84.30500000000002,70.91489361702128,7.924620060790273,33.641337386018236,8.418075326091056,2.6527039513677813,380,19,74,6,7,121,70,94,0.0,0.912,0.08800000000000001,0.8295,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,1,0,13,14,4,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,12,10,2,11,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,6,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945644998659107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423811030874228,0.2553226515606725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204071572843144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214114136044529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081646787001016,0.0,0.2207066896972817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301904950568264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738945209468957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548117106928774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503429351197615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251608940947718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273533699114969,0.0,0.0,0.2386533135692027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19857064964860824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918235973097334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744454822010436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27820960964308433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sexdrugsnrealestate,2018/11/18,"Pooped myself while running today :) Literal shitpost I live in Australia, and a few months ago a news story about a corporate executive who was caught pooping in common areas of apartment buildings while he was out running made headlines. He was affectionately dubbed the Poo Jogger, and his actions were widely thought to be some kind of fetish activity.

Well friends, today I have developed a new found understanding of the Poo Jogger. I was 5km into my run, and about to turn around and start running back to my car, when I suddenly was suddenly struck with debilitating cramps.  They were so bad I got down on the ground and decided to wait until the passed. Only they didn't pass, and I quickly realised what was going on. The only toilets were back at the carpark I'd parked in, so I made the decision to waddle/power walk as quickly as I could, past the produce markets that were happening in the park. I didn't make it. I had to run with my grey leggings covered in shit back to my car, past families buying organic fruits. So now I'm thinking that maybe the Poo Jogger was actually just misunderstood, and was also partial to artificial sweeteners? ",7.867320872274142,7.982815934579445,7.962196261682244,69.74070872274146,62.55140186915888,10.684735202492213,37.459501557632386,10.317481424215053,3.98649968847352,926,42,156,19,12,301,131,214,0.059000000000000004,0.8809999999999999,0.06,-0.2243,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,1,16,6,1,0,14,0,18,6,4,4,0,27,33,17,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,12,1,1,6,0,1,13,2,2,1,0,21,2,18,4,30,10,2,50,0,0,1,0,7,16,1,1,21,109,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.15840407393644626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438897646904097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980984220493585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445021046070973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744496726292669,0.1355331312331647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12960190459112794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302391113758412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177979062281737,0.12541053818916684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922520421705607,0.0,0.12982472936155132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435419114899358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903468306900285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433344012489777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071883627786343,0.10835202802081832,0.0,0.1630755196212171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295648673256759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15677280372428026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469082882459041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30991181357620834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662248068632474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489322989874375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401018253228524,0.0,0.12886652665853762,0.0,0.0,0.3077269169267549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656108074800822,0.0,0.16898422505642433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594809354403332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cornpoppet,2018/11/18,"I have to pursue getting better Another day, another breakdown, and another brutal self harm episode. I can't keep going on like this. Suicidal for the first time in nearly five years. 

On Monday, it changes. I'm going to try to get real, professional help. I'm talking to a school counselor. I don't deserve to keep putting myself through this. It doesnt matter that I'm not underweight, that I don't feel truly ""bad"" enough to get help. I need it.

Im scared of tomorrow. I have no idea if I'll feel the same way I do now. But I will make it out alive. It doesn't matter what I eat. 

Much love to this community for keeping me company through the bad + good times. Wish me luck.",1.1908695652173904,3.480008521739133,3.0472753623188424,89.60134782608698,83.34782608695653,6.288695652173913,23.692753623188405,7.554174236665415,1.1746892753623186,528,20,111,9,15,176,88,138,0.17300000000000001,0.654,0.17300000000000001,0.0183,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,1,10,1,1,4,0,9,2,0,1,0,19,26,3,1,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,11,2,1,3,3,0,0,3,7,5,0,2,0,2,12,5,17,25,3,17,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,2,9,64,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507581443665844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23928337441627398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267289140446585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158248233429064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241059944039992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466220826375604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480575203493311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449040915134908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188293302247973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22459031348120867,0.0,0.16287072944096945,0.12018537846155106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19208937194322992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175767502319485,0.15477846455350205,0.0,0.0,0.3820898757927635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000456182915687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932538413602987,0.0,0.09564760532634928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10533509712202753,0.10624818332946356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404665596737634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16309610235967426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434589135799454,0.14501776313231474,0.0,0.0,0.14948337313195842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673668750886768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115171577187221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710783231960769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728492900828352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373742905300235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477714794983928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922744649846942
EDAnonymous,pokipokitoki,2018/11/18,"Does anyone else wish they could see the number on the scale go lower without it actually affecting how your body looks? I have this weird thing where, because I know how freakish my body looked like at my LW, I don't want to look like that again, yet I desperately crave the high of seeing the number on the scale go lower, the routine and structure of what that would require, and the feeling of control knowing that I had the willpower to make that happen. Can anyone else relate? Would this now be considered more OCD rather than AN or OSFED?",6.937147435897438,7.085845086538463,6.3738461538461575,80.2378205128205,64.48076923076923,8.471794871794872,30.794871794871803,7.793537801064563,1.9979410256410253,435,14,80,4,6,134,73,104,0.12300000000000001,0.7709999999999999,0.106,-0.4473,3,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,2,7,3,0,0,9,0,8,2,2,5,0,19,22,5,0,6,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,6,9,2,10,17,1,10,0,0,5,0,2,5,0,1,5,56,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.15858218097482107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22725561304324896,0.3330127123247225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906200356708254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610145322860283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822640290800109,0.12974762692528785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422098865371735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715054220234444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216779550129713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471153781888508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14370330774763804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169625865663474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861783267931458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587842126597382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093917332945245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847385732945362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25899210361228586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796160672647498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585010820278217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868736052186468,0.15664975454934582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308788601587079,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,publixbogo,2018/11/18,Anyone else have a huge spread between their high and low weights? I’m literally 100 lbs above my lowest weight and it’s just... agonizing to think about. :(,1.4468965517241372,4.036619206896553,2.134068965517244,90.09282758620691,98.3103448275862,5.078620689655172,19.593103448275865,6.742157984588678,0.5120013793103446,123,4,24,2,5,38,28,29,0.317,0.618,0.065,-0.8402,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22456547566980603,0.32907067572875137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682914777203892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393276098189526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057890509424558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7821829454942024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dashing-rainbows,2018/11/18,"I honestly don't feel like i belong in this subreddit As someone with binge eating disorder who still chronically overeats even when not binging i don't feel like i belong. All the memes and posts are focused towards bulimia, anorexia and ednos that are focused towards the losing weight spectrum. I saw maybe one or two posts about binging.

I mean i'm not fully ready for recovery either but i'm trying harm reduction. Food is one of the only things i enjoy and i am not sure i want to cut down on it quite yet. So i don't fit in fully in the recovery subreddits. Plus every time i try to lose weight i end up doing things like purging and extreme restriction.

I see things like people mourning stats, thinspo, fatspo and stuff but honestly those things made me feel ashamed of myself and partially made me avoid proed once i stopped the purging phase i went through. 

I mean i hate my body and i hate how i look and i hate my weight and everything but i struggle with eating just like everyone else here. I just happen to be on the other side of the spectrum but honestly with the way content has been i'm not sure i belong here.",3.339932126696837,5.546525651583713,4.150269230769233,84.98848076923079,75.289592760181,7.1349321266968335,27.339592760181,8.07648339933343,1.8980803619909508,903,36,169,15,20,289,125,221,0.282,0.647,0.071,-0.9938,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,11,22,4,3,8,0,11,9,1,3,3,40,30,19,1,1,12,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,13,7,3,5,0,0,1,7,11,0,3,5,9,28,11,23,24,2,21,0,3,3,0,1,11,0,1,11,114,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168790727423033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059471595257765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153388706473132,0.08790034509044617,0.0,0.09319637850814516,0.0,0.0,0.06949882324184084,0.0,0.0886549465036072,0.10054512063260436,0.09456768040697937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961178659470518,0.1503427166342397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723611343566205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304838369353258,0.0,0.0,0.3116578925239811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570333031231432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836084958101317,0.23543532571940926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19912916269070674,0.0,0.0,0.10571068312547242,0.2292374679290682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112059099789376,0.14260370548415693,0.08002686080792869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294840470969298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015491653118877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119176515025817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384913683696059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915513738490889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403125288999966,0.08797117010953535,0.0,0.11000196414521596,0.12045520242876187,0.0,0.0,0.1983429333202847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796220397235895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135639877824006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287906955620622,0.0,0.10278761717849992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062063273176575014,0.0835211486633469,0.0,0.38439993370451175,0.0,0.0975428090420037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,veganvapinggeekazoid,2018/11/18,"I noticed I do a weird thing So I've been trying for a few weeks to eat more daily and regularly throughout the day.  Which seems to still not be enough because I'm losing weight still, but a lot of the obsessive thoughts are gone and for me that's a massive massive win.  Anyway; because I'm getting thinner I'm starting to actually feel self conscious about how thin I am, and feeling more mentally healthy just makes me realize how thin i am x2.  But what ive noticed is that when I have to spend a lot of time around people (for example my bf is over tonight) I tend to eat a ton at once so my stomach sticks out a bit and I don't look so freakin underweight.  Idk why.  But it's good bc I might gain a bit (which i actually need, i don't count calories because it always always ends badly, but my stomach is smol so I struggle eating a lot).  Anyway just wanted to share that random thing that I do that i find odd and i didn't know where else to type it out",2.472742537313433,3.842238149253731,3.927285447761197,89.28107742537316,75.4676616915423,6.617039800995027,26.99036069651741,7.1686216300943375,1.1988330845771151,752,29,164,8,16,249,115,201,0.095,0.792,0.113,0.7639,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,16,8,0,2,11,0,16,6,2,3,0,33,32,16,0,2,7,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,13,8,4,0,8,0,1,1,4,5,0,0,4,6,20,3,18,26,10,18,0,1,1,0,3,8,0,6,9,109,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.24657684912119995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21024797127341527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124682994570444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548760401330368,0.23104484271548695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758584523119679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147806126674165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38782833694002616,0.1055398391394492,0.0,0.1118986596242376,0.1305417320856678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776136631114846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154713559770564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600679803886446,0.0,0.0,0.10596697444834162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943248936952763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609275585220417,0.14134077846112442,0.0,0.32222613817229123,0.0,0.0,0.08433211659690201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12731977490623755,0.13402548028542982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367860443737608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876750764892558,0.0,0.13454667730499806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758740242280608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150140802367908,0.13179890086374926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942323865090816,0.0,0.2017886255980323,0.0,0.0,0.1320767238053925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678677430782912,0.0,0.0,0.10029887903452553,0.07366915852910771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857757384333361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451788568956767,0.0,0.10134134857035193,0.1538465980106775,0.0,0.0,0.11400109808843492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ihavenosister,2018/11/18,"what to do about late night binging? i am fine all day on my meds (vyvanse/wellbutrin)

but at night sometimes il wake up and just eat

like i just ate some leftoever pizza, purged it, drank some diet dr pepper and am now back in bed.

how the fuck do you just tell yourself NO at night",3.685517241379313,4.461577034482762,4.102931034482761,91.47267241379312,71.75862068965517,6.4896551724137925,24.84482758620689,5.985473137389443,0.4621586206896553,220,6,49,1,4,69,48,58,0.135,0.7929999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,7,3,1,0,1,0,4,8,1,1,1,10,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,7,5,3,12,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,2,8,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964423820834469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475845917266266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614118787491627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361799679130769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881838126699212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481083135347495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28377206493357066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7192301691405147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526685763324739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22329399688591944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taylizzle-,2018/11/18,Took two diet pills at work I feel like I’m going to explode 😭I just wanna go home ,-3.6225000000000014,-2.608744249999999,0.5200000000000031,100.24000000000002,116.5,2.0,10.0,3.1291,-2.0065,65,1,16,0,4,24,18,20,0.0,0.865,0.135,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060538196100303,0.29113161070958016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632048074482296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087747218438719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990931685138972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452768534647383,0.0,0.0,0.3980867875758633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966786403669203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,interstellartortise,2018/11/18,"Anyone have any experience with mono-liquid diets? I hit a plateau and I haven't been loosing for over a month. I read somewhere mono dieting can help. I am planning to make a 600 cal smoothie with a bunch of ""healthy"" things in it and some vegan protien powder and drink that once a day until I loose 10 pounds. Do you think this is safe? Almost like prolonged fasting?",3.671666666666667,5.579651722222224,4.167777777777779,86.555,73.44444444444444,6.466666666666668,27.277777777777786,7.1686216300943375,1.3758444444444446,292,11,56,3,6,92,59,72,0.035,0.84,0.125,0.7225,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,0,7,4,0,1,0,10,10,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,8,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329764518290419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261288764266975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232509698615453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445156509192367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32574858873635104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32527393787666303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222884965037578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624552587987418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22196348453252124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654188384833485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541290143307887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326156826975873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22091529714811126,0.21306903953190304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catterific,2018/11/18,"DAE else freak out when they eat maintenance? I ate or slightly below or above my maintenance (essentially close to maintenance) the past two days because of family parties where i was kinda being forced to eat with everyone else. and now I’m freaking out??? I try to tell myself that maintenance is fine once in awhile but I’m still freaking the heck out. Does this happen to anyone else, what do u guys do to deal and counteract with it. ",4.303270223752151,6.4275940602409705,4.815008605851983,81.66024096385546,72.25301204819277,8.598278829604133,26.314974182444054,9.23628265651192,2.3263094664371784,349,12,64,8,7,111,60,83,0.12300000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.038,-0.7976,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,12,9,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,6,1,13,6,0,12,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,3,5,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145639140803559,0.2134146860012007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696984591569446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343279092009906,0.21473479168000906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822733917256776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262592802701362,0.5219912836143272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990271920099471,0.0,0.0,0.19635448359389074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623691576299327,0.1841875409872712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22181889911632066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883354719541133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633829865186944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820520529837225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141322737417986,0.0,0.20346617211970755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,800goat,2018/11/18,I have to log everything I eat for my nutrition and wellness class tomorrow And I don't know what to do. Do I lie and say I eat normally? Or should I be honest and see what happens? Or should I actually eat like a normal person? I'm freaking out pretty much. I'm thinking of having very high volume food/low cal tomorrow so it will look like I eat enough but will actually be low calorie since I don't think we're tracking calories... also I'm supposed to be mindful of macros and I don't really have safe foods with protein in them :/,2.1392727272727257,4.066689836363636,4.254545454545454,84.1518181818182,77.9090909090909,7.309090909090909,26.45454545454545,8.238735603445708,1.849109090909092,422,17,85,8,10,145,69,110,0.111,0.7959999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.6004,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,15,5,0,0,0,19,24,10,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,0,1,3,7,5,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,12,5,9,17,2,6,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,2,4,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.289415719351101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858599317233336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6069432580296984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322131591657184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327184237101758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35862127908229824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113073590379856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667458948900584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149529823597627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448922156513057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452471252811738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149728775957136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900886463015706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905818372156319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947950724365728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508623758852601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499719659326927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792470184932748,0.0,0.0,0.11816646976419408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266550369366085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190034138954646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235326735286045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332887037335692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SCTossaside,2018/11/18,Camera adds more than 10 pounds We had professional pictures taken and I look so fat and disgusting in all of them. I don't even want to look at them. This is how other people see me and I can't stand it. ,-0.6360606060606031,1.5458432727272748,1.7518181818181835,95.56439393939397,93.54545454545452,4.751515151515153,14.151515151515152,6.42735559955562,-0.6347757575757575,160,3,37,2,6,54,37,44,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.5975,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,1,8,9,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,7,0,5,7,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,27,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039999120901824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7730113763615529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319088979991747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667706737792317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714755259100418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,janienicesocks,2018/11/18,"This isn't beautiful. I can't finish it. 
I can't finish my dinner. 
I'm sitting in the dining room, decorated with a white and gold embossed pumpkin patterned table cloth. 
A centerpiece of several fall gourds lie on top, as well as beautiful dinner plates,  which are rarely used. 
This dinner is shit. 
The dining room? it's gorgeous. 
My eating disorder?  Horrendous. 

I stir my chopsticks around the dark broth of my microwave noodles, knowing that I didn't even want to eat it in the first place. 
Yet, I still opened the package and placed it into the microwave as I looked at my father cutting more pieces of fatty cake to eat. 
Doesn't he know how many calories there are in that single piece?
Does he even care?  


As I continue to attempt to feed myself, the diseased voice in my head continues eating away at my happiness from the inside. 
""you're going to get fat if you eat all of that"" 
""why can't you just eat normally"" 
""if you had kept on with the diet you would've been beautiful by now"" 

I didn't even think I was going to eat anything after my 430 cal breakfast today. 

Some call it their beautiful monster of a disease. 
It's not beautiful at all for me. 


It is like an empty promise to me. 
a promise to be happy and beautiful. 
It hasn't ever come true yet. 
yet. 

Still, my imperfect human brain insists on continuing this path with the hope that maybe I will feel better if I am 30 pounds lighter. Maybe if I fit into a size 4 pants, I could finally stop faking my happiness. 

what if I just don't eat tomorrow? 
what if I exercise some more? 

the what ifs keep coming, lodging themselves into my brain day by day. 


I decide on packing up my sorry excuse of a meal and take it to the kitchen to put away. I stare at it as I place it into the fridge full of leftovers, then hear my mothers cold voice softly whisper to my father sitting peacefully on the couch, in her native tongue, ""she looks more fat"".

I can feel the tears rising up, but I continue pretending that I'm fine as I hurry and put away the dirty dishes. 

I'm fineimfineimfineimfineimfine

 Already insulting me about my body image earlier today, she asks me of how much I weigh. 

I answer her honestly. ""A hundred fifty two."" 

i'mfineimfineimfineimfineimfineimnotfine
imnotfineimnotfineimnotfineatall. 

I feel my eyes getting watery, and rush to put away the remaining utensils. 

I can't help that she's insensitive to her daughter. she probably doesn't know how her words slice my mind like a sharpened knife to the wrist. 

Still, it hurts just the same. 

she carries on, commenting about some stupid show she's watching on the tv. I carry on with her, trying to keep myself together until I go back to my room. 

As the door closes, the tears immediately rush down. 
I hear a voice in my head say,  ""you don't deserve to eat tomorrow."" 
I wonder if it's right as I feel the warm tears stream down my cheeks and I try to gather myself. My stomach emits a dull pain, and somehow it feels more psychologically induced than physical. 

I'm so tired of feeling tired, but it's the only thing I know how to do. 

I can't remember the last day I had where I didn't worry about how many calories something is or how many i burned. 

All I can think about is that I'm fat, and I need to be beautiful. 

This isn't beautiful. 



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EDAnonymous,raspbunni,2018/11/18,"I can’t tell who’s who on r/progresspics since we aren’t supposed to post “progress” here now, and instead post in r/progresspics , i feel like i can’t trust who’s who in that sub. who has an ed? who doesn’t? 

someone posted going from 165 to 130 (or something) in 4 months. they look like half their old self. i can’t know if they’re an ed sufferer or if they’re regular CICO. who’s real? who is one of us? 

it’s causing me anxiety. i want to know who’s weight loss is ed related and who’s isn’t. i want to know what my comments really mean.",0.07270308123249336,1.869199008403364,2.2590126050420203,96.52924719887956,84.12605042016807,5.64733893557423,20.841036414565828,6.816661863887847,0.21012549019607896,418,13,102,5,12,141,70,119,0.064,0.8009999999999999,0.135,0.7691,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,2,2,3,5,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,1,0,16,18,6,0,4,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,13,3,1,0,5,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,0,3,12,3,10,18,0,11,0,2,1,0,17,4,0,4,5,57,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14299342644444546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920185148867547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451245957388524,0.13353581428358968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623104614424007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081793284209303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18263951695938832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696587455308955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20361087407173287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919790473688296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961412860553661,0.0,0.12666195182578754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370535901698194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21275608742202887,0.11974585398048886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499851401762364,0.0,0.0,0.1546223048732045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837686234209936,0.14390028702755794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633764765802917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248419622430848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205007307644019,0.0,0.0,0.22761842323527398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blazingkats,2018/11/18,"At the height of your restricting, did you have a lot of energy ? When I was around 36 kilos (79) I had so much energy. I was 22 (24 now) at the time and would sleep 5-7 hours daily, wake up at 7am effortlessly, go to uni, walk around 20k steps and was extremely active without feeling tired. I would have 1 cup of coffee and that was enough for me. 

I only start feeling tired and lazy when I’m around 40-45 kilo range. 

Is that weird or has that happened to anyone else ? I don’t understand my body. ",2.3701923076923066,3.5203964038461564,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,75.34615384615384,7.507692307692308,20.69230769230769,8.07648339933343,0.6771576923076927,382,8,87,6,8,128,75,104,0.09699999999999999,0.7829999999999999,0.12,0.5102,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,13,5,3,0,0,16,20,8,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,7,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,6,3,10,0,14,12,3,17,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,6,55,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326930820759644,0.1944439680811511,0.0,0.5068122752741985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21079404958032533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15853025923619318,0.0,0.0,0.19608533419629956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19190897661796735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078518718193968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781486322114292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868873162362267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161337474182413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950434718236013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443302523634641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18990917595055706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432168667925848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065765207298198,0.4362302816812588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975594745814916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829335562650343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696173452473906,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zombienicole,2018/11/18,tea suggestions? i've never been a tea person before but i'm freezing all the time and i think it would be nice to have at work. what kinds of tea do yall like? and any tips making it like steep time/do you add anything to it? i think i'm going to get some of the celestial seasonings bengal spice cause that sounds good but i'd love suggestions!,-0.4331880448318799,1.8104164657534267,1.3844831880448325,96.95662515566623,96.67123287671234,4.8463262764632615,14.855541718555415,6.574015621080383,-0.3715643835616436,274,6,61,4,11,89,51,73,0.02,0.722,0.258,0.9686,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,0,6,0,0,3,0,5,4,0,2,2,13,13,4,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,6,6,10,2,5,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,1,5,30,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892494271313583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290122062789725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368076516609677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28588454326343304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539710119857904,0.0,0.15816086342118485,0.2334197592572364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898003208741036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719207307617315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511711525752609,0.0,0.1857633706744953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21463744827807466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24299554030628776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35663904856408424,0.0,0.0,0.3245508770646347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20260130795080172,0.0,0.0,0.1976920353735845,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Daeloy,2018/11/18,"Want an ED sub that won’t be banned? Join the Raddle version of r/ProED! Want an ED sub that won’t be banned? Join the Raddle version of r/ProED! Raddle is like Reddit, but it doesn’t ban us! Unlike Reddit, Raddle understands that was are a **support** sub. But even if we *did* “promote self harm,” Raddle wouldn’t care. Many other banned subreddits have taken refuge there.

A moderator from the deceased r/ProED subreddit has created the new ProED on Raddle. Spread the word so that others may join, and we can bring it back to its former glory. My username on the site is Lavender22. DM me if you have any questions!

[Here’s the new ProED.](https://raddle.me/f/proED)",1.8635014005602244,4.659975079365083,2.378366013071897,91.21205882352942,87.88888888888891,4.869467787114846,18.522875816993466,6.522977012572876,0.18345340802987886,524,14,98,6,17,161,80,126,0.12300000000000001,0.691,0.185,0.7076,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,3,1,0,1,5,5,0,0,11,0,16,0,0,0,0,18,23,6,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,9,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,0,6,4,6,14,2,8,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,4,5,58,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511560205648202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980092628139165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625485646555268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700828988420734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258063583091529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610746799594898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4974094448006087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884700872510451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26863904737229977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922192490807276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680769481969761,0.30975277350494024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037720905508609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rupali12,2018/11/18,"Hand dryers If you know, you know. ",-2.185714285714287,-2.414866,-0.7392857142857139,106.59678571428572,137.57142857142856,1.4,3.5,3.1291,-3.0926571428571425,26,0,6,0,2,8,5,7,0.0,0.652,0.348,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,horrendouswhore,2019/07/02,"eating a dinner my dad is cooking tomorrow night wish me luck lads I’m going to dinner at my dads tomorrow for my sisters bday and even though he’s using my very specific recipe I gave him, the anxiety about not being able to weigh everything and not being able to measure the fucking oil is settling in uggghh. mean while my sister is ordering her usual 2000+ calorie Pizza Hut pizza for the night while still somehow maintaining her bmi of 17 🤪🤪🤪 im going to strange her. im determined not to purge in the bathroom this time",6.287767295597483,6.099318594339625,7.107547169811323,75.57125786163523,65.88679245283019,10.085534591194973,33.704402515723274,9.725611199111238,3.213111949685536,425,17,78,8,6,142,72,106,0.034,0.888,0.078,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,5,0,5,8,0,1,0,10,13,5,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,11,1,12,10,0,15,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,2,9,45,12,0,0.4056843250456778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551736991265579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755817186225275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339753352963385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230145633738434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875243106973032,0.0,0.0,0.2305597509223981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382086868290292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209545802049689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807072572455092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619900130126422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992913947927777,0.0,0.11827889618052813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519050128217534,0.2234019846940401,0.16736602743112133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332584763352918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vetmyana,2019/07/02,Tw weight loss achievement Just lost 8lbs (weighed on a full stomach) in under 2.5weeks 😍😍 so happy needed to talk about it! Stuck between 500 and 600 cal/day and went clothes shopping today without hating how i looked in the mirror 😍😍😍 so happy rn might be ready for grad ball after all ♥️♥️,2.546451612903226,4.004820741935486,3.5201935483870948,91.91029032258066,75.45161290322581,4.960000000000001,25.30322580645161,3.1291,0.2874735483870965,234,8,49,0,5,75,52,62,0.098,0.6809999999999999,0.222,0.8854,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,1,0,2,0,2,3,1,1,1,8,8,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,3,2,1,2,10,3,2,8,0,2,1,0,1,5,0,1,2,24,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047576528713354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5627841895172395,0.0,0.26097847244137584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221976854433429,0.0,0.28855551544077435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804202255725566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19600284462108436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124644021271669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505609622874434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218917598791447,0.0,0.24504343299566025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254811836204932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nintentions,2019/07/02,full sugar drinks have got me fucked up i accidentally bought a regular coke (the new energy drink one) instead of the zero version and even tho it’s “only” 78 cals I COULDVE HAD THE SAME THING BUT WITH 2.9 CALORIES INSTEAD IM PISSED,1.7880000000000005,4.557609466666668,3.068333333333332,86.4225,87.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,23.055555555555557,7.1686216300943375,1.1432222222222226,186,7,35,3,6,60,41,45,0.22699999999999998,0.742,0.031,-0.8945,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,4,0,2,6,1,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,3,0,3,2,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6408174439725517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21602977798034886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023753224147633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26159154470142604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35329684047942284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158908175282784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22163430543073384,0.24875507478223016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21729392075351095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frozenfruitx,2019/07/02,"i hate going out to dinner was doing fairly well until i ate my entire fucking ice cream and part of my dad’s cobbler. my mother high fived me for finishing the gargantuan serving of blueberry ice cream and then i proceeded to sneak off to the bathroom and purge for as long as i could without calling attention. thank god ice cream comes up smoothly, probably the best thing to purge (behind milkshakes) imo. this fucking sucks, i hate when my face puffs up after an episode and i told myself i wasn’t gonna lose control again this trip. gonna go run or bike for an hour when i get back to the hotel and maybe i’ll hate myself a little less when i go to bed",4.480167084377612,5.3185685789473744,5.167318295739348,84.33630743525481,69.97744360902256,7.7156223893066,27.559732664995824,7.793537801064563,1.5696038429406851,523,17,104,6,9,169,87,133,0.13699999999999998,0.8009999999999999,0.062,-0.8835,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,6,10,6,0,7,0,4,5,1,1,0,12,20,13,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,7,2,1,1,2,0,6,2,7,1,1,4,4,16,3,21,13,3,24,0,1,3,2,4,6,3,1,12,68,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354465094553822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18226023715234527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17734065850200564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960484589608902,0.0,0.0,0.19479025390427293,0.1386646247195546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32111778569129884,0.09073754117165156,0.0,0.29610895412880434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514401608633378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349620595437352,0.0,0.0,0.17103398954236068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17406705878330694,0.0,0.15369609983845478,0.0,0.194296876774697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447896155972406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880721094164922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872500376665516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598957634296514,0.0,0.0,0.11538134481231925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595303066059527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615385964939932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16741562016778436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DahliaDubonet,2019/07/02,Ever look at photos of you hoping to trigger yourself? Tell me I’m not alone. Binge ate myself from 125 to 170 and I literally hate everything.,2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,4.485714285714288,79.5259523809524,80.42857142857143,6.590476190476192,23.619047619047624,7.793537801064563,1.5848190476190482,114,4,20,2,3,39,26,28,0.11800000000000001,0.736,0.145,-0.0413,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183489409210676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653771814521627,0.0,0.0,0.3630256135145768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39879656260740937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011929406757913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391988837176676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530520161757659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonymousthrowawayed,2019/07/02,"How can I stop a binge period? I’ve been heavy restricting for the past three months and I just reached my lowest weight today, but I’ve been feeling really dodgy lately and I’m still waiting on my supplements to get delivered. My boyfriend kind of caught on to what is happening and today he insisted we get large pizzas each like we used to :( I ate it all in one go just to make him happy. I know that’ll set me back a few days but I’m so worried that this will be the thing that makes me start eating uncontrollably all the time :((

How can I make sure I don’t go into a binge/purge cycle? I feel like I’ll have more control over staying a stable weight if I don’t start binging and I just need to know now what I can do to save myself tbh",1.6671428571428564,3.394936210191084,3.138985441310286,92.53148089171977,78.61783439490445,6.5239308462238395,20.13148316651501,7.447530270364453,0.39327697907188375,583,14,132,8,14,191,99,157,0.115,0.7340000000000001,0.151,0.7918,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,1,9,7,0,1,7,0,13,5,0,7,3,33,34,10,0,2,6,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,8,5,4,4,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,4,4,19,6,13,27,5,24,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,16,82,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458932640705077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18172788166924767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449448449197626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579482259752254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638521818403091,0.11575264585662197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930560759065447,0.0,0.1841681908225548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328059045802308,0.17248153620189985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872695191682485,0.1780924109107378,0.0,0.1827743418765368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831713341806172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324464312708465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932899179303364,0.0,0.0,0.12014151203923015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979418616538636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546738063406284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379911563774144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293681287736732,0.17270000643402325,0.12939555802132074,0.13546244111119912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15270922218760669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10764402713493186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944796749428674,0.0,0.3071666936815444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399399398262462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946122600374665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454702933439094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KatVanJet,2019/07/02,"My SIL is so obviously disordered Like I KNOW she is because she always disappears into the bathroom for a long time after a meal, and afterwards there's that telling thin layer of fat over the toilet water/orange spots over the lid that I always end up flushing away because she's a sloppy mess and I'm scared my boyfriend will identify and think is mine. 

 I'm sooooo triggered by her it's not even funny :/ 
I guess the fact that these are the kinds of thoughts i'm getting instead of ""worry"" or some type of concern makes me an asshole.",5.2480323450134785,6.097544773584907,5.566657681940705,82.12349056603773,68.24528301886792,7.943935309973044,31.18059299191375,7.957251820313856,2.150942318059299,430,17,81,5,7,137,76,106,0.099,0.8540000000000001,0.047,-0.6604,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,9,0,5,2,1,2,2,15,14,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,11,2,12,12,1,12,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,3,6,52,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135706640398019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23348908890462197,0.0,0.0,0.30298625775419546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28482102043218843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011153156754054,0.0,0.0,0.16414256294912152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983942309043348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737685399806617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587913112677919,0.1365779681990345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141243022518168,0.0,0.0,0.21992895858312364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658864494607031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488080045085151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21721405524360216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592391042715449,0.0,0.1972940511792776,0.14491175647310015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523801977271457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,earlgreytease,2019/07/02,"DAE hate how their body’s profile looks more than anything else? even when i look fine from the front and my tummy is flat and freshly fasted, i turn to do a body check of my side and it’s sooooo dang wide Allllll the time. w h y",0.4318000000000026,2.2903345800000032,2.2340000000000018,96.857,83.2,4.800000000000002,18.0,5.6839178017228535,-0.6559999999999997,179,4,44,1,5,59,43,50,0.081,0.879,0.04,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,2,2,2,1,0,4,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,4,6,1,6,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23691276702603034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6395721106767587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404990385347416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015170135862586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842363642094048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835179963509907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678736858079157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131467085534154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kittenmckitten,2019/07/02,"Swimming/excersise while restricting (TW: mentoining calories numbers) 
Not necessarily looking to more burn calories! Hope this is allowed, mods:)

Hey guys, so glad I found this sub!! 

I am currently going through a restrictive couple of  weeks (about 500 to 800 cal days) and will go slightly up next week (1000-1200). I am in a healthy BMI range. I am looking for excersises that I can do while being on low cal diet. Again not necessarily to lose more weight or burn more calories with it, but just because I like excersisimg and I miss it on my more restrictive weeks. I tried running but that made me really light headed and nauseous. Then I tried lifting weights and going to the gym (I normally do this when I eat at maintaince) but I would have zero strength and it didn’t feel good on my muscles, like I was minutes away from an injury so I stopped doing that too. Now I am thinking about swimming. Anybody any experience with swimming while restricting or any excersise that are good but not too intens or high cardio? 

The only excersise that made me not want to die this past week was abs. Which is good but I am looking for something more! 

Thank you!",3.708551587301585,6.28480010648148,4.154761904761905,83.59500000000001,75.71296296296295,7.0772486772486785,29.73015873015873,8.11559375814309,2.2869936507936504,917,42,166,16,21,288,129,216,0.073,0.759,0.16899999999999998,0.9764,2,0,1,0,0,1,31.0,0,1,0,2,10,12,0,0,5,0,19,6,1,3,0,35,34,20,1,4,13,0,3,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,13,7,4,5,3,3,0,6,5,3,0,1,6,8,21,9,21,25,5,31,0,3,3,0,3,9,0,4,18,114,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752106147477871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103517587516678,0.0,0.0,0.07853042548386023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254223286499193,0.0,0.08308136304201989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369984293651654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13181997034273846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601541102884775,0.0,0.0,0.06513770880293245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124978544163724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196423724693657,0.3241564859693373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755684334767686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322114496670779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361105142312391,0.0,0.12795213162075492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587461722238433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245412554514201,0.14412204150914973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437943529782399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700667660816115,0.0,0.1262209890534076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797709430362188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229778846237915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252848991663278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917565403883973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107703332891048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186046025889926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254575441674496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492721731920322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598422713852447,0.0,0.4133420575228174,0.3137478939333124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151346868940563,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plutonically,2019/07/02,"how to tell my parents? hi! im new here and im not currently diagnosed with an ED but im just gonna jump straight into this;

  
for context; im currently a sophomore at college and im back home for summer break. i used to be a ""bigger"" girl for the majority of my life until i lost a bunch of weight during my senior year of highschool (not intentionally, the weight loss was mainly due to my meds) ever since i started losing weight, ive been obsessing over things like counting calories, weighing myself multiple times a day, restricting, etc. 

since im home for the summer, i had therapy for the first time in awhile and told her about everything. my therapist doesn't specialize in eating disorders so she really wants me to look for a new therapist that can handle this stuff. however, my parents are going to have to know as im on their insurance/they pay for my therapy appts. how do i even go about telling them? for the record, my parents are great and super supportive, but sometimes they can be a bit overbearing, and i dont want them breathing down my neck for the rest of the summer bc of this... part of me is also afraid that once they know, they might make me start eating more and im so afraid of gaining back the weight i already lost  


tldr; my therapist thinks i have an ed and i have no clue how to tell my family; any advice would be greatly appreciated!",4.48943872596621,5.579124453874542,5.560823460866189,80.59848514274618,70.14391143911439,9.10009710623422,28.654301806175962,9.414487439383343,2.4605011070110696,1081,39,212,23,19,358,154,271,0.087,0.8079999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.8704,6,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,6,7,14,13,0,3,16,0,20,11,2,6,1,29,37,17,0,3,5,3,4,1,0,3,2,0,2,1,7,9,7,1,3,0,1,3,5,7,0,1,6,5,33,6,35,25,8,33,0,4,1,0,17,9,0,1,21,141,40,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972686130061616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874154383325345,0.0570622249323117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0485235553734145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973452183319507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779007112469065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04601779550709695,0.0,0.0,0.07242338792265494,0.0,0.0,0.08177852064214207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362702620608473,0.0,0.0,0.14602708036736714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957920878911462,0.04712902141850424,0.06454429491624072,0.0,0.0,0.06412888776389508,0.0,0.06726673947857928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069416194244085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110489453474551,0.0,0.0,0.1573373336436927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14314890592892907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6166014525482393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842921266610496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050399843952894416,0.034860239305078186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991986882957327,0.07982751355293781,0.15578388728313514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04762973045630112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925884303794471,0.0,0.0,0.07569592413746944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782937930485953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599028973101098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376924217341345,0.07727004732445497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045711565547767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805047756409087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057149560103641,0.0,0.10101026572902852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168391276901013,0.0,0.08097232198289682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871011213310169,0.0,0.16320034191232322,0.2485444709862361,0.047404806601405385,0.04572112815250296,0.0,0.0,0.08321484874987274,0.0,0.0,0.06818235076198091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061627439625238124,0.0,0.0,0.08417354983588664,0.0,0.0,0.34756257950422026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068824022740543,0.0,0.0,0.04595000450063156
EDAnonymous,kashmirkiikali,2019/07/02,"Malnutrition + collapsing I collapsed and passed out again today. It’s not dehydration it’s something else apparently it’s malnutrition. I thought I had an appointment with a nutritionist the day before they’re supposed to implant a G-tube into my stomach but they messed up the appointment and made it for today so I missed it. Unless they can get me an appointment before my surgery I can’t have my surgery, and clearly I need my surgery because I can’t withstand a concussion every day. I just read the CT scan report from the last concussion and I have a tumor in my brain already that’s just waiting to hemorrhage and I cannot deal with this.",4.7495161290322585,6.75507362903226,5.613741935483869,76.90061290322583,70.7741935483871,8.830967741935485,33.36774193548387,9.3871,3.3378767741935484,526,26,93,12,10,172,74,124,0.121,0.847,0.032,-0.8359,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,10,0,7,2,2,1,1,19,13,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,1,18,0,11,10,0,11,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,6,64,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596271887631144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341890182205375,0.0,0.40039626089627534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26264003223203103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034604174356537,0.2425538739818825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19653857212249412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982258042273474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229192875668047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917771109934368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226189286453271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445032420622586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353344772135124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18112296351504686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867787428109139,0.0,0.0,0.44601843599739693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DenverTheLastDinosau,2019/07/02,"Are any of you familiar with Tanya Burr? If so, what do you think of her weight loss? She has claimed in a magazine a while back that she doesn't diet and just didn't think about food last year while she was busy, and ate 'chips and ice-cream.' I remember for the longest time on YouTube she would go through healthy eating phases, but it seems after her relationship ended she has lost a dramatic amount of weight, which she doesn't like talking about but when she does claims she doesn't eat healthily and hasn't done anything to lose weight. 

I remember years ago she talked about her weight on her channel and said although she eats healthily, she'll never be thinner than she was at the time because that's her natural size (she wasn't overweight, just thick.) She looks like she's since lost 50lbs. I hope she's okay.",6.7698888888888895,6.642300599999999,5.429583333333337,87.79930555555555,64.875,8.861111111111112,30.902777777777786,8.167268648758528,1.8463819444444445,656,21,137,7,9,191,99,160,0.10300000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.086,-0.4263,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,4,8,8,0,0,5,1,16,11,0,0,1,19,26,13,0,3,5,0,5,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,6,11,0,5,1,0,1,7,4,0,0,9,7,26,4,16,14,1,19,0,4,1,0,27,5,0,3,15,84,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084599310165911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320529346974143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068737390876614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940831006985036,0.0,0.07458620139075538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707329606790504,0.12521119089076554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755977684341305,0.0,0.0,0.10836981943414137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479516142069784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953691356356458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152568127118404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973529319337028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195525109190011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274701085412706,0.13688345054309575,0.26712890181893256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943673761357159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136300271379578,0.2772077196169122,0.0,0.11638720121031995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138699202921562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121295270281144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19668791403675373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679971743294654,0.0,0.0,0.14269185054537126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5959795444542672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691716571734884,0.0,0.0,0.15758464440574446
EDAnonymous,hammochi,2019/07/02,i love/hate tumblr i know tumblr is so bad for my mental health/recovery but...i think i’m actually addicted to going on tumblr ed blogs..,1.4038095238095245,3.708555571428569,4.907142857142858,76.50452380952382,82.57142857142857,8.019047619047619,20.047619047619047,8.841846274778883,1.8126761904761903,108,3,20,3,3,40,23,28,0.17600000000000002,0.8240000000000001,0.0,-0.6696,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.3733051037477634,0.4170264567392594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194059872257782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21740702317568694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066234886205325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023468131687234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452584375666699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855116321739751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24511700372439066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayfmltbh,2019/07/02,"I’m so fucking tired of being fat I’m EXHAUSTED OF FEELING FAT, BEING FAT, LOOKING FAT. EVERY ONE OF MY FRIENDS IS HAVING THE BEST SUMMER & IM STUCK INSIDE TOO AFRAID OF GOING OUT BC I FEEL FAT IN EVERYTHING I WEAR.",-0.7195,1.2826689111111165,2.074861111111112,90.20562500000004,104.33333333333334,4.02777777777778,18.958333333333336,5.985473137389443,0.2568333333333337,171,6,33,2,8,59,33,45,0.17,0.631,0.198,0.374,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,1,1,0,4,9,6,0,0,3,12,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,3,3,2,6,9,1,4,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,1,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33855645064076045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32791346993553233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632658250817944,0.0,0.28082401930502404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31598408848267795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241410221319418,0.2888695005812831,0.0,0.0,0.17758145558685678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375165706355052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623924878114642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117348420174177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591333515367437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jjfmish,2019/07/02,"Did anyone else have a sort of morbid fascination with EDs/thinspo from a very young age? I discovered the eating disorder side of the internet when I was *really* young, maybe 9 or 10 years old. I didn't develop a full blown ED until college (although I always had poor body image and binge tendencies) but for some reason I was obsessed with looking at thinspo, watching youtube videos about eating disorders, reading ED forums like MPA and books about eating disorders at an age when I shouldn't have even known what EDs were.",8.90659793814433,8.436312237113405,8.27703092783505,70.27389690721651,60.649484536082475,11.471340206185568,36.92577319587629,10.793553405168565,4.077339793814433,425,17,70,9,5,134,71,97,0.066,0.8759999999999999,0.057999999999999996,0.0653,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,6,0,9,4,1,1,0,11,10,8,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,6,2,6,1,11,3,2,13,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,10,43,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604231006936755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272397552961865,0.17983557550507442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495729074764612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6034652367348979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5387861380448354,0.1466200298525643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159258194942437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574762826753579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473881631526634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632813044867487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18417317746555065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17556222018788994,0.0,0.11243922612849168,0.18045836760250375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481802820297968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302572740049392
EDAnonymous,gettinglifeinorder,2019/07/02,How to avoid munchies? I keep getting the munchies and eating a lot when I’m high even if I was doing well eating otherwise. Anyone have tips to avoid the munchies?,3.184895833333332,5.496028531250001,2.9512500000000017,92.90208333333337,76.1875,5.5166666666666675,26.291666666666664,6.42735559955562,0.8828416666666672,131,5,26,1,3,39,24,32,0.149,0.785,0.066,-0.3939,0,2,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23538954624832764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6889423956590257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22235040815337545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758827704396533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556832227508439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992249526246692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862029749140067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026836863258727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,selfcontrolwya,2019/07/02,"so i’m high rn and i’ve actually been eating enough food for once, really yummy shit too. soooo i’m having a good day and so should y’all. that is all. rhymed hehe",-1.6833333333333336,0.17411955555555814,1.1722222222222245,97.345,103.44444444444444,4.622222222222223,8.777777777777779,6.42735559955562,-1.252355555555556,128,1,31,2,6,44,30,36,0.10099999999999999,0.728,0.171,0.4048,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,4,6,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.31891542327342715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21076277427495985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344040304228863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376778630380162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951750004105432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27410928990001243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452883840249271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480376255571795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20936023260421566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354615675873812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,balletarius,2019/07/02,"a remark at ballet camp i’m a notoriously picky eater (eating disorder, hello) to all my friends and i just started a ballet intensive this week. i sat down for dinner with a single pork chop on my plate and the first thing my new roommate said was “what are you, anorexic?” hmmmmm....",2.3461111111111137,4.975555092592593,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,81.40740740740742,6.562962962962962,21.962962962962962,7.793537801064563,1.322207407407407,221,7,40,4,6,75,45,54,0.053,0.8859999999999999,0.061,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,6,1,6,3,2,7,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42998593096656734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839002564796666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191257988299608,0.0,0.0,0.28986121399709164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623487775860053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568797273359857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655525730083628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492512671877731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009447686193931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beigecarpets,2019/07/02,"I was fat as a kid That's what I told my therapist, my friends, and my counselors. 

 ""Growing up, I was always really fat, and that contributed to piss poor relationship with food now.""

That explanation made sense, and I was comfortable with the logical and reasonable explanation...I would call it 'fat kid syndrome' Once a fat kid, always a fat kid, you know?  And I have vague memories of doctor's appointments where they told me I was in the higher percentile for girls my height and weight, and remember family members making comments about my body at family dinners (thanks dad, u da best). 

But recently, I was cleaning out some old pictures...and ????????? what the fuck????????? 

I guess I always avoided seeing/taking full body pictures of myself by the time i was 13. So my self perception was always based on...well.....my self perception lol. i FELT fat, so i thought I was fat. Looking at the pictures, and seeing myself over the years, I realized I wasn't nearly as overweight as a child as i thought i was? 

Up until age 10, I looked like a normal kid. Maybe a little baby fat...a round face....but not the obese little porky pig I always envisioned. Ages 11-13, I was average. Not skinny, but definitely not overweight, especially considering my height.  By age 14, I was in full swing ED mode, and by 16 was in therapy and facing inpatient treatment. This realization kind of fucked me up, because I'm realizing that my body dysmorphia is worse and more long standing than i thought. And it makes me feel kind of sad. An 11 year old shouldn't be dieting (without doctor's recommendation) or reading calories or wearing exclusively XXXL hoodies in the middle of july to cover up as much of their body as possible. I really feel like my mentall illness(es) stole a big part of my childhood from me that i'll never be able to recover of mend. 



At this point, by the time my bday rolls around next year, I will have spent half of my time on this Earth obsessed with my body. Calorie counting, obsessive weighing, fasting, restricting, hating myself, developing naaasty nasty nasty biases, countless skipped meals, constant lightheadedness , weird food habits, an extensive thinspo list, and going on 4 years of therapy. 

And at the end of it all??After almost 10 yrs of this shit? i still have a muffin top. fuck me lol",4.372302066772654,6.664610000000002,5.159847376788555,78.52774562798096,72.52941176470588,8.45341812400636,29.60413354531001,9.142720283898788,2.8153758346581883,1810,77,318,41,37,586,227,425,0.14,0.807,0.052000000000000005,-0.9923,0,1,0,0,0,0,104.0,0,1,2,2,7,19,6,3,20,2,22,32,17,4,1,53,46,27,0,3,8,1,5,2,1,3,12,0,1,9,14,19,18,2,14,1,2,2,7,11,0,1,21,8,49,8,52,20,7,55,0,1,4,3,19,29,5,5,25,192,63,3,0.07973565463067099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984374032116881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317322607141684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098163756176226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04860611498326773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836776502359266,0.0,0.0,0.4428416858902549,0.0,0.0,0.08141901835854587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616591604549341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632256424069452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062212320662188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503353577885235,0.0,0.0806334855392487,0.0569631676000885,0.07655873266585947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928333401624552,0.0,0.06160356897481317,0.22114298358850207,0.0,0.0,0.04531561003549238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783781305287344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787224512242218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660648284894531,0.043820630517500285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790962649812039,0.15983214649601485,0.0,0.07056354521342056,0.1339157359039807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544780433901449,0.10644833724695643,0.0,0.08010518227691442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803547858415997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05861488065555141,0.0,0.061497052398359564,0.0,0.08479977328099804,0.0,0.07812401205558997,0.0,0.0,0.16733831310813754,0.08491586989141207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634594378219616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537596646719408,0.08988997009382428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975723223121371,0.0,0.10216140420906633,0.0819815329148556,0.07872933956673851,0.08560625283761222,0.09032495315962773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353899333063882,0.0,0.1663633549598108,0.0,0.08184750364623783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06367699678679786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340987796086966,0.18236934020275689,0.0925792406512528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18990360965310585,0.13948350429687958,0.0,0.0,0.15238166999203426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709654642973316,0.07169192938013395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686232569049595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125744407620382,0.056641921321935386,0.0,0.0,0.2053885893841041
EDAnonymous,edanonthrowaway28,2019/07/02,"I don’t want to let my ED control me. At least for a few more weeks Just a little rant. I’m currently studying abroad. And it was, and still is, fucking terrifying. When I came here, I was at my high weight of 126 lbs. solidly in the “normal” weight range. About BMI 20. And here I’m either maintaining or gaining a little, I’m not sure, I don’t have a scale. And I can’t count calories because I don’t control what I eat here and my wifi is too bad for MFP. And I kind of hate it. Not being skinny is scary to me. But this is such a great opportunity. I’m in a foreign country, 100% all expenses paid by my scholarship, and I’m going to enjoy it. I’m making myself eat falafel and mango juice and kanafeh even though it’s scary. I need to get over my “I’d rather be thinner than anything else” mindset. I’m here to learn a new language and have fun and I don’t want to let my stupid messed up brain ruin that. Even though I still screenshot all the pictures of pretty skinny girls that I see. 

Tbh, when I get home in a month and face the reality of “oh shit I have school in 3 weeks and my arms are fat” I’m probably gonna start restricting again. And you know, that’s whatever. But just for 27 more days, I want to enjoy myself. My mental illness doesn’t take breaks but I can at least try to fight it. I’m going to remember this trip for the rest of my life and I don’t want my memories to include calorie counting and crying over my weight. And I guess benefits of a conservative country include having your maxi skirts and long sleeve shirts hide your weight.",1.2756825153374225,3.2812371319018467,2.8978489263803686,92.43149731595092,81.05521472392637,5.7927914110429475,21.84394171779141,6.9077264865688965,0.4628898773006132,1219,38,270,14,32,401,171,326,0.11699999999999999,0.8079999999999999,0.075,-0.9201,1,0,0,0,1,0,34.0,0,3,0,4,19,16,5,0,13,0,23,17,8,3,3,47,52,26,0,7,10,0,4,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,11,19,9,4,3,0,3,4,9,8,0,0,4,6,36,8,33,43,9,31,0,1,1,1,5,13,2,2,13,167,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740192921571507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868106467862537,0.06474474049080654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185656877393904,0.0,0.1214761522747592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382474983075221,0.0,0.0,0.11666689651137728,0.06849678015412748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735906099478552,0.08872497757856787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030164563118167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818960082648767,0.11098087175011154,0.0,0.12072338688004712,0.0,0.0,0.11709709943587546,0.11700248854173982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486056491178057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11221688750155777,0.1065374713267778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060155938096644,0.05837033780576256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172142119322094,0.07501939180270667,0.0,0.2129010074254108,0.0,0.09399266788812312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089612050978109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703488148146886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477595311820121,0.0,0.0,0.07875350337909467,0.0,0.1025784545846924,0.0,0.0,0.1040634267598024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080539372603361,0.11451253884080127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120315430562132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749037339730637,0.08463576312682977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902322444861552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517611272669747,0.0,0.16963917538418258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010183858551397,0.0,0.0798568380431228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20870192702047585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210974103558374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25058206610579753,0.0,0.1703908012936399,0.5173415487586858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosecoloredidiot,2019/07/02,"Safe food in Spain? Anyone have any good safe foods available in Spain?? I'm in Madrid so lots of options, I'm sure. I just need some new ideas, especially for the summer

cuáles son vuestras comidas seguras favoritas? estoy en Madrid, así que seguramente tengo muchas opciones (en mi barrio hay carrefour, mercadona, dia, y lidl). muchísimas gracias de antemano. 🖤",4.113690476190477,7.414730904761902,3.963789682539684,80.67044642857145,81.22222222222223,5.68968253968254,30.097222222222207,7.1686216300943375,2.268684126984128,289,14,44,4,8,88,54,63,0.0,0.8190000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.8992,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,12,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736793836655747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293719489132728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7019001762106603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434331102447245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32763697581939233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467451500047831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152035967837582,0.0,0.2803081949622209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735405383119533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bookeisha,2019/07/02,"""You look healthy"" I'll probably delete this post later on. Consider this a moment of weakness but I just want to say how difficult recovery is being at the moment and this comment, although meant as encouraging, hurt like hell. I don't want to relapse (trying to learn not to self-harm through starvation) but I would be lying if I said I was okay with the way I look at the moment.",5.035600000000001,5.902910693333332,5.836000000000002,79.93800000000002,68.73333333333333,9.2,31.0,9.3871,2.7274,302,12,58,6,5,99,56,75,0.231,0.602,0.16699999999999998,-0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,4,1,6,1,0,1,0,13,12,7,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,4,7,3,11,6,0,9,1,1,2,0,5,3,1,1,5,39,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31035666623723296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14163630173853514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869059301289755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776554443179282,0.0,0.31257404332068545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757725893402125,0.23054956511609706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024413208025232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683113785150835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419950792254759,0.2301185579824133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594508329718555,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cervidaes,2019/07/02,"“Anorexia is only about control and that’s it” I just saw someone online (surprise surprise arguing about why an underweight girl looks healthy) pretending to be an ed expert and espousing the idea that “anorexia isn’t even about their physical appearance, it’s just about control, it’s only caused because people have a lack of control in their life, but anorexic people don’t even have like a weight loss goal or anything, they’re just doing it to be in control not to look a certain way” 

I mean, yes it’s about control and yes there are varied motivations and reasons behind it. Often there are other reasons besides just the desire to look a certain way. And yes even when people with an ED hit their goal weight they will probably keep going because at that point it’s a compulsion. but seriously..... if you think eating disorders aren’t motivated by the desire to look a certain way you are just so ignorant and clearly just read the Wikipedia article for anorexia nervosa and now think you are an expert. 

It almost feels like a way to take the blame off of society. Girls aren’t starving themselves because being underweight is now seen as the standard, they’re starving themselves because they have no control at home! There’s nothing we as a society can do about those crazy anorexics because they’re just doing it for other reasons! They just want control! 

Like....how can you not see the damage that you’re all doing. There’s a reason that ED rates have gone up so much in recent years with the advent of Instagram and shit, and as beauty standards have shifted and we are surrounded by pictures of women who are underweight who we have no hope of looking like, and then have men calling healthy women fat and underweight women sexy and healthy. 

But no it’s just about control and we don’t even care about our bodies or what we look like. So I guess you have no blood on your hands and continue to pretend like you care about people who are sick and that you think eating disorders are just so tragic and horrible while continuing to push more and more people down this path by exploiting their desire to fit in and be seen as acceptable.",7.5616636098824035,7.766229848635237,7.084173049951452,75.48070773546229,63.168734491315135,9.787851979717338,35.884022008846685,9.43228470229965,3.3707390009709783,1731,74,297,28,23,541,173,403,0.139,0.6759999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.9767,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,6,8,7,13,36,21,2,0,21,3,34,11,5,15,5,85,60,36,0,7,18,0,4,5,0,1,3,0,1,6,24,26,5,10,13,3,0,4,11,7,0,0,4,14,24,14,45,50,5,30,0,3,10,0,32,13,1,8,14,212,48,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775712195611104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05568285717522423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062409931878437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516100322309292,0.0,0.0,0.0690939369107211,0.0,0.1379787660617968,0.06951100314605195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6071399814468589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15510081696804948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847718989407976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876942912434762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03421365839984744,0.04834017392672529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03845580509304325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454106467759855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787391139910755,0.06720700809494462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638599820049759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060144114873373136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04779407178544538,0.19834737361829016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409313546555888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370745532803248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974185328800428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492677442806605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292516875763508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345533358907392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396567259917467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295474370259285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768370932316449,0.0,0.0,0.2782851956342061,0.06681141741468817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05392056162142478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945755877735409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733267223223845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05087595831260782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007176469085754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039910804952612296,0.21483857380432975,0.0,0.16479645145612887,0.0,0.0,0.061057497110765725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043574297882694166
EDAnonymous,eatsomethingxo,2019/07/02,"back on the train after a few weeks of binging. I've fucking reigned my dumbass in. redownloaded all my thinspo. 
I just hate the first few days of getting back into restriction. but after 2-3 days its natural. ugh fuck. 
I hate having bpd on top of this because my emotions won't stop",1.41,4.020190000000003,3.333571428571428,85.41142857142857,86.5,6.057142857142857,27.642857142857146,7.447530270364453,1.9399214285714288,224,11,42,4,7,75,43,56,0.289,0.598,0.113,-0.9193,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,4,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,7,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,5,0,9,6,3,14,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,9,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739980827995886,0.0,0.1482471140743887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062908356778153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136764439631709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273557396465874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068583324954532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.449652739181492,0.12705737817228627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802019750342171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033187542142195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19507333232875898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,w4nn4_8e_sk1nny,2019/07/02,"Piercing as a control mechanism I am confused as fuck, but hear me out
From all the people here, does someone else have their tongue pierced?
Don't get me wrong, I am bulimic as hell and I've written here before if you think i's a good idea to get that piercing while I am bulimic (most people told me to wait until I have it somehow under control), but my friend got one and wanted me to get it, too 😅
So I got it and tbh, I've never been more normal with food. Maybe it's the fact I'm scared as hell to get it infected, or that I always feel something in my mouth so I don't have the constant need to shove food down my throat. 
It's the second purge free day and I'm even eating kind of normally. I have to chew my food properly, so that helps too I guess. Well, I hope this lasts as long as possible AND I started drawing again, so my anxiety isn't as deadly 😁",2.2858996138996126,3.3183200648648667,3.91492277992278,90.53060810810813,75.37837837837839,7.015444015444014,24.56563706563707,7.447530270364453,0.9390772200772196,672,21,153,8,14,225,108,185,0.13699999999999998,0.732,0.132,-0.2661,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,2,12,12,3,2,6,0,11,9,2,2,3,29,31,22,1,6,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,10,7,5,3,3,0,1,0,4,6,1,2,5,2,23,7,21,26,3,13,2,0,0,1,6,4,3,7,9,99,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093307739644424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051645507930283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118070665557504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199080713958734,0.2947402740624833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473860123797064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498423782226712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344494058965412,0.10976326884213553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678484722508056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643702185067746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.476648358243532,0.0,0.10151508720448928,0.12147212484191312,0.27459287327415705,0.0,0.0,0.11020749699450157,0.2101764159971612,0.0,0.14474588729688315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809118370092336,0.0,0.08807098314326844,0.0,0.0,0.13050441473228722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483284298984787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682718246890754,0.0,0.10710407816853908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628002346304052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320034650540657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742737839527696,0.10133956101781927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574774815345621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903633340026276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218484465597887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812758911118232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154884553826324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133015807125553,0.10115392781726143,0.0,0.0,0.0930017239443113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419230873559756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255531032944831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749989754754355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813946146298672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365929085557824,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dulcem0,2019/07/02,"Lexapro and Weight Loss? ok ok! so im ""back on"" lexapro (i use the quotation marks bc its not like i was ever OFF it...i just chose not to take it because im stubborn and cant admit that my depression is a lot worse than what i make it out to be) and the last time i took it regularly i lost about a good 10 lbs

has anyone else experienced this? i know one of the side effects is weight loss/gain but i didnt think it'd be THAT significant, especially when from what ive read online, it seems people only -if they lose or gain anything - fluctuate 2-3 lbs, not TEN. and it isnt water weight that ive lost because ive been able to maintain that weight loss and its been probably a year since that happened

heres to hoping it'll let me lose 10 lbs again",5.775729813664597,4.130217403726713,6.623967391304348,83.41682065217394,67.50931677018633,10.037577639751557,30.68400621118013,8.841846274778883,2.0180366459627326,586,17,138,8,8,196,100,161,0.159,0.745,0.096,-0.8128,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,8,8,13,1,0,6,2,17,5,0,3,1,24,29,10,0,2,7,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,17,6,5,1,5,1,0,1,6,8,0,2,7,5,13,5,11,17,1,12,0,7,0,0,2,4,0,5,8,80,30,1,0.12746123059224204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912385605132178,0.1305990934131098,0.1048897323767258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800981861320962,0.0,0.15539836623332134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097821711383273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064775026919392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529598036384993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690843286364733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271354526554128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265977618701603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753600029932118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004935893434126,0.10389791495650584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303377440431504,0.0,0.06227111895192579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28519302742522057,0.278277979990469,0.10836298019278423,0.0,0.0,0.08508136117299775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637102857187852,0.09694000948842482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883655684270258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742476465418138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749572341143492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603591722214662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054372470939161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583498265949753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167200990459088,0.0,0.0,0.07432366857440045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141614117094873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100855788745774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6208537624236173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298938832910673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820808535208056
EDAnonymous,SpikyLady,2019/07/02,"I just realised I was now able to eat a reasonable portion of bread and guacamole I bought those monday and I didn’t binged on it. Usually those come down my throat and purged 10 minutes after I come home from the grocery store, or when I dare to make myself a toast.

Hurray to me \o/",2.6415517241379334,4.458335224137934,3.3788275862068997,91.49893103448278,76.06896551724137,6.019310344827588,23.66896551724138,6.742157984588678,0.6472786206896552,225,7,47,2,5,71,46,58,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,1,2,0,9,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,9,0,8,3,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,32,12,0,0.3383128176371544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5828530722606045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461784723303229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393553404311431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22582643281488296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478419224512048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37260377215246504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YoItsMe54321,2019/07/02,"Me: Stop restricting, you need to eat and everything will be ok.. you are great.. Them: well shouldnt you do the same thing, you havent ate anything today besides 2 apricots..

Me: lmao brah miss me with that shit!",0.7117886178861816,3.2453431463414653,1.1774390243902455,98.79184959349595,93.14634146341464,4.684552845528454,19.028455284552845,6.42735559955562,0.0016796747967484649,163,5,35,2,6,49,35,41,0.213,0.6629999999999999,0.124,-0.5093,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,1,0,1,5,1,0,1,1,6,3,1,0,0,7,9,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,8,3,2,5,1,2,0,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,2,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28740615882980963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573738781736942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31388683887252816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850536007725339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589673031668773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585040564114099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919918557668416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320287379107809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33105181104854664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140211533613433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thin_Wishes3,2019/07/02,"DAE purge but not really binge? Title basically asks it all.

I’ve done my fair share of googling and have come up with “purging disorder.” My purging has gotten much better than it used to be, I rarely do it now. It used to be as much as 3x a day, plus lax and diuretics. Now it can be once a week or less. But, I feel like the whole purging disorder really resonated and I just feel like very few professionals actually understand it so idk what I’m doing and I probably don’t even have an ED idk",0.7364705882352958,3.0848315686274503,3.226960784313725,87.06632352941178,86.25490196078432,7.713725490196079,21.245098039215684,8.59863814320734,1.5930627450980392,388,13,84,11,12,134,70,102,0.105,0.757,0.138,0.5589,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,4,0,11,0,0,2,1,18,20,11,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,6,4,9,15,6,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,56,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.1869029530694114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905211030046653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693902749215528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649837538354878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351922181988124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390136085393598,0.0,0.0,0.1959988580783542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650193227635992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368384937062133,0.27365418967926697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18714106505836556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815891100290031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039702543333312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064987529984266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453945019490513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993866060405965,0.0,0.3308360733658858,0.0,0.15803002709882924,0.0,0.0,0.15363159504504234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138333178685265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fckeverythin,2019/07/02,I just started abusing lax And I feel horrible. When will this nightmare of an ED stop...,0.5203921568627443,2.8431888823529405,1.8905882352941177,91.60098039215687,101.35294117647058,4.6196078431372545,29.196078431372552,6.42735559955562,1.7618784313725488,69,4,13,1,3,22,16,17,0.33299999999999996,0.667,0.0,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,3,0,0.0,0.7006748658403162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990136372698529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4185736051121883,0.0,0.0,0.494410471379494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheRedRattler,2019/07/02,"Lifting weights AND restricting I dont truly know what to believe. I've always heard that weight lifting burns more calories bc muscle consumes fat. BUT I've also read that you can't ""gain muscle"" (Im really on interested in a booty) while in calorie deficit. I try to stay at 500 calories a day 6 days a week. one cheat day to prevent binging. Is it just a waste of time to kill myself with squats while im restricting?",1.908452380952383,4.338539607142857,3.2214285714285715,88.59023809523813,81.5,5.638095238095239,26.0,6.937597516519254,1.2382714285714287,333,14,65,4,9,108,63,84,0.3,0.6459999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9757,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,0,4,0,3,3,1,0,0,8,5,5,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,3,3,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,3,4,1,10,4,1,12,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,7,33,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16224976485096934,0.16881938590276116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22858572789420695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925386633018551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377836713030077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383085342421865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22446593297775394,0.0,0.11150214811652524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748241764532285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20294328531072425,0.0,0.12997549201582462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625201881042405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183058464491323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774789264283058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274482106613067,0.4941267788142617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilmissdisappearing,2019/07/02,"I'm so tired of guys denying that women are underweight just because they think they're hot I'm seriously so done. Your dick is not an eating disorder detector. Our BMI isn't measured by whether you find us bangable or not.

So freaking tired of seeing visibly underweight bodies treated as ""average""/healthy/""you're just used to overweight bodies because America blah blah blah""

I like how it looks too, can't help it, but I'm not deluding myself that Natalia Dyer isn't vastly underweight because I think she's pretty. Strange how I've never seen gay/bi women do this? 

Sorry to rant, just urgh. Hate how everyone is *so concerned* about us being over or under weight until they find it attractive on someone.",4.402692307692308,7.247501269230771,4.830000000000002,78.245,74.76923076923076,7.6923076923076925,30.0,8.617729084823388,2.863,575,26,92,12,13,182,89,130,0.20199999999999999,0.7040000000000001,0.095,-0.8447,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,3,2,2,0,12,6,1,0,1,0,9,8,3,4,1,19,19,13,0,0,10,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,5,11,3,11,16,0,6,0,0,3,1,12,4,1,2,3,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948521952792647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35817946854591143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478308501204224,0.0,0.0,0.16499385417711335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649781274698095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406178808619236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29472185919886235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964264827813174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591808463415012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806879946038776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07876863646431538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353922537226694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435020373535492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402846196854146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284791133503995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660931327318074,0.0,0.0,0.18048333238601252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066188295877966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706194049768143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38787870403286206,0.13925060426535238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196334212123291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prezentme,2019/07/02,"Does restricting make you feel calm? This is kind of a rant but wanted to see if anyone else relates. Successfully restricting makes me feel calm and more clear. Like I know that it makes me feel calm because of my anxious thoughts surrounding food, but i've also just noticed it physically makes me feel calm. I feel less manic hyper and feel way more grounded. I can observe things and feel more clear and in the present moment. Also have an overall sense of wellbeing and confidence. I almost feel like food feeds into me feeling and acting manic - mentally and psychically.

I guess what I'm trying to get at here is that aside from anxiety, does anyone feel more calm and grounded in their body when restricting?",6.521441899915183,7.974988404580157,6.120254452926207,77.10843935538594,65.7175572519084,9.181000848176422,31.349448685326553,9.444778638647367,2.9154064461407976,575,22,98,11,9,178,80,131,0.095,0.6629999999999999,0.243,0.9764,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,5,9,0,0,3,0,4,4,1,4,2,37,25,14,0,2,4,0,10,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,9,3,3,12,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,11,12,9,10,24,5,12,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,3,5,57,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703552644315586,0.0,0.0,0.2029054806148675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097050273490213,0.14331970858191306,0.0,0.17741189687442868,0.12998670568718554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07733484654424304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409168119423082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220383064426732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597822268905777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414602599541082,0.09063135012010956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068078322081673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628097217688203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975451022087007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210887181632247,0.06972089288990588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395825117118565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33872963633143954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278486263363123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443499993394618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109382945936256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428250982434425,0.0,0.0,0.10071549307308604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613202732851828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482741255169179,0.10069838614606452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heartbrokenandok,2019/07/02,"I don't think my bf really understands my ED And part of me is super ok with that because it means he leaves me alone. He never pushes me to eat. He doesn't monitor what I do. He just let's me do my thing. But part of me worries. Because he doesn't know how easily he support can reinforce behaviors I know are bad. And he doesn't understand how some of the ""little things"" and ""little problems"" aren't little when you factor in what ED does to my self esteem and my self image and my self worth.",1.9197008547008565,3.575125499999998,3.893589743589746,87.72918803418806,77.65384615384616,7.314529914529915,21.170940170940174,8.167268648758528,0.9968965811965812,388,10,83,7,9,132,60,104,0.11599999999999999,0.7859999999999999,0.098,-0.26,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,5,5,0,0,1,1,11,1,0,2,1,19,18,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,6,1,0,6,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,15,3,7,17,3,7,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,1,2,54,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563012716542943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600679033059695,0.18399140717579468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320657577885856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544225800878709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658766489570488,0.0,0.0,0.15979601401178609,0.0,0.15431967218118445,0.0,0.0,0.4537660779284599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643894627291664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116394091688184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268500620935714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440420661721354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667929912703332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4723082855739271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125528833210898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005209588670636,0.09669952389756177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142133531797704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326037579168006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ModernGardening,2019/07/02,"What are some signs that someone has an eating disorder - specifically, anorexia? I know this is something I could just Google, which I've done, I just wanna know what you guys would have to say.

I have a feeling I may be dealing with it, but I also worry I'm faking it.",3.6366666666666654,4.873632851851851,4.75277777777778,85.03250000000003,72.33333333333334,6.881481481481483,26.462962962962962,7.1686216300943375,1.2368296296296304,210,7,42,2,4,69,42,54,0.182,0.794,0.024,-0.8462,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,0,0,13,14,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,7,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,7,0,3,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23408654679576005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337115721625701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017794923978732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354802852831784,0.0,0.0,0.2995522304744606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995236780761038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800705895606575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28983692519377224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217404085223957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327811700131624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24801908349045615,0.2253486827229653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972694241627651,0.0,0.20793852907176813,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Successful_Bag,2019/07/02,"I'm addicted to plant milks and today I learned that you can DIY them. Wooo! I love cocoa with them, tastes so good and it's warm and sweet (I add 1tsp xylitol). And  when I run out of food at home I'm gonna get into making smoothies. 8)",-1.230714285714285,0.7957714230769248,1.3763736263736277,98.42576923076923,94.3846153846154,4.509890109890111,15.120879120879119,6.1826913282559595,-0.6579428571428574,182,4,44,2,7,62,42,52,0.0,0.7140000000000001,0.28600000000000003,0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,0,10,7,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,8,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,4,6,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,22,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41830286496603136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639862364980668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20047375329661424,0.0,0.0,0.3218395335680022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.384894557175581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34631518277539913,0.0,0.25613082954992383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637142375043797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,habit-s,2019/07/02,"Vyvanse....... I have been seeing a doctor for my binge eating and this morning he suggested stimulant medication aka vyvanse.... Im 100% sure i'll abuse it to lose weight instead of just stopping my binges but i don't wanna continue the binge eating either....

Any experiences with vyvanse or related meds? (Adderall/ritalin?)",4.017321428571428,7.275107517857148,5.440714285714289,70.30428571428573,80.96428571428572,8.200000000000001,33.0,8.841846274778883,4.021707142857143,255,14,36,7,7,85,48,56,0.11599999999999999,0.853,0.031,-0.5362,0,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,1,1,10,4,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,5,3,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,22,6,1,0.0,0.29229757925094874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776355282776398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25250653860509203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5048686482878194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413186335277955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266476893444333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759927046562778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740266041665369,0.2485229524086723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658689695791293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062511315676072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325105735481915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004125146998021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b-carbonate,2019/07/02,"My dad estimated my weight at 65kgs I weight 10kgs more 

He didn’t notice the weight I gained this year 

And he believed me when I told him my old BMI of 22 like it was still accurate 

I feel so bad",-1.4901993355481693,0.4407330697674468,0.5266445182724233,102.2279069767442,102.02325581395347,4.317607973421929,13.119601328903654,6.1826913282559595,-1.0088445182724248,154,3,39,2,7,50,35,43,0.10099999999999999,0.785,0.114,-0.1005,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,9,1,2,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,21,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859162723736648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508676076086233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125862948547936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878304617843453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535059847835117,0.2336498358479877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782084174487411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276629074701509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8134392553623909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433891895504951
EDAnonymous,scarletfawn,2019/07/02,"I'm starting to get afraid of food again yeet TW: calories When in recovery I sort of went numb to calories n shit because of the huge amounts I was fed and I've been struggling with finding a calorie goal that I'll stick to since then because while eating didn't get EASY it did get easier to eat bigger amounts than pre-recovery without realizing since it sort of warped my view on what's a small portion. However I've started high restricting again and feel myself slowly slipping into the ""if I go over 500cal I'm dead"" mode accompanied by the ever so legendary ""even my <200cal lunch is gonna make me gain"" and I'm at the same time weirdly excited cuz restricting gets a lot easier but also July is gonna be hell with family gatherings, weddings, parties n shit. Anyways brb crying over having a 63cal breakfast I ""didn't need"" and that ""didn't even taste good"" 🙂",4.94815789473684,6.158076052631582,5.7008333333333345,79.57125,69.17543859649122,8.50701754385965,31.793859649122812,8.841846274778883,2.693214035087719,699,30,128,12,12,228,117,171,0.195,0.732,0.073,-0.9703,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,3,2,8,0,10,10,2,2,1,23,27,12,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,7,7,2,3,0,0,2,4,7,0,0,8,3,8,2,19,16,5,21,1,0,1,0,2,10,3,4,9,70,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728592042340051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20929913881982945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18857347163265487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513263311894438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267752823086912,0.1552870212503391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183694649397767,0.0,0.08680244805214081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569049653758137,0.0,0.20758628850324004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587658349803808,0.0,0.09756507137824884,0.14399020706139826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18138074025065207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459492720808074,0.0,0.0,0.11459229626899985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729250523932178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524373843416101,0.2840174649346896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24302044512410076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946869680610386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010323920134534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591415294954657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548554209946578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,russianpiss,2019/07/02,When you rediscover your love for bread after a year of ED but it turns out you have celiac guess ill have to live off rice crackers again,0.7417857142857116,3.2818510357142903,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,92.21428571428572,4.228571428571429,14.142857142857142,5.985473137389443,-0.8899571428571424,111,2,24,1,4,34,26,28,0.11800000000000001,0.799,0.083,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,5,0,6,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,4,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248357099600821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206918911552569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299920485347026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5182134527165743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068019978543277
EDAnonymous,hahahakietai,2019/07/02,"Haha kill me (not literally tho) I just took some sexy selfies because I'm in a ldr and that's all the action I can get :))))
But I look so fat in all of them.. I had lost some weight but I must have gained it back...
I wish I could just be confident anyway?? I don't think he would mind... Or maybe he just wouldn't say that he does... Anyway imma have to lose some weight or find some miraculous ass angles if I wanna send nakey picsies again
Also I'm drunk rn (sorry if I made mistakes??), happy Canada day y'all",-0.008888888888886727,2.035629592592592,2.123703703703704,95.86666666666667,86.40740740740742,4.711111111111111,15.481481481481481,5.985473137389443,-0.7170518518518514,388,7,90,3,12,130,77,108,0.134,0.684,0.18100000000000002,0.7622,0,0,0,0,0,1,25.0,0,1,1,3,10,6,1,0,2,1,10,5,2,1,3,28,19,10,1,9,10,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,1,4,0,2,1,0,3,3,4,0,0,4,4,13,2,5,10,6,8,0,2,1,1,7,2,1,8,3,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623989325198285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615207107174695,0.0,0.12379258053860155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213879164037334,0.0,0.0,0.1309665172736115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771222263455486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856067891412811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609825910353836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161770183391805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467230036442687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17053177905687786,0.2271888802458592,0.2216802536930584,0.0,0.0,0.19215439041596474,0.0,0.0,0.20401604267257184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20504776940732689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614933196218135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273257362636486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012220281239487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22562369760758744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4945810644632074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23352612496781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442585898815528,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunnyrai99,2019/07/02,"Dismorohia as a bulimic I like to try and comfort myself sometimes that I’m experiencing BD and it’s not as bad as I think, but it’s hard to except that when I actually keep up on the awful things to keep me thin and see the difference. BD is awful when bulimia can make you gain/lose 10lbs in a week.",2.485312499999999,3.75338565625,5.073875000000001,81.48362500000003,75.25,8.870000000000003,25.3,9.3871,2.0435974999999997,238,8,52,6,5,85,46,64,0.15,0.765,0.085,-0.7331,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,10,8,9,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,10,8,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2948026419545527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522379896361802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31562658297192664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27061915915391016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370345647869894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758910838852893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016517841232208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407318272485856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987811994705581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069951552549672,0.1935712626494388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510371834073413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24232361962815235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skipintorabbitholes,2019/07/02,I'm accidentally drunk from my cheesecake Turns out if you don't sleep eat work physically intensively for a few hours and eat your cheesecake you made with Irish cream you get drunk and I know the calories but honestly I hit a gw so I'm okay and I'm happy since I ate chocolate and my favourite fruit and Irish cream also j have no tolerance and autocorrect is beautiful and you're all beautiful people and I'm so sorry we all have to deal with our EDs and I hope you're all treating yourselves tonight too and taking care of yourselves since you matter and nothing can take that away or diminish it,3.333628724216961,5.625978008403367,4.097998472116121,84.9503437738732,75.63865546218487,7.35248281130634,26.784568372803673,8.296473431620573,1.830102521008404,489,19,96,9,11,156,78,119,0.07400000000000001,0.6709999999999999,0.255,0.9828,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,2,5,0,1,4,6,0,0,3,1,5,7,1,1,3,25,19,17,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,15,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,13,6,8,16,4,4,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,3,2,54,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769943981315322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970229026070503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21380621822851933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619461910545693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4291571105789634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956117962562184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232327781559275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20828242851219586,0.20651524615251185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524730278826538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984260803343688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012157159895704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538167908306202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469370319972072,0.0,0.20985447813096494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234745376924641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153411660660513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280966822800748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266630565397166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dreadful-wale,2019/07/02,Anyone else raccoon kin Because I just fucking rifled through a stranger's fast food trash to see if there were leftovers. I'm too poor to binge on good shit ):,3.1844086021505404,5.614005290322582,2.523870967741935,95.37247311827957,76.74193548387099,4.133333333333334,29.68817204301075,3.1291,0.7259591397849467,128,6,25,0,3,37,29,31,0.261,0.659,0.08,-0.765,0,0,0,1,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,1,1,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25848929504998697,0.3787814967418197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253538834565226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088207336279662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44701929047879263,0.0,0.0,0.3417637895148683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100705767253796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945876028747961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37947185872088346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,umm-obviously,2019/07/02,"Galore = calorie Today, I read 'galore' as 'calorie'. I need help",-0.5899999999999999,0.32177999999999685,2.6866666666666674,82.92500000000003,124.0,1.6,20.666666666666668,3.1291,0.04796666666666717,48,2,7,0,3,17,9,12,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937302748253134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355589900555595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875715490170031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5567984479625672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MhmStephany,2019/07/02,Nearly ruining a 24 hour fast... With alcohol. What a fucking stereotype.,2.942499999999999,4.731668250000002,4.6533333333333315,68.82500000000002,116.5,8.266666666666667,37.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,5.434633333333335,57,4,7,2,3,19,11,12,0.365,0.635,0.0,-0.5563,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6204745028346504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.536746412240508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5717645321975087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rolatbc123,2019/07/02,why . do i look . as fat. as my before pictures i am almost at my first goal weight which i have previously been at and have pictures of myself at and know i look skinnier at yet when i am comparing pictures of myself now to pictures of myself when i know i was heavier i just look exactly like the heavier self??!! wwhhyyyyyyy,1.9078348214285723,4.390618578125004,3.4632142857142867,86.51750000000001,81.96875,5.5321428571428575,26.330357142857146,6.868970318607317,1.3374357142857147,255,11,48,3,7,84,37,64,0.0,0.941,0.059000000000000004,0.5337,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,0,1,7,12,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,13,1,10,10,0,9,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,6,40,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27124057356915204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304933050265164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23040476806230736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29772986355393405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233505652982186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6823962818579368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825800221700269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298508165981056,0.0,0.0,0.2444211037733912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PsychadelicSpaceCat,2019/07/02,"""Isn't it too hot for leggings?"" It's amazing what's possible when you hate yourself buddy 👉😎👉",0.8657142857142865,2.6608205714285766,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,81.38095238095238,6.104761904761905,29.54761904761905,7.1686216300943375,1.7810761904761896,76,4,16,1,2,27,18,21,0.172,0.6509999999999999,0.177,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6588303126282116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7522915785532981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Firequeeeeeen,2019/07/02,"Bulimics, do you ever feel like the janitors of the world keep our secret with us? I end up purging in random toilets a lot and, though I try to keep clean and get rid of any trace, I often wonder if janitors and plumbers shake their fists at us bulimics, leaving food chunks around the rims and clogging drains across town.",13.593709677419355,7.617698370967744,11.535483870967742,67.57322580645162,57.225806451612904,14.980645161290324,45.516129032258064,11.20814326018867,4.8549741935483866,257,9,49,4,2,79,50,62,0.027000000000000003,0.889,0.084,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,3,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,16,6,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,9,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,5,3,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604524793345903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042740431163398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20323941707211826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20756579820639687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602527546179307,0.16393108068631146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774720857090581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988689767388495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079211532444576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429721390246437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210585546583897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950844115185784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22544990118102265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579284985774464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5520404552424152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488468847293156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ugghhlly,2019/07/02,"Post pregnancy relapse I was a size 2 before pregnancy and by month 9 my weight spiraled to a ridiculous 219.
In six weeks since I've given birth and brought home my beautiful daughter I've lost almost 50 pounds and I'm still not ok with my body. 
I'm breastfeeding, which I'm sure is helping me lose weight but I've found that I've slipped back into my restrictive eating disorder.
I'm not counting calories yet and I have yet to bring a scale or a full length mirror into my home but it's honestly just a matter of time before I'm back in that place.
Like... I'm a mom now and I want to do what's best for my daughter... But I also just really want to be anorexic again.",1.7307364975450064,3.6145594113475217,3.3690780141843994,90.22615384615385,79.0,6.60796508456083,23.61211129296236,7.61054688173877,1.0482641571194762,531,18,114,8,13,176,87,141,0.077,0.777,0.146,0.8521,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,10,8,1,0,6,1,5,4,1,0,1,23,18,10,0,2,8,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,8,3,1,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,5,2,11,5,12,12,2,20,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,2,12,63,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949700716184252,0.0,0.0,0.13536320375837746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603126053331257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880684468312109,0.0,0.17763585754216807,0.0,0.0,0.18801809660463104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939952843737195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17320296796572954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559313888027865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134564750982381,0.0,0.33957832075478844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269557805915595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936709873140936,0.18477553321477924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982441163690737,0.13510774867166225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17684856975345928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211152922878014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843713102138472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400198718787886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517728925275507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953266877844444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870127339420633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19967678076024625,0.0,0.13577622374263618,0.4122445656826849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,calibrateichabod,2019/07/02,yeah being a sane and functioning human is great and all but have u considered stress crying in the work toilets because you're going to a movie right after work which means dinner will have to be late (like 9pm) and (even though you are recovered and no longer engage in ed behaviours) eating late still stresses you tf out because after 7pm is when the calories *get you*,7.129583333333333,6.97317279166667,6.835555555555558,78.11500000000002,64.1388888888889,9.422222222222222,30.5,8.841846274778883,2.37835,299,9,54,4,4,94,55,72,0.18100000000000002,0.7290000000000001,0.09,-0.8555,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,2,4,5,0,2,4,1,8,2,0,0,1,8,11,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,7,8,1,11,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,7,34,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587338324420924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331129372415961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217153325663499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401688469090494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087582581224503,0.0,0.12060911942839304,0.0,0.0,0.2339725286967429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787852305954984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036796309215922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311690331515072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18123412361921049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16947860801796785,0.0,0.4861929848625005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850438586484524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30899635748591725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Eusea,2019/07/02,"I made an ed related video and plan to make more. I messaged the mods to see if this was allowed to be posted and I never got a reply. Delete it if it isnt allowed. The video took eons to edit. If one decides to watch it make sure to lower the volume. 

https://youtu.be/doKiY7TLsu4",1.8243452380952403,4.2335422678571435,3.2214285714285715,88.59023809523809,81.67857142857143,5.161904761904762,20.047619047619047,6.42735559955562,0.1969619047619049,221,6,44,2,6,72,39,56,0.040999999999999995,0.9159999999999999,0.043,0.0258,3,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,5,2,13,9,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,3,1,6,4,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819556526324928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335785706402101,0.4706417171043493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718978904336773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388878635385464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376325274007925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28092595617381216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322614894752172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916810351695452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mommystorms,2019/07/02,"New here, but I’m glad I found this sub. I need some support :( I just found this sub a few days ago and I’ve read dozens and dozens of posts already. I relate to so many of you guys. I feel like I just need to vent right now to people who will understand, since I’m too afraid to talk to anyone in real life about this. :/

Anyway, pretty sure I have EDNOS and it’s slowly taking over my life. Coupled with (undiagnosed) anxiety and depression, it’s the only thing I feel like I have full “control” over. Restricting and losing weight makes me feel like I’m productive and accomplished in something, even if it could ultimately hurt me. I’m 5’5 1/2 and I weighed about 138-140 lbs last winter (January 2019) and now I’m down to 110 lbs. So I’ve lost ~30 lbs in the past 5-6 months. Some people have expressed concern over my sudden weight loss, while others have praised it. To the ones who are worried, I try to shrug it off and say I’m just eating healthier and exercising more, and that generally works to stop the questions for a while.  

Problem is my goal weight keeps getting lower. At first I just wanted to get back to my pre-child weight (128 lbs) which I felt fairly confident and thin at before; then when I reached that I wanted to hit 120, then 114, then 110 and now my brain is telling me I need to lose another 5 lbs as a buffer “just in case”. When does it stop?? I feel my newer clothes getting baggier already; I know logically I’m pretty thin, and I sometimes “see” it for a split second in the mirror but then I suddenly see all my gross flaws and it’s like I get bigger the longer I stare at myself.

I almost convinced myself to tell my husband about my disordered eating (he works so much that I really don’t think he notices my weird eating habits), but I’m getting the feeling he likes me being this thin. Today when he got home from work, he hugged me tight and commented, “You’re so huggable now!! Like, you’re so skinny.” And I really don’t think he meant it maliciously and was just stating a fact or observation, but it sort of triggered me and made me feel like I should continue down this path. I don’t really want to talk to him about it anymore and I’ve lost all motivation to do so.

Ugh, I don’t even know what I’m trying to accomplish here. If you made it this far, thanks for listening. You guys are seriously great.",3.391939159032184,4.733286492600424,4.477507047216354,86.36287555790466,73.08033826638479,7.707986845196147,24.555379375146817,8.256446698504663,1.3272767676767674,1833,54,385,29,36,599,230,473,0.127,0.705,0.168,0.9742,1,0,1,0,0,0,62.0,0,3,0,15,30,28,0,1,12,0,18,14,2,6,4,81,67,43,0,11,13,1,15,7,0,2,3,2,1,2,27,21,9,6,18,2,0,0,4,13,0,5,10,20,51,15,45,52,8,52,1,7,3,1,25,21,0,8,36,225,78,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649187253521914,0.0,0.0733346313685638,0.0,0.16163407547329856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679365748884777,0.056024847772073866,0.0,0.07262979537347898,0.05120786453191746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056313469105880386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06231789490274067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175487897539647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821396803817949,0.05847247347561418,0.08103352973684827,0.0,0.04723074675713785,0.0,0.06307750580758077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393406411714588,0.0,0.06408875457354753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22481416079954344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674252540784188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221799823328966,0.2615967689348509,0.07031742770956699,0.0,0.0,0.06229395738650801,0.0,0.16059757811917166,0.0,0.0,0.19131225718644446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05857300529665025,0.08074223981049362,0.0,0.14502903526623598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346103447575948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839996452759103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509495040365387,0.0,0.0,0.08049647404824581,0.059696590676885625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345659717538223,0.25045367372720284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638632635624334,0.15989008704203428,0.0,0.0,0.13859413139998453,0.04888516958500018,0.07424915741463509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05845576337765239,0.0,0.053836414079508885,0.16290926811300424,0.0,0.0707311643018337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337893952534678,0.0,0.0,0.04962617335637076,0.05569878923043332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991143516094148,0.10154435092420824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013922803507226,0.14901337363219316,0.0,0.07007634614942047,0.0,0.0,0.08204036071609794,0.0,0.07325517568598007,0.08335786970621421,0.1407493352822123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06254259486195245,0.0,0.05823969546424102,0.0,0.0,0.11671819568294045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06058104423460354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05638015589624915,0.07243164085274305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122456075693029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310661542493539,0.06902345741679958,0.0,0.05506387433035025,0.11772761195555448,0.128021860270685,0.06742527739077273,0.0,0.0,0.04865431711775018,0.09385251950578466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941855540047355,0.0,0.0,0.09944400043070403,0.0,0.0,0.07624058958532774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958833334383532,0.0,0.0,0.3567237411946377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599486367203005,0.07437406012303655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katisbadateating,2019/07/02,i wish my ED wasnt ruining my vacation :( im in san francisco and im restricting and not to flex but im like insanely good at restricting and im not letting myself eat anything so i just watch my family eat good food and it kinda sucks because i just feel sad and hungry,-0.34551724137931217,1.9141912586206893,3.106465517241382,85.70383620689658,93.3103448275862,7.727586206896553,22.767241379310345,8.472884824447931,2.1480620689655177,215,9,45,7,8,78,38,58,0.204,0.5920000000000001,0.205,0.0154,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,15,5,7,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,7,3,3,3,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456257025940933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078751740133292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621552322310378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682523266234922,0.0,0.08947795238152705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21398470267328765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968568094555774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7646028451703031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180956945172114,0.0,0.08645532068024164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20349904055603388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pleasegodnofuck,2019/07/02,"i wish people would identify restrictive eating/purging as a reaction to not being able to stop overeating like….. my guilt around food is because by default i binge constantly. the only times i’ve been not fat is when i just cut out food as much as possible. like i just caaaaan’t fucking do moderation at all. idk i guess this is probably super common and i’m having the most basic ass realization ever, but i feel like i get closer to figuring out the roots of my problems more every day which is kind of exciting. *takes huge bong rip*",4.6248786407767,6.391019679611649,5.699211165048543,77.13386529126214,70.6504854368932,9.033495145631068,29.379854368932037,9.516144504307137,2.884204854368932,429,17,76,10,8,142,78,103,0.11,0.741,0.149,0.7408,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,2,1,4,0,9,5,2,1,2,21,16,6,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,9,5,14,13,4,14,0,0,0,2,0,7,2,2,9,50,11,0,0.19670693422856084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511087575527706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991072133797633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21257031448243507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685969941877345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793268369425005,0.16573407598806922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946093632802176,0.1405274731167878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757176113509832,0.0,0.0,0.1818523910009948,0.10277125435511596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166948649886164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484000192046325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883032160391107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460223004792888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960448743475627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637182048124932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217575125827294,0.0,0.0,0.21208334500303214,0.18822197020498946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445580496853462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789913405986246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147013952239356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262032665796211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973496227831125,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TouchofWrath,2019/07/02,"Relapsing Anorexia Hi

Back in 2016 I had an eating disorder, leaning towards anorexia; I'd eat as little as possible, one meal a day... sometimes as simple as a clementine. 

late 2017-early 2018 I started to recover.  But in summer 2018 I began to gain... a lot more weight than I wanted.  So in November I started working out.  I didn't weigh myself; but in April I had to go to the doctors and saw that I gained weight :( I had a huge break down. I tried working out even harder and eating healthier, though tried not to exceed 1200 calories (which had worked previously in 2013 when I was 200lbs and lost 80).  I measured and weighed myself about a week ago... i gained even more weight, and only lost weight in my hips (0.7inches); everything else got slightly bigger. To make matters worse... a bridesmaid dress I had ordered in no longer fit me... and when I took it into a tailor she said ""Oh Wow"" which of course made me feel like shit. 

I tried going to a weightloss center, and they said they couldn't help me due to only being ""slightly"" overweight... they just told me to do the stuff I've already been doing. I was told back in April my thyroid was fine...

So for the past week, I've been eating less that 800 calories... and I know that's not okay... and i know it's only going to get less and less... I'm scared it's not going to work, but I also am scared if it does... one will lead to a break down and the other will lead back to being anorexic again...

It just sucks, ya know? I feel I've been working hard... to recover... to be healthy.. and now it's all just falling apart....",2.5893314400662675,4.396138495207669,3.5208874689385894,90.46724056324696,76.18849840255591,5.787196781445982,24.052656490356174,6.42735559955562,0.6343677434623118,1211,39,249,9,27,387,163,313,0.11199999999999999,0.816,0.07200000000000001,-0.9088,0,0,0,0,0,0,81.0,0,1,3,12,17,10,2,2,14,1,21,16,2,4,1,39,48,26,0,3,10,0,7,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,13,15,12,0,5,0,0,8,6,6,0,2,23,10,34,4,37,19,7,51,0,2,1,0,11,20,2,2,21,164,47,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910342520044428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847550864315792,0.07136298516599082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058537779521038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057550634628075976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227360328842043,0.09133809206644183,0.07809210633903978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652478809738272,0.07454625977336111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178807051553266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020067341634472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09024205531947264,0.06375109902991145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04662277253342659,0.0,0.20286231013382308,0.0,0.07137116938314006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993903522710069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981383806395086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712735299168905,0.0,0.10066348879429436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04359680582665991,0.08943915365597513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948259685014771,0.07586630665670582,0.0,0.08443843010581496,0.05956654778262005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093892080545735,0.20360681685024026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518703889990295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060157513498716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16977009258509054,0.0,0.1786840810378026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160074009462636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825790791881277,0.0,0.1263251494904762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215528507957193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767513101422059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705400058193107,0.09914585235035547,0.18175867610679164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052634433685618084,0.0,0.14316145557747753,0.43466764983025263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248288520781477,0.0,0.0909403669505822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpoiledBaby98,2019/07/02,How to get help when you’ve lied to your therapist? So I’ve been in therapy for a little while and I’ve started to take antidepressants. My therapist has asked me multiple times how my appetite is/ my relationship with food is and I always say that it’s good. I tell myself that it’s not a lie because literally ALL I can think about is food and so in my demented disordered eating brain it always seemed like the truth. I’m 20 years old and although nothing is diagnosed I’ve had issues with food going back as early (that I can recall) as 5th grade. I want to tell her about it to try and get help for it but I’ve shut her down on that topic so many times I feel like there isn’t a way to bring it up without seeming like I’ve lied about everything that I’ve told her? I just feel like after I tell her this then it will seem like I’m a huge liar and there will be 0 trust in the patient therapist relationship. Has anyone experienced this and has a way to bring it up without making it seem like you’re a pathological liar because that would be great!,3.9142465753424673,4.6986744885844764,5.0829954337899546,84.6242191780822,71.23744292237444,8.579726027397259,26.01552511415525,8.841846274778883,1.6694533333333337,839,25,181,15,15,278,113,219,0.062,0.7609999999999999,0.177,0.9721,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,13,12,2,0,8,0,17,7,1,3,2,28,37,19,0,2,5,0,2,6,0,3,2,1,0,0,17,9,4,0,7,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,3,4,19,10,26,29,1,26,0,0,0,0,15,10,0,4,17,110,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834130713937362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707312642760293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094568056725429,0.0,0.0,0.07778342061394472,0.0,0.12332862823824405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292456741794599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267213545866384,0.0,0.0,0.1159345839764651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035087739344871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091330908655887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10229594738282534,0.14453303504389245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669580154012671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570062193367856,0.0,0.057489803755971326,0.08484561769702094,0.0,0.11152585163388204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356066904658463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558153382703088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965209428651553,0.10138579982432884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752302367422477,0.10255723067876983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706278444429127,0.0,0.10614716180480946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21720933126857406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044403587009819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36835781081217656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159938234815913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07605740803533234,0.0,0.2652467969916236,0.0,0.11568174378708382,0.3523529114635389,0.0,0.06481726411376952,0.0,0.0,0.11797081672212872,0.0,0.0,0.09665976356699013,0.0,0.06867890254187016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05966496706848569,0.16058729517351872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950233050691912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185896733176028,0.0,0.0,0.06514173420682068
EDAnonymous,strugglesbus,2019/07/02,"Coming to terms with relapsing I had been ignoring the signs that I was relapsing and playing it off. Today my boyfriend who has been out of the country for almost 2 months and is coming back in a couple days said something to me about it. I’m always honest with him about things like calories and my habits. Today he told me that we should work on not counting calories and I started freaking out, even the idea of it made me anxious. If I didn’t realize then that I was back into my ED mindset..... today I ate my lunch and although I wasn’t full I felt disgusting for eating so I purged for the first time since october. My family brought home more food later on and I decided to eat because I messed up earlier. My father said some triggering things and I felt disgusting for eating again even though I wanted to. I purged for the 2nd time just now and it hit me that it’s come back. I don’t want to lose myself again to this stupid disorder. I’m scared",3.5401562500000026,5.070227286458337,4.397833333333335,86.33050000000004,73.01041666666666,7.620000000000001,25.82083333333333,8.238735603445708,1.5745870833333333,757,25,152,12,15,244,114,192,0.15,0.804,0.046,-0.9643,0,0,1,0,1,0,15.0,1,0,0,3,13,11,3,1,6,0,11,6,0,2,0,34,28,13,0,4,3,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,13,17,6,1,5,1,0,4,4,8,0,1,15,4,28,3,25,11,4,31,0,1,0,0,8,9,0,3,19,110,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621768365442945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488105234641316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239702975790286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907666744801978,0.0,0.07683697206507699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32573452563868216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946840982024314,0.0,0.08128977185409753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444605768770498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869320960546409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665054727893797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882572481637944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24204942959170295,0.0,0.0,0.10721536142286008,0.15241631609910195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643523854083474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229151826642294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158010979582928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101415100159292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192685495716719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060936984462006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23979878211731198,0.0,0.1261948567152373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426723273795513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703700077983436,0.0,0.0,0.0892165885561398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674798138829385,0.0,0.12384036150918765,0.0,0.1469978297571241,0.0,0.3584329436899732,0.12044313893877645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486913613941693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176358678824804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-onebyonebyone-,2019/07/02,"Here we go again! So I didn’t lose 10 lbs before vacation, and I gained 5. Hahaha But I just booked a trip to California in November, so I get to start the cycle all over again!

Wheeeeeeee!",0.10230769230769,2.417704871794875,2.580205128205129,90.45646153846157,90.02564102564102,7.222564102564102,18.056410256410253,8.238735603445708,0.9771087179487176,146,4,33,4,5,50,33,39,0.07400000000000001,0.7490000000000001,0.177,0.6246,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,4,3,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854432783967622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980564393935833,0.0,0.3242214831941498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6382301584214939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037943500249641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seanl25,2019/05/17,I would literally murder someone to have a nice big butt. But you know what I wouldn't do? Eat.,-0.669666666666668,1.516552700000002,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,97.0,4.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.2753333333333332,74,2,17,1,3,25,18,20,0.21899999999999997,0.6509999999999999,0.13,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,0,4,5,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6380857033358357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427073882476318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283636751065357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429786767631304,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tulipsandmothballs,2019/05/17,You guys I just bought a Barbie today and she is NORMAL. This doll has hips and is proportional. I’m pretty sure she resembles an actual normal persons measurements. Where tf was this shit when I was growing up?! https://imgur.com/gallery/66wKzte,5.875365853658536,9.560013121951222,4.876292682926831,74.7071219512195,76.3170731707317,8.158048780487805,22.83414634146341,8.841846274778883,2.4409180487804885,202,6,29,5,5,60,33,41,0.095,0.738,0.16699999999999998,0.3054,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,5,2,2,0,1,6,7,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,1,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.302447213977979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068796725885364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.60733167704587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706191379023085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153104840531669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181389456555105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29210559077514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29377763581974337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananabread98,2019/05/17,"why does my ED come in waves? okay so im just wondering if anyone elses ED effects them in similar ways, i have bulimia if anyone is wondering. some background knowledge here, im 19 and first purged at the age of 14 but it didnt really become a /thing/ until i turned sixteen but has gotten alot worse since moving out to university because now im in control of my own food/ binge cycles. 

basically with my ed it hasnt gotten consistently worse  throughout the years instead it gets consistently worse then a bit better and it gets to the point where i can go about a weeks without b/p cycles then i relapse to the extreme, i b/p multiple times a day and i cannot do normal food things like eating infront of others or going out for meals. Im currently going through one of these relapses and im struggling so much, i have an exam next week and i know i need to eat to focus on my work but i just cant :/

Some of my friends know about my ed and they are supportive but others dont and i cant really explain it to them without them changing their attitudes to me idk. I think im just at the stage where i want help? but im afraid since i have an obese BMI i just dont think doctors will take me seriously and i dont want to gain any weight, i have been losing slowly over the last year and everyone that doesnt know about my ED is really proud and happy for me.

For the first time today i cut my knuckles purging ( im usually handsfree) and i dont know how i can explain it to everyone, everyone that knows about my ed will instantly know how it happened (2/6 of my friends also have EDs) but everyone else will ask and i will have to make up a bullshit excuse.

i dont really know why i made this post im just relapsing hard rn and im fed up of this bullshit disorder, i just want to do normal things and be normal but i also want to be skinny and overall im scared due to an increase in physical symptoms :(((((",2.023984962406015,3.767469443609024,4.0274285714285725,86.49257142857145,77.62155388471176,7.266766917293234,24.933834586466165,8.146662555663855,1.4978469172932334,1504,54,317,27,35,513,188,399,0.12,0.769,0.11199999999999999,-0.8066,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,5,9,21,14,1,3,16,1,32,11,1,6,0,68,66,34,0,10,18,0,2,1,2,4,3,0,0,0,17,19,9,1,15,0,0,6,13,6,0,3,6,2,43,8,44,54,7,44,0,1,0,0,12,15,0,8,21,203,60,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889717046464161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03782908432153342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779306326098079,0.05699766586548021,0.0,0.0,0.052004858775036085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033910435069372594,0.0614369776311617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919862329674502,0.06073158802541565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058847260729483125,0.04791876959166733,0.0,0.0,0.06239175769763782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035875587704416706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637547378640108,0.05693782099641932,0.04868061365603258,0.0,0.3259791869705335,0.0,0.0,0.1138430746455781,0.09294044793142038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126205201878921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09463463887905273,0.1345316831645606,0.0,0.08595642035909026,0.0,0.058126878212739326,0.0,0.09484436591568124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919183451938193,0.05921725447508117,0.04983194169499612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03728641060639485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6609680334091873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140026316569299,0.045344408495078745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027177129169375626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0622337278901651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052636748916172614,0.037132256195524016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05912397419709105,0.040893128472689805,0.041247606254621004,0.0,0.0,0.05916122295996507,0.0,0.16351147828304766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03769510873575177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052586630664822415,0.0,0.05327643960048205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14254740026928886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05569353372106418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920324455947845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058154673968985424,0.0,0.0,0.06312622338633496,0.0,0.05781900060257308,0.04182548421352063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087071499833252,0.07128861019546359,0.0,0.0,0.06487450282522593,0.0,0.052729030209695486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605075087587099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06126660442059712,0.0,0.13124381714737834,0.04415507675499394,0.08924317496502743,0.06774016261738333,0.0,0.0,0.10039159816240957,0.0,0.0,0.10724720153033324,0.12065282230946715,0.04049799293080074,0.0,0.1700696681187852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164547533471123
EDAnonymous,HorrorRefrigerator1,2019/05/17,"summertime :( i love summer for good weather and sunshine, and that it is warm and green and very vibrant and colourful, the beautiful summer sunsets and sunrises, it is an amazing season but it is also the season where i hate my body the most :)))))))) 

also saw cannes pics of bella hadid in red dress and i don't know what i feel something like jealousy, sadness, anger, hate idk i just i want to stop eating and start disappearing",5.018666666666668,6.675524200000003,5.392500000000003,80.14916666666669,69.5,7.333333333333335,29.583333333333336,7.793537801064563,2.0587083333333327,336,13,58,4,6,107,58,80,0.266,0.546,0.188,-0.9232,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,4,10,3,0,4,0,4,3,1,0,0,15,12,11,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,7,7,6,4,11,1,9,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,1,7,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42939867908462265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982151725299904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747169230375786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574901351846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251840703059702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5301269081437139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475468243677021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116331099892148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423091458080393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066851513238131,0.0,0.0,0.19002796828147805,0.0,0.0,0.22445709960175736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215199703503575,0.1583534954878998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slowtiger112,2019/05/17,"Extremely Triggered By Period-Induced Bloat i went through a phase earlier this year where i was really restricting and trying not to eat much, but the problem is that i'm already light and dropping a few points takes a LOT of not eating, especially because i hate exercise lol. i kind of got over it for awhile but my period this month was two weeks late and with it came SERIOUS bloating (like i shit you not i gained over 3 kilos somehow) and a lot of acne and i just feel heavy and disgusted with myself. and now i'm back on my bullshit of forcing myself not to eat. has anyone else struggled with this before??",3.7632499999999993,5.693982158333334,4.823333333333334,81.855,73.25,8.133333333333335,27.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.3177333333333343,489,19,91,10,10,160,82,120,0.259,0.713,0.027999999999999997,-0.9858,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,5,8,3,1,5,1,4,5,1,1,0,25,12,9,0,1,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,11,3,1,1,1,0,2,4,6,0,1,5,2,12,2,15,7,4,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,3,8,65,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930631295862239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233002919724775,0.17925829983343575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452676425565266,0.0,0.1066486994659432,0.0,0.14887068563875985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009769995247004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370566241328305,0.14614937672416575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846064295744584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992455091822345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272820600298006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821848752109875,0.0,0.0,0.1973527067742092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547237672422718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297474708079296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964447270162034,0.0,0.12860934870886012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538554454479787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16740478340298512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207829404039088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958501356074585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828971033243953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315416179939871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878046065167197,0.0,0.1709020160289755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033539420477698,0.0,0.0,0.1621816243240507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266291263197928
EDAnonymous,FridgethatRidge,2019/05/17,"Had a breakdown over vitamin water zero I had the idea that it was zero cals but then I saw the 4 grams of carbs and had a panic attack bc I really wanted to drink it but I didn't want to break my fast but I payed 2.50 for it and I just got really overwhelmed. BY FUCKING VITAMIN WATER.

I did end up drinking some of it though bc after I took the first sip I freaked out bc I didn't want to drink it but I had already taken a sip and idk how many cals are in a sip so I drank half of it and i still low-key feel like dying.",-1.7209978991596628,0.18292141176470805,1.3912972689075644,98.33467699579836,95.38655462184877,4.3195378151260515,14.160189075630253,5.985473137389443,-0.8569962184873949,404,8,100,4,16,142,70,119,0.135,0.7609999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.3895,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,2,2,7,0,9,9,0,1,0,17,19,12,1,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,5,6,0,2,3,1,1,2,5,0,4,13,2,14,1,13,6,1,12,0,1,1,1,0,4,1,1,7,69,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103498133258752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685354539030285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782961208404015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5601941803682952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688294528899355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638132238230013,0.1361763139386738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213811684463345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762216863237083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245325831212175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151825867908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312548971413223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19325499720326128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22364714290915275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442273496737207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522264134956118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727953474190392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21178170919131467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33729127534855896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HaraNostariel,2019/05/17,"I binged and now i want to dieeee Haven’t purged in a few weeks, I was on track with an acceptable diet and now boom, i’ve had at least 5000 calories in the past two days. Restricting starts now, I feel bloated and disgusting. 8 kg to go.",2.247,3.5876623000000016,3.209,94.31950000000002,76.0,7.4,22.5,8.07648339933343,0.7953999999999999,185,5,44,3,4,59,40,50,0.126,0.7979999999999999,0.076,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,2,4,1,7,5,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,7,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30912842778366645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423638319642962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724144894035541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575750653812281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392724954632969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682361116811176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28272146497896466,0.0,0.38448990152662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scaledrops,2019/05/17,"its your boy. binge and not-able-to-purge the title kind of says it all. but after my ap exam the other day i went home and i dont remember much but i bought a pizza and breadsticks, ate half the pizza and the entire thing of breadsticks while crying in my room and then was unable to purge because my body refuses to.

it wasnt even good pizza :( it was little caesars
  :((

not to mention, i have to go out to eat tonight w people because social! obligations! im gonna cry!!",1.6820847651775497,3.57919697938145,3.4545704467353966,89.49143184421537,79.20618556701032,5.548224513172968,21.087056128293238,6.42735559955562,0.3342609392898055,365,10,75,3,9,122,66,97,0.16699999999999998,0.833,0.0,-0.9547,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,5,6,1,0,1,12,10,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,6,6,5,1,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,6,1,8,2,10,3,2,11,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,5,48,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26364589295334473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402030932809427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750771703719335,0.13946225308238094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534413777270411,0.0,0.0,0.22127598046210376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282995176461102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228988829558348,0.1813788003682063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21691466015628005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335852545701161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22518931008123985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673759052794947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896737021778387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991933157967516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24496715012027598,0.0,0.0,0.17196931460854545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22043789223820992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366575066697695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046432530193484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sheepings,2019/05/17,My student and I were talking about our family and being made fun of And he asked me if my family makes fun of me for being skinny 😬 like the fact that someone thinks I'm skinny? I've never been so blessed,3.3517424242424236,3.964056750000001,5.148181818181818,84.2756060606061,72.4090909090909,7.684848484848485,23.75757575757576,7.793537801064563,1.1090848484848488,163,4,34,2,3,56,33,44,0.0,0.7190000000000001,0.281,0.9336,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,2,2,9,9,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,6,4,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,22,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32298733632823634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6513961102867929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878939326489795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326911825661447,0.2306178461580032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664638666224173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927333027043147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277692483558918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22137660653188415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Froooted,2019/05/17,"Is this real? TL;DR I might have an eating disorder ouchie

I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder. My psychiatrist has mentioned my weight loss and is telling me I need to take in more calories. This all started about a year ago when I was at my highest weight, 288 pounds. I was and am extremely obese. I was hospitalized and some med adjustments were made, and my appetite went away almost completely. I was only eating 1 or 2 snacks (apples, bananas, yogurt) and I lost 10 lbs within a week and a few days of being there. That weight loss was kept up for a few weeks, and then slowed down. I became obsessed with keeping the weight off and restricting and not eating. I fasted for a week straight before my mom noticed and forced me to eat and threatened me with hospitalization. She never told my psychiatrist. I've been stuck in this self-hatred thing for about a year now. I stopped losing weight when I resumed eating normally, and I hated that. I began this fast-binge cycle that I've been stuck ever since then. I recently gained 10 lbs back and my hunger has increased, which I suspect is due to a medication change (the hunger, not the increase in weight. That's all me) I've been stuck in an extreme fast-binge-guilt-repeat cycle and it's wild. 

Do you guys think I have an eating disorder or am I just overreacting to this?",4.480697674418604,6.199876488372095,4.9913875968992265,82.25312790697677,70.93798449612403,7.640620155038763,26.078294573643408,8.238735603445708,1.668895503875969,1066,34,199,16,20,340,140,258,0.192,0.782,0.026000000000000002,-0.9881,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,5,9,6,1,1,14,0,22,19,0,1,5,41,37,20,0,2,5,1,6,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,12,17,17,4,3,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,19,6,30,0,23,16,8,37,0,4,0,0,7,11,0,5,23,136,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047261152836347,0.0,0.07960850987099796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746935646917268,0.061131163783382014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764927645946116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410124426497206,0.0,0.08335501606748193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051271402054691335,0.0,0.0,0.08069158027730065,0.0,0.0,0.27334421597626324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5694437495450364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191297319917868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871823427834578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849052424327704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066391287517683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889409954844053,0.08678445186824008,0.0,0.0,0.07522552491037451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830740288637738,0.0800886342828483,0.0,0.08433772451692235,0.0,0.09311030890218293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058948793299180284,0.12263174754086772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789384815731734,0.0,0.09051212239518078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604638971997934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048925002406373,0.0,0.0,0.07849739229180573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293661301573002,0.0,0.0,0.06576383582959094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056271034811364716,0.0,0.0,0.06646618063420894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059774664457400775,0.0,0.06948715318306742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05281676081616521,0.05094086576875507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596636649863821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131210094597725,0.5808629212859054,0.0,0.07369798488847461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023917434203654
EDAnonymous,plzbeanonymous,2019/05/17,"Sitting in a bath as it drains and feeling yourself get heavier and heavier, until it’s back to reality. But also vice versa, as it fills up you get lighter and lighter. 

The draining part takes a way bigger toll tho.",2.9964285714285697,5.32075316666667,3.957380952380952,85.39178571428572,76.85714285714286,5.152380952380953,31.92857142857143,5.985473137389443,1.7070285714285711,171,9,31,1,4,55,33,42,0.0,0.9620000000000001,0.038,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,9,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35957124625516473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457399253147037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22734789064929786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4698292366756125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869085852787522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33806796314961085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568976460635942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Current_Selection,2019/05/17,"Help me after overeating just now? (Harm Reduction/Discomfort) Not that it's very relevant but I've been anorexic for about 10-11 years, with assorted periods of recovery. Just might help with advice.

​

Anyways I decided to treat myself to some Baja Fresh (mmmmmm yummy) but my stomach was way too small to accommodate all of the food I ate and I've been in extreme discomfort for about an hour. I googled what to do after eating too much, went to the bathroom a couple times, took a walk, drank some water, but am still extremely uncomfortable. I don't think I have ever been so uncomfortable for so long, and I am someone who absolutely hates the act of vomiting so purging was never my thing. Does anyone have advice for what to do after a particularly uncomfortable binge or large meal?",5.201122448979593,7.383259129251705,6.205187074829932,72.39308673469391,69.95238095238095,9.525850340136056,29.93707482993197,9.928628108626363,3.3247646258503405,640,26,107,17,12,212,99,147,0.128,0.795,0.077,-0.8741,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,13,4,1,1,7,0,13,8,1,0,3,19,19,9,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,6,0,2,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,9,0,10,1,22,9,4,20,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,4,12,81,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767807254657544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088858952792794,0.2342587211233744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480196690163207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133164367106252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871022159897672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972704215139267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743879317783223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331202133065522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033839901279007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584436852207088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898575074410305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061145855753762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20451777607164728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172148311955338,0.0,0.1486901171835955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633487858386562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539608769018167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807988979193785,0.12353087112398504,0.0,0.0,0.11241632886042087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141947439351599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907042580987968,0.0,0.15302627112901465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17871655960232113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342587211233744,0.12414925688580827
EDAnonymous,OomfphOwie,2019/05/17,"frugality vs hating my body ED: Don't fucking eat anything for the next 8 days

Frugality: you literally just bought 30 bucks worth of perishable food, don't you fucking dare let that shit spoil



aaaahhahahaha*FUUCK*",4.674324324324324,8.169935891891896,5.7932972972973005,66.70778378378381,81.97297297297297,8.365405405405406,29.021621621621623,8.841846274778883,3.3068745945945954,176,8,28,5,5,58,32,37,0.17300000000000001,0.779,0.048,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,0,3,6,2,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23312927730341565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146790817083963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827031164899217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28988353723862825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425638345399697,0.0,0.0,0.5238069888112745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796971180713463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28969035753665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012895537544051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29080028041788186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sorrowfulspookyghost,2019/05/17,"People tell me they're jealous of my skinny legs but they wouldnt be jealous if they knew my full picture (tw!!!!!) Slamming random vitamins to try to get rid of the lightheadedness I feel, getting nauseous because I couldnt take them with food because that's the reason I'm so lightheaded in the first place - I pass out anyway.

Buying expensive healthy low cal food so I wont have to b/p anymore - I b/p it all anyway. I dont fucking eat, I consume.

All the nights and days I spend so cold, so chilled, just absolutely frozen. 

The time I broke my scale in blind rage when I was up a pound.

The disgust I feel when I see my ribs so clearly - some of it is disgust from how I look so sickly, some of it is disgust from how i cant see them clear enough.

The bloodshot eyes the blood the puffy face the nosebleeds the burst blood vessels, the hipbones and ribcages and collarbones and thigh gaps and spines, the ricecakes and apples vs the pints of ice cream and pizzas, what the fuck am I doing?

When it comes to weight and food and my binging and purging theres never enough but always too much. Its always too much but never enough.",4.118207964601769,5.181635632743365,4.381581858407081,88.80697455752217,70.99115044247787,6.711946902654868,27.841814159292035,6.6274283507984215,1.1316557522123898,887,31,183,6,16,277,134,226,0.19,0.7759999999999999,0.035,-0.9907,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,4,1,17,10,8,0,16,0,12,20,9,3,6,36,25,25,0,3,6,0,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,7,13,7,0,4,0,3,2,7,10,0,1,2,10,25,0,16,19,10,18,0,2,6,2,5,7,2,4,9,120,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291262576387419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654435266557796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786032809257692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860155095318715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879402328896198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136322982669898,0.0,0.0,0.1408838888529485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267894480594739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923313293528722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711292924038436,0.4994598070325104,0.0,0.0,0.2545710815282945,0.14386717286031284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561888547016845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024254170763316,0.0,0.2123789444161216,0.0,0.0,0.12920599182884193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954519257041392,0.0,0.14384923386462434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156086139940752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21943075003679405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352033951126724,0.0,0.1203408459834852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028395467949033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347759136220962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676605726045151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,azurasage,2019/05/17,"I just fainted (and fell and passed out) for the first time and I’m terrified I don’t even have anyone to tell this to but you guys here. I just realized how bad it is getting. I got up to look out the kitchen slider and my vision went black. I fell and hit my head on the tile and woke up on the ground not knowing what happened, just thinking that my head hurts. There is a grape sized lump there now and my heart is pounding. My BMI is only 17 so I can’t go to the doctor for fainting or they’ll know. I don’t think I have a concussion but my hands feel very weak. Please tell me what to do",-0.027508305647838682,1.9550839069767465,1.4500830564784053,101.07784883720932,85.89922480620154,4.615946843853823,17.74141749723145,5.773587663045528,-0.6681698781838317,460,11,114,3,14,147,81,129,0.121,0.8340000000000001,0.045,-0.8962,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,1,10,3,0,0,7,0,11,10,4,1,0,23,25,12,0,0,7,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,1,5,9,1,0,6,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,3,4,17,0,13,20,0,15,0,1,2,0,5,7,0,1,3,74,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436730750999072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156325434169456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21031262915048984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571446735112558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389446223803517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17477714604333372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735233951085277,0.0,0.11677632199923516,0.0,0.16433733110599966,0.0,0.0,0.2034528061845424,0.1817010884761054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217537803311167,0.0,0.0,0.24348916525628564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21996550909444595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22584765185829744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254746305345495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562731896990179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255501257770961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591888572825675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633204920089097,0.0,0.0,0.11981427296684027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16953860361870104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904776189807246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lzxcvbm,2019/05/17,"I emailed a therapist for the first time The email had sat in my drafts for weeks, and I was told by a psychologist to get help months ago. I finally did it :))",4.232727272727273,4.143658484848487,5.1480303030303025,87.54204545454546,70.21212121212122,10.236363636363636,28.62121212121212,10.125756701596842,2.2422848484848483,122,4,30,3,2,40,28,33,0.0,0.912,0.08800000000000001,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,4,0,5,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277885135537265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050769716503533,0.0,0.3145354993389958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319529170526456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24785638572848603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951556377956863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4293442004287024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156222539886316,0.0,0.0,0.3533415580128492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966159847251826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HolisticlyImprobable,2019/05/17,Self care = not counting alcohol calories God bless Echo falls wine,6.5500000000000025,9.172894000000003,4.823333333333334,81.855,67.33333333333334,8.133333333333335,37.0,8.841846274778883,3.5338999999999987,56,3,9,1,1,16,12,12,0.0,0.4970000000000001,0.503,0.7964,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5909964059653211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5638275908766105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5769070080197941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moon--princess,2019/05/17,"Exercise question I'm trying to increase my deficit by working out daily but I pretty much only do cardio. A friend was giving me a little shit for not wanting to do a little strength training too but my goal is NOT to build muscle, just to slim down (fuck my stupid butterfly aesthetics). But am I halting progress by not doing strength? My mentality is always been just basic CICO.",4.587499999999999,6.7229560833333375,5.478888888888887,77.155,71.5,7.022222222222222,31.44444444444445,7.793537801064563,2.5029277777777765,306,14,49,4,6,100,52,72,0.11900000000000001,0.611,0.27,0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,5,3,6,3,0,3,0,8,4,1,0,0,12,12,3,0,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,7,3,9,10,2,5,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,0,37,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223187989356538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20723303586867767,0.2479733594051964,0.0,0.2573096680925438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5376717858882273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27031171235128343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717915483592294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040002175780359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728852912514924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30047783205886985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753331818456379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210986275451665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820839532883438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19527388382572491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,help-ana-mia,2019/05/17,"Letting go of ana buddies I have two “ana buddies” on tumblr currently. They try to encourage me into my anorexic behaviors and to avoid my bulimic ones. (I’m absolutely shit at that now btw) Being the one in the group, even on my restive days, who eats the most is devastating. I just want to be anorexic again. I like them a lot because they’re in this with me, and they’re not creeps getting off to my suffering. I just... want to leave... but I have no other friends. I’m not underweight, not by a long shot. But I want to recover. At least recover from bulimia. And they are NOT helping me with that. I’m just rambling.",1.6094727047146409,3.9054354435483885,3.4509677419354863,87.30991315136481,81.66129032258064,7.363771712158807,27.28039702233251,8.384062270229773,2.1003952853598022,481,22,100,11,13,161,77,124,0.11199999999999999,0.7929999999999999,0.095,-0.4969,1,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,3,0,6,6,1,1,5,0,7,2,1,0,0,21,15,5,0,3,9,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,3,0,0,16,3,19,12,3,14,0,1,0,0,8,8,1,2,6,74,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604382029890787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508675720064375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619327685700262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690732298295481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19777051200628304,0.0,0.13373966037017018,0.0,0.14548006792042462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715788648642431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27104722853836954,0.0,0.2617582153868661,0.0,0.1250595296601342,0.0,0.0,0.2265353890704351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176261413568341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469190980107511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627611187457449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379449491430402,0.0,0.25005652775412096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45295319662792993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LunaticalPitties,2019/05/17,Cereal is the devil That is all.,-1.1085714285714268,0.971909571428572,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,96.14285714285714,8.514285714285714,7.0,8.841846274778883,0.7239714285714287,25,0,5,1,1,10,6,7,0.423,0.5770000000000001,0.0,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heartfeltregret,2019/05/17,"Guys, I figured out a way to eat anything you want without any of the calories! Alright, you ready for this?? It’s called ‘lucid dreaming’.",2.2867948717948714,4.98312742307693,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,82.46153846153845,3.466666666666667,31.743589743589745,3.1291,1.1775282051282048,107,6,19,0,3,33,25,26,0.0,0.7559999999999999,0.244,0.6654,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749567168429822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332727265333953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128638120547077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137282014785741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003480143964826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23848296698158794,0.3209365268614803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38975749680772015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrwawy00025,2019/05/17,"Try a quest bar, they said. It tastes good and will keep you full, they said. WRONG. 

I mean, not actually because everyone has their taste preferences and likes and dislikes blah blah. 

I saw a post here recently about protein helping you stay fuller longer. I always knew that was a thing but I guess seeing people actually say it’s true made me finally wanna try it. So I bought a quest bar for lunch, chocolate chip cookie dough flavor. 

It tastes so bad that if it wasn’t so stupidly expensive I would throw it out and run to wawa to carb up :( send help I’m at work and I can’t bake it like people do to make it taste better",2.211428571428573,4.340778000000004,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,78.52380952380952,6.4222222222222225,20.81746031746032,7.492282038375204,0.568774603174603,492,13,105,7,12,156,87,126,0.158,0.701,0.142,-0.5028,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,3,2,5,8,1,0,4,0,7,8,0,2,1,19,19,10,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,2,0,3,1,0,11,6,8,1,3,2,2,3,3,3,0,0,8,10,13,5,9,9,1,11,0,0,2,0,11,4,0,2,4,57,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.3516474526943833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499191099974637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504376723699596,0.1098323310949337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934916412274136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721638731785642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973716897807764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15112131072846274,0.0,0.0,0.19848185293556453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415335212706828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014683201626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604772354198348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048489124055716,0.12026747071883423,0.0,0.0,0.19626218611108448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498197787818965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255678205804995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789998013945693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34277325779266554,0.14328150906258952,0.0,0.0,0.14357526322216554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204139395393507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119699526645385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244652488914208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116873785772654,0.0,0.0,0.1279903620897404,0.19699186465962107,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,realizingthingsig,2019/05/17,"[kylie voice] like, realizing things (tw for a few numbers) top three reasons I need to recover: for myself, for loved ones and for the kids I'll be working with this summer.

so I hit two pounds under my Ultimate goal weight this morning. probably because I got my wisdom teeth taken out and used it as a ""healthy"" reason to basically just eat yogurt and protein shakes. surprise! I didn't even notice I lost another 5.4 pounds and feel like I don't look any different, let alone ""sick enough"". and somehow it worked as a wake up call for me. I am a pound away from underweight and it isn't enough. 

qualifiers: my body image overall isn't horrible most days and I know (and often see in the mirror) that I am not fat. I try to eat at least 1000 about half the time because I'm very active. I can usually eat in social situations and feel okay/logical about it. 

as I type them out I'm realizing my qualifiers suck and if anything, they're also reasons to recover because they give me hope. anyways. eating more is really hard. I've done it before and I want to believe I can do it again. today I've had 220 calories (usually I IF until one pm but not today bitch!) and I've planned out the rest of my cals. I know intuitive eating won't work for me at first, because my intuition is wack, so I'm trying a general, non-obsessive, varied meal plan approach. 

reasons I have anorexia: ADHD that was diagnosed about a yr ago (chose to be unmedicated), parents have unhealthy relationship with food.

I'm only eighteen. I am a friend, a girlfriend, a sister, a daughter, a student. I have my whole life ahead of me. food is gonna be around the rest of my life (and newsflash, brain! consuming it in healthy amounts is the way you can stick around to live it!). so I'm starting recovery today. I know I'll be recovering forever, but I'd rather have to be gentle with myself for the rest of my life than keep doing what got me here. 

mantra: what do we say to the god of eating disorders? not today.",2.772606324972738,4.769409997455477,4.402374409305708,83.4990687022901,76.25190839694656,7.544863685932387,26.750199927299164,8.418075326091056,1.9632059469283891,1551,61,304,30,35,520,216,393,0.032,0.873,0.095,0.9609,2,1,0,0,0,0,66.0,1,1,2,10,17,11,2,1,19,0,31,21,5,5,0,51,58,25,0,6,9,3,4,2,2,2,6,2,0,1,15,22,11,1,11,0,0,2,8,4,0,6,8,8,40,7,47,41,11,32,0,1,2,1,16,14,2,6,17,200,55,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549870474416906,0.0,0.07043887524256473,0.0,0.0,0.0822993763770283,0.0,0.06354628002904722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05403735030349191,0.08332355310322799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539101862581985,0.14147727241902658,0.0,0.0,0.07465780777295909,0.0,0.0,0.19375885952855926,0.0,0.06761689174609209,0.08952723406872838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826512882107299,0.0,0.08870663571068617,0.08114028526306473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05124685767304424,0.0,0.0,0.08065295201938953,0.0,0.0830215924583885,0.0910711206801212,0.0,0.0,0.08131791502595034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878609843126371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421238945992464,0.0,0.05248435363513798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035744166796527,0.05676815763369876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06759091878204543,0.1921731868604496,0.0,0.06139267287437851,0.0,0.0,0.076227847622861,0.0,0.0,0.1271071355849891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118295718680341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892437531164548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063008501058217,0.0,0.0,0.13101183970086994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125597859056181,0.16838053200957595,0.07764290759387163,0.0,0.07016700617495257,0.0,0.0667286417321545,0.0,0.08674290686220698,0.0,0.07171817512779262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892057363631975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090468792897903,0.0,0.0,0.10769194295948363,0.060434952234193276,0.0,0.0,0.08823390728406236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567421368637683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05090583040374395,0.3268034963389612,0.0,0.0853131849976035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06319191605680775,0.0,0.0,0.06332147142173036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931938665451652,0.0,0.08100219980387358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05624409703126239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052791476648327305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04633533031271514,0.0,0.301285334044715,0.0,0.0,0.10789989331981642,0.0,0.07762349630780138,0.0,0.0,0.06863024602605397,0.17503384099079206,0.06556503665972345,0.046869150083572814,0.06307378021648244,0.0,0.09676414226308372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871724938927195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354934198163885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VodkaSodaSpirit,2019/05/17,"DAE just wanna be taken care of? like...do not force feed me or anything.

but does anyone else get sick satisfaction over having someone else fawning over you? i 100% do not consider my own needs important so when my bf is making me drink water and petting my hair and checking up on me to see how i’m feeling it’s just...so satisfying. yes let’s pretend i’m important and deserve care just like everyone else! realtalk i *dont* feel worthy of that kind of treatment usually so when it’s not only offered but like, pushed, it just does something to me idk",2.3243636363636355,4.652965618181816,3.971818181818183,84.3977272727273,79.18181818181819,6.545454545454546,27.272727272727273,7.686295010490155,1.8012727272727274,438,19,83,7,11,146,73,110,0.059000000000000004,0.669,0.272,0.9805,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,9,5,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,2,0,18,17,11,0,2,9,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,4,3,3,0,2,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,4,10,5,10,14,1,8,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,5,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924157354477092,0.1893862438639459,0.1521042138622423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769050800584628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235023199394394,0.0,0.21662632271249466,0.18106883471516566,0.0,0.0,0.4632200828619682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661864339242409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691719061340145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656913985064454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19247816830289372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900725214034908,0.0,0.27090448359099484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337941247736355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370534933023061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057604687250552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472902981725341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661087596608442,0.1422957221773819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035706534527115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,back-on-mybullshit,2019/05/17,Deleted cronometer and LoseIt from my phone today I've been vegan since the fall and since I was worried about not getting the right nutrition I've been meticulously tracking everything in cronometer and LoseIt (also since I'm overweight and do genuinely need to lose weight). Anyway after fixating on my diet for the past 8-ish months I've only lost 15 pounds because of the constant bingeing and restricting. I'm constantly thinking about food and I'm honestly sick of it. I'm gonna start following an exchange diet again (I didn't realize there was a vegan version until I looked it up) since that's what my psychologist recommended to me when I was in therapy for my ED. IDK how long this will last but I'm trying to be healthy for a little while at least. Still not ready to get rid of my food scale or HappyScale though.,5.724602991944764,7.072867455696205,6.218147295742234,76.0647698504028,67.48101265822785,9.542922899884926,32.08515535097813,9.800150414767053,3.240650632911393,670,28,117,15,11,217,106,158,0.098,0.856,0.045,-0.6226,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,0,7,0,9,7,0,1,0,15,23,14,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,6,1,2,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,7,2,10,1,20,13,2,23,0,2,1,0,1,7,0,1,14,71,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247681193444894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510756766037676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372016337095109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402195713792487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773169271601017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302669049202706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717608577250422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637175170661027,0.0,0.13807166347385927,0.13101643607662736,0.17454504709133664,0.1703128704107408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453265911703106,0.0,0.0,0.1156859089146015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186592721003908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893752848685474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332391400984711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5162412117950957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043085775614052,0.0,0.12459675665077855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842101110614114,0.0,0.0,0.09997050028566212,0.15328760679617984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788751008576928,0.0,0.0,0.1059264740660727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18998877738600797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844459025562124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,platypuslost,2019/05/17,"My ex has sent me spiraling again TW: will include numbers. 

So my ex fiancé was horrible to me about my weight. Always saying I was too big and needed to lose. Told me he would resent me forever if I couldn’t lose the weight. Got angry with me if I was tired or sick and skipped a day of exercise. One time he even told me that I should walk to my bus stop and back in the dark by myself (over a mile and a half late at night) because it would give me more exercise. Always comparing me to his very thin ex gf. Talking about how he worried about my health because I was overweight. I was 5’3 and 125. Obviously not thin, but within a healthy BMI and not super obese, which was the way his words and actions made it seem. 

We broke up seven months ago. I’ve been slowly trying to regain my sense of self worth and rebuild my life. We still talk sometimes because I seem to have this horrible sense of obligation and guilt about being his friend. 

He called me up last week and started talking about this new woman he’d slept with - the first since our breakup. Of course I immediately felt insecure and assumed she was thinner than me. As he kept talking about her he confirmed that she was “pretty skinny”. 

So now of course I hate myself and I’m convinced that he treated me like shit because I was too fat and if I could have just been thin enough for him everything would be okay. 

I starved and over exercised for a week. And then I gave in and ate literally the entire world for two days and then cried all night because I feel so disgusting and unworthy and unloved and alone. 

I don’t really have a point here. I just needed to get it out. Thanks if you read this. I’m just feeling very out of control right now. And I also feel too old for this. I’m a 30-year old woman still dealing with this shit. I honestly just want to get so thin that I end up in a hospital and he finally feels badly about how he treated me.",3.5469099171344567,4.832955131782949,4.250141673349372,88.35976744186048,72.61757105943154,7.4051144970150595,26.264724227033767,7.873277556716777,1.3449890225429924,1504,50,318,20,29,480,201,387,0.188,0.732,0.08,-0.9931,0,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,3,1,0,5,29,21,5,2,13,1,26,17,5,4,2,67,54,38,0,13,12,3,11,1,2,5,10,1,0,3,13,29,7,3,8,4,1,3,4,12,0,5,21,12,52,9,43,23,3,52,0,3,0,0,41,21,2,8,28,208,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314186647717826,0.0,0.0,0.09714129787465904,0.0,0.07500625629104032,0.1560866376299453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212105450110727,0.07831326657922254,0.2858768182381339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577317553738174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051968642596086,0.07488610652667038,0.0,0.10302724488679063,0.12097749668360736,0.09669650076014072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307278985979652,0.09691327772739106,0.0,0.06194941510702585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429513214712303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896983068681478,0.0,0.09005602241773074,0.10274568539575514,0.0,0.07978030775043941,0.0,0.0,0.07246426626236417,0.0,0.09800597936050527,0.08997482579155164,0.0,0.0,0.07501485833434905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926012041391679,0.0,0.0996976103619613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645384200435243,0.1058026289412199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624879448783334,0.04582253928558415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986082991789087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874923764187125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486470578711453,0.0,0.0,0.13909269417378275,0.0,0.09058589777071008,0.0,0.17603681947272484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19684002532257053,0.0,0.06355658797341747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866473476715234,0.0,0.0,0.0954212359117389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381841683742176,0.0,0.060086219999441574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009873950757072,0.0,0.0745879860963105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077131308835006,0.09784659112069323,0.0,0.1925544053967301,0.07758656787353904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276371000556638,0.0,0.06638719300101663,0.0,0.1498064779926242,0.07841517712612771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015491552178284,0.0,0.08635202523767822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05469147303629553,0.10780129634618972,0.0,0.17924652891979573,0.0,0.06367931410322245,0.0,0.09162216664151232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477815353417174,0.05532156220167031,0.07444854556395286,0.15047023051328345,0.22842929754660465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525137997655402,0.0,0.19988364326567284,0.0,0.0,0.060399639485442
EDAnonymous,SoftElevator,2019/05/17,"My husband is out of town Left yesterday, gone til Sunday. Guess who’s only drinking white cherry Gatorade zero until he gets back?!",5.372499999999999,7.702931250000002,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,69.83333333333334,6.466666666666668,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.9193166666666663,106,4,16,1,2,33,24,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,3,0,9,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,5,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511041729532306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447303033950604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385593816249129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030063446958887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961070664399079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34727175643323144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ihavetwonicedogs,2019/05/17,"Stomach pain (TW: weights mentioned) I’ve essentially relapsed and lost 30 pounds in 3 months or so, which i know is very unhealthy, I know. I finally went to the doctor two days ago which kind of motivated/scared me into getting better. I ate a normal sized dinner (a fresh roll, a chicken satay skewer, and some green beans, which is admittedly more than my body is accustomed to) that night, and woke up with excruciating belly pain. It lasted all day yesterday along with other flu symptoms (101 fever, phlegmy cough, aches and pains, etc). I went to the doctor and was tested negatively for mono and strep. I think this might be caused by constipation so I took senna tea last night, which didn’t do much, so I’m going to try dulcolax today. My belly is huge, sore (hurts to press on) and bloated to the point where I almost can’t stand without being doubled over. Do you think this is just my body reacting badly to the food I ate? Or is something really really wrong?",4.723765527950314,6.39410955978261,5.375931677018638,79.92869565217394,70.25,8.083229813664598,26.186335403726712,8.634040054169528,1.875529192546584,765,24,141,13,14,247,130,184,0.174,0.787,0.039,-0.9786,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,2,5,9,0,0,7,0,14,20,3,2,1,27,29,12,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,11,0,0,0,9,11,6,0,5,0,0,4,4,7,0,1,9,3,14,2,20,17,6,24,0,2,1,0,3,8,0,5,11,86,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134946152301302,0.0,0.12820778173115552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690322979774812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323586733248438,0.0,0.28443432122641626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315264176219771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514296610576118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620969089180933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279200508156972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14025523511368496,0.0,0.0,0.15481949296583136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689259809211669,0.0,0.07276480056012885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706328582149901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332794279523996,0.14072852324078214,0.2087299635865388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976448096831856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582407953734454,0.0,0.0,0.1021956967968448,0.0,0.09411988710769678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24030289358342624,0.1254463561613695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087123271306368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210337268485752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404400594835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856700151374054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330765830994901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16407832304008352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136147455554246,0.0,0.1422507348531818,0.08692683431935773,0.0,0.12507083362608473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564164437066548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591119330630585,0.0,0.2373780184032756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342042389093125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998532577801026,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dissociated101,2019/05/17,"I smashed my weighing scale I didn't really smash it but I dropped it on the floor, hard, about 4-5 times because I was frustrated with my ED and my constant obsession with the number. Now the numbers are all wrong and janky. My mom is also obsessed with her number and it's overall toxic and I uhhhhh don't know how to feel",3.3367164179104485,4.545245358208955,4.782268656716422,84.64295522388062,73.02985074626865,7.748059701492537,28.32537313432836,8.238735603445708,1.869808358208956,257,10,53,4,5,86,49,67,0.223,0.735,0.042,-0.9274,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,2,3,0,5,1,0,1,1,12,7,7,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,2,10,0,6,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305403170900937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328010784546409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126953612385652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19309877367853565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34210501116695113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20988079476313215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472735578838754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446532199137736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22268741452335306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4175447983518749,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hnhxr37hjkwiuf4uhe0,2019/05/17,"I want a relationship with my mom and siblings, but being around my stepdad always triggers my ed I'm going to drive down to visit family this weekend, and I'm excited to see everyone but my stepdad. I grew up with him calling me a fat, lazy, pos etc etc, and he is the reason I have an ed in the first place. Does anybody have advice for not letting him get to me other than just trying to avoid/ ignore him? It's almost inevitable at this point, and it's almost not worth going see them. If it wasn't for my baby brother and sister, I wouldn't even be going in the first place :(",8.389500000000002,5.211828950000001,8.913333333333338,73.90500000000003,63.66666666666666,10.933333333333335,34.833333333333336,8.238735603445708,2.708133333333334,454,13,91,4,5,154,76,120,0.1,0.8640000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.8263,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,3,3,0,1,6,0,8,1,1,2,0,22,17,8,0,3,6,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,8,1,2,1,1,1,6,4,2,0,2,1,2,15,1,16,12,2,18,0,0,2,0,11,9,0,3,3,67,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569124592524634,0.0,0.0,0.3395780061549811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108680181749358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509435984579504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313885726092745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14838236102711458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782065622362152,0.11199222412153208,0.0,0.0,0.16202104091791314,0.0,0.0,0.1598452829460182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28845386483911123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858766129453859,0.0,0.2890931294360213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338572613069558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858563551003255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543064607087601,0.0,0.1602882098332025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433505354817833,0.0,0.18204307899443609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27023339063929663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511953752319955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001038399053556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stubkoihjvxtyuJBLoo,2019/05/17,"""Why aren't you wearing shorts?"" I don't know maybe because I hate my thighs and body thanks for asking! I know it's getting hot out but I wasn't even wearing a sweatshirt I had a tank on and jeans I didn't think I would get called out for it but ? ??",-0.3188484848484876,1.6044244181818217,1.072272727272729,103.70174242424244,86.63636363636363,3.6666666666666665,18.25757575757576,3.1291,-1.076515151515152,193,5,49,0,6,61,38,55,0.079,0.878,0.043,-0.3923,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,6,4,4,0,0,10,14,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,1,9,1,5,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,29,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842155052093829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853263649230056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33769512297236026,0.0,0.0,0.3104360575450859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20080082011630496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176733952676043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001545325775554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341603485585336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054266371213951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798986472507168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19480226309262186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743286825749754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21596544764918493,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lavellan_,2019/05/17,"What are your safe foods? I’ve been in recovery for a number of years now, but I’m starting to slip up again. Trying to stay healthy and eat, but I nearly cried over a few bites of mac and cheese. 

I feel like knowing other people’s safe foods will allow me to justify eating them, if that makes sense?

Anyway. My favourite safe food is sushi. 💙",1.6698571428571434,3.8358954142857162,2.47,95.165,80.57142857142857,5.142857142857143,18.57142857142857,6.1826913282559595,-0.2478571428571428,269,6,58,2,7,84,58,70,0.044000000000000004,0.695,0.261,0.9424,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,2,0,12,9,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,10,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275641358357195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42396882372300176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475028066455633,0.1480007407281684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7515244951305841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385402267824987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121173836862647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828613668779674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436240899948451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14663445792844276,0.22081334458354124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065335922002414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340929168198945
EDAnonymous,happyishpenguin,2019/05/17,"My new job is STRESSING ME OUT ABOUT MY WEIGHT Before I started “recovery,” (forced into it bc of a complicated situation with my mom) I began a new job. My employer was creating a costume around me and kept saying things like “oh, I need to create a new costume for you because you’re so skinny. And you’re our tallest performer!” Or “Weird, I need to take the waist in more, your measurements are actually smaller than my mannequins” and other things that made me feel SO crazy good about myself. She also made it somewhat clear that she was excited to work with me BECAUSE I was skinny. It’s not her fault, there’s no way she could know what I’m going through and she was trying to be nice.

But now I’ve put on a few pounds. Literally three pounds. It’s not that much, right? But I feel like a WHALE dude. My stomach is so gross and bloated all the time and I’m so worried because I have another fitting tomorrow and what if I don’t fit at all? What if she has to totally change the costume??? I just want to stop eating for the next 30 years pls & thx",2.6721547248182773,4.3781961635514035,3.989657320872277,87.6341329179647,75.6822429906542,6.9985462097611615,25.907580477673932,7.793537801064563,1.3725885773624085,825,30,173,12,18,271,131,214,0.08900000000000001,0.768,0.14400000000000002,0.8472,3,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,2,0,2,11,9,0,1,10,0,12,6,4,2,4,36,27,17,0,6,8,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,13,12,5,2,3,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,8,4,29,5,21,17,7,24,0,0,0,0,11,10,0,4,13,116,42,4,0.0,0.0,0.13770372387127658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284620541978148,0.0,0.15289342461492994,0.0,0.0,0.14796691144619178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561847316892605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580593866501843,0.0,0.1200748439143691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927644916013616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266544123207667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443915123142682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426996570897036,0.10080953872841447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019648375150401,0.11835699126592884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280061265513724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755077070627345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787915666695427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670447825824877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652671897377653,0.0,0.0,0.10373262812544196,0.2092636469979434,0.0,0.4088568874163348,0.15007286969621156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185526576072816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205077984063658,0.0,0.11221692185532378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861438072814255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987890596174556,0.0,0.0,0.11797489467636015,0.16164187250272613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060977127975236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18749540698677025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228280554380199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580492769029736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323076875253442,0.1120071348890577,0.0,0.17183486224681568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273029717751027,0.1433048031306135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087068814910453
EDAnonymous,herdofthebay,2019/05/17,"Purging is now in autopilot mode I had dinner and I ate a normal person amount of food. If I don’t binge, I won’t purge.

After a while, I go to the bathroom to pee. When I get to the bathroom, without thinking, I just quickly and quietly vomit all my dinner out. 

I’m rinsing my mouth and I have the urge to pee.

“Oh yeah, that’s why I came here.” 

Fuck.",-1.4284808612440223,0.5736714868421089,1.5440191387559814,96.29858851674645,97.28947368421049,3.8162679425837327,18.751196172248804,5.565023196281405,-0.2992736842105259,267,9,61,2,11,93,54,76,0.054000000000000006,0.912,0.034,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,5,1,5,9,3,0,1,11,12,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,3,1,11,0,9,8,2,9,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,5,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4019328795311625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249405933765267,0.0,0.0,0.3248837591673204,0.18360336790429266,0.0,0.19972108766542707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34431871596363106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068479303794658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251768773337428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171034829094453,0.0,0.0,0.33875804111159097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunnylover9000,2019/05/17,Switching it up y'all! Going from not eating to binge/purge. My teeth already hurt. Wish me luck!! 🙃🙃,-1.3107142857142868,0.4029701904761929,0.5051190476190471,100.79196428571431,109.0,2.1,14.773809523809526,3.1291,-1.409104761904762,78,2,17,0,4,25,20,21,0.136,0.601,0.263,0.4898,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4907609979941084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550609005521573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527453555417166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760833347992803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114075314413876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DogTeeth_Val,2019/05/17,"I'm pretty sure it came from self loathing I feel like one of the reasons I developed an eating disorder is because I never got to experience being the apple of somebody's eye. Christ, I hate how much of a brat I sound like right now. Looking back it seems like my relationships, platonic or romantic, were all very one sided. I tend to bond with people I like and make an effort to apply myself as a good companion, however I notice that a big source of unhappiness throughout my life is that I am usually deemed as an insouciant being, if not just downright negligible. 

At times I start to doubt if I am who I think I am. Am I actually a nice, caring person? Or is it that I'm required to push extra hard to be loved? This self loathing is a big pin in my bulimic behaviours, I think. If I could believe my personality was enough maybe I wouldn't be so inclined to punish myself the way that I do. Sometimes, in the gaps between my disordered behaviours I will find bouts of pseudo-happiness. During this time my disordered eating fizzles back. And then this is when I notice it the most - the indifference. This has made me very nervous about expressing myself emotionally. I shrivel up with the thought that being guarded could be perceived as a cold personality.

I'm aware of how entitled I'm coming off. People don't *have* to like me, love me, or do nice things just because I do those things. But I really think being deprived of such for as long as I have has done me some considerable damage. Oh, imagine if somebody looked foward to seeing me, or that they think of me when I'm not around. A dream beyond me.",4.891363636363637,6.076295582802551,6.098019687319052,76.76410538506082,69.28662420382165,9.148581354950784,29.877822814128557,9.457814108942452,2.7206993630573253,1279,49,238,27,22,429,170,314,0.113,0.755,0.132,0.7203,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,2,15,18,2,2,17,0,31,6,1,5,3,47,57,22,0,7,13,0,2,5,1,2,1,1,0,5,18,7,2,2,12,1,0,3,5,6,0,2,7,8,41,12,35,39,6,27,1,2,4,2,12,11,0,12,17,176,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.09818318501910572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956636353924256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472944423913967,0.0,0.12266476554682346,0.0,0.0,0.11335571652120995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507377761773105,0.10258104322399997,0.0,0.0,0.0866686703551468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066162266009046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34593156752144105,0.0,0.0,0.10296141302322707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059031981152893,0.0,0.11317540348288978,0.0,0.10395950049456353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841822932894397,0.0,0.0,0.0508726505003536,0.07187751583185173,0.0,0.0,0.0919579072302096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438890427269925,0.08046892422776084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710376646085903,0.09012894456020272,0.09933391123745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710655107826942,0.24577067287527404,0.0,0.0,0.08903880440492469,0.16897814558257634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816132311864692,0.0952018818357907,0.06715955562248717,0.0,0.10107867504393032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739616876975597,0.0,0.07759848238089273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290957594842717,0.0,0.0,0.1363551268473465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950393425936386,0.2635525902543886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023589775785136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445487722868454,0.10344630009651803,0.0,0.1080200602052091,0.0,0.08592243647846108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017505331033978,0.09159374661439136,0.2099213436288117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950823233249896,0.0,0.07121397176386332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482599256569414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368481052569758,0.2578734433190279,0.0,0.07987500393936252,0.1173357944647908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081033982206542,0.16603152742542704,0.0,0.07986143685229835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tobethinspo,2019/05/17,"How many of you can actually fast? Cause I can't I can't fast for shit. Makes me feel terrible cause there's these normies on other subreddits that I shall not mention who can fast for days on ends, and here I am feeling like a fraud",1.2526530612244926,3.379523244897964,2.440163265306122,95.02269387755103,81.85714285714286,6.3689795918367365,22.044897959183675,7.554174236665415,0.6668253061224494,185,6,43,3,5,59,38,49,0.138,0.723,0.139,-0.2444,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,6,1,1,4,0,8,9,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,5,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,6,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.29870946846110064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6288980886056063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974091927848944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711137664139438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095467393364946,0.2186779186706846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495450102654835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20432414326519455,0.3103373805531993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142072763826208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,THE_KIWIS_SHALL_RISE,2019/05/17,"Why is puking so goddamn addictive? (Possible TW , numbers) I ate 1300 calories. That's a normal amount. My rational brain knows that I shouldn't gain weight on that. But my ED brain wants me to ram my fingers down my throat. So. God. Damn. Bad. Why? Puking feels like shit. It stinks. And yet I know that as soon as my dad leaves the house, I'm going to do it. Fuck. Fuck. I just want to be skinny. This fucking sucks. *Fuck.*",-1.4059814241486066,-0.2093469294117636,0.17591331269350086,101.76950464396288,118.29411764705885,3.2012383900928802,13.88544891640867,5.399115186594226,-0.9932352941176464,321,8,72,3,19,101,64,85,0.335,0.605,0.06,-0.9829,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,5,10,7,0,2,0,4,13,6,0,0,10,17,6,0,4,2,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,9,0,0,1,4,10,1,7,14,1,5,0,0,0,4,1,2,7,0,3,37,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440189037573254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123580624187232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776616927453525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855289099904219,0.12084303690594694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6255174083691013,0.0,0.0,0.0961336275113675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951800124495297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859242838475832,0.0,0.0,0.1791087513139516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826396798747045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573416243902206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069474945254972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736332672582376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19954180897839807,0.0,0.0,0.20598295421390872,0.0,0.0,0.3052687972503059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jasmine9898,2019/05/17,"Stupid crushes and kpop A straight girl I’ve been in love with foreeever constantly posts about her obsession with JinSoul and how she’s in love with her and “crushes” on her.....cuts to me making Inspo boards of JinSoul to look at instead of eating (-: 
As if that’ll change anything lmao 
Anyways stan loona drink some water whatever",3.4658313817330217,6.443940360655741,3.090538641686184,88.4260655737705,79.81967213114754,5.4529274004683845,28.386416861826696,6.868970318607317,1.61924168618267,266,12,46,3,7,79,49,61,0.152,0.628,0.22,0.7351,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,1,0,2,5,0,2,0,10,6,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,2,13,4,1,7,0,0,1,2,6,5,0,2,1,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564475689288975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296666021962881,0.0,0.0,0.3367647771115845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305281893856981,0.0,0.31887856067345416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616933993345305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5625222559930341,0.0,0.20801757941007207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984584601302809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainz_dope,2019/05/17,"LOL “ana-coach” guy messaged me with rapey and abusive message. Like damn I just made my account, and already pedophiles and rapist creep males are hittin me up in the dm’s. 

He admitted he’s a guy and that I had to succumb to his every whim and be willing to do anything and be a “piece of meat for him to abuse”, or not and look somewhere else (lol what you found me) and stay a “fat fucking pig” and to leave edanonymous. LOL 

someone come get they husband cuz he wildin’. 


I just replied with something that “tr1ggEred~” him. 


Men, amirite?


(but seriously, lol. Reddit should do something to target these men. Anyone else I hope you lead him on with a fake account and find out his information. Would be hilarious how scared he’d be when doxxed.)",1.6457187257187265,4.323269706293708,2.113927738927739,94.05670357420358,86.2027972027972,4.296658896658896,24.72766122766123,5.82211442006289,0.5187656565656562,580,24,116,4,18,177,97,143,0.155,0.7240000000000001,0.121,-0.7604,0,0,2,0,1,0,20.0,0,2,1,1,4,8,3,1,5,4,12,3,1,4,0,31,20,15,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,4,15,1,0,4,0,2,2,1,6,0,0,3,1,17,2,15,9,1,8,0,0,1,2,22,4,2,2,2,71,21,1,0.0,0.4322256884070998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012816973769182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753753639942528,0.18688920529106084,0.15009873510431715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712048259393596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047417151132499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367892141369482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16670926994879076,0.0,0.0,0.19999095502475986,0.0,0.16862482346446492,0.09529588545667377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612071316255005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811632415601915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19313407535692007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911087840937726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531691190886379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725902284712046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261309650022614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545459773216952,0.2808391347911535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944129348780288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957092956707394,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quietpandaa,2019/05/17,"Rewarding myself with a Pop Tarts OMAD... I'm officially under 80 pounds now, which I never thought I'd say again after high school. My parents are probably going to kill me when I go home for the summer this weekend, but meh. 

My FAVORITE food when I was little was Pop Tarts, and since it's been like eight years since I've had any I think I'm going to get a box and have a pack as my OMAD for a few days, even if it's the junkiest thing ever. I'm trying to decide between S'mores, Hot Fudge Sundae, and Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough. I'm horrible at making decisions, though. Any thoughts?",5.395462184873949,5.335835100840338,6.013109243697483,82.23042016806724,67.73949579831933,8.480672268907563,28.764705882352942,7.957251820313856,1.7507613445378143,463,14,93,5,7,151,86,119,0.078,0.8320000000000001,0.09,0.3611,1,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,0,6,0,6,1,0,1,2,14,18,9,1,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,4,1,0,5,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,6,4,9,2,11,12,1,18,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,12,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677869508310833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697920677887328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13004546806383352,0.17810030402916502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380828790263905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028680693511975,0.0,0.3356951933622468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20802746245997425,0.1974989710590948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178320923496677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619160340694424,0.1973377506539091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142709957716092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185543406864585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186255326992294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21228313674775956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15657661250030627,0.0,0.1992654591886302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257425923117864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308064559247308,0.12616059769626908,0.19344562683568303,0.3126208921176882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336769071060728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679214766113722
EDAnonymous,HotMessCentral,2019/05/17,Idk who needs to hear this today You’re goddamn beautiful and smart and amazing. I don’t know what happened today I know I had a shitty day. Maybe you feel left out maybe you binged maybe you lost your job maybe you got rejected maybe you failed a class or fought with your s/o. You’re not fat. You’re not unlovable. Idk what happened and I don’t know you but I know that I care about you and it WILL get better and you got this. Ily all ❤️,-1.1090175438596468,0.9425564842105274,0.2947368421052641,104.22982456140352,99.94736842105264,3.3754385964912283,13.701754385964911,5.2151,-1.3443824561403508,346,7,84,2,15,108,56,95,0.139,0.628,0.23399999999999999,0.9420000000000001,1,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,10,0,3,1,9,1,0,2,0,4,1,1,0,1,18,19,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,7,1,0,5,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,2,16,4,4,13,1,5,0,3,0,0,13,2,0,1,3,43,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861161044463915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826473371238594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378345980299396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352840001059302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597561594324544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326103000668217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571877273924644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389819245175385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430628060459327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196747185474263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799856492683154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874241442877107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7304664862232013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782661611070224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756811080484699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pastelxbones,2019/05/17,"Did your parents ever make comments that messed up your body image? My mom definitely has body image issues of her own and has taken that out on me pretty much my whole life. She's made so many comments about my weight, body, and diet that have honestly just fucked me up a bit.

I didn't even realize until very recently how one specific comment affected me. When I was in treatment about five years ago now (I was 13-14), the doctors wanted me to weigh the minimum healthy weight for my height. My mom objected and said I should weigh 10 lbs less (which is underweight) because I have a ""small frame"" and would look ""big"" at that weight. From that point on, I've always thought: ""I'm not like the other girls, I'm not supposed to be a healthy weight. To look skinny I need to be underweight because I have a small frame and if I weigh a pound more than that I will look fat!"" It took me five years to realize that my mom planted this idea in my head and it's completely irrational.

She also told me numerous times throughout my childhood/teen years that I was ""skinny fat."" So even though I was underweight, I still managed to look fat in her eyes. Yet, she compared me to my friends and said I looked like a twig compared to my ""curvy"" peers (we were prepubescent, gross!). No matter how my body looked it was always bad in some way.",4.561938083121291,5.528790851145043,4.724071246819339,87.1183630195081,69.87786259541986,8.112298558100084,27.91433418150975,8.344100000000001,1.7157499575911794,1041,35,215,15,18,325,144,262,0.083,0.846,0.071,-0.4761,1,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,2,0,0,16,8,1,0,9,0,19,22,11,5,1,29,38,16,0,5,4,4,4,2,1,3,5,2,0,1,14,9,13,0,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,3,15,13,39,4,25,18,7,29,0,0,7,1,20,15,1,2,14,140,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079817975936801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200761557826132,0.14984652154547082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075182416419151,0.10977915202461316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983039913952604,0.4000713471950394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440871456861187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216316001739483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894553571680418,0.08144934379288148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956725060285927,0.08324360430402579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241043037121707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164795537721592,0.0,0.09398183875522273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360026432319059,0.08798124201514809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536822970325381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520117258195968,0.060104619559821174,0.0912898000953902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31637296678432586,0.0,0.0,0.06619220541083594,0.06676598557957106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101568829802366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998245804120244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512004800890531,0.0,0.0,0.09160643409362963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890692189727165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17130364621264374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190871676470212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846711099824321,0.07148434321246643,0.05250498772429522,0.0,0.0,0.08604025708276909,0.10004144873728997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429517436756186,0.05310988684396712,0.07147220131249449,0.0,0.4385940548938719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053015827619352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639641955946022,0.0,0.0,0.17395485001640354
EDAnonymous,vxxrihye,2019/05/17,":////// i wish I knew what I looked like so I would know what to fix. i just know it’s something, definitely, but I really have no idea what or how. like do I need to gain? do I need to lose more? tbh at this point I would pay someone to just TELL ME honestly, because even if people do tell me and they say I look fine, obviously I can’t trust that ?? idk",-1.9022807017543848,-0.04773421052631477,0.853684210526314,100.22245614035087,101.63157894736842,4.63859649122807,14.228070175438594,6.42735559955562,-0.6994877192982458,264,6,68,4,12,90,52,76,0.113,0.603,0.28300000000000003,0.9427,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,17,15,6,0,6,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,14,5,5,12,1,2,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,2,2,43,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417564115575525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453790926881886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484748576278248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419309256688827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215067056710648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696701481273873,0.2462442703578737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264142146234226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259499938354704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807296843107093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100666053893082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503851691557054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864965819119896,0.16944969909067367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.384767749486465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531130493269294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127164601524213,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Swanabe,2019/03/08,"I literally don’t know anyone who’s eating ISN’T disordered in some way or another I’m sure I’ve met at least one person who doesn’t engage in some kind of disordered eating patterns,  but no one who I’ve ever been close enough with to observe their eating habits has been totally free from disordered behavior surrounding food. Not a single family member, friend, romantic partner, or coworker. 

Some of the disordered behaviors I’ve seen (other than the straight forward cases of clear cut EDs, which I’ve also seen a lot of): 

-Obsession with only eating health foods 
-Obsession with maintaining perfect Macros
-Complete lack of awareness (or caring) about nutrition, resulting in malnutrition related symptoms and health problems. 
-Good old fashion food addiction. 
-Habitual comforting eating 
-Eating very few calories in favor of drinking a ton of alcohol. 
-Hiding or hoarding foods 
-Eating fast food for every meal every day 
-Fear of spicy foods to the point of not even taking a tiny bite of dish to gauge the spice level 
-Obsession with getting “enough” protein (enough usually means an exorbitant amount). 
-Genuine fear of carbs
-Refusing to eat foods that taste “too good”, even foods which are relatively low calorie and healthy, because “it’s just too good, there has to be a catch” or “it just makes me feel guilty” or “if I have that I’ll want to eat something delicious again tomorrow”. 
-Excessive avoidance of foods that *could* potentially cause food poisoning (ie: bagged leafy greens, canned stuff, sushi, seafood etc)
-Obsessively eating a certain food every day because it’s a “super food” (I’ve seen people do this with everything from Kale to Skim milk). 
-Eating the exact same basic combination of foods for every meal, every day. 

There’s a lot more but those are the things they come to mind right now. Does anyone else sometimes think “what does **disordered eating** even mean in a country/world where so much of the population is obese, malnourished, or otherwise hung up in some way about eating?”?





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EDAnonymous,Butterfly_Rose97,2019/03/08,"DAE still buy clothes your original size? I still buy clothes size 8. 

Baggy clothes hide most weight loss, but also I'm terrified of putting the weight back on. So all my new clothes don't really fit right.

It's like saving money in a way I guess. It's not wasted if I can still wear it when I crash and fail right? I'd likeke to buy clothes my actual size though.

Anyone else?

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EDAnonymous,hannibalthecannibxl,2019/03/08,"I'm an instagram influencer So I have a decent following on instagram  (almost 40k, I'm staying anonymous) and a lot of people keep pointing out that I've gained weight, and it's honestly triggering me quite a bit. I used to be really unhealthy and underweight and I gained some weight and I look healthier now, but with all the messages and people pointing it out it's really messing with me and I've been fasting a lot the last week or two. 
I'm just really not liking the body I'm in anymore, I never really did but for a brief time I was semi happy. 
And I get a lot of free clothes to model in, and a company sent me a skirt that's too small and that's just making me wanna lose weight faster. 
Idk, it sucks. I came a long way and was doing a lot better but I feel like I'm slowly going back to how I used to be. 
Sorry for the rant, I don't have anybody to talk about this with. My boyfriend doesn't really understand my relationship with food or how I feel mentally but he tries his best to and my friends and family don't seem to care much, so it's nice to have a place to vent. ",2.4342115477923336,3.7240089301310064,4.417954876273655,86.0477086365842,75.41921397379912,8.232993692382339,23.639252789907808,8.841846274778883,1.5473520621057737,851,25,185,18,18,292,122,229,0.095,0.748,0.157,0.9533,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,6,10,13,1,0,16,0,13,5,1,7,2,50,34,23,0,1,9,0,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,9,20,4,1,4,0,1,5,5,3,0,1,6,6,20,11,24,26,9,25,0,1,1,0,7,9,1,9,11,121,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324120157824055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215281436595796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695761862549757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867877957425528,0.10001706218873517,0.12346270300536052,0.12561516887216925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293424366265095,0.11530065630031985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660921248921956,0.0,0.1143612855958016,0.08079002209552667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674634389937582,0.0,0.08737143505746202,0.0,0.05908376295384282,0.0,0.06427046265653967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038417798313066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051772624776067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218173640772896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049807641363676,0.0,0.0,0.10007923746364987,0.09496535848020947,0.12651643919148595,0.0,0.3845731718742907,0.0,0.0,0.07548705488597446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396600991715335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313262240847191,0.0,0.08722036416502779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680182878875307,0.0,0.11815279143632824,0.0,0.21380924737573148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028290748224785,0.0,0.0,0.36223503937251533,0.0,0.0,0.12141408825472673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029509816407648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659265126680366,0.0,0.12053666015535094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089577453374002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594246697105426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677926436913468,0.0,0.11047045109874393,0.117728497608252,0.0,0.1953432813037046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976391536640384,0.0907122962217914,0.41313180754954826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abqnabra,2019/03/08,really close to relapsing hey so i havent restricted since like november-december and its been great but now that schools back i feel the pressure all over again and i dont wanna go down that path again im so scared haaahh help,0.7981055900621108,3.344010673913046,1.8511180124223607,93.49543478260873,94.43478260869566,6.976397515527951,19.614906832298136,7.957251820313856,1.2463515527950315,185,6,39,5,7,58,38,46,0.187,0.6509999999999999,0.162,-0.305,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,3,2,4,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601716063472773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39654572469283295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710808083736734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229309374315848,0.0,0.0,0.3730339928459429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267900422189212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36547794555799396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530157157725162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21675679154622732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387491222272493,0.3424300292156826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798880595169445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sentienttrashcan33,2019/03/08,"whyyyyyy Some context or else confusion: my bedroom's wiring is messed up and if you flip the switch to it off it turns out the power to the whole room not just the light. I plugged in an extension cord into my room's outlet and then plugged it up to the treadmill in the next room. About half an hour of me using it and my brothers decide to play the Xbox one in the same room,my older brother goes to flip the switch to the room off and ends up turning my bedroom switch off instead. Realizing his mistake he turns my room's switch back on and all the data on it was set back to 0. When I realized this I internally panicked and just decided to stop after burning barely more than 100 cals(pathetic I know). I'm not mad at my brother as it was an honest mistake but I am upset about the treadmill and needed to vent.",4.436837234621663,5.0655634730538965,5.239891126837236,84.53563418617313,69.95808383233533,7.749373979314097,29.55307566684813,7.686295010490155,1.714597604790419,648,24,134,7,11,211,95,167,0.08199999999999999,0.884,0.034,-0.7215,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,8,8,1,2,15,0,4,0,0,1,1,30,11,13,0,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,7,9,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,6,0,2,2,1,14,2,29,9,5,30,0,0,0,0,6,19,0,4,10,95,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33884493288612544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405993789212896,0.0,0.195149627937524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698360921757215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210892472951883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633741178227718,0.0,0.0,0.2343266309985633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493033340631003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420824275488398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7189770580202146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19029695755634707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24599391112683786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squamouspuppies,2019/03/08,"Someone asked me why my tongue was so red. It's totally because I had a cupcake, and not because Jeffree Star inspired me to eat icing straight from a container. And I totally didn't buy three different flavors to try. And I definitely didn't throw them all away, only to keep going back to the trash and fishing them out. Yup.",4.104374999999997,5.7745844375,5.25825,80.16175000000003,71.8125,8.245000000000001,34.675,8.841846274778883,3.16156625,260,14,48,5,5,86,49,64,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.7783,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,4,1,0,0,3,12,7,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,4,2,8,1,7,3,3,6,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008261872369385,0.0,0.3023282532790357,0.24743333704612436,0.0,0.39231514630559816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361975630026421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292671001867909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18287822619768684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28601791114918435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447325215003621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726479754002572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847136454621235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903615394521333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daikon_ashi,2019/03/08,"People with family from different cultures, what food were you upset to find out had more calories than you would have thought? Or was just something you'd never even thought about in terms of calorie count before developing disordered eating habits?

As for me: I'm Japanese American and last night went to a party with daifuku mochi. I was high-restricting that day and hadn't had a ton to eat earlier (plus was drinking and didn't want to throw up from eating too little as I did a couple weeks ago l o l) so I let myself indulge in a couple of pieces. Didn't even think to look up the calorie count beforehand because I was so used to having them in my past life of eating like a normal fucking human being, plus just thought ""this is just a tiny bit of rice flour and sweetened bean paste, so maybe high-carb for what it is but it couldn't be more than a cookie calorie-wise, right?"" Looked it up and found a lot of results saying 100-ish which would've been fine with me, but then dug deeper and realized that white people on MyFitnessPal and recipe sites don't fucking know the difference between different Japanese desserts and were inputting totally different shit under the same name. It actually might be as much as TWO HUNDRED AND FUCKING EIGHTY CALORIES. I was freaking devastated, omg. And I still don't know for sure bc it's really hard to find accurate calorie counts for ethnic foods! I was wondering if y'all had any similar experiences?",7.144239130434784,7.388142880434785,6.956340579710144,75.91320652173916,64.03623188405797,10.233333333333334,34.27898550724637,9.978442167317967,3.3423159420289865,1169,47,210,23,16,370,170,276,0.08800000000000001,0.89,0.022000000000000002,-0.9605,3,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,0,4,1,0,11,9,4,1,11,0,30,13,1,2,3,47,47,24,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,11,16,8,0,11,1,0,2,7,6,0,1,21,5,16,3,40,18,10,25,0,0,3,3,9,12,4,5,12,142,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.09309084613335587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456108237679473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487123502046023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05815133626639566,0.0,0.08117332273285625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414561152144763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111034357555748,0.0,0.061521279809185994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398665974989004,0.1093298624013966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344986625071376,0.0,0.3904477723020777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601375975838575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331369970728927,0.0899290340988862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17437689337633647,0.0,0.2307017627518545,0.1045946678648904,0.0,0.2645708262434855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545434443365152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20157813315501594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485216609086516,0.07775889459406214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754689403460988,0.06737964885100023,0.04660472134464042,0.0956099134879337,0.0,0.0,0.1602139770396165,0.0,0.0,0.08110062226211713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583615956283124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011980273709108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012561354448882,0.0,0.07357378335298381,0.0,0.0,0.08952086730497005,0.09346592907267856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212885714105465,0.1322684660984378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061111880384326814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146600980669956,0.0,0.07586118887937902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792063629722013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343901133755577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618182308662136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990777679149467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061124664649091824,0.0,0.22719669463279704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318613965732904,0.0,0.0,0.08238984321887552,0.0,0.0,0.05626589078118064,0.0,0.07651936441180124,0.0,0.0,0.08843125344730353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345079364588226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553041277627134,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sneeakyraccoon,2019/03/08,"Dysmorphia’s a bitch Even though I’m a bit more than 14 lbs down from my highest and my measurements are clearly a lot smaller than they used to be (I’m short so it looks like a lot more), I still can’t help but see the same stubby legs and big chest and flabby arms that I used to have. I compared an old picture and a recent picture, focusing on my legs, and my legs are logically smaller? Like in the same position, there’s a gap that wasn’t even close to being there? But being stuck in a plateau for a couple of weeks and my body dysmorphia acting up makes me just want to crawl in a hole for a month until I at least break my plateau... because I feel exactly the same as I did 14 lbs ago. ",6.436122448979592,4.469728530612247,6.888435374149663,83.07918367346942,66.41496598639455,10.304761904761904,32.564625850340136,8.841846274778883,2.2991931972789112,542,17,124,7,7,178,89,147,0.037000000000000005,0.884,0.08,0.5778,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,8,3,1,0,14,0,9,6,6,3,2,23,19,12,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,3,14,2,19,13,9,19,0,0,2,0,2,10,1,2,9,83,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19261245771607893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245658029583493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23722191854293034,0.24135767833186325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404247347024728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870329859893904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986720246556628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456433817592063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231161350005545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246696358830175,0.0,0.0,0.36946050682285136,0.0,0.0,0.14504124362503915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17343698895436058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280069155332383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454541453373893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315018439374302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352625777212605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21348408646574507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753336581601017,0.0,0.0,0.12816192986576186,0.0,0.17429510630618264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,juicypickle_,2019/03/08,"HAHAHAH why can’t I just loose weight like a normal ducking person Jesus Christ For some reason it won’t go in my head that it is very possible to eat and loose weight😩 nooo I will restrict hardcore, binge, purge repeat and end up maintaining my weight lmfaoooooo help",3.51576923076923,6.004409807692312,3.6698461538461538,87.27515384615386,75.92307692307693,6.467692307692308,23.861538461538462,7.554174236665415,1.210803076923077,218,7,40,3,5,67,44,52,0.135,0.768,0.09699999999999999,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,1,0,7,5,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,4,3,1,5,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435719620841,0.0,0.0,0.1855430404527663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905612128592545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21499379482181266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404145216412208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234462180291146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525249130153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18291570931554074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361647823674117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153872212747999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728484697026741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7652951068602247,0.0,0.0,0.18902916643784934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,darthacker666,2019/03/08,"#justrestrictionthings i'm doin a shift right now and i haven't eaten in 4 days and i feel dizzy whenever i stand up and that song that's like ""everything is gonna be alright"" is playing on the radio lmao
anyone who believes in god pray for me to get thru these next 3 and a half hours",2.3895000000000017,3.979025616666668,3.6433333333333344,90.315,76.16666666666666,6.8000000000000025,22.0,7.554174236665415,0.6163999999999992,227,6,51,3,5,74,50,60,0.032,0.718,0.25,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,4,1,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,4,3,7,6,0,10,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725978049092467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43923650558285576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25142618244108605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503792664770825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971239380003588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368473412419885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839316366335547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904649449386768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146184463910176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33293663441228005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lorabore,2019/03/08,"Went to buy junk food...came home with a cat Exactly as it sounds. 

Left the house with my boyfriend on Tuesday to buy ""groceries"", which to him means pop-tarts, frozen pizzas and cookies. 

Somewhere along the literally 5 minute drive we started talking about cats. I said I wished I could pet a cat because I was so stressed from school. So then we stopped at pet smart to ""pet the cats"". As we were walking inside, my boyfriend said ""I hate cats, so we are not getting one. We are only petting them. This is a de-stress trip to pet cats and that is it.""

Within 5 minutes of ""petting the cats"" my boyfriend was hand selected by a big fat male tabby who stuck his paw through the cage and gently tapped him on the ear. I look over a few minutes later and he has this big cat cradled in his arms, telling me we have to have him. 

So now we have a cat. And it's been 3 days and we never returned to the grocery store for the junk food run. 

And I'm thankful for this because now I get to go to the grocery store by myself today and select all the good and healthy foods I want without his influence 😍

..I was literally saved from junk food by a cat.  ",3.7007349785407726,4.4503202618025774,4.067057403433477,91.8411869635193,71.70386266094421,6.683369098712447,28.725590128755364,6.322622252153567,1.0472748927038626,883,33,197,5,16,276,132,233,0.047,0.856,0.096,0.8839,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,8,0,1,0,7,6,1,1,17,0,14,8,4,1,3,32,29,16,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,9,20,5,1,1,0,4,6,3,2,0,1,9,6,29,4,31,19,2,26,0,0,1,0,22,9,0,0,11,121,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662530769677863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088759636836446,0.0,0.0,0.08794382660802161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6595700181966833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248965455072954,0.0,0.0774990925078704,0.11437607967318647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463172017531885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678472016548712,0.0,0.0,0.15734633376572374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481604371115122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451184257426468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854092601016108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517271529720093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240411986949423,0.10371135327471173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594277488340205,0.0,0.0,0.13800816241016525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651950073894656,0.0,0.0,0.11400683481908935,0.31241016673625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960462626213983,0.11918859063963445,0.12554611796299298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925760905095082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804313199945361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641126524059176,0.0,0.0,0.15681245458872956,0.13145051968609311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justlc,2019/03/08,"I don’t know why people think it’s a good idea to tell an eating disordered person that their safe foods are bad I’ve always felt safe drinking Diet Coke until everyone around me began telling me it’s worse for me than actual soda, then I get sent an article saying it causes weight gain. I hate that I can’t even feel safe drinking or eating things that I label as safe foods. ",4.804155844155844,5.41553954545455,5.587428571428571,82.43257142857144,69.12987012987013,8.237922077922079,23.19220779220779,8.238735603445708,1.2101397402597396,303,6,59,4,5,99,57,77,0.121,0.669,0.21,0.765,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,2,7,1,0,3,0,3,10,0,1,0,12,11,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,1,10,4,5,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,4,9,5,6,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,3,31,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.16601593450863006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155632839781734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15144592773817184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204596434547626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476363308541612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949761983070448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333124043817186,0.0,0.34815749608014385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236492607052556,0.0,0.0,0.16256023511824022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601952169410336,0.0,0.16334517902536694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4114278720935789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888247456644413,0.0,0.0,0.14269146801731136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796167387800204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204865356821188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349539219942607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794217110186453,0.14854522375611193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352889858440455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973907659342666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302245259569688,0.1090082295385812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071645154907629,0.0,0.0,0.15350994143703106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733703169787477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wh7am1h3re,2019/03/08,"I just typed out a long post and it disappeared so I guess it’s a sign I need to be more concise : asking for some perspective from people who might understand? *I have never posted here because I don’t think I have the right to ‘self diagnose’ and at 228 pounds that I have an eating disorder. I’ve never been seen by a mental health professional at all so I’m trying to keep my wording general so as not to self diagnose or minimize the struggles of people with actual eating disorders . This just seemed like the best place to vent and possibly get some different viewpoints/ advice*

I FINALLY got health insurance for the first time in my life ever and I’m scared that a. Hearing the doctor say I’m obese will send me into a spiral and make me end my life or b. it will make me possibly get some mental health help and I’ll be happy with myself and I won’t be motivated to lose weight.  
I need to lose 110 pounds and it’s already seeming like an insurmountable task. I’ve restricted my calories to 300-700 and make sure I work out 2x a day. Because my BMR is 1800 so that’s just what I need to do to lose the normal recommended 2 lbs a week. 
But the real problem / reason I’m here seeking to maybe hear similar experiences / help from people who have experienced something similar- my relationship seems to be falling apart because of my dieting. My husband won’t let go of the fact that he thinks I have an eating disorder and that I’m going to die. He’s insistent. So I thought maybe I could just get help to get some perspective here to see if he’s way off base or I am??
In my head if I were to ‘get help’ for the condition he imagines I have, I’ll just be making an excuse for myself and I’ll never lose the weight that I MEDICALLY Need to. Like no one would look at me and think ‘that girl needs to take it easy and make sure she eats ENOUGH’ but rather the opposite. Anyone who sees me can tell I need to eat far less. 

I’m humiliated to post my weight on the internet anywhere (I’m literally obese and could lose well over 100 pounds before even approaching being underweight) and I’m nervous to post here if I’m doing something disrespectful in a community of people that struggle with far worse than I could ever imagine. I’m just really at the end of my rope here and I’m going to try to go to a doctor but was hoping maybe people could share their related thoughts/experiences/ something that might help me see what a good course of action would be. Because I really don’t think i need to see a doctor for anything other than a physical checkup and maybe some weight loss advice. And I’m just tired of crying every day wondering what is wrong with me. 

**disclaimer: I do post on EDMemes because I have had a history with disordered eating (binging and purging or fasting for up to 5 days at a time) but I wouldn’t presume to call myself someone with an eating disorder I really don’t want to disrespect any of the people here that are legitimately struggling. I don’t want anyone to look at my post history and think I’m being dumb or not self aware. ",3.8237072645864414,5.315794006525287,5.242762139460627,80.70480198535284,72.2300163132137,8.610169726840443,26.908784839123946,9.138037386147262,2.2064163618062542,2438,85,476,52,47,818,260,613,0.11900000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.075,-0.9825,1,0,3,0,0,1,41.0,0,0,1,10,23,25,1,5,33,0,45,28,1,7,9,114,107,38,1,23,22,1,4,3,0,9,15,3,0,4,23,29,14,2,16,0,0,9,13,14,1,2,7,15,52,11,72,78,10,55,0,6,7,0,29,22,1,21,20,298,75,7,0.0,0.0,0.044918300660998674,0.0,0.0,0.0899592867471589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050794865769664535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03130174189978967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643700060802985,0.0,0.03787848175556238,0.0,0.043031511232868414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029624365595145,0.0,0.03916784375279449,0.0,0.04830528014879743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047001421289445316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14700372716418916,0.0,0.05056141152305037,0.08905595313506118,0.0,0.0,0.0934382560724452,0.047771511807838285,0.04809118960583216,0.263769846045684,0.1413398983188048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32969877839788914,0.0,0.0,0.08153721899647895,0.047560935193468816,0.0,0.030402151142451837,0.08327291127059495,0.0387819671960428,0.0,0.0,0.09005166444051232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042323404086972,0.0,0.03915279862174356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024296727557696,0.0,0.1046388483283813,0.03860748837833807,0.03681411772928656,0.0,0.05070685129438569,0.0,0.0,0.04899942065311982,0.0,0.0,0.04723970268163417,0.14678210344015968,0.1037575266581543,0.0,0.15426352793141587,0.0,0.0,0.04571783056963872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04091326978366998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047068437948413665,0.06502420917274856,0.0674632890085158,0.0,0.0,0.04073479370197649,0.07730662991773155,0.25747703424727325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536257512486948,0.0,0.18497188964302352,0.0,0.0,0.04637003199650022,0.09277412619573217,0.09766037389400783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389128269123729,0.10650271617519468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045099286106304134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031190883567312845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146699084680116,0.0,0.04809118960583216,0.0,0.0,0.10378303347922928,0.26450209804810154,0.0,0.0,0.04404416068660452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052391821343041066,0.08846332151057508,0.04732614865874532,0.0,0.04941862031439072,0.0,0.03930907145163448,0.0,0.036604626900730006,0.04608371176015073,0.0,0.1467186932020854,0.12571099974884584,0.1440568977230405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039000774911973374,0.10630762513796163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436055967186653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676480486377831,0.0,0.034608569971124284,0.0,0.0402319448358304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474697125739642,0.0,0.03654240226112618,0.053680520682243216,0.05290431393431192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06250222471573483,0.0,0.0,0.0479184912320862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429896287433982,0.03653619538878115,0.0369222105051448,0.22420686353141547,0.04138618524003805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049917194285117136,0.033510134990442884,0.0,0.04690814798466959,0.06539628849299353,0.05032619879229941,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kdanica95,2019/03/08,"So, it happened. My nightmare. Hi everyone! I’m gonna keep this post as short as possible as I’m basically just freaked out and really feel extremely alone right now. 
So I’ve had about a good 2 months of binging and I went from about 110-115 to a good 121 (which isn’t even a gigantic change) but last night at work one of my coworkers said to me,
“You’ve our back on some weight. You look good.”
Yep. It happened. First time. I felt my heart SINK. I wanted to cry. For some reason, it motivated me even more. That’s what it took for me.

Has anyone had this happen to you? Btw one of the reasons it hurt so bad is because these coworkers have seen my weight drop to it’s lowest so it’s not like a random weight gain. She noticed I put some BACK on. 

Why are people like this? Why even say anything? Damn, if this is what triggered is. Hahaha ",-0.5160875331564974,1.709276568965521,1.397011494252876,96.96644562334221,96.52873563218391,4.975773651635722,17.03713527851459,6.67199483983844,-0.08363236074270608,649,18,148,10,26,212,111,174,0.177,0.701,0.122,-0.8972,1,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,2,0,4,13,9,1,0,5,1,9,4,1,4,0,19,24,11,0,2,4,0,5,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,16,3,3,1,5,0,0,3,2,4,0,3,7,9,15,5,20,16,4,19,0,1,2,0,7,6,1,5,10,88,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475349179847492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422388293700886,0.0,0.099122961375284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524260181926933,0.10057363524737764,0.07342733127873667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274238239524272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323125059188305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386751881608559,0.0,0.0,0.1150984744117478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090490524585015,0.0,0.11565424283902258,0.0,0.0,0.10245767954908726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030920249669795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195498779718499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273796907816486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894795545558793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070645990162412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818567344816168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769498460532035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115059707037233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614482886010968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303744336758105,0.0,0.0,0.13713710005652902,0.0,0.0,0.16324480833499705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350728548565407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579321480408574,0.11536114980221568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108902986852982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716559195630371,0.2476925044575147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286662481202696,0.11457885534487593,0.095789452223885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023740038643121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382826269947454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104659097009333,0.0,0.0,0.4400397120715083,0.0,0.11166159471422832,0.2173810840466296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769157744424243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spliffgriff,2019/03/08,"Anyone see Jennette Mccurdy’s HuffPost article about her eating disorder? Very honest, well written article, I’m sitting here crying haha. I’ll say that it’s very triggering so be careful, but I’m so glad she spoke up and was so raw and transparent about such a difficult subject. What are your thoughts? ",2.844464285714285,5.906784517857147,4.207857142857144,77.36214285714289,87.75,7.800000000000002,32.0,8.472884824447931,3.737721428571428,247,14,38,7,8,81,46,56,0.115,0.675,0.21,0.7126,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,8,6,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,5,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,3,3,5,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21552999305189016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142732909317372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385893939690699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532720690727068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154085474825909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451264326972325,0.0,0.0,0.24562898818885145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447097393657223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086639098461031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771466016673173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theseblondebitches,2019/03/08,Just saw an (upvoted)comment in a post on a certain sub that said that it's impossible to diagnosis anorexia below the age of 16 because you can't be underweight The ignorance... anyway the sub rhymes with catlogic ps I feel v invalid lmao,4.395666666666667,6.7872431777777775,6.3663888888888875,69.45625000000003,72.7777777777778,9.833333333333336,33.47222222222222,10.125756701596842,4.070222222222223,193,10,33,6,4,67,40,45,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,1,6,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38950619752352944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230791265283489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6119503735037064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6078005762263761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Biased24,2019/03/08,"Guys I finally made a good choice! a lil backstory i had lost about 4 kilos which made me feel estatic like my hard work was paying off but then came a huuuge down swing and alot of binges one after another leading me to almost gain all the lost weight. Tonight i was planning on continuing this trend but at the store instead of all the doritos i can muster, but i changed my mind at the checkout i ended up getting some bananas FeelsGood.jpg",12.345775193798456,7.438559546511633,10.820232558139537,68.5453100775194,58.1860465116279,13.792248062015505,46.10852713178295,10.504223727775694,4.7577178294573645,355,15,67,5,3,111,66,86,0.069,0.8340000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.5191,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,6,2,4,0,0,8,0,4,1,0,3,2,15,11,5,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,8,3,10,2,11,3,4,14,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,3,7,45,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154221091796999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255830752694356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24605196797804285,0.0,0.0,0.227579532057008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19054175912504906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087764391767256,0.0,0.0,0.2356649351834348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239680130907344,0.0,0.0,0.1804412473603274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130130068584641,0.0,0.0,0.19271466219255126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051018902553715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696806835288164,0.0,0.0,0.4071233406228254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21722046706207854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577798695432626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619709790876639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661755816990947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SuspiciousCranberry,2019/03/08,Who else is giving up food for Lent?! Sorry,-1.91,-0.8163014444444414,0.5872222222222234,98.86750000000002,119.0,1.8,4.5,3.1291,-2.6659333333333333,33,0,7,0,2,11,9,9,0.11800000000000001,0.637,0.245,0.3382,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012985036923958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.580881245515346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.460827317208158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5377496380821807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,supemery,2019/03/08,"Stacking: Ephedrine and Modafinil? I used to EC stack and had great results with controlling my BED. I stopped stacking last summer thinking I could just control my hunger with Modafinil, but it isn't working. My binging has gotten so bad I've gained 20 pounds since December 1st. I'm so ashamed. I also haven't been purging, so it's just a disaster zone over here.  


So I went to my Primary Care Provider to request Vyvanse instead and he refused, actually telling me that my boyfriend should just lock our food up at night instead @.@  


I take Modafinil for my hypersomnia, but I was wondering if anyone had stacked ephedrine and modafinil together. I've been checking out other subreddits and they say it helps with energy, but I'm mainly wondering about appetite suppression.  


Any experience on this front?",7.030416666666667,8.685517875000002,5.9232222222222255,78.24400000000001,64.69444444444444,9.371111111111107,41.48333333333333,9.642632912329526,4.294346666666668,650,39,110,13,10,194,100,144,0.15,0.746,0.105,-0.8475,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,1,4,12,4,0,1,1,0,10,2,0,4,0,28,20,14,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,6,9,2,5,3,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,7,1,16,2,13,11,1,11,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,3,4,67,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.19074740888918654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563147363169464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292413277528953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667493749000093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320662063108704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992914386747592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384652937297599,0.15606434148770498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19120404607270292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23635924099370795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155028466774586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101728162468745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593315377180795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343235870338906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544305176113105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169216407535636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634190045181802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696671401649802,0.0,0.17084660637374874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524723842699065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688205636274227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181199689985974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42395083201228617,0.14230216475005295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_YER_SHIBA_INUS,2019/03/08,"watching my ""recovered"" friend try to diet makes me want to swan-dive off a scyscraper and it's a lasagna of horrible feelings, since I just realized I probably make people feel this way too

I feel like everyone I know with Food Issues is sitting in a weird twilight where we pretend we're all recovered, but we're not stupid either, so we just kinda...don't talk about it.",5.198749999999997,6.39890915277778,5.595444444444446,80.59400000000002,68.58333333333333,9.093333333333334,32.455555555555556,9.3871,2.9890688888888897,297,13,55,6,5,95,58,72,0.07200000000000001,0.797,0.13,0.5946,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,2,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,3,0,1,2,0,2,1,18,8,3,0,1,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,8,2,7,8,2,5,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590306396146168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112018853976214,0.19366116329735547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277936476474819,0.0,0.20943741953901915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28293936617953724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489796765169625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243706008077602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618989197904572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879342509306237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29227243896392946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424198028156272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21788558758164894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840470056718195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15989129304691255,0.21517241635889672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,einhornschlag,2019/03/08,"Addicted to eating? Hey everyone, it’s me again, surprise surprise. 

This is a little long but I really want to hear other’s experience with this. 

So I think I’m onto something here... but I don’t know. 

I’ve been fighting with the bf and that has curbed my appetite. I went to the gym 3 times on Wednesday, the third time being because of our argument. I went again today after 4 hours of sleep, (I took sleeping meds so wtf?)

When I go, I start with a mandatory minimum 30 mins of intense cardio followed by weights or more cardio with resistance. I burn a lot of calories doing this and am usually a starving beast 24/7. Since we’ve been fighting though, I haven’t been hungry. 

That being said, I want to eat. I keep imagining binging on the pizza and rice in my fridge, or the box of honey bunches of oats in the cabinet. I know it’s there and I want to eat it but my body isn’t saying, “Hey bitch I’m staaaarving eat that box of ice cream in the freezer and that sandwich over there and the whole bag of blueberry bagels that you bought”

I’m scared to eat because I want to ride this wave out but I’m also scared it’ll turn into a really bad binge later on if I don’t snack/eat.

Does anyone else have experience with this? What do? :c",1.0901101072840191,3.398295118577078,2.9054700734048566,90.3254100790514,83.98023715415019,5.827724449463581,21.683935629587804,7.1686216300943375,0.7490915866741954,967,32,201,14,28,321,142,253,0.147,0.799,0.054000000000000006,-0.985,1,0,1,0,4,0,32.0,1,1,0,0,10,8,3,2,13,0,16,14,3,0,0,31,38,18,0,5,7,0,1,0,2,1,3,3,0,0,16,13,8,2,4,1,1,6,4,6,0,1,8,6,22,2,32,27,4,31,0,0,1,0,11,11,1,4,14,126,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430540336630897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385102100832617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733157559217486,0.10743443653025377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754799513903269,0.12783500618330482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646820502624748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917576925066732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6437456547581165,0.0875913469680239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019167203735448,0.0,0.20513298825020693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059590457816692026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817711326645085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325922533174577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319829169126874,0.0,0.0,0.1152490910884226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509039573849163,0.0,0.09279173249887136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914239305571002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646820502624748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343432173426824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973935063693228,0.08338342824180603,0.2099525769291187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673560386062316,0.0,0.20985773445703207,0.0,0.0,0.08072107255992146,0.0,0.0,0.07421559467536043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718566059748952,0.10301768116175594,0.0,0.1222814224122401,0.0,0.09938851992176463,0.0,0.116495700522909,0.0,0.114050110835826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154809240712291,0.0,0.24738040284993096,0.0,0.0,0.12768288123310545,0.0,0.1943998290846864,0.0,0.11706479024327385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goddamnroommate,2019/03/08,"I finally did it without any help! I ate sub 800 cals yesterday! I’ve been binging for the past two months and today is the first time since I started binging that it feels like I’ve got this again. I’m on track to get 720 today. I know it all might change when I wake up tomorrow but for now I’m LOVING the improved mood and not feeling like a complete sack of shit. 

......


Flip side: I can already feel myself becoming a lot less flexible about plans. A friend was leaving for California for an indefinite period and offered to go out to dinner. Nahhhh so i suggested a movie but then we couldn’t nail down the time so oh well guess I’ll see you if you’re ever back home! Not so great but eh. 

Mixed bag",1.2688505747126442,3.441326000000004,3.0724137931034505,90.25229885057472,82.10344827586206,6.625287356321839,22.080459770114945,7.793537801064563,1.0021632183908051,550,18,119,10,15,183,107,145,0.08800000000000001,0.747,0.165,0.9179,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,2,10,8,1,0,9,0,7,5,2,0,2,23,21,12,0,2,7,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,4,0,0,1,4,1,1,2,5,4,10,6,14,14,3,24,0,0,1,1,7,5,1,5,20,69,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489996474890089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394244056269953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883865511744386,0.0,0.0,0.1850501881724316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17724987607299855,0.0,0.17567714243887333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156215224872954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25416095449533144,0.23940116940240486,0.0,0.18354717657803865,0.0,0.14252131539846782,0.0,0.0,0.12945177623785328,0.0,0.0875400301730308,0.0,0.0952247784993559,0.0,0.13400821061864426,0.18472883581004346,0.18457958053034126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112307889564675,0.0,0.16807028648151087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208327619252674,0.0,0.0,0.1774154540163429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637168057638497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424483876217973,0.15122399342063458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17774827649166347,0.0,0.0,0.13373997477015348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994921688327515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335188152877835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17199173528357725,0.1386023697123227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11859555746154332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954041266071637,0.0,0.3176431308530005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367587538334652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065113522840706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151604122928592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waystosaygoodbye33,2019/03/08,"Laxatives suck: I don’t know if y’all get this kind of run for your money but bless y’all who can handle this shit. Puns aside, I took some as I haven’t crapped more than literally a penny in days. Nothing else that normally helps has done anything and I’ve gained literally 5 pounds of shit. 

I don’t abuse laxatives but every few months or so, I’ll end up in this situation and take them to ease the intestinal pain, bloating. Etc. I took them last night, assuming they would kick in when I wake up, like they normally do. But nope! They kick in while I’m in line at the airport TSA. 

God damn, I don’t know how y’all do this. I’d be a crying pile of human shit. ",0.963357142857145,2.9539177642857126,2.7228571428571438,93.35214285714287,82.07142857142857,6.571428571428572,20.0,7.7094869923839395,0.511714285714286,517,14,121,9,14,171,93,140,0.233,0.6459999999999999,0.121,-0.9725,0,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,4,5,1,3,10,6,0,4,0,11,7,6,1,0,15,19,12,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,3,0,1,3,5,7,0,0,3,0,16,3,15,14,4,18,1,0,0,0,12,8,6,4,8,68,22,0,0.0,0.1967379986621222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366421549582952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182394328073306,0.1070862820986988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992326131885638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871057817316568,0.0,0.14706794988356725,0.0,0.18518578536140706,0.0,0.0,0.13990137211375994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675246422569116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129749615649487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291192026509392,0.18250967261232875,0.13535009265102116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112195247762427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253676465337785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582343019640515,0.32538070984015377,0.15932613415335856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668522651376456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5113331637929854,0.0,0.18664326888474608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484633389998327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689676328443663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117954698443593,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jirbl,2019/03/08,"Does anyone else get triggered by their partners eating habits My partner almost never cooks a meal, often just forgets to eat, and when he does eats like shit. And of course he's skinny. How I wish I could just forget about food. It's also a million times worse living together ",3.6875471698113214,6.1476936037735905,3.9062641509433966,85.9363773584906,75.22641509433963,4.994716981132076,21.92075471698113,5.6839178017228535,0.3861879245283015,223,6,38,1,5,69,46,53,0.154,0.753,0.09300000000000001,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,0,2,0,1,8,2,2,1,13,3,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,4,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395135134255607,0.0,0.0,0.16287903126347292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241447697694548,0.2086893723649139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261812133149106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35647518388534644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6252319134948906,0.17014454409324145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462849319923732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641191658950892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950544365137064,0.0,0.17984898545139522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15708691614117767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906972676277832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876468160147675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234216496495908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075624896744736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gatechnightman,2019/03/08,"r/InstagramReality r/instagramreality

Go there. Now. 

If you are feeling shitty about your body and how it will ""never be good enough"", you need to go through this sub. So so so so so many images we see are edited unrealistically and make us feel like SHIT about ourselves. Most of it is fake. 

I used to spend hours looking at thinspo and, even at a BMI of 15, I didnt look like the girls I saw online. Yeah... cuz most of them are fake. 

Instagram Reality has helped me recover more than anything else I've tried, honestly. Take a stroll on down to that sub and ease your mind. ",1.9516076696165177,4.3684516460177,3.746216814159293,84.97619837758113,81.212389380531,6.244542772861358,20.921091445427727,7.492282038375204,0.6122100294985255,448,13,96,7,12,150,84,113,0.135,0.767,0.098,-0.7607,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,4,1,0,11,7,1,0,3,1,8,2,2,4,1,17,20,12,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,2,6,11,4,14,16,4,9,0,0,4,0,9,4,1,3,5,60,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796683610282393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402205386091368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066081246308027,0.0,0.0,0.2234585116978754,0.0,0.142840325133873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869914173990607,0.15449903698956302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24581561756643855,0.18139197344044555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449571932115899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129764661519776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21131132226848706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632145666506356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435789200888338,0.2192577409223369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836497900816895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16035700761019944,0.16679612060809074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723343994805288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22199187696373554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260360538077073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468290526244972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260138950945606,0.18678265001659625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DominicAeris,2019/03/08,"I ate a full meal and I hate myself for it I feel so ashamed :( I'm never going to be skinny if I keep doing this to myself. I've wanted to be thin for years and I'm actually trying now, but I keep messing up and eating too much",-1.2457051282051277,0.5732391730769244,2.539999999999999,92.28833333333336,89.96153846153845,4.235897435897436,14.435897435897436,5.46131890053228,-0.8838179487179487,175,3,41,1,6,65,36,52,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.7127,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,1,10,12,6,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,2,7,0,6,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.32399718650723897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397325971306323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16787595176376954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18869086741292296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277944971884021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5902175329722721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24406805216874275,0.0,0.2560692033340374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22541530579232585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958301064673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138057451794722
EDAnonymous,robreinerismydad,2019/03/08,"When you tell a close friend you’re at a new low weight without even trying to lose... And they respond “that’s great! You’re so fit!” Uh no, I’m not, I have an eating disorder. I’m at a new low weight (albeit still healthy weight) because I *haven’t been eating*. So no, it’s not great. And this person is aware I have this disorder? And they would still say that to me? W o w",-1.4827777777777769,0.5042598888888925,0.5906481481481478,102.85041666666667,98.25925925925928,3.6876543209876544,14.157407407407408,5.46131890053228,-1.174177777777778,285,6,71,2,12,93,49,81,0.168,0.625,0.207,0.7438,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,2,1,6,6,0,0,4,0,6,5,0,0,0,8,8,6,0,1,3,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,5,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,1,4,7,3,5,6,0,11,0,3,0,0,8,6,0,0,5,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562023432964542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595496761814104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210133238381626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360437102990186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118943682172265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458768079847381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754859125779738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029922057052325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696386421407475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474115167261525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505367629672816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710231623069827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649745883608328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5730386717025087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120718033475392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114286503158966,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YaBoyBobbyB,2019/03/08,"Worried about my new medicine and it’s effects on my DE TL/WR: struggled with DE my whole life, last few years has been an entire binge period. New medicine I’m taking completely takes away my urge to eat, but I’m worried once I get back to “normal weight”(currently medically over weight), My medicine will make me keep dropping or when I quit I’ll just go right back into binging.

Long post: ok so a bit back story, I’ve had disorder eating habits since thirteen, started with major restricting, that would usually end in a big binge. It took a few year before I would start occasionally purging. I went through these cycles off and on for about ten years. I never thought I had a true ED cause i always convinced myself that since I could never “stick with it” and since I was never “super skinny” or underweight that it was not a real problem. A couple years ago after I got married something changed and a new cycle started that never happened to me before, I became a food addict. I would consume non stop, and not even worry about my weight. All I cared about was the food, it has been my only true addiction in my whole life. I quickly gained 60 pounds and on a 5’3 frame that’s a huge impact. Now even within that time there were a few times when the regret would really sink in I would purge, but for the most part it was all calories in and no calories out. Fast forward to now, over the last couple of months I was recently prescribed new medication, one of the side effects of this medicine is decreased appetite, well OH BOY, does this thing work. I’ve found that not only does it decrease my appetite, it actually makes food unappealing to me. Which for me, right now, is a great thing. It’s the only thing I’ve found that is helping combat my food addiction. The only problem is that it might work TOO well, I’ve been getting by on 400-800 calorie days and that’s only from making myself eat, I’ve lost 20lbs in less than two months, I’m feeling great, people are commenting and congratulating on my weight loss. But I know it comes at a price. First, this is definitely bringing back my DE habits, I’m finding comfort in not eating, starting to make excuses not to eat, worried about when I do eat. I’m also really scared that the weight loss will never be enough. Medically I’m still overweight for my height, I know I should probably still be like 30 pounds lighter but I worry that when I reach that goal I won’t want to stop. My other concern is that if I ever stop my medication my weight will just come right back, that my true food addiction will never go away and this little pill is the only thing keeping me from constantly over indulging. I don’t want to be on medication forever but I feel like it’s my only lifeline right now, but it’s a lifeline anchored to an ED. I really don’t know what to expect from this, I just needed to rant and air my feelings about what I’m dealing with. Has anyone else struggled with medications side effects and DE? Is there help to overcome sudden food addiction and binge eating? Is there ever a light at the end of the tunnel? 


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EDAnonymous,velvetviolets_,2019/03/08,"“Unless you have an eating disorder. Which I kind of doubt by looking at you” holy shit fuck off

also I’m 5’9 and 120 lbs not my lw and also I know people can have EDs at any weight butttt is it really THAT out of the realm of possibility that somebody my weight would have an ED?  ",0.2671670702179192,2.5140503898305084,2.4971428571428578,92.1715254237288,87.47457627118642,5.405326876513318,15.20823244552058,6.868970318607317,-0.3182852300242129,219,4,49,3,7,74,45,59,0.195,0.805,0.0,-0.9117,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,2,4,2,1,3,0,6,5,1,0,0,8,10,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,1,9,9,0,4,0,0,1,1,2,4,2,1,0,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772012989733082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037885080161826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702923365757535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413225407228224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802968632235856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559039954963044,0.12961114349379674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980456631653956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350131597979994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658734407719417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510847318271814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24208571201331786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5743776054080443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16753351345069825,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wles,2019/03/08,"Honestly, I hate the Asian mindset. I grew up in Asia and it was torturing.

I'm not Asian, but my family have been here for generations.

Most women I know have ED without even knowing it. The mental health help over there is horrible. I was fat shamed and shamed in general with how I look like. It doesn't matter if you're smart, talented, kind or whatever because it's all about how YOU look like.

Got tan skin? Shamed and treated like shit. Don't be surprised if random people fat shame you or call you ugly because that bloody happens.

My sister and I live in Australia now (THANK GOD!!!) and the most shocking thing for me is how 'body positive' Aussies are. It doesn't matter if you're an S, M, L or XL here and women openly talk about it. 

In Asia, if you're not skinny, a size S or XS or XXS, you're shamed. If you're not below a certain weight, you're shamed again. Got too tan, shamed once again. I was very shy and ashamed to say that I was a certain size or weight. It's the same shame someone gets when they admit they're a sex offender (no joke). 

Anyway, my sister's back in Asia visiting my mum. They went to a nail salon and that b*tch said ""why aren't you as beautiful as your mother?"" To my sister.

What the fuckkk??? Who the bloody hell does that? I'm so mad when she told me about it. Why even ask that question? What do they even expect her to answer? ""I don't know, bish. Ask God""???

I have had something similar happen to me as well. I've gained weight and people, saying ""Wow, *insert name*, you got fat!"" As if I don't know it and they say it in front of other people as well as if it's news to me. They do it with the sole purpose to shame you.

I'm glad that I have mostly recovered from an eating disorder thanks to the Australian mental health system. It may not be great, but it definitely is 1000x better than what they had back in Asia.
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EDAnonymous,bluelanced,2019/03/08,I hate the airport y’all. i’m at the airport and accidentally bought a regular monster from the vending machine instead of our lord and savior ultra white. i have no idea what to do with it lmao that shit was four dollars,3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,4.522727272727273,82.22909090909094,75.81818181818181,6.218181818181819,31.45454545454545,7.1686216300943375,2.0442000000000005,178,9,33,2,4,59,38,44,0.239,0.6829999999999999,0.078,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,4,0,5,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5432575934795082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6211648583844633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5648233403773814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,everythingabove02,2019/03/08,"You guys probably know this one already [http://fudfacts.com/](http://fudfacts.com/)

Add your own useful/timewasting sites that other ED people would like! 

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~~^(my first post ever, I'm so afraid of my crappy English language (not my first language) (insert nervous emoji))~~",11.631428571428573,16.100479999999994,7.609761904761907,59.20607142857146,58.52380952380952,7.057142857142857,36.69047619047619,8.07648339933343,3.7132190476190488,248,11,25,3,4,68,38,42,0.132,0.813,0.055,-0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,5,1,1,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443591950742813,0.0,0.0,0.4210892499721892,0.472237864818013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577271863798086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305753936555069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240642445922895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679267585808623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493447938312496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167562698827526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471637213537113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610394885113848,0.0,0.20950881735183127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803868799416186,0.0,0.472237864818013,0.0
EDAnonymous,noodlelunchcup,2019/03/08,help my family and i are going to an amusement park today and i'm sitting up in my cousin's bed having a panic attack thinking about all the food i have to eat. my mom's already caught on and is pressuring me to eat a fuck ton. i've gained weight since i've been on this vacation and i can feel/see the fat on my face. i feel sick and i can't breathe. ,-0.6455414908579442,1.2963289746835436,1.8738396624472564,97.26226441631508,88.36708860759492,5.030098452883263,17.638537271448666,6.42735559955562,-0.2965960618846695,275,7,67,3,9,94,55,79,0.19399999999999998,0.7090000000000001,0.09699999999999999,-0.8316,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,2,5,0,7,9,3,0,1,8,13,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,5,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,2,10,1,9,11,2,9,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,1,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26064616295021675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687049901992012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48337124638015294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226628623943647,0.0,0.23885375947632634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856069531296665,0.0,0.0,0.2183577234638848,0.0,0.0,0.13423460176072832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831598737091288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766277816781163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771229920881457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953822754395036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513437003971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238844754696481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28762089337711555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alphaglucose,2019/03/08,"Does anyone else have a really fuckin narrow ribcage? I know it's meant to be a plus but ughhh my ribs never show--even when I had a BMI of ~16.5 they didn't show unless I inhaled or moved my arms. They go inwards as well if they make sense. Emphasise my love handles even more. And I have a tidal volume of 2.8L which is like half of average because my lungs can't really expand a whole lot. 

Smhhh why couldn't I have prominent ribs and tiny hips? ",1.6144086021505366,3.654054956989248,3.031397849462365,91.73376344086022,80.07526881720429,6.2838709677419375,18.935483870967747,7.3871296695380915,0.3364967741935483,353,8,76,5,9,115,69,93,0.057999999999999996,0.809,0.134,0.8338,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,3,4,1,0,5,0,9,7,5,1,1,13,14,9,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,1,1,1,3,1,12,3,7,9,3,5,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,3,3,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855490466978436,0.2718973163420004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176375210017355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23222228507033055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216780107436047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505415335837443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508127755236757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583740367536902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964370338379774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22560343058462426,0.23950184534894176,0.0,0.17713288177650074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820404953705081,0.0,0.0,0.20466548175027235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399986209630205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23859457798310701,0.0,0.2394502100144351,0.2962700167029039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LesbianSansa,2019/03/08,"So I already made and deleted this post twice. Maybe third time's a charm.

I don't think I have an eating disorder. But I think I am/have been engaging with disordered eating.

I lost weight. In a healthy way. It was good. I put some back on. I got anxious. I started binge eating. Same old story as a million others, and I knew it was a possibility, but I still ended up in the exact same spot.

It's Lent now. I've given up chips and chocolate - my two greatest vices. And I feel so ashamed, because I'm three days in and I can't stop thinking about them. I cried today because I finally got to the end of the week and I couldn't eat my favourite foods. And it's fucking *food*, not nicotine or alcohol or some other highly addictive substance. Why do I feel like this? It's for the best that I cut down on these two foods and to be honest, for reasons of my faith, I intend to see this through despite how awful I feel right now.

But I hate that it got to this point, I hate that I can't ever see a day I won't want those foods, and I *really* hate that I can't ever see a day where I'll look like what is supposed to be ""normal"". And I hate that I care so much. My whole personality was built on not caring, but here I am. 

I'm sorry, this is just a vent. I know a lot of others here have it much worse than me. But I figured people here would understand.",-0.17001838235294287,1.9594646493055592,2.0538071895424856,95.4248529411765,88.27083333333331,4.777124183006537,18.887254901960784,6.2272716619740125,-0.1608009803921564,1041,30,240,10,34,350,153,288,0.158,0.696,0.146,-0.5661,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,1,2,16,18,6,1,13,1,19,12,0,4,3,48,49,22,0,4,10,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,23,11,10,1,11,0,0,1,8,8,0,6,11,8,37,10,24,33,10,34,1,1,4,1,2,13,1,5,20,166,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218476444249243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037076952786788,0.0,0.0,0.09331596874069596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553068221260076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502274854329937,0.0,0.10309608807159797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874231566663142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243263327578698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288708663126746,0.16360595530675295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938301309423839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461110311911775,0.0,0.0,0.14979318212162213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298184702979095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827085022433884,0.06041091481758563,0.0,0.0926332388178623,0.0,0.0,0.40900950481997056,0.0,0.0,0.07817595419939967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092636478274468,0.20289521434038585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339487950196515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934410756209578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04647291379634391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262517707741643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101055344416189,0.0,0.09230911440345642,0.07189135652097088,0.0,0.08001435090647926,0.0,0.0,0.08495362085465079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432519859797835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285253851457071,0.0,0.0,0.0887333078970003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05862445433545376,0.07383603850499472,0.0,0.0,0.07993816498252068,0.09533064180027974,0.08098675965017761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500789195538559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417240777977076,0.08694353931129946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221525300293616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20215424503638732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465993044498304,0.05985322575856561,0.0,0.06753110458556982,0.07069739037401622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625512210366336,0.0,0.0,0.04930862316561225,0.0,0.0801546298552001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16520904037618758,0.0880317402587793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987669762935144,0.0671211630376945,0.06783031688594697,0.10297340268414504,0.0,0.0,0.07630380607493444,0.0944101485605427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861756243410637,0.06007022481801925,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,westcoastfleur,2019/03/08,"this break-up is about to trigger me so hard I just had a big, blowout break-up with my boyfriend. I know it was not a healthy relationship — him screaming expletives at me, laying on his car horn at 3am outside my house, and various other threatening behaviors just reassured me of that — so it's for the best in the long run, but that doesn't make it not difficult.

The twisted part? It's been 20 minutes and I'm just thinking about how I can use this to fuel my ED. No more going to restaurants/cooking for/eating with him, my time is all my own to work out as much as I want and have my own schedule, hell even the fact that I don't need to keep substantial food at my house for him..... ",6.438551448551451,4.790029398601399,6.735184815184821,83.16013986013988,66.2027972027972,10.409190809190813,34.414585414585424,9.23628265651192,2.6702375624375625,536,20,121,8,7,174,94,143,0.115,0.81,0.076,-0.7577,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,1,0,6,0,9,1,0,4,2,23,18,9,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,6,1,1,2,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,3,2,19,2,20,15,8,13,1,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,3,86,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24327612053094544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372051830872369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311198616276447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803122863242455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174612071258393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20766120188081547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5349680470097469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20604831439850316,0.0,0.0,0.12739976518772256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514946920749688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15473868141251193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704111041725287,0.17188829490064494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510336531641397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24888314890305102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148538045780077,0.0,0.0,0.13517351291029026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20021420770347784,0.0,0.0,0.13673081903502926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876448317516246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuck_you_get_pumped,2019/03/08,"so my good friend had a birthday fest (we're musicians) and towards the end he gave me one of the shirts he made for it as a loving gesture. i was happy to see he gave me a small. took it home and washed it.... 
    
started today with good music. almost in a good mood for once. tried on the shirt and. fuck. i dunno if the whole batch turned out funky or if he gave me a women's tee, but it's way too tight and the neck is too big, almost a scoop neck. i'm afab and look female but identify as andro. i looked so fat and female in that shirt. at least it was free. i'm probably gonna cut it up for patch material as revenge but fuck was my day ruined. god i'm disgusting ",-0.3325431034482769,1.6152479310344852,2.022995689655172,96.70001077586208,86.93103448275862,5.004310344827585,15.95905172413793,6.322622252153567,-0.5718879310344827,510,10,123,5,16,173,91,145,0.152,0.71,0.13699999999999998,-0.7461,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,4,13,4,0,11,0,5,10,6,1,0,19,22,17,0,2,6,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,7,8,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,5,0,1,9,4,8,8,16,12,2,15,0,1,3,3,10,9,2,6,4,66,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552914813325543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441171562893805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712840272763626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706286296454126,0.3280166063923256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463973427258542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18885119695182995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779519394318705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29795147366392777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601151725340501,0.16786514546457293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18893081086259786,0.12021439472462715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19127287443761692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136902261852538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556835535951275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815944199845548,0.0,0.1971037702399839,0.12044652561588225,0.19296597849642255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081603699120324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19806663607095654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alegnas97,2019/03/08,i know i need psychiatric help but i get panic attacks thinking about talking to people it's like an ongoing cycle to where i freak out even thinking of getting help. has anyone else experienced this? how'd you get through it? ,2.9148837209302307,5.782366534883722,3.954697674418604,82.02693023255813,81.32558139534882,6.2306976744186064,29.53023255813953,7.554174236665415,2.2701293023255817,183,9,31,3,5,59,35,43,0.24,0.594,0.166,-0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,6,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906088808237405,0.27931182665316023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101228667229264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22772306451069835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005031712030795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272681420734847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654372612517568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498143202108147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317902542539908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213010608608092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198384096904877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188987133720178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21910626973043587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493432867979827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinlinlin,2019/03/08,"How do you deal with burst blood vessels in the face? I had a bad day and unfortunately ended up purging several times today. The strain of it caused blood vessels to burst around my mouth. It almost looks like a cluster of pimples from afar and red freckles up close; the area is tender as well. 

I don't suppose there's any way to deal with it, aside from make up and time. Better yet, is there a way to prevent this from happening?

The obvious answer is don't purge, but I'm not here for that, I am in a program and am attempting recovery. 

Also: fuck this disease. ",4.139048672566371,5.207652672566375,4.955918141592921,84.68927544247789,70.94690265486727,7.7738938053097355,28.28429203539823,8.07648339933343,1.7461690265486722,444,16,90,6,8,144,77,113,0.092,0.852,0.055999999999999994,-0.7183,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,8,7,1,1,8,0,9,6,4,3,1,17,14,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,2,5,4,18,13,0,16,0,0,2,1,3,8,1,1,7,59,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970361630330668,0.0,0.0,0.17545905900108394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492037398700392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19531803496078387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831950125330118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19404695418844967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253906057868028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149884808307694,0.4523963165482919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19432877013401628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028374965862967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19402017820404813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719078676439946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424594927338714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645534232587631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478665546922586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558750394659505,0.0,0.20797142326092488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483088583428169,0.0,0.0,0.19727252357190345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bellawellaaa,2019/03/08,"Chinese shopping sites are insanely triggering Weird post but basically I have an online store selling harajuku style clothes and I buy all my stuff from a website which is basically the equivalent of Chinese amazon/eBay. 

I read product reviews to decide what to buy and. My.god. How are ALL these girls so tiny?? They usually put their weight and height and post pics in the review and I swear there is like a stigma of weighing over 100lbs / 50kg. Whenever a girl mentions how she is over 100lbs there is almost always a mention of how she is fat and she is sad that she had to buy a bigger size. 

For example right now im looking at getting some jeans in stock. There is a review by a 5'6 and 115lbs girl and the whole review was about how she was fat and had to buy size Large, and she was going to diet down to 98lbs so she could buy size small. Like wtf. I literally have yet to encounter a single girl that has a higher bmi than me except on ""plus size"" items ....and I'm 5'2 107lbs.  

I'm looking at one now and the girl is 5'5 114lbs and she is sad because she thinks she looks too fat to look good in the jeans and then she says ""i recommend a tall and thin pretty lady to buy, not me"" but she actually looks really nice in the jeans :( 

Urghhhhhhh",2.9733617909315133,4.7278047729083665,4.021229368241318,87.52086321381144,74.97609561752988,6.852665528362738,23.50616581293872,7.62386473244151,0.9664659836843108,982,29,204,13,21,318,139,251,0.076,0.838,0.085,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,0,14,7,0,0,17,0,20,6,3,5,2,32,30,25,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,0,5,6,16,6,0,2,2,9,2,1,3,0,1,5,8,23,4,29,24,6,26,0,2,5,0,22,17,0,2,7,134,29,6,0.0,0.0,0.15563157694887295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596983403095543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327019281664172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972188409573444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273335229697889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332284320078152,0.0,0.0906373835152664,0.1337660643866052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226809384094235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582984960172722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696242147215721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080692351352559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054796376216861,0.16225068571892926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032361426537015,0.0,0.0,0.15952531236354867,0.0,0.10216835177219176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619688831473664,0.0,0.12682661018679528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256891081957116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218972482193996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564706141273248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420629910679235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805612975911236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JimMakingTheFace,2019/03/08,"I wept on the kitchen floor for an hour My brother ate my breakfast sandwich. 

I had it on the top shelf of the refrigerator. It was all I was going to eat today. 

I had saved it for dinner.

But it is gone.

And I guess I should be happy that I just saved 400kcals. 

But instead. I’m going to silently weep, curled up on the tile floor, until further notice. ",0.7466095890410962,2.9457861780821943,2.6783390410958923,92.11285102739728,84.4794520547945,4.197945205479451,21.45376712328768,5.148860815047168,-0.08327260273972659,273,9,58,1,8,91,49,73,0.087,0.768,0.145,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,5,0,7,6,0,0,1,9,13,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,6,0,9,3,10,5,1,14,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,1,3,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652073543897881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056796025309897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931758731546545,0.0,0.0,0.3799366260688262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35148380315435807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063436458928774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33830831927851635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throw------a-way,2019/03/08,"Anyone else affected by the news about Timberline Knolls? TW!! MAJOR TW: sexual assault, rape

I don’t know where else to talk about this but TK was in the news yesterday for sexual assault committed against some residents by a male therapist and I’m struggling to process it.

I was just wondering if anyone else was going through something similar because I don’t know where else to talk about it. 

Please be careful and check in with yourself before clicking because it’s very graphic, but here’s a [link](https://wgntv.com/2019/03/06/6-women-sexually-abused-by-counselor-at-rehab-center-timberline-knolls-prosecutors-say/) to the story for those of you who doesn’t know what happened. ",9.63175824175824,10.772913982905989,7.973015873015871,67.67,58.74358974358975,11.472039072039076,39.79120879120879,11.20814326018867,4.908346520146521,564,27,83,14,7,169,77,117,0.145,0.787,0.068,-0.8602,0,0,1,0,1,0,34.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,3,1,5,0,7,1,0,1,1,16,15,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,3,1,4,1,17,11,2,6,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,3,1,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408760005472244,0.3529715688954045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20999841461247085,0.0,0.14656816315136773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561568189775253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755557744701115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789103971718632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231605315319754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28398472926179325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18907374322687345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697646879778416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260293693806355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18006830804158744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27688868283263784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999902046222176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421205077904686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679280693151712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jenny_Roberts,2019/03/08,"Please talk me down from a binge/ reassure me (on mobile, can't flair! But probably a rant)

Let me preface to say I'm primarily a binger, not a restricter.  I gained like 60lbs my junior semester, lost 20, and am struggling to maintain around 200lbs ever since (about a year). I think I have a pretty reasonable GW for my height, which is 140lbs at 5'8. 

That being said, I've been trying to recover from binging by fasting. Yeah, I know, but it actually does work for lessening food's emotional pull which is helpful for me AS A BINGER (I'm NOT encouraging anyone to use it if their ED is restrictive). 

For the past two and a half weeks, I've done 3   48 hour fasts and eat reasonably between them. It's the longest I've gone without overeating/ binging in...years. However, the scale hasn't moved.  I know I'm at a deficit, especially since I'm a pretty high BMI, but there's a voice that says ""if you're still eating, that's cals you're not burning. Your metabolism is fucked and you won't ever reach your GW""

I'm taking a break from fasting the past two days because I have a cold, and am trying to do this as healthily as possible, but I usually lose a lot quicker and it's discouraging me. I'm also PMSing, which I know has something to do with it (bloating, emotional, extra cravings). 

I'm just frustrated that I'm not seeing results and want to expedite the process until I can consistently see the scale go down. Once I see that, and can see a difference in my body composition (around 185, 15lbs from where I am) it's easier not to binge because I have proof that the effort is worth it. 

But right now, I'm sick and PMSing and bloated and feel like binging, or at least treating myself to more than TDEE. 

I just need some reassurance that if I don't binge, and keep eating (and fasting) sensibly, I'll get over this bump and will see progress soon. 

(Please don't try and talk me out of fasting, it's worked the best for me in the past and stops me from obsessing over food. I'm not doing long ones, and it ""resets"" my stomach so I'm not so sensitive to the feeling of hunger, which I fucked up by binging. ) 

Thank you guys for reading. I felt it was a little too disordered to post on the Loseit sub lol.
 
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EDAnonymous,coffeehearts,2019/03/08,"I’m honestly just roasting Whole 30 for no reason I was going about my business googling trivial food facts and stumbled on a post in a Whole 30 forum where people (including a moderator) claimed eating a Coconut Date Roll was a considered a failure and how “eating one dessert to avoid a another dessert” is a failure and I’m just like LOL ok TIL the Whole 30 community is a cult and I’d rather just be self diagnosed EDNOS and call it a day. Like COME ON, the front page of the Whole 30 website features CHIPOTLE, get over yourselves. ",6.620128205128204,6.690085884615389,6.82769230769231,76.98397435897436,65.15384615384616,9.625641025641023,38.487179487179496,9.2995712137729,3.5852487179487174,428,22,79,7,6,138,70,104,0.114,0.7559999999999999,0.13,0.3885,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,13,2,5,6,0,2,1,14,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,5,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,4,9,7,5,12,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,47,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760462775288953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17143346204282112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462152608990805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082745297384952,0.0,0.0,0.17040382275993055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34358476501604074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301207118312575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771508435632275,0.0,0.09541519990766947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404419098027595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376594595278212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639310829081675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16079127376004965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261787595227152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514486463238946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7497683872522678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,birthreynolds,2019/03/08,"I’m worried I’m never going to be happy with myself.    My aunt warned me not to hide from pictures because she was so insecure when she was my age and now she doesn’t have any pictures of her from that time and regrets it. And she said one day I’ll be old and I’ll wish I looked like how I did now. I felt disgusting at 140 pounds and I still feel disgusting at 115. 
   I’m 21 and I wasted my teen years hating myself, and now I’m wasting my 20s feeling the same way. I wish I knew why I felt so bad about myself all the time, I don’t know what I did to cause me to hate myself so much, well I’ve done a lot, but I don’t think I deserve this, it sucks. Some of my negative inner voice comes from my mom, she doesn’t like herself much either and I guess it rubbed off on me. 
   All I really want is to be fixed, I want to feel normal, I want to smile in pictures instead of just hide, I wish I didn’t hate myself so much. ",1.6241176470588243,2.3149112156862763,3.480666666666668,94.331,76.54901960784314,6.4203921568627464,20.95294117647059,6.42735559955562,0.02171411764705855,704,15,175,5,15,238,108,204,0.172,0.688,0.14,-0.8645,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,14,13,6,1,3,0,15,0,0,2,3,39,42,15,0,8,4,2,6,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,10,0,0,8,0,0,2,8,9,1,1,10,9,39,4,20,29,9,21,0,1,1,0,10,6,1,3,14,118,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030065205236636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087275090343918,0.08094656408060928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641024472144014,0.0,0.11438543166670193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563751992872365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13588861609870104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20142538464015933,0.0,0.25499533800636204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546669658442387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628137149888687,0.0,0.0,0.1413556999265475,0.0,0.3933031025909637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729770210488662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974739034373362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115087957707082,0.0,0.0,0.1128919322996093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552014601969927,0.0,0.0,0.2928442148500353,0.0,0.10241458496417638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010441896598912,0.0,0.0,0.13933906762360904,0.0,0.08998084302256402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506763660519838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631215781558275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060449719677793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850854322806457,0.0,0.0,0.15485994471603748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349660812336325,0.10540123542267686,0.0,0.0,0.1193927010547796,0.0,0.1198208592308488,0.0,0.4581002518153845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485304580758234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551136321905961
EDAnonymous,eloana12,2019/03/08,He broke up with me :( And now I’m back on the high restriction train. What better way to deal with negative emotions? ,1.2433333333333323,3.8593895652173984,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,88.13043478260867,6.544927536231885,20.71014492753623,7.793537801064563,1.0799101449275366,92,3,19,2,3,29,22,23,0.355,0.556,0.09,-0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32943717824351865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789126158751786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416937963095636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4819274799740237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4526611277950256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400687766503207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saintshithead,2019/03/08,"Advice? Roommates and Secret Binging During more than one late night binge I've eaten my roommate's food. Like.. lots of it.  

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Tonight I decided to buy everything of his that I've eating without asking ($40 worth of food over 9 months of living together) but I'm not sure what to say when he gets home. It might be important to note that he never mentions it or gets mad at me for it. Sometimes I'll admit it to him and other times I won't... I'll just take his food without even asking or mentioning it afterwards.

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I push away almost everyone so he's my only close friend. He knows about my disordered behavior but not many details. He also doesn't seem very worried but he is supportive. He has many close friends and a girlfriend so I don't want to get too sappy seeing as I take up much less emotional space in his social life than he does mine. He knows me better than anyone else and I want him to know I care about him and I'm sorry I've overstepped his boundaries by taking food from him.  

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Can anyone offer me some advice on what to tell him? I respect his boundaries when it comes to everything except food. I want to express to him that taking food from him was a mistake but it's caused by a compulsive disorder I'm in therapy to alleviate- without it coming across like an excuse... Any ideas are appreciated. This is probably the most emotionally authentic and transparent conversation I've had to have in months so I'm pretty nervous. ",3.0598363095238104,5.474959517361113,4.277678571428574,82.71375000000002,77.0902777777778,7.169841269841273,25.910714285714285,8.192908349453996,1.8969589285714288,1183,45,216,22,28,387,164,288,0.08800000000000001,0.765,0.147,0.9715,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,1,12,12,1,1,5,0,13,9,0,1,2,43,40,19,0,4,13,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,1,0,16,10,8,0,8,0,2,3,9,3,0,1,3,2,28,9,40,34,6,25,0,0,1,0,37,12,0,8,12,133,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343522654475155,0.0,0.0,0.073491281887683,0.0,0.0,0.05869139243932505,0.0,0.2385599396653046,0.2675371944216051,0.0499089377315841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263449987953847,0.0751985676509385,0.0,0.0,0.13722284347578895,0.0,0.06895400789250783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490907910237721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482782693847599,0.07539359079937118,0.0,0.12644106674098354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16822671228852001,0.0,0.06422565492316806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509812919822642,0.061309427808623834,0.16511178360737375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048474588830630966,0.0,0.0,0.07012900584851096,0.13191962714082406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5324739034851494,0.0,0.11340463847520925,0.0,0.11503255222594495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361795500526792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285040397171878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100263452977758,0.0,0.08278914217777314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183879569766076,0.071711048351519,0.0,0.06480630012998784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239508011826985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881552291598465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785709714052705,0.0,0.0,0.11716126212610377,0.0,0.05395141434685443,0.0,0.05660427724064436,0.0,0.0,0.06887322849013114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973218010479368,0.05581776772782846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466584096945879,0.07912876875088935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0583641016057537,0.0,0.0,0.058483759039073435,0.06681313432679914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748136931849454,0.0,0.0,0.07258636248873537,0.08215610651861442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328413993423751,0.06917089881295799,0.0,0.2207259863298048,0.0,0.06414766424374224,0.0,0.08392991444664431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042795346225557696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060555917594792036,0.12986514771258942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224121594785206,0.0,0.0,0.07453293097177269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675371944216051,0.0
EDAnonymous,riseaboveitx,2019/03/08,"A moment of silence for zero calorie Gatorade. Honorable mention: la croix. I hope everyone is staying hydrated! When I slip and purge something, Gatorade makes me feel a lot better afterwards. Take care of yourselves ❤️",3.799298245614037,7.0699801578947365,3.9589473684210494,77.95929824561404,89.52631578947368,6.743859649122808,37.91228070175438,7.793537801064563,4.165249122807018,178,12,25,4,6,55,34,38,0.0,0.6940000000000001,0.306,0.9151,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,4,3,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242581101263952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738079492649368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503346406380962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853812415972769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641504354510837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116992420802073,0.0,0.0,0.2447311410741516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822528796271447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907832200586648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756632514775033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,put_thelotion,2019/03/08,"best friend is a trigger one of my best friends hates fat people. she told me this to my face, pulling up photos of people she used to know and proclaiming how disgusting she found them.

she’s told me that she thinks I’m skinny, but now I’m just. I don’t know. I don’t even know how I feel, but I needed to let it out.",0.9556190476190488,2.326619800000003,2.4457142857142853,98.30761904761906,79.57142857142857,5.80952380952381,18.80952380952381,6.42735559955562,-0.3413333333333335,246,5,62,2,6,80,46,70,0.061,0.8,0.139,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,2,0,1,0,4,3,3,4,0,16,17,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,6,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,1,14,4,7,13,2,4,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,1,40,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562133526509975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435647123645302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990411618299258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23832482160167104,0.33586472203780904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145987208092469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583673186442945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222660733396638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117022732634298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728925616990698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30138112419991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927597931449334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41539498512218254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877298822946908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnusualReport,2019/03/08,"who in their youth doesn't... Who in their youth does not yearn for sacrifice, effort and triumph? To soar over all that is base and cowardly and sordid?

and find yourself starving and stuffed and trapped in your bathroom in your 30s.

 ",4.318488372093022,6.8806649767441845,3.1466860465116286,91.64933139534887,73.65116279069767,6.16046511627907,29.3546511627907,7.1686216300943375,1.5737953488372098,186,8,35,2,4,53,30,43,0.182,0.7559999999999999,0.062,-0.7236,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,2,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,7,2,1,7,1,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,2,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6915787976293554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7223010221988722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaygyno826378,2019/03/08,"Share your low points this week! I’ll start,

After school today I drove in a big circle around town for around an hour because I didn’t trust myself to be at home. 

ED’s are brutal godamn lmao",3.1346666666666683,4.323583800000005,3.4750000000000014,93.89666666666668,73.5,5.333333333333334,15.833333333333336,3.1291,-1.0191666666666666,152,1,33,0,3,47,37,40,0.138,0.6459999999999999,0.21600000000000005,0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,7,2,0,14,0,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,5,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5783067594319788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980036373498245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258149878560407,0.0,0.31987642221088264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30705427772617794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287291716889287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299050648572783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078857512175722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26054624801440457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlestardust90,2019/02/07,"Butter my butt and call me a biscuit, I maintained?! I was absolutely terrified of weighing myself for the past couple weeks. I was certain that I’d undone all my progress after just eating whatever out of boredom, not tracking anything. I feel like I’ve been given a second chance? Or maybe this is a good reminder that even when we “binge” a few times or hell, just eat normally?? it won’t make us fat. The apathy fog has lifted and it’s time for me to start losing again, but maybe I’ll be a little kinder to myself going forward.",3.1984761904761894,5.1265488476190475,4.46857142857143,83.80476190476192,74.80952380952381,6.571428571428571,25.0,7.3871296695380915,1.2972857142857142,419,14,78,5,9,138,81,105,0.10099999999999999,0.767,0.132,0.505,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,7,0,7,5,2,1,2,15,12,6,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,4,2,12,3,8,6,2,12,1,1,0,1,3,3,2,2,10,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480645501978015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169081614601049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350425814499664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4347245794214677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030372971343133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074077129216739,0.1517554031500077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207251801410355,0.17817076788310252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037794005899912,0.2129041699201094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376475799437919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179434724355774,0.0,0.42681594942831497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20812994509760552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027822834135714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503544588299377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477317223175385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25551933620425976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703933323291305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FreshOpportunity,2019/02/07,Shoutout to the hot guy at the gym I've been really tired from restricting lately so I've only been going to the gym 3x a week for 30 mins each time but today THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MAN I'VE EVER SEEN was there so I somehow ended up spending an hour there so I could check him out a little and now I feel so motivated to restrict so that one day this man could only be 100% out of my league instead of 10000% too good for me. That is all.,1.6018548387096772,3.150283096774196,3.40826612903226,91.33239919354841,78.24731182795698,6.370430107526883,20.227150537634405,7.1686216300943375,0.30923763440860164,340,8,77,4,8,114,68,93,0.075,0.762,0.163,0.9234,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,12,1,0,0,7,0,7,1,0,1,2,15,10,7,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,4,0,2,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,6,1,12,3,3,16,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,2,10,53,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935420025662128,0.0,0.0,0.1589404514352679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21828235968272133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292896168779425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12461298735988335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400637341370926,0.20671133424383276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24402515224844826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24270450696246446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780073661291798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470085612424153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700151782110878,0.3748740518630488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788276652353847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143707510112936,0.2832590717492036,0.2336066501355491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768805786994534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LosinW8nFeelinGr8,2019/02/07,"12 Packs of Bang are BOGO 1/2 off on Vitamin Shoppe! I was excited to post this to Peach but they're still down, but there with free shipping and taxes it brings it to about $1.75 per can. Better than my regular $2.50!

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EDAnonymous,ana-wrecks-ya,2019/02/07,"I'm scared This is long and ramble-y and probably won't make sense 

I really don't want to go into treatment, but I don't have the choice.  Well I can kill myself. If I don't go voluntarily my mom will get a court order. My weight is quite low so I have to get weight restored before I can start treatment. But I don't think I can handle going through that. Last time I went through weight restoration it was so traumatic and I have a feeling this time might be worse. Anorexia has such a tight grip on me, I don't think there is any me left, I'm just walking anorexia at this point. I am so broken I don't think I can be fixed. 

And for some reason I feel like I'm not sick enough because I  don't faint, get light-headed and I'm still functional even though my bmi is considered extremely low. 

I'm getting scared of my safe foods, I can barely convince myself to eat

I really want to fight against hospitalization, but I don't think I have the strength to do it. Too weak to fight, too weak to recover.

I don't understand why I can't just die. I would be so lucky to die of heart failure in my sleep, but I doubt that'll happen. If I want to die I'll have to do it myself.

I'm a mess. I'm hurting so much but nothing helps. I have no hope. I'm running out of treatment options for my crippling treatment-resistant depression. So I'm going to feel like this forever. 

I'm so scared and every option I have terrifies me. 

And I'm having a lot of anxiety from peach being down and my birthday this weekend. Everything just feels bad",1.1931016355140187,3.2304366230529595,2.9894772196261705,91.49627190420564,81.52336448598129,6.1308800623052955,22.492309190031147,7.292943589461545,0.7538449376947041,1200,40,264,17,32,399,153,321,0.253,0.606,0.141,-0.9924,0,0,0,0,2,2,32.0,0,0,0,2,18,23,3,4,7,0,41,11,2,2,0,46,77,23,4,7,11,1,9,2,0,5,4,0,0,0,10,10,5,2,10,1,0,7,13,15,1,0,2,9,40,8,27,66,4,25,0,4,0,0,4,10,0,10,9,163,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687792423600091,0.0,0.07737246901959682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444838029615008,0.06165451990182319,0.0,0.08606340908492771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711246095278455,0.0,0.31490468476683314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349233351122557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450552876618853,0.0,0.06680257374770486,0.0,0.08521552345278502,0.0,0.09089886921615296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20455939918853225,0.1445100786878168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222999103392016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136766675311755,0.0,0.2299226903247301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943851455098834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379968533881244,0.0,0.0,0.11985238741509315,0.0677925759459168,0.0,0.0,0.10045567939923956,0.0,0.0,0.10827336561853512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189735890421594,0.0,0.0,0.08244328715561826,0.0,0.0,0.1098898232160182,0.0,0.0,0.0988246153621933,0.0,0.0,0.08950646444797501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598632895387925,0.0,0.0,0.06751229891102929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729445259834257,0.0,0.1184549343979249,0.0,0.0,0.07435015794133581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097047367845306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561078942990113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904693649935936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757573753666216,0.0,0.0,0.12958682937680505,0.10398963287686992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30377888778338313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012138869620706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158801013200466,0.0,0.08077120887014823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25922787643849865,0.09937036595937776,0.0,0.11795207927518872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052911857917969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789664712296626,0.0,0.0,0.36948690239763454,0.09093776551137993,0.09375857591015738,0.09126388048719654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103071160998821,0.07184755388541013,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,The_Immortal_Unicorn,2019/02/07,"How to explain my ED to my therapist? I posted here a few days ago that I was telling my therapist everything that's going on with me. Well, I mentioned everything, but didn't have enough time to really talk about it all. The one thing that we skipped was my eating behaviour, mainly because the only thing I said about that was that I don't have a healthy relationship with food and then went on about my depression. I was too scared to say more about it, even the fact the I mentioned it was a huge deal for me. 

Well, I have another appointment tomorrow, so there's my second chance to actually talk about my disordered behaviour. Thing is, I have no idea how to do that. I'm not great at putting my thoughts into words. How did (or would) you guys tell your therapist about this? Any tips or experiences would help me a lot.",4.276296296296299,5.672131135802469,4.825617283950617,84.5102777777778,70.97530864197532,9.350617283950617,28.314814814814817,9.725611199111238,2.4897925925925923,652,24,135,16,12,208,95,162,0.11599999999999999,0.804,0.079,-0.8477,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,2,0,0,16,5,0,1,8,0,16,2,0,3,2,21,22,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,13,5,2,0,3,0,0,3,4,2,2,2,10,2,23,3,19,10,6,14,0,1,0,0,16,5,0,3,5,104,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.13009439829771194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181740588699039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065750970537448,0.1397904557073377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126645546810586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597594942703422,0.13743999813233926,0.11482241593981228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15278841320988856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641262840052812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377481150315011,0.0,0.08805207458053986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23962651623980066,0.13040583602562594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612027833995049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576493217421534,0.0,0.0,0.1469782123553522,0.0,0.1320009724345197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935699058154725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15049431311392275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333806805930045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033643682755783,0.10139065364870738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767714119369186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340165314756122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540381399103024,0.0,0.0,0.14312842605120954,0.0,0.0,0.12681132874248058,0.10601596323739544,0.1334697142264667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143041113387984,0.2330431284685082,0.0,0.0,0.4643605073299538,0.2657019883318102,0.0,0.0,0.1058357454435469,0.07773596658486155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23972905418994506,0.12358262048084676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940366570426767,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cankle_skank,2019/02/07,"Ever dream about B/P I wake up SO relieved it didn’t really happen and then... like worried because, uh, this has transcended waking life and is now my ENTIRE life... oops. ",0.7100000000000009,3.23567878787879,2.717333333333336,87.33600000000001,94.45454545454544,5.0642424242424235,18.72121212121212,6.742157984588678,0.5951866666666663,132,4,24,2,5,44,31,33,0.061,0.716,0.22399999999999998,0.7119,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,3,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25650596502462936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806231355390994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37209782059453217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944242372134134,0.2055737630593212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26956494654981844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273264843821904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basedgore,2019/02/07,"I need to realize i’m sick I just made a post on a public instagram acknowledging i now am a good amount below the bmi marker for even extreme anorexia diagnosis, and i’ve lost about 100lbs in the last year. since i started out big it’s fine i’m just being healthy, i kickbox so it’s fine i’m just being healthy, i don’t look nearly as bad as other people my weight so i’m not really that sick, i eat lunch every day so i’m okay, i get compliments on my abs so it’s fine, i work at a bakery so i’m okay, i love sweets so all is well, i’m not on a fucking feeding tube so i’m alright... no. i can’t do this anymore and i can’t lie to myself anymore. i’m moving to japan in a few months on my own and i don’t want to die before then- and i WILL DIE if i don’t finally at least face the fact that i’m sick. i still think i have a few pounds to lose when i look in the mirror. i have an obsession with exercise, fuck i’m on the treadmill as i type this. i saw a sickly thin girl at school today and envied her, forgetting that i look just as small. i can’t do this anymore i really really can’t ",-1.73475569259962,0.17704509274193825,1.6240607210626197,96.41050284629982,96.05645161290323,4.853130929791272,16.165085388994306,6.522977012572876,-0.3111493358633779,845,22,208,12,34,302,124,248,0.157,0.7090000000000001,0.135,-0.8524,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,0,0,3,17,17,2,1,14,3,16,13,1,1,2,23,41,19,2,3,7,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,10,7,4,0,3,1,0,1,10,6,1,0,3,7,29,11,26,35,6,30,0,2,4,3,4,17,2,1,11,126,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246027739941836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916049689430645,0.0,0.0,0.12143937580583156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920389306150628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962298671256769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603237910190128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426146308170176,0.0,0.12024297070153768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15633656288770545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638741802827718,0.07456234243145067,0.0,0.0,0.1197020014603629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633121948120215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595322584814975,0.15966082034370213,0.15578954005289086,0.0,0.12880524668535673,0.13503974126399226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391320948685152,0.1516827376779918,0.0,0.1058208607308505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989401408061831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668086968238494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742793454180985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444345120550272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118054761140402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101393098469187,0.0,0.11397184114091832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144557437614824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527648920639807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841766041549503,0.0,0.0,0.17378759557510598,0.12831731392352072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389772544265212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190334368240692
EDAnonymous,bribear33,2019/02/07,"Do you guys trust prepackaged meals? I'm going insane with paranoia Not talking about bread, but like quick frozen meals TV dinner type things you put in the microwave or oven... or even canned soup. In the past I've trusted them because I thought since they were are frozen and/or pre-packaged, they have to be accurate with their calories. But now I'm so paranoid about everything... I've been adding 20% of calories to whatever frozen meal/prepackaged food I'm eating because otherwise I feel uncomfortable. Has anyone eaten these and lost weight without adding on extra calories? Do you guys trust them?",7.653730158730159,8.958603685185189,5.723439153439156,81.50833333333334,63.07407407407407,8.023280423280424,33.94708994708995,7.957251820313856,2.5195645502645503,490,20,82,5,7,140,77,108,0.11199999999999999,0.765,0.124,0.5292,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,5,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,9,8,0,0,0,11,17,6,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,8,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,2,10,4,11,11,1,8,0,1,0,0,11,3,0,2,4,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302936112821184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28426167234951605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23857864635148104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399853377345754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954720448078207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789159375650435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819353479402349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325089558861259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617257755350888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390912814213655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25451929092795705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22257551089131336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23438799650053824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287054885663932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874034148827003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489968793547773,0.0,0.0,0.1851012562369452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28392339808457995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475580746347346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lostinagrocerystore,2019/02/07,"Peach will be resurrected One of the guys who’s worked with the peach devs has said that a beta version of peach will be out soon!! They’re updating it and for some reason took the whole thing offline, but it will be back! ",8.241333333333333,5.880956355555563,7.607222222222222,80.5975,63.22222222222222,10.777777777777779,31.38888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.138555555555555,176,4,38,2,2,55,35,45,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.2792,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,6,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,28,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818102139101552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362885328328082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24834489423491984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768154678221179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34861842165036355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434814216262507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071868022600865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091759385320202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668110030304084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peyton2724,2019/02/07,"I feel like I don’t deserve to tell my friends about my disorder... ...because I never lose weight. Or gain. My weight never fucking changes. The last time I’d actually lost weight was way back when I was 11-12 and fully anorexic. 

Then I discovered b/p cycles, started yoyo-ing, and after a while my weight just stuck at the same thing. Always. No matter whether I’m trying to recover or am neck-deep in my ED habits, my weight just doesn’t change any more.

Along with that just making me feel like my ED isn’t real (like we all do, at least at times) - my best friend, and mutual friend of everyone else I know, is a recovering anorexic. 

When she lapses - she loses weight. Even when she’s doing well (which is more often than not, now) she’s still at about 110 pounds. We do our best to help each other in recovery (she’s the only one who knows about my ED), but it’s hard when I’m faced with her - so much skinnier than me. 

I love her till the end of the world, and want the absolute best for her - but it’s taxing on my ED-brain. 

I don’t feel like I deserve to tell our mutual friends about my ED because I don’t look like I have one - not like her. That whole ‘I don’t look sick so I’m not sick’ mentality. I feel like my friends will think I’m just piggy-backing off of her disorder for attention or something. And besides, I have a pretty sure feeling that mine would be so blatantly disregarded (especially compared to how our friend group worries for her and supports her) that it would just hurt more than keeping this under raps. 

Anyone else?

(Tl;dr - I have an anorexic friend and everyone knows about her ED - but I don’t want to tell anyone about mine because, despite having an eating disorder since I was a kid, I haven’t really lost weight)",3.3263878367003383,4.697435639204548,4.244444444444444,87.8524074074074,73.28977272727273,7.3739057239057235,24.684764309764308,7.921354282810032,1.1845085016835015,1363,41,288,19,27,440,170,352,0.091,0.7,0.209,0.9914,0,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,5,0,0,8,25,27,1,0,12,0,25,13,1,2,5,55,51,25,0,4,15,0,13,7,7,3,2,0,0,1,12,13,8,2,10,1,1,0,14,6,1,2,6,15,51,21,35,41,12,29,0,5,2,2,33,10,1,4,25,190,63,1,0.0,0.0,0.06480005018135854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05525287202591147,0.0,0.0,0.04515652676129549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286147433888606,0.06803803660985905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212009061713463,0.0,0.1214365213560548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905852614218615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741280530388116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049179099200154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283118329308969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794716207147179,0.11094288692134678,0.0,0.05881362167389244,0.0,0.0,0.04385875891700141,0.0,0.0,0.12690241360666285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16787753955222293,0.18975414708370028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591212193085884,0.06138878858379439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594843213647788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04450873788192372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108611500105315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059022311531193423,0.0,0.0,0.1094805650586571,0.05412755905692347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270891161786504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152410986843736,0.1485766335257415,0.14497411042830846,0.0,0.05993157836645757,0.0,0.044324723970281185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691891661693011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04881407211802317,0.0,0.10242865010542546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999320057170868,0.05050270826666742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755603703739628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558150246475401,0.042539659698748934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492950288044268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05112051095900184,0.0,0.0,0.04700060344359591,0.0,0.05302976784472034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535368742885297,0.06258433229232067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741182550914536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04411540748481983,0.04254855875846012,0.0,0.0,0.07744060622914667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045083487558811385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833278345963847,0.05270785536828234,0.0,0.5660293831150468,0.05970454894563771,0.0,0.0,0.07413692240154687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743578294784552,0.0,0.09434201013085174,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AgitatedSink,2019/02/07,"How tf am I supposed to maintain?? My tdee is 1500. It's not physically possible for me to eat only 1500 on the weekends, because I eat with my family and it usually totals to 2000-2500 calories because we have at least 2 meals + coffee and snacks. And no ""low calorie"" stuff, just normal food that any other normal person eats..

This always results in me restricting/fasting on the weekdays to make up for it. How tf am i supposed to have ""normal"" eating habits and still maintain my weight? Sometimes all it takes is one meal to put me at tdee.

Not sure what the point of this post is, just wanted to let my thoughts out. I know I can exercise to raise tdee but I'm lazy and depressed so no.. Why can't they invent pills that increase my bmr to 2000 or something .__.",2.915298582995952,4.762593414473685,3.952894736842108,87.54757085020245,75.38157894736842,6.2558704453441285,26.16599190283401,7.010146845296331,1.1824538461538454,597,22,118,6,13,193,100,152,0.085,0.895,0.02,-0.8369,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,10,11,0,4,3,27,16,10,0,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,11,8,9,0,2,2,0,2,5,2,0,1,1,1,15,1,20,14,4,15,0,2,0,0,3,9,0,1,3,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976038354531213,0.0,0.0,0.0978765947582014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754754560352913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239657598209142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5891008298485428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568336759300248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403941003854956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909956521375343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717706259693453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607366546903763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230593202361599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975299547495354,0.10946442221603812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256731731615785,0.0,0.0,0.13605934247660886,0.16225822101439713,0.13784411075390265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468830861080464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108035071301146,0.1423493728616445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494181394632763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476416797638485,0.0,0.0,0.13565129493613765,0.0,0.10821662861667614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426347802156862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851736093100185,0.0,0.0848930005565935,0.0,0.0,0.17526663846796314,0.0,0.0,0.12987345512982876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_itsanotherthrowaway,2019/02/07,"Overestimating clothes size when shopping. **Meaningless vent ahead**
Today, after a therapy appointment, I browsed some of the clothing stores in my town. I tried on medium sized items, only to find that they were too big and wouldn't fit correctly.

My delusional ED brain was content about me going down yet another size, but I refuse to believe it. I have never wore size S clothes before and even though it seems like I've reached a new goal, I still feel like garbage. 

I never expected an eating disorder to cure my problems, but I didn't think it would make things worse either. The first time I lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time I felt an incredible sense of accomplishment, a ""high"" of sorts, but in the end restricting only accounted for so much weight loss before it caught up with me and came to a hault, resulting in me plateauing at the same weight for months.

I'm not entirely sure what the point of this post is, other than simply typing out my insignifincant thoughts for an online audience to read as I don't have anyone IRL to talk to. 

TL;DR I'm a sensitive cunt who can't handle going down a clothes size and I would like to apologise for wasting the community's time with this post.",5.451767241379309,6.6665211594827625,5.527068965517246,81.26232758620691,68.00862068965517,9.248275862068963,29.15517241379311,9.516144504307137,2.5107362068965524,967,34,185,20,16,304,148,232,0.15,0.7879999999999999,0.062,-0.9689,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,6,8,8,1,0,17,0,11,5,1,2,4,36,25,11,0,5,5,0,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,8,4,2,6,2,3,4,7,4,0,1,9,5,19,4,35,13,7,37,0,2,0,0,4,16,1,4,18,117,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220033104077053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815437191533089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21456059277037767,0.1420430303348637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407410770390136,0.0,0.14419588695241806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449254567013378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129005907745566,0.0,0.0,0.11166477628401768,0.0,0.0,0.08327116003358853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374716388374266,0.09006780138686722,0.12105149728661126,0.0,0.11523000521801847,0.10723908793551044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330233153660205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320485808381194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478121199706984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762544413361358,0.10718421398045716,0.0,0.0,0.08415585106178539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063163446654257,0.0,0.09267942166177798,0.0,0.1944731845033355,0.12176374509782248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19177100337753092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918135635947065,0.0,0.24148945286340145,0.0,0.0,0.12063647522487622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610883232827874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477368524592645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068343003271787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188239265906118,0.0,0.0,0.10133408006659847,0.0,0.0,0.14417742380262585,0.0,0.08375843839008837,0.08078358651869746,0.12386776709608285,0.10008924080536637,0.22054554005764376,0.0,0.11950408802507435,0.0,0.0,0.08559645553323714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.460575113409091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284809051638594,0.1791197201535791,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gabyisacat,2019/02/07,Fasting apps??? Hey what are you guys using for fasting apps? And are they just counters or do they have additional stats? I need something to keep me accountable 😅,2.7300000000000004,5.733579666666667,3.068333333333332,86.4225,85.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.7559999999999998,130,6,23,2,4,40,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5176433538742511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646789297793824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38764145753484897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024685530936855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515218871548067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NueNesta,2019/02/07,"So.. today I learned this thing... About my anti depressant. (Lexapro) I didn't know it causes appetite loss and drowsiness. 

I feel bitter-sweet now. On one hand, I feel less anxiety when it's time to eat. On the other hand I feel like it's... Weakened my willpower? 

Like I fear once come off it, my appetite will come back full force, I won't be able to control it and I may end up binging... I'm scared... ",-0.3795528455284547,1.882938646341465,1.1774390243902455,98.79184959349595,95.46341463414636,3.7089430894308943,20.247967479674802,5.46131890053228,-0.2323447154471543,307,11,68,2,12,98,57,82,0.16899999999999998,0.695,0.13699999999999998,-0.1796,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,2,1,0,5,3,2,2,0,12,12,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,1,5,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,5,11,2,7,7,2,13,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,1,8,41,19,1,0.22564066797814644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726144933976146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17350374570797233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317951215961438,0.0,0.3887389117460216,0.0,0.0,0.2530751957529266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19434397669506787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23088673459615885,0.0,0.0,0.1998506581301396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539084833152304,0.3422721044197159,0.16119773828872508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400621010752845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22047326564748168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402999472819698,0.15289995624837813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259056719789153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990563356913966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157288805224218,0.0,0.21388096977248466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beaglesarebest,2019/02/07,"My ex told everyone about my relapse My ex and I have a really close friendship, and he knows about my latest relapse and how bad it really is. Last night he promised me not to tell my parents or friends as I wanted to tell them myself. Well, he obviously changed his mind and told my friends today, who in turn told my parents. My mum called me and was freaking out, and now they want me to move back in with them in my hometown, far away from all my friends and my studies. 

I'm terrified of losing my friends over this. They supported me so much last year when I got ill, but our friendship is relatively new and I'm not sure its strong enough to take this one more time. That's why I was afraid of telling them in the first place, I feel like such a burden and like the worst person in the world for not admitting to them earlier that I've relapsed. 

What am I gonna do? I'm having a really bad anxiety attack. I haven't eaten in over 70 hours and now I never want to eat again. ",4.847446633825946,4.695147763546796,5.4232635467980295,86.31088875205255,68.90147783251231,8.934154351395732,29.23193760262727,8.59863814320734,1.844747454844006,768,25,171,11,12,248,120,203,0.166,0.7070000000000001,0.126,-0.9325,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,6,3,11,19,1,1,6,0,9,3,0,1,4,30,27,16,0,3,5,5,1,2,4,1,1,0,0,1,8,13,2,0,3,0,0,1,5,8,1,2,7,1,33,11,24,19,5,31,0,1,0,0,30,14,0,1,18,112,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09104006851057593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538770127351082,0.11181104217223796,0.09150907658553327,0.1987318338211856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151950516690566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589368050725824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177392362643832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296609658660396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371633745566465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06017354090086417,0.08501866122997423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122733704400133,0.0,0.0,0.3677782105094069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951808104284649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719797338902024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540316309315355,0.19401326094385196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162816679771023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313844958385215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016319671973165,0.0,0.0,0.12648566178984044,0.08748387583491678,0.0,0.0917855745172778,0.11493775172882326,0.0,0.1116800558896151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064225788996679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642864938751364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391236688228593,0.1243370392524895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22871689324424735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504779152188195,0.11216273746297488,0.0,0.0894784919699794,0.0,0.3120522248622016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693939686444429,0.0,0.11280476950647825,0.3411490123669939,0.0,0.0,0.1294454980831877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058032667560075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700163129417292,0.0,0.1073853534387144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663663924003017
EDAnonymous,teeandcookies,2019/02/07,"I’m thinking of telling my mum about my problem But I’m worried she won’t understand. I keep getting sick and I’m worried it’s due to not eating properly; I restrict and then binge, constantly. But I don’t binge on anything with protein, just junk food, and I hate it. I’m gaining weight and getting ill constantly.
So I want to tell my mum what’s been happening. I want to ask if I can order these meals that come with everything fresh and you prepare it again, like I used to. I want to loose weight gradually and healthily, but I’m unsure how to explain.
My mum will likely just think I’m greedy. I don’t know why I’m posting this really, just needed somewhere to share.",2.1635373385738355,4.267268576642337,3.506861313868616,88.69028635597981,78.56204379562044,6.55115103874228,27.32678270634475,7.61054688173877,1.5927241998877033,533,23,109,8,13,174,81,137,0.14300000000000002,0.753,0.10400000000000001,-0.7157,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,7,5,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,2,0,31,30,13,0,6,8,3,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,9,5,2,5,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,2,16,3,12,27,0,9,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,7,59,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262538741960514,0.0,0.15066788804628345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882971672675165,0.0,0.3483250726083837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491243346841242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484506449298273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948818346512472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684045334479592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251802602174055,0.0,0.0,0.1591174608072954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325120765605232,0.0,0.0,0.08857228592970877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747454186247922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195020978372824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543518976169826,0.0,0.0,0.15421351659044444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032466785361781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28173131673698304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065365543317504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677788593859133,0.0,0.13919515491863324,0.0,0.0,0.2851785758269427,0.0,0.0,0.3925120643678111,0.0,0.0,0.14542670078341066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327342562359823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Grellous8,2019/02/07,"Just a revelation. Nothing to see here... K listen up, motherfuckers. I just made a life-changing discovery in the middle of a binge and if our want to have your mind blown, you will read the rest of this.

I just added chocolate chips to a big ass bowl of milk and raisin bran. Tasted like an oatmeal raisin cookie. It will highkey be your next addiction. 

Also, you will have no trouble pooping afterwards cuz of the chocolate and fibre...

Anyway, I don’t really know what the point of this post was except for a sort of rant post, so thanks for listening to my TedTalk.",3.8544546381243587,5.761105862385322,4.397553516819574,85.10552497451582,72.94495412844037,7.413251783893987,25.87257900101937,8.167268648758528,1.5975007135575936,445,15,86,7,9,141,78,109,0.102,0.8340000000000001,0.064,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,4,0,0,7,3,0,0,10,0,8,5,2,2,0,14,15,7,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,4,9,2,15,9,1,9,0,0,1,1,7,5,1,2,3,60,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746278291739477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20145875168945035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664958648149905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844755701729555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793714949140987,0.12307442099089658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383709241445968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543653891103173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679176750249195,0.0,0.0,0.24172213698938305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381439584953717,0.0,0.4825356582309273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519861952342929,0.0,0.16138513603259444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007460481074563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319322689928281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858777672376752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theaxiomofhope,2019/02/07,"Please help me eat post being abandoned suddenly without an explanation by my boyfriend I can’t think about it without filling in the gaps and validating all the ways I hate myself and should be alone as not to hurt others and as to not be a burden to those I am around. Not eating numbs me out and makes me think less. Eating also feels like taking up resources I don’t deserve. I just..: I don’t know how to stop. 

(Yes therapy and yes CBT and yes antidepressants (please don’t advise these it feels condescending))",4.131,5.939602699999997,4.743000000000002,83.32150000000003,72.0,7.4,25.5,8.07648339933343,1.4788,410,13,79,6,8,131,67,100,0.1,0.698,0.20199999999999999,0.8442,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,4,3,9,4,0,2,1,25,17,10,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,8,3,2,5,0,0,1,9,5,0,0,0,2,11,1,14,13,2,9,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,57,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850769348907227,0.0,0.14290449392477247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907884779137793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5485571070168911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18070986262926614,0.1276616795503563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642699247626714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977730805886633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129959420051604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820758792934464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730267461351238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928210886808285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923128467791525,0.0,0.0,0.17114300933037754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939928690414114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435843852706242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20435640475809927,0.0,0.0,0.22900455382009965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184192430522502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34451643071127136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rhvny,2019/02/07,"Sent someone a text opening up on my struggles. Sent one of my friends a message expressing my struggles mentally. I can't open up to my parents cos I just left home and i don't want to burden them even more with my struggles so i decided to open up to a long time friend about how I've been feeling. 




She replied with "" 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 That's messed up""


Anyone I can really talk to?",-0.000333333333330188,1.2993822444444447,2.9575,93.89625000000002,82.1111111111111,6.277777777777778,25.69444444444445,7.1686216300943375,0.9781111111111112,302,13,76,4,8,108,53,90,0.14400000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.132,0.0217,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,12,8,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,3,1,12,2,14,5,1,13,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,0,2,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506431636930411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229845575778796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893474974932807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329023581236729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21610748158994933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23408008509062805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19066079279204096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171164604450776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14599014867576368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392246047132805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380186770685677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825446501244951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6756852374486267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316539247557786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562688675491493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270742081713907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oopswellfuck,2019/02/07,"Has anyone's therapist let them pick and choose parts of recovery? I know this kind of defeats the point of therapy... but from a harm reduction standpoint it would make sense. 

I'm new to purging and EC stacking and other super fun behaviors and want to nip these in the bud before they spiral too far... but I don't feel ready to stop restricting. My BMI's 20ish so if I keep losing it won't be a health risk or anything. Is there any point in my seeking out therapy or will they all have an all or nothing approach? ",3.5476923076923086,4.990359153846157,4.456923076923079,86.26307692307695,72.84615384615384,7.892307692307693,27.42307692307693,8.472884824447931,1.8619653846153843,408,15,83,7,8,132,80,104,0.16699999999999998,0.718,0.115,-0.7266,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,3,3,7,0,1,5,0,9,1,0,2,2,23,15,11,0,3,6,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,1,8,3,10,10,3,9,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,4,2,53,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061317086205372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458094205008554,0.0,0.17015709362570225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594914441317155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455096902267016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219790718107624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378991856217253,0.0,0.2153229346721555,0.11363738906112368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21144006389927889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313268208879453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802301532164404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19970327723165404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984048914804415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239157102841948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909358640501533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17287202801065293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729273728082197,0.2400801418105643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12196045460864847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468860665494026,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Internalheterophobia,2019/02/07,"B/R cycle means I’ve gone almost a month with no weight loss!!! Fuck me I literally cried stepping on the scale this morning. Limiting my calorie intake is only an option for me when I’m generically depressed and bc of all my binge eating in like the last few weeks my weight is the same on the scale despite the fact I was scheduled to be 7 lbs down if I’d just stop fucking eating. Another fun new related change is that I used to be able to get away with restricting by only eating when other ppl were around (I was alone all the time so I could get away with one meal weekdays and 2 on weekends), but that strategy went to hell in my first year of college and I just committed to gaining a shit ton of weight. I live mostly alone now and went back with almost no problem but I can’t even use my restricting trick when I’m out with my friends bc now I have anxiety eating bc I know I’m going to sit down and eat thousands of calories later without even thinking about it. I lost what I gained last year && a bit more but I have a new low weight and it feels like I’m never going to get there :(. I got anxiety trying to eat a bagel with my friend this week bc I knew I would eat fucking 10 bagels if no one was watching me and that stresses me tf out. ",3.605213350232361,4.307490486692013,4.690082382762991,87.4609959864808,71.88973384030419,7.517448246725812,26.77841149133925,7.594959193182576,1.2946317701732148,990,32,214,11,18,325,146,263,0.193,0.7170000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9743,0,2,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,6,14,17,6,1,12,0,14,16,1,2,5,48,38,16,0,5,8,0,5,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,9,16,12,4,5,1,0,6,6,12,0,4,10,6,27,5,34,24,8,42,1,4,1,3,2,13,5,6,24,135,36,1,0.08072708779442482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167303484488893,0.1672178338783546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493553179567656,0.0,0.0,0.08464939027690442,0.12351200240595805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186422327354013,0.0,0.0,0.15169151271218398,0.06207414752816449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813307173908194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539855485665113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445401078092958,0.0,0.08867491529016377,0.0,0.0,0.0695301224267776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5782277504728074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663896026583984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04081804116645174,0.05767144765037194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866641963848585,0.0,0.0,0.12473909555554615,0.22389267554094988,0.12652971445473346,0.0,0.0917581287000798,0.0,0.0645648266690173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0443654962560822,0.13160670210667227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788783548272937,0.0,0.07128349751128679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812315249729394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793546456486066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443559129616759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062261706774162325,0.15593344886835933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940552784591108,0.12279317593911193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077244920587917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286519554155374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749146011584826,0.09247260632015472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05172665824172841,0.0,0.0,0.04707261408297235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054808393547200115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944456913550293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950880089163244,0.3932153797181437,0.0,0.1496696383110316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781803188097969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057346206995859,0.0,0.0,0.10397119559614076
EDAnonymous,cloudjm,2019/02/07,"Does anyone else think back to their childhood and realise how badly it impacted on your ED? When i think back most of my childhood are memories of my mum and aunt trying to lose weight and always putting themselves down about how they look and my dad always commenting on my grandma being overweight and always eating. 
as a kid i was always thin but my family would make jokes about how huge i was and that i needed to lose weight but then would say ‘enjoy it whilst it lasts because being overweight runs in our family’ 

we used to live next to a woman with severe bulimia who ended up dying from it, and i always remember my parents telling me how ‘ridiculous’ she was cos she would stay thin by eating lots and throwing it up but i remember thinking she had the perfect solution to managing weight. 

my brothers old girlfriend used to show me how she avoided eating food by tearing it up into small pieces and moving it around the plate more which is something i started doing and still do to this around family 

it just seems like a lot of memories are to do with weight and food and to this day they still impact my feelings around food i was wondering if anyone else experienced the same? ",14.640981749528002,8.075435854625553,12.651856513530527,62.113832599118965,56.092511013215855,15.43838892385148,46.966016362492134,11.20814326018867,5.191462429200756,957,33,169,14,7,300,127,227,0.08,0.85,0.07,-0.1556,1,1,1,0,0,0,5.0,2,1,3,3,16,9,1,1,6,0,16,12,0,9,1,51,28,24,1,5,5,5,7,1,1,3,2,1,0,2,13,19,12,1,8,2,0,4,0,5,0,0,5,10,28,4,32,18,6,35,0,2,1,0,22,15,0,6,16,129,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35468863387523464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119222434111492,0.17470453478245965,0.0,0.2276810220640673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13110933098724886,0.07118309666749466,0.0519697315066152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05498144322909323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847965482264489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460589686052903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26170678779768203,0.14243668992212172,0.0,0.07550928073018545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24110818719753746,0.0,0.043106722223735024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30926654754910204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949296669283705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041650545124639206,0.0,0.07528038677370125,0.0,0.07159145348107374,0.19075367936100446,0.0,0.14495892389036194,0.0,0.0,0.05690736142925978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061095967483017,0.0,0.06321437687124595,0.0,0.0,0.09066804558958047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894591884785847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466390300788116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570329686605865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19315115251113465,0.0,0.0,0.06779699093711494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761156837523721,0.0,0.09631216854289884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563229577115623,0.0,0.0,0.060342853558464166,0.0908688687788626,0.1361670821581472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451530121627617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16388096719013312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057881518285843925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726327220898014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152630960042705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245376486781788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168488331971014,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wheresmywinegums,2019/02/07,"What do you do to make yourself feel prettier/more attractive? I gained a stupid amount of weight bingeing and I hate myself for it. But I’ve finally, FINALLY hit a breaking point and am able to restrict again and have turned it around. 

That said, I still hate looking in the mirror. It’s going to take till mf May to get back to my goal weight. I can’t stand my face or my body. I don’t feel pretty or attractive whatsoever (not that I did much at my goal weight either). 

I’m bad at doing my makeup (despite a hundred hours of YouTube tutorials) and my hair is a fried mess (I’m just trying to stop it from falling out at this point). How can I make myself feel prettier? What do y’all do when you want to feel more attractive? I’ve had bad self esteem my entire life but it’s at an all-time low right now. I also don’t want to spend any money if I can help it— but I have a whole whackload of skincare and hair care stuff at home already anyways. ",1.9965597147950118,3.6340746868686895,3.434171122994652,91.18596256684494,77.38383838383838,6.477005347593582,22.758169934640517,7.285733465282438,0.6845599524658348,740,22,164,9,17,243,116,198,0.106,0.777,0.11699999999999999,0.509,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,3,10,11,3,0,7,0,17,8,4,3,0,28,37,15,0,3,9,0,9,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,11,7,3,2,4,0,2,2,4,7,0,0,3,11,22,4,22,32,5,26,0,1,1,0,6,12,0,4,10,104,33,2,0.13213426733257205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14581344972819588,0.10566772584706194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985583286324503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762751201746426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160309541717986,0.220653187941328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677138346819746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471969183284224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672442230154299,0.0,0.0,0.2894932623817412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903470104050334,0.0,0.0750949491604863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609104662981093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885668141222069,0.0,0.1325414437042014,0.0,0.13012563690132592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333034069152618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109595056937566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640129896778595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713389005309854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24981918439774375,0.0,0.0,0.13442805300381164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284194233264565,0.12568994667603184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784485824079212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552259657658336,0.11047016407086356,0.0,0.0,0.15126212324930832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934852472162772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971049399771246,0.14372413954781085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587242870713885,0.0,0.0,0.482711821296596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752319069009032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,origami-apple,2019/02/07,"how did i allow myself to gain i gained 1kg+ in the end, in the midst of chinese new year and i think im supposed to be more upset than i am but im currently just sitting on the sofa thinking about how did i allow myself to gain",1.4761764705882356,2.515749117647061,3.958970588235297,89.38786764705885,77.43137254901961,5.8843137254901965,22.553921568627448,5.985473137389443,0.34307450980392096,179,5,40,1,4,63,34,51,0.037000000000000005,0.726,0.237,0.8574,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,4,0,9,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,9,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30484777287228043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7435626577590836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324182230504505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4410826270268517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22164532587025296
EDAnonymous,roithamerschen,2019/02/07,I spent $60 getting bronkaid shipped to Europe because it's illegal here. Now I can't afford to go food shopping for the next week. Win/win,1.5936781609195378,3.84683296551724,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,81.41379310344827,5.2459770114942526,30.356321839080447,6.42735559955562,1.4985080459770113,112,6,23,1,3,36,26,29,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.5574,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973007141185231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5897353630905621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548059670537213,0.0,0.2771742450287613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5186802763851476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912078920991244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Recoveryviacoffee,2019/02/07,"Double digits!!! I'm FINALLY under 100 lbs! 99!

I always wanted to be under because a lot of anorexics I had seen on ProED were under 100 lbs, and I thought this would make my disorder feel ""real"". 

...Except most of them were under 5'3 or so. I'm 5'8. I thought I'd feel happy, but instead I feel so fat yet so disgustingly thin at the same time. 

Sorry, just confused and conflicted 😞",0.4036363636363661,2.807032285714289,3.1974155844155843,85.85326623376626,89.77922077922076,5.6774025974025975,20.687012987012988,7.1686216300943375,0.9326997402597408,294,10,57,5,10,103,56,77,0.183,0.787,0.03,-0.9194,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,6,3,1,1,2,0,5,1,1,1,0,20,15,7,0,2,4,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,5,7,1,10,7,4,10,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,4,3,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189517857637852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16040640201400533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015787939963241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991512375032961,0.0,0.0,0.2882546723859815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801151535821705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22371040552821814,0.0,0.0,0.17564657023129332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995085020667725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945612998823144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41780414891436396,0.15343780696639775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520553225081699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18692559167791373,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throoaweigh,2019/02/07,"been threatening to go veggie for months now and finally did it as an excuse to dump half my food 👌 (except my tuna that shit's expensive and i have to wait for it to run out lmao)

new year new me or whatever, now i can pretend i'm being healthy instead of just finding an excuse to restrict my intake even further",7.446256410256409,5.357981523076923,8.290769230769232,74.21256410256413,64.53846153846155,11.12820512820513,37.05128205128205,9.725611199111238,3.46874358974359,249,10,49,4,3,85,50,65,0.146,0.7759999999999999,0.078,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,2,0,5,2,1,0,0,9,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,6,0,11,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,7,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207896934252418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448057251959168,0.2876862146396569,0.0,0.3806107308812958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888615569703914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512395442307444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079970375990758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323098050963175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026960199265961
EDAnonymous,Vikite,2019/02/07,"ED be creeping up where you don't expect it At my workplace after your trial your colleagues fill out evaluations about the work you did. It's just comments about what kind of work you do, did you accomplish the goals they set up for you. And you can read them (they are anonymous though). One of the comments I got was ""She should stop counting calories, she is quite skinny that does not need to count them"".
I think I did an audible gasp. Even at my workplace I am being watch, people look at my eating habits, fuck.",4.764186704384726,5.842645475247526,4.524271570014147,88.32465346534653,69.4950495049505,6.9595473833097605,26.309759547383308,6.868970318607317,0.9983482319660542,407,12,82,3,7,124,73,101,0.057,0.915,0.027999999999999997,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,8,4,5,6,2,1,0,4,0,13,3,1,0,0,9,18,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,2,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,3,21,1,13,10,0,11,0,0,2,1,16,7,1,0,2,62,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395144409217393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800607708975388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807745527323781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25302883786609165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218900815128708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850137265126157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22983688524446885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20294315559046608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18546444295303025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974731684371984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911108771271547,0.2737714684237794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22882328344692096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753742437975446,0.2689063078468054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985099367814264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sxxbrinx,2019/02/07,"ED Manifests In Other Ways? Even when I’m doing okay eating-wise, it’s like my ED/self-destructive tendencies come through in different ways. Like I’ll turn to plastic surgery, “fitness”, buy expensive clothes/makeup, overshare excessively, etc. Does anybody else experience this? ",6.412826086956521,9.998973760869564,5.954521739130435,68.75786956521742,72.26086956521739,9.76695652173913,39.63478260869565,9.888512548439397,5.351500869565218,227,14,31,7,5,70,41,46,0.0,0.789,0.21100000000000002,0.8105,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520459262435503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30570100557238955,0.0,0.0,0.25605311788249163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444267818641858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263223768440554,0.19325719018362966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862154648134708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28589568357059914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052419015799081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182609073591641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644988723167366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fawndofyou,2019/02/07,"Cheap, healthy meals? Anyone have some cheap and healthy meals they eat? I'm tired of all food so I have no idea what to eat anymore, but I'm hoping y'all can help. :-( 💕",-1.9810714285714253,-0.4844201388888862,-0.8009523809523795,109.96500000000002,111.5,2.0571428571428574,13.476190476190474,3.1291,-1.931780952380952,129,3,33,0,7,39,27,36,0.16,0.578,0.262,0.6565,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969478041971645,0.20936397868375792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6127702922156346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36206426724531104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069736164526694,0.0,0.0,0.2973952462551985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380128559389763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34414343975686496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rot-and-poetry,2019/02/07,"Broke my clean streak and now I want to purge every time I put food in my mouth I broke my streak late last week and spent the weekend restricting, but now every meal I eat is carbs no matter what I say on the matter and I feel like garbage for not purging the easy meals before I eat something that'll suck to get up. ",7.381592039800992,4.9018939253731375,6.681194029850747,86.93980099502491,64.97014925373135,9.530348258706468,29.796019900497512,6.42735559955562,1.2851034825870644,251,5,58,1,3,77,48,67,0.214,0.6679999999999999,0.11900000000000001,-0.8320000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,2,6,1,0,0,10,7,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,5,1,1,1,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,2,10,1,6,5,0,11,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,8,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127614088105262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116965482324451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213306215757652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642523233607592,0.17862508733879842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023433709846683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063299209716892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038119348129798,0.28205042346442444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122154494071168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513542821006523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883790482664368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248919457508049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579744647319012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474771487423373,0.0,0.20056303260025504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mediocremermaidd,2019/02/07,"Measuring tapes LIE Y'all check your tape measurers just noticed the one I've been using since september had a manufacturing flaw and I am THRIVING my waist and hips are 1.5"" smaller than I thought !!  this is the best part of 2019 so far- my life is blessed

[https://imgur.com/a/edumeHs](https://imgur.com/a/edumeHs)

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EDAnonymous,binkybarnes6969420,2019/02/07,"I am scared Ever since about Monday, I’ve had this awful feeling of being unable to take in a full breath of air. Yesterday I noticed I was excessively yawning, too. I’ve been restricting, but not excessively. I’ve been sitting at 900-1000 calories/day. 

Today it feels worse, and my ribcage hurts from trying to breathe. I’ve been feeling nauseous and headachey for a few hours. I know there’s something wrong with me but has anyone ever experienced this? Do I need to go to the ER?",2.6170967741935485,5.2326382903225825,3.643451612903228,85.50517741935484,80.07526881720429,5.870537634408603,26.504301075268817,7.1686216300943375,1.455228817204301,383,16,71,5,10,123,69,93,0.203,0.765,0.032,-0.9502,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,3,1,9,3,2,0,2,14,16,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,5,4,7,0,12,10,2,12,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,6,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671294808244624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414917721382546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324174961249754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362569552902764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13584150025849226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353881577440229,0.0,0.2558775978636171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136003657697712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772315095874203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721277093263639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23930234871596426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197721161842676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401052787251507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797145187196558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22656455663043634,0.0,0.0,0.16227999658853232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358346057432986,0.0,0.2613326295334936,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,godonvideocall,2019/02/07,"had a great day restricting and decided to eat some more highkey proud of myself right now lol

i’m actually gonna eat some more, slowly over the next couple hours, and get myself to 1000-1200. i’m anemic (which can fuck up your heart if you don’t take care of it) and i need to take better care of myself. 

it’s funny, i had a freak out over peanut butter yesterday but today i ate healthy food restricted well, and i’m okay to eat more. tomorrow i might not be, but right now like yeah i wanna do better for my body. still hope i don’t panic tomorrow morning though",0.6626739926739944,3.022373564102565,2.4949267399267403,92.06019230769232,86.86324786324785,5.736019536019538,16.904151404151403,7.1686216300943375,0.13342539682539736,445,10,95,7,14,147,78,117,0.10400000000000001,0.617,0.27899999999999997,0.9647,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,3,5,13,1,1,3,3,8,8,2,0,0,18,21,8,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,5,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,1,12,10,13,15,5,16,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,5,11,57,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.1531285906362954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775610940357806,0.0,0.17429967915802036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199751682904835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736259414240516,0.0,0.10119863834760287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4816965327937475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974494944912876,0.0,0.0,0.14506745983061295,0.08198278136920914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730018110442581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18594768490312455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585422553966385,0.1545318728091752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666183725818491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16646439419276318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635214515389865,0.0,0.0,0.16688326490579922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18410857140821704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680129311230445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531431054613598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359644717466945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417039156781645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873919564957716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108744374477805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,duskedfur,2019/02/07,"can’t decide if i broke my “no binge” streak so i haven’t binged in a month as of today... except i did, once. over the weekend i got completely blackout drunk to the point where i have absolutely 0 memory of anything i did. i’ve been restricting for a month and haven’t drank anything since new years and totally lost control because my tolerance went WAYYY down. apparently, according to my friends (and my poor stomach, and my scale) i ate EVERYTHING. including mcnuggets with jam? what the fuck? consciously, i haven’t had an urge to binge in a long time. i have a sobriety clock going and i haven’t stopped it because i genuinely don’t remember doing it and i was so piss drunk i don’t think i had any control over anything i did that night considering i vomited all over myself and passed out on the floor but i still feel so, so guilty. i don’t want to break my streak because i didn’t consciously want to binge before i did it and i haven’t wanted to binge/binged since but it still happened. ughhhh",2.7178471303887872,4.982324788944722,3.8525257868288816,86.09667283787356,77.4924623115578,7.807564136471832,26.05157365776249,8.6894789155246,2.017757788944724,799,31,160,18,19,259,106,199,0.138,0.821,0.040999999999999995,-0.9353,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,7,5,2,0,9,0,21,8,2,2,2,29,34,16,0,4,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,10,4,4,6,3,1,3,11,4,0,0,14,1,28,1,20,20,2,28,0,2,0,1,1,11,2,1,13,105,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406138879938086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777764920925041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27984554990416177,0.0,0.130211929746323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604424772035328,0.0,0.34325826660070075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752786809448814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737339944843058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822575987781307,0.14146797938004102,0.0,0.0,0.08696691636426389,0.0,0.12238706173598632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531838556193496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13542119217053636,0.0,0.0,0.1670434857719754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442841744278433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779127907513692,0.0,0.14360241138221178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296528611357372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465689343018462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334606421246304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531656336641808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24440990861858,0.12793469636640314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805143206036944,0.0,0.0,0.0892293718277968,0.0,0.14504861040324013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707720949760207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185453759426755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854226976725856
EDAnonymous,Perfect_Difficulty,2019/02/07,"I love how all the edgy dramatic ed media is about anorexic teenagers because I spent my teens hating myself for binging all the time and now I'm staring at my ribcage in the mirror and some song comes on talking about fuckin high school shit and I'm like wow! I'm an adult! I have 4 packs of chips in my closet that I'm too scared to open! I managed to convince myself that wine calories were worth it and then decided not to drink because I have homework and then was too tired and hungry to do the homework! When I drive home each day i'm excited to be reunited with my family of strawberry guava diet coke! When will they write songs about me and the fact that like 50% of my grocery money goes to almond milk

sorry teenagers I'm just mad because I wish I was like u when I was your age also maybe if I'd killed off my brain cells 5 years ago I wouldn't have to deal with so much math rn

and also I'm inherently edgy I guess",3.3356703296703323,4.2978024974359,4.18368131868132,89.87596153846157,72.74358974358975,7.007326007326008,25.21062271062271,7.1686216300943375,0.9119084249084248,737,22,161,7,14,237,123,195,0.107,0.767,0.126,0.45299999999999996,1,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,0,14,13,5,1,6,0,12,10,2,1,3,26,25,18,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,2,4,1,4,13,5,0,1,4,3,2,2,6,0,0,5,3,22,7,21,17,5,20,0,0,1,2,8,7,2,3,14,93,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069788516454095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289946503988776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315282809128136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023735999429281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616065550012226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691358814329908,0.18689649190436855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758992024822914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089901392447954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19970545661168215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898103926905318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153716333174944,0.18184326353005772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005645819926433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265699537479726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361645513516335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212477573802596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326506089706455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149753858688192,0.1834697224667259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18608606612688816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293329972557456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570971752829334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570852478851504,0.2083600125285109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20846837621976147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674135716781715
EDAnonymous,DaynaDuffy,2019/02/07,"What to expect I’m going to see a dietician on Friday for the first time because I’m in denial about how bad my eating/restriction has gotten. My therapist believes I desperately need the nutrition counseling. The dietician I am set to meet specializes in eating disorders, and I’m pretty anxious. Can anyone share with me what I can expect to experience?",6.0113846153846175,8.065973523076927,7.633846153846152,63.48615384615386,67.61538461538461,11.353846153846154,33.0,11.20814326018867,4.7566000000000015,289,13,42,10,5,100,46,65,0.124,0.794,0.08199999999999999,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,6,11,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,6,2,10,10,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32113956462692683,0.0,0.1987653334130537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373501606125049,0.17328585995215054,0.0,0.0,0.32027033566329177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257933598960885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29087499244994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780666058131257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417964373779012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155486726227306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21077956995176786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892006253702077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22652312581624665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005463068776425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575773781786354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lamekittenx,2019/02/07,"peach :(( im a sad gorl i feel so deprived and it's sad how reliant i am on that app but i love and miss my peachies :( i know mpa is a thing but im not a huge fan of forums, anyone know of any backups we might have? 

i know peach always comes back up it's just been down for a lot longer than i remember it ever being and im sad thinking about how i might lose touch with some people i am not connected with outside of peach :(",-0.5172631578947353,1.2619183789473707,1.778157894736843,99.23460526315789,86.26315789473685,4.642105263157895,17.921052631578945,5.6839178017228535,-0.6095473684210528,326,8,82,2,10,110,61,95,0.275,0.6579999999999999,0.067,-0.9625,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,2,1,25,16,8,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,2,10,1,11,12,2,7,0,6,0,1,2,4,0,4,2,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961327179636578,0.0,0.0,0.13044717342386192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412808420269046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750112692692488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523973972122116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351615658964584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969921829094714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6216098243032459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162650292446744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460244255187205,0.0,0.16308224953128786,0.17312901494974886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069907601556335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298688956830587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172996570732065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274396111387627,0.12291333327384088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretweightloss,2019/02/07,"Food vouchers are the last thing I need I’ve lost my job and i’m trying to figure out applying for benefits, I went to the citizens advice place today for help and the lady there was just completely condescending and not very helpful. She told me I had to apply for something but it might not be accepted, and when I asked what happens if it isn’t she said i’d need to come back and ask for another appointment to see someone for more advice. 

I told her that having to get the bus to all these appointments and services that just keep bouncing me back and forth between them is using up all the money I actually have left, and she does “oh don’t worry, you can always come here and get vouchers for food uwu” like I don’t fuckin eat I don’t need fuckin food vouchers I need money to take public transport instead of walking miles in snow ",3.787431318681321,5.324110755952379,4.69166666666667,84.44307692307693,72.39285714285714,7.550183150183152,26.613553113553113,8.139509932561175,1.6633575091575097,669,23,131,10,13,217,105,168,0.059000000000000004,0.898,0.043,-0.3809,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,8,6,2,0,5,0,13,6,0,1,2,29,34,12,0,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,12,4,1,2,0,2,5,6,3,0,0,7,2,18,3,19,25,3,16,0,1,1,2,15,6,2,2,6,86,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.12257174933594335,0.0,0.0,0.24547827908340686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451290023845147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170713666937675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348462667004513,0.0,0.0,0.19316401938355446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163940910245145,0.13169379529915431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991723318835532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852463067858924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556439189768248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124620145845362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107153217161313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837992710356828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464295906530524,0.1116429378369615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023843281343675,0.0,0.0,0.13646951870731808,0.0,0.0,0.061363952094102885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711201051455302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324639058957552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37253620401630266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122983618905068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947852177317468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009042317621457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064241775862334,0.0966963827598189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443885679004196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344596420756922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905825900854687,0.2400407219930949,0.0,0.08527712433529007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848185004554572,0.0,0.10363676202545853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116436512087114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275573376968504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corgstiel,2019/02/07,"All time low I don’t post often but I have just found myself at an all time low and really need to vent.  I am sitting in my bed crying after hovering over the toilet for the last hour trying to force myself to purge. (I was unsuccessful and now just have an incredibly sore throat). This is all because I drank a protein shake after reaching my calorie limit. Earlier I had a HIIT class where I almost passed out due to eating only 500 calories that day and at the time I convinced myself that I needed the protein.  But the guilt over those extra calories has really hit me hard.  I wish I could just purge it all away but apparently my body is not capable, instead I will try to eat even less calories tomorrow which will cause me to feel even more weak then I do at the moment.  I am stuck in this cycle.  I am just so fed up with everything right now and wish I could just stop thinking about food and calories and my fat rolls for one evening. Sorry for the long post I just needed to tell someone how I feel as I feel so alone and helpless at the moment. ",4.5748893360160965,5.2217974647887315,5.412116029510397,83.35869718309861,69.65727699530515,7.963648558014755,26.48189134808853,7.957251820313856,1.4748849094567404,832,24,167,10,14,272,123,213,0.19,0.754,0.055999999999999994,-0.9813,1,1,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,18,7,0,2,12,0,16,10,3,2,4,41,30,15,0,7,10,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,7,9,6,2,5,0,0,2,2,6,0,1,6,4,28,1,26,19,7,37,0,3,0,0,1,15,0,2,17,126,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759576547011002,0.14231480144366992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291007484765585,0.0,0.0,0.08376355579972414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526309777248463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115740766958046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942060924456253,0.0,0.15093788347640427,0.08861775988362171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28120844560026675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722730363933429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234947983674738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20843511565216133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615611280911194,0.15066242429784493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309192200684542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532067844561307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120070822864051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160308345864315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056622093800156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311223337313056,0.10450611664498076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632006349759981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605608851870014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734696219126645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642662342346262,0.0,0.0,0.1538186853475913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148804947744707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201019595525196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804645923557859,0.0,0.0,0.2403737533710467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658406138164849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160282872257424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cold_melon,2019/02/07,"Body hair doesn’t grow as much? Anyone else??
I stopped getting my period (not happy about that) about 5 months ago (wow that scares me) and ever since then I noticed my leg hair doesn’t grow in as thick or as fast. Same with my bikini line. I used to have a happy trail that now does not grow AT ALL. it’s completely gone. Armpit hair still unfortunately is in full effect lol. ",1.5402631578947386,3.830484868421056,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,81.89473684210526,5.378947368421053,16.07894736842105,6.6274283507984215,-0.4662052631578954,294,5,65,3,8,92,57,76,0.084,0.78,0.135,0.7219,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,1,4,6,6,2,2,11,7,6,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,4,7,3,10,6,4,18,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,9,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090037105047192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486204305661825,0.2415832787691427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618971323470779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24720962185816664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20633164676030671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19696296155825185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327545419550029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318470949661145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5019819067524642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18819641605767928,0.0,0.17332457225311249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684357655546269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23605574506030946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950386881842137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829328162061632,0.19712166293192526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036372106014163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heyy240,2019/02/07,"Eating before your ED Notices I was wondering if this ever happens to you? Like for me sometimes I'll be walking in the kitchen or something and if I'm distracted sometimes I eat something I didnt plan. I usually end up eating way more than I expected and while I'm eating I dont think so much about it. Right afterwards though I'm like ""why TV would u do that youre such a failure blah blah blah"" etc

Tldr: I feel like I'm eating quick or indulging in cravings before my ed gets a chance to scream at me.

Does this ever happen to u guys?",3.3887831858407083,4.271039238938052,4.85149336283186,85.43794800884956,72.53982300884954,7.419911504424777,28.28429203539823,7.645422480735847,1.6328061946902657,426,16,88,5,8,143,74,113,0.122,0.789,0.08900000000000001,-0.3527,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,1,7,5,0,1,3,0,6,6,0,0,2,13,16,9,0,4,4,0,1,6,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,2,6,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,2,13,3,10,12,3,14,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,5,10,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22275221491150293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454103235080222,0.0,0.15339984357758032,0.0,0.0,0.6696558607513595,0.0,0.0,0.11592798064033155,0.0,0.1459747970733123,0.0,0.23679150612331906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661809410856115,0.09350646356856956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683836145211725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959976778119545,0.2314877765876972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918358991971517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621779183828004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149016935546602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117776968682554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152806224513545,0.25890329663419753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386779041383803,0.12859686450588506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415471769825966,0.0,0.0,0.10389285785881162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810612510062644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194252891933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297912977253582,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KMedici,2019/02/07,"I binged so hard that I couldn’t get drunk I binged on like half the contents of my fridge today (god knows how many calories but I thought my stomach was gonna explode). But I had to leave the house to go to a pub crawl so I couldn’t fully purge (did like two small hurls that were maybe about 5% of the food I’d eaten then i brushed my teeth and was out the door). 
I had 3 double vodka diet cokes and my friend got me a double jagerbomb to try to get me drunk enough to go clubbing with him afterwards (jagerbombs normally get me WASTED). Usually this would be enough to get me drunk on a night out... I wasn’t even tipsy. Obviously I didn’t go to the club because I was dead sober. Now I’m at home, mad that I consumed even more calories via alcohol that didn’t get me drunk in the slightest, trying to purge what little has yet to be digested. I’m absolutely disgusted that I managed to binge this badly, like what the actual fuck HOW",1.8034765177548704,3.7307395309278353,3.0896219931271496,92.1079266895762,78.94845360824745,6.166781214203898,22.117983963344788,7.1686216300943375,0.5817867124856813,735,22,161,9,18,238,111,194,0.18899999999999997,0.7490000000000001,0.061,-0.98,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,9,8,3,0,10,0,16,13,2,2,1,16,32,9,1,4,2,0,1,3,1,2,2,0,2,0,9,5,10,0,2,8,0,3,5,4,0,2,13,2,23,4,21,13,5,18,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,0,10,99,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.154101415162144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876218423476194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185170561185774,0.0962629902341208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263350265657896,0.0,0.20860159204967835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909503973652429,0.0,0.12200406802005948,0.14598907206670395,0.4125180861205315,0.0,0.26923872404541,0.0,0.1262983584985582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146004635208126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840075169277704,0.0,0.0,0.18221170840163686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678547810314123,0.0,0.0,0.16720826665096195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314466076124675,0.15827144755902547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010014602931355,0.1586459724641557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481917171370014,0.1547223227395658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536618302555966,0.0,0.0,0.1496841343895058,0.0,0.0,0.21442666213417094,0.0,0.154259162862482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392010839590807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217766984529197,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isaezraa,2019/02/07,"ideas renforced in health class lmao ohhhhhmygodahahahahaha

I'm in PDHPE right now, and for some reason the principal walked in and kinda took over the lesson (hes a very strange man) and anyway he gets onto the topic of weight and goes on about how the best way to lose weight is to""just eat less, we all eat too much, we all need to each much less"" (no one in this room would have a bmi higher than 22 so ????) while im sitting in the back of the class browsing this sub on day 3 of a fast lmao what",3.715395284327325,4.39483754368932,4.583522884882112,88.40873786407771,71.62135922330097,6.662413314840499,21.510402219140087,6.1826913282559595,-0.014868515950069659,389,7,90,2,7,126,74,103,0.044000000000000004,0.838,0.11800000000000001,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,9,0,4,5,0,2,2,17,8,7,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,7,4,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,17,6,9,20,0,1,0,0,5,11,0,2,5,57,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15278091727593168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085136770204311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813909225900005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40662046752371506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380771280177367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21119896910388386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22429766465011056,0.214620098443566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22228411881201346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29212111619155634,0.14732666867707062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463798992786616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428717617728587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968080929022855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207527267687427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639406719355628,0.0,0.1577114638686416,0.0,0.4839035958817153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114420344069215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isaezra,2019/02/07,"ideas renforced in health class lmao ohhhhhmygodahahahahaha

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I'm in PDHPE right now, and for some reason the principal walked in and kinda took over the lesson (hes a very strange man) and anyway he gets onto the topic of weight and goes on about how the best way to lose weight is to""just eat less, we all eat too much, we all need to each much less"" (no one in this room would have a bmi higher than 22 so ????) while im sitting in the back of the class browsing this sub on day 3 of a fast lmao what",5.306762820512824,5.050512048076925,5.693076923076927,85.11858974358975,67.94230769230771,7.702564102564103,25.025641025641022,6.42735559955562,0.5631333333333335,399,8,90,2,6,128,75,104,0.043,0.84,0.11699999999999999,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,9,0,4,5,0,2,2,17,8,7,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,7,4,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,17,6,9,20,0,1,0,0,5,11,0,2,5,57,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963226440347434,0.22388107579784586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416750788677577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19335655370835705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882449932571927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770627106631602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096261798662402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19584664850873731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799318328326555,0.1990190916230884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20612600464274825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708864622185113,0.13661730650858014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485098389072025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943728256531367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734649632402195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20470593142695528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202361682484156,0.0,0.1462472177829976,0.0,0.4487280305243573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308842525017165,0.0,0.22388107579784586,0.0
EDAnonymous,irlnyc2018,2019/02/07,"Have been doing better with BED and now I’ve purged I had bulimia 16-17 with a relapse at 21, followed by a restrictive period as a vegan. When I ended the veganism at 22 that’s when the BED really kicked in and I’ve been battling it ever since. And my weight has seriously ballooned because of it. 

I have depression and anxiety and am tapering off lexapro at the moment to swap to welbutrin. Have been really struggling for the last five weeks with the taper but was delighted that welbutrin was dampening my appetite. In the last two weeks I’ve been very nauseous and throwing up a bit and when I’m nauseous I stick my fingers down my throat to help the process along. It has felt a bit triggering and brings me back to old memories but I figured why delay the inevitable. 

With the binging I’ve made good progress - only two binged in the last 16 days and the quantities of the binges are smaller. Today was the second binge - I ate a big slice of cake when I meant to eat half and just kept going and going. Afterwards I purged. I feel pathetic even saying that because it’s laughable that an obese person like me would be engaging in bulimic behaviours. I feel like shit now and can’t tell anyone about this so just needed to be able to vent. ",6.4717447306791565,6.454728680327872,6.827634660421548,77.15401639344262,65.47540983606557,10.414051522248243,33.412177985948475,10.125756701596842,3.257991569086651,994,39,188,21,14,323,142,244,0.086,0.802,0.113,0.8340000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,13,10,2,1,20,0,20,7,3,2,1,34,33,20,0,2,4,0,5,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,9,17,4,3,5,0,0,5,1,5,0,5,13,6,16,5,29,17,2,37,0,1,0,0,4,11,1,0,23,125,25,0,0.14695195485776022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124178432409983,0.0,0.0,0.10275222363968378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299698248278385,0.0,0.17916109544511688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996706214774567,0.3208669489641061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947718538513517,0.0,0.12656950338818007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036853641523734,0.0,0.0,0.13015581435292647,0.0,0.0,0.09706038024665643,0.1329264563270341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860664757657385,0.10498250591277286,0.14109692180733818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703236490958753,0.12325632764641463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849879772689278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593563698756525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358660462709488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904949283603416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089630125055703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420135664366735,0.0,0.0,0.11176358357802413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831277878066286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18828237040348195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686209272247293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084406990515592,0.12156017561793984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536260899074602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844248571528166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139293270564082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871014138837008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125075281137157,0.0,0.0,0.2357519883632441,0.17894789192961685,0.0,0.0,0.1326012823447097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439045247339196,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TelltaleTaurus,2019/06/18,"I just found out Mini-mart boy has been using me to make his ex-girlfriend jealous in the hopes of getting back together with her and I'm an inconsolable mess. I feel like such a goddamn fool. Of course, a boy like him wouldn't want anything to do with me. I was just a fucking pawn. And to ad insult to injury, I asked him, in tears, what she has that I don't and he literally said ""You'll never be her"".

I'm so hurt. And angry. I've been fasting for days, popping diet pills like candy, trying to make myself look good for him. I bought cute underwear and bras for the times he has me over. I walked in the rain to his place at 11 at night to comfort him because he'd said he was feeling depressed. I gave him food from my own cupboard when his food stamps ran out. I did EVERYTHING I could to win him over. For a moment there I actually felt normal. Confident, even. 

I thought it was because i was so big, but I saw her pictures and she's easily 300 lbs.  But she's super cute and from their videos, she seems very sweet. I don't wish her any harm. I  wish I WAS her. I'm so envious. 

If this isn't the time to starve myself back to where I wanna be, I don't know what is. I'm just so broken over this. Nothing ruins one's appetite quite like heartbreak.

Love you guys.",0.9821297359357076,2.873615410447762,2.6516417910447783,94.41075200918486,81.4626865671642,5.4663605051664765,20.38231917336395,6.490185161304077,0.07180436280137803,982,27,224,9,26,323,151,268,0.175,0.66,0.16399999999999998,-0.4876,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,1,3,14,24,4,0,9,0,23,6,0,3,1,36,52,15,0,9,6,0,3,4,0,2,1,2,0,3,6,11,3,0,7,1,1,2,6,11,0,1,17,8,47,13,31,29,1,25,0,4,2,2,34,13,1,3,14,141,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.13567801605735866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454850645742427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441388432403125,0.0,0.12997887244418568,0.0,0.0,0.21381852723497424,0.0,0.16950878122659654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100806219942484,0.0,0.0,0.08966601482881037,0.0,0.11975056418628716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918312467342596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495561201548055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060045597673848,0.09932656742902896,0.13349531711092338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362431299235057,0.15244460240223093,0.0,0.1285355338445392,0.07264000198015265,0.0,0.0,0.1166158859762612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766641986054448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809303688821106,0.0,0.0,0.1488397466603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640995041631594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27170173625400684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675430749793933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12548443449024194,0.0,0.18561376399390064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723229376244693,0.0,0.0,0.1304748444790459,0.13622469181741526,0.13340774586276974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421365321514784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452618887967634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788074084778174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26450807602036264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657216020729806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037818812821726,0.1621447481297223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439557734610844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008152182009685,0.0,0.11471836159965335,0.08200639214251614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31976656965737843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BlurJAMD,2019/06/18,"My ED is funny. no matter who i speak to, no matter what i say, theyll laugh. my dad watched me put food back in the fridge and grab a coke zero instead, and he just laughed. my mum thinks its impressive if i havent eaten all day. my sister joked about how all my meals consist of Monster. my friends laugh when i light a cigarette and say 'finally a good fucking meal'. everyone thinks its a funny quirk that i care so much about sugar content and calories and steps ive walked that day.

yet when others around me struggle with food, they get sympathy and supporr. am i just that good at acting like everything is ok or what??",2.7150181818181807,4.6445312800000025,3.473818181818181,90.3969090909091,76.19999999999997,6.465454545454546,24.96363636363636,7.348242739294969,1.0755599999999998,490,17,101,6,11,155,86,125,0.047,0.65,0.304,0.987,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,12,13,1,1,5,1,6,8,0,1,2,19,12,12,0,1,4,3,1,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,9,8,7,0,2,1,0,4,3,2,0,1,1,7,17,11,8,10,3,14,0,0,1,1,11,3,1,2,8,66,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003575545931533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15550945290520998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20619633177968472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26085509222304554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324821191464533,0.18175954266683966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154314623920807,0.0,0.0,0.4890968603490307,0.0,0.1562494957899528,0.18696687144493512,0.10566162916792544,0.0,0.0,0.3392572732164701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880385227755203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866907389671966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033062438417869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32165744085066234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114243112387152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591734125752178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babylightningbug,2019/06/18,relapsing yet again ;-) what up my family is falling apart & the new guy i'm seeing has a tiny & beautiful ex and i'm not talking to my dad soooo guess it's time to restrict & purge again xoxo i'm at an all time low weight and i'm not even excited i'm just punishing myself this time!! love that for me.,-1.3723066485753035,0.5792536417910483,1.227245590230666,97.11242876526458,102.13432835820896,5.421438263229308,16.538670284938938,6.980632752743323,0.16056417910447784,242,7,57,5,11,82,50,67,0.152,0.6609999999999999,0.187,0.6954,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,8,10,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,5,10,1,12,0,1,1,1,5,4,0,1,7,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6984902500953158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193090308070436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20257643367364087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23672236753477105,0.21277201377039573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939439977474147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20753930048832867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17123719738959065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17271811141940832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759071887334927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616745972086147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Koniguen,2019/06/18,DAE stop having your period at a normal/overweight weight? I've had exactly 5 days of discharge (like when you are almost finished with your period) but ended up not getting my actual period this month?? Has it happened to anyone?,4.454285714285714,7.1407070476190535,5.92404761904762,71.29178571428572,73.76190476190476,8.961904761904762,24.785714285714285,9.516144504307137,2.934885714285714,184,6,27,5,4,62,39,42,0.065,0.935,0.0,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,5,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,10,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3305258964266753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391627722567386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23682946204100866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218435829115978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999908946282715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695867369386736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29951451241743177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654734911108856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703500159686804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33185765599169625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28317141121904105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124497891907046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lkroa,2019/06/18,"i have a strange anxiety that i’m gonna end up being morbidly obese like i’m always worried about gaining and getting fat, but lately i’ve been increasingly paranoid about becoming 500 lb+. like realistically i know it takes a lot of effort to become that size and it’s not gonna happen to me by eating the occasional chocolate bar but i cannot shake this fear",6.802500000000002,6.5648498055555615,7.98277777777778,69.89000000000001,64.83333333333333,10.533333333333337,34.66666666666667,10.125756701596842,3.456266666666666,294,12,54,6,4,101,55,72,0.16699999999999998,0.7120000000000001,0.121,-0.5103,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,3,0,4,4,1,0,0,7,12,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,7,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21371994009650436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19648969799892085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673417267177938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628218746861217,0.0,0.0,0.22749303773943336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890278807067026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419362705272314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271317813206236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115815129087947,0.0,0.2897382103006112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25096806491284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21836485279931211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311938306085194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608438432886451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moles-,2019/06/18,"does anyone bloat loads? I never used to bloat - now suddenly I’ll have one thing- even if it’s just a rice cake and I’ll bloat and it never goes down . Like it’s usually bloating of 2/4 and has once gotten up to 7. 
anyone else find that with their ed bloating is so much worse?",0.1075060532687644,2.3147334067796628,1.6971428571428575,97.90711864406781,87.8135593220339,4.727360774818402,15.20823244552058,6.1826913282559595,-0.7016750605326871,217,4,50,2,7,70,45,59,0.10300000000000001,0.897,0.0,-0.7048,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,5,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,6,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746698278472848,0.2745142659554821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23445737156302784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22381161100247296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769577079194326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24487274584261695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089149443971912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695099746360625,0.0,0.4132706806008469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853245641475082,0.18154857655274612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799321242123345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313956482182241,0.295074485678036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27303194143134085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lolliepopp99,2019/06/18,"Ever feel like you don't have a problem and that you're just on a diet, then the next minute you have a 300 calorie donut (after only eating 400 calories the entire day), then immediately try and throw it up, end up throwing up your healthy dinner and then pace the flat for an hour to burn it off Ya that me",12.379687499999996,5.507780093750004,11.455625,69.92687500000002,60.5625,13.425,41.375,7.1686216300943375,3.3368062500000004,242,6,52,1,2,79,49,64,0.0,0.882,0.11800000000000001,0.7549,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,0,3,3,0,0,1,7,4,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,8,4,0,16,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,10,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262349916018445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589528239728285,0.0,0.0,0.3107019475766599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173158961095978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737346216312802,0.250609388529736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454643018724883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138165484712034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730765023217942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667968638856135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356652746593756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381680806147124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-JennJenn-,2019/06/18,"No more binge replacement behaviors I still have b/p relapses quite often but when I’m not actively engaging in those behaviors I still am constantly “binging” when I use crystal light in water and chug it down in five seconds flat so many times per day. Maybe I need to just fully get rid of the behaviors that basically give me the essence of binging. I’m addicted to the binging no doubt about it, idk why I am the way I am 😞",4.357596899224808,5.380889720930233,5.779069767441863,79.1587596899225,70.3953488372093,10.38449612403101,32.93798449612403,10.504223727775694,3.5989751937984504,340,16,68,10,6,115,61,86,0.16899999999999998,0.831,0.0,-0.9052,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,8,10,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,1,7,1,9,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,7,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30512435450676234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024645728084672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18050763524876126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462323825469009,0.26849857999670346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837672648506943,0.2811898352515516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075368890410406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977003369697114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470453403101093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320768302673594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417374250679162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22216579571991965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525596253982688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sintos-compa,2019/06/18,"why do i look like a skeleton with love handles? i mean what the fuck, body? where are your priorities? there's energy in those flabhandles, FUCKING BURN IT!",1.609310344827584,4.239372689655173,2.5409655172413816,87.17558620689655,97.9655172413793,6.457931034482759,23.04137931034483,7.554174236665415,1.7392427586206891,124,5,23,3,5,39,28,29,0.10300000000000001,0.615,0.282,0.7296,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,2,2,0,1,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829865199742583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6375098551003321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684481027628682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895386957562052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111885143993585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37557989651165297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31112142379714525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SleepyHufflepuff,2019/06/18,"I made a sub promoting honest feedback and body acceptance, is that toxic? If this isn't allowed please remove

I recently made a subreddit and promoted it on a different sub (with mod permission) but now everyone is down voting it and saying it is toxic. I feel like a bad person now but I legitimately wanted a place where all body types could get along and support each other through their problems. Maybe what I did was wrong but I don't know, i'm sorry guys.

Love yall <3",3.0324731182795723,5.4243326774193585,4.55397849462366,80.81763440860215,77.06451612903227,8.004301075268819,25.387096774193548,8.841846274778883,2.216496774193549,381,14,70,9,9,127,66,93,0.13699999999999998,0.649,0.214,0.7005,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,2,3,8,0,0,5,0,8,3,2,3,1,21,17,8,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,2,8,5,5,12,2,8,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,4,46,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640459738088898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4364723619532861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686696273225306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052714987075654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773748480255986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934218312998844,0.14035968777854074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264854874252936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945382409698403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797591280168876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598633038625047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732371612159015,0.3718132507990674,0.0,0.0,0.19738260436579616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715518353373541,0.2052714987075654,0.21566733603763974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799723915250607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939924689262008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562424777829343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199343996447563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229541794585438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158843187165667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21481136846524074,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,philoqueen,2019/06/18,"the things you can look forward to in recovery, from a seasoned former anorexic Things that have improved:

1. Not kidding: I *never* think about food. Like, unless it's like ""should I put basil in my caprese salad or should I go to the garden and clip mint to be a lil extra."" or ""should I take my partner to romantic restaurant A or B?""
2. Similar to #1, I don't find food interesting anymore. I don't want to see people's food on instagram or watch videos about food or browse the grocery isle for hours, or read menus on my spare time.
3. If I eat 5 cookies, I don't call it a binge. I merely ate 5 fucking cookies. It's okay to eat 5 cookies. Maybe not every day because #health but like 5 cookies is not a big deal. 
4. I don't measure my peanut butter. Or olive oil. Or anything else with fat content. Y'all ANs know what I'm talking about and know this is a big fucking deal.
5. I can have food in the house and not eat it all at once. I can have all kinds of food and genuinely just not think about it or remember it's there. The other day I **remembered** I had honey that I can put on my yogurt.
6. I don't eat till I feel like I'm about to explode. Well... I have, at a wedding buffet. But it's not a regular thing. I eventually realize I'm full, but it's not even a conscious thought, it's more like ""empty plate, wash empty plate.""
7.  When I feel hungry, it doesn't feel unbearably painful anymore, because I'm eating regularly anyway. It's more like ""I'm hungry, but meh I'll wait since I'm eating dinner in an hour anyway.""
8. I don't really want the dessert, all the time. If I eat a filling meal, I don't really want ice cream after. I'm full and content (!?!?!? Still struggling to believe this feeling exists after meals)
9. I can't finish meals that I used to eat ***multiple*** of. If I get a veggie burger, I can't finish it, whereas before I used to eat the veggie burger, and plate of fries, and eat 3 brownies, then follow that with a whole bag of chex mix or some other snack, and ice cream later.
10. My usual breakfast is 600-800 calories: more calories than what I allowed myself for an entire day (when restricting). Part 2: I didn't know this till writing this post and thinking about it because I don't count my calories.

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Things that still suck that I'm still struggling with:

1. Hearing a person of any size tell me how they think they're fat or should lose weight triggers me.
2. Hearing a person of any size tell me how they skip a meal, or how they ""have no appetite, or when people talk about their eating habits in general, positive or negative in any way triggers the FUCK out of me.
3. Hearing the word ""binge"" even if about ""binge-watching"" a TV show or in any other normal context. 
4. Clothes shopping....... (AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH). And being made aware of the appearance of my body in any way, positive or not.
5. Though I don't think that I'm fat anymore, and I KNOW that I'm not fat, I still don't love my body really, I just feel neutral towards it. It's my body, it's me, it's temporary, it does the job done, it's cool sometimes I guess.",0.5957432432432412,2.9120431353503164,2.507309347564128,92.20178946462387,86.5955414012739,4.986951282492684,21.543811327250815,6.449566325927974,0.3990679290755725,2371,82,501,25,74,787,262,628,0.08199999999999999,0.851,0.067,-0.8537,2,0,0,0,0,0,141.0,0,2,4,1,27,20,4,2,31,2,34,42,7,9,4,100,83,46,0,12,36,0,6,6,2,4,7,3,1,4,40,15,32,2,20,6,1,7,26,8,1,0,6,19,58,12,55,71,12,55,0,1,5,4,24,20,4,23,33,297,98,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620149531687591,0.06302814462676,0.176368060840004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432432779158142,0.0,0.0,0.04268487291333073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485903953569998,0.0,0.044137841734686635,0.058440114388993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284877429261927,0.0,0.0,0.05296541998258093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035624094641554,0.1069520926892057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04539208698809899,0.05308137021571285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5838394172883222,0.04333101598744045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851974512504651,0.0,0.04370300139732911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311360205621235,0.03705618363255735,0.0,0.0,0.047408554084701335,0.0,0.3763309502223802,0.0,0.0,0.1438598897174816,0.027100113515643124,0.0,0.02947911146173612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05714103108206476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05513574938339517,0.17538494023276696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216367937198156,0.05985141194658827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05147331202061031,0.0,0.0,0.05401498054511943,0.11402633664974872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204737804576474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04355802450967678,0.05802964625598937,0.0,0.0,0.046815010000426406,0.04908097302256475,0.0,0.0,0.052110731713736494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04000560647422762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508219233376967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05524022277176919,0.0,0.0,0.05519370242444533,0.0,0.0,0.05617052708835952,0.0,0.07192072994665731,0.0905823661106084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04967745061409265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428804344470474,0.0,0.0,0.05188438017235168,0.0,0.09968841044204496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751797492666492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04133394795068122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04290768400829576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051301095865506144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569489271854887,0.0,0.0,0.10845229019571324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039000042833359366,0.08338283429513504,0.09067393268059756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784140507339684,0.1661821078364817,0.05096234895255883,0.04117925862313439,0.06049202864120853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895986449269357,0.057127854980944075,0.0,0.09178341721457074,0.08234452832459302,0.0,0.06316410421287269,0.04663766802319557,0.0,0.0,0.057911385920911135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06302814462676,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweetchiliyeet,2019/06/18,"I Wish People Would Stop Trying to Force Feed Me I get that they’re trying to be helpful by telling me to eat, but I wish they wouldn’t.  To be honest, it just makes things worse.  Like, I’ll be having a good day and be okay with eating, but the second someone actually tells me to eat, I can’t.  It’s too much pressure and it makes me feel like everyone is watching me.  It just gives me way too much anxiety, I can’t eat in front of other people, especially when they keep telling me to.

If I could hide my ed from my friends, I would because of this, but I’m a dumb bitch and bad at hiding it outside my house, plus I use humour to cope, so I guess I’ll just have to deal with it for the rest of my life.",2.905098039215688,3.094662941176473,4.25935294117647,91.77608823529413,73.1830065359477,7.165751633986927,23.7967320261438,6.742157984588678,0.4698920261437909,542,13,132,4,10,180,89,153,0.168,0.648,0.184,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,0,7,11,2,1,4,1,13,6,0,3,0,26,24,10,0,7,7,0,1,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,10,6,5,2,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,0,2,22,7,19,16,3,7,0,0,1,0,9,2,2,2,5,86,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.1291959372252723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012798649064107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054216902129617,0.08070521111255602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570460161617444,0.0,0.0,0.08538218025067461,0.13649080670108713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5418821288596251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650666331411647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694160267104735,0.09458119556330742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022860815169178,0.0,0.06916959289782056,0.1270029055709212,0.0,0.1110445090654126,0.0,0.0,0.14584521409575113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873987117718864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276311652036334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176764961467297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351270554297303,0.12936053120879315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17674598212701298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19464737386528416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835685156245856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217569661176624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068601965341923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.347150520587726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795566361637963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977157154178072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434457258297286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508696759309473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044895765776102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491922119046645,0.1880956015382516,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AstridItesm,2019/06/18,Due to personal reasons I will be dying with my head on the toilet. Sorry for the inconvenience.,3.2183333333333337,6.0644163888888905,5.6200000000000045,70.80000000000003,79.55555555555556,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.7614666666666667,77,3,12,2,2,27,17,18,0.20199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549918335611699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4499267058254286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827955248860658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507500461833391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4907549009135232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HereToFeck,2019/06/18,"All i can think about is finding new ways to lose weight Since i stopped eating solid food and drinking only fruit juices once in a while made me happy, now makes me feel really.. stressed i guess? I keep trying to find new ways to lose weight or find a new kind of 'diet' where i can consume as little as possible. /With no solid food/ 

My stomach hurts so much, let's not talk about diarrhea.. liquid only diet is not the best since i feel like my stomach is completely ruined now. I don't want to eat solid food because i can't stop purging and it got really painful.

I literally wish my bones were visible! All of them.. not only my ribs but.. just skinny enough to look like a fucking skeleton.",4.1052173913043495,5.318948507246379,4.92678260869565,84.31930434782609,71.17391304347825,7.548985507246377,26.118840579710145,7.908726449838941,1.4762005797101452,546,17,107,7,10,177,91,138,0.177,0.701,0.122,-0.8449,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,3,7,12,1,1,4,0,9,18,5,2,2,25,21,8,0,2,6,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,12,3,6,1,0,0,6,7,0,0,3,6,16,5,13,17,5,13,0,4,1,1,2,3,1,2,10,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584025329629523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334700764849767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324360893553635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10580604435753004,0.0,0.2210368830526652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160042273925244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922348173465106,0.07716044338536854,0.0,0.0,0.2961501721041365,0.0,0.3918086015917113,0.0,0.0,0.09985101709375208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638331194810425,0.0,0.1189822281082258,0.0,0.0,0.11497578919805505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562405852674447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600185919240836,0.0,0.1124729920825319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044479153640717,0.0,0.10553383138359897,0.10825169851376493,0.0,0.0,0.0906989375237361,0.2416651039409382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219912762087772,0.07209571768615655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939779985753079,0.0,0.0,0.3129423972387844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502425948772985,0.0,0.2464332772847867,0.11492739223713695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176201290333835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838449611835085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868952483334305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059789373888496,0.1237220079495916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868121840168207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920672269182153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332987326726935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637055094315244,0.17146234968196453,0.0,0.26304761091602624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242030754370491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,porkrollegg,2019/06/18,"Had a realization today I'm underweight, and don't need to lose weight. Calories and obsession with food have been controlling my life, and the numbers have been constantly being added in my head.  Stress and anxiety over these things have been consuming me.

But I'm eating a sugar free Dulce Le Leche Jell-O pudding cup right now. It tastes outstanding and I've always loved pudding ever since I was a kid. A few hours ago I had half of a Costco blueberry muffin. It's a beautiful day outside. It's my day off and I'm enjoying what I'm eating and am about to play a video game that's been on my backlog for years. What am I going to eat for lunch and dinner - who knows!  I'll decide when the time comes based off of what I feel like eating and in moderation. 

Ladies and gentlemen, it's a beautiful Tuesday afternoon. I want you all to get out and enjoy this beautiful day. Without a doubt, we're alive and here, able to do and learn about so many different things and it's a blessing. Enjoy the rest of this day - be safe, be careful, and don't let numbers consume your life. I love all of y'all and thank you all so much for reading this.",3.3688454106280186,4.866217778260872,4.476811594202901,85.72468599033819,73.3913043478261,8.067632850241546,25.82125603864734,8.680891452615391,1.7531835748792268,899,30,185,17,18,294,135,230,0.038,0.723,0.239,0.9935,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,4,0,2,8,16,0,3,13,0,19,15,1,1,4,34,34,20,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,16,19,10,2,4,4,1,2,3,4,0,1,7,4,15,13,23,23,6,25,1,1,0,2,9,8,0,1,16,116,31,2,0.13085874380118662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599838081495598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088849577179887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010658083177522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341921058340772,0.0,0.0,0.11272322075968047,0.0,0.1414118136286616,0.1467692083178676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33757225631197857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671953540837914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5356046553192714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836922557264234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616611273119509,0.09348551271838107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15823491243363635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836829264064677,0.0,0.07437003974314868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429882388851813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886950315756054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191654334133074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381193148785875,0.18485880139919275,0.06393097229079513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639746194319742,0.0,0.0,0.23621025069407364,0.0,0.0,0.13267022712240792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619623349391174,0.09703010042345786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089415603570506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117526522061847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082477051292878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989824889871511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047714986543374,0.0,0.0,0.17387346947119026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630478584861351,0.0,0.1240387882122278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718387752708315,0.0,0.0,0.15935069639901128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614315931918166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426874063551981
EDAnonymous,handzie,2019/06/18,"“Weight can be beautiful” “ I’ve dated girls easily 100 pounds heavier than you”  

(Pleas imagine this next part as like a broadway dance number or something.) 

-spot light on handzie clutching shoulder like she’s been fricking shot- 

Whaaattttt in the fuckkkk did youuuuu just say to meeee?? You were just gassing me up like 5 gosh dang minutes ago and now you decided to set me in fire?? 

“ your tum is cute” 

-handzie gets shot again, falling down revealing the guy she is currently sleeping with standing behind her holding a smoking gun- 

Boyyyy I said hurt me in bed but not the fuck like this. This boy with a BMI of 29 is wrecking my life right TF now!  Brb choking on my hands until something comes out my body!! 

But alas VALIDATION THAT RECOVERY DID IN FACT MAKE ME FAT! 

-confetti cannon and back up dances some out, suddenly back up dancers, handzie is healed and joining a kick line- 

Start spreading the news! I’m starving to day! I wanna be a part of it! Relapse, relapse!! 

Let’s go take a walk, my cereal is gone! Hold on to my number buddy your gonna be the twisted fucked up part of my brains best friend! 

-curtain- 


Okay so that was dramatic, but I am so triggered I can barely function. I recovered and gained 30 pounds. It’s awful. And the cute but a little bigger dude I’m currently sleeping with essentially call me fat pretty much. I’m ready to die. Weight can be beautiful, just not a good look for me. 

TLDR; I’m back in the bitch",1.6607873701039182,4.373616161870508,2.447565947242208,91.26888689048764,87.02158273381296,5.391047162270183,24.628697042366102,6.937597516519254,1.1230620303756995,1135,47,221,16,36,354,175,278,0.127,0.6990000000000001,0.174,0.9168,2,0,2,1,0,0,41.0,0,5,0,2,11,14,3,0,15,2,19,14,8,2,1,32,35,14,1,1,10,0,4,4,1,1,4,2,2,3,7,11,4,2,3,2,0,7,2,4,0,0,7,8,25,10,32,22,6,42,0,1,1,2,15,18,4,2,19,127,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758958857987968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30600774866150604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13921197753363296,0.0,0.0,0.1473484655778292,0.0,0.14808551047421656,0.1354543599465694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142695015172209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555072591709244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767369960499085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248799573044484,0.2452725984875183,0.06930613468085521,0.0,0.0753902107479988,0.11126371254238544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134811640689334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200863500418978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356474966304669,0.09369730098464482,0.2592317815600757,0.13295395559280646,0.0,0.0,0.11139578110464643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885474406339954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751580530703992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107881972745678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309534105715076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134956603069826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328561918979255,0.1261841398755054,0.1054916249742173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654991991583843,0.0,0.0,0.2042467500691809,0.0,0.0,0.09389304140899238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973914757248874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230731790880501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FavorFusion,2019/06/18,"So wtf is this So lately I’ve been having this pain in my left collarbone area



Turns out it is because I’m purging because it just started again after a nice session


No clue what it is


But who would have thought that purging every day for seven years could damage something? Damn",2.5071515151515165,5.132335018181821,3.003181818181819,89.85810606060606,80.63636363636363,4.393939393939394,25.53030303030303,5.46131890053228,0.6942121212121211,226,9,41,1,6,70,46,55,0.248,0.7090000000000001,0.043,-0.9227,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,8,1,0,0,0,6,12,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,4,8,0,10,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,6,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733914725327449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24452694136382716,0.0,0.0,0.19751499049666474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580406905718452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454792142790116,0.0,0.3327568114416434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258865669050183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357770461117087,0.0,0.0,0.2167752872088121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431394639407903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331273654921093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21756121032057307,0.0,0.0,0.1972240217561977
EDAnonymous,fatxdiannee,2019/06/18,"Overwhelming boss and coworker are triggering So I don’t know if this is the best place to put this but here goes. I’ve posted once before that my boss always comments on any food I’m eating. That hasn’t changed and it will makes me feel awful. 

But my coworker is on a keto diet and she’s...like nuts over it. It’s all she talks about. So here lately I’ve been bringing like fiber bars to work because they’re low cal and easy to set aside to avoid my boss commenting. But now I can’t even eat ANYTHING in front of coworker because I get responses like these,

“How many carbs does that have?”

“Did you log that into the carbmanager app?”

“How much sugar does that have?”

“That doesn’t have enough fat in it.”

I feel like I can’t win. Hiding food from my boss and now coworker. I work in a very small place so there’s literally the front, the back, and the bathroom. Not a break room or anything. It’s just super upsetting. If you read all of this thank you.",1.7203481781376515,3.810532030769232,2.8146828609986514,93.16251012145752,79.97435897435899,6.361673414304994,20.006747638326587,7.475848149327749,0.4293589743589745,746,19,165,11,19,238,115,195,0.092,0.759,0.14800000000000002,0.9294,0,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,5,14,11,0,3,8,1,14,8,1,8,2,29,22,17,0,2,8,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,15,7,8,1,3,2,0,4,6,4,0,0,2,3,15,7,15,19,5,23,0,2,0,0,7,12,0,3,7,98,30,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257908522924824,0.0,0.0,0.10280511726535806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488105467856077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624529878637553,0.0,0.1843114268479257,0.0,0.1286399582147317,0.0,0.158650275953699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992455668814298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26459092442844284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093823402996172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562056046423254,0.0,0.09985056816725917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287863241668795,0.10800043062240243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656061390776487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898341498485976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308258064686466,0.0,0.17053353280445038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215714179687173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091140245589283,0.15326911350591266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111320282629515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099790270325753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158942657367809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478517571440666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197400941877054,0.0,0.0,0.15121728283608746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150984164595588,0.0,0.13918289248541746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247363396697636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011639916394604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohboyyyyimfucked,2019/06/18,music recommendations... idk if this is allowed but do you guys have music / songs you really relate to because of your ed?? i’m mostly looking for music about being insecure in general but anything works,4.395833333333337,7.534379138888893,6.27555555555556,66.10000000000002,77.05555555555556,8.044444444444443,28.44444444444445,8.841846274778883,3.3034111111111097,163,7,22,4,4,56,32,36,0.13699999999999998,0.863,0.0,-0.644,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,5,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,17,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292785377076905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179967281221064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165215721705451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4380597572567713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341862674071613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797718673075432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookydurian,2019/06/18,"feeling overwhelmed so for the past couple of months i've been living the recovery life. moods been stable, eating 3 meals a day, trying to exercise, etc. but recently i've noticed the weight i've gained. i used to be a size 4 and weighed around 139 lbs at 5'7"" in october. but now i'm 162 lbs. i've never been this big before and it's freaking me out. i went dress shopping yesterday and i fit into most size 6's but for some dresses i needed a size 7/8. so now i'm taking back control of my weight and i'm gonna I/F",0.2683630952380973,2.2910914910714304,2.694642857142856,92.36702380952384,84.98214285714286,5.519047619047619,20.94047619047619,6.816661863887847,0.4271404761904769,405,13,90,5,12,139,75,112,0.037000000000000005,0.857,0.106,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,1,6,0,4,7,0,2,1,17,13,9,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,7,5,1,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,4,3,6,0,11,7,3,17,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,2,9,45,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882668714879876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261924255311908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995852550895933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23719889432007946,0.0,0.2340046073601933,0.0,0.13639060751918608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640239374881204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358621596936253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069333885572684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14937841458631618,0.0,0.0,0.18674551054548136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880565367878475,0.0,0.0,0.1568137676832354,0.16311060238217132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407775653991515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188677437537988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20881634974465516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901072474873776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358472567271185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265551049793105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5150645619497922,0.0,0.19604911371755854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,narnia07,2019/06/18,"ed meals subreddit? i truly love looking at pix of other people’s little ed/safe meals, is there a subreddit for this?",3.569565217391304,5.657084434782611,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,74.21739130434783,8.078260869565218,24.54347826086957,8.841846274778883,2.1473652173913043,94,3,16,2,2,32,20,23,0.0,0.695,0.305,0.8156,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5781833867344492,0.0,0.0,0.484432296127176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5206549893621785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3999346244394255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hunger_hunter,2019/06/18,"DAE change their outfit about 1000x per day? I just struggle to find anything I feel comfortable in. And I’m not talking physical comfort. I could put on a dress and love it, but I can’t bring myself to go anywhere in it because it would embarrass(?) me. I used to not give a shit. But, in the past few years it really started to become a problem.",1.6698571428571434,3.8358954142857162,3.312857142857143,89.12214285714286,80.57142857142857,6.285714285714287,25.714285714285715,7.447530270364453,1.371571428571428,269,11,55,4,7,89,52,70,0.09699999999999999,0.774,0.129,0.5008,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,2,7,1,2,4,0,3,2,1,1,0,13,11,4,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,0,1,8,3,9,9,1,11,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,4,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207049262581481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533759139522579,0.2778776673129305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26616445290385593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008859113103509,0.0,0.0,0.16226424230425254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721891622068296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299621737945039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241362192701108,0.14299277175084546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270831007981229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401851936223863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24075175583938416,0.0,0.2529322569980995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611844388983316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582686495469533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780871296946881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26303190308061564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022303590761047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173057115349675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17873278812253005,0.0,0.0,0.16202520311999927
EDAnonymous,lightningmcqueef69,2019/06/18,"small victories keep me going drank something with calories and didn't cry. baby steps, right? 

fr though i haven't had a london fog in 8 months because i refused anything that wasn't 0cal and it's so fucking good.",3.1085714285714303,5.460749619047622,3.395476190476192,89.42035714285717,76.61904761904762,5.152380952380953,27.16666666666667,5.985473137389443,1.0115523809523812,172,7,32,1,4,53,38,42,0.055999999999999994,0.79,0.154,0.5893,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,2,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936925267781178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175586580406916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920301981346515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299418242690331,0.0,0.0,0.20283051445298256,0.29934491270167796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172228934375475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848685847638136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047846688901879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747536648382521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35064555691228977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kenodhagxjah,2019/06/18,"I think i'm delusional (Mention of numbers) 

Okay so i've been low restricting on and off for months now. I was a very looong plateau in april and finally went over it in may! Yey for me i guess. Since then it has been hard to restrict. I end up 'bingeing',nothing major, i don't think ever go over 1000 cals on the binge days(including everything i eat that day). I also do swimming and walk a few kilometers daily. I've noticed some progress yes, but because  don't weigh myself(issues) i don't actually know what progress is. I've been led to think(by myself) that i'm not actually losing weight. I don't know? Am i losing? What if i'm gaining? I think that if i high restrict there is no way i will lose weight. I know it's impossible that i won't lose weight with this BMR but like.. i think i'm actually delusional about it + the body dysmorphia is making it worse. Is there i way i won't be losing any weight with these stats? and am i actually being stupid? I feel like it's impossible for me to keep trying to low restrict, i need a break for a while but im terrified of eating more than 500. Someone please tell me i'm being irrational and stupid and weight loss process doesn't just work this way. Ughh",1.1152817493692169,3.5614172845528493,2.684129520605552,90.92743902439028,85.5040650406504,6.3199327165685455,21.89739276703112,7.6298220110432995,0.9873416316232136,956,33,204,18,29,312,131,246,0.205,0.6890000000000001,0.106,-0.9804,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,10,8,13,2,0,6,2,24,9,1,2,1,35,43,15,0,3,7,0,7,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,15,8,8,5,8,1,0,5,9,10,0,0,5,7,25,3,22,31,4,29,0,8,0,0,2,11,0,5,11,117,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.3395110299859416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955609179438232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05914786666216802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05302084171246083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661269549870116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609346660183022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799994687460485,0.0,0.0,0.07703648845881222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867637315795509,0.0,0.0,0.0781700119346612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043978574249065434,0.06213693675794416,0.0,0.09527989634802704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943147148507021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958158203725672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791499836052827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918967901420497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939509178026046,0.09078219506322044,0.0,0.07730983897397994,0.0,0.0,0.14340212431347954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498589068177516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865293867345613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05805833732719042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942482674621887,0.0,0.0,0.0644929148732574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834575167778538,0.09902476841220463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547547328025577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194891071596643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369598284976371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602240528107435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786592172396544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590521969258201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176576986601214,0.0,0.2071167176686484,0.0,0.5295774637460423,0.0,0.08062926482006706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332085296055953,0.0,0.08863777904913099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aiyshia,2019/06/18,had Father’s Day breakfast with my bfs family and they thought I didn’t like their food :( My dad has a long history of being disappointing and let me down on Father’s Day so my boyfriend invited me to eat breakfast with his family. I was feeling suuuper bummed and didn’t wanna eat anything at all so i sort of cut up everything in my plate and sat back for the whole meal which was embarrassing on it’s own.  Bf who knows kept whispering for me to eat something and asking if i didn’t like it and I’m pretty sure the whole family noticed. :( they’re so sweet and so nice and i felt like i seemed like such an asshole. I feel like this ED makes me an asshole. Lots of time when i stay over i decline dinner and let BF take me out for safe food but i think his mom just thinks i dislike her cooking and that makes me :(,2.0515490196078474,3.828225370588239,3.475882352941177,90.32813725490196,77.64705882352942,6.886274509803924,23.098039215686285,7.793537801064563,0.9526392156862756,643,20,142,10,15,211,103,170,0.098,0.7859999999999999,0.11599999999999999,-0.2466,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,8,12,1,1,5,0,10,10,0,2,2,33,25,17,0,2,3,4,3,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,6,13,10,2,8,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,10,5,26,9,19,12,5,15,0,1,0,0,13,8,0,4,11,91,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678068230306258,0.0,0.1213072413944583,0.0,0.0,0.09977673759648327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736776833309328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3983278580812441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661911128566828,0.0,0.3669759908806514,0.0,0.13122019858008144,0.09269992626817206,0.12458908400485162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31381043520264434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713122073287016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653749403951712,0.0,0.316968706983623,0.0,0.0,0.11483271935345725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031654575892776,0.0,0.0,0.17323041238575793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197228850051894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773159427368426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320116529431988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812781033839152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989489388288192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830593455960244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229641519206105,0.0,0.09756269374516978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628878242061032,0.0,0.10301423039119108,0.07566357413456593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897428001862281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leptictidium00,2019/06/18,I gained 5 pounds and I can’t stop. I don’t know what to do. I feel so out of control and am having trouble functioning because of the extra fat on my body.,0.6864761904761885,1.9906283142857149,3.120000000000001,93.47333333333334,80.14285714285714,5.80952380952381,23.095238095238088,6.42735559955562,0.401380952380952,121,4,29,1,3,42,28,35,0.151,0.769,0.08,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,1,0,7,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003224065697313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472368276367734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5525627372086922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491048959126745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27075435300576955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118877992844724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aceshighsays,2019/06/18,My skin hurts because of my bones... any advice on that? I started doing cardio daily and I'm not losing weight/toning proportionally and the skin on my hip bones and my clavicle are now hurting. It hurts to walk in jeans. My clavicle hurts when my arms are down. Any suggestions?,1.5223113207547172,4.251060735849059,3.0239386792452883,85.18232311320754,92.58490566037734,5.668867924528303,19.83254716981132,7.1686216300943375,0.9381716981132072,221,7,40,4,8,72,37,53,0.20800000000000002,0.7559999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.88,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,3,7,6,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,2,7,0,6,5,0,8,0,5,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643035311175114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27339532967485497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253739076009812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8607664601288756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248853079393968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14228004670625805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447831400516581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fizzy_bubblech420,2019/06/18,"Stress over planned Meals My mum is going out and my little brother is so excited about it because it means takeout food, and I let him choose the type of food, he chose burgers and wants milkshakes and cookie dough to go with it. 

He knows/ suspects I have an ED but asked whether I could just be ok for Friday. I know it sounds ignorant but I do just want to do this for him and enjoy it, but it’s all I’ve been thinking about for three days. 

There’s no calorie information, I’ve binged recently and I know there’s a bbq on Saturday to welcome my older brother home from uni so I don’t want to over eat and not be able to fast the next day.  

I don’t know what I expect from this I guess I just needed to rant about it.",1.816968325791855,3.3599889673202665,3.0366013071895424,94.25393665158371,77.62745098039215,6.014881850175967,22.880341880341877,6.67199483983844,0.38784806435394703,564,17,130,5,13,182,92,153,0.08,0.813,0.106,0.6004,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,10,6,0,1,4,1,12,4,0,0,1,35,26,13,0,6,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,10,9,4,1,9,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,1,16,4,20,21,1,14,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,1,7,84,26,1,0.18097377644390125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918605131098735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031993438233878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449283452024045,0.0,0.0,0.2334262284386737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518135345492984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376684176625195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20570313539076768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19936301791692124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815314534730327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978338186417499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18505794776237786,0.0,0.0,0.1813832675137544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971334968279476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418976212275788,0.0,0.0,0.19246766435081944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868977139928474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20730484946992392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596068854443599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202290666464384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jkak4,2019/06/18,"1lb from GW I’m. So. Damn. Close. And I know there will always be a next GW. And another one after that. I’m trying to recover, but that 1lb is taunting me back into my ED.",-3.74025,-2.7557405249999984,0.8150000000000013,98.12500000000004,116.75,4.0,12.5,5.985473137389443,-0.7965,129,3,33,2,8,49,32,40,0.057,0.943,0.0,-0.2492,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38233327900536257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4818163242654297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35332017745307204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25252420909816525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886738375646106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113629590750767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119641929070108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ifuckpineapples,2019/06/18,"i find recovery difficult to accept because its so deeply associated with fatlogic and pseudoscience there it is, i said it. the thing i could never be confident enough to say to my treatment team, partner, or whatever else. 

at least when im actively restricting, i know the science is real. i know CICO works, and stalls are annoying but i know the weight loss is still happening behind the scenes. i know the numbers will add up even if im afraid of them, i know its illogical to think they wont.

meanwhile, trying to ready any time of body positive thread on reddit inanely comes up with posts like ""im naturally big, i have a big frame!"" no frame makes being obese natural, debbie. even if your blood panel is normal gravity exists and being obese fatigues your joints. and lets not forget the fat suffocating your organs and making them work harder than necessary, that sure sounds healthy.

""bmi doesnt work! my doctor recommended i get to a bmi of 21, that would look anorexic on me!"" SHUT THE FUCK UP KAREN 21 IS AVERAGE LOOKING YOU MLM LOVING SLUT STOP SAYING ANYTHING NORMAL WEIGHT IS ANOREXIC ASDASDFHDSGSDFK. and yeah bmi doesnt work well if youre the freaking rock but you also just said you hate exercise so im willing to fucking a bet a healthy weight for you is in the normal bmi range of 18.5-25, which is plenty wide enough a range to find something on you that doesnt look aNoReXiC on your tHiCk fRaMe

and as alway the METABOLISM being BROKEN and RUINED, talking about tdee like its a freakin magic aura you can feel but cant explain or reason with. its just math!!! just use math!!! they make me want to freaking starve every time i try and read about not hating my body, jfc",4.450692785475397,6.388668565217394,5.034409937888199,81.02672718585762,71.4223602484472,7.810989010989012,26.67032967032967,8.502166056373571,1.9325089345437176,1346,46,246,23,26,431,188,322,0.18,0.687,0.132,-0.9686,0,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,11,4,6,14,19,5,1,16,1,25,16,4,5,2,56,51,22,0,9,13,0,5,2,1,4,6,7,0,1,11,14,6,2,12,4,1,1,9,13,1,0,2,15,31,6,31,39,3,22,0,3,3,4,24,14,2,6,8,150,42,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288220321075463,0.07583326114883017,0.0,0.0,0.06197626586465159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499796220119825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05555625194578461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246526003474474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07850643115962616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276545588892383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328255217161924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613324527787604,0.0,0.0,0.18833770809040468,0.0,0.12039022033304653,0.0,0.07678682922474342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04608159116838879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659508179758348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850932324756052,0.04761530608797099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059212294514187,0.0,0.0,0.1799577824933409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39377427376846136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25043248059338263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319372811467537,0.0,0.08904984157284651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295963079732196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225467503650884,0.0,0.1825039085721281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029045086492719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678846456831601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728402614604139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116163449518856,0.10373382603066764,0.0,0.09370398558056392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17338426017514544,0.14495155547182276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016169323827418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278210319537096,0.07619458904785302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589551711127415,0.0,0.0,0.07325244551380987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060547354260870434,0.058396891410884534,0.0,0.0,0.1062854020139368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237520425705321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871308178839981,0.0,0.0,0.0537549470896625,0.0,0.0,0.332940836664653,0.08194308252147313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653952028582802,0.0,0.0,0.0647410897319816,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bribear686,2019/06/18,"I'm for real considering buying that bracelet that shocks you whenever you eat fast food If you guys didn't know, Pavlok on Amazon is selling a habit changing wrist watch which tracks a bad habit and shocks you whenever you do it. One of the things it markets is conditioning you not to eat fast food which I think could maybe be helpful for binges which I've been struggling with for the past 6 months. like right now, I'm sitting here about to drop my money on this stupid watch and I'm really hovering over the add to cart button rn but when I step back and think about it this is fucking crazy right?? shock collars are for dogs and I'm about to willingly buy one for myself so I don't go to Wendy's and buy those cheese fries. so I'm basically a dog. it's like something out of the simpsons",4.424747474747472,5.27404264197531,4.50301907968575,89.00904040404043,70.1111111111111,7.8662177328844,25.83838383838384,8.00094639256281,1.1985111111111113,636,18,138,8,11,197,99,162,0.121,0.8270000000000001,0.051,-0.8819,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,6,0,0,9,9,2,1,7,0,11,6,1,0,0,16,21,10,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,8,4,0,3,0,5,2,3,7,0,2,2,2,11,2,20,16,0,17,0,0,2,1,8,6,1,1,9,78,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410178720682855,0.15312546778623146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19400544289597574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642436196919265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375313580334413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44351900925110255,0.0,0.0,0.1695438435790814,0.0,0.0,0.10422644989512067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18158787112642397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292444056058917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078797896415022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919308106398485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424288584849924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463825172294876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24854364246142616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506933911493666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20874134719020973,0.11748623122001105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132331849234433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118486638460415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917221488301413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183813882928113,0.2350216173695289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lightsflicker,2019/06/18,"how am i supposed to recover when the world is OBSESSED with weight?? i am so tired of going on twitter and seeing stuff like this:

“ugh I just ate an entire chocolate bar. i’m such a PIG”
- my mate from uni 

“we gonna go to sleep for dinner and that’s how it is”
- retweeted by three of my friends

“day 4 of my diet and i’m so hungry i want to cry!!!”
- another friend

are you serious?!?! all of these people have lovely healthy bodies. how the FUCK am i supposed to recover and go out into this world where everyone is still, almost as much as obsessed with weight, food, calories and diets as people with eating disorders??? recovery seems like a lifetime of fucking misery. i’d be worried about my weight either way - at least i don’t feel like i’m stuck in a cage of my own body. 

and people with AMAZING bodies are still PHOTOSHOPPING themselves into figures that don’t even fucking exist. some superhuman curvy bodies that don’t!!! exist!!!!! i’m so upset man :-(",2.1569428891377385,4.478189744680852,3.7093729003359455,86.0918421052632,79.74468085106382,5.872788353863382,23.72452407614782,7.0608816371341465,1.0469531914893622,744,26,141,9,19,246,117,188,0.172,0.703,0.125,-0.8688,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,0,0,14,15,3,3,6,0,13,20,5,3,1,26,31,16,0,1,2,0,4,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,8,14,10,0,3,1,0,3,3,8,0,1,2,5,13,7,27,27,6,17,0,0,1,4,7,9,3,3,7,93,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702189195668793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254154581420695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5192359146674639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283690426954591,0.07536727520003236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393566994614758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958051261937665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718722481194985,0.0,0.0,0.11166806095417693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059089685646674314,0.08348729177258915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131178103235273,0.0,0.1805768658562119,0.32411520588060644,0.0,0.0,0.1992486223789358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128077651001053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547385122002498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590810254551066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24305526272322386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312506130932577,0.10638812095327932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169478750405337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665464839540827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378072254956214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431737622893686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892910693719058,0.09276078899921364,0.0,0.42692469766431773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868053422613994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carbonmonoxxide,2019/06/18,"anyone else? I’ll go get something to eat, sit down take a bite, run to spit it out and then put it away?? what even 

I have four bowls of ice cream sitting in the freezer just from today.. 

I probably sound psychotic lmao.",0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,2.0800000000000023,96.18000000000002,84.55555555555556,5.377777777777778,20.11111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.1695777777777776,170,5,38,2,5,54,41,45,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.6641,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,8,4,0,11,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277218358962746,0.3336958995725741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30598547833560497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332502009259588,0.2720624249100733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21510744195732254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015346698866166,0.0,0.18509048001087525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511362848421045,0.0,0.0,0.32739663889853576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507230622907461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448695462833349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087049426013461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilonacamille,2019/06/18,"How to stop a binge Hi friends
What is your go to way to stop or prevent a binge?",-1.3105263157894742,0.27162768421052874,0.5360526315789471,108.13986842105264,87.94736842105263,3.8,20.026315789473685,3.1291,-1.0192315789473685,62,2,18,0,2,20,14,19,0.204,0.602,0.19399999999999998,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706100062501823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27262086917969164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8020904863537411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807583704342799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Arkhamgel,2019/06/18,"""how can you like the way you look? “ Twice this morning, and a thousand times before, I've seen a chubby guy, or one with some kind of buoy-muffin top situation, (you know, when it's bad enough you can see it through the shirt) , that look pretty content with the way they look, no oversized sweatshirt or other hidey clothes, and my brain automatically goes ""jesus, If I looked like this I would want to cry and hide in a hole"" when I actually don't look skinnier, yknow.

Bad brain. Bad bad brain. Being mean for no reason.",5.873300330033004,6.019156148514853,5.695792079207924,84.20857260726073,66.72277227722772,7.921452145214522,27.724422442244226,7.1686216300943375,1.2072561056105608,405,11,84,3,6,126,72,101,0.20600000000000002,0.693,0.1,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,4,1,1,3,7,0,0,6,0,5,4,4,2,0,15,15,9,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,1,7,9,3,7,12,2,7,1,0,7,0,6,2,0,4,5,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.12968723250215672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438501173658661,0.0,0.0,0.11308462663609305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4450673428093487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597991097914506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731699484818094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158783949675576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383906341505673,0.07303611368351512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985245238962195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.55799544620819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476259996508892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005370438365704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520291199887835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366391237918634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590082993852293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938056497952815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749267073898394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838544779394067,0.2109731666782846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440543771430833,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Squirrella,2019/06/18,"The hot new weight loss aid: heartbreak No point in eating or in anything else, really. :/",2.8818750000000013,5.857643437500003,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,83.375,5.7,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.8407249999999995,69,2,12,1,2,21,15,16,0.456,0.544,0.0,-0.8718,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33205376583900625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128907416014541,0.3370802360235272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897117883373704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814467063739595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584983847009621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4913656112393286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tartansheep,2019/06/18,"healthy week at work lol

Work is having a staff healthy week! Yay! 

We have all been told to drink more water. I already drink like 2-3 litres just at work, but I guess I can drink more. 

I didn’t eat the cake and chocolate anyway but it’s all been replaced with fruit. 

I don’t tend to eat much at work - often I do OMAD - but now I feel like I can’t have a tiny Freddo bar (95 cals) with my break. 

Also there is all this fitness stuff which is cool but I went to yoga after work yesterday and there was a girl there who was so thin and I just spent half the time consumed by jealousy. 

I haven’t lost any weight since moving to this city (I moved at the very end of April). Okay I’ve lost a few pounds but I used to be able to lose that in a week and now... 

I didn’t go to the gym all last week :(",0.00020168067227288589,1.6524879714285738,1.3709915966386568,103.56818487394959,83.57142857142857,4.346218487394959,15.436974789915967,4.514644488427479,-1.3472521008403362,605,9,159,1,17,192,103,175,0.09300000000000001,0.782,0.125,0.3604,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,8,11,8,0,0,9,4,18,9,0,1,4,22,28,11,0,0,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,7,9,0,1,6,1,4,5,3,0,1,11,5,16,5,17,16,8,24,0,3,0,0,4,7,0,2,14,96,23,6,0.12650154421757662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395975997042652,0.10116323920704692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602538799074222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37177006107707616,0.0,0.2588853217594325,0.0,0.0,0.11204282052918836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396298170252293,0.09037272846524044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189374280807928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393557128658616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311564247351934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360452932979095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152287013762732,0.2761827579019532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26890224339711005,0.09299319045414872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464338460766748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481400289983684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376406773173964,0.0,0.0,0.1208776466044753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925671797623047,0.0,0.10437702229295784,0.0,0.0,0.4058876332632827,0.15404480114257646,0.0,0.11726819885443238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604731540825794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gatetosarahlex,2019/06/18,"Tired of weight gain being pointed out Even if it's in a good way even if it's people telling me I look so much better.
It's triggering as fuck just don't comment on my weight",0.3526923076923083,2.2717606153846184,2.1304487179487204,97.15413461538462,83.87179487179488,4.925641025641027,20.006410256410245,5.985473137389443,-0.1853128205128205,140,4,33,1,4,46,32,39,0.146,0.638,0.21600000000000005,0.4728,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,5,4,4,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,5,3,1,5,0,0,1,1,2,4,1,2,0,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257251583214361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371464944404044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359507585262109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140700390724984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143241373911455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18761923160088567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176940398237464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412694652208541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22307729315541533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29334279505672906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025851746114933,0.0,0.6215888944412926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,californiabeautiful,2019/06/18,"I can’t take it anymore I hate being fat. It’s breaking me down. I’m miserable. Everything I do feels like it’s about my weight. I do outdoorsy things and I’m afraid I’ll break the equipment or that something won’t fit. I go out drinking with friends and someone gets drunk and calls me fat. I go to family events and relatives tell me to hit the gym. People take pictures with me in them, send them to me and I sit there and stare in shock at how fat I am. I’m exhausted. I’m so f*cking tired of this. I don’t wanna eat ever again. I wanna be skinny so I can f*cking live without worrying and being told I’m fat. Ugh. F*ck.Even as I’m typing this, I’m worried that whoever reads it will imagine a beached whale and mentally call me fat in their heads. Wtf is wrong with me",-0.3814545454545453,1.8493144606060632,1.7810606060606098,95.65159090909091,92.27272727272728,4.9393939393939394,20.833333333333336,6.574015621080383,0.3512424242424248,606,22,136,8,22,202,100,165,0.179,0.759,0.062,-0.9604,0,0,2,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,3,0,7,9,1,2,3,0,12,13,7,1,1,20,28,13,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,2,7,0,0,0,9,12,10,0,2,5,0,3,4,7,0,0,1,3,22,2,18,21,0,16,0,1,1,0,9,7,0,1,4,79,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178938440456767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537574544627301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969132382429195,0.0,0.17724904813782774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441130186375972,0.15668894848612622,0.0,0.0,0.15568049824309355,0.0,0.1632980062864813,0.0,0.0875860983216705,0.12374962001876108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13383065889090104,0.0,0.09050119092889126,0.0,0.19689177266897026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710205705963544,0.177775442867127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462737485591497,0.0,0.15295793828704332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745667355509113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009011897478755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17326858035095374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677018775634165,0.1333545306612126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604823275488802,0.0,0.15140340443709485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508080317867705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990928669182824,0.0,0.1655207615184412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109373693922668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166979541319299,0.0,0.0,0.35183009778574154,0.0,0.0,0.18939074063221015,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_nouvelle,2019/06/18,"Eating disorders are a trap and here is why TLDR ; Eating disorders creep up on you and trick you into thinking they are the only thing that will help you to feel better, but in the end they only make you feel worse when you realize you don't know how to enjoy food which is an intrinsic part of being human, and in the end you feel as though you've lost a part of yourself that will never come back to you.

I felt fat when I was little so I restricted food and lost some weight.
I got too hungry from restricting food and I binged back to my starting weight.
I felt bad about being fat again and restricted.
I binged on and off until my sophomore year in college.
In college I finally got tired of food and stopped eating altogether.
Since then I've had trouble eating and I've lost all sense of ""normal"" and now I can't escape this cycle and I'm terrified to gain weight.

Having an ED is like being in a cage and having the key but not being able to fine the lock. You know you're trapped and you have all this advice to help and you have tools but you can't even find where or how to use them because your own mind is the thing holding you back. 

Having an ED means it can evolve and change. Just when you think you're overcoming binge eating by working out and being healthy, you might end up with orthorexia. Orthorexia might become anorexia, or maybe your anorexia recovery can turn into BED. It's a winding maze and even if someone tells you where to turn it means you might not be able to listen to them and you might stay stuck forever.",4.9169032258064505,5.506267045161291,5.147903225806452,85.76185483870971,68.87096774193549,8.135483870967743,25.822580645161292,8.07648339933343,1.3546322580645158,1224,32,250,15,20,386,157,310,0.163,0.763,0.07400000000000001,-0.9846,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,20,4,6,20,10,1,0,13,0,30,15,2,4,3,64,55,34,0,2,9,0,8,1,0,6,3,1,1,1,10,23,14,5,13,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,10,9,35,4,34,33,6,36,0,3,0,0,29,16,0,8,19,175,45,3,0.15339396787767134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494740504749582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692573928004418,0.06403877795376844,0.04675376953344658,0.0847057929844482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06783224957961093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113523935013907,0.06606766044823248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758027766179534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924008099622999,0.0,0.0,0.20379228869670232,0.0,0.0,0.10131526909023596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634089869798163,0.0,0.14728226454899862,0.08401779698603698,0.07009965383707725,0.0,0.3709691896759788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268316891741808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281674326233273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084301313146743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037470272238214766,0.07687052692735458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511714542064019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119583234101351,0.0,0.07705242914186515,0.16709100000138868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254535185409417,0.07744208992580195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059153442232710074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514675994846806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666302476789095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611071907847147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344453767896803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498510560025524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054286519989117786,0.08174878002036931,0.0,0.06412211283647068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703654451895077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190813627007007,0.09828866083905666,0.07535439730804891,0.0,0.0,0.08815190045556863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684858886418671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662415687939764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801887924491849,0.0,0.0,0.06920709855207588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05583631776414241,0.0,0.07816077904032376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04939034304721611
EDAnonymous,kittennoise,2019/06/18,DAE here...? Have an eating disorder lol long time lurker first time poster waddup weeee,3.0500000000000007,5.721044666666668,1.3066666666666684,94.60000000000002,102.33333333333334,4.666666666666667,11.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.5003333333333333,70,1,12,1,3,19,14,15,0.146,0.703,0.151,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501277952919944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475512355973609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37203711945138696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3870695287134229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5100822160432069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rinserepeatbehavior,2019/06/18,"Ultimate Goal Weight My mom just came out and asked what I feel I’ll get out of hitting my goal weight and I realized... probably nothing. I will probably still hate myself. I will probably still be depressed. I will probably still have an eating disorder. I’m convinced life will be better, but I don’t know how or why. The number’s arbitrary. It’s just a number I chose blind, but I’m really attached to it. 

Sobering shit. Made me question everything. Still gonna barf though.",1.0398188405797093,3.5976126195652185,2.706347826086958,86.58357971014496,96.7173913043478,6.801159420289856,23.52463768115942,7.793537801064563,2.0213628985507244,379,16,70,10,15,124,62,92,0.188,0.753,0.057999999999999996,-0.9144,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,8,5,2,0,3,0,8,6,1,2,0,16,19,7,0,0,5,1,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,4,11,2,4,9,0,7,0,1,1,0,3,2,1,2,4,42,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301442080272477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231214931797752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922117267267516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990288916787405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954874338163624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424483898055285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251145579163101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038965120743003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273240143596553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744279679363902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765071453178123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832938656964477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172553800132145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304313659787814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335774430376447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6003753124718004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594903686018102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918262135198346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428988762008369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4446987812851138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677485225283945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33904485169790577,0.0,0.0,0.12561696486817758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,byie,2019/06/18,"The only time I can truly be comfortable and not worry about my weight so much is when I’m at home I still think I’m a fat fuck, but like- it’s not as bad. I’m not constantly surrounded by skinny people and feel like the biggest one in the room. Idk just a thing I noticed",1.3689999999999998,2.7050579000000035,3.4466666666666685,91.725,78.33333333333334,6.8000000000000025,20.333333333333336,7.554174236665415,0.4547333333333334,214,5,50,3,5,73,47,60,0.061,0.6829999999999999,0.255,0.9048,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,5,0,3,4,2,0,0,9,9,6,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,4,3,5,8,1,9,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,6,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302923775906299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980559246871617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945936627924138,0.19704089936431574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549847220593521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276662979444932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694966505743216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027543285792264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140149876279393,0.0,0.0,0.18689806204341894,0.20976825455748055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121404206309836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202646595037633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183237936039372,0.17672986679388528,0.0,0.0,0.16082880857384566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358659927060296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28010154245575725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheekyegg212,2019/06/18,"Why can’t I poop?? Why can’t we poop?? Seriously I’m not even joking😭. Even as I’m trying to recover and I eat fiber, drink hot lemon water, eat flax seeds and chia seeds like they’re fucking candy, work out, eat enough calories it’s like my body is just like HAHA  no FUQ  y o u . Why??",-1.269166666666667,0.6949011904761946,1.5288690476190467,98.12758928571432,92.65079365079364,4.419841269841268,14.224206349206348,5.985473137389443,-0.9233793650793648,217,4,54,2,8,75,47,63,0.064,0.737,0.2,0.8516,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,0,1,3,9,3,0,0,6,6,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,19,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21889045282593456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930448516204185,0.0,0.6049280910741958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20361678937429933,0.0,0.2603139900641949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821798073640906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888222919222748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379154839575716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334509633136744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434628244902621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,watchmedisapr,2019/06/18,"Someone else ordered this pizza, fr. I'm literally sitting in bed staring at an empty small pizza box wondering when and how I ordered this. Like, I remember ordering it. I remember picking it up. The rest is a blur. 

Does anyone else fr disassociate when slamming food?",3.223537414965985,6.255613020408165,5.6562244897959175,69.056037414966,82.06122448979592,8.164625850340135,34.697278911564624,8.841846274778883,4.16536462585034,214,13,32,6,6,75,38,49,0.039,0.9,0.062,0.2675,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,2,0,7,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,3,1,10,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,3,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18806278253589867,0.2755808600762503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353683291528256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44936241138823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252269754475047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140005853179662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6093575166782866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278885679101048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29167517684971633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wanderlustcub,2019/06/18,"When you Boss knowingly triggers you So, I was diagnosed with Anorexia a few months ago. I am a late-30's male who doesn't fit the stereotype of an anorexic person. 

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My weight is ""healthy"" but my anxiety isn't, hence the diagnosis. 

​

So, I work for a small company, and today we are running a pretty big conference. We have been getting ready for this for weeks and we all have our parts to play. Yesterday, I was sick and had to leave early, with the promise that I would be back today for the conference. 

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What is important is that our company wants us to all wear the same polo shirt. This was ordered for us. This caused me a fair bit of anxiety because I wasn't asked what my size was... they just assumed. The size was based on the last shirt they bought for me... which was a little big for me. I have not gained any real weight since that last purchase. 

Anyhow. Last night, I get a message from my boss to tell me that a co-worker took my shirt for her daughter (which I felt was weird), and that I will need to wear a plain black Tshirt for the conference. 

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I was like, ""Ok, fine."" a little miffed that I would be the only person without a staff shirt... but I let that go. 

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The next morning, 45 minutes before I arrive at the conference for the day,  I get another message from my Boss. ""Actually, can you just go into the office?  You are too big for the shirts we got, so we gave them to other people, and since you don't look like staff, the Event lead said not to come. sorry for the change""  

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My boss knows I am in recovery for an eating disorder. She has been quite terrible in allowing me time to go to my appointments, constantly asking me if it is really Anorexia because .."" Well, usually women have that"" and ""You look too big to be anorexic""

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So, outwardly, I said ""fine... it would look weird for me to not have a staff shirt while everyone else has one.""  


And her response, ""Oh, I am sorry you are just so big for these shirts, otherwise we would have you."" 

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Furious, ashamed, angry, and worst of all... I haven't eaten or drink anything today because I am just.... I just can't win for losing.",4.272257300107015,5.614793305687205,4.734672068491058,85.36340085613824,70.91943127962085,8.004402996483718,27.83091270447944,8.460557738077197,1.8795845283595791,1693,60,336,27,31,537,197,422,0.109,0.8109999999999999,0.08,-0.9513,0,0,1,0,0,0,119.0,10,8,3,6,15,16,1,1,30,1,46,16,9,8,3,55,70,19,0,7,13,1,3,2,0,5,2,2,0,4,20,18,5,0,4,2,2,7,10,7,1,1,20,9,60,9,40,41,8,44,0,1,4,0,38,15,0,4,23,235,80,9,0.0,0.0,0.050005381165890865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0454234689197521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441706446675249,0.4981228964322541,0.034846721977939546,0.05373232908155082,0.0784008902732634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04216828976828945,0.0,0.09580981870101128,0.0,0.0,0.039402392758286525,0.0,0.09371103140929783,0.0,0.04360367439289943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05594364233648033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05264026078121941,0.05420787128691712,0.044140958509409904,0.0,0.05537504123867131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03304723476532513,0.0,0.0,0.05201015556712354,0.0,0.0,0.05872845364800373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05019823512049973,0.0,0.0524339677055058,0.04280661305523362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04896449574894194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04920092738657896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031642323041456,0.0,0.08736704336130066,0.0,0.040983384550372384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056323180519081126,0.12530866324850648,0.057803879452943865,0.05425850956119759,0.0,0.052399025471975134,0.0,0.05006908738653788,0.10271708477873348,0.0,0.0,0.1290926227884824,0.05732735677677695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04090135067440207,0.0,0.0,0.03799573511199477,0.0,0.0,0.05449708142121981,0.04808770440729893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03472330873457676,0.038972302794774566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055490737140270696,0.0,0.035525163526847287,0.08948611536937484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05213214145139442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05450280766238096,0.0,0.05832529186725865,0.032827318681848426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748688510644904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477680869388023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472378025919873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044788286888769055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02987996939329649,0.0,0.1457159660751592,0.0,0.05693240882233516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327706558940263,0.0,0.056436479208186376,0.0,0.030224210349541206,0.0,0.041103719032722114,0.12479935244558335,0.046073247150402265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049396033259417854,0.0,0.07461043932913097,0.0,0.0,0.14560507787713792,0.0,0.4981228964322541,0.0
EDAnonymous,WaveHelloSayGoodbye,2019/06/18,"I lie everyday, even to myself. Recovery seems impossible. What can I do, if therapy is not an option? TLDR: a selfish deep bulimic wants to not purge/lax purge/exercise every time she eats tomatoes, feel better about herself, but is lost. How do I get out?

I tried to recover, and it didn’t go well. From restrictive behavior I went to a full-blown bulimia, where I abuse the capacity of my stomach to feel awful about myself (surprisingly, I binge on healthy foods. Veggies, turkey cuts, fruits). I self-harm for no reason — I am loved and I love, but every time I wake up I feel awful about my body. One time I got intentionally shitfaced to bust my knees so I will leave scars forever — well, good job, you stupid beyoch, it’s in there forever.

I feel more in power and loved when I’m not consuming food for weeks. I think people close to me judge me, and compare me to others (or ex’s, yanno). When I do, I secretly yeet it all out (American-Chinese especially — I love it, but still). I know I need help, but I have no means to afford a therapy. I feel better when I’m losing — be it in my “normal” state (where I am no longer losing because the body, which still has hopes for me, ironically, the only thing that still has faith in me, refuses to give up on muscles) or “close to ideal”. I will feel ideal once I’m like my friend, who is 80 lbs and 5’6. I’m 5’3. Nowhere near close.

I was brutally bullied in school for being overweight (to a point of dipping my head in a toilet; catfishing; making me pay). I won’t give up like that to let them see that I’m the same — is what I think. And this is why I can’t get out. 

I work out every day for an hour — a cardio for first 25 minutes of non-stop running, muscle routine, and finish off with some more jogging. I lose energy, but I want to, at least, be at my job in conscious mind. Unlike the last 15 years I spent with patchy skin, breakouts, and unfortunate depression. How do I secure weight loss in that state? I still want to lose at 110 and 5’3, but I want to stop crying and feeling so fat when I see others walking around.",3.0848863636363646,4.384481253588518,4.663705143540671,84.8918735047847,73.7846889952153,7.9044258373205745,24.78498803827751,8.472884824447931,1.5049351674641147,1596,49,335,28,32,537,225,418,0.177,0.649,0.175,-0.4492,4,0,0,0,1,0,76.0,0,1,1,13,22,29,3,0,13,2,25,19,8,5,1,68,64,27,0,10,12,1,9,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,17,20,7,4,15,1,2,5,9,11,2,2,6,12,56,18,54,51,6,57,1,7,2,4,16,30,0,7,22,216,73,5,0.0,0.09861089633607548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409005886859345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050734669474910885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721579870471366,0.0,0.18489382721567954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914214249419818,0.05367480778934855,0.0,0.07168366440324697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516243970823632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497093326750474,0.0,0.21036810067094786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945760288799504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079321032868015,0.20127787995919974,0.0,0.06430130676948627,0.0,0.08696579526917557,0.15967867124484958,0.04730006703880979,0.06980722046040164,0.06656457957584737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541535536486555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055785592669373385,0.0,0.0,0.08266361816317254,0.08196225468835085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16518076621438674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04573961951604028,0.06784146451753931,0.0,0.08812583238248915,0.0,0.08510568707274932,0.0,0.08132143765566513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724408263403018,0.0908525725152378,0.0,0.3004640237297451,0.0,0.05555495649299785,0.0,0.0,0.09065907136362897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403597988010725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061712085547659175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154521156563835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863449781161044,0.05639706121778685,0.06329821168010925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05769942137456607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867682381900919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557166062158095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423060351630357,0.13264297409937978,0.07576712741811822,0.08682436180641895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658621357617469,0.13916371805973865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903556414811085,0.0,0.05529260701393805,0.10665755447234744,0.0,0.0,0.14559175301586189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056505962486346574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19635878071089227,0.0,0.06676002498168597,0.1013485894102757,0.14966291144115712,0.07715266239709237,0.07509981131778734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605905610334438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05359573687337399
EDAnonymous,jadereloaded,2019/06/18,Ayyyy Woke up one pound higher AND got rejected by my crush so I’m doing great.,0.2747058823529436,2.508375588235296,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,87.23529411764706,5.752941176470588,14.382352941176471,7.1686216300943375,-0.2455647058823529,63,1,14,1,2,21,17,17,0.22,0.584,0.196,0.1189,0,1,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5257284999594367,0.7247109210796039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4454252184130942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InLoveWithStyrofoam,2019/06/18,yeah i’m recovered i guess but if i started getting chubby i would lose my mind. i’m 5’6 ish and honestly if i was 125+ i would relapse INSTANTLY. frankly even 120+. so yeah i eat normally now...but i still have insane expectations to stay skinny and if i don’t i will LITERALLY die.,-1.7816428571428595,-0.851056449999998,1.8147619047619048,89.68500000000002,121.83333333333334,5.7142857142857135,20.952380952380953,6.868970318607317,1.3222380952380957,223,10,48,6,14,80,42,60,0.20800000000000002,0.652,0.14,-0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,6,2,1,0,0,12,11,7,1,7,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,10,1,1,7,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050979614177423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30080816358784424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19416664839052064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358896045897988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32384482664187514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32888102255051505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968293166523188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880315010288461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807587511185588,0.3133365142115342,0.2347675251555139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176605166643511,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mij3i,2019/06/18,"I'm really out here sneaking around to do the most innocent shit. Ever since my family found out about my ED, they've been so hypervigilant. 2 weeks ago, I had to take a shit after eating and my parents start banging on the door talkin bout some ""WHY HAVE YOU BEEN IN THERE FOR SO LONG???"" babe, I've been in here for 3 minutes? So I come out and my Dad was like ""what were you doing"" and I said ""using the bathroom"" and he said ""you couldn't have gone before you went to eat?"" And I was like ""No. Sometimes I can only poop after I eat. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯"" and then he was like ""you cant do that"" IM SORRY WHAT?? I cant do WHAT? I'm no longer allowed to take a shit??? So I said ""would you rather I just sat here for an hour with a stomach ache"" and he said ""I DON'T KNOW"" and then I just left smh. There have been a lot of incidents like this, so to avoid conflict, I find myself being super sneaky and shady about every day things. Gotta change my tampon? Let me sneak ever-so-quietly up these creaky ass stairs and then oil the bathroom door hinge so no one hears me close it. Want a Hershey's kid before bed. Okay I'll just sneak downstairs at 12 AM and take one from the bag. Want an extra 5 chips after a meal? Lemme just fucking tiptoe off to the pantry and eat it in a corner so no one thinks I'm bingeing. Need to stretch? Let me twist around in this uncomfortable seated position so no one thinks I'm trying to exercise. Swear to God, my family always wants to find something wrong when there's nothing wrong UGH. ""Why are you in the bathroom"" BECAUSE IM USING THE FUCKING BATHROOM YOU ABSOLUTE THROAT ASS. Ffs. Why is it that when I'm not doing anything, everyone's worried, but when I'm actually purging 4 times a day, no one notices??? How does that work????",1.1889481981981973,3.322052797222224,2.594039039039042,93.79432432432436,82.1388888888889,5.336336336336337,19.72972972972973,6.5153245180268975,0.04072747747747797,1357,36,298,13,37,439,191,360,0.125,0.8220000000000001,0.053,-0.9635,2,1,1,0,0,0,68.0,0,8,0,2,28,15,5,1,18,1,29,16,8,4,1,49,61,28,0,7,7,2,0,4,0,2,1,5,3,2,13,20,5,2,6,1,0,3,11,9,0,5,17,6,30,6,35,38,4,40,0,0,0,4,20,19,7,3,22,181,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0827406557275878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515926318757092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070550236449841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977312971107003,0.15095822464774106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05168585198188469,0.0,0.14429633480572848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969424312548976,0.07303717652699461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936222505315744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419836951857682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470363204280095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533908269343036,0.07143737294123713,0.08101837024695273,0.0,0.0,0.15986077169459306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498901450556207,0.0,0.0,0.09296543929091376,0.0,0.156769897786487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556200553043682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834988974554875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317073340487566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046597153947812026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212218578788474,0.17340252692624625,0.0,0.16569213254472093,0.0,0.0,0.07503452918369183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208355004390242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06286907458196897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135617465955929,0.09653146493694303,0.0,0.0,0.2872720162055358,0.06448493768613199,0.0,0.0,0.09414681078869984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05431723166960572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32261043153689983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26110035496577844,0.07013733900511257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527378583873303,0.08385729584838753,0.09491299321070468,0.06001323668163117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912496063564081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056329242535583524,0.10865718906346014,0.0,0.0,0.04944044426978545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057565346209804365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645886113135848,0.0,0.0,0.1500301122517221,0.0,0.06801165367238071,0.0,0.0,0.07859913408199927,0.22952338736875805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061726523528897535,0.08610612005688179,0.0,0.0602308158638663,0.18540428409248785,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Renlywinsthethrone,2019/06/18,"Every time I track my calories I'm shocked I'm not bigger than I already am Like normally I don't track calories cause lizard brain says food volume and water weight matters more so I'll just ear small or light things and be deathly terrified of anything with genuine bulk even if it's very low-cal. 

But every once and a while I'll decide to actually track my calories (usually it's a recovery mood where I think instead of just weighing myself twice a day and make decisions based on every fluctuation of the scale, I'll just set a lot calorie count and stick to that and trust that it will make me lose weight even if I gain some water weight at first.) And every time I do this, it's like ""congratulations you ate 5,000 calories today, the very first thing you ate today was more than your entire daily allowance"" and it's like... How have I ever lost weight? How am I not 300lb? I don't track my calories, and then when I do track my calories it's like way too much every day. 

Usually I hate how big I am. But counting calories makes me greatful that I'm not bigger, cause it seems like I should be!",5.0363484945547725,5.439229883408071,5.438286354900705,84.44328475336324,68.55156950672645,7.985778347213325,28.48462524023062,7.7094869923839395,1.5729208199871882,876,28,179,9,14,280,119,223,0.07,0.8270000000000001,0.10400000000000001,0.747,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,0,5,14,12,1,0,6,0,13,12,2,9,1,40,25,21,1,4,11,0,4,5,0,2,0,2,0,0,13,10,10,0,4,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,4,7,23,7,10,17,5,23,0,2,0,0,4,7,0,6,19,106,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.1011181984628756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434727588107005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527045278355845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567421873697033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21289262126227584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336526896000856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688010043487855,0.09373024629750362,0.4365217069659952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17627828315633545,0.1252977473115825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424144499024573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230332361541908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25311755440934663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592430463984316,0.11311349936643827,0.08809404101468378,0.0,0.0,0.207501516867426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617264212599881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152562532248477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035194639509686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240280404956081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433178039915993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768108255582578,0.06639552896650386,0.0,0.0,0.12084334144569765,0.0,0.19643933823730372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282456396517571,0.17099474760399888,0.0,0.08224875389395536,0.0,0.5047251073545951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rejected_desk_puppy,2019/06/18,My heart palpitates and beats really hard whenever I eat. The title pretty much says it all. I’ve been relapsing with my disordered eating for about a year now. I’m still in the normal BMI range. Recently low restricting and alternate day fasting. For the past week or so anytime I eat anything my heart beats SO hard like I can feel it everywhere even in my cheeks it’s also been palpitating when I eat. Is this an ED thing? I’m super psyching myself out and it’s a smidge scary. Any advice on how to help with this?,1.6559385113268623,4.214452320388354,3.338082524271848,86.41806229773466,84.04854368932037,7.316828478964402,21.204692556634306,8.344100000000001,1.5042110032362457,411,13,81,10,12,136,73,103,0.105,0.769,0.126,0.6541,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,9,3,0,0,6,0,4,7,3,1,1,12,7,9,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,6,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,9,2,10,5,2,14,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,10,50,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642634610307932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801430008716996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885851342525003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173053524997866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323705201441882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346322973887386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6551989344676297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572999384163068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094023479594702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28679684910708525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793863461357401,0.10729689344516198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820601353705482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176757316409802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684242933794335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281254190676186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285685131778965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025500508686372,0.0,0.15805768998438932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730043208637412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783847892859435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634869469329536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840489710865646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308496859574444
EDAnonymous,fluffington-post,2019/03/01,"How come people who are naturally very thin will look healthy compared to someone with an ED of the same size? There are women who I know of who have always been naturally very thin, even underweight, and they don't have that boney/gaunt look that someone with an ED will have.

And I don't just mean dark under eye circles and dry skin. They just have an overall softer look.",6.986643835616437,6.661200506849315,6.237089041095892,82.85097602739727,64.47945205479452,8.943835616438355,30.578767123287676,8.07648339933343,1.8829753424657527,299,9,60,3,4,91,47,73,0.0,0.961,0.039,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,4,0,11,2,2,1,0,12,17,4,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,6,14,1,4,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,0,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945655157464416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21684002636857655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626293009331125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834226035572014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6341603960293669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27420387372913463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745154082747748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4265739672427305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154013282702526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,funkypunkytaco,2019/03/01,"“Oh you don’t look it” So I was weighing myself at the gym this morning (after weighing myself 3 times before I left) and an older lady comes up and asks me how to work the scale. It’s a little weird, so I show her where it tells you how much you weigh. Since I was on it, it showed my weight. She goes “oh you don’t look it” in reference to the number.


I haven’t stopped thinking about that comment. WHAT DID SHE MEAN??? Someone rational might say “she means you look smaller than that” but of course that’s not what I think she meant. Ugh stupid brain. ",1.8705263157894727,3.575895350877193,2.6226666666666683,96.56400000000002,77.94736842105263,5.261754385964913,20.171929824561406,5.6839178017228535,-0.27409543859649155,426,10,97,2,10,133,78,114,0.106,0.884,0.011000000000000001,-0.8845,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,0,1,6,3,1,0,5,0,7,5,1,2,0,15,17,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,12,3,4,1,6,3,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,5,20,0,10,12,1,12,0,0,3,0,14,7,0,1,4,64,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18326249081164875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680791355465766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188353891941186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16886331929073398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298821794829872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964745269397248,0.0,0.0,0.4938499188993077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270703804617225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795787622422968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410531549377684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589169213129914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215884065898084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16609640119943955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638906651157359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133970454608305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25121745503504234,0.0,0.0,0.114307232612132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23871290532581946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427128778385176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SundownPanicButton,2019/03/01,"I feel like trash Does anyone get to a point in fasting where you aren’t hungry anymore and your stomach just hurts? Like, somehow your appetite is basically nonexistent and you just want to sleep? Or is it just me?",3.4540243902439016,5.979324097560978,3.661158536585369,87.07027439024392,76.3170731707317,6.051219512195122,27.32317073170732,7.1686216300943375,1.4448975609756096,172,7,32,2,4,53,33,41,0.071,0.774,0.156,0.4098,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,9,6,3,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,3,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,2,3,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592436917389229,0.2532858891576898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169977372724101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18315889200688346,0.2587835709459973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18925489516568506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877842770210646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539432971459469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3424328840493753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36250054439389584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136579119599762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheCuntInTheRye,2019/03/01,"Becoming sick at the same time every year. I have disordered behaviors year-round. Usually, I just eat normally and purge (which has me in awe that my teeth haven't rotted out of my skull). However, at around the same time yearly, I'll start restricting heavily. In high school, this used to be \~late September - \~January, however, it's shifted to \~January - \~April. I don't really understand why, but I've never been able to prevent it, only delay it. Is anybody else like this?",5.194350649350652,7.23592804545455,6.074220779220783,73.90454545454547,69.68181818181819,11.392207792207792,31.88961038961039,11.20814326018867,4.395579220779221,380,17,65,14,7,125,68,88,0.081,0.868,0.052000000000000005,-0.3612,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,4,2,1,1,14,10,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,3,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,10,8,2,17,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,11,38,13,1,0.21116562749339104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879821781819595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332158451256802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420141036394328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21607515448243544,0.1764017855892338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17791614866201574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231080792442222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23820402553986805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316485920542612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286394987090685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068974802355752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606009751963311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527810817718688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137108886181178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946411800334214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462647510807785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21983086537645416,0.0,0.18237930257703172,0.2325691054288296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19054413410050847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4079512223060786
EDAnonymous,bigmthstrikesagain,2019/03/01,"any ed group chats i can join? Hello everyone!
I'd love to have some people to talk to about ed stuff.. if anyone wants to add me to an ed group chat pls message me! 

a little  bit a about me:
I'm 18, female, 6' tall, CET time zone
I struggle with restriction, binge eating and bulimia; I've been bulimic for over 3 years and I started restricting a little over a year ago.

preferably group chats where the members aren't under 16 x",2.7323051948051957,4.16236956818182,4.196948051948056,87.3636363636364,74.9090909090909,7.301298701298702,23.935064935064936,7.957251820313856,1.1991019480519474,334,10,70,5,7,111,65,88,0.083,0.8190000000000001,0.098,0.3147,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,10,8,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,12,7,2,12,0,0,0,1,10,7,0,2,5,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22092374421685024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948217465844798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742645608700105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720901600874693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550203395982503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23814605074872244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995796997461303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22493612686276102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278187524894614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640339178405506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605450485410312,0.2853040562293125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20031835722150051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14532564052107128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699990721128658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209866477590925
EDAnonymous,dani_lionn,2019/03/01,Vengeance on my irregular period Normally I can tolerate how irregular my period is with my ed but it came out of nowhere on Wednesday and I'm supposed to be spending the night w the bf later and I'm FUCKING PISSED about it so after googling how to make it stop early I've been aggressively masturbating and drinking my bodyweight it water for the last 2 days to hurry it along and I know I should be ashamed to admit that but I WILL BE GETTING SOME DICK TONIGHT GOD DAMMIT,2.4607446808510645,5.008878265957454,4.018553191489364,82.99400000000003,80.17021276595744,7.164255319148936,28.54893617021277,8.238735603445708,2.2876374468085108,383,18,73,8,10,127,65,94,0.222,0.723,0.055,-0.968,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,1,3,0,8,5,2,3,0,19,16,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,8,2,1,2,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,8,0,13,9,1,15,0,0,0,2,2,3,3,1,11,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104975462556157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231467326328232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35159526514846395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33180660938226497,0.18751571679553455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972476078200216,0.2925596392947424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23957528258288965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368128210260654,0.3516556998218813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000649193528724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RevolutionaryRest5,2019/03/01,The guy I've liked for two years got a girlfriend She isn't skinny. She's normal. It never mattered. I'm just pathetic.,-1.032,0.625173800000006,1.4640000000000022,93.47200000000002,111.0,3.6,17.0,5.6839178017228535,-0.1938,95,3,19,1,5,32,23,25,0.151,0.735,0.114,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657194518047321,0.0,0.0,0.45276778103419496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233983282769344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35267371484790805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480261163086677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4466849541719724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944659702397208
EDAnonymous,remiisme,2019/03/01,"🍑 appreciation post This isn’t a self promo I promise! I just have such a genuine appreciation for the peach community and I would never have known about it or joined it or connected with so many people on there without you guys here, so thank you! I’ve only had it a few days but it’s honestly such a great feeling to be able to just shitpost all my thoughts that I can’t really say anywhere else, and seeing everyone else’s thoughts and knowing we all relate and understand what we’re going through, there’s just no other platform that I really feel so connected on.

So thank you guys for sharing this with me, and I hope you all are having an equally good experience! In a world where everyone is shouting, it’s really nice to feel heard.",5.843713850837138,6.297456095890412,6.7394063926940655,75.6379375951294,66.8082191780822,10.050532724505327,32.660578386605785,9.994966539143718,3.161465144596652,594,24,113,13,9,198,91,146,0.018000000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.258,0.9894,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,4,0,0,14,9,0,0,7,0,10,0,0,0,4,29,23,12,0,2,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,11,8,0,0,8,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,7,13,9,13,17,5,10,0,0,1,0,11,6,0,3,2,82,24,0,0.1651887968043162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653310821058852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759880863331367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31568994871378386,0.0,0.1615863405195722,0.0,0.0,0.2505732570967662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388060000120912,0.1385525254300801,0.0,0.1821212316444404,0.0,0.3271257595638206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406974783063147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078344266340237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747551255269802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274037836617874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563352366195146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114521112494879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820520493757073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31747251940119403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136476141161266,0.0,0.0,0.13163408398742046,0.0,0.1723279414048328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041673005652653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622829057899389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196736316910574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15923610534340024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734538175166807,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LolitaJane,2019/03/01,"I posted an ED meme on Facebook, and everyone laughed, and no one noticed. It was the Mr. Krabs ""**THERE'S FOOD IN THE FATTY TISSUE RESERVES**"" one.

LOL real life is disordered and everyone thinks it's a big joke.
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EDAnonymous,dis__cord,2019/03/01,Spitting food into tissues. Don't know when it started but whenever I eat with my fam or someone else I'd chew the food and keep it in my mouth then spit it out into some tissues while pretending to be wiping my mouth or something. I've been using quite a lot of tissues and I feel bad. ,3.8895000000000017,4.472146949999999,5.010000000000002,85.86000000000001,71.16666666666666,7.333333333333332,30.0,7.1686216300943375,1.6620000000000008,227,9,47,2,4,75,46,60,0.081,0.8909999999999999,0.027000000000000003,-0.631,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,8,4,1,0,15,8,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,7,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,4,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227540767206369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729873458568662,0.22286437960793606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489435777505088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6451942243317957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371304949320688,0.0,0.0,0.14661789134933814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268108073778124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837583623094449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260458063242305,0.20538389213173608,0.0,0.0,0.1888315802541128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304163191227864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohwellolivia,2019/03/01,"Back to square one Had the flu earlier this week. Puked constantly, barely ate, ya know the drill. For the past 2 days I’ve been feeling a little better, but instead of vomiting everything I ate, I actively purged everything I ate, a behavior I haven’t had in 2 years. But I’ve done it 4 times today already so I guess I’m back to square one. Happy NEDA week y’all. ",1.887942857142857,3.859548346666666,4.0072380952380975,85.41600000000003,78.86666666666667,8.019047619047619,24.04761904761905,8.841846274778883,1.8793619047619048,286,10,59,7,7,98,53,75,0.054000000000000006,0.785,0.161,0.8102,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,0,5,5,0,0,0,5,12,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,3,7,2,5,5,0,12,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,10,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24017636744389104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33471072008571484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924890736154156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351966293198515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036284310192565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22272611954053412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912100921964593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004771306051797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397602033959179,0.0,0.0,0.2316868581302525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196118496198095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813719297646528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29496339832977675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077665181747877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691039010145008,0.0,0.20630175191050631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491629424649591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401560679120373
EDAnonymous,mipiacelapizza,2019/03/01,"Man, I love it when my mom overeats I know I'm kind of an asshole for saying this but I fucking love it, it's like watching one of those disgusting muckbang videos but irl. And plus I get to feel superior to her even though I know I'm a scum bag. ",-0.1833333333333336,1.8178573333333323,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,86.77777777777777,5.0814814814814815,21.962962962962962,6.42735559955562,0.18165185185185206,192,7,47,2,6,64,40,54,0.075,0.6559999999999999,0.26899999999999996,0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,9,6,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,7,5,6,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,0,2,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988057398552792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219317317629835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782669604563213,0.15725855686728446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134421516292437,0.33084025895411623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705197472776446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5433232527343408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35252415515348484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039634187490397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393649679270425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29572811369296503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatmujigae,2019/03/01,"a screenshot was posted to another subreddit talking about how all macro nutrients are good and important for your body and people were mocking it the text on the screenshot said ""we need carbs and we need fats and we need protein and honestly fuck diet culture for normalizing malnourishment"" 

and I totally agree

like honestly, keto or completely removing all fat from your diet can be so so dangerous, and it's so easy to become obsessed over food

and people on that subreddit were just mocking this post as if this was idk, the same as saying eating 3 donuts a day was part of a healthy balanced diet idk

and it rubbed me off the wrong way, so I just had to rant about it",7.656763392857144,7.478635703125002,7.674241071428572,72.61093750000002,63.0625,11.376785714285715,36.254464285714285,10.914260884657429,4.025652678571428,542,23,96,13,7,175,83,128,0.155,0.6940000000000001,0.151,0.1213,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,3,2,0,0,9,10,4,1,7,0,9,9,3,1,3,25,14,18,0,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,12,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,7,3,8,4,15,6,5,9,0,0,0,1,9,4,1,2,2,69,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054258473263691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636418096553506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176088056995928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540503856572215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634397800171482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046203893821832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23689184074585,0.0,0.0,0.18111310836661826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643177179287461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571039332416656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4357882608246984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19194752325202946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21214847542722454,0.0,0.2716348590746701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752500094689352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18635266997086852,0.15579331913587854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574628376255675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15550206709255324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21419383868075992,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jooliacoolia17,2019/03/01,the scale won’t. move. been at the same weight ALLLL week and i’m getting so frustrated. i know i’m eating at a deficit but WHY ISNT THE NUMBER GOING DOWNN. literally triggering me to start binging i wanna die :-) ,-0.6021428571428551,0.5340130714285749,2.343238095238096,85.7434285714286,120.66666666666669,5.48952380952381,18.48571428571429,6.742157984588678,1.1093828571428577,167,6,31,4,10,58,35,42,0.256,0.6809999999999999,0.063,-0.8434,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,6,9,3,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766313574167402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713357717884059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895994925468804,0.0,0.2062435853138327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199439529591755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857036830395792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25686143206231554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910952937247764,0.4419126177839085,0.0,0.0,0.32745945856406883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StephPowell1,2019/03/01,"Fear I feel like I've always been afraid.

My dad had these ingenious ways of instilling fear so you never forgot that he was in control.

If I forgot to wash up, he'd wait till you fell deep asleep and the pull back your blanket and soak you in freezing water whilst screaming at you. I remember being terrified and confused not sure what was happening but feeling my heart pound in my chest and being sure I was going to die, that kind of fear, like you desperately need to run but not sure from what from or where too. 

Or he'd make you stand on one leg waiting for you to lose balance so he could hit you or he'd tell you he was going to hit you but never when so you'd spend hours or days waiting for it to happen and just when you thought he'd forgotten, out of the blue he'd just be hitting you. Some times I didnt even know what I had done after a while, I didnt need to find a reason. 

I think that's what started the insomnia, the fear of something bad happening when I was asleep.
I'd always have to know where he was at all times so I could prepare myself for whatever mood he'd be in and what risk that meant for me. I don't know why that got worse later when I lived alone? 
When you're always scared, you start to look for things to be afraid of so you can avoid the danger, to always keep yourself safe; silly little things that you know are irrational but the avoidance helps you feel safe.
Scared of things, people, relationships, losing people, saying the wrong thing, existing. 
When you don't always have a reason for a reaction you feel like you're the reason, like your existence is the reason. 

Everything is weighing up risk. Especially with food, the risk of eating and not being able to purge the consequence of that food, the risk of being judged if people see me eat, the risk of not fitting in, or them finding out, the risk of anyone knowing that my personality is an act.
The risk of anyone knowing that actually, I'm not a good person, I'm not much of anything at all.
It's all a risk and they are risks I can't warrant chanceing.

It makes you angry but you don't even realise it, until something sets you off and then your blood is boiling.

When Mum, my sister and I went away, mum said that I was violent because my sister and I play fight and without even thinking I said 'well I'm a product of my upbringing'. I sounded and felt angry and that feeling shocked and angered me more.

It's weird to be 30 and be afraid of what's to come instead of excited. 

As a Christian, you're meant to be afraid for nothing, but fear helps me navigate life. ",5.5599552143314135,5.349061403071018,5.972635316698657,83.17366826615486,67.40690978886757,8.866052463211773,29.26685860524632,8.344100000000001,1.864579987204096,2025,62,420,25,30,653,226,521,0.23800000000000002,0.696,0.067,-0.9985,0,3,2,0,1,0,48.0,0,25,2,3,23,50,4,23,24,0,45,16,6,7,8,93,92,46,1,6,22,5,7,4,0,0,3,5,0,2,27,20,7,11,24,1,1,8,15,34,1,1,23,15,63,15,61,47,6,54,1,2,3,0,52,20,0,9,27,282,90,0,0.06999107128659365,0.0,0.06830118924230237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248964165023414,0.0,0.0,0.2911908908913268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787876883410294,0.0,0.05759668804310114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575891543893234,0.05381881352839216,0.058439620995304975,0.04266590742267078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060291110480411685,0.0,0.0,0.0785009379095051,0.11176435039408099,0.0,0.0,0.04513845076299309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07263968183041906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162516630710075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323667843257493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868532744984186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629034618220611,0.0,0.0,0.39379706936757386,0.1769479431944491,0.10000327062403963,0.06720240450081247,0.0,0.127941142321558,0.0,0.16926696244305714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955507751408386,0.05870518989130946,0.05597825351393194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18567861956901652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293975646848274,0.09382707946988107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689271065896243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062211280054994114,0.0,0.07288493022875586,0.23079157412679546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04943676353160832,0.1367764081802445,0.07014944074334313,0.06180339824193137,0.0,0.05877487217899378,0.15660421149404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343916714675364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051451490671524616,0.10379498501073027,0.10796285797779867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715832056911793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04742776128695803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556898839715354,0.12222700753196605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878499131163198,0.0,0.07514421713458573,0.07928623982378327,0.0,0.133155073175204,0.05565970912299973,0.1401465447979746,0.0,0.0557738220408678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776509226156207,0.0,0.0,0.09908008099743576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19789726913192865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061175281285826534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599583097167235,0.0896949047297136,0.0,0.055565092523026605,0.08162471304099654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05555565457109158,0.0,0.0,0.06293037867639523,0.06488242429320956,0.06315605542141725,0.0,0.0,0.06746889508307294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132688114554354,0.0,0.07652424906944708,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,birdsbirdsbirds339,2019/03/01,"I started stacking again I thought I was finished with stacking, I was restricting just fine without it. 

I'm ~10lbs from my goal weight (when I told myself i would maintain lmao) and I look and feel bigger than ever. Down 35 since I started. Is this body dysmorphia? Or am I really just realizing how big I was to start? Every time I look into a mirror I see something completely different. I don't really know what I am anymore. I'm just yelling into the void and waiting for an answer I know isn't going to come",2.4176470588235257,4.702595078431377,4.121333333333337,83.68200000000002,78.6078431372549,6.825098039215686,26.86666666666667,7.908726449838941,1.8835772549019607,406,17,76,7,10,136,69,102,0.035,0.9440000000000001,0.021,-0.2869,1,0,1,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,3,0,9,2,1,1,1,23,25,6,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,7,1,2,6,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,6,17,1,10,19,0,15,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,1,8,53,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018134698106675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260383141900024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529388843646662,0.21336180994267165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21261013325778125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407389073878816,0.1714542576536641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028937525490348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565153445663524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236722911260308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34177097766210424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607296503295258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216006075528605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683340931758052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666125494886393,0.0,0.0,0.4321068029660048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155318839015126,0.11866022393231385,0.0,0.0,0.1944492631108843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24780345175191146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616299771864976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445578049224789,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hamiifan,2019/03/01,"Health and Fitness class is such a trip I’m studying public health in college right now, and I have to take a one credit Health and Fitness class to graduate early. Being lectured about how to balance diet and exercise is hilarious to me but also scary. So many people in my class don’t know anything about nutrition. They don’t even think twice about what they eat. Meanwhile it’s my 2nd time today at the gym and I haven’t eaten in over a day.  I’m probably the most knowledgeable but also the least healthy in the class. ",5.0872399445215,6.1074155048543695,5.500027739251041,81.8378640776699,68.70873786407768,8.215811373092926,29.277392510402212,8.418075326091056,2.0931897364771155,419,15,79,6,7,134,67,103,0.07200000000000001,0.861,0.068,-0.5326,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,0,7,0,7,7,0,1,0,12,13,11,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,3,2,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,7,1,13,11,2,15,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,5,54,9,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435070912814108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767395242791265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851053915770664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197659558701638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185525609642438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6848795921154839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180333870015707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774567483314886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553545094829395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889625678854895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23156115454576506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341460022208647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148224293016028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761758992399187,0.0,0.0,0.1252356119981269,0.0,0.2035792824854204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paperklipp,2019/03/01,"I am an inch taller than I thought I was I’ve always thought I was 5’5”. 

A few years ago I had my SO measure my height in the evening and it came in at 5’4”. I had a full-on breakdown because of what this would mean for my bmi (so rational, wowe) and he eventually managed to calm me down and explain that people typically are taller in the morning and shrink during the day. 

This morning I was thinking about this and asked him to measure me again to find out my “morning height” and it’s 5’6” on the button. This brings my current bmi down from 15.1 to 14.6. 

I figure since I consider my morning weight to be my “true weight” as opposed to weighing myself in the evenings after eating etc, I’m gonna go ahead and consider my morning height to be my true height as well, as opposed to my evening height after the world’s bullshit has physically withered me. 😂",3.1257390586292364,4.746464815028901,3.8940255986787764,89.15377167630061,74.26011560693641,6.330140379851363,29.12014863748968,6.868970318607317,1.390131626754748,675,29,140,6,14,215,98,173,0.023,0.9159999999999999,0.061,0.6369,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,9,0,11,4,0,0,2,21,22,12,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,9,4,2,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,2,24,5,28,10,2,29,0,0,0,0,4,18,0,0,8,96,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17812541085824138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720214276730924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878562307793069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224940643291717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298272801528569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959275040622378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561666166384795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241065315817232,0.3981663686151071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836598758187575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420154136396445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188877592891589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930979952687464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662235870462264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875729234018832,0.0,0.3190553971134049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893931806151745,0.18067347724449154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427453964696724,0.0,0.0,0.12940184115288286
EDAnonymous,ri-ri,2019/03/01,"RANT? VENT? IDK how to feel. Story about a girl at my gym.... Hi guys, I just want to start off with saying I Love yoU ALL and I love this community. That said, I dont know another venue to share this story/emotion with so please bare with me. 

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So, be me: have battled an ED for 11 some years now and over many tears, weight changes and battles I am at a healthy weight and am active (with a period!). So, this morning I went to the gym and theres this girl on the stairmaster beside me who I can just tell is battling an ED (she stays on the \*same\* machine everyday for 2+ hours at an alarming rate - something I used to do at my worst and lowest..... seeing her with her boney legs just rips me apart because I'm so happy to be out of that but at the same time I feel so bad for her. I have learned to keep my exercise at a shorter and lower time span which I believe helped me recover). Anyways, she went to the bathroom for some long time. Please note this is at 6 am and so there are not many people in the gym at all. I go the bathroom after shes done and I see fucking PILES OF TOILEr PAPEr WIth BLOOD which I am assuming she has bad nosebleeds from the ED. I honestly just tore down and I cant explain the motions I feel but like I want to say something but I would never at the same time. AH. Anyways I just had to share. I really feel so bad for her. No one fucking deserves this.",0.9185159468047566,2.863662061433452,2.486181005060612,95.23324232081913,81.96928327645053,5.406567023655408,22.048840767329644,6.48374012150746,0.2785627633282335,1076,35,246,10,29,351,152,293,0.128,0.77,0.102,-0.8963,2,0,2,0,0,0,48.0,0,1,0,0,19,17,5,1,17,1,20,9,2,2,3,48,42,21,0,3,9,0,6,1,0,1,1,3,0,3,11,17,2,1,8,4,0,4,5,10,1,1,5,11,38,7,42,34,8,36,0,0,2,4,24,18,2,3,14,170,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537693797790508,0.1406061482025882,0.0,0.12133705766545964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898510749779035,0.07053866834832473,0.0,0.0,0.13037095464914306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241091567573345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841641621445015,0.13561688436689484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301635757567244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340355198591977,0.08266667658577279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21395293688566064,0.0,0.0,0.06576338776295909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457584513291877,0.0,0.12318055682183802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775611916002647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395576950395925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285263144297332,0.0,0.0,0.06359382814183974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05653240653552126,0.0,0.0,0.1024039570948005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20887425048621427,0.0,0.0,0.23463329106677105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924638772345263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784113435296726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022207280257251,0.0,0.0,0.2540402048552362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412986423604516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007127368175723,0.18404210759175427,0.0,0.0,0.18441942867802646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781658134505252,0.0,0.0,0.0819035313624859,0.12333658097047763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113983595819352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698969228610215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994043472127677,0.0,0.0,0.1365031747836313,0.0,0.0,0.2818189064784295,0.0,0.2145375586889372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822004742431133,0.0,0.1406061482025882,0.07451653765211891
EDAnonymous,trynagetafullride,2019/03/01,"I hate myself I’m sorry I need to rant. Started this semester determined to get rid of my freshman 15. From my highest, I’d lost 16 pounds. I’ve never been happier with myself mentally - I actually stuck to my goals! Only 10 more pounds to go to goal weight! But I got fucking ravenously hungry and I binged. I binged like crazy. All the time. Sometimes I would purge, sometimes I wouldn’t. I couldn’t even purge it all up when I tried, I’d just give up. My teeth feel weak now. And now I’ve gained back 3 pounds. This might seem insignificant to some but to me the number is now so close to my start - it feels like I’ve lost nothing at all. I look no different. I had so many goals - spring break, summer, they all seem out of reach now. I can’t fucking stick to a diet. I don’t even want to study abroad anymore. I hate myself. My binges will never end. Food controls my every thought. I’m so lost. ",0.14395045045045052,2.4817991135135142,1.7038175675675689,96.57644707207209,90.29729729729729,4.596846846846847,17.978603603603602,6.21433560688645,-0.2616801801801807,696,19,155,7,24,224,110,185,0.16699999999999998,0.763,0.07,-0.9466,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,8,12,10,4,0,3,0,10,7,1,1,6,27,34,8,0,5,3,0,3,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,5,0,0,1,7,8,0,0,8,4,27,2,18,21,6,21,0,3,1,2,2,5,2,4,16,87,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.13180285502066902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133947067411504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385577990015063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148561618111386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411129984463681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196265007361759,0.0,0.0,0.17841682612113122,0.0,0.11379713668007505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365847029124284,0.09648965651896396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331976908576035,0.0,0.0,0.24972874493026265,0.0705652981072751,0.12956557233669286,0.07675991050864914,0.0,0.10802291605835466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666952207532874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319707701843591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134196350400931,0.0,0.4423145106767925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693356620824407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361126147328018,0.1432814232973931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014814905132564,0.20833916767076785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959742703748975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272216020193144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459141512564975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671632442343613,0.15119294588279614,0.19119780630485786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722562689269598,0.07875682940805205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169950266874274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966417057394735,0.0,0.0,0.1644714086119051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594549887564953,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mapletyler,2019/03/01,Getting annoyed when other people don't plan their meals? I can't go throughout the day without planning what I eat. I usually just skip breakfast and lunch and don't do specific dinner planning until 2-3 pm. It annoys me to no end when I get home from school and ask what's planned for dinner and my mom says nothing. It's only like 3 hours away how do you not have ANY idea ???? and she uses weight watchers so it's not like she isn't already budgeting for dinner all day long. ,2.9102040816326533,4.5233316020408205,3.997704081632652,88.2196173469388,74.81632653061223,6.124489795918367,26.535714285714285,6.6274283507984215,1.0824857142857147,379,14,76,3,8,123,70,98,0.136,0.8640000000000001,0.0,-0.8952,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,4,5,4,2,0,1,0,7,8,0,2,1,13,12,10,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,5,8,0,1,0,1,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,10,2,7,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,11,45,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23154336484759816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268589030107826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19615488208034632,0.0,0.19713431006855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706351614630684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21469988967152945,0.0,0.0,0.1858396686426062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21924626294710328,0.0,0.11924645664779206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21046818324534133,0.0,0.206632021101162,0.0,0.0,0.2368630587989368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20501648088544455,0.0,0.0,0.18568552268448446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457405344283222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20132949429572472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957878978906506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546388578898753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685856637596755,0.0,0.21235067177352987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121850351305527,0.2310888607076525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25550619544600595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226054512168085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Soybeansandsprouts,2019/03/01,"DAE anyone project their ED thoughts onto their significant other? My BF and I are long distance now because of grad school and we see each other every few months for about a week long stay during breaks. I feel like I have always been more affectionate than him because that is just the kind of person I am, but during this last visit I felt like he was so much more cuddly and touchy than usual.

I know that this is my ED brain projecting onto my innocent BF, but I can't stop thinking that all this new affection is because I am at my lowest adult weight and he likes this body better than it was before. When we were lounging around nekkid, he kept stroking my hip bones and ribs which are a lot more pronounced at this weight. Usually I am the big spoon, but this time he actually held me as I slept which was so nice. 

I think the most obvious explanation is that it is because we have not seen each other in so long and we have a lot of cuddling and sex to make up for. It is most likely that my BF hardly notices the weight loss in the first place, but I keep thinking that it's because I am smaller now and thus more snuggable. It's honestly very triggering and now I want to be even smaller when I see him in April. I need to shake myself and say 'Stop finding reasons to feed your ED!'",8.858578892371995,5.9534787241379306,8.311912225705331,77.73112852664579,62.52490421455939,11.176732845698364,35.604667363288044,8.841846274778883,2.7795946360153256,1021,31,213,11,11,324,143,261,0.040999999999999995,0.8220000000000001,0.13699999999999998,0.9775,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,4,1,2,3,12,11,0,1,8,0,22,13,6,5,2,49,39,20,0,2,6,0,7,4,3,0,1,1,0,2,22,17,4,5,9,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,11,11,33,9,23,27,13,34,0,1,3,2,20,11,0,4,23,147,55,4,0.0,0.0,0.11051223658929143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423015026185827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918457773912052,0.0,0.0,0.10081338424665233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451700407926936,0.0,0.096364420554751,0.0,0.0,0.10015731603290244,0.0,0.12579131892031595,0.0,0.12642053381750862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479823747640714,0.0,0.0954150506830846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057260827166336126,0.08090331387716161,0.1087343881995444,0.0,0.10350523868321747,0.09632740510541853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144660964952447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065868217272672,0.0,0.1179287907368617,0.0622373083242468,0.09231100278098832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213060555508879,0.0,0.0,0.3006587354884622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925562292586877,0.0,0.0,0.07559291032104656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903922665353924,0.0,0.0832491992166018,0.08397083614163084,0.0,0.10937416409438654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893187753484764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888246547256173,0.11831847699872525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643625115979532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900581528861933,0.0,0.11461149211228512,0.18048557822334185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070568861489485,0.0,0.18935827014029155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21769133105089825,0.0,0.08990506196350953,0.06603493803833185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24945001506261824,0.09344021298835306,0.06679571292121964,0.0,0.09083950200028483,0.4137111419439864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashycloudy,2019/03/01,"Does anyone else feel physically worse when they're eating more? Over the years I've found that whenever I'm fasting/strict restricting, that I generally feel fine physically (unless obviously like a few days into fasting).

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However, I've noticed that whenever I do eat a ""normal"" amount (everything in sight), then I'm always a lot dizzier, I'm in a lot more IBS pain, I'm so much tireder and fatigued, and have barely enough energy to do anything. For instance today I'm so dizzy and weak that I feel like I'd collapse if I went anywhere. 

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But when I'm fasting, I feel like I can conquer the world. I work out, I go to uni, I get work done, I socialise. Yes, mentally I still feel awful, but physically so much better. No dizziness, no weakness.

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I have deficiencies and iron/b12 anaemia so obviously that's not helping, but surely this should be the other way around regardless? Does anyone else experience this? ",4.2782928571428585,6.760632982857146,5.3304821428571465,76.32658035714289,73.45714285714286,8.032142857142857,30.9375,8.841846274778883,2.943807142857143,752,35,127,16,16,247,104,175,0.183,0.7340000000000001,0.083,-0.9457,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,4,8,10,0,0,7,2,8,6,0,0,3,29,23,16,0,4,6,0,5,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,8,7,2,1,6,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,3,6,12,6,10,18,9,19,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,3,12,72,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753771797079403,0.3419637600958976,0.3835012076976351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712143012615528,0.21558678279193572,0.08657349511407685,0.09365339621491447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304392340705793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784753740810018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18412853795118855,0.1076596796797148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21529883577957634,0.17576800607997609,0.0,0.0,0.10870331121410504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945500987944916,0.1029091844515434,0.0,0.0,0.2659701871074074,0.15031476556921575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535017903823512,0.0,0.0,0.054964473006659485,0.0,0.059789558640173435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07051567097031028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541913099645454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888046281922754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602035758388753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15467331638686965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307706762294193,0.0,0.11977485233469765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194391364061518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401563016436216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099153029131706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972059215087707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350562077407213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975246743065194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317876395302688,0.0,0.1072113277022999,0.0,0.0,0.3835012076976351,0.06774758796905361
EDAnonymous,DecaturWolf,2019/03/01,"Gained 10lbs in a week I thought traveling helped me forget about it and then I weighed myself. I want to reset and do it the healthy way but it’s easier to go back to what I know.. ahh

Why do I feel guilty for losing weight? Why do I feel like a failure for gaining? No matter what I do I’m no good.",-1.2783333333333324,0.7440454090909085,1.0366666666666688,100.69166666666668,94.9090909090909,4.1454545454545455,16.424242424242426,5.82211442006289,-0.7075030303030299,231,6,57,2,9,77,45,66,0.231,0.51,0.259,-0.1306,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,4,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,9,2,7,10,0,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,35,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185070371824375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873669504627627,0.2030091053668868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149876911770847,0.2383459662040906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047128502404687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561708622038921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882974070096432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31791041106658896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255970160243196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16760917782761084,0.22555869747399884,0.2279417881577922,0.3460390960576408,0.0,0.0,0.5128333995316889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Demona666,2019/03/01,"I thought I had worms...... You guys, this is gonna be quite gross but I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE!


I had a spaghetti craving last night. So your girl here made a bunch of shiritaki noodles and covered them in tomatoe sauce and cheese (250 calories).... Fucking delicious, and filling! 


This morning I took a poo before weighing (ofc)......and my poo was full of worm looking things!!  I freaked out....luckily no one was awake. 


Guys, chew your konjak noodles well 😂😂😂",1.5929281183932351,4.276032267441863,2.2776955602537012,92.65768498942921,86.7906976744186,4.52262156448203,28.74841437632136,6.1124844417494595,1.2362697674418608,349,18,68,3,11,108,66,86,0.09300000000000001,0.797,0.111,0.544,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,1,1,3,4,1,0,3,0,7,3,0,1,0,6,13,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,7,1,11,1,4,4,2,6,0,0,1,1,8,2,1,0,2,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209431629340845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004238996390986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141889632024756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21164953631885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180407407362029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456872604843717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436640869815801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594566894122635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761699072699128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200007388795024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22694568532085144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250002958493596,0.0,0.0,0.20613322468656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884808827191748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334566775342985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Arceliaz,2019/03/01,"“Girls who diet are 18x more likely to develop an ED” Saw this posted as part of NEDA week. 

The message was “girls who dieted restrictively were 18x more likely to develop an ED. If wearing a yellow shirt made you 18x more likely to develop a serious illness, would you do it??” 


Can we say, victim blaming?! False equivalency?? 


A better analogy would be - wearing that yellow shirt is strongly encouraged by all celebrities. They all wear yellow shirts, and they SWEAR none of them get sick! 


It’s glamorous to wear a yellow shirt, and when you try on the shirt for the first time, everyone tells you how amazing it looks on you. So much better than those other shirts you wear. 


Now you don’t want to take the shirt off, but it’s making you sick. So you try wearing a black shirt but you miss the attention and adulation. You hate how the black shirt makes you look. So you convince yourself you can be like those girls who wear the yellow shirts and never get sick... but we all know how that story ends. 



Diets are not the factor here. The influences that make us want to diet are the factor. I understand the intention is good but this oversimplification is incorrect and frankly quite insulting 😑",4.040312499999999,6.363095977678572,4.5288928571428615,82.54110714285717,73.59821428571428,7.694285714285716,24.59285714285714,8.548686976883017,1.7787114285714285,945,30,172,18,20,299,119,224,0.099,0.789,0.111,-0.6349,0,0,0,0,0,1,28.0,3,14,3,5,9,17,3,0,18,0,16,25,17,9,4,34,32,18,0,5,6,0,0,4,0,2,4,1,0,3,15,7,4,1,3,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,4,11,21,12,15,24,9,11,0,1,10,0,31,3,0,1,11,116,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979127078162705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14917268441381284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093528299670348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432604188516935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598801068900466,0.0,0.0,0.14126512409309602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628272897424742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256081225250448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32913165446468506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828656078719384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593658048689707,0.3372707481207484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381019851813263,0.0,0.12989811086478398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238557037643185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130256621672245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913846841667347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393663713214846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663304806946685,0.0,0.14720902390866236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820873791694096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286961649522079,0.0,0.0,0.1753341617024915,0.20259199175008755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198680361006696,0.0,0.1350986782068732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392855686093795,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lhadnil,2019/03/01,"i can’t sleep at all should i smoke some weed?

my stomach won’t stfu ",-2.867083333333333,-1.5039218749999996,-0.9724999999999984,111.53416666666668,111.5,2.1333333333333333,11.583333333333332,3.1291,-2.238266666666666,54,1,15,0,3,17,14,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aquaberries,2019/03/01,"I’m going to get better Fuck, I can’t live like this anymore. I eat and I’ve been pretending to recover for a good three months now but I actually need to. I recovered for three weeks and then just snowballed back to nearly no calories. I eat somewhat normal now, but I’m so thin I can’t sit and my hair is falling out. If my doctor finds out that I wasn’t gaining, I’m getting sent to outpatient. I don’t want that. I should’ve kept gaining. There’s more to life than being the thinnest in the room. I want to walk up the stairs properly again. I want to not worry about my stomach when I’m in math. I want to not stress about food when I’m out. 

Victory: I ate peanut butter today. I’m a pretty strict WFPB vegan (except for sriracha lmao) and that’s a no-no (I think). I haven’t had it in months cause I thought almond butter broke me out so it was like let’s cut all fats immediately. Realistically I know that it didn’t “break me out” (gave me a single zit), I just wanted a reason to restrict another thing I love. I ate rice cakes, processed food. I haven’t done that in ages, except for rice noodles. I willingly went over my calorie goal! I was aware and I knew I needed a tablespoon of chia, not a teaspoon. It made the food nicer, and that’s what matters. I told my mum I need to gain, though not about the ED. I don’t want to be held that accountable. I hope posting here makes me accountable for eating breakfast tomorrow. Going over my goal by 200kj doesn’t warrant going under by 1,500kj tomorrow, undoing all my progress. I just want to live again. ",1.486559579439252,3.596782479750779,3.1732778426791306,90.17851489485984,80.90031152647975,6.255490654205607,22.492309190031147,7.413659706084162,0.8344991433021804,1220,40,262,18,32,404,167,321,0.057,0.7509999999999999,0.192,0.9898,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,7,18,10,2,1,12,0,19,17,3,4,2,52,57,15,0,14,12,1,2,2,0,1,4,0,1,0,14,11,10,3,6,1,2,7,14,4,0,2,18,4,41,6,41,35,5,42,0,1,0,2,5,17,1,3,17,164,55,4,0.0,0.0,0.1076245125310017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156458682991073,0.0,0.0,0.10937538365811318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480413936047057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754016973265313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329545488892218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288374251247785,0.0,0.11286221651876165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385543765170186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100800609973047,0.0,0.40007958549397815,0.0,0.0,0.10195884768157563,0.11524114267796914,0.0,0.18803647195171536,0.09250376919028724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954019089383113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06061102531597639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277625411577835,0.07789919378013445,0.10776162479337167,0.0,0.19477144343564615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995386097518651,0.10435652624853424,0.0736176406811651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760605689051209,0.0,0.0,0.24532994495849386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080581547222594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562476372639204,0.11220185068263536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133937304932306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263337493252277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326999303815505,0.07066765970797508,0.10835672927082404,0.08755581070947042,0.0,0.0,0.10453948122634082,0.1053842579226403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455352220253817,0.0,0.08846583349564521,0.0,0.0,0.10223744804228703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200212417422163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,China--Doll,2019/03/01,"My friend said 'body goals' I was looking through oldish pictures of myself yesterday which tend to be mixed with body goal pics I've saved of pretty gals. I saw one and thought damn her body.. turned out to be me and I was like?????? I'm the same weight as then but feel even bigger now than I felt then. I felt the veil kinda lift and for the night really felt myself and thought your brain really fools you and gave myself lots of sympathy and love because I've been having a real hard time. 

I posted the picture on my story and said like why did I feel so huge when looking back I look tiny and one of my friends replied saying 'body goals' and I almost died. First time anyone has ever said that to me. 

My friends always used to call me chubby and when I lost weight they called me curvy which... hurt. I have big hips and a small waist. A very 50's vintage body which I hate because no matter how much weight I shift my frame is still pretty wide and 'curvy'. 
They still call me curvy and my irrational brain tells me they mean it negatively and are actually calling me fat so it was nice to hear that maybe they use it positively and it's supposed to be a compliment. It just made me feel really good and although I'm still mean to myself I'm gonna save that one in my brain for a tough time. ",3.2529622641509413,4.509320588679245,3.7375000000000007,91.86625000000002,73.30188679245279,6.809433962264151,21.92924528301887,7.1686216300943375,0.4198716981132078,1016,23,225,10,20,318,145,265,0.10800000000000001,0.7,0.192,0.9811,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,4,5,13,17,2,0,9,0,13,15,11,4,1,43,44,26,1,0,2,0,10,2,3,1,1,5,0,0,11,18,5,0,10,0,0,0,2,6,0,4,17,19,39,11,20,23,3,25,1,2,4,1,22,8,1,3,18,134,50,3,0.0,0.0,0.07714089076813073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915663689328381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657755010011164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05527323534854554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06078417172116792,0.0,0.09637566023453556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43903076672287106,0.0,0.2647360932430045,0.3228734348611829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204088133273091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05221143689508257,0.0715047815449391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990937881785205,0.0,0.2276996961163671,0.0,0.0,0.06723944844977107,0.0,0.0,0.18322029958972744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630295447510455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081280838478178,0.0780449971637019,0.0,0.0,0.0890945106173362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462410472028517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723916728344972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914496562802905,0.0,0.08629184688482136,0.06720504220347533,0.07134524321184166,0.07479853058531499,0.0,0.0,0.07941582898368915,0.1722161186689186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05811046433861165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418258328373488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606979231284705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757075518337903,0.16084348265917722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997561590472454,0.15192336578214574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255824767250703,0.0628633203795518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18938705374393608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909273094262361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255129165506572,0.13828316481440686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598313607356943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654674245942586,0.0,0.06522410084119018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887829166725246,0.0,0.0,0.07132986155374488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatssnotmythrowaway,2019/03/01,"Going back a mile, not even sorry. I am every single ED nightmare. I can’t even handle it. I basically recovered and then my dysmorphia had me thinking I was still thin. Hahahhahha Fucking NO. Now, I’m slowly but surely relapsing. I just basically have just accepted the dive. I’m really good at playing this off too, because I’ve been recovered for so long, my fiancé has never seen me in action. He. Has. No. Idea. How. Good. I. Am. At. This. He’s drunk all the time anyway. And if he gets to be drunk and I can’t do opiates(because I really can’t go back to that) I’m going to be fucking as skinny as I fucking can. 


Sorry if this doesn’t belong, can delete. Needed a vent. ",-0.5399873056172629,1.592589656934308,2.667350047603936,86.54825452237387,101.33576642335764,5.594287527768962,17.635353855918755,7.079830092131019,0.7308574420818781,521,16,103,11,23,185,87,137,0.094,0.774,0.133,0.748,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,12,8,3,0,4,0,17,6,1,1,3,17,30,11,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,3,3,0,4,8,3,0,0,4,2,13,5,10,24,2,18,0,0,1,3,3,6,3,2,8,74,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27133092680885235,0.0,0.21510285056779865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23306359470933105,0.0,0.1486517293177326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893261492852266,0.09217853717144027,0.0,0.3008114379397117,0.2959658999783702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19917046682165407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561369359266993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082223313142666,0.13607538143048584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260539571095536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950027834058011,0.0,0.0,0.14089897463674986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662852508450411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130506231687266,0.0,0.0,0.102879028670134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isitworthliving,2019/03/01,"I'm sick of eating too much I feel so sick I literally can't take this anymore, I can't even talk to my therapist about my eating problems cause I'm too ashamed. It's ruining my life, I can't see my friends or go out of the house cause I gained weight and I don't want them to see me, I want to lose but I'm depressed at home all day and it's hard",-1.5637037037037054,0.2911302222222254,1.1171481481481498,101.48016666666668,92.45679012345678,4.721481481481481,17.976543209876542,6.2581,-0.4700627160493829,272,8,73,3,10,93,50,81,0.28300000000000003,0.6940000000000001,0.024,-0.93,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,5,6,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,2,1,12,14,5,0,3,2,0,3,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,0,5,13,1,8,14,2,4,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,39,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19271326579362555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992404210341531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253203510575131,0.0,0.16736756698524355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976758289675098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834655472040454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825405163534606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501311820143672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043655767918477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740725888185411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491884549038915,0.0,0.0,0.2242192379576821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725399202242364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739442127252084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284758923702748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18593803619981894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096958287151165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610448776407298,0.15618708862784478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256205453721002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292299902450467,0.0,0.0,0.2366294603965019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ZoAbii,2019/03/01,everytime I buy snacks to keep in my room I just eat them all instead of making them last why do I do this :( how can I keep stuff in my bedroom for dire situations when I want a late night nibble watching Netflix?! I'm too embarrassed to keep all my snacks in the kitchen for my housemates to see and I hate going downstairs late at night to pick up a snack.,3.855270270270269,4.5275977702702725,4.533351351351354,88.92110810810814,71.29729729729729,7.541621621621622,28.313513513513517,7.554174236665415,1.3969924324324317,281,10,62,3,5,90,50,74,0.171,0.812,0.017,-0.9112,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,1,3,0,3,5,0,3,2,11,12,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,5,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,12,0,12,12,2,13,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,0,6,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108613227477213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711447835488364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20345172011855345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5494941496454738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797476674364747,0.4649124609396178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755349954086274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867659611866356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642113182032405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316316076415376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359011472440837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154557917692008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18594635859218364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kvltspoook,2019/03/01,"Frustrating times with meds So I was recently diagnosed at the ripe old age of 20 with ADHD and as a result got put on Ritalin! (Yay) 

Unfortunately, despite the massive positive impact the Ritalin has made on every other aspect of my life, I seem to be the only person who doesn’t get the appetite suppressant effect of it and I’m really bummed about it. 

I’ve plateaued at approx 55kgs for almost a year and can’t get over how fat I am. I hate myself and can’t stick to fasting. I don’t know what to do. I’ve just had my dosage upped so hopefully that will help with the appetite bc I’m such a pig I would eat till my head fell off. ",2.3752272727272725,3.9612078863636384,4.376363636363639,85.05954545454547,76.19696969696969,7.830303030303033,23.363636363636363,8.575989854853784,1.4700363636363636,499,15,105,10,11,171,91,132,0.096,0.856,0.049,-0.7206,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,9,1,12,7,2,4,0,18,22,9,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,6,7,2,1,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,0,10,2,20,15,0,16,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,3,7,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668342595979457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223287619673359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253535353608705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22718986064526686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870679908473776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320007150546436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775759079889883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21920647816989705,0.2278645697421581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882054891791488,0.0,0.0,0.2205236951320972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202066802475267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682479572138452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21008806531824725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466228244705732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329808187428488,0.0,0.0,0.16886214086828022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386610407436103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319925557558187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223668898327108,0.0,0.21922565909325545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021257631719736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294661910896179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772217323864965,0.0,0.0,0.1429786186628541
EDAnonymous,SadnGayRonnie,2019/03/01,"I wanna cry part 2 Out of my frustration because my comfort food got eaten after finishing my 36 hour fast, I went to Starbucks and ordered a sticky cinammon bun, 4 cheese flatbread and a grande of dark mocha frappe. Cheers to 1500 calories in one sitting wtf I'll probably regret this later and lock myself in my room to exercise a ton 😂👌",4.3911940298507455,5.861629910447763,5.310626865671644,80.85489552238808,70.7910447761194,7.748059701492537,31.310447761194034,8.238735603445708,2.4521964179104483,272,12,49,4,5,89,54,67,0.182,0.7390000000000001,0.08,-0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,7,3,10,0,2,12,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115471787105125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38119780261375397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4196318620273884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27755278899147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417561190311382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351575226894257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758012918026493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741586472524252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32170167321540843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MiauMiau1919,2019/03/01,"I hate when people call me a ""survivor"" I'm not inspirational. My life was never in danger. I don't feel brave. 

*I just feel disgusting.*

(""Survivor of"" childhood sex abuse, which I think is linked to my struggle with body image, dysmorphia, and disordered eating.)",2.0511170212765957,4.809221851063832,3.0203989361702126,83.87187500000002,96.44680851063828,5.754255319148936,22.89627659574468,7.1686216300943375,1.5962361702127668,205,8,34,4,8,65,40,47,0.293,0.655,0.052000000000000005,-0.917,0,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,1,10,8,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,2,7,2,4,7,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.3553708431266105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331572762639227,0.0,0.0,0.3062645100571864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437485099421096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069057186002203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033096620513256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29612114516677196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185112085769928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23132635350384104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793535789305825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135544618761973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218456817126708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dietcokewoke,2019/03/01,"I just ""binged"" on 3 packs of gum My boyfriend got me airhead flavored gum and I just went through all 3 packs in like 20 minutes??? I'd chew a piece until it wasn't as sweet and then spit it out and chew another one... I feel so disgusting staring at all these wrappers and chewed up gum pieces. I know it's not a real binge and I didn't really consume that many calories but I feel so gross losing control over some fucking gum lol. I guess gum isn't a safe food anymore?? ",1.0754545454545443,3.126390131313129,2.335646464646466,95.9501363636364,82.03030303030303,5.172121212121212,24.041414141414148,6.2581,0.4592698989898994,369,14,83,3,10,118,71,99,0.18,0.76,0.059000000000000004,-0.9174,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,2,0,3,1,3,6,1,1,2,20,10,11,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,4,2,3,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,4,5,9,3,10,6,5,9,0,1,1,1,0,6,1,2,3,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765347182812719,0.0,0.0,0.2615406097222052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29578579946386896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26669076948656484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188927746745949,0.0,0.0,0.2438060402381473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092196996801305,0.0,0.2905186821135912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449342986222531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884087858933566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950366144005315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673719484094077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870433987955978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001725112400397,0.16894658167221369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444722350049427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paroi_ny,2019/03/01,"My scale has been lying, maybe yours has too Hey guys, i'm probably the only one who didn't know this but  when you move your scale it becomes inaccurate and it needs to recalibrate which means it will show your true weight the second time you step on it.

This only counts for digital scales i think.",5.0244915254237315,6.011658186440684,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,68.83050847457628,8.611864406779661,23.224576271186447,8.841846274778883,1.2310305084745763,239,5,50,4,4,74,48,59,0.037000000000000005,0.902,0.062,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,1,7,10,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,1,7,1,3,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,2,31,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118009844442923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279541836457645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515604956279047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836290460638102,0.3075299602105108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000621786700894,0.0,0.20933718962174452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19130778345093213,0.4294351624517079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043894179791824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808996771623144,0.0,0.0,0.1646234452456168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437905021519723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trixieevans,2019/03/01,"so happy i decided to b/p on a batch of cement!! Binged tonight on whole wheat flax seed wraps (LITERALLY 9 g fiber per wrap), ""glued"" together with gooey sticky gobs of almond butter. Thus creating the closest approximation to edible cement as ever seen before by mankind. God probably shed a tear when he saw I had cracked the recipe. Seriously, this stuff was THICC. 

Needless to say, this was not a particularly fun (or successful) purge. After I almost choked to death trying to get up a monstrous chunk of almond-butter-multigrain cement for the **third time**, I decided to call it a night (and by ""call it a night"", I mean crawl into bed and cry into my pillow while shitty youtube content plays in the background).",6.027878787878787,7.304881181818184,6.4890909090909075,74.66196969696972,66.72727272727272,9.2,29.81818181818182,9.444778638647367,2.727190909090909,564,20,98,11,9,183,99,132,0.136,0.787,0.076,-0.8423,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,10,0,3,0,0,1,1,13,7,7,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,4,6,4,21,2,1,15,0,0,2,0,4,7,0,2,8,55,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285841041452445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942449278427381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4661879139682314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507490020361713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648750468753327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926409148001545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300262708289025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865803266994246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284406212445155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461186994218113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815331769580846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26131987873870205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310879368664513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498351411101505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548605128247603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cashewrissa,2019/03/01,"Ok I'm literally in shock rn So from dec-jan I was hardcore restricting after a breakup etc and got down to my lowest weight ever, like 101.8. For 18.5 bmi  i need to be 101.0 and that was honestly the goal. Well Feb rolled around and I completely lost myself and started overeating, eating out etc and literally thought I gained like 10 lbs. I look like a bloated whale. Feel like a bloated whale. So I decided this week to get back on track and for the first time in forever, like a month, I hopped on the scale.... It said 100.6. IS THIS A JOKE i think its broken omg",1.2575101214574929,3.6741026052631582,2.4247368421052653,93.29738866396762,84.35087719298245,5.9638326585695,21.049932523616725,7.321109707123232,0.6184960863697704,443,14,96,7,13,141,79,114,0.11,0.684,0.20600000000000002,0.8702,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,6,11,0,0,8,1,4,2,0,0,1,15,15,8,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,8,2,1,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,6,4,10,9,15,8,2,16,0,1,1,0,1,8,0,0,13,56,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293700699363554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493777681885092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036831216169744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987815593120196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433313579155885,0.0,0.17572378432640873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822620421013052,0.1387829310793878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524168149773927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149542714864636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537144037169076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4745402503166226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631336452081255,0.0,0.2120631594627823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506044308318928,0.0,0.0,0.14404501134053393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479046963192908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375017433589997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447714663327936,0.0,0.15422468401126985,0.11327746436345335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582763846401962,0.2365623942440888,0.17466753541451602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweatyandsweet,2019/03/01,Heads up V sugar free topical tastes like ass. I don't recommend.,0.6600000000000001,3.166710769230772,3.283461538461537,83.09903846153847,95.15384615384615,8.753846153846155,21.884615384615387,8.841846274778883,2.6687230769230776,52,2,10,2,2,18,13,13,0.322,0.345,0.33299999999999996,0.049,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9029149209673633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4298193172654068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,celinat0r,2019/03/01,"It’s completely useless to count to the exact calorie, 10 calories, or even 50 Calorie counts on nutrition labels are only required to be accurate to within 10%. And there are some loopholes that allow things to be counted as 0 calories if a “serving” is less than 10 calories—serving size being, of course, left to the discretion of the manufacturer. So, your favorite frozen meal that you buy because it’s 280 calories versus 300... it’s within the margin of error. I don’t really count calories anymore, but when I do, I only estimate to the nearest 100 because that’s the most precise I can reliably track to. Sorry :(",6.975850931677022,7.604896721739133,7.644968944099383,69.51304347826087,64.3913043478261,9.354037267080745,39.03726708074535,9.23628265651192,3.989248447204969,493,26,76,8,7,164,76,115,0.083,0.885,0.032,-0.6816,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,1,2,11,9,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,16,6,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,4,1,56,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200038282849015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933956004635678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383153565294952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131217520940667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505839722516632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4908130524922541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20671188680098146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612047835547567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21436887795436305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckfuuck,2019/03/01,"My boyfriend asked if I was going to post about my eating disorder in a few years when I “get over it” His stepsister, who I have always suspected had an eating disorder, posted for national eating disorder week about overcoming her eating disorder

He was talking shit about it & was offended he never knew but she would post it to the world. & how eating disorders are stupid & just they should just “get over it”. “People are starving and they have problems with food” blah blah a bunch of shit. Saidnhe was going to ask her about it next time he saw her

I told him eating disorders aren’t something you just share with people and he really shouldn’t confront her. He insists he’s going to but we will see

Then he hits me with “are you going to post about your eating disorder in the future when you get over it?”

I told him I don’t have an eating disorder. He asked multiple times and then rephrased to “ok, are you going to post about your issues with food in the future?”

Like wtf?!",3.4495588235294115,5.588880500000003,4.179289215686275,85.2152205882353,74.72916666666666,7.64264705882353,23.27328431372549,8.4952907291091,1.5411368872549018,784,23,149,15,17,250,93,192,0.20199999999999999,0.7559999999999999,0.042,-0.9836,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,6,2,0,12,9,5,0,7,1,18,12,2,1,1,22,35,11,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,8,10,0,2,0,0,5,4,6,0,0,9,2,26,3,25,21,2,30,0,0,2,0,33,8,2,1,13,100,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504838549504052,0.2150450494651132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855451498126336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6065783168153527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5415655597776392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599959561169345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369377573716852,0.0,0.1879943154161678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905129910219945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032321239604568695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05102478486634893,0.0,0.07035931023733928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173063718764232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168032500551774,0.0,0.0,0.06330384532041608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238222376614895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052719005852818863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581955890648173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050931317971215535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05317493667039615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715400464020274,0.0,0.0,0.12643275776134485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306760002390948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04699642888811872,0.0,0.0,0.042603296331347185
EDAnonymous,throwawayfemcelite,2019/03/01,"A great end to an otherwise dull week I’ve always been pretty close to my gw tbh but around this time last year, i was stuck in a binge cycle with barely any restriction in between and now!!!! Today i weighed myself even though i haven’t had a bm since yesterday and i’m 5 lbs down in two weeks! I’m 7 lbs away from my second gw and this honestly has inspired me so much bc i’ve been quite bloated all week but persevered through restriction and now i’m reaping my rewards
TL; DR weighed myself today and i’ve reached my first gw",2.0536363636363646,3.9597834545454593,3.2890909090909126,91.0736363636364,78.0909090909091,6.581818181818183,24.63636363636364,7.554174236665415,1.1128363636363638,420,15,90,6,10,136,74,110,0.077,0.743,0.18,0.93,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,1,14,10,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,10,4,12,5,2,20,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,0,13,51,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698138577944944,0.0,0.0,0.1446416157236676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934589830862894,0.0,0.0,0.19983633324023264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18838688171127765,0.0,0.0,0.14048471413499608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18092041238096168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344997803308748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17337687724650505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563571595868226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21638985656780385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262300071367921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759455967356411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20897424563335407,0.0,0.12402564159567728,0.0,0.403224781242248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777458296942086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5118393922597709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697023728649876
EDAnonymous,pinkglitterbunny,2019/03/01,Just pouring tajin into my hand and eating it I’m fairly high right now and usually I’d be ordering dominos but instead I’m just eating tajin. Yay I guess ,0.16843749999999955,2.5443514687500013,2.7622500000000016,86.65775000000002,96.8125,5.0600000000000005,22.025,6.742157984588678,1.0807050000000005,125,5,23,2,5,43,24,32,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,7,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7035878135427011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787351892089401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632442749726564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936038865326057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786478569880039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dimensionwitch,2019/03/01,"not getting ur DRIVERS LEARNER PERMIT or LICENSE bc ur scared of ur weight showing on it n ur not at ur ugw in it until u only today u find out florida doesn't display weight on their licenses, only height y e e t",7.271739130434781,4.387030956521741,9.027826086956527,71.30304347826089,65.52173913043478,10.93913043478261,40.39130434782609,8.841846274778883,3.7216869565217374,168,8,33,2,2,61,35,46,0.073,0.927,0.0,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,7,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,2,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724441424994406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573702533124625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534139044131443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984349250671804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28254957313911444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7259740585328088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeecreamer06,2019/03/01,Stfu about my food. Any comment about my food  completely ruins my appetite. Just let me eat. Fuck . 🙄 ,-0.1942105263157892,0.5514053684210545,0.79726315789474,96.1148421052632,126.89473684210527,3.6252631578947376,19.589473684210525,5.6839178017228535,0.2450968421052635,78,3,15,1,5,24,15,19,0.295,0.705,0.0,-0.7713,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112986978663811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257816074405949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179417882449659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7514421769459294,0.0,0.0,0.2872535161953227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177299103974528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,weightwasted,2019/03/01,"Do any of you have experience with Prozac? I was just prescribed a starter dose of 10mg (moving to 20mg in a week) of prozac for depression and I was told it wouldn’t make me gain but I would like to hear anyone else’s experience with it. I’m pretty tired all the time and for the past two months have been constantly binging. The nurse said I looked like a perfect candidate for Prozac lol. Anywho, let me know your thoughts please ❤️",1.8252309612983808,4.065970449438203,2.5857677902621745,94.13710362047442,80.46067415730337,6.202746566791513,21.124843945068665,7.3871296695380915,0.4937031210986276,346,10,77,5,9,108,64,89,0.063,0.684,0.252,0.9612,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,2,1,4,0,0,6,1,9,5,0,1,2,13,17,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,5,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,3,8,3,11,8,1,8,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,8,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798305834104552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187661397289467,0.20790120605544635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21926933473715451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476266631382725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16950195172797464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969620638999315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286898425657725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151184763429994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748516297431627,0.0,0.1982592741524799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038996200654966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354413506130024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619576573057989,0.2156569985054556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936967649263648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22272988939759644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064283785397461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930100995388568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610847229927741,0.11831613781732447,0.23321063279677104,0.0,0.19388540700738888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820970790611026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275897815916732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441386220502509,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Danie99,2019/03/01,"Pretty bulimic but not really enough So I've been somewhat bulimic for around 4 years (15-19) but as of last year it switched from throwing up monthly/weekly to multiple times a day. 

However, although I lost weight when this happened, I'm still a healthy weight, and although I would consider myself insecure in the sense that my body changing for the worse terrifies me, I'm not actually insecure about how I currently look. I kind of get retrospectively insecure, so like when I was 10lb heavier I didn't think I looked fat, but now looking back I think I did and never want to look like that again. 

Anyway, I feel like I'd like to, go to some form of counselling because having a disorder isn't really ideal, but honestly I don't know what I'd talk about, because I have no idea why I have the disorder, and I'm not thin enough to feel I justified. I just lose control and can't stop myself and then have to throw up, but I couldn't outline why I think I'm like that. So it's frustrating and I just wanted a little rant.",6.499267431597527,5.796181106796122,7.236937334510152,76.53264342453664,65.60194174757282,11.180229479258607,34.74669020300088,10.637119530657019,3.5312,812,33,163,19,11,271,119,206,0.213,0.623,0.16399999999999998,-0.8768,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,16,14,1,3,7,0,13,4,2,2,1,35,33,21,0,5,10,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,3,2,7,0,0,3,10,6,0,0,5,9,22,8,19,26,5,24,0,2,4,0,1,6,0,2,20,105,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.11832044622010485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793632431269272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09323213991378107,0.0,0.1478231714744274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467906762742615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826418616892826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598981372342922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819485568567151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779211628603032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25056295505065096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261314819701505,0.08661951376666402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334701595347224,0.0,0.06890796759883859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072191048924043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368741046057837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262610148235378,0.06663466707158007,0.09883320958079532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961779624154497,0.1215222344284231,0.0,0.0,0.4072707476924011,0.13564537008417302,0.13235639006630615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351384414269634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335268915310392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534900061097026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682871813795146,0.10136866156158077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097454457733003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330722481340741,0.0,0.0,0.07070061719816374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303028881409055,0.0,0.09725774034445066,0.29529452081076824,0.0,0.0,0.21881471587424625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356195401942036,0.08613101922562434,0.0,0.0,0.1561593262384207
EDAnonymous,AmbiguousCat,2019/03/01,"Spicy? Coworker was ordering food for everyone in the office and I caved and got some pad thai. Panicking that I caved I was like “make it the spiciest level!” Sooo it was actually delicious and painful and I ate it. But I ate much less than I would’ve if it was normal. (Also my stomach is shit so the spicy peppers made me puke anyways) 

I guess, I’m glad that I was still able to enjoy it without going overboard. I like spicy food but if I force myself to order it, I definitely eat less/slower.",0.4162285714285723,2.87079868,2.6537142857142872,88.75900000000004,92.2,5.6571428571428575,21.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,0.9389857142857142,388,14,78,7,14,131,64,100,0.086,0.774,0.14,0.6588,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,3,0,6,8,2,2,0,14,14,10,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,9,0,14,4,6,5,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,3,53,22,0,0.22016411750297304,0.0,0.2148484196271388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606516522402274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252828562377315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037624920006984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5324466496031862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512434166101846,0.0,0.17608535714202142,0.0,0.2425355969516076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151221337856416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20832461132697064,0.14696125803562485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618459587727218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157140898846327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23427014374761485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259953027734197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582334863545876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122303526980114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563982722569866,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pinus_virginiana,2018/12/26,"Feeling like a fake :( I know this is common with EDs, but I feel like I’m faking my ED.
My therapist (who is an M.D.) has told me many times that I meet the criteria for OSFED/EDNOS whatever, but I have such a hard time believing it.

I’m at the lowest weight I’ve been in a decade & I have to continually restrict to stay this size. 
I’m terrified of gaining weight, I have panic attacks over food, I actively avoid eating whenever I can. I get cold easily, I almost pass out when I stand up too fast, and I’m always tired. It feels like the biggest victory in the world when I lose weight, and the world crashes down around me when I gain weight.

Despite all of this evidence, I feel like a fraud because I’m at a normal BMI and very average size (US women’s size 10, typically). 
I’m in a quasi-recovery gray area—I eat enough to maintain my current weight only because I live with family that would get suspicious if I dropped more weight, and because I literally can’t afford to buy new clothes if I get any smaller.

It feels like I’m in ED limbo, and I feel so alone. 
If y’all don’t mind, would you please reassure me that I’m not a fake? 
And if you’re in a similar situation, would you mind sharing a little about your experiences?

Thank you ❤️ For those who celebrate it, I hope you had a merry christmas!
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EDAnonymous,lewdpup,2018/12/26,"sick of living at home my mom pays really close attention to my eating habits, if she doesn’t see me eating she’ll bring me all my binge foods and whine about how much i need to eat


she’s very overweight and spends a lot of time in the kitchen cooking (or out buying fast food) for my other overweight family members that have various health problems from being overweight
every conversation i have with her starts with “have you eaten yet?” and it’s slowly driving me insane..


just a while ago i lost enough to be in the normal bmi range for my height and my parents lost it
they started filling the pantry with all my favorite foods and were always bringing meals to my room to get me to eat


i would purge the things she’d feed me, but now she inspects my bathroom and/or stands outside looking for signs


i don’t even know what to do at this point, i’m sitting here typing this with a plate of cookies that my mom brought right next to me
i understand she cares for me but i’m not even underweight
i can’t even tell if my frustrations with her are valid agh







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EDAnonymous,lilqueenheartz,2018/12/26,"Purged for the first time in 4 years today Kinda wanna do it again
Maybe be bulimic again 
Ednos is weird",2.66,4.900763809523814,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,77.57142857142857,6.104761904761905,15.261904761904766,7.1686216300943375,-0.07178095238095272,84,1,16,1,2,27,20,21,0.08199999999999999,0.9179999999999999,0.0,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622549654974875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459646402994042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168877846458334,0.0,0.5151233486810288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34996146359500474
EDAnonymous,tzt-t,2018/12/26,"I'm so sad that... ... that I spent the holidays feeling miserable. sad that I spent the holidays b&p, sad that I've lost my thigh gap in 3 days, sad that I look significantly bigger, sad that I couldnt even take 1 day off and enjoy the season, sad that I made my girlfriend cry because she's scared for me.

I'm sad y'all. Maybe next Christmas will be better.",1.7409845559845536,3.727941554054056,3.3625868725868737,89.78337837837843,79.4054054054054,6.390733590733591,22.73359073359073,7.447530270364453,0.8203806949806944,281,9,61,4,7,93,49,74,0.375,0.489,0.136,-0.9734,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,2,12,0,2,3,0,3,1,1,1,0,4,12,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,10,0,0,4,2,10,2,3,5,0,7,0,9,1,0,3,3,0,0,4,29,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30781596440490216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318119724142206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25125824743119884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120641563024004,0.36643453365787065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18764155034956026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143646571714722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23856759053157225,0.0,0.31012239644988115,0.0,0.0,0.2688168163443016,0.0,0.0,0.28541082488764946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302137421755675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844278709101758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136034945137528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosepetalmemories,2018/12/26,"Im always hungry. I'm 5'5 and 106lbs. Even after a big meal where my stomach hurts...I'm still hungry. I'm restricting right now to make up for yesterday. But even after a hot Pocket where my stomach feels full, I'm still hungry. Can anyone relate? ",0.8138775510204077,3.371848755102043,2.5522448979591843,89.23204081632656,92.06122448979592,4.4326530612244905,15.16326530612245,6.1826913282559595,-0.2584775510204085,195,4,36,2,7,64,35,49,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,5,6,1,12,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,6,20,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29282220117562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460677637496745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4648742357097535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17793924137219794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380129536381513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349065806641279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30053423624393155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5620809481483949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovingly-depraved,2018/12/26,"Christmas presents I'm gonna start off by saying I had a great christmas and I got a *lot* of presents I absolutely adore. I love what I got and I am not complaining at all, I'm very appreciative. I got fandom merch, I got cool T-shirts, and like I said, I adore it. 

That being said, basically half of my presents were food. And for anyone with an ED who *loves* food, that's a problem. 

I still like the presents, but I'm gonna fuckin eat it all and it doesn't mean I like *that*. I neither want to seem unappreciative by not eating the food but I don't want to eat it all (likely in a binge type manner) and feel horrible. I know a lot of others feel this sentiment over the holidays, it's disappointing ",0.2074048706240461,2.500208020547948,2.282922374429224,93.14194824961949,88.65753424657534,5.710197869101979,19.754946727549466,7.1686216300943375,0.3845339421613399,545,17,125,9,18,182,81,146,0.09699999999999999,0.718,0.185,0.8465,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,1,14,1,0,9,1,6,9,0,0,3,24,27,8,0,3,4,0,2,4,0,2,0,3,0,0,12,7,6,0,5,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,8,6,16,10,13,16,6,10,0,1,0,3,7,4,1,3,10,74,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932639311447873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094498492533927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488408967031393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838588343034893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267117000768633,0.14705433946514565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330336542694961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606552098417709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22679354262957505,0.2407652748553065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529231129929854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762874573854271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537540208998719,0.10607087402140823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142613968471827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440860323475164,0.0,0.10651919220763433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005427873860643,0.1573445473479846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,millygmarie,2018/12/26,"I finally realised that my chronic illness stemmed from my disordered eating (Kind of long) Background on lil’ ol’ me: I am a *trying to recover* anorexic and bulimic (with a dash of binging thrown in) as well as body dysmorphia . I’m an exercise addict and have an unhealthy relationship with sport, food and the combination of the two. I was always the over weight kid (end of primary and first half of secondary) so once I hit the last half of secondary school and uni, I feel into horrible horrible habits of consuming minimal calories and then doing various sport for hours at a time. 

Being overweight, this weight loss was considered good by my doctor (because of course I lied about how I was eating). But in my second year of uni I started experiencing really bad health problems (symptoms included being cold all the time,low iron and blood cell counts, chest pains, difficulty concentrating, head rushes, fainting, kidney issues, constant muscle pains, difficulty sleeping/insomnia to name a few). I was so deep in my disorder I was convinced I had something super wrong with me. I was so convinced that I had some rare disease and that a pill or two would magically fix. 

It wasn’t until I decided to do a check up at a clinic because I was feeling particularly awful and the GP said if I continued doing what I did I’d be having a heart attack in 5 years. If I was LUCKY to put it off that long. We agreed that I should enter an outpatient rehab (because uni was still a thing). And guess what? Since I’ve been eating a lil more and exercising a lil less gone are most of the symptoms! It’s so exciting to me! I’m not constantly miserable all the time! 

Ladies and gents and those who have a different title; I share this with you because sometimes we don’t want to tell our doctors the truth. We’re afraid to be judged or be told to stop because that’s super scary. I was TERRIFIED and I still have yet to fully inform my primary care doctor back home. But once I did inform the clinic GP; I was met with the frank and honest truth. No judgement. No lectures. None of that. I just got the care I needed.

This whole story lead to an a-HA moment for me. Recovery happens when you trust professionals to act professional and help you (I know not all of them are like that but you don’t know till you give them a chance). But that can’t happen unless you’re honest with yourself and honest with your team/friends/family. I really hope this moment I had helps any of you be a bit more honest with your doctor in the future.

Sending lots of love and support to everyone 💕xx",4.132278225806451,5.984528639112903,5.209306451612903,79.80020967741937,72.08467741935483,8.266451612903225,27.72258064516129,8.912814788092511,2.3128364516129025,2039,76,375,41,40,671,265,496,0.087,0.7709999999999999,0.142,0.9845,1,0,1,0,0,0,60.0,3,8,2,5,13,32,1,2,31,1,39,33,6,2,5,68,63,38,0,8,12,0,4,1,0,2,20,1,1,1,21,29,7,1,7,4,1,7,9,9,1,6,23,7,52,23,56,31,14,47,0,2,0,1,30,13,0,10,28,261,73,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282199037845844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708485084191535,0.0,0.0,0.057902375914993864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686616173452216,0.0,0.06547221741215388,0.0710935697099673,0.25952184596100897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295766214886833,0.09457829890768844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362457151845384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402571444967933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895971820580535,0.19516997909793485,0.3486032162019472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613776392557855,0.0,0.0,0.0754143127323695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136089934479959,0.0,0.0,0.08026831516963877,0.0,0.08610501382642824,0.0,0.0,0.0932735648268754,0.0,0.07242536441511845,0.10295919437094478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168005025154887,0.0,0.07141664231891545,0.06809924158739274,0.0,0.09379820377130328,0.0,0.15058911128166402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738462643840614,0.0905064917068055,0.0,0.10089872688759416,0.11414348521374802,0.0,0.08540864018651657,0.08456944728941768,0.0838519137150032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887057271164503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866672609735868,0.09358831436737423,0.06940556541122914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041598161247582234,0.0,0.0,0.150703519650925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238830454946553,0.07684782308651553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313487217001462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135597394023664,0.0,0.0,0.1812032456840199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147347061708747,0.0,0.08559550785746406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909374763003632,0.0,0.0,0.09141521707657524,0.0,0.0,0.08099359061361552,0.0,0.0,0.08617255985779476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704338653284831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554975005411086,0.08421182734300132,0.0,0.06026696037116939,0.0,0.1359958248632034,0.07118608512768715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662296569332557,0.0,0.17699913005897128,0.0,0.0,0.07442158334617158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05656739105139912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894840506671944,0.0,0.0,0.08136089934479959,0.0,0.057808720719121014,0.0,0.16635104563074818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022146962635083,0.0,0.0,0.20737040987174232,0.07655671250271079,0.0,0.0,0.09506275743409154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060485459433683185,0.09309406774145088,0.0,0.10966279834263537
EDAnonymous,Ipsokina,2018/12/26,"Struggling not to spiral into a holiday binge Copious leftovers, endless chocolate selection boxes, constant half eaten chocolate oranges by my sofa. This is basically the whole of December for me. 

I am trying so hard not to fall into a binge and purge but it’s already happened a couple of times. My partner made a big purchase today that I wasn’t super comfortable with so I hit another b&p this evening. 

How is everyone else finding this holiday season? ",5.909337979094076,8.491309585365856,6.9663763066202105,65.98158536585368,69.0,9.075958188153312,39.76306620209059,9.606745405546679,4.891311498257839,374,23,49,9,7,125,65,82,0.039,0.7829999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.9309,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,5,0,4,1,0,2,0,10,8,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,4,1,0,1,2,1,1,3,1,0,1,3,1,6,2,9,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28226457596067706,0.0,0.0,0.2771424182525592,0.0,0.0,0.2682123692555152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764121947087805,0.0,0.0,0.2830207039300562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21367514313259892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894326169558566,0.0,0.0,0.24441306823482814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337824154110377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261894044160417,0.0,0.2291326868170581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420294954247907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674015148565184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14915000933786113,0.0,0.24245381484740666,0.0,0.0,0.17366089750080613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855742796163503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleBookOfSorrows,2018/12/26,"Remember to never forget that fear foods do not equal weight gain Yesterday I ate some nut roast and a roast potato for the first time in years.  I wanted to keep dinner as ""normal"" an experience as possible, so apart from a couple of weird rituals, I ate them without a fuss (even though inside I was battling those damn voices).

Nuts to me = massive weight gain.  Same with potatoes and anything roasted.  They tasted amazing.

Yup, all night worried about stepping on the scale today and finding I'd suddenly gained loads.  Hardly slept worrying about it.

Stepped on the scale.  No change in weight at all.

I'm not ready to gain right now, but it's good to reclaim some old foods.

I want to remember that ""bad foods"" is something my sick brain created.  It's made me determined to try more things I think are demonic.

I hope this little victory can give some reassure to some of you.  It's definitely given me a bit more confidence to expand my limited menus.",4.352,6.4289635333333335,4.888888888888889,81.385,72.0,8.355555555555558,28.11111111111111,9.029198982220553,2.4521777777777776,756,29,137,16,15,241,127,180,0.14800000000000002,0.67,0.182,0.9012,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,2,6,6,9,2,1,8,1,5,13,2,1,3,28,17,8,0,4,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,4,10,2,4,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,6,6,15,4,24,11,11,20,2,0,0,0,5,8,1,5,10,84,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236805481279193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386622093286707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580920347010686,0.0,0.0,0.13886808827144248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13159543272150595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764281106488704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216298358157592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168404453111176,0.0,0.13998110430228178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369651897504562,0.10581194518960048,0.4512636996522877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193328479614329,0.0,0.10433822326887668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143519425400224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355419670397574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056968626178484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467838063409944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177073607983016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959425631812935,0.0,0.0,0.11673806994870213,0.12188255648525224,0.0,0.0,0.1305336276447034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023882119139372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818348908571795,0.10623427852701507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576681616902907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826437772151533,0.07970851481016075,0.1222193291182296,0.0,0.07253683660079817,0.0,0.1179137220902752,0.0,0.0,0.08445733394108668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14674503702836295,0.0,0.0,0.4544457584816814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991417883011052,0.0,0.0,0.2526621940050721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010752932536812
EDAnonymous,mimidudette,2018/12/26,"Trying on clothes that don't fit I've gained a lot of weight recently and none of my pants will go up my huge fucking thighs, or if they're looser fit they wont button across my giant stomach or enormous ass. I was trying on some different old snowpants from various family members in my mom's living room and ended up having a kind of meltdown because most of them wouldn't fit over my ass and it was just so fucking humiliating and I just wanted to be done with it and get the fuck out. Lately getting dressed at my house has been an ordeal every day too because if I want to leave the house and wear something that isnt my disgusting ratty PJs I have to try on a bunch of things to see what fits and it's just so exhausting and humiliating and it makes me hate myself every time. :( I'm just having a hard time I guess.",4.4169197860962575,4.904857611764708,5.499625668449202,83.1592245989305,69.94117647058823,8.064171122994653,27.219251336898395,8.00094639256281,1.5487058823529418,654,20,135,8,11,217,110,170,0.20600000000000002,0.758,0.036000000000000004,-0.9811,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,1,7,7,5,0,7,0,14,10,5,1,0,27,27,15,0,5,8,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,8,11,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,3,16,1,21,19,6,26,0,0,1,5,3,18,5,8,7,92,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194097612519547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624234299343952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591575640050626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271622543903732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13217532440794524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514689197597777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406827194046996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4138879471356714,0.15593520017512147,0.0,0.08481202752374245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16439595566364093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368262742211354,0.14733577887919586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443875575380008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540224211416195,0.0,0.0,0.1683402811813723,0.15801522047408192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177465666669866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687177394457602,0.0,0.0,0.09961356915833686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747788031236226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15659395963099926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473486709994754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891864297906005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148861424887457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914315986228653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403684655640045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039563501072054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604188912159902,0.0,0.0,0.1817244645235722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amyvas,2018/12/26,"fat im giving up on being anything under 200 pounds again

i physically cannot stop eating above 3000 calories a day and my poor diet is killing me slowly

i keep eating and eating because i don't have anything else to keep me happy

i will never look normal, ive always been the fat girl even at my lowest where i thought i was a beast but in reality i was actually quite slim

please someone cut my tongue off so i can't taste anything anymore",1.9997313797313798,4.210861769230772,3.9137728937728937,85.01178266178266,79.65934065934066,5.363125763125763,23.2979242979243,6.42735559955562,0.720303052503052,355,12,68,3,9,120,69,91,0.107,0.79,0.10300000000000001,-0.0871,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,3,0,11,7,2,0,1,9,16,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,7,3,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,4,2,14,1,7,10,0,11,0,0,1,0,2,7,0,0,4,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.1665863844729818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420427323248097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929646681281696,0.0,0.0,0.4214344197440071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406201321893838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009253860343546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240307082945334,0.14260463042464386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275102496073774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375867005580053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18172184182740855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184393935187346,0.0,0.0,0.3034662304643715,0.18886311109058654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143351727294612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316605345193052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725759666338086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873861229222883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18156897238682654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464033564545295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271953299597773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552308486870046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Michaelmaniac124,2018/12/26,"Everytime I eat at night I regret it in the morning and I hate it Lately I’ve been waking
Up nauseous, just the smell or thought of food makes me want to throw up ",0.17014285714285649,2.321247657142859,1.9825000000000017,96.43375000000002,86.71428571428572,4.642857142857143,20.17857142857143,5.985473137389443,-0.08628571428571474,128,4,29,1,4,42,29,35,0.182,0.782,0.036000000000000004,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,7,5,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,6,3,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850827586156845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550635322834061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715510678176536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245201790458971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512052963065705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35316316271663417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987664800056783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22197103915063676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snoopplatypus,2018/12/26,"Confusing relationship with alcohol I feel like any time I talk to my friends about alcohol they just get all concerned because I sometimes use it as a coping mechanism to dull my anxiety about food and social interaction. I am not someone who craves alcohol or drinks alone or displays worrying behavior except for when I am at a big social gathering with food and people and I start to get really nervous. It’s also crazy because I normally low restrict, but with alcohol the calories are less important to me. I was just wondering what you guys view your relationship with alcohol as, because it’s definitely a love hate relationship with me, and I was wondering if I should just cut it out all together :/",10.27767441860465,8.986101379844962,10.540736434108528,57.78459302325585,58.45736434108528,15.42170542635659,46.3062015503876,14.06817628641468,6.930420155038759,574,32,91,22,6,194,82,129,0.184,0.7090000000000001,0.10800000000000001,-0.669,0,1,6,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,7,9,2,2,4,0,6,9,0,1,2,29,15,12,0,3,9,0,1,1,1,1,5,0,0,1,6,10,8,1,3,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,2,17,3,17,12,3,7,0,2,1,1,15,4,0,6,4,67,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6255151777412821,0.0,0.12124030613477775,0.0,0.09361395898254304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960576594765381,0.0,0.08955165029772663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407862805013536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11467560588676297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05918976094909411,0.08362868727809768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831022181640746,0.0,0.09044134696261814,0.0,0.1223194995401236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590918999027087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557389682777255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05719028685436535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565248353872338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469531713852793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115563509131975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749925301246596,0.0,0.0,0.3770404025562992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23865871004469155,0.09918574401894686,0.0,0.11577671747585848,0.0,0.08285666116235305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408951880709428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825944350093115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110346401879196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25389618876458114,0.0,0.1188815336090956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maplesmith,2018/12/26,"Finally alone After eating like I'd never be able to eat again for the last few days, I've finally gotten some alone time. The family left for a holiday party at a family friend's place and since I can't go due to allergies I *finally* have the entire house for myself! No one to watch me while I eat, nobody looking at me weird when I say I'm full while everybody else is barely halfway through their meal. It's the first time in days (!) where I've been able to feel hungry, *like actual hunger cues*, and not just thinking ""oh great, food, why not"" before stuffing my face or just doing it to please my family. I've actually missed the feeling? Of being hungry? The little stabs around my abdomen? Can't believe that's something I'd ever wish for. But I did and tbh I feel a lot better now.

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Anyway, happy holidays to everybody!

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^((also, apologies if the post is tagged wrong, but i guess it does feel like a teeny tiny victory))",2.6779569892473134,4.981763247311832,4.1098924731182835,84.00150537634408,77.81720430107526,7.1440860215053785,22.6989247311828,8.167268648758528,1.4517118279569896,748,23,140,14,18,247,121,186,0.071,0.8,0.129,0.8913,0,2,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,1,2,10,10,0,0,11,0,10,8,2,0,2,23,22,11,0,2,8,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,6,0,5,2,0,1,6,3,0,2,3,7,14,7,17,17,4,29,0,1,2,0,4,9,0,5,21,84,18,0,0.20488511984581625,0.0,0.19993832193566294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21219919404110205,0.0,0.08192327815887214,0.0,0.22199294175284295,0.2489578464065654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911955974153364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717107324333337,0.11541768449788603,0.0,0.0906021193454826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213395257748753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964817453676588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31447294084277,0.08557761367341214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266516039751012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897211850228911,0.0,0.20719214540617906,0.07318498527791689,0.0,0.3366624511283285,0.0,0.08713758913761965,0.12387395009313792,0.0,0.0791468676766816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058220467593908524,0.0,0.0,0.11294328396901268,0.11285202923141115,0.0,0.0,0.1090520099495971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182049599496577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350435916350618,0.0,0.0,0.11130414109912462,0.0,0.0,0.15014478061427414,0.10267435766888892,0.0,0.0,0.0860259495172369,0.0,0.0,0.08709300106584619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901001759604108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941772983805176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703067133201408,0.1124511678719717,0.0,0.0,0.09811165466706503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146643539397723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474154418043403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886528751930523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564105594932672,0.0,0.0,0.1194701610245838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243847640952316,0.0,0.11780388821684873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200485757322526,0.2489578464065654,0.0
EDAnonymous,HBStone,2018/12/26,"I have a consultation appointment set up with a therapist I finally did it. I made the appointment. I just didn’t have anywhere else to share this.

Also, how shitty is it to quit a job through text like...right before your shift? Because I can’t handle working anymore right now and this job is a really bad environment for me. ",4.233333333333333,6.023719952380954,5.619238095238099,77.2174285714286,71.69841269841271,9.484444444444444,30.06031746031745,9.888512548439397,3.1548946031746024,259,11,48,7,5,87,46,63,0.128,0.833,0.038,-0.7346,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,2,0,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,7,1,6,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,34,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955508057058803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24250836664638264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041726001842286,0.14906341124981165,0.0,0.20807728877648746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20427370193571728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678710091059811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48531721482782697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946516090626033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313804979055281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26008809135913946,0.0,0.0,0.15665238226421296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176551082873312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839185445523383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802098270594693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollasaur,2018/12/26,"Thanks Mom My mother visited for a few days for the holiday which is always fun because we are quite close. Unfortunately she also always bakes up a storm and usually guilts me into eating which is frustrating on its own. But this year she stepped it up. I said I didn’t want a second cookie because I’ve gained weight recently and she responds “Oh you have. Probably don’t eat that cookie.”
WHAT THE FUCKSOCKS MOTHER. WHAT. 
I’m just pissed now. ",2.4911764705882358,5.2753642941176535,3.689705882352944,83.74867647058825,82.52941176470588,6.6941176470588255,22.617647058823533,7.908726449838941,1.5086705882352938,355,12,64,7,10,115,66,85,0.132,0.728,0.139,-0.0972,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,2,3,5,2,1,5,0,6,5,1,0,0,8,10,4,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,8,5,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,1,2,2,9,2,6,8,2,12,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,5,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179367787682546,0.3783092947883147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27715340440711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466073975023304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652254629238304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662431593781249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450974376176245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417907230270233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22445842971770488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21624046032228697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20929257153106534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503690671749667,0.0,0.1340836185652231,0.0,0.0,0.2768235890529138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463914231619163
EDAnonymous,minzimin,2018/12/26,"I got my period back and feel like a failure I'm not in recovery but I've been going through a phase of IDGAF so I've been eating a shit ton;  binging at first but now just overeating because I simply don't care and know how restrictive I'm going to be all January. 

However I've gained some weight and have been eating a wide variety of food and voila my period came back today after packing it's bags and leaving the past couple of months. 

Coupled with me not feeling guilty eating or counting calories/macros, I feel like I don't even have an ED anymore and a failure because I'm physiologically healthy now. 

Apparently so much so that I can sustain a child now. ",5.793327067669171,6.027332796992482,6.774953007518799,76.10047462406017,66.89473684210526,9.356766917293234,33.91823308270676,9.188382445141503,2.9737977443609025,534,23,101,9,8,179,86,133,0.124,0.764,0.11199999999999999,-0.3714,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,11,4,1,0,8,0,9,6,1,1,1,22,21,13,0,0,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,5,1,4,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,5,4,8,3,10,15,4,19,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,14,64,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024677745961913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248494489221274,0.0,0.19699882210456976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848077444632044,0.16474449362292262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35757672012524505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960188117034183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672395440599608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451034455060752,0.23086965342582094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744229727018978,0.19538663441611484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366252482871975,0.0,0.12923257316983694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880171351689832,0.0,0.0,0.1710929168950263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788244602577428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289738964159513,0.0,0.11878199328334042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15424912234034502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586248269439804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316165688785532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967643915139456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TurnOnRed,2018/12/26,"(An attempt at) Conquering Christmas Candy I started portioning all my Christmas treats to prevent bingeing. 

If only homemade cookies and bars came with a calorie label 😓

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EDAnonymous,Foureyedlemon,2018/12/26,"Found my diary from when I was 10 It kind of broke my heart.

Half of the entry’s are me writing about how I feel so fat, and that when people tell me I’m skinny I think they’re lying. I drew a LOT of pictures of my ‘dream body’ which was just sickly. A couple entry’s logged my weight and how much I’ve lost/gained. I was in 5th grade, at 84 pounds, and I wanted to lose more weight. I never realized how early this started for me.",1.0803191489361694,2.448262936170213,2.8010106382978712,95.90875,79.21276595744679,5.125531914893617,16.00531914893617,5.148860815047168,-0.9008255319148936,332,4,79,1,8,110,67,94,0.10800000000000001,0.892,0.0,-0.8479,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,3,0,4,7,4,3,1,15,10,9,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,4,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,3,14,1,10,6,3,7,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,50,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538864231279138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529050509060604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557034872824465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506119306509111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708530092368695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380173697276221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557080207876322,0.2495078934242219,0.19431949961688166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802305277325946,0.0,0.1762849700445622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584595865631645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617809072286463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19977764262515654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645651189299705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481474540059488,0.0,0.0,0.5566660876010553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MymlanOhlin,2018/12/26,"My fuck ups are getting more consequences and I don't know if it's good or bad. 3 weeks ago I had a latte on an empty stomach, then rode on a bus for 1.5 hours. Bad idea. I ended up projectile vomiting right before my stop. 

9 days ago my mom and I were baking traditional buns. I prefer the dough, so I eat a bunch of dough twice a year when we bake. It contains a lot of yeast. Bad idea. 17 hours later I puked my guts out. It wasn't even that much dough compared to what I usually eat.

Yesterday we had our turkey dinner and since it's only once a year, we all pretty much binge on it. Then I had christmas candy. 6 hours later. Puke a little. Go to bed. 3 hours later. Puke like a whole toilet bowl worth of food out. 

I have always had binge issues. My entire life. I however, have a very weak gag reflex so I have never been able to purge. Now suddenly, every time I binge food just fucking rolls out of my throat. Binging is a strong word too. I have never been able to consume 5000 calories or anything. Max 2500. I usually end up with an inflated stomach and crying because I can't move, but puking is never part of the equation. Last time I puked before this was 4 years ago.

I don't know what's happening...",0.4991001511196593,2.7540530438247046,2.54727022942712,92.21573705179286,86.29083665338646,5.215057013326007,18.21692540184091,6.647476241863616,0.054734469020469856,938,24,200,11,29,314,149,251,0.12,0.826,0.053,-0.9116,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,4,0,0,1,7,9,2,0,14,0,19,16,4,0,4,29,26,13,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,9,11,7,2,5,0,1,3,7,6,0,1,9,0,28,3,20,17,8,46,0,0,0,2,5,11,2,4,33,119,37,0,0.20199628373592585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26858627666032986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403854482659982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311286515793298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25298768929363463,0.06156752985184941,0.0,0.17188395972998327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094171633457676,0.06513544613702837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20669262668937,0.0,0.0,0.17890875171658766,0.0,0.0,0.06670832016762762,0.0,0.08509529053789891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442547080952824,0.0,0.0,0.18674230938911124,0.05276736058143202,0.0,0.05739957152665603,0.0847124495744625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931232330235385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39785130085417103,0.0,0.0,0.2280292172656997,0.0,0.10541581996910608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101187488207204,0.08232696566481612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133797447124793,0.049342590503485946,0.10122667131559544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586500848841022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828780308817947,0.0,0.10734504110291046,0.1484905105361967,0.0,0.2336879800395563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755972486661383,0.0,0.07681363804116227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937114544592796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275141976714304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625186131076869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354670663917903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443896899904227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778565745750208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224703687151102,0.08333404442216251,0.0,0.0,0.08101461729247586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276081854399808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19511847602644392
EDAnonymous,Saakkkaaaaiiiii,2018/12/26,"How accurate are the Fitbit heart rate monitors? Basically the title. When I was in treatment for AN, my doctor said my heart rate increased by 20bpm when going from sitting to standing, but now my resting heart rate is 50bpm and goes up to 90bpm when standing. Is there a chance it’s inaccurate or is this relapse just taking a toll on my body? Thanks fam",3.098319327731094,5.710471352941178,3.8162184873949587,85.00441176470592,78.11764705882355,6.238655462184874,25.890756302521005,7.447530270364453,1.4849638655462178,284,11,52,4,7,90,53,68,0.0,0.8809999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,5,0,5,5,4,1,0,5,9,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,8,7,2,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,36,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650691965200223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442525809042493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356215180801586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8483492970863824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269961104732604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794234884289795,0.0,0.0,0.21970263852422053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowaway125,2018/12/26,"Anyone else want to lose weight just so they can binge? I have a love-hate relationship with my binges. I hate the loss of control and how physically ill I often feel afterwards. But there is something so satisfying and comforting about stuffing your face with as much food as possible unrestricted. Right now I feel like I want to get down to my LW  just so I can justify having a huge binge again (it's totally justified  to eat 5000+ calories in one day if I'm underweight, right?). ",4.711244239631334,6.313515086021508,5.578525345622122,78.73064516129034,70.18279569892474,10.04546850998464,29.414746543778804,10.290406445055957,3.0899198156682037,385,15,75,11,7,126,70,93,0.11599999999999999,0.706,0.177,0.6228,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,3,11,5,1,0,3,0,5,5,1,2,1,16,12,10,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,10,2,12,12,2,9,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,2,5,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514593285818292,0.22194339291552498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429474643059649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969606539237275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216469557403174,0.18095055332327986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904988785129964,0.15474682002157228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26192667509093825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317021823814805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21385834925431235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582510995784077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423321115345889,0.0,0.0,0.19549973085947087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159233883394091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678110413990214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24419616411626535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325589667622805,0.0,0.3699689300518457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667575993539484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555253591052339,0.0,0.0,0.2637736352824384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,markexclamationmark,2018/12/26,"Thin was always in Anyone ever watch the movie Funny Face?

I watched it with the fam for Christmas. It was made in 1956 with Audrey Hepburn and her perfect doe-eyes and her impossibly thin frame. It made me think of all the people who try to say that ""back in the day"" women didn't have the same pressure to be thin and share pics of pin-up girls and Marilyn Monroe looking #thicc. But in reality thin was always in. The quintessential ""perfect woman"" has always been portrayed as thin in our society. Literally all the women in the film were skinny and Audrey Hepburn was the skinniest of them all.

The plot didn't offer any comfort either. Audrey Hepburn's character is beautiful and intelligent and loves philosophy. She ends up going to Paris to pursue her interest but in the end she's singing a whole song about How To Be Lovely (spoiler: you have to be happy, charming and smile :D). Ultimately her philosophy pursuit ends in misery, she participates in a fashion show to great success, realises the error of her ways and Gets The Guy.

Yeah I'm fucking bitter. I'm not skinny, I have severe depression (so can't be ""happy and charming""), and am intelligent, which seems to count for shit-all towards my societal worth. 

TLDR: I'm a bitter-ass killjoy bint that can't even enjoy a light-hearted family movie at Christmas.",5.8816176470588255,7.160402427419356,6.657476280834918,73.31503795066416,67.06451612903226,9.061100569259963,31.523719165085392,9.325443323948027,2.9741529411764707,1054,42,178,20,17,348,146,248,0.09699999999999999,0.6859999999999999,0.21600000000000005,0.9871,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,1,1,1,3,6,18,2,1,17,1,20,6,3,3,6,29,33,16,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,7,13,2,0,2,4,1,1,5,4,0,0,10,11,15,14,31,19,6,26,0,1,3,3,23,18,1,1,6,115,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804562335170143,0.0,0.0,0.10364518295842882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656980494226974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719519009615473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829293830537804,0.0,0.1312719745610345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337650644734306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4049745861364504,0.0,0.0,0.10066649094408386,0.13786510910084238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14368018721262385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090216145270998,0.07962882310281452,0.0,0.08661908188907562,0.0,0.0,0.16803443818367078,0.0,0.15091154591747233,0.0,0.3244901791541349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18060859927216247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279874427974993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751150210296069,0.28843127290015497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566308290631088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212039018274788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874988821781492,0.0,0.17218183962902964,0.15644842064792164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765926375271873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347754027092496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097731390790654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016222099856473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,healingharm,2018/12/26,"I'm so close to having a mental breakdown. So I have gained a lot of weight. I switched from anorexia/bulimia to straight up binge eating again. I'm fat. Actually fat. Not in a self hating way fat. Large. Usually I'm ok with being this size. I've made some peace with my body. 

Well. Today I'm not okay. I got my period and my face looks fucking HUGE. My body looks EVEN BIGGER. 

I want to cry. I feel like I look like a monster. I haven't felt this way in so long. Last time I felt this way I went back into restriction and lost a lot of weight really quickly. 

I'm so... tired. of. this. shit. ",-1.5954109090909083,0.20633712800000129,0.880309090909094,98.87115454545456,105.72,4.1927272727272715,14.481818181818182,6.1124844417494595,-0.6277999999999997,451,11,106,6,22,151,75,125,0.12300000000000001,0.682,0.195,0.8042,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,3,0,5,2,4,12,7,1,0,17,22,6,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,6,6,1,3,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,6,8,13,5,13,15,3,21,0,1,3,1,1,8,2,3,11,55,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.1369475975680712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790964693939004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31176310339420993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415239970875586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359866360000625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269054034974268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07095804914647919,0.10025599709784966,0.26948894885373365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973828092163095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223944150655317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855265031748218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439249127621827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712206706843974,0.0,0.0,0.12419285798494965,0.3535404418975386,0.0,0.15319321572405656,0.2386171324334528,0.0,0.13278922453813144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142558280275894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990277292690872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640095288532912,0.0,0.14405278768259214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183099355336257,0.16129547617952938,0.13302202693680912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456017057687066,0.0,0.08277375152946627,0.33417632295575644,0.0,0.3417826461271241,0.12617883040378508,0.13009278798683166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mattbonie,2018/12/26,"want to lose 10 pounds after gaining 10 pounds but i binge eat over 2500 calories almost every day, with off days being fasts.i should do like 600 calories a day or something but i dont trust myself and keep thinking thatll turn into a binge. i feel like i forgot how this is done. is this emotional eating or just ""lack of protein and nutrients"" like my mother keeps screaming at me about? i just want to stop being so fucking full and gross and heavy. ive done this before. why cant i do it again?",1.9936633663366337,4.2070028712871315,2.9529603960396034,91.88052970297028,79.69306930693071,4.832079207920792,20.991089108910888,5.6839178017228535,0.05173980198019778,394,11,79,2,10,125,71,101,0.174,0.68,0.146,-0.7256,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,0,2,0,13,3,0,1,0,24,22,10,0,4,6,1,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,6,2,4,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,2,10,4,10,15,2,11,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,3,9,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141310421493886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541602180507137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505141932413797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707945511279563,0.21232698713465376,0.0,0.0,0.3707592081304577,0.0,0.20378907835936846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264145141895968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160374286390496,0.12942611429124254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748645528031456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32206003633111635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26552790114286284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268011684855025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947160988451096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146416097602988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608483321043893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19705824094410468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137145973484592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16347551027379004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,manicbiscuits,2018/12/26,"Only buying pre-made things? sorry if this is nonsense, this is my first post. I don't even know what I want to say, I guess I'm just feeling super overwhelmed by food lately. The idea of cooking and weighing everything is stressing me out immensely. Does anybody just buy pre-packaged things like sandwiches and bars? That seems like the only thing that might alleviate my anxiety right now, but how much can I trust the package either? ",5.671851851851853,7.414309209876543,5.408333333333335,80.33250000000002,68.01234567901236,7.8691358024691365,30.78395061728395,8.344100000000001,2.3961506172839497,350,14,60,5,6,108,64,81,0.07400000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.175,0.8095,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,2,3,0,6,5,0,1,0,16,12,5,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,3,5,0,4,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,7,4,4,11,2,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,5,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606929331737374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17853304441944248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474858187536184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833536199849099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315504105437924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353324986812396,0.2466931819712637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22474318581169625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23030570681056434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212014239075008,0.0,0.23013541264084675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19934077427505045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164254237467403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499729394056226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103219738924529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538794282483152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422588316616872,0.0,0.16223922912029526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857256620090254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283757142214087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336960625440573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066112729283505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033208127834705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LuKiOMFG,2018/12/26,"Christmas bloat So Christmas was yesterday for me. And I felt so full after a small plate of food and some snacks that I felt like I was going to throw up. I don't purge, but it was tempting. It made me realise that I really don't eat much and now my stomach has shrunk quite a bit. I decided to nap instead, but I woke up really bloated and feeling like crap. I'm still bloated today, and decided to have another cheat day because there are so many leftovers and it's wasteful to just let it go bad. This comes after a week of travelling and eating junkfood and I'm too scared to get on the scales. I know that I haven't eaten above maintenance, but I know the bloat will make it look like I've gained. So I'm trying to avoid the scales for the next week so I don't end up hating myself even more.",3.87276537833424,4.361389700598803,4.815939031028852,87.57515514425695,71.1556886227545,7.988894937397933,26.55906369080021,8.00094639256281,1.3834,628,19,137,8,11,205,97,167,0.111,0.7859999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.5348,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,12,9,3,2,7,0,12,7,2,2,0,24,30,16,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,9,5,1,7,2,0,5,4,6,0,0,8,4,15,3,16,20,5,22,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,1,14,86,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506637979780412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940005730919752,0.10177393074378516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18227110389513207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381654283623382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767185885266348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416723250803457,0.0,0.0,0.14787215721075495,0.0,0.0,0.11027189125682364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441722585446794,0.11927234826880795,0.32060505797879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201882078145336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722685016387229,0.0,0.18976821163148724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483303184451145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18350768486526126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072231654780987,0.0,0.24469664776407535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019975507285942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579764113262872,0.11144344396268076,0.1692656869938138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227307882238045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775580347443923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757669152564612,0.0,0.0,0.21391069169466784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715060813016933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333010184382585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825337120476504,0.0,0.0,0.11335116543018454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26784170387862405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silverblackbriscoe,2018/12/26,"LETS TAKE A GUESS!!!! Re: tomorrow!!!! 

Will I CONTINUE the three day binge fest and go straight for the leftovers at 8am or will I get my fucking life together and eat like a sane person????????? 

Could go either way!!!! Can't wait to find out!!!!!!! 

I'm fat and disgusting and I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!! ",0.14839285714285566,2.4452299107142887,2.069285714285716,94.47571428571429,89.17857142857143,6.057142857142857,20.5,7.447530270364453,0.7215285714285713,209,7,47,4,7,69,46,56,0.16,0.764,0.076,-0.78,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,0,5,4,1,0,0,11,14,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,5,1,4,10,1,9,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,2,4,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376762986556656,0.0,0.0,0.19198142997424647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046048533503503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720776083388399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752038845162221,0.15552750370479268,0.0,0.3383611374493061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279322766741038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939011316206789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044018632966484,0.2102628777830812,0.14543327243916346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25992601973280344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22382117708662397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236287551465052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shamfulanon,2018/12/26,"Apparently I’m known to eat a lot... I’m underweight... i know I’m too skinny even though I always feel fat etc etc. my SOs family LOVES to comment on how skinny I am every time we see them

So today I was hungry a few hours after breakfast but I only told my SO I wanted something to eat. My SO wanted to run to the gas station to get some juul pods so we tell everyone we will be right back & his sister says “yea, “*shamfulanon* probably just wants a cheeseburger or something” and I laughed & said actually SO needs nicotine but now that you mention it, a cheeseburger sounds good if anywhere is open....

Then my SO tells me his cousin said “*shamfulanon* is the tiniest person I’ve ever seen but she can put down some good” last week. He didn’t tell me until today bc he knew i was already embarrassed that I pretty much drink binged the last 2 times he was over but told me today bc it was relevant

Idk. It was embarrassing. I do breastfeed so I am
Extra hungry. We ate dinner and then like 1.5 hours later I asked to heat up leftovers & ate a second dinner and was so embarrassed bc of getting called out even tho I’m like 20-22 lbs underweight 

This is just a rant of how I felt super awkward all day. They say I’m way too skinny but call out my  eating ",0.8037605121124614,3.2116755992217922,2.840891176101419,89.46078950671522,86.78210116731519,5.650759382452617,19.574369273252167,7.1029339738359605,0.5465894063009915,987,29,201,15,31,331,152,257,0.063,0.82,0.11699999999999999,0.9522,1,0,3,0,0,0,31.0,4,1,2,1,21,11,0,4,9,1,16,14,4,2,2,35,41,25,0,5,9,2,2,2,0,1,1,5,0,1,6,10,13,0,5,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,16,9,31,7,17,23,9,31,0,0,2,1,31,9,0,5,21,122,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.10001817180943852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131033350956408,0.0,0.08528220629128952,0.3331526638879646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581691694418447,0.0,0.0,0.07881062391120099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093131824061764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609936625860043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004039082945222,0.0,0.3146271142232819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286130924072664,0.13539103356964172,0.0927105903826652,0.08635459046850721,0.09793624674379484,0.0,0.0,0.09662107453910418,0.0,0.05182343083650996,0.0,0.09840914505199724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709649815659757,0.0,0.0,0.17193216791072016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018694920450593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632735332346625,0.1670905959556898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014559369031303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713569924635503,0.09250373857876404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534398874930633,0.07599710018908135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795038025619619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949274510958445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427200751018667,0.1105045555281364,0.0,0.0,0.10303355598569654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752827698873282,0.1949882151962216,0.1630127501932176,0.0,0.0,0.08167347856217974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780790396840202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26874963065856594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069863927881917,0.0,0.11952873241882235,0.0,0.2914535234104929,0.19587249348758967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135869738797344,0.08135400079440767,0.08221352855172158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jambv128,2018/12/26,"Shout out to the relatives who gave us money for Christmas Money doesn't come in the wrong size. Money doesn't have a painful amount if calories. Money doesn't remind us of a time when we hated our bodies even more. Money won't sit at the back of the cupboard for the next 10 years before we finally throw it away. 

Money is kindness and love. The perfect gift.",3.344583333333333,5.171328736111113,4.003888888888889,87.73,74.1388888888889,5.911111111111111,23.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.6120944444444447,287,8,55,2,6,91,52,72,0.08800000000000001,0.715,0.196,0.8362,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,5,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,8,0,6,3,1,0,1,7,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,4,3,0,0,1,1,5,3,9,8,2,13,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,1,6,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735312820565664,0.17788747576860692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19685473467491085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25696845960274944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19928037709320065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279900099853974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534235078452117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284020189582385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409067649387059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20879490274656645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246034506336884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461638634666537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348971968282032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5565511250137962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529358157416591,0.0,0.14897646019906988
EDAnonymous,iceleo,2018/12/26,"winter break with NO accurate scale and calorie count method. Can’t stop thinking about weight every waking moment! yeah there is no accurate scale here. I dont know how many calories are in most of the dinners, unless it’s prepared by me or packaged. I have to know how much I weigh soooo bad. I’m so stressed about weight loss over break I swear it’s making by blood pressure rise substantially. ",3.8301503759398514,6.231319157894737,3.5495488721804516,88.9518421052632,74.52631578947368,5.9218045112781965,25.330827067669173,6.868970318607317,0.9997879699248116,320,11,60,3,7,96,61,76,0.242,0.7070000000000001,0.051,-0.9249,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,2,1,1,5,6,2,3,0,12,10,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,3,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,2,5,0,10,10,2,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22036972102420666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093228649545257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22237159628599867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29009699206836315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617468120231822,0.2675826175527428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401820977713685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220656492343702,0.3023298194091669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911506950197175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6427889267417721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,not_so_jollyrancher,2018/12/26,"Just feel surprisingly happy this holiday I expected to binge, binge, binge this winter but didn’t. Instead I feel like my hunger cues have somewhat regulated themselves? It’s weird but I have been eating what I want and definitely more calories than I need, but the constant urges to binge are gone. I have been gaining so much from binging months on end. It feels so peaceful and surreal. I never thought it’d go away. The past few days have been nice. 

I guess I’m just trying to express my gratitude for this. 

I hope you all have a wonderful holiday! 💕",2.286734397677794,5.088436584905665,3.2862264150943403,86.02488388969525,84.09433962264151,6.657764876632801,26.078374455732945,7.882392219407189,1.8955872278664727,442,19,83,9,13,141,73,106,0.036000000000000004,0.609,0.355,0.9911,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,5,6,0,0,3,0,11,2,0,0,2,20,23,7,0,4,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,2,0,5,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,6,3,12,5,8,16,5,11,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,8,56,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288633681918744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632371799640709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570971450430206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24925615375407525,0.0,0.0,0.21575083756053928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695033776374909,0.17402267960513698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843934982129694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683448312676412,0.0,0.0,0.25930896775736995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419425228931668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900709301686754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19443337589303966,0.0,0.17906866886381714,0.1806209067806253,0.18787371378840634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325368033268358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19338540095787612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538345920774108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367729072674576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641659013695637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diabloglobelily,2018/12/26,"I couldn’t make it to my family’s Christmas dinner I thought I was doing better. But I binged yesterday and this morning and I just couldn’t stop crying about all the food that’s gonna be at dinner tonight. I think I can officially say that this mindset is controlling my life :( 

I see my therapist again on the 3rd. I think it’s time to get a little more serious... 

I feel like the worst daughter ever. I’m sorry dad. ",0.17182170542635333,2.5645869186046544,2.4352325581395355,90.3678100775194,92.6046511627907,5.657364341085271,19.95736434108527,7.1686216300943375,0.7466387596899229,329,11,68,6,12,111,61,86,0.16699999999999998,0.763,0.07,-0.7867,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,2,2,15,16,3,0,2,2,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,3,2,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,13,2,5,10,3,9,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,7,44,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21563067244419268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734543319671888,0.0,0.0,0.26781450781090155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205406561459244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298429455407997,0.0,0.1232779706530036,0.1741783492737071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29481675870127977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738098137924844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722106449446504,0.11911354922573332,0.24436228365139184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627454761186502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388798377496846,0.0,0.0,0.19428549076731053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729260180392352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383658798228335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28308291116913664,0.0,0.3124479898826103,0.0,0.19355839129075528,0.1421679279957784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mantispose,2018/12/26,"Anyone here have a severely restricted diet or autoimmune disease? This may be triggering...

I've been vegan for 11 years, gluten free for 9, and now I refuse to eat anything that is junk food... I've had years where I go comeplgely raw vegan as well. 

Everything I don't eat:
Gluten 
Non vegan food
Oil
Anything with fat
Vegan junk food
Beans and bean products 
Corn 
Nuts/seeds
Tofu 
Sounds products 
Fermented things of any kind- vinegar, saurkraut, pickles
Chocolate 
Anything that causes bloating/gas- onions, garlic, broccoli 
Sugar 
Anything that I can't cook from scratch at home
Coffee 
Potatoes 

And I somehow have convinced myself this is all totally normal. I also have ulcerative colitis so things hurt me, so I avoid them... Even things I absolutely love like potatoes. I've done months of just resting rice and drinking juice because colitis hurts me so much. My brain is fucked up though, because I just came out of a flare and can now eat vegetables and fruit, and my brain still wants to restrict... because I somehow think I'm fat

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EDAnonymous,redhotjillypepper,2019/02/26,"I swear to god I feel like I binged but all sources say im under maintenance????? I had like 1 soup soaked bread roll (130-ish), some broccoli dipped in chili for “seasoning” (100-ish) like 3-4 (??? Im so bad at estimating oz) oz of turkey (200??), 3 bites of a cookie (60??), 2 forkfuls of pudding (50??), like 1/8 a sweet potato (40??), a small nutty thing (idek what it was I estimated it at 160-170 cals though)
Idk its supposedly like 700-900 cals and I feel so fucking gross I hate myself so much I cant shake the feeling that somehow theres a shit ton of cals I missed/forgot about and it was actually like 1500-1600?????
All those silly British fat people shows say that lots of people gain weight by grazing on really small things and even though ive thought through everything I swear I must have eaten more than what ive counted. 
Even if my estimation is correct I still feel so gross having easten that much I should’ve stayed under 500. I fasted for like 43-ish hours cause I binged on sunday and my stomach feels so full and gross. 
I think another issue for me is its ed awareness week so I feel pressure to be sicker this week and ugh god im a stupid needy mess

Edit: well I purged as much asi could even tho my meds were prob still in my stomach now there’s broccoli in my nose 😩👌🏻 I am glamour incarnate",2.119448621553886,4.0101499360902295,3.282875939849625,91.26661967418549,77.83458646616542,6.237844611528822,22.737468671679203,7.1686216300943375,0.6458025062656647,1017,31,221,12,24,328,170,266,0.191,0.6579999999999999,0.151,-0.95,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,0,0,1,20,23,4,2,6,0,15,10,5,1,4,25,26,18,0,3,2,0,7,7,0,1,2,2,0,0,14,6,4,0,8,1,0,1,1,12,1,0,6,11,28,11,24,17,10,23,0,0,0,1,2,12,2,4,16,122,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.1142694475189514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278605651832175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777081890419666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029052426914552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349215374961768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320237161677872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523892642537644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35524553407198445,0.0836538763897516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825397412031493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560870789424058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153166215178882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794534559297205,0.1222184890412712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004525887044199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955139183136796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13006799029074725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582385524300753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236015863037662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501511801018072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18623992586681115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019803745642625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480945799404032,0.18702708583450064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558763384457888,0.07503081075476639,0.2300937453290857,0.09296166720349236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18785575293433265,0.14259218430282758,0.10528395893663768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RachAgainstLeMachine,2019/02/26,"My ED has turned me into a bitch Why am I like this?

My boyfriend and I go to the gym together 4x/week. Last week we didn’t go at all because he got a tattoo sleeve so his arm hurt.

We went Sunday.

We were going to go yesterday but I got my period and I had long day at school/work (6am-8pm). So we didn’t go.

Today I was soooo ready to go, but my boyfriend came home and went right to bed. When I asked what was going on, he said he felt sick.

My first question?

“Are we still going to the gym later?”

When he said “Depends how I feel after my nap.” I got kind of annoyed. So I just went downstairs.

So here I am chewing and spitting into a cup, playing Fallout, peddling on my desk peddler, regretting the one yogurt, one English muffin, and 1/2 serving of Enlightened I ate today, and being mad at my boyfriend for no reason.

I should be upstairs with him. But I just feel like I have to peddle since we probably won’t be going to the gym. 

I’m usually a nice person, but when it comes to the gym routine I can be so unreasonable and mean. 

I hate it. :(",0.3662424242424223,2.4596754727272767,2.466818181818184,93.7035606060606,85.18181818181819,5.121212121212121,20.984848484848484,6.42735559955562,0.23353030303030264,804,26,179,8,24,270,124,220,0.14300000000000002,0.777,0.08,-0.9490000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,6,0,0,1,13,11,4,0,9,0,18,5,2,3,1,36,46,20,0,2,6,0,3,2,0,2,1,2,2,1,4,18,2,0,7,6,0,14,4,6,0,3,17,5,33,5,20,23,1,39,0,2,0,0,17,8,1,2,19,113,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652375200112016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946017854227753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032340791962535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981540426878709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348548380933602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522863540874237,0.08140275751719465,0.10940564251579656,0.0,0.0,0.09692206690028436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5828211796830427,0.0,0.2733981099975296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249768715731596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429672470231833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198111864649115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865680522338498,0.0,0.09288086995990312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133612650557452,0.0,0.0,0.10083826799956172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241201598151499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544249714047875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949290052304734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285262606529385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276451467116342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715505169248235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730891755225726,0.2167767127260301,0.0,0.0,0.11531902778748734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425697561264657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909971012365337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21601420596544166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394008961932708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254949773728309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280057021000076,0.0,0.0,0.3168861309580953,0.1028181785081793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295375195931858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uncommonlyaverage,2019/02/26,"Do you think this will help me stop purging? I’m really scared to start eating more, but I have to stop purging. I haven’t been losing that much and lately I got the urge to binge and purge like crazy. I usually stay around 500 or less. I’m increasing my intake to 800. I’m 5’3 and weigh 109 pounds. I want to get to my goal weight but I’m worried that restricting that high will take forever. I plan on working out a bit. 800 just seems like so much. I want to get to 92-90 by the end of April or at least 95. Will this help me stop purging by getting in more nutrients? I just want the binge urges to stop. I’m worried that it won’t even be worth it because I won’t be losing that much anymore if I eat 800...but I have to stop purging before I completely ruin my teeth and have to go to hospital again for low potassium and electrolytes. ",0.5859520993494982,2.677533556179778,2.2502010644589028,95.61594027202841,84.2247191011236,5.769840331164992,20.042578356002366,7.0608816371341465,0.28022022471910146,655,19,151,9,19,214,98,178,0.21899999999999997,0.685,0.096,-0.9773,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,5,6,7,0,1,4,0,13,5,1,0,0,25,30,11,0,4,7,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,7,4,6,2,0,1,2,3,5,0,0,2,1,18,2,21,21,9,21,0,4,0,0,3,7,0,4,13,87,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614077092839115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322828111840935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07753536041783213,0.0,0.10823143952483964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886125485163298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335890423020155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602993387038952,0.0,0.0,0.11265479206027768,0.0,0.0,0.0840094390583997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19935847665924225,0.0,0.07228642235375833,0.0,0.10172745229033264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050888784763635,0.13438584742858106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434786671173564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427965025861312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28459172005536404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805033419585713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148276506843402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273418698749032,0.0,0.0,0.1157912644940499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002749800045501,0.1355702692178231,0.0,0.5316930783486868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563292203451138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149981080873639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008455643844486,0.0,0.225064275443156,0.0,0.0,0.15488618510958405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259764646677973,0.2583402922382477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OldEyeHoles,2019/02/26,"Strange realization; Eating is dirty. It just struck me today.
I was thinking about what I should eat before work.
Then got overwhelmed with my filthy house.
I strive to be clean but that doesn't mean I'm good at keeping stuff tidy and organized. but its deff important to me. a constant source of stress.
I barely cook. Working in food service helps with not cooking but.
I was deciding on what to do when I thought ""ugh..dishes..""
dishes i wont do. Dishes that pile up and rot. All the stuff that goes into cooking repulses me.
I'd rather not eat than make even more of a mess.",1.176666666666666,3.791084955752215,1.9674690265486736,94.37450737463129,88.82300884955751,4.7832448377581125,20.80766961651917,6.42735559955562,0.3001485545722717,452,15,92,5,15,140,84,113,0.136,0.7879999999999999,0.076,-0.7767,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,2,3,0,9,9,0,1,1,21,16,7,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,5,9,2,4,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,11,1,14,9,2,9,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,60,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700639296108626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993922669592952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5664064957392779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186864610829055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231130277778542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476017852367588,0.14757135652400244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367471765271915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212902442304446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400302639890718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316340527565432,0.0,0.0,0.2009880063479205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113582372942964,0.0,0.4224449207035079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822804333258367,0.0,0.14648217056225166,0.0,0.0,0.17489610335856126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686543306133949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghostsportclub,2019/02/26,"Dieting? I don’t know her Kinda recovered for a while and was doing well, was contentish in my body - not happy but not disgusted so it’s a plus!!! Realised to do well in education you have to eat to study ... who knew? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ But ya I realised recently that the pounds have packed on (I’ve went from 108-132 🙃) and I’m trying to eat healthier and do some workouts. But the second I try to eat ‘healthy’ I’m instantly transported back to ED habits and I find myself panicking over being offered s chocolate and the thought of having a takeaway. Why the fuck can’t I have a normal relationship with food? (Side note tho: pls provide me tips on losing as much weight as poss in a ~ healthy ~ way in a month bc I go to Paris in a month and don’t wanna be fat lol) ",0.6911111111111126,2.9781816815286675,2.6931953290870503,91.28895081387121,85.68789808917197,6.036659589525832,22.734961075725412,7.3871296695380915,0.9673046001415432,592,22,128,10,18,198,104,157,0.10099999999999999,0.816,0.084,-0.6758,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,1,5,6,2,0,11,1,14,9,2,0,0,21,22,15,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,8,7,0,4,1,0,3,5,3,2,1,5,1,12,3,23,15,2,18,0,1,0,1,6,9,1,2,5,83,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369082972573956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19312391965314246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533719413287723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890871938308807,0.0,0.21023726807197013,0.0,0.0,0.16073464157793094,0.0,0.0,0.09881102559184517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18508166270892693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955512116050997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450955530762787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27755347458762003,0.0,0.12781018434888888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034999084236965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716699119942354,0.1866650726611444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380287456406296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360847438439795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800530090927296,0.0,0.21171974351958867,0.3126495732115636,0.1611738455326704,0.15688538817452286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,islea,2019/02/26,"i’m losing control this week’s been awful. i was supposed to fast on monday but i ended up staying home all day and ate everything in sight. i’m so unmotivated and do anything. like, i don’t study, i just eat eat eat. today i spent all my money on junk food, most of it i had to throw out. when i got home i ate two bowls of soup and it filled me so much my stomach hurt for hours but i still continued to open a bag of chips. i don’t know what’s happening to me. food used to be just food to me but now it became a form of comfort, relax, entertainment even. i hate this. i just want to be normal but i can’t fight this stupid emotional relationship with food that i have and the urge to be smaller. i feel bigger than all the other girls even though i’m far down the underweight bmi. i don’t think i’ve gained weight but i definitely haven’t lost anything. i can’t even think about recovering right now. i can’t imagine living without being thinner than this. and it’s taking over my thoughts but i still find a way to overeat and binge. i just want to be normal.",0.1950666666666692,2.44337010666667,2.1871111111111112,94.22466666666668,87.93333333333334,5.1111111111111125,18.555555555555557,6.605766666666668,-0.042644444444444485,834,23,189,10,27,277,123,225,0.131,0.755,0.115,-0.77,0,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,16,10,3,0,6,1,17,12,1,2,3,37,36,16,0,4,11,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,11,9,11,1,7,2,2,2,8,6,0,1,9,3,27,4,27,22,6,28,0,3,1,0,3,11,0,1,14,122,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853997938588548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634457119529005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264879067616263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458017929071789,0.0,0.12671409929716426,0.099772898048848,0.0,0.0,0.22320928506520465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124096758906752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05695833095029618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029584435251414,0.0,0.5448587585552364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009508198019384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961445979420264,0.0,0.0,0.11121680775824123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259907235397362,0.0,0.11093581755465468,0.0,0.12059226252065905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06190852246493835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05503423621857303,0.0,0.0994704529300036,0.0,0.0,0.12602455763904474,0.12296885251930408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280941221041299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22074270033440416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094204406346888,0.0,0.09620097488260354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006802730493095,0.1799220476529172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469745144225528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436087743998652,0.11067631628600492,0.08943011351458477,0.0,0.0,0.10677735260597887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004095452634127,0.0,0.0,0.09729190440144617,0.0,0.0,0.13288569204828135,0.08941492345416073,0.09035961711245012,0.1371751993279161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858887607327193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sensitivebaby,2019/02/26,"Plateau-ing Please just tell me it won't be forever 🙃

How do you guys get past it and keep making progress? Just feeling bloated and especially icky today.",1.9450000000000005,4.753604500000002,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,87.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.6469999999999998,125,6,24,2,4,39,27,30,0.0,0.784,0.21600000000000005,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,8,7,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979696696674166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045586139355121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876769171871939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480104470200104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613497608405888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737603247456202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42978309846036333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422150608062647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711252923090961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elevenbravo274,2019/02/26,"Smart people doing stupid things I think there is such a stigma around messing up. Its not uncommon to see people with EDs who are sort of perfectionists (I’m not a perfectionist, but I still feel the pressure to not mess up). So I want to know, what stupid things have you done, knowing it was stupid, but it turned out to be fine and not a big deal? For example, I shouldn’t have just chugged an iced coffee and bronkaid before my lecture, but it’s not gonna be the end of the world. 

Do you guys have any examples of doing something imperfectly and being okay with it? I need some inspiration.


(I feel like I need to add the disclaimer: this is NOT encouraging risky or dumb behavior, this is just helping me not beat myself up for accidentally spilling food on myself in public or something)",7.465049019607843,6.7864390588235315,7.2164624183006545,77.38783088235296,63.64052287581699,10.26437908496732,32.85049019607843,9.516144504307137,2.7174058823529417,628,21,124,10,8,199,100,153,0.163,0.701,0.135,-0.7865,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,1,7,13,4,1,8,1,16,1,0,0,0,34,28,9,0,4,14,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,11,8,1,0,6,0,0,0,8,7,0,0,2,3,13,6,19,21,1,11,0,0,1,0,8,9,1,4,3,89,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427243473355408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888626148091895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805279782693837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21872212489366655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710786192068335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790604599075145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454352763939527,0.15156332187188445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25653824070896103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006645497119714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422027875413703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331892908196524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036480439496712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146199644011855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941626382860685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905978553011808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266540236748244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942697477057794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28189224032850385,0.13594013106756972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307633336848125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251343072610363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonelybeet,2019/02/26,"How do you gym babes find the energy/strength to exercise? I physically cannot find the strength to use some parts of my body during workouts. My body just gives out on me mid move but I'm terrified of upping my intake. Idk if anyone can offer some anecdotal reassurance BC just thinking about adding a pre workout smoothie or protein bar to my meal plan makes me so nauseatingly anxious and I know it's unreasonable.

Realistically speaking if I burn off the extra food during a more intense workout, then it would be the same as current me plainly restricting except with the added benefit of changing my body comp a tiny bit. I just can't get it through to my subconscious. 

There's that blinding flashing number in my head that's my limit and subtracting calories from it feels fake and like I'm lying and cheating.


I hate this illness and I hate being such a control freak ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh just let me live",5.004511278195492,7.153044643274858,6.218015873015876,72.23750000000003,70.40350877192985,8.160568086883876,32.09732664995823,8.841846274778883,2.901673015873016,738,34,127,14,14,247,118,171,0.23600000000000002,0.693,0.071,-0.9887,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,4,9,9,3,0,9,0,8,10,4,4,0,31,19,13,0,3,9,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,7,7,3,3,5,6,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,3,19,4,18,15,7,9,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,5,3,85,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19256357160521734,0.0,0.11918482407418135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18609072148944106,0.5680051587180547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18031685919762044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911777311024521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618624746154609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115822301624978,0.0,0.20611265732755907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905474940002198,0.1635142185295327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365744450517518,0.1749341345844749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367660793638682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17429992128104485,0.0,0.0832748119977426,0.0,0.15051327748382318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11377881874361775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116475088804448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458417934794005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921951274929263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472168163787201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108504587398825,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,proimize,2019/02/26,"I failed my intro to chem exam I'm not even in gen chem yet and yet I'm already failing. I honestly don't even know what happened, I was studying for a few weeks, I thoight I'd at least pass. Anyway, I got home and binged on 1 popsicle (80kcl), 2 cups of chocolate ice cream (400kcl?), and three oreos on top of my lunch which was pasta (200kcl), and bread (140) which was all dopped by my breakfast of lucky charms (160kcl[I had more than the serving of 120kcl]) and almond milk (30kcl), and 1/4 of a ponczki (100kcl). I purged the hell out of that binge and some of lunch but I'm just so disappointed right now. I failed something which I thought I knew. Luckily I have a shift at 4 so that should help to get my mind off things.",3.791621621621623,4.448140324324329,4.533351351351354,88.92110810810814,71.43243243243244,7.271351351351353,25.610810810810808,7.1686216300943375,0.9598978378378381,560,16,122,5,10,180,101,148,0.115,0.78,0.105,-0.5254,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,4,9,8,1,0,5,0,7,6,0,0,1,19,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,8,6,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,7,1,14,3,19,8,5,14,1,4,1,0,1,9,1,2,4,76,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410199325333022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082199794947761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161454304353769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471578131782758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732723196709325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20713486329926786,0.0,0.3099801443154052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698336323496112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120300488309136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639081074683914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379047475435605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20530438142283952,0.0,0.0,0.2453336053726979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788351233255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrashyChannn,2019/02/26,crying over cooking videos Anyone here also cry scrolling through BuzzFeed Tasty insta? ,11.880769230769232,15.393172461538462,7.633846153846152,63.48615384615386,55.15384615384616,8.276923076923078,43.769230769230774,8.841846274778883,5.0170615384615385,74,4,7,1,1,20,13,13,0.36,0.64,0.0,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277119299339505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286537332268106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9002784281518926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mukbangs,2019/02/26,"Question regaurding doctor/antidepressant? I been on an antidepressant for nearly a year and it's helped with my emotional stability it more ways than I could ever describe. My doctor has been worried about my weight for the past few months and told me (one month ago) if I don't gain 10lbs by our next appointment (this week), she'll take me off my medication and I'll have to go to a psychiatrist for medication prescriptions for now on. Simillarly, she always has been questioning of my ed (I deny it), but told me I'll have to also start meeting up with an eating disorder specialist doctor... 

Anyways, I'm basically wondering if anyone has expirenced similar and/or has insight on what to expect? I don't know what an ED specialist doctor is either, so really just any help or sharing your expirence will be greatly appreciated :(! I know this isn't an antidepressant sub, but I'm also wondering if the psychiatrist will be like my doctor and not allow me to take antidepressants anymore cus my ed or what really? All of this is forign to me... 

I appreciate my doctor caring about my health, but this whole process is overwhelming (and I've been close with her and my nurse for years so being dropped from them adds to the confusion to this all).  

Thank you:-)",7.879358974358977,7.909174713675218,8.323162393162395,67.4496153846154,62.547008547008545,11.986324786324785,34.66666666666667,11.51311941424646,4.152164102564102,1009,39,176,28,13,335,130,234,0.06,0.821,0.11900000000000001,0.96,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,1,2,1,1,10,7,0,2,9,0,23,10,0,1,3,36,37,18,0,5,11,0,1,1,0,3,8,0,0,0,11,11,2,0,7,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,6,1,29,5,29,24,6,21,0,1,0,0,15,7,0,10,12,130,40,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336152764257052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845180332832368,0.08763627490684282,0.0,0.0,0.07162251749076957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445104415788416,0.07364353557586042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073827171501927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409098328882621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207080454015982,0.6468086901930663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777061817968142,0.0,0.11847298446774555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095269706763916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05985687448806031,0.0,0.0,0.11611778902149993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195227627300648,0.0,0.0,0.1411901262597772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576434605290778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051454970274670594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122015086795664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813390401128792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201105715935702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136885899207522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054169041212836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23596930972532976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494383821549796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454739732332542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837795327959225,0.0,0.0,0.09696627382586344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012792167610751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359963805390447,0.08448289159653376,0.128253725114075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758816282495425,0.0,0.0,0.2284342598071176,0.0,0.10695952257837556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356477272005734
EDAnonymous,halfwayamused,2019/02/26,"Purging aftercare (cosmetic) There are a lot of posts on how to take care of your teeth and heart after purging, but purging destroys a lot more than just that. So I'm hoping to touch on a few things that have allowed me to avoid some of the classic purging symptoms.

1. **Moisturize after purging.** When you purge, your body naturally creates a lot of excess saliva to coat your mouth. It also tends to get everywhere. When it dries, it also leaches moisture off your chin/hands/arms/anywhere else it somehow ends up. I always use a basic facial moisturizer on my lower face area after a purge. I think this is what has allowed me to avoid developing any acne on my chin. 
2. **Chapstick.** This is in the same spirit as moisturizing. Purging dries out my lips a lot, so I apply some kind of lip balm liberally after each session so my lips don't split. So far it's been working for me. I also like to use lip balm on my knuckles, the tube shape makes it easier to apply accurately.
3. **Contour.** I use this to hide the classic frog-face that happens when the saliva glands under the chin swell. Take a medium-sized fluffy brush and use a shade slightly darker than your skintone to contour along the shadow of your jawline. I just use an eyeshadow and it works fine.

I haven't ever seen anything like this posted, so hopefully this will be helpful to some people. Tagging as discussion because I'm not sure what else to tag it as.",2.0428290201282917,4.756029153284676,3.367159920371602,85.71034395045345,84.1094890510949,5.365007741650079,24.361424463614238,6.850034144686104,1.1620622871046231,1124,44,203,14,33,365,155,274,0.063,0.8240000000000001,0.113,0.932,3,2,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,7,0,2,17,11,1,2,17,0,10,12,10,9,2,35,28,19,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,19,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,3,22,8,39,24,11,24,1,0,1,0,9,13,0,10,11,140,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296365342938688,0.10278846987077077,0.0,0.0,0.08400595517089789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101656260871566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530392393457451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721613686186676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594904562257056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063901689009634,0.0,0.10941263246158067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174171190764884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454033996514254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923888641568674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146385943474299,0.08280085532235608,0.0,0.0,0.24539017909221095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863950571942231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070293191721253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42008975077687694,0.0,0.0,0.08245852907361735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564149295203265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23661890193813315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164273913434709,0.12839698501190114,0.18576129001579209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206913173605976,0.07915427903797824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334596661986797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986544690005235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,not_an_actual_egg,2019/02/26,"I cried over a quesadilla In the college dining hall. There's a new girl here and she put a shit ton of cheese on it and it didn't cook all the way so it was going to be extra calories for something that wouldn't even taste good so I threw it away, then cried because I'm wasting money, then cried because I was hungry but I already spent my money for the day so I can't buy anything else. Then cried some more because I don't have enough time before my next class to go to my dorm and microwave some broccoli, which I wouldnt do anyway because its supposed to be my dinner. 

I thought I was doing better because I was exercising and eating right but shit like this makes me question if I'll ever be normal again.",1.8682818532818537,3.886856445945949,3.0436679536679527,92.0698648648649,79.13513513513513,4.769111969111969,22.73359073359073,5.288315135182226,0.14639420849420806,566,18,117,2,14,182,95,148,0.136,0.8140000000000001,0.049,-0.8574,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,2,0,6,0,15,8,2,1,2,17,22,13,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,8,4,5,0,2,2,4,4,5,2,0,0,8,1,16,3,11,9,7,20,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,4,10,82,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523466276863891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360713075821667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970679319614328,0.0,0.0,0.420783858253974,0.0,0.11747425294013232,0.0,0.0,0.12209802964330554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6065857578228484,0.08903376309098232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412642689097407,0.11532686085693213,0.0,0.0,0.1426472533502223,0.0,0.09118372754378926,0.12487824327788186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691916324874775,0.11579360568748495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744647920182567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09215248342089002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333394362745468,0.14682257898013032,0.0,0.13526414619373514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878295259537948,0.1546526900676604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789783046766725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834220211557817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628113650014813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959989100644138,0.08050071768546015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095812750290996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feiturdrengur,2019/02/26,"I am actually happy with a photo of myself The last photo I took of myself was well over a year ago when I was 73 pounds heavier than I am now. It was of my face only and taken from a weird angle to hide the double chin, but let's be honest, there's only so much you can really hide.

I haven't taken a new photo since because I still feel like an amorphous blob despite being at a healthy weight now. I've been meaning to take a photo but I keep waiting for the perfect day; no pimples, no bags under my eyes, good hair day, don't feel too fat, etc. And honestly that day never comes.

I finally took a photo yesterday, a full-body mirror selfie. I had just come out of two days of miserable binging and purging. I felt bloated, I had red and chapped clown lips from purging, I had bags under my eyes and I looked pale as hell, but I still did it and I honestly think it came out okay.

I added a minimal red-tinted filter to hide the clown lips and updated my Tinder profile. And I got a match for the first time in months! And she actually initiated a conversation! This is highly unusual and I'm very nervous.",2.7930701754385967,4.196476377192987,4.721052631578949,83.77570175438599,74.70175438596492,7.347368421052632,24.947368421052627,7.984000788550335,1.4147526315789467,866,28,176,13,18,297,139,228,0.13,0.736,0.134,0.6196,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,2,10,13,1,2,17,1,17,8,7,0,2,29,35,16,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,16,2,2,5,0,0,5,5,4,1,2,15,9,25,9,22,17,3,33,1,1,4,0,3,8,1,0,21,117,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.2753648063174952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506678711098534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600647707702988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671794925138413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613681022863687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430711696864976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639626451518692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573514061832459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14267756285520314,0.1007939303546176,0.13546745894707646,0.15455598131767256,0.0,0.12001013674394648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833866601432608,0.11284167309424073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019174567228416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14906815734212134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540628701452342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500627526085068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427294786983827,0.0,0.06892890439605412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847913245323302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153687161535893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261580497923625,0.0,0.10371656716875928,0.0,0.10881644890206024,0.13626452799031974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146089152931005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038515495724092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671018679350258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22534753770644386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608128565400894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040406302788992,0.0,0.0,0.08227006567015327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135098935960982,0.0,0.0,0.13782334334708038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641310928954887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180825699898775,0.12685585513187222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085661861078796
EDAnonymous,thinraindrop,2019/02/26,"Finally doing good I finally broke my binge cycle and am keeping to a food plan I made for the entire week. I even bought green tea mochi, which is a binge food, but since I like it so much I can have two each night before bed and I'm actually doing it. I'm keeping to my plan and that's a big fucking deal for me okay.
I don't know how I'll do the weekend though, weekends are my weakness and I honestly don't know how to kick the habit of eating to much on Saturday and Sunday.

I also ordered eca stacks online from the dark web which should arrive somewhere in the next upcoming days. I'm excited because ever since I joined Ed community's I've always read about people using eca stacks and was always wondering if they could help me with my binge episodes. I hope they can give me the extra push I need. I gained everything I lost and am back at my post relapse weight and I hate the way I look so incredibly much, this has to work. 

I just needed to rant there is no point to my story,i feel bad for you if you're still reading but idk maybe you can relate. ",3.7279729729729714,4.36868287837838,4.905423423423425,86.25354054054056,71.56756756756756,7.901981981981982,25.16036036036036,8.021203637495839,1.2360014414414409,837,23,181,11,15,277,138,222,0.114,0.774,0.11199999999999999,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,2,2,5,14,12,2,0,10,1,18,7,0,4,1,31,38,18,0,7,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,10,5,2,4,4,1,1,3,6,0,1,4,4,29,6,17,32,5,22,0,2,2,1,7,5,1,4,14,111,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.12389035197291412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015263474017109,0.2112744586970639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762101984993746,0.10600262300832487,0.07739095536223299,0.0,0.10802986482449732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136371607839402,0.0,0.0,0.08187585918453852,0.13088564893321494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299072732356763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385297641151568,0.11483860848815425,0.0,0.0,0.11409950707890798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06419256591703976,0.0,0.0,0.27814730838025803,0.0,0.0,0.3070304307595901,0.0,0.0,0.11736840640634286,0.0,0.12178737977904737,0.0,0.10648433385939564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253423712386101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08509566252848386,0.0,0.0,0.12609555654068827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256879409626789,0.0,0.0,0.13954295509905307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062024093354096366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661072936206926,0.0,0.13858703440549328,0.0,0.0,0.12012845831824208,0.0,0.0,0.1275439641290056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27998092095642485,0.18827193740922987,0.0,0.0,0.13501872081272834,0.1191392303325438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801502779541974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001407761669275,0.0,0.12158837097031362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25397991185043034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21003796838147976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138690610480924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473323234917524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240171737681405,0.0,0.0,0.10964887633266733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007714459331156,0.1018361244256099,0.15459771868533892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376779325682087,0.09242518878793067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sammy5198,2019/02/26,"Anyone else have trouble making food around others? I've been trying to recover and am happy to say that for a while now, I haven't been thinking about what I've been eating. Binging, sometimes. But I promised myself no more purging. I live with five other girls and when someone else is in the kitchen, I refuse to make food. I don't like them watching me cook, and I especially don't like them watching me eat. I feel so self conscious that I usually wait to cook meals until everyone is asleep or if I'm lucky, in class.

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Does anyone else have the same issue?",4.662321428571432,5.920214874999999,4.830714285714286,85.36428571428574,69.89285714285714,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.4696392857142857,454,16,87,4,8,142,76,112,0.106,0.8109999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.1729,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,11,9,1,2,0,17,17,10,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,5,8,2,3,2,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,4,13,5,11,14,2,8,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,3,7,57,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011473004458202,0.19077812339225425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195629358151743,0.3217401225107485,0.0,0.1397676368723165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739603511620374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213103925160181,0.3934723113166439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002489833312213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938638860502993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797018664334234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713462227145068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387231143264255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340931484952275,0.0,0.13863819215332085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096039631806025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485658827991393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637903391891389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302973170544033,0.0,0.15528184837337022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060239235077408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10659601256249293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729187021326668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077812339225425,0.0
EDAnonymous,notzacsthrowaway,2019/02/26,"i havent had any selfcontrol recently im eating far too fucking much. today i had a bowl of pasta and half a bag of corn chips. yesterday i had an entire pizza and the other half of the bag of corn chips. it's so much food. eating makes me feel disgusting and i jsut want to stop eating so much, but for the past week ive just havent fucking stopped. im really angry at myself for doing this. i'm fat and eating is just making it worse. i just wanna be able to not eat for a day or two without caving in like the weak piece of shit i am",2.629576271186441,3.0219034406779706,4.762500000000003,87.18917372881359,73.91525423728814,7.594915254237289,21.529661016949152,7.645422480735847,0.6578101694915248,418,8,95,5,8,146,75,118,0.201,0.77,0.028999999999999998,-0.9712,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,8,0,10,13,2,2,0,18,17,8,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,9,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,3,3,1,9,1,14,13,4,11,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,9,64,13,0,0.13398948732327526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111744607512746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641213464979236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6855234802194582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774911072428065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620206199276844,0.0,0.0,0.2477422439050674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894632780412025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065460495435724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887804646741345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954930706318403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790812687657774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583709657619888,0.0,0.13229845411954033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753828325667086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240424221086872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700636700293624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088825968085815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903047117117869,0.0,0.10747828460944668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916108435363194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654673462456576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depictured,2019/02/26,"My friend with depression is trying to ""help"" me with my ED He noticed my eating patterns and brought his concerns up to me, and I told him that I ate 3 whole grapes yesterday in my defense. (which didn't work)

So he said, ""I will only take my meds if you eat a good meal every day"".

What am I supposed to do??? I love this man and I'd be devastated if he stopped taking his meds because of me but I also can't physically hold down a meal without crying or fasting for 2 days.

I just feel so guilty and I already know I won't eat today because of it. But that means he won't be fine tomorrow?? I can't handle this.",1.4949271339347658,2.9001852519084004,3.6469118667591935,90.1274253990285,78.16030534351145,6.290353920888273,24.88619014573213,6.980632752743323,0.8669633587786256,472,17,107,5,11,162,87,131,0.111,0.8009999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.5915,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,0,2,0,11,7,0,0,0,19,21,12,0,2,7,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,7,6,6,3,3,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,5,2,22,4,12,11,1,11,0,1,0,1,14,3,0,3,7,68,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129407983705012,0.13137974008314274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002948763643777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046084852158825,0.21190221797671796,0.0,0.14149959827859027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043178710571443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841834111659815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830681181908507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269272316421728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779560147101522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101176818758146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028748517273212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482748510726314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895600462191882,0.3649702131302413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18704110596448986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249471772830147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562739464012064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373507504417985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470457890702121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572425663455072,0.15698265414628698,0.0,0.11153965214703736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834198502308249,0.0,0.1583661852686238,0.0,0.11960242430517205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MSplinterED,2019/02/26,"The scale at the doctor's was broken and they still weighed me With nothing on it it was bouncing around from 0-5lbs and wouldn't tero. Then they weighed me and it said 13lbs more than my home scale which I fucking tero and check like a crazy person every week.

😭😭😭😭😭😭",3.1085593220338983,3.619854389830511,3.3625000000000007,97.2264618644068,72.89830508474577,5.9,23.224576271186447,3.1291,-0.1916813559322037,215,5,52,0,4,66,42,59,0.102,0.852,0.046,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,0,7,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,4,6,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,6,1,6,1,1,6,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,4,29,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30500576539655155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506876123515439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886733818273873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31674804587218724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436772893552474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673875531621977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32875455947733595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991638688764511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259114957977097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736179638883615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748302920577581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sandywpskw,2019/02/26,"I think my 11 year old niece has eating disorder on top of anxiety. Help My niece is 11, very slender,lowest on weight charts or even below. She has anxiety,she breaks down in tears sometimes for the simplest things,avoiding school,avoids some social type things,sometimes she hides even mymwhen my daughter and I visit,or other people. She told my sister she doesn't want to get fat. The last couple times I saw her eat,right after she disappeared in the bathroom.I've brought thitup an Ed.and my sister doesnt think so.My sister,even after doctor and Pediatrician visit,saying nothing physically wrong,my sister is still convinced it physical. She does not believe me that her anxiety may may causing her more issues then she realizes. My sister thinks she's right and everyone else is nuts including me. She knows it all. She said yesterday that she will continue letting her daughter stay home as needed if she feels bad,even if she flunks. Niece complains of being weak,dizzy,sore tummy. She said she doesn't give a s... what anyone says. I almost feel attacked when having a conversation if I don't agree with her opinion. I'm just at a loss what I can do more to help,as she doesn't hear anything. ",4.960489476260399,6.926617709251103,5.027011747430251,81.48318037200198,70.1453744493392,7.511404796867352,27.14855604503181,8.167268648758528,1.8635777777777776,968,33,170,14,18,302,142,227,0.129,0.8370000000000001,0.034,-0.9377,1,2,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,7,0,18,4,1,1,1,26,35,10,0,5,6,6,3,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,7,4,3,0,7,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,5,8,35,1,16,25,4,24,0,2,1,0,37,9,0,9,11,101,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489151137554284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082465629842715,0.0,0.0,0.08720883266683661,0.0,0.10263594423073093,0.0,0.0,0.14188978537263844,0.0,0.0,0.1041380309376592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405194841143124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812430619121906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800301183852773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294272607437755,0.12765870620193456,0.10914545108489772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552443940595954,0.10418959778509553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32951199145596394,0.0,0.0,0.1191776399419797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612683018063464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516232917187305,0.1196451329534634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057125874694118,0.0,0.16719765012524093,0.0,0.1251067804074535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017782744977655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854419335499053,0.1016654382038574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753714901974902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248011174721424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967454863730058,0.0,0.13087522422573789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864668385311421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21302457111704648,0.2372792104681805,0.19836858665109175,0.0,0.1262257717689226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271388248164433,0.0,0.0,0.24670737218397926,0.0,0.0,0.13293753027303276,0.09960350475277377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397513178031323,0.0,0.0,0.07272665998829594,0.0,0.0,0.1191776399419797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029090781503151,0.07356452881772224,0.0,0.0,0.15187833616231355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636441307029445,0.0,0.08031716464024001
EDAnonymous,AbandonedDragon,2019/02/26,Maybe if I lose weight he’ll come back Nearly 5 years and an engagement ring and he’s left. I was lighter when we first got together (I was looking at pictures of us which hurt in so many ways). He left because he can’t deal with my mental health but maybe once I lose weight I’ll feel and look better and he’ll come back. Wish I could stop drinking 800+ calories a day in pure alcohol; i need to stop drinking to speed up weight loss but idk if I can stand to last sober. ,3.0853748231966067,3.7468570000000017,3.589618104667611,95.02564356435644,73.05940594059406,6.9595473833097605,24.32956152758133,6.868970318607317,0.5148828854314003,371,10,89,3,7,116,70,101,0.17,0.7390000000000001,0.09,-0.7469,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,5,4,6,0,0,2,0,5,7,0,0,1,19,15,10,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,8,6,2,1,2,0,2,1,4,0,1,3,7,10,2,10,9,0,21,0,4,2,0,8,7,0,2,10,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398303098282466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012188481340739,0.0,0.07976007072002551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157191190690577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254176004306104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446669284564343,0.0,0.0,0.08438226777606765,0.1348923600475946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25635070213308586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615764818096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129414108246906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464630260464856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13907893095521476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400690705658089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665369585870432,0.0,0.0,0.284320438633779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21974865857727272,0.2927574669883013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265325478179696,0.2628967571527433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318579648594581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701768748085857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934246318849033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187795467869448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573868197003817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385629194735163,0.0,0.477990932575359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504618464318868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425796023813943
EDAnonymous,tonithepony,2019/02/26,"gaining weight i just started trying to do the couch 2 5k program to like actual force myself to exercise. ive done 2 days and walked for 30 minutes on the other 2 days, going to start d3 of week 1 today. i weighed ymself this morning and i gained 2 lbs?? i have eaten less than 600 cal each day :( makes me so miserable. im going to be a fat disgusting pig forever",0.8585526315789487,2.979453802631582,3.4860526315789464,86.98986842105263,83.34210526315789,6.43157894736842,22.657894736842106,7.645422480735847,1.1974789473684213,283,10,58,5,8,99,60,76,0.139,0.76,0.102,-0.5962,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,3,0,5,5,1,1,0,5,11,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,7,1,9,8,2,11,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.2573799423915208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5102868040470169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699057129518768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997880636439361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848930335213693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288539205849843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605379733599238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733642974912219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25000220695935393,0.0,0.0,0.17906753772906486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115626876560136,0.32117393562488505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,probablyfuckedurdad,2019/02/26,What do you think about when trying to sleep? When I’m laying in bed just trying to fall asleep I find myself in this whirlpool of thoughts. I just want to have something nice to think about but everything always comes back to me thinking about what I ate today and what I’ll eat tomorrow and what I’ll do at the gym and then I end up grabbing all my body fat and this just goes on and on. Does anyone have anything that helps them just leave this all behind while they’re falling asleep?,4.195974025974024,5.270215494949497,3.7519769119769135,93.35272727272732,70.81818181818181,6.465223665223665,23.233766233766232,6.1826913282559595,0.2851402597402597,390,9,84,2,7,116,65,99,0.033,0.8959999999999999,0.071,0.5588,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,10,1,0,0,1,0,4,7,5,0,2,19,12,10,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,6,3,0,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,9,1,16,10,2,17,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,8,55,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896676472199984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938372712080054,0.0,0.1875784691506054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527484645650362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531943696790863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19635355072573932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19947530840883845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332435924657144,0.0,0.0,0.2018907042903217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20486134661121508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833666338677745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15278604143576782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413597567700405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22810859318281226,0.0,0.0,0.1754824081132111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43817188517554856,0.0,0.18096205437856788,0.0,0.0,0.21606423529286267,0.0,0.0,0.3095179924671351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444726214427172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LFB_,2019/02/26,"Made amazing food, took one bite... And binned it. 

I never imagined I would be able to carry out that decision. 

Inspired by recent trips to the Middle East it was a flatbread with hummus, falafel and herb salad. It was wonderful.

Obviously logged calories on MFP as if I’d eaten half of it. Just in case. 

What tf is wrong with me?! ",1.981428571428573,4.4824912500000025,3.2788392857142874,87.83937500000002,81.8125,5.5321428571428575,23.205357142857146,6.868970318607317,0.8810294642857142,256,9,49,3,7,83,55,64,0.044000000000000004,0.799,0.157,0.8356,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,2,15,9,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,3,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,5,0,3,2,10,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,2,33,9,0,0.32449526723708305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923809651909837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070452678270515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502707545919179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21988639108337094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203999289958909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605261816297051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519012752772585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305121276211761,0.3547846346032954,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rbnshthrowaway,2019/02/26,"""I need to lose weight too."" Lmao the actual Fuck. I was complaining to my boyfriend the other day about not fitting into H&M clothes (bc they run about 5 sizes too small) and how I think my belly's too soft.

Yesterday HE was complaining that his work pants dont fit anymore and about he ""needs to lose weight too"" and I straight up asked what he meant. His response was ""Well when you came to me about not being able to wear that brand of clothes, you weren't crying out of happiness"".

Like. Fair. I know he didn't say it to be cruel. But did he have to call me tf out like that ??",1.8691749427043547,3.7977890420168094,2.412284186401834,97.03605805958748,78.74789915966386,6.007944996180291,20.902215431627198,6.980632752743323,0.19690924369747886,452,12,104,5,11,139,78,119,0.141,0.726,0.133,-0.2537,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,1,3,11,10,2,0,2,0,10,4,1,1,0,16,18,6,0,2,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,7,2,0,3,0,0,2,5,6,1,0,8,4,14,4,17,8,0,13,0,2,0,1,15,8,1,0,5,62,20,1,0.18539603479252725,0.0,0.1809197862579702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20087652624005808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18386304911354887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733202659059566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931008004251154,0.21204367373543495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364883869246905,0.11956510500989538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172827720192235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139564673378704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197357526461904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188881219679524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811502757683796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148214809274761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27493762130806393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474343681189826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879429313126967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515248487894569,0.1666933004471762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349705213850773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loveisdivine,2019/02/26,"Gross shower thought about sweetcorn So, since sweetcorn comes out the other end still pretty much whole, does that mean I'm not actually absorbing the calories?!",8.52111111111111,10.971256111111114,6.282407407407407,74.06583333333336,61.96296296296296,8.362962962962964,35.72222222222222,8.841846274778883,3.3966444444444437,133,6,19,2,2,38,25,27,0.10099999999999999,0.785,0.114,0.1007,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.32163621775555323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28391606287276017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884299468710499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291922471892447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35902451017648995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24228952732824285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33531560822020745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726435782103889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632142090985232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26166083484934066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679799514126019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,molotov-cocktail,2019/02/26,"umbrella academy anyone else watching UA on netflix?? im LIVING for klaus. shoutout to the costume designer and robert sheehan's hipbones.

its also got some great commentary on - mostly childhood, from what i've seen so far - trauma and how different people cope with similar circumstances 

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EDAnonymous,soontobepetite,2019/02/26,does a smoothie break a fast? im trying to have only liquids for a few days so i was wondering if a smoothie breaks a liquid fast?,0.3945238095238111,2.448587500000002,3.2214285714285715,88.59023809523809,84.71428571428572,5.161904761904762,23.619047619047624,6.42735559955562,0.7769619047619051,102,4,21,1,3,36,21,28,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30188015256657924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096298351569193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5056189092634013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560045128466203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178032540562684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5076250277272288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Waff3le,2019/02/26,Am I the only pizza addict? I know it’s “uncommon” (or maybe not) to enjoy pizza when you have a ED but I love it... anyone know else? It’s my favorite food. ,-3.2355882352941165,-2.7018488235294122,0.9910294117647068,95.52713235294121,125.47058823529413,2.8764705882352946,10.132352941176473,5.148860815047168,-1.3329294117647057,116,2,26,1,8,43,27,34,0.0,0.6709999999999999,0.32899999999999996,0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994587946028085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25621381512509944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061021863100837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430841819810685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.402756664597186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33071407597303004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681245072217194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786837415897952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jewishtemptress,2019/02/26,"I was looking at thinspo and found photos of the girl someone used to catfish me with. Out of curiosity, I decided to check on the person behind the fake profile... And it turns out that she’s a ~successful Instagram model~ who’s also *skinnier than me.* I’m so blind with rage that I can barely think straight. ",2.881,5.347857099999999,4.240000000000002,82.47500000000002,78.0,6.666666666666668,28.33333333333333,7.793537801064563,2.0668333333333333,246,11,44,4,6,81,47,60,0.171,0.802,0.027000000000000003,-0.87,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,6,1,12,6,0,5,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,0,0,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169308651825573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4345360662582052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328025833606882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34604468163882107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357941914577337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539409691732871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310740628641324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422866490498984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kerrie-j,2019/02/26,"DAE’s hands get cut from their hair Ok idk if it’s just me or what, but I get a bunch of cuts on my fingers and finger pads after running my hands through my hair. I just got out of the shower so I know there’s nothing in my hair. Is this even legal?? I feel like it’s not my hair that’s cutting my hands but I have no other explanation.  

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800 cals> for the past two weeks, 18 bmi. No big health issue, doc said last Friday. ",-1.1870060790273556,0.8724711808510648,0.8370820668693,101.02,97.82978723404257,3.1112462006079036,15.224924012158056,4.65589566412798,-1.225669300911854,337,8,80,1,14,110,69,94,0.141,0.7879999999999999,0.07,-0.6868,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,3,0,3,1,2,10,9,0,0,11,8,6,0,1,7,0,10,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,11,13,2,9,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,5,48,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20198675656636336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546283595423417,0.2184730351523688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31954958510808124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445867794403432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32506516679195835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191895630535805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806695545199868,0.2492786016916719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494048986893536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29343604541957663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29193333491196066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29089841563171337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29873509277738225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245304929583784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ontheluz,2019/02/26,"cashews ??? my friend and i came to the conclusion that cashews are like a universal safe food for ppl w ed’s,,,, like everybody w an ed loves cashews so much lol ",2.1545833333333317,4.209811125000002,2.5825,95.54583333333336,78.375,8.016666666666666,29.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.1909666666666685,124,6,29,3,3,38,27,32,0.0,0.544,0.456,0.9546,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800309269535603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075091820720649,0.0,0.3242631888944966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100935116955423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37880032062160696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085316067614585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aprikoosi_flex,2019/02/26,"Anyone else have a “work mom” who takes care of you? I haven’t eaten for three days. Three. It’s the longest I’ve been consistent. I’ve been getting some compliments at work and mentioned I’m on a diet. I made a joke about fasting and my work mom immediately pulled me aside. She asked me what’s going on (stress lmao) and then was like “wait here” and grabbed me a gallon jug of water and a low calorie protein bar and bought it. She wouldn’t take no for an answer when I felt ashamed, and explained that she understands, but wants me to be able to live lol. She also knows I drink almost every night to excess and said she didn’t want me to throw up bc I have a dick appt tomorrow, and wants me to feel awesome. She’s so wonderful. 
Yes I broke my fast, and yes I felt terrible, but physically I know I needed that little bit of something to get through an 8 hour shift and some drinking tonight. 
Anyone else have that person who is a positive ray of sunshine when you’re in the dark?",3.838720682302771,4.7216987462686575,4.5684896943852165,87.88041044776121,71.48756218905474,7.533901918976546,26.29744136460555,7.7094869923839395,1.2399918976545852,772,24,166,9,14,248,125,201,0.083,0.727,0.19,0.9744,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,3,6,10,0,2,11,3,11,7,1,1,0,32,36,18,0,5,2,2,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,8,11,6,1,9,4,1,3,4,5,0,2,10,6,24,5,19,24,3,20,0,2,1,1,16,7,1,4,11,97,32,3,0.1373292564337512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375154131484097,0.0,0.0,0.10982215675437706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204761832546824,0.2814201040741561,0.0,0.0,0.12838431667862427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992798006007654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001632944936848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856600943384442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690607790222341,0.0,0.0,0.2294419440902017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570582150769805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943779833537103,0.0,0.26371524455932943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349773686120296,0.0,0.07804738118525724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524165471512242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094513573132795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06709213792484865,0.1376399926367758,0.1212642494196135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12994426292012265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216767307366565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182790355293662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887420422411422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991060968159899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063157095178712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572277090313394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731019925773768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20650902000268745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296459912388612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300106056891396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892772052852926,0.29993200280196325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,im-stressed-af-fam,2019/02/26,What is the most satisfying food logging app? I use mfp but it's not satisfying to log food in there. Idk what I'm looking for.. just something more interactive and makes me enjoy looking at the app. What do you guys like?,0.9696212121212148,3.5503379318181807,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,90.13636363636364,5.660606060606061,23.24242424242424,7.1686216300943375,1.0584060606060608,175,7,36,3,6,58,36,44,0.031,0.691,0.278,0.9312,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,7,7,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,4,7,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7078551922087263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898137728888083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429958470700042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915796661418903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19537598674265552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253306817680417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25279424661559136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,giveMeSteamKeysPls,2019/02/26,Underweight hands are not beautiful They're bony and all of my veins create bulges on the surface of my hand. They look so ugly. I'm 20 but I have the hands of an 80 year old :(,-0.6492105263157875,1.504543026315794,1.3476842105263138,98.93678947368423,92.42105263157896,5.145263157894737,15.494736842105262,6.742157984588678,-0.4016484210526317,137,3,33,2,5,45,31,38,0.198,0.718,0.085,-0.7090000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,4,0,1,4,4,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,4,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5634792281690111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7041119019865297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321083069127081
EDAnonymous,tokyopearl,2019/02/26,Pregnant and worried I found out I was pregnant a few weeks ago and it's a good thing but I'm worried the baby is going to be messed up or not grow right because I was restricting before I knew I was pregnant and lost 10lbs and now I am trying to eat more but I'm so nauseous and have no appetite that I think I've lost more weight. I'm passed the first trimester and still extremely nauseous. I had a sensitive stomach in the first place when not pregnant  where I would feel nauseous and throw up not on purpose but it wasn't an issue because I could smoke weed. Now I cant smoke weed and I'm worried I'm not going to gain weight. Like I try to eat and I just cant and if I force myself to eat I get sick and throw up not on purpose. I am taking prenatal vitamins so at least it's getting that but I'm going to hate myself if my baby is hurt because I cant eat enough.,1.1886037151702809,2.812216405263161,2.9909287925696617,93.52561919504645,79.6842105263158,5.523219814241487,23.808049535603715,6.2272716619740125,0.456390092879257,687,24,156,5,17,229,93,190,0.213,0.759,0.027999999999999997,-0.9882,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,5,8,7,1,0,7,0,16,9,1,0,0,32,35,21,0,4,13,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,12,6,1,4,0,0,7,10,5,0,2,9,3,20,2,14,23,5,26,0,3,0,0,0,11,0,3,9,102,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111980916769738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23102258498112416,0.0,0.10749463986716308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086151799917367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170546339303599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052915633127368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387452920182274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149066981679636,0.0,0.13851060638683196,0.0,0.0,0.13200087853112955,0.0,0.21538296928277167,0.1059567661063558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472137291182946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352352476867944,0.0,0.0,0.1318521591157418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061716800155377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27580083299888475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319844191600043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788223385170533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088459313253667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498188842979373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392578575893601,0.08094499020422248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715349504332891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133158583862446,0.30766355435810994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3848724104462462,0.0,0.08973879854825928,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fulltimepizzalover,2019/02/26,“You can pick any mental illness for your topic” sick ur girl is gonna breeze thru this essay on eating disorders 🤪🤪,2.8212499999999987,4.518011958333336,4.331666666666667,85.38000000000002,75.25,6.466666666666668,20.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.5659833333333331,93,2,18,1,2,31,23,24,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470922331238585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5849672212353653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5222707304856341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5143671994434232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lilaniiloo,2019/02/26,"I’m being hospitalized today I am so scared, I cried all night. I’ll be picked up at 7am and will go straight to the emergency room cause my electrolytes and iron levels are so fucked up I guess I’m actually in danger this time.
I weighed myself one last time, 36kg. I assume they’re gonna pump me full of calories. 

I’m crying again, this is hell. My heart is fluttering and I can’t tell if it’s heart palpitations or anxiety. I hope I get a kind doctor cause my eating disorder might make me seem cold and calculated but I am deep down just terrified ",0.9320334448160528,3.249109895652176,3.0460869565217408,88.97963210702343,84.82608695652173,6.668896321070235,20.150501672240807,7.882392219407189,0.8832943143812715,438,13,95,9,13,148,86,115,0.223,0.727,0.05,-0.9557,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,1,2,0,10,6,2,4,1,18,21,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,0,1,15,2,7,16,2,17,1,0,0,1,1,10,2,7,6,51,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.1704590231187023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362701029397267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588816731428485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837477682322564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019435118193166,0.1787887538084537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17873762193047116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148556834674274,0.09126123845769384,0.0,0.09927265504174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192425808854589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41398488143935175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734931336076439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18189864839386646,0.0,0.142384624931931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165978903848722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530411532057367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392202051407082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183652868620147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488160444011994,0.0,0.0,0.1590188846352146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267492122282564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371049174492606,0.0,0.16557285536642907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,otob130,2019/02/26,"A love letter to pickles Thank you, pickles, for being crunchy and salty and delicious and low-calorie. But also screw you for being delicious when you’re fried and dipped in ranch dressing 😭",5.261904761904759,7.702483571428572,4.805714285714289,81.38761904761904,70.42857142857143,6.9523809523809526,31.666666666666664,7.793537801064563,2.4396666666666667,155,7,25,2,3,47,26,35,0.034,0.627,0.34,0.9287,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5271091021881622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5948940344722641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6068418922089197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InnerCookie,2019/02/26,"Help request: Do's and dont's when helping a friend? Hi everyone,

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I have a friend who has an ED, Anorexia to be specific.  They are amazing and  I want to support them.  I have refrained myself from constantly messaging 'I'm here if you want to chat etc' but I want them to understand I will listen with no judgement, this is a medical condition and not their fault.   I'm just lost on how I can help them without pushing them away.  I never will get how this makes them feel although I understand the brain being illogical as Ive had depression.  But after reading up on ED I cannot imagine the struggle they face every day.   

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So...what are the do's and don'ts of being supportive?  What things can I do to help them, what can I say that will reassure I genuinely care about them?  Any advice would be very much appreciated.  ",3.997083529966969,5.755678042944787,5.009202453987733,81.48146767343087,72.25153374233129,8.450967437470505,30.32987258140632,9.057496981413335,2.6632099103350644,663,29,126,14,13,217,101,163,0.076,0.688,0.23600000000000002,0.9711,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,10,1,7,11,0,1,7,0,25,3,2,3,1,24,40,12,0,5,6,0,1,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,7,5,0,1,4,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,3,25,7,16,30,2,10,0,2,0,0,25,4,0,1,5,97,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673639502827247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28104882814506155,0.31518709756089514,0.08819700711133215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185266609274592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447824465236996,0.0,0.0,0.13223263576779856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015415593493327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364250736274234,0.0,0.11170606238904443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200150459375966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446441422001234,0.0,0.0,0.10927358124449364,0.12392907380229788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557765891955669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20040397893955775,0.0,0.06776025355932667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477271396216501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157734845280368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657238002116377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065400816481432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953407043124602,0.0,0.10002873371447477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973003800215333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313862242577106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355853118199902,0.0,0.0,0.2943525635246168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616355567436794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700340144322136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701190883814868,0.2294923089311344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502129466899362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213156475023576,0.0,0.31518709756089514,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovegibbyhaynes,2019/02/26,"Pizza Yeah this is dumb as hell but I was gonna have a slice of pizza and the plate fell on the floor. My friends are all eating pizza like normal humans, I lost my appetite and I’m sitting on the couch trying not to cry lmao what is wrong with me",-1.1338888888888867,0.939804407407408,0.8091666666666661,101.28375000000004,97.51851851851852,2.7,12.305555555555555,3.1291,-1.7508444444444442,194,3,45,0,8,63,44,54,0.237,0.583,0.18,-0.6044,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,4,1,5,4,0,0,1,7,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,2,6,5,1,5,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182590629361467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896237917132475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941827293989673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602547669796488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156565254772317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730747338276432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585185139571294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163133131362287,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,perlkat,2019/02/26,"I'm back :( I was doing so good. I've been in recovery since September, and I was maintaining a healthy but still reasonably low weight. I even finally went and got my recovery tattoo! I was seriously doing so good.

Then my stupid body went and got cancer. It's thyroid cancer, so treatable, but it can cause crazy weight gain which I'm terrified of. I have a lot of the ""typical"" cancer symptoms now--nonexistent appetite, weakness and exhaustion, poor healing. And my ED has truly seized the fucking moment to emerge again among all of this. Oh, you're not hungry? Well, instead of eating because you know you need to keep your strength up, do a fast! Don't try to get high calorie, high sugar foods in the house that you'll eat, only stock repulsive things! It's ok to be underweight now because it's cancer, not the ED! Oh, your fertility might be ruined because of being underweight and you could have nasty, permanent health problems? Well I have the green light now because of the cancer!

I don't even know what to say about myself, except admit that I used to have a fantasy about having cancer and becoming super thin and weak and having people take care of me. And now that it's happening I hate it. And I also feel mega guilty for ever fantasizing about something like this. Apparently hospital fantasies are common but I still can't shake the feeling that I brought this on myself. I am so disappointed that something like this is what's bringing me out of recovery.

Welcome to my pity party.",5.1966111391553085,6.832019551236748,5.718717819283192,78.06479387514725,69.03533568904594,8.782702338886086,30.083964327780585,9.23628265651192,2.746734948679118,1195,47,210,24,21,385,160,283,0.29100000000000004,0.568,0.141,-0.9963,1,0,2,0,0,0,40.0,0,6,0,3,21,24,3,1,11,1,27,21,1,3,2,34,49,20,0,3,6,0,5,2,0,2,13,1,0,0,19,12,6,1,6,2,1,5,5,13,2,0,9,9,27,11,26,34,2,28,0,4,1,1,9,10,1,2,15,146,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662360483747756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290686690904193,0.0,0.29461487703591904,0.13344157611981725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342091924851935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231890074583756,0.12412042416965867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646882703722644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472680118191012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960737413657966,0.10929301221426807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218536924469825,0.0,0.0,0.1323577391453027,0.0,0.0,0.14610191233125766,0.0,0.0,0.1117006453126849,0.06312600768057944,0.0,0.0,0.20268433681558584,0.1932693721044525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068450334568881,0.0,0.0,0.11928954461477832,0.0,0.1284311867196291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553162176726886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941567765216034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739469596930644,0.0,0.0,0.13280437735040154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805785670465342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272098368398823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817609320951906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959011009347695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189275816584846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376475154587239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561308277660895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422808965106966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960847861307546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999475809833808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603377569636814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298179441842975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255833028831585,0.09084526535361066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027067479202969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203215553588906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435389402635548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942642823527005,0.21727213711759172,0.2240117298522429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,owliesowlies,2019/02/26,"I made myself puke last night I don't even know if I'm in the right place but i just want to vent 

Last night I made myself puke for the first time I immediately told.my boyfriend and he was upset. I said it was just a one time mistake and I won't do it again but it is ? 

I don't think I can lose weight in any normal way: counting calories, move more eat less. But food is so comforting, it makes me happier than anything else. How can I ever lose weight (I'm a few kilos overweight And don't like my body) if I don't make myself puke. I know it's bad but i don't even fucking care, is easier this way 


I don't fucking care if this gets deleted or no one replies i just want to type. ",-1.0380000000000005,1.029698866666667,1.1016666666666666,100.5225,93.66666666666666,4.066666666666666,16.833333333333336,5.6839178017228535,-0.7502666666666662,530,14,131,4,20,175,82,150,0.23399999999999999,0.633,0.133,-0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,9,11,2,1,4,0,15,8,1,5,1,27,32,13,0,7,11,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,8,7,0,3,5,3,20,4,6,26,3,16,0,2,0,2,2,4,2,4,10,79,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203928110105283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137745117004924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113007470654042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150337848864851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759866152556051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849178398891485,0.11306342945166772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878826961355926,0.12242735425195013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512443779570565,0.16365978222650845,0.0,0.0,0.25024865170807736,0.07071220701347544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876420937334814,0.2206485742222347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612275914159353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028330015373289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25613353411165884,0.18068775531797546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14385037804998807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540243381428916,0.1326094210566226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342662907596247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140677962222156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558394062353022,0.12874414453759545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672364862594284,0.0,0.0,0.1578415842971686,0.0,0.0,0.1293280036802661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966004459069982,0.2148612156164776,0.0,0.329627638669719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Paxthe0utlier,2019/04/08,"Hiccups while fasting Okay, so this may seem really weird.. but does anyone else get really bad hiccups while fasting? It always happens to me and I’m not sure if it’s from the fasting? I have a hiatal hernia and one of the symptoms is hiccups, so it’s possible that the fasting just aggravates it? Idk, just curious if I was the only one haha",2.1978781512605075,4.5863821911764715,4.3368067226890785,81.27205882352945,80.02941176470588,6.8268907563025225,27.36134453781513,7.957251820313856,2.152610924369748,271,12,48,5,7,93,47,68,0.177,0.7140000000000001,0.109,-0.7369,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,2,4,4,0,0,1,11,8,9,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,3,3,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22586295282149035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979978803365985,0.2781262093610766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266442009804211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375422631775403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267564301711313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418181609178246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400368200810672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678746329322136,0.20644521083433448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060120536772303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477876461181943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24711220394652236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25583253093659825,0.2821340000938295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cautionhotpockets,2019/04/08,"Prom dress shopping Sorry about complaining but I went shopping for a prom dress over the weekend and I'm still upset about it. The store attendants thought I'd need one of the smallest dresses, but my mom told me I should at least try on a size 14 because a 0 or 2 wasn't ""my size."" I tried on a few 00 and 000s and they were all loose (not by design) and would need to be taken in to even fit my waist and small boobs (if you can call them that at this point), so I didn't get any of them because I wasn't about to drop $500 on a dress that would need alterations. But thanks mom, I didn't get a dress but got a nice reality check about how people see me lol.",5.6023809523809565,3.6670623333333374,5.953690476190477,89.01750000000004,68.02777777777777,9.339682539682537,28.904761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.2762095238095241,512,12,128,4,7,165,91,144,0.064,0.815,0.121,0.8696,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,3,0,8,4,0,1,10,1,10,2,2,1,1,21,23,13,0,7,7,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,3,4,2,5,2,0,1,10,1,15,2,18,9,3,15,0,0,1,1,9,10,1,2,2,77,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071261728044778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23434464780387265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19627274457482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695602562655908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20084854079336087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15373168997019668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4502391702395153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275743915132912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302496851269663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325750143298512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817050624259086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317026488340965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21516866911441876,0.0,0.0,0.15350294289460678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17696551145866465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15259703618279638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836694251245036,0.0,0.26100238780958346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818499345421682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730876785296046,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachbloompudding,2019/04/08,"Someone saw me buy a snack from the vending machine at work and asked if im pregnant This is why I don't like people seeing me with food and now I'm back to feeling like a giant fatty and I don't even want to eat anything now. I wish people wouldn't comment on anything to do with my food or my eating habits. If I eat people comment, if I don't eat people comment. If I gain weight people comment, if I lose weight people comment. I can't win and I just want to disappear.",3.0333613445378127,3.612858862745101,4.669327731092442,87.53911764705887,73.11764705882355,6.220728291316527,27.31652661064425,5.288315135182226,0.8714408963585432,372,13,79,1,7,126,54,102,0.149,0.7709999999999999,0.079,-0.5770000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,3,0,7,9,0,0,0,18,15,10,0,9,7,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,9,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,0,1,5,13,3,9,13,0,7,0,1,2,0,6,3,0,6,5,48,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124829336054764,0.0,0.12069467043639084,0.0,0.0,0.09927289024953408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5284218705506505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527187420489236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527878484484358,0.09223181503265046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122257716925859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945431051217258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614723799921476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443418277942027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370261163881906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287905197574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093892717197679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152297589403518,0.0,0.0,0.3144274129377031,0.0,0.0,0.11649614228556472,0.0,0.14846305409344596,0.0,0.0,0.09398913919298282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatwasprettydumb,2019/04/08,"DAE notice that an overwhelming number of fitness influencers have had disordered eating? Almost everyone I watch/have seen on youtube, instagram etc. has made at least one post/video about how they had a diagnosed ED, disordered eating that wasn't treated, or binged often in the past, but now they looooooveee their bodies and have such a healthy relationship with food/exercise.  It makes me wonder whether fitness is really more of an orthorexic thing for them and their habits have just shifted into 'healthier' ones, or maybe fitness is just a common way out of an ED, but I can't decide which.  I'd assume some of them still do disordered things, but some really seem like they have made peace with it all.

What do you all think? I mean it's social media, it's not real, but still...",9.358798029556652,8.277232682758623,8.276157635467985,72.62103448275863,60.103448275862064,12.147783251231527,35.19704433497537,11.20814326018867,3.83187684729064,629,21,111,14,7,194,100,145,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.9603,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,7,0,9,3,0,1,7,0,13,4,1,5,2,34,21,10,0,0,10,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,6,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,1,12,2,13,15,7,14,0,1,1,0,10,8,0,9,6,82,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635988631396607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235276188532646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835110637063278,0.0,0.0,0.5025421081200369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29911993285522176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300899483703635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396638221522132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673937637561155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140725140856938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27660357646769296,0.09756410756251,0.0,0.14683913008143876,0.15921300183455636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640612875760608,0.0,0.0,0.19808597807308628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952793531853536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998256007819845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636407800647598,0.1872699280565868,0.0,0.0,0.15692302718633644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306017384885171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899350437254655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23344993541239675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420675304819576,0.09365455194088704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601639919942172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15850619029904514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavender___cat,2019/04/08,"Thinking mean thoughts And I don't want to??? 

It feels like in my head I am getting brutal in regards to peoples' appearances or their size and I want it to stop before i get deeper in this mind space!! I want to be positive and lifting my fellow women up and instead I'm not helping us as a whole, I'm dishing up more shit! 

For those that can feel their minds getting darker (in this way at least), how do you get out??

I was thinking about maybe finding a local feminist group? Idk what to do and I'm bad at socializing! 

I dont want to be this way. I'm going to change!",1.3337954545454558,3.095481091666666,3.2178787878787887,91.42227272727276,79.75,5.696969696969697,24.24242424242424,6.574015621080383,0.6800833333333336,441,16,97,4,11,148,75,120,0.195,0.7559999999999999,0.05,-0.9312,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,2,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,9,3,2,1,0,24,29,8,0,4,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,8,6,1,1,7,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,2,13,1,19,25,3,16,0,0,0,0,9,11,1,2,2,63,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050748444817712,0.0,0.0,0.14319461274627754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801883086243275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19722390823505867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17017571266267065,0.120219876110276,0.0,0.0,0.1538056523884076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516792038522388,0.0,0.09563788767112047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270470578976593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279510959261135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221352533586421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906073687353662,0.1833071838212984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398313832203174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666475600513768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273787892846726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154113909979665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406903295165781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156551534172932,0.0,0.1335962013540081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20242114814120546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970256320663989,0.26714701901585164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187879564442504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,milovsflo,2019/04/08,"I only feel alive when I’m eating I’m not okay. I’m so, so far from being okay and nobody fucking notices. Every day it’s the same, it’s like I’m stuck in a haze and I’m so out of it most of the time. I’m physically present but my head is so cloudy and distant. Everything feels like a chore and I’m dreading every instant until I can finally eat again. Daily tasks are so agonizing and I just want to eat and eat but I can’t. But if I let myself, I’d eat until my body can’t take it anymore. I dread having to be a productive member of society. I dread having to pretend I’m okay. I don’t want to do anything other than eat. Nothing makes me happy or lets me feel any emotion. If anything, I feel like I’m suffocating. I’m constantly thinking about my next meal, and only when I’m eating I feel like I’m alive.",-0.7843673668783602,1.3189605730337064,2.410283341475332,91.5662994626283,92.1460674157303,4.893404982901808,19.53688324377137,6.498293943080001,0.2285331704934053,634,21,141,8,23,226,91,178,0.172,0.718,0.109,-0.9242,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,0,0,0,10,12,1,3,5,3,13,11,2,1,0,27,37,22,0,4,8,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,8,8,0,6,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,5,16,8,14,32,2,14,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,4,15,78,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069685022356222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016254887746851,0.0,0.0,0.16865277698643655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113824187171032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073669968545184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608648282300117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7339868438321757,0.0,0.11526811483982208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267551816933674,0.0,0.09209595098950843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590666496261897,0.21961978029686272,0.0,0.11225395067980644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473445837623076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908420798388616,0.0,0.0,0.1051666628652726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20957077476443528,0.0,0.2002521486006834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840139404720241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898099223194432,0.0,0.0,0.09832542153509924,0.11666596937532304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155870373876005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704679758320013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566043672893092,0.0,0.0,0.0597527175294499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088223249465435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thin42069,2019/04/08,My dad just made me step on the scale in front of him He just made me tell him the weight n didn’t make a comment just said I could leave straight away but it made me feel like pure shit. idek why I’m making this post can anyone tell me why I feel so gross rn?,0.5957627118644098,1.822814677966104,1.4120000000000026,105.95630508474576,80.18644067796609,4.7200000000000015,15.189830508474572,3.1291,-1.5661077966101695,202,2,56,0,5,62,45,59,0.179,0.748,0.073,-0.8311,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,5,1,13,12,2,0,1,4,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,5,4,9,1,4,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,1,26,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13870192604193946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863711269451734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583788889780563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200599339959646,0.14171251244033614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100406593431312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691147261901632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630953313227631,0.2648213214241789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18997952967743176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886912282576776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036195644895969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34676077116920834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24155601107786465,0.0,0.0,0.3579884231281801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Colgate_Grizi7,2019/04/08,"I am a land whale I went to my first psychiatry session last Thursday and of course I couldn’t tell them the whole truth, especially with my mum in the room, after Thursday I stupidly stupidly agreed to eat lunch with my mum at a restaurant and binged from Thursday through to Sunday, I was previously at my lowest weight and now i just feel disgusting and want to cry. Luckily I’ve been able to resist my urges to eat today but I’m meeting new people for the first time on Wednesday and have my football tournaments on Thursday and Friday and as I play in midfield I need to run a lot, i need to try and wake up tomorrow and burn maybe 3-5k cals and then Wednesday who knows if I’ll make it there bc let’s face it I’ll spend 2 hours in front of the mirror hating whatever I try and wear. I honestly don’t really know the point in this post and I’m sorry if this was triggering or annoying to anyone but I just needed to let my thoughts out, wish me luck with not eating until Saturday :) ✌️🤘",5.992962305986693,5.213159453658534,6.701596452328161,80.20884700665191,66.65853658536585,9.991130820399112,31.80709534368071,9.339509955726095,2.5443658536585367,788,27,165,13,11,261,129,205,0.094,0.784,0.122,0.7684,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,4,9,5,0,8,0,9,8,3,2,1,39,23,20,0,8,8,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,16,5,0,4,1,1,3,3,5,0,2,5,2,21,4,31,15,2,37,0,0,0,0,6,13,0,5,20,101,26,1,0.14904224478336808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421380295733036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371590740987638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575222745517586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536023718085914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535505145489337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714836041233215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677658883766542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381943988300948,0.12148932190186787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048115864240456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267103867137089,0.0,0.0,0.09948685572489596,0.0,0.1497329675241637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315388079983232,0.0,0.1439459287527889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332712636405257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408930960311593,0.0,0.14274127142072765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548027845301793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684059076667715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026949124352086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832289417769926,0.08690773149916489,0.0,0.1412746210023725,0.0,0.0,0.2023798016360283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790897752463916,0.0,0.0,0.18149330193162255,0.0,0.13816365410453654,0.0,0.16640034369521894,0.171391226041803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sisterberlin,2019/04/08,"What do you eat (if anything) pre- and post-workout? I’ve started exercising more (bodyweight and flexibility stuff, my EDS hates running) to build some lean ballerina-looking toned muscles but I’m noticing that if I eat absolutely nothing before I work out, my head starts pounding halfway through. I usually have some mio sport in my water and then a 120 cal protein shake afterwards but is there a low cal snack before exercise that helps you to not die? :’)

Also tell me about your exercise routines and workout playlists!! Just out of curiosity.",5.997448453608249,8.430497030927839,6.048028350515463,73.29719716494847,68.38144329896907,8.561340206185568,37.89819587628866,9.188382445141503,3.930650515463919,440,25,70,9,8,139,75,97,0.066,0.83,0.10400000000000001,0.6951,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,1,4,3,1,1,2,0,3,8,1,0,0,14,7,10,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,0,5,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,10,0,8,7,3,11,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,4,5,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720032708710614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699649899396558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660427185083392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322410903902204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401709798160329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235175285555952,0.2207391004244055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14416683616052736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061709723161384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637970728721586,0.2448755188042953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20599182421119505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044763171705532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462206861103377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879936326279667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368855670999133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658432701708253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smanzis,2019/04/08,"Tryna cope with recovery gain I’ve been doing better for 10 days, not recovered but doing much much better. It happened after my last binge, I understood that fasting after binges kept my weight under control, but unfortunately my binges were getting more frequent and more heavy. I decided to try and not fast the day after my last one, still restrict but just a bit, an healthy deficit, and I’ve been doing that ever since(wanna lose those dreaded last 8 pounds) . Unfortunately tho i gained 4 pounds in the process, and being an ex-obese it freaked me out to the point of sweating(I know it’s probably water weight due to refeeding normally but ya know).
But then a thought saved me: this is like when you want to grow out a pixie haircut, you have to get over that weird in between phase, there’s no avoiding it, there’s just post-poning it, this initial weight gain is just like that, my body adjusting to an healthy amount of food, and this way of thinking is giving me comfort.
Sorry about my English.",7.147258297258299,7.427663841269844,6.407205387205387,79.72878787878787,64.02645502645503,8.777489177489178,34.11303511303511,8.296473431620573,2.5891756613756614,802,32,146,9,11,245,117,189,0.151,0.667,0.183,0.7992,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,0,7,10,11,0,2,9,0,11,6,1,1,1,33,22,13,0,2,10,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,8,5,4,7,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,6,3,15,6,22,15,6,25,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,18,98,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574220620073001,0.1588830090243061,0.16165299741283046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322626368945944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771191435362156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316418249268781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597760346184926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15206869465959758,0.139607342323643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286932705364844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996091825532358,0.3558834684732968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219895113777034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281283383947276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396520365775554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259024298168646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861609907068884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13757457010642113,0.0,0.13937921449186996,0.0,0.15690787096074166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629109104533465,0.0,0.0,0.11622186579092746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325088693774992,0.0,0.11553597556437055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880652421088787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583841318081764,0.11551635131946013,0.0,0.5316554968367477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pomp-and-regrets,2019/04/08,"Got asked why I was doing this My mom saw me dressed for the gym and asked what my goal weight was. I'm 5'7 and 165. Saying my first goal (150) would be reasonable to her but would make her start questioning me when I started towards my ugw (118). 

So I said ""I'm just trying to be healthier!"" Y'know. Like a liar 😂",0.4115584415584443,2.4424275151515147,2.0325974025974034,97.28318181818184,84.45454545454545,5.58961038961039,18.51948051948052,6.868970318607317,-0.06399740259740216,240,6,57,3,7,78,49,66,0.09699999999999999,0.8540000000000001,0.05,-0.4753,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,2,0,7,1,0,2,0,9,17,5,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,4,11,1,4,8,0,5,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,1,5,33,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425867515555369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013467510184686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931987641585246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009049511411458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564532236988885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800681931083208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772337443367921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651711462169396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433789309090029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22516692121699905,0.18824255118795416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350913526632039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071162625588853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28825093682461106,0.0,0.0,0.21359538493496671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363062330215705,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,finnkat,2019/04/08,"Newbie gym questions I'm going to get a gym membership today for the first time in my life and im half excited and half nervous. I've downloaded a bunch of different workout apps but I just can't keep myself accountable using an app so I'm hoping spending money and going somewhere purely for excercise helps. That being said I only know the basics about excercise, like cardio is for weight loss and lifting weights builds muscle, so I have a few questions. First, how should you warm up? I've heard stretch first, walk a while then stretch, and warming up doesn't matter at all. Also, is there a way to get stronger without gaining? I've been temporarily working at a warehouse recently and have gotten stronger since I've started which feels great but I don't wanna gain a bunch of weight in muscle. What do you guys work on the most? Toning, weight loss, muscle gain? And what are the best excercises for that? I would also take any advice you guys have for me! Thanks",3.1657045840407503,5.7710549139785,3.7074646293152256,85.91803904923599,77.81720430107526,6.066327108092812,24.843237125070747,7.273561745256523,1.2933053763440867,778,28,140,10,19,244,116,186,0.092,0.711,0.19699999999999998,0.9766,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,11,8,11,0,1,12,0,14,6,0,2,2,26,31,16,0,4,4,0,7,1,0,2,2,2,0,2,5,7,4,1,4,3,3,3,4,3,0,5,4,9,11,8,19,24,6,22,0,2,0,0,10,9,0,4,10,90,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133688163660702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19859641760390465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443943675519085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303081042941436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973057461798454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278376970208903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31685523511057256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974675291908644,0.0,0.1411366409551114,0.0,0.0,0.13689718046419072,0.0,0.24589441734571585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322811843570238,0.0,0.0,0.123328212063351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341242386170345,0.0,0.0,0.11036745071268626,0.0,0.0,0.06824024426605996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770450564023559,0.060662887321828875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443640923030937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781962475318729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260228343346725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811351544942787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271419476049508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788772668257944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335992113857353,0.0,0.0,0.11431848297095565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240416436959454,0.0,0.11769805406100428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724247740244386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855987470866637,0.0,0.6048194165631363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969485190045827,0.0,0.18079357584904396,0.0,0.0,0.08820636538226405,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schizodepressive2,2019/04/08,"My fiance does the shoppping... ...so, on shopping days, I text him to get me protein shakes (125 calories), diet rockstar (cheaper than Monster, but tastes worse), cigarettes, and MGD 64 (I used to also have powerade zero, but we're trying to cut costs). Clearly, I'm living my best life haha What do your shopping lists look like?",3.4304999999999986,6.0338397166666695,4.043333333333333,83.885,76.83333333333334,5.333333333333334,28.33333333333333,6.42735559955562,1.5308333333333333,253,11,42,2,6,80,53,60,0.037000000000000005,0.73,0.233,0.9428,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,2,5,1,1,1,1,2,3,0,1,1,5,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,7,3,5,6,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28887832615712233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790923069748246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329657449442248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161178993960685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18872961184195347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551499275915541,0.17648045781308694,0.0,0.3189758281053023,0.0,0.3033451890734085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24525385719284234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311989790538416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681278315879421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghosttatt,2019/04/08,"Dae feel weird eating the ""appropriate"" amount of food I could eat two or three well balanced meals but I still feel disgusting and huge afterwards because it's""too much"" food even though it's really not. Trying to change this mindset but sometimes even one meal is too much🥺",5.9208,8.17394608,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,68.2,8.200000000000001,28.5,8.841846274778883,2.2876000000000003,224,8,39,4,4,66,44,50,0.113,0.8009999999999999,0.086,-0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,8,4,5,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,2,2,1,2,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,24,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775258338896364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216984113643951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732545205456462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288870625564731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768394397325829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119308669051568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5068283564271046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30811771034818297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201078553750554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13425659831942133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727115390105014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673637328300058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20590251913131574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422850046964521,0.0,0.2047204903896256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842956672435365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doesglitterhavecarbs,2019/04/08,How do people maintain low body weights for years? Do none of them experience extreme hunger or binges that would offset it? Do they lose their appetites or just get better at maintaining it? ,5.708725490196077,8.393756735294119,4.447647058823531,83.36107843137258,69.88235294117646,6.886274509803924,28.98039215686275,7.793537801064563,1.946403921568628,155,6,26,2,3,45,30,34,0.182,0.746,0.07200000000000001,-0.5329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,0,5,5,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,4,1,3,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32555361708131897,0.0,0.408874962848302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3600714157604755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231651399740055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118085804331488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25519347104405193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482453671264601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614869400743606,0.0,0.0,0.23704366179153644
EDAnonymous,plasticlash,2019/04/08,"Damn, progress is hard. Every time I take one step forward, I take two steps back. 
Last week I set and succeeded at staying at some strict goals in order to hit a certain standard by June. 
Then I went camping this weekend with my grandparents, and I binge ate and drank beer for about 48 hours straight. 
I had a great time but god I hate myself this morning. I ruined my progress from last week. I’m off the rails again. 

Why is progress so hard? Consistency is so hard to hem trying to recover. Fuck. ",1.8164842300556567,4.337580295918368,2.2131168831168857,95.0637012987013,82.77551020408163,5.196289424860853,24.215213358070503,6.574015621080383,0.6534775510204076,391,15,82,4,11,119,71,98,0.18100000000000002,0.645,0.174,-0.4215,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,5,5,7,3,0,3,0,4,4,0,0,1,8,13,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,4,0,2,4,3,11,3,12,8,1,24,0,1,0,1,0,6,2,1,13,44,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058442795558047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499877759742526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810455818421625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21590792019676613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5262869892247143,0.19334574972250915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285726005379628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192620557996689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270233649507518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20873322319624266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944859249023931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283850184440155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295858127934412,0.0,0.19130157825896985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31417279937080284,0.0,0.0,0.18154028500479485,0.17670992454242562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zagadatbae,2019/04/08,"Harsh reminder of how terrible this behaviour is So on Friday, I found the ""E"" part of my ECA stack hidden away in an old drawer after finally kicking the habit of doing the stack about a year ago. Spoiler, I became ravenous after stopping and gained all the weight I lost back. Heh. Anyway, I've been maintaing well at my goal and had actually started practicing proper healthy eating habits until I found it on Friday. I was planning a 48 hr fast throughout the weekend and thought it would be ok to take one with some coffee, and finally finish this heap of assignments that are due this week. 

Let me tell you, I haven't been able to focus on anything mentally tasking since I popped one of these. Yes it has killed my appetite and I completed the fast, but I did everything else but finish a single assignment. My mind has been racing, I've broken down crying thinking about random past events, I've cleaned everything in my house, gone on several walks... but have not been able to sit down for more than 10 minutes to finish a single assignment. 

What a mistake. Now I'm just chilling here waiting for the jitters to stop so I can finish a physics assignment. Like it has taken me 5 hours to do 1 H-R diagram question (which would usually take 10 minutes to finish but I just cannot focus and it's so freaking annoying. 

Not worth it. 🙄😒😒😒",4.675432546884451,6.060356329501919,5.500701754385967,80.0921052631579,69.99616858237547,8.406614236741277,30.59507965315588,8.841846274778883,2.58635938697318,1066,44,194,19,19,348,162,261,0.14300000000000002,0.8109999999999999,0.046,-0.976,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,13,10,2,0,14,3,22,2,0,1,1,31,34,15,1,3,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,13,7,2,3,5,1,1,2,4,6,1,2,13,1,19,4,31,17,6,40,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,3,28,130,32,5,0.26968691003862605,0.0,0.13158776069661474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953058688610782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11096467407391926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668986476574948,0.10368629352010786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413807970836587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811920357786498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797851819020732,0.1126444039344084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423772052303725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29542882775529483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956977768884081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279364104846436,0.15559124266346125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918430425889312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788656868083782,0.0,0.06587770091643359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719756000847053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589048714037125,0.0,0.13615345002144028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149552293212908,0.0,0.18274682979426332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460223213871508,0.12872333567090474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105552999604835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233472250832142,0.0,0.11154389942579153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544289149812388,0.0,0.0,0.2254703325727467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20277099339897856,0.0,0.11785912315274467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640224123630022,0.0,0.1070506411252468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851101516394172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816328598467084,0.164203001175237,0.12124046011029165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915778431959828,0.0,0.0,0.08683476401610414
EDAnonymous,dismyedun,2019/04/08,"How do you guys prepare shirataki noodles? I want to try these but it seems like it's something that should be flavored. Recipes online are all dishes prepared with coconut cream/milk or something else calorie-dense, and I want something lighter. How do you guys make these?",4.809183673469383,7.819410734693882,3.1626122448979617,89.84310204081629,74.3061224489796,4.736326530612245,34.289795918367346,5.6839178017228535,1.865600816326531,222,12,37,1,5,62,39,49,0.0,0.8240000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.7622,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,12,9,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22889873364581734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5426224957891909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386659069233547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829026351764347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494468205779116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6328348150957203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860336159787325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32323433136502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tropicgold,2019/04/08,my mom just commented on my weight loss dlcnsnfmem gosh when i began i thought id feel so confident at 51kg but now i just want to hide my body because im so embarrassed with that number ... not because it’s low or high but i feel so uncomfortable with people thinking im on a diet when in reality i have to starve myself to feel normal,3.3822535211267564,4.227137084507047,5.7367323943661965,79.22481690140846,72.52112676056338,9.060281690140846,28.284507042253523,9.3871,2.3820569014084514,267,10,56,6,5,95,49,71,0.21600000000000005,0.6829999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.8953,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,15,8,8,0,2,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,5,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,9,0,9,6,0,10,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,1,4,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002467522171662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735494864806507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3735632156793955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601968573883313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5320258416686826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884274291139417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129145991137466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17073200684879036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577993148530512,0.0,0.19551018101422524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525591372710842,0.0,0.0,0.2998894555455247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ladygreyinatracksuit,2019/04/08,"thanks mum hahahahahhaha wow i love when mother dearest tries to make me eat two sausages instead of one because im ‘wasting away’ and not eating enough,, the fact that she hasnt realised dinner at home is my only proper meal each day astounds me",4.28712765957447,6.451565744680856,4.8095212765957465,81.50875,72.40425531914894,5.5510638297872354,28.77127659574468,5.985473137389443,1.2738553191489363,198,8,35,1,4,63,45,47,0.0,0.6890000000000001,0.311,0.9559,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,1,5,5,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,4,5,2,4,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542106279433521,0.0,0.0,0.16493774335074654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449609435098762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537239433743322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27957246459495905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714050588468841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922634169432892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442011475829977,0.0,0.18060843306440136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833461044518218,0.20578165386132974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491056858728093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837001410439624,0.0,0.2643088288846302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,allroadsleadtoprozac,2019/04/08,"The vicious cycle of my mind Step 1: see beautiful girl/thing happens that reminds me that I'm an ugly and worthless POS
Step 2: binge because I am hopeless and not even losing weight would make me acceptable anyway and life has no meaning so I might as well eat
Step 3: feel overwhelmed with guilt and purge and swear I'll start restricting
Step 4: restrict for half a day until step 1 happens

Rinse and fucking repeat every day",11.981044176706831,7.570120759036148,10.412048192771085,69.69068273092371,58.27710843373495,12.512449799196787,44.53413654618474,8.841846274778883,4.195324497991966,345,14,62,3,3,107,66,83,0.23199999999999998,0.644,0.124,-0.8574,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,2,2,3,0,4,4,0,1,0,17,13,9,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,2,3,0,0,5,2,7,1,1,0,3,5,2,5,11,0,10,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397767024224914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046427169504884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416787137521685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599957553308533,0.0,0.19899810354119585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194234654986267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835148093645568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4177195435301089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16682617264143482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642333291739106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576569491642557,0.0,0.0,0.2572773611487892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250557547761717,0.2384819833239608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821080912211105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717468455674028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876126707171261,0.21236087210172666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778077969787109,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,studio__,2019/04/08,"dEADASS JUST WOKE UP AT 2AM Deadass just woke up at 2am in sudden, horrific realization that I'll be in Korea in less than two months and I STILL HAVENT LOST THE WEIGHT AHAHHAHAHA GUYS IM ACTUALLY DESPERATE NOW 

I legit made a new account just so I can finally post and keep myself accountable BECAUSE I'M LACKING DISCIPLINE

Im reach 52kg by June no matter what everyone REEEEEEEEEEEEE",3.4564726027397263,6.328714150684935,4.456421232876714,79.36490582191783,78.72602739726028,8.581506849315067,29.67294520547945,9.188382445141503,3.1928917808219186,315,15,56,9,8,102,60,73,0.131,0.805,0.064,-0.7863,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,10,9,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,4,0,9,4,2,15,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,0,7,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.2331177843779909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562238106228045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282653285715745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26168738415758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365341984922089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5160746571168264,0.0,0.0,0.2123324049057224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607717379896396,0.0,0.0,0.2260392322560751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906761237486108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307171005563455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22878627104817345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077426562852787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333564181008209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29089817791217004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stormyeyed94,2019/04/08,Death of the calorie | 1843 [Check it out](https://www.1843magazine.com/features/death-of-the-calorie). Does anybody else think this is bullshit?,8.333571428571428,12.442665095238096,3.314642857142857,80.64910714285716,88.5238095238095,4.0047619047619065,33.82142857142857,5.985473137389443,2.2942285714285715,121,6,15,1,4,30,17,21,0.3720000000000001,0.628,0.0,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6392187748323239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6101944367306454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680407111404231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,urjustassaneasiam,2019/04/08,"Going back to treatment In about a week I’m going back to eating disorder treatment for the second time. Im doing the entire step down process: inpatient, then residential, then PHP. I feel like such a failure for having to go back and I’m so nervous. I really really don’t want to gain weight back. I keep having nightmares and constant anxiety over it. I don’t know what to do. With my SO being deployed and me having to move, my weight is the one thing I feel like I have control over. I’m not ready to lose that. ",2.032,4.116783676190483,3.788809523809528,86.60035714285715,78.90476190476191,6.485714285714287,22.880952380952376,7.554174236665415,1.0695523809523817,406,13,81,6,10,136,64,105,0.11800000000000001,0.764,0.11800000000000001,-0.0132,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,8,4,0,1,5,0,10,3,0,1,0,11,21,7,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,2,3,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,0,4,9,2,15,20,0,18,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,11,58,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271423390676475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5111893360077434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960286533769365,0.18640713021653205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047929023784296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006381630206974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16807115515801427,0.23746624162355784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833654110728501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952422916000912,0.0,0.0,0.14772595705183644,0.0,0.0,0.09133902548766627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239358668297668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859349863951892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766440113850695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262123879702216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212943606532113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041571606328082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691239950699862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802890724631856,0.0,0.13331539894469466,0.4047729950196835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rabbittttttttttttt,2019/04/08,"I feel so broken Hey, this probably isn’t the right subreddit for this, but I’ve been a lurker for a while and I really need some help. 

For the last two years I’ve been dating a guy who in many ways is wonderful — he’s handsome, charming, does really interesting work. But at the same time he can be so cold, and condescending, and he just makes me feel like shit about myself. He never has time for me, never returns my calls or messages, and never seems interested in anything I have to say. He yells at me, and never apologizes. I hate being yelled at. 

I know I need to break up with him — this relationship is destroying my self esteem — but I keep thinking that if I were somehow better, or more interesting, I could make him like me more. I could make him want to talk to me and spend time with me. 

Because my brain is broken, the only plan I can come up with is: I’ll restrict heavily for a while! That’ll take my mind off him, so I don’t feel sad anymore, and I won’t have enough emotional bandwidth to realize how shitty he makes me feel. It’s not even a weight loss thing — heavy restriction is just the only hobby I can think of right now. 

I know objectively that this plan is garbage, but fuck me if I can’t come up with something better. ",4.167598039215683,4.905986726190476,5.222128851540617,84.02483193277314,70.62698412698413,8.627824463118582,25.93464052287581,8.841846274778883,1.6768671335200742,973,28,206,17,17,321,133,252,0.147,0.6779999999999999,0.17600000000000002,0.8112,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,6,10,15,4,0,10,0,24,4,2,5,4,56,47,21,0,7,11,0,5,2,0,2,0,3,0,2,10,13,1,3,11,0,1,2,9,6,0,1,3,9,33,9,25,38,5,29,0,2,0,1,21,11,2,8,16,138,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151712994838354,0.0,0.0,0.0955663767096385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079271951127243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20541785042049965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964122509669532,0.11858330441599467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000741074591562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18544319778380253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016275084981354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063237122123664,0.0,0.1199949427406574,0.0,0.07670379841547538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348784191849646,0.08296440782759222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736175351911977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498850002679906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465587016519653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784053499286114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322306416083082,0.0,0.0,0.12764573371479715,0.09466271917271686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347202585123453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100748654262636,0.11773917165882505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725976761215146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222015666393606,0.35827126547396465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664656501807208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520946074116462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14879369880805768,0.0,0.0,0.12468183165081925,0.0,0.19835143101538613,0.0,0.09235247564264454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572180828216783,0.12115054174437087,0.0,0.11920737483998815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940374657923544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731647843189116,0.0933421468718676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715264650182498,0.14882482562053612,0.0,0.0,0.20315173511681706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344365702756436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684974014333325,0.09217982480378788,0.0,0.14141695091820372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259397201853053,0.0845451569245441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747849154581171
EDAnonymous,teddypanda,2019/04/08,"DAE chew up food and then spit it out hello long(ish) time lurker here!

just genuinely curious does anyone else do this?? anytime i binge, i just chew food and then immediately spit it out 

i haven’t seen any other posts or any info online about it so i was just wondering if any of y’all have experienced this ",2.647759562841532,5.001157737704919,4.043852459016397,84.17812841530056,78.18032786885246,7.3453551912568305,21.642076502732237,8.344100000000001,1.2725715846994534,246,7,49,5,6,81,44,61,0.0,0.948,0.052000000000000005,0.4501,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,11,6,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,5,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,3,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5064052601920442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356493972984546,0.2543362100935789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172236809052134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073604325049488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6003101690925041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21967162796199166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377312742463109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474220066497567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691898088924079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OatmealCum,2019/04/08,"Attempting to recover brings back my depression and makes me a huge bitch Ive been trying to eat normal meals, but ever since, Ive gained like 5lbs and my waist has gained 2 inches. Im a healthy weight now, but I feel so disgusting and fat all the time that I lash out to everybody I talk to because Im in such a bad mood.  being thin and ill makes me happy. this disorder is fucked up",2.8807407407407415,3.929953061728393,4.242901234567904,88.68805555555558,73.93827160493828,8.362962962962964,23.37654320987655,8.841846274778883,1.3513358024691358,302,8,68,6,6,100,60,81,0.276,0.534,0.19,-0.905,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,3,0,4,0,6,7,2,2,2,13,11,7,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,9,2,7,9,1,11,0,1,0,1,1,6,2,0,5,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600714741737175,0.19111887299614475,0.13953307709907628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714807202733114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623350227035293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23421808772462974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20704983337042404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157368610758988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116109669849594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243664397621661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4944946264102367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118271839321525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055801528935422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426980229122084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934540799200664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839781981251861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347128967761682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540558166174506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787340626523607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whyisithowisit,2019/04/08,"i feel terrible about this but.. does anybody else watch body positive youtubers to fuel their self hate and as motivation for restriction? like sierra shultzzie and carrie dayton... they seem like such lovely people and i feel so terrible for thinking this, but looking at them feel confident and flaunt their larger bodies motivates me to ... not look like them and makes me lose motivation to recover. i feel like such a terrible judgy person for thinking this, i’m just trying to see if anybody else relates to this f’ed up way of thinking. positive, encouraging, women living their lives, and i’m just sitting there, miserable, using them and their bodies as fuel for my disorder. it makes me feel so mean but i can’t help it :(((",7.718797709923661,8.559920374045808,7.550448473282444,70.09529103053438,62.81679389312978,10.824809160305342,34.6956106870229,10.686352973137794,3.985571755725191,583,24,93,14,8,186,77,131,0.142,0.635,0.223,0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,8,4,8,12,1,1,1,0,1,4,3,6,0,31,21,15,0,1,7,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,7,0,1,13,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,9,16,6,15,21,0,4,0,2,4,1,14,2,0,2,4,58,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4788805250942967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647014575092697,0.0,0.12575956376287148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400986616637049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633146178939825,0.10266479903356472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188158725835634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632423217332302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28083326416690324,0.0,0.2537930377878652,0.0,0.24135652375470684,0.16077214075617022,0.0,0.0,0.12970179663146295,0.0,0.1918519915823453,0.0,0.0,0.15653979855344152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962881444479824,0.12548000766813722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145164192216535,0.13082607933885634,0.14991845716346744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27624624607619064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975680850425043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411729937323762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406847148353515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,omgitsjesiz,2019/04/08,I think I saw someone I know on this sub Context: I talked to my friend a few hours ago and she told me about something that was gonna happen at a certain time. Looking through EdAnon as usual and I saw a post about this exact event. I look through this persons post history and guess what she matches every description and even the type style is exactly the same. So I made a new acc and commented on her posts on this sub giving her advice to talk to someone (like me) and I made another account to get advice bc if I tell her I saw her account directly she’ll wonder why I’m on here especially since I am super disordered when visiting her ;-;,4.26991452991453,5.217953615384619,5.292564102564104,82.84465811965815,70.53846153846153,8.547008547008549,30.5982905982906,8.841846274778883,2.4091880341880336,510,21,102,9,9,168,84,130,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.8971,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,2,3,17,21,10,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,22,4,14,12,2,16,0,0,5,0,17,5,0,3,8,64,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30093457401330154,0.1364938098391258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146125521208987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647420100253058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170221145545816,0.0,0.12973462995923052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896441827008887,0.0,0.08044809478508655,0.1477114633368443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16962611916566475,0.0,0.13616383634379364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163909473969814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462327596432469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522675673042774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586085170737664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913988362140529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14871465879125673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444922971479853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424102784710207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737368897423246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609331845262553,0.11854117954186125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24752627522951545,0.13458513977468406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866404400924512,0.0,0.0,0.0897868647498657,0.0,0.0,0.14713430591203822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958700522500755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894282736184874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698453424104492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,riskyclickyhoe,2019/04/08,"The fact that fasting for weight loss is trending and “ok” is... interesting to say the least. How do you feel? Fasting for religion, or for a doctor’s appointment, typically for a short period, has always been excusable by society, but lately it seems that extended-fasts with nothing but water and some electrolytes (salt basically lol) for weeks on end is seen as acceptable.

It sort of feels invalidating in a way, like all those times not eating for a few days weren’t really disordered... as long as you sipped some diet gatorade.

But part of me is glad because people will get off my back more...

So what makes an ED an “ed”? Hating yourself? As if these people don’t dislike themselves enough to fast for weeks on end?

Anyway, I dunno. What do you think?",4.854622823984529,6.703105680851067,5.4771760154738915,78.62454545454548,70.20567375886526,8.815215989684074,27.711798839458407,9.339509955726095,2.4792638297872336,595,21,108,13,11,192,104,141,0.064,0.8370000000000001,0.099,0.6261,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,1,4,7,1,0,8,2,11,5,0,2,2,22,19,13,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,8,3,4,0,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,6,6,5,21,15,8,19,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,7,14,74,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312229693180338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074387207002482,0.0,0.11950512597015164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643059928599332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224680631907138,0.2006568614269604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005994754788161,0.0,0.0,0.3472692986465681,0.2025633546359244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198249023813104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242363285599684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935504710357593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114343823886676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577601225844157,0.0,0.0,0.17349062690019984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085927517957213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18810718075321486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229392417507845,0.0,0.27182109161792234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558925439211546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559001308541654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846888922724474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256155269641537,0.0,0.0,0.11431342028669267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560867912877813,0.31450545663462665,0.238725827323298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ipromiseimnotracist1,2019/04/08,"Does anyone know a good/big ED forum? I would really like to join a nice ED forum right now, I feel like it would help me. ",-0.706666666666667,1.164540555555554,1.905185185185185,97.43333333333337,87.88888888888891,5.0814814814814815,9.0,6.42735559955562,-1.4390888888888893,93,0,23,1,3,32,21,27,0.0,0.556,0.444,0.9109,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538269558369324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176749045382369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18355015412496464,0.25933638171583506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044778723605755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24331979489112585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19950231424450093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546993871321036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23255526364502055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100109057283027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157476856691136,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinemergency,2019/04/08,"Just had a breakdown because I couldn't eat what I planned I just called my dad sobbing because the place I'd planned to order from was randomly closed. I've been fasting all day!!! And I was furiously trying to find an alternative to order from before it was too late, and could barely think because I'm so hungry and feel so out of control. I'd been looking forward to this all week.
Can anyone else relate because I feel absolutely insane and I thought my ED was improving lol ",4.525136778115503,6.015704765957447,5.4641641337386035,79.80500000000002,70.48936170212765,7.499088145896658,32.577507598784194,7.957251820313856,2.4480231003039514,384,18,70,5,7,126,62,94,0.102,0.8370000000000001,0.061,-0.5816,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,0,3,1,10,1,0,1,2,19,16,6,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,8,3,8,0,8,6,2,10,0,1,1,0,2,4,1,1,5,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488731794003874,0.22696665292970294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401300442898882,0.0,0.18849158599727475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261899454789757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484461109066257,0.17686042315459186,0.0,0.0,0.1428578160090743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226663506471604,0.18504601959110506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400765896716435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20245923221570447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24987676076800855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860154642832228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23143435361187625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193684076696492,0.0,0.17585689428866366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039305634722847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768468595219628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImDemandingARefund,2019/10/06,"Do you ever notice how thin you are out of nowhere and get mildly creeped out by the sheer difference? Like today, I was dressing infront of my full length mirror. I was bending over to pull my trouser socks up before putting on my pants. Oddly I noticed the actual size of my legs despite dressing in front of mirrors all the time. It mildly weirded me out especially since by the time I had to walk to get my belt and come back I was back to seeing myself the way I usually do. 

It happens infrequently but not “rarely” whether I’m in relapse, remission or post-recovery. 

Sometimes it makes me wonder whether I was perceiving myself as thinner as I actually am lol. Logically/Rationally I (kinda) understand that’s probably what I do look like because that’s how other people who are only in the normal weight category by <5 pounds look like but it still creeps me out how different I literally can *see* myself.",5.6528998073217736,6.957831086705205,6.675274566473987,72.88185211946053,67.61271676300578,9.466088631984585,34.06984585741811,9.725611199111238,3.5113626204238924,730,34,125,16,12,244,110,173,0.0,0.9279999999999999,0.07200000000000001,0.899,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,0,7,4,0,0,6,1,12,2,1,4,2,24,24,12,0,1,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,7,1,0,3,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,5,6,24,3,23,19,2,27,0,0,4,0,3,13,0,3,11,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.29604267229521497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23327068757442915,0.0,0.09246492915737352,0.0,0.12907159177870065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306620108688568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169542051961029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720652172709086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849686579027608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13413332753327153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22231487017547136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25475208289495466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012499966912426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14861774578562048,0.0,0.34538562196789585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536223098258425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515832595418848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527098231968527,0.0,0.1635406013102976,0.0,0.0,0.15248393715993613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24174441915675896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254742610157114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001898242226336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113473785906205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689588162412595,0.0,0.1437783394079794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790800172699845,0.0,0.0,0.16705808185221122,0.0,0.0,0.12039940023584145,0.0,0.18470978991309056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449441955933689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kkaylabayla,2019/10/06,what the f*ck is it even like to eat like a normal person u all know the guilt after eating the slightest thing .. 🥺,2.2324999999999977,3.783030583333337,3.3483333333333327,92.43000000000002,76.5,4.800000000000002,16.166666666666668,3.1291,-0.9169333333333336,90,1,19,0,2,29,21,24,0.08,0.728,0.192,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7215237400267889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328657651179123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376042686001127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444907640192709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454387064983582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078460369641277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342284271399853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lugwen-png,2019/10/06,"go and donate you blood as long as u can so i really want to donate some of my blood but you have to weigh 50kg/110lbs which i dont. so. pLEASE go and donate your blood as long as you can. it also helps to loose weight so you kinda get something back?

but watch you health first!! dont do it if your body's already weak. do it after a binge when you've got too much energy anyways.

loose weight and save lifes guys ☆",-0.5751498127340824,1.6152000898876435,0.8260955056179817,102.34977996254685,93.04494382022473,3.865543071161049,11.911048689138575,5.46131890053228,-1.483023220973783,324,4,78,2,12,102,57,89,0.139,0.74,0.121,-0.4134,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,7,0,1,8,2,0,0,1,0,7,10,4,0,0,10,12,15,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,3,3,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,0,1,1,3,10,1,9,11,2,8,0,0,1,0,9,0,0,3,6,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111118921692572,0.15298803770419225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710317713323204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249880952702815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44842046217028425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272552895876574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999499455582901,0.0,0.2174482098760587,0.0,0.1530055830369568,0.0,0.0,0.18942388209220712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20335026072879145,0.0,0.0,0.12822896480122478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512570244320554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386011261273736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406325641502532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20999749884172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255608192346246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472773777088993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128377506420747,0.0,0.0,0.4659204673567557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CaterpillarTears,2019/10/06,"Oof Been at my friends place for about a week now. She doesn't know about my ed so I tried to eat like I used to around her. Which is a lot. I'm trying to act normal but on the inside I'm dying. I probably gained so much. I want to go home and starve for a week. 

I hate it.",-2.2696875,-0.573443593749996,0.4362500000000011,106.18375,94.3125,3.825,11.125,5.148860815047168,-1.844275,206,2,59,1,8,70,47,64,0.13699999999999998,0.723,0.14,-0.4277,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,4,0,3,1,0,1,0,8,10,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,9,2,11,9,2,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201802361604756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566942705760353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25308504775544544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19109010204787616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056595567676294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24419171629562425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24809677494078616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359286303820322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083519450086284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21027503614311216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18181939313569406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24233539849283497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25841201941985403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26666853664606843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358479222370459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21361768599853076,0.0,0.0,0.14588435806815844,0.0,0.3967938017870256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,songerch,2019/10/06,Tw suicide I tried to off myself earlier in the week and since then I've been talking to my family more. My dad told me he thinks my meds are making me put on weight and I can't handle it even though it's true!,2.938439716312054,2.952676319148935,4.5795744680851085,90.13333333333335,73.04255319148936,7.9687943262411345,22.04964539007092,7.793537801064563,0.6127645390070922,165,3,40,2,3,56,39,47,0.10099999999999999,0.84,0.059000000000000004,-0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,5,6,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,8,1,5,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195467116989554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789880892795887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754380241867991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287252117327399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975037801354337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448065524614623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237128741840077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23786723369071636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18962789458579268,0.29076183533937305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28278557737636795,0.0,0.20092541500391767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373870850949281,0.3603780289954658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Psikogwack,2019/10/06,"My friend may have an eating disorder and I want to help her So I just made some news friends and one of them is a girl who told me that her eating schedule goes like nothing in the morning some food at lunch and then barely anything in the evening.

However she does this for quite some time and looks healthy. She does not have any of the visible malnutrition symptoms like purple nails.

Could she have an eating disorder and if so what can I do to help her out ?",6.6099999999999985,6.110595652173918,6.079478260869568,84.24813043478264,65.30434782608695,9.53391304347826,32.53043478260869,8.841846274778883,2.34898,368,13,77,5,5,113,65,92,0.052000000000000005,0.7490000000000001,0.19899999999999998,0.9231,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,6,0,8,6,0,1,0,17,12,9,0,3,3,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,4,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,12,4,9,8,3,7,0,0,2,0,14,4,0,5,5,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775841678126192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250037764329385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825848915388814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969251240319718,0.0,0.30307643417165875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315743351528822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437412003271992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20939230093073047,0.0,0.26757433216297305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23213824808155584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919974464324009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454153314366856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385329774828755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661568810315472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173413632587687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418272870885155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799851646675502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097414303287107,0.0,0.0,0.16546696993589555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213744528047723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fei010817,2019/10/06,"opening up abt ed i've started b/ping almost every other day/everyday for about 3 months now, and i havent told anyone. honestly i dont see myself stopping in the near future bc its the only thing that gives me a sense of control and relief in my life but i really want to tell someone, just to lift the burden of this off my shoulders.

is it weird that i'd rather tell someone im not really close to but trust (friend w benefits for about 1.5 months) rather than my really close friends that i've known for years? i feel like if i told my close friends, they'd actively try and stop me from purging but w the fwb, he'll probs just be concerned, but not enough to actively try and stop me and kinda be a venting outlet for me...does that even make sense

how would i even start the conversation about my ed...im terrible at talking about myself so if someone could give me a script that would be gr8 lmao",3.83797920997921,4.781353421621624,4.63027027027027,87.21239085239088,71.54054054054055,7.854469854469856,25.582120582120577,8.139509932561175,1.3535738045738044,713,21,151,10,13,230,112,185,0.084,0.69,0.226,0.9849,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,13,11,0,0,8,0,10,2,1,3,0,35,21,13,0,8,12,0,1,1,3,3,1,0,0,0,10,9,0,4,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,2,18,8,22,11,1,20,0,0,1,0,13,10,0,4,11,90,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303652039714317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103098468026842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460177270586396,0.10394510464029157,0.0,0.0,0.0839609584150269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525802179849878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13451975622233225,0.0,0.17197685216579708,0.0,0.10968961715770817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582733190459436,0.09300685229892146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017504616817324,0.0,0.0,0.24977777896795866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812523304602008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195614773854616,0.06360363573218462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690198594028042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20783079900501436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901439311113602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502066958064043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374355951222944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309254567198557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429650153619026,0.0,0.0,0.32653081471899364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046407669830767,0.2275813707048137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649160508175938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488018147710961,0.0,0.17677919910348305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678868402470672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849646721650427,0.0,0.0,0.08383727152798609
EDAnonymous,69jellybeans_69,2019/10/06,Extreme whiplash and can’t move my head Crying not due to pain but due to the fact I may not be able to do my workout tonight :(,2.2232142857142883,2.8752920357142884,2.934285714285714,98.96071428571429,75.07142857142857,5.6000000000000005,28.285714285714285,3.1291,0.39901428571428577,99,4,25,0,2,31,23,28,0.18600000000000005,0.7559999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.6186,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,1,6,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,15,3,0,0.4255609756231503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674587489180857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367483353337918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523039689164048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528268823427339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,certainly_cerulean,2019/10/06,"I want to get worse at the same time I wish I was normal (I think) Anyone else feel this way? Like I wish I could have a normal relationship with food and exercise, and just love myself however I am but...well, that's not how it is. But at the same time I feel like I'm not sick enough to *really* have an ED. Like I'm a fake. I'm not underweight enough, not lightheaded enough, not deathly thin enough for people to worry. I want to be worse so I can just get to my ugw and then stay there, but we all know that's not how this is. I wish I could just be content with a healthy bmi but again, I feel like I'm better off in the double digits. Idk why. I know that's bad at my height. I just feel so powerful when I lose weight yknow? Being smaller than everyone else makes me feel on top of the world. My self esteem goes up and I become more extroverted, wear clothes that make me feel good, etc. Why can't I do that at a healthy weight? Why tf do I feel fat when I'm still underweight and objectively am not? This whole ED business is a bunch of damn contradictions, I tell ya.",0.6725743707093805,2.619234991228076,2.353279938977881,95.84694508009157,82.85964912280701,6.070480549199085,17.80778032036613,7.255503002510835,-0.04359176201373005,830,18,200,12,23,272,119,228,0.10400000000000001,0.705,0.19,0.9551,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,1,0,4,13,11,1,0,10,0,17,8,2,4,1,48,42,15,1,9,14,0,10,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,9,8,4,0,10,1,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,10,28,7,19,36,12,21,0,1,0,1,6,12,1,0,11,124,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697776588678759,0.1022498284116678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332307377281943,0.0,0.11021364341030516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825889119836992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15935334717186853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672866702856898,0.0,0.0,0.4124518126938951,0.11129569046782033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535658774747424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532087440521553,0.1425844273767538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067021789957368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427555643042706,0.0,0.0,0.08370172127834186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968736067297592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19501548016711773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116429576819162,0.0,0.0,0.0900671728602282,0.0,0.13322534412167486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955521083645567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918397343373818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393001799610325,0.0,0.0,0.10714044754685992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410597190606112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636617134375503,0.07969490204318326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722357176240793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394339179954955,0.0,0.0,0.11638032332459135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772111699348695,0.07921112124762471,0.0,0.24304223336278066,0.0,0.0,0.27014326455856713,0.11141543719133204,0.3442714351933377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134474154159404,0.2033953977953663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkpong,2019/10/06,"Hewp mr Obama I have binged/eaten like a normal human being for a couple of days now and tomorrow im going to meet my therapist and she’ll probably weigh me :))). In the past I used to almost plan to binge before I had to weigh myself at my therapist to make it look like I weighed a bit more, but now my parents have taken away the scale we have at home which means that these weigh-ins at my therapists are now the only way I’ll know my weight. And a couple of days ago my parents got to talk to kind of their own therapist about how to handle/help me and I just know that now they’ll be even more focused on what/how much/how little I eat which means I won’t be able to restrict and I just kinda wanna die.
Also we’re taking out school photo tomorrow and I legit look 7 months pregnant



(English isn’t my native language, sry)",1.9648275862068976,3.6135290459770135,3.650091954022991,89.55410344827587,77.5057471264368,6.249195402298851,20.220689655172414,7.0316486544052195,0.3676234482758618,650,15,138,7,15,217,107,174,0.052000000000000005,0.902,0.046,-0.4576,2,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,1,0,2,1,10,3,0,0,7,0,12,5,0,3,0,23,24,9,1,2,3,2,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,6,8,5,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,23,3,22,15,4,21,0,0,2,0,10,8,0,2,13,87,29,1,0.12164168012720268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782800999376832,0.0,0.12180657154310387,0.0,0.0,0.09727680764979542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428636267875697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350811045516774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280120977996682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26918841079803324,0.0,0.15689764103385584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262448592274954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446980664886348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034318249400928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913177004990786,0.0,0.09728796377668024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153385409269369,0.0,0.12201652322394785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313938883544897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12667109112641914,0.13370217238629695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885596110311185,0.12191691990344433,0.0,0.0,0.20429675013372228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08119676604803401,0.0,0.0,0.2650069002780124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709322854821098,0.0,0.08942063116459477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918301955050782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251397912077496,0.0,0.0,0.2701373809179151,0.0,0.11612074772441935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115030496683042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310787442809056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914594049617794,0.09777097478129627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5649414646374361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050593557731925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655350373081828,0.0,0.1481267959355097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wishiwasskinny666,2019/10/06,"Am I faking? or how to stop eating so much TW: body image issues, eating issues??  


I sometimes feel like I have issues with eating. Like, maybe, my eating habits are disordered. But then again, I'm a fat cow and I think I'm just faking for attention. I'm 165cm and I weigh around 66kg (which is around 5'5"" and 145lbs). My BMI is VERY close to 25 which would be officially considered overweight. I really wanna lose weight before reaching that limit. My problem is that I will commit to my goal (UGW being 49 kg) for a day or two and then I'll start feeling so bad and so sorry for myself that I'll start binging. I'm already pretty depressed as is and it so happens that food is the rare source of happiness for me therefore I tend to turn to it when I feel down. However I don't care much about my health, I just wanna get skinnier. Being healthy is not gonna make me happier, being skinnier will. So I guess what I'm looking for is some advice how to control the binging impulses( I am a smoker and I tried drinking water). I really wanna lose the weight this time and I wanna stop relying on food. Or maybe I'm just looking for some kind of validation, I'm not sure. I've been a skinny girl for the most of my teenage years and puberty really fucked me up, especially since I got bullied in HS and was generally seen as an ""ugly girl"". I just wanna feel normal and attractive, I wanna stop worrying about my weight every time I take a bite. I never talked about this with anyone too much, not even my therapist. I used to dismiss it as some dumb insecurity but lately it's been torturing me quite a bit and I suppose something needs to be done about this, whether it is losing weight or whatever else the solution could be.",3.193802642444261,4.831433760115608,4.746626754748141,83.04105491329481,74.11560693641619,7.601816680429398,25.073905862923198,8.306716005460428,1.6128194880264246,1355,44,266,23,28,455,181,346,0.14300000000000002,0.794,0.062,-0.9733,1,0,3,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,7,21,19,3,1,12,0,27,19,3,6,3,67,57,32,0,11,14,0,8,2,0,4,3,0,0,2,15,17,16,5,6,1,0,0,5,12,0,1,6,11,36,7,39,40,8,22,0,4,3,1,3,7,2,9,17,177,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134368773045783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186025921017224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058205148830494026,0.0,0.0,0.14820709288907938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695040789365598,0.0,0.0,0.07083330618788618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087933991936237,0.09246374292053464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487136019035144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336363398890912,0.06646242822748304,0.0,0.0,0.053684578911919016,0.0,0.07169671391194636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540321078692272,0.0,0.0,0.08518606260730036,0.0,0.08154603959158273,0.0,0.3407117717340482,0.06953849581771697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05498094034063443,0.0,0.07013546556976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683598025036741,0.059468517223321964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20131452118656148,0.0,0.0,0.0769564257186733,0.043490813391346035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657669719103176,0.0,0.09170108893989286,0.0,0.0736111403619655,0.08861327644322624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848297208205833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26065088556193816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668433945374296,0.0,0.0,0.09390125830324034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133624165343739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13980560742319634,0.2793814699368241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05556506988346253,0.0,0.16725672439271544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357862738319025,0.061723319800315125,0.06420181099145368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156005629988257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468763215648048,0.0,0.07965190883095602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853873250364368,0.0,0.0,0.1599819887585442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885912404693294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408420649883248,0.08232904211897114,0.09318325539389526,0.11783905599318947,0.0,0.0,0.2087835777588939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845514841252554,0.0,0.06258806200723338,0.06690723424973795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665105363948444,0.0,0.053338485366307184,0.0,0.0,0.09707883798273184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056516249000787076,0.09054402552186447,0.08131590700725345,0.0,0.0,0.07189486391607759,0.0,0.06868384802983174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40546815684264703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453688272611429,0.0,0.05913314191625694,0.0,0.0,0.05360549360163838
EDAnonymous,absolute_boy,2019/10/06,"How many calories is REALLY in my coffee? I've been drinking '2 calories a cup' Beanies brand coffee with '0 calorie' sweetener, the occasional splash of '0 calorie' Skinny Syrup, and almond or oat milk. It's so sweet that despite the calorie counts on the containers I feel like I'm drinking pure, caffeinated sugar. It's driving me crazy that I have no idea how to log it.",5.239718309859157,6.545951563380285,6.069126760563383,76.84171830985915,68.5774647887324,8.496901408450704,33.91830985915493,8.841846274778883,3.070507605633803,295,14,51,5,5,97,55,71,0.065,0.845,0.09,0.4149,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,3,5,1,2,1,9,5,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7127581437954179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394489315988252,0.25989410499057514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106785107191041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773109802313325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688294467694036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330553920201448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nervousnever,2019/10/06,"Do I Have An Eating Disorder? Hi. fyi I’m an “underweight” male with a BMI of 16.2 . Anyways, I posted a bit ago about this but I feel like it’s getting worse. I’ve been going through a starve binge type of thing (skipping breakfast and lunch), then (eating a big dinner + snacks). I’ve been gaining/losing weight but now I’ve been on a slow increase of weight for the past week or so. All I want to do is be skinnier. I’ve thought about it, and I’d probably rather die SOMETIMES than to be fat. I know that’s just my voice cause I don’t want to die, but I want to be the skinniest person tbh. I think I’m fat. This sounds bad, but should I be concerned?",0.9602545655783068,2.709486741007197,2.4174100719424447,96.7751134477034,80.87050359712232,5.4280022136137225,21.483674598782514,6.297961479604792,0.06973226342003347,503,15,119,4,13,163,88,139,0.183,0.722,0.094,-0.9549,0,0,0,0,0,1,23.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,9,0,13,10,2,1,1,20,24,9,2,5,7,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,0,2,6,3,10,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,5,10,1,14,15,3,11,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,7,66,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572870046521184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466845014468809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917958035248673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804705716794008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646538198942496,0.0,0.2013431819373465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35952664317377137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882850500215951,0.1255050053774584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178494812731468,0.0,0.09984233884455616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654850143435402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858278121157994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770534058096426,0.0,0.1533959953694001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682517759595268,0.0,0.1894115133839628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737508745183622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671322158074045,0.11256791333109893,0.0,0.1394693831988537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108598118278817,0.0,0.14091897650004362,0.42785902172256896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903175657890635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vichii-peachii,2019/10/06,"going a lil crazy So, I've had my binge ED for over a year now, I managed to ''control'' it for 2 orso months by doing intermittent fasting, but that made me binge for 8 hours and my family noticed it wasn't helping me mentally, so I quit and my binging exploded again. I told my psychologist I want a dietitian and she said they will just tell me to exercise, but exercise always triggers me to stop eating entirely and if I eat 1 chocolate that I should just give up so I do. But recently I went to my doctor for my 4 year hairloss and she said she's sure I have PCOS since even the hospital said about a year ago that I might have it, and that weightloss might be harder for me. I'm pretty devastated at this point, knowing I kept blaming myself for not being able to lose weight unless I exercise like a psychopath which hurts like shit, and now finding out my body makes it harder to even process food. So my binging has gotten worse, and when my binging stops I just don't eat. Life truly is amazing. 

On the good note, I've been binging on less food cause my mom buys less food, and have lost 3 kgs after hitting my heaviest weight in my life 6 months ago, which was a nice surprise seeing that I didn't need to starve myself, I hope this can help me start a new beginning and actually succeed this time.",5.196136363636363,5.34635528030303,5.952575757575757,81.77386363636364,68.16666666666667,9.024242424242424,30.51515151515152,8.841846274778883,2.273156060606061,1030,37,210,16,16,338,153,264,0.142,0.7020000000000001,0.156,0.6209,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,5,14,13,1,0,9,0,20,16,2,5,1,37,41,20,0,5,9,1,2,2,0,4,6,3,0,0,14,11,8,4,2,3,1,2,4,4,0,0,14,6,39,9,24,20,2,31,0,3,1,0,13,8,1,4,23,136,53,3,0.10249207570882456,0.0,0.10001748123214793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170608219578094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852816174587415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384559092797293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052875944945752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495357798553713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490498244908787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314624941874636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13539009875978225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966204074171336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367590039735772,0.0,0.3718014743340464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831973819903604,0.058248608556136575,0.08596549040096625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739655581478338,0.0,0.0,0.1017977571209324,0.10093404911673567,0.0,0.10971988683782656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632696441022837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478636824784205,0.10014490223323573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466241626053185,0.11188220787120608,0.0,0.0,0.09698048019040613,0.06841425639965135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328790592101914,0.21745579127728545,0.0,0.12003748034685255,0.163616393998689,0.0,0.0,0.07599657546571766,0.0,0.09898748538813107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668790750740066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688813991137434,0.0,0.0,0.10427128756220994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901293851530312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011985600263205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924803033448027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167291464615807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520664286440444,0.08478250415022613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254441871052464,0.0,0.0,0.1713759291678637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659756841167404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958259169061393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05976395356525518,0.0,0.0,0.0979355705411938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060452481731180376,0.0,0.0,0.24961547337478385,0.0,0.09501118100624736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444818129028477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800460926535374
EDAnonymous,HockeyPossum,2019/10/06,When you watch Joker and can only think about how much weight Joaquin Phoenix lost for the role It’s a messed up thought but I highkey wish I had that much self control lol,1.6504285714285702,4.16920082857143,0.9710714285714308,103.68517857142858,83.57142857142857,3.5,23.035714285714285,3.1291,-0.4554285714285711,139,5,31,0,4,39,33,35,0.08900000000000001,0.687,0.225,0.7311,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,2,0,7,6,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,3,0,3,3,2,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35249795435265296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430797900698694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620720641838604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390283133850477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278683585596941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20138148202463604,0.0,0.2495076106015693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827151154462141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614128574605431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maybethrowaway6,2019/10/06,"[tw] fuckfuckfuck (tw small binge and numbers) i ""binged"" for three days on junk (and dried fruit lmao) and went like 1841+ kcal over my tdee in total and my brain is just going batshit over it even though i logically know 1lb of fat is 3500kcal and alsdkgnguaowkdbf i hate my life

 

i weighed myself this evening and i gained like 3 pounds???? im trying to tell myself its the water/dried apples/bread but like fuck, dude, i was so close to my old LW and now i had to ruin it and binge until i pretty much got back to square 1 lmao

 

sad part is i cant even fix it cause its too late to purge and i hate doing cardio :( i guess ill just do some bodyweight training and dry sob",1.4531891348088517,3.5179147816901413,2.5755734406438653,94.66253521126764,80.76056338028171,5.465593561368209,18.593561368209254,6.5431188927421005,-0.16510020120724356,537,12,120,5,14,171,97,142,0.20199999999999999,0.684,0.113,-0.9539,0,0,0,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,0,1,10,9,3,0,1,0,8,8,2,1,1,20,16,14,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,11,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,6,0,1,4,2,17,3,12,12,4,14,0,3,1,1,1,6,2,2,9,70,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882806122709913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777754445327167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20002295456396102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406612802190808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555559290189896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550379990754874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564804235724154,0.0,0.0,0.10183152052300196,0.0,0.14330576626077998,0.0,0.19738580271971626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35380421453806704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935440019676609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847205923916086,0.0,0.2021216482906268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265593839505353,0.2626133375497621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171713715768452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880181559092928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940333306657017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18228939750754594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661029079269578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604239836057978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165073833572247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610067207404636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icetesseracts,2019/10/06,"Halloween Relapse: Engage Anybody else have really predictable relapses? Around this time of year, every year, I start restricting again. It usually lasts through Thanksgiving and starts to ease up around Christmas/New Years. 

I think Halloween itself is a trigger for me. It has always been a Thing for me to fast on Halloween. A masochistic exercise, because I absolutely love candy.

I feel powerless to stop it. I don't want to stop it. But I also don't want this relapse. And I feel like I'm gonna tear my hair out.",3.1964488636363626,6.1045958229166635,3.7928030303030313,83.4143181818182,80.35416666666666,6.824242424242425,28.518939393939394,8.00094639256281,2.345241666666667,413,19,71,8,11,130,67,96,0.162,0.716,0.122,-0.2385,4,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,6,3,1,1,0,15,16,4,0,2,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,10,3,13,14,0,17,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,13,45,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660156666040105,0.17273777199042362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36961162288690536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654952504837005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342109470790731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490986933107702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099350935885171,0.1483077141121734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921969142867913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142166508706844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736487243661204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004989843110406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329922910459149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29387719491738984,0.0,0.0,0.34712165481109863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379185718310491,0.13302011229195976,0.0,0.0,0.12105178691287988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286393458205897,0.0,0.2448927990979496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.401058001331631
EDAnonymous,Teatris,2019/10/06,"Afraid of weightloss, yet it's all I desire For many years I've wanted nothing more than to be skinny.

But when I realized that, for the first time in my life, my clothes start becoming a lot more loose, while I'm starting to fit perfectly into my previously more snug ones. On one side I'm over the moon, yet on the other I just want to curl up and hide.

I've not been anywhere near skinny since I was 11. I don't know what I'd look or feel like and neither does anyone around me. I've only now realized that my ED is slowly pushing me out of my ""comfort zone"" (not that I was ever comfortable to begin with). I'm terrified of the future, yet I'm enjoying every second of this ride. It feels like I'm only months away from meeting a new person.",3.2630244755244746,4.086971980769235,4.842191142191144,85.60583916083918,72.78205128205127,7.724009324009327,25.079254079254078,8.00094639256281,1.3026743589743592,583,17,124,8,11,197,105,156,0.052000000000000005,0.79,0.157,0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,9,7,0,1,6,0,6,3,2,0,3,23,20,6,0,3,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,6,2,0,5,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,3,3,13,6,23,16,6,30,0,0,1,0,2,12,0,2,18,80,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137354111424291,0.0,0.0,0.1748715874762249,0.0,0.0,0.18456009420487565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695048677572454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719043357344522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768953942645574,0.1655076010666662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19865004674935216,0.2806708858254869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709017730261658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107957261709223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875006413466376,0.1919395006004398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495855921328645,0.0,0.0,0.16700467770488908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991574367318698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679504524859764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897211748915732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18848768852321088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662231283049715,0.2988001070572497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152220253258754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624956552291531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780798460658181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114544656247275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23172860314978946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649971847947702
EDAnonymous,little_tiny_pumpkin,2019/10/06,"Comparing days on mfp ""Oh fuck yeah, that thing I ate with dinner last night no longer exists!  And neither does that other thing!  At this rate, I'll only eat half the cals of yesterday cause I'm literally running out of food!""  


Bonus points for the anxiety that ensues when your roomie cooks another meal prep for the week.",3.4198907103825142,5.965067737704921,3.656967213114754,86.95189890710384,76.54098360655738,7.3453551912568305,21.642076502732237,8.344100000000001,1.2725715846994534,256,7,49,5,6,79,52,61,0.124,0.7909999999999999,0.085,-0.3769,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,3,1,0,7,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,6,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,8,2,1,11,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,6,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29410488075163693,0.21456434960826384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881274250423536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088464069882412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24544755566709944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28699827613945456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391542373093125,0.0,0.0,0.25929672352328736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228626415988253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26320892490745595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21331560834963614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651416855311089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726732806298833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22498195390376735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BabyBaphomet_,2019/10/06,"Fiance cried to me about wanting me to recover so I felt ~~~brave~~~ and ate 3 cookies when he went to work. Big regret :( They weren't even that good??? I just had 480 calories in COOKIE. I could've had pasta. Or a bunch of rice. Or a cheeseburger. I could have had so many things that weren't these LAME ASS COOKIES...    
    
I'm still kind of hungry like what the FUCK. Why am I hungry. I normally don't eat until midnight. I NEVER eat before 9PM. E v e r. But my dumb fucking ass was feelin like a ~recovery queen~. Gross. Gross gross gross gross I hate myself.     
     
Edit: I ate a lot last night too. I had a double cheeseburger, a frappe, medium fries, and a breakfast burrito. All from McDonald's. My TDEE is 1500 and even though im too scared to count i KNOW I went over. This is so fucked.",-0.5728269230769207,1.5877005250000025,1.19125,97.48259615384615,100.0,4.211538461538462,16.153846153846153,6.093298490706669,-0.4002644230769232,604,16,132,7,26,195,106,160,0.29,0.645,0.065,-0.9906,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,1,2,12,18,5,1,8,0,13,11,2,0,2,16,25,12,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,0,2,0,0,2,4,13,0,0,12,1,18,5,11,12,4,11,0,2,0,5,2,3,6,3,8,78,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394386069940693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26166866713524795,0.0,0.1800000233590857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33535336266148913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164649977508237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733785909377654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544767445835892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744372636369842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178457384204747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700430120033744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17064209186522608,0.09005692688062872,0.13357334132148282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16011411643281304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393137229554913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613525050129327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638420501506706,0.0,0.0,0.1537779237519543,0.16055470581378034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16405928836695705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086426589221534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886584365108938,0.0,0.16099833312660547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665290476809102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038123950158424,0.1478643304897454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929700732931466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondeleather,2019/10/06,Wedding dress shopping and I feel too far for the dresses I like I got engaged to my soldier bf yesterday and we have to get married when he’s home in three months so I’m shopping for a cheap dress for a courthouse wedding. I keep finding tea length dresses online that are so pretty but i could never pull them off. I’m not thin enough for that. I’m about to say fuck it and get married in jeans and a T-shirt.,0.9981609195402292,3.1034035287356336,2.2857471264367817,95.89229885057472,82.67816091954023,4.326436781609195,24.60919540229885,5.033348758259628,0.2331057471264369,325,13,71,1,9,104,59,87,0.059000000000000004,0.865,0.076,-0.1511,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,12,12,8,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,5,1,1,2,2,3,1,2,1,0,1,1,3,8,2,11,10,1,10,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,0,5,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485777243062341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216949464978953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742163537783824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28455690827436864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878265763991332,0.3253220717138189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490051044016551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122969782145733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767311466978692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210381559210656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24850668646778845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401227354795204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31674224730832706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475881402353669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maeken,2019/10/06,"my binges are getting worse and worse i used to binge once a week (always during the weekend... WHY!) but now my binges have turned into multiple days of me shoving 3000+ kcal of junk down my throat. i'll literally eat whatever i can find - most of the time it isn't even food that's ""worth"" the calories for me. i don't know what to do and i feel like i'm stuck in this binge-restrict cycle forever. 

right now i'm lying in bed, feeling bloated and disgusting. my stomach hurts way too much and i can't even think straight anymore. 

why the fuck do i keep doing this to myself.",2.43186440677966,4.114959983050852,3.5120000000000005,90.90037288135592,76.28813559322035,6.4149152542372905,24.51186440677966,7.1686216300943375,0.8785532203389832,450,15,97,5,10,145,83,118,0.218,0.742,0.04,-0.9719,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,5,0,9,5,2,1,0,14,21,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,2,1,5,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,13,1,11,20,2,13,0,1,0,1,0,6,1,1,7,55,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16291257146047172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941706013129903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626804813556974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003415657979509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586342730883853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979941360954695,0.13987207774555602,0.0,0.0,0.1789480813375954,0.0,0.2367494741206797,0.0,0.0,0.1810042634949204,0.1022919473348862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959673887224226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17402672825004434,0.0,0.0,0.10760080411317513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565287354784846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392783072841334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850945717535305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720318692312391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545402374788805,0.0,0.0,0.11416644812899195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296278381434286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909928924933829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540861387597446,0.15705054931919435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533391913637505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990525110901416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,muffmuffin222,2019/10/06,"ThIs TiMe WiLl Be DiFfErEnT I mean, I guess a 3,000 calorie binge IS different 🤷‍♀️",-1.6543859649122794,0.26173163157894663,1.7852631578947395,93.54350877192984,101.10526315789473,6.743859649122808,22.12280701754386,7.793537801064563,1.514985964912281,67,3,16,2,3,24,17,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7838475240808944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4132403478351693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.408618988869299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21873727585565253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EdnaWinters,2019/10/06,"Freaking out currently because the lax didn't kick in last night same amount as always, same time as always. It hasn't failed on me and over a month. Randomly decides not to work overnight, so now I'm having a freak out. Took one of those sickly orange ones that I hate so much two hours ago, they usually go into effect pretty quickly, but still nothing. 

Send help",4.908028169014088,6.131877549295776,4.90574647887324,85.1825633802817,69.28169014084507,7.370140845070423,26.876056338028175,7.554174236665415,1.4278315492957745,290,9,55,3,5,90,63,71,0.126,0.8190000000000001,0.055,-0.6293,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,3,5,4,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,11,7,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,4,0,3,2,0,3,0,10,5,4,20,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,11,36,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085418018838565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915065903683581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341094160682238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13370240157878646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23226832384256946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768831167345526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316814959617953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19176646674040893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18778049259496865,0.0,0.1729415163067003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207734627945962,0.0,0.2257361573055965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188334815938848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23934170975679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187877144080182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718068667368832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613800179456426,0.0,0.0,0.2298126387283917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591031760883009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17127044485012047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FastPhoria,2019/10/06,A happy update: my friend from proed is okay :') Thank you all so much ❤️,-1.5337499999999975,0.3452831250000017,0.8049999999999997,103.54,92.75,3.2,8.0,3.1291,-2.39865,54,0,14,0,2,18,16,16,0.0,0.40700000000000003,0.593,0.9274,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375286219024089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6028460383782492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41630198352116426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5213808756985371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lizbeth009,2019/10/06,Forgot Saturday but scales went down Down Went my weight.... forgot what happened yesterday. Oh well three pounds today?? Gotta go buy ice and furniture meh. I’ll do it.,1.7254838709677431,4.463838967741938,2.4344516129032283,88.65167741935484,94.80645161290323,6.3509677419354835,19.103225806451608,7.554174236665415,1.1761561290322582,132,4,24,3,5,41,28,31,0.046,0.858,0.096,0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,1,2,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20438344640932526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180156220309404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408829027227595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379269478709183,0.32334649351447337,0.6667528410661501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SkinnyMochi,2019/10/06,Titles are hard and I’m sad I had a mental breakdown down and tried to kill myself. I was put in the psych hospital for a week and gained 13 FREAKING POUNDS. Then yesterday was my birthday so of course went out to eat and had a huge piece of chocolate cake. Now I’m just like fuck my life why does the universe hate me. I want to cry cause I was so close... I was right on track. I was so so close to being under 200 by my birthday and it’s ruined. Now my appetite is back to normal and my stomach can hold more food again and I hate myself. I wish my dad hadn’t of came by my apartment. I wish I would have died. I wish I wasn’t  the person I am.,-0.5075000000000003,1.444896471830987,1.4994190140845092,100.11983274647888,87.80281690140846,4.113380281690141,16.621478873239436,5.148860815047168,-0.9232830985915492,497,11,122,2,16,164,86,142,0.217,0.674,0.109,-0.9619,0,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,1,9,8,4,0,6,0,16,5,1,1,0,20,27,12,2,6,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,11,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,0,11,1,23,1,16,14,2,20,0,2,0,1,2,10,1,0,8,81,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808350881444142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905138777210628,0.0,0.17111522508611765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297140994218636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17287533332737626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576819172503036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704446378671228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014194020147952,0.0,0.0,0.15399303694626773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921570386010474,0.3289105304583394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428712707157024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765465870439044,0.08137861620416402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786529652607424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320509490710294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544415763016055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745076642391088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14225149200482182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309138566619892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824842203017872,0.0,0.13361393028413965,0.0,0.0,0.15441381961119402,0.15030523066040755,0.0,0.574648391412761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183278981945945,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,80airotciv,2019/10/06,tw parents and body image finally feeling confident in my body today and i decided to wear a swimsuit outside and swim with my family. 5 seconds after my mother sees me and calls me skeletal and weird looking :))) we ❤️ supportive family haahahahaha,5.128333333333334,7.701886666666668,7.6774999999999975,60.05625000000003,71.22222222222223,10.722222222222225,37.91666666666667,10.686352973137794,5.512666666666667,200,12,27,7,4,72,36,45,0.036000000000000004,0.815,0.14800000000000002,0.6369,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,9,4,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,4,4,0,5,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5598169642454522,0.0,0.0,0.2573140082651426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751149581070703,0.0,0.12741571799063414,0.0,0.0,0.2760470663396972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21161146050351967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27980947163975384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008065607354841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28595976009055085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388608096557852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hapyornot,2019/10/06,Hello laxatives wut u up to Getting so fucking frustrated when I took 2 laxatives last night and 1 more today and nothing is still happening like what the fuck are u waiting for u useless pieces of shits no pun intended,9.03142857142857,7.709646428571428,9.176190476190474,66.67714285714288,60.904761904761905,13.161904761904767,44.80952380952381,12.161744961471696,5.692152380952381,178,10,30,5,2,59,38,42,0.324,0.624,0.052000000000000005,-0.9197,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,4,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,4,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,7,2,7,0,1,0,2,1,1,3,0,6,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574235035205699,0.15750992425367394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665961898276857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457449829405148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728702756868506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829168820303661,0.0,0.28927647815097285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094630552814245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407608918893851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857660968442853,0.0,0.33495338962465365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mentally_veryhealthy,2019/10/06,"warning This happened years ago but it just occurred to me that i should share it. Some guy on reddit randomly started messaging me asking about my life and my family and why i'm sad etc and ended up wanting to talk on instagram. He started asking if i have any experience in bdsm and wanted me to call me daddy. He ended up getting nudes out of me for about 2 months give or take, he would talk to me on a regular basis, asking what i'm doing, asking for pictures of what i was wearing etc. He would get mad at me when i wore tank tops in public and ''forbade'' me from doing it, saying my body was just for him to see.

At some point he started to want me to help him find girls since i didn't want to be one of his girls anymore, he wanted me to find submissive girls on tumblr instagram etc and talk them into wanting to fuck him (specifically teen girls). He went through my followers and picked out a friend of mine and said he wanted me to talk to her for him because he liked that she had big tits

He was in his mid 20s, he knew i was 16. I mentioned that it's illegal and he said he knew but didn't care because it's hard to track. I asked him how he found me and he said he frequented subs for self harm and eating disorders because those girls are easier to get in dominant/submissive or sadistic/masochistic relationships with.",6.500903361344541,5.417509720588238,7.040819327731093,79.18779411764707,65.76470588235293,10.271428571428572,32.296218487394945,9.424239791934726,2.6429792016806717,1052,35,217,17,14,347,140,272,0.11800000000000001,0.7959999999999999,0.086,-0.8883,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,6,8,2,0,2,0,15,7,4,2,0,42,50,18,0,11,7,0,1,1,1,3,1,4,0,7,12,15,1,0,5,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,15,6,35,4,43,31,5,31,0,1,1,3,55,19,2,6,11,133,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328091295207615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638891500082689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931730503550564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43915234574496825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181295121327333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435715341476144,0.0,0.0,0.09593334661619562,0.0,0.09578817897860596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767471865061884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613419679436566,0.0,0.0,0.1664234416218901,0.0,0.3143369010416349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190102449175276,0.08856759930391887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173700324007854,0.0,0.0,0.10301121017932546,0.07258545551642802,0.08685516367077263,0.1472548268713504,0.09012529970903703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302516643699993,0.08307958152192822,0.0,0.08416065192311964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297263397268786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635958898560056,0.04589917290987595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498990953674196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636628800244465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881301768813432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086702703561072,0.0,0.0,0.2681035922265998,0.07471272705986913,0.0,0.0,0.0748659022636389,0.0,0.0980102297801626,0.0,0.0,0.0777163236658895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994946568694588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063862853177788,0.30205346608812844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38789857395712574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709249353942608,0.0847751669066576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347861914167045,0.0,0.0,0.060500651855159016
EDAnonymous,bl00d-fire-death,2019/10/06,"le epic gamer moment when ur mom asks why tf u measure ur milk and cereal in exact amounts 😎😎 nooooo haha im not counting calories ahahah ... just gotta have that perfect Milk To Cereal Ratio, ya know? 😜😂 hahahah .. 🤫",-0.6317142857142848,1.5481739555555585,2.6504761904761907,87.51,98.33333333333331,5.238095238095238,19.761904761904766,6.868970318607317,0.8211904761904769,168,6,33,3,7,60,41,45,0.0,0.853,0.147,0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,4,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393018415957147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075827723374494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582499086421825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5503521920237413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.424020129967682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hezirok,2019/10/06,"freaking out because my pants are getting tighter. how did or how do you guys dealt or deal with this? 

thanks!",1.5828571428571436,4.33182442857143,0.6257142857142881,103.04428571428572,90.42857142857142,2.8000000000000003,26.04761904761905,3.1291,-0.03698095238095212,87,4,18,0,3,24,19,21,0.11,0.746,0.14400000000000002,0.2185,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,6,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242012669105725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5482978341067009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27786148304459524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265995945091304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4896415902990246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prismaticraptor,2019/10/06,"Well, boys, we did it. We've reached the point where caffeine does nothing but raise my heartbeat while I remain utterly exhausted. who would've thought that living exclusively off of energy drinks would've caused this to happen? not me!!",5.463571428571427,8.400675119047621,4.519285714285715,81.36321428571429,71.61904761904762,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.7025047619047617,193,8,32,4,4,57,38,42,0.084,0.779,0.13699999999999998,-0.22,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,4,1,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313106541119125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28223411987346625,0.0,0.0,0.3159408761700113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851980095944924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284785715323938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094608210435664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304879916421472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560400410227737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28997876195753103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458209295295716,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tracyprus,2019/10/06,"4 years ago i just wanted to lose weight i felt like i need to be skinny for someone to love me
my boyfriend back then was huge piece of shit, he cheated on me and only wanted nudes etc. but still i did everything to be perfect. i tried to lose weight, i started exercising and eating less.
but i just couldn't see the results. i started to eat even less, running more, counting calories and what else
i lost 15kg i one summer. everybody always told me that i was skinnier, but i still didn't see it. i tought that i was still fat.

everything was almost normal for few years. i just hated myself. i hated how fat i still was. how he didn't love me anymore. after 8 months of dating he had disappered, and i tought that it was because i wasn't skinny enough.

year ago, i moved away from my hometown and broke up from my 4th bf. everything started to go downhill. i again started to eat less, i started to use tumblr for ed-community, i was super paranoid about calories

now, year later i'm sitting in bathtub full of ice cold water, thinking that my crush/bf will never love me if i look like this. i haven't eaten in two days and i feel so lost
but at the same time i realised, this is all because i wanted to lose weight for that one fucking asshole",3.0368110236220502,4.486081145669292,4.136228346456694,88.02796456692914,74.15748031496062,6.182362204724409,26.08582677165355,6.508806274219699,0.95592031496063,977,34,199,7,20,318,135,254,0.14,0.741,0.11800000000000001,-0.5927,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,7,15,18,5,0,2,0,18,19,6,4,3,32,46,15,0,7,8,0,5,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,10,6,12,0,3,1,0,3,6,11,0,3,17,9,38,7,27,25,11,39,0,6,3,5,8,8,2,2,29,136,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125325898710866,0.0,0.09107887008443843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568232488825999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020349013325912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545575700041805,0.06993922299713286,0.0,0.11089134887876988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058658821454557426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792107816250781,0.07598171193784517,0.0,0.0,0.09398142316755792,0.10143950939883052,0.060075299615117414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24523501849463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04598987174413206,0.0,0.08733161595705406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408696365894999,0.0,0.0,0.051692149473681705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795995998919526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887259942490572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637977544387968,0.30526806943245804,0.1985775096121028,0.0,0.24627287335594206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725998723795609,0.0966713820742247,0.0,0.0674424065370733,0.07015054684858107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911715202550048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232677034455033,0.06917581357549142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495963479614052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336459090400202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706636372802403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218941214580074,0.0,0.29054895947425063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05828065998044159,0.0,0.0,0.05303692736035113,0.0,0.0,0.0869119499451519,0.0,0.061752865098518,0.0,0.08885038063500328,0.0,0.0,0.0785564136187456,0.0,0.0,0.16094386454012424,0.0,0.0,0.3322781611563606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342896334026233
EDAnonymous,is-this-ed,2019/10/06,"I know I have some of the symptoms but I don't feel like I have an issue, am I being naive? Here is a history of my potentially disordered eating - keep in mind that this specifically highlights moments from the past 15 years that seem problematic, so it is not the full picture:

* I am 32 now, grew up slightly chubby (by European standards) until I was maybe 14-15 when I shed most of the baby weight
* I had a short bulemic phase when I was around 15 but more out of curiosity 
* Since I was a kid, I'd always have to throw up if I overate, and the signals of feeling full just didn't come in time, so I'd still enjoy the food when suddenly I'd just feel EXTREMELY full
* I won't go into details here so I don't trigger people but I like throwing up after I overeat. This doesn't happen often,and overeating for me means literally 3/4 a portion of Indian take out that others consume in its entirety. This never seemed weird to me, it happens VERY rarely, I don't hide it from my family or friends, I take care not to get to that stage and I never overeat just to throw up as it is not something I am looking for but I do really enjoy the feeling I get after.
* I also make myself throw up after big night outs if I've been drinking a lot. This only happens maybe once every couple of months as I don't go partying that often.
* My BMI right now is 19.5 which is a little high for me but around the range I've been in for the past 10 years. But I have also had weight loss due to uhh.. a two month long party girl/cokehead phase and my BMI was at 16.5 and I kind of liked it even though it didn't suit me. My non-existent butt went from flat to actually dented inwards. It didn't help that everyone was obsessed with how skinny I was then. 
* I generally eat whatever I want, love food, love baking, love cooking, love feeding others, travel for food, spend lots of money on quality stuff, do not feel shame over eating anything, do not feel guilt or like it is unclean. BUT if I feel like I am gaining weight (I only weigh myself maybe once or twice a year) I will count calories and restrict to 1200. 
* And that is another time when I feel like something might be off because I enjoy counting calories and I enjoy restricting for a couple of weeks and then basically shrinking my stomach to the point that I don't even want more than 1200 calories. I also enjoy being skinny.
* I love food but don't like eating all the time. Eating multiple times a day makes me feel groggy. I am my happiest when I stick to one big meal a day and maybe one small snack. I didn't know this was called intermittent fasting, people would tell me this was unhealthy all the time, they don't anymore.
* I have a tiny frame, 160cm and 50 kg which is kind of heavy for me, with reaally narrow body frame, like narrow shoulders, wrists so tiny it is a constant form of entertainment for any man I've dated, hip bones sticking out, skinny skinny legs and arms, no butt, tiny boobs, so all the weight I carry in my face and belly/lovehandle area. 
* I am getting lipo in November for my lovehandles and jawline. 
* Despite the above evidence, I don't obsess over my looks. I think I look alright. I grew up in the era of heroin chic but really like the current trend of larger bodies with curves and thick thighs and muscles. I won't ever achieve that but I do like the aesthetic. 
* Even when I have belly fat like I do right now, I still wear crop tops and skintight clothes. I don't feel like I can't wear the things I want to wear because I don't have the body for it. At the same time, I just almost called myself too fat for crop tops in the previous sentence when I am objectively not fat. But I do _look_ chubby.

So, I don't know. I understand that the throwing up, the counting calories, the feeling comfy only when under a BMI of 18 and all that might point to disordered eating. My family is obsessed with food, I love food and everything it does to bring people together, so I never assign negative feelings to food even when I am getting chubbier or when I am trying to restrict. Is my perception warped? Is this problematic behaviour?",3.2797456907688343,4.9032146272838055,4.453324659506149,85.29037934152734,73.8599269183922,7.168205809618722,25.715886022219767,7.84624498591911,1.4303721477872515,3223,109,642,45,66,1057,335,821,0.091,0.762,0.14800000000000002,0.9956,1,0,3,0,0,0,98.0,0,0,1,5,42,36,0,5,39,1,72,58,25,4,8,111,123,63,0,7,28,0,17,12,1,6,4,1,1,2,36,30,33,4,21,4,2,13,30,7,0,4,17,22,90,29,87,97,16,115,0,1,4,9,14,50,3,17,63,432,126,2,0.0,0.0,0.04626629667076388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04747526777947973,0.0,0.0,0.11374367819570512,0.03944974983673657,0.0,0.0,0.03224110564593987,0.049714567115306085,0.0,0.0,0.047018972070579326,0.0,0.0,0.03901521314368447,0.08441168304779913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05780261083132177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798879814738873,0.0,0.0,0.0968238632951297,0.0,0.04833867405782865,0.0,0.0,0.04084037825755577,0.0,0.05123444770083493,0.0,0.0,0.1049187389799147,0.0,0.061152345293743776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086742264989328,0.0,0.04148968540853405,0.0,0.0,0.04644473023271322,0.0,0.29107973369189283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252580728555822,0.04288596363607275,0.039945812138122316,0.04530324204788103,0.042609949527424126,0.0,0.08938974225186408,0.0,0.2876691123865376,0.13548171087694338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40130698392506337,0.0,0.03662962082546,0.0,0.0990811622822618,0.0,0.05388952752893745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577617159669294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0317785937745886,0.05009232431687483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04948476601060097,0.0,0.042141075012346416,0.0,0.09874252094875743,0.07816753673045537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779514360714536,0.04751827710065035,0.0,0.041957242872155145,0.15925319621435552,0.0,0.0,0.08061427316682622,0.25674167012734816,0.0,0.06329442101724479,0.0,0.19052288702022446,0.051644477776210805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059115694643987,0.04787159442559034,0.0,0.07568601540138352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969885748777047,0.0,0.0,0.044492011588578316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098233488576716,0.06425384092063584,0.1081746052728298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905183279215666,0.09860645294700672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963743877159934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06074540098000875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097746953337841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632238714243343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03921886895351876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729986078520234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572497134242583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054274251770971865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927818212372356,0.07129434293248824,0.0,0.04143930353608688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031497761571664284,0.030379054289662488,0.0465810665695094,0.0,0.16587441146112966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032188956713936435,0.0,0.04631365770177901,0.04935652281440976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039119040103812494,0.0838927081486951,0.0,0.03803024423973042,0.23093530055941594,0.0,0.04395047179074302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033679413958894316,0.0,0.0,0.09159338829165596
EDAnonymous,ravioliriveroli,2019/10/06,"Reasons to recover Can you guys please give me some reasons on why recovery is worth it cause ED is hitting H A R D and I’m a second away from relapsing :((
I know rationally that I need to recover but it feels like I physically can’t stop restricting",2.048235294117646,4.24143029411765,4.815450980392161,78.70552941176472,79.3921568627451,9.570196078431367,29.807843137254906,9.888512548439397,3.4647537254901963,199,10,40,7,5,71,42,51,0.125,0.747,0.128,-0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,11,10,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,5,9,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642448437896385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889225475417858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142209102130758,0.20092597671446133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698018638422834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784829938981556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456835281327647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740517301893687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20854426671451806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087294566167723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5783463338664661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351386708007228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537855420486709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crymeacoffeetable,2019/10/06,"I ordered and ate pizza. Oh my God. TW talking about numbers and food. Also a rant - I feel like I’m going to explode.

Y’all I had the best time at a wedding this weekend. Like THE BEST time I’ve had in a long ass time because depression and anxiety have been kicking my ass. Literally so much fun that I had an anxiety attack the day after because I didn’t know how to comprehend how much fun I had. Not only that but for once I didn’t obsess over how I looked because I didn’t even look in the mirror the whole night. I know I looked bomb (body dysmorphia couldn’t say SHIT to me with people I haven’t seen in 3 years telling me how tiny and good I looked). I was on top of the world I danced for 6 hours (SIX HOURS) and I literally missed dinner and dessert because I was socializing and having fun. AND my SO and I didn’t fight. AND I drank and smoked and didn’t go overboard.
I didn’t get a hangover or throw up. 
Like holy shit. For me this is huge.

So of course because I didn’t eat the day of the wedding or the entire day AFTER the wedding I was like fuck this I’m gonna have a pizza and I don’t care. 
Yeah okay. LOL.
They put the fucking calories on the website for mobile ordering. 
Why would a fucking crappy pizza chain put their cals on the website?!?!?!
So long story short I ordered basically 5000 calories of dinner and dessert for my SO and I. And of that I probably ate 2500.

I’m so fucking upset. So fucking upset. I was upset before we even GOT HOME with the pizza and I ate it ANYWAY and the worst part of all of this is i could have had one piece as stopped and I just didn’t ?!?!?! And now I’m paying for it by still feeling fucking bloated 10 hours later and now I’m scared I’m going to try to purge even though I know that’s futile right now because there isn’t anything left to purge. I’m just holding a ton of water because I ate my fucking weight in salt last night.

To make things even worse my SO and I are really fucking broke like 20 dollars in my account after rent broke and I feel like I wasted my last 10 “free” dollars (okay it was stupid to spend the money but we literally had not spent an ounce of our pay on ourselves and at the time I was like FUCK IT I DESERVE PIZZA) and now I feel wasteful and stupid and poor like that money could have bought healthy food and I wasted it and ruined my hard work and now I’m just depressed again. I literally woke up EVERY hour last night scared and uncomfortable. It’s not even my ED voice in my head it’s just this crushing feeling of fatness and failure and I already know I’m gonna go look in the mirror naked and hate on myself. 

Obviously and logically it’s one meal and I’m already almost 100lbs so it’s not going to matter in the long run and BESIDES if you divide 2500 by 2 it’s like a normal amount of cals for a normal person for 2 days and it’s probably good that I put calories in me because I don’t want to die but I feel like trash right now and I feel like a gross fat failure. I could deal with the fact that I ate it if I wasn’t so fucking bloated and if I didn’t waste my money. Fuck feeling like this. I’m so upset. I know I’m not fat and that there’s isn’t anything WRONG with being fat like my sister weighs double what I weigh and she is far FAT healthier and stronger and in shape than me but I can’t get rid of this fucking FEELING. Screw This and screw my ED for ruling my life. Guess I’ll go back to eating under 800 cals a day until I feel less shitty like fuck. :( just when I start to feel okay I realize I’m not fucking okay. 

End rant hope this wasn’t too depressing for y’all. Love and strength to all of you.",0.5419449449292628,2.651879928478543,2.370577655224277,94.56880520782741,84.56566970091028,4.798351794695035,20.318376235762294,6.0026286858553775,-0.05554382628041399,2831,85,633,21,83,935,285,769,0.233,0.626,0.141,-0.9984,1,0,1,0,1,1,59.0,3,4,2,5,42,70,23,7,33,6,45,53,11,5,4,113,123,75,1,12,20,1,13,14,0,3,6,2,2,1,31,52,29,2,18,2,14,12,24,40,0,3,35,22,86,31,70,80,14,87,0,7,6,19,22,30,20,8,56,383,117,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045058581016439635,0.0,0.09931190692332202,0.0359845520892758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884605799910835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405835604652304,0.0,0.0,0.051191248461985146,0.0,0.03460036496633684,0.0,0.21944087900273745,0.0,0.038289630204001966,0.0,0.09444437766203094,0.0,0.0,0.04998217243049783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045878036357350896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778072927473598,0.0,0.0,0.1450985973139908,0.046390533810305966,0.11626906085318535,0.0,0.04670038853690377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208752526137272,0.0,0.0,0.03985450390047522,0.0,0.0,0.1486024009896643,0.0,0.037912405694129334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25027343839435384,0.16073141688610984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088225156465648,0.0,0.0,0.5823935853965753,0.047018761417370776,0.0,0.15343898553952873,0.0754836780110674,0.03598867895403113,0.0,0.0495699124293209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04030899731009198,0.04442579884197727,0.04618050352842621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045136246159633464,0.044692754528152696,0.17725422674481253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364747833843401,0.11003711141197887,0.0,0.0,0.04889000725003085,0.0,0.03178312468827927,0.3077696563792822,0.0,0.0,0.11946433894567207,0.18893319035825065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040612076858852944,0.0,0.03003623708392085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615680423194986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668155457660252,0.08817615788980805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04792095895924865,0.06098305564463361,0.034222690701802665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04872799906042871,0.0,0.031195659386934325,0.039290155171464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970300135175795,0.0,0.0,0.1357050025984348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028826604877170325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07685538264732222,0.0,0.03578388528687941,0.09010086400776632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237874776914906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04586937074610877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03184952192969602,0.0,0.035935129129224835,0.03761999552325336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036167353964809364,0.03932987222565311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029894395713693574,0.0,0.044209898332824266,0.0,0.10495381359535404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030550406174991093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026540741201396458,0.0,0.0,0.05479493553435998,0.0,0.0,0.0406033211093072,0.05023819616830832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032758777454495465,0.0,0.04585638288447914,0.031964993004399166,0.04919779484140615,0.0,0.028976969131800163
EDAnonymous,WatermelonWaterslide,2019/10/06,"I fucking love/hate having this cold. PROS:

* No appetite!

* Apparently you burn more calories being sick because your body is fighting off the germs??

* Soupsoupsoupsoup (sore throat)

* HaloTopHaloTopHaloTop (sore throat)

* Diarrhea

* Freeeeeee weeeiiggghhhtttt loooooossssss


CONS:

* I can't fucking breathe (thanks blocked nose and sinuses!)

* Working out bloody hurts my soul

* I have used a whole roll of toilet roll on my runny nose :(

* Can't taste food, so no food is ""worth it"".",3.842914285714283,5.235614586666671,1.8508571428571443,88.15400000000002,123.13333333333333,4.628571428571429,26.23809523809524,6.1826913282559595,1.6812095238095242,374,17,58,6,21,102,62,75,0.27399999999999997,0.7040000000000001,0.022000000000000002,-0.9659,1,0,0,0,2,0,30.0,0,2,0,1,1,5,3,0,2,0,7,15,6,1,0,4,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,4,7,1,4,10,2,3,1,1,0,2,3,3,2,0,0,28,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143790068110505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759447664903375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6007942874179574,0.0,0.0,0.4593308091177046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594467388698023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242137450325345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287168561296696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21455990000563466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773582386767323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085674862891604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CosineMeSenpi,2019/10/06,"oof Mum calls me absolutely blasted drunk, and manages to ask if I’d like to join their competitive ‘800 calorie challenge’ to see who loses the most weight - she mentioned she was only asking the fatter family members. 

She excluded my uncle and boyfriend who were “skinny enough”. 

She was really disappointed and weird when I declined. As though she hadn’t anticipated that response, and was only ready for a conversation in which I’d be happy resuming ED behaviours in order to get thinner? 

She always mentions how it’s about *health* but I’ve never seen her more proud than when I was starving myself to the tune of 200-400 calories a day, full-blown orthorexia and “intermittent fasting”. I was tiny, delicate and cute. Now I’m just fat, ugly and useless. 

Can anybody say, triggered?",5.3168075117370925,7.702710563380287,5.97711267605634,73.28613849765263,70.12676056338029,8.395305164319247,31.551643192488264,9.075114841892004,3.129660093896714,628,28,100,13,12,204,109,142,0.138,0.74,0.122,-0.5248,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,3,7,9,0,0,5,0,9,5,2,2,1,14,15,14,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,8,4,14,5,12,6,3,9,0,3,2,0,18,2,0,2,7,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192602793066524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327891275101304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23635823526524996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492799390983145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391718888811047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21821068701902224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209342814264839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464056676769426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24604333220754634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308526067078074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589573496564959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852505559427712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520889435402527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828654101883013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407539132741704,0.0,0.0,0.18445278065163467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274195289560641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818698729996824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lovbirb,2019/10/06,"Having the same waist circumference as my 8 year old sister was so satisfying ...since than I've gained 2-3 inches on my waist and it makes me want to die. I want to go back to days of fasting, drinking warm tea with salt to make it feel like I was eating an actual meal, and excitedly hopping up in the morning just to wrap a measuring tape around my waist. 

But I also want to be get better, I really do. I don't want to be stuck in this middle ground of wanting to destroy myself or get better anymore. For some reason I don't care about weight as much as I do about waist sizes, and the idea of having the same waist as a small child is so strangely tempting and triggering for me.  Kill me haha stuck on this at 4 AM",8.685400000000001,5.00634754,8.949333333333332,75.42800000000003,63.6,11.866666666666667,34.333333333333336,9.2995712137729,2.7589333333333337,561,14,122,7,6,188,95,150,0.13,0.7,0.17,0.3761,0,0,1,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,0,3,8,9,2,0,7,1,12,10,5,4,0,23,26,13,2,5,3,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,10,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,4,14,7,28,20,4,17,0,0,0,0,2,11,0,2,6,80,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.1706116033817334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981373561263075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733871693126381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563826829948346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443563970178374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092508269883353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825370258269654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275269939329212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814488550449872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126959501477731,0.0,0.17889761248344244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884007222668007,0.12490059495199547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826858553451552,0.0,0.09936151538800347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973649626438264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19342660148827134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541448019902488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334045175847079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285222324417789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18345762486562645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200237543341827,0.17975724784178185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462350774675575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5156046077896285,0.0,0.0,0.21289926329235392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258659802121787
EDAnonymous,fragmentsofmyself,2019/10/06,"I didn’t eat an entire pizza 🎉 My husband ordered pizza last night and even though Saturday is usually my binge night I only ate half of a medium veggie no cheese pizza.  There isn’t even leftovers to go crazy thinking about because we split the pizza instead of ordering one each.

I feel like garbage but less garbage than usual on Sunday morning!",9.62318181818182,7.888230712121214,8.902121212121212,70.42318181818182,60.06060606060606,10.618181818181819,40.18181818181819,8.841846274778883,3.762036363636364,281,12,46,3,3,89,54,66,0.059000000000000004,0.9129999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.2124,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,3,6,0,0,0,6,7,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,1,6,1,6,5,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,30,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266586838546642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25626259018622805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308264486632048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662996307186825,0.17891434957613908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233079438393947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041419841758048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235230885061844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4700418536600709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970459085102496,0.19047086643916536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604718069706091,0.2460559782985414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5516484437763581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grossenten98,2019/10/06,"Coffee with cream Probably my last fear food. Coffee creamer :(

Well I’m having one of those Reese’s coffee cream singles/capsules that you get at Gas stations

I’ve put it off for 2days so Well it’s a win for me :] ima do it!",-2.1585714285714275,-0.8395565510204079,0.5291632653061242,99.99619387755104,114.51020408163264,2.7763265306122453,15.10408163265306,4.935628992294339,-1.0067404081632656,175,5,40,1,10,59,38,49,0.111,0.674,0.214,0.6864,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,2,3,3,6,4,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644807189102596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916645714128912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922585302760218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640240261838114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948493113389897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492220192921948,0.0,0.0,0.3256117931447524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5824550624031657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lolstraightwhiteboys,2019/10/06,"A girl I knew from res died last week. We followed each other on Instagram, but we weren’t particularly close, so I just found out today. And I apologize that even though I should be thinking about her, all I can think about is the way I feel about it, because I’m self centered.

I’m ashamed to admit that I was mad jealous of this girl the whole time I was there. She was the thinnest and the sickest, the only girl who got tubed. I never quite got into the recovery mindset while I was there, and while I was getting “healthier” all I could think about when I saw her was how I wanted to be that skinny. I was underweight when I got there but felt like it wasn’t “enough.”

And I’m feeling guilty because the way I acted towards her was so toxic. She was such a kind girl who cared a lot about the people around her, and was well loved by everyone there. She tried to be friends with me. She would ask if I needed anything when I was visibly upset. And while thankfully I was never outright mean, I shut her out, because I was a jealous bitch.

That was in July and August of 2018. I never graduated from ED outpatient, rather got discharged because they felt they weren’t equipped to handle my other mental illness symptoms. Despite that, even though I had some brief lapses, I haven’t been restricting or purging since February of this year. My ED and other mental illnesses kept me from moving on with my life, but I finally started college after two years.  Unfortunately, because of binging and other unhealthy habits, I’ve shot up from underweight to overweight in less than a year and a half, but I’m still much less miserable than I was when I was restricting.

But, ever since that BMI tipped over 25, the eating disorder voices have been back in my head. They were just a whisper at first. There were small things, like body checking in the mirror or by circling my fingers around my wrist, and casually checking food labels again, but I haven’t used any symptoms.

But apparently I haven’t learned anything from my mistakes, because her death has set off those voices again. I looked at her pictures from recent months and frankly, they’re terrifying. It’s very, very sad that somebody could be so sick - and I’m jealous that I “gave up” before I could get there. I feel that since I’m not on the verge of death, I’m not trying hard enough. Like I worked so hard to get where I was and I gave up.

Well, this post isn’t really going anywhere. I mostly just needed to get my feelings out with people who can understand. And maybe say that I’m sorry, Anna, and I hope you’re at peace now.",6.050508250825082,6.2403782653465365,6.046287128712872,81.69570132013203,66.34653465346534,8.713531353135314,30.892739273927393,8.344100000000001,2.143810561056105,2044,71,398,25,30,645,238,505,0.18,0.7190000000000001,0.10099999999999999,-0.9945,4,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,2,0,3,3,40,22,5,3,18,0,43,16,5,2,6,84,90,40,3,12,16,0,9,3,1,2,8,4,0,5,25,29,4,3,15,1,2,5,12,10,2,3,37,15,65,12,53,44,12,67,0,2,2,1,32,28,1,7,33,286,90,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595183870771593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541551192041668,0.1464896684004403,0.07691879204546435,0.0,0.0,0.06326667758607002,0.0,0.3009353085128706,0.0,0.07001248950302355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913922726331996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388787046976091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19707678389087652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539153929685543,0.0,0.0942976779321431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419090053065352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003026753287356,0.0,0.1086876418913605,0.07442513127624979,0.0,0.07862012301426337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640884832134867,0.0,0.15799950165451315,0.09013149067576688,0.0,0.06998559634325648,0.0994908437846628,0.09021354355621068,0.06356775288222859,0.0,0.171947366565832,0.0,0.04676046450525236,0.0,0.2632208244448847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740979403636312,0.0,0.08444093090745891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172058571974547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567984092093132,0.0,0.06706752425855671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05811536104568765,0.1205905753545896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06909276969380204,0.0,0.0,0.06994978490041368,0.07425907718688922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826592763423609,0.08962482622064344,0.0,0.0,0.1658336766615461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656734879484693,0.08744845738049581,0.060483772462222224,0.12201613936101627,0.19037352031224125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06257610117307305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140823645321788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07879954825527502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751274525545831,0.0,0.0,0.05270937224041807,0.0,0.0812395659122552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543074142207808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583386330317562,0.0,0.0,0.20418355258198165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210344739263884,0.058236768229380786,0.0,0.06570729039547347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171036621899674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757504972356234,0.0,0.0,0.05466182501510418,0.15816119624193406,0.16167536883827555,0.0,0.047976943976067735,0.0,0.07798989180998424,0.0,0.0,0.11172267688373312,0.0,0.08037361789485131,0.08565426490059977,0.0,0.07106174589527373,0.0,0.13577587855240453,0.04852967643889703,0.13061684029797804,0.06599842186195005,0.0,0.14795554628822893,0.0,0.0,0.0918604113736492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059899339597827526,0.0,0.0,0.05844790678993843,0.0,0.0,0.15895293866987162
EDAnonymous,indignan,2019/10/06,"An extremely long rant It’s been nearly 6 months of not having a period now.
I don’t know if I actually HAVE an ED, because I feel fine when I can count every calorie that goes into my body. If I attend something like a buffet, or go to a restaurant without a calorie count, I end up overeating last fullness.
I don’t want to say I binge, but I have found myself standing over a homemade cheesecake in the kitchen, unable to stop myself from having more because it tastes so good. I’ve never purged, but on one particularly bad day where I had no idea of the calorie count of the pasta I was eating, I would chew it and then I would spit it out into the bin because I so didn’t want to be consuming hundreds of excess calories against my own will.
I’m technically underweight by BMI, at 53kg (I believe around 117lbs) and 175cm (approximately 5’9), but I don’t look it at all. I don’t even look that thin—my shoulders are quite broad, and my thighs aren’t remotely small.
I want to stop counting, but reading certain weight loss subreddits have made me certain that I’ll gain all my weight back (and then some) and end up right where I started, at a weight at which I wasn’t comfortable at. Whenever I stop counting, I feel terrible because I always have a really hard time sticking to my goals even when I’m counting—I’ll set myself a limit of 1200 and eat 1700 sometimes because it’s so impossible for me to restrict. So people’s advice that I should « just get back to counting tomorrow, let today go! » doesn’t work for me! I eat a surplus of hundreds of calories and when I count, my deficit for one day ends up being not nearly enough to lose the fat I’ve inevitably gained.
Anyway, I’ve shared quite a lot now, but basically—I’m 16 years old, and I’ve had my period since I was about 11? This is the first stretch of my life in which I’ve missed it, and if I don’t get it this October, it will have been 6 months since I last had it.
I don’t want to gain any weight, even knowing that might be the only way to get it back. Though I wish my legs and stomach and shoulders were thinner, I’m much more comfortable than I used to be with wearing clothes that I actually like. I used to cover myself with hoodies and refuse to wear T-shirts, but I actually wear things I like now. I don’t want to lose that, and I don’t want to gain a single gram. I just joined a college to do my A levels, and everyone there is thin, thinner than me but I can tell that’s down to being toned. I don’t feel that they’re underweight; they look like they exercise a lot, whereas I can’t bring myself to exercise knowing how slow the results show and how foolish I look attempting to lift weights with no previous experience.
I feel like if I get up to a healthy weight, I’ll hate myself more than I already do. I’m always comparing myself to other people, getting jealous of my friends who are 50kg even when I know they’re about ten centimetres shorter than I am. I want to be petite and cute, but I’ll never be petite so I’ll settle for thin.
I do want kids in the future, so despite my ridiculous rant, I know I need my period back. I’ve seen the doctor about the issue, and I’ve had a couple blood tests—they’ve concluded that I’ve lost my period due to stress and weight loss.
The logical solution would be to gain some weight, but I really, really don’t want to. The highest I’ll go up to willingly is 54kg, and that’s still underweight for my height.
Anyway, I’m fucking struggling, and I wish I could go back to pre-February 2019. I mean, I hated my body, but I didn’t count a single calorie, and I was FINE with that. I miss being happy to go out with friends to a place without nutritional information rather than cancelling my plans because I’d rather eat a Tesco’s 400 calorie sandwich than log 1000 calories « just in case » and starve myself for the majority of the day.
I haven’t been diagnosed with an ED, so I’m honestly not sure whether I have one. I’m sure I don’t have anorexia because I can’t bring myself to restrict for long periods of time. For the most part, I eat like a normal person, but with a shit ton of junk food and with a lower calorie limit.
I want to be normal again, but I don’t want to undo all my progress and hate my body again. I don’t know what to do.",5.914442669377677,5.079670969283279,6.61827802386658,80.9233301866241,66.83845278725825,9.619645148016364,32.24023914990439,8.841846274778883,2.4086737879117948,3358,119,708,47,47,1111,333,879,0.127,0.732,0.14,0.7725,2,0,1,0,0,0,89.0,0,0,2,21,43,39,7,2,41,0,73,40,15,7,9,132,134,58,0,28,28,0,15,6,2,8,6,1,1,2,31,37,20,8,16,4,0,8,30,18,0,5,18,22,102,21,101,96,20,98,0,7,5,1,12,37,2,11,56,462,133,5,0.0,0.0,0.1442055483760622,0.0,0.0,0.04813416093215822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05435721717883951,0.0,0.08197288620969917,0.0,0.0,0.03349699928804604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043849893331914434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18938107334847748,0.04112821307117996,0.21018972249102613,0.0,0.0,0.0554966829242761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641429644869754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039328352395877744,0.05450282883452336,0.0,0.09530163555471176,0.0,0.0,0.04999563933462745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050417454812520815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25201517950708113,0.0,0.0,0.13088339502406393,0.05089648420892302,0.0,0.13013727331009914,0.0,0.04150182861112913,0.04706794746088835,0.0,0.04818358910037961,0.0,0.0,0.0996249131840609,0.03518978863989217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04189866722932651,0.059562738247641675,0.05400864518609238,0.07611292219231595,0.04553805075300648,0.12867586098298284,0.0,0.13997174019815886,0.041315113224773166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052435853697434386,0.04412532170463,0.1458956657349028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05560607075591438,0.0,0.05141235508574956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624248219625253,0.08030337748418183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05036944709003705,0.03479224727074935,0.14438926441360012,0.0,0.0,0.08718322194350325,0.16545661488141608,0.11021377737354704,0.053770717348045616,0.08375445558628294,0.0,0.046608929943526084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053656194495894836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05225475127344068,0.0,0.0,0.07863422650130024,0.0,0.03621015734065594,0.0365240412800094,0.07598131800069648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652438892574254,0.0,0.0,0.0516877845608283,0.0,0.10013509867846933,0.037462783437607824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05334140708149057,0.0,0.06829832534146937,0.04301001891534585,0.05146392648514783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478348641338896,0.049271138930041626,0.0,0.09466744142049914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206589980342273,0.0,0.03917178683404782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05056243315390063,0.08149313735333548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037921067938864385,0.04871723268652802,0.0,0.03486493078642392,0.0,0.03933734995009351,0.12354520199697618,0.05642465386188751,0.05149495705416248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928498042075085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04305349625068546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03272469959707938,0.0,0.04839554731311685,0.0,0.05744524917596119,0.0,0.046690643431411806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508586336531009,0.0,0.0,0.3195888521512573,0.039098556075377294,0.0,0.4798619305040865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328809896090165,0.09496554034382404,0.0,0.0358602716587071,0.0,0.0,0.10497400285758747,0.0,0.0,0.031720414058667074
EDAnonymous,Flippingkittens,2019/10/06,Post to keep myself accountable: No more alcohol until Christmas. It brings out the worst in me and it has a boat load of calories.,4.413599999999999,6.29239376,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,71.4,8.200000000000001,28.5,8.841846274778883,2.3530000000000006,104,4,19,2,2,33,24,25,0.223,0.777,0.0,-0.743,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6331082908975012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265630276528596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673669622968004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,playboyhunties,2019/10/06,"Gained and was in full blown recovery **Gpa who raised me passes away and I’ve been fasting for damn near 17 days 😢 So pretty much my fucking father figure, the only man to ever show me unconditional love, the person I act JUST LIKE, 1/2 of my favorite adult humans on Earth...gone. 

He survived 3 strokes, 4 major heart attacks, 2 open heart surgeries, fucking throat cancer, AND VIETNAM BTW!! But then big pharma outsources a fucking pill to be pressed in Iran and it gets cut with JET FUEL! He was on it about half a month. BOOM 💥 liver cancer. 6 months to live that turned into 3. He never got to see me get all the way better and back to myself. He will never walk me down the aisle like I always dreamed. 

So what do I do?! I’m back on my bullshit!! Let’s starve! And not even drink shit! And run miles! 

My family can tell (my ain’t shit mom and step dad) but they’d never say shit they don’t give a fuck. BUT MY ANGEL OF A NAN!! She is watching me spiral again and she wants to tell me to stop I can feel it!!! But my nan doesn’t say shit because she knows it’s better than me relapsing on heroin that I’ve been sober from for 3 years now.

Wtf do I do guys?!",0.7193827160493811,2.738887736625518,2.3316641975308663,95.65808888888893,83.15637860082305,4.546436213991768,17.538930041152266,5.414198509911553,-0.6219970699588481,892,19,201,4,25,291,156,243,0.131,0.745,0.124,-0.7001,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,2,4,10,16,11,0,8,0,18,18,8,0,5,28,33,16,0,1,6,3,3,2,0,1,4,3,0,5,8,12,1,1,3,3,0,5,7,11,0,1,5,8,25,5,25,24,4,35,1,0,2,5,24,14,9,0,17,114,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942909436265816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12891734772166275,0.10646744768728957,0.17427147864831374,0.0,0.06907854602274283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20044386671578426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308173520223571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101001801655087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484649418107045,0.10250402084463707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682758676984333,0.0,0.057297769464959326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190483927021316,0.11840957580056699,0.10870643836452368,0.0,0.0,0.09063199625235707,0.0,0.0,0.11220417079644172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26856842525650065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0622774612410557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158769177388514,0.0,0.11072441649610926,0.0,0.10006323895852844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227531836813124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327184876381799,0.18090116771505488,0.0,0.08330290812947988,0.0,0.26219706918515245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618462432014147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894626031711533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152867216918813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18023250930426052,0.0,0.0,0.09030100999720353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652835594385244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474021810115033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19809256331493136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325913011612062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683880673064571,0.08994778437721837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729740750171051
EDAnonymous,justwritingthisdown,2019/10/06,Was told my legs are too skinny for me to wear skinny jeans Guess who will be wearing only skinny jeans from now on.,8.625,5.505821500000002,8.028333333333332,80.25000000000004,63.16666666666666,9.6,28.16666666666667,3.1291,1.0894666666666657,92,1,19,0,1,29,21,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6697951193542748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624214584990821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5809826957911691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b123g1234,2019/10/06,"Please help! Relapse! I’ve struggled with anorexia since I was about 13 and I’ve come a long way. I’m now 21 and have almost eradicated it from my life, but every so often I get these lapses where I don’t want anything but to stop eating. My boyfriend and I just got in a huge fight. For the last 3 days I haven’t had any money and he’s had to pay for the food we’ve eaten. Only small things like mcds and sandwhich stuff, but I wasn’t an asshole and I’ve always expressed how embarrassed I am that I can’t pay for my own food. We usually split every meal check (or anything like going out to the movies) right in half. He makes a lot more money than me though because I’m in school and can only work part time to his full time and I spent a little more on bills  than I made this paycheck. No big deal because before he got this job, I was making more than him, and I occasionally paid fully for the things we did and the food we bought. Regardless, tonight he fight about it, and he wanted to tell me that he always spends so much on me and the food that we eat...... it triggered me so hard. I don’t even want any of the food we eat? I don’t have to eat any of the food. I don’t even want any of it. I don’t need his money. I’m feeling really lost after all of this, I don’t know what to do. All the feeling of restriction are back like they never left. I don’t deserve it anyways if my own boyfriend doesn’t think I’m worth the money.",1.969139784946236,3.0570642096774208,3.3791129032258063,93.84200268817206,76.25806451612901,6.06989247311828,20.981182795698928,6.21433560688645,-0.01720430107526827,1115,25,264,7,24,366,153,310,0.098,0.8140000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.7247,2,0,0,0,2,0,33.0,5,0,1,2,15,8,2,2,15,0,22,13,0,5,3,49,48,22,0,7,6,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,16,20,12,2,4,0,13,2,13,5,0,1,14,3,35,3,30,34,11,29,0,1,0,0,21,14,0,5,15,162,51,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08586642946286023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270205604391614,0.0,0.0,0.23325228088114716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411302012214728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593660365574337,0.0,0.10454504077304316,0.0,0.07296709654197465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386619650420796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05530177910785093,0.08840468140161202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509754108492705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327438454340324,0.0,0.1444964681916886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671574591257956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6221368263013559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04480093546668392,0.0,0.04873380952629858,0.0,0.13716452196931675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681532787246052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05747654533407466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08509383286386289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471260622838256,0.06989785039987753,0.0,0.0,0.09316783316904396,0.0,0.06056789567251818,0.12567963539663324,0.08594421853104824,0.0,0.07588622042686424,0.0,0.0,0.09360646276249422,0.07290174573350122,0.0,0.08113890385576103,0.11447783639503648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303625675649206,0.06358267991634421,0.0661358334503969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043376825841366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285910030460237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412795916218084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05493376796389122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323019438317056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867837710394925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093344391974236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169099911983419,0.0,0.08964471775122967,0.0981634528737932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494944632222676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393723295228304,0.054945259801972034,0.08424912705019834,0.0,0.10000325164096507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444172043316312,0.0,0.20231073689872825,0.0680645100872942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242716015756668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachyoguruto,2019/10/06,"Feeling gross :( I had a 2500~ calorie binge on October 3rd. I was at 107.4 lbs that morning, after the binge I  was at 111.4 lbs and now, October 6th, I’m still at 110 lbs :( bc of the binge I decided to go on a 85-110 hour fast. It’s hard to go poop. 

I feel so gross and disgusting. Do you think the 3 lbs are just bloating? When do you think it will it go away :(",-1.4748749999999973,0.4187812625000049,1.2475000000000025,100.3675,92.625,5.2,18.0,6.742157984588678,-0.17502499999999974,271,8,71,4,10,93,51,80,0.23399999999999999,0.7490000000000001,0.018000000000000002,-0.955,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,0,5,3,1,0,5,0,7,1,1,0,0,8,15,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,3,3,7,0,10,11,0,15,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,6,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155596968861631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33965060978491673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5726457616856441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300872381113021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307630108781375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682251752267436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304221984169824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,holicisms,2019/10/06,"Either no appetite or binge mode Is there a fix for this? I am either going to eat the whole cow, or not even want to eat.

It is even worse when I am being super picky about calories. When I am in calorie debt, I see no reason to make my calorie restriction last any longer by wasting time eating some thing I don’t need.

It is cool to be in control of my appetite or whatever, but that doesn’t mean I want it to go away.",4.6306666666666665,3.8535851777777808,5.59,87.045,69.44444444444444,8.088888888888889,28.0,6.742157984588678,1.1729333333333334,326,9,74,2,5,108,62,90,0.146,0.807,0.047,-0.5781,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,2,1,10,3,0,3,0,16,18,6,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,3,2,2,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,12,16,4,9,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,4,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386384405700843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19154236815633274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286572923126053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6258290395460017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693081322987876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23172778693497936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618107985109626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608466041737974,0.0,0.0,0.22207395557639287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116685774850674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961208706025797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245781858672234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544202217189702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887810749002382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24049535522883975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276133274099696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20776072166990275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ambientfoods,2019/10/06,have the spins going to eat milk 🍼,-1.5337499999999975,0.3452831250000017,0.8049999999999997,103.54,92.75,3.2,8.0,3.1291,-2.39865,27,0,7,0,1,9,8,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8742113060577439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4855456645474383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heisenbergslover,2019/10/06,"I had pizza! Yesterday night I went out with some friends for dinner, which is a huge victory in itself because I hadn't done that in more than a year. I was so focused on being ""super healthy"" that I always came up with excuses to avoid eating with them. Generally I would join them later in the evening at a bar, and most of the time I wouldn't even drink, blaming my health issues. Which are real, but don't prevent me from eating out or drinking alcohol!

But yesterday night I decided to grow some metaphorical balls, and I got pizza with them. Like a normal fucking person. And it tasted amazing. I'm Italian, we make literally the best pizza in the world - and from a nutritional standpoint it's definitely not bad, even though it's not low calorie of course - but somehow I had managed to convince myself that I didn't deserve to have it ever. I have been very punitive towards my body during this last relapse. So it felt refreshing to finally be a little kinder.

I'll be honest, lately I've regressed a lot in my recovery because of university stress. I'm overtraining and restricting again, which has undone most of my progress. So right now I'm especially proud of myself. Maybe this is the first step to actually get recovery right.",5.2692273180458615,6.733385533898307,6.124117647058824,75.88169990029911,68.66101694915254,8.942771684945166,32.102691924227315,9.325443323948027,3.0520616151545363,990,43,173,20,17,326,145,236,0.057999999999999996,0.7170000000000001,0.225,0.9916,0,1,3,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,3,5,11,13,1,2,12,0,19,14,1,1,1,37,29,13,0,3,6,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,14,13,11,3,2,4,0,4,6,5,0,1,11,2,23,8,30,13,7,35,0,1,0,1,7,17,1,7,15,128,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.13834835219353325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151041979007324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796509072679795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837312581532015,0.1728449548902573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878024797219774,0.0,0.0,0.15747597035388636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621486154783043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508127668204468,0.0,0.2777638306127673,0.0,0.29013489596090875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809158484494263,0.12824027052573025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612269463051127,0.15530354530709667,0.0,0.12059060768936555,0.0,0.0,0.10953216590336301,0.13106529578226142,0.07406966043076997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338747126130252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069627778742534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14797241899361585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155625432823781,0.15992421787924088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926230311875407,0.14209210178918216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052890179729217,0.0,0.0,0.0946334533007154,0.0,0.14242834077456518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660855496111082,0.13890578730930034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378924344644443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613667935911306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421438559145429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623985617639059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928959668347934,0.0,0.08266799357936926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697618195525755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142342888705796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007102742027176,0.0,0.0,0.09129607838254963
EDAnonymous,girlwhoeatscake,2019/10/06,"C/S rant My friend and I drunkenly ordered pizza and I was like hahahahahaha how dare you you leave this here and she responded with a well you’re losing wait and I’m not. 



So here I am chewing and spitting so I don’t eat it later, but down the drain it goes.",-0.8562499999999993,1.2869015892857192,2.100714285714286,92.46928571428577,95.60714285714286,4.942857142857143,17.714285714285715,6.6274283507984215,-0.022814285714285454,203,6,47,3,8,71,43,56,0.09,0.804,0.106,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,6,4,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,10,5,9,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,8,3,2,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547188771529381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433323201385413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4705417046108645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710505796882665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971554212736918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995573123263917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,agw212,2019/10/06,"I want to tell people the truth Ever since I can remember I’ve been skinny, I’ve always been asked if I was anorexic/had an eating disorder. I’ve always told them no and for  a while that was the truth but now I know I’m lying to everyone and I hate myself for it. Just tonight my manager asked me if I had an ED. I immediately said no but I felt like such a dirty lier. I started shaking, I felt sick to my stomach and couldn’t think about anything else for what seemed like forever. I want to tell her the truth, I don’t want to be a lier but I know she’ll treat me different, I know she’ll pay more attention to what I eat if she knows, I know she’ll try to fix me like everyone else who knows has, I know she can’t know.",0.21629716981131966,2.0417094150943456,2.683109276729564,93.52579599056608,83.7798742138365,6.239150943396226,19.371462264150946,7.413659706084162,0.3290028301886796,563,15,135,9,16,194,83,159,0.174,0.679,0.147,-0.8047,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,5,9,1,1,8,0,14,5,2,0,4,32,36,10,0,7,7,0,2,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,5,3,3,0,14,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,9,3,30,7,11,22,1,6,0,0,0,0,14,0,0,4,8,82,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21557583767308425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660064119863473,0.0,0.24220541460833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534205729441626,0.14846442314550265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651041628061816,0.21642862085724368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171766306950631,0.0,0.2475626434691316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24875803291035584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278942416529291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5695357521656544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898605628410783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980694335619227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467439238367177,0.0,0.12322250342507378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11792863703308702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071570867018852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916893012705478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264478890069466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300420285696611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237813217345658,0.0,0.08794937022601322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292187011155279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheStrangledCat,2019/10/06,"Binging and not purging to remind myself how disgusting food is Hello, I really need help. I’ve eaten so much only because school is tomorrow and I thought that by eating literally everything I can in the house will be remind me that 

1) food is disgusting because my stomach hurts really badly, I feel like I’m going to faint and throw up and if that’s how eating feels like i don’t want it. 

2) so I can eat everything I want and taste something nice before going back to restriction",3.6945526315789454,5.66029175789474,5.437039473684212,77.2324013157895,73.52631578947368,8.539473684210527,26.61184210526316,9.188382445141503,2.514394736842105,387,14,68,9,8,132,64,95,0.15,0.7140000000000001,0.136,-0.5404,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,1,0,8,9,1,2,0,16,18,10,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,7,1,3,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,3,10,3,6,14,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,42,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609215198517762,0.1369182464159818,0.1999239942547892,0.0,0.139536732512403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5033840355076988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947531670974801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582860515844314,0.2342977626567155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965757354197279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18638967058994052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991377911555228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892133854093177,0.17554628403834674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022679168829795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054574889866865,0.12159068704076685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471581503581697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101023296676308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595869124365162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624147116298876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018351078638582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344184239800247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,accidental_OMAD,2019/10/06,"I can feel myself entering a binge eating phase of my disorder again I shift the same 40 pounds around over and over. I just want to starve myself without binge eating. 
I’m so disgusting. 
I feel at a complete loss.. I don’t want to do this again. I don’t want to gain the weight back... again.",0.6752142857142864,2.9927829499999987,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,86.16666666666666,5.428571428571429,16.9047619047619,6.868970318607317,-0.17302380952380947,227,5,51,3,7,72,38,60,0.168,0.7090000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.6875,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,7,2,1,0,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,10,10,2,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,3,9,0,9,10,1,9,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333749000596087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20158219647807188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27486614332893994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004541057886771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5365031735496962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26510844600910155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638801567040218,0.0,0.0,0.3192360390312972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25270954844850785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,phmwls,2019/10/06,"welp i build these stories in my head, i know they’re not real but they’re cemented in my head. and i’m a damsel in distress who won’t get her prince charming because she’s not dainty enough, and he deserves someone better anyway. and i’m a horrible sister, daughter, student, friend, but it doesn’t matter bc they shouldn’t care about me anyway. 

so i lay on the couch and mindlessly eat popcorn, it’s low cal anyway right? and i’ve biked maybe two miles, and I went up six flight of stairs, and I worked on a standing desk, and I had a short practice, and I had a small breakfast, if you could call that breakfast right, so popcorn is okay. 

then i see it, well i don’t really see it, but this story in my head is so real that I am almost sure i can see it, he’s found someone else, that’s why he’s gone off grid. and suddenly everything comes crashing down. 

the midterm coming up, a presentation after the other, the class i tutor, my boss, my sister, my family, the car, the bills.... and him... whom i want so desperately because he doesn’t want me. and suddenly everything comes out. 

and i know i can stop, but maybe i can’t, it doesn’t matter i don’t want to stop. and i’m doing it and it’s been a while but it flows like a river out of me and i don’t want it to stop. and when it does, i’m okay. im okay, but im not, because i don’t feel guilt or shame, i feel like I want to feel like this again. the calmness after the storm. 


and i love the rain, 

but i wish it didn’t storm.",-0.22290391337710247,1.872448141955836,1.896461761445991,96.72566970756249,88.0851735015773,4.815039645323559,17.715832551794698,6.243973517019112,-0.3387487594850369,1139,29,267,11,37,380,147,317,0.098,0.7070000000000001,0.195,0.9788,0,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,1,1,2,11,18,0,3,17,3,21,7,3,1,1,59,48,34,0,9,12,3,3,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,21,23,3,3,6,1,1,7,14,4,1,2,7,6,37,14,20,38,1,39,0,1,3,1,17,19,0,3,15,161,58,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599135966827447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357165112303015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936138460530729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808251747683344,0.0,0.107918965549581,0.0,0.0,0.2735357222833389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084510917300447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262819093692924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830880368134936,0.08842231958684961,0.0,0.0,0.10936915242639678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19025849445594112,0.0,0.0997839587306853,0.0,0.16055960178066486,0.15123548973680634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605673436015725,0.08177780762517257,0.0,0.05530114730784656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325891378427403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22866774267372894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634245067648773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551357791587673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553184206248708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21267683983371868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24095611539406694,0.06780886074589527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18078701816293594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530411627002264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17936912631108035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26548069554848297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976037192910632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033979960644764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121591030034265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951699537330878,0.09812204292982388,0.09551124590126024,0.0,0.1217198354260721,0.0,0.0,0.07705851549576262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,singformeimdrowning,2019/10/06,"Showers used to be my safe place It started when I was 16. I got sick a lot then, whether it be the stomach bug, a really rough cold, bronchitis, it just wasnt my year.

In the times when I was sick for a week or so, I would take a shower. A nice hot shower to let me feel not as gross and as sick as before.

It became a coping mechanism after that. If I had a rough day or stress Id sit down (dont judge me) and let the water roll over me, cleansing me, most imporantly comforting me, and making me feel overall better.

Over the last summer I lost a lot of weight. 30 or so lbs. I made a lot of progress against my ED and I felt a lot better about myself.

Now that I am back at college I have no way of grounding myself. No regulated food schedules and no scale to tsll if I have gone off the deep end or not. I trust numbers more than my eyes, because I know my brain lies to me about myself.

Now when I take a shower all I can see is my body. My fat rolls. My stretch marks. Im not completely skinny but I am certainly not fat anymore. But I cant make myself believe it, especially without knowing my exact weight for a month.

I lost my way of escaping myself for a small period of time. I no longer have a way to hide or reenergize myself. Im sad that the one time where I used to just be there ant not worry is now the time I hyper focus on myself even moreso than normal life. Im mad and sad. Idk what to do",1.4293750000000005,2.7130007138157914,3.553057894736842,91.24720526315792,78.04605263157895,6.442947368421053,21.37052631578948,7.087006719466742,0.4059151578947371,1083,28,252,12,25,371,159,304,0.13699999999999998,0.7929999999999999,0.071,-0.956,4,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,5,16,14,1,1,21,0,21,15,7,5,3,45,39,25,0,4,18,0,8,0,0,1,6,0,4,0,9,6,7,1,5,0,0,1,13,7,0,1,10,11,45,7,32,23,7,41,0,4,2,0,0,13,0,12,23,176,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072001134185704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311754486021726,0.0,0.06589304448963501,0.0,0.09197995625938048,0.12178482123353265,0.0,0.19120055918416695,0.0,0.12006796642881905,0.0,0.12066855281109952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333440848375358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971162982317555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668525794966645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573912064373696,0.0,0.0,0.07139500836254949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931105791567744,0.0,0.10378710537466622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070758552482184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645257471509063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502799167268298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881117251389027,0.08811096407963864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210666939450078,0.07634992563362009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23599454435018255,0.3675903085957409,0.0,0.10228107162375256,0.14430704911256445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627952800678923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590908168364972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324723118076104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293512975399415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924772690626413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861368516246088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650942613881476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382120915425075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254633633829296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521217136943478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18671686510676685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25739974415909755,0.08670641480029283,0.26325852440116954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419867228730678,0.0,0.0,0.10977461301647047,0.0,0.07678681258375644,0.0,0.0,0.06960893430080252
EDAnonymous,ProblematicText,2019/10/06,"DAE ever feel like they don’t have an ED IK this has been probably been posted a million times here, but I’m REaLLy feeling like an imposter like every time after I eat food. It’s like “nah I ate food I don’t have an Ed lololol stop kidding yourself. You you don’t belong in this community” 

> proceeds to fast for at least 20-36 hours depending on amount of food eaten/cals
> during fasting feels depressed af and hating my body and feels like they can relate to posts here ONLY DURING fASTING

I don’t even wanna eat food anymore",3.8547222222222217,5.145848175925926,4.862037037037037,84.2491666666667,71.87037037037038,6.881481481481483,26.462962962962962,7.1686216300943375,1.2973851851851856,425,14,82,4,8,139,75,108,0.115,0.725,0.16,0.5006,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,2,0,4,7,1,0,4,0,10,8,1,1,1,11,17,3,0,1,1,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,7,1,4,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,4,9,5,9,14,2,15,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,15,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137966498166154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714993017642647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141005772942717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711101229378064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749852944101265,0.11983127845639302,0.11161595383772152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26793348831037506,0.2839206335599477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6407574861329648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079169791427592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046125158547772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236031200468046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075325465739353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25374898095017906,0.0,0.1428305235630124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486691731531842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075508416889893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449454866914236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KMH039,2019/10/06,"Dont forget it's getting colder! I just weighed myself before bed and couldnt figure out how I had gained 3lbs just today.

I realized that I weighed myself after my show this morning and was naked. I was weighing myself now with sweat pants and a heavy sweatshirt on. I took them off and had actually lost weight!

So just a quick reminder to anyone disappointed by the scale, remember it's getting chilly and you might have on more layers than you thought. ❤",3.766363636363636,6.097911090909097,4.120454545454546,85.11318181818183,74.45454545454545,6.218181818181819,25.772727272727273,7.1686216300943375,1.2701090909090909,368,13,67,4,8,115,65,88,0.07400000000000001,0.8740000000000001,0.053,-0.4055,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,1,2,7,2,0,0,3,0,8,5,1,1,0,18,13,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,7,4,0,4,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,7,1,13,0,9,4,1,9,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,50,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.2762682258413977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795258408612146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409002688076541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33179525121734604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958198395779679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309040966549171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003281272184401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207011335050921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247525950915962,0.0,0.0,0.2683490622125885,0.0,0.3145384598918388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447438543855601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lacroixbitch23,2019/10/06,Do you ever watch cooking videos and get anxiety from the amount of oil they use? I was watching Emma chamberlain and she was making something I forgot what but the AMOUNT OF OIL was insane. Like I wonder what it’s like not to care amount how much oil you are using.,2.7100000000000013,4.927347169811323,3.460981132075472,89.12883018867926,77.30188679245283,5.749433962264153,20.033962264150947,6.742157984588678,0.3214709433962266,212,5,41,2,5,67,39,53,0.142,0.748,0.11,-0.2124,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,4,1,11,12,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,7,3,4,8,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,3,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493940764450147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33238534896509303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948915390568461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032493827643033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185406125794645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21761186697210635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23965228469863095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25097572717689365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5631298798074411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535401374476919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,forever-lurk,2019/10/06,"Fitness trackers are low key triggering and I just want a glass of wine 💩 So I quit using my fit bit because it was ~*triggering*~ me but now that I’m on company insurance in order to get a cheaper rate if I track my steps/exercise I’ll basically get a discount after a certain amount of time. I had gifted my fit bit away but after telling my mom about the whole thing she gave me her old one lmao. 

Now I’m staring at this stupid thing like the world is about to end.

It’s so aggravating because I’m very skeptical at how accurate it actually is. Which is what caused me a lot strife to begin with. It would say that I took +10k steps so I’d take an extra 10,000 more just incase. You see where I’m going with this 🙃

But on one hand I’m like ok I can finally lose this binge weight but on the other it’s just another unnecessary stressor.

Best wishes from my shirataki noodles to yours.",1.7275785024154615,3.83356510326087,3.5955797101449285,87.49096618357491,80.03260869565217,7.132367149758455,23.809178743961354,8.167268648758528,1.4206772946859902,705,25,149,14,18,237,120,184,0.107,0.71,0.184,0.9262,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,3,12,9,2,0,9,1,8,3,1,5,1,21,24,10,0,4,8,1,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,15,3,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,0,2,4,5,18,5,20,19,8,26,0,2,2,0,8,13,0,2,11,93,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.16405701560802333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628433871033738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795056478826175,0.0,0.0,0.20496396966500685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642742451746632,0.0,0.36707837396612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727014949840165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890092248252426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841629173926558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566739675183232,0.0,0.09554422652235507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426602216274486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18807885963900275,0.0,0.14292625542597928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968954881107484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640951628975413,0.0,0.2278395752702063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881211499388502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369263214343108,0.0,0.0,0.1339667272939759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264023487169443,0.0,0.14694083936269314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233776694319116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802982180779808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18678311943633813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519829130716688,0.0,0.13871334934264354,0.09915920313866336,0.0,0.0,0.2047200604682314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876955681596109,0.1933251628879467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942481977415155,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schrodingercatto,2019/10/06,"I just told my boyfriend I'm bulimic. Um so, we were talking about our pasts and the topic just came out. I didn't want to tell him because I was afraid of ruining everyting, but he would've ended up noticing anyways. But now I feel bad because I hate that I'm this impulsive and I can't control what comes through my mind. Even though he understood, idk I'm worried, I don't want him to think I'm stupid or so. I'm sad and anxious now :(",0.5912903225806474,2.703670118279572,2.5015161290322574,93.69227419354841,84.3763440860215,5.870537634408603,25.429032258064517,7.1686216300943375,1.0696374193548386,343,15,78,5,10,114,64,93,0.33399999999999996,0.6659999999999999,0.0,-0.9857,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,1,10,6,2,1,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,19,19,9,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,6,1,0,6,1,13,0,7,13,0,8,0,2,0,0,9,2,0,1,4,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586812616775773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911880246768893,0.2791671274474146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618911453411773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972452613827198,0.0,0.0,0.2568195857294693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028075611125975,0.0,0.0,0.15123856814502065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157787376228982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260695036154455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312036655423532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26069427842828563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185865069395258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404476612771387,0.20013786860510105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672059269714835,0.22497085098101227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187993892433089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701156690655315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325394403902537,0.0,0.16266021748488352,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aconfusedflower,2019/10/06,does candy cure sadness: a study i already know the answer but im gonna eat a ton anyways,0.29050000000000153,2.113939049999999,3.0599999999999987,90.935,83.5,4.0,25.0,3.1291,0.29000000000000004,71,3,15,0,2,25,18,20,0.122,0.878,0.0,-0.2382,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5202400874818992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125558201550917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4823955523777956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092305440036546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590882682269672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KenzieAfterDark,2019/10/06,"Bought a scale... ...From a thrift store.
And it’s completely inaccurate.
It’s been ranging like 6lb and it’s killing me, I don’t get to go to stores on my own very often (I wasn’t even on my own this time, just without my parents. My poor boyfriend had to sit and watch me freak and buy the scale and had no say in it other than telling me it’s not a good idea.) and when I saw the scale I snapped. I’m not allowed to own a scale and so I hadn’t weighed myself in a long time, and I saw I gained a fair few pounds and freaked and bought the scale immediately. I didn’t realize until tonight how inaccurate it is.

Does anyone know what I can do to fix this.. I’m panicking and this was my single chance to get a scale, I feel like absolute shit. It won’t stop changing and I just want a consistent answer. Should the batteries be changed? My bedroom floor is slightly creaky but I didn’t move it at all when I was weighing, I just don’t know what to do and I am so disappointed",1.1522009569377971,2.8344531196172262,2.758373205741627,94.87861244019142,80.00478468899522,6.313875598086125,23.44019138755981,7.273561745256523,0.6246784688995222,758,26,184,10,19,249,108,209,0.121,0.828,0.051,-0.9237,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,10,8,2,0,12,0,20,3,1,2,1,33,33,20,1,2,7,1,1,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,14,13,2,1,6,0,7,2,11,5,0,0,13,6,25,3,16,17,6,17,0,1,3,0,3,6,1,1,10,120,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148126756921914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280990973733579,0.0,0.2121502924950965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770696418778893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364407252344704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230949814805683,0.14455218079967438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114292474070728,0.0,0.11499483843464943,0.16971371376343475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284179332738684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22385991900635427,0.0,0.22240222839404006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19770681459740144,0.0,0.0,0.17906508319843714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215056059306252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246753153534827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090938398710813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076997407892499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16916582022086954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685462216820685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359728877584793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16695220398957494,0.11934574133133195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19504913908402044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ASackOfSkinAndBones,2019/10/06,Yo I just ate half a pumpkin pie... And I feel like shit. Who knew pumpkin pie would make you feel this way. Holy shit I can’t even explain it. Instant regret.,-0.8599999999999994,1.275728454545458,0.5718787878787914,102.7178181818182,97.78787878787878,2.64,18.72121212121212,3.1291,-0.9739042424242426,121,4,28,0,5,38,27,33,0.27399999999999997,0.6579999999999999,0.068,-0.8176,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,9,8,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,2,4,1,0,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23347676648735474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574702619805529,0.2525332783156716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726973254897547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359572747512057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7257046715817194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805838547132121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25110910583393303,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nottamain,2019/10/06,"TW ""That's unhealthy"" ""You're eating chocolate cake? Really?""

So? Is it so life-threatening to eat chocolate cake, does it warrant your unprofessional input? Are you my fucking doctor or nutritionist? I struggle every waking minute, day in and day out, with these fucking thoughts that tell me I'm better off a dying skeleton than being a normal weight. I spent over an hour justifying eating those cake slices. And what for? I threw the rest of it away. Because you told me it is so unhealthy.

""Why are you so weird about food? It's not a big deal""

TO YOU. It's not a big deal to YOU. Let me eat in peace. You don't care that I'm underweight, that I don't eat dinner or breakfast. That I don't eat with you anymore. That I hate anything remotely related to food, even the sound of hot oil or chewing. You don't even care. But you care if it's a competition, who can eat the least amount of sugar. Or the least amount of dairy. You notice when I don't share my snacks. It's because I need them. I need to eat them all because I can't bring myself to eat anything else. Is that so selfish of me? 

None of this is about you at all.

Just leave me alone. I'm not asking for criticism, and if I was, I don't want to hear it from you.",0.7736278938452834,3.003206316205535,2.4390669113495207,93.66928359683796,84.65217391304347,5.195313382269905,20.102907961603613,6.5431188927421005,0.12177933370976925,950,28,210,10,28,311,126,253,0.151,0.8140000000000001,0.035,-0.9768,0,1,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,13,2,1,11,11,3,1,10,0,17,21,1,0,2,24,36,16,1,6,11,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,21,6,17,0,1,0,1,2,11,6,0,0,5,6,35,5,28,29,8,15,0,0,0,2,23,9,2,6,4,139,56,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666052739763147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298164358531533,0.0,0.0,0.13771234754492342,0.0,0.07822344185447498,0.0,0.07861402213202583,0.0,0.0,0.15301979517242764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400242476229052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559321766561989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792499066024468,0.17252744068113327,0.0,0.0,0.08683989869606333,0.0,0.0,0.08564338861683256,0.07322325723900944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7705700588223707,0.06989848541019594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053113562630587,0.0,0.07049854557849305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023566940375823,0.0,0.0,0.15470963347892894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261027352867445,0.0,0.0,0.09430613312168416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240155797528774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859817136311972,0.0,0.08556183860506432,0.059101078484464185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408570297064075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198227957469889,0.0,0.09526285192785157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053603396582166514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747372581968374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313434056562286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642742484750745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995362976530965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049352807320358766,0.0,0.0,0.10189180004575228,0.0,0.0,0.07550233311377369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,2thesun,2019/10/06,how do y’all get rid of bloating quickly please help ya girl out ive barely eaten anything today and when i did i bloated like CRAZY and a guy is coming over in two hours if you have any tips please drop them ily,3.5407971014492787,3.871652065217394,4.24217391304348,91.9586231884058,71.82608695652173,6.133333333333334,24.02898550724637,3.1291,0.11525507246376865,169,4,38,0,3,54,42,46,0.098,0.636,0.266,0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,6,8,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,7,1,4,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,5,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083415256460854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430309727863252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544001700142432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15429744780309956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924225860907295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979531043538565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29084001762892303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428305109049522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.648366098357004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799377856389143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884939585772383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DeathmetalFiretruck,2019/10/06,"What if instead of calorie numbers, labels had a “battery” with percentages of power based on a 2000cal/day diet? So instead of 500cal, it would just show a 25% charge. 1000 is 50%, etc....

Random thought I just had while pondering the leaf patterns in my dry salad. Not sure if this would even work, but it’s interesting to mentally visualize. Battery icons on food.",4.188407960199002,6.56089532835821,5.144104477611943,78.07098258706469,73.32835820895522,7.451741293532338,32.062189054726375,8.344100000000001,2.8035592039801007,285,14,48,5,6,93,55,67,0.023,0.9209999999999999,0.055,0.4712,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,1,13,6,5,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,8,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,35,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21939517680038795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37940310676616795,0.22469307520277396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41136054210909595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428327097068722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206261743266681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700738082932597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476632408734041,0.0,0.0,0.4833241272792864,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,piipiistorm,2019/10/06,"My wife is very well meaning but good god.... Phonecall:  ""Hey honey, I'm in the car with my friends! Did you eat today? No? Are you going to eat today? No? Well I'll get you something later if you want...No? Then drink those shakes I bought for you in the fridge if you're not going to eat anything.""

Like HOLY *FUCK* do you not understand the kind of questions you're asking me in front of your friends???? You're a beautiful open book, do they know about my past crying binges? How many times I tell you about my anxieties? Do you show messages? DO I HAVE ANY PRIVACY???? I'm pretty sure I dont because you spill out your emotions like a waterfall to anybody that will listen

I love my wife, I'd jump in front of a bullet for her. But being honest about my relapse has just continously bitten me in the ass over and over again. I'm not sure how much more I can handle until I completely shut down.",-0.021648351648352104,2.3287982637362674,1.533406593406596,96.53659340659344,93.83516483516485,4.338461538461538,17.439560439560438,6.093298490706669,-0.3014131868131873,692,19,150,7,26,222,111,182,0.079,0.6990000000000001,0.221,0.9855,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,11,1,0,9,14,1,1,7,0,13,7,1,2,2,20,27,9,0,2,8,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,4,4,0,4,3,1,7,6,2,2,0,2,2,28,12,22,23,2,26,0,0,0,3,25,11,2,3,10,91,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907672097403056,0.0,0.1114552917579624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198935119914518,0.0,0.1362039545645354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881353523970315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275708627070772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003770261603414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17075194671014826,0.14272437268478505,0.0,0.44724312300094027,0.0,0.16388581742584268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251252027000916,0.13469149010511405,0.07611895182058145,0.0,0.16560218936161827,0.1222009741762784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171758226511686,0.08006945451270414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423571779165005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149426435595982,0.0,0.0,0.1477105575743486,0.0,0.15870316516665478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710164287898473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908113476328982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822288408156045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16321030227054015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216213831299526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27462920080855113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734272697996218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849551757598996,0.0,0.2762012090439868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516722935259343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021257160656405,0.08593392679396479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619922904184668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ta1kativ,2019/10/06,"Anorexia has fixed my life. \*\*TW: discussion of weight and numbers\*\*

Before my ED, I was overweight, depressed, friendless, unhealthy, and unhappy. Now, I'm at a very healthy weight and a BMI of 22. I battled with depression for 6 years, and I would mentally torture myself nearly every night. In the deepest and darkest time of my depression, all I wanted to do was die, so I gave up everything to try to starve to death. I ate only extremely healthy foods and I exercised constantly. This actually caused me to accidentally recover from depression, and for the first time in over half a decade, I was truly \*happy\*. Today, I honestly feel happy all the time, and I love to exercise and stay fit. I have since gone vegan. I cook all of my meals, and I \*enjoy\* eating healthily now. Best of all, I have friends. I used to be a pessimistic and negative party pooper that no one liked to be around. Now, people enjoy spending time with me because I'm motivational, and I crack clever jokes. An anorexic thought or two always comes back now and again, but I maintain a healthy weight, and as I said, I'm really truly happy 99% of the time. 

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Without Anorexia, I would probably still be extremely lazy and unhealthy and overweight.  I probably wouldn't be vegan. I would probably still be staying up all night crying and watching graphic and sad videos to further fuel my depression. I probably wouldn't have any friends. I probably wouldn't have such an optimistic outlook on life. I probably wouldn't have stopped playing as many video games to pursue other talents, paths, and skills. I probably would have never discovered my passion for soccer and long-distance running. I probably wouldn't have discovered the infinite, delicious possibilities of cooking every day. I probably wouldn't be in 3 AP classes and 3 Honors Classes with a perfect GPA. I probably wouldn't be a polyglot. I probably wouldn't be studying in Germany for my senior year of high school. Anorexia saved my life.",5.6172958257713255,7.817509229916903,6.065935619447894,73.74459833795017,68.88919667590028,9.411443308816509,35.7169739230108,9.83838024301492,4.058512388957877,1596,84,255,40,29,514,185,361,0.168,0.649,0.183,0.8652,0,0,0,0,0,0,73.0,0,0,0,6,11,27,2,0,14,0,32,18,0,3,7,56,45,26,2,13,3,0,4,1,2,12,7,1,0,0,3,26,11,1,3,10,1,3,12,8,0,5,8,6,40,19,40,17,6,44,0,6,1,2,7,14,0,1,26,176,43,6,0.0,0.0,0.06065527775603781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05171876086778995,0.0673459865599525,0.07552632820532706,0.04226820296494575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533200676891728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04779411777859977,0.0,0.037889713109602284,0.0,0.05289016741440592,0.0,0.0652288742314898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385132088570182,0.0,0.05354187962139295,0.0,0.0671685412404119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827543372162302,0.04008546994392408,0.0,0.2676743050654129,0.0,0.06450810192929166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360109253997548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473820058130502,0.0,0.055861793783677616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0314279348921542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05286985127177938,0.07515926688686131,0.0,0.0960431236187783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849861365172844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06567121346467182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170783656774507,0.030366275904855213,0.0,0.0,0.055006093061610285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056098205510664606,0.0,0.0,0.06301641562455798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062638616222873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04793852940647784,0.0,0.0,0.1166583675384328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04211850578475409,0.047272429400495836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043091135610008865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007153687263808,0.0,0.0,0.7371613404212919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03981871723021017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059124577753803725,0.0,0.0,0.06290517776723932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05141607521737383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325000252574691,0.09927570392175518,0.051965188766594776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049344911236724284,0.1812182809765829,0.0,0.058916608504306,0.0,0.0,0.04219983553156639,0.0,0.06071736823437189,0.0,0.0,0.053682816649430636,0.0,0.051285199244090564,0.03666121187290973,0.0,0.0,0.2270677438068577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991615397264806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661532089973375,0.0,0.07552632820532706,0.08005283625762459
EDAnonymous,notracisthasblackcat,2019/10/06,"I think this is the closest I'll get to recovery I'm just a few pounds of being officially underweight by CDC standards which shouldn't excite me but kinda does (doctor's scale is a whole nother story tho). I go out to eat and I get food I legitimately like (not just salad) but I never finish it and I usually never leave beyond a 7.5 on the hunger scale which I guess is what ""normal"" people do? Idk I still feel like I'm restricting. I still weigh myself every morning and if the scale goes up more than 0.2 lbs for no reason I'm irritable and upset for hours. I measure my waist every morning and sometimes other areas. I weigh myself in the evenings too (which is stupid I know) just to guesstimate how much I will wake up weighing and I could probably stop doing that if I felt like it, it's more out of curiosity. I don't have any fear foods anymore per se but I have a whole list of foods I avoid because my body just doesn't seem to like them (when I eat them I mysteriously put on weight in spite of the same calories) so idk if that counts as fear foods but I'm not gonna stop doing that. I fast a couple times a week for half the day just to keep my weight down. I don't really think I'm fat anymore and I don't think I want to lose anymore (literally no muscle left on me to sacrifice), I just am not satisfied with my body. Is this the best I can hope for?",1.7148056821227549,3.5221600905923367,3.5163937282229973,89.51249463950684,78.75609756097559,6.366604127579737,20.44612704368802,7.321109707123232,0.4457875636558568,1074,27,236,14,26,360,152,287,0.171,0.726,0.10400000000000001,-0.9502,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,2,2,15,14,2,4,13,0,20,19,5,2,2,51,40,19,0,8,16,0,4,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,13,10,15,5,8,0,0,2,12,7,0,1,1,4,36,7,30,34,8,30,1,1,0,0,2,14,0,7,18,156,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707552178580432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934597330594428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06012728478778056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351187104420588,0.0,0.0,0.2191236075756337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875242003754321,0.10913830374599168,0.0,0.06361173704847932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095761293665753,0.08631659000989472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018574800449436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514781694320171,0.0,0.16620932431699573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22198471771751024,0.049873072041643034,0.07046522030990622,0.09470554730770664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4770817484391928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306595456448912,0.0,0.05605682722994863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865812259186004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796730642629567,0.0971360980666708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767176368294974,0.0,0.0,0.05420749079849032,0.0,0.0,0.10444075177118213,0.10716775844349734,0.0,0.0,0.1927532904769163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034789357913218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250844103033828,0.0,0.15214755527933538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966418468797084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838143575162774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634575075067798,0.0,0.0,0.09915591996586078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318842646972163,0.10141372085811036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979405394715549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755303077477312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575408740874843,0.1649273878100692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896049354090618,0.0,0.0,0.057515152767254135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863306720899868,0.0,0.05817777296363232,0.0,0.07911944782646536,0.2402229308431773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024602467609172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drowningbrain,2019/10/06,had a birthday meal and cried ...tears of joy. my first time having pho. so. good. and i didnt do all the bad things i normally do after a meal. in fact im going to have a snack. today was a.good day even though ive been relapsing the hardest i ever have for the past few months.,-0.42378571428571377,1.6208177166666644,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,88.5,4.761904761904762,15.238095238095234,6.1826913282559595,-0.6571904761904759,213,4,50,2,7,72,48,60,0.10099999999999999,0.775,0.124,0.3488,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,6,0,10,3,0,0,3,6,11,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,0,5,2,5,7,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,35,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22513065068376367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29617702967420906,0.1738897107485704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808875483970096,0.24389670669305746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293480195649585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323753012859087,0.452307437100121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912477853655167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521691870752946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641811649839525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573933310998584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913087789568322,0.0,0.2649111216658624,0.0,0.15722402409378547,0.0,0.25557869286383184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,comfortbun,2019/10/06,the excess amount of fat around my waist HAS to be the reason why i have no friends or significant other right? Right? i blame my fat putrid body on everything. maybe i have no friends because everyones too disgusted to look at me,3.766363636363636,6.097911090909097,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,74.45454545454545,8.036363636363637,26.90909090909091,8.841846274778883,2.185563636363636,184,7,35,4,4,58,34,44,0.201,0.647,0.152,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,4,4,4,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,6,4,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,0,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468115557686401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900921521360118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30796259203988896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649245518507008,0.2491747008084559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284058024540421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328204325492264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785352006804968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850594939488057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735404985687436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501752806290665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catsinsunglassess,2019/10/06,"In a week long binge I’ve lost so much weight over the past few months and i finally got about 10lbs from my second goal weight and since then I’ve been eating pretty “normally” (like not being as strict with what i eat and giving in to temptation a lot) although i feel absolutely horrible for it. Not only is my stomach fucked to all hell and back, I’m bound to gain all the weight back.

For lunch i literally could not bring myself to eat “real food” because i had breakfast which is against the rules. So for lunch instead of eating, i had a little bit of chocolate and a rice cake. 

So naturally, for dinner, i ate a massive hamburger and I’m contemplating binging on some cookies since i haven’t had a real cookie in months.

I’m just... i want to lose more weight. I want to get in control again. Why can’t i control myself this week?

I’m so sad",3.9742248062015513,4.902297197674418,5.024418604651164,84.56922480620159,71.2093023255814,7.826356589147288,26.54263565891473,8.07648339933343,1.49397519379845,666,21,138,9,12,219,103,172,0.129,0.8029999999999999,0.068,-0.9214,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,6,10,6,2,0,9,0,10,16,1,2,2,25,24,13,0,4,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,14,3,1,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,7,5,15,1,23,15,8,19,1,3,0,1,1,7,2,2,12,89,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178263439499286,0.0,0.0680920062651763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194876485249467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505647566804586,0.0891843078815355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.457192798391133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05647947593025676,0.0,0.0,0.12236318944650887,0.0,0.0,0.1350695176007876,0.0,0.0,0.10326594660768976,0.05835925943356255,0.10715395601617272,0.0,0.0,0.0893376426106181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545715572768341,0.11195393341279904,0.0,0.09885203465488453,0.0,0.12496505517352545,0.12193503970641215,0.0949643539382085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783176420849359,0.0,0.08211322427649913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944344595697844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495378546671857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663142137186493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136402635508674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542808085356044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480075083729994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176850726306952,0.0,0.17919990753322124,0.544087808712655,0.0,0.0,0.10079294643464937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ureseth,2019/01/09,Buddy group Hey guys for all who needs support getting trough ed be free to join the buddy group i created. You can talk with me mostly about food and with the others. I am a chef and passionate about food. We can make recipes with ingredients you like or discuss pros and cons about certain foods (habits). Im a big fan of veggies and fish. Not vegetarian myself. Be welcome. Send me a pm for the link to this group and get trough this together.,2.4057471264367827,4.860600379310345,3.235172413793105,89.0854022988506,79.6896551724138,6.16551724137931,23.459770114942533,7.3871296695380915,0.9736804597701147,351,12,71,5,9,111,61,87,0.0,0.754,0.24600000000000002,0.9661,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,0,3,6,0,0,6,0,5,4,0,1,2,17,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,9,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,7,11,8,2,2,0,0,0,1,13,1,0,2,1,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8200965989521146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23622517268124996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22384549089668287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441951009580089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044670259978584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090391745672074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762852590371136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25654229985610955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170702881604595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,empTXistence,2019/01/09,"Just re-downloaded MFP Deleted it 6 months ago, but whaddya know, I lost 18 pounds since my last login. Graph looks halarious. I'm bout to yeet another 20 pounds asap 


But anyways, idk why but lately I've been feeling very very fat. Havnt put any weight on but it's time to stop maintaining and get back into active dieting for me. ",1.6174230769230782,4.258007107692308,2.82798076923077,89.25889423076927,85.61538461538461,6.3269230769230775,21.971153846153847,7.645422480735847,1.2021153846153845,262,9,51,5,8,84,56,65,0.11,0.81,0.08,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,10,7,5,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,3,0,5,5,0,10,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22164699695354065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003701971177845,0.2621906618643633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19226673425332502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642866291688756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306365368566111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741645142713846,0.20381746530163167,0.282058076974351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099721638056956,0.0,0.2729501961355965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995810043557186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25136110266298123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683718686809088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209046167256264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145801402723956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126213949536477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044835890911193,0.0,0.0,0.22562386139917315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugafreedreams,2019/01/09,"Today wasn't perfect, but it sure as hell wasn't the worst either Today I slept for 8 hours, replenished my electrolytes, took multivitamin and magnesium pills and purposefully kept down a high protein meal. I did still purge once, but that's a huge improvement compared to some days when I purged 5 times and didn't do any of the healing things I did today.

It's easy to fall into black and white thinking with purging, but remember that purging once a day is only half as harmful to you than purging twice a day. And even if you slip up and purge once every week, that's 14 times less harmful than doing it twice a day. EDs are deep-rooted demons that don't just magically disappear, so remember to be kind to yourself and try to not beat yourself up over slip-ups. Instead of thinking that everything is ruined after one streak-ending purge, try to focus on what good and healing things you can do for your body today and tomorrow. 💙",13.143885819521179,7.549940303867405,11.625828729281773,65.44124769797422,57.56353591160221,14.497605893186009,45.08379373848987,10.864195022040775,4.750303130755063,749,27,140,11,6,237,112,181,0.066,0.782,0.151,0.9441,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,2,6,9,1,0,7,0,14,6,2,0,2,26,19,17,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,11,11,1,1,4,0,0,3,5,5,0,4,8,2,9,4,23,10,4,27,2,1,2,0,4,8,1,2,16,92,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109118731241507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878922333235214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455489275658501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186407151448588,0.0,0.0,0.08847328858832752,0.0,0.11285938812952802,0.0,0.1203864078483899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235163738784497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152645220581342,0.0,0.0,0.13191462799266435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394892217751227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279599255996433,0.09076857852083037,0.1018756753109343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30348045489743364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697334056297828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262471129765574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779820165446203,0.1716606220061287,0.0,0.0,0.15621566301800754,0.0,0.5078790622377578,0.0,0.1488243490869947,0.1818877006030747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074473108838446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roseofdeathh,2019/01/09,"Not drinking enough? So I'm on day 5 of fasting (absolutely no food or broth or anything except gum and 1-2 breath mints a day) and usually I drink a lot of water when I'm fasting, but this time I really don't want to. Even the thought makes me cringe. All I've had in the last few days is 2 cans of diet coke and a can of Rockstar zero. I'm super dehydrated and struggling to even just sit up, but I can't seem to make myself drink (I'm not worried about gaining water weight I just panic every time I think about drinking water). Has anyone else done this?",3.3480508474576283,3.918829864406781,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,72.38983050847456,7.255932203389831,25.76694915254237,7.1686216300943375,1.071115254237288,436,13,94,4,8,148,79,118,0.129,0.805,0.066,-0.7333,0,0,4,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,2,5,0,8,12,1,2,1,21,18,10,0,1,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,11,0,3,4,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,2,7,1,13,15,4,14,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,10,57,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867469683199904,0.1592482362413799,0.12789908753797835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007030540268859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905069764738675,0.0,0.6090176768569718,0.0,0.0,0.1298351624037842,0.0,0.0,0.16059250349452844,0.0,0.20530956944916573,0.0,0.1309497632273313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879369351115438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266896980183751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213425161363498,0.0,0.0,0.20749082324725587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18235426417767026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956733196431834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149037849617033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624808510687141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958816089521973,0.0,0.12338773068583896,0.1812556706503758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17117540773520273,0.0,0.09167193989852558,0.0,0.0,0.18926216110291355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783861541420174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinandmint,2019/01/09,"I WENT TO THE DENTIST! I've been so scared to go ever since developing bulimia and I'm so proud of myself for finally going. 2 years of bulimia and avoidance landed me 7 cavities, despite baking soda precautions. Luckily they aren't that deep and I'm privileged enough to be on my parent's dental insurance ($2000 bill turned into $200). I think I got off pretty lucky and now feel a new sense of motivation to recover. I'm too vapid to risk losing my teeth down the line. 

The hygienist was nice about it all and I only felt sort of anxious with lying about being in school (not wanting to explain taking time off for ED recovery) and explaining my shitty flossing.  No one mentioned EDs, I'm not sure if she could tell. I hope this post can motivate some of you out there to go sooner rather than later, and take pristine care of your teeth in the meantime (really mad at myself for not flossing!)",4.420083041958044,5.83385010795455,5.847954545454549,77.24914335664339,70.64772727272728,9.051748251748252,28.311188811188806,9.466822959209583,2.666983041958042,713,26,129,16,13,241,128,176,0.141,0.7040000000000001,0.155,0.5966,1,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,4,9,12,1,3,5,0,7,5,2,2,3,32,27,10,0,5,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,10,2,1,7,0,1,4,5,5,0,1,5,2,15,7,29,19,3,23,0,1,0,0,9,11,0,5,7,82,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21070261845070687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015883952709028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891263902858354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19271414435408116,0.0,0.0,0.1687084976158097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430479432432967,0.0,0.17907834417677304,0.2043120128782956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31799289752879434,0.0,0.14916866477688845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185245991570886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086563947657765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801320127520014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263836468705077,0.1418488598478697,0.0,0.0,0.2070966995996991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786245206556232,0.189747187002244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948274525638812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672852088360767,0.18875754552857546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428256469848975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578297253149888,0.0,0.2804638269694681,0.0,0.1630175015104065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950774038075025,0.0,0.0,0.10875517449014184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028687507862798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000812039414422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728961514831263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010598666855428
EDAnonymous,RedditRanOutOfNamess,2019/01/09,My roommate just made a big deal about washing all the dishes I haven't eaten since Sunday and he's whining about me not doing the dishes? BOI,4.49758620689655,5.4753444482758615,5.120172413793104,84.17956896551725,70.0344827586207,5.8000000000000025,24.84482758620689,3.1291,0.5231931034482757,115,3,21,0,2,37,26,29,0.073,0.927,0.0,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,1,1,5,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6342108827479549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5820865481748722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5088730751748634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tigerchik,2019/01/09,"Recovery success: 9% increase in bone density after 13 years at a healthy weight. Ask me anything. I am a 31 year old in a very strong recovery from AN. At age 18, I was diagnosed with osteoporosis in my spine and osteopoenia in my hips after 4-ish years of AN. I went from 93 lbs at age 17 to 115 lbs at age 18, and have been from 115 to 125 lbs since age 18. I am 5'6"", so the key point here is 13 years at a healthy weight. 

Based on a bone density scan done last week, I have a 9% improvement in my spine (osteoporosis to osteopoenia) and my hips are NORMAL (up from osteopoenia). 

I lift weights very occasionally, but am going to do more of it SO I GET MORE OF THAT GOOD BONE DENSITY STUFF. 

Basically, what worked here was 13 years at a healthy weight and pretty normal eating habits. I'm an ovo lacto vegetarian. I don't take a calcium supplement. I've been on birth control pills for those 13 years.

From ages 18-25 I had some stress fractures in my feet and legs. I am a long distance runner and at age 18 once I hit a healthy weight, I REALLY upped the running mileage because that was the reward for the healthy weight. In retrospect, that was a bad idea - my skeleton was still adjusting to the new pounds. I haven't had a serious running injury for 6 years. 

I share this in hopes of providing hope to any of you who have been diagnosed with bone loss. You can turn it around.

I tried to think of all the details that might be relevant here but I am happy to answer questions if there's a way I can help anyone else with this MISERABLE illness. 

Thanks for letting me share. Not a lot of people in my life are aware I even have this issue. ",3.411596385542172,4.693674412650607,4.4813686746988,86.58652289156629,72.94578313253012,8.324048192771086,26.834216867469877,8.841846274778883,1.832193108433735,1283,45,277,25,25,419,168,332,0.07,0.747,0.183,0.9892,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,2,0,6,9,15,0,2,23,0,31,22,10,1,1,28,43,11,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,13,10,7,1,5,1,0,6,3,5,0,0,12,7,29,10,50,27,6,51,0,2,1,0,8,22,0,7,22,169,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06066978839910572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062381746368036776,0.09141210762358314,0.07341698364092633,0.07942095728915037,0.08340470921234609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744914481086755,0.05438511021556373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006308123110612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110427344411767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091298715980196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129001366706684,0.07452833462463268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892617997411119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046611561774706635,0.0,0.05070338263229105,0.07482996179680476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497185467251984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05979945542494825,0.0,0.0,0.17722279581794045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071375401291403,0.0,0.09311809327545477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272276656490649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122917758854444,0.06301574244589167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895315609885417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584806409384039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464384183627203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616515435910736,0.0,0.0,0.17482504033033294,0.0,0.0,0.09361695133220813,0.09501189191287313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185098717124424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433774732529327,0.0,0.0,0.09076451990665446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999420893824614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05715391190593465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380021351599889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124783557867641,0.0,0.1021963723035678,0.0,0.10213072115531854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707916203723675,0.0,0.0,0.0821379018913018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05716586818575401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060571657004214005,0.09704114753997198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722472061210534,0.0,0.07081533194677032,0.0715635157220891,0.6518446966126933,0.0,0.08270392004751337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495014895989859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021642519754569
EDAnonymous,jellyboness,2019/01/09,"What do you tell yourself to force yourself to eat? It’s Jan. 9 and I haven’t had over 500 cal in a day since Jan 1. Yesterday I had 200 and today I’ve had nothing. I’ve had a headache for 2 days, I’m freezing cold, I can’t focus at work... I need to eat. Something “real.” 
Do y’all have any strategies for trying to snap out of it and eat a real meal to keep the body alive? I can’t bear the thought of eating but I know I need to do it. 
I’ve already tried smoking weed and it doesn’t stimulate my appetite for anything but gum (dry mouth ick). ",0.34090909090908994,1.8216558181818208,2.4504132231404974,97.08652892561985,81.72727272727272,5.0611570247933875,22.570247933884296,5.565023196281405,0.0011421487603309188,418,14,103,2,11,141,76,121,0.012,0.9440000000000001,0.044000000000000004,0.5122,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,12,7,2,1,0,15,18,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,5,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,2,10,0,15,13,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057811391279924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127915053621353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465976707797106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18176443704242384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106537450405247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6697682943268851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544857988290805,0.0,0.0,0.08993092216290806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242670351026904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15701464984267186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725107307295155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536267862725218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597618644511793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430264379561922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990994223864755,0.0,0.0,0.15510927096359084,0.0,0.0,0.2221983203125586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191300908437746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,originalthrowawayna,2019/01/09,"hey i wanted to ask a couple questions because i feel so alone in this

1. is anyone elses only form of exercise walking? i can't afford the gym atm, or use youtube tutorials as i rely on public wifi for internet access.

2. dae constantly feel cold even though they're at a ""healthy/normal"" weight?? i always put myself down for this bc i ~~can't possibly be cold all the time if i'm not underweight~~ lmao logic ://

sorry if any of this comes across as shitty, i'm just curious if any else is in the same boat :^)",3.2530339805825257,4.678441718446604,5.011832524271849,82.06202063106798,73.5631067961165,7.868446601941748,25.496359223300967,8.472884824447931,1.7534281553398063,399,13,78,7,8,136,80,103,0.11,0.8370000000000001,0.053,-0.7006,1,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,1,1,15,13,8,0,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,13,12,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,5,2,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21580096378529967,0.0,0.0,0.173374494532752,0.0,0.0,0.28338762185693445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569207522389332,0.2134922543158171,0.0,0.0,0.19479103866220432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701599474049802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948605418877525,0.0,0.2251661039565109,0.0,0.0,0.23054941302463305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481206720434812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376216272432494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21070892785170908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584692559359146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23489768669211844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20946210781552746,0.23341395924438724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332450329092204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047153379858604,0.0,0.12149799158848977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995851109971028,0.0,0.0,0.12289774485649738,0.0,0.0,0.2537296888443971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thegreenjellybean,2019/01/09,"I can’t do this anymore I finally went to see a psychologist. After a lot A LOT of patience and pushing from my close friend, I went. 

She made me tell her what the problem is right away. She pressured me into telling her I was struggling with this fucking ED when I wasn’t ready to tell her yet and she could SEE how much trouble I had getting it out. She made me weigh myself and check my BMI and do all these things I WAS NOT READY TO DO IN FRONT OF A COMPLETE STRANGER. 

I feel like I’m spiraling out of control. I was going to eat dinner, now I’m not. I was going to eat tomorrow, now I’m not.

I can’t believe she did that. I wasn’t READY. 

I’m losing my mind. I can’t do this anymore. I want to sleep and never wake up ",-0.14889054355919384,1.7813042151898768,2.075212211466866,96.73817944899479,85.96202531645571,4.730305286671632,21.319434102755025,5.900188976854957,-0.02406150409530916,558,19,133,4,17,188,84,158,0.122,0.8140000000000001,0.064,-0.8179,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,1,2,5,0,17,7,2,4,2,26,33,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,10,4,1,1,0,1,6,9,6,0,0,12,3,29,2,18,20,4,22,0,1,2,1,12,8,1,2,9,95,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29324150264156096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890357543346907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656868560396734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501080728805994,0.0,0.16581874682281186,0.11804078406793254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025610540364739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475397613007354,0.10561922860193572,0.0,0.16195502512061652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142233079439178,0.13667867806162193,0.07724198241592059,0.0,0.1680454222341177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222873128445567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539875056685172,0.0,0.2513820438514972,0.0,0.2797856660620155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927951064237846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868178053048172,0.0,0.1140258084172529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414659984846238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262573052981384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356238160363535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794999437833214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455783769001674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876644820871818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822046852976472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720176386553576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27410429922578744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VengefulBodied,2019/01/09,"No results = increased irritation I eat less than 1000 calories every day, usually 700 or less. I only eat after 7pm, I fast every fucking day until then. I workout between 4-7 times a week, 20 minute hiit workout followed by an arm and ab specific workout. And yet, for over a month, I've had NO CHANGES. Also I'm doing keto/low carb when I eat, and it's NEVER ENOUGH. Seems like body is in cahoots with the rest of the world to destroy me. Not sure what to do, but I know when my boyfriend goes to visit his parents for a week it's going to be starvation week to the max. I'm just so irritated with this, and it's building on top of other shit. Losing weight is my last resort to feeling worth anything and if this shit doesn't start dropping soon I'm gonna flip. ",3.475789772727275,4.177762681250002,5.053977272727273,84.73511363636366,72.1875,7.0681818181818175,28.92045454545455,6.980632752743323,1.4918750000000005,599,23,124,5,11,203,113,160,0.183,0.769,0.049,-0.9707,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,7,7,4,0,7,0,7,9,4,1,2,18,18,14,0,1,5,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,3,3,1,4,5,5,0,0,1,2,10,2,20,15,5,29,0,1,0,1,3,5,3,3,20,75,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251110152402572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874296849683825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377791228800113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655007187562146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017913995411467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802545720659424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616520963223071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636275452213633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910456052339608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446331997400431,0.0,0.0,0.08891272385744423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.085979458676822,0.12752559939890426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764323497050847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750247431914996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487490790562088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066196248179255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898537926311625,0.0,0.0,0.1737164427859158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242393508811507,0.0,0.0,0.32118223651493794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107343510530632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744992435674095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122579975203267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230482679513096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764782612914084,0.1905109169545923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thegoldengarden,2019/01/09,"I feel like no one will love me unless I am slim I am 17, a tiny bit chubby but my body is fine, hourglass shape , but I just don’t feel like I will be loved unless I am slim. This is a horrible feeling. This insecurity of not being loved is what made me lose 30ibs. And then... I gained all that weight back. I am trying to lose again but mainly because I want a guy to love me. Which is sad ik. ",1.0883222591362127,2.2336668023255832,3.0595681063122946,95.00918604651164,78.65116279069767,5.84451827242525,18.09966777408637,6.1826913282559595,-0.4685029900332221,299,5,75,2,7,101,56,86,0.192,0.513,0.29600000000000004,0.8909999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,3,11,0,1,3,0,13,6,1,1,1,14,22,7,0,1,7,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,4,13,7,5,17,3,4,0,3,0,4,5,1,0,0,5,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732801371776848,0.0,0.1088694442647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497874987783345,0.19837803641254384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27090797411413153,0.2551756462047392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683646257939958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745043343340764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.399602739160503,0.0,0.0,0.64475341267709,0.1689902707140433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102013823070253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125382499185668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10533956145639443,0.0,0.0,0.21747977704997865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberryrhubarbjam,2019/01/09,Tea? How do you drink yours? Plain? Milk & Sugar? I’m curious! ,-2.7392307692307694,-5.470308000000001,-0.05292307692307574,100.07292307692309,167.46153846153842,4.1169230769230785,10.292307692307693,5.6839178017228535,-0.7210492307692307,48,1,11,1,5,16,13,13,0.0,0.7559999999999999,0.244,0.5502,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7417706936757329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6706535901669517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doses_and_neuroses,2019/01/09,Yeah sex is good but have u ever eaten an entire cake and lasagna and woken up to find it was only a dream?? I am feeling very blessed this morning,3.7925806451612902,4.1026897096774215,4.919516129032257,87.39927419354844,71.25806451612904,6.2,28.403225806451612,3.1291,0.8585354838709676,115,4,24,0,2,38,30,31,0.0,0.622,0.37799999999999995,0.9177,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,4,2,0,0,1,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596946571567891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569604418734494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464484241399376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42625280809731536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.386507875521128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193170026777445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quiteapear,2019/01/09,"Daily calorie limit? What is too little? Just curious what everyone’s usual calorie limit is daily and how they divide it into their meal(s).

I’ve always had a problem with bulimia, but a recent breakup from a long term relationship has triggered me into limiting my calories. Since the breakup last Tuesday (happy New Years am I right?) I’ve barely gotten past 500 calories. I avoid fried foods and high fat food, but usually eat whatever I’d like as long as I’m at or below 500. I have also been exercising every night to burn off whatever I may have left (2hrs worth)

I’m just looking for advice, helpful insight, or just support. The plus side is I don’t find myself needing to throw up since this change. 

Thanks",4.49225935828877,6.4496003382353,5.4568181818181785,77.96090909090908,71.35294117647058,7.592513368983957,29.275401069518715,8.296473431620573,2.357935294117646,570,23,96,9,11,187,101,136,0.034,0.8440000000000001,0.121,0.9144,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,3,6,6,0,1,5,0,11,5,1,2,0,24,18,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,4,4,2,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,10,4,14,14,1,24,0,0,1,0,4,11,0,3,13,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553426675693501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712745236317194,0.13227494325829214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681681241203885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266497429040472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393823930047072,0.15190169256079267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452947866018672,0.0,0.3844518931228309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922545717824364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655357019393848,0.16795947716049475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295809528164758,0.0,0.0,0.17272028431238182,0.0,0.0,0.0776642238693297,0.15932870127777438,0.0,0.28136512617479315,0.1334939231562573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787349967202022,0.0,0.1535332513988799,0.0,0.1491816382279325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175389881066964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521118643623823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696270995069322,0.17067321417989742,0.0,0.1357586579389801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630016001090177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039613803749927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635729761355487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501637904268928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237082439689098
EDAnonymous,drugstore-diet,2019/01/09,Why call it “binging and purging” when you can call it “eat and yeet” instead That is all,0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,84.55555555555556,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.06646666666666734,68,3,15,0,2,21,15,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8315238136215388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166323638103917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674038932919167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,audreyhepburnwho,2019/01/09,"WE HAVE HALO TOP IN GERMANY NOW FINALLY

It's sold at Edeka, i haven't found it myself yet but saw it announced on HaloTops Instagram. Helllll yeah! Can't wait to try it out. There's other similar ice creams available but I'm so curious to finally try halo top after seeing so many talk about it around here! ",0.7025089605734821,3.2339996451612905,3.464408602150538,82.49439068100361,92.87096774193549,6.62652329749104,23.017921146953405,7.793537801064563,1.8679512544802868,246,10,45,6,9,86,47,62,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8844,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,9,6,0,12,0,0,3,0,2,7,0,0,5,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26905245286527674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.662165432184049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313841234061255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30641797007964977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408414710540303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429243450959032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103942699095194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whatismyu,2019/01/09,"I don’t know how I used to do it I used to be able to restrict so easily.
Eating 500-800 cals a day, walking 20,000 steps a day and coping with mass amounts of stress at home, I managed to do it all effortlessly. I wasn’t even sleeping more than 6 hours a day yet I still managed to get on with it.

 I can’t even cope with a minor inconvenience now without checking out for the day and gorging myself on food and sleeping. I fell like such a failure. 

I’m sleeping 14 hours a day, have no energy and I’m just letting everything slip from me. 

How the fuck did I cope when I used to do this? 
I mean I don’t want stress in my life but it seems the only way I can function is when I’m under extreme amounts of it.

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EDAnonymous,DisguisedAsMe,2019/01/09,Suddenly have stretch marks?! It's been in the past 2-3 weeks I got some white stretch marks on my butt/hip flexor area...anything I can do to reduce them? I am so sad because they appeared out of nowhere ,0.6007142857142861,2.9363366904761925,1.4526666666666692,99.609,86.85714285714286,4.312380952380953,25.06666666666667,5.6839178017228535,0.3490038095238104,159,7,36,1,5,49,38,42,0.12,0.88,0.0,-0.6852,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,6,0,5,5,1,9,0,1,1,0,2,5,0,2,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569513905804477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384959515827801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441113135934887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300813770316709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4454153031398192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lostandlonley333,2019/01/09,"Why eat anything at all? Found myself thinking recently, ""do you REALLY need to eat this"", but with everything. Even a bowl of blueberries feels like too much food. Every day I stray further from recovery lmao. ",4.326351351351352,7.380443189189191,4.601283783783781,78.54895270270273,76.56756756756758,9.105405405405406,28.16891891891892,9.516144504307137,3.3540324324324335,166,7,27,5,4,52,36,37,0.0,0.7929999999999999,0.207,0.8625,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,7,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,5,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153333358439451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687564599261224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5355105098927165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283154759429092,0.0,0.22046951144466104,0.0,0.2351734575456911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230896488448185,0.1869381607729316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164141976684461,0.28690927644505715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278394697632831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19235864937498046,0.1940260900896536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763345341765387,0.0,0.25836902260770384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16766852140179195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23611781431706455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pwdump,2019/01/09,DAE hold their breath when walking past a bakery? Can’t get hungry until 1 PM! Breakfast is cancelled.,2.064035087719297,4.903719263157896,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,93.21052631578951,2.533333333333333,22.12280701754386,3.1291,-0.005540350877192513,82,3,13,0,3,25,19,19,0.133,0.867,0.0,-0.3164,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800985589104627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8772145539901268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,konmarimylife,2019/01/09,"Triggered by Marie Kondo I don't even want to be as tiny as she is! Doesn't matter, triggered anyway! She did her magic on the (enormous) house of this Asian American couple who reminded me of my aunt and uncle, who had such an excess of stuff, they had three different rooms acting as closets, and a basement piled high with Christmas tchotchkes. They have been living in piles of garbage, essentially. And here comes little Marie Kondo with all the whimsical solutions to make your life perfect and better. I experienced some of the secondhand embarrassment that I'd felt when visiting Tokyo, just this major anxiety and concern over being offensive or judged. I just kept thinking ""Oh my God, she hates this place and thinks it's disgusting, but she's just being polite!""",8.333902877697843,8.807606661870508,7.570422661870506,71.7331879496403,61.5179856115108,10.691007194244603,34.64118705035971,10.411451182825502,3.7031935251798562,622,24,101,13,8,193,104,139,0.09,0.85,0.06,-0.4809,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,2,2,8,6,3,1,5,0,11,1,0,3,2,26,19,12,0,1,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,8,9,0,1,3,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,6,2,14,2,16,10,3,12,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,2,1,73,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932501201229476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21887998286513027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318603579373305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738369598654161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585686921722399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346121866723815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23762398962596296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24433976741332286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614810268764558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28556395584629884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480566464603292,0.0,0.2480445469664964,0.21853340177005728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519786642805592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585686921722399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28331061254516793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31715622780636543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597280636851187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,msfixir,2019/01/09,Anyone else happy for the distraction of school starting back up? I struggle so badly with binge eating on winter break but I'm finally back to classes and I'm psyched! Like I barely ate anything today because I had lectures and I didn't even notice! Winter break always ruins me for restricting and fasting. Plus so much walking around campus!,4.003333333333334,7.044391555555558,4.589841269841274,78.18571428571431,77.8888888888889,5.504761904761906,28.04761904761905,6.868970318607317,1.9455142857142849,280,12,40,3,7,89,50,63,0.205,0.7140000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.8162,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,3,0,5,2,9,3,1,14,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,27,5,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20039457537010352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683979043628353,0.2467646106985032,0.19818724081291925,0.21439481176237032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703755378793741,0.20108772974142414,0.14681119272953405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24643502123347905,0.20118730393336465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906969261815948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638237110957211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563740554159707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766014621039975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770419327630507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27419301336638296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24373856170822594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170464731042416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517737395795052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282840606651129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dethleib,2019/01/09,"GIV ME SUGRRRRRR Help me, fellow sweet fiends. This isn't a sweet tooth, more it's like an insatiable lust for happy tooth rotting endorphins. I'm thissssssss close to ragequitting my retail drone position and fantasies of absolutely exploding myself with milkshakes, whip cream and an entire restaurant dessert bar are dominating my mind rn

Truly, what can satisfy these cravings ¿¿?? 

ps: the ~naTuRal cAndY tHAt is FrUiT~ won't cut it - need the hard shit to get thru",5.108148148148146,8.423615864197531,4.673086419753087,77.5888888888889,75.54320987654322,8.538271604938272,29.987654320987648,9.150863307647796,3.3589358024691363,379,17,59,10,9,115,70,81,0.075,0.684,0.24100000000000002,0.9437,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,5,0,5,7,3,0,0,6,8,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,5,4,6,7,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,1,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223816235841629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531063631584796,0.3812937643038903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853004593822681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079483466124869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297794917503193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156099185059129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369178450112392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roorose28,2019/01/09,"so frustrated with myself i am CONSTANTLY fluctuating between losing weight in a healthy way (w/ weightlifting/exercising) vs eating absolutely nothing until i lose all the weight i gained through binge cycles. i'm so tired of being at this weight. and so tempted to just starve it all away (even though logically, i know that'll just trigger another binge cycle.) it's so hard talking myself down from going on some crazy prolonged fast every single night. 

can i please fast forward to the part when i'm at a healthy weight, comfortable with my body, and at peace with myself. please. god. i'm so sick of myself.",4.3512662337662364,7.122647892857145,4.500551948051946,80.93081168831169,74.53571428571428,6.929870129870131,27.14610389610389,8.00094639256281,1.986507142857143,492,19,83,8,11,153,77,112,0.163,0.649,0.188,0.3023,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,10,4,1,0,4,0,4,8,1,1,2,14,9,10,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,10,1,18,7,5,16,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,1,7,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512041901618501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547878052660758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017148604293835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582682546599724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14755056703108355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524142804781273,0.0,0.12149304570415548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195105419824739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917309684840225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924745719473619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226413856877922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532006756328396,0.0,0.13836188313307146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615239678228673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165722342599791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115900901243135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167381627163814,0.0,0.0,0.1657344042987121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445767136531627,0.0,0.7023773337879328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,northernmountaingirl,2019/01/09,"back on my bullshit after a lengthy hiatus and gaining a few pounds, i'm backkkk on my bullshittt

this time of year is particularly triggering because it's the season that i was at my lowest weight a while ago. i'm restricting to 800 calories/day or less and can feel myself slipping back into that awful competition mindset where i'm excited (in a sick kinda way) to see how much weight i can drop quickly. anyways, glad to be back! peace n love to y'all ",8.869333333333334,6.664936488888895,9.049444444444449,70.25750000000002,61.88888888888889,11.222222222222225,40.27777777777778,9.516144504307137,3.8334444444444435,364,16,67,5,4,121,69,90,0.17800000000000002,0.6629999999999999,0.16,-0.2003,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,5,1,5,4,0,2,0,9,11,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,3,11,9,3,18,0,0,1,1,2,6,0,2,10,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851426749861355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5686477846824459,0.0,0.15026885052980402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589771206236432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464173685106855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248288960350932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121157683726494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196434779757707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374066490588955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566639636012692,0.0,0.6003601163118032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587429238549087
EDAnonymous,anotherlurkinlesbian,2019/01/09,"I was doing so well today And then after work I had fries and soup...and two pieces of pizza...and then two poptarts with butter to top it all off

Said I wouldn't b/p in 2019. Lol.",-1.4160000000000004,0.4922794000000046,1.1000000000000014,101.425,92.5,3.2,10.5,3.1291,-1.9926500000000005,136,1,34,0,5,46,33,40,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.7462,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,3,1,6,1,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605956433056856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35932725699056123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7406198670701872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408419948435113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27597762855824404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnderseaK,2019/01/09,"Easy trick to kill your appetite! Anxiety medication withdrawals!

Sure, tapering off one med since I found another that works better is withdrawal hell, what with the nausea/dizziness/fatigue/sweating....but hey, my appetite is gone because I can’t even sit upright without puking! Yay for unintentional fasting! 


For real though, I’m dying. Effexor is the devil, send help. 😂",5.573333333333334,9.004341888888893,5.900952380952388,68.78571428571429,74.55555555555556,8.044444444444443,35.984126984126995,8.841846274778883,4.203450793650793,301,17,40,7,7,96,56,63,0.268,0.547,0.185,-0.8523,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,2,7,3,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,0,4,3,6,5,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687106708927067,0.1960379922480186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621355305990858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266409067037289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26595714183361274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925713500474374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809755673273766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176549548125175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28351342351350417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846467907166439,0.25815471836289844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364822528950025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916796754497145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21198069699994584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415217630765392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517738838952301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470252353370261,0.0,0.18656013568016105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,travelers-unite,2019/01/09,"First Compliment on my Weight! Picked up my mother in law from the airport—first thing she says is that she almost didn’t recognize me because I’m “so skinny”

Now it finally feels like the last few months have been worth it!",3.231136363636363,5.4297462045454585,3.45,89.92000000000002,75.5909090909091,7.127272727272729,22.363636363636363,8.07648339933343,1.0819272727272726,179,5,36,3,4,55,39,44,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.7955,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,5,2,4,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,6,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115377254505838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896534210943276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573095935824412,0.222261326901878,0.0,0.34081236208797205,0.0,0.5292702078496415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25360105763896595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199555865178968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24832981665409865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474119241791405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066916408434132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788554632103846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saladsquares,2019/01/09,"Noone will answer my questions. So ive had an ed for a while.. but no bulimia or anything.. just anorexia..this is a gross topic and im not sure my problems belong on this sub but i want answers. 

I had problems pooping regularly, ive thought about using laxatives to encourage it but im really afraid of falling into the habit of abusing them when thats not what i want out of it.

My questions are, does using them actually make you loose weight if your using them just to be able to go, or do you stay the same.. i dont want a  weight loss to trigger me and i start using them

Second question, do laxatives screw up your digestive system in anyway like..i know holding stuff in can weaken your muscles down there, but would using laxatives and just physically not being able to hold it in for whatever reason also weaken the muscles or destroy my stomach or anything?

Any answeers are greatly appreciated❤",3.7048484848484833,5.73148872727273,5.211000000000002,78.60066666666668,73.6590909090909,7.420606060606061,29.915151515151514,8.238735603445708,2.4047110606060604,720,32,127,12,15,242,109,176,0.16899999999999998,0.742,0.08900000000000001,-0.9543,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,5,4,1,9,10,2,1,7,0,15,6,2,8,1,45,28,16,0,7,15,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,5,3,2,8,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,3,2,21,3,19,21,1,16,0,1,0,1,13,8,1,8,4,94,28,0,0.24146566696568625,0.14304866529813898,0.11781782955864765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655000331665832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210246687360334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870566970455703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565411618504343,0.0,0.14149798167066766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861525155753917,0.0,0.0,0.13310837513917892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26082435603942833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635160784580159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05898396398873908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059010385561415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310500326355262,0.0,0.0,0.4057452135232695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734454466999613,0.12413346084538428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545532094764,0.12868513647806226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382102092605182,0.0,0.0,0.11378926674318535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584838379701036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5213720203928307,0.0,0.0,0.21363405980410274,0.0,0.0,0.2940401311347826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576514091199326,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrawoway11,2019/01/09,"so im really gonna have to spend thousands of dollars to like how i look anyway like i did all of this work for nothing. the body i want doesn’t exist on me. 

i think im really ready to start saving up for a tummy tuck/body lift kind of procedure. the 70 lbs ive lost has been a lot on my 5-foot frame, and i don’t think my skin is as elastic as it should be since i was obese from elementary school even though im only 19. im where i always wanted to be but im surrounded in loose.. stuff. i can see my ribs and my spine and my pelvic bones but other places are droopy. i don’t look perky and thin, i look weird and sunken. i really don’t think losing more will help. think surgery might be my only option here. healthy weight loss hasn’t helped, restricting and purging hasn’t helped, and i feel like the more i lose the worse i look but at this point i can’t stand how food feels in me. 

has anyone had success with.. idk... snapping back over time lmao. or working it out with a therapist. or any other procedure short of a tummy tuck/body lift? i might try to post on weight loss subs for recommendations too but idk if they still like ban users from ED subreddits ",3.2667575322812037,3.9530185691056943,4.15596843615495,91.04003586800577,72.65853658536584,7.576853180296509,21.787661406025826,7.724431198458867,0.5407018651362985,912,18,212,11,17,294,143,246,0.138,0.7440000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.5151,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,8,11,13,0,0,8,0,25,9,5,2,1,36,41,20,0,4,7,0,6,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,10,4,2,6,0,2,0,7,6,0,1,5,11,26,7,27,28,4,21,0,5,5,0,4,15,0,7,8,122,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078491029591597,0.0,0.0,0.06414838085905124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659584964817274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253479104911609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314341750755025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06230480005438754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539327417100474,0.06739015470042108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406553719219953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189684438152086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094688614622289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982313216916834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843416370107972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31685745507509216,0.21106473765236747,0.10297353580378066,0.08019692554235315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001407742561527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051323190394486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348610031188294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855591924168594,0.0,0.08917337737570039,0.0,0.09034311561066694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129274908995405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954681064810291,0.07516967139401359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803165840897147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676803613003401,0.0,0.07533293609033527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798653779675133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952567443819164,0.0,0.24177423269682094,0.0926798240710458,0.0,0.0550052213781089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404462295483154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11127785034666199,0.0,0.0,0.2297397269307113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734832450456014,0.0,0.09613144699571946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kickkkasss,2019/01/09,"I’m so tired!!!! I am so tired of having an eating disorder. Every single day is consumed by thoughts of food. I wanna eat everything all the time. I’m constantly bitchy when I’m restricting. I’m depressed when I’m bingeing. Over Christmas I tried to relax with the obsessive thoughts and I just ended up gaining 10 pounds in 2 weeks and hating myself. The worst part of it is, recovery wouldn’t be any better. I’d still obsess about food, just with no chance of being skinny. I’ve had an eating disorder for 8 years and I am just so tired. I wish I could just be normal about food. ",1.8824358974358968,4.181455811965815,3.4415598290598304,87.75413461538461,80.62393162393163,6.293162393162394,21.71581196581197,7.492282038375204,0.949473504273504,458,14,90,7,12,151,74,117,0.276,0.623,0.102,-0.9725,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,2,5,0,11,10,1,0,1,18,20,8,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,8,2,15,12,4,12,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,58,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911312859535424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185208124539278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481702815562644,0.0,0.10699595200903396,0.0,0.0,0.08642525983589712,0.0,0.11542247801526895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071737712599644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113765628521077,0.0,0.0,0.11869294117901252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290906920445935,0.0,0.12043940234223005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861356879831543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230697192842428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313011892952143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511959653778247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070204305803552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21277768633766936,0.07814221483407968,0.4620737890650252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098388408442644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749460954452017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410470133101534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629794266905448
EDAnonymous,PeachyyAsian,2019/01/09,DAE have a hard time looking in the mirror? I always try to avoid looking at myself in the mirror. Even walking past windows is difficult. Fitting rooms are an absolute nightmare. Maybe if I force myself to look it'll motivate me to lose weight faster. ,3.5129787234042524,6.3224620000000025,4.144085106382981,82.09400000000002,77.93617021276594,6.313191489361702,28.54893617021277,7.554174236665415,2.1194459574468087,202,9,33,3,5,64,39,47,0.17800000000000002,0.769,0.053,-0.6369,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,6,6,0,9,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,1,3,21,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245287562359813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17822698130641895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24172391772344015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6797937037736843,0.3018822869118868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710908626428322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575931110957753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734605606235771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320385922406304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285928048984907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arielperro,2019/01/09,we love recovery🤪 gaining enough weight that you actually want to have sex again but being afraid of your disgusting morbidly obese body is such a good look !!!!! we love recovery ‼️,7.5154545454545465,8.241736454545453,7.293484848484847,72.16022727272728,63.24242424242425,12.660606060606062,34.68181818181819,12.161744961471696,4.597436363636363,145,6,26,5,2,46,30,33,0.098,0.552,0.35,0.8972,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,2,2,0,1,2,5,1,1,1,0,3,6,1,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,6,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.31249979254963683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35570505385059803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308847877749452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26859502544736125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689138442071413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5780429414567977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888808612991991,0.0,0.0,0.3899557491642112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,violaceousmeep,2019/01/09,"does anyone watch mukbangs to stop themselves from eating i feel like this might be a common thing, but whenever i have the urge to binge (which is often bc im a fatass) i try to cope with it by watching ppl eat food??? like massive amounts of food that is probably equivalent or a little more than what i'd binge on. not because i feel ""full"" when i watch them (in fact i get even more hungry), but because watching someone eat food makes me not want to eat? like, i feel like by me watching them eat while i sit there and continue fasting or restricting or whatever, it gives me a sense of really fucked up and short-term pride and like a messed up self-esteem boost? i mean all these mukbangers are way thinner than i am so jokes on me :)))))",7.5040637065637075,5.723270777027029,7.166525096525098,81.33986486486488,64.20270270270271,10.34903474903475,33.98069498069498,8.841846274778883,2.5669100386100383,577,19,121,7,7,182,96,148,0.10099999999999999,0.737,0.162,0.8693,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,1,5,9,1,0,6,0,7,9,0,1,2,23,16,11,0,1,7,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,8,2,4,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,16,7,17,14,5,15,0,0,5,1,3,7,1,5,11,74,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622707703944098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503474769907595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791674342386763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6309274346826467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145062548090308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870604313259277,0.17619734745357168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473512157334468,0.0,0.0,0.1140058531324906,0.06442876261212915,0.1182982248596892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320500954314482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012356516591869,0.12359741143663484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231597475158589,0.0,0.0,0.1343298654245423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082131098379068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329580686246284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900091055391764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864796276423246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448726131041654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10309968565618537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819272506042256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837250836822529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273637428411649,0.09788438828439804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpaceWhale88,2019/01/09,"I gained 10lbs and I want to die Im seriously freaking out. Now I'm 50lbs away from my goal. All that hard work to get from 171 to 161 is erased by my own shitty behavior. I'm way to heavy to date but I promised myself I'd try online dating again once my bmi got to a healthy range. Now I'm 30lbs away from that goal and months and months of hard work is required without fucking up a single day. 

I'm so lonely and I would love more than anything to have a partner that loves me but how can I even get my foot in the door looking like how I do? 

I'm crying as a write this how could I have fucked up so majorly? 

I'm gonna die alone because I keep letting myself look deformed. I just hate hate hate myself so much right now I wanna get hit by a car. ",1.586699300699301,2.6791859636363675,3.090909090909093,95.50867132867134,77.24242424242425,5.804195804195802,21.78321678321679,5.8734145424116955,-0.03611888111888106,584,15,142,3,13,192,100,165,0.253,0.623,0.124,-0.9774,0,3,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,6,12,12,5,0,6,0,9,5,1,3,1,20,32,13,2,4,4,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,4,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,8,0,0,1,5,18,4,23,26,6,18,0,1,2,4,4,7,2,0,10,83,22,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585876969671024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589217252731195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646313123961124,0.0,0.0,0.08584946239204365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244234537045772,0.0,0.15469658644893525,0.09082454740324182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923213408632205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301775525585956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26039256253225035,0.2207356482547096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263566768213272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523143920575026,0.4171253010928648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521219868280047,0.0,0.0,0.12517734345910675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14400956106187116,0.0,0.068803066778028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365256704254033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542115201726577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248204238305383,0.0,0.10352722068375828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998075409318296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026917340456166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956152183823084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306595832029366,0.11178534258085494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575636195163418,0.0,0.20505374902760595,0.0,0.0,0.1000425254315126,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ClarityByHilarity,2019/01/09,"Just a reminder to get your protein!!! Some ideas below! Don’t let your bodies eat away at themselves ladies and gents. It’s possible to pack on the protein and not the calories!! 

Egg whites! Again I say I’m sick of them BUT I make them many many ways!

Egg whites with veggies scramble, no oil and approx 120 calories! Add the tortillas I have in my profile which are low carb, packed with protein and under 50 calories with some salsa and I’m full nearly all day! 

Rinse your ground beef in hot water when you cook it! Then throw it back in the wipes out pan. Research this, when rinsed even the leanest is lower in fat and calories then ground turkey! Add veggies and eat up mofos! Get crazy with it, make a taco salad with rice cakes 😂 (or a sensible amount of baked tortillas and loads of lettuce, that’s probably better, but much less 

Bumblebee thai (or any variation) tuna package! The key is to get bumblebee brand, it tastes the best and not so wet and mush! $1 and 90 calories and full of protein. 

Lunch meat. It’s easy, I’m lazy. And it’s like 50 calories for 1/4 of the package. 

Fat free feta!! I can’t emphasize this one enough. It’s 35 calories for 1/4 of the package. Toss it with lemons and spaghetti squash (cook the squash but after seeding) in a little bit of water in the microwave for 10 minutes, fork that shit, put it in a pan and squeeze out a whole lemon, garlic, salt and sprayyyyyy butter. Toss with feta! Eat up! I prefer this cold like pasta salad and you can eat a heaping bowl for 150 calories!!! This is BY FAR my favorite dish! I cook it multiple times a week, again I like it cold like a pasta salad. 

Hope this helps everyone get their protein on!!! 😘👍🏻",1.570968603333874,4.000858577844312,2.4155704806603,93.82226816636995,82.98203592814372,4.688655122188057,22.20067972163781,5.946609106918303,0.2503069428710152,1311,44,267,9,37,410,181,334,0.049,0.8290000000000001,0.122,0.9839,1,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,5,3,2,8,10,1,0,20,0,9,25,4,2,1,44,19,27,0,2,8,0,3,4,0,0,3,1,1,0,20,28,22,0,2,4,1,2,5,2,0,1,0,12,17,9,41,18,12,39,0,1,2,0,10,25,2,5,15,153,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283267146530033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825728320100094,0.10496910969681476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14326065994821646,0.12073354972676395,0.14903547521292065,0.15163378033285227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803878567826999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5587424034557874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410531300632633,0.0,0.09016472367196283,0.0,0.0,0.13044282759805215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852870210953085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09150094875474993,0.0,0.0,0.1355869701745274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541051499440492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395925137469529,0.0,0.26677098309932445,0.13682063683313192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224530685783807,0.2768029770959021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035184379370804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250389502880174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153896487318399,0.0,0.0,0.1471827557703437,0.0,0.0,0.13723201395920365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108559623105454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012735006796098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960109946172725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835667337546902,0.1095014919160074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524104942156499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitmunk,2019/01/09,"Triggered by weight gain, looming restrictive phase I’ve been forced into “””””””recovering””””””” (no help for the mental aspect, just eating a ton...) and since then I’ve gone from a lw of 94 back up to 101- my weight in LATE AUGUST. I just noticed I don’t have a thigh gap anymore and am hyperaware of them touching, and how my face looks less gaunt somehow, and my stomach.....oh god man. I just gave in because extreme hunger was kicking my ass but I am flipping out over this right now. The worst part? I’m still underweight. My family wants me to gain like 15-20 lbs past this. I don’t know what to do. My AN brain is telling me to set my new limit at 300 and finally maybe reach my gw, my logical brain is telling me i’m already sick and when they notice i’ll actually get sent to the hospital this time. Somehow...the shitty irrational part is winning. ",2.927310924369749,4.590253294117649,3.999831932773109,88.01352941176474,74.88235294117648,7.210084033613445,26.84873949579832,7.957251820313856,1.546403361344538,660,25,138,10,14,214,117,170,0.138,0.7559999999999999,0.106,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,4,9,3,0,0,7,0,11,10,5,2,0,20,20,10,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,8,4,2,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,4,19,2,17,15,5,22,0,0,1,1,8,8,1,1,12,81,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.15249869943089553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724497777888229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497959865614122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016334062468262,0.0,0.09526181702216224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34890194214742243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990502811216314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731911150008167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118807922778015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164554693921731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474566950654324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588287476978786,0.0,0.17628135678819726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634649041878627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122892391692614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569959915376342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574851828485488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092824369958974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558328787122383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384541842118849,0.1491790814913122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13345523281149713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292696182519765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479883279116052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731768198153052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112332243596252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217313541397007,0.0,0.0,0.3805938179859559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,homefrie,2019/01/09,"Safe foods I've posted here before. I like discussing stuff. 
What's your guys safe foods?
My biggest on is probably chicken BREAST. Large amount with the lowest calories I've seen for something like that (I mean have you seen calories in meatballs???). 
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EDAnonymous,KrustyKup,2019/01/09,Holiday weight gain :( Feeling super on edge because I have gained around 5 lbs from the holiday season. It’s insane how sensitive I am to those 5lbs because I feel like I’ve been pumped with air. I’ve been constantly bloated for the past few days and def feeling the “oh well I’ve fucked up I might as well binge” feelings. How can I debloat and get motivated again ?:( ,2.7491071428571416,5.087052680555559,3.6630952380952384,87.12000000000002,77.75,6.8920634920634924,26.952380952380967,7.957251820313856,1.7614380952380957,291,12,57,5,7,93,54,72,0.114,0.568,0.318,0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,6,5,1,0,3,0,6,2,0,3,0,12,12,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,5,4,8,9,1,9,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,6,32,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186054528470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993890291079299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653691820045289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836950115102766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4966613965649023,0.1754321184543708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270214463529401,0.12829789412599307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997095140942275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605063022405815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23442015787136505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29903275313546296,0.441585943237416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happy_but_unhappy,2019/01/09,"My pancake addiction too upsetting So I'm currently sobbing my heart out... I just discovered it and I was like great time to trigger myself... no. Honestly that site is the most dangerous thing I've ever come across. Personally it didn't trigger me because I saw how scary some of the sub communities are especially the challenges.
There are so many people out there more vulnerable that could literally DIE from these challenges. My heart sank when I found one where there was a BMI one where you dropped points and a hall of fame one where someone dropped like 5. I'm not shaming anyone at all on this site as I understand there's supportive groups on there also but the site just took me by total shock. If I were in a worse mentality right now it could easily be me on there too.

It just kind of put things into perspective for me tbh. I constantly miss proED but now that it's gone I realise how toxic it could be and how supportive and safe this community is and I'm so grateful for it ",3.9537370466321238,5.905545031088085,4.827328367875648,81.93767648963733,72.78238341968913,8.762823834196894,28.12467616580311,9.354420925462401,2.5038707253886017,793,31,155,19,16,257,118,193,0.115,0.743,0.142,0.669,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,25,16,1,2,7,0,13,3,2,5,3,32,25,17,1,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,15,9,0,1,2,0,0,4,3,6,0,3,8,1,17,10,18,12,5,31,0,2,1,0,3,18,1,3,9,113,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649310867532748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098850634344675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057871889184542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922264646902006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303250371958596,0.0,0.16349337560519087,0.0,0.3623840979097248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570176624880791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685266994356096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16588434698101698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680044470919064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585645300158268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754779050165835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782768422716175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338678373440726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246719104499604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075590101718566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488712557155712,0.132102719422604,0.0,0.0,0.14302025397976104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520906853491292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920291362643874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818958999109992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34336972676731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010239436337257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821983604552612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680914630759319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575007614053184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417991747519305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GingerWithSunscreen,2019/01/09,I finally found vegan Halo Top! So excited I finally found it! They had the chocolate and birthday cake one so I got the birthday cake one and it's actually good! Plus I had 1/2 cup and stopped which is usual for me lol ,0.4273333333333333,2.8589858444444483,3.3305555555555566,84.5425,90.55555555555556,7.4444444444444455,25.277777777777786,8.344100000000001,2.2914444444444446,173,8,35,5,6,61,31,45,0.04,0.73,0.231,0.8469,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,7,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,6,2,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2466533655100228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537636194184352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5542677484383548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119997150888312,0.20215203831374956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425479722917875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21131530796375506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783749910445784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shortLavender,2019/01/09,Recovery is hard... ... and I'm not sure I want to keep trying. It's so hard to explain my feelings/emotions. I want nothing and everything all at once. ,0.375,2.7936541666666663,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,90.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.7559999999999998,115,6,23,2,4,39,24,30,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.506,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,6,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34120351949561106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726119244040902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5434451682253593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696121371413266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29105169222456234,0.0,0.0,0.3230347483316002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28588334043775704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594001006029006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.357821789911095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,els4,2019/01/09,"Overshoot How normal is weight overshoot?

I have been in recovery for the past year and I started with a bmi of 18. Before my ED it was about 20. However, while right after starting recovery I maintained around 113 lbs (5'4) for awhile, I was still doing some disordered things like purging and overexercising. Now that I've stopped doing that, my weight has shot up to 121 lbs. Is this normal, or am I using fat logic to justify eating way to much and gaining more than necessary since my post-pubescent weight was originally lower?

I can't tell if I'm seeing things or if I've really let myself go. My pants are a little tighter (but also pretty small in size: 26"") and my thigh gap shrank. But maybe this is normal. I know you're not actually supposed to gain weight after puberty but my situation is a little more unique.",4.112935735150927,6.065702727848103,4.982911392405068,80.98492210321326,72.35443037974684,7.899513145082762,26.077896786757545,8.617729084823388,1.9491483933787728,653,22,120,12,13,212,109,158,0.021,0.9229999999999999,0.055999999999999994,0.644,2,0,0,2,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,4,0,16,7,2,3,0,24,23,14,0,5,8,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,6,6,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,14,1,16,18,4,21,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,5,12,78,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.12644840487954778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362263467456992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535095136906635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102604348835602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850640294484854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258956182878667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364156293119313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121209926141506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250120354434075,0.0,0.06330474927087389,0.2597402763726485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017745578487813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525396257756157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808736776834505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369585423592698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409889322503655,0.13182633500212693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301030783110444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106580015096421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325604735935577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071873864390406,0.14564991323531284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834304546735857,0.0,0.10348031423325416,0.108332126599592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325595970530215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217032676531732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191287528291016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285214621420964,0.0,0.631159234418901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344330308381638
EDAnonymous,hollyxdear,2019/10/13,"Me bodychecking at work I’m just going around my store doing my twitch like body checks on my wrists by wrapping my fingers around them to make sure my wrists are tiny and some asks what I’m doing. Oh I’m checking to see if I had a hair tie...... 
I forget I’m doing it honestly it just happens almost like a nervous tick now.",1.829901960784316,3.5515265000000014,3.232941176470589,92.06990196078434,78.11764705882355,5.7098039215686285,21.62745098039216,6.42735559955562,0.2793450980392165,254,7,55,2,6,83,47,68,0.055,0.794,0.151,0.7635,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,5,5,0,1,2,0,5,6,5,1,1,11,14,2,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,9,4,7,13,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,3,32,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041546226510872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5407911277931474,0.28395859416545866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33738987007453874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726240806744215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26859882910111565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967868608497582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20275073360133986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24204375273970755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862740734206436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22112843703506196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oofziez,2019/10/13,"Vyvanse, anyone? Got re-prescribed Adhd meds after like 2 years of not having them. Decided
to go with lowest dose because I didn’t like the cranked out feeling higher doses of this or Adderall gave-
plus the pink pills are totally cute (🤷🏼‍♀️ what can I say??? They are..) I just want a light assistance of appetite suppression without feeling zonked and to be able to focus a bit at work.

Still slightly tense and totally bland and calm, which is fine lol. 

I’m trying to lose approximately 40 lbs in the next, like, 2 months otherwise I’m gonna be mortified. Coffee, Vyvanse, laxatives, and exercise here we gooo 

Just wanna talk to other who are on it, experiences, weight loss, personality change, you know?",2.348757187085358,5.218839992481204,3.7859885006634246,81.85351614329943,85.16541353383458,6.73843432109686,25.11676249447148,7.928766900206844,1.9878309597523207,561,23,99,12,17,184,106,133,0.071,0.76,0.17,0.8888,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,1,2,3,4,8,0,0,5,1,9,5,0,0,2,22,19,6,0,2,5,0,3,3,0,1,4,1,0,1,6,8,1,1,4,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,6,7,6,17,13,3,10,0,2,1,0,9,4,0,1,8,56,13,1,0.2126890497226716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556109060203068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14871712883281654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965327060255333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322013563162369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22499681304501315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208050702457649,0.0,0.0,0.2150839482613684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087608837846853,0.0,0.17010686257767704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688833942839864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117273790668704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379446428877249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23624958692783854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697663703167403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261972172847224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18571187441875256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691388690528396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985374985017132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095140164907058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440190348579948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544951210969454,0.0,0.0,0.25899796379861256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20502465410621654,0.0,0.15484016131246134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369647747369898
EDAnonymous,papertrailzz,2019/10/13,"you know you're fucked up beyond repair when... you finally quit your toxic job for a good one but you're sad that not being miserable makes it so much harder to restrict ): 

Went from being 3 lbs away from my ugw to 18 ugh",0.8836956521739125,3.096539978260872,2.6197391304347843,92.66656521739132,84.0,5.419130434782609,15.72173913043478,6.742157984588678,-0.27980347826087026,173,3,37,2,5,57,39,46,0.299,0.61,0.091,-0.9225,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,1,3,5,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,1,0,4,1,8,3,1,6,0,2,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248767945148725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787910372542057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196730585848606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29002841342459296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34313868420382576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19003462953243885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23081445992648186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541920779989095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343131567039369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36778536890648267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32054655834929097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kxxks,2019/10/13,I’m gonna get so much hate for this it really triggers me to read all these posts from people suffering from anorexia who are already really skinny. It just makes me feel so much worse about myself.,4.393076923076921,6.045717025641029,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,71.05128205128204,8.276923076923078,23.256410256410252,8.841846274778883,1.6019333333333332,160,4,30,3,3,51,33,39,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.8874,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,6,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,20,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420762744301933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673778437880367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195442452227454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060461172733755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20691746635179736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557494427600918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149046427980688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968800452180748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100689939050506,0.0,0.3971687950153728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159013073443136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lschwar22,2019/10/13,just binged help! I just binged and i cant cant gain weight. Please help,-1.9839583333333333,-0.4014498124999975,-1.709999999999999,116.82166666666667,109.625,2.1333333333333333,5.333333333333333,3.1291,-3.2532666666666668,57,0,16,0,3,16,10,16,0.109,0.445,0.446,0.7222,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6330074170098251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183305290126277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5750087588063671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,221Bamf,2019/10/13,"My amazing, totally real and not disordered meal prep! [Meal prep! ~ :) /s](https://imgur.com/gallery/rvPGDF2)


Real talk: I keep these in my backpack that I take to work, so if I really, really need something I can have a small pick-me-up.
Sugar free hot cocoa, sugar free spiced cider, broth cubes, sugar free sweetener, sugar free hard candies, Propel drink powder, sugar free Arizona tea powder, and finally a little 50 calorie bag of pretzels as a last resort. The crayon boxes keep them from getting crushed.",4.894669163545566,7.897783460674161,4.972284644194758,77.02699126092386,73.94382022471909,7.1016229712858925,27.86641697877653,8.167268648758528,2.4642649188514363,404,16,59,7,9,126,68,89,0.043,0.711,0.24600000000000002,0.9669,0,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,1,1,6,0,0,4,0,2,9,0,0,1,10,7,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,9,2,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,7,11,5,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,26,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623416175180525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242368967688808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25075104256765623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959189044217615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505130483345926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069173764138864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658574826818244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294200212481488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16972799365383928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5210813655124822,0.2932810706508168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622000613598934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17210587871061933,0.18398282313514644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664344216052826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,healthyapricot,2019/10/13,Was anybody else actually really happy and confident at their ugw?? And then managed to fuck it up anyway?? Y’all I was thriving at my GW like a year ago (was at GW from around June 2018-January 2019)Then i decided scales and calorie counting were unhealthy and it was downhill from there. Noticed my clothes stopped fitting as well and i started avoiding my reflection but didnt actually weigh myself until like August and I had gained like 7 lbs which doesnt sound like a lot but when you’re 5 feet IT SHOWS. And like it feels almost impossible to get back down to UGW and im just mad at myself for not maintaining. >:( i went the whole summer wearing the same 5 outfits instead of my cute clothes bc i felt like a pumpkin.,2.7495238095238115,5.388513000000002,3.5585714285714296,86.17309523809527,79.71428571428572,6.3047619047619055,28.619047619047624,7.554174236665415,1.90824761904762,580,27,108,9,15,184,96,140,0.078,0.708,0.214,0.9672,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,1,8,12,2,1,5,0,8,4,2,0,0,22,14,14,0,0,4,0,2,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,9,1,2,4,1,0,1,3,3,1,0,9,3,14,9,16,5,3,20,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,2,17,70,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.3699289820988039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16801649371630378,0.0,0.1897977442360216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873150778270207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457451848729503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833702718999998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583752967782584,0.0,0.18198890361473027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522742659553314,0.0990272513301375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017697190109676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20473660246858574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5556004003870705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611408204305418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215793470879656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142469772125868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415796238781907,0.0,0.0,0.15846460601761111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041995304258056,0.17570623177395672,0.0,0.21161554785209025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205806867299952
EDAnonymous,ilikebigbooks98765,2019/10/13,"DAE hate pooping anytime that's not in the morning I hate when I can't poop in the morning so my morning weigh in isn't really accurate, so i think fine I'll just have a huge shit tomorrow morning and that'll be great. But nooooo then I poop later that afternoon/evening after I've already eaten so now i obviously can't weigh myself with food in my stomach and this also means I probably won't poop tomorrow morning... ugh sorry I'm typing this rant while currently taking an afternoon shit lmao",3.1954545454545453,5.385201878787882,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,75.66666666666666,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.6702606060606056,402,18,73,9,9,135,64,99,0.205,0.677,0.11800000000000001,-0.8431,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,4,0,7,11,7,0,1,9,14,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,9,2,6,10,0,15,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,10,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595753222021025,0.18810839489939496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553631072523075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28443356327464536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25933507959577035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644696252744676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562276859867008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536110502998039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069039515597069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4829077189166818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26331379587521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685903024029045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072191874675375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astralled,2019/10/13,"How do you keep your stomach from rumbling? These days the only time I eat (even when I’m not even super hungry) is because my stomach is rumbling and I can’t stop it without food 

Please help :-(",1.8019230769230743,4.080945538461542,2.735576923076924,92.81567307692309,80.7948717948718,3.9,25.134615384615394,3.1291,0.23519999999999985,152,6,30,0,4,48,33,39,0.28,0.72,0.0,-0.8769,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,2,1,0,6,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245575765193573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036088124123773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230532893417397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4170510114809496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817614984688061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116158164498496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28062028351748514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401140169629425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465581449456765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639502639323582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409483051425365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043361340593972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowlifelowcal,2019/10/13,Quaker has a contest where the challenge is to log 10 oatmeal-based meals in a month Like bitch I can log that in 3 days even if I'm restricting,3.7925806451612902,4.1026897096774215,4.5388709677419365,90.12830645161293,71.25806451612904,7.490322580645162,28.403225806451612,7.1686216300943375,1.2717612903225803,115,4,26,1,2,37,27,31,0.205,0.6729999999999999,0.122,-0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,14,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4906116232288426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.502458786748125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716570601252005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6072120160466652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fullerleo,2019/10/13,"DAE never wear baggy clothes? i always see people on here talk about wearing baggy clothes because it allows them to hide their body, but does anyone else almost never wear baggy clothes because it makes them feel like a whale? :(

it's also sort of thinspo for me because it motivates me to be able to see my body shape so clearly and know that's what other people are seeing too",7.24472602739726,6.983384123287671,6.8836643835616425,78.21535958904111,63.93150684931507,7.847945205479452,31.948630136986303,5.985473137389443,1.888865753424657,303,10,52,1,4,95,54,73,0.065,0.83,0.105,0.6306,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,2,5,5,3,3,12,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,7,7,0,4,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,2,3,32,14,1,0.19233632291705746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259704447714984,0.0,0.0,0.15381128794757132,0.16003922840857435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448602902586212,0.19707129208360008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517393117470941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272845912812463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683148123163247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606723177392982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725102392674936,0.13740510752256033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570301304582227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396581209434107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283859890631599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29668325878366336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26668357781827706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598014424916624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459265079030707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shortini73,2019/10/13,"The downright worst thing I do and no one outside of this sub will ever hear about it My high school best friend like a year ago decided to cut contact with me because she didn’t like who she was around me. Fair enough; but it caused me a lot of emotional turmoil and spoiler: I don’t think I’m over it hahaha

She this year started running cosplay tiktok / instagram accounts, and she’s also a naturally skinny person, and oh my god, I found her accounts and they’re literally the BEST thinspo. She’s lookin all pretty and hot in these super wild outfits that I’d love to wear, sometimes wears corsets, and has the longest legs. And on top of that, I’m highkey jealous and angry about her bc of our history, so watching her videos and looking at her pictures gives me the best motivation to never eat again 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

It’s so bad guys. I stalk her profile every single night, and usually at least once during the day too. I just watch the same videos over and over and over again. I’ve figured out my favourites and I think I’ve raised the popularity of them all by myself because Tiktok suggests them first now. 
She’s a lovely person and she’d probably delete her account if she knew what I was using it for. Oh welllll",1.7115047502298495,3.9978625179282896,3.312848605577692,88.50566886300949,81.19123505976096,5.773889059148022,24.79328838492185,7.010146845296331,1.0613143119828377,976,38,197,12,26,322,151,251,0.085,0.691,0.22399999999999998,0.9909,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,2,7,12,15,2,1,11,0,8,7,4,3,4,36,21,20,0,1,3,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,3,13,18,2,0,7,2,3,1,4,5,0,2,5,5,32,10,23,14,11,26,0,0,3,2,28,12,0,2,15,127,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578469277669702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134763904595338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631998441791406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184795409868624,0.1730003391922107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467419956914621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457691186410391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151296391342384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451978608360388,0.0,0.15961701066702333,0.0,0.14661935534329995,0.0,0.0,0.1283555560712679,0.1195558288771757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069901633461552,0.0,0.1555846707926753,0.10963063322137724,0.0,0.0,0.13612222457062234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050208584423832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993022013497865,0.0,0.0,0.14992383515399427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864913720375616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915922380619386,0.0,0.0,0.12063725497012776,0.2561383495659091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944107472794064,0.0,0.0,0.13316237771040154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111755279220526,0.09615427498690857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478010552078793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443620567121307,0.15299086776039245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360912497805062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034150613012306,0.0,0.10043667564562442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427123372670487,0.18184599694940853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255497240478105,0.15628144145356732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827563036147376
EDAnonymous,luplum,2019/10/13,"Do you think he's trying to be supportive, or does he not fully believe me? My BF knows about my ED. I still always eat with him, because I don't want this to affect him too much and also because his presence actually does make me much more relaxed about food. It's kind of a win-lose though, cause I'm chill with him and eat whatever, feel good about it, but then when he leaves all the anxiety comes rushing back and I've basically just binged. But anyways... 

When I first told him he did make some comments about ""You don't look sick though,"" and ""You look good to me"" and stuff like that. I always interpreted those comments as attempts at being supportive, and him kind of trying to be like ""I don't want you to think this makes you unattractive."" But then this weekend happened...

This thing I do where I restrict in my alone-time and always eat in front of him has made me fear that he's gonna think I'm being dramatic or even that I'm lying for attention, so when we were talking about it now I let it slip that with my current BMI (and with my past and my current behavior) I could get the Anorexic diagnosis from a therapist. This was also in the context of me telling him I'm considering therapy. It didn't really occur to me until later that my worries about feeling invalid/fake probably also contributed to me wording it that way.

But I can't shake his reply. First he looked a bit surprised and said ""Really?"" and began studying my arms, since they were visible. He then said, ""I mean, sure, you are thin, but I know a girl who's just really into exercising and eating healthy, and she's a lot skinnier than you are.""

I've been telling myself ever since that he's just trying to make me feel calm, that he's just worried that I'm gonna think I'm unattractive to him or sick-looking, or that it's a typical attempt at comfort from someone who doesn't understand ED triggers. But now I'm wondering if maybe I'm just totally bullshitting myself and making excuses, because maybe the hard truth is that he looks at me, my barely (and sometimes not) underweight body, my habit of always eating in front of him, and he thinks I'm just in need of attention and that I'm... well, not lying exactly, but just making this all a lot more dramatic than it is for some other reason than genuinely struggling with food. Like, maybe a part of him just doesn't believe me. That comment -- especially since he's now comparing me to other girls -- makes a lot more sense to me from that perspective.

Do you think people say stuff like that because they really are trying to be supportive, or do you think I might be onto something? I don't even know why it's so important for me to know, I just... IDK, maybe I just regret telling anyone at all.",6.984290985767005,6.059924627306273,7.264451765946231,77.45724169741699,64.71955719557195,10.547285187137588,33.74828676858197,9.784248007369934,3.0145401159725886,2156,78,426,38,28,703,222,542,0.079,0.8140000000000001,0.10800000000000001,0.9205,2,1,1,0,0,0,79.0,1,9,2,4,38,22,0,3,13,0,32,11,2,12,8,104,86,45,0,6,26,0,5,4,1,3,2,3,0,2,38,25,7,1,21,3,0,5,11,4,1,2,11,12,66,18,54,64,16,40,0,1,4,0,54,13,0,13,25,288,104,0,0.0,0.0,0.06009109526525721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773134428539572,0.20495080403769544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04710688386378304,0.0,0.0,0.04305666188029834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734956282129752,0.0,0.15014913420725262,0.0,0.0,0.1387542919698932,0.0,0.0,0.06722705962333457,0.06839910549340482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325741053544644,0.0,0.05304386210134515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916489962542793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777437650354342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31504754839026905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134317343648166,0.05570068736506582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929219673349367,0.09340682787031247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475616918978584,0.14892035231396494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03217188315321835,0.0,0.0,0.1032971518492634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05445308610787086,0.0,0.0551616551517485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824770210780465,0.1353662956787138,0.0,0.0,0.06520204807911313,0.0,0.06296751985546037,0.0,0.12033530111520092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585494105221069,0.0,0.0,0.15705384860644098,0.0,0.05826644704704821,0.2877258338959498,0.0,0.24745289288257874,0.06707632677105524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532436384443344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053360451788987,0.04565919277195216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668280681179663,0.05878302195973927,0.04269032524167124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639133322830355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779338048997502,0.06331228175912837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11714926600820864,0.04896917492141074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528134923302015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052174709331538185,0.047405634493315786,0.06090206451956073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04917614758835909,0.0,0.0,0.0643745349232832,0.14098380325654786,0.0,0.2096334307088968,0.05803639138187331,0.0,0.0,0.049493940318345406,0.16146525542554044,0.0,0.07041963379200873,0.07149662565160626,0.0409095848910093,0.2761961824749767,0.12099984265887705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884027098811405,0.0,0.16722926221226428,0.0,0.0,0.06410470964443347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264041833442937,0.0488776281700165,0.0,0.0,0.05536587901429787,0.0,0.05556442845296375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677854756348295,0.0,0.12507058392902118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bernadette_h,2019/10/13,"family won’t stop talking about my dads recent weight loss possible TW ⚠️
i’m on mobile so i apologize if this format looks crappy. also this is my first time posting here so sorry if i break any of the rules!!
my dad has recently lost about 30 or so pounds,  (still has a ways to go but that’s besides the point) and my family *will not* stop talking about it. 
i am currently losing weight in a healthy and sustainable way after struggling with orthorexia, countless anorexic & bulimic habits, extreme body dysmorphic behavior, and most recently B.E.D. , my loss isn’t noticeable yet since i don’t have *that* much to lose, and it’s *really* triggering me and making me want to relapse and restrict. i know that i won’t end up doing that because i’m too afraid of the consequences, but it’s SO tempting. my sister who’s in college came home for the week saw my dad, pointed it out, and now everybody won’t stop talking about his weight. “you look so much slimmer!” “wow dad you’re so tiny” “how much have you lost?” “mom, dad only weighs 30 more pound than me.” “really?! you used to weigh THAT much?!” then they’ll start body checking him and comparing his torso to other family members and body checking themselves. i have to sprint out of the room before they even THINK about touching me or bringing up my body or weight.” it’s making me want to go die in a hole. also, when my dad comes home from the gym he tells me how many miles he ran, & how he’s lost so far. my ed brain want to turn it into a competition and jump on the treadmill. 
by the way, i totally understand that everyone is just proud of my dad and just want him to know, and that he’s not purposefully trying to trying get me as he doesn’t even know that it would affect me. i’m proud of him too!!  it’s just taking a toll on my mental health, and i needed to let it out. let me know if any of y’all are dealing with this too.",2.7425995430809422,4.432894874673631,3.958752447780679,87.99794590404701,75.44908616187989,7.398466057441253,23.718097258485642,8.17850203761792,1.266383877284596,1479,45,310,25,32,483,192,383,0.11199999999999999,0.825,0.063,-0.961,1,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,4,2,10,30,12,0,2,13,0,21,12,5,8,1,60,54,36,1,9,13,9,5,0,0,6,1,0,3,0,22,21,6,4,6,1,2,7,8,9,0,1,6,8,41,3,42,40,7,47,0,7,3,0,32,17,0,7,18,195,63,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139133556773785,0.0,0.16447107764492105,0.0,0.10322659518203334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046266765587029926,0.0,0.06458367659165347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33722263102579064,0.0,0.08472735916027496,0.0,0.08680718494050793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537947612235072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824758861750049,0.0,0.0,0.07877022509495844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722317183308965,0.0,0.0,0.10025993309547912,0.0,0.0,0.07252386873244837,0.0,0.0,0.21464986742835576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455886874457857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039653614633267,0.0,0.08626925676603146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067611072195377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226392676053327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684640117622776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552218597133152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747054488137868,0.16982107684615727,0.2485551627149057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132511656670026,0.07694874124284118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648741401383535,0.0,0.0,0.08889091491009622,0.0,0.0,0.22317528929318373,0.05627746520221711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641046802470227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772391053675941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349643754223132,0.08556368219076492,0.07268938122629244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724450806672794,0.0,0.22482059509240085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627836767358491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849616875732675,0.05372105222607434,0.0,0.060612305357772685,0.1903625820862045,0.0,0.07934515327829976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05706591111886855,0.1830120071043388,0.06633826795086549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048632425537908176,0.0,0.0,0.04425678126289773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305962954654277,0.08255531721333903,0.0,0.0790125787884925,0.0,0.0655515729767104,0.0,0.0,0.17906661799774784,0.18073309129074672,0.06088086230539794,0.36969366134455184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05391581896852096,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bugspraycody522,2019/10/13,"""Attention whore"" One of the tings I fear most is getting called an attention whore, or getting accused of faking/exaggerating my ED for pity. It's an offshoot of imposter syndrome I suppose, but it's very specific to memories of the way people, mainly men tbh, in my life have talked about women whose mental illnesses they didn't see as legitimate or severe enough to warrant attention. This fear for sure stops me from getting help, and even now, *posting anonymously on the internet,* I feel like I'm ""attention whoring"" with my fake mental illness. My weight loss goal have a lot to do with getting skinny enough that I no longer feel like my disorder could be read as illegitimate. 

Anyone else have this paranoia?",8.724637362637367,8.658297661538466,8.354395604395606,68.24346153846156,60.84615384615386,11.428571428571427,39.34065934065934,10.914260884657429,4.4944505494505504,576,27,94,13,7,184,93,130,0.28,0.638,0.08199999999999999,-0.9824,0,0,0,1,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,2,3,11,0,2,6,0,8,8,1,0,1,17,16,6,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,3,2,1,6,1,0,0,2,8,0,1,1,4,11,3,17,13,5,6,0,2,1,3,7,2,0,4,4,61,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208397487718312,0.16424407732839333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636820141488376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798477944657402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18371520897893204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390827400731067,0.0,0.0,0.33126103227084697,0.0,0.10587520966246566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607592645920148,0.1621028057939007,0.229033613842426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349960155408138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744426133849624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322310298115255,0.1566268525940473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627948887838304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32308503487799706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862196302404406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113033693110584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352101761806644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16034121606639826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773662241356293,0.0,0.0,0.18109092906514898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340161695571291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107881450941646,0.0,0.0,0.12884132956327987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226250343355722,0.0,0.12723696191532224,0.0,0.19519958121488087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CircleShapedBird,2019/10/13,"I need some support I'm having a really hard time holding my food down. I'm stressed out af and I have no one to talk to about this. it's so hard to look myself in the mirror after I've purged my dinner... My eyes get blood shot, I'm crying and sometimes shaking. I feel so cold and alone. My throat and stomach feel like shit for too long after. And yet I do it again and again.  
The only thing I was able to hold down today was a bit of rice, tomorrow the goal is two slices of pizza.  
Some words of courage would be appreciated... I feel lonely and scared",1.1984382284382278,3.0271947179487206,2.7786946386946423,94.08524475524479,80.45299145299145,5.28018648018648,18.32867132867133,6.1124844417494595,-0.3417282051282049,430,9,98,3,11,141,79,117,0.195,0.737,0.068,-0.9127,0,3,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,1,3,5,0,8,8,5,0,0,18,18,9,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,8,3,2,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,2,2,8,11,3,15,14,3,14,0,1,2,0,1,4,1,2,10,61,15,1,0.19853154976082785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056188115695356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167450331182459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807758508888211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30115055029409543,0.14183097881761472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400651380197174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372454066249658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35569054603045713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699248699721204,0.0,0.0,0.17569417411479946,0.1667165003505991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720862856352104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453011615482915,0.1509921897673701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271843944676573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19876471541946947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378978285445926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963527791520414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22741721948293955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22529124996328165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957213945630774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318955400063009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576534321396988,0.0,0.1881846954884598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939364763538768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103111680165656,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Halfaxa666,2019/10/13,"ThAT UGW FeELing So I weighed myself for the first time in a few today and boom there it was,. I honestly didn’t feel good at all if anything it’s more painful getting there again and realising I’m still fuckin miserable and hate my body.. despite that these last few weeks I managed to get out of baaad b/p cycle so what do I do at the end of the day? Pizza,,rice,bread, ice cream, biscuits.. what the fuck am I doing,,I really really just wish i didn’t have to deal w this",0.2180062794348494,2.593787142857142,1.9193877551020435,94.72835949764523,90.83673469387756,5.464364207221347,20.80376766091052,7.010146845296331,0.5545124018838301,372,13,82,6,13,121,74,98,0.136,0.758,0.106,-0.6061,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,3,1,5,0,7,5,1,0,1,10,15,6,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,3,4,8,2,9,12,4,13,0,1,1,2,1,4,2,1,9,53,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200617980018068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707951676275972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15722405438382422,0.2513362618834532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592512969401592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465345848043027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20736721767880606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253794573340896,0.25473989545700304,0.0,0.0,0.2044790596945145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24069165183109514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872097444009007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594092083299245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31235558281115305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19469060353067305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215561351014694,0.0,0.2310839332194367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19555322563202512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803458848590807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ProblematicFeet,2019/10/13,"Lol all my friends are getting married and I legit can’t imagine sharing a house with someone and letting them see me eat, we are in such different places Lmao i am total shit relationship material. No man should be with me, I’m a fucking mess. I’m a fucking nutcase. I can’t even imagine being in an honest enough relationship to get engaged. I honestly believe nobody would want to marry me after seeing what I am actually like, when I’m not masking my ED and depression and anxiety with a fake ass smile. 

I wish I felt good enough myself to believe I was worth anything lol 😄 can’t even imagine someone liking me enough to want to spend the rest of their life with me",4.940543024227235,5.8932908571428575,6.143258145363407,77.33931495405183,69.0,8.317126148705098,34.326649958228906,8.515128840125781,2.88576925647452,536,26,98,8,9,180,85,133,0.134,0.5920000000000001,0.27399999999999997,0.9559,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,2,0,4,14,3,0,6,2,13,6,2,0,2,21,26,5,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,9,1,0,4,0,2,0,5,6,0,0,2,3,19,8,13,19,6,5,0,1,2,3,8,3,4,0,4,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.14162771852383466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102544326983113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943111990532107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32702771883819964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250018218904081,0.0,0.0,0.1516318597262742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850608166843907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4498798914821536,0.0,0.1917163935928166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934930466585702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212848231229283,0.26834405361513103,0.1516507692693061,0.0,0.0,0.12172968292424967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16746263181360796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484071165430927,0.1025108948739584,0.14180815043887365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516318597262742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116345162095532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313025367971235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897572523200284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459394362725917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17120501258811804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689442784018044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030974792333479,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,36434007,2019/10/13,"Alcoholism + ED = Constant Nausea When I drink, I'm nauseous. When I don't drink, I'm even mre nauseous. When I eat, I'm nauseous. When I don't eat, I'm nauseous. 

It's great ! I'm thriving !",-2.5442857142857136,-1.1369907857142856,0.7860714285714323,98.77767857142858,111.61904761904762,3.0523809523809526,21.91666666666667,5.148860815047168,-0.021961904761904627,145,7,34,1,8,51,20,42,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.6892,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086546185022677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312105620597834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5658560598690211,0.0,0.5910581975225754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907591001651566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184187501129787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RenBumah,2019/10/13,I'm excited for my restriction I'm binging today and the only thing that's bringing me hope and happiness is that fact that I'm going to be restricting for weeks on end and I'm sure to be a skinny legend by then ❤️❤️,3.3883333333333354,3.0034376999999988,6.25,79.93833333333335,72.0,9.866666666666667,28.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.465466666666667,175,6,39,4,3,65,35,50,0.092,0.688,0.22,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,2,8,10,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,6,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427619863210993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21993771642455107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119625113133112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.384372550577609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943265200714901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647374441254305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571017438902906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366825242015272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31042339603600405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bonelessdishes,2019/10/13,The worst feeling is... (TW) ...getting to work and then catching sight of yourself in a mirror and realizing that the outfit that you were very excited about in the morning actually makes you look like a disgusting monster. I feel like my body is spilling out all over the place in the most unflattering ways. Why am I like this? :'),4.668196721311475,6.7392781147541,5.030295081967214,80.72740983606558,71.13114754098359,8.158688524590165,31.872131147540983,8.841846274778883,2.729266229508197,259,12,48,5,5,82,47,61,0.10300000000000001,0.684,0.213,0.7243,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,1,6,1,0,7,0,4,1,1,1,1,9,9,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,5,4,8,8,3,9,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,1,4,33,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.29372985289270376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343400399990085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30438646179227197,0.21503246352697208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572586165081881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411560914933493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25276184427299664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009179717432657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31447801542993953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483542172558959,0.0,0.2389175712099873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716031605600049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191295502348284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jailbait01,2019/10/13,"adderall comedown i never use to get comedowns, i would be fine with not eating for days but now i literally get so sad and cry about nothing. has anyone experienced this?",4.068020833333332,6.5985005937500025,5.16375,77.03958333333338,74.3125,6.766666666666668,29.416666666666664,7.793537801064563,2.199404166666667,137,6,23,2,3,45,29,32,0.337,0.627,0.037000000000000005,-0.9097,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,7,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,4,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639719753323026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146898994752172,0.24347028785257135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862989838988524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944790504068789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2911680359529684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36224228710268175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260575675090667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681806093254385,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsturbulentjuice,2019/10/13,"I miss having boobs My boobs were like my one good feature and now they're gone. I haven't gotten around to buying new bras because part of me can't even deal with the fact that I've totally destroyed the only good feature I had, so instead every day I get to look at these flat saggy pancakes fail to fill my beautiful old bras.

I'm legitimately concerned that no one will ever want me now because not only am I an enormous whale but I don't even have boobs any more. I have literally destroyed my mental health and my body only to make myself even less attractive than ever.",6.995459770114943,6.086846706896554,7.31034482758621,77.08580459770117,64.6896551724138,9.457471264367816,32.264367816091955,8.344100000000001,2.35986091954023,462,15,89,5,6,151,79,116,0.10400000000000001,0.7879999999999999,0.10800000000000001,-0.1219,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,10,8,2,0,3,0,10,5,4,1,4,12,18,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,4,0,2,4,1,15,4,9,13,4,12,0,2,1,3,1,3,3,0,8,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296997581448167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609762198734447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046345848057625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008603437331765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661979747765705,0.18642684209176127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35830770721938393,0.3271405124267333,0.15235629963990754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447573125531757,0.0,0.0,0.30334170713828656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922128569055393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834395483273218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518508848759374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070481557232775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223318195872532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17464585302141414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974970153871235,0.0,0.2450689300412734,0.4125859931796767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958202728046194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665767695589287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BoneGnawerGirl,2019/10/13,"Found a way to get caffeine, protein, and never be constipated. 
I was at CostCo and found this protein powder, it's coffee flavoured, made with actual coffee, has caffeine, low carb, not crazy high on calories, and has 3g of MCT oil per serving which on top of helping me feel full has also ensured I will likely never be constipated again.

If you try it I do suggest working up to a full serving as the MCT oil can be rough at first.

I really love this protein powder, I know there are huge gaps in my nutritional intake thanks to my terrible relationship with food and being vegan, getting a sufficient amount of protein every day has made me feel so much better.

This has also replaced my normal morning cup of cold brew, I even have started adding a little splash of almond milk creamer in chocolate mint.

TL:DR - Rave: I found a delicious protein powder with caffeine that also keeps me from being constipated.
Rant: it is really delicious but the MCT oil will make it impossible to be a more than a couple feet from a bathroom until you get used to it.
Also, It appears to only come in coffee flavour so that can be a negative if you don't fancy coffee.

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EDAnonymous,Zyklar,2019/10/13,"DAE get really pissed when someone tries to invalidate your ED? Im underweight and restrict and whenever i open up to someone i thought i could trust its always like
'But i saw you eat today' as if anorexics just dont fucking eat anything whatsoever at any time ever? Like just because you saw me eating two/three meals doesnt mean they werent under 700 total. Stop acting like you know everything. Same with when gym teachers go about the ED unit and everyone says 'omg i could never be anorexic i love food too much lol i dont get it' fuckin shut up i love food so much it literally controls my every thought and decision ok damn",1.6268548387096793,4.327649830645162,3.134112903225809,86.39616935483872,86.98387096774192,6.325806451612903,23.87903225806452,7.645422480735847,1.5416064516129029,505,20,96,10,16,165,90,124,0.14400000000000002,0.737,0.11900000000000001,-0.6473,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,1,1,8,11,4,0,1,2,6,11,1,1,3,24,18,10,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,6,6,3,5,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,4,3,15,7,9,11,4,15,0,0,2,4,8,6,4,1,10,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440023345924236,0.0,0.0,0.09349590372927788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314012156151175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381082517662886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420340925033313,0.2195444324917972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222675804013207,0.0,0.0,0.42205070535830425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243649014859547,0.11583876331871468,0.13137476126431344,0.12356448884460397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324997557641546,0.0,0.0,0.12710455562332912,0.1436626105794527,0.0,0.07813705480811108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850959910897396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555928312098473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015076731063017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481748479423237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976369530681702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213759182615168,0.0,0.10603848320753803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807772016867069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093352147530098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23298465038852045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149453240352948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21829870904825,0.08016980029277936,0.0,0.13032164062764806,0.0,0.0,0.09334467716838632,0.0,0.1343048631578661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wastedoreos,2019/10/13,My brain: not all EDs are emaciated young girls My ED brain: but they’re all BMIs of 18.6 and only slightly not underweight whereas you’re actually ginormous with a bmi of 20+,2.0541428571428604,4.673188057142858,4.005357142857147,81.93089285714288,82.71428571428572,8.071428571428571,25.892857142857146,8.841846274778883,2.406857142857143,142,6,28,4,4,48,29,35,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,2,7,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.3823065500930853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8746795764222408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297955265678814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashprncss91,2019/10/13,"First post from an Outsider (TW?) Hi all, I have never posted on this before. I think this forum is the only place I could say these things though. 

I’m late 20s just had my second with the love of my life. I couldn’t be happier, I’ve never been happier in my life.
My life is gorgeous, perfect, full of shopping sprees, climbing the corporate ladder, networking and landing business accounts, enjoying my family and friends who adore me and my family, cuddling with our babies at night by a fire and watching Netflix, attending events with hubby, going out and enjoying my life to its fullest. It’s all I ever wanted...

But I couldn’t be more depressed.

I gained almost 80 lbs with my recent who’s 6+ months old. I have lost more than half so far (I stopped weighing myself I can’t face it anymore) ... I’m comparing my self constantly to our friends who just had their firsts and their stick skinny... Super triggering... I’m also the only one who’s darker, bigger hips,..

My friends have slowly started falling away. My career is starting to fall apart. My family is vacant. 
But I’ve started wondering is it really everyone else who’s falling away or has it been me this whole time?

I’m falling and drowning all over again. It’s been 4 years since my last relapse. 

And god it’s just not fair to my babies for me to be such fucking broken trash..



Thank you for letting me vent.",2.5661298377028743,4.990890831460675,3.734831460674158,85.89890137328341,78.8876404494382,6.352559300873907,25.24469413233458,7.526774132740827,1.4801825218476905,1080,41,200,16,27,350,158,267,0.07200000000000001,0.753,0.175,0.987,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,2,1,2,7,9,14,1,0,6,0,22,11,3,1,7,36,37,14,1,4,7,0,1,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,17,13,2,1,2,2,2,7,6,3,0,5,6,3,34,11,23,24,7,42,0,2,1,3,17,13,1,3,20,137,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969323879907286,0.0,0.0,0.09558906403927624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854283957432082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460700972517214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171225431763348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129170771861244,0.0,0.09543594343189518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295205450113017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985298656985353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081228211384522,0.0,0.11421719186496067,0.0,0.0,0.3380501553536637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20334636932255154,0.0,0.0,0.27704854491476794,0.11050467591208388,0.0,0.0,0.06793234023714448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974338883285357,0.13483640930088844,0.0,0.0,0.12222875890637287,0.3377137093338068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304824338295542,0.0,0.10788158224111526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540867001811547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437967331058008,0.0,0.0,0.11217194166147748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542789572807633,0.0,0.08099744019132718,0.18181774028894385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248846716836932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289557120207542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765747527662002,0.0,0.11802264777864532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505601441906042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469711897590158,0.0,0.0,0.09887745065257024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538144132352864,0.0,0.0,0.0999334423368092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100482770175482,0.0,0.0,0.07941122343838601,0.07659077177768409,0.1174388051967908,0.0,0.06969960876574624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070502603563217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13345232528769801,0.0,0.0,0.1296264964697812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07697417911807948
EDAnonymous,thetachibabe,2019/10/13,"My boyfriend is making this hard I love my boyfriend but he’s the one who really made me gain 30 lbs in the first place. 

I’ve been losing bc I’ve been lying how much I eat but I feel bad lying and hes been doing this thing where he refuses to eat unless I eat and I don’t want him to starve so I end up eating.

I also binged yesterday, I didn’t binge enough to gain, but it set my goal back and now I just feel bad.",-1.811732793522268,0.08001054736842406,0.7989473684210537,102.35032388663969,96.15789473684212,4.186234817813766,11.51821862348178,5.8734145424116955,-1.3873643724696354,322,4,84,3,13,109,62,95,0.247,0.626,0.127,-0.9344,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,0,2,0,8,5,0,3,0,15,14,10,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,5,3,15,1,6,9,2,10,0,1,0,1,7,4,0,0,5,52,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165479466952807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362058803076745,0.29580065039201064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7250133029396426,0.0,0.0,0.156889032623536,0.1830278050934319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912955556864987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067093962414194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867816620669667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981687544559309,0.0,0.0,0.1598712523716086,0.1676094189590709,0.1182389872802138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021460564826534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003125958368475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18506837264832088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347721613331214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176806223983795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447881179494664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xlaaane,2019/10/13,"“THAT’S a guilt free snack?” So I was making a vegan pizza. I’ve recently started eating less meat/animal products for ethical reason. I had just taken the pizza out of the oven and I was excited to eat it when I commented I was glad I would be able to enjoy a guilt free snack (ethically.) Now, my mom is heavier than me and she’s actually overweight. She buys bags of chocolate chips to snack on and she had her obligatory bag on the counter when I absentmindedly reached in and grabbed 2 CHIPS, LITERALLY TWO and she goes “THAT’S a guilt free snack?” and snickers. Not sure what position she thinks she is in to make fun of me but she always makes comments like these about my food. It gets old.",1.873478260869568,4.332160840579713,3.5603188405797117,85.92308695652176,81.89855072463769,7.1582608695652175,23.692753623188405,8.238735603445708,1.595341449275362,548,20,111,12,15,182,88,138,0.057999999999999996,0.784,0.158,0.9096,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,6,12,0,3,7,0,9,10,0,4,1,17,16,10,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,7,10,0,2,0,4,0,1,3,0,1,6,1,19,12,15,8,1,11,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,0,7,71,25,0,0.2204319171704293,0.0,0.21510975347200967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834170135185092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451113764307599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26654714922248224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516657872968256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076919002832562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4414200491794512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581671972410471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231306216430708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266407237351629,0.217649925101165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602284553008108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20775447322854512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124387187210338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153299530652112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565885094571997,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ivydroplet,2019/10/13,So I went to a neigbors house and used their scale... And it says I'm two pounds less? Then like 5 minutes later I went home and it says I'm two pounds more(still wearing the same things)? Whose scale is in the wrong here? :/,0.7813043478260866,2.9687171304347832,0.8240869565217395,105.54047826086958,84.21739130434783,3.68,17.895652173913042,3.1291,-1.1945860869565217,172,4,42,0,5,50,33,46,0.131,0.821,0.048,-0.5884,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,5,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,2,3,1,2,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26124248321151394,0.0,0.0,0.3005127100998882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723779371290067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142245687972494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302471593965554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.508823933392505,0.0,0.0,0.2249364779589456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828608458226607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847501772177487,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KieranBoonee,2019/10/13,"It's gotten to the point where I don't even necessarily hate my body anymore, I'm just restricting because I like being in control. Can anyone else relate? I'm at my lowest weight and actually don't hate how I look (despite how bad the dysmorphia is on some days) but still the concept of maintaining is just too much for me to handle... Sooo we still losing weight :)",4.806249999999999,5.9089215694444475,5.9232222222222255,78.24400000000001,69.41666666666667,8.537777777777778,28.288888888888888,8.841846274778883,2.1799022222222217,291,10,55,5,5,97,55,72,0.122,0.75,0.128,0.1275,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,2,10,5,2,0,3,0,6,3,1,3,0,10,12,4,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,3,7,1,7,10,2,8,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,1,4,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.19676704517687624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996811647620494,0.14098814634627688,0.20659927555441007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835712045524373,0.1229150564797118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22397145236359345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22615122470664115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003813958476645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844048717407992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317826719378031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981463872098202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850886194696153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932293650527586,0.2255784145179411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822520517858326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906106089474003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220525507624717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910751452776677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,now_everybodys_DEAD,2019/10/13,"So who wants to hear a stupid story?? So the other day I got super excited at the prospect of my SO someday proposing to me. 






I know what you're all thinking. *Well naturally that's something to be excited about, marriage and lifetime love are great things to have!* 






Well, my little skinny peaches, my excitement has nothing at all to do with anything nice like that, oh no. 







I got excited because proposal ----> wedding ----> must lose weight to look good for wedding -----> low restriction for at least a year ------> Therefore I get one single celebratory binge day in order to eat everything I wont be allowed to touch until after the wedding and havent been allowed to touch since I was 15. 







So I spent an entire day planning that potential future binge day. I got *so* excited over the prospect of spending an entire day in bed, justifiably eating anything and everything. I'm drooling right now thinking about it. I even planned strategically what movies I would put on during the whole affair, and in what order I was going to eat what foods. 






So who wants to marry me??",3.6016844349680177,6.382571044776121,4.1697228144989325,82.2155223880597,77.35820895522387,6.6146410803127225,30.466950959488273,7.793537801064563,2.375492110874201,864,42,148,14,21,273,121,201,0.057,0.746,0.19699999999999998,0.9825,2,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,0,5,12,16,1,0,9,0,13,8,2,3,3,18,28,11,0,4,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,12,5,6,1,3,0,2,2,3,3,2,1,7,6,16,13,28,16,5,25,0,2,1,1,9,11,0,0,11,99,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186791648948329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099549923502461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42844645468638975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4078734162436405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775849393516896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882756053522705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606653058055758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941838861965098,0.0,0.07551231895879539,0.1114439244390009,0.3188016050906627,0.1464881619091327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975263150447302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07302113832344552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491291368999398,0.13316929879817346,0.0,0.0,0.11157620691041108,0.14864603917374208,0.0,0.0,0.11991914925251282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749105857270965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003523972856066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356969748574418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134691059333764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991032497106397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228878248580003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827203085090762,0.17027373906410542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673875120763633,0.0,0.0,0.16179822754359685,0.2389297566063445,0.0,0.0,0.14834310900726835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438608077770534,0.0,0.0,0.08556305796127525
EDAnonymous,perennialdays,2019/10/13,"Don’t care about being skinny anymore Thank you body dysmorphia™ for helping me realize I’m never going to like how I look. Seeing the number on the scale move in either direction no longer phases me because I look the same either way!!!!!!!! :))))))) The only thing I care about is not eating, the number on the scale is irrelevant. Yet I a b s o l u t e l y will not stop weighing myself obsessively, are you joking??????? 

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P.S. this is my first post ever, please let me know if I did anything wrong??",-1.9926905370844,-0.1319532869565183,2.131713554987216,91.82795396419438,99.2608695652174,4.445012787723785,15.460358056265983,6.2272716619740125,-0.3339411764705882,392,10,90,5,17,147,83,115,0.087,0.7140000000000001,0.19899999999999998,0.8808,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,1,5,7,0,1,7,0,9,4,2,1,2,12,18,2,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,1,0,2,5,2,0,1,1,3,14,5,7,14,3,12,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,6,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021593084863529,0.0,0.0,0.167746936231091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242619236424941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22642566589307245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156668038599017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20858416325086265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438932989486176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339031844131134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584972129498156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663290070433892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202779414084107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20844516181988096,0.0,0.09958829318345384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423566552306692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21665480705540385,0.0,0.0,0.15721770875936136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503318791482046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237604230204797,0.0,0.0,0.195227010683751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243794716551074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042341545061573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876729430632049,0.0,0.0,0.13542545525319935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618025473554928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22287233458942315,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashcannottt,2019/10/13,"binged on pizza but i'm ok lol [TW numbers]

So i just ate 770kcal pizza and yeah. At least i feel the eNERGY and i can do stuff like get out of my bed so that's a good thing i guess? Wish me luck that i wont eat anything else anymore today.",-2.9229090909090907,-1.5095351999999984,0.285909090909092,102.80886363636364,110.0909090909091,2.927272727272728,12.772727272727273,4.935628992294339,-1.454672727272727,184,4,47,1,10,64,46,55,0.0,0.584,0.41600000000000004,0.9799,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,3,3,4,0,0,0,9,9,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,7,4,4,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126346784240426,0.0,0.0,0.2594167434479812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225705671954432,0.263343669327024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593954817296846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647005769367813,0.0,0.0,0.2644094600318425,0.0,0.0,0.3472738511056853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540109839478906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608758869431031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943232330244976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29881190815268954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36251195671811454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,QuijiaBored2,2019/10/13,Messed up please help I went to a party last night and as one does at college parties I drank and the guy I've been crushing on was super sweet to take me home and take care of me but I accidentally totally told him about my ED and I was planning on not doing that ever and I don't know what to do now :(,1.930746268656716,2.7900659552238807,3.9016716417910473,90.95638805970152,76.01492537313433,6.554029850746268,22.35522388059701,6.742157984588678,0.3226441791044774,237,6,57,2,5,81,51,67,0.142,0.67,0.188,0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,2,10,13,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,6,1,9,3,10,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,4,40,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871809410347179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24649097500280984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547862893271362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27889719923849515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887972031261862,0.0,0.28253758608875823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15479825208391615,0.2295983271667855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643278493996293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086661829623364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30918864943088564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235609869916974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26914738430081153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611105516193045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,recovering-me,2019/10/13,"Random bursts of fasting for no fucking reason and I like it too much. (TW numbers and fasting) So I just wanted to fucking share what’s going on cause maybe if I write it down in one place I can get myself out of my head. 

Last semester I hit a really low place depression wise, I wanted to drop out of college, but my parents convinced me to just drop to half time. 

My mom went around looking for group support in my area and just happened to find an group program specializing in EDs. I had never really considered myself as having an ED before. I have been overweight or obese my entire life. I think I had like a 6 month period in middle school where I was on the high end of normal. But I have almost always been classified as obese.  

Anyway I went for the intake interview, and it went well and basically I started thinking for the first time in my life that maybe I could classify myself as someone with an ED. The program was intensive outpatient, 4 days a week for 4 hours a day with a meal included. And oh my fucking god I don’t think I have ever worked on myself and my health for that long. Being in a group environment, with people of all shapes, sizes, EDs, and stages of life, really put things into perspective. I had been struggling with binge eating recently, but I had definitely had binge restrict cycles in the past. Hearing from so many people all the thoughts I thought about myself was amazing. We all had the same shit going on, but coped with it in different ways. Anyways that’s not what this post is about, but it’s important background info, I was at this program for the rest of the spring semester and most of the summer before the fall semester started. 

Well now I have a new major, in a new school (I transferred) and everything has been going pretty great. Iv been mostly following meal plan and losing weight in a slow and sustainable way. From my highest point 5’6” 215lbs, I’d gotten down to about 205. 

And then all of a sudden what feels like from fucking no where I started fasting. I have never been someone who fasts. I missed lunch one day by accident and it kinda just spilled into a 48hr fast. I was like ok, that’s weird but not a problem. Then the next week I had another “accidental” 60 hr fast. Food just feels so hard all of a sudden and I’m down to 192 which is amazing for me but I know I’m not being “healthy”. 

Yesterday I was over at my boyfriends (we have been together 1 year, he knows about SH and ED a bit but doesn’t really know what to say or how to handle it) and it was such a thing that I couldn’t eat anything but dinner and he made me have what felt like a huge dinner when I know it was a normal amount of food. 

Anyway, now I’m up before him typing on reddit while he sleeps and I’m just so stressed about today because he said he was going to make me eat “normal” today and I don’t want to make a fuss but I also really really really don’t feel like eating like a normal human being. Anyway that’s my rant.  I’m in a hole of food anxiety and I needed to share.",3.8697816985645934,5.016508424342106,4.995472488038281,83.85921650717705,71.66447368421052,7.895693779904307,25.331339712918663,8.296473431620573,1.5250710526315792,2374,70,474,36,44,783,269,608,0.09,0.779,0.131,0.9835,2,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,2,0,0,4,32,32,5,2,35,1,44,28,3,6,8,103,93,47,0,12,22,2,6,7,0,0,8,3,0,1,26,33,16,1,16,0,0,10,12,13,2,4,32,10,58,19,77,55,13,101,0,4,1,4,22,39,5,8,53,324,84,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652093590176832,0.0,0.0,0.05207730743726652,0.054185958722984894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828513470400963,0.0498174511019126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053589103548724266,0.0579715713318209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03969720844300618,0.0,0.16623973855608884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109535763807316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689729181186681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051993886713089466,0.0,0.0,0.12599313575931032,0.0,0.056088694323344575,0.0,0.0,0.06803767258147353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665405061747466,0.0,0.0,0.05767795156197971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05890574883229485,0.0,0.0,0.05852663136868376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878153039096746,0.09304503100373426,0.06252645309782974,0.0,0.059519491111028174,0.05539196087907755,0.23623402019967815,0.0,0.0,0.24081357165980954,0.034023078675219136,0.0,0.1480392512687082,0.0,0.0,0.07179622513179157,0.0,0.0,0.057586359615111285,0.0,0.05833570028043264,0.0,0.06683301973277454,0.06922066721254105,0.07339619465116015,0.0,0.0,0.06880400076060632,0.0,0.0,0.06413115020747731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315537905928055,0.053082375147104385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379908427040093,0.2227041061308972,0.0,0.0,0.05763011019866389,0.0546853094904716,0.07285383579382428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06161914434930734,0.08693765863736512,0.06602255813188572,0.130845763719497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626902665668142,0.05197902804731483,0.0,0.04787148975075161,0.04828645872325077,0.1004507893102972,0.12578869766226627,0.0692570117363684,0.0,0.2552193436601368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882554638832363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230925734634666,0.0,0.06216544338975921,0.09029352042905052,0.0,0.13607534516294706,0.0,0.061560473480986776,0.0,0.0623679974496032,0.06625155399487863,0.0,0.06231208270126869,0.0,0.06546467609731074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29202763802245024,0.06695532036902167,0.06429921429509239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06194506356931635,0.05178689985528736,0.0,0.13181202754146004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684585702648514,0.0,0.0,0.06516811378076061,0.0,0.11035376648544336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827911553388927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459598182983551,0.06807869641775709,0.0,0.0,0.07389863453124593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652710932018462,0.12518088367572336,0.0,0.10339773337948313,0.07594525567191539,0.0,0.12345434666052955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523030791621006,0.10338017086327887,0.10447241126381428,0.07929993672697383,0.11710335069009975,0.18110369217788072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047408924822359484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04193584308992045
EDAnonymous,blublebubbles,2019/10/13,My bf is really pushy about my eating disorder He's always asking me if and what I ate and he gets really salty when I say I don't wanna talk about it because it makes me uncomfortable. He also doesn't understand this at all. He tells me that if I want to lose weight there are healthy ways to do it but completely ignores the fact that I'm already underweight and that having an ED isn't that much about the weight as it is about control. I know that no matter how much weight I lose I won't be satisfied but he doesn't get that. I don't wanna talk about my ED with him but he gets mad at me when I don't. How do I get him to stop being so invasive?,2.00708066581306,3.107813126760565,3.9037003841229234,90.06748399487837,76.1830985915493,7.698847631241997,21.35979513444302,8.296473431620573,0.8424845070422537,512,12,120,9,11,174,75,142,0.19,0.7809999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.9705,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,12,4,1,0,3,0,15,5,0,4,2,23,26,15,0,5,5,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,12,4,5,3,2,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,4,19,0,14,22,3,6,0,2,0,0,14,2,0,2,3,82,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922411920583766,0.12263291121830745,0.12759841459467489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336034707718762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347995275044023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078320909465474,0.0,0.1719936223071292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757509118049395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691401801631874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204734954146961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084276442823718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431159718685392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236145739722144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254578987043029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647822587075045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194905237516596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820639144237572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465117752064163,0.13403353519337807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596414194535629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044904467183633,0.1217210714137046,0.0,0.5602122639676256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheAllMightiest,2019/10/13,"It's Time To be unable to feel my feet for the rest of the year!! I'm in the recovery process from my ED but _fuck_ if it makes a difference to my feet, which have always gotten subpar blood flow. Guess I'll just wear slipper socks to bed every night and wait for spring :))",0.7552631578947349,2.8505097017543863,1.9851754385964924,97.75039473684211,83.56140350877193,5.203508771929825,16.517543859649123,6.42735559955562,-0.5085298245614038,211,4,49,2,6,67,46,57,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,2,5,4,1,0,8,9,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,9,7,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,4,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167989410911035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977831736503172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207825407956542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250918481914608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35197995154154826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4194184506354844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541410989704819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572905333140818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22200748260960712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451784742347664
EDAnonymous,Illogicalbiologist,2019/10/13,"DAE see being unable to open something as a 'sign from God​' that you aren't meant to eat it So whenever I'm really really struggling and feel like I'm about to pass out I eat a pickled onion. But there are genuinely days where I cannot for the life of me open the damn jar. Whenever this happens, my mind genuinely views it as like a sign that I'm not meant to eat it? Like a higher power is giving me a sign. So I just put it back and move on, I don't try again, I don't ask for help, I just abandon ship. Does anyone else ever get like this or am I just spiralling lol.",2.2066844444444484,2.907103784000004,3.986666666666668,91.21777777777778,75.16,7.475555555555558,21.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,0.6406622222222222,443,10,106,6,9,150,77,125,0.092,0.784,0.124,0.4535,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,11,7,1,1,7,1,8,4,0,0,1,20,19,8,0,0,6,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,5,3,1,3,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,2,3,11,4,13,16,0,12,0,1,2,0,4,5,1,1,8,62,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127202394622991,0.1863980998328099,0.0,0.0,0.17007024253621494,0.0,0.0,0.13988492168680533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732307414606885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919904344144606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5584474154558008,0.15197045904399872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455666801761493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919840017035629,0.12996337862677246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504546794634328,0.17451383020809708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087087677139508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219368544498094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284951737447703,0.35550685517811376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368690833705986,0.0,0.0,0.19335171497919734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828794164402472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23308467235317515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496634572303793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14005057435563198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19018183568777497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351144791237055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunflower-freckles,2019/10/13,Tin opener Planned my dinner for days now. A can of chickpeas in a wrap! Not that fun but I was so looking forward to it after allowing myself to have it. BUT I HAVE NO TIN OPENER so I can’t even eat the one thing I wanted. I feel like such a baby. I’m gonna just drink relentless and watch skins I want to cry.,-0.7348913043478262,1.2204423768115973,1.9679528985507275,96.31540760869566,89.0,4.6094202898550725,17.320652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.44550869565217344,240,6,57,2,8,83,53,69,0.152,0.759,0.08900000000000001,-0.7345,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,4,0,5,4,1,1,0,11,11,5,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,8,2,7,9,0,7,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,5,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3867344238157636,0.2270572338706056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448964033628069,0.0,0.36025742403611594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23254015365998504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801811910551507,0.25152021859514057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200453479910194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29565170431152443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385730149010992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23390091029949805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41532222872037533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soleil-faire,2019/10/13,"Any tips on how to feel warm? I have a sweatshirt and sweatpants on w long socks. A heater, some coffee. We’re too cheap to turn on heating apprently. I’m so salty.",-0.4367647058823536,1.8110982647058835,0.9443529411764722,100.40358823529414,95.76470588235294,3.896470588235295,18.564705882352946,5.6839178017228535,-0.4321576470588235,127,4,29,1,5,40,29,34,0.0,0.934,0.066,0.2263,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150567180896113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30860965448400024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.540137665185762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6638819959718901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whoisthiiss,2019/10/13,"I have a close friend with an ED and I would probably be extremely happy if my body and weight was like theirs It’s all in the title and I can’t not feel guilty about this. He’s so skinny but I don’t want to invalidate his disorder. 
When he complains about being fat, people say “no you’re not fat”, and when I do it people tell me how beautiful I am.

I am ridiculously overweight while he’s underweight and complains he’s fat. Once again I’m not saying he’s not valid and faking, but it just hurts to see them hating their body while its so much better than mine. It’s just a reminder of how hopelessly fat I am. If I had a weight or body like theirs most of my problems would be solved

But thinking about it the pessimist in me says that I probably won’t be happy even after reaching my goal weight.",3.40941117764471,4.3954724910179666,4.39318862275449,88.35269710578844,72.59281437125749,7.7223552894211585,24.09630738522954,8.07648339933343,1.1128247504990014,634,17,138,9,12,206,96,167,0.203,0.615,0.183,-0.7862,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,4,2,13,14,2,0,6,0,16,12,8,2,1,30,22,20,0,6,12,0,4,2,1,3,5,3,0,0,8,8,9,0,2,0,0,0,8,8,0,0,2,8,21,6,12,13,3,9,0,2,1,0,17,3,0,4,8,95,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983042381768867,0.0,0.4514985321847793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15528396419855722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949026244542681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685081176220756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046797002769247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884645230119019,0.0,0.13376891528128146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504548794252498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132387725033347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996011796215812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442930654329725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18786424223987247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921635625313835,0.12964620432825455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232426862870084,0.0,0.0,0.1079684649515708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842475505034405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681690462730468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991586541641138,0.0,0.0,0.4949731426605124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19249726747206955,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thesunindrag,2019/10/13,I briefly dated a man who wasn’t attracted to skinny girls and now I have two kinds of body dysmorphia I simultaneously believe I’m too fat for anyone to love and not thick enough for anyone to love. I can’t believe my brian is like this,5.096054421768706,5.307149081632655,6.433061224489798,78.03217687074832,68.38775510204081,8.982312925170069,28.578231292517003,8.841846274778883,2.0261374149659863,191,6,39,3,3,65,37,49,0.0,0.73,0.27,0.9287,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,5,5,6,6,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,3,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626500832752447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5843376302321316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880499813489446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679505278754201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700455505500736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669237774313982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680992206971976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25332140747257165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,athenaoof,2019/10/13,[i ate] 2 frozen quorn fish fingers just one of those days :’),2.2324999999999977,3.783030583333337,1.8733333333333315,103.005,76.5,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.7852666666666668,45,1,11,0,1,13,12,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6894080924612379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7243731649149886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SHybrid,2019/10/13,"I don't want food to be an issue anymore. Hi just want to share something positive about my progress. I've been in rehab (non hospitalized) since 6 months. I tried stopping purging for long time, sometimes succeeded for long, then relapsed and so on...
Food is always a issue. Is more of an issue than survival, left alone an enjoyable thing. I binge, I don't enjoy. When I'm invited outside I'm always the one with the special food, making the others unconfortable.

No more.

Today, during a medieval reenactment (one of my passions), I was medieval cooking for my group, we were about eating, I munched a slice of bread and cheese... one part of me went like ""wtf bitch are you crazy??? This is fat like hell!"", but then this genuine thought came to me:
""IT'S JUST FOOD. IT'S NOT A PROBLEM.""
In years of in and out of bulimia, I never had this thought before. It filled my mind with joy and peace. Today I ate, I filled myself up, I enjoyed and did not binge. And I swear I'm not purging.

Food is food. Food is not an issue. Not to me. No more.
We are loved and we are worthy beyond what we eat.",1.1630555555555553,3.586386453703703,2.5295999999999985,92.3154,84.92592592592592,4.937481481481481,22.065925925925928,6.360717304075467,0.42372837037037,838,29,172,8,25,270,121,216,0.078,0.741,0.18100000000000002,0.9805,0,1,1,0,0,0,51.0,4,1,0,3,7,14,2,0,11,0,16,16,1,1,1,32,28,12,0,3,8,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,15,13,1,2,1,0,4,10,3,0,3,10,0,24,11,25,17,4,24,1,0,0,2,9,8,2,0,14,114,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091507861245904,0.0,0.0,0.1470348316429766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762320003339412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751825520455314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105317696576056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081593172408653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7478641190726194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688735299652132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599663133329704,0.0,0.0,0.08633037973798921,0.0,0.0,0.15638061502143988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974272840584146,0.0,0.058976828603003226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921212245930188,0.0,0.0705231375251146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814387547404666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796124066935622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956785246009606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454262695750615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308715286755317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801904993133052,0.08738413928540935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386770925471192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05869831987511776,0.0,0.0,0.1402860508332093,0.051519794726203584,0.0,0.1674980890309945,0.0,0.0,0.05998641120392247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422668728163444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190483142637682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05689693210057752
EDAnonymous,miaalex23,2019/10/13,"Confining in my husband about my ED Admitting I binge/ purge, restrict/ purge, restrict to my husband and chew nicotine gum and he turns around and says “I feel like I don’t even know my who my wife is”  because I partake in these behaviours 🙃 and is being super weird and distant but I want him around to comfort me because I feel super vulnerable fml",4.833382352941179,6.321280279411766,5.505176470588236,79.81629411764708,69.73529411764707,8.381176470588235,34.188235294117646,8.841846274778883,3.0395082352941185,281,14,51,5,5,91,46,68,0.077,0.725,0.19899999999999998,0.8674,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,16,10,6,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,3,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,13,4,7,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,33,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5828937720045513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39914832452874255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21623828575798928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310768682601257,0.23388778258920945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992521369867187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599464228528136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603540037261419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561067661479302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931033530385414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ijustwanttofit,2019/10/13,"Anxiety is my weight loss tool I have struggled with anxiety and depression (and the disordered eating that goes with them) for as long as I can remember I’m in my 40’s), but won’t bore you with that...I’ve been able to get a handful of Xanax a couple days ago and have been eating-non stop!  Now, they are almost gone and the dread of how much weight I’ve gained is stressing me out!!!  I even made the mistake of going grocery shopping while “high.”  I wish I could throw it all out, but there’s kids here to feed!!  They don’t live on carrots.",3.3291216216216206,4.314864288288288,3.959988738738741,91.38430743243244,72.78378378378378,7.351801801801803,24.68581081081081,7.645422480735847,0.949494594594595,420,12,94,5,8,133,80,111,0.217,0.723,0.06,-0.9357,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,3,2,5,7,0,3,5,0,11,6,1,2,1,20,17,10,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,9,4,1,1,1,1,3,2,7,0,0,4,3,12,0,15,11,2,14,0,2,0,0,5,5,0,1,6,59,14,0,0.19139773456615847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696625434144187,0.0,0.19165718382253094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29283748612894844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281551687567071,0.21177795285436116,0.0,0.12343570485565332,0.0,0.16485058832398453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935838573489747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19584766495799716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264163985659218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999974166606458,0.0,0.10877574331647184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20222221503396706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900770619096872,0.1693809721555896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110516425011552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069935741172052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21681632250495314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001707632054232,0.21924545828009145,0.20009046907205624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4661417557033573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009794898485147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,holmesbeth,2019/10/13,"Coming gout to BF or friend about Ed Hello.... I've been struggling with an Ed for nearly 10 years now. And I fluctuate between starving myself or bunging and throwing up.
Even though I have family and friends around I feel so alone.
Is it a good idea to come out to my boyfriend (he lives 6 hour car drive away) or my friend (lives down the street) about my eating issues?
My mum confronted me of starvubf myself when I was younger and got so angry at me, making me feel 10x worse
I don't know what to do
Is it worth the risk?
What if they want nothing to do with me anymore?
I'm tired if this secret.
But a part of me feels like I'm to fat to have an Ed or something. Like when I get to a certain weight I can tell them....
Argh
Sorry I hope someone can provide some kind of help....",1.0589647239263795,3.010691840490804,2.210118865030676,97.3621721625767,81.5153374233129,4.811196319018405,20.616947852760735,5.602791699666715,-0.2312819018404908,602,17,138,3,16,191,107,163,0.133,0.72,0.147,0.3575,0,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,2,0,10,13,2,2,7,0,11,4,1,1,1,28,24,16,0,4,7,1,4,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,5,10,3,0,6,0,1,5,1,4,0,0,3,4,21,9,24,21,2,18,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,8,7,88,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051978408720366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370545173811342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379712837549976,0.0,0.0,0.14561538266387614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670151435811978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859038734323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236744777838128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610794439478486,0.0,0.2350982429183191,0.11072273943661567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35922770116210445,0.0,0.08097430747992493,0.0,0.0,0.12999573720641847,0.1239572573829392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388451505050003,0.0,0.0,0.1539370556856243,0.15263096927568304,0.0,0.0,0.1749614510733813,0.0,0.1617661547852836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139510414441402,0.08517679860784035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143763308454128,0.0,0.2737127102798484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345502194682583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487142007051044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16783581106170645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313199770112011,0.1193165599123061,0.0,0.1734952507406327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16202605734733444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546546402941292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227393463136932,0.0,0.0,0.17813475002298826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914153445987206,0.0,0.0,0.1887324048762678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15794498773135135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998065426473706
EDAnonymous,CurBoney,2019/10/13,"I'm at my all time low [Warning: nonsensical word vomit]  
  
Woke up at around 2 pm today. I left for a youth program at my local lgbt center (think of it as a normal hangout place but for ~the gays~). So I chill there and genuinely feel happy (rare for me because I'm a depressed fuck). But because of me waking up really late and underestimating the cals of peanut butter cracker sandwiches, I went ~250 cals over my limit. this is where the fuckups begin.  
I got home and my family has cookies and cake set out and my bulimic ass is salivating in anticipation. I grab three (3) cookies and go downstairs.  
I then have a breakdown about how I'm an attention whore that's faking everything because I felt happy (I'm a very rational person). After I livestream myself cutting OwO into my thigh to my close friend. I also cut his username in because he asked and deepen some that were already made to fat. Oh no. This is where the fuckups intensify.  
My family goes to sleep and I eat about a quarter of the slice of cake and half a cookie before I feel like a disgusting pig that doesn't deserve life. I go to the downstairs bathroom and purge all of it. It was my first real purge. I've tried to purge before but failed. It made me feel ~clean~ though. My friend gets tired at about 1:30 am his time and gets off the livestream.  
After this, I go upstairs but I still want more cake, so I c/s it over the sink (we have a garbage disposal). It made me feel like a pig that can't control itself. Moving on.  
I realize I have some egg whites mixed with hot sauce I was planning to eat that day so I fry it up. While in the kitchen, I notice some soggy old fried potatoes. My lizard brain goes ""...potato...must eat..."" so I c/s a few slices over the sink. I cannot stress enough how absolutely disgusting it is to spit out potatoes. I eat the eggs (which weren't worth the calories btw) I c/s some more potato which, mind you, tastes like shit and is even worse coming back up. It's 4:47 am and I'm not even tired.  
Really just wanna die rn.",1.1380181922735098,3.5506530417690456,2.6894453447644975,91.20425427361602,84.92137592137594,5.42943175283601,20.698886507397145,6.855684769269737,0.44995701813999744,1576,49,328,20,47,514,217,407,0.154,0.7659999999999999,0.081,-0.9875,0,0,0,0,0,1,70.0,1,1,0,5,20,19,6,1,24,0,18,25,9,6,2,54,45,28,1,3,6,0,7,3,2,0,5,0,3,1,20,21,10,2,8,1,1,6,6,12,0,4,11,11,44,7,44,34,10,50,0,3,1,4,9,28,3,4,18,201,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855996376580378,0.07867096286765743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757517544698969,0.09196794261474084,0.0,0.0,0.07564479393048526,0.0,0.2398755054785775,0.0,0.16742084595201065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981974776368104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474190211801785,0.0,0.0,0.11033664405072098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634441486620037,0.0,0.08473079361337349,0.0,0.10209838164379584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40265135230464505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164833242564182,0.0,0.12995236335079138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884136809246771,0.0,0.18547959425084093,0.0,0.19896671549336106,0.1405591521399715,0.09445604068204264,0.0,0.0,0.08367826817340879,0.0,0.0,0.15200954912982298,0.09094669293769868,0.10279442201676336,0.0,0.16772742792356135,0.0,0.07867998519543634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20944539374390372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867878685276787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110972005594279,0.0,0.10688541948290474,0.0,0.06948562305197965,0.144184104029276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27925622438606795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933135152332484,0.0,0.0,0.10455773545381992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638723897343078,0.0,0.11200131689060937,0.1032286844375573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589781334196261,0.10278160443887746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197301421006522,0.1260439066333889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098117961114353,0.0,0.0,0.09844668458670597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856291228402554,0.0,0.1126889619568141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303513715807099,0.0966535657160802,0.0,0.11472725229001605,0.2261366504956329,0.09324860289369846,0.0,0.0,0.06679060125083099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117020480374199,0.058024500634466236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119520282216777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025318048143987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teasgonecoldxo,2019/10/13,TfW You ever just lay there at going on 4 am crying because you're so uncomfortable in your body? Current mood.,3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,75.81818181818181,6.218181818181819,24.63636363636364,7.1686216300943375,1.2342,89,3,16,1,2,30,21,22,0.264,0.736,0.0,-0.7555,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065928562384651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5586626184186451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5524655247475994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549458889354402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858373337954035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlemsmango,2019/10/13,How can I develop a taste for coffee? I always thought it was gross but now I need more 0 calorie things to drink and I want to try coffee but I can’t stand the taste. But I also don’t wanna sweeten it with things like milk or sugar because calories!!! How did you develop a taste for it?,0.22288056206089024,2.395518360655739,2.3167681498829045,93.97360655737705,86.70491803278688,4.797189695550352,20.18969555035129,6.1826913282559595,0.07809414519906266,224,7,49,2,7,75,42,61,0.037000000000000005,0.855,0.10800000000000001,0.5975,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,5,6,0,2,0,12,8,8,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,7,1,6,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099658953716326,0.3225166591489572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362791274033005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797032754762932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189363196087878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28740263560107393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5150122814367598,0.0,0.0,0.3077134032416777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26315692301809473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286182301201793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Idunnoking,2019/10/13,"Help!! Swelling and relapse I purged twice last night :( this isn’t typically behaviour for me, & I woke up and I see the cheeks swelling and I’m panicking my family will notice because they’re aware of my restrictive past. Does it last long??? My throat is obviously sore as well, I’m just anxious and I’m afraid of myself. I’m supposed to be recovered. I don’t want to relapse but I was vulnerable and have slipped up, badly.",1.0221428571428568,3.6318421666666687,2.7328571428571458,87.93714285714289,91.61904761904762,6.609523809523811,24.857142857142854,7.793537801064563,1.8071857142857155,338,15,68,8,12,111,59,84,0.177,0.768,0.055,-0.8813,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,7,3,2,0,1,10,14,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,1,10,1,8,10,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,5,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901670156930253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025438499098199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22360630479101148,0.1632516730405434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343582914147105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524630767607502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950430009871418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43659425393461293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369993326092503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251317206067751,0.0,0.0,0.30489819839931875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556505365674737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340621376774274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795855082443425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24078919738473856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bashfulcreature,2019/10/13,"What’s life like without an eating disorder? I just wanna know, it’s been a while. I forget.",-0.4149122807017527,1.8090608421052643,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,98.47368421052632,4.63859649122807,16.859649122807017,6.42735559955562,0.15814385964912248,72,2,14,1,3,25,17,19,0.10800000000000001,0.623,0.26899999999999996,0.4325,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5508125633668733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4917767515635452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26412678617960483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33946404291738264,0.23479830180882316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632840473350371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_fidgetspinner,2019/10/13,When you go to binge a pint of ice cream and the spoon B R E A K S as you scoop the first bite... .... I started laughing out loud alone in my apartment. I cannot believe this is my life.,-0.8164285714285741,0.5608737857142891,1.4288095238095266,103.52035714285715,84.95238095238095,4.2,20.02380952380953,3.1291,-0.8427333333333338,137,4,38,0,4,46,37,42,0.054000000000000006,0.815,0.13,0.4215,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,5,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,3,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.494400375641645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5378205777764731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060416628519513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27129434848734835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371730623040731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33787744116664864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thefakemexoxo,2019/10/13,"Concert tonight I saw Senses Fail tonight with my boyfriend and it was a phenomenal show! 

However....

So I met the lead singer of the opener Yours Truly in the bathroom beforehand and she was in this big puffer jacket so I didn’t notice her size at all really. BITCH comes on stage in plaid skinny pants and a crop top. Mother fuckin girl is the size of my arm. I couldn’t enjoy her set at all because all I saw was how tiny she was and how good she looked dancing around.",1.7137894736842119,4.047110957894741,2.5234210526315834,93.89144736842108,81.52631578947368,5.484210526315789,20.026315789473685,6.742157984588678,0.1741368421052627,371,10,79,4,10,116,65,95,0.084,0.805,0.11199999999999999,0.19399999999999998,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,3,5,5,2,0,6,0,7,3,2,3,3,15,12,8,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,8,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,3,0,0,8,4,13,2,10,3,3,17,0,1,3,1,9,10,2,0,2,49,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972660985282648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27203601279580863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844135585736501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37430179628540905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747460875907911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080700776682221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28588564496691804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,regularBDD,2019/10/13,"heading to a dinner and so scared of binging there, what do you guys do in this situation? how do you guys resists big dinners?? i find it so hard because no one ever finished food and i want to finish it off",3.4813178294573635,4.286963953488375,5.093023255813954,84.0773643410853,72.25581395348838,6.663565891472868,30.6124031007752,6.42735559955562,1.5733937984496131,162,7,33,1,3,55,34,43,0.188,0.784,0.027999999999999997,-0.8079999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,3,4,1,1,1,6,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354913574673078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575254583716164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602086304691789,0.0,0.3442577085194926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5637911620922053,0.0,0.0,0.2550333074776461,0.0,0.2921820769996913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929185965790618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850321626425221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200122543461729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792213806334766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,melancolia_,2019/10/13,"I'm in recovery I'm in recovery from bulimia and anxiety, right now i'm having trouble with that cause i have to eat like 5 times per day and the nutricionist weights me every 2 weeks and i'm stuck at the same weight, today I felt awful cause i went to a family dinner and o felt that I wasn't eating I was binging, I just need support and i don't want to trigger my friends, idk what to do...",4.136823529411768,3.7645808000000014,5.894117647058824,83.08352941176473,70.41176470588233,9.623529411764707,29.94117647058824,9.3871,2.3572823529411764,308,11,69,6,5,107,56,85,0.152,0.7440000000000001,0.105,-0.1833,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,1,6,5,0,3,0,15,17,5,0,2,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,6,4,9,3,9,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14689840225524856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3945246119582811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384007296498513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929785007795418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178912733660114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18102383726441626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36874773219404205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835783955349904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938135895373766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14238391326964586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398808070831894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21790740195191954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197117145002236,0.0,0.18201700282495106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326116819079693,0.0,0.1540306655092833,0.4676688086792754,0.0,0.17800885991425638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deezisnibbas,2019/10/13,"So tired of hating myself -- a rant I feel like I have never liked my body except when I've been at lowest weight in the last 5 years but I can only get there when my life is so shitty I use my eating disorder to cope. If I'm happy about life, I weigh and eat more. 5 years of this disorder. 

If I'm happy about life I hate my body. If I'm miserable, I'm skinnier. I try so hard to diet and tell myself this time I won't fall in my own bullshit trap but of course eat 1200 turns into eat 800 or skip this meal and because I don't have the misery behind it, I binge later. I resent my boyfriend sometimes because I lost weight in our breakup and felt ok about my body and now I'm 25 pounds heavier after we got back together. He's the love of my life but I hate everything about myself right now. 

I hate pictures and I hate how my clothes feel and I hate mirrors and I wonder if people talk to me and only think about how ugly and fat I look.

But I'm not supposed to be a feminist and have an eating disorder cause I'm supposed to love my body and fuck society. Society doesn't make me feel fat, I just feel fucking fat and I kind of am so what. 

I don't give a fuck if I'm letting Lizzo down, I have an eating disorder and nothing-- not body positivity, not my partners love, not anything will make me feel better until I lose this 25 pounds again.

I'm either miserable on the outside or miserable on the inside. I just want my pants to fit.",1.1075334157025731,2.931839009771988,3.1829203639222747,91.09781758957656,80.72638436482085,5.928293833539258,21.00965966528136,6.953978226594392,0.4247532067842301,1124,32,248,13,29,381,147,307,0.28,0.601,0.11900000000000001,-0.996,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,2,0,0,3,20,25,10,3,10,1,15,30,8,6,1,51,54,34,0,6,19,0,9,2,1,2,8,0,0,1,6,16,14,0,8,0,0,1,9,15,0,0,4,10,44,10,28,46,3,25,0,5,1,6,10,10,3,8,16,151,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05852240144474561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05468380765629332,0.0,0.08670329656196155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289631521110467,0.0,0.3949691724483561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305571296636408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32602034936709057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366164799564619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391446748222923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979191023446273,0.05080527846382464,0.06828250421804938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972367642967488,0.03715517030074928,0.06822093910756906,0.0,0.0,0.05687795488981176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15140859047766567,0.06370595968764083,0.421273909893511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405636141660805,0.0,0.057969024713670235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272091945949395,0.20092531149434945,0.06948736237841217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971952175355474,0.07956060360739622,0.07763150543536299,0.0,0.19255487636903115,0.0,0.09494095296474234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05484903672734341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823771175453201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817383213378999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0493028740964452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607326680820549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033553392304716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05716034005921356,0.062158511045379415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04556825574946622,0.0,0.0,0.041468306483375385,0.08173737052615625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04828308998243835,0.07735377716917294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142138314393069,0.0,0.0,0.0419460542778858,0.0,0.0,0.1732002375243826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712225906520141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091592733660894
EDAnonymous,flamingtrashmonster,2019/10/13,Anyone use cocaine? I have a weird urge to go buy some. How the fuck do people find drugs?? Would “yo yo yo whose got the snow” make a good fb status 😂 I just want to become an addict and ruin my life more at this point cause I am sick of being just okay enough to be okay,-0.8947857142857139,1.032832616666667,1.1261904761904766,102.25500000000004,89.5,3.428571428571429,10.238095238095235,3.1291,-2.0596904761904757,207,1,52,0,7,68,50,60,0.192,0.688,0.12,-0.7808,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,5,2,6,5,0,4,0,11,12,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,8,3,3,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295192687876807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18933728779999096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990577881292244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781680237387928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140215129771492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797905118582449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24749012654883634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25033388312068683,0.0,0.0,0.1538918274785913,0.2271193552228512,0.21656935048033346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19126155418953192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807492952004958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187726359721724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25597680840037873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338689757543917,0.0,0.0,0.15971442271040145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19235598455596326,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inconceivable--,2019/10/13,"This is miserable. That’s really it...I’m miserable. Most days I can make light of it—jokes, memes, commiseration—but today I don’t even have the energy to pretend. Living with this illness is awful and isolating and exhausting and MISERABLE. 

I don’t really know why I’m posting this. I’m just so, so tired, and so angry at myself for choosing my eating disorder day after day. I’m angry at myself for letting this become my *identity.* I’m angry at myself for ruining every opportunity given to because I’m obsessed with something so trivial and stupid. I hate myself and I hate my mind and I’m just so, so miserable.",2.580620555914674,5.2275338235294155,5.3329411764705865,73.13208144796384,80.51260504201679,8.367420814479637,25.96056884292179,9.057496981413335,2.8860272786037497,491,20,81,14,13,175,66,119,0.4,0.565,0.034,-0.9941,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,9,11,3,5,1,1,7,4,0,1,0,16,18,13,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,10,0,0,1,1,12,1,12,16,1,9,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846163971104044,0.232739416915289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077184630051294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24151970178511525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21563374236867192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391879812577067,0.0,0.17755269020034448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161128767364843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581402980648788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21549004306624156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18608219905465573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066674483205652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21278151374300525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20182515426425512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270003506850873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622335172481987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422080142236601,0.19975142363267215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015487838436654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wistar_rat,2019/10/13,"guess who's back to making dumb choices? me. it's me. i'm dumb. Me: oh boy i sure am excited for this future event

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EDAnonymous,o-h-h-e-c-k,2019/10/13,I purged for the first time in years That’s it. I haven’t purged since the 7th grade and I’m a sophomore in college now. I lost 22 pounds over the summer and since I’ve gotten back to school I can’t stop binge eating. Tonight was particularly bad and I felt so gross and I didn’t even get all of it out so now I just feel even more gross and sad,0.02042207792207762,1.8955756363636385,1.3429707792207817,102.57731331168831,84.84415584415585,4.36948051948052,14.819805194805195,5.148860815047168,-1.3558298701298703,272,4,71,1,8,86,53,77,0.256,0.7440000000000001,0.0,-0.9620000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,1,11,10,7,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,5,2,7,0,7,5,2,13,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,9,41,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21609991860514285,0.23465395300359926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875707630958917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37124425467347977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210062844100113,0.0,0.2698393589638341,0.0,0.0,0.23904972175494896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683010605659774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067848184826601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844242017043613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649530187350979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23495931266650974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387479291997006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097845721853106
EDAnonymous,ilikefoodandwaater,2019/10/13,"What the hell, brain? We exercise for an absurdly long time and you're still convinced that we're a blubber of lard. If you can, like... Not, that'd be great. K, thx👌",-1.5573333333333323,0.29455445714285844,0.5078571428571443,101.81130952380954,104.42857142857143,4.61904761904762,17.261904761904766,6.42735559955562,-0.2079523809523809,126,4,31,2,6,41,31,35,0.21,0.718,0.07200000000000001,-0.7347,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5285186901200452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.521972307424527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313002149718621,0.0,0.0,0.4189819387064998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780919947268454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27606827704554365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princess-kitty-belle,2019/10/13,"Got diagnosed with osteopenia As a direct result of my eating disorder. And what have I done to cope with that? Dissociate, compulsively walk and starve myself. One brain transplant please.",5.843064516129032,9.59106483870968,5.703467741935487,67.97520161290325,78.03225806451613,9.551612903225807,27.10483870967742,9.516144504307137,3.8369290322580647,154,6,21,5,4,48,29,31,0.165,0.767,0.068,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,5,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3949798915241713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591196305045424,0.0,0.0,0.4055081232540268,0.0,0.0,0.3620804802098068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36204596781077775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829820014200985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239757440959064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38838787014125614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,veesw,2019/10/13,"Maybe seeing Joker was notttt the best decision on my part??? I had seen the trailers where he was stretching and you could see his his spine and ribs and what not and I swear that got me more than the gore in the film. 
I urge anyone who’s in recovery, or trying to recover, this IS NOT THE FILM FOR YOU. 

I hate how much I liked it. 

I hate how I went home and laid down and began to compare. 

I hate that it put me right back into this almost competition mindset, where I wanted to look like that. 

I do not recommend you guys..just thought I would share, for anyone who’s contemplating seeing the movie.",3.4542531876138436,4.6202173032786895,4.204863387978143,89.05971766848816,72.68852459016392,7.38943533697632,22.571948998178506,7.793537801064563,0.7786200364298725,469,11,102,6,9,150,78,122,0.105,0.777,0.11800000000000001,-0.3404,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,1,5,7,3,0,6,0,7,2,2,2,0,19,20,9,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,10,7,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,3,0,0,8,5,19,4,11,10,4,13,0,0,5,0,9,9,0,2,4,72,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177271376262896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538553021470791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13958278523715054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050101490087368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493425528599455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518344099250458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5376599418631863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820860259780748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736949922223855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243666336816322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823679140074588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334429709927727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657566717880728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824844164864859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502276321098518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339597018250033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411187961682534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324467641252645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706911857009603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827701879765528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895132054187805,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatbirch,2019/10/13,"Shout out to all the girls whose boyfriends watch petite/skinny pornstars and it kills you inside That is all.

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No, it's not actually hahaaah.  I think I'll always have big tits and he is literally subbed to those tinytits and flatchested or whatever subreddits.  Extrasmall etc.  Bitch I'm 5'9"" and I look like a 6 month pregnant Gianna Michaels and he wants fun-sized Riley Reid.  Just saw (casually ""saw"" it on ""accident"") his browser history and even though I've seen it all before it still stung so fucking badly and now I'm not eating the rest of the day.  Like he loves me and shit but I feel undesired as fuck sometimes and like he's just going to leave me for a 90lb 18 year old someday. At least I make him laugh, right? RIGHT??

And I know it hurts just as badly the other way around, or any aesthetic preference that isn't you.  Also, I would like to take this moment to retroactively add all of the genders and sexualities to the title. I didn't wanna make it really long so I'm just gonna have to be a cishet shitbag here sorry 

edit: Professional actresses of the pornographic variety\*",1.9655715312724664,4.673402523364487,3.3900934579439266,85.41721782890008,84.51401869158876,6.843709561466572,22.716750539180445,8.012643519586192,1.5461846153846155,876,31,167,19,26,286,141,214,0.134,0.787,0.078,-0.8829,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,0,13,15,5,0,10,0,8,6,2,2,4,36,27,20,1,4,9,0,1,4,0,2,0,1,0,1,13,14,1,0,4,2,0,1,5,8,0,0,4,7,13,7,18,20,7,17,0,1,5,4,11,7,5,2,12,98,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.14908833411852165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217572847455152,0.1271227201607439,0.16553383839367886,0.1856408027593289,0.10389361320829214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600393927454196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25512486202250795,0.0,0.0,0.13000199228794346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852853959938898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632903327953174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038676316550405,0.10090778147765483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724865223933818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824797881451315,0.0,0.0,0.08682670176626052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355096076011208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16902513790677526,0.0,0.08396225526198306,0.0,0.0,0.16176880594904094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985565415261896,0.0,0.0,0.13520285594780776,0.12829421974058505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788722624043906,0.0,0.2039596956637413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194516056211008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031378364905105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787287171391396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26094148230138425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682341656305138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511003802396938,0.17102136693930514,0.0,0.0,0.12200792629842293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486930643614633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789334617317516,0.1501026474137606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09011184528545332,0.12126728806265324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852841231169008,0.0,0.1856408027593289,0.09838339251462744
EDAnonymous,ISBbaby,2019/10/13,"Sitting in the drive thru at taco bell for my $3.72 dinner, My only meal since clearance raisin Bran for breakfast..

And they say losing weight is expensive 🙄😂

But deadass my financial downturn and my ED are totally in cahoots and it's great",3.9864893617021298,6.076256106382981,4.30739361702128,85.10875000000001,73.04255319148936,7.253191489361702,30.89893617021277,8.07648339933343,2.303642553191489,195,9,36,3,4,61,40,47,0.053,0.862,0.084,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,5,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,6,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456020793037952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4627383112910389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145789130414347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32892959341016875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421532013450626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5036813560561584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GirlWearingMyDress,2019/10/13,"What do you consider a binge I’ve been going over this in my head and I have no fucking clue anymore. 

It used to be, anything over 1200kcal was a binge. Easy. But if I have to go over (family function, whatever), then I adjust the next day or days down, so if I go over my *new* limit, then *that’s* a binge. 


But now I try and preplan my days, so any deviation over the day I planned for myself is a binge. 


And if it’s a binge, I let myself go for it. 600kcal in apples, broccoli, and rice cakes?  Yep. Egg whites and low-fat cottage cheese?  Binge. 


Who the fuck binges on rice cakes and egg whites?  Good lord, I’m pathetic.",-0.4754172366621106,1.7228100310077537,1.5477063383492933,97.48177838577294,92.10077519379844,4.5856817145462845,18.44094847241222,6.2272716619740125,-0.21167341541267687,470,14,109,5,17,155,78,129,0.08,0.855,0.065,-0.4479,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,0,2,3,3,2,0,8,1,8,5,1,1,0,15,16,16,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,1,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,2,2,13,1,13,12,0,22,1,0,2,2,2,9,2,4,9,67,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378774400862453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010742303868394,0.0,0.0,0.16684656449887794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5230297569173672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113533150821654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748795413195531,0.0,0.0,0.4609116191449731,0.17005768186340095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080807290862884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20732634477537384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19581790576749436,0.2156276875422116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765442784445608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751115215941678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scaredoflife1918628,2019/10/13,Me: Measures my waist *Sees 24 inches* sO whY dOn’T i lOoK LiKe kENdALL jEnNeR,-1.3384999999999998,-7.669292599999998,-0.6987500000000004,103.41187500000002,208.33333333333331,0.75,15.208333333333336,3.1291,-1.4481666666666664,61,2,12,0,8,18,15,15,0.0,0.8390000000000001,0.161,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158125872771037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5428376047210778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151202689237844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5833016828039439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pumpkinpancakes11,2019/10/13,"iS tHiS rEcOvEry??? I’m currently in outpatient (unwillingly, i’m a minor so i don’t really have a choice) and if i don’t start gaining i’m going to have to go into inpatient (whoopee!! /s). my current routine is literally restricting all day, then freaking out at like 10pm that i barely ate all day and that i’m going to be thrown in inpatient if i don’t gain, and then eating the equivalent of 800 calories in icecream. my life is really a mess smfh",3.3158850931677013,4.6365454021739145,5.953105590062113,75.79065217391306,73.23913043478261,10.039751552795034,30.534161490683232,10.290406445055957,3.4392248447204974,355,16,69,11,7,128,58,92,0.092,0.7979999999999999,0.11,0.3881,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,4,0,9,3,0,0,2,10,18,8,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,10,16,2,16,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,8,42,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424666646497025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510170059576104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5848750213276779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423002949941777,0.16759270673700152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43952222658552703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428064777984131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,m3gan31,2019/10/13,I need to talk to people with similar problems I feel disgusting all the time. The thought of food makes me sick and I don’t know what made me like this. A few months ago I didn’t even worry about weight and now I cried because I found out the apple I ate had 95 calories. My friends all just call me crazy and try to force food down my throat and That’s not gonna help. I just want to talk to people also going through this.,2.357252747252748,3.5042429670329724,2.9657142857142884,96.95428571428572,75.37362637362638,6.079120879120879,21.791208791208792,6.1826913282559595,-0.01063076923076922,334,8,80,2,7,104,65,91,0.207,0.72,0.073,-0.9128,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,4,0,3,6,1,2,2,20,14,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,4,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,6,2,13,2,11,7,3,7,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403854821781248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700850251815107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196835926914131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004793148745454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21566405574861516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967698134523906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992725425997377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.474816531814418,0.2152704723600513,0.15168742574996968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158133119501096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13159877102169873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790021988267992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591904236484496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18577630174887455,0.13105469797502428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671219879962067,0.0,0.0,0.1455794269927419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27222702415509964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878654499466747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315612214484169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586753694245725,0.11448413381173295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332981306243949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580308187287255,0.0,0.0,0.2390823360114145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938705479282248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slushypandaboobslive,2019/10/13,My biggest dirtiest confession about my eating disorder and my grandma with cancer My grandma was diagnosed with multiple myeloma when I was five. I grew up with her illness and she suffered greatly because of it. My mom took care of her so we spent a lot of time in the hospital. When I was 15 she took a turn for the worst. She was dying but that’s when my anorexia and compulsive exercising was at its worse. She was dying and I would stay away from the hospitals in the evenings hula hooping to burn calories. I wasn’t with my grandma because I was too busy compulsively exercising and staying home to measure my carefully calculated dinner. I visited but I didn’t go everyday like I should have. All my family was there in her last days except me. I would stay home alone and cry and cut my arms and hula hoop until I felt palpitations.,3.199351851851852,5.703783919753086,4.74763888888889,79.05812500000002,77.08641975308642,8.247530864197532,29.878086419753085,9.017664075816787,2.9680234567901236,673,32,121,17,16,225,97,162,0.16,0.797,0.043,-0.9559,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,8,7,1,0,6,0,14,8,1,0,1,23,22,15,2,3,3,1,1,1,0,3,5,0,2,0,3,13,2,0,2,2,1,5,2,3,0,1,14,1,30,4,20,5,3,23,1,1,0,0,11,7,0,1,9,94,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031978056774714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636245833367866,0.0,0.0,0.1769502426966121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959568774886639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159427897122239,0.09360236661949707,0.0,0.0,0.1473125870863791,0.30126182954373304,0.0,0.16634136829882204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851298462149368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958626525373783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682372092337935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393557819878461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248559051145879,0.0,0.0,0.16001577894338515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29117162667805513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183073008606928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709073710272389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339161671527125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16998453173993694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4640951930434626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463146370918981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225085693832862,0.0,0.1578690797967871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479085960186321,0.20620454295039106,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DisturbedWeakness,2019/10/13,"Did you lose weight? You look amazing! (Tw?) Tw some numbers and mentions of weight-loss and gain. Also sexual assault. 

 

Sorry it's a bit all over the place..    
So about half a year ago I started losing weight. 
Originally I just wanted to lose a couple kilos cause I had been overweight and my huge recovery belly finally shrunk a bit. I got tits and hips. Though my bmi did rise to 32 briefly after I sustained an injury I'm still dealing with.    
Losing a little was a healthy thing to do.   
Shortly after I started I fell into a spiral of bad experiences and I just quit eating (that had never been so easy. 20 years of ed and suddenly it was easy.) I scared myself and went to my gp quite fast.   

 

I never wanted to be thin. I just really wanted to be healthy. (muscular maybe) Actually I especially didn't want to be having that figure everybody loves...    
It was a sexual assault that made me not able to eat half a year ago. That still makes me wanna destroy my body.   

 

I was at a dinner party today. When I walked in one of the girls looked at my body and asked if I had been losing weight. Since I she could see me having the perfect hourglass figure with such beautiful curves.    
I tried to laugh it off and told em I stopped losing weight a while ago but that's a lie.   

 

I do not want to be malnourished and I do not want to lose even more weight but even more I do not want to look like a woman people get turned on by.    
My gp refuses to prescribe me resource or whatever the kcal dense drinks are called and I don't have the money for it. I feel awful. 
I spend all my days thinking about wtf I should eat and never I eat enough. I feel constantly full and my stomach hurts. Also I feel like a big cry baby whom should just binge on chocolate or sugar till I am back at at least 32 instead of 10point less.   

I have no idea why this one comment triggered me enough to keep my up till 6 in the morning but I guess it's the first time anyone commented on my weight since I started losing. (except from my bil whom asked if I gained but I think it was a wild guess from a man in his fifties yaknow) 

I am so, so sad my childhood sexual abuse, and all other abuse is still making me feel like this. Like I can not exist. Like it is so wrong.

 

I feel like I'm grieving for the happy version of me that I am literally killing with this behavior and thoughts. But maybe that's version of me died when people put me through all that shit. 
Soon is my Bday and I am crying cause I just want to eat cake and enjoy myself. Not doubt if I want to starve to death or feed myself fat. 'cause pretty is bad'   

 

I've been having an ed for almost 20 years and this is the first time I'm afraid I'm actually going to be able to run myself into the ground. Which is weird cause my live is ok right now. It's never been this good. The worst thing is the ed. Why??? I don't even have a valid reason this time.   
In the past it was the only thing I had control over. Now I have so much going for me.     

 

Tldr: I'm crying on the bathroom floor cause someone loved my new figure and it makes me terrified and motivated to never eat again. Or make sure I find a way to become so obese every fucking one will stop catcalling again.",1.6452073679332706,3.7330655527108436,3.2328554216867467,90.07933642261351,80.2198795180723,6.01386468952734,20.606950880444856,7.137427946048943,0.4933888137164044,2533,69,532,32,65,835,291,664,0.20199999999999999,0.6890000000000001,0.109,-0.9969,0,0,1,0,2,0,85.0,0,2,0,17,33,41,6,3,35,2,54,29,8,15,11,110,103,47,4,16,24,0,12,6,0,3,3,0,0,3,32,25,19,5,15,1,2,8,15,25,0,7,23,17,79,16,65,71,18,85,0,11,4,4,20,28,3,12,54,362,111,1,0.08787660340705443,0.10411940534883074,0.08575488857284626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168459601242625,0.0,0.043997862281551225,0.0,0.0,0.07027488799567908,0.0,0.33324992076980225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030722682167506482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821527617161145,0.0,0.0,0.03378584186050758,0.07337329323671395,0.0,0.04852640217450125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593849107976432,0.0976110960230836,0.0,0.0,0.044865918635936385,0.0,0.0,0.2256836960588049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04748169477386311,0.0492805415101335,0.035081158618117066,0.04861689511509792,0.14479248371287146,0.02833656967376763,0.045298459731983085,0.0,0.0,0.045601020205051766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04304280818329507,0.0,0.26975911111052303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080002221628124,0.0,0.08706250164956117,0.0,0.03701991422863511,0.0,0.0,0.04298009016512394,0.0,0.0,0.11108262769776336,0.09416859454886292,0.0,0.04813226182899406,0.040158811747572826,0.07474779396625683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406202519125498,0.02295594915356765,0.0,0.04994229883334924,0.03685336283031404,0.03514147371255899,0.0,0.0968059859487403,0.0,0.0,0.046773139192805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047036860727196775,0.04960099443481748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039054381397110184,0.0486112208339605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879620881798448,0.04403772131296265,0.0387983253912184,0.0,0.1106913218607156,0.3932457649915189,0.0,0.0,0.0793120655065305,0.04157548345556752,0.1173166302944348,0.0,0.08828385954067852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032299707357882464,0.0,0.16943963492069752,0.0424358855821545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932119109948758,0.0334170583812365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04194408069848516,0.060922572106198614,0.0,0.04590617348937871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04470104893708537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044170129052407456,0.0,0.09346758466832464,0.0,0.0,0.0281480011757958,0.0451758920650409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03752306958001046,0.0,0.0,0.04398990510393707,0.0,0.03501313774661259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04510203528830898,0.07269243443007846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03722878044822028,0.0,0.0,0.04918533147535512,0.09329926828486296,0.0,0.10526755349356484,0.07346877530212392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041411329367132786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757196582298507,0.05630777916151381,0.04316915833677272,0.03488210359667388,0.07686233119736731,0.0,0.041648372444175616,0.04198493021227344,0.0,0.0298312226708226,0.047792255052485286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332435387219489,0.034876178732659635,0.0,0.3745351009924951,0.0,0.040731245878177634,0.07929496624357124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04803963536265037,0.0,0.11317930289305367
EDAnonymous,missmaliciousmeow,2019/10/13,"Meme for my IF redditors! 🖤 Yes, I am FASTING

Freaking out
Anxious
Smoking/sleepy always
Thinspo
Imbibing caffeine at high speeds
Neurotic
Good till I break my fast",2.750114942528736,5.24665648275862,3.384655172413794,79.4050287356322,104.86206896551724,6.071264367816093,35.86781609195402,7.1686216300943375,3.8176160919540223,134,9,19,3,6,42,27,29,0.226,0.604,0.16899999999999998,-0.2244,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,1,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274994974365999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5804161695184392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309276141612037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5428283717772403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachy_bicht,2019/10/13,"i reached my gw i know it’s wrong but i wanted to get this off my chest bc i’m so happy i could cry. i was overweight most of my life up until a year ago and i haven’t weighed this amount since i was 12 or 13. 

i wanted to share it with so many people but i know that would inappropriate. many of my close friends irl have figured out or i’ve told them i had an ed so i feel like they’d just pity me or even scold me for losing weight. i wanted to share it on twt to my online friends/mutuals but i know some of them have struggled with eds too and i wouldn’t want to trigger anyone. so i’m sharing it with y’all. 

 i understand i shouldn’t be celebrating weight loss through disordered eating, and i don’t want praise or encouragement, i just wanted someone to know because i needed to get this off my chest and share with someone.",1.08411434236616,2.9439091629213463,2.6800462656972925,94.49724058162592,80.96629213483146,5.536549900859221,21.144745538664907,6.522977012572876,0.12000819563780585,653,19,152,6,17,214,98,178,0.131,0.642,0.228,0.9640000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,3,3,8,14,0,1,2,0,13,8,2,1,0,40,31,16,0,11,9,0,3,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,8,10,5,0,7,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,3,31,9,22,21,3,9,1,3,0,0,12,6,0,6,4,96,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656348153167324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983322349293457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703573046522138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399607396315488,0.0,0.15683418424420062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636351810072944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609684511440768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430307481668318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721925041353466,0.10200014758211448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030940503747813,0.0,0.14919051597418306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198911452594788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138667295545127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084784517025527,0.06975378771653272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973130263334473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895075900584439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586757536340848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989838179440468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810687642986673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24194952371622444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926185755218888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642985004903774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486362278310011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5052825835659812,0.0,0.0,0.34772862826297696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142491328313967,0.15610458837968724,0.0,0.0919439144252767
EDAnonymous,calidreaminla,2019/10/13,"HAIR!! My hair tho!! Hi!! Started losing weight pretty rapidly again, and am worried about hair loss/noticing that my hairline seems to be receding??? As a 21F that shit’s concerning as fuck. 

Does anyone have good remedies/prevention for hair loss? Biotin, oils, what really works? Will I just have to end up getting a toupee?",2.418773946360151,5.357758655172411,2.5888505747126445,87.98009578544061,91.75862068965515,5.33639846743295,23.68582375478928,6.937597516519254,1.3488904214559383,254,10,43,4,9,77,48,58,0.196,0.71,0.094,-0.7669,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,4,5,2,0,2,0,5,7,5,0,0,3,9,4,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,3,1,7,7,0,4,0,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,3,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189065574399606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25267448281513105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255734053997228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669314238385257,0.15085244193755104,0.0,0.0,0.2421777352516676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230212979526895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937479232167277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849714287405076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628540601334068,0.0,0.0,0.29638295999351505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436855471327692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516021937623857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210202966855428,0.2932250330264063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emonogifan,2019/10/13,"Is gaining 40lbs in a month possible. I’ve been non-stop binging ever since September 9th and as of today October 12th, I’ve apparently gained 40lbs according to my scale. Is this even possible? I’ve been eating around 3,000-5,000 daily and I’m noticeably swollen, but god I hope this is just a lot of water weight because if it’s all fat I’m going to be fcking miserable for the next few months trying to starve it all off again.",4.631434108527134,5.7227415232558165,5.641860465116278,80.14248062015506,69.81395348837209,9.454263565891472,28.286821705426355,9.725611199111238,2.5837426356589144,345,12,67,8,6,114,65,86,0.09300000000000001,0.79,0.11699999999999999,0.0129,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,3,0,6,5,1,0,3,11,10,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,1,10,7,4,10,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,6,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001474128922204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705499758550935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23005842137910004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849887077665425,0.20337266978290866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777673809433826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233080870540741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114342510373264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589161980369404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391105054637629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559717831195936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5069267370334621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598267145463496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796892972861415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21311366525648565,0.0,0.0,0.152645609644956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737838015045925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scaredyk4t,2019/10/13,"A new low I always eat with the same little fork and spoon. Every meal except for soup. I eat soup with one of those spoons you eat ramen or pho with. 

Well I decided to treat myself on my day off with take out from my favorite Mexican place. A quesadilla, papusa, and queso with chips. Basically a binge but I’m kinda feeling shitty and I’ve been really freaked out at my LW recently because I actually look like I’m dying but now freaking out about gaining anything. Okay back to the point of this post.

So I’m ready to eat. Foods ready and Netflix is queued up (the OC so I can watch Misha Barton aka thinspo). Like nothing is gunna ruin this meal. 

Go to the drawer to get my utensils and my fork isn’t there...I’m fucking panicking. I know people eat Mexican food with their hands for the most part but the feeling of grease on my hands makes it harder for me to eat and forks and knives slows me down aka not mindlessly eating. But yeah I’m freaking out tearing down the kitchen and my room. I even look in my roommates room (we are best friends so she wouldn’t be mad). 

Here comes the sad part. I already threw away the take out bag and I used it to clean the little box (like throw the poop in it) so I’m thinking maybe I accidentally put the fork in the take out box and threw it in the bag and tossed it. So I’m outside my apartment searching through the trash, then the take out bag with cat shit to find the take out box and the fork isn’t even there. I dump the whole bag out, still nothing. 

I come back inside and look through every drawer in the kitchen and I found it. It was under some measuring cups and I feel so dumb and ashamed. A normal person would just eat with a different fork instead of looking through a bag of cat shit. 

So much for a nice Saturday night and treating myself to a normal meal!!! I don’t deserve to eat!!!",2.7550270967741923,4.394660437333337,3.570941935483873,91.00637419354841,75.29333333333334,6.332043010752689,24.36344086021505,6.968188349444268,0.7664873118279574,1444,46,309,14,31,459,187,375,0.125,0.746,0.129,-0.7634,1,0,0,1,0,0,40.0,1,1,1,2,19,23,6,1,28,2,12,22,5,2,0,63,42,30,1,4,8,0,5,3,1,2,0,0,5,1,10,37,16,0,8,1,0,7,5,13,1,1,5,11,32,10,56,34,8,50,0,3,5,1,6,31,4,4,14,189,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0729556492263796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250028062193153,0.0,0.06220688315812549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06152167796913241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702401293665701,0.1149727120454149,0.0,0.04557342281129258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845673194350337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879942959920096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821446034862807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775897931840642,0.07810900920409837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.688489650444172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987574615173244,0.0,0.1259782117055963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340375374045307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06832991639223801,0.0,0.180801846565244,0.08197123795361444,0.05775992375733467,0.06911505336519146,0.03905937496924442,0.0,0.042488223072551096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04108652014502584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957289069567668,0.14985970373494845,0.0,0.0,0.25112060305738965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0499033412008407,0.0,0.07510716177456674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05495770933489472,0.0,0.0,0.07220434040941083,0.0,0.07015784327695022,0.14649920629737856,0.14346979701017454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05065977846694281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191708411094966,0.0,0.05182964930066988,0.06527815098400461,0.07810900920409837,0.0,0.07067301698154167,0.0,0.07160007539938598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515514264108622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04789361246643435,0.0,0.07381716232543846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348154819626522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05970398372544361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810536745474268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0479036315432239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456923265131789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721883884204481,0.0,0.0,0.08346764069337922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05310784929297775,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,baysv,2019/10/13,"My mum's constant backhanded comments are so triggering I'm a uni student living at home & dealing with binge-eating & anorexia. I'm so fed up with my mum's backhanded comments about my eating and my weight, which were a huge factor in me developing EDs in the first place. A few minutes ago, I went to the fridge to get a single square of chocolate because, unbeknownst to her, I hadn't eaten all day, and felt like I was going to pass out. Immediately, she goes ""You know, I really think we should all cut back on the crap. We've had a lot of junk in the house lately, it's not good."" That's clearly addressing me, seeing as she said it as soon as she saw me eating a piece of chocolate. Second of all, she's the one buying/baking a whole bunch of cookies and stuff, so if she wanted everyone to cut back on the crap, she would just stop buying it.

My whole life has been this series of backhanded comments about my weight, and yet she doesn't realize I'm restricting, and it just feels like I'm still not good enough. It's like, I literally lost 20 pounds in about a month over the summer, which is an alarming number to most people (and she knew the specific number, not just that I looked thinner), and she was just proud. Makes living with an ED so much harder, it's like I always feel guilty when I eat, but always feel guilty when I don't eat. Sorry to rant, just dealing w a lot rn",6.851418475517416,5.423843957597175,7.137387682988392,79.89488515901063,65.25441696113074,10.064512872286725,30.46163553760727,8.841846274778883,2.1566660272589595,1092,29,228,14,14,356,153,283,0.08800000000000001,0.852,0.06,-0.8078,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,1,0,3,19,13,4,1,19,0,13,11,2,2,4,44,36,18,0,4,10,2,6,4,0,2,1,1,2,0,12,12,8,2,8,0,1,3,6,6,0,3,14,11,30,7,32,20,14,30,0,1,4,0,20,12,2,4,19,151,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782851415655723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18365866062463165,0.23915255281664025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16972184773321353,0.0,0.0672751419832931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926121308145265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117382161600712,0.2275550308002665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517080948638859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403258507210515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545482279230108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16740576335286678,0.07884203848493714,0.1059640255537743,0.0,0.0,0.09387315075877813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05765915383874747,0.0,0.06272079346902652,0.18513141867436247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070124701585173,0.0,0.0,0.1273419672911169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06065161021153609,0.0,0.12449220136305494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795135476284791,0.2156675630764025,0.0,0.1949018616004708,0.0,0.09267558361575316,0.0,0.12047224863724787,0.18765023223620345,0.0,0.0,0.07366693475337095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808922917230365,0.0,0.08112815475570223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478358172301361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765105361974886,0.0,0.11530392847907807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070018839958185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497874057751473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794356017274238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354028906300045,0.0,0.0,0.0881345691046531,0.09226687577044013,0.0,0.0,0.1263371305003606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071497848494256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650938746064177,0.0,0.0,0.2687803355358214,0.0,0.10230590582087523,0.0,0.2464285994891817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839740535633195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bhsangel,2019/10/13,What can I do and should not do to help my friend whos got anorexia? She tells me i’ve been helping her a lot but her condition is actually getting worse so I don’t really know how i’ve really helped... I want to know what I can actually do what are the good things to do and to say and what are the bad things I’m not trying to help her recover myself i’m not a therapist or anything but I just want to help as much as a best friend can,2.0069387755102035,2.605298877551025,4.318979591836732,89.03316326530613,75.53061224489795,8.457142857142857,23.18367346938776,8.841846274778883,1.2028408163265305,342,9,85,7,7,120,54,98,0.149,0.6559999999999999,0.195,0.6227,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,5,0,13,0,0,1,0,17,22,10,0,3,7,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,12,4,8,19,3,0,0,0,0,0,14,0,0,2,0,59,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.33957265834686895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431765734077274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527197603953654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18258874613393145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688440314653332,0.0,0.0909010880741886,0.0,0.0,0.14593213977160988,0.1391533922484602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5830994883464132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19123753973563207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479176258408964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790055090591124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229212059041109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836153952356406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207240987891565,0.0,0.0,0.2020124539931945,0.2311786202595432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812583227209945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524422003265044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773077373240107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WitheredDandelion,2019/10/13,"Ive wanted spaghetti for three days and now that i have it, my appetite is gone What the fuck is wrong with me, i havent eaten all day just had a big coffee and i barely ate yesterday because all ive wanted is spaghetti and meatballs and so i finally ordered it today when i was feeling like i should really eat something but then i made myself lose my appetite before it got delivered and i just dont even feel comfortable eating anymore i missed my small window of opportunity and now im mad at myself",2.9381372549019598,4.935020852941179,4.679019607843138,81.7022549019608,75.76470588235293,6.886274509803924,26.03921568627451,7.793537801064563,1.661109803921569,405,15,75,6,9,137,70,102,0.179,0.7559999999999999,0.065,-0.9153,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,2,0,2,0,11,5,0,1,2,18,22,10,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,7,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,7,2,17,3,4,14,2,14,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,10,55,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211393976746286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299382273990289,0.0,0.1813804865923917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749366242971386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498178371187228,0.0,0.0,0.4362246397263767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078786165704926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21555666778926805,0.1522790502293234,0.0,0.2335025329353873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19705975471820286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704807297882254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302456039454624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041375017111642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23846760650337995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20169383955774084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365535157057036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409829193647607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020474436232128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251450459457761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330531770629176,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hackerman6942069,2019/10/13,"I was gonna restrict to 800... After a 800 calorie dinner im eating a peanut butter, pickle, and mayo sandwich. Its so good and and im planning on havinh another. Send help and pray for me when I weigh in the morning and inevitably cry",0.05357142857142705,2.423813166666669,2.32595238095238,90.6,94.41666666666666,3.576190476190476,21.44047619047619,5.288315135182226,0.18172261904761866,184,7,35,1,7,62,38,48,0.113,0.7140000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.4663,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,5,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34621668091186625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36268111030065775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33785087258153623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769346489583652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213089623241874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7132900906269806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Punkenerci,2019/10/13,"Male representation? TV, Movies, books? Possibly TW, CW TLDR; Not enough Male eating disorder representation. Want to know if more media of it exists? TV, Movies, Books, etc.

...

So it is obvious male eating disorder representation is not always discussed nor shown in media. Sure, some celebrity males have opened up about eating disorders..Billy Bob Thornton, Dennis Quaid, Eminem, Zayn Malik, Joaquin Phoenix, Kit Harrington. Just to name a few, quite a lot more but too lazy to look up/name them all.

Television:

Dennis- It's always sunny in Philadelphia (USA)
...Brought up and mentioned in a few episodes, there is a YouTube video on it.

Jason Roscoe- Hollyoaks (British soap)
...Not horribly portrayed..it definitely evolved into a decent storyline for him.

Harry- Waterloo Road (British soap)
...This character was bulimic and it spanned a few episodes for his character.

Ringo- Neighbours (Australian soap)
...This one is a decent storyline that spans out and is not immediately addressed and ""fixed"" and he is even shown relapsing.

Seb- Home and Away (Austalian soap)
...I have seen a few snippets on YouTube and it seems this storyline does span out decently and is not just a ""one and done"".

Jimmy- The Real O'Neals (USA)
...Awful. It is literally one episode, mentioned then it is ""cured"" the next episode.

Toby- Degrassi the Next Generation (USA/CANADA teen soap)
...Decent writing, the character deals with an eating disorder but he only suffers for one episode.

Various characters (males)- Starved (USA)
...I LOVED this show when it came out but it received SO much backlash it did not last long.

Other Male characters to mention randomly:
Everwood (Male bulimic) (USA)
ER (Male bulimic) (USA)
House MD (Male anorexic) (USA)
Casualty (Male anorexic) (British soap)

Movies:

Luke from the Netflix film To the Bone.
Christian Bale's character from The Machinist.

There has to be more??

Books:

Target 
The art of starving 
The incredible Jake Parker 
Broken Glass
Nothing 
Starved
Skin and Bones
Straw Man
A Trick of the Light 

...

Am I missing any? Can anyone else contribute?

TLDR; Not enough Male eating disorder representation. Want to know if more media of it exists? TV, Movies, Books, etc.",4.169752390798654,7.562424293150682,4.165438097699667,77.46463168777466,85.5205479452055,7.357456707159472,30.72240889118636,8.214576434517982,3.2652114241406065,1717,87,260,42,53,528,202,365,0.127,0.828,0.045,-0.9878,0,0,0,0,0,0,135.0,0,0,1,1,10,5,1,0,21,1,18,9,3,0,3,45,29,20,0,4,14,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,12,18,17,5,0,3,12,0,3,8,3,1,4,6,4,6,2,30,22,17,26,2,2,2,1,27,17,0,6,6,147,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041455243738013,0.0,0.0,0.06963736920357676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160237109808172,0.10492370018475924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962107374735444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171214448479157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557272005799656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4694496098692149,0.0,0.08961332072984224,0.10479354816109956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5239177978101213,0.08554434243683237,0.0,0.0,0.21161879197254707,0.2284122299254404,0.0676360386098541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027182894632093,0.0,0.0,0.11815900371158827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255572673406657,0.08347189397582551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062319526937034,0.08599250397469922,0.0,0.0,0.08705914067036984,0.09242246357253643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527779052587345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178129341319045,0.0,0.0,0.0982581830358796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775629652453731,0.07788189202276795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544369387808448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891791033370468,0.0,0.11655672766689383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322360110700363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651336289076973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079956882773725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scorpioqween2001,2019/06/14,"What are some lies that you have told regarding your weight loss? when the people around you stared to become concerned with your weight loss, such as your parents, family, friends etc., what were some of the lies you told/excuses you made? did the people you told them to believe them at the time?",5.655181818181816,7.277299927272729,4.147045454545456,89.82056818181817,67.9090909090909,7.6818181818181825,24.65909090909091,8.07648339933343,1.1594545454545448,236,6,46,3,4,67,36,55,0.171,0.78,0.049,-0.7677,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,8,2,2,3,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,10,1,7,2,3,4,0,2,1,0,14,2,0,2,2,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796636140752366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22289560638207087,0.0,0.2273833267481657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22508393377563046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902590207226358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592652159254114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096805409418802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22409850565513267,0.0,0.0,0.2798347506401785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768353688210785,0.0,0.0,0.5785462795029352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915275850211527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theskinnygoblin,2019/06/14,"i was kneeled on the toilet trying to purge but i stopped myself that's it, that's the post.

the worst part is that i'm not even proud of it. on the contrary, it makes me feel so invalid. my brain right now is telling me ""see? you stopped yourself. it was never that big of a deal, you are so fake"" and i feel like i should purge just to prove i'm valid. 

and tbh i haven't purged in months, mostly because of all the warnings i read online (thank you reddit btw) but just now i was *just* there, you know? and i told myself ""we are not going back. we are not"" and i stopped.


i'm still gonna fast until i undo this mess tho :(",-0.5817537313432837,1.4652623731343295,0.8852052238805967,103.6328824626866,89.44776119402985,3.35,15.83768656716418,3.1291,-1.3863417910447762,474,10,118,0,16,150,80,134,0.22699999999999998,0.75,0.023,-0.9836,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,2,4,0,1,12,6,0,0,6,0,10,1,1,1,3,27,22,10,0,2,8,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,3,4,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,4,3,21,3,9,16,4,18,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,1,12,81,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337745599807188,0.0,0.12952064446548667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23718844451434745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904877025702485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403354112161382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21486393257591466,0.15178967051571138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207524406787934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676877091420322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10380283465954462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14182636533748294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959271131227172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387110679603314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23008591181378285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20348894898471376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21252898165027956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181449486282792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693122638521013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968000146261256,0.5329070230236962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857094419439794,0.19561519588425552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20302560808336095,0.0,0.1442541905391427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dirtywhiteconverse,2019/06/14,drivers license does anyone else get triggered from looking at their drivers license?! mine says “115 lbs” but i’m 135 right now because it was issued before i gained a lot of weight. it makes me want to cry every time i see it.,2.930333333333333,4.957956200000002,3.4819444444444483,90.13625000000003,75.8888888888889,4.5,26.805555555555557,3.1291,0.5528888888888885,179,7,34,0,4,56,39,45,0.08800000000000001,0.804,0.109,-0.1511,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,7,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,4,6,1,4,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908854937080592,0.2797171658464914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641612680443155,0.0,0.2322999063540753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998738259901394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389010686099035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22805353774692935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300113175677381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262939882086198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849374094654362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22924829617608106,0.0,0.0,0.23209185385633324,0.0,0.0,0.1822272773241448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331375113399967,0.0,0.21709776659734475,0.0,0.0,0.2175428580288202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591864490451228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102040324765915,0.0,0.0,0.3324361798610167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lidscrump,2019/06/14,"What the fuck do I look like?! like literally please describe it!!! I had a work function today and saw a woman that I’ve previously met once, but mostly corresponded with via email. She told me she didn’t remember meeting me the first time. She mentioned that some of our coworkers tried to describe me to jog her memory, but it wasn’t ringing any bells. 

Here was my mind for the rest of the conference:
How did they describe me?
Did they say I was chubby? Am I chubby?
Did they say I was skinny? Am I skinny?
Did they say I’m pretty? Am I pretty?
If they said I was attractive, does this woman agree or does she think they’re crazy?
Did they mention that my hair is too thin? Or that my eyebrows are uneven? Or that my ankles aren’t skinny anymore? Or that my smile makes my face look fat?

I do/don’t want to know exactly how people would describe me. Maybe it would give me some shred of self (physical) awareness. Fucking dysmorphia.",1.4638290513833994,4.021211875000001,2.8066007905138366,89.83721343873518,85.1413043478261,5.7367588932806335,20.863636363636363,7.1686216300943375,0.7067695652173921,731,23,146,11,22,236,105,184,0.028999999999999998,0.833,0.138,0.9665,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,0,6,2,4,5,2,0,6,0,21,8,6,3,1,23,35,10,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,5,0,3,11,2,4,0,3,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,16,10,33,3,8,17,4,5,0,0,3,2,26,1,2,8,5,96,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035845335670927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094178323518166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840310479562507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138038397809144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000572562793445,0.0,0.1556772735732425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918685513879236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856719746719092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725548034755756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832560282328844,0.0,0.16303574830454687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163860234154008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282680092805575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250705603095187,0.0,0.0,0.17813872518665474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302016473395277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383575082628587,0.0,0.1543689227027126,0.387163438705413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16929724953727715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039848162362524,0.0,0.0,0.09462890686468496,0.0,0.15382593381010798,0.15506899109951552,0.0,0.1101799521742963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571910695688447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814443685463626,0.0,0.0,0.2305633110278897,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Idont-belonghere,2019/06/14,"I don't know how to keep it quiet, I love my SO dearly, we have kids and a life. But he's started to notice my dietary habits. I had to spend all morning cooking a huge breakfast just for me to eat one bite of pancakes with syrup and one bite of eggs with mushrooms. I have to throw it out before he comes home. How do you keep your partner unaware of extremely meticulous calorie counting and sever restriction even if you medically shouldn't?",6.263522727272727,6.104321034090912,6.426272727272727,80.33690909090909,65.93181818181819,8.85818181818182,34.64545454545455,8.238735603445708,2.631242727272728,353,15,68,4,5,113,64,88,0.044000000000000004,0.8390000000000001,0.11699999999999999,0.8139,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,6,7,0,2,1,19,12,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,2,2,8,4,3,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,11,2,12,10,1,5,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,1,1,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222697839518884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250085903979115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672822149947281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252620820167833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620141178917003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643494644727713,0.0,0.0,0.1435537410523596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18449977761972228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357514946255935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631407809619061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973883970785629,0.0,0.0,0.3540042181301085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950920374177577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848852109714176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,study_boi,2019/06/14,"my first steps towards recovery (TW calorie counts) it dawned on me earlier that i have two choices. i either die from my ed or start trying to eat more and finally work towards being free from this shit. one or the other is going to have to happen at some point, it’s inevitable.

so i thought fuck it... i was going to skip lunch and just have dinner today, but i had two slices of left over pizza and a chicken salad. about 500 calories in total and i somehow didn’t feel any guilt at all, i was so chuffed. :)

then it came around to dinner time and my family wanted mcdonalds. here i did actually restrict a bit but i still ate a chicken wrap and a fruit bag for about 450 calories. my orthorexic habits did kick in and meant i didn’t have anything cooked in oil but still, progress. i do really like the grilled chicken wraps anyway.

THEN just now i had my evening cup of tea like i do every night, but since i was still below my BMR by quite a bit (general ceiling for calorie count i guess, which isn’t ‘true recovery’ but it’s still much much better than what i have been doing), i figured i’d have a snack with my tea. i was just going to have a handful of cherries but thought fuck it and went for a browse through the snacks cupboard. 

my mum decided to follow me and started looking through the cupboard as well saying “look we have kit kats, chocolate etc...” which made me feel uneasy, BUT i still decided to have something more daring so decided on a cookie and a teacake for around 200 calories.

ngl my brain feels frazzled right now and i feel really uncomfortable about having a snack, let alone an ‘unhealthy snack’, but WOW I REALLY DID THAT. sure i feel guilty as fuck but it tasted good so ???

i’m fucking proud of myself rn and i just pray that i can keep this mindset up going forward... i just want to be free.",2.806029005524863,4.7782961878453065,3.6859633977900574,88.78485669889506,76.07182320441989,6.292955801104973,25.40089779005525,7.1686216300943375,1.1154831491712711,1428,51,286,16,32,456,194,362,0.095,0.76,0.145,0.9696,0,1,1,0,0,0,43.0,1,0,0,6,26,17,5,1,16,0,31,23,3,1,4,59,62,31,1,2,17,1,6,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,16,17,16,2,12,1,2,9,3,6,1,4,19,12,39,13,43,40,11,42,1,0,2,4,3,18,5,5,19,204,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.09721661024916577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317825088538604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774631269686543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198034082927777,0.17736923596306742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810748073590884,0.21752264040951227,0.0,0.0,0.11121099475439558,0.0,0.1139409216189637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339181082307622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193808113036687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111047597668467,0.06579932978003843,0.0,0.08393575300294541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391466745883137,0.0,0.2518591465062227,0.0,0.0,0.10913092924528084,0.0,0.08473834289726426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683953896156724,0.0,0.0,0.22646970132809216,0.08355812876142411,0.0,0.0,0.10974476163852057,0.0,0.08809532303655349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854852797295434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823949305559996,0.10187014913146623,0.0,0.09734046297618612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731462232083275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942646568209842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646712804977755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934884108098806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675063821753925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417490242198973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596016041595832,0.0,0.0,0.1914610330774925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507656394686935,0.0,0.07922333869175538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226045556208747,0.08240827063810878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766938108185165,0.0,0.0,0.14102579654378494,0.0,0.3977909166532559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938924680326422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581773319965642,0.058090334900727014,0.0,0.0944299190122108,0.0,0.0,0.0676367352557842,0.0,0.19463225431882336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751916330334415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957205818059777,0.09235050552571217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252593452609005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MSUcathunter,2019/06/14,"I gained 10 pounds now I’m closer to my HW than I am to my GW1 I have no idea how I gained 10 pounds but I did.

I was at the high end of my GW but I gained 10 pounds. I was with my boyfriend for 2 weeks and I wasn’t counting calories or restricting because I knew it max him mad/upset/sad/stressed to see me counting calories.

BUT 10 POUNDS IN 2 WEEKS?!?",-1.4748749999999973,0.4187812625000049,0.6575000000000024,104.5975,92.625,3.7,18.0,4.935628992294339,-0.941525,271,8,72,1,10,89,49,80,0.071,0.821,0.10800000000000001,0.3923,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,0,10,9,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,16,0,9,4,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,4,41,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21461770804866004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118282180205693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719797317491515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974425163349666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805530358687397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032933114917643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5648162764882542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uglybug1,2019/06/14,i'm going to a mexican restaurant with my family tonight and i'm gonna eat queso. and a bean and cheese taco. and chips. and mexican rice. and i'm gonna enjoy it. because i DESERVE it. because this is a celebration dinner. BECAUSE I GOT INTO MY FIRST CHOICE UNIVERSITY IN LONDON!!!!!!!!,0.2687896825396834,2.6485094107142864,3.4830952380952382,81.17301587301587,97.75,6.060317460317463,24.079365079365076,7.3871296695380915,1.8733912698412705,221,10,40,5,9,79,36,56,0.0,0.912,0.08800000000000001,0.6562,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,8,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,4,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6928793738723121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387685570920173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35717134428881325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222724273467698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153244265585542,0.0,0.3030224019454422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oxygens_overrated,2019/06/14,"My arms and legs feel like static electricity is running up and down them, help? Does anyone know what this means? Did I drink too much caffeine? Are my electrolytes off? I am restricting at a deficit of about 800 cals a day for two weeks, and just had a large black coffee. Caffeine has never done this to me though, not even when I EC stacked. It feels like intense, uncomfortable tingling through my nerves in my arms and legs (it’s especially intense in my fingers). Anyone else experience this?",4.542282608695653,6.871401489130437,4.158043478260872,85.73423913043482,72.15217391304348,6.773913043478261,28.89130434782609,7.645422480735847,1.7248652173913035,395,16,74,5,8,119,71,92,0.096,0.787,0.11699999999999999,0.2406,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,7,7,5,0,1,12,11,6,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,1,1,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,4,10,2,11,8,1,11,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,6,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301678833452241,0.24190844151862834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522625072160434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20660936203061972,0.24160836753011505,0.0,0.2312843779984729,0.0,0.0,0.197228066901856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593930314878668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23094737169162985,0.0,0.0,0.2387546495024838,0.3373343226813729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825029573850322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975228852151033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306893400803553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571779588271514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355786114112826,0.0,0.1820919323109175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319633024899384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306316660839476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18938211805826702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cowboyhatcowboyhat,2019/06/14,body checking videos ? does anyone else take these? i do it all the time and sometimes people catch me and i think it must look so odd. just feels more real than a photo and like its harder for me to trick myself into looking thinner & getting complacent. also i want to see how i move? im so sick of my body i feel so fucking trapped,0.3559420289855062,2.7515915507246405,1.9362318840579709,94.83594202898551,90.01449275362317,3.646376811594204,19.26086956521739,5.033348758259628,-0.36806086956521705,263,8,54,1,9,85,56,69,0.195,0.753,0.052000000000000005,-0.8871,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,0,2,0,2,4,2,1,2,13,12,8,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,5,9,1,6,11,2,4,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693063337927994,0.0,0.22939030237025465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803423613800026,0.21692437794199684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47032950963027703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852709523244716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685854803910622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21409630643293406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19572470693874636,0.11061099350776417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22868572743634685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343198707872976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555701981447257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501678146666326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677472455256216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409750666395991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687073762913928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093889820219827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159181380629758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565676055487494,0.0,0.0,0.12345120590439365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487346175113576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunalaproana,2019/06/14,"I keep hearing the whole “I might start smoking so I can start losing more weight again” I really don’t understand because I thought smoking is supposed to ruin your metabolism Like I know eating is an addiction sometimes and you may want to replace it with smoking..but why do people always link smoking and losing weight together? 

Honestly it seems counter productive but if it works count me in lol",4.166198630136987,7.214719095890416,4.618065068493152,78.20600171232877,77.21917808219176,7.485616438356162,32.41267123287671,8.472884824447931,3.242069863013697,326,17,51,7,8,103,55,73,0.086,0.7959999999999999,0.11800000000000001,0.3262,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,3,2,5,0,0,2,1,7,4,0,0,0,14,16,5,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,3,1,5,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,9,2,4,13,2,4,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,4,4,33,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20857347325959116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919847674020154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663049365377592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19577416166756206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21563819598961168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700592520339059,0.0,0.0,0.10514771178966137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347217116596424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280894887308805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202966546374588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264128983398074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225682715988311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417591491107648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892262086478919,0.0,0.27084291548072914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189139437908286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19917701079893693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284897371259126,0.0,0.0,0.4659668087472078,0.0,0.0,0.1726418671482702,0.2136085362403945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928753487956375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yellowposy2,2019/06/14,"Lack of support IRL Ugh, lately I’ve been feeling like I have no one to talk to about my ed. I just want to vent, that’s all (okay and maybe be told I’m skinny lmao) but I don’t have anyone to talk to about it anymore. I’m annoyed with my bff and she kind of ignores my messages about ED stuff, my bf is definitely sick of my complaints and I love him but he doesn’t know how to support me (his go to is “try eating something” lmao), and I had a friend that told me I could always text her about this stuff (she literally said that on Monday) and when I texted her Wednesday morning she didn’t even respond. Ugh. I feel so upset.",3.0969817578772805,3.5374203731343283,4.2181592039801,91.33919568822556,72.88059701492537,6.552570480928693,25.33665008291874,5.82211442006289,0.5007655058043121,486,14,113,2,9,159,86,134,0.175,0.642,0.183,0.3337,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,9,12,1,1,1,1,11,4,1,1,1,18,24,10,0,3,3,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,7,6,2,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,6,3,22,7,16,16,2,6,0,0,0,1,18,1,0,0,5,73,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979739079810858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17853901135826758,0.1258794887178643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437373952704367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421318598007805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890653659286793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820547347239145,0.12861175846627826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908888264909405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231383783909773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874710493750376,0.09893846472028027,0.0,0.20307898223229534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795239527163025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624819441331044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18086192866282427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219913657057579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124748023643355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859404728017424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121770777486768,0.0,0.40858639017225656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893987424861948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440481869493715,0.0,0.12222692788208105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061849470078611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,illeniumismybae,2019/06/14,"taco vs insecure teenage girl who will win there is a taco.

it exists. and it is in my fridge.

and I want it. a lot

tis all",-3.154285714285713,-1.7647364285714264,-0.34171428571428564,107.4867142857143,109.71428571428572,3.6685714285714286,12.742857142857144,5.6839178017228535,-1.3576085714285715,92,2,26,1,5,31,22,28,0.094,0.736,0.171,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8216261214544223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5700267682694936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinknv,2019/06/14,"still sensitive I’ve been in recovery for a while now and I’m just starting to get back into exercising with the approach of not focusing on weight/numbers and just trying to feel healthy from it. My family has been really great and supportive in my journey, and I’ve made progress being able to talk about health and nutrition without getting too triggered. But today my mom pushed it a little too far,, as soon as I got back from my run in the neighborhood she asked me “you’re a size 8 right? I just bought you some new shorts!” 

Fuck, let me just turn around and run another half hour, how about that? I felt so disgusted, but not just with her perception of my body — I felt disappointed in *myself* that her comment was still so triggering to me. I absolutely hate being this sensitive, and I keep thinking I'm beyond this point and better than this by now. I don’t want to say “that triggers me,” because I realize she trusts me enough in my recovery now to test mentioning clothing sizes to me, but it's so hard to feel like I've made progress yet I'm still stuck in the same place where I can feel plunged back into self-loathing by a comment in passing. Size fucking 8 holy shit what has happened to me. I want to go on a diet so bad. I want to ACT, and fix my body but all I can do is sit here with it and ride through urges and keep feeling helpless with my ""progress,"" two steps forward one step back, constantly, but in which direction? Just back and forth, and I don't think this war in my mind will ever end.",5.513589181286548,5.541206046052633,5.746666666666666,83.94277777777779,67.48684210526315,9.5187134502924,31.691520467836256,9.2995712137729,2.4947432748538017,1194,45,252,21,18,380,169,304,0.131,0.778,0.091,-0.9681,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,4,34,14,6,0,8,0,15,8,3,6,2,60,47,26,1,3,14,1,7,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,13,20,1,2,10,1,1,12,5,9,0,3,10,8,35,5,44,33,4,56,0,2,0,2,12,23,3,1,23,172,48,1,0.10704735457972274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224848490762633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952948409330616,0.10007482620137784,0.0,0.0,0.4115640401647409,0.08938006970308053,0.06525507377417575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467468601476653,0.0,0.2378109576788578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568016103125495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481218281945517,0.11060853284245943,0.0,0.0,0.0968304607940683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091471892717896,0.0,0.21650543555451493,0.07647465150082673,0.20556449532688786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19792710874172514,0.11185564910255844,0.0,0.06083747851491079,0.0,0.08561554841934922,0.11802008633450398,0.0,0.0,0.0946616221255313,0.0,0.09589340346017447,0.10568710056520524,0.0,0.11378633215827134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542008121351837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902972145585942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094631727379343,0.0,0.05229793027691525,0.1072895716379792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025815904001705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808731235498363,0.12537256790516604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338700210738387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253805787053175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184170166780254,0.0,0.10119435084062484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857727644794198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141785591427486,0.0,0.0851283529280004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116737369871975,0.0,0.10988257116426507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576866854123804,0.0,0.2564644669382149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121476069408525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604060872945818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371832448639092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014683754229427,0.0,0.0,0.07267812698673011,0.1164367823610543,0.10456971083540943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18941790969732605,0.0,0.0,0.13035483915287308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318982982109633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Written23,2019/06/14,"Feeling Invalid Any other obese people out there struggling with disordered eating? I feel so conflicted bc I know, logically, I need help. The last time I spiraled this much I dropped weight fast and started passing out and getting sick....... But even then my BMI was still in overweight. So I've never felt like i have a valid problem. Doctors applauded me when I was losing the weight. My psychiatrist told me he might not change my meds bc they were making me nauseated and i wasn't eating bc of it... Like all the medical advice I've ever been given is Lose At All Cost! 

Any advice on being stronger than my problems or are they right? 

Side note, I don't have any co-morbidity with my weight. I'm able to run and work out. I don't eat more than 1600 cals a day, at most... I just don't get it.",1.6421309655937826,4.0004772012578655,3.0488420273769914,89.8625194228635,82.01886792452831,5.753755086940438,22.56048834628191,7.048011613610866,0.7429627081021093,621,21,128,8,17,202,107,159,0.12,0.805,0.075,-0.7883,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,2,3,8,7,0,1,5,0,14,11,0,1,4,29,26,10,0,3,4,0,6,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,9,8,1,5,0,1,2,6,5,0,0,8,6,21,2,13,16,5,22,0,2,0,0,5,9,0,3,12,79,25,2,0.12730199159229064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248796065692206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25970915896217345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346686274629366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209925314602554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589911129209265,0.1302989826419659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907851551278647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408176483303105,0.1151519395717891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873542389186182,0.0,0.12222987554675135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330200728220648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532784155349724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996184534442759,0.10376811391819923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438664564004424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848367320068468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849750679040191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140381447933095,0.12824336368046307,0.0,0.13504729571250373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358161137521888,0.09439281372800508,0.09818314383481903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825517215451945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24362162688864605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871520525355144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901050048687782,0.0,0.1016635349282896,0.0,0.0,0.13308368183795705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423081503296268,0.0,0.0,0.1216425083734332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650585912095997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267736603858992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blooodsucker,2019/06/14,My dysmorphia basically gaslights me. I feel like I look the same as before my ED but it’s such a mindfuck that I weigh 40lbs less. The measurements are significantly less and it’s the only evidence I have that I do not look the way I do in the mirror.  I have become obsessed with looking up celebrities measurements to get some kind of idea on what I look like.,1.4754166666666677,4.101854597222225,3.0994444444444436,87.09000000000002,86.36111111111109,6.533333333333335,23.277777777777786,7.793537801064563,1.4224611111111112,289,11,58,6,9,95,50,72,0.032,0.892,0.077,0.4497,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,6,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,11,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,11,3,7,11,4,4,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,1,2,42,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547997882562679,0.19631623060011408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665332168891974,0.16481844161972928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053584690900915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260442198740478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24024775475650306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254253716497223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7749492814377493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17546446919900702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831259388304479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MidwestSkinnyCow,2019/06/14,"I've been talking to someone who fasts... I started talking to a dude and right off the bat, he's like ""Yeah I'm on a personal journey, I fast, I'm down 40 lbs."" 

So I'm like... sweet. Someone who won't say jack shit about my OMAD. 

Problem: His fasts feel like a competition. He's starting a 3 day fast on Monday, and guess who's doing it with him? This gal. Sure I've done OMAD, low restriction, stuff like that. But a 3 day fast? I have them built up in my head to be hard, and if they're easy, I'm about to do it all the time. Especially with him literally encouraging me. 

Other problematic features that make me feel inadequate: 
1) He's 4 inches taller and 5 lbs lighter than me. Cue the mental image of a potato sitting next to a string bean. 

2) He's so tiny??? His waist is little? His hips are little? He's soft and has a flat tummy that he sucks in during blowies because ""it feels better that way."" (It being his dick) 

3) He actually believes Dr Fung or whatever TF. He believes in stem cell regeneration and all that shit. 

4) His hair is more beautiful than mine? I'm actually going to help him with that because it's dry AF. But JFC. 

5) I feel like if I don't continue to lose weight and do this whole ""personal journey"" thing, he's going to lose interest real fast. So the fasting sort of feels like a requirement. 

Uugghhngghhh I told myself after I broke up with my ex, I was done with this shit. I was going to be healthy. Weight didn't matter, I'd just eat vegan and see where my body landed. 

Goodbye, all of that!! Hello fasting train!!!",0.5348563389888312,2.8184178611987387,2.901509080057977,89.519991474124,86.47634069400631,5.824503367721034,20.870406684286813,7.2228458231874715,0.6515666979282121,1190,39,258,19,37,407,170,317,0.063,0.76,0.17800000000000002,0.9892,0,0,0,0,0,0,66.0,0,0,1,4,7,20,4,0,13,1,19,13,9,1,4,36,39,16,0,3,6,1,10,6,0,1,1,1,0,2,21,13,4,2,5,0,0,5,3,9,0,0,7,13,27,11,31,28,5,41,0,4,1,1,32,17,5,5,23,134,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.2025904196421337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265527611606771,0.0,0.0,0.23389730303002396,0.0,0.09180391833324672,0.0,0.11529997434634165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388665385648713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124497781087833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062147640242996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624255775357234,0.22246725993420394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769782127921419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434896391105452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929856812895251,0.0,0.10653020093379817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957590202480006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042727758964578,0.2080725796360352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322544693310639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928825212734388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460741435753468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039398497703423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18127078768466645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932393773783507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814873799219995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864584327478643,0.0,0.08254705337841863,0.0,0.0,0.08271629043105228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196519897991945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759012081827367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469423549584045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882778861996245,0.0,0.0,0.09783160743424417,0.0,0.0,0.16686329471237998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689610493357646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060527441218777525,0.0,0.0,0.09918670261141782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239273355199539,0.0,0.2528043241900449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589057553404815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raettalynn,2019/06/14,MFP is lying to me? Ya girl just steamed a large eggplant and I was fully expecting it to be a couple hundred calories but apparently I could eat the whole dang thing and it would only be 123 calories for the 48 oz it was before I cooked it. I was so shocked and excited but now my stupid brain is trying to convince me that the calories can’t possibly be right and I need to round up to 500 calories just to be sure.,1.8188793103448264,3.7138251839080496,3.435158045977012,89.80377155172415,78.77011494252874,6.189080459770117,25.81752873563219,7.1686216300943375,1.1399666666666666,329,13,70,4,8,109,57,87,0.11599999999999999,0.787,0.096,-0.4294,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,1,0,5,0,12,3,1,0,1,13,13,7,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,9,3,8,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503887671931141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32848515487597924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349381437088179,0.32558682612405865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010956465394372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21818586175934135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379368223723412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317275514633339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512915952790626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277331229448169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954895058754708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19977937887228306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285244578641505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090298378194181,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,szerim,2019/06/14,omg i finally achieved my goal of losing the weight i wanted gone!!! now i'm free to focus on other things in my life such as losing more weight hitting gw mood tho,4.94029411764706,4.7676142058823565,5.616470588235295,85.07411764705884,68.70588235294119,7.976470588235292,25.823529411764717,7.1686216300943375,1.0841647058823531,129,3,27,1,2,42,29,34,0.163,0.7490000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.4168,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,2,5,2,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,16,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989645059172014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276758956229206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106430560671328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813122737197434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097204905962306,0.0,0.0,0.6646726995395126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pugaachan,2019/06/14,"Getting my nails done So my birthday is coming up next week and I thought I would pamper myself and get my nails done on my last day off work before then. I got some beautiful baby blue acrylics but halfway through, I started panicking thinking about how I can’t b/p now, I have no back up plan if I fuck up and eat too much. And I’m really trying not to eat much so I can have a flat stomach for my bday, which I’m so stressed about. And then I thought about how most people probably don’t go through that thought process when having a spa day. I wish I could just relax and not think about my weight or food or how I never want to deal with those things again.",4.877643884892084,4.492895856115108,5.023660071942448,89.9921807553957,68.85611510791368,8.101079136690647,29.605215827338128,7.1686216300943375,1.3736971223021577,520,17,119,4,8,163,91,139,0.122,0.807,0.071,-0.7939,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,16,3,1,1,2,0,11,6,1,3,1,30,27,19,0,5,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,5,2,0,2,6,2,0,0,6,2,19,1,15,19,4,20,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,5,13,83,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12213595556768572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515870650060974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682413096820245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268185309081687,0.0,0.0,0.20487362895410885,0.16375411593863914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250910808354086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250600941522931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206649913525126,0.0,0.0,0.14684237566797306,0.16597169887967209,0.0,0.09027080657694148,0.0,0.1270365702195831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947346811019084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23352714660769544,0.0,0.12250499370429654,0.0,0.16892509944414105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101176728191792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125330081409387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175513859089946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242574461402333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194740623094435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552433739247477,0.20355285039750645,0.0,0.3782968385912021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783999113285944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936862599935284,0.0,0.12740957211009482,0.19342084449889332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182654871159905,0.0,0.0,0.11563532903559293,0.0,0.0,0.11283334638536355,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ash_alah,2019/06/14,How much do u spend on groceries?? Im currently obsessed with planning everything for when i move out in september and i wanna spend as little money on food as possible. So i was just wondering how much u guys spend on average? Doesnt matter what kind of ed u have im rlly curious in general!!,1.3049636803874094,3.8096107796610177,4.297142857142859,79.26644067796613,85.27118644067797,8.795157384987894,27.072639225181604,9.23628265651192,3.192901210653752,232,11,43,8,7,83,44,59,0.073,0.883,0.043,0.3919,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,10,5,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,12,4,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,2,28,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22649961225322301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047439699669067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495397382779391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.544450382607367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26244038019107385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25259056763987564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267857714899814,0.3705278644255322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841150427983101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733052853677859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinuvhiel,2019/06/14,"Fighting a binge for three days Hi! first time poster, long time lurker. I am posting for the first time cause i need help fighting down my binge urges. 

i have been restricting for so long and once in a while i have binges that go over 2500 calories and make me feel horrible, really like my stomach is bursting. i am keeping track of my habits recently, writing in  a calendar when i binge to try not fall into the habit of binging every x days or so. it's been 3 days now that i have been eating kind of normally, like definitely overeating for my standards but i think for a normal person with no ED 1.500 calories a day is like the normal intake? anyways even if my intake is fine i feel like i have been fighting the urge to binge SO MUCH. i dread meals. i want to go back to restricting or just handling my food better. i got better at stopping myself before i feel physically sick but mentally i am so exhausted. it feels like a prolonged binge. when i had huge binges i would be done the day after because i would be like ""right that was horrible, time to go back to starving myself"" but this.... this is worse in a way, because i just cannot go back to restricting or just eliminate the urge to binge. i just wanted to vent about this and ask if someone has tips on how to escape this mindset. i am exhausted.",4.461494252873564,5.430288118773948,5.074961685823754,84.50370689655175,70.1111111111111,8.098850574712644,28.29310344827586,8.344100000000001,1.856986206896552,1033,36,207,15,18,332,134,261,0.185,0.6829999999999999,0.132,-0.9597,0,0,0,0,6,0,27.0,0,0,0,4,18,16,3,1,13,0,25,7,1,3,0,41,41,19,0,10,13,0,4,6,0,2,3,0,0,1,9,5,3,5,5,0,0,5,3,6,0,3,8,4,30,10,30,29,1,41,0,0,0,0,8,11,0,5,29,142,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110343398778132,0.0,0.0,0.2494765527714754,0.0,0.1318515813441271,0.0,0.0920256665836001,0.0,0.0,0.19129557814163026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109740532130737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487313684416247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106725722257727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066202325618447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143048879886013,0.0,0.0911190415577707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21873076219522192,0.15452137511972944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398063546821333,0.13077254191701074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245851158637562,0.0,0.08649553815387181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248907587062925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612658148148044,0.0,0.11261911309674275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31701281184199903,0.0,0.0,0.1914144964031812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218938194451316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898737314667928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950095072803291,0.08019009635537994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317885142662291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517369502015405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443033794171116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035755335391278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928214023039564,0.0,0.10678273632470588,0.0,0.0,0.0923574840103608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163313485428284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904162601324261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929663366798294,0.0,0.0,0.25224700800567884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734251408977944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757654684406172,0.0858425538128163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021167296663838,0.1536499450581007,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Johnstkettle,2019/06/14,"Anyone else feel generally pretty large or pretty average looking and then you see yourself in a window or a mirror or a picture and you’re just like ‘holy shit’ Are my clothes really that baggy now, are my collarbones really that protruding now, am I that skinny and malnourished now. Do I really look that dead? 

Like you’re getting a glimpse of what you actually look like, and maybe the bigger thing you usually see in the mirror is just a distortion.

Like a little jump scare of ‘holy shit this must be what other people see when they express concern about my weight. I really am dying aren’t I?’

And then back to business as usual and you’re a fatass",3.8101298701298703,5.975562206349206,5.1725108225108265,78.38006493506495,73.76190476190476,8.391341991341992,24.946608946608947,9.095868883498916,2.245358730158731,522,17,92,12,11,174,74,126,0.085,0.787,0.128,0.5683,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,1,0,8,7,2,1,9,0,9,4,3,0,1,14,17,13,2,1,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,6,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,8,10,4,7,15,0,14,0,0,6,0,5,4,2,3,13,62,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.1431670959441647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258254097784994,0.15032099647938982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128103818615252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226107207410378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255677959922588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418062098617814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766495445251817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866989780129809,0.14704124224987147,0.0,0.0,0.3695965410428497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738919261080646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170974356154934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985121650082551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759428904439298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688158469800058,0.0,0.3507249091800084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011899389461999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746712785435546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32315909388810404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865238149143253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oheckingfrick,2019/06/14,"back when i was younger, i used to self harm by cutting thank GOD i don’t do that anymore. now, i self harm by eating so much my stomach feels like it’s going to burst or not eating for days and days :) much better :))",1.2145652173913035,2.71715893478261,2.4906521739130447,97.68858695652176,79.21739130434783,4.6000000000000005,20.195652173913047,3.1291,-0.5967652173913045,165,4,39,0,4,53,35,46,0.151,0.605,0.244,0.6408,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,5,7,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,5,3,5,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23609380175216785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18305519026583086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21054673113391725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070609383971453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871942672925729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037143625070547,0.17007173264449188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529627370241853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630519971470095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350006319235107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4967017323404903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191757527544238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20560936517939715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goodbyeeeeemooonmenn,2019/06/14,"A guy told me to never gain when I was at my lowest weight I wasn't even that skinny tho so I feel horrible that I gained. My bmi was like 20? Or so. He said 'you don't need to lose just don't gain anymore weight'. I honestly don't know why but it stuck with me. Same with everyone telling me I'm glowing and that I look much better when I was slimmer.

I lost 40lbs in 2 months. I couldn't walk properly for months because I had a severe vitamin D deficiency that made my joints and bones stiff and aching. I was throwing up soooo much everyday because of my acid reflux. I can't believe people thought I was okay even tho I lost in such a short amount of time.  

Doesn't matter anyway. I'm going to do the same thing and I'm going to lose the fucking weight my fatass gained. No more junk food. I'm gonna lose 40lbs this time in a fucking month if I have to. I have let myself go. I can't even go outside the house without feeling horrible about my disgusting fat body. I'm gonna do it.

I had 1600 already and it's like 4 pm. Fuck binging. I'm gonna go and work it off, and I already started a water fast this time. No liquids, no calories(just diet soda but nothing else). I will increase my sit ups for 100 to 250 a day and I will measure and weigh in twice a day. I need to be strict. I need to lose weight. Or else I'll be disgusted with myself and have no self control. Me being out of control is exactly why my life is out of control in other aspects too. I will never achieve any success if I can't control something as simple as what I willingly put into my mouth.

I feel horrible.",0.7920083536373141,2.7592197218934897,2.7752245040027823,92.8719248172642,82.55029585798817,5.514932126696833,22.958927949878177,6.661559191721324,0.5592948833971456,1238,44,275,13,34,415,170,338,0.198,0.7120000000000001,0.091,-0.99,1,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,18,14,17,5,0,10,1,31,20,5,5,3,45,64,24,0,6,8,0,7,2,0,7,4,1,0,2,13,16,11,5,5,0,0,9,16,11,0,1,15,11,43,6,33,37,7,38,0,6,2,3,7,13,3,4,17,171,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815442448098972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593725870051807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157637127669784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028563012522453,0.0,0.0,0.09267493732979504,0.0,0.07274921316276277,0.0,0.09136845750891423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690307554313371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609730932941264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374295458883884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298897987389707,0.0,0.0,0.07859963607431789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477411395583266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946491832355188,0.0,0.0,0.228134499790608,0.0,0.0,0.2337413979950213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144689356442744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491298758125843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520603575748607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411287137241996,0.05810021726485895,0.08037276779757578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907476540470768,0.3680960508904753,0.1795854309781976,0.0,0.0,0.07783311423169048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969691239815654,0.0,0.12093602303496878,0.182976516341037,0.12688260834540002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892735562501044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05702631839624665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269052851396629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824479323420082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581149659684953,0.0929264615290728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633250927719118,0.0,0.0,0.05822159281210094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189582974364564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054647581161451186,0.0,0.0,0.06530249387919039,0.14389332623377074,0.0,0.0,0.07859963607431789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.400665156844604,0.0,0.0,0.14844744192162693,0.0,0.0,0.0792923561923752,0.0,0.059883730945410475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WeirdPath,2019/06/14,"I don't know how to stop I was at the doctors today and they wanted to check my weight. I haven't checked my weight in a really long time. Mostly because I'm too scared to see how bad its gotten. But I did it and there it was. 79kg. My highest weight ever.

I've been on an endless binge cycle for about 9 months but I was still deluding myself by thinking if I stop, I can easily snap back. I didn't realise how bad it was until I actually looked at myself. I found loads of stretch marks on my inner thighs, around my bum, under my arms. I'm disgusted with myself. How did I let it get to this?

I remember the days when I could easily fast or be satisfied with OMAD. Now, I can't even imagine living like that. I don't know how to stop binging. I'm embarrassed to go outside like this. I don't want to be seen. I want to lose the weight but I don't know where to start. I'm stuck",-0.06447519321864803,1.9412143350785345,2.2901271503365765,94.8431239092496,86.27748691099475,5.522911992021941,17.995761655447517,6.868970318607317,-0.02736519571179264,682,17,160,9,21,232,109,191,0.172,0.742,0.086,-0.9234,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,16,8,1,2,5,0,19,7,2,5,1,31,39,14,0,5,5,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,5,4,3,7,0,2,1,7,6,0,0,12,7,28,2,23,23,1,27,0,1,3,0,1,10,0,3,18,105,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.12727032374298075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161007364132944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028431272144404,0.21778916490323885,0.07950233240021269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041291170430222,0.0,0.0,0.08410959319438455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348957516294374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614065005674798,0.1179716309440801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429979186340678,0.0,0.0,0.06813864793539176,0.0,0.0741202355547307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150249408693843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336246580165753,0.0,0.12743246451937626,0.0,0.115162540944387,0.11541688589647588,0.10951927913928508,0.14590572226827625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040993593186942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354987761002539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477395272714633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057236869348196,0.0,0.10392721512275327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231137938381916,0.0,0.10415293973883727,0.3271088671437804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356735577875025,0.0,0.0,0.07604848297225159,0.0,0.12362214988678495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307738655146513,0.0,0.0,0.6352617905649669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,randomreddituser748,2019/06/14,my friends went out to eat today and i’m at home. they invited me but i said i can’t go. now they are sending me pictures of their food and desserts while i am eating my 40 calorie lunch,-1.2411382113821148,0.8073561463414656,0.8896341463414643,100.8552642276423,97.29268292682929,3.7089430894308943,21.46747967479675,5.46131890053228,-0.15393008130081265,146,6,35,1,6,48,34,41,0.0,0.945,0.055,0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,10,1,4,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6395600526203779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778933880330524,0.0,0.24144768093741226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17760901089687134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134772042902349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972725510620208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29622690216795045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897037766387197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imjustlurkinganyway,2019/06/14,"Anyone there? ): I'm spiraling. I've been spiraling. Back down. All the way down. I'm such a scrambled mess I can't keep my thoughts straight. I am watching the sun come up, I haven't slept in 30 hours and I just... need someone to talk to. Anyone there?",-1.7819871794871782,-0.80534471153846,-0.0576923076923066,103.19435897435899,121.1153846153846,3.271794871794872,17.7948717948718,5.46131890053228,-0.4900820512820512,193,7,45,2,12,61,38,52,0.11900000000000001,0.841,0.04,-0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,1,7,11,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,5,0,6,8,1,9,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,2,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4876789325467865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681511204635841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003992055823964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34342787680687137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30996641060137603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585781783766476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954769998598774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802952078483075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768519192800837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768048948806156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stay-anon,2019/06/14,"Anyone else with anxiety here related to their ED? The same time i developed my ED (around age 18, im 20 now) i also got huge anxiety issues out of nowhere. Performance anxiety, social anxiety, you name it. It goes up and down the same way as my ED tendencies do which is weird. When my ED is at its worst and i start binging, my anxiety goes out of control and i just wanna lock myself in a room till i feel like i look ‘ok’ again. I avoid meeting up w friends because i cant be fun at the time anyway, all i can think about is how long its gonna take to get back to my pre binge weight 

Does anyone else feel the same? I feel so alone in this dumb cycle and it makes me eat even less 🙃",0.7375510204081657,2.500824625850342,2.793435374149663,93.73668367346941,81.65306122448979,6.648979591836735,20.70408163265305,7.7094869923839395,0.6081510204081626,528,15,125,9,14,178,100,147,0.16899999999999998,0.778,0.053,-0.9271,0,2,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,2,13,8,1,1,5,1,7,2,0,3,1,23,18,10,0,1,1,0,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,8,2,2,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,5,19,4,20,15,6,23,0,0,1,0,6,12,1,0,11,79,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538975304827966,0.0,0.11882976516172418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5683661758556805,0.0,0.0,0.20779935542992586,0.3045021684805614,0.0,0.13227926992413652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425884177352565,0.0,0.09058091112987927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665968005674592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003473209070388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204773112063336,0.2482607621289632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981442723992264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253992503897108,0.10615486598417187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480258005627167,0.0,0.07763370742478168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884339307540542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050593429278365,0.1550924820807655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259503209028009,0.0,0.0,0.13150012545101294,0.12478069248063325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918697862819548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147184659554458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051748873246884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172344031442047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521239187108088,0.0,0.0,0.17329154176244593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179462037362502,0.0,0.180946237859115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MrsMythical,2019/06/14,"Coffee as lunch Is it anorexic of me to consider coffee with milk and sugar as lunch? I wasnt really thinking any of it, but then I looked around me and saw everyone having bread and salads and whatnot for lunch...",8.022142857142857,6.449678357142857,8.333333333333332,72.72000000000003,63.04761904761904,11.257142857142858,32.904761904761905,10.125756701596842,3.1488190476190483,169,5,31,3,2,56,31,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,0,8,6,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,8,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538134200621301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4631662853054694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971571131860922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369105593585796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333095693089068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333792958130818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDProgrammer,2019/06/14,How tf am I supposed to function in daily life ? Î relapsed and started restrict again (crazy how easy it gets after the first few days :I). My only problem is that I have no idea how I am supposed to work when I can't focus. I'm a Software Developer. I just can't do shit when I'm unconcentrated. I'm sitting here trying do code stuff but my brain won't do shit. Does anyone now if it gets better over time ? I can't remember how I did it last time... Or does anyone have any tips ?,0.3840106951871647,2.4525733725490184,2.8342067736185403,91.25847593582891,84.88235294117645,4.885561497326204,21.037433155080205,6.1124844417494595,0.14157647058823564,372,12,82,3,11,128,67,102,0.054000000000000006,0.8190000000000001,0.126,0.8376,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,10,4,2,0,2,0,13,4,3,4,0,13,19,10,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,0,10,1,5,17,1,14,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,11,52,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407809543792369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289506920042766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830926988078776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311032048200688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335110158367976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623298513922569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17609142565398786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631920350810666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337008053461867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874923668362266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462246135438901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744832427217534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19809054065244575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23451372924459976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42500688100039796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653008731532596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23698880077019355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414304915494606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055324579821232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071329897341298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,G4lli0n,2019/06/14,"binged for a week only gained 1kg? (2lbs) in an attempt to recover i binged 1000-1500 (approx) calories a day and ended up 1kg heavier than before. 
thats actually a pretty large amount to earn in a week but im also really confused as to how i only gained 1kg and still have a thigh gap. any explanations for this?",0.7683766233766249,2.8878707727272754,3.6416883116883128,85.7468181818182,83.69696969696969,6.195670995670996,20.034632034632033,7.447530270364453,0.7229722943722949,245,7,51,4,7,87,47,66,0.055999999999999994,0.816,0.128,0.5057,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,6,0,1,1,1,1,0,5,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,10,1,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,27,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.2803522531010492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297446071459409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19536611444459848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444614574375497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852773943364695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544524472305395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31032101063653017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369918853654925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29227581060516555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404444764036654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294290645622032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608912070253921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TimelyAgency,2019/06/14,"Advice? I just want to preface this post by saying that I've been around these forums for a while and have always found them helpful. I never thought I'd post something like this and I feel kind of embarrassed about it but I'm hoping that there are people who have had a similar issue and can maybe give me advice.  


I started MFP in June 2015 at 139 pounds; I'm 5'3"", 34 years old. I lost 20 pounds within the first 2.5 months and eventually got down to 107ish by July 2016. Since then it's been up and down; whenever my weight gets that low I end up rebounding to 115. The worst time was when I hit 125 in December 2017. Sidenote that there is nothing wrong with being 125 pounds, it's just not the right weight for me. I used to do IF a few years ago and just really didn't see the benefits, eventually lost my period, then ended up being super hungry all the time and gaining back some weight. It took like a year to bounce back from that.  


This leads me to now. I got down to 108 pounds around a month ago and then my period was late but eventually came and only lasted a few days. Also there is **zero** chance of pregnancy in case anyone thinks to ask. Since then I've been battling excessive hunger. I've stopped trying to fight it and just let my body do its thing; some days I eat more and some I eat less. I figure that maybe the very low end of the BMI range isn't my happy place. I wasn't trying to lose weight either as my goal is maintenance it just seems to happen as I lose my appetite due to work stress, etc. I've stopped weighing in daily because post binge weights exacerbate my anxiety and guilt. I've stopped tracking food for the same reasons as I was becoming obsessive. I felt like I just needed to hit reset.  


At first I felt better but now I feel like it's getting worse. Today was the worst of all as I've just finished eating \~1500 calories on top of what had to be a minimum of 2500 for the day already. I also feel zero discomfort or fullness and like I could even eat more food.  


To give more background, I'm pretty active. I workout 45 minutes to an hour six days per week. I do resistance training four times per week and do straight cardio two times per week. My heart rate is high during resistance training; I'm not doing super heavy low rep sets with breaks. I also usually get 12 to 20K steps on my Fitbit with an estimated TDEE that's usually between 2000 and 2500. I'm fairly muscular and lean aside from my stomach these days due to water weight bloat. I've been working out consistently for years and I'm pretty fit.  


Thanks if you've read all of this so far. My whole point is I'm not really sure why I feel so desperately hungry. I also get days where I feel too exhausted to do anything beyond my morning workout and shower. That's usually on the weekends. I get around six hours of sleep per night but I try so hard to get more. On the weekends I do get a bit more because my brain isn't thinking about my job. I don't like the feeling of being ravenous even right after eating hundreds of calories. It's concerning and I obviously want to get a handle on it before it gets out of control. I always seem to but I really don't want to gain ten pounds back just to feel too soft and try to cut again. I'm curious if anyone, especially anyone with stats similar to mine, has gone through something similar. I'm wondering if I should actually see a doctor at this point. I'm so confused, upset, and tired of going through this and feeling like I have to fight tooth and nail against myself.  


Thanks again if you've read this; I appreciate it.

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[https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10748681/im-not-really-sure-whats-happening/p1](https://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/discussion/10748681/im-not-really-sure-whats-happening/p1) (I posted there too)",4.552812618416066,6.443651914835165,4.91423834785904,82.18593406593408,71.06043956043956,7.438272072754831,24.776998863205762,8.104835398774808,1.3735521220159153,3046,89,580,44,58,963,324,728,0.134,0.743,0.12300000000000001,-0.7924,2,0,2,0,2,0,106.0,0,0,1,17,40,39,4,7,25,0,41,27,7,4,6,99,102,52,0,12,23,0,18,7,0,1,4,2,1,0,32,33,16,4,19,6,0,6,10,22,0,9,23,22,59,17,88,70,22,115,0,7,2,0,9,40,0,14,70,352,91,8,0.0,0.0,0.048800982418966736,0.0,0.0,0.09773525503788022,0.08865885456636988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0551855104694885,0.15996679049538945,0.08322198605672111,0.054184078083346326,0.060765676974422665,0.0,0.0,0.038256287409990236,0.0,0.0,0.10490110340797966,0.0,0.041152650367634235,0.13355422921630042,0.04675110127129399,0.0,0.0,0.11536011313762215,0.0,0.060969310230793036,0.055230346369394036,0.04255346320411007,0.0,0.0,0.044228363932380936,0.054596218296157496,0.055548056328848336,0.0,0.05582591067406234,0.0,0.05719628465214493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608867039201528,0.03992763639370657,0.0,0.0,0.19350767679517197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05118571414808272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255855377610686,0.0,0.0,0.13287779141855036,0.0,0.05577258262912881,0.06606015016457549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022859879471943,0.07145201870863384,0.09603180843373234,0.0,0.0,0.0850742351814772,0.12094070615654015,0.05483162694944315,0.0,0.0,0.2351459142978373,0.09594522389844684,0.028420924892913844,0.0,0.07999256809092035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04422226098689688,0.05323486932150767,0.04479770174563587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059260192130665884,0.03351957488901778,0.05283661788858338,0.0,0.04966962269343863,0.0984963967446466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803530213720704,0.05219577467534856,0.049625618357804095,0.0,0.0,0.05207605077098995,0.0,0.040763518709101214,0.056411650889591436,0.0,0.0,0.05113697488567664,0.0,0.1710210398781619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189321088897593,0.1091801471513752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048031427767233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983245197358868,0.0,0.0,0.037080593287447255,0.03856955927505862,0.0,0.0,0.04692949363917237,0.0,0.04798440638791983,0.0,0.05247540113471191,0.0,0.0,0.03803363996376727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034669526364637354,0.0,0.05224813191784785,0.0,0.09454820005808352,0.0,0.191576885837578,0.10175303773778413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004386149208253,0.0,0.0961099804363123,0.051416961787652087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541379689738561,0.0,0.039768685091562096,0.0,0.0,0.0797004368166758,0.09105153427944723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273492680480103,0.0,0.05004451323018429,0.0,0.0,0.07699781557504166,0.0,0.0,0.03539620132873891,0.0,0.0,0.1254277792740522,0.05728445067722534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139696920075512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208202764079497,0.0,0.0,0.033223357374676514,0.06408672407236254,0.0,0.03970108183189629,0.1166411955708606,0.05747729669652316,0.04740211375122387,0.0,0.05556116996271091,0.13580967777560038,0.0,0.04885093811043606,0.0,0.0,0.0431911993222832,0.1652315550094669,0.04126216545789268,0.08848874602127048,0.0,0.12034116067721914,0.3653805368100835,0.0,0.0,0.04512480067276757,0.055832590199984,0.0,0.0,0.05423197415897052,0.07281341833778297,0.0,0.050962829657840734,0.0,0.05467633250446801,0.060765676974422665,0.12881507427959574
EDAnonymous,LuluTheLoli,2019/06/14,"My mom keeps asking if I’ve eaten Especially today, because we went to the doctors and she saw my weight.  Not super low but definitely getting down there.  She’s worried about me and i feel terrible but fuck man,,, i ate somethin.  ugh.",3.453666666666667,5.61127297777778,5.055277777777778,78.85625000000002,74.7777777777778,7.166666666666668,29.027777777777786,8.07648339933343,2.2037777777777787,184,8,33,3,4,62,39,45,0.31,0.603,0.08800000000000001,-0.9262,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,9,9,5,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,4,3,8,1,3,5,0,4,0,1,1,1,6,2,1,1,1,19,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940136367191841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19171536222423047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219025339620594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901988765077027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907487889580107,0.1643124821123864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795407108542788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683368338851356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29810779795964426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829744380085949,0.0,0.2915432537771216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193884856965111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pigeons_r_life,2019/06/14,Why am I like this? I bake and cook shit loads of good food for OTHER PEOPLE but I won’t let myself eat it!! Ajhhhhhhhh!!! It kills me every time but I also love it???!,-2.206666666666667,-0.4791972222222203,2.1555555555555586,90.29500000000002,104.55555555555556,3.5111111111111115,8.777777777777779,5.46131890053228,-1.6990222222222222,124,1,30,1,6,47,30,36,0.158,0.5820000000000001,0.26,0.6786,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,3,4,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,20,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459325037808677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146810831259826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591082093666515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718678180889224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25794248990225843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402375896287634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144713782271271,0.0,0.15024415793228998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775588180411265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21320333795151847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156762473886513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932385329417724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774989778240545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dragaynite,2019/06/14,"A Chapter in Denial; Disordered Habits I straight up refuse to acknowledge that I have disordered eating because I’m not a sKiNnY lEgEnD even tho I routinely A) fast for days to either prepare for a big meal or “spread out calories” from a binge. B) overexercise to compensate for eating, any amount. C) My mood is dictated by my weight, which I check every few days. D) fucking throw up my food if I feel full. And then eat again later. And throw up again. 

But like all of this seems so normal to me, even tho I get light headed, have no energy ever, struggle with focus, my joints hurt if I’ve been pushing it too much, and my chest has started hurting every now and then. 

I eat normal for one day and all of a sudden I’m like “naaaaaaaahhhhh, we good I’m not disordered”. Tf is wrong w me I literally have a garbage bag of vomit sitting on my bedroom floor because my parents were in the other room when I needed to purge. Smh",1.9449313501144159,4.279923195652174,3.514016018306638,87.11748283752866,80.63043478260869,6.264988558352402,23.271167048054924,7.475848149327749,1.1396347826086957,724,25,142,11,19,239,121,184,0.1,0.835,0.065,-0.743,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,0,12,9,1,1,8,0,8,12,3,0,3,25,17,15,0,5,7,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,5,8,8,1,3,0,1,3,3,5,0,1,2,3,19,3,22,15,7,30,0,2,0,1,3,12,1,4,16,94,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669133370556473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542225752614786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466437611176712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383122156885232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5217788456248456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839976755894331,0.11531370622606688,0.21481618950880185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445813638379735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415032174796073,0.0,0.0,0.1178539701476678,0.06660347040881061,0.0,0.0,0.1069248692055284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083210648263402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729417233510743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456138530640895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371307580586928,0.09452541774424164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24980828697911045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638430744723195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415523717863387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160537568439132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09023158532608973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327063919212714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523730346785075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938027179455892,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,youllgetthereoneday2,2019/06/14,"Hahahahaha kill me please My boyfriend lied to me today. We had a body talk (not unusual because he knows I have BDD, doesn't know I restrict) It's taken me a year to finally ask him in a low key way if he prefers me at a lower weight.

He almost immediately came back with no and he views me as thin already,etc etc.   

Well too bad I know THAT was a lie because I did something very bad a year ago and read his posts online LITERALLY saying he would prefer me at 110 not 120 at 5'5"" and guess what else THAT WAS THE WEIGHT HE MET ME AT, HE TYPED IT AFTER I HAD GAINED THE 10 LBS.   

And no matter what I do I can't seem to get it fucking off anymore, hahahaha Ihatemyselfsofuckingmustkillmeplease.   

I don't even know what to make of this lie. He lied. He lied to my face. He also typed online that my thighs are ""thicker"". Wow. FML. I'm DOUBLY FUCKED because it will cause a massive problem if I come forward that I invaded his privacy by reading his posts (the forum is very specific to a certain hobby, I peered over one day at his username and searched it, because female intuition is no joke). Please guys no advice about telling him, it won't fix any of this anyway because I learned how he really feels when he thought he was being anonymous to a group of strangers, why would a man even feel the need to say this FML omg   

I NEVER want to eat again. I'm sick. I hate getting naked in front of him and even today wearing shorts was a terrible fucking idea. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I'm DONE eating.",1.8173529411764733,3.953202303921572,3.2344052287581704,90.04082352941177,79.88235294117645,5.7793464052287575,23.27189542483661,6.88968998030894,0.6656687581699354,1179,40,251,13,30,385,173,306,0.233,0.716,0.052000000000000005,-0.9959,1,0,1,0,0,1,32.0,1,0,0,1,12,21,12,0,15,0,21,19,4,3,2,40,54,12,1,9,4,0,5,0,0,4,1,2,0,2,16,10,4,1,12,3,0,4,11,17,1,1,12,8,32,4,27,37,1,31,0,1,1,10,30,13,10,5,13,139,48,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332005363176855,0.06651102480080452,0.0,0.07513335265366171,0.0,0.0,0.060002778188269934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051024090515765175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744112287349424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070144458132881,0.0,0.0,0.05769470241445704,0.12529657647540135,0.22869296725532115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334324124069929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581621149108984,0.0,0.07707816627844656,0.0,0.06463311710819175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048389202836042346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767834217172797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535522059148147,0.0626793102830823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736023241419104,0.14867307864839874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587650679120413,0.0,0.0,0.08219349792211518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6936554535982284,0.0784018738100253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265581444307944,0.07429312351019354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407821409416103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470159261365055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301139665538794,0.0,0.16494171605356292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050084204657751014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05563501292301731,0.05786902901117776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05084338346090436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647244259378577,0.0,0.0,0.14371914759698848,0.0,0.0,0.0717951495721494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010389623039774,0.0,0.04806719211272978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933634890083933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830599023900269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057763024870636524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060307592886611264,0.0655809635610878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05956674381267368,0.0,0.0,0.14224244961153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238179276521266,0.044255607331410284,0.059556626164353435,0.0,0.1827366562491467,0.06746245843283613,0.0,0.06770438782132109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660065354011547,0.0,0.0,0.09663583679297323
EDAnonymous,vmprbbbt,2019/06/14,"Guess who purged so hard their fake nail popped off! Spoiler: it was me, drunk, in the taco bell bathroom. We’ve reached a new low it seems!",0.23714285714285666,2.6518669999999998,-0.21714285714285708,109.08714285714287,93.28571428571428,2.8000000000000003,17.714285714285715,3.1291,-1.3513857142857142,108,3,26,0,4,30,27,28,0.315,0.642,0.043,-0.8366,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.566791706219353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609006601323816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4969177837158649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.468391352906309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depressedemobitchxx,2019/06/14,"This wonderful message I got on a dating app - “You make me feel anorexic, you’re like a snack, that I’m not pretty enough to eat.”

I literally have never unmatched someone so fast. I am actually offended as hell, like that’s not even remotely fucking funny no matter who you’re saying it to.

I’m freaking pissed.",2.724972677595627,5.097548737704923,4.817622950819676,78.63058743169401,78.01639344262296,7.3453551912568305,28.19945355191257,8.344100000000001,2.3910961748633865,247,11,44,5,6,85,48,61,0.259,0.54,0.201,-0.7374,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,7,4,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,1,7,9,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,2,5,2,4,8,1,4,1,0,0,1,4,1,3,1,5,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2968096093756521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31122461442814364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142715193714172,0.0,0.2008902935325346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378897639117922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811846952063349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432590668379011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971877410491677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20302459597612227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345816673102868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094331085843041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24187480051266946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577079853116862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32984112753309025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mikanmandarin,2019/06/14,Just binged when I didn’t want to... feeling sick My boyfriend was being super kind and made me this ginormous salad. It had a ton of oil and crotons. I didn’t want to eat it but felt obligated to. I ate all of it and now I feel so sick. I tried purging but it didn’t work. I feel so nauseous and worthless from bingeing when I really didn’t want to. And I ate it because I feel super guilty when food goes to waste. And I feel so depressed and despondent because of bingeing now. I feel like such a failure.,0.5380817610062927,2.7604581226415132,2.326698113207545,94.1144496855346,85.69811320754721,5.042767295597487,22.98427672955975,6.42735559955562,0.4836314465408811,395,15,87,4,12,130,56,106,0.266,0.5870000000000001,0.147,-0.9676,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,10,6,0,0,2,0,7,7,0,1,1,22,20,15,0,3,3,0,7,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,7,5,0,7,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,10,8,13,4,9,9,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,58,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591987246863105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311259919956072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175435061665831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644983556883121,0.1518819226872808,0.2041299317732148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25707750899406306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22139082589986164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386592219955884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011678435088551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619739868259495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434186292350198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761920551664704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477578064900044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Unnecessary_Timeline,2019/06/14,When you take 2 shots b/c you are about to talk to someone that stresses you tf out and 10 minutes later you realize now you’re fucked up because you’ve barely eaten for the last 4 days I fucked up but he stresses me out and I could not do this convo sober but now I’m uncomfortably drunk. I’m so fucking dumb.,-0.7865671641791003,1.3718907164179122,1.4647910447761203,96.49420149253731,97.05970149253731,3.8740298507462687,18.640298507462692,5.6839178017228535,-0.31281970149253713,246,8,55,2,10,82,50,67,0.314,0.6859999999999999,0.0,-0.9731,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,0,0,5,6,4,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,9,10,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,7,0,8,8,0,10,0,0,0,3,6,4,4,0,6,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802441585963225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938767235995129,0.0,0.0,0.1566026181233994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6734658998854955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793551944271068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057455985270409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5563124999930578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825748580366772,0.1951742617204036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosebleue,2019/10/28,Twix bar sitting on my desk Ughhh it's just sitting there and I can't stop thinking about it.,-1.2674999999999983,0.3311812500000002,0.5200000000000031,100.24000000000002,111.5,2.0,20.0,3.1291,-0.7094999999999998,75,3,16,0,4,24,18,20,0.0,0.894,0.106,0.2235,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7937017173733449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6083071459703584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halfsmokedcig,2019/10/28,as a Taurus i just gotta say i HATE! how every single astrology meme is like wow Tauruses just love food they love it all they do is eat! yum! what a huge and central part of their personality!! what a DEFINING characteristic and im just over here like :),0.13573529411764795,2.5010020588235307,2.860955882352944,85.90555147058822,97.0392156862745,5.6872549019607845,18.139705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.5414882352941177,199,6,42,4,8,69,39,51,0.068,0.568,0.364,0.9598,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,5,6,1,0,3,0,3,4,0,1,1,7,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,5,3,6,3,2,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,2,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936648324745294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418034415687135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470323014556046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833455397448677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100009974358754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28041994155586825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5180436204946173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107847591795847,0.0,0.0,0.25059065934451946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282278440697142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shelleybean1,2019/10/28,Thoughts on Stephanie buttermores all in videos What do you think? Her body looks....uncomfortable.,6.190000000000001,9.640945333333338,2.0933333333333337,88.96000000000002,95.66666666666666,7.333333333333335,31.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,3.165666666666666,80,4,13,2,3,20,15,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7364927529501907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248520196655467,0.0,0.526383117356508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,25712571,2019/10/28,Hi guys what was that super cool and effective thing you can do by mixing like 2 different pills to lose quicker Or did I dream that up I literally can’t remember lol but I think I saw a graph where it showed how effective it was/how to do it??? And I think it might have been like caffeine pills and diet pills maybe anyway help me please bc I’m strugglin,1.1439189189189207,3.4075708918918965,2.6877702702702737,92.26787162162165,83.32432432432431,6.402702702702705,20.06081081081081,7.645422480735847,0.6414648648648646,282,8,62,5,8,92,54,74,0.023,0.6579999999999999,0.319,0.9678,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,4,3,5,0,0,1,2,9,4,0,3,0,12,13,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,7,4,4,8,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,2,2,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089774283033083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928215839995484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198223202760882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889598380851333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308489248901321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29710295814440485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313725356143516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246253828587623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350071745072857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647147456620756,0.3789867783865819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spideywidey2013,2019/10/28,I went to the doctor So I got into nursing school (!) and we have to get our blood titers tested. This morning after I peed I weighed myself (naked ofc) and was 121. I had a Sweet Onion Chicken Teriyaki salad and a Coke Zero from subway about five hours later then went straight to the doctor where I weighed in at 129!!!!! WTF TELL ME HOW THIS IS POSSIBLE AND WHY I SHOULDNT throw myself out a window. All I see is fat and how much bigger I am. Hellllp,1.1318681318681314,3.4334305934065945,2.6117472527472536,92.54575274725276,83.72527472527472,4.519120879120879,20.089010989010987,5.6839178017228535,-0.05424923076923127,348,10,71,2,10,113,67,91,0.052000000000000005,0.879,0.069,-0.4217,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,7,8,2,2,1,12,12,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,8,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,5,2,14,1,10,6,2,14,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,4,52,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5364976596727433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692539326003694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960841460487292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25809489629676424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19265812546351746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29545454912749425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652378093088749,0.2088429288264778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229068484963324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858994783906786,0.236485417436006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Apricotlu,2019/10/28,"did I really just purge in a bathroom with no door while my family was home? Yes
Yes I did

What the fuck
Why am I like this
I hate myself ew",-2.3337499999999984,-0.5793193749999991,0.9185000000000016,99.8765,102.125,5.0600000000000005,9.525,6.742157984588678,-1.0514825,108,1,28,2,5,38,27,32,0.258,0.539,0.203,-0.4897,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,6,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4138998427170082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40589717757995214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4334736772414843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404056901551112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21449898831567207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812684238485195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961768019540429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebombchu,2019/10/28,"Really hate eating while I’m having an anxiety attack It feels like I’m binging but I’m just trying to eat my lunch at work. I feel like I’m going to be sick. My stomach hurts and my feet feel heavy, like I can’t walk properly.

Fuck anxiety.",0.11294871794871494,2.2693500384615426,2.9938461538461536,89.03448717948721,87.07692307692307,6.5435897435897425,18.28205128205128,7.793537801064563,0.7313743589743589,190,5,41,4,6,67,37,52,0.33,0.542,0.128,-0.9193,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,0,1,0,3,7,2,0,0,6,13,3,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,3,5,3,3,12,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,17,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508791980363041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609001114784403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693311128035367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478739216652815,0.32767198178270424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120152452385506,0.0,0.0,0.1303355867625497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264194802554569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24550639380075134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33612248216885154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691699561857172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570248072159862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16695761378279628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Literally_a_Gorilla,2019/10/28,"Thank you Postmates, your incompetence saved me from a binge Waited an hour and a half for $50 of chips, candy, cookies, and ice cream to get here from 7-eleven. Watched my postmate make his way over on the map, saw him drive past my building, and then cancel the order before my very eyes, never to be seen again.

Fuck you Troy H., but you were an inadvertent MVP today.",6.540833333333335,6.23819141666667,6.016111111111113,83.99000000000002,65.3888888888889,8.311111111111114,29.11111111111111,7.1686216300943375,1.4336277777777775,290,8,59,2,4,89,61,72,0.08,0.87,0.05,-0.3071,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,0,2,3,1,0,6,0,2,2,1,1,1,8,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,5,10,2,8,5,0,12,0,0,5,1,6,3,1,0,6,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30409267961462083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33037968958107233,0.18670931366261168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.351934143113074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385449995658325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275623174904709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411468838441066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290151778637418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387417780984388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948648950288144,0.0,0.2836609957091428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosemarysbabymomma,2019/10/28,"Decided to weigh myself at 4pm after a month of eating Halloween candy and was somehow down?! Bless Hello, this is my first post! A little backstory was that I saw my weight about six weeks ago at the hospital (for an unrelated issue) and it triggered a lapse. I had to see my primary doctor the following week and was down 11 lbs and he suggested I return to treatment. That scared the heck out of me so I decided to try and gain with the help of vegan Halloween candy, and to stop weighing myself so I didn’t slip back into restricting. Well, about a week and a half ago I got a migraine and was only eating two slices of toast a day for three days and it triggered that part in me that makes it so incredibly difficult to start eating again. Since then I have maintained my 600 a day limit (which has included two nights of alcohol being my only intake at Halloween parties) and purged the family dinner I have every night. Then today I woke up super late and cleaned my house a bit then drank 8 oz of water and had a large banana. I decided to step on the scale and it was down 3 lbs from the last day I logged my weight over a month ago! So now ofc I want to weigh myself in the morning to see what it is on an empty stomach. The crazy part is how off my perception of my body and weight are when I’m eating VS when I am actively restricting. I could have sworn I’d gained a lot since last month.",5.0971493212669685,5.055323062937067,6.113134512546277,81.19897778691899,68.37062937062937,9.386754422048536,27.66269025092555,9.168548406835145,2.0452367749897165,1100,31,226,19,17,367,156,286,0.063,0.857,0.08,0.6877,3,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,5,14,5,0,1,23,0,19,18,2,4,0,34,30,24,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,12,17,14,4,4,0,0,2,1,2,1,6,12,6,28,3,38,16,4,51,1,0,3,0,4,16,1,2,32,158,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26810490695078304,0.10774285095565624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752214949179377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100661939727507,0.11198510324533974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049427431666027,0.0,0.0,0.2600748324584081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319060399927284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126443698837817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494277978493205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504141716880413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857549988240386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063266825656101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757559674931614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163294314405372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522689005328484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435883280082644,0.1137261133263118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104524933836162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571111822003817,0.0,0.0,0.06729621677852461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414138126723625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892200929343729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533519399103289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183502533151729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655494160288032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093553428909584,0.0,0.16067639869838016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667939426247672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07135888314121036,0.0,0.0,0.0842876345284695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556285049925886,0.0,0.0,0.06844821309939543,0.0,0.19696737237906892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059464555042683276,0.0,0.24260826019403955,0.3683043102019837,0.0906467070433102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HollywoodSquare,2019/10/28,"Bf is out of town so of course I went wild We live together and he works from home so normally I'm really cognizant of at least making it look like I eat healthy so he doesn't get wise to my tricks

But he's gone for the week so let's do it uuuuup

B/p'd on all my favorite foods today, probably gonna restrict for the rest of the week because I forgot how gross b/p makes me feel in my tumtum

I love him to death but I'm excited to have a little privacy",0.1088235294117652,1.8203151764705905,2.9644705882352973,91.97611764705884,83.50980392156862,6.825098039215686,20.003921568627447,7.908726449838941,0.6728909803921566,356,10,86,7,10,126,76,102,0.094,0.7929999999999999,0.113,0.4539,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,4,0,5,3,0,3,1,13,17,8,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,2,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,2,10,4,14,12,3,11,0,0,1,1,7,6,0,0,4,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296653597916836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399814392531372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858477184857433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28359306924457106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225315807414099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352514368287902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398215145352424,0.0,0.11457889016332025,0.235059398704426,0.2070931638897943,0.0,0.19694506423609395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116713339398361,0.0,0.313099494624874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978835860935126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528616360208286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024510882597514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223058117419948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762495986392211,0.0,0.0,0.21741048081405495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707397074552648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Eve_lewer,2019/10/28,"I got discharged!!! Hello everyone!! I got discharged from the EDICT unit of CYPS in the UK today. I got my first referral from my GP to CAHMs on 3rd December 28, then a CAHMs referral to to EDICT on the 4th December 2018, diagnosed with anorexia nervosa on 5th December 2018 and I am now fully recovered and discharged as of the 28th October 2019! :) 
Anorexia free. I love life. 
Yay!!!!!!",2.064166666666665,4.836835972222224,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,85.1111111111111,8.200000000000001,28.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,3.130933333333333,298,15,54,9,9,99,46,72,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.9129999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,7,4,13,2,0,8,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31122435972635604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929993896888307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608204646520692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7357232915587356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658278650674875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27674675974072155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906506607484913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackinkredhair,2019/10/28,"I have a GP appointment booked for this Thursday (a rant) ... and eugh, I don’t even know how I feel about it. A couple of days ago I confessed my weight to my mum (the appointment was already booked) and she told me not to do cardio until I get the heads up from a professional when I’m more of a healthy weight, in case I have a heart attack. I agreed, because I love her and she said it would make her worry less about me, but I feel so lost without running. I’m still allowed to do weight training which is good but still.

I’m shitting myself for this appointment. and I feel so conflicted, because part of me is like BRING ON THE RECOVERY BITCH and part of me is like a 13 year old on pro-ana tumblr telling me I don’t need help and this is just “my lifestyle” or whatever.

My weight is pretty low (BMI >!15.5!<) but I eat a pretty decent amount in ED terms (>!about 1400 a day!<) so I don’t really know what to expect the doctor to say. Will he diagnose me and make me eat 3 huge meals and 3 huge snacks a day right off the bat?? I’m so scared to gain weight but I also kinda don’t want to lose more, do I even have an eating disorder? Can someone please reassure me because I just feel really confused and conflicted right now :(",3.894117647058824,4.477911509803924,4.697647058823531,88.0994117647059,71.15686274509805,8.03921568627451,26.764705882352942,8.124751697461798,1.4267647058823534,965,30,212,13,17,312,136,255,0.141,0.688,0.171,0.7381,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,0,3,16,13,3,2,16,0,19,17,3,4,0,37,39,22,0,4,9,1,9,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,7,9,10,2,7,2,0,2,6,8,0,0,4,11,33,5,24,33,7,25,1,3,0,1,14,11,2,3,14,133,40,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566738084650853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066469483667778,0.07728464365566229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994432793987888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673636136073534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693263331408158,0.0,0.18697845720897896,0.0,0.0,0.09808968603270743,0.0,0.0,0.1107602066693394,0.09891727316512436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966669513059467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766237665950814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954605758685032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050491502746189035,0.0,0.0,0.08105879909844252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918266455502528,0.0,0.0,0.11452134077583052,0.06477715512737478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062239294083642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442888620764248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081177774994694,0.10549625632590287,0.0,0.08722325847952457,0.0,0.12901868968821334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165888444435599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140961545392847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930792936344536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608399264485732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19663949593768865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382279374813372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650636319213223,0.09192875745254253,0.07685366810042264,0.0967555904354686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920171557203726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08188452839234693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435699422253082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446944545651848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923456575430732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057002008001049466,0.0,0.0,0.5884201443443929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315952511282674,0.0,0.0,0.09814473249583326,0.0,0.06865176722699749,0.0,0.0,0.06223433677919017
EDAnonymous,hayleyley,2019/10/28,"Nobody’s ever found out about my purging and I fucking told a coworker Biggest mistake of my fucking life. He’s friends with my friends and I have no idea why I told him. I don’t want his help. Now there’s this pressure on him. I’m not thin enough to recover but he has me eat at work and I’m afraid if I refuse it he will tell my friends/roommate out of concern. He’s making the purging worse because of the shit he has me eat. I don’t know what the fuck to do. It was unfair and selfish of me to tell him.

I’ve been maintaining for six months and I purge 10% of the amount I used to. I have this under control and have been slowly improving. And I fucked it up for myself",0.4055707762557077,2.342979739726029,2.188191780821917,96.71046118721462,83.7945205479452,4.9892237442922385,22.74703196347032,6.079149491110277,0.2155640182648404,526,19,123,4,15,173,84,146,0.198,0.6970000000000001,0.105,-0.9484,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,11,5,2,5,0,12,8,1,3,1,23,25,9,0,3,3,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,6,10,2,2,3,0,0,0,4,9,0,1,6,1,22,2,19,18,2,11,0,0,0,4,17,8,5,1,3,80,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660998485448154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777525635953097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243360840047281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375567545393374,0.0,0.0,0.14335727185200886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376882333357446,0.2448877005573259,0.5860612477124095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062280550689624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890842201586862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709830958649722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194148360021668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578887299214697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649990539288092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268089087889825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770428829718015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028752829782595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687873773140433,0.0,0.0,0.09347759149147923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430065812801592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537777311548802,0.0,0.16150808276321466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BeachedWhale0,2019/10/28,Fucking N. tropy’s cheekbones triggered me Do you see his majestic blue face? I threw away my Cake in Jar & Coffee because of his lucious charm,1.9192857142857136,4.75181378571429,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,89.7142857142857,4.228571428571429,28.42857142857143,5.985473137389443,1.3132571428571431,118,6,21,1,4,36,27,28,0.0,0.903,0.09699999999999999,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,6,1,3,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,2,1,0,0,10,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5473918660712029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746588606577076,0.0,0.0,0.3079696626836726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670559803984654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40258478485748384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Shoppingaddict22,2019/10/28,"The diet that has become an obsession. I have always struggled with my weight and personal perception. At 155 pounds last summer I went to the gym and got down to 133 pounds in a very short period of time, but wasn't counting calories strictly. 

Around the end of August 2019, still not happy with my weight of 133 pounds, I began to count calories aiming for around 1200 calories a day or less. Now at 112 pounds I am still not happy with my body, even though my initial weight loss goal was 115. 

I am scared to even go close to 2,000 calories a day, and all I think about is food and working out. My diet has become an obsession. I don't know or think I have an ED, but I think I am walking that fine line.",5.721695804195804,5.282128608391614,5.73929195804196,85.75201486013988,67.1118881118881,8.548601398601399,27.66520979020979,7.645422480735847,1.384609090909091,553,14,117,5,8,174,83,143,0.14800000000000002,0.836,0.015,-0.9589,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,9,8,0,4,9,0,11,7,1,0,1,23,19,9,0,0,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,11,6,0,5,1,0,3,4,5,0,0,5,3,15,3,20,14,2,24,0,1,0,0,1,9,0,2,12,75,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020382359823432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572033308373212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31909350530188924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046453781160205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863318717286845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795031182354608,0.0,0.0,0.19083136592879246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468383052981198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210099287940696,0.0,0.11553933040503528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075646301849231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939244934075892,0.11775568078398199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613850666259044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463150355795998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307348242991873,0.0,0.0,0.15102288134890146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277695942156412,0.1419330244706593,0.0,0.08423686072050038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191961473882928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5277468091546512,0.0,0.1339175731166228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516994015852914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prettyunstable,2019/10/28,"fire season i can't go home because of the fires, and i'm dying without my own space.
i'd appreciate distractions/support via chat or peach (same name) if anyone's bored or can relate.
thanks lovelies!",1.9138461538461515,4.67918602564103,2.8827692307692345,88.2872307692308,86.17948717948721,5.171282051282052,23.18461538461539,6.742157984588678,0.9014676923076924,161,6,30,2,5,51,36,39,0.10800000000000001,0.6729999999999999,0.21899999999999997,0.68,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,6,4,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,6,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26156844570794563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280383217361988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882404509052701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260073273708505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752370614077375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376256927588705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245064390685373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444065705481416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606039232149192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,knivmord,2019/10/28,"Fuck my body I have literally been stuck on the exact same fucking weight for almost two weeks. I’ve been exercising, fasting, when i’ve eaten it has never been over 700 kcals a day, usually around 500 and i’ve been drinking green tea like a maniac. I just wanna know why this pos body of mine won’t fucking budge!!! I’m 12 kgs from my UGW so it should be easy going but nothing is happening and i’m going crazy",0.4424598930481274,2.8520371176470576,2.5554010695187195,90.50475935828878,89.58823529411768,5.44385026737968,18.31550802139037,6.980632752743323,0.31252941176470594,325,9,68,5,11,109,66,85,0.11900000000000001,0.8370000000000001,0.045,-0.7249,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,3,0,10,10,2,0,2,12,21,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,1,2,0,2,2,4,0,1,6,2,5,1,7,12,1,11,0,0,1,3,0,3,3,1,7,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012695716681636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17791424954307966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.443990017237922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889061357270706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19578283541402275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5542910718653351,0.0,0.0,0.2271655889887393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767320381260161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098356541329712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763956712420054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541413005165663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191767262685118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19523031305846994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201131950882275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031246196146254,0.2433708179279413,0.0,0.0,0.18033899251084065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Duskyroses,2019/10/28,"Man, if I’m going to be nutrient deficient anyway I may as just eat whatever I want. I mean not actually but I wish I could just let myself eat some junk food. I try to eat nutritious food and restrict but I know I still have some vitamin deficiencies.",1.198235294117648,3.6612875490196077,4.15245098039216,80.43102941176474,85.27450980392156,8.890196078431373,24.18627450980393,9.2995712137729,2.6718862745098035,199,8,40,7,6,71,36,51,0.13,0.7879999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.5166,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,16,11,5,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,3,7,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2057831269545406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836615702653351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6473318819794754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5099806490639506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984485773652966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589112948455513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21563349902727544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297041883933321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684046758948222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14316996696612486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437926420012667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424953080527204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jazzy1312,2019/10/28,"TW Purging? Hi,
So I have difficulty purging and I think it could be because I don't have a gag reflex? Is anyone else like this and is there a way to purge even if you don't have one?",-1.0173170731707302,0.9553531219512196,1.7104390243902436,97.40468292682928,90.95121951219512,4.255609756097561,17.956097560975607,5.6839178017228535,-0.5581063414634144,142,4,35,1,5,49,31,41,0.069,0.8,0.131,0.3394,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,10,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003310982999543,0.44009506432431655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618320395495262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429376003035716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588097143069268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28369459626595794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098422843871285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910545730578755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752197393802817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409338093001306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spronkz,2019/10/28,"Just got over a nasty bout of the stomach flu but at least I lost 5 pounds! I’m 118 now, whoop sub-120!! Though i’m sure a lot of it is because i was super dehydrated but I also had no appetite for 2 days",0.3954347826086959,1.6945761521739158,3.003695652173913,94.01032608695654,80.95652173913044,5.469565217391305,22.369565217391305,5.985473137389443,0.1058434782608697,157,5,39,1,4,55,38,46,0.214,0.62,0.166,0.3239,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,1,5,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,2,5,3,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,24,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33106848486655643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523650952670637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669899719736781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331106453238607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519201239579195,0.351960377481897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39018165552194295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067440945447988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Maitebanana,2019/10/28,"I hate ASMR eating videos I don't like asmr in general. But those korean girls eating huge amounts of food all at once while recording ASMR is the worst thing ever.

Besides, there's no way they are healthy. They all have bloody ED",2.328666666666667,4.95377786666667,2.0800000000000023,96.18000000000002,81.44444444444446,5.377777777777778,20.11111111111111,6.742157984588678,0.1695777777777776,184,5,38,2,5,54,39,45,0.278,0.63,0.09300000000000001,-0.8753,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,3,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,5,4,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6508294112310359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876680500149664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845520529838929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139797320182812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536891489728907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386818075146688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127890999598747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524301341718034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,almondmilkluvr,2019/10/28,"just had to leave class in the middle of an important lesson because the single laxative i took 17 hours decided to only now fully kick in

why do these things never work in a timely fashion",16.546486486486486,7.713518243243242,15.423783783783787,50.38270270270272,55.75675675675675,18.043243243243246,50.51351351351353,13.023866798666859,6.4235621621621615,153,5,25,3,1,52,33,37,0.033,0.917,0.05,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,6,1,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,19,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23047129584582265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723281780284575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003273303421813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915951081839689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875434298010392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25117654103369924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204588455278692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4200557556430608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34115430358221777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752434432298571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ratruler,2019/10/28,sometimes i think i recovered and then sometimes i have a panic attack over 5 grams of skittles,3.4800000000000004,6.391074777777781,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,79.0,5.822222222222222,31.222222222222207,7.1686216300943375,2.407022222222222,78,4,12,1,2,25,15,18,0.368,0.632,0.0,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301707688843848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436471778723717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7479488372127279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24228666507966484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lostmyshitinamuseum,2019/10/28,"triggered by looking up meal plans yay So I'm kinda struggling with eating enough throughout the day because I'm fucking terrified of gaining weight and because I have no idea how much a human is supposed to eat. So i looked up ""meal plans"". They're all for losing weight. They are only like <1200 kcals a day. That isn't very helpful.

And of course I can't look up meal plans for ""ED recovery"" because I'm ""definitely not relapsing"" and I ""definitely don't have an eating disorder"".",3.2856989247311823,5.740453698924732,4.1733333333333364,83.54666666666667,76.52688172043011,6.713978494623658,29.68817204301075,7.793537801064563,2.150152688172044,386,18,70,6,9,124,62,93,0.146,0.7090000000000001,0.145,-0.0126,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,5,3,5,1,1,4,1,7,9,0,2,1,10,14,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,8,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,5,5,2,10,14,3,5,0,1,3,1,3,3,1,1,3,38,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30457649628100003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148180598426263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19087727853495107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5112574452446866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208756062158398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397000777851166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163293617591616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18801127859552386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136644629154012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4195725748968722,0.18632347980313835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243120017678485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266664901530146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411107430109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741870827097474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056187295601792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chrundle420,2019/10/28,"honestly one of the worst things about having an ED is having it ruin your social life with friends because of being afraid of going out to eat with them whenever my friends wanna hang out, we'll usually go grab a drink and that usually ends up with getting some fast food or something later when we're drunk. I love spending time with my friends but if I've eaten at all that day or look extra bloated or something, my ED thoughts will make me cancel plans so I can stay home alone to purge and over exercise so I don't have to worry about calories. then I'll see my friends hanging out without me having a good time because they don't have to deal with shit and it makes me feel even worse and I fucking hate it",11.61765517241379,6.333392696551727,10.28689655172414,72.96275862068967,59.96551724137931,12.979310344827587,43.48275862068965,8.841846274778883,3.9034551724137927,571,21,116,5,5,179,98,145,0.17800000000000002,0.7120000000000001,0.11,-0.9229999999999999,0,1,3,0,0,0,4.0,1,1,2,1,6,13,3,1,4,0,12,10,1,2,1,25,25,13,0,2,6,0,2,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,6,12,5,0,2,3,1,4,3,6,0,1,2,4,15,7,22,20,4,21,0,1,2,2,11,6,2,5,10,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540618535424178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293774851935907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676961130148397,0.15469460105038516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699153303223336,0.0,0.15353825244042135,0.0,0.0,0.13289945328405287,0.0,0.0,0.09910637903079504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586961180139751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814406330403639,0.0,0.4637119511768773,0.1387184840578893,0.07839474933706785,0.0,0.17055334859673507,0.12585452781687648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14814296503476707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150512033793957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598450567291676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600391548481427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354256679433196,0.0,0.2003186137823524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167752652249352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957014448794147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540238100095751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529567225291367,0.0,0.23103110349922926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993296273610946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09968632043515756,0.0,0.0,0.11912266182145174,0.17499031579631116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305169824333256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464250858787436,0.0,0.0,0.1523827037084007,0.15291341300220804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elenarth,2019/10/28,"What do you use for appetite suppressants? I usually eat ice to satisfy my need to eat constantly, but I moved and don’t have the same ice maker (I’m probably going to buy a snow cone machine and just make unflavored snow cones). Also, it doesn’t work well enough and I find myself binging. What do you guys use to chill out your appetite/satisfy the oral fixation?",4.908028169014088,6.131877549295776,5.7367323943661965,79.22481690140846,69.28169014084507,10.187042253521126,31.10140845070423,10.355215969177356,3.3385357746478874,290,12,55,8,5,95,51,71,0.0,0.924,0.076,0.6136,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,4,0,14,11,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,6,11,2,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,34,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883628416959143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545372098406707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4820365111101638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24337783664290585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21528110867623695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386393913078345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23322359872965556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15722610516154398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503438556421677,0.0,0.17465139862502446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539540999512839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068653007492525,0.25941622127137703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117805335334575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17147737163725246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ella0124,2019/10/28,i need to be doing homework instead the two tabs i have open are a recipe video for beer cheese sauce and the wikipedia page for obesity,11.25888888888889,7.058319333333337,8.925185185185189,79.16333333333334,59.37037037037037,12.281481481481485,41.81481481481481,8.841846274778883,3.491992592592592,110,4,23,1,1,32,24,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,15,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6046064916488659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7965243186846526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JammedHIFI,2019/10/28,I gained 1lbs And I feel great because only 14 lbs more to my goal weight,-0.3562499999999993,1.8152458750000025,0.8049999999999997,103.54,90.25,3.2,14.25,3.1291,-1.588025,58,1,14,0,2,18,15,16,0.0,0.642,0.358,0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30851719098695546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25590212740331075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.55798305648945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849160084053017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6163001048190722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arsonick1221,2019/10/28,I messed up and I just want to fix it. So my girlfriend went to college out of state. She would only eat a cliff bar a day and call it good. I didn't know she had ED. I genuinely didn't. She always told me that it was just her way of loosing weight. And since I didn't know id get mad at her for not eating. And so she left me. And I'm just finding this out and I feel so bad. I was such a shit boyfriend. If do anything to get her back. I've been going to therapy to fix myself and everything that cause conflict between us. If she had told me before I wouldn't have been so harsh on her. I would have overlooked this. Cause she's everything to me. She's perfect. I miss her. If I knew I would have left her eating habits alone. And be more supportive. And kloe if your reading this I'm sorry. I really truly am. I didn't know how it was affecting you. I really didn't. I'm sorry.,-1.3099155632316268,0.7156852124352326,1.1988140472078292,99.19931874880064,95.83937823834196,4.51729034734216,15.956438303588564,6.238725200709706,-0.5309177125311848,678,17,165,8,27,229,97,193,0.145,0.782,0.073,-0.8872,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,2,0,1,10,8,2,0,3,0,22,6,1,4,1,36,39,18,0,9,8,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,9,11,5,1,6,2,0,2,7,5,0,0,16,2,37,3,15,18,1,13,0,1,0,0,20,7,1,4,2,111,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348755870655595,0.0,0.0,0.10835904679074687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716547821174208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013629402167587,0.10873385507493533,0.0,0.0,0.11081333020098223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297602109871526,0.0,0.0,0.267557387354722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398544822809012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997632762373831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340787221060596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584653248404494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902484470622775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607615186734656,0.0,0.07401083478610006,0.1092279775445674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147075660846199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28298338156109115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904327372450246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026194137158625,0.0,0.1668531175573093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367583632377356,0.10772487211204232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29155625806245666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777971610469778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892558102191353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488743855236049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566466859223128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681108182188097,0.10336789304659516,0.0,0.15858103753835506,0.0,0.12072145574960355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277527934257643,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,survivor-alt,2019/10/28,"I really thought I would be ok I’m at college now, away from an abusive household and I feel like my mental health has improved so much. For the first time in my life I feel secure in my friendships, and I don’t get nightmares or have intrusive thoughts anymore. It feels like I’m not depressed anymore and my anxiety has been incredibly manageable.

But I still hate my body, and I hate that it’s the only real issue I have in my life now. Even though I don’t body check like I did when I was younger, it feels more serious now. It feels like I might have to get help soon to stop myself before I spiral deeper into an ED. But I keep telling myself that it’s not that serious.

I hate that even though I’m the happiest I’ve been in a long time, I still can’t make peace with my body. It’s been over a decade now, this shit is getting old.",2.0188825757575763,3.626769335227277,3.3337272727272733,92.0597575757576,77.23863636363636,6.511515151515153,23.665151515151514,7.3011,0.7827224242424244,657,21,147,8,15,214,96,176,0.142,0.679,0.179,0.6971,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,13,13,4,0,7,1,17,7,4,1,0,24,35,11,0,1,5,0,5,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,11,6,0,3,7,0,1,0,5,7,0,1,7,5,25,6,13,25,2,22,0,1,0,0,2,8,1,2,18,98,36,2,0.0,0.1377882946670826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896389515693016,0.0,0.23066299179116154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092611857167324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895685377107792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875262180919643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016306757772997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536209776528824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29400640132997324,0.24923941911908865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891884251769438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822750183255748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444460489364595,0.0,0.12361411602515393,0.0,0.0,0.07794880653664056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137977154154918,0.0,0.10336664128952552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428249661378352,0.2272597173493153,0.0,0.0,0.10291572467462973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762654026980716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719608178629427,0.12336859031164595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548880163458257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203003482369425,0.0,0.0,0.0884461349296906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236699564483573,0.0745003309864465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193731851919468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18574362298823324,0.09722623007923674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164528604568117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285147399568387,0.1846474459927437,0.13562287137976725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261127416684348,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GentleWashAirDry,2019/10/28,"My Best friend basically told me I should fast and go back to being anorexic My best friend recently said they'd like to see me lose the weight, correct my diet and get back to gym. I've gained 22lb (10kg) from the weight I used to be. I was happy-ish at that weight but had body image issues and still saw myself as fat.   
I struggle with bulimia and binge eating and talk about these issues sometimes when I feel I need to explain myself/ am just feeling overwhelmed.  I used to have very bad issues with ana which caused isolation but the binge eating situation has caused more isolation and so I explain whats going on to my bestfriend sometimes so that they understand it's not I don't want to see them, more so I don't want anyone to see me.    
I told them I got kinda triggered by the statement about me losing weight, correcting my diet and going to gym. It made me feel like they were calling me fat. They said they just want me to be doing what I want to do. They didn't say I'm not fat. I told them that because I had issues with ana, if I just followed the diet I wanted to I'd be fasting a majority of the time but said I assume they meant just eating normally. They didn't take anything back and we just went back inside because they said they could see I was starting to get upset. I thought they meant they wanted to see me get healthy and that I was misinterpreting their comments but I  realised they don't care if my eating is disorder and that I should diet in whatever way I need to so I can lose weight.   
I was at their house, they didn't try get me to eat in fact it honestly felt like they wanted me to not eat. When the topic of dinner came up i said I was probably going to skip it. I ended up eating but it felt really awkward to have to try bring up the topic of food at someone else house and the fact that they didn't even offer me anything ESPECIALLY  after that conversation genuinely made me believe that they don't think I should eat and that I should have disordered eating.  


This whole situation really isolated me from wanting to share anything with them about my eating ever again and kinda even puts me off our friendship. They're having a dinner event followed by drinking this week and I think I'm just not going to go. I want to go to celebrate their birthday but it's literally the two things I don't want to do and just after this situation I kinda don't ever want to eat around them ever again. It really sucks because I feel like I bring this on myself and it kinda makes me feel like I'm doomed to never have friends and that I'm just a big sook.   


Like I know he doesn't have an eating disorder but I guess I just figured it was common sense to not tell a disordered person they need to lose weight and start exercising. I dont think he did it to harm, I'm sure he was just dumb, but I guess I feel like the fucking dumb one for ever sharing or being in situations that will expose me and my issues.",4.141197633903246,4.9416783089701015,5.209763390324934,83.8630585041731,70.72757475083057,7.932971396159142,25.81249493558059,8.096554002634818,1.4234737379466824,2330,67,478,31,41,769,223,602,0.121,0.767,0.11199999999999999,-0.9552,2,2,1,0,0,0,32.0,2,0,26,7,33,32,4,4,16,0,48,32,4,8,10,117,130,37,0,22,26,0,14,7,3,5,4,6,0,1,30,26,29,0,21,4,0,14,18,15,0,2,34,26,98,17,62,84,6,55,1,6,6,1,54,14,4,10,33,325,128,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02969671963151858,0.0,0.10485007424352057,0.03780820574608317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063034897486622,0.03546152165054834,0.07766980555525256,0.0,0.0,0.047850287578671394,0.08914141530521635,0.0,0.0,0.047175720786978736,0.0,0.0,0.04336765258572037,0.0485755242060706,0.04330202806728398,0.08725885859472977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033909647801938926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947018406180315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049775710663034566,0.041605423634673865,0.0,0.5215013876079856,0.035479081410996545,0.0,0.03761671125293357,0.0,0.0,0.056103406766573216,0.15366985026027916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288477210168233,0.1213652000462129,0.08155766521367161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051356117229775164,0.0,0.09843899734489037,0.03926376694038992,0.08875740499114433,0.0,0.16896078712868196,0.0,0.03396794871588338,0.0,0.0935732175888273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801169294676074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216435151004095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023340957907418684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524434083215368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19005679851719476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037419838497357,0.02834973081918186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447515347007626,0.032756263305868866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04161257506826524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028779457413825812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03708405017055783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04579093507817453,0.0,0.0,0.042695098409885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162405494556861,0.0,0.04193500137274933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20199829455867796,0.03377465401918076,0.0,0.0,0.16921949219990334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19095679129271986,0.0,0.0,0.03598555129940625,0.0,0.08400983522810515,0.0,0.06012240287648218,0.0,0.033917405663022565,0.0,0.0,0.044399923996451165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040028426915306205,0.0,0.03193291602297468,0.034136591294030724,0.03712153714977051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028215853707553924,0.08164113024292577,0.0,0.03371724008405757,0.024765189091110296,0.0,0.0,0.1217486182812618,0.0,0.05767005960552307,0.0,0.04148800820026262,0.044213822118006126,0.0,0.07336263748348587,0.0,0.03504303346248193,0.27555554091838785,0.03371151307674335,0.034067684634965026,0.3103095108045569,0.0,0.039371054339975314,0.0,0.047417369034392975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SemicolonButterfly,2019/10/28,"In which we eat a large meal...then lose our minds The backstory is that after quite a few years in recovery (meaning still some thoughts/behaviors but healthy and ED not limiting my life) over the past year the disordered thoughts/behaviors have been surging back every few months. So far the resurgences haven’t lasted more than 2 months...and then I manage to get back to something more sustainable for a couple months...aaaaand, repeat.


I’ve been in restrict mode for the past two-ish weeks. Clicked into that “I shouldn’t need food” mindset. But since I know living the ED life leads me to bad places (worsening depression, and more likely to engage in my other destructive behaviors) I’ve been reaching out for support and trying to talk myself into eating at least a little more. Which I did last night. Big time. Cue the “Wow, I’m CuREd” thoughts (which are really about invalidation and self-judgment).


(Somewhere around 3am it did occur to me that maybe non-disordered people don’t spend the next 6 hours obsessing over the brownies they ate. Maybe they don’t repeat “You’re a MOnsTeR” over and over. Have not yet found a normal person to fact-check this with, lol.)


Today I’m just a mess. I‘m over a year clean from self-harm. But today the self-harm voice is alternating screaming at me and wheedling with me. *You have to do this!* and then *Hey, just a little. Just a little will be fine.* I’m really tempted to give in. Really tempted. I don’t know the point really of posting this. I’m just feeling really overwhelmed and alone and that fun fun self-judgement mental playlist is on shuffle. I hate being in this place but I’m struggling to actually use any of the tools that I worked so hard to acquire.",2.7644427350427345,5.4905670092307695,3.1800641025641028,88.3425747863248,80.44615384615385,6.195726495726497,23.181623931623932,7.492282038375204,1.1548136752136746,1358,46,255,21,36,420,181,325,0.132,0.767,0.10099999999999999,-0.9118,0,1,1,0,0,0,57.0,2,1,2,6,12,17,2,3,22,1,21,6,0,2,0,41,40,17,0,3,10,0,2,1,0,2,2,2,1,1,14,16,4,2,6,0,1,1,7,10,0,0,8,5,19,7,40,28,8,52,0,3,1,0,9,26,0,1,25,151,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.09289555920480463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859221885237264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473514748054976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474279404665566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463965366905393,0.07948296848561134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10533029040512128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819904060247545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21820101819706075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19481434348718069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020500501406737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048132919252327364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510889711791207,0.10437524810152386,0.0,0.0,0.049734907693016896,0.0913187069735339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527507743642282,0.09398431340975248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374686124859752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463220614508817,0.15519154238033267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447659826983238,0.046506953483831166,0.2862280261024118,0.08405799817151062,0.0,0.0,0.10649767567704464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19127022697541254,0.10369411403296563,0.0,0.0,0.0959331075070332,0.0,0.09611874851009987,0.0,0.07598289933088452,0.0,0.0,0.07058510460938115,0.0,0.0,0.1012398413054631,0.08933306951449572,0.0932698552913033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174678536290506,0.06599549597913393,0.08311968166712047,0.19891482471584404,0.0,0.08998904817938475,0.0,0.09116948603518314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012504790080944,0.0,0.0,0.30491839628499234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972321859721237,0.0,0.0,0.07874541566927025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07328495022891136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602200807945399,0.0,0.0,0.09951738096717848,0.0,0.0,0.10802496158963004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651328774798033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557335969483138,0.055508355322888066,0.0,0.1804654597567397,0.0,0.0,0.06463044050054519,0.0,0.09299065282104918,0.0,0.0,0.08221700496361911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763588413069917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930232629366953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839053401089019
EDAnonymous,binging-disaster,2019/10/28,"My GF tried to die and now I’m doing everything I’m not supposed to do all at once 🙃 TW: Suicide, Eating Disorder Stuff, a few numbers 

So this is my first post here, because I initially felt like I was doing good with my irl group therapy except I don’t feel like I can vent about my self-destructive behaviors there as easily so here I am. 

Basically my girlfriend tried to kill herself a few days ago and I’m not handling it very well. From the whole process of finding her to now being alone in my apartment and not knowing when I’ll see her again, I feel like a huge part of me is floundering and idk what to do about it.  

I’m diagnosed with BED and recently got on medication. Cool, it helped me stop binging and eat a healthy amount of calories for a healthy amount of weight loss. But now, I’ve lost considerably more appetite than those pills would have normally made me and I’m swinging into restriction mode. I’ve spent the last four days on an average of 400 calories and have been downing caffeine which I’m not supposed to do on my medication. 

My friends are trying to support me through this rough time, so I might go to one of their houses for a Halloween party and they’ll have alcohol and I might drink. I don’t want to get shitfaced or anything, but I can’t help but worry my lack of food might make that the case. I’ve never drunk with friends, so it should be interesting to say the least. 

At the same time, I’m kinda loving how my eating behavior has changed I’m not gonna lie. I’ve lost a lot of weight really quickly and I feel like it’s validating my inner pain. Like my partner will get better if I keep it up, like my friends will continue to care for me, like it makes me not an attention whore and I am legitimately suffering. And then I feel ugly and selfish for feeling this way, because clearly my GF is suffering worse, but I’m also trying to distract myself from the whole situation because it’s all mildly traumatic to think about. 

I’m just really scared about this development and am afraid because I genuinely do not feel much hunger or desire for food at all anymore. I’m also scared that I will lose my medication that has helped me so much or that I am becoming an awful person for acting this way instead of properly being sad/concerned.",6.816705128205129,6.0674930175824215,7.286387362637368,76.58965430402931,64.978021978022,10.660256410256409,35.22206959706959,10.02789654360092,3.3126355311355318,1813,74,359,35,24,597,230,455,0.152,0.6779999999999999,0.17,0.4506,1,1,2,0,0,1,33.0,0,0,2,6,24,32,1,4,16,2,37,19,0,4,5,72,74,34,3,7,17,0,10,7,7,10,7,1,1,2,21,19,11,3,12,2,1,2,11,14,1,3,8,13,45,18,51,53,17,36,0,6,1,2,19,13,0,9,25,239,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885513057558787,0.08301207339520662,0.0,0.08044896070835397,0.0,0.12423501635781102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703376825389735,0.0,0.0,0.06392076975174009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894023935940714,0.08578709322604057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869815290539236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919590861071693,0.0,0.08217096017654191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018925102125326,0.0,0.0,0.07883955448575798,0.08061547521008944,0.0,0.08902348148662101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609295626435686,0.0,0.2384459693734767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981022410015034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23565206512941794,0.16647535439529107,0.07458118809965604,0.0,0.07099450140250277,0.0660712074466713,0.187852373122608,0.0,0.18003696790697515,0.0,0.08116505909701087,0.0,0.04414508859046012,0.06515098443623164,0.062124632084590285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619385455248047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962773135397135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904204119133565,0.08593703935681228,0.0,0.04268872502808075,0.06331634707358945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656401571975737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08689962986736663,0.1695851660872105,0.06603739898617858,0.0701056667367541,0.07349895552311539,0.10369873150540293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347513417583469,0.0,0.2472060382659485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420166680893935,0.0,0.059908557427594024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610603565824248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272245692282094,0.05263530095333772,0.0,0.0826527925146336,0.0,0.0,0.08411559139789745,0.0,0.0,0.06782372972599086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439218312783481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952253176781127,0.0,0.07669572730279864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177111171110546,0.1555345511330364,0.0,0.06189775415872825,0.0,0.08103305943751941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731113337414256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494065491793395,0.0,0.0,0.08892049206866487,0.08496499007775356,0.08814585969972268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882933136207295,0.0,0.0,0.049771675663380616,0.0,0.0,0.09058705744401467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094775343994976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06409087517159068,0.04581534611190262,0.12331126406395185,0.0,0.18917700283020014,0.06984009640890264,0.0,0.0,0.1734450690749813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888379806328774,0.0791585297995294,0.05517883644802049,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeetsgoats,2019/10/28,"my big dumb brain vs my pure stoic boyfriend Yesterday I had a full-on mental breakdown (lowest weight ever, freaking out, couldn’t remember how to eat anymore, wanting to break up/die/cut everyone out of my life because this effing disorder makes me feel like such a burden)


…my boyfriend (who knows about my ED) drove 30 minutes to see me at 10 pm (already past his bedtime), and held me while I SOBBED. He convinced me to let him take me to taco bell — used to be my go-to favorite place before I went insane, lol judge me~ He asked if it would be easier if he ordered something too. I said yes, so he did. When we got back he told me that I could take my time eating, and when he was done cronching on his food, he gently stroked my hair/face while I managed to choke down as much as I could. When I was done he told me I did a good job and that he was proud of me. Guyssssss, my heart. He didn’t sign up for this shit, lol. He is such a good boi and I don’t deserve him (even though he says I do, heh)


I don’t think I’m ready to recover/gain weight yet, but god… I am so damn grateful for good, gentle people. I just had to gush because my life has been big stress lately, and idk man, I’m just really happy today. I think I’m gonna be okay.


<3333 luv u all so much, seriously (from a loooong time lurker/never poster)",2.1017069980379333,3.346708431654676,3.302930019620668,93.88894702419886,76.19424460431655,6.205624591236103,23.068018312622627,6.574015621080383,0.3716489208633096,1016,29,236,8,22,329,169,278,0.09699999999999999,0.752,0.151,0.9219,2,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,1,0,0,1,18,17,3,1,5,5,25,11,3,3,3,32,47,20,0,7,6,0,4,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,6,8,5,1,5,0,0,2,4,8,0,0,18,7,38,9,23,20,3,27,0,1,1,0,24,9,4,2,15,127,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950690900862707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638709564434878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097134114894543,0.0,0.0,0.09024066612315496,0.0,0.14308007383104046,0.0,0.09986258059936944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100977181296236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874008133431417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179854674598,0.0,0.13450185145073792,0.0,0.0,0.24019491679520966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401720221536416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751351562825559,0.10615656897005753,0.0,0.11214011138548582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05933947337789376,0.08384021463838721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190914330958188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669696633652852,0.29530168504457943,0.09386150593682502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249292308552337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390691912570622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645920073013245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449660759685312,0.0,0.13238436097866668,0.0,0.0,0.1200059852152194,0.16578613237958942,0.057334941886104364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833703618222235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826874761386852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254251763756365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112031003927093,0.08136090720334517,0.0,0.12261359926889848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518221350311505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329431592230081,0.0,0.11163384802852262,0.09332738680370156,0.0,0.0,0.09351872557627113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204657774913855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034752972932313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443260881977975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647645502179246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039588240629306,0.1153031385267898,0.0,0.13686419290988333,0.0,0.11124117871104,0.22428022277097165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135919144386688,0.0,0.0,0.06922048850486004,0.0,0.0,0.2858196141923228,0.0,0.10879156941680956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336739407648966,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mermaiddreamsss,2019/10/28,"How do you guys deal with going out with friends? first time i'm making genuine friends. I'm in my late 20s, this is sad and exciting at the same time. They're huge foodies and all outings start with food. I love them but all this eating is giving me anxiety.",1.9990566037735853,4.039822490566042,2.7930566037735858,93.9175094339623,78.81132075471699,5.749433962264153,23.807547169811322,6.742157984588678,0.6258105660377358,204,7,44,2,5,64,42,53,0.07,0.6990000000000001,0.231,0.8151,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,2,12,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,4,6,10,3,10,0,1,0,1,8,4,0,0,5,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052933715557438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766656326005414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745975454306589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282654402106316,0.32449993198666954,0.0,0.4146659270771708,0.0,0.0,0.25743374269034835,0.15251421110128935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657169167545989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30271986097442266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422038509261606,0.0,0.1791312548319218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994539206502067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129637756587653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,porcupinebutts,2019/10/28,"I've been on a cycle and have binged the exact same lunch for weeks, and today I found out the employees of the cafe memorized my order I walked up and they said ""oh you want X and X and X"" and I was like OH GOD",0.4662500000000023,1.5780864583333347,2.8566666666666656,95.955,80.25,6.466666666666668,16.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.3831833333333337,162,2,42,2,4,56,35,48,0.0,0.851,0.149,0.6841,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,12,6,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,6,1,5,2,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5327638627961997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23738601474584015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622018165968759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605760330637673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865961901133696,0.0,0.3897593729672866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ebrahym19,2019/10/28,"Is it only junk you binge on? I see YouTube videos is posts on other social media of people with Eds mostly bulimic or with BED saying they binged on ice cream,chocolate chip cookies etc. don’t you binge on actual food ?",4.90527131782946,6.064593325581392,5.367441860465117,82.10992248062018,69.23255813953489,7.593798449612403,23.635658914728683,7.793537801064563,1.1945565891472858,175,4,32,2,3,56,36,43,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,7,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,2,0,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3462940756236356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.395764879913373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42910048084883984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26988850512845514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460165961758431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339859657037328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822004672839851,0.0,0.0,0.28277903154982315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617370711648367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,subarremos,2019/10/28,"Do you believe in the “mEtABOlism BoOsT” that occurs when you had more calories than usual after heavy restricting? I have been eating 500/600 kcal for some time, but today i had too much granola (darn) and reached like 950 and the day isn’t even over.  I personally think its bullshit, but what do you think?",8.232105263157893,7.8118592280701735,7.139298245614036,77.7184210526316,61.982456140350884,9.705263157894738,34.78947368421053,8.841846274778883,2.786536842105264,244,9,45,3,3,74,47,57,0.11900000000000001,0.773,0.10800000000000001,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,0,0,8,9,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,6,1,5,6,3,8,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,7,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37971359119139936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735428963847744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.344862373039306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22260290522165005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646541836106438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477533459105461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942786465605505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319061016090813,0.0,0.0,0.1965229335530915,0.0,0.31946183011639445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711872093111681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spicychicknnugget,2019/10/28,"I told my boyfriend So I've been yo yoing and really struggling with recovery and relapse for the last 3 months because I've been inching back to my high weight and completely lost because of it.


And I just gave up and told my boyfriend today because I couldn't deal with it and he's been so supportive and understanding and I just feel so like relieved? I'm gonna try to work on having a better relationship with food and myself and he's gonna come on that journey with me and I'm gonna go into counseling and for the first time in 3 months it's like there's a light at the end of the tunnel honestly.",3.612563429571303,4.557008716535439,4.686561679790028,86.59568678915136,72.07086614173228,8.164129483814524,27.496937882764648,8.515128840125781,1.7358738407699037,485,17,105,8,9,159,72,127,0.046,0.8059999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9089,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,4,7,8,0,1,6,0,5,2,0,0,0,23,19,15,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,18,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,7,3,9,6,16,8,0,19,0,1,0,0,7,8,0,0,10,60,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912146055753255,0.0,0.3308737020107117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001495892264933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585232744392347,0.1896981974888736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865274781353453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024734992895082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148197325783188,0.12925406709688034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538961543858203,0.2187772778267585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282481025606617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19115898688858085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747940443268254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678328848526492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975028602494321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28882792370024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590627374389255,0.0,0.0,0.19424756056171366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891438650667066,0.0,0.0,0.20531346946805046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549981085946997,0.0,0.17149735170727387,0.34576642113305645,0.0,0.122837349600957,0.0,0.0,0.18835107027300196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22031997263938308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171678882527915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fancyshitballs,2019/10/28,"Why do I do this to myself... I was doing so well with OMAD, then binged all yesterday, woke up a few lbs heavier. Bitch better be water weight eff.",1.1540000000000001,3.1919117333333347,2.8633333333333333,92.345,81.66666666666666,5.333333333333334,16.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.309333333333333,112,2,24,1,3,37,28,30,0.114,0.718,0.16899999999999998,0.2123,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,3,2,3,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485503328040584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6175959905007867,0.4560064159282782,0.0,0.4576417158552823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,howareudoying2day,2019/10/28,How am I maintaining weight????? tw calorie numbers Wtf I’m litterally eating about a thousand calories bcs I’m trying to *recover* and I’m not losing weight. Ok I’m not really recovering but I have to eat to not scare my parents. Shouldn’t I be losing weight??,-0.5361085972850717,0.2920355098039238,2.598823529411767,83.41778280542988,125.27450980392156,5.490799396681751,21.570135746606336,6.67199483983844,1.5944678733031674,205,9,37,5,13,72,35,51,0.077,0.746,0.177,0.7119,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,1,4,5,0,1,0,7,8,3,0,1,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,3,4,1,4,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041043520019861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4418173061473956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925737294528147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649874617916906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769317918650908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340632409840722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7213638933478185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ratpaq,2019/10/28,i’d like to quit uni to focus on my passions binging purging and restricting,5.852,6.922084866666669,6.780000000000001,73.17000000000002,67.0,8.666666666666668,41.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.201666666666668,63,4,10,1,1,21,14,15,0.135,0.57,0.295,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173998526800539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9087229297110696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,queenintrovert,2019/10/28,"special skills: having 3 different eating disorders at various points in a single year really i’ve been cycling through anorexia, bulimia, and BED for over a decade but this year in particular has been a wild ride",6.470175438596487,8.786886368421058,7.0500000000000025,67.07833333333336,66.89473684210526,11.382456140350875,36.35087719298246,11.20814326018867,5.132603508771932,174,9,26,6,3,57,33,38,0.0,0.945,0.055,0.2144,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,18,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125069729035899,0.4525024297687813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040034483347185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732362322615417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25293431962916063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5085073322714873
EDAnonymous,mustaird,2019/10/28,"instability —-> relapse When I finally got a job in September it eased like all tensions and instability in my life and I was able to focus on things other than restricting and was doing a lot better. I’m a teacher in Chicago and we’ve been on strike for over a week now, and we don’t get paid during the strike obviously. I’m losing out on nearly $2000 and am unsure when the strike will be over and when I will finally get to go back to school.
This financial and career instability is really making me relapse and I’ve been restricting hard again. I have lost 3 lbs in the past week and a half and I’m becoming more and more stressed out about my situation as well as everything that we’re striking for because I care so deeply and strongly about the education that the kids in Chicago deserve, but aren’t getting. It’s overwhelming and this is the only way I feel that I have any kind of control over my life and my feelings.
That’s it I just needed to put this out somewhere because I don’t have anyone that I can talk to about this :/",5.257517316806414,5.561287905213269,6.3987677725118495,78.09536638716736,68.0521327014218,9.525483047757927,30.92271235873132,9.466822959209583,2.6235239518775058,832,31,167,16,13,280,115,211,0.106,0.84,0.054000000000000006,-0.7337,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,5,12,11,0,3,11,0,18,2,0,2,2,31,33,22,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,14,19,0,3,2,0,1,2,3,5,1,1,7,3,16,6,29,23,4,29,0,3,0,0,3,15,0,1,12,118,30,3,0.1596059522872997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853752067667743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160019286251284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122727125421453,0.0,0.19458861421089574,0.17627223469850256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115849455797966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272890553601252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901164705979633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434435384646115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16140313019748634,0.0,0.0,0.3496810385068453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501625677320982,0.0,0.09070774080548626,0.0,0.12765146032537333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429755834454833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838428004269522,0.0,0.0,0.16620503848156096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22546880841858896,0.07797540627952138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855823498800746,0.17422875093310236,0.13569127307179638,0.0,0.0,0.10653821251230343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183457912613546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138751883415153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236194124816752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604480655085602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224765997922654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16152974466986714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940377759818235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828280790928787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282852186825119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603510268526052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668777588008953,0.25605253528448,0.0,0.1435049190105812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pyxxiss,2019/10/28,I ate with my friends!! I went over to a friends house for movie and she brought out snacks and i had already had dinner and they hadn't and i still ate. I feel guilty but it's a big win.,-1.7814285714285705,0.13193085714285854,-0.4980952380952371,111.10142857142858,97.57142857142857,2.8000000000000003,16.523809523809526,3.1291,-1.5836476190476192,144,4,40,0,6,44,30,42,0.047,0.711,0.242,0.8395,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,8,8,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,1,8,3,5,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4266609365732122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549408970518167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5974259234252959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4461244609190023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087669208082411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584141823317976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,many_mishaps_melly,2019/10/28,"Charity shops rock! I just bought 3 really cozy, oversized jumpers for £1 each!",2.1020000000000003,4.949599533333338,3.068333333333332,86.4225,87.0,8.333333333333334,27.5,8.841846274778883,2.9370000000000007,63,3,12,2,2,20,15,15,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.5242,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the_real_blobfish,2019/10/28,"My dad called me “healthy” So I was telling my dad about how I don’t like soda water because it’s too bitter?? (idk how else to describe it) and that I don’t like fruit juice or most soft drinks because they’re too sweet

And he was like “yeah it’s probably a good thing you don’t like sugary drinks because they’re really unhealthy - but you’re *so healthy* anyway! The only thing you should do is probably eat a bit more protein but other than that you’re SOOOO HEALTHY ahaha!”

Ahahahahahaha

Yep I’m just so healthy over here 

fasting all day and then eating up to maintenance in the space of 4 hours
Or restricting 
Or just straight up bingeing 
And over-exercising all the way through

^ahahahaha

The epitome of health am I right",1.7115928515928507,4.405505384615388,2.6915501165501183,89.91544483294486,86.06293706293707,5.695260295260296,24.02836052836053,7.1686216300943375,1.0817726495726494,582,23,117,9,18,184,89,143,0.052000000000000005,0.752,0.196,0.9520000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,12,7,1,0,6,2,9,8,0,2,2,18,10,15,0,1,7,2,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,4,7,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,4,9,6,11,7,5,12,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,4,8,68,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291533262712101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19649806092041786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837857967985959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607605938688972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526354542122219,0.0,0.3683411572856098,0.15035518083239005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096369044479868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131666728683608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17724992290659608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517282097699264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368874390179433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881106302842005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530361980012713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370703310569694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157315669091706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391493588796594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286448361135448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AtypicalED,2019/10/28,"I'm finally back to my ED ways and I'm happy about it I'm obese. Like 210 lbs obese(5'9). Last time I was this big I developed an ED and lost 50lbs in 2 months. I was 14 and felt the best I ever had, but then my family started to catch on so I had to slow down and my binging got worse and over the next five years I gained it all back plus a few more. 

I'm now in college, living with my girlfriend, and a week and a half ago I snapped. I've purged every meal I've had since then. I can't just not eat, people would notice. But there's so many never used bathrooms I can just... undo it all in. I don't own a scale, which fucking sucks, but maybe it'll do me some good.

Im a trans guy, I just started my medical transition 2 months ago. Losing weight will help me so much with dysphoria because I could bind easier and my hips would be...less. 

So I guess this is just my introduction/rant. I was a big user of r/proED before it got shut down and I wish I had a community like that again because I learned so much about staying ""healthy"" while doing all this shit from there.",1.2072077922077966,2.6879023939394,2.9110367965367985,94.76369805194807,79.17316017316017,6.178441558441559,20.64090909090909,6.961326702584282,0.17213402597402627,827,21,199,9,20,274,137,231,0.084,0.7909999999999999,0.125,0.8039,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,4,18,10,3,0,10,0,18,8,2,1,5,35,33,21,0,5,8,0,2,2,1,4,2,0,0,1,10,12,4,0,2,0,0,1,4,5,0,2,11,2,26,5,17,17,10,35,0,2,0,1,3,10,3,2,24,125,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418761258676061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20981440512888455,0.0,0.16633443582789384,0.0,0.11609293704956225,0.0,0.14317616979044714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10892924404669094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396032191517632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340986788915626,0.11494920437194504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286152314958042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099538617782944,0.1494537552868068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612848343997174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443205161449126,0.21823305255481734,0.0,0.15029439283035936,0.13508837780704153,0.0,0.14523359246554915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144698467557337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736915148346638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120967026150907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330682542297234,0.0,0.12047128491817738,0.0,0.0,0.15263166038566542,0.1489308154486744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831986416057807,0.13706351871063885,0.0,0.0,0.13744012153264915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21779622911130944,0.0,0.20058531952855566,0.0,0.10522418341067624,0.0,0.1450961720750948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532787159583014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458424388356801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004470782745118,0.1128573320023246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193133468500116,0.14541754964355644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955415350004763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783278742710225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829276837578412,0.10943691174213901,0.1661364961670589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688919351464115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390350897400949,0.19383367772831367,0.0,0.0,0.08785724582301092
EDAnonymous,mmiphaaa,2019/10/28,"I'm a terrible girlfriend Right now I'm in a train traveling to my college with ingredients for spaghetti in my backpack.
Why? 

Because my boyfriend really wanted to eat spaghetti together tonight and got the groceries but I freaked out when I calculated the calories so I brought some of the ingredients with me to school so I can secretly throw it away and make him think he's forgotten some and we can eat something else that's under my control. Sorry for that long sentence wow.",4.084666666666667,6.850485688888893,4.698888888888892,79.185,75.44444444444444,8.0,35.555555555555564,8.841846274778883,3.612222222222224,392,23,67,9,9,125,63,90,0.09699999999999999,0.8290000000000001,0.07400000000000001,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,15,9,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,1,2,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,11,1,13,7,2,13,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,4,44,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24381584662297426,0.0,0.0,0.15819336846965512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910597370614766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.53108193446306,0.21678522400659367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755186094347167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229655978724374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17322327697746187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662471549617326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161799426354864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626354529630933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997815583694965,0.0,0.2904974094806705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628193293996033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306425207230026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23416516253587316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cosicspacekid,2019/10/28,"I just talked to my BF about my eating disorder and I think he gets it now. It started earlier this week, when I was eating a bag of Fritos and he said “I wish broccoli tasted like those Fritos so you’d want to eat it more!” Now this sounds super bad, but the context is that id been complaining about not having enough fiber in my diet and he was just making a joke over how not fiber rich Fritos are. But, as you can imagine, this FULL ON triggered me and I’ve been in some deep ass ED brain Since. We were in bed and started talking and it led to talking about mental health, and I decided it was time to talk to him about my ED. And it went super well and he was so understanding and idk it just feels really nice because he’s the first IRL person I’ve EVER spoken to about my ED :-)",3.5398181818181804,4.035612557575757,4.491515151515152,89.57727272727276,71.9090909090909,7.454545454545455,23.484848484848484,7.348242739294969,0.7022121212121215,612,14,138,6,11,199,99,165,0.09300000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.141,0.8219,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,0,3,16,9,0,0,4,0,12,8,2,4,1,31,23,17,0,2,7,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,12,11,5,0,5,1,1,2,2,2,1,1,9,4,15,7,18,13,4,18,0,0,0,1,17,7,1,1,10,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212130073776052,0.09645981766878697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664484457606108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135333201425585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857479209881047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350113935229307,0.0,0.0,0.1431344423163735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000939095618093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459632695290302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267231108339125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819855098425296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730661429368525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562443846336657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946569672896832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816646091617188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137068583023053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15051964034086587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308952967357154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400195202558856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087396856757173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139189201270953,0.0,0.0,0.09226927789443842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473031660581905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933322931886079,0.0,0.1269281913915219,0.0,0.14227408297725178,0.14668730129729654,0.0,0.0,0.1819647618402236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Littlefeiticeira,2019/10/28,"Here I go again! Thought I was fine, I'm a normal weight right now after recovery a decade ago, had a really good weekend with my boyfriend who loves me and my body no matter how it is, Thought I could take it slow and actually count calories and weigh my food and stuff this time, I bought the safe foods and the scales! I really wanted to try to be good.

Guess who’s been c&s since she got out of her boyfriends sight yesterday? 
Fuck my pathetic existence 

Nice to see you all again.",6.964329896907216,6.011631412371132,6.452288659793815,83.35637113402062,64.77319587628867,10.64659793814433,31.771134020618554,9.888512548439397,2.571566597938145,385,12,83,7,5,119,74,97,0.08900000000000001,0.7290000000000001,0.182,0.8347,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,5,7,1,0,5,0,6,7,1,1,1,17,18,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,4,1,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,7,3,13,6,7,9,1,12,0,0,2,2,6,2,1,1,9,49,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.18130491028438492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469223442133693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013041321874113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637157020141494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483387459719461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493176733860093,0.0,0.0,0.17176049672032173,0.0,0.0,0.1055891292038069,0.3116648276419633,0.14859378502496287,0.0,0.2046693884106489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768334914126407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203542656485452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380445435960077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866423190602094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805112346526866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368797653446098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268588705320526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969147499682014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949941055665078,0.10833604391855008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613968113112525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958416110580052,0.0,0.0,0.2262430049641311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brideofkane,2019/10/28,"My vision is a funhouse mirror I’ll take a photo of myself and think Wow is that me?  I look kinda skinny

But then when I look at it for a minute or more, suddenly my legs look fatter...my stomach looks distended...then I panic because I think I look fat.  Even though I’ve gone down 4 jean sizes nope I’m bigger than ever. I must be!

Makes me terrified to eat ANYTHING when it happens.  Which is the real me, the skinny or fat version?? Ugh",-0.14404761904761898,2.1370232307692305,2.279587912087912,92.22582875457876,91.41758241758242,4.352014652014652,17.473443223443226,5.985473137389443,-0.2017919413919413,338,9,70,3,12,115,64,91,0.125,0.809,0.066,-0.7296,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,5,0,5,7,6,1,2,11,17,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,5,12,1,6,14,2,9,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,3,5,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553711972709741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509434559765315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931956070506413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470453945589308,0.1707857776328638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669604648590862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7927471674295808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602942777482065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22152308431707185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21490248901224496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14195856599928885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24195843911255585,0.18550087260602752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sublimeAuxiliatrix,2019/10/28,"Just got invited to my college friend’s wedding next summer And so goes my attempt with recovery to restrict until her wedding haaaaa

Why am I like this.",3.705057471264369,6.482628241379312,4.455862068965517,80.33367816091955,76.93103448275863,6.625287356321839,33.804597701149426,7.793537801064563,2.9512666666666663,125,7,20,2,3,40,26,29,0.086,0.831,0.083,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,13,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4177401799084768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324437689459536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641566221855878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5750360431403821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878937966758805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ready2soar74,2019/10/28,"If people don’t love you, food will? If my emotional connection to food is removed how will I get and receive love? People have hurt me, destroyed me, so I know people won’t love me. Who or what do you love if you no longer have a love connection with food?",2.9685849056603786,4.154310716981133,4.049198113207549,89.63153301886793,73.90566037735849,7.564150943396226,24.57075471698113,8.07648339933343,1.1892679245283015,200,6,44,3,4,65,33,53,0.124,0.55,0.326,0.9463,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,0,8,8,0,1,0,8,15,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,9,5,2,12,0,2,0,1,0,5,10,0,0,4,0,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17602691532572606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5676744365188562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175804653058197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675226679698842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860012129851472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7061785486129339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32546533700484503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silverbones777,2019/10/28,paranoia stopped my binge! (spooky?) this is so dumb i’m really high and i was in my kitchen about to b*nge and i had two tiny pieces of pizza and i was about to make myself a pb&j and then my dog barked at something outside and my psychosis took tf over i started feeling a panic attack coming on and staring out the window seeing things and so i just put the food away and ran downstairs to my room lol. i don’t know the point of this just thought i’d share,0.5268750000000004,2.9177179375000013,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,88.375,3.6166666666666663,20.5,4.7782277997778095,-0.4055249999999999,366,12,79,1,12,114,67,96,0.151,0.7829999999999999,0.066,-0.8531,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,2,1,5,1,5,3,0,1,0,17,15,11,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,10,3,1,3,0,0,4,1,3,0,1,6,3,12,1,13,9,1,16,0,0,2,0,1,9,1,0,3,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262372273337618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754835748117732,0.2275103669779539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085930490086187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243964555513015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29281192128561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558475486022799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308075256038465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163876081117928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841139365010723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289125059123572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434302760651213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512917539306725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929642944319057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642092501213486,0.0,0.0,0.1713968778033271,0.0,0.0,0.20245044148209945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087544737576995,0.0,0.0,0.19224213943761773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690404817812107,0.0,0.0,0.2365479332691605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mylittlefriendana,2019/10/28,"My ED stopped my depressive spiral??? i was literally spiraling earlier and then i decided to check the scale just for funsies (i haven't been restricting or even really doing any ED things, haha, we love recovery) and was at the lowest i've been in TWO MONTHS. for NO REASON. and it's still a high number and i still hate how i look but for some reason seeing that number really made me so happy and my mood has changed SIGNIFICANTLY how the FUCK does one unhealthy thing cancel out the other hahaha i love when my mental illnesses work together <3",4.1853333333333325,6.358517628571428,5.704761904761906,74.94190476190477,72.71428571428572,9.619047619047619,25.0,9.994966539143718,2.802714285714288,441,14,77,13,9,149,78,105,0.205,0.597,0.19699999999999998,0.2565,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,1,8,8,2,0,5,1,7,4,0,5,0,19,14,12,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,5,2,12,4,7,9,1,10,0,1,2,3,3,4,1,2,6,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948945281091467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014349468920244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400507645526136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666343803418734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257680140713596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603658236297018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027014403459429,0.0,0.1879964407263448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118502563313406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990153581149755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437158632589395,0.18017628333184066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19189460565095304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519882851939012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903085261997607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439708122935135,0.3915588540144544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517369493420921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041330285299237,0.15919635533554044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530079430571318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18600882548302394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13862516205724293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,susansyn_,2019/10/28,"Embarrassed and panicked So I’m sitting here watching The Resident and I’m trying not to cry. I had a decent day my friend was in town and we hung out most of the day and got lunch and our tattoos touched up and it was fun.
Recently though I started chewing/spitting most of my food. I had a few fast food bags that had some of the food in it in my trash. Im not doing it for everything I eat but yknow.. Anyways, my dad is renovating the bathroom in our basement(where my room is) and he was using my trash can that had the bags of chewed food in it. I doubt he found it but it’s like the thought of him finding it has me terrified. I just don’t know what to do.",0.4185446009389686,2.4399982253521166,2.3118591549295786,95.34886854460095,84.35211267605635,5.75849765258216,22.846948356807516,7.0316486544052195,0.6107139906103285,516,19,121,7,15,171,82,142,0.08800000000000001,0.846,0.065,-0.6397,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,8,0,14,7,0,1,0,23,22,11,0,0,5,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,10,9,7,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,10,2,17,3,15,12,4,15,0,0,1,0,8,9,0,4,6,84,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17966481099639692,0.2109674882635272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736441861284165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699867983241507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949240051939575,0.0,0.7911176681740566,0.17933692564307654,0.1263673382349126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308152067870185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766746677430513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988921470663681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990796870445073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149741399088322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576978978924653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069850743420172,0.12984969362665955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104763546096263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126476510422534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CrawlingUpHerLeg,2019/10/28,"So I look ‘healthier’ I just left my recent ‘weekly’ doctors appointment after avoiding it for 2 months since the last.

Since I last saw her, I have recently been slipping into b/r cycles after having a full blow restricting relapse for about 6months and worrying my medical team.

As soon as I walked into her office, I was met with a big smile and a “you look so much healthier!” And she went on to say she’s so proud of my ‘progress’.

I wish I could accept the well-meaning positivity, but healthier just means bigger, and bigger means bad in my ridiculous head (of course this only applies to me, because bigger and healthier aren’t even bad!)
And the supposed ‘progress’ is still disorder AF, purging is more frequent and aggressive (because god forbid I leave even a little hommus in my stomach), bingeing is a weekly occurrence, my mood has absolutely plummeted and the self loathing and dark thoughts are scarily consuming.

What progress is she proud of? But apparently I look “healthier” so it’s all good.

I don’t even know the point of this, but that comment has really affected me so badly.

What ISN’T triggering at this point???",7.593830128205128,7.905632004807693,7.678653846153848,70.88301282051283,63.08653846153846,11.164102564102564,37.52564102564102,10.864195022040775,4.314816025641028,899,42,151,22,12,291,126,208,0.162,0.723,0.115,-0.8931,2,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,6,13,12,2,1,10,0,15,4,2,2,1,30,26,19,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,8,12,0,3,5,1,0,2,3,7,0,0,6,5,25,4,20,19,4,29,0,0,4,0,11,15,0,0,12,106,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163121713004375,0.1539565747520584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082321931889003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447262626633718,0.12925153977708512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25021755392456524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105916532681463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129598316883759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939943853023724,0.20586789292967994,0.0,0.1337108474461574,0.13720211275172947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265643727042703,0.0,0.0,0.3181267626348366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126633791587716,0.0,0.12721244545277044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007944063446562,0.0,0.09282933081913533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604059668723676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387482649026776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08089733086723119,0.0,0.2493698469083425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042184364417914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173616273739586,0.0,0.0,0.20891799324959734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084628569026756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002511353606046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258621733260584,0.0,0.11353966356425972,0.11706156518406233,0.0,0.0,0.14521420491737058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282420894773421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayedfeelz,2019/10/28,"I don't know what to title this other than ""I fucking hate myself"" Im taking back ever saying I have or have had an ED because I don't and I never did, I'm a dirty horrible liar wannabe and that's all I'll.ever be. A fake liar disgusting POS and I'm the worst, I don't want to be alive but I'm too weak to die, I don't want to be this weight yet I've been stuck here.for months,.I don't want to do this",-2.081211129296236,-0.2514574680851069,1.1640425531914893,99.59576923076924,97.08510638297872,4.1689034369885425,15.74140752864157,5.8734145424116955,-0.7276111292962355,314,8,80,3,13,111,56,94,0.33399999999999996,0.629,0.037000000000000005,-0.9745,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,5,0,4,0,14,3,0,0,3,12,25,5,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,4,2,8,0,6,18,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,50,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694331753610546,0.0,0.17198601929564078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928101258260694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552059868350792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608279599911824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785485122583835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30475269422673923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505324398636555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175988194911324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22436395673918044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212934957278234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992291079906261,0.0,0.0,0.34356270838664543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheBlackPamBeesly,2019/10/28,"I just took laxatives for the first time. I needed to, but the benefits can’t be denied. I think I might flush the rest so I’m not tempted to keep using them.",-0.14088235294117624,1.9895652058823536,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,88.11764705882355,5.752941176470588,17.323529411764707,7.1686216300943375,0.1359058823529411,123,3,28,2,4,42,27,34,0.11599999999999999,0.782,0.102,-0.1154,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,9,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,5,1,3,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496034584731638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653230705677626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360148657440596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047574539547744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633575292228008,0.0,0.0,0.2396622507685851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566453553027809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549792161272719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clownbeebop,2019/10/28,"Saw my body and I didn’t hate it for 3 seconds I recently got a new full body mirror and when I was looking at myself in it, I thought I looked actually good? It was short lived and I started hating myself again when I kept looking and prodding, but it felt like my body dysmorphia was buffering for a little bit. Wack.",3.257846153846156,4.628522169230768,4.547692307692311,85.61230769230772,73.46153846153847,7.046153846153848,28.384615384615394,7.554174236665415,1.6213692307692305,251,10,51,3,5,83,43,65,0.075,0.838,0.087,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,4,3,3,0,0,8,15,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,9,5,11,2,4,6,2,11,0,0,4,0,0,5,0,0,7,35,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.1757767776697816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19665069941962315,0.6002374048627533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294899614277714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108095812182332,0.14406304094287828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556738320774045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880003575262773,0.1805333521420613,0.15905436365785214,0.0,0.4537808676914583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739666006062909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778524770580905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127493954074548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14299974894978346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taoshka,2019/10/28,"In which I continue finding fun new ways to trigger myself   I went into this with good intentions!! (I know, I know, road to hell, etc.) My mother has been struggling financially and decided to sell her vintage clothes. I told her I'd help, because I'm a loser and don't have regular work, and also love fashion and vintage. 

  Somehow this has turned into me modeling my also eating disordered mother's vintage shit! And the pictures being posted publicly! I also made and run the Insta, so I have to go through and edit pictures of my body taken by very much unprofessional photographers who...have trouble finding flattering angles.

  Today I got the pictures of my fat ass in a white skin tight jumpsuit. Every flaw just highlighted in bright white. Brb, just going to go find a large black cloak to engulf myself in and a swamp to live in as its new witch.

  I'm sitting here thinking about how gross I am, and how I can't fucking restrict like I could 10 years ago, and I realize that no matter what I do, I find something that I can make about my body/ED. I was a ballet dancer before I got injured, also worked facing customers despite hating it. Anything where I can freak out about my body and how myself and others see it. Like, why don't I find something to do that's not like that? Honestly I would probably find ways to make it all about my body and weight even if I did go become a swamp witch. 

  Anyway, back to not finding a therapist and continuing on my self destructive lil way! Oh, as telling myself to stop eating and then eating cookies. Everything's fine lol.",5.106166902404528,6.269565349834982,5.8873078736445095,78.55237623762378,68.76897689768977,8.27967939651108,30.6001885902876,8.563005593585519,2.4416485619990564,1243,49,223,19,21,407,174,303,0.17,0.732,0.098,-0.9749,0,0,2,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,3,20,22,5,1,10,1,18,15,8,8,1,52,40,27,0,3,5,2,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,13,19,5,3,12,1,1,6,6,12,0,0,9,8,36,10,31,28,3,32,1,1,5,3,11,11,4,2,13,147,49,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747728505825847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279583865315743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192503532851792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720733771135956,0.0,0.05327991943568778,0.09652949635898052,0.07437332266486421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912543331856806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697840025501778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017115056438396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683045720153133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747719624682302,0.057728707530963284,0.0,0.07364060625991653,0.0,0.07855197698958215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5591918603196366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080245564039999,0.0,0.0,0.19869204133687465,0.07330929955104487,0.13980796460398368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629214370352911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05858423665430866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606855698700376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810174063016566,0.0,0.07717825022589676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888441544671912,0.08270261752386565,0.11668405990754765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425109515819769,0.0,0.0,0.16882828642693615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370769658150799,0.0,0.09423497256399237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964869434322248,0.0,0.0911801545171914,0.0,0.08971769090751018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13457385018898235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307263221908146,0.0,0.09137235595879248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639387640522717,0.0,0.0,0.1014813565127333,0.0,0.05600416804040028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284760946732676,0.08351709556962132,0.0,0.0,0.09506911914645286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211644163322678,0.0,0.20812875983777945,0.0,0.1064330315854408,0.0,0.08102324661440242,0.07886740838285694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272605200284762,0.0,0.0,0.06208842253190085,0.0,0.0,0.05628452047217565
EDAnonymous,buttercorncandycream,2019/10/28,"I think I saw my body for the first time without dysmorphia I’m not as huge as I thought. Actually kinda pretty.

But maybe it’s just backwards dysmorphia and I’m actually huge and have been seeing myself correctly and this is the one time I have dysmorphia.

oh no",1.486593406593407,4.187993153846159,3.645604395604393,82.15653846153847,88.61538461538461,7.586813186813187,24.736263736263727,8.418075326091056,2.329172527472528,212,9,40,6,7,72,36,52,0.122,0.8190000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.2998,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,0,1,11,10,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,2,6,0,4,7,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,3,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.5579706994660144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31755700712839585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431761009605005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28721282062903625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19372503929258872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908507719778876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278156415815505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318542211992367,0.0,0.2269630579269973,0.33340706607338044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27558573283512816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pet_raccoon,2019/10/28,"AM I CURED?? My mom and brother just brought over a fuckton of food (soup, olives, cookies, cheese), and I ate a bunch of it with them, like it was no problem at all!  Am I cured?? Was I even sick in the first place???  Why does having just one normal meal end up with me being so confused????",0.5703954802259901,2.5172372542372905,1.6449999999999996,100.78298022598871,83.23728813559322,3.9333333333333336,20.002824858757066,3.1291,-0.7384937853107347,214,6,51,0,6,67,47,59,0.155,0.804,0.040999999999999995,-0.7877,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,4,3,0,1,3,0,6,4,0,0,1,10,8,3,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,4,0,7,1,8,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764133934260889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797604130516949,0.0,0.0,0.20862419557477604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686724725066184,0.3819421765057335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543144577092928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699343305837674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30947817609479805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21403659770676212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300090739875729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30223774462388275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850167678206864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,duckduckspoon,2019/10/28,As soon as you start throwing up everyone loses their shit Yeah it's totally fine that you know I've been restricting and fasting to keep my weight down but God forbid you find me actually eating and then throwing up NOW it's a serious problem??,2.0968750000000007,4.877668270833336,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,85.04166666666666,7.366666666666666,26.75,8.344100000000001,2.4576,199,9,36,5,6,66,40,48,0.256,0.638,0.106,-0.8054,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,1,1,2,6,1,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,1,10,4,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,1,1,6,1,6,3,1,10,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,5,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.3079076476756594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228616456485751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014984058548761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883848481277172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28045381219747545,0.0,0.0,0.17340471784135875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529926412128009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30191556027933764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238826805590443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233307722008112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842253988174409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shakespearethighs,2019/10/28,"Missing period but could it be due to my relapse? its been a few years with an ed for me, and there was a point like 2 years ago when I was at my lowest and my periods stopped. they eventually came back and were pretty nuch regular until recently.

I started college revently and have definitely not been eating enough, most of my calories being alcohol and the occasional drunk food. af first I thought my missing period could be because of that, but Im pretty sure my overall calorie intake is enough. I havent had my period for two months and im concerned now",3.378532110091744,5.651493688073398,4.899532110091744,79.34948165137615,75.42201834862385,8.029724770642202,29.24862385321101,8.841846274778883,2.6725258715596336,448,20,81,10,10,150,77,109,0.11,0.738,0.152,0.7964,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,4,0,14,4,0,0,1,17,19,10,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,8,4,1,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,2,8,0,13,2,8,6,4,20,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,18,61,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588634803881185,0.19152656866025947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378054428264735,0.0,0.10924793544310828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049744696015039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861775425454945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18338191244202134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703544615472336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244037562169652,0.2167077568799612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871663848183501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755550457996221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304787976870992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694163115362055,0.0,0.0,0.36465261804137067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769534102741277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684945599861133,0.0,0.0,0.1498319496703487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16890822507937192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227686711804052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175067230146513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308174533339054
EDAnonymous,otoromoi,2019/10/28,"I’ve been stuck gaining/losing the same 5 pounds and it’s driving me fucking insane. I make sure not to eat too much, I may eat some things with high sodium but it’s been over a fucking month how am I still stuck in this cycle? I even exercise! I’m so close to breaking down and crying I just want to lose this weight",0.7433193277310934,2.7705458529411806,2.080924369747901,97.44558823529414,83.11764705882355,4.473949579831934,18.537815126050425,5.288315135182226,-0.5628302521008406,250,6,57,1,7,80,52,68,0.21100000000000002,0.74,0.049,-0.8947,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,2,0,4,6,0,2,1,14,11,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,1,6,1,7,6,3,9,0,1,0,2,0,5,2,2,2,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661102362431534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4957830610096986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000984504021665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479292524938204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559600309638713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27102595575082844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170982465228342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336889543318747,0.0,0.17808830683439822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934684232951044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283263265837143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609461756291449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289068879793254,0.0,0.0,0.29500630829145963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeeandnarcissism,2019/10/28,"Personal trainer unintentionally fueled my ED Lmao so lately I’ve been trying to lift weights and “”””recover”””” because I’m underweight and I don’t wanna die and whatever and I wanna be fit and muscular, so I joined a gym that gave me a “kickoff” session with a personal trainer.

The trainer asked what my goals were and I pretty much said “gain some healthy weight in the form of muscle” but I didn’t tell her about my ED or anything.

as i was struggling to do chest presses this lady said “cmon skinny girls look good in clothes but fit girls look good naked! Do you wanna look good in clothes or naked??”

And I said “definitely in clothes.” And she laughed like I was joking....

Back to cardio for me!",3.3141111111111097,5.437055170370371,4.181203703703705,85.1229166666667,75.07407407407408,6.87037037037037,28.287037037037038,7.793537801064563,1.7948148148148158,548,23,106,8,12,176,84,135,0.040999999999999995,0.711,0.248,0.983,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,1,0,2,4,7,0,1,5,0,9,6,3,0,0,17,18,15,1,3,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,0,4,3,9,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,9,16,6,15,8,3,8,0,0,3,0,13,6,0,3,3,66,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321138802631655,0.0,0.15008679490506238,0.0,0.0,0.12344828371164104,0.0,0.0978660193159005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661913303968012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039696044149102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811004157568532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843359847196579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044491110180347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801817619882005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28036133303219274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633307760740925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581417957766336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16783525290417114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032237028651895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089987117958268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909982310526418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayaccunt6969,2019/10/28,"I have been trying to make an effort to see myself as pretty even when I’m not restricting. Whenever I’m restricting or fasting I see myself as a gorgeous creature. It doesn’t matter if I’m bloated because of it, in my mind it’s okay because I’m automatically prettier if I’m starving. I’m trying to break this because it is one of the biggest things that keeps my ed going. Of course I inevitably binge and suddenly I’m a horrible fat pig. I don’t want to feel this way anymore and I think fixing that will really help me with recovery, when I decide to recover. What I’ve been doing to try and change my perspective is looking at myself in the mirror after I overeat. Usually I will avoid looking at myself at all costs but now I try to stare and see my body for what it is. It’s a body that gets me through the day, and puts up with my abuse to it. It’s a body that is beautiful when it is fed. I am not fat. I know I am not fat. I don’t care if my brain wants to tell me that I’m fat because I know I’m not. When I weighed more I wasn’t happy and now that I lost weight I’m not happy either. Losing more weight is not going to do anything but make me sick, and I don’t want that. I am happy with the things that my body does for me and I don’t want to shame it anymore. I’m going to try and think of my body and my brain as completely different things. My brain is the bitchy friend who has low self esteem so she has to put others down. My body is the pretty shy girl who lets my brain bully her into changing herself. My ultimate goal is for my brain to see the error of her ways and shift don’t her perspective on my body and see that my body is beautiful just the way she is. Sorry this is so fucking weird but it’s 2 am and I’ve been thinking a lot this weekend about my priorities and how I want to continue going through life.",1.8572559823677568,3.1417463274559236,3.872115081863981,89.39832375629723,76.90931989924435,6.977613350125942,23.489373425692698,7.645422480735847,0.9264282745591944,1440,44,326,20,32,492,159,397,0.11599999999999999,0.745,0.14,0.7882,1,1,0,0,1,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,12,14,1,2,14,1,34,25,17,3,1,56,75,31,0,8,15,0,3,0,1,2,6,0,0,2,32,18,9,4,7,1,1,6,13,7,0,1,6,11,53,7,42,66,5,34,0,3,8,1,13,11,1,5,13,219,85,1,0.0,0.07808031437706177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070949863863965,0.0,0.0,0.05422980049027502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606872704580881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5855972794802383,0.0,0.3678290427222798,0.0,0.0,0.06718908956017879,0.0,0.13942619257481312,0.0,0.06909453376031592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04249982529352081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885111273714896,0.0,0.0,0.05766923158468733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04352610016340586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03332084528686323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091390945587252,0.060923168525240726,0.034429849473867284,0.0,0.14980916883098064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21045422226572266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0441711491850814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05857464066514245,0.0,0.0,0.07243345317799489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738686137958871,0.046546874729980994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067822475219648,0.07372485670446338,0.0719372573166582,0.056025529508265406,0.0,0.0,0.08797706195456931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665398649826769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044655311263165486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408727959206476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249470839495506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04221700601398453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625674621770763,0.0,0.06874771163552278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737692677262077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057599202519843434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134240632988345,0.12667751272902955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22370769757917347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257915899959089,0.0,0.19434661759323854,0.15692423466653468,0.0,0.160496050981155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,4throw30away,2019/10/28,"Ate at around BMR for 2 days Annnnd It's just cause I hit a new LW and want to loose more , and I cant do that if my metabolism is ruined lmaoo 💪💪💪💪 numbersnumbersnumbers",1.3738461538461555,2.27658176923077,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,77.46153846153847,7.2512820512820495,18.128205128205128,7.793537801064563,-0.062425641025640737,135,2,36,2,3,48,34,39,0.16,0.8009999999999999,0.039,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,4,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728507867736335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5456542981249736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425584414520637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5130039025195858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31329575575629265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amourplastique__,2019/10/28,i hate everything. i hate forcing myself to throw up. i hate limiting myself. i hate never liking how i fucking look. i hate depression taking over me and letting me eat more than i should. this is torture.,1.3846153846153832,4.071303230769232,3.283461538461541,83.09903846153848,93.6153846153846,5.676923076923077,24.448717948717945,7.1686216300943375,1.7643641025641026,162,7,27,3,6,54,27,39,0.544,0.456,0.0,-0.9828,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,9,7,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,5,11,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,8,0,0,0,1,11,1,4,9,1,4,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,23,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476963939206484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18387118171368447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149681751449546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612362837171424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8870500220810287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18374864912551406,0.0,0.0877891056880839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089717690862914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385906074812326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351070538463502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ilovebigkitties,2019/10/28,"Anyone here drink seltzers? I see a lot on here about Diet Coke, but not much on seltzers...just curious why. 

Also, if you drink seltzers, name your favorites!",2.171896551724138,5.056870241379312,1.4788793103448263,97.37280172413796,87.9655172413793,4.279310344827587,24.49137931034483,5.985473137389443,0.5344413793103451,123,5,24,1,4,35,24,29,0.0,0.7759999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.7871,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288577082877373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25231949138397297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7070046429757006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30678757920157723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26527129656054804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875561794967885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256171684946196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tasha53505,2019/10/28,"Res or inpatient question So, I was watching a documentary of eating disorders on YouTube, and one of their rules were “no candy or food in their room” like isn’t that a good thing as they’re trying to recover  ppl ?",4.634285714285717,5.885215761904764,5.603333333333335,79.82500000000002,69.95238095238095,9.40952380952381,30.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.9010380952380963,170,7,33,4,3,56,38,42,0.053,0.8170000000000001,0.13,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,3,2,6,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218424586729285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766295974254612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44507418504798985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087213732892713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17982141206407193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494151475134393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4123249343269084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445307155549899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498967617212673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jennifercheque,2019/10/28,i thought college would make me lose weight instead i’m maintaining and just slowly dying of nutrient deficiency 🤟 and may or may not need a blood transfusion ✌️ but i refuse to go to the doctor cause i don’t want to b weighed👌 we dying,-0.3127999999999993,1.926262020000004,2.1875,90.51125,98.8,5.7,22.25,7.1686216300943375,1.1772000000000005,191,8,40,4,8,65,42,50,0.10800000000000001,0.858,0.034,-0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,1,2,0,16,10,4,2,3,4,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,4,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,22,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29720597409950983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6005261286771223,0.0,0.0,0.2961259362638356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644242565230188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236692345466272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931198619662608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452324319822189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22968361824835085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17064535291072686,0.0,0.0,0.35230745972872085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552091859957589,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gnatig,2019/02/04,"Hi! I’ma be trying a eat every other day type thing. The days I can’t eat I’ll be exploring smoothie recipes, I’ll allow coffee, maybe a snack if it’s really bad. But the next day I’ll allow one full meal. Maybe it’ll work. I’ll update below or whatever :)

CW: 160 GW: 145 UGW: 135 5’7 :3",-2.5339160839160826,-0.9068479999999984,1.237622377622376,96.71419580419581,105.92307692307692,4.209790209790209,12.062937062937063,6.1124844417494595,-0.8620769230769231,220,4,53,3,11,80,47,65,0.06,0.7759999999999999,0.16399999999999998,0.6807,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,18,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036569796302453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719106861585357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4991673252670565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055070335646889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4900863349870441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594040042961964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528160945982434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625676998297153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204481015778507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656007639787143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757140583989994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsonlyathrowawayman,2019/02/04,"would you rather be underweight and not allowed to exercise, or normal weight but allowed to work out? as i've said in a previous post, i'm about 2kg away from not being underweight (if you trust the team's definition of underweight haha). i really really don't want to go that high, i feel like i look disgusting enough as is, but i've been promised that if i get to that weight i can start working out again. it's been well over a year since i've been allowed near a gym and i'd love to get some muscle back, as i currently have absolutely no definition and just look like a lump lol kmn. however ik that gaining muscle will cause my weight to go up, which i'm also freaking out about... so what's best? underweight but no exercise or normal weight with exercise?",4.1041558441558434,5.223414350649353,5.347922077922082,81.65616883116886,71.07792207792208,9.755844155844157,27.63636363636364,10.018931242160765,2.5906051948051947,606,21,125,16,11,202,93,154,0.098,0.6890000000000001,0.213,0.9715,5,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,5,9,10,1,0,5,2,11,9,0,4,0,28,24,15,0,7,11,0,5,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,7,7,4,0,1,5,0,2,5,2,1,0,4,8,9,8,22,16,3,17,0,0,2,1,5,9,0,5,7,78,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241728170252252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207425838096468,0.10809302185506403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752414011589315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440861228875435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525091348008426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071078630824278,0.10042636587890924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688862416424325,0.0,0.1597833205273949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14852455160211805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137355083746734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360941509652925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268738672483515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754660932377927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463139865593368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011109617062265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371842754622296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162845806238885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949927040854724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291441207407227,0.0,0.0,0.6847269004271971,0.1263932508290334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046796472106025,0.0,0.0,0.09986000699076708,0.0,0.0,0.09052529245586163
EDAnonymous,saltsplendasriracha,2019/02/04,"I think I may be pregnant I am freaking.  Out.  

It’s only been 8 days so it’s too early, and I have an IUD... but my boobs have grown like 2x in one week.  I’m so fucking scared oh my god",-3.6219155844155857,-2.2001533863636347,0.0023376623376645256,106.24136363636366,105.5909090909091,2.5142857142857142,13.103896103896105,3.1291,-1.8381194805194805,137,3,39,0,7,49,35,44,0.14800000000000002,0.7190000000000001,0.133,-0.1796,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,5,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,6,1,2,6,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,4,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30058883794031355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308917578876689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22770753591224654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31583395996934266,0.35448167727579205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666363857209608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29865100292693303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738684711991373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bby_gsta,2019/02/04,"[TW] Depression, Anxiety, ED I don’t wanna make this too long. 

Depression makes me not hungry, but anxiety makes me binge. ED makes me feel bad about it. ED makes me purge. 

I stopped all of my bad habits (binging, purging, restricting, self harm, planning for death), but SURPRISE! They’re back. It was a good 2 months. 

On the plus (?) side, my doctor prescribed me Clonazepam. Not too sure if that’s such a good idea. Any advice would be appreciated. Help me help myself. ",1.4599469496021236,4.176110609195405,2.210804597701152,91.1319628647215,92.33333333333334,5.435543766578249,21.634836427939877,7.010146845296331,0.8854480990274092,361,13,70,6,13,112,65,87,0.245,0.544,0.21100000000000002,-0.4604,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,5,2,19,10,4,1,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,11,4,6,7,1,6,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,38,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700194438121425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183180734438527,0.0,0.2662012885828382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378633442737778,0.29054608103400364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997118956017808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808449258584114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797375918352562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29186641817282305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332415043984467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964117175704824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539742525633383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5806930162960757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887587521461398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815078391851713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546208709437433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639820011787116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359636229895213,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UQ4120,2019/02/04,"Went to see my doctor because I have the flu, and she confronted me. Need some support here I've known this doctor (internal medicine) for 12 years. She's seen my weight fluctuate up and down, but this time it was different. 

After we finished the conversation about my symptoms, the flu, staying home from work, she asked me what's going on with my weight.

I have always been candid with her and started seeing a psychological specialist last year when she was concerned about my weight loss.

I told her that I'm stable and my weight hasn't gone below the healthy/underweight line (lie). It actually dropped down for just a few weeks and I've been focused on getting stronger while dabbling with very slow weight regain.

I told her I still have my period and my BMI is healthy so it's not a concern. She strongly disagreed and asked me if I'm aware of the dangers here. She used the word anorexia.

She said that my birth control (Nuvaring) forces a menstrual event even if I'm malnourished. She said bmi isn't an indicator that I don't have anorexia, it just means that I don't need to be hospitalized.

She's incredibly smart and I think she saw straight through my bullshit when I said to her, ""I thought 31 years is far too old to have anorexia"". Yes I'm a shitty person because I know that's a lie

Anyway she asked me to come back in a month because she wants to run my bloodwork (I had asked her to test it in the summer when I had some hair loss and extreme bruising). I don't know what to do.

Part of me feels so validated for someone in the medical field finally noticing I'm sick. That's so not ok. I don't want to be sick. I want to enjoy my life and stop punishing myself.

Idk maybe she'll find something in the bloodwork and we can focus on that. Plus I'm so interested in what my metabolic panel says. I usually only see her once a year so I could probably try to gain 5 lbs before I see her, then taper it back down.

This is just awful. Plus I have the flu and everything over the counter is full of sugar for some stupid reason??

I bought dayquil and nyquil but I wanted some cough drops. The first ingredient of all of them is sugar. 🤷‍♀️",2.7592852801750354,4.687487131639728,3.8151482922085833,88.00513887200684,76.06697459584295,6.959742311899843,25.94439042178194,7.85451343220497,1.4133408775981515,1700,63,353,26,38,549,214,433,0.14300000000000002,0.759,0.09699999999999999,-0.9723,1,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,2,0,1,7,21,12,4,0,21,3,29,19,1,3,1,55,71,29,0,9,9,0,7,0,0,1,11,4,1,1,19,21,7,2,9,0,1,5,8,6,0,1,17,19,64,6,44,50,8,54,0,2,6,0,35,17,0,6,29,225,83,4,0.0,0.0,0.08320518870740279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094632844689497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31884064711329035,0.0,0.0,0.13112522886687708,0.0,0.1559280995481052,0.0,0.0725532307045401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734472310153354,0.0,0.0,0.09563062407737813,0.06807622215998126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908254425108049,0.0,0.17454226508190748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05631594886035132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662962342699423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043111949200914455,0.0,0.0,0.09340234696925914,0.07792958664702647,0.07252536159663088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044546826730644175,0.0,0.048457393719080935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552656328382413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371753108219248,0.06950139317790241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06022435750186155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565896726295742,0.09287729574820848,0.0,0.08589432827736289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805676752990414,0.0,0.0,0.12644408407095453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707342400964727,0.08947003600102542,0.09080318541676002,0.0,0.06484697712119697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233240798529274,0.0,0.0,0.07444907870315405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192881882768612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766540746196504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24331625365087284,0.06780521177382398,0.0,0.0,0.27177690106568764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224375785665657,0.06564025412415854,0.0,0.0,0.06035017053136817,0.09087988723442884,0.0680917966618959,0.07128437124517041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675637232947756,0.0,0.08862175574456856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054633612949641516,0.0,0.06768994888978122,0.04971801902065079,0.0,0.0,0.16294646751068134,0.0,0.05788853680545256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364056443078695,0.09390605156913824,0.07035158091542226,0.20116324019793205,0.0,0.06839349323921462,0.5191418117756207,0.0,0.07904041521090645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06207307632880407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962841796451696
EDAnonymous,Ravenclawprincess25,2019/02/04,"Can't stop I babysit a couple of kids at their house. Their parents stock the pantry pretty well. I can't help but join them in ridiculous  snacking. Today it was 2 ding dongs, 3 chocolate chip cookies,  a bag of chips,  2 fun size chocolates and a couple of handfuls of mixed nuts. 

This happens every day I am here. 4 days a week. I don't know how to stop myself. I'm up almost 10 pounds in the last 2 months. ",1.3926176470588238,3.273721600000002,2.436102941176472,96.52121323529413,80.05882352941177,4.25,21.213235294117645,3.1291,-0.41814705882352987,316,9,70,0,8,100,65,85,0.125,0.728,0.147,0.1815,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,6,0,5,2,1,1,0,7,8,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,8,2,9,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,8,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22473232142671135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.496650843164087,0.0,0.28947511328184594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890903519443806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19846102574490807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042942324859485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589598926274234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233398132773732,0.18293885376817454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913636653612094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24920084338935616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283240588725721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752638780577052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273159507452935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002268280229794,0.0,0.2017878126995229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smittenkitt3n,2019/02/04,"i fucking love oatmeal throw in some pb2, stevia, and half a mashed banana and you’ve got a ~200 cal bowl of deliciousness that’s somewhat filling and doesnt make ya feel like crap for eating

what are some of your favorite oatmeal recipes? :) ",9.93391304347826,7.710425000000001,8.25826086956522,76.8204347826087,59.8695652173913,10.069565217391306,40.39130434782609,7.1686216300943375,3.0877739130434776,194,8,36,1,2,58,40,46,0.049,0.6559999999999999,0.29600000000000004,0.9216,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,8,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,1,3,2,4,6,3,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,3,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4667446376485341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23063786324205635,0.3258661875006912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4216936662209141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648164693354968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22284674488946327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116837550762339,0.0,0.3044766933255975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dynamicsystem,2019/02/04,"my hair is actually thinning out huh. Didn’t ever think this would happen. Even when I first started heavy restriction, before the huge binge cycle I went through during the summer, my hair was still as thick as ever. I’ve been complimented on how thick my hair is my whole life. Fuuuuck. It definitely doesn’t feel or look as voluminous as before. Don’t know why it’s finally happening now, when I’m binging like once a week still. Though I guess I’m still at a deficit on average..

feels bad man :( ",3.860953608247424,5.763348123711343,5.074832474226807,80.27451675257736,72.91752577319588,8.561340206185568,26.55798969072165,9.188382445141503,2.2238463917525766,396,14,77,9,8,131,70,97,0.113,0.784,0.10400000000000001,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0,4,1,8,4,3,1,2,12,20,9,0,1,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,4,9,7,2,9,15,1,22,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,2,14,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.17785111042113524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217233553186835,0.0,0.0,0.31016509537211634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037535392720328,0.3297137139993199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430360310257984,0.0,0.0,0.1996475386029014,0.0,0.155022977461351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20077050280079248,0.0,0.32232868405518394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001606223591934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872957831718185,0.08903884523874699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304530415731255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409183017344905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899850369732718,0.0,0.4366386941134677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116779360522594,0.17906110949275786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619110787609454,0.0,0.0,0.16894890609336008,0.16445357264088512,0.2034772185425523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946619033607515,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dansla116,2019/02/04,"Looking for ED related novels. I really enjoyed *Wintergirls* by Laurie Halse Anderson when I read it a few months back. I'm currently considering picking up *Second Star on the Right* by Deborah Hautzig. Are there any other recommendations? I have access to that google drive folder shared back in the /r/proed days with a bunch of PDFs - novels, diet / exercise books, etc. Not sure if I'm allowed to share it here.

In particular, I'm looking for something where the character actually gets forced into inpatient and has to deal with being essentially force-fed. Does such a novel even exist?

Reading is my best distraction from bingeing. And truthfully, I need something else to read after I crank through all the posts and comments on this subreddit.",4.246818181818185,7.517631787878791,5.059318181818185,73.48397727272727,79.60606060606061,8.451515151515151,29.46212121212121,9.017664075816787,3.468566666666667,604,28,92,17,16,195,102,132,0.055999999999999994,0.812,0.132,0.8858,2,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,0,1,7,0,5,2,0,2,3,14,12,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,8,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,6,6,20,11,5,17,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,1,7,62,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.1840746366957439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827414847308746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900880250412701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19795443645526206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165006228120825,0.1944681558523263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507045771447346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575752761523229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21037113140267827,0.1245876367530306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855083647760572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168016066252133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505618213523651,0.0,0.0,0.13986596989483335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18065438394816244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5660399610306962,0.0,0.12084052994237393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108808525317395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904315492393273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778054488094716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebluestbanana,2019/02/04,"Update on the ED speech I posted here yesterday about holding a speech about eating disorders. Needless to say, I didn't make my speech entirely about it, but I did hold a speech about how freaking dangerous social media can be and used myself as an example. I mentioned that I suffer from BPD and have managed to develop an eating disorder.

Their reaction? Exactly zero. So there's that, I guess.",5.1708675799086725,7.3809622739726075,6.127602739726028,72.80090182648405,70.0958904109589,9.798173515981736,31.34474885844749,10.125756701596842,3.7925543378995443,318,14,50,9,6,105,55,73,0.215,0.785,0.0,-0.9528,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,8,3,1,0,5,0,5,2,0,3,1,10,8,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,5,9,0,9,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,39,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146471226633798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5726445184698505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5112687687666317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27521152320768605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667608061862031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392642658642941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986716758907557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546661628586543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21576946618509948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rabbitdoll,2019/02/04,"I told my dad I had a ED relapse but it was more mental than physical and now I feel like I gotta commit to it Like idk why I fucking said that!! Ive been doing relatively ok lately aside from the debilitating thoughts that im a worthless cow but for some reason it slipped in conversation bc I stayed up all night watching eating disorder documentaries and wishing I could be like that. 

Ive been doing so well, too. Ive been lifting and eating healthy. But i had a fuckin breakdown yesterday bc someone said apples make you fat (after copius research it turns out they were talking out their ass). And idk... I know its fuckin stupid for me to feel like ""damn now I really have to be symptomatic"" bc I said it out loud and idk i just fuckin hate myself dudes.",1.7264082586677068,4.231824079470202,3.1125282430853147,88.56775613556678,83.03973509933775,5.93704713673549,22.789637709388394,7.285733465282438,0.9468843786521232,600,21,121,9,17,195,96,151,0.142,0.687,0.171,0.5988,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,0,6,14,7,0,4,1,16,8,2,2,2,23,30,9,0,2,4,1,2,4,0,1,1,4,0,0,9,8,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,12,7,21,6,13,14,3,12,0,1,1,5,10,5,6,1,10,77,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000524551908216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866154784355874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332282517870011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646618852467951,0.2326493144611524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505322523815049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16075935627909374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588263728640888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948624241479207,0.0,0.1836775523530375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181989688839563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868923608628243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409275174939403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280344377230565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431205661037997,0.16741473687890496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646613500427196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796399358507447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355343286960198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087531779410785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926757897801294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558953510530046,0.0,0.0,0.17711056580668982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640230630941597,0.0,0.14692732453823554,0.0,0.18724464950311312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinkyveggielover96,2019/02/04,"Wet ears after purging? Kinda gross. Weird question. I tried googling it but I only found ear infection results. I do not have an ear infection, thankfully! 

I've noticed after purging the inside of my ears are wet. Is the force making the wax discharge? Are my ears purging too? Does this happen to anyone else?",1.4882775119617229,3.865569087719301,2.5782775119617227,85.807033492823,103.73684210526315,4.1779904306220095,24.480063795853273,6.1124844417494595,1.2754350877192988,246,11,39,3,11,78,42,57,0.054000000000000006,0.861,0.085,0.591,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,5,7,5,2,0,7,9,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,5,1,4,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22256210729290152,0.3261350072625491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785456570401573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658980258300002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489984960226268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814708122627361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21246709773314387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36238559553761795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420807822802649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565677993204305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930470145175746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161041716521757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sepibad,2019/02/04,"dae weigh themselves at the worst times? i weigh myself after coming out of the shower, at the end of the day, right after binging... the absolute worst times

i do it because like is my scale *actually* accurate? might as well add a kg or two just to be safe!

do y'all do this too or am i just weird lmao",0.4895238095238099,2.6578360476190497,2.5295238095238126,92.95714285714287,85.34920634920636,5.504761904761906,18.52380952380953,6.868970318607317,0.08741904761904751,233,6,52,3,7,78,47,63,0.136,0.6990000000000001,0.165,0.2851,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,6,0,7,2,0,0,0,9,8,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,3,9,6,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,7,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.3350626637177059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093045926368589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29576791122040297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214340587114081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304108541363581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677447646483618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642429091825071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932212927701046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004233905750326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354056544982576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087152733647793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,general-zorp-zorp,2019/02/04,"feel like a bad girlfriend! reee Oy. I'm procrastinating on a bunch of hw problems to type this drivel lol

oh ALSO IF THIS IS NOT ALLOWED PLS TAKE IT DOWN,,, thx

So lately I've been made aware that I really don't show affection (or think about the feelings of people other than myself.) I have a really awesome and talented and superb and supportive SO who is an adorable pile of snuggles and netflix binges. 

For some reason I can't hug that well. Or cuddle for long periods of time. Or kiss either. Or do much of anything. I get self conscious whenever his hands go near my abdomen. Even when he's all ""oMg it'S totaLLy ConCave i SwEar"" I just...hate the FEELING of having someone run their hands over something that isn't **ROCK HARD ABS RAH.**

But he's starting to feel sad about it. He feels like he's doing something wrong. He's tolerated all of my self-loathing and existential dread and constant ""i NEED TO BE AMAZING AT EVERYTHING"" spiel when things don't go according to my (extremely detailed and elaborately calculated) plan. And yet I haven't even once asked about how he's doing. I haven't offered to cook things or taken him out to eat (c a l o r i e s.) He's so fuckin patient, I have no idea how he still has hope for me.

To be honest, I feel like my massive, childlike egocentrism and obsessive tendencies are hurting him almost as much as they hurt me. Like the other day when we were talking about our futures (I have two pretty distinct pathways after my undergrad), I didn't like what he was saying, so I basically did the young-adult equivalent of I CAN'T HEAR YOU NAH NAH NAH NAH and told him to fuck off, I do what I want. But when I looked up I saw that I hurt him a lot when I said that. And I didn't even apologize - HE was the one who said he was sorry. For what, dude?! For trying to help me?! 

man I really gotta stop doing this...

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EDAnonymous,notria17,2019/02/04,"Salad Bar Disaster So I went to the salad bar at my grocery store for lunch and I was just going to get plain veggies but the lady that was making it kept asking what else I wanted to add and then when I said nothing she would give me this stare because I wasn’t filling the bowl as much as I could. And then she just put bacon on it and said “don’t worry, it’s good” and then wouldn’t let me not get dressing and got super confused when I said just balsamic vinegar and kept saying, “are you sure you don’t want oil?” LIKE YES I AM VERY SURE THANK YOU. And now I want to just throw out my salad instead of eating it because it has all this stuff I don’t want on it. ",1.5456249999999976,2.9255523125000025,3.1025000000000027,94.1925,77.95833333333334,5.355555555555556,20.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.22130833333333344,519,12,119,2,12,171,84,144,0.057999999999999996,0.713,0.22899999999999998,0.9827,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,9,7,0,1,3,1,13,7,0,1,3,30,31,17,0,7,6,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,11,10,7,2,0,2,1,5,6,1,0,0,10,6,19,6,12,17,2,15,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,1,7,82,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634998364325628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20390002370229224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353022981948506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113172959214315,0.13971038337719632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475552615398934,0.1604350890059314,0.09504826669958576,0.14027581192290828,0.1337598085660164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710176866325582,0.0,0.08170666743820214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163625448771068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294312720825555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047453321680813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812578933691022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772602567819418,0.132998648042488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19145365690867147,0.0,0.0,0.3152498118843733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15397523399428664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799330323771627,0.394577913441452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550362883436299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984377007719792,0.0,0.11880489835550267,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnypod,2019/02/04,"Fucked up teeth fucked up thoughts Just had to have an emergency root canal (result of shitty dental work years ago and putting off getting it fixed). I've got loads of follow up work that need to be done to sort it all out now. 

My first thought was ""ooh this is a great excuse to not eat at social stuff for weeks"". Before even freaking out at the cost, I was thinking in terms of my ED.

Great.",2.3589107142857166,4.174237212500003,2.4371428571428595,97.94500000000002,76.875,5.071428571428573,20.17857142857143,5.288315135182226,-0.4077678571428569,307,7,69,1,7,92,64,80,0.185,0.7170000000000001,0.099,-0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,0,3,0,7,4,1,2,1,13,16,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,1,7,0,3,2,17,8,2,17,0,0,0,2,2,9,2,1,6,42,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103056430006614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377796035014947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899010658757675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20897018629265365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13488676704127495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371120885359698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776000702764294,0.10669761517371608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333506463779374,0.450311159267132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142809503325333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052996110193383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817870656714968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378543795452705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085727172662087,0.0,0.3242590616584621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381464534271553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29735223345205797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315123328698841
EDAnonymous,whoopsie__daisy,2019/02/04,"Mini Fridge Safe Foods Hey y'all, I'm gonna be moving into a new place soon with lots of roommates. I got myself a mini fridge (punk house kitchens are a scary place) so I can hoard safe food and bevs in peace- BUT it doesn't have a freezer compartment. I rely a lot of frozen fruit and veggies, and I usually freeze my bread because I can't get through a loaf before it goes bad. My game plan for now is to keep yogurt, quest bars, canned soup, almond milk, special k cereal, maybe meat sticks? Any ideas for easy to make, but also nutritious fridge foods that don't go bad right away?",4.174642857142857,4.889560445378155,4.291922268907567,90.78561449579833,70.59663865546219,7.294537815126048,23.278361344537807,7.1686216300943375,0.6045369747899159,459,10,100,4,8,142,92,119,0.081,0.8170000000000001,0.102,-0.3134,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,6,0,9,8,0,1,0,14,16,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,5,8,3,1,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,2,9,3,11,13,2,12,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,2,4,49,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259082033755712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275021295240024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577528649506242,0.0,0.2768734442300985,0.10107061389281118,0.0,0.1410842482233742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6014608679153796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662406207138837,0.0,0.09422840164845728,0.0,0.1326060264288258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913118341931957,0.0,0.1871688943019141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473713474303099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819157806304089,0.0,0.0,0.11067330517078472,0.0,0.1665691642195711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621998525403415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013142223533774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34645304319171244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159295643424513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18260613015580332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throw-edaway,2019/02/04,"Teletubby probs Made a throwaway so ppl don’t stalk my post history

WHY is it that the top of my stomach (sternum?? I think, idk that under boob bit) is so bloated/fat??? It makes me look 10x bigger than I am, like my stomach would be so much flatter if it would just go down. It’s not even bloat because it’s permanent and I’ve barely eaten for a week.  My legs aren’t that fat n my arms are skinny so I look like some kinda weird ass teletubby

Seriously if anyone has any answers I’m dying to know why tf my body is like this and why it’s not disappearing fast enough",0.6516346153846158,2.798354791666668,2.7600000000000016,91.71576923076924,84.41666666666666,5.6923076923076925,20.89743589743589,7.010146845296331,0.4785512820512818,445,14,98,6,13,150,82,120,0.066,0.831,0.102,0.6381,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,3,0,11,10,9,2,0,16,20,8,1,4,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,2,3,0,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,2,10,4,6,15,4,9,0,0,2,2,1,4,2,4,5,55,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567454793685094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950296286379402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162025676524672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21781470259233954,0.22161211429001432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20706126481836296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061485396718802,0.0,0.13177535377312935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338688825238538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096462109137507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924134787088321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350785429190489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887824472135614,0.13317536397082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466637857818193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910767069338184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783880623579216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003595694936165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5400838379369527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834542533268541,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spencersins666,2019/02/04,"The last 10 lbs are the hardest Hw: 150 Cw: 131 GW: 120 ? Ugh I’m happy I’ve already lost 20 lbs but these last 10 lbs are KILLING me ... I’m trying to do omad + keto but have binged lately bc of social situations, and this makes me feel worse bc when I binge my face bloats up and looks fat and makes me want to stress eat on account of how ugly I am. Why am I like this ?",0.4444750430292608,1.6103667349397632,2.540309810671257,97.9686746987952,80.44578313253012,5.224784853700517,17.881239242685027,5.288315135182226,-0.7540519793459549,281,5,73,1,7,95,60,83,0.23800000000000002,0.691,0.07200000000000001,-0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,1,2,0,6,3,2,3,0,10,14,7,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,7,2,6,13,0,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,5,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531522909427503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347368881474005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599322185930222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442041219176297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25380080755681683,0.0,0.0,0.3739886814602217,0.2587769604207681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207488465785168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192641029483976,0.0,0.2504208454510777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062570225326535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578589665749489,0.0,0.2338478164042363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627807517039171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557498099075236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530803398306973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20700083357862525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337816026534818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietingdietdie,2019/02/04,"Trainer asked if I was bulking. Cue emotional breakdown. I’ve gained a significant amount of weight in the past week and a half, probably 15-20 lbs (including water) from daily binges and a personal trainer at the gym this morning asked if I was bulking. I lasted about 10 minutes before having a complete break down in the gym and I’ve been crying ever since. I don’t know how I’m going to keep it together through work. I’m so ashamed and disappointed in myself. ",4.4142380952380975,6.136015566666668,5.550952380952385,78.165,71.1111111111111,8.253968253968255,31.74603174603175,8.841846274778883,2.831603174603175,371,17,66,7,7,123,65,90,0.121,0.81,0.069,-0.7547,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,7,0,5,2,0,1,1,10,12,8,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,1,5,0,10,9,1,11,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,4,39,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552786523264988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072002888976679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553047765500015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674729592154907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27390436030883103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202593967326337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838647680224278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643369934858428,0.0,0.0,0.13382105335931874,0.19848473466186592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23244799242986924,0.0,0.21261452406272302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625338339058416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014254474853933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953207516781081,0.296517005057464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727066352801799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DenimWizard,2019/02/04,"All or Nothing Mentality I know it's common for people with EDs to think think this way when it comes to food. ""Oh, I went 100kcal over my calorie limit, might as well binge!"" But DAE apply this sort of thinking to themselves and their lives as a whole?

Like

I feel like I have to pick myself and my appearance from a set archetype. I can either be the waify, ethereal Tumblr girl with long beautiful hair who snorts kale and has pilates for breakfast or I can be the chubby Nerd with thick glasses who plays videogames and eats junk all the time.

Why can't I just be me, made up of all my different interests and parts? Why can't I just be a normal person and not think about this shit at all, or just strive to be the best version of myself?",4.480671140939594,5.25933146308725,4.634422818791943,88.37458724832216,69.93959731543623,7.570738255033557,26.309395973154363,7.554174236665415,1.1758773154362414,584,17,123,6,10,182,97,149,0.042,0.826,0.131,0.9115,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,6,8,1,0,7,0,12,5,2,2,4,36,22,13,0,1,9,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,10,3,1,6,1,0,3,3,2,1,0,2,4,15,6,20,14,9,13,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,6,6,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881010280058619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439914787442585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18726735824773086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340698088102048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062898802048636,0.12804889183475768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673738098580475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850546262911053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513494696051085,0.0,0.1582719566493683,0.1586215119205605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16960095696927885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806314802026588,0.19014501798057615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756168694766898,0.1719853455331236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409915005708575,0.0,0.1242622535139458,0.15650520997044776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398699691211973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593983009632907,0.0,0.0,0.1045161221828796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227214687262002,0.0,0.0,0.16115803417167407,0.1661570162346444,0.3234719368237535,0.2001147464433562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pollyhotpocketposts,2019/02/04,"What food or ingredient makes your ED slightly more bearable? Shout out to xanthum gum, shirataki, sugar free jelly and mushrooms from me.",7.255652173913043,10.258706956521742,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,66.39130434782608,8.078260869565218,37.58695652173913,8.841846274778883,3.9812782608695656,112,6,15,2,2,34,23,23,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8754671884153509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832775620780674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AsianMemes,2019/02/04,"Purging and alcohol Might not apply to everyone since some people like the taste but purging alcohol has to be the worse thing ever. Mixed in with the bile and binge food, yuck. Wanna Kms ",4.589047619047619,6.8625048571428575,4.805714285714289,81.38761904761904,71.85714285714286,8.095238095238095,25.952380952380953,8.841846274778883,2.157952380952381,150,5,26,3,3,47,29,35,0.107,0.848,0.045,-0.5267,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,1,9,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,18,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6229906393683465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636534445561244,0.0,0.2785143390234307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35244954514433463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239867648661858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30920612214606696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20207024063130405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411089553434449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364129029833996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970352448401484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinpeach,2019/02/04,Having trouble coping with needing to eat I am not necessarily trying to recover but basically i got to the point where restricting was making me super sick and i couldn’t deal with it because i’m super busy and i need to be at least somewhat functioning so i decided not to count calories or weigh myself to try to allow myself to eat more which has been working i guess but mentally i feel worse because without knowing “for sure” that i haven’t gained 30 lbs or that i haven’t eaten 3526 calories that day my brain instantly assumes that i have (even though i know i haven’t) but I also know that if i start counting again or weigh myself i’m gonna be really upset by what the scale says and how much i’ve been eating. i still mentally count calories and actively restrict just not as low but without having a concrete exact number i feel so out of control and guilty. i’m not really looking for advice or anything (if you have it then feel free to give it) i just felt like i needed to talk about it because it’s been eating me up for the past month. ,4.818128772635814,5.525451741784039,5.855308517773306,80.1812323943662,69.14084507042253,8.33923541247485,29.298792756539235,8.418075326091056,2.1140398390342052,843,30,161,12,14,280,123,213,0.121,0.742,0.13699999999999998,0.5482,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,5,12,8,0,1,4,0,16,9,1,4,2,49,37,22,0,6,18,0,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,12,8,7,3,9,0,1,0,10,3,0,0,7,6,25,6,24,26,4,13,0,1,1,0,5,6,0,9,8,116,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241766810896645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016222095117274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457228640198606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323920858400068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185825378214495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252594794607393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195316712303638,0.13100923236548373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201197315064896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393215116226453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927595313826937,0.0,0.12201238177275413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190237254198807,0.0,0.0,0.10163386398817477,0.0,0.13998795966316024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20951206925901733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062082657072903835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671139219224683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848238647048712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561243757825494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143042984323386,0.0,0.09341509383812988,0.28267455825349386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130791746776863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201273960114391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281560337735146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010555162322173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994467354652748,0.0,0.10148263655307203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976712903091842,0.0,0.0,0.10213845132706308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485100661317845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255180885847715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449924417380709,0.0,0.09251245750036476,0.0,0.12950076292113474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theHBIC,2019/02/04,"This sucks. CW: suicidal thoughts   


  


  
I've had ED behaviors for the last 12 years. I've been in ""recovery"" for a month and a half but have engaged in behaviors (purged) so many times since then. My boyfriend loves me and tries and today he lost his temper and told me how ""silly"" and ""insignificant"" my triggers are and I just want to die. I just don't think I can recover and I think that I'm going to destroy everyone in the process. Why not just let myself go?",1.4468478260869588,3.799565641304348,2.748000000000001,91.747,82.80434782608697,6.723478260869566,23.33043478260869,7.908726449838941,1.2313921739130431,357,13,77,7,10,115,67,92,0.204,0.7,0.096,-0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,3,0,4,0,7,1,0,2,0,18,18,11,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,5,0,10,3,7,12,0,11,0,1,0,1,4,3,1,0,6,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516688648992777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23171191525727514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275628080278281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766370112006293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479649461107432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26470914016011543,0.0,0.2188588918525384,0.0,0.0,0.245849270338743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19355514963267928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20059224966370734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26524736786976644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107587243192313,0.0,0.19251190824238185,0.14139929003760035,0.0,0.22985447629890665,0.23171191525727514,0.0,0.1646364470436084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430283220548081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188117070299158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561571789463543
EDAnonymous,LecheFrijole,2019/02/04,"I think a lot of my ED stems from a bit of gender dysphoria and the inability to compute that I'm supposed to have hips. I'm OK with being a woman, I identify as female for the most part. I'm a bit gender fluid but I'm most comfortable with female pronouns. Currently my BMI is 20 and at my lowest it was 18 (I'm aiming to get back to that). But when I look at myself in the mirror, especially from behind, all I can see is a thin upper body on top of a HUGE dumpy ass. It's totally dysmorphia warping my reflection, because according to many people my butt is one of my best physical features, and all of my boyfriends have loved my butt, say its proportional to my body and that it's not big, it's a ""cute little butt"" (one guy's wording). 

But like I said, when I look in the mirror all I can see is a HUUUUGE fucking dumpy ass attached to a skinny body. I guess what my brain WANTS to see is a male shaped ass (less of a hip to waist ratio.)

No matter how thin I get, when I look in the mirror I see a fat ass. I could suffer for the rest of my life trying to get rid of it and it will never go away, because I have a female body. When I look at other women who are shaped like me, I don't think they have a 'fat, dumpy ass.' I think they look like women, that's it. 

I don't know how to accept this fact about myself though. Maybe I never made the mental adjustments after going through puberty... I think I should still have my prepubescent body.",4.263039215686273,3.922145434640527,5.847843137254905,83.41529411764708,70.14379084967321,8.760784313725491,26.15032679738562,8.344100000000001,1.4632169934640524,1117,28,247,15,18,384,146,306,0.142,0.738,0.12,-0.8448,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,2,2,10,11,1,0,21,1,20,23,20,3,7,38,50,16,0,3,4,0,2,3,0,2,3,2,0,5,16,7,4,0,8,0,0,2,6,2,0,2,3,13,37,9,38,43,13,29,0,1,9,10,11,17,9,4,13,166,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930404111135448,0.0761467019779989,0.0,0.12073354740238043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039241621631026,0.0,0.21622665845154015,0.549990959919203,0.0,0.11054840881640546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906609346500196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155013006414696,0.15521470437551066,0.0,0.11256020675940244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909091139655168,0.0980536530773024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442340098162622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994666460664814,0.1451407747844682,0.0992524399555678,0.0,0.0,0.4157944389881206,0.0,0.0,0.08419037679022515,0.0893769680258394,0.09370303576726567,0.0,0.10039922156348488,0.09948730550606097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979730275454617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527535638962285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342083694318692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723807179631337,0.0,0.06865380121438479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419865479366143,0.0787513325713739,0.0,0.0,0.31565115071735306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908418223351732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25381351730451474,0.09729486830854107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06723376116342028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058409496908607215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,betty_draper_,2019/02/04,DAE just eat hot sauce? Not much more to add... I just straight up drink hot sauce when I’m too hungry to stand it. Kills my appetite and my salt craving pretty quick. Anyone else?,0.3558333333333329,2.7926095833333378,0.65688888888889,103.17700000000002,92.05555555555556,2.8800000000000003,15.533333333333335,3.1291,-1.40616,139,3,31,0,5,41,30,36,0.08800000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.2406,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,2,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634787066833138,0.3860928123070043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691365021556317,0.0,0.3855771300821597,0.3147816526698087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4168913874705621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770033252469473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833576279934117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deviroxx,2019/02/04,"I put my hair in a bun for the first time in a while and Wow. I didn't realize how thin my hair had gotten because of my eating disorder. My stupid bun is half the size of what it used to be and my hair is almost twice as long. Thanks, ED. Love it. :(",-0.951190476190476,0.7686300714285714,1.5357142857142847,100.67595238095241,87.57142857142858,5.161904761904762,14.690476190476188,6.42735559955562,-0.8482166666666666,188,3,50,2,6,64,41,56,0.13699999999999998,0.698,0.165,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,4,0,5,5,3,2,0,6,9,5,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,3,4,7,3,7,5,0,8,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,4,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33377970442412697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20319357068019106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820226077272684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410776179533476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835285089166054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29498466842502824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008414092102045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33508656682327137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30688351108088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436615673305915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878882499747256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CansOfCorn,2019/02/04,"I can't tell if ""over""eating is recovering or an excuse to binge? I've always had a history of binging, going on five-six years now. Whenever someone would leave, i'd eat all the food in sight.Made me feel better. That caused me to gain a lot of weight, and with depression going on as well, that was a huge self hatred shit show. Fast forward to 2017-2018 and I went to a 1200 deficit (usually 900-1100 per day) and heavily exercised. Lost 30 lbs in 2 months. Got diagnosed with the high risk of anorexia and sent to an ED doctor. After being scared shitless I convinced those around me I was ""fine"" but then accidentally lost another 8-10 lbs. I've obsessed over calories and refused to eat over my maintenance each day in fear of becoming fat and disgusting again. Every day I go to school, eat a little, then come home and binge the rest of my daily calories. I don't go over, but the whole idea of consuming until I'm in physical pain and then STILL EATING isn't a healthy habit. Body dysmorphia as well. Baggy clothing 24/7 and streetwear really helps with that. 
Basically, I don't know if going over my calories some days to teach myself ""it's okay and safe"" is recovery, or just feeding into my need to use food as a comfort. I want to call my psychiatrist about what's going on but I don't even think I look skinny enough to be satisfied with myself yet. ",3.797252611081607,5.386954159851303,4.846606479022835,83.12998760842629,72.45724907063197,8.246486103735174,26.93591786156843,8.841846274778883,2.0324401132943892,1075,38,212,21,21,352,168,269,0.152,0.736,0.11199999999999999,-0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,4,10,18,2,4,13,1,13,16,4,2,1,40,33,24,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,1,6,18,10,2,4,2,0,10,5,10,2,0,8,3,20,8,40,22,7,43,0,3,1,0,7,17,1,6,18,127,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883572965614234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134784803982076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094530233311617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172767996674496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391505426790613,0.0,0.11795142891960153,0.0,0.0,0.10843027951756212,0.0,0.0,0.10908478858878054,0.0,0.09147194667437912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739310606991094,0.0,0.09145995595291707,0.10777904099087238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868837765077914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43462917524654016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972105429293796,0.0,0.07013646940611752,0.0,0.0894683485720921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949152783119055,0.053692070671952204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25680698927175794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620960577799605,0.0,0.08492860356278999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711758793418652,0.11219392704476648,0.10651567292315503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987383418041665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05835839477607317,0.0,0.0,0.11243823561636347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642872310333973,0.0,0.0,0.08917155333367242,0.0,0.2318344730177179,0.09027762242806267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475860729216872,0.0,0.0,0.07873738979359292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299199710792378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680270398588821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631316267199796,0.10746838002243367,0.0,0.0,0.11077771166641867,0.0,0.1090009174403752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997312866486516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480223293808217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281338530636826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804127073646707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09171272612411584,0.11695157493058125,0.0,0.06263269876160671,0.0,0.0,0.12930892415335607,0.19095233763710245,0.09843775654092712,0.0,0.11855561165603773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543322782771641,0.0,0.0,0.06838187995145076
EDAnonymous,probablyjustnew,2019/02/04,Does anyone have a low cal muffin recipe? Been craving muffins but they’re usually like 200 cals a piece and I wasn’t planning on binging them (but who knows),1.7408064516129007,4.4699042903225825,1.8970161290322598,95.26552419354843,86.74193548387099,4.390322580645162,23.87903225806452,5.985473137389443,0.4998322580645169,127,5,25,1,4,38,29,31,0.054000000000000006,0.833,0.113,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031308643873285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5045349042555386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168518494163653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28166880475863004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6349784457077684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,armheartbrain,2019/02/17,"Dentist and doctor appointment in the same week. 😬 So tomorrow I have a dentist appointment, first one in like 4 years. I have a tooth that is broken in half and has been that way for about 2 years. It never hurt so I basically ignored it and only chewed on the other side of my mouth. I brush and floss well but that does not make up for years of not going to the dentist with bulimia. It's rough in there. Looks fine from the front tho. 💁🏻 

A n d then the next day I have a doctors appointment. Full physical with a Pap smear and I really am not comfortable with that. I'm even less comfortable talking to my doctor about my mental health issues. I have been having serious anxiety problems and have already talked to my doctor about it and she said ""well you don't seem anxious"" like. I know lady. I know. But how do you want me to seem. I gotta talk about problems with depression.  I already worry that I'm just making it up or that I'm just oversensitive. If she dismisses me it will really negatively impact me. I kinda wanna just as for a referral to a psychologist. But I dunno. That's scary too. I'm just nervous about all the stuff I have to do coming up this week. 😬",0.6642499999999991,3.0892135916666703,2.9191666666666656,88.38250000000002,88.08333333333334,6.366666666666667,20.083333333333336,7.675431598112923,0.9729333333333336,922,29,190,19,30,313,130,240,0.172,0.758,0.07,-0.981,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,1,18,14,0,1,13,0,16,12,2,3,2,41,32,18,0,5,12,0,1,2,0,2,9,1,0,0,16,12,1,1,4,0,0,3,6,7,2,3,3,4,25,7,31,27,4,25,0,2,1,0,8,10,0,6,13,139,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683646875427215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930193136747634,0.1373669588855003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474273062921452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841827014986445,0.0,0.10472900028943484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4978277111922707,0.10640799933905948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803118944045254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342805723902887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910484802690159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924906461086616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016922280898074,0.0,0.0,0.12691286755012274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336501046762069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188096749611985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210859536931227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233029109408004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253846432760784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378102726108134,0.0,0.12931692722903465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239545075953646,0.0924779513513067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326986643559763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579285607217766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566403280990376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22138978455856745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919639278309912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931986993314015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717194739314018,0.0965159028470726,0.1950712406748272,0.0,0.21865577361484093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348492326111958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23490824538274346
EDAnonymous,glitterfitte,2019/02/17,"Well FML i guess Part of what made me develop an ed years ago was being horribly confused, and insecure about this guy I was sleeping with and had an everlasting crush on. Well, since then I recovered and we kept in touch (kept sleeping together lmao). I'm in the middle of a really rough patch and feel like I'm relapsing and GUESS WHO THE FUCK showed up in the new city I live in last night, rejected me, and then asked me where my friend was because he wanted to go home with her!? This fucking idiot man. I cried on the bus back home and I've spend all day binging and just wallowing in self-loathing BECAUSE I WON'T EVER BE GOOD ENOUGH WILL I

My god I'm over my entire life right now",1.8044285714285733,4.00389115714286,2.975714285714286,91.53928571428571,80.28571428571428,6.857142857142858,22.142857142857146,7.957251820313856,1.0212857142857144,542,17,117,10,14,174,96,140,0.179,0.742,0.079,-0.9462,1,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,8,11,3,2,7,0,8,5,2,1,2,22,22,10,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,2,1,0,2,2,4,11,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,6,2,0,7,3,15,5,15,11,3,24,0,1,0,2,8,12,2,3,12,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035022382284826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801742159839906,0.0,0.0,0.12174619804029425,0.0,0.1930333158277085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17391835777082998,0.10210992040774564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359748459795248,0.0,0.0,0.14321878621184678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005653756602882,0.11311117053563928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223255673707177,0.2927475511316226,0.0,0.0,0.08998273639970719,0.13279991151662915,0.0,0.0,0.3488372669670755,0.1567718516498944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176363237262108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12906029527702415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183334616277248,0.07735216825602904,0.0,0.13980852175338065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981592180833275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291635328878056,0.0,0.1485822249422382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145624416071864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143041987041926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521317831975027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517299341435335,0.0,0.0,0.1309724285500234,0.0,0.31688921167840634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338729049780607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28471583978882314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019594974203282
EDAnonymous,Stranger_Being,2019/02/17,"I disgust myself HAE ever binged, proceeded to purge, and then immediately binged again?!? 

I baked a cake earlier. Ate half in one sitting. Felt disgusted and promptly purged. After about 7 minutes of feeling repulsive for purging (because I'm trying to stop) I then ate the other half of the cake. It's taking EVERYTHING in me not to purge again. Uggghhh.

Seriously... what the hell is wrong with me? I didn't think I could disgust myself more than I do already but this incident takes the cake. Pun intended. 

Anyone else done this before? ",2.813312401883831,5.833705040816327,3.9663265306122457,80.05284929356361,85.3265306122449,6.688854003139719,26.926216640502357,7.882392219407189,2.341349136577708,426,19,70,9,13,138,72,98,0.138,0.8490000000000001,0.013000000000000001,-0.899,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,5,0,5,3,0,1,1,12,13,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,3,1,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,5,2,10,0,12,7,1,11,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,8,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895542319483504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346940570342773,0.2688498805539994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995069762069747,0.0,0.2232748279391369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949731172433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685163872064225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191934349028369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373470576179799,0.0,0.0,0.235819491696768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267242473535554,0.0,0.25193584599542995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177802464841189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937004830742865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39456971664267537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681291158583967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814579680842538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868826133779641,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ch1ckmunk,2019/02/17,"Currently getting thinspo from women being arrested on the show ""Cops"" , how are y'all doing today? Just sitting here with some hot decaf coffee, watching tv, having a relaxing Sunday. For lunch I had a nap and it was quite satisfying. Overall 10/10 day.",4.1080000000000005,7.175054911111115,5.488888888888892,71.74000000000002,77.66666666666667,7.155555555555559,29.0,8.238735603445708,2.9091333333333336,201,9,28,4,5,67,44,45,0.065,0.7979999999999999,0.136,0.5256,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,4,4,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,4,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911350492044756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168653229762053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6450754051947291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5748803892914192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Jelly_King_,2019/02/17,"Where my B/P hoes at? Do you guys ever do weird things when you know you’re going to purge later, but tell yourself it has nothing to do with your ED?

Example, I ate a fistful of blueberries before dinner and told myself that it was a healthy snack. Which would be a totally normal thing to do. But I definitely ate them to know when everything is out when purging later.",4.555405405405402,5.4016296756756725,5.649567567567567,80.91840540540544,69.81081081081078,8.622702702702702,28.313513513513517,8.841846274778883,2.1409113513513507,292,10,57,5,5,97,56,74,0.019,0.879,0.102,0.797,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,1,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,0,2,11,15,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,8,0,8,9,1,10,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,6,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602653944220794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766690098299057,0.0,0.0,0.2748883677814508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738279958934123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028507230959156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361866860305642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996790826856279,0.2934821167141825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673362122549233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064012449313744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922635299939733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21727505509101086,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7st1lb,2019/02/17,"Can't seem to get my fat ass back at the gym. SOS Everything is in the title... I just need to make that one leap and then I'll be back on the exercising train. But I've been putting it off foreeeever (well 17 days now to be exact). How do you motivate yourself? 

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heeeeelp ",0.4971674876847274,2.829823741379311,1.8828078817733989,96.32155172413796,87.44827586206895,5.383251231527094,22.07881773399015,6.868970318607317,0.4812334975369459,219,8,50,3,7,70,50,58,0.06,0.895,0.045,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,0,3,0,6,3,2,3,1,9,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,7,7,0,10,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,5,31,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116010577618537,0.34945042696343026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422742442520633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547021839658304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25846520216869723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025265767982252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919669643570425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21324257050258694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487680891265546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891049825815429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618089611921957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585758013312186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34945042696343026,0.0
EDAnonymous,drippycup,2019/02/17,"STOP. DEPRESSION EATING PEANUT BUTTER. BY. THE. SPOONFUL. Just STOP alread. ESPECIALLY dont have a minor binge a couple days into ReCoVeRy to purge and get rid of it. Who tf does that fucking help? 


me @ my bulimic ass.",0.6919722222222227,2.3844284750000035,2.9583333333333366,81.76888888888891,114.25,5.777777777777778,19.444444444444443,6.937597516519254,1.4596111111111107,169,6,28,4,9,57,38,40,0.28300000000000003,0.6559999999999999,0.061,-0.8958,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,4,0,4,0,1,0,2,2,1,2,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35093216678223954,0.0,0.20454234626149564,0.0,0.2731699564385109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775493747083189,0.0,0.3717098562104338,0.0,0.0,0.3245344687518859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29320986017646056,0.16570332099432322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21258606191871776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.530320919231329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinisme776,2019/02/17,"My phone is getting shut off.. My mom is shutting my phone off tomorrow and taking it away and I'm freaking out cause I have a lot of shit on here that I don't even let my fiance fucking see. I'm so scared cause then I won't have a phone when I'm at my fiance's house meaning if anything jappens, I can't call anyone.. kill me now..",-0.38364864864864856,1.5005921891891916,1.890472972972976,97.98408783783786,86.56756756756758,4.2405405405405405,20.06081081081081,5.148860815047168,-0.4044810810810815,258,8,62,1,8,87,51,74,0.14300000000000002,0.804,0.053,-0.7509,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,1,2,0,8,2,1,2,0,8,16,6,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,10,0,7,14,1,12,0,0,1,1,5,8,2,2,4,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16034960776363494,0.0,0.18871521262898924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21545870311194495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341668092649952,0.0,0.0,0.4711605834981549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146722232033358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200757882807106,0.11981302356828953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646106491772682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537145080998521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23450069442777724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949642008308705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24980252110267834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685830631489323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295946685421943,0.0,0.1827426027985734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353991630154907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724241135912709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fallen-fawn,2019/02/17,"Do you have any health-related obstacles that you feel makes your ED so much harder? I have two! And they suck!

1. I am allergic to all RAW fruits and vegetables. It varies for each fruit/veg, like an apple will just give me mild discomfort but a banana will wreck me for a whole day. I can however eat cooked vegetables or anything that’s somewhat processed like canned fruit or Naked juice.

2. Probably like some of you I have terrible digestive problems. My gall bladder just randomly quit functioning 3 years ago and I had it removed. No one could tell me why (or even more frustratingly, no doctor really seemed to care about what could have caused it). Honestly I highly suspect my EDNOS played a big part. But yeah I still have problems around that area.

These things are so frustrating and I have to be so much more conscious of when I eat, how much, and what foods. I have to walk a very fine line between eating how I want to lose weight but also minimizing these 2 health concerns.

And I feel pretty alone dealing with this stuff, so I was just wondering if you guys have any health obstacles you think are specific to you or anything where you have to put extra work into food planning to keep the balance while still trying to lose weight?",4.907510548523206,6.61270171308017,4.780443037974685,84.24045358649789,69.8438818565401,8.642194092827003,27.5126582278481,9.150863307647796,2.1985341772151896,994,34,190,20,18,306,150,237,0.201,0.685,0.114,-0.9746,1,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,8,1,5,17,16,3,1,6,1,22,18,1,4,1,42,33,23,0,6,11,0,4,3,0,2,5,0,0,1,13,10,13,1,7,2,0,3,2,9,0,2,2,6,27,7,18,26,12,16,0,2,0,0,13,6,1,10,10,132,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498312097072724,0.0,0.0,0.11097638335813477,0.0,0.08568881860270508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573305332145886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635270328059194,0.09538733287910782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924784406153397,0.11007385337624452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711031136690186,0.0,0.0,0.06910369401791673,0.11046823722279006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967384820567214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289274475940516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077239227954528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835778647178462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591354417860754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278924595498333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609658712665836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34169031512307657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321118219136253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524095729284117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570460699247074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397496885709169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152429366375182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23630550061184516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260846237584563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160343655800633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090113462423751,0.1155271740870684,0.20505855675344925,0.0,0.1077166050058318,0.0,0.11396854746135633,0.0,0.0,0.06864383666978731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975464767431764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114225869920513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266254938929765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365491832301928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118653152032957,0.06865819657782735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274866744132533,0.0,0.10467120485080372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841100581256144,0.06320058542747786,0.0,0.0,0.2609627197638511,0.0,0.0,0.09668733984991593,0.11963054778931727,0.0,0.0,0.1162009635070737,0.07800738861443861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900189407473542
EDAnonymous,hopeless_anon,2019/02/17,"At my grandmas house... my low key ED grandma She is the bestest. She bought me the perfect low-fat whole wheat waffles and hazelnut coffee. Just bless. I know she’s high key enabling me but I need this right now. I get so anxious traveling and all with my ocd and ed it’s like double bad.


Like my schedule and routine is all weird and messed up. But bless those waffles. But at the same time I’m upset that there isn’t any no stick pans here. I mean she has ultra diet low key cancerous fake butter but still. :((


This is weird ",-0.4101142263759101,1.7521667476635514,0.7339408099688463,100.3883047767394,101.14953271028035,3.1254413291796475,18.09397715472482,5.033348758259628,-0.6635187954309449,410,13,89,2,18,127,71,107,0.233,0.654,0.113,-0.9379,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,13,0,1,3,0,5,2,0,0,3,18,11,10,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,1,1,1,2,8,0,0,1,1,14,5,4,10,5,12,2,2,0,0,4,7,0,0,6,52,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20408266659155536,0.0,0.0,0.33903484915672344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25057633740665985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567932256233048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31707892510330865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34628253242547624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493064797498766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932336899327039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269038864560371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22252511859426227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25628925536381897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396653863059675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499447538619173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350581167718852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollyy___,2019/02/17,"Relapse hwg 😌 Tried to recover for a few months, couldn’t stop losing weight still, felt like a failure, binge fest, finally managed to gain weight but way too fast (almost 10lbs in a week), felt disgusting about it and going back to restricting. Just wish my brain could accept my body as it is but nope there’s always new numbers to achieve and god forbid I get in the way of that by being a happy healthy human being. ",4.4730894308943085,5.840499073170732,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,70.46341463414635,7.417886178861789,25.861788617886177,7.793537801064563,1.3834813008130076,332,10,64,4,6,104,66,82,0.166,0.612,0.222,0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,1,0,5,0,5,4,2,0,0,15,10,5,0,3,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,3,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,4,3,3,11,4,1,13,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,9,38,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166356659755254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926355150245786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717794492031552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126068157989241,0.0,0.21367028644931232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528206061034501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675559210503773,0.2096738453227185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000074688287153,0.0,0.10877936588403518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20375323285685573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351037931619753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21413223836121836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277693346320112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848592808976498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285556845516168,0.1600224053824507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995082571211786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038553447174244,0.15353283068185866,0.4661572796607456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22010527892502416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Disastrous_Example,2019/02/17,"Eating normally makes me miserable So, I’m back to restricting I guess? I was never recovered really, just eating kinda normally for two months. My ed just kind of let me so I went with it but yeah. I miss my eating disorder a lot. 

I don’t want to hardcore restrict or anything, I just want to feel somewhat in control and valid maybe? When my ed just kind of decided to shut up like two months ago it was pretty easy to eat most days, but I’ve been really struggling since school started. I didn’t really count calories strictly or anything but I did restrict pretty low on some days and then ate normally on some days. As I said I don’t really want to fully ”relapse” I guess, but I’ve already ”relapsed” enough that I felt like I needed to go back here for some support and stuff you know. 

Sorry if this made no sense, I just wanted to tell someone I guess. So yeah. Hi lol",1.5866357655502412,3.9565784829545487,3.2419497607655536,88.3181220095694,82.35227272727272,6.432535885167465,22.89952153110048,7.669130373188453,1.2163568181818178,687,24,137,12,19,227,102,176,0.139,0.6729999999999999,0.188,0.8937,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,12,9,0,2,1,3,8,5,0,3,1,45,29,16,0,9,12,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,4,5,4,4,0,0,2,5,4,0,2,10,3,21,5,18,18,7,20,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,13,14,87,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09039169402294617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125282252123809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782791965713012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15681977245160267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436984962248906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197289789017816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686831804875066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173697234456824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536394861305796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515599181183986,0.0,0.09790875245194963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057952825114523474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33699972797288225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123755137707492,0.05604093897886002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427289659297087,0.0,0.09963637156483347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669263006736957,0.0,0.09648801829455904,0.06806685232056871,0.0,0.10244420445018963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278555835607245,0.0,0.0,0.07561066875997384,0.07864680448766896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997316291906785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748360664221635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613025395418947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699836779705308,0.0,0.0,0.10320072973397501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435198295001646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640022798077568,0.0,0.0,0.11414888700668832,0.07217604187942246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660288413271543,0.11673311551732456,0.0,0.11571619300932312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912769589248795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19922292350875412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24058202853925065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452871911048087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Haybaybay2792,2019/02/17,"Trashorexia I feel like trash. A dumpster fire that smells like my black vanilla leave in conditioner. Smells nice, but we know whats underneath

Restriction time and I eat trash. Just small amounts.

The trashy part? There is food in the trash I want to eat",2.0511170212765957,4.809221851063832,1.0118882978723427,98.27187500000002,96.44680851063828,4.903191489361704,20.768617021276604,6.6274283507984215,0.4215553191489363,205,7,41,3,8,57,38,47,0.142,0.7140000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,4,2,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,4,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,3,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6269563824210325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490256204768915,0.21886045343557994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704463256129282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683649886225468,0.0,0.0,0.3243862743813819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993396768607512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33175318727298425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863837448739595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18069643030553004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taifun92,2019/02/17,"New Account, New Me? Made a new account after someone irl found out about the last one. How is everyone?

I'm back to my bad habits but is set on losing this stupid weight. New account but same sh\*t as always I guess. ",0.32734848484848555,2.7485400681818177,1.4836363636363683,97.48712121212124,91.5,3.8424242424242414,18.696969696969692,5.46131890053228,-0.410684848484848,169,5,36,1,6,53,36,44,0.23199999999999998,0.768,0.0,-0.9102,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,8,6,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,6,4,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641166883008752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15166280472452,0.16468435935530526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846806595634036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162597999754147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217278400279706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077418987498834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065735371821368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663008175681192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7619695202423091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365265465747175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16711796860241487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401810968157577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Psychology_tenz72_,2019/02/17,"Anorexia Research: Involuntary Treatment Effects [PAID] Want to MAKE A DIFFERENCE by sharing YOUR STORY? Research project at University of Missouri is looking for individuals who currently have an Anorexia Nervosa (AN) diagnosis or who are in recovery from AN who have also experienced involuntary treatment (i.e., tube-feeding). Earn up to $15 for participating! Take our quick survey below to see if you qualify!

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EDAnonymous,LeslieKnope2k20,2019/02/17,"Can we talk about ANYTHING else?! I saw a lot of my former coworkers at an event the other day, and no one would talk to me about anything other than my weight. In all fairness, I’ve lost almost 30 pounds in the nine months that I’ve been gone, so I expected some comments, but I thought they would be quick and in passing. It ended up being something that I couldn’t get away from. I’d try to change the subject by asking them about their lives, work, and kids, and I’d get a curt response before they started talking about my weight again. One woman actually asked the ridiculous, “what’s your secret?!” question. I ended up being so uncomfortable that I avoided them for the rest of the day, and subsequently didn’t get to talk to some coworkers that I would’ve enjoyed being around. I’m already focusing on my weight and body almost all of the time now, and I’m really trying to avoid a full blown relapse after two years of recovery. I guess I’m just upset that my body seems to be everyone else’s focus too.",7.389701492537316,6.1588370497512495,7.39526865671642,77.84245522388059,64.07462686567165,10.030049751243784,33.03532338308458,8.841846274778883,2.5719389054726367,801,26,157,10,10,258,119,201,0.11199999999999999,0.865,0.023,-0.9488,0,2,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,5,2,12,6,1,3,11,0,11,5,2,0,2,29,26,10,0,4,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,9,3,2,4,0,0,2,3,5,0,4,6,4,21,1,28,12,7,26,0,1,1,0,18,10,0,8,14,107,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.11290203296683105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317044861442313,0.0,0.1276727642248459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904149325761662,0.102993445639994,0.21631918520213464,0.0,0.10869964814830983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984482743457235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570230424068504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239040536045112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922793915157126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932973422331183,0.0,0.2049435898441559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055192430014177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133823304447705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745154006802648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216116854157296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629520925604573,0.0983601020786852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234697415683606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567964109487774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296053397151148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07411744355543083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532475797970173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890679806176266,0.0,0.0,0.08188980818067891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719663591960513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184923392160096,0.06746292520595695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570991807685025,0.0,0.11301760644190433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226575303157995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422763795022482,0.0,0.0,0.24656010392291386,0.0,0.0,0.07450405218321646
EDAnonymous,button_eyed_coraline,2019/02/17,"Tried on my wedding dress from 8 years ago for the first time, because why not spend my Sunday hating myself? And it fits but also doesn’t? The lace sleeves are too loose and the waist fits well. But the bodice section is too tight and the dress wouldn’t zip as a result. But the thing is: I have no more meat on my chest. My breasts are deflated balloons thanks to breastfeeding and rapid weight loss. My ribs are individually visible. I thought I literally *couldn’t* get skinnier in that area because I’m down to bones. But apparently that’s not true. 

Does anyone know if pregnancy stretches out the ribcage? I’m over a year postpartum but I weigh the same as I did on my wedding day. Why doesn’t my dress fit? :( I was feeling so thin and pretty this morning since I weighed .2 less than yesterday AND pooped, but now I’ll just lay on the couch and starve I guess. ",2.187543859649121,4.638534567251464,2.6752339181286584,92.80302631578951,80.52046783625731,5.905263157894738,23.535087719298247,7.1686216300943375,0.7793649122807023,685,24,145,9,18,211,112,171,0.125,0.785,0.09,-0.7440000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,1,0,11,0,12,9,6,1,1,28,21,18,0,3,10,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,8,4,1,3,0,1,0,7,2,1,1,3,4,16,3,15,16,4,24,0,1,0,1,2,15,0,2,9,88,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835633858671156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17894674487577364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156463400356221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27281311500554417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431149016923545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582039901161016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131435436224924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033647435665899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690925432189325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24650506836926003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22092402516375856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229767357162944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22765193735537284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851027428056231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20601499919892685,0.0,0.0,0.1486611474202014,0.0,0.0,0.1776463562184007,0.13048059663624745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192340663527806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724884646396308,0.20119380639333848,0.0,0.40383062852249263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28819779607854323
EDAnonymous,-wemeyeo,2019/02/17,at a friends party and I just ate 3 pizza bites. what is wrong with me I?? came here determined to not eat anything and idek the calories but knowing this place they’re probably like 300 each or something hahahahaha I want to die,1.4740000000000002,4.1656194000000015,2.806111111111111,88.30250000000002,88.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,25.277777777777786,7.1686216300943375,1.3587777777777776,183,8,36,3,6,59,41,45,0.145,0.6459999999999999,0.209,-0.1179,0,0,1,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,5,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26508315847280994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684275897920033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334317075239778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296164451300349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488746004363717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770326312647836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737503108622025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365542610101238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34730749942304434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24798918132611555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899989111682671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521954183877551,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twa1238,2019/02/17,"Tried on my favorite skirt from when I was 15 Almost exactly 11 years ago my best friend gave me a skirt for my 15th birthday. 

Three summers ago I tried it on again but couldn’t pull it up because it was too tight and I felt so bad about it, but I kept it because I felt nostalgic and remember how much I always loved it (she bought it at American Apparel which was VERY cool back then) 

I haven’t been on a scale for around three weeks (usually I weigh myself ten times a day, so it’s been hard but I really wanted to go a month without it) and I was sure I’ve gained a lot of weight. Since peach is down, I’m not feeling that great. First I fasted for a  and now it’s the fourth day in a row that I’ve binged. But I still feel like I’m somehow under maintenance, because my brain is so foggy, I’m freezing, I just feel awful. But I look wayyy fatter- and now I’m so scared of ever weighing myself again. So in an attempt to make everything worse I tried on the skirt again now when I was cleaning out my closet.

And it’s LOOSE. I’ve tried it on again and again, but there’s no denying. It falls off when I don’t hold it up. It’s not stretchy, so it didn’t get bigger. And I don’t feel good about it at all. I don’t see any weight loss, I think it’s literally just my butt that disappeared (I KNOW I’m not imagining it because my butt hurts whenever I sit, it’s pathetic lol) . I keep taking body checks and I just see no difference except that my butt is gone and I look older and uglier then before. 

I don’t know what my ED brain wants from me. I fit into a skirt I fit into when I was 15. and I wasn’t a chubby teen even. Why can’t I see this as a win and or at least don’t think about it anymore.

I wish peach would come back and I wish I would just stop having an eating disorder. I’m so tired of it.",0.5895846732808785,2.2528217949367075,2.524399589462881,95.97842969551832,81.68354430379749,5.890523434827232,19.03010605542251,6.885778809224403,-0.03734348272322974,1399,33,340,16,37,467,186,395,0.174,0.708,0.11800000000000001,-0.9747,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,6,36,13,0,1,14,3,24,13,6,2,4,68,60,36,0,7,16,0,11,1,1,2,1,0,2,0,29,19,5,5,12,0,2,6,16,4,0,4,16,17,48,9,35,41,5,61,0,2,5,4,4,22,3,4,33,219,77,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797603725745338,0.0,0.10153203552527952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436842147982976,0.0,0.0,0.06895179820834559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055618779881062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026268205339334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593236208073286,0.0846602474438917,0.247236803956116,0.0,0.08627932807524817,0.0,0.10640736671718144,0.0,0.0,0.11262653178075925,0.0,0.22637979141879602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734246124472198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078224484501466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593576587259852,0.1162069846222238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375197881688156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669701704584066,0.091717211657638,0.0,0.0,0.09112691958356353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20507260520027368,0.07243631539730418,0.19470941450220453,0.0,0.0,0.08624618650620823,0.0,0.0,0.07833720875894931,0.0,0.05297448839812965,0.0,0.05762488216942256,0.0850449715072279,0.0,0.1117878934937125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082963676515804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854500575028823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901241704438874,0.0,0.0,0.11144762999694746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04953627506395245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029183753797722,0.0,0.0,0.08620205456278192,0.09151257623678843,0.0,0.0676816762058643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093219442378402,0.0,0.07453669030396881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06495597074826218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486030484209513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151367307768988,0.0,0.24239508202410134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387465267907514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097385059735424,0.08477041743800638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556320117433982,0.0,0.07623611301147444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993911835061206,0.0,0.0,0.05912400085673551,0.1165381655253554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753610837357889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167181602952178,0.08366115569867043,0.1196103125193517,0.0,0.08133262411744276,0.24694258965901375,0.0,0.0,0.09149284660807236,0.0,0.233197549183064,0.0977407665418949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332974965166024,0.14405561524912905,0.0,0.0,0.06529479164537917
EDAnonymous,ssilverliningss,2019/02/17,"bulimia, pineapples, and mouth damage This is a bit stretch but here me out:
I used to not be able to eat pineapple (even small amounts in smoothies) because it caused pain/tingling/numbness in my mouth. I know a bit of pain is common but I think my mouth was super sensitive to it or something as it hurt quite a lot.
I've had severe bulimia for about a year now (throwing up 3-8 times every day).
I recently decided to try raw pineapple again after not having had it for a year or so, and I loved it. I've eaten a lot of pineapples this season with hardly any bad side effects.
DAE think that this could be linked to my bulimia? As in, throwing up constantly has damaged the inside of my mouth so that I don't feel the pineapple-mouth-pain I used to get?
or maybe it's just a random coincidence idk. 
thoughts? has anyone experienced something similar? ",3.381964285714286,5.217994220238097,4.401904761904763,84.87642857142858,74.05952380952381,7.180952380952381,28.66666666666667,7.957251820313856,1.9144952380952387,671,28,130,10,14,218,101,168,0.147,0.789,0.064,-0.9213,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,8,7,0,0,9,0,12,8,4,4,0,27,22,11,0,1,8,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,4,2,0,8,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,5,3,12,2,22,14,5,22,0,3,0,1,1,9,0,6,11,84,23,0,0.1500566669550579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204367919180594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049231105262662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252910490363073,0.09147315140017527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32764603195783765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414953197412273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215794837084754,0.0,0.11980803834149473,0.0,0.0,0.09677413630768528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535454319829977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911101330568438,0.0,0.12642921380061362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587315951084138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839841512348708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442129945858647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063876552119452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246721983763378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551456243359989,0.13543200053036855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075209094323325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790126202655345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596037361469362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481628556469321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952132172709736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310419066549097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230050632430207,0.0,0.1191282320699648,0.08749924922524423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187862688417136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592015622159332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932631474359558
EDAnonymous,lilpeachiie,2019/02/17,"Goodbye sex drive, I’ll miss you I tried to have sex with my boyfriend last night, and ended up just tensing the hell up and crying myself to sleep while he held me. 

I want to have sex, I really do and I miss it desperately, but lately I honestly feel like my body doesn’t deserve to feel good. Everywhere he touched me, I could feel the extra skin, and fat, and softness and I was immediately repulsed by myself. I feel like he deserves so much more (well, technically so much less) than me. I hate myself for so many reasons, and I don’t want it to affect how I am with him but it already is. 

I don’t know, I just needed to get it off my chest. He asked if I wanted to talk about it and of course I said no, even though I really wanted to. 

Sorry for the rant. I hope all of you have a wonderful day and I’m so thankful for this community, even if I just tend to lurk most of the time. ❤️",1.174537815126051,2.817367026455031,3.2929723000311237,91.25535014005604,79.7936507936508,6.351820728291317,20.64145658263305,7.285733465282438,0.38958487394958,684,18,159,9,17,233,106,189,0.146,0.696,0.158,0.8134,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,0,13,11,2,0,5,0,11,8,5,3,1,37,33,20,0,9,7,0,7,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,11,1,1,7,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,3,8,30,7,23,29,7,11,1,2,0,3,10,3,1,5,9,109,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095627547043696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448277651051274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17207938712195742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368971398715073,0.0,0.1701705569162253,0.09990953367529942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372116951254959,0.0,0.0,0.20464424688791452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31332553404964963,0.2213474314063954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093845519805583,0.0,0.0,0.12993818013730415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294981921326364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538688983295159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513908562593983,0.1262791496226239,0.1747546710572722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137058237579293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706291351319787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22776565668512025,0.11487000965880208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538039739076514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848935165705406,0.15928188773541765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473628474455961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503025190450154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734184337745346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451751897622156,0.0,0.1426280227301669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522065136407412,0.0,0.09033414836417104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051794052815437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654994777227451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929022111506215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800236574331565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dipledcongress,2019/02/17,"I am restricting and finally happy FINALLY. i have found my zen.

i’ve been unconsciously restricting for the past week and i am so happy about it. now i know that my mind and body will follow my plan.

YO GIRL is finally gon go down a few kilos. ",0.7288666666666686,3.1097532200000018,3.4720000000000013,85.01266666666669,86.8,8.133333333333335,20.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.7807333333333335,191,6,40,6,6,67,37,50,0.099,0.76,0.141,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,0,0,8,10,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,2,3,7,1,9,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425746268657008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7176847261673605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23944602793946645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411226794800108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649461894925962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001775618111805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22050488942425706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847158036733326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17517391892793285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eightstone,2019/02/17,"Why does binge eating make you so tired? I'm underweight, I'm not sure if that matters for this question. I'm having my first binge in months and I just ate half a box of cereal and had to lie down in a stupor for TWO HOURS. I'm still feeling really groggy and like I could do with a sleep, but it's the middle of the day and i have uni work to do. Why does binge eating make me so incredibly drowsy? I feel like I've taken sleeping pills.",0.3255789473684203,2.3141022421052675,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,84.47368421052632,5.484210526315789,15.81578947368421,6.742157984588678,-0.4063894736842113,343,6,80,4,10,115,65,95,0.044000000000000004,0.863,0.09300000000000001,0.5164,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,5,0,6,7,2,2,1,17,16,8,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,7,3,10,12,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,7,45,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504454952222175,0.0,0.0,0.12152133582233605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297915701826308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856205121721085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055107177611474,0.13461395802710144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16027790020330546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556494353605224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18411411501822514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515560950334909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040250133443334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108398469392906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071266010641968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37713084249868667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047991419523105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775924228235495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21657180706308304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406808516351025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400563417817756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717880358148252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainbowfuze,2019/02/17,"Anyone else dreading, yet also can't wait for summer dreading it because it means showing skin but can't wait because my ana kicks into overdrive and suddenly eating 500 cals a day seems easy. meanwhile when it's gross and cold my stomach is a black hole ",10.717346938775512,7.8309224693877555,9.377244897959184,71.46954081632656,59.0,10.616326530612248,42.867346938775505,7.1686216300943375,3.6628285714285713,207,9,35,1,2,64,39,49,0.163,0.763,0.073,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,8,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,7,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285592410468565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497098211474136,0.3659163517276735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353996781330631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23031582029812198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654276180544449,0.2983317748069211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890133798061544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251128196196196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PiggySmiggyGiggy,2019/02/17,"What the frick??? Why can’t I sleep?? I don’t understand. I’m restricting, I feel tired. Why can’t I sleep? Please, brain, explain to me why I feel like I have been hit by a bus, BUT CANT SLEEP.

It’s 5 AM, just let me sleep omg.",-2.7272058823529406,-1.0730250196078437,-0.14688725490195864,107.4702573529412,103.11764705882356,4.1186274509803935,12.257352941176471,5.985473137389443,-1.3649823529411766,168,3,48,2,8,56,35,51,0.11199999999999999,0.807,0.081,-0.3204,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,8,6,5,0,0,7,14,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,2,11,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20042007750739008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155625628634947,0.12825961058882815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835863731792659,0.0,0.08771157553880872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19707516434891004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7186573474079101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063487029542472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690193252562887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4860063690395056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,325tilly,2019/02/17,"Period changing after coming back? Hey I’m constantly cycling between months of very heavy restricting and then a month of binge eating and then a couple months maintenance. so I’m constantly yo-yoing between  underweight/ normal. I’ll often miss one period when I’m restricting and then it comes back again for about 4 months.

Each time it disappears due to my restricting, my period always seems to come back slightly different. It’s almost like I have pressed system restart on my menstrual cycle. For example, this time it comes back with no period pains and light and will last 6 days. The next time after a restriction all my periods will be really heavy and be shorter etc. Does this happen to anyone else? 

This time they have come back and I get such awful period pains on the second day that I throw up and they honestly feel like contractions. I’m not sure if these changes are normal or not?

Thanks x",5.090033812341503,7.32031176923077,5.386496196111582,77.94463017751481,70.36094674556213,9.798985629754863,26.272612003381234,10.125756701596842,2.951686052409129,735,24,126,21,14,233,105,169,0.17300000000000001,0.785,0.042,-0.9639,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,11,8,0,0,5,1,7,3,0,0,2,31,22,15,0,3,4,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,15,1,4,2,0,0,7,3,3,0,2,0,3,9,5,16,18,3,44,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,5,35,77,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789309316415874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965416591662705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533923325955612,0.11039957198969193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142541017286849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22796415602819906,0.4640726574381247,0.0,0.2328725375358369,0.0,0.0,0.11922004665678625,0.0,0.13897584988107264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125727204972956,0.0,0.0,0.09429015785498024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025211755622198,0.09000882331194926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016642749243495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054480139159578216,0.07697450450191995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562933795475811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952803486575154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782821566407784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527951917500376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34401062670593385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114590195826291,0.0,0.2111384380833385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301218054005011,0.0,0.2293008874241104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902551068983236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808885545809144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015503068960057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919899506388366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513126541656027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890258940756114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ziyal79,2019/02/17,"I hate myself and my teeth are disintegrating! I’m the most unreasonable person I know! Seriously!

I’m bulimic, but I’ve stopped purging. I still have a bad habit of biting my nails and doing so is making my front teeth disintegrate and break off. I have to get my front teeth filled again and I’m worried that the public dentist might say no because I broke off the filling I got done and chipped off more of the teeth underneath.

I’m upset with myself because I’m the fattest I’ve ever been. Sure, I was stabbed last year but who cares right? Bingeing for 9 months is not acceptable! I found out today that a friend is essentially dead from a sudden catastrophic stroke (she’s brain dead - at 27), and I binged today. I’m so fucking angry with myself and I hate myself. I can’t decide if I just deserve to suffer, or if I’m completely fucking ridiculous and a stupid, fat bitch to boot.

Ugh. Time to medicate myself into unconsciousness because it’s the only way to put this shitful day to rest.",2.8314251012145766,5.197573805128208,4.206477732793523,83.18404858299598,77.61538461538461,6.566801619433199,25.134952766531715,7.669130373188453,1.4620256410256416,792,29,149,12,19,261,119,195,0.342,0.61,0.048,-0.9972,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,6,18,8,1,10,0,12,12,7,1,2,29,29,15,2,2,7,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,1,5,12,1,1,4,0,0,5,3,14,0,0,5,2,22,4,19,23,3,27,0,2,0,2,6,8,4,5,12,92,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739892471183693,0.3009387998358537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18370097452199627,0.0,0.0,0.16777768740204646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725357667787035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612619473510464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839980590724188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885198944970304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042918035046351,0.12713698073632218,0.3042621470622836,0.08597468071288816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161193911026178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32493360145747313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904366865535784,0.1341366046946854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984363752945102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577471372644922,0.0,0.1745698657908955,0.0,0.0,0.13134849972848225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251536543085715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436855605804403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16542608266483344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053149817190275,0.0,0.1308630010432167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689162603329405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141610540681373,0.1375777245521858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550938188797203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595500116818176,0.0,0.3119631864616637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061835565880014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16711647665543006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596985518267377
EDAnonymous,gearsandglue,2019/02/17,stopped myself bingeing for the first time in forever i had a really shitty day at work (the usual shitty customers and all the joy that comes with working hospo) and so i bought a bunch of lollies and shit on my way home to binge on bc emotions. got home and started eating but got to maybe got through half small thing of mnms and half a bag of gummy strawberries before feeling so disgusted in myself and stopping??? like this has never happened in all like fiveish years of my ED holy fuck ! like maybe now i’ll finally be able to have some sense of self control !!!,5.695324675324677,6.3703050000000045,5.556753246753246,83.21227272727275,67.18181818181819,8.103896103896103,31.168831168831172,7.957251820313856,2.1096103896103897,450,17,85,5,7,140,78,110,0.177,0.716,0.107,-0.8793,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,3,7,3,0,6,0,4,3,1,1,3,17,13,9,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,8,1,3,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,3,5,1,6,4,17,7,4,20,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,1,14,54,9,2,0.16256752595343765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833299092231746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003752889639362,0.0,0.0,0.1823333037540903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484260536409884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634716407771316,0.0,0.18286658570682693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219902572967464,0.0,0.0,0.17808477844409965,0.0,0.13827985452833494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502910581657394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3900603039932611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375792631312567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261369669543305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23826684473379675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32664186076169544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538209798536776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414491990518232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959338422943607,0.0,0.1668732292330824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506613160030725,0.0,0.0,0.2718274619780427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800264063292823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479443171686244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904516247064095,0.0,0.0,0.12903853520636258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367021901279841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468815672830986
EDAnonymous,Liquipidgey,2019/02/17,"My boyfriend made me feel so small and skinny today. 

My boyfriend came over and we were lying in bed. I had only eaten 150 calories that day and it was already evening. He put his hand on my hip bone and slid up my stomach and began gently rubbing my ribs,  then my chest bones like he was fascinated by them. 

It made me feel so skinny and amazing. I’m going to keep restricting. 15 pounds to go!

",2.4766607142857167,4.3212334875000025,3.4696428571428584,90.54250000000002,76.625,5.571428571428572,23.92857142857143,6.1826913282559595,0.5248571428571425,309,10,64,2,7,99,59,80,0.064,0.762,0.17300000000000001,0.8794,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,10,9,2,0,14,15,9,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,8,3,2,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,4,12,2,7,6,0,14,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,36,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30856210710292986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198050713054931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18032854392556405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846830713071621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827634923885242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178232980419829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248534660769972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660576578058772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.529156950248949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126598084927165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810903065800006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26504232679513295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1caru3,2019/02/17,"help (it seems like all my posts have the “oh no” flair lmaoooo)

so,,,, after a week or two of not keeping a single meal down, i had a huge day out with my family yesterday and only managed to purge like, 100 calories. and today, we went to disneyland but since i’m a goddamn trash person i purged ~30% of the massive amount of food i ate there. 

problem is, my digestive system is all fucked up from the b/p cycle that’s been going on for a month so rn i have like, 7lbs of food/water weight in me and i can FEEL IT. 

anyone know any non-lax ways to get a bm?

(also, we’re staying in the hotel for one more night, so that means binge at the breakfast buffet once again!!!! pray for my fuckin teeth y’all)",3.0618367346938773,3.5859135850340174,4.270891156462588,90.62470408163269,73.01360544217688,6.96843537414966,22.86326530612245,6.742157984588678,0.454268571428571,535,12,122,4,10,176,108,147,0.111,0.8,0.08900000000000001,-0.8109999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,1,0,0,6,6,2,0,11,0,7,9,1,0,2,17,18,9,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,6,1,4,1,0,2,2,3,0,2,4,2,12,3,20,14,5,22,1,0,0,2,4,8,2,2,11,73,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666894217025933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247217146790352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824106655049594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828107642208953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728979466585611,0.0,0.0927350976293293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435481985322489,0.0,0.0,0.16955500175452287,0.09582156229334857,0.0,0.10423330934214643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229325305769818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301882422011688,0.0,0.0,0.10079461211536313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688073114258838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997818527902587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639215109040718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211320342997588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532037916992906,0.12427999992216215,0.13948779551293242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014220442169588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175651328022862,0.0,0.0,0.17549385142905355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669650578646889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171454221735786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19548536708352848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738465304953828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791600717747468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455783819100388,0.14711645820493102,0.2233379259848354,0.0,0.17001830715394006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweeetlikesucralose,2019/02/17,Random thought I just had This actually seems like a smart invention but what if there was like a “morning after” pill for binges,10.979999999999995,8.445747,9.503333333333334,69.67500000000003,58.16666666666666,12.933333333333335,40.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.323216666666666,104,4,19,2,1,32,22,24,0.0,0.7240000000000001,0.276,0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,4,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.5318954732903723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325731013694421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961979915035342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43271312716256144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavenderthin,2019/02/17,"eating ice to curb cravings does anyone ever eat ice ?? i mean i just always liked to chew ice even as a kid, almost like i’m eating cereal LOL but now i find myself eating ice when i’m restricting or trying to stick to restricting

it also feels really good now bc i feel like i’m working out my jaw w/o actually eating calories so hopefully that jawline comes thru",2.6242857142857154,4.881463561643837,4.803170254403135,79.20068493150687,77.76712328767123,7.4590998043052865,21.38747553816047,8.418075326091056,1.5511228962818011,292,8,52,6,7,101,53,73,0.08199999999999999,0.701,0.217,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,1,1,0,7,1,0,1,15,8,6,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,6,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,5,7,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,7,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.1514666311445139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554245615207299,0.0,0.0,0.12412470840914835,0.1291506158313334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085293502231738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337032560301847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582895818950338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7941141793866088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251748942701726,0.14040009472914694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696188684816845,0.1108850275733926,0.0,0.0,0.14186293113784396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301862740924052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416268375511807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274893965639485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690737238306654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943416597009283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538022673851576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299775774036222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkman1768,2019/02/17,Just realized I used a 1/3 cup measure instead of a 1/4 cup measure for my cottage cheese and had a complete meltdown. Just eating disorder things !!!!! ¡¡!¡!! ,2.7038888888888906,5.730794111111113,3.649907407407409,80.91708333333334,89.37037037037037,5.662962962962964,36.37962962962963,7.1686216300943375,3.3498962962962966,119,8,18,2,4,38,22,27,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.5951,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863691004251847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316463911548845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746647999902086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081810988403357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006431715272365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yungelectric,2019/02/17,"HOLY fuck been trying to “maintain” since December AND IVE GAINED 14 POUNDS I’M SO FUCKING MAD and I have no one to blame but myself 

LIFE PRO TIP DONT BINGE EAT ",0.4628124999999983,2.911842156250003,0.9185000000000016,99.8765,96.1875,3.8100000000000014,15.775,5.6839178017228535,-0.7433575000000001,127,3,27,1,5,38,30,32,0.242,0.6990000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158566343187707,0.0,0.0,0.3630783785813459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560668949979681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506260287767703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404411336013733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29351799595592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24090541922012246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luvsonitsway,2019/02/17,"Day one My birthday is in a month and my two best friends are coming into town and I need to lose AT LEAST 10 pounds by then (20 would be great but impossible) 

I haven’t done this in so long, I don’t even know where to start. If anyone has any tips, strategies on how to do this in a healthy way (healthy as in not dying) pm me, help me out please!! ",0.4835714285714303,2.0535302894736884,1.8416541353383489,101.19657894736844,81.63157894736842,4.869172932330828,18.75187969924812,5.288315135182226,-0.7499488721804513,266,6,69,1,7,85,61,76,0.023,0.759,0.218,0.9431,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,1,0,12,13,8,1,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,1,0,7,3,13,10,2,17,0,1,0,0,2,10,0,1,5,47,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102354004531606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584941994338565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639258875872202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663854034970184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16219187221835588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610095338735132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573641679085722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610843990793372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194302499823752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27727139503650355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857013728611386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13821371383343822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225629693143204,0.0,0.2813558045319749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073893290162295,0.0,0.0,0.1864785195460066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704178426204122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760632690466137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780077025782139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456716521941833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996230591633206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865307304146666,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,invisible_lizz,2019/02/17,"I fucking hate EDNOS I hate my body so much I wanna cry. I was actually cute for once and I fucked it all up again. I hate all the weight I've gained. I reached my LW in August 2017.

  2018 took it away from me with all the binging I've been doing. I was underweight and now I'm back to being overweight. (I'm short but fucking still!!!!)

 I hate being so out of control. I hate how gluttonous I am. I want to get back on my depression meds so I can lose the weight again but that's a whole Thing™ and its hard to get into a new dr to get that done. 

I want my peach family back. I want my LW back. I want my meds back.",-1.9497445255474448,-0.0771192043795601,0.7763905109489038,101.69684854014601,98.7080291970803,3.907883211678832,14.1492700729927,5.6839178017228535,-1.0822347445255476,467,10,120,4,20,159,76,137,0.259,0.6659999999999999,0.076,-0.985,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,13,11,8,0,5,0,9,9,1,2,3,18,27,9,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,6,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,10,0,0,5,3,23,1,15,20,5,19,0,2,0,3,0,7,3,0,11,80,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.1076571878357571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365002410382868,0.4241494314666481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225415398969884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373415912021116,0.0,0.0,0.12118221966273793,0.0,0.0,0.09501914427014348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289648201491485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400063290866324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059694085920495,0.17291419564082555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882576850677788,0.5445947561422868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342075738150185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450830797939768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109848242910786,0.0,0.0,0.10654851708457116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748805261260678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881023342075745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329223815031069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257046917000655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602802670371384,0.0,0.0,0.2686820301087822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316923456402408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pun_in_the_sun_,2019/02/17,"Bought my first form fitting dress Still in recovery from Ana and up till now I have never felt comfortable wearing tight shirts or dresses because it’s clearly visible how thin I am. And also where my body juts out at bony angles. But today, I did the thing and bought a fitted black dress.  It’s not huge but it’s a jump from hiding in over sized sweaters and men’s clothes. ",4.91,5.746114666666671,4.734666666666667,87.83400000000002,69.0,7.6,28.333333333333336,7.554174236665415,1.476733333333334,300,10,61,3,5,92,58,75,0.08800000000000001,0.8859999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.5076,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,3,3,3,1,2,14,6,10,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,4,5,1,9,2,1,18,0,0,1,0,1,11,0,1,6,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145689550980876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978792289271425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369330404887797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776862127648872,0.0,0.0,0.3345908633151901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033826189092325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141369105679094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26133016188765884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728582250349757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,libbybird,2019/02/17,"Inadvertent triggers? Or just bad. I’ve been running on three hours of sleep per night and not enough calories to maintain my weight for a couple of weeks. Not enough calories for longer, but the sleep deprivation has ramped up. I woke up about 20 minutes ago to realize that I had slept through the entire day. About 18 hours straight. So I hadn’t eaten (or drank water, which probably explains the terrible headache) in 24 hours. There’s a lot that’s messed up about this, I guess, but I feel sick at the fact that my first coherent thought was to weigh myself, followed by trying to rationalize calling the day a wash and not eating anything and going back to sleep. I don’t know which direction is up anymore and I’m so tired",4.480136363636364,6.275862792857144,4.376493506493507,86.35396103896106,71.07142857142857,7.376623376623378,29.155844155844154,8.00094639256281,1.850142857142857,581,23,113,8,11,178,94,140,0.159,0.825,0.016,-0.9698,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,8,0,7,13,4,1,1,21,19,10,0,0,8,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,4,6,0,5,0,0,3,5,4,0,2,9,2,9,0,21,10,3,21,0,1,0,0,2,8,0,4,10,72,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869802520822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517262754202554,0.0,0.0,0.12875851748800465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031300545777066,0.13064291051397744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976969098476124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312709837074822,0.0,0.2018157709901318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010419167750622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233432398570109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07911411441303492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309024206868564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892346233251575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236538257479253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622636662324925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598984288544374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330221401470645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683311945796187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869724578434167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697382021106841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421684614911932,0.0,0.1798351125808171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623041659950308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255079102087916,0.19053392599811064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,regularsizedsnail,2019/02/17,"chaotic good ED behaviors hello everyone, i hope you're doing well today <3 i just want to rave a little about my little sister's recent show of support for me. she works at a grocery store and has started bringing home boxes of donuts that are left over from the day. i used to steal pastries from my previous job when we were less well off and she was showing similar disordered eating behaviors that i am lately. 

she said to me triumphantly today ""now *I* am the donut bringer"" 

i also get to have the pleasure of eating only donuts as my day's calories. tiny victories. ",2.411496503496501,5.184078890909092,3.6936363636363647,83.65199300699302,82.81818181818181,6.293706293706293,24.825174825174827,7.61054688173877,1.7209510489510491,458,18,79,8,13,149,80,110,0.055,0.767,0.179,0.9118,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,1,0,7,16,5,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,15,6,15,13,1,16,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,9,54,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172020577503985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285803421200485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031057987509356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626740440447309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933824069559325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258846027630792,0.0,0.0,0.1486410384356769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777628933044986,0.17601626255258512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586032259825318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999082621442738,0.0,0.19254656472110074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552355673179109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347813571891156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498020403706538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857375290315568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543495860431605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011035172061951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359615977386964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305841010296842,0.0,0.0,0.10452705636441574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186783605650003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12901593634601405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wondermadness,2019/02/17,What is ED treatment like? I have anorexia and if my eating habits don’t improve then my therapist is sending me to treatment at the end of this month. I’m 20 so I heard that they aren’t as caring or helpful in the adult units. I had experienced that with the adult suicide unit versus the child one. ,2.1072677595628413,4.326420737704922,3.076639344262297,91.11255464480877,79.327868852459,5.3781420765027335,24.92076502732241,6.42735559955562,0.7461781420765029,239,9,49,2,6,76,49,61,0.068,0.759,0.17300000000000001,0.7096,1,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,5,9,6,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,7,2,6,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,4,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799741112435064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38134670036065693,0.0,0.0,0.33008561178768725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24980087189859784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820735879856055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29747119667885724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525389511987055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40765359168111065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327124971844933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ShoopDaWhoopBurrito,2019/02/17,University Problems I’m finding it extremely difficult to stay awake and retain information while restricting. My goal is 500 cals a day and I feel like my brain is melting while I try to study.,5.241666666666667,7.539602055555558,6.1344444444444415,72.45500000000001,70.1111111111111,10.355555555555558,34.22222222222222,10.504223727775694,4.248622222222221,158,8,27,5,3,52,29,36,0.21,0.726,0.065,-0.6801,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,8,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551790596048894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26296224962696696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061684812958862,0.2912936151866293,0.0,0.0,0.3726721900732994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19920395684282705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901575751881325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43460267231587296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768325705247401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pelicandreaming,2019/02/17,"Backseat horror story So today I’m helping move apartments and I had a breakfast this morning to give me energy so I could actually function. I’ve been maintaining a low weight for a while and while I’m not restricting I for sure don’t have the energy capabilities of a normal person. Come dinner time I’m in the backseat as we are going out to eat and everything just hits me. I’m nauseous, dizzy, blacking out eyes, passing out, heart out of control... all at once. I was honestly so close to asking to go to the hospital. I haven’t been this horrified since my hair came out in clumps but I think this experience scared me into caring about my health a bit more for the time being. I don’t know what I’m saying at this point but stay safe my people. ",2.2249889624724095,4.506890350993377,4.043284768211922,84.00408830022077,79.26490066225165,6.940573951434878,23.311699779249448,8.021203637495839,1.4235771302428253,597,20,116,11,15,201,94,151,0.09,0.797,0.113,0.5156,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,1,5,6,0,1,9,0,11,8,3,1,2,26,26,11,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,13,4,3,2,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,5,5,14,4,22,18,3,26,0,1,2,0,6,14,0,0,5,75,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.1776683350260266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702053916085861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19876688383276964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20823287073564672,0.185626522008778,0.0,0.0,0.1568321333018693,0.0,0.0,0.20420041131180044,0.14536339901299536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862970649126878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636275071236533,0.17809366173729774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465251044937175,0.2069424898979593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352566434371266,0.0,0.21574687941294066,0.12203375354585932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005768852154304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935053650506686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838419876659967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389236439073168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622034885412606,0.15897138222864418,0.0,0.0,0.1721094581642957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478470957269318,0.1822779628739247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506053358486918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19405614605447635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715932948504252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665934781247085,0.0,0.0,0.2123261252673644,0.0,0.17257551404582114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22170507097801526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dynamarshy,2019/07/17,"triggered by tv? recently picked up the show euphoria, I’ve been trying to recover for a while now and it’s been a struggle, but nothing really sent me back like this show did. I love the show, but the main characters are so skinny and beautiful. did anyone else experience this with this show or others? It almost makes me want to not watch it.",3.344825870646765,5.507787686567166,4.615746268656718,81.85904228855723,75.11940298507463,8.645771144278607,24.59950248756219,9.2995712137729,2.218036815920398,273,9,52,7,6,90,50,67,0.022000000000000002,0.732,0.247,0.9596,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,5,2,1,3,0,12,9,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,0,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,1,3,2,6,4,1,6,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091130927306327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584647092639064,0.31629414018142343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23736712482025984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578747622395932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30196259335885395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15081260912533553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27860896630264426,0.0,0.20605607033239265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962008341718469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19775769199777946,0.0,0.30479871739754266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227146642103339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095833984093517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18207609762796848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oofnoa,2019/07/17,I haven't worn/owned a swimsuit for over 6 years... and i hate it because i'm missing out on so many opportunities to go out to beaches and waterparks with my family and my friends... fuck eds,3.185384615384617,4.538062923076922,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,73.61538461538461,8.276923076923078,30.948717948717945,8.841846274778883,2.4319333333333333,150,7,32,3,3,51,32,39,0.233,0.695,0.071,-0.7595,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,0,6,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,0,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261067473087285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037318348425237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308778759822521,0.3959257659679747,0.0,0.0,0.2433938982255081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4228248117221352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341953274370976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27578978514292074
EDAnonymous,Eatsomefoodyouidiot,2019/07/17,"I just tried frozen grapes for the first time and What the **FUCK** is wrong with you guys these are awful. Wtf is wrong with raw, cold grapes? Grooooossss.",0.9596551724137932,3.4283587586206887,-1.1211034482758606,113.43075862068966,99.34482758620688,2.32,9.248275862068963,3.1291,-2.61524,120,1,28,0,5,30,24,29,0.35100000000000003,0.649,0.0,-0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29811365390080313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240082704109727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470251163902629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043646524286253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23794935793669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7663782685807125,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iamwastingyourtime,2019/07/17,"Can't relate to the energy drink love on this sub Sends me into would panic attacks, shaking, rapid heart rate, how do yall handle it?!",10.56111111111111,6.187230296296297,10.2362962962963,69.76333333333334,60.85185185185186,12.281481481481485,34.407407407407405,8.841846274778883,2.8945851851851847,106,2,20,1,1,35,27,27,0.23800000000000002,0.58,0.183,-0.2244,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513209049898007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38862994530677136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47010951931832895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580510308332119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654599063827698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281815154038512,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,picklesplsxx,2019/07/17,"DAE wear binders with baggy clothes just to look thinner? bc fuck my DDs 

bonus: support trans companies",5.050000000000002,8.351025111111113,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,75.66666666666667,5.822222222222222,36.77777777777778,7.1686216300943375,2.7642444444444454,84,5,14,1,2,23,18,18,0.142,0.607,0.251,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5478485271711556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4976341832523673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6724746916688723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noano9913,2019/07/17,"I think I can stop whenever I want to but I know I can't It's hell. I don't know how to stop this. 
I know this isn't healthy. I know it's not good to restrict. I know my excessive sport habits aren't because I want to be a fit, active person. I know that what I'm doing is a deadly disease. 

But still I keep doing it. I keep telling myself that when I've reached my goal weight I'm gonna stop. But deep down I know I can't. It's just this stupid voice. I know what's healthy. I'm working as a nurse, I'm confronted with what it means to be (and eat) healthy every fucking day. I even knew I was starting to develop an eating disorder. I knew. And I just kept thinking that it wasn't an eating disorder yet, that it was just a phase, that I could just flip a switch and eat normally again. But now it's to late. 
My healthy brain tells me to stop right now, before it gets even worse, my disorder tells me to keep going because I don't want to look feminine (I struggle with gender identity so my female sex characteristic are a huge triggering factor for me and probably even the initial reason for this stupid disorder). 
I hate my curves, I hate that people perceive me as female, but I don't want to transition. I have decided against it so I'm looking for other ways to cope, I'm not binding my chest anymore instead my brain is telling me to lose enough weight to not have a feminine chest anymore. I know that is stupid. I know it's not going to work. I hate myself for even thinking that, but I just can't eat. I feel so guilt for today, before I'm going to sleep (it's 11:50 pm here) I'm probably instinctively going to do sit ups. Or jumping jacks. 

How the hell to I get out of this. I'm so desperate. I feel so lost. What alternative is there. I really really just want to fall asleep and never wake up again.",0.6999240199208288,2.8344587931937184,2.7164334056953123,92.18183565317328,84.10471204188481,6.135206231643469,21.62073809219768,7.407850130929222,0.7386261524709492,1417,47,316,23,41,475,155,382,0.228,0.6940000000000001,0.078,-0.9966,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,5,27,15,10,2,11,0,25,16,7,4,1,66,76,22,1,7,17,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,30,8,7,9,21,1,0,6,14,14,0,0,7,7,50,1,34,65,1,32,2,2,2,2,5,8,3,1,16,195,80,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259512906218594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764941457302769,0.0,0.1223496255337776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051053784487124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057399926978763435,0.0,0.0,0.046364404545718683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32957792718409834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678174146639984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07428367320503831,0.0,0.18993600113281212,0.0,0.060572126383144936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270152947762606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646301278188743,0.07512122501350353,0.0,0.16343156378566012,0.06029961434310921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21293545367487288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170278822295267,0.0,0.0,0.3950997330687749,0.0,0.08109732842398917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074237838326185,0.0804287795941127,0.07847863084386562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831148416849297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05544755677900354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043891414820773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049840873676964464,0.06277333767368433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502351101542414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211173608470444,0.07391696876267616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06139539110887166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194393819798241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050885540820930435,0.0,0.05741305895413261,0.24041978678453585,0.0,0.0751571473152611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25134717224806397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381965080197531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814522755942938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21201887626485635,0.05706453809992251,0.0,0.17509022176651168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467649160223448,0.0,0.07326410890308299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,succumbmum,2019/07/17,"Back on my shit It was a good 6 months of recovery I guess? I gained like 30lbs and ate a fuckton of food, avoided all mirrors and scales like the plague.
Then the appointment happened, and I had to be weighed, saw my weight, felt crushing and soul wrenching shame and guilt. Then my husband was put on a work schedule that made it SUPER EASY to stop eating. He only sees me at dinner really now so I’ve been OMAD for a week, lost 10lbs, and already back on the laxatives. Fuckkk me. 
Anyways, that is all.",3.330300000000001,4.940028030000004,3.799000000000003,90.08950000000002,73.7,6.6000000000000005,26.5,7.1686216300943375,1.1561000000000003,393,14,81,4,8,123,73,100,0.158,0.6779999999999999,0.163,0.3749,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,5,9,1,3,7,0,6,7,1,1,2,13,14,9,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,6,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,9,4,8,4,9,4,2,14,1,1,2,0,2,4,1,1,11,49,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441143639998222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340198727406996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263564194659369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123994472472496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674919857941365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18554321048599096,0.0,0.0,0.2436913764137755,0.0,0.19561817991008865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161472770933136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414804353218841,0.0,0.0,0.20931736171191254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17657033589327584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824267369034493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22238045384620836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417148967101762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17627834986475172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270722610953111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849442139485998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744395616286518,0.2693781894392428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104590821904588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherubsoup,2019/07/17,"(TW: numbers) Mini rant about a podcast my boyfriend listened to last night My boyfriend was listening to a podcast last night, I don't like the podcast so I just try and tune it out most of the time otherwise it gets me all wound up. I couldn't tune it out last night, and the host was ragging on a listeners wife for being controlling bitch, but he focused on her weight so much calling her a giant wilderbeast heifer, they mentioned her height and weight: 5'4'' and 140lbs, that's a healthy BMI of 24 but apparently that's so vile and disgusting that they need to go on about how *huge* she is? 

I know I'm more sensitive to it because I was that weight last year and I'm shorter than 5'4'', but do people really think that people that size are huge? It's so disheartening to think that a reasonably normal weight is considered disgusting, and it makes me just want to retreat deeper into my ED because technically I'm doing everyone a favor that way.",3.98401801801802,5.828159005405407,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,72.45945945945945,7.960360360360362,28.54954954954956,8.648137234880735,2.156376576576578,756,30,147,14,15,240,103,185,0.14,0.773,0.087,-0.9247,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,1,9,7,4,0,10,0,11,5,0,4,1,28,25,15,0,4,5,1,4,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,14,10,4,1,4,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,3,7,16,2,19,20,4,22,0,1,0,0,13,11,1,1,10,91,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16030583201026907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426236065070307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747322775189614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564093221396286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869624022067405,0.0,0.07472677637672956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226151109526724,0.42871600532087184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06423763502642549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776822254955632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665766555201337,0.09749553235680936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37017336239349,0.1288287981549527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823122895190038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423358309293727,0.13518996373107844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850240857807694,0.0,0.0,0.07667080303138978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927066465264236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755411151822834,0.10436781925985412,0.0,0.6404602657957861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467295914816605
EDAnonymous,i_would_run,2019/07/17,"I hate food I love eating food, even preparing it, but I hate what it does to me...physically, emotionally, mentally. I obsess over it all day—an I eating today, am I not? 

Then WHY THE FUCK DO I EAT? Immediately after I eat anything, I hate myself. I wish I never had to eat ever again.

I’m in a binge/purge cycle. I must be crazy: continuing the same behavior and expectation by a different result with hope that all of this will just go away.",1.5606242197253408,3.735641741573037,4.707116104868914,78.92811485642947,81.02247191011236,8.000499375780276,21.124843945068665,8.841846274778883,1.6572986267166052,341,10,69,9,9,124,65,89,0.252,0.644,0.10400000000000001,-0.9456,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,1,4,0,6,9,0,1,5,15,15,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,13,2,9,11,3,11,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,7,50,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111897799206937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694687114659856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713928833099688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411685088886013,0.0,0.0,0.11824179897631748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6912921251466311,0.0,0.15198844098420994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924350549368258,0.12222106389168075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267680302694449,0.0,0.0,0.12491349109070815,0.0,0.0,0.07679010600180022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4002001983088071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342016702858797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194836961332095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616615814496455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042105616314028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807511906741054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192207818809887,0.0,0.15537788405777966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,damnitjanet6,2019/07/17,"I graduate tomorrow They’re going to take photos of me.

I’m going to look so so fat.

My gown isn’t going to fit because I’m so fat.

Why did I agree to do this??",-2.5084210526315798,-0.8164507894736808,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,96.36842105263158,5.145263157894737,15.494736842105262,6.742157984588678,-0.2295431578947369,122,3,31,2,5,47,26,38,0.0,0.848,0.152,0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,5,9,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,16,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632235450376044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7362120294858031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626063793938258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246626651965557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38963570219963295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunsetsandstardust,2019/07/17,"i physically can’t binge and i hate myself tw: numbers 

fuck i feel like such a bitch even posting this cause so many people have trouble not binging and that’s all i want to do. i’ve been restricting heavily for over two months. most days i eat around 8-900cal, and in that period of time the only few times i’ve gone over 1200~ is when im slamming vodka back at 2am. i’ve been doing so so good and i’ve lost weight and i just really really want to have a gross 3000cal binge. but every time i go to make some gross fatty food and get a bag of chips i physically can’t make it and put it in my mouth and instead just have steamed veggies and basmati rice. again. i love the progress i’ve made and i know that one binge isn’t going to kill me and i know i have the willpower to only have that one binge but i can’t. fucking. do it. all i want is a fat grilled cheese with bacon in it and shrimp crackers and some ice cream after. what did i do in a past life to be stuck with these hang ups on food lmao",1.2671632061805873,2.7933460688073377,2.8498744567841636,95.06627474649929,79.13761467889908,5.8738773539352955,20.189280540801548,6.5966054737557815,-0.009856880733944973,785,19,187,7,19,258,125,218,0.127,0.768,0.105,-0.5655,1,0,1,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,0,2,12,12,5,0,8,0,19,10,2,4,2,37,38,19,1,3,5,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,16,5,1,3,1,0,5,5,9,0,3,7,3,18,3,22,30,6,27,0,1,1,3,1,10,3,3,12,114,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301974150373972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246059834327532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502435463936892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432198237548793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965475365536118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965996453898924,0.0,0.12322563167015572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395061415377191,0.10448416560438407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35370277841692915,0.0,0.0,0.2704196541143281,0.07641188246860628,0.0,0.16623948080460044,0.12267124353362713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439593121366132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579798388293771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180881340045902,0.0,0.1607551759769734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330380107667493,0.07145250747250119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965394374920416,0.0,0.13200029733655222,0.13838944032024847,0.19525188232694146,0.1482789961604756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673885893450026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821151982845195,0.2224661084925566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961636450515846,0.10139437904140328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400712773942031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702605791628492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187388614879976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558463332718939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286928766208712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587938860373588,0.0,0.0,0.1780984461398219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,railingroad,2019/07/17,"I just had shirataki noodles for the first time and honestly? I loved them! That's it, that's the post.",0.23714285714285666,2.651867000000003,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,93.28571428571428,6.609523809523811,21.285714285714285,7.793537801064563,1.1882571428571431,81,3,18,2,3,26,17,21,0.0,0.6759999999999999,0.324,0.8016,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,2,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087534405642398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5398190911549706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5728256010444337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487636969736865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HitchHikeHawk,2019/07/17,I want to be as thin as the crepe I ate today That’s all.,-4.177999999999997,-2.8902018,-0.07833333333333138,108.9825,100.33333333333331,3.0,7.5,3.1291,-2.673,43,0,14,0,2,16,13,15,0.0,0.894,0.106,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8490437476062398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283225479295315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,senslessshit,2019/07/17,im fasting for the first time i've never fasted (i have an ed for 2 years). i feel invalid cause everyone is fasting for weeks.,0.33999999999999986,2.4711741111111145,2.7792592592592613,91.1666666666667,85.66666666666667,5.0814814814814815,23.814814814814817,6.42735559955562,0.7246148148148155,99,4,21,1,3,34,21,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156833531452346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38665700883547705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460139551046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441920504085362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43708758685622706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120882758902868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23595258999388916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32458296179941004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260579036915487
EDAnonymous,unable_to_give_afuck,2019/07/17,"This is shit. Everything is shit. I’m in a bad mood and I need to vent. 

I’m fat. Like bmi of 36 fat. I don’t look bad, but no one looks good at an obese bmi. 

But I’m a restrictive bulimic. How is it remotely fair that I have to live this shit ED existence and I don’t even have the body to show for it? I can’t recover, because then I’d be even fatter! What the hell do I do? 

Every day is agony because I’m an insecurity guru and I can’t. Stop. Comparing myself to other girls. I feel trapped in this body and even if I lose a pound a day it would still take too long to get where I want and it feels so far. 

I’m just... I’m lost.",-2.3107241379310324,-0.5391258827586185,1.0719827586206918,100.29004310344831,97.48275862068964,5.1068965517241365,14.836206896551724,6.742157984588678,-0.5430068965517241,477,11,130,8,20,170,83,145,0.285,0.6509999999999999,0.063,-0.9892,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,9,12,4,1,8,0,14,8,7,1,0,17,29,11,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,10,5,3,2,2,1,0,0,5,9,0,1,1,4,11,2,10,26,0,11,1,2,2,0,1,5,4,1,7,73,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26868153155442914,0.19616043287487525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574365769787425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20752817825374886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188092731329029,0.0,0.13556113967617714,0.0,0.14460222512210302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270688814600726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406109777528624,0.0,0.0,0.13495125448758316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860526429777469,0.0,0.14207340338710026,0.14238718296057326,0.2702228797006839,0.1800005658638376,0.17563610975329352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930174710832113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902674695478873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954698112727431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849110917597714,0.13451558597703556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097316167930347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949001536367528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429532898484393,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,razzytrazza,2019/07/17,Unsolicited comments are the worst A frequent customer at my work said to me today “you look different than the last time i saw you. have you lost weight? are you sick?” wtf why would you say that to anyone?? i’m not even underweight. if i lost a few more pounds i would technically be but my bmi is in the healthy range. why do people feel the need to comment on others’ bodies?,0.8460000000000001,3.381639266666668,2.1243333333333325,93.1905,89.66666666666666,5.133333333333333,19.5,6.742157984588678,0.26419999999999977,295,9,62,4,10,94,57,75,0.146,0.809,0.046,-0.7013,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,0,3,1,3,0,0,6,0,8,3,1,0,0,7,16,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,7,11,0,7,9,3,7,0,2,2,0,9,3,0,1,4,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354822918516686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24392419355592074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22943347229677274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504259842759454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103549282078244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900191446402222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440725503945254,0.0,0.4794349452761149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628293483514436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15224180319461467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208888259799506,0.17463337298988027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804952794650953,0.0,0.2081535004782592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674115551850633,0.0,0.0,0.3963065979595799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15987016938043272,0.0,0.0,0.3119926470367329,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shamelesslyhoey,2019/07/17,"Anyone else have an ED playlist? This is going to sound so weird but we’re all fucked up in our own way so here it goes. 

There have always been songs that sort of “trigger” me not to eat, songs that make me feel skinny, songs that make me want to continue fasting, etc. I made a playlist of all of them and continue to add to it almost every day. It’s so weird but listening to this playlist while getting ready, taking the bus, whatever I’m doing for some reason just like... motivates me? To continue losing weight? 

I feel so weird typing this up. Anyone else have their ED playlist??",2.4734466403162045,4.683995791304351,3.057707509881425,91.7610276679842,78.04347826086956,6.2687747035573125,21.758893280632414,7.348242739294969,0.6758695652173916,456,13,94,6,11,142,74,115,0.14300000000000002,0.8190000000000001,0.038,-0.9338,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,2,2,7,6,1,0,3,0,6,4,1,6,2,20,18,8,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,9,2,3,0,4,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,2,8,9,1,14,16,5,11,0,1,0,1,4,3,1,3,7,58,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20114791293735854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714460426888447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28091380250639986,0.4116416138170571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954815425367633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055459037550829,0.3356116026370524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402941083972197,0.0,0.0,0.16924637012040386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031374941084064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857062700663344,0.10494921849129113,0.0,0.11416224171684795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813767932707383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22472843223983946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900733647678993,0.2681720669240803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065335889688587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103346390506112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184816427868349,0.15944571393975102,0.0,0.24461238400410965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blu3berrie,2019/07/17,Fitbit users! What kind do you have? I'd really like to buy myself a Fitbit soon and I was wondering what kind you all have. I'd prefer it to have HR capabilities but I don't mind if it's an older version (plus I could save money). How do you all like your Fitbit?,-0.9280263157894736,1.1934278421052649,2.3010307017543887,91.25575657894736,95.14035087719299,4.955263157894739,12.38815789473684,6.6274283507984215,-0.6215947368421051,205,3,46,3,8,73,38,57,0.0,0.747,0.253,0.9317,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,1,2,12,9,5,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,8,5,3,7,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732808423561013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7128589772230244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33443912938377096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456028417379716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192718192605374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37118549755010827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nosoulto_sell,2019/07/17,"I don't have a UGW So weird. I have lost weight recently and I have been restricting quite hard but for me this is still not an ED. BF of course is getting worried and asked me how much I planned to lose still. And I just... Don't know? 1,2, 10kg? My BMI dropped to below healthy but I really have no idea how much I want to lose, I just want to lose? I don't even know how I feel about it, I just feel like it's normal. Wtf?",-1.5072456140350887,0.3914556000000005,0.5396052631578954,105.2943201754386,93.0,4.4298245614035086,15.285087719298248,5.985473137389443,-1.013649122807018,322,7,88,3,12,105,58,95,0.284,0.622,0.094,-0.9615,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,6,11,6,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,3,0,21,19,9,0,3,6,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,5,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,4,14,1,8,17,2,5,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,56,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739242755685782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826426116306955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810713633606396,0.12791706013586696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354894407484632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16039827598188516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021315095010292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968080942566819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747731909757347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6009508553332533,0.19545988624556102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632523270584829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17543606455190486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904472298761205,0.0,0.0,0.1147073366558661,0.0,0.17679539407847006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28598740450787624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112227748676622,0.0,0.0,0.2180409779146109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18183923219014192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oreohoro,2019/07/17,"I have accidentally fasted for several days I’m in a really shit place in my life rn so i’ve been just laying in bed and crying and being asleep most of the time and i don’t feel like eating and im really not hungry eather. I’ve been kind of recovered for a while now (with a few relapses here and there) but i still get some sort of joy out of this when i think about the fact that i haven’t eaten in several days. I don’t know what my point here was, probably just wanted to talk to someone. My life is falling to pieces but at least i’m not getting heavier. Usually they went hand in hand.

Also i’m kinda new here and my brain isn’t working very well rn so if i broke some rules (which i read before postin this)  let me know!",0.06111111111111001,2.191704796178346,2.3173991507431,93.9832183297948,87.02547770700636,5.781882519462137,16.36553432413305,7.1686216300943375,-0.06537055909412581,571,12,132,9,18,193,98,157,0.078,0.804,0.11800000000000001,0.8511,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,14,6,1,0,5,0,11,9,5,0,1,26,23,14,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,8,2,0,4,1,0,2,6,2,1,0,5,3,14,4,18,16,6,21,0,1,0,0,2,9,1,6,11,84,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479460870339507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342920561971664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18816485000460906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851514506525598,0.2174100552906952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724754264451449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522725406654838,0.12041682993165455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17612767643317734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820699938110918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17552570417285565,0.1852685387712009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236048803989207,0.23811294608302802,0.08234821411202839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627929621853049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17610571483092058,0.0,0.1593404179826563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817324649774526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860215950123214,0.0,0.2159632786327537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808418378693717,0.17302087194470178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281741419014454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346094751342873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547936663012045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800422847347854,0.0,0.0,0.09828667729708243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564122160590174,0.1390768028770745,0.09941901780699117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15155257741717246,0.15625360656535825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271117277283812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ummjennyweregonnadie,2019/07/17,"Am I fat? Yes. Should that stop me from french tucking my shirt? Idk but it's not gonna stop me. Y'all I'm so sick of trying to hide my tummy fat I don't want to wear grotesquely oversized shirts and look like a blob with legs again

Might as well work with what i got amirite??",-0.7240000000000002,1.4216889333333356,0.11833333333333408,107.5725,93.0,3.0,14.166666666666668,3.1291,-1.7538333333333331,216,4,55,0,8,65,51,60,0.237,0.6459999999999999,0.11599999999999999,-0.7938,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,1,4,7,6,0,0,10,9,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,8,2,7,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,29,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891262920049896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766116895781361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035707580971665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38349665184740783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6044639662809415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454362292070776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21322333338285207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325033846163987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26317786957762224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,partywombat,2019/07/17,"How do y'all deal with acne from restricting? i get awful awful acne from restriction!! i used to be a lurker of the skincare addiction sub but at a certain point it became super obvious that i could slather whatever products on my face and nothing would make a difference :(

i've upped my cals from 400 to around 900/1000 and it's helping but does anyone have a good routine they can pass on??? i'm losing my mind, birth control made me break out MORE and it's not fair... i just wanna have a pretty face and a tiny body at the same time",3.0174999999999983,4.763005750000001,4.167777777777779,86.555,74.83333333333334,7.022222222222222,25.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.4644555555555554,423,15,84,6,9,138,79,108,0.124,0.703,0.174,0.8718,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,3,3,4,0,0,8,2,7,4,3,5,2,25,12,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,10,3,15,8,2,12,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,0,2,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25697156429009665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482216878188002,0.0,0.0,0.20984238482041065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618337887295008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643820512206572,0.18820468262808865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430188332775401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462791182665399,0.0,0.0,0.20628174246082348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315491548909492,0.0,0.0,0.19771226859295027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799935893050754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637124075658635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230456740052908,0.1573461370811048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380118290908375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261814319857696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22283330034273469,0.0,0.0,0.23981382199851545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745128172196788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20358795799037316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674500090345605,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ann123xox,2019/07/17,"How can I hide food or pretend to eat my food when I’m on Holliday sitting with my parents I’m so scared as I don’t want to gain weight when I’m away but I can’t hide food or
No how too when it’ll be too hot to wear sleeves but I’m eating with my family 3 meals a day!",0.08500000000000085,0.5772635606060632,2.96709090909091,97.30063636363636,80.06060606060606,6.492121212121212,20.775757575757574,6.742157984588678,-0.07174787878787914,209,5,60,2,5,75,42,66,0.16699999999999998,0.778,0.055,-0.6920000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,8,1,0,1,1,0,5,8,1,2,0,9,10,11,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,8,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19339515202062607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275093558061166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212551106643847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19404933462885032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7467141842723525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285629651016302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608355654481453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141082997046106,0.0,0.0,0.25065986480643265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gothrodite,2019/07/17,"i feel duped tw numbers, disordered thinking 

woke up this morning from a 57 hr fast feeling like complete death... shaking violently, cold and dizzy and short of breath... had to drag myself to the bathroom and just lay there bc the nausea was so bad 

and yet i feel like im weak or something for not being able to fast this long when everyone in the fasting subreddits are having a grand time doing 5 day fasts.. like it’s not fair! my ed makes me feel like my body is failing me for not being able to handle these things that other people do easily. i feel like the unhealthy normalization of fasting has gotten to my head pretty bad and now I feel like a failure for not being “normal” (even tho what they do is far from normal)
ugh",3.4427083333333366,5.293825631944447,4.249722222222221,85.96750000000002,73.93055555555556,6.466666666666668,24.5,7.1686216300943375,1.0382749999999996,577,18,111,6,12,185,98,144,0.223,0.634,0.14300000000000002,-0.9426,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,8,14,1,1,7,0,13,4,3,1,0,22,23,9,1,3,6,0,6,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,7,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,4,7,11,7,14,16,0,16,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,17,71,19,1,0.2622854068385776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189973590414496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566997949262292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750062944077895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457619454027747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503008997895005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661851877214741,0.0,0.0,0.12531247311421942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39785814747683657,0.4684418676314554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459024837904274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416566238937253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844182037010731,0.0,0.0,0.11605716570586225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753877287215646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385476015355502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091783814464167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341927603034107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096006014496696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712538488825193,0.08403094904080495,0.0,0.0,0.07647036498547165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thirdegreepoly,2019/07/17,"my disordered habits are rubbing off on my little brother he told me that he can hear me sneaking out at night to go jogging around the neighborhood, that he can hear when I come back. 

he’s eating less and less. he’s still growing, he’s about to start high school. I don’t want his growth stunted like me. I’m the same height I was in fifth grade, and I just finished my sophomore year of college. 

I can see the look in his eyes when I turn food down, that faraway disappointed look. I know I should be better for him. I know I’m a role model for him, his big sister. 

I tell him I don’t want to get milk tea with him anymore because I can’t handle the caffeine anymore but the truth is just I don’t remember when it became a fear food. the guilt I feel when I lie to him cuts a lot deeper than the guilt I feel when I binge. it’s just not worth it anymore",1.4815368852459017,3.0753926557377085,2.734012978142079,95.8324948770492,78.72677595628414,5.449316939890712,21.820013661202182,5.985473137389443,0.019371857923497604,668,19,156,4,16,215,105,183,0.098,0.831,0.071,-0.8167,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,12,8,1,3,10,0,12,6,1,0,1,22,31,8,0,3,5,2,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,6,6,5,0,5,1,1,5,5,5,0,0,2,9,31,3,18,27,4,28,0,1,4,0,21,12,0,1,12,95,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432888527066355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263709124736006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145679170351055,0.0,0.09082593653331457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177392233202306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834595359167789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707611171336673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245902701283118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676607379988808,0.15067264360808996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603305617231775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784371006490373,0.0,0.08467726174924503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358562669082356,0.0,0.0,0.15742134148533396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376745220647276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279140488895745,0.149332078881719,0.0,0.0,0.2502364596350499,0.0,0.0,0.12667017549944146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982166420046827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687822296819046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507908404314683,0.11872968200865093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545939008444803,0.0,0.1189875568286153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022815055661455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237105652551507,0.0,0.0,0.16206371693742005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576215967491388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594786062663796
EDAnonymous,weenieHJ,2019/07/17,"Blood in purge? Hi guys kinda tmi but this has never happened before so I’m a little tripped out 

I don’t purge very often, usually 2-3 times a week but tonight after I purge small little bits of blood came out? It definantly wasn’t what I ate and it was only small little drops? It stopped after a few minutes of rinsing  my mouth out and I’m a bit worried. 
This hasn’t ever happened before",0.2195959595959636,2.6117130246913582,2.28675645342312,91.78313131313135,91.5925925925926,3.9331088664422,19.709315375982047,5.565023196281405,-0.06775061728395082,309,10,62,2,11,103,52,81,0.08800000000000001,0.912,0.0,-0.6483,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,5,4,3,0,2,13,11,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,8,7,3,21,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,2,9,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175619504961633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074329153582855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134181609161553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878838348547948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18476114842133926,0.3300156179296113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5610600180909209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391571861514196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191602729758773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600410727879813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880667160983656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551110274557874,0.15396271840029954,0.0,0.0,0.1496774912942095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894991128619758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justeatingair,2019/07/17,"Sometimes dreams suck. I just woke up from a dream where i was able to get skin removal surgery, and now im sad it isn't true. 

Also the surgeon told me my current regime will never be enough, and that I'll be fat again because of it.  Wow thanks dream.",-0.2261725067385463,2.0357966792452835,0.7213477088948785,103.37641509433963,91.64150943396228,3.0285714285714285,18.892183288409704,3.1291,-0.97886846361186,196,6,46,0,7,60,46,53,0.13699999999999998,0.642,0.221,0.6209,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,2,0,5,3,2,0,2,5,10,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,4,3,4,4,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,4,27,7,0,0.3568653248099843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28538507131865376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175417896999752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687372766431454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186447403140112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38547578919197945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27523653854288954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352948931259802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285536447165505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341000110983459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,miapensa,2019/07/17,"Hey peanut butter Why are you so tasty and high in kcals.

Fuck you!



Sincerely, 
Everyone",0.8818750000000009,2.1592334375,1.4574999999999996,91.7375,120.875,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,1.1769250000000002,69,2,13,2,4,21,15,16,0.182,0.67,0.14800000000000002,-0.1759,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49687949361299105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4807289210365217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5494054644954633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4692164840332055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lolafienchen,2019/07/17,"My boyfriend showed me a progress pic of some girl that overcame ANA and he looked so happy for her He was casually scrolling through reddit when he encountered the progress pic.  
He said that he's always happy when he sees transformations like this,  not knowing i have an ED. 
But the Moment he showed it to me i felt so guilty for wanting to look like the before picture. I could feel so good around him even if i didn't stuck in my stomach or try to lose weight but i legit cry when i realize how much i weigh.",3.5731310679611634,5.078043242718451,3.751638349514561,91.09697208737863,72.88349514563106,6.703398058252428,26.46723300970873,7.1686216300943375,1.0300300970873786,406,14,87,4,8,125,73,103,0.077,0.754,0.16899999999999998,0.7026,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,9,7,0,0,5,0,4,3,1,1,0,15,13,12,0,3,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,2,0,4,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,7,13,6,9,7,2,6,0,1,3,0,11,2,0,3,6,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331093077020316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19611764651752064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18746284045959816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589515794050156,0.0,0.24199406741867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550899572661352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139253726502348,0.0,0.21152679744431094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478090037565092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690363163457617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107355114945358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21525922921368973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370000465744376,0.24646430116369825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194910176691465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20955995846750733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555410472539051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149572244188446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299412584297262,0.0,0.0,0.268271440683647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Boneat,2019/07/17,"I have been binging. Since I was sexually assaulted (raped) I have been bingeing, I can’t stop. I also have strep throat.

I had one good day but it’s been nearly a month of bingeing. I was doing so good. I guess I just wanted it to get out there.
I barely talk about myself to anyone anywhere. 

The law enforcement are handling the rape but I’m probably going to drop charges because it was date rape and I don’t want to be put through worse.
I just want to be able to starve again. I was eating 700 calories a day for a long time, sometimes 500.

I’ve only put on a few lbs, but I’m worried that I can’t stop.",0.06697674418604649,2.2271077906976764,2.125240310077519,95.14320930232564,87.3720930232558,4.68031007751938,20.227906976744187,6.079149491110277,-0.015917209302325652,471,15,106,4,15,157,80,129,0.266,0.669,0.065,-0.9836,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,6,0,18,5,1,0,0,14,26,6,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,1,8,0,15,2,13,16,1,16,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,9,68,19,0,0.18850406541632886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074663300879515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318064254769276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491032864631535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431390552825783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288671901242616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848559396164956,0.0,0.10713120445399192,0.3162165331128189,0.0,0.0,0.2076584801923357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668201660164481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504621465816268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773523324966204,0.1433658360676285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20323926503634526,0.0,0.0,0.3789973018312768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559325108596504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864353407332212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151956786827145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151242737455553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991823645379953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333553745263431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914350286353657,0.19210174701208832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Astronautee,2019/07/17,"the urges to yeet have won and i had a mini-b/p slip up (been in quasi-recovery for like.. 2-3weeks w/ therapy) and i was doing so fucking well. 4 days without b/p.

my parents just have to come berate me with comments.. like it wasn't much food at all but they knew i b/ped and they were chanting 'give up' and said treatment is useless for me and i should have a daughter like myself to experience what a shitty person i am. nice, thank you for the encouragement and reinforcing my self hatred

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god im just really upset right now bc i literally have no support outside of my therapists and ive battled the urges to bp for so fucking long and she just has to say that ughugh the urges to self harm are strong in this one",1.887942857142857,3.859548346666666,3.613904761904763,88.23600000000002,78.86666666666667,6.419047619047619,24.04761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.0399619047619044,572,20,121,8,14,191,101,150,0.165,0.659,0.17600000000000002,-0.2741,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,2,2,7,16,3,1,7,0,16,3,0,0,1,18,25,11,0,1,5,2,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,3,4,10,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,8,2,17,10,18,16,2,10,0,1,0,2,14,6,2,0,6,81,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894909998203642,0.21250797820962966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065046664194992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112788247168692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710739545642443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21147517997198653,0.0,0.0,0.3233621476073356,0.0,0.16776843906562025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889089760499824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256324226993525,0.0,0.0,0.15477031524629406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856275191029107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850858796148095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941923504248121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527053953245918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203768665264036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935333722614064,0.16635847100630893,0.1390779019613415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648925066716173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984607512157207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101330963222182,0.19999959036263892,0.20305836700126226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724525287411525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685857242815922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21250797820962966,0.0
EDAnonymous,brodeine-goth-syrup,2019/07/17,"question regarding psychiatrist- please answer if you can! i’m seeing a psychiatrist this friday for the first time in a few years, and i was wondering if i should tell them about my ed/ed behaviors/ body dysmorphia? would it be worth it to tell them since it isn’t really an issue of medication? should i save my concerns about it for a therapist instead?

thank you for reading and helping 🖤🖤",4.727599999999999,6.684383826666667,5.805,75.70750000000002,70.73333333333333,9.8,29.83333333333333,10.125756701596842,3.2999333333333336,317,13,57,9,6,105,55,75,0.0,0.823,0.177,0.8986,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,2,1,3,2,0,0,5,0,7,2,1,0,0,11,11,4,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,9,2,8,6,1,4,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,4,3,41,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663808249672198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398683994391906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16074319430056974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503049510051279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24158876575968435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632452723241969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686481102252247,0.0,0.23988027771303785,0.0,0.15363187342171775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911018090694916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19837776073921512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41921842528526,0.22078978193581247,0.0,0.2784441402568306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983827677689714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600695500584948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703579655010696,0.0,0.0,0.15443324223475952
EDAnonymous,Nestle13,2019/07/17,"Should I ask to go to the doctor? TW// I’m so tired of this shit. I don’t want to tell my parents what’s going on, but I’m starting to feel physical side effects. I’m 5’3 and 95 lbs, and I do not feel thin enough to ask for help. My hair is falling out, I have low b/p. Idk, I feel like I should see a dietician. Have any of you had experience telling a medical professional? What would they do? I’m so scared, and I don’t feel sick enough to tell anyone yet, but I feel like I need help.",-0.4009591326105095,1.28033812844037,2.1314261884904084,97.43048373644704,85.1467889908257,5.7984987489574635,19.08340283569641,6.980632752743323,-0.0506770642201837,372,10,97,5,11,128,66,109,0.184,0.6859999999999999,0.13,-0.7329,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,1,3,5,1,1,3,0,11,6,2,1,0,18,28,7,0,5,3,1,7,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,8,13,2,11,24,2,10,0,1,1,0,10,5,1,0,4,52,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997252345122438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307568802215205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023655292634079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552332595653274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33419201255129244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818941979667553,0.0,0.0,0.4088427073440188,0.2310600912736212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381402285122267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167898450816916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15801267879036862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16291200175040135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991047173090295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795666401755949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190607182460653,0.0,0.12886682936491586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599929796555393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446351912195345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42404111353717866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586891820391468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538437169395393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487850888526895,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_nocturnalvoid,2019/07/17,"DAE cover their body all the time? I hate my body and I have crippling social anxiety so I never wear anything revealing. I legit wear turtlenecks and black jeans in the summer. Never been a fan of clothing that most girls wear like crop tops, leggings, etc. I don't wear full on baggy clothing, but I just hate form-fitting stuff. Even when I do wear skinny jeans, I always wear an extra layer like an oversized jacket long enough to cover my thighs.  I just hate attention and feeling exposed. Don't wear any tank tops or shorts. The only time I wore shorts was when the A/C cut off and it was unbearably hot.

Also, DAE **hate their hands of all things?** Pretty much always hide them. It's not like there's even anything wrong with them. I just think my fingers are too stubby and ugly so I always keep them in my pockets or hold something.",2.1091531165311683,4.650479359756101,2.7852845528455283,91.32136856368568,81.62195121951221,4.620054200542006,20.08672086720868,5.82211442006289,0.03154850948509491,661,18,126,4,18,206,100,164,0.16899999999999998,0.71,0.121,-0.8209,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,5,2,12,9,5,0,7,0,8,14,14,0,4,24,16,13,0,0,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,6,1,2,4,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,4,5,21,3,8,12,8,17,0,0,1,0,7,9,0,3,11,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301017867751233,0.3527581500525971,0.0,0.0,0.09609957672212316,0.0,0.1081061853489114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258169307252954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31393994973438444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601697743317588,0.15760445049138694,0.18667548059050773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145350472768412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5580803065234554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256079588514892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20711925677350868,0.0,0.0,0.12506001886908574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388335873178743,0.0,0.21798288365673776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074770190675394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376895279471233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14405364199010467,0.0,0.10879179195839896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177275926507054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388392532104352,0.09054944611747852,0.0,0.0,0.1648047361805579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450662194636192,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sossox,2019/07/17,"1 Month til I’m out of hell!! Being home for the summer from college without therapy has been perhaps not one of my best decisions. I’m trying to recover all while living at home with my family, who keep the house well stocked, and wait for it...working a job in a deli. It’s fucking awful. I am surrounded by food 24/7 there are always things I can just grab and eat and I feel like I have no control here. 

But I get to move in exactly a month. My first apartment of my own and I am SO excited. I will get to keep the food I feel safe around in my house, I will get to cook my own meals, and I won’t have to spend every day working a job that makes me miserable. I am so close to maybe getting some peace so I can try to really recover. It’s just hard when I always feel like shit.",1.4755357142857155,2.838054529761905,3.4888095238095254,91.42285714285713,78.10714285714286,7.180952380952381,22.714285714285715,7.957251820313856,0.9283642857142852,603,18,141,10,14,205,102,168,0.107,0.7659999999999999,0.127,0.5294,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,10,10,3,1,7,1,14,7,1,2,2,27,28,12,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,5,9,5,5,4,1,1,1,4,4,1,2,1,5,20,6,23,23,5,18,1,1,0,1,1,9,3,1,10,94,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173699354237493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627806366989595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707594634477455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649963595926074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423805855882409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365522632720742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005163075618583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313539744388315,0.0,0.1981337544650249,0.18662761402986155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110393949874424,0.31588856182105796,0.0,0.0,0.12075460081010565,0.2729708798679028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700842526089683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620417989908497,0.0,0.0,0.3014321798129338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25923720326615113,0.23219926088329496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762709936867428,0.0,0.11533843524169995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718879249007325,0.0,0.13122373341949178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085167123792412,0.1388266818561917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885104044350631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367748808902563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407790475273734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14937351743316565,0.0,0.08677705723306682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736263147987144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174416231497539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259114710150099,0.0,0.19018349347345434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,usernameblahhhhh,2019/07/17,hello friends I drank maple syrup today that's all :^),-0.2681818181818194,1.804562636363638,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,104.45454545454544,2.2,14.590909090909092,3.1291,-1.451763636363636,43,1,9,0,2,13,11,11,0.0,0.53,0.47,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6317949972073474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.775135524604419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iamadachshund,2019/07/17,"ED ~memories~ it is frankly scary how well i remember the first day i engaged in ~behaviors~ (after having done plenty of research on pro-ana blogs (rip, xanga)). i read an article in people magazine about mary-kate olsen's anorexia (i am Old) (also, how fucking hilarious is it that they claimed she had an ED but sent her to a rehab that...did not treat eating disorders). i went to buy dance clothes for school and checked out my thigh gap before thigh gaps were a thing. i went to dinner with my family and decided i was suddenly a vegan so whoops! everything on the menu's off limits! funny how that works!

now that i find ED twitter/instagram/whatever the kids do these days completely impenetrable, can any fellow olds reminisce about ED blogs and websites? i don't know how many hours of my life i spent on blue dragonfly, or that ""feast or famine"" site, or scarlett's blog (catherineofsiena), or built on a dream (featuring an appropriately melodramatic illustration of a wraith emerging from a computer screen to embrace its sad user). and love___bones on xanga who i thought was impossibly glamorous and #goals, though we wouldn't have put it that way then. and the_ana_encyclopedia, also on xanga, whose posts were basically met with a ticker tape parade. what fun! how could i think that i wasted my youth!",5.8619432821943285,7.75364289539749,6.177454672245473,74.42249070199907,67.744769874477,9.829939562993957,30.43258949325895,10.125756701596842,3.2658812645281268,1048,41,182,27,18,336,165,239,0.057,0.838,0.105,0.8841,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,1,0,1,4,13,7,1,0,13,0,16,7,2,5,0,30,25,21,0,2,6,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,15,10,2,1,6,6,3,5,3,2,1,1,12,2,21,5,24,11,0,29,0,1,2,1,10,11,1,4,11,114,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686806649631329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142379318329206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294582962823188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613273266242574,0.0,0.0,0.13412513764194656,0.0,0.0,0.2166773537423541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19252936011429628,0.0,0.0,0.17191054671178888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17189416072660132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097722029055324,0.0,0.15836459509286016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535384338873734,0.1428909213531296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530264944008024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543482113924735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232207925935483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865523648407462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170313959134801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35255131711823406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164620652669294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088653438317935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688748283175909,0.0,0.0,0.16803394722073287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902982085429005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001331747345227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160408637432992,0.10764023948812967,0.16504783570108325,0.13336409430127424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334144187949792,0.0,0.0,0.15104182455443033,0.31145402118601795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229761937868078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alsiel,2019/07/17,"Moved into a new place with roommates... And it's great!!

Except, one of my roommates works at a donut shop and frequently brings boxes of them home up for grabs. F to my self control this is going to be so hard.",1.7991860465116292,3.7356283953488396,2.872267441860465,93.61677325581397,79.0,5.230232558139536,20.05232558139535,5.985473137389443,-0.0827162790697673,163,4,35,1,4,52,37,43,0.043,0.85,0.10800000000000001,0.5883,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,10,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576105574896951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812063421060264,0.0,0.0,0.35152653695980124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856215164942569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31982643918917103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388806174702236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079414356167872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21605688550969016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331240240203057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326237359393658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321221642669909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cryglass99,2019/07/17,"Anonymous Helpline? DAE know if there is an anonymous eating disorder hotline online, that you can do text messages/type?

I have too much anxiety to go outside and go to a clinic, and I don’t really feel like talking over the phone.

I just feel so stressed right now. I try to act positively every day, but it’s just getting worse.",4.251562499999999,5.9583297812500025,4.889500000000002,82.80550000000002,71.5,7.620000000000001,31.55,8.238735603445708,2.4028162500000003,262,12,49,4,5,84,53,64,0.153,0.7829999999999999,0.064,-0.6887,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,9,11,5,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,4,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134233447193203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799227369168167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319741854054556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854720839421424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23505753749043054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821271682407703,0.1993074844968075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575854621022696,0.0,0.3171080761526415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332327897954626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629835145791708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20508663597423235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17872542331668842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23825231684996626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195772483858356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242381881303111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18941301965276847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843103264405373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mushybrainz123,2019/07/17,I’m so tired i’m so tired of this. i can’t take the binging and purging and restricting anymore. i don’t want to do it anymore. i just want to be able to fucking eat like a normal person and actually enjoy food because food is good! but i can’t! i’ve become so jaded and worn in such a short amount of time because of this shitty illness. i don’t want it anymore. i’m done.,-0.10224932249322903,1.8898176097561008,2.641382113821141,92.35307588075884,86.3170731707317,4.620054200542006,22.52574525745257,5.82211442006289,0.2681338753387532,292,11,65,2,9,102,47,82,0.272,0.618,0.111,-0.9587,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,3,0,8,7,0,0,0,11,17,8,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,7,14,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,37,9,0,0.17076466220948416,0.0,0.1666416772177893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080579772347943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081931062052212,0.1885961531122416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475153766467588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473488088495848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129786147501165,0.0,0.0,0.15786917854756052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322929678679264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342698829929104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731311219448908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149105116341248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839377405710484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957424778738673,0.3925377174263828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021642663929737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohstopplease,2019/07/17,DAE sometimes eat like shit for a while and not care about it because you know it’ll be easy for you to just stop eating and lose the weight all over again? Me currently. I’ve been eating like shit and I’m like eh whatever I’ll just starve for the next 2-3 weeks.,1.4573684210526316,3.0601189473684234,2.3121403508771934,98.79031578947372,78.82456140350877,5.963508771929827,18.417543859649122,6.742157984588678,-0.3055866666666667,208,4,51,2,5,65,42,57,0.255,0.594,0.151,-0.8035,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,4,7,2,0,3,0,3,6,2,0,1,9,6,4,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,3,4,6,3,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,9,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252558222169278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094957399643449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6307575185601474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129238390565296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30115452538209897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298742773591729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852528904597496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218348398814282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032203037701564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178653284572232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16481987380323626,0.2502135330434653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,That1weirdperson,2019/07/17,"What are some comebacks if someone calls you fat? Hi, so I'm going to a new school, which may have an old bully from 5th & 6th grade who used to call me fat and slow (the elementary and high school are kind of like sister schools, but not really), and I'm afraid of being called fat and stuff again.  

While I am in recovery, so I have become more educated (like about how I have to gain weight to restore my vitals and stuff), I am still afraid that pea brained bully won't understand, and it's not like I can lecture him on how I'm in ED recovery (that'll sound nerdy to him and it'll sound like I was affected by his comment, plus I don't look anorexic).

So if I do get called fat, what do I say in response?  I don't really have any good comebacks (all I have is, ""Yeah, thank for noticing,"" ""At least I'm the bigger person between us,"" and ""Photoshop doesn't fix a bad personality) and when I tried to look some up, most were cringe (like ""I know you are but what am I,"" and your mom jokes), and some couldn't be used without me getting in trouble.

If you have ever been in this situation before, what did you say?",8.938398268398267,4.936799203463206,8.825194805194807,77.5054112554113,63.45887445887446,12.171428571428573,36.056277056277054,9.444778638647367,2.910882251082252,860,24,196,11,9,282,134,231,0.055999999999999994,0.8190000000000001,0.125,0.9512,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,1,5,0,1,10,14,0,2,5,1,30,6,5,5,2,35,44,24,0,4,8,2,1,5,0,4,4,4,0,2,13,12,5,0,2,1,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,7,26,10,23,33,7,19,0,0,2,0,22,10,0,8,13,130,39,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538757908872547,0.0,0.07869671101317034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662522516474477,0.0,0.1278087524685334,0.09847312940892243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918695006818898,0.4726711095204073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467954554202336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209226767934696,0.0,0.06576896929580234,0.09706432202978517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122269416379011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050938514875108,0.06359922553775373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28268602303869617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194359072204819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553527809456833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176756060853243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317532486402569,0.1214335233289426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020925516429685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827231171288655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840577277886907,0.0,0.35135848572171924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007932328187982,0.0,0.0,0.0980530962897594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924178322489686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26495400957901666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654368342025064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856942166160198,0.0,0.0,0.12047341227051532,0.13920247091509216,0.19989783392196192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092141264045505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111554405521251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,steepedinqualitea,2019/07/17,"DAE “binge” but without eating tons of calories? When I’ve heard doctors and people with BED talk about binging they talk about how it’s usually eating 2000+ calories in a sitting and getting out of control. I feel like I have the lack of control with binging, but I don’t eat a crazy amount of calories when I do it. For me, it’s like getting out of control and chewing a whole multipack of gum in a day, or eating a whole bag of low cal sugar free candy, or a whole family sized bag of baby carrots/other vegetables. 

I eat so much that I get an upset stomach or painfully full, but not over my daily calories. For example, I did it today but I’m still under 1600 cal for the day.",4.313063492063492,4.724588242857145,5.648095238095237,82.27468253968256,70.14285714285714,7.650793650793651,31.26984126984127,7.3871296695380915,2.002603174603174,534,22,105,5,9,180,83,140,0.12,0.802,0.078,-0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,3,7,6,0,1,9,0,4,11,1,4,0,22,10,14,0,1,9,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,5,7,8,3,1,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,3,10,4,22,8,8,16,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,3,9,73,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176379589740709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16009601031467793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704346549862658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6350356613973082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170105662247178,0.0,0.06275948611431945,0.08867232024306497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454485395289592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127884810338707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124347692507913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207387207788104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605011866820877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912347380040692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952808574967584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765253065519955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670213592149272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157311780148123,0.0,0.11964855617059872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waakeupmrwest,2019/07/17,"Any ADVICE for lunch at work? So, I just started an office job therefore there is a shared fridge/common lunch time amongst me and my coworkers.

I'm severely introverted so I imagine I will try to hide away during lunch, perhaps just sit at my desk. I do need to eat during the day, to prevent a binge when I get home. My ideal lunch is a quest bar and a sugar free monster; maybe some carrots?

I work around a bunch of guys (I am a girl) and one guy has already commented on my eating. 

**Does anyone have any advice for surviving my 30 minute lunch break at work; and eating as I please?**",0.7046892655367216,3.1602371525423765,2.2780000000000022,92.74185875706215,88.49152542372879,4.8415819209039554,19.731073446327684,6.42735559955562,0.1941202259887005,456,14,94,5,15,148,80,118,0.040999999999999995,0.845,0.114,0.8042,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,8,0,7,10,0,1,0,13,11,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,5,10,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,14,4,13,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,4,55,14,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238755826632917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18287402382026288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253879563243764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587393574991145,0.0,0.0,0.14752422684394134,0.0,0.0,0.15569759271225805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687445307831124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502100990988187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087129069387327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658085784294088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281739097680396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622874761083986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444962520873924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648608693075356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287785765553977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229486086899616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190868932474435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872142623633746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172961110601215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663154601533946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251169934492572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619342111612955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sylvia39,2019/07/17,"I don’t want to recover That’s it. I don’t know if any of you can relate, but I love this. I’ve been diagnosed for years, I know the negative side effects, been hospitalized three times, but I love my ED. I love standing up and seeing stars. I love hearing the comments. Hell, I even love counting calories (def helped my math grades lol). But I don’t want to change. I know this will probably kill me. Hope this doesn’t count as glorification or anything, but it’s how I feel.",1.4345360824742244,3.6378755979381476,2.9125876288659818,91.45754123711343,81.68041237113404,6.35422680412371,23.1020618556701,7.554174236665415,0.9176647422680416,371,13,82,6,10,121,63,97,0.145,0.5379999999999999,0.317,0.97,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,1,0,1,2,8,2,0,2,1,8,6,0,2,0,16,22,9,1,4,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,2,3,15,6,6,19,0,5,1,0,1,5,9,2,1,3,2,48,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504982659634057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922269155696365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17897253565671914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717165644170033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174337288616916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554369966052477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19068084914095548,0.0,0.11339938969190975,0.0,0.0,0.16803628680591598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871752478914167,0.0,0.2789346508479459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7634685607193193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824072307956694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481646057735086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865161203911878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957631377364046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089479121885443
EDAnonymous,GhostGangGiGi,2019/07/17,"My office had a weight loss contest... I won $1,000 and a relapse. I should have known shit was gonna get bad when I got a sick motivation from seeing everyone else still eating greasy fast food and takeout every day. At least it paid for rent for a month.",3.275961538461541,4.65113698076923,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,73.42307692307692,6.7384615384615385,22.615384615384606,7.1686216300943375,0.5859076923076927,201,5,43,2,4,64,45,52,0.228,0.6629999999999999,0.109,-0.765,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,4,0,4,5,1,1,0,5,10,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,5,2,4,1,4,3,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,5,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483618064830501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918333312641408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30436987444703056,0.2484847897512049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506179665129382,0.2842302056402019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596827619196377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540752635756838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23790127194020025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23742507985285485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370324612072169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053324299927078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23754728363599315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622190432762568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OriginalPainting,2019/03/14,"Does anyone else obsessively pick at their skin? My skin used to not look bad, it actually used to be pretty clear! But ever since my ED started, I guess I just needed something else to exert control over since I don't let myself eat food. So, when I want to binge or eat, I just attack my skin and squeeze every pore on my face, and now my skin looks *bad*. Just terrible. Does anyone else do this or some other type self destructive behavior in order to distract themselves from their ED?",4.394030075187967,5.7860573052631565,4.980751879699248,83.52526315789474,70.6842105263158,7.533834586466164,25.150375939849624,7.957251820313856,1.3671954887218054,384,11,74,5,7,123,65,95,0.138,0.764,0.098,-0.6397,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,7,7,2,2,0,0,4,8,5,4,2,19,12,7,0,2,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,7,13,0,10,10,1,9,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,4,4,44,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.14730695130866062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110976865080252,0.3093354316231257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717291959732563,0.0,0.0,0.25207650115469005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930501454808713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26419746156811497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089222698689621,0.37830198578611146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654433165721655,0.12718320304494204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253123021261605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629016602854488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543582013346702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535225910497465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192867190655814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357200851885466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747540242537772,0.0,0.0,0.24973738704128465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162098886904544,0.0,0.0,0.106844293848019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26074736942416404,0.0,0.0,0.08903514338851784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frameworkautoco,2019/03/14,"Just learned Social Anxiety Disorder is a thing And Boy Do I Have That Shit. Mods, sorry if this isn't relevant.

As much as self diagnosis isn't exactly trustworthy, every symptom of Social Anxiety Disorder is something I either do (avoiding eye contact, holding myself stiffly, avoiding people, substance abuse, can't start a conversation, limiting friendships, etc etc etc) or have done in the past. The childhood-through-teen symptoms were all there too. It's like someone just wrote a biography of my ass and tossed it into the DSM 5.

Oh and the best part, children and teens with SAD (wow, very cool name, appreciate that, thanks for that) are at higher risk of: depression☑️, substance abuse☑️, suicidal ideation (not anymore tfg, but for many years☑️), and eating disorders ☑️

I feel like, ok, it's neat to have an explanation for what has always been so wrong with me. But I'm so over this life. I knew I was a loser, but it really feels sometimes like I was born to be miserable and nothing. 

Has anyone been diagnosed with this? Now that I know it's a real thing I'd love to know how y'all cope.",4.508503521126759,6.048180000000002,5.446006455399061,79.7284463028169,70.59624413145539,8.893075117370893,31.152875586854464,9.354420925462401,2.8730565727699533,872,38,164,19,16,286,139,213,0.174,0.6890000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.6691,0,2,1,0,2,0,38.0,0,1,0,3,8,18,1,4,10,2,20,9,3,1,2,35,30,16,1,1,9,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,3,15,10,1,4,6,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,8,4,11,10,18,21,8,8,0,3,1,2,11,4,2,2,7,102,26,1,0.0,0.14456565180079542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152472966904648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866794784154004,0.0,0.12100427628914215,0.0853144436953726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804529172493334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384079670183973,0.0,0.0,0.41951298219726224,0.0,0.0,0.12486183246615926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248499310198756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40823080361295216,0.0,0.0,0.10280135604197964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12338704719313953,0.08716623127399935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411049192618882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618150859554592,0.17882841161897184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101216474220646,0.0,0.0,0.12370220116739065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969371716104721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707492497338184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212837035556574,0.11647537450000935,0.08458856748563312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887769674879516,0.07816475945546059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272863438331929,0.0,0.12524476310928306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24875411766457595,0.10338136091373888,0.09393169740067596,0.1206741425712682,0.13658375170220358,0.0863615479871413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334626017565039,0.0,0.0,0.2536367981747859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233333168999002,0.0,0.0,0.1621202538407696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067364147779076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340224476324444,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sexsymboI,2019/03/14,about to sound deranged ive been fasting for 36 hrs & i just like. compulsively chewed at my lips till the skin came off is this gonna break my fast fr A REAL QUESTION ,2.2325000000000017,3.783030583333337,3.184444444444445,93.605,76.5,5.911111111111111,23.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.29417777777777765,135,4,31,1,3,43,34,36,0.0,0.925,0.075,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,6,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719246041822131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4981598829389861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127905977608531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879222570884117,0.0,0.0,0.4957579364367311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swaeter,2019/03/14,i can’t help but wonder why i get such a sickening amount of joy out of being/feeling “skinny” even though i can see the beauty in so many body types is is nature or nurture? was i brought up this way or was it inherent to me??? the world may never know,4.578333333333333,3.7882535000000033,5.852222222222222,85.165,69.55555555555556,8.681481481481484,27.25925925925927,7.793537801064563,1.3877481481481482,195,5,44,2,3,66,46,54,0.073,0.6679999999999999,0.259,0.9137,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,7,2,2,0,1,8,12,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,5,2,6,8,1,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,4,1,31,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745838665289223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22273566446353588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17051241870035289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618751441436928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260365671843188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853314822878756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418958796638126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260090732212798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26872675445288124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313244273123109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26767559041328576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042954772762008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657089718801498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,foggyandfatigued,2019/03/14,"question for those whose weight has yo-yo’d for how long did the rebound weight stick around when you tried losing again? 

background: I was losing slowly and steadily thru healthy eating for a year but suddenly jumped into low-moderate restriction using c/s. my rate of weight loss sped up, and I went down ~9 lbs over about 3 months and then stalled during December. had an extremely stressful January during which I switched to high restriction and b/p’d a few days. gained literally all of the weight back in pure fat. 

since the start of February I have kept my cals btwn 600 - 800 and stayed low carb (I have PCOS). I was worried my metabolism adapted after restricting for 3 months, so I tried reverse dieting the last 2 weeks and now eat more btwn 700 and 950 a day. my weight is still the same since the start of February. I watched the weight flux throughout my menstrual cycle/higher sodium/more active days, and my weight always settles around the same number. I still can’t fit into my pre-January clothes.

has this happened to anyone who has dealt w rebound weight gain? how were you able to get back to losing? I’m really grateful for any kind of guidance or shared experience. ",6.6539768339768335,7.494856045045048,6.061853281853285,79.84540540540543,65.12612612612612,9.405920205920207,31.622908622908625,9.424239791934726,2.7546476190476192,950,35,173,17,14,291,146,222,0.134,0.757,0.10800000000000001,-0.6237,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,6,13,8,0,1,12,0,12,12,1,3,2,26,20,15,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,12,12,4,1,0,0,2,1,6,0,0,7,9,18,2,25,13,5,36,0,5,1,0,6,11,0,2,22,98,23,0,0.08143828616066051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06776317797075303,0.0,0.0,0.0553808272270759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05694354321800204,0.0,0.0,0.1449946812045992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524203034428896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575628720569232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666339566556815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966227064705526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04254814327763922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201560749780181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720880412018282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848054429752117,0.0,0.0663830726441997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207032053877163,0.0,0.2733258333208088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000652609373742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122951852729154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217145146101647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473318374425355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528487621014805,0.08680237733850044,0.13007344105205254,0.0,0.09328728164578927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11058250110717456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033653160960039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532488087638634,0.7933591435332448,0.0,0.0754941071662078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270453270463357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05244358622837178
EDAnonymous,IridescentLesbian,2019/03/14,"Dieting kick-started my eating disorder and I hate myself for it The root cause of my ED is probably a fun combo of genetics and trauma, but I can't in all honesty say that if I lived in a society where there was no obesity epidemic and no ""diet culture"", that I would still have an ED. My mam used to take me to her weight watchers meetings when I was 7-9. I began hating myself when I was 11. Would I still be mentally ill? Yes. But I dont think my illness would have the disguise of being about weight. I started dieting because I thought I was fat. I started purging because it was a two-for-one deal on self harm and expelling calories consumed. The urge to restrict calories cant really be divorced from my desire to be thin (not attractive- but thin). I have an aesthetic motivation, as well as a self destructive motivation. I feel intuitively that if I had been born into a different culture, I would have found a different coping mechanism.

And I hate myself for falling into this narrative. I feel like it feeds into stereotypes I dont support and undermines the seriousness of EDs. I also feel like it makes me a less worthy ED sufferer. 

I'm not sure why I'm posting this but I guess its just the only space I know of where I can speak freely.",4.685125711574951,5.666730600806452,6.229250474383303,76.38519924098672,69.60483870967742,9.544971537001896,33.13662239089184,9.773937934552695,3.338306166982924,991,46,184,23,17,339,138,248,0.217,0.634,0.149,-0.9576,2,0,0,0,1,0,28.0,0,0,0,2,11,15,4,0,14,1,25,11,1,6,2,40,45,17,0,7,9,0,7,2,0,4,4,2,0,3,10,9,9,1,9,0,0,1,8,8,1,0,10,9,35,7,21,27,2,21,0,1,0,0,11,11,0,3,10,133,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944303746506068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396375121244429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213030519389912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173766890527375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246741747159772,0.13533254884067855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767831582075247,0.0,0.0,0.12082767474088145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911788036691506,0.16871604100584686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947114984312846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008096892481696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497454812047518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489494533728456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537809687208013,0.0,0.10426883647923203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882085384562522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899918767022988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980691204674382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309020483573698,0.0,0.12731269387606367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756465466543198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390378642788227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24637118861018265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507377844361359,0.0,0.18860135862588293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339983975431143,0.11129117266351148,0.0,0.0887831959592535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566237149025852,0.0,0.09374415826711027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534925151692756,0.0,0.0,0.10198519632685356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875848657850889,0.10617017106566387,0.0,0.10655091148274827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355291190087104,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drugsandsunshine,2019/03/14,"A woman on my main account called me morbidly obese She went lurking through my profile and mocked me for being child free (something I'm proud of so whatevs) and then said I was morbidly obese. Like I guess she was trying to hurt my feelings? Jokes on her, now I just have something to rattle around in my brain whenever Im trying to not eat ",2.267142857142858,4.672850588235296,3.1221008403361346,89.98088235294121,79.88235294117645,5.650420168067227,25.890756302521005,6.868970318607317,1.15231680672269,272,11,53,3,7,86,50,68,0.098,0.752,0.149,0.5719,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,7,9,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,4,2,12,5,10,4,1,7,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,1,3,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368412882908791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970002675686751,0.2716672348202443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722360090206785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452309111552074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29308454297062925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848124874489333,0.0,0.2873801184269896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299788011654456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25307488346385765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096372374739586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36126155534897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246631413663844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Samazing12,2019/03/14,"Dreamed I went on a date in exchange for colon prep... This is going to be pretty gross.....

I'm a nurse and whenever patient's need a colonoscopy we have to make them drink GoLytely.... Which is basically a gallon of zero-cal, sugar-free  lemonade packed with Miralax and electrolyes... The whole point is that they poop out EVERYTHING they have in their system.... Like they drink until they are pooping straight GoLytely (it literally looks like straight up pee).

Anyway, I had a dream this really gross looking doctor asked me on a date and I agreed on one condition........ That he gave me a prescription for GoLytely. Now I know I'd sell my soul for some solid colon cleanser. To be fair where I work we make people drink it pretty often and I'm always a tad envious that whoever I'm giving it to..... Yikes. ",2.4693382352941167,5.1444776907894765,3.1904798761609925,88.11365325077404,81.30263157894737,5.944891640866874,24.072755417956657,7.285733465282438,1.1897015479876163,627,23,118,9,17,197,99,152,0.037000000000000005,0.7929999999999999,0.171,0.9442,0,0,3,0,0,0,42.0,2,0,6,1,4,5,1,0,9,0,9,9,5,2,0,14,23,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,8,3,0,1,5,2,2,0,3,0,1,3,2,16,2,17,18,2,18,1,0,2,0,12,11,0,2,6,71,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523475208293647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441053642981313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190954386513922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5482799926290123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676701367823756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896752710595,0.10602763617566724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252974341201272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822898009417711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133306362532283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490635250035289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833355772456224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641942099722658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933878618035358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763616454178472,0.0,0.0,0.37960179359682383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951656601544487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294509142896203,0.0,0.2082901095855963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581955297573706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,krykry10,2019/03/14,"Worlds worst bulimic My teeth are falling out yet I'm still chubby.

Onward to the bathroom now!",0.5183333333333344,1.1332030555555583,1.5473333333333381,90.381,129.55555555555554,3.6622222222222223,20.26666666666668,5.6839178017228535,0.6019200000000002,77,3,13,1,5,24,18,18,0.285,0.715,0.0,-0.7177,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebluecrest,2019/03/14,"What treatment centers would you recommend (or not)? Hello, first time ever posting. For those who have gone, what treatment centers would you recommend (or recommend against)? And why or why not? The more info you're willing to share would be super helpful. I do know about edreviews online, but many of the reviews are years old... and I'd just love to hear from a real (recent) person. I do not discuss this with anyone in my real life, so here I am. Thanks!",2.8997545219638248,5.511071430232562,3.366899224806204,87.94308785529718,78.88372093023256,5.217571059431528,25.834625322997407,6.42735559955562,1.0755958656330744,357,14,64,3,9,111,64,86,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.9642,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,2,5,4,0,0,3,0,10,2,0,0,1,19,15,7,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,6,4,9,9,1,11,0,0,0,1,10,3,0,3,6,48,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059938054688045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188781474365048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17103802121835593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22663107965245166,0.0,0.1347792724523097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050797070767447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202831546783712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814819946271776,0.0,0.0,0.2038629346107319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109989882030638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755747620224019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257846629438988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4577447215005914,0.0,0.0,0.1985416331972029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851268808218989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725100578586742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36288573613287395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285230752057125,0.0,0.0,0.12948853058084595
EDAnonymous,Romaine_cookies,2019/03/14,"I binged last night and tried to purged but failed As the title said I tried to purge but I just failed and when I told my s/o what happened, they got mad at me because I told them I wouldn't and they know I have bulimia. I'm just upset can anyone help me out ;-;",-1.4012068965517237,0.5962936206896536,0.4616379310344811,104.66590517241379,95.55172413793105,3.589655172413793,12.422413793103447,5.148860815047168,-1.5900413793103452,202,3,52,1,8,65,41,58,0.259,0.6859999999999999,0.055,-0.9331,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,2,3,4,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,1,13,0,5,5,0,5,0,2,0,0,7,2,0,0,3,31,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211020885859802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839703888307864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413716638674913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668748102263093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20228568118721374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658576999599727,0.2460018116864577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28321255922852706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28707452936788697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5767528445498987,0.0,0.4097956682269001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chardwork,2019/03/14,"so afraid of being The Fat American hey yall. i just got really wonderful news: i've been accepted to my dream master's program in the netherlands.

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this should be a good thing.

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i should be so proud of myself and so excited to learn more in a new place.

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but i'm NOT because suddenly i think i'm too fat to get a degree in europe. i'm so scared of the US/EU size difference when it comes to shopping. i'm so scared that i'll gain weight when i'm there, which is irrational because i will be walking/biking everywhere and too broke to buy enough food. i'm so scared that i will just be the young, fat american who doesn't know enough- even though i do. i hate that my eating disorder manages to ruin the happiest moments.

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anyways, time to restrict to the gods so that i can feel like a princess in five months!!!",3.821659919028342,5.2629640584795325,4.514269005847954,86.12595141700409,72.15789473684211,8.068556005398111,28.943319838056677,8.617729084823388,2.110287989203779,678,27,137,12,13,217,103,171,0.207,0.66,0.133,-0.9662,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,3,17,12,1,4,10,0,14,6,3,0,0,17,28,13,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,3,6,1,6,2,2,1,2,7,0,1,2,2,12,5,15,17,3,14,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,1,9,85,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331085858988133,0.4857171581860918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183621402889988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608325808896704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440850583443292,0.11453164596480865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225620210896412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20651459114815326,0.0,0.06600467156152537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050529026056896166,0.07139201190917621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083913779175827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052210763149094966,0.0,0.0,0.08381889091622026,0.07992538877145135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866295032564963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054920453120449915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04882211802056317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976540712275912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651572044920773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440850583443292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401951026631897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300150497063095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639091150182208,0.06403290279104944,0.09818346809313844,0.0,0.05827161900947955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202068533618362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169122770203218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837285817783404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857171581860918,0.0
EDAnonymous,kayasawyer,2019/03/14,I’m fucking tired i have ednos and gastroparesis and i just feel like my entire world is spiralling. my stomach hurts constantly and i feel like i’m faking everything. i’m ready to be done i just want to be better i want to be somebody else. i’m stuck in a place where i can’t gain or lose weight and i feel like i’m failing myself. i look so disgusting and my body can barely support walking these days. what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck!!! how is this my life? ,-0.5063242574257423,1.692530168316832,1.2421720297029708,97.4000897277228,98.80198019801979,4.109158415841584,17.20358910891089,5.985473137389443,-0.3602430693069309,381,11,84,4,16,123,58,101,0.294,0.534,0.172,-0.9585,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,5,15,6,0,5,0,9,10,2,1,0,14,27,8,0,2,3,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,10,0,0,2,5,13,5,4,22,0,7,0,3,1,5,0,4,5,1,5,48,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936659723212898,0.0,0.1624763475562478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580691674809891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433399542564537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968808181415533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219233678143575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146075639451335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218800979882236,0.31349241879603856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.676135238354973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658829052917372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331695807054356,0.2143848234517225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283249490303158,0.16364209139879635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282417066751994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659888868505328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811931599140228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255123105482695,0.0,0.0,0.17812112914024833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aubreyelise,2019/03/14,"do you ever get high and paranoid aboit your Ed and you’re like, tomorrow I’ll eat at maintenance for once And then you wake in in the morning and you’re like nah lmaoo",-0.7674999999999983,1.3174239166666697,0.8444444444444449,99.695,101.5,4.622222222222223,17.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,-0.17152222222222235,135,4,31,2,6,43,27,36,0.091,0.775,0.134,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426619936586142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39131517517209147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22601778698360275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570699828777386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226970228092227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4607092474409585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zootsplootwyatt,2019/03/14,"Chew chew (& spit) Last night I CS about 1500 calories in cool ranch Doritos which saved me from a binge. Yay. 

This morning I woke up to the smell of rancid corn because I forgot to seal up my spit bag. Oh no. 

Send help. ",-0.7377639751552785,1.4266679565217402,0.3119875776397514,104.53021739130438,97.69565217391305,2.628571428571429,15.267080745341616,3.1291,-1.491909316770187,170,4,40,0,7,52,40,46,0.10800000000000001,0.6809999999999999,0.212,0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,0,4,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,5,3,8,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5758781105233504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239963880313074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562520602997287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332419958566301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987750845031099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rayckul,2019/03/14,"Cost of treatment? I thinks its finally time for me to go to treatment. I want to get better before I go off to college next year and I know I can’t do it alone. I have a therapist but it’s not enough. My dad suggested we visit an eating disorder treatment center to look at some options, but I’m nervous about the cost. For any of you who have received inpatient or outpatient treatment, how much did it cost? I’m terrified that our insurance won’t be able to cover enough but I know my dad will find a way for me to somehow pay for it because he really really wanta me get better. I have asked him before but he always responds with “Don’t worry about it” but i can’t not worry about it:(",1.5290309690309698,3.5884080419580435,3.7418231768231776,86.42833916083917,80.46853146853147,6.882917082917084,23.500999000999,7.957251820313856,1.3938775224775224,542,19,110,10,14,186,84,143,0.158,0.794,0.048,-0.951,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,1,0,2,5,3,0,1,4,0,11,1,0,1,0,20,23,8,0,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,3,1,0,4,0,4,4,6,1,0,0,1,1,18,2,19,19,4,12,0,0,1,0,14,3,0,4,4,76,27,2,0.17051969346981766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660697638589376,0.0,0.0,0.14188604501472468,0.0,0.0,0.11595923892892153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941289492768732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394722243262752,0.0,0.2901993995478879,0.0,0.0,0.3016216234762938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543034184983707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448421670776673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35238485228321825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679598925941654,0.1558519106066976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817900379435192,0.0,0.1938205428535509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18742632811153995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319359603243328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535159494771253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18134962850889602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847856408612432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979865069226843,0.0,0.1092621342920127,0.0,0.0,0.09943140454530076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057693322141474,0.13535059563793486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463420518829898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098090918868052
EDAnonymous,blackandwhiteyes,2019/03/14,"“You got fat.” Y’all. I’m stuck in my gym’s bathroom shaking and trying not to cry. I recently started going back to the gym again and I recognized one of the girls from last year. Well, she saw me and was like “You’re fatter now. You were slimmer last year.. you were here last year right?” And smiled at me, i just nodded, one of the other girls said, “maybe you got it wrong, maybe it’s not the girl you’re thinking of” she continued and insisted that it was me and she was correct. FUCK. I know i have gained weight but Jesus Christ, even after insisting she kept telling me i was slimmer last year and i just wanna fucking die. I hate this disorder and i would rather die than live like this a day longer; the worst part is, i have been binging a lot recently and have struggled to get it under control and i just... i just wanna cry. After she said that, i got quiet, grabbed my bag and shoes and went to the bathroom. I’m still here, my mood is ruined. Someone please fucking shoot me right now, i can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep gaining weight. I can’t keep hiding behind loose clothes forever. I can’t keep lying to myself. ",1.4198289665211057,3.6677301004366782,2.4561408296943235,94.44802492721979,82.05676855895197,5.214046579330422,20.895378457059678,6.42735559955562,0.1843841339155756,879,26,188,8,24,278,118,229,0.217,0.695,0.08800000000000001,-0.9895,0,0,0,1,0,1,33.0,0,5,0,3,14,13,4,2,8,0,18,7,2,1,1,33,42,13,2,4,8,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,3,10,12,3,6,2,2,0,3,6,9,1,2,16,7,36,3,18,25,3,28,2,1,1,3,16,5,3,1,22,124,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956097446928348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604884439784363,0.0,0.0,0.2273108194765155,0.06672869380226917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21476816349799235,0.0,0.11858399133201555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834004116844207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869651884384051,0.05405807829403387,0.0,0.05880359558336205,0.0,0.2482598987233789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215383135070676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678706191875203,0.0,0.0,0.056863642200574924,0.3373629081750892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109907303593646,0.0,0.09136467839535742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796531227710677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20789625204444165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022601605277973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204642185011268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135774629043349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20432553995418687,0.0,0.0,0.17672325545061962,0.19684468465212696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766861761185411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323561481425908,0.0,0.08263016572172735,0.0,0.0,0.10816785677268438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043612583479202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629850750482302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702483944339746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519937851139259,0.09303070660548247,0.09591643821679548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350113199118298,0.1131266824246034,0.0,0.26652157034012297
EDAnonymous,sodiddlydone,2019/03/14,"fucked up menstrual cycle? TW: NUMBERS

sry ill mention a few numbers in here to make things a bit clearer!!!




sooo im at a bmi of 17 rn and i lost like 3kg in about 1 or 2 weeks (ive been restricting heavily for over a week now keeping calorie intake between 300~600) but before that my weight was pretty stable for months. for a while now my menstrual cycle is kinda all over the place; its not that i dont get my period at all but it didnt get it properly for about 2 months or so. 
usually my cycles used to be fairly long, about 35 days until the next period and the period usually lasted for about 7 days and was somewhat of a  heavy flow. 
however, lately i started getting this weird spotting of brown discharge (probably old blood ok gross) or a bit of fresh blood here and there which lasts about a week. then the next week is all good again and then it starts all over again??
so i basically have my ""period"", or whatever else it might be, every 2 weeks now which isnt normal for me as i usually had my period every 4 or 5 weeks before.

idk if this is my period anymore at this point or if this is something else bc i have no period symptoms like cramps whatsoever which i normally used to experience.
what i experience right now is a lot lighter than my usual period but it still requires me to wear a pad sometimes or a panty liner at the very least.

anyone else experience something similar or did you guys' period just stop completely?? and how low was your weight when you started noticing differences in your menstrual cycle? (i always think my weight isnt low enough for my period to stop idk help)
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EDAnonymous,polyloneials,2019/03/14,"I wish I knew how much boobs weigh I’m a hair away from being underweight yet I have 28GG tits. I don’t even wanna know what would happen if I gained weight.

Anyways I wanna know how much I realistically weight bc my boobs must weight 5 lbs at least, right?",1.026855345911951,3.370631339622648,2.326698113207545,94.1144496855346,84.66037735849056,5.042767295597487,14.4937106918239,6.42735559955562,-0.771840251572327,203,3,46,2,6,65,39,53,0.040999999999999995,0.8440000000000001,0.115,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,5,8,4,2,1,11,11,3,0,6,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,8,0,5,7,3,4,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,1,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032270232606568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286836534854716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19127907288962748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23775272797793665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.318020247800704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18472452016141594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7902089216294885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487417340214462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153657890737374,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snowalmond,2019/03/14,haven’t purged in eight days!! i somehow managed to last this long!! i have no earthly inclination how it happened!! oh also i REALLY REALLY need to restrict more 🙃 lol but yay for my face getting less puffy and not feeling acid reflux-y all the time!! ,1.0061224489795926,3.6118426734693903,2.7930612244897968,87.50551020408165,91.6530612244898,5.248979591836736,23.3265306122449,6.868970318607317,1.1284612244897958,197,8,37,3,7,65,44,49,0.105,0.736,0.159,0.6997,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,1,1,9,6,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,4,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174741775133461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560268513350642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073096874398166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20741181620994376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35105851386073195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236012808569738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513252265848071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943643694840153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086461907974824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23148909541383605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,retirethecows,2019/03/14,"I feel like I’m losing control I’ve made myself throw up since I was about 15 (I’m 29F now). Initially it was for ballet, then it became this weird punishment thing in college for getting fat and not doing as well in class as I wanted to, then I thought I got better. I left my boyfriend of almost 3 years about 3 months ago and I can’t stop purging. I feel like for every positive step I take forward (leaving a relationship I couldn’t be in even though i loved him, doing well at work, being with amazing friends, dating a great new guy) I take two steps back. I’m running all the time but when I don’t run.. I overeat and force myself to throw it up. I hate what it’s doing to my body and I know it’s fucking up my metabolism but I feel like I’m in a downward spiral. I feel compelled to purge every time I’m overly stressed or sad or find myself missing my old relationship. I don’t know if therapy will help... and I just wanted to tell someone because it’s so isolating. I don’t want to tell my friends or my family. I want to stop feeling like this and stop making myself do this but it’s like I go on autopilot and can’t stop until I’m coughing up stomach acid and hating myself, and feeling deserving of it. I just wanted to write it all down. Thanks for reading. If anyone found yourself in a similar position... how did you beat it? I don’t want to be this person anymore. ",2.2652083333333337,3.8238628819444473,4.0448611111111115,87.43625000000002,76.43055555555556,6.605555555555558,25.541666666666664,7.333567415737692,1.1837958333333338,1082,39,227,13,24,365,148,288,0.13,0.713,0.157,0.5552,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,5,13,23,4,1,5,0,18,7,3,5,2,52,53,26,0,9,11,0,6,5,2,1,2,0,0,2,16,10,2,5,11,2,0,8,8,9,2,1,7,7,38,14,34,41,2,41,0,3,0,2,13,16,1,6,24,145,54,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859187573593068,0.0,0.09705705656429917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612421888901733,0.06777268136022564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452985655402479,0.0,0.059084988157187913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857228776006946,0.0,0.10766256786966838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871037947845692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401849021025457,0.0,0.1633281129115558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137289451748272,0.0,0.2940511830537787,0.27697486904318463,0.0,0.0,0.0885883054589578,0.0,0.0,0.10627399315109667,0.14976906278439792,0.08960621910000277,0.050639661564176285,0.0,0.05508509131422066,0.0,0.07752031178348465,0.10686089218926093,0.0,0.09597165088726944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19138806299944466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496723278825353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653562565361592,0.0,0.0,0.1026302884507132,0.10531002290915427,0.0,0.0,0.23676492970879395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843503092324354,0.0,0.0,0.08747920045341043,0.09171341152015698,0.06469863666077688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736514422688108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361141504891506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170718490504428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463175552522523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695189840730066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20812379005533532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017791495332606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212480476120522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241367971278909,0.1110280262985632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575208099624296,0.0,0.1694346136590121,0.08923613359001674,0.1108429495941341,0.0,0.0643931076009895,0.0,0.09522897761971937,0.07694815443985148,0.11303627403453563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468229470848946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34301562480662945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17429563337244075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056304137092609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06241695296753725
EDAnonymous,mrsnoire,2019/03/14,"Low cal snacks/ safe foods on walmart / SD area Hi, I'm from Mexico near the frontier. I'm going to US this weekend and i'm planning to visit Walmart to buy some stuff that i can't find here.  Do you guys have any recommendations?

It does not have to be walmart, but preferably stores in the San Diego area.

Thankyou xo",1.6134598214285705,4.023127890625002,2.9100892857142884,90.48312500000002,82.59375,4.9071428571428575,24.767857142857146,6.1826913282559595,0.6791544642857139,251,10,51,2,7,81,51,64,0.026000000000000002,0.9420000000000001,0.032,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,9,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,2,1,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,8,8,1,9,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468923113341633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31771504487254604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33182900121584,0.0,0.4390119242889902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063345803713292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594851136836787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41561525875757305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367148174960204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Baphomet_Barbie,2019/03/14,"Who has been inpatient? Recommendations & experiences please. Hello, first time poster here. Yes, I know about edreviews online and such, but many of the reviews are years old. I would love to hear experiences of those who have done an inpatient or residential program... where did you go? What did you like/dislike? Would you recommend? Did it help you? The more info, the better! Tell me your story! ",3.081389610389607,6.177091528571433,3.243246753246755,83.14448051948054,90.85714285714286,6.545454545454546,22.07792207792207,7.686295010490155,1.592857142857143,317,11,55,7,11,97,57,70,0.0,0.736,0.264,0.9716,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,1,10,1,0,0,0,7,14,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,8,2,4,7,1,6,0,0,0,1,12,1,0,1,4,39,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566460999795344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094902693418688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423979392473893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4634042069397635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147958072187425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461739665216302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26696716076145305,0.0,0.15876745480481674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017631662250492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157216143080152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137823854929456,0.0,0.0,0.24014671297947066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485528502555581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26000965115924324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703284726745053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811948546104502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365280963342873,0.0,0.0,0.15253506012217893
EDAnonymous,unsurebanana,2019/03/14,"If I had started losing weight in a healthy way when my ED started, I could be at my goal right now. Just a thought that pops into my head and annoys me once in a while. If I hadn't forced extreme measures that started all these eating issues and disordered thoughts and just stuck with some consistent daily exercise and a healthy diet, I could be so much happier and mentally/physically healthier (it's been around 4 years so I honestly could even be so fit right now if I had stayed consistent). I feel like I've recovered a lot since my last b/p episode a couple weeks ago and I'm going to try to keep just a low, but consistent effort and see how it works out. I can safely isolate myself until about late August, so I think this is a good chance to take things slow and get to a healthy place, I'm so tired of forcing diets/fasts and then binging it all back plus more. I can't change what I did in the past, but I can start now. I'm going to try to stay away from thinspo/myproana/eating related subreddits but they're so fascinating ugggh. ",6.624240994854205,5.656443165094341,6.843344768439112,80.32601200686108,65.4622641509434,10.350600343053172,33.42367066895369,9.573946990214177,2.8075886792452827,829,30,172,14,11,268,134,212,0.068,0.7659999999999999,0.166,0.9659,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,4,18,7,1,0,10,0,15,6,1,1,2,37,33,27,0,6,9,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,14,3,2,4,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,8,3,18,4,20,19,6,38,0,2,1,0,0,13,0,5,21,111,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191759168367818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196830840501275,0.0,0.0,0.12631395177346752,0.10337863651117632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222323644637802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220262227130509,0.14875900826021876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15408372531547912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756910961013333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879856389691136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797859670856155,0.09604635522406553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024110078753751,0.0,0.15281450670792288,0.11276470232647608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379776627446859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403239266368843,0.0,0.11949942568517205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095892731619656,0.1516579533522116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06568222921297931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040771799643024,0.0,0.1142989273842794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988313305956418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317777868340356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283413889826039,0.0,0.0,0.14046468465611245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296277705265505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713394253034106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112129274014589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806387769410132,0.2865974430633142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108466659355486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931818699640677,0.08614586930707717,0.0,0.21346600291057954,0.0,0.15452285199511676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255641744275905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671487243053923,0.10784234488520143,0.16371577955235822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787635911683684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657710870929844
EDAnonymous,orthoreXXX,2019/03/14,"Ugh. All I wanted was a fucking peanut butter bar I’ve been really fucking good at restricting lately and have managed to lose most of the weight I put on in January/February. All I wanted today was one god damn fucking peanut butter bar and when I asked my stupid boyfriend if we could stop at Starbucks for it, the moron says “aw but you’ve been eating so healthy lately! don’t ruin it”

I feel like such a gluttonous fucking cow when I know I’m just hungry. Fuck this. 

I want to get so skinny he begs me to eat.",1.4650129870129869,3.723002895238096,2.967012987012989,90.79207792207794,81.95238095238095,5.341991341991342,20.97402597402597,6.574015621080383,0.3867142857142851,404,12,82,4,11,132,76,105,0.20800000000000002,0.675,0.11699999999999999,-0.8533,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,6,13,8,0,4,1,7,12,1,0,2,17,20,8,0,5,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,7,2,2,2,0,1,1,11,0,1,4,5,10,2,9,15,3,11,0,2,0,5,4,4,6,2,7,47,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402761763022749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980244336053235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30707652296215804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586961626876101,0.10719550664018344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6935924611296378,0.07839475395311679,0.0,0.0,0.12585453522745774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246336865593179,0.0,0.33852510296049704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330668427049078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786718762630734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167753250948172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084135166777665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612565403794733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193255116888332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544823401805882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222953224312626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655095302593157,0.0,0.0,0.1827200615074498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eldariya,2019/03/14,"hello darkness my old friend I am alive, which is a good thing.  
 However i'm back in restricting mode and I've fasted for 31 hours lol yeet! I'm back on my shit, smoking menthol cigs and drinking monster ultra silver and watching intervention.  
 However I've picked up and smelt the contents of a nutella jar maybe 15 times in last 3 hours?   
  Does anyone else have the ability of killing cravings simply by imagining how the food tastes, like if I'm craving a kebab I can just taste the kebab in my head. Damn i'm anorexic lol",4.0761407766990265,5.7059884951456326,4.89726941747573,82.88337985436894,71.81553398058253,7.480097087378643,30.350728155339805,8.07648339933343,2.1951757281553395,417,18,78,6,8,135,74,103,0.135,0.695,0.171,0.4753,2,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,7,2,4,6,2,2,0,10,8,6,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,3,9,8,0,13,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,1,9,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598151972454216,0.2285700593283765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34306685398378084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19521730552548827,0.0,0.0,0.2185317869395919,0.0,0.0,0.18635327758707748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697471408306669,0.0,0.17234972522823158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710747681112685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289426726610823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393743388533148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468030642639003,0.0,0.0,0.18183857150205374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089847791535841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22411211532936148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340831283341304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289866479945865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482032963990562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007873861586852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PuppoProtecc,2019/03/14,"DAE football coach themselves??? like if im about to purge and im like

""ehhh maybe i shouldnt.. uwu""

Does anyone else have a lil voice in their head going 
""DO IT. NO BALLS, PUSSY. YOU WONT. LITTLE BITCH. YOU LITLLE. BITCH.""

or is that just me",-2.281836734693876,-2.5348629591836733,-1.220918367346938,110.04984693877552,137.77551020408166,1.4,7.581632653061225,3.1291,-2.6967387755102044,181,2,44,0,14,54,43,49,0.055999999999999994,0.763,0.18100000000000002,0.7613,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,3,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,2,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20172821919557185,0.29560573016064023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25247118677494473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24100749175470665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639630770395448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960876245811332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6232661545694432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818962843406125,0.2891561045829044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898403477885297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Trappedinacorner,2019/03/14,"I hate being full I ate a little more than usual: an apple with a decent sized bowl of cereal and almond milk. I hate the feeling of my stomach expanding as I eat, it's gross. And eating a lot makes me sleepy after a few minutes too. I always feel physically disgusting after eating a decent sized meal. And my twin brother (who doesn't have an ED) has stated the same thing too! He hates feeling full of food and prefers eating frequent small meals.

I don't know if this is an ED thing or not",3.047699999999999,4.587236970000003,4.5070000000000014,85.01350000000002,74.3,6.6000000000000005,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.8007999999999997,387,10,76,4,8,129,70,100,0.172,0.797,0.03,-0.9441,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,10,0,6,10,1,1,0,16,15,7,0,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,9,0,5,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,3,9,0,8,13,6,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,4,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978278192436594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.687590924414714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548253725911949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031365646926083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4975718916365078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923239968616405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683720934320447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282077088833964,0.0,0.0,0.11213594872841948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232128089581742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850194282808105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,careleus,2019/03/14,"Tim hortons worker messed up my order  I ordered a medium coffee with one soy milk. I said it very clearly.

She kind of glared at me, then went to go make it.

I didn't really pay any mind to her making it because it was with a friend.

I literally drank half of it (I basically chug coffee) (took it away from the coffee shop) before I realized

This girl put a shiit ton of cream and sugar in it. The label (you know how they write it in marker? said cream and sugar too)

I was so upset I started crying. I'm lactose intolerant already, but  what if I had been diabetic? I went back later after my friend left and  replaced it with another lady, but I still drank half of it (wasted  calories) and have been basically crapping my pants all night.

I'm still so upset.",1.5447794117647078,3.8174669869281073,3.8727083333333367,84.32906250000002,81.74509803921569,5.916503267973857,20.67361111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.7188826797385621,591,17,115,8,16,204,100,153,0.073,0.862,0.065,-0.3229,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,1,7,7,1,2,5,0,7,7,1,3,2,19,21,11,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,12,7,5,0,2,1,2,5,1,4,0,3,13,6,19,3,16,8,2,21,0,0,2,0,10,6,1,1,8,79,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20345097042495586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537428082558286,0.193322405474689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321665301831982,0.14176503195923934,0.0,0.11238697646416827,0.0,0.1568807339130352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20251590558515767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848793349916747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477867651573253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198740711323128,0.10132198741476592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003127263839912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246129664486492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18615573513491426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17301373025661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493025493870727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853373902184066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810871260070024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35074599320661753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304942447469181,0.0,0.2944676875183431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048359044011977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212014046485572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418157462229203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaspberrySodaPop,2019/03/19,"Tips for that full feeling? I’m in recovery trying to get back to eating normal meals with a designated calorie goal everyday. But I can’t get past how full I feel. I feel gross, like I’m less able. Then I start to feel sick like I wanna puke.

If I eat small meals often I tend not to make my goal. And even the small meals sometimes make me feel gross :/

Any ideas of what I can tell myself? 
It’s hard enough to get the food down, but this feeling after word is making me really not want to eat.",1.1607692307692297,3.0644843076923074,2.648692307692308,94.59630769230768,80.92307692307693,5.6984615384615385,17.130769230769232,6.742157984588678,-0.2858315384615384,384,7,88,4,10,125,70,104,0.133,0.802,0.064,-0.715,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,0,3,8,0,4,0,23,20,6,0,4,5,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,7,0,7,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,12,2,13,20,4,12,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,8,50,16,2,0.16120875682898916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962748272753596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395958317879224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948704121389557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657173962138178,0.0,0.10647686348955143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890719474034561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949342686578592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25267476539124284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441138149194102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198506406260664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575169112356125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228242909695871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795035383242625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389199954432428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327445761078873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943958260110885,0.0,0.11410438782047633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090355903211935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945016386616543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508510155260408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Abowloforangess,2019/03/19,Someone took my picture I was standing in line for a coffee at Nordstrom and this girl sitting across from where I was standing at a table didn't even hide the fact she was taking my picture with her iPhone. I immediately turned around and a few seconds went by and I eventually got out of line and just went to my car and cried and never got my coffee that I allowed myself the calories for all day.,10.743333333333332,6.609077000000003,10.0025,70.84583333333336,60.25,11.666666666666668,41.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,3.4786666666666664,320,12,62,2,3,103,55,80,0.036000000000000004,0.9440000000000001,0.021,-0.2691,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,1,3,14,11,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,9,0,12,0,13,2,2,16,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,2,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24555453900454266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029953842604218,0.17789286287715342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218857405812536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412261213280556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127434766305281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23371686875316625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073960485126872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064664643749374,0.0,0.3000328258685553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5114096745824543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DiabolicalFruits,2019/03/19,"Got my wisdom teeth removed today Trying to take care of everything and do everything properly so I don't get any dry sockets or have any complications, but here's to the excuse of only eating yogurt and soups for the next week!!! 

Anybody else get their wisdom teeth removed?",5.44735294117647,7.4732705490196105,6.041323529411766,74.45845588235295,69.0,8.237254901960785,28.43627450980393,8.841846274778883,2.5648392156862743,222,8,35,4,4,72,40,51,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.8814,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,5,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36513686569029946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737224977785965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747112717778057,0.2242717770081865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4825660629794432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28052841489054914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21471954506333246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855203067882636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20418311513240794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201855615667265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25447764817687873,0.0,0.0,0.18227313438687207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153499997119427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsmarta,2019/03/19,"Do you ever feel embarrassed at your ED? For example, when i left the gym, i walked to a supermarket and bought some monsters, diet coke and chew gum. as i was buying those stuff, the lady asked me if i had some kind of eating disorder. i was embarrassed and scared. i walked away terrified.
do you ever have this moments?",2.804569892473122,5.139823758064517,4.2367741935483885,83.09182795698926,77.54838709677419,8.004301075268819,23.23655913978495,8.841846274778883,1.867249462365592,251,8,48,6,6,83,47,62,0.23,0.77,0.0,-0.932,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,3,4,0,3,3,0,6,4,0,0,2,9,9,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,1,1,2,2,0,3,0,0,4,1,10,1,6,5,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,4,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673934049704866,0.0,0.2687285365864405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278077633900242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926734931967832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174493446430916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462209879596805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978495084482856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107654193913841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863594665439725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274285293925522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,XSkeletonGirlX,2019/03/19,"Please *do not* use diet sodas when your drinking alcohol. I just wanted to say, please do not mix your alcohol with diet sodas as opposed to regular sodas. It will make you drunker quicker, but it will also make you much sicker much faster.  
  
I wanted to make this post because Ive seen a lot of people using diet sodas for chase lately, and even getting really mad at people who grab regular soda instead of diet.  
  
If someone has a restrictive type ED, they’re probably already going to get drunk/sick faster, and the diet soda would only make it worse.  
  
Your body will absorb the sugar from the soda at the same time as the alcohol, slowing down the rate of absorption. ",8.809238845144357,7.33933261417323,9.29649606299213,66.1114632545932,61.440944881889756,11.301312335958006,35.33989501312336,10.125756701596842,3.7107595800524944,530,18,84,9,6,179,82,127,0.069,0.905,0.026000000000000002,-0.8220000000000001,0,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,0,0,5,1,1,0,8,0,8,19,1,6,0,21,20,8,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,5,3,17,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,4,8,0,15,15,4,11,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,6,58,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4765710980655621,0.0,0.0,0.16403421121727227,0.1188719016850342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061303073112628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651118477846292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456161826377307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981790739358285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532247200663332,0.0,0.08447876910465536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767880877453148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637324693082544,0.0,0.0,0.3968885996157553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185433657461059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130517427147415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610440538169847,0.0,0.0,0.3263366523424855,0.0,0.0,0.1423614780785763,0.0,0.16026519100117806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522623297827693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820901600156833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259470076869185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667649509867373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25676429381860444,0.0,0.0,0.1753501541946708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514826535662124,0.10559363074340317,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,demichka,2019/03/19,"Ate 500 cal/day for a month And since the girl who broke my heart to pieces still didn't write me I'll continue to do so.

Can't control this source of pain but it feels nice to hurt myself in a controlled way. 

Good thing that I'm overweight - everybody who knows just congratulates me. 

Ironically, this girl is ex-anorexic so she can't know ever.  Some part of me really wants her to know though because I guess that's one of only ways I can hurt her back. 

Fuck, I'm a mess. ",1.2181818181818151,3.3045674343434333,2.4548383838383856,95.09559090909092,81.72727272727272,5.980202020202023,18.990909090909085,7.1686216300943375,0.09603757575757577,372,9,86,5,10,119,74,99,0.22699999999999998,0.703,0.07,-0.9513,0,0,0,0,0,2,11.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,1,0,4,0,6,5,1,2,1,14,16,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,1,2,2,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,2,1,10,2,9,14,3,8,0,3,0,1,8,1,1,2,5,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291248290208036,0.0,0.11329664043647945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169086314350261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986232415713692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811820545708592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397483239943318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718217080663047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588794877797058,0.0,0.0,0.20474232770102915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024131992340606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39792730826107375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064262729792405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483492034299917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594144462940626,0.14135254655674678,0.19776484419032175,0.0,0.0,0.20126490975893807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190646884979891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374274726512782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484255594488922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347506508841218,0.0,0.18260345940684355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962321428815494,0.2950491106540827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jiggjuggjogg,2019/03/19,"Eating makes me feel like shit?? Well like duh, but not just mentally, also physically? When I fast/restrict yeah I think about food and I'm kind of hungry but I feel sharp and energetic. When I eat, it makes me feel physically sick. This has been forever so it's not just because my body's not used to digesting. I've been to the doctor about it before but got a very helpful 'IBS' diagnosis (?) because they didn't really know what was going on. But it's like my whole body just... doesn't want to? I don't know, like I have a big deadline tomorrow so decided instead of fasting I needed to eat  ~~ for sustenance and energy ~~ but instead it made me feel exhausted, sluggish, and my brain kind of shut down? And this is on healthy food (eggs/veggies/beans/salad and a nut bar). 

Makes it very very difficult to NOT stop eating when eating makes me feel so terrible. Anyone else in this situation? Or have any ideas as to what to do? ",1.4837889317889328,3.9468651729729736,3.3451737451737458,86.77009009009011,83.75675675675676,6.983268983268983,22.32303732303733,8.11559375814309,1.4081685971685975,727,25,148,16,21,243,104,185,0.121,0.722,0.157,0.6547,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,0,15,11,1,0,4,2,11,16,4,6,0,38,30,20,0,2,13,0,6,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,6,9,1,10,1,0,1,7,4,1,0,6,6,15,7,18,24,1,13,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,10,89,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860048729299535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313528729295922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519899216477463,0.11019406741831006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311186593864281,0.0,0.09151412450709688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238919766347688,0.0,0.12005742789119846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100783688289766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5502344373280788,0.08984127533760533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718936323444268,0.07683121941240463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600912360081856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061121137115950526,0.0,0.08601473634239784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208613162940526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121406873642491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239861969041323,0.11820945428163825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101670907713454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017630699551545,0.28715241443468625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838154621554333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974434453496405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889702234759447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039490561953784,0.0,0.12088673791591975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991366424613845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891143522066716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288561951894192,0.0,0.26621130193567705,0.06343369423717685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669719203422827,0.0,0.0,0.12007179266719588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WearyBumblebee,2019/03/19,"I wish I could just *casually* have disordered eating like everyone else. Anyone else have a friends that naturally eat ""weird"" I'm a college student at a pretty academic school and it's really common to hear my friends talk about being too busy to eat and skipping meals for lab meetings/classes/study sessions/etc. or replacing their meals with iced coffee or not eating all day so they can go ham when they drink or puffing on a juul at the library instead of ""wasting"" time to go eat and I wish I could do that. Now that I'm """"recovered"""" or trying to recover I feel obsessive even about eating normal. So I feel guilty when I skip my meals and I feel guilty when I eat meals (recently I've been not eating all day and then shoving food into my mouth hole at night to prove to myself like Hey I ate today because it's like 11:40 pm so it's not tomorrow). If we have an event my friends will stay up all night so they can sleep in all day and not eat and look good in their dress and it's not *that strange* in my culture to throw up if you've eaten too much (which i can't do because I have no gag reflex and my mom actually teased me about it because she tried to teach me this #hottip when I was like 12). 

I don't know if it's just my group of friends (all super thin, smart, pretty:() but the thin girls all have disordered eating...they just don't Know it. Like they have all the habits and the intense dieting but it's like...normal. Maybe it's because I'm Asian and a lot of them are too. I feel like diet culture is super strong for Asian people. They eat teeny tiny meals and they genuinely don't know it. They Really think they're eating a ton and just have fast metabolisms but if you actually watch them eat they don't eat anything. You ever meet someone who takes one bite of a cookie or eats half a stick of gum at a time or takes a few distracted bites of their vegan zoodle dish and is like Im So Stuffed wow i ate so much? Yeah you might have just met one of my friends lol. I'm sure a few of them struggle with eating too and I just don't know it but I'm pretty tight with my girls and I promise you the *vast majority* just genuinely, naturally eat super weirdly and I'm like really jealous ig.

I know I'd lose weight really quickly if I go back to old habits so I'm jealous seeing them do what I used to do and somehow be super ok and functional. this is messy and i'm not sure if it's relatable tbh. i feel like im going mildly crazy lol",1.7473298494463094,3.609547403508774,3.3880560739911227,90.2125233296006,78.8635477582846,6.549193314254905,22.026004728132385,7.53845456269673,0.7636544232922741,1930,57,421,28,47,640,219,513,0.076,0.741,0.183,0.9953,0,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,1,4,15,6,32,36,3,3,17,4,32,32,2,1,11,86,67,48,0,11,29,1,9,9,5,2,0,1,0,2,21,25,30,1,12,2,0,5,13,9,0,3,6,13,55,27,37,55,14,43,0,1,3,0,39,14,0,15,32,251,76,5,0.0,0.0,0.09472055918882498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03393473751895481,0.04972682008546928,0.03993774163662678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03731815045125971,0.0,0.1183387479546552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774977850615992,0.0,0.0,0.09389747114110038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124386696262868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047542932280947636,0.0,0.7945664447716754,0.08108459991776068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412606419151551,0.03205496105573495,0.0439000173913569,0.0,0.04637445320487038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269631255783435,0.0693426118878887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058685147040126937,0.0,0.18747870572784894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103275288767186,0.040706380631708186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05469914712091472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048458834569767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335972623531187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371030799462221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04075469856971363,0.05429494950452948,0.0,0.041260213062328494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04875696699166734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05148483518802202,0.0,0.056840149951791014,0.0,0.0,0.07135328127620669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108808182974544,0.047551104295392964,0.0,0.0,0.050926222104147684,0.0,0.06577314568034504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03364601244988308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812362614351735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243634948766438,0.0,0.04791954404724561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911702521543751,0.038673760079546496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048567098883375,0.0,0.041121048148501815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0517287074976406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073623569796507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148176482266374,0.0,0.07298012284860966,0.03900822312122605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031097377756655813,0.0,0.0,0.05659885683280338,0.0,0.04600270833383032,0.0,0.0,0.06590015192583172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04191610853978054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909896182389349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161892386101303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,polamartinez,2019/03/19,How do you respond to people complimenting your weight loss? How do you usually answer to people bringing up you’ve lost weight? For me it’s usually very awkward and I’m afraid I might be hinting them about my ED with my clear discomfort towards the question. I’m just wondering what a normal person would say.,4.5872881355932185,6.805739254237295,5.212000000000003,78.71223728813561,71.71186440677965,8.109830508474579,30.444067796610174,8.841846274778883,2.7727057627118645,252,11,43,5,5,81,47,59,0.154,0.7509999999999999,0.094,-0.4124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,1,2,4,6,0,3,2,0,5,2,0,2,1,12,10,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,8,1,7,6,0,5,0,2,0,0,8,2,0,3,2,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23824376661774416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315269235944155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138369648232042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026117389826343,0.19056596999379352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24448800939789525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355978310804726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4807392681624115,0.18007767847873074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315351896821543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23668093754875585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503730823013642,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edimalo,2019/03/19,"Not sure if this is the right place... Sorry mods if this is the wrong sub 

I have a BMI of 36 due to this disorder. I feel so ugly. Every time people talk about how easy it is for women to pick up men I die a little inside. Even in the sleaziest corners of the internet it’s hard to find a guy who wants more than a one off 5 min bang with me. I feel worthless and alone and disgusting. I’ve been eating better for a few weeks but God all I see in the mirror is this ugly lump of flesh that no one will ever have any desire for. I hate that I care but I do anyway. I live alone and some days I ache from how lonely I feel. Right now I just want to run to my best friend and worst enemy, carbs. But I can’t because I’m trying to recover. Damn it’s hard to feel feelings and not numb them with food. 

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EDAnonymous,CuteProtection6,2019/03/19,"confession: this one tiny celebrity triggers the F out of me because i know my ex found her so perfect i don't want to say who it is, but she's 47kg / 104lbs and 5'3"" tall, absolutely tiny, the definition of petite, cute from all angles, could fit in your back pocket, basically looks like a child but is legal. 

and it fucking *twists* me. because i hate her, i hate how small she is and how big i am, i hate how i know LOTS of men (and women) find her attractive, gorgeous, perfection et fucking cetera.

looking at her makes me want to never eat again until i weigh LESS than her, and i'm 5'9. 

it makes me feel equally twisted inside because i've always had this ingrained perception inside myself that tall =/= beautiful. like, i can't be perfect and tiny and cute even if i'm underweight because i'm SO TALL. and that's not even my height complex talking. 

idk today is just a self-loathing/venting day, sorry y'all ",2.768422131147542,4.6819093224043735,4.023630464480873,86.58659323770495,75.99453551912569,6.542213114754097,26.73804644808743,7.413659706084162,1.4182243169398905,718,28,143,9,16,235,116,183,0.10099999999999999,0.665,0.233,0.9856,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,3,10,14,5,0,4,0,10,4,0,6,5,37,28,17,0,4,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,8,9,2,0,8,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,2,4,25,9,11,24,5,16,1,0,2,2,17,10,2,2,8,87,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315439898492803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121561863401854,0.0,0.38548209222744667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622242859957114,0.0,0.0,0.10195531685081738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176608509373944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088346153327364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993532480419682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449188533453572,0.0,0.0,0.17333811221330644,0.0,0.29230430514233713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682450224673254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737648476989662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447010030267233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26551246729045913,0.0,0.0,0.13440291985437505,0.0,0.0,0.2110533199897544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192916689855365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712623822484284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571993906605838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492290672161694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17696941135484862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270671840182652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985134254968527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864917875662333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Laurenpower,2019/03/19,"I just booked a doctors appointment And they said they’d just had a cancellation and I can come Thursday! Fuck me.

Usually when you book a non-emergency appointment you wait AT LEAST three weeks. So I booked by appointment happily knowing I’d have time to prepare for it. Nope. 

I’m really nervous now. Can anyone give me advice on what they’ll say/what will happen? I’m 17 and go through phases of restriction and phases of binge eating and purging. I’m clearly not underweight or anything, but will they weigh me? I really hope not. Will they tell my parents/school? (UK). I’m hoping they’ll refer me somewhere, since I went to CAMHS (children and adolescent mental health services) last month and didn’t mention my potential ED and they just dismissed me saying I was too old, despite having been on the waiting list a year and a half.

Basically I’m just looking for support since I’m really nervous for Thursday now ugh. ",3.3207682539682537,5.985703708571433,4.24966666666667,81.91094444444447,77.62857142857143,7.317460317460316,28.579365079365076,8.344100000000001,2.44444126984127,739,33,129,15,18,238,109,175,0.045,0.833,0.122,0.9199,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,7,0,9,7,1,2,6,0,14,5,0,0,1,26,34,13,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,2,10,2,3,2,3,0,3,4,4,0,2,6,3,22,3,12,22,1,18,0,0,1,1,15,3,1,3,12,79,24,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820473035827746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035821878322348,0.0,0.1416494069807978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482758876582143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618369631587255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613330945948122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591326284620781,0.0,0.16512404360890934,0.09782619396230337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221515475150474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296754026789488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419304728435659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459886995227196,0.1403099970478714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14454695352094762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734678813632409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373935746405237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062286111364104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33081518716585034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373629971256284,0.27377146352917664,0.0,0.17420608199956428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284777607609857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533257817093835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045035765834738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037115492285538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957832664903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13807335933431195,0.0,0.0,0.1595674549503976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084692431038863
EDAnonymous,speakofthewolf,2019/03/19,"Depression lessens dramatically with restriction? Anyone else's depression lift when they are restricting? And then as soon as you eat over your limit or eat ""non-safe"" food the depression comes back? Why??? I thought at first it was guilt, but no it's like anhedonia, numb depression.",4.569251700680268,7.935570448979592,4.4521428571428565,77.68869047619049,79.20408163265307,9.797278911564627,28.574829931972786,9.725611199111238,3.693936054421768,228,10,39,8,6,70,42,49,0.384,0.564,0.052000000000000005,-0.9559,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,2,3,7,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,9,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,3,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,1,2,0,4,1,5,2,0,8,0,4,0,0,3,2,0,1,6,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14425016819002756,0.2113793323693024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586324183626916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17770968986959115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7107455782366919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4221940100186629,0.17233766975838274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17547917516898878,0.24945949047245036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007880468841461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377962325060114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861541930957337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunaflare,2019/03/19,"Mum just called me too fat after she handed me a huge slice of cake My mum handed me a huge ass slice of cake that my binging ass wanted so I took it and ate it. After I had one big meal for dinner (and I mean massive). That's all I ate but she then told me you might get too big to fit in your gown. 

The gown I just fitted for this week and felt perfect and happy in. I felt like a princess. Now I just feel like a whale.",-0.7651578947368414,0.9524525368421096,1.2813157894736875,102.7967105263158,86.78947368421049,3.8,13.710526315789473,3.1291,-1.631863157894737,321,4,84,0,10,106,58,95,0.044000000000000004,0.728,0.228,0.9620000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,5,0,2,9,5,0,2,16,12,7,0,1,4,2,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,5,17,4,9,4,1,14,0,0,0,2,8,8,2,1,7,53,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752023207254044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13627358076744991,0.19253973132395424,0.5175483892143707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080911911733446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869009895444807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633403159531181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293578042705092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859100937930258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826285952150124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25753067319693923,0.29943822246052965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896541196038844,0.0,0.21618661177825987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squegley,2019/03/19,"Cold hands and blue nails Noticed lately my hands are incredibly cold and my nails sometimes turn a pastel-like shade of blue/purple. I’m guessing it’s because I’m restricting for so long, but I’m getting comments on it now. Anyone have tips on reducing this or minimizing the appearance?",5.8172222222222185,7.5957860925925935,6.282407407407407,74.06583333333336,67.7037037037037,9.103703703703703,33.87037037037037,9.516144504307137,3.454237037037037,235,11,39,5,4,76,42,54,0.038,0.9620000000000001,0.0,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,7,9,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,9,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494020172086423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174314921203576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863528709708184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929280660108274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023555254099525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156544589160842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060875394906889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527699798367201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3879701893230623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BitterCaptain,2019/03/19,How much did your life improve when you became skinny? I'm trying to encourage myself to get through the fat hump and keep on my restricting stride. Tell me about how beautiful life has become for you guys because I think my fat ass has forgotten,6.345673758865246,7.206185553191488,6.0859574468085125,79.33333333333334,65.80851063829788,9.670921985815603,30.56028368794326,9.725611199111238,2.8182964539007087,199,7,36,4,3,62,39,47,0.14,0.6829999999999999,0.177,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,3,7,4,2,0,6,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,1,6,6,1,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,0,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181811383517993,0.3952880489158789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869953663429437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543912708314317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181305337363793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5056106852200091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631080758086809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128327349916153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293369296522521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430002076791261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,earlgreybaby,2019/03/19,Sleeping with tons of pillows??? This isnt meant to be triggering but does anyone else sleep with tons of pillows due to bone/joint aches from not eating? I also have to sleep with pillows between my knees or else I get bruises from my knees laying on top of eachother.,4.453461538461539,6.121099730769237,4.23,87.89000000000001,70.92307692307692,5.9692307692307685,28.384615384615394,5.985473137389443,1.1507153846153848,214,8,40,1,4,65,37,52,0.067,0.89,0.043,-0.3094,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,5,1,0,8,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,13,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994984555209877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17443293946641614,0.25560814763871464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183100183769178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552667463640441,0.41679488757539535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13033607115636126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7489406819355409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stuckoutofphase,2019/03/19,"Baby Steps I broke up with my boyfriend tonight. We were together for almost 6 years. I promised him I would make an effort to recover during this time. I could have easily gone to bed on an empty stomach. The sadness completely suppressed my appetite. But instead I ate a 1000 calorie dinner. It’s not exactly maintenance or anything, but it’s a start. ",3.4088311688311705,6.184150878787882,4.356839826839828,80.61954545454547,78.0909090909091,7.40779220779221,32.15584415584416,8.418075326091056,3.0796389610389614,282,15,47,6,7,91,55,66,0.08800000000000001,0.856,0.055999999999999994,-0.2357,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,4,3,1,1,1,12,8,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,9,1,6,3,0,8,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222995256159805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470460889007517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421736294279512,0.0,0.0,0.3367153737535513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815066161804126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985011444789872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245912902121436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29958336631042304,0.0,0.0,0.2715789099901628
EDAnonymous,bellexy,2019/03/19,"kind of pica, kind of look at me chic sometimes I'm like

look at this

and I'll just eat a whole slice of lime, rind and all. 

i almost ate a Very Tiny Grease Insert today. it was small. I could have if no one was watching but we really needed to match that size. 

I ate a whole raw chicken thigh the other day. i put mustard on the last of it. it was stringy but flavorless. it was okay.

i'm so desperate to get sick.

not because I want the attention

just because I want the pain and excuse


i'm waxing poetic and i'm sorry for it

i just had to get it off my chest somewhere

felt existential might delete later",-0.7652631578947364,1.4008332325581383,1.6020807833537347,95.66926560587515,96.51937984496124,4.5762545899632805,16.091799265605875,6.339386263674448,-0.3202651162790695,473,12,106,6,19,159,83,129,0.141,0.804,0.055,-0.898,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,7,1,8,7,2,0,1,21,22,8,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,5,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,5,10,4,12,12,3,10,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,3,5,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18423829761065014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22431584096544416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690015848159066,0.0,0.0,0.11865761394070302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826656879344456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665818906841935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225320380455704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831922348681567,0.0,0.14997550317248715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988767870691593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30900866000243576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19518313826666006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364254316685771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467563449194732,0.0,0.195777152645686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495965394369965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178679951445213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196971819204968,0.2059605005453793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174399955803914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181010429190986,0.21704283028735746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108340532828601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TurkeysAreFriends,2019/03/19,"my boyfriend cheated with skinny girls when we started dating i was overweight bmi, now i’m almost underweight. one of the girls was a coworker that liked him but he said he blocked her. i found their messages about meeting up. she’s like bones and i’ve been jealous every time i see her. guess it’s time to stop eating today :) we broke up btw and my entire body is screaming at me to starve bc ~he would have loved me if i was skinny like her~ and i’m in recovery mainanence mode. was finally liking myself. i hate my life lol",0.08784067085954206,2.3615231509433983,1.401006289308178,95.5068343815514,100.50943396226415,3.864989517819706,19.09643605870021,5.82211442006289,-0.038490985324947324,418,14,84,4,18,132,80,106,0.218,0.595,0.18600000000000005,-0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,2,0,1,0,3,10,3,0,2,1,8,8,4,0,0,14,17,6,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,2,2,6,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,7,3,19,5,9,9,0,13,0,1,1,1,17,4,0,3,13,48,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22573172129440466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503976282043496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23066722384585825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899312495576637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469433229033857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471681323545405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483323132834792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225616478872175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922515272689938,0.4405273105714502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20345589692105032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527545898020307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443188578807004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17963545139726042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955778556300074,0.0,0.0,0.18846635098103645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26289559574287913,0.0,0.21367762689862105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013626548545878,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unfortunatelyim,2019/03/19,"people who work in food service, how does your disorder affect your job/how does your job affect you? curious. I run a cafe and am a barista/lead the kitchen
 so i write the menu, make everything, but 90% of the time its stuff I've never tried. if I'm going through a phase of trying to get better I will taste test but that's very rare, mostly everything we serve is a fear food. I also am not proud to admit it but I'm pretty judgemental about what people order. it's something i try to correct but I cant help but think ""skim milk and 2 sugars? what r u trying to achieve here lol"". obviously it is never something that dictates how I treat people, but it's there. I dont know who gave me the right to judge when I'll eat 3k cals of toast in 1 sitting but hey! I'm a sad cunt ",0.6183167965981582,2.5987507891566324,2.5772714386959628,93.97683557760456,83.27710843373494,5.3516654854712975,19.40326009922041,6.522977012572876,0.008441956059531908,605,16,137,6,17,202,106,166,0.14400000000000002,0.774,0.08199999999999999,-0.8752,2,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,1,4,0,4,8,6,1,1,9,1,7,7,0,5,4,26,17,15,0,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,12,3,7,0,3,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,1,2,14,3,12,15,1,11,0,1,0,0,12,3,1,2,4,75,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181872318644248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070782721520255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937960256767964,0.0,0.2586632231598931,0.0,0.1732082257233228,0.0,0.0,0.15122558247891155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656473958507489,0.0,0.0,0.16630430653732986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574153669297315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721392840775397,0.0,0.08399219437279447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906020511224738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933166037828729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122125936474338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865065730886607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279687893135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30737595010048896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035508091126787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262114491022829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275511974514223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918365082112036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946975618366242,0.0,0.0,0.08617726206286762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013575524517464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194183808021768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759253629179924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babylentil,2019/03/19,"How long can you be on ec stack? I’m pretty sure I’ve been taking ec stack since last September with maybe a small 2 week break around Christmas. 

I normally take 200mg of caffeine and around 48mg of ephedrine a day. How bad is this?? I can’t find the long term consequences of it anywhere online. ",2.8150819672131107,4.425894114754102,3.289311475409839,93.20937704918032,75.0655737704918,6.847213114754098,23.67540983606557,7.554174236665415,0.8172990163934428,235,7,52,3,5,73,49,61,0.061,0.8340000000000001,0.105,0.3695,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,2,1,9,8,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43968436795812016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061969938281165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926545543708065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257122692133811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013011725409214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43709456197106056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480993511099879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24196333053831165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512418757613699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428361318297208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327520341326633,0.0,0.3713586434890765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198092293603128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shadow_walk,2019/03/19,"Doctor pointed out my weight today / BMI rant Numbers TW!

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So today I went for a consultation for a sleep study - we think I have sleep apnea - and the doctor pointed out my weight. We were talking about how a number of things in my life could be affecting my quality of sleep, and of course he pointed out that being overweight can cause/affect sleep apnea. I'm currently at a 28 BMI, and it was a little higher than that today on the scale because I didn't restrict as hardcore yesterday and I was wearing clothes/shoes.

He asked me how my weight's been, and I was honest in that it's been steadily rising over the past several months, but how I'm keeping an eye on it and trying to lose now... but I just couldn't muster up the strength to talk about my ED with him. It just sucks because I feel like I'm between a rock and a hard place: Try to lose weight and be absolutely obsessed, or have a healthy mindset but be fat. I got to this weight from trying not to care about what I eat - I guess I need to moderate myself. But it's so hard without engaging in restrictive/BP behaviour.

It also makes me feel kinda crummy because in the past month, since my ED has flared up again, I've lost 8 pounds and I was feeling pretty proud of that until today. Like I can't be happy about any weight I've lost until I'm back in the ""normal"" BMI range, because until then I'm still a fat pig, right? I guess it also sucks because I feel like I can't be proud of my previous recovery because, in the end, all I did was get overweight which is going to be bad in a doctor's eyes.

I also need to get a new PCP soon because my old one, who was awesome, has relocated, and I'm terrified that my new PCP is gonna do the same thing. I'll be honest with her about the ED stuff that I couldn't mention today to the sleep doctor, but it's not guaranteed that she'll understand...

I just feel at a disadvantage because my weight is naturally around 130/140, which puts me at a 23/24 BMI. By the time I got to my lowest weight in the past, a 19 BMI, I was truly starving myself and having health complications. But a doctor could look at my BMI at that point and think I was just fine because they don't have the context for my body. And even writing this, I'm thinking to myself that I'm just making excuses for being fat.

Just needed somewhere to vent. I fucking hate the BMI system. Thanks for listening.",6.09004571248424,5.262660649590167,6.649262295081968,80.82070617906686,66.47950819672131,9.310970996216898,31.26923076923077,8.384062270229773,2.1635842370744007,1879,61,387,22,26,617,216,488,0.136,0.753,0.11199999999999999,-0.9056,2,0,0,0,0,0,60.0,2,0,1,7,26,23,4,1,30,0,41,31,12,6,1,68,84,33,0,8,16,0,15,3,0,2,12,2,0,0,26,21,14,2,9,1,0,4,9,10,0,1,18,20,50,13,60,51,2,60,0,4,3,1,17,29,3,4,29,252,76,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398300128644358,0.0,0.060510437873290863,0.0678604832167365,0.037978023638411185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04971586473107032,0.05220961044373747,0.0,0.0,0.042943063755939835,0.046630094677773085,0.3063955141859783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620336698595953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056939961246299686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917891922835196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28580997273713343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0571456467622994,0.0,0.0,0.049464059226675114,0.0,0.0,0.03688656108797397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119015838342394,0.07979452805932075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051629853560107686,0.05835573327726212,0.0,0.03173926125288646,0.0,0.08933224469271417,0.0,0.12304401481890187,0.0,0.0,0.05945040252999921,0.10005627646467848,0.05513756614809389,0.0,0.059362981693824514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04963957379571115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0394465419997638,0.08185238996899387,0.05597358449189327,0.0,0.0,0.04689759802858196,0.12495750459250525,0.12192767220359126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455690397128746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915343392923845,0.0,0.0,0.12423001456111175,0.0,0.10787518319763134,0.0,0.0,0.05471841660774148,0.0,0.0,0.05860226126489997,0.0,0.037843520568748235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599374678058361,0.0,0.0,0.05834845682060528,0.0,0.2111746914599459,0.0,0.0,0.05681669861559591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561418796618119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047693219424449984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309146058586436,0.0,0.04619739622285732,0.0,0.27943775328761034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04459966080634116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393170381160984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977575749305071,0.0,0.05141661545144503,0.0,0.0,0.07420482080622108,0.10735392774013032,0.0,0.0,0.03256496219793687,0.0,0.2646831653012556,0.0,0.0,0.1137497862885747,0.0,0.0,0.05813892397922424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5440549340896167,0.0,0.05177093102569698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383472568689633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678604832167365,0.0
EDAnonymous,Taiz_eyes,2019/03/19,"🙃 I live with my fiancé and his whole family (mom, dad, older sister and younger brother)

His mom gifted me a rocking chair in hopes that we will have a kid and I can sit in this rocking chair and just be pregnant idk. I probably can’t get pregnant and she knows this but I love the chair. 

Hi younger brother broke it (it’s okay shit happens) but it’s still sitting in the living room and I guess yeah technically you can sit on the chair but it may fall apart. His dad is going to fix it soon, which I’m super grateful for. 

His older sister is small. Like 5’3”, skinny with IBS and disordered eating habits. I try not to compare myself since we are the same heights, but my PCOS and Endometriosis make me hideous compared to her. Not to mention huge. 

She was sitting on the chair the other day and it creeks but it still held up. I was talking to my fiancé about this, 

What I was going to say to my fiancé was “do you think I can sit in the chair? Your sister sat yesterday and it was squeaking a bit. If not can you scoot over so I can sit with you” ( he was on the couch)

What I actually got out of my mouth was “do you think I can sit in the chair? Your sister-“

And he cut me off to say “well she is like 20 pounds and you are not so....”

Ah. 

🙃

I may or may not be crying in my room finding the motivation to restrict for the next 5 days nbd. 

(My fiancé has no idea about my disordered eating and calls me “””””thicc””””””” in a “good” way. I know he didn’t mean anything, I’m just a stupid fat baby right now)",0.4125434173669476,2.490437209523808,2.108314659197013,96.44846638655464,84.84126984126985,4.84873949579832,19.105975723622784,6.068283710208149,-0.2580046685340798,1151,31,266,9,34,376,157,315,0.076,0.79,0.134,0.965,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,2,8,0,2,11,12,3,0,16,3,30,7,4,2,0,50,48,22,0,2,14,10,0,2,0,4,1,2,3,1,16,19,4,2,8,2,0,3,8,4,2,0,11,2,45,8,31,31,3,42,0,1,0,1,39,21,1,7,12,175,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.13334655684773505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124478229673904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918178622302544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953060564776093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500989582585483,0.1762504301157392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132157739973338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796454658429348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881746762243912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248917551583374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139177322117593,0.0,0.1553178763641122,0.11461198593962722,0.10928810240699736,0.0,0.1505307175292886,0.0,0.1208354001564683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357200785269847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425643795194433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15019387949503085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351643866795118,0.0,0.24132143081182764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332813939573675,0.0,0.09121211030116752,0.0,0.0,0.1488472989455584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200757407553184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453243230296027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732724792991847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669473808719362,0.0,0.2173323963765375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402649157992237,0.1130347902195284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825097149577366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983069117221557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511417949199026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277350588201598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846304921860644,0.0,0.0,0.12286095470244195,0.0,0.0,0.15256011854722198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EdenOfHell,2019/03/19,"ED cat cafe? TL;DR at the end.

I've had this idea for awhile now and have been trying to reach out to reddit/tumblr/kik about the opinions of ED sufferers on the concept of a cat cafe that served ""ED friendly"" food; however I am also worried about potential negative effects of having ""readily available super low cal"" food may have on sufferers. I have been in and out of recovery for anorexia with bulimic cognitions since I was 10 years old, and over the years have amassed many tasty recipes at all the stages of my eating disorder; to help encourage recovery, I would break the menu into 3 sections: 1) lowest possible cal, 2) medium cal, 3) ""normal"" cals for that dish.

The ""cat"" specific part is because I love cats, but also to hopefully give people a calming/""therapeutic"" space, and possibly give people ""a reason"" to go to a place that serves ED friendly food.

One response I got said that it would be beneficial to not market the cafe as an ""ED"" cafe, because it may essentially ""out"" someone. Personally, with the intention of the cafe being to help sufferers, I think it would be more impactful if it was marketed as such, but I also don't know if that *actually* is more helpful.

Another helpful response suggested  engaging the patrons to help them build a sense of community/support, but I have no ideas on how to do that, or what to do.

​

I'm currently just ""testing the waters"", so depending on how the idea is received, I plan on talking to an ED specialist about the concept before continuing forward. I'm sorry if you see this post somewhere else, I really am just trying to get some feedback that is very important to me!

​

TL;DR: I'm looking for feedback on the concept of opening a cat cafe that serves ""ED friendly"" foods.",9.533629856850718,7.926384776073617,9.536306748466256,65.4014335378323,60.13496932515338,12.987811860940695,42.59222903885481,11.855464076750405,5.184457505112475,1391,68,235,35,15,460,176,326,0.065,0.792,0.14300000000000002,0.9837,3,0,0,0,0,0,69.0,0,1,1,3,13,12,0,0,23,0,28,8,0,6,1,42,43,19,0,8,10,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,1,15,11,7,0,7,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,7,3,15,8,47,28,6,32,0,4,2,1,19,20,0,10,8,159,30,5,0.0,0.0,0.08841391038384655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217361753465757,0.0,0.1963331878347771,0.22018126898782728,0.0,0.09500348197269763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045956174880646,0.0,0.07709512996992979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383706946640137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270786490767276,0.07568585544715338,0.0,0.08024596063539598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382223564305803,0.0,0.20999528249056826,0.0,0.047335499235488174,0.1738262634692054,0.05149087132990799,0.0,0.07246222715196439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30364108911775056,0.0,0.0,0.08998764680422462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306833904158199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04979216755119935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076082368979267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177131320152578,0.0,0.0,0.0918556130622333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08877014894823,0.0,0.0,0.09507094290539594,0.0,0.0613938627225903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811250202008284,0.0,0.1256232249890986,0.07910965980460505,0.094659193813947,0.0,0.0,0.20427896172313287,0.0867711098039133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058041585613563276,0.09315334295270908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618269196677142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219759653367441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494642568190188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676628383588366,0.0,0.0,0.10142086501733996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028134106189872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282198443102232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05805372758977475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230248253715918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475565487017125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201013353428768,0.0,0.19308193448453426,0.0,0.22018126898782728,0.1166886799088117
EDAnonymous,Emorito,2019/03/19,"Woke up from a nightmare where I spent $100 at the bakery I suffer from bulimia and frequent this Italian bakery for binge foods... every time I am startled at how much money I spend. *sigh* 
It’s usually around $20-30 which is just too damn much for what seems like not so much food. Yesterday they were closed and I was planning to go today, so of course I dreamt that I spent $100 there, I thought FUCK, that’s too much and woke up. ",2.7395714285714305,4.0454018777777785,3.4531746031746064,93.205,74.66666666666667,6.476190476190476,22.857142857142854,6.868970318607317,0.4553809523809522,339,9,76,3,7,107,64,90,0.14300000000000002,0.8270000000000001,0.03,-0.8636,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,9,6,2,1,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,10,12,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,0,4,1,1,4,1,0,7,0,9,1,11,5,4,13,0,1,0,1,1,7,2,1,6,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927777861347097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245496242456488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237126908650682,0.0,0.0,0.20019945185739796,0.0,0.0,0.12307187154402932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057966949679153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6367645106804091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714141557583276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191862903069627,0.12627360203905733,0.0,0.20526660819404371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385021692029865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bi-the-wayy,2019/03/19,"Too old. Its dumb but I feel too old for this. Like my teen years were fine. My 20s were fine. But its heading into my 30s that the desperation is setting in and it's so dumb because even if I did get small I'm too old and ugly to look like any thinspo I would want anyway. 
So dumb. 
But here I am anyway. 

Fuck. ",-1.6142647058823556,0.3411355147058828,0.7708235294117642,101.64770588235297,98.26470588235294,3.308235294117647,14.152941176470588,4.935628992294339,-1.3370105882352938,237,5,59,1,10,79,47,68,0.275,0.578,0.146,-0.9364,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,9,8,4,0,1,0,6,2,1,0,0,10,12,8,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,7,4,4,8,0,8,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,1,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719086350641665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498718518518151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238591188413284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431244302485205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272903898741521,0.12844988367572344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523197178103968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402261527047795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645755517528194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7739551766246529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450125446616876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746494169280048,0.0,0.0,0.1583235373307668
EDAnonymous,DoingBetterForMyself,2019/03/19,Someone just asked me if I lost weight And omg that felt so good :) I've been trying to stop binging and I think I've been doing well but this is like confirmation anf I'm do happy now.,-1.4991071428571416,0.3358818750000019,0.7985714285714316,99.515,105.25,3.2857142857142865,13.214285714285715,5.288315135182226,-1.2425714285714284,145,3,34,1,7,48,33,40,0.07,0.622,0.308,0.9024,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,10,5,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,2,3,4,1,6,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010594251287814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30920427813417906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701078331632135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34281244118156584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733012409045205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35153944445209645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27285936603609806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26923583328586315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063471424517984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21864075073217848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921520968634808,0.28954830494361355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsamhquest,2019/03/19,"I can't do this anymore I've been trying to recover from my bulimia since October last year. I've tried everything I could think of. I can't stop binging. I feel so defeated. It feels like every two good days is followed by a week of bad. I don't know what to do anymore. At the beginning I really didn't want to recover. Now I do, but it's all the same, nothing has changed but my mindset so it hurts so much more. I just want it all to end. ",-0.6015625,1.5090036354166685,2.2800000000000007,92.965,90.77083333333334,6.533333333333335,22.583333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.2415583333333338,343,14,80,8,12,120,63,96,0.138,0.805,0.057999999999999996,-0.8003,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,0,2,14,19,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,2,10,2,9,16,5,10,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,52,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4171637834302471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560922854641325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22249170339403804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792418411878815,0.0,0.0,0.1356396290952384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628195678339424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772044920369489,0.0,0.18902293025408864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268920823253254,0.15025334616575178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764072547512207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251529531024234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558690718486744,0.1714396653370576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275220438977416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546101160566273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20180864736550927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473700180412973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17397968345571446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758377521836523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476518803394094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855882716300465,0.0,0.20545303119734365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481055199093237,0.0,0.16870679933206406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543981189687782
EDAnonymous,baswild,2019/08/04,Safe foods for wisdom teeth removal? i’m getting my wisdom teeth out in a few days and i’m very nervous. i’ve never had any type of surgery so i’m sCaReD lol. what safe foods do you guys recommend? i know safe foods are different for everyone but i guess foods you feel are generally safe would be helpful? i’m just scared of gaining weight i think. what foods would y’all recommend i buy?,0.09074001947419674,2.4032361265822817,1.4179746835443048,95.72008763388511,99.12658227848101,4.9624148003894835,20.00097370983447,6.67199483983844,0.4397957156767287,310,11,66,5,13,98,51,79,0.084,0.593,0.324,0.9631,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,1,2,9,0,3,1,1,7,8,2,0,1,16,16,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,6,4,3,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,2,8,6,6,12,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,2,30,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942057849865052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893409915191358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473534036080982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237224326057598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004540220163967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8375607713863575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237669493005755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260744100677956,0.13716740364465094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285436439985698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761329779756003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684359582500423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27738726204793185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876502834404848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430252800162012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869335615537398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968168005604765,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinycat1,2019/08/04,Finally on the right path to fixing my binge drinking problem But the meds I'm on for it also curb my appetite as well as my desire to drink :) not sure if I should be happy or terrified. One week sober and almost a week binge free.,1.130625000000002,3.2891258125,2.904,91.341,82.54166666666666,5.506666666666668,20.016666666666666,6.742157984588678,0.2986616666666664,181,5,38,2,5,60,39,48,0.142,0.621,0.23800000000000002,0.7072,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,11,3,7,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,4,5,7,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25498390597593856,0.0,0.0,0.20363450067747335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4988980275685666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27894428247618885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710676634655167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28284622524711384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254979380002422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436548752512137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174600844125525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399939898469841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4085116598607912,0.0,0.22895079948366456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fourteencarrots,2019/08/04,"heartbreak sucks, but it's one hell of an appetite suppressant lol. i had my first binge-free day a couple of days ago. i'm reminding myself of my younger self who was dealing with AN...... clear american drinks 24/7 lol. over here crying but in a few moments i'll be back happy that i have ammunition for my ED.

funny how life works lmao

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anyway, thank you for reading. i hope everyone is having a good day. feel better if not. <3",1.1547885835095144,3.729069383720933,2.552114164904861,90.69024312896408,87.72093023255816,5.452854122621565,20.608879492600426,6.980632752743323,0.6305720930232561,341,11,68,5,11,110,71,86,0.126,0.532,0.342,0.9803,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,3,4,8,2,0,5,2,6,2,0,1,1,10,11,4,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,1,8,5,8,8,1,9,1,1,0,0,4,2,2,2,7,41,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076004541557668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741484379718123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030234758050994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505948017601517,0.24877664212880454,0.4381808243707848,0.2334899937501625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186328350169346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641047291379004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145146311833192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19264299547140126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18995991271745144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24109119918028205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494483504170512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996887673619156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15346809048970286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265403751823197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362670807076692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20851151463146309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648794724887142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stevieisbored,2019/08/04,"I ate intuitively today and I'm really proud of myself (post mentions specific food but not calories, avoiding numbers) I wanted to share a milestone day. For the last year, I have either restricted or binged, or been distressed by food every single day. I struggled with ED stuff since I was 10/11 (I'm 24), and I've had periods where I was okay, but it picked up in intensity last August. The main issue is that I'm medically obese, and no doctor will tell me I shouldn't lose weight. I even mentioned my restricting to a doctor and she ended up congratulating me on losing weight. I have been trying so hard to lose weight without doing ED stuff. Whenever I track calories though, I get crazy and end up lowering my goal every day and then I eventually snap and binge all the weight back on. It's horrible. 

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Today was different. I legitimately ate healthy food all day and did not experience any anxiety. This morning I woke up early and ate some cantaloupe and fell back asleep for a few hours. When I got up at like 9ish I made a sandwich with avocado, carmelized onion, and field roast sausage on a baguette thing. It wasn't huge but I was comfortably full for a long time. Like I wasn't hungry again until 3pm, when I made a salad with lots of veggies and chick peas. Then I went to the store and picked out a bunch of vegan food and stuff with my mom. For dinner I ate a bunch of yellow grape tomatoes and a mix of potatoes, peppers, and onions. I wasn't super hungry so I didn't make the seitan chorizo like I planned. I also ate a few Nothing But chocolate coconut granola bites as a snack. I do not feel stuffed, and I don't feel hungry, and I'm not stressed! 

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It has been sooooo long since I was able to recognize hunger cues, eat until satiated, and stop. I didn't restrict, and I didn't binge. It was glorious. I'm hoping I can keep doing this. I'm going to avoid the scale and counting calories and hope that continuing to eat this way will result in healthy weight loss. I'm hoping that by typing this all out I can pass along my good vibes to all of you!",3.298595641646493,5.196966462469735,4.269142857142859,85.47204358353513,74.44794188861984,7.044455205811138,25.60145278450363,7.859703344183488,1.4154660532687648,1651,57,328,24,35,534,211,413,0.11699999999999999,0.733,0.151,0.9398,2,2,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,1,0,8,11,21,0,5,18,1,30,26,1,6,4,67,57,39,0,5,12,1,8,3,0,3,4,0,0,1,16,29,22,7,2,0,1,4,14,9,0,0,27,9,41,12,42,27,14,51,0,4,1,0,8,16,0,7,32,207,57,4,0.07516808438161551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011188992249705,0.0,0.16288917604517295,0.1826749001609949,0.05111687500294454,0.0,0.057503378807841336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559923408103324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939087837026986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853464946756675,0.0,0.1538754390180819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538314321104617,0.0,0.0,0.13315322338526905,0.0,0.0,0.0496478108069692,0.0,0.1266647061288136,0.0,0.0,0.07352881014975889,0.0,0.0,0.07601448402314337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635741840224287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039272221641122915,0.0,0.04271975460325644,0.06304742285369118,0.060118783815167484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733583908947978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22397660533866864,0.07402542165834652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845595081297684,0.0,0.06681284716323277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254404264318924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101699874267699,0.0,0.0,0.1330427785521199,0.0,0.2522815775150553,0.0,0.06390521730511449,0.0,0.14225171786025964,0.05017528001446942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572393693092101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803595194327643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212580425860668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199024645990622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04815459964366762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435963233204685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284388434704423,0.08610478669269367,0.07858200253653726,0.2581484184309742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570021891696454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04993833520514111,0.0,0.07385226125572715,0.0,0.043831114488641985,0.0,0.14250110964072274,0.0,0.0,0.051034195132470185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044336083706188335,0.05966492659579544,0.0,0.4576723818848649,0.0,0.06968156729856959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07245935096453089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826749001609949,0.04840578185930733
EDAnonymous,sendmeturtlesplz,2019/08/04,🙌You da real mvp 🙌 Shout out to the milk I just threw up at the gym. Fuck you for reminding me how easy it is to purge! Thanks for nothing bitch!,-2.287272727272729,-0.5060445757575707,0.21430303030303044,105.28145454545457,100.8181818181818,3.852121212121212,12.66060606060606,5.6839178017228535,-1.37178303030303,111,2,30,1,5,37,28,33,0.09,0.667,0.243,0.7146,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,7,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.467022448676988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4847251984082768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5749951932606366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650935843321967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crackalackinn,2019/08/04,"I literally feel like the fattest person in the world Wow I’m obese. I have to wear a T-shirt and jeans for work and I look disgusting in it. My stomach is building out in the ugliest way. I saw my reflection in the mirror hundreds of times and I’m horrified. Why did I ever think I was skinny, I am absolutely h.u.g.e.",0.07757575757575808,2.436729787878789,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848486,92.03030303030305,5.963636363636365,24.0,7.3871296695380915,1.402345454545455,250,11,52,5,9,87,48,66,0.16,0.746,0.094,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,5,0,5,4,3,0,1,8,11,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,9,2,8,8,0,9,0,0,2,0,1,6,0,0,3,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688115319540333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20615852880493404,0.291279553400602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991943405544125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423871721923331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560106379045239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612543732714684,0.0,0.0,0.23774832375650706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236339401974649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36790931942323657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968294018603823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BipolarSkeleton,2019/08/04,Do you sort my new or hot? Just curious,-3.479999999999997,-2.7762517777777767,0.5872222222222234,98.86750000000002,122.33333333333334,6.2444444444444445,15.611111111111107,7.1686216300943375,0.5618444444444441,30,1,8,1,2,11,9,9,0.0,0.777,0.223,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DoggyDish,2019/08/04,"First purge in over 5 years :c TW for restricting, purging, relapse talk, negative self-talk and numbers.

 After a few months of really sliding back into bad habits I think I've officially relapsed.  I've been restricting and exercising more and more but today is the first time I purged. I was doing good this weekend. Yesterday I ate a full 1400 calories after a few weeks of being under 750 Didn't feel particularly stressed out by that high number. Today I went out to eat with my family at Chili's. I was really pleased with my entree (if you get the 6 oz sirloin and replace potatoes with the asparagus you have an entree under 350!!) And let myself eat some fries. But then everyone got dessert and I could not get away with not eating some. Those skillet cookies are crazy high in calories. I could not get away with taking only a bite or two, everyone pressured me into eating half of one. I estimate I ate 750 calories in dessert.

I should be fine with that, since that would still put me under maintenance for today. But I couldn't stop thinking about it, I felt disgusting. I literally started feeling extreme nausea because I was so disgusted  with my fat body. The food in my stomach felt toxic, I felt like it was gonna burn a hole in me to keep this toxic sludge in. When I got home I purged. 

 The only time I purged in the past was when my disorder was at it's worst. I primarily restrict and over exercise and then when I get particularly into the mentality I start purging what little I do eat. This is happening again. The only good thing I can say is I stopped myself from clearing out my whole stomach. I stopped when I got past the cookie and into the other food, but it's honestly taking all my willpower to not empty my stomach. I feel extremely nauseous right now. I'm full of guilt and self hate.",3.9205280172413812,5.832247622159091,5.033565830721006,80.59340909090913,72.7784090909091,7.8097178683385575,28.33111285266457,8.53829466247534,2.2221893416927894,1441,57,265,26,29,474,185,352,0.14300000000000002,0.77,0.087,-0.9690000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,0,2,10,13,3,3,16,0,24,18,5,0,2,58,51,23,0,6,10,0,6,1,0,3,3,1,1,1,14,24,12,7,8,3,0,3,7,8,0,5,17,7,43,5,44,25,11,63,0,0,0,0,5,29,0,4,32,189,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109687201268702,0.0659229433529023,0.07158299434464817,0.05226169091671034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522939786896543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369007314889248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825678726647104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4386283726501643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384201331946194,0.0,0.0,0.08082090088151987,0.0,0.13004667108983814,0.0,0.2469497196969277,0.0,0.0,0.14584791486731752,0.2073359787235886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916661563868586,0.0,0.0,0.14381658212084278,0.20570415771688527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758129008377086,0.0,0.0,0.08464302105820133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811620294029727,0.08599661308888182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620291905568212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876672137432528,0.0,0.04188453264453207,0.08592641318489025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639812054054871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843080419269072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05809451037090736,0.19561011879907494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368260215578118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410845836358528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618476720024805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984477430934952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321502304317241,0.0,0.06817786589848948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887523493226296,0.0,0.0,0.07091874840508464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136370422861803,0.0,0.06846602584307714,0.21502843997992924,0.09820620388500494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892022906441614,0.13781695244926875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05695681410067245,0.1098677532239074,0.0,0.0,0.099982533638721,0.0,0.2437929451674216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837481224194505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876938053001598,0.0,0.0,0.07947481746366937,0.0,0.095717191520307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090185537508273,0.0,0.0,0.05520887124956531
EDAnonymous,Notsoabc1,2019/08/04,I Can’t stop the B/P cicle and I’m not even restricting. I feel frustrated If anything I’m working out and trying to eat whole foods and not restrict. binging and purging 2-3 times a day this weekend.,0.6007142857142861,2.9363366904761925,2.8574285714285743,89.53757142857144,86.85714285714286,5.2647619047619045,27.447619047619053,6.742157984588678,1.4299561904761895,159,8,32,2,5,54,34,42,0.14,0.7509999999999999,0.109,-0.3031,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,12,4,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,3,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29908038764595857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343889173250996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718901447829451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004888072421945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376632838384108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394734355666408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038523522522096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21192495304176998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24675209684152305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057680992867997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645888562188296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,angerexic,2019/08/04,"Literally never wanted to purge more in my life so I’m blasting high school musical to distract myself lmao I’m under my tdee but I feel like I’ve been eating all day and I’m like super bloated but STILL thinking about the chocolate cake downstairs and it’s horrible god. But it’s kinda working though?? Does this count as a healthy coping mechanism????
Anyway high school musical 3 is the best movie ever made",1.8952128883774435,4.715279556962027,3.193187571921752,84.9606444188723,88.87341772151899,5.404372842347526,23.637514384349828,6.980632752743323,1.3254202531645571,331,13,57,5,11,107,61,79,0.067,0.645,0.28800000000000003,0.9716,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,1,3,13,9,8,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,4,6,7,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,6,32,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23880540502656894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14675443963155013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19913530718638306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23284603395483497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583693172319828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505887246243995,0.16256565847609128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808496517772583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160729143482849,0.2223441965554176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153184682259161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550479087933446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605965266750491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18172607578813196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14580834365062242,0.22357207361424436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421809977901727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16566307729170546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skitof,2019/08/04,"dae obsess over food size? not referring to portion size, referring to the size of the actual food. not all, but a lot of my safe foods are things that are small (like berries just as an example) or something that can easily be cut up, or something with a lot of small pieces in a serve (like cauliflower rice). does anyone else have this? like i know cutting up food can be a common ed behavior, but it feels a lot safer to have smaller pieces of food?",6.098314606741575,5.792130292134836,6.201438202247193,82.3050786516854,66.30337078651687,10.266067415730339,30.15955056179775,9.888512548439397,2.5072274157303367,352,11,74,7,5,112,57,89,0.061,0.784,0.155,0.9022,1,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,1,8,0,8,5,0,0,1,17,10,5,0,0,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,4,13,8,7,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,5,4,49,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.13463994796122106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964726419007208,0.14136775639674387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073949043478145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525719872092695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976236322629109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8341763616310546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758253403662906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022172163179388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35189443477670296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21243387670249286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166190691859856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Josie24601,2019/08/04,"Hopeful Today, for the first time in a long time, I saw myself in the mirror and it didn’t make me sad. I still feel like I have work to do, but I didn’t hate it.",3.19157894736842,1.5193871052631598,4.862105263157896,94.04473684210528,72.68421052631578,7.6,21.63157894736842,3.1291,-0.28267368421052685,122,1,34,0,2,42,29,38,0.187,0.711,0.10300000000000001,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,5,9,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,2,6,2,4,6,0,8,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,7,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503796510690214,0.24730958549248425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944587741406799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417790407636032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438327991815883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691250526164076,0.0,0.0,0.3063565783442159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23107645931603765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27645814557413695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037182748552867,0.0,0.32813620427119505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25202165918976394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beekitties,2019/08/04,what do you guys do to cope with guilt after eating? i ate 1800 calories yesterday and feel so terrible about it. i wanna feel at least a little bit better. any tips? thanks guys <3,1.0100000000000016,3.609255555555556,2.2957777777777792,91.42700000000002,90.66666666666666,5.102222222222223,15.533333333333335,6.742157984588678,-0.05865999999999971,144,3,28,2,5,46,32,36,0.157,0.708,0.135,-0.2334,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,2,6,5,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21209656457774806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27584223013440884,0.3405041758890669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191423406930153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154029059587487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6176422199389819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125967030529115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871473145442192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ripplesonthewater,2019/08/04,"I am bulimic and my crowdfunding launch is tomorrow. I have just obliterated 3 kilos of food. I can’t throw up, I’m in pain and I’m confused about my emotions. I don’t know what to do. It’s 9pm here, it’s Sunday. In less than 15 hours my crowdfunding campaign for the business I have worked SO HARD to build this past two years – goes live. (The business is a hair growth/hair loss product btw, so completely unrelated to food). 

Why am I writing this on here? Because I’m long term bulimic. I have not binged and purged for a few months now, last time I tried was 3 months ago – and although I ate a universe worth of food – I couldn’t make myself throw up - my body just refused, so I was left to digest all of it for a day or two… It was the last time I said to myself. And now - now I just got back from a supermarket and diligently polished everything that I bought from there (cereals, cheese, crackers, butter, yoghurt, peanut butter). I feel sick, in pain and I can’t throw it all up. My body became too weak from the 2-3 kilos worth of food (I am have a slim frame…). I feel SO overwhelmed. SO worried. My mind is very, very, very cloudy right now. Stomach is hurting. I know that I am putting a lot of pressure on myself for the campaign to go well and I know that even if it doesn’t – I did EVERYTHING in my power to make it work. I gave it all, I gave it my best. For some reason I feel that I cannot reach out to friends. The perception people have of me – is that I’ve got everything together, everything under control – but it’s so not true.

The other thing is… this year (2019) has been hard for me. In January, I had a difficult breakup, in February my father passed away, in March – I turned 30, in April – I had a small business loan approved for my business, in June – I received results from consumer trials proved the product efficacy, in July – I met a bunch of PR / media / editors who were all interested in the product. I’ve travelled to 2 countries each month. 

And in August… right now… I am launching a crowdfunding campaign tomorrow. I have no co-Founder. It’s just me. It has been SO HARD. I’m usually a grounded person (I journal, meditate, exercise, go for walks) – but this past week with the business/work-related stress – I noticed that I started emotionally eating and today… the night before the launch, on Sunday – I came to the office to do some last minute things… and this happened. It spun out of my control and I don’t even know what to feel or do anymore. I am still in the office.

I don’t know why I’m writing this. I just feel lonely, alone and also – in physical pain. I couldn’t throw up so all the food I ate – hurts a lot now. 

I want to know that someone is listening. Someone who wouldn’t judge me. I feel so many things right now – physically and emotionally – I don’t know how to navigate any of this. Or — rather that I do know how to navigate this, I just cannot being myself to, because now I have the feeling of guilt because of bingeing and feeling my stomach is three times my normal size...",2.7816474464579883,4.409620444810546,4.093858649093907,87.33431680395388,75.19439868204283,7.228322899505768,26.96701812191104,7.9765259561132025,1.5911671433278425,2338,90,489,36,50,769,250,607,0.107,0.852,0.040999999999999995,-0.9878,1,3,0,0,0,0,87.0,0,0,0,8,36,19,0,5,29,0,48,20,5,11,7,84,88,34,0,7,15,1,12,0,1,1,7,2,0,1,36,20,9,3,19,2,4,12,15,14,1,2,19,16,70,5,67,65,15,81,0,5,0,0,14,31,0,9,38,326,106,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880521555000216,0.0,0.0,0.06870684051691697,0.0,0.05305099892127208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045112560662064816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579012063344229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06232735067760624,0.05101033132080588,0.0,0.12131828617431925,0.0,0.05644930984853885,0.0,0.06961832628954437,0.0,0.0,0.14737458279956822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587374919469092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955481825800301,0.0,0.14880888630684375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04278294480634473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678810061492976,0.0,0.2238661758561822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763211274707608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384836244727866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683425402270445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010848284183972,0.07273691178370778,0.051253080761673286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540357351254022,0.0,0.10611416608057812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866305406633,0.0,0.17827921555143242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065330212868152,0.0,0.14203380575160626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916639217262427,0.1622245752659102,0.0,0.0,0.07207714342108877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05857824828132765,0.058707622656279664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279750540827635,0.0,0.0,0.08856313549130111,0.06725698452158951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698313113794124,0.0,0.15885264599299784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062254334383218986,0.06499779746443228,0.0,0.07552699909800528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176702036590986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665550630409558,0.045990870982046766,0.057924355274638586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666886717444728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820718665129279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995854825988613,0.06310325288135564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241705523715644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046954841881688685,0.0,0.05297813606073558,0.0,0.07599070586268304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814491011724336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604781069700765,0.0,0.06288128873985688,0.0,0.0,0.045039592573305656,0.07215740767571059,0.12960645428837644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306265689623441,0.1642090152650107,0.039128257852198325,0.0,0.05321286804176428,0.0,0.05964641834278282,0.0,0.11972063673466565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488599411400424,0.06737012492369197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543983842505584
EDAnonymous,peachiefaerie,2019/08/04,The only good thing about being obese when I finally lose the weight everyone's gonna be able to notice,8.134285714285719,6.58967480952381,8.333333333333332,72.72000000000003,62.80952380952381,12.20952380952381,30.523809523809533,11.20814326018867,3.2228666666666665,85,2,16,2,1,28,20,21,0.125,0.741,0.134,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,2,0,0.3358233283585021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208935816391201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678780413021309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816726747972157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757004041525568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38233708515818826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25540877399538503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22310609721184724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089423426092516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catzkacan,2019/08/04,"Orthorexia is so stressful In my family, we get groceries every week on Sunday, usually. My step mom does the shopping and uses the list we make as the week goes on. However, she’s starting to not use the list anymore which results in her forgetting to buy my safe food.

Unfortunately, I’m *always* hungry. I could eat a massive plate of food and still be hungry after that. My stomach is the literal void and I eat through my safe food really fast. I can get through it all by Friday and I usually just starve on Saturday and Sunday until my step mom gets groceries again. I only feel safe eating whole foods, and anything that comes in a package is immediately suspect and needs constant nutrition fact checking and internet research to determine whether it’s okay to eat or not.

God I hate this so much. I’ve tried to incorporate fear foods in every so often, but it’s terrifying. The farthest I’ve gotten are these healthy mediterranean chips and certain flavors of halo top ice cream. I haaaaate tip-toeing around food. It’s also so scary to wait for my step mom to get groceries. I wish she would just use the list again and not waste the grocery budget on garbage :(",4.249267425320056,6.431188635135139,4.912788051209102,80.65120199146517,72.55855855855856,7.5565670934092,30.15267899478426,8.371475516178862,2.4234198198198205,935,41,166,16,19,300,132,222,0.11,0.787,0.10300000000000001,-0.5726,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,2,0,0,1,12,8,1,2,10,1,8,11,1,5,3,42,25,20,0,4,8,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,14,10,4,2,1,4,4,3,3,0,0,1,3,20,5,25,21,3,30,0,0,1,0,8,11,0,2,15,102,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237897363253358,0.07530965540775918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975931657150671,0.0,0.0,0.07448012394681931,0.08057104023507562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796436798782745,0.0,0.09780666841551572,0.0,0.07226303241566301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920389670464664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704478825381597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251327876881332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532260298020161,0.10184632322762252,0.0457634117135174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6566536082817642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18914614718111145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935761420651396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041459142034264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180045671147336,0.0,0.0,0.06653357220116718,0.06711031147201017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883518299171297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798154911429286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06406181469868233,0.0,0.07227956477749223,0.0,0.103676262611284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06144878606567013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23450877526946234,0.19936288569657687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145199632475233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104861293787516,0.10407938635612103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429407208097583,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ErectionAdvisor,2019/08/04,"Body Fat distribution after recovery?? Hey guys I’m a male in recovery from anorexia. I am 6’2” and used to be 125lbs, and have recovered on my own all the way to 155lbs. However, literally every inch of fat has gone to my stomach, chest, and hips. It’s incredibly disheartening and I was wondering if anyone else experienced this during recovery. Will it redistribute as I continue to gain? Have I fucked up my body forever? :(",3.794615384615384,6.568574807692312,5.912500000000005,70.03875000000001,76.56410256410257,11.079487179487181,30.262820512820515,10.686352973137794,4.457251282051281,337,16,58,14,8,117,60,78,0.13699999999999998,0.8220000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.8382,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,7,8,7,1,1,8,12,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,7,0,11,8,2,8,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,2,2,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962432882568928,0.29252276015551604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.634239856510857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23849394484989456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405413528279736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26393498069479604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826843502448188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465755048072684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22661217316746474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096065081490772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kVIIIwithan8,2019/08/04,"I hate my life I'm so upset, you guys and I have no one to talk to about this so forgive me but I'm posting here because you're all so supportive and lovely and I just need some internet hugs. 

So I work at a gym and I had to open this morning. It's only about 12min from where I live by car but I don't have a car so it's either walk for an hour and a half or spend an hour on public transportation to get there. Not a huge deal, I knew what I was getting into, except the public transportation around me doesn't run on its usual schedule that early, especially on weekends. So I had to get up at 4:30am (I'm incredibly anxious about being late so I always give myself an extra hour in the morning to collect myself before I leave) for a shift that starts at 8:30am!!  I got up on time, had my breakfast (yay! Recovery!) and even had a little time to chill before I got on my train at 7. I leave thinking I'm looking cute and ready to rumble. I got on the train and all is well, Google maps tells me I should have 30min before my shift starts. Cool cool, sounds amazing. I get off my train and walk to the bus stop, as usual, no issues. The sign says my bus will be there in 2 minutes and I'm stoked, it's gonna be a nice day at work and I might even have time to work out before my shift starts! And then 2 minutes goes by and my bus hasn't arrived. Ok no big deal it's just running late, I wait. I wait some more. I check the sign again and now it says the bus will be there in an HOUR. 

Fucking fantastic. 

So I buck up and walk the 30 minutes to my job, leaving with only 2 minutes before my shift starts. AAAAAAMAZING. Living for it. So good. But wait it gets so much better. 

I go to the door but work hasn't given me a key to open yet because I'm new. So now, I stressed myself out to get there on time, and im stuck waiting for my co-worker to get there 15 minutes late so they can let me in. So I'm there early and trapped outside, not on the clock, and Im coming down from the fucking adventure of public transportation I'd just been on. SO GOOD RIGHT?!? RIGHT!!!??!??!??!??! 

Ok well. I try to have a nice morning anyway, I head in, trying to keep my attitude positive. I'm doing stuff, tidying up the locker rooms, etc. That's when I see the scale and I think to myself ""I've been doing so well lately, I've been exercising, I've been eating, and I've kept a close watch on everything. I could use some good news, why don't I weigh myself?"" MISTAKE. IVE GAINED 8LBS! FUCKING GREAT. JUST SO FUCKING GREAT. 

I wanted to cry and felt so fucking gross and fat and horrible, im so self-conscious at this point feeling like a fucking potato wrapped in a stocking instead of like the cutie I thought I was this morning so now I feel like I'm fucking delusional for ever feeling good about myself and ugh fuck just wanna quit and die. But I knew I had to soldier on, I knew these feelings were temporary. 

I work, etc, obviously every person I help today is a total fucking asshole (of course! OF COURSE. WHAT WAS I EXPECTING??) and then clock out for my lunch break I go grab my lunch and heat it up in the staffroom and go to eat outside because it's nice out and maybe that'll cheer me up. I figured if I could just keep focused I could get through the meal, telling myself to be tough and just get through it and it'll get easier. 


Well. The universe had other plans. 

I go outside and sit down with my food. I start eating (it's left overs from dinner the night before). First bite I get a GIANT WHOLE STAR ANISE in my mouth. I just couldn't. I spit it out and threw away the rest of my food. Just fuck it. just fuck the whole fucking thing. I'm done. My spirit is broken. All I wanna do is go home, smoke some weed, and binge watch all of crazy ex girlfriend until my eyes bleed and I have a valid excuse to call out tomorrow.",-0.010679005322309363,2.2349154981226533,1.7648348314180602,96.78440879382057,89.26282853566956,4.329659549183956,18.333535606376657,5.82211442006289,-0.3710095675149496,2949,82,662,22,99,962,324,799,0.096,0.725,0.179,0.9977,1,1,1,0,0,1,119.0,0,1,1,10,57,49,13,2,39,5,51,33,5,1,7,119,129,66,1,12,21,1,6,3,1,7,4,3,3,2,29,49,12,9,13,3,3,17,11,19,4,3,27,16,87,30,97,85,18,120,1,0,5,14,22,58,12,7,45,422,116,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0396996204803618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053900184184344335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247316896779885,0.0,0.0,0.04482633330553089,0.0,0.0,0.08725308990327,0.0,0.24359279359329,0.0,0.0,0.04219676423934708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04871856782574038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041099056998063536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428076304939495,0.0,0.05240861848584261,0.0307698389684706,0.0983765026973744,0.0,0.0,0.049516792775604015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04882522098357631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646170134052314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642141426795307,0.06302572228021362,0.043157598903231134,0.040198824789163035,0.0,0.04287983654970738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649705961745776,0.06816991902488695,0.04581032644743143,0.0,0.0,0.040583204143431084,0.11538537741142604,0.0,0.0,0.5292998939239705,0.2741990133778727,0.04576902278053794,0.1355771455851268,0.16007188629965313,0.11447724615564732,0.10520374491208148,0.0,0.047241684361261096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04710502726140072,0.048965554573129885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03197987610750132,0.0,0.047858320193397766,0.0,0.18794406404963776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460916146864626,0.049798197410898436,0.04734609946860283,0.08481598446369294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152816809212957,0.15155812100978186,0.05183846288311973,0.04878803286649515,0.033699899471008814,0.06992798794463201,0.04781925296316507,0.08425989724785089,0.0,0.0400654723804296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04306130756101955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04793240983040576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0506141454759669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03507329241234247,0.03537732155767075,0.0,0.04607986714270927,0.0,0.044773819397698235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0323304090585052,0.0725731813715272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165966349957263,0.0,0.0,0.04510259652838576,0.0,0.04569423310432528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0507468363695176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149037246724203,0.0,0.075883875401002,0.0,0.0,0.038019725840051005,0.0,0.04977328734568655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688515049664482,0.0,0.0,0.039888779963191116,0.05465312855576067,0.0,0.05461801927972452,0.0,0.05414221348201355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834853258452401,0.08340355161498053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03169726514239001,0.061142944167864775,0.0,0.03787743975040068,0.11128336190830067,0.0,0.045224730027661884,0.0,0.0,0.06478567648670203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04120724107731922,0.10509450424611036,0.0,0.028141358634349738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159274058958945,0.0,0.04305202377025389,0.10653591659608908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840635107537284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lairabel09,2019/08/04,"Starving all day for sushi and the the sushi rice tastes like chalk, it's disgusting! I'm at a 5 star all inclusive hotel and couldn't care less about anything all day except the sushi I was promised! And all the other food is drenched in oil... My eggplant was 50% oil, 49% water and 1% fiber! Guess I'll be shitting slick little balls of vegetarian origins...Cause wtf am I going to eat. The most enjoyable thing about this meal was the champagne, cause it got me dizzy alright! And the cake looks good as well.

Maybe I'll go ahead and start nourishing my body with cake and champagne for the rest of the week! Cico bless! 

Wish you all a great summer❤",2.6389534883720915,4.78397392248062,2.963740310077519,92.96095930232559,77.2170542635659,5.850387596899225,22.377906976744185,6.816661863887847,0.4428651162790693,512,15,108,5,12,157,91,129,0.11699999999999999,0.677,0.20600000000000002,0.9008,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,3,11,2,0,11,1,7,7,2,1,5,19,16,8,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,1,0,4,4,6,9,13,10,8,10,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,2,6,58,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675003183409705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22609277981332465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20752784979152064,0.41819388392822776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625395705586991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20827750735949893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461276078288079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313588031186412,0.1707240178064242,0.16279365363401727,0.2244092505544695,0.2242279347067709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944188064503484,0.2040057172585712,0.0,0.0,0.17092666496837758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20448846524047606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089361752717322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407030744459165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352263557000657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327164466025354,0.0,0.1830115379850664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23406688151903415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StressedCookie,2019/08/04,"DAE just discovered hip dips?? I found about violin body via youtube recommendation. Eventhough the video had a positive message, I can't help thinking ""Wow.. I'll never have a thigh gap and a cinch waist based on my bones""...

Started even thinking if there's surgery to adjust my body hahaha I want to get that slim east asian body that I want. Whatever it takes!",3.306113445378152,5.969876544117646,3.642689075630255,86.24852941176474,77.67647058823529,7.415126050420167,25.890756302521005,8.418075326091056,1.9098168067226893,287,11,55,6,7,89,55,68,0.034,0.807,0.159,0.8017,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,3,7,7,0,1,10,11,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,4,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7819666819237625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15499143098055054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572937634175456,0.0,0.0,0.1226007296395948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728837627421946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18098509220574416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16609432105586747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764359291183522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30072269124685225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768183710823761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ugly_little_angel,2019/08/04,"(Vent)My ED ruined my face. I developed signs of an eating disorder in 6th grade and started to starve myself and purge food out in 7th-9th grade. The lack of nutrients must have caused me to start producing less female hormones because I started to stop menstruating at some point, plus, since all this happened during crucial developmental stages of my life, my face started growing masculine and ugly. My cheeks also turned really chubby from the purging. 

Nowadays I try to force myself to eat so that my body produces enough hormones. But the damage from my early days was done and there’s no way to reverse bone development other than through plastic surgery... and every time I eat, the guilt comes along and haunts me for a while. I just don’t know what to do,, I hate this and regret ever starving myself when I was younger. Why. Did. I. Do. It.",6.161486013986014,7.705341826923077,5.825524475524478,78.55583916083916,66.62820512820512,7.980419580419578,32.13053613053613,8.296473431620573,2.5299179487179493,679,28,115,9,11,210,113,156,0.209,0.7809999999999999,0.01,-0.9843,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,1,1,6,0,9,10,5,3,3,25,18,13,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,11,4,1,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,4,0,19,0,21,13,5,20,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,1,11,82,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314887777040314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023055479050737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18263655869811224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689074102505861,0.0,0.14163560128985908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603904230933596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884426647302051,0.0,0.0,0.16826151345625534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047364258571226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16989260712093646,0.0,0.0,0.14872974995931695,0.13853322037114044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19882058742241535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453984549285143,0.0,0.0,0.16233338055075194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036241858767896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613661902775604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543260224517594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053333950427526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601216059041124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655169472282021,0.0,0.0,0.13746474365754066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958762014794026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163222363711008,0.17884468776263288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051108990246174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836591685625586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jcsxx,2019/08/04,"I feel so so so so so fat and when I look down at my body I am actually surprised to not see it I *feel* it hanging off me, I feel disgusting, but it’s not fucking there. But it is, my eyes must be lying, the pictures are lying, the scale is lying, my friends are lying, my doctor is lying. I must be fat. I feel it.",-1.7289682539682545,0.1346169285714307,1.7719047619047643,96.21198412698416,94.0,4.253968253968254,17.777777777777782,5.82211442006289,-0.4341269841269839,235,7,58,2,9,85,37,70,0.297,0.637,0.066,-0.9705,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,0,2,0,10,6,4,0,2,11,17,9,0,2,4,0,4,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,5,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,7,12,2,4,13,0,5,0,0,3,1,1,3,1,0,1,45,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.3068167753749442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3492363201798809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218098280348289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6358963636495483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24291077854900595,0.2906650551155345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640234665762535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505424051725955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caaaarol,2019/08/04,"seeing friends after i lost a lot of weight is triggering and confusing?? I finally have been reconnecting with some old friends who I haven’t seen in almost a year, and I’ve relapsed hard in the meantime and lost a ton of weight. They don’t know anything about the ED, and their reactions have been positive mostly, telling me I look great, which has... made me angry? Lol? I thought I would be happy that people would compliment me?? Does anyone else feel this way? I’m really struggling to understand like what my issue is with that. I wound up hanging out with someone this week and we ordered food, she kept commenting that at least I wasn’t starving myself to lose weight. I felt like that meant she thought I ate too much and I wound up purging as soon as she left. Why do people say anything at all.",4.302499999999998,5.9326429679487145,4.456923076923079,86.26307692307694,71.24358974358974,7.764102564102564,28.384615384615394,8.344100000000001,1.914176923076924,637,24,125,10,12,198,103,156,0.11699999999999999,0.7090000000000001,0.174,0.9129999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,2,3,3,12,0,2,5,1,14,7,0,2,1,29,30,8,0,2,0,0,6,2,2,2,2,1,0,0,9,11,5,1,7,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,13,10,22,7,18,14,7,17,0,3,3,0,12,8,0,5,8,83,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234454019013114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924131090471433,0.13541905384001587,0.21752169857808296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565881762964975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104072187100093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668267889548642,0.0,0.12689949433037812,0.1447807172836269,0.0,0.0,0.15981490618094893,0.0,0.2042212946750221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571280174487572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069250819752632,0.11839422356826995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794632258861975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07263463827411172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359807573693484,0.0,0.0,0.12913866076167388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098563532435428,0.14785925738982295,0.2885482568827493,0.11236228265822076,0.0,0.1250580813653907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715676391730453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386853372312335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325367130338446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846685288717765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510321758203167,0.0,0.0,0.10531869903216114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198330043241696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816795487451947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551837048622528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20984910275070587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375888251457138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049067295230403,0.1060150984424982,0.4828254941315347,0.0,0.0,0.11925870147670516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18777299266501574,0.0,0.0,0.08511017367485534
EDAnonymous,wild_banana_cookie,2019/08/04,"Why is my body dysmorphia so conflicting Clothes sizes






I got my first pair of jeans the other day so I asked one of the workers there to help me find a size. She said I looked like a size 3 because she was a size 1. I was pretty surprised cause lately I've been feeling so fat and chunky, just not as worthy as other people. I fit into the size 3 but I ended up buying a size 7 because it was waaay comfier and I could stretch in them. In the end I'm just kinda shocked that other people see me as small. I get comments all the time but I don't believe them.",-0.07053571428571459,2.061806541666669,2.011190476190474,95.91000000000004,87.75,4.428571428571429,19.404761904761905,5.773587663045528,-0.22352380952380946,435,13,98,3,14,145,79,120,0.059000000000000004,0.847,0.09300000000000001,0.1756,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,2,6,3,0,0,9,0,7,2,2,1,1,15,15,10,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,3,1,1,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,6,4,17,2,10,8,1,13,0,0,2,0,8,7,0,1,7,62,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20108716595166928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622429305610013,0.0,0.0,0.24234127187091026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389248791482561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22096442721565213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173788482473873,0.0,0.0,0.138720120162978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810251561664624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875978030974028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19659525677812986,0.18296185953862498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237958799177096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720331540561578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14417534849550218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24263939662546766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050857941372882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806277617732987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457556613835276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982431049525796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883152941070744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046070195027404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17140489238502835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254251066432128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409207558052585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SquidgyTheJedi,2019/08/04,“I just want to focus on myself for a bit” Aka I’m gonna fast/restrict until I feel skinny enough to continue things with the guy that likes me lmao,1.124270833333334,2.9235937187500016,2.9512500000000017,92.90208333333337,80.5625,5.5166666666666675,16.916666666666664,6.42735559955562,-0.3330958333333336,117,2,26,1,3,39,29,32,0.0,0.742,0.258,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,6,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133098746162122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858169801757435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23773486138393146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655476686104535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297040011620103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31236371200320057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773216933495986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,royalmouse1,2019/08/04,"Was anyone else fat for a few years and depressed about it? I was overweight when I was 18-21ish, never quite obese but I carried an extra 30lb(I'm also 5'8). Everyone kept telling me I wasnt fat but I always felt fat and knew I was and I'm looking back at old photos of me and I hate myself so much.

My immediate family is skinny but all my cousins and grandmothers and whatnot are fat. I'm so scared its going to happen to me again and it is stressing me out so much. I read that 90+% of people gain weight back. My grandmother used to be skinny but is now 400lb. It feels like destiny for me to be fat.

Being fat and weirdly body dismorphic also ruined so many things for me. I cant take a photo without feeling fat now, I cant eat at maintenance without feeling fat. I cant even have sex without feeling fat. I'm so mad at past me. I'm at the lower end of the BMI chart but I'm still that fat girl.",0.2281676136363657,2.3990647239583325,2.502178030303032,92.6674431818182,86.65625,4.9492424242424224,20.70643939393939,6.351523495107088,0.23758541666666624,705,23,153,7,22,239,105,192,0.188,0.773,0.039,-0.9809,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,16,8,2,2,5,0,16,18,13,1,2,27,34,21,0,0,8,1,6,1,0,0,12,0,0,1,7,9,16,1,6,1,0,1,8,7,0,0,8,7,22,1,19,23,5,18,0,2,1,1,3,5,0,0,13,103,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343399452984582,0.12191427733072616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244842594410193,0.15012446883127648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22532579017245855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274788587338915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619528741408004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992395611095946,0.12239655051467292,0.0,0.1297709950753831,0.0,0.0,0.09677341108135026,0.0,0.0,0.1400037272191553,0.0,0.0,0.1381236366835907,0.0,0.2963345529618309,0.10467211415439548,0.14067975400132482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326925812678572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12956492017563154,0.0,0.0,0.14465567397699935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158103790672013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303777849943134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854572387145742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21541440680397175,0.0,0.11300331003344576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374544420552672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398675096726086,0.10157676961139923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583937095496295,0.1465571257440266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668955369057032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700904562523705,0.0,0.16783527376627738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016290765282942,0.0,0.12806273207304478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733970064289332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654405649090486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841881377177488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237128552258784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435245080186604
EDAnonymous,0lbs,2019/08/04,"I did a pregnancy test because I've been stuck at a plateau for 2 weeks I can confirm I'm not pregnant, just chubby :(",0.06946666666666701,2.2865740800000047,2.291999999999998,93.47266666666668,88.2,4.933333333333334,28.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,1.2703333333333338,92,5,20,1,3,31,21,25,0.22399999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.0,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,11,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6050609702440097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7961791395705979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YEET_throwaway_69,2019/08/04,"(TMI) I haven't shat in a solid week. My stomach looks like a ball. Any tips for shitting???? Never though that I'd have to ask other people on how to shit, but here we are. :|",-2.0262280701754385,-0.20246713157894547,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,101.89473684210527,2.533333333333333,11.596491228070176,3.1291,-1.8871192982456144,131,2,32,0,6,44,34,38,0.165,0.787,0.048,-0.5158,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,3,3,3,1,1,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244549619619937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085654545316369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125268700929335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771707838679571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545658447644087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228824944657925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6776122787998321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32428638272598986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26475757742225475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nottsarah,2019/08/04,"literally just binged a shit ton I’m not exaggerating when I say I ate 20,000 calories

what the actual fuck.

as if I wasn’t already overweight enough.",3.217816091954024,5.874367793103449,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,77.9655172413793,8.004597701149425,26.90804597701149,8.841846274778883,2.385749425287357,122,5,23,3,3,41,26,29,0.319,0.631,0.05,-0.8435,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.40595681083464014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590672712721494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42984007158173576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.384586073077585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33082056488647776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270188839960989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,t-h-r-o-w_a_w_a_ybro,2019/08/04,"Just had a terrible binge and I need advice I got back from a trip today and was supposed to go visit my boyfriend. Instead, as soon as I got home I binged on bread, fish and chips, chocolate, and an entire pint of ice cream and have been crying because I feel fat and ugly and disgusting. I feel so sick I think I might throw up and literally can't move. This is my worst binge in a really long time, and I really, REALLY need help getting back on track tomorrow because I've been doing pretty well for the last six months and don't want to fuck it up now and get back into my super destructive binging and restriction cycle and gain weight again. What can I  do tonight and tomorrow to feel better physically and mentally? Thank you in advance x",7.949604247104246,6.279472898648647,8.123281853281856,74.48040540540542,63.25675675675675,11.7003861003861,33.98069498069498,10.608840637214634,3.3310992277992275,591,19,116,12,7,194,100,148,0.16699999999999998,0.684,0.149,-0.4813,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,4,10,9,3,0,5,0,12,5,1,0,0,26,26,18,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,16,3,1,4,0,0,6,2,5,1,1,6,5,14,4,15,19,1,27,0,0,1,1,3,7,1,1,14,76,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342150249509044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857834720878777,0.0,0.2038915492703991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790703076239958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837013639868688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25367928956052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460738341825142,0.17474826301699972,0.0,0.09504431633191007,0.0,0.2675084985615967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209505289031882,0.0,0.16775177349928433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13632001004849548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479989766774087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685349855895173,0.17741142257883802,0.0,0.0,0.13348652177082376,0.1777458571883052,0.0,0.248007385506708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013957045595673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214078154620542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396883452159402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715835072855323,0.0,0.0,0.09751690638974547,0.0,0.15852057985965853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09864037852801223,0.0,0.0,0.20364891626473905,0.15036563358881355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Astraydoges,2019/08/04,"My very underweight boyfriend asked me if I skip breakfast all the time. Now he's eating chocolate and peanut butter toast and I'm just drinking coffee.

I'm on the large side of normal weight i hate it 

:(",1.763249999999999,4.461178825000005,1.9850000000000032,95.08,85.75,4.2,20.5,5.6839178017228535,-0.048400000000000436,163,5,32,1,5,49,34,40,0.163,0.8370000000000001,0.0,-0.765,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,6,4,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455578062311815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621005078623293,0.0,0.3782277661719437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649369577195804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362162748250941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21553650374861635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049866845539397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45011451889651294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iwannathrowawaytoo,2019/08/04,"If I’m not the skinniest, prettiest, most envied girl in the room, I’m literal trash and deserve to die. Just Saturday night feelings (:",4.9788,6.997975880000002,6.277000000000001,72.32350000000002,70.2,11.4,36.5,11.20814326018867,5.0694,107,6,18,4,2,36,22,25,0.28600000000000003,0.616,0.098,-0.7262,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,9,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6975865378499384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33985970192119497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6307681073267519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,melindseyme,2019/08/04,"Yepp, it's real. I have an ED. No getting around it. Disjointed ramblings within this post. It's really real.

I've finally accepted that I have an eating disorder.

I've been through huge battles with my other demons. Middle school was hell. High school was hell. I ran to the other side of the country for college, but that ended up being the same hell. It was all horrible.

But I'm medicated now. I know the warning signs that I need an adjustment to one of my medications. I have a wonderful husband and two kids. I garden and arrange playdates. I even bake and fold laundry sometimes. Heck, I even knit. I have it all together.

Except that I don't.

I want to slice through my dermis and tear the fat from my muscles and bones, stick myself back together without a stomach. It's just a waiting room for brownies and popcorn to shoot the breeze until they can be turned into fat.

What I wouldn't give for my high school ""art knives"" right now. I think I still have one, actually. Down the hall in the back of a closet in the back of my craft room. (I have a craft room. Doesn't that sound like somebody who couldn't have an eating disorder?)

Today was the first day I made myself throw up twice. And sitting here, trying to figure out my next steps, I realize I never actually fixed any of my old issues. I just quieted them. And even now, though I know logically that I won't be fixed by losing weight and obtaining perfect skin, I also know that I would. I could face anything in smaller jeans.

I should wake up my husband. I should have him help me through this night. He would do it. But I also feel him dangling at the edge of his perseverance. My physical, mental, and emotional struggles have been such a draining influence in our relationship. Which of my personal demons will be the one to push him beyond the limits of his forebearance?

Everything would be better if I could carve out the rotting inner parts of myself. Perhaps my entire self.

Maybe I just need another adjustment to my antipsychotics. Do you think they sell cleansing fire in gel tablet form?",2.7982834441980766,5.353131608585863,3.820768662232077,84.87249445676275,78.87373737373737,6.8937176644493725,25.06257698940626,8.015777009494485,1.6934174180832726,1631,61,304,30,41,525,211,396,0.11199999999999999,0.831,0.057,-0.9614,0,0,0,1,0,0,56.0,1,1,3,7,21,10,4,1,24,0,36,13,7,2,4,61,53,18,0,13,9,2,4,1,0,8,4,2,6,3,21,15,6,2,13,2,1,4,8,6,0,6,8,6,57,4,44,29,5,50,5,1,0,0,20,27,4,2,18,227,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.19210045282447716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742353620682098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693350710800036,0.10320893979026873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809967584533445,0.08762059914017926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22705208863794565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705038626224484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571713652318007,0.0,0.0,0.0634770560187836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256109697881521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20143010021653995,0.0,0.11071674978472837,0.08717681023534474,0.0,0.0,0.1950296510117357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845953953581416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04976747900161114,0.0,0.0,0.10782159998915578,0.0,0.08372167060978124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05142386983186367,0.0944198253992226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065973318522392,0.2079863502535948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273186577040974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227816231921574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048086296590530604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011426109837368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313368988202504,0.0,0.0,0.0988828140126985,0.0,0.0,0.19830901910649304,0.0991909276972584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596424925147447,0.0759127115348772,0.0,0.1046778744061416,0.09236675710246192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328222732875132,0.0,0.20008936566289692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658648613082844,0.0,0.0,0.0859423670171221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942655370237962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240621852606285,0.06305464168822274,0.0,0.0,0.10567340260712677,0.0,0.08405583375647699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988391179089445,0.0,0.0,0.10268047721402156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734648803212373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860366147585365,0.0,0.0,0.10289692053822216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613566473564886,0.09670369820959056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329696929326982,0.0,0.0,0.06682524435332758,0.1070599471339341,0.09614854934014633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058054596915756526,0.0,0.0,0.11985716115964225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487979229063093,0.10673951913573136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097584355542864,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,novembermoth,2019/08/04,"a sometimes very isolating feeling being a poc in online mental health/ed spaces not really going to expand too much on my feelings becos im not trying to think of it ~*that deep*~, but still. it’s like. i *know* depressed black people exist and black people with eds exist, and exist online, and i *follow* these people so i *know* i’m not alone but i can’t help but have these nagging feelings at the back of my mind.

it feels like, even with inclusion, the worlds between ed social circles and specifically black ed social circles are worlds apart. like, on tumblr and twitter for example, specifically-black thinspo is less about being “dainty” than it is about being lean, but curvy. and that’s a cultural thing, sure. there are far fewer images of thinspo for black people that are not models or images taken from people that are just being used as thinspo. i don’t know if i’m making sense and i guess i’m not necessarily upset about it nor am i trying to start a hot debate about the visibility of POC in mental health/ed spaces (because, again, i know we exist and i already know where to find those spaces). i guess all i wanted to confess is this:

a fear of mine is that even if i lose all this weight, even if i were to get skinny, grow my hair out long, wear cute clothes, all that and more, i am still not the image of beauty. i am the image of beauty “for a black girl.” and what’s more: i am still not even the image of beauty in my own community; i am dark-skinned and my natural hair is nappy, my eyes are brown and my nose is wide. i may get skinny, but my skinny is not the same as another light-skinned, hazel-eyed, loosely curly-haired girl’s skinny.

title is a little misleading i suppose. it’s not necessarily isolating, it just occasionally reminds me of the above thoughts. i guess this is just my lamentation.",3.419572887650883,5.278882178272983,4.7226824512534815,82.51724558960076,74.01392757660167,6.680817084493966,22.830176415970286,7.42949916751922,0.9917876694521816,1438,39,270,17,30,476,167,359,0.063,0.8079999999999999,0.13,0.9728,0,1,0,0,0,0,58.0,1,0,0,1,20,10,1,2,15,0,28,10,9,2,4,63,54,25,0,4,21,0,8,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,21,16,5,0,13,0,0,3,12,5,0,0,3,16,32,5,36,46,9,28,1,2,7,0,8,18,0,8,10,188,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082915227140797,0.11808719952603862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220836853449133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228339034126568,0.0,0.06523175232898536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216677847283687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827139974547237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041498446235477,0.21642805889463745,0.07644732030203592,0.0,0.0,0.09780437605521004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181567312461677,0.0,0.060815735869647426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536477540834441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227491332350908,0.0,0.0,0.07172594208648125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558818764923605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29404700599930395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683771871662586,0.10725122752587056,0.0,0.0946996834945881,0.0,0.1197158077133402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142940320900076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156800020027233,0.0,0.1080486831391224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866399894400514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709331709052264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855276768407909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21816459690424392,0.0,0.0,0.10583473318148448,0.0,0.07574158965298718,0.0,0.2563728093602972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085480755326406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109208917071516,0.0685671085409949,0.0,0.08495327001233005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530430524803462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242150210713876,0.0,0.08829371195173713,0.06311673794035774,0.0,0.0,0.13030825176800356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silversurferrrrrrrrr,2019/08/04,"I’m feeling so hopeless Today (technically last night) I ate a whole ass pizza 😔. It was the only thing I ate after going a week on 500 cals, then burning it all off. It was vegetable (because I’m vegetarian) but still, the fact that I went over my calorie intake is making me depressed. I see so many people who can fast for days, and not eat. I try, but I always end up eating at least a cracker. I’m so fat and disgusting. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I feel like crying.",0.9861764705882335,2.9155815392156867,3.6585882352941184,86.99964705882354,81.6470588235294,5.2564705882352944,20.9843137254902,6.2581,0.29769490196078463,375,11,78,3,10,132,77,102,0.17800000000000002,0.778,0.044000000000000004,-0.9411,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,5,8,2,1,2,10,17,8,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,7,0,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,5,4,11,1,9,12,3,19,0,2,2,1,1,7,1,0,11,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929476624953705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135324863281975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23669221234818924,0.13896533565394814,0.0,0.18559068760520087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4409751056998734,0.0,0.0,0.1908493470776336,0.0,0.0,0.1423210349016938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21790406984417166,0.1539373619813706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224609824090854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564314202921313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527155424600992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18094705738257327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383308472363016,0.21846063826183865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221129033161309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163880553926578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938515457425325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17170788473243626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208082550944104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315385577214018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20424773085725376,0.0,0.0,0.14629526153464514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284326971892736,0.0,0.0,0.199750051619846,0.0,0.2405732351109605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cairoline,2019/08/04,I had lasted so long Ive been doing so well lately not starving myself too much so I have gone without binging all summer long! I was able to keep my calorie count low but not so low that i lose control later. But this week i got super cocky and so now i find myself home needing to eat something but my frozen strawberries are all freezerburnt and the only chocolate i have is milk (aka too sweet for a binge). And ofc my car happens to be broken right now so my ONLy option is to order some breadstick things from dominoes. High calorie AND out of my budget! 🤪😔🙃,2.0638814229249007,4.172704400000004,3.262924901185769,90.2897233201581,78.91304347826087,4.529644268774704,22.62845849802372,4.851557810540192,0.14639130434782646,446,14,87,1,11,144,80,115,0.11900000000000001,0.775,0.105,-0.1884,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,11,6,0,0,2,0,11,2,0,1,2,19,16,13,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,2,2,1,0,1,2,3,3,1,0,5,1,15,3,9,10,4,17,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,2,9,63,18,0,0.21155294146975515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372746125700665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164714733732961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933555558986747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919821302235571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18707556747738613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235172977252638,0.21220484926668087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880379746488266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724438828928197,0.2386409325754161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744353920357989,0.0,0.2366736283579478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551575357369332,0.1568638255222354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32179108985678445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066505610953687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286378988500935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054637405837764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696950089703214,0.0,0.1902115008682116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039294862925227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neil_astrocat,2019/08/04,"thrilled that family thinks i look sickly thin came home for a summer visit and first thing my aunt (she raised me) said was “oh my god, you are so thin what happened” my response was a casual “oh yeah i think i’ve lost a little weight” (more like 15lbs but she don’t need to know that) and no more than 30 seconds later as we were talking about something else she cuts me off with a “i’m sorry but i just can’t believe this you look.. you’re just so... i mean you look..” me: “i’ll?” and she said “yes you look i’ll. “ and it made me feel so good. like i don’t want to just be thin i want people to think “damn she looks too skinny” and that makes me feel guilty, but when i eat at all i feel guilty too soo.. a ha ha",-2.1563461538461546,-0.4163783012820481,-0.08846153846153726,106.38346153846157,104.44871794871796,2.912820512820513,10.487179487179487,4.713530739802397,-1.9763512820512816,539,7,140,2,26,174,92,156,0.12,0.706,0.175,0.7256,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,1,4,0,2,10,10,2,0,5,4,8,4,1,2,1,28,32,13,0,3,6,1,7,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,7,8,3,0,8,1,0,2,4,3,0,2,8,14,26,7,10,23,3,12,0,1,5,0,15,6,1,0,6,79,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16179601303072566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424825314786434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469459042195547,0.11996529610932714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537998337998636,0.0,0.21783617825015464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215211705996888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045081337207685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699127507182192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440496198845266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789227007994335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031834021765524,0.14393203072464347,0.0,0.0,0.6029689345104796,0.0,0.15676410239845587,0.0,0.0,0.13588450046249842,0.09585884744154492,0.0,0.0,0.15643022044547164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648283730648296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995590741162235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732064558221631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105557535888631,0.0,0.16075637953203448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542593888809614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954061692238465,0.2760528732645572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940636436593742,0.0,0.0,0.17487474716895676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConsistentDelay4,2019/08/04,"Drunken thoughts I'm drunk

I shouldn't be drunk because alcohol has calories

This is the reason I've never had a relationship, I'm a fat ass

All the guys who've shown interest just want to fuck me

I've eaten so much

I spent ten minutes talking to my reflection, telling it how much I hate it dear God I hate it so fucking much

I'll never be good enough for a relationship 

Never

So to make up for it I just won't eat until I disappear 

Then I won't have these thoughts anymore

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk",-0.080277777777777,2.248178935185188,2.077259259259261,92.9936666666667,92.98148148148148,5.102222222222223,22.014814814814816,6.742157984588678,0.6608770370370367,407,16,88,6,15,136,67,108,0.19399999999999998,0.684,0.122,-0.8762,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,5,0,9,9,2,3,4,15,23,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,6,1,6,0,4,2,1,2,6,4,0,1,5,0,10,4,9,13,5,8,0,0,0,3,6,1,3,0,5,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17393682956948048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141036926137906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921463983251727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402000138461396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16654017598536794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681706128529526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009308804838569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651213868876874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115417932522955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213760098963988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864099552456244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35893349684921994,0.0,0.3765827349026999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734043162809956,0.0,0.3494783956964629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616344603518628,0.14225605093309604,0.14984399811719082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584204098752292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599779553022128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spoop_666,2019/08/04,"Hey, this is my first post... Uh I don't really know how to do this so...

Do you guys know how to tell someone about your ED cause I'm struggling with it and I'm scared and I wanna talk about it to one or two friends I trust. So um yeah...",-2.047301587301586,-0.25446107407407226,0.3111640211640232,106.57166666666667,94.92592592592592,3.8264550264550254,13.269841269841269,5.288315135182226,-1.5340603174603171,178,3,50,1,7,59,38,54,0.102,0.784,0.114,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,6,4,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,10,8,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,6,2,7,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30255284361638396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505182919001149,0.0,0.0,0.2275451764942911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916207904836693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237206308378811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957415942673185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28206844354930344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867685053410585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948655820521288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495455716491851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30789591974536706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367237649840881,0.2574231844181525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877029349024156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mbrace256,2019/08/04,"I’m staring at a piece of cake... Do I eat it? Do I eat it and purge? Do I just stare at it? 

[the photograph is proof](https://imgur.com/a/XjZkMz2)",-1.503,0.03718870000000152,0.5199999999999996,100.24000000000002,112.0,4.666666666666667,18.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.1463333333333332,111,4,26,2,6,36,20,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,5,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,welpthatreallysucks,2019/08/04,"Curious, do you add exercise neg calories to your tracker? If so, do you eat them or no?",0.6016666666666666,2.797832500000002,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,85.1111111111111,8.044444444444443,31.222222222222207,8.841846274778883,3.1186888888888893,67,4,14,2,2,24,16,18,0.105,0.767,0.128,0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bubblewrapmcthousand,2019/08/04,"i think i have lax bulimia .. so. right. i think i have the non-purging (?) type bulimia which is apparently a thing according to google. i have restrictive days i have maintenance days and then i have binge days. i take very large amounts of lax during binges, and this is considered a type of “purging” apparently.. very often large amounts of undigested food will come out. like. literally not digested. totally identifiable. so yeah god. i dont know",2.0784166666666657,4.669921675000001,3.305000000000004,80.86666666666669,101.0,8.633333333333333,26.58333333333333,8.447377352677275,3.342108333333334,354,17,63,13,15,114,51,80,0.0,0.8909999999999999,0.109,0.7949,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,1,9,2,0,0,1,11,14,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,5,13,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,37,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305248907644709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5177647093495056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136404256963249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235986840870765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707309803774274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074218696449294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285400272353224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012116601000868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779017617913254,0.3429511904854479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416174791463373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbassb,2019/08/04,"Rant about supportive unsupportive bf So I told my boyfriend about my disordered eating yesterday, and he was really supportive and helped me find a doctor in my area (we hold long distance). He was really sweet about it and I felt safe to talk to him, and then this morning he said he wanted me to be fat, and called me chubby. what the fuck is wrong with this dickhead. i hate the word chubby bc for some reason it triggers me more than the other word. i told him many times that i don’t like it when he fat shames people, and that i’m not comfortable when he does that to me either. he still continues to call me chubby though. why. jesus christ he’s so sweet but he can be so dense and stupid sometimes",2.565842880523732,4.657086184397166,3.3690780141843994,90.22615384615385,77.22695035460994,6.891653027823242,20.066012002182216,7.882392219407189,0.6791861429350794,556,13,116,9,13,176,88,141,0.132,0.7929999999999999,0.075,-0.8557,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,10,12,3,1,4,0,7,5,2,2,0,22,17,15,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,10,9,3,2,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,4,17,7,12,9,3,10,2,0,0,1,20,2,1,1,9,70,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3542059769751184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987787889217906,0.1775245492445652,0.1517796755302505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17747377891702773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166530874767304,0.0,0.15852223226089776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16034371357032434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17123740440445168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625406662935504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473467233419664,0.0,0.0,0.15349011800339493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758422845907396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024237900831075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22222191274567327,0.17832657249776546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498242124136353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715379089499514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851046912887413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.393638328831572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940557015396074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040522482050174,0.0,0.10113503353278808,0.0,0.0,0.3314612444413199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230018936661496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650382206270294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18963086563802936,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obscurebicycle,2019/08/04,"I want summer to end bc I restrict better at school I’m a college student at home for summer vacation and it’s killing me

My parents keep too many good snacks in the pantry and I can’t control myself. I’m at work all day restricting well and the second I get home I have to eat everything. I feel absolutely disgusting and constantly bloated AND I’m still not pooping so wtf

I want to be back at school already. I restrict SO well bc of my limited meal plan and don’t keep snacks in my dorm. I need control back in my life",0.4386369593709034,2.8395271559633035,2.49413499344692,91.04809633027523,89.36697247706422,5.6830930537352575,24.29947575360419,7.1686216300943375,1.2012668414154652,416,18,87,7,14,139,67,109,0.19699999999999998,0.6940000000000001,0.109,-0.9195,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,6,8,6,2,0,3,0,4,6,1,2,1,20,14,8,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,6,4,8,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,0,1,15,4,12,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,8,52,16,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275600051989227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546894733441615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646958654643955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789667974735163,0.3714939297695045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680547840703697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946153120931404,0.0,0.0,0.1466823054999628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884060528883172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373796356129595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652498025913714,0.0,0.0,0.1389067587684637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322429336891048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944055640489692,0.18322417839897104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697603906729352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790369247742254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122798554701517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838915614947716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33521461093550536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322572626239796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953634710305485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978085905588447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056687531188418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soymilklatte_,2019/08/04,"Why can I not have the same drive and motivation for something other than my ED If I put in even half as much effort in literally anything else maybe I could actually be a productive member of society but lol no let’s just use my existence to do nothing but think about food and eating yet refusing to do it so I can lose weight, what a life 🙄",2.5969483568075127,4.307303647887324,4.813732394366198,81.62698356807516,75.90140845070422,8.67699530516432,25.91784037558686,9.2995712137729,2.212829107981221,273,10,57,7,6,95,60,71,0.14,0.787,0.073,-0.7111,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,3,1,8,4,0,2,0,13,10,7,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,1,6,0,9,7,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,43,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.2422020465673657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042429403396282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19816312643318548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539649532075399,0.20733467172662828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393013801489836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30011779571298064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537957098126203,0.17530712767745688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27766617935719035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24934475241553564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245152797232486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381493333617285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495040418494633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910722652403371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590330251434815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143603745462775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30223405829391176,0.0,0.0,0.2239569478347431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,acciousername,2019/08/04,Dae get weirdly proud when people are worried about you?? I just found out one of my coworkers told a friend of mine that she thinks i’m getting too skinny and is concerned but i’m so happy about it??? I hate that i’m worrying people but at the same time i feel so validated idk it’s weird ((sorry if formatting is weird i’m on mobile)),2.0994761904761887,3.754583614285714,3.962857142857143,87.43047619047621,77.14285714285714,6.9523809523809526,23.095238095238088,7.793537801064563,1.0476666666666667,263,8,56,4,6,89,52,70,0.22399999999999998,0.607,0.17,-0.3461,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,7,7,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,10,14,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,7,3,7,12,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197572898586973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861866612342149,0.20165755874772096,0.0,0.2727364473541034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277852589098065,0.0,0.2576957406315801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768687800777572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619063138876245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921820500381599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724622824541308,0.0,0.0,0.15219844905190572,0.0,0.0,0.2494085657687958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5301415923781896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KittenQuinzel,2018/12/23,"I ATE PIZZA WITHOUT PURGING Hot damn, it's been years y'all. ",-0.7892307692307696,1.3575258461538446,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,98.23076923076924,2.6,21.884615384615387,3.1291,-0.3081999999999998,48,2,10,0,2,16,13,13,0.0,0.799,0.201,0.3089,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8315226648341669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5554908260872412
EDAnonymous,BabiiGhoul,2018/12/23,Christmas dinner How do I survive Christmas dinner when I’m in my peak restrictive mode ,4.059374999999998,7.327606187500002,4.492500000000003,77.1025,80.875,5.7,33.0,7.1686216300943375,2.870725,73,4,10,1,2,23,13,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lizbites,2018/12/23,"I asked my grandma what she likes about me and she said “you’re nice and thin!” 😭😭

What about my college degree, grams? 

😭😭

What about my sense of humor? 

😭😭

Et tu, nana? Et tu???",-3.5047500000000014,-2.461747975,-0.6600000000000001,108.70000000000003,116.25,2.0,10.0,3.1291,-2.3335,131,2,36,0,8,44,25,40,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.21899999999999997,0.8382,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,16,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6581778035409808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34395599958509365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696986257081534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chickenboooooty,2018/12/23,"I ""like"" my body shape but i still want to be skinnier I used to be highly overweight/obese and I lost a ton of weight and now I'm a healthy, normal weight and I know that other people like my body and find me attractive but I want to be skinnier

Like I actually kind of like the way I look right now

But at the same time I don't feel FINISHED yet.. like if I stop losing weight I'm basically just giving up and I'll get fat again

I want to be a lower weight so that even if I gain a bit eventually I still won't be FAT (like obese/overweight)

I'm just so scared that if I stop trying to lose then I'll end up gaining weight without realizing and then it'll be too late and I'll be 200lbs again",0.09791666666666644,2.0112382483660163,2.1759763071895435,96.49376838235297,84.8169934640523,5.13218954248366,18.05923202614379,6.322622252153567,-0.3843199346405228,544,13,133,5,16,182,76,153,0.14400000000000002,0.637,0.21899999999999997,0.8845,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,5,13,12,0,1,6,0,10,9,4,1,0,28,23,17,0,7,9,0,6,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,7,7,2,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,7,17,8,11,13,3,22,0,3,1,0,1,6,0,3,21,78,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.10797385603072228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079601520153185,0.2458039793275339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979988981719812,0.0,0.0,0.07308017984147777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05594559027554006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112780344443956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05780760467901165,0.10614105780809052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169028386370132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522005766855432,0.060807765512123024,0.0,0.124812722402097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32433424005682504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291418871735084,0.2475675866444439,0.12078241979565107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840890580169538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670752232425944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449048515108698,0.0,0.0,0.11077525163974423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672296557127187,0.1850088572031998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451816661033358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512089853964837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955620175303261,0.0,0.0,0.1957844012485785,0.08782509228457723,0.0,0.6736808619148299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665812477156296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cinnabeom,2018/12/23,"i told someone about my ed after 6 years of hiding it my two best friends and i were high last night and we went to get food at a restaurant. halfway through i started feeling super guilty and i left to purge in the washroom. i was so high and i forgot to put my hair back down (tied it in a ponytail to purge) when i came back. my friends didnt say anything so i didnt think they knew or anything.

we got back to my friends place and they went into the basement. i went to the upstairs washroom to finish purging because i still felt like shit. when i finished, they were waiting outside the washroom for me and confronted me about the purging. i kept trying to deny it but they said they heard me... i was so embarrassed AND HIGH so i was extremely confused and i couldn’t believe this was happening to me.

theyre my BESTTT friends and ive never told anyone irl about my ed. one friend said she had a feeling all along just from seeing the way i look at food in general, and the other said she knew i purged after i came back from the restaurant washroom because my eyes were watery and my hair was up in a ponytail. i’m usually sooo careful about these things but i guess i was just so high i wasn’t careful enough. i was able to hide it for 6 years!!! and i just. wow :( 

they were super nice though and i cried a lot telling them about my ed but i was also really evasive of the topic. it was really comforting how accepting and non-judgmental they are but at the same time i just feel like... so upset that they found out. i really love them and they know so much about me but this is one of the things i never wanted anyone to know.

just... this probably isnt even a big deal but i’ve been silently struggling for 6 years and its just crazy to me that someone else knows now.
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EDAnonymous,ashdust,2018/12/23,I've never intentionally purged wish me luck! Just ordered a £15 of pizza and Pepsi to try binging and purging tonight. Haven't eaten for 5 days and I'm pretty sure I'll be in the correct state of mind to kill myself this evening after lowering myself another bar :) I'm genuinely happy to be alone in my 2 bed house now so I can do whatever gross stuff I want to do. I'm supposed to be working tomorrow but I'll probably skip it if I'm still alive. I had all these plans to do right by myself after my breakup but he's fucked me up irreparably. Now it's just a waiting game ,1.720044709388972,3.5086384262295134,4.017421758569299,86.01379284649778,78.672131147541,7.059314456035768,25.845007451564822,8.00094639256281,1.5887442622950825,456,18,96,8,11,158,85,122,0.13,0.7509999999999999,0.12,-0.5058,1,1,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,2,0,3,0,9,4,0,1,4,18,18,7,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,10,3,15,13,1,15,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,2,9,57,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468288775656233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499005459413179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369745088048384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15740889746443204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22032409868092198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25369733691750496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27499065412484197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636670850559801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406364628357223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838079927475457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424583269044749,0.2569505497058462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20352499297039395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903236091342395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728207431971501,0.0,0.0,0.22461489991827105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180444330204322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056801177429215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740576054760958,0.0,0.0,0.17350066375285128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7kgs,2018/12/23,how do i make my face smaller im frustrated bc im kind of achieving my body type goal but my face is not losing weight at all. it looks fat/round and not proportional to my body. i want to cry :(,-2.312267441860463,-0.7943060930232555,0.5015988372093041,101.03984011627908,109.93023255813955,4.010465116279072,14.67732558139535,5.985473137389443,-0.7595558139534879,150,4,38,2,8,51,32,43,0.21100000000000002,0.7020000000000001,0.087,-0.789,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,5,4,2,1,8,5,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,4,5,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,19,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5532054096286422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735344256510381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5379640398158179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593137807384082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091122852051295,0.2785872884464583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622135485226186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468771853462639,0.0,0.0,0.3032366670337494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnusualYam1,2018/12/23,"first post? been lurking on proed + this for about a year now... thought I never would need to post and just liked seeing others being supportive and never felt like my problem was as bad as these people with absolutely horrible lives and families but here goes! So i'm home from the other side of the country at college for the holidays and spend all my time with my super skinny best friend who I love and who honestly is pretty disordered too. My mom sees me after I come home and tells me I look disgusting now and that my head is too big for my body like a bobblehead and has been trying to force feed me since I got home and doesn't let me leave the house unless I eat everything she wants me to eat when she wants me to eat it. I'm sure she means well but it's the worst feeling to have food literally shoved down your throat and for the first time I wanted to purge (tried but it didn't work lol what CAN i do right) anyways she recently saw my friend and that day was like oh i thought you were skinny but she's even thinner than you! she's so pretty! and I was thinking she'd get off my ass after that but today morning she force feeds me an omelet with THREE eggs (i said i just wanted one egg and I would get it myself when I was hungry and I wasn't supposed to go over 600 today since I ate so much yesterday) in it telling me how ugly I look like this and that I need to put on weight and go back to how i was a year ago (when at the time she would tell me i look fat randomly when she saw me)and I currently feel ridiculously big and cant even throw up because I don't know how. For reference i'm not even close to underweight i'm 108 and 5'3 (idk if we're allowed to use numbers so let me know and ill delete that) and said friend is taller than me by an inch or two and weighs about the same so idk why she looks ""really good"" and i look malnourished l m a o love asian parents who don't think you're good enough no matter what!! anyways we had a really good relationship before i started having all my food problems or whatever and i don't know if she's being insensitive or this is just standard asian mom roasting and i'm suddenly not able to take it ?? ik this is stupid compared to all of you who have real problems in the depth of the disorder but just thought i'd get something off my chest

this made absolutely 0 sense my bad but um help pls",5.156114631336403,4.6613693407258046,5.711716589861753,85.6634677419355,68.29435483870968,9.263133640552997,27.996543778801843,8.738905477910976,1.7114051843317974,1867,51,419,27,28,605,241,496,0.133,0.715,0.152,0.9377,3,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,1,4,0,5,30,28,3,0,17,1,35,23,8,6,6,91,84,51,0,14,19,3,4,5,3,3,2,2,3,0,25,30,15,0,13,1,1,5,12,9,2,5,22,15,65,19,46,54,8,53,0,0,9,3,36,19,1,6,32,269,90,2,0.07148626223861164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336825824028035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496852307786447,0.1193760859721444,0.04357736194916026,0.0,0.06082954395305638,0.0,0.07502042186752574,0.0,0.0,0.07940512192286553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061579085092320435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04610272523298343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385889960952565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21944487850509667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386441837491152,0.0,0.14164800601682032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424724303926571,0.0,0.0673908859241497,0.0,0.07229120421938302,0.0,0.06863802229200228,0.0,0.0,0.12161235628277813,0.17288294411140606,0.0,0.16569032662863212,0.0,0.11204586459902494,0.0,0.08125458046352553,0.17987785536902373,0.0571740943065536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336552884397067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04791573471280559,0.0,0.21511964897663816,0.0,0.0,0.08248554869406602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786094059722045,0.0,0.0,0.07569362990926437,0.0,0.14619909296285727,0.0,0.17462288409602444,0.0,0.06312367924573134,0.0,0.30015228002612504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903828536073433,0.06764202979568441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786949649373956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744769269607965,0.0,0.0,0.05255062806013374,0.10601231530158142,0.11026922485338794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048440941371891394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937703438720947,0.0,0.0,0.04955957327641576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692815719310295,0.14545445694369985,0.0,0.2052080955952652,0.0,0.07186343818792251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136701676205535,0.09159186020083043,0.0,0.07058405979369345,0.07674949265745984,0.0,0.061048877357473434,0.1359996111565078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393059129320195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826834968486075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05503361717406519,0.0,0.0,0.05059834435026181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112176323784218,0.0673749561547284,0.0,0.05374877262833063,0.0,0.18744643224329746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161102070749076,0.0,0.17025632137343652,0.12505264316588122,0.0,0.1355212358659142,0.0,0.0,0.0970689591570468,0.0,0.06983169084695777,0.0,0.0,0.06174117826692621,0.0,0.0,0.16865779845408896,0.0,0.0,0.08705100889545457,0.06427473490747401,0.0,0.0645052326935379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05204285030698338,0.0,0.0,0.15234536895974085,0.0,0.0,0.09206961822498698
EDAnonymous,poopnugget998,2018/12/23,"I’m home from college, and I can’t stop eating. I am low key proud because I have resisted all urges to purge, but I am constantly surrounded by food here and my family bases literally everything around what our next meal will be. I am so scared of gaining weight, and I made plans to see old friends but i don’t wanna see them now because I feel heavy. There’s a reason I don’t keep any food at my dorm.... ugh. ",3.317015503875971,4.081852872093027,4.54418604651163,88.01224806201557,72.6046511627907,8.524031007751939,25.96124031007752,8.841846274778883,1.6039751937984494,321,10,73,6,6,106,64,86,0.139,0.742,0.11900000000000001,-0.1696,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,1,3,5,5,0,1,1,0,9,5,0,2,1,13,15,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,4,5,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,4,13,2,8,12,1,9,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,5,42,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358469383815433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778330562171769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24354957916537015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21587481943889866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044092980825869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795357532542186,0.0,0.1883205083129683,0.0,0.1010071031005116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831128641096474,0.0,0.15433781638447594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20038041785543803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775601644497305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18902231748046225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21245216885792548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096195908156797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053915217006992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19999944961261296,0.0,0.3183734205376311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670123473717432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432597527030592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TotallyNotARadar,2018/12/23,"Told myself I'd just eat one, proceeded to consume 1200+ calories of malt chips Why do I lie to myself like this. My tongue literally is in pain from the vinegar. I was coming out of the story and was like ""you know, I haven't had these in a while!"". I left them in the car when I got home because I knew it was a bad idea. Five minutes later I return, get the bag, and promise myself I'll have just a few. I sit down and *fucking destroy the 3/4 of the bag*. 

Oh well. There goes my happiness.",-0.5252527472527433,1.5914753904761945,1.832380952380956,96.31120879120884,90.33333333333334,4.373626373626373,18.553113553113555,5.8734145424116955,-0.3223479853479856,376,11,87,3,13,127,73,105,0.098,0.777,0.126,0.2481,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,0,5,9,2,0,9,0,8,3,0,0,0,10,15,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,4,1,2,7,0,15,5,11,8,1,14,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,7,58,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184943589924144,0.15951951662888256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254167175111681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677670192354806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24192169963285806,0.13671855723279666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20929178544850688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785663997123484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26248936670499456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29540823387763543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438141229952413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284319325002711,0.0,0.0,0.25569017322193355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773231606288425,0.0,0.2784491422683769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500493029385191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23528442717233816,0.0,0.2361281885606443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orangeinfusedbanana,2018/12/23,"most gLaMoRoUs ed moment? i’ll start, my laxatives kicked in while i was in the bath",1.382941176470588,3.89186994117647,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,84.88235294117645,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.5173764705882355,67,2,14,1,2,21,15,17,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.5563,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hemingweights,2018/12/23,"Roasted cauliflower Do y’all know why roasted cauliflower has so many calories in MFP? I know there is some evidence that cooking raises the calorie count of foods, but cauliflower going from 25 kcal raw (per cup) to 193 kcal  roasted? Is this just taking oil and extras into account?",6.001470588235293,8.165017725490202,6.50406862745098,71.14080882352944,67.82352941176471,8.237254901960785,34.318627450980394,8.841846274778883,3.3277803921568623,228,11,35,4,4,74,44,51,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,7,8,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,8,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5203242807592315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445511982421616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729667190792919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362598584846602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235344192369348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882816662914244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaggedDoll,2018/12/23,"Home for the holiday And holy shit I did not realize how much my body changed with the weight I've lost until I saw my reflection in my old bedroom's mirror. Weird how things change and my eyes think they look the same. My graduation picture from May is up in the dining room and all I can think about is how fat my face looks in it. My mom has been binge watching Worth It and holy hell was it hard to sit down and watch three episodes with my family. I managed to resist the urge to eat everything in my parents' (threateningly well stocked) refrigerator. I feel mostly in control of what's going on, here's hoping everyone else's holidays are going alright, what's up?",4.130827067669173,5.582411293233084,4.8571503759398515,83.92798120300755,71.40601503759399,8.327518796992482,27.58571428571429,8.841846274778883,2.0011660150375943,534,19,108,10,10,172,91,133,0.098,0.8,0.102,-0.128,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,6,7,2,0,5,1,9,8,5,4,1,22,19,9,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,6,7,4,1,5,2,1,2,1,4,1,1,5,9,15,3,19,13,4,15,1,1,6,0,3,10,2,3,2,70,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050240058942297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3905170673421224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070193747369677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18886887467953,0.15419082686994728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17637172268354254,0.16588636622667716,0.0,0.17400325140677803,0.0,0.0933279360390212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20979930740575872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653451961014027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851462941420596,0.18332711689454814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099972462180535,0.0,0.2014881582946694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21617495133151032,0.0,0.0,0.1356857091361484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368304964358954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20495148388385487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18946616369526748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262509740911033,0.2365396336492543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476568423655974,0.1659573502238437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psyche_warfare,2018/12/23,"Advice, please! Hoping to holiday restrict by bite count Hoping for some help with a new restricting strategy I’m toying with to make holiday eating less unpredictable and awful. I’m going to be with my partner’s family for the next few days and don’t think I can get away with one meal a day like I do when I’m alone. My thought is to limit myself to a certain amount of bites throughout the day; what do you think is a low-average number of bites one would have in a small but normal size dinner? Thinking of taking that number and spreading it out throughout the day. Want to maximize the illusion of my eating and make sure everyone sees every single one of those bites so it looks like I’m eating more than I am.

Tl;dr — how many bites of food in a small but standard meal? ",5.990724014336916,5.962694380645164,6.504731182795703,79.10154121863802,66.48387096774194,9.469534050179213,28.835125448028673,9.150863307647796,2.2697168458781363,619,18,118,10,9,202,95,155,0.045,0.7909999999999999,0.163,0.9222,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,3,6,0,0,10,1,10,7,0,3,2,30,28,9,0,5,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,9,7,3,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,2,8,6,24,25,6,14,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,3,9,74,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409696610592889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941033958489994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553745973627482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.372144273488117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428434244899113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215456673462626,0.13784706062851368,0.0,0.0,0.13599593166794408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444033218668825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537014111391488,0.0,0.08198654922612597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669475173774048,0.0,0.0,0.28656639298983805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409567569116767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12114246134218795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258996700919126,0.14625747336399225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932766026029714,0.15342264577309087,0.0,0.14134463058362073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932638826038292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835467476106935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495691662102345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596378512759225,0.0,0.10846591952842834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773088513672864,0.0,0.11452669862805115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508856249361428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247849840454548,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Burlesqua,2018/12/23,"Meet Big Angel: the « Fattest » J-Pop Idol Group (ASIAN BOSS) https://youtu.be/q0MKaa152dU

What are your thoughts on this?

For me, I’m glad they’re enjoying themselves and trying to challenge the Japanese beauty standards and the general obsession with thinness among Asia but that girl is obviously *still* disordered which makes me feel very sad for her.. ",6.181650246305421,9.926195637931038,4.324187192118227,78.81810344827588,75.3793103448276,8.141871921182268,30.69950738916256,8.841846274778883,3.3284748768472907,289,13,43,7,7,82,53,58,0.1,0.777,0.12300000000000001,-0.138,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,11,6,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,3,6,5,0,5,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,23,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5448595901611935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403809374839863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173390177779153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796620245648349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774214266336998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32277131989605723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922619897123791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FuijiSmiles,2018/12/23,"Should I reach out to my new friend or not? WWYD please advice :) So just made a new friend and I think she has some bulimic or B/P tendencies. It’s a little triggering for me but not too much and I wanna be there for her and support her. 

But im not sure if it’s the best idea because she might feel offended and back away from me and not wanna be my friend anymore. :( :( :(

I really care for her and I don’t want to control her ED but just as supportive friends to help each other out? I’m recovering and mostly recovered (I think) but I still don’t have a good relationship with food. I’m good at hiding it tho ;)

Anyways, we’re on a school trip together and the past two days, I’ve asked her twice how she was feeling and if she was ok after (I think) she purged. She seemed confused and questioned why I asked her. I didn’t want her to feel scared or anything, just wanted her to feel like she had someone she could talk to if she felt emotional. 

Am I doing the right thing? Am I caring too much? Should I even ask her how she’s feeling? I’ve never purged but I have definitely binged so I can’t be sure if we can understand each other.  At the end of the day, I only really really wanna be her friend and support her, only that I don’t know how to do this. ",0.004323113207547635,2.215430200000004,2.1559139150943416,94.35556898584906,88.50943396226415,5.576650943396226,17.715212264150942,7.04035,0.0890966981132082,973,25,222,15,32,326,134,265,0.102,0.648,0.25,0.9926,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,1,0,0,2,16,20,1,2,9,1,24,1,0,6,3,72,50,30,0,13,19,0,6,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,8,17,1,1,14,0,0,1,10,3,0,2,6,6,43,17,24,36,7,19,0,0,0,0,34,8,0,13,11,161,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537370558705156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679309097862103,0.0,0.0,0.08031658092606217,0.0,0.27372880544225353,0.0,0.09169852352463004,0.07504846613512019,0.0,0.05949612595315312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242530224055944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19901964972105216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946683128138206,0.07792575231372327,0.0,0.0,0.12588800352096804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978699597068292,0.08644473517018772,0.0,0.0,0.06446395735490462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24674776071572224,0.06972554369737434,0.09371141888360666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801844992365765,0.0,0.3770280447378841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372469650188368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654193016763349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017865313165116,0.10542487554822083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05363847230977576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768248761180521,0.09782095856214032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235159138697076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353830142592413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349463327452608,0.0,0.07527522774654967,0.1885256040192873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845857531767204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317035617657746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713562063998704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10933446883442298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875754040761941,0.0,0.0,0.10478600075232007,0.0,0.08334996737058861,0.0,0.0,0.0977147444515498,0.09877652989134612,0.0,0.08885148169155152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269626313458713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794358019459126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322663713859941,0.18397391205766345,0.0,0.0,0.0784472777054717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484118148845462,0.18761464380526205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534113329300126,0.1016051647405716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727012347290453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806892563734314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alexithymia115,2018/12/23,"I agreed to a homemade pizza today with my partner and I am overwhelmed I know this is dumb. But I'm in recovery and I'm trying really hard. Carbs are my fear foods. Yesterday I had pho with noodles. It went really well. Way better then the last time we went out last week for Thai. And the couple days before that I had a heafty Mexican dish with rice in it. That went okay enough. I panicked on the floor for about 20 minutes but nothing drastic lol. 

So tell me how my fuck ass brain yesterday is helping partner with the grocery shopping online and decided ""let's get pizza dough and make a homemade pizza I miss doing that with you so much!"" . 

Okay whatever. Except I went to bed bloated last night woke up bloated today despite drinking so much water my boyfriend started laughing when I got up to pee in the night because I peed for so long. And I can just feel my body especially my stomach exploding and drooping and expanding at the fucking thought of eating pizza. 

But it's fresh pizza dough so we have to cook it. We've already put it off one day because eating two fear foods in a day would've been to much for me.

I feel like nauseous and anxious and is only 6am 😭

I just want to eat my bacon and eggs and then eat nothing until dinner. Ugh kill me thx.",2.867491052254832,4.762388870078741,4.057609162491056,86.53526127415894,75.65354330708661,6.350465282748747,26.89978525411596,7.1686216300943375,1.3872897637795272,999,39,194,11,22,326,146,254,0.131,0.753,0.11599999999999999,-0.8399,0,0,1,0,0,1,20.0,2,1,0,1,11,15,4,3,10,3,12,24,5,2,0,34,31,25,1,1,6,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,9,20,17,0,5,3,1,5,0,9,1,2,10,3,26,6,29,20,4,37,0,2,0,3,7,11,4,0,21,119,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065715517808224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328343549904815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222547434265318,0.0,0.08532756408487861,0.0,0.0,0.08868604982179365,0.0,0.11138412667978707,0.0,0.1119412760317397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095358263362567,0.0,0.19400934083152646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823238944490767,0.0,0.4104298825187607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361200303164317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256769518609677,0.10140520477291068,0.07163725636279156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425084841049066,0.0,0.0,0.18540725262309696,0.052390116549271296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019994691563401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982767743770442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721294717475082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094063277700532,0.0,0.05510911479502167,0.245215182954136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025390925465958,0.0,0.048989830812766436,0.0,0.0,0.08874118121045974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693506651780072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211433848803193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820462892809234,0.0,0.19243521926763546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794967150225087,0.07626448253631446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080516355788942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847885769077713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097593027275674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764571960879758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960801187911179,0.058471792544068285,0.0,0.19010001040176674,0.0,0.0,0.06808088056288324,0.0,0.09795516600449268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059145433989739524,0.0795944901417108,0.08043542817718541,0.0,0.09016024460233536,0.3718277479148561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712332549184686,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wowimdumbasheck,2018/12/23,Anyone else have ED dreams? I had a dream last night that I met all my measurement goals and I was so happy! I woke up and I feel amazing because of it. Who else has dreams like this?,-0.5015384615384626,1.6638778205128233,1.0673846153846152,101.30261538461541,91.30769230769228,4.1456410256410265,15.492307692307696,5.6839178017228535,-0.9277630769230774,141,3,34,1,5,45,32,39,0.0,0.586,0.414,0.9589,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,6,3,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,21,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491768471471663,0.3651353495995231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21723518632060693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5953900468041481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018751612660824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37935435752954094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904828855151693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410064797725838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33442193313475976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavernalis,2018/12/23,"MY TAPE MEASURE THINGY IS GONE. My tape measure thing is GONE. Idk who took it or if I'm going crazy, but it is GONE. And I'm way too embarrassed to buy a new one. I don't use scales and amnt going to. ",-1.1641304347826065,0.5400830217391324,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,88.34782608695654,4.5495652173913035,15.72173913043478,5.6839178017228535,-0.9137165217391304,153,3,40,1,5,53,32,46,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,13,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,1,0,1,4,0,3,0,2,9,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746055525152468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032715232111709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829420767791098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774010688010941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639124143197862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606283591294967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331431040694936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hungryhungrynikkie,2018/12/23,"Boyfriend told me I don’t really have the body type he’d usually fall for Probably off topic, I just need to vent and this is the only place where I can, sorry

He knows about how I feel about my body and my troubles with eating, and reassured me he does think I was beautiful and he does love my body but usually just likes thinner, more toned girls a bit more, whereafter he kept reassuring me that he does love the way I look. It’s not that I don’t believe him when he says that, it just hurts so much that I’m not his type, that I’m the opposite of his type. I said that I don’t find myself attractive at all and then he said he’d do anything to help me feel better about myself, like help with training and a healthy diet and shit. All I can think about is how he likes thin girls and how the way I look isn’t good enough for him. It just makes me want to fast for as long as I can. 

On the bright side I now have a lot of motivation to go to the gym! ",4.885032938076414,3.7318975120773,5.6012648221343895,88.4215019762846,69.04830917874396,9.45963987703118,27.03074220465525,8.575989854853784,1.380482125603864,743,17,183,10,11,243,104,207,0.053,0.6970000000000001,0.25,0.993,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,15,14,1,0,10,0,15,8,4,5,2,34,34,17,0,2,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,10,10,2,1,7,1,0,2,6,3,0,0,5,9,29,11,21,27,8,18,0,1,3,2,26,7,1,1,10,113,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492804920849122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365761872616592,0.0,0.11277028103049765,0.13920548564430338,0.4248972400932031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33474878654324514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047230451677225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174963507214268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289435425658811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653981273420636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246561713701682,0.10694748713848932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093157169622933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649972950416706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007494837422966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18688160086597724,0.0,0.0,0.11284038430159801,0.2141488647960178,0.0,0.0,0.10840256582225972,0.2301615227012491,0.0,0.08511244189108683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373289903391613,0.09454541280785524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697542223999488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321850495537949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13747496672323373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168475717082753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24257822012322405,0.1013993147213256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088491710038644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273453496178687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340369033350385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183916036541577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808636394812361,0.0,0.0752073998796441,0.20241950204786716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patri3110,2018/12/23,Grandma feeding me Ugh so im trying really hard to restrict but im currently at my grandparents’ house and it’s hard enough estimating the calories i do eat but she keeps trying to force me to eat more (she doesnt know i have an ED or anything but she sees im pretty underweight) and i genuinely just cant. I want to get thru these next days on my break without being forced to eat and her trying to sneak butter on my bread (yeah she tried to make breakfast for me but as soon as i saw her get the butter out i intervened and said too much butter makes my tummy hurt or something). But what do i do? do any of u guys go thru this,0.7545948827292079,2.828332753731342,2.7607675906183395,92.31701492537312,83.40298507462687,5.918123667377398,20.01918976545842,7.1686216300943375,0.40691002132196186,495,14,110,7,14,166,84,134,0.099,0.8440000000000001,0.057,-0.3881,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,1,8,6,0,2,0,20,19,14,0,1,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,5,6,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,8,20,0,18,16,3,10,0,1,2,0,8,4,0,2,4,71,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876742097096376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951922564787805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366706429544433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4458469090572828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500705910573502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15176264382634286,0.0,0.08254260430499802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438093287074252,0.0,0.0,0.26021102289217113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675861709677093,0.15548122827544794,0.0,0.4706487506414218,0.0,0.0,0.1290949926352021,0.0,0.0,0.07981949183445979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389616455386285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676729048878386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544631998908257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14776015844782642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930437475769082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815543721088275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573658570018285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118119879509008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944306716146195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566565627027756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000510046015882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meganwins15,2018/12/23,"Is anyone making NY's resolutions or want to join me in happiness project goal? So...I spent way too much of 2018 focusing on dieting and food and exercise and feeling miserable and alone. 

I read recently about the happiness project and I want to set a NY's resolution of doing something that makes me happy everyday in 2019. Little things (cleaning out a file drawer) and big things (taking a risk and inviting a new friend for coffee). 

Anyone want to join me?",5.8363178294573625,7.2268894534883765,6.602325581395353,73.25643410852717,67.25581395348837,10.38449612403101,32.93798449612403,10.504223727775694,3.7890914728682175,367,16,63,10,6,121,60,86,0.075,0.65,0.27399999999999997,0.9456,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,2,5,0,2,3,0,2,0,15,10,8,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,8,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,4,11,9,1,11,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,36,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19413406274077172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621285278455761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477663932099392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22665640468615955,0.0,0.14481773170452578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5986085810710952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18786678510852087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25023885791625705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779192020739878,0.0,0.0,0.1810332860071424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874933814870016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18507701038087496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430251485664208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409335504187256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490571445614257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316756064315946,0.1487832562636775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DontMindMeJustBingin,2018/12/23,"My Christmas fix: cinnamon flavoured coca cola Came across a new flavour of coke, cinnamon 😋 It's quite nice since I'm not going to touch anything else with cynnamon this christmas: https://i.imgur.com/2KsA5a7.jpg",6.766764705882353,10.803811558823533,4.0678823529411785,78.00947058823533,80.47058823529412,7.425882352941178,33.270588235294106,8.238735603445708,3.663430588235293,179,9,24,4,5,49,32,34,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.4754,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,4,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34304483677316683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767831465833874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482376845026222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369143045158515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026113556669919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433878362380458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448354991433869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mcsweeniesweenies,2018/12/23,"Tiny wins. This morning I weighed in at 165lbs. I know I’ve still got a long way to go but coming from 300lbs I’m so incredibly proud of myself I’m actually in tears. I did my measurements like I do once a month and my body dysmorphia was gone for a moment and I actually seen how much I’ve lost, it’s so insane I literally can not believe it. 
I wasn’t sure where else to post this and you guys are awesome please stay safe y’all ",-0.9398617511520726,1.178202118279568,1.7189938556067617,94.56991935483872,97.70967741935483,5.2377880184331795,17.395545314900154,6.868970318607317,0.06579324116743468,339,10,80,6,14,116,69,93,0.092,0.652,0.257,0.9566,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,3,5,6,0,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,1,10,15,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,1,12,5,8,8,1,14,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,5,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.4371069981071682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523272032641405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24877003442408235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19292245572144606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870905660096366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728212166629055,0.0,0.1791219642307652,0.0,0.0,0.2217564690066088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308303519810344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941596671811488,0.0,0.0,0.19819831929935094,0.0,0.0,0.244479742049663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876342700504624,0.0,0.164637006215113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23851101363199764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458417773356101,0.0,0.0,0.21449260169667606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23871248484906604,0.17885543736503146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110804662980608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777697113830666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hushedbalance,2018/12/23,"Does anyone prepare food just to immediately throw it out? I hate it, I hate myself so much. 

Today morning, I made a whole breakfast- a wholesome, filling breakfast that I could've easily fit into 1200 calories if I wasn't so stupid.

I spent half an hour chopping vegetables, sauteing them, toasting bread and lightly buttering them, and finished it off with a warm, hearty latte that took me a ridiculous amount of time to make. 

I plated it up and kind of just stared at it, and only ended up sipping the coffee before I took it all back to the kitchen and threw everything away. I know that what I did was wrong, that I shouldn't cook food I can't eat, or I should have saved it as leftovers for later but I couldn't. It was like being momentarily taken over by a more powerful part of my brain that didn't allow me to do anything but throw it all away.
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EDAnonymous,geisteslos,2018/12/23,"I thought I was recovered, or also, hi, I'm back!! I left ProED half a year ago for recovery, and boî did I make big steps! I started eating, gained a bunch of weight, my heart beat is back to normal, I'm emotionally stable...

.. and as soon as a loved one tells me about their ED I feel the urge to join them. I've stopped being able to be compassionate and helpful. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. 

so with this, hi my fellow troubled souls. I officially stop considering myself 80% recovered. ",1.6744734473447345,4.088708544554457,3.4126912691269133,86.9491179117912,82.36633663366338,6.445004500450046,22.05310531053105,7.686295010490155,1.0482198019801985,397,13,81,7,11,132,76,101,0.069,0.779,0.152,0.8582,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,2,6,3,0,0,6,0,6,4,1,1,0,12,14,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,14,2,10,9,1,13,1,0,0,1,9,4,0,2,8,50,16,0,0.21533409407030965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19088068187755927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17220259722996126,0.17917521632111566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33115725311937194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034053644944496,0.0,0.2422218726524056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887938802754027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23721478159887216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551719382665566,0.14433390420743406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339611232664473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19434742710279573,0.0,0.14373717988857546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21098169243169915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591595503219867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241458010146489,0.0,0.0,0.3600578893304835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882114894518417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709512176401092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622189152349397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866809657568333
EDAnonymous,getoily,2018/12/23,Today Sucks Did anyone else of a terrible day today regarding their ED habits? I ended up getting incredibly anxious and binging on a ridiculous amount of calories. I feel so terrible right now. ,6.124313725490197,8.91256711764706,6.877058823529412,65.94343137254904,69.0,9.239215686274509,37.80392156862745,9.725611199111238,4.709933333333334,158,9,21,4,3,52,29,34,0.35100000000000003,0.649,0.0,-0.9099,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652784976111552,0.0,0.2260845761893172,0.3312967144061769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852545719880344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701063681080137,0.0,0.2863803924063418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16348877788805935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893010861196855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761278210367744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6129708715976026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kalenurse,2018/12/23,"Help me decide whether to fast or try to eat healthy the two days between today and Christmas Went to a holiday party tonight, ate perhaps a million cookies (there were 8 different kinds...) and three slices of pizza, felt so nauseous that I purged (but on purpose. I was disappointed in myself since I had planned on eating more, above my regular 1200 cal intake but NOT purge. I hadn’t purged in a week. I didn’t purge yesterday even though I deeply wanted to) 

I had originally planned to fast on the 23rd and 24th to save up my calories for Christmas but now that my ED has kind of spiraled I’m starting to think that’s a bad idea. But I am so scared to eat because not eating at all is easier for me than to eat and not binge (and subsequently, purge). 

So, as the title says, should I risk the possibility of eating too much and try to eat for the sake of trying to eat like a regular functioning person (1200 cal is my regular intake) or play it safe and fast? (I just want to make it clear I’m not asking on how to “better ED!!” but rather better my eating patterns since I was getting closer to recovery this month and that’s obviously the direction I want to head towards) ",6.976831187410589,6.018143703862663,7.327564377682402,77.1107743204578,64.7510729613734,10.341773962804007,34.008941344778265,9.516144504307137,2.9274752503576544,925,34,184,15,12,303,131,233,0.059000000000000004,0.778,0.163,0.9706,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,4,11,12,0,2,11,0,12,12,1,3,3,38,25,22,0,5,14,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,8,11,1,4,2,0,1,6,4,0,3,10,2,20,8,34,14,3,23,0,1,0,0,4,10,0,2,13,121,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501802072237967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593234888955137,0.055437090674626655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086072238169696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05864974024976634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501450535507924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8375026676898625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600659991197245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731809580322931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047513177160959236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933322095004311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060956166486492575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266187732755863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894031431642969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04442942035265938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060704153439893285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07258863290538571,0.0,0.06685246197732153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940660481344243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252287031263976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232032618004328,0.09104830039982546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504554872565989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06436885755048558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058271637320328085,0.08934955615310787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620190283433306,0.0,0.0,0.18522991467767808,0.0,0.0888366253551953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091894818214916,0.0,0.07294778100762557,0.0,0.0,0.08430367607325348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Roseemacculate02,2018/12/23,"Okay, so where do you get bronkaid if it's not over the counter in your state ? Read that it's not available over the counter in Oregon without a prescription:(( Maybe I'm wrong? If not, where would you suggest looking ? ",4.8585714285714285,6.1652086666666674,3.6366666666666654,93.925,69.47619047619048,6.552380952380951,33.04761904761905,6.42735559955562,1.5941333333333336,172,8,36,1,3,49,31,42,0.08800000000000001,0.867,0.046,-0.4098,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,3,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,2,0,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22044033849756609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543138541340742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238841040905992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42204289370697795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067242235465856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997260525607486,0.4613128130664328,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Badroots,2018/12/23,"I’m so tired Incoming sad rant because I am so sad and tired

I’ve been struggling really bad lately. I’ve expressed my state to the people close to me and got met with indifference. I feel caught in a weird state of “attention-seeking” but I just.. I want someone to care. At what point do people give a shit? 

I try to find distraction recoveries. It works, and then when the thrill of it is done I end up spiraling again and feeling more pathetic each time. 

I feel like I have no one to talk to and I just become sadder every day. I don’t have any real friends. When I expressed how I feel it’s like I’m not taken seriously. 

I’m so tired. 

It fuels something in me that tells me I’m worthless, that something deep down in me is flawed and I am utterly alone because of who I am at my core. 

I’m so tired of crying from some inexplicable sadness and loathing that I cannot explain. 

There’s that voice in me that tells me it’s because I’m not “bad enough” and end up triggering myself constantly. 

:( /feels",1.4687910309754992,3.646331228155344,3.24348127600555,89.28027508090616,81.37864077669903,6.448081368469719,23.401756819232546,7.62386473244151,1.0823853906611192,787,28,168,13,21,262,112,206,0.311,0.594,0.095,-0.9948,0,1,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,11,16,1,2,4,0,12,5,1,2,0,28,31,17,0,1,5,0,5,2,1,0,4,1,0,0,12,11,0,0,7,0,0,1,5,11,0,1,6,6,24,5,21,25,4,25,0,4,0,0,10,12,1,1,12,102,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462377778743945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182733615857764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009381250921812,0.2200529528645509,0.13289309829607587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226826702231277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003209074013974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321749323278595,0.07760176667307828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313757671632368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21315022817644785,0.12433124790791435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138174024950504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042078930257514,0.17192505153220372,0.0,0.0,0.1099778404719256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296530738000924,0.0,0.0,0.11542982172605915,0.0,0.0,0.09623749363405318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573550700867426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175726097658523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153753624691135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684091547205324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374908967616705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695989158437127,0.07708535806222762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235152193514938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195373565419727,0.18526913094768266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579321285194042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671528931069634,0.21034438817713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016437016661542,0.5531984890043392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169498312341142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097271938419804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760039902446164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JayLenoBlows,2018/12/23,"I have lanugo on my face I HAVE LANUGO ON MY FACE ~~I've got blistahs on mah fingahs~~ I have lanugo on my face... god that's depressing. I guess I can shave it off, but now I know it's there. What a fucking bummer. I want to weigh even less but my body is screaming for nutrients. As always I feel completely torn between recovery and annihilation ",1.1068115942028989,3.6889591014492784,3.1333333333333364,86.25333333333334,88.42028985507245,6.544927536231885,22.159420289855074,7.793537801064563,1.410055072463769,274,10,54,6,9,92,47,69,0.17800000000000002,0.772,0.051,-0.8612,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,5,6,4,0,0,7,11,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,12,0,9,10,1,6,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,1,1,38,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976074206535527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3972871725286519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375006823517837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080578813919825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362355409911287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18084707527374064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306571831940519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28605880475823925,0.0,0.39401029194804105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196564313516714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109611390617275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ihate-chicken,2018/12/23,"Forced recovery is impossible I’m just having such a hard time.
I feel like shit, I look like shit.... and it’s only been 4 days!!!!!!

Help I don’t wanna gain weight ",-0.9908823529411775,1.1193510882352946,1.6384705882352968,95.42711764705885,96.94117647058823,5.072941176470589,12.682352941176472,6.742157984588678,-0.6259811764705878,123,2,29,2,5,42,29,34,0.204,0.484,0.312,0.6449,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,4,7,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,3,2,1,6,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,4,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706869315124512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545064100858325,0.2183007338489236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273732536674596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20481850418852748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29857413755215395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25660356203323403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324013139192912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6273306370570729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818151992294867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.372104435775336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,merkupferkup,2018/12/23,gah I can’t stop eating Home with my family doing early Christmas and they’re all overweight and keep so many snacks around and got me so much candy and ORDERED A FUCKING PIZZA at 11pm and my stomach hurts so bad but I can’t stop 😭😭😭😭 I’ve had such a bad week because I felt like I was worried about my heart from restricting (lol my last post) so I feel like I’m overcompensating and now I’m just going crazy. I have to find a balance and get back on track tomorrow slash RIGHT NOW  and not put another damn thing in my maw ,0.1832995951416976,2.333083956140353,2.32122807017544,94.03949392712549,86.63157894736841,5.2620782726045885,19.29554655870445,6.67199483983844,0.08016275303643773,417,12,95,5,13,140,80,114,0.242,0.68,0.078,-0.9568,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,2,0,3,1,6,7,2,0,1,21,15,13,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,10,4,4,3,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,4,2,12,2,8,11,2,18,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,11,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20070400069237526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039032496829307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717802110230313,0.3196290370660109,0.11667822850999875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958542886666562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18043885255198927,0.0,0.09677971850398688,0.13673920427881225,0.18377805565201166,0.0,0.17493997832673497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769501058416517,0.10000079864508132,0.0,0.1087794221902182,0.0,0.15308343006478914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268149077886764,0.0,0.0,0.191994026543489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049021631390971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012885436251554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601997571591208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870208554377495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940538246054935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070411596501864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833123220385506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924140950107736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345814762500638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200449764259304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716045069094548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353291015325102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19438026397683253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vickyAMA,2018/12/23,"That bad smell from suppositories... I literally feel like I'm the only one but long after I've moved on from my laxative abuse I'm still addicted to using fleet suppositories to help me... You know.. #2.... And now it's the holidays and I'm home and don't have those suppositiories anymorr but my body doesn't know how to respond.... I can't poop. I can't fart. Just silent horrible gas as my body waits for something else. Like more suppositories.

Please tell me I'm not the only one.",0.8569951923076928,3.4057469270833347,3.269166666666667,84.7771153846154,90.14583333333334,6.703846153846158,19.884615384615387,7.882392219407189,1.0700201923076929,379,12,80,9,13,130,64,96,0.124,0.727,0.149,0.1324,0,0,1,0,1,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,5,4,3,2,0,13,14,7,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,0,1,5,1,0,2,0,2,9,2,9,14,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,42,12,0,0.0,0.2453789815010934,0.0,0.2257689680582802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291938907532495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600816004491071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17300501492857895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471570388102844,0.14795188749797505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13881439496294196,0.0,0.20773763285564925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22763288172216964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20235665922906396,0.0,0.0,0.1832764950181256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011393889885966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280671892365969,0.3150169259180262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22733300382353264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943527353653136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538988721537667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101404640023505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886742959890378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bravado105,2018/12/23,scale discrepancy??? super freaked out because im home for winter break and the scale at home says im THREE LBS heavier than my own scale :// now debating which is accurate and scared that ive been tricked into thinking im lighter than i actually am all this time,3.064117647058822,5.509633450980395,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,77.23529411764707,7.217254901960787,29.807843137254906,8.238735603445708,2.262400784313725,210,10,41,4,5,67,40,51,0.134,0.794,0.07200000000000001,-0.327,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,3,1,6,4,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.22852532084103425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275359317903188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4698020788967457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7588618361543853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622886404112896,0.23445443973970775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500527085146903,0.0,0.0,0.13655189567840015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Belarie,2018/12/23,"Omelettes Are The Root of All Evil - A Storytime So we had some bad eggs as they cracked and they need to be eaten by TONIGHT so of course put of everyone in the house to eat these eggs I volunteered because I was thinkin- “great I can eat eggs for dinner mm protein!”

I thought wrong.

So. They got ice cream and I ate like 2 bowls. I’m basically going to die. Not of fullness (disgustingly- 2 BOWLS of ice cream and my stomach doesn’t have the NERVE to pretend like that was a lot? Smh) but because WHY?!?! Would I do that?

“You know what,” I thought, “I just don’t care,” I lamented as I quickly scrolled through Nutritionix for the amount of calories in Kroger Deluxe Birthday Bash Ice Cream-

“it doesn’t matter at all truly,” I decided as I quickly did mental math to figure out my daily intake,

“I’ll just do better tomorrow” I promised as I tried to find out my (non-existing) calorie net for my TDEE and BMR.

But now I got to eat an omelette. I can’t waste it because that’s just .. wasteful .. And i’m going to enjoy the taste and that’s the worst apart about all of this truly. I’m not being forced at gunpoint to do this.

But it has so much STUFF. I was going to make it but then my mother came prancing through saying that she’ll do it. I mean, sure, okay, I already have my ingredients set out so she’ll just use my 0 cal coconut spray and my green beans and eggs-

Out comes the cheese and butter.

Yay.",0.8230493084151611,3.148802972125438,2.109832119100414,95.42639108858623,85.4808362369338,4.872516101784393,22.285819871185726,6.273863323946077,0.28132845528455297,1091,39,240,10,33,348,158,287,0.077,0.77,0.153,0.9734,0,0,0,1,0,0,41.0,1,1,3,1,13,15,2,0,10,3,23,12,1,3,4,45,43,23,1,2,10,1,0,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,15,16,11,0,7,1,0,6,6,5,0,0,12,7,34,10,36,26,9,23,0,0,4,0,9,10,0,2,8,152,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415035965756672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12420082038959453,0.2720315745196876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155811706371942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701314460417489,0.15166149562019024,0.0,0.0,0.12813576228477613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437998950920626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45662803766221205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213789640165728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595566301838274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536157590977743,0.0,0.2379394284903256,0.16399843492951496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716386114465069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817496256744969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534438978730888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646272860307564,0.0,0.0,0.09929240657703453,0.0,0.0,0.16203337995356756,0.0,0.0,0.1499059595019232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934905536407097,0.11029693614623254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953577856522446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182927167901748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028423633228007,0.0,0.0,0.1401959992235438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361832591945821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009921230327693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847305103237822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422458534665904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566839889953876,0.16263580003173825,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beefbitch69,2018/12/23,"I'm so out of control I just... can't stop eating. I hate how it's just so easy (I don't mean easy ig I mean possible) for people to stop eating so much. I get so discouraged from posts on loseit and progresspics. I see those people and I'm like wow. If I had any self control I could be like that. I've come to the revelation that I'm just completely and utterly out of control. Guess I'm just doomed to be a fat bitch xoxo. I probably won't eat tomorrow and then eat 6,000 calories the next day to compensate. ",0.7657381150959104,2.7368149816513814,2.9974812343619703,91.22130942452046,82.6697247706422,6.8994161801501255,21.835696413678065,8.00094639256281,1.0188642201834868,399,13,91,8,11,136,65,109,0.098,0.672,0.23,0.9269,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,9,7,2,0,3,0,7,5,1,4,0,23,18,11,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,7,5,6,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,1,9,3,11,13,1,11,1,2,1,0,1,3,1,2,8,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517033139210253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205539405389426,0.14673419124040096,0.0,0.47089516143852,0.11173813804739184,0.0,0.0,0.09025572867943464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.572812339237523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311773945246984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416994546137944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817097204502124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674432969889086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048916571602132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028788472733499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488376812614773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940464636960152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777182178417826,0.13403275556641026,0.0,0.1508890288383255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152148255966957,0.0,0.14599765448103394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340077831021807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,erratic_bonsai,2018/12/23,"Okay which one of y’all works at Trader Joe’s?? Because I accidentally outed myself to you today when I was buying six bags of lettuce and a jar of pickles. 

We were talking about Jewmas and how some friends and I had plans to get takeout and watch the Lord of the Rings extended trilogy all day. I said “I don’t really like fried rice, though, because if I’m gonna eat takeout I don’t want to waste it on empty.....” and trailed off there. We just kinda stared at each other in shock, each of us holding a bag of lettuce, with two Gucci bags of no sleep and malnutrition under hanging under our eyes, and you finished my sentence with “empty calories, don’t worry I got you!” 

Thanks for not making it awkward, and your cheekbones looked so sharp they could cut someone. ",6.816307947019869,6.112122576158942,7.009660596026489,78.42521937086092,64.96026490066225,8.874503311258279,33.44453642384106,7.645422480735847,2.320900000000001,603,22,115,5,8,195,109,151,0.114,0.79,0.096,-0.574,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,4,5,1,2,7,7,1,1,4,1,7,3,2,2,1,26,16,13,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,4,15,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,3,5,7,19,4,22,9,4,13,1,0,4,0,13,8,0,3,5,80,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902204635058345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900598366130347,0.0,0.0,0.15351955335901668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435798141706081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18391324165322095,0.0,0.12436886685866193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903866068066797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629693054893706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998981350297036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889711503311835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130568520887925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249794234824512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264356332107865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382172566920811,0.0,0.2016950468003404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913318298604813,0.0,0.21916016961080345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23387834106402802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256391514347225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23253571095749595,0.0,0.28633923811006484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040531095688133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17329984495021195,0.2417466010075242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imaginary_gerl,2018/12/23,"Drop yo peach usernames 🍑 mine is @imaginary_gerl 

let’s b friends ",3.1575000000000024,6.217299750000006,1.5,94.995,93.16666666666666,5.7333333333333325,31.0,7.1686216300943375,2.2582000000000004,55,3,10,1,2,15,12,12,0.172,0.574,0.254,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6028285062337174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7978707865763887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kimboislame,2018/12/23,"maintained for finals and now i can’t get back on track Ya girl finished her finals and did way better than expected so I don’t regret maintaining at all cuz gpa is forever hahahahaha :))))

But my body is so happy at maintenance and weight is slowly creeping on yikes. With the holiday season and meeting up with friends I’m so scared of gaining more and more weight and lose all the progress I achieved this year. 

Need some motivation and need to practice more discipline ahhh",5.248940609951845,7.241351325842698,5.5438523274478335,77.96146067415731,69.4494382022472,8.681219903691815,31.815409309791328,9.23628265651192,3.0058847512038525,384,17,67,8,7,122,65,89,0.08800000000000001,0.705,0.207,0.9094,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,6,5,6,0,1,2,0,6,3,1,2,2,20,10,12,0,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,9,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,6,3,11,9,6,13,0,2,0,0,5,5,0,1,7,46,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843992661874346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193736522250542,0.0,0.2433209437134374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799285265078255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924150341598668,0.0,0.11444730034714165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233188332730981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24506673561584866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32485330895259706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21931246876324928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17387582084607306,0.0,0.5335004373200126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106436619794868
EDAnonymous,captaincorgi104,2018/12/23,"How many calories are in Pringle’s flavoring???? **RED ALERT RED ALERT THIS IS NOT A SHITPOST I AM SERIOUS**

Y’all I’m really craving sour cream and onion Pringle’s, but I don’t have the 210 calories left to eat some.

I’m assuming it’s ~10 calories because normal Pringle’s are 200 cals and the flavored ones are 210.

Would I absorb any calories from the actual chips by licking them? Or would I only absorb the calories from the flavoring? 

Thanks for helping a sister out.",0.7075694893341941,2.9666709010989045,1.9284162895927608,90.77099547511312,103.72527472527472,4.7785391079508726,25.133160956690375,6.522977012572876,1.3818798965740142,376,18,69,6,17,119,61,91,0.0,0.865,0.135,0.8896,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,7,0,9,1,0,1,0,12,12,5,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,8,6,1,7,10,1,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,3,0,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2974237422195796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20726254281276432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857925753800113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118685735572333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428927670985614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33114706425204743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090016046370297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29862212612186223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065285012391456,0.2318008156298779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525146577724595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806027655034233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330174687072618,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,megastarstrike,2018/12/01,"Ads can fuck themselves First post on reddit. Apologies for any errors.

I was tapping through Snapchat and there was this ad with before and after pics of someone losing weight. I stopped on the ad before realizing I looked exactly like the before picture, and now I never want to eat again. Thanks, Snapchat! 🙃",4.179345238095237,7.173467767857139,3.6428571428571423,85.56880952380955,76.67857142857143,5.161904761904762,28.97619047619048,6.42735559955562,1.5301761904761908,249,11,41,2,6,74,44,56,0.19399999999999998,0.718,0.08800000000000001,-0.672,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,2,9,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,2,4,2,8,5,0,9,0,1,1,1,1,2,1,0,7,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16299224574901033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6118561869354513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452549239857312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038737203554675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22158250938954185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709670999903045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201272843887058,0.26814328847967345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485783680812848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22954947738587184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20308211310428434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003852121383745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22066734438408728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137088487063165,0.0,0.0,0.2918685828756774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chorusabyss,2018/12/01,"DAE feel gross as their clothes get slightly looser? i feel like i should be really proud when my favorite pants are too big for me..... but i really like wearing skinny jeans. when they get even a little looser, the fabric starts folding, and it rubs against my skin. it makes me feel fatter for some godawful reason.

i probably sound unhinged here, but does anyone get this too?",4.454476190476188,6.694509114285713,4.300000000000002,85.01333333333334,72.14285714285714,6.9523809523809526,24.523809523809533,7.793537801064563,1.3730952380952388,298,9,53,4,6,91,53,70,0.028999999999999998,0.8440000000000001,0.127,0.7166,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,6,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,3,2,0,10,11,6,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,10,3,4,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,32,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873160297730415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23620538552131154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782770289602125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409433048990166,0.1928281055500174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230600431951104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637347309618128,0.2705268273631917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18017108313204191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29101519246459673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34583031218111593,0.2775186905517776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910479947031362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Altedd,2018/12/01,"Excuses I'm sure i'm not the only one with this problem. I get really annoyed when people make excuses about their health and blame it all on outside forces, genetics, money and such... 

It doesn't cost more money or time to fast or buy/eat less calories.

To me it is extremely rude to discredit the **months** of anxiety and stress and effort I have gone through to tell me i'm ""lucky"" or how it'll be different when i'm older... Just gets old, especially during the season where I just want to be cheery. ",2.127400000000001,4.40708094,3.7680000000000007,85.85900000000002,79.6,7.6,23.0,8.548686976883017,1.6413000000000006,394,13,79,9,10,131,71,100,0.155,0.7759999999999999,0.069,-0.8406,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,8,6,2,1,3,0,6,1,0,2,2,18,15,10,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,6,2,10,11,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,8,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20724199229950316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28303862412311404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772039933113509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830739209997217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28795991493184103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180831547814476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21623421295241071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842697871156567,0.0,0.18357260118609856,0.2060358663667605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781178735109852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592200098099067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354902225637156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103213743378197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553252601176671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23678337769273025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796719566146802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978710309758468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LumosErin,2018/12/01,"“You’re like withering away!” Scariest words I’ve ever heard pertaining to my weight loss.  

Had a dance performance for a team I’m on at my university and some alums attended. I hugged one and she looked me up and down and said “You’re just withering away!”  

Me (nervous laughing): “Haha what?”  

Her: “You look so good! We were all whispering at each other like “Lumos is so tiny! She’s like a stick!”  

Whew.",0.8346853146853164,3.395269461538465,2.303659673659673,91.1761888111888,91.56410256410255,6.426107226107226,19.91142191142191,7.686295010490155,1.0268820512820511,310,10,64,7,11,100,59,78,0.027999999999999997,0.752,0.22,0.9414,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,0,3,4,9,0,1,3,1,3,2,0,0,2,11,8,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,4,6,10,7,9,4,3,10,0,1,2,1,8,7,0,1,4,39,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5238185318465043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521592602882101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338151882172773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40857207448214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.468185447536121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18889864682433846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651697282147331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394611524743529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dearpuppy,2018/12/01,"found this in the comment section of an article about EDs... what do y'all think? > However, there is no cure, only management of the disease. There is extremely limited medical understanding of Eating Disorders, yet Eating Disorders affects over 30 million people in the US and Annorexia has the highest mortality rate of all mental disorders.  I respectfully request that you consider researching and writing a series that investigates how such a pervasive and deadly disease has such disproportionate scientific research funding; whether doctors, particularly pediatricians,  are equipped to diagnose or treat; whether schools can effectively support  the 1 in 100 students exhibiting ED; whether insurance company guidelines are aligned with the needs of the patient or potentially promote harmful treatment? I am grateful for all the supportive comments but this disease needs more than supportive family and spiritual therapy.   

this woman's 9-yr-old daughter was diagnosed and treated for AN. do y'all agree with this woman's assessment of eating disorders? is there really limited medical understanding of it? as someone who has cycled through AN, EDNOS, & bulimia, I've never felt like there was a lack of information on EDs. I agree with her that insurance companies (at least in the US) are not aligned with the needs of the patient, but I don't think insurance companies are aligned with the needs of the patient with any health issue.  

[here's the article](https://www.nytimes.com/2018/11/29/well/eat/eating-disorders-food-anorexia-bulimia-binge-partners-spouses-treatment.html) if anyone wants to give it a read

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EDAnonymous,JackFallsDown,2018/12/01,"Easier to lose weight in other countries besides US? I feel like living in the US makes weightloss very difficult. Not only because of the obvious reasons of us having bigger portion sizes and less healthy food. But also because everyone considers someone at a completely average weight is considered ""super thin"" and people become worried.

If I had a penny for every person who felt the need to force me to eat because they were concerned about my weight (before I even developed an ED and was a middle of the line bmi) I'd be rich. 

Maybe it's not just the US, but I feel like in the US the normal is being slightly overweight and anything less than that is concerning for others. 

Do you guys agree with me? I'd love to hear opinions about others opinions in different countries. 

Please delete if this isn't allowed! 💕",4.67990950226244,6.934016045751637,5.273202614379088,78.21864253393667,71.54901960784314,7.5835093011563615,30.72347913524384,8.384062270229773,2.6768676721970848,657,29,106,11,13,211,105,153,0.05,0.789,0.16,0.9574,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,5,1,1,2,5,7,0,0,11,0,11,7,0,3,1,23,18,9,0,4,7,0,7,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,7,5,6,0,4,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,8,14,5,18,12,3,8,0,1,0,1,12,8,0,4,2,76,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809828162515305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906557609984378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146524587646364,0.12166771849675545,0.09374163159419834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550508174923077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150981557067465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272549279636015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276242394281718,0.0,0.09281810110188538,0.10526662685198976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111404672681158,0.15740267207674852,0.10577492088411362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332110040831362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907989122231716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416307495124708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076413400796074,0.0,0.09727701870147552,0.0,0.0,0.12324557583873955,0.0,0.0,0.09942750365815638,0.0,0.07353546785893532,0.0,0.11067475939980677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816853683229818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107937539018519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378484845213466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637399457784387,0.0961911418767714,0.0,0.12092722458017804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326715916098505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334178048608097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6625699225692694,0.0,0.0,0.09089701335422773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024510003927608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187710616829308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nowayjoseTA,2018/12/01,Anyone had experience with prozac for b/p? I’ve just been prescribed prozac for my bingeing and would like to know everyone’s experience with it ,6.078888888888893,7.922444481481483,6.282407407407407,74.06583333333336,67.14814814814815,9.844444444444443,32.01851851851852,10.125756701596842,3.3907185185185185,119,5,21,3,2,38,23,27,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791371067455609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38146252604088576,0.0,0.7810085038112259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21939552717572675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950339757296827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28358752582779906,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peanutbutterismylife,2018/12/01,"PSA: PLEASE watch out for your electrolyte levels (This flair may be misleading, sorry).

Thanksgiving has essentially sent me into a spiraling shitshow of b/p every day again, and as I tend to do, I have no motivation to try any sort of harm reduction during this.

Well, last night after b/p number 163648483 for the day I was finally out of food and so I decided to go to sleep. I laid in bed for a few hours, but every time I was about to fall asleep it felt like I couldn't breathe and then I was suddenly jolted awake. Coupled with the vertigo I felt upon waking, I assumed it was low blood pressure, and after a little Googling, found this:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/1866393/

So, I'm assuming my blood pressure was essentially so low that oxygenated blood was not sufficiently getting to my brain / body and my pal brain was like ""oh shit wake up before we die"" which is why I couldn't sleep.

Anyway, I ate a banana and then it totally went away and I fell asleep almost immediately. But it was a super scary experience, and I thought I'd share because I NEVER keep food down after a b/p, but now I definitely will start to, and I hope you all will begin doing the same.
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EDAnonymous,jnjusticar,2018/12/01,"Backwards Slide Been recovered for years, still deal with triggers.  Guess who just had a backwards slide into a binge?  It all started with a macadamia nut cookie. Looks like I will be calling up the old therapist tomorrow.  Can't risk sliding back into it.  So frustrated and disgusted right now and I'm meanwhile here like ""just keep eating"" at the same time 😣",3.83701298701299,6.718682787878791,3.6416883116883128,85.7468181818182,77.18181818181819,6.8017316017316025,29.12554112554113,7.957251820313856,2.244790476190477,288,13,50,5,7,87,54,66,0.10800000000000001,0.792,0.1,-0.37,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,1,5,0,5,1,0,1,1,13,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,2,7,6,2,18,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,1,10,32,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21766882581481134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890533812627162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918400725898662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896585558466858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31184135325540263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25161194374645873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27659435628448925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23771347928114395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970418103403067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24174630693442895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20036343685810493,0.0,0.22606574730272594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286743451896521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650645404485883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18229237907540896
EDAnonymous,belligerentidiot,2018/12/01,one really specific thing I’ll miss about r/proed and r/proedmemes all the misled redditors who’d stumble by and be confused about why on earth there’d be a community dedicated to promoting erectile dysfunction. always cracked me up :’),10.713571428571427,9.809593214285718,10.58095238095238,56.60571428571429,57.33333333333334,15.06666666666667,47.19047619047619,13.816669648895859,7.00024761904762,193,11,29,7,2,64,37,42,0.152,0.7240000000000001,0.124,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4957137106613312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036972355823455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.381654234184386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957914139084239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5375738658557043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SD329,2018/12/01,"My mom is part of a weight loss challenge at her work- On thanksgiving break when I went home, at the end of a day that was mostly just me and her, she said “it was great hanging out with *me* because she wasn’t eating today either!” Me turning down food repeatedly apparently gave her the strength to do the same. lol. She also bought water pills to get rid of bloat before her final weigh in. My dad asked me ‘how have I done so well losing weight?’ 
It’s just funny to go home to a family culture of dieting and praising weight loss. My dad used to brag about eating one pack of pb crackers a day to lose weight. I’m pretty sure my younger sister has some eating/self image issues too. My parents don’t see how disordered they seem sometimes. ",2.847713097713097,4.801887513513512,3.7594594594594617,88.38637214137216,75.89189189189189,6.1754677754677765,22.195426195426197,7.010146845296331,0.6300617463617462,584,16,117,6,13,187,102,148,0.063,0.773,0.16399999999999998,0.9447,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,8,10,10,0,0,7,1,9,10,0,3,1,15,21,7,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,4,9,0,1,0,1,3,2,4,1,1,8,5,19,6,19,13,5,17,1,4,1,0,18,6,0,3,7,74,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811336510156136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469650303605335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478932566114799,0.0,0.10439825563171604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582469234984274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406108132437136,0.0,0.0,0.1255521846847977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510804348725228,0.0,0.0,0.10866494829302796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565911033932215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343984547732727,0.0,0.0,0.1483545381142003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06409929591621251,0.0,0.06972628686009373,0.0,0.0,0.13526369921783926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461316727126275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280541562813665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745124639517603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436904330609239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313640793175124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623024913089188,0.1328588987469761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481756883217462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670416419929198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776626801015692,0.11169033770261476,0.12799010100327474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213413413493972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156317709901815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629366016926156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344906275139826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596284129120206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5976026048579197,0.110311039167245,0.11373279166614465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931815754437515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wildermonsters,2018/12/01,"Fasted... Then binged... Now sharp stomach pains?? I only fasted for 18 hours or so (I'd eaten pizza before that), then I had a salad anddd basically every dessert at my work party x3 with beer. I woke up at 4:30am with sharp stomach pains and I've drank like 3 liters of water since... Also I thought that maybe more carbs (pizza & cereal 😅) would help push all the sugar out but pretty sure I made it worse. Helpppp the pains have lasted SO long and I don't know how to make it go away. 

Why do I do this to myself 😔",0.5037538940809938,2.6968921401869177,2.33422897196262,94.20888239875393,85.54205607476634,4.314330218068536,14.524143302180686,5.46131890053228,-0.9233856697819318,397,6,86,2,12,131,82,107,0.106,0.775,0.11900000000000001,0.1053,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,3,0,6,14,2,3,2,15,14,10,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,9,0,2,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,6,3,9,2,11,7,2,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,9,47,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15360486302841742,0.0,0.2081166438743639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804637868924086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344439659281707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618341634287028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916246457899136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287459651757345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891583307247783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556115261273273,0.15656936514078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383970376104753,0.0,0.0,0.16998315809706568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174903222685596,0.12821368657634966,0.0,0.19296836379447194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460841225610511,0.6131542255314367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541257752356045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888906766412725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103142549737608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248863137112662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17332069500325134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13983521349362035,0.0,0.19574409025500367,0.1364468386313009,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FideliaDelarosa,2019/06/15,"I'm finally getting the help I asked for, but I don't think I deserve it .. What to do? After a couple months with a psychologist (and not getting any better) I have been referred to the public ed-unit! I have my first elucidation monday, where they will see if they have any offers that could help me. All weekend I have been torn between actually acting to get better, or acting very badly, so I feel like I deserve the attention I have asked for .. ugh. If only it was easy.
Does any one have any tips on how to tackle this?",2.660190476190476,4.454565876190479,4.3561904761904815,84.6104761904762,75.95238095238095,6.571428571428571,23.095238095238088,7.3871296695380915,0.9568095238095236,407,12,81,5,9,137,70,105,0.095,0.7509999999999999,0.154,0.767,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,3,3,5,0,0,5,0,13,0,0,1,1,14,22,7,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,1,0,2,2,2,0,2,3,2,13,3,10,17,1,10,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,3,7,58,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.18157553641569088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061305073933713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478969426672959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535901567552962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291240670880125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856016491135698,0.2058807131885074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628293688034325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408157620566264,0.13292702300150608,0.0,0.2038284092241811,0.0,0.1582693536332135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29163856551101985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494349289383913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090343067173733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851770980793258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608449856010806,0.1415131055963795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827211308279226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922486724407605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352559426709358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,virtual_self_,2019/06/15,anybody else not really have a “goal weight”? honestly i just want to see how skinny i can get before someone intervenes,4.622727272727271,7.166974909090911,5.863636363636362,72.61545454545455,72.63636363636364,9.854545454545457,29.181818181818183,10.125756701596842,3.731472727272728,96,4,15,3,2,32,21,22,0.0,0.7979999999999999,0.20199999999999999,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,4,5,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700042575024016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632406970334029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271782440079367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785601865848714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464994236253247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684260194255253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25647119571187993,0.0,0.0,0.5295000063793718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cowgirI,2019/06/15,:•( last night i ended up chewing & spitting 2 pieces of pizza & an order of fries then i actually ate another 2 pieces . i felt so unbelievably gross and ashamed all night & then the next morning my mom/sister wouldn’t stop talking about how much food i ate. and now my mom is talking to her friend about it. i’m so embarrassed i feel like a disgusting glutton and i wanna crawl out of my skin :•) :•) :•) :•),1.1156250000000014,3.6526993125000047,2.7225,89.79250000000002,87.125,5.7,23.0,7.1686216300943375,1.0014749999999997,315,12,64,5,10,103,57,80,0.18100000000000002,0.7509999999999999,0.068,-0.8724,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,2,3,0,2,8,2,1,1,11,7,8,0,2,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,3,10,2,9,3,4,12,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,10,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.17246523551115772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5744681351312728,0.0,0.0,0.1853192311217452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653236509637736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936116350180524,0.12625759383834448,0.1696907279027345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21370540444352648,0.0,0.13654294025956376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406041653162022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634247701563495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4139734786988756,0.0,0.0,0.12991857908337506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879568111040109,0.3317025916983828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775612033398713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28410146414202114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Elllliiiizzzaabeth,2019/06/15,"How can I prevent parents from forcing me to recover/get treatment if I’m not ready/unwilling Hey friends! I’ve been a member of this community since the proEd days and I’ve always loved and relied on the sense of community that these Reddit’s have fostered. 

This is my first time actually posting, but basically I need advice. 

Since being home from college for the summer my mother has become worried about my eating and how skinny I am. I’m anorexic and bulimic and clearly underweight, but it’s on purpose and I’m very aware of what I’ve been doing and the toll it takes on my body. I get that it’s not a safe way to lose weight, but I enjoy being skinny and I’m most confident at my lower weights. I like looking good in whatever clothes I wear and being compared to stick thin models, and frankly, I don’t really care whether that’s done in a safe way. 

My mother has expressed concerns in how skinny I am and this has triggered me to binge eat and then compensate through purging it. I binge when I’m stressed and my fear of getting forced into treatment has stressed me out considerably. I don’t want to recover, and I don’t want to gain weight. I’m over 18 but I still rely on my parents to pay for my car and education, plus I live with them over the summer. My mother hasn’t flat out confronted me yet, but I’ve found papers with names of treatment centers for ED’s. Is there something I can do to explain to my mother that I don’t want help/ that I’m okay? I’m not that underweight and I don’t plan on getting any thinner- just maintaining. I’ve only purged recently due to the stress but under normal circumstances I don’t purge at all. I know to someone who doesn’t get it all of this sounds like I’m in denial but I fully understand the consequences. My main issue is that I am prescribed adderall for my ADHD and I actually need this to be able to function. I’m worried that if my mom shares her concerns with my doctor that they’ll stop prescribing this to me. Please help- how can I avoid going down this road?",3.1981678622668572,4.963857582926831,4.424160688665712,84.82163558106171,74.39024390243901,7.164992826398853,27.42467718794835,7.928766900206844,1.7226499282639884,1619,63,319,24,34,532,195,410,0.113,0.76,0.127,0.7986,3,1,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,4,10,18,1,5,10,1,32,12,5,5,3,64,60,34,0,8,14,7,4,2,1,1,1,1,1,0,24,24,8,5,5,0,1,2,11,7,0,1,4,6,46,11,50,51,4,38,0,1,1,1,20,21,0,3,14,206,70,4,0.10236645535214184,0.0,0.19978978776995984,0.0,0.12302458651616753,0.10003131542528083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517709125874454,0.0,0.0,0.06961269993478418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130557074125009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137060550307807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043694235981239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06601789513657358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477640469103286,0.0,0.10475642469941683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094928792776717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519072183980555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707285462860391,0.0,0.11223953461901233,0.07908806947409312,0.0,0.2674112395092957,0.0,0.05817721561251154,0.08586012600579826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372281544605415,0.0,0.10268190116879694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684398374758508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625792674745171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002215871134404,0.0,0.09039145551634284,0.0,0.08596204084521918,0.1145218792138467,0.0,0.0,0.09238972260856236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989035530335845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518068591259344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10029739178867317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785430210444741,0.0,0.0,0.22733166883062694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112367627907044,0.0,0.0,0.0980387675255174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557857254147872,0.0,0.10107452507904907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693571793861065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867347654281663,0.07880669850259643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174998347636153,0.0855829403408379,0.3517812862371851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696683476225474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05969070332506135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656709016852564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446304634799083,0.18113516277029315,0.16250745498447536,0.0,0.3739642948058206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079162087921808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shrinkingbabe,2019/06/15,What's happened to me This morning I chewed up and spat out a single bite if honey toast. It just really made me question what I've become,3.8479310344827553,4.664330517241385,5.120172413793104,84.17956896551725,71.41379310344827,7.179310344827586,24.84482758620689,7.1686216300943375,1.0776758620689653,111,3,22,1,2,37,26,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,6,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170577258466054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140017798322351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429944105315252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5244582994691731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999221212145043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whatseves2143,2019/06/15,Does anyone have any stories of recovery from therapy? Hey guys I’m a compulsive overeater is not an official eating disorder but it’s a form of disorder eating does any have stories of recovery from therapy?,2.9316666666666684,5.986849710526317,5.201052631578946,69.05403508771931,91.36842105263159,10.954385964912284,35.280701754385966,9.725611199111238,5.860775438596492,171,11,25,8,6,59,26,38,0.153,0.847,0.0,-0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963981790143617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238091738172616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49953067977577703,0.0,0.3814220063671063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459912343045792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578382190767995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984412599724342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hesitantskeletn,2019/06/15,I'm 7lbs up from being underweight and apparently that's enough for me to freak out so IM BACK BABEY honestly though i missed not eating so much,2.568160919540229,5.0633538620689675,3.642068965517243,86.16816091954023,79.34482758620689,8.004597701149425,20.011494252873558,8.841846274778883,1.3785080459770116,118,3,24,3,3,38,27,29,0.16399999999999998,0.74,0.096,-0.2732,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33156187807945164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412195196937283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455390814292092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4657639460628876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169774983619514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236463093725777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fitnessxaddict,2019/06/15,"Related disorders? Im curious if you guys have any other (mental) health issues besides your ED? I struggle with OCD, anxiety, ADHD (inattentive) and depression (depending on my eating habits tbh) but they all seem to get a lot less when im restricting somehow.

Do you guys struggle with anything else besides your ED?",4.5157738095238065,7.593457125,5.539285714285718,71.97238095238097,75.96428571428572,9.447619047619048,34.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,4.531783333333333,253,14,37,8,6,83,46,56,0.19899999999999998,0.773,0.027999999999999997,-0.8479,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,1,11,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,0,4,4,3,2,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,5,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404135519724988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603651861506422,0.0,0.153032818637121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461885108335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722972732671137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22926731481309304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046945600319987,0.16711077206695885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451453282364773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961492611511823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263700926422174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321628657058962,0.20879356205983413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700699286297559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201596914089098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821121948229034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182580429752361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tieflng,2019/06/15,"debating eating a piece of cake i’m conflicted because 1.) i’m trying to break out of a b/p cycle, 2.) i’m gonna be sad afterwards, 3.) nobody else will eat it and if i don’t eat it i’m just gonna throw it away akdnjs",-2.151474358974358,-0.5575014038461514,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,91.8846153846154,5.7743589743589725,16.358974358974358,7.1686216300943375,-0.01593333333333291,165,4,43,3,6,64,38,52,0.07200000000000001,0.9279999999999999,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730868134007368,0.0,0.0,0.17718504967935916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8922603379518194,0.2428110676000137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973406326274467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SisypheanDream,2019/06/15,"Not eating unless something is ""worth it"" Does anyone else have this, it almost seems like reverse orthorexia (because usually what I crave is junk/fast food). I don't want to eat unless what I eat is going to be AMAZING and incredibly satisfying and delicious and perfect. I'll put off eating a regular meal because it seems like a waste to eat food that doesn't taste particularly good. I haven't eaten since yesterday afternoon and I'm hungry but I don't want to eat unless I know it's gonna be exactly what I want. Only I don't even know what I want yet so I guess I'm just gonna... keep waiting... 

This ED shit is so dumb you guys",2.666937062937066,4.400927707692311,4.6313986013986055,82.90723776223777,75.76923076923076,7.804195804195802,24.89510489510489,8.575989854853784,1.7198461538461536,502,17,102,10,11,172,74,130,0.15,0.7340000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.6363,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,5,7,2,0,2,0,12,12,1,0,2,24,29,10,0,4,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,11,4,11,2,4,0,1,2,6,2,0,0,1,1,11,5,8,24,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,4,6,55,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997898986020825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377853334477277,0.12276623776249908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607814096042404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485228999772664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7356135952586814,0.10009137177152536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913771609912243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897653500574711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680945193084349,0.10049645632867167,0.0,0.0,0.1319914628150188,0.1186372442795323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649847484988728,0.0,0.0,0.13169610951037009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707265027953992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112590250462058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044874889126182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218153015161034,0.0,0.0,0.12298998982956932,0.09911350689709852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224065119515597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196102701734094,0.0,0.28268367513153186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hahahafmehaha,2019/06/15,"hahaha almost recovered hahaha throwing food again hahaha gained 12 lbs.hahahha didnt threw food in 5 months,hahaha starting to feel guilty again hahaha , im throwing food again after overeating hahaha f me im still a skeleton haha also a male 

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EDAnonymous,Ultimatedream,2019/06/15,I know my boyfriend bought me an engagement ring... We talked about it. We really want to be engaged. But I gained so much weight from my binging and I don't want to take pictures of us together or my fingers with the ring on it. It makes me want to engage in ED behaviors to lose the weight asap before he proposes to me.,1.9822727272727287,3.8706948030303066,3.5393939393939418,89.27909090909094,78.24242424242425,7.430303030303031,24.63636363636364,8.344100000000001,1.523290909090909,251,9,54,5,6,83,48,66,0.037000000000000005,0.748,0.214,0.8683,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,2,3,1,1,0,11,9,4,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,12,3,11,7,1,2,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,36,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168724233415495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006783624943545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851301630206147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012521379144568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18735603318540087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327385830349025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162771597524564,0.20485185305811585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065727410482013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45098018687781605,0.0,0.0,0.6207169091405113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,f3ckdepression,2019/06/15,"Mukbangers like Steph Pappas DAE watch Steph? Thoughts? I love her channel. 

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I'm not sure if watching mukbangers on Youtube helps or hinders me. Sometimes I can live vicariously through Youtubers like Steph or Nick Dompierre, Nikado Avocado and watching the amount of food they consume, I almost feel disgusted (in a way I want to feel). I don't know how to articulate this phenomena, but it's like watching them binge makes it okay for me to not binge. Or sometimes, when I feel like bingeing I'll watch them and it will prevent one because I'll be satisfied by watching. Also, Steph talks about how her metabolism is so fast and she's always hunger, girl for real?",4.361908602150542,7.083968040322581,4.331935483870968,82.40956989247313,74.24193548387099,6.3913978494623676,32.10752688172043,7.492282038375204,2.290313978494624,543,27,94,7,12,167,85,124,0.047,0.77,0.183,0.9354,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,0,6,8,1,0,2,1,5,3,0,3,1,23,14,13,0,2,7,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,1,5,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,9,14,7,11,11,1,5,0,0,6,1,10,2,0,5,6,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442286403083076,0.0,0.0,0.15526941861553614,0.16155639993827062,0.21037192222625686,0.2359252518945803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183579332136234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29451889025243155,0.13870770763655155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23477864466399495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301411346477623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670507737461807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794264311367904,0.0,0.17144654651377825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752366834245754,0.0,0.12960308795419706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131567617846813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099621236711187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840577582034314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18299319197282926,0.0,0.0,0.1560581887762848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414109079406774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145204043596912,0.15411490931681165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359252518945803,0.0
EDAnonymous,litendator,2019/06/15,"Bulimia worse now that my fiancé is gone Has anyone experienced this? I’ve never been completely free of behaviors, but I was to the point where I was not engaging in them frequently while living with my fiancé for the past two years. He is incredibly helpful and supportive of me. But he’s been gone for the past 3 months for military training and my behaviors have increased a little. I’m very discouraged.",6.621315789473684,7.783596394736843,7.261684210526319,70.07278947368421,65.31578947368422,11.869473684210524,33.62105263157895,11.602472056035307,4.4468347368421055,330,14,56,11,5,109,56,76,0.124,0.755,0.122,0.209,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,0,1,8,12,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,6,1,7,4,8,6,1,15,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,8,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708585921678653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28053409780994065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17934144441657854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26816782743333284,0.2362625112746686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21356576411939196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636062640418967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5108371940802602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529329626277549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30362665374733777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613695976407178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220767010842934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726689557565873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723014205909616
EDAnonymous,Lo_3617,2019/06/15,"look, i know we all fear fat etc but still im overwheight, I have an ed and feel invalidated on a daily basis so you'd think I'd be used to it by now.

but tbh the way some people talk about fat people here, with a thinly veiled disgust covered with tons of apologies, just....hurts more. brings out a new kind of self hate. 

now I know  most of them dont mean it, that it's not their fault and it's a part of having an ed. but God, reading those kind of posts here has became a new way of punishing myself.",2.1483715596330266,2.957764330275232,3.580630733944953,93.65883600917431,75.42201834862385,6.1839449541284415,20.04701834862385,5.985473137389443,-0.2289183486238531,388,7,94,2,8,128,77,109,0.157,0.7929999999999999,0.05,-0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,2,0,7,7,3,1,8,0,6,2,2,1,1,19,15,6,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,5,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,3,8,2,13,13,7,12,1,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,5,59,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152087307849848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479193506384136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663071043257386,0.09284700688750837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129301795986744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965758202888076,0.0,0.19834798333626125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824372014038278,0.20183249459024774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419989810276155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200022942081314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546949727948457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988494577268816,0.0,0.2546067998742003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758632974963377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367605569265835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156234485564905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466442513231521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759191557198428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766035940952622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859422085142585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915081209468384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,17418,2019/06/15,"Panicked and confused about the number of calories burnt during exercise Whenever I exercise, I try to calculate how many calories I’ve burnt. But I always get a number that seems way too high and can vary by hundreds of calories based on the site or app I used. I always end up rounding the number burned down significantly.
        I walked 11 miles today at 135 lbs. MFP says I burnt 860 calories, which seems insanely high. I would typically up my calorie intake according to my exercise, but I’m scared that MFP is wrong. It’s making me anxious and now I don’t want to eat at all in case I’m ruining my deficit.
        Does any one else have this issue? And does anyone have an idea of how much a 135 lb woman would burn walking 11 miles at a slow pace?

P.S. sorry if this post is frantic and doesn’t make sense, I’m just nervous and very high",3.1768605645851165,4.991768401197606,4.324418306244657,85.30474550898207,74.56886227544909,7.166638152266897,26.29982891360137,7.957251820313856,1.5770020530367843,661,24,131,10,14,216,108,167,0.17,0.8,0.028999999999999998,-0.9767,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,4,7,0,9,4,0,5,1,24,19,12,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,6,6,1,0,3,3,0,2,2,6,0,1,0,2,13,0,16,17,2,22,0,1,1,0,2,14,0,5,4,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593263450028778,0.0,0.0,0.10596984924638607,0.0,0.0,0.17604372019654824,0.0,0.10896006781597067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27273603804440305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945315191081486,0.13017609906272484,0.0,0.13801926475351362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141482449075234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4939293442247794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591327761979514,0.0,0.16264619618578244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20803567740485887,0.15798731896220292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455309419153233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055945461460703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492422133420126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239223940574576,0.15601317024372682,0.0,0.0,0.283723841624017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17443910085343498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770876648073905,0.0,0.0,0.10579844648732904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345872213251981,0.0,0.12857619797497166,0.09191266301489068,0.12369072397889973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213945426763059,0.1703758121908053,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depressstoimpresss,2019/06/15,"Being a runner with AN and having a low HR... I know y’all aren’t medical professionals but has anybody had experience with this? I am a long distance runner and I was just diagnosed with anorexia (even though I’m not yet underweight). I have a low RHR (~45-50bpm) and my doctor was a little concerned. he thinks it’s more likely due to my being an endurance athlete, but he wasn’t sure— this kinda stressed me out. 

Have any of you had similar experiences? is there something I should be looking out for? he didn’t give me any guidance or advice :(",3.442481827622018,5.33985403738318,4.8167601246105916,81.70422637590862,74.04672897196261,7.372377985462098,27.77673935617861,8.167268648758528,1.9639437175493248,430,17,81,7,9,143,76,107,0.115,0.885,0.0,-0.882,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,1,7,0,17,3,0,0,0,17,22,7,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,3,0,0,6,1,11,1,8,12,1,10,0,2,1,0,6,5,0,2,4,59,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285306953502404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31807316846066946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23736859644703784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393712860671671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544659810444095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575307394305623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243451324145859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852638260227026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11425488799959653,0.23439470598768494,0.0,0.20696364024818772,0.19638814989649567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355949238538791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800411154295739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678921816073217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041550021597292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985159254252306,0.2297717019501009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_irenemm_,2019/06/15,"Now is not weird for them anymore. So my college timetable this year was horrible and I had half an hour between classes to have lunch. And that's when my ed started to get worse and my food control started to get better. So because I had so little time to eat I normally skipped meals or had a very small one (an apple or a cereal bar with some small fruit), this made my classmates comment every time lunchtime arrived.  And now that I am at the end of the year the comments are long gone, they are not worried about me anymore because I don't look bad and because now they think that I have a small stomach, when in reality I wish I were eating their sandwiches or bag of chips. 

But at least the comments have stopped.",9.227855477855476,6.353822146853148,8.310594405594404,77.92948135198137,61.797202797202786,10.931934731934733,42.01515151515152,8.344100000000001,3.5149682983682977,569,26,115,5,6,177,91,143,0.06,0.857,0.083,0.3304,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,4,2,9,3,0,0,9,0,13,9,1,2,0,19,22,14,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,8,2,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,2,7,2,17,1,13,15,2,23,0,0,1,0,7,7,0,4,15,80,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389916936296198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270191269346724,0.3125537003314928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15115516046073293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19168902530729065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497652385841055,0.0,0.0,0.1513746843107757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399824064407565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20666389416161787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858584274469702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831098113309292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129576129962135,0.0,0.15124912556479375,0.14352055224537302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171826964682098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745457549338172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581239123644956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419406017245331,0.0,0.0,0.14288761341318235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095116142592435,0.0,0.0,0.1993168757022124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101786017408593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965369657459768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356643009643974,0.1741709167954119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011964146200494
EDAnonymous,cosmicjellyfish03,2019/06/15,"I got put into inpatient So last week, i woke up late for work. I’ve been having issues hearing my alarms in the morning so this isn’t the first time. The whole hour drive there, i’m sobbing and having panic attacks. I get there, have to explain to the owner (small bakery, she helps while we look for more staff), what’s going on. I make it through half my shift before i start having another panic attack, and like these are severe, hyperventilating, shaking, full body type situations. My manager takes me to an inpatient/behavioral hospital (she lost her daughter to suicide and has been kind of like a second mother to me since), and they decided that i should be admitted because i had active plans for suicide.

Here’s where we get fucking dumb: during the assessment, i tell all. They ask questions about my relationship with food and how often i eat, and i tell them honestly. Naturally, this lands me in ED inpatient. I don’t want treatment, i’m not ready for it. I spent a week there and am now in outpatient, on a meal plan, exercise restriction. Of course, as soon as i get home i’m still working out, but they have me eating so much food you guys i have panic attacks every fucking day because of how much food they’re making me eat. No one knew about my ed before all of this and i don’t know what to do. I’ve never been so unhappy, i can’t stand looking in the mirror, i’ve never been a purge person but i’ve been heavily considering starting because i can’t take this. I just want to be small again and have no one notice. Why tf did i tell them and expect nothing to happen?",4.17608695652174,5.476476292993635,5.292309609526453,81.43536831902522,71.10191082802548,8.136028800886184,27.34644142896705,8.587818076936951,1.957707172528385,1252,43,242,21,23,414,177,314,0.15,0.807,0.042,-0.9852,0,0,0,0,0,2,42.0,2,1,5,6,19,17,6,5,11,0,26,11,1,4,4,39,56,21,2,4,4,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,2,10,15,7,1,6,1,1,4,10,13,0,5,12,3,40,4,31,41,7,36,0,2,2,2,26,14,4,2,19,165,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476952144014532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449150467478546,0.30845507042293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652813074014111,0.0,0.15381054295916746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038991025578106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05828652279108695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774386730445112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614761064071056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687573066811551,0.3278573753899404,0.0,0.0,0.1671065528494317,0.1416567850944695,0.0,0.051364067223071255,0.0,0.07228377788987025,0.0,0.0,0.08948872027031103,0.07992122686526316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186290578130423,0.0,0.0605786653451785,0.0,0.09065679783225288,0.0,0.0890044142244597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433145787079332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411508536726453,0.04966954676093652,0.07367037220330704,0.1019506521823236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830853848463144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179000913397686,0.0,0.09865858410375426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065642602746485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328768902330117,0.0,0.13941062388594433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672041056562513,0.1028962866907525,0.0,0.0,0.122485341984706,0.0,0.0,0.3181183645937967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891484022795799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085514807678874,0.10124437327354284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703246457506444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210174701023876,0.0,0.07476185870286768,0.10158898910718568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794044327135973,0.0,0.07217622229864437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977183691915581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359064586729816,0.0,0.2369838375029586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052700310007986896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661491879069826,0.0,0.14499203175165393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155235284977011,0.1009041376055003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315929487986502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaybinch,2019/06/15,"Just tried on a pair of my 12-year-old sister’s jeans.... She is short and SKINNY SKINNY. They’re a size 0 and they fit! They’re so comfortable. I’ve lost 18 pounds and this is the first time I’ve been able to wear smaller clothes. I fucking hate my relationship with food and I hate restricting and I’m so sick of counting calories and hating myself when I eat anything. But at least it’s not all for nothing now. 

Now if only I could run without borderline passing out :(",1.763368421052629,4.109004126315792,2.771842105263161,92.11039473684211,81.42105263157895,5.484210526315789,24.23684210526316,6.742157984588678,0.7890842105263154,372,14,77,4,10,118,71,95,0.23399999999999999,0.706,0.06,-0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,6,6,4,0,3,0,4,7,3,0,1,16,10,11,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,2,0,9,1,9,7,2,12,0,1,0,1,4,5,1,1,5,45,11,0,0.21193195912029794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440194458279645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921042429709185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168593030516616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026921616223396,0.25626896620862444,0.0,0.0,0.1959276811806231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6277167996668276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231348768583946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033544306124716,0.0,0.22238694030394127,0.0,0.0,0.16118380493081946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275356107736021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357922967471435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388788866352012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20429484578236956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364772332112516
EDAnonymous,sad_skelly,2019/06/15,"For women who are in abusive relationships with men who body shame strangers and you : Please don’t have kids with them. This post was inspired by a post I saw on r/relationshipadvice. 

I am in my late teens and grew up in a household where my father constantly body shamed my mother and made snide comments about her weight and appearance. He only did it to control my mom and keep her in a place of submission as she was in good shape. This had a profound impact on me and I used to self harm whenever my mother got shamed by my father. 

Soon enough, he began to shame me as well and tell me that if I kept eating that I would get diabetes and that they’ll amputate all my limbs and I’ll end up just a torso and a head. He said these things to me when I was just eight, and I purged for the first time at eight years old. He would throw away my food while I took a bathroom break during dinner and laugh at me mockingly for being fat as I was a chubby kid. 

I have a myriad of issues today because my mother had kids and married a man who shamed strangers and her for their appearance and weight. He is a heartless and cruel man and she should have foreseen that he would ruin my self esteem but she stayed with him regardless. 

My mind is constantly plagued by disordered thoughts now. I have a panic attack if anyone else sees me eat and I constantly dream that I became obese so my nights are sleepless. I purge and hoard food. 

If you’re in a relationship with a man like that, please leave now.",5.950929411764707,5.689196406666667,5.924352941176473,84.01923529411766,66.6,9.1921568627451,27.98039215686275,8.671277953709913,1.7446215686274509,1182,31,248,16,17,372,163,300,0.11,0.8290000000000001,0.061,-0.9246,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,3,2,10,17,4,6,15,0,23,14,4,3,1,45,37,29,0,8,6,6,2,1,0,5,4,1,0,10,14,23,9,3,2,1,0,5,1,12,1,3,15,5,43,5,34,16,2,42,0,1,2,0,41,16,0,5,18,166,57,0,0.0,0.12545601197702527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07403701872979082,0.1084913507282735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045909085072372,0.09948212696166747,0.0,0.0,0.064546308144309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352279825405296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432711154053545,0.11875865378247726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135299790201788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166928899949678,0.08845304961406615,0.0,0.0937823837159,0.10940716225294754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006544076648669,0.25607231104372075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055320366502387225,0.0,0.0,0.08881103216338061,0.0846856382285827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086682125792237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105160790985759,0.0,0.09411515411360713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944251255149525,0.11211657021332866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05172989819374391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001906288818594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691332591084904,0.12401083828140025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936558396425893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110814273003397,0.0,0.0,0.08053005801306064,0.0,0.12423283860870242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062693705957803,0.2324591281289604,0.0,0.0,0.20281647700770736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22736100495331826,0.0,0.0,0.10072056242706214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437636795515166,0.0,0.22092159344258486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285896299423175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254786304138482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034506556091237,0.0,0.0,0.08406059546626672,0.061742198846747975,0.0,0.10036628032353208,0.0,0.11764175726102245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145035264546406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578779895393493,0.09520302881279707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256522811249103,0.0,0.0,0.06818625179298415
EDAnonymous,eardingu,2019/06/15,"I won't go home this summer - relapsing and feeling guilty For years now I've been struggling with EDs. This last year, BED was bad. I gained a lot of weight. But now I can feel myself relapsing in my old restricting/overexercising routine. I haven't seen my family in months and even if I miss them I don't want them to confront me on that.

I'm a college student and I usually go home during summer. This year I didn't put much effort into finding a job in my hometown and instead got one in my college city. This means I'll be able to lose a lot of weight in peace. But I'm feeling guilty. My family still believes I'm seeing my therapist and my psychiatrist, that I'm still taking my meds (depression/anxiety) but I'm not. I hate lying and I only do it because of my ED. I know losing weight won't bring me much happiness. I've been there before. And yet I won't stop.

TLDR: I'm off my meds, relapsing into AN, lying to everyone about my mental health and avoiding my family but I can't stop and I hate myself for it",0.974497538966368,3.2051073726415105,3.3113863822805563,87.73878178835109,83.76415094339623,6.517145200984412,21.481542247744045,7.7425588080867325,1.0654402789171449,801,26,166,15,23,275,110,212,0.09699999999999999,0.7509999999999999,0.152,0.9369,1,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,4,9,10,3,2,5,0,13,4,0,0,0,30,35,14,0,2,6,0,6,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,8,12,3,3,6,0,0,4,8,9,0,1,6,8,32,1,19,25,4,29,0,3,2,0,2,9,0,3,16,105,40,4,0.11193567068396207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563048169182721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346160946502033,0.06823494589961035,0.0,0.09524901130034456,0.12611316949501364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393245479630406,0.0,0.0,0.10695933023630956,0.0,0.0,0.3165689649037907,0.0,0.16979411516519088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230717511948537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723124241647765,0.0,0.08952518136408398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915760287841635,0.0,0.2210266013738653,0.0,0.11898238358911133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22456120874548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107888119650218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151691723721931,0.09124251146238024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504547669193355,0.0,0.19032740871608175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193076044114705,0.2486705920785139,0.0,0.11280482849871487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934598441134782,0.0,0.1645711948721058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745765677627693,0.0,0.07585050737337946,0.08513212156965423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252626587707834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919823717497957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878394240282502,0.18716646567867629,0.0,0.11701946683860748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416169378824162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299659411051442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328132710594622,0.0,0.06602255872262544,0.0,0.0,0.4089224737434321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162487058960493
EDAnonymous,harambelol,2019/06/15,"A friend of mine asked me if I have a small appetite like all “skinny” people because I was picking at my very first meal of the day, which seemed more like a snack in her opinion. Little did she know I was just STUFFED to the max from binge eating around 4K cals in one sitting at 4 am lmfao",3.6406451612903226,3.9130170967741975,4.158225806451615,92.85733870967744,71.58064516129029,6.2,25.177419354838708,3.1291,0.2291806451612901,228,6,52,0,4,72,51,62,0.0,0.81,0.19,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,0,5,4,1,1,1,8,8,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,8,3,9,5,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,4,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883364446379502,0.3027993887406243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974442244974162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088863672257996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33142685344221845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755060919425311,0.0,0.0,0.2502415366192543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800497761432038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31647881732782257,0.32462925935889586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194805668653425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245489647446028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948630959912949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672484313526972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myemosoul03,2019/06/15,"How did this happen? It started with a snide remark,
Dirty looks across the park,
Jokes about man-thighs and fat fingers,
But little do they know that their words linger,
3,4,5 years on,
I cannot forget all the things wrong,
With my face, my body, my hair and my skin,
Imperfections and greasy sin,
Then she came and told me how,
To become perfect, but look at me now,
Merely tears in a toilet stall,
Still ugly and fat but I won’t fall,
She is there when I wake up,
I’ve stopped trying to shut her up,
She’s only trying to help me be,
Pretty, perfect, thin and free,
So I must cut off my friends,
And when they try to make amends,
They say “you have to eat”
But they’re wrong, that’s just defeat,
Living in fear of calories,
Always cold, hating the breeze,
Lying to the ones I love,
But I will never be enough,
Because now I can’t ignore,
Her promises of winning this war,
Thin is all I need to be,
Then I’ll be happy, perfect and free,
I’ll throw that food away again,
Until I finally reach my end...

~ i wrote this, it’s really shit but I thought someone might be able to at least relate? Idek~",4.847884615384615,4.531518321428575,4.984464285714285,90.01630494505496,68.91071428571428,7.428021978021977,23.927197802197803,5.8734145424116955,0.3746006868131864,840,15,189,3,13,263,144,224,0.204,0.596,0.19899999999999998,-0.1082,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,1,4,5,12,21,4,1,6,0,16,12,9,3,7,37,29,22,1,2,7,0,5,0,1,4,2,1,0,0,9,11,4,2,2,1,2,3,4,10,0,1,5,9,30,13,24,15,4,32,1,1,2,1,16,14,1,1,15,118,39,0,0.15081819464727786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549281974020696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416986585024945,0.0,0.0,0.09193737161310807,0.16656684680415176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675250147249292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724958362509905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543246649277355,0.0,0.0,0.1335801552456722,0.1558355113153239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16971239893218334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652139603009787,0.0,0.0,0.182369959623552,0.0,0.11652176306377925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336803144185108,0.16054877265496126,0.0,0.1489017432269071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010902567609694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288573554160819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511594523979475,0.1331752289909617,0.0,0.2532985979415424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611930900462327,0.0,0.10067231604953243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999427091909169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182978032055113,0.11632028935875792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219831189855172,0.11470403315738965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343632407598568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966179974116338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993668178259978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548127094897371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778776690109814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106749894428331,0.0,0.12044360506512028,0.12609076391684193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019690698905252,0.0,0.0,0.1197327999941188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411324815721574,0.0,0.3071869625975945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32979204001991874,0.0,0.09712197258410142
EDAnonymous,silkwaist,2019/06/15,"TW has anyone else's ED turned them into a judgemental POS When my ed first started I just hated myself but now I get super judgemental, horrible horrible thoughts abt other people's bodies/eating habits (even strangers) and I can't help but get super angry and hateful and it's honestly tearing me apart bc I never wanted to be this person and now I am and Idk what to do ☹️ i would never say anything out loud or type out any of the specific things I think bc I know I could really fuck up someone else but it's getting harder to keep my face neutral when I get these thoughts like the disgust shows through and I should just shut myself away forever idk",2.486923076923077,4.804701212121216,3.8351515151515163,85.65157342657344,78.54545454545455,6.485780885780888,24.547785547785548,7.61054688173877,1.409844289044289,528,19,99,8,13,173,91,132,0.243,0.6409999999999999,0.11599999999999999,-0.9614,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,3,7,8,4,0,3,0,8,2,1,0,2,26,23,12,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,7,9,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,2,2,17,4,10,17,0,15,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,1,9,65,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345178963411432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693530722367027,0.18600671896399668,0.14938997249155472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056054614017424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494299757664733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033027320727115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990386922485395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441578537425754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782858110857687,0.37938360232114654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584615819853817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168082312718473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135895538169173,0.0,0.0,0.099768314468255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869009898733156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800259690512679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258553104998022,0.1585116255231672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629763174651438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443659817479527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381621493827258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284932439482591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060551142979373,0.11632196056288267,0.0,0.28824114460518546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19746077327894976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707557687322547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895909875774575,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PencilFetish,2019/06/15,Gonna starve myself until my parents forcefeed me Bc I've got some fucked up shit going on right now and that's the only way I know how to make myself feel better without drawing blood (:,1.912105263157894,4.294683631578948,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,81.10526315789474,3.8,20.026315789473685,3.1291,-0.3308105263157897,150,4,28,0,4,48,36,38,0.29100000000000004,0.6459999999999999,0.062,-0.8917,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,7,7,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,1,5,5,1,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,1,2,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988786242110458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17087156408064014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124181576138008,0.0,0.0,0.19205790527966013,0.0,0.2702798224084754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18572184063357736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255761828665752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257017012962276,0.0,0.0,0.3752400631386521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885971335539524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34688841417678995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26823938777447115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325760091400682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DeadbeatPotato,2019/06/15,"I'll go out with friends when I'm skinny, I don't want them to see me like this ....what I've been telling myself for over 2 years now and the main reason why I cancelled so many outings with my friends. I genuinely don't feel like I can go out and have fun while until I lose weight and it's killing me inside cuz I never end up losing the weight, instead I end up losing my friends.",2.510763052208837,3.312829975903618,3.453192771084339,94.94356425702813,74.5421686746988,6.015261044176707,24.676706827309236,5.46131890053228,0.2802224899598396,300,9,71,1,6,96,57,83,0.11599999999999999,0.638,0.24600000000000002,0.8921,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,3,4,10,1,0,2,0,5,3,1,2,1,12,11,8,1,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,3,0,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,4,13,6,10,10,1,15,0,3,1,0,5,5,0,0,10,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968960529971263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474597799177712,0.11973683924228362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884729525685652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050723976864434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542978035039687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376639180116995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5625204009623319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699248706593403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292670858578664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723255577424525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335592550515996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649390515357133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885760121353386,0.0,0.0,0.40819477078447536,0.0,0.0,0.15123718270376546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793193894139093
EDAnonymous,xobabe,2019/06/15,"I wanna fuckin DIE!!!! My monkey brain just fasted for 3 days just to break the fast with a massive binge! (at least 4,000 calories) i legit wanna die right now.",1.1330645161290356,3.7112138387096802,1.8970161290322598,95.26552419354843,88.03225806451613,3.1,14.201612903225806,3.1291,-1.2740387096774195,123,2,24,0,4,38,27,31,0.163,0.8370000000000001,0.0,-0.7243,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,0,1,7,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43127990647730496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24915543022700565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8019137064778945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32992972163812107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corporealki,2019/06/15,"Dating and food dates? I feel that my eating disorders - closet eating, binging, anorexia, always just a mix of everything - has kept me from dating and wanting to get out there and enjoy life and have fun as I have always seen my friends do. I'm about to turn 21 and never gone on a date, but I think I'm talking to someone right now and I'm terrified that she'll ask me on a date to a restaurant. I genuinely don't know how to nonchalantly work it into a conversation or how to explain myself and my issues or if I even should? Any suggestions on how to get around this or make it go as smoothly/normally as possible? I'd love to not feel like a dysfunctional crazy freak for once",6.789316770186336,5.621289318840585,7.5753830227743295,75.86413043478264,65.23188405797102,10.784265010351968,33.4824016563147,9.957137785484203,3.0499966873706006,538,19,108,10,7,181,89,138,0.11199999999999999,0.8009999999999999,0.087,-0.6762,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,0,6,0,7,5,0,4,1,30,26,18,0,3,7,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,5,10,3,1,5,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,3,3,12,5,21,21,0,16,0,0,1,1,8,7,0,4,8,71,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31673982471633405,0.0,0.0,0.12943101278485294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694341650024414,0.17793297569073493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813481451028785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895104709561075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257112535718709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105644522896446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924732615768614,0.13597188047144146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301479445767113,0.0,0.14704858367540088,0.0,0.1988792711224602,0.0,0.10816899710518996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986552028491032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460046001549067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344357971467959,0.09298568590978967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178037023906054,0.0,0.12704683744188733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679432711257318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026953731236256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21456862011233965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254088816863535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126609862196575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529801461824965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195585993038685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20702452306703698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226163995110056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856259898428544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,usegao,2019/06/15,"I looked at myself in tinychat today (Preamble: With regards to those truly struggling, this is not meant as offence. I can't even imagine.)

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I am as a ""normal"" if not low BMI level. I have just got down here from obesity and today I saw myself on tinychat. I look straight up like a skeleton skull. (my head doesnt hold weight easily). I think my first reaction should have had some negative themes, but I feel nothing but positive energy right now. I respect everyone in here for this struggle because its the weirdest one by far and I have been on many of them. Not fentynal but I have tried heroin, meth, etc. This one is a beast. Keep your heads up.",1.749616141732286,4.454049055118112,2.9292470472440963,88.19890994094489,86.00787401574803,6.009645669291339,24.47293307086614,7.413659706084162,1.470496456692913,518,21,97,9,16,166,94,127,0.157,0.75,0.09300000000000001,-0.8832,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,1,5,5,0,2,4,0,12,5,3,0,0,20,20,8,0,3,8,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,2,4,0,0,0,6,3,0,3,5,5,17,2,16,14,2,17,0,1,3,0,2,13,0,2,5,74,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986130529000886,0.2129232637205444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681839788105292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954274338870011,0.1157375633355586,0.0,0.0,0.1674394863752401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860140070681025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905029216570656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014719755756055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35967244919286084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557522074890396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560837957225438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29429762829737954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776554110544568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716878999008852,0.1681376218372313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374803575871423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964520521848304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663762549760132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122801154374456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321945305212813,0.0,0.0,0.11896946301194015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133825658145635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129232637205444,0.0
EDAnonymous,unforgettable_potato,2019/06/15,"I love it and I hate it. Tldr: I am a shitty human being! What else is new!


TW: big numbers and bad habits 

So for context's sake. I have a high Bmi. At my heaviest I had a Bmi of 36, dress size 22. Since middle school, I have obsessed over my weight, my figure and my appearance. I have no official ED diagnosis but I have dealt with disorderd eating as a tween.

My modus operandi is cycles of fasting/low calorie restriction and full on 4k cal binges. I have lost and gained the same damn 50 pounds for nearly 20 years.

Anyhow, I took a new job about 10 months ago. I haven't seen my family since then. I going home at the end of the month to visit. I casually had mentioned I had lost weight. Completely on purpose. Because I use those positive comments to fuel restriction. I want to get down to 170 (ugw 125) before I go back to NC. I want to be smaller than what I was when I was 14. Because thin people are thin beautiful and successful. I want to visit my old coworkers and have them be fucking jealous. (yes. I am a worthless petty bitch.)

I want so badly to hit 170 before I go home. I am obsessed with it. So I started doing excerise purging. I must protect my deficet at all costs. I sort of love it. My neck is thinner, veins/tendons are more prominent in my hand. The rest of me is a fucking potato though. Whenever I pass a reflective surface, I have to touch and admire my neck. I have started wearing bracelets because I love seeing them so loose on my wrist. I know these behaviors are toeing me in the danger zone. But I don't want to stop. Not until I am thin. 

When I visit my boyfriend, I try to think of any excuse I can to not eat in front of him. ""ate on the way."" ""my stomach is upset"" ""I am so bloated today!"" (I have some mild digestive issues.)

A few days ago, he and I were texting. Just typical idle chit chat. He asked what I was gonna have for dinner. I wasn't thinking and said that I was probably going to skip because I wasn't hungry. He told me he was concerned about me. That I was looking really skinny. Thank God this was just text because I fucking smiled like psychopath. I was happy!

I want to look thin, even slightly sickly. I want people to look at me and feel concerned. It's probably related to my bpd but I like it? My stupid broken brain wants people to feel bad for me.

And then I feel guilty as shit. Because this is so far from fucking healthy. I don't want to worry him. I don't want to cause him this extra stress. Because I know I could fucking lose him if I act like a damn idiot. He is so kind and geninue and funny. Fuck, I don't want to ruin this. So I tried to act casual and be like, ""you've seen me naked! You know I am not skinny!"" he points out my face is looking thinner and I have been eating less.

Ugh. I don't want to worry him. But I don't want to stop. I hate the fact that someone worrying that I don't eat enough makes me fucking happy. In fact it gives me more motivation to not eat...",0.4071560396863916,2.656806901477836,2.558495339855224,91.99685353500313,86.71756978653532,5.270066375263074,21.056939337172466,6.716623685940359,0.4632079419042992,2269,76,485,28,71,764,280,609,0.156,0.64,0.204,0.9819,1,0,0,0,0,0,96.0,0,1,2,6,17,45,17,4,17,1,59,33,12,4,4,71,120,37,0,16,11,0,11,4,0,2,2,1,2,1,20,19,12,5,11,3,1,13,15,30,0,0,23,19,99,15,60,89,11,62,0,5,7,10,29,27,11,5,25,309,119,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054955254024442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04046557133395278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05562932225868005,0.0,0.0,0.04575581989887778,0.1490530502949051,0.25391669074548023,0.0,0.10126907189062677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494470671637518,0.06642747423745861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061128224027179025,0.0,0.0,0.062390062069921925,0.0,0.0,0.0475100541286442,0.0,0.0,0.038375926339147166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044433364281084,0.04970895268852184,0.0,0.05270393836606773,0.061484770462366826,0.0,0.0393026183558419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056096199543206035,0.0,0.0902628395850177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850811404676438,0.031089007028894482,0.05708280269651263,0.13527268849415794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266887675522302,0.0,0.1174981161415473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287050280433726,0.11937711941483325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062107960903571,0.059049721628859984,0.0,0.0,0.06196550095125921,0.09810749259971316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628492508124658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19987749931223314,0.06657108942718393,0.12991389346935595,0.0,0.16111727806463574,0.0,0.039720177974682726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499295367970788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494097118924207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06244068954518545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237602239679284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625164057085859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831332350440455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038120549951978125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056603064499112024,0.0,0.0,0.060222431512554624,0.04741793415842789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061081224858775575,0.09844662008205124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050418556396393366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423616286697305,0.0,0.0,0.09949801058071367,0.06816299681675131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054784386362763074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076257049117121,0.05846354938257075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05640396461053152,0.056859761351847976,0.06611245820689926,0.08080023919634675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139338070124723,0.0,0.0,0.4562701544471908,0.04723245196734227,0.0,0.14492258703745292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812912339181008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038319392934147975
EDAnonymous,mildolconf,2019/06/15,When you drop down to your lowest adult weight just to realize you hate your actual body shape too No boobs. No curves. Still can't stop. Still not happy with my body. It never ends yall.,0.5902631578947393,3.0518722368421076,1.3476842105263138,98.93678947368423,89.78947368421049,5.145263157894737,10.23157894736842,6.742157984588678,-1.0842799999999997,147,1,33,2,5,45,32,38,0.33799999999999997,0.621,0.04,-0.9171,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,5,0,0,5,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,6,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,2,0,9,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,0,6,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.2598106977941958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5914626534362687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23580858416207906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28341619081890146,0.0,0.2628557302170076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20533980285144726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252373554971264,0.2225875876582257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32420717617954725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Scarletkittens,2019/06/15,"Feeling stupid No matter how many compliments I get, it’s always the insults that stick. I’m not crying because I care about the person saying it, but the fact they said it means that I’m not the only one thinking it. This other person who doesn’t know about my disorder also thinks my body is disgusting. 

I wish my brain didn’t work like this. I wish I could let it bounce off like other insults. But my body will always, always be off limits. 
Anybody else feeling this stupid?",3.4854255319148923,5.450740042553196,4.056329787234045,86.90875,74.1063829787234,5.976595744680853,22.388297872340427,6.6274283507984215,0.6170468085106382,380,10,71,3,8,120,59,94,0.214,0.597,0.19,-0.6895,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,4,9,5,0,4,0,7,3,3,1,1,17,20,4,0,3,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,13,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,2,4,10,4,4,14,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,2,46,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108502722143653,0.40917829033952097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999227860548476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641515068679129,0.0,0.18298650607938186,0.0,0.0,0.1671251494210395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087504693563248,0.0,0.18005603623424415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878640311908658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693231118230012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576355726370226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564029927374205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008495102922816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676170841248213,0.0,0.160163941159763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618694890039393,0.0,0.1785545680213573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107496196410288,0.12466689403572034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862534482801437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592339050937046,0.1303540354005766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006384996642072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769948234676277,0.0,0.0,0.11933413048215435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,awlas,2019/06/15,Mukbangs I can’t stop watching them,2.255714285714287,5.171803142857144,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,89.0,2.8000000000000003,35.57142857142857,3.1291,1.6654000000000004,30,2,5,0,1,9,7,7,0.355,0.645,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pnkrckpixikat,2019/06/15,"When Life Meets Meme Y’all know that meme that says something about dating for the horrible breakup to kill the appetite?

Yeah, legit...  we didn’t break up but one of the guys I am dating said something that REALLY hurt my feelings, i was in the middle of eating when i got the text and it flipped the switch. The slice of pizza, single breadstick, and tall frap I had all were the least appetizing things ever and got thrown away. And i was SUPER tempted to go purge what I’d already eaten, but public and boarding was about to start. (I’m at the airport to go out of town for the weekend)

Hopefully it’ll last, i’ve been stalled for a couple months.",3.8467968750000026,5.453030085937503,4.0598125,88.75393750000002,72.359375,6.370000000000001,25.3,6.742157984588678,0.8853162499999994,513,16,102,4,10,159,87,128,0.1,0.815,0.086,-0.2118,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,1,5,4,1,0,11,1,9,4,0,0,2,14,20,9,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,7,7,3,0,2,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,11,3,8,2,18,8,3,20,0,1,0,0,7,8,0,1,9,66,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23823834996922916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20283437093507764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388765408551289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22090785234803628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528352597880666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091597223175999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453888418711203,0.0,0.3453315420959757,0.0,0.0,0.21376357651246009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442601243348933,0.0,0.0,0.23111312552141774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23884866057509996,0.0,0.11864668449050518,0.17597795786568693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248844609233367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723201567801116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462916482318333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830371390319626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20535942027046036,0.17168321604813186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33240305974835643,0.0,0.0,0.1528070054620545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342673962864064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plsmakemeskinny,2019/06/15,"Made this account just to admit something no one else knows Background- I’ve been in recovery since December and have honestly been doing pretty good food wise. I haven’t weighed myself but I can tell I gained a decent bit back. 
Today I took some pictures for Instagram and I looked super good in one specific picture(like it made me so happy cause all the other ones were trash) and then I noticed my arms and I wanted to cry. It super pissed me off that they literally ruined the photo for me so I downloaded Facetune for the first time since the depths of my anorexia. I fixed my arms a little and then my waist looked too big so I fixed that too and etc.  I LOVED THE NEW PICTURE. I spent forever making sure it looked real and not photoshopped, so people wouldn’t call BS. And then I posted it and now people are saying super nice stuff about me and it’s one of my most liked pictures and I feel TERRIBLE. Why can’t that really be me? I looked the the original picture and now I want to relapse. I miss having tiny arms and a small waist. Fuck!",1.41,4.020190000000003,2.7338461538461547,89.71115384615385,86.5,5.7,19.53846153846154,7.1686216300943375,0.6216865384615384,832,24,162,13,26,268,123,208,0.111,0.6409999999999999,0.247,0.987,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,5,11,17,2,0,10,0,12,10,6,5,2,32,29,21,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,11,13,4,0,3,0,2,1,5,5,0,5,7,6,29,12,12,20,5,20,0,2,4,2,6,7,2,2,12,112,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036072272612176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249247276080873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327405126279435,0.0,0.0,0.1340785228172129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336851878893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090315161831687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556270487401904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06599410986467429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101902766859274,0.15782357107778516,0.0,0.0,0.12066231340607425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189455656490037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893944312355455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172959187789461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376477980887993,0.13081389406923807,0.0,0.0,0.4384109023070445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177981038329724,0.246999650594232,0.08712215794972811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605564674492478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859625527896309,0.0,0.0,0.3537710393804953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097028311907526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500070993347953,0.13278430641047895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148558705074555,0.08361353708343414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379360428232114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21593261716682555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047957057165427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941253460887574,0.0,0.0,0.12301220616298947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407898168510155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610642687974772,0.0,0.12371634177776752,0.0,0.14501093197562098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539664666110086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777270718316032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toucanna,2019/06/15,"Today, my manager called me skinny She asked me how I do it. I didn’t have the heart to tell her I have a crippling ED and strict binge/restrict cycle I’m working on breaking. Instead, I munched on more carrots and told her about controlling my portions. I wish compliments like this didn’t absolutely fuel the shit out of me to keep starving myself. I did make lunch when I got home, though, which was a win.",4.101851851851851,5.4543588765432105,4.6799382716049385,85.55472222222225,71.34567901234567,7.375308641975309,29.549382716049386,7.793537801064563,1.835656790123456,323,13,64,4,6,103,61,81,0.035,0.77,0.195,0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,0,4,0,7,4,3,3,0,8,14,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,16,3,7,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,3,44,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485620718470761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714933852134444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982072238017506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21264866405677665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150692867870151,0.0,0.0,0.26669949343358074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23632651543271185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298956230689413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774770809827947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27292217818608083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323909915390784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612259213673628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25202331674632805,0.2540599006514121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057490789343504,0.0,0.0,0.19356393355615048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,milkeyedmenders,2019/06/15,"i planned a huge all-day binge for today and i can’t even do it? 

of course binging never REALLY makes you feel better. but i’m not getting the usual temporary relief and rush of endorphins while i stuff my face with carbs yknow. before all the guilt and regret and bloating? im just wasting money trying to force myself into that good feeling but it isn’t working. and god knows i’m capable of a real, compulsive, thousands of calories binge that i can’t stop no matter how hard i try. been there x100000

should it be a victory that an ED behavior lost its charm? maybe, but no, bc i feel more scared and hopeless than ever. i could always depend on my disorder to numb things and now it isn’t and nothing else will either. and this is still my life. shit haha",1.9740789473684224,4.372050092105269,3.3307894736842094,88.10302631578949,80.97368421052632,5.905263157894738,22.0,7.1686216300943375,0.8575447368421054,602,19,116,8,16,196,108,152,0.239,0.607,0.154,-0.9554,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,1,0,4,7,12,1,2,6,1,11,4,2,3,3,33,20,14,0,3,6,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,11,11,0,1,4,0,1,1,8,7,0,1,2,4,12,5,11,14,3,12,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,1,8,79,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707092215911528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062850751910762,0.0,0.0,0.16695083204847355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150716678732443,0.0,0.0,0.12174038247685312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634561742163885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769226934989292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468013797757133,0.17075235923872387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863418205834272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986240064428709,0.0,0.0,0.15833047324264013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909993758140465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20390290278417714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037425005056746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333312063270875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606365225225756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260047670498529,0.0,0.1896438233482544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559028280039107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18112893762163745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21486043810976932,0.12093024909336783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18899069062094154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376865618163627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075115974691486,0.15781932866889134,0.0,0.0,0.2160953316673239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540972950358556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17893093092302392,0.0,0.0,0.2563235070093965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079023740788311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742607339457205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EveningInternet,2019/08/05,"I am going to binge and it’s gonna be bad. I’ve counted out exactly the amount of money I need to buy a gigantic pizza and wings from my favorite pizza place and I want to do it so bad but I can’t bring myself to make the call. You’d think I was being held hostage with how stressed out I am, like fuck. I need to save money because my classes are starting up again soon and I’ve wasted so much fucking money on binge food and I want to lose weight but I just need this food, I’m not hungry but I need it so bad it’s hurting me. 

Everyday I say I’ll do good and then I do shit like this. Someone please talk me down the metaphorical edge.",-0.3884308510638306,1.6089074751773038,1.822761524822696,97.69031250000003,87.72340425531914,4.6597517730496465,18.741578014184398,5.985473137389443,-0.3245996453900708,498,14,119,4,16,167,86,141,0.214,0.6459999999999999,0.141,-0.9392,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,7,13,3,1,4,0,11,8,1,2,1,26,27,14,0,6,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,9,5,1,1,0,4,2,2,9,0,0,2,2,18,4,14,21,2,13,0,2,0,2,4,6,3,0,7,71,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885399438401327,0.09455576537263208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583882521660265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751277812410805,0.0,0.0,0.28679990953396783,0.0,0.0,0.08815459107786612,0.13010186579481867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605223707578776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156126684804236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353235842030013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353948268129357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140262887605617,0.4600588545933764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206061981285733,0.17026807117260812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335250119974747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922180478265865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142718670967615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979015164361493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768201927271107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246743761212436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939048386718324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297995226850602,0.0,0.0,0.18888648611112466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hoiImaThrowAway,2019/08/05,"After a bad relationship with my ex, I may be anorexic, brain says I don't deserve to eat. First post here, so I'm sorry if I didn't get the format right. Also marking this NSFW/Spoiler because I don't want to trigger anyone.

So, a bit of backstory: My ex husband of 10 years was the type of person who constantly put me down about my weight. He had me doing some dangerous dietary/exercise routines (Severe calorie restriction diet was one boiled egg, one small salad, and a small plate of whatever he deemed would be my dinner that night and water whenever I would be hungry otherwise) to get me from 170 down to - at my lightest, 115. And still, he pushed me to lose that last 15 to be ""beautiful"" in his eyes. (For reference, I'm 5'2 and biological female.) It got to the point that when I saw my doctor, they asked if I was doing okay. I got treats very rarely when I ""earned"" them.  For context: I kept up this diet while being a full time CNA, and only strayed from it when I felt like I was going to pass out doing a double.  


I left him in 2017, divorced and moved onto a really nice guy who is the exact opposite. I bulked up to 165, and he says I'm super attractive. And I believe him, I really do!

There's just one small problem.

I have depression as well as anxiety. When things go wrong, or I feel like a colossal fuck up, my brain clicks into a mentality of ""You don't deserve to eat.""

So I don't. And I usually don't hydrate, either. I literally lay in bed and just think about what I did and why I don't deserve food. Or, if I do eat, I make sure to make it as little as possible. Today, for instance, my boyfriend and I got into a fight. After crying, I knew I needed to eat SOMETHING for lunch, so I took some Chicken Ramen flavor packets, some celery stalks, garlic pieces and 1/4 of a medium size onion and made a soup of sorts with it and seasonings. I ate maybe a half of a cup of that and put the rest in the fridge.  


My question is: Does this qualify as anorexia, and if so, how should I approach my doctor about it in such a way that I don't get laughed out of the office? I'm a big girl as it is, but my brain says I don't NEED to eat when I get this upset. And, I don't think my boyfriend knows, but that's a discussion I'm not sure how to approach him about.",3.694740503307642,4.10129436575053,5.254091250085249,84.56962899815862,71.51585623678648,8.217390711314192,26.67455500238696,8.259297600419973,1.5594464843483609,1757,54,379,25,31,597,235,473,0.07,0.889,0.040999999999999995,-0.8514,0,0,1,0,2,0,73.0,0,1,2,4,25,20,3,1,23,1,34,23,4,6,3,67,66,46,0,11,12,3,3,2,0,4,2,3,1,3,20,24,16,2,8,0,0,10,11,9,1,5,17,10,58,11,60,40,9,55,0,2,3,1,28,25,1,12,20,256,78,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056420179918073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750212032200056,0.0,0.0,0.061698327983484375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249097538870998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367536282582607,0.05378929835823059,0.0,0.0,0.09941443949922044,0.0,0.0,0.09633345904838213,0.0,0.0,0.29550964778838473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535434313309728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692571871332724,0.0,0.0,0.07599958868174526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806314448740329,0.07721800227125596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514494650099613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04461597694886511,0.06303751736845897,0.08472268385797818,0.0,0.0,0.07505552222015409,0.10669820115208836,0.0,0.0,0.08157496183464456,0.1844036496978755,0.0,0.10029581131194773,0.0,0.21171688322515034,0.0,0.0,0.08736987049525666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04849350683474732,0.07192605793554635,0.0,0.0,0.0958712596726396,0.0,0.0,0.08621763220797057,0.08843803930914967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871617838523243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349329008215707,0.1177996096558045,0.0,0.08864731425288082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08892353465471213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378343514925884,0.0,0.13085528362309368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280574359797191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937783277790398,0.06710926529811226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704635120542658,0.0,0.0,0.08341379167496904,0.09947551707133123,0.08450797812744196,0.0,0.0,0.08443221423373874,0.0,0.17740789000711474,0.09884718157286616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130555333128134,0.0,0.0,0.09473499942954873,0.0,0.07535509566749818,0.0,0.210512107774265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09968425502877083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793021700951034,0.0,0.09877564389714732,0.0,0.0,0.07046728544135318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16632726059495787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058621659832589865,0.11307918390025942,0.0,0.0,0.0514525098420171,0.0,0.08363966821089625,0.0,0.09803608854827432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718211098835544,0.07280590580145051,0.05204528358137642,0.07003952006944522,0.0,0.10745057709838768,0.07933690196455134,0.0,0.07962141469388928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536402905757096,0.09647481826787256,0.0,0.056822624671611636
EDAnonymous,sweet_chinchilla,2019/08/05,"When you almost out yourself to your boyfriend! So, I'm home from work, boyfriend is still working. He texts me. It says ""126.66"". I respond ""Omg I wish i weighed that much."".....

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He was texting how much he owed me. For clothes I bought him on my card, after I returned the stuff he didn't like. Ooops. lmao

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My goal weight is mid to low 120s. I'm a tall bitch. Love ya ladies. <3",-0.92229337304542,0.5330035316455692,-0.6333432613551739,107.88026061057337,114.9493670886076,1.858823529411765,18.571109456440805,3.1291,-1.1895307520476543,305,11,70,0,17,88,62,79,0.139,0.777,0.084,-0.5496,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,3,0,3,4,4,1,0,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,4,10,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,13,2,7,7,2,9,0,1,0,1,11,5,1,1,5,35,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519047005126088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007643376397321,0.44944413830248997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18550967327626736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035223233949492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669153673637633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27190402796603913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707153192684422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769314311886308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117117957887778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252068227433604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21267161406047635,0.0,0.0,0.2692767174753797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44944413830248997,0.0
EDAnonymous,amooni95,2019/08/05,"DAE look at calories as debt? I naturally burn around 1600 calories a day. Since I want to lose about 10lbs I know that I am currently 35,000 calories in debt. If I burn off an extra 300 calories a day, I could achieve my goal within about 4 months. But of course I will mess up because who is perfect? But I can't focus on the possibility of messing up! I'm thinking around new years I should be happy with my body. I'm realizing, day by day, that it has nothing to do with an eating disorder. Yes, I want to look hot but who doesn't? For me, my issue lies with controlling my impulsive decisions. Skipping meals and over working out isn't gonna help me out in the end; figuring out self control is the answer. I can only tackle self-discipline day by day. If I mess up then so be it. I'll just get back up and start again immediately; not tomorrow or Monday. Guys, I think I'm finally getting out of this cycle that I've been in since I was about 11 (24yrs old now). I could cry from the feeling of finally feeling released from this prison I've built myself all these years. I'm not sick. I've been telling myself I've been mentally sick but I'm not. I just lack self-discipline. I'm the type of person to cut their own hair at 2am or do my own piercing because of impulsive thoughts. No more though. Proper sleep has helped me out the most. My mood is more stable and my habits are healthier. I don't know what this rant is truly about lol",1.8096320346320385,3.8007705488215535,3.4060449735449723,89.53541666666668,79.20202020202021,6.667099567099568,23.738455988455982,7.7094869923839395,1.0879082251082255,1131,39,244,18,28,374,163,297,0.126,0.7659999999999999,0.10800000000000001,-0.816,3,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,7,13,8,1,0,10,2,25,7,3,2,2,48,46,15,0,8,13,0,4,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,12,13,2,2,11,0,2,0,8,5,0,0,5,6,30,2,43,34,8,42,0,1,2,0,9,20,0,5,22,151,42,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19978510929794446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628417440265587,0.0,0.13680690285612387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464234083116026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517108116395949,0.17918445370994648,0.0,0.123259716979048,0.4342051081276759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286047821523975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482098668166847,0.0,0.0,0.09938660961020496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134756133761778,0.0,0.0,0.2458457297701225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725237621858535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110761573605596,0.0,0.11945186140793275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042680352661675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712027327322545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333766531979523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845979645800684,0.1255366312526905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308339891432025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956662344197608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837514032118184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767053126353747,0.0,0.11774771730559705,0.0,0.0,0.08534235450739852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797927288976006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650227662300345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35118506203345784,0.0,0.0,0.18564600864512198,0.0,0.11229313295570104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942429819733915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807831673608212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380195874525112,0.11024781333330977,0.08908386899735822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237120156536286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816917413978575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452181996699465
EDAnonymous,Brave_Mushroom,2019/08/05,"Do you ever just want to disappear for a few months, cut out everyone to lose weight and come back skinny? Because that's where I'm at. Don't want to see my friends, family, people in my program. I just want to disappear and come back when I'm skinny.",2.9136538461538457,4.198840750000002,4.456923076923079,86.26307692307695,74.19230769230771,8.276923076923078,24.538461538461537,8.841846274778883,1.6424461538461537,197,6,42,4,4,66,36,52,0.16,0.7090000000000001,0.131,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,11,10,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,8,10,1,13,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,5,26,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781417789902992,0.0,0.14988961180399085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236174356080172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22241765030335808,0.0,0.23495427858215465,0.0,0.0,0.2317991103289464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18997064551556447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750831505254596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962635822905931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704661518574679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593903047022626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350891863444869,0.0,0.0,0.29942248330011345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,afteralltheseye,2019/08/05,"I'm done acting like this is the problem I know how many calories I had so far today. I'm done acting like if I had a little bit less at this point or a little bit more later my day would be better. I'm done convincing myself that this is a way for me to have control over my life. I'm done acting like these numbers are the root of my problems, I'm done acting like this eating disorder is keeping me from everything else in life. I'm done isolating myself and convincing myself that it's the eating disorder's fault. I'm done convincing myself that I'm a slave. I'm done ignoring my real world problems, I'm done with convincing myself I'm overly concerned about what other people have to say about food. I'm done letting these things in my head that I conveniently make up control my life. I'm done letting the world move on, I'm done wasting my time and missing out on life. I'm done with it.",2.875645161290322,4.415778069892472,4.4718064516129035,85.08770967741935,74.75268817204302,7.110537634408603,24.765591397849466,7.793537801064563,1.3283875268817216,715,23,143,10,15,240,86,186,0.11199999999999999,0.763,0.126,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,4,15,0,0,8,0,25,8,1,5,0,20,44,6,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,1,4,1,0,0,15,5,3,4,1,0,0,5,0,6,0,0,15,1,18,9,18,25,4,25,0,1,0,0,1,15,0,2,8,92,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05714872845670777,0.14109065661757034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494753631998122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041672796565430686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811399010264553,0.0,0.0,0.8596367873144829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223920759643068,0.05397944155308239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058073840006959684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813546512900063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631596598638165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05743480278973796,0.0,0.0,0.0355119643195146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215108278963186,0.18256436848692664,0.1262749460094161,0.1295269697502675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313253266262235,0.06551177452275016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867793690671217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04479748224384912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061084210795710324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854900155707681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354860519688403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05138625043541505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04292884611170235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03767885255000668,0.0,0.06124962097138183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05129018501668494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04590225802821391,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cm26293,2019/08/05,"Off my chest (maybe trigger warning?) Hi all. I have struggled with an ED/disordered eating for most of my life. While I’m still not quite ready to relinquish my ED as it’s given me a sense of “control” and identity in my life, I recognize that I need a community to talk about these issues with in order to start getting better. This post is my first step in trying to improve. 


My body dysmorphia stemmed from being a competitive athlete in high school. I was fit and didn’t really have to think much about what I ate. There were other catalysts as well - romantic rejection resulting in self-esteem issues and experimentation with giving up sweets for Lent (leading to weight loss) - that acted as the seeds for the growth into my fully-fledged ED, which was to come later. When I transitioned out of my sport, I gained weight and my brother made a distasteful comment about how I was getting “chunky” - which was super hurtful and I internalized. I started running and lost the weight and more, and for the first time in a long time, I felt good about myself. However, this was the start of my slow descent into my ED. When my weight plateaued despite running longer and longer mileages and working out for longer durations, I cut out sweets. Then I tapered back on carbs. Then meats. Foods became classified as good and bad. Increasingly restrictive, I started to eat the same meals every day with little deviation. My family noticed and teased my “creature of habit” tendencies, but I don’t think they fully grasped what was going on. While they are aware now (I confessed to them after it came out that my cousin was put into in-patient treatment for an ED), it has done little to change my thoughts and behaviors.. now I’m just under increased scrutiny.


As I stated earlier, I recognize this has/will continue to affect romantic relationships and create anxiety around situations where I am unable to control food/exercise (i.e. travel). I want a relationship where I don’t have to hide my restrictive eating patterns, or my partner doesn’t feel restricted to my limited food choices or thinks that they’re odd. I want to travel without feeling guilt and anxiety from deviating from my normal diet, or feeling like I need to be exercising constantly throughout the duration of it. BUT I’m also not quite ready to give it up... my ED has been with me longer than not, and it’s hard for me to dissociate with something that has become, in many ways, my identity (athlete/runner, vegetarian, etc.). Plus, as much as I hate to admit it.. I just like being thin. I’m sure part of this is brainwashing from media, but it’s also how I grew up in competitive sports. I guess I’d like to hear some of your experiences and what helped some of you all move past the active phase of your ED. My greatest fear is that I might not ever fully recover and that I’ll continue to experience active/inactive phases throughout the rest of my life. That’s it... thanks for listening to me. I’m hoping I can give and receive support from this sub and make progress towards getting better. Any thoughts, reading, resources would be appreciated.",7.3319665613212335,7.76866283535529,7.429915893567131,72.0202515546947,63.62738301559793,10.601060250790091,35.16816189213987,10.39495659498063,3.741581139769599,2484,105,428,55,34,802,290,577,0.08,0.769,0.151,0.9903,1,0,1,0,0,0,85.0,0,3,3,16,22,26,3,3,17,0,32,18,2,11,4,94,76,44,0,7,13,2,10,3,1,2,4,2,0,1,29,37,12,6,12,6,0,17,9,11,1,2,19,14,64,15,91,51,15,80,1,4,0,0,24,31,0,9,31,299,93,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183251374554264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050309608205743886,0.0,0.11319050541185575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585876347973503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056886812575747715,0.061771034116235815,0.0,0.08170618796102826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308603423378287,0.0,0.08217619894902106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461454058615751,0.0,0.0,0.07826207491880273,0.06372806974039852,0.0,0.07994716492581815,0.1659519357305251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04771161644355777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478862073255365,0.0,0.0,0.07570823554609357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22710305780899195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250835670827561,0.0,0.06692003840533005,0.062332172481878265,0.0,0.0,0.14473520262167064,0.06974269058403153,0.08324917852815086,0.112221030010515,0.052852032031051314,0.07103334947100821,0.0,0.0,0.12585637982220685,0.2683743101104738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595603706331133,0.21290791240140425,0.042045099912926064,0.12410348410259242,0.0,0.0,0.0814983980806705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627243317596393,0.07304090851961298,0.0,0.0,0.0833819493381588,0.0,0.04958789626156564,0.07816497480490066,0.0,0.0734798130831997,0.0,0.0,0.07919817689868841,0.0,0.0,0.15443385952613928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676487739127867,0.1084301202519373,0.14829676933531236,0.0,0.06547084561776455,0.0,0.0,0.08075898678146258,0.0,0.0,0.07000259886516373,0.04938288342149316,0.07500510923615743,0.0743238453534685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784821362907444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863008134534696,0.10876907589312644,0.10971192918426192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248565979589004,0.0,0.0842278442591581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011419973282696,0.0706232233965981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085333549486726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437132581230707,0.0,0.15737577275379264,0.07400100749638712,0.0,0.04739411478573012,0.0,0.0,0.1588557872622494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487270869327207,0.0,0.0,0.0771783042935574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315772928406699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056954178323324965,0.0,0.0,0.20945649404617853,0.0,0.05908131193553505,0.0,0.0,0.07734099080603478,0.0,0.0,0.08395274754950888,0.0697262048981025,0.0,0.0,0.0594631151538012,0.0,0.06811175334598885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14221208811116653,0.0,0.1174652801457226,0.08627781714033415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05022823406286394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727180605257709,0.05872266410037831,0.0,0.36035564721655294,0.06651779224371683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07131503163403573,0.0,0.05385903978404789,0.0,0.0,0.052553970681970416,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LanayruPromenade,2019/08/05,Severe dehydration Anyone else have that feeling of extreme dehydration after purging and feel like you’re legit dying? Asking for a friend...,8.279565217391307,11.536935434782613,8.390652173913043,55.38858695652178,64.21739130434783,8.078260869565218,33.23913043478261,8.841846274778883,3.84388695652174,117,5,12,2,2,38,22,23,0.106,0.732,0.163,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498413370233092,0.3661090706575131,0.0,0.0,0.33403912645718786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37083415424278215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984888986416622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613360587823205,0.2552642532903276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760588937885969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745649291467784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036616286137828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ResidentCyborg,2019/08/05,"Having an ED is the reason I'm in medical school Having an eating disorder in high school introduced me to the world of nutrition and human biology, which made me ace those subjects in high school. My mind is half gone and I'm all out of friends and it's the only thing I'm good at now.

I'm in my first year of medical school now. Funny how that works, huh?",1.6367428571428595,3.5459562933333366,3.6925714285714304,87.67200000000004,79.4,7.485714285714287,21.38095238095238,8.418075326091056,1.1882952380952374,282,8,61,6,7,96,49,75,0.035,0.851,0.115,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,1,4,3,0,3,1,9,10,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,2,10,8,1,14,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,0,4,37,9,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19588044440413052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488607749806515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537802005548933,0.0,0.0,0.13204651437231735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335323188470864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611567181854893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172146753517988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443525714055683,0.0,0.0,0.17257282600508814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998659962422268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17572643670583565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6918899883436012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135466197121455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442627981125445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006199710241844
EDAnonymous,nosleep808,2019/08/05,"humiliated at the gym today :/ i'm a 17 yo girl and i joined a gym last week. i was on the stationary bike today when an employee asked me how long i would be on the bike for, i said 5 min and she said ok just sign up next time. i hadn't realized you had to sign up for the cardio equipment, the signups are not easy to spot and no one had told me in the 5 or so times i'd been there.

a minute later, two women in their 40s-50s come up and start aggressively yelling at me about how i didn't sign up. i try to explain to them that i didn't know and the employee told me 5 min would be fine, but they kept interrupting me. even after i'd gotten off of the bike. they seemed so genuinely angry.

i just feel so stupid and insecure. like i looked like a fool. i never want to go back to the gym again, this made my gym anxiety 10x worse. i feel like i don't belong there. i know it doesn't make sense to let something like this stop me from getting fit, but tbh my feelings are really hurt and i feel like they thought it was ok to disrespect me bc i look super young and honestly bc of my race.

i understand gym etiquette is important but it was an honest mistake, i genuinely didn't know. fuck i just want to hide in a hole i'll never fit in at the gym",1.325787439613528,2.7591527703703704,3.2356682769726253,92.773115942029,78.7037037037037,7.066022544283412,21.36876006441224,7.893859768569023,0.6494122383252816,968,26,234,16,23,326,142,270,0.184,0.657,0.159,-0.6904,2,0,1,0,1,0,23.0,0,1,5,1,15,18,3,1,17,2,20,2,0,4,2,45,50,18,0,5,8,0,4,5,0,2,1,3,0,2,6,9,0,2,12,9,0,2,10,7,0,2,18,9,36,11,30,27,0,38,0,1,2,1,15,16,1,2,25,141,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339136974882926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634943756834746,0.0,0.0,0.10392400760912998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164219984341299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08926701823064527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733488635569214,0.19310609015540411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494640169908085,0.07061165574502944,0.0,0.07681033767640524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468365454100734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22282900470318787,0.11016740829941077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820269127476575,0.0,0.33014366985660143,0.0,0.0,0.11960579877975885,0.22698829138375734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788465881148076,0.09021541056852893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084760353936284,0.0,0.14373632431505445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158290013713496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658221690768474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571221461534805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303785186988868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040470751206818,0.0,0.0,0.09566170653370727,0.0,0.0,0.11299362607353244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729606841144244,0.15761713689006698,0.0,0.2562177253221395,0.2582882039680242,0.0,0.09175974435185033,0.0,0.1320244526245982,0.14069862393476296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943301137137628,0.0,0.1084112641515102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773204671252126,0.19201705990366966,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BrowncoatIona,2019/08/05,"People constantly spouting misinformation about nutrition drives me insane And how accepted it is by almost everyone.

At work I was serving myself some mostly veggie minestrone style soup. My coworker ( a nurse, nonetheless) commented on how she'd like to have some but she needs to ""be good"" as she was ""naughty yesterday"".

Another coworker comments about when you cook veggies they lose on nutritional value. I say that isn't entirely true. ""Oh but it IS,"" says the aforementioned nurse, as she eats her ducking bagel piled with 2 inches of strawberry cream cheese (because that's way less ""naughty"" than low cal  veggie soup?).

I want to say how while some vitamins are lessened by cooking, the nutritional value of certain veggies (like the carrots and zucchini in my soup) are actually heightened when boiled. 

But I just shut my mouth and have my soup.",7.065110565110565,9.17458791891892,6.71943488943489,70.85160933660936,65.08108108108108,10.516953316953318,36.42751842751843,10.637119530657019,4.496289189189191,684,34,106,19,11,214,102,148,0.08,0.809,0.111,0.5889,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,2,8,8,0,0,4,0,11,6,1,3,2,21,13,14,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,4,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,4,17,6,17,9,5,14,0,2,1,0,12,7,0,5,7,70,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.2319925095111102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23805463813647415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492831286327364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491945225784825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569042467374163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24325957462998354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271634768277995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199398641155374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322880650224329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659617235625625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762755474277572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16481369895061454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5671629912165143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022071712083142,0.1887008976631028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17307200397362638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elinaaaaaa,2019/08/05,"I was okay for like a week. frick Tfw you can just see those ED thoughts looming in the corners of your mind

""darn i'm doing it again aren't i""",-1.892187500000002,-0.028083343749996104,-0.18774999999999945,107.80775,101.1875,2.5600000000000005,15.775,3.1291,-1.55242,111,3,29,0,5,35,30,32,0.049,0.809,0.142,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,3,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,3,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745312491435785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673904248268857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477864929517179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44611068420579536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507473940311478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thatza_Latza_Matza,2019/08/05,"I am wearing size 2 shorts that I have never got in before WHY MY ASS THE SAME FUCKIN SIZE 

I LOOK LIKE A ROTISSERIE CHICKEN 

Body dysmorphia is a bitch",-0.9834562211981536,0.2789108387096775,0.9823041474654416,95.90774193548387,118.03225806451613,4.352073732718893,17.33179723502304,6.1826913282559595,0.1502958525345628,120,4,25,2,7,39,27,31,0.24100000000000002,0.6609999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,3,4,3,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,4,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824440377330315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992313515994807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594617032999939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195758065383794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37742005758436775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.346639189200286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055536182428648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychicelium,2019/08/05,Getting excited by the small bump my collar bone makes in my shadow I want to see all my bonesssss,2.1744999999999983,4.465879450000003,3.0599999999999987,90.935,79.5,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,1.094,79,3,16,1,2,25,18,20,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,3,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005394800420893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5117403530570209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.610915449143636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521860789302537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheOceansHaveOrgans,2019/08/05,DAE see certain kids as irl thinspo? I feel bad since I work at a summer camp I get to see little kids all the time and there’s one girl that’s SO SKINNY but she’s like eight or nine and I’m a full 7 years older than her I still think wow I wish I looked like that and she’s just talking about how she loves Wendy’s and had it over the weekend and I’m here Witt my best camp counselor smile and voice like “that sounds so fun honey . . . “,-0.8790549828178662,1.1487009484536088,0.5789948453608282,105.30876718213062,91.06185567010307,3.233333333333334,13.237972508591067,3.1291,-1.7877965635738828,340,5,87,0,12,107,68,97,0.02,0.624,0.35600000000000004,0.9911,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,8,9,0,0,4,0,1,2,1,1,2,15,11,12,0,1,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,3,4,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,11,8,6,10,3,10,0,0,3,1,10,4,0,1,9,47,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21569717836494048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711044374557341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306208747232936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349682763492474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786252136252771,0.25891742921182404,0.0,0.0,0.21693457061926374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331555254697753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750530566682608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117157447619319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21369564187969092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20630498519117815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20763819707679587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552928932808875,0.0,0.0,0.1506359896585006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970700823532469,0.0,0.0,0.1880694256956068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635791584673829
EDAnonymous,rachelleeann17,2019/08/05,"It literally takes me an hour+ to decide on lunch I’m sure my coworkers hate me, because if they task me with running out for lunch for the day, I will spend hours sifting through nutrition calculators on various websites. And God forbid they suggest a local place where I can’t get any nutrition info— then I just don’t get to eat for the day. Why is it so hard to eat out for less than 500 calories?? Why are French fries so tempting?? WHY AM I LIKE THIS",2.060350241545894,4.248989358695649,3.4031884057971027,88.87031400966184,79.32608695652175,6.697584541062803,25.439613526570053,7.793537801064563,1.404046859903382,359,14,75,6,9,117,67,92,0.09300000000000001,0.826,0.081,-0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,4,4,1,0,4,0,6,4,0,0,1,9,11,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,1,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,10,2,14,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,6,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401428279903826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562567543568512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26581168468051114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217466722785539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533868030606454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846089948683572,0.20346331136319049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058985191791794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068125641328847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215311829429796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19422984769619644,0.0,0.15494801803630556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5578708575142116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SealarksandDaffodils,2019/08/05,Does anyone else get really spacy and numb when they've been binging and purging for an extended amount of time I notice this every single time I stop binging and purging is that my emotions feel so real and that always causes me to relapse.,10.138695652173913,7.966070695652177,9.79739130434783,65.78565217391306,59.43478260869565,10.93913043478261,38.21739130434783,8.841846274778883,3.652991304347825,196,7,30,2,2,64,38,46,0.106,0.894,0.0,-0.5945,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,8,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,3,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23710833484522525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19924963847526503,0.2919737015505128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927309185070941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493691407723144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380462971092833,0.3205400058497693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400898621488924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408360109307594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14887907718364926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32442718923616576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32434520663674915,0.1825517390539032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382381010609005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332323235320451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,baby-beddies,2019/08/05,"Feeling disgusted with myself. I’ll never be as tiny as this one girl I know and it drives me fucking insane. She’s probably 3 inches shorter than me and everyone is obsessed with her because she’s so small. They think she’s “adorable” “little” “sexy.”

I just want to be all of those things too. What the hell is it going to take for me to be small enough for people to fucking think I’m those things? I probably should just never eat again.",1.4888636363636394,3.9555101590909096,2.5919999999999987,92.15300000000002,83.77272727272728,5.3381818181818215,21.3,6.742157984588678,0.4960190909090909,346,11,70,4,10,110,59,88,0.13699999999999998,0.767,0.096,-0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,5,6,4,1,1,0,6,3,0,0,3,15,16,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,4,1,0,4,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,0,1,12,1,12,12,2,9,1,0,0,2,6,4,3,0,3,51,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330451564229457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22332756337251936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255139516762185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20855033494303066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035540178627387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40354322843943213,0.0,0.0,0.12403835253339493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994627926465445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21874709529138195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366607250427805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789405172384984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130932401341093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4706278387084245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409928325217016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28999552476989005,0.27969574189262497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287314225414368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spelonberry,2019/08/05,"Recovered -- AMA! Hi everyone! 

I had anorexia about 6 years ago, but have been recovered for 3.5 years (am 23 now).  Since I've gone through the whole good, bad & ugly of disordered eating and recovery, and lived to tell the tale, I figure I can at least answer any questions people might have, whether you're curious about recovery, trying to recover yourself, or just want to know about someone else's holistic experience! 

(You might have seen me on another sub; I am not trying to spam, just trying to be as helpful as I can \^\_\^)",8.352,7.415206200000001,8.14,72.32500000000003,62.0,12.0,38.0,11.20814326018867,4.2534,420,18,76,10,5,135,74,100,0.084,0.775,0.141,0.6475,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,12,1,0,0,0,15,16,7,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,7,1,15,9,2,7,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,4,4,47,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17000863825825505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780239887563087,0.0,0.13042253029374845,0.20110661547530145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601351084936721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198058551923703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19624717486545964,0.16021440385420982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832618125222033,0.0,0.18760562864353103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160862815197616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285515656557809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540176091944237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935246523149794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069138744248488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329617666535121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484663988537536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586491536719674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625014915694098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763131141154688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906347283728661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312162998898945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21412463936638754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24701058312247856
EDAnonymous,the_shame_train,2019/08/05,"Summer break I've been on break for a week and I've binged and purged every single day. My mum just triggers me so mich. She's very mean and she never fails to make me cry. So obviously being at home with her constantly is not a great situation.

I'm constantly nauseous. All i wanna do is throw up. I feel like shit but i can't help it. I eat when I'm upset, get upset when I eat, and the cycle just goes on and on.",-1.3156043956043961,0.7134545824175831,1.6630769230769251,95.60692307692312,96.58241758241758,4.558241758241759,13.593406593406591,6.297961479604792,-0.7298747252747253,321,6,76,4,13,112,64,91,0.18100000000000002,0.7809999999999999,0.038,-0.9147,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,2,3,0,6,3,1,2,3,18,12,10,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,2,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,1,11,2,9,10,2,16,0,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,9,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715343555826614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396524626522825,0.14070334035231513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4464902710608076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838199066257194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031467077440203,0.15586261806857266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398622924548975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24053616825669225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623655967096152,0.0,0.21884500343865207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658815924698346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563196914220766,0.0,0.0,0.23765402615252346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682682335645538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239511378693037,0.0,0.24523525209470498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001532361656464,0.0,0.0,0.1750049772659135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,newfangledfit,2019/08/05,"TW Ah shit, here we go again So after a short time span where I ate healthy and sticked to my intake limit and actually lost a few lbs with exercise I went to the grocery store this morning only to pick up a whole cake, a whole baguette with lots of unhealthy stuffing and a few other (unreasonable expensive) unhealthy stuff. I devoured my whole purchase within a few minutes just to go back to purging. Fml honestly.",6.323544303797469,7.111271734177219,6.404911392405065,77.28407594936711,65.83544303797468,8.851645569620256,37.31898734177216,8.841846274778883,3.3403043037974696,333,17,59,5,5,106,58,79,0.154,0.777,0.069,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,2,6,3,1,0,7,1,0,3,1,1,0,10,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,6,1,11,2,7,12,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,1,4,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.21760870428988813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146761876701014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534637761006844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24342286956252135,0.18958041591201466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695959938037399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22889879803385246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25527328647524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002883434337134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20671646333337187,0.0,0.7468901449314759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SunkissedSadness,2019/08/05,"Give me your go-to snack or meal recipes/ combos! MUST BE

\- Tasty

\- Not super-sad because of how low calorie it is (it can be a regular or restriction meal though)

\- Decent portion size/ reasonably filing",2.5102702702702686,5.468382729729734,3.2419459459459468,84.99967567567569,86.56756756756756,6.203243243243244,26.318918918918918,7.554174236665415,1.9987664864864867,159,7,27,3,5,50,33,37,0.114,0.8859999999999999,0.0,-0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,1,7,6,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196329361014574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029949248808058,0.29799463486969124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.539109082894078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.515161611567962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImpishImp,2019/08/05,"Getting triggered by the spray tan lady I got a spray tan yesterday (& it's way to dark, send help) and as I'm butt ass naked in front of the lady the only thing she said the whole time was ""omg you're sooo skinny! If I was skinny like you I'd be a model! I dont even need to use a lot of product!"" The icing on the cake was when I told her I love to cook (bc yes I actually do) and she said ""what?! You eat?!"" 

Sigh",-2.307522267206476,-0.5389211368421023,0.9231578947368426,101.4597975708502,97.21052631578951,3.765182186234818,12.570850202429149,5.369823440869387,-1.420101214574899,312,5,83,2,13,110,66,95,0.038,0.83,0.131,0.8190000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,9,1,6,7,4,2,0,7,15,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,7,2,11,2,9,7,2,8,0,0,0,3,11,2,2,2,4,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2353985336866283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26136466722080304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827111781779363,0.0,0.0,0.2468310174919191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932530159286085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602889141519333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19292780904254914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616864740740803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178492142147508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20507889179809394,0.2177128818497096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886355674476867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346071399489516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589160060915232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025762643471114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065888146016334,0.0,0.0,0.2304986030157128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833894083002824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914713311600158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693165017082646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ctrldIt,2019/08/05,"I need some help. I can't bring myself to eat, I need to gain some pounds but being anorexic makes it 10 times harder. Sometimes when I'm eating I get so sick that I need to take a break then continue. Idk what to do bc I'm currently unable to seek professional help",0.8991666666666696,3.078571535714285,2.8000000000000007,91.61166666666668,83.64285714285714,5.8761904761904775,18.261904761904766,7.1686216300943375,0.19410476190476225,210,5,46,3,6,70,41,56,0.131,0.736,0.133,-0.2172,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,7,12,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,5,11,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,24,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5562552773530541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200856249954774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643746049187655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143407961432956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6046269936597758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688252532339672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043659343710583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849354330307186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,constantdadjokes,2019/08/05,Is anyone going else’s closet basically ALL SWEATSHIRTS because you’re always SO FREAKING COLD!! I mean it could literally be the middle of summer and you’ll find me hanging around my house in a sweatshirt and joggers. It’s literally become a joke with my friends that oh constantdadjokes is ALWAYS cold.,5.47909090909091,8.236038727272732,6.078181818181817,71.07727272727277,70.81818181818181,7.309090909090909,31.0,8.238735603445708,2.7656545454545456,250,11,37,4,5,81,45,55,0.08199999999999999,0.812,0.106,-0.2127,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,7,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,4,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961410131614013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084614983477701,0.0,0.0,0.2654015432500561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173908592520588,0.3292644324336364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380349101499694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490518334250325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724881253245254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303367862061589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943583227806866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440054090283796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247541953259738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IDontLikeLollipops,2019/08/05,What if it's not just bloat? What if I'm actually getting fat? What if it's real? What if I can't stop?,-4.046399999999998,-3.137930839999997,0.5199999999999996,100.24000000000002,117.4,3.6,13.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.1050000000000004,79,2,22,1,5,30,16,25,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.4306,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,8,3,4,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.5438425062956421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29116522987412924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6343271897935484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659261245595051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pawspawsmeow,2019/08/05,"TW: Recovering Anorexic adult female struggling I'm an adult female recovering from, with anorexia and I had a recent setback.   Hence why I'm not posting weight etc.  I started working out more and weight lifting to feel more in control and stronger, to see my body transform in a powerful and healthy way.  It's helping.  However, I have a few friends in my life who are very negative and question everything I do etc.   How do you guys get around that?",3.3102380952380983,6.0884952619047645,3.923809523809524,83.55452380952383,78.52380952380952,6.590476190476192,34.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,2.857676190476192,358,21,63,6,9,113,61,84,0.078,0.768,0.154,0.6815,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,1,4,0,5,4,1,2,0,13,11,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,3,8,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,7,1,9,10,5,9,0,0,1,0,8,5,0,1,2,41,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430411354059894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174904106171452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21960710708420975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367390219876437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597302203254606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900270479374462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127511635313934,0.0,0.10229777168642866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19387345269662687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124106563092358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382998077716994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752292302948625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934156789098555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19332954569943087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602778814622867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858872605190528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20469337914225505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16155606337082648,0.0,0.15541746261161318,0.0,0.4768649480243991,0.0,0.0,0.17667965498623814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425452238956019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,topaz221,2019/08/05,I feel so fat. It’s 2 am where I am and I can’t sleep because I am scared to weigh myself in the morning and see how much weight I gained . I am 5’4 and a 110 pounds and in February I was 135 pounds. I have been trying to maintain but I feel like I have been eating too  much for the past few days.I have a few social events where food temptations will be everywhere. And lots of restaurants. Then in two weeks I have vacation and I’m scared I’m going to gain back all the progress I have made.,-0.06848909657320945,1.9825177196261663,1.5622663551401883,99.74346183800623,86.75700934579439,5.061993769470405,17.327881619937695,6.42735559955562,-0.4425445482866044,384,9,94,4,12,124,66,107,0.057999999999999996,0.809,0.133,0.8201,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,5,0,15,6,2,2,1,13,22,10,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,4,13,1,8,16,6,11,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,1,6,63,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16989547799881113,0.0,0.13468793272455915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260851025304212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234360322645748,0.15784539225444405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26717136265461205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556991724053287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794409855618647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18784220374781366,0.0,0.2090664682525448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248446046391762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109199962786656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424152569950761,0.0,0.17606705785988647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110770174913613,0.2252287996382913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000928068844738,0.0,0.21583422350830267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723126703071912,0.2690553054449392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LordLochness,2019/08/05,"My life is turning up and my stupid brain won't let me feel happy I'm getting closer to my gw, I just started at my new job making more than I'm used to, and my relationship with myself is at an all time high. And my dumb depression brain won't let me do shit with it. I feel stuck, and so I'm at home more often. My housemates and I are doing great, but I need to get a life outside of them. I'm struggling so hard with basic self care and I'm trying so hard to keep myself up but all of my new, and so much healthier coping mechanisms are slowly giving out of me and I'm trying to snap myself up but I feel like I'm stuck watching myself glaze over. Have any of you lovelies ever snapped yourself out of your own bullshit? It's hard bc I know what I should do and I don't do it.",0.9526356589147298,2.403499534883725,3.0145581395348837,93.87307751937986,79.81395348837209,5.5168992248062025,20.187596899224808,6.079149491110277,-0.09533147286821686,608,15,143,4,15,206,90,172,0.157,0.735,0.10800000000000001,-0.7139,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,7,10,3,1,2,0,15,6,3,2,3,31,39,16,0,2,4,0,6,1,0,3,2,0,1,1,4,14,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,7,26,5,23,32,6,16,0,1,1,1,7,11,2,1,6,95,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801149847519816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217874393125471,0.0,0.0,0.1469473761458487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413662234245453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037138383787628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186252627287405,0.10296456366024913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060111915193705,0.13826002809343682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890084432023552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15342617858149024,0.387329222875884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227839337515953,0.14457142172713214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430240945722622,0.12810695621525414,0.0,0.0,0.07920858847295573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29475983470695616,0.20360273235236906,0.07041331298173352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008050492304415,0.0,0.09620608420110828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595014050249292,0.1068685581487658,0.0,0.2783980665806096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15473876965367378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503561948376046,0.0,0.14794459041990554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201403657762706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067313526783815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404178093090209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957059361755168,0.15676910263108218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447970183505447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smorbe,2019/08/05,"Train of thought as an anorexic/purging type How do I eat what I want without fear? Without wondering where the nearest bathroom is? Without making sure I eat enough and drink enough liquid with it that the regurgitation comes quickly, easily, silently?

I am finally where I dreamed of being my whole life but once again, it’s not good enough. I crave food, the sensation of salt on my tongue, and sugar, and texture, delighting my taste buds for a simple moment before I either spit it out or cautiously let it traverse into my stomach, which I will attempt (not always successfully) to reverse its progress a few minutes later.

I just want to be free. I want to stay where I am and enjoy really eating, all of it, not just the taste and the motion but the sensation of being satisfied, or fullness, without thinking about the volume or number of calories or carbs that will appear on the scale tomorrow.

I know I am thin. I know I am where I have dreamed of being, have prayed to be, but I still feel trapped by my body, trapped by food, trapped by this endless wanting that cannot be satisfied.",9.837599784250274,7.653299383495147,9.089093851132688,70.6658845738943,60.01941747572816,11.67982740021575,41.82092772384034,9.994966539143718,4.1999348435814445,867,39,153,13,9,275,119,206,0.084,0.765,0.15,0.8863,0,3,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,3,11,6,0,1,11,0,18,13,3,2,2,41,31,14,0,4,17,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,12,9,9,0,6,3,1,3,8,1,0,0,1,6,22,6,26,21,8,22,1,0,0,0,1,11,0,6,7,122,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404218059226043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063986889351716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888976175541168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770973270334806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249028271228465,0.0,0.38383729104559816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875950778185001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070325373994855,0.06322330277885167,0.0,0.0,0.13697373865358825,0.0,0.0,0.3023944846093478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487649441365963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374359534449029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278605000455351,0.08831850240075056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346427555576494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316209058731812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010296649620231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327457314336225,0.09985603427598518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784745595758467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011972359033379,0.0,0.09926672797371124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950041619259228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396011969375794,0.0,0.48213121949704707,0.13559909145827753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mandaramaa,2019/08/05,"i am going to be alone for the rest of my life because of thi stupid flabby meat prison i'm trapped in i have never had a serious partner ever in my life and every guy i've ever wanted to be with has only seen me as a friend, body, or a damsel to rescue and it has to be because of two things:

1. i am probably really intolerable and too much for 99% of the human population
2. i have a body that resembles the fuckin pillsbury doughboy and the michelin man combined

i eat to make myself feel better about probably having to spend the rest of my life alone and with literally nobody to romantically want or care about me and then starve to make myself feel better about overeating like a pig. i had these big grandiose plans to come back to my last year of school skinny and pretty and accomplished but instead i've fallen in this cycle where i've literally lost no weight. i want to fast for the rest of the month but im a weak idiot who probably wont be able to. i just hate myself and i hate how i alone i am

this is just a big ol brain dump that i dont expect anyone to read but my journal is currently in my old apartment and i can't get it right now so enjoy my stupid thoughts i guess",3.712083628632176,4.4234364899598395,5.1922324592487605,83.92486180014174,71.65060240963855,7.947176943066382,25.0888258918025,8.124751697461798,1.3120203638081738,942,26,200,13,17,318,137,249,0.185,0.713,0.102,-0.98,1,4,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,5,14,16,7,0,14,0,19,11,4,3,3,34,37,19,0,4,7,0,3,1,2,1,4,0,0,4,9,13,3,0,3,1,1,3,5,10,0,1,5,4,26,6,34,27,4,25,0,1,1,1,6,10,1,3,13,136,35,3,0.11646338119382448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618628181962993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143390403921293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955315128255614,0.0,0.14198999240346574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20600479273930614,0.0,0.2587291234328886,0.0,0.130011650164991,0.0,0.0,0.11874217900457675,0.0,0.0,0.10032289052595393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649421538515924,0.0,0.0,0.11917111407627165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21069559188844109,0.09812542168024004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777476972932488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997931941044063,0.0,0.060847309824980815,0.0,0.06618882343212329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829754458269255,0.11531705772859395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299669548812393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580043690588288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493319983338984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467845911057009,0.05689812525868972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271335382174242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548042259970773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295995974344208,0.0,0.08561398562585007,0.0,0.08982373931638561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220872731349,0.0,0.0,0.08857564943885413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848512801544292,0.37670166866486426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649489783877952,0.0,0.07460942420807683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994590911944224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786715945132595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737309547034031,0.0,0.0,0.0924589155819781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376780063520772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20607935907082967,0.0,0.0,0.14182102287650994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074998599086881
EDAnonymous,sonorie,2019/08/05,"I threw out my old clothes today and now I'm sad :( I tried on just about a million pairs of jeans, from so many different weights. Uh, I now understand what the phrase ""soul crushing"" means.  

And when I set aside the bag of clothes that don't fit me anymore (about half) my mom dug through it and fought me on every single item -- ""I'm sure this still fits you"", ""you're just being dramatic"", ""no way you're too big for these"", ""try them on for me"".   

Like, no, I'm not going to fucking DEMONSTRATE my jeans not zipping?????? I'm not going to SHOW YOU my muffin-topping in too-small skirts?????? Also wym ""there's no way you're too big for these""? Because I am? So are you like, saying my jeans were huge, because if you are, they're bigger now, so what do you -- I just -- HRGGGHHHHHHh  

Also I literally knew it would be a bad idea but I put my LW jeans on top of my CW jeans, stared at the abomination I'd constructed, then lowered my head into my hands and wept for a full hour l o l  

But uhhhh I guess it's done and my closet only has clothes I fit in now! Yay recovery! I want to die",-0.06334358974358878,2.0522157066666686,2.0498888888888898,95.7793461538462,87.48888888888888,5.06153846153846,18.87606837606837,6.490185161304077,-0.11865470085470076,814,23,192,9,26,272,131,225,0.139,0.7929999999999999,0.068,-0.9341,2,0,0,0,0,1,56.0,0,5,1,1,19,9,2,0,6,1,11,4,2,0,1,24,25,15,1,3,9,1,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,9,7,1,0,4,1,0,4,7,5,1,2,5,4,30,4,23,17,3,35,1,2,1,1,9,18,1,2,12,116,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27277603024023606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913883150483675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424013344282683,0.20793023801675226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700298956298066,0.17818745963312274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453089337450045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369493187583604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766985021370605,0.0,0.0,0.1938539129037133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18787900844618255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750325305665467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16795646154910118,0.0,0.0,0.19252912019908813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666433039045301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17290996980993584,0.0,0.18577791559614967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997449882250316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896254044308338,0.0,0.0,0.12971023914119034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714489030399514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562745134232124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620069308798635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16074046297209232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616605593450051,0.0,0.0,0.2315832220994745,0.0,0.0,0.17754757767651522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059424953503847,0.2707477978542999,0.0,0.2076827989306393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115315311921672,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,juicy_sweatsuits,2019/08/05,"I told my bf about my eating disorder and he texted me being the most caring individual I’ve ever met SO I told my bf that I had an ED and I said I’m fine now bc I didn’t want him to worry even though it’s an everyday struggle and he texted me saying “I know you don’t eat breakfast but please just pack a little something just to fill your tummy a little bit baby. I want you to have something okay? I love you so much! ❤️❤️” we’ve only been dating for a short time but I have never loved someone so much. All of my friends brushed it off when I reached out, my ex called me fat after I told him I was struggling eating which caused me to go bulimic. My bf has been nothing but caring and I cried reading his message because it’s the first time I’ve felt someone has cared for me and wanted to help. I want to be healthy. I want to get better for me, for us.",-0.008174603174602169,1.9121831428571447,2.330420634920636,95.18610714285715,85.2962962962963,4.626560846560847,19.50291005291005,5.6839178017228535,-0.28062137566137624,670,19,156,4,20,228,110,189,0.084,0.688,0.228,0.9797,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,1,4,0,2,11,11,0,2,7,1,12,7,1,1,3,23,32,13,0,5,5,1,1,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,5,6,5,0,2,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,11,4,35,9,16,19,5,17,0,0,0,2,26,5,0,1,10,99,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938197359454312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10066215828488906,0.12425902021350915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622019541761112,0.0,0.3481329883381119,0.11692172613853198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502296668034474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044449385442985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493905570433856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517525747003212,0.10295426984284872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928246312388656,0.0,0.0,0.09681294271812244,0.0,0.0,0.08793496862301081,0.0,0.05946484498118415,0.0,0.06468499817328482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628934134391936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255101504220315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22814968387337914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20544912558104292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16733763244771707,0.0,0.08778292334439866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921077520326004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656319035532369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493722378044393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384810702408228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826632232966993,0.09051209037686933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287406879866725,0.17524424622297566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379731221649622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182492569972564,0.0,0.13273557336468045,0.0,0.0,0.3262719415237945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690820569745746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356619812285605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155869995179537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lemon_bird,2019/08/05,it’s relapse time babey you know the drill bitches were eating fine but now food and myself are extremely violently unbearable bad and the only cure is being underweight,8.207,9.86201036666667,7.960000000000001,64.71000000000002,62.0,11.333333333333336,35.0,11.20814326018867,4.627000000000002,141,6,20,4,2,45,28,30,0.33399999999999996,0.631,0.035,-0.9305,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968419866089213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4863338181899995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747148638126612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26120345868440803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614746251569533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771417124879589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,in-a-quandary,2019/08/05,"Weight fluctuation?? (TW numbers) So I’ve never posted on here before and I hope I’ve tagged this correctly. If I’ve included anything I’m not allowed to please let me know!

Anyway. My weight constantly fluctuates and I have NO IDEA what’s normal anymore. I can go from a solid 106 to 100 in a week and sometimes I can drop 2-3 pounds in 1-2 days. My friend went to a well visit the other day and was excited she lost 5 pounds in the last month. And I’m just sitting here thinking to myself: I do that in a week.. somethings not right here. Is this normal for anyone else?",0.5864891041162217,2.9126843559322033,2.6971428571428566,90.73762711864408,86.79661016949154,5.405326876513318,20.292978208232448,6.868970318607317,0.4797656174334142,446,14,93,6,14,150,81,118,0.08199999999999999,0.8029999999999999,0.115,0.5771,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,6,0,7,2,0,1,2,18,15,7,0,4,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,3,0,0,3,4,1,1,0,3,2,10,4,11,11,0,20,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,2,8,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702932451146317,0.12006578542165278,0.17594035335467592,0.14130524259662314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461151927680551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556084866198908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221481475835118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344425338914882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266510778505886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758850647374401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054984361102196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384317821085414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436902386597554,0.1399690870168532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17558826897722754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744512251504575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705975061673428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324357211873133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364847411419806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884894089205522,0.0,0.0,0.16445367483837206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14664204108195344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219312622691215,0.16982863721925304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002681493620448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27547576728662954,0.4182005689613241,0.15439069029300734,0.15917975523433192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugardeficiency,2019/08/05,"Deceiving ED recovery YouTubers Am I projecting my disordered thinking to say that these people only show recovery on video and are not really recovered? Like some I see only try fear foods or challenges when they are with their boyfriends or family or filming for a specific video. I’m gonna drop names because I’m that person. Prime examplr is Rebecca Leung? Her videos are heavily edited to be inspiring. There’s a lot of talking and no action.. and she only films when she’s with her bf/family. She’s “recovered” and said she stopped exercising but still has clear muscle definition, abs, etc and no weight gain.",4.422027353177796,7.179955884955755,5.542027353177796,73.62588093322606,74.22123893805309,10.126790024135158,29.74175382139984,10.230975488527342,3.9348123893805314,497,22,81,17,11,164,83,113,0.115,0.789,0.096,0.3720000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,2,4,4,0,1,2,0,7,3,0,0,1,19,13,11,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,7,2,1,2,7,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,4,11,3,7,10,3,7,0,0,1,0,13,1,0,5,5,49,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256358406548641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23620693957152725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22985450475260616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885829810181866,0.23191831064222546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24921533850149616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068940321158516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752177251586521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4702419934151368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288287249565404,0.1799574152950912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320320900436685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604703809648288,0.1638979402687586,0.0,0.0,0.16423396200676846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645906698044146,0.17230772258936125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656543098179687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205971042101544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139927473115697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25097266546776903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nekkedpebbl,2019/08/05,"Just saw my friend for the first time after forced recovery Told her about how I’ve been trying to eat ‘healthier’ and she’s like “oh is that why you were so skinny last time I saw you??”
also asked me multiple times why I was covered in cuts

What I wanted to say: I’ve been so fucking depressed and I hate myself and I’m so fucking fat and disgusting and I need help from someone because I’m drowning and I swear oh god I need to let it out because I’m literally suffocating in my own fucking failure

What I said: yeah i got attacked by my friend’s cat haha lol",0.2257062146892644,2.562286203389835,2.478000000000001,91.30796045197741,89.50847457627121,5.180564971751412,22.27344632768361,6.742157984588678,0.6878490395480226,444,17,94,6,15,150,77,118,0.191,0.667,0.142,-0.8101,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,7,12,7,0,1,3,6,6,2,1,0,12,22,11,1,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,1,9,4,18,4,11,12,1,9,0,1,2,3,11,3,3,0,7,54,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839040044080547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617811698527389,0.1968727401731421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21098297293605656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905027255796646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17707639468329198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719877091363193,0.0,0.0,0.2674005962058832,0.4799540565782021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840627165311456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085398413160127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599376038316996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106127053143258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769583901719694,0.0,0.08454494164247506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566331743102827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461300659631045,0.1376186704198255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662722292688155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027257416296844,0.0,0.0,0.16535953226743091,0.0,0.1174916095578213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207112745893182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123067839556771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VakariansFemshep,2019/08/05,"A Conversation in one act, by me SCENE: Birthday party. A woman (me) talking to an acquaintance (him). 

Me: I have changed a lot in the last few years

*He scans her body up and down even though she was talking about personal growth*

Him: You were way skinnier when we first met.

Me *horrified*: That much? 

Him *inspecting her again*: Hmm not all that much. But you look healthier now.

Me: ...

Him: You looked really sick back then.

Me: ...

END SCENE.",-0.14491014120667245,1.2215382317073211,0.915109114249038,96.18862002567396,117.90243902439023,5.140949935815148,17.730423620025675,6.5966054737557815,0.4867219512195127,333,11,69,7,19,103,64,82,0.043,0.925,0.032,-0.2247,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,3,0,1,7,0,0,0,5,0,3,2,1,0,1,6,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,3,18,0,7,3,5,16,0,0,3,0,18,4,0,1,9,52,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838951174666232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656468357858632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529938452995796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21181998176847014,0.0,0.0,0.15795935107854275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342477195844605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19494291026969365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016592457111616,0.0,0.0,0.2033206800456177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516122820463656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205733945515086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208820563238792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532085541643464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844468006211152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23496817027831815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898297816969962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400771487536308
EDAnonymous,robinmalann,2019/08/05,"(TW) Im a male who struggled with anorexia, after losing 55 pounds, i gained almost all of it back (im too scared to properly weigh myself), and everyone is constantly talking about how fat ive gotten TRIGGER WARNING! : i just really needed to get this rant out sorry. This could be triggering to people in recovery so pls dont read it if u are in recovery. This is simply my experience and im 100% pro recovery. Best of luck! 

Ive always been chubby. My bmi before i started losing weight was 29

After i lost all the weight and hit my lowest weight of 100 pounds (bmi 18.7) i fasted for 3 days straight. The second i broke my fast i just binged. I ate calories worth of what i would eat in a week in a span of 3 hours.

I couldnt stop binging afterwards so i wouldnt call myself recovered because i still had the same fucked up mindset, i just went from one extreme to the other.

When i was skinny everyone was worried about me, especially as a guy,  i lost a lot of muscle and looked so weak and fragile compared to my friends. My parents were especially worried and kept telling me to gain weight.

But now that ive gained the weight everyone keeps pointing it out in a negative way. My parents keep talking about how much im eating and how chubby ive gotten. My friends ask me to go to the gym with them. My fuckass sister straighup calls me fat and says i looked better before

Just what the fuck do you want from me? I wasn’t healthy back then and im not healthy now either. But i know for a fact i looked better then. I regret so so much binging that day, if it werent for that one binge i wouldnt have started this binge starve cycle. I hate myself for that, so incredibly much. 

No one will ever stop talking about my weight, directly or indirectly. It kills me, literally haunts me. the sight of myself in the mirror makes me gag. 

It was hard being cold and apathetic all the time, and feeling constantly light headed. It was hard not eating and it was very painful having to cancel plans to work out or of fear of eating, but now i know that it could never be as hard as being this fat, and having everyone to constantly fucking tell you youre fat",2.6908077485380133,4.612416835648151,4.030721247563354,86.41271929824562,76.24537037037038,6.769590643274852,24.331384015594548,7.669130373188453,1.216054629629629,1691,56,339,24,38,556,204,432,0.136,0.789,0.075,-0.9581,4,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,3,1,12,26,22,5,3,17,0,33,23,6,6,6,66,61,35,1,11,14,3,11,0,2,4,6,1,0,2,23,18,17,5,3,2,1,2,10,16,0,4,17,18,53,6,47,32,10,44,0,6,4,3,21,13,3,8,28,232,76,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06455558565895954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053642703325851165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06026906048465565,0.0,0.0,0.09914412633636528,0.0,0.039299213773426635,0.0,0.1097153725982846,0.0,0.06765539409623113,0.1140337604245809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316584717291853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20900165066601195,0.0,0.10294521700600937,0.0,0.0,0.08315330591063827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555624531643515,0.0,0.0,0.26386823512987234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058315173954051114,0.0,0.24640849515457844,0.0,0.06306226594667723,0.0,0.07254464347429762,0.03259705683733708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961593627388718,0.1787994245071766,0.03368197146676482,0.0,0.036638761330155714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383364949441292,0.0,0.0,0.17325252171583105,0.0636489964378728,0.06616296794201103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348818671110887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34818357118484417,0.0,0.0,0.11460458908231907,0.07132450686926181,0.0,0.07086006881999977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624111431677255,0.1442468414969889,0.14074930244328146,0.05480855464500599,0.0,0.0,0.043033021284811936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421746251050535,0.04780235029501411,0.049721846921333065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105595372530374,0.0,0.06859870565236481,0.0,0.14316860422725491,0.0,0.0,0.04469412964882782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060943282971548274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06448564178622981,0.0,0.0412999770171678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05126769684568416,0.06454391054034157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216686708329001,0.09126184157371696,0.0,0.05148438442437995,0.10779659672837848,0.0,0.06739615577198113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554512812608085,0.1126960893194902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03759192339699602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053193013171575536,0.038025012182560936,0.05117185306017584,0.05171249799059004,0.4710293677390706,0.0,0.0597626633643832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04693361433807476,0.13094116434422928,0.0,0.045796356596996664,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deadlylikesugar,2019/08/05,"Can I please just vent for a minute about the way underweight girls with big, perky asses makes me feel to you guys? (Warning: this post contains a sarcastic tone & lots of ‘jokes’ about serious feelings.)

My. Gawd. I am here straight off of Pinterest, aka where I try to find my thinspo (‘try’ bc, they’ve made it hard to do so these days) and. every. single. girl. that is ‘goals’ in my mind, has this super nice little booty... and it’s such a mind fuck. 

Immediately, my ED brain is like, “Yes, look bitch, that could totes be you if you ate less and worked out more. Strive for that.” 

But then,

My rational, well intentioned brain is like, “Girl, you know when you get that skinny via starving yourself, it’s impossible for your ass to look like that, right? Like, ily but that’s just not you and that’s totally okay.” 

BUT, the thing is, I’m *not* okay with that. In fact,  cannot even fathom being ‘okay’ with that...ever. And, I know, trust me, I know *all* too well - I shouldn’t compare myself and yadyada. But, fuck, you guys! It drives me nuts to know that there are actually girls out there that look like that. Not in a jealous way, but in an FML way. I feel powerless to end my desire to look that way, yet also powerless to actually look that way. It’s like there’s no escape and I don’t even know what to do with these feelings but to vent about it to you guys. 😩  pls halp",0.12005720823798782,2.4945833550724643,1.3513272311212816,98.31072082379863,92.2608695652174,4.789321128909228,15.958810068649885,6.4704718818221325,-0.4648391304347825,1050,24,240,13,38,330,145,276,0.106,0.725,0.17,0.9356,2,0,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,9,0,3,20,20,4,0,7,4,16,8,5,3,3,48,37,18,0,4,12,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,0,7,25,13,2,1,10,1,0,1,7,5,2,0,2,10,27,15,30,31,6,24,0,0,5,4,16,12,5,2,11,147,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.1964379306666608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048901820900807,0.0,0.10905321620775972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22471527880825085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036008580989384,0.0,0.0,0.0649103182517472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914519436556621,0.0,0.0,0.13295551190394295,0.0,0.08480117536801304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20356475887135064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919914189034712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18609687124907226,0.05258498055635972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989751850616004,0.0,0.0,0.09016178971547527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27657046031277804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950322851440009,0.10087680119419654,0.0,0.0,0.4225993132081604,0.0,0.0,0.0855682329395028,0.0,0.09523657569142599,0.06718403017994724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325372081528567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048244530594553,0.0,0.0,0.09639397905561094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595374868100933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686676424308939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13666821211562502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994527014039869,0.0,0.0,0.18099118771425546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327371557934523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,godisntamango,2019/04/17,"HI, BEYONCÉ HOMECOMING on Netflix. Psycho crash diets, anyone? We stan, thanks for the tips sis.",3.314791666666668,6.213382562500001,4.927499999999998,69.23416666666668,98.375,7.133333333333333,24.08333333333333,7.793537801064563,2.823608333333333,75,3,10,2,3,25,16,16,0.138,0.7140000000000001,0.14800000000000002,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6048186063771827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7963632672216635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,serendipitousbluejay,2019/04/17,"When people I know compliment my weight loss, I’m so uncomfortable that they assume my weight loss is a good/healthy thing, but when people don’t say anything, I’m convinced that I haven’t lost enough yet. brain: stop being a bitch and make up your damn mind !!",6.187058823529411,6.324045352941178,5.385098039215689,86.73294117647059,66.05882352941177,8.368627450980393,26.803921568627448,7.793537801064563,1.240733333333333,207,5,43,2,3,62,39,51,0.33899999999999997,0.5670000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.9291,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,3,4,7,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,1,0,7,9,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,3,6,2,1,7,1,5,0,3,0,0,3,1,2,1,4,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20395176086474268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766721628410003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560856726961457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078770022552672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362067552121565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705473774358363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543557729443134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502484336698389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436430405938347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709285499819448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072059046482569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465433399480564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6036063550577534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ziiiiiiiiiiiiii,2019/04/17,"Can rexies fly? I was looking on parents experiences with anorexia so I know how to hide from my family and make it easier on them (ya know, normal people stuff :p) and I was just scrolling and then there was a tab that said ‘people also searched for: can anorexics fly?’ And idk why but it really just made me giggle and at that moment I couldn’t even comprehend planes so I was just imagining rexies in capes like Superman",2.4250677506775062,5.044859609756099,3.792601626016261,84.09941734417345,80.95121951219512,7.546883468834688,21.30623306233063,8.515128840125781,1.6055728997289969,336,10,63,8,9,110,60,82,0.031,0.856,0.113,0.8253,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,3,0,18,13,11,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,9,2,8,6,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,3,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396108145025167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767154435768463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617170040349171,0.2522240298470972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940789494142105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071229714888954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467613119433508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531639866154528,0.17859290712380785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621439618509805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970846163528335,0.0,0.0,0.3709734667488809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714005370625857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545030348921433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30628280502341426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24142388860269515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mayonezz,2019/04/17,Whose else can't do group exercises cuz they get disgusted by themselves on the mirror I love doing group HIIT or Zumba exercises but almost always there's a giant mirror in the front which makes me look at my disgusting fat self for the entire hour which ruins it for me. Bleh.,7.195,7.054837388888894,7.818888888888887,71.065,64.0,10.162962962962963,27.25925925925927,9.725611199111238,2.407192592592593,225,5,39,4,3,75,46,54,0.18,0.7759999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,4,0,3,4,1,2,0,5,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,6,7,0,6,0,1,1,1,6,4,0,2,1,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871657610459812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217168250542317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32298948483572104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20200430347500314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380764141081328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246816068406997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489591835787932,0.0,0.2580863029244284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033515631537925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nowandloud,2019/04/17,"Some thoughts TW if you don't like calorie numbers. Couldn't figure out how to spoiler.

Just some things I can't talk to anyone about that have been frustrating me recently. Congrats, you're now my journal, apparently?


1. I'm tired and cranky, because I can't sleep very well, because I'm not eating very well (there's also the crippling depression? but usually my meds have that under control????). 

1b. Does anyone else have trouble sleeping but also REALLY funky dreams when you're restricting heavily?


2. ""You only eat 600 calories a day, you moron, that's why you're tired. No, making sure it's got a lot of protein and taking a vitamin isn't going to make it better. Eat more.""

2b. Sounds reasonable.


3. EXCEPT. The weight loss is going so slowly as it is, there's no way I'm going to reason myself into eating more. Like, yeah, duh, it's going so much faster than when I did it responsibly, but if I'm going to eat that little each day I shouldn't be stuck at one weight for 5 days. And then I go down 1 pound and get stuck again. 

3b. I'm a big girl, it's not 'cause I'm too small to lose quickly.

3c. And I know why. I feel like I could get a degree in nutrition and the human body's relationship with calories at this point but I still get frustrated that I do this to myself for such ""questionable"" results when I'm just ignoring reality to be cranky. 

3d. I feel like my life is in stagnant slow motion right now. Depression or exhaustion? 

3e. I also do this to myself. I work 8 hours today just to work 4 more later tonight at a different job. I could tell them not to schedule me on days where I already work, but I'd miss out on steps and maybe that's why I'm losing so slowly???? (Again, I can see my own delusions)


4. All of this whining. I feel like if there was a 'first world problems of the ED realm' post this shit would be first on the list. This isn't even an eating disorder, it's a heavily restricted diet plan, looool.


tldr; idk, felt miserable, might delete later.",1.1950444444444417,3.56685186,2.980666666666668,89.5247777777778,84.15,5.955555555555558,20.63888888888889,7.3011,0.7128972222222223,1544,47,316,24,45,512,214,400,0.226,0.708,0.065,-0.9966,3,0,0,0,0,0,72.0,0,3,1,11,29,25,4,1,14,2,26,18,4,8,2,59,57,28,0,9,16,0,6,5,0,3,5,1,0,2,20,12,9,4,10,1,0,8,12,16,2,3,8,8,30,9,34,40,10,56,0,8,1,0,10,20,1,9,31,187,50,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418083565601703,0.1830118719553864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667851604518988,0.07816155011366935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300353373439904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746663397423458,0.0,0.0847338687464949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836425758624121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555852984354045,0.121812474644052,0.0,0.0,0.1967864124705754,0.0,0.13140588417215526,0.0,0.0,0.07970011274502965,0.0874276001108971,0.0,0.06675628143826465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683429250421421,0.06372514881331437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050384590059111216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571382163108335,0.16349103033651552,0.07324420681022523,0.0,0.0,0.12977356102074766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956507785157625,0.0,0.26012232420231074,0.0,0.06101095351729681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512396747381031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569968978752564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04192346467105965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05388135378539235,0.1863415379614968,0.07645619503636872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17068364352771095,0.0,0.06485357811798291,0.0,0.0,0.10183977394126252,0.0,0.07663711679853266,0.0,0.0847338687464949,0.0,0.0,0.08092483128271631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05607721407340361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05169173308681164,0.058017105721259975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211264716906332,0.0,0.07305859004013923,0.0,0.0,0.07299309086038652,0.0,0.0,0.08545507625640589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04886921946951659,0.15686446581195015,0.07532083968038487,0.08190002457920273,0.0,0.06514576687073162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06078814272350374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830400628665382,0.0,0.0,0.15267735707707988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092017147230179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718963783867909,0.0,0.05735576414829099,0.06131385801654829,0.06667521776127233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050679425872939415,0.0,0.0,0.06056064747112815,0.0,0.1753535239956617,0.07230792129114805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401559430550401,0.12588389740972675,0.0,0.06055036100431897,0.0,0.18578571717735406,0.1371762128054199,0.0,0.20650221754558226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666060805771107,0.0,0.0,0.05418967183716728,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,financepadawan,2019/04/17,My jeans fit the same as they did 10 pounds ago.... tf I swear im losing from the top down. im restricting to 4-700 cal a day im down to 136.2 this morning I bought these jeans at 145 I swear my legs are so fat. im in size 10s with like h&m shorts size 28 Levis jeans. I want to be in 25s by the summer hard core. or a size 4 shorts. I guess ill need to take up running to get there too. Or my body dysmorphia is just messing with me hard. My brain tells me I look like 190 anyway. Finally have hip bones to keep me sane,-1.289527845036318,0.5707098050847463,0.7971428571428589,104.35966101694916,90.77966101694916,4.388377723970945,14.360774818401936,5.773587663045528,-1.1972682808716706,399,7,108,3,14,131,80,118,0.114,0.794,0.092,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,2,5,4,0,0,5,0,5,7,6,0,0,11,13,4,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,14,2,17,10,1,15,0,1,1,0,2,10,0,3,6,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909437196084852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223878780356934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682629304207088,0.0,0.1877608081403967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847160794970302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842489720864268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787474085136954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852853234514332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013386644671812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7267161571409378,0.0,0.0,0.1494990959172883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434277953841153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124111006309986,0.1881667441539755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471417085563567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646141335147967,0.0,0.14700950111671415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992055377372974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ityma,2019/04/17,"Being consumed by an ED Having an ED controls E V E R Y aspect of your life. 

I don’t socialise because I’m afraid that I won’t know the exact calorie contents of what I’m eating/drinking and I’ll go over my 500 limit. I’m also worried that I’ll come home and won’t have the energy for my exercise routine. It feels like I’m stuck in a prison. I keep telling myself that I’ll be able to do whatever I want when I’m skinny/pretty enough and that it will all be worth it in the end but I know that I’ll never get to the point where I’m happy with myself. I’ve isolated myself so much that I wouldn’t have anywhere to go even if I did feel comfortable enough to leave my house. It just seems like I’ll be stuck in this cycle forever.",2.709377104377104,3.1326154259259265,4.648698092031427,87.96459595959602,73.75308641975309,7.372390572390572,24.603815937149268,7.348242739294969,0.9407950617283944,577,16,131,6,11,199,96,162,0.081,0.794,0.125,0.8248,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,0,1,7,0,14,2,0,1,3,21,33,8,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,12,5,0,3,5,1,1,3,5,1,0,0,3,2,14,4,13,22,4,12,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,5,76,26,0,0.19021042965164348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211121187128385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595051244626292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384944276242894,0.0,0.0,0.21333717077543893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863338071917466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684699832247405,0.3930764405660032,0.0,0.12563219486762392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19235221683162101,0.13588636894897502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937709884701486,0.0,0.21620194114420088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024825393127419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079656975106735,0.0,0.0,0.21947729767686025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906776951570573,0.0,0.0,0.20906935540812546,0.0,0.0,0.20140538078317768,0.0,0.0,0.13435125165365308,0.18585441605575284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982655168649755,0.0,0.14670200944838174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798103374649901,0.0,0.0,0.19351238883954386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316043135072648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625229937959307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219103959083844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931679243452188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,genomskinligt,2019/04/17,"my friend also has an eating disorder and it’s triggering the hell out of me she  c o n s t a n t l y  talks about calories, going to the gym, how thin people are, how big she is, how she has purged and barely eats and basically just manages to get her ED into any conversation. and that’s fine i guess, people need to vent and i’m happy she feels comfortable sharing her issues with our friend group but i am Triggered to hell after staying with her for a weekend and eating meals together. i honestly feel like yeeting my intenstines out the door to lose weight and before this weekend i was doing pretty well but now i’m in a bit of a purge cycle.

i have been way worse in the past and am currently on antipsychotics that are making me gain weight so i don’t look sick and no one really knows that i have these issues, even at my lowest weight i have hidden it well. so basically i don’t think she is aware of how much it affects me (and the other girls in our group because let’s be honest how many teenage girls don’t have some body issues) but i am So triggered and my stupid brain is competetive when it comes to being mentally ill so like 🙃 yay. 

anyway does anyone know how to deal with other people with eds without making them or yourself worse?   
i try to tell her that she is good the way she is, that she needs to eat, that exercising with the mindset she has isn’t good, and basically just cut her self hating speeches short (idk how good this is but honestly it’s uncomfortable, triggering and i do let her vent a lot so???)... She is seeing a counselor for it and she is aware that she has an eating disorder and i don’t think she’s underweight yet so hopefully she will be fine. but what can i even do to help and how much should i distance myself from her to prioritize my own mental health?",2.903387681159419,4.507700679347828,4.296717391304353,86.10552898550726,74.81521739130434,7.406666666666666,23.13623188405797,8.131152278815165,1.1738127536231886,1422,40,295,23,30,471,182,368,0.135,0.69,0.175,0.9309,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,2,0,1,2,26,25,5,0,15,1,39,15,2,15,0,62,59,38,0,4,9,0,6,2,2,2,4,1,1,3,19,25,9,0,6,4,0,2,7,6,2,1,2,9,48,19,33,50,6,24,2,1,2,0,37,11,2,5,10,208,67,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107402381628859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043865857582754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062144094607674935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054177922729917706,0.0,0.07562684349340995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702946236387054,0.09872108745168323,0.0,0.09921489560493907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655871683565857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162714869158134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371895875687115,0.0,0.07777589758745335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454711159622885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740338532928092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987664927536777,0.06349295955357319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733059722849728,0.0,0.04643398868075026,0.0,0.050510221189394376,0.22363466059225448,0.0,0.0,0.09790682201162833,0.0,0.0,0.0946100464551834,0.0,0.08774654960602803,0.0,0.09447092394264084,0.0,0.0,0.059571641253690924,0.0,0.0,0.08827382071808894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782900416440333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768773887691594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817632552187655,0.0,0.08684054929683138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463337066358322,0.09942939670135206,0.0,0.07555911056173513,0.0,0.0,0.11865070458890042,0.09010621132305316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913200344458374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066802298735453,0.13180070499745866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060224608861651825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484210151141792,0.18484607223102606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041874010422707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05693617629308605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082258419931586,0.0,0.09271694511282408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472988234756596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143508055038664,0.07768145253892789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138961740476575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060340901025852024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410911025866651,0.0,0.3246807027236901,0.15982021240136932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567319448458212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811442666383297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlepinky_,2019/04/17,"I am fucking FREAKING OUT TW: b/p

I literally hate myself so fucking much right now I binged on an entire pack of Oreos and purged them fine and then my brain decided that we would eat an entire pack of digestive biscuits too and I could only get a little bit of those up despite chugging almost 2L of water a lot with it. 

I literally have a nose bleed and tons of little broken blood vessels under my eyes now for some shitty biscuits that weren’t even worth it. 

Ugh just put me in the bin",3.1419,4.704833990000001,4.625,84.1675,74.1,6.6000000000000005,24.5,7.1686216300943375,1.0602,389,12,76,4,8,130,76,100,0.162,0.802,0.036000000000000004,-0.9329,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,1,0,6,6,3,0,6,0,5,10,4,0,0,14,9,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,5,0,0,1,2,11,1,12,6,5,12,0,0,1,2,2,8,2,3,3,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23387352241693585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25498367057708776,0.0,0.0,0.26072676938473743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864761993204052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23898704106636295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542621457448324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43183922598142893,0.12202385321843548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305891092657502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4681707914248612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985617449298075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169121273402602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17763056537656452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23478921773498845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945633718328507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591213791761472,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonely_tardigrade,2019/04/17,"i'm so tired of myself sorry here to rant, shout into the void or smth…junior in uni rn, thought i did well on my lin alg exam only to find out i ended with a C- ….like i actually thought i did really, did all the review, only to somehow been told i f'd up : ) probably going to fail diff equations too…i recently switched programs so even though they're all tech lv2 maths i still feel like it'll impact my grad applications in the future so like ya girl really fucked up (i only have a year left and i really dont want to have to stay an extra semester to boost grades) 

been stuck in a vicious binge purge cycle ever since and i literally dont have enough energy for the rest of my exams like can i get a reset i'm actually so upset; i can't even focus to study rn cuz i keep flip flopping between wanting to eat and thinking i dont deserve to eat…if i'm dumb i might as well be skinny 

idk i just feel like my life is over and i'll never be happy, like what a slap in the face, ive also gained weight cuz of stress eating and relapsed with my self-harm, here's to hoping that itll be better once this is all over",1.1571704545454544,2.874986679166668,3.562045454545455,88.95477272727275,80.125,6.196969696969697,19.24242424242424,7.1686216300943375,0.30070833333333313,873,20,192,11,22,303,148,240,0.151,0.7290000000000001,0.12,-0.8159,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,3,16,16,3,2,11,0,22,8,2,2,5,30,39,15,0,3,2,0,3,5,0,3,2,1,0,1,5,9,4,1,6,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,9,4,23,10,30,24,6,21,0,1,0,1,3,12,2,4,12,119,28,8,0.0,0.0,0.21472012624547065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879800153288083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730049905204888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868149405096771,0.0,0.0,0.3377224981425625,0.0,0.0,0.09744180934604003,0.11367627290897632,0.0,0.1453294901048913,0.09951606448669073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125511904866424,0.1571913690783485,0.0,0.0,0.10055292790663503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170831965312907,0.057478989039225714,0.0,0.0625248128063065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711442367328966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927103437937152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097787564576016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953305898074967,0.0,0.07770778389390012,0.3224905154397513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670993505498195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848513721063333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716379554609985,0.0,0.2510171179900541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861620585761368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21143782470979644,0.0,0.10862784843719428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477102061016392,0.0,0.0,0.09100664089055437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315426863207042,0.0,0.1172627642776715,0.08785917923302779,0.0,0.1260233285440557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049401877475403,0.10809048069730233,0.17468134616309275,0.0,0.12644758149509333,0.0,0.1051253131525982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12978095778119708,0.0,0.0,0.1339702452400617,0.19783577715074302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084690625225147
EDAnonymous,edanon72733,2019/04/17,Anyone use peach? Drop your usernames :),4.4049999999999985,4.7159995000000015,1.313333333333336,90.99000000000002,137.33333333333334,1.2000000000000002,19.666666666666668,3.1291,-0.3917333333333333,31,1,4,0,2,8,6,6,0.20800000000000002,0.495,0.297,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6292279085089607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7772208432314711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seriouspuppy,2019/04/17,"Anyone else just always have an appetite? So many people talk about not having an appetite lol even when I'm sick I could eat and eat and eat. I thought it might go away as I gain weight, I was pretty underweight so I guess it was reasonable for my body to be hungry...But now I'm at a normal weight and the extreme hunger is still there. I honestly can't remember the last time I didn't have an appetite. I could recover if I had a normal appetite, if I could just eat like 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, like normal people, but I can't. So I'm going to be stuck in quasi recovery lifting weights (which I hate) and trying to surpress my appetite forever because that's the only way I can maintain a normal weight.",2.605816326530612,4.1433412312925215,4.037840136054424,87.93186224489797,75.4625850340136,6.8047619047619055,25.17517006802721,7.492282038375204,1.190614965986394,559,19,116,7,12,185,87,147,0.048,0.861,0.091,0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,11,4,1,0,10,1,17,13,1,1,0,23,26,13,0,9,6,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,11,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,6,4,15,3,9,14,0,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,8,74,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061554851083738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614711348214663,0.11158341242626303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231742094914054,0.0,0.0,0.06638591255350765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096605311771387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608491945931969,0.0,0.0,0.07023306021520666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4457375072176341,0.09097400898037576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192903012181659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378352502192945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996830806631532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751860675900532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887700181665797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640845608749264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104099744694876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552827203929635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268050498943952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282520786830315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099847033217167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11079292581372603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119698391233618,0.0,0.0,0.12336522768624687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696962392105498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753165074843293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645636753294908,0.06350188463664876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393760367800199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644168257510593,0.0,0.5304553011694756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clare988,2019/04/17,"Just purged after two weeks clean :( I was feeling stressed about uni so, to comfort myself (and by comfort I mean make myself feel more stressed and unproductive) I ate a bowl of cereal and honey, 5 oreos, 2 or 3 oatcakes with butter and a piece of bread with peanut butter and jam. Forced myself to be sick. I hate myself :(",2.880537634408604,5.234660064516135,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,77.38709677419354,5.423655913978496,21.623655913978496,6.42735559955562,0.4624107526881721,252,7,47,2,6,80,45,62,0.27699999999999997,0.5920000000000001,0.131,-0.8966,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,13,8,7,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,5,8,2,9,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124412469500669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050363091583013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062347361197193,0.0,0.0,0.3365505229383699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7078305475162847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018112756656092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24783092283006686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imaprettyflower,2019/04/17,How sad that I got excited when my BMI went into the ‘underweight’ category again ~just ED things~,3.741666666666666,6.717733166666669,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,78.44444444444446,10.266666666666667,31.222222222222207,10.125756701596842,4.19368888888889,79,4,14,3,2,26,18,18,0.151,0.732,0.11699999999999999,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5741601862788096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769325329665698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6654888725518815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,athinsin,2019/04/17,"Is anyone else furious at their younger self for not running away when they could? I went on my first 'diet' when i was eleven years old and a healthy weight. I was really lonely in elementary and middle school and my mom put being beautiful on such a high pedestal i thought i was too ugly for friends, so i went on a diet. At eleven. Let me tell you it was pretty unsuccessful because i knew nothing about portions but i started to learn more about calories and was definitely undereating nonetheless. I discovered those bullshit 'pro ana butterfly' websites and ive had guilt and anxiety ever since. I heavily glorified eating disorders when i was so young i never knew itd fuck me up for the rest of my life. I still believe that looks are everything and put them above my well being. I hate middle school me for glorifying something so horrible and causing these intrusive thoughts.",4.875435540069689,7.200610585365857,5.455400696864114,76.81451219512198,71.1951219512195,9.075958188153312,32.44599303135888,9.606745405546679,3.463750522648083,712,34,122,18,14,229,111,164,0.155,0.695,0.15,-0.205,0,2,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,3,1,13,7,3,1,4,0,15,6,0,1,2,19,25,15,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,8,4,0,5,0,0,5,2,5,1,3,13,2,26,2,17,7,3,28,0,1,1,1,8,12,1,0,11,92,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526734544849584,0.0,0.0,0.10535672733451876,0.1543861956212597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156582078501512,0.0,0.0,0.0918511834252649,0.0,0.0,0.16976116432583216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478658731601058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030317024263708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17268867561849546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417999075469518,0.12587113838426373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629579894933205,0.0,0.0,0.13541859903891876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816561563249207,0.0,0.0,0.11641252783737947,0.13929828071900133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876215286022335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919832003622714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407724451063892,0.1064274853013066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653056952072955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764708560594887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621124300716748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445784607372275,0.0,0.1581099630844908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329248269255916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30294361784771845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652742129482912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30498594722974104,0.0,0.0,0.1571887717925644,0.0,0.0,0.1246414123574184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599836794866555,0.0,0.0,0.10664981999949108,0.0,0.12033069324399985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13169817125443178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392411090576004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834837591761298,0.13547654565423814,0.2793578205565048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703092400755517
EDAnonymous,losemore,2019/04/17,"Boyfriend jokingly called me a “crack whore” today. We’ve been together for a few months now and I’ve never told him about my ED. He’s brought up my weight a couple of times in the past. Referring to me as a “tall thin blonde”,  and a “pin”, which made me feel extremely uncomfortable as my weight is only discussed between myself and my therapist, so I’ve always passively shut the conversation down or changed the subject.

Tonight I was getting changed in front of him and he saw some bruises around my tailbone and asked where they were from, to which I replied were from sitting in the bath (it’s how I relax and often will sit in there for up to 3 hours at a time). He then laughed and retorted “just crack whore problems huh?”. Ouch. I asked him what he meant by that and he shot back “well you’re so thin, and so are people who smoke crack right?”. 

What. The. Fuck. 

Not only was I extremely offended with how he had correlated thinness to drug use, but also how he had so casually made such an offensive joke. And an offensive joke at my expense. 

I’m extremely confused right now. He’s fast asleep beside me, and I can’t stop thinking about what he said. I know logically I’m overthinking this due to the disordered mindset I have. But at the same time, even if I didn’t have disordered eating, I think I’d still find a comment like that offensive.",3.2064167350287107,5.1950236301886825,3.9985726004922064,86.9162838392125,74.9622641509434,7.778506972928631,27.370795734208368,8.587818076936951,1.9627555373256769,1062,42,217,21,23,339,157,265,0.124,0.8109999999999999,0.065,-0.9414,0,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,0,22,17,5,1,16,1,14,8,1,6,1,40,32,26,0,2,6,0,6,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,10,13,3,1,8,6,1,2,4,9,1,0,15,9,25,8,29,16,3,40,0,0,2,3,22,19,1,5,18,134,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811940456016332,0.11249724459560546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203566789885192,0.25278753002823484,0.0,0.0,0.10396046749292644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380543333846491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860473817087729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959624700452026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30990186478455034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678909628234267,0.13834336987128795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929833597123693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836119078211234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357036596794678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499023691474988,0.07063642858455292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314478254359596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430239342788066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605189897451066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558590497244631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791536349803828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427458774544716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056514101910006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290637142025041,0.09373066835482986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936815688254505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309201511931122,0.12860617643536704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797090803312437,0.1130332678711417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697764000398565,0.0,0.173261423210589,0.0,0.0,0.23650865107537095,0.0,0.12815380736974075,0.12918940988792826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676940541228605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32927439464520325,0.12156105194057384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misterladybug,2019/04/17,"This sub & all the ED subs I’m part of are honestly the MOST supportive subs on reddit I have ever been on 

I’ve been on reddit a loooong time, most of the time as a lurker, and under a diff account since that one has pics of muh face (make-up related)  

I came here honestly looking for pro-Ana / people who get it and what I found was people who get it but people who want all of us to get better and honestly it is so heart warming ❤️

I am a big sensitive baby bc I’m always starving so I’ll admit it doesn’t take a lot to set me off probably, but I have been routinely criticized in other subs to the point of DEATH THREATS for merely stating my opinion or seeking support (legit over normal shit like one time I said we sexual assault survivors deserve more support and I had to delete my account bc people doxed me) 

But here, everyone is so kind, and like I wish I could explain my gratitude. Y’all have all helped me so much over this past year — from being able to laugh and commiserate over pooping myself to helping me with the tough questions that not even my doctor knows to always being encouraging but never condescending 

I love all of you and want you to know you deserve to be happy and healthy and feel beautiful bc you are beautiful the way you are, even though our brains won’t let us see that 

It pains me to think there may be a day I have to leave in order to keep up my recovery if I recover lol. I’ve never felt more understood in my life true story 

I’m off to treatment (FINALLY found a vegan treatment center!!!) for a few months but just wanted to rant for 5 minutes about how much I appreciate you all ❤️❤️❤️❤️",3.904255482878028,4.618487749262542,5.4390868282672855,82.31903039630629,71.212389380531,8.609516480697705,28.01346671796845,8.841846274778883,2.058055175067334,1293,45,266,23,23,439,185,339,0.107,0.659,0.23399999999999999,0.9940000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,4,7,0,1,14,21,3,0,14,1,25,9,5,1,9,54,55,23,1,7,9,0,3,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,15,12,0,1,11,0,2,1,5,5,0,2,11,6,36,16,41,36,14,32,0,0,2,1,22,16,1,8,13,179,51,1,0.10507554351647136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486253926398942,0.11384930749999833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293077936684707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729905713302564,0.0,0.1201784293386528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389427142310966,0.0,0.0,0.06776503288529406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754927122111864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388028110031533,0.0950468447990436,0.0,0.10040418474348098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312935196875545,0.0,0.10088899982145558,0.1151051218703034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304198199216392,0.0,0.0,0.1646929039626923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185486994507614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451502498603542,0.14085984384338635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339597100703356,0.0,0.10942000911212707,0.11549354150758205,0.0,0.0,0.11125982887317144,0.0,0.10744686233147292,0.07421796383868189,0.10266920598286916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882369926019669,0.0,0.0,0.08933146956070932,0.09483478044673342,0.0,0.07013874122221188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387029635568759,0.0,0.15448522926319735,0.0,0.16208147372337364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295172299583584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424038153264024,0.0,0.11180778667818153,0.0,0.0,0.11378657409137258,0.10030649583204672,0.2913846065182055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933035204019224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328920779727795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177086564062758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995090394151482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373160400614797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785853544352393,0.08691957541753123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35771544474289685,0.0,0.0,0.07900373191164857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732816552086425,0.10323618800725902,0.0,0.18381118325877535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25278588247975703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859288339384199,0.0834040755794079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083168940774378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06766520498758988
EDAnonymous,Drichthy,2019/04/17,"Why didn’t I realize how skinny I was? It’s 5:00 am and I can’t sleep. I knew I shouldn’t, so I did. I opened up FolderLock to look at my old body checks. Holy shit. I thought I looked normal then. Before I started the semester, my mom mentioned that they’re just going to say I have some medical issues, but my dad said “look at her, they’ll know what’s up right away.” I thought he was just saying that.

Narrator: he was not just saying that for funsies

My thighs were basically as thin as my calves, i had bags under my eyes, I looked sickly...and frail, and...

I’m weight restored. I have energy. My toes aren’t purple. I can think. I didn’t even have the mental capacity then to appreciate being thin. It’s just hard looking at what I used to look like, I wish I could have the same perspective then that I have now.

There’s a reason this is called a disorder, isn’t it?

I’m finally getting better to the point where I don’t feel like pulling a sneaky on my parents and restricting again. I’m doing well. I’m going to try not to let these stupid pictures fuck everything up...it’s just difficult to see how much my body has changed without me even realizing.",1.6202965253774801,3.6411941841004207,3.274324176823721,90.09535746770966,79.96234309623429,6.8343460069128605,22.106785519374213,7.893859768569023,0.9682838275422956,906,28,198,16,23,300,137,239,0.11199999999999999,0.774,0.114,0.1053,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,1,1,15,8,3,0,7,0,27,11,8,4,0,32,52,12,0,4,9,3,5,2,0,2,1,4,0,0,11,4,2,1,9,0,1,3,10,4,1,0,12,18,34,4,20,35,3,25,0,0,9,1,13,14,2,1,10,125,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696153062328506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687407724514706,0.0,0.0,0.10068703276771412,0.0,0.2529132199561557,0.0,0.0,0.11624891442487358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043337134906558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908963135072514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304767278078567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038766784206173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231693319576243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756367092853521,0.08133119913766895,0.0,0.12471210568176437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052482671048346,0.05947953925448785,0.0,0.12940196478244495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019831452611977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882505269939175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625664719346031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641466715404053,0.0,0.11123825472532528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5736089394258275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468729526803248,0.11472941839943845,0.0,0.0,0.13333439364003835,0.0,0.0,0.08368949150608587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154435136990112,0.0,0.0,0.1194616296824265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641187917916094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762073103055622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170520646941538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722337661155916,0.10829307586666144,0.2716033700725312,0.0,0.0,0.09072006942909504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686069961395393,0.0,0.0,0.11392764948655006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805803825004269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729475557417714,0.0,0.1807611121873416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077293575098497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832590027721363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863306564511133,0.10236071536461247,0.0,0.10272779456463443,0.0,0.1309166279855393,0.10974293355323138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cashmeremoose,2019/04/17,started prescription on Ritalin... Lightheaded? Queasy stomach? Irritability? Let's play a game of it the meds or is it my ED,1.965,3.9341436818181847,4.362363636363638,71.62354545454549,112.1818181818182,9.032727272727275,31.67272727272727,8.238735603445708,4.537952727272729,99,6,16,4,5,34,21,22,0.105,0.789,0.105,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6132454123422321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6661440334386217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.424478728507484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,p7mplemousse,2019/04/17,I purged and now my jaw keeps popping? I purged and now everytime I open my mouth my jaw pops. Has this happened to anyone else??,-0.06461538461538296,2.262118307692308,1.0142307692307675,99.36826923076923,96.69230769230772,4.138461538461539,18.03846153846154,5.985473137389443,-0.3143538461538462,100,3,22,1,4,31,18,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,13,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582873843539814,0.5250222516296793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280508903258244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531204450040842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554515156600689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TurnTechAstraeus,2019/04/17,"Can't tell if I want to recover or if I want to lose I currently weigh 130lbs, I'm 5'5 this, if I were a normal person, would be fine. I however am standing in my kitchen and all I can feel is my thighs rubbing together and I live in a house where others are either losing weight or have lost weight. I want to lose it all again, go back to 110 then lower so I can feel small again and also kind of as revenge I guess?

Like a 'ha you thought I'd put on a load of weight and keep it on after we split and while I'm going on dates with a guy' fuck you buddy. I'm probably just spiteful.

I feel like I need to lose cause I'm looking at my tummy and wanting to rip it out and carve my thighs off. But! I'm normal weight so I'm not sick right? Lol",-0.34638199858256513,1.394443957831328,2.0085967399007814,98.0539440113395,85.32530120481927,5.110701630049611,17.596031183557766,6.2272716619740125,-0.4607146704464915,571,13,143,5,17,194,99,166,0.19,0.737,0.073,-0.9476,3,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,2,0,5,8,12,2,0,5,2,10,10,2,1,2,36,32,19,0,11,9,0,8,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,5,10,6,1,4,0,0,3,2,7,0,0,3,9,19,5,19,27,3,23,0,5,1,1,6,11,1,6,10,85,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200703314418053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846787694787632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11819008408614105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17452122599969186,0.08219316313323621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636370887628388,0.0,0.0,0.13077339217784492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674273573069902,0.113919556453527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275454684325122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226349315136073,0.0,0.11980894070491707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241717956007004,0.0,0.10159301315223786,0.0,0.09661469323947994,0.514854981136476,0.12559283569463894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853095911979898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254530405538067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045895805878954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404550218582272,0.0,0.0,0.1156590253963112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825376902007127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005605085327846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913384269486206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27144257339423755,0.0,0.0,0.5604093042298094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172963119042795,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mikeymousedoesdrugs,2019/04/17,"Emotional eating is so fucked Was binging pretty bad for a couple days and was borderline concerned with myself cause I’ve been making OK WL progress. Then my 10 year old cat cat suddenly had to be put to sleep and I’ve been too depressed to eat for 3 days.

GREAT",1.7377987421383665,4.2581560188679255,2.771981132075471,90.92199685534591,83.15094339622641,5.79748427672956,22.040880503144656,7.1686216300943375,0.8189144654088052,211,7,42,3,6,67,43,53,0.18100000000000002,0.596,0.223,0.2382,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,1,1,7,4,1,2,0,5,9,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,0,2,2,6,3,0,7,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,21,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727156603354234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24270943383242544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614229404724309,0.0,0.30474300547085953,0.0,0.20349486316879725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835165489883498,0.0,0.2657665399241196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21842336234285584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26048320763190275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770884990331224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247920574314084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240366638545493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375117742626301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23643581931742344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15214703701704296
EDAnonymous,redhair-redeyes,2019/04/17,That fuckin “gotta look good for my bf” feel SO my long distance bf is visiting next weekend and this entire week my mind has been a hellscape of “you’re too far for him to see you rn!!! Lose that shit within 4 days!!!” Even though he is nothing but amazing when it comes to my self image issues. But still....I don’t want him to even look at me...what the fuck do I do I’m #stressed,-0.27456639566395324,1.6747011097561002,1.2023577235772365,102.67014905149051,86.6829268292683,4.132249322493226,17.647696476964764,5.033348758259628,-0.9195490514905148,289,7,73,1,9,92,64,82,0.168,0.792,0.04,-0.9149,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,6,7,3,1,2,0,7,3,1,0,0,7,16,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,5,0,0,1,4,8,2,8,14,0,11,0,1,3,2,8,3,3,0,6,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064292736686375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272960510584526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29235240593177164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190330917223787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20460177719201408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562818238590909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23099493821607556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585645252710876,0.3716970411900796,0.2475944221238316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234646516116763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353705829219104,0.0,0.0,0.21235732313304503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635907880257276,0.0,0.2308793898775062,0.0,0.22717625175815154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767421217361164,0.0,0.25351512123790754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174404662630444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305370824052236,0.0,0.17752521890508385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gudetamaisbae69,2019/04/17,SSRIs Just realized that my weight drastically went up after I began taking meds for my anxiety. So my meds are essentially causing my ED to come back. Fucking. Nice. Fuck my brain.,2.4227272727272755,5.373806424242427,4.505212121212125,74.51781818181819,90.8181818181818,7.488484848484847,24.78181818181818,8.238735603445708,2.6530654545454544,144,6,23,4,5,49,28,33,0.146,0.772,0.08199999999999999,-0.3368,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,4,7,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,6,1,4,5,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,3,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442555985824506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542717550994054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837176493651745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610840804945006,0.0,0.21892941625940446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4699187980898581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5646110839262135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19109065031639086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094886280577564,0.0,0.23560142055473346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrmeeseeks8,2019/04/17,"I just looked at myself in the mirror and cried for a half hour I fucking hate myself. I hate myself I don’t know how I got like this. No, I do know how I got like this I’ve been overeating like a fat fucker because I’ve been so stressed out about school and so I eat and eat and now I hate myself and I just don’t know what to do and I even covered all of my mirrors I don’t want to look at myself. I can’t share any of this with my boyfriend and have to pretend I’m fine when I am sitting here shaking and wish I could just rip my eyes out. I can’t even touch my body. I’m just so fucking fat I am so disgusting",-0.10649754500818176,1.3210005106382994,1.9463829787234024,100.42615384615387,82.90070921985816,4.622149481723951,19.356792144026187,4.713530739802397,-0.6962039279869069,476,12,124,1,13,159,68,141,0.223,0.669,0.10800000000000001,-0.961,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,16,14,7,2,3,0,13,9,4,2,1,24,29,15,0,3,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,11,4,0,3,1,0,1,6,9,0,1,4,4,26,5,14,24,1,11,0,0,3,3,1,6,3,0,6,86,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140799687735037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986743565367684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18197489589791355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080255109522276,0.0,0.17995629748363218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352718981200129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641241374913825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029108949410917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620548802783608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852358186726742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613366220936345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270105150350928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401128319075117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751468851812042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580169859773372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766330700834027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096629425699604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883929970375164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Logfa,2019/04/17,"So confused by my own sexuality and ED right now. I've read a lot of posts/comments on here and over at r/EDanonymemes that are along the lines of ""Am I attracted to her, or do I just want her body?"".... and god I am SO confused right now. I've only ever dated men and had sex with men, but I've also always found women to be so gorgeous. I can't name one male model but can go on and on about the female models I follow. I check out almost every girl I walk past to begin with, but then again I think that's just a thing women do. I'm in my early/mid twenties now, so isn't it a bit late to have these types of thoughts? Like am I bisexual or just utterly confused... When I was in high school I had rivalries with other girls, for academic & extracurricular things. But now I'm looking back, maybe I behaved in that way because I was actually attracted to them? 

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How my ED comes into this - I honestly can't tell if I'm attracted to a girl or if I just want her (skinny) body. Having a quarter life crisis right now. In case it wasn't clear, I am SO confused right now. 

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Thank you for reading. I have no one else to talk to about these thoughts, so hello reddit :)",2.2771951219512157,3.7117072479674817,4.07691869918699,87.74074390243904,76.11382113821139,6.708617886178862,23.68211382113821,7.365786028017652,0.8778201626016267,917,28,199,11,20,310,137,246,0.073,0.779,0.14800000000000002,0.9618,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,1,1,0,25,11,0,4,7,0,20,5,3,1,2,41,35,24,0,4,13,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,8,11,12,1,0,4,2,1,4,5,4,0,3,8,1,25,7,31,26,3,36,0,0,1,1,17,16,0,11,16,138,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.11515818894751592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816735400691787,0.0,0.0,0.09437046639268144,0.09819160106890264,0.3835828702155706,0.2867837885093316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074039802216467,0.0,0.07193620906316622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883350520265716,0.2621592127579228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016529165828733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858003117833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674443945110383,0.09942631489610244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938901111321874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670663186815129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468128559224224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311747489452327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335210878291154,0.05765244950898973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909648588611462,0.0,0.0,0.10032566219070548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11855428357725845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992972175829964,0.08974993699321596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265140566774555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360786470615541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031106618874556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194297778378524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484986928225364,0.1031436594206097,0.10864534904944616,0.0,0.0,0.15679773137259112,0.0756143699771516,0.0,0.18736937071338186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920763106175696,0.09366877264032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867837885093316,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovelylily00,2019/04/17,"Just remember something really messed up that my mom told me when I was a kid As a child I ate very little. We often had crescent rolls with dinner, I would always only have one crescent roll. This was by choice, not for any ed reasons, I was just full. 

One day at dinner I felt more hungry than usual and took a second crescent. My mom shouted at me to make me stop and told me I shouldn't have a second roll. When I asked why, she explained that if she allowed me to eat a second one, I would want two every night and if I had two I would fall into a slippery slope and regret eating so many. She claimed that she had specifically taught me to only eat one and took pride in that fact. I ended up eating the second roll after my father flashed her a mean look.

I have a lot of memories surrounding food shaming and my mom but for some reason I had forgotten this one until right now. I'm glad her comments didn't push me into disordered habits earlier than it did. I would be in a much worse place if that were the case.",5.262857142857143,4.907926666666665,5.956904761904763,83.5239285714286,68.04761904761905,8.523809523809524,27.023809523809533,7.793537801064563,1.4229523809523812,800,20,167,8,12,262,120,210,0.061,0.904,0.035,-0.6119,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,8,5,0,1,11,0,19,8,0,4,1,37,33,15,0,10,7,4,1,0,0,5,0,1,0,2,8,10,8,1,6,0,0,4,3,3,0,11,17,3,32,2,21,10,5,27,0,1,1,0,18,13,0,6,10,125,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873934030089135,0.0,0.0,0.07142402552182235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981889048340671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773568374088436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037351963457778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4298877868603349,0.0,0.0,0.09302543655920413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849233450536025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084530463384868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270027353843414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526768758059878,0.0,0.0,0.08819877701897534,0.0,0.0,0.08929277995799187,0.0,0.0,0.07010836402091501,0.10648397050603048,0.0,0.11440849886653255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690297232414321,0.0,0.0,0.07720916073133653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856357303987233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558553500140693,0.15976014910213693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973403220748026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728492995208198,0.21597673768273568,0.0,0.0,0.11897855542066416,0.08969507612672332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085725234638477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780981230239876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007213990601236,0.2333844671713784,0.0,0.0,0.2051981657221717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567574516418387,0.08666077861742777,0.06194943595409608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477327032796946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703457876447997,0.2984412939899305,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,atla302,2019/04/17,"havent had my period in almost a year hi lol so the title basically describes it all.... haven't had my period for almost a year, but im not extremely underweight or anything, around the low end of a normal weight. my body is confused, like why?",1.0127210884353737,3.495682959183675,3.7296938775510218,82.86828231292519,86.75510204081633,7.348299319727893,20.41156462585034,8.344100000000001,1.5839360544217684,191,6,37,5,6,67,39,49,0.113,0.7859999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.1486,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,1,5,2,1,0,1,9,5,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,3,1,4,3,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,4,6,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5387192898954887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213599722861549,0.23946258798169825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987928140631812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382497357447577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905607691531208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141737377990284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26355799546139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275634528988989,0.0,0.0,0.24272615583948176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34644793248840666
EDAnonymous,LLazarus732,2019/04/17,"I’m trying so hard to recover and it’s just so hard right now, I don’t want to do this anymore I’ve been trying to recover for about a year and a half now, an about 4 months ago my antidepressants helped push me into the worst binge phase I have ever had. It is only just ending now, but I went through phases of purging again which was devastating for me, because that was the main focus of my recovery. I felt like I’d come so far and then I slid all the way back. 
On top of it I’ve gained so much weight. I don’t even recognize myself anymore and I can’t take it. I can’t take looking this way and I can’t seem to find the motivation to keep recovering or even properly lose weight and restrict again. I feel trapped in this disgusting body that I have no control over and I hate it. 

I think I just wanted to get this off my chest. I’m just struggling right now and I needed to tell someone.",1.5852352941176449,3.3073617526315786,3.301455108359136,91.29930340557276,78.84210526315789,6.575851393188857,22.22910216718266,7.510576382923642,0.6919690402476775,703,21,160,10,17,234,108,190,0.198,0.735,0.066,-0.9817,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,5,21,6,2,1,7,0,13,4,2,2,2,30,30,15,0,3,6,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,12,10,2,3,6,0,0,4,6,5,0,1,6,7,21,1,20,24,4,28,0,1,1,0,2,9,0,2,14,108,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300932974368614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910916540964226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284887135950993,0.0,0.08946312975921858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301653905575114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264201739998716,0.0,0.0,0.16460307581989306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998521224089768,0.0,0.0,0.1938663161421831,0.13275222258798342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420593049063011,0.0,0.1409119786069075,0.0,0.1341353753907773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667569639561109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629350792399453,0.14489446176187346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836969014143418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044644204824066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169919903383533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324088092725853,0.16418615869267733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171419027519618,0.0,0.107884999155227,0.10882018892017087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161708913595016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250663344103211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360418865135934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243487101200068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15342472406351976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206895142325034,0.0,0.12827412935374533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403745736708873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19927991278569135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731249189155317,0.2329814614987401,0.0,0.3574266709201296,0.0,0.13604737586225066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450820143441988
EDAnonymous,djthreedog,2019/04/17,"Purged for the first time last night *TW (obviously) for gross discussion of vomit and destructive behavior*

I'm almost done with a 100-hour fast (80 hours in, 20 to go), but last night I gave into temptation. My mom was cooking burgers, and her food is my biggest fear food because she is an *amazing* cook. I decided to take two burger patties and chew/spit. After I was done, I realized that I might've swallowed small amounts of meat by accident and broken my fast at only 50 hours in! I was freaking out and I felt like shit, so I did what I never ever wanted to do in all my years of having EDNOS:

I purged. It sucked.

It was just stomach acid, and I could only get a little bit up. I felt gross but I needed to punish myself. I wanted to get anything of caloric value I had swallowed up and out of my body. I *needed* to finish this fast. I've come so far, I couldn't let this ruin it, or me.

The jury is out regarding whether or not chew/spit breaks a fast--some people say it breaks because you swallowed some of the food, others say it doesn't break because you're not technically eating anything of significant caloric value as long as you don't swallow large amounts of food. I couldn't find a lot of information about it.

I still (unsurprisingly) feel like shit. I decided to continue my fast and disregard my slip-up, but I hate that I purged. I don't want this to become a habit.",3.0129746637472654,4.720817388489209,4.404488583046604,85.01278229590244,74.75539568345323,7.1369408820769475,25.75602126994057,7.893859768569023,1.4682412887081642,1086,38,218,16,23,360,148,278,0.203,0.746,0.051,-0.9936,3,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,2,0,1,6,14,6,1,9,0,20,16,4,0,4,47,37,18,0,8,9,1,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,13,14,11,1,8,2,0,2,8,11,0,2,11,6,36,3,35,22,6,39,0,1,0,0,10,14,3,5,22,140,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468866370492168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206645561841144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911925420208664,0.11546388698494355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413818658660715,0.11612808754249705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09005793595197087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347222856986469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21397564544543768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697762497213334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456869723437128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764437897590582,0.05286207670769664,0.07468835844194154,0.20076292482019925,0.0,0.09555401375929497,0.0889275780621215,0.5056743238270309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924292755799753,0.0,0.05941643816417329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321846382808604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30887304452386005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704394278412321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690633459839456,0.0,0.10215271297448636,0.10478350442032583,0.0,0.09252075647959428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888207405779322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090778729431998,0.0,0.12244411849835585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550404701082609,0.08063304914673326,0.0,0.0,0.1962204514732786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590253255712341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247968801814937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627985384123947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21463187345286716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349132537551035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860629165896632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060962164410061415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212717406055527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849934907469864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732480491385491
EDAnonymous,pikapika350,2019/04/17,"Anyone tried Huel or similar things? Saw an ad for it recently and keep thinking about it. Food is just too much of a hassle at this point and the idea of not having to worry about it beyond how much of a meal replacement shake I portion out for the day sounds really appealing lol.
Anyone else tried it? Or anything similar?  I've seen other ones but it's the only one that comes to mind haha. What's your experience been?",2.603928571428572,4.830765583333335,4.097857142857143,84.38464285714288,77.69047619047619,7.533333333333335,21.214285714285715,8.472884824447931,1.3523857142857143,335,9,65,7,8,111,64,84,0.016,0.88,0.10400000000000001,0.8101,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,6,2,3,2,0,1,0,14,8,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,4,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,3,3,2,1,12,5,3,8,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,2,2,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30072933265366586,0.22033931175891824,0.17696395004335394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524247531611104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868642134212922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179642745196845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21035555688595603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26003361741345216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427599562110679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911421338592704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713443966657375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161660621193433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914405068837517,0.16355163282043422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328730716365756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776351887148247,0.0,0.21233127992144807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286653477241734,0.13779233823179568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29200327097507145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21838892982545247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavenderbeings,2019/04/17,"i could throw back an entire deep dish pizza whoever said fasting shrinks your stomach is a damn liar,,,,, catch me out here Not doing that but wishing i could like the carb-driven animal i am",16.291891891891893,7.39568845945946,14.148108108108108,59.528648648648655,56.29729729729728,16.962162162162162,50.51351351351353,11.20814326018867,5.635454054054054,151,5,28,2,1,48,34,37,0.051,0.7959999999999999,0.154,0.5789,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,3,0,5,3,1,0,0,6,7,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32473112364559514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6743620066585702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063198433998731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40171450926249386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4856368566930864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skittlecrack,2018/12/28,"Am I just going crazy? Hey guys, so this actually happened a few weeks ago but I never fully processed it until now. So ever since around my sophomore year in high school (I’m a freshman in college now) I’ve had an ongoing battle with food. I’d either eat so much in one sitting that I felt like I was going to explode or I would eat so little that all I could do was lay in bed all day. Now I’ve never been underweight or even close to it so I’ve always just assumed that everyone in their own way had the same unhealthy eating habits that I did (and still do). I have this tendency to intensely diet and set low calorie goals for the day and go through with it- until about 10pm when I end up raiding my entire fridge and feeling so guilty about it I want to fast for the next week. Because of all this, I never really acknowledged that I had a problem. It wasn’t until I had recently went to a friends house and her aunt offered me some lunch and without hesitation I said “No thanks! I ate yesterday.” YESTERDAY. I nonchalantly said yesterday. At the time I didn’t realize what I had said but for some reason today I had one of those painful flashbacks and it dawned on me that I denied a meal because I had ate the day before. I’m not really sure the purpose of the story but I feel like I can’t be the only one to have slip ups right? This can’t be normal. ",2.5717113783533776,4.096121992907803,4.255568917668828,86.39021739130438,75.52482269503545,7.173851372186247,25.0268270120259,7.893859768569023,1.3427833487511562,1070,36,223,16,23,360,157,282,0.114,0.807,0.079,-0.9134,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,18,9,1,0,14,0,24,10,0,1,8,44,41,22,0,5,10,1,3,2,1,1,1,3,1,1,18,11,9,0,7,0,0,4,10,4,0,3,20,6,29,5,31,17,10,50,0,1,0,0,10,15,0,5,30,161,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.11294567479390613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259664518107718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963050630022996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303325734246184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110822250700353,0.0,0.09848632913049518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240907891354694,0.0,0.0,0.2239284339175251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552931540491776,0.0,0.0,0.10251140498255737,0.0,0.0,0.07644526674963939,0.10469357719577307,0.0,0.11059465770215718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704337841961199,0.08268477465421817,0.1111286788461407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995342910958514,0.0,0.08942054020482704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733335567335766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460092901886955,0.10234861800929808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228580584751628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354857474293294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113089566149432,0.11600202000970225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508231551330779,0.0,0.26779777882905736,0.0,0.12309094525244102,0.0,0.1134007570865818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352855299568661,0.08802558714282382,0.1231556625622833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074767692178272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14829218671069871,0.1190001339543076,0.1142794190529019,0.0,0.0,0.09884144180195299,0.3302861141696806,0.0,0.0,0.11713519439360293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574143463719367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924302202949398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090837063011363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655796495029772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748900272855288,0.0,0.10970811362618538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06826652959042748,0.09186913088568613,0.18567950786291,0.0,0.0,0.10729226350750516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156935870799273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221847024670917,0.0,0.0,0.07453285142514622
EDAnonymous,Reyessence,2018/12/28,"I’m in hell Fucking dragged into Golden Carol whilst on a 13 hour drive to New Hampshire from Virginia, and I want to die in here. Like all of my fears are concentrated into one thing and it’s this restaurant, the amount of fatter foods, the lack of serving sizes or calorie counts and the fucking facts that they have a goddamn chocolate fountain and Cotten candy. Excuse me for this but almost everyone in here is fat and it’s terrifying, like it’s seeing what I never want to become and what I never want to eat in one. My stomach is cramping to hell but I’m so happy it is Beckie dot lets me know that I’m empty and free of calories that are in here, also every fucking breath I take feels like it had 3-10 calories in it and it’s hell. ",2.187847744360901,4.181107953947368,3.627180451127821,88.39526315789475,78.01315789473685,5.132330827067669,23.357142857142854,5.773587663045528,0.4479458646616541,587,19,116,3,14,193,89,152,0.183,0.677,0.14,-0.8636,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,1,0,5,12,6,1,5,0,8,9,3,0,4,24,21,13,1,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,15,10,3,0,2,0,1,1,2,7,0,2,1,2,9,6,20,19,3,15,3,0,1,3,2,9,6,2,8,79,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734849789983552,0.0,0.0,0.13854806615404847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134115671885946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798062819950728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772781346593114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459707065169994,0.1655479234312214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949545623529633,0.0876004711770244,0.1237699272983718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094947445704564,0.0,0.0,0.4805008596686855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442798467400515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061647920611395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09521374041901767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17715999570755514,0.0,0.25392378655661385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672423611638233,0.1673260548861629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347975433115571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380579226274046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302625363146482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509968790775843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065622458180689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chili_jones,2018/12/28,afraid bf is gonna leave me bc... i’ve gotten fat. obvi. 5’4” and up to probably 135? from a low of 115 over the past year.... i can’t enjoy sex or anything without thinking about how disgusting he probably finds me. restricting is so hard in a relationship too... im supposed to visit him tomorrow and i just feel awful 😥 here’s to the new year bringing me back i guess,-0.3129545454545486,1.9662677763157923,2.475598086124404,89.61964114832539,94.92105263157896,5.921531100478469,21.382775119617225,7.348242739294969,1.1034894736842111,285,11,60,6,11,99,62,76,0.18600000000000005,0.7709999999999999,0.043,-0.8313,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,4,1,3,2,1,1,0,11,9,5,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,2,7,1,10,7,0,12,0,1,0,1,5,4,0,2,6,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19779919720992947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482517784252947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215353253840522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968845866960146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647881861738006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153190465979221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25963450521619713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254510905990853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23214517288068265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22945475819564085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183063682102054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580611199912563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401562791320533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317024422322017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095732359085263
EDAnonymous,Rosalie_aqua,2018/12/28,"Show reccomendation for Supersize VS Superskinny Lovers If you’re like me and have already watched and remember every single SS vs SS episode, there’s a great show that Dr Christian is also in, called weighing up the enemy. There’s no thinspo but it’s really entertaining to watch. You can watch all the episodes on 4oD if you’re in England!
Really recommend!
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EDAnonymous,Frenziedfriends,2018/12/28,Anyone else constantly read content on other subreddits about diet/exercise/fasting and not actually indulge old habits? You get the dopamine rush of restriction but don’t actually form new/positive coping skills And you also get to feel like a failure for not losing weight so it’s a win win,6.612169811320754,8.702874698113206,7.166179245283022,67.2843632075472,66.16981132075472,10.58301886792453,35.89150943396226,10.686352973137794,4.611532075471698,241,12,36,7,4,79,46,53,0.095,0.632,0.273,0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,4,3,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,5,4,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,21,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.4922771130827962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20170697881172425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176363978022465,0.258437826424387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27256931956363245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107044822413697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753426932682455,0.18019203584799964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635578814330601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322606696850688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821790878977341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436037827481899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646713006377692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522966796762504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071462685820909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brutalbabyboy,2018/12/28,:) I really think 2019 is gonna be my recovery year.  My goal is to be able to attend a kickboxing class by the end of 2019. To have the energy for one and to enjoy it and feel strong,1.6039166666666669,2.412632225000003,4.3599999999999985,87.55166666666668,76.75,9.333333333333334,18.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,1.1583333333333337,139,2,34,4,3,50,31,40,0.0,0.746,0.254,0.8909999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,7,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,22,4,2,0.5174353087681989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582941006322136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616308393046558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506275565523768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314823084852257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33155165273662074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332113740637334
EDAnonymous,granolapet,2018/12/28,"I missed this I had an eating disorder for a little while until I got into a relationship. Recently I went through my first hard break up ever and after a month of trying to recover, I found that my weight was 20 or 30 pounds MORE than I thought!! Today there's a family dinner and I want the security of monitoring myself again. 

My name's Lynn, I'm 18 and I missed you all a lot.
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EDAnonymous,npozero,2018/12/28,"Does anyone else have a fear of eating something that isn’t prepackaged? I know this sounds weird, but I only like to eat food that is prepackaged and single serving. Unless it is vegetables or fruit. I have a food scale and a ton of measuring cups. I just don’t trust myself to measure everything out. Like what if I subconsciously add too much food because my body is wanting me to. I’m terrified of guesstimating calories because I think that’s how I gained weight after getting out of residential treatment. This fear has been worse in the past week as I’ve had about 400 calories a day and the scale has been hovering around the same 0.5 pounds. Does anyone else have this problem or something similar?",5.405714285714282,7.173949909774437,5.123315789473687,82.01971052631583,68.69924812030075,8.026766917293234,30.59323308270677,8.548686976883017,2.393271278195489,570,23,102,9,10,175,87,133,0.153,0.747,0.1,-0.8223,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,2,7,0,13,9,1,1,0,19,18,10,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,7,8,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,3,10,3,15,15,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,67,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979125278561336,0.2900143447364287,0.0,0.12598559143499372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725423744470812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15720029468299668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912707117225302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476956916822086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28962698905985723,0.2364488325711017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271918648793658,0.0,0.0,0.318505736797616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133909961068477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393999491236783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777741177072592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828210661249593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403578530934472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763471857189233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135099842428774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541852346438707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21790284122070075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906823080343427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347400953342514,0.0,0.113521319323691,0.1723370472765063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422416137594538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Orjen8,2018/12/28,"Whenever I see thin people eating I involuntarily hate them Like the title says, I instantly feel so jealous of someone who is thin and eating something. I know it‘s wrong of me and such a judgmental thing to think. I mean, I‘m talking about random people on the street. Maybe it‘s the only thing they are eating that day, who knows. Also, maybe „hate“ is too strong a word but I definitely feel resentment and perceive these people as gloating about their thin bodies and ability to apparently ingest food without consequences. And my thinking this in turn makes me feel like a hateful, horrible human being. Ya know?",5.264999999999997,7.968772772727274,5.6490909090909085,74.15363636363638,71.27272727272728,8.036363636363637,28.272727272727273,8.841846274778883,2.6745636363636356,495,19,77,10,10,158,77,110,0.16,0.7290000000000001,0.111,-0.7954,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,3,1,6,8,4,0,6,0,4,6,1,1,0,20,19,9,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,9,5,5,0,10,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,8,13,3,10,18,0,7,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,1,3,52,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143072613739264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15877160938046728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921830192412115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43878298637209584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168208528622318,0.1021147521048488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284088611856366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233642859338622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23566453609748506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966432225627431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541205333118986,0.0,0.28720034981018633,0.15570110567889572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871059451468992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972851002086253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366983027366745,0.0,0.0,0.1139028748980551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111068572856044,0.1100404578087893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488794337642623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899229700557614,0.18317746818454506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547521869461225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377868834329879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627998314402808,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dd_recovery,2018/12/28,"How in the hell did I ever eat ""normally""? Do you ever stop to just reminisce on the days before your ED where you just ate ""normally""? It's insane to me how there was a time in my life where food didn't consume my life. ",3.339290780141845,3.4530891702127704,5.081702127659575,86.53333333333335,72.19148936170212,8.819858156028369,24.177304964539005,8.841846274778883,1.3699985815602838,169,4,39,3,3,58,35,47,0.198,0.802,0.0,-0.8708,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,9,1,1,0,3,0,4,5,0,2,2,9,5,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,7,0,5,1,0,10,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,5,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290896412360865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362709133214502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754831792844265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4870567164245285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255465113538011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803214914015381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275643632212816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250831682575121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569865742683886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xhones,2018/12/28,"finally accepted that i have an ed, now what? i’ve been struggling with eating issues for years but it has never been my main issue. i wouldn’t say i have had an eating disorder in the past, just an unhealthy view of my body, food and eating. the behaviour this led to wasn’t very severe and it was for the most part manageable. i really don’t want an eating disorder so i have tried hard to not get one by forcing myself to quit my behaviour. all i had to do was to make myself eat instead of not eat and it sort of worked.

now i feel like i have lost control. ever since october i have been feeling terrible about eating and have skipped meals a lot like i used to but i have also started having issues with binging and purging, which i never did before. my eating habits are terrible and i can’t seem to make myself eat normally, even though i’m trying. in the past i have made myself eat every meal with other people so i wouldn’t be able to skip meals without anyone noticing. but now that i have issues with overeating and also getting rid of things i have already eaten that’s not enough and i don’t know what to do. it’s so much harder to balance my eating when it’s wrong in so many ways and i honestly don’t know what to do. i feel myself getting more and more self destructive with my eating every day and it sucks

i try to not have binge foods at home but since i live with my parents and siblings that’s difficult, they buy a bunch of things and now around the holidays we have a lot of cookies and whatever at home. and purging without anyone noticing can be a problem but i still find ways to do it. also if i just stop purging and restricting my intake i will just be overeating and gain a bunch of weight and i would honestly rather die than have that happen. 

so basically i have accepted that i have an issue that’s getting bad, and i want to fix it before it gets much worse. i’m wondering if anyone here has any tips on ways to deal with the impulses to especially binge and purge. thanks!!

**tldr:**  i’m developing an eating disorder and i want out. i’d love to get advice on how to stop binging and purging but also on just how to deal with it all in general. thanks!!

(also sorry if this isn’t a good place to ask for advice in, feel free to redirect me to somewhere this would be more fitting)",2.7274999999999987,4.494305505307856,4.209468683651803,85.855349522293,75.68789808917197,7.08791932059448,24.08922505307856,7.908726449838941,1.3002343524416138,1827,58,366,28,40,607,198,471,0.156,0.735,0.109,-0.9806,1,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,1,5,30,21,2,1,18,0,47,22,1,8,5,94,80,45,1,13,20,1,6,2,0,5,0,1,2,1,27,33,20,4,11,1,2,1,16,10,0,1,12,8,46,12,59,59,15,37,0,1,1,1,9,16,1,9,19,278,73,2,0.05213842389520633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189812880590787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753604727240175,0.20847539375951388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035455916151478216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936919479879847,0.0,0.0,0.04641425125451329,0.0487423881721492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04353340612907627,0.0,0.0,0.08873191711689454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057914035181276385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058477675818644326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033624970108217515,0.10750485129089422,0.0,0.0,0.054111452407683634,0.0,0.1792654525353478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6935581122156825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05387292936297742,0.0,0.03443693725359684,0.04716218939431513,0.08785774168698972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545101482307748,0.037247700448485084,0.0,0.057115094871172375,0.04765357487302837,0.0,0.12609197826352622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344104730694653,0.0,0.0,0.04373123627253224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04610583606074178,0.0,0.046705786779972315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459818054826099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720948427940056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573078284704469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050944400603361736,0.0,0.04603918351967395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056915248715352924,0.08865244701604366,0.04705696318540117,0.04933463734399418,0.06960560562309374,0.05286017838051934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665548137383746,0.0,0.08042473347972068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051084585381728886,0.0,0.1187198823516784,0.0,0.0,0.035330345384407984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05789354956915529,0.056460832226190666,0.09954405038721853,0.0361462182891364,0.0,0.05447355587264245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04988943021975963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055455631658005024,0.0,0.0,0.033401209427914566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041462567364570456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047464862931941465,0.054391747090433935,0.058901578389250864,0.0,0.08625888605944157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05836469691504793,0.03690384478802209,0.0,0.041637812672659535,0.08718011396094309,0.0,0.05450640112076916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600411140907383,0.0,0.0,0.06927690417991715,0.0,0.05122573675580302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619570210644576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04503085800633432,0.0,0.0430196600910228,0.09225777982012676,0.1241551621324327,0.0,0.06349055413118401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051916014196674,0.05654189663809262,0.037957393561341785,0.0,0.05313350825938387,0.0740752808213858,0.05700518170250396,0.0,0.03357543556313804
EDAnonymous,VelvetMermaid,2018/12/28,"Cancelled on one of my best friends as I feel too fat. Last night, one of my best friends asked if plans for today were still on. I said yes. She asked if I wanted to get dinner after. To avoid suspicion, I said yes.


I looked at the menu of the restaurant despite having been there multiple times and I couldn’t find anything acceptable. I couldn’t justify spending money, especially as I’ve spent so much this month and I’m too fat to see her, especially as she’s lost some weight herself. Healthily, at that.


Woke up depressed this morning and cancelled on her two hours before we were due to meet. The second I cancelled, I regretted it. I rarely cancel on anyone, let alone at such short notice. I couldn’t avoid suspicion, though. She asked if I’m okay. I guess the fact I’ve deactivated my Instagram account gave away that I’m not doing well. I’ve told her I’m fine.


My depression and ED won today.",2.1471318746303965,4.626472932584272,3.244583086930813,88.48672678888235,80.91011235955057,6.219278533412182,23.413364872856306,7.475848149327749,1.100164044943821,714,25,142,11,19,229,106,178,0.163,0.675,0.162,0.4333,0,3,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,5,8,15,0,2,4,3,9,4,2,0,1,22,30,12,0,8,4,0,2,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,5,5,4,2,3,0,4,0,4,6,1,4,11,6,24,9,21,15,4,20,0,4,2,0,18,10,0,5,10,87,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14931183945427773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080377475622916,0.0,0.1186358111643646,0.0,0.40432546428475613,0.0,0.1354481054283647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122674106770119,0.0,0.30258531115138554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483388341120508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289433989339883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176453122838458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227636057384956,0.0,0.07532045266018833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881440216428078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197384397091484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751401342965274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741885253702425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106259706840845,0.0,0.15737352521206166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507141839612375,0.0,0.10597813066724047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528942840082173,0.0,0.0,0.16413322281946735,0.0,0.0,0.1953803638076396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27426855004179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488113022408092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513064618565555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416417384937331,0.0,0.08406398329215219,0.0,0.2733038171560765,0.1377561836951266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082861291067122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850324670818552,0.0,0.0,0.17555457538739302,0.12962197610334686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadbucket,2018/12/28,"heartbreak = no appetite! my ex and i were high school sweethearts. we just broke up a week ago. it was a mutual decision and for the best but he was my first boyfriend so i've been feeling many things, from relief to fear to sadness to excitement. cycle repeat x10000.

i've gained and lost the same 10 pounds for what feels like forever but i'm at my lowest weight for the first time in years as of this morning. the feeling/illusion/whatever of control is completely intoxicating right now. at least when i get my stuff back i'll be skinnier. silver linings!
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EDAnonymous,ifearfearingfear,2018/12/28,"Crap. I'm the one whose boyfriend tried to kill himself. Just found out that the traffic that prevented me from getting to him in time was a wreck that killed a very good friend. I'm...  


  
so fucking lost.  


I bought a bunch of booze and fast food.  Consumed all the booze, ate nothing.

​

I tried to connect with friends...   


I can't.    


I'm gonna curl in to a ball until visiting time with boyfriend at the ward tomorrow.",1.3330120481927707,3.87050115662651,1.5795301204819303,98.52134337349399,85.6265060240964,4.765783132530121,25.16746987951808,6.2581,0.6026395180722894,328,14,71,3,10,98,59,83,0.19899999999999998,0.713,0.08800000000000001,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,2,8,4,0,8,0,2,6,1,0,1,8,12,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,4,1,1,1,1,1,1,5,0,1,5,0,6,3,13,6,2,10,0,1,0,1,6,4,2,0,5,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291238841343849,0.25695496579306604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557061532164251,0.2318621223145879,0.326757014812508,0.1954973885621631,0.11048252780780372,0.0,0.0,0.17736808251635555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4679127420636103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084068485217502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290782750924286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432951855378718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466156546777909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871437696800899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448202409138686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25695496579306604,0.0
EDAnonymous,ianratman,2018/12/28,"help! can i do a vacation cheat day? I've been restricting for the past three months without fail and I never have uncontrollable binges. For this Christmas break I've decided to eat at maintenance because I have to be around family all the time and they're already suspicious because I eat nothing lmao. 
So basically I jumped from eating 500 calories max to eating 1,500 a day and I know I'm not gonna gain from eating like that for 2 weeks lmao.. but I'm at my grandma's place rn and there's so much amazing food here so I'm thinking about having a cheat day where I let myself indulge and just have as many calories as I want. I was wondering if that's cool. Like, am I gonna gain from eating 2 to 4,000 calories on just one day? 
I figure my eating disorder is gonna stay here for a real long time and I'll restrict again after new year's anyway, so it's no big deal, but I need a second opinion. Do I 'pig out' for a day as a christmas present for myself? As long as it's planned I'm not gonna feel guilty lol
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EDAnonymous,fluffychocolatecake,2018/12/28,"Favourite movie/story about EDs? So far I’ve watched To the Bone, Feed, My Skinny Sister, Binge (YouTube video).

Somehow watching these movies make me feel better about myself and it’s interesting to see how the media portrays EDs 

Any other recommendations would be greatly appreciated! ",5.433125,9.042562729166672,4.738333333333333,75.34,77.95833333333334,5.7,28.83333333333333,7.1686216300943375,2.057808333333333,233,10,34,3,6,70,44,48,0.0,0.816,0.184,0.8585,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,2,0,6,5,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,4,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32790293627578915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4264542303643898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24380767123618155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316116398576666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218628220965524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842397210794979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425310177152677,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,draupert,2018/12/28,"My sister gave me some clothes that ""don't fit her anymore"" My sister and I own the exact same sports watch/activity tracker and over the summer holidays I noticed she wears her strap two holes tighter than I do. I tried wearing it like that but it just cuts off my blood stream, on her it looks totally normal. I've been obsessing over it since and have been dying to know her stats, she eats so much, has breakfast lunch and dinner and tons of snacks in between, but she is also more active than I am, I think? Not even sure

So yesterday she gave me a dress and two skirts and said she doesn't fit in them anymore and that I could have them if I wanted to. I haven't tried them on yet because I don't dare to - if I fit, that means I have fat ass wrists and if I don't, well yeah.

Don't even know where I'm going with this but the fact that she gave them to me also means she thinks I'm thinner than she is? Now what, do I try them on?",1.5967529411764725,3.0869348400000014,2.6862352941176475,96.7578235294118,78.1,5.7058823529411775,19.764705882352946,6.2272716619740125,-0.2314911764705885,728,16,174,5,17,232,107,200,0.128,0.833,0.039,-0.948,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,5,0,11,5,1,1,4,1,18,11,6,0,4,33,33,19,1,6,8,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,11,10,6,0,6,2,0,1,7,2,1,2,6,2,37,3,18,26,7,17,0,0,1,1,23,12,1,4,5,124,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717891820632425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370538432526196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358899436108224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567690648237185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763626287606814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738829005493978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224477019568914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657629444467146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18678041020719452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830202111685541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270011516239295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702116177937082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249196020663987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649731925864694,0.0,0.1934687538966127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16164428413125112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056953955694454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015893668214154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21777117941541935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461181016815501,0.0,0.3319978220714548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023032000764467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527893120207265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noodlesandshit,2018/12/28,"Really trying this time, needing some advice Hey so I've finally decided to really try and take care of myself and get better. I'm ashamed I've let this go on for so far and ruined my body in the process. I'm currently BMI 13 (173cm, 39kg / 5'8'', 84lbs).  

I just don't really know how much I should be eating. I obviously have to gain weight which still really scares me but I know I just have to in order to get better and you know, not die. How many calories approximately should I get a day? Should I be counting everything or just try and eat intuitively? Though I haven't eaten even 1000 calories in a long ass time, usually between 600-800 a day so the change is going to be really huge I know. My BMR is 1200 and TDEE around 1500 I think. I sound really stupid but I really need advice.  


I'm in a really bad place right now and constantly thinking that when I start gaining weight it's going to be fat weight. So I'll be getting more skinny fat and it makes me feel really gross already even though I've never really been muscular to begin with. But my body is so weak I can't really do anything else than walking so I won't be able to gain any muscle mass either. But maybe it's okay? Please tell me it's okay. I'm such a stupid little mess.  

Thank you so much for your time and advice.",1.9110811648079318,3.701777200743496,3.915078996282528,86.95668293060724,78.10780669144981,7.6060099132589825,19.758519206939283,8.472884824447931,0.9685500619578686,1013,23,218,21,24,345,146,269,0.138,0.7340000000000001,0.128,-0.7689,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,0,5,21,15,2,2,7,2,21,14,7,3,2,40,48,26,1,5,10,0,4,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,8,11,9,0,8,0,0,4,6,9,0,0,2,5,25,6,20,35,5,33,0,1,0,1,5,12,1,2,16,122,33,0,0.08358952957617916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450481626189473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922431244726416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05684374651890861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878706055169284,0.07441240333220081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979376565912665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785629215812238,0.0,0.1856982468971898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522509635302722,0.0,0.0884266387155117,0.0,0.0,0.09033058574743062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078166627747797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675273461532364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106591381073422,0.06982832598673554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042019186687453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512487929908829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04226537773805898,0.0,0.0,0.09156824382677764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746883166918004,0.0,0.1425175679388229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18375447760005853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547595735554203,0.0,0.0,0.08377866839268214,0.0,0.07397410326582324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055796660075434296,0.08474666309479248,0.08397691765567701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289584434606893,0.12396115404330693,0.06446939834018965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873332672826449,0.09175620201002126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5890455238660695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713850015326269,0.0,0.0,0.08368770141709138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059165099266967225,0.0,0.06675470629653388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284892339597625,0.0,0.07306093320723549,0.07695800822626515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712159071028644,0.16425257680274644,0.0,0.14622518071518106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702554108641939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206205738837453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30536858362022073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LevyMevy,2018/12/28,"When I watched the Christine Blasey Ford/Brett Kavanaugh Senate hearing earlier this year, it made me so upset I couldn't eat for days. Has anyone else been VERY effected by something that isn't a traditional trigger? I've never been sexually assaulted, thank god, but watching Dr. Ford testify and then that stupid rapey piece of shit Kavanaugh testify was so upsetting. Watching Republicans tarnish her name and knowing the whole time they'd vote him in anyways. I was just devastated. My two big non-traditional triggers were the Blasey Ford/Kanaugh hearing & the results of the 2016 election. ",8.189917582417586,9.910888596153846,7.223516483516482,69.73576923076921,62.07692307692307,10.173626373626377,41.78021978021978,10.290406445055957,4.8209412087912105,490,28,74,11,7,150,82,104,0.201,0.753,0.046,-0.9701,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,3,2,6,0,9,3,1,5,1,13,14,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,6,5,8,1,5,6,2,8,0,0,3,0,6,2,1,0,6,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562594423238903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653739081625891,0.2423333486354095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252995312462306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24200967775526114,0.19757449387534026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5331299072222623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998019570186886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22379231557028784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18241177298064207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24277502208460425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18207763218806566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774744432290866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379113975280844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310367657805889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951462474465459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640559539674756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230525398542066
EDAnonymous,cleanandlovely,2018/12/28,"Interview with Marya Hornbacher Just stumbled across this:

[https://vimeo.com/106946326](https://vimeo.com/106946326)

The entire thing is a goldmine of insight, but audience questions begin at around 21:00 and I think everyone here should seriously consider listening to what she has to say all these years into recovery.

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i.e., 28:48 - ""\[Y\]ou contain your strength and your struggle, you own it, you're responsible for it, and nobody else's opinion matters. And so, you are the one who has to answer to yourself: am I taking care of myself? If this person doesn't recognize that I'm sick, do I still have to take care of myself?""

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Tl;dr: Just watch it.",9.934324675324676,11.662170900000005,7.380389610389612,70.1377272727273,58.18181818181819,10.285714285714286,37.532467532467535,10.290406445055957,4.1985194805194785,549,24,78,11,7,157,86,110,0.078,0.778,0.14400000000000002,0.8364,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,4,0,1,6,5,0,1,3,0,9,1,0,0,1,20,17,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,10,3,14,16,2,7,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,3,3,60,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864915776347345,0.4334377033002543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15877230167811898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636862701047609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899134475940745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042427668098847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085685116421868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557312727472205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19979657898106712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183374881689542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424332220427161,0.0,0.0,0.18645365438904504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681990576496491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184900459717142,0.11428163017773185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4334377033002543,0.11485371497157194
EDAnonymous,Meannothingg,2018/12/28,"Need a buddy No idea if I can post this here, but I could really use a texting buddy. 26f, 5 foot 6, 180lbs. I really need to be held accountable. Meanspo, thinspo, tips, tricks, sweetspo, everything and everything. ",1.7469230769230784,4.5235994615384625,3.5860256410256426,80.9298076923077,92.84615384615385,7.728205128205129,24.448717948717945,8.344100000000001,2.672825641025641,165,7,28,5,6,55,32,39,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,1,0,9,7,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446935052820405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5508757851083184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34597036334662296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544912330885344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29351612041580266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39266850615540794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646940043055141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,akinamai,2018/12/28,"How accurate are measurements? So I’m on vacation with my parents right now and so I don’t have my body weight scales, but I did bring my measuring tape. We have been eating out a TON and I have been tracking every day and have come in either at my TDEE or a couple hundred above or below (probably average out at maintenance bc I have also been doing 15,000-35,000steps/day) BUT because we have been eating out a lot of my calorie counts have been estimated and I just feel so huge and fat and terrible. My measurements are exactly the same as when I left home and all my clothes fit the same (I think, but I brought denim shorts that stretch/shrink depending on washing which is also scaring me) but I feel SO much bigger and I’m totally freaking out. Is it possible to gain like 10lbs and still be the same measurements???",5.049983060417843,6.098837770186338,5.582778091473745,81.10579898362509,68.8136645962733,9.581253529079618,31.406549971767358,9.800150414767053,2.970647204968945,655,27,127,15,11,211,99,161,0.073,0.8290000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.6003,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,0,1,11,4,0,1,6,0,20,6,2,2,3,37,28,24,0,0,8,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,17,4,0,3,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,7,3,19,1,14,20,9,23,0,0,0,0,3,16,0,4,5,97,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177775438348897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111687428652412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22069486860764756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115001859238213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198417949738203,0.0,0.2562715009148009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066098630711248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16740115497981692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009227796688408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929781822697626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21587244414548198,0.0,0.0,0.09706772945678976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16891535950406028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605674891156994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22061680342946988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22398811777532426,0.0,0.0,0.2142166400833969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967638410202165,0.0,0.0,0.19891890824953734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586705462352816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127309685373269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419454879624496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_idealixtic,2018/12/28,"Decrease bloating?!?!?! I’m so bloated I swear I look bigger now than I did during my fucking pregnancies. What the actual fuck. 
Any recommendations? Teas, diets? 
I’m literally on the verge of a breakdown I can’t understand why I’m so fucking bloated. ",1.7184782608695668,4.362505956521743,4.352499999999999,74.09875000000002,98.13043478260867,6.647826086956522,29.66304347826087,7.645422480735847,3.087486956521739,198,11,31,5,8,69,34,46,0.162,0.807,0.031,-0.759,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,3,9,0,4,0,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.28517302119247623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987255122031074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8104820717942759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24539847776331736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042203448160317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636909156476337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chickenboyjr,2018/12/28,"when u don’t know whether to be embarrassed or flattered when christmas gifts don’t fit my mom got me some joggers (really the only pants I wear) and they are like Super Baggy especially in the leg area (I’m also really short) and I walked out of my room and she was like “omg you’ve been losing weight!!” which is, slightly true, because im on meds to help but i haven’t lost a significant amount since like fuckin july. so I’m just ?? because either I’m fatter than I thought or my mom genuinely believes ive gotten smaller. either way those pants have been reduced to pajama and after sex pants. sigh",1.5779642857142842,4.119754391666668,3.092857142857145,88.15500000000004,84.25,5.761904761904763,21.07142857142857,7.1686216300943375,0.7738928571428572,477,15,93,7,14,156,87,120,0.054000000000000006,0.774,0.172,0.8792,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,5,11,1,1,3,0,11,5,2,0,1,16,19,12,0,0,7,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,7,1,11,6,9,11,4,12,0,2,0,2,6,7,1,3,6,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670673868491208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25470244934483544,0.0,0.0,0.23537303900173376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16708654686280786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002975911835933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256615333673101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481293998177525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061925341612411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23371984011790975,0.2280528580200333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23205488055787266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893519887297199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588874996223676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676696120386747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281471960056322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585332433557046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582515348887036,0.0,0.25439935085421794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hera-fawcett,2018/12/28,"tmi into infinity and beyond i legit cannot stop, like, diarrhea sharting.

wtf is wrong with me. am i dying. do i need to poop. do i need more fiber.

lmao what is this i ruined a pair of panties help.

(also, lmao almost tagged as shitpost for the pun giggles)",-0.2457692307692305,2.0359701923076976,2.1488461538461543,91.23365384615386,97.07692307692308,4.138461538461539,18.03846153846154,5.985473137389443,-0.0628153846153845,198,6,40,2,8,67,44,52,0.222,0.573,0.20600000000000002,0.0025,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,0,0,7,8,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,7,8,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36562173348000426,0.0,0.0,0.2919917586526369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37894395752992704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24473678795012546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838250425418858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5414737702671829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052623421874624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992088216614208,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Danizada,2019/05/28,"Yesterday I saw an all time low weight I'm so so so close to hitting a number I haven't seen since middle school. I saw the lowest number on the scale yesterday and of course my FUCKED UP BRAIN decides it's binging time. I ate so much yesterday and today. I actually ate so much I had to purge to stop myself. (don't really feel like eating after doing that). Welp. 

Here's to another week of starving myself to see that number again.",1.7636616161616168,4.024463295454549,3.777878787878791,85.39237373737376,80.81818181818181,6.638383838383841,20.005050505050505,7.793537801064563,0.9159808080808084,342,9,67,6,9,116,59,88,0.195,0.7609999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.9354,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,4,0,4,6,1,0,1,7,14,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,6,9,1,10,7,3,15,0,1,4,1,0,5,1,0,11,42,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.24242515919523144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26049333347369275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773223941720983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25419890163571784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561020905801454,0.17747354819161412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296631993891575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136700288489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36523919876789135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591462313025631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514174907542867,0.19796108731309847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20549819703900515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769287727971836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28971507337932306,0.0,0.23547609910133085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992700664947766,0.3025124714449654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tea-addicted-taemint,2019/05/28,"(Victories) ate dinner with the family... TWICE! Background tl;dr - disordered eating patterns (restricting, purging, compulsive exercise) since early teens, now almost 20. After a good stint in recovery (talking almost 2 years no behaviours) I relapsed pretty hard around this time last year and lost over 30 lbs relatively quickly. With things in my life looking up outside of my ed (new therapist, wonderful boyfriend), I decided to give recovery another shot. I usually skip dinner or isolate myself from my family during dinnertime but these past two days I've sat with them and eaten the same foods even though it was hard. 

I'm nowhere near where I need to be yet, but I'm so proud of myself and happy to have my family's support as I overcome fear food.",9.4418763326226,9.244559776119406,9.135415778251602,63.66171641791046,59.44776119402986,13.030277185501067,40.03837953091684,12.28987398476788,5.414417057569296,606,28,91,18,7,196,106,134,0.081,0.775,0.14400000000000002,0.9191,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,8,6,0,1,3,0,3,9,0,0,0,17,14,9,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,7,7,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,3,12,4,17,8,1,20,0,1,1,0,3,7,0,4,13,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908914383130713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230605965674854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12930225062792933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936734773216146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166467739585341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862581149747364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959354804024738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41078300202845774,0.16344531202637005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512709164734506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393359101377931,0.0,0.12182782485864865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462007730222874,0.26022883854714185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839718016111728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259354207452788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197243288317715,0.0,0.15855625276790147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770016482789074,0.0,0.1402822222826257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865644068141422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777027502156748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015133070857585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482664767749675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167455052674967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16864508327545658,0.09649686663993803,0.0,0.1427062351233146,0.0,0.08469575912204043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418869985629956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997106241296766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751615705243574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18707096492069827
EDAnonymous,makeitfancee,2019/05/28,"That moment when... you're in the kitchen

brother is eating oreos

Dad: \[brother\] is that your after school snack? Why don't you eat something healthy?

meanwhile I'm over here eating cherries.

The fact that this made me so happy is sickening.

I hate myself.",2.4707598784194538,5.4387384468085145,2.3434650455927084,90.22000000000004,90.06382978723404,3.5367781155015194,23.7355623100304,5.288315135182226,0.5014583586626142,205,8,34,1,7,61,39,47,0.136,0.72,0.14400000000000002,0.1123,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,1,2,0,4,5,0,1,1,2,7,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,3,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,21,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7963898906376452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27616976533760723,0.0,0.2561349975169981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454804554039401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26255863246953737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19972312255002064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340966695614607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AYO_nonymous,2019/05/28,"Why aren't mirrors created equal? I have one mirror where I look normal, another that makes me feel amazing, and one that makes me want to cry in shame. Don't get even me started on the effects of lighting and the varying pictures of yourself. Where can I see the true reflection of myself?",4.998750000000001,6.340204232142861,5.252142857142856,82.34285714285716,69.17857142857143,7.742857142857144,33.64285714285714,8.07648339933343,2.5975857142857137,231,11,42,3,4,73,42,56,0.136,0.735,0.129,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,3,1,10,12,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,4,7,2,6,12,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31829117499738896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334275992794819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20048720878249948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348040005323504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858862599458598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548995691121632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052344575309743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974075731407959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41137702109102586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418843747147569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484921206575544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903745454478742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739002352011369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwthepuppyaway,2019/05/28,"My BED was just a way to deal w growing up with abusive parents!!! tw abuse obvi

I learned to cope with food from a young age. I was always overweight. I was hit and insulted basically my whole childhood by my parents and I still get yelled at to this day @ 21. I never really had friends so I was stuck in my own head and comforted myself with junk.

I decided to start restricting in February (successfully this time)!and I’m near my GW1 after being borderline obese. My mother told me to stop losing weight because people will think I look sick. She has always commented on my eating habits and looks. Said I eat too much, was too big, my stretch marks were ugly, made little comments when I was preparing food, bragged about how little she ate (despite being obese herself). I can’t wait to graduate college and go live a carefree life away from my parents. 

My mother keeps stealing my dieting food and asks me how I lost weight even though she brags about barely eating smh",3.716798092209857,6.080390129729732,4.281144674085851,83.75157392686806,74.72972972972974,7.1637519872814,27.63910969793323,8.124751697461798,2.003015898251193,774,31,140,13,17,245,124,185,0.213,0.7509999999999999,0.036000000000000004,-0.9875,3,0,0,0,1,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,12,7,1,0,3,0,13,16,1,3,1,21,30,11,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,1,5,2,1,0,2,9,13,4,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,14,6,30,3,22,12,3,24,0,2,2,0,17,11,0,0,10,90,32,4,0.0,0.27216855735493645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911369600294104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737382990273596,0.0,0.1079099620300224,0.0,0.0,0.07001448273934012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407191063623941,0.11841036158773037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525757175539111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07586058011723923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166490133295321,0.0,0.08873661304042857,0.0,0.060006946283524334,0.0,0.06527468812812633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787426597556415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208831492678433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112541455366899,0.0,0.23022957226450164,0.10141898346554376,0.0,0.1928983829134033,0.12849325755499286,0.12537769410990998,0.0,0.0,0.10867848616235794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443156897726382,0.0,0.08858318166649276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825983323970151,0.0,0.0,0.07962592806280552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357899180056575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925331412882568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129489139988795,0.0,0.09172327378884353,0.09602384165382484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735943841155527,0.11284435891064375,0.0,0.06697281749685452,0.0,0.0,0.10974878168232327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116647583530872,0.0,0.279724659187195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823139733915226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mononokii,2019/05/28,"I'm fucking tired That's it. I'm just exhausted, physically and mentally. Been restricting more than ever and have only managed to retain water weight and be tired 24/7 for the past week, fuck eating disorders man.",4.458846153846154,7.397784564102569,5.458653846153847,73.29259615384616,75.15384615384616,9.028205128205126,27.698717948717945,9.516144504307137,3.300071794871795,174,7,27,5,4,57,34,39,0.326,0.674,0.0,-0.9323,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,3,8,0,0,1,7,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,15,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282035009926251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25180664028598565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22259819222022065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550036861952224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479960465039359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871589174040295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23491621092069506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.565677575708215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739473943723812,0.29966553194761525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,morbidgrrrlxxx,2019/05/28,Getting help I’ve had severe bulimia with anorexic tendencies for almost 6 years. It’s caused me to lose 110ish pounds. I am trying to recover on my own and went almost a week and a half with binging and purging but I slipped up the other day and it happened again last night. I can’t do this on my own I am realizing. I’m gonna have to look into inpatient treatment I think,1.4396153846153832,3.62864930769231,3.4919871794871824,87.39259615384617,81.56410256410257,6.464102564102564,25.134615384615394,7.645422480735847,1.4336615384615388,298,12,61,5,8,101,59,78,0.054000000000000006,0.919,0.027000000000000003,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,1,0,13,13,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,8,0,10,10,2,11,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,2,6,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249719765782784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26928039195022696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905258823590075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695244923788127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23180127428406824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570065390905285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21367147156659133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201237325858608,0.293257154756128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459918643754893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961330298833241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796274063267347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796950939381356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102654015667856,0.0,0.0,0.2429977452123713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880354881591542
EDAnonymous,sipapito,2019/05/28,DAE ... feel some weird satisfaction in having something going on that makes you not hungry? Whenever I have headache/back pain I am not hungry and I feel so satisfied that I don't have to distract myself from the hunger,5.621869918699187,7.274609073170737,5.569268292682928,79.47552845528456,68.02439024390246,8.393495934959349,28.300813008130078,8.841846274778883,2.251530081300813,176,6,31,3,3,55,33,41,0.154,0.6609999999999999,0.185,0.3409,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,1,0,7,9,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,4,9,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794100429241684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4989766389950732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804223411440547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293621328092429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5250343881755426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798593428589445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paradisepeiir,2019/05/28,"what to do post junk food ok so i went off on a lot of sweets at a reception this morning, am i better off doing a fast till tomorrow or eating hella veggies/spinach only for the rest of the day",2.6157142857142865,3.365279619047623,4.760476190476194,85.86785714285716,74.23809523809524,7.504761904761906,25.904761904761905,7.793537801064563,1.3619904761904764,152,5,33,2,3,53,36,42,0.0,0.799,0.201,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,9,3,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33953082005882995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475855399429229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928283954135463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4642167772993353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263804234039223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919753709737781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676727521065241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558817323125806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Individuelty,2019/05/28,"Is being underweight really that bad? Obviously eating disordered habits are bad. Purging causes enamel loss, laxatives cause dependence problems, etc. But just getting to and being an underweight body can't be that bad, right? Most studies that discuss the mortality of underweight people are skewed by the fact that those who are underweight are often smokers/already ill. Most fitness gurus and female atheletes are underweight. And it's been proven that men are most attractive to the underweight body, so evolutionary, even, how can it be unhealthy?",7.954333333333333,11.229797266666665,7.021944444444442,64.75625000000002,65.22222222222223,10.722222222222225,36.80555555555557,10.686352973137794,5.223222222222223,454,23,58,14,8,139,63,90,0.21600000000000005,0.731,0.052000000000000005,-0.9551,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,14,4,2,4,2,16,15,6,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,10,4,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,5,0,44,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276488485852781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5167367372332429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582888137422969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238383444575091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364290202718753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108867752388505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007061292235856,0.1362542177683653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077792908239558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301721032861162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739401443991075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215622601985325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617262531019998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Taturt0ts,2019/05/28,"If you're struggling and in the NY area-- Myself and one other EDA member have started an EDA group meeting on Saturday Mornings, beginning this weekend. It is located in Brooklyn NY and if you are at all feeling that you may benefit from the support of another person who has been through similar experiences, we would love to have you.   


Non-threatening, accepting of all. If you wish to attend, please PM me for the details as well as the address.  


Warmest!",6.092142857142857,7.705169642857142,6.58666666666667,72.775,66.85714285714286,9.885714285714286,39.0,10.125756701596842,4.4847285714285725,366,21,59,9,6,119,65,84,0.027999999999999997,0.728,0.244,0.9601,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,4,0,0,1,6,0,1,5,0,8,1,0,0,2,14,14,8,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,7,5,13,11,2,10,0,0,0,1,10,5,0,4,4,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151565354890592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29399898069889,0.0,0.0,0.15196887298760064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712612552284105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20366282029013352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624317108177405,0.0,0.3299174727717913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127333041129812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142037604030956,0.0,0.0,0.34106453384314817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702336786595304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345621675778794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135045729347017,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CyrosMarcial,2019/05/28,"i dont have a personality anymore ok so i know that restricting leaves you with little to no energy and all that, and i know that i havent been able to think about much besides ED related stuff for the past few weeks - but i had kind of an enlightening moment yesterday.

After a weekend filled with overexcercise and fasting i broke down yesterday and binged twice right after eachother, and i purged next to nothing of it because i was just ao fed up with my own bullshit.
Then in the afternoon i started being suddenly motivated to write, and i played the ukulele for a really long time - two of my favorite activities, that i suddenly realized i havent done in weeks, if not months. And it was fun. I was happy. My me was returning but i hadnt even known it was gone. It made me so incredibly happy but im in despair knowing that it cant last - im literally fasting today (and hoping for a day or two more) to cancel out yesterday’s binges.
Its so painful knowing im doing this to myself, to not only see myself slipping but be the one shoving me off the proverbial cliff. But i just cant stand it. For the first time in a couple days my finggernails werent blue anymore and it scared me so much. I just want to be thin and sickly but i hate that im giving myself up for it. whats the point if at the end nothing is left except a fucking vegetable without a brain?",3.554798136645964,4.934798713768117,5.098033126293996,81.92108695652175,72.73188405797102,8.155693581780538,28.360248447204967,8.704169506293173,2.151072670807453,1079,42,215,20,21,364,151,276,0.109,0.748,0.14300000000000002,0.8753,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,2,9,13,2,1,16,1,20,6,1,2,1,45,35,24,0,4,16,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,18,14,2,1,9,2,0,2,10,6,0,5,12,3,29,7,34,20,6,47,0,2,2,1,4,15,1,4,29,159,47,1,0.11209563421828768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22233749629819133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833245818540737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513580003964014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240316871694972,0.0,0.14458482126070382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471275257823732,0.13137524845911214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928346017044183,0.0,0.0,0.0740381092020741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534848920199422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363060754982152,0.0,0.10753234660704628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386557740704316,0.0,0.1106712315597264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133625763311217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4843300826526363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167303532974064,0.2464193160491073,0.09137290309290412,0.0,0.11869309130531665,0.1217922345655687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234927406646836,0.0,0.09920110883928954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606759945639056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947366577830539,0.0,0.16480637807884474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11921497868839265,0.0,0.0,0.21511756853684044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759589028041273,0.08525378104574176,0.11927765813811005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700796674675056,0.0,0.0978775840692377,0.0,0.0,0.105966606847251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181133365299469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572905914227803,0.0,0.0,0.11222728509400416,0.0,0.08932570740128846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079341866852767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832268253442145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182635618374936,0.0,0.0,0.13072773152378972,0.0,0.10625355424045768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21900229299713214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611690935968294,0.0,0.17983271253097372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805619124439393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Daybydaystepbystep28,2019/05/28,"I Surfed the urge wave successfully for the first time in god knows how long I have a long history of yo-yoing weight, but this recent upswing is the worst I’ve ever had. After starting Med school last year, it was clear I still hadn’t developed proper coping mechanisms to deal with stress, depression, and anxiety. 

I also started smoking cigarettes again (here and there) and continued to  binge drink in excess on a weekly basis. 

No cigarettes for 5 days, no alcohol for 3 days, and, the MOST challenging for me, no inappropriate eating yesterday! 

When my motivation is around to be healthy with food (or truthfully unhealthily restrict food), it is easy peasy. When my motivation is not there? It’s been damned near impossible, especially recently. Until yesterday!

I also told myself I would be okay with smoking cigarettes initially if that helped me get over my binge eating hump, but then decided last week that I didn’t want to set myself up for failure.

Thanks for reading!! Could use any support I can get right now.",7.226884057971016,8.47327458695652,7.256304347826087,70.34884057971016,64.0,11.35072463768116,33.811594202898554,11.20814326018867,4.192320289855074,820,34,136,24,12,263,127,184,0.16399999999999998,0.653,0.183,0.2975,0,0,5,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,5,13,10,1,1,6,1,15,8,0,4,3,27,25,15,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,8,7,1,4,2,0,0,6,4,0,1,6,1,15,6,23,15,2,36,0,1,0,1,3,8,1,3,27,93,21,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947497481521718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237027119277349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511415776623387,0.0,0.10699764889198472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451102370511845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167218538893073,0.0,0.0,0.18040491172723855,0.14419643456161715,0.12046699076879658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370161261613173,0.0,0.28623712037007965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265174450291245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897055048949605,0.3382547573266854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614916443108456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937497061998528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686708496109619,0.2280200697833148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475552707033737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536038204674868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990455805354546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762030012777048,0.0,0.0,0.11944540452938965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155257576074878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19799675181723944,0.0,0.11169773379056007,0.0,0.16021684160944924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587190828971935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877047316670512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815574022923429,0.0,0.0,0.13364863347999567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079992840869774,0.0,0.0,0.08249700828003341,0.0,0.22438527327375596,0.17031997019902922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935729648787578,0.0,0.0,0.09006957432939408
EDAnonymous,friedryebread,2019/05/28,"""At least if you're feeling full... ""You're feeling something""


Bill Dautrive. King of the Hill S6E6


Watching as I wemt from eating 50pkcal yesterday to 2000 of chips and cheese. Such true words. 😄",2.318333333333335,5.2425475000000015,1.6402222222222242,96.12700000000002,87.88888888888891,3.991111111111112,26.644444444444442,5.6839178017228535,0.7541177777777777,154,7,29,1,5,44,32,36,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.5859,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,3,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,6,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6271171786620815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6197691603601164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4718158879196709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leolioleo,2019/05/28,#Splurging Normally only allow myself diet sodas that are 1-7 calories but today i went wild and got a 23 calorie one #treatyoself #intuitiveeating,7.428000000000001,10.0554984,8.165,58.7875,65.0,8.200000000000001,36.5,8.841846274778883,4.1754,120,6,13,2,2,40,25,25,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.1154,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814986747288365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4673565181513069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232260197583145,0.3627782827224389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452138092500873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421816924833689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greenhouselimpbizkit,2019/05/28,"Loose skin :-( It's so bad.. I'm only 25 and I ruined my body at 18. I was really overweight and lost it all in about 3 months, was a DD then wore age 11 like sleep bras, then a C then a B, but it's all loose skin. I have loose skin in places in didnt even know I was fat, like my forearms, even my fingers have excess skin.

  


I will literally never be able to afford a breast lift in my life, yet I'm only 25 and I cant even look at myself.

  


I want to lose another 30lbs but not sure it's worth it, am I just going to look 10x worse?

  


I hate what I've done to my body because of this stupid disease I've had over half my life :'(",-1.1499766899766897,0.4621374055944081,1.5783496503496508,100.72649883449888,87.53146853146852,4.652494172494173,14.428438228438225,5.6839178017228535,-1.1443133799533798,471,7,127,3,15,163,85,143,0.276,0.682,0.042,-0.9878,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,7,9,2,0,4,0,12,14,11,0,4,13,22,9,0,1,4,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,3,2,0,1,0,1,1,4,6,0,1,8,7,16,3,13,12,2,16,0,3,2,1,0,8,0,0,9,71,23,0,0.17898606042434348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18768249043702293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494458842015883,0.10910824114612944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976263272249215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18316488244696946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35465581455761896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017219028745355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767116790704954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836605791935332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528462954487539,0.1748870963764138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300606423930461,0.2002396187536843,0.19538442830776295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428649658040885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804508393987425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722539287469848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700233790239407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466305350784728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791153220166122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16869224373692634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557061580719804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18240208677933992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hdeharva,2019/05/28,"I wasn’t taken seriously I went to the psychiatrist yesterday. I’m not underweight or overweight, and I talked about my binge eating. I also talked about being sad and lonely.
She diagnosed me with a depressive phase, but she said “We will focus on your wellbeing instead of your eating behaviors now”. Yes, my suicide attempts after eating 6000 cals doesn’t matter. Because I don’t starve. Because I don’t purge often. Because I’m not underweight.
This is too frustrating",3.54551871657754,6.725821305882352,4.7765775401069535,74.58005347593584,83.0,7.7967914438502675,27.72727272727273,8.575989854853784,3.09464705882353,381,17,57,10,11,125,61,85,0.23399999999999999,0.695,0.07,-0.9397,0,2,0,0,0,1,11.0,1,2,0,1,7,5,1,0,2,1,7,5,0,0,0,10,12,5,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,1,14,0,7,6,0,5,0,3,0,0,8,1,0,2,3,42,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566653490337633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4017184103222128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18919769596202046,0.2229560031601877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6743183754389498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089523288948739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402785596626246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531178452275583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036322512860308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hrrrrrrrrrrrrr,2019/05/28,"Sometimes, but ONLY sometimes... I finally think I'm skinny at 5'0"", 77lbs, swimming in a size 23 (yes I'm bragging) when I put my pinky and thumb around my wrist and they touch. Then I go ""hmm...that's success.""  The numbers say skinny but the *feeling*.........fuck.",-0.18902222222222065,1.9225015200000044,1.208666666666666,96.29211111111113,103.8,3.0222222222222217,21.555555555555557,5.033348758259628,-0.03451111111111116,196,8,39,1,9,62,39,50,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,0,6,4,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,3,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,18,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856116442094989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514596425543076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29660727909218737,0.0,0.0,0.18233822626777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440098791869151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225283246295597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551412921261021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6346290889975368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055784538802976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roachbread,2019/05/28,"I guess I’m living long enough to see myself become the villain? I went home for the first time in a while since being at school. EVERYONE i saw who knew me was talking about my weight and it felt weirdly gratifying. Like. Getting the feeling that what I’m doing is “paying off”? And I was carrying this feeling around with me almost the whole weekend, right up until the end

My sisters friend came over just as I was leaving, and as soon as I went downstairs she started gushing to her sister about how good I like, ive lost so much weight, and then the thing that kicked me right in the gut: “how did she do that?”

I haven’t seen ANY changes in my own body because of my fucked up brain but other people do, and now I’M becoming the body that somebody else idealizes, all while not knowing the shit I’ve put myself thru to just manage this (I don’t even know what THIS is, because still all I see is fat and big thighs/arms/tummy/literally everything). It’s like this terrible cycle of shit and I know I can’t stop it because that would mean I’d have admit to everything and honestly, being hounded by everyone about my eating habits and my health more than they already do is something I physically can’t handle. 

I just feel so sick over this and I think the guilts just gonna fester forever",6.4964950166112985,5.953557841085273,6.552956810631232,80.9044186046512,65.55038759689923,9.386932447397564,31.606866002214844,8.634040054169528,2.292226135105205,1025,34,205,13,14,327,153,258,0.092,0.77,0.138,0.8818,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,3,16,15,4,1,11,0,21,13,7,2,2,39,48,22,0,2,6,2,6,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,18,13,4,1,11,1,1,4,5,8,0,1,12,10,31,7,28,32,7,31,0,1,4,1,10,13,3,2,17,143,49,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11218166365619693,0.0,0.1236276718907644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618410677064273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973027514354206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20487698174286464,0.2474562283207961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488797085890655,0.0,0.12506230909347008,0.0,0.12813224797939746,0.0,0.0,0.11851267549774686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463445533308915,0.09358652390758787,0.0,0.0992251520330051,0.11575673253235773,0.0,0.07399462739513969,0.0,0.0,0.2140985527688734,0.20137032395461732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16993690146162732,0.0,0.10756617817901867,0.0,0.0,0.09529249203183887,0.0,0.0,0.08655394683359513,0.10356974637820952,0.05853094748955814,0.0,0.0,0.09396528238517678,0.0,0.0,0.12341345684153572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908244037775408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112375025381645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847059474221561,0.0,0.0,0.11862338409458148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641963066904603,0.0,0.09892436731605436,0.09914284906592802,0.0,0.0,0.12229376238603715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203329663145099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235479450861648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766735857930207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262089347203814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134567693475665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133801402302359,0.17854649469574654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22999396291326435,0.09267220958828934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624601457188504,0.0,0.0,0.07929527020445322,0.0,0.0894671442925799,0.09366193052101383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004531093277335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442762220885885,0.07178417331622287,0.0,0.0,0.06532547824738139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728442347501284,0.0,0.2077054969699988,0.0,0.12507727269953267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795827567824181,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alwaysrelapsing17,2019/05/28,"Relationships, stress, and EC stacking as a self-destructive coping method. My boyfriend fucking hates it when I EC stack because I act like a freak but he’s on another continent for two weeks and I haven’t done them in a while and we can only talk for an hour a day. With all the dumb shit going on in my life (u can read my recent post on r/relationships if ur curious but it just rly sucks and I’m too lazy to rehash it) I REALLY want to fucking EC stack but don’t want to reinforce the idea that I can’t be independent while he’s gone :/ or break his trust bc he really does think i’m done w that BS. That being said, a bitch wants some fucking ephedrine to break her out of the super depressive phase she’s been in so she can fucking feel something!! Thanks for listening to my rant and I know this sounds super desperate and attention seeky, but please leave a comment if you read this. It doesn’t have to say anything special or even anything beyond a smily face or something, but I really just wanna feel like I’m not alone in these stupid mental ED battles and that I’m being heard.",4.829382239382241,5.2170759279279295,5.530321750321749,83.65621621621624,69.0,9.045559845559847,28.01930501930502,9.04235418022936,1.9950980694980696,864,27,181,15,14,281,133,222,0.191,0.648,0.162,-0.7577,0,1,3,0,0,0,18.0,1,1,1,2,7,21,11,1,11,0,14,7,2,1,1,36,37,22,0,6,13,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,11,10,0,0,6,2,0,3,5,14,0,1,6,7,18,7,22,28,2,22,0,1,0,4,18,9,8,6,9,105,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903915553781975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13064498665936866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505627611508565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594978453115929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803511706796149,0.0,0.10731042346738584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903080749204587,0.2550005977438662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229147012002001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259943497811018,0.08900814860287319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4607311092416044,0.0,0.0,0.0708081857453217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300825133427246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122697469948959,0.0,0.0,0.1406485688138954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847219628578391,0.0,0.0,0.13192434385305252,0.0,0.0,0.08800261766256112,0.12173816704898753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555886585088796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475740333125432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367639854337071,0.0,0.0,0.11932415788727295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492503095484005,0.0,0.2394493976658167,0.0,0.12301901475632546,0.2675291559415838,0.0,0.0,0.11851498922432198,0.09908011267826937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997604280272132,0.0,0.12789132125628533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918331527831782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14271907192165378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001418788759108,0.0,0.11470705723973328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983316304840675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217077316304865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046177554928706,0.0,0.099939736774303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Trix-Rabit-Is-A-Pedo,2019/05/28,I accidentally rammed my door into the scale and now there’s copious amounts of glass on the floor I’ve only had it for a week. It took me a while to convince my mom to get it and now I have to wait a while to ask for a new one,-0.4892452830188674,0.9334861132075504,2.347773584905664,97.10996226415094,84.09433962264151,5.749433962264153,18.147169811320754,6.742157984588678,-0.3551328301886789,176,4,48,2,5,62,37,53,0.051,0.907,0.042,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,1,9,4,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704990587474975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705713055496505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641568730596624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38276146381140425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685518744776345,0.30141381537827777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4403182088618284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178982993417228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,veronica-marsx,2019/05/28,"Carb Bloat Came home from work to see my husband cooked spinach and ricotta ravioli as a surprise. Is there any way for me to combat the upcoming bloat? Eat slower? Drink water in between? Anything?

It won’t break my TDEE so I know it won’t affect me in a real way but my body has actually been looking kinda toned and I just had a whoosh and I don’t wanna ruin it yet with ~water retention~",0.4576136363636358,2.915367625000002,2.733863636363637,88.41568181818184,91.5,5.40909090909091,21.022727272727273,6.980632752743323,0.8403750000000003,310,11,61,5,11,105,62,80,0.102,0.878,0.02,-0.8079,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,7,6,1,1,0,12,11,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,5,5,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,8,1,10,6,0,7,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,40,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.26427934247267176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416555492510855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22286017291199445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008177924819284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097436926571749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26529857910538945,0.0,0.27711446619062097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27165257671707443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14883451307142112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274189475424161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30825022077263825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158069160971388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299255115046672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715875959515464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ViscousCerebrum,2019/05/28,"Quick reminder on telling the difference between diet and regular drinks I saw a post pop up about someone throwing away their soda because they didn’t trust it. If you dip your finger in and it dries sticky, then it isn’t diet. If it’s not sticky, then it’s diet.",3.946132075471698,5.3746571509433965,4.4944811320754745,86.43908018867926,71.83018867924528,6.809433962264151,28.34433962264151,7.1686216300943375,1.4987018867924533,211,8,41,2,4,67,41,53,0.0,0.9329999999999999,0.067,0.5106,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,6,1,0,0,5,3,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,6,1,0,9,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,2,3,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933663942536961,0.0,0.0,0.2552252276119733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43743454897405604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101498764342187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4009825115947753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35474868729778314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659473343840159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ehvll,2019/05/28,"IM SO CONFUSED AND FRUSTRATED Okay, so my boyfriend gets incredibly angry when I start to get into a dark place about gaining weight during pregnancy, he makes me feel more guilty than I already do whether he means to or not - but at the same time wants me to talk to him about it. When I do go to him he just gets frustrated and offended that I don’t think I’m beautiful because he thinks I’m beautiful. Like pick a fucking lane, dude, do you want me to talk to you or not?? Idk what to do lol. I needed to tell someone.",4.0844459279038725,4.574042224299067,4.928437917222965,86.95364485981312,70.6822429906542,8.731108144192259,29.304405874499327,8.841846274778883,2.0144162883845143,406,15,90,7,7,132,70,107,0.13699999999999998,0.6679999999999999,0.195,0.8049,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,7,7,4,1,3,2,5,2,0,2,0,21,21,10,0,3,7,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,4,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,0,2,13,2,14,21,2,8,0,0,0,1,11,3,1,3,5,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24937501002589604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775556500906372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142624890194692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20891525454160856,0.3541963233748518,0.0,0.12842987896314226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24409762929086504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040261725904517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508436834210856,0.0,0.0,0.24615892304314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675616161589352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361014387653704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19147247437947715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15995010259283945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632689991361519,0.19751684534991454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895982536377609,0.0,0.0,0.13177099870716058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266578210336979,0.0,0.0,0.2751832689870631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrownawaykalbi,2019/05/02,"I'm getting discharged from the hospital today!!! It's taken 3 months, but they are finally discharging me from inpatient hospitalization. In those 3 months I went from being 76.1 lbs (11.6 BMI) to finally weighing in at a normal BMI today - 123.9 lbs (18.8 BMI.

So I gained almost 50 pounds and it hasn't been easy dealing with the weight gain, but there are so many things that I've slowly gotten back over the course of my recovery here.

When I first came to the hospital I was almost on my deathbed and immobile - could barely lift up my head to take a sip of water. I had to be pushed around in a wheelchair for about a month and was on TPN (basically getting almost all my nutrition from a tube in my arm) for about the same amount of time. My heart rate was consistently in the 40s and my blood sugar and blood pressure were dangerously low. My mom and sister had to stay by my bedside 24/7 and care for me, cause I couldn't do things like go to the bathroom or take a shower on my own. I felt like death, too and everything hurt.

A lot of it was really hard. A lot of crying, screaming, fighting over a few bites of food but the staff here were super patient and kind throughout it all. Since I'm not in a facility that is specifically for treating eating disorders I had a lot of trouble at times but moving to the intensive ward helped a lot.

Today, I am by no means cured and I still have a lot of hard days. But on those hard days I try to remember how far I've come and how many important & wonderful things I've reclaimed in my life.

I can walk. I no longer eat out of a tube. I ate Dunkin Donuts this week!!! My butt doesn't hurt anymore, and the butt cave is gone (see my post history lol). I can eat good food again (sometimes), and I went to my favorite Mexican restaurant recently! My relationship with my family has improved DRASTICALLY, and they have become a vital support system to me. I am no longer afraid of hospitals and am comfortable asking for help when I need it. And I am still not 100% healthy but I am healthiER and have the energy to do things like walk my dog, go on short hikes, and go birdwatching!!

So I guess more than anything this post is kind of just me trying to comfort myself, haha. But yknow what, I heckin deserve some comfort after all the shit I've been through. And so does everyone here. 

I'm scared of what comes next, and how to deal with life outside of the tiny, safe, sterile bubble that is a psych ward (I am so institutionalized oof), but I have to keep telling myself, I have so much to look forward to. 

Recovery is DEFINITELY worth it!",5.473023957743823,5.6670556471734965,6.022155568131801,81.36119411431808,67.57699805068226,9.504345092120985,29.60881594667673,9.370254747372089,2.323371804062127,2029,67,417,37,31,659,256,513,0.122,0.7190000000000001,0.159,0.9815,1,0,0,0,2,0,72.0,0,0,2,4,25,27,3,3,29,2,40,20,8,4,3,68,70,40,1,4,12,2,5,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,19,28,10,2,4,0,1,14,8,11,0,1,19,9,50,16,67,47,15,63,0,3,2,2,12,23,3,12,27,275,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320825188381431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370696839330136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661730680493373,0.0,0.0,0.06357520004908787,0.06877432165345893,0.07222403877479706,0.0,0.0,0.05940518374792065,0.0,0.0,0.08532330938218731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836041436797812,0.0787677581567069,0.07936331134583582,0.0,0.13309860480538327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616827214903647,0.0,0.08486221472881889,0.09964760595316613,0.15929532465027715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885422010179114,0.0,0.06760734691124584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371568781586017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382152868060156,0.06943281471540623,0.0,0.07283018966306204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417798583699327,0.16926059560449638,0.0,0.06571401200612988,0.1868368019870504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072626298352789,0.0,0.13171929167421234,0.06479876392314067,0.0,0.0,0.08510632067312271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761891334644791,0.0,0.07928706244418839,0.0,0.0,0.09154886832313272,0.10356629087518936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540853804745168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866878477190176,0.0,0.16090071069327674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913655760725324,0.11323030638776835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648756792029931,0.0,0.0,0.3284019316079532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566511496939228,0.0,0.08415455770961885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048142824108067,0.18499528193043588,0.08211102396033461,0.056792133773701535,0.05728443041040144,0.0,0.0,0.08216275482082523,0.0,0.07569458973519425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798000533501798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049492245565128413,0.0,0.07628109337736781,0.082944155283519,0.0875161181866036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734684861612368,0.0,0.0615631213221315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930229191177962,0.06390705672262932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640827323087589,0.0,0.0,0.08234473940377315,0.12339366656992015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766932384690422,0.0,0.0,0.11617396777018282,0.0,0.0675252497660148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053021200363404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009732394070034,0.0,0.2196892912773716,0.0,0.0,0.1049036618061486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06197019548637036,0.09407713522793923,0.0,0.14323438531826044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378096126039915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,danithegreatish,2019/05/02,"i got teeth aligners! i can’t eat with them in and i have to brush my teeth after eating before putting them back in and i have to wear them almost constantly. they keep me from snacking so much. a lifesaver. 

also being vegetarian has stopped me from eating junk food or binging so many times. i’m finally going to hit my ugw!",1.3275769230769257,3.8961701230769283,3.009519230769232,87.9573557692308,86.23076923076924,5.096153846153847,21.971153846153847,6.6274283507984215,0.6570384615384617,258,9,50,3,8,85,48,65,0.03,0.895,0.075,0.5807,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,5,8,3,0,0,7,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,12,0,9,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,6,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155499580007872,0.0,0.0,0.17214187656487873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655202415847211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18316884367324107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326176042103732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.660788525339155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358047977270221,0.0,0.0,0.2602910272362869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223361756430732,0.0,0.17216161854309067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913313473282917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218237992932477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15823951899928115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639391025886232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996546433782498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551876691504715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chairmodel_,2019/05/02,"triggered by my upcoming wedding I feel like I just need to confess to you all. I'm sorry. This sounds terrible and makes me seem really vain, but today I realized how... afraid? I am of feeling like a whale on my wedding day. 

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Since he proposed I've been searching through pinterest boards, wedding blogs, you name it, non-stop. Just completely swimming in the tight dress, perfect hair, tan and lithe, bridal aesthetic. And thinking about me standing in front of hundreds of people, in the type of wedding dress that I want to wear is making me think about my body again in an increasingly negative light. 

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It hasn't really been a conscious thing, either. I'm just happy to marry the guy of my dreams. I just wanted to lose some weight and tone up a bit to look good in a white dress. But I noticed today that despite my determined weight loss since the beginning of the year (went from bmi 24.5 to 20.7) I still feel like it isn't enough progress. Or any progress at all. How much progress is enough? What is it going to take to finally be satisfied? 

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I hate my body more the more I lose. I hate that it doesn't look the way I want it to. I tell myself that if I don't work hard enough I won't feel pretty on my wedding day. The thought of not being able to control my 'healthy' and 'pure' meals in the days before my wedding gives me relentless anxiety, to be completely honest.

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if you've actually read this far, thank you. It just feels good to share this.",3.8089770114942567,5.71605517931035,4.055603448275863,87.50765804597704,73.06896551724137,7.316091954022987,27.94540229885057,8.07648339933343,1.776402298850575,1182,46,233,18,24,367,158,290,0.14400000000000002,0.6970000000000001,0.159,0.57,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,3,0,9,11,18,2,1,14,0,14,7,4,6,4,46,41,12,0,6,12,0,10,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,16,5,3,2,12,4,0,5,7,8,0,0,4,15,32,10,35,33,12,28,1,3,3,0,16,11,0,5,13,142,48,3,0.07847408429597443,0.0,0.07657938625012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401065501942487,0.3814184073446661,0.053365068312276255,0.0,0.06003245969340621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677566584645839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567337544156424,0.17433403387375354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455716870479234,0.0,0.0880153583247628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518278771156613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24325411956823995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839427451227246,0.16818570450272274,0.0,0.08596452356330325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752794922927391,0.044598630541384535,0.13164067745950372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770168113097234,0.0,0.08353712195273291,0.07029736564818442,0.15495382340484407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150154211237194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317969332109062,0.17558485486765013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476412125762807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057687481301406274,0.058187539163953424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934326509369554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054404049242140165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983635567156469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849532049766783,0.0,0.10054501568754376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143985906256951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982914691688313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784531260143387,0.0,0.0,0.06266950508787232,0.06560784830832518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05900274517028236,0.0,0.06858980855995894,0.07224839349400099,0.0,0.0,0.05213469464771062,0.10056604914443083,0.0,0.06229965729072672,0.0,0.0,0.14876851235750002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388581443335443,0.06228907544618404,0.0,0.19112058726219935,0.0,0.07274626234057611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713006798930253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814184073446661,0.05053473741268958
EDAnonymous,unecessarilymargie,2019/05/02,Fellow bulimics/purgers do you throw up every meal? I think I throw up like 50% of my meals. Unless I have a pre planned binge and purge.,1.0673809523809543,3.2885662142857166,2.3785714285714303,94.63309523809528,83.28571428571429,5.161904761904762,20.047619047619047,6.42735559955562,0.08017619047619108,106,3,23,1,3,34,24,28,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7227053263564239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41906141629789984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5496221798894703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Keegonis,2019/05/02,Diet lemonade is the shit That is all.,0.2325000000000017,2.5502272500000025,2.2800000000000007,92.965,89.0,3.2,20.5,3.1291,-0.36865000000000014,30,1,6,0,1,10,7,8,0.0,0.636,0.364,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adustydragon123,2019/05/02,"Legally Blonde I finally watched the film Legally Blonde. First of all I thought it was cute and I really liked it. But holy crap Reese Witherspoon's body in that film=my goals. Though that isn't what my body looks like when I lose weight. 

There is a scene in it where she is walking and looks super tiny and petite and some guy says, ""Man! Check out how she walks!"" and I just thought it was super triggering. I want to be dainty when I walk.",0.8205757575757566,3.2530650777777796,1.3675757575757572,99.83045454545454,87.11111111111109,5.050505050505051,18.18181818181818,6.574015621080383,-0.22033333333333305,347,9,79,4,11,105,62,90,0.055999999999999994,0.721,0.223,0.9297,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,7,7,1,0,2,0,6,4,3,2,1,15,11,10,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,7,6,1,0,2,1,1,3,1,2,0,1,4,7,10,5,5,6,2,11,0,1,5,0,5,4,1,1,6,46,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5066520694345982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498313312296048,0.0,0.1939898538262444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22581774005219826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22283964423310595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3830301374474897,0.25514361167278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461026832727282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136446108078005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22407025735991515,0.3621123149627873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345171768265384,0.0,0.0,0.2777186958172235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fvck3dup,2019/05/02,"How can you tell that you’re relapsing? I think I’m relapsing, I’ve lost my appetite, I don’t want food, I’m calorie counting, fasting, making myself sick when I have to eat.",0.09416666666666627,2.4659511944444503,2.2957777777777792,91.42700000000002,92.61111111111113,5.102222222222223,23.86666666666667,6.742157984588678,1.0221733333333338,137,6,28,2,5,46,28,36,0.17600000000000002,0.784,0.040999999999999995,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,4,9,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,1,8,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,13,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42976875191027536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5078702744635294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4584837732629602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803558046977397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671018425402211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26912148257155805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477291291849349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Czarcasm3,2019/05/02,Do laxatives actually help you lose weight (I have already have a dependency so it’s ok),1.0745098039215684,3.534936058823529,4.6670588235294135,71.69509803921571,100.17647058823529,9.325490196078432,29.196078431372552,8.841846274778883,4.0383490196078435,71,4,13,3,3,26,16,17,0.147,0.7070000000000001,0.147,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.4217497993915545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4769264227103258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289684208890825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835039881016977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5262843781103193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ah_thats_sucky,2019/05/02,"I’ll always be taken advantage of.... Especially when it comes to men.

I’ve only ever had admittedly-manipulative people be close to me. I only recently started to realize how “off” people really see me. I am seen as “nice” and make a lot of self-deprecating jokes.  I’m the punching bag. One person I know is manipulative enough that even when I stand up for myself, he manages to word things in a way to always make me feel silly or crazy.

I have always had trouble with the people I desire to genuinely hang out, only the ones I want to avoid end up always attracted like a magnet. 

I know such “evil” and literally morbidly obese women or really uneducated women who have found the “one” but I can’t manage to find him, so my family says I don’t have anything to offer even though I think I look ok and am technically kind of “small” but not small enough I guess. 

I’ve been lonely for so long that if/when I finally end up with a guy and my feelings pour into him, he’ll be able to fuckin take advantage pretty bad... and it pisses me off.

I’m still kind of hurting over someone who has strung me along for like 2 years lol.

I’m fucked. :)",3.969787117903927,4.906756510917031,6.068730895196509,77.04493040393015,71.22707423580786,9.04377729257642,24.79284934497817,9.354420925462401,1.955342576419214,887,24,177,19,16,312,136,229,0.10400000000000001,0.755,0.141,0.5941,0,3,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,11,20,4,1,8,2,15,4,1,4,1,36,37,16,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,5,7,12,1,1,8,1,0,2,3,9,0,3,6,6,24,11,30,27,3,27,0,2,3,2,13,12,3,4,13,111,31,2,0.11946416607365598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976150249923721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830882967198636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974758864995223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290780099227684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116195845963438,0.2468768366772512,0.0,0.15780990999653166,0.10806217766620473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262018373573568,0.0,0.120809343726805,0.0,0.0,0.1308671545713849,0.10918808351547182,0.0,0.0,0.1309862919217999,0.0,0.11044269651516904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316032474393057,0.11828830654235388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788886059850085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24880709064908155,0.13130876283246282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167283143509527,0.0,0.0,0.10572202765711547,0.10031981168281012,0.0,0.0,0.1015641619168158,0.0,0.0,0.1594865170172357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24285603206528444,0.2725736446815344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24846423244249802,0.10431150186782227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153800503986932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530636076831704,0.0,0.11795645173335367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500269980229696,0.0,0.0,0.09519747328298167,0.0,0.1246271793813337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012216002383368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455735162562203,0.0,0.095404237344576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982218538847991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793666836060544,0.07654781386839345,0.11737293661466593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046306036005652,0.09482509443004923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693100616489558
EDAnonymous,ghostie98,2019/05/02,"just feel soooo fat I have a date tonight and I just put on the dress I've been planning on wearing for ages and it's just so tight and now I can't find anything to wear bc everything I put on just reminds me how fat I am. I've got a bmi of 22, which I know is just a little bit on the top side of normal, but like I just can't cope with being this fat anymore. I just feel like I don't deserve to go on this date if I'm not thin. Urghhh.",-0.2973894282632159,0.8518587864077674,2.048090614886732,100.76257820927721,82.49514563106796,4.966127292340885,19.211434735706586,5.033348758259628,-0.6870228694714129,337,8,92,1,9,115,64,103,0.0,0.9109999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,10,2,0,0,5,0,8,5,5,1,0,21,14,7,0,2,10,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,4,3,1,4,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,4,10,2,11,11,1,17,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,1,7,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626702564482313,0.0,0.0,0.2179574667530101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28915885921854684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380393674454224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26784266079297364,0.189216257677182,0.0,0.0,0.2420775240845921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052621731768126,0.0,0.21183298456369826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455602991355249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587947367410525,0.2654596109262019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595068676599161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325155309232954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RumpledBunny,2019/05/02,"I dread getting better. I rotate through bouts of normal eating, binge eating, and heavy restricting. When I'm in a normal cycle i feel bad about restricting and know it's dangerous and want to get better. But when I'm in a restricting cycle and i haven't eaten for days i start getting anxious that I'll get my head together and the complete loss of appetite and disgust with myself will dissapear and then I'll be able to eat again. I've currently had 170 calories this week and I'm just holding onto hope that i can stay in this restrictive episode because I'm making good progress.",6.296541353383456,6.830234719298247,6.59827067669173,76.76289473684211,65.84210526315789,9.321303258145363,33.829573934837086,9.23628265651192,3.0718310776942355,474,20,84,8,7,153,75,114,0.20800000000000002,0.665,0.127,-0.872,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,5,9,2,1,3,0,5,5,1,1,0,23,20,12,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,9,4,5,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,1,8,4,12,16,0,13,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,8,47,13,0,0.176791480950812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997240517800427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761350200883536,0.10777044586841487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127153961873657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185362504178244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401587961896782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5427054631628552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939108475837503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36946500799005344,0.0,0.0,0.14828430640654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143906379902225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17559383117587854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715997443391187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800968634301495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34643622989241923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251339201577434,0.18843619583853274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427619597411564,0.0,0.14181146212100065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BoofDatKratom247,2019/05/02,"Me: doesnt eat, sleep, take meds, is manic Also me: wow i feel like the epitome of health",-1.6543859649122794,0.26173163157894663,1.1642105263157916,97.99614035087721,101.10526315789473,4.63859649122807,11.596491228070176,6.42735559955562,-0.8686982456140355,67,1,16,1,3,23,18,19,0.0,0.7040000000000001,0.29600000000000004,0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107717024262082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39764559145675904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964931616638545,0.2776234420545109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130748237825663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985547669539984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43165869561609177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888911823628423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921867572503544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UrethraLasso,2019/05/02,EDs ArE sO gLaMoRoUs Bitch I just pulled a chunk of spaghetti out from my throat.,-0.29562500000000114,0.6892706874999988,-0.754999999999999,107.6,123.375,1.6,16.5,3.1291,-1.4462000000000002,65,2,14,0,4,18,16,16,0.207,0.61,0.183,-0.1243,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ofpaperflowers,2019/05/02,the gods are punishing me i just bought a big boi ultra violet monster for lunch and it fizzed all over my pants and the hallway 😫 at least i burned calories running to get paper towels ✌🏻,1.6811538461538476,3.93018012820513,3.3407051282051263,88.47721153846153,81.05128205128206,5.951282051282053,22.57051282051281,7.1686216300943375,0.8949435897435905,151,5,30,2,4,50,36,39,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.5574,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,4,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,18,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemonlime836,2019/05/02,"My family and boyfriend are becoming calorie-aware and i’m pretty sure it’s making me relapse Hi everyone. Just need to rant for a minute to people that will understand. 

I’ve been in a binge/purge/restrict cycle for about three years. At my peak of restricting, about a year ago, I lost 40 pounds in about three months. At the time, my family definitely noticed, with comments like “you’ve lost enough weight now, don’t lose anymore” “you’re not planning on keeping up a diet right?” Etc. The weight loss wasn’t ~ scary ~, I went from 168lbs to 130 lbs at 5”4. 

Now, I’ve regained to 145lbs, so I’m right on the cusp of being overweight. This has coincided with my dad getting a Fitbit, my boyfriend beginning intermittent fasting, my sister getting into working out, and my mom losing 20 lbs of her own. 

Everyone I know is talking about fucking calories. EVERYONE. When my family gets together, they talk about how many calories are in their favorite meals, how many calories they burn doing certain exercises, how many calories they’re planning to cut out. If my parents make a meal, they tell me the calorie content. If they buy a snack, they come up to me and point out the calorie count in huge numbers. Anything I eat, they ask the calorie count. 

It’s a nightmare. I keep thinking that if this had been last year, they would have never talked like this in front of me. My boyfriend talks about it too, and he knows about my ED but I’ve told him I’m pretty much over it. Is it because I got fat again? Do they feel like they’re helping me? Is the gain that bad??

I’m planning on getting to 118 this summer anyways. I guess it’s getting a jump start now. It will probably make everyone happy...",2.974141582508089,5.252434765957446,3.61286204529856,88.06290322580645,76.72036474164133,6.312030591234436,27.330228453769976,7.359569317364363,1.4933072065888813,1334,55,259,17,31,420,180,329,0.069,0.8370000000000001,0.094,0.8738,1,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,9,10,19,14,2,0,16,0,18,11,1,6,3,38,49,14,0,5,6,4,3,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,14,12,9,3,5,1,1,4,4,8,0,2,9,3,34,6,41,36,4,43,0,5,0,1,26,22,1,4,20,152,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194300460733125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167622476613543,0.0,0.0,0.07607072830282376,0.0,0.08641947215782331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718403057354825,0.0563509250551808,0.1020933678682662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962938217903798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458980037089533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955158393696516,0.10309569230719626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533237769963869,0.0,0.0,0.2614342809377319,0.0,0.046740739330065416,0.06603957525597924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854598349677098,0.24148196205362765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393318363615459,0.0,0.10183373063363244,0.0,0.0,0.09840472592204368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06196097824634985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433088579304805,0.0,0.0,0.10160586037425437,0.07535141792048265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354854073006255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683474742030744,0.20181964553482631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18511443292217786,0.281160744382015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826530060250192,0.07378519620946844,0.0,0.06795446926948136,0.06854352543707305,0.07129588102253036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524422327477588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264433448437198,0.0,0.0,0.06408666506073027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738623604904124,0.0,0.0,0.18809062402030968,0.09966658982921946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578875158476729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542992468714086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712416114817967,0.0,0.0,0.29720097542113755,0.08079714927463329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05923219684728881,0.0,0.0,0.0539028508365885,0.0,0.0,0.08833094424909674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962339132471164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251354675378721,0.0,0.08569335213066062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729784975805139,0.0,0.0,0.06566714217938605,0.0,0.0,0.17858612560719705
EDAnonymous,throwawayluckybamboo,2019/05/02,"The double standard around restricting is so frustrating It's so frustrating that if your restriction is 'unintentional' no one bats an eye (my husband is amazing but he's always forgetting to eat and not hungry) but if you 'forget to eat' intentionally all of a sudden it's the worst thing in the world. 

I've started restricting again and I think my husband won't notice for a while because I don't eat at work and then at home I eat a modified version of dinner and then don't have any snacks. But he never snacks so he won't notice that I won't. He's never said anything bad to me about my weight but I think secretly he thinks I'm disgusting for always eating. I'm responsible for my own behaviour but it's so triggering to be around him because of his unintentional food restriction. Like he's a guy, he's 7 inches taller than me and he works out. So if it's lunchtime but he says he's not hungry, it's pretty disgusting that I am.",2.4398830409356727,4.606128684210527,4.363508771929826,82.57900584795324,77.94736842105263,7.801169590643276,24.76608187134503,8.680891452615391,1.8999415204678365,750,27,149,17,18,255,97,190,0.185,0.75,0.064,-0.97,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,2,9,8,4,0,8,0,11,11,1,2,3,35,18,22,0,3,11,2,1,1,0,3,0,2,1,1,9,8,10,4,4,0,0,0,10,6,0,1,1,4,16,2,18,13,5,17,0,0,1,0,20,9,0,3,9,95,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185866317053899,0.0,0.0,0.08932217206407789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080894563544757,0.2338578260998135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967135572477983,0.16013888627539796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6720167091123365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588283508207289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005666723848675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175426973322948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417073665441128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20260968159424408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990845791020857,0.0,0.0,0.08900582842160801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362967431307402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494346428025355,0.10445440361868008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296986037249257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726277906327927,0.2524903901439476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994831938118828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912480176399978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catamongthecrows,2019/05/02,My boss gave me grief for eating at work If ever I needed motivation to start restricting heavily again it's being asked if I was gonna stop stuffing my face long enough to work while I was nibbling some food while doing paperwork. I wanna cry 😁,3.7272448979591855,5.543305755102043,5.0813775510204096,80.45022959183675,73.08163265306122,8.16530612244898,24.494897959183675,8.841846274778883,1.8717714285714293,198,6,37,4,4,66,40,49,0.22,0.733,0.048,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,2,1,10,9,4,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,7,0,5,4,2,8,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,3,7,25,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802391920106483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32927705084442177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067337553274856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097366945297509,0.0,0.0,0.27115400670638234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624762289323497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26528200722457873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22227145927213085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217474221730728,0.0,0.0,0.2506164101923372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4364640183362432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Owlettorexic,2019/05/02,"Tips on Starting to Exercise? I'm wanting to try exercise.. i used to be a very active person when I was younger, but as my chronic pain got worse and spread over the years I just suddenly stopped. At first I didn't eat much. My Social Anxiety caused my eating disorder to rise to the surface fairly quickly since I spent a lot of time either not eating or hiding to try and drink some carbonated juice.. (high school life amirite?) 

I was at an alright, healthy weight. Went back and forth between being 110lbs - 115lbs when I was young. (5ft. Still am.) I never really had a weight that kept bouncing up and down. It was always consistent and I only recently got myself a scale. (about a couple years ago.. at least an accurate one that I can trust)

I used to be very active playing with the guys, basketball, tag, running around in the fields feeling free.. I used to be the one that dove for balls in volleyball. I was the most active. Most energetic. Most positive.. I don't like saying this outloud but I was actually one of the best players in my age group because I just wasn't afraid to get hurt. I shrugged things off..

Now my anxiety has consumed me. I don't leave the house unless I absolutely need to such as for appointments with my treatment team. My social anxiety is so difficult to treat. I don't want to rely on my pills. For the past few days I've kept my klonopin out of sight. I don't really know where it is right now and luckily I'm not too nervous to not have easy access.. the pills are new to my anyways and I've done a good job to keep myself from popping them like candy simple ""because I can.""

Anyways.. i go back and forth between two homes. One of them is literally placed right across a field that has three fields inside used for three to four different sports. It also has a nice path around it that lets people spectate and walk or jog around it. I'm wanting to utilize that, but how should I go about it? 

Some days I know I can't. I can't even get up because of my pain and I'm hunched over and feeling stiff from pain.. but other days I can walk.. I want to do that. I sincerely do, but I struggle to keep up with it. It's just difficult because sometimes I think i'm okay, but only to get around the house. Walk too much and my knees give out on me.. What do you guys suggest?",1.9869564176245191,4.1268346831896565,3.206764367816092,90.43689463601532,79.32327586206897,6.365823754789273,23.67318007662836,7.471455274886353,1.0024229501915705,1799,62,378,26,45,581,226,464,0.107,0.765,0.128,0.8975,2,0,1,0,0,0,68.0,0,1,2,3,27,21,0,3,21,2,37,17,1,6,1,67,71,28,0,6,16,0,4,2,0,1,10,1,1,3,19,21,6,6,5,8,2,9,12,9,0,9,16,6,51,13,64,49,12,63,0,1,1,0,13,29,0,8,27,258,70,3,0.0,0.0,0.07724705422301338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016903150885008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330284108417956,0.06586602308821422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18166758299411734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818705764954625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173564920216938,0.0,0.1930165902359927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307172221570515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131734993461234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758712175155649,0.0,0.15315160946592365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270354569215664,0.09072223703947144,0.0,0.0,0.08100639486420827,0.0,0.0775449701580879,0.0,0.2429960207505268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052283291737177016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004960097606369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733198526235842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12407078909559982,0.07593582696033976,0.08997493974292782,0.06639420245844922,0.1266202018579823,0.0,0.0,0.15675826797408188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363505988383042,0.07940220044120577,0.0,0.0,0.1826760345342608,0.08474056678384186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855237009831137,0.14071901754573915,0.0,0.0,0.08700663164903047,0.0,0.0,0.08381717991968135,0.0,0.08094469570062343,0.055911828117499805,0.07734546598922586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06729753166522268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163808751750558,0.0586948552737269,0.061051738899424876,0.07645155183850948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145587734827138,0.12040686490105725,0.2526899457065297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755655270497611,0.05487837847162826,0.06911794935841861,0.08270354569215664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142163131605476,0.0,0.0781592433376676,0.0,0.0,0.13520146261976618,0.0,0.06294983464209704,0.0,0.08011239677178016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06548054014731887,0.0,0.0,0.16138377822619027,0.0,0.0,0.07828955454163543,0.0,0.056028631961866256,0.0,0.0632158978375816,0.06617985940988771,0.0,0.08275341242906599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05258923819522824,0.05072142407802272,0.0,0.0,0.046157824659885965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748654046628822,0.0,0.0773261290656989,0.0,0.0,0.2734693238231765,0.0,0.1306277281518822,0.18675839769911112,0.0,0.0,0.19278689854156594,0.0,0.0733805106923958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806690412938775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195066302343622
EDAnonymous,WheelieMcScroterBall,2019/05/02,"Binge busters! I’ve been having intense desires to binge lately and it’s stressing me out. Craving things I never craved, like sweets. My new go to to stop a binge in its tracks is fiber one original bran cereal! 

I can have a cup of it with 1/2 cup skim milk and it makes me so full!  Stops my urge to binge eat dead in it’s tracks. This has been a game changer for me!

What are your binge-busting foods?",0.3764285714285727,2.6563437857142844,1.3121904761904766,100.61614285714286,87.33333333333334,4.312380952380953,17.923809523809524,5.6839178017228535,-0.6163533333333326,314,8,73,2,10,97,61,84,0.192,0.767,0.040999999999999995,-0.9214,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,0,8,3,0,2,1,10,10,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,3,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,8,2,10,8,1,11,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,7,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040602058017969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35931681744566524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887806605273145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33519987618176805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517323102997096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835095803317052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22918158375986236,0.286990805620016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20135757147453304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4968639801578517,0.34038608109037743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974142770636233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sicsicsickkk,2019/05/02,"Bronkaid and weird side effect? Hi! 

I thought I’d post here to see if I’m the only one who’s experienced something like this. I’ve been taking Bronkaid more frequently, only once a day, and I’ve noticed that I have this weird bladder pain. It fades away once I believe the Bronkaid is out of my system and gets worse when I have taken it consecutively for a few days. It basically feels like a nasty UTI but I’ve taken meds to help with the irritating feeling and that didn’t help and the only thing I could think it would be is Bronkaid. 

I’ve slowed down my intake of it and I hope to never buy another box again bc I shouldn’t be reliant on it since I honestly don’t have a medical need for it. I’m not a medical professional but I have been in school in a program many pre-med students take and I have been researching a lot about Brokaid’s ingredients and all I’ve found is the ephedrine possibly of interaction with kidney function if you’re predispositioned for kidney issues, but that’s only with straight ephedrine so I’m not 100% certain if there’s any connection. I know that if this weird bladder thing keeps recurring when I’m not taking Bronkaid I should speak with a doctor about it, which is motivating me to stop taking it bc idk how I’ll explain that I take it for no reason without my ED being brought up. 

TLDR: Weird UTI like symptoms when I take Bronkaid once a day consecutively, stops once I subside Bronkaid use. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this. I know if it continues to seek medical attention and I am reducing/stopping Bronkaid.",4.089935064935067,5.966109525974027,4.884280519480524,81.98799220779226,72.24675324675323,8.174753246753246,30.177142857142854,8.841846274778883,2.4598390649350645,1266,55,246,25,25,409,158,308,0.096,0.7959999999999999,0.10800000000000001,0.8187,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,11,11,0,0,14,0,23,10,4,5,3,56,51,23,0,12,14,0,2,3,0,3,6,1,0,0,24,14,0,3,13,0,1,1,9,5,0,1,9,6,21,6,26,35,4,27,0,0,1,0,7,9,0,9,18,145,45,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572210841199007,0.10134100875720932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757663090497633,0.09902451625320308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080142732199922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888614171946837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716339656577044,0.0,0.0,0.1869846421139562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09892054516738744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073473498446193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773352067321676,0.06904341144406186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596656744031964,0.0,0.0,0.05049317291264193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955859567409825,0.0,0.0,0.0959905754343652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087256908015604,0.0,0.08590277054931006,0.0,0.0,0.10622744310143616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164801461342594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216436586893433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798315066403344,0.0,0.0,0.10735112533824533,0.29207987335317404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166125478903462,0.07453880235639099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003129837684957,0.0,0.4116963006133164,0.06548934681780343,0.2940123792378048,0.10283739802778777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895303845203796,0.0925594685154618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936744999143064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978101888155187,0.07701378002830701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994597906983945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440226262493572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24239935910689506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004514567039669,0.4359913633384329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284136669183132,0.0619263967372769,0.0,0.07672556149523503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347049669040489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931626066593276,0.10480768977431523,0.0,0.0,0.098489802807902,0.06865403810174507,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_sadgalriri,2019/05/02,"The guy I’m talking to asked what subs I browse on Reddit lmao I was just talking to this guy I’ve been seeing about Reddit, he asked what subs I go on and I just went blank because I only browse this and other food-related/weight loss subs. Took me like a minute to finally say “ummmm.... Game of Thrones”, then I changed the subject lol. Dating with an ED is an extreme sport tbh 🤧",0.6661040787623058,2.933755835443037,2.1725738396624514,95.12049226441636,85.58227848101266,5.030098452883263,20.17018284106892,6.42735559955562,0.11454317862165996,297,9,65,3,9,96,56,79,0.031,0.846,0.12300000000000001,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,2,7,1,8,6,0,8,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,0,4,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166424459980359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583852494704876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357305377626131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24410552829797744,0.0,0.0,0.2694537147979997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126642617424083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412845935951616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886622749342684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16947652946993394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720782805225505,0.0,0.0,0.1775711375744701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582136590881018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475785716944219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713537514571562,0.0,0.20657085114038914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Illfollowyou,2019/05/02,"This is kind of dark, but... Does anyone else ever had thoughts of cutting off their fat? I know that’s messed up. Sometimes I’m just so desperate.",1.918505747126435,4.252339931034484,2.421379310344829,94.91988505747128,80.72413793103449,5.2459770114942526,23.459770114942533,6.42735559955562,0.4912666666666663,114,4,24,1,3,35,27,29,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.7088,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678347897436028,0.3924760695370141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352062864374383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31998592531159314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34648719239943976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988836434259364,0.21051215861945646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788424585931893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040958739113887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beenknew,2019/05/02,"i hate how certain people use thin as a synonym for healthy i read this post, and someone mentioned that their pet is ‘plenty thin’. 
well if your pet is ‘plenty thin’, feed your pet better. i’d say my dog is plenty thin (doesn’t like to eat, little bastard) so we’re trying to get him to eat more, because we don’t want a thin dog. we want a healthy dog with the strength and energy to do dog things. 


i dunno, i guess it’s not that much an issue but it does get on my nerves. where’s the balance between HAES and ‘plenty thin’? seems non existent at this point, at least online.",1.1413585434173648,3.2032828487394984,2.3581722689075657,95.81832282913167,81.85714285714286,4.638935574229691,20.00070028011204,5.46131890053228,-0.27676526610644325,445,12,98,2,12,142,76,119,0.035,0.8220000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,2,2,1,2,4,7,2,0,6,0,6,3,0,2,1,17,14,8,0,3,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,7,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,12,5,11,14,3,13,0,0,0,0,8,12,1,4,1,55,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312229110830688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19038347803768288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837894070620007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44053754046737015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249330672296734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371375193416771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21252859276643205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467964532345566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051670967119808,0.2157510382704171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824377807310644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923692455163082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034940202262596,0.0,0.20616336777202807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21532221196676704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711865398478771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19596822305354605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239245346422225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301180886433285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615009751223182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591894468822664,0.0,0.0,0.2539365200195825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354815083784135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TinyBlueNymph,2019/05/02,"I hate being called small. A lot of my coworkers comment on how small I am, and it just really upsets and triggers me. I’m 5’7” and 135lbs so I’m ANYTHING but small. I had a customer a little bit ago saying that I “look like a model” and I don’t know why but it hurts? And there was one day when I was freezing in the morning and my boss said, “well it’s probably because you’re so skinny” and I literally just don’t understand what any of these people are talking about. I just feel like I want people to think I’m fat because with how I currently am I just don’t get how people could see me as thin, and it triggers me ed tendencies? I don’t know if any of that makes sense this post is a mess.",1.3266307692307713,2.8416276733333348,3.3846666666666683,91.34746153846157,78.93333333333334,6.482051282051282,22.205128205128197,7.321109707123232,0.6374974358974357,541,16,124,7,13,184,90,150,0.098,0.826,0.076,-0.46,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,13,7,1,1,6,0,13,2,2,7,0,31,28,18,0,3,7,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,9,9,2,0,5,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,4,7,17,3,9,22,2,12,0,1,2,0,5,7,0,2,6,79,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622584491426299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489539086428596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506305322670855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231652049133713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19983785608588897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690952694002874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614662891508012,0.0,0.0,0.11804895550683812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255310946698933,0.130767465928562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563351709277076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18071915400751548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595358023545525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119361508809147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885319334987476,0.183459291782556,0.0,0.0,0.15371179456753822,0.0,0.0,0.15561841006383031,0.0,0.0,0.12218403488214573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403610640849112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38070130330125534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530662075218842,0.0,0.19735359198162614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726338708824173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411782020725172,0.14556482144866725,0.0,0.0,0.14586325682995435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712472890942854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172879179352448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905564189796194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796475070059322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457954021073393,0.0,0.1651697444286836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teadiumvitae237,2019/05/02,"An 'accidental' compliment from my shrink So today my shrink said, ""Your waist looks like that of a 13 year old"".   
Wow, thanks for the compliment! :D I'm kidding, she was of course trying to do THE OPPOSITE of complimenting me,  the context was that she was trying to convince me that losing even more weight will NOT make me look like a sexually attractive grown up woman but like a sickly child, but in my weird, messed mind, I found it kind of flattering and replied that if I tried really hard and lost even more, I could perhaps look like a 12 year old for our next session in a week. That was mean of me and upset her, but she kinda asked for it I guess.",10.156384615384617,6.264020330769235,9.436153846153848,73.71884615384617,61.07692307692307,13.169230769230769,36.769230769230774,10.793553405168565,3.4919692307692305,513,14,108,9,5,164,82,130,0.10800000000000001,0.684,0.209,0.87,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,2,3,18,0,1,9,0,7,3,1,1,0,15,19,8,0,2,5,0,2,4,0,1,1,1,0,3,7,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,7,6,17,13,14,10,2,11,0,2,3,0,12,3,0,3,11,67,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490312929375806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727972419655878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058390760780726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479006987936188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561334456280495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280432396752046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660059542222825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31152802209995994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016047779593147,0.17834435378274782,0.1740200556845021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641059856439523,0.0,0.0,0.17364942136732478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16096347624923035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695394191460518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33455797471561216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212518535489573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163995432670746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676770452943258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110656451331184,0.0,0.0,0.32469649893726005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787291480231053,0.19412424639669826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20531577382890687
EDAnonymous,kat-official,2019/05/02,"ramen logging issues so i want to have the taste of ramen but i'm out of the kind with shirataki noodles, how many calories is it if i just drink the broth of a spic chicken mr.noodles ?? i don't want the noodles, i'm just gonna throw them away and boil some water with just the flavour packet how do i log that? do i just log it in mfp as being 100 calories? i'm kinda kidding but not really low key freaking out and dissociating because i'm craving ramen broth really bad and i don't want the noodles at all and the thought of logging it is confusing and making me nervous",2.5684033613445365,4.244063697478996,4.321588235294119,85.27414705882354,75.89075630252101,6.440672268907564,27.866386554621855,7.1686216300943375,1.4979573109243698,456,19,91,5,10,154,69,119,0.122,0.767,0.111,-0.6535,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,7,6,0,2,8,0,8,4,0,3,1,28,18,12,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,9,4,0,1,1,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,2,8,1,13,15,2,7,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,4,0,59,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27165834695464663,0.0,0.2414214214190265,0.1762582275634763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832489990589112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017890376569496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30109680994109234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19300447337425056,0.29314451902178923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704634290867434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295463829114588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5116301783301602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shake_n_blake1,2019/05/02,"How many lbs do you think I can subtract? So I love to torture myself and step on the scale after a huge binge!!!! 

I ate ate a total of 3600 calories today (I know, kill me) the majority of which were consumed an hour or two before stepping on the scale. 

It read 130.2 lbs. Since it is the end of the day AND I binged, how many lbs do you think I can subtract ??? 

I feel like at the end of a good day I’m usually 2 lbs heavier???",-0.8143774703557298,1.1771535108695694,1.6522529644268786,98.11330039525691,89.97826086956522,4.21501976284585,18.14624505928854,5.565023196281405,-0.5595347826086954,321,9,78,2,11,109,58,92,0.08900000000000001,0.7659999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.6659,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,2,0,0,3,5,2,0,10,0,6,3,0,2,1,10,14,6,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,3,1,11,3,9,11,2,14,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,9,47,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547270319275352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811396080862635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3861057175764882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020997522170864,0.1557146946525086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828192350390055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21465224664970467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24114668308821724,0.0,0.11978821382296788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648700038783447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196722497374656,0.0,0.0,0.4419658897968009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180246216362688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803034273536981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793271582962756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20660593786032247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21292075574167044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400583552455962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dem_cakes,2019/05/02,"I was doing better mentally and then BAM! I was eating properly, fewer binges, no more forced fasting... going to the gym, building muscle and strength... 

And then bam! The dude I was seeing mentioned how one of his female friends (basically my weight but taller) was “doing so well fasting” and how “she had so much restraint”. He was supposed to cook for me tomorrow and when I said “fish tacos?”, he said “don’t you think that’s too much carbs though?”. 

DONT YOU KNOW I REALIZE THAT YES TACO SHELLS HAVE CARBS AND CALORIES? That I’m not fasting so I clearly don’t have any restraint whatsoever? Fuckkkkkkk sake the thought is now in my goddamn mind again. CALORIES THIS CALORIES THAT... wish there was a goddamn break. Hanging out with him was supposed to be fun and now this is all I can focus on and it’s not fun anymore. I’d rather watch Netflix on my own instead truthfully.",1.671286013619696,4.4338357409638585,2.2946621267679426,91.46597433211106,89.18072289156626,4.573703509690938,25.289680460974328,6.280692351149826,0.9505430068098488,687,30,129,7,23,212,108,166,0.065,0.748,0.187,0.9771,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,0,2,15,7,0,0,4,1,19,3,0,2,3,25,28,18,0,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,10,3,0,4,3,0,2,6,0,1,1,11,5,16,7,10,16,5,18,0,0,2,0,11,5,0,0,10,91,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505594452306049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195690938145978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958101170704516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25947889792864914,0.0,0.0,0.22654725153138197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105292389943727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582659939762295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167553117255195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22311890847003346,0.0,0.22355066783911756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255086316264533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002622349839798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42120378921663376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642696310787204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418640418449173,0.2175241636552991,0.17576669788673105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696052914423485,0.1990649948459593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25459882516805243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tseokii,2019/05/02,"i'm sad I never got to be a skinny teenager i turned 20 last month and it didn't really feel real and it's hitting me now how much I hate it

I spent the last 6 years trying to be skinny. and I wasn't. it backfired every time. I'm 20 now, and i'm fat, and this is who I am, and who I've always been, and i hate it, and i'm sad

it's stupid. but that's all. I just always imagined myself finally being a skinny pretty teenager and i'm never- i never was. I missed that bus for 6 years. maybe longer. idk. i'm sad",-2.3924626121635058,-0.6299723898305025,1.2170588235294133,98.6998753738784,99.16949152542372,3.454436689930209,12.025922233300099,5.0885558068054335,-1.4150285144566297,390,6,97,2,17,141,62,118,0.177,0.7829999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.8869,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,3,0,9,4,4,1,4,19,23,11,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,9,4,0,2,0,1,0,5,7,0,0,6,1,12,0,3,13,2,12,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,12,57,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260200935997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16505982250943466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905630087868757,0.0,0.0,0.21460618588700364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566844638777762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868345644355723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193801737905293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681458601220425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637083839229626,0.0,0.1440139469441262,0.0,0.4532859135223051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930751751536127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22298468481791625,0.12550283205352286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142347572421391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300777221889698,0.21309020565442027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25231495043306784
EDAnonymous,Satrina_petrova,2019/02/24,"Living with mom again (Rant) I've gained 8lbs sense I moved back home. Mom never stops whining about her weight but doesn't do anything about it. ""I've tried nothing and nothing's changed!"" mentality. She has the most BS excuses why my advise won't work. Can't track calories because it's impossible to be accurate, can't meal-prep because she'll get bored, can't cut carbs because she'll starve, won't switch from beer to vodka because it's 'rotgut'.

 I'm super frustrated right now, really crave a cigarette about 2 weeks into quitting and I want to go eat her last piece of birthday pie out of spite! I'm going to try to watch Boruto and lift weights till it passes. Thanks for listening.",3.453666666666667,5.611272977777778,3.9189814814814814,87.00291666666668,74.7777777777778,6.87037037037037,26.064814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.4823703703703703,552,20,107,8,12,173,97,135,0.114,0.7559999999999999,0.13,-0.4692,0,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,6,7,3,0,2,0,11,4,0,0,1,11,19,5,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,4,6,4,1,0,2,0,4,7,5,0,0,0,4,8,2,16,14,2,15,0,1,1,0,10,3,0,1,8,49,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137921672503136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276180812930612,0.0,0.38928720997697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688896492871777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336288819840325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341108790633645,0.0,0.1814667496589052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601430272806941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013691976373554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097480823713246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089071508462233,0.0,0.0,0.3739627767210105,0.0,0.16968380758644291,0.0,0.0,0.1231327373017062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063789899286095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698085509121921,0.0,0.0,0.10227655518643966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634113032383213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347543231824832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469852434512324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678517580814324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416632981025888,0.0,0.12806244788864368,0.3888239542600964,0.0,0.0,0.14406024677146895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622787090055288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gisboenvol,2019/02/24,"Today's binge: shame and stress edition - 12 chicken nuggets
- 6 cups of Italian ice
- full bag of sweet tarts
- Caesar salad
- 5 chicken wings
- popcorn

2330 calories and it's only 4pm :)",2.4911764705882358,5.275364294117646,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,82.52941176470588,3.4000000000000004,29.088235294117645,3.1291,0.9082588235294118,142,7,24,0,4,44,30,34,0.156,0.6859999999999999,0.158,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554020295089948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6859047706863854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5675769877899788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bisquick420,2019/02/24,"I’m so tired of dealing with this. I cannot remember a time where food was not a source of fear, guilt, and oftentimes comfort. if I eat lunch it’s probably a single carrot. I worry if that carrot is going to make me gain weight. I chug ice cold water to keep my stomach from feeling so painfully hallow and I desperately try to burn calories I can’t  afford to lose. I absolutely love the dizzy feeling I get when I stand up and the feeling my stomach makes when it growls.Planning what to eat, planning what not to eat, reflecting on what you did or didn't eat... It’s exhausting, but its  almost thrilling,somehow lol there’s never a time where im not thinking about food. ",2.7907777777777767,4.783738392592593,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,76.18518518518519,6.5740740740740735,26.805555555555557,7.492282038375204,1.4835555555555562,533,21,105,7,12,174,88,135,0.107,0.758,0.135,0.3791,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,3,8,7,0,2,6,1,6,15,2,2,1,22,17,11,0,2,7,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,4,9,1,6,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,3,5,13,2,13,14,1,11,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,4,5,66,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948116547012108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389989884980035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6109979626880359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798016383029124,0.2264395557968884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610170604863035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799201724823321,0.0,0.08483858815791202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612467317490315,0.0,0.0,0.1326858657494943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700480494642644,0.0,0.0,0.13472995474066446,0.0,0.19928953040057948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513302143044347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588431793466986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609478059339856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910379216986055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565183417589128,0.0,0.0,0.1740913497813365,0.17157403290848727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135051343399136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817813752844961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159987826300142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Miss_Robot_,2019/02/24,"Since I was ten years old. I'm 27 now... \*Warning: Near the end of this post, I talk about something gorey.\*

My eating disorder symptoms are on another level, and quickly on track to surpass how severe they were in high school. I've been tempted the yesterday and today to sleep, and avoid eating anymore today. I already am staying within the limits of a caloric intake to lose weight over an eight year period, but am so afraid of coming close or going over that I've been restricting. I seem to be unable to log my eating habits or exercise without my OCD and ED being triggered. It's tormenting, needing to eat to live and not being able to starve myself because of the health consequences. If I could ingest a pill that contained all my daily nutritional needs and did away with cravings, I would feel such relief and freedom. I'm sick of feeling trapped.

Tightening my shirt around my waist after I eat to see how it looks, being hyper aware of how my clothes fit each day and constantly touching my stomach and measuring the inches with my fingers (and doing the same to see how much there is to lose. Where my waist could be. Where it is supposed to be. Feeling my hip bone and following the line up to my ribs and imagining where the fat wouldn't be). I can't enjoy anything I put in my mouth, I'm already adding the calories to my count for that day and even thinking of the food in numbers (from seeing it in the bowl and on the plate, to chewing and swallowing).

I was going to start receiving services at Melrose Center but some seriously stressful life events happened. I did go to The Emily Program, but did not find my time there of much help. Food sometimes seems an antagonist. I have struggled with my weight from Middle school onward, and society has no issue making me aware. Of my supposed ugliness, laziness, worthlessness, poor character and total lack of any self-control. That I have nothing to offer, ought to be thoroughly ashamed of my body, for even existing and ought to stay out of sight. I actually recall a memory of journaling in 8th grade.

I do because the entry was so graphic -- I was recalling a day dream where I cut the lower part of my stomach between the navel and groin, and my intestines, fat, blood -- everything fell out onto a scale I was standing on (I drew a line at the end, over and over again in red and black ink. That is what the cut looked like in my mind)... That's how sad, unhappy and much I hated my body (maybe still do, but no visualization like that since). I don't even know what to discuss, I just sort of vented. I questioned this past week if I ever actually will recover, if that's even possible. Fighting is so tiring, and one does not often hear that recovering doesn't actually end. Everything just feels like limbo -- waiting and suffering...",5.572740254325623,6.668928529080683,5.947018449030644,78.79572884094227,67.64915572232646,8.774004586199709,31.69110902647488,8.998388855275968,2.709926037106525,2218,90,401,38,36,712,284,533,0.155,0.785,0.061,-0.995,1,2,1,0,2,0,80.0,0,0,1,3,29,20,4,5,26,0,42,36,17,7,3,89,71,42,0,12,15,0,8,3,0,5,10,1,0,0,17,34,16,5,11,2,1,8,10,15,0,3,11,17,49,5,72,45,10,73,0,5,8,0,9,36,0,11,28,285,66,5,0.07482071667467624,0.0,0.21904267936904426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651330427709744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050880653050479605,0.07845604517186319,0.0,0.0,0.07420204601496372,0.0,0.0,0.06157107468503666,0.0666063007535689,0.0,0.0,0.07029652626324022,0.0,0.0,0.09122002884819624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621789820477906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445142233621654,0.0,0.08085461417876047,0.08391779588532264,0.11947650809520495,0.0,0.0,0.14475951747513666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575102347207743,0.0,0.06547611336992126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828013608529444,0.0,0.0,0.1988068410254525,0.0,0.0,0.1976735108505547,0.0676796217991144,0.0,0.0,0.13448807135907473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513264098468457,0.053451934942274786,0.0,0.0,0.06838477954908301,0.0,0.1809470151910774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756701259093273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616371265620477,0.0,0.0,0.0738699675354249,0.0,0.07953092305073453,0.08432838549641404,0.0,0.0501507492340168,0.07905219510919513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780933891758958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04111950915361751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052848084898793835,0.10966086848060017,0.0,0.0660680636028136,0.0,0.12566111585542006,0.1674104871216767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049943409372733005,0.0,0.0751674664875561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554759485267433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500550721365792,0.11095722672882777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179249557523959,0.0,0.07851175595080744,0.0,0.050700453994127856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810235449330612,0.07142484020653862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434911603143813,0.07165756421796142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521548587866253,0.0838163262010651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15144511952438788,0.17886727235661992,0.13622794078206307,0.07805432528366417,0.08452611297209854,0.0,0.12378494001848883,0.0,0.0748747513014462,0.0,0.0,0.057600643105652174,0.07399960195202633,0.0,0.05295848836245113,0.15949785752415702,0.059751920986256264,0.0,0.08570687815802769,0.07821885838762918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776737296573669,0.0,0.060138057904729376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047942094117006576,0.0,0.0,0.0436285615852686,0.08599540724548195,0.14184258170164565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060016665800367776,0.18222295218265208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212450089088697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05315049041445572,0.0,0.0,0.09636417688987214
EDAnonymous,surpriseDRE,2019/02/24,"I write a poem, “Nervosa” about relapse *Nervosa*

it sleeps

curled up 

in the dark

                   I poke it

                   Wake up

                   I want to be thin

it opens one eye

And smiles ",-2.7795967741935463,-2.572243677419351,-0.7561693548387094,107.38574596774195,130.93548387096774,1.55,13.55241935483871,3.1291,-1.820003225806452,110,3,27,0,8,35,25,31,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,5,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.503881909662895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7441359928586975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43859394118783096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alixdyer,2019/02/24,"Anyone want to add me on peach? I used to be really active in kik groups and the like, but heard of peach and kept trying to create an account while it was down. Now that it’s back I’d love to be part of a group or chat with whoever (: thanks! ",1.7244339622641505,2.6011425283018887,3.38127358490566,94.42021226415095,76.54716981132076,6.809433962264151,17.023584905660385,7.1686216300943375,-0.278090566037736,186,2,46,2,4,62,44,53,0.0,0.664,0.336,0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,9,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,10,4,1,6,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,4,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28266899008898383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108520846567385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19750171374671788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36486172229964986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377757316670726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589802225601549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721896087785496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744669732774641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491520764756729,0.0,0.0,0.2384438643585365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RightWingAsylum,2019/02/24,"Can’t stop bingeing post fasts... This happens every freaking time, i go on a 24-48 hours fast and then binge like crazy afterwards. I just can’t stop this, does anyone else do this too? ",3.1947747747747783,4.842886675675679,3.2524324324324314,93.71126126126127,74.13513513513513,6.014414414414415,23.144144144144143,6.42735559955562,0.37253873873873866,145,4,31,1,3,44,31,37,0.252,0.682,0.066,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024657964186206,0.3227419111219983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756476786789773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631316329401454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653905490099252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901465174044212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27854240069851066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101992322094973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153886978944621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30167094868439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5266872984118304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836717408245968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AntlerButts,2019/02/24,"Thinking of quitting my job due to constant binge triggers. I've been binging A LOT more than usual this month. I can't seem to kick the habit and even go a full week without binging and 90% of the time, it happens while I'm at work. Today I weighed myself and am the heaviest I've been since Spring of 2018. I've been bawling my eyes out all morning and planning on isolating myself for the next few days until my weight can go back down. 

I'm stuck at a job I hate and there are many shifts I'm usually left bored and alone for many hours. These are my two biggest triggers. I was finally doing good this week and thought there was a chance I could atleast make it to the 7 day mark, but yesterday I was stuck working an 8 hour shift with no one around (we barely even get customers walking in), a broken computer, no speakers and a ton of free chocolates and treats around me. I gave in and ate 10 bars and a dozen chocolates. I hid myself at the back when customers would walk in to quickly wipe off any chocolate and tears on my face. I felt nauseous and dizzy from all the sugar I had eaten. Then something unexpected happened and I was stuck trying to escape a dangerous situation that could've involved murder or the store getting robbed. I had to lock myself and leave way past closing time because I felt unsafe. The security was of no help when I called them and my boss didn't seem to care since he was out of the city. 

Is it just me or am I wrong for wanting to quit? ",5.274485321441843,5.386804454849499,5.41141025641026,85.8516452991453,67.99665551839465,7.982237086584912,30.992382014121148,7.3871296695380915,1.7572272761055374,1168,43,243,10,18,368,176,299,0.163,0.7829999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.9845,2,1,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,1,5,12,10,3,0,19,0,22,8,2,4,2,44,47,24,1,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,23,6,1,6,1,2,4,6,5,0,3,21,6,29,6,36,24,7,50,0,0,1,0,7,18,0,5,27,157,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161586460260688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762691738675438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996832677366736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248038113780126,0.0,0.0683685823914544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452268643140487,0.0,0.11434938915338765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119959664580067,0.0,0.1790931134464733,0.0,0.0,0.14466125655972847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815449944314987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21537257293050385,0.1228602042767718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719260617316613,0.0,0.12748042172871032,0.094070203924863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835640471405952,0.0,0.0,0.11072973831447376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517506131696086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208999573918965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22259285299959475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875583884580518,0.12185662047957214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535008017227548,0.0,0.0,0.07486426263451791,0.22741491819582416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952096636172048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927800212657108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599905875825022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070645369030435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23858107035164086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042032064882605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555137456838544,0.1260667999492099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634231678490441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186432745185957,0.0,0.08903845800384312,0.13079684122121651,0.0,0.10630972557379673,0.0,0.0,0.07614581097777029,0.0,0.10955903468353033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470455412090788,0.0,0.06615186230767171,0.08902333446766507,0.17992778175772148,0.13657444617394515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811331554843366,0.0,0.16330019716430702,0.0,0.0,0.0796716188084998,0.12262377020648325,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fLuFFLet0n,2019/02/24,"Diagnosed with atypical bulimia, confused! Anyone esle diagnosed with this? I purge, sometimes I don't eat anything, mostly I eat too much, I hate my weight. What the deuce is atypical bulimia? And for those diagnosed with it, what are you typical symptoms of it?",3.8031159420289846,7.0549607608695695,5.099999999999998,72.15333333333334,82.69565217391305,10.023188405797102,33.7536231884058,9.725611199111238,4.951866666666668,209,12,31,8,6,69,34,46,0.149,0.851,0.0,-0.7803,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,25,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760748554834764,0.0,0.18548801311082508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6863399348710653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612884488630741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225394566653073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569763124416972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292999118966286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342807165548567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744809434986468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cozwc,2019/02/24,"Recovery is so difficult I'm not officially tracking calories anymore, but I know what calories are in what and it sucks. If I don't know then I can't resist looking at the package. How many calories should I eat anyway?

 Am I just supposed to eat until full even if I feel starving and I could eat absolutely anything and everything like yesterday? Just eat whatever I want or some kind of meal plan? Does mental hunger actually count? And should I give into cravings even if they're unhealthy just to establish a better relationship with food where I'm not scared of certain things? If I do, is it just me bingeing under the guise of recovery?

I've googled all of these questions endlessly, but no matter how many times I see or hear them, I have no confidence in the answers.

Plus I'm super bloated and I feel massive. Recovery is dumb and difficult, it'd be easier to just go back to restricting.",4.019612403100776,6.2322397209302345,5.141302325581396,78.62540310077522,73.30232558139534,8.540155038759691,31.815503875969,9.21078282632365,3.1604824806201552,720,35,128,17,15,237,108,172,0.191,0.674,0.135,-0.8969,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,3,13,10,2,1,4,0,14,7,0,2,2,41,28,20,0,8,15,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,7,9,7,1,6,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,0,5,15,5,16,23,3,13,0,0,2,0,5,7,2,8,6,90,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.14841820484987653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083272124115416,0.0,0.0,0.12515736752883602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694806166108497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13451152113978262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143173812725055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309525661715496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6225054327005792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090843285419174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366889652441188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380286271520727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390820851645215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589888552522773,0.08643642901623279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17141683478285988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837865526447747,0.16716971552212814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430364387913531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771755683698185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083914089286188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15327126208986394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037595651733695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328807646964175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522689343009676,0.0,0.12119628716208625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104204497979444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868508378348873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970680631755262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doubledigitsplease,2019/02/24,Anyone else LOVE binging on salad??? Obviously bc its a safe food and the cals would add up eventually but I really wish I could just eat ALL of the produce I just bought today in one sitting lmao,2.1642307692307696,4.533241769230774,4.2483974358974415,81.96951923076925,80.02564102564101,6.976923076923077,22.57051282051281,8.07648339933343,1.3910974358974355,155,5,30,3,4,53,35,39,0.0,0.677,0.32299999999999995,0.9413,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,1,2,12,5,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,2,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,19,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22343918705911325,0.3274202503769434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25513741020353337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269829337582664,0.2669458851496651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864052739399045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28840944524533063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216537673128134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20471410880625066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028992856328162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36747067210976864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22700158703309475,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Neshamizz,2019/02/24,"Possibly the flu So, I’m either sick with a hellacious cold or I have the f-ing flu. Either way- I am now living on popsicles and boost shakes because I have 0 appetite and a constant fever that makes me extremely lethargic. And, my boyfriend can’t express concern about me not eating because I’m sick and “trying” with my one shake and one popsicle a day. Happy birthday to me 🙃",2.1602999999999994,4.641021480000003,3.6422500000000007,85.64737500000003,80.86666666666667,6.416666666666668,28.04166666666667,7.645422480735847,1.9619666666666664,301,14,56,5,8,99,53,75,0.212,0.706,0.08199999999999999,-0.845,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,0,4,6,0,1,0,12,7,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,0,1,8,1,5,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731636910938359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307607621909985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739449966585848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31319343037996145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325824915120635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27027181188987026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430893546804715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148117204406272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450561009049285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078063555794156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24294986762506945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Catoverloadzzz,2019/02/24,"The woes of an SO Sitting here hangry and naesous af, been fasting for 3 days for him to come over tonight for some games and intimacy.. And he takes his sweet sweet time pushing the hours back.

ALL I CAN THINK OF IS GETTING IT OVER WITH AND STUFFING MY FACE WHEB HES GONE THE MAGIC HAS LEFT THE BUILDING BRO. 

Ty for your patience.",2.624545454545455,4.672492666666667,2.645454545454548,95.68818181818185,76.87878787878788,5.006060606060606,26.15151515151515,5.46131890053228,0.4479878787878784,260,10,56,1,6,78,54,66,0.040999999999999995,0.8390000000000001,0.12,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,5,1,1,0,1,9,10,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,6,2,10,8,2,13,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,1,6,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282227284437238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36769507697049214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752841338528648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22301247653700385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4203630943414025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4637757893262318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209394725338033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735094331125994,0.0,0.0,0.2489007492576757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grace_kit,2019/02/24,"Did anyone else have parents that just didn't care. My partner says he acts like a mom sometimes when he's telling me to eat. I told him that I'm pretty sure my mom never told me to eat or anything and that since I was a teenager they only bought me eggs and quick potatoes. If I didn't eat what they cooked I was on my own. This was hard because I have celiac and can't eat anything with gluten but all they cooked was things I couldn't eat. I had already started restricting at that time but I don't think it helped create healthy views of food. Anyone else with a similar experience?
",4.271838842975207,4.887727619834717,4.449245867768596,90.10295971074379,70.32231404958678,7.041735537190082,27.521694214876035,6.6274283507984215,1.0119991735537193,466,15,101,3,8,145,76,121,0.057,0.84,0.10300000000000001,0.647,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,13,9,0,0,3,16,20,8,0,2,5,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,8,5,9,1,1,2,1,1,6,0,0,0,11,3,18,3,7,8,2,8,0,0,1,0,15,2,0,2,6,62,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948597304783658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17676418270146932,0.25902427286615165,0.2080335012285726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705250428280046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887362132256708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6466957721679472,0.21118261230299396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364383534372594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284385281408672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113229921498173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472351673052868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061752845619160626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960772171950707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748777278199247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613319209632626,0.0,0.0,0.14035267415250952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859463796457302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005186631352537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455970844729028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501321734556292,0.0,0.08946684632492513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913087129327116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047951181680518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839748022967907,0.08099226581970365,0.0,0.0,0.07370508364990078,0.0,0.0,0.2415619780293773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fitnessaccountforme,2019/02/24,"I’m never going to be good enough so what’s the point of trying. I try so hard to keep my eating under control throughout the week but as soon as the weekend comes I hit by my bf liking my friends better than me, my friends being prettier and skinnier than me, my parents lurking me siblings more than me, and just never feeling food enough so I binge. I can never do anything right and I am so sick of trying. ",3.681071428571428,4.695245916666671,4.760476190476194,85.86785714285716,71.97619047619048,6.076190476190478,28.285714285714285,5.46131890053228,1.0965142857142856,323,12,63,1,6,106,55,84,0.107,0.674,0.21899999999999997,0.9217,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,1,3,12,11,10,0,0,2,1,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,14,5,11,8,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534967959407094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496901396803973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067750762900002,0.0,0.0,0.2092072106373987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086489126021425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854669366767389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431425052885448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255506112971521,0.0,0.28822241275600113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600826118759203,0.15645098458896992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709260818036425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657948136300096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112824508344664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315860861945582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071174657628816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632941792603338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929404346688866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37992116321911457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496216518962214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpiritedStrawberry,2019/02/24,"I ranted about this on peach but apparently i feel the need to rant here too-- feat. imposter syndrome and ED ""goals"" I'm still not sure whether or not I actually have an ED-- the imposter syndrome is real here. Perfectly ""normal"" people engage in the same behaviors I do, and I truly feel like I could just stop tomorrow if I really wanted to. Naturally, that could also mean I'm in deep denial because I haven't admitted I have a problem. But what if there's no problem to admit to? This shit TORTURES me, guys.

The other thing I mentioned on peach & feel like shit about is that I have a fucked up ED ""goal"". I want to faint from restriction/fasting. I feel so goddamn invalid because no matter how much I fast (record is 6 days), I've never gotten that dizzy might-pass-out feeling. Other people will collapse after 24 hours of fasting. I should probably be glad that my body adapts well to shit, but damn it makes me feel even MORE invalid somehow. Like I don't have a problem because I'm a-okay physically. So as fucked up as it is, I want my mental pain to physicalize. I want to pass out or something, and THEN I'll have a problem. Then I'll feel valid.

So between the imposter syndrome and the need to faint from my ED, I'm legit scared that I'm just doing this for attention even though nobody knows and I go to great lengths to hide my food issues. Basically I'm just neurotic as fuck. 

Thank you for letting me rant (again). I'm guessing quite a few of you can relate. ",3.284409604519773,4.972660383050852,4.443750000000001,85.0959074858757,73.98305084745763,6.950564971751412,26.867937853107343,7.645422480735847,1.5051158192090397,1163,43,230,15,24,381,157,295,0.23199999999999998,0.5920000000000001,0.175,-0.9824,1,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,0,4,21,24,8,1,12,0,20,11,4,2,3,56,52,24,0,16,13,0,7,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,14,6,1,1,12,0,0,2,7,14,1,0,1,7,28,10,31,45,4,22,0,0,0,3,6,8,7,6,15,148,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0992013548908825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129407220970743,0.0,0.1101439703249141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18590521794413312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129166294659502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623277004483741,0.0,0.0,0.06555955354567937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428533762619682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35980143635392964,0.14524578633954555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229225449724348,0.0,0.0,0.2819373280843964,0.0,0.0,0.057773309406437115,0.0,0.0,0.11207583105711028,0.1119852771950728,0.10065518180461648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011044373095768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610219939673544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055867345563478894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394989900261853,0.0,0.1489916042360618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785600722082782,0.0,0.0,0.11073292086655344,0.0,0.0,0.1024450934474613,0.10784069373585642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472867811516294,0.15075291159888146,0.07840318673877693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960105837756006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081688927969644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409506046116199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960209961537616,0.3890833224629623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812341070911306,0.0,0.11570650683460597,0.06512328102991127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177514682734234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130445214305858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825956825116875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118241891822746,0.08498876476241217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580934800148423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359096323762044,0.0,0.0,0.06753556797887278,0.0,0.09987626519668516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239836797342657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140073398060597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,booooogara,2019/02/24,"When you only allow yourself a literal teaspoon of Mac n cheese but two minutes later decide to treat yourself to a peanut butter cookie Balanced, as all things should be",15.189032258064515,9.609260806451617,13.248387096774195,55.29258064516132,53.83870967741936,13.690322580645162,50.354838709677416,8.841846274778883,5.43852258064516,139,6,19,1,1,44,28,31,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5413108526447493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728488760302713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6952672157134434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lykaeria,2019/02/24,"Why does everyone always try to fix us? Can’t they just leave us alone for once? It’s so frustrating. Whenever I open up to anyone, they become HYPERAWARE of my ED and always try to feed me, find help, constantly tell me that I don’t need to lose weight or that I’m skinny enough (which also annoys me, because it implies if I weren’t skinny I’d need to lose weight). And if I say anything self deprecating or even say that I skipped breakfast, they’ll jump in and go off about how horrible that is and how I need to eat and how I should love myself. And then if I binge they encourage me and congratulate me while I’m actually fucking crying and having a breakdown.

 I know they’re just trying to help, but I already KNOW what’s healthy and good for me— I’m not stupid, and I’m not a little kid either. know I’m being unhealthy and telling me how horrible I’m being doesn’t help!! And most of the time, I don’t even lose weight. Fuck, I just fluctuate and lose and gain the same 10 pounds. But for some reason, they’re just ultra focused on trying to get me eat more. I mean this respectfully, but what the fuck? The fact that I’m basically maintaining at a healthy weight shows that I clearly don’t need to eat more. If I tell them this they say it’s because I don’t know and THEY know what’s good for me and I need to eat and I’m so. Fucking. Annoyed. Every time I try to remember that they just want to help but it’s like they’re just trying to tell me what makes them feel better about themselves so they can pat themselves on the back for “fixing the poor little eating disordered girl” while I’m out here even more stressed and tired than before.

Honestly it’d be nice if they could just listen, try to understand, and be there for me. But that doesn’t give the same self-serving satisfaction that force feeding does, I guess. 

God I’m in such a bad mood pls off me ",3.460914137675797,4.521310987046633,4.3377239082161365,88.51711139896373,72.54922279792746,7.5868245743893405,24.66654330125833,7.957251820313856,1.115981791265729,1475,42,322,20,28,476,168,386,0.14400000000000002,0.675,0.18100000000000002,0.9409,1,1,0,0,0,0,37.0,2,0,11,6,24,24,8,1,11,0,19,20,2,6,2,74,54,42,0,13,22,0,5,1,0,2,1,4,0,3,21,21,14,0,11,1,1,2,10,14,0,0,1,9,45,9,34,45,9,21,0,4,0,5,31,12,4,10,8,195,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.06667294848632806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707615518434496,0.07539562759486408,0.05463751472591847,0.11369966165134344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0477727121941499,0.0,0.05622363325560364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05253581997297633,0.057046471421720174,0.08329757883490345,0.07545688336260817,0.05813745378658216,0.0,0.0,0.060425739071845515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07383239935090395,0.0,0.05454999289981098,0.0,0.0750491077414998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830355600660684,0.0,0.11957903947411297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34955510249640714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059545297689879,0.0,0.13537919025201953,0.0,0.05756469107268178,0.06528511985336201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03454593172459238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062445568561227995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526523684738046,0.03569570996691187,0.06554121099009018,0.03882927694059247,0.11461141877392715,0.0,0.0,0.07526498630857396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318064752651486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18774142031219693,0.0,0.0,0.07234371038823811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03337894448804995,0.136954278568517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057418074711165,0.0,0.0,0.0616637645487605,0.0,0.04560582946572205,0.0,0.0,0.07442328118196816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533015078335382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276128084963407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024695558709226,0.0,0.0,0.07739612504684931,0.0,0.0,0.16299849066859395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255063050990865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826324470848864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388676638315617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796788511029771,0.07852671507472128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247056637496476,0.0,0.0,0.07112617909504892,0.1643672191262958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04029840734519685,0.0,0.0,0.33279381549468656,0.0,0.0,0.061650470166394564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pazeamor,2019/07/16,I'm so incompetent at the moment i have 4 (four) clothing items which are too small for me (some of them already were when i bought them) but i still keep them bc i keep telling myself i’ll lose weight and soon they’ll fit me lmao fucking kill me,2.641923076923078,3.859618576923076,3.0953846153846136,96.0246153846154,74.76923076923076,5.9692307692307685,22.615384615384606,5.985473137389443,0.02513846153846133,194,5,46,1,4,60,41,52,0.21100000000000002,0.6459999999999999,0.14300000000000002,-0.6293,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,4,1,5,3,2,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,9,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,12,0,3,6,2,7,0,1,0,1,5,3,1,1,4,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390599174432047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840492676076409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5461988988449026,0.3399285091861713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437360869158497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453716234705507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685515492150951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741498254168122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myEDisfailingme,2019/07/16,"Post stomach bug nightmare This weekend me, my mum and my sister all came down with a stomach virus. I was _thrilled_. A great way to get back into proper restricting habits without anyone really noticing. Great start to things.

__HOWEVER__ my mum is on a diet, the kind of diet where she enjoys telling everyone else how many calories and how much sugar is in what they're eating. It's so unbelievably triggering. She went away with work today and over the phone I was telling her about how I only managed one meal, and she _praised_ me, and agreed that she was going to use her reduced appetite from the virus to ""really kickstart the weight loss"".

Ice never felt so conflicted about something in my life! Very much enjoying the motivation to restrict and get back to my low weight BUT the amount of guilt she's making me feel is massive.

This was a rant written by yours truly. Happy middle of the week everyone!",3.629058823529412,6.281715788235292,3.997058823529411,84.21676470588238,76.41176470588233,6.588235294117648,26.470588235294123,7.724431198458867,1.7424117647058828,724,28,127,11,17,226,111,170,0.06,0.815,0.125,0.9111,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,4,10,11,0,1,11,0,7,10,2,7,2,26,18,12,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,10,7,3,3,1,0,3,2,3,0,1,8,5,19,8,23,10,4,22,1,2,0,0,15,10,0,0,7,86,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289928533994178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826380294718624,0.22631741350574164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683144397037266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505837478417859,0.12293519846664865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812397231684089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440966867060737,0.0,0.14129886345382672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537724310216936,0.0,0.0836357130241168,0.0,0.0,0.32449385848017465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15665697968049133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532468649110636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039450679144582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823196221906624,0.14919945021914988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636241169923326,0.0,0.11350061981268415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16754522704638053,0.0,0.0,0.0997209670663726,0.11192354257497536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094078136387966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885518451120512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329271005750545,0.0,0.0,0.1041622166635534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25725263199625364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776807734286364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949263077720486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710095696380955,0.0,0.12142429009586415,0.0,0.11681056515222946,0.1180447014223017,0.35840801377139664,0.0,0.13642090456225608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185918293456934,0.0,0.10713588990065104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apodbfifnf,2019/07/16,Shoutout to my girlfriend for being so skinny! Hope she sees this post she goes on here a lot.,0.08087719298245942,2.4279925263157907,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,97.42105263157896,2.533333333333333,16.859649122807017,3.1291,-1.2044877192982462,74,2,16,0,3,22,18,19,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.5378,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5499691533111187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707531601389408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5303109425068769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412433533583478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AcceptMyNameReddit,2019/07/16,"New Office My new office includes a mini-mart downstairs. I went downstairs two times today to get something to eat, felt like a failure for considering it, and went back upstairs. Then I thought about all the options for hours, decided on something pretty safe and low calorie, went downstairs again to get it and...it was gone. They had come in and restocked and removed items. I nearly cried. But thanks, I guess?",3.9186999999999976,6.836165853333334,3.484916666666667,86.77537500000004,77.13333333333333,4.816666666666666,29.375,5.985473137389443,1.4045000000000003,329,15,55,2,8,98,54,75,0.10099999999999999,0.755,0.145,0.5423,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,13,13,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,3,0,0,6,0,1,0,1,8,1,6,3,9,5,2,18,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,2,9,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919083361978067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671326519989085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21312390198029613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19853279977094596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862914117094146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273682715346755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373695234096446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910724487763107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947892800775187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747750416600184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19738998312182904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987350128247121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17862926047161112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540316839072881,0.113135706495437,0.0,0.18391003632550346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953116414968424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5395806224417949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schuylersisters-,2019/07/16,"very very stupid thoughts okay so, i’ve tried to recover a thousand times but there’s always this voice in the back of my head saying “um... you could relapse right now to feel better and recover again”
i hate this so much!!! doesn’t even makes sense, why would a feel better relapsing? 
i literally told myself today that i could relapse next week. this is so stupid. my head never gets better.",2.662700000000001,5.268205586666667,3.0129166666666656,90.15937500000004,79.8,5.883333333333333,20.041666666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.4919666666666664,309,8,60,4,8,95,56,75,0.149,0.69,0.161,-0.4092,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,3,8,7,3,0,3,1,5,2,2,1,1,10,12,5,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,4,7,4,4,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,8,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243864382635844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087094073408968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486081537053124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29254359485726444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210031168348956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18526475471715212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571542322546177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808739324519137,0.376035974299845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228868042983662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346744645205754,0.0,0.14129658729516575,0.0,0.19483728245044185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15645340828832507,0.0,0.1456894916683053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544183237272748,0.10682649207018688,0.0,0.17365396518690193,0.1750572514983413,0.0,0.12438205382708048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023214821839493,0.0,0.0,0.14695350110664376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653112054500386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014136236624316,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,XxLittleMissMaddie,2019/07/16,"My eating disorder story. I just need to get this off my chest. (TW) I've been struggling with an eating disorder since I was 16. I'm 22 now. I assumed I was just going to extreme diet until I got skinny and then I would stop. Well fast forward and my eating disorder is more present than ever. 

When I was 11, I started to think I was fat. My mother would always say ""You're more broad and your sisters are more narrow."" Ever since that day, I've always looked at my shoulders and thought they were too big. Although my mom said this, looking back at photos I've always been smaller than my sisters. Although that comment stuck with me, it didn't cause me to diet or anything. It just made me look at myself differently. The ED all started when the guy I lost my virginity to told me that I could lose some weight right after we were intimate. I was an extremely muscular girl, but everyone loved my body. I had a really big butt from working out and I was just super fit. I used to be so confident before that. Once he realized it hurt me, him and his friends began to bully me about my weight. If I wore crop tops, his friends would say ""Are you pregnant? You look pregnant."" And they would always joke around and call me fat. At this point, I started to restrict. I was destined to lose weight. Around this time, I believe I was probably 110/115 pounds. I found the pro ana community on Tumblr and my obsession with thinspos started. I found tips and tricks on how to lose weight. I started drinking a lot of coffee and tea and eating a lot less food. Someone in class looked at my food journal and put me on blast about the fact that eating 300 cal per day is horrible. My coach yelled at me for posting a thinspo on twitter and saying #bodygoals. Eventually, I dropped out of my sport. This helped me lose all the muscle I had fast. My restricting eventually caused me to get into the 90's range. No matter how much weight I lost, I still looked in the mirror and saw someone huge staring back at me. Once I moved away from home, I lost more weight. My first two years of college, I mainly hardcore restricted, but once my junior year of college came around I begin to binge/purge. My family eventually realized I had an eating disorder due to weight loss and huge dental bills. Now that everything is in the open, my family wants me to get help, but I feel like I'm too fat to get help. At the moment, I weigh 104 lbs because I've been binge eating like freakin crazy. My doctor said ""I don't raise any red flags, but she's referring me to a mental health provider just so I don't slip through the cracks"" and I think she says that because Im not skinny enough. Which only motivates me more to lose weight. My mom wants me to attend an inpatient program, but Im too fat for that too. Overall, it sucks to be 22 years old with an eating disorder and feeling like Im too fat to get help. I'll never ever be skinny enough. The ED thoughts feel like they will never go away.",3.169647777892884,4.927243563451778,4.068530681308058,87.37559825960844,74.44839255499156,6.8549466487102455,25.428398770675784,7.5991,1.2626181221727273,2330,79,469,30,49,749,273,591,0.129,0.762,0.109,-0.7829999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,74.0,1,3,3,14,30,24,2,2,21,0,33,40,13,7,8,88,82,35,0,9,13,5,11,4,2,5,7,8,1,2,18,31,31,4,14,4,1,7,7,14,1,2,34,28,87,10,63,39,15,80,0,10,9,3,36,36,2,6,41,296,105,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437200861649653,0.0,0.0,0.031540911280669166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03816790248681549,0.12386771573377528,0.0,0.0,0.08715361793836844,0.07132879672423532,0.0,0.0565472859412114,0.0,0.03946711620129691,0.05225590320595329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051519228490787015,0.0,0.0,0.04736054829478073,0.05304791297058587,0.0,0.09529285401036183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03703173717342343,0.0,0.0,0.0598242727373003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04845864327919668,0.26578525052302565,0.04747328128004467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04543606946398555,0.0,0.3796776349958687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584867463065598,0.0,0.0,0.12586377053124256,0.0,0.04431937148342923,0.04168457038902822,0.0,0.08744842564426697,0.0,0.07035541872860088,0.09940454593547113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03945195611387421,0.11216903499610001,0.10170952159357123,0.07166823826625665,0.0,0.12116171601903288,0.0,0.05271918480132649,0.0,0.037095405900824316,0.0,0.0,0.04592483263714026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049301210531323934,0.0,0.0,0.12435377593757525,0.0,0.046524279878952884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04965219885904571,0.0,0.1502994645643628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063834722603893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23369193607008945,0.2594443568029558,0.1518921809194309,0.07886353730647233,0.041860982935187085,0.04388715871514814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046741495934142514,0.0,0.0,0.1086425627385158,0.0,0.04929603922898842,0.034095631979437574,0.034391186378159716,0.07154431922215541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04866942895715496,0.14818388521740578,0.0,0.03527510982615652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0438453714145108,0.0,0.044420516248980635,0.0,0.05000694441430605,0.0,0.0,0.04662607149868249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029713083106695633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039609422988367934,0.08823857796776066,0.14753725760491038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673427082652802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859754165209355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16414480582051774,0.0,0.03704020930720539,0.03877688885732111,0.0,0.048487861789662745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943859783614716,0.0,0.07364322863504605,0.027045340571767624,0.0,0.0,0.04431937148342923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04530784349323478,0.0,0.0,0.04005859815332925,0.0,0.0,0.054713848709595586,0.0,0.0,0.4518399527924671,0.04170240752352991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033766178192911,0.0,0.0,0.13179193286086194,0.0,0.0,0.08960421412740252
EDAnonymous,vanillacola77,2019/07/16,"Ipecac syrup Just seriously binged like probably 2,000 calories. Is ipecac really that dangerous? I hate myself right now.",6.774035087719297,10.783570263157896,5.51157894736842,66.82771929824563,83.21052631578948,10.954385964912284,27.385964912280702,9.725611199111238,4.750775438596492,101,4,13,4,3,30,18,19,0.354,0.5479999999999999,0.098,-0.7609,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265592812731099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605612267856072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5750268482675059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416689568072415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4554663743098005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abgarat,2019/07/16,"DAE love watching recovery videos? I mean, I LOVE watching them, even though I'm still restricting like crazy and obsessing over every single thing I eat.",7.125555555555558,9.229078037037038,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,64.92592592592592,9.844444444444443,32.01851851851852,10.125756701596842,3.5118296296296285,125,5,20,3,2,37,22,27,0.205,0.47200000000000003,0.32299999999999995,0.7378,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,4,1,2,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,2,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342587389255644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211344411641996,0.0,0.2820862445871524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356799495420946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6043461519389988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646989761826068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673743709802908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224284549261375,0.0,0.3289425708012331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway10001099,2019/07/16,"It’s officially eating away at my social life I don’t know where else to post this but I know this community is overall very accepting. 

I am not skinny. I wish I was, and I wish I could be someone who everyone wishes they looked like, but I’m not. I feel like an absolute whale, and it’s starting to really impact my social life. 

I used to have a very very bad ED, I was hospitalized and got better but my thoughts never did. I did years of therapy when I was around 12-15 and I still have not gotten better. I have gotten extremely worse. 

While my weigh has maintained and skyrocketed to where I am a fucking manatee, my head has just sunk. Lately, in the last year or so, I have slowly started cutting people out of my life and retreating to my house, which is a safe space for me. 

I used to be the pretty, thin, popular girl in high school. I was always out and about, always in a relationship and working hard. I was so incredibly social and hated being at home. Now my ED has changed that. 

I cannot go out in jeans or shorts. Ever. I only allow myself to wear leggings and oversized shirts. I only go out if I absolutely have to, and if necessary. I consistently do work and home, nothing else. This was never a problem, until it had begun to affect my relationship. 

My girlfriend and I (yes I am gay I am a girl lol) were incredibly active. Hiking twice a week, dog parks with our dogs, beach trips. But now, I can’t step foot outside of the house without feeling like everyone is staring at the fat whale who decided to come out. I can’t wear shorts without freaking out, and I can barely wear a tank top without feeling fucking pathetic. And today, my girlfriend broke up with me because “she is not the kind of person to sit at home all day”. 

I don’t know what to do. I don’t even want to get better. I want to get worse. I want to restrict but I don’t have the self control. I want to be smaller than a size 8, which is what I am now and the biggest I’ve ever been. This is so so hard and no one else seems to understand that this is eating away at me.",2.3062721034573777,4.00142799287411,4.218339271575616,85.6482742808129,76.67220902612826,6.958062813407231,24.28351807864872,7.793537801064563,1.2374845077856955,1599,53,332,24,36,544,198,421,0.10300000000000001,0.752,0.145,0.9426,0,0,0,1,0,0,53.0,1,0,1,7,17,18,4,0,17,2,47,18,9,5,5,76,80,33,0,11,17,0,6,3,2,0,4,0,3,4,16,27,5,3,11,1,0,5,17,8,0,2,15,8,55,10,49,60,1,56,0,1,2,3,16,28,2,5,24,236,71,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315209568351309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035472574893223,0.0,0.0,0.14850525462001066,0.0,0.06598794047830779,0.04817682441312173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20969062453068008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360477067184842,0.06807857652040755,0.0,0.0,0.08864046566420969,0.06310016368855187,0.0,0.0,0.05096873236858799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173776026847658,0.19806184873662988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05219951223223495,0.1429769008816486,0.0,0.1510358308108284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988199250175538,0.1129201346139017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612656170531452,0.08258131750917301,0.0,0.08983076259458092,0.0,0.06320865190507878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159327064329322,0.07802717232812055,0.08110904476538427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350104185091678,0.23782489561095585,0.0,0.0,0.18238331180718012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229906963440359,0.1303008164409337,0.06442116126541021,0.08915089212833363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674667025797122,0.11583228973917994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636649418515535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219078174151632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583278578576176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05355374034808702,0.120213923194484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479044056206647,0.06900719375395192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569026085150128,0.08040337366518395,0.0,0.07562240230128403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050629555911560084,0.0,0.0,0.16970035202536488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998402350532627,0.0,0.07194724301326916,0.08244701457250493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416877617791275,0.06696307170980051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187770173885926,0.0,0.0631145997660691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037932453879087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274212521631037,0.0,0.0,0.07491255198259215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227450279749524,0.0,0.13651555630628395,0.0,0.19562761257870465,0.18645913333408876,0.0,0.06339424371235551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726467225136174,0.2285504264257648,0.0,0.11507164036790582,0.0,0.16107955210433686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017872958024212
EDAnonymous,nanij_,2019/07/16,My body dysmorphia is going crazy stupid ahaaaa Caught my side profile in a window while running time to guillotine myself,6.6971428571428575,9.940636095238098,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,69.0,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,3.0139333333333336,102,4,14,2,2,30,20,21,0.244,0.7559999999999999,0.0,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8065144560200737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412649663993581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42338479783363664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tokyogucci,2019/07/16,"Gaining post-breakup I’m sorry for the depressing post. I know I get upset seeing so many about break ups and shitty partners.

I started university at 125lbs, the lowest I’ve been in YEARS. (I’m 5’6” for reference.) There, I met this guy who I went on to date for the next 9 months. But we recently broke up.

So I’ve gained. The scale hasn’t changed much, but my stomach is getting huge, I have a muffin top, my thighs are rubbing together more. This feels awful and makes me want to give up and just binge every day. I feel like a slave to the boredom eating.

It would be easy to avoid it if I had hobbies and things to do. None of my friends live up here, the only thing I like doing is going on walks (to the exact same place because this town is tiny), I have no real interests to research and the internet makes me depressed. 

I have maybe two or three books I might be able to get through, I like makeup... that’s about it. I journal, but since my depression came back I can’t get into it. 

I can drink myself through the day but, calories.

Again, sorry for being depressing and pathetic, I hate hopeless posts like this. I don’t know if this is a vent post or an asking for advice post. If you have any, please share. Thank you for reading anyway ♡",2.651912290607939,4.286637067193681,3.613709768492377,90.61220026350463,75.56126482213439,6.400075287031808,23.90532655750048,7.07126945348624,0.7795990589121029,970,30,206,10,21,311,156,253,0.196,0.667,0.13699999999999998,-0.9564,1,1,1,0,0,1,39.0,1,2,0,3,10,17,1,2,13,1,22,4,2,2,1,33,45,17,0,5,10,0,3,4,2,2,0,0,0,2,13,9,2,1,5,3,0,4,5,9,0,2,5,4,28,8,28,35,4,32,0,6,1,0,11,13,0,6,14,134,41,3,0.10703288060293782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045912921731824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278602912386567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006129498692723,0.0,0.0,0.08230167843822582,0.0,0.06524625057227026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241710152502093,0.0,0.0,0.1132265956244074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805470675921575,0.0,0.36874905290597615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485147514766012,0.0,0.10952135764474112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901798181982627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823808082214388,0.07646431128891955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269333804728976,0.0,0.22368104998320187,0.1026756920160947,0.060829252620350986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597937948242536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056728105096868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176449440554519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20916343609186785,0.0,0.09451199450566944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289055785279964,0.10851454145648436,0.1075289147626002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135449720538497,0.0,0.0,0.08543262414402006,0.0,0.0786814826042432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383068278278058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140332878485293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182657944269124,0.11748996153121502,0.0,0.0,0.5125395649834975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706184522050173,0.121826850605799,0.0,0.0,0.1056820570524732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529134824677488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853870488201966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396290938479761,0.07575842378597253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985414961381609,0.0,0.0,0.14221577983510875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455557186324166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313076610592648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992205526354679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603308745695929,0.0,0.0,0.0689256658974571
EDAnonymous,sadvoid,2019/07/16,"my mom is worried about me recently I dropped 25 lbs really quickly and its for sure a noticeable difference because I’m really short. My mom keeps begging me to eat and starts fights with my dad over it, he insists that I’m fine and that it’s not like I’m sick or anything. Maybe it’s unreasonable, but it makes me upset because he’s the root of all of this. He used to call me fat and forced me to run laps nearly every day. I wish he knew how much of this is his fault.",3.0853748231966067,3.7468570000000017,4.524271570014147,88.32465346534653,73.05940594059406,8.147666195190949,26.309759547383308,8.418075326091056,1.4759719943422906,371,12,85,6,7,124,68,101,0.15,0.7709999999999999,0.079,-0.8178,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,2,0,2,3,1,4,2,17,11,7,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,5,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,11,3,11,10,2,9,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,5,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701783768560645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25212612457326594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21116542200879784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336857631284652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606147366231065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116075270132599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742375069649809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18381290698476288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103179508732432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804027922506287,0.0,0.20775790425408427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4844021751184879,0.0,0.0,0.1520214350303043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354426136040263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649621239329832,0.0,0.20418956834965696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637375807349606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19490609147478144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17860837952040398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378092314522296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21001494141560187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girls_online,2019/07/16,"Sudden Reoccurrence almost 10 yrs later Hi, 

Venting because I am literally having a breakdown at my super cool job this whole day. 

I’m not sure what the root of this problem is. I’ve been having extreme lack of appetite/food looking unappealing. Squashed it the first time around at 19 by quitting ballet and learning to love cooking for myself. Now when it’s me and my bf cooking (always happy to be food prepping/happy with him etc), I feel dissociated like I haven’t felt in years. It’s becoming too regular that I skip dinner and eat it as leftovers the next day. There have been a few 0 days. 

I think deep down the guilt and stress of my past is conjuring bad shit. I have been on the verge of tears all day and am being noticeably avoidant to everyone I’m usually at my best with. I thought the answer was living independently so I don’t feel so helpless, but people on r/relationshipadvice said that’s an idea only someone who wants to be single would do. Getting serious with another guy definitely triggered this physical/mental hell. He is end game. But I’m very afraid of what this is going to turn into if I stay put.",4.734590909090908,6.128056322727275,5.863409090909091,77.51511363636364,69.86363636363636,8.40909090909091,30.113636363636363,8.841846274778883,2.4862727272727274,901,36,166,16,16,300,150,220,0.114,0.809,0.077,-0.7164,1,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,7,17,2,4,9,1,21,7,1,3,2,33,36,12,0,5,4,0,3,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,13,10,5,1,8,4,0,2,3,10,0,1,7,6,16,7,25,25,7,29,1,1,1,1,9,11,2,2,16,107,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207478440068005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097480319342149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830444861998725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741539712026015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012764464547983,0.08040257296498074,0.14566876144856145,0.0,0.0,0.13841670705318151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402480153575096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496252845213338,0.0,0.0,0.11682070077020043,0.0,0.14709889704539042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603227334953393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338115392933445,0.0,0.12664083709204504,0.0,0.0,0.11219066405255083,0.318978315955307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891021240460883,0.0,0.07495953222316848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305977694791941,0.0,0.2808114737530342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889452137734366,0.0,0.0,0.1308864209170743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443771973285563,0.0,0.11646657804329885,0.0,0.1107594150539023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904128301865202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402728846151632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501644619446211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031284594609492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259096494208545,0.09144007411736207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126206652117155,0.0,0.13259190262962134,0.0,0.14028762368640754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546329298199796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135389341159719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175504663690647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058357894936924,0.0,0.0,0.15108641406306236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431041224025532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451362642630465,0.0,0.1047106853167426,0.07690961405097338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14346496522232308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526480188668406,0.10882800728310524,0.07779567383024671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725716562595567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369512896744248,0.0,0.0,0.08493669494987736
EDAnonymous,itcomeswithatoy,2019/07/16,"Welp I’m done with recovery TW: measurement and weight mention

Yeah, I should have known something was up when I didn’t eat on Friday. Or when I woke up at two in the morning to secretly get a new battery for my scale. Today I made the stupid mistake of telling my mum I wasn’t feeling great, and I was scared I was going to slip back into my old habits in uni.

At first it was alright, she told me she wanted me to see a new therapist which I wasn’t thrilled about but I’m so desperate to be “normal” this year in uni, that I said I’d agree to a consultation and see after that.

Then she out of nowhere looked me up and down (literally stared at my stomach) and said “when I was your age I was thinner than you”. OOF. Firstly, I’m literally in recovery? So of course I’ve gained weight and am no longer super small anymore. Secondly  I’m still not THAT heavy (113lbs at 5’3), leave me aloooone. But I feel huge now. 

Then! After I said “maybe that isn’t very helpful” she doubled down and told me her waist size was 21 inches when she was my age! And aaaaaaaa. I measured mine yesterday and let’s just say it’s bigger than 21 inches :(.

Oh, and did you know that she absolutely couldn’t fit into ANY clothes at the shop because at 21 years old she was too small? She wore kids clothes apparently.

And she hasn’t eaten today :) Okay! 

I’ve been so uncomfortable with my weight gain but this has really pushed me over the edge. It was the way she stared at me that was the worse part, like how big I am is obvious. Sorry if this is whiny but I just needed to vent.",1.911647629310348,3.7694098781250034,3.0946982758620685,92.52875000000002,78.34375,6.413793103448278,22.59698275862069,7.372421405659032,0.6576217672413791,1211,37,272,16,29,390,172,320,0.07200000000000001,0.7879999999999999,0.14,0.9749,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,3,0,5,16,9,1,1,9,3,29,7,2,2,1,39,52,27,0,7,9,1,5,1,0,1,0,4,0,1,13,16,6,0,5,1,1,2,8,3,0,4,26,14,44,6,38,22,2,56,0,0,5,0,27,29,0,2,25,174,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125499787771906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184986184333469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187783407513887,0.0,0.07283793353744887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12227629548348072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226464048263927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083204886098045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20327051313000005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062426826481840614,0.0,0.06790699880273053,0.0,0.0,0.13173441860268836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008936163875838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566672062355823,0.0,0.0,0.12651907637207244,0.0,0.12218316277253573,0.0,0.05837512624441445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033866597598357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130611273886702,0.0,0.0,0.1200403682684713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859781352868767,0.0,0.23080184122368905,0.0,0.0,0.11707151661355344,0.0,0.0,0.25076221238079105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939236383325284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654618737204161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409774087550345,0.09502055478751167,0.11962694962013044,0.0,0.1904307297485778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198663642665064,0.0,0.13375548677701327,0.0,0.0,0.09542216779550797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443657106104616,0.0,0.0,0.13873317338414634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22651868606526798,0.2283491687213853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167210640848901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858897382490897,0.07047630331950433,0.09484291603577784,0.0,0.4365075339594191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176707216947792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389092944436766
EDAnonymous,vanvynharden,2019/07/16,DAE ever have no appetite while starving? Currently I'm in bed rn and my stomach hurts because I haven't eaten anything today. But the thought of putting food in my mouth is making me nauseous. Just thinking of the texture of any food in my mouth is making me feel so gross rn. But I'm so hungry. Rip,1.3038641686182686,3.7449923606557407,2.703653395784542,91.19983606557379,84.40983606557377,4.141451990632318,26.747072599531606,5.288315135182226,0.7721925058548007,238,11,46,1,7,77,42,61,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.902,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,4,6,3,2,1,10,12,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,6,0,6,10,0,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17975490198683092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752280742647204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113440337111434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391035305882521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365425922821536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6392628834423958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829729952922604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528874775949508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657267837855199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937334551299962,0.0,0.20985017248692556,0.0,0.0,0.2505559367137293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PotatoStrip,2019/07/16,Anorexia at 1.5k-2k calories a day? Is it possible to have anorexia if you eat 1.5-2k calories a day (and workout 2h a day)? Or is it just a sign of normie?,1.054545454545455,2.7125423333333347,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,80.21212121212122,5.612121212121212,32.21212121212121,6.42735559955562,1.6263212121212125,119,7,27,1,3,40,24,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7858599776034265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41562485716094655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579083682474966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nakazanie,2019/07/16,"I am incredibly frustrated I've been restricting (500kcal most days, like on 3 occasions I ate/drank 1000 bc couldn't make excuses...) for 3 weeks and I was so close to reaching my GW... Then my periods happened and I gained like 2lbs. I know I am being unreasonable because technically it's water weight blablablaah. But it doesn't stop me from feeling like shit! I have been feeling fat all day, eating nothing but coke zero and chewing gum, but here I am, still heavier than two days ago.

To make matters worse my SO brought me chocolate biscuits because I had mentioned I felt my period coming... And on one hand it's SO SWEET. On the other, I'd rather die. 

Why can't I be like other girls who don't get the monthly gore anymore?

I'm 25, I'm too old for this pls save meeee",2.2424086021505367,4.438035090322583,3.5896774193548424,87.73118279569893,78.74193548387099,6.455913978494625,27.10752688172043,7.554174236665415,1.5569913978494632,609,26,123,9,15,199,106,155,0.098,0.688,0.214,0.9314,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,2,0,2,0,14,8,3,2,1,23,26,11,1,2,4,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,6,6,2,4,0,0,2,4,2,0,3,6,6,17,6,9,17,2,18,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,16,69,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626016125716557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191549178465824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22363718117939607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15801063205385346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548958583525951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903737042950043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876969748283128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854977035386882,0.1310440284881709,0.17612371585297093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958357742068302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220852351867845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080956161391556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584629066276357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24488488836577466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641386345384494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600818091166745,0.0,0.1924812786400521,0.0,0.12429843268994553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882905577653761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14648922334433773,0.1533575657012735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791866441596932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713827799502516,0.22337105067206964,0.0,0.0,0.16551906501056365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869331230165204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,choustrings,2019/07/16,"Instagram, support, feeling very very isolated. 23F looking for friends maybe I can confidently say 2019 has been one of the worst years by far for my health, primarily mentally, but the trickle effect of trying to find the \~right\~ meds and habits and whatever without being in therapy is difficult. I'm happy for my support system but I feel isolated from friends and don't have much interest in changing that. Luckily my partner is great and I have a job that stimulates my social needs.

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I don't know if this is allowed or not, but essentially I've been longing to connect with more folks who understand this side of my struggles. And as we all know, this side of things is often correlated with other mental health sides of things. I've decided to leave social media asides from my private instagram, which I utilize more than reddit. So if anyone wants to follow me on there and vice versa, pm. 

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I guess in looking for a new social circle or support system, I should maybe list my interest lol. I love anime, am trying to get back into cosplay, I like video games and play my switch pretty religiously. I'm also trying to get back into art. Also, I am trying to stop drinking and be more conscious of vices that affect my mental health.",6.252243589743589,7.605233316239317,6.603493589743589,73.76754807692309,66.26495726495726,9.097863247863248,33.001068376068375,9.354420925462401,3.2190606837606843,1012,43,165,19,16,327,139,234,0.09699999999999999,0.6970000000000001,0.20600000000000002,0.987,2,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,1,0,0,1,7,15,0,1,5,1,17,5,0,4,1,41,36,19,0,5,9,0,2,1,3,1,3,1,0,1,11,13,1,1,9,5,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,5,21,12,31,31,6,20,0,0,2,1,11,11,0,6,7,115,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318800189402976,0.0,0.20755184573881028,0.2327626280585569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697052714413478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729544947085654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132091234974047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382642889323968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685693577031418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753977851131436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14799640331835254,0.0,0.1000805859023836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559609177876464,0.10551077334894404,0.0,0.0,0.10195795311260664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30542407687362544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504534404229104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527467508228323,0.0,0.0,0.10141556126378393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04679251826429184,0.0,0.0,0.0847609243325489,0.16085957024358927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644380081958182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192444675875702,0.0,0.1063882788641502,0.0,0.2895664851536948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040818951173758,0.07101851549510127,0.0,0.09250343481634027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490196418463927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744112818309132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179428267812935,0.0,0.0761668767406429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929022390760961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007508237384743,0.0,0.10012844354855772,0.0,0.0,0.3260647887808572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095310177425922,0.0,0.12726190771664347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601091528046362,0.0,0.0,0.0997087560862176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805452271039003,0.05649261804539942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232701889015599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327626280585569,0.061678188896623
EDAnonymous,THECrew42,2019/07/16,Just redownloaded MFP... I was feeling particularly fat this morning and redownloaded it and plopped in the weight of how much cheese I eat at lunch and now I wanna hide and never show my face in public again 🙃,5.018666666666668,6.675524200000003,5.835000000000001,76.97666666666667,69.5,8.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.1350833333333337,168,6,32,3,3,55,33,40,0.046,0.914,0.04,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,1,1,9,2,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,5,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5167658576173078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553554204666692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712509113379803,0.0,0.3895058130657169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6149834469789188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mimimg,2019/07/16,"I had a friend in high school who was the epitome of the perfect body, later I found out she always made fun of how fat and disgusting I was..thus my ED was born I struggle with my body to this day...it people me me to say this but ..I don't have a job, I don't work and I don't leave my house unless it is absolutely necessary and it's because I can't stand my body and who I am.. I hate the way I look and I have hated the way I look ever since I had a friend in high school who was about 4""10/11' feet tall and she basically had a perfect body and everybody said how perfect she was and how she was beautiful and how I was disgusting in comparison to her how I was gross, how basically we were just complete polar opposites and how she was the beautiful gorgeous one that everybody loved and I was the fat disgusting one that everybody decided was a turd to treat like shit .. like they would like really walk up to her and I and say ""hey___"" to her really friendly and then look at me with disgust and ask her in front of me ""why are you hanging out with this fat piece of shit "" or whatever they would say.. she would laugh nervously and I would walk away , hurt as usually and later on she would tell me she didn't know what to say or she didn't want confrontation with her friends.. later on after many of incidents like that, I found out that she would always tell people that I was so fat and disgusting & she only kept me around to make herself look even better in comparison to me and that she didn't even really like me and she said that when I had given her some clothing that didn't fit me anymore, she told people the clothes were ""huge"" and ""ugly"" but failed to mention any of this to me.. one day she just came up to me and said she didn't wanna be friends anymore because she's not friends with ""fat and ugly people"" out of nowhere,.and then after that the rest of my existence in high school was cutting classes and trying to avoid human contact as much as possible because the whole school was just enamored with her even the staff saw that she did no wrong what is it about people that are just so perfect they have that privilege of everyone just believing them and loving them and adoring them because they're attractive ?",6.819272797229703,5.6927117699115035,6.9809849942285505,80.01503462870335,65.15044247787611,10.781223547518275,32.70527125817622,9.971965246562196,2.832547018083877,1768,59,371,33,23,571,174,452,0.155,0.66,0.185,0.9615,1,1,0,0,0,0,40.0,1,1,6,7,22,43,11,3,15,0,44,14,12,9,5,79,67,46,0,8,11,0,0,5,6,6,5,7,0,1,24,39,5,2,4,0,0,5,11,18,0,3,36,12,72,25,54,24,5,43,0,2,5,2,60,23,2,3,17,270,96,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149204134998717,0.07482225495319822,0.0,0.0469605156922202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697018954624854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06147456929523878,0.0645581311410866,0.0,0.06488047866481432,0.0,0.0,0.16838382919026312,0.0,0.0,0.0778025764911332,0.0,0.06107450822031349,0.0,0.3068230358297184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898178106925885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240400647487816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907094261342624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13683270730169364,0.06246519553095401,0.0,0.06598606240310123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143289749432304,0.3201154270199245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13635720304884802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888468168323666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968146716964353,0.0739259827632978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852752321938957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03795142631029272,0.0,0.0,0.07312043845324014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868661027852044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319589254161403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465165185157005,0.06534255105028619,0.046095482643360025,0.07001204610611775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05076417882662309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403826006143304,0.052520275454161484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23937402208554096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785037631276857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271731685996674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19706449292670725,0.2196647281142073,0.0,0.2795538376789031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417701875408251,0.05712391910960336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219242888049343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207161494615893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598606240310123,0.0,0.04688455859674796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07605553742321919,0.0,0.04073107666491959,0.10962703496704823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062312388806478484,0.0770986689524319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050273662887677324,0.0,0.0,0.2943328305964485,0.07550200419138497,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GodShorts,2019/07/16,"I’m at my friends house and we’re watching movies together and she offered me snacks or food several times but I said I’m going to eat at home later. Obviously that was a lie. Now she’s eating crisps (I said I don’t like the flavor which is another lie, lmao) and they smell so good. R I P 

I mean, technically I could eat them but then I’d end up eating everything. :”)",-0.91,1.2067604358974364,1.9219230769230755,92.86057692307692,98.48717948717949,5.676923076923077,18.03846153846154,7.1686216300943375,0.4718000000000009,286,9,65,6,12,99,60,78,0.0,0.809,0.191,0.9373,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,6,0,0,1,9,10,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,5,12,3,4,6,0,9,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,1,6,33,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848872628597904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077745385571697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7216789546000312,0.0,0.0,0.15616749733127244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584653632897425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21320726967592013,0.0,0.136224666671717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020691941784016,0.14788914590161836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686368946607728,0.0,0.0,0.20345001313084066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614121776421482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206455354867474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33544206365413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19919181031053734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281381525592068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asskukkaa,2019/07/16,"i need to end this bender before i can’t call it a bender anymore coke, booze, not sleeping at all, haven’t eaten in 3 days and when i do eat it’s something super super tiny. i’ve been going like this for 3 fucking weeks. i’m a mess lmao",0.3105660377358497,1.9319513773584944,2.7930566037735858,93.9175094339623,82.39622641509433,4.24,18.147169811320754,3.1291,-0.7151328301886792,185,4,42,0,5,64,42,53,0.052000000000000005,0.68,0.268,0.9088,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,2,0,4,6,1,0,1,4,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,4,7,1,7,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269394268970753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805209176229334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33662516407369464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260686743361112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373299369870301,0.0,0.0,0.29198563543190265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047702884617756,0.0,0.0,0.1873564060441176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105782980185784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444426674535109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299034136419807,0.0,0.0,0.2537924795505936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26443764525156843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starsinmyeyess,2019/07/16,"Anyone else w gastroparesis?? So basically I have this genetic disorder where my stomach doesnt really process food correctly. So it doesnt digest until much longer than it's supposed to, and I get uncomfortably full and then stay there for a long time. Sounds like a dream I know, until you binge on goldfish anyway and sit there wallowing in ur sins for hours 😬😅",7.263695652173915,7.537269536231888,7.554891304347826,71.62190217391306,63.78260869565217,11.537681159420293,33.19202898550725,11.20814326018867,3.8086202898550736,294,11,53,8,4,96,57,69,0.13,0.8029999999999999,0.067,-0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,1,5,5,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,8,5,2,12,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,7,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210492085740024,0.32391805649461664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623185347619873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26409054481928795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382272156990256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516768831557455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113296691901937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373973747989233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444777830768702,0.0,0.0,0.2797698635608209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323958796860243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20252441987081726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369582524845681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18434108267518134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaytruerat57,2019/07/16,"DAE not feel shame exhibiting obvious ed behaviours around strangers? like.. i’ll happily checkout sugarfree redbull unsweetened almond milk and a single bag of raw spinach knowing im gauntly thin and knowing that other people ~know~ what im doing

ill even weigh food around distant family or portion out ridiculously light food in tiny portions around people i know, or go the entire day without eating at school without thinking to make an excuse. its not that im proud of being insane i just? dont? care?",4.1342757242757235,7.372802967032968,4.234165834165837,79.44037962037963,79.76923076923076,6.386013986013987,30.250749250749248,7.686295010490155,2.655232967032967,414,20,61,7,11,128,73,91,0.146,0.777,0.077,-0.7641,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,1,3,0,3,6,0,1,1,21,12,4,0,0,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,6,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,11,11,3,9,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,2,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128132361871358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759938869684445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09968800782725984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116060430832573,0.0,0.0,0.15816868855016064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209524824661326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571943696478673,0.0,0.07815770212763992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738251090078194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784846462236423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5009021761357164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33980123906364545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551747688932303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317993050766112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21432551345838435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643802760471898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904533954554484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980093302915106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainbowbuttplugs,2019/07/16,"Fighting fatigue Hit me with your best fatigue fighting tips

Ps, don’t say sleep lol",6.881875000000001,7.7068484375,5.400000000000002,84.845,64.625,6.4,41.0,3.1291,2.5902,69,4,12,0,1,20,14,16,0.36,0.36,0.28,0.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6345481015247216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808459123998524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6050916586598473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n0kikin0ki,2019/07/16,"He said I can't bring the scale on vacation. Yeah, the title says it all. I want to bring the scale. He said no. We argued. He said we can buy a new scale when we get there because ""bringing a scale on vacation is ridiculous"". So....I guess we're getting a new scale. Yay? :/",-1.4064912280701731,0.5711974736842116,0.7501754385964929,100.96456140350878,100.57894736842104,3.9368421052631577,16.859649122807017,5.82211442006289,-0.5829087719298247,204,6,49,2,9,67,36,57,0.122,0.759,0.11900000000000001,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,3,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,6,2,3,0,0,0,1,6,13,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,3,4,5,1,3,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,1,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15467680464904734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651360788435085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795218719919476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4901249880907505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7240910536901003,0.2017832615055656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966170608524085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,magic_waves,2019/07/16,"as a transmasc person if i lose enough weight the fat from my breasts will leave and ill finally be flat chested oh and ill stop having fucking periods lol

also i heard it's easier to build muscle with t so guess who really wants hormone therapy now???",2.8867346938775498,5.419471551020411,4.366693877551022,81.21044897959185,78.38775510204081,8.001632653061224,26.126530612244892,8.841846274778883,2.4531518367346936,202,8,36,5,5,67,46,49,0.222,0.6709999999999999,0.107,-0.6555,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,2,1,3,7,3,0,0,7,7,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,4,4,1,4,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,2,4,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22748045713352685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939205049001865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116091461975263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629762561703121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133618645999867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30119928390603123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31823503721412705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483772046704308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223067606336935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378190996447424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32530179489672384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778032768554613,0.0,0.0,0.3463924450979376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HTDpetrichor,2019/07/16,Do you ever get a random pain And wonder what caused it..  could it be because I haven't eaten in 24 hours? Is it because I binged? Or purged? Is it the laxatives or the 4 cans of red bull??,-0.9024390243902474,1.09876412195122,1.7104390243902436,97.40468292682928,90.70731707317074,4.255609756097561,15.517073170731704,5.6839178017228535,-0.7946917073170732,143,3,34,1,5,49,33,41,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,7,2,0,1,1,8,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,2,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4437502410278093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739014722942513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906035545803084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292352443344119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19016134830126216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35844098965820903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872939080019971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947141851098496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noicegril2001,2019/07/16,"I want to die I'm so empty all day.
I binged on some sweets, now I'm sick.
I hope I will purge it all.
If not I'll fu#king kill myself cuz I'm tired of this sh#t.",-4.207357142857141,-3.045032449999997,-0.6764285714285698,110.09,111.0,2.2857142857142865,8.214285714285715,3.1291,-2.6200714285714284,122,1,37,0,7,43,30,40,0.258,0.507,0.235,-0.2628,0,0,0,0,0,2,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,8,6,3,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,3,5,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782388082648111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477596852260834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285106468353815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773170609165118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4958691499991976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25447055791866274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ILikePens32,2019/07/16,"I think my brother has an ED Takes one to know one I guess. He's always finding excuses not to eat, is really thin and sallow, etc etc. The thing is, I'm not 100% sure and, even if I was, I'm not sure how to approach this. We don't exactly have a great relationship, and I think that if I or either of our parents tried to talk to him he would clam up and restrict even harder. Does anyone know what to do?",4.015568181818182,3.2980285113636403,5.621727272727274,86.10509090909092,70.70454545454545,8.85818181818182,26.69090909090909,8.238735603445708,1.3765836363636357,311,8,74,4,5,107,61,88,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.8324,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,8,1,0,1,3,24,16,8,0,3,7,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,5,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,1,9,3,8,14,3,3,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,4,0,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612322861911145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354885932419467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16956956278436688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19827523673057168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322098729029813,0.25596671124631604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771024053264948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21363227283787803,0.2134596644603282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298201222462326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626073349278126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21515881880646154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413411892516305,0.0,0.0,0.2080366230819421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652521436533885,0.0,0.14569103671215206,0.15574510551645726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287322766080732,0.2483201741819438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155721145440158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764875398811074,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Friday-z,2019/07/16,Sorry to everyone who wanted to buy sugarfree jello at the store today [I bought all of them](https://imgur.com/a/BP63TMR),7.355499999999997,10.933715550000002,6.0100000000000025,69.785,68.5,10.0,30.0,10.125756701596842,4.167999999999998,101,4,13,3,2,30,19,20,0.071,0.929,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.517263158277421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6059736141332599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5131166958874898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192899316681439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emotionalbabybxy,2019/07/16,I feel like this will never end All i ever hear is that the ED feelings and thoughts will never go away and it has lately really pushed me to thinking about suicide. Esp with all the other things going on in my life ive been really thinking about how i cant live this way or feel this way forever and if im always gonna be on the edge then i see no point,3.2776923076923086,3.4097329230769264,4.865794871794872,87.96253846153847,72.33333333333333,7.778461538461538,23.29230769230769,7.554174236665415,0.7921661538461535,280,6,64,3,5,95,58,78,0.08800000000000001,0.879,0.033,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,2,1.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,8,1,0,1,5,18,19,7,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,6,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,8,13,2,16,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,2,7,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16814637641442753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986039216669345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898250363594406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827925250296865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30653248153874985,0.14436567309465656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296929338760532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277583430108355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182805943471249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279545378351245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273476453971815,0.09872586220026996,0.0,0.17843994763484705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117124182824675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19103049554041704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258914672485914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16103124047336714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22104223222610545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13425267575484015,0.25896883599231885,0.0,0.16042859263695486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208026864050134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,---t-away---,2019/07/16,"Hm Have a friend I’ll be seeing in a month, want to lose quite a bit of weight before I see them again (last saw them earlier this month), but also they know about my eating issues and have threatened to get me hospitalized if I lose weight so I’m gonna have to be SnEAkY",5.533735632183906,4.262065362068967,5.987931034482759,86.5668390804598,67.79310344827586,9.11264367816092,24.50574712643678,7.793537801064563,0.8766712643678152,213,3,50,2,3,69,44,58,0.19899999999999998,0.746,0.055,-0.8591,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,3,3,4,3,0,0,3,1,5,3,0,0,0,5,13,5,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,7,1,6,9,1,5,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,1,4,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312342403983732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735726922097053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22269427399313385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20872334876813595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759511029833004,0.0,0.10657158295989333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290302716175544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210254884049548,0.16627162993389455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4564048232885546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32563116069526915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695875842261012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250926798179797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031319913572693,0.0,0.0,0.4967874815966254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ch3rryk1tt3n,2019/07/16,"[TW FOR NUMBERS] just general venting This post is probably way too long so I'm sorry if anyone reads it lol. I've had a bad relationship with food for a while now but it really developed into actual disordered behaviors a little over a year ago. I've always been overweight (was obese even, in elementary school, which the gym teachers so sweetly pointed out in a slip they had us bring home to our parents. Thanks!) I still am overweight according to my BMI and I believe it, though I also know that I have quite a bit of muscle, so I'm not sure how that factors into everything. Definitely doesn't help my brain feel any better lmao! What is logic? I have never heard of her.

Anyways, while I started to restrict and overexercise last summer, it was starting college that really propelled me into it. It was a perfect situation. I was unsupervised, busy, could nap instead of eating, say I was ""too busy studying"", and always walking to class etc. I noticeably lost weight, which seemed to pleasantly surprise my family.

Then come Spring semester, I felt like I had no control over myself and was just bingeing constantly. I have a meal plan while at school, 2 meals a day, but I would get the most high cal options and my school serves you the portions and they're MASSIVE, not just to eating disordered eyes but to anyone. They're just ridiculously large and I guess I was raised not to waste food so even though they're enormous and nobody should be expected to finish them, I always eat as much of them as I can because I guess I feel bad about just..throwing food in the trash, especially because my mom is paying for it. Like my brain just cannot even comprehend that I can...throw food away, even when I'm absolutely miserable while I'm eating it and feel sick. To me, this was not imagined at all, and I was genuinely overreating every day and gaining tons of weight. I still believe I literally was. I didn't count calories every day, but when I did, it was often in about the 2,200-2,300 range!

My family's scale broke, so I haven't been able to weigh myself and I've been going based on vision and pictures alone which...is a horrible idea when you have BDD, so I never know what I look like. But people have continuously commented on my weight loss. I didn't understand this. I thought to myself ""What are they talking about? I've gained it all back and then some?"" I thought they were referring to the weight loss from my first semester still, and I always found it just incredibly strange that they would mention it when I've gotten so much bigger since then. 

I even had my brother's grandma see me after a while and say ""You've lost a ton of weight!"" (In front of a whole room full of people I didn't know) And even go as far as to say out loud ""Hey, you're not one of those anorexics, are you?"" Which was obviously a deeply uncomfortable moment for me lol. My mom and I talked about it when we got home later (She isn't aware I have any issues. I am hesitant to call it an eating disorder because I just feel so much like I'm faking it or not suffering as much or not small enough or something and I'm definitely not losing any weight at the moment...well to my knowledge. She just won't get a new scale dammit! lmfao) and she basically said that she was frustrated that she said that to me because she's ""already explained it to her! I told her what I tell everybody, that it was through making better food choices and walking on campus,"" Which made me think like...Wait, everybody? How many people have been asking you about this? At the time I'm still convinced I'm at a higher weight than before I even started.

Then I went to my sister's house. Her gf commented as soon as I came in that I was ""so tiny!"" and ""you can really see it in your face!"" I stayed the night in the guest room and it turns out she has a scale in there, and it's possible it's broken, but I didn't want to ask and draw attention to myself. I get on it anyways and it says I'm at the lowest weight I've been at since like 7th grade. I'm extremely confused. To see if it's busted I wait until the next morning after a BM when I haven't eaten a ton of food and had a ton of liquid and I'm just in Prime Weighing Condition, and it says a weight that's 3 lbs lighter, which after consuming all that food and liquid the day before etc I thought was a pretty reasonable difference? It wasn't a digital one, if that means anything. Those good old triggering ones that physically move the numbers with the weight of you stepping on it. 

So it still might be broken, and I'm inclined to believe it is, but at the same time it would explain why people have continuously commented on my weight loss. Maybe I haven't gained it all back and that was just in my imagination. But I'm also deeply confused if that's the case because I don't understand how I couldn't have gained all that weight back while bingeing at school? Is that my imagination too? It's just so confusing. Either way, (TW NUMBERS) if that scale is correct, I've lost about 22-24 lbs in a year. I don't know if I have a point to this. I just feel very confused and don't know what to believe even now. 

TLDR: I don't know how much I weigh because my scale is broken. I thought I gained a ton of weight from bingeing but people kept commenting on my weight loss, and then I weighed myself on a potentially broken scale and it said I had reached a new LW but I don't understand how that could be possible. Just confused in general and venting.",4.112259487880299,5.31110899359561,4.963370817746998,84.12011314811168,71.1408966148216,8.205723418300577,27.193174053528203,8.620623168380586,1.8423574391698607,4322,146,876,73,79,1404,386,1093,0.11900000000000001,0.789,0.092,-0.982,2,1,1,0,0,0,138.0,3,7,6,20,72,36,2,6,46,2,82,41,4,10,11,169,158,100,0,15,41,5,20,5,2,6,4,11,4,0,70,47,36,4,34,3,1,11,29,21,0,4,56,37,119,15,104,90,26,127,0,11,5,0,60,50,0,22,67,592,189,10,0.035382221730144416,0.0,0.03452794446177581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031364204722675065,0.0,0.0,0.036645310992669086,0.03904516151389377,0.05659029986870374,0.11776337156066573,0.0,0.0,0.07218337225374116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04948014422269783,0.0,0.02911655372323625,0.0,0.06615520213768161,0.0,0.033242762026987074,0.0816202334888226,0.059085354456563176,0.1294120437647231,0.0,0.06021532933716879,0.15945459026237604,0.0,0.06258539962912456,0.03862822221423279,0.0,0.0,0.07899652210824874,0.036129204356022813,0.04046783572786513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030478651064498964,0.0,0.03823561192573356,0.03968417028173747,0.056499649947869574,0.0,0.0,0.09127442367108572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03696689098598649,0.12165327442403802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810242300563811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03655929331129106,0.07892106019406382,0.1869569900406384,0.0,0.05962209566071351,0.0,0.031799259432226334,0.0,0.06671041942017313,0.0,0.08945157211785977,0.0,0.03397248153425605,0.0,0.0,0.030096099728644493,0.2994902607332149,0.038794779863353175,0.0,0.0,0.05545725151995909,0.0,0.040217063985721634,0.029676928889105364,0.02829839494506428,0.0,0.07795501252540697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023715957400491323,0.03738325987667082,0.07098250657071582,0.0,0.0,0.040826333368562916,0.0,0.03994222159450207,0.0,0.036929846896470685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166708624270974,0.02884123311229451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371579787377357,0.03546228141677283,0.0,0.03131215281759212,0.029712155013069293,0.039583655694222085,0.11587162400155053,0.0,0.0,0.033479513707393736,0.02361790775232585,0.035872019375071285,0.035546197421763966,0.03854161211786007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03753494584954757,0.0,0.08287846091879876,0.0,0.03760570220093744,0.13005002051133344,0.0,0.05457790128613525,0.06834474045510484,0.037629394212562436,0.0332038182363074,0.0,0.0,0.04028289395155605,0.037127689775453145,0.0,0.07192772743032458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039287770027687616,0.0,0.0,0.12264788755246706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689527215947176,0.0797762774484661,0.03388638786802887,0.03599643963788031,0.038148019375101726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03763334809376837,0.03539179666184019,0.0,0.06800027176169322,0.03637881683929611,0.0,0.03798726471133897,0.0,0.0,0.10096978593784783,0.14068681429102067,0.0,0.14323478943028453,0.08458514930170498,0.03221064579981047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05853707888993232,0.039771099681659615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027238962906818726,0.0,0.03960750044173788,0.07513115595567611,0.037712740609933,0.1412814398938619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033347325249266764,0.0,0.0,0.05687777914390331,0.030925621326697256,0.03257519601770747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022671499013180482,0.06952570640902986,0.11235812728486096,0.0412633160542742,0.0,0.0,0.03380922913495416,0.0,0.0,0.03848569698165877,0.0,0.11050242192644726,0.04256045624330716,0.0,0.0,0.029194038453394067,0.020869351098193892,0.056169521405059215,0.0,0.6032041965779792,0.0,0.032799674023154625,0.03192695175891525,0.039502986989722835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540354545467838,0.0,0.0,0.04556998148501186
EDAnonymous,mjb_9798,2019/07/16,"My ex boyfriend made me happy and fat. Now I am single and fat. When I was 14 I started restricted eating, the military diet, endless journals filled with calorie counting etc. and then turned to bulimia.  When I turned 15 I started dating my first boyfriend. We met online, and he lived far away so my drive to get and away thin was that he wouldn't love me if he met me and I was fat. My body dysmorphia was the highest it's ever been, but it was all worth it because I looked amazing and he loved me. He moved to my country when I was 18 and just before then I started gaining weight, because why did it matter anymore? I have the most handsome boyfriend, who loves me so much and encourages my eating (he knew about my ED) that I ""recovered"", but now I'm binging and my dad is making comments about me again, but that doesn't matter either, my boy loved me and he thought I was beautiful. Flash forward a year and we break up, we grew apart, and he moved home. Now I am fat, I have new stretch marks and cellulite and fat arms and a stomach that I never had before. I look back on nudes I took for him and I was so fucking thin. Now I can't stop binging, and restricting, and now the disordered eating is back and this time I'm fat. Fuck. Thanks guys for listening.",2.5290411931818184,4.303152742187503,3.4216193181818184,91.25690340909092,76.265625,6.217045454545455,26.08948863636364,6.980632752743323,1.0441546875000003,986,37,208,10,22,314,134,256,0.044000000000000004,0.7659999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.9918,0,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,3,0,0,2,18,11,2,0,6,0,20,21,10,2,3,44,45,32,0,2,6,2,3,0,0,1,6,1,1,2,10,24,11,3,2,0,1,7,4,2,0,1,17,6,39,9,12,27,6,41,0,0,2,7,26,10,2,2,25,137,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599758665549853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219784435463042,0.17987732111569096,0.0,0.1426012323016251,0.0,0.19905674735822007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992145153797693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405171838515176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590523691362438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304465965163754,0.0,0.10580129815923077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949014289380717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21626402346998397,0.061109245915201935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581347571854475,0.0,0.1245111341743357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732516481130086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032820029165082,0.0,0.19644183629015055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42226095576866496,0.11067485929392884,0.07807486811639051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486300031782713,0.08598253754256728,0.0,0.09021041342167063,0.11296526884257495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24836472198066406,0.0,0.0,0.09778775486459157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768541225662208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285693361964137,0.06820307693565991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995212304043735,0.0,0.25444808640295186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424315353930088,0.0,0.0,0.10554247963349736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532145378453953
EDAnonymous,awokebeforedawn,2019/07/16,"40 day fast I've never fasted for this long before. In fact my longest was only...just over 48 hours. I'm documenting it here maybe to keep me motivated but I feel I have enough motivation as it is, I think  I'm posting this  mainly to ease my loneliness. I just want to do it so I'm doing it now. I've been planning for a while but have decided now is the time.",-0.18897435897435955,1.8924365128205167,2.918205128205128,89.57679487179489,87.71794871794874,6.030769230769232,18.923076923076927,7.3871296695380915,0.4616307692307693,280,8,64,5,9,100,54,78,0.049,0.821,0.13,0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,2,2,12,15,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,8,13,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,10,42,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897226005125446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958082499390733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518058822443416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721564417512844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335303287409262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026334304234063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013132516858714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420569768106821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26259843905521235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260848200340898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21816523214004144,0.0,0.0,0.19853607652090025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200823369654673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mineicals,2019/07/16,"Sometimes-safe foods? I have foods that are sometimes safe foods that will prevent binges and I don't feel bad about eating, but other times will make me feel horrible and trigger overeating/binging. It's annoying because that makes it difficult to keep a safe food with me when it sometimes, well, isn't safe.

Anyone else struggling with this?",5.965,8.272454532258063,4.4718064516129035,85.08770967741938,68.19354838709678,6.895483870967742,31.754838709677426,7.554174236665415,2.166021935483872,279,12,47,3,5,80,44,62,0.204,0.588,0.209,-0.5163,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,1,1,1,0,6,5,0,3,0,15,11,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,5,5,2,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,4,4,4,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418852393918028,0.16732801255873125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13635508783992692,0.09955084333719168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710452204286402,0.13642260786069646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514653535697588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7898891587327352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515536569298632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21801828326382897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230309340594507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072464053523104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522601898383364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683321291404544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inpatientbitch,2019/07/16,"i got into the uni I wanted but I’m most excited about the discount on gym membership so the price is usually really steep but as a student I’ll be able to get a significant discount, and the gym is also really close to where I live which I’m pretty glad about because I won’t have to freak out too many people with how sweaty and awful I look on my way back. I’m really excited about using the rowing machine again!!! do you guys have any recommendations for cardio? rowing is all I ever do honestly because I have 0 stamina",3.6573130841121504,4.9569481308411225,5.947745327102804,76.24255257009347,72.3644859813084,9.088317757009348,26.45911214953271,9.516144504307137,2.4524214953271017,418,14,79,10,8,148,71,107,0.068,0.715,0.218,0.9546,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,11,5,0,0,7,1,10,1,0,2,2,14,18,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,9,4,13,15,2,11,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,1,4,54,10,1,0.2387062679472393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19089331623520805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232844779083852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835503855928496,0.0,0.2910262506983218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592348555002835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471417276455248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091520870998016,0.0,0.0,0.23635673461375206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107820078989736,0.0,0.2004531453658572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24201068926825076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548887027249198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428500909547438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587640430109752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061655733736596,0.2629012299763676,0.0,0.1407951415014252,0.18947392463431847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kayIee,2019/07/16,"RANT - food shopping struggles i just moved to a new city and today i went food shopping with my family. i told them i only wanted to get a few things like granola bars and fruits and veggies, super low cal stuff. but they kept pressuring me to buy high cal things like lunch meats and avocados and bread and pasta. i know things like turkey and avocados are high in protein but the cals scare me so much, i literally wanted to scream. all i wanted was some safe foods but now i’m surrounded by high cal foods i probably will let go to waste. ugh.",3.3663888888888884,5.198550268518524,4.2770370370370365,85.77166666666669,74.0925925925926,7.392592592592592,23.11111111111111,8.167268648758528,1.1925111111111115,431,12,87,7,9,139,72,108,0.19399999999999998,0.687,0.11900000000000001,-0.8468,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,1,3,11,0,3,3,0,4,9,0,0,1,20,14,11,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,8,9,2,1,3,3,3,0,6,0,0,4,2,13,5,8,8,4,12,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,6,49,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603618693122542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6466603536202349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985036300689085,0.0,0.07598221444844742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237698012574513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347553177898446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671267232324028,0.0,0.1959505546833241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209712226285526,0.0982815508464305,0.0,0.0,0.12912391435453704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168142658518954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414632505105762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385248501786062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976752965862002,0.15304932242638733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664639811249928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267276693466511,0.1277517473369427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365711496651101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393703659478048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-L-I-V-I-N-,2019/07/16,How to reset I have been drinking tonight and I started ordering uber seats and I’m like 3000+ calories in. I feel sick bloated and disgusting how do I reset I feel the world closing in on me I’m so ashamed,-1.0175000000000018,0.8691317954545461,1.3049999999999995,95.5025,106.04545454545456,4.0181818181818185,25.95454545454545,5.985473137389443,0.975963636363636,165,9,35,2,8,55,31,44,0.237,0.708,0.055,-0.8478,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,8,8,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,1,4,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5937664985403374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6129446072931538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29611944156253844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42901460339955705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bingcess,2019/07/16,"I literally cannot take a shit without the help of a laxative Eg contact laxatives,suppositories or even enemas
Anyone else out there like me lol help
I have tried prunes and prune juice and even lactulose but it doesn't help",6.00062015503876,7.4320005348837235,6.739534883720933,72.27271317829461,66.90697674418604,11.314728682170546,30.6124031007752,11.20814326018867,3.7473472868217055,185,7,34,6,3,61,37,43,0.147,0.718,0.134,-0.1363,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,1,3,2,1,0,0,6,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,1,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20825618700247192,0.3051715940626709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488065451229971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39344014140385214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5989062809247512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550925383925978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305727795639156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22393811213264905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221335667163315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28710648894829593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sidetoad,2019/07/16,"Love/Hate Relationship with Life When Eating Over 1200 Calories In the full-fat world

Colors are as abundant as

Calorie-ridden crevices

It feels good - too good

Till I wake up

Covered in sweat

And vow never to come again.",3.1182926829268283,6.11814912195122,2.573853658536585,91.21443902439024,82.17073170731706,4.255609756097561,22.83414634146341,5.6839178017228535,0.3138448780487804,178,6,32,1,5,52,38,41,0.0,0.858,0.142,0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,5,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,9,3,0,10,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,4,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060940691488216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363601676958934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17967065303101584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5960849057448803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250987251592496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207083523800177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740602242356895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3815023311471586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Apathetic_Proton,2019/07/16,"Stupid trigger that led me to relapsing TW for numbers.

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Sometimes I'd like to separate my ED brain from my body and ask it, WHY? I swear the stupidest thing led me to relapse. 

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It was just a doctor's appointment where my doctor expressed concern over me losing 15 pounds. You'd think that that would make my brain happy to see a lower number on the scale, but nooo. I can't see a difference in my body *so the scale must be lying so I must lose more weight ;adskfjfskklgs*. 

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I managed to make it 7 and a half months in self recovery only for me to fail. I hate my body and I hate this. Why can't I get off of this ED ride? I just want to be happy with myself.",0.755356695869839,3.1505135886524838,2.4574718397997515,92.21647058823532,86.87234042553192,5.303462661660409,20.350855235711308,6.794906146795322,0.39234384647476,540,17,114,7,17,177,84,141,0.214,0.7090000000000001,0.077,-0.9717,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,3,5,9,3,0,7,0,9,8,5,5,2,17,19,6,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,9,4,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,6,0,1,1,3,20,3,17,12,1,10,0,3,2,0,4,6,0,0,2,72,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477192093457825,0.38995575638301133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000635208183893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564723607117847,0.0,0.2388369696688876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176517630832776,0.0,0.21898506822112526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05588955709992068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22775185780131796,0.0,0.21122957272719425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0522621465052581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393533315674268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281209772134576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538571373215299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135863082878629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17048903081688255,0.0,0.11159732655406386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10580012976730396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106884510959663,0.06854469004014288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309610147670333,0.0,0.0,0.13026564656391298,0.0,0.0,0.19305499040616247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759913382600469,0.0,0.38995575638301133,0.0
EDAnonymous,leavetheredhen4,2019/07/16,"I don’t want to be fit I know it’s a big trend right now to look super fit and toned. I feel like the most idealized figures are super in-shape, toned, and muscles with a big booty, small waist, and strong thighs. I literally don’t want to look like that at all, and I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I much prefer the delicate, small, straight look like the Brandy Melville models. I want to be thin but not super sexy and fit and strong. I don’t even want the tiny waist or toned muscles. 

I don’t know if this is a weird personal thing or if it’s unspoken societal pressure as a woman or if it’s an ED thing but it makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me for not liking or appreciating the super healthy/fit look",3.1023885918003566,4.015763588235295,3.9482709447415334,91.52903743315508,73.24836601307189,7.3937017231134865,23.713012477718358,7.686295010490155,0.7649137254901959,571,15,133,7,11,183,76,153,0.12300000000000001,0.599,0.278,0.9598,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,7,3,16,0,1,10,0,9,3,3,1,1,35,23,16,0,9,11,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,9,2,0,7,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,0,7,12,12,10,21,3,12,0,0,4,0,3,11,0,8,6,73,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062378773623832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16265807696564027,0.2298181515467747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651917913654732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929084157327881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5402836286167324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736657182177667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824099758606735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14044533126168393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736239559300842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382782158159872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137191003983055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794867364298941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517217258975866,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinacoladassuck,2019/07/16,"What do I do now? Hi, long time lurker here, I’ve always been too scared to post anything because I was terrified someone I know would find out but, seems like that’s down the drain. My mother confronted me about my severe bulimia about an hour ago. I told her I couldn’t talk to her about it, even though she dealt with it as a teen, I just felt so bad about it.  So I called two friends, one of which also dealt with an eating disorder at my age, so we talked about it a bit but mainly just beat around the bush because we were hella uncomfortable about the topic. The other friend, bless her heart just put up with making small talk over my gagged sobs for 10 minutes. I didn’t have the guts to tell her what was going on. My mom is looking for a therapist or something for me to talk to. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I was absolutely blind sighted by this but I suppose I couldn’t just go from a BMI of 21 to a BMI of 19 in less than a month without anyone noticing. I just want to be alone and cry and reread the first Harry Potter book for the thousandth time and pretend like everything’s normal but given my past suicide attempt my family wants to make sure I’m okay and I don’t think they’ll let me be alone in my room much longer. Does anyone have any advice? My eating disorder and the solitude it brought have been my only comfort for over 6 months and I don’t know what to do if it’s suddenly taken away from me overnight. Has anyone else been in this situation? Any replies would be so, so appreciated. I’m just...scared.",4.099125979505729,4.710357797468358,4.767179023508142,87.68571729957806,70.70886075949367,7.6646172393007825,25.49065702230259,7.62386473244151,1.080265702230259,1208,33,262,13,21,388,177,316,0.163,0.731,0.106,-0.9665,0,2,1,0,0,1,28.0,2,0,1,3,23,12,1,1,16,1,28,5,2,2,1,42,47,20,1,9,12,2,1,2,2,3,1,0,1,0,14,13,2,0,6,2,0,4,7,4,0,3,13,4,37,8,46,25,4,31,1,1,3,0,21,14,1,3,14,174,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703273467145998,0.08802157530647307,0.0,0.0,0.2056853046134076,0.0,0.07940847513196814,0.08262378697169158,0.0,0.0,0.1350519207673792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777255332557261,0.10174240789128304,0.0817136907782631,0.0883961615336856,0.0,0.0,0.09329362268312733,0.0,0.08290957833609712,0.1210621264646732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840756208070278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013942330151766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907405352645463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276079360888532,0.0,0.08689623997374374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032130326796954,0.08295063332377617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558531024236518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892425277016575,0.0,0.09360919970137144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534153243022964,0.0,0.09075645923996643,0.08446272214199674,0.0,0.0,0.15343458452648107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286654189146993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766846052360512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977884052966752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914303098072227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101538805297225,0.0,0.09702385244302864,0.0,0.0,0.08787549506233441,0.0833852065794519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325642058636184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629647162350293,0.15851723367423493,0.0,0.07299536382486903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729083501795277,0.0,0.11305128935585973,0.0,0.0,0.06728681026255585,0.07552050882281322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479105791769364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509991622499718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982179109697288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941449599232108,0.0,0.0,0.09039705645360713,0.0,0.11217833525600546,0.0,0.0,0.1116149724376583,0.0,0.0,0.08413476764552856,0.07644435578624416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861575905854524,0.0,0.093587072481251,0.0,0.0,0.3990593548001356,0.08679071988518708,0.0,0.0,0.11529248679495975,0.0,0.06362606912384333,0.09755965847898287,0.0,0.115802779429005,0.0,0.0,0.09488337532131608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699959578116764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570537900094024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571960849282987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107672346655858,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nocares1,2019/07/16,"Kleptomania/Shop lifting Anyone else have this problem?

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I have always had tendencies but they really came to light in the last year or so in my recovery after hospital. It's genuinely just food because if I am going to binge then noway am I paying the suffering.

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But it's now just for the sake of it. I get strong urges almost anytime I walk into a store. I don't want anything, have no intention to go in a second before but then all of a sudden I get taken over and have to do something. If I am in a store then it's practically too late. I go in with the intention of buying stuff and if I feel I can take something then I HAVE to just to breath e.g. I'll go into buy something I can't lift or for someone but if I walk past the chocolate aisle then something is finding its way into my pocket/bag. Can avoid the aisle (barely) but not everywhere they place things. Could even be gum.

I have a huge sense of guilt and fear as I do it as getting caught and charged is the end of my life, my career and everything I've worked nearly 3 decades for. I only take food items and usually from big chain stores. If I feel I am about to get caught (have had a few close calls) then I'll drop and dash/pay for something and walk out smug as if I did something good..... even though I only did it as I am being watched.

I don't want to justify it. I just want to stop but I can't and don't know how. I go out with every intention of not going into a store or acting but the moment I ""sense"" an opportunity it's done before I even know what happened.

Anyone else had trouble with these tendencies or something similar?",2.812165073084952,4.301248011869436,4.194098252555225,87.22386306187497,74.8160237388724,7.129091108913068,24.647653588306408,7.793537801064563,1.2035060775909427,1288,41,270,18,27,426,159,337,0.10800000000000001,0.85,0.042,-0.9518,0,1,7,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,2,3,13,10,0,3,16,0,32,4,1,4,1,61,56,39,0,11,23,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,14,20,2,2,5,0,7,13,8,7,0,1,10,4,34,3,42,43,3,49,0,1,1,0,3,17,0,11,17,189,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490706111896505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055383733851116,0.27561668346804824,0.30909512441310105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185772452235168,0.1737590967417037,0.06977669093616154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051688490031141135,0.0,0.14430369970006893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658223600507288,0.09697959769823854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676996091276359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677177911552443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416658738398751,0.0,0.07510065168960943,0.0,0.0,0.16801318894597575,0.0,0.07144101910941167,0.0,0.07620569104751374,0.0,0.0,0.09541470988840524,0.08574688832683622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749846257748594,0.0,0.2050619388957514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720153450665355,0.0,0.2891358988531724,0.07111960827208047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498139268832629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931990645391778,0.06911689577768762,0.09564920592374347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05989118275772658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897645800311525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094367405069115,0.0,0.0,0.08858971950177821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113460849894119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05432000402465306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184408907582324,0.4569398219191387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089001000769772,0.0,0.0,0.09706669236093997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750624516586073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563321175837967,0.0,0.08330782850083078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338654208822256,0.0,0.1500377697984374,0.06730403900763056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061729674054684665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30909512441310105,0.05460334599126549
EDAnonymous,SourRoach420,2019/07/16,"How I started restricting again while in a period of eating normally 1. Wait a year for boyfriend to get out of army. During this time you will be emotionally abused, lied to, cheated on, sexually assaulted by boyfriend’s friend, develop a drug and alcohol problem, disappoint your parents, fuck up your 4.0 gpa, throw away dreams of medical school, deal with boyfriend’s drinking problem and untreated mental illness. All because of fucking love.  

2. After the sexual assault you will turn off your feelings and start heavily restricting to get your mind off of how fucking stupid you were to even get into that situation. To forget that your boyfriend doesn’t give a fuck that his best friend did that to you. You lose a lot of weight and are now underweight. Your parents notice something is wrong when you come home from school sometimes. They say you don’t look well, sickly. 

3. You barely make it a year but you did. Boyfriend is out of army and now you can be together. It goes well. You stop drinking and partying. Jealousy stops. You slowly gain back some of the weight you lost. 

4. You finally trust your boyfriend. You put everything into him. Your last drop of energy and love. You start to talk about moving in together and getting a dog for the coming school year. Boyfriend gets evaluated by the VA after being out of the army for a few months and finds out that he has major depression and anxiety and might be bipolar. You realize that explains his behavior from the past year. 

5. Your boyfriend suddenly tells you he is leaving to go to California with his friends instead of moving in with you. You are crushed. You tell boyfriend to stay. He leaves. 

6. Boyfriend turns around 4 hours into drive and comes back. Tells you he loves you and he wants to live with you after all. You are still crushed, happy that he’s back, but know in the back of your head something isn’t right. He tells you the next day he’s leaving this time and not turning around. You are crushed all over again, and finally done.

7. You aren’t sad anymore. Just empty. You have no energy. You don’t want to work out. You don’t want to eat. Just lay in bed and sleep all day. At least I can restrict again and not have to try. This is what I wanted all along anyways right?",3.0019106957424704,5.65187354205608,3.1450342679127736,89.45458670820355,78.76635514018692,6.701640706126687,25.632606438213912,7.870641169985416,1.5565895534787115,1788,69,347,31,45,545,212,428,0.158,0.726,0.115,-0.9034,3,0,6,0,1,0,57.0,0,41,1,5,23,27,8,0,16,0,30,21,2,3,5,72,64,23,0,7,6,2,3,0,3,3,6,1,2,0,13,35,7,6,5,3,0,9,9,16,2,0,5,5,49,11,64,52,11,72,0,5,1,7,71,24,4,3,37,225,62,5,0.0,0.08337458463747853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520200191520998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383133468893442,0.0,0.06978615701098655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252848947419101,0.0,0.0,0.06611306133181452,0.21643462309912148,0.0,0.042895685480580856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384688464630397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184742821631525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076308950040997,0.07254632798215553,0.06060786350165915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201090500588175,0.0,0.13786771992751065,0.0816045506967099,0.14400808229528145,0.0,0.07915453945227216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046477406641684316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324222961504641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035580179943256636,0.0,0.0,0.15416942976998316,0.06431508589145392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16309844883516345,0.260216363682228,0.1838219032490156,0.06750340674894255,0.03999176145043247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490805463834467,0.0,0.0,0.07221787895465051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705848510208915,0.0,0.06929831483635455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03867241775826998,0.05735931966454313,0.0,0.2235286852787927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06213624162153165,0.0,0.05909140537373901,0.0787238032304599,0.07681499487529972,0.059824365323235575,0.19052962786888586,0.0,0.046971192781485545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07088836651693085,0.0709144028792931,0.07464933795281235,0.07105162996621321,0.0,0.05616707386125359,0.14958011575681734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483717644865162,0.0,0.06894570880168706,0.0,0.08011444525217704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627069419334605,0.0,0.06717422740786624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466536343637925,0.0,0.07073928535781157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018779131806526,0.0,0.055959465547711966,0.0,0.2136485472559322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909659102190984,0.07041882847041125,0.0,0.0,0.10834546322062913,0.06959576073593987,0.0,0.14942051799412198,0.07500293540323764,0.056195983313102174,0.11766161368511142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056559140571796486,0.2460189677183351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820643044893683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047775259397135963,0.2296205630759959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601950078515962,0.0,0.0,0.1713785567241581,0.12653858286122555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05122874902078208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693637187185258,0.0,0.18125876414014094
EDAnonymous,mementomori1791,2019/04/02,"Concerning school Controversial, but I'm 16 and I'm really glad I have no friends. (Yes 0 friends.) I sit alone outside in a corner and listen to music. **Any metalheads here, these are my favorite bands**: Satyricon, Carach Angren, Death, Obscura, Darkthrone, Carcass, and Children of Bodom.

I eat safe foods (carrots, spinach, cabbage, bananas, grapes, etc) and drink either a Monster or water so there's no pressure to eat cafeteria food + snacks like everyone else. I just put on headphones and enjoy the scenery. My campus is surrounded by a beautiful forest too.  It just feels calming taking a lunch break alone, away from all of the anxiety and stimulation of the classroom, and zone out. I become one with the music, the nature, and it helps me cope.

On the rare occasion where I **did** eat at a table with other people, they always commented on my food or told me how thin I was.  I couldn't take it. I'm pretty sensitive as it is. Decided to stop the bullshit for the sake of my own well-being and mental sanity, and just be a loner. It feels natural to me anyway, my mom said I was always a horribly shy and anxious kid.

Some people think I'm rude or stuck up, or that there's something wrong with me. But most students just don't like me and call me a ""mute"" or a ""school shooter."" Although my social anxiety is crippling, there are slight benefits. I'm just grateful I never face peer-pressure or have to assimilate to a certain group. And I don't have to deal with bs like social media, fights, or drama. I just focus on my studies and hobbies.

 I live in a suburb outside of the city, where there's nothing to do if you're a young person. There's only fast-food, grocery shopping, and the occasional bar. No entertainment, no venues no social gatherings, just houses and stores and a shitty park. You have to drive for a good hour to go the the city. **Every** student here is smoking weed, juuling, fucking/cheating, stealing, or just messing around in general. I don't want to be part of that. (Maybe the weed tho but you get my point)

 I'm pretty independent. I like being in my thoughts. Being completely alone gives me tons of time to daydream and create stories. I'm a writer, bassist, and guitarist, so I really cherish my space. 

Thanks for reading. Off-topic, but I just wanted to share my thoughts. Any other introverts or people with social disorders out there, feel free to vent or comment",2.1143021978021963,4.878299081318684,3.450398351648353,84.79647664835167,84.56043956043956,5.975274725274726,25.04807692307693,7.379519244027581,1.5891923076923078,1882,77,335,31,56,612,246,455,0.158,0.664,0.17800000000000002,0.9463,0,3,2,1,1,0,99.0,0,2,1,0,26,24,2,1,28,1,22,13,1,3,3,73,47,40,1,4,25,1,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,3,10,27,12,2,7,7,3,3,10,6,0,1,8,6,38,19,46,34,8,31,0,0,0,0,27,21,0,13,9,219,48,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710455459934777,0.0,0.0,0.14517199462471875,0.0,0.0,0.11864474768275393,0.0,0.13346813296331494,0.09855002584409688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765709826039972,0.0,0.0,0.08195957718154331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634352562547972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890760614452343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146359396619164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993482146665921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997816393284907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854564877545966,0.0,0.26778766474923016,0.07287313579031482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728939970411436,0.0,0.0,0.07349873255210528,0.08335619412385828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13232497991085715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219366630375916,0.0,0.13479414038330076,0.0,0.04557636619300195,0.0836831718877723,0.049577311853282915,0.07316806412846236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058471370081156035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590829813303406,0.10065676907483552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047325838689392,0.0,0.07702956100295248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876386657863847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791174329226847,0.0,0.0,0.1021678585077766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728053627487758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370374604458068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911227756418973,0.06634568144787256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446633905630177,0.0,0.1814320181550944,0.07616970102546976,0.0,0.0,0.08246469136926123,0.0,0.0,0.1774974636804576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769465218003465,0.0,0.0,0.08725799281493939,0.0,0.11176916280891323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297987751297355,0.0,0.0,0.17657171160842774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556978831679528,0.0,0.06715729219173262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293185275243967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13117880356404593,0.0,0.0,0.08031370227449107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055896272147409776,0.0,0.13850871653957844,0.0508670719684964,0.0,0.0,0.08335619412385828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290620199805174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843418939872199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537710675431453,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poppybasket,2019/04/02,i don’t want anyone to know but idk it just hurts that i’m too big for people to even suspect i suffer from ed. i passed out at a clinical site because i had not eaten in a couple days and they assumed i had passed out from seeing blood or something. i’m aware this is bad and awful and if i was scary thin and they did know why i really passed out i’d be even more embarrassed. i don’t know i just feel so isolated feeling so f*t and disgusting while restricting on and off and still maintaining the same 18/19 bmi fluctuation. it’s like i’m suffering this much for no change in either the recovery or opposite direction.,1.7811237980769228,4.024596835937501,3.5531250000000014,87.12552884615386,80.640625,7.688461538461539,22.346153846153847,8.617729084823388,1.5752612980769232,497,16,103,12,13,166,86,128,0.32899999999999996,0.627,0.044000000000000004,-0.9931,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,8,7,1,1,4,1,8,3,1,0,0,28,19,14,0,2,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,10,1,1,7,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,5,4,11,1,14,13,4,17,0,3,1,0,2,11,0,4,4,68,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17676909988617914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110839628262718,0.154109295422702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674371434640657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797270349607026,0.0,0.16304012415920033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33395435043773497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556544510543154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27063599092308616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4168096851407635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350912689076655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858428299036524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526510503294432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195515757094378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20145509464032071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19462380437697266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018926448416048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491125972565016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228119728153258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nordic_alien,2019/04/02,"[help] Exciting News - getting married!... but now I’m freaking out. I honestly paused the moment I was asked because I realized I’m too fat to even try on dresses right now.  I should be happy but I’m freaking out. 

I don’t even know where to start.  I’d like to lose weight in a healthy way but I’m also short - about 5’5-5’6 age about 150 lbs..... my highest weight ever.

I usually restrict a lot and then eat way too much and rarely go to gym.  I tend to eat low carb and then eat way too many and my water weight explodes upward.  But I hate meat/seafood. 

I need to be able to be a size 2/4 again on my wedding day.... please help :( where should I start? Anyone want to be check-in buddies? ",-0.2316938616938629,1.9795528741258792,1.4537878787878782,98.78957070707071,90.1888111888112,4.296658896658896,19.83255633255633,5.82211442006289,-0.2304651126651125,523,17,121,4,18,169,86,143,0.163,0.674,0.163,-0.3923,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,1,14,9,1,0,4,0,8,8,1,0,1,20,22,11,0,4,4,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,2,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,3,13,4,15,15,2,26,0,2,0,0,4,10,0,1,13,64,13,0,0.141581572141879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132227320898475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899712717712196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13235965784529788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630681226504748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09130840128028546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43461988253812817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870265862242051,0.1280686377003066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397052788023975,0.0,0.08046407019684021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071621624366655,0.0,0.13978249076668944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979828679049354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780952937118793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916960458707687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15839356406316685,0.0,0.1203675896300933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354149204541225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407874610876247,0.10498094176961667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541405006361875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090988902059732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004243309567491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612459382585728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559320992204314,0.0,0.08350847950132609,0.33714258565947663,0.0,0.517224637713602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,super_throwaway_8118,2019/04/02,If I get high and take a laxative will I fall asleep and shit myself? I wanna eat and edible and I know it’ll make me eat. I’m already trying to lose food weight so I got laxatives (magnesium citrate). If I take the edible and eat some and then drink the magnesium citrate will I shit myself in my sleep?,1.6133333333333333,3.594130253968256,3.86373015873016,86.0632142857143,79.7936507936508,8.009523809523811,21.61111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.5693301587301582,238,7,50,6,6,82,40,63,0.17,0.83,0.0,-0.8823,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,3,0,3,10,4,1,0,12,10,10,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,11,0,3,6,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143178836901559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19025392241268968,0.0,0.5961823956371876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348420443604799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146780736456512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532915939651762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519574850154648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10673389204610848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21727366434600906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296380860114163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39871186312265533,0.0,0.0,0.19435235942461893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920466610695808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318572686828788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364980189078364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Crotchetylilkitten,2019/04/02,Do you guys punish yourselves by eating? I hate feeling full! Sometimes if I give into a craving I just make myself eat because I don't deserve to lose weight.,1.7408064516129007,4.4699042903225825,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,86.74193548387099,3.1,27.10483870967742,3.1291,0.7159612903225812,127,6,21,0,4,41,27,31,0.23,0.653,0.11699999999999999,-0.6842,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,6,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709129973338847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5945254908522055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468898384605984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27868224749581383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876491122917819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28681702313165364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32500472898023697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193916695502314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873203583666015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35376111859143594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tennisskirt,2019/04/02,"I just went to the doctor and...I could really use some advice on how to make things change. TW Numbers

 I lost another 4lbs. I'm at my UGW but my legs still look enormous. My heart rate was 44bpm and my BMI is 16.4 and my doctor told me that I should start preparing myself for the possibility of taking time off school to enter an inpatient or PHP program. This is...not an option for me. I already took a semester off uni once before after a suicide attempt. I'm supposed to graduate in December. I'm so close to finishing but I think if I have to take another semester off I never will. When I asked what I could do to avoid hospitalization, my doctor just said, ""Gain weight."" 

None of the eating disorder counselors she knows are taking patients. The nutritionist won't take my insurance. My parents would be able to pay cash, but that would require me telling them, another thing my doctor urged me to do that I feel totally unequipped for.

I just feel like I'm at such a weird age and stage of life, like an adult and a little kid at the same time. Have any of you guys told your families about your ED? How? And how can I stay out of the hospital - at what point will I no longer have a choice? I say I want to recover but but I don't know if I really do. I don't want to go to the hospital but I can't allow myself to gain weight. I don't know how it got this bad.",1.4435866261398154,3.5298237588652523,3.401686930091188,88.61250000000004,80.91489361702128,7.149138804457954,21.77355623100304,8.192908349453996,1.1576662613981767,1068,33,231,22,28,360,154,282,0.10400000000000001,0.8290000000000001,0.067,-0.8841,1,1,0,0,0,1,34.0,0,3,1,5,12,6,0,1,15,0,23,10,2,7,2,46,52,20,1,9,12,1,4,2,0,6,5,2,0,3,10,7,3,2,6,0,2,4,8,4,0,0,8,7,40,2,33,35,4,29,0,1,1,0,15,14,0,5,11,152,50,9,0.10320513721283704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008508656330131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388943527267707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018303235968336,0.3246587549680291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648287162455883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617197869125763,0.0,0.0,0.08781997035059153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917735065834187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16480180837200753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828202851968013,0.4225393244537908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560462055948308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729261834226788,0.0,0.10436723668443333,0.07372977064621226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058653857841375674,0.0,0.08254257619781448,0.0,0.0,0.10218931172926704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229858451057353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015653309399284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07289684055193901,0.10084163389870113,0.10343866044963997,0.0,0.0,0.08666632238077901,0.0,0.1126605987357206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889023049059301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959816421343296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991010288036876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459709137030885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756221351451268,0.11634828535065958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223170723423291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817171922802484,0.08207286746253993,0.0,0.10444910871870226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304912731317209,0.11000294438843254,0.08241975589368221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288966923925048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103896765850085,0.0,0.09020583887457884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371298145862493,0.06612968468519179,0.0,0.0,0.12035949092506712,0.0,0.0,0.19723386273171434,0.11466470485293355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913610217095196,0.0,0.0,0.12174612776206692,0.0,0.0,0.251352106998783,0.0,0.09567219616432444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662793675190944,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mangpd,2019/04/02,"Karma? I said fuck my restriction and bought cake and frozen lasagna.... halfway through I burned the shit out of my fingers when I tried to take the wrap on top off in the middle of microwaving the lasagna. This is binging karma but it won't stop me stg. I'm sick of counting calories I'm sick of feeling so bad about food every day I'm SICK OF NOT EATING. 
Anyway thanks for listening lmao I'm gonna go eat my feelings away now",0.7142045454545459,3.151575647727274,1.8777272727272736,95.84909090909092,87.97727272727272,4.5636363636363635,22.772727272727273,6.1124844417494595,0.36282727272727294,339,13,72,3,11,107,65,88,0.256,0.621,0.124,-0.9536,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,2,0,4,0,2,9,2,0,0,9,16,5,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,3,3,2,2,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,2,5,7,1,14,12,0,12,2,0,0,1,2,7,2,0,4,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418803633616053,0.0,0.2149578755474737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603231363011006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5268660469036341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169105887032824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603463424557779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31130649059186033,0.0,0.0,0.23800602835571896,0.0,0.0,0.14631332442090916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24489148937507485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642661181136943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21523760432926894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356845021985628,0.0,0.0,0.2370230320495644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747899260734026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkspicelatte,2019/04/02,I turn 25 in 9 days And I won’t let myself celebrate unless I can drop 7lbs 🙃,-1.8063157894736823,-0.3473039999999976,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,89.0,5.905263157894738,14.76315789473684,7.1686216300943375,-0.3392315789473685,60,1,16,1,2,23,17,19,0.125,0.655,0.22,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39656762103274396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6287895802301294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6688481036397184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkblink,2019/04/02,"I'm sinking deep I used to use peach while I was having a mental breakdown but I became so ashamed of being publicly expose there that I haven't logged in in a month. I feel like a failure for giving up on the only app I felt safe on but that's not my biggest problem right now.

Yesterday I saw a post here about someone who broke a rib while purging and today I felt like that something like that was gonna happen to me. The cookie I ate wasn't coming out so I just continued to force myself to puke it. Meanwhile, my belly was making some loud and painful noises and I couldn't breathe afterwards. 

I was so scared that I had caused some internal damage but even more scared to be forced to go to the hospital and having to admit what I'd done to end up like this. 

I've had this disorder for years and at this point it seems like I'll either die from it or live with it the rest of my life (which we'll be pretty short anyway). ",4.423923076923078,4.510802533333337,5.149551282051282,87.08586538461539,69.82051282051282,7.730769230769233,25.993589743589745,7.1686216300943375,1.0515897435897434,734,19,158,6,12,238,122,195,0.22699999999999998,0.631,0.142,-0.9763,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,10,13,0,3,9,0,16,5,2,4,0,29,32,14,1,2,7,0,3,5,0,2,2,1,0,0,15,8,1,1,5,0,0,2,4,7,0,0,12,5,19,6,24,14,5,26,0,2,1,0,5,13,0,4,15,108,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465241964125635,0.0,0.13806762193039204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634605082228007,0.0,0.1836955564320284,0.0,0.0,0.16402279380147045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14196111722039126,0.0,0.0,0.10586388388527286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104273259411646,0.11450455672738424,0.3077891949077962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375584246822388,0.09109120961062916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141735684541981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321099117857353,0.3915252444173016,0.0,0.14153078545887432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698860495611656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615252367689955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279345173293389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190068702016567,0.1705499544400361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515170590374758,0.0,0.1535045950310841,0.16306308334465452,0.0,0.1533669736362928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368788332212114,0.0,0.0,0.3209378631084285,0.0,0.0,0.14591352015582093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580530822872028,0.12339190551563355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192735268007415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768621081561992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321550914003702
EDAnonymous,flora_bazilik,2019/04/02,"Do you ever spit out your food before swallowing so you don’t completely fall into binge mode? When ever I try not to eat, I always end up with massive cravings that need to be put under control or else I know I will binge. It is usually worse when I feel bad for things happening in my life and I just wan’t to stuff my face into food to feel less sad and empty. I know I will eventually fail and binge when I am sad and hungry, so to prevent that when I am in the verge of giving up and eating a mountain, instead I prepare a small portion of food that I crave and I chew but spit it out of my mouth before swallowing. Sometimes it is hard to resist swallowing but generally it works for me and I don’t start to binge uncontrollably and I don’t have to purge afterwards. 

Am I the only one doing this? It is not something I ever heard other people with ED talking about so I wonder...",3.0559890109890087,4.376528554945054,4.7162637362637385,84.40373626373628,73.89010989010987,7.397802197802199,24.538461538461537,7.957251820313856,1.3070065934065935,695,21,142,10,14,235,101,182,0.1,0.883,0.017,-0.8989,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,3,13,5,0,1,4,0,15,14,4,1,3,32,25,18,0,1,6,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,12,14,9,2,5,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,1,4,25,0,25,21,2,24,0,3,0,0,6,11,0,2,11,108,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762879774878568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803566961745865,0.0,0.0,0.2405860736529445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482207725234946,0.0,0.15855528516332096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893077840790221,0.1180941182678931,0.0,0.12520933944406604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836240556926195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295896247559048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.512825175346824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561225670846508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501050840282374,0.0,0.12663720365087955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538338276989755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985180238664028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482195426678004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579404292188734,0.10751609171881324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800618557727306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211303676858034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883134258778493,0.1398157311651688,0.0,0.10006040000861696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183157081997984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362556439498192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391805628137452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597901874455253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569594916643836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533066494114921,0.10291697260403317,0.0,0.14406520840399545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,popcornkitsune,2019/04/02,"why am i jealous of my friend's gastric ulcer my friend was taking prednisone and ibuprofen at the same time (NSAIDs + corticosteroids should not be mixed!!) and ended up with a gastric ulcer. she has barely been able to eat for like 2 months b/c she feels sick and it hurts. 

i feel so fucked up for feeling jEALOUS but i wish there was something that could force me to stop eating. i mean i don't ACTUALLY want an ulcer but like... im jealous of the weight loss + not being able to eat, ya know?",0.8255610561056095,3.213601712871288,2.1796287128712883,94.42673679867987,86.32673267326733,4.158745874587459,19.307755775577558,5.46131890053228,-0.3268422442244221,387,11,82,2,12,124,73,101,0.214,0.705,0.081,-0.9196,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,2,10,4,0,4,0,10,10,0,0,0,19,19,6,0,4,4,0,4,2,2,1,5,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,3,4,11,4,11,12,1,7,0,2,0,1,5,3,1,0,6,48,13,0,0.3486924987508475,0.0,0.17013678964158638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920129344284696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351992160997926,0.0,0.0,0.15441902823818304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26446410660861164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693989595657631,0.16118029816954496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18664126587128885,0.0,0.18832386729205933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581613910840876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035354175122686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991417692423854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916151289122025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422026055628222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576127118612334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108668187186898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166270006620713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028339350371861,0.0,0.0,0.2123067625862196,0.0,0.0,0.1573203722369597,0.0,0.20048958253196106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cyprinids,2019/04/02,Living in student housing hell Ok so I'm in a student apartment with 4 random people and their SOs they have over all the time and hello??? This is the worst thing?? I'm a masters student and they're all bachelors so I'm already the weird old one and none of them talk to me but the worst possible thing is mealtimes. I physically CANNOT cook anything when someone else is in the kitchen and theres someone in there ALL THE DAMN TIME I'm starving sitting in my room rn and cant make my pasta because they've been hanging out out there for ages so I'm making this post instead pls kill me lmao ,1.5618158890290057,3.89112004918033,2.7716393442622973,91.90633669609082,82.11475409836065,4.737452711223203,25.778058007566198,5.8734145424116955,0.7230421185372014,474,20,96,3,13,152,78,122,0.20800000000000002,0.73,0.062,-0.9713,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,3,1,8,7,3,0,8,1,7,3,0,2,3,16,14,11,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,6,0,1,1,0,8,1,12,13,6,18,1,0,0,0,5,10,2,1,5,61,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534724555499235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901815444543069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001900721683605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187942034691055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26503542484635584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541217923503933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282354196136967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066443493032233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24102465789342825,0.0,0.15564623961069984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924053081390102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25894487505576386,0.21998285087308506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892370630573291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461891034438785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30519626995306715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678722187046839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evanm137,2019/04/02,"Anyone else relate to being attractive people making you want to restrict? Just for context, but I am a male, and I'm in my early 20's and about to graduate college in a few weeks.

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But whenever I'm at the gym or just walking past people on campus in general, I always compare myself to others and think that everyone else is so much better looking than me.  I will be at the gym and say to myself that I'm the ugliest person there and that because of this I don't deserve to eat.  Being around attractive people with better looks and/or better bodies is a trigger for me to restrict.  Does anyone else have this issue?

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I know it's due to insecurities that I have deep down, but I just wanted to know if anyone else struggles with this.",6.978243243243245,6.516574797297302,7.650675675675679,73.16155405405406,64.54054054054055,9.291891891891893,32.68918918918919,8.472884824447931,2.6759027027027025,602,21,104,7,8,201,87,148,0.109,0.764,0.127,0.4142,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,3,7,7,0,2,6,0,10,2,1,2,0,26,21,11,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,9,8,1,2,3,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,13,5,24,17,2,14,0,0,2,0,4,9,0,2,4,79,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899228087144783,0.25780713633684754,0.28912229796082417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495590404489959,0.3656954027765172,0.0,0.10590821325459908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252279558422854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31565696751539657,0.0,0.13214846351348927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411114413214677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173565473741482,0.39753551336324655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368060075794932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417340733597207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076521875844965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19980908870867764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941316648223755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745638299707456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356999447029698,0.24743573093022145,0.1038797111977357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460944231224906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437291128504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07623094917704062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403427662193261,0.0,0.0954302786448439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28912229796082417,0.0
EDAnonymous,crueltrashcan,2019/04/02,"planning shopping trips and feeling absolutely dysmorphic cw for weight

i convinced myself not to get delivery yesterday and saved myself like $25, plus with an incoming tax return i’m so tempted to refresh my wardrobe and makeup, but only if i lose weight in the next week and a half/two weeks as motivation. plus instead of groceries it’s teeth whitening strips and diet pills on my list. i just want to lose the weight i thought i would last quarter, and now we’re starting spring term. 

i started winter quarter at around 128 (awful, i felt like a sausage) and dropped to 119. my therapist has told me for two years i’m not allowed to go under 105-110, so i absolutely just want to balance right at that. i’ve had my period and have avoided scales like the devil this past week, but i want to lose another ten pounds at least this quarter but i still feel like an absolute BLOB. my legs are so short and stubby and i’m terrified no matter how much weight i end up losing they’ll always look and feel terrible. i don’t see any differences and i feel like all the restricting is for naught because it’s happening slowly and i still feel fat",4.767455357142854,6.051461549107145,5.252142857142856,82.34285714285716,69.66964285714286,8.457142857142857,30.517857142857146,8.841846274778883,2.4356214285714284,913,37,175,16,16,292,143,224,0.163,0.7190000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.9625,1,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,6,11,14,0,1,8,1,8,9,3,3,1,44,29,24,0,5,8,0,10,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,17,6,2,8,1,2,2,4,7,0,5,4,12,23,7,23,23,4,32,1,4,2,0,2,10,0,1,24,104,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640105247681229,0.0,0.0,0.07061300698619945,0.10888258962270013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243731946149478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329832802999254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848800422937764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196913438661272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625166000009476,0.1483629485557144,0.09970020799877312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542507667174185,0.0,0.059013199262957824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182308842204301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464135707417743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536485942391132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719728147935744,0.4646700538594829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633245208861421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104322751953616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897303772957118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912456775051064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867659013743036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274498062482047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699332200025975,0.0,0.1658493970136486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056324899712548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243531348569304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922110557729458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028681442110535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373800364197496,0.0,0.24987634713995602,0.5057840190358254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376312460518845,0.0,0.0,0.06686789465136161
EDAnonymous,JustSwootyThangs,2019/04/02,"Fake sick. Fake recovered. Real weight gain. Ugh y'all I am struggling today.

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I've posted before about how it was much easier to starve myself when I hated myself. I've also flirted with the idea of purging but I reached out for help and y'all talked me down. I think I need help again.

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I got down to 99lbs when I was at my worst. I used to be fat (BMI 34) with big boobs, so I was looking a bit baggy even at 5'1"", but I didn't care. When I started ""recovery"" (read: eating whatever I wanted because obviously that's what recovery is, right?), I gained about 7-10lbs and was admittedly looking a lot better. I still don't care that my husband thought I was a little too skinny at that weight; that's honestly when I feel I looked my best. I stopped weighing a while ago because I didn't want to be triggered, but now I am truly terrified to know how much I've gained (my guess is about 20lbs, but again, I have no idea). My clothes are starting to feel tight. I hate the way my stomach looks. There are some specific items I can't wear anymore because they look and feel way too snug, including my favorite pair of jeans (which, to be fair, I couldn't wear at 99lbs either). The point is, I'm unhappy and want to fit back into my clothes. I don't feel like that's too much to ask.

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But I don't know how to lose weight without starving. I have completely forgotten.

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I feel totally powerless over food. I want to start dieting this month with my husband (who has also gained weight), but it's like I don't yet hate body \*enough\* to say no to high-cal/low-nutrient food?? Anytime I try to count calories, even at maintenance, I get anxiety and don't want to eat at all! But when I'm not counting, I just eat whatever I want?? Where is the balance here? I'm trying to be patient but I keep beating myself up.

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If you have any advice, I am very much in need. It will also help me immensely just to hear from anyone who is also struggling with this regardless of whether you have any suggestions. I feel very alone and sad.",2.727681159420289,4.606096574879231,3.716256038647344,88.90163043478262,76.0048309178744,6.918840579710146,26.234299516908212,7.793537801064563,1.4424618357487926,1618,61,334,24,36,520,205,414,0.215,0.659,0.127,-0.987,1,1,0,0,0,0,90.0,0,4,1,8,32,19,3,2,8,0,34,19,7,5,3,65,76,30,0,11,15,2,11,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,14,12,13,3,13,1,0,0,13,11,0,0,9,18,56,8,43,61,14,41,0,2,5,1,18,19,1,4,21,217,70,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800792675386149,0.05262089242795705,0.0,0.0,0.06148120077599744,0.0,0.189887300391458,0.0,0.32159388456765786,0.3606570564240039,0.08073648500547373,0.0,0.04541182027085892,0.0,0.0588712213414301,0.04150733885147772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055495521184376936,0.0,0.0,0.045645766825974605,0.0,0.10855969877186727,0.0,0.05051274845930345,0.0,0.06229682902159508,0.05250092598496437,0.06480800465981014,0.06593787639054784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210471711520176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06223999989062781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822266488988432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133688571369258,0.0,0.07841617337798068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800914741710975,0.042408273923872586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356169882750688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031014230950909213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0474772693729907,0.0,0.06539401149479583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582325998336742,0.0,0.0,0.06690536601812408,0.0,0.11936743056919068,0.06271928505665234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402510055282246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052763734411156976,0.0,0.0,0.06524768129292291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580026167967836,0.05949638806983234,0.0,0.0,0.24924593602323525,0.06641097093353295,0.0,0.050467508219435436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04738223709418109,0.0,0.17455180388190794,0.08803244391491262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05611634268057163,0.0,0.056852452869192084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937813317576069,0.06756703048369836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050694882540311716,0.0,0.04720709985346863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126050333827642,0.0,0.04740662495004725,0.04962934770541616,0.0,0.1241162467213767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047712982432305165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03803681685225761,0.0,0.04712685194428793,0.0,0.0,0.056268300346553085,0.0,0.0,0.08060589638630593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051269768022345286,0.0,0.0979598475763722,0.2100797177335218,0.09423769452214442,0.0,0.2891480310198017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572229161340283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606570564240039,0.0
EDAnonymous,househippob,2019/04/02,"Professor noticed I'm failing He sent me an e-mail about how I'm still quite a bit below a passing grade in class and I am so fucking ashamed lmao. I've been so depressed and working part-time and just skipping so many classes that I should've gone to and half-assing my work. Responded with the truth, but god, I dread having to see him in person because I'm certain I would just start crying. ",10.328518518518518,5.89686728395062,9.507901234567901,74.98555555555556,61.34567901234568,11.787654320987654,43.049382716049394,7.793537801064563,3.61507901234568,314,13,64,2,3,100,62,81,0.184,0.6990000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.7639,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,1,2,4,0,4,1,0,1,2,12,12,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,3,1,7,2,7,8,1,8,0,2,1,1,5,3,1,0,2,35,8,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620229419896313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29017352751299164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29195751905527056,0.0,0.0,0.22892429022238905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457183066623623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26946905149684897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026033497355176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878243580108941,0.0,0.0,0.23207732528378405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282700076330965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117999892407274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812732677572824,0.0,0.2122600080260041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869961530071887,0.0,0.0,0.1888093861376168,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxthekitten,2019/04/02,"Want to lose more but my clothes won’t fit Hate this predicament i’m in. i went from a size 7 to a 5 and cause of my ocd dumb ass i love odd numbers. FINALLY fit into Hollister jeans and i’m living out my middle school popular fantasy with them, i bought like 5-6 pairs of the size 5 jeans. they fit good and i’m tempted to restrict more but i’m scared because i know the jeans won’t fit if i do. does anyone else ever feel like “they can’t” lose so much weight drastically cause they don’t have the money to buy new clothes? 😭 I just gotta either stay the size I am and never get bigger than now. ",-0.2727226463104309,1.772335061068702,1.8679083969465644,97.22562849872776,87.70229007633587,5.020050890585242,17.89363867684478,6.42735559955562,-0.2838706361323151,467,12,112,5,15,156,83,131,0.196,0.583,0.22,0.4126,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,4,2,4,10,2,1,6,0,7,3,1,2,2,20,20,8,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,1,2,1,3,1,5,5,0,0,2,2,14,5,12,15,4,16,0,2,0,2,5,9,2,1,7,56,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188458327429325,0.19325922119965355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497846749576113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875208556887984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16505899565939733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756433454278898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706138288578003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536983771831936,0.13474719624510195,0.0,0.20661943702558128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854399336872274,0.0,0.0,0.158202020664486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621909614431628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365833482751304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429634750698998,0.0,0.1665512453653251,0.0,0.0,0.4220257655037972,0.0,0.0,0.17023316276427147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386543473499628,0.0,0.1454721662635243,0.18216635693993088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888373635894472,0.19088930328671788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010393929769893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112505113324889,0.0,0.0,0.2296832839132454,0.0,0.1748487765357832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,2queer4ubabe,2019/04/02,Seeing a nutritionist after three months of doing things on my own since being out of the clinic. Can anybody else relate? So I went to a recovery clinic for partial hospitalization and then intensive outpatient from the end of November 2018 to the beginning of January 2019. (I was let go from the program too soon because of insurance.) After 3 months I'm finally making an appointment with a nutritionist. I should've seen one straight out of the clinic but I didn't because I thought I could do this on my own. I need the structure back in my life. I need the guidance. I have no idea how to eat properly or what my body needs. I feel like having the guidance and plan will help me to stop restricting as well like it did at the clinic. I should've done it sooner but here I am doing it three months later. I'm actually very excited because I miss having the structure to my life and being told what to eat but I don't know if that's a healthy thought to have? Being happy with having structure with my food again? Being excited that I will be told what to eat instead of guessing? Anybody else going through a similar situation?,4.034929292929295,5.939260836363638,5.267575757575756,79.06580808080808,72.45454545454545,8.343434343434343,29.494949494949488,8.998388855275968,2.6274646464646465,904,38,165,19,18,300,121,220,0.051,0.8109999999999999,0.139,0.9661,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,0,0,16,0,24,11,1,2,0,27,44,12,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,10,8,4,2,5,0,0,3,3,1,1,3,10,3,22,6,31,25,2,24,0,1,2,0,3,7,0,3,16,127,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.12843969193095753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120573164771622,0.0,0.2406984153327985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619736916336892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508586228677692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134690397005414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40403267619165817,0.21989906147029611,0.0,0.11657403702615868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654976161860311,0.09402756682225266,0.0,0.14418053557389154,0.0,0.0,0.159152400942458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496025144043002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499151266189006,0.0,0.0,0.14010927396784967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822043448717233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858013463023376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233353476942357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458780899551578,0.18593066236482786,0.12860332246757605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878557018973637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151674934395038,0.0,0.0,0.29277812099572664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891874228874926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104882105278254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887535438844917,0.1479435822344648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110038121714002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874408172663567,0.0,0.0,0.20897918308434166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515323192392165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859821989477364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833993726845154,0.12201073920382292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jellywalrus_,2019/04/02,"Exercising the guilt away I realise it’s just as disordered and much more time consuming that the way I usually purge but I feel better about myself that I exercise in order to eat. 

I walked 10 miles today so I could eat my favourite foods without wanting to throw them up. But it’s so addicting. I want to finish my food today and then go to they gym after to make sure it’s all gone... ",2.4566546112115724,4.352657341772152,4.046871609403259,86.14962025316456,76.84810126582278,7.552260397830018,23.943942133815554,8.418075326091056,1.5156423146473776,306,10,63,6,7,102,57,79,0.021,0.8640000000000001,0.115,0.7974,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,1,2,0,1,7,0,1,2,13,7,8,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,4,0,1,3,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,1,12,2,12,5,3,17,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,7,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634058065801934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18645098699569346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17551353769727354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844675435120933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22744172169173624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061292661150975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034264840058496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799348043168302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278411926360585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324673986962782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588411554649622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703745799896532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571821256592447,0.0,0.3762161626202393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185654346403194,0.0,0.23410275638703154,0.15752094691390198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129941538391165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obviouslynotarobot,2019/04/02,I just ran in the rain so i could get sick which makes me lose more calories How many of you have done that?,1.0549999999999995,2.313067833333335,1.3816666666666642,106.53,79.0,4.800000000000002,16.166666666666668,3.1291,-1.4619333333333335,84,1,23,0,2,25,23,24,0.23800000000000002,0.762,0.0,-0.7402,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,4,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,2,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689624166131721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729056153917895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414367942504412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5169901504451578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30846634723172106,0.4685135914871237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bitofawanker_,2019/04/02,"Is it normal to feel light headed and happy after purging? I just feel better about myself after throwing up, like my body is rewarding me for doing it. I feel like I'm losing it. Have I succumb to bulimia entirely?   ",2.884285714285717,5.180756714285717,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,77.09523809523809,7.057142857142857,24.785714285714285,8.07648339933343,2.013457142857144,170,6,27,3,4,60,31,42,0.052000000000000005,0.6409999999999999,0.307,0.9146,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,6,8,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,5,7,8,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771927404400642,0.0,0.3481367292593776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754206551487687,0.22390587300608228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336392758447449,0.0,0.0,0.3216572764277769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30624039483036664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506345589718448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070830829642521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happylilairhead,2019/04/02,"How do you deal with people that trigger you, when you’re trying to be healthy? I currently live at home, and my family loves to comment on how I eat. It doesn’t matter whether I’m a healthy weight, of if I’m underweight- they comment on my eating habits constantly. I try to stay away from processed foods, because it makes me feel bad, physically and mentally. If I eat 4 eggs; my parents tell me I’m eating too much. If I eat two cans of tuna; my parents call that overkill. It doesn’t matter that I avoid 90% of the food in the house. It doesn’t matter that I track what I eat 24/7, and I’m deathly afraid of being overweight. It doesn’t matter that I almost died, a couple years ago, because of anorexia. It doesn’t matter that I’m not fat (or even close to it) at all. It doesn’t matter. I always eat “too much”. I don’t know how to shut them down, or get the comments outta my head (because we all know that once you’ve had anorexia; you’re always going to look at yourself as fat, even when logically you know you’re not). It just doesn’t matter; they’re jerks about what I eat. They don’t treat my brothers like that. They just don’t. How do I cope with this, before I move out? It’s destroying my mental health, and it’s making the eating disordered voice in my head way way wayyy worse. I’m just trying to be healthy. My parents aren’t fat btw, and they’re not projecting their insecurities on me. They literally believe that I’m eating too much, and I’m not. I’m really not. ",2.777918023887078,4.122363071661237,4.043049674267103,88.85927592290989,74.63517915309446,6.8104777415852364,23.86658523344191,7.333567415737692,0.8460467969598255,1161,34,251,13,24,381,137,307,0.07,0.835,0.095,-0.1618,5,1,0,0,0,0,47.0,1,3,6,0,15,9,2,3,6,0,18,22,5,7,2,48,37,19,2,3,14,4,2,1,0,0,5,1,1,0,23,11,18,1,5,0,0,2,16,6,0,1,1,4,36,3,28,33,5,24,0,0,1,1,21,13,0,6,7,148,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557096843574682,0.0,0.07407142966267291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230998583858392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694983379576251,0.0,0.06176282718377465,0.13527639409213754,0.0,0.06294400725648044,0.08334016434880485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07553282282731394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993654310294608,0.0,0.0,0.08184767941431352,0.0,0.0,0.07626101587376276,0.0,0.0,0.0767703835029489,0.0,0.08477735567128694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7569096159196317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771450449000388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973342453305033,0.0,0.037402040088251605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889243583788672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038646877027508894,0.0,0.04203951377857936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183149765167325,0.0786278819463113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419910275094048,0.0,0.0,0.08535278481720712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195784183310987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036138571389488255,0.0,0.0653178877613371,0.0,0.062117142639088616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676185815545439,0.0,0.09875264477065013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909105819901472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861963451090022,0.16313193716374058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877686915224337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464086513120425,0.0,0.0,0.05128228714563708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0473878179784212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884341229196366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465405253533148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15066468213887946,0.0,0.07225907297275337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117429724351959,0.0,0.09007694254337947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538292957279387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047635000536312457
EDAnonymous,hunnyangel,2019/04/02,I feel the munchies coming on... And there’s nothing I can do to stop it. Goodbye caloric deficit I’m too lit rn for you 🤪,-2.78222222222222,-1.9051627407407388,-0.7238888888888884,108.2675,120.85185185185185,1.8,23.01851851851852,3.1291,-0.6274148148148151,94,5,24,0,6,30,25,27,0.19699999999999998,0.8029999999999999,0.0,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5324506769228232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31253712656228505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5930972735963218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5167711729742939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n34543,2019/04/02,Deleted Peach I deleted my peach and now I regret it :/ The community there was really supportive but I felt so insecure. I felt jealous/fat/ugly so I impulsively deleted my peach. I regret it now because there were a lot of people that I had saved as favorites because I liked seeing their posts):,1.5303968253968243,4.223469500000004,3.693809523809524,79.66230158730158,95.07142857142857,6.060317460317463,25.865079365079364,7.3871296695380915,2.1633912698412705,236,11,39,5,9,80,37,56,0.19399999999999998,0.602,0.204,0.1586,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,7,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,3,11,3,2,2,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,30,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38813896398990383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6113516209130475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553476000000516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706585396382824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22071094447767986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049011613873165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039497581894324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536919382757216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612714920295568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluebirdhall,2019/04/02,"BED is destroying my future I also posted this to r/BingeEatingDisorder. I’m feeling desperate and open to any advice. I really only see two options: Feeling miserable for the rest of my life, or just ending it now:

It sounds dramatic, but I am a student a I can’t even make it to all my classes in a week because binging fucks up my stomach so bad that I either can’t make it to class because I feel like I’m gonna puke, shit my self, or cause my stomach to tear. 

My grades are slipping and I feel like everything I’ve worked for is slipping away too. All because I can’t fucking control myself. 

I honestly think I ate about 1500 calories worth of almonds today. That wasn’t even the only thing I ate, that’s just the worst of it. My roommates and I have a pantry that we put our snacks in and we all agree that there’s no point in each person having to buy the same things and stash them separately, so we just keep them together and promise to restock a snack if we eat the last one. WELL. ALMONDS ARE MY ULTIMATE TRIGGER FOOD. Which is crazy because they don’t even taste that good and they’re so high in fat. I feel so disgusted with myself. I ate a whole bag of raw almonds. It hasn’t been opened before and I ate all 1000 CALORIES in a few minutes of me shoving them down my throat. THEN I felt bad about eating all of the almonds like a selfish asshole, so I went to buy a new bag to restock AND PROCEEDED TO EAT HALF OF THAT BAG and I couldn’t stop until I threw them away in a public trash a drove away. Then I went back to my room and ate a bunch of other foods because the damage was already done!!

So I have two options now. 
1. Either get my shit together before it’s too late 
2. Kill myself because I’m destroying everything I’ve worked for and destroying my future so might as well end my life too. 

As I lay in my dark room, in an empty house, I’m leaning towards the 2nd option. ",4.578797709923663,4.640019707379138,5.538743638676845,84.51819179389315,69.48346055979644,8.28027989821883,29.861005089058523,7.937092434478242,1.836386005089058,1487,53,314,17,24,491,191,393,0.198,0.718,0.084,-0.9956,0,0,0,0,0,3,34.0,5,0,5,3,25,23,9,1,21,0,20,23,6,5,5,54,48,29,1,2,9,0,6,3,0,2,3,1,3,2,19,20,14,3,7,0,3,5,8,15,2,4,14,9,51,8,42,31,14,43,0,2,1,2,13,20,4,7,20,213,70,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961258965901228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011982114930522,0.0733360666536172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06236221415054185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25847822868063924,0.07051511062623393,0.15313887725396033,0.33541332310766386,0.0,0.15606757398655474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420579697157734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028544101595925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938455568720989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815098354057601,0.0,0.0,0.1624459599908789,0.0,0.0,0.1817098996840935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483620794857146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318427882632273,0.13102744614240172,0.08805071455586369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217789244971366,0.0,0.0,0.16955869083298353,0.04791182356140067,0.0,0.0,0.07691739538880593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689085388858967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581469658532512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815111855441267,0.10145745750351752,0.0,0.0,0.07475141848702099,0.1034466860744799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954722041931546,0.13440657998899508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242695028385438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728399732989028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856879099542657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621413519668198,0.13949083040672278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007284435101149,0.0,0.0,0.0866904071772196,0.0,0.08782757487081022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218836545098147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587482598484164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307662457450634,0.0,0.09566780803474842,0.0,0.18826673142876266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666907989732358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184880841034038,0.05876054965693911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692515647320664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916396983469754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355982953934899,0.0,0.1649067425752808,0.17002200631272832,0.0,0.102384814839881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352395666527472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-dreams-,2019/04/02,"Have no clue how I'll ever get back to normal I've been stuck at this horrible point forever where anything above like 700 calories is a ruined day for me, and then anything over 1000 makes me feel like even more of a failure

Even worse I feel like a fraud because I know I could eat under 500 but I try not too because it makes me totally miserable

Anyone else ever gotten out of this? I've tried to gradually increase the amount every day until I get to something higher, but it's like some weird mental hurdle I can't get over",7.861111111111112,5.913274000000001,8.021037037037036,76.02766666666669,63.62962962962963,10.491851851851854,33.63703703703704,8.841846274778883,2.6805014814814814,424,13,83,5,5,139,76,108,0.18600000000000005,0.7120000000000001,0.102,-0.8166,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,1,4,0,5,1,0,3,3,17,15,6,0,2,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,2,9,4,12,11,5,15,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,1,11,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015072941588295,0.17606482741952068,0.2828104261117963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213018060522827,0.0,0.20949752266349747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719592494365715,0.0,0.0,0.2216381692772952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758296676366227,0.14354573715314908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22699023088615303,0.3108684195948327,0.14477803966569947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376944721883927,0.2455173078406329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269329417939189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443578794693852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357987724098763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22940182477619026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316883455678406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836139847644116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624392141675998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228665005730272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333287923056273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511411103101435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,solaris-et-lunara,2019/04/02,"A letter to my barista: I decided I would get coffee today on my free period. I only had about 20 minutes to order and then bust out a couple sentences in an essay, and know even if I didn’t have an hour to cozy up and watch the sleet fall, I could still enjoy my short break. Besides, going somewhere besides school and work and home is nice. 

You were probably a local college student. Not many young people are at work at 11:30 in the morning. That’s okay, I’m sure I looked out of place too. I definitely felt out of place at the counter— I wanted to try something ~new~ for spring, something fresh, maybe fruity. A place near me has a lavender mocha (which clocks in at around 300 calories), but yet I was standing in front of you, most likely with a slack jaw and glazed over eyes, calculating calories, measuring macros, testing taste. Coffee and fruit are hard flavors to mix, and yet I settled on a raspberry americano with a little bit of white chocolate. I know I probably annoyed you when I asked if you had sugar free versions of those. I know I probably annoyed you when I asked how big your sizes were, and then took an eternity to decide if I could spare the calories (I know I’m probably annoying you, right now, dear reader). I went back to my seat, in a small panic, thinking that you would somehow put non-diet water or high cal coffee in my medium americano, so I practically fell over myself when you called out my drink to say thank you, and offered what I hope was a gleeful smile of a soon-to-be-caffeinated high school senior. 

Later on I asked how big your bagel sandwiches are. Your menu didn’t have calories on it, and I wanted to know if I could treat myself. You kinda blew me off— ‘the normal bagel size.’ Normal? I’ve seen about 5 different normal bagel sizes with about 500 different calorie counts. As big as a tea saucer? A frisbee? I asked if you could cut it in half, so I wouldn’t gorge myself on the carby goodness. You kinda looked at me like I was crazy. I mean, maybe I am. Who panics over s bagel?

I guess I do. But I also spent five minutes looking at your menu board, then your rack of syrups, and then to the menu again. I’m sure most people know what they want. I’m sure most people don’t stumble over the words ‘for here’ or ‘thank you.’ 

Maybe you got up at 4:30 AM today to open up shop. Or we’re really hungover. Or maybe I’m the thirtieth dumb customer today. 

But I’m sorry you had to deal with my disordered ass today. 

(Sorry for dramatics)",3.4439002444479136,5.020223833671404,4.203691683569982,87.43924741249286,73.34077079107504,6.922536017059343,24.40573152337859,7.5161900641278425,1.0737519009725909,1942,58,391,23,39,621,245,493,0.07400000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.115,0.9419,2,0,3,0,0,0,70.0,0,19,1,2,22,23,5,2,25,1,28,10,3,2,3,73,64,38,0,19,13,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,1,0,9,22,7,0,11,2,4,7,5,7,0,2,16,14,65,18,63,41,5,82,0,0,7,1,30,46,2,17,28,242,74,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058487126482912384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510687268119167,0.2734905228568353,0.0,0.0,0.056237351992611685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984597090651993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07468040811942415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335737524210448,0.08092399930905762,0.0,0.0,0.0754003832489497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282387503114328,0.08382061312989637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164579661943833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048305880816769536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022238189380188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03821073330668474,0.0,0.04156508294816642,0.061343314935194765,0.0584938340406534,0.0,0.08056795401559576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551581962798225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454517497332448,0.07336173954737363,0.07264091492573665,0.07202458956231046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24116300862430556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146146957568708,0.07330185361828992,0.0,0.0,0.18424838592774426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414879720570516,0.2939012444771349,0.07966694461851648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063555925156292,0.0,0.0,0.21497433481249625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05562350296027278,0.0,0.1716195377629933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211064501413402,0.0,0.2292358125467149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154134951665913,0.0,0.0,0.07352224950720833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046853029637305435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245805803882984,0.0,0.05816097473247344,0.0,0.14803581648443148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260789728916187,0.0,0.1637403507938679,0.0,0.0,0.058406797376453365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679048185775506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466828160399796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046862831029966884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277298898246522,0.0,0.08125719507365689,0.04965479257955139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941317294253082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779814518181956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648829284595462,0.0,0.0,0.10390795384838868,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shardofopal,2019/04/02,"How do I trick myself into thinking I should eat food if I see it as a reward for good, moral behaviour and I am a shitty person? Does anyone understand my type of ED at all? My eating disorder might be a little bit different from most here, but I am hoping someone here can help me. My issues don't stem from body dysphoria, but from a very deep self-loathing of who I could potentially be as a person.  It's my inside person that I hate, not so much my outside. I've done a lot to improve my outside self, and I am at peace with her. 

​

I got overweight in high school and tried to lose weight, I tried to change my mindset to that food is a treat and that I don't need to be eating constantly like I do. Food is a treat, it's a reward. I don't deserve a reward everyday do I? No, because I am not doing something great every single day. This way I'd lose weight and become a better person. Basically starve myself into doing good things. Is that not an incentive, or what?

I managed to drop the weight by the time I got to University and become a little better of a person on the ride. However, I still have that understanding of food as a reward. If I do something wrong, or if I am mean to someone or if I havent done what I planned on in a day, I restrict. Because I don't deserve a reward for being a bad person. This has remained a constant in my life. I make a mistake on a test? No food. I upset a friend? No food. I got drunk the night before and made an idiot of myself? No food for a week, at minimum. Think of all the people you hurt. 

Its this weird fucked up form of self-flagellation, and I am spiraling harder into my ED than I have in a long time. I can't even bring myself to buy groceries, I don't deserve to even look at food right now. I don't deserve the calories and I don't deserve to do something I enjoy until I've earned it. 

Does anyone here also have this mindset? When I lurk I find that people feel this way a lot in terms of earning their food with exercise, so if anyone reading this does that, what are your go to coping mechanisms? What do you do when it gets really bad? ",2.4111688311688297,3.761470636363637,4.33103896103896,86.40227272727276,75.5909090909091,6.755844155844157,23.70779220779221,7.33818517376401,0.950351948051948,1640,49,344,19,35,560,193,440,0.191,0.662,0.147,-0.956,2,0,3,0,0,0,54.0,0,3,1,12,13,29,4,1,32,0,42,21,1,3,2,49,62,29,0,10,13,0,4,1,1,2,3,0,0,7,25,14,17,1,7,3,1,3,16,13,0,0,6,6,55,16,50,49,10,43,1,3,2,1,15,21,1,13,17,251,80,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046579338865248864,0.0,0.06310956233676601,0.0707753165617075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221809608818682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726602451624856,0.0710124933512983,0.1286563547955521,0.0495630918476487,0.0,0.0,0.10302778193809163,0.06358959243734068,0.06469822220061187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06161658944725321,0.0,0.0,0.1258865585615204,0.0,0.046504725134796136,0.0,0.0,0.07512775722641135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060854717010723626,0.06675501050664635,0.0,0.15291451200113254,0.11921184743081314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788007267856187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694192301979512,0.0,0.04907480264426936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02945094900980582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053235827310914974,0.0,0.6338821083426441,0.0,0.04500074768109008,0.053847527405316266,0.030431153007691617,0.0,0.03310256803555675,0.09770803338471128,0.1397540423585305,0.06421646709918592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05750590790975955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03904109428061935,0.061540141463222724,0.0,0.0578514622836898,0.0,0.0,0.06235359279702664,0.0,0.0,0.06079373520986678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041140902112076605,0.02845607407424172,0.11675567204125616,0.0,0.051545914408475405,0.048912005767120466,0.13032484481505127,0.0,0.09903740427892516,0.0,0.055113813414615416,0.0388796854243979,0.0,0.0,0.06344701531590974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06178984617756859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042817542857234714,0.04318870222279689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465996486455865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076094353509787,0.3051491841153546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582618043582245,0.0,0.03731390607772811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974180174685113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05894810426561725,0.04641455445465471,0.0,0.1822899748629891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870336499969808,0.1345219466783203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651536450207697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03869608227067416,0.07464342387781576,0.0,0.0,0.06792747116220316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909047850118955,0.0,0.0,0.12127236807449684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480590847944166,0.0,0.09246599426033512,0.04672146166724199,0.2127839632981064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368290347634471,0.0707753165617075,0.0
EDAnonymous,biryaniluver69,2019/04/02,"I just c + s’ed in the break room at work while someone else was in here (thankfully it’s a big break room). 

The store bought pizza for us today and I couldn’t resist it so I took a slice, c+s’ed, drank some kombucha, and went along with my shift. No one saw me and I am relieved bc doing this keeps me from bingeing ",2.493134328358209,3.492137716417912,3.197194029850745,96.0071343283582,74.82089552238807,5.957014925373135,20.86268656716418,5.6839178017228535,-0.20854985074626864,245,5,58,1,5,77,55,67,0.037000000000000005,0.92,0.043,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,9,11,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,2,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,6,1,8,2,7,4,1,12,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,1,2,36,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868381573731401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051993967943779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23267362644349485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909328205881633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31612519651297505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254707331856636,0.0,0.3814921591750725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130269112205401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31830363785055743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24997447135509646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Exoarmyl,2019/04/02,"I know I won’t be skinny for prom But you bet your ass I’m gonna be skinny for my freshman year of college. Gonna walk in like a whole new person, and I’m gonna love it!",-1.489285714285714,-0.2791049285714262,1.7097619047619048,101.50607142857143,86.38095238095238,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.3824952380952382,131,2,37,0,4,47,31,42,0.086,0.741,0.17300000000000001,0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,4,10,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,4,4,1,4,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,1,3,17,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531854459094053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22507188158422534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157944394414552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449412619667764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4022603449182007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5143485443246452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966719155669769
EDAnonymous,LemonyHummingbird,2019/04/02,"Is anyone else’s brain not very nice? I know many people who have eating disorders have a distorted way of thinking about food and their self image. My brain, however, tonight has taken to be a giant asshole. I’ve had an eating disorder since I was 14 (18 now) and I’ve been recovering from it for a few years. Everyone has relapses in recovery and I’ve had maaaaany but this one has been the absolute fucking worst. All I wanted was to take a shower and relax but no. In my experience, I’ve had voices in my head screaming at me about making sure I don’t eat and they decided to have a party tonight. I can’t stand my own body and how fat and meaty it feels. I know I’ve gained weight from when I was at my lowest and they voices tell me how I could’ve been beautiful if I was smart and didn’t let anyone find out. ",2.4286050420168053,3.967680835294118,4.138655462184875,87.01823529411767,75.94117647058823,7.680672268907562,23.319327731092443,8.418075326091056,1.3162857142857147,642,19,138,12,14,216,105,170,0.12,0.752,0.128,0.5402,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,3,1,6,7,1,0,7,0,22,11,5,3,2,26,31,15,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,4,10,6,0,6,1,0,0,5,3,0,1,12,5,19,4,15,17,4,14,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,1,5,90,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103654704227088,0.15413123343096571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670915646412031,0.0,0.3358547311476204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010449470910935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448069753326236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617761073087222,0.12566326758980506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374037309982596,0.0,0.14714742087133612,0.0,0.0,0.07606090218303099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374884406061091,0.0,0.18189810009619867,0.0,0.0,0.13906823557401032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15438249710360735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534255807498055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382279253987294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041183898649668,0.15251035237257338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193388651156203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428781470483542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692918126774724,0.0,0.0,0.12443557240282856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417765827809179,0.0,0.11310311348348767,0.0,0.1314806773647377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638817004312383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411883047765378,0.08872631497250845,0.11940272183335032,0.0,0.18318074360576314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687068159202274
EDAnonymous,wwchim,2019/04/02,"Does anyone else get inspired by their fat?? About half the time, I'll look down and see my fat and be disgusted. But then other times I'll get super motivated and I wanted to know if other people felt that way too? 
For instance, my fingers are really fat. Half the time I hate them, but the other half they make me really happy? Because i can see through all the fat and see what I can become, I guess, and that seems more real than thinspo because it's on my own body. 
This is something that's started happening pretty recently so idk if this way of thinking is going to stay or not, but it's a nice break from hating myself 24/7. ",5.9641071428571415,5.365564250000002,6.66017857142857,79.88125000000002,66.65625,9.189285714285717,29.223214285714285,8.418075326091056,1.9788558035714283,496,14,99,6,7,164,86,128,0.10099999999999999,0.773,0.125,0.6442,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,3,2,3,7,3,0,5,0,6,6,6,2,1,23,24,13,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,5,4,0,6,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,1,6,13,4,11,22,3,13,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,5,6,67,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298442301252334,0.1655635636629303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700218913160691,0.17845862287240116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948519767346888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140466553863434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498405184057038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514753583481952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688436351799927,0.0,0.09183283195848256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800477847186258,0.0,0.14288963069764132,0.17201089785620202,0.0,0.319064694438478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880323128115278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569122496899835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785965651795527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202312383288188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16439066728206408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839198118960704,0.2070317724516067,0.0,0.1595463065590849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862884572958592,0.14710148030986955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243965051368898,0.0,0.0,0.11437113397393868,0.1722287719638306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353754117224867,0.0,0.0,0.28266562451753713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530738559947738,0.25651828896363604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,artheau,2019/05/07,"Currently on low restriction mode! I’ve been eating somewhat normally in the past month. It’s coming to bite me in the ass now because that “normal” is way too much for me. I only had 1 meal yesterday, and I haven’t eaten anything today either! I lost 4 pounds and I really want to maintain and lose steadily. Which means OMAD and that meal being low caloric. 

I also had a couple breakdowns last week because I kept thinking about my ex and how much I miss him. I can’t really tell anyone that I’m dealing with my melancholy through my ED. And I can’t keep telling people how much I miss him because that’s all I ever talk about and I really don’t want to annoy the few friends I have. 

I also think I’m really emotional these past few days. I’m hoping my eating habits and my productivity for school will become routine so I won’t feel so sensitive about everything. *I just want to cry*",2.6879958100558667,4.679746972067044,4.2647451117318464,84.41264839385477,76.48603351955308,7.156564245810058,24.595321229050285,8.07648339933343,1.5290136871508382,704,24,137,12,16,235,107,179,0.14300000000000002,0.784,0.07400000000000001,-0.8959,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,13,9,1,0,4,0,12,6,1,2,2,30,30,14,0,6,2,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,10,5,3,4,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,6,1,25,2,14,21,8,18,0,6,0,1,8,5,1,2,11,88,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782739915301404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085770624451432,0.0,0.1069302980659008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376323198242357,0.14350952725530994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193258906779767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437771465005668,0.14273398917311425,0.08380113784854977,0.133963373549801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26592398346417395,0.0,0.14616603530113131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175389932527118,0.0,0.0,0.1167825121641811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570202888670043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039202550252872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12906064401643907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549745211675498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591918544345497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537064180584292,0.14184585407599118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415437455571593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037175954477691,0.0,0.28656456232295624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546290074151807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882591817355624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480866053309481,0.09008466659755984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329738996428603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150713914129825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044415821837183,0.227148167174598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166521777963406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316879003152993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299275478736608,0.10314104689643873,0.10423076088542793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emeyea11,2019/05/07,"Desperately need pooping-related help (tmi warning)
I will need to eat a lot the coming days, lets not go into why but its v important. The problem is that i cant have a bm in the morning anymore. I used to have a bm every morning, the same time. Then i could go on with my day, eating breakfast or weighing myself before eating if i wanted to.
Now i cant. I wont have a bm until sometime in the afternoon, which means i cant eat before that. My stomach is so bloated and its too uncomfortable physically and mentally. I also cant weigh myself and know my ""true"" weight anymore. All of this fucks up my whole day, and the fact that i have autism and find changes really difficult doesnt make it better. 
I havent really changed my diet a lot lately. I have however started to eat more in the evenings and less during the days, but the difference isnt that huge. I have continued to take a magnesium pill every morning and one every afternoon, like i usually do. I also havent changed any exercise routines, so i dont really know why this is happening. I just want it to go back to normal.
I dont have the ability to go to a medical professional, so i would really appreciate all the help and tips i can get 💚",3.9814741896758723,4.87362513061225,6.068955582232896,77.22012004801924,71.16326530612244,9.683073229291717,30.33013205282113,9.916854025145753,3.0122388955582236,947,39,186,24,17,333,125,245,0.109,0.8190000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.8653,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,1,10,6,1,0,18,0,27,15,1,2,4,38,46,19,0,9,6,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,11,11,10,0,4,1,0,5,12,3,0,1,0,1,27,3,18,41,8,27,0,0,0,1,2,7,1,4,16,134,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094572756054256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417926551543247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871922834110639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256971339738487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061492372694194,0.0,0.0,0.08346835679969608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995135123371354,0.08129700974670029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535196657451902,0.0,0.0,0.2434601746353465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986033696318494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22121714197747866,0.0,0.0,0.4828536723668962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062334797106765365,0.0,0.2385488492481322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625842360043262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724956600442177,0.049307833077459284,0.0,0.21454539020850388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345683923978879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651717530805145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037337273645468,0.0,0.1064608180241777,0.0,0.0,0.0965063792985973,0.0,0.046107597373582436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047107375050199,0.0,0.0,0.06299705563327783,0.0,0.0,0.10280369066755876,0.0,0.09507440847828612,0.09510932805496908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995797789820924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246894523759387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06395196805775727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030557763077582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24184004488868044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933407850918031,0.0,0.06680018203653253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07095939287970211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05503170400072052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151100594972999,0.10394239625039606,0.0,0.1113314257935365,0.0,0.0,0.11492516831037555,0.0,0.0,0.17032024828357556,0.10536800698728907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704236742402912,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Call_me_Cassius,2019/05/07,"PSA: you will shit yourself in public (CW: laxative purging) If you abuse laxatives. It will happen. Probably not right away, but eventually. I guarantee it.

You'll have a couple close calls, maybe it'll happen right before you leave the house, or you'll only let a little out but realize what's happening and make it to a bathroom, or you'll almost trust a fart but remember and hold it in, and you'll think ""oh these are those experiences those other ED folks were talking about, so lucky they didn't get me!"" But you won't be safe. Eventually they'll get you. You'll shit yourself in public.

Maybe it'll have been days since you last took laxatives, so you think it should be out of your system, but it's not. Maybe you'll have just taken laxatives, so you think it can't have taken effect yet, but it has. When you take them all the time and they build up in your system, the timing becomes too unpredictable. You will never be safe.

If you've never abused laxatives, don't start. If it's a new habit for you, stop it now. Because eventually you will shit yourself in public. And the worst part will be it won't be enough to stop your from continuing to use them.",3.407388926862609,5.183198597402598,4.2208430166324895,86.45577580314425,73.84848484848484,7.633720665299612,22.54750512645249,8.371475516178862,1.1842935064935058,920,24,188,16,19,295,117,231,0.14,0.7979999999999999,0.062,-0.9570000000000001,0,0,0,0,2,0,35.0,0,21,5,1,9,8,3,0,9,0,34,3,3,3,3,41,49,20,0,4,14,0,0,0,0,17,0,0,0,0,18,8,0,5,6,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,6,0,28,4,16,20,4,30,0,0,0,0,31,13,3,7,14,128,46,0,0.0,0.2842737560066804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012590280493447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127094566504537,0.0,0.0,0.07312850601335677,0.13249002494222492,0.10207992112855636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224959282527345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132737094813872,0.0,0.07736639550061912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395414319950378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734711338209515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535173182597004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182494142967565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384215260833447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778608981338036,0.0,0.12702379911042572,0.0,0.12267058824435835,0.0,0.0,0.1202347285952101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007642529294517,0.0,0.361557736461036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504616415713435,0.115861289674992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123748516332933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299085489815214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293407128014263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589501820015518,0.2048959824669105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694217691312645,0.0992348702889504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491063165780552,0.0,0.0,0.20058935828891708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019746185983077,0.09642194558908126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306028903211265,0.0,0.0,0.13990311419663662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328362536321228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360976259719758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dyhdfukbvff,2019/05/07,Jeans win I relapsed hard about a month n a half ago and fit back into my lowest weight jeans. They are tighter than I want but they used to not button anymore. Have been struggling losing the last 10 pounds to my goal weight n really needed this!!,1.4933333333333323,4.095667755102042,1.8031632653061216,96.68052721088438,85.73469387755101,4.082993197278912,16.329931972789115,5.46131890053228,-0.7252476190476194,196,4,40,1,6,59,41,49,0.20600000000000002,0.693,0.102,-0.7494,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,3,2,3,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,6,2,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,6,1,5,5,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304611885334269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578354530823599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19991256683143613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328956681960421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119226334798045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908569312836163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20751770204292505,0.0,0.0,0.19277572764381826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16655317305575887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27179297438634337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22454373403947053,0.0,0.0,0.1533460038453968,0.0,0.0,0.6331838535630743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bakedalaska1,2019/05/07,Temptation Rant On hour 48 of a 72 hour fast and someone just brought cookies in to work 😭. Pray for me bbs,-1.3532608695652186,0.5278205217391303,0.5046739130434794,101.68570652173914,104.65217391304348,4.039130434782609,23.14130434782609,5.985473137389443,0.33987826086956474,84,4,20,1,4,27,22,23,0.09699999999999999,0.81,0.09300000000000001,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,9,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8698335866165792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37419184042441295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215120497796765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,h0ngry,2019/05/07,"Woke up and saw a thread on a particular sub that I love to hate-read. Now I’m mad as shit and my day is ruined. Some highlights from this cursed thread:


-~wE hAvEn’T hAd A pRoBleM wIth UndERWeighT mOdEls sInCe tHe 90’s !!1!1!1!!1!11!!11!1!1!1!1!1!1!1!


-Some fucktards debating a poor, sane soul, on whether a (clearly underweight) model was underweight or not. Said fucktards estimate her BMI to be around 19. Lmfao, you fucktards, my BMI is 18.6 and I look like an absolute lard ass. Anyone smaller than me is CLEARLY underweight, yet who am I to say, I’m just a fat fuck in denial I guess. 

It pisses me off that these people claim to be the champions of health and fitness, and created a whole sub with the premise of shitting on fat people under the pretense of health, yet these precious underweight women that they white knight for are #Valid and #Queens and of course, never unhealthy. 


It also pisses me off that people go around this world thinking they’re #woke saying shit like “people are getting so fat that our society has a warped view on what a normal weight is hurr durr my BMI is 25 and people are always telling me to eat a burger teehee” then turn around  and say that they think all models are normal weight. Lmfao I guess these people see me and must think my BMI is obese.

People are so fucking delusional. I really just ruined my whole ass day seeing this shit. 😡👊",4.094487756121938,6.372869026819924,3.981246043644848,86.73074962518743,73.29118773946361,6.68472430451441,24.374646010328174,7.586124646067393,1.2190615025820422,1100,34,202,14,23,335,148,261,0.155,0.731,0.115,-0.9128,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,2,1,2,1,11,16,9,0,15,0,19,20,11,0,5,36,39,17,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,1,6,4,0,1,16,16,7,0,3,0,1,1,3,12,0,0,6,12,22,4,27,30,5,22,1,2,6,5,14,14,10,5,9,127,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916161891696348,0.08236693535368371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921554276972093,0.0,0.0,0.2643640962034374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767967585045178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10129065332898166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302782082897295,0.05171776577953841,0.0,0.05625783748422036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180955043009471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977313306355805,0.0,0.21044175855896527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096722235506808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312598794505076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934160813648326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634656527575764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397677623213305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4803864797004099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947192853751553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901597717741263,0.0,0.06341500942668434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941613873176598,0.2361605293922079,0.0,0.0,0.1577631353922565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064439212017904,0.08188488031249576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652091457066892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028482647962505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767181249381098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410843294416497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22103578948459354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punk_wannabe,2019/05/07,i wanna f u c k i n g kermit my friend snapped a photo of me yesterday and the way i was sitting /truly/ captured the size of my thighs and arms and double chin and i just. i swear. i thought i was doing ok on body image but shrugs,-2.057307692307692,-0.2255109615384612,1.2411538461538465,97.74134615384621,100.92307692307692,3.3692307692307697,18.03846153846154,5.148860815047168,-0.5607000000000002,178,6,42,1,8,63,39,52,0.027999999999999997,0.879,0.09300000000000001,0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,3,3,0,0,8,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,10,2,4,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6317922584014096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394421212847332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515520039632133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514753060596186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,berthadl,2019/05/07,"I have a psychiatrist appointment on Friday and I don't know if I should talk to them about my disordered eating habits. \[Tw: numbers\]

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I'm obsessed with calories -  it's like my brain has been constantly in math mode, adding and subtracting and counting. Food has been taking over my life and it's so ridiculous. I restrict and then spend the rest of the day thinking about my next meal. If I binge I exercise so I can burn everything off. If I eat junk food (or anything calorie dense) I feel guilty and panicky, especially if it's something with no label. It has been interfering with my daily life. My partner is worried. My parents are worried. And yet...

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I'm currently at a 17.3 BMI, which really isn't that low. I haven't lost my period. I don't have body dysmorphia - I know I'm skinny (and, to be honest, I absolutely love how my body looks). I have never passed out. I don't really restrict that low (between 700-1100 calories/daily). I haven't been struggling with this for a long time (a few months, no big deal). 

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I feel like a fraud and I fear my psychiatrist won't take me seriously because it's genuinely not that bad - this added to the fact that I'm going because I suspect I may have ADHD and I've never been diagnosed (and I'm 25 fucking years old) makes me want to cancel my appointment so I won't look like a hypochondriac idiot. Fuck.",2.475650793650793,4.955170644444447,3.8603439153439134,84.56083333333333,79.5925925925926,7.116402116402117,25.939153439153447,8.192908349453996,1.896359788359789,1094,44,209,22,28,359,147,270,0.16,0.731,0.11,-0.9244,2,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,0,0,1,1,7,17,4,3,9,0,26,16,4,2,3,38,47,21,0,6,6,1,2,3,1,4,4,0,0,1,12,16,6,2,6,1,1,2,13,12,0,0,6,4,35,5,19,36,2,25,0,3,2,3,6,9,2,6,17,130,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032080224320535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254291658521608,0.364958199340594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238750296809047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359325183076165,0.1220604063827799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222414139297524,0.0,0.11176333335198677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081905716233232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456698071646393,0.10321590826528544,0.0,0.10161632994135676,0.0,0.0,0.1147423970908779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048887300719835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997842278170669,0.0,0.0,0.11265910705514055,0.10124401030990428,0.07152338125059676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24212299082616096,0.0,0.0,0.18511252788395766,0.0,0.0,0.056898620454647164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100430258776494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143075376644068,0.1467358686468483,0.0,0.0,0.0886001175729097,0.1681456042219773,0.0,0.1092891905762276,0.0,0.09035921890156927,0.0,0.06682866604133805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991218445430694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443232214034966,0.0,0.1064752325032495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505562164564793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116773298560567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827462674898754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07707471696907271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466369899399476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055057800983054,0.0804700007181325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415073054297786,0.0,0.0,0.058378845350467425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05905141597071765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033467110084809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.364958199340594,0.06447186402173817
EDAnonymous,throwawayweedgirl,2019/05/07,"I have a date on sunday and I really want to cancel because I feel I'm too fat and will turn off the guy. Okay, I know this is an irrational ed thought, and he's really sweet guy so I would feel like absolute shit if I switched up on him like that for no reason. The thing is, we met on instagram and he's only seen my one selfie (which was recent) but he hasn't seen my body and i'm really fucking scared he will think i'm fat and ugly and masculine. he said i'm pretty and all but i'm so fucking anxious. i feel like i won't be able to make eye contact with him because i'll feel disgusting. :(",1.1713393476752252,2.496226022900768,3.5568355308813326,90.77322692574604,78.84732824427482,7.206384455239418,21.832755031228317,8.00094639256281,0.8641389312977097,463,13,109,8,11,161,79,131,0.19899999999999998,0.684,0.11699999999999999,-0.9273,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,3,10,4,1,4,1,10,7,5,2,1,25,31,13,0,3,3,0,4,3,0,4,2,1,0,2,4,10,2,0,8,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,6,9,13,5,9,20,1,8,0,0,3,2,13,5,3,1,6,57,17,0,0.16750261083514614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892302725211003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421607372416065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18605763987726145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387774117143032,0.2393277972984652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30970692923196114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317078388995113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205505434328194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24549994431110675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180929341154944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350410410353608,0.12739328349685106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041037349494007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219193849514262,0.1722205814589701,0.1653886205341674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933334061614626,0.0,0.16769933451270078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719390229450808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112812917401907,0.10732890956417253,0.0,0.13297836277991315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18219474100310645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879737971356986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898904885260195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ToastNoodles,2019/05/07,"Apprehensive about Recovery/Treatment I might be starting outpatient next week for bulimia and I really don't know what the point is. I feel like I can't let go of it. I hate it. I hate it so so much, but I can't imagine life without it. It's a huge coping mechanism for me, as well as addiction. I'm addicted to the dopamine rush of eating junk. Feeling full to the point of uncomfortableness. Feeling empty. All of it. It's not even reactive binging anymore. Sometimes going home to b/p is the only thing I look forward to in my day lmao.

I honestly don't know what to expect. I don't think I'm ready to recover. I feel like I'm not. I don't think I'll end up putting in the effort in on my part to make a difference.",1.0822587719298262,3.058057269736846,3.7330526315789454,86.34703508771929,81.5657894736842,7.4743859649122815,25.92280701754386,8.447377352677275,1.8975170175438605,563,24,122,13,15,198,89,152,0.083,0.775,0.142,0.8588,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,2,1,7,0,11,4,0,1,1,18,29,6,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,10,1,1,0,9,0,0,5,9,3,1,0,0,5,15,4,22,26,4,19,0,0,1,0,0,10,0,1,8,77,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356797696734049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268764063610718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929191250980962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608561591697237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754022903665002,0.0,0.0,0.13636347930519535,0.0,0.0,0.1016895881211298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113886169767867,0.21997910494610293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499882390105648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040086267857172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443513196083192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692255449536943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743524351458554,0.1087469932258506,0.1504348390881539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928820922131534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276996056022528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332796897338706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317882700672365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373894756826535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709404756203035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672443114719385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910852457206938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477302439605822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986311646840042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522710657841891,0.0,0.1089741735434996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228464570592652,0.19730359554785667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349798411294355,0.0,0.13842915625426513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841261750202325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neekasc,2019/05/07,DAE get weird cravings (after having an ED)? before my ED i hated peanut butter but now i want it all the time. whenever i binge its the first thing i go to. maybe my taste buds changed??? im not sure but its super weird,-0.942546583850934,1.1710222608695666,1.0815527950310546,99.01282608695654,98.13043478260867,3.4981366459627328,13.093167701863356,5.288315135182226,-1.2110397515527946,168,3,38,1,7,55,36,46,0.184,0.684,0.133,0.3219,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,6,5,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,2,6,2,2,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29481075592319644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665072664996733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946975133743831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101032214433227,0.0,0.1969004099978177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34205614599344675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742347472013121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480642370459261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265331360957818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23017170318087915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20202279937293974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20435026232057507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bleacheee,2019/05/07,"Ugh I just ate 342 kcal for lunch, I wanna die And that was after a 200 kcal 
breakfast. 😔
Can I get an “oof”?",-3.857999999999997,-2.9027367999999982,-0.4239999999999995,107.00800000000002,117.0,2.0,9.0,3.1291,-2.3978,80,1,22,0,5,28,22,25,0.271,0.7290000000000001,0.0,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8932060149440056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44964765635756254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ipxsetup,2019/05/07,"how do i actually tell if i have an ed or i'm jsut makin shit up i don't like food, and i fucking hate my body. i wanna be actually a normal weight for once? so i try to starve myself and have as little kcal as possible but every day, without fail, i end up eating at least like 4-500 calories. and that's on a day where i don't eat much. (also worth mentioning whenever i see an ed meme/someone mention an ed i get jealous cause whatever's wrong with me isnt as bad as that/i dont relate to it)

point is, i think i;m just trying to lie to myself, that i don't have anything wrong with me and i just want to be with the cool eating disorder crowd. am i wrong in thinking that? or am i lying to myself

this probably isnt even the right place to put this and if that's the case i'm sorry",-0.8725333333333332,1.1106038799999989,2.157142857142855,94.43952380952379,90.2,5.161904761904762,17.476190476190474,6.655083550727371,-0.1206952380952382,609,16,145,8,21,215,101,175,0.21,0.71,0.08,-0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,12,4,0,8,1,15,8,2,2,0,23,24,17,0,5,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,8,5,0,2,0,1,1,7,9,0,0,0,3,21,3,22,22,2,14,0,1,1,1,4,10,2,4,5,92,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.25288962257541137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361968977815167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662775320896126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818826041611232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439266824507667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310743134895014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712806766213956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850218247723074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185889654360538,0.0,0.0,0.397757381126257,0.0,0.0,0.11476344960981533,0.0,0.0,0.08558191666599348,0.0,0.10917106059908094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668050118005564,0.0,0.0,0.1197883916128783,0.06769668078309737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792676931844227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12660590037171532,0.1298664473507652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525125551405077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695428448995755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799129384491438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537647918169313,0.0,0.1224886131522856,0.1460743827130239,0.0,0.0,0.13970189034057529,0.0,0.0,0.13025691539068127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106548566720946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032531128811408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300509010345712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978700332046618,0.0,0.0,0.14504665704839614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132527410352584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605062705105927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594347722296835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642566629558005,0.0,0.0,0.1577853243079917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490399949413228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250040595132154,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dantspot,2019/05/07,"Stupid vent I'm under my official healthy goal weight and steadily working towards my unofficial real goal weight, but I'm scrawny already. I'm really tiny and ever since I was like 12 that's all I wanted, but it doesn't feel as good as I thought. I look like I'm still 12. I don't look like other 21 year old guys and while there are a multitude of other reasons for that, I want to look more like them. Other 21 year old guys don't have ribcages that stick out further than their chests. Other 21 year old guys don't have stupid little chicken legs that keep giving out.

  


I want to look like a normal fucking man and I can't. I've been stuck in this for 11 years or something like that and I don't know how to do anything else. I can't even eat to give myself the energy I need to work out or something, I work and make over 10k steps a day but that wears me the fuck out because I can't eat and so. I have no muscle, just skin and bone. I look weird, but I can't stop this spiral. I'm not even really trying anymore, it just keeps dropping off anyway and I almost don't want to stop it since something is finally working and it's finally easy but I don't want to keep looking this way. It's all pretty vain, I guess.",1.8336293706293745,3.3606463769230785,3.1790909090909127,93.31954545454548,77.53846153846153,5.9580419580419575,21.81818181818182,6.574015621080383,0.2641923076923076,958,26,217,8,22,312,129,260,0.07200000000000001,0.732,0.195,0.9808,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,6,10,13,4,0,5,0,19,11,5,3,3,48,49,22,0,7,10,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,18,14,4,5,4,0,0,1,13,6,0,0,4,10,25,7,22,45,3,29,0,0,6,2,8,11,2,4,21,122,43,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546602856635499,0.0,0.094186213620343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464459492489078,0.0,0.0,0.07023605083280496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05202877013212905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504390321768486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17466939453157476,0.07129925038573748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127461785214925,0.07720426160082676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04315569229836727,0.0,0.0,0.1869942334068804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781001304630282,0.0,0.16375163112692526,0.0,0.07158780897731416,0.0,0.0,0.09402301306759643,0.2535307420184645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275898898065095,0.0,0.0,0.04690631030735188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250187165722634,0.0855434548989217,0.0,0.0,0.4300366965857039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569720092983752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328618963253986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362520366911054,0.0,0.0,0.26868244756854065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683197153887437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714736326602366,0.10935521626854552,0.08775435626926617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120535306471102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971205660060065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816088530558577,0.1427133984038885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677586298027472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794727281609036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517091855226404,0.06774712073001425,0.0,0.20786742147794487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485442325583472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21985126168809013
EDAnonymous,Bendingcone1431,2019/05/07,"Binge Eating, the story of me This post is long and about binge eating disorder. I’m just honestly in a bad head space and needed to vent. I’m sorry if the post is all over the place.If I’m in the wrong subreddit I apologize, and will delete this post. I just needed to get things off my chest and this was the first ED subreddit I could find. So again, apologies. With that being said:

I. Can’t. Stop. Eating. 
I was a chunky kid growing up, I was bullied for it and always self conscious. I wore shirts in pools and hated eating around people for fear of being bullied. My dad was one of those parents who lived vicariously through his kid, so he wanted me to be a great baseball player. By wanted, I of course mean demanded. Being big didn’t fit in with that, so from a very early age( I’d say 9-10) he was constantly trying to put me on diets. As a response to this, I began to binge. Dad’s not home and there’s a huge bag of chips in the house(meant for my sister who could eat literally whatever)? Better eat them all before he gets back, because I don’t know when the opportunity will arise again. School lunches were similar. He’d pack me some salad with a side of vegetables. I would eat it, and then eat the school provided lunch, and then try and eat any left over snacks my friends had. I’m talking about being 9 now, and I didn’t stop playing baseball until I was 18. There was a lot of binging. There was a lot of stuffing my face with whatever was available when he wasn’t around, so that when he was around I could deal with him buying ice cream for my entire family and giving me half an apple. 

The worst part was, after middle school I actually lost weight. I was a pretty skinny kid in high school(no thanks to his diets since I always binged, more likely due to a little magical thing called puberty and getting taller).This only reinforced his beliefs that he was correct though, and as I got older he got stricter. I’d get an hour lecture if I was seen with a pack of Oreos, sat down and berated to no end. Sometimes I would get berated simply because I wasn’t losing enough weight (we’re talking 15-16 years old, and I’m already fairly skinny) All because of baseball. If you’re wondering, no I didn’t care for baseball at all. 

My mother on the other hand, saw all of this and responded by enabling the binges. My dad worked afternoons on Sundays, so Sunday’s became a free for all. If I wanted three burgers from McDonald’s, she’d buy them. If in twenty minutes I asked for money to go buy a sandwich and a large bag of chips, she’d give it to me. I ate ungodly amounts of food with my mother’s support. It made me feel like things were supposed to be this way. Looking back, it only taught me that binging was okay, and cycling through restriction and overindulgence was normal. This went on for all of high school. I ate whenever I could, and as much as I could. 

After high school I stopped playing baseball and my dad stopped caring about what I ate. But the damage was done, the “neurological pathways” were already ingrained in me. I put on about 90 pounds in college(in all fairness, lost a bit towards the end in a 4 month period) but besides that, from 18 to now(23) it’s been a long binge. That’s simply the only way I can describe it. I have lost friends, romantic opportunities, social skills, self esteem. You name it, binging has made it rotten for me.  I’m a zombie, a shell, and my only purpose is to eat. Mirrors torment me, and my mind is a very unsafe place to be. Maybe it always has been. I just don’t know how to recover. There’s no “normal” to look back to. There’s no “let’s get back to the good old days when I ate normal amounts of food at normal times and had normal emotional reactions”. My life, my development as a person, my memories. They are all intertwined with binge eating disorder. I feel like it is as much a part of me as it is something I deal with. Dealing with binging doesn’t feel like I’m dealing with a foreign problem. It just feels like myself. How can I recover from this? And if I ever did. If I ever stopped binging and found a way to cope, what the hell would be left of me? Would there even be any of me left?",2.964514695830488,4.720730892344498,4.114125768967877,86.83788038277515,75.00478468899522,6.738865345181136,25.22036910457963,7.50117742383412,1.2191662884483945,3270,111,658,41,70,1066,345,836,0.085,0.8340000000000001,0.08,-0.6983,1,0,2,0,0,0,114.0,0,1,3,11,39,34,2,1,44,1,71,36,7,4,12,114,128,58,0,27,14,8,7,5,2,6,2,2,1,6,37,41,29,6,12,3,5,5,14,13,0,4,51,15,81,22,106,53,22,96,2,5,5,0,53,40,1,11,50,434,118,8,0.0,0.0,0.04356527625937786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852965616461293,0.0,0.1114400356417634,0.0,0.0,0.060717748142601335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922560987532665,0.04173532050704151,0.0,0.0,0.13731131216463202,0.03727516696849799,0.0816421528385837,0.0,0.03798803401875404,0.0,0.0,0.03948323983874577,0.048738759239916184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04558564934394303,0.0,0.0910333370456278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04824338727534185,0.0,0.17821962014434445,0.0,0.0,0.028791139645225762,0.18410051673467154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232983922164528,0.0,0.0,0.04568544401508202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5024919836079923,0.0,0.0502175369187627,0.07908116332831952,0.046128309628082204,0.0,0.029486380693610762,0.08076457325947006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04208559033446349,0.050235957257699526,0.09029167561282153,0.12757230613136405,0.0,0.0,0.04080303192383453,0.03797344207558283,0.1079653526127819,0.04894891162836997,0.06898237660529308,0.0,0.13994522527846784,0.08565155818009046,0.02537173194336354,0.03744455761086719,0.0714104133736377,0.04921923241243077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04407586985634993,0.04581675324870828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150382272013645,0.04478072118888735,0.0,0.04396451179911175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049069417368911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551474501290862,0.045650647334048895,0.03153277833836225,0.10905194467037288,0.04474416623381157,0.03942072089881706,0.07901556892762096,0.07497800761576233,0.04994426753622591,0.1461998213023853,0.07590802233326345,0.0,0.08448485923087133,0.0,0.0,0.04485004638384684,0.04862947984798753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045076856939051474,0.0,0.035633737809151106,0.0,0.06563570649143251,0.06620466270783225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21870405039919635,0.0,0.0,0.09369095595775913,0.0,0.03025135500203632,0.13581251442407485,0.0,0.0,0.049570936861472466,0.09668836581137356,0.0,0.030949940328869108,0.03898067814454107,0.09328518354387892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826739661876604,0.04541813483609912,0.0,0.04271746703878301,0.0,0.08975739606708863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04246586049648623,0.035502026119309166,0.0,0.27108751775213097,0.0,0.0,0.09314508717709016,0.0,0.0,0.03692927646011597,0.0,0.0,0.04550807116804955,0.0,0.0343684792869211,0.044153218606669715,0.04997435339940293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18661836926977615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05066051956461563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176494865389932,0.0,0.041101416138046666,0.0,0.0,0.08897677898361046,0.0,0.043861669932175336,0.0,0.02603178079819615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06061953917439593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736705512114694,0.07899506270521911,0.1063069676828333,0.0,0.10872666380137258,0.0,0.041384648936115084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04841359372734153,0.03250074617393665,0.0,0.0,0.1268528565244211,0.048810278243107234,0.0,0.02874872604604467
EDAnonymous,yoonboomboom,2019/05/07,"How to open up to my boyfriend about my ED past? I am going to be moving in with my boyfriend in the next month or so. He's one of the sweetest, most loving people I've ever met and I am so happy to be with him, happier than I ever have been. But he doesn't know a thing about my disordered habits and history of restricting/purging. Even though I *feel* recovered (eat decently, exercise normally, etc) I still retained a few of my unhealthy ED habits, most notably that I'll often skip meals if I feel a previous meal was too high in calories, or that I won't eat in front of other people a lot of the time. I have not once since we've been dating eaten anything around my boyfriend. (except today I took a bite of a brownie and felt EXTREMELY sick, cuz ya know. Self consciousness.) I have carefully managed to avoid it, but I feel as though there's no hiding it if we live together. On one hand, he's my boyfriend and deserves to know this stuff. On the other hand, I don't want him to think I just want his sympathy or attention. Is that stupid? It probably is but regardless, how do I bring it up to him that it's something I struggle with?",4.408512160228899,4.854893828326187,5.40791416309013,83.95707868383407,69.94420600858369,9.13178826895565,29.696423462088696,9.21078282632365,2.3324737625178806,894,33,188,17,15,295,130,233,0.1,0.805,0.095,0.2682,0,1,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,1,0,0,17,6,1,2,10,0,16,10,2,3,2,46,33,20,0,6,11,0,6,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,14,10,5,2,10,1,0,5,5,3,0,2,7,6,28,3,31,23,5,25,0,0,0,1,12,11,0,9,9,135,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180379002121003,0.1276909315301847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624540339713196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16439327725657546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935473779826498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997216422604574,0.0947399662410952,0.2594971903668274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21758088221211053,0.0,0.1377237300614239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151956839902115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15269325636723402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15155095417092604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364906188371994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665907715024585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194652758519076,0.1294591058073181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449147157672447,0.15245273070410748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525487776240348,0.0,0.14053955666454754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275762719190178,0.19439566906638547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369285529624436,0.19888478904135776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465127319288513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963793804292735,0.0,0.0,0.11865404715125205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104261862869533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455040086495474,0.0,0.0,0.14995336443765495,0.16420309408627218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529435668102892,0.09190978312934367,0.2818557605852776,0.0,0.08364031040781793,0.0,0.13596319855039382,0.0,0.15936577054303191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920782629944411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,real-Albert-Hofmann,2019/05/07,"⚠️Trigger warning ⚠️ An awkward rant Hey ppl, long time lurker and I haven’t been formally diagnosed but I believe I definitely have a problem and I intend to get help soon. I’ll tell my story on my issues with ED another time, I’m too lazy right now haha

But I came here to just vent kind of but also maybe ask what to do in these situations... 

So I slept all day (yesterday was cinco de Mayo ya feel me??) lol but anyways I woke up starving so I went to sonic as usual and got a chicken tender meal (I ordered just the tenders but they gave me the combo anyways.. which has tator tots, bread, & onion rings) and I got some mozzarella sticks as well. Well I came back home and got in bed to watch a movie and eat. I ate half of the chicken tenders and 1 mozzarella stick. I got full and didn’t want anymore after that but the food is still sitting by me on my bed. 

Well my roommate just got home and came up to my room to talk to me about exams and what not but then she sees my food next to me and opens the box and obviously sees all that extra food that comes with it and a couple tenders left so it looks like I never even touched my food but she goes “omg why didn’t you eat any of your food..???” And I awkwardly just kinda sat there and said “I did I ate most of the chicken tenders but I didn’t order that other stuff it just comes with it. And I got mozzarella sticks too” and it was just really awkward and I didn’t really like being put on the spot like that I mean she probably meant nothing by it but still. 

I also told her the other day I had my weight written on my bathroom mirror to keep track and she goes “omg are you anorexic?!?” Then luckily I was able to go “no dude. Obviously not but also how can you ask that shit, you literally told me last wknd when getting ready to go out that you hadn’t eaten in like 2 days and love the way you look right now and don’t ever wanna eat again” she said it as a joke (a bad one) but she still says shit like that so I’m like how can you judge anything I do or say that’s related to that. Idk. Idk where I’m going with this but I just wanted to vent to you guys. 

Also I’m not sure how to add the correct trigger warning for this post so I apologize if I did this wrong!",0.7477599104143344,2.649512877894736,2.6853840985442328,93.81028443449051,82.32631578947368,5.6425531914893625,20.00111982082867,6.761325535456951,0.13910302351623738,1727,47,397,19,47,577,228,475,0.1,0.7559999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.9743,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,10,1,0,41,27,2,3,17,2,23,24,3,5,8,82,69,54,0,5,25,0,3,6,0,0,6,5,5,1,27,33,14,1,3,1,0,10,12,8,3,2,35,13,61,19,43,33,6,56,0,0,5,1,34,17,2,5,30,262,88,1,0.07116276010123486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276353341702417,0.0,0.07710482083820082,0.0,0.0483931171438637,0.07462035876150079,0.0,0.0,0.07057433601636245,0.0,0.0,0.058560888103193764,0.0,0.13305514885634406,0.0,0.0,0.05471976990281696,0.05941793221405589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017606158557536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441737187406258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260083329161438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874024051468691,0.0,0.1376822793511185,0.0,0.0,0.07222870353842127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218451808158296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047002331894890725,0.06437079065647057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03598202970888217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302514599354063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435921003657454,0.0,0.12133030953594555,0.0,0.34149216056886433,0.0,0.0,0.07046232069342774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047698898049254326,0.0,0.14276410127667696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427543288017685,0.0,0.06325273090929627,0.0,0.07410506382487206,0.0,0.05800714744957392,0.0,0.0,0.07731854706941756,0.0,0.0,0.2085991800936404,0.0,0.0,0.06297680332812775,0.11951759137184755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422716937101791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149255744675358,0.07751710782823493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05488510763507483,0.0,0.07568240269157474,0.0,0.0,0.06828258758738823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822172795130377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815425297319481,0.0,0.07672549145817993,0.06809315067620346,0.0,0.07153822918796895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091177372694932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154521659947864,0.13538416192872907,0.11318296619309574,0.0,0.0,0.11341501265414924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609510121515262,0.0,0.07998992395655559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704920164245925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814643347747272,0.0,0.0,0.06707005921874133,0.0,0.0,0.057197930971929524,0.06219938895409796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829911553815748,0.0,0.0,0.1359981337796338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837572645249087,0.0,0.0839472793424921,0.05648568661452862,0.0,0.08665707044411287,0.19195160290478236,0.06596859156302988,0.06421332233209401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780530685346564,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mayolespa,2019/05/07,"Prom season is here My boyfriends mom won't accept that I want to wear the same dress as last year. She asked me over text if I would try on her daughters dress who is wayyyy thinner than me. 

Somebody shoot me so I don't have to pls",4.141933333333334,3.9442138599999983,3.890000000000001,96.85833333333336,70.4,6.666666666666668,24.66666666666667,3.1291,0.0062666666666664214,183,4,45,0,3,55,42,50,0.146,0.8540000000000001,0.0,-0.6159,0,0,0,1,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,0,5,8,3,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,6,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,28,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43408139982699295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784870255876801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5438120838368232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152463441277443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738710440134849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298433129492981,0.0,0.0,0.2990102170942792
EDAnonymous,thirteenoneseven,2019/05/07,"Pointless anxiety that I’m going to gain weight bc I got a new job I want to be excited and I am! But I just accepted a job that is much more sedentary than my current one and I’m so fucking stressed that I’m going to be 400 lbs. 

Wish I could just be excited instead of already “planning” cals/ physical activity etc

Ugh",3.0555223880597002,4.194209477611942,5.4867462686567166,79.59220895522391,73.62686567164178,8.942089552238807,34.295522388059695,9.3871,3.319360597014926,253,14,51,6,5,90,46,67,0.107,0.685,0.20800000000000002,0.7287,3,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,1,2,0,6,2,0,0,0,9,15,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,1,1,6,3,5,10,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,33,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691745065632721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18660001871723714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19475224081610865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720380273958932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22550238914852874,0.0,0.0,0.27725351705685897,0.0,0.1950870786681155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4841108189710285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17931107846602226,0.0,0.0,0.2355818374787809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652881756115989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794123604839266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387179016158247,0.0,0.0,0.2970318502899265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804987977673995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leezyleezy,2019/05/07,"officially underweight, bitches!! i mean barely. but technically a 18.3 BMI is underweight, and it's reassuring that i measured later in the day rather than morning so i know it's not just lack of food/water weight. 

i don't care ab the numbers as much as the way i actually look, but looking back three years ago to my overweight BMI (slightly overweight but it still counts!), i feel so accomplished, in a fucked up way. 

at my HW/overweight BMI, i didnt really expect that being underweight would make me ""happy."" i just thought i would be able to stop thinking about my body all the time. well shit, i still think about my body all the time, but my confidence has done a complete 180 and i actually feel like i look kind of good?? not quite as good i hope for the future but definitely closing in on it. 

i don't know how exactly common it is for people to feel like their ED has positively influenced their confidence bc i see a ton of different perspectives here, but i actually feel happier in general. my situation is actually shit—my dad is trying to gaslight me and every girl at my school hates me for fucking half the town—but somehow i can still find happiness in my life which was NEVER possible before (when my circumstances were good) and only became more possible as i kept dropping weight. 

i guess i felt this way at the lower end of normal too, so it's not actually the BMI that's got me, but reflecting on my happiness at HW and my life now at CW/LW made me realize how far i've come, towards appreciating myself. 

i know this sounds super fucked up (it probably is) but i feel like y'all would get it. quick rave about positive feelings despite shit circumstances.",4.668796296296296,6.162118719135804,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,70.14197530864197,9.72098765432099,30.16666666666667,10.02789654360092,3.090811111111112,1331,54,252,35,24,444,172,324,0.11800000000000001,0.6679999999999999,0.215,0.9904,2,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,2,3,22,22,7,0,13,0,19,13,4,5,4,59,50,23,0,8,14,1,9,3,0,3,4,1,0,1,14,7,4,2,17,0,0,1,7,7,1,2,9,14,42,15,34,36,6,40,0,0,4,3,6,17,6,3,21,166,56,2,0.08106606443370118,0.0,0.3955439248345569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186017487403816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062334799639988774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06898125003530604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009224509959304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265225546013531,0.0,0.0,0.06983123642973345,0.08499622621231688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05228090513155414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469678330093254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829587294520832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180047140555611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830165563608276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459366276422695,0.17374083788760505,0.07783613471288604,0.0,0.07409291425681737,0.0,0.09802540689596552,0.0,0.0,0.2248328108633924,0.0423536727881882,0.0,0.0,0.2039831060808371,0.06483593725355191,0.0,0.0893034094426386,0.0,0.0,0.2588889990210536,0.0,0.08003595546912183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051689343687711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441783132560611,0.13365536685607052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451871743573805,0.11881435283167754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422523134279408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670667026260491,0.05411222749780227,0.0,0.0,0.0883047094994396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059592884939692475,0.0,0.06252314645561917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942753118981206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061654394978598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620100190890443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277961449798927,0.0,0.0,0.08740292851778064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622373814435083,0.0,0.0,0.05193299669144427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204318511753099,0.06459915769491599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496394505716371,0.0,0.09112165295843366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421839132217444,0.06777485976465243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038877215697998,0.0,0.06435739999309081,0.09454054817462462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05503853643425776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930394058983009,0.0,0.1974332543106724,0.07288812756885224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276101882405798,0.0,0.0,0.052203887639978665
EDAnonymous,haleul,2019/01/16,"is it common to involuntarily cry while purging? not necessarily sobs or anything like that, just tears flowing down without even realizing it’s happening. ",9.123600000000003,12.172244760000002,10.052999999999999,45.25150000000002,61.4,11.4,44.5,11.20814326018867,6.3686000000000025,129,8,16,4,2,44,24,25,0.165,0.659,0.17600000000000002,0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982399208950179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5315834107401403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31963663021500216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42794496976241936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23642776965423784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46649917475551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TreatmentTime,2019/01/16,"Experiences with Bupropion (Wellbutrin)? After months of deliberating and procrastinating on finding a new psychiatrist, I finally found someone accepting new patients. I have previously tried pretty much every SSRI, a couple SNRIs, mood stabilisers, lithium, and mirtazapine to no or detrimental effect. Because of my fear of weight gain and the relatively well-controlled status of my ED at the moment, she was willing to prescribe me bupropion, and I've a prescription waiting for me at the local pharmacy.

For those who've been on it:

1. how much of an appetite suppressant was it?
2. did it seem to give you more energy/pop? Any trouble with insomnia, or conversely, sedation?
3. did you find it helpful? Had you previously tried a bunch of other shit and had this work?

Basically the only options left for me after this are trintellix and ECT, so I'm *really* hoping the atypical mechanism of bupropion works, but I'd love to hear others stories to give me some hope, false or otherwise 😬",7.366896551724138,9.057322643678162,8.375344827586208,60.84163793103448,63.94252873563219,12.236781609195404,38.06321839080459,11.855464076750405,5.520549425287356,796,41,117,28,12,270,119,174,0.045,0.84,0.11599999999999999,0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,0,4,2,8,1,1,10,0,10,4,1,2,0,25,20,12,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,9,8,1,2,6,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,8,2,12,4,23,11,5,13,0,0,0,1,10,6,1,8,7,82,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653711333654786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955011184931307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571236207047142,0.0,0.173346095952489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199645079837732,0.0,0.0,0.1532477715035422,0.0,0.1762909210454857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716181104874394,0.2863767099092618,0.0,0.0,0.17177434622920112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005733921440281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17657208043706266,0.0,0.10500879479193076,0.0,0.0,0.31120604805264346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021624764661905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139567001282613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504796965336587,0.0,0.2303326099966444,0.0,0.0,0.3026147628941681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191502788257004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938394049805416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003631782971471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426213176971633,0.0,0.0,0.1608136784183859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274117428710955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127295860928228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077494239257367,0.1408600429203247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281069891144825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,a180life,2019/01/16,"(Rant) I’m sick of r/EDanonymous telling/assuming that other people on dieting subreddits have an eating disorder It’s ridiculous. Yes, the majority of people on r/EDanonymous are on those subreddits? You want to know why? Because we’re OBSESSED with food and dieting culture!!! 
Most of the people on r/fasting or r/1200isplenty are just trying to get more healthy, with the majority of them being overweight and trying to fix that. 
The posts accusing them of having an eating disorder comes across as snobby and ignorant. Some people don’t binge after fasting. They keep the weight off. Some people don’t cry when they go over 1200 calories. They casually move on. We need to get over ourselves ",4.012284946236559,7.221673508064518,4.5727096774193585,77.00239784946237,80.04838709677419,7.500215053763441,29.23440860215053,8.447377352677275,2.9874286021505383,561,26,86,13,15,178,80,124,0.19699999999999998,0.7390000000000001,0.064,-0.9537,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,1,5,0,2,4,1,1,7,1,7,8,0,0,0,17,16,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,7,7,2,1,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,22,15,6,16,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,4,3,58,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328673921804264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595428953768322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611771742385866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883771452771624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467510793843536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488293422298745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17704685001050358,0.0,0.09629450117240684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060268602295127,0.0,0.0,0.0931177083004746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18008387364940434,0.0,0.12563480067047006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5873286600885289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227304993945035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300721251166495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999378649075863,0.0,0.0,0.2063276539075947,0.0,0.0,0.15288982282106672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lifeatmach_2,2019/01/16,"My roommates eating habits are the most triggering thing in the world. She daily eats a container of macadamia nuts. I just looked at the container and it's 8 servings at 220 cals each. She considers this A SNACK but cannot figure out why she isn't losing weight. She loves to tell me that keto is a great diet because ""you don't have to worry about counting calories!"" Idk if I'm the only one like this but something about watching other people carelessly eat crazy amounts of calories drives me insane and makes me want to scream because calories don't rule their lives (and they rule my life) 🙃🙃🙃",6.330732600732597,6.65199276923077,5.855067155067157,82.8546153846154,65.75213675213675,8.395115995115995,31.244200244200243,7.957251820313856,2.0877482295482306,482,17,91,5,7,148,85,117,0.12300000000000001,0.71,0.16699999999999998,0.8237,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,2,1,3,6,0,0,7,0,7,8,0,2,0,16,12,6,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,5,6,2,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,4,13,3,11,12,3,6,0,1,2,1,9,5,0,2,1,54,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24963506708305305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285504045720218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574453192114066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462542256894,0.10003358036313456,0.0,0.18080355485287608,0.0,0.17194371391014626,0.2290699132126657,0.0,0.0,0.1848005454064079,0.0,0.13667641313583198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874816083458869,0.1557263847635337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14195222985158162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763139507043472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789660219378968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603098043190273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207705645430249,0.0,0.0,0.2493379988285753,0.0,0.0,0.1847607033836244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079399509965986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Youre_the_Worst_,2019/01/16,"Social media is a twat I was having a pretty decent day... ... ... and then my boyfriend looked something up on Facebook for me and the first thing that pops up in his search bar is a fling that he claimed “would drop everything to marry me” before we started dating.  She’s thin with money and has fake tits. 

I am a 30 year old damn baby basket case. 

On the plus side I found out my waist is back to 24” so I’m heading in the right direction 👏

Wahhh!",1.241219806763283,3.2264065760869585,2.7618840579710167,93.46814009661837,81.06521739130434,4.958454106280193,18.917874396135264,5.82211442006289,-0.24758357487922744,343,8,74,2,9,112,73,92,0.151,0.815,0.033,-0.8832,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,7,0,8,4,3,0,0,9,12,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,10,0,12,9,0,19,0,0,1,1,5,10,2,0,8,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21677835591238825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23989235640122306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818144716191453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533706735803521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398002090784612,0.0,0.3091096988069413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893302900081617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367410079228419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958266303949049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868130365420172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407573375239439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28738097955762626,0.0,0.21703506630524352,0.0,0.0,0.19954376224737316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18729449704110815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20026721212294352,0.0,0.0,0.18154663206087845
EDAnonymous,abhlancome12247,2019/01/16,just fainted at the hairdressers YEET tell me ur fainting stories to help me feel better plz:/,8.680588235294117,9.436907647058828,6.310588235294119,80.09764705882355,60.764705882352935,6.8000000000000025,40.52941176470589,3.1291,2.7109294117647056,78,4,12,0,1,22,16,17,0.0,0.728,0.272,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5894703635617786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370054424831035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467448994150913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825555913951148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,intromniac,2019/01/16,Real tired of these modern public bathrooms All of the newer public bathrooms at my university don't have doors going into them. Hows a gal supposed to upchuck that Einstein Bros sandwich she just ate when there are people 5 feet from the entrance to the stall???  ,7.210748299319725,7.9470821836734675,6.914693877551024,74.57911564625853,63.89795918367346,7.34965986394558,32.65986394557823,6.42735559955562,2.1661374149659856,213,8,33,1,3,67,43,49,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.6416,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,3,4,1,1,1,5,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,7,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073060692905121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748701321798599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.615462610191355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6214830160455824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SickPuppyii,2019/01/16,Anyone else impulsively buys clothes in smaller size to force yourself to lose weight? Cause I have like 3 pants too small for me,5.17625,7.457937458333337,3.84,88.905,70.25,6.466666666666668,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.3743166666666669,105,4,20,1,2,30,23,24,0.107,0.794,0.099,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793535337435153,0.40935524858398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104168878132917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337475279800434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951851939548712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4469604634497022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865074856363955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowaway12121,2019/01/16,"Oh how I missed ProED like community. Well, here’s my latest rant! So I’ve had a very bad month so far. My period is pretty late due to stress, so I’ve been (I’m guessing) hormonal binging despite using an EC stack. My parents have been trying to get me to gain weight and they’re clearly happy they’re succeeding and my willpower sucks right now, because my dad got a box of captain crunch and my mom screams to me from the other room really happily,

“OOH! HONEY! CAPTAIN CRUNCH!”
Well I’m frustrated so I stormed out from doing a workout and said I’m not eating it because I’ve had way too much junk and sugar. Her response?
“Ha, you ate the whole box last time”

God. I’m sorry, forgive me, but YOU BITCH. My mom knows I’ve struggled with eating disorder and a past of binging. She of all people should know not to say that. Now? Time to get back on track. That box isn’t being touched by me. Please someone comfort me. My heart is racing (and it’s not the ec stack)",0.36165950800468494,2.7690362182741133,2.1000253807106617,93.50178348301444,90.37055837563452,4.655134713002734,20.77489262007029,6.297961479604792,0.2833843811011323,753,26,157,8,26,246,123,197,0.129,0.726,0.14400000000000002,-0.5964,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,2,12,16,3,2,8,1,11,6,1,2,2,22,26,13,0,1,4,4,2,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,5,9,5,0,3,1,0,0,4,8,2,0,7,7,19,8,15,17,3,18,0,1,0,0,14,5,2,1,13,84,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391286517602545,0.12369326320923595,0.1806132629545049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978477584954738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031746589869328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547972639968286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848353442347626,0.0,0.16319627717344373,0.0,0.0,0.15770103704171606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755502337735931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283109779940275,0.1207563624336252,0.16711181899961253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237521380918989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470067117340148,0.11824637334773655,0.0,0.10890219118039357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449533132652272,0.0,0.141419308989422,0.10270374157262199,0.0,0.0,0.16261658815970825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507147455973033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490423462441616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651335975897854,0.14091796997818326,0.1178093035759735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552112998619994,0.0,0.0,0.1658340217219638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969736928636878,0.15487128667187874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276681372333824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057941016143608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794803501936391,0.0,0.12223353539195393,0.0,0.11758906178011505,0.0,0.1803983313449824,0.26639679590330045,0.0,0.0,0.16539643071323062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maebird-,2019/01/16,"Kind of wish there were a subreddit just for normal bodies... Not porn, not sexualized, not thinspo. Just to see what normal means to non-disordered people. It sounds stupid but I legitimately do not know what a normal body should look like.. ",4.8661627906976745,7.56436858139535,5.0676162790697665,77.87723837209303,72.48837209302326,8.020930232558143,22.377906976744185,8.841846274778883,1.7210046511627906,191,5,33,4,4,60,34,43,0.054000000000000006,0.9009999999999999,0.045,-0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,14,8,1,0,5,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,3,1,2,4,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865980965314582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25103364467845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280917538322502,0.12037617549349368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700967513720376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183934643752788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385938580166425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6438248154624663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185162768619148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454292468006255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518800005516673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kurtisskinny,2019/01/16,FUCK STOMACH NOISES my office is being renovated so now we all have to sit at a conference desk and my stomach won’t stop growling! Literally the worst I hate this sooo much 🤬,3.3779047619047624,5.350543171428576,5.48,76.55333333333336,74.42857142857143,8.095238095238095,28.809523809523807,8.841846274778883,2.528523809523809,141,6,26,3,3,49,33,35,0.35,0.65,0.0,-0.9385,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,4,3,2,0,1,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,3,4,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5277354447247244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635895898547759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.419635517369212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772505706133795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,singinginthereign,2019/01/16,"I lost some weight, but now feel like i have no idea how i did it, and can't anymore???? I lost about 15 pounds a few years ago, which took me from pudgy overweight to normal bmi (though still stodgy and thick looking)

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i have been trying really really hard to lose 10 more pounds, since i want to be 120 exactly, and it's still a healthy-slim bmi for my height, but ???? like 1200 doesn't work for me anymore???  im not even that short but eating ""normally"" at a little deficit doesn't do anything, and switching back to keto for a few months sees water weight gone, but nothing else.

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i just feel like i'm going insane and **i literally cannot remember how the heck i even lost any weight in the first place?!!??**

i feel like my ed is really just a terrible obsession with ""disordered eating behaviors"" but even those behaviors don't help me lose weight, or control my eating. YES I suppose i binge a few thousand calories every so often, and YES december was a horrible horrible month for me, but besides that, i still have been tracking my calories, like nothing still adds up!!??!!?!?!

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anyway, just ranting.. haha .... i know what i have to fix ... i just am having a hard time with discipline

PS I actually really wanted to post this in loseit or xxloseit but knew i'd get mean/patronizing comments :( 

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EDAnonymous,rotting_the_crown,2019/01/16,"How to deal with body dysmorphia when it’s real? I know we all (for the most part) have body dysmorphia. But does anyone else not believe it’s dysmorphia because they know it’s true? Like, my body is gross and it’s true. People tell me otherwise but they’re wrong. They’re either being nice or trying to get laid. 


Kind of like imposter syndrome - knowing that you’re not qualified and just making everything up and someone will eventually find out and expose you and you’ll get fired or whatever. BUT ITS TRUEEEE. 


Anyone else?",2.9445545454545474,5.6987679100000035,3.5314545454545474,85.9357272727273,79.9,6.836363636363638,24.09090909090909,8.00094639256281,1.6206000000000005,421,15,77,8,11,132,69,100,0.125,0.759,0.11599999999999999,-0.466,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,1,0,3,8,0,0,1,0,5,3,3,2,3,28,11,12,0,0,9,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,7,8,4,3,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,3,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228227226060386,0.33443648127737424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994855351616625,0.0,0.0,0.1838711234065261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5438370311371428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16825259189727962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281789342014894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726662215246257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466741232266336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149162338057896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705310938783583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994824971600975,0.26907224819278763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946308173526988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893762854455802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673028237635754,0.0,0.11314270642495512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18575794506617732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827928897911798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264446639078932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080245473086113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843417218575444,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edwarides,2019/01/16,"Cookie party for one, please So I was high at a party and hadn't eaten all day, and finally I was like ""whatever, I'm gonna eat something."" So I ate a taco, and then a little bit later, I eat half an oreo. Not too shabby.

I grab a couple more oreos and go downstairs. I sit next to some guy, and I'm eating the oreos and he's all, ""So, how many have you eaten?""

And I'm like, ""uhhhhh, three? No, two and a half.""

And he teases, ""oh, are you sure you didn't have six... or seven... or eight?""

And now, I'm trying to figure out if he's making fun of me because I'm high or if he's calling me fat. 

Cue going back upstairs without even answering him and eating cookies all by myself. :(",0.03265306122449019,1.6208469251700706,3.1947959183673484,90.85913265306124,83.14965986394559,5.2884353741496595,17.302721088435373,6.1826913282559595,-0.29096462585034066,506,10,116,4,14,183,92,147,0.051,0.816,0.133,0.8895,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,3,0,0,8,5,1,0,7,0,7,8,1,2,4,28,19,21,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,12,8,0,2,0,0,2,5,1,0,8,7,1,13,4,8,11,6,15,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,6,9,75,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155336484865865,0.0,0.09636378566411573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725818533306954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614168266027122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749119413431625,0.0,0.10194818901763383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6470191032375561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441000771209892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316834688466698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796804263908798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565235415014143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340393061465675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445930109042122,0.15843717104812374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551928248429616,0.16026778431919034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16811932366182158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711874888559862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352380207868948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169730916409476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14898804203884472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073255924229795,0.0,0.15442068515275748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238298064007216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justadumbkid1,2019/01/16,So I’m getting my wisdom teeth taken out soon.. .. and I’m secretly excited to finally have a chance to pull myself out of my binging spiral of death!!! Bring on the postoperative nausea and swelling 😷,2.9036842105263148,5.532547000000001,5.193947368421052,74.74513157894737,79.0,8.010526315789475,27.921052631578952,8.841846274778883,2.816031578947369,158,7,27,4,4,55,31,38,0.08900000000000001,0.711,0.19899999999999998,0.5826,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,6,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,7,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9025995809028969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304811221806532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PrivateThoughtsForMe,2019/01/16,"Body image issues coming back up I created this throwaway to get some of this out. Hopefully I don't come back to it often, but I'm feeling suffocated right now, and I don't want to talk to anyone IRL about it. 

I've never been formally diagnosed with an eating disorder (or been brave enough to talk to a professional about it), but I've had a fucked up relationship with my body, and often food, for probably going on 8 or 9 years now (20 years old currently). I've had several times where ED-type issues have popped up hard and then gone away. The last time was a year ago. I dieted myself down (I'm noticing here that I wanted to post my weight, but I feel like that's feeding into the pride I have in what I did, so I'm not going to do that) then had a horrible binge spree and jumped right back up. 

I've been applying to grad school and it's ridiculously time consuming and stressful, so all last semester I told myself to just bury my feelings about my body and food and push through; I would lose weight over break. So slowly over the past month my thoughts have been shifting to weight loss. I've always found with losing weight or trying to be healthy, I have to make myself go all in because it takes concentrated effort, but then it completely consumes my life. At this point I'm just trying to be more mindful of what I eat, but there's this daunting voice in my head saying that soon enough I'll be in a dark space and at the end of it all I'll go on a binge spree and lose any progress. I don't believe that I can do this in a healthy way.

My brother's wedding is in June, and I want so badly to look nice. To not have fat arms and to be radiant and beautiful. Have pictures of myself I want to look at. I went to the seamstress to get my dress tailored, and I asked to have it taken in, and she remarked that it only needed to be taken in a little. It hurt; I had felt really proud when I first got the dress and my sister said I should get it taken in. It's stupid expensive, and there may not even be time, but I want to have to have the dress taken in again closer to the wedding. 

My way of ""turning off"" my issues is to do everything I can to avoid thinking about it. Looking at calorie counts scares me. I wear baggy clothes most days, so nothing feels tight or makes me worry about showing fat. I avoid mirrors and scales. I never EVER look at myself naked below my boobs. I can make these things a habit, and I don't feel it so much. It's like I have this knowledge all the time that I'm gross, but I put the volume of the painful feelings way down low. But lately I've been feeling so emotional about a lot of different things, and I can't ignore how much I don't like being in my own body. Even going back to school this week - I want to feel pretty and cute, but my clothes scare me. I've been KonMari-ing my stuff just a bit and trying to be an organized person, but step one is sorting clothing and the last thing I want to do is look through my clothes and all the shame I have at what I ""can't"" wear. People used to compliment my style all the time, but right now I can't imagine my clothes ""sparking joy"". 

I guess I kind of feel like this is the period before the storm. Part of me is hoping my motivation kicks in and I get skinny. The other part of me is afraid of fucking up this important time in my life by getting too self-invested. I've had an emotional dam break recently, and I don't know how to lock these feelings back up.",4.486974134651959,4.5662205955369615,5.264250982629644,86.34448602130091,69.68340306834031,8.414974007861039,27.313585647267658,8.150884317080207,1.4963085076708509,2705,79,592,34,44,881,293,717,0.121,0.765,0.115,-0.5453,2,2,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,0,0,10,40,35,4,7,31,0,58,28,12,7,9,112,124,54,0,12,21,2,17,4,0,3,6,3,0,1,41,33,13,4,18,1,1,13,14,21,0,2,25,25,73,14,93,88,18,107,0,6,5,3,13,45,3,14,47,397,114,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04926729164139728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04624605041522877,0.0,0.0,0.037795519700770684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0388620198954966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195871641145766,0.0,0.05221815334488904,0.21368350123379093,0.046406013088581714,0.033880347349476224,0.0,0.047293502544834415,0.06261832454766891,0.0,0.0,0.0606777026946721,0.2469422646752057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575250538684676,0.0582733603496041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03584375636306823,0.0,0.0,0.056411356586763786,0.0,0.05806806247395905,0.06369817018238139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374206507330127,0.0,0.1250374372567078,0.049226358980172,0.1148556057261406,0.0,0.07341860437856769,0.050274246215183484,0.0,0.0,0.049950681111812605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810233341020101,0.07941107430955104,0.05336440602685316,0.0,0.0,0.04727533619010384,0.13441231720561722,0.06093933356804754,0.0,0.10276349111570524,0.1451882599087475,0.0,0.15793368888712972,0.0,0.04445147865439052,0.0,0.061226362519904425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049787727296078964,0.0,0.057039928291474785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040466511436464,0.0,0.0,0.0594983018551464,0.0,0.0,0.17402961944115813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057876813171456785,0.030544679070052188,0.13591252725247613,0.06269535671182506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785139621521244,0.10861206284571144,0.055704602628305934,0.0,0.0,0.2333611547409958,0.1865355292662652,0.0,0.047251145526763016,0.0,0.0,0.11129792954886177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05611878854556447,0.0,0.044362502911497716,0.0,0.0817136904334693,0.04121100848107884,0.08573166141513694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053329399648023655,0.06327688210235356,0.058320647257354176,0.0,0.037661662987539334,0.04227021522990894,0.05913980846095556,0.0,0.0,0.12037294355108236,0.0530562953363112,0.03853137229958322,0.04852930267773541,0.0,0.0,0.05253997211235912,0.0,0.05322916900107817,0.056543665154987065,0.059923393968157726,0.0,0.0,0.05587208905337022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035605230550774546,0.0,0.05487740322455696,0.05967087849797944,0.0,0.14239208692209268,0.052868207932731184,0.04419852740448282,0.11128823701195484,0.11249751438706464,0.0,0.0,0.0579808554356062,0.0627882736665544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366537785392586,0.0,0.06362447909141973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041788373706062615,0.08934433880199041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077234271231624,0.0356126789665575,0.0,0.04412339380330661,0.2268592956331433,0.0,0.0,0.053107967081925916,0.0,0.11320316005807138,0.060453822246831324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800227622520646,0.0,0.0,0.22947289472468976,0.1323476978082007,0.044581996075834365,0.27072023514789,0.0,0.05152214507365633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564430137954452,0.0,0.03948161603924715,0.0,0.0,0.1073728596548168
EDAnonymous,sammakle,2019/01/16,"I want everyone to know and sympathise with how much I'm struggling and suffering but I don't want them to stop me it's a stupid position to be in. I want to cry about it and explain what I'm going through because no one irl knows.

I want to tell my friend but a) I don't want her to worry about me and b) I'm still struggling and i know its a shitty mindset but i genuinely feel like I haven't lost enough weight to let people stop me (I mean I'm still ~80kg and classed as overweight)

tldr fml I'm sad and suffering and can't tell anyone even tho I want to tell everyone ",-0.03380952380952351,2.004519269841272,2.1549206349206362,95.64285714285715,86.46031746031748,5.822222222222222,20.904761904761905,7.1686216300943375,0.4719428571428571,452,15,107,7,14,152,69,126,0.292,0.579,0.128,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,7,9,1,2,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,27,25,14,0,6,3,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,9,2,2,6,0,0,1,5,7,0,1,1,2,16,2,14,22,2,6,0,4,0,0,7,1,0,0,5,63,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050347952015024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762006723094311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788713088445985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851760213330156,0.0,0.09493620276817448,0.0,0.0,0.2746916138856529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726771870828018,0.1026849518116267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104999560440676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168842128789504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23698046593730646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697969061841412,0.0,0.07022209771396999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690470824543107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15657052682494074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566242098429576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739916208528283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964837126860723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295753421743101,0.24033928788147935,0.0,0.3005279308585619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768945218510327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086749281706426,0.0,0.0,0.1750315969296103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597077805787054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,batsinabox,2019/01/16,"struggles with bloating so due to a few straight months spent binging and purging every single day, my bloating problem can get really bad. i’ve gotten my binging a little more under control and know when to stop eating, and i haven’t purged in almost two weeks. the problem is, it’s hard for me to feel good after eating because of how insanely bloated i get. like if i eat over 200 calories i legitimately look pregnant. 

if this wasn’t the case i would have a lot easier time eating normally but my stomach is one of my biggest insecurities and watching it grow and shrink like it does is horrible. so discouraging.

i know this happens to a lot of y’all too, and i was wondering what foods you find particularly helpful for reducing bloating, gas, etc. stuff that’s easy to digest and not heavy on the stomach. i’ve found a few posts on this sub but the majority of my previous resources were on proed:(. ",6.049952978056427,6.7605304425287365,6.854952978056423,74.08989028213165,66.41379310344827,9.315778474399163,34.78369905956113,9.339509955726095,3.2510068965517247,723,33,129,13,11,240,113,174,0.133,0.7659999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.7113,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,5,9,0,2,9,0,10,8,2,2,0,30,21,15,0,6,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,8,6,3,6,0,1,1,3,6,0,2,6,4,15,3,19,14,8,19,0,1,2,0,3,9,0,6,10,88,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976282058303485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653814397397698,0.08508278420222894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654368471905575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001343924188994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214181676097648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5712746376254129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155661482613871,0.0,0.0,0.11759679589036726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057261675790304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275677614786608,0.0,0.16877297716228798,0.15303527186175647,0.0,0.0,0.14584291310937889,0.0,0.0,0.11706773170419288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342449255994654,0.0,0.12503054982750045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355325641825477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534120244421736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637724267610635,0.1398894360676718,0.0,0.0,0.11720668956080255,0.0,0.0,0.23732100363037414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140633308613536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675251480243325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945786981347291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367294770231222,0.0,0.0,0.26710621192798417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941443593166093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668979728262405,0.0,0.14591265389346458,0.1597784039424312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138650112883547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363431473832703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195754023116508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136163872485808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914909616398776,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qyubot,2019/01/16,"So triggered by Marie Kondo She's literally everything I want to be, she's so small and tiny and delicate looking compared to ANYONE AND EVERYONE she stands next to. She's so skinny, her limbs are so thin and her skin is so beautiful and pale too. She's even had TWO BABIES and still manages to look teeny tiny, almost like a little doll. DID I MENTION HOW YOUNG SHE LOOKS. SHE LOOKS LIKE A LITTLE GIRL. GOD I WISH IT WERE ME. I'm so sad because I'm also east asian, yet every time I see her I feel so horrible and ashamed that because of my bone structure I'll never look as delicate and doll-like..... Anyone else feels the same?",1.7075300480769222,3.932724164062499,3.2765625000000007,89.10834134615385,80.796875,6.125961538461539,22.346153846153847,7.321109707123232,0.8704956730769231,495,16,101,7,13,163,82,128,0.08800000000000001,0.755,0.157,0.748,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,1,3,0,6,3,3,2,1,17,18,18,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,10,17,2,7,14,1,12,0,1,6,0,12,5,0,1,8,59,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975843334052026,0.0,0.0,0.12758581243704908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22311118388847892,0.16346980279545947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19451084704350355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332770076140289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537609590540292,0.0,0.13442115577617694,0.1524493765561057,0.14338621138146046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133862557939962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15588848695487306,0.31980632694490563,0.0,0.0,0.6698761882148019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304875381216344,0.0,0.1696749034114543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713445023623648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12741057978456252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303031994610096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584951371045044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094102103048569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834656171502608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ceruleanohara,2019/01/16,"He saw my wrist bone. He thought it was a growth.  ""What the hell is that???"" Then he checked the other arm. Sames. He then checked his own (obviously no outward poking bone because hey-- YOURE FUCKING NORMAL) 
.
Are you sure that's okay? Do you need a doctor?

No, that's what happens when you have an 18 bmi.

Oh.

Goes on upon his life. Forgets the whole conversation.

Me? Probably up all night.

Fuck.",-0.2769736842105281,1.4123324868421072,0.8572368421052623,97.37690789473686,112.28947368421049,3.4789473684210535,19.223684210526315,5.602791699666715,-0.15040526315789424,303,11,63,3,16,94,59,76,0.158,0.762,0.08,-0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,4,0,0,1,5,3,0,6,1,5,8,4,0,3,8,11,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,3,1,8,2,3,8,4,9,1,0,1,2,12,4,3,0,4,38,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285631203408167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902369648918762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5242956308204005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507522855373532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028770367682647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21025708112625585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26610303332568025,0.27782982881647994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057269979866724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672531315216231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511596615567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165860199745255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,velocity2ds,2019/01/16,"I told someone I have ED and they asked if it was for overeating triggeredT 
This girl was maybe thinner than me but also much shorter and just diff body frames like I have boobs so I’m not going to look delicate tiny ever anyway. Lmao now I’m like oh maybe my heavy winter jacket made me look more blah blah but wow lmao

I just met this girl tonight too and so few people even know I have ED but somehow I just told this girl cause of what we were talking about (wasn’t anything about overeating) and then that lol ",0.24267857142857,2.650076285714288,0.792232142857145,101.07120535714287,95.66666666666666,3.0059523809523814,17.038690476190474,4.557286568694721,-0.9752738095238098,410,11,88,1,16,123,71,105,0.034,0.7340000000000001,0.231,0.9784,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,1,0,14,3,0,0,0,1,7,2,2,2,1,18,18,12,0,1,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,2,11,3,8,10,3,8,0,0,2,1,10,2,1,2,7,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407644061617314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912985253338787,0.0,0.20349887070910924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417903840897853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361452652864888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377378919220918,0.1969015602603592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371101349365705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962973926655948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269224550758115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.365588180286104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20597150371230136,0.0,0.0,0.4373721672425696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001784563925334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091001647816615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844372513067722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496075063209046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41599993507327215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,erinaceoushuman,2019/01/16,I'll just have a breakdown for lunch Wanted to grab some quick protein because it was my first day back at college. I went to the food court and ordered grilled chicken nuggets and the cashier accidentally rung it as a meal. They were super apologetic and then she gave me fries AND 12 extra FRIED nuggets. I feel like such an ass because I was trying to be polite but wanted to scream SCREW THE MONEY DONT GIVE ME ALL THAT FOOD. ,4.802499999999998,6.095210440476192,4.479523809523811,87.88214285714287,69.59523809523809,6.552380952380951,29.47619047619048,6.42735559955562,1.286633333333334,343,13,68,2,6,104,65,84,0.11800000000000001,0.833,0.049,-0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,0,6,0,6,6,1,0,1,11,12,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,5,3,8,2,7,6,3,8,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,1,6,44,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980366457128002,0.0,0.3139947776002565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660955862035072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018414895171054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302227783877892,0.1839906064098425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190681299673644,0.6228502502109879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24706117820391635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582375619619893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485653604940524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30381409949691235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387473232936169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberrybubblegam,2019/01/16,"How long will it take to undo the damage of a 5 day binge ???? i binged over my TDEE and didn’t exercise at all or the past 5 days. i go back to school in 5 days and i want to look SKINNY but i look in the mirror and my thighs and ass are stretching all my pants. my belly is distended. how long will this last?? ive had this disorder for a long ass time, but i’m in a panic over looking fat at school again. fuck

Will a 6 day water/coffee fast + exercise undo a 5 day binge streak? ",-0.8608255451713411,0.9933839065420572,1.78282710280374,98.16215342679129,88.43925233644859,5.061993769470405,14.524143302180686,6.42735559955562,-0.7450679127725857,366,6,92,4,12,126,64,107,0.23800000000000002,0.752,0.011000000000000001,-0.9814,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,8,0,8,8,5,2,2,14,16,9,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,3,9,0,12,11,2,23,0,1,3,3,0,8,3,1,14,52,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12964490046888946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5436732596679129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19323304994684615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558702766077713,0.0,0.0,0.0958206752427483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374335248657005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44762366949775695,0.4247508605720648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781868369907574,0.0,0.0,0.16095014562210708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412694235047964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676808266895154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831346237704587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944611147232893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,animeprofilepicture,2019/01/16,"need help breaking out of binge cycle for the past two months ive been binging (2000+cal daily) and i just feel so nauseous and heavy and sick all the time. i really need some motivation/help to break out of it to try and achieve normal eating patterns again (yes, non ed eating patterns)",11.930727272727275,7.6048563454545475,10.367727272727274,69.71159090909093,58.27272727272727,12.454545454545455,42.04545454545455,8.841846274778883,3.81609090909091,229,8,42,2,2,71,42,55,0.06,0.8909999999999999,0.049,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,1,13,5,5,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,7,4,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5651217177194299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396250271916747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701825600736493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041285984672648,0.0,0.0,0.40950963720886335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27055924060916164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26360752934248904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769027934887839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101985380719738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874813984373532,0.0,0.2697493239636149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,woulddieforabba,2019/01/16,"Anyone else gain over Christmas, big trigger I gained so much weight over the holidays and now I feel like I’m spiralling out of control and I’m just going to get bigger, I have no self control whatsoever I feel so disgusting, I can’t see my ribs anymore and I have a double chin and I just want to die ",1.0128571428571431,3.311152825396828,2.9041269841269863,90.27142857142859,84.23809523809524,5.504761904761906,23.285714285714285,6.868970318607317,0.8088476190476189,240,9,50,3,7,80,44,63,0.157,0.6579999999999999,0.185,-0.0171,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,4,5,2,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,3,0,13,11,6,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,8,1,6,11,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495668045743817,0.17595785661506966,0.2578427098083493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5644883743987799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611704841066169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102192833825558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544811806508311,0.17977709939657355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314754873159606,0.0,0.14301713322477566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294230866192868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849899447255281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20053056037464348,0.0,0.26252333446877074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842827747866774,0.0,0.0,0.3064389888060762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bandsandstories,2019/01/16,"Losing weight I am OBSESSED with losing weight. I weigh myself at least 3-5 times a day. Since Friday night I’ve probably lost about 4 lbs, but I feel it isn’t enough. Altogether I wanna lose at least 40. It crowds my mind all day everyday. All I think about is how fat I am and how fat I look. I feel like nobody actually likes me or thinks I’m pretty, and when they say that they’re lying. I feel like I’m the fat girl they feel bad for so they force themselves to be around me. I hate myself so much I can’t take it",0.9759292035398276,2.498552654867261,2.809920353982303,95.04337610619469,79.97345132743362,5.935929203539826,16.609734513274336,6.742157984588678,-0.4479408849557518,402,6,98,4,10,134,73,113,0.207,0.6729999999999999,0.12,-0.8561,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,4,8,10,1,1,2,0,6,6,3,2,2,18,18,9,0,1,2,0,6,3,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,4,6,0,6,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,8,19,3,9,16,6,9,0,4,1,0,6,3,0,1,9,55,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.15053642193842626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732493899653184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880143876941946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989710851329168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593927842930776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311995858735163,0.22040808818829855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523007383792361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22609230514274165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954033532748813,0.5177355896799021,0.1683940351628158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575957134839552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339953806093556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476343929251412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693883056397695,0.16631938073009225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267448854785876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760624103431767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598502648570325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976883590740821,0.0,0.0,0.08995079279916951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37569652584121055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KittyTittyScribbles,2019/02/08,"What do you want your Goal Weight body to be able to do? Like I want be light enough my boyfriend can pick me up and fuck me against the wall :P
Also to fit back into the kid section (I'm 5'0 so this isn't even that unhealthy) 
I want a body that doesn't get chafing or sweat so much
And I want to be able to feel my bones clearly.

I'm loosing weight hard and fast right now, but I'm trying to move away from an arbitrary number and towards clear ideas of what my ""goal weight"" would look and feel like. Maybe that way I will know it when I get there and not just push it down again.",2.5035714285714303,3.2252831666666717,2.7938095238095246,99.96785714285713,74.47619047619048,5.917460317460318,21.142857142857142,5.033348758259628,-0.43872380952380974,453,9,115,1,9,138,83,126,0.027000000000000003,0.812,0.16,0.8926,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,2,11,3,1,0,4,0,10,8,4,1,2,23,24,12,0,5,4,0,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,7,3,0,4,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,8,12,2,14,19,3,17,0,0,1,1,3,9,1,1,7,70,20,2,0.3015547052368158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205765944145837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416602860719338,0.1159384772330101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334959296876062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579331058173873,0.0,0.0995870193893787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247511967282487,0.10771537083733017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939123290182645,0.15754988727476724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350668922558575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702092784237448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828632898306526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732439686219076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661500195284825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147611655880527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025246420246314,0.11083870283907392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876303530266212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236792514253663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557295563233581,0.11968004440041215,0.0,0.5508185875017864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071079052865324,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tipsytoess,2019/02/08,"Was told it's perfectly healthy to be underweight today I was chatting with a guy on Tinder and he mentioned that a certain actress was hot. I told him yeah she's pretty but distractingly underweight. He said that there's actually no such thing as underweight, BMI is bullshit, skinny girls get bullied way worse than obese girls, just a bunch of nonsense. He tells me his ex had a BMI of 17 and she was extremely healthy. He tells me underweight doesnt necessarily mean unhealthy the way overweight does. He's met tons of girls that were 90 lbs or below and they were perfectly healthy. There's absolutely nothing wrong with being underweight. There's no reason to try to gain weight if you're underweight. And on and on and on. I eventually unfriended him and told him we wouldn't be a good match. I'm not about to speak to someone so triggering..it actually sounded like he had some sort of fetish for underweight girls.",3.0863793103448245,5.973583327586213,3.807597701149426,83.25967241379313,80.66666666666667,7.617931034482758,27.66551724137931,8.548686976883017,2.4665365517241384,745,33,137,18,20,236,105,174,0.16399999999999998,0.652,0.184,0.3079,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,1,3,7,7,0,1,6,1,14,4,1,1,3,23,22,12,0,2,5,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,5,5,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,13,5,13,5,20,5,3,8,0,0,0,0,30,5,0,4,2,80,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.3455366065517701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493140941216216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249759288020816,0.0,0.0,0.1484951603848279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530027685042865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864942039502406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285158832700192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987740951951472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011624778573754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18202955775335306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840831265356773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000785000392616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30948654532742004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761941662306305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781594055177312,0.507516150506276,0.0,0.1202004879548076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810567805365232,0.0,0.21559052115234975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042181066217808,0.0,0.1935685866945518,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,captain-stardust,2019/02/08,"Does anyone else not count alcohol as breaking a fast? I know alcohol as bomb calories but I always feel like physical food is the shit that 'breaks' a fast you know? Alcohol is empty calories...

Hope y'all are having a good night (or day) of some sorts on this strange little planet

Peace ✌",2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,3.4321428571428565,87.07952380952383,80.42857142857143,6.590476190476192,23.619047619047624,7.793537801064563,1.4096404761904768,228,8,43,4,6,73,46,56,0.099,0.595,0.307,0.9541,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,4,0,4,5,1,0,0,9,8,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,4,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,4,5,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6730139922870068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746681994337284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677921639917715,0.21508531433582306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537943951245426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837002433569797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535915861028686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061406094698571,0.14996512394255962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538331080948826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606886301187447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849547033166294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23073036713596776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025551008340607,0.21039251036351228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969933798192224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154773258901088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwawayy16788,2019/02/08,"How do you go back to eating intuitively after an ED? In 2015 I struggled with anorexia nervosa, I was officially diagnosed with ana by a shrink but I’m not sure if you could call it that considering my motivation for starving myself was feeling in control, not really losing weight, tbh I never had issues with my body image. Either way I’ve suffered from disordered eating before and ever since I’ve recovered (started eating more and got a healthy BMI) my relationship with food has never been the same. It’s hard to explain but every day I approximately count calories and do a lot of portion control. I also find myself thinking a lot about food, for instance I think things like “If I eat X now, I can’t eat Y then.” and I get angry at myself whenever I eat more than I’d like to. I don’t do any of this because I wanna maintain my weight, I currently have a BMI of 19 and I wouldn’t mind gaining a few pounds, I do it because I enjoy the feeling of control. But the thing I’m tired of all of this, I wanna eat like I did before I had an ED, what I want when I want, eat when I’m hungry, stop when I’m full. Start eating intuitively was one of my new years resolution and I’ve been trying to do so but I fail every time. I’m starting to feel absolutely hopeless and I was wondering if you could give me any tips that’ve helped you with this.",4.342862318840584,4.872931039855075,6.037826086956525,79.08471014492756,70.1231884057971,8.45217391304348,29.10144927536232,8.515128840125781,2.0844579710144933,1061,38,212,16,18,366,147,276,0.124,0.752,0.12300000000000001,-0.4859,1,0,0,0,0,1,23.0,0,4,0,7,10,10,0,1,11,0,21,16,1,5,5,52,42,21,0,10,10,0,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,12,13,4,9,0,0,1,7,5,0,1,10,6,36,5,29,29,10,25,0,4,0,0,9,4,0,6,22,145,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062462717803879915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062318600344048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006001762760989,0.0,0.09522748585127104,0.0,0.13292783860773769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676007204440055,0.0,0.0,0.0797567180737632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26281335868589,0.12472532214530616,0.0,0.0,0.05037301959617091,0.0,0.0,0.07927769461460525,0.0,0.0,0.08951821740824556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7193133015035805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065290713753135,0.13161825064619107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184808347566568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138904371308318,0.0,0.18889633720258106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04080806145113107,0.074928045082851,0.04439041893167218,0.0,0.062469881299704114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996917782083477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235396023674257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152416971059168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11447846414357865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738256277173438,0.0,0.13280878574510055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788665341457284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048298221685914,0.07543692552135639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052927814497992214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05003780736854729,0.0,0.0,0.08385846342255837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06461151554680836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585514491447362,0.0,0.0,0.06530155379792837,0.0,0.0816551510064318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361560449023509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378260086435544,0.10009654999791907,0.0,0.0,0.045545241363455516,0.08977333739250787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053030016740741474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213991736541301,0.0619982748429209,0.0,0.19022832836007664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847044936601817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050298812701653366
EDAnonymous,biochembiscuit,2019/02/08,"it’s about time that i tell my doctor i am currently sitting in my exam room waiting for a doctor to see me for my routine check-up. the doctor i usually see is currently out of town, and i’ve always been too scared to tell her about the bulimia i’ve been suffering from since i was 18 (i am 22 now). Since i am seeing a substitute doctor today, i spontaneously have the courage to open up about it... something about her being a stranger is more appealing to me. I hope opening up to her doesn’t make her take away the ritalin that i am prescribed  to treat my ADHD. Anyways, pls wish me luck, i am really trying hard to maintain my recovery because my ED is severely interfering with my ability to study for the MCAT and apply for medical schools. 

anyways, i’m super nervous, but other people’s success stories about telling their healthcare provider has been inspirational 

thanks for listening, hope everyone is having a great day, xx ",6.335749111223973,6.885837150837992,7.104966988318948,73.10700863382428,65.75977653631284,10.531437277805994,36.384459116302686,10.436869588844218,4.006973184357542,746,36,131,18,11,248,109,179,0.047,0.7509999999999999,0.20199999999999999,0.9834,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,2,9,13,0,2,9,0,18,6,0,1,0,14,30,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,5,25,10,26,25,1,17,0,1,3,0,9,9,0,3,7,91,30,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254182830838446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253718086154267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706995980124666,0.0,0.0,0.08244593307073728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722377924968419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537282868192064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923527183457506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491114112078108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115565374981625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686635864982296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902790985370358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136248143743841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376394252888938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664334000704127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354068546819344,0.13687820915926388,0.3233254659412624,0.0,0.0,0.1527917572669133,0.0,0.22375710704746965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412052761401702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10168967354929606,0.0,0.3546381725701777,0.12451819873232665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788642037028411,0.0,0.12819930167984928,0.0,0.0,0.09182452254962883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895657803264342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552853963942576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpecialistBiscotti2,2019/02/08,"How do I make unsweetened peanut butter taste less like shit? Not sure what other sub to ask so I'll just ask here since I do have an ed lol

I was craving peanut butter the other day but I accidentally bought some organic unsweetened one and it's absolutely disgusting. It has that thick, sticky feeling like regular peanut butter but without the good taste that is supposed to come with it. And at 90 cals/tbsp, it's basically not even worth eating at this point.

Is there any way to make it taste better? I'm considering adding artificial sweetener but I'm not sure how that'll turn out... Do you guys have any idea on what I could mix/eat it with?

It was kinda expensive but I'm considering just throwing it out at this point -_- I tried putting it on a crepe and it was the worst thing I've ever eaten.",2.3805625,4.723122931250003,3.5762500000000053,87.23375000000001,79.0625,6.75,21.875,7.865858978985527,0.9901875000000002,639,19,131,11,16,207,94,160,0.152,0.778,0.071,-0.9394,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,9,9,2,0,5,1,13,6,1,4,3,30,25,10,0,1,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,20,8,5,0,2,0,3,3,4,3,0,1,5,8,7,6,13,18,3,16,0,0,0,0,4,10,1,2,4,80,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23391356655338744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215685024458668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210816824222448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815122413175238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731730261091168,0.0,0.0,0.11091712663214152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519704493956312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359552492945828,0.1555717229327701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696159079826725,0.12286725888838874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14425419727689653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029377020734224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941519331431236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804792732115129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296047772936699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165425688215552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251658493048009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289403247702673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765417697708058,0.14226908986700262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241906636053928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426025255749946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676760951182925,0.1870720297735777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365149549670693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16578894164872865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,The_Truth_Was_a_Cave,2019/02/08,How long was your longest fast? \+ did you faint/how shitty was it?,-2.185714285714287,-2.414866,-0.7392857142857139,106.59678571428572,137.57142857142856,1.4,10.642857142857142,3.1291,-2.166228571428571,52,1,12,0,4,16,12,14,0.248,0.752,0.0,-0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Teotalot,2019/02/08,"I haven't had an appetite in a week and a half I'm not quite sure when it started. Maybe when I got a (non-hormonal) IUD two Tuesdays ago? Maybe the day before? All I know is I didn't eat Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday, and I attributed it to feeling weird and crampy from the IUD. On Friday my psych doctor thought it would be good to start me on four new media at once, and I ate a salad with that because two of them should be taken with food, and then I spent all of Friday nauseous and almost of Saturday throwing up. I took the mess that one time that Friday but haven't taken them since, because I'm too scared they'll make me sick and because I don't want to eat. 

That Sunday I felt physically great. No nausea, no cramping, nothing. And that's when I realized my appetite was just... gone. There was no desire to eat, and I couldn't attribute it to any sock feelings. And I thought back and realized my previous days of no appetite were sort of the same, not really because of the cramping or anything (except the throwing up, that definitely killed it.)

And so I've spent the last week just... not eating. A couple potato oles a friend offered me, licking sugar scrub off my lips, drinking broth, I'm taking in small amounts of calories, but I'm not eating. But I feel fine! I'm not tired, I'm not cold, I'm not weak, I'm great.

I've gone from 153lb to 138. This is the lowest I've ever weighed as an adult and I'm on a cloud. Next Friday I have to see my psych doc again, so my weight loss will be discovered, but a huge part of me is pushing to see if I can keep not eating til then. 

The other part of my recognizes that my appetite just disappearing is probably not food. But I don't have a fever, I don't feeling bad, I'm HIV-, I don't know what it would be. So I should probably try to eat, and if I can't I should tell my doctor right away.

But this feels like a miracle. I've been wishing for this for so long. I wish on shooting stars and eyelashes and white  horses for this. I watched a short horror film about a family where one by one each member just stops eating for unexplained reasons despite feeling great, and I just dream about that being me. And now it is. And I don't want to throw it away. My weight is just flying off. My TDEE is in the 2000s (I haven't been recalculate as I've been getting smaller but I'd guess around 2100) so it's not even like it's all water weight. I might be able to break into the 120s if I keep going til Friday, and I would lose my mind if that happened I'd be so excited. 

Rational brain says something might be wrong. ED brain says I have been given the gift of a lifetime and I'm a fool if I waste it.",2.271294633951726,3.6709084254937214,3.621893476959908,91.14157350887692,76.0556552962298,6.459190105725115,23.68837023738281,7.0316486544052195,0.6905429004588073,2071,63,460,21,45,679,249,557,0.10800000000000001,0.754,0.138,0.9654,1,0,2,1,0,0,72.0,0,0,3,3,27,20,1,1,28,0,48,31,3,4,5,101,96,50,1,17,31,0,10,2,1,10,9,2,0,1,26,26,19,3,14,3,2,9,25,10,0,7,22,19,52,10,53,55,8,61,0,2,4,1,9,21,0,12,32,294,78,4,0.06729564664390521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05965353036284951,0.0,0.06738686927785352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045763347383908616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05537858322723229,0.059907393018689574,0.0,0.0,0.12645295051834618,0.05174619835679856,0.05618905400662266,0.1640912063140597,0.0,0.05726363873538405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024839532236053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446135302782515,0.0,0.08680024971075227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775989180148998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06592411399077558,0.0,0.5508819751465395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04444813992794014,0.060872765137892276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06344034649669747,0.0,0.2041602057065869,0.04807602340871188,0.06461437414480188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274832608880224,0.0,0.05199244966301197,0.0,0.03515919784605444,0.0,0.03824566681651682,0.05644439558457839,0.053822476195446826,0.2225810639982245,0.07413374175654938,0.0,0.059509318079919375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963092557058255,0.07445266233192711,0.0,0.07396785492457711,0.0548549338450926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575450743160245,0.0,0.0,0.05955452960935473,0.0,0.07528661503477338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04492036669406692,0.0,0.13521504440697876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278009289265509,0.06794941927792597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499455487440042,0.07156968365825901,0.0,0.0,0.06457198792845374,0.0,0.0,0.07166766738344651,0.1368038153728029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574925480491482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451121781787114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157720379067282,0.0,0.0,0.04311131444360127,0.06919113282405592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05747011453672875,0.0,0.10703239852142094,0.0673746821110254,0.0,0.10725183515690004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05566765431786257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051807476554306016,0.0,0.0,0.09526441012669702,0.0,0.0,0.05626217389389113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342535055061604,0.0,0.050597951229657004,0.0,0.058819361342466576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685045287717247,0.03924063273531585,0.07734644622763126,0.0,0.0,0.07476793954933961,0.04568932666894989,0.0,0.13147613666238225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938543192131642,0.0,0.1079610170538206,0.24584390417854926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477334499811493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341468970820814,0.07357722535751647,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Suppup00,2019/02/08,just ate an entire little ceasers pizza and 2 pieces of cheesecake and i can't get any of it up plus i still have room for more food in my stomach. I'm angry. I'm disappointed. I hope there is someone out there having a shittier food day than me,0.4752564102564101,2.7216462692307712,2.539999999999999,92.28833333333336,86.30769230769229,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.1736820512820514,194,6,42,2,6,65,43,52,0.18100000000000002,0.763,0.055,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,6,9,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,8,8,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141183019418347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049450817833692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.751844509774031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242409678727718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087780310813903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31158751315304023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26341106605275183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482724221481588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cozyday,2019/02/08,"I physically can't purge and I wish I could OK so I'm a bit of a mess right now so this will be all over the place - my apologies.

I really can't purge. I've had my head in the toilet for 20 min and it just doesn't happen. No matter what I try.

I was doing so well these past few days. I had no problem restricting and was productive af. Today my mom and sis were in town and we had hamburgers (I prepared for this, only had 150kcal before, and they were pretty small). But they brought me a donut and I was sure I had enough self control but guess what??? I fucking ate that motherfucker. It was a huge one with tons of filling and I feel disgusting. I knew I was gonna regret that. I thought about throwing it away as I ate but still I finished. How fucking stupid.

I had 1.5L of water right away and tried to purge but I just can't. No matter how far in my throat I stick my fingers it just doesn't happen. Fingers, toothbrush, electric toothbrush, more water... Nothing helps. I feel terrible. Now my face is red and swollen and I'm pretty sure I'll get those red dots on my eyelids that will make me look sick af. If I managed to purge I'd at least feel a bit better - now I feel disgustingly full of food & water and I get all the downsides of purging without actually getting rid of the food.

I don't really know what's the point of this post. I guess I just needed to vent. I'll probably have a self care evening - smoke one, watch my 690lb life and sip on peppermint tea. Life is fun. ",0.5504134129536062,2.7629022958199383,2.29343500229674,94.44622508038587,85.52733118971061,5.226311437758382,20.782820395039046,6.610729790773281,0.23934094625631586,1158,37,259,13,35,380,164,311,0.139,0.7390000000000001,0.122,-0.8166,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,2,2,16,16,5,0,11,1,27,19,5,4,4,50,54,24,0,6,10,2,6,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,15,15,8,2,7,0,0,3,10,9,1,2,18,10,40,7,25,31,10,31,0,1,4,2,9,18,2,3,9,164,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.10886058534079082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086868263561253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961725865891911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492421428952263,0.0,0.0,0.098660423370355,0.2435760915666885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137367096826262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511726582554206,0.0890667698403517,0.0,0.0,0.07194308365559951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115265073885841,0.0,0.07368034676922074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256201613434443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697830127823952,0.0,0.0,0.2062597001048745,0.17484703928835366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457785549081605,0.0,0.19729361900123568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448655914342612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477227633382158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06130714591717248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758773968966192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367724134402997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744631428983352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065066438797596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271585713992627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703904527522697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511837176593064,0.08484182292788077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649088938036996,0.0,0.0,0.11655015824700275,0.0,0.10545456147662416,0.0,0.106837869322991,0.2269809888916021,0.12027405000499758,0.10674208602354136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292866261810575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905329660497784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327502447441573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908714656710585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102765978556145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856139349365116,0.0,0.0,0.10574012230014934,0.0,0.0,0.15147564951325704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030041840306726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828156305957064,0.10753404871156734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nodfvther,2019/02/08,the irony dropping 75$ on groceries and coming back home to find that your scale has been delivered ,8.39736842105263,8.018169789473685,6.725263157894743,80.68684210526318,61.631578947368425,9.705263157894738,34.78947368421053,8.841846274778883,2.786536842105264,82,3,15,1,1,24,19,19,0.066,0.934,0.0,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315500366023044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834486163632927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129526371171425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5629578965780095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thetexangypsy,2019/02/08,"The Struggle Is Real So since I cant trust my ass around the kitchen like... at all, I've decided to do the OMAD thang. Which was followed closely by, ""why don't I take my sleepings meds after so I'm double sure I won't binge?"" 

Cut to this morning, waking up surrounded by food wrappers. Apparently ambien makes me sleep eat. I can't fucking win.",0.6260317460317459,3.0745424285714305,2.6147619047619024,90.169126984127,89.0,5.396825396825397,23.49206349206349,6.937597516519254,1.0000158730158737,270,11,55,4,9,90,55,70,0.12300000000000001,0.774,0.10400000000000001,-0.3241,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,2,1,3,0,7,8,4,1,2,7,12,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,7,4,8,10,2,7,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266943424191959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26057265391992745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079263084525801,0.0,0.0,0.2354217464650346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441014432605092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16998224218776728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828610559776076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28984981983177466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21065083379058064,0.0,0.5096719775170129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662176470746831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400065736676819,0.0,0.1914666738742447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297838954708701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edgaranalhoe,2019/02/08,"Empress Elisabeth of Austria Saw this 19th century lady mentioned in a post elsewhere, and decided to read about her interesting life. 

She was apparently a style icon back in the day and was obsessed with perfecting her looks due to the lack of control in her life after marrying young into royalty. Some of her quirks were:

* At 172 cm (5'8""), she was resorting to ""fasting cures"" if her weight exceeded 50 kg (110 lbs) and often survived on just beef broth, juice and eggs
* Had every house that she lived in equipped with a personal gym and her bedroom with giant mirrors
* Spent hours every day horse riding or, when her health deteriorated later in life, hiking in any weather
* Was terrified of overweight women
* Had a tendency for occasional binging when she would visit restaurants incognito, and had a staircase installed in one of her houses that led right into kitchen from her living room, so she could binge in secret
* Wore the tightest corsets to achieve the ""wasp waist"" (think those unrealistic looking waists you may have seen in old pictures) and refused to wear undergarments to appear as slender as possible
* Had beautiful thick hair, down to the floor, which she washed with a special mixture once every two weeks, canceling all arrangements for that day. Her personal hairdresser was not to wear rings, but to comb through her hair, tweeze grey hairs and collect the fallen hairs into a metal tray
* Was prone to periods of bad depression and often wished she were dead

I think she would fit in really well with our community. Does anyone know other historical figures who clearly had some kind of eating disorder?",8.601826625386998,9.461024245614038,7.799463364293089,69.00408668730651,60.92982456140351,10.916408668730652,37.81733746130031,10.718039707386858,4.3547956656346765,1310,60,204,30,17,407,190,285,0.10099999999999999,0.8290000000000001,0.07,-0.9146,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,1,0,4,9,8,0,1,13,0,18,19,9,2,3,45,29,17,1,6,5,0,6,0,0,3,6,1,3,3,8,17,7,2,6,2,1,5,1,3,1,2,17,12,22,5,46,8,4,44,0,1,5,0,29,22,0,8,16,134,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061353500995982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317043470331036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245985541881084,0.11125691417835187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944949955475598,0.10638806795985646,0.0,0.0,0.2578027367640979,0.0,0.11476671971801955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271430104912406,0.0,0.11660664192488256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634645954364996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33680277157010396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14163690220489855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122291096001526,0.3075017089821954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875778605763592,0.0732298793135982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823520240454763,0.0,0.0,0.2353216963773767,0.0,0.22379032575817914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982186391129373,0.14190528138279365,0.09029261787304158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269486447137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021763912878547,0.1276152096072888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328453793803552,0.0,0.08536238767433889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379347301485568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707604900201341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016440222880293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688389243524896,0.1622607500815611,0.11980638512651175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322917484535467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931179280221208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isdrunknskinnyathing,2019/02/08,Well christ I mean come on and post your peach vents here please cause I'm going to so I was the same username on peach but recently changed because of personal security reasons and went to hurricanedisco so please for the love of god tell me about your day because I'm actually dying to know. Tell me everything. I need it. I love you guys,2.5472068230277185,5.066186492537317,3.641364605543711,86.00358208955225,79.59701492537313,7.410660980810236,25.989339019189767,8.418075326091056,1.9032533049040512,273,11,55,6,7,88,47,67,0.0,0.6970000000000001,0.303,0.9735,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,10,11,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,9,4,9,9,1,8,1,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,2,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.18605113331858536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23244223177119475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585452501684325,0.20168701152903729,0.16423183195424124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229562766602413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786910416020376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134782705084164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083532548769737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887777709259728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104778639052052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34414597042576783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767846815762606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413677771079831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647201553686292,0.0,0.4185624251125024,0.0,0.0,0.18259415569610424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196024414637053,0.18824815973324105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33328059263899296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714211480472956,0.1767384829769918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wethail,2019/02/08,"First Win of the Day! [My since-2008 Tumblr has my oldest body checked flagged and ready for removal over so called “nudity”](https://imgur.com/a/XQIu60U)

[ciful.tumblr.com ](ciful.tumblr.com)

Appealed and got it approved!! As well as some others (hotdog legs by the water, anyone?). 

I was feeling r sad about Tumblr’s new restrictive (pun) guidelines, but how easy it was to get my posts back gives me hope. 
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EDAnonymous,vladadoll,2019/02/08,"Struggling not to purge at work There was cake. Pretty bad cake at that, but I couldn't say no and had to eat it (pushy co-worker). I'm sitting at my desk trying not to have a breakdown because I'm obsessing over the astronomically high unknown calories. We only have one bathroom here and you'd be able to hear me throwing up easily, and I'm occupied with clients. I keep trying to work out how many calories I'm digesting the longer it sits in my stomach. I'm trying not to freak out. It's not working. ",2.537756202804747,4.391186572815535,4.110226537216828,85.97811218985979,76.47572815533981,6.519525350593313,26.97842502696871,7.3871296695380915,1.4210353829557711,399,16,81,5,9,133,70,103,0.071,0.8240000000000001,0.10400000000000001,0.5253,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,0,3,3,4,0,2,3,0,7,3,1,1,0,15,14,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,7,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,2,2,7,0,15,9,0,12,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,0,48,11,4,0.205209323094825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134121318502687,0.12509369867453066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998036808967915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23128582128718914,0.0,0.0,0.2168149166233332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239947516553068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805004474129107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905514818807788,0.156070937299866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877165567078693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319069022413174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145293402195925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179709802629272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5975793249770994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wannabegrapefruit,2019/02/08,"He left and I just feel like I'm falling apart I don't have much else to say right now. I've been crying for so long and in so tired and I'm so sad. 

But I also kind of love that I haven't eaten in days and don't even care ",-1.2861818181818163,-0.20956543636363456,1.3581818181818193,104.91727272727276,85.18181818181819,4.4,12.818181818181818,3.1291,-1.8321636363636364,171,1,51,0,5,59,38,55,0.253,0.639,0.10800000000000001,-0.825,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,7,11,9,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,4,4,5,9,1,9,0,1,0,1,3,5,0,0,4,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22595332708968865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880762536537039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103654270215221,0.18221991891300485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360323825958787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18662011873221254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286462789790913,0.20185216324579344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29422999353696144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069889482624874,0.0,0.0,0.13803855463870798,0.0,0.0,0.2500458602937517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550103684357032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20770510063240727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129422774014406,0.0,0.22469330496893464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247470648246804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnderwearFighter,2019/02/08,"What do you like about yourself? It could be one word or a novel. You don’t have to love that part of you or think it’s even good. You just have to kinda like it. Or you could romanticize the shit out of ourselves. Whatever works for you. Shut the ED brain off for a second until you hit “post”. 

Here are mine:

My eyes. My lips. My hair. How quiet I can be. How loud I can be. The way I laugh. How I (think I) look when I’m distracted or completely in thought. How I really do try my best.

-

We’re all lovely. We just all tend to forget sometimes. It’s important to stop and remind yourself that there are good things about you, and if that’s the case, you, too, must be good. You deserve to know that about yourself. ",-0.4771476510067103,1.7345865704698014,1.2537550335570486,99.34304865771814,92.69127516778522,4.590738255033557,15.503691275167785,6.2581,-0.6366754362416103,545,12,129,6,20,176,86,149,0.039,0.7190000000000001,0.242,0.9871,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,10,0,2,14,12,1,1,6,0,16,7,5,4,3,28,26,13,0,4,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,10,4,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,5,22,10,16,17,4,9,0,0,2,2,13,4,1,6,5,94,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982898751905244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092910186096112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198108988916477,0.0,0.0,0.3017201289604223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479875361431506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754433073389925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384119692159516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18462146189449094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586692174289012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410669370023255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803644633864347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046128968428976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18096050731248964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104529723760685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939529998381864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687497483767998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579694715903236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552903924417635,0.2421412384782689,0.0,0.15000406500491106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828368140953333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997858621793725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375568149983696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheapsexsadfilm,2019/02/08,"Did anyone else get a late start? Hi, new here. Anyway, did anyone not have any disordered eating issues until like later college (21+)? In middle school and high school all my friends were bulimic, but I rode my high horse and embraced my ""natural"" sub 95 lbs weight. In reality I was so afraid of my abusive father I never left my room long enough to eat enough to gain weight. Then I go to college and actually start enjoying life, and what do you know, I gain weight. Now I'm in grad school and probably over 125 lbs and I can't stand being alive in this body. I just feel like I have a late start to this mindset I guess?",2.02452380952381,4.107450579365082,3.301825396825397,90.09178571428572,78.92063492063492,6.4222222222222225,20.81746031746032,7.492282038375204,0.6206793650793645,487,13,103,7,12,158,84,126,0.064,0.7759999999999999,0.16,0.9155,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,5,5,0,1,2,0,9,7,1,0,2,14,18,10,0,0,3,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,4,15,4,11,13,3,25,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,1,14,58,18,6,0.0,0.14715645927703244,0.12120109335812895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446012619445599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368678248274874,0.12725737717758098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795798418924332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234373636222716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541748134637545,0.10375299986297473,0.0,0.0,0.2566631979285288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627991530471231,0.08872836529993842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595646102673344,0.0,0.06488927180221439,0.0,0.07058561120137702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368200872960398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624478254336573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963232799321844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825696456220871,0.0,0.28020557894745396,0.0,0.13494345121934445,0.0,0.08772599509009991,0.12135550201207998,0.0,0.0,0.109912918826961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957905460661676,0.11995294532529242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390839593211104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770904992278897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26372778307636663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4537257075377114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mariamazing,2019/02/08,Black coffee stopped suppressing my appetite? Did this happen to anyone? It kinda has no affect to my appetite anymore. I loved the feeling.,3.74625,6.9522811250000025,3.958333333333332,77.37,91.91666666666666,4.066666666666666,31.0,5.985473137389443,2.26945,113,6,14,1,4,35,21,24,0.134,0.665,0.20199999999999999,0.4476,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49440718876393297,0.3485833357459027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520714350081061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408478866733961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44994223174310544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4167928865772449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minifries,2019/02/08,On a whim last night I threw out my scale and measuring tape and deleted my calorie counting app This morning I'm freaking out a little bit.... really hope I made the right choice. ,3.5124761904761925,5.518538914285713,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,74.14285714285714,6.9523809523809526,28.809523809523807,7.793537801064563,1.882238095238096,142,6,27,2,3,45,29,35,0.083,0.83,0.087,0.0334,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,3,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198050140796551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819230947652961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31344166463659473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38539810263335705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638497170634437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608535051104523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24633850078160166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283848344091939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,specialwondergirl,2019/02/08,"Cooking recipes for myself and bf? So my bf is aware and understanding of my food issues to a certain extent, and i try to be mindful of him aswell and eat similar meals with him in the time we spend together.

I have a hard time cooking up meals that can be a low cal for me and a higher more balanced meal for him when we eat together. 
I am vegetarian and fearful of high carb foods, and he likes to have carbs/balance in his meals.
Ive realised i often essentially resort back to making stir fry veggies and tofu where i eat just that and in his plate i add a serving of rice or potatoes, or buddha bowls where i put lettuce instead of rice under the toppings in my bowl, but there are only so many ways to mix this up before it gets repetitive to him. 
I was wondering if any of you had ideas for new type of meals i could make for us that would fit our differences without having to resort to eating two entirely different meals nor me having to have a tiny-sized portion next to his? 
Thank you!!",9.545346534653463,5.935554896039605,9.445618811881186,72.31516089108912,61.92079207920793,12.278217821782178,39.11138613861386,9.827888789773867,3.6244237623762383,787,28,159,11,8,260,125,202,0.038,0.9059999999999999,0.055999999999999994,0.6751,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,4,2,0,1,10,5,0,1,8,0,16,14,0,2,1,29,22,17,0,3,6,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,13,14,0,3,2,1,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,29,3,31,16,3,22,0,1,0,0,16,13,0,5,8,114,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401553588907503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630661537769004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764156230753656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038230900438717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888860931005125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5658618421261402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557100146042874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343477251331661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223052979924956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384589230412266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14606995077333507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606874203411866,0.0,0.14429830186105935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06754253793373054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845674579548537,0.14016498618748655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959426991155635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335238407087597,0.1470316868671355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051462440111756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898061027290526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272831019669229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123073709133054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386346884019074,0.0,0.13505130362563314,0.14392434282421834,0.16629913412741673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973734304694696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326919360216213,0.14992749559493035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820966397826332,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MissEmilyPost,2019/02/08,"The worst past about a binge Is waking up the next morning not even knowing what I ate. I swear, binging is like a hardcore night out drinking for me. I wake up the next morning feeling like trash, can’t remember what I even consumed, have to look around my apartment at the empty containers and wrappers to piece the story together. Makes it very difficult to enter the calories (I track everything possible to hold myself accountable).
 
I had some feelings last night and used food to cope with them. My sweet kitty is getting her teeth pulled today and I’m nervous (she’s going to be fine but I just love her so much and wish I could be there with her in the operating room). ",4.562153846153848,6.2567886,4.82,83.66000000000003,70.69230769230771,7.661538461538463,29.92307692307693,8.238735603445708,2.168907692307693,538,22,100,8,10,169,93,130,0.064,0.8009999999999999,0.135,0.8859999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,7,8,0,1,9,0,9,7,3,2,0,22,21,6,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,8,3,2,4,1,1,3,2,3,0,0,2,4,17,5,16,16,4,18,0,0,1,1,6,8,0,1,9,69,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16787407636851615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505638972386812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18473429052674054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491074994491468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948141922427695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070103725766194,0.13471990047523538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22802882537516064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852403128980994,0.0,0.10717301602354408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363733673530001,0.15371594204788872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842590145544019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583577193223377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019867859418145,0.0,0.1258770360203949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13862626010761767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011089094252137,0.3539346726201615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001869108154997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21259294970708545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21362169999964048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17874954864246598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287052988192055,0.0,0.15559629872873834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685497422595568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondebynature,2019/02/08,"Peach no sugar Coke! PSA for fellow Aussies, Coles has peach no sugar Coke! Not sure if I’m late to the party but it’s the first time I’ve seen it and new flavours make me so very happy. ",-1.3560162601625976,0.6639451463414652,0.3140243902439046,104.98209349593495,97.53658536585364,2.7333333333333334,11.711382113821138,3.1291,-1.9710032520325207,145,2,36,0,6,46,34,41,0.102,0.7170000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,1,6,4,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,2,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357925495716472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202417443412891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4453195973458689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635131306450739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38127290336876135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3720675924059542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301945140163429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257279412596972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MagnoliaPetal,2019/02/08,"Why do men always go for the hottest girl? Okay, so before anyone draws their sword, just hear me out please.

This is not even specifically ED related; I considered posting this in AskWomen, but was afraid that it would just turn into a men vs. women thread, while on this sub I usually see much more 'reasonable' discussions about these things. Mostly women here who understand or can offer perspective and we also have some men who are not only lurking here to defend themselves but could maybe offer insight without feeling offended. The guys on this sub are generally very reasonable. 

Please restrain from making this a war of the sexes thread. 

So here goes. Yesterday I was binging Modern Family and there's this episode where Alex' college professor (whom she has a massive crush on) falls for Hailey after he sees her *one time*. This guy is a genius, a very interesting bloke, in terms of looks not very remarkable though. And he just immediately falls for Hailey, the 10, while completely overlooking Alex who, while cute, is a bit pudgy and will never hold a candle to Hailey's perceived hotness.

And the thing is, this guy starts dating Hailey, finds out that they have *absolutely nothing* in common but *still* tries to make it work instead of ever looking over his shoulder at the, granted, less hot girl, but who is *infinitely* more compatible with him, who is nice and cute and just an overall great girl.

And this just kind of hit the nail on its head for me. I've seen this *sooooo many times* it's not even funny. I've had conversations with guys before, conversations where we totally clicked, had a connection, a great deal in common and it just felt right. But the *second* a girl in the range of 8-10 walks in, it seems like they just totally forget you exist, their eyes are only on her and it's like your conversation and your chemistry didn't even happen. And this goes for all kinds of men, not just the totally hot ones, quite the contrary, I notice it much more among the cute guys, kind of plain looking maybe, a bit nerdy but totally friendly and nice. You know, just your 'average' guys. 

It's just sooo frustrating and kind of triggering. But I mean, I know how I look and I will simply *never* be a 10. I can get as skinny as I want but just my looks in general make me about a 6 perhaps, a 7 at most if I put in a lot of effort. And you know, I'm fine with that and I don't resent hot girls at all. It just makes me kind of sad that I'll probably always be someone's second choice at best.

I mean why is this? Why do they get such tunnel vision on the hot girl and even when they don't have anything in common at all, even if the girl has an awful personality, that they *still* try everything in their might to make it work? Just because she's hot? Is that it? I mean there has to be more to it right? ",3.2510885595113947,5.384182041970806,4.016888127513777,86.18284150156416,75.2956204379562,7.174199314762403,23.22746908982571,8.093282712189389,1.2498554595560851,2221,66,438,37,49,708,258,548,0.057999999999999996,0.815,0.127,0.9902,0,0,0,0,0,0,80.0,2,6,8,5,39,25,4,1,31,2,36,5,4,9,10,102,69,40,1,5,31,0,8,2,1,4,0,2,0,20,40,26,1,2,15,0,0,5,11,6,0,5,7,20,41,19,57,53,22,58,0,1,10,1,59,30,0,9,24,305,81,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439614185761448,0.11319736915880152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047561666054390314,0.0,0.055975253370584115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041464797011986215,0.0,0.1157612383828012,0.0,0.07138354469735105,0.0,0.1485220089059756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07131842637794016,0.0,0.0,0.05430900667783072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012637121994117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22463520636748244,0.061528631709126376,0.0,0.0,0.06113263336846465,0.0,0.06412387717647587,0.0,0.03439331770709127,0.0,0.06531055424976001,0.0,0.06216970195067467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052552636301704925,0.0,0.0710760331178574,0.0,0.038657740332525,0.0,0.0,0.1499861586282946,0.0,0.4041072171184029,0.06015049434843853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980887839748832,0.0,0.07666429031230178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541655410289361,0.11214721954043584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646297177086258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856013491245297,0.0,0.0,0.05782878013738362,0.0,0.0,0.2270217799616332,0.06896232955728178,0.13667190327241036,0.22228350141792164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215923024924717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000061053676436,0.0,0.10492353875273773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06526771134802357,0.07744203578733487,0.0,0.0,0.09218519484489844,0.1034656390078739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059393065363500364,0.0,0.14933263944237668,0.0,0.0,0.06514504308293452,0.0,0.07333783628394093,0.0,0.0,0.0683796068362749,0.0,0.07234840409876417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987324937268292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161786392847976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840740765674588,0.0619235049935069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763373176978639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0481454127506361,0.0,0.10864286302274484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903798822314292,0.0,0.0668300079227531,0.0,0.07932685279320095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236320207513814,0.07398700616044038,0.0,0.07081196403702887,0.0,0.0,0.07491520856977077,0.16837264274533892,0.040120380540394567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413434821747124,0.0,0.0,0.06556954271541172,0.0,0.0990397824641991,0.0,0.0,0.048319964901359584,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the_magic_panda32,2019/02/08,Peach?? Newbie.. please explain ? What is peach? Why is it so great and why does everyone seem to use it? Am I missing out on something awesome?? I feel like I am.. please explain to someone out of the loop.. thank you in advance!,-0.2681818181818194,1.804562636363638,1.036818181818184,97.42522727272728,104.45454545454544,3.1090909090909093,23.681818181818183,5.148860815047168,0.2414181818181822,172,8,35,1,8,54,33,44,0.039,0.603,0.358,0.9583,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,8,11,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,7,11,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079596196997295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410905942001416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757423476263394,0.18024850265711745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781698697251088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326468234220585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5539156578086554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22969123917167156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137792954335847,0.1942386123737762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322908142255053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791263974088226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455336484593089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squishysponges,2019/02/08,"really thought I’d get my shit together this month....... well that was a lie I knew January would be tough. But it ended up being really terrible. I quit my job for a new, better paying one and ended up getting fired just a few days in (it’s a whole thing. The guy was a shithead who didn’t want to legally pay overtime, etc I posted about it in the advice sub) 

So I was like okay! Well February can be a fresh start.... NOPE. A bitch kept binging :-) since fucking NOVEMBER. I have no fucking impulse control and I want to die :-)",0.8046855345911972,3.0932798773584937,2.9946226415094337,89.3257704402516,85.13207547169812,6.174842767295598,22.98427672955975,7.492282038375204,1.154669182389937,401,15,83,7,12,136,78,106,0.196,0.589,0.215,-0.4998,1,0,0,0,0,1,27.0,0,0,0,3,5,11,4,0,9,1,10,3,1,1,0,11,20,4,1,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,3,6,2,1,7,1,8,5,8,9,3,11,0,0,0,2,2,4,4,0,7,55,15,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553573528716065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588711950546317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147419669034788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584871913001307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18643116801352366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31820384992701595,0.0,0.20033878863617044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33213647304414,0.1877021344835862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778653644695527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825848828328986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877598335069358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338171166105307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734911122425475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172427948729575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203919663631054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910622931544444,0.0,0.0,0.23015558480282874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843911623199848,0.14859465200128005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714548550989932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934048697599713,0.0,0.0,0.1426088996924727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190493429025545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32302410210339505,0.0,0.0,0.2005543397813284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760645399438367,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,camelno9,2019/02/08,DAE have mostly friends of the opposite gender? I'm curious as to whether or not this has any correlation to having an ED.,3.8024999999999984,5.742980916666671,5.8066666666666675,74.80500000000002,73.16666666666666,9.8,32.83333333333333,10.125756701596842,3.7997333333333336,98,5,18,3,2,34,23,24,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,14,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.660709188963793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7506419703286027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pringlesbutthole,2019/02/08,"my cat died sorta my cat. i lived with my ex for a year, moved out in october. lived with that kitty for a year. my ex is still my best friend. that kitty was my best friend. i love him so much.

the only time i haven't cried today is when i've been eating lol. was in walgreens when i got the text that he put him down (didn't even fucking tell me he was going to but that's a whole different story). was in line, just gonna buy some energy drinks for the weekend. immediately left the line and grabbed a bunch of candy. walked for like an hour, got home, zoned out, ate all the candy within half an hour, and then cried my fucking eyes out.

i loved that kitty. his name is pringles, i named this account after him (his butthole, i guess). i'm so sad. all i wanna do is eat. this post sucks i'm sorry. all i want to do is eat but i know i'm gaining weight cos all i've been doing is eating. but does it matter if i gain weight? i've reached that jaded phase after you reach your UGW and then it's like, well, that didn't make me feel anything. don't wanna gain weight, but there's no point in losing either, but i still want to lose weight anyways. does that make sense?

love u forever, poogles :(",-0.05345238095238258,2.1196907182539704,1.5931428571428583,98.60185714285716,88.24603174603175,4.312380952380953,15.146031746031744,5.6839178017228535,-0.9247263492063492,919,17,215,6,30,297,135,252,0.105,0.677,0.21899999999999997,0.9802,1,0,1,0,0,1,40.0,0,2,0,7,11,16,3,0,11,1,19,16,1,3,4,35,40,15,1,5,8,2,6,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,12,8,10,0,2,2,2,4,5,6,1,1,11,7,28,10,23,28,11,31,0,3,1,5,19,11,3,4,17,128,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928947554595601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022309317366547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21167626666753656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999815044658476,0.10066731889716284,0.0,0.0,0.1686365461849019,0.0,0.0,0.09438826563533337,0.0,0.3943685478361098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363957866922441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04871845965977898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888261222625607,0.17815171869682586,0.0,0.0,0.054759054621241685,0.0,0.1541229717853497,0.0,0.1061425764544593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664889898075264,0.0,0.1897745970498084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05295253221054815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468671575312206,0.0,0.0,0.09414542780268584,0.0,0.17016113947015593,0.0,0.0,0.2155864550468316,0.0,0.0,0.26088429018983234,0.0,0.12863139896121908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240691372310937,0.0708297968166154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732800278691791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910837713907676,0.0,0.09227856935756264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686035949122007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785816094730326,0.0,0.0,0.15389364249687335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421588348794852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05618361843797872,0.0,0.09133041749506053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366179660470448,0.0,0.0,0.4693230509588498,0.0866320076846407,0.0,0.0,0.1075735525119596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409504115530035
EDAnonymous,bonesandflesh,2019/02/08,"Doing the scariest things tomorrow (and next week) Telling my mom.

Getting tests done to start treatment.

Starting a partial hospitalization program.


It's so strange though, I still don't feel sick enough to be getting this level of help. My stomach dropped when they recommended the PHP. Isn't that for people that really need it? That's not me. I'm not even underweight. Not sick enough. This is going to break my mom's heart.


I'm still struggling a lot with the fact that I have to give up veganism for a little while.  Makes this whole thing worse to know that if I had just been a little less sick, maybe I could have gotten help without contributing to the suffering and death of innocent animals.",3.337467532467535,6.095062227272727,3.552294372294373,86.3877272727273,78.24242424242424,6.8017316017316025,26.095238095238088,7.957251820313856,1.7278965367965378,562,22,105,10,14,173,88,132,0.111,0.7609999999999999,0.128,0.1128,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,8,0,11,5,2,1,1,16,24,7,1,3,6,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,4,1,9,0,13,18,5,16,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,2,9,72,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665285954731034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623331965221426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278136445217722,0.0,0.10477338099816724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020791215650064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575487916870038,0.15217200495945965,0.0901528799043623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18797688690269865,0.21265220754081385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717870149565367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317977145107964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348612470852301,0.0,0.0,0.10588651632768037,0.0,0.15936479442451468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715702337954634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762186790266005,0.0,0.0,0.1687044215123938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099738188841126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162220918252388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245577509869184,0.0,0.253363670465626,0.0,0.0,0.16583414167788094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864929704581944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107729680652093,0.0,0.1558528156700983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724312863336712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710432781529994,0.0,0.152913312029078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165715503774186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ahcas19,2019/02/08,"Thanks to my abusive ex I am no longer bulimic! There’s always a bright side :) due to my ex boyfriend’s need to diss my appearance and tell me that nobody likes me, I’ve managed to completely lose my appetite and motivate myself to go to the gym everyday. I’m already down a kilo since I last saw him (2 days ago when he showed up at my house uninvited) and am only 4kg from my goal weight!

Always a silver lining amiright?",7.472931034482759,5.3444978735632205,8.08330459770115,75.84840517241382,64.51724137931035,11.458620689655175,35.543103448275865,10.125756701596842,3.291599999999999,333,12,69,6,4,112,65,87,0.1,0.743,0.157,0.6587,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,8,4,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,12,3,10,7,0,12,0,1,2,0,5,4,0,1,7,35,13,3,0.0,0.2925022534557681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883661058214327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724287410085525,0.0,0.4108335810030966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25883997762572264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921163700492633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030271208881892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848564628330534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123314954455196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060890151265545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761859617728992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183052023243214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18775683260247136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042145823705705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157764946097463,0.2272860271317612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006228711889715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,digiskunk,2019/02/08,"For the first time in 4 years, I've gone longer than 22 days without purging. My journey started roughly 4 years ago, when I was at the peak of my illness. Ever since then, binging and purging had become a crutch; whether I was merely hungry or anxious or frustrated with things going on in my life, it was something that I learned to rely on to help me cope with how miserable my life was and how much I hated myself.

I'm now at 24.37 days precisely. I still can't believe I've made it this far. Some enamel has rubbed off one of my front teeth—just a small brown spot, really—but I'm still here, damnit.

The point of this post is to demonstrate that if a peon like me can make it this far, then you can too. You're stronger than you think; and although it may take time and many life lessons learned, you can get there as long as you have the determination, as long as you have the will to recover.

I'm not here to brag or anything. I just wanted to share something that means a great deal to me. For the first time in my life, it sorta feels good to be alive. It sorta feels good to still be standing and be able to share this story with you guys.

You can make it, just keep believing and pushing for tomorrow. Tomorrow is always a new day; tomorrow is a new beginning. Just remember: You can—and will—make it.",5.586102756892232,5.188060943609024,5.6989323308270725,85.7890501253133,67.38345864661655,8.89784461152882,30.13934837092732,8.238735603445708,1.8429080701754381,1025,33,222,12,15,324,141,266,0.07,0.831,0.099,0.7134,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,8,0,3,16,9,2,1,12,0,21,5,0,5,2,40,40,21,0,2,10,0,4,1,0,2,5,0,0,1,16,9,0,1,8,0,0,5,3,3,0,3,7,5,24,6,34,28,2,47,0,1,1,0,13,12,0,8,29,142,40,2,0.12049981437057584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681581489675596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026549859518563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613049133023786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916107997739763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308257778269794,0.0,0.2715240534313688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23313723470430225,0.1242300174869704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089989808427527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185665352014947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049941610925062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06295617956219779,0.0,0.06848282142611015,0.20213905443813854,0.0,0.13285147074527456,0.0,0.11931376118069785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189686195373199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076848554552384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710577164459824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340450329971269,0.058870122620735287,0.0,0.0,0.21327708761987646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140198379210606,0.16086912357750538,0.12216789857803392,0.0,0.1312596235806224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858122844871617,0.0,0.0,0.2327589432019453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165379277720962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391127356225232,0.0,0.11540551294177155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13650279964691506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996786916580635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855332883815072,0.0,0.0,0.08529038882063443,0.0,0.2886939222368929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060086401974282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005472231598948,0.07721141547941429,0.0,0.0,0.21079323237996173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107391255830199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161575210073316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519585942609754
EDAnonymous,teasnob22,2019/02/08,"My GP gave me purging advice lmao :’) I went to visit a new GP to renew my mental health care plan and get that Sweet Sweet government money, and oh my god y’all. I’m never going back to this dude. 

He asked if I drank soft drinks to throw up, and when I said no he told me that a lot of bulimics did that to make it easier?? Like yeah mate I know, but why the fuck would he give me tips?? 

He then proceeded to ask why I started, and if it was because of peer pressure (????), then questioned my responses to the mental health screener he did and asked me to stand on his scales. 

It was honestly a pretty awful experience. I’m fine and everything etc etc, but it made me so thankful for my old GP who gave me the screener, didn’t ask questions and mostly just trusted that I knew what was best for myself without him asking awkward and prying questions. ",3.7551550387596886,4.628815755813957,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,71.67441860465118,7.593798449612403,25.96124031007752,7.793537801064563,1.3250798449612402,658,20,137,8,12,216,106,172,0.073,0.7020000000000001,0.22399999999999998,0.9823,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,2,4,12,1,2,6,2,7,5,0,2,1,25,31,16,0,3,6,0,1,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,11,8,2,0,5,1,1,4,4,3,0,0,14,4,21,9,15,16,5,16,0,0,0,1,24,2,1,7,10,85,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610257081666135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5553700191403362,0.0,0.0,0.09135977049965403,0.0,0.07242722859801291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246867869252319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113764917393904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639138943236002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650155349496684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678135504911307,0.11622179461302815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098405926272494,0.06207482574892278,0.1139761404200809,0.06752409749737961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525850700614167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529645138050247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804597148226773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101010461412455,0.0,0.11242361941416333,0.07930851970289858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394708750163373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916358172977462,0.11475021944819368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467413061979035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087541251294336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39929285013355054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301825633645395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409636767853973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938693648431742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353079803291505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014072968668608,0.21442028728188836,0.0,0.0,0.1145313760475784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440126073080931,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anexiareverie,2019/02/08,"soylent? what's everyone think about soylent? I'm about to fill my Adderall and use it when I can't bring myself to eat anything. i usually don't even finish a whole one in a day during that time. also use it when I'm just sick of food.

I'm reliving my high school ED where i b/p at normal times and fast while doing meth, basically. i lost about 40lbs at the time, and I've lost about 25-30 now, but i got 60 more to go this time to get back to the same weight 😭 and 18 years later... but damn i feel so much better back to this. I'm sick of hating myself. so much of my happiness relies on my weight.",1.7263636363636363,2.6263025454545463,3.6822424242424248,92.17336363636366,76.57575757575758,6.795151515151516,20.018181818181816,7.1686216300943375,0.17476727272727244,464,9,112,5,10,158,84,132,0.138,0.7929999999999999,0.069,-0.7959999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,15,6,2,0,4,0,3,6,0,2,0,13,18,12,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,2,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,3,3,12,2,17,15,5,25,0,2,0,0,0,6,1,0,16,66,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571394335883782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936339952465162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417564243001657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13903190833624074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138193077364473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085632948886794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383007560941372,0.0,0.0,0.15021272289911106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794857768675839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19008861822453516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08213126975933159,0.0,0.08934120716253373,0.0,0.1257283607799805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734386745834062,0.0,0.1552038870856445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660919636619045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432079069009803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311223082444778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402404469365122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652377142472602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909626073047273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072834211571756,0.0,0.0,0.3666617204206501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271543160596613,0.17313518873282646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828580333598552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550980576009725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123258022243264
EDAnonymous,mewme-mow,2019/02/08,"My mother wants me to 'just get over it' this is just me venting, but i skyped with my mum today and kind of told her that i've been relapsing pretty bad, except this time it's so controlled (lol i have experience) that it's scary because there is nothing telling me to stop. she said that i was provoking her and should just get help, otherwise she doesn't believe that i have an ed. she also said that i should gain at least 10 lbs so that i'd start looking my age (i'm 23), because she is embarrassed that people always think that i look a younger. apparently being skeletal, like she said, means that i don't have my shit together and now she doesn't like what i look like. when i was a teenager, though, she bragged to her friends about my weight, and i would restrict/purge all the time because i wanted to live up to her expectations so much. 

i just thought that for once, she'd give me some unconditional support instead of telling me that she's tired of my issues and i should just get over it like an adult. at times like this i feel like my ed/depression/whatever else isn't even real because i could feel worse and i don't even know why i'm doing this anymore. back when i was a lot younger i'd wait around for her and wouldn't eat until she came home because it felt like it wasn't worth it alone, and now i don't have anyone like that so it's easier not to sometimes. 

​",4.629829059829064,4.9518710349650386,4.923449883449886,88.06372183372184,69.41958041958043,8.033877233877233,28.47630147630148,7.793537801064563,1.4591746697746697,1100,36,242,12,18,347,141,286,0.09,0.725,0.185,0.9834,1,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,22,14,1,1,6,1,27,5,2,2,1,43,53,18,0,9,8,2,4,8,1,5,1,3,1,1,25,11,2,3,7,0,1,1,9,3,0,0,12,10,45,11,21,33,5,20,0,0,3,0,27,6,1,2,21,158,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104877584879803,0.0,0.0809797190565635,0.08425865180306608,0.10971805852802304,0.12304522543539967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042535661769267,0.07080521197676587,0.0,0.0,0.09014524349926333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786474116107052,0.08455009807954843,0.30864391279416115,0.0,0.0,0.11408835040356215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581751556973136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357469276055765,0.08085000062180205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361698967072283,0.08459196541628541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376607443570368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905432013812694,0.0,0.0,0.10240289514038428,0.07234207029009881,0.09722804143753208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823528614462028,0.0,0.1587166937851512,0.09714037835045823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787423187030399,0.0,0.10157471251015844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569191657992896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054494860577114,0.0556513141142195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957745970849848,0.0,0.08941679110862992,0.0,0.25510541252891195,0.0,0.0,0.08608989919114228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030473167778404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443971245066552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097164261065842,0.0,0.0,0.1078414366201762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020278386877737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103020537995918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525908546335395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889719587073665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039446735724728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015136798385467,0.0,0.07167423764380522,0.0,0.0,0.08466012473419518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491167568931568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701607042168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488502888085389,0.0994900572231465,0.08039124728407326,0.17714122822303316,0.11638654058635604,0.09598516898098322,0.0967608188406754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945469048550825,0.0,0.0,0.12331064936660385,0.0,0.0,0.09137380751711628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319530985747674,0.07193409401676834,0.0,0.12304522543539967,0.0
EDAnonymous,nonnivagyok,2019/08/24,"My gag reflex died I guess 
I feel like I just cannot purge anymore because my gag reflex is kinda dead, today I spent like 30 minutes just tried to purge the food out but couldn't??! I guess this is a sign from the universe",1.9822340425531912,3.5741918510638304,2.8010106382978712,95.90875,77.29787234042553,4.7,20.26063829787234,3.1291,-0.5199744680851066,175,4,39,0,4,55,34,47,0.195,0.728,0.077,-0.6548,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,10,8,1,2,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,3,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883523358132193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772424737858456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301759359647396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701523102465033,0.2077165135208396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515839339406843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6406021663236936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840978946169988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27560318042442405,0.0,0.0,0.1974045889799866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shiveryourselfskinny,2019/08/24,Weird ED stories So basically it's 1am and I just clogged a toilet with a shit I've been waiting for for 3 weeks. Please distract me with random ED stories.... I miss pooping regularly.,0.8554054054054028,3.4024891351351343,3.2419459459459468,84.99967567567569,90.08108108108108,5.122162162162162,29.021621621621623,6.742157984588678,1.7379556756756758,146,8,28,2,5,50,30,37,0.257,0.6779999999999999,0.065,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644364257187388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6025606519193271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708666104300679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MakeMexox,2019/08/24,"Weight, purging, self harm warnings I'm almost positive I've gained and I'm devastated. I'm crying my eyes out Infront of the mirror, the compulsive purging ritual is on repeat in my head (OCD) and honestly the urge to self harm is so high. I haven't done either of these things in months. Why can't I get better?",1.61095238095238,4.057800571428572,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,82.96825396825399,6.7746031746031745,21.698412698412696,7.957251820313856,1.3210698412698414,248,8,48,5,7,84,45,63,0.255,0.627,0.11800000000000001,-0.8768,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,3,0,5,3,2,0,0,5,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,4,2,7,8,1,7,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26563797051881005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23461716271804706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913958355047378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714718775892939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859700058754107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722521428349499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802811651724082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21174266589991675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5534863948314793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762391630658424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323037591102698,0.0,0.0,0.2393724696271445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitcore,2019/08/24,"DAE ever look at a celebrity /politician's ""diet"" + think, ""Hm, sounds kinda disordered."" I ended up googling Jacqueline Kennedy's diet after going down a rabbit hole from Wikipedia. 

She apparently ate ""boiled egg and tea for breakfast, cottage cheese with fresh fruit at lunch, and a poached chicken breast or fish, with a salad or steamed vegetables for dinner (with plain yogurt to snack on when she was hungry)"".

According to an estimate, it would only be around 600 calories a day.

She'd also apparently ""sneak eat"" at night when she was alone.

Obv it could ""just"" be a diet, but my disordered hell brain is like ""hmm that sounds kinda disordered"". 🤔🤔",6.541271186440678,7.905169525423733,6.0625,77.86883474576273,65.61016949152543,8.611864406779661,31.69915254237288,8.841846274778883,2.6904372881355925,516,20,87,8,8,159,89,118,0.069,0.889,0.043,-0.6124,2,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,7,1,8,17,2,0,1,16,12,8,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,6,15,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,4,6,1,16,4,0,15,1,0,1,1,4,7,1,4,8,49,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634994574298586,0.0,0.1670514995577829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859588830387882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23319345380126855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667839059022399,0.0,0.0,0.1347185770432685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7182277516040854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374948821527934,0.0,0.0,0.18501702130926487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889555001833152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871859421514662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020544722496252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541734401628345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960317453799795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588723901982959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338500738169475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839145424100755,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ur_socool,2019/08/24,"dry skin advice? i ended a binge cycle a while back and now i either low restrict or just purge everything :/ lol. well ofc my body isn’t responding too well, especially my skin. my face is so flaky, my lips are chapping more often, and my usual skin routine is not cutting it. does anyone have any products or routines that can help deal with this? thank you~",1.652898550724636,4.3706809565217455,2.6202898550724636,89.93159420289857,87.2608695652174,4.8057971014492775,20.71014492753623,6.42735559955562,0.428171014492754,282,9,53,3,9,89,56,69,0.092,0.723,0.185,0.7355,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,8,5,1,0,2,1,6,6,6,0,0,10,7,6,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,8,3,1,7,2,6,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,3,5,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721162787797489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936818716748927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19471170962962125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21412515333355675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093158221318524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287088884034074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436897356512629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466405128103357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502696088005484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866516229285621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563764600030513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066938050739969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007534020166827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherries_mp3,2019/08/24,"ed with minimal weight loss? / tw numbers! hi there!!
im completely new to this community and to reddit in general so apologies if this post is unfitting or badly formatted, lmk and ill change it!

so basically ive been wondering for a few weeks whether i could have an ed or if im close to having one. around 5 months ago, it started as me being too anxious to eat in the dining hall (im in college), to IF to only eating one meal a day, and to now consciously counting every last calorie and weighing myself daily and thinking i look way too big for my liking (even though people tell me otherwise). by counting i know ive eaten around 400-900 kcals on the daily for the majority of the weeks (unless i couldnt avoid eating like at bdays and stuff). a few days ago i cried because my parents wanted us to eat pizza for dinner and it would put my intake to over 1200 in one day; the thought of eating 700kcals or over  in a day makes me extremely uncomfortable. i thought this was normal until i read that <800 a day can be really dangerous. so i guess my thoughts arent healthy. 

HOWEVER, my problem is this: i havent lost a significant amount of weight. in fact, ive gone from ~56kg in january to 51kg today, and i cant seem to lose more no matter how much i restrict (im 167cm btw!). so this is why part of me doesnt think i have a ”real” problem. google isnt making me any wiser, but does anyone have any similar experiences or insight into this? is it possible to have an ed related to severe restriction, but not have significant weight loss, or am i ”faking it”? honestly any input will be appreciated. i have a friend who used to struggle a lot with bulimia so i know how important getting help early is, but a big part of me is like ”you dont even have a problem!”. 

TL;DR: severe restriction, only minor weight loss, could i still be sick?

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EDAnonymous,peevesthepoultergeis,2019/08/24,Shaking like a chihuahua I just started OMEOD after finally pulling myself out of a months-long binge and now I’m shaking like a leaf. Why? My family has noticed and are concerned. RIP LOL,2.8258333333333354,5.574428805555558,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,80.3888888888889,5.822222222222222,31.222222222222207,7.1686216300943375,2.225355555555556,151,8,26,2,4,48,30,36,0.092,0.677,0.231,0.7297,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715372981181856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317345915183317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850901418311373,0.0,0.0,0.34878007835141617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4487034472044306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789571897052789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35562820611108203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sarahcarrasco,2019/08/24,"I just need some support...I had a seizure due to refeeding I don't really care to make an anonymous account just for this post as I'm really trying to be more open with all of my mental health issues. I think more people need to be advocated for and mental health needs to be normalized. Anyway...

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I've been relapsing very very hard. I'm 5'3.75 and weigh 106lbs. That doesn't sound too bad, but I was 135lbs less than 4 months ago. So I've lost over 22% of my body mass in about 14 weeks. I've been aiming to ""healthily"" lose 1 lb a week but I always end up losing more than planned and this week I dropped 3 lbs alone. And it scared me. 

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I've completely lost my appetite at this point even though I consider myself a medium-high restrictor. And two nights ago this all came to a head when I had what we believe was a seizure due to refeeding syndrome. I thought I was going to die. Thank god my boyfriend was there to call the paramedics. It was the scariest thing that has ever happened to me and I'm so fucking terrified still. I refused to go to the hospital because I had stabilized by the time paramedics arrived and I honestly can't afford another IP stay as I was just in a few months ago.

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I've been drinking pedialyte and I started taking a multi-vitamin (the paramedics made me promise to at least do that) that's very heavy in Thiamine. I'm doing everything I can to prevent this from happening again. Including eating at maintenance for at least a few days. 

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But I already feel so guilty about it :/ I ate almost 1300 calories last night and I feel so bloated and shitty today. But my boyfriend is so worried for me and I don't want to die because I love him so much and want to be with him forever. 

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For the record I am going to therapy twice a week and group every other week. I also see a psychiatrist regularly. I'm just having a really tough time right now with food. Only bones are beautiful to me right now and it's sick. I really really thought I was going to die the other night. Has anyone else experienced this or something close to it? Any advice? I already decided I need to up my UGW to the 90's instead of the 80's...but it's still honestly hard to swallow at this point still. 

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Like, how am I so fucked up that even a seizure won't make me want to stop losing weight? :/ I'm just rambling at this point and I'm sorry. I just feel so embarrassed of the way that I am.",2.170794712997214,4.454541250509166,3.36235836900952,88.80359324992727,79.46843177189409,6.5336215137786295,25.09169125898832,7.6729893032291185,1.3728358701525414,1938,74,391,31,49,626,232,491,0.19699999999999998,0.737,0.066,-0.997,1,1,2,0,0,1,77.0,1,0,0,6,33,18,2,2,23,0,33,16,3,4,3,60,74,34,3,8,11,0,6,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,24,22,7,3,7,1,1,5,5,11,0,2,20,9,46,7,58,49,12,61,0,5,1,3,7,21,2,3,32,249,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0528540293019591,0.14383686916188593,0.0,0.05416117727702316,0.056018709324374916,0.11937459359030403,0.043254040872491316,0.045005431130295336,0.3516250322903673,0.3943360094714713,0.036781598507418,0.05671583560706914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03781948824358404,0.05541940280406648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04516110256632857,0.06594291298896399,0.0,0.0,0.06093849458756325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007941751896824,0.0,0.0,0.05522975087715497,0.06186210091324745,0.05514617647115015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05671009053524202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03488219413258132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840397314311378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052985509832232575,0.0,0.05534538225764191,0.04518346534450985,0.0,0.04790578847243095,0.0,0.0,0.0714490408018486,0.048925564569290765,0.04557135354637522,0.0,0.04861067958246107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204533919356599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540325315076846,0.0,0.0,0.10000670718020084,0.0,0.0,0.12295750568178412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565942922415993,0.0,0.09690419449180644,0.0,0.055509747131910925,0.11498572857051405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05714679209702243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056453671769927626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044088823658704236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026424595562393797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815314354494928,0.11808657366258304,0.0,0.04881640399501043,0.051179239468621414,0.07220813104804152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901567946386016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634482519586034,0.0,0.039760799400014916,0.1604218468260333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522733734701707,0.05299461735528528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04113625365434392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03749771076263884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339152696886918,0.0,0.051801217143767286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732503356549875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923814711949396,0.0,0.0,0.05415138202595785,0.0,0.04310102041740052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041639475939493714,0.0,0.06054692931258328,0.03828366460970738,0.0576504605043744,0.12958390091316205,0.045219871570130986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061378260815159874,0.0,0.0,0.040667338248109766,0.0,0.0,0.049796833140958924,0.061854179957527025,0.0,0.035933569795464804,0.0346573157319167,0.053141046322112265,0.08587943589646292,0.0630781304671318,0.0,0.05126896549686078,0.0,0.0,0.03672210547698025,0.0,0.05283597844639498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388444331547394,0.09570726087099564,0.04293242446637628,0.21693008765364152,0.06586444025560281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492884575761999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943360094714713,0.0
EDAnonymous,OtherBar,2019/08/24,"I just cried(happy) over a pastry what has my life become *tw numbers I just found out that one of my favourite pastries I can get at the school cafeteria is less than 300kcal. Which is still a lot to waste on sugar and minimal protein but it’s just really comforting that it’s an actual option when so many pastries and cakes have 500+ kcal and give me immense anxiety. Generally I avoid eating above 300 in one sitting and the fact that I CAN eat my favourite pastry if I really needed it is such a relief I teared up. 

I really can’t believe I’ve just cried over a pastry though this is for real isn’t it fuck",4.770340000000001,5.2605483840000025,5.89095,80.65722500000003,69.16,9.13,28.425,9.188382445141503,2.253340000000001,488,16,97,9,8,163,85,125,0.121,0.813,0.066,-0.6966,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,9,4,1,1,7,0,10,6,0,0,1,19,15,9,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,10,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,12,2,11,14,2,10,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,3,2,69,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.19117094396701298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986359319681988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21635706757736414,0.0,0.2207131427565724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151878549928929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4009108967270419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147951406629509,0.0,0.1811071539251904,0.10235009437668084,0.18792591985467716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20854006857447765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837054458135498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16654787401922366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986126864148304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525797781610042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26549493489212594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229780244335178,0.3764972501356869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982620912650727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564466501006373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19247156370547605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dolphin_42069,2019/08/24,"Diet Coke 
Diet Coke is a fantastic Beverage but you actually gain fat from it as aspartame activates a chemical within your body that stores fat (don’t worry, dropping it for maybe vitamin water zero or something should cut a good bit of fat) just a tip as your boi used to live off of it and he did research and dropped it. Drinks using stevia( vitamin water zero) don’t have this effect.  You can also buy stevia extracts if you like iced tea but don’t drink sugar",4.272307692307694,5.89495161538462,5.818461538461541,76.50153846153849,71.30769230769229,8.716483516483517,27.285714285714285,9.23628265651192,2.516841758241758,371,13,65,8,7,126,66,91,0.064,0.7440000000000001,0.192,0.9201,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,2,2,3,1,0,4,0,8,16,4,3,0,11,10,9,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,2,13,0,1,2,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,5,2,9,8,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,2,1,42,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.2503419265497725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515157959727573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28007064188281544,0.2849534322500553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5026148225037922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21517005046170465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533042949270262,0.0,0.22652580364772534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25772468308776003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19749378532683373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431291138980533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26052454858148394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lastdayz12345,2019/08/24,I’m not going to fast today I’ve been stuck in a binge / restrict cycle since the beginning of the week. I ended up binging again last night and it feels bad. But I cant let this keep happening and I need to break the compensation rules and face my fears. I know I’ll be at the “losing end” of the cycle but I need to not let this stupid rule control my life,1.1361038961038936,2.814357935064937,2.9519480519480545,93.49077922077923,80.03896103896105,5.9584415584415575,18.79220779220779,6.868970318607317,-0.031644155844155815,279,6,65,3,7,93,54,77,0.195,0.805,0.0,-0.9144,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,1,6,0,5,2,1,1,0,14,15,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,1,7,0,8,10,0,14,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18344962789991745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24642473041449398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891977197240544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24723612033474104,0.11109255598794976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248669063808634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428983903256888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952893599050396,0.0,0.0,0.1207474987999389,0.17909390681627682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493390612521826,0.15518847863812066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458005702026172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258260586533533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061840250035252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174732874964344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082604743628479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623902694540547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberrythong,2019/08/24,"I’ve been wearing the same 3 safe outfits on rotation I need clothes for sure, but I just started restricting to get to my goal weight like a couple weeks ago so there’s no point in buying clothes if they’re just going to not fit later gahhhh and I guess I could buy everything smaller for motivation but I also don’t need a wave of depression when I open the package and see everything I can’t fit into yet :( fuck this sucks",3.2453201970443364,4.8649227931034495,4.5835796387520515,84.33724137931036,73.9425287356322,8.189819376026273,27.37110016420361,8.841846274778883,2.1045513957307063,341,13,69,7,7,113,67,87,0.289,0.611,0.1,-0.9678,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,2,0,4,0,4,3,1,1,1,19,13,8,0,4,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,0,2,1,4,3,0,0,1,2,8,3,9,11,1,14,0,1,1,1,0,7,2,2,7,41,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21247052037694286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916798236669145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913727788044341,0.2652121731867528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064444489676648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308354226677988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22158933143748094,0.12522801277557508,0.0,0.13622122079348364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640453061653725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171003151543802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35545385693075177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22658430864348614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19100171514207867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696536539405491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22590477302198164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922646768290408,0.29187756888034805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ame-chii,2019/08/24,"i took the SAT today! and i had so much energy and was so focused y’all i forced myself to eat a 500+ calorie breakfast and wanted to vomit before i left but said fuck it and just took the fucking test. also had half a granola bar during the test and some sf jello but i’m just stupidly happy with how i did today. i raced through all the math and reading questions and felt super confident in my answers, completely unlike when i was restricting this past week and couldn’t get through a single practice test",4.695714285714286,5.6881003921568665,5.479131652661064,81.73323529411769,69.58823529411765,7.397198879551821,29.27731092436975,7.447530270364453,1.8231075630252096,408,15,75,4,7,133,71,102,0.127,0.7040000000000001,0.168,0.679,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,7,5,3,0,7,0,6,6,0,1,1,22,16,15,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,9,3,1,3,2,0,2,1,3,0,1,10,2,10,2,6,5,4,9,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,2,5,53,12,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613267950225284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716609757454884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115145074759132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20642448563922602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936965019658624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730000995213149,0.10539781163003492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147498446267691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21918483683519954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14829787472683406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925781542239943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259885124973605,0.0,0.20178882737114864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19189545437123184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824409336510968,0.0,0.44826831619376495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898807868779095,0.0,0.16181903507367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fish110,2019/08/24,"100 sheets of paper = 2 calories (and 5g fiber) I found the solution to all of my problems. Time to start a paper mono, does anyone have good recipes?",0.06951612903225879,2.3835055483871,1.8970161290322598,95.26552419354843,90.29032258064517,4.390322580645162,20.65322580645161,5.985473137389443,0.08144516129032286,116,4,25,1,4,38,28,31,0.087,0.7440000000000001,0.168,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,11,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31532958481157897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946479814281606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4944667005055373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37825328976270783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.431518582905098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31919977310884806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629649634969033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idontknowwhattopickx,2019/08/24,Favorite vegan safe foods from asian/international markets? Stopping by one today on my way home for the drinkable konjac jelly someone posted a few days ago and curious what else I should get!,8.957647058823529,9.782781235294117,8.740000000000002,62.680000000000035,60.17647058823529,10.329411764705883,37.588235294117645,10.125756701596842,4.2291647058823525,158,7,22,3,2,51,34,34,0.043,0.728,0.22899999999999998,0.784,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,1,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960945908050565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215419642924334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790365174164017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40390651420257306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451520867145254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350561001500303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22634519414018944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199053264179074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830198109013992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792613489190796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31661833537351675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26513491419922675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,begumguven,2019/08/24,"Most things in life are not important y’all Im in an epic battle with my ed continuing almost an year now. And Im just lately realizing that this will be the story of me getting over myself. Like i felt like i didnt fit in for so many years (through isolation and bullying by peers) that i wanted to be different from everyone else and to even look unreal. Like out of the world thus unreachable. But now pfft, i grew up and realized that there are cool people too that i 
would love to hang around and that only happens if you come out of your shell. And you cant do that if you have your own rules about one of the most social thing ever since history: eating. 
  So... Ive been listening to myself and it means well y’all. It doesnt want me to suffer. After binging, restricting and over exercising it feels weird to say that being in my body can potentially feel good someday. It does too for some moments. 
   And also I read an article called how to party like an existentialist and it basically says that sartre and beauvoir used to stock up tons of food just to binge at their parties. They would abuse almost everything. They didnt find life serious. There are no rules. You make the best you can. And i am so done with looking back to my memories only to remember how much i weighted at that time and forget the rest of the vacation. Im done hurting people with my changing mood due to distorted eating and make them blame themselves for my discomfort. I will only be with my loved ones for a short amount of time. I need to take care of myselves for them too. We are a community. I have dreams. And im not gonna be stuck in a fucking paradox with not eating and feeling tiny, hating feeling tiny and binging to take space.
I take space by being me, by not being a pushover, by standing up proudly, by smiling, by raising my voice.
Its like there was a curtain btw me and reality and its like gone",4.504786324786327,5.465723825396829,5.4075132275132285,82.18798534798535,70.005291005291,8.672527472527474,28.03052503052503,8.950670267944501,2.084005372405372,1498,51,301,27,26,491,202,378,0.11800000000000001,0.748,0.134,0.8722,1,1,0,0,1,0,36.0,1,9,5,2,22,23,3,1,15,1,30,12,1,6,1,67,59,28,0,7,9,0,6,6,0,5,3,4,1,0,19,29,5,1,10,3,0,4,9,8,1,2,9,13,41,14,57,38,9,38,0,2,2,3,22,20,1,7,19,218,60,2,0.0,0.10887975362345936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18403779349775126,0.0,0.0,0.07348786199124853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180543586245534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066106698187237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643742923710193,0.0,0.0,0.10207388382888538,0.0,0.0,0.09383438468179428,0.0,0.093692393221792,0.0,0.09721201571303094,0.07915882786639931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960100154735558,0.0,0.0,0.08041734689069857,0.1880796079364998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820925211491037,0.07676592056016275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060695337868335836,0.08312368195866256,0.0,0.08780896975151238,0.08258869785108584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18585813616677185,0.0,0.08823296714390902,0.0,0.08398975223182481,0.0,0.11111898783031626,0.0,0.0,0.08495482673078755,0.048010994293700614,0.0,0.0,0.07707660357293057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126185197019921,0.0,0.0,0.09072662530439457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983747801870378,0.0,0.3970465794334099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366080615694473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298153649348324,0.2693695653899593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15433618497367646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587644008890193,0.0,0.12268035684220292,0.09316642658896787,0.0,0.10009986442230917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675529055790093,0.06813848083399733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453995164088914,0.20966933519337352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12741591481063588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919191972738072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040983614396027,0.0,0.0,0.1461561181558554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601593885904093,0.0,0.0,0.093674696260011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727929787220234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210101829637075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071686448926121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936719578365077,0.0,0.0,0.10840331271678864,0.0,0.0,0.11190253668791593,0.08262403816281609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305581900050148,0.0,0.0,0.11835387047193645
EDAnonymous,smee44,2019/08/24,"How ToStay Healthy with an ED I go through periods of b/p and (like right now) periods of restriction, but always have trouble just taking care of myself through these periods. How can all of us stay the healthiest we can when suffering? I try to brush my teeth as often as I can and drink plenty of water, what do you guys do?",5.245153846153848,5.536007323076927,5.996730769230767,81.01201923076924,68.07692307692308,10.192307692307693,31.634615384615394,10.125756701596842,3.007538461538461,256,10,52,6,4,84,50,65,0.134,0.78,0.086,-0.5362,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,2,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,6,3,1,2,1,11,9,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,2,11,9,1,8,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,6,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28419715704491233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482332283324815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33458920136328285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941108699243972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381884317036459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686419274936606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29168203501060425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36404710645343147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25680327072606746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23189019003166486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108428794653273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CurlyCocaina,2019/08/24,"Just stepped on the scale and cried for five minutes straight lmfao How can you do everything right and the bitch still won’t move?!? I’ve been eating way below maintenance for the past *two weeks* and where am I? Still at my same fucking weight. 

Smh scales are so disrespectful",1.9280769230769224,4.749747576923081,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,92.46153846153842,4.907692307692308,19.96153846153846,6.6274283507984215,0.3071846153846156,222,7,44,3,8,64,45,52,0.163,0.747,0.09,-0.6609,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,2,0,3,0,6,3,0,1,0,6,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,5,5,1,13,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,4,29,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30526836031816906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843687718379669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497653586838259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25692102336565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953717119982841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26529417297525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373315029427062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438746076544999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714752647242588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205900532170228,0.22292064878547602,0.338416489673712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smolcoconut,2019/08/24,"started birth control this week, started learning to bake bread, plus my gag reflex is getting worn out.

I’ve gained 6lbs in a week , S. O. Fucking S.",4.9848275862068965,6.083604896551733,4.713275862068965,87.09681034482759,69.0,5.8000000000000025,35.1896551724138,3.1291,1.7521586206896549,118,6,22,0,2,36,26,29,0.147,0.769,0.083,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,5,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,5,8,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250364437071779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35034289166342986,0.1979912292187141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5364604091471642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079585367044213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,questionably-sane,2019/08/24,"Do you ever just purge nothing? TW

I just purged despite not having eaten anything except a white monster.  I don't even know why.  WTF is wrong with me?",1.003,3.5776343,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,89.33333333333334,3.0,20.833333333333336,3.1291,-0.2896666666666663,119,4,22,0,4,38,27,30,0.25,0.75,0.0,-0.8399,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621274159779444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906518931892057,0.39805455210665786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418424832155757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222442281909317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970808032573511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4811305913012604,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nectarinepit,2019/08/24,"Binge stretchmarks? I had a binge last night and ended up eating around 3500 calories - 2000 of which were in the evening during a short period. I woke up and noticed a new stretchmark on my abs?! I've never had stretchmarks in this area, mostly just on my hips where it isn't too too noticeable and that I've had for as long as I can remember. Has anyone had this happen? Is this even possible?? I'm freaking out 😭",2.9980895008605866,4.798237759036148,3.8198278829604138,88.7951807228916,75.02409638554218,6.670567986230638,23.9053356282272,7.447530270364453,1.0024540447504309,326,10,66,4,7,104,59,83,0.054000000000000006,0.946,0.0,-0.6189,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,4,0,9,2,1,0,1,9,12,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,5,0,12,6,1,18,0,0,0,0,0,11,0,1,7,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842778966600597,0.0,0.0,0.2144328600621516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464787556573088,0.0,0.0,0.2133467807034009,0.0,0.0,0.3181958449174195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130079883837441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963480592329175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21316981878690627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18578028465035104,0.2326418758672434,0.0,0.22604807653117864,0.0,0.0,0.5484833479121802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715542221937077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728682896917655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nnyleolhc,2019/08/24,"I’ve been catching myself doing dumb things 🤪🤪 I’m going on a date with a guy tomorrow, this is our 3rd date. We’re going hiking for our date which I’m excited for bc I can get exercise in, the mountain we’re gonna climb is a 2 hour hike.  He obviously doesn’t know I have an ed and yesterday when I last spoke to him I ask him if we had to bring food and he told me (much to my relief )that he personally doesn’t bc he just makes sure to eat a really good breakfast before. And in my head I’m like cool, when he picks me up I can just lie and say I had some oatmeal and not have to bring so much as a cliff bar and choke it down just to appear normal. So I think I was clearly happy when he said that to me and I was like “So we don’t have to eat?!” in a manner like I just received great news. My dumbass with my resting bitch face I usually maintain even when I’m happy. and here I am beaming as I asked that. Idiot. He looked confused for a second and then followed up with a joke about not eating ever again as a way to make me feel better for what I think he thinks was me making a bad joke LOLOLOLOL",1.831718820861674,2.568916065306123,3.878333333333334,91.49972222222223,76.10204081632655,6.913832199546485,21.774376417233558,7.1686216300943375,0.4075532879818589,856,20,207,9,18,294,135,245,0.092,0.738,0.17,0.9481,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,4,0,0,2,16,19,3,1,12,1,18,9,2,4,4,39,44,21,0,2,7,0,1,3,0,1,1,3,0,2,8,14,6,0,5,4,0,9,5,5,0,1,9,6,30,14,27,34,4,32,0,0,1,0,23,7,2,4,18,128,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629574748532625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742792030453235,0.0,0.0,0.11967366464247026,0.0,0.0,0.12438401000503425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4317272675592211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928909148840212,0.12721627618942327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07111144329001735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006156985130408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734782166318576,0.0,0.15985708228489826,0.11796155147161133,0.0,0.1550552974333215,0.0,0.13925499374585912,0.0,0.29942624730259343,0.0,0.0,0.1443364708104092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850135646976008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07729166762761923,0.11463978018054385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061277377289156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181015702805199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816334248791342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677209890223566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779662917276594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280079041476236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009712098214293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378015680678554,0.11184199650429227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325508524999714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343448521881892,0.2703479063930691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343868544390553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548942922906992,0.0,0.0,0.11163291045238624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sayuuuri,2019/08/24,"going out with my friends always trigger me I hung out with some friends earlier and we had a good time but one of them, she’s always talking about “how little she eats”, that stuff. The other friend always comments about how worried she is and saying how she’s just “skin and bones” even though she’s a bit chubbier than me. She’s kind of one of those people who likes attention and will do a lot for it like stretching the truth and that kind of thing. But it’s kind of hard to believe, I’ve known her for a long time now! And she says she lost a lot of weight in just a short amount of time but she literally looks the same tbh. It kind of triggers me because I’m competitive and I feel like I’m competing with her lol. it’s dumb but I just wish my worried friend gave me that kind of attention :))))",1.9218875502008081,3.769902192771088,2.8006987951807254,94.6938995983936,78.27710843373494,5.8724497991967874,21.91004016064257,6.742157984588678,0.2839008835341361,628,18,142,6,15,198,89,166,0.08199999999999999,0.716,0.203,0.9696,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,1,2,11,16,1,0,9,1,4,4,2,5,1,35,12,15,0,1,7,0,4,3,4,1,0,2,0,0,12,13,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,3,7,22,14,21,8,6,12,0,1,1,0,23,6,1,3,8,94,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28497762637560164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959254452898615,0.0,0.0,0.12862230999179902,0.0,0.0,0.1246361403305044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681698016232013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540341074086536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772410976323901,0.08155788174154441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528073880004581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488131401447711,0.09575428693267912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226738802614313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944146109665972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673224393630383,0.1144210535651368,0.0,0.1010304292799078,0.09586794601088673,0.0,0.12462211272444156,0.1941141520892758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471924956734656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914606703591377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157358038772511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068902005727598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175968316314304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584464934070557,0.0,0.112164308941203,0.0,0.199707629115826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390194573943646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128151283215422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318756009430597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,agriculturalthot,2019/08/24,"I feel like I’ve been having a panic attack for like six months lol I started seeing a therapist that’s actually a pro and great and everything earlier this month which I’m so grateful and excited about tbh. I started recovery *for the millionth time but also for the first serious time* about two or three months ago and my anxiety has been literally uncontrollable. I can’t sleep, I can’t stop panting and my heart is insanely out of control. My parents made me come home for a semester to be in this treatment and I also had to leave my serious bf behind right before I was moving in. We have basically lived together unofficially for like six months and spent almost every night together .being home is triggering me a lot even though I have the best parents, they don’t always know what to do and I don’t know how to voice what I need. Money is tight, I feel so lost, and I just needed to vent that what makes me the MOST mad is that honestly I did this to myself and my family and my loved ones. I literally was so obsessed with being under x weight that I couldn’t stop being selfish and now I hate myself for making my parents and boyfriend feel worried and above all just feeling really alone",6.197808716707022,6.4118855847457645,7.0842857142857145,74.296186440678,66.03389830508475,10.471670702179175,31.687651331719128,10.290406445055957,3.1906329297820823,962,35,179,22,14,322,136,236,0.182,0.693,0.125,-0.9269,3,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,1,4,13,18,3,3,9,1,24,4,2,6,1,44,44,23,0,3,4,3,6,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,11,18,1,4,6,0,2,2,5,10,0,6,9,8,30,8,21,30,4,21,0,1,1,1,7,5,0,4,17,132,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.1082467458673166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832827151655137,0.0,0.11107531002271806,0.11488479051058514,0.0,0.17741327796748202,0.0922984408173928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485727982981695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261931393554187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438895876488053,0.0,0.11640888696522995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955520187368766,0.0,0.0,0.12441175871903094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326488046316856,0.0,0.09345905088857648,0.0,0.09969218869486217,0.0,0.10457016671918888,0.0,0.2243479418288177,0.07924480335721898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094352702128867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229514421100265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095154189959764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144659471288495,0.0,0.0,0.22253352956737896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192289841491415,0.0,0.0,0.11745350117672057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16257697627058407,0.0,0.09794875927412756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108768160636316,0.09430442210303457,0.10011409427468893,0.10495986565483496,0.14808652517464435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541569334223571,0.117895662564371,0.0,0.1644988833927911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409554725822463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516561395252278,0.0,0.0,0.13014652364008802,0.3695070752840832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106136059779307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472929752660557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839282020535494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100505434857637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702649495888982,0.0,0.0,0.18547644295651694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879241147323034,0.0,0.0,0.10898319593330424,0.0,0.1293624557208889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083575539037754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350767004831616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264966676243272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,berryskittle,2019/08/24,"Anyone else used to be thin (and only realized in hindsight) then gained a bunch of weight and don't even feel like a person anymore I know that no matter how much I restrict, losing weight will take time, but I don't know how to cope with living in a body I hate so much. And the shittier I feel the more prone I am to binging which makes it even worse. I feel like I'm trapped in my own body",6.283928571428572,4.279733345238096,6.366666666666667,86.82000000000002,66.73809523809524,9.352380952380953,29.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.3748904761904759,307,7,72,2,4,98,57,84,0.303,0.665,0.032,-0.9764,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,0,5,0,5,4,2,4,0,17,15,8,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,6,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,8,2,8,13,5,6,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536705526491145,0.12364309114721822,0.18118241653864925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928347654270428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477181099849007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335880434802809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682304764881495,0.2526536378026027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745822302068284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436141242666774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172779634489301,0.0,0.15614342707940707,0.0,0.0,0.1978266484799649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803486698762893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599796228145056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448657811761888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440044059545932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329535549857371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311053106419024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527236574564907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306606656035626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802040661478467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beatleriver,2019/08/24,i’m fat and ugly i’m 6’ft and i’m so fucking fat i’m 200 pounds. i want to fast but i just always want to eat! ugh i hate my life,-6.1541176470588255,-7.555139352941174,-1.4228235294117637,111.31929411764708,148.41176470588238,1.36,6.341176470588236,3.1291,-2.90652,98,1,31,0,10,37,21,34,0.313,0.615,0.073,-0.8908,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,6,8,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35612040841580506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379387029191858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956681283890551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225496703442233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023006723483382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5048769740858207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vices666777,2019/08/24,"""it's impossible to lose weight and keep it off"" umMmm EXCUSE ME Does anyone panic and/or get annoyed when they see these articles or whatever about how ""long term weight loss is impossible"" like bitch I was overweight two periods of my life, the first one being when I was a kid likely due to medication I was on and I worked my little ass off (literally). My body and mind may not let me be underweight forever but this terrifies me that it's ""inevitable"" I'm going to get fat again one day. I really am getting more motivated to recover but not when I see stuff like this because it makes me think it will just make me go back to that horrible place and there's nothing I can do about it. I want to be able to live my life and find true freedom someday but not if it means my body is going to go back to its highest weight",5.280538922155691,5.348358880239523,6.397251497005987,78.94198502994014,67.98203592814372,10.272814371257486,29.87365269461077,10.125756701596842,2.720473532934132,651,22,135,15,10,219,105,167,0.132,0.7490000000000001,0.11900000000000001,-0.1084,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,5,11,9,2,1,2,0,14,11,4,4,1,26,30,14,0,2,9,0,3,3,0,2,5,0,0,1,14,5,5,1,4,0,0,4,3,5,0,4,3,5,19,4,15,21,2,21,0,2,2,1,3,5,2,3,15,91,33,2,0.12974696963493276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090722097936051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19953482169357564,0.0,0.07909254842162215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28823926780772346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367606171554286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354244747692865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185863796817853,0.11036270609020364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20336230957669685,0.0,0.2949527714544834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532506812467813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326750670778598,0.18328824345380604,0.1901634467731373,0.13004054932614553,0.114568951262323,0.11482198522788792,0.0,0.1451536710319774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17321421946609666,0.0,0.0,0.14133248655996522,0.0,0.13070642183368905,0.0,0.0,0.1310074526278861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449571665983993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17583980900519425,0.0,0.0,0.15223011332028769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555796803371287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311923110917256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067830728045084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14852923854148134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831366191890497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674393636127826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652812431875121,0.0,0.0,0.4739905649346548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944573391731813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,countdowntocontrol,2019/08/24,"""SKIP DINNER, WAKE UP THINNER""??????? nah sweaty weight is low, brain is slow

starve yourself, fuck your health

isolate, you'll feel great

stay in bed, living death 

♡ stay ♡ safe ♡ lovelies ♡",6.6982857142857135,6.6998812571428585,4.720714285714287,92.38678571428574,65.0,7.0,28.92857142857143,3.1291,0.7304285714285719,144,4,30,0,2,40,30,35,0.34700000000000003,0.44,0.214,-0.6553,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,5,0,6,0,1,0,2,3,3,1,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180008008097349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440350577874308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633508250940444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140619525182791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027955558872736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25153883895259194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25709956127333383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6072511242079724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468858274558692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misscrimson16x,2019/08/24,"Orthorexia I'm 19F and have been really anti processed food since late last year. I don't eat anything with a long list of artificial/chemical/GMO ingredients. At school yesterday this baking class made these cherry candies and the teacher made sure we all got one. I ate it and thought it'd be good for ED recovery realizing that one thing with dye isn't going to poison me/make me gain weight but tonight I started feeling really guilty and tried to think how I could expel it from my body. I reminded myself that dye does not contribute to weight gain but it's easier said than done. I had a minor victory today though. I used A1 sauce in some vegan pepperoni I made and didn't feel guilty. I decided that A1 isn't that bad and I'd just use it. I'm trying to do more of this and reduce feelings of guilt for food that is ""bad"". Advice is welcome.",3.3983109243697456,5.178238394117648,4.763361344537817,82.5394117647059,73.88235294117648,8.621848739495798,25.084033613445378,9.23628265651192,2.0774033613445377,677,22,134,16,14,225,114,170,0.095,0.759,0.146,0.7891,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,2,3,7,1,1,3,0,14,9,1,6,2,31,31,11,0,1,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,14,10,7,0,7,0,0,1,5,4,0,2,11,6,13,3,15,17,3,11,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,8,76,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358428760196714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143966806983772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321417737815513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441322020572548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099137068372336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165209187699867,0.14225959093116636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224603118399334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086897228572052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361925713661231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900486216762062,0.11659835125082553,0.11118219833220276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331496737753012,0.15681385176494778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230230192041678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946152359850064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883989739174894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811186149907834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223415188381993,0.0,0.0,0.14068959385704322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499382080790788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839482767612567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101905379828346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235472737153462,0.08907456075389246,0.13658055331692065,0.11036159132232999,0.0,0.0,0.13176902150369682,0.0,0.0,0.1887627674700601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24012693198186535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385632130572595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952046095365371
EDAnonymous,4M4DEUS,2019/08/24,"Ate sushi and felt like shit I dislike eating from restaurants and such because I have no idea how they cook it nor how many calories it has. 
But today I gave up to my cravings and bought sushi. Don’t know if I liked it or not, all I know is that the idea of purging was all I could think of. 
Didn’t do it tho. 
Wish I had.",2.1218309859154942,2.653655830985919,3.077577464788736,98.2896056338028,75.19718309859155,5.68,22.65070422535211,3.1291,-0.3062529577464792,248,6,63,0,5,79,52,71,0.11599999999999999,0.773,0.11,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,9,4,1,2,2,19,17,10,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,6,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,7,1,9,2,5,9,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,3,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15765167575016845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648614072829333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646316901229743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24831469254921465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5838984982577945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842603584298417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25269625393279393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621989639837878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26546857551234665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657125430007542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451404694818488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973989618153121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,michellenemangepas,2019/08/24,"The only way I'm able to lose weight is by engaging in unhealthy behaviours I gained weight when I was like 15. I tried to lose it by working out more and counting calories. But I didn't have the willpower or something, so it didnt work.

At around 18 I gained some more weight. My boyfriend encouraged me to work out and count calories. It kinda worked.

Now I'm 20 and I actually did lose all the weight I had gained since 15. But only by telling myself terrible things (meanspo I guess), looking at a lot of thinspo, obsessing over calories and food,  basing my worth on how little I ate, and taking pride in feeling constantly hungry.

It calmed down when I started fitting in all of my old clothes again. But now I want to lose more weight (and work out to make my body more firm, less soft), but I feel like I can only do it by reading those ana blogs, by being mean to myself, and by making calories my life purpose. If i dont do that, I cant stick to anything and stay at the same weight for weeks, even months.",4.141596638655462,4.996353215686277,4.495798319327734,88.78323529411767,70.76470588235293,7.201120448179273,28.296918767506998,7.1686216300943375,1.3285977591036415,792,28,167,7,14,249,116,204,0.068,0.825,0.107,0.5927,1,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,13,9,12,0,1,5,0,13,10,1,3,2,32,26,18,0,2,6,0,9,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,12,8,0,3,2,1,0,4,6,0,0,6,10,23,6,29,19,10,27,0,4,1,0,2,15,0,6,12,110,31,6,0.09126149602803436,0.0,0.08905805549429194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510043524766323,0.08124208002569486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137094865557368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862125596587157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695779366469994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06027735741884875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228910898583267,0.06519723099733687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035376324946594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005348267869181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644606935676798,0.08917151432615031,0.09146799427534537,0.0,0.0,0.07663667186844281,0.4083930810750231,0.0,0.07758726038105318,0.0,0.0,0.12183551451168692,0.0,0.0,0.09941052339885867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07284405544411775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576358824538912,0.0,0.0,0.20822544038949428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912861926849483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549245258466826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025755827567319,0.0,0.0,0.06459535660898494,0.097272612037459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861728737976584,0.0,0.07976657004176646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060630082799945424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061960565241103466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053828394861164135,0.07243912767407043,0.07320446730510857,0.6667914970318248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33219728013790417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,an0nymousllama,2019/08/24,"I. Want. Kimchi. I just really want some fucking kimchi. 
I have no idea why. I’m not even Korean I’m Chinese I always crave dim sum or pork belly wtf is this. I’ve lost 3 lbs in a week and I’m craving fermented spicy cabbage of all things
Except I’m broke AF and I can’t make it since I live in a dorm. The nearest Asian grocery that sells it in bulk is 20 miles away. 
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. This has been keeping me up at night for the last 2 nights.",0.13540441176470708,2.356688937500003,0.6248529411764707,100.64073529411768,102.33333333333334,3.5088235294117656,15.022058823529413,5.5289334501034215,-0.8692492647058825,382,9,81,3,17,114,74,96,0.127,0.84,0.032,-0.858,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,0,6,1,0,1,1,13,16,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,7,0,9,14,2,12,0,2,0,1,0,8,1,2,4,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20854419388408932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23547508592949276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553871659039415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317033478861409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829307039693255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22277141310728588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042968583632343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22131083541468052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735921942587544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729743614381062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703984552206826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16055996212864262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073236825279168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650740051079013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956560732920155,0.0,0.20104022613608785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261545446432547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tscxcvi,2019/08/24,"Validated by a Neil Degrasse Tyson video Neil Degrasse Tyson said that small things are too small to have moons orbit around them. I fortunately do not have moons orbiting around me sooooo using that logic I must be small. Thanks Neil!

This reads like a joke but I actually fucking thought that way for a second im ready for a train to hit me any day now, thanks!",3.082857142857143,5.599850714285715,3.1442857142857146,90.33071428571432,77.57142857142857,6.285714285714287,21.42857142857143,7.447530270364453,0.6288571428571426,290,8,59,4,7,88,49,70,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.9088,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,0,4,0,6,1,0,1,1,8,13,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,6,4,7,8,0,8,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,3,33,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.2519297505389235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555962519069288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45963943049370504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649371360273835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386674416226169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788602336235516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612535292107827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582327631467445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455720371794396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4753634271847701,0.0,0.0,0.17151195981281586,0.0,0.0,0.20495250600011972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22296985698613145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049176940019252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alessF,2019/08/24,"Irritability, lack of patient, tolerance and empathy. After my relapse I got way more apathetic, irritable, impatient and intolerant toward people. Is like my whole personality changed, I don’t like talking with people, I find everyone so annoying, I’m basically an asshole, and I rather be alone all the time but at the same time I feel miserable because of it. 
Anyone dealing with the same? How do you keep a social life with this feelings?",4.279487179487177,7.470756692307695,6.3976923076923065,64.63064102564107,78.23076923076924,9.620512820512822,34.30769230769231,9.725611199111238,4.654707692307693,354,20,53,12,9,123,60,78,0.214,0.7240000000000001,0.063,-0.884,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,1,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,17,9,6,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,8,2,8,7,6,6,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24845946466569935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677405623275033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623811452761998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25377770696806595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473218017419379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292305002763149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425968192913389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192602074328897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186640441817399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21323020760969386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944533759918926,0.2344017185195381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326267689720085,0.2094675609352016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24454332567253845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928189743060876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797700753372648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19041793944143945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26783483982783224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,baaaakedrice,2019/05/11,"i want to be hospitalized? it's my goal. my sick, disgusting goal that no one will ever know. it's so upsetting to me that i have a whim to end up half (if not almost completely) dead to prove to myself i can do something right.",1.84,3.2930430000000044,4.085833333333337,87.14250000000001,77.33333333333334,8.133333333333335,22.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,1.3699416666666675,176,5,40,4,4,61,37,48,0.24100000000000002,0.674,0.085,-0.8539,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,2,7,7,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,7,0,6,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,30,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042526286886733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232774161238518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35756314565192104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651746339643132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186592219049575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735612173496573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447621936065667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107921291973119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381158961507412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sellie41434,2019/05/11,"I need help with a project So I'm (mostly) recovered. My pathology teacher is having everyone write an essay about our health, eating habits, stress, colds, etc and relate t all back to what we're learning. I think it's pretty relevant to the essay that I'm a former bulimic and I occasionally slip up and binge, especially when I'm stressed (and I've been pretty stressed lately). But I also don't want to tell my teacher about my old ED because I don't know her that well and I don't want her to pity me or anything like that. What should I do??",3.0250450450450472,4.631000153153156,4.528108108108106,84.56531531531532,74.4954954954955,7.455855855855856,25.84684684684685,8.167268648758528,1.5676738738738738,431,15,88,7,9,144,74,111,0.11800000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.13,0.5087,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,0,7,6,0,3,4,0,8,3,0,0,1,18,16,10,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,14,2,8,14,3,6,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,2,6,55,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636894610889073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506180137826016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407386964979069,0.0,0.11157332913701727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872852827074642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412672195062626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748929144647983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19455222643871944,0.0,0.0,0.12268108487592562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058844722323018,0.0,0.20646570112213755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941916467927173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571435280455896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19205909268900276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724144205415413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6289804013510317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997620128726836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727817046267915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591155610103896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645658624630058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crushedemeralds,2019/05/11,DAE watch mukbangs or food asmr on YouTube? I feel like I’m always on YouTube while restricting to satisfy the craving. But it does work so I can sip black coffee and pretend I’m eating ice cream.. it’s becoming an addiction tho 😪 Any channel recommendations?,3.559591836734697,6.259450265306128,4.607510204081635,79.48391836734696,76.95918367346937,8.001632653061224,32.248979591836736,8.841846274778883,3.180498775510204,209,11,37,5,5,68,42,49,0.08199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.12,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,4,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,3,4,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,16,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767491569197456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875624160514891,0.0,0.0,0.23501619843186144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816821153611696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024321884592521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536295829102145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474302820594526,0.2468928717659647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178943967720796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688400789030626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515970056747962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonfortheed,2019/05/11,I want to lose weight before vacation but it's prob not a good idea In six weeks I'm going on a 10 day vacation (YAY) and want to be able to eat what I want and drink generous amounts of alcohol. I'm currently trying to maintain my weight but eating disorder logic says I need lose  before the vacation so the inevitable gain will just put me back where I'm at now. I know that this is probably not a good idea and will make my current issues worse but it is so appealing. If anyone wants to help convince me not to and/or provide relevant anecdotes  of your own I'd super appreciate it.,3.6253127917833794,4.9868014285714315,5.134733893557424,81.7993183940243,72.52941176470588,8.986367880485528,28.348272642390288,9.444778638647367,2.530713538748832,466,18,93,11,9,157,79,119,0.138,0.6579999999999999,0.204,0.8453,2,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,4,6,7,0,0,5,1,5,6,0,1,0,21,16,9,0,6,8,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,3,6,0,4,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,3,9,5,11,13,2,12,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,1,6,54,15,0,0.1482191197628261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584011627137734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036382548043574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397135407735788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522471081283173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558907038518212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698719523505253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451983097593419,0.0,0.3033303249223702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423634147216941,0.24863833089710435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934815165206863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346426898379327,0.0,0.1547022524961289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145735195679385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316385640641583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09893741338201363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10990259922648844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15980528005271008,0.0,0.0,0.14900115375721742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786979311525644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063105296041157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496939082443584,0.0,0.11889243743425708,0.36098191481554814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510479457519774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edith-cranwinkle,2019/05/11,"Weird ass “purging” habit...am I the only one? I purged for about 7 years, and then about 5 years ago I managed to stop. A lot of my digestive issues have since resolved themselves, but recently I’ve been having new ones that I think are related to another habit I developed when I started purging. 

I gag myself when I brush my teeth. Like, reeeally gag myself. It started when I was low restricting and purging when I was ~14...I was afraid of calories in toothpaste (lol) so I would gag myself with my toothbrush to make sure nothing went down my throat (infallible logic). Even after I stopped purging, I just couldn’t stop doing this. I obviously know that my toothpaste isn’t making me gain weight, it’s just a compulsion. 

Has anyone else experienced something like this? I feel so stupid for doing it bc it obviously doesn’t do anything, but I just. can’t. stop. 

I guess I’m also wondering if anyone has any advice on how to stop? I’ve been trying but I just start to get anxious and feel like I’m choking if I don’t. I’ve recently noticed that it’s becoming painful. In order to feel like I’ve satisfied this urge, I need to get one good gag out of it. Over the past few months, I’ve noticed that occasionally I gag a little harder than usual and my stomach feels like it’s flipping when I do it. That’s what happened this morning, and my stomach STILL hurts. Across the entire top of my stomach (right under my ribcage) it’s this horrible aching burning feeling that radiates up into my chest. I also have this acidic/vomit taste in the back of my throat that I can’t get rid of even though I didn’t actually puke. I’ve always told myself that it’s fine since I’m not actually purging but this is freaking me out. 

In conclusion, I’m an idiot.",2.9389067583898867,4.990631887608072,4.282112113042672,84.29890861764433,75.94524495677234,6.898168634377615,27.043692479315794,7.831003766801068,1.707252932973878,1383,55,267,21,31,456,174,347,0.217,0.679,0.10400000000000001,-0.9925,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,4,21,17,2,1,8,1,24,12,8,3,3,48,49,23,0,5,11,0,6,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,26,9,3,6,11,0,0,1,8,8,0,3,8,9,42,9,33,39,2,45,0,2,0,1,1,17,1,5,31,170,68,1,0.0,0.0,0.19154515741647707,0.0,0.0,0.09590337060558027,0.08699709213066815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569684796700899,0.08166212865804444,0.0,0.0,0.06674002568413108,0.10291059874272077,0.0,0.11087269153445836,0.0,0.13724654279114298,0.10055822793554398,0.08076262507484004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546525341376617,0.0,0.0,0.10839029118992197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198517084521131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296439255422846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248118092889008,0.21033830918254875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382566407964784,0.0,0.0,0.08231697693435358,0.0,0.0,0.10811464002811473,0.0,0.08678677684525025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506319863869164,0.0,0.0,0.10243490377745854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053936357583866106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23973647939352946,0.09836421458339267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343694414119869,0.0,0.0,0.13102129097998494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833612574099158,0.0,0.0,0.07277115875827106,0.0,0.09478629754193622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417003735910566,0.2234709706418826,0.0,0.0,0.19951097709426727,0.07464152556844841,0.10443016439216428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368778472909976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19380706124332855,0.0,0.0,0.08381285765822054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623683970397604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755546198764337,0.0,0.0,0.2083965512390036,0.0,0.07837644570604277,0.4102561487933967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249781247998368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288552526135252,0.09642416154654336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377902765039768,0.0,0.06663207587932199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808970996642946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951069591070974,0.0,0.09097875390366003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106430972414697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971736569233168,0.0,0.0,0.1264006504452599
EDAnonymous,LooseSyrup,2019/05/11,"Binged at a party last night Last night after my boyfriend yelled at me and called me a “fucking bitch”, I had to somehow keep my composure in front of his friends. So I went all out on pizza, Oreos, chips, gummy worms, and cheez it’s to calm myself down. Fuck me, right? LMAO",3.5999090909090903,4.711546763636363,3.717954545454546,92.8969318181818,72.27272727272727,6.227272727272728,22.84090909090909,5.985473137389443,0.2200000000000002,212,5,46,1,4,65,45,55,0.11800000000000001,0.684,0.198,0.6298,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,6,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,9,2,10,3,1,14,0,0,0,2,3,7,3,1,5,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767113643603024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093664105039573,0.5010522761648231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24086860336759106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44178647753731387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086120223186412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23142421004960115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512106953721856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fivehundredisplenty,2019/05/11,"Multivitamin: ""take with food"" Me: This black coffee has 5 calories in it that's food right",1.3515686274509804,3.880809647058826,2.5847058823529423,86.62450980392158,99.58823529411764,4.6196078431372545,17.43137254901961,6.42735559955562,0.04364313725490199,72,2,14,1,3,23,16,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.904856046434391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31952513354553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813169462791648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wow_anotherthrow,2019/05/11,"why is the scale not changing? i’ve been restricting quite a bit (less than or equal to 800 cals) for the last 6 days. the scale hasn’t went down more than one pound. i’m on my feet for at least 6 hours a day, sometimes more if i double, as i wait tables, so i’m running around sweating my ass off constantly. is this water weight? i’m just going crazy with the lack of movement",1.5935357142857145,3.2187614250000043,2.584642857142857,96.88750000000002,78.5,5.571428571428572,20.17857142857143,6.1826913282559595,-0.16589285714285704,294,7,69,2,7,93,62,80,0.147,0.853,0.0,-0.8796,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,0,4,5,3,0,0,9,10,4,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,1,4,0,13,8,8,14,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,2,5,41,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412394966243852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958520511850458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866726090902284,0.0,0.0,0.2928450642591486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34953363002393023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15401046425108306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668716068681508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208938823965463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183630555394804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882323489999976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680170873227062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32999410536695345,0.0,0.2512114273375936,0.2445272814672993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,145OrBust,2019/05/11,"I quit my job I quit my rotten, toxic corporate job. No warning, just clocked out, emailed the team a one-sentence resignation and walked out at 9am. 
The whole thing was so simple but it exhausted me emotionally so I just went home and slept the rest of the day. 

The good news is that all that stress got me to hour 36 on my fast so far because the thought of wanting to eat while I feel this way makes me want to die. Plus I don’t have a job anymore so I guess I shouldn’t eat to save money?? 🙃",1.5215303983228523,2.9876607547169804,2.918427672955975,95.11640461215931,78.24528301886792,6.220545073375264,23.09853249475891,6.937597516519254,0.4237727463312369,384,12,93,4,9,125,74,106,0.177,0.737,0.086,-0.8446,3,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,3,6,6,0,1,8,0,5,4,1,1,1,18,14,9,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,2,1,1,2,3,4,0,0,5,2,13,2,11,8,3,13,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,5,56,18,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034637290383975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470736243135552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077528661957513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17826667594264253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35152035215203004,0.0,0.19321437477128434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685038495020622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14406972606153254,0.13737749020294168,0.0,0.1892203425365503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722959662540784,0.0,0.1691555615945854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5113557218477132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146555801895412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639353503454597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653899748796381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19675813014895985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411413737988267,0.0,0.0,0.13636354252831104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20262485427880644,0.1363403806383252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15922941585637587,0.0,0.19177134316991049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,homgerygorl,2019/05/11,Is sweatcoins legit? It claims to give you money for every step you take outside. Wants your phone number & shit. Is it real ? Seems like smth that someone here would know abt LMAO,1.9182352941176468,4.7510237647058835,1.6384705882352968,95.42711764705885,90.76470588235294,2.72,15.623529411764707,3.1291,-1.094216470588235,144,3,26,0,5,42,31,34,0.085,0.708,0.207,0.6361,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,5,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,1,1,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36821945833074987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863321591573457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260081155110313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18676867795011606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660299928230166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38681543026186577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30938005977503563,0.0,0.0,0.34884368091007445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287947644143602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25551944064846804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004480484605317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24141452637536875,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DevoidCherry,2019/05/11,"*TW* my problem with 3 meals 3 snacks in recovery It’s not the calories, or volume of food, it’s not the fullness, it’s not me denying that it works for SO many people and is great for damaged digestive systems (because it is) and fitting in your required daily calories to repair the damage. 


It’s the fact I still have to think about food. Planning. Eating. Digesting. Planning. Eating. Digesting.


It’s the fact I have to revolve my day around eating instead of living. 


It’s the fact it’s a constant on my mind and this leads to binging and/or grazing - instead of the supposedly protective effect that others (doctors, therapists, dietitians) keep telling me it has against these two behaviours.


It’s the fact that despite being UW, binging is a large cornerstone of my eating disorder and disordered eating before diagnosis. And if food rules my thoughts intrusively and consistently, how can I not give in to the raging mental hunger? 



I feel like I won’t ever be able to recover because *I just can’t do* 3 meals 3 meals spaced 2-3 hours apart. Eating taking up over half my day and all of my thoughts. 



When I’m not in therapy I hardly binge or purge. There’s no urgency that I *must* eat Here! Now! This much! No more! No less! I just maintain my UW frame and get on with life, albeit with a constant anxiety of dying, an aching body and zero energy.


But I have so many health conditions now because of my ED. But the main traditional ways off recovery hasn’t worked for the past 7 years. I don’t know what to do



How can I recover if I can’t bear to think of food anymore",1.937058823529412,4.583617117647061,3.4968954248366053,85.13102941176474,83.70588235294119,6.537254901960785,25.820261437908496,7.793537801064563,1.831069281045751,1242,53,232,24,36,409,162,306,0.1,0.8640000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.9504,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,1,0,7,17,6,1,0,15,0,19,23,1,4,7,47,30,20,1,4,13,0,2,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,20,13,19,3,7,0,0,1,13,4,0,3,2,2,25,2,34,24,6,29,0,2,0,0,3,14,0,4,13,160,45,5,0.08822266847145373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674900999045996,0.0,0.08749318098549243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853687923148289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613391595409832,0.0,0.0750709929626395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799549629484698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906747258809508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137926453696487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915612013103226,0.0,0.2022216426436728,0.09029963949508243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6319167026173834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980245447552015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04460803197375738,0.06302629198372922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42671680362304143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04609270301997515,0.08463122253447394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726580344315744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903018225233978,0.0,0.0,0.0937765711071894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688155734112532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784163613241877,0.0,0.0,0.0484848713698077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06231427979565932,0.04310113951603873,0.0,0.07790223257450728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888787746939272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890769962614976,0.0,0.08907974570041807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06485381235685506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421851965901771,0.06116249004819785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441717899555164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07045473700316965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633246724397286,0.0,0.07711050081556863,0.0,0.10089031007890392,0.10243331785693616,0.0,0.11305904736257208,0.0,0.14007788839727606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08618072784150442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700270478054366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845430674825722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05681250600181116
EDAnonymous,youramericangirl,2019/05/11,"my boyfriend likes thicc girls and told me he has a thing for thicc thighs and i love him a lot but there's no fucking way i'm going to lose my thigh gap.

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(also wow remember when i thought thigh gaps were dumb? fourth grade me probably had more brain cells than me now. god fucking damn it.)",2.030054644808743,4.230029737704921,1.9159836065573792,99.4338661202186,79.49180327868852,5.3781420765027335,21.642076502732237,6.42735559955562,0.0528994535519125,238,7,54,2,6,70,51,61,0.19899999999999998,0.634,0.16699999999999998,-0.5329999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,4,0,2,0,3,7,4,0,0,6,10,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,8,3,3,6,2,4,0,1,0,3,6,0,4,1,3,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893216702268841,0.0,0.2565087448632332,0.2876661942554029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26428122032128765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377264286835182,0.0,0.0,0.13454535040569832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565968094610901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648525923030312,0.0,0.20126870893620505,0.21366797072324956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552468094602174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681813720199729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728018269891364,0.0,0.0,0.1879458879921815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262161445959333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879139646356872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876661942554029,0.0
EDAnonymous,leeed123,2019/05/11,"Bf opinion on the shows I watch Do you guys ever have people judge you for watching shows like My 600lb life or supersize vs superskinny?

Like I never thought of it as abnormal to watch those kinds of shows alot until my bf called me out for using them to trigger myself. I mean hes not wrong, but I didn't put it together myself. And I'm salty af with him for figuring it out before me. 

Idk I just wanted to rant.",1.6564655172413794,3.511071701149426,3.5707902298850582,88.83135775862068,79.11494252873564,6.648850574712642,21.219827586206893,7.645422480735847,0.7660586206896549,326,9,70,5,8,110,65,87,0.057,0.88,0.064,-0.1086,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,2,2,19,9,5,0,1,5,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,3,16,3,14,7,1,7,0,0,3,0,9,3,0,3,5,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24267143173943906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912057725231422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579661613578713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823779885919997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296976294016682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20143460075651787,0.2786539733439721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106500719049949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21995225455430426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977113721691674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28668969552426843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264050360258425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463082764335292,0.0,0.0,0.16820950300260748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311805030473744,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CaptainMyCaptainRise,2019/05/11,"Ate 890cals yesterday and still gained??? How the fuck does this happen? I've finally broke that binge cycle only to gain when I eat under 1000, admittedly it would've only been 450cals if I didn't decide to eat pancakes with flora light, it's kinda disheartening. I wrote about this super extensively on peach, I can't go back to binging again, I'm at work today which should hopefully keep my mind off food and burn very few extra calories",6.8753571428571405,7.287418678571432,7.116761904761906,73.96157142857145,64.5952380952381,9.577142857142855,29.895238095238096,9.3871,2.6009838095238096,355,11,62,6,5,115,70,84,0.098,0.7440000000000001,0.159,0.7564,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,6,5,1,0,1,0,4,5,0,1,0,13,13,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,1,5,2,9,8,2,12,0,2,0,1,2,4,1,3,7,35,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863685857273967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20330151859996745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4754350493826894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544910996929325,0.0,0.0,0.28091773534756503,0.0,0.0,0.21477263245504935,0.0,0.0,0.13203068034126644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054364953402623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307424582844517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064933600022656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23457318966613305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533739580391351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18552805978480105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202086438695956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19168523889656333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912899909720533,0.0,0.0,0.16503080069129114,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FreeTechnician1,2019/05/11,"Confused and lost, and don't know what's wrong with me. Where do I even start... I don't know what to do,3 weeks I tried to starve myself as a way to deal with my weight and body image, but since I have to work everyday in a pretty physically demanding environment, and ended up fainting almost twice between a few days at work, and I was so scared I'd be fired after my boss yelled at me for taking time off I started eating again. But when I began eating I felt to sick and guilty after eating when I ate lunch after my shifts I'd just vomit up food and hate myself for eating because I can't eat without my stomach hurting me. I feel so ashamed eating because No matter how much I try to starve myself, vomit or exercise my weight stays the same. This has been going on for almost a month and I'm so lost. I hate my body more everyday and the fact my weight dosent change fills me with rage. I never feel hungry, just weak, so I don't know when I should or shouldn't eat and so When I should be eating I might eat too much and again my stomach hurts. I'm sorry to rant so much I just have no one to talk to and I feel like I'm going crazy.",3.532252066115703,3.9644452314049614,4.595526859504133,89.05419938016529,71.89256198347105,7.041735537190082,22.14979338842976,6.6274283507984215,0.35580082644628064,894,17,199,6,16,293,120,242,0.27699999999999997,0.674,0.05,-0.9963,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,19,13,3,3,6,0,16,25,4,2,2,43,37,28,0,3,8,0,8,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,3,15,15,0,7,1,0,3,9,12,0,2,7,9,35,1,28,24,6,33,0,4,0,0,2,8,0,6,21,134,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589207188964424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967454518642592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762861278690197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394473292071883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05117598662858842,0.08180924495196283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7307794568327058,0.0,0.0,0.07028302121646636,0.0,0.0,0.0524117712148959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036946889146917,0.0566896509933697,0.07619112521606895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595371197087664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019604160705816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668890875502406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16989761169674722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083065891560275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03876776627144039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17324589421763442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418077308593265,0.0,0.0,0.0633386421002663,0.0,0.17500029935358075,0.0,0.061201765710419465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053771506031287296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073031806690083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944598874563187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564145016884483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882895477061419,0.11233263026477892,0.0845795188424835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05966342456828525,0.06378076897908233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04627125158860256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775067484119212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06298655331351331,0.06365202385438212,0.28989097139435793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649326049638715,0.0,0.11553955641296294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675982185794259,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ineedadrinkdude,2019/05/11,"I just binged in McDonald’s and I feel terrible I don’t even want to say how much I ate. I’m a bulimic and I get a tightening in my jaw muscles when I eat something sour/laugh while eating esp. sweet food/purge and start to become dehydrated.

I imagined videoing myself; pathetically gasping for air on the floor while my cat purred and rubbed against me. 

I’m so, so tired.",1.3254666666666708,3.854534346666668,3.078666666666667,87.83266666666668,85.53333333333333,6.533333333333335,24.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.4819333333333335,296,12,61,6,9,98,57,75,0.14400000000000002,0.794,0.062,-0.7709999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,1,0,9,8,10,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,11,1,7,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32191466658978823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.59650973780161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19251853929061266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473800877742925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524564814343688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15228527949483853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21426994500169388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23179508809053576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439408548338505,0.0,0.0,0.20630970287740788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350112034205335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17192133820699212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pandapixie21,2019/05/11,"I thought this was over Three months. I've been working on being okay with myself for three months. I was so confident that I let my friend follow my ""ED/rant"" account after deleting all my ED posts because I was convinced I was feeling better - and I was. The thoughts were still there but I was working through them. I was picking the lowest calorie option but not restricting what kind of food that was. Only having a rough estimate of how much I'd eaten instead of down to the exact number. It wasn't completely normal, but it was better.

​

And then a bunch of stuff has come crashing down in my life lately and I was using every single tool I've learned to distract myself and my friend asked if I wanted to watch a Youtube video. Of course, I did, and - boom, triggered. She was so skinny and so perfect and at a school like my dream college and I just...I couldn't handle it. I've just been panicking over this again and again because I don't want to relapse and have all the progress I've put in go to waste because of a stupid Youtube video. 

​

And I freaked out so much I started stress-eating and now I want to purge everything and start restricting because I feel bloated and horrible.",4.344750470809792,5.935320885593221,4.4233333333333364,86.70179849340867,71.07627118644069,6.600376647834276,29.636534839924675,6.937597516519254,1.5946777777777772,963,39,182,8,18,298,131,236,0.114,0.716,0.17,0.8958,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,1,6,12,12,1,1,9,1,23,4,1,4,4,44,38,24,0,6,6,0,3,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,9,17,3,2,5,3,1,4,4,3,0,2,19,5,27,9,25,16,6,25,0,0,1,0,5,9,0,2,12,133,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27262574949816976,0.3057408894810995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761346206118024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067654648010917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22253383821711967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837241984961228,0.1319072550288078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873295357532213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599863441434773,0.0,0.1130680845029264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127224571838825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212748757138406,0.0,0.1943978394124907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149956430414277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100963303747215,0.0,0.0,0.1419168614491093,0.0,0.0,0.1286471653520813,0.08886188445963543,0.06146341564585734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008374306941066,0.0,0.1849666560961576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326509163820833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568262456469227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048925149113066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264717506514147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273243745627098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780950466997333,0.0,0.10047040132277624,0.0,0.14411259592206208,0.0,0.14402001771027034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997549385939548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086576860166363,0.0,0.0,0.22261438746908152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317939005372766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057408894810995,0.0
EDAnonymous,sh3lin,2019/05/11,"Ive spent all afternoon triggering myself (possible tw?)
And now its 2am and I'm trying to not go out and walk for the whole night because I'm -such a piece of shit- really triggered, while knowing I wont do it because I'm tired and I shouldn't but it makes me feel even more guilty.. so now I'm too anxious to sleep. I dont know why I did this to myself.",1.727763713080165,2.6431820506329124,3.73487341772152,91.73665611814349,76.59493670886077,7.2919831223628675,23.29324894514768,7.793537801064563,0.8463400843881859,278,8,67,4,6,95,57,79,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,2,0,6,3,2,3,1,15,16,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,2,1,8,0,6,12,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891521462978241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120511070408745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999730494708785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905343780427792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941668160348055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14546303775436292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28132831165219346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17084949852507192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401929821337415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885466642345829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639689743320552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627303594427643,0.0,0.0,0.2561361723740395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294178398869407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377415020900308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309562622839724,0.2857605164780928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ieatavocado,2019/03/07,"Do you ever feel like you're playing whack-a-mole with your disordered behavior? Through a lot of struggle, I feel like I finally have my binge eating under control (1 week binge free and not starving myself either! Yay!!) but now I'm noticing disordered behavior popping up in other ways.

Like, ate a reasonable number of calories today? Ok, let's pick the shit out of my cuticles until they bleed. Or pop that pimple that you know would heal better if you left it alone. Or drink until you can't function as a human 🙃 

Treat one bad habit and two more pop up to replace it. Why can't all ya'll just stay down so I can achieve my goal of being a ~*~perfect human*~~ cool thnks",4.166240601503759,5.626620699248122,4.8571503759398515,83.92798120300755,71.33082706766919,7.4252631578947375,28.33759398496241,7.908726449838941,1.8343239097744368,535,20,101,7,10,172,102,133,0.061,0.7090000000000001,0.22899999999999998,0.9698,0,1,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,5,1,5,4,14,1,1,5,3,8,6,1,3,3,22,13,10,0,2,7,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,5,4,3,1,4,2,1,0,3,3,0,2,1,3,13,12,16,9,4,16,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,4,10,64,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282373092306345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738863789178264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611951367797725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19798462266959102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40461939798444735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729245230606268,0.0,0.1806262478329265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967440806750127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850982522475742,0.2522149458016622,0.0,0.19337140795191585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701196770304632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917918532620584,0.1805058776833892,0.0,0.25871944608054925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007283570606014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097165954124088,0.0,0.0,0.11961599023551105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149418959651892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811974699253308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18814914527593948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184539298251868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673223761444898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724365095705154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011508142870094,0.14159543642698327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928380137729614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253962842850382,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tastefuldebauchery,2019/03/07,"SKINS (vol 1) 

I’m re-watching skins and thinking about how this show would have impacted me so hard when it first came out. I feel a little lame not having found it until 22 or so, but I’m kind of glad? I’m less disordered (not by much) than I was as a teen, but fuck am I reminded how messed up I am in the head, even now. 

What is it about awful 2000’s shows/ movies, (hell even including the awful clothing) like Clique (loved this as a tween), Gossip girl, and Skins that makes me more messed up than modern stuff would/ does? 

I didn’t really have a decent teenage experience (parents were abusive), so maybe that’s involved? 

Can anyone relate? ",1.8603756708407888,4.098812759689924,2.732713178294574,93.14447227191415,80.31782945736434,5.829695885509841,19.22540250447227,7.010146845296331,0.17832450805008992,502,12,107,6,13,158,93,129,0.18600000000000005,0.763,0.05,-0.9541,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,11,10,2,0,6,2,12,6,4,3,0,17,22,14,0,2,5,1,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,6,0,1,5,5,7,4,13,15,3,11,1,1,0,2,5,5,2,1,6,67,16,0,0.0,0.24496523163372325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456457810834009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364672007674864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369536921511461,0.0,0.1809285321913604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731131731143163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224141134236956,0.0,0.0,0.10453913574822707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586165231839326,0.0,0.2266909715747709,0.0,0.19113726947326812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18520760914861267,0.0,0.21218539826187932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21529856401922245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010077260844225,0.20721806018598032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866001676927024,0.0,0.13800739361832526,0.0,0.2077084096806577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198521866536968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229571679229858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13244950074299605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366795653429188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247720844033484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937388834187,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LivelyGhost,2019/03/07,Faves at Trader Joe’s? Just wondering what safe foods or things you guys like from sweet sweet joes?,1.8161403508771947,4.594253421052635,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,93.73684210526315,4.63859649122807,11.596491228070176,6.42735559955562,-1.0408035087719298,81,1,17,1,3,22,18,19,0.0,0.5429999999999999,0.457,0.8948,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5832193092979676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4775693964236916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23563559349029675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204298065787429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5230519238067074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,giraffle9,2019/03/07,"I'm in ketosis?? I have a UTI (that is not the victory part of this post haha) and I got the urine results back and I have a moderate amount of ketones in my urine. At first I thought I was diabetic lol but since there's no glucose the doctor just said if I have a low carb diet I'm likely in ketosis! That means my body is using up my fat stores. i'm excited. 

 

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EDAnonymous,borderline25,2019/03/07,"DAE get massively triggered by friends asking for help/support relating to food?? my friends all know I have an ED that is has taken over my life but STILL seem to come to me for weight problems/advice?? 
they are all gorgeous compared to me and will message me saying ‘i’m feeling really fat recently’ ‘i hate my body’ ‘i need to lose 6kg’ etc etc
I hate it!! Especially since they are already slim.
Am I being irrational or is it ok to get so annoyed by this? I don’t understand why they think I’m an appropriate person to talk to about this.

Obviously I want them to be able to talk to me and I don’t want to tell them they can’t. But I feel like they should be able to work that out for themselves?",2.8964952978056395,4.0953240413793095,4.361943573667713,87.267868338558,74.10344827586206,7.755485893416928,26.97492163009405,8.296473431620573,1.6127931034482756,546,20,120,9,11,182,89,145,0.14300000000000002,0.731,0.127,-0.8197,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,7,2,3,9,3,0,2,1,15,5,2,1,3,21,33,6,0,4,3,0,3,1,2,2,2,1,0,1,6,4,3,0,6,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,4,21,5,21,27,4,5,0,1,0,0,16,2,0,2,3,76,27,1,0.3052049905563195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491213922309085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684006482408825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266273326245496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695069704840554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13145353733375909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403842417660082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432081360916786,0.10901925311813764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845275430289974,0.0,0.23580061861009904,0.0,0.1594570106942374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013267413900048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228623586240644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386634050484808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778765540690896,0.0745538709431334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072315800970395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315281662955888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324661272425148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776106608540562,0.0,0.15067655398497784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213556292608604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389235803523407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623436104476787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186854985381762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317150322027006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531221044960336,0.13338130710036145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778151715555247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886457940061316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800178110187538,0.0,0.0,0.18582872789721125,0.0,0.0,0.13770001618878028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110964340494472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,standingbymountains,2019/03/07,"Does being sick make anyone else anxious as fuck? Currently sick and it is so fucking triggering. 
I *hate* being sick regardless because the lack of productivity and being mentally/physically unable to go to work and class have me on edge... but having an ED on top of it makes it 100% worse. Currently have the flu with chills, aches, a sore throat, the works. 
Eating is so hard because I understand my body needs fuel to get healthier, but when I’m lying in bed doing shit all day it’s hard to justify it, or not be afraid of gaining weight. I ate 1000 calories over maintenance yesterday because a huge wave of hunger hit, and the scale stayed basically the same, but I haven’t been low restricting, and the idea of eating what I normally do without all the daily activity is stressing me tf out. 
Does anyone else get like this? God, it’s such a fucking knock to my self-esteem, because I’m 100% that person that feels like she’s making it up/people think I’m needy/etc. a huge part of my ED is wanting to be seen as responsible/in control and I have a hard time being physically unable to “prove myself” ",4.861457364341085,6.009897037209302,5.971162790697676,77.78155038759692,69.32558139534885,9.08217054263566,28.75193798449613,9.3871,2.5173007751937986,873,31,164,18,15,291,130,215,0.223,0.6890000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9824,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,5,4,10,5,2,13,0,18,16,3,5,3,33,39,15,0,5,6,0,5,2,0,0,5,0,1,1,11,8,5,2,5,0,0,1,3,8,0,0,3,6,13,2,22,29,5,17,0,1,1,3,2,9,4,1,8,97,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368484674579051,0.0,0.16940130869851228,0.2482349655773443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953719438976734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345540675749907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586359712462456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812228047979074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21201272493700274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24790341224287984,0.20238608496222432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350979376755294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06124967345973751,0.08653911935977134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359630417096329,0.12657644302761367,0.0,0.06884401185786998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255404447746338,0.11959608093802924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674706726765695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836122798033392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425763633968604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982032828264336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118686925060193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311777811876454,0.0,0.08398000040980105,0.1057707165754816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263705903175292,0.0,0.1243436976164593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911416719354604,0.0,0.0,0.13876013594046493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761864204971393,0.0,0.0,0.07063499764040561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610617304350494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144876885991466,0.0,0.0,0.14751022414861642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167701561805196,0.0,0.17637595730419756,0.0,0.12344727212412998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,briarsrose_,2019/03/07,"They fucked up my order I can’t drink this now :(((( I really want to cry I’m so stressed from school, bought myself a venti decaf skinny caramel macchiato because the bitch it tasty. They forgot to make it skinny :( I don’t know if I can even drink it now. Just thinking of consuming 300 calories makes me want to vomit. ",1.6857142857142868,4.151131539682538,3.0914285714285725,88.92857142857146,82.80952380952381,5.504761904761906,20.11111111111111,6.868970318607317,0.4490063492063494,249,7,49,3,7,81,49,63,0.244,0.711,0.045,-0.943,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,5,3,2,1,2,0,3,6,2,2,0,9,13,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,4,1,2,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,9,0,6,11,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,2,30,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668953246215245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30073731732104064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5364054126736789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083081741500748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25310759113663456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046375045312085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36550400718856096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17539213661832798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770825958346327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136170297925602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17542882767574805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229681279902402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mjdoesherbest,2019/03/07,"How do I know I've gotten it all out? I started my binge with lettuce so it would act as a marker, followed by 6 bananas and then a lot of oreos with milk. Like A LOT. I also had water ans coke zero the entire time so everything would be easier to come out later but since the coke zero & oreos are the same color how do I know the oreos specifically are all gone? Some of the undigested lettuce came up and I was relieved but I couldn't purge anymore so I had to stop and I'm still worried about the oreos.",0.879924242424245,2.908459601851857,3.316868686868688,88.76954545454547,82.6111111111111,5.4087542087542095,20.003367003367003,6.574015621080383,0.29122962962963017,399,11,83,4,11,138,69,108,0.059000000000000004,0.8690000000000001,0.07200000000000001,0.1064,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,10,0,11,4,0,2,2,25,20,13,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,9,4,1,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,6,1,8,2,12,10,6,14,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,7,64,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005230462238543,0.0,0.27168530069163177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486745899060324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28678885650244634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21599715747847464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253560904892487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27560903304070905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225027833358903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263538830717441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074212966407485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748069066613267,0.0,0.2002476379742746,0.2096365152061656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146213146982751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546467163460604,0.0,0.35624830087444964,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Robbikinz,2019/03/07,"In terms of binging, this has been the worst week of my life. Having transitioned from anorexia to BED I’ve been having an incredibly difficult time learning how to cope.

How do you cope with the urge to binge?


I’ve woken up at 2 am 3 times this week and walked to the convenience store and binged.
Removing trigger foods from my apartment doesn’t seem to be working anymore. 

Today I also talked to my mom for the first time in 9 years about struggling with my ED. She has thought I’ve been alright since I was inpatient back in high school.

Now I’m living alone at 24 years old in japan. Finding English speaking support is almost impossible in the small town that I live. ",4.463358778625956,6.088410030534357,4.561748091603054,85.68964503816795,70.8320610687023,7.377404580152671,29.130534351145037,7.908726449838941,1.8324192366412213,538,21,104,7,10,167,92,131,0.09,0.8740000000000001,0.036000000000000004,-0.7902,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,0,1,6,1,13,2,0,3,0,12,18,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,4,0,1,2,1,3,0,1,6,1,9,2,22,11,2,27,0,0,0,0,5,12,0,2,13,62,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845743503737949,0.1909045815130635,0.0,0.14740422746439338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280036387539655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14173415456709074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684692438614189,0.15678631639998056,0.2228859040654044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19474894301695594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019383788513295,0.0,0.0,0.3255238019906256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21587861406491046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19341754475893674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18654622374313085,0.0,0.16780209227610254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247512227028553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926959773089448,0.0,0.0,0.20916924606506904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815304237739318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633305522498447,0.3224432759524825,0.0,0.1747180633190197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29570797400068594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419042347332638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23739785553176465
EDAnonymous,hahalolkms,2019/03/07,"its still not enough even after reaching my ugw, i know its not gonna be enough, its an endless cycle of 'just one more pound.' i hate it but i cant stop, if i try ill end up binging and hating myself. eds fucking suck.",1.1805319148936169,2.5733661489361737,2.8010106382978712,95.90875,79.0,4.7,20.26063829787234,3.1291,-0.5199744680851066,167,4,39,0,4,55,40,47,0.278,0.652,0.07,-0.9216,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,8,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,6,0,3,6,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,4,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24752445555041555,0.5775274032704177,0.0,0.18458505212010728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583623663809924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5518308143146444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358753345584986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189373799306766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22318238598722584,0.233646589428286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897394752219851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilykeene,2019/03/07,"i didn’t die! i ate 2 spoonfuls of cookie dough tonight and GUESS WHAT. 

NOTHING HAPPENED. 

i felt a little sick afterwards, but it didn’t turn into an uncontrollable binge. i kinda wanted to purge, but was actually able to control it for the first day in 4 months (shoutout lent), and i’m drinking some spearmint tea to hopefully spare my skin from the chocolate chips. i’ll probably restrict tomorrow, but i can’t believe i just... did that... and like, lived. ",4.483903654485047,6.472629151162792,4.706079734219268,83.20453488372095,71.44186046511628,7.70498338870432,32.053156146179404,8.418075326091056,2.545450498338871,361,17,67,6,7,113,67,86,0.135,0.784,0.081,-0.5567,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,4,0,5,5,1,1,0,16,13,6,1,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,3,2,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,2,7,2,8,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,7,37,11,0,0.2367971017035431,0.0,0.23107981287007898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667892445776507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655880848267737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271454086333142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245758006127354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319710100713249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273623523797904,0.0,0.0,0.20141949374117832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608587042677553,0.0,0.2093988950020054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351929520350473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568710280873515,0.2373329047376627,0.20909617912824285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900918740363992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272132055376993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553073261665365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575672486539583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966906578610142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kuchanec_,2019/03/07,"100 hours fast steak! So im currently at 83 hours of fast. Im aiming for 100 but I'm not sure whether I am able to keep it when I come home (because of family (and becouse of my stupid craving ass)). If I keep it today and tomorrow during school, it would be like 110 hours which would be def. my new record.

The problem is that im going to a party tomorrow in the evening and am not sure whether I should eat and if so, what particulary is the best if I'm drinking after. Obviously low cal options would be best. ",2.677222222222224,3.675885425925927,4.3157407407407415,88.16583333333334,74.37037037037038,7.622222222222224,26.462962962962962,8.07648339933343,1.4134962962962965,398,14,90,6,8,134,67,108,0.127,0.721,0.152,0.7189,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,1,0,4,0,11,3,1,0,3,24,17,13,0,8,8,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,5,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,6,5,9,10,2,17,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,4,13,54,12,1,0.1479674160352453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019956343118346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105653485297509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746082698395272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449517359309226,0.0,0.15140760670996548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773108277734288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949051107523788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409329244327056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842338280901915,0.0,0.4371542970855848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794906019624159,0.0,0.0,0.26304047612843656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228940535194134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290785245017007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158483370969766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975092463099238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789150769815581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402558090255789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153354208766185,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thund3rb1rds,2019/03/07,"Which vegetables/fruit are hardest to purge? I plan on eating them first so the unhealthy foods that I eat after come out easier and if anything has to digest at least it'll be some veggies yknow?
I don't know if this post is allowed. Sorry.",2.210000000000001,4.636591666666664,3.1498333333333366,89.57850000000002,80.25,5.506666666666668,22.1,6.742157984588678,0.6369949999999998,192,6,37,2,5,61,44,48,0.113,0.8270000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.3691,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,1,0,8,8,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,6,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,2,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568420955903053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26885738898159384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6387382661045872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654828382807903,0.3774078234806391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152893553807838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989176176116169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493845292010474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theweeping-weeb,2019/03/07,"DAE do turbo starve mode when there is an event on the horizon? First of all, if there is an event coming up, all I think about leading up to it is how Im going to walk in and every one will notice how fat I am.  Narcissism and anxiety rolled into one.

Then Im just freaked out because this event is now the big red X on the calendar basically, and EVERY SECOND of the day counts toward shedding weight and fat so I can be closer to my new UGW. 

My Husband got tickets to a concert about two weeks away from now and I am excited to go, but now I have to take the restriction up a couple notches to prepare. People will be taking pictures, were going to be drinking and probably go out to dinner at some point.  

Typing this all out just makes me feel so psycho, but yeah. Events are a big deal to me.",3.1431818181818163,4.141379393939396,4.647651515151517,86.23147727272728,73.24242424242424,7.196969696969697,25.26515151515152,7.492282038375204,1.1620606060606065,620,19,130,7,12,208,103,165,0.047,0.922,0.031,-0.1666,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,14,2,0,0,10,1,16,5,2,4,3,27,27,15,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,11,5,1,2,3,0,7,0,1,0,5,2,4,9,1,28,20,4,37,0,0,1,0,2,17,0,2,13,97,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249220335535009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272056446373234,0.0,0.0,0.10557687110307758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919047043329892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163480718724826,0.0,0.1116951844194205,0.17855442179239675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16966324623313714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918452158862703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757160608597983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731791335587982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937183888341175,0.0,0.1385182974609717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741564116486016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560770064144818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672709195456388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19718142664284394,0.0,0.0,0.23472017554887656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007024853482445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372340596890556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867313925615031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604392274296098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097510831587296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691844364525901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892501173808186,0.2109024671174564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hydrangeor,2019/03/07,"Will you manifest on 8 mars? Hi all. This is a kind request.   
I am an anonymous ed student. For my university, I am preparing a small research on silence around ED.  
I am looking for people that would want to help me to answer a couple of short questions. Everything is, of course, anonymous, and you may change your mind whenever you want. It's not a big work and there wont be many questions. If you answer now, you do not have to continue, of course.   


My first question, for those interested is:   
Are you planning to manifest on the international day for Women the day 8 mars tomorrow? Or do something else?  
If yes, please let me know why and how you feel/have felt about it!  


I'd be very grateful for your answers.   


Take care all of you.  


​",2.308298850574712,4.738948289655177,3.5606896551724176,86.75160919540232,79.89655172413794,6.625287356321839,26.90804597701149,7.793537801064563,1.718508045977011,582,25,115,10,15,189,93,145,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.9671,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,10,0,3,5,3,0,0,7,1,17,0,0,1,2,25,24,7,0,5,5,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,17,3,18,16,2,13,0,0,1,0,17,7,0,7,6,78,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796855984086082,0.19958593744564967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462204068983783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16746735367570845,0.0,0.17375838589590145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174333399111,0.0,0.21185979212327724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372126927984157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762042250220872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305148676602843,0.0,0.1577090840188868,0.0,0.0,0.1397139127431578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009563474163593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104470696459362,0.09026940832743036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796029566145365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793154163946908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665272321024205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584917544696354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387267063930473,0.0,0.0,0.18030097930662145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5520044132397011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645034144259154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349816348570905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552630998281182,0.19376189769628385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482132034522268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957847818996302,0.0,0.0,0.11668094830853748,0.0,0.19958593744564967,0.0
EDAnonymous,lighghtup,2019/03/07,"thank you @ Canada for stopping my binge i went to my local grocery store to buy binge food because i was having a breakdown and i never realized that canada doesn’t have certain snack foods that are common in the US??

i paced around for 15 min looking for uncrustables, nutter butters, and beautiful fudge stripes to no avail, and had to go home begrudgingly with no binge food

a victory i suppose?

hindsight: uncrustables sounds like such a sad binge food lmao",6.372500000000002,8.055160773809531,5.7438095238095235,78.81785714285716,66.26190476190476,8.457142857142857,33.04761904761905,8.841846274778883,2.9048476190476182,371,16,62,6,6,113,61,84,0.10099999999999999,0.7290000000000001,0.171,0.8095,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,6,5,0,0,2,9,10,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,5,5,1,1,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,3,3,9,3,10,7,0,9,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,5,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917063038530052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899531524241504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8648266049442507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161662175471366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793517926609152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735304501814918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014764969180314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379022087024633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948548475050868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461576476553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21507536131029592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657501437734058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,texas_native,2019/03/07,"trying to keep it together on a work trip New here, current peach and former proED. 

On a work trip, at a really nice restaurant, really wanting to try and have a “normal” experience. 

Purged last night, mid dinner, would love some words of support not to do it tonight.

Thanks in advance, really love the world of kindness and support on here. ",6.481190476190478,7.333338031746035,6.473134920634923,76.70589285714287,65.50793650793649,9.474603174603176,31.62301587301588,9.516144504307137,2.913320634920636,268,10,47,5,4,85,45,63,0.0,0.695,0.305,0.9712,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,2,7,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,10,10,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,10,9,1,16,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,1,6,27,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952289042693205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129889979873096,0.0,0.21240452938276966,0.0,0.16626368319418885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681837914903664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699657484777688,0.0,0.19141307497443694,0.19984838650184494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39200735964667777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4629280105171196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18778919922005485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27696599748325745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030744892038908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969868034502171,0.0,0.0,0.14489522858219975,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heyimhayley,2019/03/07,"Venting. My mom made dinner, and she knows I like to know exactly how many calories are in it (so she weighed/measured everything she put into it). It was enough for me and her and my dad, and when divided into 3 it was exactly 500 calories a serving. Perfect. She gives me my bowl first, and I just assume she gave me 1/3 of what she made.... turned out she messed up and heavy scooped my bowl, so I had a bigger bowl than she and my dad. But I had already eaten once I knew, so I def had more than 500 calories, and I don't know exactly how many. I literally want to cry right now, and she's all mad at me for being upset, and I'm like this literally ruined my whole day now. She is saying I'm overreacting and just making the whole family upset by being in a bad mood and worrying about it. This happened an hour ago and it's still controlling my mind, I'm just so upset.  I had been steadily gaining weight in a binge cycle this month, and today was the day I was finally deciding to get back on track and stick to 1200 a day. But now I already had more than 1200 calories, so I'm not back on track I'll just continue to always gain weight and continue to feel like complete SHIT . My mom just doesn't get how this kind of thing feels so I needed to vent to those who do... ",3.0642857142857127,3.9252654285714317,4.553458646616544,87.35206766917294,73.28571428571428,7.855639097744362,25.27819548872181,8.20500826718156,1.3275293233082706,988,30,219,15,19,331,131,266,0.111,0.82,0.069,-0.9029,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,5,22,14,2,3,8,0,17,5,1,7,5,50,39,28,0,2,8,4,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,14,19,4,1,8,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,15,5,35,5,27,22,6,31,0,1,0,0,19,12,1,1,21,148,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071012057938795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26665964691472244,0.0,0.10053338833250852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18580896069526973,0.10088112807275673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12667932316091976,0.0,0.1355118845092534,0.0,0.0,0.13271703684960473,0.23376013164732015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484118220860245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858681285426074,0.0,0.11390000833897435,0.0,0.12218223058663726,0.08631509393540382,0.0,0.1323543391827092,0.0,0.1027709326326498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262487722404139,0.11590324756558767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684228885638797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189851020442292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258172769733016,0.1992014488720665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708223610918994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22864895310814445,0.08064946715431881,0.24498861446048256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219955414774906,0.28300998470166844,0.0964387810971852,0.0,0.0,0.08958780873184119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867123783812148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145924625600656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318112820074167,0.0,0.09608231793599124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402180677874293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964884185824021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026861282501961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452490706687872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314193868137068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126380810594818,0.0,0.0,0.29425672338743664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697863744015508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270036843375605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slightlyannoyed0,2019/05/30,"feeling like i need to be underweight in order to be a ""real anorexic"" (-: nothing like invalidating yourself and making an excuse to ""relapse"" in order to be underweight.",7.583448275862068,9.327660620689656,9.189137931034484,55.007155172413796,63.48275862068966,9.937931034482759,42.086206896551715,10.125756701596842,5.3249172413793096,134,8,16,3,2,47,20,29,0.0,0.6890000000000001,0.311,0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,6,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22766992107873366,0.3216728083916006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399581240343825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30055856295807104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33386932364329697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4320459810869116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5125055664700682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aswerefallingdown,2019/05/30,"Is it even possible to break out of this disorder if you've had it since you were 10???? I've been thinking about food for far too long. I don't know how to think any other way. I thought I started restricting in high school, but nope, I was wrong. I was looking through my google photo drive and.... I found my first pic in my thinspo collection. I was 10. I thought I started 4 years later, but nope. I was still a child. That's insane. 

Now, I'm 21. I've been through binging...restricting....repeat. Every day. For 11 years.  That's more than half my life spent on this shitty thing. And up till age like 6 you don't really remember anything so really I've been doing this for most of my life. Tbh, it's more binging than restricting at this point and I wish I had a way out of this.

Is it even possible to break this kind of thinking if you've been doing it your whole life? It's become a part of my identity (that I keep hidden from others, of course) so I wouldn't even know where to start. I've tried so many different methods to eat normally, I've gone the other way to go back to restricting, and nothing really worked. Everything I'm doing is wrong because I've been thinking this way my whole life. SOS",1.0150119474313009,3.2645322096774194,2.599480286738352,92.78542413381122,83.75806451612901,6.254719235364398,21.281959378733575,7.526774132740827,0.7750774790919954,940,30,205,16,27,307,125,248,0.09,0.853,0.057,-0.8218,1,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,3,0,2,13,4,0,0,4,0,21,6,0,1,0,29,41,13,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,20,6,2,4,10,0,1,3,5,2,0,2,17,1,24,2,30,23,6,34,0,0,1,0,4,11,0,3,15,129,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354585068053995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899840692951555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316083492993963,0.0,0.06592736353136047,0.1194434087994318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974793769680898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299394970168845,0.12394950909383892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066466343372833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21429657896818144,0.0,0.09112121547832863,0.0,0.097198434193398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199251244159518,0.13077566189185275,0.1185811218538649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061464256040288524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426663356112275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612887487206133,0.0,0.11262179996658896,0.11887305287802485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30555876371029034,0.052836729190373,0.0,0.0,0.09570953158770673,0.09081893714968384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964733697787414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596424225820744,0.10377304226660523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711613707754424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223690464710038,0.2438462213340327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20785137949671328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251310406021555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094537852706685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946297039532161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22964782351600915,0.0,0.08636889653068637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185019319002763,0.2771931477957729,0.0,0.17171837074172994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342689267679182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433784073871476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24149169193997236,0.12436740285918794,0.0,0.0,0.078734640141813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364905514553804,0.0,0.1392903773751558
EDAnonymous,chailatlatte,2019/05/30,"My bf and I got back together And I’m happy because I love him. However, I miss being sad because it manifests itself in my appetite by decreasing it. I hardly ate the three days we were apart and I’ve since regained my appetite. 

Just wanted to share",1.4824666666666673,4.05052938,3.708000000000002,83.32066666666668,85.2,6.533333333333335,26.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,2.046533333333333,199,9,36,4,6,68,38,50,0.087,0.725,0.188,0.7506,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,9,3,3,4,0,4,0,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,24,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29239804879347536,0.0,0.4636084395955914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452375677456493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041303036847011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047960294252187,0.3406401109860941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432013518508403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31455670214107945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22428841280637307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cbunni666,2019/05/30,"Happy little accident Gotta love it when you're babysitting and you're hungry. So you go into the kitchen to heat up your prepared meal.... Just to walk out to see that the family pet left a nice present on the floor for you to clean up. Thank you, damn mutt. Not only did you make me something I didnt want to do but also killed what little appetite I had. Guess I will have to drink my calories until my nausea goes away.",2.7039408866995096,4.189077850574717,3.4985221674876854,92.11655172413792,75.0919540229885,5.8909688013136305,21.623973727422005,6.1826913282559595,0.1719077175697863,331,8,71,2,7,105,68,87,0.121,0.7509999999999999,0.128,-0.3284,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,5,0,0,4,6,2,0,4,0,6,4,0,1,0,9,14,6,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,1,11,4,14,9,0,15,0,0,1,1,6,10,1,1,3,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19554529265332074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297378046857409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395398630401432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23051492073392915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389682960682534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693701177311532,0.0,0.0,0.2602997301776967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705289378702809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656754140446676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490153415966064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22069193566509052,0.0,0.16322128329423466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18597108148144692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194853509202131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18824607699711146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22512431470767552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422624999158545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,QueenSolitude,2019/05/30,"Discord server for people with eating disorders  Hi everyone,

I made a Discord server for people with eating disorders of any kind. Feel free to join it.

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*It is important to note that*:

\- we do NOT condone influencing others to get eating disorders

\- people in recovery are more than welcome

\- if someone has an ED but is not actively seeking help for it, do not shame them

We include and support everyone.

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[https://discord.gg/J2TkU8e](https://discord.gg/J2TkU8e)",7.47986666666667,11.537539653333333,6.382666666666669,64.14466666666667,72.46666666666667,8.666666666666668,35.0,9.150863307647796,4.5514,394,20,46,10,9,119,53,75,0.1,0.7190000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.7461,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,2,0,1,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,6,3,0,2,0,13,10,3,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,4,5,11,9,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029762045905076,0.3397779353330352,0.0950781209343497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.480715892453286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4291930063661022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671959934282821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069401547236892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304689573335968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371418633108816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455944695449795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229511812936198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907876783494676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846370740277788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865894744479075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397779353330352,0.0
EDAnonymous,SG0309,2019/05/30,"ah shit here we go again this whole year i've been in and out of binge cycles and losing weight but then gaining some back and having to lose that+ more etc etc..well i think i really fucked up this time and have been in the worst binge of them yet. the weight gain has become physically noticeable and i'm so close to walking out in traffic holy shit istg my hard work is being reversed and i'm panicking and just need help getting out of this binge and back into my own control. how the hell do people just eat here and there every 6 hours or have meals whAT the fuck ?? i cant fathom setting a cookie down once i've started to eat it. or to even take a bite of food and come back to it, nah that shit has to hit my gut in one go. either that or don't eat at all. hh once i start i can't stop and just eat until it hurts and i slowly have to get horizontal like an animal. so i've been trying to busy myself away from food but failing and all i want is tips and tricks or where to go to/sites that'll help me with what i want and where i wanna get to, but that's brow raising and no one will talk to me about what i want to talk about. feeling alone for the 9372528th time nothing new, except trying out reddit. please for the love of GOD don't tell me this is a place where people are going to want to push help onto me",4.564460526315791,3.870667768421054,5.144243421052631,89.90689144736844,69.56140350877193,7.967105263157895,23.777412280701753,6.6274283507984215,0.4732149122807012,1034,17,245,6,16,333,155,285,0.19,0.677,0.133,-0.9758,0,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,1,7,21,14,7,0,10,1,21,16,4,2,2,51,45,28,0,6,12,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,15,25,9,2,2,0,0,7,5,12,1,2,3,4,20,2,42,38,9,42,1,4,0,3,9,19,6,5,16,161,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980199752037128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891873533942866,0.2183202446909545,0.0,0.0,0.10452401966134912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152520856440422,0.0,0.0,0.10614840703013786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3873672251262351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110041513416053,0.06250976943411049,0.0,0.07973948344203788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04785354875378076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228881576508975,0.0,0.0,0.17498894701850815,0.14833871705823187,0.0,0.2151476141345985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847801284230018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903084591199278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320274076367736,0.0,0.10131560418961118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046237020328259416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117590952029932,0.0,0.0,0.08541758221200753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017541834536481,0.0,0.09140527919184163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081100095197768,0.10774989103122146,0.0,0.2015800603257044,0.12826295949278485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122489694886827,0.0,0.0988801469996975,0.10388786570324304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060629721069091334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914441919446002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397537719127545,0.0,0.0,0.07912447008290252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711585742470192,0.15213838688510428,0.08272077800646024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06064240446881496,0.0,0.0,0.1103723534307582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851063195472484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328786103867607,0.0,0.0,0.23049552117586736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566377253504096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890008546249109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060945975544976175
EDAnonymous,insanitysgrip,2019/05/30,"I thought I was starting to get better but I’ve actually gotten much, much worse Not really sure what else to say. I thought I was getting better, started opening UK to doctors and my therapist about my eating issues, started getting weighed and checked regularly and got prescribed anti-nausea meds that helped for a while. Started being okay eating, being okay with myself for a little bit. 

Then, it just yanked again but much, much worse than before. To the point where food just makes me panic and I started counting calories, which I haven’t really done before (just restriction without counting). I’m at a lower weight than I was when I was bad before, this is the lowest I have been in YEARS and it’s severely underweight for my age and height. 

Part of me doesn’t want to get better but I know that’s so fucked up. I just don’t know her to get out if this mentality.",5.0548214285714295,6.410202458333334,5.462857142857146,80.83214285714288,69.05952380952381,7.742857142857144,28.880952380952376,8.07648339933343,1.9799666666666664,695,25,126,9,12,222,101,168,0.22,0.696,0.085,-0.9838,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,9,9,1,1,5,2,13,7,0,1,1,27,33,14,0,2,10,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,9,5,1,4,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,10,2,18,6,19,21,6,20,0,0,0,1,3,9,1,1,11,89,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.10920231505548854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343529701969083,0.0,0.0,0.2856665869319453,0.0,0.0,0.29691039973749755,0.12217035673646695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453864667623335,0.0,0.11451680510601482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22901177943191656,0.09348156411023596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353149510736775,0.0,0.0,0.10345359012902153,0.2923265173082443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949997714971471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07500699773072446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679886650083933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299919649782112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215736378827726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746968938789907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430029165940212,0.0,0.11277307031586566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290497255884654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312954173730285,0.0,0.12118129726379387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578559917125133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337733714016265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889906773070087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641984538059015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960316921577139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054683438268304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992935151783025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767880199745634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600397125150392,0.0,0.0,0.13626911631042213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078716142287052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280797928466192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206260831292917
EDAnonymous,michaelanicolee,2019/05/30,"Breakup caused me to completely lose appetite hey all. last week i was dumped by my ex, we had been together three years. while we were together i really struggled with constant binging and overeating to cope with my stress and feelings. ever since he dumped me i have completely lost my appetite and have been fasting like it’s nobody’s business, and I don’t even think about food anymore. it’s odd because normally I binge to deal with my sadness and stress, but now I just cannot even being myself to do it. i guess that’s good? i’ll feel sick from eating the smallest amount of food if I do decide to eat. I used to hardly be able to go a day fasting because I felt so weak, but now I feel completely normal and have not had a meal in three days. well yea i just wanted to share this small success for me since I had been struggling so much with binging. thanks for coming to my ted talk.",4.631517690875231,5.439460229050283,4.7962150837988835,87.24430400372442,69.61452513966479,7.530912476722532,28.883147113594042,7.492282038375204,1.556608566108007,707,25,144,7,12,221,109,179,0.159,0.736,0.106,-0.7228,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,3,11,16,2,4,3,1,17,7,0,2,2,33,29,12,0,4,6,1,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,13,5,0,6,0,0,2,3,10,1,2,10,5,24,6,21,17,3,17,0,3,0,0,8,3,0,2,13,95,29,1,0.12570924159579966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466978858216188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532623737716067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913801932318128,0.0,0.10828738057782608,0.3954112442843633,0.13584703113881194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214412232641698,0.12960070821099431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572638749981442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605953696386347,0.1137112060133048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906871090727671,0.0,0.12070058577356632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30401622785301136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144345896950235,0.1054389476159864,0.0,0.0,0.1384829022029869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261078865840565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246981008954888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061415185624646526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063648616702076,0.13722648704578788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241075686363458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463367323293193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805325591353685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797596738300844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879990230415924,0.2628371874370492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104032661326456,0.0,0.11573618009215401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054940609788573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857242289797893,0.0,0.0,0.07414656770734432,0.0,0.10083637094358863,0.0,0.11302770526762056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809526300483123
EDAnonymous,drowniings,2019/05/30,haha frick u ever genuinely need lax but ur mom won’t let u buy any bc she thinks ur trying to purge 😎,-1.7299999999999969,0.10028933333333434,1.788333333333334,96.49000000000002,93.16666666666666,4.866666666666667,12.166666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.9157333333333328,80,1,20,1,3,29,22,24,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30055536092289353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39978797317669296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519451793114857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5176309645098174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32771581462801025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831971002109695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000692224742884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soberasfuck,2019/05/30,"Fashion writer explains her experiences with sudden, drastic, and unexplained weight loss The author does not have an ED, however, her experiences dealing with a mysterious illness that causes her to drop 20% of her weight have a lot of interesting points that I think people here can identify with. She talks about her doctor not believing her when she says she is eating the same as always but still losing weight, how men find her shocking thinness extremely alluring, and how people feel they can comment rudely on her body and weight loss whereas they would not say a word had she instead been gaining weight. 

https://web.archive.org/web/20180110050126/https://www.elle.com/beauty/health-fitness/advice/a9444/the-year-my-body-shrank-261302/

Some interesting sections:

>	Since my return from Belize some two months earlier, I had shed the fleshly equivalent of a small child. At 5’6” and a shade over 120 pounds, I had always hovered on the thin side of normal, but after my rapid post-Belize diminishment, the needle on the scale barely reached the 100 mark. My soft, slightly rounded physique had become all sharp angles and flat planes: prominent clavicles; concave abdomen; visible, countable ribs.

>i have to admit that, in the beginning at least, as the weight began to fall away, I enjoyed my metamorphosis. All those epithets we’ve coined to describe annoying areas of recalcitrant flesh—bat wings, back fat, love handles, muffin tops—no longer applied to me. I remember standing beneath the harsh fluorescent lights in the dressing room at Saks and thinking, Give me tight! Give me diaphanous! Give me sleeveless! For the first time since I was a teenager, I could take a photograph in which I did not appear to have Nixon-like jowls. I began to look more frequently in mirrors. So thoroughly had I internalized our culture’s idolization of the very thin that I was secretly pleased by a weight loss I knew had to have sinister roots.

>	Studies have shown that in the minds of those predisposed to eating disorders, starvation often creates a sense of euphoria by altering the levels of neurotransmitters in the brain. In my experience, notable weight loss in the absence of caloric deprivation engenders a similar feeling. Even as I worried I might truly be dying, I relished being exceedingly thin. How fabulous to be able to eat whatever I want and not gain a pound! How demented, under the circumstances, to have this thought at all.

>	if I was paying an inordinate amount of attention to my new silhouette, this was nothing compared to the attention it was getting from others. Many men, I quickly learned, really do like frighteningly lean women, whatever they may claim to the contrary. As an average, medium-size young woman, I was unremarkable, innocuous. As a skinny slip of a thing, I was something of a sensation. In restaurants and at parties, men flirted with me extravagantly. 

>	But while blindingly blond hair and cartoonishly large breasts are fetishized symbols of an obvious, stereotypical sort of femininity, I was surprised to discover that near-emaciation also invites the proverbial male gaze. Do so many men really fancy women with the curves of a prepubescent boy? Apparently so. And why not? Men also live in a culture that, for reasons not entirely clear, prizes dollsize celebrities on the one hand and gazelle-like models on the other. Their ideals of beauty have also been formed by such images. (As a male friend once put it to me, semifacetiously, “A little anorexia is hot.”)",10.372527653444457,11.102206986417661,8.860552554406546,63.326937284560394,57.23429541595925,11.893213973349795,40.76868858362916,11.449361687318168,5.099894850028296,2861,135,411,70,33,873,343,589,0.095,0.784,0.121,0.9602,2,0,1,0,0,0,117.0,1,0,4,10,20,19,2,0,46,0,39,25,10,7,5,70,59,33,1,6,11,0,21,1,1,3,4,2,1,12,17,16,13,1,15,0,2,3,7,9,0,3,21,27,50,10,78,31,12,58,0,6,4,2,44,36,0,9,18,286,67,3,0.07227713543175045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339999727528313,0.12028073335963242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790674795593707,0.05557665574569942,0.0,0.0,0.07982441755823393,0.0,0.08143158097523594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028360375084385,0.0,0.0806851866256712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07424852774166643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577074113982157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451455295176798,0.0,0.0,0.07501225549010994,0.0,0.08283585900214008,0.07397871075885823,0.06325020828334538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22187266065996708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773836629077223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210272204153927,0.0,0.0,0.0730909827184462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605999237390836,0.06147889447545519,0.0,0.0,0.055841135543383984,0.0,0.03776182013433607,0.2080044428102297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682721513272561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03531095751282448,0.07244067758739002,0.0638220347647415,0.0,0.0606945903009581,0.0808596267728887,0.0,0.061447435889251986,0.06523293661492596,0.0,0.0,0.1465553419656229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667461883208586,0.07297930289082442,0.0,0.05769091993752885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980570778732277,0.0,0.0,0.07081624683421832,0.06935186077188682,0.0,0.0,0.0769727903642953,0.048976857515521374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021573033663288,0.0,0.0,0.07933859028764377,0.06832525501775792,0.0,0.06922151649803568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265848418766872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260516743881092,0.07431293296374686,0.0,0.0,0.08187590485867424,0.0,0.0,0.1149553581742491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195767866409058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05564246999671177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772061371997789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05434341084418772,0.05809362365081067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04801771718078951,0.09262453992369768,0.0,0.05737997209843813,0.042145378907580064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060425903828484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05963620620516305,0.042630927113653384,0.0,0.0,0.7041126350577513,0.0,0.0,0.06521887273788962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340093944658661,0.0,0.051343603278392325,0.0,0.0,0.04654410551907871
EDAnonymous,boneappleteas,2019/05/30,"best friend wants to lose weight - im terrified :( So I've been struggling with an ED for years and she knows this. And she tried to bring it up to me in the least triggering way possible- which I appreciate. 

And I'm supportive. I dont want her to feel bad about herself and I want her to feel healthy and be her best self. I know with other people I would be jealous and want them to gain weight so I could be the skinny one. But I know thats a really bad mentality that I'm trying to work on.

Anyways, she knows I know a lot about dieting so she came to me for help. She's been binge eating this entire year and became overweight. 

I'm honestly more than happy to help. The only problem is that I'm terrified of diet culture and what it could do to her. Part of me doesn't want to help her because I don't want her to develop an ED or really bad body dysmorphia. 

I'm getting super bad anxiety about it. I figured out everything she needs to do to lose weight. I really really want to help her do it in the most healthy way possible. 

I think I just settled on helping her create meal plans that would help her lose on a healthy diet, but I don't want to tell her anything about calories or macros. The moment she starts counting calories is the moment I'll start worrying, because I know that's how my  ED started. 

I guess I just want advice here. If I'm getting bad feelings from the start, should I continue to help her? Or is that just my anxiety? I don't even know if she's prone to develop an ED. I feel like normal people can lose weight without it turning into an ED, but I've been in this hell so long that it doesn't seem possible. 

Should I help my friend lose weight healthily or should I let her be overweight and feel bad about herself? I don't mind her being overweight, but I do care that she's starting to develop a negative body image. 

(and if this post isn't appropriate for this sub, let me know. I know I'm not talking about my own struggle, but I would feel uncomfortable posting this in any other dieting sub and talking about my ED there.)",3.2399423758865247,4.507293782505911,4.517558362884163,86.21796875,73.34988179669031,7.93525413711584,26.93033392434988,8.472884824447931,1.7505887115839247,1622,58,342,28,32,536,165,423,0.193,0.6829999999999999,0.125,-0.9817,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,1,11,19,26,2,2,15,0,34,17,3,2,0,77,81,28,0,23,17,0,11,1,2,6,3,0,0,1,24,16,15,0,18,0,0,2,11,16,0,1,4,11,60,10,46,62,8,27,1,5,0,0,40,10,1,11,12,225,84,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05741414747866755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039955026118089335,0.0,0.08989395388561361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834988840883757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29434496146688044,0.07163230848288392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331829558659756,0.0,0.0,0.1305258495302128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719941378323173,0.05990405557749754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938212604446324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885975255788714,0.0,0.0,0.060120448358810384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038806745861990684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05280469177933088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782480263703225,0.04197417542110087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078705134054653,0.0,0.06139352772625758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06472462696546821,0.0,0.0,0.0625451816143115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150548391741607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634648650315994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906090758130085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016076763952692,0.0,0.028704445937619113,0.0,0.0,0.0519958202801611,0.0,0.3286558831483788,0.0,0.04995091398605533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05921064468393535,0.0,0.0593252237250713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04356566421762236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756686513016945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039813521291179085,0.04468539040868992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362532042913963,0.0,0.08146584562319321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987103701713647,0.1125410024532036,0.0,0.0,0.05622005306338662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505583654210508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05348782499470644,0.061293682733288876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793343430527372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284577113050227,0.0,0.0,0.06667382912838946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444916801247633,0.0513539601675629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0376474653479873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978080034493719,0.06390794638977336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118939575467508,0.0932730610128873,0.0,0.3577353265567305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05663717236472034,0.0,0.0427739236701342,0.05966797409415445,0.0,0.12521238066217105,0.0,0.0,0.07567185115849707
EDAnonymous,OnTheBrinkOfABurnout,2019/05/30,"Gonna relapse 😤✊🏼 I always feel triggered to go back to my old ED ways, during exams. Finals are coming in two weeks. I'm a workaholic person and I completely lose my appetite due to exam stress. I can work for 10 hours straight without eating. I don't even need to cram, because I study everyday, but bro perfectionism has crippled my thought process.",2.063804347826085,4.714266884057974,3.33606884057971,86.50671195652174,83.05797101449275,5.189130434782608,27.46557971014493,6.6274283507984215,1.435071014492754,281,13,51,3,8,91,59,69,0.063,0.867,0.071,0.1289,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,8,11,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,1,8,0,7,9,0,12,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,25,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20167496651279002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18637099846896116,0.0,0.14774922086962197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878413555343325,0.25412500941321764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24800958091331246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008604460833686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225518092582288,0.0,0.0,0.265509373206553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377469908524975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386900199854437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271155023188975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17971759059975856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543312234672042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21163202921213006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776391244534585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241824734901491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23676462854000604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19238556434449827,0.19441817160469294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336403298002163,0.0,0.17645149317808428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,advicethrowawayjhhhg,2019/05/30,"Anyone watch Frasier? So I’ve been rewatching it and now I’m obsessed with Daphne as my new thinspo. 

Also another rant: 

I went to 3 shops looking for this particular brand of noodles (Amy’s Kitchen if anyone else knows them) and they’ve stopped selling them EVERYWHERE IN THE VICINITY and right now it’s all I’ll eat and I want to fucking die. Not only am I trying to get sober but now this TOO??!!!!! 

Rant over",0.05137630662020598,2.3085856707317127,1.8040418118466908,92.56073170731709,100.82926829268291,4.7818815331010445,22.930313588850176,6.5431188927421005,0.9065094076655056,323,14,65,5,14,105,63,82,0.151,0.835,0.015,-0.8675,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,12,9,9,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,1,1,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,6,0,9,7,1,9,0,0,2,1,2,3,1,1,5,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140785075889107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772035321516187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696920132824919,0.2708671051494788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27436297513716457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27050532335254224,0.22083807907058764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443956980662821,0.13811670174371588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452848299038586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22199503615642785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25531963470436564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20105698329952434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22576119920031995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22101601763442028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948245383859673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592582731097426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450635040604241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mild-rose,2019/05/30,my boyfriend said I “basically have a supermodel’s body”... And all I can think of is how I should lose even MORE WEIGHT and then I’ll be ACTUALLY PRETTY what the fuck is wrong with me.,2.751754385964912,4.144898736842109,4.255263157894738,87.11517543859651,74.78947368421053,8.224561403508767,23.19298245614036,8.841846274778883,1.2099719298245613,144,4,34,3,3,48,33,38,0.226,0.679,0.095,-0.6561,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,1,7,9,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,6,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.31240673907041233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555991350832014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21144693275063944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959607469943488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581505064573969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256935940065733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045228250255966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051303425950168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898396315216768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500186655138264,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AkumaRyoshi,2019/05/30,"Anyone else fast because they drink alcohol? I dont mean to feel the effects of alcohol more, but because of the calories in drinking.

Its gotten bad enough for me that im at about 30 standard drinks a day in wine, and then I feel like I don't deserve food because of how many calories I'm consuming already.

Any other ED alcoholics out there?",6.048529411764704,6.151108558823534,6.4841176470588255,78.85352941176474,66.35294117647058,9.15294117647059,37.588235294117645,8.841846274778883,3.3234294117647067,274,14,51,4,4,89,54,68,0.077,0.8740000000000001,0.049,-0.4329,0,0,7,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,2,8,0,2,0,9,7,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,8,0,4,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,10,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5317950603667874,0.0,0.0,0.1830421181867538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279756434939392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598044489438042,0.16995383310314674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384948610046861,0.3033391807220819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697269006740882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943988810638036,0.4874695525003909,0.0,0.0,0.13856344059375494,0.0,0.0,0.17138846985504988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773812273525293,0.11849785153640095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057115392757247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916850251003574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103590217142681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16816655778752135,0.0,0.18068149923966934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,z8f6Px98Co76fb,2019/05/30,"That lovely feeling when your mom basically makes fun of your ED So today is fathers day in Germany, which has been rebranded by many as ""men's day"" because it seems like people want another day to get drunk - that's a whole different topic and has almost nothing to do with this post.

Because of this day, my mom gave me a Nutella jar as a gift. It was clearly intended as a joke gift, but she immediately saw that I didn't see it that way.

She's very well aware of the fact that I have been fighting my BED for about a year now and managed to get things under control with the help of keto and IF. She is fully aware of the many times I've told her that large amounts of sugar make me feel terrible and that most of my binges have included Nutella and a spoon (you can imagine what I was doing...). Is this all a joke to her? 

For her to see all that and still give me that jar and even joke about it... I honestly don't know what to say :(",5.041790209790211,4.511766764102563,5.786200466200466,85.15258741258742,68.53846153846153,8.937062937062937,29.52214452214452,8.296473431620573,1.7784871794871788,729,23,163,9,11,239,113,195,0.063,0.7809999999999999,0.157,0.9237,1,0,0,0,2,0,22.0,0,3,0,1,8,10,1,0,10,0,16,3,0,4,4,27,32,14,0,2,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,20,9,2,1,5,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,8,7,19,8,25,24,5,14,0,0,3,1,20,2,0,4,11,109,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152833843458325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004266481216567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607994411555745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118410250262014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937270248225189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594626777080555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080866098335103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543455436435427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948256380832196,0.14641367791102708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230262731388856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387978015329907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456581826085472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775178128443075,0.0,0.20375934851948546,0.30947954300579744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575096782535498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464496748492439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581230957056624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617442806694414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137507659795647,0.0,0.0,0.2432478368656729,0.13894584296771476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188807938685088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013985636414274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889980019096373,0.0,0.14467250235237414,0.1458415913620853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259332180965644,0.0900233295088053,0.12114816867106977,0.0,0.0,0.13722995776543911,0.0,0.0,0.17040253899727786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828675169709547
EDAnonymous,omg-aaaaa-fuck,2019/05/30,"The whole cause of all my problems is that I’m fat If I was skinny everything would almost be okay.

I can’t go outside, I can’t meet up with friends, I can’t buy new clothes, I can’t feel good about myself, I can’t socialize, I can’t be around people not even my family so I just hide inside this room. Heck, I can’t even shower cause then I’d have to undress.

All this because I look fat. If I was skinny, I would at least not feel self conscious or worthless, and actually be able to go outside.",0.4688700084961752,2.4238899906542097,2.5400849617672066,94.17677145284622,83.67289719626169,5.386236193712829,20.942225998300763,6.574015621080383,0.20943738317757,387,12,89,4,11,130,65,107,0.08,0.84,0.08,0.0112,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,1,16,4,4,2,2,20,22,6,0,5,6,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,2,1,3,3,4,0,3,0,1,2,9,2,0,0,2,3,15,3,8,15,4,8,0,1,1,0,4,4,1,4,2,58,18,0,0.20487967627841197,0.0,0.1999330097991205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051574009849073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823863489015797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248927490349164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209357284843047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706421878312893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413264232124807,0.0,0.19314232497104372,0.0,0.20718664054369806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828952966669002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23287568296602834,0.17184335201192982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204732780885176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978740680357612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203777077442425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196042180593774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373418495548224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088490288598173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287408418897979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910812874862014,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sofw2424,2019/05/30,"I wanna go back to starving My friends keep saying I’m fat and I don’t think their always joking when they say it
In their defense Iam overweight (I have hypothyroidism and the dosage isn’t quite right yet) I have lost weight ever since I started eating, started eating right and started working out but I’m still about 19,3kg away from my goal weight where I’d be perfectly healthy and I’m 9,3 kg away from not being overweight anymore, I’m tired of eating I wanna go back to starving myself, I wanna make myself puke, I never did it before but I wanna start doing it, I play football daily with my friends although I tend to play as the goal keeper, if I stopped having breakfast and lunch, then had dinner and went to puke it up again maybe I’d get better and if I kept going to the gym 4 times a week I’d be so good I’d be sooo healthy do you think I should do that??",1.8748001299967527,3.8676671657458566,2.9700877478063066,92.73210269743258,79.0,4.700812479688008,21.696782580435492,5.0885558068054335,-0.031331101722457344,691,20,143,2,17,221,105,181,0.138,0.675,0.187,0.8927,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,3,7,11,10,1,0,4,0,15,12,1,1,3,29,35,16,0,7,5,0,2,0,2,1,4,2,0,0,5,9,11,4,2,4,0,4,4,2,0,0,5,4,23,8,20,25,0,28,0,1,0,0,8,8,0,2,16,92,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097270597886538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078038722529692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477938929998197,0.20280099256223647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11221232807468116,0.0,0.0,0.11662899585825888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4048102139336392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192846777346932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20376608779445973,0.0,0.06889704410464276,0.0,0.22483562381086,0.1106069606331194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721281571047848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439525430941749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802477516321269,0.0,0.13248193145516082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170688148951218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026081562058154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22523386530447875,0.0,0.20973788747525626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908487877149296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37335529068894097,0.0,0.10531218185630724,0.11024988377615946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689949528278331,0.0,0.0,0.0768949171166184,0.15156607213894396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577879202630727,0.3211661878296207,0.0,0.12224554188253738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600350443356097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,accountyeet99,2019/05/30,"I spent 2€ to basically trigger myself I ordered a pair of thigh high socks from China enticed by the low price. Today they finally arrived and when I tried them on they were really deformed by my legs and unkind towards ny thigh fat, squeezing it and making me look like a goddamn ham tied in strings. I was already doing bad because of other reasons and this just made it worse. I'm a size 38 EU and this just makes me want to starve forever. I think I'll go have a walk. A long one.",3.7050571428571435,4.589117220000002,4.967428571428575,84.89300000000001,71.8,7.314285714285713,29.285714285714285,7.447530270364453,1.6824714285714286,382,15,78,4,7,127,77,100,0.17300000000000001,0.789,0.038,-0.9259999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,6,0,4,4,4,5,0,14,13,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,2,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,4,2,12,1,10,9,0,12,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,0,5,46,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906670032263479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21992690321366104,0.16056539608671652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885403890641517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969554503100618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782951766076601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868329470422776,0.0,0.0,0.23309955116503525,0.22118856017466895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24923420832414206,0.35164134057440505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848576853425238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873994493543346,0.2708177213669797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687752443914299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24967115885030255,0.0,0.0,0.17883041994327134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553593712458324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684257669550685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Daisy_tree,2019/05/30,"I think I'm about to relapse again, I have important exams, but I can't keep gaining his weight I've just weighed myself and found out I've gained around 20 pounds from binging. Which is destroying me from the inside out. I feel disgusting, it's like I can just feel myself expanding. 

This means I'm now overweight again. 
I've been close to a relapse with my b/p restrict cycle for a while. I kinda always expected that it would happen soon, especially since I've been binging so much lately. 
At this point I just want to relapse, so I downloaded MFP again and did all my ED prep. 

I have my A-levels at the moment, which is why I've been trying not to relapse, but I just really can't take this anymore. It's sucking up more energy to try and avoid relapse than it would be just to relapse. 
And I feel like at least if I relapse I can stop gaining this goddamn weight.

Thank you all for being here, I just really needed to vent again. I haven't been super active here in a while, and this is a new account, so I guess I'll be seeing you guys around.",3.759583333333332,4.602288013888892,4.83062962962963,86.07733333333336,71.6388888888889,7.611851851851853,25.974074074074068,7.793537801064563,1.3257818518518525,825,25,172,10,15,271,114,216,0.17600000000000002,0.737,0.086,-0.9716,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,4,20,8,3,1,6,0,20,4,0,0,2,40,37,13,0,6,10,0,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,12,11,4,4,6,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,6,6,25,4,23,26,5,23,0,0,1,0,4,11,1,3,14,119,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986027475099888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669526117443095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29926276420301995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25496664276873765,0.12008003463522207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184296644998754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851646963827696,0.16643068307754585,0.1486371057648719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940176690399987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896073229302247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423578678052622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309395828985603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356189439238785,0.12463297767437938,0.0,0.1623376445690926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588947568293225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535924831168535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394206890661753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904173815963308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405266765180725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637908265573172,0.0,0.0,0.15475018436465884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077021501330561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22823750967195386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914095154671564,0.0,0.0,0.4093647579466664,0.0,0.0,0.1516706658712967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23880567604295094,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RainyDayDaydream,2019/05/30,"How do I not compare myself to others? So...on Saturday I am going out for my best friends birthday. There is a girl (a model, might I add) joining us. She is so, so painfully thin, and I cant help but compare myself to her. She is obviously smaller than me, which I fucking hate. But now Im going to have to be in a resturant with her and eat, too? Think I may just end up getting drunk AF instead of eating anything. Her body is basically my goals. 

Her arms and legs are so tiny, so dainty - her hip bones jut out, her fingers are slender. Everything that Im not. Her legs are the size of my arms. No joke. And people tell me that Im skinny. 
I suspect theres something disordered going on her side too, but I cant diagnose. And Im not about to ask, because then I will feel like the failed anorexic. Shes better at it than me, because look at how much thinner she is, right? 

Im not sure how I am going to make it through the night without wanting to be swallowed up whole. Im going to try to avoid her. But she is actually super nice, and Id love to pick her brain a little. I love and hate her. Everthing I wish to be, but am not. 

Ive seen her in a bikini and Ive gotten up and personal with her body and Ive felt/touched it. (For context: Im a make up artist and my best friend is a photographer we did a swimwear shoot with this girl as the model, I had to rub her with sunscreen & oil. Comes with the job, lol). Shes so small. Dainty. So tiny. Birdlike. It killed me to get so personal with her body and its going to kill me again on Saturday. 

How do I go about containing my feelings and not ruining my friends birthday night and not have a fucking mental breakdown and bring along happy vibes. 

Thanks for listening to my rant!",0.7973062318516853,2.8076580523415977,2.831808502717596,92.23405182041547,82.80165289256199,5.577216886307795,23.30943340034249,6.766488616294105,0.6492794132975952,1335,49,296,15,37,449,174,363,0.129,0.713,0.158,0.9323,2,1,1,1,0,1,58.0,2,0,0,6,21,25,6,1,14,1,32,23,13,7,2,60,62,33,2,2,14,0,5,1,3,3,2,1,0,4,10,27,5,2,4,3,0,9,11,10,0,0,4,9,54,15,46,52,4,34,0,2,2,4,36,17,2,2,9,203,64,3,0.0,0.0,0.07810397795023516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671940256331227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586313507611337,0.0,0.07482322694846415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975788893146576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798652131101013,0.07078568893742357,0.0,0.2667071820054551,0.0,0.08934708852590928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894426899145058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123525806406176,0.0,0.0,0.09172864483440586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16379443020054854,0.0,0.0,0.070888491560345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193155272471953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809376141581973,0.05717801791168416,0.07684749237255463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18550776503482572,0.1479847184229388,0.083631427961983,0.0,0.31840570144118474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852002327325016,0.0,0.15803874383359412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05364670972311406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6051713004945946,0.0,0.079423774068907,0.0,0.17709682950258646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03910174071319754,0.08021749597364268,0.0,0.0,0.06721041568413656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14447194599868307,0.0,0.10684983279908078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065786327748732,0.08490596902580735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05883596080090781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150217473285335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516436924887145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055487160063325325,0.13976938918784335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683506456104303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06161592853048816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543335685248885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06995533860614468,0.07368676100334408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051284091382402426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433945974359865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09627393080579133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0472075405419376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935777883416626,0.09203790647699286,0.07715223047143277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_UR_TITRATIONS,2019/05/30,"Today's the day I take control of my eating again this dumb bitch has been getting so goddam fat and it's nauseating. I almost forgot how happy I feel when I'm restricting. The light-headedness, shivering, hair i pull out in clumps in the shower - that's what it takes to get pretty. I fasted today, and i feel more accomplished than ever. Fuck recovery, I'm relapsing and it feels so goddam liberating. I'm gonna get thin again.",2.3570238095238096,4.898525416666665,4.3452380952380985,80.53309523809527,80.54761904761905,7.542857142857144,21.238095238095237,8.515128840125781,1.658866666666667,341,10,62,8,9,116,59,84,0.243,0.652,0.105,-0.9316,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,5,0,3,0,2,4,2,2,1,13,16,7,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,4,2,3,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,5,7,1,6,13,1,13,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,8,35,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23486620385036636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263065819746172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512642252214571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400014269448727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121623310152847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557839457855233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168360886512096,0.3676253586352906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496809861824856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23861990395803695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527022060904993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4446486545148055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,banananazzz,2019/05/30,"My boyfriend is triggering my ED So my boyfriend recently decided to start dieting and working out to lose weight. I've noticed that whenever he talks about it, I feel like I need to start purging and exercise more. Unfortunately, I started purging again and I'm trying to keep my workouts the same (yoga four times a week). He knows I've had issues before with over exercising and purging, but I've gone almost a year without these issues being present so I assume he doesn't see it as a current issue. I've also been having mental breakdowns almost every night feeling too fat, unlovable, etc. He on the other hand seems happy and excited doing this, and I'm happy for him but it's also so triggering. I have no idea what to do about this, please send help!",4.756089663760896,6.375426315068495,5.750747198007471,77.47277085927772,70.0958904109589,8.048816936488171,30.396014943960147,8.575989854853784,2.5387205479452057,606,25,105,10,11,200,98,146,0.076,0.748,0.177,0.9512,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,9,6,0,0,5,0,9,6,2,2,0,25,22,14,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,8,3,1,7,4,0,2,3,2,0,1,3,5,10,4,14,18,3,16,0,1,1,0,8,3,0,4,12,67,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928584215264823,0.0,0.0,0.2338817354314345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443179977511401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308620526045606,0.0,0.0,0.12320591369492324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478775618615529,0.10446744654876516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31133121027989114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801554837337774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507698536998486,0.0,0.4578814762284234,0.0,0.1299768204243724,0.0,0.0,0.08036472635192846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144107398456898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359507035595267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736644130779952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842842420027578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13722787562665326,0.0,0.0,0.1664849482587867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605177117191571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438545852557294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165271642920459,0.1331231987903492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105091363829486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175349284641162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526846465578274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928124152574287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172976774985986,0.17806994767970186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096145349671865,0.0,0.10645790036042856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416796145294083
EDAnonymous,iamthebiggestsad,2019/05/30,"Purged at school for the first time It’s the second to last day of the year. :(
I’m feeling kinda sad and panicked at the same time now and I’ve been restricting more lately too. 

idk does anyone wanna be friends and talk about this shit bc its really hard to deal with it on your own",0.5864891041162217,2.9126843559322033,1.6971428571428575,97.90711864406781,86.79661016949154,4.727360774818402,15.20823244552058,6.1826913282559595,-0.7016750605326871,223,4,50,2,7,70,49,59,0.262,0.674,0.065,-0.9194,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,9,4,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,1,1,10,2,3,11,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,1,8,31,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022016513896863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649742725961208,0.2981322826333033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25306370669299183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621829330350067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24597669069562,0.0,0.0,0.22342005078069446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590488272425883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23572061298664035,0.3262080739932288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852563617340798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29266599172493674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968395131196372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23243224228516696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372468200754117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862226890163343
EDAnonymous,hanlus,2019/05/30,"Eating like Grackle for a day and it will solve all your ED problems Yeah she has a great relationship with food, wow it's okay to eat loads of food like her because look at how she eats and she's skinny enough to model!! I love her she is lovely but imo she's never had problems with her weight and so she has never struggled with food, not the other way around. It just irks me that recovery yt channels do this ""eat like xyz skinny person"" almost under the pretense that you can eat that way and look like her/still be skinny. Yea reality check, a lot of people developed ED and restrict hardcore to look like her so what makes u think eating a shitton of food can keep you a skinny minnie,, logic wya ?? Like, yea ok ""eating it isn't the end of the world"" but did you forget that EATING A LOT MAKES U GAIN WEIGHT IN RECOVERY. idk if i'm expressing myself right but yeah",1.7904229797979812,4.057871539772727,3.0403787878787902,90.67987373737377,80.76136363636364,5.2747474747474765,18.868686868686872,6.42735559955562,0.01603762626262606,685,16,139,6,18,221,102,176,0.064,0.705,0.23,0.9833,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,0,1,5,15,0,1,10,6,11,20,4,3,3,31,21,12,0,3,6,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,11,9,18,2,2,1,1,0,4,3,0,0,2,5,17,12,15,17,4,12,0,0,3,2,19,6,0,4,10,84,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498328919171245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555073206675969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05173489505242408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05473299770513306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6947312244370131,0.0,0.0,0.07516807573968169,0.08769158484610909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104920798277026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935675408432364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543479651886925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24877402885468225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21380385611703995,0.0,0.0,0.14430389569023672,0.15319381101294466,0.0,0.1133004264560562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091124657701106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05883695587836515,0.07410367889982032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624148994595642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111673516613576,0.0,0.07247701838495661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872271760708686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543801452171064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472892679071172,0.0,0.20669332001639265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ritual_vivisection,2019/05/30,"I always told myself that even though I had an eating disorder, I would never purge and I definitely had a lot of urges to break that promise after binging on like 3000+ calories. but, instead, I'm proud to say that I purged for the first time (well, not counting laxatives/exercise) because I had to eat 70 calories of vegetables for dinner instead of the 150 calories of pasta I had planned!

okay but actually what the fuck why is my brain like this?? I ate less than I planned, not more!",4.493187969924811,5.9098436421052645,5.229172932330831,81.7442105263158,70.47368421052632,7.954887218045112,31.46616541353384,8.418075326091056,2.424458646616542,386,17,73,6,7,125,66,95,0.085,0.768,0.146,0.7064,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,5,7,1,0,5,1,6,8,1,0,1,8,10,4,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,6,1,11,6,12,3,3,6,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,6,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.229826629812683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19596561005194696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356648573227415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629102995569426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699182020281798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4819770114534541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15555405777388034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003271633733688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177278929415944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23011942602077184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022465649858529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18164207731404347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18728932110848945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139024112806364,0.0,0.1373294734377836,0.0,0.0,0.22504268092916335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21175439263177764,0.0,0.212513772172762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730161610557784,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biskee18,2019/05/30,"All the females in my family are twig-thin...and say anything above 110lbs is fat. How will I ever recover? My grandma is 89lbs (5'2''), my mom is 105lbs (5'4'') and my aunt is 100lbs (5'3'').

I'm the 'fattest' one in my family, at 5'4'' and naturally (when I eat healthy and exercise) 120lbs. Body fat percentage is around 14-18% depending. I am just very muscular and kind of stocky. Everyone in my family is incredibly tiny, lean, and fit.

My entire life I've been told by females in my family that men only want women who are basically under 110lbs. As a result, I developed an eating disorder at age 20 (when my metabolism ran out and I was no longer naturally thin). It's been a hell of a journey since then with lots of periods of starvation, over-exercise, and just general self-torture.

At the dinner table during thanksgiving, my grandma makes everyone go around the table and say how heavy they are. Then she says she's below 90lbs like it's some fucking badge of honor.

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I have such fucked up beauty ideals programmed into my brain from a young age from being told this, being shamed for my body, being told how good and wonderful and attractive it is to be stick-thin. I do go to therapy for it. I can't seem to shake the utter complete fear I have of my own body weight and as a result I feel perpetually stuck in this eating disorder.

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Just looking for words of wisdom/advice/ranting. Thanks for listening.",4.183886113886114,6.045028289377292,5.501560106560106,77.72109140859142,71.96703296703296,9.212720612720613,27.42740592740593,9.688023934748609,2.735697435897436,1125,41,206,29,22,376,161,273,0.09,0.7959999999999999,0.114,0.5547,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,0,1,2,12,13,3,3,11,0,23,16,7,7,2,37,41,20,0,2,3,2,3,1,0,1,4,4,0,2,8,16,7,0,3,1,0,5,2,6,0,1,8,8,26,7,35,28,4,31,1,0,1,2,15,17,3,5,10,132,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139716285828888,0.2399622052101541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125541608477893,0.17580081911139514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290369190839156,0.0,0.11022759311026632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352804249916216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263314430538155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031100302832768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931687253924113,0.0,0.18870248223600464,0.0,0.0,0.37233684581636656,0.11111105798473588,0.049926408056141576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256889617763886,0.0,0.0,0.1122335527387674,0.08281925216576178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028235395690778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697436767134879,0.04823985690353653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291755752796058,0.0,0.0,0.08394605310009468,0.0,0.0,0.06591037317495628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564424640421656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06690944580802062,0.07509696733664467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355683795861329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989008286150049,0.10300838032444094,0.0,0.0,0.08167956185338528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090907431271638,0.11291891991274798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28305372335400697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147165232101201,0.058239990316910475,0.0,0.0,0.12023991684033862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708038452006648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399622052101541,0.0
EDAnonymous,TamaTime,2019/05/30,"Is it normal to binge a lot after you stop restricting? Im currently trying to recover from anorexia, meaning i was restricting lately. Is it normal once you stop restricting to binge even if you ate a decent amount that day?",5.867857142857144,7.425176738095237,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,67.33333333333333,10.361904761904762,30.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,3.6731809523809527,181,7,29,5,3,60,29,42,0.276,0.7240000000000001,0.0,-0.89,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,10,5,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,5,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597005548951622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802193352113484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947321536814393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077943418587193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23197308384940565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972210330234593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5346834388462327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905835743167697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562409852534066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18525184837614134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jazminonacloud,2019/05/30,"I guess I just shouldn’t keep any food in the house at all. Because your girl binge ate an entire baguette and tub of ice cream today. Like why?? 

I obviously can’t just stop buying food because I am the meal preparer and food-getter for my family (husband and child) but gosh I need to get in control of this.",2.962380952380953,4.437093492063493,3.9335238095238085,89.30314285714289,74.39682539682539,6.944761904761903,23.711111111111112,7.554174236665415,0.8952120634920635,242,7,52,3,5,78,49,63,0.027999999999999997,0.935,0.037000000000000005,0.1306,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,1,2,14,8,4,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,7,6,1,5,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,3,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386289959612396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485373172831467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286417152570895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19217719072190756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7395100554203414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650628887158148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22457024614798848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23522232725983755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18119648196446225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959369087120268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15115655965343408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043265240359776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19323154781779955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394823329462665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,epnos,2019/01/03,"S.O. Keeps Accidentally Triggering Me...? So my girlfriend has recently started complaining about her pants being too tight or how upset she is with her stomach/weight and it's making absolute alarm bells go off in my mind. She knows I'm a (somewhat) recovering anorexic and has had many talks with me about not eating... I don't know what it is about this situation that's making me freak out but I'm panicked at the thought of her developing an ED as well. 

And in addition to that, I'm starting to view myself more critically even though I've been doing really well at not restricting lately. :( I really don't want to relapse.

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TL;DR: My S.O. is having trouble with her weight and I don't know how to respond or tell her that she's inadvertently fucking up my recovery. ",4.184334719334721,6.470493878378381,5.4337837837837855,76.38231808731811,73.05405405405405,8.607900207900206,28.95218295218295,9.265573868473778,2.8156698544698537,626,26,111,15,13,208,96,148,0.11800000000000001,0.8079999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.5669,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,1,2,3,0,13,3,0,5,0,29,28,12,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,9,2,3,4,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,3,3,19,2,19,24,2,12,0,0,1,1,13,7,1,3,4,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636510290041447,0.20900238672940127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600193807005196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360631313225085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590139372584168,0.0,0.0,0.0977532289844531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288410732942045,0.0,0.0,0.2835849363518632,0.0,0.1940267970721869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22962658293171,0.17438397419319526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17367392687652575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037896281657374,0.0,0.16983214288485596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933385000717636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434891184368683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382494398585413,0.15033814224272635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689920055158846,0.13655111358502942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145178461475844,0.0,0.0,0.4189064620033272,0.3093025817613195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20900238672940127,0.0
EDAnonymous,claryberries,2019/01/03,recovery treatment q&a so i got some mf questions i've been in treatment for adolescents at erc but if you're an adult in any treatment center can you sign yourself out or into treatment? and can i really be force tubed? i know the mental health act can require it to come to that point but what if you're not underweight what if you're not restoring can they still tube you? i'm confused,1.6119230769230732,4.302272500000001,2.428923076923077,91.54107692307691,86.82051282051279,5.171282051282052,24.46666666666667,6.742157984588678,1.0258266666666669,317,13,61,4,10,99,55,78,0.079,0.9209999999999999,0.0,-0.7024,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,6,1,0,0,0,18,10,8,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,8,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,7,1,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681388658399881,0.0,0.23105412951011234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926803488313865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27174378834426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611578683235863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18672779973846332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3424065829601681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211909140823158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806183122278179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176643056120834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713394436258384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ceruleanmuse,2019/01/03,"Store employee said 'This is a dress that is for if you're very tiny. I'll get you a bigger size.' I'm in Jerusalem right now and went to try on dresses in a high end store with a ton of different brands. I grabbed a cute dress in a zero, since I usually wear either a 0 or a 2. When I asked to try it on, the saleslady said, 'This is a 0, I will get you a bigger size.' I said, 'I usually wear a 0 or a 2, it's fine.' She said, 'This dress is for if you're very tiny though, I'm getting you at least a size up.'

Obviously, I didn't buy anything and started crying outside the store. My husband asked why I was letting this ruin our entire vacation and 'why would I let her affect me so much.' I've been hospitalized for anorexia before... I wish I could just let it go. ",1.8864171656686644,2.4942033053892203,4.0398952095808385,90.88563123752495,75.82634730538922,7.243313373253492,24.695109780439118,7.492282038375204,0.8804295409181635,580,18,142,7,12,201,94,167,0.053,0.907,0.04,-0.4404,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,3,0,0,5,3,0,0,15,0,13,2,2,1,1,15,28,10,0,5,6,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,8,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,1,8,5,19,2,14,14,4,19,0,1,0,0,13,11,0,4,6,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077674266856433,0.0,0.2516938602367762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114547520048073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10747918937508537,0.0,0.14786834671444646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064410949649764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922900691969955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109924731864706,0.0,0.07650485339678265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222822518192385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129591258755001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895757439678364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496054463952915,0.5121990787076244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135498703585474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095281248012212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225863474317814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827896088398789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965189894453074,0.2221430816262379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478952981225085,0.2429383472238704,0.0,0.15480070102604165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562669207040897,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eattillithurts,2019/01/03,"[discussion] should we remind younger people how what they do affect them? Like, if i see someone underage, with stats or whatever, and they claim o do something, like rectriction, but are talking about something completely different, would you/should we tell them that like restriciting leads to stunned growth and whatsoever?


they most likely dont know what they are doing, but, they are here to vent? i dont know....",9.353750000000002,9.749769097222224,7.655000000000001,72.24000000000002,59.41666666666667,11.644444444444444,37.444444444444436,11.20814326018867,4.30862777777778,333,14,55,8,4,99,50,72,0.022000000000000002,0.8320000000000001,0.146,0.8438,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,7,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,3,0,17,13,7,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,11,4,4,11,1,2,0,0,1,0,12,0,0,3,4,37,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161498022273464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24076376721792145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5401546891808852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532907656309741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4503310133306096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976008076873968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836331435453855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525350836998548,0.35481238208758115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522126168070613,0.20141723838753675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370001354399516,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SeaGreenBones,2019/01/03,"Triggered My friend just told me I look ""scary thin"" and that ""[I've] lost too much weight"". I don't look thin though, so idk where she's coking from with that. Anyway, I'm triggered to lose even more weight; it appears that comments like that fuel me. Fantastic 🙃",2.338269230769228,4.534447057692312,2.3083076923076935,97.03669230769232,78.42307692307693,4.929230769230768,20.015384615384615,5.6839178017228535,-0.28381230769230736,205,5,44,1,5,61,41,52,0.175,0.662,0.162,0.0602,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,6,2,3,5,2,4,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,1,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118977555003914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20024630507682545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662508922610238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43530158646132944,0.2899626114977977,0.28293191642466003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19053138428703936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546487311874804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476631377462621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6312369553206868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BunnyAwesome,2019/01/03,"Help please guys Hey can someone please pm me a safe place where I can vent in the same way we could on proED because I don’t want to risk this sub by posting my innermost thoughts, but could do with a place I can just... get things off my chest?

I know about peach and I’m banned from having that app on my phone currently (long story) but anywhere else would be appreciated.

Please message me rather than replying here because I don’t want to be seen as promoting or asking to publicly promote anything that might be misconstrued.",6.542071197411004,6.680100310679612,5.883640776699027,83.45549352750812,65.3106796116505,9.196763754045307,32.70064724919093,8.841846274778883,2.4386647249190947,424,16,85,6,6,129,76,103,0.05,0.7340000000000001,0.215,0.9349,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,3,0,14,1,1,0,0,19,22,5,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,11,1,13,13,1,11,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,2,2,54,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865982545570194,0.0,0.1688836683121255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024552334040315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28846917047245224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091016638588572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438233899033187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887222401801978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108610521643967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928069446360477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986985330584413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164144738839528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37748228130660094,0.5948994272710872,0.0,0.0,0.17301307543705666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15306443453741855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200160491304888,0.0,0.0,0.1434161795852161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21310448490031225,0.1433918197767794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832880810212938,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,graffitiedhearts,2019/01/03,"Finally worked up the courage to tell someone. Posting from mobile so excuse the formatting. 

I’m home from school for winter break and obviously my mom has been noticing I haven’t been eating much if even at all, and after I do eat I either immediately go take a shower aka go purge or go to the gym for hours. So I decided to try and be honest with her and tell her my disordered eating has gotten worse (she noticed I was low restricting and going to the gym a bunch over the summer), and it just spiraled after I left for school in the fall. I told her it took a lot from me emotionally and mentally to admit this to her and said specifically not to tell one of my relatives who’s a nurse because I know I would get the whole health and nutrition spiel from her and I want to take recovery at my own pace instead of having food shoved at me 24/7. And guess what she did? She told the relative I told her not to talk to. So now I’m having a breakdown because I’m not sure if I’m ready to start recovering yet and because I know I’m not ready to go from eating 400 calories a day to being force fed 2000. Sorry for ranting I don’t know where else to turn to and I’m just really distraught because I trusted my mom with this information and she went behind my back with it. I understand she’s doing it with my best interests in mind, but it still sucks. ",3.608440860215056,4.628210229390684,5.076306451612903,83.51445967741941,72.15412186379929,8.304014336917563,26.13637992831541,8.697196308434329,1.7303790681003584,1070,34,224,19,20,360,147,279,0.052000000000000005,0.879,0.068,0.3016,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,9,1,1,14,0,15,7,0,0,3,45,47,21,0,4,11,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,9,18,6,1,7,2,0,8,6,3,0,1,12,1,35,6,40,32,8,32,0,1,0,0,25,10,1,5,12,156,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728359521883889,0.0,0.24507227140253546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547578126746417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648186299337927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518960453502256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113745640503279,0.0839606106244499,0.11305672445875588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638385356805485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101003862954582,0.0,0.0,0.12153333148519195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052510702251357684,0.0,0.2856019115396453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071967162624154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10683412516356147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081660645177556,0.0,0.0989790420122892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570787634815007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092010310941383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544736452351177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128730660249333,0.0,0.1014833085634871,0.2354249118958701,0.0,0.0,0.07388412931783128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288555229988509,0.0,0.0,0.06810607044511123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625781885737757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438728796728352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560506913793697,0.0,0.0,0.20343667889228093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515916254300653,0.0,0.0,0.11250923579586816,0.07113929471908556,0.0,0.08026493294107417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472655526824347,0.0,0.15113734751189134,0.08078363181059584,0.26354235812713983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28811592428685384,0.11166685397128508,0.06823758150806272,0.10932263607109333,0.0,0.10463121804269772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05928156832485116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317089484419876,0.0,0.11221235443538198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317021364139924,0.0,0.1024251084198716,0.07139721164584414,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pen15clubVIP,2019/01/03,Raise your hand if you are “short”. Is it me or is there a lot of us that are shorter who suffer from ED? As in under 5’4. I am just curious! ,-2.1225000000000023,-0.3896982499999986,1.1737500000000018,100.89625,94.0,4.45,14.25,5.985473137389443,-0.9833375000000002,104,2,28,1,4,37,30,32,0.096,0.7440000000000001,0.16,0.3164,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,4,5,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,3,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.577170052485964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8166239835526199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anyeducation,2019/01/03,"Store clerk should mind her business I went to the store this morning with my boyfriend and I decided to treat myself to a Naked juice smoothie because I haven’t had one in a while. While I’m ringing out the cashier decides to start telling me about how bad the juices are for you because of how much sugar are in them and how she could never bring herself to drink them. 

So it was supposed to be a really calm morning with my boyfriend but now I feel incredibly gross and disgusting and I just want to throw up.

Fuck you, lady. Fuck you. ",3.3544444444444466,5.229950280373839,3.3831152647975067,91.98273104880579,74.23364485981308,6.250882658359295,27.77673935617861,6.937597516519254,1.1769343717549328,428,17,89,4,9,130,74,107,0.185,0.7709999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.9649,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,2,0,7,7,3,0,6,0,8,4,0,3,1,20,16,11,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,7,2,0,3,1,2,3,2,5,0,1,3,3,17,2,16,10,1,12,0,0,0,2,9,4,2,0,5,65,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320084649166158,0.33877193304191905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218552663903889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272205196517192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049858630669385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.513769622434844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805678212128113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042652085189094,0.0,0.21430920085409225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829078462885412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17800957964906405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196676647662344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428691846428481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389395161054238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575867434449219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waitingdaisy,2019/01/03,"What's your favorite coffee sweetener? I'm always looking for the perfect sweet, low-calorie, and health-conscious sweetener for my coffee. 

Right now I'm using zero-calorie sweetener in my coffee, no cream. They seem extra sweet compared to sugar? And I'm not sure what the difference is between the saccarine vs. other 0-cal sweeteners. I'm sure I'll end up googling the difference by the time this box runs out 😂 

In my quest for the perfect sweetener, I was wondering how you guys like to take your coffee. :) Share your coffee creamer creations here. ",4.933091309130912,7.46897991089109,5.25993399339934,77.33949394939495,71.67326732673267,7.657205720572058,32.014301430143014,8.515128840125781,2.996801100110011,445,21,69,8,9,141,66,101,0.055,0.7040000000000001,0.24100000000000002,0.968,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,1,2,3,8,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,2,4,13,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,9,8,11,10,1,9,0,0,2,0,7,5,0,2,4,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279074682282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092614677326309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158595168955236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24131657524351136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590580868259265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906703999957098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465956519296027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081316306244847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218693582163255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593977840288702,0.0,0.18324365943200527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142112416927901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21049186595401412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642989686373945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,socioanxiety,2019/01/03,I finally weighed myself. I have been so afraid to weigh myself since before Christmas. I've felt so huge like I gained a ton of weight. I just stepped on the scale and... I lost a pound. That feeling of relief tho. ,0.3361240310077527,2.7696980000000018,1.2003488372093043,99.22129844961245,92.25581395348836,3.7968992248062015,18.794573643410853,5.46131890053228,-0.45626821705426396,166,5,36,1,6,51,34,43,0.052000000000000005,0.6509999999999999,0.297,0.873,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,7,2,4,2,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287634341031656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19535494605186385,0.0,0.37096565997901904,0.4232378909212032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887557108523202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217569782887632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196005284711265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704817226428818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evaa98,2019/01/03,"Cravings I am really craving nut-butter lately, it's crazy! I think about it every day, all day.
And it just has an INSANE amount of calories in it! 

I will buy cashew-butter (my favorite) on saturday, so I'm already fasting :'D

What are you craving lately? ",1.3882666666666699,3.9329323600000015,3.4720000000000013,85.01266666666669,85.4,4.933333333333334,24.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,1.0785333333333342,198,8,35,2,6,67,40,50,0.135,0.865,0.0,-0.7519,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,5,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35798887452411704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41842864693007226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733251201272793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7318857156600087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782208611294348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078655613350472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,watermelements,2019/01/03,"the pity party (for me) nobody asked for hi everyone, I made a post so I could comment a bunch of times while I waiting for this feeling to pass. Sorry mods, and everyone 

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EDAnonymous,0xyt0c1n,2019/01/03,"How do you combat inability to sleep? I find whenever I’m not eating, even if I don’t feel hungry, I have an impossible time sleeping.
It seems to have a direct correlation to the amount I fast and I feel exhausted but I just can’t seem to fall asleep.
Does anyone else experience this? Any tips in combatting it and getting a good night’s rest?",2.2020496894409973,4.5465614202898585,4.3296480331262925,81.57782608695653,79.72463768115942,8.000828157349899,22.900621118012424,8.841846274778883,1.821375155279504,274,9,55,7,7,94,53,69,0.09300000000000001,0.845,0.061,0.2709,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,5,3,1,0,12,11,5,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,5,11,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16358621302335707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820222913915944,0.2464778748238709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105120274114181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461486683356572,0.20095352803902167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888485660252805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23530976022731356,0.0,0.0,0.24326451050762016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198636700628228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568049230151795,0.0,0.0,0.2017668166319534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574535022136874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43798598493613056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814591119464339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027003863943388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,death-crush,2019/01/03,"my perception of my body may be slightly messed up so my body is pear shaped. i have tiny arms + a thin upper body, but my thighs are just... huge. and my inner thighs are flabby and disgusting. eugh

my bmi oscillates around 18.5 (old bmi) but i can't see myself as thin or even ""normal"" weight, and it's mostly because of my thighs. i went from 50 to 45kg and i can barely see a change in how i look. it fucks me up a little honestly and whenever i see a tall person with skinny legs i feel so bad about my short stubby legs, ya feel me?

but recently... two things happened that made me realize that my perception of my body may be a little skewed. 

1. i wanted to buy some leggings & i was going to try an M but the only sizes left were XS and L.
guys, the XS actually fit me.  slightly snug, but it fit me. and it didn't look (that) bad. i honestly almost cried

2. i hosted a party a few days ago, and most of my girlfriends were wearing dresses. they wanted to play twister at some point and they asked me if they could borrow some leggings/pajama pants so they could play a round or two. 
this beautiful, skinny friend of mine frowned at the leggings i gave her and said that they might be a little too tight for her, and afterwards apologized for stretching them out. these leggings were slightly loose on me to begin with.
i was like ???? how? you're thinner than me? and she was like, ""what no, you're thin too, what are you talking about?"" 

i guess what i'm trying to say is that... i may not look as bad as i think i look. and even though i still have some weight to lose, i definitely made some progress, even if i don't see it

anyways!! sorry for this super long and nonsensical post, but i can't exactly talk about this with other people hahah. thanks for reading",1.7710273635916778,3.7699730083565486,3.0889439619859083,91.7228080452237,79.36211699164346,6.117679829592004,20.58667868261511,7.1686216300943375,0.42029601835163,1366,36,295,17,34,443,187,359,0.107,0.731,0.163,0.9726,0,1,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,2,6,3,18,16,2,0,13,0,27,19,16,4,1,61,53,33,0,7,12,0,9,2,2,4,0,2,0,2,19,19,4,1,6,3,2,2,6,7,0,2,12,19,53,9,35,32,8,36,0,1,9,1,22,25,1,17,10,197,72,1,0.0,0.0,0.0904079011061492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212397126564386,0.0,0.09277032361026204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038053600706097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247345954113765,0.08661032485067345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206346189146995,0.05647537300102959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116296790996984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800584961494828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479385710514529,0.0,0.1017658955369221,0.05974819235120979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357292908149897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368792740933536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157709554126833,0.085648568354143,0.0,0.0,0.05265214017628484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205862487597303,0.09173285720162687,0.08192543673956519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065878000549168,0.0,0.0,0.090523079624177,0.27856310139243706,0.0,0.08198767866090062,0.3111929903670829,0.10364576534189184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17532538420819427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828142755927127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077217388584133,0.0,0.0,0.0972150690648533,0.0,0.0,0.07046049874632747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422819696664481,0.08089381262637325,0.0,0.0,0.08757922378723916,0.0,0.0887280505970729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266980998868372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147550302440068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881263622270137,0.073674814945573,0.0,0.0,0.295303448933784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037082003813624,0.0,0.0,0.07398620824473894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892866378628716,0.0,0.08529482846401837,0.0,0.0,0.061549047971145375,0.0593630079248095,0.09102298569092772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579939285015765,0.0,0.18100089640467645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092885348169945,0.0,0.0,0.2256326669440107,0.0,0.08588260122701734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mayuhbee,2019/01/03,"Raise your hand if... You used to be a fucking boss at restricting and you got super small and it became your whole identity and fast forward and now all you do is binge and you hate yourself for it and you are mentally worse than ever but you look normal so no one thinks you’re struggling and you’ve lost your identity and self esteem and you want to die now. 

🙋🏻‍♀️",-0.06870129870129915,2.2700584935064967,1.5451948051948072,96.45207792207796,93.93506493506493,4.877922077922078,17.38961038961039,6.574015621080383,-0.06979480519480498,292,8,64,4,11,94,55,77,0.248,0.684,0.067,-0.9526,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,10,0,2,4,5,2,1,1,0,4,2,1,2,2,19,12,12,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,9,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,2,2,10,1,5,9,2,7,0,1,1,1,11,3,1,1,5,41,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27099812371675364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23619519099100614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413983723106129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883904346706045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577988857904259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21927243733506108,0.0,0.28503994859585163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26314442621825856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25583912782446505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769395734807497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724018807724842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729760850437596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731317013097338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255211694768579,0.0,0.0,0.15401351665300814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915277008834153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26610043538097755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Redditnotes,2019/01/03,"How close has anyone been to exposing you, how did you respond? e.g parents finding purging evidence or your MPA account etc. My mother found some purging bags in my room. I realised and refused to engage with the fact that my parents knew. I was so humiliated. I kept refusing to talk about it, they started threatimginh to keep my locked in th house unless I ate, so eventually I left home and moved across the country to get away from the situation. 

So I took it very poorly and my shame led me to leave home. But I’m curious as to your experiences, have friends confronted you or parents discorvered things? How did you react?",4.467542372881353,6.6562515169491565,5.0120000000000005,80.14613559322035,71.96610169491525,7.770847457627119,32.13898305084746,8.548686976883017,2.7177057627118644,501,24,90,9,10,160,82,118,0.135,0.8029999999999999,0.062,-0.8031,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,6,1,0,7,4,1,1,3,0,6,1,0,5,1,23,15,14,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,1,4,3,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,9,0,19,2,16,6,2,11,0,0,0,0,16,7,0,3,1,62,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375968379736195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629352163947894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739727132988866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313600223497552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617710920049132,0.0,0.0,0.19406692378533544,0.13674663212972973,0.0,0.0924730787834217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35508273899921866,0.0,0.0,0.2042295626932004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732213308250412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741315514995324,0.19230661786356215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811868423094985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5895991701858851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895086395555325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527864460210994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422626403485018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758824463606013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966490132878866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604019549735578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pugsaremydrugs,2019/01/03,"Are there even any downsides to Adderall? Little introduction, I'm about 99% that my inability to focus, the constant music playing in my head, my tendency to forget things or misplace them, my inability to formulate thoughts, and my ability to read pages over and over and over again without really gaining anything can be attributed to ADD or something. 

Too bad I don't have the ability to see a doctor until March.

But regardless, every time one of my friends' with ADD tells me about Adderall/Ritalin, I'm just floored by everything it offers. It's a wonder drug; it gives me the ability to be focused on shit, use my memory like a functional human being, and numbs hunger. The only downside it that it may worsen my depression but at this point I really don't care. The only things worth living for are my grades, everything else is just a distraction from something that'd make me less than dirt.",9.370494011976046,8.202514455089826,9.22669910179641,66.09238398203595,60.1377245508982,12.900898203592815,40.036676646706574,11.93303328291395,4.952365868263472,722,32,120,19,8,236,110,167,0.171,0.748,0.081,-0.9321,0,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,8,9,1,1,9,0,12,6,2,3,0,22,21,9,0,1,7,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,11,7,1,0,2,2,1,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,15,4,24,15,2,14,0,1,1,0,6,9,1,4,6,86,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660578265207887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110556610300085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317065934792125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748255467035035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18529863518049655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476872431216871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550726640274958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198851278073036,0.0,0.1432415542888134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132546118238938,0.0,0.14447124547123705,0.0,0.3082131591871485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324776405470303,0.0,0.0,0.16449007551306105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597814591527494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377179817772627,0.17185843291008412,0.1514115445230275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445785360582768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619281130168732,0.2608220005322403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209499478201664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715168474552621,0.0,0.21969671578804173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663974440536142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601194781671214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640126518790557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987272689858802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278346890572598,0.0,0.0,0.1361283799887938,0.09998579547686673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809541005484156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652913901562661,0.185952383290563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biobitch535,2019/01/03,"C/S question Okay so developed the c/s habit quite a bit ago.. however today I started to get paranoid because I started to try and eat less carbs and more protein...like I know you absorb minimal calories depending on how long its in your mouth, how much you accidentally swallow, and what kind of food it is.. but like... what about the carbssssssss... anyone know?",3.9771078431372544,6.232046808823532,4.794705882352943,80.87284313725492,73.55882352941177,7.4745098039215705,31.92156862745098,8.344100000000001,2.6605215686274515,285,14,51,5,6,92,54,68,0.051,0.9259999999999999,0.023,-0.1901,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,1,1,4,1,3,0,10,6,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,6,4,7,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,6,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22718224299004156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920126219327412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622968195938405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797981406811413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622447531087685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30990227685463884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389895585076214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668826273039721,0.2816963738560656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520848635573725,0.0,0.0,0.2268052122745107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883998374701703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870991853595609,0.27259190873047273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36280136712888506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24292934027047544,0.0,0.0,0.17400149916057608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,summerservice,2019/01/03,"6 weeks until valentine’s day last year was the first time I was in a relationship on the day and he’d made me feel so loved but now I’m alone.... lol

I just wanna be desirable is that too fuckin much 2 ask!!!!!!!

but 6 weeks is enough time to lose [mutters inaudibly] pounds sooo ;-))))",-0.5079310344827589,1.7114377758620698,1.2754310344827609,98.83142241379312,93.65517241379312,4.968965517241379,15.870689655172415,6.6274283507984215,-0.41917931034482736,213,5,51,3,8,69,48,58,0.059000000000000004,0.762,0.179,0.8055,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,1,0,3,1,6,2,0,1,0,8,11,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,4,1,5,6,2,13,0,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,11,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26456869435050845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23881084618932275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294876540014244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26394767122267104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916296793091436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172852568188892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082254777290577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28578270509794435,0.0,0.0,0.2305531923818733,0.2417125408166705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18778481172569936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742572174823854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979093738687508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098124412223287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450113502213584
EDAnonymous,yeehaw_lemons,2019/01/03,"Too fat for chinese walked into the kitchen to my grandmother eating chinese takeout. she questioned me asking if i had eaten anything today, yet afterwards she says she wouldve ordered something for me if i wasnt ""too fat""

she gets onto me for not eating but says im too heavy to have gross fattening food

im constantly belittled from her for being ""too skinny"" and not eating but then she turns around and does this.. im so sick of her",4.850503875968993,5.9962229651162815,5.504651162790698,81.12620155038762,69.34883720930233,8.058914728682172,29.449612403100772,8.344100000000001,2.1736263565891467,349,13,64,5,6,113,57,86,0.16899999999999998,0.831,0.0,-0.9452,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,4,10,3,0,0,11,8,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,4,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,13,0,11,4,0,10,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,3,5,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445814674272752,0.15640520734964142,0.16425048606251932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18986315938176002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375129638200846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5393374999711714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124502870604381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179303842588574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693400927063202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681786453303893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794383738022069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525808259107527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653768600762314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110498438313175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Boaty_Mc-Boatface,2019/01/03,"These goddamn shitty legs warped my fucking jeans. Saggy in weird places and makes my butt look even bigger.
I appreciate hourglass figures seeming to be the 'ideal' body type, but I feel too sexual no matter how much I weigh, and what I wear. I don't want my thighs and backside to be the centre of attention.",5.503474576271188,6.6096091355932245,5.762500000000002,80.01968220338985,67.8135593220339,7.933898305084746,28.309322033898304,8.07648339933343,1.8950983050847456,245,8,44,3,4,78,48,59,0.16699999999999998,0.782,0.051,-0.7034,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,3,7,5,2,0,13,9,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,8,1,4,7,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,3,2,1,0,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278615995839683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544157562493638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947647048713223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561038993906435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234643598318615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571187249229711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28316052209821463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024437716650535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506644307295649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22719628684335916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sp00nful017,2019/01/03,Does anyone feel bigger / worse about themselves after a few days of restricting? This is day 2 of restricting for me after the holidays and this ALWAYS happens. I feel so much bigger / fatter / more bloated / worse about myself a few days following the start of my restriction. Usually by day 4 or 5 it’s so bad that I binge to comfort myself and the cycle starts over again. I always feel so much fatter the first week of my diet than I do on day 1. What kind of fucking sense does that make? :(,5.508125,5.991891895833334,6.137500000000002,79.55750000000002,67.54166666666666,8.9,27.458333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.0432208333333333,386,11,72,6,6,126,63,96,0.204,0.747,0.049,-0.9446,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,10,11,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,3,9,2,15,11,5,18,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,13,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863125191171681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029873593915745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365142958457744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5547779803241671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011176597027282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609752551678118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634244951913153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905398272088714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521399277299843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915969070665466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484220560655088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25294757437991805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435504378062419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948463418534647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800512140103258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35065964733719784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,midnightsii,2019/03/28,DAE get paranoid about diet drinks from soda dispensers? whenever I get diet soda/drinks from the dispensers in the dining hall at my college I'm scared they mixed it up with a non-diet drink or ran out and put something else in... even if it tastes like fake sugar :( ,6.348397435897432,6.350863711538459,6.1469230769230805,81.86474358974361,65.73076923076923,7.702564102564103,28.871794871794872,6.42735559955562,1.4392871794871795,211,6,39,1,3,66,41,52,0.193,0.762,0.044000000000000004,-0.8126,0,0,4,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,8,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,9,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,1,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7937900186081635,0.0,0.0,0.2256351715161527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839951465728585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822338051331041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319579652978113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27152664244649194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704187533670068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20793735548643533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xox_morbid,2019/03/28,"When you have an ED and you’re fat Like no ones concerned I’ve dropped almost 10lbs since the 15th. 

🤷‍♀️ Yay?

Sorry. Just wanted to share. ",-3.146810035842297,-3.716344677419352,-0.924086021505376,107.82275985663084,140.93548387096774,1.3777777777777782,9.89605734767025,3.1291,-2.310379211469534,109,2,27,0,9,35,30,31,0.107,0.644,0.248,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5015664063462579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24470829663825924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394142844459868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143392566704717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5607024676602896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29543638272349554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Soft_Pretzel89,2019/03/28,"Gastroparesis PSA I’ve seen a few posts here and there with people who have confirmed gastroparesis on here, but wanted to address the issue it poses to this community. I feel there is an appalling lack of literature on the risks of developing gastroparesis from eating disorders. I’ve been told 25% of cases of gastroparesis are caused by EDs.

What is gastroparesis?
It’s is a condition where the stomach loses the ability to move food through it effectively. Food stays in the stomach for an extended period of time. This causes severe pain, nausea, vomiting, and bloating. Many people with gastroparesis lose the ability to eat all together and must be on feeding tubes or they will die. They cannot digest on their own. The stomach can recover in patients with ED induced gastroparesis. Generally studies show that with increase in nutrition and weight the stomach slowly begins to regain function. 

Why is this important?
I see a lot of people with stomach discomfort, who are bloated or constipated and turn to laxatives. Bad news is, if you have gastroparesis the pills just chill in your stomach and take hours and hours to empty and begin to work. You can actually overdose with some medications because you will retain several dosages and release them at once. 

There’s hope!
Check out the gastroparesis diet. It has levels, one with liquids, one semi-liquid, one soft. Lots of foods, and lots of ways to just drink low cal stuff. That will help constipation and bloating. To fix the condition it needs management through gastroenterology and nutrition. So if you continue to struggle, please seek a doctors advice. 

Please just be aware this condition exists and a large portion of its suffers have or had disordered eating. I just want you guys to have happy tummies.

-with love from someone with gastroparesis",6.7334615384615395,9.369613022292997,6.782420382165607,67.94634982851545,66.86624203821654,9.926310632043117,34.36991670749633,10.214889679676881,4.219962175404213,1475,70,219,40,26,470,183,314,0.136,0.752,0.11199999999999999,-0.8690000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,6,4,4,11,12,0,3,18,0,23,23,6,4,2,52,36,20,1,8,10,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,1,1,16,23,11,1,3,2,1,2,1,9,0,3,4,5,13,3,46,26,10,25,0,4,2,1,16,13,0,10,7,157,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.09895587406404156,0.0,0.0,0.09909101323118644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466827356470169,0.06181506074173802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20834009840996096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524155270214576,0.0,0.2324360029928881,0.10379149828645903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933751362362653,0.0,0.3112854447242939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05127301172025928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678550931074547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040610337940344,0.0,0.10794665933502656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679690995341254,0.0,0.0,0.100717253719673,0.19972542659790765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583964193805756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268907291720293,0.0,0.2586306805587146,0.09152125198502553,0.0,0.0,0.10280794547825356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021540659167322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777661946269318,0.0,0.07518993138438271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799216635771272,0.2061423362513668,0.0,0.10790122115808937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090271843373656,0.0,0.0,0.22262272682020307,0.0,0.0,0.09711719543763042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808060206736209,0.0,0.0,0.2291157708940628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591945184471865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080833877770452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600968983307464,0.11608355130273933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624334049156799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05912960604202582,0.0,0.0,0.0968960612232397,0.0,0.0,0.11029865354423188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196216520422965,0.08048993609436918,0.0,0.123483000388595,0.0,0.0,0.09150152048586384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382346725468428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hahaeereemah,2019/03/28,"Injury, failure and nothing seems to be going right. Had a xan to get to sleep night before last, kept sleeping despite being woken up and was in a rush for uni and just generally unprepared for my day. 

Ate more than I’d have liked but still like .... under 1000 cals. Went to the gym, gave up after 15 mins and intended on doing some kind of exercise later but I ROLLED MY ANKLE. Completely just broke down, screaming crying telling my mum to fuck off (I know I’m awful) the whole lot. I’m exhausted all the time and I NEED to exercise or I can’t like ..... handle life at all. 

Took another xan to get to sleep, woke up this morning, groggy as fuck and still, with a sore ankle. Walked to get coffee but also ordered a toastie (which was delicious) but probably had more calories than I usually consume in a day. 

All these small things seem so huge and I just can’t handle it, I have the day to do nothing but oh my god I’m fucking huge and I can’t exercise. I can’t exercise. It’s all just too much and I just want to cry and start again.  Not too mention I have my final body scan for an 8 week boxing challenge next week which I probably just ..... won’t attend. 

I’m fucking exhausted and need a hug (and probably therapy). 

Thanks for listening, I’m over it",1.1668953880764903,3.484751251968504,3.0927390326209228,89.04639763779528,83.7244094488189,6.463217097862768,22.457255343082114,7.7094869923839395,1.1614672665916768,974,34,201,18,28,326,143,254,0.142,0.7490000000000001,0.109,-0.9041,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,1,13,15,4,0,11,1,16,18,4,1,4,41,45,21,0,3,13,1,0,3,0,1,8,2,0,0,8,13,1,1,3,5,0,6,6,8,0,0,11,3,17,7,32,31,10,40,0,1,1,5,5,15,4,5,21,126,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797894217146884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115360302076523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361464756118942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222018450294306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534861657080253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416925858773585,0.2128516882007257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051603640536393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068283161660193,0.1724348637764108,0.0,0.0625240501449054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114563675250619,0.06046135752584249,0.08967689466313243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07770683603456745,0.1612432908921691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353080438812908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087367100376544,0.16314943182480635,0.0,0.0,0.11700218253147306,0.10324160894222756,0.0,0.21112468665084505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35584427702397603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395219438496218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030701732997225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302833035664054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786917122352455,0.0,0.17571621509923122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615794426362224,0.10128701538304093,0.1258117209809133,0.0,0.07308906625323468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06415062131433777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223069410820947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116596099362464,0.0,0.06488968737341795,0.0,0.17649476674970493,0.0,0.0,0.10198499144981643,0.0,0.12282779967706575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mexipads,2019/03/28,"my BF can’t even get hard anymore fml We just started living together like 4 months ago and I’ve gained what everyone says is “relationship weight” and EVERYONE NOTICES IT BECAUSE ITS A WHOLE FUCKING 10 LBS. 

I feel disgusting but I work 45 hours a week and I go to school 12 hours on top of that so I never have time to cook at home and do all that healthy shit. 

My boyfriend promises he loves me and it’s not my fault and he doesn’t even notice but I notice and our coworkers notice so like ??? I feel like that’s the only explanation here. 

I’m so close to a freaking relapse and I’m terrified because I have hypoglycemia so I have to eat or I’ll collapse at work. And I work with kids. In a gym. But I can’t even work out because of severe pain in my hips that I can’t get checked out because I don’t have health insurance. 

And now we just tried to have sex but couldn’t so I just spent 30 minutes crying on my bathroom floor trying to puke but I can’t because my gag reflex has desensitized I guess I don’t know. 

I’m mad. ",0.1979498941425568,2.4366752522935826,2.186422018348626,94.32094565984474,87.76146788990826,5.372194777699366,21.687367678193368,6.844919456158928,0.4986508115737478,807,29,182,11,26,268,119,218,0.198,0.687,0.115,-0.9738,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,3,0,0,6,13,12,4,0,5,0,16,10,2,0,2,33,30,21,0,1,10,0,4,3,1,0,2,1,1,1,8,16,3,0,3,2,2,1,10,7,0,0,1,5,26,5,17,28,2,21,0,0,0,3,10,11,2,2,12,105,34,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902748985449236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11079001144063992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404982942676915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271229742675395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431104511548815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213576144944976,0.0,0.0,0.2134945314095199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297164686551935,0.07980831798876184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327755225458647,0.11673163639483655,0.0,0.06348949273603395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306527903743628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007356798862307,0.0,0.0,0.118746481369242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205798953665412,0.0,0.2200310612412171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061394949792140274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373307106796142,0.0,0.09864527887735797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082601170721933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916884124592064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616052301789841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087473324918504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496333308303404,0.11887129548324815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11993874877632135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883924969914972,0.0,0.11306026872461444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620472784972972,0.11467254846928747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907155997250738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651411800180795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516925923963672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961002354720661,0.13603723914157267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472440088744828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253157321277108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sympaici,2019/03/28,"Why is C/S bad, but chewing gum fine? Why is C/S so bad when chewing gum seems perfectly fine? 

Is there anything “wrong” with chewing gum to avoid eating other than the fact that that is not ideal behavior? I have heard [from non-ED people] that chewing gum instead of eating is a normal “trick” that people use.",4.803360655737702,5.489277491803278,5.446024590163933,83.17920081967216,69.1639344262295,7.411475409836067,28.364754098360656,7.1686216300943375,1.5443081967213117,241,8,46,2,4,78,41,61,0.254,0.613,0.133,-0.8502,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,9,1,1,2,0,6,6,0,1,2,10,9,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,6,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,1,4,5,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219908897169184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103165833514269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5028470710802772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407444581019741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34068992317068697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223685924433904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21221527839744989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434316382810081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26864623595207554,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sjkyordanuise,2019/03/28,"Let's make an r/EDAnonymous playlist, my dudes. Comment a song that makes you think of the people of this sub, or maybe a song that gets you in your feels, or maybe a song that uplifts you on a bad day. ",2.8241085271317843,3.46651962790698,2.897674418604652,99.81689922480624,73.65116279069767,5.7333333333333325,23.635658914728683,3.1291,-0.2377689922480619,156,4,39,0,3,47,31,43,0.08900000000000001,0.9109999999999999,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,1,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723627183117268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103715072207011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493612377116912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042562592142096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335607969536226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354810166020449,0.0,0.6554219091673076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22614546265293906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209015284962738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EngineeringAvalon,2019/03/28,"Expired Quest Bars Question Have any of you eaten an expired quest bar and lived to tell the tale? What was it like?

My local grocery store is having a massive sale on them but they expire in a week. I'm wondering if I should still stock up. ",2.9582653061224486,4.583330081632656,3.636479591836736,90.80941326530613,74.71428571428571,5.716326530612244,24.494897959183675,5.985473137389443,0.5536081632653067,190,6,39,1,4,60,45,49,0.0,0.9540000000000001,0.046,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,3,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786241033424237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001688220068333,0.0,0.3617908552125128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589809157924661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32720345376200066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581139219501526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286532049350683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44432458562805344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SummerShandied,2019/03/28,"Flare-up / relapse and I don't know what to do Just a rant. Feel free to chime in if you relate.

It seems like talking about my eating habits make them worse. I'm doing just OMAD and snacking but I feel guilty for all of it. I know it's bad for me but I just can't seem to will myself to eat more? It just sucks. I told my s/o and I'm seeing a therapist soon but it's been really annoying these past few days. I have studies I need to get to yet I can't focus and all I think about is food and my weight and other people eating etc. :(",-1.337500000000002,0.5902769166666673,1.198333333333334,100.72,92.33333333333334,4.2,13.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.23915,410,6,104,3,15,139,76,120,0.198,0.769,0.033,-0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,0,8,5,2,0,2,0,9,6,0,1,2,25,24,10,0,2,8,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,6,6,0,7,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,4,16,3,12,21,5,5,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,3,5,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620553830649875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065232251114688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5742943420592882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086457262500852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891884187348669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262201271637941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774255009383696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056305947864641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913987467044874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487859396146825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387188283477974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859080369040087,0.1296990056063543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119849429730028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490800204882327,0.3406245972550285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503693121682655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172164582660855,0.0,0.11987450156273825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787647340132575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278153047807458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906523977278772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elhae,2019/03/28,"i am not having a good time on spring break i don’t know what it is about being back at home, but it’s like i’ve regressed back to who i was in high school. 

i’ve gained like 6 or so pounds since i last saw my parents, and i can see them watching me. especially my dad. his eyes burn a hole into my back every time i go to make food. i can tell he wants to say something, but won’t because of how i’ve reacted to it in the past. still, the silence and the looks say it all. 

i feel so fucking uncomfortable in my own skin. this extra weight makes me want to Die, or at least take a carving knife to my thighs or arms or stomach and whittle it down to my preferred shape. 

AND YET. despite all this, despite feeling so fucking bad about myself, i’m still overeating. every. goddamn. day. like 2-3000 calories. because food is fucking everywhere here, especially since my mom cooks (and is fantastic at it). it’s such a goddamn paradox. 

i wish i was back at school, where my days were busy from morning until night and i’d be satisfied off one meal of 600 calories. god i miss it so much. ",1.3234090909090916,3.3427436785714306,2.7621590909090905,93.39420454545454,80.96428571428572,5.322727272727274,24.02110389610389,6.351523495107088,0.5263732142857145,840,31,185,7,22,273,135,224,0.126,0.7509999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.2197,1,0,1,0,0,1,30.0,0,0,1,1,17,9,3,0,7,0,14,13,5,4,2,27,32,18,1,4,7,3,4,3,0,1,0,2,1,0,12,7,5,0,4,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,4,11,24,4,25,25,6,33,0,1,5,3,10,15,3,4,19,117,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787043620251129,0.10280484618237153,0.15011261110578947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881182692724402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778507440889447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20747748506701014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451214277282065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977682562163395,0.0,0.0,0.3414832753617768,0.0,0.0,0.06997519292193137,0.10327202528174928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008909963439733,0.12350515177168457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676666842181117,0.10036390781066068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804590451417837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339460781642376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437476907495094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420337332244546,0.0,0.0,0.0905115826258484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554516200661745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343318489816481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671655833135699,0.0,0.11753744650815573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582905355957864,0.0,0.2492196354033906,0.09811527005582443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037017615141471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947882065719508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19665674284669127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257522991390688,0.0,0.107617319818997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359121304934586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452454977588722,0.0,0.0,0.14993397558043095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158851939193476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ocery,2019/03/28,What’s your story? I’m just curious on how other people ended up in the same situation I’m facing. I also find that sharing stories is comforting as we often feel like we can’t talk about this aspect of our lives to anyone. ,4.564710144927538,5.149880543478265,6.807391304347828,73.56731884057974,69.65217391304348,8.742028985507247,26.20289855072464,8.841846274778883,2.0856898550724647,179,5,32,3,3,64,42,46,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,3,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,8,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,7,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,2,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30393805148210057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657504670763741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33662501142834145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921724153757212,0.2715186980186452,0.0,0.0,0.3473727626045953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18568068842660115,0.0,0.3356045881112037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634893969290182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42720927687570137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054820597476225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Shadowed-Heart,2019/03/28,"Looking for a place where you can share stories, help others freely, and get help yourself whenever you need? Angel's Wings Support is a peer-support Discord server where you can do all of that. Angel's Wings Support is a Discord server dedicated to helping anyone who may need a little bit of help. We help people with their emotional problems, mental health problems, and even help them learn to do simple things like cook and checking. It is a peer-support server, meaning that you can help people too, and they'll return the favor. The server caters to **everyone**, and we mean that. We hope you come and join (: we're here for you: to teach you, and to help you. 

🌸We have:🌸

● a friendly, welcoming, and accepting community 

● Lifetime support-- those who can help you learn how to do activities that your parents should be teaching you(and may not be able to).

● Mental and physical health support

● active moderators and support staff members

● helping channels and channels that you can share your art in, talk to others in, and voice chat in. 

● rules that keep the community safe 

● we have a place where you can get feedback on your writing and artwork, and also a group of people dedicated to spreading positivity throughout the server. We call them secret santas, hehe. 

Come one, come all. Join us if you need support, or a friendly community to become apart of. 

**Invitation Link:** https://discord.gg/KgE4UCc 

If the invitation link doesn't work, feel free to comment here for another one or message me personally. 

**We also have a subreddit for those who can't get on the Discord server. The subreddit serves the same purpose. We recommend joining the discord though, as with all subreddits replies aren't that fast nor are they guaranteed.* r/Angelswingssupport 

*DISCLAIMER: We are not medical professionals. Our support team members are volunteers. People who claim to be medical professionals are not vetted by the staff. We are also not professional chefs, tech supports, etc.*

**Moderators: I hope I'm not breaking the rules by posting this. I've read the rules, and didn't see anything against this in them. If it does break a rule I'm sorry, and feel dree to remove it if that happens to be the case (:** ",3.3831578947368466,6.486647538847116,4.054029573934841,80.21048796992483,82.38345864661653,6.500270676691732,28.28075187969925,7.770157013224466,2.3159477293233084,1764,81,290,33,50,559,185,399,0.046,0.7240000000000001,0.23,0.9972,1,0,0,0,0,0,83.0,11,15,6,2,12,22,0,0,24,0,31,5,0,1,3,69,60,29,0,12,11,1,2,1,2,4,4,1,0,1,22,30,1,2,10,7,2,4,10,2,0,2,1,5,34,21,34,51,6,22,2,0,2,0,62,13,0,10,3,191,56,13,0.06195362577651206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863287645074466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649637784628153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04331941563648602,0.0,0.05098255522304435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684229122209844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06763731349955451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326157874843634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601026885726166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421603541514236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968949026851852,0.0,0.0,0.06909466944218168,0.04091978552682567,0.0,0.0,0.059199344393762836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626512293815524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573043518463946,0.0,0.09710463727986554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05478538666917844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170761423656474,0.0,0.0,0.4152620943161288,0.0,0.0,0.12306785877721277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055067229187319836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03026741215588963,0.06209380882954335,0.0,0.0,0.05202544223290352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497132159674807,0.0,0.12482352023566773,0.12486936626885868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378134855052257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396276039720402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06879216970751517,0.0,0.0,0.17180337369785087,0.05409551636530524,0.12945670555875385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05933444792996129,0.0,0.0,0.11856250569640155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061970391307507824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936901858091093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935201183875597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7030424034750451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049795977637525614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04115923608608045,0.0,0.06086912276968399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452258366039881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045102977429422576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anni_wannabe,2019/03/28,"How do you guys incorporate working out in a ""healthy"" manner while restricting? Hi friends,

I have started working out recently and during a hot yoga class I got extremely light headed and had to take a break (I think I was dehydrated). I was wondering what I could do for harm reduction if I want to work out while restricting. I've been drinking lots of water with electrolytes (snake juice recipe) and was googling protein shakes but they seem fairly high calorie. Any recommendations? Thanks!",5.004367816091953,8.104656103448278,4.72712643678161,78.38885057471266,74.17241379310346,8.004597701149425,31.50574712643678,8.841846274778883,3.132416091954024,399,19,65,9,9,122,67,87,0.069,0.84,0.091,0.4314,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,3,1,4,0,1,3,0,9,3,1,1,0,18,17,8,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,2,3,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,6,2,9,2,9,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,4,4,40,10,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213805298759768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19036399140842875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23356699407778056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842075599867634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069128453592005,0.0,0.0,0.23607951213923284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446941592271141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519104655886442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027015053053172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354171971251805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170543394853819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875935502901804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926689734288673,0.0,0.0,0.21951089398126689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527739392135482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063000308220014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25856314060422675,0.5207315356534667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rqrqsj,2019/03/28,"My roommate may have outed me to my mom My mom already knows. I told her 12 years ago so she’s known at least that long. My mom came over the other day, we sat on my couch and talked. My roommate was working a few feet away in the dining room and chiming in occasionally. 

I mentioned that I had been feeling sick this week and my roommate puts in: “You throw up a lot.”

You could’ve heard a pin drop. My mom just fucking stared at me while I said some nonsense about a sensitive stomach. 

I thought I was being sneaky this entire time but my roommate sees through my bullshit. ",2.114278996865206,4.2032724655172435,2.7641065830721026,94.02791536050155,78.6551724137931,4.907836990595611,25.200626959247646,5.565023196281405,0.4163896551724138,450,17,96,2,11,140,82,116,0.109,0.879,0.011000000000000001,-0.8735,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,0,7,5,2,0,0,15,17,6,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,5,6,1,0,4,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,10,5,23,0,13,5,4,22,0,0,2,1,14,11,1,3,7,65,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14616317942403986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181957903873455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491761495831602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858783720788186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13164957545943426,0.0,0.0,0.10633905818611236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337227932817838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243621163015852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061808064997044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14592060761298098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401818007754365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7724588881352942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575788733314006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568461570435959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139431254313705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253065256650634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090257877807235,0.0961474636675778,0.0,0.0,0.1575574597837055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226313187548314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200403589809068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618240505439278
EDAnonymous,blacknponk,2019/03/28,"Pretrt sure the guy I'm interested in was interested in me before I gained weight I started at my job back in August last year and back then I was borderline underweight, and this guy I worked with definitely showed some signs that he might be interested. 

Anyway cut to about 6 months later and I've gained 30lbs and now I really like him, like I don't think I've ever met anyone I like as much as him but I'm also pretty sure he's not interested in me because I look so much worse now and I'm so much less fun when I'm fat, like I lose all my confidence, I wear shitty baggy clothes, I'm less funny, I'm sad a lot, my skin is gross. 

Any I can't help but think that if I had just not started binging maybe something would have happened with him. 

Anyway he's quitting this job in June so I have two months to lose all this weight or I'll probably blame myself and my disgusting binge cycle for the fact I've missed out on the best guy I've ever met. ",3.295226308345121,4.008830559405944,4.699519094766618,87.06821782178218,72.61386138613861,7.949646393210751,23.33946251768034,8.192908349453996,1.0111205091937765,751,18,169,11,14,251,113,202,0.16899999999999998,0.613,0.218,0.757,3,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,7,15,19,2,0,4,0,11,5,3,0,7,30,26,18,0,2,7,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,5,9,3,0,2,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,5,4,23,12,16,18,10,25,0,4,1,0,12,8,0,5,21,97,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935201440904746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448519100607013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686916332270403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910606501459433,0.0,0.07573351656053913,0.0,0.10571624963698867,0.0,0.1303787128856334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22475834849226128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690414860950981,0.10986207067516222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327321632310487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465714357273197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126946188288563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427830321617753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043275070049538,0.2779780944804673,0.0,0.10562156802418003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481242639207225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131795466344557,0.0,0.0,0.1983290380266315,0.0,0.2739847261820466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639335002198535,0.13394813526081936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132140983551866,0.0,0.0,0.07958918749398786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956434527289863,0.0,0.0,0.17587069883932047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341831689427472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592116742168313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136116732762516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30257357163964754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044577021848693,0.0,0.12660777329623446,0.08825416077652454,0.0,0.0,0.0800043376271763
EDAnonymous,medievalrockstar,2019/03/28,"How to break up with my psychiatrist? I started a seeing a psychiatrist when I decided to try recovery (again). Been on antidepressants forever but felt like I needed help with medication management. Standard stuff. 

I’ve seen this doctor twice and holy shit she is so triggering. She has no bedside manner. The first time I saw her she kept insisting I had a history of bulimia (I don’t) and told me I should stop purging (I haven’t in 5 years).  Then she said my suicide attempt wasn’t a “real one”.
Second appointment she said I shouldn’t expect to do well in my grad program if I’m also working full time. To make things worse, she works in the health center at my university. 

I leave there feeling worse than when I went in—and my ED becomes so much worse. But I don’t know how to “break up” with this psychiatrist and still get my meds refilled. ",2.8231590909090905,5.1702495696969715,4.236723484848486,83.05508522727277,77.54545454545455,7.761363636363638,26.07007575757576,8.660442795831766,2.075734848484849,669,26,130,15,16,221,106,165,0.17800000000000002,0.757,0.065,-0.9694,0,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,0,0,4,11,3,1,0,6,0,11,4,1,4,0,25,27,14,1,5,3,0,2,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,6,0,2,4,0,0,1,6,1,1,4,11,7,26,2,17,14,2,23,0,0,3,0,11,9,1,1,12,89,30,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260682478265604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741059621707974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135582332849155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970979470611593,0.0,0.15136343971601374,0.0,0.0,0.13409232918032035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08236274349277732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675687292278438,0.0,0.0,0.1056657837808264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663729315638491,0.0,0.0,0.1669227609577002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07701713862750634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522892632034604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510749849671642,0.15881024635423113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588684459146405,0.11689139751172355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10682399148883384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17943395111444385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999120350104841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562225433633858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181981143985355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158158683839813,0.0,0.12589509947221744,0.13179785890048698,0.0,0.0,0.18046523370972825,0.17243749370714392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473199938988133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18384754866276287,0.0,0.0,0.15063607322454006,0.0,0.10703026585729472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174133574305814,0.14613802870722156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295341436726821,0.0,0.4819596331976885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151788791777323
EDAnonymous,stlib,2019/03/28,"My fav new hobby is watching Mukbang YouTubers cry about weight gain while drinking black coffee I’m looking at you, [Mr Avocado](https://youtu.be/y5UROcRPXyQ).

It’s almost like travelling back in time to meet fat me so I can scream BULLSHIT YA GREEDY FUCKER straight into her face. 

My family wasn’t cursed, ailed or broken. Just a bunch of greedy cunts 🙃",5.4261904761904765,8.354009634920638,4.425634920634924,82.03464285714288,71.69841269841271,6.73968253968254,26.37301587301588,7.793537801064563,1.7283777777777778,289,10,47,4,6,85,60,63,0.341,0.532,0.127,-0.9625,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,4,4,2,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,5,7,1,6,4,1,9,0,0,3,1,5,4,2,2,5,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465653769035053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661266345955801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801704529008976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390425413301013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32626872015469405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908513405761474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29063366332907514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342618917915047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018114926481112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214519644757617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catapultand,2019/03/28,"I‘m overweight for the first time in my life I fucking cant. I havent weighed myself in months because I always get so obsessive and about my weight. Well I‘ve stopped restricting but have been bingeing. And now I‘m at a bmi of 24.4. Holy shit. I started restricting when I was 10 fucking pounds lighter. God I‘m sorry, I just need someplace to vent. Restriction here I come  again🙃. ",1.5024283935242837,4.226793589041101,1.7077708592777086,94.63881693648815,92.56164383561644,4.8463262764632615,25.81444582814445,6.574015621080383,1.139394520547945,304,14,59,4,11,91,58,73,0.253,0.687,0.061,-0.9109,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,3,1,2,0,5,7,1,0,0,10,14,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,2,1,10,1,7,12,0,11,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,7,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22202627174679776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16265880307507544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298528370593135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22696785013253315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4933652625304379,0.1394091290370134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884719034402663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129834015739606,0.0,0.0,0.19785314607031906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739000428724428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29869748257873313,0.1888656348494884,0.0,0.0,0.223084175430258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555923561295241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32493047490877863,0.2399147396809998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollowedheart_,2019/03/28,"Talk me off a cliff: I just binged at 1 AM and I’m out of lax pills. And I’m freaking out. It’s like every time I eat I *have* to take lax. I fasted for almost 48 hours and I was very hungry.. so I ate around 600 calories If not a little more or less not sure. I have no more pills and it’s currently 1:48 AM and I’ve been debating driving to the drugstore to buy some. I want to scream at myself for eating.. it’s like the only way I’ll feel better if I fast again tmw and use lax but I have NONE.  I need reassurance about what I ate.. I don’t gain will I? My body will burn it all off naturally right in a day? Please I’d love some support. 

<3 thank you so much I feel alone with these thoughts. ",-1.5930219780219763,0.3434751923076931,0.9225274725274736,101.67961538461542,95.15384615384615,3.9970695970695966,13.83882783882784,5.622346879071545,-1.1980710622710622,534,10,138,4,21,180,101,156,0.07,0.7440000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.9578,1,1,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,2,6,10,0,0,5,0,10,8,1,1,2,28,24,12,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,6,10,4,0,3,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,5,3,19,8,17,17,8,19,0,0,0,1,4,10,0,6,9,82,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571702117624956,0.20242940553207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739937859363667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17286147802709576,0.0,0.21710319498178612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605041970933495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3999925369392519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467680385614558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197652884663469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924809240926659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19097602339057235,0.1958943273109179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764031295991233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367976490530676,0.14492523783130318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865011124849226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454768635267352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691500501987275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179669969652227,0.18421126860252585,0.0,0.14695563688316607,0.15709697514080373,0.0,0.17994601181783787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516711617975573,0.11396967733224653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168807839331959,0.0,0.1612684321435612,0.11528269844653707,0.1551407604280076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,avakadava,2019/03/28,Does anyone feel like life is on hold til they get to their goal weight? I swear I wont be able to feel myself until Im skinny. RIP me til then,-0.08727272727272606,1.2871239090909157,1.9303030303030293,100.81545454545456,82.63636363636364,4.4,11.0,3.1291,-1.909436363636364,111,0,29,0,3,37,28,33,0.039,0.879,0.081,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,6,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,16,6,1,0.3664227275351324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562112908453397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206589981451806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705486816256859,0.2617724697658214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19144075159675145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957994241936813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588152088655207,0.17901563594677955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462041672802535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Trip_the_light3020,2019/03/28,"I just know I'll never get better That flicker of hope always goes with the slightest breeze. It has been 19 years. I should've known better. Hope is a bitter poison. 


Nothing lasts. I truly, truly, felt some hope early February with this new therapist.  But the ED is insanely jealous and grew louder after a trigger...I cannot win this war. I accept it and now I just have to work on damage control. 


I don't think I'm going to make it, whatever that means. But damn, I do not want to die next to vomit. That is my one and only request. I don't care what happens to my life, but please at least let me have that dignity. 

I want peace. I wish I lived in a country that allowed assisted suicide for the psychiatrically ill. Nineteen years, almost no improvement, downgrading and consuming more resources...",1.9890394265232985,4.624068509677421,3.5270430107526916,85.11278673835128,83.25806451612901,6.025089605734768,23.44982078853047,7.3871296695380915,1.311616487455197,629,23,115,10,18,207,106,155,0.221,0.617,0.162,-0.6397,1,0,0,0,0,2,27.0,0,0,0,5,3,14,5,0,6,0,12,4,0,3,1,30,28,7,3,6,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,6,0,1,6,0,0,2,6,6,0,1,2,2,14,8,13,25,3,14,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,5,9,73,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248528316710434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501774867005953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870209860860613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544031260005929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181994358968205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840578829289085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558001579846919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477693472282903,0.0,0.09221912323858013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349069044041188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4834982401493247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917677866237593,0.132267896616202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592728796824546,0.11461279734988218,0.0,0.0,0.14328325424676314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083133640199306,0.0,0.0,0.17675450793585393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514902148491222,0.15671686140429708,0.17257101331481706,0.0,0.0,0.1556979550416035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995518324465577,0.12341009112989645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811859878282088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749192811991196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18840254817854585,0.0,0.10397306786204588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914165849119984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18659711497387801,0.0,0.0,0.11813108870338855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898709761797232
EDAnonymous,1trualt,2019/03/28,Soylent for weight loss? Anyone ever drink soylent before as a meal replacement? ,5.7323076923076925,9.498858000000002,5.098846153846154,70.08365384615385,84.38461538461539,5.676923076923077,29.57692307692308,7.1686216300943375,2.9325692307692304,66,3,7,1,2,20,12,13,0.195,0.805,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305831876030196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023063357546843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4631506017293117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276622937471227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5757263680869519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goblinunderthebridge,2019/03/28,"my sister is dieting and it’s triggering me big time especially considering the fact that I’ve been nonstop binging for months. She’s talking about how she eats 1000 calories a day and how good the hunger feels and goddamn i miss that feeling. i feel like shit i feel like a failure. Even though she is technically overweight and I am technically not, I’m ten pounds away from there so I’m feeling very frustrated. Restricting is so hard these days, and my nightly routine has become locking myself in the bath to binge until my stomach is one the verge of bursting and then cutting myself. fun  . I’m doing really well as you can tell 🙃",3.0288650693568755,5.72254904918033,4.029016393442625,82.89158259773016,79.0,6.704665825977299,28.237074401008826,7.882392219407189,2.1008290037831023,512,23,92,9,13,165,88,122,0.192,0.684,0.12300000000000001,-0.8508,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,0,0,9,9,3,0,6,0,9,6,2,3,1,17,18,14,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,4,1,5,1,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,6,14,5,9,17,0,11,0,1,0,0,7,4,1,0,9,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926313586748436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264382623601439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644533000860594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097957044635418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354196252407168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5183437482925005,0.2929453103606356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196847628257111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836655825615288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20033348456676786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365207619688693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924056916468005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893285852771065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313467347576752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104591736033755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479442752084106,0.1792042565292623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014398093264206,0.0,0.11955397431343852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691702779665997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843455638743612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nohatefornate,2019/03/28,"Relapsed twice this month I have been struggling with my eating disorder since sophomore year of high school and i'm now currently a freshman in college (\~3.5 years) meaning my parents are quite aware of it. 

Before I went away to university my parents were very direct about reaching a weight they came up with my doctor and not fluctuating too far from it (I was allowed about 10 pounds of wiggle space) and my first semester I did fine, eating healthy and working out but not taking it to an extreme. 

This semester has been more stressful so I have been not only stress eating but skipping the gym for the library- I am now the heaviest I have ever been. This is horrible for my mental health, so I tried to go back to eating healthy and being an avid gym user but I am now just stuck at this disgusting weight and I can not get rid of any of it. 

Leading to the beginning of this month where I fasted for three days and then went back to normal. I figured it was a one time thing but tonight I just couldn't eat. It wasn't that I felt fat, which I now did but I didn't at dinner, I just couldn't will myself to put my fork to my mouth without feeling guilt. 

I'm sitting in my kitchen, surrounded by food that my roommates have left on the table including bags of chips and brownies and my stomach is grumbling and this has made me *proud.* I haven't experienced thoughts like this in so long, and I know it's normal I suffered from them being way too loud for years but I don't want to be thinking these things.

 I want to be healthy, I want to be able to walk up stairs without being dizzy, I want to eat without feeling guilty, I want to look at food and just see a resource not something of harm but right now all I can think about is how I can limit the food I eat tomorrow. ",4.19640668523677,5.16685200557103,4.604271866295266,87.62895933147634,70.72701949860723,7.303888579387188,28.56612813370473,7.404127859558343,1.4725101058495818,1406,51,291,14,25,444,182,359,0.10400000000000001,0.816,0.08,-0.762,4,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,6,22,10,1,4,12,0,37,19,3,4,2,60,63,24,0,9,19,2,5,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,20,16,15,1,9,2,0,7,14,7,0,4,18,9,43,3,48,36,2,51,0,1,2,0,4,19,0,0,24,210,63,5,0.08205192076157028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05579811979812162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709048053955958,0.12618572460568134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982014115857309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384553847013268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0529167009051706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403860983779992,0.08398361773704775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5877171945649258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422065988995698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297583304283432,0.0,0.07878271139055773,0.0,0.0,0.06979332188354853,0.29765252484261595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042868742029780416,0.0,0.04663199745605636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08721735484875517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866923592476527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045093589807450034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914965198812606,0.0,0.0,0.04008642388149609,0.0,0.0,0.07261336785062199,0.06890294813541388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763951135704343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937859605417499,0.0,0.0,0.08268903730993803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309861206617986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078692214801182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05560050502843996,0.06240418314032997,0.0,0.0,0.18221789563113805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248484325796161,0.0,0.08727231770049364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007189200630275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304092435369193,0.06538475754897863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787419675512432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316757729641075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798039601575295,0.08577848296198515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616928329251684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090233004319887,0.1051511154253292,0.0,0.06514005979619845,0.047845134840139365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055707868167571915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677014278005981,0.2419817437856813,0.06512899549799457,0.0,0.1998342691428794,0.0,0.1521259051779863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372853707535996,0.0,0.05973477554808294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851624037767098
EDAnonymous,wastewoodrocker,2019/03/28,friends on peach! yoo maybe im a little late on the peach train? but ive just recently started using it and i could use some friends on there my user is @/matriarchy if u guys are interested 😋,-0.08091666666666697,2.2515340749999986,2.3500000000000014,90.08833333333334,95.75,5.666666666666668,21.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,0.9386666666666664,153,6,33,3,6,52,34,40,0.0,0.755,0.245,0.8762,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,8,7,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,3,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22214099434768764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299137692908148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754876969311338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30053205760502755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138512908162944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788557615145536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27951563055118017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27471482326577074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692994801306016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805962401537728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paranormalpleb,2019/03/28,"I wanna be a Skinny Legend But it is really hard.  When I first started dating my boyfriend we ate a lot of shitty food that was really fatty.  When I weighed myself after a couple of months I was 165 FUCKING pounds.  I'm 5'1"" (obese).  Now I am 150, but I am still overweight.  But!!!  Guess!!!  What!!!  He only gained FIVE FUCKING POUNDS!!  I gained 30 pounds and he gained F I V E.  I have had so many breakdowns over this, fucking hell.",-0.04724806201550536,2.2911054767441854,1.7491860465116282,95.28641472868219,93.06976744186049,3.7968992248062015,16.468992248062015,5.46131890053228,-0.6058031007751938,325,8,68,2,12,106,61,86,0.16699999999999998,0.718,0.114,-0.6912,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,4,5,4,4,0,3,0,8,9,1,0,0,8,15,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,1,12,0,5,10,1,10,1,0,0,3,3,1,4,2,9,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547535414596964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583999743424685,0.27840423757990657,0.0,0.0,0.6385528943307689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25363268979388753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20624767948159292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573978663029726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23342480406817895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837734674467134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751060808723198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949922230767383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296336870064704,0.0,0.18386805649761045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chancethecrapper,2019/03/28,I plan on taking a three hour walk every other day I don't know if any of you are familiar with NYC but I work in Manhattan and live in Brooklyn. It's about 3 and a half hour walk door to door. I did this walk multiple times already so I know it's definitely possible. I am just waiting for the weather to get a bit warmer. It should only be a couple of weeks. Then I plan to walk home instead of using the subway every other day. I know the amount of calories burned is not huge but I am hoping it will help kick my metabolism into gear and maybe a little sunlight will make me feel less suicidal. ,1.961418181818182,3.70375512,3.9458181818181792,87.0129090909091,77.8,6.785454545454545,22.56363636363637,7.686295010490155,0.9713999999999996,470,14,99,7,11,160,85,125,0.067,0.8190000000000001,0.114,0.6948,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,8,0,10,0,0,2,0,19,20,8,1,3,5,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,7,5,0,1,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,1,12,1,14,15,3,17,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,7,65,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21129081019818088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020549038581666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090345654033557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118568142414437,0.0,0.24696333911915325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226417924633989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681248284532333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003465346870938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833763927426095,0.0,0.1920590252634426,0.19017192614240705,0.37711680643570816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31567907639426673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919022455409636,0.1690706408919526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780704882983013,0.0,0.19235635252876196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562080760625393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158525364363425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094360167776536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143960864512539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164711762645416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653677463630957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535848880340756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939171734576367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cloversandroses,2019/03/28,"fasting?? i joined a fasting subreddit and i noticed most people do a 16:8 fast (fast for 16 hours, eat over the span of 8 hours). i tried that out but i’ve found myself fasting for 20+ hours, “eating” for an hour or two and then going back to fasting. when i say eating, it’s usually half a sleeve of saltine crackers, or one granola bar, or 10 pieces of low cal popcorn. i’m at work all night and i just ordered 4 rolls of sushi that i’ll probably regret, but i plan to eat them over the span of 2-3 days. i don’t know how to explain it but i like the feeling of looking forward to “eating” and then immediately going back to fasting for a whole day. i feel like i’m on some sort of schedule, it makes me feel so in control and i’m loving it.",1.2223450134770886,2.7836784088050344,3.2367699910152763,92.08485849056606,79.37735849056604,5.549146451033244,24.564690026954175,6.1826913282559595,0.5501407008086256,573,21,130,4,14,194,96,159,0.043,0.8640000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.8229,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,3,6,5,0,0,8,0,2,7,0,3,1,27,16,16,0,1,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,6,6,1,6,1,0,3,1,2,0,3,1,5,12,3,22,15,5,34,0,2,1,1,4,10,0,6,24,77,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19100933142178148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393045543280793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020169781531585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6354548806629046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884027505076857,0.08873085734142137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618249999313695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117518736414195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892608990562908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682588816400971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135891042543433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429948472747072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209832115942524,0.0,0.08290666253676286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165563767255572,0.0,0.0,0.14140627230271796,0.0,0.0,0.08416336574824848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610692471823941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391215690839467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877144375457424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432588303369437,0.0,0.12132856982382055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679237993849858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866854108736887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042147656340983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,natantantan,2019/03/28,"I fucking hate being ugly. It's such a terrible awful feeling. The worst is that it's mostly about my bone structure. I used to be a bit chubby but I happened to be one of the lucky ones that still remained ugly after losing 30 lbs. I don't know what to do. everytime I send a picture of myself to someone I get ghosted. It happens literally every single time. I must of tried to connect with 10 different people I met online this month and all of them dropped me after I sent a picture. I get 0 matches on online dating. So yeah, I am genuinely ugly. I feel so broken and alone. I am trying really hard to maximize my attractiveness and lose a bit more weight/ gain muscle but sometimes I wonder if it isn't all pointless. I don't think I will ever be not ugly. I also really dislike it when people pretend that ugly people don't exist. That is really damaging and hurtful. No not everyone is beautiful. Some people are just screwed. ",2.2275021337126617,4.616340421621622,4.727368421052635,78.51210526315792,79.91891891891892,6.705547652916074,25.95305832147937,7.85451343220497,1.9888378378378389,738,30,126,13,19,259,114,185,0.335,0.589,0.077,-0.9956,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,3,9,11,3,0,7,2,17,4,1,1,4,24,31,11,1,2,6,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,5,1,0,2,7,9,0,2,2,4,22,2,15,23,9,12,0,4,0,2,4,1,2,5,8,99,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183024050904415,0.0,0.11723353693550423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200918267768037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531626229177525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260534427136364,0.12351426251547322,0.14007967873467864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824765669237994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552652842967725,0.15318172335755567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592704173521969,0.0,0.13132208268875836,0.14473414915680946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693507899240033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056585605294099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280090031427616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170122958410836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986757897838529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40652749856575215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817413015903636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242111295291872,0.0,0.14498814313588151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707252260918385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939334134334504,0.0,0.0,0.08548186699758771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990594276024268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661270618375134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851560533277835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897815105152652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunflowermenace,2019/03/28,"How do I get used to eating? I don't know if this is an ED or not but I can't stand the thought of eating. When I'm hungry, my first instinct is to just ignore it until it ""passes"". I would probably end up fasting for days if I didn't end up feeling super dizzy and sleepy after 15 hours or so. 
My therapist has told me I need to keep eating once every 3 hours so as not to let my metabolism stop but it's so hard for me to get used to it. I also don't know what kinds of foods I should be having as snacks because I can't eat anything that I deem as unhealthy such as cookies, chocolates, sugary stuff, milk etc cause I feel bad so I'd rather not eat at all. Also if I try to eat ""too soon"" I fear I'll get nauseous (no idea why) but if I take too long/fast, I lose my appetite because by that point I already feel awful.
I don't know how to stop this cycle I've gotten myself into. :(",0.6755222088835566,2.032435387755104,2.9942256902761137,94.13060624249704,80.3265306122449,5.224009603841537,19.692677070828328,5.5289334501034215,-0.2950884753901559,680,16,162,3,17,234,116,196,0.201,0.772,0.027000000000000003,-0.987,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,15,6,0,1,2,1,15,9,0,5,1,37,33,24,0,8,14,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,2,9,4,8,0,0,1,10,4,0,1,4,4,24,2,23,25,2,20,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,6,13,106,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710612841716687,0.1697283521604139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732776987400424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860582000796656,0.1293796109277797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901453686809966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843866157286592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6515239044118044,0.0,0.0,0.1879817555159844,0.0,0.1183519218715011,0.0,0.0,0.08941073003961861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941457406389153,0.16097247728619116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026567141806732,0.12832080147071534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633005899715642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506273238731534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901377168893132,0.0,0.0,0.11979663420391455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943243879603679,0.0,0.11050771547031728,0.1749624341170609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851495432190376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391291639477764,0.0,0.11872120609102885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868668210843828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130144037630536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031776061703374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441537651756342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744224890176874,0.0,0.0,0.12148208318852725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978908060809216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321357240309845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424747633487985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140226791876636,0.0,0.07204855690642177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330732437904104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957568509818508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753846480566964,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alixxsupergr8,2019/01/15,"People commenting on my weight loss is such a double sided sword. On one hand- yesssss. Tell me I'm skinny. 😏 


On the other- comments about my body send me into such an anxiety. Please pretend I'm a floating, talking spirit. 😫 

I've been treating my body so positively recently, i don't know what to do now.",0.990860655737702,3.549127983606557,3.246045081967213,85.3710348360656,88.8360655737705,5.67295081967213,24.018442622950825,7.1686216300943375,1.3826868852459022,241,10,45,4,8,82,48,61,0.087,0.726,0.187,0.8001,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,4,5,4,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,6,1,6,6,1,8,1,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223692491848382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457594511012305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975001457351246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697215339286397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152077133561894,0.0,0.0,0.31907912775250663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870112318015759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336374101843594,0.25406695492913683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539696833205772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fiercepusheenicorn,2019/01/15,"This pain is so unbearable I’m trying really hard to not engage in bulimic behaviors.  Yesterday I binged but I refused to purge.  Like 3000 calories of various snack single serving bags. I buy everything in single serving bags bc it helps cut down my binge behavior.  Clearly it doesn’t always work.

I ate my daily maintenance calories over the course of the day so it isn’t like I was restricting or even that hungry.  The binge started because of my night snack.  Peanut butter jelly toast.  Was still hungry so I ate 2 belvita snack bags and a sigis yogurt.  Then all hell broke loose and I ate the rest of the bags of belvitas, the rest of my bags of goldfish crackers and the rest of my bags of Annie’s cookies.  I didn’t purge.  I just couldn’t.  I passed out soon after.

I am in so.  Much.  Pain.  Right now.  My stomach and intestines are in such distress.  I will not go into tmi.  But like.  No stomach medication I am on (doc put me on omeprazole again a week ago) or can take (alka seltzer chews) is helping.  Luckily I only had one class today so I can live on the toilet the rest of today.  This is so bad.  Why do I do this.  Why did this happen.  Why can’t I stop this???

I know I’m ignoring some emotional triggers and not dealing with it.  But therapy isn’t until Thursday morning.  I’m beyond my ability to cope with my past trauma and current circumstances.  I can’t do it all right now.  I do not have a safe person/friend to talk to about anything.

I do not know how to self care in the meantime.  I don’t know what I can eat that will not increase feelings of gastrointestinal distress.  I know I need to eat something soon (it has been over 6 hours since I woke up) and I am hungry despite being bloated af.

I feel so sick and defeated I just cry.  Tears just come out.  I can’t do this right now.",0.6942301225078076,3.146756270718232,2.4736055729041557,91.34462887340858,88.50276243093924,5.2472736007686755,21.95796300744655,6.800593979768761,0.7092167187124669,1398,51,285,19,46,460,187,362,0.209,0.7020000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9942,1,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,2,22,17,2,2,13,0,35,16,3,2,3,47,55,23,0,2,14,0,3,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,15,14,9,5,6,0,1,5,16,11,0,1,10,4,39,6,39,41,12,47,1,2,0,0,6,19,1,3,26,194,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091695097880524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024748567510438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013461021820574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282931192916553,0.07507416763464615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556476834736655,0.0,0.0,0.10608715971385434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528002552350551,0.07942481067562017,0.1269674357034337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520366976271824,0.0,0.1385328407112944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134274061248027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068380641354156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245417744747392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514927629372713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699918457881674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890559273004867,0.0,0.11032272327726488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509645096750605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128290401556067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707311507993753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805019912233069,0.0,0.10874815421223516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406574348013515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053312279194642,0.0913178996421702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155726597246911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345304052999288,0.09366495542058884,0.2620912854571003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756541835493015,0.0,0.10753422823090136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380482810355364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889627043863222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31552118675671004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284775629857932,0.0,0.0,0.10187511947686044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481076449939456,0.0,0.0,0.08716976925355863,0.0,0.09835177184781244,0.10296312567330276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259726119179484,0.09898735392585847,0.0,0.0,0.14083851818351126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334731503784413,0.0,0.0,0.08361418619578896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878754229879724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333847967802356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965833390028226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bighugegiantmess,2019/01/15,"Am I the only fat one here or...? Am I the only one who feels like everyone around me is model-thin and gorgeous? I’m in college, and when I go out to the bar it’s, like, every single fcking girl there is so hot and thin, I feel embarrassed to even be there. I have drunk-cried in the bathroom over it. My roommate is one of them, too, and I can’t take it. She doesn’t know how to cook, so she just eats ramen and pizza. One night, she sat on the couch and legit only ate graham crackers dipped in icing. She weighs no more than 120 lb at 6’0, probably less. She always laughs about “forgetting” to eat, meanwhile I’m still thinking about the cup of soup I ate 4 hours ago.

Gah. Just needed to rant. Sort of looking for advice but not really... just validation. <3 ",0.25157894736842223,2.5275687070063704,2.1383640630238037,94.44916862219245,88.04458598726114,4.833925578276903,16.543412671806905,6.339386263674448,-0.3459477707006364,585,13,128,6,19,193,107,157,0.034,0.91,0.055999999999999994,0.507,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,0,16,5,0,1,6,0,9,9,1,1,0,22,22,12,0,1,6,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,8,9,0,4,2,0,1,4,1,0,4,3,5,15,4,20,18,3,15,0,0,1,0,8,9,0,2,7,84,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710503883990118,0.1551654160283448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565013446603306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582574081328016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227695976131498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582262036136013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561451739158175,0.0,0.1474816173321952,0.16726147373123526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701440893889678,0.12505104270990355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948120030398183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238249301692693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961992769940399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17103473070753092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699237345458682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979246601291128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642663767795595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744557625222135,0.3993851892344744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188726395243672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213728677047648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397898884543752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161085530020933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216074526586377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,megalita,2019/01/15,"Never lost my period? When I was around 15 BMI, I never lost my period. I wasn't taking any hormonal birth control, either. I'm curious how many of you with lower BMIs still had your period? I think for a long time, I used this as a measure that I was ""okay"" or ""still healthy."" 

Does anyone know what causes some people to lose their periods and others to keep menstruating normally?",2.8866602316602297,5.158175581081082,4.797722007722007,79.49418918918923,76.97297297297297,8.552895752895754,21.382239382239387,9.23628265651192,1.9561915057915056,299,8,55,8,7,102,58,74,0.069,0.835,0.096,0.2177,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,4,5,4,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,4,2,16,12,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,6,0,11,1,7,6,2,13,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,2,12,38,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444039832977082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847872224892475,0.0,0.0,0.1890348209956757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218139982964552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381664398721862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582724502550066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887447396828548,0.0,0.0,0.116700957181857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879213779286618,0.0,0.23756319678322135,0.4636060503845748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152876344631177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275518765475202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080560429666398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721542886664776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33916291882279603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965933704479807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606408218190344,0.0,0.0,0.12382187925559215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834005709977139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shouldntbeinwriting,2019/01/15,"DAE use your ED to punish/discipline yourself? This is my first post here as a long-time lurker. I guess I didn't want to participate because that'd be admitting to myself that I actually do have anorexia but....I'm spiraling lately. I had a presentation today, and I was really excited for it. I was super proud of my material, I worked for an entire month on it and it was on a subject that I'm really passionate about. I offered to go first, got up there in front of my very small class and as soon as I felt their eyes on me my whole body began to shake terribly. The paper I was reading off of shook in my hand like a leaf and I felt mortified but I pushed through, kept my voice level and spoke with conviction. I cracked a few jokes too, but I knew my classmates probably saw through it. I'm just so embarrassed and angry at myself...I wanted to knock it out of the park but my body betrayed me and revealed my weakness. So now I know I'll fast for way too long to punish myself, exercise to make myself black out, probably self harm, the usual.... it sucks. ",2.1877570093457948,4.239059224299069,4.0773925233644865,84.88758411214954,78.25233644859813,7.644485981308411,24.25140186915888,8.548686976883017,1.7168437383177566,830,29,169,18,20,281,130,214,0.16899999999999998,0.763,0.069,-0.9774,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,1,5,11,14,2,3,9,0,11,7,4,2,0,26,30,15,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,10,10,0,1,6,3,0,5,1,8,0,2,14,8,31,6,32,14,2,31,0,0,3,1,6,12,1,1,13,115,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.15897671401048044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930845769418292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619126922083122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128384017807229,0.0,0.0,0.2771424197978762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925855387464098,0.0,0.1302940534186011,0.0,0.17946379266299448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953110598075277,0.0,0.18376963835154544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958962416273765,0.0,0.0,0.2883405450935889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874372699550812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003325196613266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156022800572669,0.0,0.3512891868194289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295414117267346,0.0,0.2087287060767331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995071714305932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441968394455402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070198184698052,0.17942241026168232,0.13441785702459672,0.19217714305552036,0.1293104191360599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188325899843927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186004605791734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dense_Necros,2019/01/15,Another case of classical conditioning I often use nicotine as an appetite suppressant and smoking to sate my oral fixation when it comes to binging. Its gotten to the point now that any time I feel hungry I immediately start craving a cigarette. S.O.S. 🙃,6.070333333333334,8.877856866666667,7.153055555555554,63.81625000000002,69.22222222222223,10.722222222222225,37.91666666666667,10.686352973137794,5.294666666666668,209,12,30,7,4,70,41,45,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,5,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029037287335617,0.4670661086183151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38369350582927575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252198578946928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210698407215289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31527353977089284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597304317291015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847034932031097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IkarosFalling,2019/01/15,"Is it possible to over hydrate? I've just put an end to a short binge cycle (about 3 days of 2000cal) and I was not really drinking water and drinking tons of beer. For the last few days I've been getting at least 4L of water and eating about 800-1000cal, so not even restricting super hard. I'm also back in the gym. I'm hoping to keep this going and push my water intake more because the bloat literally came off me so fast after I stopping binging with my water intake going up so much. I'm also drinking energy drinks and coffee which I know are mild diuretics. 

My main question is: is there anything wrong with drinking tons of water? If so what could it cause? What symptoms should I look out for and what precautions should I take? I also happen to love salt, so all my foods are pretty salt heavy. I've mostly been eating lettuce wraps with low cal salad dressing, salt, and some plain squash in them!",4.373553932101416,5.668348117318437,5.139776536312851,82.73744305973358,70.62011173184358,7.071938117748172,25.50107434464977,7.321109707123232,1.2758746024924794,719,21,133,7,13,233,113,179,0.064,0.848,0.08800000000000001,0.7499,0,0,6,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,15,5,0,0,5,0,11,17,0,1,1,29,25,16,0,5,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,12,15,3,2,7,0,5,2,2,0,0,4,5,12,3,23,18,10,22,0,1,1,1,3,9,0,5,8,90,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112903332562689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677568102435857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977206436100534,0.0,0.07909623758520229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484028900019284,0.0,0.13329209519996474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103597229571974,0.0,0.0,0.16735992934164418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6355428179165705,0.0,0.2655394677530796,0.0,0.0,0.11492266431590567,0.0,0.0,0.08570064697390033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689786864356678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779059837768711,0.0,0.14748326456124078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474016840058715,0.0,0.11623322117737388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887402735756606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533044730450848,0.0,0.0,0.07130886728426512,0.10576603043133916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895985893035016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171071678040902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953834003798854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627703599671354,0.0,0.13200546992343992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043762463714148,0.14535307945913575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831231080918509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847933593355226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486307088789254,0.09755812420869547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418645600447256,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Itotsigt,2019/01/15,"Periods. I haven't had my periods over 1 year and 4 months. I have been in the low healthy weight since summer. Maybe not in the weight i should be if i look at my old shcool height/weight charts when i was in my early teens and my eating was pretty normal, and besides i'm adult now.

When i should get them back? Does somebody be able to tell when they had them again or something? And is there going to be problems if i don't have them  anytime soon? I'm glad i don't have them because i'm never going to have kids or anything like that and i would cut off my uterus if i could but i need to be atleast 30 years old to do that in here.",2.398695652173913,3.1885677101449303,3.2166376811594226,96.5801739130435,74.79710144927536,6.0997101449275375,21.771014492753626,5.6839178017228535,-0.12053855072463725,496,11,121,2,10,157,79,138,0.04,0.894,0.066,0.509,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,5,0,9,5,1,0,2,0,22,3,0,0,1,20,30,14,0,10,7,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,5,3,21,2,12,17,0,27,0,1,1,0,8,8,0,5,18,81,23,0,0.16841771276454084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859342748608428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950282531093782,0.0,0.1026658745045703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446783936847154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738347538718802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233336568621022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799130373472305,0.0,0.19143133470360454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228038734948727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414284616373691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919822935115253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442941152995205,0.0,0.0,0.12487960000181733,0.12989412270666748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650136000429944,0.0,0.0,0.35345211727537984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134136114221662,0.0,0.1611530058067328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931687237945034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296561834311317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720450426738646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6152622064536786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963911100768695,0.0,0.0,0.2169109704575029
EDAnonymous,hotcheeto01,2019/01/15,"RANT I’m still on break before i go back to school next week and i’m like SPIRALING. I cannot like really put into words what’s going on right now but like i’m just struggling to exist right now ? i can’t even respond to anyone on my phone i have like 10 missed calls from friends and i just CANT. 

the only thing i can even think about right now is my weight and food and calories i just DONT KNOW what to do. i start classes next week and i have to do well this semester because last semester didn’t go well bc i was more focused on going to the gym then going to class. don’t expect advice just thought it would help to put what’s going on in my head into words sorry for the nonsense ",0.8681632653061229,2.8995354081632674,2.2796190476190468,96.1737142857143,82.6734693877551,5.00843537414966,17.963265306122448,6.079149491110277,-0.38725632653061215,543,12,123,4,15,175,83,147,0.08800000000000001,0.738,0.174,0.9228,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,14,9,0,1,3,0,14,3,1,0,0,19,28,7,0,2,5,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,3,1,0,8,6,2,2,0,3,1,13,7,19,24,1,32,0,1,0,0,5,11,0,0,16,76,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923709029253486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247508054740423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169517200281214,0.0,0.08062081843769309,0.0,0.11253842360646918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350461335722708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500071758710368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747050557805108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992207679345416,0.0,0.10217912193027573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509780183405789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357307720328645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864707673439623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268334648825114,0.10780467183531092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25845052025308657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813072852087987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058513604422599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659036225834926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472530691780451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33883261196516984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384812128013082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804753911573607,0.09361007070298202,0.0,0.10561822516309376,0.0,0.0,0.13826060921263067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786368921200592,0.08474303097978922,0.0,0.1049949129499172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217238265860647,0.16104975769681,0.2378244804791893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093949455874633,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallerism,2019/01/15,"ec stacking is wild i just wanted to get some thoughts out real quick so that i can get my work done lol

anyways i take my first dose in the mornings and on tuesdays and thursdays i have a class about meditation and idk if any of yall meditate or anything but it feels so dissonant to be meditating just after taking a stack (is this the hip way to refer to it?). im trying to breathe slowly through my diaphragm and everything but my heart is racing and i feel like i cant catch my breath. the instructor is leading in ""breathe in"" and ""breathe out""s and its going way too slow for me because i need so much air for my heart and im trying to stay still and open posture and whatnot by my entire body is trembling and im so hot but im just tying to focus on my breathing but all i can think about is my  heartrate and how fast it is and maybe if i meditate hard enough itll slow down?? but guess what it never works lol

anyways i think thats all this is just gonna be my life every tuesady and thursday from now on i guess. back to work luv yall",1.0551842751842777,3.038463396396395,2.6968058968058948,93.7008353808354,81.70270270270271,5.297624897624899,23.15397215397216,6.351523495107088,0.4210738738738744,822,29,183,7,22,270,124,222,0.028999999999999998,0.9259999999999999,0.045,0.6531,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,5,18,2,0,1,5,2,16,11,9,2,3,45,31,27,0,4,12,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,11,16,0,0,6,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,2,4,24,1,25,25,5,29,0,0,0,0,2,10,0,6,14,125,35,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08699880631243342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052779333562698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837255676429887,0.0,0.07798675081573082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210468876284446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091984524297473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13218895619871546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077890445619688,0.0,0.1149779038792288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937350673506687,0.09139533901921733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881971855712178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367939271789195,0.0,0.07270725482004338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818651785320144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460281213382828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30320236981473625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5527582421505751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036283983092204,0.06250158678539892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852586328755036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940454527861748,0.09486067589943263,0.09866979294567728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561572745603255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136359523532702,0.10216743475210044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19237934331624995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394856238027766,0.0,0.10156448758297726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737161771874728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545818007818994,0.20309447290172394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27941017655218364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pignoises,2019/01/15,"DAE feel like they don’t deserve to be here? I woke up this morning and I’ve gained back 4 of the pounds I lost because I’m a fat POS who can’t stop binging (and recently, purging). But I’m still firmly in the obese category, because I apparently can’t even be good at eating disordering. 

So I’m here at work reading posts from you lovely people, heart a little jittery from the Bronkaid. I’m going to Europe in a few months and I don’t think I’ll even be able to enjoy myself knowing I’ll be an absolute cow in the pictures. I wish I felt more like I belonged here, but I really just feel like a fat girl that can’t put down the damn fork. ",4.4597992700729945,4.102456321167884,5.903348540145987,83.23998631386863,69.72992700729927,8.601824817518247,29.53375912408759,8.07648339933343,1.7957452554744529,504,17,111,6,8,172,85,137,0.055,0.81,0.135,0.7935,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,3,9,8,1,0,10,0,9,6,3,0,0,13,23,6,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,4,1,5,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,3,3,11,6,13,16,2,16,0,1,0,1,5,8,1,0,8,62,14,2,0.1886726326609147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450776084496589,0.0,0.2300261713480605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21623518285973092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305920538649626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492329889171128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907971041033368,0.269575532943064,0.18115531517433173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722700510372372,0.1582496527635493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22357797812649186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368954469482386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765277542859981,0.18909954400530105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059584661642156,0.0,0.17028441724786525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505966953480299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080184738715298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806962281563824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966810755503252,0.0,0.0,0.18872369015482696,0.0,0.12086851972145267,0.0,0.18629146311665098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067420816138166,0.1577387691057726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089380474210915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696421628170104,0.0,0.0,0.13735592365735566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,relativeletter6,2019/01/15,"i’m going to b/p today i’ve got it all planned out. after school i’m going to the store and i’m gonna buy my favourite chips, ramen, gummies, probably some candy and a slice of cake... maybe a bit more, i don’t know, i’ve only got $15 for that. 

then i’m heading over to taco bell. two crunchy tacos, quesadilla, nachos, those cinnamon delight things. $10 for that. 

going home. eating. some stuff i have at home too. purging. then i’m just gonna get high out of my mind and go to sleep so i don’t eat again. 

i already ate a nutrigrain bar for breakfast and i’m gonna eat 100 calories of goldfish for lunch but honestly keeping down 235 calories is really low for me so whatever. 

i’m so sore. my whole body is bloated rn for absolutely no reason. my chest and stomach are all being assaulted by sharp pains every other second. sucking in hurts horrendously. but i’m still gonna b/p. because i’m angry. because my life is going to shit and i’m in so much pain from bloat when i ate at a deficit yesterday. 

who cares. who cares. ",-0.21942902967121114,2.059520786046516,2.174867682437853,92.67465116279072,92.30232558139537,5.012028869286286,20.902165196471525,6.647476241863616,0.4880280673616682,799,29,172,11,29,271,131,215,0.196,0.741,0.063,-0.9865,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,1,9,10,3,0,5,0,8,18,6,1,2,19,37,15,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,2,0,9,8,8,1,2,1,2,5,3,7,0,2,4,1,11,3,25,28,8,23,0,2,0,0,2,10,2,2,8,87,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473324903114942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599022331372586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318773155474626,0.14568408630168533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674433496195113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026141619636929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050408404573284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852328503379511,0.0,0.3726931911317535,0.0,0.2097939147368308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346032822171895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857288461724188,0.2631191267245468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040457195400752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657694876348948,0.0,0.0,0.07207957969530285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263894014337032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176323119380307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324295692253594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641431242882743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099749594370075,0.2791171927097356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140770774624725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402150984033242,0.13484959859077153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273627028768206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346291368303005,0.0,0.0,0.13125012225793492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474087457090657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014155823095646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713382218722998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431998681885792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811977149060053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643032406008466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Imaginary_Air,2019/01/15,"So I thought I was over this and I don't know what to eat Title says it all, it has been a long journey from restricting to bingeing to getting stuck in only being able to eat what I planned out to in the end not giving fucks anymore, while maintaining my weight and exercising. However, I just don't know what I want to eat anymore and as I had mostly been eating with people this was no problem. Just now I have not and I'm stuck, yes I am a bit hungry, just no food seems worthwhile to eat plus the preparation of everything is just so much additional work as well. I can't decide for anything to eat, so I just don't.

On one hand I don't find this problematic at all, even though my weight is healthy I could stand to lose a bit, on the other hand I just want to be normal. :(

Any tips on what is healthy and tasty to eat but requires no effort at all?",4.257034027425089,4.2908191117318415,5.193235144743525,86.81315388522093,70.1731843575419,8.296800406297614,28.004570848146265,8.00094639256281,1.492001117318435,667,21,150,8,11,219,99,179,0.151,0.7879999999999999,0.061,-0.8566,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,13,4,1,0,6,1,19,14,2,0,3,35,31,14,0,5,9,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,9,10,2,6,1,0,1,10,3,1,1,8,5,16,1,27,20,7,15,0,1,0,1,2,9,1,2,4,109,26,2,0.10656832738929478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247011700837992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113742900127704,0.0,0.0,0.08769665323142402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269002510860626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508613787662991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7633220261194316,0.0,0.0,0.09438790691153892,0.0,0.0,0.07038737517079653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577674109208023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740152058578183,0.0,0.12886284449026816,0.0,0.0,0.09852070145225324,0.05567755261539879,0.1022300502430208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713433146124767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09430961622983322,0.0,0.11922269922617898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833998254003773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441433424317598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221345664897663,0.08105001513230785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388106000794865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197149694456988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474741127942853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970158028287503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470284058303032,0.08460334814941711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571352116872211,0.0,0.0,0.2595430261712165,0.09581772466458802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07758301156206007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Slutty-Muffin,2019/01/15,"My Past to now from what I can remember (TW ed behaviors, self-harm, sexual assault, and rape are mentioned) My ed began to get bad at the beginning of middle school. A boy had slammed me into the side of a locker and gave me a bruised ribcage so bad I could barely breathe almost fractured my ribs. I had started self-harming and attempted to purge. I was very isolated pre-ed but after I begun to really start restricting and over exercising and behaving numerous damaging behaviors to myself I started shutting everyone else out. my two close friends at the time even tried to get me help (one of which was a model receiving help for her ed). I had my head bashed into a brick wall by a random guy too. when my chorus group took a trip to a neighboring big city I couldn't even let myself enjoy that because I was so anxious and insecure about how I looked. I was also anxious because that day I was trying to fast. by the time eighth grade started I had lost over 40lbs ( keep in mind I struggled with binging so at one point it was the same 10lbs over and over again). I had begun to frequently self-harm and even tried to kill myself in seventh grade. I was bullied alot heavily and when a boy found my blads in my pencil case he mocked me in front of the whole class with them. My body was and still is lined from all the scars. and then when I could hurt myself with a blade I started burning myself and hitting myself until I bruised.  I had even destroyed my singing voice and my teeth with purging. When I got to 8th grade and started bingeing again to cope with the bullying and sexual trauma that the previous year gave me I became really aware because my smaller clothes stopped fitting. I even popped a button on my jeans in class. zi started restricting again and managed to drop down to an even lower weight (which was still considered a healthy weight because I started as obese and also I'm really fucking short) I thought it would make people like me and for the most part, it did. But I could never go out or go to sleepovers. I wouldn't even leave my house. Because back then I was also bullied for my sexuality (I'm pan and in 7th grade a dated a high school freshman girl). Then on the 8th-grade trip, an older man sexually assaulted me and I never told anyone about it,  The rare times I saw my mother or when she actually wanted me around I was always so anxious because of food and the way everyone ate and how tiny she was. she would pick on me for my weight and size.  I had been so insecure about myself and so wrapped up in hurting myself I had limited social interaction with anyone online besides creepy pedophiles who took advantage of me and things got so bad the police had to get involved. My one ""ex"" from that time online actually made me drink my own piss if I ate and wanted to still be with him. The summer before high school started I was doing a lot better but after my mother abandoned me and told my dad she hopes I kill myself without her I relapsed. At the start of my freshman year, I had no friends really beside the couple I had to fix problems for because it was my only guy friend whom I had a huge crush on but he was with an unstable girl (granted he was hella unstable too). I was (still am) on my school's academic decathlon team. I met this amazing upperclassmen boy who understood me and loved me the best he could. He became my world on and off through freshman and sophomore year. ( problem with this is how much drama occurred AND THE FACT THAT ALL THE GIRLS I KNEW WERE HIS EXS.) He tried so hard to help me get better and did all these little things and for a while, it worked. Until he cheated on me with his skinnier, older, and prettier ex. I broke it off and started relapsing. I dated a whole bunch of people in between all of that. But because my ed told me so that even when someone did care for me friend or family I couldn't believe it I refused to. A teacher since 8th grade (he transferred to my high school and was my honors english teacher) started bullying and harassing me ( he had screamed at me and threatened me the day before 8th-grade graduation and prior to that incident had been making unwanted advances towards me). He would use the fact that i transferred out of his class as a way to tell students my name and present me in a bad light) I spent all my school dances so conscious of myself and others I couldn't enjoy the moment. It was the same at competitions. I was so focused on my body I couldn't enjoy the experience. My friend at the time had her birthday party in the fall and me and another one of her friends got wrapped up with someone's family friends. The guy who was into me out of that group was 27 and knew I was 14 and didn't bat an eye when he forcibly kissed me and coerced me on camera to get naked for him and his friends. He also when on to sexually assault me and when I ignored him he would give gifts to my friends to give to me. He would seek me out on every social media platform. he was also a substitute teacher at my school. He even lied to his family about my age and told people about me and wanted to propose and it just kept getting worse. ( i still see him around town and he still drives past my house and honks and he still stares at me and tries to talk to me until my dad said something to him) I had all these opportunities and when I was finally starting to heal and let go a bit I was sexually assaulted almost raped. That incident was the reason why I had to transfer out of all my honors classes ( ie the whole English problem).I was suicidal all the time after that. the one day in the hallway my ex ( who was my friend/ maybe a bit more we had no labels because we weren't sure if we could date again) was giving me a hug and I was just very anxious and upset and had to travel to the other building.  that day I was going to run out into traffic because I couldn't take it anymore. he actually wouldn't let me go until I calmed down. A girl ended up stepping on my neck and severely threatening me for no reason even though she used to be my friend too. granted later on in the year he fucked me over but we became friends again. Then in the spring/ summer, I met the kindest most loving and caring and considerate person you will ever meet. We dated for six months but I ended up cheating on him and destroying him mentally with how unstable I was and how flip-floppy I was with recovering and relapsing and all my self harm.  My nudes got sent around the school by some random ex of mine too. We ended up finally breaking it off and I was back to relapsing. I ended up back to fucking around with my ex after becoming friends again and it was an on and off thing all the way up until spring. during that time I was relapsing for awhile and I was losing even more weight. I managed to even get down to my lowest and almost fit a size 0. But during that time as well I was helping my ex's friend ( they were no longer friends at this point ) cheat on his gf for six months with me while I was still messing around with my ex. The friend knew about it but my ex didn't.t I ended up choosing the friend over my ex every time and tbh it was the biggest mistake. In the end, I told my ex (after his side hoe messaged me on fucking valentines day when I thought he was finally mine) goodbye and I gave up on him. we fought but then didn't talk for a long while. I even went to semi-formal with his best friend since we had academic decathlon together and he liked me but that didn't work out. That friend was still an on and off buddy in between relationships and we used each other and he took advantage of the fact that I liked him. I then went back to the six-month ex and dated him for a  month maybe but started relapsing and pushed him far away and forced his hand for him to dump me. I then had a whole bunch of summer flings and was on an off involved with that friend. Towards the end of the school year, I did actually admit to the whole cheating mess because I hated having the secret. It made people hate me even more. After freshman and sophomore year there were so many rumors and stories about me the truth got drowned out by the words whore and slut. I spent my summer relapsing on and off and comforting friends. I had to leave the spring semester of the sophomore year because I couldn't handle seeing my attacker every day. But then I finally started living and said fuck it to calories and started going to concerts and doing things and dated and hooking up with people. But then the guy I was with got a little too handsy and pushy about sex wouldn't stop touching and kissing me and wouldn't get off of me (he was 20 and I had just turned 16). After that break up and making so many people hate me I just went back to starving myself again. I used to go roller skating all the time but to avoid my ex I stopped Then there was this older drummer from a band I really liked he was 22 and into me and things kinda got a bit steamy between us until he randomly ghosted me one day (turns out he had a gf for 3 years).I was a mess but a smaller shaped mess at the start of my junior year (technically I'm not a junior due to missing al that school but credit recovery shall change that). Then I met this beautiful girl with pink hair (3 weeks before school started) and god did I fall hard for her and I thought she liked me too and I told her everything and got really close to her but she was still in love with her ex so she broke my heart and left me over some random guy who dumped her. SHE ALSO TRIED TO HIT ME WITH HER CAR OVER THE STUPID FUCK CHEATER DUDE THAT SHE WAS A SIDE HOE FOR TOO IN FACT HE WAS HOW WE MET AND SHE STARTED DATING HIM AFTER EVERYTHING WAS SAID AND DONE. I made some new friends and started dating an underclassmen boy. He wasn't the right fit for me and so I left and was crushing on a new senior on the academic decathlon team. When I started dating that new boy he tried to force me into recovery and didn't understand how bad my depression and anxiety was and we would fight a lot and he was mostly just with me for the sex. So I finally dumped him after meeting a guy at a party ( it was an open relationship because I wasn't ready for commitment.) AT one point the school unenrolled me for some weird reason and after that situtation, I decided to start partying with my friends. We were with this big group of guys that were all really into me. That night I had slept with that guy who I had helped cheat and he ended up leaving me alone on a bathroom floor and when the whole school found out because it was at a party he ended up telling me how disgusting he felt being with me and regretting it and never wanted to touch me in the first place even though he instigated and begged me for it all. Later that night I ended up playing strip uno with a whole group of people ( I hadn't eaten and we were all drinking so we all know how that mess was). I ended up getting close to a guy whom I thought was a good person. With him, my friends, and his friends we all ended up in threesomes and different variations of orgies. I started smoking ciggerets (ed me was happy about that) and drinking again ( a year prior at a Christmas party I gave myself alcohol poisoning and swore off drinking) Turns out he had 3 kids, did meth, other drugs I don't know the name of, coke, and was an alcoholic. He ended up abusing me physically and forcing himself on me. It got so bad his friend pulled him off of me ( he was also 20). So I broke that off and was wary of dating other people. I even stopped partying after having partied with these boys every weekend and staying at the main guy's house and hanging out with them all the time. I started relapsing and my depression kept getting worse and worse and I couldn't stop blaming myself and I was back to binging, purging and starving. It got so bad my acid regurge would choke me in my sleep I ended up waking up one morning choking on my stomach acid. The holidays were all really rough and difficult because I spent Thanksgiving with my abusive ex. (that ex I had on and off freshman year became my friend again and when all the shit went down with my abusive ex he was there for me over text and comforted me and said if he hadn't moved away he would've kicked the guys shit in for me, we still are sorta friends now) . Then my friend's introduced me to this guy (My current bf who is an actual good person). Low and behold this guy was pink haired girl's ex and he told me the full story of their relationship and how crazy she was. That night we met he ended up pulling me onto his lap and holding me really close and we snuggled at my friend's house. They started shipping us and I was crushing hard. The next day we all were at his house hanging out and having fun. He and I were still bickering from the night prior having tickle fights and playful slapping. Then the gals and all of us thought it would be amusing if we pretended he and I were dating to piss off our mutual ex. (she had been my friend's ex-best friend too). So when we all went out to dinner they took cute photos of us acting like a couple and overtime that night him and I got closer. At one point when we were playing games, he claimed me for his team and we were curled up on his bed and I ended up cuddling into his side with his arm around me. IN the big group chat for our friend my one friend said him and I were a thing and I freaked out because even though I had a crush I didn't want it to be one-sided so my friends put quotations around boyfriend and girlfriend. Since the night I met him we had been texting non-stop and after that, we were still texting and he finally admitted to liking me and wanting to actually date me and so I finally said yes. Then the group of us all started hanging out together and he has become the best boyfriend I think I'll ever have. He treats me with kindness and respect and love and doesn't care about what I look like but does notice and appreciate when I put in an effort to look nice. He is just as clingy as I am. He even rn is standing by me while I'm considering filing a PFA against my abusive ex since he's been threatening the other girls and staying down the road from my one friend's house and I don't wanna risk running into him and him getting violent with me. And this action could cost me two of my close female friends.  Which brings me to right now I have a concussion that made my academic decathlon competition really difficult and I didn't have enough points to make it to regionals. But I did medal in economics in my division. But lately I've been stuck in a cycle of blaming myself for everything that's happened and yeah some stuff was my fault I won't lie I've done some stupid shit and asked for a lot of trouble but I keep blaming myself for my ex forcing himself on me and slamming me into the wooden part of a couch so hard I reinjured my bruised ribs and for covering me in bruises and spraining my wrist. I keep blaming myself for my childhood sexual trauma from people on the internet who made me do all kinds of depraved and disgusting things. I'm currently relapsing back into my ed and self harm and I am so terrified I'm going to hurt everyone around me. The suicidal thoughts have come back heavily too. Everything is all so heavy and scary and I just don't know what to do anymore.  There is a lot more in between all of what I've mentioned but my memory is very hazy. I just feel like I've become a magnet for tragedy.",4.0018247827537765,5.222596629068644,4.7324431823043085,85.58809971936951,71.42990654205606,7.619009294459544,27.45873818941989,8.010368400189675,1.63253673265096,12232,426,2465,165,226,3936,804,3103,0.16399999999999998,0.701,0.134,-0.9989,5,2,9,2,3,6,221.0,32,1,6,23,157,186,44,6,154,2,208,66,25,27,38,504,397,303,6,42,40,25,16,9,42,15,7,9,3,33,107,287,17,18,30,25,5,45,36,94,1,16,217,38,438,92,400,142,69,503,0,15,10,21,341,214,11,31,244,1763,545,43,0.0,0.07615356019128444,0.09408246301565834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03434440006061916,0.04827045221282925,0.01664198458141562,0.0,0.08994908361437287,0.01337017043026446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0168490861906426,0.0122922584989052,0.07261073431407887,0.031871009202399284,0.022470754782381013,0.0,0.0,0.11443404263147555,0.015021756182884862,0.01828008973250304,0.030193523706618867,0.09884467292594944,0.0939149200610164,0.15672206010479564,0.05323875424299843,0.041018996233699485,0.018103549681385358,0.06745104877347939,0.028422333647488682,0.05262749266546224,0.035696671775193825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04914832006800146,0.0,0.016998204081909597,0.013841477322411292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769757121293848,0.03555868991046393,0.0,0.08290215093088879,0.0,0.02767932578799313,0.0,0.0,0.01678802589326451,0.0,0.0,0.014061538217755291,0.03288704113273128,0.0,0.06296353831078197,0.018634206966025142,0.0,0.013423060664324762,0.0,0.22770889304209074,0.016602920786118358,0.0,0.1910341142718056,0.029069519845038895,0.0541531764812026,0.04606204625355865,0.057764856767340673,0.0157179484095726,0.04544348545571294,0.0,0.008124650295731506,0.011479246206282118,0.015428154341455,0.12321479172108465,0.0,0.01366774667965147,0.01942993588457969,0.03523627502872025,0.4593321423986117,0.08912969072317806,0.09234565711997236,0.04624273186479127,0.07305619634600202,0.026954771544717454,0.14136477043233708,0.0,0.0,0.2068327537604165,0.014209205865466012,0.017105077861907906,0.05757641081192968,0.047592563983229405,0.016490782580125957,0.0,0.0,0.01904109493318757,0.053851446024218805,0.0509313429973401,0.0,0.015959516278921414,0.0,0.11124444443731617,0.05160456486372743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04284691467206322,0.03555453970706339,0.0334654678233077,0.02649226655493036,0.0,0.01812582040838004,0.05104224885459058,0.03491666042163296,0.049292988685248965,0.0,0.07065174215917501,0.03220945461086781,0.014188664438210654,0.014220001148456438,0.04048014975561666,0.017976395066509106,0.017540523174012227,0.05464301172063015,0.05800932241411896,0.07602139752930473,0.04290304500219773,0.03258160878828974,0.03228567330424858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.01619313688811369,0.0,0.016224472370230586,0.0,0.051302476152169665,0.017078133579668805,0.011812100252582731,0.0,0.037178750858667405,0.04655679346406323,0.017088892994215586,0.09047445626699108,0.0,0.0,0.018293944897089496,0.0,0.0,0.130660114317075,0.01222071888676868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03480095610371515,0.030678153255281268,0.10025805640452662,0.04209084074234031,0.01678802589326451,0.0,0.07594901350886618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046125777888689316,0.0,0.032306298428999694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029380879877155,0.049562879331341125,0.0,0.05175424548117973,0.018202330024369214,0.027444599095140444,0.09170819268542442,0.0,0.0,0.2114066179577083,0.025608819834681648,0.0,0.08381406756968192,0.018152683578519718,0.049481850394321014,0.05316768437425718,0.0,0.01607997363896486,0.032759357835743706,0.027229354251623133,0.012370215681883942,0.0,0.0,0.29570513601279946,0.0342534873222381,0.16681886576274216,0.0806032571460476,0.0,0.016798148362179726,0.018394438473149147,0.03515237592590242,0.0,0.015144247861364047,0.0,0.012081413946425444,0.025830293096089738,0.028088925941578316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472577379818346,0.010295962206198982,0.047361273627991786,0.07653894200456328,0.10306554864000947,0.0,0.0,0.10747810792497016,0.07141019789650557,0.0763655757801217,0.052433314802698236,0.03139292387325008,0.016727739075784325,0.0966413488373486,0.05551164766799619,0.0,0.039774262353060606,0.0568652430216413,0.03826297078044276,0.012889076587154387,0.07826777963414229,0.014447393693686897,0.07447769640677843,0.0144992039775501,0.12557832306950292,0.0,0.01548933456058851,0.0,0.02339592838178076,0.0,0.049125123089669716,0.10273057645153012,0.0,0.0,0.10347502977948203
EDAnonymous,ehloveeash,2019/01/15,"Dealing with expectations of meeting someone online  I need some help everyone! I met a guy who I am madly in love with, and we've been talking/dating for awhile but he has been deployed so its been an LDR thing. We still facetime and talk all day everyday and I am beyond lucky to even know him! That being said he is finally coming back home and I am so excited but with that I realize I have to physically date him and the thought fills me with terror. This will be our first time meeting and  I'm so scared of him seeing my body and hating it. I know he wont, but this disorder creates such a distorted self image. I just want things to go well and I don't want my ED to ruin this. I am really honest with him about it but it doesn't make the experience any less nerve wracking. Any advice to calm down and enjoy myself and allow myself to feel loved? ",1.544425396825396,3.768159902857143,3.4405238095238104,87.71208730158733,81.4,6.403174603174603,21.15079365079365,7.594959193182576,0.8704984126984123,673,20,138,11,18,226,115,175,0.141,0.6609999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.8401,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,1,11,13,2,2,5,0,16,3,1,2,1,36,33,17,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,12,17,0,0,5,0,0,3,3,5,1,1,6,3,22,8,18,23,3,14,0,1,1,2,21,3,0,2,8,100,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056415891194826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373942912474294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342149644409589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388106171619265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035577187084315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256761654321967,0.1799490800690967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20004463602991845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528587044716634,0.0,0.0,0.16678601464962176,0.0,0.17073930840611154,0.0,0.0,0.08825561303470568,0.0,0.0,0.1912064182539304,0.0,0.14846858856798312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919841408262912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282780762952366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232786468114636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169943864333396,0.0,0.17508369288033354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19185163999920796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31506884142913205,0.0,0.11651069276525745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294235166947317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181852423542794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660330490369805,0.0,0.17475081940128906,0.0,0.13909042305442804,0.0,0.18208936126594294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478921100935705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939252036655025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029332150204715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23192097896082506,0.0,0.0,0.13856988714926444,0.10177907352529586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20590329842172456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693765771801466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scienceofspin,2019/01/15,"Morning time Pants: *slightly tighter than expected*
Day: *completely ruined*",8.771999999999998,5.860632200000001,5.250000000000004,60.98500000000002,177.0,8.8,52.0,6.742157984588678,8.1794,62,5,5,2,5,17,10,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7697679866452817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.473481810622759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281030503809372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sincereenfuego,2019/01/15,"I just finished watching the ""Thin"" documentary and I feel so lost. Why are we doing this? Why us? Why can't we be ""normal""? Why can't even treatment really work and if it does, it costs $30,000? Why?",-0.5518699186991861,1.6678221463414682,1.7530487804878057,94.66502032520329,95.82926829268294,4.684552845528454,16.589430894308947,6.42735559955562,-0.2349056910569103,152,4,34,2,6,51,31,41,0.10099999999999999,0.899,0.0,-0.6061,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,7,4,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,5,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,20,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047152951926814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866411888926324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849715879402712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126481305058363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908634649638298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479440750583926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343214276558412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8788873025796855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181733299737453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aleph0-4,2019/01/15,"How do you deal with binge urges? I've been trying to get back out of a month long b/p cycle for the past week and eating around 700-800 kcal a day (compared to my TDEE of 1200-1300) to try to lose weight I put on during winter holidays. 

Only a couple days of 'normal eating' and the urges to binge have been really frequent. I've been reminding myself how horrible purging feels, listing reasons to not purge, watching people on Youtube eating foods I've been wanting to binge on, distracting myself with studying etc. etc. but I'm scared I'll eventually snap and fall back into another time/money/soul draining cycle.

What things do you do to deal with binge urges?

Alternatively, what things in your experience have been counter-productive and backfired?",6.646312056737585,7.5814951914893625,6.504397163120568,76.33333333333334,65.17021276595744,9.10354609929078,30.56028368794326,9.150863307647796,2.6134028368794326,606,21,105,10,9,191,92,141,0.076,0.9109999999999999,0.013999999999999999,-0.8069,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,0,1,5,3,0,2,5,0,10,5,0,3,0,18,14,7,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,10,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,3,7,0,22,9,2,19,0,1,1,0,5,7,0,0,10,60,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763515798781844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338264593795563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23119051467594795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633838887324395,0.0,0.1939021130234692,0.30996931385351423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614784204109743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353175997873567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705256135275668,0.0,0.0,0.07601186903979902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178083833174868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854174126547081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303820173160374,0.0,0.16818193249758248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199927675885597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729245879722433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433349741604157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350794697271152,0.10422058490333418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511241737158789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096305886143067,0.15456530253979248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050755348223446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997464690820275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765921329847423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412975799611086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866911699055416,0.0,0.12058645799209865,0.18306265497703575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ffc1,2019/01/15,"Been plateauing for over 2 months Let me preface this with a TW, will be mentioning a few numbers.

I've always been quite thin, typically around a BMI of 19-20 at 5'8 (174cm). Recently relapsed again and got down to a bmi of 17, been restricting below 800 for the past 2 months but have lost nothing, just been bloating up with water weight. It's really frustrating, I kind of want to get below 100lbs(45kg) be in the single digits.. but nope, I'm a weakling and have only gotten to 115lb (52kg). Bagsgh",4.111315417256012,5.0276166237623805,5.3420933521923635,82.46128712871287,70.88118811881188,8.147666195190949,27.299858557284303,8.418075326091056,1.8310214992927865,393,13,78,6,7,131,76,101,0.09699999999999999,0.861,0.042,-0.7308,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,7,0,10,2,0,0,0,10,16,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,7,2,2,1,18,5,2,14,0,1,0,0,1,9,0,0,5,48,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21466080895680556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296577322218195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347843936648033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20633092516232426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26864745040228644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638029904521047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816166715074987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118358509246817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475396702386462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620613035189172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24627199890335566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743944857726764,0.0,0.0,0.16526919649350172,0.0,0.2547250557369339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521638427899159,0.0,0.0,0.3141512851153995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbidiotbabyy,2019/01/15,"DAE keep toxic men around to purposely trigger themselves? Does anyone else do this? 
I feel like I’m constantly involved with some really shitty dude that constantly reminds me of how much more attractive every single girl in the world is than me. My feelings stay hurt, but I guess ultimately I’m kind of seeking these kids of people out because it always throws me into periods of intense restriction and gets me closer and closer to my goal. So I guess all in all I don’t even mind THAT much 
Pls tell me I’m not alone lmao ",3.769313725490196,5.97264161764706,4.679019607843138,81.7022549019608,74.0,7.670588235294117,26.03921568627451,8.515128840125781,2.008462745098039,423,15,76,8,9,137,76,102,0.11199999999999999,0.804,0.084,-0.7201,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,20,12,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,11,3,13,12,7,13,0,1,0,0,5,8,0,3,4,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969980552734711,0.0,0.0,0.15826823781451427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299780957613294,0.1948905054845276,0.0,0.1693253871345416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594899074407207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110944067614816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16645224429211378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889432139257947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563054610573288,0.0,0.1602583874760826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234969245476755,0.13588458561416286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937579464968237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4190709657068111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036215266605591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906555071744564,0.0,0.19807229263301449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292598847711238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19205579053010466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796494332836518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318662315954632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185207267764725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273634901545526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16625011753077792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dortuh,2019/01/15,"I did the thing we all want to do, I outed myself to a stranger who clearly has an ED I'm a server at a restaurant. Almost every week, this TINY  old lady with a BMI just over 13 comes in and orders a glass of Chardonnay that she never finishes, and a HALF order of nachos which we have to ring in special. She never finishes her nachos. It's obvious she has an ED. One time I even said to her ""I wish I could get full that easily"" and she kind of laughed it off. 


 Today, she sits in my section but my coworker took her order cause we were confused on the shift change. I was like ""nachos?"" And she tells me ""No, she wants a side salad with chicken and fat free ranch. She says shes gained 6 pounds and she's upset about it."" 
She was super non-chalant when she told me, probably cause she can tell I have an ED too. My BMI hovers under 17, mostly fat. Thin enough for people to question it.


Well, I took that chance. 
I went up to her and said ""my coworker says you're upset that you gained 6lb, me too! Those holidays screwed me up bad."" And she just started opening up, telling me how she ate too much for the holidays, and has been eating too much ice cream at home, etc. But that her family really wants her to gain weight cause it's so dangerously low. But no more ice cream. I asked her if she had tried Halo Top. Never even heard of it. She's in her 80s and I'm sure she doesn't use the internet like us. I told her about it, and she asked me to write it down for her.  I told her I'd give her a whole list of my favorite snacks. I wrote down some of my safe foods with the calorie counts next to them and set it on her table. When I came back she pretty much started talking to me about everything. Ended up telling me a lot about her life too. Asked me a little about my eating habits. 


I got a 40% tip and a new friend. ",1.5428398268398276,3.0596921324675317,3.0587012987012976,93.91281385281384,78.32467532467533,6.121212121212121,19.71861471861472,6.850034144686104,0.06325108225108211,1401,31,325,14,33,460,196,385,0.061,0.765,0.174,0.9921,0,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,4,1,1,5,20,18,2,3,20,0,16,11,2,5,7,55,44,21,0,6,6,0,2,2,1,0,3,6,1,0,19,23,9,1,1,2,1,5,6,7,1,2,19,10,72,12,45,24,13,53,0,1,2,1,62,26,1,7,19,223,91,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498539593107236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26603494557876023,0.0,0.0,0.0729390338432544,0.07920147647466827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849092364293088,0.0,0.2923322286181435,0.10034593032515028,0.08171074498805504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07573544641190047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412440094535566,0.0,0.0,0.0840149811029764,0.09801244439528213,0.10579042048247718,0.12530406041114667,0.0,0.07992095588279724,0.0,0.08525118689724942,0.0,0.08942256102070653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470123450107075,0.0,0.07328613822827605,0.0,0.04955876959139189,0.09099529823638597,0.0,0.0,0.07586565849105846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514911734017796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877877351967107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700017209466473,0.092684494614087,0.09507144615450858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064387008846192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20919201520838535,0.0,0.2194782651898156,0.09161330084431814,0.10088129648687356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953626834788998,0.0,0.06427743123311791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576177037438735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096503480206666,0.10227168769253936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626133928160728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060767703195260564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046110183390687,0.1508678895452216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428028057979852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940142343275842,0.0,0.0,0.07624231297637317,0.3316361413076149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301865147394085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055311770332899794,0.0,0.08991316717115988,0.2719192487465529,0.2107788184004124,0.06440154929263907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410106632713983,0.08192583025661107,0.0,0.0,0.16784701744595468,0.0,0.07608841351343641,0.1155100433555559,0.08528766650764061,0.08793321574913929,0.0,0.10590424390347808,0.10908065333622724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeybunlover,2019/01/15,"I told my friend I was diagnosed with anorexia ; she said that sucks As a little background, we've known eachother for 7 years. We were best friends up until summer 2018 when she kind of ditched me. We still talk sometimes though. She helped me through my parents divorce, and has usually been there for me. I told her about my anorecia struggles, thinking that maybe it would help us come together since my therapist said maybe having closure between us would help, and all sje said was ""that sucks, hope you're better soon."" 
Idk why I feel so hurt. I thought she would be a bit more sympathetic to my struggle. ",5.7331578947368405,7.138051219298247,4.665745614035089,86.99230263157897,67.50877192982456,7.454385964912281,32.671052631578945,7.645422480735847,2.1065473684210527,485,21,92,5,8,142,84,114,0.11900000000000001,0.688,0.193,0.894,1,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,4,0,0,2,7,11,2,2,2,0,10,1,0,0,1,15,22,7,0,4,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,3,0,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,10,4,22,6,11,8,4,10,0,1,0,0,22,2,2,1,7,60,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990647690546829,0.1179067972510272,0.14554608556535245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483956810509388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353125080220887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740836322839766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059985737115909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680758704813763,0.0,0.0,0.1324124523666282,0.0,0.0,0.14271708631386085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882766202423194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336172350050964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678668390576217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480311754035322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380440938289171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028002590448874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185251806839215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646599486533803,0.0,0.0,0.2787407814850137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715401376918103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478966435579025,0.0,0.08542324099117768,0.13098188104385192,0.1058376794890374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547775007238904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207244574567256,0.0,0.1468282773301942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029657556520434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841106903085453,0.0,0.0,0.08585086297325469
EDAnonymous,tiflis,2019/01/15,"help a girl out Sorry if this is obnoxious. I’m below the weight I should be, in some hellhole state of prolonged quasi-recovery, hating how I feel in my body when I gain weight even though I logically know I need to. My body *feels* big but *looks* grossly twerpy. I don’t even like how I look in the mirror or in pictures. My legs especially make me appear weirdly immature, and persistently chubby cheeks don’t help that situation. I’m 25 but still get mistaken for being a teenager. 

I desperately need to be taken seriously for some upcoming functions and I’m wondering if anyone has tips on how to dress to look, like, bigger? More healthy? Shapely? Older? I feel like I’m playing dress-up in my more suit-like outfits and it’s depressing as shit. Fitted clothes accentuate the weird proportions, but looser stuff somehow makes me look smaller. Googling this has just led me to sad pages of advice for guys trying to look more muscled... And I know this is the opposite of the goal of many people of here but idk where else to ask.

Anyone have any advice on this..? 😞 ",2.2781991869918703,5.000460517073171,3.6280792682926832,84.2647205284553,82.85365853658539,6.538617886178862,24.15142276422764,7.793537801064563,1.5836544715447154,846,32,157,16,24,276,126,205,0.16399999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.107,-0.8927,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,3,12,11,2,0,7,0,11,7,5,6,0,33,35,17,0,5,8,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,0,7,1,0,2,2,7,0,0,1,10,17,4,25,30,6,20,0,2,5,0,5,14,1,8,6,95,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470215246589613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859522600518121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675525917577511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816133606081622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807905000273603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886297436042408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558597562175318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696410119898636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917258253194813,0.09029590496554443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603565274903356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514994010596894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12478791601445274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943847932450218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892568322455073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524918451421613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306956702034774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873796435043176,0.12814368634945428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874391116199359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762569104134936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974163344975678,0.0,0.14207216131582334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148774454607474,0.0,0.0,0.10093841850085328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469090029248302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418147166666528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581323508740157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307827703348721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706891066915505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bowdownpeasantz,2019/01/15,"Have you guys seen the show Binge?? Because I stumbled upon the pilot/maybe stand alone thingy on YouTube and I feel so called out lol

Here’s the link if anyone else wants to watch it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aN9syJfWp8U ",5.796052631578945,9.550654921052633,1.9687368421052616,94.48415789473684,78.73684210526315,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.4834905263157898,189,4,32,1,5,47,35,38,0.053,0.851,0.096,0.3826,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828888308503105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584968452788346,0.37879256059258026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253604658312065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774962864470411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30882975399072954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869270961994635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660526408671847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371404733738411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21805358519649712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FlabbyWhiteThighs,2019/01/15,"So not to jinx myself or anything but... I’ve managed to not binge for two weeks (all year I guess, ha ha). I haven’t even eaten over 2000, even though my TDEE on weekdays is easily 2500. What’s more, it hasn’t even been that hard. Binge eating is a habit that was bestowed to me by my first bout of anorexia eight years ago. Not bingeing has always taken a lot of effort for me. What changed???

One of my New Years resolutions was to drink more water, so I’ve been trying to hit 60 oz a day—which is probably still not enough, but considering the fact that I’m a diet soda addict and given the opportunity will drink that shit like water, I figure it’s a good place to start. Even if I drink a lot of soda that day I will still drink my 60 oz of plain water, even though I fucking hate the stuff. Sometimes I’ll count green tea with stevia, but nothing else with artificial sweeteners like soda or Powerade zero. 

So I’ve been 2 weeks binge-free with not much effort, which is blowing me away right now. The scale is not budging even though I’ve been exercising 20+ hours a week and eating 1000-1500, but I’m trying not to let it get to me because Aunt Flo is in town and it’s not my fault. 

And because I’m drinking water, my skin is clearing up too!! I started using hemp lotion all over my body as well and I don’t feel like a horrible scaly monster anymore. It feels good to like...feel almost healthy and like I have my shit together for once. 

I really hope this continues. Also, happy cake day to me. ",5.048284789644015,4.815293197411002,5.883640776699027,83.45549352750812,68.48220064724919,8.549514563106799,27.19902912621359,7.984000788550335,1.4649106796116511,1174,31,250,13,18,387,164,309,0.066,0.787,0.147,0.9741,2,0,5,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,4,18,17,4,0,12,2,21,24,4,1,4,37,38,21,0,2,15,1,4,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,15,9,17,0,3,6,0,0,11,5,1,5,9,5,24,12,29,25,8,27,0,0,1,1,1,9,3,8,22,153,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768263824187252,0.0,0.0,0.07942939518276765,0.0,0.08972642922293017,0.0,0.0,0.07165705828550689,0.07455850913848253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886404789167468,0.0,0.0,0.07373725150987874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418681440691267,0.0,0.0,0.10924471018779383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953091632772687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479017197193494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336336913259906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388937645766025,0.0,0.1833764985778117,0.07485345055453173,0.0,0.0,0.09258588195369936,0.0,0.3550994065230376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13592088817732978,0.06401380503247983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621793761211627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283834643887368,0.04681489600090069,0.0,0.0,0.1503127870377321,0.0,0.0,0.09870997130498968,0.0,0.0,0.09538615163758164,0.0802684485974307,0.08846635214749557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899794857021777,0.08824284116204703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916271478243616,0.0,0.21888229934022554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235787419376318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586995949081864,0.0,0.0,0.08654103374008977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597838075481605,0.0,0.0,0.09542636353291267,0.0607186434044588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361811717423896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966093077499335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740323516413243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652215067525298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839564182100474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862160176154199,0.0,0.12684571110512266,0.0,0.1431172818892744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257624733736606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26410927003665363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167177907320198,0.0,0.0875310308756141,0.0,0.0,0.07738992018714022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156270945510176,0.0,0.0805656248255246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310797929594515
EDAnonymous,Sushisavage,2019/01/15,"I've been trying to not let my ED control my life for the past year or two. I have a question for all you guys. Obviously I still have an ED... Just trying to not let food or body image control my life.

I feel like because I'm a plus size woman, people think that the best way to compliment me is to ask if I've lost weight...or if I wear a flattering outfit, I get up and downward hand motions and ""you look great"" or just something about how my body looks in general.

In the moment, my ED brain gets all excited and I go ""Oh really? Thank you!"" But I find myself being pissed about it later, because it was the perfect opportunity for me to say, ""Please do not talk about my body. Thank you.""

For those of you who shut those comments down, what is a tactful way to do it? 

By me saying thank you or giving any positive/neutral response, I am letting these people know that it's okay by me to equate my weight with something bad that needs to be shed, or that I only look beautiful when I am thinner, which is NOT true (to me). I am always beautiful and worthy, whether I have lost weight or look thinner or not.

So... What do y'all (who shut down this ignorance) say in these situations?",3.5015133024163987,4.3872466348547725,4.725545521113009,86.43260434464243,72.27800829875518,7.662289480107398,26.20966560898218,7.928766900206844,1.3600776665853065,913,29,196,12,17,302,129,241,0.055,0.738,0.20600000000000002,0.9898,0,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,0,7,0,7,9,18,1,0,9,1,19,12,7,3,5,40,38,19,0,3,18,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,18,6,3,3,5,0,0,2,5,5,0,1,4,11,32,13,27,29,3,19,0,2,4,0,20,9,1,10,7,135,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204828360284208,0.0,0.0,0.06705561862001655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921835153810904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233208433114836,0.1202188867128524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348115620404442,0.0,0.0,0.32858788129495137,0.0,0.11007716514360873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211905460700665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985827331932581,0.07044431132664736,0.0,0.0,0.0901243089845521,0.0,0.11923504626645955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303537204010232,0.09459208213791703,0.0560401936161326,0.0,0.0,0.10871371809331776,0.0,0.09763567181369123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054191405934033404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024946567714765,0.13929699456710773,0.04817402380874515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312175986344709,0.0,0.21528069928950225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311527105677397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499448225301136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941308052814022,0.1367222901699662,0.0,0.0,0.10824003104648483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046154612625486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316967671281461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23524689862705464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108375353943293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182378860303916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874706367256415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925595356268711,0.0,0.2723501087842589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318289145710226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338943167079481,0.0,0.09632395991170273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653807329060998,0.0,0.3602274750655422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349918001001532
EDAnonymous,miracleunicat,2019/01/15,"I can’t lose weight like a normal person anymore I recently hit 122 lbs, which at 5’6 makes my BMI above 19.5, the arbitrary limit I set myself for weight gain in recovery. I’ve been trying to lose weight like a normal person but I just keep gaining. The only way I can lose if if I totally starve myself, which I can’t do because now my family knows about my ED and won’t let me restrict heavily (or at all, but it’s easy to hide a little restriction). I just don’t have any self control unless I go all out. I feel so fat and like none of my clothes look good, I just want to be back to 114, which with ED behaviors would take like a week and a half. Honestly it’s just so frustrating to have to be normal.",5.277799999999999,4.259059413333337,6.4331666666666685,82.33575000000002,68.2,10.166666666666668,28.75,9.516144504307137,2.1655999999999995,552,15,123,10,8,187,93,150,0.13699999999999998,0.6829999999999999,0.18,0.7139,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,7,9,10,1,0,7,0,13,4,1,2,3,31,22,11,0,7,10,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,5,5,4,5,2,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,5,18,6,15,15,4,12,0,3,1,0,3,5,0,3,8,79,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083848093680183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247473721916858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271420955187437,0.0,0.08142868020345975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982050435210464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592664294244107,0.0,0.06754169007259714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591617472565028,0.1120399499906753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873138847046427,0.0,0.0,0.07341167073220818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659384889793444,0.0,0.2610403264309578,0.1338815162221544,0.0,0.0,0.11217293993657006,0.4483230883829956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916519675411541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39263795487928493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015930504661984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332725238900664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189340922261358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393523061168379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043498325545484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906915526702067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878851151063211,0.10602900308079544,0.10714922913407307,0.4879906755030013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09489087739312524,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,highfunctioningmess,2019/01/15,"Trying to mentally prepare myself for yet ANOTHER vacation - can i skip so i don’t eat like shit for 3 days? 3 pounds away from my pre-holiday weight and suddenly a wild friend road trip appears — I’m literally dreaaaading this vacation because 

A. It’s a 10 hour road trip back and forth 
B. all I’m going to be doing is drinking all weekend
C. my brain forgets that i don’t really like to eat much when I’m drunk 
D. We’re going to eat out for every meal and most of the restaurants we’ve planned don’t have calorie counts on MFP. 

Literally, i eat like shit when I’ve been drinking because my brain’s just like “okay, we’ve been eating at a solid deficit and working out ALL week — let’s get our nutrients in while highfunctioningmess is under any sort of influence from alcohol!” 

I’m so fucking anxious/want to bail on this trip so i can stay home and be a hermit and eat all my safe foods. My air b&b deposit and the fact that i offered my car are the only things forcing me to go :( 

Reaaaally not trying to have anxiety this whole week — SOS ",4.6037398921832855,5.2932255330188696,5.566657681940705,82.12349056603773,69.61320754716982,8.698652291105121,31.18059299191375,8.841846274778883,2.4389140161725065,831,34,167,14,14,274,127,212,0.081,0.8190000000000001,0.1,0.4672,0,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,2,8,10,3,0,8,1,16,18,4,1,5,22,26,13,0,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,7,9,13,1,0,4,1,8,4,3,0,0,2,1,15,7,22,21,7,31,0,0,0,1,3,11,3,3,15,92,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571873203404255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732168158449845,0.0,0.0736343307553711,0.11354135675522455,0.08283414849683353,0.1223259409402313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173292509995152,0.08326088240820706,0.0,0.13201335621731494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417532953570741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983184865425425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121469818905085,0.0,0.6647867980158211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123083977242033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093299286624782,0.0,0.08365710670488156,0.10010341112251173,0.05657199814452876,0.0,0.1846146036937863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861398969350236,0.0,0.10663430388462736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072396351384653,0.0,0.2116011797938365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912109485323856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795984941635475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235206273076784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693671457292732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222963850961613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541241406684467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07193663328707267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703045927600195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737118828248685,0.13185625898831793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089111047353215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882936264195528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alyyy30,2019/01/15,DAE b/p when a boy doesn’t text you back 😔 My biggest and most stupid trigger. I just like to think of it as me ‘getting over’ the guy...(until he then responds and the cycle continues lol).,-0.3562499999999993,1.8152458750000025,1.6900000000000013,97.195,90.25,4.2,20.5,5.6839178017228535,-0.13015000000000046,145,5,33,1,5,48,38,40,0.09699999999999999,0.838,0.065,-0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869142477243351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308361756695784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6269965669498364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093638521982017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057477692083856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,witchhere,2019/08/09,"Belle Delphine's weight and height? She actually has a pretty nice body so I was wondering, how much do you think she weighs and how tall is she?",0.8725862068965498,3.434842379310344,1.8857758620689644,94.45556034482763,90.72413793103449,5.658620689655173,17.594827586206893,7.1686216300943375,0.1944413793103448,115,3,25,2,4,36,25,29,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,2,0,6,6,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.3733730133240895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249944191233661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812630105735456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892528022168521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451615940386032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659169593060376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149251635225114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eelboye,2019/08/09,"i hate myself lmao mfw the only thing ive eaten today is a melatonin gummy >>>>>>>

but i still feel like its not enough. ugh im tired of being in this body",6.741176470588236,7.0157925294117645,5.2694117647058825,87.56235294117648,64.88235294117646,6.8000000000000025,22.882352941176467,3.1291,0.1335764705882352,142,2,27,0,2,41,31,34,0.159,0.617,0.22399999999999998,0.3607,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637537193195503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383718362066056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558248241488738,0.23395001801941995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233162701157614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35373193561960203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599889831538549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490614237549122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615239842397873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21756152441728008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763872551366923,0.3104104143363384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imnevergold,2019/08/09,"TW I keep rewatching what a ballerina eats in a day I won't link the video but oof that shit really triggers me hard. Not because of what she eats but just the way she looks. She's so tall and lean and her being a pretty low bmi just plays into my really whack ED brain that says ""yea you could do moderate calorie counting like she does but you could never look like that unless you are below 1000 calories"".",2.8845955249569712,4.656554602409642,3.9619965576592087,87.77590361445783,75.26506024096383,7.152495697074013,21.49569707401033,7.957251820313856,0.8836588640275389,324,8,67,5,7,105,63,83,0.10400000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.145,0.5796,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,3,5,1,0,5,1,6,4,2,1,1,16,9,7,0,2,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,3,2,1,1,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,12,3,5,5,0,8,0,1,2,0,9,5,1,0,4,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465870128182034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465976603897153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527416427495534,0.0,0.0,0.14246234346789752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933112388299617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452072070156029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978831748183679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963462324683571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158413427034871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37100103730234296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703718392526097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22473490123773449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28302862750202684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566869186624834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22675086350669044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534028326863893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pleiades_13,2019/08/09,"my SO caught me purging last night so i sat in my car and panic-binged like 2000 calories, then couldn’t purge any of it and  now i wanna die 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 
eating disorders are so cute and relatable!!! love my life",-0.3449999999999989,1.5626658043478263,2.1066956521739115,96.34482608695652,86.6086956521739,5.419130434782609,17.895652173913042,6.742157984588678,-0.14002086956521742,161,4,39,2,5,55,35,46,0.079,0.6890000000000001,0.23199999999999998,0.8197,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,5,7,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,3,3,2,0,7,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23499850654780835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35864566151982824,0.0,0.39605156857738705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536029618788969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816845416100021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24408533068172306,0.16882736871917145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118891646742412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242927333647554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054503098433946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toothpastedildo,2019/08/09,Better c/s foods? Sometimes when I c/s if the food (especially sweet food) that goes runny or gooey like chocolate I get really scared and purge. Is there any foods that are safer? I feel like I might stop purging if I find a better alternative,2.210000000000001,4.636591666666664,3.395666666666667,87.81600000000002,80.25,6.34,20.016666666666666,7.554174236665415,0.6336616666666663,192,5,39,3,5,62,36,48,0.099,0.589,0.312,0.8902,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,8,5,5,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116572853492559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032176965669984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667612514293879,0.12246392700065513,0.0,0.0,0.15667662283318626,0.0,0.8291367593437948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956093148171147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16749628249429194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18185167608917016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981733701308496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162334916081678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695407633290968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331648643367398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananamind,2019/08/09,"Help! I'm at the airport about to go home after 3 weeks of holidays with family. I can see luggage scales. I'm fighting the urge to run and weigh myself because family thinks I've recovered from ED. Spoiler alert: I have not. I'm sitting next to my family who think I've fully recovered from my ED. I've put on tons of weight (25kg to be precise) in the past couple of years (I'm now 35kg above my lw but I know it was unhealthy then, and it is now too), and my relationship with food is definitely not healthy. Not is my relationship with scales.

I'm compulsively looking at the scales and currently fighting the urge to go and check out how much weight I've put on during those 3 weeks! Like I'm trying to trigger myself ugh",2.3314307692307707,4.095995886666668,4.171333333333333,85.70746153846156,76.8,7.548717948717949,24.871794871794872,8.384062270229773,1.5647641025641024,573,20,121,11,13,194,84,150,0.11,0.81,0.079,-0.7731,1,0,0,0,4,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,5,0,7,4,0,2,1,19,20,8,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,9,4,0,3,1,1,5,3,3,0,0,1,4,10,1,22,18,2,22,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,0,11,64,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896216440226736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17962831343567298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4591247129521566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19630456700730428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18452537718207665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881440738969446,0.0,0.16284224282186302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921890677699118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931209137657244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13632637660037686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934003484645478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17265253780512996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497378959807065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263970587647015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34858906415763485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936553983188798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20804437182065166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021954823313657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604418885986518,0.3953775937031552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454291273832753
EDAnonymous,mungomangotango,2019/08/09,"My weight's dropping again After almost a year of gaining/maintaining with a one or twice daily purging habit, I fell into a restrictive b/ping yellow and my weights dropping again. I mean, I feel like shit, but hey! I'm getting skinnty again.

Seriously though, I break out into sweats everytime I eat, I can't go up the stairs without fainting and my insomnia is ridiculous right now. Planning the time I take my meds with times I purge is becoming a bit of the Olympics and slowly but surely my YouTube feed is becoming food again. 

Moving out of the house across the country is going to be fun!",4.5283333333333315,6.362737271929832,4.876315789473686,82.66254385964915,71.01754385964912,7.522807017543862,31.08771929824561,8.167268648758528,2.3533929824561413,475,21,86,7,9,150,79,114,0.07,0.833,0.09699999999999999,0.6167,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,9,0,6,9,2,0,1,18,13,7,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,5,1,2,0,0,4,2,3,0,2,0,4,13,3,14,12,1,24,0,0,1,0,1,8,1,2,10,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818232554725514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010753233089594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19823518540083115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18579872305926234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181084692345033,0.1297187297766242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195637725070834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486655012587288,0.0,0.20638892184246385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20951561580204472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887094083115183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977907132629002,0.20169124508354566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298774110252795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304135478573465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550658671255794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18638630286355595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113428536129974,0.0,0.13652339560225174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839859706305056,0.0,0.21175815606803225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422240264792591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503386269258028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692971110983845
EDAnonymous,topcoatsandhats,2019/08/09,"I’m at the beach right now and I just want a slice of famous pizza but my fucking goddamn Ed brain is not happy with me today Forced myself to eat cereal today cuz I thought I’d expend a lot of energy on the beach, but it got rained out and after that panic attack I had to leave the house because dinner tonight was fucking steak and potatoes.  Now I’m just in a shopping center with an amazing pizza place in it and I wanna order some but my brain is just not happy with me today after a few days of “binging” (probably honestly just a normal calorie intake tbh but that scale freaked me out with its likely only water weight).  So now I’m just sitting in my car and instead I’m gonna eat a lemon head for dinner and just cry.  Thanks for coming to my rant",2.518461538461537,4.107708146496815,4.2270063694267535,86.2673689367957,75.81528662420382,5.849877511024008,22.268005879470852,6.297961479604792,0.5221596276335129,597,16,117,4,13,201,94,157,0.204,0.7020000000000001,0.094,-0.9669,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,11,11,3,1,10,0,4,13,3,1,0,32,16,12,0,3,12,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,13,8,0,1,3,1,2,2,5,0,0,4,1,12,6,22,11,3,24,0,0,0,2,0,10,2,2,11,80,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238003856384654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236741709148523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33830103415792184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305242167589272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644162613279298,0.09772022582774034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31009306537215564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28016236515379833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118731330736535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32259950849481345,0.0,0.0,0.1555069903215886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17483796034127827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044167825382266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402680679859917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881999767893346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484610158389122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524057178086193,0.0,0.1777803680819959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830997512808898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633681339539095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940037821526135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139502628806702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029286113517022,0.0,0.0,0.4308801390702928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937258084665152,0.0,0.0,0.1845149978620031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taikutsuu,2019/08/09,"I'm a bad anorexic because I didn't eat all day but then had small fries with chicken!! but my sister had multiple pretzels, donuts and sweets and a bigger portion, and she looks so thin!!

seriously guys I'm losing my fucking mind",5.224,6.138104733333333,5.731111111111113,80.69000000000003,68.33333333333334,7.777777777777778,32.77777777777778,7.793537801064563,2.328111111111112,183,8,34,2,3,59,36,45,0.191,0.72,0.08900000000000001,-0.6105,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,8,7,7,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,3,4,1,1,4,2,5,0,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,2,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081239442428749,0.2249567580328909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379932869041642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776089711673444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411615230368679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653968989420557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098915620896536,0.4128492494370013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37261426530618735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,melly_the_elephant,2019/08/09,"Telling people about my ED So, recently I have been super honest about my ED with a psychologist, a counselor and a doctor. 

I was scared to tell anyone because I thought it would instantly lead to loads of questions and judgment and some sort of strict routine I had to start but it's not been like that at all. 
At the moment they're just asking me to keep a diary and to continue to be honest. 

I wanted to post this to let anyone thinking of telling someone that it's not actually a life changing thing. All I have to do now is try to be honest about it and slowly I should get support with it. 

I don't have family to tell and I haven't told friends yet but I think some of my friends know anyway because it's sort of obvious. I feel like now I have told a professional and AVE asked for help that when I tell friends it will be easier for them to be supportive rather than judge. 

Anyway, I hope this helps someone. x",3.9893862520458256,4.8595001808510645,4.925531914893622,85.50653846153848,71.12765957446808,7.9122749590834704,27.759410801964002,8.139509932561175,1.6531288052373156,726,25,152,10,13,237,101,188,0.08800000000000001,0.735,0.177,0.9622,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,12,13,0,1,7,0,20,2,0,1,3,34,36,11,0,5,6,0,1,2,3,3,2,0,0,0,13,9,0,1,6,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,7,1,19,12,27,21,4,12,0,0,0,0,16,2,0,6,10,110,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.12230354777302735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752666507401399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343323951426472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279944330797354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258203059425624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282800903855063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814953214991085,0.0,0.06337037894625018,0.08953544529683745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904878650055498,0.0,0.06547950958139442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16801149180051098,0.0,0.0,0.12448050778572495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139864981318258,0.0,0.0,0.06887783513230185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281579415185649,0.08852395745090688,0.12245936093990425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688771954635241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200310508510257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403977629184395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237477965678107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547672908093288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21238261766092253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870889038722705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844449436238161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5477176913220949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326337451507687,0.16061221169504009,0.0,0.09949765184606306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395154843494224,0.0,0.08509052784668959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392260729148442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903050623224189,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mynameislemons,2019/08/09,There’s a sewer leak outside my work Que me going for a walk outside every few hours so the smell can kill my appetite 🙃,0.2941025641025625,2.495498153846153,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,86.69230769230771,3.466666666666667,20.2051282051282,3.1291,-0.44477948717948745,96,3,20,0,3,32,23,26,0.262,0.738,0.0,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,11,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346984359928394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932183886038186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080931539977528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5708068780958991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756076425060975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,galileo19,2019/08/09,Me: I should eat so I don't binge later Also me: sits on the floor of the kitchen for an hour because every food is too scary / high cal,-2.1020000000000003,-0.3485338666666635,0.12333333333333485,104.86500000000002,104.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,12.666666666666668,3.1291,-1.8411333333333333,104,2,26,0,5,34,27,30,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31819533743118256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425522220175167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40714444772091024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33524248662988304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48113447404266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42039639366934256,0.0,0.0,0.3918450085903519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blaq-gem,2019/08/09,"lose weight before september i’m going into my second year of university, last semester i was extremely underweight as in emaciated and it was humiliating. i’ve since recovered and gotten back to a healthy weight, but i wanna lose 10lbs and no more than that. i’m around 125-120lbs now. 

i’ve done fasting before and it was successful, but are there any other ways of losing weight real fast?",6.258493150684931,7.625175671232878,7.238246575342469,69.17216438356168,66.26027397260273,10.771506849315069,29.668493150684927,10.793553405168565,3.532010410958904,316,11,53,9,5,106,54,73,0.16899999999999998,0.741,0.09,-0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,9,7,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,3,3,1,9,4,1,11,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,34,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592495103381005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517537942317727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108034821786133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29011359071829385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444925157526942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688161610571094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895520943013953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5721345351898071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403135273455727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101394390643704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531057392798426,0.0,0.6227569481484221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977662252378008
EDAnonymous,pussyp0w3r,2019/08/09,"Skinnygossip.com is pure fucking cancer This website. There isn’t enough characters available for me to express my hatred for this website. 

It calls itself a “gossip” website when in reality it’s really a pro-ana breeding ground.

I have seen threads praising a BMI of 14 whilst simultaneously bashing another user for mentioning a model who has publicly talked of her eating disorder.

Comment after comment of calling Bella and Gigi Hadid “chubby”. In what galaxy are they chubby? 

Websites like this are the ground zero of my eating disorder. They are so so dangerous and I don’t understand how they haven’t been banned yet",6.576748216106013,9.159551853211012,7.212232415902142,64.92570846075435,67.1651376146789,8.881141692150868,35.04689092762487,9.444778638647367,4.037500713557594,508,25,68,11,9,167,78,109,0.19699999999999998,0.752,0.051,-0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,3,1,6,5,2,0,5,0,10,4,0,1,1,6,13,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,1,9,2,11,11,1,8,1,0,1,1,15,4,1,0,5,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404762767295116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683504955353698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5256723508083608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693310542648661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369629146830594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120152187943404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204081341500327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691697729392758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18432966157029212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387443666399784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poop7895,2019/08/09,"DAE reverse mirror their photos so they can see what they ACTUALLY look like I never noticed that this might be a strange thing to do, but I reverse mirror my selfies and body pictures because it’s almost like looking at myself through different eyes and notice imperfections that I don’t see when with the original picture. 


Am I crazy??!",9.718494623655914,8.752701387096778,9.028064516129033,67.1454301075269,59.32258064516129,10.847311827956991,43.24731182795699,9.725611199111238,4.489660215053763,274,14,43,4,3,87,51,62,0.023,0.836,0.141,0.8021,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,2,2,1,1,8,10,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,4,8,0,4,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,2,5,33,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.2280320805554001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233990720366441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244547929994053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595590954856035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24413955694730685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283225905305219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924545541896001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24789114814182026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802237662366852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5320787125764179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724157901669061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524259819488045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mourning-gory,2019/08/09,"STOP TOUCHING MY FOOD OMG Due to an excessive fear of carbs and sugar the variety of my diet is kinda bad. Money's also a bit tight right now so that brings down the variety even more.

Which brings me to my issue: my housemate keeps TAKING MY SAFE FOOD AND SNACKS. Sometimes he full-on OPENS UNOPENED packages and helps himself. I only have ONE meal a day and keep some snacks around incase I start feeling dizzy when I take my dog out on walks (my boyfriend lives with me too so I can't start fainting or he'll get worried). I also sub them in for meals if Im too lazy to cook. 

My housemate doesn't have any dietary restrictions and makes TWICE what I make in a year and has better benefits. He's even looking at buying a brand new car right now on top of his regular Amazon purchases so he's not hurting for money. I can't hide my stuff in my room because it's all perishable and I don't have the money or space for a mini fridge rn. 

He's also been helping himself to everyone else's groceries and I don't even remember the last time he bought any himself. He's  drank 80% of any alcohol I buy because I don't go through it fast enough and the stuff I like isn't exactly cheap and is normally reserved for special occasions. He's also why I stopped buying my nice coffee because he takes most of it. 

My boyfriend and our other housemates don't seem to mind it because they all share food together. None of them are on budgets because they all make around the same amount of money as he does so losing snacks and food is not an issue to them. I'm the only one who buys my stuff separate since I eat drastically different from them and I don't touch what I don't consider to be mine. Even still, no one else touches my food. Not even my boyfriend unless he asks and I approve. 

So here I am. Pathetically crying in my room because I'm too much of a chickenshit to say anything to him. I'm done buying snacks and any excess food. Fuck it. I'm only buying what I'm cooking immediately from now on. 🤦🏻‍♀️

/end rant",2.447527443105756,4.245220375903616,3.8619779116465867,87.90635374832667,76.56626506024097,6.731593038821956,25.50368139223561,7.594959193182576,1.2827817938420345,1596,58,331,22,36,526,210,415,0.083,0.835,0.08199999999999999,-0.4762,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,1,0,6,4,25,12,1,1,15,0,22,21,0,3,4,50,49,30,0,2,7,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,15,20,19,7,3,2,14,5,15,5,0,4,4,8,49,7,40,43,12,42,0,2,1,1,29,20,1,7,18,200,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932520335649852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23743456905752544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019053668673501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061081814390067865,0.13215405839999947,0.06939145024375762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061975752494482075,0.27148551000278065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564701647062762,0.08103575450363469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153396363351544,0.04786973982422602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755055063339847,0.0,0.0,0.06495582258882558,0.07595914387914361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595190368690254,0.12401288303010545,0.0,0.06574235615837315,0.0766954767208667,0.0,0.245128430057698,0.0,0.0,0.07092628744192632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352507866585207,0.03753098238849939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385274848397718,0.0,0.0,0.06862089917850454,0.038780110862068784,0.0,0.04218444361650045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950447582424646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946065141553478,0.0,0.08017700213434811,0.1549456762655031,0.0,0.1319512628380318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060504236335496016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03626315792304724,0.0,0.06554306902619328,0.0,0.06233128944064825,0.08304009921563231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486396368871811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494727337492063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05456477637982537,0.0,0.0,0.07168809864480202,0.0,0.0,0.07272588803444603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508927237117454,0.16935704379365735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408378240392278,0.12677748922194118,0.0,0.059027630531673585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675727184896235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06140065582071556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341158124159003,0.0,0.10507533198279377,0.0,0.0592771161751297,0.12411280544564175,0.0,0.0,0.25491362258808675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16742652946786546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043281877318030036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697757433505616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538027984330035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04779922063037588
EDAnonymous,jabbatoluke,2019/08/09,"Who is everyone? So I’m interested, what’s the demographic here? I swear I’m yet to meet anyone my age struggling with an ED (I’m male, early 30s, UK 🇬🇧)",-0.8335294117647081,1.1248812352941189,3.3426470588235304,86.23691176470591,89.58823529411768,6.9294117647058835,20.264705882352946,8.07648339933343,1.0864941176470584,118,4,28,3,4,45,29,34,0.135,0.773,0.092,-0.0981,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44268183760322455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6049590968873675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6618589591064346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonelycatgirl69,2019/08/09,Running a half marathon tomorrow And instead of training I've spent the last two months relapsing into bulimia.  Wish Me luck :____(,3.371363636363636,6.3480838636363695,3.718636363636364,78.19795454545455,96.72727272727272,7.654545454545455,37.31818181818181,8.07648339933343,4.58050909090909,103,7,15,3,4,32,22,22,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309208436875808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219639109617192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5164148761470609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6079221660833644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Im-Real,2019/08/09,"normal day i’m going to try to eat normally today because i’m constantly short of breath, been restricting too much ... it’s kind of scary but at the same time i kind of don’t care and don’t want to do this but idk i’m gonna try i guess but of course i’m TERRIFIED haha that’s all",-1.1657812499999984,0.8046464843750023,1.7268749999999995,96.930625,91.96875,5.7,15.8125,7.1686216300943375,-0.1248999999999998,221,5,55,4,8,77,43,64,0.177,0.6809999999999999,0.141,-0.3603,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,0,1,11,13,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,8,11,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447859051476167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24216064210393376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566675026756395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531764316164164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430354044946301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498428373803953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616476810258417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946671116238377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459960652594814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654252166883003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384959171614329,0.0,0.22513483978747534,0.0,0.0,0.3225118842596868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14009150001937035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mknzngcnb,2019/08/09,Difference between foods in relapse and foods in recovery DEA eat healthier foods like veggies and fruit when they’re relapsed but eat lots of carbs and junk food when they’re in recovery or is that just me?,8.850769230769231,8.312019333333335,7.4457692307692325,76.4117307692308,60.794871794871796,11.902564102564106,40.01282051282049,11.20814326018867,4.431297435897437,170,8,31,4,2,51,28,39,0.0,0.9540000000000001,0.046,0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,0,7,1,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19191906857859933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759255993234469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8884844998974017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974264444890498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616839020304804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annjovi,2019/08/09,"Gosh I am so fat and ugly Just saw some photos of me, plus a video of me in a bikini.... I am jiggly and pale af on my entire body. My cheeks are fat. My nose is big. I am so fkin ugly omg I just want to cry. Haven't felt that bad about myself in a while, was making progress in terms of confidence and self love. Feels like I will never learn to love myself the way I am. My only hope is plastic surgery and weight loss. But I can't even lose weight bc I fucked my relationship with food up so much. :( Sorry for the negativity",-0.6800379266750944,1.399181230088498,1.6552022756005051,97.57170353982302,90.68141592920357,4.290518331226297,13.381163084702909,5.773587663045528,-1.1300589127686471,401,6,97,3,14,135,77,113,0.185,0.621,0.19399999999999998,0.0871,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,3,7,8,1,0,5,0,11,11,5,1,1,17,20,10,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,6,5,0,3,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,6,17,4,14,16,3,10,0,2,1,3,4,6,1,2,4,64,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413942926383018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183605080850997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215938293893481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984187843331652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939877744134896,0.14043964937815864,0.18875146915834048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377101539626488,0.0,0.0,0.1817387409331317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525226919779284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604101289973144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21992721254137676,0.0,0.0,0.35484947156395225,0.0,0.13122134696585344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144511859758225,0.0,0.1516177003577036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951099094534528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21105764724140064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20507998610573827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200596942124839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595033692764894,0.15603922952221194,0.0,0.4787727056246305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Spoonie_Hate,2019/08/09,"Antibiotic: Take 2x a Day WITH FOOD? I do IF and OMAD, but I feel safer posting my question here:  What would you do if you had to take an antibiotic twice a day for five days?   

I can take my evening dose with food, but I don’t like eating in the morning.  Rationally I know it’s only five days, but ... ... ... .... five days without my normal eating schedule sounds like a recipe for total life chaos.

This morning I’m taking my first dose without food to see if it’s even an issue, but I know this antibiotic has made me nauseated in the past. 😬 

Help! Advice needed!",1.2776488095238108,3.5510595625000008,3.1160714285714306,89.34559523809527,82.83928571428572,5.519047619047619,20.94047619047619,6.816661863887847,0.39794404761904856,429,13,91,5,12,143,67,112,0.043,0.831,0.126,0.8639,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,0,7,8,0,1,1,21,18,8,0,6,9,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,3,5,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,2,3,13,2,10,15,1,11,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,4,10,59,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105851844996974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324749450209733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744723116678232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771672955843052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781407045306341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140806684018709,0.4865279093923485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989644161310739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998430547192645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741544683765204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473148160359886,0.13104652155322466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269056567444162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944676805959522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140712502214666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200275229197396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803076874068767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844793220931733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024280972154316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687464994039783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033600594309655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258569855176332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527355086871248,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BigBootySnitches,2019/08/09,"This thread is for my nasty EDers ONLY!!! >!I just pooped out 4 POUNDS and reached a new current lw. My really nasty secret is I'm so happy about it even though my butthole may be permawrecked I think.!<

Tell me your nasty ED story that you're still a little proud of!",4.16,5.5269496296296285,4.097222222222225,89.73250000000004,71.22222222222223,6.881481481481483,22.75925925925927,7.1686216300943375,0.6353481481481476,216,5,44,2,4,66,47,54,0.19,0.6679999999999999,0.142,-0.6149,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,0,0,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,4,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449089018198544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947218815450199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716374935612997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35811948676290417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820089561568385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375430039032033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29612014857031943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240942189140619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375926965756572,0.3643076282129681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nonotseventeen,2019/08/09,"my mom keeps asking me if i’ve been eating and it TrIGgeRiNg me i’ve been eating right and losing weight. on my own BED/BN recovery (i didn’t tell my therapist or psychiatrist so shhh) i finally feel comfortable to wear only a bralette and shorts around the house in the morning. i can finally see my ribs and my spine is more prominent. my mom keeps asking me if i have even been eating knowing FULL WELL that i don’t have a good relationship with food. all i say to her is “mom you ask me this everyday *haha*” without answering the question. i HAVE been eating, i just don’t want to get into that right now because i WILL get triggered and have an episode. 

i know she’s coming from a good place but i don’t like the question :/",0.7318990042674258,3.2051159594594623,2.5965433854907545,90.32057610241822,88.72972972972973,6.088762446657183,21.30298719772404,7.475848149327749,0.989021621621622,574,20,119,11,19,190,90,148,0.035,0.862,0.10300000000000001,0.7402,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,6,7,0,0,8,1,16,9,3,2,1,27,29,10,0,3,6,3,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,9,6,2,6,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,5,4,24,6,10,23,4,14,0,1,1,0,14,9,0,5,5,80,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304935745189367,0.3246549268413979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056513612975382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971545609747542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4737982301530864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645721218543326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058530833884299624,0.0,0.0,0.2536149423160605,0.0,0.0,0.13997529841258646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095778380573464,0.0,0.0,0.19418500467669128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335694432151456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20578244837958254,0.0,0.0,0.1272353801090057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05655361883531201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950383772568946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067238825802674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803934213439021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094270141328164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593513965279113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242810063532898,0.0,0.1977137737857844,0.0,0.09205558227785413,0.0,0.0,0.09224431361090074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011777860235208,0.0,0.0,0.13440421481111545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827719700622398,0.0,0.0,0.14096232580821785,0.1040805412622538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115867926796129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icedvanillachailatte,2019/08/09,"Hello anxiety my old friend... Im sitting in a train right now freaking out and overthinking e v e r y t h i n g 

I‘m going on a trip to my boyfriends parents, and they haven’t seen me in a long time. Since then I have gotten into old habits again and lost some weight. There were comments about that the last time I saw them and since then I have lost even more weight and became even more unstable. 
I don’t even know why the hell I agreed to come along but now here we are, the train is rolling and so are a million thoughts in my head. 

What will I say if there are comments? What the hell am I going to do when I fall apart after that? Do I deny it? Can I? Can I fake being nonchalant about it? Is the girl behind me looking at my screen and judging me? 

And don‘t even get me started on thoughts about food at this point (although I‘ve been doing good with them so far for this trip)

I feel so anxious and sick. A year ago I would have been absolutely exstatic about going on a mini-holiday. So that sucks.



Anyways I hope all of you have a better weekend mentally ❤️",1.6012053571428595,3.318173138392858,2.8431785714285738,94.62682142857143,78.77678571428572,5.73,22.360714285714288,6.508806274219699,0.2908096428571425,829,25,189,7,20,267,134,224,0.16899999999999998,0.773,0.059000000000000004,-0.9741,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,1,3,3,20,11,3,0,12,0,24,5,1,0,1,25,43,19,0,3,2,1,3,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,9,15,3,0,4,1,0,7,3,7,0,1,10,8,28,4,23,30,4,39,2,2,4,0,12,14,3,3,17,131,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355842567229758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663089812212256,0.15746796680826872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327673404477578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006981128465208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682559714506685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047840378878943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854766876343485,0.0,0.10769027730852763,0.0,0.07282410793351425,0.0,0.23765103348748334,0.11691144872790644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305157651965236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844303343991612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056219612121782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660361129715614,0.11361924809866218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335336861753853,0.11705022107868038,0.0,0.30431539326046714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404696077574208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292527034437313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547730942237752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176604645372378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903598717750112,0.0,0.11084637050645302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306052193909491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865904386763026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213158828919444,0.16255570369997624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394723450192767,0.0,0.0,0.12577535221210304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901673419182816,0.0,0.0,0.08976084711838958
EDAnonymous,Siberiayuki,2019/08/09,"Not allowed to eat a thing... Ughh, I only eat low calorie veggies but now I need a carb source!!!!
Tomatoes are bad for GERD
Yellow veggies will turn my skin yellow
And now... I banned myself from eating foods more than 40kcal per 100g
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I want to try chinese yams etc but nope. It is 65kcal
I want to eat a lot of things...but nope...",-0.053623188405797606,2.2403001594202934,1.4231884057971025,98.51420289855074,90.8840579710145,3.066666666666667,16.36231884057971,3.1291,-1.1192202898550727,257,6,56,0,9,82,52,69,0.168,0.79,0.042,-0.8902,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,3,6,1,1,0,10,7,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,7,0,7,6,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539887948782087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8107919151703106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22092538911119364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395341161148012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841107443822895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688300441415586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065819641498607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160378826974367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449173632121708,0.21546764729164095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336800595698735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Unika0,2019/08/09,"Here we go again In two weeks I'm going on a vacation (that I was basically forced to go to because who gives a fuck what I want) and there's no way in hell I'm getting in a swimsuit like this ahahah.

I'm 10kg heavier than last summer cause I'm a fucking idiot.
And I finally managed to stop eating like a pig.
And if I starve myself for the next two weeks, I'm still gonna be disgusting, but at least I'll be a little bit less disgusting.

So, that's fun. I'm here thinking that I can just do this, get back to my lowest weight and then just maintain and chill.
But that's not what's gonna happen, what's gonna happen is me starting the cycle of starving-binging all over again :)

I'm an idiot.
I'm not gonna tell my therapist because I don't want anyone to talk me out of this.",1.3895431893687693,2.6097037848837203,3.6084053156146174,91.0743023255814,78.01162790697674,6.309634551495018,22.75083056478405,6.868970318607317,0.530857475083057,609,18,141,6,14,210,99,172,0.185,0.741,0.07400000000000001,-0.9388,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,0,10,10,7,0,9,0,7,4,0,1,1,20,33,10,0,3,7,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,7,2,1,1,0,0,3,4,7,0,2,1,1,12,3,16,26,4,25,1,0,0,2,5,8,3,1,15,82,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466873812637796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610161546309415,0.0,0.19993899896582654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790394739932666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846748276509976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780727184171956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17964791280289227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032204677828569,0.17136067141409633,0.15731842749402586,0.27960548928281137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900395152989639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367737135569732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023881704182633,0.16436552985140546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440996660778527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607612147933702,0.0,0.13096618603528834,0.1371067101116437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13181253337718346,0.14333838467996388,0.0,0.0,0.1904102056623928,0.0,0.10508102690946776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203975123671032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19345636061007868,0.13017116748269525,0.2630929245015113,0.19970106953500244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,solimba93,2019/08/09,"How does your ED interact with grief (or vice versa)? Lost a family member this week and I hate to say it, but I’m not surprised at how quickly/all consuming ED behaviours have taken over  - to the point where I haven’t felt sadness or grief at all.

Is it possible to ever feel in touch with extreme emotions when living with an eating disorder? Suddenly feel so disconnected and detached from all the crying and sadness around me - I want to feel these emotions and process this alongside my family but the ED thoughts that normally act as a backseat driver have fully taken the wheel. 

Does anyone else have experience with this? How has this affected any of you re: not only deaths but other major losses in life i.e. losing a job, major life changes etc?

💝",6.492973395931145,7.334016309859155,6.767558685446009,74.64449921752737,65.47887323943662,9.691392801251958,31.97496087636933,9.725611199111238,3.1271289514866982,604,23,103,12,9,195,96,142,0.251,0.74,0.009000000000000001,-0.9895,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,3,8,9,1,0,8,0,6,3,0,4,3,30,17,15,3,2,7,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,9,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,8,0,0,5,6,7,1,17,12,5,13,0,7,0,0,4,8,0,2,4,68,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856760485782456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163112594811493,0.16358048777774206,0.0,0.1421225182404912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888873374625007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536823876645907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297295090206767,0.0,0.27942191688928136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633620026177248,0.13336724913248774,0.359169954216676,0.0,0.0,0.17805216514386996,0.0,0.1444127383570208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616852175617502,0.3010079840846059,0.0,0.2421718013206205,0.0,0.1532892203325826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762151162426452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15842818063432434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255313033459948,0.0,0.0,0.14097404402092828,0.0,0.0,0.1786077273502173,0.1742770432588477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642329072402542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142116474832793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092103446905147,0.17998160303332922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269602401696774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674441895095562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941658193400832,0.0,0.128061753669591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,otakufeminist,2019/08/09,"I’m sick of feeling competition to be the skinniest person I keep exercising to lose weight, I try to keep my meals to one a day (+ a protein snack to help muscle recovery). I stopped drinking full fat soda, I’m trying to drink less/low calorie alcohol. I’ve been overdosing on green tea at this point 

I have lost a few pounds. I’m now under 8 stone but I want to be 7 like I used to be..

My boyfriend, who eats like shit all day, drinks full fat cans of coke, doesn’t do any exercise. His diet consists of burgers, pizza, pasta, chicken strips or takeaway food (which is usually burger or pizza) weighs less than me. 

I fucking hate it. I’m trying to look past if but every time I do I just feel guilty and want to starve myself. It’s unfair",2.751754385964912,4.144898736842109,4.332894736842107,86.55859649122809,74.78947368421053,7.171929824561403,25.166666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.2794456140350878,576,19,121,8,12,193,107,152,0.18600000000000005,0.7340000000000001,0.08,-0.9622,0,0,4,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,2,7,3,0,4,0,10,24,3,1,1,16,25,6,0,3,6,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,1,19,3,2,5,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,5,14,2,17,20,5,13,0,2,2,1,4,6,2,3,9,64,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942103774724845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780626879604162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20447829074608365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.465899010407361,0.0,0.16221641794833075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335688982856239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031570585094165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916958744434476,0.0,0.0,0.14655901854702438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565161824510784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625974369631898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28181862681916314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490012221473132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13312580736414353,0.17735523123111352,0.17305491629060865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10742446182735793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15133543027407825,0.0,0.13842283663197585,0.0,0.0,0.14986269274572298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272941981153993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253871031268122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244048878027887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228956870655998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369195696878041,0.17459909862602546,0.0,0.18701095311940766,0.0,0.0,0.1930476063693728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,necosune123,2019/08/09,"im getting fatter im having a breakdown . im sobbing so bad. i tried to workout for my ass because im flat in the wrong places ,and fat in other areas. i just couldnt do some of the workouts n from nowhere i started crying and shouting how fat i am n that i did this to myself.i want to die right now ,because im getting fatter.",-0.6833333333333336,1.4069228888888932,2.1161111111111133,94.14,90.94444444444444,3.2,24.66666666666667,3.1291,0.12635000000000085,256,12,55,0,9,89,49,72,0.243,0.7040000000000001,0.053,-0.9407,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,5,3,3,1,0,7,9,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,6,0,8,7,1,7,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360697478869749,0.19508897286707766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577045514010597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166071715963995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720388492943675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8642256262843231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718303604701826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665309515812935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326040157712546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864060312621496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438179365015707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749527673522563,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jazzcatss,2019/08/09,DAE lose weight and then gain some back but see themselves as fatter than before... okay this is a little tricky for me to explain but basically the lowest ive gotten down to was 69kg (lmao) and i stayed there for a little while before i gained weight back to around 72kg which is where my weight had been at for months. but now that ive gained that weight back i feel like i look fatter than what i remember being at this weight... and its making me super depressed. does this happen to anyone else?,3.377400000000001,4.99882654,3.5630000000000024,91.78150000000002,73.6,5.8000000000000025,17.5,5.985473137389443,-0.4309000000000003,394,5,82,2,8,121,65,100,0.102,0.723,0.175,0.8401,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,7,5,0,0,3,1,8,5,0,1,0,12,15,9,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,8,10,3,14,10,1,15,0,2,2,0,1,7,0,1,8,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889992588879875,0.1304165129313594,0.0,0.1133088884239799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936183960206591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216616979149618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10962869318400004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113862433483178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632864473872523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435812789084727,0.0909310270034104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255596918398857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06218406252143883,0.2551420828819849,0.0,0.0,0.10688569395540012,0.1423971605663582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496241550879005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015961057134092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418686847792375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014281010297759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356667818029227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7749822435547142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yamasukas,2019/08/09,"I feel like garbage I was having a sort of okay day today. It was right before bed, literally about to climb in, talking to my fiance. I ate sort of normally. I didn't exercise until I hurt. 

But of course I had to ruin it somehow, I said something as a joke and didn't notice it upset him and I trampled all over his feelings like the dumb fucking idiot I am. He's the only good thing in my life. Without him I'd probably be dead. And I can't even treat him right? I can't even notice that I said something that hurt him? I feel like I never deserve to eat again. I don't feel like I'm worth the money we spend on groceries. I don't feel like I'm worth kindness.

I'm so tired of feeling worthless. I'm so tired of this disease. I don't know who I am anymore. I just want to be free.",0.011578947368420243,1.922112175438599,2.4682163742690086,94.28723684210527,85.14035087719299,4.735672514619883,21.195906432748533,5.82211442006289,0.024920467836257117,606,20,139,4,18,208,94,171,0.14800000000000002,0.626,0.226,0.7863,0,0,2,0,0,1,19.0,1,0,0,1,8,19,3,1,5,1,15,7,0,0,2,21,31,8,1,2,3,0,6,5,0,0,4,2,1,0,8,4,2,0,7,2,5,1,9,8,0,0,8,8,27,12,18,21,1,12,0,4,0,1,11,6,2,3,10,86,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213332856079532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410651581543157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890235207592625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518939663231646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616153316333114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711676057208209,0.4370161765715249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310590712692567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261711430481237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26194553457748376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274034072665476,0.06723756845179975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641583518553662,0.29885774022748723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435994465135072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987204534218568,0.0,0.2785810046991069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304882475520652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190851652288407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896378644676045,0.2327560713044953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837419334045005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833621237601294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128052852897825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28123497581681633,0.11596867877136813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216220368061077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179361370191908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway768433,2019/08/09,"i think i’ve developed some disordered habits (tw numbers? sorry not sure but better to be safe than sorry) I just want some opinions. I eat at least 1100 calories everyday but I try to starve until the last moment when I can’t go any longer without eating. I eat comfortably in front of my family and friends but the moment I finish my meal I feel absolutely like shit and when I see food all I can think about is the calories in it. I weigh myself every morning in hoping that the number hasn’t increased from yesterday. Often when I eat, I eat to the point where I’m uncomfortably full, especially when I’m at parties where copious amounts of food are laid out in front of me. The few times I have tried to restrict, I ruin it by having a large dinner. I feel so shitty when I look in the mirror and when I go to the gym I don’t even time my workout by minutes, I count by the amount of calories I’ve burnt. I absolutely wish I was at a lower weight but I keep losing 1 or 2 pounds and than going back up 1 or 2. In all honesty, I know these are unhealthy habits but I feel so invalid because a) I eat a normal amount of calories everyday and b) I haven’t been diagnosed.",2.5647107438016548,4.155712619834713,4.293462809917358,85.83201239669422,75.69421487603306,6.988760330578513,24.909917355371903,7.734863291789972,1.2816737190082643,922,31,190,13,20,311,134,242,0.183,0.69,0.127,-0.9477,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,15,10,1,0,13,0,13,14,1,0,3,36,30,21,0,4,10,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,12,3,6,2,0,6,6,3,0,0,2,6,32,7,30,27,11,38,0,2,2,0,1,15,1,7,18,126,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639247545848091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637961193877584,0.0,0.06847911138438174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993522494714007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11401888921628175,0.0,0.0,0.12874702983138198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6896879299584225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741970077087111,0.0,0.09464810254777606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590058179464762,0.0,0.17040169038774086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716747838034963,0.0,0.0867906777357927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915297720136612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157520437639228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984958561990503,0.0,0.0,0.06173704356282623,0.09156900504641192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054881798233791766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943341244023205,0.12567548529936245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100656352640234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619402939710926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951741572100826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531150598342893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25150238158709026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587554915371353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396101577658835,0.0,0.0,0.13100829570268413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15253782626484808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625880761011009,0.0,0.0,0.1367952410985611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12918109836031025,0.10828809840148723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,koicartel,2019/08/09,"Just once I’d love for people to realise I mean it when I ask them not to mention my food/weight/etc 😂🤠🥴 So many comments are made with the absolute purest of intentions that just make me feel vile and set me up in the perfect position to relapse, I’ve been trying so hard but every time something like this happens it just breaks me  

My bf just told me that I was the one that made him realise he found “really skinny” girls less attractive than “thicc af” girls haHAA welp thanks pal I’ll think about that next time I’m bent doggy style over the toilet 🙃 

I really don’t know how to convey how much that kind of thing truly does hurt me, I wish people would stop ahah",2.320659472422065,4.064474201438848,3.2742625899280604,92.21892386091127,76.76978417266187,6.359952038369305,20.216426858513188,7.1686216300943375,0.3113016786570739,530,12,115,6,12,169,103,139,0.077,0.767,0.155,0.9096,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,10,8,1,0,4,0,5,2,1,6,1,23,20,7,0,2,6,0,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,9,2,1,1,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,6,2,14,6,13,13,2,11,0,1,0,1,12,4,0,0,6,60,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082762610141274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505472318524588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918622625323112,0.0,0.0,0.14494521667922056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698505048666681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20802297851032533,0.18862529775254447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521282079343602,0.0,0.15410777138149576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416487752800564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791458894975277,0.09454483413263724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404663086327374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526649317880448,0.3255635559171183,0.11483335896649513,0.17441445368271322,0.0,0.1873943630354722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264640445342355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295904017481826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832095234436652,0.1165740085908228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23853203332810555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22041748148388948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243940310698038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382728562734354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838486698030926,0.0,0.0,0.11429107662473242,0.11023179579625177,0.0,0.0,0.20062764383275147,0.0,0.0,0.1643848975255796,0.0,0.11679910999047922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20948984002831492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978294523468483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220730265845005,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,delicateradar,2019/08/09,"opinons on therapist’s question? Okay so today my therapist asked me: “can I let you know when you’re looking too skinny and I’m worried?” I wanted to scream because I guess I don’t look too skinny right now and also this means he is regularly looking at my body and judging whether or not I look sick enough to be worried about?? Would anyone else feel super weird about this, or is it sweet and helpful and I’m just a complete mess?

He also told me today to be grateful for my “health.” I was like ok let’s talk about “health,” my BMI (trigger warning please do not read further if BMI is a trigger for you) has been fluctuating between 15.9-16.3, how is that “healthy?” I had told him that I eat under 500 cal per day, use laxatives, diet pills, and adderall, left treatment against medical advice, and can’t get through a day without walking 10,000 steps and absolutely hating how I look. He goes: “well I mean at least you don’t have cancer!” I’m sorry but isn’t AN literally the most deadly psych disorder?? I also struggle with chronic pain which I guess he forgot, as well as disability-level depression soooooo I guess I am the picture of health??? Should I change therapists?",4.115175438596491,5.846960868421058,4.772807017543864,83.40464912280704,71.89473684210526,7.171929824561403,30.21052631578948,7.793537801064563,2.026857894736843,930,40,175,12,18,298,146,228,0.147,0.754,0.099,-0.9318,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,0,1,16,14,1,1,6,2,22,14,3,5,0,36,45,22,1,4,9,0,1,1,0,2,9,1,0,0,6,9,4,1,5,1,0,2,7,7,2,0,6,8,25,7,20,33,3,15,0,1,5,0,14,7,0,8,7,110,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934280515793028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22937555461823236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685206681477047,0.09796276446761956,0.0,0.0,0.08938155017390127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058282386010956824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620009473163436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114169159159099,0.0,0.10024426393915696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331984810464633,0.0,0.08234792978194055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957624797841883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978319211710797,0.07986908825098858,0.0,0.0,0.09878970069881347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834280554231876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04995177954332021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31597242415701043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439413727178654,0.0,0.30488382971886785,0.0,0.0,0.06408472706054097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052544230369854714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387950641007886,0.19553345107154207,0.0,0.046709749659029964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.401437587409729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20829255604879188,0.0,0.09631605357830976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173476410325964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495001981439492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710401080447247,0.0,0.09563491749269228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164960145671214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702649749684752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995133208016553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076846928224185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330284085919037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18125238950063016,0.18271707818095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257551681816831,0.0,0.0,0.056392691489260675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719280260700365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216370691497304,0.0,0.0,0.19419125097598824,0.0,0.06791792193273839,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smytx,2019/08/09,"eating disorders don't fit into a box hi. i've been discussing this idea with my therapist, and would always love other people's input. i'm at the the worst point in re: to body image as i ever have been in my whole life. i've recently started skipping meals and going to sleep hungry, and really my body is all i think about. long story short, it's consuming my entire life. i keep repeating to my therapist, who is an eating disorder specialist, that i don't have an eating disorder - i just think i'm fat. i don't own a scale or count calories...everything i'd associate with an eating disorder. but she tells me that im clearly in intense emotional pain. i'm getting to the point where i would want to tell a friend about this issue im having, but i'm not sure if its appropriate to call it an eating disorder...

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i'm not sure if this post made sense but i would rlly like other people's input?",3.082572463768116,4.731390663043476,5.034217391304349,80.81802898550725,74.43478260869566,8.384927536231885,24.766666666666666,9.029198982220553,2.0273453623188407,718,23,138,16,15,247,104,184,0.106,0.79,0.10400000000000001,0.1303,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,10,0,13,14,4,1,5,29,27,10,0,6,9,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,0,11,6,7,1,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,15,5,16,21,4,17,0,0,0,1,9,10,0,3,6,83,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703868150520156,0.10031651807181956,0.1125017043378392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056835806266144,0.0,0.0,0.0945403050382654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5305559070541367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4736911934235401,0.0,0.10414639973097133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374902520994981,0.0,0.0,0.08321001639252705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153144707146131,0.0,0.048372183193923855,0.0,0.05261856114359378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451793447316053,0.2000167894814221,0.09663536888895706,0.0,0.08229438385791107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079197184711716,0.04523267415306857,0.0,0.0,0.08193539081594693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356216805729726,0.08760678500527658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851766426310593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283744705501789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504673984108846,0.0,0.0886714640632371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931274112474549,0.0,0.09141716429598046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265251884749147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553260285809975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745217674991713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618478859879158,0.0,0.0,0.21499816204703107,0.0,0.11865029803921005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0546094178917341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336857693099068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973105778362828,0.0,0.1125017043378392,0.0
EDAnonymous,bravegeorge,2019/08/09,"Fasting and bordom Fasting is so fucking boring... like ... all I’m doing is eating to go to sleep to wake up and hopefully weight less than i did yesterday. If I cave and eat I’ll hate myself and have to fast longer. And like... all I’ve got to look forward to tomorrow is a boring salad and maybe a smoothie before I fast again. 

Some days it’s so easy and I’m so fucking manic with the energy and obsession to fast. I write down all these numbers and my weight and workout, clean he whole house, I’m fucking super woman. I’m better than everyone because I’m secretly not eating and that makes me feel on top of the world.

But when I’m starting to go back down again towards my depressive state all I want to do is give up and not eat. I’ve got no motivation. No idea of what the future could hold. 

Just wish fasting wasn’t so boring.",1.510393296853625,3.5977945058139547,3.38030095759234,88.848146374829,80.68604651162791,6.140082079343365,22.326949384404926,7.285733465282438,0.8461473324213404,653,21,135,9,17,219,100,172,0.096,0.743,0.16,0.8974,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,9,14,4,1,5,0,10,12,2,2,4,34,32,19,0,5,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,13,7,1,4,1,0,3,5,9,0,0,4,4,9,5,20,27,7,27,0,1,1,3,5,9,3,3,18,82,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594101840969763,0.0,0.08398679546042118,0.0,0.11723698354885145,0.0,0.0,0.1218514213487644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000269539945176,0.0,0.0,0.08885393656522597,0.0,0.1186660191620289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639157979119688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316505973985373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966353986095132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821142779370136,0.0,0.1321670175447277,0.15660222474169194,0.0,0.22038364643373648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602499215145475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368423695777102,0.0,0.15897467393027062,0.0,0.15553200912541548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462050746799972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569689867387213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196635783933436,0.0,0.13841422136961473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378752123213961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751835832878557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812636847894453,0.0,0.0,0.3355474012977389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382166258404725,0.15843526976336333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mydepressionreddit,2019/08/09,"Feeling gross AF for getting validation from a creepy PM So I posted a selfie in a sub on my main account cuz I was feeling shitty and dysphoric (I’m nonbinary/transgender). Some guy messaged me telling me I looked twink-ish and that I was cute. Then he sent me the link to a sorta NSFW sub for masculine people and said I should post there. I really should’ve blocked him at that point but I just didn’t respond to his second message. 

But yet here I am, still relishing in the fact that twink = skinny and thus I *clearly* have to get even skinnier now. I feel super gross for accepting a compliment and getting validation from this guy, especially when I’m in a relationship. What the^fuck is wrong with me lmao",2.747019527235356,5.2038981366906505,4.241855087358687,82.33447841726621,78.42446043165471,7.424665981500514,27.194758478931146,8.418075326091056,2.1777909558067834,567,24,107,12,14,188,95,139,0.1,0.718,0.182,0.9155,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,0,0,8,0,7,1,1,2,2,22,18,11,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,6,1,1,5,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,5,5,17,4,14,12,2,14,0,0,1,0,12,6,0,2,5,72,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487928876254486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327314196312637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027864957338477,0.3438055845974315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4343840186249078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18419962302389498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520703876370074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735762701216928,0.0,0.4201553113994485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052188875245095,0.0,0.0,0.2355009199588423,0.0,0.0,0.20865306357363514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17517401856092524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19172247141453336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23982592063920535,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleBlackHeart8,2019/08/09,I wish I had the balls to delete everything in my phone. I just looked at old pictures of myself... pre-recovery. I can’t help it but sometimes ugh god damn it all I want to go back. I looked so much better back then... it makes me want to not eat anything and start chipping away at all this weight I’ve gained back. I just keep looking at them and I can’t stop. Now I feel like I look inflated and horrifyingly overweight. The numbers don’t lie.. I’m not overweight... I’m not.. I’m “healthy” now. I hate it. I was so much happier with my body when I was 115. I hate this so much.,-0.8869870875179338,1.2391178048780525,1.1423338115734083,99.75946915351507,94.52845528455285,4.5201339072214255,18.61740793878527,6.2272716619740125,-0.2736328072692493,442,14,108,5,17,145,73,123,0.207,0.591,0.20199999999999999,-0.6823,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,2,11,6,3,0,2,0,6,5,1,1,2,19,23,9,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,4,2,1,1,0,1,6,4,0,0,3,6,19,2,10,20,5,16,0,0,4,0,3,5,1,0,11,67,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807162358188254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622109970881467,0.35901349862376475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764358617459402,0.0,0.17287172751450774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925007658086315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987173148643015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869206075678943,0.11118331337675942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844907830278992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073081548307617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431664399402317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833260057918587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603378448702475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5227657048716691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388536432570986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432216071736188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330928291118632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392372497783066,0.0,0.1101569141308112,0.0,0.0,0.1301150650111524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359121094149605,0.0,0.0,0.18951747601692928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896876758089358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Georgie_Shrinks,2019/08/09,"why the heck does binging make me poop?? as someone who restricts and only feels comfortable eating packaged foods (and therefore has, like, *no* fibre in my diet) I am basically always constipated. And yet somehow, without fail, every time I binge (I'm talking 3000+ calories) I inevitably get the urge to go to the bathroom at the point where I start to feel physically sick from eating, and it's super effortless???

Can anybody tell me why this is?? I cannot for the life of me figure it out.",2.8196774193548397,5.4855351075268866,4.150978494623658,81.8664677419355,79.64516129032259,5.870537634408603,27.57956989247312,7.1686216300943375,1.7353363440860217,387,17,67,5,10,127,73,93,0.057999999999999996,0.8029999999999999,0.139,0.8364,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,5,0,5,7,1,2,0,13,12,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,4,1,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,9,3,11,12,0,9,0,1,0,0,3,5,1,1,4,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966231810340956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994697037251157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4664740779802321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204723375924776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305041685003427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27562301465719713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190879726525816,0.0,0.1295421739673227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609990467461805,0.11135878322772078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521500980719131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733567933964489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21547467977150986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931307635440374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133538537491873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320758480406196,0.19922748310880592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329122302082812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113564073665939,0.0,0.0,0.21972368370044515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emeco6747,2019/08/09,"Mum doesn’t respect or believe my binging even though she has binge eating disorder because mine is one the other side of spectrum ( AN-BP) That’s it, she almost mocks me if I express anything to do my eating disorder. the only reason she wants me to get help now is because when I have out of control binges I eat some of her food, which isn’t good but damn lol u didn’t care when I was puking up my own food

Tw bc high and don’t know what is triggering anymore lol",4.423197278911566,4.467170367346942,5.349387755102043,85.80156462585038,69.81632653061224,7.757823129251701,29.59863945578231,7.1686216300943375,1.5661374149659864,368,13,78,3,6,121,73,98,0.12,0.715,0.165,0.6953,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,2,2,11,5,0,3,0,12,15,7,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,14,3,7,13,2,7,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,4,3,51,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694269982310165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16779859641506922,0.0,0.0,0.1392352430529082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628262464060207,0.0,0.0,0.1906278026764369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250827277324668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18976954302531965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878303133816163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193942849819723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175344700897144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091889214003073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839878473513157,0.0,0.0,0.14191495484717634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340961311141062,0.17876659870238787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298659931644178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465270130295074,0.12868243131934082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17396335612872918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662358245124493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979715319792776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,melissuhnicole,2019/08/09,"Just binged hate myself Seriously, taking antibiotics that need to be taken with food is ruining my entire week. I have zero control and I can’t stand myself. Literally all I need is two crackers, instead I had chips and dip. I suck.",2.7734090909090905,5.5591058863636365,4.737454545454547,76.77118181818186,81.04545454545455,7.156363636363636,24.70909090909091,8.238735603445708,2.114996363636364,185,7,31,4,5,63,36,44,0.233,0.767,0.0,-0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,1,8,12,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,8,0,2,9,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951330966736533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260011460740125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478221599545107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5224502399419019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648848775387058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441447678484724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825928726981112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckyorchickenstrips,2019/08/09,"considering becoming a psychiatrist and specifically treating eating disorders? hey all! I'm currently in med school and looking into what kind of doctor I want to be when I graduate. I've been really considering psych for the past year now and got curious what you guys thought about it. Part of me feels weird because I also struggle with my relationship with food (binging and restricting) but I also feel like I've gotten so much perspective reading all your guys' posts for so long. 

I'm currently doing my psych rotation too and the resident today commented on how the highest rate of death due to a psych condition is actually anorexia nervosa. I guess part of me feels hesitant because I also don't always have the best relationship with food so I just wanted to hear what you thought of someone from this community going into psych to specifically help people with eating disorders.",8.055660377358487,9.222962522012581,8.57074842767296,61.93423584905664,62.144654088050316,12.397735849056605,38.54150943396226,11.979248473330829,5.399140377358491,727,36,109,24,10,242,102,159,0.067,0.8370000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.7043,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,1,12,6,0,1,6,0,6,5,0,1,2,25,21,14,1,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,5,11,4,1,5,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,5,14,4,21,15,6,15,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,1,10,75,19,8,0.0,0.0,0.12213178566785035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002556834260113,0.10413775768561154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15258485301578387,0.13822223428285627,0.0,0.0,0.1313409019251003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868735622571269,0.12809993487261964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561265990265844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18984414630842167,0.08940970244757289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026722756525559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112763176985486,0.0,0.10009670601737923,0.0,0.13787071645732615,0.24784333044728984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105711726359674,0.0,0.08388776891573195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032813594995865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06114369000599312,0.0,0.0,0.1107569302583515,0.10509743931624396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901735115856764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200224038111086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271058140422269,0.11947319993427127,0.08676569514154114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986248022199505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518739217416186,0.0,0.0801765521194844,0.0,0.0,0.2687360944390568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666204776717452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604217462226913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308376368746874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987158363103137,0.0,0.0,0.11863090679538235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763758196920165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059476604199126
EDAnonymous,morepancakethanhuman,2019/08/09,"I [18F] am afraid I might be developing disordered eating **TW: Disordered thoughts, quite explicit. Please proceed with caution.** 

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Not quite sure if this is the right place to post. A part of me feels that by doing so not only am I treading on other's territory, but I'm also invalidating others in a sense? I'm not quite sure how that works, but the thought's still there nonetheless. 

I've never been diagnosed. I'll start there, I suppose. However, I've engaged in unhealthy eating for a while, with disordered thoughts, etc. I tried to seek help from my GP. They merely looked me up and down, shook their head, and told me I couldn't be sick as I wasn't underweight. 

Boy, this made me seethe, I have to admit. 

I suppose it's more so about my thoughts as opposed to behaviours? 

I was raised in a family predominantly female. Health wouldn't be praised, no. It was more, ""I lost this amount."" In some sick, twisted way it felt like a competition between my sisters and my mum. But we were never raised on healthy foods. It was always, always junk and little exercise.

One of my sisters developed an eating disorder around 2015. She would frequently purge, though not discreetly. I have emetophobia, so a part of me would always be envious, which is so twisted, when she did it. I was envious because whenever I'd binge, I'd have no means to get rid of it, i.e. no motivation to work out, no laxatives, etc. Every binge equated to this sense of hopelessness. 

I watch people's journey with anorexia. And I hate myself for admitting this, I truly do, but I envy that sort of willpower. I shouldn't, though, and I genuinely am ecstatic when I hear about people recovering. I've tried restricting but always cave and binge.

Yesterday I joked with my sister when talking about ordering Chinese that I had no willpower. She laughed and said, ""You really don't,"" and it hit me, hard, because she knows I struggle immensely with my self-image. 

I genuinely feel trapped in my skin. I'm at a crossroad of where I use food to cope, but now I'm craving control. I want to feel my bones, as fucked as that sounds, and thinking and typing all of this makes me feel awful. I can't help but think that if I lost X amounts, I'd be better; more desirable, healthier, **better**. 

God, I'm scared. But no-one is taking me seriously. My family don't handle mental health well, and so I'm just very, very depressed right now, and terrified too, because these aren't normal thoughts.",2.9630529864686324,5.4711250492505386,4.07739760353547,83.52708916123744,77.95074946466809,7.571898491958632,26.6385256731514,8.529434386809921,2.1581049615016625,1926,78,362,42,47,625,238,467,0.16699999999999998,0.698,0.136,-0.9676,3,1,0,0,1,1,103.0,1,1,2,12,25,23,4,4,10,1,35,15,3,6,6,77,73,40,0,10,15,4,7,1,0,5,6,3,0,1,23,21,5,3,17,2,0,2,19,13,1,1,20,12,55,10,46,41,11,35,1,4,2,1,22,17,1,5,14,235,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619012184928886,0.2576305907672855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890738173646789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155717879702553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13691789956567085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681694569628358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666931708158283,0.07856503957063411,0.0,0.0,0.3548540268311868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376157138567993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17265537740911993,0.0,0.0,0.06521754397945499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459421935512343,0.0,0.15655435855394004,0.0,0.07432150057789674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18719828167574573,0.0,0.0,0.07156021619072589,0.040441223452508515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934020030403215,0.07642199002548977,0.07944046189410983,0.16455703477022698,0.0872417201507782,0.0,0.10376666419664822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04254008527733296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037816459005896814,0.07758073151508255,0.0,0.0,0.06500119644623847,0.0,0.16899468003261076,0.0,0.0,0.07324303627460206,0.051668829163781495,0.0,0.0,0.08431737447269573,0.0,0.0,0.07800662386129611,0.08211509355993123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193999183688634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584103870264819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05245202778204735,0.058870435549430465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676454112352172,0.0,0.10732657296661748,0.0,0.08087236156145004,0.08496808805336564,0.0,0.0,0.07413315371080653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24699110360356344,0.0,0.0,0.04958799994183282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220789359288082,0.07363043719530274,0.0,0.07749649426656283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807509068609503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05478807158618819,0.0,0.06181620030394215,0.0,0.0,0.08092112417184928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14590769592651506,0.0,0.05819936680231502,0.0622156772864909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919674695007688,0.15210118883564644,0.30725694167766565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739643537713903,0.0,0.10510662258587396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685357274316539,0.0,0.1277354286643565,0.04565581964157545,0.061440950572845876,0.0,0.0,0.06959691710299476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270437579657792,0.0,0.0,0.10997341365705963,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SubBiscuit,2019/08/09,"I GOT DIAGNOSED Holy shit this feels so good. This is the first time I've ever told a professional about any of my disordered habits and I was terrified they'd brush me off because I'm a normal weight.

They were VERY supportive and helpful. They said I didnt have anything to prove and they believed me and all this stuff. It feels so good to not keep it all on the inside and tell myself I'm ""not that sick"".

I start therapy in 2 weeks and while I'm not ready for full recovery I'm ready to finally start to even work on things. It's the first step.

Celebrating anorexia - partial remission with Trader Joe's vegan queso fiesta dip and vegan banana bread.

I totally understand some people arent ready for this (I was fucking terrified and shaking) but it feels so good to reach out and start the process. We all deserve to be heard and we all deserve help. Seriously this sub has helped me SO MUCH to not feel alone and to feel like I was worthy of help. Thank you all a million <3",3.809306260575294,5.256832705583762,4.746213197969542,84.4264940778342,72.1979695431472,8.705109983079527,26.331302876480546,9.21078282632365,2.04662937394247,781,26,160,17,15,254,117,197,0.067,0.743,0.19,0.9795,1,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,1,4,3,7,11,2,1,7,0,11,6,1,0,8,37,32,17,0,1,5,0,6,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,12,15,2,1,7,0,0,2,6,4,0,3,9,9,19,7,19,21,9,18,0,0,0,1,15,6,2,1,11,102,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020046474578973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920549092799112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139636295105024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251910084369912,0.0,0.0,0.15251342569521958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373957112923459,0.0,0.0,0.15514350176578987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940931384241457,0.1224481422955606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422307423090046,0.09670695494149993,0.0,0.14828907126293767,0.0,0.23028797162265616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514557184075856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340620868791045,0.1082661878255477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629373755463994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032133388415615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06613398672066748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951108516740913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326319380051014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384715462442204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876600516594594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895334793809247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28744258669223505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549640194687631,0.0,0.15361404779508867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831763369186955,0.12462870411391593,0.15480515137005552,0.0,0.08993251087110178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893419282099924,0.0,0.0,0.1293499634473213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409229038218335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169281002393773,0.0,0.0,0.10858407654584,0.16484180455829978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854954546550414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,suicidalretarded,2019/02/11,"I feel embarresed I was at my class and my stomach start to make noises, it was loud and people could hear because were doing a test. I didn't care much about it until someone said something ""Someone don't have food at home, who made that noise? Let's buy food for them"" What is wrong with people? I waited for 30 minutes for the break (hoping they didn't notice me) and went straight to the cafeteria and bought some awful food and now I just feel sick wanting to throw up.",6.612526315789473,5.79001572631579,6.104210526315789,85.13947368421054,65.42105263157895,8.442105263157895,29.52631578947368,6.742157984588678,1.4240105263157892,374,10,77,2,5,115,70,95,0.131,0.848,0.02,-0.8882,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,3,1,11,6,1,2,0,16,24,6,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,6,4,1,2,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,9,5,10,2,12,13,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,3,50,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625756219863974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17772033447721858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391720946649707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17627242185328482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6323278658458013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19645967623859764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484681999147614,0.1731288414696692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17824345622400484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493603253548214,0.1163530640111224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813767010935012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19845272441785555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241688767030023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658084208758754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953840500652893,0.1341921065968071,0.0,0.0,0.123377287689388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281236465408818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158681840834238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19058026997171915,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BasketCaseSensitive,2019/02/11,"Someone downvoted my binge food comment in a different sub. Posting here for accountability. Normally this would be on 🍑 will probably delete later. 

Two different trips to Wendy's, wine, baked potatoes, NY strip, the occasional green leaf, girl scout cookies, chocolate covered blueberries, frosted shredded wheat, chips n guac, a home made burger, saltines with peanut butter, PBJ, frozen pizza. There was also popcorn and cheesy crackers And a trip to subway. And random handfuls of mini marshmallows and a Snickers.

This was ~72 hour binge. God it's worse than I thought 😔 I have a shame.",5.0620666666666665,8.519216140000001,4.416,78.24466666666667,77.6,6.933333333333335,32.333333333333336,8.07648339933343,3.0836333333333332,474,24,70,9,12,142,86,100,0.066,0.9109999999999999,0.023,-0.6249,2,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,0,6,5,1,1,0,10,8,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,5,4,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,4,3,3,0,8,1,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,34,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19853628544789492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5187651762187521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30020129159816944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490286006440545,0.0,0.2444896053627816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23491299058281834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432455850649148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23776787153183776,0.0,0.26767011595623513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21035291532301925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709354149715905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24251743160079264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25300178530426,0.1763593155117435,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eprj,2019/02/11,"I’m getting my teeth professionally whitened today In an attempt to prevent myself from going down the binge/purge cycle further. I’m hoping before I binge I’ll mentally remind myself that I just got my teeth whitened, and don’t want to ruin them. Hoping it works. ",5.073,7.115572900000001,5.805,75.70750000000002,70.0,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.8406,215,8,34,2,4,70,38,50,0.076,0.763,0.161,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,9,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,2,5,8,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,19,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885299731117815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17715399568008014,0.0,0.19270555385424806,0.0,0.2711912472283381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6735609194236389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34171036202131777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214058169714665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999966911251416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468524539872029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Itotsight,2019/02/11,"B/p, c/s and the shame vent (weight numbers) Feeling like trash since i ate my already chewed food from my c/s bag. Gross. And it happened twice today. I have been having hard time for a log time now, but i have been dealing it okayish. 

I was doing pretty well today morning. So I go to the store and bought ice cream and chocolate to eat when i get home. Binged on them, some of the chocolate i chewed and spitted to a bag. Couldn't stand the feeling having those sugary foods inside me so i purged. Then i continued with my day. After few hours i eat the chocolate from my spitting bag. I feel so low after that..

Later in evening i have a brain fuck and think about ordering a pizza. Then i start ordering it because i think its a great idea. When i start paying it i feel like i want to cancel it but i couldn't. I thought about throwing it to trash when i get it. Couldn't do it. I start to eat it and spit it to a bag. I eat about half of it. Then i go to purge it because why the fuck not? I felt disgusting. I almost choked at my vomit and i started to cry. Purged anyway. When i got out from the bathroom i started to eat the pizza from the spitting bag. Felt super low. I wanted to go to cut myself and cried. Called hysterically to my mom because else i would do something stupid like cutting deep and shit. She listened to me and calmed me down. I was so embarrassed and covered in shame when i told everythig.

I'm human trash. I shouldn't exist. Oh god. I feel so fat. I don't even understand how my moms scale can say that i'm 59 kg because i'm disgusting piece of lard. I felt like i betrayed myself today. Or should i say i betray myself everyday. I can't take this. I will be obese again. Fuck this. I can't recover because i'm like this.

Short back story: 5-6 years ago i was almost 100kg. In 4 years i lost 52 kg and i was 48 kg. Then i started to recover in december 2017. Now i have gained 11kg slowly and gradually. I have tried to listen myself and eat normally, but sometimes i binge. Usually i don't compensate in anyway, but sometimes i feel like i need to get rid of it and the feeling gets so intense so i go to purge. Usually my mirror triggers me to purge or a look down to my body.
And my doctor doesn't know why my periods haven't started again since i have been in healthy weight since summer. They have been missing almost 1,5 years now. 

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EDAnonymous,thoughtsandfigures4,2019/02/11,"Purging healthy foods and keeping the unhealthy ? I only noticed today with my binges I find it a lot easier to purge the healthy foods and much harder to get rid of the unhealthy food. Maybe I feel I don’t deserve nourishment in some messed up way and keeping the sugar and carbs is punishment for failing or motivation to exercise. For example I would start with a big spinach or kale salad and avocado for dinner, then get triggered by the fat content and purge it all but later go into full binge mode getting through half a jar of PB J or cookies
I am the lowest weight I’ve been since childhood and I thought the urges had gone  ..
Anyone else having difficulty keeping motivated ?
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EDAnonymous,abbiwan,2019/02/11,"I need to break up with my mirror. I don’t know what to do anymore. Any time I’m in front of any mirror anywhere, I body check. Even in my reflection in windows as I walk through town, or in the mirrors at work, and i can’t stop. And then the whole day becomes about hiding myself or obsessing about food and calories and It fuels more behaviors and it’s getting to the point where I can’t stop myself anymore. Any mirror around me or any reflective surface for me to criticize and scrutinize and hate myself in and it just never ends. It’s so bad that I am exercising at work now while I have down time because I’m so ashamed of how I look and I need to do SOMETHING and restricting obviously isn’t enough. I don’t know how to stop doing it, I would love some advice, because I’m losing myself to this again. ",4.211208492106697,4.783893964071861,5.3105498094719685,84.02904735982581,70.437125748503,8.228415895481763,28.95427327163854,8.296473431620573,1.8882502994011967,640,23,133,9,11,212,92,167,0.185,0.79,0.025,-0.975,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,12,6,1,2,3,0,11,4,1,2,2,32,22,20,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,12,1,4,4,1,1,2,6,5,0,0,0,1,20,1,25,21,4,29,0,1,1,1,1,14,0,4,12,96,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916962907588105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152339928389264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30277924905015263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589251784315545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274579252981825,0.18611031175218745,0.16859198409953075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695618015269707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844781994543526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520423686515914,0.15773017590172975,0.0,0.10082511262622122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458723283173525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975429541985597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507121063294176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778693811667222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281891145084987,0.17077838245726934,0.0,0.0,0.13777426192337902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22637883717429466,0.1177345237079659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430534741010492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751885831300507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828713661793837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780250521833595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704303481328066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222647416428048,0.0,0.0,0.10843950024700744,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jakisaur,2019/02/11,great peach advertising i'd never heard of peach before but holy cannoli yall makin me so excited to sign up with all these posts about it.,1.0782142857142851,3.7018403928571466,2.732857142857142,87.93714285714289,91.5,7.085714285714286,17.714285714285715,8.07648339933343,1.0721857142857143,113,3,23,3,4,37,26,28,0.0,0.7809999999999999,0.21899999999999997,0.7733,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580125952042283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5934244546598118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151329318302509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5154963900513881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,reddotm,2019/02/11,"Send help lol sos I’m at work rn and fasting n my boss just suggested we all get lunch and everyone is pressuring ME to pick where from and what.. I literally stuttered to say noo I’m so indecisive haha I can’t pick and they were like cmon what do you like, you can think of something, look up all the restaurants nearby 🙃 I felt too bad to say I’m fasting and just don’t want to eat anything and I know they’ll think somethings up but omf they just decided on pizza from a place where you make your own individual one ahhh How do I avoid eating this?!? I’m here for 5 more hours fml",-0.08241935483870932,2.1938329354838717,2.087338709677418,93.90100806451612,90.61290322580645,5.358064516129033,19.04032258064516,6.9077264865688965,0.208541935483872,460,14,105,7,16,154,86,124,0.085,0.821,0.095,-0.278,0,1,2,0,0,0,7.0,1,4,3,1,9,8,0,3,2,2,8,4,0,5,2,26,20,9,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,7,4,1,5,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,2,4,15,3,12,17,4,11,0,0,1,0,13,7,0,1,5,60,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818922931714831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845543040070962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452346285725157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112076269798804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21222747134597625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548123389230898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815454869200456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217674139003965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214746023566638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597226664357996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561303860905765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475420285593337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977847778363335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309336687567965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515504961696417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34032581423125474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832595494879237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303716835561465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609155123278545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OodietcokeheadoO,2019/02/11,"Anorexia is a horrific and completely valid disease, but... Bulimia is worse, and binge eating and obesity are even worse than that.

Hear me out! I know they all suck I know they're all valid and everyone with them are sick. I've been binging and purging for about 14 years. I've relapsed and restricted  and fasted the only thing I've never been is underweight. My highest BMI was 48 my lowest was 20.2 and I sure didn't get there healthily.

I've never been that sick, and my worst wasn't as bad or scary and maybe my situation is very different from a lot of y'all's.

 In my experience though and probably only because of my massive gains and b/p behaviors the only time my head is ever nice to me is when I am restricting and fasting. I believe in myself I tell myself I can do it, I tell myself everything will be ok and there is something I'm capable of and can do right. When I fuck up and I b/p or gain my head is a chaotic warzone and I'm horrified and disgusted.

I don't know what an Anorexics mind is like but I do know they are capable of getting to a point where people outside the Ed community take them seriously. I don't mean to invalidate anyone's illness or say that they don't go through anything hard but I would take the intense restriction or pain of fasting over b/p any day I could. I've never gotten underweight so maybe I don't know what you go through but I have gone long periods without food and have done crazy stuff to avoid eating and if I really had a choice I would take it over b/ps it's so disgusting and shameful. the powerful happy feelings I get restriction and fasting vanish immediately with b/ps

And lastly no anorexic wishes they could be bulimic. I rest my case.",3.4575845410628037,4.9769975797101464,5.126666666666665,81.06555555555558,73.20289855072464,8.705314009661837,29.299516908212556,9.250403328903447,2.60283574879227,1355,57,268,31,27,460,177,345,0.193,0.723,0.084,-0.9887,3,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,6,3,11,15,4,2,11,1,40,11,2,0,7,62,63,38,0,6,10,0,2,1,0,3,5,2,0,0,10,26,4,5,7,0,0,3,11,10,0,0,11,4,43,5,25,45,5,28,0,0,0,1,12,9,2,6,17,180,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261591367100527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466496304731925,0.0,0.08787308290881883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915911375038656,0.06509375708420463,0.0,0.0,0.12030756252529573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195965389463733,0.0,0.0,0.17051463134616324,0.0,0.0,0.06886602270088732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156521844480866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092758002430954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185307688190431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052898173657139,0.09659108677270507,0.0,0.10203546831465013,0.0959694264330842,0.10445399351699527,0.0,0.0,0.05399255343027742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912209303903088,0.0,0.0,0.09871890714122136,0.16736869710028782,0.0,0.12137416507319372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113672194712593,0.09565634593281967,0.0,0.21917976212030252,0.0,0.1203518900425185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934249609503641,0.08704217169927955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05216864486634613,0.0,0.0,0.09449934998310144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078285287760084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21455519652679084,0.11631769024812395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078201103360675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24707225777609135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24363921895699894,0.1136243464759916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402969523064515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094418887194974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512983649161596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840774695998063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119186236208944,0.0,0.0849179076197235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002825516099346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220655743165615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222406707896387,0.0,0.0,0.100641453115299,0.0,0.2408619562463065,0.0,0.18666561384144167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094169661039254,0.0,0.10491348360879824,0.0,0.062265864758513326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810693002486306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279486206146392,0.10293473484038984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176414357658732,0.1517107659635799,0.0,0.0,0.06876457288264383
EDAnonymous,naggingforce,2019/02/11,"weird dream last night so last night i dreamt that everyone in my grade was taking formal photos for publishing in a school book. i dressed up as if for prom and for some reason i had to have my picture with my sister, and my mom was the photographer.

true to real life, my sister criticized my every move and after hours i left the set and ran to the cafeteria where one of my friends was (who has disordered eating in reality too). i saw how beautiful she was and immediately gorged myself on the buffet of food, and when my friend said i should head back to the shoot i promptly made myself throw up twice. 

i have “recovered”, but only from the purging part of my disorder. for the last month ive been only restricting, but the feeling of being able to quickly get rid of everything inside me in the dream is suddenly really appealing to me again, purely on how quick and easy it was (even though i know the consequences arent pretty).

another thing about this scene that disturbed me was that it made me realize my disorder started not only from my dad forcing me to eat too much as a kid, but also from the ever present insults, sometimes about weight though mostly my general appearance, from my sister.

the good thing is that my sister hasnt lived with me for about two years, but she still comes over sometimes. shes moving far out of state in a week though and i hope that helps me to reform my relationship with food.

thanks for listening to my rambling",8.85463180947167,7.144933444839857,8.50334519572954,72.59716397481522,61.52669039145908,12.062523952915411,35.138516287982476,10.891193690592663,3.608843197372023,1162,38,218,24,13,373,160,281,0.075,0.815,0.11,0.8641,1,0,0,1,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,21,9,1,1,15,0,19,8,1,5,3,38,34,23,0,3,6,6,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,11,13,6,1,4,3,0,6,3,3,0,3,13,5,39,6,45,19,4,42,0,0,1,0,18,14,0,5,20,166,50,6,0.10328630815386176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825980233143279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830469979843216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942079548700204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897200887981142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551251723512449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211375357392998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682196324192536,0.09342837897790554,0.08702316932157138,0.09869449367851052,0.09282707382909501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05222466080891264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497884276063437,0.0,0.15959749093381675,0.0,0.05396283302523349,0.0,0.0,0.08663165489376032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600155026648596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06923063517359873,0.0,0.0,0.10258660914659684,0.10171620808915452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05676345379104796,0.2525763797559289,0.0,0.0,0.11222087602082974,0.0,0.07295417398809467,0.0,0.0,0.09120370239274604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954640042672749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096767578735505,0.08244214575955366,0.2195539994911748,0.07592732076802121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385440679199892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998947547572178,0.2356616748309304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184900655337962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507930749053088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756243092965638,0.06616785380043763,0.10619552709250113,0.0,0.11089084113547723,0.0,0.0,0.09824893138089777,0.0,0.0,0.10453125804452898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430559957646044,0.0,0.07310658052301391,0.0,0.08248457911203733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765844959205445,0.0,0.0,0.09509215559493499,0.0,0.0,0.13723766731909876,0.0,0.3044348200438176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089571497876326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828500462669612,0.12577489783798074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06651299607645496
EDAnonymous,umsooooyeah,2019/02/11,"Being aware that you have an ED When I started restricting I was always like to myself “this is the ultimate challenge, if you don’t eat from morning till 3pm you’ll become skinny if not you’ll stay fat forever” it’s kinda just been forever now. The worst thing is that one day I decided I wanted to become skinny so I’m going to try be anorexic and I’ve just been in that mindset and I know it’s all my fault because I wanted to be anorexic (idk if I can classify as Ana because I’ve only lost 3.5kg and I don’t think that’s enough, buttt i most definitely have a Ed cause I restrict and purge)",0.5463504464285691,2.690974148437501,3.094464285714285,89.16125000000002,84.859375,5.8446428571428575,21.642857142857146,7.1686216300943375,0.7784513392857138,473,16,100,7,14,164,82,128,0.121,0.821,0.057999999999999996,-0.818,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,2,5,5,0,0,4,0,15,4,3,1,1,21,23,11,0,5,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,4,4,2,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,4,0,16,2,8,14,4,8,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,5,6,67,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569899503410104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867423214811615,0.5195032607132939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416074770405789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167970098025327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406606361850357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430167161608785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366531377158153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925564332473133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490317203654116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567403890197573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937252007032796,0.17887448908813827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647045705777133,0.2506839041558397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625144166714802,0.15070185284260226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968026429022972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774452519696368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ahlome08,2019/02/11,"Therapist says I don’t have BED just severe anxiety So this might sound a bit rambly, I apologize.  So I finally went and saw a therapist for what I thought (still think) was BED.  She says I just have severe anxiety and eat to make it go away.  Is that not similar or the same as Binge eating?  Like I HATE that I feel like shit after I eat so much that I can’t breathe.  My stomach is currently in my chest because i couldn’t stop eating or drinking yesterday because of all the stress.  Like yes, I know I have horrible anxiety, but wouldn’t eating continuously without being able to stop until you feel physically ill be considered an eating disorder?  Maybe she’s right and I just use it as an excuse and have self control but no motivation to stop?  Idk I feel crazy.  Like I feel so sick.  Spent half the night using the restroom and tried to throw up this morning because I felt so ill, that I thought if my stomach just didn’t feel so distended that I might be able to sleep.  I seriously can’t even lay on my side without feeling like I can’t breathe or like my stomach isn’t laying on top of my diaphragm.  ",4.534189189189192,5.37514386036036,5.596414414414415,81.2994864864865,69.85585585585585,9.163243243243244,31.016216216216225,9.3871,2.6645600000000007,875,36,177,18,15,290,118,222,0.21899999999999997,0.6759999999999999,0.105,-0.9741,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,3,12,10,2,1,8,1,20,18,8,5,1,43,39,20,0,3,13,0,7,6,0,3,3,3,2,1,10,5,7,4,12,1,1,3,12,4,0,1,8,11,29,6,19,24,4,22,0,0,1,0,8,8,1,6,17,115,39,1,0.18005835907469722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20661622777611288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458537775470434,0.0,0.0,0.16464285667600329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828854670171576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097538018765548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318123951213087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819432147998679,0.0,0.5527339588561122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059463423999004436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731287494895481,0.128633727700325,0.08644213081653522,0.09862256559163543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05116565745433183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888517599452223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04947768260727769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639022574346184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060095176429216364,0.0,0.09044641158945577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19101346459171506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618180585011511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844862862519235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688442741381601,0.0,0.1431896341495481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392006889193592,0.203414694180145,0.09241365904101476,0.0,0.0,0.0900941975341136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189741907395877,0.2258052759990857,0.1031281209831866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906163288253676,0.0,0.0576870630285917,0.0,0.14294622439142868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061123903235306774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551261036664604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345795139487541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356983275048055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crashbandiclit,2019/02/11,"The broth was a bad idea. Don’t have broth and nothing else for a day lol I had less than 200 calories yesterday, and I burned all that off and then some, but I’m up 0.2 pounds because the broth I drank had so much sodium. I think I had about 3,200 mg of sodium yesterday just from broth and a little bit of those tiny oyster crackers lmao",1.3536820925553317,3.3936925774647904,2.160080482897385,97.64140845070429,80.97183098591547,5.183903420523139,18.593561368209254,6.1826913282559595,-0.3474241448692159,267,6,61,2,7,83,52,71,0.033,0.8590000000000001,0.107,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,1,6,1,0,0,1,10,9,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,5,0,8,4,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,38,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043772831901823,0.22222137592575594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3979853701538995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350993859415592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045280040822909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115234648360249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653667807408413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679802620202114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497878119381663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23358374808613003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thingsarestranger,2019/02/11,B/p 4 times today bc I miss peach and I’m stressed I don’t feel like I can rant the same on reddit and I miss the certain faves I had. Anyone else fuck up and b/p today? ,-3.6821602787456453,-2.3522718292682896,-0.06668989547038251,105.9729268292683,108.75609756097559,2.342857142857143,10.735191637630662,3.1291,-2.1342222996515683,129,2,36,0,7,46,29,41,0.287,0.599,0.115,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,8,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,5,2,2,7,1,5,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287672595515577,0.3352278281454803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733114070008563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654287095355242,0.2337327536846108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30246655098870706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984040483658873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747760424991399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077744986474532,0.0,0.6202442857618486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pineapple513,2019/02/11,"boyfriend said i broke the car because of my weight so for context i just started dating this guy two months ago and on a date a week ago, his car basically broke down (long, awful, but sort of cute? story). today I texted him about his car and he goes ""you weigh too much that's why it happened."" 

so that shit hurt really bad and I just don't know how to feel. he immediately backtracked and apologized a lot and said it was a joke. he said I was gorgeous and he wasn't serious, but not once mentioned that I was skinny and that. kills. me. I b/pd after because i just can't help the feeling that he does think I'm fat and I feel SO PATHETIC that I'm letting his words affect me like that. like if I were skinny enough he wouldn't even think about making a joke like that, if that makes any sense? 

he has no clue about my ed and not planning on letting him know now, but is this even a relationship I should go forward with? he's always been so caring and gentle so it really surprised me. I don't think he realized how insensitive it was, but I'm afraid justifying it will make me lose what little self-respect I have (which is already a pretty fucking small amount).

it's such a new relationship but my friends who know him tell me that it's his sense of humor and he won't do it again because he realized I was hurt. they also don't know about my ed, so im unsure if my ed is causing me to overreact. I kind of wanted to vent and get another perspective, because I don't know how to emotionally deal with this. ",2.3984615384615395,3.9579030254777092,3.926369426751595,88.42278294953456,76.07006369426752,6.996374326310632,23.86036256736893,7.748469712250963,1.0229558059774622,1186,37,259,17,26,394,155,314,0.16399999999999998,0.685,0.15,-0.7129,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,1,2,23,23,3,1,10,1,25,7,4,8,0,54,52,30,1,6,13,0,4,3,1,4,1,3,0,1,24,14,5,0,13,2,0,5,11,11,0,1,11,7,36,12,19,35,4,23,0,5,0,1,33,6,2,5,17,160,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18782936055837476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691397542037894,0.08472492712736257,0.08815550630495775,0.0,0.0,0.07204686984865763,0.11109355199764576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846043159766295,0.2583346380989439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10801894316982376,0.10883566091826012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922560844237883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271400297237736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917491860893795,0.0,0.10947047351979196,0.0,0.13995258369274094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070834641337525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185356771565715,0.09794531108743992,0.055352379054522206,0.0,0.06021151722772791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490313391348627,0.09368764173911548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101332797932347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268346324597021,0.0,0.11443979181443015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721348152081487,0.1103263894459425,0.2911255798242394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21667379621910196,0.0,0.15527949908728791,0.106185661351044,0.0,0.0937588198622882,0.0,0.11852640300223233,0.0,0.09007144653436946,0.0,0.0,0.2121592058560422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456503571665919,0.0,0.07788245360988665,0.0,0.0,0.10232324564513576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282896465190895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778510565378893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357433596221085,0.0,0.0,0.22749257324334785,0.0,0.0,0.3023365409088619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052471770080652,0.0,0.10875198131465304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498907914263102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260141824135744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20365763456454936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042435985164426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349378539614534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248965830158704,0.0,0.08498343968540553,0.12901360863348768,0.0,0.0,0.09559972883864756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway794797,2019/02/11,"i just need to vent. i just took my first laxative hi, i’m using a throwaway because my bf and a couple of my friends know my reddit account. i’ve been lurking on this sub for a long time. i’ve been restricting for a little over a month now and today, i binged on tons of snacks and cookies and i felt so horrible about myself that i took my first laxative ever. i hope this doesn’t become a regular thing but it probably will, knowing my personality. i hate myself for eating so much today. my life is just going downhill.

BUT i’m really thankful that this community exists. in the future i’ll post more instead of just lurking. you guys seem like very supportive people.",2.1954135338345857,4.6483588796992485,4.173646616541357,82.06016917293233,80.50375939849624,6.807518796992482,24.53759398496241,7.957251820313856,1.7091894736842104,533,20,98,10,14,181,86,133,0.095,0.784,0.121,0.6579,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,10,6,1,0,7,0,5,3,0,1,1,19,20,8,0,2,6,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,2,7,4,2,1,4,0,1,3,1,1,0,2,5,1,17,5,12,14,3,19,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,11,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266475473121396,0.18600210309973447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863489632936168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233148605179188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523418016863474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170565194068154,0.0,0.0,0.28650891590506233,0.0,0.0,0.1301176878988123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571462338412944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675819538592165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662758101435767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727496545756765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851139218098383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895711375356192,0.08227948991997673,0.16879695202780073,0.0,0.1490427503781072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344279453127297,0.0,0.12380504691998324,0.12487823794407894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675836276970628,0.14705424667860065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612958546048233,0.0,0.1815807990675139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789152259680436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533194881050007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111634008256348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550547110851268,0.0,0.0,0.11188802442760606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820465156574727,0.0,0.3192771158859281,0.0,0.3742324697595196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454572429369438,0.0,0.138960735503739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quietcasserole,2019/02/11,"Fucked up thought Got dumped recently but in the back of my mind I keep thinking about how skinny I’m about to get from being too depressed to eat. I’ve been taking the break up really badly. As much as I want to be skinnier, I can’t let another thing defeat me. It’s hard juggling two sources of sadness and stress at once. ",3.3367164179104485,4.545245358208955,4.253910447761196,88.43101492537315,73.02985074626865,7.151044776119402,26.832835820895525,7.554174236665415,1.3386143283582093,257,9,54,3,5,83,56,67,0.33799999999999997,0.644,0.018000000000000002,-0.9783,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,2,1,2,0,5,3,1,1,0,8,14,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,3,1,5,0,14,8,1,7,0,3,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251933975178259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847454150752339,0.20060739599770805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069359280711606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458463674330505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22211686572820044,0.12552614116681673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921581878642167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152261239603866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21355448035022606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456825343004568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24259451065495016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661903667452178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255869481791392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539169626801314,0.0,0.23722815702742056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752174732637984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18064591793633267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961833205871875,0.15394916125085706,0.0,0.19073991804826407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23469949688573355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171180721436952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dinerdrive,2019/02/11,"two types of anorexics?? (i'm using anorexic loosely to mean anyone with a restrictive ED)

is it just me or are there (at least) 2 primary types of anorexics? i don't mean in the sense of restriction or b/p subtypes. from what i've observed, there's

1) people who develop their ED knowing it's disordered from the get go. maybe they found a pro ana forum out of curiosity, or something like that. either way, they knew immediately that they wanted to be small and were willing to do things that they knew were unhealthy from the start

2) people who slipped into an ED from conventional dieting, wanting to ""get healthier,"" ""eat cleaner,"" etc. these people are more likely to be in denial or not even realize that they have an ED for a long time

i definitely fall into the first category, and it makes me feel like shit because i feel like only the second category is valid. people talk about how no one chooses to have an ED, that it just happens and before you know it you've got a full blown eating disorder. and it's like,,, welp. i know that i didn't *really* choose to end up like this, but i was definitely very aware of how disordered the way i chose to eat was. the compulsions and addiction-type feelings didn't come until later, but still

can anyone else relate?",6.544489795918365,6.507886122448982,7.225204081632652,74.43086734693881,65.3265306122449,10.591836734693876,32.193877551020414,10.290406445055957,3.185122448979591,1000,36,188,22,14,332,144,245,0.040999999999999995,0.902,0.057,0.594,0,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,6,1,9,7,1,0,14,0,18,5,1,4,0,42,41,14,0,2,10,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,18,10,4,2,14,0,0,3,5,1,0,4,10,3,16,6,28,28,5,22,1,0,0,0,10,9,1,4,14,124,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010388791775818,0.11730541933650578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979018781373023,0.0,0.09741997007666887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986203781450688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39363592243289736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514462234657376,0.09563916392338476,0.0,0.10140146448839232,0.0,0.12768322297921653,0.07561755692391696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17366413984527654,0.1635790133255329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738254917022243,0.0,0.1255290416915794,0.0,0.0,0.1196294220110682,0.0,0.06506557737353552,0.0,0.091565680005813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124044008831767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875711636191467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355952723853666,0.0,0.0,0.10131735636436967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642093439767582,0.0,0.1150175387990473,0.2494197235527432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757932662748855,0.08707249159497626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317483369549958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334327779045442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175192185905471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813765466408531,0.0,0.0,0.08103445911637189,0.0,0.09142943365654177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202028126758346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606004864428638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675826669921077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183712371678896,0.0,0.0,0.09887997424251636,0.0,0.09446373153990938,0.13505474980442167,0.18174883886665014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mthrowawayacc,2019/02/11,"reminiscing on a breakup + ED twisting thoughts For some reason, I’ve been reminiscing on a breakup from months ago. I went through my snapchat memories to look at how my life was back then and holy shit was I thin. My body dysmorphia was so bad that I couldn’t see how gaunt I looked. I came across videos and photos of my ex and I.  I started wondering if the reason why we broke up was because I was fat. I started thinking he loved me way more when I was skinnier.  I know for a fact we didn’t break up because of my weight but now my ED is latching onto every single problem and twisting it around. Reasons to relapse are everywhere now and I can’t escape. I can never escape this disorder. ",3.403564935064935,4.931896850000001,4.29220779220779,86.95824675324678,73.35714285714286,7.090909090909091,29.87012987012988,7.686295010490155,1.8279285714285711,549,24,112,7,11,177,94,140,0.11,0.841,0.049,-0.8455,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,0,8,5,1,0,4,0,13,6,3,5,2,25,25,12,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,9,2,0,7,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,11,5,22,1,16,13,3,23,0,1,3,1,5,9,1,3,10,77,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504552790280492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510955592677415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051178471846964,0.14171734258586996,0.20693149325665275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18853161041385352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412574206593528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945251230395126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430047265375808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327909164881748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988521887074598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850606678883274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318782438073547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547675408086898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309061307209584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240855247816904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.523531690345353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525272256854678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422526110835734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402713354913344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875604021122086,0.0,0.13474654898145147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472366174425,0.0,0.20668524268690494,0.0,0.1573412796790943,0.15315479789385086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840647918188856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meimeiya,2019/02/11,"Suffocated by the expectation to be a beautiful and feminine daughter I feel so suffocated by my mom’s fantasy expectation of me to be her thin, pretty, feminine daughter 

It was never this bad when I was younger and smaller; my older sister was overweight since middle school, so I’m sure there was a lot of hardship pushed onto her by my mom that I didn’t see. I still suffered in silence from my own eating habits and various other things, but most of the time I wasn’t overtly insulted by her or other people for the way I looked. 

But I gained enough weight in college to be noticeable and eventually her appearance-related criticism came for me too. She started bringing up my weight at frequent, random times. It really felt like she would just be looking at me, and no matter what was happening, all she could see was a human container for fat.  

For a really, really long time, almost every time she called me, like a broken record she would tell me to get an office job (I’m a freelancer), exercise more, and think about my future marriage to my hypothetical husband. Repeat, repeat, repeat. (Last month, she asked me if I wanted to visit my dad’s old medical school in China with him this summer. “Why?” “You can look for a husband there from the current students, and he can take over the family business.” I can’t make this up. Am I in Pride and Prejudice or something?) 

My sister’s still overweight on paper but she’s a healthy and strong 28-year-old person with a good job and a long term relationship. All other aspects of her life are probably satisfactory to my mom except for her appearance, disinterest in femininity, and lack of desire to have children. It honestly feels like now she gave up on making my sister into the ideal daughter she wanted and started focusing on me instead. 

It’s not like I don’t want to be thin or pretty, or feminine by my own definition of the word. I feel like that's the whole fucking problem. I know so many people who are happy with the way they are, even if they're not skinny. If I were like that then I could just brush her off and be confident by myself, but instead all I can do is pretend I don't care on the surface while silently agreeing with her.

I couldn’t take it anymore after my trip back home last holiday and I snapped. Something in my brain just switched, and now I’m back to the same habits I had when I was a kid. Part of me feels disgusted and weak for bending to her will, and the other part just wants to use more drastic weight loss against her as part of revenge for all of the insults used against me for not being up to her standard. 

I just needed to get this off my chest. It's not something I can talk honestly about to anyone around me.",6.511581600504093,6.396363387523634,7.102122873345937,75.55077725267803,65.40831758034027,10.002293635790801,33.51235034656585,9.642632912329526,3.0744086452425963,2148,84,402,39,30,709,248,529,0.11199999999999999,0.738,0.15,0.9769,3,0,3,0,0,1,55.0,0,1,1,5,26,25,5,0,25,0,38,15,4,4,6,88,76,36,0,19,21,12,10,6,0,3,7,0,1,4,20,24,8,1,7,4,0,6,12,10,0,0,14,16,72,15,74,49,19,68,0,2,5,1,51,27,1,12,39,305,92,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860475165465629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784926332237764,0.05488786674425312,0.0,0.0,0.06988016806502069,0.0733853543964916,0.0,0.0,0.1207207610176217,0.06554283769571392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763011197424903,0.08015558505019837,0.08978119242588899,0.08003429253480321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253490791570101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032340222854685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110977245752247,0.0,0.05184741534943788,0.0,0.06613823975349613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400125179724172,0.0,0.15876448373703095,0.11215846413649007,0.07537071965802679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725704533848316,0.0820242888468573,0.0,0.0,0.06584068594920021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941582564880078,0.08356294600932786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874023859532908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579498626992214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043140636514811766,0.12797325348792196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05544570127540548,0.2301019523042605,0.0,0.0,0.13893712706999692,0.19775651393034932,0.0,0.0,0.06673648426305348,0.0,0.0,0.10479650727396712,0.07958499920471031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907882233149713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27580893247233473,0.06265662862598645,0.0,0.0,0.05820552683541452,0.060542761546766126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937088401903345,0.1647416126958031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550181682403085,0.0,0.1088417346262441,0.06854172546177248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597220714005267,0.08463449074011631,0.07511231301153266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086414616053892,0.0,0.0,0.08427784341413377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888902829398333,0.12510603263453465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493464067622022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129557903696852,0.0,0.0,0.11112306269431227,0.0,0.12537775656317904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398375947818622,0.0,0.11804196969716492,0.06309399480140414,0.06861101191311123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05215081118696492,0.050298568699687914,0.0,0.0,0.18309206075224446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559472965918998,0.0,0.0,0.18520142657001226,0.12461666207331297,0.0,0.2867695033298856,0.0,0.0,0.07083254510360402,0.08764059684762382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152594156646436,0.0,0.0,0.05055035935283368
EDAnonymous,juniorasparagus13,2019/02/11,"Fuck it... I’ll be headed back to treatment soon. Might as well use all the bahaviors. My weight dropped to slightly less that it was the last time I checked into treatment. I’ll bring it up with my therapist tomorrow and already left a voice mail at my old treatment center. But I don’t feel like I’m sick enough to go to treatment. I know what they’re going to have me do. I was there less than a year ago. Honestly, it will probably be at least a week until I can get scheduled for an intake. I might as well use all the behaviors I’ve been using as much as I want since I’m going to be forced to stop them soon.",2.460769230769234,3.633470461538465,3.73076923076923,91.4692307692308,75.15384615384616,7.046153846153848,24.538461538461537,7.554174236665415,0.946446153846154,480,15,109,6,10,157,84,130,0.094,0.8190000000000001,0.087,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,1,0,7,0,13,4,1,3,2,15,27,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,3,1,1,2,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,3,3,12,4,19,18,7,24,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,2,14,72,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495904953078502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622455445253894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976163179962388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743682915890163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532723910899949,0.1205580979096554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601062107750796,0.08816715102067851,0.0,0.2877208544571615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319058631338186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927429440279832,0.13755726901751114,0.0,0.0,0.18335202896361516,0.0,0.0,0.08244482158547033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35804326560385136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405381966545967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770792389685864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194566588864616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959529186928527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108614207223846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959367364749208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840198310752488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4372485702298629,0.0,0.0,0.09953565203186153,0.0,0.1353645116792451,0.20549726155234013,0.3034607450983418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867222940590282
EDAnonymous,tulgeywoodd,2019/02/11,"Worst mom award I tried to tell myself that becoming a mom would take away all my shitty self image feels and channel that energy elsewhere. How wrong I was. I still have these awful shitty feelings and bad habits to deal with them. And an awful gross weird flabby fucked up body. I look at pictures of myself from 4 years ago when I was around 115 or so and I get so angry.. why the hell didn't I appreciate what I had then? Why did I think having a kid would solve anything?? 

Now I binge in front of my son then go puke in the bathroom and he hears it all and cries on the other side of the door. And I can't stop until everything is up and I feel somewhat better without that weight in my stomach but my face is blue and red and the patches don't go away for days. 

Then I restrict. Fuel myself on coffee and diet coke. I work near food and I can avoid it. And then I can't. And I'm back in the bathroom puking with my kid in tears on the other side of the door.

What the fuck is wrong with me? When will this fucked up cycle end? Will it EVER end!? ",1.1469305019305018,2.9863387252252283,2.565289575289576,95.49959459459463,80.66666666666666,4.949292149292148,17.328185328185327,5.622346879071545,-0.6074571428571431,815,15,185,4,21,264,129,222,0.245,0.72,0.035,-0.9936,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,3,10,13,4,1,12,2,18,10,3,1,3,35,32,26,0,2,3,3,4,0,0,4,0,1,2,3,12,18,4,3,4,1,0,3,5,11,0,0,5,8,26,2,29,23,4,38,1,0,3,3,11,18,4,2,17,130,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815871868560444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969111797663113,0.11866155709187695,0.0,0.0,0.2504716571907548,0.10249627234967863,0.11129645781557096,0.0,0.14721478168171934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788933744679912,0.0,0.14806162776170506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641922007936534,0.0859647888819692,0.13742215703487984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23612109815134774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205737177295789,0.0,0.0,0.1197977051510114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219514390973106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611818576529359,0.0,0.0,0.3696895658362657,0.06964157430807606,0.0,0.15151019424427914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023409822849793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111934933366705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122289512962015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390566308461317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645022923120467,0.11144129001808313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022188207550356,0.0,0.11650643856041915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541059139760879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049912492979996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16231842182523207,0.0,0.0,0.24055752375849046,0.0,0.0,0.12849243214769798,0.0,0.09704095835651401,0.0,0.0,0.18937907919884767,0.2914761496865356,0.0,0.08583815005682177
EDAnonymous,gdktsmgy12,2019/02/11,"I wanna self harm and I can’t find my razor TRIGGER WARNING
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I’m so mad. My mom caught me binge eating and I’m so humiliated I wanna die and the ONE release I have is cutting. And my super secret razor that No One Else knows about is GONE. There are no razors anywhere else in the house and I feel like I’m going to explode if I can’t cut Right. Now. 🌚",-0.9846153846153848,1.0608161794871829,2.1263589743589755,93.71030769230772,92.33333333333331,3.6328205128205133,16.774358974358975,4.935628992294339,-0.7580194871794874,274,7,62,1,10,97,52,78,0.293,0.634,0.07400000000000001,-0.9517,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,3,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,0,13,14,8,1,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,4,0,0,3,4,4,0,2,2,1,10,2,5,12,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280007008593794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760699994697728,0.4507620598095694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641762464315696,0.19274324963595055,0.0,0.0,0.246589850305004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333202673691773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311309867963574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827354381581462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180933594313987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159833445332451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656432745194213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304054255608861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814574312335402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fakedeepusername,2019/02/11,"Let’s talk about sex I recently entered into my first relationship since I’ve been struggling with an ED and the sex aspect of it has been stressful to say the least.

First, I just have... zero sex drive whatsoever. I used to have a super high drive, but since my ED, that’s totally changed. At worst, sex repulses me. At best, I’m just not interested. Does anyone else experience this? Are there any ways to increase drive, or at least maintain an active sex life?

Second, for those with vaginas, do y’all have trouble  getting wet? Honestly, for me, I can sometimes get turned on, but my vagina is just consistently dry and it can get very uncomfortable. I use lube, but it’s frustrating. It might not be an ED thing, and I understand it happens to a lot of people, so does anyone else experience this?

Lastly, how do y’all cope with your own body during intercourse? Is it possible to enjoy sex without thinking too much about one’s own body and letting that interfere? Does anyone have techniques they use to deal w this anxiety?

I’d love to hear y’alls thoughts, since it isn’t something I’ve seen talked about a lot on this sub. What are your experiences with sex with an ED?",4.619757938573663,6.195468216814161,5.206210307131703,81.41492191566894,70.3716814159292,8.503487766788131,28.78084331077564,9.007467420416297,2.3075994794377928,931,35,179,18,17,299,131,226,0.10800000000000001,0.7709999999999999,0.121,0.7411,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,5,1,4,10,11,1,2,9,0,20,13,4,4,1,32,35,10,0,0,10,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,5,4,5,0,5,4,4,17,6,26,27,11,17,0,0,1,10,13,7,0,4,4,120,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341975602131051,0.0,0.08259276495735528,0.0,0.0,0.226474463783957,0.22124536169360304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330238088410002,0.0,0.0,0.23984907427313126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11421242683428405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130695254303352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28344213255717865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803814481375635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31683082943283897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366958181194573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16922143212823446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547290275270667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168415925548695,0.0,0.0,0.11407072295451665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800570958425914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22080261485383626,0.07625872049270746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357559857718467,0.09744243362420926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145335752751862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936653950949478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315973241784987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484918783492732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171407299936422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106602200147757,0.11591377431991175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.085857930363957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26792875730938576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311656611977586,0.1067799329462548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236732963601627,0.11286823487480845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355600898361725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172700574244177,0.06917947475495599,0.0,0.08571197944937685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174346831332901,0.0,0.11239514869275424,0.0,0.2797407288078921,0.0,0.08908225455262761,0.0,0.08569742092880994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407419993831622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,under_glasses,2019/02/11,so relieved and disgusted. I always had this idea that I weighed x amount at x time in my life but I’d honestly started believing that I was making it up or misremembering but oh my GOD I found a picture on my phone from 2014 that confirms I am a fat ass now in 2019. I’m so relieved and disgusted with myself omg. ,2.8681818181818173,4.051720969696973,4.9337575757575785,83.20063636363638,74.15151515151516,8.31030303030303,29.86666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.3337066666666675,248,11,53,5,5,86,48,66,0.16399999999999998,0.652,0.184,0.1175,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,3,4,2,1,0,9,7,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,9,3,7,4,1,8,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,3,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335331735216698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4516123716397712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4395032469746524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525025311136645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28312699924894524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675655637293731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28371847198503103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337345572094104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,letsmakeitbrahs,2019/02/11,Dependent Leg Edema? Anyone get leg swelling that gets worse throughout the day? Been to the doctor to rule out main causes but nothing was found.,4.279487179487177,7.470756692307699,3.220769230769232,87.40756410256414,78.23076923076924,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.9240666666666666,118,4,19,1,3,34,23,26,0.08800000000000001,0.912,0.0,-0.3421,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,2,0,5,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,10,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594874318184711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812302739344631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393340415755738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798448942455077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40690090753965785,0.0,0.0,0.3877773599542558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560882576947614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37819088712586496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ricebowlbitch,2019/08/13,not eating all that food would’ve been so much easier than throwing it back up but at least now my makeup is ruined and i have snot all over my face !,3.938125,4.031941562500002,4.662500000000001,90.1325,70.875,7.65,19.125,7.1686216300943375,0.051137499999999836,118,1,27,1,2,38,30,32,0.129,0.812,0.059000000000000004,-0.5272,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,5,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,2,4,6,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776616874385691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5025659442622613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5938968408335669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610495199413271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34889670119804844,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nebraska_jones_,2019/08/13,"Scale has gone up since last week (when I was at my lightest ever). Feels like failure. Was feeling so skinny last week and the scale had me at my lowest weight that I can even remember in my adult life. Now I’m 2.5lbs over that and feel like I failed. I know weight fluctuates naturally because of water retention, time of day, bowel movements, etc. but still.",2.2003260869565224,4.884697347826091,2.823025362318841,90.18497282608696,82.76811594202898,5.7688405797101465,21.668478260869566,7.1686216300943375,0.7740565217391309,283,9,55,4,8,88,53,69,0.08900000000000001,0.8420000000000001,0.069,-0.3291,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,1,9,11,5,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,4,0,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,5,8,2,7,7,1,17,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,12,33,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576998800749292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13305851800826604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300999313215029,0.13627158094000588,0.18662711094274315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31296286010817925,0.29478829601576584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338738297771833,0.33635461774324144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14572902657159595,0.2015938281368502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337189112846066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066899252511492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476641107781706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030611558991852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309928941383458,0.5024812817992282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,steffnizzle,2019/08/13,"My doctor just prescribed me an ADHD medication, and I couldn’t be happier! I don’t really know why she did, I was there to follow up about the Prozac I just started taking again. After like an hour of asking questions about if I have trouble focusing or working to my potential, she told me she thinks I would benefit from taking Vyvanse as well. She said I met criteria for adult ADHD, and I was just like “sure, I’ll try it and see if it helps me focus better” meanwhile thinking “guess who’s losing their appetite now!” I mean, I should really be concerned that my doctor thinks I have ADHD, but I just want the drugs, if I’m being really honest with myself.",6.731945054945058,6.1706683923076975,7.537472527472527,74.10038461538464,65.07692307692308,10.197802197802199,30.87912087912089,9.606745405546679,2.7764505494505496,521,16,95,9,7,175,86,130,0.028999999999999998,0.8,0.171,0.9316,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,10,9,0,0,4,0,12,5,0,0,1,25,29,9,0,7,9,0,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,1,4,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,6,2,24,7,11,17,0,7,0,1,1,0,13,1,0,6,7,71,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5330619948080463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822007425381705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076157738795727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026620985558155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145941121315367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287377668795064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099100941028767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560276551322465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125465948174647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444643789168359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540666954372465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610523229210444,0.0,0.14894362484793686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656261756198366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841500685802412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063949479161778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781754862774454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046492048940334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934716010774387,0.0,0.22233005414754767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842095111908577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14127729975858996,0.0,0.1003806500599835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872059389197545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293517780502487,0.0,0.13341190111190707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763678090618853,0.0,0.0,0.10502861266607527,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwingaway3315,2019/08/13,"Your typical “why do people comment on weight gain” rant / TW This is my first post to this sub. I’ve been away for awhile because I decided to recover (or rather was hit in the face with depression and binge eating accompanied it lol) and it’s safe to say I’ve pretty much gained alllll of the weight I lost back. 

I was out of work for a bit and just returned, and o m g. Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE has commented on my weight gain. None of the comments are bad, in fact, they’re all really
GOOD. For a moment there, I felt .. happy with my weight gain?

But now I’m just sat here reminiscing about my low weight like it was an actual dream. Was it real? Did it really happen? I felt comfy but now, because of all the ‘positive’ HEALTHY and U GOT THICC comments, I’m deciding to go back. I don’t understand why people think it’s okay to make weight comments, especially if they watched me shrink extremely quickly before their eyes before. What makes them think I won’t do it again?",3.1505102040816304,4.823324,4.539540816326532,84.33492346938777,74.3061224489796,8.573469387755104,24.494897959183675,9.188382445141503,1.8857000000000004,768,24,159,18,16,255,122,196,0.048,0.8059999999999999,0.145,0.9515,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,3,7,12,9,0,0,7,2,13,9,2,2,3,31,29,10,0,2,7,0,8,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,10,9,7,1,8,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,11,11,17,5,21,16,5,18,0,3,2,0,10,7,0,2,10,94,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.09950178493026897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579817765749676,0.15680746025978892,0.08513536388148038,0.12431215301873555,0.0,0.17352706170635834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131786496164764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782111670843577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433423875654124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19486121739848133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958021309325998,0.0,0.0,0.0867302032924289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057948275137898686,0.08552224703047892,0.081549621664063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016609264280467,0.10854216975683137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0498142744704082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130533630701107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612301654831815,0.0,0.0,0.11106827410657637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495499296473462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137747172186851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765296284697716,0.1037336583725368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605692251636587,0.13064101211358067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108556333903387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066834148517792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614772461545774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7449853217965795,0.0,0.0,0.18401261568938893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423072991936283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowkcal,2019/08/13,"a mosquito (almost) cured my eating disorder I just had a minor epiphany triggered by a mosquito! so I'm lying in my bed, half naked (I sleep in my underwear) and I suddenly hear the faint buzzing from a mosquito. I get up to kill it and when I walk past my full lenght mirror I notice my body and realize that it's actually.....beautiful? I currently weigh more than I've ever weighed, I've gone from being very skinny to having a fuller face, bigger hips and slightly chubbier arms. I usually dislike my body but for the first time in ages I actually found it beautiful. and for a quick moment I think ""I can actually live with this body, I don't have to starve myself anymore"".

I then killed the mosquito and went back to my bed lol. I know eating disorders aren't cured that easily, my ed is closely linked to my anxiety and as long as I'm struggling with that I have to deal with my ed. but it was very nice to actually love my body, even for a short moment.",2.622791831758612,4.533621093264248,4.5506004266991775,82.65787869551967,76.40932642487047,8.479000304785126,25.860713197195977,9.168548406835145,2.2344552880219446,753,28,152,19,17,257,111,193,0.12,0.769,0.11199999999999999,0.4583,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,2,1,10,1,10,15,9,1,1,22,20,14,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,8,11,5,0,5,0,0,3,2,3,0,2,5,1,27,2,23,14,2,26,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,15,99,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.3655846785920232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504588841232311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553026628872162,0.0,0.12384404364204793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960224063653411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5548390575432625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287423035384791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28623883204203376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555598988747402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247982440981515,0.11295804476977014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106219982275038,0.0,0.1369207593875478,0.0,0.0,0.0652428756171555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074501734864925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763149380800283,0.0,0.06862892008575143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026833613890404,0.11051187187927744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270601773349165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14217285030621593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920885612616472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249667962793616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305481483601574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08001589059849366,0.0,0.0,0.07281655662050306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375339455550683,0.20607256588167627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576187030143872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MarieAmber,2019/08/13,"Google Does Not Certify You, Sir. I'm just feeling a little ticked off. I have a friend that's very confused by how mental health works and one day he tries to get me to talk to him so he starts off with, ""What is it that you feel you can't control? I mean.. I looked it up a bit and they said having an Eating Disorder means you feel like you're not in control of your life, so what is it?"" 

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Oh buddy. You can't just come up to me like that and expect me to open up, also that's not how it is for me. At least not the majority of it. Even if it is, or was, what if I wasn't ready to admit that? You can't just do that to somebody. You can't do a quick google search and certify yourself as a professional. I know a lot more than you do about psychology and I don't even have a certificate yet. Please leave me alone and never bring up food or my ED with me. You will never understand and I would like to never speak about it with you or anyone. Thank you.",0.5616985645932999,2.299021569377992,2.4309545454545467,96.24643181818183,82.11004784688996,5.711100478468901,17.627033492822967,6.742157984588678,-0.3037887081339714,744,15,182,8,20,247,109,209,0.07200000000000001,0.841,0.086,0.5911,0,1,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,12,1,3,14,6,0,1,9,0,19,4,0,4,3,43,35,18,0,4,12,0,3,3,1,2,2,2,0,1,16,12,2,2,8,0,0,2,13,1,0,1,3,6,28,5,27,30,5,19,0,0,1,0,22,10,0,7,10,134,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603795301266154,0.0,0.11276110543653825,0.0,0.15277812407979602,0.17133568503852642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859350052315867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394019992935248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146273810957806,0.0,0.0,0.3162966741425778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093612275525756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616031691633361,0.0,0.12339383247737715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442826232715866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862640498016604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21388806587238468,0.10073351587922223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050298597920638,0.0,0.1089395894748568,0.0,0.07366893855627098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988100072845406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749228784224578,0.0,0.0,0.1493032176825714,0.0,0.0,0.09959552268946496,0.2066627681177396,0.1413233739045217,0.0,0.0,0.11840811771447568,0.0,0.0,0.11987683228355844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071900871915792,0.0,0.0,0.14209919210205071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262536775229767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554817787264004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478040285793945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341273999779467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980358492465724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333393295179807,0.0,0.12981783525766466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573267893624546,0.0,0.0,0.14679047208621165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11634333289624695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265282583910013,0.0,0.0,0.10016542480520292,0.0,0.17133568503852642,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananasyrupPop,2019/08/13,"if i dont manage to not eat for three days im gonna lose my mind sorry for posting this here but i have this awful ominous feeling that if i eat in the next three days om gonna do something really stupid. I just want to post this here since it feels like its out in the world and that way ill be able to do it. im really at my wits end here, i have to do it",1.0457142857142865,1.4053292857142878,3.2152380952380963,96.94642857142858,77.57142857142857,6.552380952380951,18.761904761904766,6.42735559955562,-0.3755095238095239,276,4,75,2,6,95,52,84,0.214,0.711,0.075,-0.9293,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,1,7,3,0,0,0,11,12,4,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,7,1,10,9,0,12,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,2,5,46,16,1,0.19010809352480915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452079861466488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22280526975987566,0.0,0.0,0.3890560804269156,0.0,0.0,0.16837934379133698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192248728390453,0.13581325999951685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41069872743886254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928772117655026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126823288872172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19195498073446846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218211419293292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641420057319219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435762254158792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725937948655444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463544982365121,0.0,0.2128104463221646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213067909179396,0.15089895583661497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wannabefaulkner,2019/08/13,"have to have a 3-course meal on a date and I'm dreading it so much it's ""restaurant week"" in my city right now, which means fancy restaurants serve 3-course meals for $35/a person. the guy I'm dating is into restaurants and asked me if I wanted to go to this persian place with him. I said yes not knowing before I knew that you have to order a 3-course meal and if I don't get one I'll look like a weirdo for not taking advantage of the deal. he doesn't know I have any issues around eating and I don't want to tell him obviously.

I'm freaking out reading the menu over and over again but I just cannot imagine eating 3 courses of persian food and IN FRONT of this guy and he'll probably pay so I have to actually eat it ahhhhhhhhhhhh I don't want to do it I just want to be single forever",2.4523438914027125,3.5883259176470617,4.641764705882356,85.07486425339367,75.11764705882355,6.642533936651581,24.84162895927602,7.010146845296331,0.8658144796380096,626,20,138,6,13,218,100,170,0.086,0.89,0.024,-0.6306,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,7,4,0,1,7,1,13,7,0,0,1,28,31,12,0,6,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,8,11,7,0,5,1,1,2,7,2,0,1,2,2,15,2,22,27,2,18,0,0,1,0,12,10,0,2,6,86,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.15648500328604173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904805195136057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427514567797919,0.14991186393045178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364517372244452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16532071204291765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4922547984271588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19390395297623086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377975503236113,0.0,0.091134405596135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31755668000256715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673707283485944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762556925497583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834218159660647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465923753447792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467545180946134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788062222815067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866184708014684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001728145193573,0.16753861683891638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728916398101086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604000905138777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694374196620618,0.1525359389384516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056827854039705,0.0,0.1401588200620677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783301353248839,0.0,0.12862846873551004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ashfire45,2019/08/13,"(Advice on harm minimisation)Eating Disorder, Gym and Uni \-- Please remove if inappropriate/triggering --  


So, I'm heading to University in September. I struggle with an eating disorder, so I want to take advantage of using the high-tech gym at my university...  But the problem is that I don't know what healthy is.   


I used to use exercise to 'purge', and I'm fighting against the fact that I've trained my body to eat at around 900-1000 calories for around two years (and yet, still literally a bit on the chubby side, amazing that)... I could lose 6 pound in a week and then gain it STRAIGHT back at the weekend with one takeaway. Just stuff like that. Anyway, this long time of purging and extreme dieting has literally programmed my body and mind to stay hungry.   


It all stems from a very deep rooted fear of gaining weight, after having been heavy and losing the weight. I AM trying to fight against it. I think I've managed to up my calorie count up to around 1500!   


Sorry, there's a fair bit of rambling: MY QUESTION IS  


What would be the right amount to exercise in a gym to be healthy? I can see my diet changing at University pretty drastically, but I don't want to fall back into the cycle of punishing myself with exercise, but I do want to try be healthy. I want to enjoy eating out with friends like a normal person, and work out in a gym like a normal, balanced, happy person. You know? Any advice would be appreciated, I feel a bit scared of losing control with my ED.",6.221883604505634,6.581336244680853,6.696433041301629,76.5979411764706,65.98581560283688,9.330329578639967,32.9002920317063,9.168548406835145,2.8016735085523568,1159,46,217,19,17,378,158,282,0.126,0.71,0.16399999999999998,0.9253,0,0,0,0,3,0,47.0,0,1,0,8,12,19,3,3,18,0,18,13,3,5,2,47,33,15,0,11,5,0,3,3,1,2,3,0,0,2,11,19,7,1,5,8,0,2,2,11,0,2,1,4,21,8,48,25,5,36,0,3,1,0,7,22,0,2,14,141,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212992738373754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337293441661525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488786882433392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331593391822708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30522062698414937,0.20702792378369053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09858350160181252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452139774525414,0.07440526465267386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21360944330891893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860723369079797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486554992688778,0.047120064659997504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719989749659744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920333128563592,0.0,0.0,0.09564063845033884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846118860098382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243044460338543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365849416161265,0.0,0.0,0.08247091864772722,0.0,0.31276997792726713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409613452055368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261438036265865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314849266330706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162741210610605,0.0,0.10229550528244144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948085384699441,0.0,0.08917100254557424,0.0,0.0,0.10439501509762288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958442744361181,0.0,0.0,0.0933002403636156,0.0,0.07426099601544643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431946234419197,0.0,0.09932898516888994,0.07442228711514348,0.0,0.0,0.09742325000867916,0.10668116148882142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006787807702282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971289683050982,0.0,0.0,0.054340300414214615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654086154321742,0.0,0.09103386293137307,0.0,0.0,0.24146077052139814,0.0,0.07689216338187345,0.2198653751693535,0.0,0.07475203240605363,0.226962558566539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784400669585518,0.0,0.0,0.13240013015966942,0.0,0.0,0.060011814865015924
EDAnonymous,ciaowdy,2019/08/13,"just got back from study abroad (AKA MONTH LONG BINGE FEST) i avoided weighing myself for a week after i got home because i was in straight up denial. like the whole trip i could straight up NOT STOP BINGING. i kept telling myself to just enjoy the trip and enjoy food because i didn't want to let my ED ruin another good thing in my life. but i could FEEL myself gaining the whole time............................................................

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only to get home and see that i actually managed to LOSE weight. 

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idk why i'm posting this but i guess just to say that i ate like a normal (?) human being for over a month and i didn't die and the world didn't end so there's that. i know i should take this as a sign that maybe i should give recovery a go again but i think that's too much self-reflection for one day",2.6369039655996183,4.124378118012427,3.3120496894409968,93.37517439082657,75.27329192546584,5.9476349737219305,22.943621595795523,6.297961479604792,0.30403067367415204,611,17,135,4,13,192,99,161,0.07400000000000001,0.773,0.153,0.8813,0,1,0,0,0,0,79.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,0,1,9,0,10,5,0,0,0,25,25,9,1,6,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,2,1,8,4,4,3,3,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,8,4,20,5,16,11,3,23,0,2,1,0,4,8,0,1,13,83,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.12304548414569008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732365534576624,0.30642588620726197,0.0,0.13221617937840546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695529521828863,0.0,0.1537263785177615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013449364063324,0.0,0.0,0.08131750836746711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086133518561127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167816279419164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375480597184142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246832137716834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587673133585008,0.12095685312948448,0.07165975539782837,0.10575816603156628,0.201691109090848,0.0,0.1389021618183915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529567578671653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929567232578833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893539270448362,0.08906097493797735,0.12320224253008474,0.0,0.0,0.1115855305939142,0.0,0.14106226579876047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12667418056528812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128739662031894,0.0,0.09269053218438214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235412607314742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854417311651373,0.09589699656017082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075920145742162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027169266631236,0.0,0.0,0.10047726857768548,0.0,0.13153919051563978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541674273136674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480385911803772,0.0,0.11020806792777242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376847945428942,0.08079327095401187,0.0,0.0,0.0735239931090538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437104784869047,0.0,0.10114165497091666,0.1535434425726354,0.0,0.0,0.11377645839360152,0.2815495816573932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30642588620726197,0.0
EDAnonymous,lipstickwoes,2019/08/13,"Work problems I have two training workshops to teach at work this week, and three next. I was super excited because I really love teaching... until I realized I’m going to have a room full of people staring at me for a combined total of five hours. Now even though my closet is full of work clothes I’m sitting here absolutely positive that I will look massive in literally anything I wear and no one will take me seriously.",6.3822222222222225,6.981085987654321,7.3354074074074065,71.32533333333333,65.66666666666666,9.93679012345679,37.18765432098765,9.888512548439397,3.8864795061728388,339,17,58,7,5,114,61,81,0.077,0.75,0.172,0.8775,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,0,1,5,12,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,1,2,9,3,10,9,3,13,0,0,2,1,1,6,0,0,5,43,11,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083978994438774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437494388736014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16726500490563745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392417001150593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24939392725624746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21266083725194004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285622301451453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693274343448637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17160441274212426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17556722117676582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423199173897489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223433047115196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904076655258136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24881054452249102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473821928145957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031367350399918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5530930558796936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chiefcorrespondent,2019/08/13,"Tentative veganism Happy Tuesday friends ☺️ 

I have been slowly progressing into vegetarianism for the past few months and I don’t miss meat whatsoever. Recently I’ve been watching unnatural vegan on YouTube and she’s got me contemplating transitioning to a more vegan lifestyle. 

What are some vegan recs that you all have? I’d love to hear some of your favorite vegan safe foods and any other tips you’d like to share. I usually shop at Aldi and Kroger, also have access to Trader Joe’s.",3.7197802197802186,6.664117956043956,5.983175824175824,68.37432417582417,78.23076923076924,9.793846153846154,26.68241758241759,9.888512548439397,3.568168351648352,398,16,65,14,10,139,71,91,0.017,0.7559999999999999,0.22699999999999998,0.9638,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,1,7,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,0,1,9,12,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,8,6,9,8,5,8,0,1,1,1,8,3,0,2,6,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24118685760776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20509617096691532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36469205620025374,0.0,0.23301294495829086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412145179643386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32105540923968817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33992152089670263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473449656654619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722028934585719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24073169395978125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28790827868799873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977904620196182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321662736535361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jane-JJ-Love,2019/08/13,"He likes me bigger than I want to be So I recently put on 15 lbs and my bf is saying that I’ve never looked so good. The only thing that looks good is that my butt is a bit bigger. But I feel like my face is super chunky and my tummy is bigger! I feel so gross and don’t want to be naked in front of him, but he likes the way I look right now. How can I feel good about a relationship like that? He’s in hella good shape, like actual abs, good shape. I feel like he might like bigger girls, but I don’t want to be a token “bigger” girl. I’ve been with him four months now; would it be silly to end the relationship over this? He only ever wants to go out and eat shit food, and tells me I’m too skinny. I want to be thinner but also really like him... what should I do!?",1.86127450980392,2.344287029411768,3.8173529411764697,92.92642156862743,75.76470588235293,6.843137254901961,16.519607843137255,6.816661863887847,-0.4596274509803919,585,4,147,5,12,200,90,170,0.039,0.6809999999999999,0.281,0.9913,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,10,17,1,0,6,0,18,6,4,1,2,26,32,14,0,7,4,0,4,8,1,3,0,1,0,2,8,7,3,0,4,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,8,19,15,15,23,1,24,0,0,3,1,15,13,2,1,15,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.11071352475487543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907281285211689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386102627935985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609049358711025,0.0,0.0,0.10048546784905986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262451370263596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294604905889343,0.1621013440706805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371875237057751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447781613644603,0.4757939478340525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434182895183799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858152253924495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203554460384192,0.0,0.0,0.09055690797307778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875017600859653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725718676519924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405135631692062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268074104788723,0.0,0.1120209101709566,0.2436116043134141,0.0,0.09688803430247447,0.0,0.09022218576571699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645762436378683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916270996391388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537297031364151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345868767232782,0.09005351745501347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059358322110935,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chompystiltskin,2019/08/13,"My boss is so nosey and won’t leave me alone about food. Preface this by saying she’s quite a lot larger than me hence maybe her belief that anyone smaller doesn’t eat at all? 

Almost every other day she asks me some weird food questions which implies I don’t eat or that I’m disordered.  True in the latter at least.

The thing is I eat in front of her almost every day, but I eat healthy and small portions.  Then she’ll say things like, “but you don’t eat breakfast right???” to which I usually say yeah I do. Why is that so hard to grasp? Is it because I don’t eat 5 pieces of bacon and 3 eggs and two lbs of butter with a cream coffee for breakfast??? She’s on the paleo diet which sounds insanely stupid to me because I just see her guzzling fat and meat constantly.  She hadn’t lost any weight even though she “plays sports”.

Today’s question was, how do you eat lunch so fast???? I don’t. I eat normal portions. 

You don’t eat junk food though right???? I mean I do otherwise I wouldn’t be 130 lbs 🙄🙄🙄

How do I get her to leave me alone without jeopardizing my job? She asks way you personal questions and has such a big mouth and no concept of privacy.",1.193249999999999,3.2409104916666682,2.519166666666667,94.8125,81.58333333333334,5.333333333333334,20.0,6.42735559955562,0.01400000000000068,898,24,200,8,24,289,137,240,0.10099999999999999,0.838,0.061,-0.7221,1,2,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,4,0,2,11,6,1,0,6,1,21,20,2,3,2,30,28,18,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,3,1,4,0,1,11,8,19,0,6,2,0,1,11,3,0,1,3,9,35,3,19,21,7,18,1,1,2,0,24,9,0,8,8,119,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15522556525901707,0.16054923945764346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052707905426811134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05419519788492072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491850528292993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449596979015956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375830697824031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997213084955868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883055865918991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7137876990126905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119311609935474,0.0,0.1306071889403989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811679172383922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04049458313016658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943169038324093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691444950591902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413896218770993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03786635547020863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460882899812437,0.06589428930864337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786691949233455,0.08442862600117933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759411062335719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767674889029274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604791446119332,0.08243899766477589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238233368108074,0.0,0.1849117425200239,0.0,0.0,0.061763615507391276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298536633991603,0.0,0.1523018768889446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346825299596464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757137772172673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536380009030532,0.0,0.0,0.06152201808361054,0.0,0.09438351863043766,0.0,0.0,0.06993865905681827,0.0,0.0,0.07471467333843491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beetlebite,2019/08/13,"dae like drinking ice cold water on an empty stomach i’m talking chug it. how you can feel it go all the way down, how clean it feels?",2.7110344827586204,3.2450561379310368,3.899482758620693,92.9312931034483,73.82758620689657,5.8000000000000025,24.84482758620689,3.1291,0.18491724137930987,104,3,24,0,2,34,26,29,0.055999999999999994,0.7809999999999999,0.163,0.5267,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,2,1,5,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5012135074274096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174022401657057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290777435578258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499620040670296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112377464133765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061169009657163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-YoureJustADeadDude,2019/08/13,Caloriessss Im going to try to stop counting kalories. It just fucks with my head.,0.665416666666669,2.905966375000002,1.2399999999999984,95.67166666666668,104.0,2.1333333333333333,24.08333333333333,3.1291,-0.0038916666666666266,66,3,12,0,3,20,15,16,0.29,0.71,0.0,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330421244082184,0.0,0.0,0.2662110421075681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4807289331114928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5059685860807898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916159186185695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180230409914445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gayprincess96,2019/08/13,"I feel so nasty when I get validation from jealous looks from fat little girls with fat mothers in the supermarkets filling their trolleys with binge food and I’m there buying an apple & being very clearly thinner than them What the fuck is wrong with me why do I have to be like this

I don’t want to be a fucking cunt but here I am feeling like one and apparently acting like one cos I fucking suck my stomach in when I’m around them and I feel awful cos they fucking follow me around trying to figure it out 

I feel so sorry for them every time bc they can’t help what they get fed but, anyone relate? Or am I just the fucking asshole of the century over here 


I never make it obvious on my face how I feel, I constantly opt for disinterested package reading bland expression forever and always, slouched non alert body posture if possible, but I still feel like an asshole for this validation or whatever that I get out of it",3.0265473145780035,5.240638304347829,4.4072634271099735,82.74259590792842,76.28260869565217,6.938107416879793,27.127877237851663,7.928766900206844,1.823281074168798,744,30,140,12,17,246,113,184,0.111,0.77,0.11800000000000001,0.0905,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,7,0,12,13,8,0,7,1,10,12,5,4,3,33,32,15,0,2,7,1,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,11,4,0,7,1,1,3,3,9,0,2,1,7,25,4,22,28,0,18,0,0,1,5,11,9,7,3,10,95,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565371846550801,0.13757781092196458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887841636674706,0.0,0.0,0.2260700823919249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141041063371747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721531658684913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698226495690187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852155151438607,0.1814225260927796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353917786309393,0.0,0.0,0.5869336333258063,0.1990182434932148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510894527304502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481350992533638,0.1272627251512483,0.0,0.0,0.10662737043452256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475707661352451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793126912901072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720836569826517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14314570389867742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700977803008245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421385833417014,0.0,0.0,0.10140273178070884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404038657479682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620797303981076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476801670159908,0.07489339057690114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457556379015815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388276852036753,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,couldbefatter,2019/08/13,"How my coworker triggered my ED to come back. I was recovered, had gained around 20 lbs but still relatively ok with it. This coworker, who is maybe near 40 years old, over the past 6 months says to me...

“You should get this app I use, it’s called Lose Belly Fat, use it every morning”

“Did you use the app yet? Why not?”

...few more times mentioning the app even though I said I’m not interested...

Another coworker overhears and asks about the app. She says “oh no it’s not for you. You don’t need to lose weight”. Bunch of coworkers around who hear go “oooohhhhh” and “woooowwwww” and laugh. 

Another incident, subject of throwing up after drinking too much comes up with coworkers. I mention how I haven’t thrown up since I was 5 (true, I just can’t even though god knows I’ve tried lol). This bitch says “That’s too bad, because you should make yourself throw up after you eat.” This one made me freeze in disbelief. Other coworkers are shocked, but still laugh it off. 

Another time she asks me what I’m doing to get rid of my double chin. I’m confused. Even I don’t think I have anywhere close to a double chin. 

I’m leaving out 10+ other similar comments, but basically I’ve been restricting heavily again and I’m fully back to being anorexic over the past month, fully because of this abuse at work. Basically, how do I destroy this bitch?",2.8503562340966897,4.985872629770995,3.80032442748092,87.25992684478375,76.51908396946564,7.5727735368956735,25.80216284987277,8.472884824447931,1.773434605597965,1047,39,213,21,24,336,152,262,0.165,0.77,0.065,-0.9865,0,0,1,0,1,0,42.0,0,6,0,4,20,13,3,1,6,2,17,4,1,9,1,36,39,12,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,17,12,4,1,2,1,0,5,8,8,0,1,7,7,24,5,29,29,6,35,0,2,0,0,22,14,2,1,16,128,41,1,0.0,0.13300477750555442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35313001062526383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998629393166894,0.20988805606238206,0.0,0.0,0.17263557602694746,0.0937289116193414,0.13686019853892595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462573198074914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933968793570532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099679566254401,0.0,0.11486571734041047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22243170948165408,0.0,0.09458036066875433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729805407050856,0.0,0.06379756321303387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652045529071898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06169285690484139,0.0,0.0,0.11886269331309915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511710727816113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621916074467314,0.07493162421421723,0.0,0.1127760483859835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920303158418235,0.0,0.08252093596264319,0.08323626001427352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177935881268873,0.0,0.07606744140804146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21432174347467836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067809807177592,0.2678109748983666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285916525663547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929526821067104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192898974132626,0.22058152485401164,0.0,0.13091452997596126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621432567269205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908589301079148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669733351854838,0.0,0.0,0.10129340738359374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172356594067072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228906056988638
EDAnonymous,JennjB5,2019/08/13,"just me? when I'm doing a longer fast, it feels like my stomach automatically sucks itself in the longer I fast? I don't know if that makes sense but maybe other people feel the same way?",1.6642105263157916,3.985217789473687,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,81.63157894736842,4.852631578947369,14.76315789473684,5.985473137389443,-0.8484421052631581,148,2,32,1,4,48,33,38,0.051,0.899,0.051,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,8,8,3,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,4,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4695033017263824,0.3316785214750129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551536817998995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268215657087766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30990751216132506,0.0,0.4664271588023855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32187018513089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36852029444098294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ijustride666,2019/08/13,"Brushing your teeth BEFORE purging.. So recently I came across a post where people were discussing whether teeth should be brushed before or after breakfast, and the most popular response said that contradictory to popular belief it was actual before. They brought up medical evidence and whatnot but basically brushing before actually gives you this layer of protection, whereas brushing afterwards just rubs the food particles and acids in more. So, would this mean it’s a good idea to brush before purging to more adequately protect your teeth?",11.390449438202245,12.398704449438204,9.913797752808991,55.689348314606754,55.067415730337075,12.962696629213484,47.01348314606742,12.340626583579946,6.659025168539326,452,26,56,13,5,140,68,89,0.018000000000000002,0.856,0.126,0.8768,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,1,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,5,6,3,0,0,14,10,8,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,4,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,8,5,3,8,2,3,10,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,2,3,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.3368871064873914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7343967467076378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19742113665729635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20872205094063614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655843143839575,0.0,0.14477801761339756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485694369304984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880241118917374,0.0,0.1738875433525962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966681654068127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16531373842436026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704326566114304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419270225652374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261798688517805,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,etonflesh,2019/08/13,"recipe rant so i wanted to have something i actually enjoyed eating on my meal plan for once and was super excited to make said item: an “apple pie” smoothie. sounds great right?! well my stupid face thought an apple was too many calories so i said i’d sub apple sauce. TURNS OUT you need more calories worth of apple sauce to get an even faint memory of apple than an actual apple. and i couldn’t even say i didn’t want it because it was yucky because that’s “rEfUsInG nUtRiTiOn”. fml 🙄😡

dae have any examples of this? so i can avoid this happening again and know to just have the original feckin version.",2.1452424046541694,4.684018184873953,3.3497478991596634,87.35056884292179,81.43697478991595,6.686748545572076,22.59922430510666,7.882392219407189,1.3072877828054297,480,16,93,9,13,155,83,119,0.105,0.725,0.17,0.8152,0,1,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,9,7,1,1,5,0,9,4,1,2,0,15,20,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,4,2,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,7,4,9,5,11,12,3,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.3994994935577033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919749692687827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495565391558365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945089363561256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703941112140066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069430584496214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256735192610229,0.0,0.0,0.18100835262463494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249330356209852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663341871382084,0.2075254376798782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177643466248072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21799017075118046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748057462777845,0.38941770186035307,0.16277919793844214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575818088209395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625024876483964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226459856364869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414651472761771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404258175817756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_creepycrawlies,2019/08/13,true shame is when you’re in a public stall for 40 minutes shitting ur guts out that’s it. that’s the post,-0.7487499999999976,1.3252582916666709,0.8049999999999997,103.54,91.08333333333334,3.2,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.3178166666666664,85,2,21,0,3,27,22,24,0.29100000000000004,0.604,0.106,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6821927356823111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7311723951177891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nearby_Associate,2019/08/13,"Bought my first shaping wear body ever and feeling like Hot Shit, body dysmorfia what ?? why the fuck didn’t anyone t e l l me about shape wear before these are God’s creation? Is this a hot girl secret or what? 


until at night, getting it off, and all self-hatred kicks back. I don’t take I can ever not wear this anymore. I am fucking flawless. So I’ll just buy ten.",0.9205263157894772,3.0568202631578965,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,83.21052631578947,4.326315789473685,20.026315789473685,5.148860815047168,-0.2913368421052631,284,8,61,1,8,92,63,76,0.094,0.7659999999999999,0.141,0.3722,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,3,0,2,0,6,8,6,0,3,10,12,5,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,3,0,2,2,3,5,2,4,10,1,10,0,0,0,2,2,4,3,1,7,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735738840824168,0.15324850694381711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685279232045296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864972194607764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486896119457568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965029708142124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108187543604679,0.1565748332879816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864255822492635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052375976381246,0.11450709004121926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707521451504713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20567585844722733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286417317145581,0.0,0.22497448401073905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16478829189232308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977665087757203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yosh47,2019/08/13,"my UGW measures my self worth I've always hated my body. And I try so hard to change myself. I try to excel in everything I do because I just feel like no one will love me if i don't become the person i want to be. And every time the scale drops i just feel like i hate myself a little less. I can't help myself. I want to convince myself that i'm beautiful and I have worth and all that motivational stuff but i feel like an impostor, I know I'm lying to myself because at the end of the day i will hate myself. It's difficult to not like yourself because you cant be anyone else but you. My body feels like a prison and I hurt myself trying to to get out.

I'm not sure why i'm posting this. I guess its because I feel alone and I know people here understands what this is like. This sub really makes me feel like someone else understands.",1.503917597765362,3.2015721396648047,3.5396054469273786,89.61153107541901,79.0,6.262709497206704,20.12604748603352,7.1686216300943375,0.3890695530726256,659,16,144,8,16,224,95,179,0.188,0.638,0.174,-0.8287,0,1,0,0,0,2,12.0,0,2,0,2,4,16,3,0,7,0,10,3,2,2,2,31,33,10,0,3,7,0,7,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,7,0,0,11,0,2,0,6,5,0,1,0,7,33,11,12,29,2,9,0,1,0,1,6,4,0,2,10,90,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924184872570718,0.0,0.0,0.08776490138146924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375162447363952,0.1080731436087655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257189992848992,0.11649051247276218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23432123728991194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158015619112606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802361961942112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622417030306164,0.0,0.0934208759985461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08886850429759326,0.0,0.09479548117847124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31999253966863445,0.3767621798400768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510712027612321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619426135331115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448623043296568,0.3124086343001668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069867769025277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291477970110628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593425696863355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607134462961065,0.10571516729042203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951966634874882,0.0,0.07040638586512284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147360927658945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312412756554029,0.09209801540631413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101733501676102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757094973291343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100349978782946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936990007118123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074536274490155,0.0,0.0,0.0994103573310136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06150419805720615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148348689101381,0.0,0.0,0.21960952225380445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442555044101793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517613958899404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hokeydokey_,2019/08/13,"Does anyone look at the volume of food they eat and still feel disgusted despite it being low calorie? I feel this all the time. I always diligently count my calories to make sure I get below what I should, but the sheer volume always triggers something in my brain that makes me feel soo bad about eating, despite knowing it obviously \*shouldn't\* affect my weight. Maybe I'm just insane.",6.500140845070425,8.119432816901412,5.902929577464793,78.03326760563381,65.90140845070422,7.370140845070423,29.69295774647888,7.554174236665415,2.0234653521126758,314,11,50,3,5,96,57,71,0.141,0.818,0.040999999999999995,-0.8571,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,3,0,3,5,1,4,3,16,12,2,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,9,1,6,9,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,31,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3553487857880883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930541591276916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828895934065975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23837053780501816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186861886243484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369898007929959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32390214836071285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582017993165264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156081742338253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735071992499994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17931175147448286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850663914057736,0.0,0.2145199806325263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438612901089553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052564801887982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124986877609766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12451128957294587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26002249377059744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,akita13,2019/08/13,"I have a photoshoot tmrw and I'm still fat! The worst feeling ever is being in front of a camera knowing you're a lump of tofu like if u agree! Tfw u fuking restrict for an event but you started too late and you look licherally the same as before, if not more bloated lol. But Photoshop coming thru w the clutch so it ain't that bad lol!! 🙃🙃🙃",-1.0085257985257992,1.0956823243243257,1.8633660933660965,93.68519656019657,97.37837837837841,4.312530712530713,17.538083538083534,6.1124844417494595,-0.12655135135135076,268,8,58,3,11,93,59,74,0.193,0.695,0.11199999999999999,-0.8024,0,0,0,1,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,2,4,2,1,0,1,13,10,8,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,6,9,3,8,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,6,36,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179952412345342,0.0,0.0,0.3240767251835102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280699959203494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445021450682489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257005067364866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930612097126244,0.0,0.4296172792048683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18606489130877613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198194878537901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695687764714289,0.0,0.30414864038119016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,farlowtheleader,2019/08/13,Brain over Binge I just started reading. I really like it so far. Anyone else?,-0.4009999999999998,0.2206487333333378,1.6058333333333332,90.22875,128.33333333333334,4.166666666666667,17.083333333333336,5.985473137389443,0.373333333333334,61,2,11,1,4,20,14,15,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.4201,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945983441296278,0.43169447967082347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703350196464066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35196071366167125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583679099087127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214363097012868,0.0,0.26990985004943946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298214088159883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shrirnpheavennow,2019/08/13,I thought I was on the verge of an anxiety attack for two days Turns out I’m just going through Diet Coke withdraw,2.625,4.27301816666667,3.84,88.905,75.66666666666666,6.466666666666668,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.5105666666666666,92,4,19,1,2,30,22,24,0.20199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.0,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296303541821389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4902005968669572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778889796395417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24488522470135704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420792385160876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686855587711664,0.4209177921239611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,M0richild,2019/08/13,"I told my bf about my ED... Nothing too detailed. Just that it had been acting up a lot lately.

 I had binged all week, I'm up seven pounds. I feel constantly bloated, disgusting, anxious, scared...

and he said that he was sorry I had to go through this. That he'd love me no matter what and that he still thought that I was beautiful.

Part of me can't help but doubt him, but in the moment it was really nice and I really do believe him. I see so many people post about bad experiences in opening up to people that they're close to. I was scared to vent about it, but it felt nice to get off of my chest.",2.177380952380954,3.4571183253968267,3.6525714285714312,91.31742857142858,76.06349206349206,6.944761904761903,22.123809523809523,7.554174236665415,0.6374342857142854,463,12,106,6,10,153,80,126,0.125,0.748,0.127,0.3324,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,3,2,0,11,2,1,0,1,16,21,7,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,12,5,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,12,4,16,3,17,8,3,16,0,0,1,1,11,8,0,2,5,72,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21492280128511865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884670412247032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434106940153824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558735715036208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860962037942268,0.0,0.0,0.09619363404135184,0.0,0.1826651214065325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939520777084704,0.0,0.10812066919748783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275172740461912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460474870887855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173957281377185,0.17170362194611044,0.0,0.0,0.1928786617379605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18254529538550124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20601689388949385,0.0,0.2637839834859946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822022082108077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437517531064456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180966646864178,0.0,0.3809370484640705,0.0,0.1516007061068519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129638033507808,0.0,0.0,0.15192997511635642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510333513670802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178733685881496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260313628600986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kath_L11,2019/08/13,"Team lunch? Anyone have any tips on how to successfully evade a team lunch at work without looking rude? I would have usually planned around it, but I’d forgotten about it. 

My coworkers are well meaning, but the thought of eating, especially in front of people I don’t know that well, is making me anxious? 

Quick replies would be appreciated, as it’s in five minutes 😂😭",4.252619047619048,6.442515499999999,4.974285714285717,80.17904761904764,72.57142857142857,8.095238095238095,31.666666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.758952380952381,295,14,55,6,6,95,58,70,0.065,0.747,0.188,0.8512,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,5,6,4,1,0,2,0,8,3,0,2,0,11,13,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,3,2,0,1,2,1,2,1,1,1,4,3,11,9,0,8,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,2,36,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139741463282904,0.0,0.0,0.2847360708599153,0.0,0.17623384438769496,0.0,0.0,0.2243710931951325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579022069666807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851586285476256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116520630752044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824019998215708,0.0,0.0,0.27454796582076363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473440361950893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009344183085095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775889977079134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532326139782998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24295979401279866,0.0,0.1834898044890468,0.0,0.0,0.3580872531045001,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Essnemm,2019/08/13,Im so fucking insatiable The only thing that stops me from thinking about food is dick lol,0.9333333333333336,3.440703444444445,1.8277777777777795,92.645,97.88888888888887,4.622222222222223,22.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.8215333333333339,74,3,14,1,3,23,18,18,0.226,0.645,0.129,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103918553483254,0.0,0.0,0.39021460222563614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559286947568741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210178058929357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528854152879545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28041726479442464,0.2704576733672434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seedlesssunflower,2019/08/13,Going on vacation for a week and I made sure to pack my favorite scale Why am I like this 🤦🏽‍♀️,-4.311250000000001,-3.590286291666665,0.04866666666666752,103.26300000000003,120.25,3.586666666666667,13.133333333333333,5.6839178017228535,-1.0466066666666665,75,2,21,1,5,28,23,24,0.0,0.6579999999999999,0.342,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914304938362596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505233947767934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852144958472161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832987046972169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113293757695979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4627134054883024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanilla_soy_latte,2019/08/13,"insta to follow? hi I wanted to make an insta diary for food and weight but also wanted to follow others so that I wouldn’t feel alone :(
pls add me or post username and I’ll follow :)
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EDAnonymous,basic_throwawayy,2019/08/13,Where did I get this idea??? That 1200 is the recommended average for women? Is this wrong?,0.7974509803921563,3.1890624705882367,2.5847058823529423,86.62450980392158,100.76470588235293,6.972549019607843,17.43137254901961,7.793537801064563,1.1818784313725494,70,2,14,2,3,23,15,17,0.225,0.687,0.08800000000000001,-0.5838,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154718394318797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6816410355034455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6601840783018451,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gaypurple,2019/08/13,"DAE wish they had BDD? Not in the sense that i want to see myself and hate what i look like and all that, but just so i could find some relief in knowing i don’t REALLY look how i see myself. I don’t have BDD so i know what i see, is what other people see. it fucking sucks",0.6472580645161301,1.6339130806451614,2.7589032258064528,97.36835483870968,79.48387096774194,5.605161290322582,15.625806451612902,5.6839178017228535,-0.9193006451612904,209,2,54,1,5,71,41,62,0.099,0.755,0.146,0.2169,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,1,0,6,1,0,1,1,14,19,6,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,6,11,2,3,17,2,2,0,0,6,1,1,2,2,1,1,38,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772464909292005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290117950858289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20523259196010094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21917601609639786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24400742279485316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845649040309834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.372843033106938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390472478050218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422169230324184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7076112701480568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093954576841768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25528552280472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beetrah,2019/08/13,"I got rid of all my binge foods So tonight when the urge struck, I ate an entire fucking tub of shaved Parmesan cheese :)))

That’s it. I just wanted someone to share my pain.",-0.03200000000000003,2.315875514285718,0.6257142857142846,103.04428571428572,93.85714285714286,2.8000000000000003,18.42857142857143,3.1291,-1.0251714285714284,133,4,30,0,5,40,31,35,0.145,0.795,0.06,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5326030191589057,0.0,0.0,0.4071959085699528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522741401919175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686778889556708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731982537233056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25979327551090553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohcheol,2019/08/13,"9 years with an ED and im almost certain my heart health is finally going downhill tw// mentions of anorexia, food and declining health. 


I’ve had an ED since 6th grade if not earlier. I’m 20 now, it’s been 9+ years. 

Today my heart began to act up. I didn’t understand why it suddenly hurt, why i was so faint and it was so hard to breathe. Thought I was just in the stages of having an anxiety attack until while eating my only meal of the day my mom walked by and said I need to eat more and then explained to my dad I was having chest issues. It clicked then. 

I’m fairly certain now hours later it wasn’t an anxiety attack at all. 

I doubt I’ll go to the doctor about this, never planned on recovering anyways. Guess i’ll just wait and find out if I’m right.",1.7557763975155292,3.3927939875776403,3.626677018633544,89.54386645962738,78.06832298136645,6.587577639751553,23.301242236024837,7.447530270364453,0.899539130434782,596,19,130,8,14,201,102,161,0.11199999999999999,0.865,0.023,-0.9145,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,8,6,2,1,7,0,11,12,4,0,4,26,24,14,0,3,5,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,8,4,1,4,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,11,3,11,2,17,13,2,27,0,1,1,0,5,6,0,5,16,74,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438937740916674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21985865718254946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269566761976718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267395604535164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708199803764174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29407986797866803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741521180783308,0.13133826703707996,0.0,0.17376138051063558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333488704422414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583006304225611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872606331486106,0.0,0.0,0.30549059829448244,0.0,0.3405679732222455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415145521932074,0.0,0.1538327332393715,0.0,0.15521956039306253,0.14998440397183305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829851201193102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655097501151496,0.11082951436791412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928955181383808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271814623220778,0.1366906394666455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886928359291035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140809410844168,0.0,0.0,0.13620983350095026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959570900780994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25933196222679183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18507486725297406
EDAnonymous,Dumbbells_and_Donuts,2019/08/13,"Willing to ignore morals to be skinny I've been vegan for a while due to the cruelty against animals, so it's a moral choice for me.
I am at the point of thinking about starting to eat eggs again, not because I like them, but because they are low calorie and high protein, low carb and easy to make.

Thinking about it constantly is driving me crazy.",4.310000000000001,5.5745942028985525,4.841275362318843,84.93234782608697,70.73913043478261,7.838840579710146,32.64057971014493,8.238735603445708,2.4385918840579714,276,13,54,4,5,88,53,69,0.191,0.757,0.052000000000000005,-0.8077,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,4,0,6,3,1,1,0,8,10,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,1,12,7,0,11,2,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172268738250309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698170054766467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501753224622001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615730081526725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719084582195312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284337422807248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235074317446865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422242661064636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385600466395728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbdumbidiotbitch,2019/08/13,"Holy shit?? 1000 calories is actually fine?? I know it sounds fake but hear me out 
For a while I would starve myself and restrict calories in a really extreme way (like 300 cals) when I first started losing weight, and I would feel sick, weak and lethargic until I binged way more calories than I would have if I would have just eaten small portions through the day. I was hitting a wall, I would never lose anything because it was such a crazy whiplash caloric intake!!! 


And nowadays I know that I don’t eat the “recommended” calorie intake or whatever but I don’t restrict THAT much!! I probably eat from 700-1000 calories a day because I have a very physically, mentally, and creatively demanding job (creatively, does that make sense?) but I still have been losing substantial weight pretty quickly since I follow some pretty simple rules. “No sugary drinks, diet soda / energy drinks are okay. Use Splenda instead of sugar for coffee. No fried foods like ever. Cheese is okay sometimes if it’s social or you’ve got a lot of calories left. No deserts/treats unless it’s social and you don’t really have a choice. Never eat 3 meals. Only 2. If you eat breakfast, don’t have dinner. If you don’t eat breakfast, you can eat dinner. If you’re going to drink, drink a white claw or vodka soda. Don’t buy snacks or junk food ever; if it isn’t in the house, you can’t binge on it.” 

Im 5’7, and my peak weight in 2018 was 167 pounds, today I’m at a pretty steady 145. I look so so much better. My arms are slim, my face is narrower, my lips look thicker because I don’t have cheek fat.... my side profile looks more elegant because I don’t have pudge under my chin. I don’t have cellulite on my tummy, you can see my collar bones and ribs (not like a spooky amount, but noticeable.) I don’t have rolls on my side. My butt is so much more pronounced because it’s not hidden under back fat and fat thighs. It isn’t my goal weight, which is closer to 130-135, but I’m pretty damn close and I feel so so much better about myself.

It’s incredible, and I was able to do it without really really starving myself. If any of you are out there and you’re scared to eat more than 600 calories or something, I promise promise promise you that you can still lose weight with that! You can lose weight with 1000 calories! Maybe it won’t be as fast, but you’re much much less likely to binge and gain it all back.

Your body needs to eat to live. You need to live to thrive. We only have one life, and we shouldn’t waste it on starving. You can be slim without wasting away.",3.148436179205408,4.896467865877714,3.8736756832910717,88.79078402366865,74.48323471400394,6.327585235277543,23.708509439278675,6.971451493551832,0.7785894054663283,1996,59,403,19,42,634,236,507,0.106,0.731,0.162,0.9856,2,0,6,0,0,0,76.0,2,13,0,10,18,22,2,1,14,2,52,47,13,2,5,68,73,42,0,15,24,0,8,4,0,7,6,2,0,0,19,21,34,2,4,5,1,2,24,10,0,2,7,16,54,12,39,56,16,43,0,5,5,1,18,21,3,14,22,251,73,2,0.0566927421877522,0.0,0.05532393834886786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038553008764638234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04665329628582743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05326469749634585,0.08718643861650029,0.0,0.17279684717322594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028024675648084,0.0,0.06297285610672984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312425727511555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049612200734149715,0.0,0.0,0.2221492167665212,0.0,0.4640866289333887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256366205913167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733110775286805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822281754340125,0.13710617777793987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03221979187005598,0.0,0.045342364908105816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389684074859564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06541581277139644,0.0,0.0,0.0612378900861757,0.0,0.0562587987877177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062313696926187365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159683026771765,0.0,0.040043760410782295,0.11078884068766404,0.0,0.10012146002194207,0.0,0.14282287501720356,0.3171233853313092,0.0,0.04819814205638097,0.0,0.0,0.03784284563668236,0.0,0.056955479550062214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713294984998502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500541319511137,0.08407389996218075,0.0874498755437771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454506273772108,0.0,0.0,0.038416469326120896,0.0862347702131792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307076008546627,0.061124364769990114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527528938441725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05675932505877866,0.0,0.04517677548956369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058194285159131214,0.04689682218434139,0.0,0.0,0.11558222235008125,0.0,0.04364484269291577,0.05607057165335107,0.0,0.04012741471643367,0.0,0.0905497942882789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05373809068563945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048964326742548636,0.0,0.04677744964916985,0.0,0.09000011983739982,0.0,0.4142189212260801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929956076754063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20136448727971049,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilula,2019/08/13,"Perks of nearly being a healthy weight again My libido has literally been non existent for the past few years due to being too thin. Thoughts of food and self hatred completely consumed and controlled me. I didn’t want my boyfriend seeing me naked or touching me because all I could feel was my “fat” under his hands. When we did get intimate all I was thinking of the ENTIRE TIME was food, and what I’ll have to eat after because I didn’t have the energy for sex, being vigorous just made me feel like I was going to pass out at any moment which then triggered a panic attack, it was all quite awful. I’ve now gained 10kgs and I’m nearly back at a healthy weight which honestly terrifies the shit out of me but due to doing Strength training i look toned now and not obese as I’d anticipated so I’m learning to slowly accept that weight gain is what’s needed to be able function properly. I have good and bad body days but am trying super hard to not let the bad days affect me as much as they used to. But the honest best thing so far about gaining weight is my libido coming back, I’m starting to feel a little more myself again and it’s nice.
Sorry if this is tmi I just don’t think that this is really talked about all that much, and i am here to confirm that being severely underweight 10/10 affects your sex drive. So no matter how much you try convince yourself that you’re only sexy when you reach your lowest, You won’t feel anything but sick and immense self hatred",7.227367231638419,6.194230335593223,7.120000000000001,79.04418079096045,64.28813559322035,9.629378531073447,31.192090395480232,8.447377352677275,2.211334463276836,1179,34,230,13,15,376,173,295,0.141,0.68,0.179,0.9166,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,5,1,8,18,16,2,1,10,1,29,15,4,7,4,47,49,25,0,4,10,0,12,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,14,13,9,1,9,0,0,4,7,5,0,0,11,14,28,11,29,30,10,33,0,0,2,2,11,10,1,2,20,155,42,1,0.10848481552389852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377339465908891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927375967083097,0.0,0.0,0.1234171390349034,0.0,0.16683625353970113,0.1811605790973672,0.1322626732474304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138481209110932,0.0,0.0,0.120502173896035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345006267179784,0.11374426506681914,0.0,0.12167494526115205,0.08661629770605217,0.0,0.0,0.13992746257609692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100704954483433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21941272933149109,0.0775015738865642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623605390998353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056678838565598536,0.0,0.06165442069578635,0.09099191623423557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718108612005223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093307394431268,0.0,0.05300020108528267,0.10873028513858317,0.0,0.0,0.0910999224411096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102650955501816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392464654987675,0.08044011610486454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250759071893686,0.0,0.12728355665801394,0.0,0.0,0.10356103173030456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11538695496955882,0.0,0.0,0.06949815073707212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644835239613265,0.0,0.22634664450111186,0.12255696256694533,0.11135810416659273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143986919634076,0.07678611079609655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719598538633386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207249096300446,0.13902537872570692,0.0,0.0861248256544905,0.0632583683437618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14730813722082192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936960490696612,0.0,0.0,0.06398715494064575,0.0,0.0,0.5284211173145846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986066438299952
EDAnonymous,kayleeemma,2019/08/13,Coffee Calories Do you count your coffee calories in your total daily calories or meal plan?,4.942499999999999,8.430078250000005,4.492500000000003,77.1025,79.0,3.2,26.75,3.1291,1.0551,76,3,9,0,2,23,12,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spoonofnutella,2019/08/13,"How to deal when other people around you are losing weight? Caught up with my friend from high school yesterday, and she was telling me how she needed a new pair of jeans because hers got too loose. Talked to my other friend today, and she’s been telling me about how much weight she lost this summer. I want to be happy for them, but I got triggered and felt really fat and spent an hour on the treadmill today. Any advice/coping mechanisms for stuff like this?",6.892134831460672,6.7831164157303405,5.80368539325843,85.15676404494383,64.61797752808988,8.468314606741574,25.665168539325844,7.554174236665415,1.1281262921348312,367,7,72,3,5,109,68,89,0.055,0.8220000000000001,0.122,0.7359,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,2,7,6,0,0,3,0,4,3,1,4,0,14,12,9,0,2,1,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,8,3,13,4,12,3,1,12,0,2,0,0,13,4,0,0,8,48,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787494696671727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430647403811473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056644855964776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787025977616808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664304811820703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26783911566976865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772664977469064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845202139030218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18313981341501528,0.0,0.0,0.17070180154134704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846835898093428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939195068070568,0.1892175594971912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742246968102333,0.12852701795374571,0.0,0.1674097317373947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120169890567098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104397283429103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754260643490022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984291301736799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393215291314845,0.3030079526611437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286059787620227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223851742262888,0.0,0.0,0.4221549751599799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Asuka-neko,2019/08/13,Laxatives Is there any better way to take caster oil? It works amazingly quick but wow does it's disgusting properties stick in my mouth,3.837466666666668,6.9904548800000015,4.18,79.93666666666667,80.2,9.733333333333334,24.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,3.204333333333333,112,4,19,4,3,35,24,25,0.139,0.634,0.228,0.4489,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518341387449738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575779605956645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527601470252231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890031566922956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106698240239556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766566576817089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hotgog,2019/08/13,"I can’t control myself. I’m so stupid. I’m having an awful time. Was planning on fasting today. Ended up eating with my girlfriend. Had a decent full day of eating, estimated 1000 cals (trying not to count them anymore). Was proud because I went for a morning run and may have overestimated on the cals a bit. Gf left for work. Biked to the gym, worked out and burned 400 on the elliptical. Brain says the calorie counts are off so it doesn’t count. Whatever. Got home. Planned to fast the rest of the day. Ended up eating a waffle. Purged it. Then ate some kim chi and shrimp. 
I feel like a fat fucking failure. 
I eat more than everyone fucking around me yet I have an awful relationship with food. 
I’m never going to be skinny. I’m just going to be a flabby blob with tennis balls for salivary glands. 
I hate myself.",0.922817617165446,3.4930135714285733,2.6553952569169965,89.05921936758894,90.30434782608695,4.417955957086392,19.11942405420666,6.1124844417494595,0.10214037267080787,639,19,123,6,22,210,108,161,0.111,0.8540000000000001,0.035,-0.9195,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,6,5,6,4,0,14,2,12,12,3,1,1,15,25,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,2,1,1,0,2,8,8,1,1,3,0,4,4,4,0,0,6,2,11,2,22,16,5,25,0,0,0,2,5,10,2,2,12,75,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456724406766504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076057758917767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954095577250976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603625676359875,0.0,0.0,0.16397447764143014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474626778289508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18945993499536687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6012083118952938,0.0,0.0,0.2601965786725272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035682936184976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427048391893283,0.10493610675318124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761635124403152,0.0,0.0,0.2715893411040343,0.0,0.0,0.1669585415493141,0.0,0.11747895743686865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502050875282096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733964389803364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15959316228725404,0.0,0.0,0.07176157179937565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328831466651468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577016739935218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681044313720824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856509946916554,0.0,0.1392317070622895,0.0,0.0,0.09972663545931064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616572657176176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387098021442952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,questions_anonymous,2019/08/13,"Why have I been sleeping on jumping rope?? I can burn almost 100 calories in 10 minutes with nothing but open space and a $4 jump rope - plus, feeling everything jiggle is good motivation to keep going lol. What else have I been missing out on?",5.644184397163119,6.330463063829789,6.0859574468085125,79.33333333333334,67.29787234042553,7.9687943262411345,34.815602836879435,7.793537801064563,2.616381560283689,192,9,35,2,3,62,41,47,0.053,0.7020000000000001,0.245,0.879,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,1,1,1,0,10,10,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,7,8,0,9,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,1,0,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701912573267386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088286608082858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322536454866284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18692643452286925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101034168500678,0.3100785359881681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328597568240865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547276443539609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699571095549292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335878350809956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sleepybear7,2019/08/13,"I miss how I ate as a kid Pre-puberty and pre-ed. eating was so simple. Having meals  and snacks where I wasn’t  aware or concerned about the calories (or health). 

-a bologna and cheese sandwich with mayo and chips on the side

-a bagel with as much cream cheese as I wanted. A pbj with as much pb as I wanted. Not using fucking measuring spoons for everything 

-a couple of bowls of sugary cereal

-seconds at dinner if I wanted them 

-a bowl of full fat ice cream  after dinner 

And I ate it and it was good but I wasn’t obsessed,  it didn’t lead to a binge/purge , I never went hungry and there wasn’t all this shame and guilt and hours wasted deciding and calculating. 

And sure the food was not always super healthy,  obesity-promoting, too much sugar, processed, Michael pollen blah blah blah 

Don’t care. I wish I could go back so bad.",1.3637272727272745,3.9184502666666674,2.431136363636366,92.32670454545458,85.72727272727273,5.239393939393938,18.553030303030305,6.742157984588678,0.1628848484848482,654,17,132,8,20,207,105,165,0.193,0.7340000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.9619,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,8,10,1,3,10,0,10,13,1,3,3,32,22,23,0,6,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,14,11,0,1,0,0,3,8,6,0,1,10,3,12,4,17,11,5,12,0,1,2,1,2,5,1,3,4,84,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678137751702364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507934066442128,0.16839423425508054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20562602840167574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102493377857305,0.2231548963831988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063688159770276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812568272195105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24387205152795274,0.0,0.0,0.1864497534271677,0.0,0.0,0.11461929535925645,0.16915947314819788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21437622879618265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19861400768684995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447736428822776,0.0,0.15554791841156898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900808534180376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741866195661918,0.0,0.0,0.35686796803404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695922337254786,0.0,0.0,0.23192185181639724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emmeline_arcadia,2019/08/13,"when you live with three kind and wonderful people but you can't bring yourself to prepare food or eat in front of them So you're forced to skip all of their kitchen hangouts and wait til odd hours of the night after they've all gone to bed before you can actually eat anything

Haha I hate myself so much",7.591397849462368,6.097284806451615,6.934516129032258,82.15510752688175,63.838709677419345,9.556989247311831,31.956989247311824,7.793537801064563,1.9791763440860224,246,7,51,2,3,76,51,62,0.17,0.713,0.11699999999999999,-0.7066,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,3,2,0,3,3,1,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,2,9,7,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,1,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,7,2,10,6,3,9,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,5,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.25289116144069684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325680410460665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205159445484623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5303464020401941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31336290920137844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25585509553797353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552086754794141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698628656623505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288325186687055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050367025993573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431929351410253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17966066161701744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28103505815804225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MeDasPenaAjena,2018/12/03,Car sick + fasting = bad idea I get really car sick when I’m not driving. Currently fasting and wow am I shaky. Super light headed and nauseous :( trying to act normal in front of my mom tho ,-0.306153846153844,1.960587487179492,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,97.20512820512822,4.651282051282052,19.320512820512818,6.42735559955562,0.4353897435897438,148,5,29,2,6,51,33,39,0.294,0.5529999999999999,0.152,-0.7351,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,3,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,3,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32747814878947473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20491302491392227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025196064208462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4427562432894426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593504635088848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842815653543121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512591410456471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662841790363969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JenniferLawrencesCat,2018/12/03,"Not knowing whether people are looking bc I'm ugly or pretty I was bullied my entire life up until I moved away for college, so all the looks I ever got were mean-spirited or because someone thought I looked weird. Other than that I'm used to being ignored by strangers.

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After losing weight I've discovered that I get a LOT more looks from people, especially strangers on the street. But seeing as I associate being looked at with feeling inadequate, I automatically think they're looking because there's something ugly about me, and I just end up feeling a lot more shitty and self-conscious whenever I step out. My nonexistent self-worth refuses to let me believe that they might look at me because I'm pretty.

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Anyone else experience this?",8.300017985611511,8.765305575539575,8.079775179856117,68.08138938848923,61.58992805755396,9.827697841726616,39.677158273381295,9.516144504307137,4.07988417266187,621,31,95,10,8,199,97,139,0.17,0.763,0.067,-0.9381,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,0,4,0,7,2,0,1,2,23,26,9,0,0,6,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,2,5,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,4,11,15,0,18,18,5,14,0,1,8,0,2,8,0,5,4,65,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305431783588721,0.2585466579917263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438911530378595,0.1090073011751566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995523239835162,0.0,0.0,0.19455980972861625,0.0,0.0,0.11986308939763128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887370425768702,0.0,0.09422838298186148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623423354136024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406809098334716,0.0,0.0,0.1075861587214684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05558345261595337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508837625880643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846818202886452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878916038460007,0.07514514427193074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6253751568185966,0.11902120229601465,0.0,0.1808949160274433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588795759872032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286108634430796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11307383844779123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751238893472718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21647012884167774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847776351940661,0.0,0.22197222645708484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014239141890527,0.08190284746588826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816927398637229,0.0,0.0844603609913979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188526151145486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955218772492405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585466579917263,0.0
EDAnonymous,1-800-FixYourFace,2018/12/03,"Self Care Idea Thread! Self care is hard when you’re struggling and ED but important nonetheless! Doing something intentionally to honor yourself can be really helpful when you’re at a low point. I’ve been trying to do a couple “self care” things for myself lately and would love to hear everyone else enjoys doing. 

For organization’s sake, maybe we could format the comments with a “free-ish” category (since nothing is really truly free) and a “cost required” category. Sorry in advanced if this is a stupid idea, I just thought it might be helpful to get ideas from others. ",6.876552197802197,8.271314759615386,7.1100549450549435,70.54923076923076,64.86538461538461,9.404395604395603,31.203296703296704,9.606745405546679,3.076998901098902,461,17,74,9,7,149,77,104,0.11800000000000001,0.598,0.284,0.9761,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,3,3,10,1,1,6,0,13,1,0,1,0,17,20,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,4,5,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,2,3,8,10,13,0,8,0,1,0,1,9,4,0,2,3,44,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42591775268242144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111781720986425,0.15407522855350106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632380973263835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13305740119652212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275131626824295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473882864463764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694258067954464,0.0,0.18666995606441414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715820211841623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707777362849593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567672813163686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398933005091375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772008935363606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361218126821628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163433910817912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784116284767898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.435797999846913,0.0,0.0,0.11518735845233508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719988915460604,0.0,0.15587670028297698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557221060142775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925101628224278,0.0,0.0,0.110547332801913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945402301022307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891776156894166,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,realthrowawayhrs,2018/12/03,"do you ever get surprised by how fucked up your thoughts are? i'm fasting right now and i was like ""ok if you get through the rest of the day today and tomorrow you can think about eating tomorrow night"" and i just paused and realized how stupid it is that i have to see if i can think about eating at some point. i never really thought i'd get to this point but here i am and i feel like an idiot that that's what my thoughts are like right now and theres nothing i can do about it because i am in this so deep. i've been thinking about starting to smoke cigarettes just to suppress my appetite, but my whole life i have been so against cigarettes and think they're disgusting and also i can't afford that shit and i've watched my mom and brother stop smoking and it doesn't look fun at all so why the fuck would i switch all my opinions now just so that i won't want to eat? it doesn't make any sense but i'm scared i'll actually do it. idk what the point of this post is, i guess i just needed to get this stuff out, especially the cigarette thing because it's making me really anxious. anyone else's brain really surprise them sometimes?",3.1305648926237164,4.3691700210084035,3.9448179271708703,90.33041083099907,73.57983193277309,7.305695611577962,25.827264239028946,7.793537801064563,1.1983605975723617,907,30,200,12,18,290,128,238,0.14800000000000002,0.777,0.075,-0.963,1,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,1,0,21,14,6,1,6,1,22,8,2,4,4,46,46,23,0,5,9,2,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,19,12,3,2,9,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,6,4,26,7,20,38,5,25,0,0,3,2,7,11,3,5,16,132,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.11163026819110744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147938647711916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779060631642021,0.0,0.0,0.12923060502282208,0.0,0.07998567328311723,0.11720830852288265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394648245819958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769950668321678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377349384837976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35115528014105096,0.09555998943106067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347427753719628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05784012423147479,0.08172179755279713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21150745761328327,0.2390607745625928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260158849694344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079858100209804,0.16765872560298614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606062232625873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271533927678088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397474080557958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482035336555745,0.08822630267816585,0.0,0.0,0.10734931350434486,0.0,0.10976238363580043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244127599376455,0.0,0.10955608926919018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198476825699689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538059650147954,0.0,0.0,0.11452652988482274,0.0,0.09115575850923932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742193078408232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313679282596432,0.0,0.0809673750694386,0.0,0.0,0.0956369861489763,0.0,0.0,0.13095168010051245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599708264280207,0.2931915646397679,0.0,0.2724438439162996,0.0,0.0,0.10843041284385972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747147263993107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322115153184992,0.1277147858278787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126092389682127,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,helpmytonguehurts,2018/12/03,Senna tea ISNT WORKING Day 3 comes to a close. Strongly brewed senna tea every eve (not removing the tea bag) has not given me any relief from this gastrointestinal hell. Will I ever look unpregnant again? Will I ever actually have a BM? Tune in next week (help),2.454557823129249,5.295637346938778,4.211326530612244,79.4152210884354,83.69387755102042,6.531972789115647,20.41156462585034,7.793537801064563,1.3225074829931969,206,6,35,4,6,69,41,49,0.09,0.8009999999999999,0.109,-0.1926,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,3,0,5,3,0,0,2,6,8,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,3,5,0,11,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,7,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.3083707387480211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214891060696761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722063039462882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037940709691828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5716807801793822,0.2662439072350995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118083603790058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26536069071007384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360699361879011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253476404096635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300520039824462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hereforketoinfo,2018/12/03,"why are cheeseburgers given such a bad rep? It sounds like a balanced food to me. It has the meat=protein, cheese=calcium/vit D, mayo= good fats  lettuce,tomato,onion= vitamins and minerals

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It can be really greasy depending on which kind of meat it is prepared with, but I still don't get how it got such a bad rep? ",3.91,5.442655384615384,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,72.07692307692308,8.892307692307693,28.384615384615394,9.3871,2.5144461538461536,260,10,51,6,5,85,54,65,0.122,0.7929999999999999,0.085,-0.6381,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,0,6,3,1,2,0,5,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,3,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29845691173503863,0.3347096957408468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599892032043476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330829917140351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391460835596553,0.0,0.0,0.23103977286431096,0.2203076593593345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868454689689326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345740910542479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764644336036241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21997984970071247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485565710048093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347096957408468,0.0
EDAnonymous,redcapris,2018/12/03,"I just don't understand this I don't understand how my brain/body does this.. I've been trying to break a binge cycle for months and failing, doing tons of emotional eating and binging and not being able to stop. And then, a few weeks ago, I did. Just like that. Suddenly I can do 24 hour fasts, eat <500 calories a day, no problem. When I'm upset I *lose* my appetite. I'm grateful to be losing weight again but it honestly freaks me out a little bit. ",0.8238833992094854,3.2223190760869582,2.5500790513834017,91.6763438735178,86.5,5.519367588932806,20.3201581027668,6.980632752743323,0.5311173913043485,353,11,73,5,11,116,69,92,0.142,0.755,0.10300000000000001,-0.09,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,1,4,0,9,3,0,1,0,14,13,8,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,1,8,2,6,9,3,14,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,12,46,12,1,0.1873624358657101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660854945924624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045512535199142,0.20811742840914724,0.0,0.20915844290398228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083327102579634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639621302392573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834370939480269,0.0,0.21075752205449755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184514258039098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153582212179216,0.18778638261545771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192212805574301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955090876610416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17928054727381096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664338591825264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272067951595187,0.0,0.0,0.3901018068547973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029084452356087,0.22815697115033176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,livi_loser,2018/12/03,"I hate grocery shopping. Yesterday I went to the grocery store, which was already terrible enough on its own. I was wearing kinda short-shorts I guess? and heeled boots (according to my boyfriend my legs look great in them but obvs my dysmorphic ass only sees fat). 
While I was walking through the aisles I kept seeing people stare at me or watch me when I walked by (mostly men) and my first assumption is that it’s because I’m fat and ugly :(((( So I cried in the grocery store for the first non-calorie related time!! What a terrible time ",5.315880721220529,6.392845165048544,5.385464632454924,82.65922330097091,68.22330097087378,8.604160887656034,32.190013869625524,8.841846274778883,2.627073231622746,424,18,80,7,7,133,75,103,0.204,0.773,0.023,-0.9667,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,2,4,1,0,5,0,4,6,6,0,0,9,12,8,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,3,2,1,0,1,3,3,0,3,0,2,5,5,15,1,9,7,3,14,0,0,5,1,2,4,1,4,7,51,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701575133037757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923588727972645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268915863822478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25295753394712484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164760573439976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26990747664942155,0.2696893996191389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417024043441028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055814754504425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18619151126967384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16972268536446014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901689344981681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855051541257869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22694433900899064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daisyprincesss,2018/12/03,"Anyone else who's got an overweight BMI and binge/restrict issues? It's so hard for me to navigate being a newly diagnosed ~person with an ED~ because of two facts:

* My ED isn't a traditional one, it's more of just a binge-restrict/emotionally charged yo-yo situation
* I'm overweight.


This makes it hard for me to see myself as disordered (though I'd never feel that way about another person!) AND makes it really difficult to navigate recovery - because there is weight to lose, and I think I'd feel mentally better if I lost it, but how do I do so without just tipping the scales towards more restricting than binging? Especially when trying to lose it is what got me here in the first place... Ugh.",4.239043419267297,6.211262619402987,5.540013568521035,77.0406037991859,72.05970149253731,9.051831750339213,30.83853459972863,9.573946990214177,3.162919402985075,557,25,100,14,11,186,90,134,0.18899999999999997,0.7959999999999999,0.015,-0.9581,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,5,10,6,0,0,7,0,6,4,0,3,2,18,16,11,0,1,5,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,10,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,3,3,6,8,1,16,12,2,7,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,1,3,67,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548413094373854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034881312665294,0.16170142980858834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240668026968333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957567579124186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018020326666382,0.0,0.0,0.18087113065319274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183525228059545,0.17752207469888806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595933071026256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342384480469578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524401935065224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827447791015326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647191954669026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531121013238894,0.17227511337451445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21068718613866916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159041692520435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217176450166029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694039636196456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755981787232201,0.16488442422181604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110115076221536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575914345997655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739211215151368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112230055946042,0.1550536948618915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714689550522888,0.0,0.15416357499057934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252672181601507,0.0,0.19217771437428469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212926325223128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,puppysnoutt,2018/12/03,"do any other bulimics do this?  DAE go days binging with no purging, for whatever reason like you're too tired to, you're in a position where you can't, you feel like youre just going to be a helpless fatass forever? i got high a few days ago and ate a ton of white chocolate and candy and fuckin nesquik (i never smoke and thats food i never eat and am unable to purge successfully) and ever since then i felt like absolute shit and havent purged since then which is good for my... throat and overall health stuff i guess but not my fucked up ed brain, it is messed up but i feel like the only way to feel good about myself is to have a big successful bp, i just dont want to feel so alone right now",2.2533673469387736,3.7033523809523845,3.4759353741496604,91.96043367346941,76.21088435374148,6.8047619047619055,21.093537414965986,7.492282038375204,0.4832680272108836,548,13,124,7,12,178,98,147,0.102,0.7390000000000001,0.16,0.8985,0,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,2,8,13,3,0,6,0,11,10,3,1,3,25,23,13,0,1,5,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,9,3,0,6,0,0,2,7,5,0,0,3,6,13,8,14,19,2,19,0,1,1,2,3,7,3,1,13,75,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676576799872972,0.0,0.0,0.15979439446272115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492018348424116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722348790746223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900419542588646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18082275435635364,0.0,0.0,0.15787371667129005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956106912114793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120477772050308,0.22044476576066,0.14813933810654306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865639776275892,0.0,0.0,0.14263548204525847,0.0,0.0,0.17536926860717644,0.2588165717734806,0.12339709398067572,0.0,0.16996409205427726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639994484912665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301227123519801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015065714823762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379906855970971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173419170566393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863232841081598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175991938417808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837298494406088,0.2552549513552915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766212522862836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773297582884102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100223824633244,0.1224655271990714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fluffyloops,2018/12/03,Do you think most super skinny girls on IG have eating disorders? I know IG is mostly fake and people edit their pictures a lot but I can’t believe how beautiful and skinny some girls are. How can anyone have the most perfect flat stomach while they are constantly traveling and eating delicious food? ,6.425909090909091,8.239457363636369,6.507045454545459,72.90056818181819,66.27272727272727,9.136363636363637,30.113636363636363,9.516144504307137,3.1056363636363638,245,9,37,5,4,78,44,55,0.031,0.688,0.282,0.9628,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,2,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,8,6,3,2,1,14,10,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,10,5,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,5,2,28,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035006808299685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279003950939571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145089078082317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335549988033418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5956094856537721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519245543184762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994698688342793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474302753832533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20176924713032796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18648553099818085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittypurrly,2018/12/03,"My brain is working against me I ate at a deficit this week. Less than the 3500 deficit I would have liked, but still over half a pound worth. Yet, my brain thinks that small of a weight loss is basically the same as me gaining 5 pounds and I feel horrible. I hate how logic has gone out the window for me now. It's finals week, I should feel good about fuelling my brain! But nope, I just feel hungry AND guilty. ",1.2355952380952395,3.4985608928571423,1.5357142857142885,100.67595238095241,82.92857142857143,4.685714285714286,18.857142857142858,5.82211442006289,-0.5381571428571426,321,8,75,2,9,96,62,84,0.215,0.6609999999999999,0.124,-0.8639,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,0,6,0,6,5,3,1,0,15,13,6,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,5,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,2,4,12,2,9,9,2,11,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,7,49,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7017818466942545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31786457325073025,0.0,0.0,0.2295519587979292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576073312418836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068874008219046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237562394552363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734702937339346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427128199386398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361769987913008,0.2551756431264435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255501304030422,0.0,0.0,0.1488584221860258,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,songfireleaf,2018/12/03,"Day 6 of not going to class Christ, I am just so exhausted and anxious and full of violent self hatred recently. This is the last week of regular class before finals, but I just can't make myself go to class. 

I didn't eat most of last week and couldn't get myself to go to class at all, and I have to go to class on at least Wednesday and Thursday (and turn in bigass final projects that I have neither started nor do I have the energy to do) but the other days this week are.... Less necessary.  I'm able to do stuff like laundry or clean, but anything that requires focus and brain power is pretty much out of the question.

ED brain has apparently come to the conclusion that I now have to walk at least 15k steps a day or I am Even More Disgusting™. For the folks at home, that's about 7 miles and 2 hours of walking for me. I hurt. I'm tired. I don't have the fucking time for this. I had to stop taking my ADHD meds because I'm EC stacking again (and because my father accidentally fucked up and I no longer have insurance and my vyvanse is way too expensive for me to buy now).

And the most fun? I don't want to stop. Normal brain knows this is bad. ED brain is currently louder and gives exactly 0 fucks. I hit another LW right before breaking my fast Thursday, and would have hit another one this morning if boyfriend hadn't made me eat. 

I have to eat today because I have to give myself my IM testosterone shot and I really don't feel like (A) passing out or (B) being stuck in a state of almost passing out for like 20 minutes, complete with cold sweats, tunnel vision, inability to hear, and general misery. No thanks.

Don't really need advice (unless it's about how to fucking make myself do school work without having to eat, because neither food nor ADHD meds are a ton of an option atm). Just... needed to whine to people who might relate. I am a small whiny man.",4.106056166056167,4.967958661375668,5.188994708994713,83.75465201465204,70.85185185185185,7.931786731786732,26.97232397232397,8.139509932561175,1.6316773300773295,1466,47,296,20,26,484,201,378,0.155,0.767,0.078,-0.9836,3,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,4,12,14,5,0,14,0,37,16,5,4,2,59,68,28,0,7,13,1,1,3,0,2,2,1,2,2,13,21,5,3,4,0,3,10,16,9,0,1,5,3,30,5,49,57,12,53,1,2,0,4,8,15,4,10,28,194,43,9,0.08235222637033206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979427452683394,0.0804736425002378,0.0,0.0,0.08246385895543464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727069795443718,0.0,0.09303457516918577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677688654383462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876066916443375,0.20080461131849706,0.0,0.1401513582261523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677292805830194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093915105358012,0.0863447425326195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15933111953747636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370675473308062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0543928688352597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04163976006038105,0.0588324469737181,0.0,0.18042567728735007,0.0,0.0,0.09958063901501647,0.0,0.0,0.3045332250931015,0.04302563931570154,0.15799951910119547,0.1872106722162446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281694429686996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260599763955682,0.0,0.08110035438203109,0.0,0.08815976157869873,0.0,0.08895453619295472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04525862991635536,0.1342561117941137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069941409874466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792366778513968,0.109941501155429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18294951703387974,0.0,0.0,0.08736269816450216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06053836195080532,0.12212626474465965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068769680967444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05580399988090719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05709266465287381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378182037842917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225334072716666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551388992421724,0.0,0.08131288849408708,0.0,0.0,0.07032835135534334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334484966231014,0.0,0.0,0.08591133245746417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058289329689503976,0.0,0.0,0.13770029746839013,0.0,0.0,0.09427359659649336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061918625369463125,0.0,0.0,0.0758188656712495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04802024545560209,0.09465176971080473,0.07806028140599061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957557425381699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048573476785833986,0.06536736411215417,0.19817396575368368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938460747494892,0.0,0.05995340160788405,0.0,0.0,0.058500658812679865,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitty_do_the_dishes,2018/12/03,"I don’t feel FAT but I feel like my body is wide af I don’t feel fat but when I look in the mirror, my body feels wide and I feel like I’m shaped like a square :-) and I don’t know how much of it is real and how much of it is my brain being dumb :-) ",-3.4102868852459025,-1.9451590163934385,-0.23592213114753946,110.33496926229508,98.18032786885244,3.0500000000000003,7.625,3.1291,-2.7092803278688526,184,0,58,0,8,64,32,61,0.067,0.696,0.237,0.8807,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,7,5,5,2,0,14,15,8,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,7,9,3,3,14,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,4,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4821833487428142,0.0,0.24229762780607705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5487305807711875,0.31011862459596506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928404122837133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181164324727385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822658639783687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191108734923653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470484250225851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stopshop,2018/12/03,"All i care about is food Im planning a binge tonight. Bread and butter. And.it.is.all.i.can.think.about. 
I just started a new job i actually like and im seeing one of my best friends i havent seen in a while. And still. All i really care about is leaving my friends place and going home to binge.

Its sad and so fucked up. But yeah",0.2672727272727258,2.6092093636363667,1.0530303030303043,98.19954545454546,99.30303030303033,4.218181818181819,18.12121212121212,6.1124844417494595,-0.244224242424242,262,8,57,3,11,80,46,66,0.10400000000000001,0.611,0.28600000000000003,0.9137,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,5,8,1,0,3,1,3,3,0,0,2,9,10,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,3,7,6,6,9,3,9,0,1,2,1,2,3,1,0,6,34,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.1978187816378782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273493264647114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413359110030204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24512153194904845,0.0,0.3132313361976422,0.18740503024124194,0.0,0.0,0.11520654824261835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033378063233178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379299510650068,0.0,0.2011615109976096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146439444042193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903540012691077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957816125305842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373636690323886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117920846369436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986322741023595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153612617595453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348140292230682,0.0,0.16188697441163272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989039407360828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,burritobinchh,2018/12/03,"Acid & bile at 6am I don’t really see it talked about much on any ED subs or forums but does anyone else get super nauseous about a week into restricting heavily? I live with my family so they can always tell when i’m puking and force feed me. I looked it up online and apparently because i usually go from eating like 2500 cals to 500 cals in a week i get a rather large buildup of stomach acid and my body needs to get rid of it. Does this happen to anyone else? And if so, how do you prevent it?",2.613113207547169,3.7105483773584913,4.3831603773584895,87.23719339622644,74.66037735849056,7.564150943396226,21.740566037735853,8.07648339933343,0.8838905660377354,392,9,86,6,8,133,78,106,0.066,0.838,0.096,0.4922,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,1,7,2,0,0,3,0,3,4,2,1,0,14,12,11,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,10,2,14,12,1,10,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,2,5,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506731425650473,0.1962002040240508,0.0,0.12314067205875368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532308212920023,0.3710759066119002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038474335659006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20113916062381465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169288175671814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852901408072345,0.3025383623468259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707061950190826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838206227894193,0.0,0.10291198927412927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601285273265675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884665862408804,0.0,0.1598970387742353,0.0,0.1520616710907514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311470296005984,0.13426859375810002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160045437538948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429738880289192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455453187550394,0.1582719818333225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19943413853175507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905030544340957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kolimop,2018/12/03,"I only managed a week of recovery. 😞 For a whole week I managed to eat like a normal person.  No weird habits, no safe foods, just eating what I'd like at moderation.  I didn't even think about it or have any urges, it was so freeing.

My energy came back, my face stopped being extremely swollen, eyes started becoming less bloodshot.... all from one week of recovery after a year long b/p relapse.

And I messed it all up today. I b/p'd twice after being dealt some life stress. My self esteem is shot and I feel so pathetic... so I know I'm going to b/p tomorrow too.  I don't want my face to be swollen anymore. I'm so scared and disappointed in myself. 😞",1.4390700344431693,3.444048716417913,3.6643283582089534,87.15030424799083,80.49253731343283,6.809644087256029,23.74052812858784,7.882392219407189,1.3035954075774976,504,18,106,9,13,173,91,134,0.161,0.733,0.107,-0.6454,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,2,4,0,8,9,3,0,2,16,17,8,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,4,4,3,2,3,0,1,2,4,5,0,2,3,2,13,5,13,11,5,17,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,2,14,63,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366111706550485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803417870767662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982789849295255,0.0,0.0,0.20083397257049776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079827091095117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721465119585317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201071807283406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194650501344616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21988819606931706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334693923872744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999374837047942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844279350883608,0.1776809675409175,0.0,0.0,0.16092746878898626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816989599546368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322315852396455,0.1383016313921268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878040114411726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820589823093288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189704425507196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871111977481814,0.0,0.0,0.15203090835743036,0.208303307009518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651919850727464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723681895678352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725713645642763,0.0,0.4375962663877761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20302391032943387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710248439104075
EDAnonymous,zeneith,2018/12/03,"such a joke called my love life before we started dating 5 months ago my bf told his friends i was “chubbier irl” and my “calves and thighs were big” :) that was me at my thinnest, around 147 lbs at 5’7. now i’ve gained 15lbs. i love what a joke my love life is.  great motivation to not eat and drop 50 lbs",-0.7271006944444451,1.4448172968750017,0.27395833333333464,105.76409722222223,94.78125,3.469444444444445,14.923611111111107,5.033348758259628,-1.3849284722222226,233,5,59,1,9,71,48,64,0.0,0.585,0.415,0.9861,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,2,3,7,0,0,2,0,4,7,1,1,0,7,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,10,7,4,5,0,10,0,0,0,3,9,4,0,0,5,28,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21140241287725534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123020608554652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029330255084234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435196761318435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24402951939348505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18425278844862888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629303675395739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368977772174907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457256117573786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035631641834852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880079049482585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22788247557515975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,voteforgoats,2018/12/03,"I feel guilty for feeling hungry I've been restricting to 600-800. Today, I almost went to bed at 245 calories, but I got so hungry. I took a laxative earlier (non-ED-related) that took away my appetite until just now. I'm so ravenous. Now I'm at 370 calories for my day, and I'm so mad for eating the cereal just now? I feel horrible for eating, but I know how ridiculous it is feel that way. I'm just going to chug some water and try to sleep it off. I hope y'all are feeling better than I am right now. ",1.5783333333333331,2.9663846111111165,4.167777777777779,86.555,77.8888888888889,7.392592592592592,23.11111111111111,8.167268648758528,1.2530666666666672,390,12,85,7,9,138,67,108,0.159,0.743,0.098,-0.826,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,11,4,2,0,2,0,4,4,1,1,0,18,20,9,0,1,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,3,1,6,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,5,5,11,2,14,15,1,17,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,3,7,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985643286075606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18630517702632388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537628112401565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788421165344524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058116614898472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013208879927503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269591887786275,0.0,0.15859504921766165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695220302803884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897803688638684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934329833505876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843873570339526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796097544591409,0.0,0.4406272580128446,0.13462964776037042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739776105785122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838219420615147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ShannonAnon,2018/12/03,"I was too good at hiding my body Now when I try to body check and compare to old photos, I can’t even see my body. Either in the old photos or the new, I’m too good at positioning myself so my body is hidden or at a flattering angle.

Fuck. 

I hate dysmorphia",-0.026011904761904958,1.9236008035714285,3.010714285714286,90.10095238095242,85.60714285714286,5.8761904761904775,16.476190476190478,7.1686216300943375,0.020890476190476008,199,4,45,3,6,71,38,56,0.155,0.711,0.134,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,3,0,3,5,4,0,0,4,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,8,3,6,6,1,9,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,2,5,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7947555288633041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814470444749445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653662908553176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000623398355341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660121367737205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727577911872443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753967099607844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253955718513886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144382204653187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,escokebar,2018/12/03,"I know if I eat right now it won’t do anything to my weight, to my progress. But I’m so scared of extra calories. I  rarely eat anything. For some reason I’m craving a cookie with 100 calories, thinking I’ll split it, trash the other piece & eat it slowly. But I can’t because I’m freaking out about calories. I just wanna eat the cookie without the anxiety... or the calories. ",3.092640692640696,4.496757246753248,4.279935064935066,87.2351406926407,73.93506493506493,5.652813852813853,29.71645021645022,5.46131890053228,1.2486554112554114,296,13,58,1,6,97,50,77,0.092,0.8690000000000001,0.039,-0.5777,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,5,0,3,5,0,1,0,13,8,5,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,9,7,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20659397291542966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586422219581127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138150481169581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623241062732302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7804237823673924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478882177708812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604346491994154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283358753174068,0.0,0.0,0.19089680411089932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217547484039985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321881857663529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18380184066354996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WinterSpades,2018/12/03,"Can't wait for my new scale I bought a new scale off of Amazon from a company that makes scales for medical professionals and so it's supposed to be super accurate. I can't wait for it to come in. I've been sneaking to use my girlfriend's parents' scale, which I hate doing. Plus they keep it in the bathroom so I don't trust that moisture have gotten in it and ruined it. I'm just really happy I'll have one of my own soon <3",2.4967546583850933,3.6139626195652177,4.285714285714288,87.745,74.97826086956522,7.431055900621117,24.01242236024845,7.957251820313856,1.1181378881987576,339,10,75,5,7,115,60,92,0.107,0.7879999999999999,0.105,-0.0483,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,1,0,3,0,8,1,0,2,0,10,18,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,3,0,8,3,14,14,1,8,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,49,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520511558484185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114808156344984,0.0,0.2888844035537537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600785575141368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19531444928771535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947662481464066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5651946600725496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982750351822516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249004631218677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874486621173032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25271462416648904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qiaozhina,2018/12/03,"New motivation to get my sh*t together I've booked for some really expensive tattoos in February.

So now I have to keep my shit together and not binge, exercise and lose a decent amount of weight for Feb 19th so I can get my pretty tattoos on a marginally less gross body.

I'm legitimately excited for it though.

Anything y'all are looking forward to?",4.047810945273632,6.385377388059702,5.67246268656717,74.28292288557216,73.6268656716418,9.839800995024877,32.062189054726375,10.125756701596842,3.861171144278608,283,14,50,9,6,96,52,67,0.125,0.762,0.113,-0.2092,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,4,4,1,0,2,0,3,4,2,1,0,6,8,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,6,1,9,8,3,5,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,1,3,30,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24130723936886805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257177364100679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30640614028865865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606405464918441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462433627981821,0.32805471315369794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832079785500466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983251918716271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878537092807557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010012885854884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881016832933873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570809650942089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Silphidae,2018/12/03,"Anorexia --> BED Advice? I originally posted this in r/BingeEatingDisorder but I wanted to post it here too because I think this sub has less members but they're more active and it might help. Anyway, copied:

\--

""I've had an eating disorder for about eleven years now and, as the title says, in the past I struggled with heavy restriction \[(diagnosed with OSFED/EDNOS though because I was a few pounds off the AN diagnosis cutoff but that's a whole 'nother story)\]. Recently I went to a new doctor for concerns about binge eating disorder following sexual assault.

Now, I'm sruggling. How do I reconcile going from one (from the perspective of my admittedly sick mind) eating disorder to this other one that makes me feel more disgusting than ever. When I was struggling with restricting I never felt disgusting, I just felt sick and numb, but now I feel that way about myself, my eating habits, and my body.

I don't know what to do or why I'm feeling like this.

If anyone has advice I would love to hear it.""

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EDAnonymous,stkeen,2018/12/03,Why do so Many People like white Monster energy? I see so many people talking about it but never about other similar drinks like SF Redbull ,5.5403846153846175,7.477988423076923,6.272307692307695,73.24769230769233,68.61538461538461,8.276923076923078,28.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.6443692307692306,113,4,17,2,2,37,21,26,0.0,0.757,0.243,0.725,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30034260385542433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995698960778099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6216706038960333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23646199351902505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251033961823815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24431344988423664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464263507090706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766508232084289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pieceoftrashno13,2018/12/03,"I turn 20 today... And I'm in my friends kitchen stuffing my face with food so I don't have to feel anything. I want to order food but I'm afraid of her waking up and catching me so I'm just dreaming about it and planning a binge for tomorrow instead 
It's been 8 years of obsessing about food and mental illness has taken so much from me
Whilst my friends were out getting life experience I was trapped on a section trying to kill myself and I'm only just beginning to realise what I've lost 
I'm better than I was and I'm fine with the path my life has taken because there isn't any other option than to accept it but goddamn do I wish things could have turned out differently 

Sorry for the rant I just had to post this somewhere I don't expect any replies ",2.2777938517179024,4.129371860759498,3.5987703435804725,89.36227848101265,77.22784810126579,5.780108499095843,25.84267631103075,6.5431188927421005,0.9253258589511756,606,23,125,5,14,198,97,158,0.172,0.708,0.11900000000000001,-0.9022,1,1,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,3,10,9,1,2,4,0,14,9,2,0,0,22,30,11,1,4,5,0,1,0,2,0,3,0,1,0,7,10,4,0,2,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,8,1,16,5,22,21,2,14,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,5,81,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21564834926091853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047887381551335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665485533927057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023075221270342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126594836158195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565828326252405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509913830805955,0.0,0.0,0.08017116655980569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5751831411872727,0.0,0.24500143859236884,0.0,0.08283947099885536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754197916868964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22398694959199905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17308365944915466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978812962137592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655761445738265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058971816503065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518537450799876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749154317535762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053382033937594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029346502549726,0.0,0.0,0.10764977256085044,0.3449288983788292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352100713690606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823326868904375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210548817824283
EDAnonymous,mmblarg,2018/12/03,"Ah shame eating, never gets old Just ferreted a whole plate of cold chicken away to the bathroom to devour  like an animal without anyone seeing... fml",4.003333333333334,7.044391555555558,4.9644444444444495,75.50000000000003,77.8888888888889,6.562962962962962,23.814814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.9257259259259256,120,4,17,2,3,39,26,27,0.105,0.8109999999999999,0.084,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,5,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25639967484378146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445193423958845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752176106553096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19158151188148168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914726043987653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28281558922784583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847817234841495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922061649613004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4093986862260128,0.0,0.35347814377783193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SomeOtherThirdThing,2018/12/03,Is my stomach really that big or is it constant bloat from eating 24/7??? Pretty much what the title says. Does anyone else feel like they’re bloated 24/7 from eating? Part of me says it’s just because I have a fat big stomach and the other part of me says if I fasted for a few days it’d look completely normal. ,3.074062500000004,4.48836703125,4.336375,86.77112500000004,74.0,6.370000000000001,22.175,6.742157984588678,0.5821912499999997,246,6,49,2,5,81,48,64,0.0,0.892,0.10800000000000001,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,5,3,0,0,6,6,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,5,5,4,5,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,4,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905907921032915,0.20377248562127795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212332739886802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20851823591513044,0.21491485406774294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282588956696316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403817324152301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40700063658830826,0.16613580400325165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055793852694404,0.14207741777556007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716101666275752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700617924135489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146197117148212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485675335069855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4307277577712883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232890706076875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740538419712835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744637468547111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Masha_bouledevie,2018/12/03,"NYC Free coaching & support group for food addicts & binge eaters Hi :)

For new-yorkers or neighbours with an eating disorder

I wanted to share with you the upcoming free support group. Come and join us on Sunday 9th in Lower Manhattan (Broadway-Lafayette) to the recovery focused group for food addicts.  
The approach for this group will be slightly different from usual groups : no talks about food, diet, health, but exclusively emotions and personality issues.  
You can book your free ticket here : 

[https://www.eventbrite.fr/e/nyc-food-addiction-and-binge-eating-free-support-group-tickets-53224527996](https://www.eventbrite.fr/e/nyc-food-addiction-and-binge-eating-free-support-group-tickets-53224527996)

If you read the article I posted a few days ago about common threads we food addicts share, it can give you a clearer idea of the coaching approach I am willing to promote.  
[https://bouledevie.com/food-addict-binge-eater-do-you-recognize-yourself-in-this/](https://bouledevie.com/food-addict-binge-eater-do-you-recognize-yourself-in-this/)

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Feel free to contact me for any question about this free meeting :)

Masha

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EDAnonymous,jimmcluskeyPI,2018/12/03,For those that are attempting to be or are in recovery I have been watching Rebecca Leung on YouTube who is a recovered/recovering anorexic. A really good watch for those of us struggling x ,8.044,8.379838685714287,8.766428571428571,63.38107142857146,62.14285714285714,13.857142857142856,43.214285714285715,13.023866798666859,6.367571428571429,154,9,25,6,2,52,31,35,0.08199999999999999,0.8240000000000001,0.094,0.10099999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,6,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4387997971894853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33514817261313523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5469179423208954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6292942115958325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,okokokstop,2018/12/03,"I hate potlucks... or any similar thing where multiple people bring food, like Thanksgiving.  Most dishes are unhealthy. There's always way too much food. Like 10,000 times the amount needed. So whereas normally you would limit your intake to be polite (like at a dinner party where one person cooked), in this situation there is no incentive to limit what you eat. And there are always so many foods that I don't let myself buy so this is my chance to have them. I had two potlucks this weekend and just gorged myself. I hate it. 

What is your approach to these? For those who have this issue, how do you control yourself? I'm considering next time just establishing a really strict rule going in, such as no desserts. That would at least limit the calories somewhat. 

(I'm not asking for weight loss tips, just asking for advice on limiting ED behavior, in this case binging. so I assume this is ok. )",4.2768875502008035,6.709827692771089,4.435638554216869,82.97221285140564,73.27710843373494,7.077269076305221,24.31967871485943,8.021203637495839,1.5141418473895591,711,22,125,11,15,221,112,166,0.10300000000000001,0.815,0.08199999999999999,-0.6931,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,5,1,6,15,7,2,0,4,1,15,9,0,2,0,20,24,9,0,4,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,15,2,9,5,1,2,1,3,4,3,0,2,1,1,14,4,14,19,5,16,0,1,0,0,10,8,0,4,7,89,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388373025276555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24503521862696695,0.0,0.0,0.1001299932626081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27530384370436023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514505677185046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506659029910436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5341388816490684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08368134281209358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907430981395965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536829828870086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505654985509869,0.0,0.21580583903356065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14928085012636166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824022711347034,0.10917849613459783,0.0,0.0,0.15659413815144746,0.0,0.14426645099910598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977537261179753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020794549010432,0.128566528218995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432735740606753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655068121161946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978214174350174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171716647318034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383459067973547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168742944029122,0.0,0.17930177661280552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091937869517421,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sagittorius,2018/12/03,"My Husband likes ed food. So, over the summer my (very healthy and not all all disordered) husband fell in love with Halo Top, and loses his shit every time I bring home a new flavour. 

Just now, I had an open can of grapefruit la croix  next to a cup that was full of white monster, My husband goes “wow, this grapefruit la croix is actually pretty good! Is that what’s in this cup?” 

Nope. It was monster. Now he keeps asking for more!

Now I just have to get him to like shiritaki noodles 😂",1.1436270871985172,3.4976015816326544,2.3335250463821886,94.20043599257887,84.20408163265307,4.788126159554731,22.17439703153989,6.1124844417494595,0.2247020408163265,377,13,81,3,11,120,73,98,0.053,0.727,0.22,0.9558,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,1,0,4,0,7,3,1,0,2,10,12,3,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,2,8,5,10,9,4,15,0,1,1,1,8,6,1,0,9,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.24186611534911606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317065495875403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840578876337464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088245461932213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997015360728944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12949153892745718,0.0,0.0,0.2078850513052148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486140340761999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203007122528713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421742497089033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772810598290106,0.0,0.0,0.22369454970586128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393753398311857,0.26359157902401514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25215283322907883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544147453530993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452348838082008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20450243367056148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,murdernoises,2019/09/29,"Going to fast For as long as I fucking can, I want to cry because I’ve eaten so much this past week I’m so disgusted with myself. I really don’t know why I keep doing this, I’m sickening. I’ve decided to fast for hopefully 4 days, If my willpower isn’t strong enough then I’m going to allow myself 400 calories a day and that’s it.
I want hollow fucking cheeks I want to get rid of my fucking body fat, I hate myself so fucking much",1.48117021276596,2.9486757872340448,4.056329787234045,86.90875,78.36170212765958,6.827659574468084,23.45212765957447,7.645422480735847,1.0971531914893622,340,11,73,5,8,120,59,94,0.157,0.7090000000000001,0.134,-0.7347,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,9,6,1,1,0,4,8,3,1,0,11,22,8,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,1,2,0,0,2,2,7,0,0,1,0,12,2,11,21,3,10,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,2,8,41,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661572109880756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427138206809644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19211638205093526,0.2255884741746941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18071557974924546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6467586412216165,0.09137657808275992,0.0,0.1987962396348499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267479424811785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371240121040735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545668390070938,0.0,0.0,0.0961189373648973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477853473388978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571391591516179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669591851513166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204363671079093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094767328176899,0.0,0.14029199909376874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781753623111291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chellycopter,2019/09/29,"Substitute foods?? I have been having lots of cravings lately. Do you guys have “substitute” foods for when you’re having a craving? 

I used to drink coffee and Diet Coke to pass cravings but caffeine inhibits iron absorption and it got so low I was miserable.",3.23070921985816,6.318461468085108,3.784148936170212,81.88416666666669,83.25531914893618,6.5375886524822695,26.9822695035461,7.793537801064563,2.2692014184397165,207,9,33,4,6,65,37,47,0.223,0.777,0.0,-0.9042,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,7,5,0,1,0,5,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,4,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931149119886245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.723619300890266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393080379547568,0.0,0.0,0.2962679966672207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33752539302983425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25438026516599305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584240364674981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adiposekilla,2019/09/29,"My brother keeps non intentionally triggering me I’m 23 and live with my fam, including my 19 yo brother. He never means to make me self conscious, he’s my brother and doesn’t give two shits that I look like a slob at home lol

He never comments on my body rly, besides trying to get me to work out with him in our home gym. He just comments on other things like “you should get new glasses” “do you shave your chin/moustache?” (Yes I do, I’m Indian and a little hairy lol) or like “you’re lucky u have a body type that can lose or gain weight quickly” ...idk why but it just makes me rly self conscious and makes me want to starve myself

So much for recovery lol imma go low the rest of the week 😂",0.6419396551724148,2.8317688275862096,2.1857543103448265,95.53311422413796,84.86206896551724,5.004310344827585,19.407327586206893,6.322622252153567,-0.1020948275862068,540,15,122,5,16,175,98,145,0.071,0.8170000000000001,0.11199999999999999,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,3,0,3,4,7,1,0,5,4,6,4,3,5,2,26,19,8,0,2,5,3,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,7,1,1,3,1,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,2,18,4,13,18,2,13,0,2,1,0,17,7,1,3,8,63,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598844394953436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927356070792568,0.15540234621591698,0.0920666653435506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32499252953983193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399043481299045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374307497204214,0.16236361742746716,0.14304637644345847,0.0,0.13603673471515182,0.1812332786484928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244028967286459,0.0,0.0,0.1764622950057097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908648249996298,0.0,0.24988424687828645,0.15645777498093652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33799653837869376,0.0,0.16628765940701828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762365181740316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10998537346421064,0.0,0.15824759354870208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555006621948467,0.0,0.12994427414390025,0.19726878307848505,0.0,0.0,0.1461771542582681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793579279849613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mendozaaaaaa,2019/09/29,This morning weighed in at my original goal weight from 3 years ago Lolol I can't believe I once thought that this would be enough,4.2723076923076935,5.89495161538462,3.0953846153846136,96.0246153846154,71.30769230769229,6.7384615384615385,32.230769230769226,7.1686216300943375,1.64436923076923,106,5,23,1,2,30,24,26,0.0,0.9009999999999999,0.099,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,13,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283250165663424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172984095434826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382707952846816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944492126084657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29404526855016355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510306063541015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631117280508207,0.0,0.0,0.2385165678244933
EDAnonymous,roybIair,2019/09/29,oops I fucking had a breakdown cause I ate 600 calories of light wings and now my ass is doing a 60 hour fast because I don't want to gain anyhting.. I know I probably shouldn't but I can't stop myself.. it was just so cheap and they looked so good and I convinced myself I only wanted a few pieces but woop there they went,-0.25840579710145306,1.9846544637681165,1.5942028985507264,97.288115942029,91.31884057971016,4.22608695652174,17.81159420289855,5.82211442006289,-0.4177710144927529,254,7,57,2,9,83,52,69,0.111,0.75,0.139,0.7025,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,5,3,1,0,3,0,7,3,1,1,0,12,14,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,4,2,13,2,2,9,2,5,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,0,4,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620488965165486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33064228626520303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975574486677669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699636782712263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316970531259324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17688766070095951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27028412160389315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447915550920172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470230921719519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269092143774856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796866452492227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983705180032511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,8_ate_8,2019/09/29,"Weird issue I’m having So I finally decided to start eating healthy, at proper amounts when I’m hungry. It’s been hard and emotional. And enough time has passed that my stomach capacity has changed. I’m starting to relapse and I’ve found that I can’t physically binge anymore. This is wonderful for my recovery, but I’m weirdly in mourning about it. Binging is no longer a comfort and a distraction. Its uncomfortable and expensive, so I have to actually deal with my issues without having this kind of coping mechanism. Like damn, eating 3900 calories in a sitting is way easier than therapy..",4.265829858215181,7.106245541284405,5.703903252710592,71.81763969974979,75.23853211009174,9.101251042535447,34.67973311092577,9.573946990214177,4.229873394495414,480,27,75,14,11,161,79,109,0.18600000000000005,0.6829999999999999,0.131,-0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,1,1,3,0,10,3,1,0,0,11,18,9,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,0,3,0,1,1,3,5,0,0,2,1,6,3,12,16,2,11,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,6,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.19170829665620515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948270705632775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20781960715984385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025328398390092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020377967883812,0.0,0.22098146256776596,0.0,0.20298688372315973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21520298336364968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21539889740581955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598193048734112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100885908302182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20457397566669566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597626529593578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780987237746808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22465937733082106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455243221774898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593403314928084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18937220708949576,0.21304323960246416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,watermeloney1,2019/09/29,"I tried to buy a ring today that was slightly too big and my Mom said “Hmm, I would’ve thought rings were always too small on you” Ok cool, time to never eat again, thanks.

Lol now I’m just freaking out staring at my sausage fingers and idk what to do.
Hands have always been a fear for me cuz even if I hit my gw I don’t think they’ll really change much. I’m stuck with them. Uggh.",-0.07852744310575588,1.8892023253012056,1.3705220883534146,101.66239625167336,85.98795180722891,4.1708165997322615,16.451137884872825,5.033348758259628,-1.038345649263722,295,6,73,1,9,94,68,83,0.142,0.77,0.08800000000000001,-0.5432,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,0,6,5,0,1,2,3,7,3,2,1,1,10,15,4,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,6,7,11,3,8,7,1,10,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,5,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362372260046128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773057170224066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26823113813019683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313872224583382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949765025681532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070111649115229,0.0,0.0,0.1927005296735456,0.0,0.20217587134852105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793138946206965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493518923814419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24134012059939505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796651977276764,0.0,0.2081071436570199,0.1528539332112718,0.0,0.2484748032268209,0.0,0.0,0.17797351368491976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862142875391233,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nerdy_Bunny,2019/09/29,"Broke down after s/o rubbed my stomach Today while discussing grocery plans, the topic of bread came up and my boyfriend said “are you sure you want bread?” jokingly while rubbing my stomach. Of course I couldn’t react like a stable human being and take it as a joke but instead said “Why would you say that” and ran to the bedroom and broke down crying. I fucking hate how fragile my mind is when it comes to my body image. Ive been in a bad place and already purged twice this week, and now I feel like I shouldn’t ever eat again so there’s no stomach left to grab. Any advice on how I can take these things less to heart? I feel like such a weak person for being so sensitive. Disclaimer: my partner and I have a healthy relationship and have discussed my history of ed, he just has a tendency to say things before thinking. He says the comment wasn’t directed at me but is just “a thing people say about bread”",5.4756943056943035,5.671902813186816,5.515474525474527,84.98861638361642,67.57142857142857,7.9368631368631375,29.732267732267733,7.348242739294969,1.6344219780219782,720,24,145,6,11,226,120,182,0.14300000000000002,0.765,0.09300000000000001,-0.9394,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,1,14,12,2,0,10,0,15,11,5,3,2,27,28,18,0,4,4,0,6,3,1,2,1,6,1,3,8,10,4,0,3,2,0,3,4,6,0,1,6,12,19,6,18,17,1,20,0,2,0,1,18,8,1,0,12,97,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956369237404195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576072749527909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712363970942384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925013682175435,0.0,0.0,0.12153073004754987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864268922101107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334995336199254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302823070160265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688290867920204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614223372829946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291903859167408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442986505994848,0.20406367292316524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320363414158956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100684016652607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692443780158013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551761728037072,0.0,0.0,0.20932637538998589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420918253751658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901456972578908,0.12470638176000108,0.14921825716369533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333703439628546,0.0,0.0,0.2717122463188029,0.4543101283227019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134607742821889,0.0,0.21476825740208705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846531331897639,0.09151436541735866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537825258431202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423992702524645,0.0,0.11456293652466935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128874351370817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145642345178438,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,harriethabs,2019/09/29,"Triggers So I have been in recovery for the last couple years (with the occasional lapse). Growing up I was always proud of my ED and felt like it was my choice and I was the one choosing to purge and or restrict. I wore the red and blue bracelets and had the mentality I could make this my lifestyle. When I went to treatment, I realized I wasn't in any control. And when I wasn't allowed to purge or restrict I lost it. I figured out my main triggers, my mother and ice cream. But through my recovery years when I hear a song that my on my restricting playlist for my proED I get this happy feeling and almost feel giddy, like bring it on! Would this be considered a trigger? When I'm triggered by my mom I feel like shit and want to purge and die. Does anyone else feel this way or have similar experiences?",2.8758994708994687,4.762425425925926,3.782116402116405,88.55666666666669,75.60493827160494,6.850793650793651,27.62081128747796,7.7094869923839395,1.5519033509700175,637,26,132,9,14,204,93,162,0.113,0.7659999999999999,0.12,-0.2729,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,5,7,1,0,7,0,12,1,1,7,0,38,26,19,1,3,4,2,5,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,8,12,0,4,8,1,0,3,2,2,0,1,11,10,24,5,16,12,1,17,0,1,3,0,3,6,1,4,10,88,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18024598276197207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977606786896258,0.0,0.0,0.12240751962639447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258615703856119,0.1844333012077684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188752759610207,0.14371693495214508,0.19916876830924948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18681363765381356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15752094660493196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503685577947671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17607647711237392,0.0,0.0,0.3640576402378738,0.12859345120873186,0.17283012986191884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404360577658456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161545592192827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287531475811432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467256390778958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26381962702933504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19649342565007244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015272007095912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813996599531413,0.0,0.0,0.2108161446626808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197400082888316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18476944682185534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061698320977191,0.14287719413327804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668636397707459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786824280940814,0.0,0.0,0.2318307483637376
EDAnonymous,Li--Na,2019/09/29,"Just ate 🥳 a bunch 🥺 of spicy foods 🥵 help 🤡🤡 Now my dumbass 🤡 (yes, me) wants to 😅 purge 😰 but I’m trying (trying) to keep 🔐 my throat 🤧 not 🚫 burnt alive 🆘🆘🆘🆘",-4.921550387596898,-3.793856604651161,0.10267441860465176,107.09106589147288,103.4186046511628,3.7968992248062015,9.492248062015504,5.46131890053228,-1.9669658914728685,118,1,40,1,6,47,35,43,0.159,0.7829999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.4983,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.546642259612938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030115622920381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018186917499111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6138488148106824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666413408279181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beemitch,2019/09/29,"32 years old, how did I let this happen again!? After 2 babies I had packed on a lot of weight I was 333 pounds. I tried to eat right and exercise.  I worked hard trying to be a good mom to my kids and a good wife to my husband. I was fat. Depressed. Sad. Alone.

It wasn't working, and then I found myself stuffing my fingers down my throat again after not purging for almost 6 years. And now I cannot stop myself. I purge everything and the weight is melting off. I've lost 44 pounds in 4 months. Everyone keeps saying wow you look so great I'm so proud of you and I've been saying "" intermittent fasting is amazing"" I've been lying to everyone. How has my husband not noticed that I go ""poop"" after every meal. I turn the tap on and try to be as silent as I can as I gauge if I've throw up enough or need to get more out.   I want to be skinny, I'm sick of food, I'm sick of being fat but I have been here before. My teeth are so bad now because or the purging I did when I was younger. My throat is so sore. 
But I cant stop.  I dont want to stop. I cant confide in anyone about this because I dont want it to stop. But I do. I dont want my kids to hear me or see me and think this is normal. I just want to live a good life for them.   I think its time to come clean to my husband and get help.    I miss my life.",-0.6869664162615976,1.0737378287671255,1.7020415377817066,99.636683605833,86.8082191780822,4.452673442333186,16.953601414052144,5.4233941145090725,-0.8248098983650021,994,22,253,5,31,337,147,292,0.096,0.755,0.14800000000000002,0.8981,0,2,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,1,4,14,12,0,0,7,0,30,19,8,2,0,40,54,27,0,8,10,5,4,0,0,0,8,3,1,2,7,11,8,5,3,1,0,3,9,5,0,0,12,9,43,7,35,37,3,31,0,4,2,0,14,9,0,6,19,157,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247926779050796,0.10599393519030187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155888513262458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545007616687746,0.1247716866366763,0.0,0.08708426183780192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815731339446407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881457571761022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598270522058369,0.0,0.0,0.10471992180559647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574513521294526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622631889569557,0.195581543433008,0.09197707843257956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375058724676916,0.11221111981778227,0.0,0.0,0.1069374164426246,0.0,0.05816248734387287,0.2575151684166336,0.0,0.1128308066888567,0.0,0.0,0.09049940157327976,0.0,0.09167702214591812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153452265099066,0.0,0.0685967067433679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909649742520622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10465013597547206,0.14457230000034485,0.0,0.0,0.09036857182166153,0.0,0.08594027851065285,0.0,0.11171678878890608,0.08700626741036656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986000360396025,0.08168724267488367,0.0,0.0,0.07588421368799915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027200028592648,0.0,0.1165153831450141,0.10738918124101267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739826201565584,0.0,0.16277061017793654,0.0,0.0,0.08155216033815332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422450959206723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311513714565432,0.0,0.0,0.05967559189862839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20844752663472252,0.11131711973855517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301815510340209,0.0,0.0,0.2492464141354357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14901026403934284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318079048397727
EDAnonymous,erikafei,2019/09/29,"My boyfriend told me I should lose weight. He knows I've been struggling with an unhealthy relationship with food for a long time. As he aptly put it himself I ""go from one extreme to the other"" - I often go through binge phases, then restriction, etc. I also occasionally purge but I have mostly overcome that terrible habit. Anyway, I guess now I am in a binge phase? And I have gained a lot of weight suddenly in the last two months as I came out of a restricting phase. 

Now I don't know what to think. He was being honest like I asked him too. We had been discussing our sex life which has been suffering a lot - that's how my weight come up. So he said if I lost weight it would help our sex life. 

I currently at am an overweight BMI (just above normal, dunno if that matters much), so I guess it wouldn't hurt to lose weight for my health. But I dont know how to do that without falling into unhealthy habits again. And om just so crushed in general that the person I loved the most told me the thing I feared hearing the most. I feel so lost now.",2.676813417190776,4.429888358490565,3.3637106918239006,91.92395178197066,75.79245283018868,6.409224318658281,23.09853249475891,7.1686216300943375,0.6384425576519916,820,24,178,9,18,258,127,212,0.195,0.6920000000000001,0.113,-0.9598,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,3,0,0,5,16,12,0,2,13,0,17,13,0,2,0,40,36,16,0,6,7,0,6,1,0,3,4,2,0,1,12,9,7,2,5,0,0,6,4,9,0,2,11,8,28,3,22,21,7,24,0,6,0,3,19,7,0,11,12,124,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382690527313935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799534329712414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988957259598346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902957221136685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285176072905385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690533982489493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179550035202758,0.05300165208422306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675237263003125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914663894401074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309486772713709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142193402297283,0.11814312527281155,0.0,0.07026063898177863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11221517617408397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728239178004517,0.08544472539195333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807915218279338,0.0512112169038652,0.0,0.0,0.09276504539570242,0.0,0.2345402207758348,0.2288533469884058,0.17823351102093213,0.09460683882757301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366870859367956,0.0,0.07705695693761372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270427177251376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103076920488867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09152738951853777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537605479232244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254065972193696,0.0,0.0,0.0997106653837446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958374609909899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963973516948026,0.06716633785603883,0.0,0.0,0.06112312700520215,0.0,0.0,0.20032571339110555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239682746164848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6382307968000906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104561938225903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446324283788683,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BelvitaBitch,2019/09/29,my brother left a bag of barbecue lays in front of me it was about 1/4 full and i kept on shoving them in my mouth and i couldn't stop and after i finished the bag i felt so fucking gross and fat. i have no self control if there's junk food in front of me. the only time i'm able to control what goes in my mouth is when there's other people around. i hate it.,0.6371957671957666,1.967681432098768,2.471005291005291,97.95666666666668,80.35802469135803,5.122398589065256,20.213403880070548,5.288315135182226,-0.4064299823633157,280,7,70,1,7,93,56,81,0.124,0.852,0.024,-0.8264,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,6,3,2,0,3,0,4,5,3,2,0,12,9,7,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,2,4,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,1,12,0,12,5,1,15,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,1,5,46,16,0,0.2547853907890971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268130154419911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5715269612229796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24463393084234925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080875058844713,0.0,0.0,0.2355449882274297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515478250218537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768250725843462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937757707645293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663610950066258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657967292220372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213011995234278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856741029895984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,problemproblem420,2019/09/29,"Made no progress whatsoever at the beginning of this year i dropped out of school, went to treatment, ""recovered"" over the spring and summer, weight restored. at the end of august my bf went back to school 2,000 miles away and my stepmom kicked me out of the house i lived in with her and my dad. now i live by myself in the downstairs of my bfs parents house, which is good because i can focus fully on returning to school and getting good grades. 

however, i've completely relapsed, lost **TW TW TW!!!!!** >!15 lbs !< in one month, and i'm now >!5!< lbs from being underweight again. I'm depressed, hopeless, and alone and I can't help but feel like recovery is pointless and regardless of how much ""progress"" I make, i will never actually amount to anything professionally or otherwise because something will come to destroy me right when I think im getting better.   


I see my bf in 2 weeks and i can only hope that i maintain/dont lose anymore, but honestly it is hard to care about my weight when i'm feeling suicidal and shit. i just want someone to care enough to intervene, but i'm so isolated from everyone that it won't happen and i need to grow up and take things into my own hands. sorry for the rant, i would gladly take advice or if anyone is in a similar situation i would love to talk <3",3.7875249388292858,5.704308652173914,4.546516092603048,83.92445322793152,73.1501976284585,7.8230001882175815,29.043666478449094,8.563005593585519,2.2248559759081497,1031,43,199,19,21,331,157,253,0.142,0.7020000000000001,0.156,0.7238,2,1,1,0,0,1,49.0,0,0,0,5,10,16,2,0,7,0,13,5,2,3,1,37,39,22,1,7,7,2,6,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,7,17,2,0,3,0,0,4,4,6,0,1,4,7,26,10,36,29,4,37,0,4,1,1,8,16,1,4,17,122,33,5,0.0,0.0,0.10878825047843872,0.0,0.0,0.1089368172381572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545950195628107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055805367895777,0.07794930175132815,0.0,0.09173841619847857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473898688033874,0.08572112186522375,0.0,0.13591416123433006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859486623485228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22732226953974824,0.0,0.0,0.0960300179444599,0.1168844996263704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960174297221794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306535515876194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873805634866877,0.1151884834171472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652377211994496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273512147844045,0.07964122567995557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648723882917565,0.0,0.0,0.18700801473965084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985812614111568,0.0,0.0998640469268203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472259221445525,0.0,0.0,0.11072464296627073,0.0,0.25726555402290724,0.0,0.0,0.1204173658689342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05446342266408842,0.0,0.19687749636422835,0.0,0.0,0.1247174344618902,0.12169342302994653,0.0,0.10061491527631523,0.10548492763964992,0.07441366418962722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898215108713972,0.0,0.08195051530956612,0.08266089472977736,0.08598013128578544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07554163012027906,0.08478544787198726,0.0,0.0,0.123785178444172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520318106932098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33847067337773123,0.08883500550476303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443246195495785,0.0,0.12530801996513688,0.0,0.0,0.09445651343753746,0.08582263339656368,0.0,0.12479256283705932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194085979135713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763794370290114,0.08960327903409218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07406225745173263,0.07143178523407255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575370268873605,0.0,0.08942240969812391,0.2715048440158251,0.0,0.20668587191411208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583841710003338,0.0,0.0,0.07178936709622935
EDAnonymous,DynamicStochastic,2019/09/29,when will i finally be able to keep food in the house like a normal person?? didn't think i'd be able to eat half a bag of sugar before throwing it out but i find new ways to surprise myself everyday!,2.9336434108527136,3.6032603488372095,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,73.4186046511628,7.593798449612403,23.635658914728683,7.793537801064563,1.0424635658914725,157,4,34,2,3,54,36,43,0.0,0.8740000000000001,0.126,0.6189,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,2,6,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,20,4,0,0.5108995423595343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21736894050931185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613888890221894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798327380412645,0.23347646299550315,0.0,0.3088908772900536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947547385986527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270554938325775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247998549320902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24671498081369697,0.0,0.0,0.2502865386342397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230488870371737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368189876231473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027641381543742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Snowbae,2019/09/29,I think I have fucking herpes Think my boyfriend has given me herpes and I’m in so much pain. Felt so much judgement from the people at the walk in clinic and the man was so rude. I’m now waiting for a appt and I feel sick n so gross n nervous and I’m so stressed. Yet another reason for me to feel gross and repulsive :(,-0.9147826086956528,1.2149923768115976,1.2952028985507271,98.06628260869567,96.2463768115942,3.919420289855073,18.49420289855073,5.6839178017228535,-0.35798666666666623,250,8,57,2,10,83,43,69,0.33899999999999997,0.6609999999999999,0.0,-0.9801,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,7,7,2,2,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,12,14,10,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,3,3,6,0,7,11,2,6,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,34,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30675678026091235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29583700116016953,0.0,0.2808870996090888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27045123439273244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301054431799063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112863143585977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20281244025730866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007828656524997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33510694978797795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748994076385793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bephany97,2019/09/29,"Went to a psychiatric hospital forced by my mom yesterday And they diagnosed me with ""Dysthimia with secondary anorexia""

Y'all is this evEN A THING???



I... don't know how to feel about it.",4.6004901960784315,7.010262382352941,4.447647058823531,83.36107843137258,72.23529411764707,9.239215686274509,31.92156862745098,9.725611199111238,3.369933333333334,147,7,27,4,3,45,31,34,0.106,0.894,0.0,-0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,5,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,6,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683482871387796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047744256241659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333161355023816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535934072363594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5404287973966898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065578759947554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.427756215326056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dragoono,2019/09/29,"Hating + Loving my ED I have a whole shit ton of problems in my life, and sometimes I feel like starving myself is a good punishment for what I've done. Sort of like, I don't deserve good foods because of what I did. In the same vein, this helps me get through exercise related pains. I think about everything I would want to do to a person if I found out the horrible things they did, the same things I did, and compare that to the pain I feel from working out, and it just doesn't match up. This leads me to over-exercise and love the pain.

 I want to have kids eventually, and I'm scared that my eating disorder will make me infertile. I won't come anywhere near having kids until I figure out my health issues, because I don't want to give those thought patterns and behaviors to my kids. I might even adopt to avoid any DNA related mental health issues, but I also fear that I'll never figure it out. My boyfriend wants kids and so do I, but if I never figure it out it's like I would be keeping him from what he wants more than anything. I need to recover, I know what I think and feel isn't rational or healthy, and I'm a different person now than I was when I did those things.

I guess I'm just posting about this now because I weighed myself this morning. The scale told me I was 108 pounds (this is why the TW, because weight), and this is down from my usual 112-115 reading. I knew I lost weight, since my boobs are smaller, but I thought maybe a pound or two at most. This is why I started thinking about reproductive issues, because I'm just a pound away from being underweight (I'm 5'4). My sister was really skinny for a while, when she went into the hospital. She thought all the food in there was made out of people, so she wasn't eating because she didn't want to be a cannibal. She went down to 90 lbs, and she's slightly taller than me. This made me scared for her, so scared, but it also made me feel fat. I felt like, if she could be 90 pounds without even trying to lose weight, how could I be such a failure? At the time I was 120 lbs. I recognize this is ridiculous, but that hasn't stopped me from losing weight. I don't know if anything can, since I've tried to recover before and it didn't work. Maybe one day? Maybe not. Maybe I'll just be another statistic, the ones who never made it. I guess I'll find out.",3.958187500000001,4.557894777083334,4.6412499999999985,88.50375000000004,71.02083333333334,7.833333333333332,26.875,7.865858978985527,1.341875,1823,57,399,22,32,585,209,480,0.124,0.813,0.063,-0.9846,1,1,0,0,0,0,60.0,0,0,1,6,21,24,4,5,20,0,44,23,5,7,4,90,90,33,0,16,17,1,9,4,0,5,8,0,0,6,30,21,11,3,19,2,0,4,15,16,0,3,27,9,65,8,52,50,7,38,0,3,0,3,24,19,2,11,18,267,95,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514425802067452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0447053478226168,0.06893395776023788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819657942974986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061764746891161376,0.0,0.0,0.24044639014372746,0.0,0.05593976475930089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662905407963852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497583129934852,0.0,0.0,0.04239676046701971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06868414433340488,0.07534355596146311,0.0,0.0,0.06727468417729192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345365435221403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684109310787007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590827323121757,0.0,0.0,0.07397560058166383,0.13296016032340086,0.04696455725549605,0.06312055904153031,0.0,0.06008502588364304,0.0,0.1589857591559586,0.07208034509927591,0.0,0.0,0.0343463548609371,0.06306364806212976,0.0,0.11027892326483192,0.0,0.0,0.14483969814602882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490448518890331,0.0,0.13975675878646548,0.0,0.0,0.04406403128999188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058459502647338,0.0,0.058432593371163626,0.0,0.0,0.07225779736686845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046433995546711855,0.12846866733652654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709213831243706,0.07176280481260434,0.0,0.11866555063430376,0.2488185173659904,0.043881855943166265,0.0,0.2641780348956753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625029996409593,0.06973958505880729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048745260889477136,0.1521078598727283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909403848741294,0.0,0.20985548512164331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04557572999057042,0.1148029910938344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296059779946693,0.0,0.0,0.06290415176744879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575763352838743,0.0,0.04211462704253755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974511549347928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674810045361169,0.10876135558319328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501838607925152,0.0,0.04653099951477658,0.0,0.0,0.05496145271198757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13102389249536447,0.12637031156335798,0.0,0.15657027732714793,0.03833343134835228,0.0,0.0,0.06281723758123557,0.0,0.08926607677456626,0.0,0.06421827462224082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240314984241845,0.0,0.23265037736328306,0.0,0.0,0.32021367534364786,0.0,0.12188298688948372,0.11863996696753705,0.07339618744327935,0.0,0.06337086309919808,0.0,0.09571877789591364,0.0,0.0,0.09339939715646027,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,motenashite,2019/09/29,"I love drinking dumb bitch juice (0cals) me to myself today: i don’t have bulimia
also me: i’ve b/p’d two weeks in a row 😜🤙🏻🤙🏻 

god fucking dammit why can’t i just get help

it feels like i’m not even myself anymore—my skin is so fucking dry and my face is bloated from purging and i have vomit acne around my mouth

but you know ~eating disorders are so glamorous~",2.1337916666666668,3.074115462500004,4.065000000000001,89.66666666666669,75.625,6.333333333333334,25.833333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.8433333333333333,287,10,64,2,6,98,63,80,0.064,0.8270000000000001,0.109,0.29600000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,6,7,4,0,1,0,7,9,3,0,0,8,14,6,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,2,11,3,4,14,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,4,0,3,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20814594987764226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317045249564215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983036129214854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25497546706197444,0.0,0.2663315826449065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191259088818886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160546941591478,0.18594419827673306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4812496275555304,0.13598564090791548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446030474607693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304316899583505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715973889424478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349130063733381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24671515787499446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25425589608747434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878104445693013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348623603683088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pretentiouspast,2019/09/29,"Starbucks took away their customizable calorie counter please help Why did Starbucks take off the adjustable calorie counter that would change when you switched milks, took off whip, etc?

My boyfriend is taking me to Starbucks and I wanted a simple SF iced latte with an alternative milk, but I cant check the calorie counts for it and I'm so upset. I used to play around with that for hours to find safe drinks. 

What are your go to iced SB beverages that are relatively low cal (<150)? I like really sweet coffee and only drink non-dairy milks.

Help",4.692843137254903,7.1255535784313775,3.869215686274512,87.50813725490197,72.0392156862745,6.494117647058824,26.03921568627451,7.3871296695380915,1.2149333333333336,443,15,83,5,9,130,77,102,0.063,0.7440000000000001,0.193,0.9306,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,0,3,6,0,1,4,0,6,5,0,1,0,13,14,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,6,5,1,2,3,1,3,1,2,0,0,3,1,9,4,12,10,1,10,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18229953432870027,0.0,0.0,0.19239957568169389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663236689352114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012171011281114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283862345938696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871671797701613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638241791904555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745223238090374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016691724961016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004621700909727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574605674952247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478931131308635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118869226899627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30794139028133355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550410183367106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686603194268533,0.0,0.0,0.1207858207685974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478404310202695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547136745735206,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavenderily,2019/09/29,"How do I lose weight in a healthy way without triggering my ED? I went to the doctor yesterday and accidentally took a look at how much I weigh. I felt so ashamed of the number. I don’t know why I gained weight, but I want to feel better about myself in a healthy way. How do I maintain/lose weight without triggering my ED and starving myself again?",4.140857142857144,5.269231371428571,4.872857142857144,85.06214285714286,71.0,7.885714285714287,29.714285714285715,8.238735603445708,1.9469428571428573,276,11,57,4,5,89,43,70,0.138,0.664,0.198,0.5047,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,1,5,0,3,5,0,5,0,14,10,7,0,1,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,6,12,1,9,7,1,9,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,38,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524594577038373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912399870197304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447257489994357,0.0,0.17939694799624198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268309179595644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568996342631347,0.2090276218096416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373498532514121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20758755835133488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020383924273697,0.2966118533412537,0.0,0.6825671017763832,0.0,0.1732037563724122,0.16859521135061148,0.0,0.0,0.36021669023570746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_leastofthese_,2019/09/29,"I don’t know whether I’m 5’6” or 5’7” or somewhere in between So I go with 5’6” when calculating my BMI because I’m a self-destructive asshole.

Announcement over 🙃",2.624545454545455,4.672492666666667,4.433333333333334,82.87000000000003,76.87878787878788,8.036363636363637,35.24242424242424,8.841846274778883,3.291169696969698,130,8,26,3,3,44,27,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4221753623308397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935952110668127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806103526821679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7224863546789317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dear-riley,2019/09/29,"Body dysmorphia is destroying me :(( TW: weights, numbers

So I’m aware that I’m severely underweight for my height and age (5’4, 79lbs) but recently, I’ve gotten into a horrible binge-restrict cycle and due to the horrible binge phase, I’ve gone up to 84lbs. Now I know that this is good for me and my recovery, but my anxiety and body dysmorphia won’t let me think that way and my stupid brain keeps telling me to restrict and go back to <80. I can’t focus on anything other than my weight gain, even tho I know it wasn’t a healthy weight to begin with?????",1.3822037422037423,3.882621648648652,2.7291891891891886,90.70359667359669,84.76576576576576,7.018988218988218,23.85377685377685,8.139509932561175,1.6014595980595985,437,17,91,10,13,141,72,111,0.19699999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.095,-0.9154,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,3,0,6,6,3,0,0,15,16,10,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,8,3,2,3,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,3,12,1,12,11,0,13,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,6,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398010006899963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503852593113472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405212088278352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4059815725416864,0.0,0.20400615702782987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070270959339585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385936559873817,0.15327956354226352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243398363739314,0.0,0.0,0.20086600984162764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687125032968865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804406749684012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064521609037056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15972898533209282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709693703733914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505611004287527,0.0,0.6676100601617515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lyn-xii,2019/09/29,am i going to be able to lose any more weight?? NUMBERS TW So I was losing about 2-4 lbs a week until last week i weighed myself at 98.6 lbs. A week later I'm 98.2... I'm thinking maybe since I'm 5'6 I've just... lost all the weight I'm capable of losing?? I eat around 500 or less cals a day and fast one day a week so I dont understand bc I should be at a deficit. Seeing a nutritionist soon so maybe nows a good time to recover ://,-1.4617353951890024,0.4212967010309292,1.5521907216494846,98.33144759450174,92.29896907216495,4.882817869415808,16.330756013745706,6.42735559955562,-0.4875903780068733,328,8,84,4,12,115,64,97,0.158,0.779,0.063,-0.825,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,8,5,0,0,8,0,6,4,0,0,1,8,15,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,2,3,7,1,9,10,3,17,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,1,13,42,7,0,0.15013872499798767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209948147488836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365529650637512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936541139137649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596146752276476,0.0,0.0,0.15362939784672772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532729736463172,0.12592923924475216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223830996220476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5039004878226663,0.16389415399747248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016690585534136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173788567937994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964112529714205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419630480910995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620283264270188,0.0,0.0,0.08754709792996987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629970764942833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4817289158604034,0.3656570388790791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,falalabeline,2019/09/29,Okay guys I think I’ve just had a revelation. I’ve got EUPD so maybe my black and white thinking affects my eating habits too??? For me it’s always all or nothing. So maybe it affects my food too??? I always go from barely eating to binging. Idk man.,-0.4183823529411761,1.8092548823529453,1.9354656862745079,92.54084558823529,98.21568627450979,3.334313725490196,18.139705882352946,5.148860815047168,-0.4043941176470587,193,6,39,1,8,65,38,51,0.03,0.91,0.061,0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,2,1,8,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,6,1,3,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040583712530712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4968903630021656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293594920424645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379889277565396,0.0,0.1941894702749487,0.0,0.0,0.2404103339943173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878507958505287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329733044034043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111530807492969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cejuuda,2019/09/29,"What's keeping you alive ? This is something that worries me, because I've been restricting for many years but it doesn't worry me enough to stop and recover.",6.166,7.314074933333334,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,66.33333333333334,8.666666666666668,35.0,8.841846274778883,3.01,128,6,23,2,2,39,29,30,0.195,0.659,0.147,-0.1508,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20220122174345745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342734735898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29483017221989666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362917051475365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25535884073340825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773160257598252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6737148371354156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136039041585995
EDAnonymous,lshimaru,2019/09/29,"Freaking out because a calculator told me I’m obese (tw: numbers) I’ve worked and suffered a lot since January to lose weight (at some point it turned into an ed) and since I don’t have a scale rn I decided to look up a calculator that would take my measurements and estimate my weight. I think I’m around 155-ish rn (which I hate but we won’t get into that) but the calculator I tried told me I’m at 165 and when I tried to measure my body fat it said I’m obese. I’m crying rn and idk what to do because even though I know it’s probably wrong, and I know I’m 20 pounds under the obesity cut off and I’ve been trying really hard to build muscle it just feels like all I’ve been through has been for nothing. I think I’ll try to weight myself soon but what if I actually did gain 10 pounds suddenly?? It feels like everything is going wrong no matter what I do and I feel so fat all the time because I’m still overweight and most people with an ed aren’t",0.7894957983193294,2.8281914509803947,2.832885154061625,92.0544117647059,83.01960784313727,6.434733893557423,20.98879551820729,7.62386473244151,0.687561904761905,752,23,172,13,21,253,114,204,0.165,0.775,0.06,-0.9590000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,3,8,9,2,0,9,0,13,10,3,0,2,35,36,16,0,2,5,0,7,2,0,2,6,1,0,0,11,15,9,0,8,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,7,9,19,2,18,27,5,16,0,2,1,0,4,10,0,4,7,96,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.12259201772655692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183301116753766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297397631185101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395412134878522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799332046181909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297422201942344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290377799125953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055954043625772,0.179493254232577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563395212562166,0.0,0.07139566368489939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253545265464927,0.1240288202598036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380805862014121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274819840049166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549348044998164,0.14054240112440286,0.0,0.10680200400960572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054071264393065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709265633580958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875636557912594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354451514668876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047868329230044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949827866954235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20783683259453334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032440131543828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445447314249586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099103796858313,0.12342606496576858,0.0,0.0732530310164015,0.0,0.0,0.2400804149822452,0.0,0.3411649028367429,0.13664408119682653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45893274095391706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145660014548633,0.0,0.0,0.08924049708257427,0.27470274536955863,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,papyrus052,2019/09/29,Thinness around the world What do you consider skinny versus what do the people around you consider skinny?,6.3583333333333325,9.984317055555554,5.6200000000000045,70.80000000000003,72.8888888888889,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.9431333333333334,89,3,11,2,2,27,11,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9318477680889548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628494689366837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,phantomfille,2019/09/29,finding my mom on Facebook the guy i’ve been talking to from tinder found my mom on Facebook thus led to him looking through old pictures of which i was fat and he made a comment “you’d kill me if you knew what pictures i was looking at” and it caused me to panic and I hung up on him and pathetically sent the “if you’re no longer interested in me let me know” text and he kept calling me and saying we needed to talk on the phone he has “a lot to say” about the situation and i am freaking out ignoring his calls he refuses to tell me anything over text but i can’t get myself to answer his calls i’m too fucking sober I’m already trying to make peace with him leaving me but his response to my “if you’re no longer interested” text was “that’s not the case” which makes me hopeful but i can’t confront this if my body isn’t enough to make him flee my response to this will and i can’t stop freaking out,2.8874167283493724,3.805370580310882,4.276584011843081,88.95545336787565,73.76683937823833,6.7578090303478895,27.77535159141377,6.868970318607317,1.1351009622501858,714,27,160,6,14,237,107,193,0.12,0.8059999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,1,2,0,0,2,10,3,1,7,0,13,3,2,7,0,39,30,15,1,6,8,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,7,12,1,4,5,0,0,3,7,7,0,0,9,4,31,3,26,18,2,15,0,0,2,1,29,10,1,6,2,104,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15809071681742032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178905828759705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912930709769094,0.0,0.0,0.4388527228389825,0.0,0.0,0.14716724487384358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802563651487752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093683295486466,0.0,0.0,0.15707694166379962,0.0,0.13244134743552294,0.07484731616399785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184969399206773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14228927464570576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849570804228336,0.0,0.07873182215011527,0.0,0.0,0.15169140966587694,0.0,0.1464928193428736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406042491351961,0.0,0.0,0.12179433208220525,0.0,0.13555585674340576,0.2868810235268932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355682186310113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622530303618108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032702805666678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680844711846805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278518357273277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161029982038961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977158113641273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302935505246392,0.12521535201799475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726397893047586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-s-lack_0ff,2019/09/29,I just want to pass as male god i really hate this body. anyway time to starve and overexercise in hopes that one day ill look like a man!,0.9440229885057472,3.0358190344827563,2.014482758620691,97.83712643678163,82.79310344827587,6.625287356321839,13.114942528735632,7.793537801064563,-0.4087333333333336,108,1,26,2,3,34,27,29,0.265,0.504,0.231,-0.5081,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,4,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,3,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.449285700531398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26085590829806304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993399082870941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40173955133264094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976083227631274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396610297472544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740858744579736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25912001692584863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23585533286993596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23857257344852825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vegandyke,2019/09/29,"my s/o was abt to buy a whole crate of normal coke, looked at me, back at the coke then proceed to switch out 4 normal ones for diet coke instead that’s it. that’s the story. he knows. we have been found out. at least i can have anything but water at his now",-0.9975187969924804,0.990415964912284,1.0418546365914807,102.0963157894737,91.10526315789473,3.2571428571428567,13.406015037593985,3.1291,-1.6419353383458648,198,3,49,0,7,65,45,57,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,5,5,0,0,0,8,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,0,10,5,2,10,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,4,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27394800920178713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559792468044732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650072330677576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295291627784047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27955182444650023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6523418612695346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255813871751953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716705193280632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Uselessschoogirl,2019/09/29,"”I don’t have an ED, I’m just faking it for attention” -Me, 7 days in to my 15 days fast panicking cause I drank orange juice",8.718571428571426,3.3019965714285746,9.658571428571431,75.68642857142859,65.42857142857143,14.057142857142859,35.142857142857146,11.20814326018867,3.3123142857142858,96,2,24,2,1,34,25,28,0.213,0.787,0.0,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.622995435029904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7822254712881067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,12446867azs,2019/09/29,"Does that one-foot-in-recovery thing feel worse to you guys than not at all? TW: discussion of past ED, self harm, numbers, glorification; (also super long, basically my life story) I first developed an eating disorder when I was about 14. I was always a pretty hefty child (my mom is as well—slow metabolism, bad genetics. It happens, born fat, stayed fat) but the first time I weighed in at 200 lbs something in me snapped and I just felt worthless and awful and gross. I punished myself with baggy jeans and ill-fitting t-shirts to disguise my awful body and I started restricting. The thing is, I've never been good at it. I have ADHD and remembering to track my calories and do all the math to figure out what was in my meals was too much and felt overwhelming. Believe me, i tried to do it, many times. It didn't feel like I had a choice. I would keep up with it compulsively for a week or so, but for some reason would stop. So I settled with just eating salads I could ball park at around 300-500 cals and felt increasingly guilty whenever I ate anything ever. Eventually when I started working at a fast food pizza chain, I'd eat a personal sized pizza as my daily intake and that was all (often I missed dinner at home because I worked nights). Eventually, realizing that even though I was eating pizza every day and I wasn't gaining weight made me feel comfortable enough that I semi-recovered. I still had disordered eating habits (regularly eating omad) but it wasn't purposeful, just habitual. Although I never dropped below 180lbs, my freshman year of college I felt freer and those days were behind me. I started eating two meals a day, often junk or fast food, but coupled with frequent walking and a more stable metabolism, the weight stayed at that plateau.

About a year ago something triggered me. I can't remember what it was, maybe I gained back to 200 over the summer, idk, but I spiraled back into a weird not-quite-fasting/not-quite-healthy eating habit of just omad and self-demonization. Since then I've been On That Bullshit™️. 
I'm too scared to fully fast even though I know I could lose weight, because I'm afraid of disappointing my best friend who I've confided heavily into about my ED and who has been there for me unconditionally. I'm afraid that if I truly start fasting and let the ED win I'll ruin all the progress I've made emotionally in my life. I know I'll run back to the same depression that ruled me in high school and that I'll push away all of my friends who are good for me and be left with nothing. 

But like, I also can't resist the temptation. I CAN'T just ignore the thoughts and eat right and just not be disordered and recover. I want more than anything to fast and let my ED control me. So anyways, I've been in the limbo for like, a year. I can't shake the ED but I know I can't give in either. Meanwhile, the toll of the cycle of restricting and binging, and eating unhealthy omad's hoping to get 1500 into my body in one sitting can't be good either. But I'm so so afraid of going to the gym and developing an addiction. I'm afraid of actually losing weight and becoming obsessed with the scale, seeing positive results, and making it all worse. And idk what the purpose of this was (other than like, a clear sign I should go to therapy) but does anyone else feel the same way? Have you guys had similar experiences? Does it ever get easier?

TLDR; I've had an ED for a long time, semi-recovered and fell off the wagon about a year ago. Can't commit to fasting bc I don't want to submit to depression and lose my friends, but can't shake it either. Weird limbo is probably worse for me than actually restricting because I'm eating awfully and constantly binging. Want to know if anyone else has experienced something akin to me, and if it does ever truly get better.",5.647756520247087,6.252565377688171,6.316950354609933,77.96776595744682,67.26612903225806,9.235140700068637,30.211507664150076,9.252503621752664,2.5186624685426677,3027,107,574,54,47,992,324,744,0.166,0.727,0.107,-0.993,0,0,3,0,0,0,97.0,0,2,0,15,38,42,1,9,35,3,49,33,4,7,13,127,90,62,0,12,26,1,12,4,3,3,5,0,1,5,31,43,28,7,18,2,0,9,16,25,0,4,28,14,67,17,77,52,18,89,0,10,1,0,16,29,0,9,50,365,98,5,0.0,0.0,0.09547135290240608,0.0533264608778234,0.0587884087873466,0.0,0.08672346715851434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782373896540398,0.04070264165917874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840743612723271,0.10024195021125668,0.08050860887158602,0.043546264566464515,0.0,0.0,0.04595888220978039,0.1128418479127065,0.04084342997112905,0.08945756178565213,0.05402468995281125,0.0,0.05511240857278981,0.05133509483073237,0.043262876401062765,0.0,0.10867092886132307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052861611898767084,0.054864277104610434,0.07811206405592733,0.0541254362030911,0.0,0.0946417407237299,0.0,0.08426382332166467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16818844671058136,0.0,0.17122945567203807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5505943450472426,0.08172730946685798,0.0550247421882097,0.0,0.05054406290314871,0.0,0.06461808345375583,0.13274396040368194,0.04121445849394938,0.0,0.0,0.047849952629185566,0.0,0.0,0.09893508278540593,0.0349461248298049,0.1878709447715917,0.0,0.0,0.08321709858402758,0.11830061881346153,0.0,0.11337884296406155,0.0,0.07667092428164785,0.04692538897817813,0.05560101489288023,0.12308710792940444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687051546921564,0.043256906680442686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051683215609303015,0.04906747303052189,0.04858535465519262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043479441123421836,0.0,0.0,0.10753343177375864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053148175054670725,0.10004135026950717,0.06910267229367317,0.09559298219372762,0.0,0.0,0.08657954124931586,0.0,0.16417594013455133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257239369398412,0.03265230005705942,0.04959389089713627,0.04914343456137045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572906881203605,0.0,0.0,0.035959428216029085,0.0,0.07545520238150477,0.0,0.0,0.04590504152448485,0.0,0.04693692594898543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629449040974866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0466965580292301,0.0,0.04271220567218933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049765904768856895,0.05274051318519828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05029455003441299,0.0,0.0,0.11082624865678037,0.04177462390160525,0.0,0.0,0.048974184728299716,0.04950634675320464,0.03898030404631495,0.0,0.10206164464634966,0.0,0.0,0.0404644281877509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297547599096305,0.0,0.0,0.13849406552714225,0.10427746058482383,0.03906496728063042,0.040896580305263434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05594054892274634,0.0,0.06499620948794119,0.0,0.09612088636950067,0.03883442306181062,0.08557122362081933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03321125167922113,0.0,0.04778454162986693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655707201505729,0.03882782688061773,0.039238053724217084,0.23826961701976215,0.04398201888976108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122393047824417,0.0,0.14955099428319882,0.06949808925700499,0.0,0.0,0.126003092623369
EDAnonymous,OutStrengthener,2019/09/29,Worst Nightmare Just learned on my women’s sports team the people on the opposite men’s team call me mini fridge because of how fat I am even though I’m at a normal BMI and I want to kill myself what the actual fuck is this how guys actually talk about women,3.4622222222222203,4.6558605925925916,4.75277777777778,85.03250000000003,72.7037037037037,7.622222222222224,22.75925925925927,8.07648339933343,1.0542370370370362,208,5,43,3,4,69,45,54,0.214,0.764,0.023,-0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,2,0,4,0,2,2,1,2,0,7,5,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,6,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,0,26,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.5606461862115527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511026193787255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933232914500035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897316888642049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655660767185078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844313157983657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178092353824973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28145257483345903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991490413781137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308876944044147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822302539978798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943264773356453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatawkwardcosplayer,2019/09/29,"A small reminder from a mixed lass about clothing sizes I'm Asian mixed and because of this, my body proportions aren't standard American ones.

 If I want clothing that fits, I have to shop in the Young Girls section. Because of this, for a long time, once I got older, it was harder to find ""dressy"" options for work and such..... I had to look the young boys section for twill pants for work recently. 

If you're having issues with items fitting your hips but not your thighs, sleeves that are supposed to be 3/4 but end up full length and so on. Check out clothing meant for your race. Even if you're mixed. It might not work for everyone but it did work with me and a few others. 

This also leads to another point: CERTAIN BRANDS WILL NOT HAVE SAME SIZE. 

A xs at say, yestyle would be a xxxs at Old Navy in the petite section. A large at Walmart is a XL at yestyle and so on.  

On top of that, most American stores do tend to ""upsize"" things. A 28in waist (a Young miss size often seen in Victorian era) is a M at Old Navy. 28in is the average size of a smaller end 14-16 y old of about 5 foot. 

A much more standard size (a wedded woman often of 20 years) was around 32-36 inches, which is a L or XL in most stores. These are those oh so slim Victorian lasses who are so stunning. 

Learning this stuff really has started to help me realize that I'm pretty average? I'm a 29in waist, almost 30. 

*Sources are the Historical Archives from existing corsets found intact today. Most corsets at that time that we have found fully intact are from wedding days in which tightlacing was used, unlike Regular lacing. For regular, add on 2 to 4 inches to each measurement.",3.610363636363637,4.97824294545455,4.361636363636368,87.30245454545458,72.57575757575758,7.461818181818181,26.83636363636364,7.9765259561132025,1.5104036363636355,1292,45,267,18,25,414,186,330,0.006,0.9159999999999999,0.078,0.9698,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,1,3,0,6,12,2,0,0,21,0,26,6,6,2,1,44,40,17,0,5,10,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,21,12,2,0,6,1,4,1,4,1,0,1,10,3,11,1,47,25,13,49,0,1,2,0,12,29,0,12,19,164,32,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808406979056412,0.0,0.0,0.11027629565753187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459717819906184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12275769340841206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681216372529647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531726394947673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893224946745659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24427187780519144,0.0,0.0,0.091079762595345,0.0,0.0,0.13176662985316134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603549073753914,0.0,0.0,0.30239420000288425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028894262217294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242954839136176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439287907783222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203463242986708,0.115798870069451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628707731175233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137026695705613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.434099565217884,0.14685595711381574,0.09344267309042774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035737269221764,0.0,0.0,0.14029096963031573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834044104122851,0.0,0.1361567929504458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966134311970913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760430776396774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785923744937444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161273459921708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081786636821913,0.0,0.1307103679365895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909885674438833,0.0,0.0,0.08133530789639842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40156305061002456,0.0,0.0,0.097958174121461,0.0,0.0,0.08880123913477561
EDAnonymous,dexydex,2019/09/29,"Thanks Publix! Thank you Publix for ruining my binge!

PLAN: Go to Publix to get their family size container of their amazing fried chicken & check out their bakery items in preparation for a binge. Then go home, eat it all, and then hate myself for screwing up again. 

REALITY: Eat half of the chicken container & then start on the slices of Raspberry Elegance cake, planning to then return to finishing the chicken, & then ending with the giant slice of carrot cake. Except on the last bite of the first of 2 slices of the raspberry cake, there is a hard, unbreakable crunch. Spit out the bite to look at it...there’s a giant slice of thick glass!!! Immediately freak out about possibly ingesting glass shards & be turned off from eating anymore of any of the food. 

ALSO REALITY: Plan another binge for tomorrow to make up for this failed one.",5.073215880893301,7.361419458064518,5.275483870967744,78.47630272952856,70.54838709677419,9.156327543424316,26.761786600496286,9.661875296680813,2.675957816377172,676,23,118,17,13,213,93,155,0.10099999999999999,0.826,0.073,-0.5637,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,3,5,4,8,2,0,12,0,2,7,1,1,1,10,12,7,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,5,2,0,0,1,2,0,5,0,3,0,3,6,3,35,11,2,28,0,2,1,1,4,13,1,0,13,71,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516428039184615,0.0,0.6241365815331811,0.0,0.0979313432531239,0.15100643229530847,0.0,0.0,0.14281864722070448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420727630629254,0.0,0.0,0.12754960102560572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357592637781945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249433828384385,0.17413676115482354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523897768844484,0.0,0.16368774309852605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900415314373392,0.14217948695807128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444531891259128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738689721373145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093164231007952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096127405472959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758450934704248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234898217554386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019306080219598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26516904958669874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664089458987002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,naturally_sourced,2019/09/29,"Urgent! Had a breakdown and binged over a thousand calories (at least anyway, I didn't really count) in less than thirty minutes. Feel like I'm going to puke, feverish, headache, stomach-ache and can't move without feeling worse. What's the best way to get past this feeling? Feel like I'm going to die lol. Please give me your best pain/nausea recovery tips. 

note: not asking for purging tips, so hopefully this doesn't break Rule 1",4.186167247386759,6.340144585365857,4.088327526132404,86.61573170731708,72.65853658536584,6.149128919860628,27.567944250871076,6.868970318607317,1.3753358885017413,344,13,62,3,7,105,66,82,0.078,0.61,0.312,0.9577,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,2,5,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,9,16,3,1,1,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,2,4,3,5,9,14,4,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18964248243212076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42576860442678666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21053195272988626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102792861811679,0.28983997882872986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598361133887907,0.1945974527104812,0.2305748785865919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014812548348294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820987355638545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560326288918413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158525241132128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936485011783518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226743914172304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299544094920693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101723117874325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955454356687292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20672705594664853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aera8963,2019/09/29,"Does coffee/caffeine make anyone else feel like they're going to pass out? Or is it just me? It doesn't matter how much I eat that day, I always feel like I'm going to pass out within an hour of having caffeine, and it's way worse if I'm restricting or fasting.",2.896071428571428,3.715270750000002,4.409285714285716,88.3857142857143,73.64285714285714,6.314285714285715,21.142857142857142,5.985473137389443,0.16847857142857148,206,4,44,1,4,69,41,56,0.129,0.78,0.091,-0.281,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,2,0,13,10,5,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,6,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,5,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22164856813802306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862583071948496,0.272936642758144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717923412535579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23310995383638505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725720967974509,0.2225253740627564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26937833202107264,0.3806022515863977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302778513523057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262329539820474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602785318542733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17780997151638772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19581912746313107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114391568012445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27146283709748376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,2cbutterfly,2019/09/29,"basically every convo i have person: if you’re deficient on so many vitamins, why don’t you just eat foods that have them? 

me: *screams in ED*",0.7417857142857116,3.2818510357142903,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,92.21428571428572,7.085714285714286,21.285714285714285,8.07648339933343,1.652185714285714,111,4,22,3,4,38,26,28,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240192467763903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34913718574319763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5010759164805523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42012129069761617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361824947608182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739179565206551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arendells,2019/09/29,"Does I have an eating disorder? I (F21) have been “underweight” all my life (according with my BMI), I’m 5’2’’ and 88lbs.

Despite being severely underweight all my life I had an eating disorder when I was around 13-5 years old but went to therapy and got recovered of it, or at least that’s what I thought.

I don’t worry that much about food, while I’m such an extreme picky eater, very extreme, I don’t do it like when I had the ed but bc I truly can’t/don’t like eat certain things (i’ve been like that since my childhood, I think in adulthood is called avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder). 

But I’ve noticed that (since one year ago) there’s periods of time in which I don’t feel appetite at all and I spend the whole day (or several days) without eating at all. Since I’m not hungry I don’t make myself any meal or even grab a snack, I don’t even drink water or any liquid but iced tea (tho I’ve to admit even on my “healthy” moments I don’t drink water at all, I just don’t like it). I don’t even “avoid” eat due the picky eater-thing, I truly don’t feel hungry even if someone is offering me my favorite kind of food (since I’m not hungry I find any food disgusting and if I try to “force” myself to eat it it will taste plain). 

I’m also a ballet dancer (an art/sport that requires a lot of energy) and I’ve went to classes in those periods of time in which I didn’t eat absolutely nothing, but instead of feel weak/dizzy/sleepy I feel with energy and in a normal mood (not angry/sad). 

Is that a form of eating disorder? I don’t do it to lose weight, I’m comfy with my body (tho there’s days in which I feel “fat” in certain areas of my body but I don’t wanna change it). Should I go to a doctor? Due my “experience” with my previous eating disorder I’d say what I’ve rn is an ed, but since I don’t do it consciously/I don't want to lose weight it don’t “classify” as one. 

Thanks for read.",1.872327001356851,3.2567106243781083,3.720113071008594,90.08836499321579,77.08457711442786,7.260786974219811,22.62957937584803,8.00094639256281,0.955232835820896,1469,42,334,24,33,496,177,402,0.08,0.8029999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.9331,0,2,2,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,3,17,13,1,1,14,0,32,29,3,1,7,53,53,26,0,6,18,0,8,4,0,2,4,1,0,0,22,11,24,2,9,4,1,3,19,4,0,2,10,10,40,8,38,40,10,35,0,2,0,0,4,14,0,7,22,196,62,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05617795755205532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050680823760593234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292911603622838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056417029496617324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079028499991106,0.0,0.0,0.0647127809121465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704216046387168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261455560378462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363165193521883,0.06486681766297865,0.05545973545328259,0.0,0.0,0.12416640071103212,0.0,0.5836343973474842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20929236735456475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061992738430461415,0.0,0.0,0.16022107577204786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579234408950953,0.0,0.3065323543827912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03601737288471355,0.0,0.05068663605762641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659951266909569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952702464609498,0.1238469510481598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180043454043104,0.0,0.053879008958106336,0.0,0.0,0.04230318705384845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04658778755290875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062093871653767486,0.06080985274185245,0.07215265703352575,0.06650121686979572,0.0,0.08588884162960625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339197400794973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050398203628998384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319102411721235,0.0,0.2621215460568081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053697282614924464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058347023153105165,0.07247463427809185,0.0,0.04210341695615167,0.04060802817943373,0.0,0.050312531124645336,0.07390873890317946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043027345382206296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0522908668499458,0.03738011310982418,0.0,0.0,0.15434692441913647,0.0,0.1174981933249462,0.0,0.07075572761721112,0.0,0.061091068684998924,0.0,0.0,0.06436020993786994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162261750772676
EDAnonymous,tallheaux,2019/09/29,"ate a whole pizza🙌🏻😩 h8 myself now, that’s all",-4.774615384615384,-3.6177326923076905,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,106.69230769230772,2.6,6.5,3.1291,-2.555123076923077,37,0,11,0,2,15,13,13,0.34600000000000003,0.654,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catcatscatsandcash,2019/09/29,"Privacy invaded. So I keep somewhat of a food diary on my bedside. Its pretty loosely formatted, just overall calories and my feelings/thoughts of the day. But I was writing in it tonight, and turned the page and found a note from my boyfriend in it. It was sweet, but ultimately I feel like my privacy was invaded.

I don't like to talk about my ED in front of real life people because I feel embarrassed and shameful about the fact that calories dictate my life, and bread makes me wanna cry. I don't know when he wrote it, or if he read anything, but the thought of him potentially reading my sad life about food, is just my riddling me with anxiety. I want to bring it up as like ""Hey this is a boundary thing for me, please don't invade my privacy"" but then I'm worried it will open a whole can of worms that I'm not ready to talk about with someone else.

Thanks for reading my rant. Like I said, I don't talk to anyone in real life about my ED, so this community makes me feel a little less lonely.",5.313696369636965,5.320559990099014,5.871039603960397,82.95213696369638,67.91089108910893,8.91155115511551,33.16996699669967,8.59863814320734,2.4734442244224417,786,33,163,11,12,255,110,202,0.133,0.75,0.11699999999999999,-0.6713,0,2,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,2,9,0,11,7,0,2,1,34,28,16,0,3,9,0,3,4,0,1,4,1,0,0,12,8,3,1,6,3,0,2,5,4,0,0,7,5,25,6,27,20,4,14,0,2,0,0,10,8,0,3,8,105,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719453426788896,0.0,0.0,0.0888378057586399,0.0,0.10455308021674284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744980124455154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956080259380885,0.08193811526022274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613575445349308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927241283577192,0.0907660694627755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072638879706057,0.13930610640252705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292977382846475,0.0,0.0,0.0698245297975296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589627166970758,0.24828501884562695,0.1273396154256286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16961657119536994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808195192038593,0.0,0.0,0.13946508939610916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292576956995078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38125954643255194,0.2892262860443629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085567347670526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765086030112306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063590764505699,0.0,0.1169725344108114,0.0,0.0,0.08440779190727388,0.0,0.0,0.2017304040629327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13819623716351653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493864006644245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418491696097055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129027608690331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ragingaquarius,2019/09/29,"omg i just realized how weird ed behaviour is for some reason i only eat extremely flavourful food (like something very spicy, or with a very specific recognizable taste) so that when i’m purging I KNOW WHERE IN MY STOMACH I AM and WHAT IM PURGING it’s so WIEIRDHFJSJFNSND I CANT BELIEVE THAT THIS IS NOT A THING THAT MOST PEOPLE HAVE TO GO THROUGH and that some people can just BUY PASTA without crying or GO TO A RESTAURANT AND ORDER without finding the option with the least calories and  planning what amount of water and how long it’ll take them to go home and purge AND I FIND THAT SO WEIRD??? that some people are just like “hm! kinda craving pizza today!” like WHAT that’s so weird to me? i completely forgot most people don’t have to experience ed behaviour and that’s- crazy.",2.976700000000001,5.660195653333336,3.6422500000000007,85.64737500000003,79.13333333333333,6.15,25.375,7.413659706084162,1.4653,628,24,113,9,16,198,92,150,0.07400000000000001,0.875,0.052000000000000005,-0.5022,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,11,6,0,0,5,1,10,7,1,3,0,33,17,17,0,0,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,15,10,6,1,5,0,1,3,5,3,1,0,1,2,10,3,13,15,7,9,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,9,6,80,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18532272531850585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246354052853716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068339404105935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831326640408914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090176164030404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006798511004088,0.0,0.19890069816510114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28044859253830823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499583418675282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767629861326134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903988283003641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24108298530539396,0.0,0.0,0.14556754963773305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510126297363794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561437231930264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912204206671544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663163430880375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367522379076512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927915318533912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591629682427005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714412302754677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171229670046365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squidhatispurple,2019/09/29,"just got my period L O L after 61 days.i really thought i was ~skinny~ enough that my period was gone for good, but nOpe! why am i so sad about my body doing a bodily function that it has done for 8 years !!!!!!! ahhhhHhHhHhHHHHH",4.386666666666667,5.092797888888889,8.615555555555558,60.01000000000002,70.1111111111111,10.444444444444443,23.88888888888889,10.504223727775694,2.319888888888888,175,4,36,5,3,70,37,45,0.146,0.8109999999999999,0.043,-0.7721,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,6,2,2,0,0,3,9,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,0,5,1,4,3,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209940975762295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878582936476398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916181148483873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178951750265837,0.30312850927560353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428031819410452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008911962584549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34199711012521905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24406968278739466
EDAnonymous,Nickyjtjr,2019/09/29,"I found 5 empty boxes of laxatives hidden in one of my wife’s bags. Long story short. A few times over the last few years I’ve found empty laxative pill sheets in my wife’s purse (not snooping, just grabbing keys or a phone charger). She has played it off in the past but I always suspected she had been taking them too much because she always has digestive issues and has always had a weird relationship with her body and food. Today I stumbled upon the motherload. Boxes and boxes of empty laxatives. Like a graveyard of hundreds of pills. I’m not going to lie, I’m freaked the hell out right now and don’t know what to do. If I confront her she’ll get super mad at me (her go-to defense mechanism) and probably leave the house. I’m out of my league here. Any advise?",3.5514069264069263,5.069470006493511,4.739675324675325,83.9390367965368,72.96103896103897,7.470995670995673,25.170995670995673,8.07648339933343,1.4961878787878788,607,19,118,9,12,200,101,154,0.179,0.746,0.07400000000000001,-0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,4,9,4,0,9,0,9,5,1,0,0,19,18,8,0,1,6,2,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,8,2,1,4,1,0,1,3,6,0,1,5,1,16,3,18,12,3,19,1,0,0,0,13,11,1,2,8,71,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46483170968191495,0.0,0.0,0.12663103755587912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351354794389212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20684035726847128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22516916453050093,0.4083452800109701,0.0,0.0,0.09728846243541636,0.0,0.2116579641940666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148644816380984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943577038562702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233764300833738,0.15178822321694213,0.0,0.1971723873000092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097413078405384,0.0,0.0,0.16479240061527164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688777775820785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618256073602044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776111508717365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007688110160525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19992277698236954,0.0,0.15902464850724835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000879368947058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858213661550196,0.0,0.17650788869262202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991488877586012
EDAnonymous,ShinyLugiah,2019/09/29,"Restricting after a bad binge episode What are some of the small things you eat outside of water, tea, or coffee on your restriction days to keep the urge to binge junk food or large, heavy foods and meals at bay?",8.234390243902439,6.9923730487804905,6.507439024390244,84.92018292682928,62.414634146341456,10.151219512195123,30.256097560975608,8.841846274778883,1.9704048780487808,169,4,35,2,2,49,36,41,0.18100000000000002,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,6,0,0,0,7,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746777355407474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21215961414932105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33662030834695844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7955880814055072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29240527641289626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21855426507396006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NoraMcG,2019/09/29,"Any other trans people dealing with internalized phobias feeding their disordered behaviour? [content warning] fair warning this is kind of bad and I'm not proud of myself.

but like, I'm a trans woman and I'm very afraid of being seen as a man or masculine. so when I'm out at dinner with people I find that I'm more motivated to pick the lightest thing and barely eat any of it more from that fear than the calories. so it's like this perfect storm of internalised transphobia and sexism coming together to encourage me to act weirdly.

it gets worse ofc because that attitude is starting to bleed out. I know one other trans person and when she goes to town on a bag of cheetos and a couple of beers I can't help but think garbage like ""I hope I don't look like that"".

I'm trying to suppress the nonsense but it's hard and I feel nuts and I kind of just want to know I'm not the only person like this",2.768422131147542,4.6819093224043735,4.088111338797817,86.12429815573775,75.99453551912569,6.760792349726777,25.645150273224047,7.645422480735847,1.400082240437158,718,26,142,10,16,236,106,183,0.146,0.6709999999999999,0.183,0.8921,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,3,5,15,0,2,8,0,5,5,0,2,1,31,23,17,0,2,7,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,14,13,4,1,6,1,0,2,4,4,0,1,1,4,11,11,24,21,2,10,0,0,2,0,9,5,0,2,8,84,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22896138607320035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056143642173666,0.1026218365456075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501471686938444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18627106158903334,0.0,0.0,0.173556788491913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293849443995406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17225944424227732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943545760990976,0.08512052831171453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386471058394466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795356035171821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508044755224295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283842058628747,0.0,0.0,0.16720503748634113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506118045247091,0.18503653640454149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41122546816237704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136779668107458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407524790925044,0.12803431657079584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334191057263117,0.29398554363663376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915579078533435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184125052733138,0.10786898027223908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429552426657005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389026440715433,0.0992945204283474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715584170216565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schnappi357,2019/09/29,"Do any of you have that fat friend? I used to have a friend that was very overweight. She triggered me like crazy, and that is mainly why I was friends with her. She motivated me to lose weight because I never wanted to look as disgusting and fat as she did. I know I’m a shitty person for doing that, but I give myself a pass because she was the meanest person I knew. No one talks about friends being abusive, but she really was. She physically and emotionally hurt me. And I stayed friends with her because I convinced myself that all fat people are horrible like her. I really just wanted someone to make me feel like crap so I could better lose weight. It was so messed up.",3.5262816131237185,5.359950541353385,4.385604921394396,85.1552084757348,73.66165413533834,6.941626794258375,24.87286397812713,7.686295010490155,1.2658481203007526,534,17,104,7,11,172,77,133,0.233,0.573,0.195,-0.8128,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,4,4,16,2,0,4,0,14,7,4,4,2,21,24,10,0,3,3,0,3,3,5,0,4,0,0,2,6,6,6,0,4,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,7,4,26,10,12,15,2,4,0,3,1,0,19,1,1,0,4,76,32,1,0.0,0.1634485402204336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381093022446783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25227965587024104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220058243546652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101420843917086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517551279624428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697518134308216,0.09855171737394336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5329002735113508,0.0,0.0,0.13233449187177265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767864254803856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581387369865958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20218663607131432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584350302801845,0.3086621846349857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208289223782527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639577085745322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347868918414244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563736408089364,0.2409057509136611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17674898111040885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168848361755834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470366581999852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087922060156022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914476163392065,0.0,0.11382343961547893,0.1627333147712106,0.0,0.0,0.3359725873711478,0.0,0.0,0.12447868325715353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elicchika,2019/09/29,"will i gain?? i’ve been eating (often under) 365cal every day.  my last “real” meal was on wednesday and i just ate a real meal. i’m at my lowest weight now and i don’t want to gain :( i’m pretty sure i won’t from one cheat day right??? 

if i eat today (i ate some granola bars earlier today, and just now my meal probably dessert i am being a Fat bitch tonight) can i just get back on track tomorrow and not gain too much?? i’m really worried OOF

also could this possibly cause a BM ?? i’m super constipated lol",-1.1596701484332037,0.8746939345794438,1.9731170973062115,92.12684442001104,100.3084112149533,4.760637713029137,15.639912039582189,6.522977012572876,-0.0925300714678392,389,10,84,6,17,137,72,107,0.125,0.667,0.20800000000000002,0.871,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,9,4,2,0,3,1,9,11,1,1,1,17,17,6,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,11,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,4,1,11,2,6,9,2,16,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,3,11,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496483680571343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389197171462578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19223479553253248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940865183812127,0.0,0.0,0.24136766511971344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38296288472884815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766570130345736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776807693368868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525365116645077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375626097085298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680461790542322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109617683160296,0.0,0.19037921552541587,0.20175856488977745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42599145179303255,0.1198807300920106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15980861122078566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176368487680804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547560812271845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103745462208881,0.0,0.0,0.2278748019474897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19004032828104245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,belivets,2019/09/29,"i bought a new pair of jeans they were skinny jeans, which i never, ever buy anymore just because i feel so awful in them usually in them. but i got talked into these jeans that were on sale and i thought.... fuck it, i'll get them. why should i be scared of buying clothes? 

so i did. and you know, its funny. i've always hated my legs. i have thick thighs and an ass and prominent calf muscles, and i was really dreading putting those jeans on. and yet, i try them on, and i feel... good? i don't look horribly bloated and uncomfortable *or* scrawny and noticeable skinny - i look like me. like a version of myself that i don't let myself see very often. i felt good! i felt attractive! i looked in the mirror and i didn't feel the need to point out every slight bulge or wrinkle or to analyse myself from every single angle. 

last week i cried for twenty minutes when i caught sight of my naked reflection when getting in the shower, and today i felt normal. i know this feeling won't last forever, but for now i'm going to let myself enjoy it.",1.7777215766689451,3.9861174306220133,3.3096103896103912,89.06060606060608,80.43540669856459,5.8948279790385065,20.957165641376168,7.07126945348624,0.591908908635224,809,23,163,10,21,266,126,209,0.146,0.698,0.156,-0.3849,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,5,0,9,10,2,2,6,1,13,6,5,0,2,36,37,20,0,3,6,0,8,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,13,2,0,11,0,4,3,5,4,0,0,12,13,35,6,19,20,2,26,0,0,5,2,7,11,2,4,14,109,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115705520061271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297759023531422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173777051230349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728751619266586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128874469403092,0.2259469998683288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27119227030932563,0.0,0.38623165769424217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396063368560048,0.14010912635682105,0.0,0.07620434044113965,0.22493047161431648,0.1072410717548709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238247192861444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738065949837334,0.21859647910766045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742246748127265,0.0,0.13101559697982101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377961916851578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942330044792444,0.10341562903866304,0.1295013945038655,0.0,0.0,0.13137611535294408,0.0,0.1526581535503714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675490422057986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479377722961747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589912416709207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424378864496253,0.0,0.10684942948496033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077734975123194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644955317951976,0.0,0.0,0.12709814432634908,0.0,0.0,0.09103580336853942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767712776182615,0.1106352490546803,0.0,0.0,0.10755595055265274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099203969479247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConnieGx,2019/09/29,"I binged. 
Might be a trigger warning but can’t add two flairs.

Days, weeks, months eating less than 500 calories a day and today I binged and ate a little bit more of 1000 calories. I’m a pig, a cow, I am fucking disgusting. Days of torture thrown to the trash, I can’t process it, I’m a fucking loser. I suck. I’m a bitch. I must have gained a thousand pounds, or at least feels like it. My RDI is 1300 calories per day and I did eat less than that, but I still probably gained weight. I’m a fucking dumbass. Why, why, why. I want to cry, I want to scream. I like a girl and now she’ll never like me back. I’ll always be the fucking fatass I was when I was a kid, and I’ll always will be. I was at 138 pounds (63 kg) and now I must be way higher. I deserve to fucking die. Please, universe, let me die during my sleep. Don’t worry, I won’t try anything since I’m a fucking coward, but I wish it would silently happen overnight.",0.2548492462311529,2.0857749246231165,2.22517336683417,96.83122738693469,83.67336683417085,4.583015075376884,21.005276381909546,5.341637118332708,-0.2135208040201002,706,22,166,3,20,235,109,199,0.26899999999999996,0.61,0.121,-0.991,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,3,5,15,10,0,14,0,22,11,1,1,3,21,40,11,2,6,4,0,2,3,0,7,0,1,0,2,4,7,4,0,1,0,0,0,5,12,0,2,5,3,23,3,10,23,5,17,0,1,0,6,3,3,8,2,16,94,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840021426759628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098768490430552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501963244102642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207111440677553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145327813464064,0.28522772920681233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22950335189374946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22627644412834444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055906282971664494,0.07898949042114223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6133075922498266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09777453244168896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130628262406325,0.0,0.16205318160656035,0.1108177471210182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729471345825225,0.0,0.0,0.08825397538701184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527652228632662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136998338851332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11921053568421087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914626322174444,0.0,0.11064741542281188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829940011499747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480512315159424,0.0,0.0,0.07506811868744268,0.0,0.10800844476271844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043122891047518,0.08776338648125426,0.08869063118981063,0.13464150691166069,0.0,0.0,0.2993100887771133,0.0,0.12714724290155574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228672918229217,0.0,0.07854402573088574,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hh3nt,2019/09/29,coffee!!!! does anyone else’s body react to coffee weirdly? like once u drink it u instantly have to take a dump??? bc mine does!!!! and i love it :))) thank u coffee for giving me my Morning Skinny,-1.0826315789473675,0.4065685000000023,1.4782894736842105,92.92427631578951,114.0,2.9526315789473685,12.644736842105265,5.148860815047168,-0.9571157894736846,145,3,28,1,8,49,31,38,0.105,0.593,0.302,0.8729,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017314204901422,0.29561042122975645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204672194467862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5049503866542794,0.0,0.0,0.2826278900181576,0.0,0.0,0.2410113163855781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767630512569915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095037892490625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603896292225677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072514803602948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21692202336281047,0.0,0.0,0.2656192971394962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dreamingofskinny,2019/09/29,"I just ate half a large pizza and decided to purge so hard I ended up weighing what I weighed this morning when I first woke up That’s it, that’s the post",3.97058823529412,3.5570566470588254,4.92235294117647,90.05058823529413,70.76470588235293,7.976470588235292,28.764705882352942,7.1686216300943375,1.2732823529411768,122,4,29,1,2,40,28,34,0.067,0.9329999999999999,0.0,-0.2183,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,4,0,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4929948972614293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.473455684939596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4986169201158486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5330824632706991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_BeleagueredCastle_,2019/09/29,I'm officially overweight. I've struggled with an eating disorder for over 10 years but only in the last year and a half has it really flipped on me. I was 88lbs at my lowest and I'm 140lbs now. None of my clothes fit me and my BMI is heading upwards of 25. I've gone from restricting and purging (3 days with no food)  to constant binges. It's like I never feel full anymore and I'm letting myself eat far more than any normal person would. I can blame my medication all I want but I have let myself get to this weight. I have never felt so disgusting in my life. I need to get my ass in gear and stop making excuses.,1.6166279069767415,3.5077271937984515,3.5125775193798465,89.02607558139536,79.3875968992248,6.470542635658915,23.1531007751938,7.492282038375204,0.9448031007751942,484,16,104,7,12,163,92,129,0.223,0.721,0.055999999999999994,-0.9740000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,3,0,9,9,2,1,3,22,20,9,0,4,2,0,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,8,5,2,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,3,17,1,16,14,4,19,0,0,0,1,2,9,1,0,10,66,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206150316661281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589951372886287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166974605943746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438646281337675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20327691944571105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36297960417534064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968163054771723,0.0,0.17029927286968255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21447179486385776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533293580917773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18202879102015945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445770460640659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627377129233339,0.1252789233510469,0.086652118446673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183932505156753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867768814664045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151471741337215,0.2735913446419857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737811218061381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348949131763243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486923914663925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362526681367192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828600340111944,0.0,0.1854215603709385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461512249850892,0.0,0.0,0.2159841298223938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599579014934414,0.0,0.0,0.22843590933317906
EDAnonymous,radically-lily,2019/07/14,"so i decided to tell my mom and it didn’t go too well i last weighed myself a couple months ago at my doctors office and i was about 140, my obsession with counting calories and this and that began after that visit. i noticed i was losing weight but didn’t know how much since i’m not allowed to own a scale. last night i weighed myself out of curiosity at a friends house and to my shock i was now 20 pounds lighter after only a short time. i’ve had a hard time with food recently so i decided to tell my mom this morning as my aunt was anorexic so i thought she’d be understanding. my mom basically got mad at me stating she noticed i had lost weight but i just needed to eat more. she kept saying “what do you want me to do about it like what do you want me to do?” and honestly i don’t know what i wanted her to do but i guess i was expecting her to be a little more charismatic and not freak out at me. so now I’m at 120 which was my original goal weight but i still can’t stop fasting and i guess my family notices me losing weight but haven’t said anything to me.",1.5718558951965065,3.1831664803493465,3.458032751091704,90.66390502183408,78.51965065502183,6.676069868995633,23.677074235807858,7.554174236665415,0.9261648908296944,840,28,190,12,20,283,115,229,0.098,0.805,0.09699999999999999,-0.0106,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,4,13,11,1,1,6,0,21,9,0,3,0,38,39,19,0,5,8,4,5,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,10,12,8,2,6,0,0,2,7,7,1,0,16,7,41,4,25,20,4,29,0,3,0,0,17,9,0,2,18,132,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921610032055239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855564751202184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503817047111037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641524275834398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638480901409388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801139917919856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571803304121568,0.0,0.08032510885625645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05908718227797501,0.0,0.08315238630481726,0.0,0.2290640627672809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313454712160728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996464994789773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11427574652069675,0.1694949386293084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0507933171207211,0.1042028471700284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326262981368789,0.11349291552221613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652967851381969,0.08298594537711937,0.0,0.07642814771297796,0.07709065707066869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756654842581207,0.0,0.0,0.3551034006527645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907204377413869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026554609760518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889699470844622,0.08267920744361118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860030720198177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830286586257731,0.08692156787779694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174452765014829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253866007784072,0.12124868577965855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823393686560176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839683502703979,0.0,0.0,0.5064181047512777,0.09347935724192794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,everydaysad,2019/07/14,"Nothing like rejection to kill the appetite This last week I've been restricting like there's no tomorrow. Spending the day obsessing over why the person you want to be with is with another person, according to them its because they are exciting, ambitious and ""the total opposite"" of me, which makes think wow I am even more inadequate than before, I better not eat and drink litres of alcohol instead. He said its not me, but I feel like this is everything about me, all I can think is that if she's the opposite of me, I must be boring, lazy and fat?

I may not even want this to end, because I haven't been able to restrict like this in ages. Also I want to find a photo of this person so that I can throw some extra fuel onto my fire, but he won't even tell me their real name because he knows I'll look her up and just use her photos to compare myself, and starve myself. Cant even do that.

But at least I'm not so bloated as I was.",8.575937499999998,5.444573052083335,8.827291666666664,74.52187500000002,63.27083333333334,12.308333333333335,35.979166666666664,10.411451182825502,3.395872916666665,734,23,153,13,8,245,120,192,0.174,0.753,0.07200000000000001,-0.966,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,3,2,11,11,1,1,6,0,18,4,1,2,3,35,30,13,1,5,9,0,2,4,0,3,2,1,0,3,11,7,4,2,5,1,1,1,8,4,0,0,4,4,25,7,21,21,6,12,0,1,1,0,16,5,0,3,10,111,36,1,0.14710370066846162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15720911892250544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763877627746555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425105635882372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269019151680925,0.0,0.1251744145693527,0.0,0.0,0.13010126898581856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948697173456364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410562369134894,0.0,0.15052381026296807,0.0,0.0,0.13029021610066505,0.0,0.0,0.3886424276939035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322073208594379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438005102962901,0.1050909131502582,0.0,0.0,0.13445011740273566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274844956316012,0.0,0.08084434679326054,0.1199091497141827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874697506067168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353005954777947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819286247515414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411499682001355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853358321083756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743621645930878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992930574420426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857511824230206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885162232025056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270503663540324,0.0,0.0,0.26029672193916364,0.0,0.1179977155178005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273820933631672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadstuff303,2019/07/14,"Roommate is gone for 2 weeks She's flying out Wednesday, but she's been gone all weekend so I've purged to the point of my neck being swollen and I have totally lost track of calories. I just purged pickles. It's going to be a rough two weeks. 

The upside is that my friend is having a birthday party at the end of the month and if I can lose enough weight I may be able to go on a mini coke and and sex bender so here's to hoping? My life is so joyous. /s",0.29050000000000153,2.1139390500000026,2.2340000000000018,96.857,83.5,4.4,18.0,4.935628992294339,-0.6859999999999999,355,8,83,1,10,118,68,100,0.065,0.755,0.18,0.9368,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,7,0,12,6,1,0,2,12,18,9,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,0,1,4,2,9,2,11,10,3,14,0,2,0,1,3,4,0,3,6,56,11,0,0.25640040088210464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270946515106181,0.2649301542586658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980943136928198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29143651314171426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546634513370373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110318580373144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28684646390452434,0.27989132575721937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046563537815843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24238125476718114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25046593522642274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.411337871507716,0.3122266136042378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,give-dopamine,2019/07/14,"Dissociation before/during binge? Can anyone relate? So it's kind of hard to describe, but lately i've been having episodes of binge eating again. However, it isn't the way it used to be. It starts off with a weird feeling in my stomach/chest (doom-like feeling) and a few minutes later i find myself eating whatever i can find, barely remembering how i got it. 

Shortly after the binge i 'zone' back in, like i just woke up from a dream and think what the hell did i just do? Why did i binge?? It literally feels like im watching myself from an outside perspective while binging. Its really weird and creeps me out. 

Can anyone here relate to this feeling?",3.5484632034632035,5.648903817460319,4.704256854256856,81.7372077922078,74.3174603174603,6.8040404040404034,24.946608946608947,7.686295010490155,1.4255968253968248,515,17,94,7,11,169,85,126,0.095,0.7979999999999999,0.107,-0.3196,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,7,0,10,2,0,2,0,18,19,7,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,8,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,6,11,3,14,13,1,14,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,9,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775142674760185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525917090158204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061168971004085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013583695170985,0.14176891844376638,0.0,0.0,0.3627496832494012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871433819152267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776745402094046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435430677183465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206649595856242,0.0,0.0,0.22385424173546406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939000928203152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712874293698226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22479913701120066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046016529934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715533756144365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171392487570665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751614947853165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906545684749947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,false-and-homosexual,2019/07/14,"sjskskk i hate being caught doing weird shit my mom just saw me take a piece of leftover chicken from the fridge, put it in my mouth, and then put it back after deciding i didnt want to eat.

why does god hate me",1.465,3.128669222222221,2.433055555555556,97.65625000000004,79.0,5.388888888888888,20.13888888888889,5.985473137389443,-0.24511111111111106,165,4,39,1,4,52,39,45,0.273,0.6859999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.8962,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,9,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,3,1,6,0,5,5,1,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,3,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194548509848934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298284022846961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687350260397577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5185835182235554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30758790337364744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5280293547326331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26958488803777003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19746431874295006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549053850155649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369818175619341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anonimityformeity,2019/07/14,"What the duck ( 🦆) is wrong with me The title was a typo but I’m keeping it anyways. 

Ok so honestly I’m disgusted with myself. I don’t know how else to say it. So here it goes. I’m gonna sound like a bitch either way. 

So I have a friend, she’s an inch and a half shorter than me, small frame, usually about 117-120lbs. She dropped down to 115lbs because of exam stress, last I saw her was about 2 months ago, she had obviously gained some weight, probably around 125 if I had to guess. 

I saw her today. My coworkers had been worried about her. They said she had gained a lot of weight, I was assuming maybe up to 130. No she weighs the same as I do right now (145lbs, she told me) she looked absolutely miserable. I’m so so worried about her. 

We went to grab coffee, I had a medium iced drink thing, and my fucking garbage brain started praising me for eating less than her and being “””””healthy”””” lads...... I was not at all healthy today. My friend ate grape leaf rolls and a latte, pretty balanced......... I haven’t even eaten today yet, only coffee. Why the fuck am I like this? It’s so shitty of me to even think that I’m at all better than her, especially since she’s trying so hard and she’s so stressed.",0.9205263157894734,3.0568202631578965,2.446983805668016,94.43946356275305,83.21052631578947,5.419433198380567,19.621457489878548,6.67199483983844,0.06910850202429142,923,25,207,10,26,300,147,247,0.163,0.6609999999999999,0.177,0.625,0,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,1,0,1,4,20,16,4,3,12,1,17,10,1,1,3,25,38,17,0,1,4,0,4,2,2,1,0,3,0,0,8,9,7,1,3,1,0,1,4,8,0,1,17,10,37,8,25,19,7,21,1,1,3,2,23,8,3,5,12,131,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580454532469014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162973652677121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963697799356828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554053118992405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583753048843978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797753963928413,0.0,0.133677412450223,0.10913302043287296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17257307668378674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20186439786274987,0.2415492909829977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391477260634525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702784809521488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611890242040822,0.0,0.0,0.07179636943598093,0.10648909853461128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276482848516855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097047616009738,0.0,0.0,0.11106552119052854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312455159264106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427566257396026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935766494140427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290792361646234,0.14085209804721424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156591140879853,0.12426862889773164,0.1038902322326202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806682116481804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246771845055292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29929553217427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679146180608359,0.08370888591836106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714945511469731,0.12483219142237832,0.0,0.0886960364106813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388158742293655,0.0,0.0,0.10369601182196894,0.0,0.31816883673743457,0.0,0.12110465961546978,0.11788234915363592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26534267793379224,0.0,0.0,0.1428344152802368,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hlpen,2019/07/14,"I feel I’m slipping the ‘wrong’ way... Hey guys! I’ve been going round in mind spirals the last couple of days so hoping speaking to you guys will help! Apologises in advance for the long and rambling post...I’ve put a TW tag just in case :) 

I’ve had an eating disorder for 18 years in one form or another, which started when I was 8. For the last 9 years I’ve been consistently bulimic - had numerous rounds of therapy (one therapist was amazing but then left after 8 sessions :( ) but it’s never really stuck.

Anyway for the majority of my ED I’ve been at a consistent low weight, not always too low but on the end of the spectrum I can cope with. 

Since January though I have been putting on so much weight - I’ve managed to stop binge/purging but I still purge after ‘normal’ eating. 

I’ve put on 2 stone and I absolutely hate myself - I desperately want to lose some - my ED mind wants the full two stone gone, my rational glimmer of a
Mind would be happy with 1.  But I don’t know what to do - purging isn’t helping, reducing bingeing isn’t helping so I feel at a complete loss. I can tell and feel that I’ve put on weight - when I put my work clothes on I usually have a panic attack. 

Then a family member came to my house and said ‘oooh you’ve put on weight’ and actually pinched my hips. 

I need to do something...I find restricting really hard but maybe I just need to try harder.

This probably isn’t a hugely coherent thread..sort of feels like my mind at the moment! 
 
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. 
Thanks for reading x",2.0050597567424617,4.3065260622950845,3.799883659439452,85.34313590692757,80.18032786885246,7.214172395557908,24.592808038075088,8.259297600419973,1.6858683236382856,1199,45,241,25,31,402,173,305,0.139,0.745,0.11599999999999999,-0.8909999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,0,4,11,14,2,1,17,0,23,7,1,0,1,40,42,20,0,8,10,0,11,1,0,3,0,2,0,2,5,8,6,2,6,1,0,10,6,8,0,3,12,13,23,6,35,25,5,48,0,4,2,0,11,18,0,3,20,137,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.07949949077073866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06778660166754615,0.0,0.0,0.055399970716858496,0.08542466231259935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267983288674306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317590094367638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541600915928617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014106294876653,0.0,0.052539112270910224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933675946450722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667210061992457,0.0,0.0,0.07215508260211816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767993064121923,0.0,0.1647675132212863,0.05819963882192224,0.0,0.0,0.07445884746682338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046299253503181835,0.0,0.0,0.08981703431922089,0.0,0.16132916139512504,0.0,0.08672253697626041,0.07297792585202811,0.08043124042173143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381570631001496,0.0,0.0,0.08091455366620674,0.0,0.0940013303262316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04477182320639519,0.13281203856000728,0.0,0.0,0.0885135220941006,0.0,0.0,0.03980038605625598,0.0,0.0,0.07209523308547675,0.0,0.09114010461927907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184398573146454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290315113223804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05988720479332805,0.12081266145507825,0.06283193840842154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981981123092903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040753206604682,0.0,0.0,0.09558331081519272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780223271776393,0.0,0.0878345977876055,0.0,0.0,0.4913776217846218,0.0,0.0,0.0814884829067266,0.0,0.10437897113184468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749323714859173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738987848100866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057662363365857575,0.0,0.06505920176831215,0.06810958910065103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120525665705038,0.07500334976591727,0.0931639705020216,0.09458881230302868,0.0,0.0,0.0800403606579116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553103630794024,0.0,0.07958087134621182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972377078898458,0.0,0.0961020304500826,0.06466426568604149,0.0,0.3968166919887155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593085363470135,0.0,0.0,0.11574283882033468,0.08907075996952493,0.0,0.10492342880419786
EDAnonymous,wandaana,2019/07/14,"Cellulite. I've had cellulite since I was 14. 

I've been underweight / bordering underweight my entire life. 

I'm scared to wear shorts or sit down or cross my legs or do fucking anything in the summer. Like, it's so baaaad and normal weight girls don't have any when they crouch down and here I am with my cottage cheese thighs like thanks genes, how lovely

​

(sorry, rant post)",3.0048287671232887,5.764892821917813,2.5166952054794542,93.27175513698631,79.68493150684931,5.293835616438357,21.45376712328768,6.6274283507984215,0.4020698630136983,308,9,59,3,8,90,58,73,0.069,0.779,0.152,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,4,6,1,1,1,0,7,7,3,1,0,8,11,8,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,6,4,5,8,0,9,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,3,4,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748822065160377,0.3082714324580145,0.17252367201019153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877223969074324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345401647633205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919474532688456,0.2478885335496755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289727911051409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24857065363988856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24297302343827296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539964452513065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986201150330652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839946875022763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23357148293118365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089364124699688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082714324580145,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thecaretakerjohanna,2019/07/14,"My parents fucked me up Mom 


“I’ve lost 20 pounds by only having one liter of milk a day for a month”

“When I was your age I was so thin I could stick my hand under my ribs”

“i was so much smaller when I was your age” 

“You’d actually be pretty if you lost weight “ this one has probably crushed me the most, she caught me looking at myself in the mirror feeling good about myself and had the need to tell me that. I was 10


When I was 8 I got food poisoning and didn’t eat anything for seven days, she made me weight myself afterwards. I lost 14 lbs, hell I was throwing up for a week. She was so happy and told me to stick with it. She braided my hair and complimented my face. A few weeks later she refused to braid them again because I gained the weight back and didn’t look good anymore. 


I went to get an apple after dinner, she said “do you really need it? It’s extra 250 calories.” (At least get your numbers right)


Dad


Forcing me on the scale when I was 5 and then screaming at me for being chubby. He made me cry so much then and you know what, I’m 23 now and still feel like crying",0.3307826086956496,2.406296600000001,2.1580000000000013,95.97700000000002,85.17391304347827,4.723478260869566,17.895652173913042,5.927762680638738,-0.4338904347826089,838,20,192,6,25,276,138,230,0.13699999999999998,0.7559999999999999,0.10800000000000001,-0.7997,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,7,1,4,13,12,3,0,10,0,19,13,4,2,0,20,40,19,0,4,1,3,8,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,9,7,1,3,0,0,3,2,7,0,3,22,12,44,5,21,14,6,33,1,3,2,1,22,10,2,2,21,131,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.11476697934423888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663404648121428,0.0,0.0,0.09678012901779943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904321393092074,0.0,0.07169183099447603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389922075584776,0.0,0.25837043639185925,0.15169292669179138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034081029461274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893076045607275,0.08401810730813129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422102469800975,0.0,0.0,0.10872531443487952,0.12288908474748444,0.0,0.0,0.19728550528612795,0.09406066184248817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251943064457694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463345688528024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057456595509317664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975196805840998,0.0,0.3851441632469951,0.0,0.0,0.22256422836669515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377393117461718,0.0938723865023247,0.0,0.17290861938526667,0.17440745956124898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938641655722718,0.08944504302461373,0.0,0.0,0.13058810078429248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964809109792802,0.1267996986178178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534173557417632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043530865912867,0.111870713396118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392070305241246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027932649723185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237805094570527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886736812404328,0.4296391019432845,0.0,0.10902240402061723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feelcrappeh,2019/07/14,I don't think I can carry on much longer I originally have myself til September but Idk if I can drag it out that much longer. I can't keep living in this body,1.359333333333332,2.8306070285714284,3.457142857142859,91.0561904761905,78.71428571428572,6.9523809523809526,17.38095238095238,7.793537801064563,0.1196666666666668,126,2,30,2,3,43,27,35,0.132,0.868,0.0,-0.4497,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,1,0,6,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,4,7,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790787140882528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833605723434363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3808471084641208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6341124276601424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763605730590706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bountiful-barracudas,2019/07/14,"TW: relapsing is not fun; i'm so fucking sick of everything i was in treatment feburary-november. started relapsing around may (AP exam season, what a coincidence!) right now i'm at a camp, which is quite fun, except for a few things:

1. last time i was at the camp, i was deeeeep in my ED. so yikes triggering.
2. dining hall is buffet style. it's so easy to sleep in & miss a meal. orrrr go and binge and purge :/ 
3. so so so much stress from the work. it's a writing camp structured like an intense class, and it's really rough. 

so i'm really not doing well, and i'm terrified to go home next week. what am i going to tell my parents? i already lied about relapsing when i lost weight at my psych appointment :/ i feel like such a disappointment.

and the binging and purging is rlly taking a toll on me. like binged so much i almost threw up involuntarily and then purged so hard it gave me a massive headache and i was dizzy for hours. i really haven't kept down much in over a week. 

i'm just scared. the only way out i see is suicide & i'm really scared of that.",1.1170339487790348,3.295676990867584,3.156354973198333,89.3923525908279,82.74429223744292,6.548421679571175,21.393885249156245,7.7425588080867325,0.9094548739328968,827,26,179,15,23,279,130,219,0.209,0.736,0.055,-0.9862,1,0,0,0,0,1,39.0,0,0,0,3,16,13,1,3,14,0,13,6,1,1,0,20,32,19,1,0,4,1,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,10,3,1,1,0,0,4,3,7,1,0,8,5,16,6,23,23,4,31,0,3,1,1,4,15,1,2,14,104,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377404809752334,0.0,0.1517942811070227,0.0,0.0,0.2980794454970481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245224057438925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362468326665507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955144533691766,0.09826861907455994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716647458837604,0.0,0.0,0.23452535778762704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322138318327745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797789711078867,0.0,0.13546300114186746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212488505042978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016058375387767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015646142446165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033540946851537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629026034265866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046160303142502,0.0,0.0,0.15273746032600674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630563168527744,0.0,0.0,0.3524825088669152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747038114133501,0.0,0.0,0.2754311401902746,0.0,0.10961274442855687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376533594506971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736144304737396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756766468560154,0.0,0.0,0.15046177150280993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342350391732508,0.0,0.1202282760542198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138477846352454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020885499886603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918397813225243,0.2206750747575656,0.1675037385832446,0.12367758317860275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014096451676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeahnah113,2019/07/14,"I need Girlfriend ED Advice I'm M17 and I'm dating a lovely F17 but I wanted to ask for some help on relationship advice based around ED. 

Basically a year back I was in and out of hospitals for mental illness (diagnosed blah blah) and was friends with a lot of girls with EDs while in there, so I understand it to the outsider degree but I want to get advice so I make the best decision according to those who understand her perspective. 

Basically, I was on instagram when I saw an option to follow an account from my contacts, and it was an ED account n I know how they work and all cause I followed similar things in the past. So I immediately removed all the female contacts I had on my phone except her and checked again and it still came up so it's certainly her account. 

She isn't really one to open up about things, and has only talked to me about her bulimia twice, one being very brief and the other a drunken rant she doesn't remember. To be honest I got my shit together these days but I'm so worried about her from an ED perspective. I do my absolute best to be the best boyfriend possible but it's so hard to help someone who refuses to be helped or discuss the issues at hand. She always insults herself harshly (fat, ugly etc). I care about her a lot and just want to see her happy. 

In conclusion, the help I am asking for is how can I make things easier for her / support her through this? (and also, do I talk to her about the instagram account or leave it be?)

Any responses greatly appreciated, I just want her to have the best.",2.8996127946127928,4.857643915584418,4.604992784992786,82.36492303992307,75.75324675324677,8.069456469456469,27.316498316498322,8.841846274778883,2.2545587782587786,1218,49,239,27,27,411,161,308,0.081,0.6940000000000001,0.226,0.9955,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,6,22,14,2,0,19,0,19,6,3,5,3,50,44,28,0,5,9,0,2,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,15,17,1,1,6,0,5,5,2,2,0,3,8,4,40,12,43,31,10,27,0,0,2,1,37,13,1,6,9,183,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068273497198365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369921776924373,0.0870882651652779,0.0,0.0,0.07117464544985877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931725431306594,0.19569214805848267,0.0,0.0,0.08047963123253155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393507810464519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119706953421173,0.1067112283730103,0.10751805865307204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674991816736543,0.0,0.0,0.10623106485096426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672726631752076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086262003062518,0.0,0.05468226395244585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370881675913817,0.1153916778350032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141604845504542,0.0937577751571549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28061446398768475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924131184121724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05752022251320853,0.0,0.0,0.1108233418081857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17796202071529985,0.09446273102516772,0.0,0.1397271552758861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547600769377732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760652427838158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184514627195466,0.07960116981845977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991298014531452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799216534407315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705000171118652,0.0,0.0,0.11236923461826843,0.11856313665231345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340311381836553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743539210377394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868088988517618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358426113213338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11877069320320388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824882122348647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20860097388841006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791641084094554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635819876351812,0.24693254728435104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761961422005625,0.1062906801339838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06739974541403293
EDAnonymous,vibe_ramon,2019/07/14,I'm sick of ED ruining my life I'm sick of everything. I'm sick of the fact I can't eat like a normal person. I'm sick of myself because I had to bring my whole family home from vacation because of this shit. I'm sick of it ruling my relationship and my life and I just wish it would go away.,0.41227272727272535,1.910744469696972,3.5393939393939418,89.27909090909094,81.57575757575758,7.430303030303031,20.090909090909093,8.344100000000001,0.8841999999999999,229,6,55,5,6,83,39,66,0.33299999999999996,0.63,0.036000000000000004,-0.9689,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,3,9,1,0,1,7,11,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,8,1,9,9,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,29,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23728082163424766,0.0,0.0,0.30790658578983515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25842364126431305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22697736124675236,0.0,0.2380834528540919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14353106367187798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533301454777517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567697487532798,0.12338410045451845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474472381563651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205185759185261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27114622350052403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25924089398843697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819651749249661,0.29042221883866165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940562224338769,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,helpfulthrowoaway,2019/07/14,"am i even anorexic? i’ve been restricting for over two years now and it’s so weird to see people telling their parents they’re anorexic. my mom would proudly help me eat as little as possible. she’d congratulate me on every single lb dropped. she’d tell me to stop eating or wouldn’t take me to get fast food on the days that i wanted to try to recover. 


i was having a surgery and my surgeon told me to lose as much weight as i needed because after surgery i shouldn’t lose any more or it could affect the results. 


she told me to lose 15 pounds.  i ended up not losing any weight but after surgery, i lost six due to relapsing. now she’s insistent that i’m too skinny and need to eat. she still doesn’t take me seriously or even know what an eating disorder is, i guess.",2.7255732946298963,4.301048949685537,3.9485534591194975,88.53775036284473,75.22641509433961,6.9048863086598935,24.809385582970492,7.61054688173877,1.1219971940009672,609,20,129,8,13,199,101,159,0.124,0.825,0.051,-0.8511,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,6,7,8,0,0,4,0,12,9,1,2,0,21,25,12,0,7,5,2,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,3,8,2,1,0,0,0,4,7,0,2,5,3,23,1,20,14,3,17,0,5,1,0,13,5,0,4,11,82,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484086800033806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940058548313703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089823493792877,0.0,0.0,0.07342243725698727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047948591737538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659790425832345,0.0,0.0,0.10083539283666262,0.0,0.0,0.15039084684313828,0.0,0.0959217139196374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766525788524975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05948079657513145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254162291210941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630980615125234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256779450901688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410544279941365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094664392880762,0.12427836409429452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333372121569221,0.0,0.0,0.08369126059385358,0.1688334589628469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641455136302926,0.0,0.0,0.07892775624394957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834633164408646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072198713420024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909190306679085,0.09518189052293057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711988116103956,0.0,0.1990160573064963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757297652745625,0.0,0.07729520898485201,0.0,0.11121279520569233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715040467953481,0.0,0.0,0.2772719923381564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087423781936301,0.0,0.0,0.07331427516743161
EDAnonymous,RIPTemperr,2019/07/14,"lol i fucking suck idk if this is triggering or whatever. 

i hate this man. i found pictures of me when i used to be so skinny and now i’m such a mess. i used to be so in control and i can’t believe i’ve fell off like this. i looked so good when i was skinny skinny man wtf. although my coping mechanisms back then were so messed up, i have to go back to them. idc. i’m going back to skinny skinny me. lmao i sound like such a fucking kid.",-1.6506627393225308,0.29618585567010314,1.2234830633284268,98.63136597938148,97.659793814433,4.008541973490426,16.206921944035347,5.773587663045528,-0.6453057437407947,336,9,81,3,14,116,59,97,0.174,0.677,0.149,-0.3708,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,12,9,4,0,2,1,7,7,5,4,0,9,19,12,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,5,1,1,0,0,3,1,6,0,0,3,2,14,3,9,14,0,13,0,0,1,2,4,3,3,2,9,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147464740640499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514042309194265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502723388003921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446633058148106,0.0,0.4125817264700506,0.0,0.0,0.25363308825492953,0.1871606322813141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220306185918705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21803148140375306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873827894882996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854454881683401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Little_Octopus,2019/07/14,"Does anyone else get uncomfortably warm after eating too much? I am typically pretty cold at night and use three blankets.  Last night I ate 'normally' and had two large slices of pizza with my family but now I can't sleep because I am uncomfortably hot.  No blanket is too cold, one blanket and I'm too hot and uncomfortable.",3.651530054644809,6.254240737704923,5.011065573770495,77.24370218579237,76.04918032786884,8.001092896174864,24.92076502732241,8.841846274778883,2.1758502732240435,259,9,46,6,6,86,46,61,0.18100000000000002,0.764,0.055,-0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,0,8,9,5,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,5,5,1,4,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779804890290965,0.2605392655359124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500634478311806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225215916334854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260191278047339,0.21241778654392415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397119612468836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285047665973349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20727162605834315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869245958753007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772479297531379,0.2491397955318569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723062829886355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25869353598733397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544630091072742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24839399780188465,0.0,0.0,0.2196157348148868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,parkerkit101,2019/07/14,"I just need support I am 20 and have been battling bulimia since I was 13. Recently the purging has been at it's ultimate high, last week there wasn't a single meal that I didn't purge. I want help, I really do, but the one time 3 years ago I opened up to my Mom about this she called it disgusting and brushed it off, I think she did that because we cannot afford help anyways. Because of that I have been on the road to recover myself for about 2 years now. Like seriously I am trying so hard to coach myself out of this, I read a lot of self help books, listen to podcasts, take notes, and do a lot of introspective journaling. I am trying to get down to the source in order to make a permanent and lasting change within myself. Right now I am practicing intuitive eating, which I believe is the answer but it is just so hard to stop binging. I constantly am making excuses for my actions and having apathetic feelings towards my own health, this only happens when I am in the act of binge eating or purging, it's like I go through a trans then come back to a health conscious mindset after ""the deed has been done"". It is to the point where I am not allowing myself to purge anymore because the acid reflux is so uncomfortable, because of this I am experiencing bulimia bloat which is making my self esteem plummet even lower and also since I am still binging but not purging I am getting anxious at the thought of gaining even more weight. I guess I just need some kind of support or just an open ear? No one knows about this, I can't ever picture sharing this with anyone close to me, I would just imagine a very awkward conversation and them feeling a lot of pressure to respond the right way or do the right thing, which I get but I don't want to put anyone through that. I am the type of person who makes themselves look very put together and no one has ever had to ""be there for me"". Like I said I am trying to fix this myself, but 100% by myself has been difficult lately. I figured a forum like this would be a safe space for me and I wouldn't be making anyone uncomfortable lol. P.S. Sorry if this post is so scattered and choppy I have never really put this all into words before.",5.308588015933559,5.648362292906183,6.113526570048312,80.05921095008053,67.94736842105263,8.670870412746844,30.60166115772523,8.515128840125781,2.249446715823374,1730,63,336,24,27,570,214,437,0.139,0.7909999999999999,0.071,-0.9752,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,1,1,26,15,2,2,24,1,49,7,1,6,4,68,76,26,0,8,16,1,5,4,0,3,2,3,0,3,25,18,4,2,9,3,0,7,11,6,0,3,13,12,50,9,50,57,8,54,0,0,1,0,19,23,0,9,25,257,75,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474214775708084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742846808652347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525448368374204,0.0836200474966329,0.1768697285600644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06483475462266514,0.0,0.20559603284772368,0.0,0.07174776281360938,0.0949966582232442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860973314707184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919646213021308,0.07263183815569088,0.0,0.09111698451800683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628581304340012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725551770895576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113814864540002,0.15253954556063906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852666621641158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215683687683988,0.0,0.0479194318069801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288494824111884,0.0,0.0745614587736529,0.0,0.15106337474926165,0.0,0.0,0.17925057111261725,0.0,0.0,0.1695482102512855,0.08908579567214267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780343261522341,0.04633855120073549,0.1374596120536783,0.095113521748792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477258194957034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080524756818089,0.0,0.0,0.21505051219530494,0.0,0.0,0.2814120693551712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875133494766923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250403333526433,0.06503065514125002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17140663629011774,0.06412706213756587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362256358008576,0.0,0.0,0.07970704757545871,0.0,0.08075261054379278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542863508260025,0.0,0.0,0.08434005959588077,0.0,0.10803156877878037,0.0,0.08325310451789253,0.0,0.0,0.21601939229043265,0.08020500574137505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592254494495754,0.0,0.0,0.1394961880380833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943862494356442,0.0,0.0,0.06733585850015793,0.07049298991582628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191364414380688,0.0,0.0,0.06339607268856277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05601662908977613,0.05402708419042365,0.0,0.0669384719418905,0.049166061960531734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717376180776167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13914111038383595,0.099464988012141,0.0669271021762318,0.06763420571724177,0.10267568574468426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979309929081587,0.0,0.0,0.1085950789939142
EDAnonymous,idonotdometh,2019/07/14,"Going to treatment has made my ED SO much worse When I first started outpatient treatment, my goal was just to stop counting calories and think less about food. I wasn't really trying to restrict. I didn't even know how much I weighed and didn't care about having an underweight BMI. It's like starting treatment for my ED made it part of my identity. I don't know who I'd be without it. Whenever I get weighed at the treatment center and it's higher than the week before I panic and start trying to restrict again. Seeing a dietician seems completely pointless when it's making my behavior worse and all my therapist wants to talk about is my relationship with my parents? Even though I'm an adult and it's not really relevant to my ED at all? I feel like I would be doing better if I had never gone and tried to get help. Having appointments and talking about my eating habits every week just makes me think about controlling my weight more. 

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Maybe it's supposed to get worse before it gets better? Or am I just doomed lmao",5.291556503198294,6.535384129353233,5.507793176972282,81.14608208955227,68.40298507462687,8.528926794598437,29.28251599147121,8.841846274778883,2.3199918976545844,834,30,153,14,14,264,114,201,0.146,0.772,0.08199999999999999,-0.9373,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,16,7,0,1,5,0,15,5,0,6,3,36,38,15,0,3,7,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,9,5,4,6,0,0,2,7,2,0,1,8,3,23,5,20,27,7,16,1,1,1,0,7,3,0,3,13,103,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246505886761285,0.1397915711422484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19578866804529405,0.0,0.0,0.20349489353212047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729546071720065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062189298156142,0.0,0.12903210739641433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771916977554868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519715181530175,0.0,0.0969298916403557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581699190299132,0.08218776169291707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978567309037771,0.1391121778812074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24042385946272,0.0,0.06538239910942772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711185443928106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645081690295915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124097919056339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21771563712194694,0.15358609682103652,0.0,0.11557759002384722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691417821704757,0.0,0.08872935442805953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497984747183722,0.12774322168230215,0.12458190353006506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474008117367313,0.0,0.0,0.12351466050898385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167551353057617,0.10473212564712936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442871128529265,0.0,0.0,0.09618229238732452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18493670536292092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357544688832515,0.0,0.14743164716499782,0.11303056549364167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343228428183827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678561837901108,0.0,0.18456340006142166,0.1400931190343384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108987223351681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35172029914468106,0.081724260211768,0.0,0.1397915711422484,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitlops,2019/07/14,"drinking while disordered! this post brought to you by me going on a shitty Tinder date to a fancy cocktail bar and only drinking straight whiskey to ~ keep the calories low ~ . Wellness queen over here!!!

What do y'all order at a bar?",3.5583333333333336,5.741936333333335,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,74.55555555555556,5.388888888888888,31.25,5.985473137389443,1.6320000000000006,185,9,33,1,4,58,38,45,0.147,0.75,0.10300000000000001,-0.47100000000000003,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,0,6,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,7,3,0,11,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39151289593079786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6692924870944555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19414396276750995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036372992428477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598086307486621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271664797267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071470351476301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilacset,2019/07/14,"Are “therapeutic meals” a thing? I’d be surprised if many people have heard of this. Apparently some clinics regularly incorporate meals with clinicians as a part of treatment for a “real time” opportunity to practice coping skills. 

It seems like an obvious thing to do, but really strange as well. I would presume that even people without eating disorders would also struggle to get through meals in that kind of situation. Wouldn’t it just feel like having extreme scrutiny over my eating habits? Would they make comments? What if I screw up? Like wtf I would literally die.

Oh well, I guess that’s another reason why treatment is impossible.

Idk I just stumbled upon that while googling about ED stuff and found it interesting. I’m curious if other people have thoughts.

Example:

https://emilyprogram.com/blog/eating-with-our-clients-the-therapeutic-meal/",7.769207507820648,11.519142985401466,6.658545359749741,64.75359489051098,68.05109489051095,9.169760166840463,33.14337851929093,9.606745405546679,4.041609384775809,707,32,96,18,14,214,101,137,0.125,0.7120000000000001,0.163,0.5875,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,2,7,11,1,1,4,0,12,7,0,2,1,25,21,9,1,8,7,0,1,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,13,2,5,0,6,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,3,2,7,9,17,12,2,6,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,6,5,67,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860917247477405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555234653659386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392978700611235,0.0,0.16998430522261707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035309468186044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796207975811627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499360823379887,0.1059578026718914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262210119434548,0.0,0.0,0.0774895900978188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338806380866347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444948963652458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173808053131102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900285033259312,0.15037031233083398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061302168136374,0.0,0.3084733139522869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16881738917195765,0.09501576513321187,0.1524947339360732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502236432948905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671469253910667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505328986139627,0.16978765390810754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970706501188514,0.0,0.0,0.117747251110104,0.08648492377876896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667098627575481,0.0,0.13383315997804807,0.0,0.0,0.14297244134301912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42144099601491297,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smores666,2019/07/14,"... another stress binge Had nothing for 2 days but water, but had a mini panic attack at an In N Out, then my family went to cheesecake factory for dinner and I ate 2000 calories bc it's fucking cheesecake factory and theres not one fucking item on that menu under 1000 cal unless u order from that skinnybitch menu but then u have to say ""I'll have the skinnybitch burger"" and ofc I'm not gonna say that to the waitress w severe social anxiety, and I ate so fucking much bc ""oh I already went past my daily limit of 0.01 calories why not go fucking wild"" and I feel so fucking gross",1.8875988700564967,4.161602364406779,3.945,84.29314971751415,80.44067796610169,6.306214689265537,25.08757062146893,7.492282038375204,1.5122689265536715,461,18,86,7,12,157,80,118,0.17600000000000002,0.8240000000000001,0.0,-0.9681,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,9,6,2,4,0,4,9,0,0,0,15,17,13,0,0,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,6,4,1,1,0,0,3,3,9,0,1,6,3,6,0,13,10,2,13,0,0,0,5,3,5,5,0,4,50,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014855005655533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167790655536238,0.11795219031190425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540931336897309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943748625138046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453532358160193,0.0,0.07796128742209121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7127143100918488,0.0,0.0,0.08762769648509824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334476061498547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479460297235653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044807094879772,0.0,0.0,0.18090454414300453,0.0,0.0,0.14718838574322954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452304617070168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17418676871431205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571736394203539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662002472379215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858647146526236,0.13912926311169155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ogre-ish,2019/07/14,"just college tingz! **me, food planning on a tight grocery budget where i won't be able to afford binges:** wow, it looks like i'm going to be in high restriction mode every day because i don't have money! this isn't much food, i don't know if i could eat like this for the rest of my life. maybe i should lose weight slowly by eating healthy, satisfying food and exercising instead.

**hellbrain:** no eat equal small pretty girl, pretty bone girl mean good attention  

**me:** ok i agree

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i'm going to be fully in charge of my eating for once, and it feels really liberating but at the same time i'm kind of scared because there's no one to check me. at home there's always a safety net of home-cooked food to fall back on and binge food if i want it, but now if i spend too much on junk i eat in two hours then i won't have any money for the rest of the week. in a sick way i'm excited to see how much i can lose at >!900-950!< cals every day (not that impressive i know). i want to eat more fruit/veg/whole grains, less meat, enough vitamins/minerals etc so that i can avoid some things like losing hair, but i've never been on a strict restriction before so let's see how this goes.",1.449841430499326,3.4630288340080995,2.707960526315791,93.97843201754387,80.49797570850204,5.898043184885291,18.793690958164643,6.996647511020387,0.04329703103913607,930,21,209,11,24,299,144,247,0.11599999999999999,0.7340000000000001,0.15,0.5397,1,1,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,0,4,12,14,0,2,8,1,16,17,2,2,1,29,31,14,0,7,8,0,4,3,0,3,3,0,1,2,9,3,12,4,5,1,5,3,9,5,0,2,1,7,19,9,27,22,12,27,0,3,3,0,2,14,0,4,12,119,28,1,0.08441779640458492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024236917728731,0.09146664713498497,0.10257686261983813,0.05740699636470431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491207463553088,0.0,0.1029206103011538,0.0,0.07183332707580367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740074129044954,0.0,0.0,0.10888498994181296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5182828838871996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722614998533829,0.09414815782781086,0.0,0.0,0.14225126876113373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04268417433313457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103916724974288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595315821121436,0.0708056424489434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919203676008408,0.16935586560039745,0.0,0.08313452478837194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790814439486963,0.09278762637571512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632291630438144,0.0596267861313947,0.12372681364703494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07088968781453943,0.2833257628220501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480902301143894,0.09195572820962912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617038078054626,0.0,0.06510820877928647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990219807205366,0.05720368359348959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17176649537819216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05408020201799458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451694100464202,0.0,0.13454010825101842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056083432866656666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04922469595344913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246392070170834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958360701822112,0.06700691746097298,0.0677148642727751,0.1027981337340224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257686261983813,0.0
EDAnonymous,halfcigarette,2019/07/14,"What things do you only do when you’re “doing well” restricting? I’ve noticed recently that I have a bunch of activities/behaviors that have genuinely nothing to do with food, weight, or fitness that only feel good/right when I’m restricting. 
For example, there are certain books/magazines that I only feel good reading when I’m restricting successfully and feeling good about it.  I feel the same way about a few train stops in my current city/hometown. Even hanging out with certain groups of friends just feels wrong if I’m not doing well with things. 
I think it’s connected to past positive restriction associations I have with these things- I’m aggressively nostalgic, and if I was doing well restricting one day and did X, it gets burned into my brain and feels wrong to do when I’m out of that mindset. 
I read a theory that eating disorders are connected to obsessive ones, like OCD, and I at first didn’t totally understand, but noticing this stuff in myself has definitely made me thing about it again....idk. 
What have others’ experiences been with this? Do others do this or something similar?",7.776791044776116,8.438699378109455,7.615136815920397,70.29942164179107,62.681592039801,11.874129353233831,36.65049751243781,11.538034831475384,4.553112437810945,889,40,151,26,12,284,118,201,0.08800000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.136,0.8171,1,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,2,13,14,1,1,4,0,20,4,1,1,3,39,35,14,0,2,7,0,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,23,13,3,6,8,2,0,1,2,4,3,3,5,7,13,10,22,30,4,19,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,11,110,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332035852229312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695326419234765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675414119443374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209690154555702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881151185926857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672048775013018,0.0,0.0,0.3619988260323373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149581976758257,0.1442854712527693,0.0,0.09218841485497427,0.0,0.06234118103702398,0.0,0.0,0.3002466352393029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829503946225384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290601505808437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449333989341855,0.2716993484928168,0.0,0.0,0.1617122866502594,0.27225084952922074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390700993295348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387099622627977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178167618860534,0.0,0.0,0.10190092590393858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186043689292553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099759112355551,0.0,0.0,0.13659593316696153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170907746610765,0.0764571621721673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421912917676695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471279787681693,0.0,0.14530289157287676,0.3218562871000942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609212614177764,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,completelyirregular,2019/07/14,Is anyone else watching Good Omens? I wish I could eat Famine’s Chow ❤️,-0.6506250000000016,1.447755187500004,0.8049999999999997,103.54,90.875,3.2,14.25,3.1291,-1.588025,57,1,14,0,2,18,15,16,0.0,0.6409999999999999,0.359,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28672573622685665,0.4201582255133874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274021121472656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4195970440523162,0.3425552001852661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439415716487521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4715524630626958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cmb77,2019/07/14,"I see a lot of my own ED behaviors in my mom When I started exhibiting ED behaviors in early high school (14-15yo), I noticed that my mom would get weirdly competitive with me, like she'd be like ""Wow, I ate so little today!"" or ""Wow, I lost two pounds!"" and shit like that. Now that I'm more or less ""recovered"" I'm noticing that it actually has been getting progressively worse. She has been told by many doctors to gain weight, and she keeps saying ""I actually eat sooo much, I just have a really fast metabolism!"" But i've seen her eat. I dont know who she thinks she's fooling...She eats so little. She spends a long ass time cutting up food into tiny pieces and then chewing it for a really long time. She prepares elaborate foods for the family and eats a quarter plate of leftovers. She orders things at restaurants without cheese and oil for no reason (i.e. no intolerance/allergy and she used to really enjoy these foods). She force feeds me and my sister and barely takes any food for herself. I'm like, come on, i know exactly what you're doing because I used to do that too (still do sometimes). And it honestly breaks my heart but she won't listen to anyone and seems totally convinced that her weight loss has nothing to do with her dietary habits. It's horrible because you think that your mom is supposed to take care of you, nourish you and look out for you, and now I feel like I have to step in and be my mom's mom. But also I'm worried because she really is super skinny and it's already having a lot of adverse effects on her health.",4.926493506493504,5.568262948051952,5.8172987012987045,80.78451948051949,68.87012987012987,8.887272727272729,29.685714285714287,8.982922981607832,2.3133864935064934,1220,44,241,21,20,402,173,308,0.09,0.804,0.106,0.7863,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,5,0,6,10,18,2,0,7,0,20,19,4,4,2,42,47,24,0,1,7,6,3,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,16,19,14,1,8,0,1,2,5,6,0,2,6,9,42,12,29,36,8,29,0,2,3,1,32,12,2,5,18,155,58,2,0.0,0.0,0.15557368912566386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879635309010143,0.06374519144231308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054206497037385636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05573607620717815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577401999747053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127110220355642,0.0,0.0,0.06866432768575641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158801304637259,0.0,0.0,0.0934211871615894,0.0,0.0,0.3262587186118945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514482989138017,0.0,0.04030448753725227,0.05694585229117136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855494477693798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329185091688228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472950888529426,0.0,0.09445841303883457,0.0,0.0842194886086476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708511700217287,0.0,0.0,0.08761462039030607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194714860037708,0.15978356171556693,0.0,0.14108419149284093,0.06693751451630782,0.0,0.08701442793608988,0.13553559259339032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081486572050788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4667852414610385,0.0,0.0,0.058597063269186636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648525451992139,0.1815039533453637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042606996433641,0.08195661267906593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06338971824639449,0.0,0.08067220967742536,0.06351967914317075,0.07256628036088507,0.0,0.0,0.08182262415183048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883662971071913,0.0,0.056420151283741636,0.0,0.06365764064989866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198661308762825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05295672357110092,0.10215171492163402,0.0,0.0,0.09296073664663657,0.0,0.07555710298330097,0.07616767498051602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786647196815734,0.0,0.0,0.13769014235496085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19413406325254484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768389615594356,0.0,0.0,0.08095081333202382,0.08123274394442967,0.05662470366346115,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LowFox5,2019/07/14,"Ok so I think I stopped the cycle for today I've been posting a lot but this is the only place I can talk about this stuff.

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The last week and a bit I have been binging and purging like crazy to the point that I couldn't physically purge anymore because I had damaged my throat, last weekend it is literally all I did from when I woke up to bed time. Yesterday I woke up and binged but did something different. I allowed myself to binge but told myself I couldn't throw up and would have to deal with the feeling, I also logged what I was eating as I was doing it. I then went for a walk in the afternoon and only walked long enough to bring myself down to maintenance calories for the day (normally if I exercise purge I would keep walking for as long as possible). I then went to see my friend in the evening - normally I would 100% cancel if I had binged earlier that day.

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Today I woke up and had breakfast instead of fasting and I feel like I will get through the day without being binging. I feel different. I am even leaving the house. I am actually for once really proud of myself. I hope this lasts, even if it just for the day.",4.3636850649350665,5.338363883116884,5.1609713203463246,83.7757426948052,70.34199134199133,8.199242424242426,30.021915584415584,8.472884824447931,2.1424564935064936,911,36,183,14,16,296,123,231,0.05,0.848,0.102,0.9109,3,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,0,0,14,1,24,4,1,1,1,33,39,21,0,11,8,0,3,2,1,4,1,0,1,0,10,8,2,2,4,2,0,7,3,1,0,0,15,4,33,6,30,17,4,38,0,1,1,0,4,9,0,5,23,137,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.10400534073462467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.085230868965207,0.0,0.2309557399918123,0.2590093324120739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056973339792416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496932613434597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635622901941645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749375232799341,0.10987785810429876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270390854883287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905651652145112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012418541356607,0.0,0.21118248300397488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616680294594178,0.07613977407430217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234236299572778,0.0,0.055682920317140325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105856599115996,0.0,0.1229773963997038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09473195783902157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606273547825895,0.0,0.11285135005659168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041378422180816,0.0,0.0,0.1886374166602105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060931555051392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20884880101651648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350273205040146,0.0,0.16211565783037393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135195427441644,0.0,0.10075122749029528,0.12015135925269235,0.10207283901251768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827698110295828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492934646941785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204941425104978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910448297256017,0.0,0.0,0.12200699979784088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566384261071859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829126426685843,0.0,0.0,0.06214683950873937,0.0,0.20204810427428527,0.1018404208813726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854909252521519,0.0,0.0,0.19759886236722504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273796840066708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271311414525266,0.0,0.2590093324120739,0.0
EDAnonymous,Azaryxe,2019/09/19,"Unquenchable thirst I have drunk 4 litres today and I still feel like I haven't had enough. I know we get some water from the foods we eat, and I'm currently fasting, but I'm drinking enough to compensate for no food. I just wanna not need to piss every 5 minutes because I'm so damned thirsty.",2.939000000000004,4.665008233333335,3.6433333333333344,90.315,75.0,6.8000000000000025,25.333333333333336,7.554174236665415,1.1577333333333333,234,8,49,3,5,74,46,60,0.157,0.763,0.08,-0.6611,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,3,8,2,0,0,12,10,4,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,2,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,7,1,5,9,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484019965994942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384837154907427,0.0,0.24910532026302346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030881482585234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051131667524405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309325946869246,0.17391737248275824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5887500513239725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719012252746295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379117140475846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893507772244327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051160684352716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944157327503627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23075768110511105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dieba,2019/09/19,gastroparesis sucks but at least if i suddenly feel guilty abt sumn from 4 hours ago i can still usually get it up. lol,1.213750000000001,3.7751962083333375,2.7716666666666683,89.44000000000004,86.91666666666666,8.200000000000001,20.5,8.841846274778883,1.64135,95,3,21,3,3,31,23,24,0.201,0.6629999999999999,0.136,-0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359255200801838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486543079428176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569301684815027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4842955978502018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927291363385548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5416165285347695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,msykitty,2019/09/19,"Anyone else in love with single serve everything? I buy food that is preportioned out in cups or bags. It's wonderful bc I can just cut it in half and save the rest for later. I just had half a vanilla ice milk (less cals than ice cream) cup with the faintest drizzle (half a teaspoon) of strawberry syrup, sugar rush 💖",2.5104761904761896,4.714101873015879,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,77.8888888888889,6.73968253968254,23.198412698412696,7.793537801064563,1.057107936507936,250,8,52,4,6,78,51,63,0.032,0.7979999999999999,0.17,0.875,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,2,3,2,9,4,3,6,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,2,1,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743185831974723,0.4019772018316669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277322029697413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525910415667568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4743937206466062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540832359882201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254532459234093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ninibikini,2019/09/19,Watching old Shane Dawson food videos while I binge. 🙃 I lot of you watch Amberlynn or other mukbangers when you’re binging or trying to avoid it- but does anyone else watch those old Shane Dawson videos of him making giant cakes and milk shakes and other frankenstein-esque kitchen creations???,6.89903846153846,9.174099288461539,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,65.73076923076923,5.9692307692307685,26.461538461538463,5.985473137389443,1.0899461538461541,241,7,37,1,4,68,41,52,0.032,0.89,0.078,0.5171,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,8,1,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,3,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,1,1,6,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,3,4,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21580271854271876,0.3162300269137152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27008600322257525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578224906620761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731991226472479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623879480879665,0.0,0.0,0.20601430247671074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.647714877361094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954091555930046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fallenzeus,2019/09/19,after binge help so i um...kind of overate and binged and my stomach literally feels like its ballooning and it’s as hard as a rock...can anybody please help wirh how to decrease the bloat and the pain?,2.2922499999999992,4.612875725000002,3.0599999999999987,90.935,79.25,6.0,25.0,7.1686216300943375,1.01225,159,6,33,2,4,50,34,40,0.107,0.6609999999999999,0.23199999999999998,0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,6,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075813706960787,0.26952047676737384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379582033028678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5057498426723176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39286677369307704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431418549228296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4014399631516086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141271910188799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,naytertotsandwich,2019/09/19,"Fasting apps? Does anyone feel like those fasting apps makes what you do ""HeAlThY""? 

Maybe I should just delete it because it makes me feel like Im doing something positive and not engaging in the cyclic disordered eating hell Ive subscribed to for 17 years. 

RIP me",3.127414965986393,6.135616061224487,2.766428571428573,89.77440476190479,82.26530612244899,5.715646258503401,26.534013605442176,7.1686216300943375,1.5214870748299316,213,9,38,3,6,63,40,49,0.11699999999999999,0.7240000000000001,0.158,0.3235,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,8,8,1,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,3,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941432476101417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692562734071679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182173664489343,0.0,0.2429782819871856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841109901466253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807820225686031,0.3967144246265258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999156881871003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712969972637313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37067453095174335,0.0,0.27894236429839714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21375284180502085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880109967375224
EDAnonymous,Kenkerz00i,2019/09/19,"Im hiding in my room and my parents are in the living room enjoying delicious food. Okay so today i planned everything, i ate a healthy low amount yaknow. Had a lot of fucking food 2 trotilla pizzas a big bowl of quark and jam “icecream” and a delicious salad with some andalusian sauce dressing.

Im happy, full and just idk. 

Well my dad comes home and he bought fresh baguettes some creamcheese and this never seen before really sweet loaf of french bread. Inwasnt aware so i just went and told them i was going to go to sleep. I walk out there (mind you i used my calories like a fucking sous chef and had exactly 20 left) 
And see: the bread, fresh honey we just got from morocco on a plate with some cream cheese in it. A platter of fucking fruit and some tea. Plus my mom was making this amazing tuna spread sandwhich for her self. Soooo I had to zooom the fuck outta there to not trigger a binge and im so mad at myself bc i had a bite of the unknown to me bread and honey. And now all im thinking about is how i want to goble up the plate, but then ill feel fat. But if indont eat more ill feel miserable because im missing out on one of my favourite late night “meals” ( i dont knownif it counts as meal its a thing my family does a lot, the fresh bread fresh honey fruit tea biscuits and sometimes sandwhich) but thats so fucked up

Bc my parents eat like true moroccans.
They eat breakfast at 10/11 
Lunch-dinner/late lunch at 4-6 ( u never know when)
And then youknow, this kind of “spread every delicious thing we have on the table and just take a few bites of whatever you want”
and heres me with completly random times, breakfast (if i have some) at 8
Lunch - i never have lunch unless a snack counts as lunch
Dinner- 8 pm

Moral of this entire fucking pointless story:

I WANT THE BREAD AND HONEY DUDE AND IM JUST TYPING THIS TO NOT GO AND FINISH 3 HUGe FUCKING LOAFS AND AN ENTIRE BEEHIVE. I can do this. Comeon. Fuckit im going sleeping.",2.5587362637362645,4.5356523461538485,3.4300732600732613,90.31730769230772,76.8205128205128,5.995604395604397,23.45054945054945,6.868970318607317,0.7293934065934069,1525,48,310,15,35,485,214,390,0.08,0.7929999999999999,0.127,0.8876,2,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,2,2,2,1,17,21,8,1,22,1,14,39,3,4,6,69,44,38,0,5,13,4,2,2,4,0,3,0,3,1,12,30,28,0,4,0,1,7,6,11,1,1,12,12,32,10,40,32,12,40,1,3,3,7,18,21,7,10,14,181,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046581546590368984,0.0,0.06502307870370742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582429254360808,0.08011910923175374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687081036935184,0.0,0.08955717999072814,0.0,0.0,0.2345732135880245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06438247969912753,0.0,0.06867639093040566,0.0,0.07203675376458883,0.0,0.07727489565218988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480134077874813,0.0,0.0,0.4945075695170577,0.0,0.0,0.17371239819236164,0.0,0.06111562560418363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813446153858434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07664993552538953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5777851198580649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957390287174768,0.041995389731785036,0.0,0.08619884116143309,0.0,0.08302453620749048,0.0,0.0,0.0746644922724177,0.0,0.06747536964653739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992968543678424,0.0,0.0,0.05100724654339627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715682298843636,0.08949569397835619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680663096303872,0.0,0.0,0.0717097958346739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051780416860217324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696984333208068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048953060860144164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608924325500025,0.0,0.07971694891330246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293929459262928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557585652013821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574541652907463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153274580792923,0.04896330156763275,0.0,0.0,0.04455788711790475,0.0,0.0724319747698049,0.07301729281074679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06599756027775151,0.0,0.0,0.13521368799843558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870577806359869,0.07083697154661475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dandelionsmell,2019/09/19,"when did you first see yourself as ‘fat’? for me i remember my dad giving me a bath and i asked him if i was fat and he said “no you’re normal” and not believing him at all. i don’t know where the idea even came from. i started having disordered eating around 5th grade. I used to tell myself if I didn’t eat breakfast and lunch i could eat dinner without guilt. looking back i feel so bad for that little girl but my mindset is still the same.

when did your toxic thoughts and disordered eating habits start? do you know what triggered you? ive been more introspective recently and im curious how other people began with their ed",1.385714285714286,3.916311857142855,2.6701269841269837,90.88042857142857,85.19047619047619,5.582222222222222,20.304761904761907,7.0316486544052195,0.5532895238095237,498,15,100,7,15,160,92,126,0.037000000000000005,0.9059999999999999,0.055999999999999994,0.3075,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,1,1,9,2,0,1,3,0,11,9,2,3,1,27,25,14,0,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,9,9,0,6,1,0,1,5,2,0,1,9,4,22,0,9,15,3,14,0,0,2,0,14,4,0,2,9,70,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009891761474746,0.13662467392572344,0.0,0.0,0.11237551924179484,0.12202392292012475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465395537011074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671495115166486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668388881920384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349867868912179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981661451841181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652656547431147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389466876579763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430979511798695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019439728048366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649784997969043,0.15786032334628666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606335608857153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647442615761078,0.0,0.0,0.12272393883228493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318984116575229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013176717964562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442993175980807,0.0,0.16555237443550716,0.0,0.13901616838736885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645764373150845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20688259028103792,0.0,0.11671058380009675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773607496253905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602180937525455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262212731551455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087735534397627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheMilkierMan,2019/09/19,"Triggered by my teacher So my teacher basically just said that the only people who have ""true"" eating disorders are people that are extremely underweight and only eat lettuce, and everybody else is just doing it for attention. Now I feel like shit because I don't match that description and want to make myself look that way to prove to him that I really do have an ed🙃

The ignorance of some people that are literally paid to educate people truly astonishes me.",9.919,8.678197811764711,10.32808823529412,58.86389705882355,59.11764705882353,14.147058823529413,40.07352941176471,13.023866798666859,5.619882352941177,374,16,58,12,4,127,61,85,0.069,0.8540000000000001,0.076,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,3,0,9,3,1,2,2,14,15,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,3,2,1,3,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,8,2,7,13,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,2,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973773927497528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439188863730041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355515671330732,0.1777901636643485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761203736736337,0.15204409134367233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397682280412028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787215953744496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206408626521974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32372998458528474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5901914855530682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634282052581098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024477997808336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21846448933469784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553124204750982,0.16893265521325895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bigboootototot,2019/09/19,"Senior portraits are tomorrow I'm so pissed that my senior pictures are tomorrow and I've known this for 3 months and did nothing to lose weight to actually look good in my pictures. I've been crying for the past week because I know I'm going to look bad in my pictures. I knew they were coming up and I kept binging of ice cream and cookie and McDonald's like it wasn't going to make me gain!! Why don't I think ahead!!!!  (TW ahead?) 
Honestly don't care at this point in fasting until Sunday when I see my bf if I even have the self control anymore I'm sick if hating the way I look all the time people say I look fine but I feel so huge so the time I want to go back to my LW. It's not like it'll be hard since my mom's already kicking me out on my birthday since I'll be 18",1.3962656641603992,2.648597385964916,3.3887761069340026,92.5217105263158,78.06432748538012,6.0553049289891385,22.740601503759397,6.5431188927421005,0.38284260651629065,607,18,142,5,14,206,104,171,0.091,0.7829999999999999,0.127,0.7169,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,5,6,10,2,0,5,0,12,3,1,2,1,21,33,13,0,3,4,1,3,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,6,7,1,2,5,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,6,10,20,6,19,24,1,30,0,1,6,0,5,9,1,2,18,77,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.14487289331340136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382630378327284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722973340529466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141544871626275,0.12395563051901895,0.09049818198971787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136209451828314,0.0,0.0,0.12788280428601131,0.0,0.0,0.16650746683810322,0.0,0.0,0.1630733547254145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805463550811906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506446309593158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25311508595444043,0.12451892575245525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298856588507366,0.14657083208601998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158824042699325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505745953991564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4986669123132906,0.1660857261483359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909638941513987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17387137598011693,0.11849718719209575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244876727404193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171927523405214,0.1029215877485732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403401183852528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180591903462364,0.0,0.0,0.11830123398792665,0.0,0.1548733238477891,0.0,0.0,0.24561079777823436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512543271805457,0.0,0.0,0.17313327154780112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756395210597086,0.11783848139278195,0.11908347788524427,0.1807809764758192,0.0,0.0,0.13395960715564573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catspajamas199,2019/09/19,"My Supervisor is Definitely on to Me I'm back, back, back, back, back again!! 

Last week my supervisor called me out for not eating lunch and I thought I played it off well but I really think she's on to me.

Today a coworker brought in food and she told me that since she was having some, I should too (and no, she is not one of those annoying co-workers who is overweight and want everyone else to be too. She's actually insanely fit and eats incredibly healthy, it's something we bond over). A little while later when talking about food she said something similar that I should eat a not-as-healthy-as-usual meal since I had a friend in town. 

I'm honestly terrified that she's going to confront me about this or escalate it to HR. Every day I tell myself that I am going to eat my lunch but the past few weeks I just have not been able to do it (I have a weird thing about not eating till later in the day because, no matter what I eat all day, I just always have an issue with over eating at night. Not eating until 4-5pm usually helps me control this).

I also just ate 2 pieces of cold pizza (like literally??? I couldn't even wait to heat it up???). I knew I shouldn't have eaten that food earlier.

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EDAnonymous,skydiver89,2019/09/19,"Why do I even want to look good if I dont want any guy to like me? I dont get it. Lol
I wanna have a good body but once I have a good body? Then what? No one that lives in my small town is worth dating or fucking. They are so disgusting. 

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EDAnonymous,elyssahamilton,2019/09/19,Can someone #explainlikeimfive why miso soup is such a good way to put off hunger? I never expected to be satiated by a soup but noticed many people use it as a safe food. Also: what is all of that sodium going to do to me,3.9503623188405843,4.3829434565217396,6.037826086956525,79.08471014492756,70.95652173913044,8.742028985507247,26.20289855072464,8.841846274778883,1.8013420289855082,173,5,36,3,3,61,39,46,0.032,0.8420000000000001,0.125,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,1,2,6,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,8,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474244924831146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741238134323124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17583731962747862,0.2595073390980627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136797722865565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386258697664834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522502837001908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144967699567016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110292189829618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26215088692087474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26721947821691083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455847620336096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791824695684701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,237randomnumber,2019/09/19,"stop bashing water weight i hate it when people tell me  ""it's water weight you'll gain it back you need to lose PuRe FaT"" GIRL if water weight makes a difference in my appearance then bet yo ass i don't care if it is ""WaTeR wEiGhT"" when my ass measures 2 cm less ;). ALSO I'm eating lowcarb I won't gain it BACK
love ur water weight and stop basing it thanks :)..",-0.9107017543859648,1.190129157894738,1.1642105263157916,97.99614035087721,99.52631578947368,3.5859649122807014,12.912280701754383,5.46131890053228,-1.121198245614035,280,5,62,2,12,92,51,76,0.22399999999999998,0.624,0.152,-0.6734,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,3,5,5,1,0,1,0,4,15,3,1,1,10,12,7,0,3,2,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,1,12,2,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,5,8,3,2,10,1,9,0,1,0,3,6,1,2,4,7,30,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070822888819057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128994194400289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411460155843932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446374745515242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141655880544104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667813606617307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548758859731996,0.0,0.0,0.12494503445145325,0.0,0.09240794777094552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264947608847426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597496701247007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314795006939799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210002693849988,0.1274544317726952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8428964531782305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lampfight,2019/09/19,"[RANT] I just wanna be SMALL but people refuse to perceive me that way >:( I’ve been lurking proed (rip) and now this sub for years now and have never actually posted because I’m in a position of authority irl and was like “I can’t accidentally contribute to young girls’ health issues!” but I’m fucking sick of that, I’m not Ruth Bader fucking Ginsburg, I’m fucked in the head and I wanna play too

So my best friend is this massive 6”3 230lb BROAD dude with a shoulder width of like 3 kilometres. It’s the first thing people notice about him. Couple that with being asian in a majority anglo country and he kinda stands out for his sheer size.  And it’s fucked up, but it’s one of my favourite things about him because standing next to him sometimes makes me feel small. Like I love him for a million other reasons, but this is definitely one of the reasons I like hanging out with him because I’m a horrible self-centred human being. I just wanna feel small and dainty but I’m 5’5” and taller than most of my female friends L

But what really gets in the way of that is this dude, this massive dude who can’t fit comfortably in most cars and can’t buy clothes in his parents’ home country and has hands the size of my freaking waist, even this fucking dude doesn’t perceive me as small

The other MONTH (I dwell) I’d just given him a hug and he commented that my hugs were good. I asked how, and he said that because he was a big dude most girls can’t hug him back properly (I guess in where they put their arms?). So I’m already feeling like some stout Viking woman who needs to go plow a field IMMEDIATELY, when he follows up with

“Like for example with Rachel. When I hug her I’m scared she’s gonna break! She’s so fragile!”

Rachel is a mutual friend of ours. She is v. pretty and sweet and lovely and slim. I don’t think she’s that much thinner than me, tho, and she’s a few inches taller, not some tiny wisp of a person who can barely physically manifest into our realm, so I’m a bitter bitch w/ “She’s slim but she doesn’t have powder bones, she’s gonna break from a hug…” and he fires back with, “You know she has an eating disorder, right?”

And I was standing there with my UW ass having not eaten the day before so I could eat lunch with him that day like

OH ok my bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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this dude is more than double my weight and 9 inches taller than me and even he doesn’t perceive me as small so I guess I must be literally Shrek the Ogre to every other human, thank you for coming to my swamp talk",2.1296360256145452,4.070775159223302,3.324569303862841,90.74348275149765,77.99029126213591,5.936376781656684,21.637058458996076,6.855684769269737,0.42054141706258985,1977,55,421,20,47,639,247,515,0.09699999999999999,0.7140000000000001,0.18899999999999997,0.9947,1,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,2,2,2,2,24,34,7,2,22,1,31,25,7,4,2,73,67,39,0,6,13,1,7,7,3,3,2,1,1,6,27,32,6,1,10,1,1,6,12,11,0,4,8,10,56,23,53,51,11,56,0,0,0,12,53,28,7,8,21,256,83,0,0.0,0.0,0.08561698809573483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681807534855946,0.0,0.0,0.19012230239189729,0.21321596346086705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202065373690524,0.0,0.0,0.13492604648040527,0.07325530332018593,0.21393047637525384,0.0,0.07465627067299767,0.0,0.09207277511839816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557618462495215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004949081685279,0.09707743079358244,0.0,0.11316400913387135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055224457106628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795502117646725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589666457298067,0.0,0.07392076670068204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308479791441966,0.06267810945559703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462759374650822,0.0,0.0,0.20335220468249185,0.4055493141348147,0.04583806843239567,0.0,0.0498619877636041,0.07358819955903692,0.0,0.0,0.1933006289088361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900417202481409,0.09325851169769568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800565042031802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09157284951071264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821702148433353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30004122067997496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836905117199154,0.0,0.05856398805076875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700294722716443,0.0,0.06449553387283366,0.06505460662284296,0.06766686516595644,0.0,0.09330747736556612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988721036464336,0.0,0.0,0.11890340764368094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741965793800107,0.0,0.0,0.12164920781972935,0.07660707203587244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402615655027805,0.08925833240310796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819820015402588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056205474036378926,0.18041298298049588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492545917818239,0.08345635296689195,0.0,0.08783833188511317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915270429198811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677244623283842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07051830359126089,0.0,0.08077486838962691,0.0,0.0,0.11657485779394886,0.056217231908282164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928038058575876,0.0,0.10683794847240588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21321596346086705,0.05649865092091345
EDAnonymous,MacDurce,2019/09/19,"Spot the girl with the ED at the checkout LOL Put my food out to pay for and it was: 
7  jello pots
Kids cereal bars 
Spiralized squash spaghetti and low fat pasta sauce 
5 cans Diet Coke 
Halo top
2 grapefruits 


Wonder who has an ED, not me 

Lol🤷‍♀️",-0.1833333333333336,1.8178573333333323,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,86.77777777777777,5.0814814814814815,16.407407407407412,6.42735559955562,-0.357237037037037,192,4,44,2,6,66,49,54,0.068,0.83,0.10300000000000001,0.4278,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,3,6,1,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,6,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,19,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6330301614948572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5262719710784348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5677240765504085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slimy_bastard,2019/09/19,"eating at school at my most recent appointment, they said if I dropped any more weight I was going to have supervised lunches at school. has anyone else experienced this? if so what is it like.",4.718333333333334,6.88628527777778,4.823333333333338,81.855,71.22222222222223,8.133333333333335,25.88888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.001955555555556,154,5,28,3,3,48,31,36,0.0,0.93,0.07,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,4,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,20,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982397471834949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383360409160087,0.2986908901939843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982919457487985,0.2435228241905632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567431698050136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241918122885772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28783524151676226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772968927958771,0.0,0.0,0.5900561491791982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549859308594165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Charity1224,2019/09/19,"The struggle When someone brings in food to work and they make sure you know it’s there with the lovely comment of “I know you don’t normally eat this stuff, but...” and so then you don’t want to not eat it (like usual) and be rude 😒😏 ::sigh::",0.43615384615384656,2.159891846153851,1.854461538461539,100.29053846153843,82.46153846153845,4.929230769230768,18.09230769230769,5.6839178017228535,-0.6590046153846152,184,4,46,1,5,59,41,52,0.09699999999999999,0.768,0.135,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,1,1,3,6,1,1,2,0,3,4,0,1,1,12,9,7,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,5,3,5,8,0,5,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,4,28,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5211964722139437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079565396694796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799277288654598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442235851481745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22985601065983266,0.0,0.16999893049887155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24952946827003586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157870659629736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26624378346904193,0.2915443290705792,0.0,0.0,0.2400301367429589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804908264113081,0.0,0.15021514200592276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18540794960950605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Another_Slice,2019/09/19,"""I relapsed"" by Fiona Ugly (powerful and vulnerable video by a friend) She's pretty shy about ""promoting"" her videos but I keep telling her this is extremely relateable for others recovering from EDs, so here you go. Very powerful and vulnerable stuff:  


[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1je4bpyz2qY&t](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1je4bpyz2qY&t)",16.397727272727273,21.86660240909092,9.35,47.62000000000002,47.63636363636363,12.581818181818182,36.0,11.698219412168324,5.86079090909091,302,11,31,9,4,77,38,44,0.159,0.7140000000000001,0.127,0.2845,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,21,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6786442125995239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419561778408318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17798306142288936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783619707306396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31860886360818325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585074106076399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737264342362117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583999837023108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alexander-qp,2019/09/19,"Holiday Tomorrow Tomorrow is a 3 day religious holiday for me, one where it's common to eat a lot of traditional foods. I'm kinda conflicted cause as much as I respect my spirituality and i'm a spiritual person, it's hard for me to eat over 500 cals a day ): im just venting rlly but if anyone has any similar experiences or some comforting words i'd really really appreciate it haha😅ty",2.9210439560439525,4.9879485769230785,7.3634065934065935,62.11730769230772,76.05128205128206,12.149450549450547,30.37362637362637,11.491704259439757,4.8977010989010985,311,15,55,15,7,123,58,78,0.040999999999999995,0.775,0.183,0.8911,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,11,4,6,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,8,4,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,5,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680602762428513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280253984334454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538757239199739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31876326314072995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5057616095238292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24174545382253546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988366258601434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213844198764162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669482111562668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101053413973041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18167266247157407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674650735209222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157887516420855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31664202156381843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanillastevia,2019/09/19,"Does diet soda make anyone else hungrier? I don’t want to start an argument about artificial sweeteners because I know some people don’t have issues with them but I definitely do! My binging started back when I first tried and began drinking diet soda daily. When I don’t drink it I’m literally never hungry. When I do, I’m constantly hungry and I want to eat large meals at a time. I’m never drinking it again. It breaks me out like crazy and makes me feel like I could eat an entire cow.",2.21387755102041,4.5794928367346985,4.366693877551022,81.21044897959185,79.81632653061223,6.777142857142858,22.044897959183675,7.908726449838941,1.3314171428571426,390,12,72,7,10,134,63,98,0.052000000000000005,0.81,0.138,0.7959,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,6,2,0,0,3,0,7,10,0,2,2,16,19,7,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,10,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,1,12,2,6,17,1,16,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,15,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504073470207738,0.18323047627558628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750773665309013,0.0,0.10901192310467143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324959868585276,0.0,0.14277965133034135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15649363689092374,0.0,0.0,0.5255502429314713,0.0,0.3659714914855777,0.14938789405808073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042083828641836,0.12775479892513494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211105306400474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866500294577416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827922281005992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473271039766186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387382319813048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758464423466756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397685746585385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25315083689414186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427607754028392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141251142994425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21095484138679726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PozitivePerson,2019/09/19,"GBL is an anorexic's best friend Alcohol has so many calories. But GBL mimics the effects of alcohol and has no calories. In Europe you can buy a litre on the clear web for like €100 and it takes 2ml to get you ""drunk"". Just be careful about overdosing. Take 2ml then 1ml every hour to stay drunk but not pass out. If you take more you go into a harmless coma for an hour but it's best avoided.",1.3862195121951224,3.397926097560976,2.797743902439024,93.26051829268292,80.70731707317074,5.5634146341463415,22.445121951219512,6.6274283507984215,0.4566048780487808,308,10,67,3,8,100,60,82,0.07,0.7340000000000001,0.196,0.8873,0,1,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,3,3,7,0,1,6,0,5,5,0,1,1,13,11,8,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,2,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,6,10,10,3,10,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,4,41,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429337324233064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43495220088822095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21128576819540965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460101602488626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010612052691328,0.0,0.10826962000166464,0.0,0.11777412644808775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081614911757261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124257618430206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21009966054845974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088062335306674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674356602062657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kristine0711,2019/09/19,"IP day 4; update I posted a few days ago that I was going inpatient and promised to update y’all, so here we go

Well, long story short, they may send me home tomorrow... 
they’re awfully strict when it comes to the meals here, if you don’t follow the full meal plan from day one, they may decide to first give you a weekend/week break to think through things, and after that a decision wether you stay or not will be taken by the whole team.

Surprise surprise: this girl right here has been unable to finish the majority of the meals within 30min, and yesterday I and another patient here were told that if we didn’t improve today and tomorrow, we’d have to take a break to think about things. So that’s it I guess, I’m pretty sure I’ll be told to go home for the weekend tomorrow, and I’m really not sure if I’ll be able to come back after that.

So much for recovery smh",5.5179888268156425,5.0145327821229095,6.091558659217878,83.27096927374303,67.54748603351956,9.61810055865922,27.95586592178771,9.120678840339163,1.925812960893854,684,18,147,11,10,223,110,179,0.013000000000000001,0.8740000000000001,0.113,0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,3,4,2,3,11,6,0,0,10,1,14,3,0,0,2,25,30,14,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,10,10,3,0,4,2,0,7,4,0,1,2,7,0,14,6,19,16,5,34,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,7,19,94,24,1,0.15662722273420332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884058260802512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423729961593966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204366662611242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698409673268337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030348036501501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322703564465954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025110407382528,0.2670445804668363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254254415095335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142197500111076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861016334850704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151390304688659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613465966908096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000558361606592,0.15934619402368355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003394095527836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13375879241840413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16694377951955422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29523860763988874,0.0,0.11776417899774493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811233425722267,0.2007207999960265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846429321157142,0.29932804686940545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563691046894296,0.0,0.14082668341130944,0.0,0.0,0.17486870070214786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,re888dddd,2019/09/19,"(major TW for anorexia, bulimia and binge eating ) I joined a proana chatroom and I feel so sick and super triggered by what I saw... I held it together when I was almost banned when someone tried to get me banned for comforting people in mean inspiration and saying they were ok and didn't need to do what they were doing. I held it together when seeing people call each other awful awful insults. I held it together seeing triggering photos of people with anorexia. I held it together as people constantly posted their fasting, for days. I lost it when a little girl (she's only 13-14) who hadn't eaten for a week, for hours and hours for 3 days I begged to eat, posted how she had 100 hours left of fasting and someone said ""good."" I lost it, I can't take it, how could someone be so awful? I wanted to yell at them, she's dying and you're encouraging her? How could you? Going to that chatroom has ruined me I feel like falling back into my old habits and starving myself and vomiting all over again, when I've been working so hard to recover.",4.312260162601625,5.639723673170736,5.569268292682928,79.47552845528456,70.8048780487805,8.198373983739838,26.349593495934965,8.648137234880735,1.967871544715447,823,26,151,14,15,275,119,205,0.168,0.747,0.086,-0.9392,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,4,4,13,11,1,0,3,4,14,5,0,5,1,34,33,22,1,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,12,13,3,6,4,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,16,9,27,7,21,14,3,27,0,3,3,0,16,6,0,1,18,102,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285291712898908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869721005702553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310649891245866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387063499056209,0.0,0.2049623327707196,0.0,0.0,0.16555694429248516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321241153542307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26267878483929136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980047068044614,0.09169696580140567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706028356559726,0.0,0.07294720639250275,0.10765823470046386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498102920512113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3792119895458262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945827796731053,0.0,0.0,0.0627078571784633,0.12864560986235926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28022968141339194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398164189638258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517373913367197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468716910256556,0.0,0.0,0.09761989783051787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35594127985357443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458575624101365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209516863836682,0.10207319044905304,0.0,0.0,0.20456491954237044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262647809016009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650712090065028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714474134923472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570721037110223,0.0,0.10295878264003044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344409929731418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_fuck_u_2,2019/09/19,Guys I’m feeling desperate ~TW~ My weight won’t fucking budge I feel bad for anything I eat but I cannot lose weight. Idk what to do I just want to cry I hate how fat I am . I’m so weak and give into food and I hate myself,-2.9618803418803417,-1.4729414615384613,0.051794871794873736,104.98209401709404,107.84615384615385,3.0803418803418805,13.47008547008547,5.033348758259628,-1.4318401709401711,172,4,46,1,9,59,39,52,0.381,0.505,0.114,-0.9655,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,3,0,0,0,4,7,1,1,0,9,13,5,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,4,9,0,4,12,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265329155764876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18532643967629087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24381146794854855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271194028371568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244582135322501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683936255071919,0.0,0.0,0.20519745901060624,0.0,0.21292323577863348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21977424220011613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382769924553893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248315273612358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091713074941702,0.0,0.0,0.5405723740209817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Treefucker235,2019/09/19,"I am a terrible person One of the people I hate also has AN and she's overweight and my ED hell brain keeps putting her down because of it. And rationally, I know it isn't right and I'm shitty for it. But that doesn't stop the thought from crossing my mind.",0.5375151515151515,2.6734882363636423,2.3595454545454544,94.47265151515153,84.81818181818181,5.121212121212121,21.89393939393939,6.42735559955562,0.27712121212121144,203,7,46,2,6,67,43,55,0.29,0.679,0.031,-0.9486,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,4,2,1,0,0,10,9,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,1,2,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,7,0,5,8,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25144557739137324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916705757071168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510023124016709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104296147185638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279475407507247,0.0,0.0,0.1727997697826593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174796408538173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130625330504668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21798272122970253,0.2745438022509019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160839930109017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26851725175634644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628733983498553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24961834674231434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redvanbull,2019/09/19,Any one point out their eating’? I’m bulimic and often at work or at college I will binge there and then and it really annoys me when people say “eating again”,2.3017708333333324,4.393556468750003,4.057500000000001,84.97083333333336,78.0625,6.766666666666668,16.916666666666664,7.793537801064563,0.4759666666666664,125,2,24,2,3,42,27,32,0.096,0.904,0.0,-0.4754,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,3,18,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23957857620647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7209892130280594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23873008408291824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442430052000933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330408422019916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22569475187514704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801660183488022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25648126724701104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moonie-me,2019/09/19,"i just want to be small and dainty again I miss it. I miss my small, thin body, and I miss my superhuman self-control and determination",3.81111111111111,5.091405111111111,5.408333333333335,80.33250000000002,71.96296296296295,8.362962962962964,24.61111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.4710888888888878,106,3,23,2,2,36,18,27,0.18600000000000005,0.659,0.155,0.0516,0,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,5,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,4,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5604562947802586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5659108610562578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52636976417739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976046208303686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,acupofkatie,2019/09/19,"Weight Gain 😫 Omg so I just weighed myself for the first time in like 3 months, and I’ve been away all summer so I knew I’d gained weight, but I’ve gained 7kg 😫 I feel absolutely disgusting. I was 45 before and now I’m 52, and I’ve always been terrified of going back over the 50 mark. I can’t believe I let this happen 😭 looks like no food for me for a week (at least) and recovery out the window. I don’t even know what to do I’m so angry and upset. I haven’t been this heavy for at least a year",-0.3416028708133965,1.2016745526315802,2.2184848484848487,97.6159090909091,84.17543859649123,5.548963317384371,15.626794258373206,6.574015621080383,-0.6490421052631583,385,6,100,4,11,133,74,114,0.198,0.69,0.11199999999999999,-0.9333,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,7,4,1,1,5,0,9,4,0,0,1,12,17,9,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,4,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,5,4,10,2,12,11,3,15,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,10,57,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190308988890867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21488503073424933,0.17586752034968095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19461940143219814,0.2576831950774077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15106393129371715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564504663101464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454464433252008,0.2765627761960844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998385969850065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225169269929244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12569564184671367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338763215479601,0.0,0.22347694209484412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920627816058414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255792652457814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336540645030442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346117170548146,0.5570258839479951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728479637185946
EDAnonymous,frunalimon,2019/09/19,"Idiotic response to finding out my friend is a recovered anorexic TW: mention of a low weight I have this new acquaintance/friend at uni and I'm getting to know her quite well because she's really chatty. Anyway, today she mentioned that year 10 was far more stressful than uni for her. I asked if it was a hard year and she said ""I had anorexia"". I immediately without even a single forethought just said ""what was your low weight?"". She said it was 47kg. She's a lot taller than me too. I hugged her and said I was very happy that she is recovered, even though on the inside I was feeling so jealous of her low weight because I'm a vain and shallow fuckwit. 


Idk it just triggered me a bit because now I feel like I have a real life ""definitely anorexic"" threshold to work towards. I feel even closer to her somehow also, because I feel like we're kinda in the same boat? Even though she seems to eat all the time and I've never eaten more than a mandarin in her presence. Last week she ate three fucking sausage sandwiches in a row while i had a coke energy drink. It was at a free sausage sizzle for an ""R U OK?"" day event, somewhat ironically. I hope she really is recovered, because I like her so much and she's so beautiful. I hope my own eating disorder doesn't fuck up my perception of her too much. 

Just a weird rant, thanks for reading x",2.925149507030873,4.773527104089222,4.1928656861160505,85.83305802489092,75.35687732342006,6.908744140940683,27.68078228543721,7.7425588080867325,1.6678364635526104,1057,43,211,15,23,347,149,269,0.107,0.727,0.165,0.9528,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,2,19,22,4,1,17,1,15,14,0,1,2,31,36,14,0,3,5,0,8,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,8,7,10,0,8,2,1,0,3,10,1,1,15,12,39,13,24,21,11,27,0,3,0,3,27,15,2,8,15,142,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803576172344456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393967559424714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062728507211904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970332026302193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648043500182263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151642276051404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843679878654682,0.0,0.2056419679384053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654769152990142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20323243269447008,0.14357264910387338,0.0,0.0,0.09184123988073904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526853517102115,0.1857930619743504,0.05249913384278058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696788350171316,0.09001459762268386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960805695823286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055223789984510815,0.08190848171451005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097534969669826,0.14727531760818588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08542853997951859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477357044416158,0.0,0.07750003288878267,0.0970487964584211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687789915890268,0.10051194130407168,0.11437364293628972,0.12874620615764762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3823360271736661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147754127689027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510494013790007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925128560548811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745151082548015,0.0,0.05859346504624331,0.0,0.09524779239811737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291044129500788,0.0,0.0,0.08060280426373964,0.3670900595176621,0.09034785681807528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686371194403227,0.0,0.07315409382408991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941776728695167
EDAnonymous,killingtiimee,2019/09/19,"When they told me eating disorders run in families, they didn’t mention that they sprint. I knew eating disorders ran in my family, as I have had cousins in treatment for bulimia and things of that nature. However, earlier this year my 91 year old grandma passed, as we were going through her things, I found a planner of her documenting her weight every single day. My mom went on to tell me how incredibly ‘disciplined’ she was. 
It’s a reminder that there’s definitely a genetic component of what’s going on.
And I’m always told I have my grandmothers body.
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EDAnonymous,sumire_aiita,2019/09/19,"holy fuck i found a hack for myself so i *love* sweet tea, & i haven’t drank it at all for the past couple months because of my diet, so i’ve been drinking unsweetened, which many don’t care for, but i think it’s alright. but, while in wendy’s i figured something out:
*i can pretty much make sweet tea by adding one of those 0-calorie sweeteners they have*
so i just took a buncha packets & started adding them to my unsweetened tea whenever i want some lol, i feel stupid for not knowing this earlier. it’s like, 160 cals for sweet tea usually, but now it’s 0, woot woot!",0.16681749622926034,2.5652561794871818,1.3146304675716465,97.89556561085972,94.04273504273505,4.120462543991956,19.70286576168929,5.900188976854957,-0.11093725490196073,451,15,97,4,17,141,80,117,0.053,0.67,0.27699999999999997,0.982,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,0,5,9,2,0,3,2,5,9,0,1,1,15,17,7,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,7,0,5,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,4,4,14,7,12,13,3,10,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,1,7,55,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693738561286818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203786638444662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22083899999168766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396647182439705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21218637001101096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951989675999163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23749164966396,0.0,0.2002439935041652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903816133306863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582023328918788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549072177448606,0.0,0.14458274781988378,0.21959926279181788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728887301977001,0.0,0.15922654552420418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677434012321758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677001809362788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22036093159288386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16674991477362786,0.0,0.0,0.15331119489032835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878907729236153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406515116516689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385552326818089,0.0,0.12775679194943246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diripui,2019/09/19,"i feel stuck Hi, I'm a 6'0'' 19 year old male, first time poster. I've recently finished outpatient treatment for AN, and I really want to vent.

I've had body dysmorphia for a long time. When I was about 12, mirrors and photos were the bane of my existence. It felt embarrassing acknowledging the body I was in, and I tried my best to ignore it. That's only natural being an anxiety riddled boy who was too afraid to open up. I was repulsed by how chubby I was in my prepubescence, but what i despised the most were my sides. Love handles, side belly fat, stretched hips, whatever the  common terminology is. I HATED that they would stick out compared to the rest of my body. My middle school self ended up associating it with my chubbiness as I continued to shove away my body image into a dingy crevice in my mind.  


In high school, I got a bit skinnier. A growth spurt probably helped with that, as I didn't really change my eating habits. The awareness I held of my body image began to become more and more noticeable in my consciousness. Despite most of my body proportionally slimming down a bit, my hip fat was still there. Ok, this thing can't be resolved by puberty alone. Fine. I decided I wanted to do something about it. 

I cut out snacks. Only 3 meals a day. I lost 10 pounds. Progress...?

My sides stayed the same.

It was time to cut out one of my meals. At this point in time, i had just graduated high school, and was enjoying my last summer before my departure for college. I decided to sleep in frequently so I could manage eating 2 meals a day, and distract myself from food spending my days with friends. It worked out pretty well; I would just drink water whenever I would get unnecessarily hungry, or deal with it until my next meal. It wasn't that bad. In fact, it was good. I would get comments about being thin, and be compared to my naturally skinny brother. It felt so validating and accomplishing. I could even frequently look in the mirror and be somewhat happy with what I saw!

But my sides refused to slim down.

 College rolled around. For a point of reference, I was 18 and 140ish lbs. As soon as I gained independence, my conservative eating habits spiraled into full-blown anorexia. The thoughts about tracking food and eating as little as possible basically always occupied my mind. I would always strive for under 1000 calories a day. I began to love being hungry; it meant i was losing weight. I dropped to 130. Everything felt so satisfying... but there would be days where I would impulsively eat ""bad"" foods. I felt like dying. I ran until i was light headed to compensate. I had to feel thin, I had to. I was doing the best I could to lose weight, and torturing myself felt worth it...

My side fat stubbornly stuck out throughout it all.

130 dropped to 120. I knew i had a problem, but it felt so good. I knew i had to have anorexia! That's proof i'm skinny, right?? I looked like a skeleton. My sides still stuck out. I was a skeleton with fatty love handles. The bad feelings started to outweigh the good ones. I would hate eating anything. Why did I still have to eat...

At this point, the rational part of me took over and knew I was going to die if i didn't do something. I called my parents and told them I thought I had an eating disorder, my weight... they were scared. I was scared.  


I went home indefinitely the next day.

For the next 6 months, I received outpatient FBT. It was fucking awful. Instead of going back to school the next semester, I was stuck at home eating every 3 hours. The beginning of recovery was probably the most miserable moment of my life. I felt stupid, worthless, bloated, paranoid... It was horrible. 

But if i didn't gain 40 pounds, I couldn't go back to school. As awful as it felt gaining weight, it would be worse having to be stuck at home letting my mind rot. I gained back the weight. It was slow, miserable... but I gained it back. I was able to return to school, and that's where I am right now. Recovery was enormously helpful, despite how miserable it started out. I've learned a lot and am much healthier now.

But every so often, the stubborn side fat I have to endure makes me fall back into the same anorexic panic.

This brings me to my current situation. I have to maintain my weight to stay in school, but this insecurity about my fucked up belly fat eats at me every single day. I can't do anything about it without risking my education, as I would feel so stupid and unaccomplished if I had to stop again. I'm too afraid to try healthy ways of losing fat, as it could jeopardize everything. My parents are very, very on top of my weight maintaining process (not in an overbearing way, they've been very supportive) so something little could even bring up concerns. Am I just cursed with shit genetics? Do I have to live looking like this forever? I really don't know. I feel like I'm gonna be stuck like this forever. It feels horrible looking so much flabbier than even people who weigh more than me. Aaaaaaa fuck. Sorry for the long post.",2.9824767287234053,5.4033724218750026,3.9911037234042586,84.63841755319149,77.38541666666666,7.126773049645393,25.421099290780138,8.163438797464824,1.7184078014184392,3935,146,751,73,94,1269,394,960,0.165,0.716,0.11800000000000001,-0.9944,3,1,4,0,0,0,154.0,0,0,3,17,45,57,14,12,40,3,86,54,19,4,3,126,154,52,2,22,17,3,23,5,1,11,7,0,3,3,42,36,36,7,28,1,2,11,10,36,2,3,70,29,118,21,121,56,20,136,0,8,5,6,24,62,4,11,61,496,160,14,0.037168509068089536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0384953659587058,0.0,0.0,0.061854354103663786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0284338077024054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06117303200163996,0.03308785325213054,0.0,0.0,0.03492103778196996,0.14290144599108462,0.09310245762658144,0.0,0.04104969808425524,0.03162766362689657,0.0,0.07801211430436057,0.0,0.08115677068580897,0.24771500720444736,0.0,0.0,0.03795320344696208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03931935422561336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14838015030880194,0.0,0.0,0.16779429432417128,0.038319100785443934,0.0,0.0,0.07715008852376916,0.0,0.042598331520641776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03641098868753983,0.0,0.3803266390511688,0.0,0.0,0.032920266836354066,0.0,0.0,0.0736483490847463,0.0,0.09394821586355002,0.0,0.06680931862219791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276108984139695,0.026553190304862438,0.2855007800475613,0.0,0.0,0.0316155148257753,0.13483292610420047,0.0,0.02871629790553277,0.10308506312421864,0.038838023828876696,0.0,0.06337116075606866,0.09352554587503502,0.029727052109672813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03956656904859905,0.0,0.07339241536907667,0.03814561341898561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04982653629958974,0.07854114104638027,0.11184913539085184,0.0,0.036603494406069234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020426840543334532,0.030297295705314864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03800731876565632,0.026253217158194026,0.09079328038378476,0.0745052212078308,0.03282047446577629,0.0657859218009783,0.1248487459559245,0.12474616293233168,0.040573818307991935,0.0315993372512273,0.10063809176829458,0.0,0.02481026842115272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258879582361858,0.0,0.029667549329888226,0.0,0.0546462616570234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811652424582034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042316593925239315,0.03900209785075339,0.0,0.0503726873462256,0.05653665204689319,0.0,0.043609236988745984,0.08254246144724295,0.04024987327597362,0.0,0.025767964236073373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540876497955977,0.04190190930316173,0.03559715736235338,0.03781373604246052,0.08014787849600287,0.035565243461366775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143329598926039,0.0,0.03669941866239362,0.0,0.0,0.06348340731773043,0.0,0.0,0.07442432335198007,0.263315608562308,0.0,0.0,0.038774861108640084,0.0,0.03815294043256645,0.0,0.041778961492015515,0.03719535172082465,0.0,0.0,0.08584240250901681,0.0,0.04160710287106908,0.05261612404732012,0.07923337047817892,0.08904845806289031,0.031074537876588117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042178383623707946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024693105859852828,0.0,0.0,0.05901528887462356,0.08669302615534058,0.0,0.0,0.03551610323602286,0.041295581181456514,0.050469955704439934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920037377470278,0.04384589930244597,0.059005264893117575,0.0,0.31682861553203506,0.03341895341070355,0.03445558028147678,0.033538798242188715,0.0,0.0,0.03582911638029914,0.0,0.02705911727637567,0.0,0.037877886134948816,0.2640344242534819,0.0,0.0,0.02393530122241171
EDAnonymous,nothisisfatrick,2019/09/19,"Intentionally Triggering Myself My boyfriend doesn't know that I know about his old old old Instagram account that he made and abandoned years ago, long before he met me. Whenever I binge and need to convince myself to purge or want to stop myself from eating, I lurk all the super skinny fitness models he used to follow, cry about it, make myself upset, and put myself into a horrible mental state. Even though he likes my body and encourages me to be healthy above anything, I know he really wants somebody way skinnier than me (they look different from me in other ways too). Sometimes he'll even ask my whether or not I went to the gym that day, and my normal brain is like ""oh he just knows you like going"" and my monkey ED brain says ""no he wants to make sure you're still going because he wants you to keep losing weight"".   


Best part is I want to lose so much weight that he gets concerned for me lol. I really need to delete Instagram, but in the meantime it felt really good admitting somewhere that I do this in the first place.",9.039211111111113,7.0339560100000025,8.298666666666666,75.14544444444445,61.4,11.288888888888893,34.22222222222222,9.725611199111238,3.0073555555555562,822,24,156,12,9,258,125,200,0.078,0.79,0.131,0.8438,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,5,9,13,0,1,5,1,5,7,4,6,2,38,32,12,0,8,6,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,7,4,3,6,1,1,5,3,4,0,1,4,5,27,9,20,26,4,24,0,3,1,0,19,6,0,2,13,90,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748815599571728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050186850031633,0.0,0.10281384021932324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704108298941899,0.0,0.09358250068287917,0.0,0.1154142908923594,0.0,0.0,0.12215988142711202,0.0,0.24554186335993414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080479482727735,0.07092619860717342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490277107243528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125341358710269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527781248343574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559536288764236,0.0,0.0,0.09354655382310983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057458550121872676,0.0,0.12500515929534392,0.09224366116075253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775279235778576,0.0,0.0,0.2417623813944984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16118792062068174,0.0,0.0,0.09732636505322506,0.09235315317237804,0.2460727211367313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406308987670644,0.14682127575749512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110831155052366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084589932349967,0.1630934069924976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077543098741414,0.0,0.0,0.34620772736888944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909459509147445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490277107243528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055746626154672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136263966745686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745828704674867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877026719440393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782793744306128,0.09194586727496792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365221355637047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805204487164584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498499383433363,0.0,0.0,0.32433702263128755,0.1745895715628448,0.0,0.2678452136906044,0.0,0.10194997023043444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082171384567279
EDAnonymous,bir_die,2019/09/19,"Does anyone else spend an obscene amount of time grocery shopping? I ask this after returning from a 2 hour shopping trip in which I left with 5 items. 

I basically did a dozen laps of the entire store. I pick something up, look at the nutrition label, put it down, pick it back up, stare at it for five minutes before putting it in my basket, move on to another item, then on my way to a different section, decide to walk all the way back to put whatever it was I grabbed away. Rinse and repeat another 20 times. 

Meanwhile with non-SO, we’re done within 20 minutes and leave with like 30 items. 

I don’t know how I function on my own, honestly. Lol.",5.070872093023258,5.382347279069768,5.791773255813954,82.25882267441864,68.45736434108527,8.93062015503876,31.62887596899225,8.841846274778883,2.446371317829457,505,20,102,8,8,165,92,129,0.040999999999999995,0.8909999999999999,0.068,0.5106,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,1,4,0,0,3,1,11,7,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,2,2,4,6,1,0,0,2,3,3,10,2,24,4,7,31,0,0,2,0,1,14,0,0,10,66,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36179507427680696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062684444071613,0.17676251032237633,0.0,0.0,0.1612786988107762,0.0,0.16208398527543652,0.2653075319521725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467979788460106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18024197295601066,0.0,0.0,0.15096947117417853,0.17654324624395445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411455835416576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16989301078005273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481000371526624,0.0,0.0,0.1826689986492928,0.1874385887728216,0.0,0.0,0.08428235617002211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486956564349873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335666804283396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5202771610643738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281085546149235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011903435198051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738695380653086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uhangelic,2019/09/19,"Asked my brother to guess how much I weigh from how I look tw for numbers

He looked me at me and automatically spit out “150”. 

I’ve never even weighed 150 even at my heaviest. I’m 5’4 and weigh 120 atm. I lost 11 pounds this month and people still view me as fat. Just makes my issues worse",2.1201639344262304,3.5583751147540994,3.289311475409839,93.20937704918032,76.54098360655738,6.191475409836067,20.39672131147541,6.742157984588678,-0.03237311475409799,226,5,54,2,5,73,46,61,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,1,10,7,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,9,0,7,6,1,6,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,1,3,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562564281568537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620949595699429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30196375222478683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861002718538649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4603677697572957,0.0,0.299224122789062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297096783267985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21879248228871895,0.0,0.201502845799499,0.0,0.21141100908096327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900337906595357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21890509578799408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27934214043644856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweatherwetter,2019/09/19,Reducing swelling from purging? How do y’all get rid of the puffy face?,1.24642857142857,3.911835071428573,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,91.14285714285714,5.6571428571428575,28.42857142857143,7.1686216300943375,1.6539714285714289,57,3,12,1,2,17,14,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oh-em-jizzles,2019/09/19,plateauing for MONTHS even tho i'm at a SEVERE deficit 🙃🙃🙃 i HATE EXISTING !! why do i do this to myself if i don't even get results from it !!! the fuck !!!! all the dinners and events i've missed out on bc of calories and none of it results in anything tangible !! i went to the doctor to see if i have hypothyroid and i dont so WHAT fucking GIVES,-1.8405846153846177,-0.07539431999999735,0.9773333333333304,98.3312307692308,105.53333333333332,3.907692307692308,20.435897435897434,5.8734145424116955,0.06268205128205118,266,11,62,3,13,91,52,75,0.221,0.779,0.0,-0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,4,0,5,4,0,2,1,9,14,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,1,7,0,11,13,2,7,0,1,1,2,1,4,2,2,2,42,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149844461740616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673979029259299,0.0,0.0,0.3061801434196155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34510304124849595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4830382382438109,0.13649104466690853,0.2506124227551145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257927836094092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852527505442875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20818044665161686,0.0,0.0,0.29513533225641386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24217906492588506,0.2357352489981936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,letsgetlower,2019/09/19,"Insurance just denied my single case - I’m giving up I’m giving up, IM throwing in the towel. I have AN-BP and have spent the last 2 1/2 years in and out of the same inpatient, until I got committed last spring. I have so many horrible memories of being there, and it really is a rough facility. 


My family and I finally decided to reach out to insurance to see if they’d cover out of state treatment and they said sure! As long as they accept X provider! And I had the tiniest bit of hope that I could go somewhere else and get competent care. 

I ended up starting the intake process with a place out of state only for them to tell me they did an insurance review and sure enough, insurance denied me and said they would not cover out of state. I called again today to confirm.

So that’s it. I’m done. I’m laying down and dying. I’m too exhausted to fight anymore.",4.109552380952383,4.950576674285717,5.6735000000000015,80.36091666666667,70.82857142857144,9.261904761904765,27.154761904761905,9.516144504307137,2.3298476190476194,678,22,135,15,12,231,104,175,0.08199999999999999,0.7829999999999999,0.135,0.7583,1,0,0,0,1,0,19.0,0,0,6,1,6,7,1,0,8,0,11,1,0,0,3,28,28,16,1,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,16,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,7,4,18,5,28,17,4,29,0,0,1,0,13,13,0,2,11,89,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649055412012765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815352024144235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979094687474572,0.0,0.16953401691752729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327614215941246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17257287122320294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016264788042626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890599255083544,0.0,0.14727513806113932,0.17181217076431068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675442459438518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821521225829129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687468041879808,0.3190227489131345,0.09450102066141387,0.0,0.1329896785273936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16515402148533115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17961143695882684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710815456059396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715297971125754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16858229359228166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646378714229986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372769579078262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652352426016648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163416016802793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250400285555589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769416954958847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134347423772835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533645623653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761443893460267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812087210023225,0.0,0.0,0.10707916827007236
EDAnonymous,chunkxrose,2019/09/19,"Being fat in this sub is literally* the worst. Sooo I been going through this sub for a couple hours now and Iv seen some crazy shit before... some insanely insensitive shit from this community... but the amount of actually fatphobic comments Iv seen here makes me want to kill myself. Y’all forget fat ppl have eds too?? The Ed community is notorious for saying that our self image issues don’t reflect onto others and that we don’t judge others but this sub.... It makes me sick to my stomach that some of y’all genuinely hate or are disgusted by other people’s bodies... like wtf??? Ik everyone is different but even at my sickest I never viewed shitting on fat people as motivation. Never been repulsed by someone for being fat and confident... Iv been jealous of their self love... but repulsed??? Nah. That’s not my body, someone else’s body has nothing to do with me, someone else’s happiness never made me upset.... This is not a safe space for fat ppl w eds. Someone actually told me to leave the sub because I’m looking for a place for “acceptable thoughts”.... lol could just be looking for a space where we bond over hating ourselves not over hating other women for existing happily.... wack as fuck. Is there a subreddit for fat girls w eds or people who’ve gained weight through recovery and need an outlet for their ill mind?",4.656445783132534,6.6172600562249,5.5201184738955815,77.66090060240964,70.92771084337348,8.353493975903616,28.91586345381526,8.982922981607832,2.557804658634538,1050,41,184,21,20,343,148,249,0.23199999999999998,0.6609999999999999,0.107,-0.9906,1,0,0,0,0,1,49.0,3,2,2,2,8,17,10,1,10,1,18,22,13,4,3,36,36,12,1,3,10,0,1,1,0,0,12,1,0,4,14,7,7,1,4,0,0,1,8,12,0,0,8,7,18,5,31,24,5,16,0,0,5,2,15,10,4,5,6,119,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.2083694153744312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508137182313746,0.0,0.09084694416471056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35576689593229205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524109393140014,0.1181305716915208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115439911502362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837258168052245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705155623260052,0.0,0.0,0.10201605422688204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870012408902132,0.0,0.0,0.06067553572482429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365056652779222,0.0,0.31621731879102405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513946435529864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143221422004518,0.0,0.0,0.11811678417849443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304597278089072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05215871884094627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17930706464271542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635723978403762,0.10102117005477684,0.1425294701851556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779959561584516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916297133845727,0.2470252478237997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244140804688001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220468292386337,0.0,0.1115439911502362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490175045654443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227529471469013,0.0,0.3287702269208366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618377609112783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475742496353451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201605422688204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297123323382968,0.0,0.0,0.13000784866495335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,esmereldaskysurfer,2019/09/19,"Something i wrote about how i feel about my body and weight I've been thinking a lot lately, about my body and how much i hate it. But i dont give it enough credit. It grew an actual person. It dances, it swims and it is getting stronger, i should love it. It didnt just grow a person, it grew one of my favourite people. I may complain about my flabby belly, but every morning my precious boy lays with his head on it and lets the morning come to him slowly with someone he trusts. My body is the one he wants to snuggle with when he wants comfort, he kisses my fat and tells me he loves me. I may hate how i look, but all he sees is his Mummy, whom he loves. That's got to mean something.",2.4742194357366745,3.568164986206895,3.304012539184953,94.8526959247649,75.0,5.5485893416927885,22.14733542319749,4.851557810540192,-0.12603448275862128,533,13,122,1,11,169,83,145,0.057,0.738,0.20600000000000002,0.9777,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,11,2,0,5,0,10,10,5,3,1,27,27,12,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,12,9,2,0,3,2,1,6,2,3,0,2,4,4,20,8,12,19,4,9,0,0,2,4,21,1,0,3,2,78,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.1395014565316998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4763654980663392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314130721931693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16753979099171978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770860953917414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044402462691667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228130602043974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07468701542933018,0.13713349422133192,0.0,0.0,0.1143325319210944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28227288201983564,0.146710967094406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125715250759468,0.0,0.0,0.1461790752065742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004447312545395,0.0,0.0,0.1215334847744894,0.3870618518488281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15571766901656922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508686552941343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19373723511890587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910557503964038,0.2496420013673767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139149917791183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112356936978345,0.22010432761908605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494717790102075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159847721595328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686347056247405,0.0,0.0,0.17407817953247742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vomitsmearedthighs,2019/09/19,"Was my mom REALLY bulimic? I'm not asking this to try and invalidate what she may have suffered with, and I know technically if you force yourself to vomit you have an ED, it's almost non negotiable. However, although my mom did struggle with weight and dieting, she only began purging because two of her older sisters that she really looked up to were doing it.(She says she did it mainly because she thought it made her cool and more like her sisters or something).

 She soon realized it was bad for her and stopped, had no relapses, said she prayed a lot and God just made her disordered behavior go poof. I'm not arguing with what God may have done, although my own faith in how I could just pray and be relieved of my own Ed is practically non-existent (not to mention it would make me feel invalid as fuck).

But it's just her attitude towards my own bulimia that surprises me, especially since she experience some form of it herself? She will always say anorexia is a serious disease then say that bulimia is just laziness and ""taking the easy way out"" in the same breath. I try to tell her about all the facts and research I've been doing on this topic for over two years now but she kind of brushes it off, and makes me question if what I'm saying is even true. Idk I'm just wondering if someone who really struggled with the same eating disorder their own daughter is currently struggling with would be able to tell their own child that I just need more self control, to just eat normally, to portion things out, etc. All of which is shitty advice when my emotional state is involved.
Not to mention! She'll tell me that I ate too much when I thought I was eating a healthy sized meal which then made me go purge.

Sorry if this is long and goes off topic, I just need to understand why? Why is she being like this if she was really bulimic? Shouldn't she be more understanding because she knows what this disorder feels like?",7.343064516129032,6.918188575268822,7.365612903225808,75.38341935483871,63.78494623655914,10.988387096774193,36.0731182795699,10.467255456243755,3.686102795698925,1538,65,288,33,20,495,196,372,0.083,0.8270000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.4724,2,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,2,1,16,17,2,3,8,1,36,10,1,7,4,75,65,27,0,12,20,5,3,3,0,7,1,5,0,2,26,18,7,2,11,0,0,2,6,8,0,2,18,11,46,9,34,35,19,26,3,1,1,1,49,10,1,13,15,212,72,1,0.08781189919041121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858087715921405,0.0,0.0,0.08793093263663902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306653459100003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820922720079803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733192679185138,0.16058795611768056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848851173939044,0.07011065618427455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019201324151403,0.0,0.0,0.08986206051199977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26956048540936883,0.0,0.09877656743070476,0.0,0.0,0.09793347962455977,0.05799893124152127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589688719060508,0.0,0.0,0.08880066936605273,0.06273283832727686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118068581944281,0.0,0.0,0.0998110518718433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144258014769914,0.096518246630983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870137518223754,0.0,0.0,0.07771076750419557,0.0737398793280035,0.0,0.0,0.07465453650845626,0.0,0.2492692266505942,0.11723024916034315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568847006737376,0.0,0.0,0.06455184967156957,0.13022282117831085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603701697505216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678490629003217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836942379047854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501820469425526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352922485265979,0.2793261869910912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160696191920488,0.0,0.0,0.07263891043343627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440273722365189,0.06760189009801769,0.0,0.09829823187759043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341467967974717,0.0,0.27540018912361997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06602361986549668,0.0,0.2302544110756456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058338323942220015,0.0,0.0,0.13942567854572838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923703085168158,0.0,0.17155893188207375,0.18283056782034485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970099826988127,0.0,0.10693123655054462,0.0,0.0,0.1584731615042957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952282588671679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247581074767966,0.0,0.0,0.056547984052419675
EDAnonymous,Rustlingjimmies87,2019/09/19,"Sonic drive in Hi sonic! This is a moot point cause I’m mid binge but if you could do me a favor and either update the sign calories to match the app calories, or just fuck off and die, either would be great please!!! 

Sign says a hot fudge sundae is max 180 cals, and the app says 520.

BUT WAIT FUCK ME THE SIGN SAYS 520 I’m just a dumbass.

In so many ways.",-0.8809090909090891,1.2034365584415596,0.8987142857142878,102.33378571428574,92.50649350649351,3.59948051948052,11.596103896103894,4.935628992294339,-1.676261298701299,273,3,67,1,10,88,52,77,0.22399999999999998,0.652,0.124,-0.9164,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,8,0,6,2,0,1,0,18,11,8,1,3,8,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,4,8,2,8,0,0,0,2,5,5,2,2,1,34,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465762200492507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164387233248745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491125275975045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44380645784155703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646331611836913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433520458186095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634801024638381,0.2269052818770643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.572642823133867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19052409349544971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050993474433238,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mydisappointinglife,2019/09/19,"family therapy didn't go well. my therapist bluntly told my mom she finds her very controlling, and asked her to stop giving treatment advice and telling me what to do, what/how to eat. mom got very defensive and nasty, criticizing my therapists degree etc. 

we had called my mom's cell and afterwards, i just can't speak to her. she is so controlling even though she cares. i can, t disobey my mom or else she'll stop caring. i'm 22 but i'm so dependent on others",1.540622529644267,4.117079010869567,3.1913833992094887,87.07851778656128,84.97826086956522,7.693280632411067,22.49407114624506,8.575989854853784,1.8291608695652168,367,13,74,10,11,121,64,92,0.099,0.8220000000000001,0.079,-0.2004,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,2,6,4,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,3,0,15,16,9,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,5,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,4,1,16,3,5,11,1,5,0,0,0,0,19,1,0,2,3,42,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976203522346413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414185746075213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559467411198656,0.0,0.2707789808344286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978732708161484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13587856095024373,0.11093001799458144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809730283754002,0.08770734295624033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518373629288626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136876179495412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738543034658298,0.0754683057942262,0.0,0.10620526271923353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6220938489786674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22203879798683068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606537205143785,0.0,0.15185832346881462,0.3083616633735597,0.0,0.0,0.1304666912954936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688769343926531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21913331337676545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939524691823407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AfterSense,2019/09/18,"my boyfriend wouldn’t even notice hes great but has no concept of weight loss or gain. 

he also has no idea how many calories are in anything so he thinks that when i say i had an apple, soup, and oatmeal at work its enough when its really only like 300 cals. 

i kind of want to just see how long i can lose weight for without him noticing.",5.024577464788735,4.478229732394368,5.1268661971831015,89.92015845070426,68.5774647887324,7.663380281690142,27.609154929577464,5.985473137389443,0.8806873239436617,265,7,60,1,4,83,59,71,0.15,0.7040000000000001,0.146,-0.0701,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,4,8,5,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,0,11,10,9,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,4,7,3,7,8,1,5,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,1,4,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590316149791091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636482779548953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20547986037461996,0.0,0.13134791707579696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21924846337085946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224493456326073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070864441349983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715499460143827,0.0,0.0,0.1759885437118253,0.0,0.22247815284366476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20161706819067093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528163799104382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124517203203433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273974875832148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814477982888633,0.0,0.0,0.15846900650121765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274241384275583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729524729192214,0.0,0.0,0.4843260001728599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19169797554335047,0.0,0.14477549339518506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,herenemesis,2019/09/18,"Is my bullimia a coping mechanism ? Recently, I just moved to a new college, to another country far away from my family and friends. I felt so alone and lonely as college did not start yet and I'm all day everyday, sitting all alone at home. 
It all started when I got into dieting approximately one year ago, I used to be, let's say at a normal weight, I thought if I lose some few pounds I would ''feel better about myself''. I always failed, until one time I restriced to one small meal a day and lost a lot of weight in less than a week, and since it wasn't a realistic way ti live I had to maintain this weight, hence, discovered purging, it first started by exercise, I couldn't stand it since it's super hot where I live so I got myself into self-induced vomitting. I did gain the weight back but I got stuck into this cycle, dieting for a week losing weight, purging, binging, gaining weight, dieting, etc...
At some point I got so used to vomitting everything I ate that my face got super swollen and even some veins appeared on my face, I got so concerned I was like this needs to stop. 
And this is how my new purging method arised, I started practining what is called c/s also known as chewing and spitting and as the name suggests I started to chew and spit food, sometimes all the food, sometimes only the ''unhealthy'' foods... It became a habit in such a short period, it made me depressed, I was like once I move abroad, alone, I will stop this! But who I'm I kidding, it only got worse now that I'm alone, instead of just dealing with how bad,bored and lonely I feel. I get my hands on whatever food there is and start doing it! It's as if it became a coping mechanism at this point, I do it at every meal, I even started buying unhealthy food just to chew and spit them... And of course I swallow half of it since it's so much food now. At this point I don't care about how I look, I just want this to stop, not just me spitting the food but also chewing it, is this still bulimia or just an ''advanced'' form of BED? Did I just go from anorexia to bullimia and now it's becmoing BED ? Is that even possible ? Oh and I forgot to mention, I haven't got my period since 6 months, nevertheless my BMI is normal and I do eat each meal and get all my nutrients the only thing wrong is that I c/s HUGE amounts of food, I'll get broke at this point. 
>Lads, First time posting here, I have nobody to talk to as no one knows about my ED, it's really hard for me to open up so yeah, hope someone reads this, I'm not specifically looking for help, just wanted to rant, haven't talk to a human being since ages (aside from skype family calls) so yeah...",2.9783878691141266,4.375263400372443,4.206856876828944,87.67425977653635,74.21415270018622,7.348922585794092,25.63487629688747,7.957251820313856,1.3614306464485244,2054,69,435,30,42,674,241,537,0.127,0.792,0.081,-0.9717,0,8,1,0,0,0,77.0,0,0,1,12,38,17,0,0,19,2,28,39,8,6,5,76,71,43,0,10,17,0,12,2,1,2,4,1,3,2,35,24,27,4,6,2,1,5,9,9,0,7,22,15,55,8,57,43,16,71,0,8,2,0,15,26,0,9,38,279,90,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04561176755142219,0.0,0.0,0.2131675164891144,0.0,0.08229711628589458,0.0428146957430547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0539550712957216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048343681842058096,0.039565731596498566,0.04296278953978672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04550778068880399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508264982171632,0.0,0.05246181866738628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636845781180882,0.05304786267840285,0.04431813035469186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052651327687180095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05738594496995135,0.10195665943765532,0.0,0.04335307067803725,0.0,0.04624445103438195,0.0,0.09701442044379367,0.0,0.05203440483347427,0.0,0.049404885109846634,0.0,0.0,0.08753522157919852,0.49775688203483,0.0,0.03975401814500491,0.0,0.0806493672559279,0.0,0.029243071685334836,0.0,0.3292262179068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04609358803141925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03448921296667205,0.0,0.05161357698287352,0.051106441556020864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028278331429636882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0526162406039733,0.0,0.05027664398377865,0.0,0.09087144462230663,0.0,0.08641850924587086,0.11513000366657455,0.05616922886557993,0.04374521501998304,0.0,0.04868798078761083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041070903298818635,0.10937707890658542,0.03782535765258648,0.038153242785913886,0.0,0.09939115123639093,0.0,0.0,0.10082998256442904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05479791331314356,0.1394690035158527,0.11740157620894005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19456648947461103,0.05800779989914012,0.04927968237232064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051468941005859255,0.0,0.03296340118140632,0.0,0.05080562126132673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0409190944118084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0536788041812984,0.0,0.0,0.21282060704830885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04359766854295954,0.0,0.10178065413392748,0.0,0.25494087884946154,0.0,0.04109204268208486,0.1290560935108053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827151864391854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03418442661510284,0.0,0.0,0.040849535557688825,0.06000766787839978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888122696330872,0.0,0.0,0.0606990038265922,0.040842597101624856,0.08254822111149854,0.3759500885570207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0524370577870716,0.03655216743888318,0.056257983051002464,0.0,0.033135343637683286
EDAnonymous,dope-and-diamonds,2019/09/18,"My roommates want to go out to eat tonight and I’ve been annoyed thinking about it all day I’m a freshman in college and I know I need to be nice and make friends so it’s important that i go out to eat with my roommates (we’re trying to get to know each other better)

But it’s so frustrating because I’ve been trying so hard to eat well (1000-1300 calories a day!!) and exercise instead of fasting and low restricting

And I follow a schedule everyday that’s been working for me and I look forward to my meals each day

But now they want to go out to eat tonight and it’s so fucking annoying having to reorganize my day around this one meal, especially since I don’t even know what we’re eating. I sound terrible but it’s ruined my whole day and has made me think about food constantly like I’ve done in the past and it’s just :(",2.6356812551610247,4.134688410404628,4.0304417836498825,88.17573699421969,75.30057803468208,7.254995871180843,27.964079273327823,7.957251820313856,1.6686865400495459,657,27,141,10,14,217,95,173,0.129,0.7959999999999999,0.075,-0.8788,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,12,12,4,0,4,0,8,10,0,2,1,33,26,17,0,3,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,11,17,8,1,5,1,0,5,1,7,1,1,5,3,15,5,22,20,4,25,0,2,1,1,2,8,1,0,15,87,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203372510770468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671736397812272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130463773046394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599980056102134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058161616355404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878886880665938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6438829652366799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312314122369009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217905760882994,0.0,0.09723186938555038,0.1163468613568984,0.065751749625683,0.0,0.21457140630434848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127374273119976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074926125438647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06148425126667127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568281642423462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190828904720916,0.08400625966765649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331663294170167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527963062577974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201386478910904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410492540198618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127997899972327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708886067797454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845990134564058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315481277289788,0.0,0.0,0.14050771209316426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162074322254236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maybethisistherealme,2019/09/18,"Not eating would be easier I started university this week and I know no one. Well there are a few people who went to the same school, but I don’t think they like me that much. 
I’m terrible at dealing with people, starting a conversation or something like that. It feels like everyone else has already found a friend group or at least knows someone well enough to spend the breaks with them. 
I usually have classes before and after lunch, which means I have an one hour break and I don’t know what to do in this time. 
I really don’t want to eat alone, because at my old school it always felt like everyone notices but nobody really cares (just a few pitiful stares and whispering).  Bringing food from home wouldn’t really solve the problem I’d probably still have to eat somewhere with a lot of people. I don’t think it’s allowed to eat in the library or computer rooms.  
I think it’s a lot easier to not eat.",4.9623333333333335,5.8114463444444455,5.534444444444446,82.10000000000002,68.8888888888889,9.111111111111112,28.333333333333336,9.2995712137729,2.2695000000000003,722,24,143,14,12,233,107,180,0.086,0.726,0.188,0.9555,1,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,5,11,0,0,11,0,13,7,0,1,0,33,30,9,0,4,8,0,2,4,1,2,0,1,2,0,11,7,7,0,10,0,1,2,8,3,2,2,3,4,13,8,18,24,8,19,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,5,13,93,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973894659455047,0.11692559779356106,0.0,0.08816426980982232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459007976140796,0.0,0.09016115065344596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802968129128222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923646651796637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.542099596820202,0.08851303341686223,0.0,0.0,0.1094813559373224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20249189268367132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053574774122692834,0.07569532228648021,0.10173482597863304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281229823247473,0.11617579876518255,0.08186170474723832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628297709452396,0.0,0.10434577819341777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469271230347458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705991381649774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016080100422585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541765642856305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789019587454694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063214169223707,0.1111834899221504,0.0,0.14359769049711574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037062233823826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423899395285912,0.1013860306462801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036352807256624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446720578952325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977657194082041,0.08157046603644072,0.0,0.0,0.14999306755610406,0.0,0.08461697263486345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367788009141455,0.0,0.0,0.06178406887718761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669608066488935,0.0,0.06249587037440546,0.0,0.08499188785635146,0.0,0.1905351801313938,0.09822270785655747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526843520167396,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hahhahahhohno,2019/09/18,"You all are amazing My life is such a fucking train wreck right now at it keeps getting worse, and just having a space where I can come and communicate and not be judged is amazing. Thanks friends",4.3630701754385965,6.1564267105263175,3.6342105263157904,91.56780701754387,71.36842105263158,6.119298245614036,28.456140350877188,6.42735559955562,1.0462877192982454,157,6,32,1,3,46,33,38,0.128,0.593,0.278,0.8085,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,1,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,1,8,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,10,1,6,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34127723826431083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060905987487793,0.366265512329712,0.2069896684995348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521463392676097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27983631404955805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383387757784899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647527874286695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037451096421011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,usaangel,2019/09/18,"Do I have an eating disorder? TLDR: I'm in a binge cycle, when I try maintenance I gain water weight, I freak out, cycle continuous 

I just discovered this sub and I don't even know if posting a stupid question like this is allowed or not but seems like this is the place I can have an honest opinion. I used to be an obese guy. I was 102 kilograms. My goal is to be 67 kg, right now I'm 69. I can't reach to my goal weight because I'm kind of sick of being in a diet and because of that Im binging like every other week or so. Everyone around me says that I should stop dieting and eat normally for a while. But when I try eating at my maintenance I gain water weight because of increasing amount of carbohydrates I consume. I know that it's just water weight and not actual fat but boy I am freaking out when I see the number on the scale increase. Then I start dieting again, then I binge again and repeat. This was the summary of my summer. So, guys do I have an eating disorder?",0.9150401069518744,3.115497750000003,3.239108734402852,88.35553475935829,83.75490196078431,6.454188948306596,21.52762923351159,7.686295010490155,1.0120666666666671,767,25,161,14,22,263,110,204,0.10800000000000001,0.772,0.11900000000000001,0.4955,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,12,8,1,0,12,0,18,17,1,2,0,28,27,19,0,3,10,0,4,3,0,1,3,1,0,3,9,8,16,1,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,6,25,5,17,21,3,27,0,0,1,0,5,9,0,6,18,108,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.11352353652566732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356040436801683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21274525759055585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666537719485589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761479112221544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683638216250932,0.0,0.0980149739578174,0.11116049097146934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303745189904515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565883882153214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12114218113599518,0.12786637141486434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050224610455286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398094714691527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154248578955698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114141791764587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031879170318306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993471423242056,0.0,0.0925121083795038,0.0,0.0,0.09270177567729697,0.10590455012513797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234059552152037,0.0,0.0,0.09725900569996958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796398096183978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047374972404112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933147481362442,0.5666455695532108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CouponCoded,2019/09/18,"I told my mother about my restrictive eating (TW for everything basically) Excuse me, I've been holding all these thoughts in for a while, I need to vent.

She suspected it earlier, last week she sat me down to seriously talk about it. I lied and promised her I'd gain, which was a lie, and I've been preparing for this weekend since I suspected stuff would go down and she would realize the truth. Well, it went down today. I felt terribly suicidal and while I was crying I told her she's correct. She reacted kindly. After half an hour of crying I had a headache, and when I told her I'd been extremely thirsty recently even when drinking too much water she informed me that it's due to low blood sugar, like diabetics.

I'm stressed for this weekend. I'm afraid she'll put extra oil/sugar in my food, buy sweets or pastries, and that I'll be weak and eat them. Recently I started seeing 100 kcal as a binge, and eating over 500 kcal a day makes me feel terrible. I don't want to feel this way, but I feel too heavy for recovery. I'm almost low enough to be 'moderate' on the AN severity scale, but it's still 'mild' right now. I don't want to get help now, I'm not sick enough... I feel like such a faker. I'm 20 years old. I've been around mental health clinics and people with ED's, I read books about ED's when I was 12, developing these symptoms just now (a couple months ago) feels so fake. Like I just decided to have an ED. Which I honestly feel like I did. Truthfully, I chose this. I hate myself for saying all this, because it's true. I feel like the worst person.",3.2965729166666686,4.5257036781250015,4.544374999999999,86.22979166666669,73.15625,8.333333333333334,25.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.7393020833333337,1227,40,263,24,24,405,175,320,0.134,0.7240000000000001,0.142,0.6798,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,1,1,19,24,1,2,13,0,17,14,1,2,6,47,45,19,1,5,6,1,8,5,0,3,6,1,0,1,18,11,7,2,14,5,1,3,3,11,1,1,16,12,41,13,28,24,7,40,0,2,1,0,21,11,0,2,30,154,59,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082532846813074,0.0,0.1025997036448938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121184639862401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245916051218251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337094059307255,0.22509678347377135,0.06607874792272614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037258936332084,0.0,0.31452897277528624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21173881837087685,0.0,0.06767440056266537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208517188663884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36265085909257216,0.21959407553809127,0.0983784483461038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389602161634605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05353154580491706,0.0,0.05823084115833205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115884017101028,0.0,0.10891105278588363,0.0,0.0,0.06867732307838682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090326150743256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669716949833763,0.0,0.08351923774289978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25028588833758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06839338820487237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325640032185747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178324329116524,0.0,0.07532048674385497,0.0759733944589683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751538733199488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103342661720193,0.08946482969100446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300141679006003,0.0,0.0,0.10248854021045828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20233538346810095,0.0,0.0,0.08750097434552152,0.0,0.08148095086166134,0.0,0.0,0.08164800220274797,0.0,0.0,0.11575155422020172,0.0,0.08475664319808597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252229070476318,0.0,0.08182533750351084,0.0,0.11736851495144368,0.0,0.11729311718926105,0.11207549920527543,0.0,0.0,0.10649601610543136,0.0,0.08235412022974146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134244042647255,0.0,0.0,0.0971208701622838,0.2937170926463654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086808418514496,0.08132862408948538,0.08218788373481882,0.0,0.09212457580951064,0.09498220003158273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557044342190434,0.0,0.0,0.06598140417172088
EDAnonymous,anticr15t,2019/09/18,"purging as a comfort :( (tw) hello

so basically, i'm not bulimic, i don't binge, and recently know i'm relapsing in behaviours i had in the e.d  had back in my early teens (i was 13, recovered around 17 and i am 19 now), because of situations that have been going on in my life. Even though i am restricting my calories a lot now, i found out that purging, even when is just a little brings me a sensation of comfort ? it's like stress relieving, like i feel purified, i can't quite explain, but i've been doing it everyday, and my throat is sore and i feel lightheaded for long after doing it, and i'm freking out that someday my roomates will find out. anyone has any tips to help breaking this cycle? i can't afford therapy right now, nor talk about it with my parents or they'll make me move in with them, i just need some perspective from someone who has felt the same :(",3.6293978021978006,4.882303948571433,5.168571428571429,81.98296703296704,72.37142857142857,8.813186813186816,29.461538461538463,9.265573868473778,2.549597802197802,681,28,137,15,13,230,115,175,0.078,0.8490000000000001,0.073,-0.4234,2,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,1,13,6,0,1,6,0,19,3,1,1,0,29,32,12,0,1,5,1,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,11,0,1,7,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,7,3,21,5,20,23,3,26,0,0,0,0,8,12,0,3,12,97,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336788225064008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745092278078594,0.0,0.0,0.17499484229124604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15115526422247208,0.0,0.11983126507170334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596739682664049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987900613458878,0.0,0.18874435430180747,0.0,0.1796674425230288,0.0,0.0,0.2155360852343371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171900654718732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176114502237024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803335327169006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884785940109842,0.19207478539989287,0.1970213863043416,0.0,0.17396409677628705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712238768256618,0.0,0.0,0.13121640066762386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20892980610865547,0.0,0.14575905111683332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827504059003056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20908340119373067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409566804073206,0.0,0.0,0.16787533429600549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22096032407048136,0.0,0.0,0.16655870730008193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251778203691257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800081733522867,0.0,0.0,0.2248024631706434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931355021904605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toseeyouasasun,2019/09/18,"peach or twitter? looking to join some sort of ED-related social media besides Reddit, I want to post my food mainly but still participate in a community of sorts

I follow a few food diary alts on twitter but obviously I don’t want my IRL friends to see any ED stuff so I’d make a new account... except then I wouldn’t have anyone to follow lol. also considering peach but is that dead?",2.1001623376623364,4.491873480519484,4.4079058441558425,80.60328733766237,80.42857142857143,6.447402597402598,23.910714285714285,7.645422480735847,1.4230012987012994,306,11,57,5,8,106,57,77,0.076,0.7659999999999999,0.158,0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,1,4,2,0,1,1,13,11,7,1,3,5,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,9,10,3,8,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,4,3,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996058662681441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973727043083034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17452685484189034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6036371510536256,0.0,0.19284114893909785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960201496853906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661063635576395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24106624554144035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390488059186588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19889971766609368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544368333455049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993317177187879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28573348108614066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29444232768328354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raverae,2019/09/18,"Vent/rant ~TW?~ I’m tired of feeling hungry. I just ate 9 veggie tots, a pickle and some lunch meat. And my belly still feels hungry . I’ve tried just drinking water but I’m seriously annoyed at how much I have to fucking pee. Why can’t I just look like how I want???? Why is losing weight so HARD!!!!!!! Why is food so good? And why is it that the fucking food I WANT to eat just makes me fat????!!!!! UGHHHHH",-0.8842857142857135,1.2519024761904802,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,95.66666666666666,3.752380952380953,15.333333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.8880523809523804,304,7,70,2,12,102,59,84,0.121,0.715,0.16399999999999998,0.7102,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,3,0,2,0,5,13,2,3,0,16,16,8,0,2,5,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,9,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,5,7,2,4,15,2,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,1,2,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486703097964736,0.0,0.172209890593528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019208360160296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070109053406884,0.0,0.0,0.3111758090665893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115957503459614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507610937964363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222143429409112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413271295921262,0.18828134262111668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233958318202224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371769125584715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344022360953576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343269365987711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426264502277568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985319130073664,0.0,0.0,0.20494045912665435,0.0,0.0,0.607447618219419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lizardfan6654,2019/09/18,"The pattern I’m about to flip out I had some chocolate milk (I’m EXTREME about liquid calories), about an hour passes and then the pattern (the astrology app) sent me a notification saying “you may feel like you’re in recovery from a difficult journey...” 💀💀💀💀",6.0947058823529385,6.2087541568627485,7.467450980392157,71.80352941176474,66.25490196078431,9.937254901960783,36.607843137254896,9.725611199111238,3.5917137254901954,206,10,38,4,3,71,38,51,0.055999999999999994,0.889,0.055999999999999994,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,1,7,3,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131604672977357,0.44246164146581335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6099320658779129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025816740771735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4925296164494054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bumblehyo,2019/09/18,"Gonna be a model in a hairdying competition And I can’t imagine hanging around models all day is gonna do anything good for my mental health rn ((:

I’m not a model. At all. I’m just the intern at a salon and they know I don’t mind having crazy dyed hair, so when one of them was applying to a competition she asked me to model. It was only a picture of my face posted to Instagram, but now we got to the finals so I’m traveling to another city for it in two days. 

I haven’t been deep in my ed for like over a year now. It’s always been at the back of my mind but it hasn’t controlled me. But I guess fall does something to me and all the thoughts are starting to come back. I just hope this won’t trigger things further.",0.6333333333333329,2.3825540318471354,2.997732484076433,92.21260721868366,81.92993630573248,5.715329087048832,21.29469214437368,6.742157984588678,0.33209673036093434,561,17,129,6,15,193,94,157,0.012,0.924,0.064,0.81,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,2,1,10,3,0,0,11,0,14,3,2,2,3,24,27,9,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,3,1,0,4,6,0,0,2,6,1,16,3,21,17,3,25,0,0,0,0,5,10,0,2,11,89,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745480078974908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19842450950600696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572044534456855,0.16845512067406984,0.1769048225394636,0.0,0.0,0.2910129000572402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300518125803662,0.0,0.0,0.21223791552192656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24407582775305375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655967446654537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207292586625508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871743019444573,0.1513447884412643,0.0,0.20845855218109488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20114300131153567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879484236573508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399604539154664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244838513335887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906996740376365,0.0,0.3821373973200602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822737487569155,0.1439181996863765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18123035645242333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567875974926822,0.0,0.0,0.13393820775033838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257162287242448,0.0,0.0,0.15022775175584524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485054474255416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185813401272726
EDAnonymous,ColonalDepression,2019/09/18,"This one *weird* trick will save your malnourished looking nails! Local laqueristas hate it! I'll keep it short as most of us have brain fog right now- everyone knows that after a period of not eating right your nails hair and skin take a huge hit. I've been keeping my nails covered with polish for the past few years, but today I ran out of nail polish remover and used toothpaste (google told me to...)

Guys- my nails are white. I used a whitening toothpaste which is probably why but I think I could get away with a transparent top coat like this. No more weird ombre ""low blood flow purple"" to ""sickly yellow""! 
I'm not sure why it's made me so happy but I feel like I've taken something back from the ED almost, without having to commit to more calories.",2.0539375750300124,4.696931632653062,2.6326930772308934,91.58884753901562,83.01360544217688,5.091476590636256,18.851140456182467,6.522977012572876,0.10364537815125983,598,15,116,6,17,185,107,147,0.10800000000000001,0.765,0.127,0.7121,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,1,2,0,1,3,10,2,0,6,0,7,6,4,3,2,25,24,7,0,1,6,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,5,1,2,3,0,0,3,4,5,0,1,5,7,12,5,16,16,4,19,0,1,4,0,5,9,0,2,9,64,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687417628652814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832382494281094,0.12957635257247924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811661207940295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345441855946671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243121065925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102171265637802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520540521482564,0.12038595988320686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804126217839052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685469484725796,0.0,0.17938557813629374,0.0,0.16637203045871612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29956478896133665,0.0,0.0,0.09261052167205014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465420666149505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150875986610073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945139164660022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418899666006545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086504552276332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168587605793396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28781893395318586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972979776415272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882182355334235,0.0,0.12670105584901892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797654051850224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973093741981284,0.16102171265637802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027007929810774,0.2910828319699628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304114147743349,0.0,0.0,0.16244084110750276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085170625326355
EDAnonymous,lazyrainy,2019/09/18,"Anyone here a nurse? Or work 12 hour shifts? How the hell do you nourish yourself to keep yourself on the ball at work? I’m going into a critical field and I don’t want to be making mistakes! I’d rather eat enough to keep my brain and body functioning for the 4 on days (like 1200 cals), then go hella low on my off days. Probs unhealthy but lol what isn’t unhealthy about me these days.",2.123410714285716,3.8802446625000013,2.8796428571428585,94.77250000000002,77.375,5.571428571428572,21.42857142857143,6.1826913282559595,0.077982142857143,303,8,67,2,7,95,61,80,0.184,0.758,0.057,-0.8651,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,4,4,1,0,5,1,4,3,2,2,0,12,11,6,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,0,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,11,10,1,14,1,1,0,0,1,7,1,1,6,36,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762112010063596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266280156798041,0.0,0.26761210436741395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4638078982781874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452982680958837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247699750726077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724822014303357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360805913166172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261567475736031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711740459962892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001813309437848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139586946668628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490449483453273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GivemethemDolens,2019/09/18,"Might be triggering, please read at own will, I just don't want to feel alone anymore I'm going to say this is triggering. I am so sorry loves if it hurts you. It hurts me to write about it but I don't want to feel alone anymore, and I can't talk to my parents, I'm too embarrassed. I shouldn't be, I know that, we can't help if we have eating disorders. But I still feel disgusted in myself. This will be lengthy.

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this is where it may get triggering. Sorry for so many warnings, or maybe not enough..IDK 

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I love food, I really do. I think it should be mentioned that I have ADHD, the reason I bring this up is, I tend to overeat, my pill limits my hunger, so I tend to over eat when it wears off..my parents think it;'s simply just me overeating a bit. I recently started 12th grade, and I've always had a hard time at school, I've always been bullied. More so due to me being labeled as autistic (I'd say I breech some traits of autism, but not enough to really be labeled as autistic, kinda confusing.) I hit puberty at 8, and got my period at 8 as well. Girls would make fun of me, I felt bad about it, I then started to gain weight, at first it was just overeating and simply eating the wrong foods to often, my parents weren't really there a lot of the time it felt (Physically, they are very loving) so my sister would often make me food. I found that I had almost an addiction to sweets. I know kids like sugar, that's normally a given, but I gave a new meaning to the word LOVE. I enjoyed it, so much so I would go hunting for sugary foods. I was pretty active as a kid so I burned it all off, but by age 11, I was hit with depression. I stopped running around, I started staying in my room more often, I rarely talked to my parents, and my love of sugar grew, this is when I started loving carbs. Breads are a weakness, it's quick, it's easy, and that's what I look for in a binge. I shove as much as I can in my mouth, as quick as I can. Breads and sugary snacks are so convenient for that. I started to gain weight, I was no longer moving a lot. by 13, I was in grade 8, and that binging turned to me purging, or fasting, but it never lasted long. I started hoarding food, I didn't want people to know how much I ate. I would hide wrappers, stuff bowls in baskets. My mother is a good mother, but she doesn't understand. She often takes this as me being lazy and a pig. I never truly finished grade 8, things kind of looked up for me half way through grade 9 and 10, then grade 11 hit. I once again was binging, this time, I was purging to. I started to do it so much that I was bleeding whenever I would even cough. My throat was ruined and the back of my teeth were sensitive. I stopped going to school for a long time, at least for a full day because I felt so ashamed of myself. Over the summer my sister was here, and she made sure I didn't do anything like that while she was here. I found myself trying to make her proud, but I still over ate, but I'm not disappointing, I didn't purge. I would be lying though if I said my binging was magically cured. She eventually left and once more, I had the stress of school. I've been going but as of this week, I binged. And it was bad. 2 hours later after my binge I saw just how much I ate. My father wasn't home and my mother was in Quebec, (we live in Ontario, so it's a long drive) I had eaten almost 16,000 calories within 2 hours. I couldn't even move I was in so much pain, but I was so scared of the disgust my family would feel, that I cleaned it up. I didn't go to school because of how sick I felt, but I'm scared to explain it to my parents, I can't fall back into the routine of missing and skipping school, I need to graduate, but I'm so disgusted after a binge, I can't face anyone. Not to mention my guidance counselor just tells me to ""think positive thoughts"" how can I when I feel like a pig? Anyway sorry for the rant I just don't want to feel alone anymore and needed to get it off my chest",2.8360000769882205,3.8666476766109814,4.044058819000694,90.14238201555165,74.02386634844869,6.7429671260297175,24.375317576410808,6.968188349444268,0.7551951035491569,3115,91,688,28,62,1020,315,838,0.156,0.737,0.107,-0.9868,5,3,0,0,0,0,144.0,3,1,1,5,52,37,3,6,27,0,76,40,6,12,4,124,153,71,0,20,28,11,13,3,0,13,7,3,3,3,41,23,21,3,23,1,0,12,23,20,1,2,46,22,119,17,95,82,18,94,0,6,3,6,43,32,0,18,51,471,160,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04582126527756923,0.05051449561715486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417828571854738,0.13059794366098387,0.0,0.0,0.06994825871666564,0.2732510067362299,0.3064420950879465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505384330429364,0.029389867864340474,0.0,0.034588891363753864,0.03741753920476236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464028254772733,0.07019020609077083,0.05124483670569333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0458882391935269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027107269928454324,0.0,0.03620224310938575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048172503896983535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902819792090572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686092706573982,0.0,0.05552369864646276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039624185473457814,0.0,0.12751635676577244,0.03002778789161037,0.1614298840879318,0.0,0.0,0.03575253904984062,0.2541273107159493,0.0921722013483622,0.0,0.0,0.04392014399298978,0.0,0.11943924325607387,0.03525458675886938,0.0336169629767103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037652564906106266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028173274966204788,0.0,0.042161689735658425,0.0,0.08278643383321979,0.0,0.08999260637391794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04377003295485805,0.06929933782970048,0.03426182536574509,0.0,0.0,0.04566807149978178,0.0,0.0,0.06160437975353685,0.0,0.03711517277002584,0.11159143308659818,0.07059286697861578,0.0,0.0,0.07146848914207947,0.22761402594108546,0.03977185190059774,0.08417039185847301,0.042614019260549515,0.04222696039863898,0.04578535108242295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044589485990517215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934708141972576,0.1853908703926309,0.0623326372160844,0.06483559546201642,0.04059492798076283,0.0,0.0,0.041182598547121925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952577032345173,0.0,0.0,0.04472518826514482,0.0,0.2333587316563765,0.0,0.0,0.029139811660888162,0.0,0.0,0.04613869640337718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04276182380481866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04204354064497415,0.0,0.08078064578068203,0.043216067243292376,0.04150169326877319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03998221527202457,0.06685133113045988,0.08416306176138258,0.21269398063928927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411547063218339,0.2082540847450612,0.044800696551714515,0.06713388435532684,0.07028154594418967,0.04814770430594673,0.0,0.04811677412709595,0.0,0.0,0.03961481916035118,0.0,0.03160295797257777,0.06756772599258667,0.036737965852465165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027924303506722564,0.08079754464154269,0.04129638982739624,0.033368844879720576,0.09803717636888616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028537081747845063,0.04571892692419187,0.0,0.043756967299731546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03468093903324297,0.0991666424301308,0.033363177048717295,0.03371566833944091,0.10236770966351233,0.037791965223570666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090091140679476,0.04595557535834716,0.3064420950879465,0.0
EDAnonymous,elizasbreath,2019/09/18,"High restriction, being sick, exercise, and FREEZING. I’m only on a 500cal deficit! What the hell? I was outside yesterday and four layers and I looked around my campus and it took me a second to realise everyone around me was in sundresses and t shirts. Even while running it took me a long while to heat up today.

Maybe it’s because I’m sick??? I don’t know if I’m even sick because my only symptom is a super runny nose and sneezing in specific conditions. I’m so confused. Even my room, which felt like a sauna, is freezing.


 I just want to restrict in warmth pls. I’m starting a fast that will hopefully go through until tomorrow or Friday so that my stress and sodium bloat finally disappears and I have a feeling it won’t help.",2.340833333333336,4.799920861111112,3.8873333333333377,84.29100000000003,79.97222222222223,6.8955555555555526,27.65555555555556,8.021203637495839,2.1202588888888894,580,26,107,11,15,192,91,144,0.22399999999999998,0.6559999999999999,0.12,-0.9534,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,8,6,1,2,8,0,9,7,2,0,0,21,24,15,0,3,3,0,4,1,0,2,5,0,1,0,8,10,0,2,3,1,0,5,2,3,0,2,5,6,12,3,12,16,0,24,1,0,1,0,1,9,1,4,11,69,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32960773238882884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257055752753727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668274449694167,0.0,0.0,0.17689848540051875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360667503646188,0.0,0.17775266347299806,0.20279953243702675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521295350941093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12408792070425377,0.19559872321016814,0.0,0.1838746530229108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017419374423023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044457201681852,0.0,0.0,0.1638331470366173,0.15546155160229194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598674523332628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815975629490679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310351052558072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120643951111448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924196897821212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754804394701035,0.0,0.4113697787275527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109193752564603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emily_blank,2019/09/18,"Recovery help So these past two weeks have been very difficult & I opened up to a couple of people about having an eating disorder & they are supportive & encouraging me to seek help. However I haven’t opened up to any medical professionals about my problem. I was seeing a nutritionist but lying to her saying I was trying to gain weight, she probably suspected something but would just provide me lists of calorie dense foods & give me tips to eat a more balanced & healthy diet.. so I did learn from her but I wasn’t able to use that to recover as I had hoped & probably just learned foods to avoid.. I made progress but each time relapsed & lied saying certain weeks at work were causing me to expend more energy (I was a landscape gardener so this was true.. to an extent).  Anyways now I quit that job because I physically couldn’t handle it anymore & now am feeling completely defeated & not to mention broke.  Everything feels like it’s falling apart & of course right as I have no more income I find out I need to put over $1500 into my car. Sunday night I finally reached out to my pcp & sent a request online to book an appointment. I mentioned anxiety & depression & eating issues but I wasn’t any more specific than that. Now they won’t book me an appointment without clearance from a nurse first!! I think they red flagged me as a danger to myself or something but it doesn’t make sense why they wouldn’t just let me schedule an appointment. Like I’m just asking for HELP. :( I really want to recover so I can live my damn life!!! I’m all consumed by this & now it’s worse than ever & I’m starving but don’t even want to eat because I’d be giving in, this is the only thing I have left. How messed up is that?!",4.487478260869565,5.796153805797104,5.320115942028988,81.49930434782611,70.36231884057972,8.766376811594204,29.74202898550725,9.174902378510234,2.5303020289855085,1393,55,268,28,25,454,193,345,0.149,0.71,0.141,-0.8016,3,1,2,0,0,0,60.0,0,0,4,6,18,16,2,1,13,0,28,10,0,5,4,45,47,16,0,8,14,0,3,2,0,3,2,2,1,0,13,6,8,1,7,3,0,4,11,9,0,2,12,7,40,7,42,29,7,32,0,3,2,0,20,14,1,2,16,170,53,7,0.053053426043979585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8622504742974689,0.0,0.07215629797880932,0.0,0.04058572571003154,0.0,0.052614742754786406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049597791665041455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646817521846252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05450048278596347,0.0,0.0,0.05562550782344218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058702606825372664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045694838111732895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060803822579678625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21714759858129148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03504128754327078,0.04798986122274217,0.0,0.0,0.04768099842366949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05365081256985508,0.037901378166394765,0.0,0.05811743500020178,0.048489870260345534,0.045127217090653766,0.12830482672411814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178736108389458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668177947716463,0.0,0.0,0.05269402284525476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055373993077098935,0.052647339070716594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05764270262901337,0.05425072260955634,0.03747320379107081,0.051838448266055416,0.0,0.0468471471806572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050200434500989835,0.035413573850961146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053445745235808674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03933844317409039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049787046404631885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040349521185384304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05064549827926455,0.0367805655695809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440113286707385,0.050764963702396235,0.0,0.05333334662879824,0.0,0.056428849073066126,0.0,0.0,0.03398738323438778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04530733596256353,0.0,0.08438042759754408,0.0,0.0,0.04227671170682644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168623864907941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06020439916316524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03524633885991913,0.03399449320552933,0.0,0.0,0.030935879370595082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0360197937655138,0.0,0.05182548828065671,0.0,0.0,0.04582112608040794,0.0,0.043774632690537836,0.06258457049522052,0.0,0.08511251647830673,0.06460478024537575,0.0,0.0,0.047872465072147416,0.0,0.0,0.051141609490472965,0.0,0.03862352602327171,0.0,0.054065973619804315,0.03768763168448725,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shoeflygabs,2019/09/18,"Chucked half my larabar into the bin :( Was trying to have a solid breakfast with almond butter toast, tea, and half a larabar. But then I heard footsteps coming closer and I’m freaking out on whether to make a run for it, so I just threw my food out. Wish I could just eat in solitude aaaa",1.7560919540229882,4.049586448275863,2.21793103448276,96.37850574712644,81.06896551724137,3.8666666666666663,23.459770114942533,3.1291,-0.11959540229885054,226,8,47,0,6,69,46,58,0.098,0.828,0.07400000000000001,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,14,9,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,2,3,2,5,0,9,5,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,32,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482726384194222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32280434779539985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137045703641067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888867623896038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269876479423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744963039282622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649303704607735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drinksriracha,2019/09/18,"I just ordered 60 dollars worth of sugar free skinny syrups SEND HELP. I'm really cheap. I can't believe I did this. I've been obsessed with Jordan's skinny syrups, and hopefully I don't get sick of them because now I have a life time supply.",3.0005999999999986,4.52843846,4.3889999999999985,85.85950000000003,74.4,6.6000000000000005,24.5,7.1686216300943375,1.0602,193,6,38,2,4,64,40,50,0.035,0.677,0.28800000000000003,0.9069,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,4,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,6,3,3,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284253732745731,0.0,0.0,0.5253633413895239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24362385901310346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31255279897987603,0.0,0.0,0.4631436898740311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293633117776084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987253815591849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27190479199645273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clonecest,2019/09/18,"reverse body dismorphia So basically as a child i was always underweight and people would always comment on how skinny i was and i LOVED it. But then in middle/high school i became really depressed and started binging and i've basically been gaining weight ever since. Except. I never realised how big i was getting. Like i just assumed i was still really skinny and never noticed how huge i was suddenly? Never realised that body dismorphia could work like that. Which is why it was so shocking to see that i was suddenly at the higher end of a ""healthy"" bmi and it made me spiral into developing an ed (fun!). Has anyone else experienced sth like this? I feel so stupid for not ever noticing. And now i'm just so impatient and i want to be skinny again immediately. Rip",3.347747126436784,6.036570579310349,5.1068965517241365,75.666091954023,77.6896551724138,7.45287356321839,26.90804597701149,8.447377352677275,2.4345770114942527,614,25,101,13,15,208,93,145,0.10800000000000001,0.778,0.114,-0.3472,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,14,8,1,0,4,0,13,7,5,4,5,28,21,18,0,3,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,9,4,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,9,4,13,5,10,9,0,19,0,1,1,1,3,6,0,1,16,76,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608430950892085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959735436803557,0.1606002674827992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482091121721391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514539426435414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350012897401014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309374741150335,0.0,0.1388265129786327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835634582478217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925325038710597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189100419425904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560608076224675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22972805014422695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146539194702035,0.1483126690716292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626662986873217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35690264632280155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866487319907664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082533437645853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863084295357305,0.1249027426782051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965825139666035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094249424300248,0.0,0.12517402507142208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924502425637837,0.0,0.0,0.1908690131514462,0.0,0.0,0.14143489275473367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410973411706242,0.0,0.0,0.11134471846064586,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emmamck,2019/09/18,"DAE play a sport that it makes zero sense to lose weight for but do it anyways cause ED gremlin brain says so Long time lurker, first time poster cause I am back on my bullshit™️ pls excuse any glaring mistakes. 

I play a sport that relies on being reasonably strong and not easily pushed about. Playing said sport is probs the one time I'm actually thinking of my body in logical terms (like what it can do, how I can use it) rather than ED Brain, y u such a chonky bitch terms. Said sport is probs also the one reason I haven't completely starved myself into oblivion as 75% of the time I will at least accept I need to eat before playing or I will blackout and I feel like I owe it to my team not to do that which means I can usually do it without the crippling guilt (I've got anorexic history but ""normal"" BMI atm although I'm going down).

I logically know if I keep restricting and losing weight though I'm going to get shitter at my sport (and not get selected) and I also know if I really get back on my bullshit I'll not be able to play at all. It's a weird catch 22 cause I think my sport stops me spiralling as badly as I would without it but it's also weirdly triggering? Like there are very mixed shapes and sizes of women playing and I get weirdly obsessive about trying to categorize where I fit in (I have no idea cause hi dysmorphia) and wanting to look like one of the slim ones. Also we get action shot photos of play and my god that can trigger like a mofo.

And as much as I know logically losing weight is not going to improve my game my lil ED gremlin brain still thinks I'll magically be faster or more impressive if I do (I will not) and tells me people are laughing at my fatass playing a sport at current weight. So either way I feel like I'm doing it wrong. 

THANKS ED GREMLIN BRAIN 👍",2.8892612612612645,4.461490935135139,4.209189189189189,86.8518018018018,74.78378378378378,6.87927927927928,24.76576576576577,7.554174236665415,1.1514846846846842,1426,46,293,18,30,470,189,370,0.141,0.684,0.175,0.9064,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,0,0,6,19,31,1,2,11,0,25,10,5,11,1,66,57,33,0,9,18,0,6,6,0,4,0,3,0,1,16,13,5,3,17,17,2,6,10,12,0,6,3,10,37,19,37,47,7,37,0,3,1,0,10,15,2,5,21,180,53,1,0.07818363047623646,0.0,0.07629594522052295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500936841795145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05316754975476856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023677169745665,0.06528006571523075,0.0,0.0,0.06652851103879606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684438822127445,0.0,0.3491151539620378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212645006851761,0.0,0.0,0.0819740490485161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000137254193591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906398544806835,0.11170880246810272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650295614296059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204238600067436,0.0,0.13330067682634966,0.0,0.0625305915024142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825980226346164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949320308810544,0.0,0.0,0.12890303589348365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22917943585782974,0.0,0.0,0.06919005267609793,0.06565455854953699,0.2624024517142441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218818044872808,0.0,0.0,0.08516489390529036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057473964323854036,0.057972171336944725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660335791017367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21191700567583327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054202685135080385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05008643568935262,0.16077158718967802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874107290825894,0.06217476101585195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624375482922351,0.06536501590936311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833593911923765,0.07198098264048765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029074047761562,0.07681501998292843,0.0,0.1823580146671791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05308155298507343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752555408025697,0.08610822326945981,0.06450968319506609,0.046114730922901005,0.062058526723588525,0.0,0.38082639650949385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507324595794643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05553940789237349,0.08548152645383393,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,herdarkmartyrials,2019/09/18,"Me @ me and anyone else that needs to hear it: Water DRINK MORE WATER!!!! 

YOU CAN'T LOSE WEIGHT WITHOUT DRINKING MORE WATER!!!

From flushing water weight, to actually expelling the things that made up your fatty tissue, water is the vehicle and your urinary tract is the evacuation route. More water means more can leave. Being dehydrated because you can't stand print something in you is dampening your progress.",4.663174603174603,8.114414714285715,4.300476190476194,78.0834126984127,80.42857142857143,5.9682539682539675,26.34920634920635,7.3871296695380915,1.9740158730158743,330,13,48,5,9,100,49,70,0.054000000000000006,0.857,0.08900000000000001,0.5705,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,6,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,7,10,0,1,0,6,11,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,10,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,8,0,6,9,4,3,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,34,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.2101234784143108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505583401876844,0.22062311490395328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312584594325336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218677081487221,0.0,0.0,0.17987413003535888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426838514842453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22799519765188184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24089054684480946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037431415474236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345490798291036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596587375297706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576560590554099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305055083185314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5244090421533801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075629879493382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bruhmoment83,2019/09/18,"Please give me tips on how to take a shit I already tried eating a lot of fiber and that glucomannan shit. I drank hella coffe and took caffine pills I been slurping down water too. I cant shit. It's been like 3 days like please can someone here give me some shitting tips like bruh. I will never use laxitives bc ion vibe with that , so dont rec that pls. Any advice is appreciated I truly am desperate.",3.668943089430893,4.836622073170737,4.5619512195121965,86.69747967479677,72.17073170731706,7.417886178861789,24.642276422764226,7.793537801064563,1.0657983739837404,318,9,68,4,6,103,63,82,0.185,0.617,0.198,0.0459,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,2,0,8,8,4,2,1,8,14,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,4,0,8,3,5,9,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,5,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847625762044426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896496347584642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028506544792913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458993678872472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900687611898862,0.0,0.0,0.16594627074986162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111474976780549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376926264185546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787601594488522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507992964487907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560405273625828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6658842723950454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741097947382405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193597457112518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801832160010464,0.11010668296805404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400677703881002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,A_snailor,2019/09/18,"Desire and dedication vs ED I think about this a lot and I’m just curious where the line gets drawn between a desire to be in shape, lose weight or maintain and having an ED. For me quite a few people have told me I probably have an ED and almost certainly have body dysmorphia, but also if I want to be shredded and want to look a certain way and most importantly battle the obesity that runs in my family I have to track cals and macros, restrict, and workout hard. I think if you want something bad enough or want to achieve something great/ difficult there’s going to be some sacrifices and some level of obsession and idk why that’s such a bad thing. Maybe I’m wrong here but we as humans now a days usually have a hard time restricting and a lot of have a tough time with weight issues. I don’t see a problem with putting in the effort and time to keeping weight off and wanting to look a certain way. Where do you guys feel like that line gets crossed??",7.9540104166666685,6.178575130208337,7.7258333333333375,77.66916666666668,63.32291666666666,11.241666666666667,35.39583333333333,9.994966539143718,3.186152083333333,763,27,155,13,9,244,110,192,0.203,0.6809999999999999,0.11599999999999999,-0.9729,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,1,2,0,4,9,14,1,1,16,0,12,5,1,0,3,47,30,21,0,10,8,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,16,4,3,3,1,0,4,1,9,0,0,1,9,12,5,20,26,7,20,1,1,3,0,6,8,0,10,7,99,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209523574689032,0.0,0.0,0.09750733981133136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036128364131616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543669126679392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863473303400825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598623596047212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494470873013694,0.0,0.06165144810605689,0.08710678318734127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740673652563886,0.0,0.06929560248608099,0.0,0.0,0.1344282042524875,0.0,0.12072982382622112,0.0,0.0,0.2184505778156141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726319312211454,0.0,0.10837694506872796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05956881639047025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20478090429688775,0.13640842956146948,0.0,0.20732097252376416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224950268525235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453087738687963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146111248632622,0.11667049855877315,0.0,0.12257328060880775,0.0,0.12968751426767253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971623866644888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773527042094906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100484324711768,0.1562555818533845,0.0,0.0,0.2132950093698792,0.0,0.0,0.11650929582171353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428861771428854,0.0,0.3595872285347169,0.19356464353043248,0.0,0.44543350595277853,0.0,0.0,0.11002281809848423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333112633351024,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imsoannoyedyo,2019/09/18,"DAE not have a good body unless they're very skinny? I'm just one of those people. I'm tall and my body is really weirdly shaped too. I have a small torso but my weight is distributed in my butt, inner thighs, boobs, and back. It's why the heavier I get, the more weird af I look. I literally look like I'm going to explode from fat.

I have to constantly build muscles to keep my arms from getting flabby, inner thighs from getting loose, back from getting fatty and then pretty much at a very low weight I can achieve the long limbed-long bodied-non existenced abs - modelesque body. And even then it isn't perfect. Literally to look like a VS model I've gotta put in the same amount of work.

And it's hard af when your career doesn't revolve around your looks because it means you need a lot more mental energy and I don't have neither physical nor mental energy.

I literally just look fat and chubby rn lmao. I look like a mess. I wanna look like the long and slim thinspo I look up to.",2.735943810359964,4.484868482587063,3.991325724319577,87.50575943810362,75.61691542288555,6.918466491074043,22.271290605794558,7.724431198458867,0.8966702370500435,779,21,161,11,17,255,116,201,0.102,0.758,0.141,0.8992,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,3,8,10,0,0,11,0,10,13,11,0,1,22,30,14,0,2,6,0,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,9,5,1,1,0,0,2,6,4,0,1,0,11,18,6,18,29,7,21,0,1,8,2,3,11,2,1,12,89,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916428499533209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403483761248465,0.0,0.06105705134110132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337679741821249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823816636350772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615521751732448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931938974375613,0.0,0.05692365105589794,0.08401006821850017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972434049500502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902745891899362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573389342881245,0.0,0.0,0.2659172824893994,0.672878296509434,0.0,0.0,0.08515307085238667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910439807877324,0.0,0.0,0.20187691554129286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362966118091357,0.07426791215252086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787150281849144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943883876016732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10189947082804804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068919821505164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416552839101869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652861838371368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439375713300543,0.0,0.0,0.0903794798072885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291820433824969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kaytinsama,2019/09/18,"GOd I love my bf but he fuels my disorder So I have an amazing and loving boyfriend, but he unknowingly triggers me. On his phone he follows instagram accounts of girls with literally my DREAM body, although he always reassures me that he loves my body more than theirs. It makes me want to restrict even more. Should I maybe tell him something? (he kind of knows about my disorder but I try and hide it as best as I can) Or should I just keep restricting and lose 25 pounds xD ughhhh",2.9829669030732866,5.3236365638297904,3.7982269503546138,86.43388888888893,76.97872340425532,7.582033096926714,26.401891252955078,8.515128840125781,1.9439706855791965,383,15,76,8,9,122,67,94,0.149,0.55,0.301,0.9717,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,4,8,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,2,0,19,12,11,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,17,7,9,10,3,2,0,1,0,3,17,1,0,2,0,48,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607337506801581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027210519345858,0.0,0.0,0.4291388783076232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44278141432400736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758762689477002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169926482323822,0.0,0.20115787564422236,0.10616173243271168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21610894324936045,0.0,0.0,0.5230331214550276,0.0,0.12894314576561558,0.0,0.19406623836594888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14871247705048046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688399726359274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131150432246702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139372635759077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeehawcoyboy,2019/09/18,Had a dream I did crack to loose weight I woke up and was like wow that's crazy I would never and then rembered that litteraly LAST semester I took adderal 1x a week for the entire semester and fully utilized it as a tool to fast/restrict like a god LMAO u rly cant make up this level of oblivion.,2.513809523809524,3.8771076825396835,3.9335238095238085,89.30314285714289,75.34920634920636,6.944761904761903,25.29841269841269,7.554174236665415,1.1529898412698407,236,8,51,3,5,78,50,63,0.07200000000000001,0.659,0.26899999999999996,0.9158,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,1,1,6,8,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,1,4,3,7,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191109619177139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825177180265853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613179967716344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019358865665897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4349521080013065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140241140290928,0.4767209270276757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27809834885077817,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DistractedBones,2019/09/18,"In recovery does food variety matter or only the increased calories? I've been focusing on recovery for almost 2 weeks now. Normally in my past attempts at this point I would have given up by now but I like having the improved energy, improved mood, and clear mind.
My issue is that after the first day or two food loses its novelty and I'm back to wanting to restrict. I want to keep the pros of recovery without having to deal with all the fuss of eating. Eating just isn't enjoyable but it's necessary to maintain the recovery pros.

Do you think I could go back to eating my old food (oatmeal and protein powder) and still keep the pros provided I increased my overall calories to match my recovery intake? Like if I'm eating 4,000 Cal a day on a varied diet currently and then switch to my old food at the same Cal range will I lose the pros still?

I'm quite aware this post is mad ED logic but I'm hoping to avoid the inevitable slip back into full restriction which then turns into a binge restrict cycle.",4.3906060606060615,5.952278868686872,5.410525252525255,79.78245454545456,70.91919191919192,8.31030303030303,28.35151515151515,8.841846274778883,2.368403636363636,808,30,145,15,15,266,118,198,0.11900000000000001,0.737,0.145,0.5619,1,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,5,8,9,1,1,13,0,11,9,0,0,2,36,24,13,0,7,8,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,8,9,6,2,0,0,3,2,4,0,2,2,1,13,4,25,19,5,33,0,2,0,0,2,11,0,5,20,94,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104273646027422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543906420043452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804791170578805,0.0,0.0,0.14224021571467232,0.1136916493068756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965049136561494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513671979014024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380230617503854,0.5333937883177648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267345907714543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953081495354967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510145290630525,0.0,0.1960400887786581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775240108698184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24674547362845015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134921947789796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804890563480272,0.0,0.0,0.2314361631766005,0.0,0.0,0.0838712950688799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052727121735779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042482390964605,0.0,0.10561572292165307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117294096979737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613611067564364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066161100793315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995066351396312,0.10772546221069457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300894985753909,0.0,0.08845826138567321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630393853165704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833824007314034,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ambermagix,2019/09/18,"My mum asked for my height... and now I'm scared. A few days ago she asked for my weight. And now this. Clearly she wants to calculate my BMI. Isn't that intrusive? Especially considering I am a fucking adult.

I hate this and feel threatened. She keeps complaining abt how skinny I am and I can't stand it. The funny thing is the fact I weigh the same as I did before my ED thoughts/ behaviours began. 

Why is she so concerned abt my appearance now?! I feel so uncomfortable. 

I've always fallen into the ""underweight"" BMI category, just naturally. I remember going through a phase where I actively tried to gain weight and was unsuccessful. 

I'm just really fearful that she will soon obtain my BMI data and force me to eat. My parents do not understand the concept of mental health/ disorders. They'll just force me to eat huge portions at regular times. Story over. Problem solved. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA",2.7810556511761355,5.7466703012048175,4.339845094664376,78.02732931726909,83.93975903614458,7.74021801491681,25.977051061388412,8.563005593585519,2.5430617326448663,714,30,125,19,21,237,108,166,0.153,0.7559999999999999,0.092,-0.8949,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,2,11,6,2,2,8,0,11,8,1,1,2,24,26,10,0,2,4,2,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,7,6,1,5,0,0,3,3,6,0,0,4,4,25,0,12,20,3,18,0,0,0,1,12,6,1,1,8,81,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522764505984459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293833041779316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32119033335048564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461758189655522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078668652646664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19687973383214175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515565271817438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330513892973386,0.17371864548136806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881185221328228,0.0,0.0,0.0976289979514257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696014689702114,0.0,0.18259871809870332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526898124628025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311820840925266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907461778368988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643744113066079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004944559313973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19459816738817293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17198609017203992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141258808885734,0.0,0.0,0.13637757572773354,0.10016882883250786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663028915575258,0.0,0.0,0.17883355396463674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132285322153388,0.0,0.0,0.41837408897527295,0.0,0.0,0.15500864553280366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rip2mytits,2019/09/18,"brief moment of sanity i saw a set of progress pics on another sub of someone who weighs significantly more than me at their goal weight (which is perfectly healthy!!) and i was like :o how is she so skinny??? she's skinnier than me!


and then i had a brief moment of being like ""wait does this mean....if i'm smaller than her....i'm skinny?""


my brain: no ur somehow fat even at a lower weight

me: oh shit u rite",-0.2666064257028111,2.0240893975903624,1.750873493975906,94.82904116465865,94.78313253012048,4.6943775100401615,17.76004016064257,6.42735559955562,-0.09805140562249016,312,9,69,4,12,103,62,83,0.10800000000000001,0.7340000000000001,0.159,0.7533,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,3,4,4,1,0,3,0,5,8,5,1,1,6,8,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,10,3,10,4,1,9,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,1,5,40,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28653638210036025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050479428469061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391312052234141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18048530394349835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670015500915873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29765967353463885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28049692094467393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23153186368416298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6655128402111897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aham_in_acan,2019/09/18,"Feeling really bad about myself I’ve been feeling so crappy about myself lately. BN on and off since high school, I relapsed early this year until about July. I’ve put on 10 lbs in the past couple of months and I feel like I’m crawling out of my skin. Currently detoxing from MPA and deleted my pro-ED on IG. In my heart I know stopping purging and doing these things are really for the best, I’m just having a really hard time getting past the weight gain. How do you all cope? I feel totally helpless right now. Last time I tried to recover I gained so much weight and thinking about being back there is giving me so much anxiety. I know I could just keep gaining till I’m back there, but I really would rather just be sick most days",4.491756756756757,5.3221722297297305,5.171189189189189,84.34813513513515,69.94594594594595,8.082162162162161,25.610810810810808,8.238735603445708,1.4846951351351354,582,16,116,8,10,188,100,148,0.10800000000000001,0.7929999999999999,0.099,-0.5195,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,4,17,4,0,0,4,0,10,6,2,1,2,26,23,12,0,3,5,0,8,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,7,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,8,16,2,18,18,6,27,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,1,18,76,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158777047516298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22432526691770616,0.12179275906394198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15307830024715152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646284119961943,0.16139893773303507,0.0,0.09407207583941203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29501872661457584,0.10420733431603156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620942882649824,0.13992881101907662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066808095187554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285296523739418,0.0,0.15411637638668182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296531927098918,0.0,0.0,0.1603292543818913,0.11890098275148747,0.16454420378358295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126319371777852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642955877851292,0.0,0.2144578934672112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27849290058105225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14663651168409825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737842557264273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124569525807001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762507866041352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066259754419673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219512503033891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690747921795427,0.09346561232735308,0.0,0.0,0.17011231147211195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903404236222384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552531469376912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103619652490816,0.0,0.0,0.09393349378368407
EDAnonymous,JuggernautThot,2019/09/18,Pro to successfully restricting ? When your roommate decides to make home made drunken noodles you can eat them kinda guilt free because that’s ya only meal of the day 🤪,3.4120967741935497,6.5563030322580635,3.800241935483872,81.62036290322581,83.19354838709677,5.680645161290323,30.330645161290327,7.1686216300943375,2.277251612903226,138,7,22,2,4,43,30,31,0.124,0.7020000000000001,0.175,0.4243,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,1,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,5,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,11,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794034769034072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955952620501901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690024001797206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597584249090554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336980823154735,0.3059495245364142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34859279873571003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ciruelax,2019/09/18,Self reminder to not add salsa when b/p I just lost control and binged on some tacos with salsa and omg the corners of my mouth and my throat are on fire. I’m so stupid but I deserve it for doing it :/ my goal for the week was to not b/p and it was totally not worth it so I guess now I’ll have to burn some calories doing zumba lol,-0.6657000000000011,1.1131108800000007,1.7542500000000023,99.183375,86.86666666666667,4.283333333333334,17.375,5.148860815047168,-0.8022999999999998,256,6,64,1,8,87,49,75,0.14400000000000002,0.809,0.047,-0.6718,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,0,2,1,6,2,2,1,1,16,9,8,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,6,0,9,6,3,6,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,3,43,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828829613429415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742841671193749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4699811245999826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44914315659705295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453501728193038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mercyflakes,2019/09/18,"can i ramble for a minute pls this is going to be disorganized as hell i dunno. warning kind of depressing rambling:

so my mom and dad are 10-15 years apart(just trying to be vague). my mom is younger. when they met he was already established in life, i know she was v early 20s and half partying/drugs and half working 3 jobs trying to be independant etc.

my parents are very close, you know they love eachother v much being around them. theyre the absolute cutest but theyre not affectionate. i dont think ive ever seen them kiss, we dont say i love yous, etc. 


my dad almost died a few months ago, a rly bad accident from a drunk driver.. 

we drove to where he was lifeflighted and waiting for him to go back to surgery and he grabs my moms hand and was like ""when i met your mother, she looked like a baby doll, and she damn near broke my heart how hard she was trying""

i feel fucked up for not being able to get that out of my head. idk if its because its the most emotional thing ive heard my dad say, or bc it made me think about how im just on this self destructive path and im trying so hard to be perfect and going through so much and i just feel like nobody will ever give a fuck and ill never be happy idk",1.0336705027256199,3.1158474488189007,2.5286614173228337,94.33340399757724,82.38582677165354,5.639975772259238,19.218049666868566,6.844919456158928,0.06687995154451888,948,24,214,11,26,308,154,254,0.218,0.657,0.124,-0.98,2,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,2,2,4,2,15,18,5,0,8,0,22,11,3,4,4,41,45,22,1,1,7,8,6,3,0,1,2,3,0,1,7,16,1,1,6,1,0,4,5,8,0,2,11,11,32,10,23,26,6,22,1,2,2,5,33,8,4,5,13,128,39,2,0.10683930015091887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470659326929357,0.0,0.1069841261962132,0.0,0.11789982444403654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510962838132576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215282701963146,0.08920635294546862,0.06512824572546831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202053266682632,0.0,0.11088232580651923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504297281585787,0.0,0.12389966894217795,0.0,0.0,0.12017983249312207,0.0,0.0,0.23830812272364066,0.0,0.1932845273037488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804232063617876,0.07632601737531801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975424228079556,0.05581912469935908,0.1024899920072762,0.1821577091652161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373242167936687,0.19141405511604154,0.0,0.10964794509368253,0.0,0.0,0.12660508509001284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308095557578924,0.0,0.10602151982533052,0.0,0.0,0.11125669023272076,0.11743217054772502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754637573100727,0.15658885617671045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971810396144342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285327934195776,0.10109392906900544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753866912181153,0.08527811007408377,0.0,0.15707835739671394,0.0,0.08240105471032026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186323992388609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992579939104455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145669084297018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097928366688812,0.13691661910969344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901474867464947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815361174118405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778028295979242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880100643314134
EDAnonymous,6iwicore,2019/09/18,"I’m severely anemic and suffering from anorexia I have a hemoglobin level of 3.5, i was told by my doctor that i was severely anemic, is continuing this lifestyle dangerous? any advice?",5.47909090909091,8.236038727272732,8.009090909090911,57.23363636363638,70.81818181818181,11.672727272727276,35.24242424242424,11.20814326018867,5.64480606060606,150,8,20,6,3,54,27,33,0.344,0.6559999999999999,0.0,-0.9111,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,3,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,15,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33550711408687833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23348244456867984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35142224225317986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7757511864886703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280753401072614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rickticia,2019/09/18,"I just faced a fear and called my school’s ED hotline I’ve been so nervous about doing this for years y’all. I’ve been considering it since I was a freshman, and I’m now a senior. My heart is still pounding.

They were really nice and provided some good resources. I’m definitely nowhere near ready for recovery, but just verbalizing that I purge and am so petrified of my school’s gyms that I have my own membership off campus was such a huge step for me.

I guess my question now is, from y’all’s experiences, are any of these places safe for venting or are they all only recovery-oriented, and are others there judgmental (in that I’m OW and bulimic) that I’m basically failing at my own ED?",4.224460431654677,5.420814359712232,5.536035971223022,80.12937769784178,70.87050359712232,9.588776978417268,29.727338129496413,9.888512548439397,2.815986474820144,552,22,112,14,10,185,87,139,0.11800000000000001,0.789,0.092,-0.6774,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,2,1,10,6,0,2,4,0,13,2,2,0,1,15,18,10,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,0,16,3,12,13,4,12,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,4,5,74,24,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885904815190433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535518721651628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242894443232595,0.0,0.27941734287023456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20827031798973725,0.0,0.0,0.273541027581205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29424808071763753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18885064593391496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594306900661059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27816358897476784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907349303918414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5026051592688524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540427347036155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983003734833534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990324622427549
EDAnonymous,2girly4me,2019/09/18,"My ED loves to see my money go down the toilet! Fuck , I just wasted $15 by going to an all you can eat pizza buffet, and stopping by mcdonald's for a milkshake afterwards. I could've spent like $8, buy 2 large tubs of my favorite ice cream, and feel just as satisfied.

But no, my urges wanted me to waste money there. Why do I even go to buffets anymore!

Not really sure I'm gonna go back, not because it's expensive, but the waiters were trying to have small-talk with me, and I really wanted to be left alone. They're nice, but I'm one of those people who would rather be left alone sometimes.",3.8660200000000025,4.131616992000001,5.230150000000002,85.39482500000003,71.08,8.17,25.225,8.07648339933343,1.2954199999999996,464,12,100,6,8,156,91,125,0.132,0.774,0.094,-0.3866,0,2,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,6,5,1,0,4,0,7,4,0,0,2,19,21,7,0,4,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,1,1,0,5,4,3,1,0,1,2,3,11,4,14,15,1,10,0,0,2,2,3,3,1,0,4,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37811742417156813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103285468154287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036371735367698,0.0,0.11127605715340684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574512759052247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867862865053959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056743003077805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922988429381013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875736238358865,0.0,0.0,0.4149718539724313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966653626768997,0.0,0.0,0.08918091945828031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475150140490996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369534821662805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655180721675524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23388247049890215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454625339993542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18053894610900165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526134890082801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204390390883467,0.0,0.0,0.14672054049967298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393420073916835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533628908101707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647159818502563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12967277217008966,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ltesnk,2019/09/18,"I gained 20 lbs And then my husband got short notice orders to deploy
5 lbs of water weight gone in one week
How do I not go down a full on spiral when there's no one to hide my bad habits from?",0.2338636363636369,1.6880228409090954,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,81.95454545454545,4.4,13.272727272727273,3.1291,-1.5651181818181814,151,1,38,0,4,50,39,44,0.16399999999999998,0.778,0.057999999999999996,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,4,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,2,1,4,0,7,2,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174261295522294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21605941235957055,0.0,0.30405673495809377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4328261455588168,0.0,0.0,0.5152261579470424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049494994334426,0.4629447280378858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HellAbove,2018/11/21,"DAE take Vyvanse, Risperidal, and Prozac? DAE also have bipolar?? How do you cope?? So last month I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disorder. It's crazy because if I wasn't depressed, I was hypomanic. Which is wild because I always thought it was normal to be alright on 4 hours of sleep and complete a shit ton of assignments...This explains my whole entire life lmao. I would have phases where I'd be depressed real bad, then I'd be ""normal"" and I did everything. This was awesome at the beginning of my undergraduate career and it got me so far but then the swings (aka me feeling the depression got worse and so did my bulimia). When I first got onto anti-depressants, I was on zoloft and it made so suicidal I tried to kms. Then I went on Paxil, then effexor, then prozac cause nothing was working. I'm still on the prozac (60 mg of it now) + the risperidal (0.5 mg) was added last month. I've always had focus issues for as long as I could remember so my psychiatrist added Vyvanse (30 mg). Does anyone else suffer with bipolar 2 and take a similar combo of meds? ",3.2510144927536224,5.259413352657006,4.628333333333334,82.36250000000003,74.8937198067633,7.498550724637681,27.92512077294686,8.344100000000001,2.100167149758453,832,34,157,15,18,276,123,207,0.147,0.7959999999999999,0.057,-0.9755,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,2,11,7,1,0,7,1,20,11,2,3,0,23,32,24,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,9,0,0,0,7,9,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,6,0,1,17,1,18,1,18,10,2,25,0,4,0,0,2,8,1,1,16,98,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101089505051753,0.21036539781399946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838835102423807,0.1295213091475524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055465203697316,0.15411592307355293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985721519321444,0.0,0.0,0.13253778995001736,0.0,0.0,0.10092757349013616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355047238166953,0.12830282113879884,0.0,0.0,0.14487605741600726,0.0,0.1106216669594218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559878466995253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360856558365087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391636144339635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752372164896107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30330329530601624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448773855451452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193851077173138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060809705669344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928665655654587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186828971676008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961157576143225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14041228191127633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20179746138772525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477086316464781,0.1212931728375659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14388150561586552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319714235095196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975737291540582,0.0,0.0,0.12650063322089453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095066373569747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827130297869827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19008818655314025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035489741281547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582364542701253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718272638782153,0.0,0.14113151590014333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920275064355294,0.0,0.12882191885437386,0.0897975696287871,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitt_3n,2018/11/21,"Desensitized to bingeing How do I fucking stop? It's like I almost don't care anymore when I binge (I do care - I just no longer have the intense fear of overeating like I used to). I never used to do this, and it's like as soon as I started, I realized it was sort of easy to fast/overexercise later so the behaviour has no consequences. I feel like it is wreaking havoc on my health and it is obviously doing the same to my mental state. Why am I no longer taking this seriously????!!!",2.085464852607706,4.041425142857147,4.1893197278911565,84.42155328798188,78.18367346938777,7.212698412698412,25.174603174603178,8.167268648758528,1.611336507936508,376,14,77,7,9,129,60,98,0.21100000000000002,0.65,0.139,-0.8301,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,1,3,0,11,2,0,3,2,14,19,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,1,13,6,11,18,1,9,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,10,57,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21771830416248006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562576350742024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433556516297191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24466196986788155,0.1099358926554488,0.15532744583016858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010045920972248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311110936456689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248887061370745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191118256033656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676904652174995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389352586112695,0.0,0.0,0.18177584475939185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634754701304576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755683209135872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961909588776816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,almondbones,2018/11/21,"It's easier to not eat than it is to eat When I consider breaking my extended fasts, I just think about how it's so much harder to eat so little than nothing at all. Is anyone like this or are extended fasts harder for you than restricting? :-0",5.178133333333335,5.237781079999999,6.4860000000000015,78.24633333333338,68.2,10.666666666666668,28.66666666666667,10.504223727775694,2.8524666666666665,194,6,39,5,3,66,35,50,0.051,0.845,0.10400000000000001,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,7,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,9,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937275063701628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.85050777193121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535801891796012,0.27768792742996523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367172790488255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658475199645163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775295136460938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,macespacee,2018/11/21,"Recovery looks different for everyone I’m not sure, but sometimes I feel I’m on the fence between just “dieting” and actually having a disorder . To me, recovering looks like me eating (yes) still below my maintenance weight because I genuinely want to lose weight, but the recovery part comes in when I feel good while I’m dieting. Today i made myself up all nice , and took a bunch of full body photos . My little chubby body is beautiful, and I am plump, but I look great! And as I workout/diet, I will continue to look great, even when I’m thin. Also, recovery for me includes still working out a lot, but doing it to feel stronger , and move around more efficiently. I feel to lose weight and feel good , i have to love myself now, and  I’m getting much better at it .",5.0645945945945945,6.037289243243244,6.207675675675678,76.91705405405408,68.72972972972973,9.974054054054056,30.340540540540534,10.125756701596842,3.0796275675675684,600,23,113,15,10,201,90,148,0.069,0.645,0.28600000000000003,0.9917,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,4,9,11,0,0,5,1,6,9,2,1,2,27,26,16,0,1,6,0,9,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,10,6,1,5,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,2,13,17,9,18,23,7,21,0,2,4,1,1,10,0,1,9,76,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.11505418744997672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428523867315916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495672123339143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187124213777221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427368922196563,0.0,0.26192245190774177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156111194743686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318125713081612,0.13512454774114735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064196709393915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787237595707408,0.0,0.0,0.1126592806802774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29807097139932176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061598309343335086,0.0,0.0,0.19777921869207896,0.0,0.25997212818797577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05760038251192647,0.1181675896764161,0.0,0.0,0.3960279600427303,0.26380170688933824,0.0,0.10023505622334176,0.10641008814420667,0.11156060130045843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530990702341194,0.08667066441993879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767509263640964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116606920150037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831148534481848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112012226595057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117561862635532,0.0,0.13099214292344374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06954095503336792,0.0,0.0,0.4307142877966118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583319706954202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lola21,2018/11/21,"Oh man, eating 1 damn slice of the pizza sure does make it much less terrifying. Granted, it was a mini-slice of a relatively non-trashy pizza, but the situation felt like a huge win for me.

Family ordered pizza and I knew that, as usual, I'd either take the starve-and-stare route and have erotic dreams of the pizza at night, or I'll starve-and-stare then binge on all the leftovers when everyone's asleep, and then some. 

I decided to just eat 1 damn slice this time, which still **kinda** fits my calorie limit for the day (although hardly), and suddenly the pizza, and the idea of it, just looked... idk; simply much, much less ominous and torturous as it usually does. 

I don't know if it's because I'm having a ""I only hate myself 3 out of 10 today"" kind of day or what, but I feel kinda okay? 

Yeah, I guess to people who don't have an ED this would look like the weirdest, stupidedst post of all time, but I think most of you guys could understand.

TLDR; fought the Pizza War and won. ",3.815367965367969,4.795076020202021,5.0034920634920645,84.38000000000002,71.62626262626263,7.879365079365081,23.233766233766232,8.192908349453996,1.150897835497836,764,18,157,11,14,253,125,198,0.15,0.708,0.142,-0.3949,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,3,4,13,6,0,15,2,8,9,1,1,3,37,23,19,1,3,9,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,11,8,8,1,8,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,5,5,11,7,17,16,10,20,0,0,2,0,5,5,2,8,15,92,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09196068134559122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044658643455748,0.0,0.0,0.19457983846107668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640309622080632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087275845758725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414978652244073,0.0,0.0,0.14221401913447496,0.0,0.07627754524314255,0.0,0.14484583310826232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661853686316951,0.14937158626443495,0.0,0.0,0.13513773272654164,0.14893949566359302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702985505258637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570937605349237,0.08290675032904712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740166620216494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533628190787446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069784043329934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326905080110133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415685430563463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147331151322245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458485603173992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14447876222480482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16956895130586702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047414224672676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218040277074534,0.0,0.11342526328594785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666271093755664,0.0,0.0,0.17593119845143407,0.0,0.1429942592849657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570468669696437,0.0,0.0,0.33229409618147754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716408170621428,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,screaminginmymind,2018/11/21,"Body dysmorphia. It’s common, right? It’s really messing with me. I wish I could trust my mind, but I can’t. I’m sitting here in 00 jeans, but I when I look in the mirror, all I can see are massive thighs. These jeans are vanity sized (I was a 2 or 4 in this same brand 2 years ago, and I have gone from BMI 19 to 20 in that time), but still. I know intellectually that I’m small, but I just cannot see it. 

Has anyone actually worked through this and seen a real improvement? I thought I was getting better, but this is really distressing me lately. ",1.6036521739130445,3.202885756521741,3.773260869565217,88.4929347826087,78.39130434782608,7.382608695652173,21.065217391304348,8.238735603445708,0.8763217391304345,422,11,97,8,10,145,78,115,0.059000000000000004,0.799,0.142,0.8389,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,3,0,11,2,2,0,1,18,22,9,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,4,15,2,8,16,2,15,0,0,4,0,0,6,0,1,7,60,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.2266722273287617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20590261753793312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16241590216764434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543319553672465,0.0,0.2580112331293958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18545705075430774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135695612652525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765526910140287,0.0,0.2620224823479476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505708957003648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23453705429344746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643860222421344,0.29760962797824875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983662482562252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701949148730612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854994796832408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440474351392994,0.13544460729985686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671110717703646,0.0,0.0,0.1691029452270976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958100407589128
EDAnonymous,wispybubble,2018/11/21,"Fellow people with vaginas, DAE get frequent yeast infections? I’ve read online it’s super common with anorexia(like 75%) but i literally never see anyone talking about it. I do everything right(no soap, cotton underwear, change clothes after exercise, etc) but I still get them pretty much monthly😩 ",5.721466666666667,9.342395280000003,6.068000000000001,66.40066666666667,76.2,8.133333333333335,32.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,3.991133333333334,244,12,30,6,6,78,43,50,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.775,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,5,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,4,4,2,5,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,5,17,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103374181430584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182232545620627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33548916033105264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703538654912636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143277041801744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211342426221748,0.0,0.2320077078297262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085478158056953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060378377919519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008972285849046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25689506968272324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397112646140908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402319052673799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24178436426932914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachsy,2018/11/21,"Does anyone else get irregular periods due to their ED? Typically the only time my period is late/early is when I start having sex after not having it for awhile. I have been b/p’ing on and off for years but now that I am restricting my period is wonky. It came 8 days early today (and I am not having sex sadly). 

anyone else experience this?",1.382941176470588,3.89186994117647,4.383823529411767,78.77220588235295,84.88235294117645,7.51764705882353,15.852941176470587,8.472884824447931,1.0873764705882358,268,5,50,7,8,96,50,68,0.059000000000000004,0.941,0.0,-0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,10,2,0,0,0,7,13,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,0,6,11,0,16,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,13,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425017159985045,0.5018904655121876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801184878758158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795046288376038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21432751217311016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091915341524733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395746985088211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127958423919559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276275748361536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626954145463276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733527003205873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281240261517356,0.0,0.2321515900353555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577177785334439
EDAnonymous,popcorn102,2018/11/21,"Yard work workout, y’all... I’m home for the holiday and my mom needed some brush cleared so I got out there with a saw and pruners and went at it for about half the day yesterday. According to my Fitbit, I burned 3100 calories yesterday. On a normal desk job day I’m lucky to clear 1300 and 2000 is a day with a 10-mile run. I guess I know what I’m doing the rest of the week!",0.6117592592592587,2.4734954074074054,2.198256172839507,97.3359027777778,82.58024691358024,6.025308641975308,21.23611111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.34827037037037023,292,9,71,4,8,95,57,81,0.0,0.8690000000000001,0.131,0.8313,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,8,0,2,0,0,0,2,15,11,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,7,1,11,8,2,11,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,6,39,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5407018340913968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22351634310727625,0.0,0.30786585883027195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28032950851231697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773291820601697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358847835423112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273099153307321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072222160048185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738196140229828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241726267143917,0.0,0.0,0.25906992983165433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034562633056514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WildConclusion,2018/11/21,"Does anyone else dislike the DSM 5 diognostic criteria? I understand the changes, of course, and I think it makes sense. It's just that I feel super weird about being a subtype of anorexia now as opposed to EDNOS... I feel so embarrassed describing myself as an atypical anoretic when I don't look remotely that way... does anyone know what I mean by this? I haven't met the diagnostic criteria for bulimia for a long time, actually, but still when i speak to anyone irl about my ED I describe myself as a ""former bulimic"" because it just seems more reasonable. And when I speak to people who know more about EDs than the average person I just say EDNOS (like in my flair here) because I just feel SO weird about the AN subtype thing.",6.910737410071945,7.030961035971223,7.400638489208635,72.95045413669068,64.53956834532374,10.978776978417267,34.64118705035971,10.686352973137794,3.7718266187050338,580,24,104,14,8,191,86,139,0.061,0.919,0.02,-0.4991,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,16,5,0,1,10,0,3,0,0,2,0,19,15,11,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,9,2,0,1,10,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,7,16,2,17,13,2,10,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,1,9,72,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.18800549115234005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041308697296755,0.1973999164210102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23488390083525565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20380561507590947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33719096812503685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094024531717607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922395818086112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21175855417685852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412250388040602,0.0,0.0,0.17049542801557688,0.161783401343529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286000778842284,0.0,0.0,0.20986000843586247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356414172656844,0.16822070624281146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19808353593085934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320862004237046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538774399476578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385617019490086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799278439378653,0.12344685945181146,0.0,0.0,0.11233987603788954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056278502961447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15292220003482526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Biiou,2018/11/21,"What's the worst thing you've done in public because of your ED? I am so embarrassed rn. Yesterday at work, the break room has been filled with snacks and drinks and other binge worthy things. I told one of my new coworkers (I'm such an idiot for doing this) that  the only reason I eat during the work day is because one of our coworkers makes me eat.. so now shes in on making sure I eat too. 🙃 so yes5in order to show her I've been eating, I've just c/s the whole day in front of her. I would eat some chips, then proceed to spit into a coffee cup, pretending to drink it. She didnt seem to have noticed it until the end of the day when the bakery manager brought in BAKED GOODS like croissants and cream cheese brioche and these little snickerdoodle bites. I just started telling her ""omg I'm definitely not going to pig out on all these croissants"" jokingly and I stuffed them into my mouth and proceeded to spit into the cup... lol there goes my only chance at making a friend my age at my job. I should have just told her im not eating today because of a dinner tonight or something. anyways anybody else do something stupid in public like that?? ",3.807193204868157,5.018338659482758,4.533215010141992,86.86858012170387,71.88793103448276,7.182961460446247,25.28498985801217,7.510576382923642,1.1427365111561865,907,27,185,10,17,291,143,232,0.06,0.8420000000000001,0.098,0.7002,1,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,1,1,1,2,12,10,2,1,13,1,14,14,3,4,2,27,25,13,0,2,6,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,11,11,11,0,2,5,0,4,3,4,0,2,7,1,23,6,29,16,4,38,0,0,1,0,15,16,0,3,18,117,34,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996899035392707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21126218621064025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117427896169959,0.0,0.21393598124584626,0.0,0.6703928318254423,0.09121709902548752,0.0,0.09671296828751894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436257283327406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062057142398137574,0.09158626809080173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794764164107245,0.0,0.108357630042987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669278824653997,0.10944050258988647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21866238645155986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545969472291628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431744331452504,0.0,0.0,0.1479845876732925,0.16609304729132734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226903175594682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940559727803526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812487360948813,0.0,0.0,0.07728767147751654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291351513504188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543987035468796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508652531984045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103502603596333,0.20867800270492215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219105646122426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898823445431134,0.0,0.0,0.07756787946639979,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sparklewhores,2018/11/21,"I broke up with my ""best friend today"". It feels the same as a ""real"" break up, my heart hurts. But it's for the best. They kept accusing me of never making an effort for them even though I felt like I was - when they stopped eating I gently encouraged them away from the bad habits as best as I could. Did I ever mention when we started being friends that I was making myself throw up before we met up, that I wouldn't eat around her and when I did, I went upstairs ""to poop"" for an hour but I was actually purging?
Yes I did, actually. And all you did was ask ""is it bad that I've only eaten 500 calories over the last 3 days?"" 
Yes it is, what do you want me to say? 
We have amazing memories, but I can do this anymore. Everyday there's a new argument. This isn't friendship. 

Sorry if this is inappropriate, I just feel like I'm about to either binge or push away food because if I wasn't so wrapped up in myself maybe we'd still be friends but then I don't think I was wrapped up in myself, but people wrapped up in themselves don't realise that they are, right? 

Urgh, sorry. ",2.0322775548737297,3.6420550269058327,3.486023129572814,90.97412320037763,77.20627802690584,6.1297144205806,22.94760443710173,6.8360192770164,0.5374896860986542,833,25,184,8,19,274,128,223,0.09300000000000001,0.73,0.177,0.9603,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,4,2,5,4,13,14,0,0,8,2,26,6,2,2,3,33,40,19,0,5,10,0,3,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,12,7,4,2,4,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,15,4,36,10,27,20,6,34,0,2,0,0,20,15,0,3,17,136,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.24574055409461434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486917130850395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208684969880603,0.1177091214302696,0.0,0.23659371814591545,0.0,0.2102596602457255,0.07675374211861383,0.0,0.10714038025552723,0.0,0.3964052335499841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005291185210272,0.0,0.0,0.08120171862688694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257675313674425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316255688075515,0.1138930628250346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732804827818392,0.08995033398043938,0.12089362060691534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15225121847112286,0.0,0.2918339255239838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492042959803541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399626970903566,0.0,0.13478956605667589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026336886870484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302681222008326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809218817057672,0.0,0.12649380648840938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710977523020384,0.1216049394967826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576044677431238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729033921797237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331347154060733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752669688433708,0.0,0.10012891365703801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818925150795021,0.08911994898680765,0.0,0.10055211760792132,0.10526663757518667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067822768630484,0.12370621740666285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934822949337184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07426514932191612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167200972171368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,missfizzel,2018/11/21,Anyone else obsessed with watching cooking shows? Watching them make the dishes and then describe them almost feels like I'm eating it myself,7.727499999999999,10.642856750000004,5.8066666666666675,74.80500000000002,64.83333333333334,4.800000000000002,32.83333333333333,3.1291,1.9259833333333336,118,5,14,0,2,34,22,24,0.068,0.843,0.08900000000000001,0.1335,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4180804493878832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29193583735494505,0.42779293202257546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272215533179576,0.3487797800168642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110786978639745,0.29827243329291064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039764891208411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786941624589776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pro_Ana_Online,2018/11/21,"Yet Another ED Meme Collection! (2500+) Here's a freshly uploaded gallery-formatted page of 2500+ ED Memes: [PAO Memes Gallery](https://proana.online/pao/index.php?/gallery/category/20-memes-gallery/)

**These memes have been broken into \*****10 different albums\*** **(Spongebob, Simpsons, etc.) to make them more manageable!**

​

Note: this new gallery is **an addition** to the 6000 memes archived from Reddit: [https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/9yf6rb/entire\_6000pic\_rproedmemes\_collection\_now/](https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/9yf6rb/entire_6000pic_rproedmemes_collection_now/)",21.996071428571426,26.27231941666668,8.534285714285716,38.96500000000003,104.83333333333331,9.142857142857146,37.857142857142854,7.447530270364453,5.777714285714287,535,21,41,12,21,117,51,60,0.069,0.9309999999999999,0.0,-0.5696,1,0,0,0,0,0,87.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,18,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623717777854648,0.4063881341616234,0.0,0.35069547882273744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494245748708091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729953638394724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22324510272781373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32300974251843084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063881341616234,0.0
EDAnonymous,LilLunaBuggie,2018/11/21,"Found out my family thinks I'm disgusting I'm just so...hurt. My entire family has been on a massive health kick for the past 2 years and I'm the only obese person. Every time they see me they make comments and say nasty things. I'm so scared for Thanksgiving.

I was watching my sisters snapchat and it turns put she switched from a music major to a health and fitness major. Apparently when she was speaking with my mom on the phone about Thanksgiving coming up, she said she doesn't like being around me because of how overweight I am and that it grosses her out to watch me eat. My mom aparently didn't defend me and just told her to ""bare with it until I realize I need help"". I only found out because my brother over heard and he said something to me today over snapchat. 

Im so sick. I'm so fucking hurt. I knew I was over weight and that I hated myself but oh my god. My own family is shit talking me and thinks I'm disgusting. I probably won't even go to Thanksgiving and just say I got the flu.

 Im so so upset. It hurts so much. I just want to lay in a hole and cry. I dont know what to do. ",0.8767857142857132,2.9646394545454555,2.7221915584415584,92.68900162337664,83.02597402597402,5.754761904761906,20.880411255411254,6.996647511020387,0.4401008658008663,858,26,189,11,24,285,126,231,0.196,0.779,0.026000000000000002,-0.9905,2,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,0,15,11,5,2,8,0,13,10,1,2,0,34,39,21,0,2,5,4,1,1,0,1,6,6,0,1,8,18,4,0,7,0,0,3,4,10,0,0,13,10,35,1,26,24,4,21,0,2,3,1,25,12,2,0,7,117,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292358846019938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409580265271856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959375604344478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699977919928698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13550219214321926,0.0,0.0,0.1183049930132072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636389819763077,0.0,0.09741225813219312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269800830372391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535360133421611,0.0,0.106885997635276,0.0,0.0,0.06570777116909479,0.0,0.0924694284079568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141477916077929,0.0,0.24579080060965505,0.0,0.0,0.07749559751456442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713109752702938,0.0,0.249772269472678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06354004636093774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056484596652219776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717520496441932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708183246212412,0.0,0.0,0.08499175366285952,0.08572849573777741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586378493192933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036945117927732,0.0,0.10095225210699912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124654615689664,0.0,0.0,0.1162269579127557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21995637114806305,0.1838864617909516,0.1157527260795436,0.0,0.09213173188696527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867912704113312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900756863803619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292851656005466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768107572877966,0.14816533297878842,0.0,0.0,0.06741716724858113,0.0,0.10959134000855128,0.11047694044457228,0.0,0.0,0.1257580300467367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819386650872722,0.0,0.0,0.1407902850500592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445351845326452
EDAnonymous,azuredreamtofsleep,2018/11/21,"That moment when you have a hard relapse over the stupidest thing, all because of your control issues lol Well, i relapsed on taking laxatives and probably gonna relapse in restricting too. I was super addictive and relient on them a few years ago but i quit because i couldnt have a bm anymore w/o assistance from them. ( dont ever get into laxatives, they fuuuk your body up )


Anyways i started having a panic attack over the stupidest thing. Im visiting my bf's parents for xmas this year, but because they were paying for our tickets (we'restudents), they were the ones who got the tickets on expedia and all that.


I told my bf to, yanno, talk to them and make sure we're there for a reasonable amount of time. I just got the itenerary today and we're gonna be away from our apartment and with them for *THREE FUCKING WEEKS*. Out of the 4 weeks we get for xmas break. I was willing to stay with them for 2 at the MOST. And we literally leave the day after finals are over.


I wasnt told this. I didnt get a fucking say in any of this. Ive had a shit semester, its my senior year, im failimg 2 of my classes cauzs im a fuck up and all i wanted was to decompress. Im a faliure and i have no control over my life and i prob wont graduate and everyone will see me as a fucking failure


Ever since i moved in with my bf i have no time to myself, no time to be alone, let alone fucking work alone, ive been spiraling out of control and the last thing my shitty and weak psyche needs is 3 weeks of being in constant contact and constantly doing activities n visiting n shit 


fuck im crumbling and wishing i was dead and i feel like im falling apart and i know its stupid to flip out over something like this but it was the last straw that pushed me over the edge. I have no control over my life. Starving and hurting myself was the only thing that gave me inner peace. Without it im fucking lost. Ive taken 8 laxatives just now and i just cant bear the thought of eating anymore. It makes me sick to think about eating. I just want my control back, even if it is a sick illusion. I cant do this without it


Im sorry how stupid this sounds. Things are just piled up so high and im so tired of feeling alone and out of control. At least w my ED, i dont feel so lonely.",0.980000000000004,3.154551138004248,2.9402755838641177,90.76032420382168,83.26751592356688,5.721290870488322,23.645053078556266,7.003673034542,0.8933573333333333,1770,67,374,23,50,593,218,471,0.23600000000000002,0.71,0.054000000000000006,-0.9985,1,6,1,0,0,1,43.0,4,3,8,10,21,22,12,1,24,1,39,19,3,10,6,71,73,31,1,6,11,1,4,2,3,5,7,2,0,0,23,31,2,7,7,2,1,5,14,17,1,2,20,7,57,5,59,43,7,62,0,3,1,7,28,29,9,2,28,255,80,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614323616196695,0.0,0.0,0.04995294369524678,0.0,0.0,0.23345609083952945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03832151930102815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177274535832277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641089148392746,0.05294487249051927,0.04333146617203423,0.0,0.10305557868955692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259473898567358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217937063329162,0.37922360369808417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03634259330638761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320890307473178,0.0,0.0,0.11532501144458228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0372201849190403,0.10194782407717548,0.0,0.05384706975009244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548029930867601,0.040258118435222735,0.0,0.06173122705770034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36467777101446536,0.08832530546093759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014021824278458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05048062224401988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05953933448260072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603263387028886,0.0,0.5478317142758752,0.058817195557960424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030969768845455176,0.09186934637742393,0.0,0.059668984724324386,0.0,0.0576240791673482,0.079606639618491,0.05506180753193271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151522901989045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523124061861064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059893612520184665,0.0,0.04178454138018625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03818579970621165,0.04285848909119614,0.0,0.0661173217758749,0.06257259769402176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075734681555511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993764340635568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05793958448304831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04481363755327256,0.0,0.0,0.04490551397559063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568972141965113,0.04661523274267819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04338277958686848,0.0,0.06308182391263409,0.0398864718171265,0.06006408977809895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05311140758367131,0.0,0.042369941787116144,0.04529387121733716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871899325139488,0.03610830000970788,0.0,0.044737458319055776,0.09857849681335057,0.06476871779314652,0.053415423215917635,0.10769413950018487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06647613287709099,0.0,0.13560732885466398,0.0,0.050667515614608714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480240265067969,0.10864327744476912,0.0,0.0410251700664922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886716590338999
EDAnonymous,030728,2018/11/21,"Realized I have a crush on a co-worker ... So what do I do ...  ate till I was stuffed. Followed by 20 minutes of me trying to vomit everything back up. Followed by even more eating and purging. Followed by me crying over the toilet and cursing at myself for being so weak and silently praying I was able to throw everything up.


I know there’s zero chance he’d like an ugly piggy like me. I’ve struggled with anorexia/BED on and off since I was 13 , which has left me with an undesirable body and super low self esteem. I feel like such a weak and pathetic little girl for letting something I should be used too , get to me. 
I’ve been doing so well recently too . I even managed to lose weight this month. 

I think I’ll just go drown myself in ice cream.....
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EDAnonymous,meineschatzi,2018/11/21,"Food challenge I’m in recovery at the moment and my dietician set me a food challenge this week to eat a burger for dinner tonight. I don’t know if I can do it you guys. But if my weight goes down this week, they might make me pick up extra days or even go inpatient again. I’m not even in the healthy weight range yet - I’m still overweight!! But they don’t want me losing weight while I’m in the program. Or at least not at the rate I have been recently. 

I don’t want to eat the fucking burger. I’m really struggling not to just give up on it all :(",0.5703954802259901,2.5172372542372905,2.245000000000001,96.48128531073448,83.23728813559322,5.628248587570622,20.002824858757066,6.816661863887847,0.10913333333333376,428,12,101,5,12,140,69,118,0.10099999999999999,0.831,0.068,-0.7768,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,2,3,6,5,1,1,7,0,8,10,0,2,1,18,20,8,0,4,10,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,1,9,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,1,4,12,2,14,18,3,22,0,1,0,1,5,10,1,5,10,65,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349824820326074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284283143447936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21199499465796373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881133223541296,0.0,0.0,0.14836393264693548,0.0,0.15394990154530086,0.09120617809431794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890338518092442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819725097056191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953940905050386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712363793829302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702470850248959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280950890167646,0.0,0.15845758581089273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816191826391007,0.0,0.0,0.1677716593861057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893140437750996,0.0,0.2574595390346821,0.5862751201458408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turkeyblunt,2018/11/21,"Having dental work done sucks, but... .. I can’t chew anything and it’s the perfect excuse to eat nothing but miso soup and drink La Croix through a straw for the next couple of days. Thanksgiving who?!?",4.3630701754385965,6.1564267105263175,3.944736842105264,89.3414912280702,71.36842105263158,6.119298245614036,25.824561403508767,6.42735559955562,0.8770771929824561,157,5,30,1,3,47,35,38,0.046,0.8440000000000001,0.11,0.3404,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,1,5,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918010938718396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923521151767557,0.0,0.22868414410330345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628733280900487,0.0,0.3473676546781092,0.0,0.3628387401191954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771153171948932,0.0,0.0,0.3402430256059065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25814904908558844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DemonicDragon21,2018/11/21,My mom is starting to ask if I'm eating Usually my mon doesn't ask whether or not I've ate only tine she does is when I'm down more weight and my pants (aready too big on me) need a new belt again. For the past 2 days I've said that I've ate despite me fasting. I'll probably stop fasting in thanksgiving since i know 1 or 2 of foods i rarely eat but love will be cooked.  Also anyone ending a fast on thanksgiving eat something small before the main meal. My throat tends to hurt when i eat after i break a fast. Also STAY SAFE!,2.7997368421052653,3.4760387543859643,3.941184210526316,92.1870394736842,73.73684210526315,7.1035087719298255,23.021929824561404,7.1686216300943375,0.5418982456140347,414,10,97,4,8,135,80,114,0.10099999999999999,0.853,0.045,-0.7265,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,5,12,1,0,0,11,17,10,0,2,6,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,10,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,11,2,9,12,2,23,0,1,0,1,6,6,0,3,15,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455369368856705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734351184999934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870376324144893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063270165835353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900655437504344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434483255456495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6283498769683954,0.0,0.0,0.1359715800344374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856348460984013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434443416521574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436960118201484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855619110873948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979868877717906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383181803557615,0.0,0.1482688575827209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675752731420835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655051596559862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655186109165292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603098655129335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699186148700345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11818582922515035,0.0,0.0,0.10866098925573614,0.16363000076710651,0.0,0.12834810953760806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16907863508519907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186943839047592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinyfleabite,2018/11/21,"I'm lactose intolerant and just ate four cheese sticks Immobilised enzymes my ass I feel like im giving birth

why do i do this",-0.17115384615384602,1.802590346153849,1.868769230769232,90.9262307692308,107.07692307692308,5.1569230769230785,20.584615384615386,6.742157984588678,0.8371323076923081,103,4,21,2,5,34,22,26,0.128,0.693,0.179,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25584078278621536,0.3614751685686539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853860899784148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.546549695266952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24719829108911054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45657198283873207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edub12345,2018/11/21,I'm writing a book About my experiences with bulimia. I need help coming up with a title for it though. The tone of what I have so far is a bit heavy but inspirational/a little poetic (haha). Any suggestions?? ❤️,2.018255813953488,4.0091098372093015,5.0676162790697665,77.87723837209303,78.53488372093022,8.951162790697676,22.377906976744185,9.516144504307137,2.1710046511627907,165,5,33,5,4,60,37,43,0.0,0.9390000000000001,0.061,0.2982,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704573696716133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43419780964627264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425931294426081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890380346420174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665775478832029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3986112752180744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29489794143721904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907494016872938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ButtSteak69,2018/11/21,"HOLIDAYS SUCK Okay, just like the majority of the people on here I freaked out when the old sub got deleted... It is awesome to have another support group here and I'm so thankful to have all of you to listen.  

Now for my rant. I hate the holidays. I absolutely love seeing my family and friends for a gathering but I hate the food.  
Today at work we threw a potluck for my squadron and all of their families. It is a huge deal for the families on the remote base I work on, but for me it is hell. I felt pressured into eating everyone's stuffing, pie, gravy, and the like. I brought my safe food. I brought a cup of rice and a diet soda to get me though and I thought I would be fine. It wasn't like I could leave because I was running the damn thing. I was happy to throw this thing for the families and bring them some holiday cheer in the desolate area we are stationed. I would never wish this horrible way of living on anyone... But the amount of food that was shoved in my face today, and the amount of disapproving looks did it in for me. A mom looked heartbroken for me and brought me an entire slice of pumpkin pie covered in cream...  
What was I going to do? Throw it away in shame? I ate it while she thanked me for the party and bringing some holiday cheer for her kids. I went to the bathroom and cried.  

And tomorrow is another potluck. The days after is Thanksgiving here in the US and my entire family will be stuffing food in my face and I can't handle this. I am so unbelievably upset right now because I can barely look sideways at half of the normal food they eat without wanting to starve myself in punishment for wanting it...  

I guess I am just upset that I can't be normal in the holiday season. I watch my friends down thousands of calories of food in one sitting and I can't stop thinking about myself. It's selfish. They don't care, and I shouldn't either. Why is this so damn hard?  

Thanks for reading. I am going to go drink a glass of wine because I haven't eaten today and I can bear the sad 250 calories....

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EDAnonymous,Justpeachy09,2018/11/21,"Weird triggers So I have not been I  such a great place since the ban but I was going to try tonight. That is until I went baby clothes shopping for a friends baby shower. The clothes are so cute! In my mind I was thinking about how much I loved some of the sweater dresses and stuff, nothing creepy. However, even though I am at a very low weight I am tall and therefore have broad shoulders. When I looked at the kids clothes and compared it to my form I just felt disgusting. No matter how much weight I lose I will never be small. Long story short I spiraled and just ate a protein bar.",2.9108474576271206,4.7129109322033935,3.0120000000000005,94.4851186440678,75.27118644067797,5.397966101694917,27.0542372881356,5.6839178017228535,0.688637966101695,462,18,98,2,10,140,83,118,0.16,0.7140000000000001,0.127,-0.2912,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,11,8,1,0,8,0,11,6,1,4,1,19,18,12,0,0,4,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,4,4,1,2,2,1,2,3,4,0,0,6,4,15,4,9,10,4,16,0,2,1,1,3,9,0,1,5,68,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344319963828143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954241353045156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724952307032553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567281221377715,0.0,0.0,0.2243964677247253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012079520097946,0.1709169286208267,0.2277019910492804,0.0,0.0,0.1836969837979813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551087405217766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29924116999383515,0.0,0.15697762841998048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19529593953092347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126492496154035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836506355566333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329972304832592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304160865093247,0.19997068866929646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818592650786174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16793650222602874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4956980860668572,0.0,0.1886776486369305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,joyful_girl_,2018/11/21,"Does anyone else feel like they look totally different in their mirror at home than they do in other mirrors? It's such a weird thing: I look at myself in my mirror at home, and I feel like I look exactly the same. 

I can see *signs* that I've lost weight; like...the evidence is there. I conceptually know that I am smaller. 

I had to get rid of a bunch of clothes that no longer fit me, even my leggings are too big for me now and gap at the waist, my measurements are smaller and I've lost nearly 30lbs, etc. 

But when I look in my mirror at home, I feel like I look exactly the same. 

The mirror at my gym though—that's a whole different story. I was sort of...shocked, honestly, to see how much smaller I looked than I expected/how I feel like I look based on my mirror at home. I don't usually go into my gym's locker room, but I went in for the first time yesterday and then again today and like...fuck. And there are multiple mirrors there, under really aggressive fluorescent lighting...I don't think it was a case of a flattering setting lol. 

I'm into it—I'm happy with how my body is looking (I realize that I might be a weirdo who actually has decent body image, and I appreciate that I am lucky there). But I look *so much smaller* in those mirrors than I feel like I do at home. 

It's honestly weirding me out a little. Why is this?? Does anyone else experience this? ",1.6531851851851869,3.689570657142864,3.710158730158732,86.93335978835981,79.92857142857143,7.291005291005291,22.87037037037037,8.285830014693849,1.3611759259259264,1064,35,226,22,27,362,135,280,0.046,0.8109999999999999,0.14300000000000002,0.9790000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,3,3,13,15,1,0,12,1,19,5,4,2,3,33,43,15,0,0,3,0,6,5,0,1,0,0,6,0,14,11,2,0,8,2,0,2,3,5,0,1,6,17,39,10,31,35,8,36,0,2,11,0,5,24,0,3,14,149,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.07659729610502347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097674743580819,0.16084955557978986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743748059065983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401578136633158,0.0,0.0,0.13737852161182212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311407188185356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753981609445886,0.051843514536827236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678066516760762,0.0,0.0,0.1984406735870651,0.2803750643450051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676562704372282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256499344554984,0.04100905881753916,0.0,0.04460906095929466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355665903453115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3936715723182569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313739076885096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684320803067545,0.07867004284739043,0.0,0.0,0.5932249063295782,0.0,0.17136753494728088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326807188614055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540194569762295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05028426522869234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509662010767136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052146887547945255,0.05029478441671528,0.0771184210896042,0.0,0.04576957139141919,0.0,0.0744016526518807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644833032455977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558264260877204,0.0,0.07276327573108612,0.07082721591827584,0.08763400308507878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cleyran,2018/11/21,"Strange question, but did anyone else have their hearing/ears affected at a low BMI? I've been a normal weight for like 1.5 years, but I got water stuck in my ear in the shower last night (ugh) and weirdly it reminded me of this. Back when my BMI was ~13 my ears were fucked, to put it delicately. My hearing constantly felt muffled, like when you're underwater or going up a mountain, and the only way to make it go back to normal was to lower my head. As soon as I returned to an upright position the muffling came back again. Is this some bizarre ED quirk exclusive to me or has anyone else experienced it? I don't think I've ever heard anyone talk about it!",6.5531168831168864,5.79322296969697,7.050649350649352,78.09954545454549,65.51515151515152,9.967099567099568,33.25108225108225,9.23628265651192,2.7411718614718623,520,19,104,8,7,171,91,132,0.166,0.76,0.075,-0.9186,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,9,6,1,0,7,0,9,6,3,2,1,16,20,10,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,7,3,2,0,3,0,0,4,1,4,0,0,10,7,11,2,15,10,1,23,0,1,0,1,5,5,1,4,15,64,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33481716896015457,0.3270865262693915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681996207555971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825557356417051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248588013830202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666737997267761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437987555834772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325433758716936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475604427336589,0.0,0.0,0.18142447129208644,0.0,0.12765778583801352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380987023318125,0.0,0.17989642200051348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010660028955762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559585403894457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654349180020337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978679623503394,0.31277538956886725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139353394970748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045601619133246,0.1788040539379316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829157559977905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227411735788658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266940536392757,0.0,0.19436668276676394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278609349309636
EDAnonymous,lostunderheaven,2018/11/21,"[vent] i shouldnt be fat at this weight sorry for the rant but ur bois got feelings

so around a year ago i was closing in on 200lbs at 5'8.5 which is classed as ""overweight""

and it obviously was overweight, like i could see fat everywhere on me, my stomach, face, legs, arms, everywhere

and seeing all that fat was normal because i was fat, right?

but im still seeing fat at 140lbs

i know im in the normal bmi range and i shouldnt expect to be skinny yet when im still 40lbs away from my goal but i thought *something* would change

but nothing changed

its literally the same exact shit

everytime i sit down i can feel rolls of fat pressing against eachother on my stomach

i can literally grab handfuls of fat on my upper arms

my legs are fuckin awful

and again, i know i shouldnt expect to be *skinny* at this weight, but i expected *something* to change except my fucking hands and fingers thatve gone from sausages to skeletal

and it kinda makes me scared of reaching my goal weight? like, what if nothing changes then either? what if, at 100lbs, im still not skinny? i mean, i expect to be skinny, but i expected to be skinny at 140lbs when i was almost 200, so what if its the same deal?

this post literally makes no sense and im sorry if u had to read through this but ur boi just had to vent and theres nowhere else i could post this lol",1.6116168582375499,3.9744990888888903,2.5069604086845487,93.6716666666667,82.18518518518519,5.057471264367816,22.273307790549172,6.311591054244273,0.3193192848020434,1054,35,222,9,29,331,134,270,0.08900000000000001,0.861,0.049,-0.8621,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,2,12,6,3,1,5,2,22,31,24,2,3,53,36,25,0,17,15,0,10,2,0,4,9,1,0,0,14,10,17,0,6,1,0,1,5,4,0,0,10,14,27,2,33,15,4,32,0,0,3,2,3,18,3,6,12,138,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839181643431601,0.0,0.09479711152437874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08427528801955939,0.0,0.0,0.08894443814749249,0.0,0.0,0.057709211571266676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005880800856463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117064027542626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759935861465632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908362075317173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957347625564198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751976462085917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571527410451785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5112926556493131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405497491792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250077115947536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638429583826752,0.0,0.0,0.1031220580389406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18551061495304605,0.18167450147490952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133305092537189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469440194416308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084662361436583,0.0,0.0,0.09477996711293253,0.0,0.2263162902695721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717614555548697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576130885276886,0.0,0.2119479043502468,0.0,0.0,0.226807837721068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515643927649117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34584322215517765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724998742433655,0.0,0.0,0.060963592560172315
EDAnonymous,tired_platypus,2018/11/21,"i'm so tired of feeling like shit my stomach hurts so bad rn. this entire week has been binge after binge. i don't even like the food i'm eating, it all tastes like shit and i'm so tired of all the thanksgiving get-together stuff. it's not that i dread having to eat, it's that i don't wanna talk to people that i haven't seen in months just so they can make a mental note to themselves about how i've prolly gained weight. i'm sorry, this is such a pointless rant, but i don't know how to stop doing this to myself. i almost can't wait for school to start again so atleast i'll have something to do besides eating all the damn time. but then i'll have to see all my beautiful thin friends. ugh i just want a thigh gap and abs and reach the double digits. ",2.5546114519427405,3.48425112269939,3.5344938650306763,93.91540132924338,74.58282208588956,6.414928425357875,20.331799591002046,6.42735559955562,-0.04227157464212672,595,11,139,4,12,191,98,163,0.16,0.706,0.134,-0.6389,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,13,11,3,1,7,0,14,12,4,3,4,22,26,13,0,2,5,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,10,3,6,2,2,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,2,6,11,4,15,24,5,10,0,1,2,0,3,2,3,1,11,81,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587114762640277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233806239758175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865448517253905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468552673171698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014065645453815,0.11323002136572415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19165474943307784,0.0,0.12245410016861705,0.0,0.08280794543812152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967391636136706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710560066797189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323003366379872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579772867827636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15972732031967252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651049481902632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098816039618227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16040704735946554,0.12630129038634544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253890180987863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201844622792395,0.0,0.1774239966259091,0.11218472774189904,0.0,0.0,0.13251027644131164,0.0,0.0,0.18144071691618086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739358432579634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242065728379673,0.3643371118473369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348541658864648,0.0,0.12713643310039474,0.19300619136846656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doodle_system,2019/08/11,"I’m going out with my godmother and her kids tomorrow and it could cause a problem For some background info only my best friend knows about my eating, I can’t tell my parents for various reasons.

So I’m going out tomorrow with my godmother, her two kids and my little sister. We are going to get lunch and then get an ice cream but I probably won’t want either.  My godmother picks up on things like this though and I think she might start to get suspicious, so is there any way I can avoid this? Because she would tell my mother and as I’ve said she can’t know for various reasons.",3.5664030131826716,4.96365059322034,4.723333333333333,84.55095103578157,72.72881355932203,8.295291902071563,25.822975517890768,8.841846274778883,1.864550659133709,462,15,93,9,9,152,75,118,0.067,0.853,0.08,0.128,1,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,2,0,9,2,0,4,0,28,23,12,0,4,2,3,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,2,4,11,2,1,6,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,2,18,3,13,18,5,13,0,0,1,0,15,5,0,2,5,64,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204724706481347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940458436185774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18834499625386425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843673823089852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329394404067325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836448609195897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386597727717297,0.0,0.28130044357027745,0.0,0.3059945533238195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726644970049614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876810490588339,0.17987828857623786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190391637296775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649669173731035,0.0,0.0,0.19928263361010745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350138128791947,0.1717306525077599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36905461532917405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071915630540738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270313434644526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137332182340647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192333516952326,0.11499853588156116,0.17633052050333028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17531825633020864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058573506628431,0.14245667476584858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749189812468284,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheThirdCloneOfXyxl,2019/08/11,"I just need to vent about numbers and looks - BIG TW, suicide I don't care what I look like, within reason. I don't care if I'm skinnyfat. I don't care how ugly I look when I leave the house, most days I look like I do meth and eat cake as a hobby. I don't really care so long as I don't look huge. 

It's all about the control that comes with numbers. The scale is my main support system. As long as the number gets lower I don't care about anything else. My body measurements are only relevant because they're numbers and I can record them. I can't measure my body's looks, so I don't care. 

I could be the ugliest person in a room and not give a fuck, as long as that number in the morning is less than it was yesterday. I don't even feel anything anymore. I can fast for weeks and feel nothing, I'm starving myself to death, and I don't really care. 

I've done this so many times. Losing and gaining the same 50lbs in a feeble attempt to starve myself to death that always gets intervened by the doctors due to concerned parents. This is the first year I've lived alone so nobody can watch me anymore. I don't have friends to check up on me. After a failed suicide attempt this week I've come to realise I can quite literally starve to death this time and nobody can stop me at all. 

So here we go I guess. See how much my body can take this time around before it gives out.",2.9342446633825965,3.8526682241379326,4.037093596059112,90.71488505747128,73.65517241379311,6.627257799671594,24.499178981937604,6.655083550727371,0.6592627257799677,1075,31,239,8,21,350,148,290,0.23,0.701,0.07,-0.9933,2,1,1,0,0,2,27.0,1,0,1,8,15,14,1,0,14,0,27,6,3,4,2,31,57,23,5,3,3,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,12,14,1,2,3,0,1,3,12,3,0,1,2,10,33,11,31,53,7,33,0,2,8,1,7,12,1,3,19,146,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838033423937552,0.0,0.0,0.06732760536754467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604915016930027,0.0,0.0,0.13317199144428993,0.07203133743778664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04932491824879634,0.0,0.06885254518381619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696343449117292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5774863032331864,0.0,0.0,0.1394018913562485,0.0,0.0,0.0907528417591498,0.0646038931236774,0.0,0.0,0.0521833596952614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281973853085522,0.0,0.0828039454934212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827960528757181,0.06759394249654256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053443470067752366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182592012770568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688260975812364,0.0,0.0,0.06251458287836327,0.07480443966465758,0.08454929905899773,0.15524172103108916,0.04598575222818039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913678761360579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336482898594366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567710251907659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906177976036406,0.0,0.07144926124696126,0.21482118660555544,0.40768837797251023,0.09052297719626468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820349190827146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059481696850145115,0.05999730768141288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763994420608622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061539360534522886,0.0,0.0,0.08984632288087485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065169263346995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08606286234973867,0.0,0.0,0.10367220076175818,0.08319390287267933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447862892813898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764840578974922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701534220636872,0.09182116954608087,0.0,0.0,0.06083786850058826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154623237976555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298099626385728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052106485902514384
EDAnonymous,FoxInSocks98,2019/08/11,i feel disgusting and worthless i binged last night. over 1800 calories when i should have been sleeping. now it’s 6 pm and i haven’t left my bed. i’m wrapped in my fluffiest robe to hide my gross body. i feel like such a failure. i’m not a real anorexic. i’m so scared to weigh myself. i don’t wanna exist right now honestly (i’m safe though don’t worry). can someone please just tell me that this binge isn’t going to literally cause my whole life to come crashing down? bc it really feels like it right now. oof i am a sad sad kiddo,-0.15713864306784586,2.1259944070796486,1.6541946902654878,96.62052507374634,91.65486725663716,4.429262536873156,18.152802359882006,6.079149491110277,-0.27330277286135685,420,12,94,4,15,137,78,113,0.207,0.6809999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.903,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,8,10,1,1,3,0,9,4,2,1,0,13,18,5,0,2,2,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,1,3,0,0,2,5,6,0,0,1,3,13,4,8,16,1,14,0,3,0,0,1,6,0,0,8,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22471932455452426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782673203181606,0.0,0.17427100511317295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30688002593573765,0.2890587077827701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149766790639905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490856739514026,0.0,0.0,0.2198089613245588,0.0,0.14289659622366285,0.1976755937932598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985298153094352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22207416692303186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23027155685936235,0.12960411407098474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455409966603913,0.0,0.0,0.20254627117057689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024547743699626,0.0,0.17141547912410068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17682669423091496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987672405754514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258704046023293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054542741416376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kawaii_dreams,2019/08/11,"can i still call myself anorexic? for context, i've had disordered eating for about 3 or 4 years, i previously had a restrict/binge cycle but had a continuous loss. i've recovered twice but i'm half a year into another relapse, because so many bad things are happening in the family right now, i have upped my calorie intake so i can temporarily maintain at a bmi of 17.9ish to avoid worrying my mother as much, my medication has affected my appetite so i even struggle to eat that amount and never binge, i continue to have constant disordered thoughts, desires to restrict lower, and body check often

can i still call myself anorexic? or would ednos fit better?",5.92507285974499,7.7047293032786905,6.816338797814205,70.33676684881604,67.44262295081967,9.684517304189436,35.686703096539155,9.994966539143718,4.072308561020036,533,27,84,13,9,177,85,122,0.203,0.741,0.055,-0.9579,1,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,0,2,5,0,11,4,1,1,1,15,14,10,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,4,0,13,1,13,9,2,15,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,3,9,62,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284193158060186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455914937539593,0.1062942073928548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154215911929434,0.0,0.19368553120702695,0.0,0.0,0.3561021088027762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18843180026809145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996857790193867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35684765948481284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151696037796094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438032236019334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419463211667134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767836017173108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565922185116972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818186112700816,0.0,0.13448473394614496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891085051240202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785038839224259,0.0,0.0,0.1822891674222793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584354245448587,0.0,0.0,0.13843013837571486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708098893925794,0.0,0.12386729805902295,0.0,0.0,0.22457685955393905
EDAnonymous,gatsbyeddy,2019/08/11,Ur favorite less than 100 calorie foods? What foods keep you full but are under 100 cal?,2.214117647058824,4.9294907058823565,1.6073529411764724,98.67808823529413,83.11764705882355,3.4000000000000004,20.264705882352946,3.1291,-0.6208588235294119,70,2,14,0,2,20,15,17,0.0,0.871,0.129,0.3313,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.93861306777737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449717510138389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mybrainischaoc,2019/08/11,immediately binged after getting back from vacation The whole long drive home I thought about eating a cookie with ice cream and when i got there I literally could not stop myself from shoving that and another cookie and whatever sugar I could find into my mouth. I feel so awful and my weight keeps reaching new highs. I feel so terrible. All I wear is baggy clothes cause my cute clothes is tight and i'm so embarrassed about how I look. I am not excited to go back to school fat. Sad sad sad :(,3.283020833333332,5.618525427083334,4.18041666666667,84.08958333333338,75.97916666666666,7.6,25.25,8.515128840125781,1.8236750000000008,395,14,76,8,9,127,67,96,0.237,0.701,0.062,-0.9620000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,1,2,1,5,6,3,2,1,21,14,10,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,4,3,4,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,7,13,2,9,10,2,11,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,7,47,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254794137341915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306921017839629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220896717909808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433705196496005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200310409037223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174529069112676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19653501482635316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123451519334884,0.0,0.12220743112833372,0.0,0.1719804385779693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271927238822218,0.215694258191921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911299934659796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19029622651192585,0.1805724126815016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767888886957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176234902515198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977607173785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071109550349264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26185059632468755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400751364457613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daneeul,2019/08/11,Guy was SO into me until he saw my body I’m so fucking gross and big and this dude just confirmed it. We were talking and he was getting handsy and he lifted up my shirt and saw my stomach. It’s not flat and I’m soft and nothing like him because he’s RIPPED and he just kinda backed off and made a comment about how I had “potential” lol so y’all know we ain’t eatin for a while 8),-0.6118823529411763,1.4015801058823565,1.468529411764706,99.6733823529412,89.11764705882355,3.8705882352941177,19.088235294117645,4.935628992294339,-0.6227411764705884,299,9,72,1,10,99,59,85,0.083,0.8490000000000001,0.068,-0.0707,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,2,1,0,0,8,3,1,0,2,1,5,4,3,2,0,19,13,15,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,12,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,3,9,1,6,6,0,7,0,0,2,1,12,4,1,1,4,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844505499113913,0.0,0.22550368603805584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109048111906752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34199097485180874,0.1932712639640632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662852732179804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20330186252511095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807273422204417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500332825979332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549543359392934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973328094700482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luckyaquatic,2019/08/11,"The guy I’m fucking keeps making inappropriate comments about my body TW Numbers 

We’ve been hanging out for a couple weeks. He keeps saying things that to him sound positive but are actually super triggering and idk what to do because I’m really embarrassed and ashamed of how insecure I am. Like the other day we were fooling around and he kind of out of the blue said “You know I don’t really like super skinny girls. I prefer girls that are a little larger.” Like I’m not even THAT big (only like 30lb or so over average). The thing is he keeps pointing out things about my body that he loves that i specifically hate and it’s super weird because it’s nice that he likes it but I wish he wouldn’t point it out at all because it makes me hyper aware of myself. Has anyone else been in a situation like this?",3.0291586327782625,4.924852288343561,4.4427388255915865,83.94756134969327,75.1963190184049,7.3565293602103425,23.299298860648555,8.192908349453996,1.3215016652059597,645,19,128,11,14,214,102,163,0.12,0.623,0.257,0.9845,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,1,0,3,6,19,2,3,7,0,11,5,3,4,1,26,25,9,0,3,4,0,0,6,0,1,0,3,0,3,17,10,1,3,2,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,4,4,12,12,17,20,1,15,0,0,1,2,16,12,1,1,8,76,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.13484600257871862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662028480779886,0.14158410733427698,0.0,0.12301155321482928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527039628225466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30697879328148514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289609894346332,0.0,0.08911615911097641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154335897427292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126811324171999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774731995587474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682221296388947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364264242219568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36846836155198703,0.0,0.1438956129257177,0.07594138439142865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40505338402126906,0.1384949775005359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471493074977405,0.0,0.18447553130188699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509387431181977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612538968865184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770462536797699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144302127050167,0.10988812000483032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532270726885092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754065622546646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084151492203964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890283824012416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,88Stardust,2019/08/11,"Confession: I’m jealous of the addicts I treat bc they are skinny I’m work in a detox center as a nurse and the female patients are soooo skinny. (Well, the ones coming off opiates and benzos are. The alcoholics usually aren’t. 😏) While I clearly see the very ugly, painful, dangerous, horrible effects of addiction on their bodies/minds/families/etc. and I wouldn’t trade places with my patients for anything, I’m still jealous of how thin they are. 

Because I’m fucked up.",2.5668028600612907,5.449125741573038,3.608151174668032,83.6047497446374,83.71910112359551,6.382431052093973,28.31562819203269,7.686295010490155,2.2713955056179778,377,18,64,7,11,121,62,89,0.252,0.6920000000000001,0.057,-0.9619,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,2,3,7,4,0,7,0,6,8,2,2,1,10,13,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,1,1,2,5,1,1,0,2,7,2,10,12,0,11,1,0,1,1,4,7,1,0,3,38,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5292184556749959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594022959050593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19974437152870214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796466868834052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090885844454359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707057593196852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439802283236654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644786999590588,0.0,0.2582795883098432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535989828175725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934227020652659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384280631913287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26733047824977363,0.20027592958586649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21824152335588026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670879463179814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,izurice,2019/08/11,"I’m so lost I have no idea what to do. I’ve tried to “recover” 3 or 4 times now, but it was really just me binging and covering up my emotions. It’s gotten so hard for me to restrict, and I can’t successfully do so for more than 2-4 days at a time. I don’t know how to regulate my eating, it’s such a struggle. Either every bite of food feels like poison or I can’t stop eating. I’d really like some advice if anyone has any",1.4705803571428575,2.07003263541667,4.6314880952380975,86.28375000000004,76.8125,7.985714285714287,22.047619047619047,8.418075326091056,1.0513619047619052,327,8,78,6,7,121,67,96,0.198,0.693,0.109,-0.7862,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,1,1,2,0,8,4,0,1,0,15,13,10,0,1,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,3,2,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,2,8,3,10,10,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,7,49,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158593695888652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021849367286935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445730435789032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246119992702844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520684413873636,0.0,0.2484809790436028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611643762545135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169287330866008,0.15780986818236295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671112341034432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788158641618248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493674169495349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12139998909793792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21583961015163788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24113670882202204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830263556398997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18468096186672595,0.0,0.2309309802321883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576152784812296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997552018125804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweettreat-109,2019/08/11,"Feeling incredibly weak and all because of testosterone I don’t know if any of you relate to this since this is very exercise bulimia, but I’m 15F and I feel so weak, like not strong enough at the gym. It’s so annoying that females have such low testosterone levels, like 15-70 ng/dL whereas males have 270-1070 ng/dL so ofc they will naturally be way stronger. But my muscle dysmorphia just doesn’t recognize that. 

I’m away from my gym since it’s summer  and I’m not as muscly as I used to be and I feel so gross and not tight. If I’m not sore I feel sluggish and saggy. Which is then triggering my old anorexic restrictive thoughts, meaning I’m not eating. 

So I’m just stuck in this fucking loop right now of loosing my gains since I’m away from the gym and then not eating loosing even more gains, crying over that trying to eat more protein and calories to maintain what I have left. That being stored as fast an then the cycle repeating. 

I might just go cry, also sorry if this made no sense this was just like a ramble",2.4534438259109312,4.478813995192311,3.429473684210528,89.97342105263156,77.31730769230771,6.302024291497978,23.92813765182186,7.273561745256523,0.9281403846153844,813,27,168,10,19,260,121,208,0.16699999999999998,0.7140000000000001,0.11900000000000001,-0.9227,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,3,13,10,2,0,5,0,13,8,0,3,1,37,32,25,0,3,15,0,5,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,13,8,3,2,7,4,1,1,9,6,0,0,4,5,13,4,17,23,4,19,0,1,0,1,3,9,1,4,11,101,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118876806893056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108833521182188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793265567592036,0.0,0.0,0.09061676984658518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265740886362196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563237690410808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359706738420903,0.0,0.09818312526145058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006513070856761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742621241466438,0.0,0.0,0.08448225509192409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169515279103289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151063757700898,0.0,0.0,0.21787131194224973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406579465067758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192541095247834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769608996066226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559850793532447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694784221561115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688989653400188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640354238988608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801294065499862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009248281417731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838744455431292,0.0,0.12265331972809965,0.0,0.11799289568771724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LateAsparagus,2019/08/11,"Visiting my parents and I oop When I'm at my own place I manage my b/p problem by pretty much keeping empty cupboards so now that I'm visiting my parents and their full kitchen it's like throwing a carcass to a bunch of hungry lions and my parents canät figure out what happens to their food


My father: Where are the bananas? I bought two bundles today

My mum: Didn't you put them in the fruit basket?

My father: yes, but they're not there anymore

My mum: Oh well, I guess they were eaten then

My father: That can't be it, there was like 12 bananas

I also ""enjoyed"" a loaf of bread my mum is convinced somehow got dropped on the way home because it was billed in the receipt but they couldn't find it anywhere. How long till they start to suspect their adult kiddo might have a problem lol",2.653285714285716,4.541727900000005,3.5433928571428592,90.01375000000004,76.25,5.071428571428573,27.05357142857143,5.288315135182226,0.7904821428571434,624,25,123,2,14,199,107,160,0.06,0.821,0.11900000000000001,0.8628,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,7,0,10,7,0,0,8,2,11,5,0,1,0,18,20,11,0,3,3,9,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,7,4,5,1,3,0,2,4,4,2,1,1,7,1,24,5,12,10,4,21,0,0,0,0,20,8,0,3,9,84,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752094224669753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054380810927688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048287205751188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15717357333599818,0.0,0.207941658579538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13753671374576387,0.0,0.18943965308930671,0.0,0.1520687382765915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249566108123254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285105339257793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802755104156786,0.0,0.0,0.15218427077567942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824284774028284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641460746039748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5728428192302762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796675999992456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749509830487867,0.0,0.3290959824201849,0.0,0.17287306859368567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171823773190675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630034165808016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798554294369994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649840214827486,0.0,0.0,0.15461785487419266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,s1783,2019/08/11,"Have Myfitnesspal/ other calorie trackers ruined anybody else’s life? Hey im 16 years old, 5’7, and 124 pounds. Just a year ago i weighed 160 pounds. Ive always had 
insane body dysmorphia but developed an intense ed last year after downloading  myfitnesspal. 

When i first downloaded the app, i started restricting to 1200 calories a day, (previously consuming about 2500). It just became a way of life after a while until my ed started to accelerate and i was cutting down to 500 calories a day plus purging. Honestly, the logical part of my brain is so scared of where this restriction will lead me to, but most of my brain is addicted to eating nothing/ very very little and tortures me every day to continue restricting 

This app has forever changed the way i feel towards food and i was just wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience?",8.014711399711402,8.547590240259744,8.246969696969696,66.41267676767679,62.18181818181819,12.03924963924964,39.83838383838384,11.645159339076185,5.132211544011544,683,35,109,20,9,224,103,154,0.161,0.805,0.034,-0.9651,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,1,10,0,11,9,3,1,0,19,15,12,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,5,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,4,1,12,1,17,10,2,25,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,3,18,70,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357347491937646,0.0,0.0,0.13300769117863895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485119816677755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491641347898004,0.1537409745446775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666684903137389,0.0,0.3350043500119176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15872992475144124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29030387818286874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353563146323226,0.2506901786700918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642114405869567,0.0,0.0,0.14677484493516058,0.0,0.0,0.07586831666797819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762997735106127,0.18143753575514132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162076604455786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230840414830775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119653929254418,0.0,0.150386602079602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397422879983127,0.0,0.15744917939078534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248637553127754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022331213213672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21240820392983803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24760912544733346,0.0,0.2382007904474252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16271966756675016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898762177122626
EDAnonymous,myjjn,2019/08/11,"Anyone else just??? loves going to grocery stores?????? for no reason?? Like. I could go to a grocery store every day and I pretty much do. And most of the time I don't even have a reason to go into a grocery store?? Like I'll just. Go there and look around for like 1 hour, studying everything that they have there and looking at the prices and nutritional labels and looking at their cakes and chocolates and sweets (even though I've seen all of them before) and then at the end I'll maybe buy like one (1) chewing gum or something small not to look suspicious lmaaao. I just love grocery stores man",2.2447435897435923,4.633752042735043,2.634722222222224,93.53875,79.85470085470084,4.925641025641027,20.86111111111111,5.985473137389443,0.03733675213675225,467,13,95,3,12,143,71,117,0.018000000000000002,0.763,0.22,0.9755,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,0,9,7,0,0,6,0,5,3,0,2,1,21,16,12,0,1,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,11,1,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,0,1,1,6,7,7,13,14,3,15,0,0,5,2,6,6,0,2,9,57,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107228591865105,0.15712916278535932,0.0,0.13651745759810566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13049284869618974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244058702646772,0.0,0.0,0.09890055978312884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810748081181386,0.0,0.13582601136750716,0.0,0.0,0.20257757021856015,0.0,0.1292072499419307,0.0,0.1378245704347252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486181544442257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102267159629934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996838195705705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151145120337208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768157108096815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406457501578222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273273989416817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391655143792368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601601794671174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315346639721949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805930165515377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15066939908487795,0.0,0.08942187509136079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunaticleg,2019/08/11,"Just got back from a week long food-filled vacation with my family.. And i am proud to say that i actually managed to enjoy the trip without worrying about food too much! It was such a nice trip, and i wasn't gonna let my stupid ED brain get in the way. Tbh i was still a bit anxious but Idk man i'm still very happy about this :)",4.361197183098593,3.6500817042253537,5.459260563380283,87.53705985915497,69.98591549295774,9.353521126760565,26.200704225352112,8.841846274778883,1.4235042253521133,255,6,62,4,4,85,55,71,0.071,0.6970000000000001,0.23199999999999998,0.9193,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,0,5,0,5,2,1,0,0,6,9,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,1,6,4,8,3,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,37,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.20126664136947897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329996179043587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585906769927954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22516754670233494,0.0,0.0,0.23023908507207003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944306600109285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987876990672945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775518136583702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495401031026805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21955302579971747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090081950963827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18252148889492595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161476448344438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401533910408206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32941712967316383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17017480070471142,0.0,0.1637087161826646,0.16543834452668202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988140771913461,0.0,0.0,0.20945313320048267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway2019181716,2019/08/11,"I honestly thought I was done with this shit For 3ish years, nothing. Food was a friend, exercise was a friend, everything was good. And then today, there was a bulimic character in a web comic. I've seen bulimic characters in these 3 years, and nothing. But today, it just hit me and here I am, eating raw peppers and salad and watching Supersize vs Superskinny. Just like the old days.",3.5995238095238093,6.14869244444445,4.81031746031746,78.89500000000002,75.94444444444444,9.114285714285714,29.73015873015873,9.606745405546679,3.3329658730158727,304,14,54,9,7,100,51,72,0.127,0.7609999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.2746,0,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,5,0,7,5,1,0,0,11,10,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,2,4,5,4,1,0,9,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,8,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482319823812834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298037589592351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978185477090934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201820850457492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271539922645666,0.0,0.3469903770795055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883510224548152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970910909301017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309444656924336,0.0,0.2356388815272253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23050852917982576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827626499267624,0.0,0.0,0.4257149378502229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892197045732695
EDAnonymous,dockmackie,2019/08/11,"I need to vent about fear foods for a sec because I feel like I'm crazy I hate having fear foods. Literally. I wish I knew what could help me get over them, I miss eating the things I love, depriving myself of them is making me so miserable. Even at the store picking up items I want and having them in my shopping cart makes me want to break down and have a panic attack. I don't know remember when life turned into this?? I've always been heavily dysmorphic about my body and craved and idolized thinness but this area of my disordered ass brain is probably the main part of my disorder that really makes me suffer because I think nonstop about the shit I want to eat but can't. 

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For context: I'm terrified of nut butters. When they're in the house, I can't leave them alone. I'm OBSESSED with them. The thought of the texture and taste and smell occupies my mind and makes me feel physical pain in my head (which sounds ridiculous to explain but that's how it be.) The moment there's jars of nut butter in the house, I can't stay away from them. I love them but they scare me so much. I'm so scared I'll succumb to a binge on them. They're so calorie dense, having to rely on such small portions freaks me the fuck out. I've tried PB2 but it's just not the same. When I decide to buy some if I ever do, I stress myself sick thinking about how long it will take me to ""get rid"" of the jar (when I buy a fear food I can never enjoy it, I just think about any excuse I can make to throw it in the trash or make sure it's gone ASAP)  I have such an unhealthy and shitty approach to certain kinds of food and it makes me want to die. I don't understand why, when I have a fear food at home, I want it gone immediately instead of savouring and enjoying it slowly. I wish I could be that, but here I am, a fucking lunatic who is piss scared of SPREADABLE FOOD IN JARS. (Yet I feel like if I was at my UGW I wouldn't be this person)",4.253999999999998,4.324264424691357,5.0045432098765446,88.03644444444444,70.18518518518519,8.060246913580247,26.57037037037037,7.699297019823105,1.2060103703703695,1512,42,339,16,25,490,202,405,0.245,0.6509999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.9973,0,1,0,0,0,1,43.0,0,0,9,0,26,32,7,11,20,0,27,22,6,10,4,66,69,30,1,13,12,0,4,2,0,2,3,1,1,1,19,13,9,0,13,1,4,4,8,23,0,0,6,10,58,9,47,56,7,36,0,4,0,5,16,20,5,4,12,219,77,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445591803548972,0.0,0.0,0.059817884628253874,0.07789232353260206,0.08735370127159324,0.04888737560561718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178476888655233,0.06754262135337832,0.0,0.0,0.0876464342671201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985311051188128,0.0,0.08025254003652978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479595046673224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074610028044914,0.0,0.16478336034273952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712196316971518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04748238570485988,0.0650282355546188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235830295414732,0.10904858615748317,0.10271585224259892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215749503599267,0.0,0.0,0.13292150573644698,0.07511867069831746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097607110695336,0.07377944319802372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048186066170850514,0.0,0.07211110436803374,0.0,0.0,0.1659018329295885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486192878865068,0.039508629865995085,0.0,0.0,0.07612067896654652,0.0,0.0,0.0507777322339326,0.07024322927263414,0.0,0.0,0.06362001087036102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297662948138767,0.0,0.3359079427351846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07258797645540177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284710870453625,0.053305208306467455,0.05544567141922292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649557546409493,0.08434692576522995,0.0,0.07784940319282767,0.0,0.0,0.06277120321847983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750911990833048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04605430202418456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143687345214957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592201481936935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379361476151021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662472080830711,0.0,0.0,0.08234926427417133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06775507283752974,0.0,0.054052012976409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04776023867171686,0.13819180898244332,0.0,0.0570722917143226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048808301877368516,0.07819521304044391,0.0,0.07483958198930818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21201166707683688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486915894261013,0.0,0.1653389247771929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735370127159324,0.0
EDAnonymous,tnykn,2019/08/11,"App to aid in recovery Hi, I am a student studying graphic design and want to prototype an app to aid in ed recovery. This of course is something that I have struggled with and while there are a plethora of apps designed for weight loss and calorie counting, I feel as though an app centered around recovery isn’t currently available. 

It would be really helpful to me to learn what kinds of features you all would appreciate / like to see in an app like this. 

Thank you!!",7.315505617977529,7.3116423483146065,6.996943820224718,76.60170786516855,63.71910112359551,10.266067415730339,39.14831460674158,9.888512548439397,3.8935195505617983,375,19,68,7,5,118,62,89,0.049,0.787,0.163,0.8706,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,3,6,0,1,5,0,8,1,0,0,1,11,12,6,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,6,4,16,9,1,7,0,1,1,0,4,5,0,0,4,47,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577381536727098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639226707751052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406214377077485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014951736468802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828940550925413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547678386924527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23071351112479035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22289007551010134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026738298798929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665552255047715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844563136345133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076902883695422,0.0,0.0,0.3525627960191943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113397414729376,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arsenalia92,2019/08/11,"Aunt Flo Back Again I’m prev diagnosed AN b/p subtype and hadn’t had a period since the end of 2015. Fast forward to 2019 and FML my restriction, which was my entire life, has been replaced by multiple binge/purge cycles. This has been daily for I don’t know how long. I know I’ve gained weight but I’m afraid to weigh... my clothes are tight, and tbh, I have no motivation for anything. I’m a marathon runner, and haven’t even been training because I’m so ashamed at myself. Even previous safe foods are no longer safe because they spiral into b/p episodes. 

Not sure why I’m positing this, I’m just ranting, and I have nobody to complain to haha. Like I’m an adult woman and I just feel so out of control which scares the shit outta me. So. Ashamed. And jiggly hahaha seriously F me.",1.2342138364779909,3.62949270440252,2.6977672955974827,91.45407232704405,84.2201257861635,5.545911949685537,22.669811320754718,6.937597516519254,0.7376566037735857,616,22,128,8,18,200,102,159,0.157,0.6729999999999999,0.17,0.6346,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,3,10,12,1,4,6,1,14,6,1,3,1,24,24,12,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,9,3,5,4,2,0,2,6,7,0,0,6,3,12,5,12,18,0,11,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,8,69,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19426072910387168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151880447895036,0.0,0.2878051000989485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647660820744849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396002018766496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090828206047628,0.0,0.0,0.311836365848614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936115643545732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854497771883995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594694300671781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16673913126739648,0.11532904790211115,0.0,0.0,0.2089093954585368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363414538130195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423165170458855,0.19527475217120568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248772221338572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874626091191546,0.0,0.0,0.21301123016497087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amaravi,2019/08/11,"My ex new girlfriend So, my ex and I are still quite good friends. Nothing weird, we're just bros. 
He's a motorcycle riding dude. I still have all my motorcycle equipment at his place, so he asked if he can give his new gf some of them. He took the pieces that don't fit me anymore, and that I won't miss.
Guys, the leather pants in which I can't fit anymore are too big for his new gf.
I am super triggered and I just wanna cry. 
Pls send good thoughts my way. Sorry for the rant.",0.2916577540106964,2.337282176470588,1.6773440285205012,99.55259358288772,85.07843137254902,4.493404634581107,20.057040998217467,5.565023196281405,-0.4317568627450981,370,11,90,2,11,118,69,102,0.10300000000000001,0.7290000000000001,0.168,0.7849,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,1,1,11,13,6,0,2,3,3,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,1,15,4,6,10,3,15,0,1,0,0,19,6,0,2,5,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36728435225174577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731120578666577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034041972179824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14306444787767106,0.0,0.0,0.1776351219531138,0.0,0.3106291910627685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833506999487764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5365246397368397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776787949254844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346670752205147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695461951324664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072863716493236,0.0,0.0,0.2957593054888131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470069322125707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20573437220033636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469819625005206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ExcitingDaikon1,2019/08/11,"My existing makes people uncomfortable/mad/disgusted Yesterday two separate woman at two different times called me fat. 
The first time I was walking minding my own business and this lady looked me up and down with such disgust. She stopped her eyes at my Gooch (you know your front tummy part in Jean shorts) and made the most disgusted face. Like she was gonna barf 

Second Lady called me a fatso while I was sitting having a rest.  She laughed in passing while she did it as if it really made her laugh.... I can't stop thinking about it and im really hurt and I'm 
REALLY TRIGGERED and I'm truly scared to eat anything. 

I'm 5'3 and 200 pounds. I have a belly. I have thick jiggly thighs and arms. I have had an eating disorder all my life. When I was younger I would binge eat every day. For years. Almost ended up at 300 pounds. Ended up restricting for a year and lost it and now I'm down to 200 but I still look fat and that makes strangers on the street hate me without even knowing me. Now I am constantly restricting what I eat and policing my self (for the past year or so) 
NO happy medium 
NO healthy lifestyle 
I lost weight and people still hate me just for existing, being fat offends people. Makes me want to die too. I'm so tired of these Bullys",1.7047257142857148,4.193150004000003,2.8073428571428565,90.8381,82.96000000000002,5.971428571428572,21.32857142857143,7.310402129719878,0.771137142857143,991,31,200,15,28,316,150,250,0.201,0.736,0.064,-0.99,1,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,2,0,3,12,13,5,1,9,0,14,14,7,6,1,38,35,22,1,3,5,0,2,1,0,2,5,0,0,2,8,14,8,4,3,0,0,3,4,9,0,4,10,5,32,4,23,22,5,39,0,3,3,0,12,14,0,4,22,126,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578047762396152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869304813636763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21573494966536905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415637240358475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06812730707538646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963481967743063,0.11036847487090487,0.12106947598345558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323732432587081,0.0,0.0,0.1871265522773636,0.0,0.0,0.06977242779580199,0.0,0.0890039653209498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985501723345712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245284991633707,0.0,0.20858988962017347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308689412714824,0.0,0.1141063909026367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161109739418197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461473561898158,0.05160903953976352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741742118175366,0.0,0.23063114191766884,0.0,0.0,0.19991309892440468,0.21154111601546927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666353998214384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439488101925553,0.10084273779919918,0.2197067689641869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030218415714264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576134682976117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020272269301312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687241380895353,0.176634994040719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676881042030422,0.0,0.0,0.12319589609937105,0.1214145146102491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20638454763279415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06230760528728941,0.0,0.0,0.12863774937972464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183056918581654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504169352377688,0.0,0.0,0.2040808364829514
EDAnonymous,smallnpc,2019/08/11,"Has anyone seen gone through this too? So I thought I was doing good but I've actually been losing weight. Everyone was being so supportive of me eating and not being so worried about what I'm eating and how I look. I guess I thought I was doing well too, but im not. I weighed myself this weekend I'm nearly back to my lw. I feel like now people have been supporting my weight loss and my ""looking healthy"" is actually just me being skinny. Now my thoughts are revolving around me staying this skinny and maybe if I get skinnier that they'll be even more supportive. Which I know is wrong. I hate this.",1.2922499999999992,3.873193725000004,2.7716666666666683,89.44,86.75,5.533333333333332,23.0,7.0316486544052195,0.9753500000000006,477,18,94,7,15,155,75,120,0.14400000000000002,0.6859999999999999,0.17,0.361,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,2,14,10,1,0,0,0,17,7,2,1,0,18,34,11,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,7,0,5,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,10,6,20,6,6,19,1,8,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,2,5,71,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.2766103654389139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990988675170231,0.0,0.0,0.1261671463642347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897937387858203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900443638318936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360939766076766,0.0,0.0,0.1354262955992177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166146852442537,0.10124985208628608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404654813318848,0.0,0.0,0.1188739479439301,0.0,0.0,0.1561283537043412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992614663356512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530895635866435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788949500444926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924069088303501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380300995108835,0.15855634671661806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423838982028445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825571004887412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15106220663331107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824906221182434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375464040731981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451707964387999,0.12742966290919105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393072623135858,0.0,0.0,0.15495630994758858,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MasterHospital,2019/08/11,"Does anyone else struggle to remember a time where you felt normal around food? Hi, my name is MasterHospital and I have two EDs.


Today, I came to a realization that I can't recall a time when I didn't have issues with food.


I grew up as a slightly chubby kid, and even at my earliest memories of days that have long past I remember get anxious when anyone would comment about my weight, how much I eat or even eating in public which is where my issues with one eating disorder come from which later on lead me to developing a second one. 


What truly scares me that I can't remember a point in time that I wasn't anxious around food, that I would immediately think about restriction or binges or etc. when eating something. 


Does anyone else experience something like this? Not being able to remember a point in time when you had no issues with food and where able to simply enjoy it?",6.574941176470588,6.808268376470593,7.0047058823529404,75.12117647058824,65.23529411764707,9.858823529411763,28.764705882352942,9.642632912329526,2.4724,704,20,130,13,10,230,95,170,0.099,0.848,0.052000000000000005,-0.6848,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,14,4,0,2,7,0,13,9,0,2,0,27,18,12,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,10,9,1,6,0,0,4,6,2,0,4,5,2,18,2,21,10,2,30,0,0,0,0,7,13,0,3,14,93,28,1,0.17497551747108306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976725299414029,0.0,0.18352042529880655,0.17928309529912906,0.0,0.15576530751321802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006268898859623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536295745509583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564223667027265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002685510948874,0.0,0.15312225447814912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35808727411748525,0.14616959247908495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975719773347204,0.11556967905624255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855798156280657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400196829879801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231621805438111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04570874301524178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27394347025977955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04274209974079665,0.0,0.0,0.07742391340174115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643135691411616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571942815081487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856793904039074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351696515931956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540842109556145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964263037122617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08759050885718833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470470187957834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146120105933883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05605862319686802,0.0,0.0,0.20405926270645205,0.0,0.08292816560617106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546282781607939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653652080046028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242975873186057,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mozman15,2019/08/11,"Body Image Research (Males 18-40) Hi everyone,

My name is Lachlan, and I am a Masters of Clinical Psychology student.

I am conducting research into male body image and muscularity (predominantly Australian males), and the factors that contribute to males developing positive and negative views towards their body and physical appearance.

The study involves completing a 15 minute online questionnaire, as well as downloading an app and completing 10 short surveys (1-2 minutes) each day over the course of a week.

If you complete the study, you will receive a $10 gift voucher, as well as go into the draw to win 1 of 5 $50 gift vouchers. Participation in the study is strictly confidential, and the study has received approval from the Deakin University ethics committee.

Thank you to everyone who has participated so far. 

Here is a link to the study and further information. [https://researchsurveys.deakin.edu.au/jfe/form/SV\_0ocZhFOpVrMJJNr?fbclid=IwAR3uiQinsluPoKitIY2O-VFlfTXXzxp05sV531WCoR0TC2OqS15w2xuI2hc](https://researchsurveys.deakin.edu.au/jfe/form/SV_0ocZhFOpVrMJJNr?fbclid=IwAR3uiQinsluPoKitIY2O-VFlfTXXzxp05sV531WCoR0TC2OqS15w2xuI2hc)

I would greatly appreciate it if you can take some time to complete the study.

Thank you!",12.29040476190476,15.96843307222222,8.959841269841274,53.725,54.38888888888889,12.031746031746032,41.746031746031754,11.629938488055165,6.119603174603175,1043,52,123,31,14,298,115,180,0.021,0.813,0.166,0.9734,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,5,1,3,4,6,0,0,16,0,10,5,4,0,0,19,15,15,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,11,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,10,6,18,13,2,15,0,0,1,0,17,8,0,4,3,74,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5083069727434908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6397339973073072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837458059345748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915137540237645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669102785140702,0.0,0.0,0.16817400788466835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468981362824662,0.0,0.0,0.2808735343026259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894630603995618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235701865494855,0.0,0.2743004912323374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835882767618477,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loveasaconstruct,2019/08/11,"Could I have an eating disorder? First time posting here, long time lurker. 

I have a BMI around 35-36, though I’m constantly told I don’t look like it (guess who refuses to believe that lmao). I’ve long had a weird relationship from food, often using it as a source of comfort, often viewing it as satan incarnate. 

For the past four years I’ve had off and on efforts at weight loss with little to no success. I dropped 40 pounds from late 2017 to summer 2018, and I’ve gained like 20 of them back since then. I usually tend to lose and gain the same ten pounds otherwise. 

For the past few months, I’ve been making attempts at heavily restricting and fasting for 18 hours at a time, caving 90% of the time and eating anyway (then feeling like a failure). I’ll go long enough to where my stomach hurts and I’m cranky as hell, and I give up. And I eat. In my mind I consider it binging but I’m always just eating what would be either a normal sized meal or a slightly bigger than normal meal. 

So I swing from refusing to eat to eating more than I’d like to and then beating myself up over it for days at a time. I’m also constantly sickened by the sight of my body; seeing myself throws me into this horrible depressive state. I feel like I have to lose a hundred pounds RIGHT NOW or I’ll be overweight forever. 

I know y’all aren’t doctors, but. What the hell is going on here? What’s wrong with me?",2.6632863849765265,4.390118450704228,3.899647887323948,88.1805046948357,75.76056338028171,6.846009389671362,23.805164319248824,7.645422480735847,1.0761037558685445,1096,34,226,15,24,358,166,284,0.184,0.745,0.071,-0.9895,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,1,10,13,17,2,1,16,0,13,14,2,2,0,36,30,22,0,4,6,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,11,13,11,3,3,0,0,3,3,10,0,3,4,7,21,7,41,22,5,49,3,5,4,0,8,17,2,5,31,139,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747200210227545,0.07774549365473214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317705430246669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184582960114587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526936916947244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378534003992099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194031369596527,0.0,0.07460032976813746,0.0,0.0,0.06025791408922203,0.0,0.0804755204371437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070847270473418,0.0956347908304049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5736446411553778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654344193738547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448719465593493,0.13350011770552453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947585397655335,0.11298210182924075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963146818816074,0.10620264863266632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292930393091627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201475897133388,0.0,0.10002421412885402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05134949107015163,0.0,0.10539887003659168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282383675736013,0.09364652313643226,0.0,0.24806138743492506,0.07846195734458941,0.209059969110745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0623686592176274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434282235145668,0.0,0.07457901069705478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309313271112534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838876338094614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948500431200587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031433741873204,0.0,0.07979307054972615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445568290796424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07729048574427656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917995178777547,0.0,0.27241381033474943,0.0,0.0,0.08928124846795461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08069793264876428,0.10290556955141364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11377878832311608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06637361897281226,0.10215662142196233,0.0,0.06016914528579285
EDAnonymous,hellodollyy,2019/08/11,"chewing, spitting and then... sipping back into mouth ok this is disgusting and idk how i got into this habit. im a restricter and havent had any ""junk food"" in months but i find myself chewing -- let's say -- a cookie, sptting it into a cup and then putting it back into my mouth before spitting it out again. does anyone else do this? it's so fucked up and bizarre but anorexia will make ya do some wild shit.",1.3337262872628701,3.6824551097560985,2.3535772357723594,94.41649051490515,83.26829268292684,4.132249322493226,22.52574525745257,5.033348758259628,0.03215826558265622,317,11,65,1,9,100,58,82,0.214,0.769,0.018000000000000002,-0.9616,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,3,0,3,1,7,9,5,2,0,17,10,11,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,10,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,5,1,7,6,1,14,0,0,0,1,2,7,2,1,6,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824275473593034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729901674480099,0.25349395817302145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3804757936794131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105220198650007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21650432968752545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066737441153536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261221702860708,0.0,0.2991611002593464,0.0,0.0,0.2287204008367559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978710513867486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672380613718618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529866768089199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514365028759553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974749852866532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24870868953810274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674506567639727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539559727966247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,medieval-spirit,2019/08/11,"holler if ur mom is one of your main sources of ED-related stress!!! w00p w00p Yesterday my mom hugged me and rubbed my back/shoulders area and said ""You are so bony!"" And then today she was hugging me from the side, rubbing my ribcage area and then my shoulders again, and I could tell she was trying to discern whether or not I had lost a significant amount of weight. I saw a post about this and thought this\^ story might be fitting to share.

First of all, WTF IS THIS?? She has always made me feel that my body is big/muscular/""athletic""/whatever and now that I've lost a significant amount of weight she is all of a sudden concerned. She would make me feel bad for eating choices in the past, and even now too (""Are you *sure* you want to have that?"" or ""That's really unhealthy"" etc. etc.). She compares me and my sister's weights constantly (which NO ONE should ever do to their children). Also her parenting has messed me up in serious ways, ways which will affect me for the rest of my life. She KNOWS I don't like myself and have a fucked up mind and have depression but she refuses to change or admit that she is emotionally manipulative/abusive.

Anyway it is extremely frustrating that she is all of a sudden surprised that my body dysmorphia and mental baggage has culminated in this way. AAAAGH

Ok, end of rant",3.791439393939392,5.952229464285715,4.095526695526697,86.10149350649353,73.80158730158729,7.280230880230881,25.343434343434343,8.150884317080207,1.473850793650794,1043,35,206,17,22,325,147,252,0.124,0.8109999999999999,0.065,-0.9389,1,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,4,1,3,10,16,2,1,9,1,26,11,3,3,5,40,39,22,0,5,7,4,7,1,0,4,1,1,0,1,14,12,4,1,6,0,0,0,3,9,0,3,9,9,36,7,23,24,9,27,0,3,1,3,27,9,1,5,15,149,50,0,0.0,0.1402359912986592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465160263313943,0.0984841207376536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101072003425968,0.09882477216830683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26294020344593644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12520806610936736,0.0,0.0,0.12790396781166086,0.0,0.0944999837107194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019423827489552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111074533989093,0.0,0.13313787833718818,0.1048308912382687,0.0,0.2640030127497437,0.07817496448980935,0.10706243862546637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969167406644765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067605504590676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094209340645576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650469788104827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360042056299713,0.057824200200998675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25840553208817435,0.0,0.0,0.11199409210183298,0.07900551242124018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192779745574864,0.12556013266056446,0.11950879041883004,0.27724112322898725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16040616362015853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314235975292786,0.0,0.11298700210890285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335514837697128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582376858067366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258645714566624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557976741965533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155190149883737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345093161862903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093963778607328,0.0,0.0,0.11219043704902064,0.0,0.0,0.08035795188952878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981117018077984,0.2818434554575757,0.0,0.4323879134279183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407879604885092,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blunt-hammer,2019/08/11,"“what’s your biggest fear?” leaving the toilet unflushed after a huge purge 
but yah i’m gonna say spiders eww spiders amirite.",1.587500000000002,4.257349416666671,1.9916666666666671,91.47,96.5,2.4000000000000004,31.0,3.1291,1.0544500000000006,102,6,17,0,4,31,23,24,0.09699999999999999,0.828,0.076,-0.1154,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6475426721623063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6093198142641036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576219527886071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,captainmycaptainkirk,2019/08/11,"binge eating more like multiple large snacks in the span of two hours yeah so today was a bad day I went out for brunch with my friends and got eggs Benedict so I ate bread, felt like shit, then I came home and binged on chips, popcorn, and grapes, ate a chicken finger leftover from my dad, then stole a few slices of chicken breast, then ate so much fucking popcorn holyyyyyyyyyy fucking shit like why don't I just stop eating???? why can't I just??? not binge???? for once?????????????",3.16,5.145793043478268,2.4906521739130447,97.68858695652176,75.08695652173913,5.034782608695653,23.45652173913044,5.148860815047168,0.0009521739130433636,368,11,79,1,8,106,64,92,0.109,0.726,0.16399999999999998,0.5519,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,4,1,3,15,4,0,0,11,12,9,0,0,3,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,9,1,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,1,8,2,7,4,9,4,3,13,0,0,0,3,2,4,4,0,10,39,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540238430274336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128716402744176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003197065334605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.380894348199414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870433983722608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379581194622199,0.34412978999447275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885712667211398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669348548943307,0.0,0.18329066008106906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27278641937055303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681957873969885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821167281960028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820989088276384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556046123883084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764199504926959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18181214720076416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725350586260144,0.3358886121603336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fig31,2019/08/11,"Got a diagnosis today I’ve been fighting or working with one eating disorder or another since I was nine. Finally got everything under control (for the most part) about two years ago. Then six months ago, I begin putting on crazy weight. No amount of “right” dieting or exercise would help. And then purging and restriction didn’t help. Nothing was working, not even the “tried and true” old friends of mine. Cue immediate and crashing guilt, the lowest self-esteem I’ve ever had. I’m sure most of you know how it is to think about your weight constantly, this 24 hour obsession....

Today I got a diagnosis of hypothyroidism (my doc believes it’s from my lifetime of EDs, surprise surprise...) I should have felt relief at having a cause for the gain, and determination to stay healthy; instead I still feel like a big fat gross fraud, who no one will believe when I tell them why I gained xx lbs in FOUR MONTHS.  Thanks for nothing, diagnosis.",4.977068538398021,7.057620121387288,5.121771263418662,80.35145953757228,70.32947976878613,8.411065235342694,30.854252683732447,9.04235418022936,2.7351027250206443,743,32,134,15,14,233,124,173,0.132,0.685,0.183,0.872,1,0,0,0,2,0,30.0,0,2,1,5,8,12,1,2,8,0,11,6,1,3,3,25,21,12,0,2,4,0,4,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,4,6,5,2,4,1,0,1,4,4,0,6,9,4,13,8,18,9,4,25,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,5,18,82,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22317428660649266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199866165732116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836526921580846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931589028771706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603414290175073,0.1411878042263009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427212471983114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880911140117293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314413127828299,0.11386782853235936,0.0,0.0,0.1131349750639654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364991865647378,0.08993040446939106,0.12086683526170384,0.13789800501042954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972564221420575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30203894024169203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875262487424542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239687969369206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918166935885814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061499777121104736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095624519844546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415750962774594,0.0,0.1320923924621867,0.0,0.1706023304637222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363183610704286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654657075997006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075028731318426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313227865544245,0.0,0.0,0.10413121372597646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417387840720058,0.10052983915213223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11864266268736808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002675722969103,0.11589559175180753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066035251498661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386435730939842,0.0,0.0,0.0854658795787222,0.0,0.12296880346782585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30658167587553004,0.0,0.0,0.11358927709658348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18328775814208198,0.0,0.0,0.08942323801524624,0.0,0.0,0.08106413185439439
EDAnonymous,nursingrunning,2019/08/11,"I'm basically just a miserable loser with zero self control I've been doing so well restricting and losing weight. Then, today, something made me anxious and I ate so much food that I feel physical pain and nausea. I am so tired of this cycle and I feel like I will be suffering with this for the rest of my life. I wish so badly I could just eat normally and not have body image issues. All I know now is that I won't be facing the scale for a few days because I won't be able to hold it together after i see how much my weight increased from binging today. 

I literally was a lazy potato today and stuffed my face. It was a beautiful day outside and I isolated myself and stuffed my face until I couldn't think about anything but that anymore. I'm 25 years old and so tired of this hell I've created for myself",3.6632435129740517,4.712350688622756,5.241092814371257,82.27365518962077,72.05389221556888,8.201397205588822,27.09031936127745,8.59863814320734,1.909112175648703,643,22,129,11,12,218,102,167,0.19899999999999998,0.73,0.071,-0.9663,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,11,9,1,1,6,0,15,13,4,3,1,29,25,18,0,4,4,0,4,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,8,11,5,3,4,0,0,1,4,7,1,1,5,5,21,2,13,12,6,12,1,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,12,91,29,0,0.14426901984842966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629829278848599,0.1430761014475837,0.0,0.0,0.1187211108181107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204586054524539,0.08794505544297299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025035792918174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180997320376805,0.11518707307198335,0.0,0.0,0.18608316544801806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762322410523285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589350246878435,0.10306581660603137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445067146056314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057937445367575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928648034787886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190147526074303,0.07048255578827048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16140013062429653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651083485955096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210865878954707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135300823819194,0.0,0.0,0.15138606766962134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351240884093076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496373024623192,0.0,0.15050405160601812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106533982591803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924417625911712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316320309712113,0.41025048564777933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513615997503039,0.12971517485649722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659022529324575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290451873677344
EDAnonymous,cranberryb,2019/08/11,"Does anyone else HATE learning that other people irl have EDs? Idk why but it stresses me out so much to learn about other people’s eating disorders. I think it stressed me out less when mine was more visible. But for some reason now it feels like it makes my struggles somehow invalid or unimportant, which I know is dumb.

Does anyone else feel this way???",3.320490405117273,6.031535164179102,3.289125799573561,88.52895522388063,77.95522388059702,5.619616204690832,23.004264392324096,6.868970318607317,0.8448950959488277,284,9,51,3,7,86,55,67,0.276,0.684,0.04,-0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,3,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,15,9,5,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,6,1,5,8,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,3,34,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571235300468893,0.3767801507596934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21072371455297612,0.0,0.3218007031320004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18813845346378447,0.3071890353012001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18593400930822068,0.13135225476052606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152732553730044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10104667394747617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982651017517013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273043882548144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516096560286545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25493585999547697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890424927330382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212304645921772,0.19221424678274013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178124265662396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594243662377987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590837938833802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rekkiton,2019/08/11,"Can anyone chat? On anything, number, snapchat, Instagram DM? I’m 18 male and feeling really really fucking awful based on ED thoughts if anyone can dm me thanks",4.3547126436781625,7.293642172413794,5.269655172413792,74.49919540229888,75.55172413793103,8.004597701149425,30.356321839080447,8.841846274778883,3.2840252873563216,129,6,19,3,3,42,24,29,0.113,0.708,0.179,-0.1268,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338257866959295,0.0,0.3141293834396471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19301300191077164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352901120657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.489089096767709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35144359245723034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30304916563889095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frozenmargaritas,2019/08/11,TW for Glow! Bulimia & disordered eating Just a heads up if you watch it. The new season (I’m only 3 eps in) has a character making themselves sick after eating a burger & it’s really jarring & upsetting & in TYPICAL Hollywood fashion the character is already thin & beautiful & when she’s done she just looks perfectly fine with perfect hair & makeup & without a face covered in sick or burst blood vessels or tears streaming down her face. I’m pissed off actually. Please watch with caution bc I wasn’t expecting it and it’s fucked with my head a bit.,5.259564220183485,6.8417026055045875,6.1787958715596325,75.03131307339451,68.81651376146789,9.853669724770645,32.89105504587156,10.125756701596842,3.66218256880734,460,21,79,12,8,152,77,109,0.171,0.6990000000000001,0.131,-0.7055,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,2,3,6,2,1,7,0,4,12,7,1,2,14,9,5,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,6,6,3,12,7,1,11,0,0,4,1,4,7,2,3,4,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.09995284986190632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302946721756248,0.0,0.0,0.8878268843154481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182249495581438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173888924199397,0.0,0.0,0.10481720118855113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961442066988384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946910434690603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023693417494904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601191340488683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06837004705663753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989235196019646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778994708008733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243282018461682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561661923324914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873485974985599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,octopihomie,2019/03/16,"I reached my goal weight. Let me tell you what happened I woke up and weighed myself, saw that my weight puts me at about 16.7 bmi

So lucky me right?

I got to wear my gw outfit 
But now my expensive dress doesnt fit

I felt confident to go out to the mall
Until I started  doing my makeup and relized my skin had become cracked from dehydration 
Don't even get me started on my hair

I treated my self to a maintenance day where I ate nuts and pizza
Then freaked out over popcorn at the movies

... just venting lol",1.9306730769230784,4.025613798076924,2.8756153846153865,92.96938461538464,79.28846153846155,5.6984615384615385,24.823076923076925,6.742157984588678,0.7747453846153851,401,15,86,4,10,127,78,104,0.08800000000000001,0.8420000000000001,0.07,-0.237,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,1,5,8,3,0,0,9,15,7,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,5,0,1,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,6,6,21,2,14,8,0,18,0,0,1,0,3,10,0,1,6,55,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633711745573514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379330227428112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15750706345307808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289684190363347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245906356278532,0.0,0.13552789115226238,0.0,0.1907260953340618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21087806945485485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24385154220966004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397280294353886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036519186554788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24877602491789386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375803242828995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20843312890611568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807839799787652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InAJamBindFam,2019/03/16,"I'm thankful my ED is helping me deal with no money So I was in a car accident. I'm OK, no one else was hurt, but I totaled my car and did at least $1000 in damage to the other car.

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Which means there goes my savings. :\\

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I do have some food stockpiles because my mom likes cooking in bulk but I feel like I need to be punished for the accident because of all the stress and money and waste that has just occurred.

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So I'm not really planning on spending money on food for the next month, or eating. Here's hoping the hungrier I feel the more my emotions surrounding the accident numb. I'm sorry if this doesn't fit mods but I lurk here and I felt this sub would be the only place to understand the need to starve the moment something bad happens.",3.058461538461536,4.781831191082805,4.0766878980891725,87.34507594316516,74.66878980891721,6.61420872121509,27.36354728074473,7.321109707123232,1.4486564429201372,615,24,122,7,13,199,100,157,0.266,0.645,0.08900000000000001,-0.986,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,6,12,1,1,11,1,11,5,0,0,2,25,25,11,0,5,7,1,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,5,1,4,3,4,6,0,1,4,3,14,6,14,18,5,15,0,2,0,0,3,9,0,4,5,79,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.386634252190084,0.4335977081623744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993150516337142,0.1450169158017725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262823893417778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171158772158855,0.09936423024857388,0.13379838851479284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028547629525592,0.08497514029364353,0.11420693973090867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28766026932763233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051836714869362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972708483975698,0.0,0.0,0.11814034741043042,0.0,0.0,0.12733429414810293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622214355040295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295672077365924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930827192590295,0.0949416675560147,0.0,0.0,0.17639409907345988,0.0,0.0,0.1265005605378374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060097722851647,0.09046389311904844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427339129225852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619993779320261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915705434086308,0.0,0.13315045623853786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362523920504246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950961720489816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382711801950368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449591926881365,0.0,0.4335977081623744,0.0
EDAnonymous,cole-ck,2019/03/16,"logging exercise into mfp hello friends :)

so, i was tinkering with myfitnesspal today, and i thought i should hook my fitbit up with the app to log my exercise since i always wear my fitbit, but i don’t always carry my phone. 

i had gone to the gym earlier, and had just gotten back from taking my dog on a walk when i did it. before, mfp had only allotted ~200 extra calories because of the cardio i logged from the gym and no extra calories from my walk, but once i logged my fitbit in, it allotted over 900 extra calories, which is even more than i have my daily goal set to.

so, i guess my thing is, how do you guys log exercise into mfp? i was hoping my fitbit would give a more accurate representation of the exercise i do daily, but instead i think it’s just giving me “free” calories that i didn’t really earn (even though i usually never dip into burned calories anyway.) kind of like its too good to be true kinda thing 

tl;dr: how do you choose to log exercise into mfp, if you choose to do so at all? is a fitbit a reliable way of doing it?",5.598965244865717,5.2835130947867315,7.094040284360192,75.51967022116904,67.34123222748815,9.87693522906793,28.95774091627172,9.516144504307137,2.4826584518167456,817,24,157,15,12,283,113,211,0.013000000000000001,0.861,0.125,0.9732,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,0,2,15,7,0,0,9,0,20,7,1,2,3,31,29,14,0,4,6,0,0,1,1,2,6,0,0,1,9,9,0,0,4,7,1,3,4,0,0,0,10,0,30,8,25,16,8,19,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,6,6,125,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32223437067100097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889091700720114,0.0,0.11803615993419292,0.0,0.16476641672673215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557839811730214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959946341178,0.0,0.0,0.37149857035053796,0.0,0.16240918338691718,0.0,0.0,0.21330727941016933,0.19172594404421756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19232008713632065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016377431293688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459872628074756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493407962120203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621156829555748,0.0,0.147265724104432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404550178999298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017424201632166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14558703047756338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25728075386016425,0.12407145141759107,0.19024227952431996,0.15372203578919305,0.0,0.0,0.1835403241000547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325809306840995,0.0,0.0,0.153695925490096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755048899582842,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vaskebj00rn,2019/03/16,"I hate how recovery is a long long road and not a destination I’ve been so good and I’m just doing so well overall but this week has decided to kick my ass so brutally I want to relapse, I haven’t done that yet. Just had a big big cry instead...",-1.0006349206349192,1.0521724814814846,2.0593121693121685,94.03833333333333,92.70370370370372,6.048677248677249,20.67724867724868,7.447530270364453,0.7439026455026454,190,7,46,4,7,67,41,54,0.295,0.608,0.098,-0.9461,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,9,4,2,0,3,0,7,1,1,1,0,9,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,4,2,2,7,0,7,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689386570088124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34371277049985977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28171276243531684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331603198067114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944707487087006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981054902976501,0.0,0.26941555520764404,0.0,0.3019884758204709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blacksunglass,2019/03/16,"Does anyone else get really annoyed by the double standard when it comes to calling someone anorexic vs calling someone overweight? So my friends are constantly calling me anorexic, saying I need to eat, saying I look like I’m dying and that I need help. We have an overweight friend and they say nothing to her. They don’t tell her to stop eating, or tell her she looks fat, but I get criticised constantly for my weight? 

I’ve fallen out with them because I bought this up and they can’t seem to see how hypocritical they’re being...",8.487352941176471,7.363509500000003,7.983647058823529,74.1584117647059,61.84313725490196,10.12078431372549,38.047058823529404,8.841846274778883,3.3367623529411765,427,18,76,5,5,135,73,102,0.171,0.755,0.07400000000000001,-0.8877,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,4,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,5,6,1,1,0,16,16,8,1,2,3,0,1,1,2,0,3,3,0,0,3,7,6,1,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,7,17,3,10,14,1,8,0,0,3,0,20,2,0,2,5,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966586407032484,0.14604699648905747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868898246325994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366416177903404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278384154942505,0.0,0.3080658199931232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479319109069082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473593968720065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29170385963358914,0.11907218538357968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024896689671208,0.0,0.14894041447751993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955401979402762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963685316079431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23939199444859866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138020002671928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367690282328295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131347464204492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400557487425543,0.0,0.0,0.11358430908809793,0.12976121619421802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415439219418541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916812687043167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24916893997435435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735728497250773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashy_panda,2019/03/16,"Being Skinny Won't Make You Pretty If You're Ugly On The Inside: An Autobiography Alt title: why trashy_panda will die alone


Pure shitpost, fam. Just need to throw my bullshit out into the Universe. The other night I was on a date and I had an epiphany. I've put back on a bit of weight (ayyyy, recoverayy!), and I think I am the most repulsive human to walk this earth. Hawt. Yet this guy was hot, fit, and he seemed to like me. He kept telling me how hot he thought I was! SCORE. And my response to this... was to get drunk and tell him all about how fat I've gotten, how I USED to be sewhawt, why I am a terrible, boring as FUCK person, and how no one sane could POSSIBLY find me attractive. I'm ugly and not that fun hahaha^^^lovemeplz. Hot, amiright? To the surprise of literally no one, there was no second date... 


ANYWHO, I'll get to the point. When I was obese, no one wanted to date me. When I lost a bit of weight, guys showed me more interest, but no body wanted to date me. So I lost more weight. Lather, rinse, repeat. At my lowest weight, yeah some guys were keen to fuck me. But no one wanted to date me. Say what? 


I spent a lot of time, looking around me and seeing women who (in my fucked mind) were much, much larger than me, and they were all in happy relationships. How??? I always thought once I was skinny enough, someone would finally love me. Nearly starved to death waiting to be skinny enough to be loved. 


Well, turns out hating yourself is unattractive as fuck, and being a negative hoe doesn't inspire positive attention. Whoda thunk it. 


TL;DR
It's really hard to find someone to love you, if you can't even fathom the thought of loving yourself, so guess I'm gonna die alone. ",1.9166228991596623,4.18216279464286,3.1897128851540617,89.79548319327732,80.27976190476191,5.8577030812324935,20.596638655462183,7.048011613610866,0.4509901260504208,1313,36,271,16,34,425,187,336,0.248,0.64,0.111,-0.9942,2,2,0,0,0,0,71.0,0,3,1,2,17,22,5,0,15,1,25,19,5,7,3,52,60,25,3,8,6,0,8,1,0,4,2,1,0,6,9,14,10,2,9,2,1,3,11,9,1,5,19,11,33,13,37,31,13,29,0,2,2,8,23,13,4,7,14,172,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740612574348647,0.0,0.0,0.06992040720339125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480528109622556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06461454452764692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18347987092885654,0.09333934220754682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06709180416372537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17442153211458725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736526827665999,0.0,0.055501590604629183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920516998808676,0.15360536763028296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107407045547868,0.08780531234839041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256946616060538,0.24961128853718606,0.0,0.08945241316020064,0.07527514533710086,0.08296307741967532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04105323369880525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056475879968747,0.0,0.18345922055134148,0.07144003231398167,0.3033645282192399,0.0,0.05609125164980694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484721422988281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354470182644173,0.06230781803824206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885726982923613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949012357217716,0.2277659422503669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337250584768883,0.0,0.0,0.07943632400100599,0.09473216893240817,0.0,0.08548959439587081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447422391403496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383232073502612,0.0,0.0,0.09021769611246416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06682471273036601,0.0,0.0,0.06696171601470778,0.07649853908765658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239815020228008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468933511345082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05384358215648565,0.0,0.2001333498248443,0.04899907030244632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914014457569321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07257568311716549,0.0,0.0,0.1486907354147436,0.0,0.0,0.4093077983910394,0.0755538349611235,0.0,0.1516495622135881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059693112076075826,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Melancholy-Mood,2019/03/16,"I keep binging because i’m suicidal and think it’s gonna be my last meal and i let myself go but i never do anything and it just makes me feel worse I’m so fucking fat for an underweight person, i’m never eating again i can’t look at myself my body’s so disgusting i don’t deserve food anyway i’m just a waste of resources ",-1.7178525641025608,0.008178902777778774,1.483888888888888,94.28846153846158,107.19444444444444,3.882051282051282,18.03846153846154,5.8734145424116955,-0.06480256410256402,259,9,56,3,13,91,50,72,0.239,0.7609999999999999,0.0,-0.9562,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,2,0,5,6,2,1,2,12,17,6,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,4,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,2,10,0,3,14,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,4,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20792744076593456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540264421404493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806615148428748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25854642846834475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775850218917129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055318587126997,0.0,0.0,0.2335910956758306,0.0,0.0,0.14359926090767944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22458639008770476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059613183131408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25837413195756376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121807549833051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16866045212170847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897522847199299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22062335293986066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763820431165786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190194804462846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25749424764338125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uggggggggggghhhhhhhh,2019/03/16,"A subscriber to my youtube channel went through my reddit history and commented on a video to ask if i have an eating disorder. Posting from an alternative account which i just made purely to post here because people are snoops :)

So i have a youtube channel where i make ASMR videos as a sort of hobby, i have around 250 subscribers which is a nice little community and i feel like it’s a very rewarding hobby. I started to link my videos in r/asmr to perhaps get more people interested in my channel, not really considering that my reddit account is years old and piecing together bits from posts and comments you can probably decipher my life story. 

Last night someone commented on my most recent video ‘do you have an eating disorder’ and i don’t know what to do. i’ve cleansed my old reddit account of pretty much everything except ASMR but now i’m worried in case there’s some way of people starting a small scale eugenia cooney witch-hunt on me which i’m sure wouldn’t happen but people are weird. i’ve already had subscribers find my personal facebook and message me there which to me is an overstep as it is but wtf should i say back lol help i’m trying so hard to recover but she must think she doesn’t look like she has an ED ",4.3384123170998015,6.117924522821577,5.122817208997599,80.92650141952393,71.40663900414938,8.061236077746234,30.526534177768067,8.6894789155246,2.5357170124481327,994,43,182,18,19,322,140,241,0.059000000000000004,0.8340000000000001,0.107,0.8532,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,10,7,0,0,12,1,20,3,0,2,3,30,35,15,0,4,8,0,2,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,8,7,2,0,5,7,3,1,4,1,0,0,3,4,26,6,24,29,6,25,0,0,1,0,13,10,0,4,12,116,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304516835707096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539434319211443,0.12118251866000555,0.0,0.0,0.09967415157272448,0.0,0.07901861532476202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151767685742733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29712453385520765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652788766762803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649920867901598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554264189098437,0.0926046163084794,0.0,0.0,0.11847552905842987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772407107318662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462756644243514,0.0,0.11611915398983765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688536524289286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123888727463347,0.10566223537596717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155845583468547,0.12665712551744002,0.12991899172405866,0.0,0.0,0.10885292956423062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226549587477788,0.08652615227295317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952897944717916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164492565922842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720407051075438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35946451838523164,0.11318414952231005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724367273422863,0.1318759244067534,0.139758414165055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304153400259086,0.0,0.12798972722132254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308354866821556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098314234875141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18349945611428775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217067543290748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305890582866632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800733225377726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695476683077754,0.0,0.1028908363340194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016431001392233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13164117678213447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347469213608671
EDAnonymous,chknsoup4thesoil,2019/03/16,hello there. Zoloft? any experience? my psychiatrist put me on zoloft (25 mg) because the wellbutrin made me happy but really anxious. i’m worried it’ll increase my appetite or make me super foggy. halp.,2.336428571428573,4.905443277777781,4.11571428571429,74.71500000000002,102.33333333333334,5.390476190476191,27.365079365079364,6.868970318607317,2.390441269841271,162,8,23,3,7,54,32,36,0.133,0.628,0.239,0.7073,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24052480083852645,0.0,0.0,0.3995747945313991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560925377106796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34598168249028954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765150173279659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33467486133792684,0.2360942297783729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35556127282780176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265861418188209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35919454896657577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkietim,2019/03/16,Adderall What’s the most adderall someone Hs taken in a day? And what’s ur weight. I’m not okay.,-1.7592857142857137,-0.15701561904761618,0.5051190476190471,100.79196428571431,109.95238095238096,2.1,19.535714285714285,3.1291,-0.7914857142857143,76,3,17,0,4,25,18,21,0.094,0.9059999999999999,0.0,-0.1695,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39868253981035934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237918673296228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7527910149368867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PrioritizeApocalypse,2019/03/16,"my boyfriend is skinnier than me  and it makes me want to end things with him and be alone, why? why do i take it as such a personal affront? ",-0.7240000000000002,1.4216889333333356,0.7083333333333357,103.34250000000002,93.0,4.333333333333334,20.833333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.1896666666666662,108,4,27,1,4,34,26,30,0.08,0.877,0.044000000000000004,-0.264,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738082107471913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31967136139498425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409194409690043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151447430997207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271369782162441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978173708399514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128822100877084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6513551877892109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alf_Casperi,2019/03/16,"Who needs amusement parks when you have an ED?! So Thursday something from my ex triggered me into the worst relapse of 9months...

 Thursday night I binged

 Today I fasted all day because I needed the boost. 
 Then I decided I should probably eat dinner because I wouldn't want to actually relapse... 
 Felt like a gross failure for breaking my fast and decided if I'm gonna fail I might as well fail the right way! So 15min later I purged it all up.
  Of course after purging, my face felt fat and gross so I decided to do 30min of sprints because what are the 3 horseman without their 4th? 
 At the end of my 3 mile ""cool down"" walk I felt like shit because of guilt, but told myself I couldn't eat anything tonight because it was coming straight back up if I did.
  
 After plenty of convincing myself 10 steps back 1 step forward was better than only 10 back, and a vow to not purge again tonight, here I am eating a burrito feeling like the fucking epitome of recovery! 

  Boy what a ride!",3.924624781849914,5.579698984293195,4.5739057591623045,84.94941012216408,72.24607329842931,6.978150087260035,31.05794066317626,7.554174236665415,2.0429138568935428,770,35,146,9,15,246,126,191,0.095,0.7659999999999999,0.139,0.8525,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,3,10,16,2,1,11,1,11,8,3,1,2,27,23,12,0,8,5,1,4,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,7,1,0,6,4,8,1,0,7,5,22,8,22,11,3,35,0,2,0,1,6,9,2,3,23,92,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.13366167199422305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271355170493168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159613769870452,0.0,0.4174741747932024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113766526293206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798638826934428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833346632965877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204594563268425,0.0,0.0,0.121313594464308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925547916714897,0.09785045110328247,0.3945342320063492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662533595028466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074793290070175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530212263337036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20312107878433575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853582601681654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417085184759832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767540125618786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697050283400078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059637992198815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544518019439496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983029164565502,0.1308794417233998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807876751628558,0.10871936142081863,0.0,0.0,0.12315129101598415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203291808601533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LMichaelM,2019/03/16,"WHAT Gives Me Any Right… HUH? 😶  – To claim **victory** over appetite, over my tendency towards binges – To declare, suddenly, after 2yrs of frustrating, futile wrestling with what I've called *the Food Demon* (amply confessed all over Reddit) – is this finally a peaceful settlement in the war?

It was *only 1½wks ago* that I agonizingly disclosed I'd caved 96hrs into an attempted 400hr fast with a 2500Cals binge… Then 3days ago I claimed *""victory.""* What gives?

Now. There are testimonies on here from BED sufferers who relapse into catastrophic binge- eating episodes a full year, 3yrs, 5yrs after going binge-free! *So what gives ME any ballsy right? Huh? Claiming victory barely a week in?*

All I can say is, not to be blasphemous, but *I've had a breakthrough, like coming to Jesus.* No, ***really.*** This past week I've fasted 96hrs, 68hrs, 46hrs, and I'm now *[58hrs into my latest fast,](http://imgur.com/iHkvfL0) and counting,*  each time ended by a moderate, satisfying 1500Cals Max meal. Each time a cave, but not a binge, just a healthy meal. Relax and remount the fasting horse.

I feel I could live like this forever. Most anyone could, just white-knuckling food's allure into submission. But there's been no battle, no stress. I'm feeling no *hatred* for food, not anymore. We're buds, me and food, and it has its place in my life… serving me… without terror or resentment.

**tl;dr:** This may be the start of my long-sought ""healthy relationship with food!"" I'm claiming victory but taking no credit, just grateful to be here and saying *you can be here too…*",1.943858650374892,4.499268050541517,2.5900270758122765,85.98124166898087,101.34657039711193,5.307664537628437,23.016453762843646,6.844919456158928,1.450390780338795,1218,49,203,22,52,378,172,277,0.139,0.752,0.109,-0.7045,0,0,0,0,0,0,95.0,0,1,0,1,11,11,4,2,14,2,16,8,0,0,2,37,28,13,1,2,12,0,2,2,1,1,0,2,1,0,13,16,8,0,3,1,1,2,9,7,0,0,3,4,13,4,28,18,6,38,3,1,0,0,11,15,0,3,23,121,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978710608821343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179725393102614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068712905434068,0.07804030674869906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396628828891167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614213198954068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782230057083473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142048930089136,0.0,0.0,0.09885333200036203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286673855778885,0.0,0.0,0.12226329905584092,0.0,0.0,0.6747962724105186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211994447516961,0.06343053479900809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883344338359488,0.1090540162848114,0.0,0.09855367439464252,0.0987713374419019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488443399870456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654437350733563,0.0,0.0,0.11660869455464205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150022365056201,0.0,0.0,0.11982737064282906,0.0,0.19062865958193545,0.0,0.17751350268267085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899813213661683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784887739630746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391682962748695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016137656554713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905361885888935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075880567562732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187318043409212
EDAnonymous,itspellsyoudidit,2019/03/16,"Broken Heart The guy I love got a girlfriend three days ago. Told me a while back he doesn't date because he has ""commitment issues"". I'm a healthy BMI and she looks to be as well, but I can't help thinking that it's because I'm lacking somehow. I've been crying the last three days and have slept a grand total of three hours a night since I found out. It hurts so fucking bad and I've got a constant lump in my throat and no appetite. I don't want food. I feel on the brink of nausea every time I look at his social media (because *of course* I keep looking to torture myself on purpose). My chest aches so badly that I feel like I can't breathe. I'm supposed to go home in three weeks to visit family and he said he wanted to hang out. I don't know what to do. At least I'll see the scale going down until then.",1.1024071428571425,2.7959334514285743,2.633339285714289,95.66372321428574,80.2,4.832142857142856,20.651785714285715,5.148860815047168,-0.2745928571428577,634,17,145,2,16,207,112,175,0.19899999999999998,0.718,0.083,-0.9757,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,10,0,10,9,5,0,2,20,34,12,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,5,7,1,1,5,0,0,4,6,5,1,4,7,7,16,4,20,26,3,28,0,1,4,2,14,10,1,1,15,82,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943542385106865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227820174688072,0.2438364997645508,0.2670321610930252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779270284619518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603930206906052,0.1883380085529132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230257755771212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765200631231267,0.0,0.14766135157699742,0.1043147057538754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656455904808416,0.16010030604065456,0.0,0.13499053414375586,0.0,0.0,0.16596986179196985,0.0,0.2335665626727188,0.0,0.0,0.14457996940449147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173031066630496,0.09787224083342448,0.0,0.1464671415269389,0.0,0.1437975137711995,0.0,0.15631441596372844,0.0,0.0,0.1524040041207863,0.0,0.1297867826324599,0.0,0.0,0.08024722589997321,0.11902349398894373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133662071430467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678529787364494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178620986670106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702723614041426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889578002030015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635679110606105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078692388530628,0.0,0.0,0.14884613117938789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935619158865067,0.0,0.0,0.0851437944977496,0.0,0.0,0.13952567718055153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224943713867594,0.0,0.11712617775306312,0.0,0.13128698478847708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InTheGecko,2019/03/16,"I'm going to dedicate this year to becoming perfect. I'm going to get laser hair removal on my pussy, legs and armpits, microblade my brows and get tattooed eyeliner, eyelash extensions and ombred hair. I'm going to get to 50kg and tone the fuck out of my body at the gym. I'm going to deal with my acne and get microdermabrasion for the scars. I'm going to figure out how tf to manicure my nails and maybe look into getting some subtle lip fillers.

I'm going to spend all my money and time in the pursuit of beauty and fuck me I'll get there. As long as I'm stuck in this shitty town doing my degree I might as well. Then when I go off hitchhiking again I'll be beautiful without having to constantly put in effort which is difficult on the road. 

Nothing matters.",4.7953548387096765,5.354528954838713,6.1375806451612895,78.66637096774197,69.12903225806451,9.038709677419355,29.69354838709677,9.120678840339163,2.4624064516129027,608,22,117,11,10,206,93,155,0.099,0.818,0.083,-0.1714,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,2,0,5,0,5,8,6,1,2,20,29,14,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,12,0,0,1,1,2,9,1,3,1,0,1,3,10,2,28,26,2,28,0,0,1,2,1,12,2,2,7,67,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17081742325317448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180004241425814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671399565910303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945476734355826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28597408638065397,0.4848423835720256,0.0,0.6153052865080136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687532640694486,0.1298812298010604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538367492560645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16407712349747344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840704783375705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554829390062848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901875046162353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13906410463037724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909335812796745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960040317980097
EDAnonymous,bullymeahhh,2019/03/16,"What does recovery mean? I think it's time for me to stop fighting and go into recovery. Truthfully, I have no idea what it means to be in recovery though. Any one care to explain?",1.5175000000000018,3.941136861111115,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,83.16666666666667,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.3073,141,6,29,4,4,47,29,36,0.17600000000000002,0.677,0.147,0.1431,0,0,0,0,2,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,9,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,6,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20065856946721855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008448064065544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25821884066714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769579216621275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330995267852717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6428381920432698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999479165431885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24669277869812714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890697435278028,0.2899060064732021,0.0,0.17205841966939778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,summer__wine,2019/04/30,"Favourite Drink while restricting? Hi all! Just wanted to know what your favourite drink is while you're restricting? I work a desk job that requires a ton of brain power so I need something that will give me some energy and will keep me feeling full while not overdosing myself on caffeine. 

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Any suggestions are helpful! <3",4.131059322033899,7.493788101694918,2.8862500000000004,87.50530720338983,83.23728813559322,6.339830508474578,27.71398305084745,7.645422480735847,2.141828813559322,274,12,45,5,8,78,49,59,0.084,0.7959999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.2833,2,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,1,13,10,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,3,8,4,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,29,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27613191985782115,0.3096729452256699,0.1733080266521936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28449899744585705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4993156645072218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886077466860804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444771583592701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708218519965426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529011797560456,0.2265240724556709,0.0,0.0,0.14005993557610374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889694496265109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619743835901413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031824962232834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18553521355568087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096729452256699,0.0
EDAnonymous,galacticmarble,2019/04/30,"What have you done this week that you're proud of? A lot of us are having an extra tough time right now with the approach of summer, so I wanted to spend some time trying to focus on conscious positive thoughts when a lot of my negative thoughts are intrusive. So, what are you most proud of right now? Small or large victories, ED related or not 💕 I haven't been hyping myself up at all lately so I wanna hype all of you lovely people up",4.297453183520602,5.063294494382023,5.177022471910113,84.36568352059928,70.34831460674158,8.18052434456929,24.94569288389513,8.344100000000001,1.4318749063670406,346,9,70,5,6,113,62,89,0.055,0.797,0.14800000000000002,0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,3,0,2,6,4,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,0,2,15,12,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,9,3,14,8,7,16,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,6,8,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25422477865846266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28023394763460513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224036909809794,0.2242130432369489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222644759678493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243067719089069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944430170601368,0.2897169483270109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686641036464614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988243961294283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465273587265995,0.0,0.19927135610993565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,racello4,2019/04/30,"Uhhhh I need help getting help I live in a super small town that doesn’t have a treatment center or really any good eating disorder therapists nearby. I want to get help now. I’m struggling so hard and school is getting very difficult and I’m going to university soon. 

I don’t know where to start. I know I can’t do this alone because 50% of me wants to recover and 50% of me wants to starve myself to death:( 

Money is also really tight right now so going to a super expensive treatment center far away is not really an option at the moment. 

Any thoughts? Are there any alternative ways for me to get professional help and kick my eating disorded out of my life? Thanks!",4.886060606060603,5.879462757575759,6.399696969696972,75.30287878787881,69.15151515151516,9.806060606060607,26.78787878787879,9.994966539143718,2.6025696969696965,532,16,99,13,9,182,83,132,0.106,0.711,0.184,0.9066,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,0,1,5,0,9,3,0,0,0,16,26,8,1,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,1,3,0,2,2,4,2,0,0,1,2,12,4,16,25,0,19,0,0,0,0,4,11,0,2,5,58,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907157513831204,0.0,0.11510347313827828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936389052016223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352301498628949,0.0,0.0,0.08774045338631342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299202498741263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29455956444854164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007970046909299,0.0,0.16360131524028146,0.12072449148136945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893603837564066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859020463831352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820404451592784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166440392898964,0.0,0.0,0.12709581279596982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672477856673936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766222293317904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229183213136972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566826625682402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187678820641256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047042157181106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325145195730601,0.0,0.16711774951974248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426702735102935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876011361362235,0.2546869126812367,0.11424761864201928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,demon_floof,2019/04/30,"Medication triggering a relapse So I recently started using a new inhaler and I noticed a side effect that I simultaneously love and fear - reduced appetite. I have been in some semblance of recovery for a few years, with the exception of some purging. But now, on this medication, I just don't care much about food. I know this is a slippery slope. I know that this is how I got myself into serious restricting last time. But my ED brain is trying to outsmart my rational brain. ""Oh, just lose ten pounds - you'll be better at cycling!"" or ""Don't you want to look great for your brother's graduation"" or ""Summer is coming!"". On and on. I know what to do and I don't know what to do. I should call my doctor and ask if there's something else we can use because this is a bad situation for me to be in. But I just don't want to. I know that if I want off this ride for good, I have to actively make a change. I'm working on every other part of my life in therapy right now and doing stuff that makes me extremely uncomfortable but I can't let the eating disorder go. When it comes to confronting my flawed behavior and thoughts around food, I have so little strength. I'm now in the back half of my twenties and feel so over this shit yet I have such a hard time stopping.",3.2396484375000014,4.69508054296875,4.705125000000002,84.12737500000003,73.6484375,7.932500000000001,27.64375,8.548686976883017,1.919613125,993,38,206,18,20,332,145,256,0.131,0.809,0.061,-0.9036,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,3,0,5,17,12,2,1,11,0,24,11,3,7,0,48,49,21,0,6,12,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,15,14,3,2,8,0,0,4,5,6,0,2,3,4,31,6,32,41,5,35,0,1,1,1,8,16,1,6,15,150,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462524756602867,0.1098732456440238,0.0,0.0,0.0903721317332547,0.09813135557592732,0.07164425882570448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394437270207367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624012624301036,0.12000969891591788,0.0,0.11982809861639772,0.0,0.12432952777697312,0.2024807245446073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469779823083353,0.12029535970546808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026095638018447,0.0981799480507047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902279715973723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225219322340284,0.059425921100475676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28423176255868005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679413270007538,0.09857729679388658,0.09399824650704668,0.12957554291092355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052824159076698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32295284202225405,0.09580138184231207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018081393424067,0.08301382757141845,0.0,0.1177943935261061,0.0,0.0,0.09869430674764113,0.1314842849857292,0.0,0.0,0.10607402446246188,0.0,0.15690232037496016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367951192093469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639694166402151,0.0,0.0,0.11350971977793348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380693156012438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727186994909873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160451762712961,0.0,0.0,0.10036866333304513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064127605111942,0.0,0.13210691415503792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047915102188604,0.0,0.0,0.08318724944872746,0.0,0.0,0.09825905577989176,0.0,0.0,0.13454196914385433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440403759750225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933044697949785,0.13706358122775267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07979411009210034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030137097844612,0.0,0.0,0.2079639936588296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556211919782722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568447541398128
EDAnonymous,throwawayignorename,2019/04/30,"Mental and physical hunger, fullness and appetite in Anorexia Recovery? \*Just a little warning of numbers and possible triggering info\*

Hey,

I've got a couple concerns and questions about appetite and hunger in anorexia recovery and would really appreciate any advice.

Just some context: I'm a guy in my late teens currently recovering from anorexia - started just over 3 weeks ago. Right now, I'm on the taller bit of 5'10 (nearly 5'11), I'm a guy in my late teens, and a few days before deciding to recover, I was about 47kg. So yeah... that's a preeeetty low BMI. Since being in recovery, I've gone a tad bit crazy on the eating side of things and eaten a lot of food - and I mean A LOT. I was terrified of being admitted to a hospital and agreed to being treated by my family. So back in late 2017, I was quite chubby + overweight. I was around 75kg-ish (didn't really pay attention to weight but recall once being weighed a little while before deciding to lose weight) and quite a bit shorter than I am now. Anyway, at the beginning of 2018, I decided I wanted to lose weight was still eating pretty normally, maybe just a little less and being mindful to not snack on a whole family size bag of crisps on the way home from school, etc. as well as going to the school's gym every now and then but not really enjoying it. I really just wanted to be lean and muscly. Nearly a year ago exactly, I kinda started restricting my food intake quite a bit more than usual - eating a tiny breakfast and having some tiny snacks throughout the day, then eating dinner with my family. At that point, I didn't really think anything was wrong. I got to a lower weight that I was happy with but was terrified of gaining weight again, so further kept restricting. It got progressively worse and worse and by the beginning of October I was at 52kg. My parents intervened at that point and I agreed to eat more, but was terrified of the sharp weight gain and went back to restricting (my parents still under the impression I was eating lots). To cut a long story short, since then my restricting, walking quite a bit and doing body-weight exercises in my room to try look toned, and calorie counting (plus some binge-restrict cycles) got to a terrible point and I had all the telltale signs of anorexia (bad hair, skin, bony as hell, constantly cold, irritable, anxiety around food, etc. etc.) and was at 47kg at 5'10-ish. I knew I couldn't really go on like this.

Like I said, since starting recovery just over 3 weeks ago, I started eating a bunch. In hindsight, it was SUPER dangerous to instantly hit my system with that much food and I probably could've died from refeeding syndrome, but I'm here now I guess. I was just so desperate to eat and although I was aware of refeeding syndrome, didn't think it really applied to me and didn't care at that point (pretty stupid and very dangerous, I know), though my parents were worried sick for the first couple of days. Since then I ate all the meals my family made me, plus quite a bit after. My eating is now a more structured and don't eat AS much outside of meals as I initially did - trying just eating what I'm given right now.

Anyway, I was a little bit scared of my desire to just continue eating, despite often physical fullness. I've tried now only sticking to what I'm given on my plate and no more. I sometimes find it hard to understand my fullness and often I will be physically full but not satisfied and want to keep eating until I'm really uncomfortably full - but I don't want to feel so bloated and uncomfortable after.  I also don't want to keep gaining weight this fast. I don't know how much I weigh right now but I have 100% gained a bunch and can see my face is puffier, my belly has a bunch of fat, etc. etc.  About 2 weeks after starting recovery I was around 55kg when I saw the doctor. That of course is pretty distressing but I guess it may be water weight...? Anyway, I may really have gotten to 55 or even more after just over 3 weeks of gluttony, but I can't do anything about that now. I'm terrified of the lack of definition on my body but trying quite hard working on the whole body image and self acceptance thing, trying to stop looking at myself and comparing myself to others.

I'm not sure if the ""extreme hunger"" is over and I'm simply emotionally eating, or not. I'm not sure if eating has turned into my new coping mechanism as I'm still a bit depressed and am struggling with the things that come with recovery and don't have much else to do. I feel as though I have the ability to just keep eating to infinity a lot of the time, and it's not always physical hunger. Sometimes it is, sometimes it's more mental or just a desire. I really don't want to get into any overeating habits or anything... I'm pretty worried and don't know what to do. There's no going back to restriction but should I just stick to the meal I'm given (no seconds, etc) and my appetite will normalise, or keep eating despite often feeling a little physically not great? I honestly can't recall how I felt after eating pre-ED. I don't know how a normal person feels while eating or about their appetite or fullness/satisfaction and if they even feel like eating more.

Any experience or knowledge and advice would be super appreciated! Thanks!",5.819365234374999,6.380436737304687,6.5753906250000025,76.418046875,66.880859375,9.6421875,30.0625,9.634799436359627,2.74959453125,4185,144,765,83,64,1382,375,1024,0.175,0.741,0.085,-0.9982,5,0,0,0,0,0,135.0,0,0,2,17,60,32,5,3,52,1,70,58,6,5,5,178,147,95,1,18,44,3,19,3,0,7,5,1,2,4,27,56,50,11,25,2,1,7,26,15,1,2,42,25,75,17,125,87,47,129,1,4,4,0,13,60,1,27,63,526,102,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751561579260426,0.07826145151831855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023534466805613996,0.02448739594366774,0.0,0.0,0.06003845825748801,0.0,0.022513205981522608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265300611764468,0.07859450238406766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678875595346146,0.024572096567470874,0.0,0.0,0.050084048777357164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570319268340901,0.06537826426293583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030004962159320744,0.0,0.0,0.025350592006812517,0.0,0.031802437581927835,0.0,0.02349676780847574,0.0651255512124695,0.0,0.0569380679835383,0.0,0.025347268890833212,0.0,0.030542793504954726,0.0,0.0,0.0301219643604569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6022669953201389,0.024584264125696014,0.0331038132596752,0.0,0.0,0.1969275733520092,0.03887532922070814,0.0,0.024795313586670087,0.0,0.0,0.028787338810290237,0.11097266881958394,0.0,0.07440126875461202,0.021024178297068725,0.0282565825177557,0.0,0.026897694154539683,0.02503240525975521,0.14234329641417146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015375507204770466,0.0,0.05017576296223115,0.0,0.0941486633620166,0.0324457227203609,0.06483901512686709,0.05827893647357276,0.0,0.0313278590154456,0.0527254448969319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02951981962533562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463186140239356,0.0,0.0,0.06469392682358246,0.0,0.09959203066083187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043132763175690265,0.1474786114918495,0.0,0.026043856378484116,0.0494261191406091,0.06584734367139955,0.0,0.10007838497920184,0.0,0.027846556948552342,0.0,0.0,0.029565519363891936,0.03205695298053223,0.0,0.0,0.05931528795649142,0.0,0.02971503474687385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653519484136292,0.0,0.0,0.028422839767783186,0.0,0.0,0.057668603342785965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031341065886317805,0.0,0.022382181562860152,0.0,0.0,0.09803270755536887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025696383558594174,0.0,0.0,0.1112801710358326,0.0331769253360096,0.0,0.11976003177130885,0.0317295825527074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032967363822460564,0.1878090309226408,0.0,0.0,0.188530559979514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07539695564052393,0.02799384442254192,0.0,0.02946369580878938,0.059567706922867676,0.023451208577058416,0.0,0.030701003684775432,0.0,0.0,0.09737633080079144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731849429015108,0.0,0.10415045805898636,0.0,0.07050643022169806,0.024604072705220973,0.0,0.030765719271166562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05547321862267833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027094391482066767,0.0,0.0,0.058654224333737126,0.03771399990437465,0.05782794695969005,0.0,0.017160363953221076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999022466973581,0.03201044561372507,0.0,0.03063676503807972,0.0,0.0,0.03241203197711931,0.024282116564050608,0.10414838977308956,0.023359475741630668,0.0944251005278066,0.3225307986118095,0.0264603246141539,0.02728110087148664,0.0,0.06571315141918005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02142475912115307,0.05977342560729593,0.0599816008904514,0.04181122304578646,0.032176136769242816,0.0,0.01895139660117906
EDAnonymous,shlxueqi,2019/04/30,"just a rant I really really really really hate myself for eating so much! I’ve gained so so much since my lw and it’s all because I don’t restrict anymore and I just eat everything in sight!

I’m really just fat and ugly huh?

plus, I lack brain cells to complete even mundane tasks and I’m behind in school. I have exams soon but spend no time revising or even completing my homework. I can’t do anything at all. I just want to disappear. 

I saw my ex classmate recently and she’s still so pretty and skinny and smart.... I’m jealous. all I am is gross, fat, ugly, dumb, stupid, worthless and useless. I really wish I could just be gone. just like poof! gone. I just eat eat eat eat eat eat. I’m pretty sure I don’t have an ed. I don’t exhibit ed behaviour 🤪 I’m tired of this. I’m tired of being worthless I’m tired of being fat and ugly I’m tired of being useless. I want all of this to end. I want to be gone.

I wanna go back to when this first started. I was actually losing a lil bit of weight then. (although I just got dumber and dumber) I used to restrict to 700 cals and that made me drop from 60 to 46.8. now I’m 51. I’m a useless prick. my lowest weight this year was 47.1. just utterly useless. 

all I wanna be is skinny and pretty and smart. that’s all. I want to be worth something. I want to mean something. but I guess it’s just impossible. I guess I’ll just be gone soon. hah who am I kidding? I’m too pussy to actually do it 🤪",-1.4811707595659631,0.4376533786407784,1.589769655434992,94.45616790405485,102.59223300970874,4.624176660955643,16.414810584427947,6.42735559955562,-0.09986114601180283,1110,32,250,17,51,388,138,309,0.27899999999999997,0.597,0.12300000000000001,-0.9957,1,0,2,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,3,24,17,5,0,4,2,23,21,7,2,7,52,54,24,0,10,14,1,2,1,0,0,7,0,1,1,10,14,15,2,1,0,2,6,5,13,0,1,9,4,33,4,26,36,10,23,0,7,2,0,5,3,2,3,14,149,43,3,0.0,0.0,0.15091007493025935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668256494363747,0.0,0.0,0.06362934968441092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945578160736529,0.0,0.04713472311061118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844155074917073,0.0,0.0,0.08631683160130826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214111835815762,0.0,0.0,0.061735259223189086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6329569986940593,0.0,0.0,0.06848426836774524,0.0,0.0,0.10214079427390503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949195352414594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576998335632618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043943827486452,0.0,0.06184140075719535,0.0,0.17035761851421588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633938532877232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03777558311237365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650344727937237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316386771596978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422623563760381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368101198015955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359925628785472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972064009832846,0.0,0.07634606514914735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825390832878025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396148901404843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190523790908332,0.0,0.0,0.05472885103938482,0.0,0.061749383037385364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287499198890555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04508703178461111,0.35548067769594344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678131056968516,0.0,0.0,0.22803235082969325,0.0,0.0,0.18831452925367684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891638894319198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049792779643216434
EDAnonymous,ijustneededaname,2019/04/30,"Rant incoming This isn't even ED related, but I feel safe on this sub, so sorry for the shitpost. 

I've been crying today and even scratched myself with a scissor (I've been 99% self harm free for years now), I completely feel like shit. I've been getting worse with my depression, I got my period and my only friend cancelled an outing I'd been looking forward to for a year. She also doesn't live in the same town anymore, and I feel pretty alone. I had to quit school, too. Everything is really hard right now. 

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When I'm sad and have no one else to go/talk to, I tend to gravitate towards my mom and follow her around like a lost puppy. My mom gets uncomfortable and kinda frustrated when I'm sad around her, so she naturally tends to avoid me at those times. My relationship with her is becoming more and more strained. My mom has BPD and had been manic for a while, but then she needed surgery for carpal tunnel, now she can't drive and there's a lot she's not allowed to do for a while. It really sucks for her, because she always has to keep herself super busy. She's had a rough week too.

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Another thing is that she's hard of hearing. I'm very sensitive, and I'll irrationally feel ignored/neglected when she pretends she hears what I said and gives a bullshit answer, or when she doesn't hear intonation. She told me this morning she hates it when I 'make faces' when I disagree with her. I roll my eyes sometimes and I will try to stop doing that, but I feel a bit frustrated because there's a lot I disagree on with my mom, but when talking to her I always need to use the same voice and way of talking so she understands me. I feel like I can't easily vocalize annoyance/disagreement. 

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Anywho, this morning I woke up in a shitty way and I'm on my period, so I wasn't feeling well. I was in the kitchen making tea when my mom said she'll be right back, she's going to the neighbor to ask if she can drive her this afternoon and do grocery shopping. After she left I thought of something I needed from the store, so I waited around, emptied the dish washer, washed new dishes because the machine sucks, cleaned up some more and made myself another cup of tea. My mom came back after more than 30 minutes, and I felt a bit frustrated because she said she'd be right back and she always pulls this shit. I didn't get the chance to ask her about the store yet, because she yeeted to the other side of the house for another 10 minutes. I was being all mopey and whatever so we got mad at each other and I started crying, which she can't stand. So she put on her fake tone of voice and literally said she'll 'ignore her own feelings and do whatever to make me happy, OK?', ya know.. IDK, I just never get anything genuine from her, just this kind of messed up sarcasm/self pity (I'm 10000% self pitying too, tbf). Like, I told her that I feel like I don't have anybody atm, that I feel fking lonely, while my mom rushes through the living room doing some fake tidying up and giving distant disingenuous answers. Then her client knocked on the front door and my crying ass had to quickly go to the other side of the house so she could invite him in. And then they left and she was gone again. 

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FUCK, I am literally so frustrated at myself for being such a baby. I have myself to blame for losing all but one friend, it's not my mom's fault that I'm so lonely. It's so fucking sad, jesus. Anyone else have the biggest trouble communicating with their parents? I'm sorry for the stupid rant, I'm emotional and irrational as hell today, i just had to get it out. I'm 21 fucking years old :( tf",4.491476012688434,5.303842129298489,5.2587749487690525,83.78561799960701,69.9353507565337,8.080498554304802,28.179238132667088,8.225684150193146,1.7879441316003706,2856,97,575,39,49,928,314,727,0.263,0.667,0.071,-0.9994,2,7,1,0,0,0,101.0,1,1,2,4,45,48,15,2,32,1,47,14,5,6,3,95,117,61,0,5,12,9,15,5,3,3,1,9,5,2,24,40,5,7,16,2,5,12,13,34,1,2,30,26,103,15,74,78,16,86,2,10,2,4,76,32,9,7,46,378,127,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05039886578919092,0.0,0.03891475949847212,0.1214713464846009,0.2108998109650144,0.2365172619040232,0.0,0.15307816734928253,0.0,0.0,0.048259349944102525,0.03402540571163979,0.049859682197710524,0.040044448896469007,0.1299577417002923,0.09098427775550356,0.0,0.0,0.11225357574693573,0.0,0.14831866270939714,0.05374304602414907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625198882550747,0.0,0.061287732218627475,0.0,0.0,0.05565604347131095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051020887061653496,0.0,0.0,0.038852423375921055,0.0,0.1603578416580125,0.0,0.0,0.04191226769559035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130124500378857,0.054737884742529816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642812135725509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04373401575555053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460482749731351,0.1042918263890638,0.04672288189103537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519184754112296,0.13496092664350487,0.12711869998642572,0.09336151088541672,0.08296672979486391,0.0,0.0778384448242847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180130526251373,0.08718268506191974,0.0480433735335634,0.0,0.0,0.16453588348784615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122981816974397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0432527721573485,0.0,0.05067369258600474,0.02674320842007477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574220122531464,0.0,0.0,0.11886829073222267,0.0,0.08593837967471746,0.0,0.04086358860785444,0.05444001692816133,0.0531200151637226,0.08274090750872952,0.0,0.04604489557651361,0.0974462268803574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559361419524425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824614524349734,0.03753091797373356,0.046997791917811664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106228882680549,0.0,0.06594888100886237,0.037009430456358114,0.0,0.0,0.05403308077200212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04950646292949102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04891846854872537,0.0,0.05175772857147172,0.0,0.0,0.06234788712498007,0.0,0.0,0.05224447559657061,0.0,0.12467052769464315,0.18515375464227654,0.0,0.0,0.04924825805328866,0.0,0.0,0.15229435847721212,0.0,0.0999011115460796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0374621690631071,0.04812768485665423,0.1089456219600812,0.034443015518450984,0.0,0.0,0.04068337642466582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733734056865905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03232868417159597,0.0,0.0,0.03863196971153668,0.02837503996421755,0.0,0.09225124042986964,0.09299671665766096,0.0,0.03303811329736472,0.0,0.0,0.05065856614111497,0.0,0.042028101679658716,0.0,0.040151014850206335,0.0,0.0772508158357009,0.03903349614853088,0.0,0.04375272986281014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04959044945153498,0.0,0.0,0.2365172619040232,0.0940096557512561
EDAnonymous,PeanutsAndCoke,2019/04/30,"Can’t Run and Going on Vacatiom I am a runner— 45 to 50 miles a week. It keeps me sane and I allow myself to eat. 

But my knee is fucked up and I have to rest. But I have vacation next week and will be expected to eat and drink!! 

And I have no idea what I’m going to do. Usually I run 10 miles a day on vacation and with walking and activities I break even with alcohol calories. 

Is the elliptical a good enough alternative?? Bike? Will it even out if I had an extra half hour or so? Help!!",-0.659824175824177,1.4234796476190503,2.6190476190476204,90.6712087912088,90.61904761904762,6.6593406593406606,18.553113553113555,7.882392219407189,0.7522234432234431,373,11,88,9,13,134,68,105,0.064,0.835,0.10099999999999999,0.5885,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,6,0,12,6,1,1,0,19,17,13,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,11,4,1,1,2,0,5,2,1,0,1,1,0,11,1,11,13,3,18,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,2,6,63,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344968589850877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150992565082104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149513739999136,0.0,0.4490497873285935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267230038929839,0.0,0.2898541420090385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20285337619337412,0.0,0.0,0.24940672340028744,0.1840419180635095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707486428291552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160878267630021,0.0,0.0,0.24770228420328616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950335792747724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23335925062617516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24166384974286026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35201639505377336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,genericsadgirl,2019/04/30,"DAE spiral over porn? Tried to get myself off, ended up crying because my husband likes underweight girls. Yay me",3.3338333333333345,6.514426050000001,3.5300000000000047,81.62833333333334,88.5,4.666666666666667,21.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.0271666666666666,91,3,13,1,3,28,20,20,0.11800000000000001,0.6459999999999999,0.23600000000000002,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337898531613912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6014732001413684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849790637083172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28607952247837826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26751204861382777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371759925042733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alessanoir,2019/04/30,"If I could maintain my weight while eating normal, I would honestly do it. I think its not my fault that my body is capable of gaining fat so extremely fast like this. I do like to drink wine and eat snacks a bit more than other people and I can not change that. (Still I never eat THAT much) This can not be a reason to keep gain weight forever if I don't do anything about it. My body is pushing me to have an ED lol

Going on holidays with my friends we eat and drinks almost same amounts, when we are going back they put on 2 kilos while I put 6!",4.152783251231526,4.007002603448278,5.114236453201972,87.91155172413795,70.3793103448276,8.352709359605912,26.05418719211823,7.957251820313856,1.2253118226600987,426,11,97,5,7,140,78,116,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.9797,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,1,2,6,5,0,0,3,1,13,13,3,1,1,20,17,9,0,5,5,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,9,6,11,1,2,4,0,5,5,1,0,0,0,2,17,4,9,14,5,14,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,9,69,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226968277158292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691733942397807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109248512414222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551113847777286,0.3156312362933513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502987226071914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11343699555039223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27836291802764285,0.0,0.5815213311478064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976840739662004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614913689768857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628464575509776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388233792925326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444300884472164,0.0,0.10957861068267588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920538250442274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849836512184493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28565343507158825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607891155911032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346294770590752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103726253354777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34602323997369044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009274884371642,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tatapo,2019/04/30,"A long time ago in the old subreddit, someone posted a link to an amazing tool they made to calculate how long weight loss would taken given your stats & certain #s of calories per day. Anyone have a link? I can't remember how it worked exactly but it allowed you to enter your stats and adjust your calories per day to show how long it would take you to lose different amounts of weight. Or it might have been the opposite of that - you entered your goals and it gave you an output # of calories. It was a really awesome tool and I haven't been able to find it since. Anyone remember it?",4.700603448275864,5.728786301724143,5.2218965517241385,83.45025862068967,69.60344827586206,8.558620689655173,29.15517241379311,8.841846274778883,2.2194000000000003,465,17,91,8,8,149,68,116,0.044000000000000004,0.868,0.08800000000000001,0.7351,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,8,1,4,3,4,0,0,8,0,10,2,0,5,2,21,15,8,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,3,2,0,6,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,7,2,11,2,11,5,1,12,0,2,0,0,10,1,0,2,8,57,20,2,0.1640092006712526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538426064615773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777039004049819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293580930263941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115447325806316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713547071225205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990143813633094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354289445764913,0.0,0.18348434362233426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15518947125171045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739878437531322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17210006678733947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570754779125839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506849364560554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37158090535524346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567010561957535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896446349877942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233145077079164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563508383846127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994380441633477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940065142882435,0.0,0.0,0.2330148610060123,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,s6234,2019/04/30,"Chewing and spitting Does anyone else do this? Also, I feel like I'm swallowing too much with it? I've been doing it with sweets a lot so maybe that could be why",-0.4367647058823536,1.8110982647058835,1.2914117647058845,97.9153529411765,95.76470588235294,3.896470588235295,15.623529411764707,5.6839178017228535,-0.7174517647058827,127,3,28,1,5,41,30,34,0.0,0.8220000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,6,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764033530909045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24167530135564375,0.35414283734774604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759605927214751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024666077495973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887328229587877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747629154112531,0.24692097022162424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885929430380173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29384563296729554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472357693739812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540807298938022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118808891492049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Teamspeakstress,2019/04/30,"My grandma bought me a huge shirt? Ugh I'm freaking out inwardly.

My grandma has almost always been super harsh with me. She constantly makes snide comments or takes jabs at me, either to my face or talks about me behind my back. She constantly talks to my extended family about how I'm a failure (debateable) and a ""drop out"" (not true, I was hospitalized for 2 years.. which she never visited me at either hahahaha). 

Sidetracking a bit.
About a year ago during a family reunion I decided to eat a salad instead of hotdogs. She looked me in the eye and went ""Do you think you're better than us?"". I quickly made up something about not feeling well to which she went silent. Just to show you what a kind of person she is.

ANYWAY. Today she presented us all with matching shirts  (for an amusement park). Well, she got my mom a small, my boyfriend a medium and mine.... a very baggy shirt 5 sizes too big for me. I usually wear an XS, this was well over a large. Like, my boyfriend is over a foot taller and 100 pounds more than I am, why give him the medium but somehow miss my size?? And my mom is about 30 pounds heavier and 4 inches shorter than me...

Ugh. I'm freaking out because I don't know what this is supposed to mean? I can basically guarantee that there's going to be some kind of side jab tomorrow about my weight or me carrying it in my face or ""oops didn't realize you don't wear that size"" joke leading into a fat comment. Ughhghgjfgjhhh Why.

I'm trying to play it cool but inside any songs I get stuck in my head just have the lyrics replaced with various profanity. Bleh",2.99152777777778,4.913168516025646,4.158333333333335,85.83111111111113,75.37820512820512,7.442735042735044,25.65811965811966,8.285830014693849,1.6618645299145296,1235,44,247,22,27,403,181,312,0.086,0.835,0.079,-0.2479,0,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,2,3,0,3,19,18,0,0,19,1,16,14,11,4,3,41,37,13,0,0,12,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,10,13,4,0,6,5,1,5,6,5,3,0,10,6,45,13,39,26,7,36,0,1,2,0,23,18,0,7,13,163,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110910488137344,0.0,0.12528865467296232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410907226869788,0.0,0.0,0.08508524418043678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620882593360414,0.0,0.07627141126701896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065763159807808,0.13659759651297632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704184863228675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802802365159208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359022091317131,0.0,0.06326395083802071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536953926957963,0.12002559325935598,0.07110803920499899,0.0,0.10006913373420734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840824164182013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605844724489133,0.06876215746374491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061126847582280125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506848954883637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183906698964831,0.08351793711190282,0.0,0.0,0.13629132482041284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29307583717977226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649952432526962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924912796363123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632275707491947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940739539721471,0.20113190513827006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017123483890773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185982291470836,0.0,0.0,0.08494762158579046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010056221116685,0.0,0.13780095634684472,0.10323631937096234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236129503250218,0.3374911551042872,0.2319732248159851,0.2258009623154067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114513138789774
EDAnonymous,carolinecarterr,2019/04/30,"Nurse asked about my weight today :( Went in for an eye problem. The nurse asked the usual questions- symptoms, do I smoke,  etc. Then she asked the dreaded question- “how much do you weigh?”

Yal. I wanted to CRY. I felt so ashamed of my body. I just told her “Around 132, I think,” and prayed she wouldn’t weigh me because I was so terrified that I could’ve gained weight in the last 2 days. 

Also, it’s too early to really know, but I’m terrified that I may be having a phantom pregnancy. I’m DEFINITELY not pregnant (absolutely certain, unless it’s baby Jesus II) but I’ve been very hormonal and emotional the last few weeks and I think I grew a cup size in the last week 😳 my period may or may not show up this week.",1.4637471264367792,3.6846301793103455,3.15379310344828,89.66885057471266,81.6896551724138,6.625287356321839,21.39080459770115,7.793537801064563,0.9352666666666668,556,17,118,10,15,184,98,145,0.159,0.7809999999999999,0.06,-0.9256,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,8,4,0,2,9,0,10,7,2,1,1,25,22,12,0,3,7,0,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,4,4,0,6,1,0,2,3,3,0,0,5,4,18,1,11,12,3,19,2,0,1,0,10,5,0,6,12,71,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410345429274853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701802119296432,0.4001677196016632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697816442569943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584885234426816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392067616429648,0.0,0.15673045302025,0.09201865914842387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604990448430296,0.0,0.0,0.1591291370691033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699794851587244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784147839773045,0.348916792999201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048883402676046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652825444086314,0.0,0.0,0.3196749790117373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140631190453488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830215333575372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18285086719105156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524669471813475,0.1363396143941186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15714504347105607,0.11772832587974395,0.08415806435650304,0.0,0.3433548196934074,0.347498638121566,0.0,0.13226846701294226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drunkonhalloween,2019/04/30,"I’m too indecisive to have an ED (tw-numbers) 

I went out to eat with my boyfriend and ate just slightly under my calorie limit, but then my mom brought home brought home mini blueberry muffins (100 cals each) and I thought how bad would it really be to go 100 cals over my limit, so I ate a muffin. Then I ate three more, because “well, I already went over my calorie limit for today, so I might as well”. Then, I ate hot cheetos, because “I’m not gonna eat them tomorrow”.  

Then I suddenly changed my mind and went to the gym to work out for 3 hours and burn everything I ate that was over my limit for the day off. 

Honestly why couldn’t I either have a “cheat day” and just eat the food or just stick it out and not eat it in the first place lmao",5.6805769230769245,4.3544273141025664,6.23551282051282,85.08865384615387,67.52564102564102,9.594871794871796,32.32051282051282,8.472884824447931,2.149566666666667,575,20,132,7,8,188,89,156,0.065,0.836,0.099,0.7379,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,6,9,6,1,1,7,0,7,10,0,1,0,30,22,16,0,2,8,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,11,10,4,1,1,0,6,3,3,2,2,12,1,18,3,19,5,3,27,0,0,0,0,2,10,0,3,11,83,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511615732935552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736528653471826,0.17137333763091375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486983499476922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813046394656656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5753293235036908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263300941216753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195638885716275,0.1699708623160546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988590881246735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819948293193049,0.0,0.13842748253877693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491164677004978,0.14192983321060246,0.16462716357980295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685973513309658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004906492935856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159232202784264,0.0,0.0,0.13323848364951074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527683033976837,0.3909134345096875,0.12683738215093293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023324560965723,0.0,0.0,0.09985281800560708,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daddylongschlong,2019/04/30,Can we make a snapchat groupchat for daily irl shit posting Plz i need someone to cry with ty,0.32877192982456194,2.7374583684210516,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,96.89473684210527,2.533333333333333,27.385964912280702,3.1291,0.1607754385964908,75,4,16,0,3,22,19,19,0.284,0.551,0.165,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4966976108127809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018331225573419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352851420687098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330626730214551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4641554436262222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831299628530532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,firefoxtrot,2019/08/29,Just paid 25 cents at a gas station for my weight and lucky numbers And I weigh two more pounds than normal. Thanks voodoo doughnuts 😤,1.3846153846153868,4.071303230769232,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,93.6153846153846,2.6,18.03846153846154,3.1291,-1.0585846153846157,108,3,22,0,4,30,25,26,0.0,0.787,0.213,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755622207409234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4468659976467936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4741386295240645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910532246288305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,overdramaticteen,2019/08/29,"Sooo my kidneys might be failing :~) TW mention of suicide and ED behavior



Fml I need to rant.

So I have chronically low iron (ferritin=6) due to 6+ years of restriction and avoiding meat. I had a consult today to see if I should get an iron IV infusion, and for this reason I’ve had 3 blood tests in the last 2 weeks. And of course I purged before all of them because I was scared they would weigh me as well. So I give all these bloodwork results to the doc and it turns out my creatinine is way too high and my kidney function score is in the range for chronic kidney disease. I’ve had several suicide attempts involving toxic medicines so it’s possible that this has caused kidney dysfunction. However vomiting can also temporarily fuck with creatinine levels, so it could be that I’ve been skewing my results by purging before blood tests. Of course I’m way too much of a wimp to admit this to the doc who I just met, so all she knows is the overdosing explanation. So now I’m left wondering which of my mental illnesses is fucking up my body, and either way the situation is not looking good...and at some point I’m going to have to tell her about my eating disorder...and what if that info finds its way back to my parents? Fuck. This on top of my other mental illnesses, chronic pain, and autoimmune disease. I’m so done with being a medical fucking mystery.",5.091273408239704,6.054280617977527,6.19350187265918,77.07804307116106,68.66292134831461,9.379026217228466,32.810861423220985,9.586721724236666,3.1419872659176034,1083,48,201,23,18,362,161,267,0.16699999999999998,0.8029999999999999,0.031,-0.9905,2,2,0,0,0,2,31.0,0,0,2,3,16,11,4,2,10,0,22,22,7,4,3,36,41,19,2,6,5,1,0,0,0,3,9,1,0,0,16,11,2,2,6,0,0,1,1,10,1,0,7,3,22,1,30,27,6,24,0,2,2,4,13,12,4,5,7,132,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659931680685528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288351314541136,0.0,0.07363520511027029,0.0,0.20557444257287455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417545666067782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124089224333261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09644457791270747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361471091736685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360292834287795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040398325015252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4466902696184653,0.06311013985604333,0.11587708987307413,0.0686502972066206,0.1013166942838068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762601974111945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638549732535266,0.09846363850267116,0.0,0.0,0.13124357605781245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014369558663241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168774901077853,0.24346488663308716,0.1281438739098753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879785518902987,0.08956759005459967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853386304706474,0.0,0.13412799551671303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418984531282425,0.13617764734937926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419686275107285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093636576695775,0.0,0.0962575759863197,0.0,0.0,0.1364634005155202,0.0,0.0,0.13577807740263734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26425915123232313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105579715920134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449906044595028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138972735219215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835242015458887,0.09689406048312192,0.0,0.1086087609856177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099648087256144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580894596937615,0.0,0.0,0.0777876966293945
EDAnonymous,RunLikeTh3Winded,2019/08/29,DAE hate the summer heat and humidity and hide indoors hibernating in the AC putting on weight? Because fuck I do. I can’t wait for Fall and hoodies and lonnnnnnnggg walks without swamp ass.,3.669000000000002,6.689136971428574,3.3310714285714305,86.76517857142859,79.28571428571428,5.785714285714287,31.607142857142854,7.1686216300943375,2.0422857142857143,154,8,28,2,4,46,30,35,0.22399999999999998,0.7040000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,5,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25705585870280473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898418924039461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163276021051693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239108791001132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5134999192625007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064902356229579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thunder_B1rd,2019/08/29,How to deal with social events So tonight I have a social event that’s going to involve drinking. I’ve been restricting and it’s making me really anxious thinking about having to drink the calories but I also don’t want my friends to notice that I’m not eating/drinking. Anyway here’s to my night of anxiety where I will try not to drink and hate myself the next day,3.640315315315316,5.399088797297299,4.528108108108111,84.56531531531532,73.18918918918921,6.554954954954956,25.84684684684685,7.1686216300943375,1.2938900900900898,297,10,55,3,6,96,55,74,0.14400000000000002,0.779,0.077,-0.6055,0,0,4,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,0,3,0,5,3,0,2,0,11,11,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,1,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,9,9,0,8,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,6,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14416918203786905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791306674651038,0.2036641405007586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116265146431179,0.1858599016916795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7064197895305185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928323463421982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245680323727432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17798835079388292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203377416270496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917289357643376,0.16917978264009395,0.0,0.0,0.2052490226978218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549144854602893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675438085015969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551560871336497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239771828327825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633332159286313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Beardogpuppo,2019/08/29,Any trans men with an ED here? In a messed up way my ED gives me some control over a body that gives me so much dysphoria.  I have yet to fully lose my feminine curves but it still helps my dysphoria in a messed up way....DAE?,0.2475000000000023,2.1866537500000014,1.9206666666666656,98.39100000000002,84.41666666666666,6.34,17.933333333333334,7.554174236665415,0.09095333333333366,172,4,43,3,5,56,36,48,0.14400000000000002,0.787,0.069,-0.413,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,7,3,2,8,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,1,2,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960284103310221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201946948412778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233109470816418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5530553851564116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19321630246177374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32249204457582137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190613285346105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302068346791836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576187692388146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ucsbbound,2019/08/29,"I just binged on protein bars and so much brown rice... I had a rx bar, a think thin bar, and probably close to 1.5-2 cups of brown rice all before 4pm :( I feel so bad what do I do. Maybe concerned about the rice",-0.7961702127659578,0.9430238510638348,1.1313191489361714,103.69400000000002,87.08510638297872,4.611063829787233,15.782978723404256,5.6839178017228535,-1.0554476595744675,159,3,43,1,5,52,36,47,0.15,0.85,0.0,-0.7713,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,0,1,7,5,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,4,4,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3811204810842873,0.0,0.0,0.3884092004982696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307971341654032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458569944674163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355466127819444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921352044131301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924776432426225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goshily,2019/08/29,"TW: I can’t even eat in my dreams TW: calories, relapse, weight

It’s a lot more of a rant than anything- just venting because I can’t unload anywhere else 

I haven’t been restricting very long. It’s a relapse.. i had been maintaining a certain weight since last year but gained 15lbs from carelessness. Something triggered me full stop back into restricting and I can’t stop.

A few crappy comments really turned my head in. I’ve been eating under 200cals for a while and exercising as much as I can take. Most days I wait 24hrs and eat a single egg. Yesterday I messed up and ate a baked chicken wing a few hours after my egg. Went and ran immediately to attempt to counteract the calories.

I’ve found even in my dreams I can’t eat. I have had dreams the last 3 nights of going in my fridge, picking up something (little Debbie zebra cake, leftover fajitas, bacon) and I always put it back. I guilt and berate myself even in my dreams.

Back when I was dieting the “healthy way” I’d dream of food but I’d be binging and enjoying it the entire dream. I’d wake up satisfied. Now I wake up craving food and feeling weak and bad about myself because I even think about eating 

Why can’t I just sleep peacefully? Let me enjoy the free calories",2.04567901234568,4.600502868312759,3.2648559670781907,87.6851851851852,82.04526748971193,5.904526748971193,24.226337448559672,7.242747475848597,1.203051028806585,979,37,187,14,27,316,135,243,0.133,0.6779999999999999,0.188,0.9372,0,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,13,9,0,1,14,0,16,20,4,2,1,28,26,16,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,11,14,5,3,7,1,4,6,5,0,0,10,3,26,5,24,14,8,35,0,0,0,0,1,13,0,2,17,116,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291640964094057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189294080925614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257596532753135,0.09323780264966393,0.13614309567351254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201638019674428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5713192919647244,0.09328397194536928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29502165302569233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05646250651814956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27005787119395874,0.12243778723188108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346328476046062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460319952588388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997011705349788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820480371713072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418771244025815,0.0,0.0,0.11192029654910986,0.0,0.09882233429230036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094935821639866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208855313500485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479250164126776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225680609188901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153714009113474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237261347462496,0.0,0.11174827018446858,0.0,0.0,0.17193438687108506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18671826955981174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396015691369428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715521052621245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146231000945035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213748553765,0.0,0.08863656315273652,0.0,0.2719621680255944,0.0,0.10351700727436357,0.10076266291984376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191028943681688
EDAnonymous,cfarthing77,2019/08/29,"Hi, I’m new. Is anyone on Peach still? Trying to find people to talk to. I looked at the Peach username list, but I haven’t been added back yet and I don’t see many people active. Thanks in advance.",-0.7721428571428568,1.391898928571429,0.9066666666666664,101.03000000000004,95.42857142857142,2.8000000000000003,11.761904761904766,3.1291,-1.811980952380952,153,2,35,0,6,49,34,42,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,6,7,0,8,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,4,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241460368826738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464941867538825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929899951461949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691933056398853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32500192164809005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096030328011732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4444778948612111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554482717993541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25600309243043834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25765747012405954,0.0,0.29513257096352397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176421414176337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poppedabean,2019/08/29,"Too many people r following this sub:( Everytime I get on this sub, I see that more people joined it. Eds suck, no matter what type. U and ur mental health are very valid. Please take care, i hate to see people suffering. If u need someone to talk to, feel fre to message me <3 sending love nd hugs :)",0.03683333333333394,2.398530350000001,1.563333333333336,95.72833333333334,95.5,4.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.16633333333333322,231,6,49,3,9,74,49,60,0.16,0.607,0.233,0.6573,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,12,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,3,5,12,1,3,0,1,2,2,5,1,1,1,0,20,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419237296774372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199763714699955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396949640894282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23426580130927174,0.0,0.2522185407542184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21415531011641065,0.0,0.0,0.24056562786016925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23912337587914545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17594080854454153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4935021767180461,0.0,0.0,0.2604632151936807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781643725648285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104736829701927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840573498660578,0.1907174294814556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195781623467656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sleazysnail,2019/08/29,"I guess I just need to vent I guess I just need to unload a little
So my ed and body dystrophia have been hanging around for a while and there’s bad and better days. 
As pathetic as this sounds I don’t have anyone to talk to and I just want someone to vent to. 
Me and my mum have a really good relationship and I appreciate the hell out of that and she is wonderful 
She herself has had issues with eating when she was younger. 
Here’s the main point, I ask if she could just listen so I can get some things off my chest (I try not to do this often I get it can get repetitive and annoying) anyway after a small amount of venting I’m kinda just told I need to get over it, stop being vain and so self absorbed
...I mean I can’t deny that she’s right, it was kind of followed with you like being underweight you can do something about this if you want.
Again sure but sure logically and number wise I can be considered  that but all I see is fat  
.., I really don’t know how much sense this makes, I know I’m feeling dumb and sorry for myself, but yea here I am

I feel terrible and awful writing this honestly my mother is a great Person and I don’t think she says this to be hurtful.",1.6979362170087988,3.4105774959677433,3.4612023460410555,90.32543988269795,78.4758064516129,6.6058651026392985,20.54692082111437,7.520522993642371,0.5371387096774192,921,23,204,13,22,308,136,248,0.128,0.74,0.132,-0.2152,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,18,16,3,0,7,2,27,4,3,2,3,54,53,26,0,8,11,2,2,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,13,17,2,1,8,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,5,6,37,9,24,43,5,17,1,1,1,0,21,8,2,8,8,148,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713787402351502,0.0,0.0,0.12367051891213747,0.12987382701084435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159945228131235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286570220012535,0.0,0.15431163036305112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091834846534757,0.0,0.0,0.08959354916414837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421524462441172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048682646489294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29032518512695393,0.0,0.0,0.11652164014963948,0.0,0.15316259701084795,0.30607769258363915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14871945837503994,0.0,0.0,0.14499904444059744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446664533096741,0.15269639589368084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787053855223958,0.13923688699632888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273187796781,0.0,0.0,0.15132737874480442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212405568042356,0.3090279219388392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130180836290405,0.0,0.0,0.1313267093674858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799468010771807,0.0,0.0,0.1491508237090086,0.0,0.11863909491905128,0.0,0.11047678423784273,0.0,0.0,0.11070328251468786,0.0,0.14492651298684073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770862210243765,0.10694936277732174,0.0,0.15551241609077412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161454686971894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26186571037507284,0.0,0.0,0.11166067989517567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229396636796636,0.08901595780136534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274644575659109,0.0,0.09431928937606096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16388023355832754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065557471056704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ArcticLurker,2019/08/29,winter is coming bois I just moved to northern Norway for my bachelors aka I’ll get to hide beneath a knee-length down coat 2/3 of the year 🤡🤡🤡,-0.5034375000000004,1.6315005312500013,1.9112500000000023,95.60875,90.5625,4.45,17.375,5.985473137389443,-0.37365,115,3,26,1,4,39,28,32,0.064,0.9359999999999999,0.0,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5384537656229046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265801347181922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6643644404123235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025330398980709
EDAnonymous,666cyka666,2019/08/29,am i invalid? so normally i either fast or of eat below 200cals but after my dad had an operation i started to a bit more (around 500 cals) to not upset him. but surprisingly i dont feel THAT bad about it (i still feel guilty but its managable). and i started to feel a liiiiittle bit more comfortable w my body. is my ed starting to become invalid bc i sure as hell feel that way,0.7771794871794881,3.0985597948717998,3.674615384615386,84.15371794871797,85.66666666666666,6.030769230769232,24.051282051282055,7.3871296695380915,1.2525282051282054,296,12,61,5,9,105,56,78,0.114,0.691,0.195,0.7262,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,1,3,0,4,2,1,0,1,14,11,7,0,1,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,4,11,3,10,10,5,9,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,6,43,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862427038069862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468297008493472,0.0,0.2310578055159828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456809823520218,0.23238695463141845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24519446915986426,0.0,0.0,0.21407572454750415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231347396330304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049829749957861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44424319999299294,0.0,0.16707667587357328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971794828856508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660624518127971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sp0yl,2019/08/29,"I ate and stayed fed today. For the past 8 months I’ve been on and off with my EDs, and for the past 3 weeks I’ve been either not eating or binging then purging. Sometimes I’d even throw up when I didn’t eat anything at all. I’ve been suffering from rumination as long as I can remember.

Today was the first day that I was able to eat a proper lunch and dinner without throwing up no matter how much I wanted to. 

Just felt a bit proud. I know some of my friends know about this account, so if you guys read this, thank you for being such strong supports and I hope I didn’t worry you. Power to you, all. We can do this.",2.332954545454541,3.3835560833333367,3.6822424242424248,92.17336363636366,75.28787878787878,6.1890909090909085,22.29090909090909,6.2581,0.22590363636363664,481,12,110,3,10,158,89,132,0.046,0.795,0.159,0.9146,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,4,0,4,7,7,0,0,5,0,11,7,0,1,2,24,20,13,0,3,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,7,0,4,1,1,2,5,1,0,1,10,1,15,6,18,9,6,19,0,1,0,0,7,5,0,4,11,75,19,1,0.16385296033987587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348370251826982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888499514648093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567160420201792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029874530922575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822333497041484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157324537501758,0.0,0.0,0.13937324436077486,0.0,0.0,0.12659239070374614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622401916622046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627429608081234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009860375537512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14500471374882518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078586969486286,0.0,0.12045077901305995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31283238198665875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163897301277971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561346283940425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620547674854845,0.0,0.0,0.17464545439222068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18593839764826267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15085379154146514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106268951568542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966447212922757,0.0,0.13143296132643995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15794840666111518,0.0,0.0,0.16640063483711187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pusspusskushkush,2019/08/29,"Anyone else with BED feel good when they're restricting When I'm binging I feel like complete shit and am fully aware of the consequences so if anyone tries to tell me it's a bad thing I'm like ""yes I know you're 100% right."" But then when I get to the part of my cycle where I'm restricting for a long period of time I feel like really good about. And no matter what anyone tells me including like healthcare professionals I'm like ""there is literally no downside to this. My body needs this. I'm obese so weightloss is good no matter how I achieve it"". Like sometime I swear I wish I had anorexia or a different eating disorder. Which obviously I don't really mean because I'm not glorifying any mental illness. But idk I guess sometimes restricting feels like an accomplishment to me.",3.0020995670995667,5.4094348376623405,4.35166233766234,82.14939826839827,77.24675324675323,8.002770562770563,25.201731601731602,8.841846274778883,2.1153529004329004,631,23,120,15,15,208,96,154,0.2,0.602,0.198,-0.122,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,9,12,1,0,6,1,5,5,2,1,1,24,21,13,0,3,5,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,7,3,2,3,6,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,4,15,10,10,20,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,14,63,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880644985644377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716484114302302,0.132688140720595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812716177408056,0.07894204985517793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384540075887095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13577837530695544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353000261635077,0.14841831680037065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251091671269793,0.10818070395079277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619165361242045,0.27754465985255306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765844950689424,0.0,0.0,0.3258555816882712,0.0,0.0,0.1426589436242074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116986001017922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428704016903103,0.0,0.0,0.11460350011749601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106355684352864,0.0,0.0,0.13050562696058646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602267215674756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023597239139532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16592214101298472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059236503528594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292997631239165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561577907975281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22637756451907426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603410221634689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551254099043354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792205712344044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891870675518293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wannabetinygirl,2019/08/29,"feeling good about myself for once trigger warning - sizes 

So, I’m currently wearing a size 0 in american eagle jeans. It pisses me off. Most people would probably be ok with that, but I really won’t be happy until I’m the smallest size in the store. Which also happens to be the size that the girl I’ve always been extremely jealous of wears - a 00. 

Well..... today I put on my size 0..... they’re too big. Which means, the only option that would fit would be... DOUBLE 0!!! 

I honestly am way too happy about this. All I have wanted for a while was to be able to fit into the same jean size as her. And now it’s finally happening. Well, not exactly the same size since she’s shorter than me (which I unfortunately can’t fix :/ ) but the same waist size. And I’m finally, for once, really fucking happy with myself. Bonus points that she’s currently making really stupid life decisions and is definitely going to get her ass handed to her today.",3.36414855072464,5.082903494565219,5.162478260869566,79.89846376811595,73.83695652173913,8.384927536231885,24.22318840579711,9.029198982220553,1.9568562318840583,729,22,138,16,15,249,112,184,0.111,0.6859999999999999,0.203,0.9667,2,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,1,9,13,4,0,11,1,15,8,6,2,2,25,27,10,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,10,6,1,0,3,0,2,2,3,4,2,0,2,2,15,9,21,16,6,21,0,0,0,2,6,9,3,2,9,92,25,0,0.14087737256865948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265958394556415,0.11722125942814322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123183246214204,0.0,0.0,0.3086485512347934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023886087198724,0.07360261266799809,0.0,0.08006385735109403,0.11816125622892153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491547906155958,0.4498997481103095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950585448411492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403674012030616,0.0,0.0,0.1534567583442243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000596080911263,0.0,0.10714359001600147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766663202366084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331746526683319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518896348355655,0.0,0.0,0.14162067002289824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27074895671632115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653521837539438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670705536725564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309312434785941,0.11182190104306264,0.0,0.0,0.2533313532630405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002257305104853,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Butty43,2019/08/29,Tips for bloating? Does anyone have any tips to help reduce bloating after eating??,4.610714285714284,8.111728642857145,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,84.0,2.8000000000000003,21.285714285714285,3.1291,0.2796857142857143,67,2,8,0,2,20,12,14,0.0,0.8,0.2,0.5007,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37935224266852186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39005666594087696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881720056433884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5708124641877321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739102793070695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Athulu,2019/08/29,"Triggering Subs? Juat found out about the subreddit fittofat and now incredibly triggered. Tonight will be spent irrationally wondering if someone has ever posted pics of me. Thanks Reddit, I was gonna feel vaguely good about losing 2 pounds this week. 😅😭

Anyone else find any subs super triggering?",6.296470588235295,9.544825313725491,6.203686274509806,68.75258823529413,70.37254901960785,9.570196078431367,31.768627450980397,9.888512548439397,4.103773333333333,245,11,34,7,5,77,48,51,0.091,0.733,0.17600000000000002,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,3,1,11,10,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,3,4,4,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957564544060015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128023866391706,0.2949492745953969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404722832215644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603882223325528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555199114788445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631012217273093,0.0,0.0,0.3156265072577469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24144551005051745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220446419664429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27569281960201314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439050657403109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26502522706715514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309060320175899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121747345062517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Prosperia,2019/08/29,"my scale really hates me huh I weighed myself today and went up a pound, and then I moved my scale when I reweighed myself and it went up 5 more pounds?? and it kept giving me the higher number I want to die :,) which one is it!!!!",1.5456250000000011,2.9255523125000025,2.8566666666666656,95.955,77.95833333333334,5.633333333333334,16.166666666666668,5.985473137389443,-0.7181833333333336,173,2,41,1,4,56,34,48,0.16699999999999998,0.736,0.09699999999999999,-0.7664,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,7,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,10,0,3,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,28,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340052808385367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087254737356621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177372155472595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420508261916871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807808526991326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061704101243685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30505405958316234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898217123317981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5966731076309159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yikeskrispes,2019/08/29,"Fitbit app’s new layout can bite me So my whole method of restriction is based around deficits, which I take from the Fitbit app. Yeah I know it’s not super accurate but it works really well for me.

(Skip this bit if you like)
On the old layout, below the lovely big “X cals in” button is a little “x cals left”, which is your caloric deficit for the whole day if anyone didn’t know. In the new layout, there is no way to see this until the end of the day, you can only see your caloric deficit SO FAR. I base what I eat that day around what my caloric deficit for the whole day is. How do I know how much to eat if I don’t know what my deficit for the whole day will be? I use Fitbit because my only method of exercise is walking, which I do a lot of, my caloric deficit changes daily based on how much walking I do. So literally my whole method of restriction is based around this and I’m freaking tf out 🙃

Also the new redesign is ugly af and so unorganised.
Why are all the challenges mixed in with all of the other things like calorie counts, the sleep tracker and weight tracker?

Fitbit wyd??? Why fix what isn’t broken and why not give us the option to keep the other layout if we prefer that one?
Now I gotta fast til I can sort this out and I hate fasting. Ugh.",1.945414118036041,3.655567277566544,2.957778145147959,94.22337245825756,77.74524714828897,5.638551826748222,21.70094230451314,6.280692351149826,0.13564089932220202,986,27,221,7,23,314,128,263,0.172,0.7759999999999999,0.051,-0.9884,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,2,4,0,3,14,9,1,0,17,1,20,6,1,4,2,36,34,20,0,5,7,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,18,12,3,3,5,1,0,2,6,3,1,1,1,3,26,6,28,30,11,33,0,0,2,1,8,15,0,7,17,144,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916956676446711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922249202854537,0.0,0.0,0.2643906384287078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603489494532229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808140704953736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472795043646464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31923123730930153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026016458748014,0.0,0.0,0.08768384276634437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496898432026446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977411428870585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879949735573705,0.0,0.0,0.2176293264351072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756284206327872,0.0,0.0,0.09673194644486784,0.09922313409751607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416551824536074,0.08935057805760051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455514998928126,0.0,0.0,0.28684192370500017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388293121993986,0.0,0.06708437114044123,0.15058659558436105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342137631042498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777897485283032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907062382392487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443502354052897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577062155635391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908376134773326,0.08550346050685967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858089964752578,0.0,0.120554267186086,0.08901210524344733,0.0,0.26799394363286244,0.5526449538409868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207254413982046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wearetheresult,2019/08/29,"Never thought I'd be jealous of my 4 year old ....but that girl has already pooped twice today.

Meanwhile I've been bloated, distended uncomfortable and trying to go for 3 days.

If I have to congratulate her for ""going stinky"" one more time I might cry 😭.

Let's all say a prayer to the ana gods that mommy takes a shit today🙏🏻🤞🏻",3.013043478260869,3.955504797101451,4.670260869565219,86.1584347826087,73.4927536231884,7.259130434782609,25.394202898550724,7.554174236665415,1.1235194202898553,257,8,56,3,5,87,59,69,0.221,0.732,0.047,-0.8971,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,0,6,2,2,0,2,7,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,2,1,4,0,6,5,2,8,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,6,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746000817624284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273338014145226,0.16048060266045988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828419356081863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25445479012926503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639789105640252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192001741703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611147259401563,0.0,0.16861978170521416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788680189458502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25542971106279244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18709599877370076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197550411772002,0.14510005238754928,0.0,0.47174065079980604,0.0,0.0,0.16894538214848998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602441910407236
EDAnonymous,Ededandedy,2019/08/29,EC stacking plus SSRIs? Have any of you tried stacking while on SSRIs? I use medication for anxiety which is well under control and consume a god awful amount of caffeine with no adverse effects. The temptation to do this is so high and I know it's fucking stupid please talk me out of this.,2.8336309523809526,5.4935103392857165,3.853571428571428,84.05809523809525,79.53571428571429,5.8761904761904775,28.97619047619048,7.1686216300943375,1.8757119047619049,233,11,41,3,6,75,48,56,0.209,0.685,0.106,-0.77,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,2,2,4,2,0,2,1,4,2,0,3,0,9,7,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,4,1,10,7,1,5,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,1,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110098742190745,0.0,0.2487251780117099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646633134623264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005794011630105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343519930437441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868410743763624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275364001797144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35689742687441045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613288782119155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22074336381911988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808097561805952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923328181381456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImNotUnique____,2019/08/29,"Fucking rabbit poops from restricting... **.  .  .**


That's it, that's the whole poop.",0.8747252747252716,-5.046938692307688,0.5650549450549462,94.3192307692308,205.15384615384616,3.819780219780221,17.24175824175824,5.288315135182226,0.4039758241758245,59,2,10,1,7,17,11,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6377779164968173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7702203121373643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anchulssian,2019/08/29,"Dun dun dun So I'm autistic and didn't realise I have a real bad eating disorder. I'm out of touch with myself but fucking hell, I've been like this so long and didn't know. Scary as all hell.

It follows a pattern so it should've been easy to identify and yet it eluded me for over a damned decade. My self image is low and my anxiety at its peak and this just decides to manifest in my brain at not only a random point, but also a bloody bad one as well. 

Anyways, I'm not well versed in eating disorders or how to handle them so I'd like some advice on how to handle it.

I realise there's nothing to go on so here's a bit of insight into the nature of what happens with me. 

Occasionally I purge but that coincides with feeling physically ill and vomiting whatever is inside can help. However I'm sure I've done it just from hating my body and eating habits. Along with that, I tend to starve myself for days at a time and then eat way too much on other days. It's bursts though, not snacking. Getting another plate of spaghetti when I've had enough spaghetti already. I do have an issue where I can't eat most foods, not even forcing me to eat helps since it'll just come back up or make me sick. It's not allergy stuff or physical I don't think. Something to do with autism I think. Anyhoo, my body feels like it's being torn apart by this shit and I'd rather not be a fat piece of shit when I die so any tips you have I'll gladly take.",1.9701998987854281,3.582754891447369,3.6035526315789497,90.05217611336036,77.38815789473685,6.519028340080973,22.547570850202426,7.321109707123232,0.7113683198380567,1133,33,248,14,26,377,172,304,0.205,0.688,0.10800000000000001,-0.9909,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,0,26,17,7,0,10,0,19,18,6,3,2,50,38,30,1,1,16,0,3,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,18,18,9,0,7,0,0,3,10,10,2,1,6,3,22,7,37,29,7,29,2,1,0,1,5,16,6,6,12,160,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985575821424408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129966313713742,0.08065636135190625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858711557286626,0.10575874158403464,0.07715633805659151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755382178188637,0.16842496720147473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011116239078017,0.2240617112979968,0.0,0.1125912399738042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688051130601653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009054404875886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467501175954576,0.0,0.2311847433064935,0.0,0.0,0.10321307770838208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6192194385293699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042136047671509,0.0,0.0666159685536575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199399318927076,0.07205320332350908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195827981180588,0.0,0.0,0.0932418908064435,0.05269430896054885,0.0,0.05732010703019803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918867849787268,0.0,0.0,0.09957670935727718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520641059251975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526988133524948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05542909450907906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782284049769906,0.0,0.0,0.08925643858475171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673237111825616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07414246945163043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967762773484495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683442072616884,0.07670729653188438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534371184720246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147988478415083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052172232121598,0.0,0.20705923038363,0.08343104380760677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764566154131836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115458645237722,0.0,0.0,0.0950577721505195,0.0,0.07583290399685648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925187680850206,0.09909278643837847,0.0,0.058811296953243886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005663913994493,0.0,0.0,0.18136748295133154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anabsenceoflife,2019/08/29,"No, you're ridiculously excited about getting celery available at work! I work in a vegan cafe as a chef, it was my turn to do the food ordering this week and our supplier started growing celery. 

So naturally I got two big ass celery packs, definitely for the cafe and not for me. 

Actually can't wait.",5.228448275862071,6.387735120689657,7.1546551724137935,69.59336206896553,68.48275862068965,11.317241379310346,33.46551724137931,11.20814326018867,4.25388275862069,239,11,43,8,4,84,49,58,0.13699999999999998,0.752,0.111,-0.3802,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,4,0,3,2,1,0,0,4,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,5,1,7,6,0,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,27,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.330298245210462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4092797013292701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683679260157947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707056657535708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395710620254809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36815855611723497,0.33063635883876835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715005055774403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4928209046750212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meatballjuulpods,2019/08/29,"Tfw you google 'how to stop nighttime bjnging' And the article goes like ' maybe you're not eating enough during the day :)'

Like?????? That's the point, lady!!!!!!


Anyway Im bloated and pmsing lmao whassup",4.587499999999999,6.7229560833333375,4.823333333333338,81.855,71.5,7.022222222222222,25.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.6461222222222216,153,5,26,2,3,48,31,36,0.053,0.743,0.204,0.8089,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394503849018923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799208568636568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836403015449768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010553241326272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627856409629927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730092313751353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509876704217773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104138349648227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gtwitty,2019/08/29,"TW. Ed stuff. So I'm ranting. I may go into different topics.. 


My best friend who got me into smoking pot and munchies has left. I was almost scared that it would never end and that I may be recovering, with the influence of pot of course. 
I had such a hard time because I was not recovering, it was like an excuse to get fat and eat... I could never escape hanging out with my friend. And all we would do is smoke and eat and talk. Worst moments of my life. I know terrible of me to say.

When we weren't together I wouldn't eat at all.. only when I had to(because parents) and no one knew about my restrictive behaviours and they still do not. I was beginning to think that I was going to get fat and never turn back. It was the scariest moment of my life.. I am actually at my highest weight now and i hate my friend for that.. especially for abandoning me after getting me fat.. i feel bad.. I can't shake it. I hate this!

Anyway. She left and idk if this is considered relapsing. I'm falling back into the same bad habits. But I have always had these disordered thoughts and habits even when it seemed like I was ""recovering/recovered."" 

I also started donating plasma more and they said my protein count was low, i felt proud but scared because i know what this means. 1.  won't be able to donate and 2. People might find out. 


I feel like I can never open up about my eating disorder with anyone ever because I've hid it for so long that no one would believe me.. my friend would say oh well you eat when we smoke all the time. Or my mom would say that she sees me eat and thinks I'm fat so I can't have an ED. I want to start recovery but I don't. Mostly because I have no support or validation.. and also because I'm not ready and dont feel sick enough.. 

Also I need to talk to my doctor about a hiatal hernia and acid reflux because they think it's the food I eat. But I barely eat and I want to open up about my eating disorder with this doctor to receive the right treatment for the hernia and GERD BUT I FEEL THEY WOULD FORCE ME INTO RECOVERY to start working on that problem..  I have read that eating disordered can be linked to these problems.. 

Also . I went on a date for the first time in a year and a half  I was fasting.. my stomach wouldn't stop growling.. I felt like my breath was stinky and I was tense.. I hate that I cant just recover and be able to eat and have a good time without these thoughts.. i really like this guy but I'm scared to open up about my problems and seem like a bag of sad bones... :( 

I'm not ready to recover but I'm having so many problems. 


What else... what else should I talk about?..

Guys how do you deal with being at your highest weight? I can't omg... 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ if any of that made sense please comment... share  .help  .. what ever..",1.3453244221665273,3.4479539065255764,2.8781862062563834,92.14477025898078,81.36331569664904,5.883709273182957,21.058479532163748,7.0608816371341465,0.4632264550264558,2143,63,466,27,57,701,236,567,0.127,0.767,0.107,-0.8912,2,0,2,0,0,0,95.0,3,3,4,4,30,34,3,4,17,0,55,26,7,3,9,116,101,49,0,19,17,2,9,6,4,13,9,4,0,2,31,42,18,3,19,1,2,7,22,18,1,4,24,15,77,16,55,58,9,61,0,3,1,0,34,22,0,11,38,319,108,4,0.1027772828431293,0.0,0.05014790112680281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05145830130982319,0.0,0.0,0.1643819119144819,0.042759466320975104,0.0,0.0,0.0349460383582653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035932132927385056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902938644330608,0.08581473816404063,0.2192822718692247,0.0,0.0,0.05789740130305768,0.0539292087447047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04102964864330953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05297943283796048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05369019277075161,0.23558334068886164,0.10519690403630984,0.0,0.0,0.06022710502344315,0.0,0.0,0.5784175029892137,0.08585723172254993,0.0,0.04551508334263624,0.053098203638216684,0.0,0.03394171300112343,0.09296793644209904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393456463461406,0.03671205569950185,0.09868230915964504,0.0,0.04696828727557468,0.04371115214128325,0.062139349188457385,0.0,0.15881094754905675,0.0,0.08054533246443105,0.0,0.05841069834316295,0.04310235430683012,0.04110019098655935,0.0,0.0,0.1017656686360882,0.0,0.0,0.046034128955875935,0.15220693314150205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0344447231188039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056483706792431324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166781853133098,0.0,0.07259463435745749,0.15063536674821104,0.0,0.0,0.045477330551845725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04862517503845264,0.0,0.05210001663525933,0.0,0.05597729560454195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054515227668615183,0.0,0.06018575574776273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038104026470979074,0.15853635309425826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964454675149089,0.03908337746196956,0.0,0.0,0.057061004862949675,0.0,0.0,0.03562641352833095,0.0,0.0,0.05640929656148405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19668795861127766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05140254791775086,0.0,0.0329208795760222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04388561899124983,0.04888236587238398,0.12259893074239706,0.15434698465189478,0.0,0.040950093903153406,0.09356457825559683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091194346822079,0.0,0.041039035420675794,0.04296320525947036,0.0,0.0,0.0588276998029495,0.0,0.05831522130223912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391273022254044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878329932162798,0.0,0.08159368224354678,0.11986052027768655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558960852468035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060620704288455375,0.0,0.0,0.12515504214172574,0.04620456016571912,0.047637785438557935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04953681652244276,0.0,0.03741154299066449,0.0,0.0,0.21903009872236776,0.0,0.0,0.03309260023269681
EDAnonymous,k_p_skinner,2019/08/29,"Repulsed by digestion A few years ago I was basically undiagnosed anorexic. With lots of support, I recovered.

The last month and a half, I have had a string of different viral and bacterial infections which has made me lose my appetite completely, begin to fear processed and oily foods and become very anxious about my health.

I am a reasonable person and understand why I need to eat but I have pretty much developed a total disgust in digestion. I have a good understanding of the processes involved as I am a nursing student but I find the entire process to be revolting and don't want to digest anything myself. I find it gross when other people eat too. It's not as bad when I see them eating fruit or vegetables but still, it's gross. I actually find myself nauseous quite a lot because of these thoughts. 

Anyone else feel/felt similar about digestive processess? Or do you have another phobia related that isn't just food?",5.362581453634085,7.6000508596491265,6.218015873015876,72.23750000000003,69.64327485380117,9.797994987468671,33.85171261487051,10.125756701596842,4.036058980785298,751,37,121,21,14,247,118,171,0.153,0.767,0.079,-0.8956,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,2,7,8,1,1,11,0,13,13,0,2,1,27,22,15,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,7,7,11,0,7,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,4,2,19,2,15,17,5,9,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,4,8,88,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.1257163751256511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141971868843403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508613436585196,0.0,0.14553761701038495,0.0,0.09007869523276094,0.13199828255254134,0.10601348117577117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756499845388316,0.07853162268663262,0.14227908124644256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350724507175997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345965885565002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954659398469685,0.1076182622597648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449659680752204,0.06513870183264145,0.0,0.12369393252580935,0.0,0.3532360890168693,0.0,0.3115557603452579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805380925384396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693686616419867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501103779999207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441242386614839,0.0,0.21904788010246226,0.0,0.12189903482156547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282832416516643,0.0,0.09470252236880797,0.09552344122061468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931228360254154,0.1124865943026474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310631715627729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702316138245615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245540838549785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026582818200529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288125037765647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619112808390936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022740905833289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26822648811462124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629560336853053,0.07598538552429443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162461509513192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296023664514553
EDAnonymous,FreakingJinkiesDude,2019/08/29,"You learn something new everyday I was just reading a thread in an unrelated sub when someone mentioned losing weight and lighter periods and it just hit me, all of a sudden.
I never fully lost my period but there were months where I’d spot for two or three days and that was that. And now put the two together so finally I know why I “haven’t had cramps like these since middle school”....",5.257894736842103,6.081534263157895,5.553789473684212,82.3175263157895,68.21052631578948,9.237894736842106,28.35789473684211,9.3871,2.276045263157896,308,10,61,6,5,98,64,76,0.025,0.907,0.068,0.4659,0,0,1,0,1,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,7,3,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,0,2,12,8,8,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,3,5,1,7,1,3,2,1,15,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,12,41,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523945921348133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588561881132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986484624043226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544472941560342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643603683092573,0.25795044832197345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18861319859441344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224989370619266,0.22822097203808034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375477652722073,0.0,0.0,0.2363649399369678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23914922096253025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19547062371691687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20021706499411634,0.18191604944310116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616634696073403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877509502639073,0.0,0.0,0.21322489239443146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feelingpensive,2019/08/29,"Anyone find it hot when guys eat and don’t have to worry about their weight? This is about to sound so weird and depressing, but for some reason I enjoy how guys (oftentimes) just eat whatever they want and pay no thought to it. Like the guy I’m currently hanging out with is average height and build, and he’ll eat so much and I just find it strangely relaxing and comforting that he can eat so much and still look good. I think something about the lack of caring and nonchalance is attractive to me since I overanalyze every bite that goes into my mouth",8.73333333333333,7.002135296296299,8.021037037037036,76.02766666666669,61.77777777777778,12.343703703703707,34.56296296296296,11.20814326018867,3.5450385185185187,444,14,88,10,5,139,75,108,0.12,0.659,0.221,0.9531,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,11,9,0,0,2,0,6,6,1,2,0,24,13,15,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,6,12,5,0,5,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,8,7,12,11,4,7,0,1,1,0,7,3,0,1,4,57,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715308031491944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624438486357176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199044927272255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6272351600229915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911626077972474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28012791051756364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853537089310754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552125344201412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486819473467618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286879406864898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253067045251718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756228458019242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676657302094865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797616300037204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223823552964497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819377015900256,0.0,0.12166010857609633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09038838869508437,0.0,0.0,0.18661219345830565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562862678530776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icdcofe,2019/08/29,i thought being back at school would help me with restricting but i've binged twice in the past 3 days 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 end me,-1.32977011494253,0.19727027586207235,1.2006896551724149,103.67160919540231,87.6206896551724,5.2459770114942526,16.563218390804597,6.42735559955562,-0.7414919540229881,94,2,27,1,3,32,22,29,0.079,0.8390000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.0129,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,12,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336482939256075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279834617304831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38431349624728617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29083923387342153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142140670375271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43913783152880187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444743038109896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082356325327189,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pussylover18,2019/08/29,Unpopular opinion: I would hate to just stay skinny no matter what I eat I don’t know why but the whole fantasy of being able to eat whatever you want and not exercising well staying skinny just doesn’t appeal to me at all. For some reason I like that weight gain is a possibility I have to fight against.,2.4933333333333323,4.808375737704921,4.430737704918034,81.4043579234973,78.50819672131148,7.3453551912568305,23.281420765027317,8.344100000000001,1.5388010928961742,244,8,48,5,6,83,50,61,0.147,0.693,0.159,0.1972,0,0,0,0,1,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,2,0,2,0,6,6,2,1,1,13,9,2,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,2,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,7,2,8,7,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,35,9,0,0.2307526472217033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722351311386694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22782046626332095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681562020998052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273408766609724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601389385201205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372521531430353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49190323864334395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13610388992629674,0.0,0.0,0.2809945591909339,0.20747434213117835,0.0,0.20821837283928074,0.2576270899709226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392005996941345,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlemissbones,2019/08/29,"Purging blood?? 😧 Hi y’all,

First post, though I’ve been lurking for a year 😅 I have AN b/p subtype and have been mostly not-purging for the last 3 months or so, but started again within the last couple weeks due to some intense stress. Tonight, for the first time, I think I might have purged blood. There was some bright red *stuff* when I didn’t eat anything close to that color, but no pain. I stopped when I saw it so I don’t have any other info. Does anyone have experience with this? I’m generally medically stable so this is a scary surprise. 

Thanks 💖",0.7788116308470272,3.2203740176991182,1.9684766118836912,95.325685840708,87.58407079646021,4.290518331226297,19.575853350189632,5.773587663045528,-0.2397934260429837,436,13,94,3,14,138,83,113,0.17,0.705,0.125,-0.7340000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,8,5,0,1,6,0,12,5,2,0,0,14,17,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,5,4,8,3,7,11,3,18,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,5,15,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14044344306123518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144406424932066,0.0,0.16995170469152415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285149446454832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18073059696809132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113256725434544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020201598989214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513385204903116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366893471962229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805126338646004,0.0,0.2190893913225672,0.0,0.0,0.16484553463033247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21975616125921935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977929613082513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617879290114347,0.0,0.0,0.17266336200193266,0.2365726133782342,0.0,0.2364206386714758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901396074031866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233227880699786,0.20290884073047716,0.0,0.12042584042239425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16566114388698244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299472371894006
EDAnonymous,terran400,2019/08/29,"If you have one, what food is worth going over your calorie limit for? Mine’s definitely chicken wings",3.895263157894739,6.770410368421057,4.262368421052631,81.4240789473684,76.89473684210526,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.3702421052631577,83,3,14,1,2,26,19,19,0.0,0.777,0.223,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8071514487017295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37935929811863306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523196455932877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aliceneedsahobby,2019/08/29,"Ended Up In Hospital Last Night TW: Numbers, food

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I was getting ready for bed and woke up on the bathroom floor, once I came to, I went to go lay down and made it 2 steps out of the bathroom before I fainted again. I called for my flatmate who made me drink a pepsi and took me to hospital where I almost fainted for a 3rd time. Blood pressure measured 84/37 with mid 40's pulse. Dr says I'm vitamin deficient and need to eat more but despite this, I haven't been able to make myself eat any more than half a tortilla and a piece of chicken today. I told them about my ed and they said that's probably the cause for this. I wish I cared enough about my health to want to get better but all I can think of is that I can't possibly be sick enough to need it.",4.202049689440994,4.310485757763979,4.834341614906833,89.07859316770187,70.30434782608697,7.930683229813666,27.901242236024853,7.554174236665415,1.3267336645962742,601,19,135,6,10,193,108,161,0.01,0.858,0.132,0.9551,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,1,7,0,7,11,1,4,1,22,26,8,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,7,9,4,0,1,1,0,5,2,1,0,1,10,2,20,2,25,15,6,20,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,1,6,83,27,0,0.14751268942394902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771265029424505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982993736069806,0.17924406371855311,0.1003136872339452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255224338768272,0.0,0.0,0.13046298630392847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062694880926078,0.1687152188721415,0.1503990180731064,0.1515361662788113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14450627696808116,0.0,0.3018846157279728,0.0,0.0,0.13065245874373282,0.3048400816047637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837292958666706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413858372456626,0.0,0.08383486083089199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679909085331886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024253013690694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791601468811132,0.0984658656452917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187575801627148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384306662407453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709619994313098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629839313663605,0.0,0.0,0.15904362866574578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031834770815532,0.11730801135574374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452017508152698,0.0,0.0,0.08601583546872925,0.0,0.1398247813678571,0.1409546962620107,0.16389202564575125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700680614424093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674574096239567,0.0,0.0,0.16963231286432984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17924406371855311,0.0
EDAnonymous,besthunty,2019/08/29,you guys ever go so long without eating a swig of mouthwash is considered a meal? that’s where i’m at financially and mentally rn,4.091153846153849,5.668803500000003,6.272307692307695,73.24769230769233,71.69230769230771,9.815384615384616,32.230769230769226,10.125756701596842,3.635907692307693,105,5,19,3,2,37,25,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213847738576804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725060180435065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340412994377185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40775696920812815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644391811507411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150079515574867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969704604730992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adonut_girl,2019/08/29,Being broke has it’s perks It’s makes it real easy to not buy and binge on food when you’re broke 🙃,-3.526250000000001,-2.6103111249999955,-0.9346666666666668,110.31300000000005,118.58333333333334,1.92,4.8,3.1291,-3.0699400000000003,79,0,22,0,5,26,20,24,0.22,0.667,0.114,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6756190665341059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729569076815638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6359575630088763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,krystaluna,2019/08/29,Lost over 10 pounds but still not satisfied... I haven't been this low in the 130's for a LONG ass time and I thought I'd feel happier about losing the weight but when I look in the mirror I still see this huge disgusting person and I wish I could just drop another 10 pounds maybe I'd see a difference then...,1.6672820512820543,3.5401185230769263,2.7950000000000017,94.31916666666667,79.15384615384616,7.410256410256411,20.06410256410256,8.344100000000001,0.7544871794871799,244,6,57,5,6,78,46,65,0.266,0.581,0.153,-0.8188,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,0,5,0,3,2,1,0,0,10,10,6,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,5,6,0,5,6,0,12,0,3,3,1,1,5,1,0,6,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24956382484030815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900236895288772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865941725480803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203399864153324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21062257238693705,0.1998601168200776,0.26626120009582305,0.259805190826174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23910305954241215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20781248089755905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793104833862657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801343264300525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18894547059073905,0.13877975467217904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898199674784554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273688334659546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbandbloated,2019/08/29,"Food/water weight is a bitch Posting for the first time cos I’m freaking out a little lol

Reached my lowest weight yet yesterday and then today was 1lb up again which I was like ok, cool, water weight, it’ll go quickly.

Ate REALLY badly today, checked my weight tonight and I am up FIVE WHOLE POUNDS. I don’t even think I ate THAT badly compared to some of my binges in the past.

I KNOW it’s water and food weight but someone please reassure me and tell me how quickly it’ll come off. I’m just so annoyed at myself cos I feel like I’ve ruined all my progress... it took me forever to lose those 6lb.",0.6764285714285698,2.8911634682539717,2.1549206349206362,95.64285714285715,84.95238095238095,4.8698412698412685,20.11111111111111,6.1826913282559595,-0.013850793650793669,471,14,104,4,14,152,86,126,0.177,0.6940000000000001,0.129,-0.8541,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,8,12,2,0,4,3,7,10,0,3,1,16,17,8,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,6,10,0,3,0,1,3,1,7,0,2,5,7,14,5,10,10,3,23,0,2,0,0,2,7,1,1,14,59,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087985393205576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770685699121572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825846497733864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322161479751252,0.08932525775302098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10635497951030357,0.3023864110632873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106045392478233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871614204034418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217188336934034,0.12531823882414292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398825405371393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936036119754133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372512342066842,0.0,0.0,0.11974927382209105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010082784942632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059420210729287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928638103275023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801175844961648,0.0,0.0,0.0729091007314583,0.0,0.2370377271568652,0.0,0.13891884141767036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7612966766221944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959746976413231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mapauvretete,2019/08/29,"is this what low blood sugar is TL;DR: nearly fainted this morning and I want to know what caused it

Basically this morning I woke up feeling very dizzy, shaky, weak, etc. and I couldn’t do much other than lie down in bed. I did eventually get up to brush my teeth, but I felt quite lightheaded throughout, and felt like I was going to pass out while walking down the hall to the bathroom. I felt like my heart was beating faster than normal (though I didn’t check my bpm—it just felt like how it is when you’re really anxious) and for a while I was feeling really hot/cold simultaneously, as if I had a fever or something. Google told me to eat something sugary, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to make it to the nearest dining hall (I live at uni) without fainting, so I went for some vending machine dried mango and banana bread, fell back asleep, and woke up feeling better than before. 

Now I’m just confused as to what could have caused this, since I definitely haven’t been restricting as hard as I used to (though I was trying), and nothing like this has ever happened to me before. For context, two days ago, I b/p’ed (for the first time if that makes a difference), and after that (yesterday), I didn’t eat anything except for a Quest Bar in the late afternoon. Google’s telling me that my blood sugar probably dropped, but I don’t know if I should trust that, especially since I’ve never had any sorts of concerns around diabetes or anything like that, and I guess I just want an opinion from anyone who is more Educated on things like this than I am. Can someone help?!?",7.770970873786408,6.3584388478964415,7.489954692556638,78.05415533980586,63.433656957928804,10.181747572815537,34.19223300970874,8.841846274778883,2.657669514563106,1240,42,247,15,15,394,176,309,0.061,0.8,0.139,0.9754,0,0,2,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,4,12,12,0,2,10,0,26,17,5,6,2,56,50,28,0,10,12,0,8,6,0,2,5,0,1,0,20,12,7,1,10,1,1,5,8,4,0,2,19,11,31,8,40,26,4,38,0,1,0,0,4,16,0,11,22,164,51,0,0.1077220946809926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548913735542994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325471833110073,0.0,0.0,0.12169530511431816,0.0,0.07532179326440604,0.0,0.17729221081029392,0.09589550267640047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283164152160384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332713693270875,0.0,0.0,0.09527143880216699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132052930804405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600732717615164,0.0,0.0,0.06947183944269514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254666146251964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204531914181488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013861061904775,0.0,0.09744080184526673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634025832725072,0.0,0.4137204158961634,0.0,0.0,0.09162835870579474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05628034840532206,0.0,0.06122094886385419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866803198745285,0.0,0.09525829256872084,0.0,0.0964978380584498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765120085864015,0.0722038493803675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840249212103915,0.0,0.12151521484433984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157654452477404,0.0,0.09512058316357908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381066935067285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918813425360167,0.0,0.08308192027446963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554478122104873,0.103362255127372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614263757541253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457570746796407,0.0,0.0,0.1380190644690464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821765977905668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127258125179502,0.16585946262161955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941538587947063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715657731261149,0.0,0.2116728221782539,0.0,0.06281361968662481,0.0,0.0,0.10293307779663956,0.0,0.07313623122438886,0.0,0.10522883387077878,0.0,0.0,0.09303730315044427,0.0,0.08888200968221728,0.1270745648521684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985946099076506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384025520056382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shrink-me,2019/08/31,"Is anyone else a literal trash panda? Me: only buys safe foods/low-cal foods that don't satisfy hunger or cravings

Also me: is a raccoon, eating from other people's actual trash, leftovers, pantries...

Ugh my eating disordered brain is somehow cool with the most unsanitary things and even (shamefully) eating other people's food, because whenever I buy food it's like I *have* to eat it, I can never leave it for the next day. Also today I spotted a candy someone dropped on the sidewalk and my first fucked up thought was about l eating it wHaT iS WrOnG wItH meeeeee??",3.427898799313893,6.1459197830188685,4.309691252144081,81.3276758147513,77.58490566037736,6.496054888507719,26.61749571183533,7.686295010490155,1.9028037735849064,451,18,75,7,11,145,78,106,0.125,0.7759999999999999,0.099,-0.6939,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,1,1,6,1,8,11,1,0,1,10,10,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,4,9,1,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,2,1,8,3,8,8,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,6,49,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.12607247769840102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20662913559888305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033385097591913,0.13237217917474786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875407034194389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422068019092285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331796840271223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14806489802041328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6609768858936454,0.10792310035287137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532990931284617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989040677034384,0.4686574037233933,0.0,0.0,0.11943565873794225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679537236021574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311654621707283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964061501458883,0.0,0.13739685453675066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825612084926927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913053683612348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946372086554357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582923486509586,0.0,0.0,0.10256379084509652,0.0,0.0,0.12245863981696395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412508594831245,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dumb_Th0t,2019/08/31,"My work is having a biggest loser contest - ouch. A bit of money to enter, whoever loses the most gets the pot. I think its insensitive to host a contest like that in the first place, but I got asked if i wanted to enter and it was a huge trigger for me. I didnt join, so I don't know why I was so upset but I am. Its going to be going for a few months so I'm gonna have to hear about it. Any thoughts? Am i being sensitive or is it kind of a dick move to host it?",0.05520964360587044,1.1571411037735864,3.2523899371069187,92.72206498951785,81.35849056603773,5.843186582809224,19.32494758909853,6.42735559955562,-0.0939631027253669,351,8,88,3,9,128,70,106,0.171,0.7829999999999999,0.046,-0.9141,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,1,9,0,12,1,1,1,0,11,24,8,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,1,5,2,3,0,1,5,1,10,2,12,16,3,11,0,2,0,1,2,4,1,3,3,61,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445553444049308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398296335694527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28007449390898354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182122142040654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340312062244207,0.0,0.29159441456655993,0.0,0.20517792920211486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891384579062938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267146224035998,0.1409873009728886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533215325814556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870018784230217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20476723738198654,0.2726606974974577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680289873778849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438003740008922,0.0,0.20366356404744007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131353740845804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23148683380619106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18676368004203825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arwenstrife,2019/08/31,"Why do you guys like pooping so much? I have never low restricted before, so I guess that's the reason why I'm missing out on this poop craze. Is it because you lose weight? You feel less constipated? Feel lighter? Would just like some clarification because I have yet to crave my BMs.",1.8523896103896118,4.594384472727274,2.7070129870129875,89.64909090909094,86.0909090909091,5.324675324675325,22.402597402597397,6.868970318607317,0.70525974025974,226,8,45,3,7,71,44,55,0.109,0.723,0.16699999999999998,0.5358,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,0,5,3,2,1,1,11,10,2,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,7,2,3,9,3,5,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,2,4,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140576593118548,0.0,0.21919619885655572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604977145296448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837722987730456,0.2550616745302979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25169790821878585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28818531628172595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893635422812866,0.0,0.1986747998421171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648527694807589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31368392752109603,0.0,0.0,0.4648827163226072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829896221433963,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fermentedpee,2019/08/31,"Hi [M/21] looking for girls to help me with my emetophilia (puke fetish) As long as I can remember i’ve be aroused by the sound/sight of women vomiting. My mom had 6 children so morning sickness was an everyday thing and I was a bit of a voyeur, hehe. Now that i’ve moved out of college, I find myself craving puke more and more.
So what better place would I find a girl to suit my needs than /r/EDanonymous :).          

I don’t know much about eating disorders but I do know that you girls tend to make yourselves sick. Especially bulimia, but correct me if i’m wrong. This will suit me great because I don’t think i could be in an relationship where vomit was not a prominent feature. Eventually I want to work my way up to being puked on/consuming it. There’s also the added bonus of a slim figure ;)

I hope you accept men into your spaces. If you’re interested, send me a DM with an description of your weight, height, and race (but don’t worry, if you make yourself vomit you’re already my type) I’ll be keeping in touch.",2.025147058823528,4.2126074950980446,3.4850588235294135,88.24376470588236,79.44117647058823,6.629019607843138,23.925490196078428,7.734863291789972,1.2149007843137252,795,28,164,13,20,261,133,204,0.099,0.764,0.138,0.8062,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,5,0,3,7,7,0,0,11,0,16,8,1,2,1,31,28,14,0,8,7,1,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,6,7,2,1,8,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,4,3,25,6,23,17,4,15,0,0,1,1,16,9,0,4,3,100,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946047471848579,0.1410256811864593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075002940315161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596575094144735,0.19252668260896708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079977733253388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211044335652045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18044834831542475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32235832422463423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442463625878184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820255609717978,0.0,0.0,0.17515366415552333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567464821909611,0.0,0.0,0.1938328404522493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560627065331219,0.14808816740527905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354277349085201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653701135842148,0.0,0.18743034695652036,0.12963630002651133,0.13076003865467362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842464519445828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893320902966135,0.19976826015379906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715798236759578,0.11299687753095325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401480329210318,0.13997708152182176,0.0,0.2147447351888592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838367124576938,0.1790902707238355,0.0,0.1252727809806267,0.19280919526711854,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugarspunglass,2019/08/31,Me yesterday: tomorrow I’m going to be so good!! Me today: 2760 calories by 6 pm 🥴,-0.706666666666667,1.1645405555555577,4.308888888888891,80.20000000000002,87.88888888888891,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.5798,62,3,13,2,2,25,17,18,0.0,0.764,0.23600000000000002,0.6514,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096210251398037,0.6045341369957923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6831903782769257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rubbernoodle,2019/08/31,The worst part about eating a “normal” meal Is that I get hot flashes after doing so. Also my stomach feels uncomfortably full like I ate an entire Thanksgiving turkey. I ate about three times the calorie content of what I usually eat for a “meal.” I’m a sweaty messsss,4.616176470588236,6.435649784313724,5.347205882352942,79.43492647058825,70.76470588235293,7.452941176470588,28.43627450980393,8.07648339933343,2.0571921568627447,213,8,37,3,4,69,41,51,0.138,0.8109999999999999,0.051,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,2,7,1,0,0,2,7,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,5,1,5,5,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625050427330645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6717727010731093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16597536196711052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149945266098046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036859094294836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216197611335523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3554676863538527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914078661761173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615260081944815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oookulele,2019/08/31,"Hair Loss :( I am having an absolute break-down over realising that my hair has been thinning recently. Usually I never fussed much about my hair, but right now I feel really vulnerable about it and I am crying and I can't stand to look at my hairbrush because it's just dropping out in clumps and it's so bad. I don't even know whether it's my weight (even though I have been eating a lot recently) or stress or the fact that I just stopped taking the pill (though I also stopped taking my betablockers which supposedly can cause hairloss when taken) - I've been noticing the increased shedding since Easter but it's only now that I feel like it's really visible and it's really shaking me up.",4.590955882352944,6.018640889705884,5.418411764705883,80.43835294117648,70.25,8.675294117647061,29.04117647058824,9.120678840339163,2.4420817647058826,555,21,105,11,10,181,85,136,0.2,0.758,0.043,-0.9673,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,13,5,0,2,5,0,11,6,3,1,2,21,18,14,0,0,7,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,5,2,2,3,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,4,8,16,1,8,14,3,20,0,1,1,0,0,7,0,3,10,74,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477600060723552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071824652974566,0.10273632129820008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313009995226092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512589090628387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724516165958392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22262927976795305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043097726707268,0.1204002066559008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926214814305852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233684612408357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152550636326675,0.0,0.0,0.1432809651705233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238913501718326,0.0,0.12998325285337098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19187625272431635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281771514444385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32390019807315346,0.0,0.33281255776594765,0.0,0.0,0.14392649757938508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941246818482406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818027317337234,0.19305429921672146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534320999316245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311661776291105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856155942478342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20522812807369195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eIectioneering,2019/08/31,"how a week of living in university residence has affected my eating tw restriction//

i told myself i’d get binging under control. i think i went too far. 

i ate one cafeteria meal the first night and couldn’t finish it. i blamed my nausea on homesickness but all i’ve eaten since is some small things here and there and the occasional slice of free pizza. 

i feel better about my body already. i know i’ve lost weight but i’ve also slipped into inadvertent restriction, not counting cals but hardly eating meals. i’ve been drinking too much caffeine and way too much liquor and people are asking at nearly every meal if i’m eating. 

it warms my heart when people notice, ask if i’m not eating, and see if i’m ok. i feel like people are caring about me but i also hate that people are noticing. university has fucked my eating habits and classes haven’t even started for me yet.",4.557990950226248,6.216965188235296,5.4052941176470615,79.60074660633485,70.6470588235294,7.58371040723982,24.84162895927602,8.139509932561175,1.57116742081448,702,20,125,10,13,229,110,170,0.122,0.76,0.11800000000000001,0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,13,10,2,0,3,1,9,18,2,3,1,29,29,18,0,4,9,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,8,15,3,4,2,1,1,4,4,0,2,6,6,17,7,11,22,4,17,0,2,1,1,3,8,1,4,8,77,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295828550417545,0.1878115582143576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195555002587122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385403022324896,0.0,0.13043416052284432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197239509152722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131703593625572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503308088265328,0.0,0.6007821623197569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755897145814754,0.0,0.0989367322317088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874854300583193,0.08388938060001104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998827608145859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855873306016214,0.06135040131385475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051909104785398,0.1159341720403956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915074484742326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453442999208019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057368564504613084,0.0,0.10368958465334642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818469070405986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726437008088763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019663893097584,0.0,0.0,0.2673812685205253,0.0,0.0,0.0795711078803789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32563447695271297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935735672544875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713625855616796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311494786927258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801282376582164,0.07524203912330728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220587310182506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093207540547713,0.09419230426565453,0.14299361291800555,0.0,0.10885536746587243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zedisdedd,2019/08/31,"How to ask new boyfriend to stop cooking me meals?? My boyfriend of two(ish) months is the sweetest, most supportive person I’ve ever dated. However, we are at the point in our relationship where I’m staying at his house pretty much 24/7, and I’m having issues with food (obviously, cuz I’m a dumb bitch who doesn’t eat like a normal human.) he’s noticed that when he doesn’t cook for me, I only eat shiritaki noodles and microwaved protein bars (lol) 

I’m not sure if he realizes that my eating is disordered, or if he thinks I’m just an incredibly lazy and terrible cook (also true.) anyway, he’s started insisting on making me dinner and holy shit, his meals are sooooo not my idea of safe food. I watch him cook for me and he uses, like, 1/3 of a tub of earth balance, cheese (BIG NO) tons of olive oil, you get the idea. I always eat it without saying anything even tho I’m fucking dying inside. Annnnnddd of course, I’ve been bloated, gaining weight, all that fun, horrible, spiraling-self-hatred-inducing stuff. 

Lately it’s been way worse because I’m forced to lay in bed with a broken foot. He’s been taking care of me and cooking all of my meals, and DUDEEE I CAN’T DO THIS, I can’t exercise, I’m just forced to lay in bed and eat 800+ kcal meals and get fat fat fat fat 

Idk how to ask him to stop cooking for me without sounding ungrateful, but the truth is that I would be soooooo much happier just cooking for myself. I’m sure someone out there dealt with this kind of thing before, how did you handle it??",4.643019801980195,5.338724349834989,5.3897871287128725,83.40428465346535,69.52805280528052,8.172211221122112,29.011386138613855,8.238735603445708,1.8983770297029707,1190,42,239,16,20,387,175,303,0.102,0.816,0.08199999999999999,-0.4264,1,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,2,2,0,1,14,16,4,0,9,1,17,29,6,6,8,49,38,20,1,4,11,0,1,2,0,1,5,2,2,2,12,14,25,3,4,9,0,0,9,5,0,0,4,5,25,11,31,32,6,21,0,0,1,1,22,10,4,4,11,131,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359794473092189,0.08698289150169382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860247800261666,0.0,0.1954553676089419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06372458947475312,0.0,0.08895301466085342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065821116308421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849256898168133,0.0,0.11980809120092945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348356030740955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06904549082059319,0.09455941133569153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528123353024204,0.0,0.0,0.0966424756038104,0.10923220076587233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062129263954692,0.0,0.23601837353995306,0.0,0.1091091337891962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885886503507426,0.0,0.0,0.11792192763620014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021426823853984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977904522576528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344018014182006,0.0,0.15369297497537002,0.0,0.0,0.10096217635303244,0.0,0.0,0.1024237505523105,0.0,0.11901570233686437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950485527053038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127739626561224,0.0,0.0,0.09882095125352433,0.0,0.0,0.10635138454255423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223327189236736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313176323686174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090545551944034,0.0,0.10730539914957878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885735892030537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399159971143597,0.11142219116970327,0.0,0.1747946896061396,0.0,0.0,0.11966948770696165,0.0,0.11862698494302105,0.19704916634689926,0.0,0.07859857314236113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944952474154747,0.0669828831396304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021171459791868,0.0,0.0,0.09028612707987108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297635030874474,0.0,0.1272975131376171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201539257041536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653180710505908,0.07425985772662833,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MaidenlikeSaprolite,2019/08/31,"Am I just transitioning to BED? I used to be restrictive but I put on weight and am trying to live my life without worrying about food, but now I am weight restored and I still want to eat all the time. I eat until I feel physically sick and I believe it’s out of gluttony. Sometimes I will choose to eat instead of doing things I know I would enjoy, just because they’re more effort and eating gives me instant satisfaction. Do I have BED? I can’t seem to find a balance with eating, or eat in moderation.",2.0944117647058818,4.299075892156868,3.889960784313725,85.34082352941176,79.29411764705883,6.432941176470589,24.90588235294117,7.554174236665415,1.311322352941176,399,15,80,6,10,134,71,102,0.045,0.797,0.158,0.8797,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,2,0,10,11,0,1,1,22,16,8,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,6,9,1,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,15,1,15,13,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964825745584805,0.0,0.0,0.14720747646359916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8021780758978709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660649037472272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941957476577753,0.0,0.1579928732075945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253396153867408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180653838589941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922880188751635,0.0,0.0,0.11537391965098673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313479607400689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894666376554575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922467625423942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043441105267516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680375460076656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618806855136198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870859896167539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284706192101908,0.0,0.0,0.07706581555395571,0.0,0.0,0.3182139008958569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595020826822506,0.0,0.0,0.13269013000343702,0.0,0.09281610624087984,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plans-are-overrated,2019/08/31,"How can I look at pictures of myself from last year and think that I look so much skinnier/better if I weigh less now? I cannot understand. I’m looking at old pictures of me from last year when I was about +10 pounds heavier and I’m like “wooow I looked so good too bad I look bigger now” and then I’m like?? wait a second?? I’m literally thinner now? I started at about +30 than what I weigh now. After hitting my LW last year, I went through a small period of gain but then I dropped back down to that LW and I continued losing. So for me, that LW seems like the skinniest I’ve ever been even though I’m skinnier now?? I think that I’m so hung up on how I looked 10 pounds ago because then I could see that I was skinny and that weight loss was working but now I just feel like Invader Zim from that episode where he harvests everyone’s organs and ends up looking like a whole blob.",1.2598924731182812,3.2114855268817237,2.587311827956992,94.91763440860215,80.82795698924731,5.638709677419356,22.161290322580648,6.691623216298621,0.354883870967742,692,22,157,7,18,223,102,186,0.05,0.841,0.10800000000000001,0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,22,9,0,0,4,0,7,4,1,2,1,20,30,20,0,2,4,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,6,4,1,5,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,10,21,6,20,23,3,37,0,2,8,0,1,10,0,2,30,96,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056441779409398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164058780295237,0.09950871949576214,0.07264985195738684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515400000527194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105556405765892,0.0,0.0,0.07871599845187766,0.1078033972653105,0.0,0.11387976358274672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602600186134099,0.08514084482157941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996091990926984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29143812730713764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29112195209863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7005570054381511,0.13332978797610107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760960228135113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505734801361953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496950045444602,0.10849524885314968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435485908082227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527290041060541,0.1170918594029416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406858527764734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512679579764712,0.0,0.11047927500619342,0.0,0.133058071251646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867630623132671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302403301152787
EDAnonymous,shes_toast,2019/08/31,Swooned twice yesterday and today I'm hauling drywall I am so fucking nervous. Thoughts n prayers.,3.845098039215685,6.993671941176473,3.278823529411767,81.6480392156863,94.2941176470588,4.6196078431372545,52.72549019607843,6.42735559955562,5.198349019607845,81,8,11,1,3,24,16,17,0.17,0.83,0.0,-0.3962,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5988248839555472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5142329418186128,0.0,0.0,0.6139814654402854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kaychiddy,2019/08/31,"What were some infuriating things about inpatient treatment? For example, when talking about our various disorders we had to refer to things like purging as “symptom use”. However, anorexic girls were able to freely say “restrict”.. The fact that the words “binge and purge” were not allowed was incredibly humiliating for those with Bulimia, BED, or EDNOS.",9.327631578947368,11.625305929824565,8.392061403508773,60.276513157894755,59.877192982456144,12.015789473684213,42.32017543859649,11.698219412168324,5.96619649122807,286,16,39,9,4,89,49,57,0.092,0.8240000000000001,0.084,-0.1263,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,12,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,2,1,9,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,29,7,0,0.3670530093480765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206745486943006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932355980381992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918952854626313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38150861879981335,0.0,0.2950233051931043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4877074191706596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31701594927326915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fannyclan,2019/08/31,"What started your ED? Hi everyone. So this is my first time posting here and tbh I found this sub last night after eating myself sick and feeling ashamed and it just got me wondering how everyone started noticing their relationship with food before they realized it could be possibly be unhealthy? Also forgive me if what I’m asking upsets people because of my wording I just don’t know how to talk about the subject really and I don’t know what’s a bad phrasing or not. 

So I’m gonna start off by saying that I don’t have an ED just a lot of guilt when I eat food. I’m at a normal weight (I’m 5’5 weighing in at 134) but I have this terrible guilt when I eat where I just feel ashamed of myself. I know I don’t have a lot to complain about because my health is fine but I’ve honestly been wondering where my head is and if I’ll continue being fine in the future with this mindset. I use to get shamed for my weight daily from 10-17 when I was in ballet where I’d be publicly humiliated by my parents and ballet teacher and it made me very ashamed of my body where I couldn’t even look in the mirror. I also go on social media a lot and look at girls from middle school I know who were very popular and still very popular and I get upset that I’ve never been that way. 

I don’t know if that makes sense, but I’m trying here haha. I want to be very thin because I feel like I’d be so much happier but the ways my brain wants to do it are unhealthy and I know that. I don’t have the discipline to restrict myself and when I do I’m eating whatever I see and however much of it by the end of the week and the process of guilt and disgust starts all over again. 

I guess I just want to know what started others EDs and what they were doing before they realized that maybe they had one. 

Once again, I’m sorry if this post upsets anyone because I know there’s nothing for me to complain about.",3.1040215408668463,4.120673886649875,4.521257708677148,87.03017632241814,73.35768261964736,7.390219751585164,25.78033527316947,7.753152298057669,1.280610596716755,1491,48,319,19,29,497,180,397,0.162,0.753,0.084,-0.9863,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,5,1,30,23,1,10,14,1,31,14,3,5,2,70,73,36,0,10,15,1,6,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,23,18,9,2,17,2,0,1,9,15,0,2,9,10,47,8,38,55,6,43,0,0,3,0,19,16,0,11,23,215,70,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303580190838464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05698974559084328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619557700496378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680527385585041,0.1987372124421973,0.0,0.13870841944797324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053297330729768,0.0,0.09098582407618247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507460168282486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335972432177022,0.0,0.0,0.07218867372790935,0.0,0.0,0.05383286299091992,0.0,0.0,0.15576182303362812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363316440034047,0.05822673312100925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06932756942229383,0.19711079821436456,0.08936532701742075,0.0,0.0,0.08516533126406624,0.0,0.046320807688866025,0.0,0.06518648455388383,0.0,0.08978624458648993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364699031580157,0.08663532641697037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583413304891955,0.06643693398298067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03981891475480832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368862748280966,0.0,0.0,0.20787628407021014,0.0,0.07712139884241788,0.054404795108726464,0.0,0.08188208743574944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198301694460298,0.0,0.06286118923138047,0.0,0.0,0.07648632329829486,0.07985697059965254,0.07820563436038656,0.09279325733690952,0.0,0.08679948644390194,0.055229465631472886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050094957816987,0.0,0.0,0.05650486285901413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188392288248516,0.1561172994888501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052213781894211365,0.0,0.0,0.08750518356808415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481554070130258,0.0,0.08248676653659975,0.06494842480345046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308343386143299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123746137459347,0.288446037706833,0.0,0.06508948947295695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655101195460195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04752584943131415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533611230311269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039360067264315,0.0,0.2689985407867931,0.14422015478117478,0.1293887390637527,0.06537788362843683,0.1985007131494904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17677600958240147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bummy_Girl,2019/08/31,Body Dysmorphia? I've heard of body dysmorphia before but i don't understand it and how it manifests itself. Is it random? does it focus on only 1 body part or multiple? what are some of the symptoms? sorry if this seems intrusive but i'm genuinely curious.,1.0934467120181388,3.4841712244897987,3.872108843537416,76.99868480725625,102.06122448979592,8.708390022675736,23.811791383219948,8.515128840125781,3.3077600907029487,206,9,34,8,9,72,39,49,0.031,0.887,0.083,0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,3,1,0,10,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,6,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,0,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19734996416398973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.772844753431398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295796958712886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638840457879795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25115073760501955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21113460191166816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25961956461399954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410574987565099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24144072334260075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sorryihaveaboyfriend,2019/08/31,"I cant fucking win with my mom So I'm a bit emotional right now so sorry in advance for the rambling but I need to talk about this lmao

I dont know what the fuck my mom wants from me like she literally bitches and finds fault in everything I do

For example I can never use the kitchen when she's home like it doesnt matter if it's 5am or 9pm like the moment I even open the fridge she complains that she was ""just about to cook"" and I'm ""always in here making a mess"" when she needs the kitchen 

Or if I use anything in the fridge she freaks tf out on me 

Like literally ten minutes ago she made a snide comment about ""dirtying the stove"" she just cleaned while I'm chopping up peppers (and not even needing the stove??) and then I take like a tablespoon of ricotta cheese just for some fucking flavor and she blows up on me cuz ""i UsE tHaT fOr LaSaGNa"" 

But god forbid I buy my own food cuz then she bitches about it ""taking up space"" in the fridge when we have two fucking refrigerators but apparently I'm not allowed to use either one??!

Oh but I'm also ""tOo SkiNnY"" right now but then she called me fat my whole life and alludes to me gaining all the weight back if I so much as glance at the kitchen 

Like I legit cant fucking win with her and I have no idea what to do and I want to move out cuz I'm an adult or whatever lmao but I just cant afford it right now and ugh fuck me right 

Again sorry for the rant but this place is so supportive and I guess I feel safe complaining here since everyone else in my life would be like ""lol y u mad""",0.43330462681526427,2.550922224924012,2.105473657548128,96.24474206349207,85.10942249240122,5.236102668017561,20.385089496791625,6.56203326957186,0.07338696386356025,1208,37,282,13,36,394,166,329,0.16899999999999998,0.682,0.149,-0.7405,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,4,26,27,9,0,18,1,14,16,2,10,2,63,43,39,0,9,20,2,2,7,0,1,3,0,7,1,10,16,8,2,4,1,1,2,9,16,0,3,2,4,41,11,34,39,7,38,0,0,1,6,21,21,8,8,22,182,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163847727137602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364997694762987,0.07663212265035901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578802428989133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081694600027393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054612476720687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940413842701286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793705572439656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693526694643625,0.10359678439250346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165846477786728,0.0,0.0,0.08800267721442442,0.08277088934212846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04656703526713813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841750344628028,0.0,0.1113641174255601,0.0,0.0,0.5108534275544045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145528277406413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923808494520698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396635842175772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061412967800818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130101738924411,0.3149577635602896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714445473829534,0.061475495466389085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157259017989505,0.0,0.09788458822888077,0.06770192796236121,0.2048663850066036,0.07103092192301462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062407344008067175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962218145251124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31460150712635826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618363077820285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20619021289904704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451063999888828,0.0,0.0,0.13849103871354615,0.07402411954875572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996543481460689,0.0,0.0,0.3181691224360299,0.0,0.0,0.10864245150565104,0.0,0.0,0.11214939479975326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282306642324752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654231013370529,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittystone21,2019/08/31,"I don't like eating around anyone. Even if my mom 'understands' she doesnt. its uncomfortable letting her or my dad see me binge. 
Plus they make me so anxious it's hard to even eat around them
I can't wait till I can move out even with other people it'll just be different. 
I need change. I wanna do things without feeling like I'm constantly being watched & judged.",1.8440540540540555,4.2816027972973005,2.8472297297297287,91.1246283783784,81.83783783783784,5.8621621621621625,21.41216216216216,7.1686216300943375,0.6436270270270268,293,9,60,4,8,93,60,74,0.14300000000000002,0.825,0.032,-0.6894,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,1,0,15,16,5,0,3,4,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,13,2,9,12,0,6,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,2,4,42,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038995262403396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21259669199893647,0.0,0.13158407440942815,0.0,0.0,0.33505099687168216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19907590754311427,0.0,0.0,0.2033622853677052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966143878761738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851226568854095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728853696062767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515253042611302,0.13444016470296066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857775357072333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19243300470140004,0.0,0.18387641452609774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561566179313816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204012486179349,0.0,0.200012008629394,0.0,0.1395375850520381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046452483426554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499599318001784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502246173478987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19590833370451416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18140465428167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,temporarymoodswings,2019/08/31,"Quick way to get rid of post-binge nausea without purging? HELP! My flatmate has people over, so...
And just don't say water. I KNOW I'd throw up, I tried.",-1.0090624999999989,1.0743887187500007,0.9185000000000016,99.8765,99.3125,2.5600000000000005,15.775,3.1291,-1.2458575,117,3,26,0,5,38,30,32,0.106,0.894,0.0,-0.4753,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319231691554341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975416117348152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439597655903635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30774933115266434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251403513617171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530127902246924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30138382235105177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523528408953939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279106607262304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,khlamydiah,2019/08/31,How can I have energy and exceptional concentration while relapsing? i’m currently relapsing and have very low energy but school is also starting for me next week. i want to actually be able to keep my grades up for once.,5.966504065040648,7.704842073170737,7.583902439024388,65.03162601626018,67.29268292682927,13.271544715447154,30.739837398373986,12.45797560212912,4.927627642276423,179,7,31,8,3,62,33,41,0.042,0.845,0.113,0.2152,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,9,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,8,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,21,4,2,0.3362520857746527,0.0,0.3281335307695529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26890067150945723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988763036866055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576079079180854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580974972690966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403050624460445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380009569912867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774431859313065,0.1983301921810265,0.0,0.2697211407952777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saveboykings,2019/08/31,"I need a hug. But if its not too much, im going to dip my body in cement first so you don’t actually have to feel me i saw a full body video of myself almost 14 hours ago and counting. I felt so cute in the outfit, and now im trying to wrap my head around the fact that i left my house looking like that 

time to go back to the scoreboard. 

god i just wish i didnt care this much. i wish it didn’t make me so fucking sad.",0.2192010309278345,1.21707157731959,2.5201932989690725,98.58998067010313,80.64948453608247,5.2623711340206185,17.27963917525773,5.148860815047168,-0.8788340206185565,321,5,86,1,8,110,68,97,0.064,0.763,0.17300000000000001,0.8647,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,8,6,1,0,5,0,4,5,3,1,1,15,16,7,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,4,4,14,4,9,12,3,13,0,1,2,2,1,5,1,2,7,53,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.16850054352592705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530611110916212,0.0,0.17290358210010565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15371248075794608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277220253491595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835938220613361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604808333868055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730689739028173,0.0,0.1657898172821683,0.0,0.0,0.14687260540230504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963018877018278,0.0,0.0,0.1962641346377604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720874255534622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17004469545645784,0.19923744288888184,0.0,0.0,0.3730254234191823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18760593857463684,0.0,0.0,0.08435760553939646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499890877000338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525824532119963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538639294438973,0.12803226110403773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068498561396433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723126967406962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971228527244315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hama-beau,2019/08/31,":,) finally Just doing my daily 2 hour workout and I went to but my wrist weights on and they don’t fit!!! It’s the kind that velcro’s. I had the thought of having a small after workout snack but that is completely out of the question now.",-0.14734693877550953,2.1718791632653094,1.829795918367349,94.41163265306123,94.10204081632654,4.4326530612244905,21.285714285714285,6.1826913282559595,0.3354000000000004,185,7,39,2,7,61,39,49,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.8666,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,5,3,1,0,0,8,7,4,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,1,6,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579258512215099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739603143810141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361862288904082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35549018447024744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824188310634524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710141167607766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157035480143465,0.0,0.3164586274347546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ddmar,2019/08/31,"tHe NuMbEr On ThE sCaLe DoEsN't MaTtEr But honestly, sometimes, I wish it were all that matters. Life was a lot simpler when that was the only thing that matters. Now apparently I also have to worry about shit I never realized were A Thing until after I got sucked into the whole fitness/ED mess. Now I have to worry about body composition, inches off my waist/other body parts, cellulite (I'm 24 and genuinely didn't even know this was a thing people were worried about until less than a year ago), hip dips (again, I learned this term like last week), thigh gaps (still not really sure what this is), butt/boob size, hip to waist ratios, underarm fat, etc. Tbh the whole ""throw your scale away"" thing messed with my head more than just focusing on the number on the scale",8.58055772994129,7.226309678082195,7.73880626223092,76.72801369863015,61.8082191780822,10.534637964774953,31.816046966731896,9.23628265651192,2.5406704500978474,607,16,114,8,7,188,100,146,0.168,0.765,0.067,-0.9454,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,0,11,7,2,0,11,0,11,10,9,0,3,17,16,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,12,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,8,0,9,3,18,8,9,22,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,1,15,81,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432688964599954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12118271502037704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237239125974122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33664308744026183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900190260155146,0.100087628523469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211966127805696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551892336185574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327983126370628,0.12352148481956808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703385530550233,0.07403248734623598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882988285654726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687335591635015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11524941492277233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409794983700662,0.0,0.10505548858801134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707738573953847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15554879545359626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987227452358873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210162766979419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282021554045826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026932476459586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155246752076472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383674747040281,0.17425810264074118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616743218142141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758375715616338
EDAnonymous,sewermeat,2019/08/31,"Gained 15 or so pounds this year cause of stress of moving away to college, and now I’m feeling ashamed. Anyone else have similar stories? :0( I feel so so terrible about this. Been struggling hardcore of ana/binge for three years now. Went from an ok 128 to 147(?)  and I feel awful (AND can hardly fit in my fav pants). Worse is that since I’m going into college, and presumably am going to lose the weight I lost pretty easily since I’ll be working so much and walking, I hate that people might notice it for some reason. I wish I could’ve stuck to my shit in the summer. I’m trying to be nice to myself and I don’t really have time to count calories anymore. So I’m gonna do this via clean eating. I’d love to hear if anyone else has struggled with gaining more than you thought you would have under stress. Thank you💕",2.6530357142857137,4.308017279761908,3.629285714285718,90.4157142857143,75.60714285714286,5.990476190476191,22.119047619047624,6.5431188927421005,0.4115190476190471,645,17,134,5,14,207,114,168,0.19699999999999998,0.627,0.17600000000000002,-0.7345,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,5,8,14,2,5,3,2,14,4,1,2,0,21,33,13,0,3,2,0,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,6,8,2,0,6,0,0,5,1,10,0,1,5,6,12,4,22,23,3,17,0,2,0,1,4,6,1,4,6,76,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354451597332768,0.19099206752434866,0.2798733355232272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831619530408864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029958543917798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904358836726537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974976230813607,0.2281808629583107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20716844266096088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523681915357995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234388484164327,0.13483899824419804,0.0,0.0,0.15392933560494793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279187965146207,0.14908714989360794,0.0,0.123263776972083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488391302891573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515703070176664,0.10039793815980612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554909211065408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468353008718176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894531913673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749309243137884,0.14042128517158806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019171441972786,0.2259515993669127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31289115127670586,0.28555454566119404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573940790129845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842486097410914,0.07963766243936364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272508929421468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631089161929113,0.0,0.12660588715368565,0.0,0.0,0.15705388196350445,0.0,0.0,0.09942782911750546,0.0,0.13918103652428007,0.09701857362041194,0.0,0.0,0.1758989412338087
EDAnonymous,zarnaah,2019/08/31,"My ex fwb keeps making triggering comments and gestures. Been lurking since the proED days, finally gaining some courage to post/reach out more regularly. Posting on mobile so I’m sorry if the formatting is weird! 


So, to preface: this guy was my fwb for a few months before I went home for summer vacation, and I’ve relapsed harder than ever before with the school year having started. I’ve stopped hiding it too. Most of my friends are supportive but he seems to not understand that his comments hurt me despite telling him.


I have this friend, we tell each other pretty much everything. Lately he’s been frustrated with women, saying he can’t get anyone hot and general upset over not getting laid. He constantly points out hot girls around campus, commenting on how petite they are, how he likes how dainty they look. Basically the worst stuff I already constantly think about coming from someone else. 

Today, he invited me over and I was still mad over him continuing with those comments at a football game we went to yesterday but I figured I’d try and move past it. The first thing he says to me when I get in his car is “did you see the ass on that little blonde?” As if I didn’t hate myself enough already. We get back to his place, I try to study and just chat with him and eventually he goes to bed. 

Now, I’m still not tired because I had a bunch of energy drinks (bless white monster) and I’m watching supersize vs super skinny and he wakes up. I was still on his couch because I’m too angry to share a bed and he comes over and sits by me. He covers me with the blanket next to me, which I initially thought was a kind gesture but he probably was grossed out by looking at me lol. He asks to fuck, I say no, he asks why not, I tell him we’re incompatible and if he would rather I go home I’d be happy to. He says sorry and asks for “at least a handy” to which I say no and he goes back to bed. 

Emotionally this really fucked with me. I’ve been back on campus for 2 weeks and this was his first attempt at trying anything with me and it made me feel like I was beyond a last choice. When we had the fwb thing going on, he never once complimented me and I honestly just used spending time with him to justify not eating. I know most of the issue lies with me and my internalized issues but I haven’t felt so low in a very long time. He knows my issues. I’ve stopped trying to pretend I’m fine and joke about my ED casually now. I’m literally watching ED vids on his tv right now and like he just can’t see how his comments hurt me? Am I irrational? It is now two hours later and all I can think about is leaving or crying or telling him I can’t be talked to like this but I really don’t know if I’ll shake it off and be fine tomorrow or if my emotions are justified.",2.8087234042553177,4.50237405673759,4.1329078014184395,86.805,75.27659574468086,7.282269503546098,24.76595744680851,8.058908269544373,1.3499106382978725,2184,72,455,35,47,719,275,564,0.147,0.72,0.133,-0.8785,0,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,4,1,2,5,31,32,5,2,17,1,34,8,3,8,3,95,76,45,0,7,23,1,4,4,2,1,1,5,6,3,19,42,3,3,11,7,1,9,14,13,0,3,19,17,64,19,65,53,12,80,1,3,8,3,67,29,3,12,44,283,83,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888589577412554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050337203977622,0.0,0.059241779785257874,0.06408651825128094,0.201903286045256,0.0,0.0,0.16606800187713702,0.0,0.0877690845689109,0.0,0.12251667261852155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402632204880824,0.0,0.15559160766002358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907782646648684,0.046427707057528286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052296422164991,0.0,0.07366392104459549,0.060138553351478864,0.1619585137611279,0.0,0.07438509461110178,0.0,0.0,0.06511923449578952,0.0,0.0,0.06470012703168401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036400395371120574,0.051429795161846266,0.06912185724112686,0.07886171748874446,0.0,0.12246961158020905,0.0,0.0,0.1112388607268528,0.13310751287900086,0.15044757990110602,0.0,0.08182735054768467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712815911931262,0.0,0.07663487957806198,0.0,0.07107539330544306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14442402980927285,0.0,0.07089582072430672,0.0,0.15413394182074888,0.0,0.0,0.2254171161332932,0.0,0.06398817498705832,0.0,0.07496668876246303,0.11869175186324198,0.058681600749002735,0.08120805268844564,0.07622720040493515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068305189994584,0.07215306750739295,0.0,0.06370903917594392,0.12090723105220942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06811884391345792,0.04805400059881496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574618705877582,0.07651416268677501,0.05292106167119806,0.0,0.05552326075174312,0.0,0.07656236746226801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666718650840139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687227675715934,0.0,0.0,0.07521441019270578,0.0,0.06805398433509799,0.0,0.1378933748051053,0.07323988856479305,0.07761758429741586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223749860270583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061479215812516724,0.0,0.28624738182069953,0.0,0.07285790012851796,0.11473369721032135,0.06553715124913549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05955101640518249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06099704137297551,0.0,0.0,0.16117421322025466,0.05095501615616478,0.0,0.1724743394323529,0.12037401904578712,0.0,0.0,0.08241152648799586,0.0,0.08169359708267676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786297545283691,0.2516903429950075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565414639079814,0.09225679417332128,0.0,0.05715215729997005,0.0839560995484841,0.08274211558984708,0.06823826798806458,0.0,0.0,0.1955064121414805,0.0,0.07032394006189703,0.07494431069154961,0.0,0.062176396806857125,0.0,0.05939943351599682,0.0,0.0,0.05774617573233427,0.0,0.0,0.13347122629813735,0.06495993527581473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05113975457987038,0.0,0.0,0.04635931219083318
EDAnonymous,edthrowawayhdhdhdbr,2019/08/31,"My tattoo artist posted a tattoo she did on my calf where there are visible stretchmarks behind my knee/fat & I think belgian crossfitters made fun of me in the comments 🙃 i fucking hate the internet.

I used google translate and it sounded like they were calling me fat, if anyone here speaks belgian this is what they said 

1: laat je gaan 😂
2: nooit van m'n leven 😅",4.937083333333334,6.072250763888893,5.103777777777778,84.119,69.1388888888889,7.426666666666668,29.677777777777766,7.554174236665415,1.8225411111111118,293,11,55,3,5,92,62,72,0.055999999999999994,0.862,0.08199999999999999,0.204,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,3,4,2,0,3,0,4,2,1,2,0,5,10,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,11,2,4,6,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,1,1,30,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684525031367885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377763327019415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3472370523638591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143779726175849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357366923484565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613507262420213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32177092912905103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256813884580124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32347285685542154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21789531849168967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937007709035176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shamsgirl,2019/08/31,Do y’all ever really get the urge to binge when you have no good binge food in your house and then end up bingeing on stuff that isn’t worth it I feel like shit lmao. Just ate like 800 calories of Quaker Granola Bars and Nutrigrain Strawberry Bars. Was it good? Eh wasn’t bad. But was it worth it? Hell no.,0.8039285714285711,3.012528500000002,1.803839285714286,98.414375,84.3125,5.5321428571428575,16.955357142857142,6.868970318607317,-0.287251785714286,240,5,56,3,7,75,51,64,0.19399999999999998,0.579,0.22699999999999998,0.1926,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,0,6,5,1,0,1,6,9,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,4,0,1,2,2,0,4,3,0,0,4,1,4,4,5,5,0,7,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,6,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23451922401337824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487722331801541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25406787667228764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201903989780992,0.2006574394744434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396356445093697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14674580203499565,0.0,0.0,0.4711699133015934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324092496659071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27444306245881583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993597130712433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28831455835338304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215351302921245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amzyst,2019/08/31,Ice with artificial sweetener<3 Wow what a good nice sweet crunchy snack... I’ve hit a new low.,1.9800000000000004,4.747337000000002,1.8277777777777795,92.645,95.66666666666666,6.844444444444445,22.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.5332000000000003,78,3,16,2,3,23,17,18,0.085,0.40700000000000003,0.508,0.8859999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6556982831405159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7550230205010838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waverlycat,2019/08/31,My sister just called me out on how skinny all my sims are Even my sims are thinspo at this point apparently.  What have I come to.,0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,84.55555555555556,5.0814814814814815,16.407407407407412,6.42735559955562,-0.4783481481481484,102,2,23,1,3,33,23,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,5,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5785932415877858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881021277096495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742541969619788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5356491106784323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,borborygmie,2019/08/31,away from my scale for a month  its only day three but the anxiety is driving me I N S A N E,-3.466666666666665,-2.020461434782609,1.2521739130434817,99.74028985507248,98.13043478260867,4.8057971014492775,16.36231884057971,6.42735559955562,-0.4674811594202897,69,2,20,1,3,27,21,23,0.12,0.88,0.0,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43453144195609006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533670659266603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36632396711789095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4533857415280047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43200251606168016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cassy222,2019/08/31,"Baking curbs my hunger Am I the only one that loves being around food when I'm restricting? I love smelling it, looking at it, and feeling it but NOT eating it. I just find it weird.",1.2712162162162173,3.5664857837837864,2.368851351351349,94.55435810810816,83.05405405405406,4.781081081081081,20.06081081081081,5.985473137389443,-0.05461621621621626,142,4,30,1,4,45,30,37,0.139,0.7,0.161,0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,9,7,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,4,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,2,6,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,1,21,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904508594874369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338572567903515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16497270267936845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982062923653028,0.0,0.3945288620545305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739859344493132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5889456377146407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22109005112716215,0.2481442216035113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hielier,2018/11/25,"I wanna reach my GW so I can be a slut Idk I want to have sex just for fun with no commitment and be desired and act as a heartless slut. But I'm fat and nobody notices me so yeah, maybe when I get skinny I'll be able to do so.",-2.4834126984126956,-0.7988917222222192,0.96671957671958,101.87166666666668,95.85185185185185,3.8264550264550254,15.121693121693122,5.288315135182226,-1.1122084656084654,173,4,47,1,7,62,40,54,0.23600000000000002,0.5539999999999999,0.21,-0.5663,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,2,1,6,5,2,0,1,10,9,9,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,6,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,30,6,0,0.5046679806796223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26366819050234386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070068185796652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5745678409206042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976662505013525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KittyGemma,2018/11/25,"Anyone else on the edge of relapsing? Been in recovery for 9+ months but I really wanna go back.

I know that I have fucked up my digestive system but what else can I do?

ED clinic did jack shit when I was begging to be in an ED clinic over 9 months ago but they would not admit me unless my BMI was below 14 \[MY BMI was 15.4 at that time\] 

Nothing is going the way that I would like to. My job is giving me not enough hours, my parents keep arguing at each other, my older sister is having pain issues, my cat is starting to wheeze which I am worried about. \[I swear, If we have to sent her to sleep forever this year, I am gonna 100% relapse like mad\], only seen my boyfriend face to face 5 times this year, hardly no friends near by to talk to, still waiting for next therapy appointment \[Been 2 months\].

I had to quit gym because they were not willing to freeze the contract for 3 months due to my illness getting worse in October/Hospital Admission. I even gave them a signed doctor's letter explaining why I not do any heavy lifting. The only exercise I can now do is swimming, jogging, running or basic ab exercises. 

I've been using small utensils, small plates and been measuring everything like I did 9 months ago. FML. 

I even get stomach pains when I start eating and I feel sick whenever I finish breakfast which makes me want to skip breakfast all together and only just have lunch/dinner. ",4.724353546910756,5.745705916666665,5.4665675057208265,81.74296338672771,69.54347826086956,8.419221967963386,29.01906941266209,8.6894789155246,2.19557536231884,1107,40,211,18,19,360,183,276,0.155,0.7829999999999999,0.062,-0.9821,2,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,1,0,3,1,9,10,4,0,6,0,31,20,5,2,1,30,52,11,0,5,11,2,3,3,1,4,11,0,0,0,9,5,4,2,4,5,0,6,5,6,0,0,14,4,35,4,30,33,3,43,0,0,1,1,16,12,2,2,26,135,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061738342790576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908337312305065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131491891215631,0.11915614024569185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942230291897353,0.0,0.07089126362568718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903103190129695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899699016170392,0.19429611511373854,0.0,0.0,0.12016197680077348,0.0,0.1536211416118063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045168417682968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588013430243157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898478483618788,0.10751120206404917,0.12151680857787815,0.11155904725284453,0.13218422655218573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417587708482334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145253899277088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137990108959025,0.11540307017657632,0.1033667516122401,0.0,0.0,0.06391170887303653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17044496992688152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762662312023685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464120668031303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367915199828597,0.0,0.0,0.11158647490980107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26533868798346344,0.24748835713710945,0.0,0.12912985134652782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369214749515445,0.0,0.0,0.07450041050028819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937331259836803,0.0,0.0,0.11637719918400455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462587031048265,0.0,0.0928719106157503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347207999584647,0.0,0.0,0.13299142482388035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562301612939964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004399979555338,0.0,0.0,0.06859275044394487,0.09230813996479467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493653703610688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181014034339014,0.1185127198818232,0.16522272467491092,0.0,0.0,0.14977803349176114
EDAnonymous,throwawayyolonot,2018/11/25,"guys I fucking want to recover but Im scared af to The only reasons being that I'm fucking 27 years old, working in the fucking healthcare field being a hypocrite and the fact Im scared af that my teeth will fall out/yellow more d/t my dumbass purging behavior

the thing is, I'm scared to recover.  ALl of this bullshit for 8+ years have made this into a...habit, a comfort, a friend, a crutch, and ...a smaller me.

I hate hate being so shallow af and hate shallow fucking people but I don't know if I can live with myself if I gained weight.  Weight gain means so much more to me than just getting fat.  Its more emotional and raw and pitying.  I can barely love myself as it is, if I gain weight I dont know wtf to do.

I think about recovery every day and everyday I'm afraid to just do it.

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EDAnonymous,feelsomethinggg,2018/11/25,"Salad dressings? I love a nice pile of spinach or a Greek salad. But being a Midwesterner I love ranch but I can't do it because of the cals. 
What are some low cal dressings you guys like or make at home ?",0.28604651162790873,2.5005892325581414,2.0337674418604657,95.79902325581396,86.90697674418604,4.370232558139535,20.227906976744187,5.6839178017228535,-0.21661488372093096,159,5,36,1,5,52,33,43,0.06,0.6990000000000001,0.24100000000000002,0.7941,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,1,0,6,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,6,1,2,0,1,0,2,4,2,0,3,1,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428525154804097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944649488762856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996138174081312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463136255305494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7191181565715941,0.0,0.26592586630333903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ronskyroo,2018/11/25,"Totally healthy thoughts #1: Thinking back over how much food I've consumed over my life and feeling disgusted Hello EDAnonymous! Man am I glad that proED wasn't fully wiped off the face on the internet.

I wanted to share my peak ED-brain moment of the day. When I'm fasting after a binge and feel a hunger pang, I always mentally go through every fucking thing I ate on that binge until I feel repulsed by my gluttony. It works a treat. 

Today I got carried away and ended up going back to previous binges, and then regular days, before trying to comprehend just *how* much fucking food I must have consumed over my 23 years. Just all piled up, or in huge tubes like Supersize vs Superskinny. A whole warehouse full of those tubes.

It made me feel so nauseated, wasteful and disgusting to think all of that has gone into my mouth. 

I've had some chocolate orange tea and I'm relaxing now but eesh. Who here can relate to my lil panic? Please help me feel a bit less nuts",4.147076648841357,5.974149839572193,4.668791443850272,83.7941675579323,71.99465240641712,7.553511586452763,27.974688057041,8.238735603445708,1.9444534046345807,768,29,144,12,15,244,132,187,0.079,0.81,0.111,0.4639,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,10,10,4,1,8,0,7,10,2,3,4,29,26,14,0,2,5,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,7,5,0,8,1,0,3,1,5,0,0,7,5,15,5,23,18,10,30,0,0,0,2,5,13,2,2,15,89,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793025438523356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445085755342646,0.23644470760481925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082781679745367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678524732716372,0.0,0.0,0.17163308140597633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983088643669191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617466940957312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295389179805628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.388696832454452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718242266794937,0.0,0.0,0.2842742124334517,0.0,0.0,0.17475651921769753,0.0,0.12296593808545728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030537228350756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859642132386613,0.07511327294114886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547962234842735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549413399175584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22604423750893066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038958978267805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876860914568514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214302161875967,0.19703040751047973,0.0,0.12205835834443612,0.0,0.0,0.1457346732018323,0.0,0.0,0.1043844748788352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09068427167003593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17165361716799835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119300268112108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900836306652012
EDAnonymous,yifans,2018/11/25,"how to be the worst girlfriend ever step one: be bulimic and have a lovely boyfriend whom you love dearly and want to marry and reproduce with
step two: pester him about hanukkah gifts, ask for a hint. 
step three: the gift is “edible.” you throw a fit about not wanting it and beg him to take it back 
step four: it’s a perfectly innocent bubble tea kit. he loves you and knows it’s your favorite thing. but it’s too late. you’re crying like a bitch and you’ve hurt his feelings and nothing will make it better even if he says it’s okay and reaffirms that he loves you. he deserves so much more. 

bonus: last night his parents brought home chinese food and you cried for half an hour because “normal people have normal relationships with food” and screamed at him for chewing too loudly 🙃🙃🙃

i feel awful like he says it’s fine but i know i can’t keep doing this. if anything the fact that it turns me into an absolute monster around him should motivate me to try harder but i just. cant. i don’t know why. i don’t know how. honestly i wish i was dead. ",1.2080529595015577,3.5761221962616863,2.2790887850467314,94.60420950155763,84.04672897196261,5.248909657320874,20.598909657320878,6.6274283507984215,0.2402124610591901,826,25,177,9,24,261,133,214,0.131,0.6409999999999999,0.228,0.9523,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,6,0,4,12,17,1,0,10,2,13,8,0,4,3,41,32,18,1,8,7,1,2,2,1,2,0,4,1,0,14,14,4,1,7,0,1,6,5,4,0,5,2,6,22,13,14,26,3,16,0,1,0,4,28,4,1,2,8,106,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508315647488646,0.11367676072091708,0.1193787823232993,0.0,0.0,0.09819055566293404,0.0,0.07784246591547822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129369808800918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280536730746216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434218737413549,0.1155085943206034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913415013513999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088216927876467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808977868485746,0.0,0.12575511150395452,0.0,0.13670150681792434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350231929359984,0.0,0.0,0.280714139661442,0.10408951007307128,0.14404696379166373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247719026146256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4610035064400349,0.0,0.08523825723119402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387145734935344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983430664409572,0.25023048016535104,0.12252802285565635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653030286813397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179160503030785,0.0,0.0,0.08852852079609147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370980137161261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20309841144830965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960117091576316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483573306787498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669739064802394,0.13889688169864936,0.1247407087403847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506371466778866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522602912894953,0.0,0.14684441784870975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fluxoldrums,2018/11/25,it's a new week i've been nonstop binging for a while now and idk how but i got down to my lowest weight in a while this week and then gained a lot back which i'm dissapointed in but it's a new week and i'm determined to be better!! i'm going to try to fast till tuesday and start eating 1200 calories again hopefully wednesday and add some intermittent fasting and try to eat actual meals and maybe even exercise. i'm really missing proED also a lot but i hope you're all doing well and wish me luck! also if there's any at home workout videos you can recommend for me to follow for this week please let me know ,2.874186046511628,4.1943459147286815,4.442550387596898,86.18801162790699,74.34883720930233,7.640620155038763,23.752713178294567,8.238735603445708,1.2278489922480618,489,14,105,8,10,164,83,129,0.055,0.698,0.247,0.9821,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,2,9,6,0,0,6,0,5,5,0,1,1,23,18,19,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,9,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,7,5,14,14,4,24,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,7,18,65,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.1492801304775081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446658056205331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402726831184612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762722720920275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352926849289509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130602890342714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103759542450216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693840095023783,0.0,0.12234693247899145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344495607358918,0.30387452829487965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407026944663913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564258321199693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601053052144925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368250476000905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954856401568931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791903472789782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799878136706867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082754750180738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771801522760425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490824659046974,0.1862805880309232,0.13754160423890446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759120476106405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cwillyy,2018/11/25,this week is killing me i was doing so well the past couple of weeks with my restriction but ever since thanksgiving i’ve been bingeing every day :( how do i get back on track? the holidays will be the death of me!!!,1.27186046511628,3.731255720930237,2.582604651162793,91.86413953488373,84.81395348837209,6.2306976744186064,20.227906976744187,7.554174236665415,0.7594316279069768,168,5,35,3,5,54,37,43,0.262,0.6409999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.8766,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,3,0,7,0,0,1,1,5,8,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,5,1,4,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403606196114228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458723059705025,0.0,0.20159318428618006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827534391051953,0.2633685896800909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331415345815342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458319377672868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29840029641244376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258575746799726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5014779399639968,0.0,0.2810538512347565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wordsmithem,2018/11/25,I fucking hate myself It’s one of those days where I don’t want anybody to see me because I completely hate how I look. No makeup can fix my face and nothing can make my body look even decent. Of course my crush texted me and wants to go on another date in a couple hours (we went on our first one Friday night). And of course my dumbass said yes. So now it’s either pretend something came up and cancel or go and feel insecure the whole time.,2.9575155279503065,4.1891654347826135,4.029192546583853,89.58413043478262,74.0,6.9962732919254655,24.01242236024845,7.447530270364453,0.9078118012422364,348,10,75,4,7,113,69,92,0.217,0.743,0.04,-0.9484,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,2,0,0,1,5,4,3,1,2,1,3,3,2,2,0,14,18,8,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,0,1,1,0,4,2,4,0,3,3,5,13,0,9,15,2,16,0,0,3,1,3,5,1,1,7,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19796026216433094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150831703654552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20970046752256344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159227239401966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794020963556405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20888989163118296,0.0,0.12175238575683082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469243110967222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954566843767316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16058263844611967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745310966476924,0.0,0.0,0.2145846904951916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37277734576985055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591776032956756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31706807785313396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601719078687962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771643763459769,0.0,0.18114679645620085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558547309526537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958024212915494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043927696827075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533791991491193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008356934577976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227036388251188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750079991194941,0.0,0.21077461646217568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,losingmattie,2018/11/25,"Do we still have the ED books library somewhere? I know the ED books library was linked through proed, so I'm not sure if anyone knows if it's accessible anymore. I'm not sure how the books got there- maybe the user(s) who had them are still here and can reupload (but not if it's a problem to do)?
Just looking for reading material.",2.641840796019899,4.630197985074631,3.382910447761194,90.6978482587065,76.61194029850745,6.257711442786071,27.58457711442786,7.1686216300943375,1.2547532338308458,263,11,56,3,6,83,48,67,0.07400000000000001,0.8909999999999999,0.035,-0.3723,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,1,0,7,3,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,1,2,17,13,7,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,1,3,2,3,10,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,2,36,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744764772255404,0.19352049927564247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22135422620518666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042055744784253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23241286633302985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780476080041328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648266944581531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768398624480767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420497185875197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5216954099972089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RoughPotential,2018/11/25,"TIL: sex is good for your mental health and for whooshes First time getting frisky in a while since gaining some weight. Big drop on the scale the next morning. Also a little extra pep in my step so that has to count for something!

YMMV... but also wouldn’t hurt to test it out  😉",0.4053571428571416,2.8618616785714286,1.2578571428571443,98.51214285714286,92.92857142857142,2.8000000000000003,15.928571428571427,3.1291,-1.1742428571428571,218,5,45,0,8,67,49,56,0.11,0.799,0.091,-0.4753,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,5,4,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,10,3,2,13,0,1,0,1,1,6,0,1,5,30,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473086569159848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378896379638122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611755460564166,0.0,0.0,0.2345763714554598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29727922971986226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993956390043665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28030573275837795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28184451776143465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974353170920737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313483247022106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21530587294823084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307952535117015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34056626519713074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,im_a_bullfrog,2018/11/25,"All my favorite support reddits. I can't find any of them, not even the one that went private. Or the truespo. Are they all gone??

Sorry, I've been offline for a bit and I'm out of the loop..",-1.3560162601625976,0.6639451463414652,0.8896341463414643,100.8552642276423,97.53658536585364,2.7333333333333334,21.46747967479675,3.1291,-0.5461252032520325,145,6,34,0,6,48,35,41,0.069,0.7829999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,7,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,0,4,1,4,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26106316969928617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41911616829068254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25356039188919977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508749640174332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601385876822013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.429741335975754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.435641841824888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558764268655079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kodicocoabean,2018/11/25,"How to convince myself to get better I'm trying to recover, seriously trying. Like therapy and dietician trying and honestly if I could afford inpatient I'd be doing that.

I have done well for 3 weeks now. I've been eating my meal plan and trying to cut back on exercise. Thanksgiving messed everything up. I had to eat other people's food. My meal plan has specific times that I eat and I couldn't do that. I didn't know how much butter/oil/cheese they used so I took tiny portions because I'll be damned if I'm going to go over the calories my dietician set. Then it spiralled so quick. Now my safe foods are protein shakes, 0%Greek yogurt, citrus fruit, and steamed veggies. That's it. 

My therapist has been on vacation this past week so no therapy. I've been restricting again since Thanksgiving and I just want to eat normally. I don't have another therapist appointment until Tuesday. I feel like 5 days of restriction is really going to set me back but I absolutely cannot make myself eat more. I don't know what to do.",2.6429047619047634,5.1999207,4.349285714285717,80.84333333333333,79.5,8.40952380952381,25.523809523809533,9.107695989026183,2.5653309523809527,820,32,150,23,21,275,123,200,0.064,0.861,0.075,0.2304,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,3,13,12,2,1,1,0,22,11,0,4,0,24,35,16,0,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,6,10,3,3,1,0,5,6,5,1,0,7,3,21,7,16,24,3,25,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,16,95,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177906257018355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786033300675911,0.0,0.07079562560427381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027131414868782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272540518146716,0.0,0.0,0.07489832171894234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884778184811275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5941822682132916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437584013509313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058722015279038274,0.08296781357731645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28086500965695904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06067643631047124,0.0,0.19800884908450533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276509736656843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347668396102965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752189855666551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537356147797663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137889401384017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086526303389077,0.08051430462628807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439990344920283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606916791903328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656240173718329,0.2696864483874217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677200248814601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290317299613754,0.31539576435563715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030449631282153,0.0,0.0,0.06850021330184514,0.0,0.1863151088930478,0.0,0.10442050332537774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ryanhennessy91,2018/11/25,"I didn’t BP this weekend... After my week of multiple daily BP’s because reddit deleted r/proed and r/proedmemes (thanks reddit, endangering the lives for many of us) I had a little victory this weekend. I didn’t BP and was able to maintain a 500 cal intake over the weekend.

It probably helped that I was super busy but I’m glad to see that things are settling for me again that the new subs have not been deleted. ",3.111583476764196,4.939920915662653,4.3885025817555965,84.71807228915665,74.78313253012048,6.670567986230638,27.5197934595525,7.447530270364453,1.5894419965576594,328,13,63,4,7,108,59,83,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.7543,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,1,7,3,8,5,0,9,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,7,40,14,0,0.30510257288245485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598769656944653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20450382331689332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057929313500714,0.2694111615934655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093261211604207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946699661043441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289521769006722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24312724882404224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808974572867298,0.0,0.0,0.20269659233568946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.367000828888626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447348804628097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anacait,2018/11/25,It's so hard being at home I just keep getting offered so much food by my family and of course I feel guilty if I don't eat it and now I can't stop eating ugh,0.27280701754385817,1.0502403157894769,3.0131578947368425,96.02043859649126,80.05263157894737,6.119298245614036,17.929824561403507,6.42735559955562,-0.4050280701754385,124,2,33,1,3,44,31,38,0.126,0.7559999999999999,0.11800000000000001,-0.0703,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,7,6,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6197044324703904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854641516343162,0.0,0.15311081758397033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661614051813501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582067428618078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712600238805536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303745070038627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691531695764945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226016211438587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25316434456356696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,26username,2018/11/25,I need help with toning my body(especially arms and legs)??! I have been losing about 26 pounds...but apparently my skin is getting slouchy..like my mom told me that I should stop restricting and get my skin tonned..that is starting to look gross..what should l do??! I'm really bad at exercises and don't know much..so I just walk a lot.Daily. but I don't wanna stop restricting(even tho most of you will probably think I eat a lot(I try to keep it around 1000..Im just really tall..so more hungry..ik that's gross). Do anyone have know exercise for toning the skin?? ,1.246988416988419,3.827956099099101,2.4913320463320474,91.32263513513516,87.1081081081081,6.4146718146718165,16.937580437580436,7.7094869923839395,0.44831480051480055,441,10,93,9,14,141,79,111,0.12300000000000001,0.858,0.019,-0.8438,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,12,8,5,0,0,20,23,5,0,4,3,1,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,4,3,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,4,12,0,9,18,2,6,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,3,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466048539068033,0.0,0.0,0.1841736549640388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274234320533666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116974669238542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664718116389885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618026245580232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386722679553546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234739016859809,0.0,0.0,0.18389103330027556,0.0,0.0,0.22739981669806825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737333160084871,0.23145408875493864,0.0,0.3517765502435609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423040307034146,0.0,0.0,0.15208604896189748,0.1534043908768404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230596165871242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650747412395306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643597156325372,0.0,0.0,0.34593427222004386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256509669899258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768978341431895,0.0,0.14046296895011334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squishyskeleton,2018/11/25,"My Fitbit broke and I don't know what to do with myself First time posting since the removal of r/proED and sadly it's about this. The strap broke clean off of my Fitbit, and can't be fixed, so I am going to have to replace it but for the time being I don't have anything that tracks my calories and steps as well as it did. I've reverted back to using an app called Pacer but I can't trust anything it says and I am too scared to eat a thing until I know how much I am burning.

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Plus it happened at a party and I just ended up bawling. My entire day is revolved around checking my Fitbit. It gave me comfort and security, and now I just feel hollow? I'm so clearly over reacting. But a huge part of my disorder is purging all food I eat through exercising until I can't move. Now I can't do that and I feel so lost and awful. ",1.3986662011173188,3.070178821229049,3.4077618715083813,90.55678247206707,79.22346368715084,5.5923184357541915,22.91934357541899,6.322622252153567,0.4453265363128489,655,21,143,5,16,222,104,179,0.135,0.745,0.11900000000000001,-0.4494,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,13,9,0,1,7,1,18,4,0,3,2,27,28,22,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,11,13,3,1,4,1,1,4,6,5,1,1,3,3,21,4,22,23,3,21,0,4,0,0,3,6,0,0,10,107,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19120312801094785,0.21442807415382525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904364438619457,0.1570940350531764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569308709520184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801936749188612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380733481785266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224774735664156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611418722845909,0.0,0.0,0.1562983706722384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784551616288189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010368779197727,0.2133859441643864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10029089601064103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605017059448684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19396452105176185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263579256555355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875576780135099,0.12972436862038966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19109777098925468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690076731138458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033452732540092,0.17667536742825807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459762476395889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723757379967635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20579995302106946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241179152779746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866602763669738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442807415382525,0.0
EDAnonymous,nycthrowaway51,2018/11/25,"Are there any good low-calorie, dairy free ice creams? Or are they all awful and I should just stick with Halo Top? Lol",0.8212499999999991,3.2852086250000028,0.8049999999999997,103.54,87.75,3.2,12.166666666666668,3.1291,-1.8582333333333327,93,1,21,0,3,27,23,24,0.096,0.546,0.358,0.7998,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,6,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6297822070292015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7767717629454794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chimichanga_mischief,2018/11/25,At a club Sorry if this doesn’t make sense I’m writing this from the bathroom of a club but I’m just so fucking disgusted with myself. I was having fun then I saw myself in a mirror and I can’t bring myself to have fun I just keep thinking about how fat I look and how much fun I could have if I was skinny right now and how I did this all to myself. I am trying to recover but right now all I want to do is starve until I reach a fucking normal weight where I don’t have to think about this ugh ,0.07923832923833274,1.820115891891895,2.271580671580676,96.74948402948404,83.77477477477476,4.7570843570843575,16.397215397215398,5.565023196281405,-0.7609531531531535,388,7,93,2,11,131,63,111,0.133,0.725,0.14300000000000002,0.0304,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,3,0,5,0,14,5,2,4,2,23,26,13,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,3,1,2,2,0,1,3,4,0,0,4,3,16,3,13,21,3,10,0,0,2,2,1,5,2,2,4,72,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213678959746267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4681058230501349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250304033929436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260024201585154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689938983504866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611013454065725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480542522975303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324140432937977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834046933267722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244440650598506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17188678532792367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932707143720134,0.0,0.0,0.3082946022813294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,versperalaxis,2018/11/25,"Came back from the holiday... to find r/proED gone. sorry, just in a bit of a state rn :/ need to vent in the fact that our supportive place is gone.",3.0329032258064537,3.1543266451612944,4.158225806451615,92.85733870967744,72.87096774193549,8.780645161290323,21.951612903225808,8.841846274778883,0.8482129032258059,110,2,28,2,2,36,26,31,0.11599999999999999,0.815,0.069,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,6,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700294160006055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833886221513686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40164695375076265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32096463744332554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603894191336369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668997584650738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39310804771187696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985055651035864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shinmsy,2018/11/25,"Don’t know who to turn to Before I begin, my roommate is incredibly thoughtful and has a large heart that never seems to run out of love.

Weirdly, maybe that’s why we had our first real fight today. She wanted to talk to me about my bulimia, which I have been struggling against for a little over a year. It actually has gotten a lot better; even three months ago, I would purge every meal. Now, purging is a rare event. I moved in with her last month and maybe purged once a week. Because we live in a pretty cozy place, I’m sure I gave her all the right reasons to be suspicious, and I regret that now. I know I’m getting better, and I definitely didn’t need someone on the outside to find out. 

She apparently heard me yesterday after dinner. We’d ordered a lot of food and I didn’t feel good after. Mental illness or not, I decided purging would be objectively the better thing to do than to feel shitty for the rest of the evening. She later told me she thought it was suspicious how I went to the bathroom so quickly after dinner, so she went in to “check up on me.” I felt ashamed. I felt it was invasive. 

She brought it up today; she said she thinks I should get professional help. I told her about my progress and said that doesn’t feel necessary. She asked me if I valued her as a friend. I said, of course, what does that have to do with this. She continued by sharing with me her experience with another friend who had been hurting herself; she had regrets over not being able to help her. I told her, I am not that friend, and honestly, I don’t understand this narrative. We were two completely different people, and the only relevant factor in this was her guilt over something that wasn’t her responsibility, which is pretty much a shabby foundation for helping someone now. We made like a minute-long eye contact and she said, “Forget it” and left the house slamming the door. That was very uncharacteristic of her. 

I feel like she was making my disease about her. My disease that I didn’t want to share or talk about in the first place. I also know she really cared, that’s why she chose to bring up this very difficult topic. 

Should I apologize? Or should I stay where I am in rightful (?) anger. Should I talk to her? And if we do, what do I even say? ",4.3207879213483125,5.538122777528097,5.080628511235954,83.40554950842697,70.66292134831461,8.079353932584269,27.389396067415728,8.472884824447931,1.8004171348314606,1776,60,356,28,32,575,213,445,0.087,0.757,0.156,0.9838,2,0,1,0,1,0,57.0,7,0,0,6,16,25,2,3,21,0,41,8,2,4,3,68,83,21,0,13,8,0,6,2,3,6,1,6,1,0,26,22,4,0,17,0,1,6,11,10,0,4,33,13,74,15,55,40,5,54,0,3,1,1,63,23,0,8,25,257,100,1,0.0810568750339526,0.0,0.07909981743834361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718520290256177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482115367960954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499520095222841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577723628292413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04941151867798377,0.0,0.06897343053295127,0.0,0.0,0.2150646568513503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264288625465024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498659130151616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468718233405932,0.0,0.0,0.07093341757485358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061190448299145,0.0,0.06829391317045902,0.0,0.0,0.07928917737807778,0.0,0.0,0.16393916601501926,0.05790704772018517,0.1556546228960742,0.0,0.0740845153119272,0.13789387299191255,0.09801429503731326,0.0,0.18787302174287884,0.0,0.08469774341219613,0.0,0.0,0.06798666106109139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605278718887082,0.16299214418898975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935287508848186,0.08677306118201092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364021609473578,0.06607217166966779,0.0,0.0,0.08806853189360497,0.0,0.0,0.07920058960136643,0.0812402831891496,0.07157470568577212,0.07173278369394334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782331306516987,0.07315699438983353,0.07669797503037243,0.05410609350211324,0.0,0.1628650515122059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168626525375225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939764864880973,0.08615063031128035,0.059586129673531385,0.060102645769741635,0.06251605902402456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863229265009377,0.0,0.061647406025999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561946311361721,0.0,0.16937436466811864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16492796476423946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226046939694546,0.05192710972665731,0.08333996753837651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844425678350947,0.30841459997960285,0.06445968041174002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737911347475887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735845435353286,0.06240154248175483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639584382579503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473824511988914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639514545078724,0.0,0.0,0.19545133731730646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05385058604894784,0.051937972588592715,0.0,0.12870020927231274,0.0,0.0,0.15366487960111824,0.2323599531330276,0.0,0.0,0.08816660396933614,0.07918078888357613,0.08438306553457707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337608217313894,0.09561889001248307,0.0,0.06501893587690576,0.0,0.0,0.15028107046111006,0.14628244425547915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516095677752275,0.0,0.0,0.052197969967826885
EDAnonymous,bottomlesspitttt,2018/11/25,"Does anyone else cover themselves up the more they lose? I thought it would be the opposite :\ I've noticed that since I've been losing a a fair amount of weight I've been super uncomfortable with myself in things with waists. I thought it would be the opposite so I can show off but nooope. I've gradually changed my wardrobe to shift/tshirt/sweatshirt dresses which in theory make me look bigger (big hips and boobs do NOT do me favors with this style). 

When I was bigger I used to ALWAYS wear high waisted skirts/skater dresses to accentuate my waist because I carried a lot of my excess weight in my hips and chest. And it's not because I don't want people to worry/notice (I'm not underweight by any means), I just still feel so uncomfortable with my body and drawing attention to anywhere. 

uGH I'm not near my goal weight or anything but I thought I would hate myself a LITTLE less (you'd think I'd be less naive at this point...). ",3.364782608695652,5.4014387391304375,3.8373913043478254,88.03315217391304,74.65217391304348,6.556521739130435,25.08695652173913,7.413659706084162,1.1262782608695652,744,25,148,9,16,233,112,184,0.136,0.833,0.031,-0.9543,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,4,5,6,1,0,7,0,14,12,9,2,0,30,27,10,0,4,8,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,8,6,0,7,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,6,5,22,2,19,14,5,15,0,2,1,1,2,13,1,2,2,89,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378298943336396,0.0,0.0,0.09299144856973872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561544736093534,0.1401116524226274,0.11252967644256996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671725130476026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189312838560431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446583261990496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966667611252332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423309655612653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914249923519561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500760849322438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14447884795284435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370546491070532,0.0,0.0,0.11483155670871567,0.3059658783814207,0.0,0.11625590821082492,0.0,0.0,0.0912785057902894,0.0,0.0,0.14895564847486242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113707113573277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480192768575914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926844645140104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131170709622898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920492081388812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084745751025954,0.08762082465773632,0.0,0.3256813245115014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181039773011947,0.0,0.0,0.08065588218196337,0.0,0.0,0.4995565682689088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914196732653176,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fellowrelatableteen,2018/11/25,"I'm not sure if my mom is oblivious or what Somehow the topic of my weight came up and she said something along the lines of ""How are you the only one in the family that can just decide they are going to loose weight and just loose it""


Like WHAT
then she went on about how she was jealous

Okay maybe I'm loosing weight because I'm constantly worrying about it and am starving myself in an way that is destroying my body??? So easy......sure....

For context she does a billion different fad diets and always tries to find ways to eat a lot and still loose weight and just ???

Hey at least someone noticed me loosing weight ¯\_(ツ)_/¯",4.319918699186989,5.649284406504066,4.418048780487805,87.72918699186992,70.78861788617886,7.417886178861789,27.487804878048767,7.793537801064563,1.5146195121951216,494,17,99,6,9,153,84,123,0.16,0.7929999999999999,0.047,-0.9363,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,0,10,5,2,0,7,1,7,8,1,2,1,21,14,12,0,1,6,1,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,8,7,0,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,4,6,11,3,14,10,2,13,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,4,4,67,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646157420073858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799487914983749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211949992469314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463364860903634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826450048757816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133676655330739,0.0,0.0,0.11196667253825468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092101046275476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061638815095428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694060359255135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271483288750961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625081011455213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877537195935033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285392591675841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984916446969004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566771472689394,0.0,0.0,0.08669972662899658,0.0973089294063963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217062341790187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840848788043583,0.09849931543991383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021780833691514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058787700697204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686714156179279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031156408528656,0.0,0.7790206445485901,0.0,0.11860750532188225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299356820170386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,calculushelpmeplease,2019/10/01,Correlation between ED and Bacterial vaginosis? As a long time sufferer of bv I’ve started to notice a link between BV and my ED (bulimia). Does anyone have any insight/ experiences with this?,4.292058823529408,7.523542617647061,6.466176470588237,63.8427941176471,78.70588235294119,9.282352941176473,37.911764705882355,9.516144504307137,5.090611764705884,155,10,22,5,4,54,29,34,0.10099999999999999,0.899,0.0,-0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28751071022845226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29562358262370003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699851068992376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135683260604729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741545600164648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4813475633705532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29925190988817363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465314019295613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CharmingPsycho,2019/10/01,"Ok so am I the only one who chooses what to wear not based on what I like best, but on what makes me look the skinniest... This is why I fucking hate getting dressed even though I love fashion. I also find myself always going for shorts/pants that are loose in the waist on me because I feel so triggered and strangled if they actually fit my waist.

Which makes no sense?? But I feel like if they fit my waist/body properly then it obviously must look like I'm oozing out of the clothing.

Which also makes no sense??? Lmao I thought I could finally be confident enough to wear what I want once I lost the weight, and now look at me :))",4.791200787401576,5.160363740157481,5.095738188976379,86.80376476377954,69.07874015748031,8.239763779527559,28.4734251968504,8.07648339933343,1.5981976377952756,493,16,106,6,8,156,83,127,0.142,0.622,0.23600000000000002,0.9284,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,2,7,9,2,0,5,1,6,7,4,4,2,21,23,12,0,5,5,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,3,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,6,19,6,10,18,2,12,0,1,3,2,4,8,1,2,6,70,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.16271513046825645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26668538107061995,0.13874184133006134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164374544340517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498435706722704,0.0,0.0,0.18521162453675846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13312909378164578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228799089269706,0.0,0.1101308356919867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16861848516770486,0.1191197796653068,0.0,0.18265657838466254,0.15239822246181667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541493365474875,0.08711527292983214,0.0,0.09476273371459124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462218376577067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443836412175233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4200612508048486,0.0,0.1820174616133844,0.0,0.15049023211824664,0.0,0.3339026693779584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775736873090806,0.11298799407792795,0.12681401853258256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382215283285867,0.13237370212238253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834814205316356,0.0,0.0,0.20304557671673576,0.0,0.0,0.15045778721802427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MrsRoseUniverse,2019/10/01,"The neighbors and my transparent blinds I can’t even fucking purge in peace. I’m having a hard week. I go to purge in my kitchen trash can (because I despise the toilet splash-back). Midway through purging I see my neighbors have returned to clean out their house.  Their foreclosed on, suppose to be empty, haven’t been there in a year house. I am topless with fingers deep in my throat when I spot them about twenty feet away.  I had already been purging for a good five minutes.

My kitchen blinds are only mildly see through but still uncomfortable. To make it worse they are my husband’s boss’s relative and this is really not how I want him to find out I am relapsing nor do I want to be the talk of his work.",2.4457142857142853,4.780855886524826,2.8995592705167184,92.21250000000002,78.78723404255321,5.4470111448834855,26.383485309017225,6.5431188927421005,0.9669570415400202,564,23,114,5,14,174,95,141,0.115,0.8390000000000001,0.046,-0.7978,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,1,6,3,2,0,6,0,16,8,3,3,0,13,24,6,0,2,2,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,5,0,2,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,6,22,1,20,19,0,15,0,0,4,1,10,9,1,0,5,77,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23732725038853786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20205866748375426,0.16537008973638453,0.0,0.1311003434783846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204701257117802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19656358807993665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19882217917277573,0.0,0.0,0.1222251982622081,0.18038455112348087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926541095401433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963074074291667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355615111990486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635650212904909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377747963054983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427545629921284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174950421968407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728594070180214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25369933284896,0.0,0.17251048043296507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156568347547049,0.0,0.2191674613828552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384934520279299
EDAnonymous,ellissaa,2019/10/01,"does anyone actually stay recovered i 100% support recovery ofc, but i was wondering if any of you have been thru the traditional recovery process and reduced ur disordered thinking long-term?",9.825625,11.3817553125,9.825,53.12000000000001,58.375,15.15,50.375,13.816669648895859,8.3455125,158,11,21,7,2,52,30,32,0.0,0.938,0.062,0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.3293993917018908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295450760440915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23602229530810925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868607029125217,0.0,0.29539163751807346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298720478492713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35978260536405576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.383046907094821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162879401112076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366057780259248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,w8crunching,2019/10/01,"My boyfriend is the worst trigger He knows I have a history of eating disorders and am trying to get better.

After a recent period of ~intuitive eating~ where I gained 8 pounds in a month, I decided to go back to calorie counting. I'm still on the lower side of normal so only restricting to my TDEE in hopes that it won't trigger me to relapse. 

Anyway, today we were on the phone and I was just walking around and I made a joke about how if I dont lose these 8 pounds by tomorrow I'mma be mad. 

He starts LAUGHING at me and says he can't believe how dumb I am for believing walking is exercise. He was like WOW you think you can lose weight on walking?? And starts giving me numbers of calories per hour and how there's no way I could burn off what I ate today. 

I'm like bro I know about this the point is I'm TRYING to not think about calories and just enjoy life. But now I just feel disgusting about myself. 

Man I am just one triggered and sad potato lemme tell you :'(",1.8253578947368432,3.849435220000004,3.3832631578947385,89.55478947368424,79.3,6.2105263157894735,23.02631578947368,7.273561745256523,0.89045,764,25,158,10,19,252,126,200,0.11199999999999999,0.716,0.172,0.8971,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,3,0,4,19,15,3,0,8,0,16,6,0,7,0,34,32,14,0,4,7,1,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,10,4,1,6,2,0,4,5,7,0,1,5,3,22,8,25,24,1,29,0,3,0,0,14,11,1,2,15,104,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302762167198787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490524543146635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367210809029603,0.0,0.13216191128261925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193106022835798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126389815032694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513511355196928,0.0,0.0,0.3058158404291145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555813853319175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807290943033278,0.14335036435265852,0.08492658150344247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484213225225224,0.1471620346179385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642496414044486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055493994482068,0.14601145696842852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343560397858055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139772364168887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927650603737143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641323976480575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012601020657566,0.11365101721446147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126309134011747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754769202466872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883562862359112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21153979952333685,0.0,0.11933789820489775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061158820936372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19150208572477315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832912364461783,0.0,0.0,0.20291126541489693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861346813655327,0.0,0.1819699162740825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,half-bad,2019/10/01,"I haven't eaten since Friday night... but I'm still overweight AF so it's fine! I'm totally fine, and not disordered at all. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk.",-0.7138235294117656,1.4652246764705907,1.6384705882352968,95.42711764705885,96.35294117647058,5.072941176470589,15.623529411764707,6.742157984588678,-0.14833411764705895,125,3,28,2,5,42,30,34,0.08800000000000001,0.675,0.237,0.6733,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,6,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,3,5,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591741000345853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4778722573717529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912886927803973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449136017281708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33298477624933165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351366353574088,0.0,0.38388072649115534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rose_gold_stars,2019/10/01,"Thank you for making me feel beautiful I’ve always been slightly overweight (although I am now starting to realise that this may just be my imagination) and it has affected me a lot. Then you came along. You told me you liked bigger thighs. You told me I was athletic and fit. We weren’t even dating, you weren’t doing it to compliment me. You said you loved my body, and that I was perfect as I am. You didn’t just lie to me, and tell me I was skinny because it was what I wanted to hear, you weren’t like anyone else. I guess I am just writing this to tell you thank you. Thank you for making me finally realise I do not need to starve myself for days to become thin, and that I can be pretty as I am. Thank you for loving me how I am and being there for me when I needed you. Thank you, my love❤️",2.2584027149321244,3.3462144058823533,3.878235294117648,90.5489819004525,75.52941176470588,6.642533936651581,21.900452488687787,7.010146845296331,0.4458733031674207,619,15,140,6,13,207,87,170,0.021,0.732,0.24600000000000002,0.9903,3,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,16,0,1,8,11,0,0,1,0,22,6,3,4,1,27,42,12,0,3,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,9,9,2,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,13,4,44,11,15,25,1,11,0,0,0,2,26,3,0,3,9,109,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165939667441732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383092515185734,0.13749667375129454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180285905921279,0.14820571932812168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905826573012518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534811397537167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654343828520879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210110320732536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886332670139659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785205580913915,0.0,0.0,0.14700196527250325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782881215063576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512453596114057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111992591828384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11408616204673898,0.3633434952850573,0.0,0.17914985248045254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990049442936324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365226106938433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764835370854674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949825562259338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23458134211734102,0.6177348161290254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564544868039118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915055833504178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pondfrogs,2019/10/01,"got a package today in the mail so my friend (who goes to a different college) sent me a care package today, which is super sweet!! but of course my fucking hell brain saw what she sent- one of those gigantic packs of Welch's fruit gummies- and said 'oh there's only 800 calories in the whole thing? sounds like tomorrow's a mono diet kind of day!' 

like just APPRECIATE the gift, dumbass ED brain. who the fuck would even want to eat 10 packs of fruit gummies (apparently me, that's who)",3.496236842105265,5.412719084210528,4.194934210526316,86.13766447368424,73.94736842105263,7.276315789473685,25.559210526315788,8.07648339933343,1.4914473684210523,383,13,76,6,8,122,70,95,0.14,0.638,0.222,0.6834,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,10,3,0,8,0,2,9,2,0,0,5,11,3,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,8,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,5,6,5,7,9,5,1,8,1,0,1,2,9,2,3,0,6,40,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4577835910181399,0.0,0.0,0.20905134671027847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223345889520394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214222546166674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098065076407986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13542659851130529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841294185869614,0.3791112667080149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398874927999396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21351699632069784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20034380049840134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894001270801815,0.15594171301350526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503943531261853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621907516615595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887067777824493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093755817323475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891918223080715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565411612442716,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FuegoPequena,2019/10/01,"Triggered by skinny classmate There's a girl who transferred schools this semester, and she's in all of my classes for my major. She's so skinny, like I never looked like that even at my worst point/lowest weight. Everytime I look at her legs my brain just starts to spiral.",3.4209433962264164,5.814871849056607,3.460981132075472,89.12883018867926,75.79245283018868,5.749433962264153,23.807547169811322,6.742157984588678,0.8109049056603777,220,7,41,2,5,67,43,53,0.078,0.8170000000000001,0.106,0.1171,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,5,4,1,2,5,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,9,2,7,3,3,5,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,0,4,28,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538213262130362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20934266596677428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30969178704395905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5323168064014683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24445158976141976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996204551943788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207705972588402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22433903443436107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859600453911336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lenauweg,2019/10/01,"i‘m going to be the black swan for halloween purely to trigger myself ballet slippers: check
black crown: check
white tights: check
black body suit: check
eating disorder: check

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EDAnonymous,84044,2019/10/01,Relapsed and EUPHORIC Feels good to be back on this shit <3 yes I’ve been fasting! Yes my blood sugar is crashing! Yes I’m feeling nauseous after eating one single almond!,2.6768181818181813,5.55768145454546,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,82.93939393939394,3.3000000000000003,26.431818181818183,3.1291,0.6825818181818182,140,6,22,0,4,44,30,33,0.091,0.515,0.39299999999999996,0.9195,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,3,4,2,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,1,3,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34817803744710474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46333115055375607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579022356874738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797901972241116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30683145470479783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4647964137282433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpyVsI,2019/10/01,"How did you know you had an ED? Hey ya'll! I'm a long time lurker but wanted to ask: What was the moment you realized ""Oh maybe this is not how normal people act""

Im fat as capital ""F"" Fuck and I don't think it really set in that I had a problem with food until this year. The straw that broke the camel's back was me getting distraught after telling my bf that we couldn't have some foods in the house because I'd eat it all . Queue the ""WhY nOt JuSt UsE mOdErAtIoN lOl!"" So I agreed and as soon as we got home I ate all the groceries (at a MoDeRaTe pace so that totally counts), AND fast food we'd picked up, proceeded to have a break down, then I fasted for a week. ✌🏾

I've never been diagnosed but it feels like I can only eat everything in my path or nothing at all with no in between.  😓",3.9492982456140338,3.478237877192985,5.36321052631579,87.06797368421054,70.81286549707602,8.945263157894738,26.456725146198824,8.548686976883017,1.443301286549708,611,16,145,9,10,207,119,171,0.12,0.843,0.037000000000000005,-0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,3,3,0,0,7,5,1,1,12,1,13,9,1,4,5,31,24,15,0,4,6,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,10,7,7,0,4,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,8,1,15,1,19,14,5,25,0,1,0,1,10,8,1,2,15,91,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502101433375883,0.0,0.0,0.12354973935471394,0.0,0.097946450243137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308251134735596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288228246994636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444050101276365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124249060040564,0.11478679303939812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5828692901276408,0.0,0.0,0.1485421484253331,0.08394645148323503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850708103272845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117088515969252,0.0,0.0,0.18539825105445326,0.0,0.0,0.17355738986103642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830319411627006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07849805891590428,0.0,0.0,0.14219298893986604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16142039438461905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239230492893544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742812735046216,0.1541727224706942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220115366813007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139233906937084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374499989359622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293300439231698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043769385268687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295453740313147,0.0,0.0,0.09369132613633564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387722655659901,0.0,0.0,0.0947707245546032,0.0,0.12888440060367165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498487934654186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346991966722394
EDAnonymous,Zoe_nuclear_kitten,2019/10/01,The beginning of spooky season and I already wanna b/p Why I gotta ruin my progress not even a day in 😖,-1.5337499999999975,0.3452831250000017,2.2800000000000007,92.965,92.75,4.866666666666667,20.5,6.42735559955562,0.30135000000000023,81,3,19,1,3,30,23,24,0.168,0.708,0.124,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6497892833453546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797470675328784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.388917102224314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5313280903049946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maahler,2019/10/01,i love it when i feel nauseous from not eating :^) honestly being hungry I can deal with and being tired I can deal with and being cold I can deal with but the nausea is the fkn worst. like what am I even supposed to do because it's not going to go away even if I do eat,-0.02349999999999852,1.721948983333334,2.4700000000000024,95.165,84.16666666666666,4.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,5.46131890053228,-0.6863333333333332,209,4,49,1,6,72,39,60,0.177,0.731,0.09300000000000001,-0.6448,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,10,4,0,0,0,10,14,5,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,7,3,7,11,1,4,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,2,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066270181738143,0.0,0.0,0.13406439521669836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6801998483406604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4500768840254002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29051711578213457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120081780610376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499771831332488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744437157366868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984911306341704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527717302735141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chnlmb,2019/10/01,Just ate a full plate of sushi and I’m so full I hate myself Guess I’m never eating again HAHA! Trying to keep my body out of starvation mode because long term it’ll be a hindrance but Jesus Christ I did NOT mean to eat enough to actually be FULL for the first time in like a month.,0.14566744730679204,2.2991273606557385,2.123325526932085,95.36049180327869,86.8688524590164,4.797189695550352,15.271662763466045,6.1826913282559595,-0.6669878220140522,223,4,51,2,7,74,49,61,0.113,0.8320000000000001,0.055,-0.3383,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,1,4,4,1,0,1,9,11,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,4,2,8,6,5,12,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,8,32,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.24584017589989834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356971528720906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798292833849609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5155595475250084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603034509735632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21428528591911186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775212120249567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487214710613391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22392043537369652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307668658118275,0.0,0.0,0.22294362657479316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744176304213465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20108226374639007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429828594755424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14689812896661125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17103894951654655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mimesberry,2019/10/01,"DAE equate sickness with femininity Like when I eat a healthy amount of food I feel like a large German boy but BOY do I feel ultra feminine and pretty day six into a fast when I can barely manage walk around without feeling faint. I'm not even sure where I've gotten this idea from? I assume it's a media portrayal thing but I can't actually think of any examples???

Am I alone in this or is it normal to place your self worth and gender identity on how frequently you starve yourself half to death?",3.6129,5.292819090000002,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,73.1,7.800000000000002,24.5,8.472884824447931,1.5752999999999997,399,12,78,7,8,132,79,100,0.161,0.7240000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.7689,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,5,4,0,1,1,19,11,8,1,1,5,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,5,5,2,0,6,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,9,3,11,10,1,12,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,7,47,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.22672245195453905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406258145512335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799368118416834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682467726339454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983487619973465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23773356880251675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345305032196027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524220177810096,0.16597797908702489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809366951418922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26227447238981383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270112934794528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276359652291712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427374202584647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363651003137081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24237287543612546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21897009696042646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543510124751308,0.14886892127168427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239596922629249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrwawybcimscared,2019/10/01,"been nonstop binging ever since i got to japan; came to a realization maybe? (TW numbers) binging not normal amounts of course..... but to lessen the hatred on myself.... i think i just realized....... what if im actually not sedentary.... 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 binging 1.8k+ but i walk 15-20k steps most days or go biking for about an hour....? 

so like..... do i at least get to be lightly sedentary 🥺 💦💦💦💦😳 jk no ill just keep hating myself for going over 1200 every single day of my life and keep thinking that instead going over by like 300 im actually going over by 1000

it also just occurred to me that i may be developing exercise purging because i want to punish myself, im thinking about making some calories up later with my inevitable exercise, even when im too fucking tired to do anything but sleep i haul my ass out of my dorm at 10 pm to go on a fucking 2 hour walk, but haha lets just ignore that reel reason and focus on #selfcarenightwalks #enjoyingthenightsky #imokay #perfectlyokay

also i cracked and weighed myself using the shady communal scale and bought measuring tape and numbers went up and i want to cry and because im in japan i feel like i cant cs cause all of this food is coming out of my pocket so im just letting it stay inside of me instead of cs-ing it like an ungrateful piece of sh",2.548362097577165,4.425535797709927,4.345738466644544,84.1949634915367,76.51908396946565,6.541254563557918,26.276800531032194,7.423996415210882,1.4366871556588126,1017,39,199,13,23,344,152,262,0.155,0.775,0.07,-0.982,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,0,17,10,4,0,6,1,10,11,2,4,2,45,34,18,0,4,13,0,1,4,0,1,5,0,1,0,8,12,2,3,6,3,1,11,4,5,0,0,5,2,23,5,37,24,7,32,0,0,0,3,0,13,3,5,11,121,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.1914451526365097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688652720267732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072045930746106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959061400719262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11218986691152548,0.0,0.10076638278842216,0.0,0.0844966315857226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774825632431384,0.1265210414629889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478811954476471,0.08872884199806648,0.08264582052451863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04959771033180891,0.07007616419697676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861191518301985,0.0,0.0,0.18136692745919952,0.051248450820240515,0.0,0.27873661730219496,0.0,0.07845225981557655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684446371919267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319957072827654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.635730078040926,0.0,0.0,0.17437541187737482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20060919836222044,0.0692845091363504,0.19168905133003644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547644270577123,0.0,0.0985455012908567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610826306164916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008537903298122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08114181265108923,0.0,0.0981617479717872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104551856401451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885580791182836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274106886548226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471905007792155,0.0,0.0,0.11571311784406052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093125434591316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fr0gcodes,2019/10/01,"i wanna drop out and go back to a regular school :/ tw: suicidal ideation

so uhh i go to a CTE (career/technical education) school in my county

i’m a design (art) major there and i’m hating it!!!
almost everyone in my major is so fucking negative and toxic no wonder we’re the most hated major

whenever i tell people i’m in design they immediately don’t want to talk to me anymore???

almost all of us are mentally ill and it’s like we’re feeding off of each other

2 out of the 17 people are inpatient right now, one for self-harm and the other for literally saying he wanted to kill us all (among other things) in our group chat

there are 17 people in design 2023 and two of them are also anorexic :/ one is in recovery and the other is active

the active one is ALWAYS talking about ED behaviors in our group chat as if they’re completely normal and healthy and she knows that there’s two people (well, just one now) in there in recovery and it!!! Pisses Me Off

i was kinda slipping this summer but honestly a combination of all of the negative, anti-recovery bullshit in my school, the fact that looking in mirrors genuinely makes me want to off myself, and just life in general have all brought me into a full-blown relapse 

ahhh",3.797883862548933,5.419928640495873,5.760839495432798,76.44594823836455,72.51239669421487,8.565811222270552,26.786428882122664,9.134995656068208,2.4048066115702484,969,34,174,21,19,336,133,242,0.14400000000000002,0.8,0.055999999999999994,-0.9721,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,4,0,2,0,14,8,5,0,12,0,11,5,1,1,5,37,27,17,2,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,11,15,1,0,2,3,0,3,4,5,1,6,2,2,19,3,36,25,9,28,0,0,1,1,16,20,2,6,5,130,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24507878730574525,0.0,0.0,0.09786205189820006,0.10182456362764693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136163937974705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409767568126662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830629719594633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693313320196087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313233828357938,0.0,0.0,0.13909537189572327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416370125217292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538815789732478,0.0,0.06725328086461625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643602927208054,0.059785515761154005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276292801566864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168526830737774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233237157293525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990005764401253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33169383026359983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33935353485559305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450630907713544,0.0,0.09731632702766004,0.0,0.3715455766105487,0.0,0.0,0.12766225981417306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338567581392908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967183841523802,0.10695984174952396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129952257126141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23908227580659205,0.0,0.2944005306462076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21653720072079094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002848214159884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270885171231794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,despairqueen,2019/10/01,"Plateau in Liquid Fast :( was losing weight steadily the past week but this morning i weighed in the same as yesterday morning :(( ive literally only been having smoothies and coffee to try and get below a certain number and im ALMOST there i dont know why i didnt have a loss today and i kinda wanna pull my hair out but also im just. really tired and dont know when/how to start eating solid food again? i have had no active desire to have anything solid but i feel like i really should its been,,a While and im just feelin real bad but i dont know what solid food i can eat without hurting my stomach ugh",0.2561204481792707,2.653359261904765,2.65931839402428,89.1977731092437,91.30158730158728,4.234547152194211,18.522875816993466,5.900188976854957,0.006072455648926223,481,14,93,4,17,164,83,126,0.141,0.6729999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.4923,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,4,0,14,9,2,0,1,26,20,13,0,3,7,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,7,6,0,4,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,3,12,2,10,15,1,13,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,2,9,60,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365354169805404,0.0,0.0,0.1090395150831465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220491519713123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384704469506556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794056170876853,0.0,0.0,0.27904138072346835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894295361421597,0.09740888652668067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297513418199769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123755399317863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596612334814074,0.0,0.4418460951959327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22480415005573645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06661400942597592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525414296135651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370076553147307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016206358813112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519681883648645,0.17469935485104307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650964720161358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671494166183594,0.12924441332711675,0.0,0.0,0.09257309821863716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937221627189504,0.16603828178424135,0.0,0.0,0.12303519670163125,0.0,0.0,0.13143710009115894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FudgeManz,2019/10/01,When people call you skinny but you're obviously not,1.7940000000000005,4.1530844000000045,4.059999999999999,74.86000000000001,105.0,6.0,15.0,7.1686216300943375,0.9039999999999996,44,1,7,1,2,15,9,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8273339029927721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5617104351520869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghostgloss,2019/10/01,"people unknowingly validating my ed :/ sorry this is so long! i started restricting majorly over the summer and lost a pretty significant amount of weight, enough that even people who didn’t know i was making an effort to lose weight were commenting on it. i did let my immediate family and close friends know that i was on a “diet” because the change in my eating was so major i knew there was no way id be able to avoid questions, and i thought being “upfront” about it would throw them off my scent. at the end of august i went away to college, and it’s been waaaay harder to stay under my strict calorie limit because i get so much hungrier (i went from a relatively sedentary life at home to a fairly active one here) and because my days are a lot more social and unpredictable than they were at home and i eat with friends much more often than i did before. i didn’t bring my scale because i thought it would make me too obsessive, but ive been obsessing anyway thinking that i’ve gained weight without any way to check :/ 
that being said, every time i send my mom (who is very well-meaning and just trying to boost my confidence) a picture of what ive been doing here, she always comments on how thin and pretty i look. i was genuinely overweight at the start of my ed (tw bmi, it wasn’t major but i went from a bmi at the low end of the overweight category to in the middle of the “normal” category) and come from a family of overweight people, so i understand why my mom encourages me. i do look “healthy” and she had no idea the extent of my body insecurities, but it’s given me this major complex that i need to keep getting thinner so i look skinny when i see my fam for the first time since leaving for school on thanksgiving :/ i also have this major fear of gaining any weight because all my friends here have only known me at my lw and they don’t reallze ive never been this thin before. basically we going ✈️ breakdown! having an ed was hard enough but an ed in college is like...on a whole other level",4.945353922885096,5.580278192019954,5.991583541147133,79.57608814502208,68.82543640897755,8.563245731824287,28.889411087665447,8.617729084823388,2.1049604066756187,1589,54,307,24,26,529,205,401,0.115,0.7929999999999999,0.091,-0.7154,0,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,3,7,18,12,0,5,22,0,37,13,2,3,2,49,65,24,0,4,6,2,7,0,3,2,4,1,2,0,19,16,11,4,11,0,1,8,8,8,0,2,27,13,51,4,45,32,16,47,0,3,4,0,20,23,0,4,13,218,70,3,0.08287117430234803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662720481490571,0.06895545569091281,0.0,0.0,0.11271048059850294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07786019620929772,0.0,0.0,0.2525874933614032,0.0,0.141034531161801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205119268097274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766671408630848,0.07138617874622169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053445051663817834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16959580024529428,0.0,0.0,0.14679852592836498,0.17125615183115875,0.0,0.054735629050041736,0.0,0.06982253855416798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15624713557322858,0.09325311064802908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049017852681821,0.0,0.0,0.192078191085474,0.0,0.08659353638278773,0.0,0.04709759812298561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423629461739928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662530894555938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355146867334607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365970742038222,0.0,0.0,0.09108766025626087,0.0,0.0,0.08774860793323107,0.0,0.08474139041799084,0.05853436120153525,0.04048666977942533,0.0,0.0,0.07333838145380485,0.20877274432617146,0.09271164641889264,0.0904636761984122,0.07045410889061891,0.0,0.0,0.1106343047040638,0.0,0.0,0.09027100333248728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19411543551717145,0.0,0.0,0.12183969678350283,0.0614479256883543,0.06391535846781317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811961555999713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05615565243011925,0.06302726237506989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172357313421886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16861955398087733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283468117783814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882946406949673,0.0,0.0,0.08387005267481812,0.06603759655186503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06855189174998819,0.0,0.0,0.08447672598817806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276749486850804,0.11731328741359047,0.08832964544570558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05310050230158688,0.0,0.13158091119213491,0.09664569633605864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056264087544545226,0.0,0.0,0.08627181505767696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06837739777091142,0.0,0.131558561651101,0.0,0.4036590587036725,0.074511138125746,0.2304672264871324,0.07477834502126737,0.09252270660832088,0.0,0.07988485476271218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177386090684809,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,backandforthandlost,2019/10/01,Jessica Simpson allegedly lost 100Lbs in 6 months from “walking” and I’m like—what is health? Twitter is asking for the secrets and I just don’t see how that’s even possible to do?,1.91,4.431124444444446,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,82.33333333333334,6.933333333333335,28.44444444444445,8.07648339933343,2.2209111111111115,144,7,28,3,4,47,32,36,0.084,0.9159999999999999,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,7,0,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691507594423036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608083439640725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197290420055884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291385667895475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310479661545423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31518199007952274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451573338751381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146607885023718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MastersJohnson,2019/10/01,"Spooky skeleton time, y'all. First things first - what are all you lovelies being this year?


Obvs for completely non-ED reasons I've chosen a costume that requires me to look horrifyingly slender and lanky. Problem being, of course, I am neither of those things.

Inspired by a comment in an earlier post (gotta get me some chunky platform sneaks, clearly...), what tricks do you use to achieve *the lewk*? And then how can I go extra?

Essentially, I'm going for a horrifying lanky scarecrow (uncomfortably long limbs a la slenderman) but my hips really shoot that idea right in the ~~thighs~~ foot.",4.405445969125218,7.366266216981135,4.4210120068610665,80.52956260720414,75.50943396226415,6.873413379073758,30.391080617495714,8.00094639256281,2.451388679245284,473,22,79,8,11,146,85,106,0.13,0.83,0.04,-0.8116,0,0,0,1,0,0,28.0,0,3,0,4,1,4,1,0,7,0,6,5,4,3,2,13,14,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,1,8,2,9,11,4,13,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,1,6,49,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586565073335934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41967970505194185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888869970270642,0.0,0.28040652615725026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784902350975649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21831857246474268,0.20716286437066705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226531546460559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23626698133570045,0.0,0.0,0.23605516102173554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804004646066835,0.2536450114617899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21067739846732075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277882849983063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438506689177463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130665030810883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15886440902049734
EDAnonymous,sesimon8,2019/10/01,"poetry in eating disorders Key words: poetry

Hello desde Uruguay!

Recently I've been exploring the role of poetry in eating disorder recovery. I recently published a book of poems dedicated entirely to my anorexia, in fact. You can find the link below.

But I write to ask how you write about your lived experience of an eating disorder. Does it make full sentences? Does it beg for rhyme? Does it just leave a lot of blank space?

Let's talk -- through writing. 

blog post:
https://www.theprojectheal.org/healblog/2019/9/26/poetry-in-eating-disorder-recovery

book:
https://www.amazon.com/Core-Collection-Poems-Sarah-Simon/dp/1950437507",10.710757575757576,15.710938863636365,7.5177272727272735,54.2257575757576,69.45454545454545,9.751515151515152,27.787878787878785,9.516144504307137,3.998519696969697,532,18,62,15,12,151,65,88,0.083,0.87,0.047,-0.4993,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,13,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,13,3,2,10,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,1,2,35,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711557717552778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5410637743933715,0.0,0.41313504606826856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4830728328588551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393373611828684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382929180988627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666274304450849,0.0,0.16091697031180038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389566927304751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337865910952665,0.0,0.0,0.10504274851826656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071272850844544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107590566842633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648449459504246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Losingtheplottoday,2019/10/01,"Anyone understand these results? Urine tests showed blood. I had blood tests and another urine test to check kidney function. 
The doctor wants to see me again because the urine test showed my electrolytes out of range. 

My appointment is next week. So I wont fully know anything until then. 

I'm just wondering if anybody else has faced this and/or has some idea of what it could mean. 
I'm 32, female, and have had an eating disorder (restrictive) since I was a very young child.",4.46215909090909,6.966525443181819,3.8522727272727297,87.03590909090912,72.97727272727272,7.127272727272729,24.63636363636364,8.07648339933343,1.4881772727272726,381,12,69,6,8,113,70,88,0.033,0.9670000000000001,0.0,-0.4019,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,9,9,7,1,0,15,17,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,3,1,1,5,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,6,12,1,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,6,37,10,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579414469027095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720015832307366,0.0,0.20242840506200832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14995292061986978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19640260544265067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28192528720155696,0.2517806844612209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517086775873992,0.20549266888679396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776922120956861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518940017661132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679546880340692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616126319860336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960217891608002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20348506264361735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560837526616178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296710584684707,0.14509098493051018,0.0,0.1973179451106863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667651277449316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ereeeeen,2019/10/01,"Relapsing? (BMI, COUNTING CALORIES) Hello, I think I have been relapsing harder than ever and I'm not sure if I want to stop.
I was around 13 when I developed an ED. It wasn't about my body image in the first place, but I felt like I was losing control over everything in my life and my appetite was non-existent. When I had to eat, I would feel so nauseous that I just couldn't bring myself to do it. When I look back now, I realize I always had disordered eating - I would go through periods of eating close to nothing or eating a lot, but when I was 13 was when it really became worse. My weight dropped drastically and - even if I don't remember much from that period of my life - I recall some episodes in which I would cry just because I had to eat a grape. And I couldn't do it, I couldn't bring myself to do it.
I went to therapy because my parents forced me to and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and an eating disorder that was never named - at least not to me. I eventually have been recovering for the past years (I'm 19 right now) and started eating normally and regained some weight. I never got to a healthy BMI (last time I checked my BMI was in 16 range), however my belly sticks out a little right now.
However, as I went into recovery, I have been so concerned about my body image. Just seeing my belly sticking out a little is enough to make me have a mental breakdown - I feel disgusted by own body and I can never seem to see myself in a positive light. I always struggled with low self-esteem and my weight has now become one more thing that brings me down. Thoughts of food consume my mind and I'm constantly checking myself to see how I look and how it appears to others. It's plaguing my mind and I just can't seem to stop.
The point is, I have started relapsing into habits that I never thought I would again - I have started skipping meals and counting calories. Yesterday, for example, I had less than 600 calories the whole day. And I have had the urge to purge, something that I had never done before.
Is this what relapsing feels like? What should I do? I don't want to go back to my worst time, because I felt so awful, my health was at risk (I was on the risk of being hospitalised) and everything felt painful and scary and I don't want my family to start pressuring me again and get me back to the hospital, but I also want to feel good about my body and with how I look (even if, unconsciously, I am aware that will never happen).",5.263624070317782,5.464943330628806,6.065653144016228,80.8444161595673,68.02636916835701,9.49422582826234,30.226436781609202,9.3871,2.4944180392156863,1934,68,389,36,30,637,214,493,0.161,0.8079999999999999,0.031,-0.9959,3,0,1,0,0,0,59.0,0,0,0,3,32,14,1,4,16,1,52,21,4,5,8,92,93,41,0,16,13,1,10,2,0,6,5,1,0,0,20,30,12,3,14,0,2,8,16,10,0,2,29,18,74,4,54,54,11,70,0,3,6,0,3,23,0,10,40,293,94,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05113829363687745,0.10641784702520206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04891918511261861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0569262771684006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751360132552402,0.0,0.11694426623543593,0.07062430049531875,0.054414081569275734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28412225379585426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910385541622485,0.07172185895150733,0.0,0.0,0.07024264057621728,0.04124044482939807,0.0,0.05507735059980684,0.06490473307270272,0.0,0.0,0.14657731999577972,0.0,0.0,0.06543985603303375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580353295489576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607421698938444,0.0,0.0844726170063316,0.05784361037318945,0.0,0.0,0.11494265766771485,0.0,0.06028342357017109,0.0,0.12933384758466632,0.045683660994312335,0.1841970875188413,0.0,0.0,0.054393180061564635,0.07732481629382591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03340960340201613,0.0,0.07268496657860284,0.05363560565301398,0.05114415839854335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056548011262368664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797253890131809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05212523881895215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903351393105766,0.06248242706797956,0.12818313840584009,0.0,0.0,0.16109781123281006,0.07154019727086322,0.0,0.05436534721651378,0.0,0.0,0.04268503628817365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444341054608957,0.0,0.12913623111726216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047008311684656516,0.0,0.2959186378439836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265436127638377,0.061358752182439434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043332058138340894,0.0,0.06804398465804191,0.0,0.07100543819966944,0.0,0.06104452888547905,0.0,0.0,0.06681087502521897,0.0,0.0604504672805555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040966006221383744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243934481384359,0.10922056541491992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287214283527314,0.11642966847433968,0.0667105379674202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04922942930943037,0.0,0.0,0.18104771187304688,0.0,0.0,0.10692490338149782,0.0,0.06685115915451091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602691738533996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312882573586217,0.0,0.0424834629679738,0.04097457608155833,0.0,0.1015333532233231,0.07457587528995323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087009709389984,0.0,0.0,0.23361020275183295,0.0,0.11855878942373685,0.0,0.07139440338365781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516732978233856,0.18170410395041225,0.0,0.0,0.04117969156576913
EDAnonymous,Retirou,2019/10/01,"I'm so confused :(((( This is the first time I have actually decided to post something on reddit, me being a constant lurker on many subs. 

Recently, like it's been a full week by now, I have decided to begin my recovery from my eating disorder...I think it is one, to be honest I haven't been diagnosed with anything, but I managed with the help of others to acknowledge that I have at least developed disordered eating habits for months now and recently dropped to an unhealthy bmi of 16.5\~16.7 as my lowest...

The disordered patterns or ED behaviors I had developed over the course of this year were mainly typical anorexic traits...I constantly weighed my food, I would body check everywhere I could to check for flaws or If I was skinny enough, overexercise etc...That's all to give you a background of myself, before I finally explain my confusion...I have been dealing with this patterns over a year.

Is it normal during the first week of recovery to binge eat?I feel extreme shame over the amounts of food I'm consuming and the discomfort I feel afterwards...I honestly can't stop eating...I think I have consumed at least 5.000+ everyday for the past week...Everyone tells me it's okay and encourage me to eat more, despite these amounts and calories...But I'm honestly very worried, as cliche as it might sound, if it's gonna trigger an another eating disorder and make my relationship with food more unhealthy. :'((( I just wanna know if this is normal or if someone has dealt with this can offer advice...I'm honestly so scared and I feel so terrible...

I also wanna ask if it's normal to gain weight so fast the first week and if it's really mainly waterweight with fat as well...I seemed to have gained 4kgs over the course of a week...I know I ate waaaaay too much, but I still exercised and idk the weight seems too much for a week???

I'm so confused and if I'm really worthy to attempt recovery.. :'((",4.419031244046487,6.3066665441988965,5.2506515526767,79.65118784530391,71.40331491712708,9.302495713469233,30.43855972566203,9.753983421225431,3.1415371308820728,1507,65,275,39,29,490,180,362,0.096,0.7909999999999999,0.113,0.7265,1,0,1,0,0,0,78.0,0,1,0,6,12,13,0,5,19,1,25,16,3,2,1,55,46,31,0,14,13,0,5,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,16,15,13,1,13,1,2,0,2,6,0,4,7,6,28,7,45,33,13,35,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,15,25,181,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.08039932720690918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0658860830959385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639156440154623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779874581076129,0.0,0.0770221602533406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010657659639086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151509119527802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806547838818815,0.0,0.06578054260170935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493896375054967,0.0,0.08362263056552223,0.0,0.0,0.28327320287015745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42152020722791816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512938233672898,0.09188499693463033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872577757542952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497435908189634,0.0,0.0,0.09025261492143706,0.0,0.21023894188782047,0.2988736371156093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903459180314919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055223299527085566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905571703346248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04025087746443811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499498805739745,0.08352904490163822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740121776992063,0.0,0.0,0.0657617440244384,0.0,0.1211301085580834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421698199019631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582860475348262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786491808127268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789054439391255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556041267925388,0.0,0.1626974812840815,0.08845445545139577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248529811214082,0.0,0.0,0.1500068591729671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06980753985186595,0.0634267207521321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579559189725175,0.06888050586164149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201121256652482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558249532923797,0.0,0.0,0.0480414183468464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797917126818734,0.0,0.0,0.3965226876246903,0.20065408439136095,0.0740771890297418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366955833373199,0.0,0.05852645268513947,0.0,0.0,0.10611103294267256
EDAnonymous,ohmonoo,2019/10/01,"Do you know what ridiculous thing triggers my ed? My f*cking star sign. I’m a Taurus so whenever I see memes or read horoscopes there’s always something about how Taurus’ love to eat and they’re always eating etc.

I get so anxious that I restrict every time I see something like that because my ed hates the idea that I’ll always associated with consuming food like a vacuum (very overdramatic I know) and it has a field day with my mentality. It makes me feel like the only way to cut this association off from me is to restrict and not eat, all because of my star sign.",5.704375000000002,6.236885687499999,6.558928571428575,76.53607142857145,67.125,8.9,31.17857142857143,8.841846274778883,2.467342857142857,455,17,86,7,7,151,75,112,0.135,0.7659999999999999,0.1,-0.4843,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,5,7,3,0,5,0,3,5,0,3,1,19,13,7,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,5,4,2,4,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,13,4,9,13,2,4,0,0,2,1,2,1,0,1,5,49,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959245576659695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918228875644848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337235529621988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228926402517427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4868878141789521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768902358108144,0.0,0.0,0.13363437509613973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019714710708585,0.11330983650672652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19178984567933186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286631624615938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565929082499174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904952060415194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174334001733145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324640837070067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315022782185513,0.0,0.10587230484218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983991111882165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206287968888253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865127107737956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527806387679005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442089125503971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537233965859268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924858040328979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308684990696384,0.0,0.12589592514709844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whyamitoblame,2019/10/01,"Wtf am I doing...I ate so much today. Damn this primitive brain o' mine. The following is an unpaid Bitch 'n' Moan! Sponsored by Dumb Bitch 🤙

Usually I'm one for restricting with a couple of days a week at 'maintenance'. But today, well, today was something else.

So I've been to the lab in the past because the doc wanted me to get blood done; electrolytes were fine CK enzymes not so much. This freaked me out and I cut back on going to the gym and upped cals slightly, had the blood redone and levels were back within normal ranges; made me feel like shit, but also better at the same time.

I've been continuing to work out 5x, up to only an hour a time, a week instead of every day for ~2 hours per day. Shit mate, though. I don't know what came over me today. I wasn't even hungry but I was on shift and people had brought in snack foods, which I'm generally pretty good at ignoring. Responsible me apparently died last night and I ate everything. Multiples of everything. Infinite foods. Like, guys... So much. This hasn't happened to me before. Not like this. I ate chips, muffins, scones, biscuits, had a roast with my oil for dinner, multiple muesli bars, jellybeans, McDonald's. Ugh.

I feel like such a tank. And I don't mean strong, I mean heavy. I feel like I absolutely need to be back at the gym at get back on my game again, this is complete unacceptable. Fuck. I was doing so well. My gut is huge. My fingers feel like sausages. My thighs are bigger, I'm sure. It even feels like my eyelids have made mass gains. Heeeelp meeee.

Lol, please validate my experience and let me know I'm not alone. How do you make yourself feel better after a monumental fuck up? I'm going to be paying for this for weeks 😭 . And to make matters worse I'm going out for a family dinner in a couple of days, an afternoon tea on the weekend and it's my partners birthday on Tuesday 🙃 . Gaaah dayum. Give me strength.",1.3570357833655713,3.8496732819149,2.837940038684721,89.93636363636364,84.79787234042553,5.8649903288201175,21.045454545454547,7.259408732682427,0.7322574468085108,1478,47,302,23,44,481,205,376,0.138,0.6920000000000001,0.171,0.9207,1,1,1,0,0,0,65.0,0,1,0,6,19,28,9,0,21,1,26,20,8,5,1,46,63,20,1,3,6,0,7,7,2,0,0,1,0,2,10,15,10,2,11,5,1,6,7,12,2,2,19,9,31,16,44,41,4,61,0,0,0,2,6,25,8,0,37,172,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832838793122536,0.0,0.06430644981362299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473313134725817,0.0,0.04901917299691908,0.0,0.06842575605740685,0.0,0.0,0.1422379761073362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976778522451784,0.0,0.09197133972916366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431176642388258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17795147114317397,0.0,0.20743958447614014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345626157231226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229067726976969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717495493999479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062243911522651,0.0,0.06775163431337597,0.0,0.14454049443337447,0.07865959206817874,0.07580645885323471,0.0,0.2439561428651715,0.2872362220270491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944720507749096,0.0,0.0,0.14868151429521834,0.08402521209332964,0.07713972014285206,0.13710211535454336,0.06744682189906999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962176357093285,0.07110917454784554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838171346608024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08838604232866043,0.06554753425946996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222799992229746,0.0,0.27500097698879844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217792964547752,0.1073529423312108,0.0,0.0,0.17518721414402458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773389814864242,0.059625408596725424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546239111606501,0.0787879151313504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054490101718700217,0.06115790288684698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676354946539463,0.05574842504060589,0.0,0.0,0.08826960475408054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180918794963378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508609840478014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061906051221021725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578853982169778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900561333518477,0.0,0.09377922962572308,0.0,0.3048894475722405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856383808945993,0.0,0.04742982038096855,0.0,0.19350798464199426,0.0,0.1446023443748777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585418063036269,0.0,0.0819479752666941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Annainchains000,2019/10/01,"Yeah sex is cool But have you ever tried to put on the clothes you wore as a nine year old, and they actually fit. 
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.(it doesn't happen with everything only those items that were slightly baggy, but yup)",2.41,4.759872000000001,3.0599999999999987,90.935,79.0,6.0,20.0,7.1686216300943375,0.36375,160,4,33,2,4,50,38,40,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,0,1,5,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,1,4,4,1,6,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3708046093366973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437126836682952,0.0,0.0,0.3415005484620308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33601410046324554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39872395294199736,0.0,0.0,0.2889910880756389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819837613972621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25798074144995103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24469396376515856
EDAnonymous,thoughtsofanairhead,2019/10/01,"So um I’m probably going to jail, and I’m excited because when I’m being “watched” constantly- or around people 24/7- I basically fast/restrict and lose weight quickly. In jail- weight loss will be easy af. Left an abusive situation, and in my haste (omw to a new state- a new home) I got two speeding tickets. I also got my license taken away, and I won’t get it back, until the tickets are paid off. In order to pay them off; I need to get a job. I don’t know anyone who will drive me to work and I don’t have my license. I also live in the country, and it’s too far to walk to work safely. I live with my grandparents, who refuse to drive me anywhere consistently. So uh- I have two warrants out for my arrest (since I haven’t made payments). And what is my silver lining? Jail: stress and being around strangers and feeling watched 24:7. I know myself, and it’s impossible for me to eat around anyone unless it’s tiny tiny tiny portions. So I’ll lose weight and become a skinny legend. I’m a normal weight for my height right now, because I focused on recovery for a year or so. Well fuck normal- it’s overrated. Jail: I’m ready for you.",1.2988362068965529,3.59258065948276,3.033510344827586,89.84252413793104,82.92241379310346,5.436137931034484,22.64206896551724,6.742157984588678,0.6643746206896557,891,31,183,10,25,295,126,232,0.109,0.8109999999999999,0.08,-0.7675,2,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,1,5,15,8,1,1,9,0,13,7,1,1,0,28,31,22,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,16,6,2,3,2,2,4,4,5,3,2,5,7,26,3,29,20,1,32,0,3,2,1,5,16,1,2,10,112,34,4,0.0,0.13039252817594155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601560981524805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390054089324753,0.0,0.0,0.2939063667666705,0.0,0.0,0.10339660761117876,0.08462248361839331,0.0,0.13417222771119336,0.12154276605051287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892611570148448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260972399381468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05564513017880349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174044548710004,0.1149942889813351,0.0,0.06254456204375465,0.0,0.17603579605001715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103902012292481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920871076624383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096238545841595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957081497966847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19435423088730144,0.0,0.0,0.2462380058738116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413298807741142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160147765156713,0.0,0.21257602799031936,0.0,0.0,0.2156533748653437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762955586741405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865367225710435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939830167309782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103538646658467,0.12370201924591223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606313457509705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21500781843349345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.536050245613141,0.09894913301708452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023698658662566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086928412611057
EDAnonymous,Bumblebee114,2019/10/01,"Stressing about referral to eating disorder outpatient Honestly; I just am struggling to believe I am sick enough to be referred to outpatient, I am not underweight and I feel like I don’t binge the large quantities that I read about, I know I struggle with purging and restricting but I honestly don’t think it’s bad enough. It’s making
Me worse by being stressed that I’m not ill enough to be there.",6.149870129870131,7.095496974025978,6.353662337662339,76.93906493506495,66.27272727272727,10.835324675324678,36.17922077922079,10.793553405168565,4.151048831168832,325,16,59,9,5,104,49,77,0.275,0.596,0.128,-0.8847,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,4,1,0,8,3,0,1,0,13,13,3,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,4,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,10,3,9,10,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,42,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584785160509209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138442518853501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21753197083303547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421700428106065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5883551961530311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597066845444416,0.13559610465312313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431138316134618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272870798101872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669572713041002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898554884516341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348399672625139,0.3968489641855202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161881919148435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19342661855035465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chronicallyclumsy,2019/10/01,"“You just need to eat more” ( idk if this needs a trigger warning) 
I tried to open up to my dr awhile back and all she said was that I “need to eat more”. Now whenever I debate recovery I doubt anyone will take me seriously bc my doctor didn’t. Now I don’t know what to do.",0.9949152542372914,2.321107135593224,3.212,93.05122033898306,79.33898305084746,6.753898305084746,20.274576271186444,7.554174236665415,0.3544006779661021,207,5,51,3,5,71,44,59,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.5984,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,5,4,0,1,1,11,11,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,10,0,6,7,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,34,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19032317743570965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092990690127008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27860034183123805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5570413295825247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14958976373330538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6054814006482827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589171984921761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046547267742596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480069723560655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chubbiehippieloser,2019/10/01,"My boyfriend wants me to seek treatment...Rant Sorry for the rant or if I’m all scrambled Basically I live with my boyfriend and he knows about my ed/mental illnesses and addiction issues I deal with. Long story short he walked in on me mid breakdown Self harming and told me that I go to treatment or I move out. But if I went to treatment I’d lose my job and then I don’t know what I’d do because it was hard enough getting my job.I don’t want to get treatment because I’m afraid of gaining weight and losing my coping mechanisms(self bruising,ed stuff etc). I don’t know how to function in a okay way and I’m getting worse. Idk what this rant is about. Basically someone finally wants me to get treatment and sees that I’m struggling but I’m too afraid to change my shitty ways.",1.9095625,4.135137831250002,3.0599999999999987,90.935,80.0625,5.5,25.625,6.6274283507984215,0.8923125000000005,623,25,130,6,16,200,90,160,0.158,0.813,0.03,-0.9366,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,4,7,0,3,2,1,6,3,0,1,1,24,25,15,0,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,10,1,0,3,0,0,4,3,6,0,0,3,3,18,1,17,22,3,15,0,2,1,0,5,6,0,4,3,69,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563519270999953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485830922224518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15172221312506484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786251937837544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148194001782277,0.15995423701811784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711257158683764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997297918429512,0.0,0.08151043294561304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847857970891172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969604992623214,0.2846498242248908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23646411662340866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664488315829098,0.12692458770870338,0.0,0.3209066593574935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243564615808206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428933321767908,0.0,0.2992423378707261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152159925587093,0.0,0.0,0.16054998495393946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993655998197505,0.16418469274111108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370465484663897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537832961518609,0.22768454751941794,0.0,0.17465022606586594,0.0,0.13295429179273235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461599974383606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad828378117,2019/10/01,"I'm so tired. Binging and purging seems like such a big part of my life now. I spent 2-3hours last evening eating and throwing up, then doing it again. It's like a zombie has taken over my mind, all I can think of is what food to eat next.

I feel so out of control, I want to cry out but I deal with it by eating and puking more.

My mind doesn't seem to be able to focus. I had to go to the embassy earlier for immigration purposes, I forgot the appointment letter and had to print it out. They charged me $2 per page x3 pages. And after all that, I realized I had to bring my passport and I didn't even thought to bring it. I had to come back another time, I went through all that for nothing. Seeing the look of confusion and pity on the counter personnel's face made me feel like breaking down cos I felt like such a dumb idiot and a failure.

I thought I found a hobby/passion in rock climbing/bouldering, then I tore my ACL doing it. Possibly having to undergo surgery to fix it. The silver lining I thought of, was ""well if I won't be able to walk for a while and if the muscle atrophies maybe I can finally get my calves to get smaller"". I hate my huge calves.

My family thinks I am sad because of the most recent break up 7 months ago. I want to tell someone that I'm honestly struggling but I feel like I have no right to complain because my issues are caused by myself. I started my ED. I forget things all the time because I'm stupid. My family says it serves me right for engaging in such a dangerous sport.

Honestly I have no idea what I'm doing anymore.",2.2836262108262098,3.831323726153848,3.8816752136752166,88.67217663817667,76.35384615384616,7.153276353276353,25.883190883190885,7.921354282810032,1.4184849002849012,1221,45,263,19,27,407,178,325,0.18100000000000002,0.723,0.095,-0.9865,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,1,11,19,5,2,15,0,22,7,1,4,4,48,55,18,0,4,4,0,4,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,14,14,4,2,14,2,1,7,5,10,1,0,16,7,43,9,41,36,9,39,0,2,2,0,6,14,1,6,21,171,57,0,0.2123195445107276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410423279025104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131777745080748,0.0,0.0,0.10528196809556503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163031201270332,0.0,0.19414203548246345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905532916138252,0.0,0.09144724376935567,0.0,0.0,0.11906721153304835,0.0,0.0,0.11661152494364588,0.0,0.10944606373532302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258838495003049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023505671602066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015597060915452,0.0,0.1610327117897039,0.15168112502191472,0.10193002944056374,0.11629284145707798,0.0,0.0,0.12836881800060454,0.11639871081023084,0.0,0.0,0.11092819884082228,0.0,0.0603330450256349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481079677663696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984146106441534,0.0,0.11080322105987717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653438334417858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498378666141478,0.25932151193374203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914747167265087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045094334393403,0.0,0.0,0.10665176007372393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21438221445731967,0.0,0.08473571739092597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290212214993732,0.0,0.0,0.1018631646239123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149606881582738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967919241903564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481996789181973,0.0,0.0,0.18131973091787948,0.0,0.08442251183872422,0.0,0.0,0.08459559393547719,0.19328773915815448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994883053048762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514043320369562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098124371903703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278832013255832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052783552757948,0.13604579103501768,0.0,0.2528370030273816,0.12380523383275302,0.1220150414741684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523156836214008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09545038453368493,0.09841117244996854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aspartamequeen,2019/10/01,"“you’re already skinny enough” so i was eating lunch with my friend and it was just a granola bar and usually i hate it when people comment on how much i eat but my friend went “you need to eat more you’re already skinny enough” and my heart busted the fattest uwu

i know she’s probably just trying to make me feel less insecure bc objectively i’m not skinny. my bmi is evidence of that. but i still can’t stop thinking about what she said, it makes me really happy and i shouldn’t care so much but i do",0.4616043956043967,2.823444171428573,2.3942857142857186,92.2826373626374,88.23809523809523,5.516483516483516,18.553113553113555,7.010146845296331,0.2927948717948721,398,11,85,6,13,132,71,105,0.077,0.773,0.149,0.8683,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,8,6,1,1,2,0,6,9,4,3,0,20,17,11,0,2,6,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,5,5,8,1,3,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,2,16,4,6,12,6,6,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,4,56,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590024361057681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584443221651746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4993305474837378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361460127751929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224663712141464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513440340062822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17315639204569822,0.0,0.16059474139922347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19275488400861493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939461000604082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21715588026929208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23915011422124774,0.12061158091308075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276913376038693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537681184131187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420524281698476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472851487572378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990183452149073,0.13599245505942878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042270419729868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043660906955056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791488691666008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078901483859314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brimstonealchemist,2019/10/01,"I'm going to try to make some changes (tw) Tw: calories, binge, food details

I've been scared of slipping into a restrict-binge cycle ever since I first heard about them. Last week, I had a ""planned binge"" at a sushi buffet, eating until I could barely walk and my stomach hurt. I thought nothing of it since I felt like I was in control, but yesterday, I suddenly went nuts after lunch and ate more than the rest of yesterday's calories in dates on salty rice cakes. It was a salt and sugar massacre. 

After that date/rice cake binge, I felt energetic and mentally focused for the rest of the day, even though I didn't eat anything else after it (after 12). My exercise went great too. Was it a long sugar rush or did I finally eat the right amount of calories for my TDEE? The total was 1850. I've been aiming for 1500-1600 recently and rounding them up a lot to be safe, because I can't believe I don't count as sedentary in TDEE calculators, since I sit most of the day even though I run and go for walks every day. (I did have an energy drink, which I don't usually do, so that might have affected my mood too.)

I'm worried the binge was a sign of some nutritional deficiency or too low a weight and a beginning of a big problem. I also realized I've become so bored of the food I let myself eat that I get constant cravings for binging. So I'm going to try again to get better and stabilize my weight before binging becomes a habit.

I've been eating mainly salads and fruits (basically raw vegetarian without ethical reasons 😅), so I reworked my self-made meal plan to include a carb source and a protein source every day like brown rice and chicken, and more protein sources for my salads, like egg or tuna. I replaced random anxiety-inducing snacks with a small evening porridge time that is unlikely to trigger binges. I came up with a very diverse 7-day menu and actually had fun planning it.

This is day 1. I still feel fine, since I get to follow quite strict rules and I'm not tackling major fear foods, but with this plan, I should get better nutrition and more calories with minimal guilt. I guess I'm posting this for accountability's sake.",7.179559490390845,6.4238664085510715,7.485058302742393,75.48237475707194,64.24940617577197,10.219866119628591,35.52591232995033,9.457814108942452,3.190253206650831,1702,69,322,27,22,557,227,421,0.068,0.8220000000000001,0.11,0.9667,0,0,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,2,9,17,17,0,3,24,0,26,23,1,5,2,52,51,29,0,3,7,0,6,3,0,2,1,1,0,0,13,21,21,2,6,2,1,11,6,7,0,1,21,12,36,9,45,25,13,52,0,2,2,0,3,12,0,10,30,193,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.08008497421983549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562847538021108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753365978323006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05002691950046192,0.1812717960131245,0.06983246719109858,0.09246073687165017,0.0,0.14516213443824455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386210594107101,0.0,0.0,0.08681537613168153,0.0,0.0,0.08868463046625623,0.09204445279002438,0.06552334753831088,0.0,0.0,0.31755625684819416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039383505886816,0.0,0.4198721071646799,0.068555951840344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261226190496753,0.07423376278910163,0.13828897341997265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234752278256474,0.041495240789171016,0.0,0.15759323934656294,0.0898997366066876,0.0,0.06980564318140503,0.2977050723545749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150524027267608,0.0,0.1399206895762168,0.0,0.0,0.09047850254412457,0.09040539866651368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785378516397084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689507430201591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839184604982077,0.0,0.12028050219013288,0.0,0.0,0.07262618699877982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976992382011481,0.0,0.0,0.054779963387782564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270363521458947,0.08705948812075147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874493008233242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859693187987897,0.0,0.0,0.07852646741339553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728772473646779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437793370376928,0.08103067554742004,0.0,0.0,0.07008426248286809,0.0,0.0,0.08216278919630766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561315967410922,0.0,0.0,0.27154471700419325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553833799267672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125965481516072,0.06515155960817873,0.0478535814098317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143540564498952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903845521635345,0.06771337979592845,0.0,0.0,0.06582872087614987,0.1998695478412648,0.0,0.15215276145217993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910908702043769,0.0,0.0,0.0833424190839015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luke-warm-soup,2019/10/01,"I reached my weight gain goal, and I'm less excited than I thought I'd be I started my recovery process in March, I've eaten three meals a day most days since then. I found out today that I hit my healthy weight goal and I'm not happy about it remotely... I expected to be excited, proud of myself for all the hard work, but I'm just sad.
I'm still unhappy about my looks for many reasons, my mom and some others have started making comments on my appearance weight-wise like they did when I was overweight as a child. and I just feel helpless again. no one's said I look healthier, or that I'm stronger/more energetic, I get complements on my cooking but shamed when I enjoy a hearty portion of it.

like, what's the point now? I'm not sure where to go from here. my original plan was to start working out and adjusting my diet so I'll gain some muscle mass, but will I still be sad like I am now? will I still get glared at for having four eggs at breakfast or two sandwiches at lunch? I definitely wont be small and dainty like I'm expected to be. will I get shamed for that?

I dont expect an answer for every question, I just needed to put my thoughts out somehow. no one in my life knows the full extent of my disordered eating and weight struggles. thank you for reading my rant",2.6171966816453534,4.28227394296578,3.7886225371586586,89.1923911164881,75.73003802281369,7.21527825786381,25.64275838230211,8.00094639256281,1.3907201520912549,1009,36,216,16,22,328,150,263,0.16399999999999998,0.677,0.159,-0.6903,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,8,17,17,0,3,7,0,16,14,0,3,2,42,44,17,0,4,10,1,5,4,0,4,2,1,0,1,7,10,13,0,9,2,0,3,6,6,0,5,8,8,34,11,29,26,8,35,0,3,2,0,7,15,0,8,21,136,41,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888153199083484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228916447408398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527940267672586,0.0,0.0,0.11811047877059586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725209522504066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058363281016758424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655957774363685,0.0,0.0,0.18091728732346105,0.0,0.0655997360218275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287402284779587,0.1033997809702168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343557533500219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152939419543374,0.2255669041124205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385895759958627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770483153365204,0.1170247038625206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518652580155502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558754299357005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643243487406086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911567777119803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160358603258018,0.12930448306586909,0.0,0.11545808113586754,0.0,0.0,0.11867802096600102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097973620692424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095482278965759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24509914495284454,0.0,0.2765400825414251,0.0,0.0,0.12066920024092252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087884353846707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626953078323044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832720432404165,0.0,0.0,0.1094111525459972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275525538094786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.56223520411027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680642357630095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vbgirl24,2019/10/01,"Getting rid of water retention? Hello. 
I am now over a week free of binging and purging! I’m extremely proud of myself, but am now dealing with some water retention. Tonight I ate soup, but feel super guilty about it because of the sodium, and dead it will make the bloat even worse. 

I know I just have to wait this out, but does anyone have any advice to help with the water weight and bloating?? Would drinking a lot of water help? Or would that make it worse

Thanks for reading. Sending my love to everyone struggling",3.5760606060606044,5.8603413535353575,3.8373737373737375,87.1427272727273,74.85858585858584,6.016161616161617,26.15151515151515,6.937597516519254,1.23389696969697,410,15,75,4,9,127,68,99,0.16699999999999998,0.618,0.214,0.7226,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,1,5,0,7,8,0,2,0,20,17,7,1,2,5,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,7,1,2,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,6,6,14,13,2,7,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,3,4,50,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20113874989706024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399742808770761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439240241004502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254745878255984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21220597129616908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012685243029222,0.0,0.0,0.20163910587453784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595151531517385,0.0,0.0,0.19668335188904493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407593125331484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753984828580912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27593258492628203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131210662348546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749928342853785,0.18577335737130465,0.0,0.27479178793409104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058898524139828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21518254576984136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18950443133828812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651077400227492,0.2506505435942329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4195251690752528,0.2924373500727794,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pink_salts,2019/10/01,"Lonely Can’t relate to anyone irl because my life = eating disorder. It’s all disordered thoughts about food. I’m too old for this bs but here I am, unable to connect with people irl because I am not normal. Or when I do, it all feels fake and shallow since I cannot be myself and must filter my words so I don’t “give myself away.”",1.8976190476190449,3.5025899999999983,3.794285714285717,88.63904761904762,77.57142857142857,5.80952380952381,21.666666666666664,6.42735559955562,0.4029523809523812,260,7,54,2,6,88,53,70,0.122,0.878,0.0,-0.775,0,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,13,12,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,9,0,6,9,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739794196940985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23377282088968354,0.0,0.0,0.30335444152142105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.570334260221552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546030614141406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580992114934875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008718668002415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386890199527067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757476015122665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437889353499508,0.0,0.0,0.26109276855150043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724991601240877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058249258535166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753379956771214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PMmeUrReasons4Living,2019/10/01,"I hate that I'm proud of myself I'm in the midst of a lot of Rough Shit(TM) and decided to switch from high restricting to pure fasting. I've never been able to purely fast, but apparently my life is so fucking chaotic that it's been weirdly easy. and I'm... proud of myself for it?  


It feels vile. It feels great. I'm too numb to feel hunger pangs or want to binge. It means I'm too numb to feel anything. 

I shouldn't be proud. If this was anyone else, I'd be telling them that this is a bad sign. I'd be discouraging them. Harm reduction. Love and support. etc.

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But nah, I'm digging my heels in and reveling in every hour that ticks by. 

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Not to mention, I can't help but peek over at the ""totally healthy fasting"" forums and see people who are going as long as I am, even longer, and reading the coos and oohs and aahs of encouragement, of praise. It's all so fucked. 

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Anywho I'm off the deep end, how are y'all?",1.264587628865982,3.4257160257731982,2.547639175257732,94.07403608247424,82.04123711340206,5.5294845360824745,22.07113402061856,6.742157984588678,0.4018399999999995,735,24,163,8,20,236,117,194,0.21600000000000005,0.607,0.177,-0.8533,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,2,4,6,18,4,0,6,0,13,8,1,1,5,32,33,18,0,3,6,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,13,8,1,2,6,1,0,1,4,10,1,0,3,6,11,8,24,26,4,16,1,1,1,3,10,8,2,3,7,92,24,1,0.12157559387730213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951813155169308,0.4431829610183926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500848201236592,0.12456856306628565,0.10004635484907894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151054267159848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156080844501472,0.0,0.10767989062722767,0.0,0.13558892423006216,0.08029953314922424,0.0,0.10243268135399504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458890928089322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22478935499309116,0.0,0.0,0.06909421171113116,0.0,0.0,0.13403752144927555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200307290808929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814895578724237,0.12845128989465596,0.0,0.0,0.11972747043068603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587243737299774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759057482058414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103359222330103,0.10972672010235976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324314628390165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376659289579864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428520899966048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160849395961258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688000787500838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479560002682173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796254319599324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626242770997504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170843518385507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431829610183926,0.0
EDAnonymous,PBhoe,2019/10/01,"I purged. It's been about a month for me. My Ed has been off and on lately, with some days better than others, but I thought I could at least go without purging. I thought I was done. I guess I'm not.",-0.7590909090909079,1.1492176363636375,0.9829090909090932,103.68936363636368,88.54545454545455,3.5200000000000005,17.89090909090909,3.1291,-1.1229581818181815,152,4,39,0,5,49,36,44,0.0,0.946,0.054000000000000006,0.2382,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,11,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,0,8,1,8,4,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28281720090432777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553163029240266,0.0,0.0,0.20623002465258256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272433936826424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173691519801424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35227095408108056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607229339836792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552433393536573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5077352105421246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30825408628495005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liquid_calories,2019/10/01,Prove me wrong: There's no better coping mechanism than an ED My dad just got diagnosed with stage 4 colon and liver cancer and guess what's back full swing? ED,1.5571875000000013,4.203935343750004,2.2800000000000007,92.965,86.1875,5.7,14.25,7.1686216300943375,-0.17427500000000018,129,2,26,2,4,40,29,32,0.258,0.665,0.077,-0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293086771951965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787648163201252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346790722988227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425219436813736,0.0,0.471781216951412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682395909958333,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pushthemushroom,2019/10/01,"Age regression as a coping mechanism I’ve recently noticed that a lot of people in the age regression community have EDs and was curious as to how many of you have tried age regression as a coping mechanism before? If you have, what were your experiences with it?",7.210748299319725,7.9470821836734675,8.600408163265309,62.49340136054426,63.89795918367346,13.880272108843535,36.74149659863946,13.023866798666859,5.721239455782312,213,10,35,9,3,74,35,49,0.0,0.943,0.057,0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,5,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,8,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33011688766243114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37948955502308707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298212282964721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933204225773566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416836617420951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26895569193341845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3830538357422991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633925934927701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lightfeathers,2019/10/01,"Can anyone from Japan tell me how many calories these are? https://imgur.com/a/glpgOuk

It doesn't say and I want to try them lol

Thanks in advance for the help also I'm jealous of your snacks",2.110833333333336,4.910666194444445,1.1722222222222245,97.345,95.38888888888887,3.5111111111111115,17.11111111111111,5.46131890053228,-0.6181888888888887,157,4,30,1,6,44,35,36,0.10400000000000001,0.6890000000000001,0.207,0.6343,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,2,2,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,3,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361858804887999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939465931584488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817786807568537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262096665506103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33431114975764803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674395526972165,0.3870388027883438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28541734169009497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479570240996825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RareAfternoon,2019/10/01,"nobody cares about your eating disorder when you're a fat guy in your 20s My girlfriend encourages me to starve and purge lmao.. she's right though, eating disorders don't count when you're fat. I'm so gross and obese I can't even believe she sleeps in the same bed as me. I don't know if I actually have an eating disorder or if I'm just really weak and self indulgent but Either way I need to just fucking stop eating. Sorry I'm drunk and just threw up all my food in the pub toilets. , it's so humiliating..no normal men have this problem. If only i wasn't such a fat, weak willed lazy pig",1.5131182795698948,3.5276065483870984,3.380322580645164,89.23215053763441,80.29032258064517,6.713978494623658,20.010752688172047,7.793537801064563,0.6664430107526882,468,12,102,8,12,157,82,124,0.239,0.73,0.031,-0.9756,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,11,7,1,0,5,0,7,14,4,0,1,20,15,15,0,6,9,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,1,3,2,4,10,1,1,2,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,0,13,2,8,12,3,10,0,0,0,1,9,5,1,4,3,57,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.1444300010824872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16674918680503797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089936409174287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5088742706998741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6057778451756662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775487179609242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896633894727754,0.0,0.0,0.13682678912740492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465466679662744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133881628012474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974267039681182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501194046302304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256328026303992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416192973027333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481478917290152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639412330308109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543998592103455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811031954141346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567772628363994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373749733697055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454126216959343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747823630677624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PhattSticc,2019/10/01,"Guess I'll die TW: Food, calories My life is getting so much worse. There's a lot of stress, no comfort, not much love; then my ED is getting worse. I use to be alright with what I was eating and now I'm panicking over it. 

I'm scared to even have a day where I eat normally and I need that for my brain to function better. It's a habit of once a week. I'm afraid to do that even though it's just one day in a week and I need it so I don't loose weight too fast and I can function in school better. I am scared of even eating the 350-400 calorie dinner I eat every night; beyond that it is an apple, vitamins and sugar-free gum that day. My dinner bowl needs to be smaller now apparently... 

Now people are commenting on my weight too. Got told I should eat more and could afford to drink ""full fat Coke"". Months ago when this started I restricted and then binged because I restricted so much. Binging doesn't happen anymore beyond my ""monthly"" craving day. That ""binge"" or ""craving"" didn't even make my period come. I don't want to binge and can't which is nice but this is painful -- I could only indulge and eat a bit more if I wasn't so nervous to. Not eating enough makes me depressed. Everything feels numb and hopeless.",2.12000362187613,3.8837304262948216,3.245202825063384,92.11692412169504,77.40637450199203,5.997899311843534,22.96287576964868,6.782984794422108,0.5412055776892428,951,29,206,9,22,306,141,251,0.16399999999999998,0.7879999999999999,0.048,-0.9762,2,0,1,0,0,1,37.0,0,0,0,2,20,15,0,5,8,1,22,21,2,3,0,34,42,21,1,9,6,0,3,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,14,12,15,2,1,1,0,1,9,9,0,1,5,3,23,6,19,32,9,28,0,2,0,1,3,8,0,4,19,131,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743961309466595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663791875693555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053254013014422716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545261286077044,0.09537479458684757,0.0,0.0,0.0975229590862913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525314182048297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950014261907653,0.0,0.0,0.2253606019035271,0.0,0.07524327716256851,0.0,0.09066617342129206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08557981145460668,0.0,0.6257395985133222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026651732680442,0.0,0.2308025518597548,0.0,0.0736047998137321,0.0,0.0785137824759896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04417198010768409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563639173960997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128427643279588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986999272331372,0.0,0.09623719240030636,0.0,0.07725240299451464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061705146041363776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427058208325955,0.07884605929078914,0.0,0.11662732434107345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946027666317815,0.0,0.19265956258862366,0.1943296117378312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198170048374666,0.08559452151605812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303584213395752,0.05919758348977575,0.06644142602070519,0.09295749234692784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06056461525437382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492575152947554,0.08841326261301694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183405254500516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007090027232324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583102699486213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347648685467622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545122889239146,0.0,0.0,0.0515273538376215,0.0,0.14015028681623765,0.21276256080143446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17805516799038631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisonemakesyousmall,2019/10/01,"it’s my wedding in 5 days tw: alcohol, fasting, cutting

my wedding is on saturday and basically i had my bachelorette this weekend and i didn’t drink very much or do much bad stuff, it was also my birthday (feelin 22) and so i didn’t track on friday or saturday and today i weighed myself and it was like SUPER high

yesterday i realized i hadn’t had alcohol in a day so i rashly decided that i should detox from alcohol (i’m a pretty functional alcoholic, i’m not gonna die from withdrawal probably but) this week, and just now i decided (and my fiancé said it was ok) that i’m gonna fast from about an hour ago until wednesday when i wake up, which will be my longest fast ever. i’m trying not to cut myself lmao because people might see when i’m putting on my dress but basically does the torture i’m putting my body through have an end? cause i’m a dumbass but it feels good. also i mean if i’m not drinking as much something else has to get worse, either ed, or cutting or weed/nicotine so. i mean sobriety will be good for me at least until i am having drinks on our honeymoon. but yeah idk where i was going with this. thanks for listening",2.2837061803444776,4.173887165957448,4.340243161094225,83.8766666666667,77.34042553191489,7.880445795339413,27.36068895643364,8.704169506293173,2.207622087132726,904,38,182,20,21,310,137,235,0.091,0.7859999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.6661,0,0,8,0,0,1,22.0,1,0,0,1,12,11,4,0,6,2,21,12,3,1,1,32,40,26,1,2,14,0,1,1,0,6,5,2,0,0,12,8,8,0,6,4,0,3,6,5,0,0,10,4,26,6,21,22,5,34,0,0,1,0,5,10,0,6,22,121,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529125455437856,0.5077585520716635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899765583559201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917629271218256,0.07240715205394012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193774197800814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220197230536503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320647633237378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327483007311472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394513039601297,0.0,0.0,0.34907737858532945,0.0,0.0,0.0992254026166962,0.0,0.1052037755980757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744326061805533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005870917773822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620576188503698,0.0,0.06750538008204256,0.19925396493767536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125497533463725,0.0,0.0,0.1169743195200664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802988136633661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587723634837702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600675110605686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26195077992004145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234705813858871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084190632205895,0.12806487058367286,0.0,0.0,0.2388133041216417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129869281184855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465223774888408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914426047967242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597461928017635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935661485398826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112589499375033,0.0,0.0,0.08064378579871136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09800589434503792,0.0,0.0,0.095278107258868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104691170577235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nothinfeelsoknemore,2019/10/01,"Been Clocked. Twice. Hi all, been lurking awhile but never posted. I've struggled with BE with restricting for years, but some actually health weight loss here and there.... I don't feel super valid in the ED community since I don't look like I struggle with eating, but when those numbers are at the forefront of my thoughts half the day, it's definitely not normal.

I'm currently struggling with food anxiety since I started a new job a few weeks ago. I hate eating in front of people that are not my family. I have perfect table manners and am an overly polite eater, but in front of strangers I'm supposed to be getting to know, I feel watched. My solution has been drinking a protein shake in my car at lunch and eating bits of fruit in front of my coworkers at breaks. It's not healthy. I'm starting to get turned off by food entirely again and I hate it.

A coworker commented on how I never eat with them or anyone and how I only ever seem to have protein shakes for meals. My mom just called me anorexic because I said I'm not hungry for anything (out of concern). It's not like I'm wasting away, I'm just struggling. I'm trying to snap myself out of it, but I noticed my self talk is a lot of negativity about my weight. Jesus. I can't even admit my eating has been disordered lately without making excuses... Idk y'all. I'm just struggling with this today.",3.821126984126984,5.395589885185185,4.851693121693124,83.17833333333336,72.37037037037038,7.365079365079365,28.783068783068785,7.957251820313856,1.9083068783068788,1079,43,207,15,21,353,156,270,0.18100000000000002,0.746,0.073,-0.9846,2,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,1,3,12,14,2,7,9,0,17,14,0,3,5,46,41,14,0,1,15,1,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,8,13,13,1,6,1,0,6,12,10,0,2,6,8,26,4,39,33,5,38,1,1,2,0,11,14,0,4,18,135,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.09224863839077298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379604476829662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231597087861233,0.0,0.0,0.06609828651943142,0.0,0.07779097416510942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881500422745789,0.0,0.0,0.0576252318460433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320338955202067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652673971584796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06096468697174761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834073768683472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926044103958283,0.0,0.4836441612365921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062436846580814324,0.08550871879062362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911543177441505,0.0,0.09559544720563072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286145670834555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877711172514897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866596211133614,0.0,0.10048205284730137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938074500940447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195177590474009,0.0,0.1066351070407535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236616198472808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938224780932279,0.0,0.0,0.0803668919885777,0.0,0.0,0.06310018930327274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071358707938654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14581629918472858,0.09129864731933048,0.0,0.0,0.09262032789487913,0.0,0.10762419180744448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189509976624575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553590608757498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053458552297784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992064656195323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605748946362747,0.09861646938399468,0.0,0.0,0.15639407173362302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338190837532311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941217303078158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598045239160946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504706995836398,0.0,0.0,0.08960435289711373,0.0,0.0,0.06418035679861431,0.10282260352938802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582708150921788,0.23022662894944754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911245290775788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06087487698752043
EDAnonymous,harasamcat,2019/10/01,StRess Oh god I have to go to a fucking all you can eat buffet for dinner tonight with a family who doesn’t know about my eating disorder and I’m freaking my fucking shit oh god oh god.,-0.12075000000000102,2.1092384250000045,2.2800000000000007,92.965,89.75,5.2,20.5,6.742157984588678,0.4353500000000001,147,5,32,2,5,50,31,40,0.262,0.602,0.136,-0.7841,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,5,3,1,2,0,3,6,1,0,1,4,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,8,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32034198465442204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5720157856960211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634965839024453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5168038673601876,0.0,0.0,0.15885163167808206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361105485317875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28691237948246634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32017707003365964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vangogh-thot,2019/10/01,"I’m really sick of binging every time I eat anything At this point I think my anorexia has morphed into BED because if I’m breaking a fast, it automatically turns into a binge. I can’t resist food, I’m just so hungry all the time and if I see something I’m gonna eat it. I feel like a pig, and I wish I could get back into the mindset of being terrified of eating. I have to isolate myself from anywhere with food or else I’ll have a massive binge.",1.22239583333333,3.046090614583335,3.934583333333333,85.85208333333334,80.35416666666666,5.5166666666666675,24.20833333333333,6.42735559955562,0.7829458333333323,353,13,73,3,9,125,65,96,0.10800000000000001,0.831,0.06,-0.6361,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,0,6,6,0,0,1,15,17,6,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,10,14,1,10,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,3,5,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582445729055408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786501534098986,0.0,0.11722285650653112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535340181447723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5903054786590128,0.16064000313221566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201905543569667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723146468548872,0.13737747244438878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650541392028554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046758011162578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394691357878006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178342589747484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231907922514238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153236322226759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148040118090607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321656307855022,0.0,0.0,0.22426060061029787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091646126709856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211327958309406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mhaeveh,2019/10/01,"TW - rant Fuck that bullshit I'm not recovering, my dumbass therapist can shove it, she's not the one whose fat is oozing out, I AM. Fuck that crappy bullshit I'm not being fat ever again fuck the stupid number",2.435714285714288,4.620770904761908,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,78.04761904761905,7.057142857142857,22.404761904761905,8.07648339933343,1.3153619047619052,166,5,32,3,4,56,31,42,0.46,0.469,0.071,-0.9758,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,2,0,4,5,2,0,1,5,9,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,8,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,1,3,0,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816100110450763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8634409279134353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109609219102279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614706836106695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redditfag47,2019/10/01,"men... so some guy i used to kinda have a crush on offered me a hershey kiss and i said no because of my anorexia and he noticed and was like ""omg... ur so skinny... u have anorexia ur not fat!1!"" 
idk why but that made me irrationally mad but also made me all🥰🥰🥰inside bc validation. in conclusion i'm a clown because he doesn't like me & now i'm gonna brb and starve myself more for a guy i don't like and who i'm kinda pissed at bye🤠",0.7905303030303017,1.8235550606060649,3.539280303030304,91.72892045454547,79.20202020202021,6.162121212121212,22.476010101010104,6.6274283507984215,0.3490494949494951,337,10,83,3,8,120,67,99,0.201,0.6859999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.8992,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,4,0,5,3,2,3,0,15,13,10,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,1,9,4,6,8,2,4,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,3,4,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956184185373388,0.0,0.2650401031800005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29822990158707663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484414347737797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585194000469714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4629209981240225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784956442073445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23268475211053696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112687034600356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207268675475202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flowerdropz,2019/09/12,"does anyone else watch mukbang videos, and precariously live through the person eating all the food? i just watched someone eat an entire pizza with ranch and i’m practically drooling. but will i go get some? nope! not allowed! super!",3.0956445993031347,6.108977170731709,3.3869686411149864,81.21195121951223,94.3658536585366,4.2940766550522635,25.369337979094077,6.1826913282559595,1.2660216027874562,188,8,29,2,7,58,37,41,0.0,0.889,0.111,0.6826,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,1,1,9,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611133504862506,0.3020286003336245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579568370503759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6032503957974247,0.24624406084765305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564392975548785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540061281613747,0.0,0.1675256384161992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602889487459105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25738341421223865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497592364683051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dontcallmeratchet,2019/09/12,"my mom is not going to be home until after dinner time she called me and told me to feed myself dinner

guess what i'm going to do",2.3862068965517267,2.839549172413797,4.713275862068965,87.09681034482759,74.51724137931033,5.8000000000000025,14.5,3.1291,-0.9312896551724136,102,0,22,0,2,36,24,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,5,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810990262895784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242186950521427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111435595850868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743697739801442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.437110383684215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762739935818112,0.0,0.0,0.3566274024737657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayW861443,2019/09/12,"Ah yes, as if I didn’t feel invalid enough my lovely coworker really had to get into the “ privilege” of having an eating disorrder I work at a supplement shop. My coworkers are really close and we usually end up talking about ED’s Because (shocker) most people drawn to a job like this have had one.

I used to be anorexic, than bulimic, than sort of recovered and now I’m what I think is ortho/bulimic but I haven’t been diagnosed as that.  I replaced this summer and lost a good 20lbs on my already small frame. I’m trying so hard to recover though and just be healthy

So ANYWAY I have this coworker well call Jessica. She’s for sure the one upper type. She’s also (sort of related) very overweight. 

So me and another coworker are just talking about fad diets that people come into the shop all the time for. It breaks my heart selling these things to people and we got to talking about eating disorders.

Like I said, this has been a rough summer for me. I lost *20 fucking lbs* 

When Jessica HAS to chime in about how skinny whites people don’t really have anything to worry about at all. That people who are like her, are the one people who can have problems with food and that skinny people (which for the record I’m not skin and bones here Ive got some fat on me still) are actually just being dramatic and have nothing to worry about! They get treated 100x better and their lives are on easy mode! Yay! They’re just being brats!! in fact they’re actually privileged as fuck and don’t notice! 

Like shut the fuck up sorry you’re also in pain, but you’re in the same boat as me when it comes to societal pressures making you hate yourself. Maybe she does have BED or something. Idk? I don’t care actually, that’s fucked to say to someone who’s literally talking about their Ed in front of you and you’ve visibly seen falling into it??? the last thing I fucking needed was for someone to tell me that I’m being a winy baby and that my ed isn’t real and im being ungrateful. Thanks for confirming all of my fears",3.3881810606060583,5.1747520075,4.713272727272726,82.8599696969697,73.925,7.948484848484849,25.37121212121212,8.666027191798058,1.860091666666667,1593,53,307,31,33,528,204,400,0.147,0.725,0.128,-0.9156,1,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,2,2,3,4,25,27,6,2,15,3,35,19,6,3,5,50,63,31,0,3,9,0,4,4,0,0,4,2,1,1,22,23,8,0,2,2,3,4,7,12,2,3,12,8,34,15,53,45,7,34,0,2,2,6,24,19,5,6,14,205,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.2430578125114105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161884858439713,0.1327882358271579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705771301145072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06832152879991038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061054935261103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342782088600615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477660163324788,0.0,0.0846483165330604,0.0,0.0,0.14303533696185908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842674284632529,0.0,0.0,0.0951524892124894,0.0,0.07265470333582515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16990818714109798,0.0,0.0,0.07353446069831565,0.08578579850535001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09342487816654807,0.0419793373813358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003927312693101,0.0,0.0,0.383770913349152,0.08675303730196239,0.0,0.0,0.06963644018666312,0.13280346455889253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437303412154947,0.08196883260909696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838362504417876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967997128295939,0.0,0.08238832939208783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767549337866981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622449767188337,0.0,0.07331155308372303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126061143920327,0.0,0.07493223795011755,0.0,0.055419043751954285,0.0,0.08340858516302514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061561109663025824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796635933212516,0.09452316800317644,0.0,0.0,0.1687772649144694,0.0,0.0883431968374854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029078360660383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944258199778141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449928204270487,0.15956155284478754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897466395972351,0.06602387305665833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069162452509973,0.06391579190337841,0.0,0.09293836790729523,0.0,0.0,0.06630292895479685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824896669002228,0.0,0.0,0.2669256027202118,0.07256647707042667,0.07643717776635127,0.0,0.0,0.11031467219855592,0.05319831074410503,0.08157048045435171,0.0,0.048411856413008096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056367723151251575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170592275439103,0.0914390069119481,0.06850334548307113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464838387775305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060442328908872515,0.16862943616477688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,michaelcera22,2019/09/12,struggling between relapsing and recovery... was about to eat a monomeal of watermelon. my roommate (boyfriend’s best friend) lets me know that he made me a vegan pot pie pizza because he made all of his friends them. he tells me after my 4 hour depression nap. ive had a hard time fitting in here and this made me so happy. and reminded me that food makes me happy. its a gesture of love,2.9005451127819555,5.070822250000003,4.015338345864663,85.61236842105264,76.5,7.50075187969925,29.27819548872181,8.418075326091056,2.275577443609023,305,14,60,6,7,99,57,76,0.08800000000000001,0.679,0.233,0.9440000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,3,8,0,1,4,0,4,4,0,4,1,9,10,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,11,6,8,4,2,5,0,1,0,1,9,2,0,0,3,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189132698402326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047146332416545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16801408221522576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996059948372381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23588022845299425,0.0,0.30142223146799857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153127110393829,0.1747450045190307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19210531593764466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720573868309448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994729764983457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17605889572576136,0.5537417536439656,0.13021118696123798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393021864796326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050036365166454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374727638299442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bookbunni93,2019/09/12,"Purging relapse Basically I feel like an idiot because I used to be a literal pro at this. No puffy face or redness,  obnoxious salvation, or broken capillaries around my eyes. I slip up once and now I have red freckles. Sorry to rant but I just feel like such a fuckup.",1.486593406593407,4.187993153846159,3.872527472527473,80.5296153846154,88.61538461538461,6.817582417582417,26.659340659340657,7.957251820313856,2.33224945054945,212,10,38,5,7,73,43,52,0.205,0.701,0.095,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,2,2,2,1,0,9,5,4,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,6,2,5,4,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,2,3,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086976237621343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138695458509368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506733042044305,0.4954631953879917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388272994862711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692973021700836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881791209013739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29949678141525043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JealousProduce,2019/09/12,"Bread and butter pudding is dangerous Seriously guys, I made a batch bc I have never had it before and it’s like a more custard-y French toast with butter over the top baked in. I ate the whole thing and cried afterwards",4.743333333333332,5.7012854545454585,5.416363636363638,82.35287878787881,69.45454545454545,8.593939393939394,26.03030303030303,8.841846274778883,1.769312121212121,176,5,35,3,3,57,36,44,0.16899999999999998,0.732,0.098,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,0,3,3,0,1,1,6,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,3,1,3,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3382713210976505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366713567489643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.393620190746124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421455384452585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761553563244021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066019728534824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641032748973933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4438314211151712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hahahhahahhahah,2019/09/12,I ate 1200 calories today and I am literally disappointed of myself Why can’t I think like a normal person?,3.332857142857143,5.7407425238095255,6.48595238095238,67.2632142857143,76.14285714285714,8.009523809523811,24.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.3963142857142863,87,3,14,2,2,32,19,21,0.158,0.7140000000000001,0.128,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417390225855816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4848084418743334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43204873892288187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170540722445964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690217331395285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4464887859261501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turnoffwhatturnsmeon,2019/09/12,"Relationship troubles - I just need to get this off my chest This will be long, and maybe dumb, and maybe I'm an awful person but it's all eating me up from the inside (hah) and I just need to let it out somewhere. I thought only this sub could understand the obsession with food that permeates all of this. I'm a bit of a regular here, but decided I needed a throwaway for this - sorry.

Me and my boyfriend, Tom, have been together a year and 8 months now and I do really love him. He's very intelligent and sweet, and we have so many shared interests that conversation is great.

But weight and food is ruining this. For background context - I am bulimic (non-purging type) and have struggled with this for 4 years now, this year has been the worst and I actually have my first therapy assessment next week. Tom actually struggled with bulimia years before I met him, which I didn't know until we had been together for a while. Also of significance is that I have a preference for bigger guys (though Tom has always been lean) and a bit of a feeder fetish (which is a source of great shame to me and I never act on it).

Over the first 7 months we were together, Tom was skipping meals and could be strange around food (insisting that soup was a decent lunch for an active 6ft man who didn't snack for example). He lost 11kg quickly and became underweight. I was very concerned for him, but didn't really know the extent of it. It fed into my ED in a load of predictably destructive ways as well as it affecting my attraction to him significantly, which I tried to never let show.

Tom turned this around before Christmas, just out of the blue. Started eating more, though he maintained none of it was ever a conscious decision. He put back on the weight he lost (back to a normal BMI of about 21), and then got more of an appetite this summer.  He put on another like 6kg, and I was so freaking attracted to him. But he weighed himself a couple of weeks ago and freaked out. 

Tom has now started skipping meals like mad again, he's eating under 1000cals a day. He's had dreams about bingeing that make him skip breakfast, and he confides in me about this and I can't breathe. He's noticeable losing weight.

And then throughout this, I've been consumed by my own struggles. I was doing okay until February, when a new job made me spiral. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts again, and have put back on loads of weight. It's been a dark, and at points, manic time for me and it's sucked. 12 days ago I hit a low point, and have been trudging upwards since then (12 days binge-free!) and I have starting therapy as a glimmer of hope - I am really trying. But at the same time, it's becoming increasing hard to be around Tom.

It's like - I find Tom's behaviour so triggering, and *at the same time* such a turn-off. It's so sexually disappointing in a way that I hate that I feel but is undeniable. I'm also so worried for him that I'm obsessing over trying to find out his meals without actually asking him.

I'm a fucking mess. I feel toxic and awful. Our relationship would be so perfect if I could just magic away every issue to do with food and weight. 

Thank you to anyone who made it this far, if you have any advice or words of comfort then please I am all ears.",3.8747954437588974,5.325027386046512,4.837937035279229,83.8221926910299,72.03875968992249,8.242050308495491,27.116753678215474,8.783252456381064,1.9647351684859984,2564,90,515,48,49,836,292,645,0.14800000000000002,0.731,0.121,-0.9443,1,0,0,0,0,0,85.0,4,2,0,6,34,41,6,7,34,4,55,26,3,5,7,97,91,60,1,12,15,0,8,3,0,2,0,1,0,3,39,45,21,0,13,2,0,5,8,24,1,2,29,11,53,17,76,50,14,81,0,6,1,2,39,29,3,4,48,343,92,2,0.0,0.0,0.17712087193000664,0.0,0.0,0.05912091906262845,0.10726104849211604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967653245486582,0.05034171446100639,0.0,0.0,0.04114278394798847,0.06344061882847954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04230373602483478,0.0,0.0,0.1615762658604278,0.056560308217902734,0.0,0.05684272152468625,0.13956470281315886,0.0,0.0,0.06681864873100965,0.10296386305840838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210293877114046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491547959921808,0.06694325339443846,0.0,0.11705450293622888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18572301344807765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472665719522024,0.050974738164187815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061182290445217086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059371457073787,0.10292431263477513,0.2926324056671954,0.0,0.0,0.05593223940545895,0.031609297908863986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048388211008219516,0.1334052271157705,0.0,0.0599055445869573,0.0,0.0,0.0541970509632171,0.059732254449243176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009118699269665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314737028713857,0.06003794977007016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649958205041838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373283119390215,0.0,0.08867326083590005,0.0,0.0,0.053541519248727874,0.0,0.06768519161341352,0.13208807078838758,0.0,0.05460455347745092,0.11449509958927925,0.040384916038905434,0.06133856164568933,0.12156285928747658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965827107090972,0.0,0.0,0.13458227046269508,0.09332426835324492,0.05843228439039828,0.06434354566058267,0.0,0.05927817660820524,0.0,0.068880838518709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04601376952632967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05282717716343223,0.0,0.06641197715443566,0.1143860827085308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824607763177847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627555220035495,0.0,0.0,0.1299109567200357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004708801735193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772596440906048,0.12846884901890135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529953055522111,0.0,0.06617832138781239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055701231875480164,0.1383764309079332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888393524603184,0.09606214031047916,0.10583593422926572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322871052898415,0.13161552306850607,0.0,0.06298371950631124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983939340780856,0.0,0.09604582377392973,0.09706057474747308,0.3683698568381888,0.05439770359149746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832084652227736,0.0,0.0,0.06144174601499081,0.0,0.04297820512802894,0.0,0.0,0.15584275249660468
EDAnonymous,catalystrose,2019/09/12,"I spent $93.72 on food in September in 12 days Looooooool so I have actually no money left for actual food and will live on ramen and air for the rest of the month

(Stepping on the scale is not gonna be a thing for a while, fucking college is too hard)

I'm kind of proud that I didn't purge most of it though, so there is that",2.4512499999999977,2.968996069444448,3.7926666666666686,93.51899999999999,74.41666666666667,7.426666666666668,22.73333333333333,7.554174236665415,0.5130966666666672,255,6,64,3,5,84,53,72,0.037000000000000005,0.92,0.042,0.0883,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,5,0,7,3,0,0,0,4,11,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,3,2,11,6,2,11,0,0,0,1,0,7,1,1,3,42,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.4758954025520756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725334679185393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5896922888475488,0.0,0.0,0.2254214477728403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184281878038736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25391653934563674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649273461999224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153106952580985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19462670106987687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619930813709212,0.0,0.23956656380074726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,passionfruitbobatea,2019/09/12,Cake Day The only celebration I don't have to fear because of food.,0.23714285714285666,2.6518669999999998,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,93.28571428571428,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.9611142857142858,54,2,11,1,2,19,14,14,0.0,0.807,0.193,0.3875,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012622083665058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31872073466967776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561169651950042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.597593511886612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758644578502748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fixxxer_3,2019/09/12,"Short-Term Stabilization/Hospital *without* ED Protocol? Hello Gang,  

  

So, I've posted quite a bit about my recovery in the recent months. I began by going to the Hospital for 23 Days, back in Dec. At the time, I was the only adult (28/M) in the program, and on a separate floor from the Adolescent ED facility. I had my own room, but still had supervised meals and all that 'strict' protocol. I was treated very much like a child, by many, and at the time, my parents were kinda ""overtaking"" my treatment, which I initially agreed to (but soon regretted.) So, I didn't feel I had any say or power in my feelings or treatment.  I have an EDNOS, which they automatically labeled as ""Anorexia"" in the system, even though I don't count cals, over-exercise, don't have fear foods, don't have body image issues, and don't weight myself. I'm scared by my low weight, really. My main issue is stomach sensitivity, and fear of feeling full (ARFID, OCD), which is what has led me to this point in the 1st place. The feelings makes me undereat, and try to be more active to ""make room for/move along the food in my system."" (If that makes sense.)

  

Once discharged, I did a very dysfunctional local PHP, and discharged from there after 3 weeks, decided to recover outpatient with a team of trusted ED specialists. I now have an ED Life-Coach, Ret'd ED GP Specialist, Dietitician (meeting for the 1st time, next week), Psychiatrist, Social Worker, and NP. My ""Coach"" has done recovery on her own, after numerous hospitalizations. She gives me great hope, but despite a lot of ""trying"", I have *unintentionally* lost weight slowly over the months, and now find myself relapsed. :-( I am frustrated, but trying not to beat myself up over it all.  

  

All this said, I am \*not\* against going back into the Hospital \*Short-Term\*, for fluids and a little nutritional aid, as I feel it would help spur me back into my own action again @ home, with recovery. My issue is, now the Adult ED program is even more strict at the hospital, and I wouldn't be alone/the only one there this time. I was traumatized by my last stay, and really don't want to have the traditional protocol in place. I want to eat the hospital meals, and willingly would, if in the hospital setting, without supervision. I \*know\* I could do it, myself, as I'd be motivated to get out. Having someone watch me just makes it impossible for me. Same with bathrooms, I just want to use it when I need it!  

  

So, I am wondering, does anyone have experience in going to the hospital, short-term, for stabilization w/out having to follow the traditional ED protocol? It seems like a ""dumb"" question, I know, and I'm not trying to say that I'm a special ""snowflake"" that should be treated differently. I just know that, I relapsed from my last experience. Something has to change. There are two other local hospitals without ED programs, would I go to one of these just for ""malnutrition/dehydration?"" I'm just scared to be traumatized, again, and have to go through allllllll that ""work"" I did the 1st time, telling my ""unique"" story, packing stuff I'll need to stay, having things brought in/taken out...etc. Makes me overwhelmed just thinking about it.  

  

Thank you, all. Keep Fighting...",5.197068066840412,6.832090745362568,6.003067223670094,76.028080829373,69.03372681281618,9.303219377587,29.83477694312433,9.688023934748609,2.8945551433389545,2504,97,453,58,44,821,277,593,0.057,0.847,0.096,0.9786,3,1,1,0,2,0,163.0,0,1,1,9,28,20,3,5,33,0,51,10,2,8,4,85,92,31,0,15,20,1,8,2,0,6,0,3,3,3,25,22,8,1,15,2,0,9,13,11,0,3,15,12,57,9,73,65,15,75,0,4,1,0,20,32,1,10,30,308,82,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05015519524423162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05157045625712352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013663751208985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052017936826153,0.08192397932938801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802186873963934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058886504313033175,0.0,0.0,0.04756517737841024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705714946886331,0.0,0.0,0.06454255307304649,0.07547586774840108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546867362055609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225511761214244,0.09742753813994977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442909735356381,0.0,0.16598733132350627,0.18646099195963486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740974740664547,0.0,0.17836706747386932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03853337951453007,0.07075148131985798,0.20958026412887773,0.0,0.0,0.08131395800842083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049435698417257284,0.0,0.0739811960460469,0.07325428487985643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309397941992746,0.0,0.0655558735564706,0.0,0.0,0.12159967804858285,0.12023857844268755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052094575392989145,0.07206488045452555,0.07392080444836564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051111694581092,0.0627029459621394,0.0,0.0,0.2461565740682253,0.07477489951163835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177393517890212,0.0,0.05421761799102584,0.10937519541704023,0.0,0.0,0.07843813144468646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854551853825525,0.09995513094235713,0.11218636042877562,0.0,0.0,0.08189500081219947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411429893772666,0.0,0.06972129448898998,0.0,0.0706358686181219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262127062516154,0.07844637327425183,0.0,0.0,0.09449730042757228,0.0,0.07282309900789524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015686811748477,0.11730415610261627,0.14768108230582425,0.0,0.0,0.06714279945331393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518283416115255,0.06249145771659113,0.0567793714890233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157223732510354,0.058899976388084786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443059379542328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644641775769606,0.06790270108096351,0.0,0.0,0.048998827730401324,0.04725853436806718,0.07246285267430036,0.0,0.21503252153261265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002962834370303,0.0,0.0720468637154122,0.0,0.0,0.06369970714263454,0.0,0.1217094175193536,0.13050592008140435,0.0,0.1183218929261314,0.2694372181789945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21328844308383504,0.079982980928966,0.0536937327157986,0.0,0.0,0.15717800760648215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alohagend,2019/09/12,meeting up with friends who only knew me during my skinny days but am no longer that skinny girl like how do i react when they see me for the first time in two years? i have gained noticeable weight and never met up when i was gaining weight so it will be a big shock to see me with 20kilos added to my frame. i look pretty chubby rn so i will definitely get comments.  how can i act normal? laugh it off? i cant really avoid them because we have the same uni class this year :/,1.768181818181816,3.6034288484848496,3.122222222222224,92.27000000000002,78.69696969696969,6.016161616161617,19.080808080808087,6.937597516519254,0.08561414141414136,372,8,82,4,9,121,77,99,0.079,0.6779999999999999,0.244,0.966,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,2,3,6,5,0,1,3,0,10,4,2,3,1,13,16,8,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,4,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,3,5,15,3,9,10,1,14,0,0,3,0,9,5,0,0,9,55,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760772521665246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14558226707253588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201253767763526,0.0,0.0,0.17440453726386834,0.0,0.1179387328478243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028413275341982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956297777352102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410298047849898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22117520784100586,0.0,0.2570040889808585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168384084751687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22965659286577986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461347551627998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597677509422477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162958157389695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205131218519656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5497758825278735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907356058011732
EDAnonymous,heyitscoraline,2019/09/12,I feel shaky and anxious is it because of me drinking a can of coke zero and right after a mug of black coffee? yes.,1.7759999999999998,2.9996772000000007,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,77.0,5.0,24.5,3.1291,0.2862,90,3,19,0,2,31,21,25,0.152,0.742,0.105,-0.0516,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5960351243965238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216186059563415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.516844799106179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667692040544826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4505654760335631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RiidoDorito,2019/09/12,"when ur bf means well but triggers you ive gained almost 10kg in the past three years since we started dating (i was borderline UW but since im tall i guess i looked skinnier, even tho at the time i thought i looked fat as fuck)

tonight we were sending each other pics of us when we first started dating and good lord it triggered me so much

bf was like ""u were too skinny... like sick ppl"" (english not his first language)

and i was like oh but also like YES
here comes rapid fire weight loss pewpew 🔫🔫",1.613653846153845,3.629854596153848,2.1948461538461568,97.85015384615384,79.96153846153845,4.544615384615385,20.97692307692308,4.935628992294339,-0.3451584615384613,394,11,88,1,10,121,77,104,0.087,0.695,0.21899999999999997,0.9428,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,4,1,0,4,9,8,1,0,2,1,6,5,2,2,0,17,15,11,0,0,4,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,3,6,4,14,6,4,9,2,17,1,1,2,1,10,3,1,2,16,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186607309361614,0.0,0.0,0.1490277832209727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605280698015804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308551928539205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170264187723552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228191375493854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563054776317135,0.0,0.0,0.20529070767566995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012950505196268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641739656910333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31298202035253186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20299489591020015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699214395125986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789664399383096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083090608615868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638056262617707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794481275918242,0.10866492197747947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22416175427693705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22692981572099144,0.16755525218077355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000631447241784
EDAnonymous,cummo22,2019/09/12,Binge logic: I’ll force down 5k calories but ain’t no fucking way I’m gonna have non-diet coke or ice cream that isn’t Halo Top. I’m not crazy 🤪 I mean yea I’ll eat until I’m beyond sick but come on full fat milk too many calories let’s keep it sane around here 😫,-0.6295238095238105,0.7942012063492072,1.8034126984127,100.83464285714287,84.55555555555556,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.3565428571428573,208,3,55,0,6,71,52,63,0.125,0.7929999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.5417,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,0,9,12,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,10,1,9,0,0,1,1,0,6,1,1,1,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124726169352191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023633556396767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35917005339971075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245023603869168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119931155054629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589307008495928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35586824787176186,0.0,0.3823519337210067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786147743344616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starsgirl9,2019/09/12,Maintaining while fasting n thats the tea Someone pls help i’ve been restricting for a long time and i barely lost anything so i was like ok maybe i dont know how to count calories so i fasted for 48 hours and lost NOTHING. I’ve upped my intake a bit this week and i GAINED!!!!!! IM! SICK! OF! THIS! METABOLISM!!! I genuinely dont know what im doing wrong its been months now and ive taken enough lax to know it aint some mf water weight sigh,-1.7698264277715587,-0.32601067021276364,0.6501119820828691,99.21342105263159,113.14893617021276,3.6810750279955213,14.521836506159016,5.750287758089431,-0.7307787234042551,343,9,79,4,19,114,69,94,0.162,0.726,0.11199999999999999,-0.7631,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,3,1,8,4,0,1,0,10,14,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,6,1,8,2,6,8,3,10,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,10,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031681076990824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19942164942140747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281614181767036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887406190578553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224357495973815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798871287598431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39461667529925337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30116187713211845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892403459502398,0.0,0.0,0.1616517873172697,0.0,0.0,0.3987984096424424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18351042098684234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458005677569872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527092108245113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477051430293914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651277843571401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652194788386835,0.22243539812559504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199714279718193,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sandyy09,2019/09/12,"Housemate with ED keeps projecting it onto me and other people, so fkn triggered Rant time. 

I had an eating disorder as a teen and now I'm 23 and have been mostly over it for years, I stopped counting calories, restricting, i eat intuitively etc. I have bad days but I'm okay. I WAS okay.

Enter my new housemate who is TINY (like 5ft and 85lbs or something) and obviously has some kind of ED but has never openly discussed it. We got along fine at first but now I can't stand to be around her. She makes me feel like a huge fat piece of shit. She will compare my body to hers, comment on my food (""how can you eat all that? Theres soOoOoOo much""). She goes through my fridge and tells me what stuff I shouldn't eat because they're ""fattening"". I feel so judged when I'm around her and I actually can't stand it. My eating disorder is coming back and she 100% knows and seems to delight in making me insecure. It just pisses me off that she's so obsessed with my body when it's none of her actual fucking business. I understand that your ED will make you compare yourself to others, I did it too, but at least I kept it in my head...

Whenever my boyfriend (or most boys really) come over she starts acting like a little kid and makes her voice super high pitched and giggly and twirls her hair. It's so strange. She seems desperate to win over my boyfriend (probably to prove superiority to me) and seems to be angry at the fact that he isn't the slightest bit interested in her. He finds her baby act weird and is polite to her but doesn't engage her, especially after knowing how she treats me. 

She has commented a few times that my boyfriend is ""cold"" and ""unfriendly"" to her. Maybe stop acting like a 6 year old thot around him then?? Ugh 

Yesterday one of our other housemates  brought round this chubby dude that she's dating and then after they left all she could talk about was how gross and fat this poor guy was. (""Imagine ____shagging him his belly will crush her to death"") and  ""I couldn't date anyone with any fat on their belly, it's disgusting how someone could let themselves get like that"". Obvious pointed dig at me, she knows I'm insecure about my stomach.

I'm now restricting and calorie counting and doing the stuff I did when I was 16 again. I try and avoid her as much as possible but it's hard. I wish I could help her since she seriously needs it, but theres nothing I can say. It's all ""fat logic"" to her anyway. ((Ugh))) Even if I could help her, I dislike her intensely and the sight of her face is enough to ruin my day.

Rant over I guess lol",2.940324309593024,4.7054629179687515,3.8037209302325583,88.99941860465117,75.09375,6.9502906976744185,24.40697674418605,7.738981096181357,1.1064910428779071,2002,64,421,28,43,640,262,512,0.159,0.731,0.109,-0.976,0,1,1,0,0,0,73.0,2,3,2,3,27,30,4,4,10,3,37,19,12,9,8,92,67,48,1,9,11,0,5,5,0,4,4,2,0,3,29,33,10,7,13,0,1,7,8,15,0,2,11,9,83,15,49,44,15,61,0,1,2,1,55,24,3,10,33,281,112,1,0.0,0.0,0.1638908712574917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05710445048389776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05871580304745441,0.0,0.0,0.22426104866564356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456997555285422,0.0701138626364222,0.051189099472971934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167665629251599,0.18654991963557144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446704330529644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681821058288217,0.0,0.0,0.1083111451620012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248043333668036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296261947406272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676645144599958,0.09365197897958527,0.0554633074439152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491844109618561,0.05999025541498791,0.0,0.0,0.07674970786516007,0.07142730450462242,0.10154036209928888,0.0,0.0,0.07763159147471119,0.04387237357465567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716079794251173,0.0,0.09250561480586712,0.08314637164323646,0.0,0.0,0.07522322303261708,0.0,0.08618041996811547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257052748607717,0.08872197762040923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07463897044373853,0.0,0.08744485161419444,0.13844792668376324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123679984256458,0.0858679779797706,0.0,0.20512458268302527,0.08416290469604082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242102470416609,0.0,0.08436206319482825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234594847790768,0.062264840167054775,0.06476507603205607,0.0811015485692642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057426080251685,0.0,0.08811543113742497,0.0,0.056902209209980265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821623459548071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938153145316855,0.09466682581685934,0.0,0.0,0.09053698720835382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053795188981433935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06677861925467905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293373187799331,0.0,0.0,0.08619697351257084,0.06946324933098927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114996433503244,0.0646464397539091,0.0,0.0,0.05943644971292601,0.0,0.0,0.1404102062852967,0.0,0.0,0.1922577567184864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674942349189448,0.07339601448071555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793054473015143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570120859062657,0.0,0.0,0.08741874872606185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656468900240237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815158685502364
EDAnonymous,superymir,2019/09/12,"i am confusion. yesterday, i weighed in at 116 lbs. I restricted until late at night when i ended up binging around 2000 cal. I wake up today and im 112 lbs? how??",-1.823781512605045,-0.4481403529411772,1.5748739495798318,92.42264705882354,114.29411764705885,5.472268907563026,19.56302521008403,6.868970318607317,0.955055462184874,124,5,27,3,7,44,26,34,0.17,0.83,0.0,-0.6531,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,7,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36978906758692864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679161257566447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4486972132393613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685829547872226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38981948674310135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39374530215719744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blueblackbird_,2019/09/12,"what is your best advice for getting out of a binge phase? so i have self diagnosed ednos and basically cycle between restriction, bp and binging. usually each phase lasts like a week or two.


i can manage my life while restricting, but my binge phases get really messy. 
when binging i get so ashamed and depressed that i stop leaving the house, stop cleaning and taking care of myself.
i also tend to get pretty suicidal during those times.


and my current binge phase is way worse than usual.
my weight isnt a priority anymore.
the outside damage is.
for example its so disheartening that im already struggling for money, and still having to watch myself spend it on food that i dont even want.


ive tried to talk about it with some friends but i usually get something along the lines of ""ah dont worry you could use some more food anyway"", since im currently on the lower end of normalweight.

which feels almost like those ppl who are ignoring someones AN because those someones are overweight anyway..


i try to start each day anew, but it always feels like the decision is already made and no matter what i do now, im gonna binge on pizza later on anyway. like i dont have a choice.


im sorry this got a little rant-y.
the tldr is in the title.",3.8297933884297533,5.7350114421487595,4.829826446280993,81.9865578512397,73.00826446280992,7.319338842975206,26.149586776859504,8.07648339933343,1.7375001652892563,987,34,180,15,20,322,148,242,0.21899999999999997,0.67,0.111,-0.9853,3,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,0,1,12,13,0,2,13,1,18,7,0,2,0,32,34,17,1,2,4,0,3,4,1,1,3,0,1,1,15,12,5,5,3,0,2,0,5,6,1,1,2,4,19,7,22,30,6,26,0,3,1,0,6,7,0,4,22,117,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453202765250412,0.0,0.0,0.09686992601440043,0.0,0.2135073244428458,0.0773619767847923,0.08049442429102094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593888689383806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897106953327735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152139359713838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986316454573012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723805347837077,0.0,0.0,0.06238851765647635,0.0,0.08332097955254138,0.0981878372565144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34013143025586456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856818558660578,0.0,0.0,0.06389505956336704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782807953448726,0.06911021213147606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339538618745573,0.0,0.0747401505090939,0.0,0.2527101296270109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737084899236081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116235772418536,0.0,0.0,0.4179779820545951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885502680334955,0.0,0.10243241244876247,0.0,0.0,0.06832946949520595,0.1890467486699529,0.09695768349223248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153658376812758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984181293989196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06197334711181929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009196577066644,0.0,0.0,0.0800233281788445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393292858401606,0.07447424809298497,0.0,0.10829115720490927,0.06847221468865207,0.0,0.07725572402725868,0.16175592310241746,0.0,0.10113238934547132,0.0,0.10581653679642326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727355320795108,0.07775497638129023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056409167402551676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135857894865918,0.0,0.09449974281065053,0.0,0.0,0.08355125583079355,0.31963233576598965,0.0,0.05705904576996323,0.07678675004431673,0.07759802352088252,0.11780178672827435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824293880063743,0.09858509338513814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chaoticnew,2019/09/12,"thanks ed me: loses weight so pants I bought 2 months ago are too loose

me: hey ed are you happy? maybe you will let me rest for a minute?

my ed: wouldn't have happened if you were skinny to begin with. why did you wait 20 years to lose weight? you dumb fat money wasting fucking bitch 

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EDAnonymous,-pizzaslut-,2019/09/12,"[Possible tw?] Why do you think that anorexia and bulimia are shown and talked about more in the media, but BED (the most common ed) is not? I was wondering this the other day. Do you think it has anything to do with society wanting to be 'thin'?
   
I've only ever seen one stereotype of somebody with an ed on tv- young white skinny women usually suffering with anorexia. If the media wants to talk about eating disorders and show them 'openly' , then they should reflect on society and give us more than that stereotype. 
   
Idk man I was just wondering lol",5.773162274618585,6.963704485436896,6.072843273231622,77.73106796116505,67.25242718446601,9.380859916782248,31.21914008321775,9.606745405546679,3.0038693481275995,434,17,76,9,7,139,76,103,0.11,0.857,0.033,-0.8171,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,2,0,4,1,0,0,5,1,10,2,1,0,1,22,18,7,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,8,2,0,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,3,7,0,13,13,3,11,0,1,2,0,10,5,0,4,6,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17831830932009535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13974783097531587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483467700739152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172908893311166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960095027799556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20786984507764272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683549514511404,0.16480334352808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24428665311287706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483361908565639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27769381034653645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606527088795484,0.0,0.2386546291462448,0.0,0.25562004623284684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19553001064307374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4699845019325621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babymiel,2019/09/12,"It gets easier. Every day it gets a little easier. But you gotta do it every day. That’s the hard part. But it does get easier.

A little reminder for those who are struggling. Those who are trying to recover. Even those who are recovered.",0.14707446808510485,2.4322608085106374,2.7693351063829823,85.67187500000003,100.48936170212768,6.605319148936171,14.38563829787234,7.645422480735847,0.8345340425531913,186,4,35,5,8,64,30,47,0.083,0.7509999999999999,0.166,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254313038907569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079353384829026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666448677333305,0.0,0.4251551650763689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954563599847767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260154439116586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5057511629758863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732213915877369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637636424662509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712983223126056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thelyingblackbird,2019/09/12,"Old pictures make me cringe Anyone else get super disgusted when they see pictures from before your ED? 

Because I want to actually claw my eyes out right now: i’ve been basically doing a project for 3 years now, and they have pictures from that whole period from me. One of those is a official picture for websites, that one was made 2(?) years ago, when I was just starting to fall into the claws of my ED. I look enormous, I was above 80kg, right now i’m at 64kg.
I told them to delete the picture, but they want to use it on websites for promo again. They didn’t understand why I got so upset and now I feel dumb and humiliated.",3.110859375000004,4.534303367187501,4.428562500000002,86.11018750000002,73.921875,7.307500000000001,26.08125,7.908726449838941,1.3890662500000004,493,17,104,7,10,163,86,128,0.11699999999999999,0.843,0.04,-0.912,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,5,1,9,4,2,1,4,0,8,1,1,3,0,14,22,7,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,8,4,17,1,16,14,1,21,0,0,3,0,7,7,1,0,13,65,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.20290923314523224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843169881002744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538916632088938,0.2130483818234028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267519153417272,0.0,0.1769327205811331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369844656852346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513542109153902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863460069485237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630024483214173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460844202493506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967479546882116,0.1387945800198035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181870707400871,0.0,0.2817968699898258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35514137563212783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569291963194588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717359593722565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19868558247362764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164619802240526,0.0,0.17958435873006584,0.0,0.0,0.2452844554509193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762406505947946,0.232145901587172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677996081638341
EDAnonymous,ichigofieldsforever,2019/09/12,"Having a breakdown over scrambled eggs lmao A recent SOMEWHAT safe food has been scrambled eggs...as long as I’m the one in charge of portions/what goes in them.

Tonight my dad didn’t let me cut up what we put in it...meaning he went to fucking TOWN on salami, cheese, milk, and fucking oil... I cannot for the life of me track this and he gave me HEAPS and now I’m having a massive breakdown lol

If I don’t eat it he’s gonna scream at me because he knows I’m getting worse but FUCK ME LET ME BE IN CHARGE OF PORTIONING IF YOU’RE GONNA MAKE ME EAT THIS SHIT 

Sorry for such a bratty rant but I’m low key crying rn and I want to die",-0.3594565217391299,1.689126152173916,1.3694021739130449,100.60671195652174,88.20289855072463,3.739855072463768,18.769927536231886,4.557286568694721,-0.7729724637681157,491,14,118,1,16,159,91,138,0.231,0.7140000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9818,0,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,1,0,1,0,2,8,5,0,6,1,10,10,1,1,0,14,25,9,1,3,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,5,5,1,1,0,0,2,3,7,0,1,4,2,13,1,16,16,2,16,0,1,0,3,8,10,4,3,4,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007912992200397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983572775381883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741223278084904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695542855464416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835654127411844,0.0,0.0,0.5008264336731764,0.09434494375626157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924135845172116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693080128969952,0.12754811146540118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15980651125849596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053771783470815,0.0,0.0,0.19670319721271173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236483440740645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815315199244791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829973043152975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853614918774608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20214312641280108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10651002537766392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673983103809894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402517351311806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chaotic_ass_neutral,2019/09/12,"My mom is monitoring my weight and I need to maintain because of this I binged the day before yesterday and ate ”maintanance” yesterday. I hated every second of it though so now I’m back to restricting because I feel guilty and shit if I don’t. She might forget the weigh in next week, but I wouldn’t count on it. I’m still at a healthy weight range and if I lost 1kg I’d be ideal weight for my height.

I’ll go crazy if I don’t get to keep losing, i’m almost at my lw",0.4565048543689301,2.22009566990291,2.6328252427184458,94.53195631067965,82.59223300970874,5.673398058252428,19.03786407766989,6.742157984588678,-0.03012155339805833,366,9,87,4,10,124,68,103,0.19,0.731,0.079,-0.81,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,2,0,3,0,6,6,1,0,0,17,17,10,0,6,4,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,4,5,2,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,2,5,13,1,10,12,0,14,0,2,0,0,2,5,1,5,8,49,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039138908157148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385220696747994,0.0,0.21963211053041254,0.0,0.1532919906510049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116180034669572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178177768387413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108783233604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411947173702537,0.0,0.1023817998568132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785805463422893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012310018298925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153862630676725,0.19665193895179187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110770069983493,0.0,0.210986212251638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357685912163478,0.0,0.0,0.19158858082586427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18491850226722564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438657790417637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699370001251288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14450320991094331,0.6581122382929893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dilophosaurs,2019/09/12,"Nobody gets it Just a very short vent:

It's so frustrating that anyone without an ED just can't understand it. I'd like support from friends and family but they can't give it because they don't know how. It's not their fault, but it is definitely frustrating. Comments like ""you look good just the way you are! I don't understand why you need to be thinner"" or (my favorite) ""why don't you just eat?"" Like oh, thanks, your revolutionary idea just cured all of eating disorders everywhere! Good job!

Ok, thanks for letting me get that off my chest.",1.7979608127721318,4.478263367924535,2.840943396226418,89.2173367198839,85.13207547169812,6.657764876632801,23.248185776487666,7.882392219407189,1.405115529753266,431,16,87,9,13,137,74,106,0.059000000000000004,0.645,0.29600000000000004,0.9821,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,5,3,0,7,13,2,0,3,1,9,3,1,1,1,18,20,6,0,1,10,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,0,1,12,10,6,18,1,3,0,0,1,0,11,2,0,1,3,51,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957506067966425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424688683336264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19599373849387772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34997445756921125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612142117903092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321228879464922,0.0,0.1786926673934945,0.16404959905371286,0.0,0.2868722901638601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305091550853887,0.0,0.0,0.16970230436915196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398332518649154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748706165028989,0.0,0.2506424146295682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360640189814056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680269458577995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406156990054169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148884144668686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560575395694041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411022127921644,0.0,0.13574079129859595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30862215572425444,0.0,0.0,0.16484876791252473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hayley_,2019/09/12,"scared. currently 2am on thursday and I haven’t eaten since monday. I went on an enormous cocaine and vodka bender with a girl who hurt me so badly I thought I’d never recover, and yet I went right to her house at the mention of drugs. we stayed up 48 hours and I puked most of the alcohol I drank. This girl ruined my life and I put myself in a position where she is now back in my business after over a year, I feel sick thinking about it as I type this. 
my violent felon of ex-boyfriend has decided to make a “rap” about how fat I am and I was at my lowest of 135lbs at 5’11 when we were together, 700 people have viewed it and I am in a very small town. My current boyfriend just moved 3 hours away for school and I FaceTimed him because I miss him so bad it’s like there is a hole inside me and I saw the head of his ex boyfriend on his couch and immediately knew how stupid I was for thinking he’d be faithful. I feel like I am truly in a living hell and I know if I decide to eat it will wreak havoc on my insides. I don’t think I’ve ever been so triggered and I feel truly disgusting, not worthy of food. I am prescribed klonopin for sleep but even 5 pills aren’t saving me from staying up all night obsessing over how long it will be possible to starve like this and if I can lose enough weight and if my relationship is over. I feel like my life is over but the voice in my head is saying that if I can get to a lower weight, if I can get rid of this disgusting yellow lumpy casing from my body it will all be better.",3.55374525270231,3.7925994110429455,4.761831726555653,88.57219836400817,71.76073619631902,7.8046158340636875,25.64650891031259,7.62386473244151,1.0667465965527314,1192,33,273,13,21,395,178,326,0.154,0.782,0.064,-0.9747,5,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,2,17,20,5,2,13,0,28,17,5,5,4,49,47,29,0,5,9,1,6,4,0,3,7,2,1,2,12,17,8,0,12,2,0,4,5,13,0,0,11,11,50,7,41,29,4,46,2,4,3,0,16,24,1,6,20,185,62,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588859432475685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067365423267043,0.09057820859568827,0.19671025181456975,0.07180763025212783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418139853938924,0.0,0.13084531463410745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660649871123154,0.12053518915624913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171523484239577,0.0,0.0778034525806735,0.10655364439408976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382457235076641,0.1683076328328329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243995015272315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308757967486834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417863098103938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23201157473598244,0.1359213021815681,0.12610354953488673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473785519988548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664062503756021,0.2301976059837028,0.0,0.104016434604728,0.10424616256018164,0.0,0.13178411047827324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07863005348827581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519899757982111,0.0,0.0,0.09085189387667153,0.0,0.0,0.11054400039642504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166523520716874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327978123348095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841798051165467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646931673410938,0.0,0.1005975354292282,0.0,0.09367647506124836,0.11793480881903005,0.11921630900154648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744245113561184,0.0,0.11788153379389313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25111071162147963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264376504591377,0.0,0.09351723330976568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971944182863995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28688871378364594,0.0,0.21839700196006392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585705980398194
EDAnonymous,uhhhhhhhbro,2019/09/12,omg I just clogged my family’s bathroom purging haha fuck my life thankfully it was darkish food so it looks like it was shit lmaooo I’m so fucked I’ve been in this bathroom for so long I can’t believe this actually happened omgggg,0.44771276595744425,2.8075704468085116,2.016143617021278,91.07187500000003,99.85106382978724,4.903191489361704,25.02393617021277,6.6274283507984215,1.251768085106384,189,9,37,3,8,61,36,47,0.226,0.622,0.152,-0.7313,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,0,1,10,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,4,3,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,2,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2716962980036424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31368231261157337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26246818739523564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366647607478022,0.0,0.0,0.5147868419998041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462045640052747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966552235155002,0.1360212178186769,0.0,0.0,0.246391615130238,0.2338014222566351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857925938497076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563303522036225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GoldfishRemembers,2019/09/12,"Girl talk: Not regaining my period has been exceedingly frustrating. (TW?) This is a doozy. Long post warning and emotional dumping. There’s just a lot going on here.

I haven’t had my period in over a year, as a mid 20 year old woman I’m concerned about the health implications. I don’t care about the reproductive ramifications because I’m solidly against having children of my own, but I’m worried about everything else.

Quick run down- 2.5 years ago I was obese, rarely left the house (think agoraphobia type situation) for the past 10 years and just come off heavy medication that contributed to my overall weight gain.

I took 1 year to lose half my body weight and slide into the lower healthy BMI range.  The first half of that time was spent losing weight in a healthy way all while combating other stress like tutoring myself through a GED, leaving the house for at least a hour everyday, getting my drivers permit. It was difficult but I was managing in a healthy way.

Cue half way through that year and my sister who was incredibly abusive to me growing up (she has an “empathy issue” so think psychopath level bull shit) ended up killing her boyfriend in a drug related accident, getting charged with 25 years to life , announcing her pregnancy, my parents began funding her ongoing court case and my grandfather’s health began deteriorating. My living situation, main support system and all the progress I had set into motion was knocked on its head. But I refused to let it stop me.

I think you guys can all guess what my main coping mechanism became. I was a restriction machine. At the time it felt like it was helping me with taking college courses (first time in a classroom in 10 years), getting my license then driving, helping my grandfather until he died last month, dealing with a new living situation outside the family home for the first time in my life, having to see the person, my sister, who did some really screwed up shit to me constantly, living part time with a new born baby...etc.

ANYWAYS. 

I eventually recognized the problem, and addressed it, started eating better. I slowed the progression of my weight loss, stopped it, gained a bit and then maintained before starting to gain. I have not been UW, which BMI wise I had only just skirted, since the end of March. I’m still stressed, but I’m eating healthy I swear. My BMI is in a healthy range and I’m still slowly gaining. My hair, nails and skin, my energy/thought capacity and my mood has had considerable improvements. While I’m not perfect I have never seen a decline in weight only gains and I’ve exchanged a quite a bit of muscle for fat as I’ve stopped all intensive exercise. My blood work is good. I’m doing the do.

BUT STILL NO PERIOD!!!

Part of me wonders if it’s that I’m still too stressed or if I haven’t given my body enough time, but it’s incredibly invalidating. Ughhhh.

I’m dealing with my shit and moving forward and I just want to bleed through some pants. Please let me ruin a pair of underwear already I’m so over the past 2.5 years. I accomplished so much but this is like the last physical manifestation of the realities of the struggle- I even take my stretch marks and minimal loose skin just as victory battle scars. >.<!!!

Give. Me. My. Period.",4.432247054800907,6.752882169686984,5.070013987752947,79.1118600603028,72.44316309719935,8.337309999689161,30.7279537471636,9.053500757850758,2.8734716918964285,2595,117,461,57,53,833,308,607,0.166,0.706,0.128,-0.9817,3,0,1,0,0,0,90.0,0,1,0,18,21,28,8,4,40,0,34,28,11,1,6,65,71,36,2,4,18,3,9,3,0,0,10,2,2,5,20,23,9,5,6,1,3,10,8,18,0,6,22,13,57,9,60,47,17,100,0,4,2,1,23,27,4,8,62,284,77,7,0.0,0.07117234094974126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053247842287113566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628800636745008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03661770988810886,0.0,0.05111458090780339,0.0,0.0,0.053126446507956726,0.13116031491836366,0.13344698201757174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06124469180780592,0.0,0.0,0.05174441435248951,0.0,0.06491361255848516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385769625715715,0.0,0.0,0.06234248739351704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966135939975499,0.12293185479968033,0.050180222581358416,0.06756991826840765,0.10640720494335236,0.062067681982721036,0.06699318862861456,0.03967523012372234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398644620726032,0.0,0.05662802426526201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0576759830141696,0.0,0.0,0.1532848404075289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415124689824148,0.05762398099246593,0.03413878813917865,0.05038330934979909,0.0,0.0,0.06617314625296196,0.059478087062041225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061648469086549876,0.1277017911165851,0.0,0.0,0.0805264198799401,0.0,0.06025444210114043,0.0,0.059156196246385274,0.13862389814071754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269678063314224,0.0,0.0,0.06645782064518208,0.0,0.0,0.09792905292567884,0.0,0.0636047538542827,0.0652655096915406,0.12284993245493435,0.0848574974334464,0.08804053054583265,0.0,0.1591269735226437,0.053159472387187615,0.0,0.13440444444169367,0.0,0.051068801654613784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06051353674564835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04794677116994555,0.06384419811046589,0.04415787387471653,0.0,0.04632917534084245,0.11603067870157507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303266373653463,0.0,0.0,0.09137087422574228,0.0,0.0,0.06669988927646152,0.13009847507951774,0.11468595704305265,0.0,0.05245022750786562,0.0,0.0659380928157663,0.0,0.0,0.05752981951339795,0.0,0.0,0.0574782423342137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389113327602687,0.0,0.0,0.03848195502126836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04786748385804436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18498093159362267,0.04968997575803342,0.2025613525507044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503477087016381,0.0,0.19188579837641206,0.15066196471572765,0.20642766546558988,0.06279751279148847,0.0,0.0,0.06816597102230969,0.0,0.0,0.09032933040978007,0.04828145716231522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547001569533075,0.0,0.047688343242243636,0.2101614785003147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667392429088333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03543045091488135,0.14304072956249414,0.0,0.3657413444301399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651426328720258,0.043731192276271265,0.0610033268860241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481441483589889
EDAnonymous,giagunnseyelash,2019/09/12,"I tried doing intermittent fasting And have fully relapsed into my bulimia 
🥴🤙🏼",3.0440000000000005,6.125569733333336,7.001666666666669,58.2225,85.0,8.333333333333334,34.16666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.673666666666668,66,4,8,2,2,25,15,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MercilessSoryu,2019/09/12,"I hate my emetophobia I've been binge eating so much this past month. It's driving me nuts and making me feel so bloated and fat and miserable. But no matter how hard I try my emetophobia and super strong gag reflex keep me from purging. I realize that's definitely a good thing, but god, I just want that instant relief of being able to throw up all the garbage I funnel into my body when I'm depressed instead of just starving myself the next day...",6.468764044943825,6.254590483146068,7.129528089887638,75.65114606741574,65.51685393258428,9.367191011235958,32.406741573033706,8.841846274778883,2.6210476404494383,359,13,67,5,5,119,68,89,0.188,0.622,0.18899999999999997,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,7,7,1,1,3,0,2,3,2,2,1,17,8,10,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,12,4,6,6,2,9,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,44,17,0,0.2786319045300893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30949723286639785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969452777956654,0.0,0.2399852510884367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851099988655044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088466288240725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337032219186679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24959945757540344,0.27509132038209483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24766083910903064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859889598860318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240132789248895,0.0,0.20482650962745025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29632819147778816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659856807311351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18511065649391004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891727732973627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434431639556454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackplumsummer,2019/09/12,"What do you put on bread? Nut butters are no longer safe for me, so I'm trying to find a bread topping alternative so I keep eating breakfast instead of dropping it entirely. 


Thoughts?",2.7270000000000003,5.513166771428577,3.668214285714289,84.34803571428574,81.28571428571428,5.785714285714287,31.607142857142854,7.1686216300943375,2.229142857142857,147,8,26,2,4,47,32,35,0.062,0.846,0.092,0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,4,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683057117771771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182976621360715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067938199284253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600798906851945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633350129130455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107245996296156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,townpeachcollector,2019/09/12,"I'm too good an actor. I've been fighting so hard to not let anybody know how bad my mind has gotten, and I regret I so much. 
I told my boyfriend but even he doesn't seem that concerned. I kinda wish people realised how close to the edge I really am. 
The food problems and the depression and the anxiety are absolutely destroying me but my façade is so fucking good that people think I'm getting better and I hate it so fucking much. 
I'm only a teenager and yet my only option left is psychiatric inpatient, it's the only option I think will work, I've exhausted every other route. 
I'm not game enough to tell my parents but I know they'd believe my boyfriend but he wont tell them either, I hate this never ending cycling of wanting to die, attempting to do it, failing, controlling my food and wanting to die again. 
I just never wanna eat again. 
And, in all honestly, the only thing keeping me alive is knowing my parents wouldn't be able to afford my funeral. 
Sorry for the rant, I needed to let it out.",3.071374490390216,4.879283306930695,4.6995631916132785,82.53282760629007,74.84158415841584,7.129178800232964,27.22888759464182,7.928766900206844,1.839650203843913,796,31,149,12,17,268,118,202,0.253,0.662,0.086,-0.9909,3,0,0,0,2,0,20.0,0,0,2,5,12,16,6,0,9,0,16,6,0,3,3,42,38,17,3,8,8,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,9,3,2,6,2,0,0,7,12,0,0,3,1,24,4,13,28,5,10,0,3,0,2,11,4,2,4,6,102,33,2,0.11505775418705752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801886702617691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09606841878058996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963068847352704,0.0,0.10175923350923477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904705488020374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909907508553388,0.0,0.2388235671389502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11773280673318215,0.0,0.0,0.10190701925898528,0.11888541695162495,0.0,0.07599456150502781,0.0,0.0969411203028432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782565861439182,0.0,0.0,0.21273807945996792,0.060112927729060316,0.0,0.0,0.19300997066786135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030691481055156,0.22719142355859065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226861850592583,0.0,0.0,0.1896981980429496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250105865786832,0.23530869811522406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617553245015112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16916137608472015,0.08531386683819353,0.1774792662292213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35002642704091635,0.0,0.0,0.2555160397150605,0.0,0.0,0.15953311926199418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100947318678964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370894355440535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474425814486137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287977358953329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011310970705758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643925934541046,0.14744872610914986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994261481746646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572808892629087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231073904179927,0.0,0.0,0.08376341537941652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sp00py13,2019/09/12,"Extreme weight gain I've binged the past 2 days on 5,000+ calories, and I've gained 13.1 pounds!! In 2 days!! I crave the sweet release of death 🙃🙃🙃🙃",-0.9720588235294088,0.9519444411764724,0.5661764705882355,106.14279411764707,89.88235294117645,3.4000000000000004,17.323529411764707,3.1291,-1.2908588235294118,117,3,31,0,4,37,25,34,0.111,0.599,0.29,0.7405,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6403054933459991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4738933751294997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6045113267750306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quietandburning,2019/09/12,"I know why I get cranky when hungry... Because low BG makes everyone a little wonky. Your brain needs food (especially if you have a mental illiness) to work properly, no two ways about it. 

Yet every time I restrict and get cranky I think ""wow how crappy of a person are you when you let food dictate your mood?"".",1.8527142857142849,4.462745699999998,2.8961904761904758,89.56500000000004,83.66666666666666,5.428571428571429,20.238095238095237,6.868970318607317,0.4773095238095242,242,7,47,3,7,77,48,60,0.16899999999999998,0.77,0.061,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,5,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,2,0,8,9,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,9,1,3,8,0,7,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,27,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990137336423195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25619845601158503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336406774362053,0.2192975607571131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5550258260390987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398090757226059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612747168119204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346798082221093,0.0,0.0,0.23001979082511625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319336443896692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23128252277513686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17017171119165256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003909825065192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705465222091102,0.0,0.0,0.13382358591099575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22418863870726152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821668128524256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20708850282248914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16707909579818922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunarspice,2019/09/12,"I cannot stop purging and I’m so worried :( I seriously need help... this horrible, disgusting habit is spiralling out of control and it seems like there’s nothing I can do about it. It’s like once I’ve decided to eat something, and then inevitably purge it, nothing can stop the urge. No amount of reasonable thinking, waiting, reading through reasons not to, etc can deter it. It’s just too powerful. I feel totally out of control and defeated. I want nothing more than to stop this for good and never do it again, yet barely a few days go by before I’m throwing something up again. I can only imagine how shit for my health this is gonna end up if I don’t get a grip of it. I’m worried it’s gonna develop into a full blown problem.
Please, if anyone has any advice on how to stop this cycle, or how you personally overcame something like this, I’d be so grateful :( 
Thank you so much!!",3.3173113964687,4.829951758426969,4.682054574638848,84.14011235955056,73.5505617977528,7.3329052969502415,31.253611556982346,7.957251820313856,2.225660032102729,695,33,137,10,14,231,107,178,0.171,0.6729999999999999,0.157,-0.777,1,0,3,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,0,4,13,10,2,0,4,0,12,3,1,7,2,35,26,15,0,5,5,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,8,1,7,7,1,0,2,5,5,0,0,0,2,10,5,20,23,7,20,0,1,0,0,4,7,1,4,14,90,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577454153243806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752764453720144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999746769830277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095232692243967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28871984018399743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300771071976333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170311083803068,0.0,0.0,0.11399941804714253,0.0,0.14354637960559696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507996368002945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724599373088412,0.0,0.07314921922388476,0.10795637284569193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681338475734434,0.0,0.0,0.08627202461168045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886445424843126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461712534591472,0.0954373039426128,0.09926957540651044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705039729097353,0.0,0.0,0.13707262414449994,0.0,0.09789023679118836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238516067629224,0.0,0.14128562463674474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315869362345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287454645452606,0.0,0.0,0.2646719361739577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171733268141981,0.0,0.0,0.13211961578928585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972632019795707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4304314119474815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849945861817712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247257691600822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759168664865237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614237924076141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PhysicalWinter2,2019/09/12,Whenever you see another person’s pair of pants lying around do you check the size?  I do this all the time if I have friends spend the night or if I take my roommates clothes out of the dryer. WhyAmILikeThis.jpg,3.2242682926829285,5.692502097560976,2.797743902439024,93.26051829268292,76.8048780487805,6.051219512195122,24.88414634146341,7.1686216300943375,0.9690439024390244,170,6,34,2,4,50,32,41,0.08199999999999999,0.843,0.075,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,5,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,5,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,3,2,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402751670671394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737774460561081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243941034653033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940239042991376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36661833823213547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33458572481421683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156934734314434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24483227772666155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,srketret,2019/09/12,Had to do a FaceTime session with my therapist today... Which means my BDD was going off the fucking rails as I was forced to stare at myself in the little corner of the screen. Spent the entire hour obsessing over how I’ve gained weight in my face and had a fucking double chin at the angle I was sitting at. I kept changing positions and areas to sit at for better lighting until my therapist made me stop so I could “sit with the discomfort” 😩,6.263522727272727,6.104321034090912,6.8285454545454565,77.4528181818182,65.93181818181819,9.312727272727274,31.236363636363638,8.841846274778883,2.5204472727272726,353,12,65,5,5,116,61,88,0.11599999999999999,0.823,0.061,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,2,8,0,7,4,1,2,0,10,14,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,8,4,10,1,17,5,1,19,0,0,2,2,0,11,2,0,4,48,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039249714108753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24391792204197946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184095485027183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263259979050593,0.0,0.0,0.13104116410724506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270700643701722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23109686178993466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21817576994277552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25116391988671233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927711392150648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5354310118567572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21855826967310146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807783998710359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catsrule-humansdrool,2019/08/26,"Gas stations safe foods? You ever get those afternoon cravings and you just NEED something to cap off the <300 cal lunch you had an hour ago, so you decide to walk to the gas station next door on your break, but you have no fucking clue what to get? What are some yummy delicious food items that I can get at a gas station and shove down my throat in the remaining 6 minutes of my break once I get to the privacy and comfort of my car?",7.89994382022472,5.596045707865169,7.406601123595508,81.59057584269664,63.8314606741573,10.697752808988763,35.73314606741573,8.841846274778883,2.744750561797752,344,12,74,4,4,108,64,89,0.028999999999999998,0.815,0.157,0.9272,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,6,0,0,3,3,1,0,6,0,4,5,1,0,1,10,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,3,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,11,2,12,9,2,14,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,5,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146633290984756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190507474821209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5856501244926112,0.0,0.0,0.22387625113680065,0.506081729759035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384822647757315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956116484837484,0.0,0.0,0.2575436267251421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578962213246282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864292913041823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlestpeach,2019/08/26,"How to deal with other people losing weight? My sister has unintentionally lost 15 pounds within these past few months and it’s making me go insane. I’ve always been thinner than her and I think we weigh the same now and for some reason that makes me want to die. 

I’ve really, really been trying to work on recovery this past year and I’ve made some good progress. However, I just want to throw that all away and revert back to my old horrible ways hahahahaha please help me 🙃 

Does anyone know how to get rid of this toxic mentality of needing to be thinner than X? Or has anyone dealt with something similar to this before?",3.3801266766020888,5.581044926229513,4.694470938897169,81.15969448584205,75.14754098360656,7.387183308494784,20.926974664679587,8.296473431620573,1.1630885245901643,499,12,94,9,11,165,87,122,0.11699999999999999,0.7829999999999999,0.1,-0.6416,1,0,1,0,0,1,8.0,1,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,6,1,25,16,8,1,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,8,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,4,1,9,1,18,11,5,13,0,2,0,0,5,3,0,3,7,57,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467034600993886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24655912165174795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656483895795145,0.13557096753424028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002622713185754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18176714491919155,0.0,0.0,0.18298121607482212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542894551437433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211433150800984,0.0,0.10020063732133383,0.14787987454698345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817640626667908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689497950567556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19724500672040432,0.19246242633948274,0.0,0.0,0.1668281211119837,0.2353756514716953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767830438211815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407283998817506,0.0,0.0,0.13073111074515975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850069502383353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33661435024206066,0.12223066808890495,0.0,0.0,0.1935346649376408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22589650240553394,0.18127532301153054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573151158942978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297187934739353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197024403568325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20798358440726766,0.1399461145353484,0.0,0.21469722743089253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283552690575851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353740763226025
EDAnonymous,throwawayyyy0099,2019/08/26,"How has your ED benefited you? I'm really going through something rn. If I developed an ed, I'm thinking it will help me focus and teach me to be a better person, as a form of punishment to teach myself self discipline.  Are there any other mental or emotional benefits to having an ED?",4.578214285714285,5.8152175357142895,6.937857142857144,70.25714285714287,70.07142857142857,10.6,30.07142857142857,10.686352973137794,3.6916928571428578,226,9,39,7,4,81,45,56,0.054000000000000006,0.775,0.171,0.7149,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,2,4,1,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,6,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,29,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472904893015528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216136960811765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4090507193051372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066673484651205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437430059047284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664677693483373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175200420486779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329597516928995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793601523225326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799510297862926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23300848557453605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ammisk,2019/08/26,"He’s just trying to be supportive TW NUMBERS, HEIGHT AND BMI!

So there is this rly skinny and short girl at our school and she is rly nice, and just now me and my bf talked bout her when cuddling. I said «i’m so jealous of her, shes so skinny and tiny», and i know he was just trying to be loving and supportive but he said «i’m so glad youre bigger than her, i would feel like o were gonna break your back everytime you got a hug» and said things like « i love you just the way you are» and he was really kind and loving but i was just thinking about the fact that i am bigger than her. We prob have the same bmi but i’m 5.6 and shes 5.0, my bmi is 18.0. I just kinda cried. He tried to be the best bf ever and gave me nothing but love and support, but now i just feel big and chunky. I cant handle this. The fact that i ate like a normal human today isnt rly helping either. Why am i like this yall",-0.7165943012211642,1.1160973880597034,1.534375848032564,100.33472523744913,87.55721393034827,4.450565355042968,14.111488014473087,5.565023196281405,-1.1640666666666668,689,10,175,4,22,231,105,201,0.035,0.708,0.258,0.9948,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,6,0,1,18,16,1,0,7,0,18,8,2,0,3,40,37,25,0,2,13,0,2,4,2,2,0,3,0,2,6,16,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,10,5,30,15,8,22,3,14,0,0,0,5,34,6,0,1,10,107,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264342392889017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008659017752506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662943084086594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074682268811615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13499028726875487,0.0953632886715692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067619152027237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947366229985702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900638644794872,0.07336107898964635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26086043017112165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4819096706883369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078912265101644,0.12808457705764326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551532412206413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809307116272982,0.0,0.0,0.1350961818940831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4544391081102546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729196206479157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868297011676021,0.08553321345124476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653026573633533,0.0,0.0,0.2718871574276968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059559330638016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045144337634155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482548322905493,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,craving_thyn,2019/08/26,I can't be the only one I can't be the only one that has an insane amount of guilt about eating one 300 calorie item/meal but feels fine about eating three or four 100 calorie items/meals,6.232500000000003,4.769273250000001,6.0749999999999975,87.13000000000002,66.5,8.0,25.0,3.1291,0.4197499999999996,150,2,33,0,2,47,29,40,0.09300000000000001,0.847,0.06,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,0,1,2,1,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.620147664421827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322032721938353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6160199129032728,0.4609336964744302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MFwarlock,2019/08/26,"Can’t afford dietician, when should I start reducing calorie intake once I’m at a healthy weight? I’ve had an eating disorder for over a year it developed after I lost a lot of  weight doing keto (50 pounds) it gave me so much pride and joy also helped with my mental problems mainly social anxiety after years of being a recluse. For few months after  I maintained healthy eating following strict diet, but I started purging if I thought I went over my calorie intake, it wasn’t excessive but I’d do it 3-4 times a week. It became worse as time went on, whenever I stopped doing it and also counting calories within a month I’d see how much weight I gained and I’d go back to my old ways.

Cut long story short this past 7-8 weeks I’ve dealt with extreme stress and my IBS symptoms were crazy, I wasn’t eating properly and being restrictive intentionally I find that when I do this the hunger and discipline has a euphoric effect. 

Last week i started noticing few symptoms like feeling very cold, chest pain, bones and joint pain, dizziness and pins and needles in arms and feet. I checked the scale I realised I had dropped to 50kg from 63kg in 7 weeks. This meant I was underweight for the first time ever and it sent me into panic mode. It’s been 7 days now and I’m eating regularly, I’ve been consuming roughly 3500-5000 calories a day and I’m worried at the rapid rate of weight gain but understand this is what my body needs. It’s stressful as my body looks different since eating I’ve gained weight all over my stomach and legs. 

Ive currently gone from 50 to 55kg in 7 days and I hope to reach 60kg as this is the weight I’ve maintained for over a year which is a healthy weight for my height and age (male). I have no professional help I asked my GP for referral to Dietitician he scolded at me for refusing to take medication and gave me Zoloft as he believes am just having a panic attack.

I see a therapist but I haven’t mentioned  
my eating disorder but I plan to when I next see her, I can’t afford a dietician right now so everything I’m doing is medically unsupervised and as I’m getting closer to my goal weight, I don’t know how to approach maintaining that weight should I start reducing my intake slowly? I’m eating excessively from few weeks ago eating around 1600 calories a day to now maybe 4000. 

Hope someone can help me I really could do with some advice",4.8219592105263125,5.712973029473691,5.626009868421054,81.16522532894739,69.23157894736842,8.716447368421052,29.791118421052627,8.930421266530582,2.3427065789473693,1899,71,370,33,32,621,235,475,0.136,0.76,0.10300000000000001,-0.9498,4,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,9,16,15,2,4,20,0,33,34,8,4,2,55,67,38,0,8,7,0,11,1,0,2,7,0,0,1,18,23,19,4,7,0,1,7,7,10,0,1,17,16,46,5,48,45,9,69,0,1,4,0,14,18,0,5,43,214,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05455764113735293,0.0494910252109747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929644421922271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0427107454511217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049701640123853835,0.052194672330813055,0.06351609506569829,0.0,0.04293077696946021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06290268808390673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403184181152177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04457670176409256,0.0,0.0,0.14402612286729172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833176227280951,0.1279748750686465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570343708815593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050502552586181255,0.0,0.0,0.050177518102758105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02822995226558855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051028741495082776,0.047490023853387055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02916951832377031,0.0,0.0317301800767447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226750902708788,0.0,0.0,0.11090603689675993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030683389152385943,0.045509911942521734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02727632350707711,0.0,0.0,0.04940889010920766,0.046884179778392376,0.0,0.06094639324673017,0.04746572333494197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608998437262976,0.0,0.0,0.11248820023676008,0.05626475783477799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912792552087619,0.0,0.08208477021145047,0.041398156703077095,0.0,0.0,0.05937715666998094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356423629278755,0.05858549409906669,0.05945844800318492,0.0,0.0,0.11881675058646905,0.13101186023610914,0.0,0.0,0.05329723560212788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0534229560910023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035766921706536364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047679573532602965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334708083173007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046184178313056316,0.0,0.0,0.056912917743687015,0.04730562810500097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15807055490634278,0.0,0.0,0.04667741623454523,0.12790899257743374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606007061767235,0.04197814387009242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482437232847055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0443237678053796,0.09766693432150532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05812228938256043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046066619762321834,0.0,0.04431623923715211,0.22392226345670874,0.6118866789102387,0.0,0.10351223685376117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056699333892074,0.0568968029139309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786046334411968
EDAnonymous,elite-alien,2019/08/26,When you drink a coke zero ...after fasting all day and your tummy goes GRRRRUMBLE. I love it. Only thing I love about my stupid ED.,0.11653846153846105,2.488266423076926,1.9219230769230795,92.86057692307695,96.30769230769228,4.138461538461539,14.192307692307693,5.985473137389443,-0.5616615384615384,101,2,20,1,4,33,24,26,0.107,0.629,0.264,0.7184,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,2,2,1,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712305098328948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.411994921848364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7591551204290846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198596684851752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27940560214463184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MentalIceAge,2019/08/26,What should I get from the Asian supermarket? I’m going to be near the Asian supermarket for work tomorrow but I haven’t been since I was a kid and I’d like to pick some interesting things up but I’m restricting again :/ any suggestions on what to get?,1.382941176470588,3.8918699411764734,3.226960784313725,87.06632352941178,84.88235294117645,8.105882352941178,20.264705882352946,8.841846274778883,1.5273764705882351,201,6,44,6,6,67,37,51,0.121,0.745,0.133,0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,8,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,27,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501603741146999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5380444646265589,0.0,0.29263849273068365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515618310088226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4259436377874003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420871510062031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748648060051387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lifeisshitiwannadie,2019/08/26,"i don’t even know if i have an ed. im sorry if like i can’t post this because i don’t want to claim that i have something. but recently ive been restricting. i haven’t eaten in a day and today’s the second day that i haven’t eaten. and i want it to stay like that for as long as possible. i want to fucking starve. i’m not sure if this is just another form of self harm because i do self harm.., in other ways but i also want to become thinner.. really badly. i want to over exercise and cause as much pain as i possibly can and starve myself because i deserve it. i want to become so fucking thin..,, i don’t even know how much i currently weigh but i already know that i’m so fucking fat. i just wish i wasn’t so pathetic and that i could actually go more than 2 days without eating. and i feel like the next time i eat ill probably purge again. i don’t usually purge though.. and i don’t even want to think about the next time i eat. i desperately hope i die by then... 
im really sorry if this doesn’t belong here",0.5833074768368895,2.299784262443442,3.2509372979961206,90.4990346907994,81.94117647058823,6.743460461107521,20.93104934281405,7.793537801064563,0.7672506356388711,786,23,182,14,21,276,108,221,0.217,0.6679999999999999,0.115,-0.9847,1,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,14,12,3,0,5,0,18,13,1,2,1,37,40,25,1,14,11,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,11,7,7,1,5,1,0,1,12,7,0,1,4,2,30,5,20,35,4,22,0,0,0,3,2,4,3,5,17,117,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.09428093177592943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661550423156103,0.07726185679844319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130777796680417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066831604532383,0.17668425183365136,0.2134042496648592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924877522514658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713809387054693,0.0,0.0,0.18692332786884186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026965800819926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965794810512975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914371043999732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04885073640818651,0.06902077137798503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679531345459059,0.0,0.0,0.0549077323450809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595909910773052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20871852256464474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159288914996162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160156672877733,0.0,0.0,0.08549999108174673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204421725551675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20549930810110484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028036765554876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21783462319290395,0.09252911728513588,0.0,0.10416579579686397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237862854304635,0.0,0.09539426924297602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20157809988673864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437786533478358,0.0,0.2163020188529652,0.0,0.10297723713222016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910571696562022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061906090415721975,0.0949223662862367,0.0,0.11267232806367745,0.0,0.09157839107101746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106406225127029,0.0,0.3988964093974561,0.07668737450240658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110086591089703,0.09313205765361447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n0mdep1ume,2019/08/26,"I’m not sure if I have an ed for as long as I can remember, I’ve been considerably overweight due to a family member that constantly overfeeds me. I’m 5’7 and not entirely sure of my current weight, but I was just under 11 stone on December 20th. this has caused me to hate my body, I can’t look at it without feeling ashamed. I also binge quite often, usually on large chocolate bars and sharing size bags of crisps (which are usually finished within 20 minutes.) I don’t purge because I’m terrified of vomit. the binges make me feel disgusting and guilty. recently, I’ve also been restricting my eating and started calorie counting, especially in the days after I’ve binged. I still eat normally some days, but only when I’m forced to by my family. I don’t know if this is normal or the start of an eating disorder and I need some advice.",4.5133636363636365,5.851881503030306,5.863409090909091,77.51511363636364,70.33333333333333,9.37878787878788,30.71969696969697,9.725611199111238,3.0636969696969696,668,28,123,16,12,225,111,165,0.207,0.753,0.04,-0.9821,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,2,1,6,0,11,8,1,2,2,30,24,15,0,5,9,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,6,1,5,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,4,16,3,19,21,2,21,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,6,15,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391070534438558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276814939098445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677790929611617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581236256547249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462371624780772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383451340611334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361359796120916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315045348850946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43699221133737015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683980821479473,0.0,0.14395730448243704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054547939606146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823424484049582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597914744370167,0.1195418270684532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950226546342848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555396965337843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789541371221477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826692138990288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514114068082009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405577773540925,0.0,0.16125976320387586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20151832695532326,0.0,0.11368439245383062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683346385605377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135664777178557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733492854128754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13722454323606145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nope707,2019/08/26,"aTteNtiOn Me: Don't comment on my weight, my food, my clothes and my eating habits. Don't think about them. Don't look at my body, heck scratch that, don't look at me at all. Don't even acknowledge the unfortunate fact that I exist, please and thank you.

Everyone: yOu jUst waNt aTteNtiOn, Just eAt",1.1974137931034503,3.8403493448275854,1.8857758620689644,94.45556034482763,90.0344827586207,6.348275862068967,21.04310344827585,7.645422480735847,0.9753034482758624,234,8,50,5,8,72,37,58,0.053,0.841,0.107,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,1,0,2,11,10,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,11,1,5,10,1,4,0,0,2,0,4,4,1,0,0,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283529953785984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5223776901239942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685930396229723,0.0,0.0,0.243906396051091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.308654479505161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4286986029300909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801925397807559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350038396208956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163556631099398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505555833280684,0.0,0.0,0.3108309379982729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway_For_Thot,2019/08/26,"It doesn’t matter how much weight I lose, I’m not going to fit into my fucking graduation dress. 
I’ve lost 22kg (120kg to 98kg) and I thought I could fit, but absolutely not. 
How fucked up, I’ve just run on the treadmill until I cried. 
I’m not going to get small enough in time, and I’m going to look like a fat tub of lard. 
I spent 2 hours looking for a possible new dress and all the measurements I fit- they’re out of stock in size. 
Fucking. Awesome.",0.8166666666666664,2.415580161616166,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,80.71717171717171,6.016161616161617,21.1010101010101,6.937597516519254,0.2815737373737375,352,10,84,4,9,120,67,99,0.129,0.713,0.158,0.7835,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,3,0,4,0,2,5,1,2,1,16,17,7,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,0,1,4,4,5,0,0,3,3,7,1,14,13,3,18,0,2,2,3,0,10,3,0,5,41,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582554282413731,0.0,0.21772557709728235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20480504302304955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5497288813921783,0.103557114619039,0.0,0.3379437937868712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519799886668426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683592743821727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328947927929343,0.22174751132186046,0.21637082110901565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570795895415262,0.0,0.0,0.19143350761903166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234532242723328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15735746651767402,0.11557848161631876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24136771146754185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway_44_44,2019/08/26,"Looking for my fellow atypical people Throwaway account but long-time lurker. 
DAE have the diagnosis of atypical anorexia? If so what does that mean for you? 
I just feel like I’m faking having an actual problem and I’ve failed at actually having a disorder.",4.214468085106383,7.198184489361707,6.152595744680853,67.69400000000002,76.44680851063829,8.866382978723406,30.676595744680853,9.3871,3.839233191489362,209,10,30,6,5,72,42,47,0.27899999999999997,0.662,0.057999999999999996,-0.924,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,2,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,4,7,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.58941934269466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461196149254817,0.0,0.26428334297133843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527009141800537,0.21574976472748847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754256386323106,0.0,0.0,0.26726161692787137,0.2536050024239474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289679133093296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093696522945163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889744253390377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Spooky_skeletal,2019/08/26,"Anisocoria? To start:  Anisocoria - is when one pupil is bigger than the other. (different sized pupils) Mine isn't major but it's definitely become noticeable. For any other reference my smaller pupil is the right eye, with the larger one being on the left...   
Hi so I've had issues with my eating that started roughly when i was 17 (3 almost 4 years now)  
Up until mid way through 2018 I was into restriction, however after that I struggled with a binge/ purge / restrict cycle. These last two months my purging has greatly subsided and the last time I purged was well over 2 going 3 weeks ago with maybe only 4 incidents in this whole time frame. I restrict but typically binge most of the time, so THAT has been fun... but that is another topic.   
   
My brother first pointed out he noticed my  Anisocoria  in December 2017 however I only noticed it really that night, then later on I didn't notice anything so I didn't really think to get it check and assumed it was just some random one off incident.   
I've only recently actually noticed it as an ongoing thing as per this last month, and am just wondering if this could be ED related and if anyone else has issues with it? I plan to bring it up at my next GP visit however just curious is anyone else here has this.",4.768925772245275,6.33828420746888,6.034156293222686,75.64776740433383,69.99585062240665,9.504933148916553,29.57146150299677,9.861636050157227,3.0952819732595667,998,39,175,25,18,335,149,241,0.055,0.907,0.039,-0.5803,4,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,1,8,0,22,2,1,0,0,31,29,18,0,3,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,20,11,1,3,4,0,1,3,3,1,1,5,8,2,16,3,27,18,4,44,0,0,1,0,4,16,0,8,24,122,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.09938595447102712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027938011307372,0.0,0.1019829798699402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925804069915525,0.10679328278701104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242467768045014,0.20870432013186324,0.083809694663241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247971695656442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131488457942129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640626894357902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421278281684844,0.1701567310147123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662924028674474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05320976927111561,0.0,0.05788081729956745,0.0,0.0,0.1122843882021237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21259928092955874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490516182473632,0.0,0.0,0.11065480786893853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231691499876447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16258329328374074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831323202926972,0.09557456196534282,0.0,0.0,0.5797556047193457,0.0,0.0,0.20703826871328984,0.23237296192241985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096276372323994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13048893234496606,0.0,0.10055957574021183,0.0,0.0,0.0869750085844774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14417272273347154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647042741918616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06766124204358129,0.06525811495116167,0.0,0.0,0.17815978251617498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948769205563793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08083976014272537,0.08169385480382096,0.0,0.09157081771722723,0.0,0.0,0.11370622050138254,0.0,0.0,0.11044647561321544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558479190860593
EDAnonymous,applez5applez,2019/08/26,Free food keeps appearing whenever i try to restrict I swear to god they can sense when I'm not binging. Today my coworker offered me ice cream and then when I got home my mom had baked a berry crumble. I only ate a few bites but I was doing so well today that I almost started crying because I had no idea how many calories it was. I just feel so frustrated,1.8682818532818537,3.886856445945949,3.681505791505792,87.49689189189192,79.13513513513513,6.390733590733591,25.43629343629344,7.447530270364453,1.3476779922779918,283,11,57,4,7,95,58,74,0.19899999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.094,-0.847,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,7,3,1,0,2,0,6,3,0,1,0,11,13,8,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,3,2,2,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,6,2,12,3,2,7,1,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,6,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24763527056868465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15075181080892908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271647484833852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504233223599354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990361935307051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778843561317336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480621066632688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27917164699368185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219811640899227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25072342824582344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896348213914487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880828264085214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504024322616668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4688230493090745,0.0,0.0,0.16790049594253564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223524381276207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IndigoSeasons,2019/08/26,"Guess who isn’t going to work tomorrow...! Because guess who spend all weekend binging, followed by taking an excessive amount of laxatives? 🙃

THIS GIRL.",5.004102564102563,8.375349153846159,5.036153846153848,74.39217948717952,76.69230769230771,8.082051282051282,35.5897435897436,8.841846274778883,4.160605128205129,122,7,17,3,3,38,24,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236493850696452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22048384483395908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8547526438918268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916939814739501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824359603198674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dayflipper,2019/08/26,"Boyfriend said he had a gift card to a ~mystery dessert place~ Thought I'd budget 500 cals for the end of the day and it wouldn't be a big deal and hey free food. Except the mystery place was Cheesecake Factory where their lowest option is still around 800 cals??

I was scared but I didn't want to be an asshole and make him turn around so I just had us split a splice so I could eat a bite or two but I still feel like it was too much ughhh

I also feel like a jerk because he mentioned that since there was a lot of money left on the card we could come again sometime, and I just told him to use it all for himself cause I wasn't that into it.

I think he feels bad about taking me there, but I feel like a dick for not just appreciating it like a normal person would :/

Also fucking astounded that he thought the 1000 cal listing was for the entire cake and not the slice, I wish I were that naive again oof",2.949124906507109,3.949101717277488,3.445897531787587,94.656609947644,73.71204188481676,6.085415108451757,22.543380703066568,5.773587663045528,0.03954121166791325,712,17,165,3,14,222,114,191,0.147,0.747,0.106,-0.8047,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,1,0,18,9,2,1,17,0,17,5,1,3,1,40,34,13,0,7,10,0,4,4,0,2,0,1,0,1,9,10,3,0,7,0,3,1,5,4,0,1,14,5,19,6,15,14,3,16,0,0,0,2,16,9,2,3,10,107,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151012248782977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23944701858128184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112292496642201,0.08198309955469474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815700271281886,0.0,0.1158501579214574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147566621342976,0.0,0.0,0.08673412394554672,0.13865200573566067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761557619634596,0.0,0.0,0.11911712260083937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27200623109589833,0.28823639012805896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626243419109409,0.0,0.0,0.1243326911000087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461224307822437,0.0,0.0,0.2628176585461831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433753402335968,0.0,0.0,0.08977229133570064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988647127593895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177042971178468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743039738375655,0.2810242585558625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279296079676825,0.0,0.13464671008395976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112504916852847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330128220839895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21480579423856935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111880986444144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617496671473185,0.0,0.2135381051176508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850977315887213,0.0,0.0,0.14628515099330627,0.13137597611938795,0.0,0.16177341859920882,0.11615510756219853,0.0,0.0,0.07932495487834175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546554362835026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553695612792684,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,actinoid-,2019/08/26,"anyone else’s moms/parents encourage ur ED? idk if my mom understands what an eating disorder is, she’s Indian and doesn’t really even know what mental illness is (like she literally doesn’t believe in them, just thinks people are crazy)

which i guess is fine bc it’s like she grew up in that culture

but also like. she is forcing me to get the cheapest meal plan at university so that i eat less + making comments about my weight which she thinks helps me in losing weight ?? 

like thank u for supporting my eating disorder but alsO i’m dying :/ i can’t even tel whether i like it or not",3.1794871794871824,5.08926237606838,4.504623931623931,83.60565384615388,74.8119658119658,7.756923076923077,24.52051282051282,8.548686976883017,1.6891887179487188,466,15,91,9,10,154,81,117,0.114,0.687,0.19899999999999998,0.903,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,2,7,10,0,0,2,0,8,7,0,1,0,14,18,9,1,1,7,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,6,0,4,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,2,15,9,8,18,1,6,0,1,0,0,12,5,0,3,5,55,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319755465001388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141476121876694,0.1486097713978068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340947920354998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052776154806788,0.0,0.33245491286813833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44523384531828003,0.12116161698003056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159401009236746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577698097015373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977699954729604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721669953184868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970973569369656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35429406553607745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622617336088492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681477339309162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14616537155026935,0.0,0.0,0.1698681250084806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055189955904656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929158073655452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458873331393192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353258272334947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858704896691465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099089287651854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532372748308078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frog_pile,2019/08/26,"Haven’t dated in months because of back and forth recovery causing dysmorphia TW relapse


Gave it a shot. Met a guy i liked. He called me thick. I guess as a compliment but I could never possibly perceive that as one. So I guess I gotta block him and get back on my bullshit. I never thought of myself as a person who could be triggered. I was already doing borderline behaviors.",1.7757057057057042,4.4379768108108095,3.403153153153152,85.30836336336337,84.94594594594594,6.5321321321321335,27.141141141141144,7.793537801064563,2.092052852852853,300,14,55,6,9,99,57,74,0.134,0.81,0.055999999999999994,-0.8174,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,2,2,14,13,7,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,1,11,2,7,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,2,7,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24030707496537726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348928745961809,0.0,0.13274640824713496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22236054566025493,0.0,0.0,0.22370276293446334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477323460605728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11377226935564867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4797813688695825,0.21561977663328225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063880860367211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381648604749114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359047653357325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756196088075815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19014240198771276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454952565434461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728796339259903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edposthrowaway,2019/08/26,"Can anyone help me? I think I may have an ed I am 14, 5""9.5 and on the higher end of my healthy BMI. I look in the mirror, and see stretch marks for days, and stomach flab. I know I should at least be maintenancing what I eat, and I really try to make healthy decisions about what I eat. And then I have a bad day, and I feel so awful about it, but I binge. When I am done eating, I feel so sick, but I don't even do anything about it, I just feel like a shitty person. I have gone up 4 us pants sizes in the last year. I attempt to control what I eat, and fail, and then I think that I don't have enough self control to have an ed, or to lose weight to be healthier. 

Is there anyone out there that has experienced something like this?",2.415678941311853,2.9420860569620264,3.753590333716918,93.73439010356735,74.50632911392404,7.011277330264673,22.59148446490219,6.980632752743323,0.3293215189873413,559,13,139,5,11,184,93,158,0.153,0.77,0.077,-0.9438,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,5,10,5,0,0,7,1,18,7,1,3,0,25,28,16,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,8,9,5,2,7,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,2,7,24,2,16,22,2,16,0,2,2,0,4,7,0,2,10,95,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047825303357648,0.0,0.1205041262463898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226771547939567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32848023918417224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18887785926995465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498545901915511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5993612260495245,0.0,0.0,0.12969858975786913,0.15130725080100393,0.0,0.0967194166617792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221269105242964,0.10461371267835064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815278112265416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047724597279625,0.11936466207853122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14308219898465266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296912995887505,0.1638241217834618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774698491156214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278620285885924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381047646240362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669031537762944,0.0,0.15276439977984185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273337690114442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766020218244048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942024638723948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614414951019786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17831926555721347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429980714944926
EDAnonymous,stregapegg,2019/08/26,"I was diagnosed with a thyroid disorder I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism a year and a half ago. I used to get meds but because I have a huge fear of needles(shots and anything used to take blood) I haven’t been able to keep up with treatment.

Despite me eating 800 cal a day I still have gained weight.


I can’t fast and I can’t seem to lose weight eating normally. I’m stuck in this b/p cycle with no benefits at all 

I want to die every single day.",1.6300945626477519,3.63474319148936,3.0450354609929104,91.83388888888894,79.85106382978724,6.73096926713948,23.21040189125296,7.793537801064563,1.0487579196217491,356,12,78,6,9,116,61,94,0.21100000000000002,0.6729999999999999,0.11599999999999999,-0.8793,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,5,0,8,8,1,2,1,15,17,4,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,4,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,2,10,1,13,13,2,10,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,6,46,11,0,0.17305297734427974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340102299653652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240785528507116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549148876940877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22320970814288255,0.0,0.0,0.3512902585357764,0.1796016689417783,0.0,0.19833370464339284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35415279709270797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458045971262673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947327111038627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041303816414632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538174375676068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936020164109696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222284582834687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695551751712818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754093115894532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820033124878567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301143022541388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989244195807048,0.0,0.0,0.10207112968569444,0.0,0.0,0.4214638113235997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144044364498444
EDAnonymous,izzydipietro55,2019/08/26,"Roomate situation Sophomore year of college, living with my friend who I lived with last year who I love dearly. Difference is, this year we share a kitchen, bathroom and she’s TERRIFIED of vomit. I’m anorexic purge subtype. She knows about my Ed (not the severity). I told her about some pretty serious health issues I had this summer from it and now she’s been asking if I’m eating. I’ve been lying but it’s just hard to have people you care about worry about you. And if I NEED to purge and she’s in the room wtf do I do? There’s no other bathroom I can use near me. Do I ask one of my friends to use theirs and then never talk to them again? Should I be honest with a friend and hope they don’t try to stop me?",0.8100999999999985,2.9554641933333343,2.3835833333333305,94.671375,83.73333333333333,5.083333333333334,18.708333333333336,6.322622252153567,-0.15516666666666667,559,14,124,5,16,182,95,150,0.135,0.6729999999999999,0.192,0.8866,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,2,3,0,8,10,0,0,4,0,12,5,0,2,1,24,24,10,0,5,5,0,1,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,7,10,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,1,25,9,18,18,1,13,0,0,0,1,22,3,0,4,10,85,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30705029910611337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674349988744645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157675537967934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680398281259446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806319044464777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147110413939167,0.0,0.0,0.17456001998484486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16310923261472515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714048203179095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025196821924966,0.13386262860007211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900215931232205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821652326586954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176833219257002,0.12665792237785642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128089456235636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385067036555115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16707253852181553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18552381141406232,0.0,0.0,0.1845921055099748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729671991691575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199520622943864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692090089649602,0.0,0.11149577509553706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836696956869729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677513866104884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172602303318265
EDAnonymous,Atsugaruru,2019/08/26,"Sleep eating caused by medications? Sooo I've been noticing that I get up to binge in the middle of the night in these delirious, ravenous state. Multiple times during the night. I thought I was just being a dumb fat bitch, but it turns out its a side effect of the Lunesta Im taking. 

Yaaall. Help. What do I do? How do I stop?",0.8213636363636354,3.2413765151515186,2.288106060606061,93.3521590909091,86.87878787878788,5.118181818181818,18.85606060606061,6.6274283507984215,0.08409696969697,254,7,54,3,8,82,51,66,0.122,0.8220000000000001,0.055,-0.5171,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,6,0,6,4,2,3,0,8,10,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,8,6,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,4,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27218798641841624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27112130293210296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843121336521005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775978074509922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862034027937473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669203837238863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4972959951131721,0.0,0.0,0.3016599128917721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651524028589295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215193029373909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19921773566006332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103494781816969,0.15450091968972346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882015381771712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dark_side_sunchips,2019/08/26,"stupid shit disclaimer: i'm only a LiTtLe DiSoRdErEd, not  a ReAl ED! as always.

TW: this post includes NUMBERS, behaviors, things that are true, ect, and is basically me validating myself, doing the weird ED flexes (??), and writing down like some of the things i need to motivate myself to weight restore for real this time

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1. subject: yes, i am thin, and it's not good. 

over the past year/months/who knows:

* My mom called me over and nearly cried over concern for me not sleeping, eating less, and being thin
* Multiple acquaintances and near-strangers have told me i'm thin
   * My teacher told me to make sure I eat
   * A fellow cyclist told me ""no offense but you look like you need to gain""
   * Fellow intern/classmate told me ""you're so thin!!"" and asked my height/weight (sneaky sneaky she's probably hitting up that BMI calculator lmao)
   * After mentioning ""there's food in the fatty tissue reserves"" to a classmate as a joke, they looked at me and told me that it didn't look like I had much of those
   * After letting it slip that ""it's ok i didn't workout yesterday because I mostly ate vegetables"" I was told that ""no offense but it really doesn't look like you should be thinking about not gaining""
* I had my body fat measured (professionally) and it's dropped (thanks exercise!) and now i'm basically in the essential fat range and the technician who measured/interpreted told me like 80 times that ""really you need to gain fat, just eat more""
* Period: only comes when i stim it with hormones. no, that's NOT AN EXCUSE TO STAY THIN MR. BRAIN

2. subject: no, i'm not ""real restricting"" but i am restricting

* Episodes of extreme hunger since Feb where I shake, can't think straight, can barely listen to people
   * Usually responded to but when I hit my ""TDEE"" I start guzzling tea and water, often responded to with masses of veggies and low cal foods out of fear of going over
   * Literally get in the way of doing things because I get so desperate for food, very draining, evoke a lot of fear because I'll get down 2 human sized meals in the span of an hour or two and still feel empty
* Eating only around my TDEE, which I intentionally underestimated by a bit, don't count several miles of walking, and undercut the cals from exercise (which i do a lot of) intentionally
* Days I don't exercise = restrict even when i don't want to lose because I feel like it's becoming fat and not muscle; becoming distraught when i inadvertently eat more than the small amount planned even though i still walk a bunch
   * Usually plan to fast through most of my ""rest"" days and still find myself going ""ok, so tomorrow i'm going to rest, so i won't bring any food and will eat when i get home"" even though i DON'T WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT AND DON'T NEED TO
* Weekly compulsive C/S (i stopped a few months ago when it started to spread into 'healthy foods') where I put something in my mouth, suddenly go ""oh no i shouldn't have this"" and rapidly spit it out (sometimes not even chewed)
* Telling myself i'm going to gain, i'm going to get my period back, over and over, but then doing a restrictive day or limiting myself to TDEE while undercutting exercise

3.  subject: you could be so much more, but instead you do this?

* Cycling
   * I love it. I really do. I want to be stronger but cycles (ha) of eating less, or trying to limit my intake during rides and bonking, or limiting breakfast ""just in case I can't finish the ride"" are really counterproductive
   * Restricting/low body weight/ low body fat are working against me because it's not easy to get stronger and low body fat --> muscle starts being broken down
   * If I didn't worry about how much and when and what and ect ect I EAT and just ate and ate enough I would have the mental space to really commit instead of just riding about (which is fun!) and be able to put that willpower into some more intense, actual training rides
* Hobbies
   * My friend has such amazing passion for what he does and people around me are getting into things and doing things and thinking about beautiful amazing things and I do that but it's broken up by checking mfp to see what macros i need to eat to have a perfect day, and logging, and thinking about meal spacing and prepping and calories and reflecting on my own disordered behavior
* School, grades, work
   * Just... mind space... not being hungry... not worrying about it... really getting into things instead of being distracted away by how many hours and minutes until i can eat, or how much, or how much exercise i'm getting, and 500+550+100+50 - (200+300+200) = 1200-700 = 500, 1700-500 = 1200 

4. subject: social life

* mothers day: we were going to go to a restaurant with vegan food and calorie counts by foot/bike; last minute change to italian, by car; i had had an ""indulgent"" breakfast that I made for mom and got too into my head at the italian place, got upset over the price and the fact there were two different carbs (1 slice bread, 1/2 cup potatoes), made my mom upset, cried in the bathroom
* flaking on plans because i start freaking out about having to eat and not knowing how much (even though I eat my TDEE and like.. have so much room!)
* turning 21 but not going to bars because alcohol calories make me fatter than other calories in my brain
* not eating nice things on my birthday or celebrating it because Cake is Sin
* Making people uncomfortable with diet talk because it's all i think about really
* never dated or kissed and i'm 21... but partly over fear of intimacy and also like who would want to deal with this tbqh

this isn't everything but like whatever nobody reads these lmao

anyways closing remarks: it doesn't fucking matter what your body is, how much you eat, suffering isn't quantifiable, you don't even need to be ""really suffering"" to deserve to LIVE, ENJOY THINGS, LIVE LIVE LIVE life is so short!!! there are SO MANY BETTER THINGS TO DO",3.5881953195319563,5.833460573357339,4.355861296129613,83.6213563006301,74.67956795679568,7.1802736273627366,26.4115301530153,8.109356740369918,1.7861293537353728,4591,170,851,76,100,1470,459,1111,0.11,0.7609999999999999,0.129,0.9895,2,0,2,0,0,0,217.0,1,9,1,17,63,51,5,8,32,4,69,68,18,14,7,172,151,97,0,16,39,4,10,9,3,6,14,2,2,2,55,65,45,8,12,9,2,21,37,23,0,2,24,17,89,28,124,108,30,133,1,7,5,4,44,61,2,16,56,541,144,7,0.03436468862611508,0.0,0.033534978933158065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0304622230203874,0.03672540117215458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0274814290786842,0.028594173834736576,0.037234125768980435,0.04175685808333975,0.02336916668114353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06118371722863944,0.032126344973445686,0.0,0.03228675618060998,0.026424324347845782,0.0,0.18853555702474545,0.07590619738215786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030392774472998943,0.03751733960339616,0.19085711049556855,0.0,0.07672471518325155,0.03509018928978762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03635328397132765,0.02960213639391612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02743740758778961,0.0,0.07549599362864817,0.11081190622042963,0.035428485025110736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03590378546315726,0.07876982076505559,0.0,0.030072770596263357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4922911786581083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035507909611084826,0.0,0.1361853164187101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030884766289238082,0.0,0.0,0.11600948596955185,0.03475163822545162,0.024550140420886074,0.0,0.0,0.03140870283544272,0.0,0.24932350736106595,0.0,0.02655007318724064,0.03176960088962818,0.16158718311235026,0.0,0.17577220032703228,0.028823470397976687,0.05496916153670793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03526808474330274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03447058461743833,0.0,0.06768459211468551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037771868309329285,0.028011807824176324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03514022239909055,0.048545591722411914,0.15109965931724306,0.034442445930997545,0.1213785985885643,0.0,0.11543073391178175,0.07689059285140244,0.0,0.058431258754056935,0.031015473172090843,0.06503339856287997,0.06881608951233667,0.0696808010314428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034631523474099014,0.0,0.034698539240840286,0.12074252395771795,0.02742956660311157,0.0,0.20209600153556495,0.15288588709725506,0.02650416638431411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840768269701112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03721360896762275,0.03280498373919573,0.07147244452657672,0.0,0.03590378546315726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03291187242649792,0.0,0.037050946589131134,0.0,0.0,0.06909200731986649,0.0,0.0,0.03437398819890198,0.11734361713292835,0.17611919593625855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03477889953279368,0.0273842076237787,0.0,0.0,0.038822316627783925,0.03527485904086208,0.02842682554641613,0.0,0.03438950639325907,0.03503047240703973,0.0,0.026455616211167286,0.03398755575404072,0.0,0.09729401393458373,0.036628185708125205,0.08233105418248038,0.02873041844032886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03238831234072876,0.0,0.0,0.02762103500640181,0.0300362525441886,0.03163838824540123,0.0,0.0,0.2283037214463004,0.11009752443152228,0.1012893962883116,0.0,0.04007665258278626,0.0,0.0,0.2298585285404165,0.0,0.02333136781972684,0.03737891315646115,0.0671386148063192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569569903005162,0.028354467077882462,0.08107673484025489,0.02727709028681856,0.02756528036980572,0.16738773138236301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05003580520255595,0.06979801880300357,0.0,0.04882337765781602,0.0,0.04175685808333975,0.022129732784644304
EDAnonymous,jadearoni,2019/06/02,"Relapse due to vacation I was doing so well, until April. I had a bit of a relapse due to being near a scale , which caused to me not eating for almost 5 full days. After that, I had been bloated for about a month, but that was also due to the fact that I was constantly smoking weed to ignore how I was feeling. Now I’m not smoking (on break, tolerance is too high) and I realized I’ve gained a bit. I’ve been restricting the past week and a half. My boyfriend is supposed to get me some bud to take with me on vacation but I’m scared I won’t get any and I won’t eat at all, or pass out. I’m going to Florida (Disney) which involves so much walking around and exercising so that’s going to be triggering too. I don’t wanna do this anymore. I wanna get out of this cycle and get better , I really wanna have kids someday, but I feel so invalid because I’ve never been underweight (almost , but not completely). I don’t want to recover until I’m underweight at least once because then I feel like I’ll “deserve” to be able to recover. I’m just so sad. I can’t believe I keep falling down this hole.",2.8289622399178,3.878887231441052,4.915931158489599,83.81038787567431,74.06550218340611,8.008322630362189,27.444387361931682,8.4952907291091,1.9154046236835351,852,32,178,15,17,296,122,229,0.08900000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.079,-0.5105,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,14,6,0,1,8,0,22,3,0,3,3,38,39,20,0,4,9,0,3,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,9,9,2,3,4,1,0,5,9,3,1,1,9,3,20,3,33,25,7,32,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,4,16,125,29,0,0.15369674048095786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30781016828703,0.0,0.0,0.12291122783351913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451905401285784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524258670109474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682268462930627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738421287124585,0.0,0.0,0.17316359445267834,0.0,0.13593227692227414,0.335594066996848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578888901896223,0.0,0.0,0.16114810819142686,0.1660915746925342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991216825961214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145402718906907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331410701725247,0.10980098210965714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32120081320910193,0.0,0.17469879911620534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623890448547429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366127248781245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508846387676041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267927189946393,0.0,0.11298478882712085,0.0,0.11854040136241364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368201249325234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672092993776115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846206758206788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538772498346021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155608210463206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065431968090283,0.0,0.12328625436935405,0.0,0.1381918279288714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitychew,2019/06/02,"to all MPA users: is the site down for anyone else? is it permanent? just tried logging in to update my accountability thread but came across an error message: Temporary Error, please retry

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i have been a member since 2012 and in the time that i've used myproana i've seen some random server crashes and temporary site shutdowns. i'm anxious if it winds up being shut down for good as it's the only forum whose site interface i enjoyed and have met lots of sweet people going through the same shit as me.

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is the site down for others? do you think it'll come back? :(",5.293125,6.7076949196428615,5.146785714285713,83.09821428571429,68.55357142857143,7.385714285714287,27.392857142857146,7.645422480735847,1.5557999999999996,469,15,86,5,8,145,82,112,0.14800000000000002,0.735,0.11699999999999999,-0.6199,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,7,0,9,1,1,1,1,15,17,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,4,2,5,3,16,11,4,18,0,0,1,0,4,12,1,4,3,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932154793230671,0.4409783398203129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049938802906388,0.0,0.12687840880316126,0.18592334193718985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952863333886306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075375763558878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630846717526228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158338870692525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312575206485658,0.15219686905791135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542675901737426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800563281476508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579889618500878,0.0,0.0,0.19918444039741526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626220327914556,0.1501024611430444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626981954734253,0.0,0.0,0.10580858170794544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319686297213532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567199142700708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4409783398203129,0.0
EDAnonymous,HappyAsianLol,2019/06/02,"I’m gonna cry I’m so frustrated I’ve been restricting for a week to 700 calories and I haven’t lost anything even water weight. Could it be bcause im eating carbs? Or because of the sodium, I don’t know. I have cups and cups of green tea every day and stuff but I don’t know what to do anymore. I just got off maintaining for like 3 weeks.",0.025099999999998342,1.9754890266666685,2.0689166666666696,96.927375,85.4,5.3500000000000005,18.708333333333336,6.6274283507984215,-0.11336666666666685,267,7,64,3,8,89,54,75,0.11900000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.049,-0.3811,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,0,10,15,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,2,5,1,7,9,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456601746108596,0.0,0.0,0.20384290960190146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100074336451902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977750036342996,0.0,0.2720960492806498,0.1597514275745371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534675368100898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636090640334099,0.0,0.2087050131613568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19811503852745432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26756758228977723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722681203845361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101781350472067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704029833714389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835668577976725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39739347880263853,0.3016421019055812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,benutzranke,2019/06/02,"I fucking hate calories. I hate that they control my life. I hate that they fucked my body image beyond repair. I hate how they make behave.

For years now, every single day, I count and I feel like eating either too much or too little. 24/7. Why do I even think about the calories in single pieces of chewing gum I spit out? Medication? The small amounts of mouthwash and toothpaste I swallow?

 I'm so jealous of my friends who apparently all can eat intuitively and still look good. 

I hate my compulsiveness in needing to control when and how many calories I must consume. I hate that I literally need to eat dinner at the same time every single fucking day. I hate that I eat the same food, at the same time, every single day, because calories have turned eating not into something to enjoy, but something to be afraid of. 

I hate how food is fucking everywhere. I hate that I'm the freak that doesn't eat in social gatherings. The freak that doesn't eat breakfast. Or lunch. And instead binges 2k between 8 and 10pm.

But I'm too stupid to even binge correctly. Fasting through the hunger till your brain fog forces you to eat. Then pouring down 3000 calories down your throat because you need to gain. Secretly wishing you could just starve yourself again. Or die. Rinse and repeat tomorrow. 

I hate that I feel numb and like I steal other's joy when socializing sober, but that alcohol has so many goddamn calories. Why god, does it need to have **7/g**,  *plus* the sugar added to every drink??? At least coffee and white/purple/red monster exist.



But most importantly I hate myself. I know I'm recovering and I know that I'm making progress. The scale goes up, slowly. My body is looking better every week. But the image I see in the mirror doesn't. And my habits don't either.

I've just replaced ""counting every calorie and meal timing until I'm under my TDEE"" with ""counting every calory and meal timing until I'm over my TDEE"". Fuck this shit. 

Fuck calories.",2.044677419354837,4.849249516129035,2.8803494623655936,88.21552419354839,86.09677419354837,4.605376344086022,22.53494623655914,6.21433560688645,0.6141333333333336,1548,55,279,14,48,487,192,372,0.22699999999999998,0.687,0.086,-0.9966,1,0,4,0,0,0,62.0,0,5,3,5,20,32,20,1,12,0,14,36,6,7,3,56,54,33,1,7,13,0,2,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,14,17,21,2,6,1,0,0,5,25,0,0,0,6,41,7,37,51,15,38,0,0,3,6,14,17,7,4,23,173,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909906911266865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742094668464964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0489085107793838,0.0,0.12285205556718615,0.0,0.06173328405603341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404769684283047,0.044152689842709945,0.0,0.0,0.10699211382654353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05739285077617165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0483935557176578,0.0,0.0,0.05417311840706501,0.0,0.4526870770247607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305048794821935,0.0,0.32614947702085545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05592286002914023,0.03950645599917205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373838199773108,0.0,0.042724777950930465,0.3067447236080746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04638316300840145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6005722127319059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06078305980276672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03906014895343757,0.054033744274346505,0.055425303128580065,0.0,0.0,0.0928764384247329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382659231937408,0.11213139528903764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055709108339853236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406519914723223,0.1640175159341402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04406707965876304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05676483485158479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274312839380302,0.0,0.08514555272264633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04416279111053406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035434119153724325,0.0,0.0,0.12898390678930427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601507104479245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04435846465090264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979961291336828,0.0,0.06359247198994293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0356114995491513
EDAnonymous,YiYoongi,2019/06/02,“You don’t know what it feels like to be fat” I get so triggered when somebody says that to me but has no idea about my past. Like dude I was overweight and because of it am isolating myself and fucking binging and purging my life away????????,2.8212499999999987,4.518011958333336,3.3483333333333327,92.43000000000002,75.25,5.633333333333334,28.66666666666667,5.985473137389443,1.0393166666666676,186,8,39,1,4,58,41,48,0.132,0.773,0.094,-0.4606,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,0,8,9,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,7,2,5,7,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,4,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381080600923828,0.0,0.0,0.21937234053315505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196019630637536,0.25708994444249444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326923914751254,0.18801630376207093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062474426202535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977741747838076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25418558234039706,0.3516268914073898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34353495753415997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861816705958325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Twilight43,2019/06/02,"Biting heads off! My period came.....after 6 months of not having one....my poor husband :( . I know he was trying to help by making me a grilled cheese. Especially TRYING to workout today.....I didn't even have the energy for barely 1.6 miles! I went off because of the bread! I mean lashing out, all out war, etc.  Later I apologized and told him I honestly didn't know what came over me! He understood and part of it was the fear. As if I was so disappointed.....saw 162 on the scale....again....apart of me rationally said it's just water weight! HELLO what did you expect!  Another part of me said you fat cow, you're eating too much! Work your butt off nowwwwwww!  I keep telling myself after this, if I am still 162 I am going to at least put some carbs on my plate and TRY to eat them!  Maybe some cheesecake? Or a sandwich? Or ugh just thinking about it makes me feel fat!",0.5795060430898573,3.004403537572255,2.2779742511823464,92.73664608512878,88.76878612716763,5.226379400945875,17.690225959012086,6.782984794422108,0.05581156069364157,664,17,141,9,22,217,117,173,0.084,0.841,0.07400000000000001,-0.5682,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,3,1,1,7,4,1,1,6,0,10,10,4,2,1,26,25,9,1,3,7,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,6,8,1,6,1,1,4,3,3,0,0,12,4,22,1,23,13,8,19,0,0,0,1,15,10,1,6,5,89,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899088699746425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242852648727624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468347134604482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31029821996519913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910073646188875,0.10014616068521813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061904951920573,0.07666560325271247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617136061778298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560987225245848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016303088797966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347702953884683,0.0,0.0,0.16665706814338882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024202708269068,0.0,0.15232659438835308,0.1651628849772804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210247561248992,0.0,0.1114610178387054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027442835544738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32838783164171503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242390550782595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884581144839305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108704812480513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252597795890605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971544774081017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372173507697195,0.14488314099864366,0.0,0.3088280403368586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846370712119872,0.0,0.1405568809994905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038401025019044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cookieyesung,2019/06/02,"Buy diet pills or weights ? Im an athlete that needs to train for the summer as I’ll be running track as a freshmen in January! Wanna look the best and be the best :( (which is a super hard thing to do with an Ed ) 

So do I buy lipozene and go on runs .. or do i buy weights and go in runs and workout like i did when i had cross country ( i was recovered .) 

I’m also buying a new swimsuit which always makes me feel so ..pudgy ..? Im not the skinniest but not the fattest and I also have stretch marks from a grow spurt so finding a swimsuit is even harder ..

This will probably get buried but ...idk . help ?",0.21636571428571472,2.3351170880000005,2.146542857142858,95.57570000000004,86.12,4.851428571428572,22.52857142857143,6.1826913282559595,0.30649714285714325,456,17,103,4,14,151,81,125,0.025,0.8640000000000001,0.11,0.8917,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,12,0,12,4,0,1,0,17,20,17,0,2,6,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,1,4,7,2,0,0,0,3,5,7,4,11,14,2,14,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,4,67,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073833865218163,0.1599147912386453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033763234245207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693755128075904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971754072025844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756552291398889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040965689024096,0.0,0.21844834454981046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721615996460805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288187430934908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151893893976632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389274975929124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138848618876567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282861636060115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250405729384408,0.0,0.18561518335108548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20720984712617727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12768035252600712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680634291906551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shamshels,2019/06/02,"Saw a full body pic of myself for the first time in a while today......... I was out with family today, someone took a full body picture of me and showed it to me afterwards, and HOOOO BOY am I triggered.

I was losing weight for a while, then between finals and starting at a new job I ended up being really busy over the last month and weight loss kinda fell to the wayside. My new job is also physically demanding and I'm the only female in my job position, so I was trying to eat more normally so I wouldn't be too weak or tired to keep up with everyone else.

I feel like I'm crashing back to reality right now and realizing I can't believe I just let myself forget how fat I am. Yikes I feel like shit guys 🙃🙃",2.2590715883668904,3.6388620604026873,4.616258389261748,84.08174776286356,76.0469798657718,7.651230425055928,23.154921700223714,8.344100000000001,1.3247579418344515,553,16,117,10,12,194,96,149,0.107,0.84,0.052000000000000005,-0.7779,4,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,8,6,1,0,9,0,11,9,4,2,0,21,19,14,0,2,2,0,4,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,9,4,1,3,1,0,2,2,4,0,1,5,5,17,2,19,10,3,29,0,2,1,0,2,10,1,2,19,79,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932807330194892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512264340345133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402695491085575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303711136807544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988991285750704,0.11420484910953756,0.0,0.1210857401541066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306336205930878,0.0,0.0,0.12887935991316216,0.0,0.13825080349340024,0.19533333174362572,0.0,0.14976067837354398,0.0,0.11628666414102813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536579968793902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069949687438096,0.1215153917401636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114380540529112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979668958607533,0.0,0.13358058865002165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529451097215452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912175126117037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640734829684347,0.0,0.0,0.13394816516465866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039751954770519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758083644444832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11675080583009252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403323081886808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583514264826565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676504683240347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971752849392542,0.15712966640076367,0.2591728821119526,0.0,0.1518914180528083,0.09281808030894287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329553589447853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apazacarla05,2019/07/07,"I am confused When I (15F) was underweight everybody was concerned about my safety and now that I am in a “normal” weight (because of involuntary recovery) nobody cares about me. I know it is kind of twisted that I want to go back but I just don’t feel confortable with my new body. However, every time I try to cut calories I binge the same day and now I am worried that I have developed BED. 
I don’t know what to do. I feel as if recovery didn’t work on me and I am a failure.",0.5424545454545466,2.7000439000000043,3.059454545454546,89.31972727272729,85.0,6.836363636363638,24.09090909090909,8.00094639256281,1.489800000000001,370,15,81,8,11,128,65,100,0.126,0.8190000000000001,0.055,-0.8176,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,1,1,3,0,12,2,1,0,0,15,19,7,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,4,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,3,17,2,11,16,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,7,59,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048790835289142,0.0,0.1624218639839539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29595935448390465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716575403798517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718344165903675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22449066478190827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269444308094082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142633498003996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774605519770266,0.2928614431354841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573333937542754,0.0,0.0,0.2610586685305319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536571047155887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808980692734848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715564673408955,0.0,0.0,0.3244571606463649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939744944579192,0.27058693982575005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,transparent044,2019/07/07,"Compensation “Fasting” I have been eating like shit since July 4th. One taste of sugar and BOOM. The monster awoke and I’ve been on a total binge since. I’ve completely lost control.

I tell myself that I’m not even hungry, but just keep shoveling right into my face-hole. 

I’m taking the reigns back. I’m fasting for at least the next 3 days then it’s back to restriction, I’m sure. I hate that I deem this to be necessary but... it is what it is, I guess.

I worry that my boyfriend will fuss about me not eating and I get the feeling this will turn into a fight. But it’s just something I have to do to get things back on track. It’s the only way I know how to stop the binge. I’m an all or nothing kind of girl, after all.

This is more of an accountability post for me. I think fasting is the lesser of the evils here. Don’t know about you guys, but I always feel torn. I know there’s a better way to do this. I know it’s a vicious cycle but it’s all I know. 

Sorry for the vent. I’ve been a bit of a lurker but today seemed like the perfect time to post. 

(P.S.: you guys have no idea how much your posts and this entire sub has helped me. Thanks for being there for me in my darkest moments- even when you didn’t know you were. Love you all.)",0.13699637023593425,2.171925281954888,1.960925589836659,97.3407894736842,85.65413533834587,4.571221156339123,16.31527093596059,5.727593064623523,-0.7567483536427275,959,19,226,6,29,315,137,266,0.149,0.7490000000000001,0.102,-0.8989,0,0,1,0,1,0,37.0,0,6,0,4,15,14,5,0,18,0,20,6,1,3,7,42,45,15,0,0,11,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,3,17,6,4,4,11,0,1,0,5,6,0,1,6,5,28,8,26,35,9,27,0,1,0,1,13,7,1,3,17,146,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804832727535924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718239893897982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421565999975453,0.1286455210489725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354796692241292,0.0,0.1321621982750537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599395674029408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411496575631859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556580785943062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916203691622952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312805868831618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980875937147165,0.23335075112788256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633786603892605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898245174320502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330215996061287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473734134299413,0.0,0.1227072294506935,0.38855487070892736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513665478816132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863104219327115,0.0,0.10635086999726573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662243143535434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531907366548814,0.0,0.0,0.11306605392546115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984818217299157,0.08961898064050025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385606512958238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063061828779292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727274191546217,0.0,0.0,0.1209561410593723,0.19494899280416494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071529506450332,0.0,0.13190686083133735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851550481144833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105828294372838,0.0,0.08859740679796113,0.0,0.10299315995625358,0.10848682193368768,0.0,0.0,0.07828447196245257,0.07550403917986255,0.0,0.0,0.06871065363260037,0.0,0.11169399296614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281708620624568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187064196435186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966736703640835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NotDido,2019/07/07,"hey look i’m not diagnosed and doing pretty ok so if u want me to delete this I will but also here’s something I wrote about my family reunion this week while trying frantically to estimate calories for the day 

lowkey disordered eating on hard mode: one week with two aunts and your mom ever present. No meal is eaten alone. At dinner one aunt gives you an extra helping of boniato because she says she felt bone when she hugged you this morning. You eat most of the plate kind of quickly and the other aunt pinches your waist fat and reminds you that tomorrow you’ll be wearing a bikini. Her husband is one of those weirdly fit old dudes running triathlons in his 70s and in the morning he talks about macros and protein shakes at you for fifteen minutes. After the only vegetarian in the house, the first aunt, tries to convince you to stop eating meat as she feeds you her extremely rich homemade organic bread and peanut butter. She can’t tell you what exactly went into it and in what proportions. You spend 30 minutes in the bathroom unsuccessfully trying to take a nude good enough to send to one of a few people you’re seeing for validation",9.476697247706426,7.81786217431193,8.771633027522935,71.00249541284404,60.28440366972477,11.288807339449544,38.313761467889904,9.888512548439397,3.694455412844037,926,36,164,14,10,293,152,218,0.081,0.8079999999999999,0.111,0.7979999999999999,0,1,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,12,0,1,8,9,0,2,12,1,7,15,5,0,2,20,17,15,0,2,3,6,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,9,10,10,1,1,0,2,4,3,3,0,6,4,6,24,6,29,10,4,27,0,0,2,2,35,10,0,2,13,109,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644787056511346,0.0,0.11307761738017187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619619500847985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119137361368383,0.0,0.0,0.14351813583519107,0.0,0.0,0.16205677710706126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43406284123635386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610411290751632,0.0,0.0,0.1279044953692093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329944000945113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576628069822438,0.0,0.0,0.12027486186314533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564387062896274,0.0,0.11859970410924395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666672530758993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477751356537004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315674291872054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472464559804275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187404803969336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560610059633749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837563004186208,0.0,0.3832654976918675,0.10754115586314887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980290327729051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143854746762766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244704335368448,0.0,0.0,0.1126775810339007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885671334331792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182168239601349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631528572893127,0.11365205277919198,0.12358992914820398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880041801015516,0.0,0.13812736184073302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340144879702661,0.0,0.2268452792399904,0.0,0.0,0.13107931917624588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tankysaurus,2019/07/07,"I need help. Little background, I'm 21M with Body Dysmorphia and EDNOS which leans more on the binge and bulimia side and I'm struggling to just function day to day anymore. These past 2 days were some of the worst binges I have had in my life which lead to the first instance of throwing up food even if I quickly realized my mistake in around a year, so I basically just sat in my room sick to my stomach and cried(how fun). I don't know what to do anymore, it's consumed my life completely to the point I cancel hanging out with friends until I've had it under control for at least a few days despite them knowing that I struggle with it. The worst part is I don't know why I do it, I don't go out much and I have no reason to look a certain way, but every day is me wondering how I can regulate my eating or how I'll improve my health. I exercise a lot and I tell myself ""It's healthy and makes me feel better!"" but I also know that it's me trying to avoid weight gain to some degree even in my upswings. I have no idea how to fix this and I feel like it's getting worse or I'll be dealing with it for the rest of my life, and I have nobody in my immediate life who struggles with this stuff so that's why I'm here.",5.1132497273718664,4.072919801526723,6.030708833151582,85.1575572519084,68.54198473282443,8.859760087241005,31.69138495092695,7.7094869923839395,1.8934942202835336,956,34,217,9,14,318,141,262,0.113,0.805,0.081,-0.636,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,5,13,12,0,4,10,0,16,12,2,7,1,47,32,21,0,3,7,0,3,1,1,0,7,0,1,0,19,17,3,2,10,1,0,4,5,7,0,1,4,4,33,5,33,27,11,31,0,0,1,0,6,16,0,7,11,151,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302962805167607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307376138604584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355899688299212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288506091099334,0.0,0.12921719572576545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197053784692034,0.0,0.13047478488061875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751184259693296,0.1199318556136104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11903535997906653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367067576505394,0.0,0.0980136418405001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764060628156255,0.08310668362377616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895084387458218,0.14066755825015145,0.0,0.08987681922515342,0.0,0.06077799544727544,0.0,0.06611342425473246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365410658046785,0.0,0.0,0.07797402385129434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13132321359368213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557292671769629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286712876942379,0.056833309605273774,0.11659393421559575,0.0,0.0,0.09768849912061417,0.0,0.0,0.09890021099189183,0.0,0.0,0.07765165332770302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551645822236087,0.08625774864355032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597482433705445,0.11105082733364104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997012388783882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960734639582285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648423536652423,0.133170832923544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167816943768132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898091704006667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233790413333977,0.0,0.14165946707438,0.0,0.0,0.20994074630081835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615569441364888,0.0,0.0,0.11855093354933555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491316422970433
EDAnonymous,Latrophilin,2019/07/07,"I've been eating almost normally for the last week and I don't like it I ate a big ice cream sundae almost without panicking? Only chewed and spat once? Wasn't as anxious about portions and calories as I usually am? I still felt fat, but I didn't feel like everything I ate immediately turned into adipose tissue? And the worst thing is that I can't wait for my disordered eating habits to inevitably come back, which probably will happen when I'm under more stress. Why do I want to make my life harder than it already is?",4.167597087378642,5.8201603592233,5.126395631067961,81.24066140776698,71.62135922330097,7.868446601941748,26.46723300970873,8.472884824447931,1.8793504854368936,419,14,78,7,8,137,76,103,0.149,0.807,0.044000000000000004,-0.9272,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,0,10,8,2,1,0,16,21,8,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,6,1,2,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,6,3,10,2,11,14,3,10,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,2,8,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36240634056094095,0.0,0.19969151241734895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044308886328463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13914543430637685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587918429648934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207393399662888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703301600766247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263326782534476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149773765422246,0.1292763404724564,0.173747935854537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002044927845013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750481844276706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781589710591304,0.17681375221200438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079078524280508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730029433189473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19271422868660734,0.0,0.13762661652465472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951031930558073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445131909564103,0.0,0.2072866318787933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022036989943835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968302022254032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929953133352288,0.0,0.10673364182356032,0.0,0.14515349033498956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328633398903636,0.0,0.0,0.17443693186496798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,piercing_innocence,2019/07/07,"Got called thick So I was talking to this guy I am crushing on the other day about how I relapsed into my ed. Although i understand his intentions, he told me I shouldn't be so worried about my weight. And that he ""doesn't like bones and prefers thicker girls, so don't get too thin."" Felt so bad after he said that. I love him and all, but felt so fat and just got really sad and defensive. We ended up talking about it today, and thankfully he said he won't do it again. At least he's trying to understand what's happening in my head...",2.515855855855857,3.995340585585588,3.890270270270271,89.1382882882883,75.57657657657657,7.455855855855856,24.94594594594595,8.167268648758528,1.3624486486486491,419,14,91,7,9,138,75,111,0.113,0.8170000000000001,0.07,-0.5758,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,0,12,6,1,0,1,0,8,5,3,2,1,20,21,14,0,2,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,2,0,2,7,8,2,1,5,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,8,7,13,3,11,10,2,12,0,1,0,1,18,7,0,0,6,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266693850490864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18670396650348012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791912694632885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194533895642102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511174501330797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955283407122828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29247378546518016,0.0,0.0,0.1810441120950343,0.16168817155571424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876504927966248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932824657715209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502367132846787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713442248469448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34785265581528424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29392584645461217,0.0,0.168338008393492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733145463227746,0.17471508981261835,0.0,0.1241389403722142,0.0,0.0,0.3806936954862588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22265449421643305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18568675787106487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tpdorgap,2019/07/07,"Just ate an entire pound of cherries My well meaning but doofy boyfriend: 'wow imagine if you weighed 100lbs then you could be 1% cherry!

Haha wow imagine wanting to weigh 100lbs that's crazy......",2.7940000000000005,5.843786114285718,1.6371428571428588,95.79285714285713,87.85714285714286,2.8000000000000003,27.0,3.1291,0.366828571428572,154,7,27,0,5,43,31,35,0.0,0.649,0.35100000000000003,0.9534,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,8,5,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624848437214638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6309742263376237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34165728779282445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5208162754020094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffinOfcans,2019/07/07,"I want to recover at times, but eating just makes me feel worse. Every time I eat now (I only eat a couple times a week and the other days I’m fasting) my stomach hurts a ton, I feel super hot for some reason, I feel insanely weak and wake up in hot sweats the following day. I tired to give myself a break on the 4th of July and I ate more food than I have in months- probably over 1,000 calories at the most. I felt so guilty and terrible physically afterwards- so I fasted for 2 days. Of course I’d love to never eat again after that but we have to so I ate some rice cakes and a little cereal and cue intense stomach pains and weakness and feeling horrible. Couldn’t even sleep all night!! 

I’m so at a loss because I was *trying* so, so hard but eating just makes me feel worse and fasting feels better- but I can’t go longer than 2 days anymore or I’ll faint and then feel worse that way. I can’t win.  I am losing hope so fast. Am I alone in this?",0.2798637248539926,2.460799482587067,2.436171317326412,93.1617975340688,86.51243781094526,5.286696950032447,18.689379191001514,6.7026698264267655,0.07508808133246793,740,20,164,9,23,249,118,201,0.252,0.627,0.12,-0.9873,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,5,12,12,0,0,10,0,8,19,5,3,2,37,28,23,0,3,7,0,11,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,11,8,0,9,0,0,2,4,7,0,0,4,11,21,5,20,23,6,34,0,3,0,1,3,10,0,5,20,98,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219982645087166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743675683117217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603850287039123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581131646216608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986788045789187,0.0,0.2794620708048531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5542561011364272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155261228555726,0.0,0.0912748262268477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834332642761583,0.0,0.10401621459868374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099612149838707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039224311351619,0.061567871541112935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970446653937034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759864293676236,0.0,0.0,0.1159722105949788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857765189412244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119638717409865,0.0,0.0,0.09777433507937973,0.0,0.14462560579571973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646998939058903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355272320628164,0.0,0.0,0.101662737815631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239176833101597,0.11527344659480235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680078671421724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138388037349764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841076331973026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895087028052462,0.12451230327216713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735506746071173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389733114362403,0.08598931736091589,0.08689781853335315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33120029994462336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tendersandwich,2019/07/07,"Terrified of rising my caloric intake So in the past month I've been eating 600-800 calories a day and worked out until my caloric intake has dropped under 500. However, my job is mentally exhausting and I can never 100% concentrate. Every day I am so weak I feel like I'm in a dream and I'm about to faint every moment. 

So starting tomorrow I want to eat with 100-150 calories more that usual but I'm literally terrified of doing that. I feel like all my past efforts will be watered down and that I'll make no progress / I will probably end up working out before I go to sleep out of guilt. But I hope my metabolism will slowly adjust and I would be able to raise my caloric intake more over time.

Has anyone else struggled with this? How did it go?",3.389746136865341,4.97789887417219,4.71220198675497,83.69073123620309,73.50331125827816,7.68233995584989,27.152869757174397,8.344100000000001,1.8663505518763799,594,22,117,10,12,197,94,151,0.134,0.765,0.10099999999999999,-0.7328,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,4,5,7,0,2,3,0,14,7,1,2,2,22,25,12,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,5,10,3,0,3,1,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,2,15,3,20,17,3,26,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,1,15,73,20,3,0.16821550850663844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11762019475322742,0.1723566672541554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313900808152002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697017372994928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34425292050005546,0.1405224724146958,0.0,0.14898901152873614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834576419844687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010963082292124,0.24034638577638076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912015000244748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16707595548734255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692793611407086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643632011256155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228515814301172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952166786484654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426801402043545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973817031747606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32116147370223724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136476919527916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833699173512176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906380272146945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758553729937353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808781576350634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852656173120268,0.0,0.0992178652307578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24492578725973954,0.0,0.0,0.11949547090439665,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,avoao,2019/07/07,"How to lose weight while on vacation with your family: a step-by-step guide by me 1. Don't bring your scale like you really, really want to because that's *unhealthy*
2. Regret it the moment you step on the plane, and every day after
3. *how much do I* ***weigh????***
4. Say to yourself: it's fine, normal people maintain all the time, just don't binge or restrict too heavily and we'll be all good, you can always lose after
5. Feel sad that your family living in a proudly beef-dependent country don't have many vegan options
6. Feel happy that your family living in a proudly beef-dependent country don't have many vegan options
7. Binge
8. Restrict
9. Binge
10. Restrict
11. Binge on food *that's not even vegan*
12. Feel really, really terrible
13. ***how much do I weigh***
14. Consider running up and down 8 flights of hotel stairs
15. Decide better not, you're dizzy enough only after walking up slowly
16. Pick fights with your family because you're dizzy 
17. Pick fights with your family because you feel fat-lazy-tired-sad-fake-guilty
18. Come home, walk past the scale 50 million dread-filled times
19. Step on, hold your breath, *it's okay we can handle damage it's okay no it's not you're fat and gross watch it climb*
20. Relief, exhaustion, elation, shame
21. *Could've been lower*",-0.14847384615384485,1.6114845680000016,1.7666000000000004,90.95999230769232,111.32,4.9630769230769225,15.607692307692304,6.5822867389190165,0.3019261538461535,1002,27,191,19,52,328,146,250,0.151,0.7090000000000001,0.14,-0.7044,1,0,0,0,2,0,72.0,2,11,0,6,6,21,2,1,7,2,13,7,2,5,2,35,20,9,0,3,5,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,10,9,5,4,5,1,0,8,8,11,0,1,1,7,16,10,20,17,5,27,0,5,1,0,16,10,0,3,10,87,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135389141333033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22275880959386396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772914725530663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492667964502524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725365892326827,0.0,0.0,0.07855598819033363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586007330851054,0.0,0.08045293802487842,0.0,0.10262836957445873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.574148015333175,0.0,0.2463588413146549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729053919581994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021666478547791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966672439029506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218320803609416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05950916416106011,0.0,0.21511713141896568,0.0,0.0,0.2725436602438362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24698808862787314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908557450452206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193458335588069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264036098138866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627937841237307,0.08444622814259937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121329184730936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968664936132124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205427712518848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184542755667864,0.0,0.0,0.1483291495717384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ketothrowaway95,2019/07/07,"can we get a moment of appreciation for all the servers/waitresses with EDs I see y’all and this shit is HARD but I believe in you!! 

Some days it sucks so much having to be around food constantly, being on our feet for 6+ hours while restricting, having to perform in a social environment at 100% when our illness is so isolating. 

Hang in there, weekend is almost over 🙏",4.774520547945205,5.772619876712335,5.945095890410961,78.443397260274,69.41095890410958,9.127671232876713,29.668493150684927,9.3871,2.557626849315069,293,11,57,6,5,98,61,73,0.19699999999999998,0.775,0.027999999999999997,-0.9157,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,3,2,0,1,5,2,2,0,3,0,8,4,2,0,1,9,11,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,0,13,9,3,15,0,0,1,0,6,7,2,2,7,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29626576000912824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26338231042706417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333382012812272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31972463340789475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19080825556314726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577607702778286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457709465953726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650366579214557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913671326124449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174945975152067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357658605871419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037008633997268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30159680306573017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hum4n01d,2019/07/07,"I'm mostly recovered and I want to use a food tracker for health purposes but all food trackers make me obsessive! I guess I'm just venting and asking for any suggestions. I used to use MFP and Lose It back in \*those days\* so they make me obsessive about calories. I don't even really care to use them though, they don't have robust data. I've been using Chronometer, especially since I make most of my food, but I STILL get obsessive! It's not about the calories, but about hitting the damn nutrient percentages and making my daily nutrient percentage over 90% or 95% or as high as I can or whatever. It's so annoying, but I still want to use it because I want to get into baking and lose a little weight and blah.",4.509999999999998,5.634988732394369,5.653633802816902,79.82059154929577,70.12676056338029,9.623661971830987,29.69295774647888,9.888512548439397,2.883324507042253,568,22,110,14,10,189,84,142,0.21,0.762,0.027999999999999997,-0.9808,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,3,2,11,8,2,3,4,0,5,6,0,10,1,33,26,18,0,3,9,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,7,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,1,1,16,1,16,24,3,9,0,2,0,0,5,5,1,6,4,71,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063659441684817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085371956415538,0.0,0.0,0.09117858391141488,0.0,0.07228358941882583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089740648023367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647251491996596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831915357688382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301522346939876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390343533877515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306262065245732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604206906065232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528337221728386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884555325214395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653152179034459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3166049336189268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596362102629413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808832439003724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893918858870027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650154351771574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6144760188036613,0.0,0.0,0.20981979823540065,0.0,0.0,0.14439514243277513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,really-the-worst,2019/07/07,i ate a cupcake and now i feel terrible i don’t know why i’m posting this. i’m just sad.,-3.205151515151517,-1.6613481818181803,1.215454545454545,99.4098484848485,99.0,4.751515151515153,20.96969696969697,6.42735559955562,0.17522424242424295,68,3,19,1,3,26,17,22,0.32299999999999995,0.677,0.0,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33419153970972665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632357918241347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6329986085597553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5963962909724957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Imalwaysbadatthis,2019/07/07,"I have $0 and I'm okay with it Well, not exactly ""okay"" with it. But, I haven't had any money for food lately. So I've been eating one meal a day at work, which is a restaurant (my meal is 1/2 off and taken out of my tips at the end of the day.) 

I'm walking everywhere because there's no gas in my car, I can't afford to put any in there.

And yet I still manage to mess up a little. Yesterday I had 16 French fries with 1 oz of ranch dressing, 5 oz of s chocolate milkshake, 1/2 of a 5 layer burrito from Taco Bell (my friend didn't want to eat it), and a big ol' spinach salad with salmon on it. I feel the worst about the fries >.<

Anyway, not much else to say, just wanted to shout this out to the ether and get it off my chest.",2.1317902955939765,2.367150779141106,3.7989068600111535,94.21908533184609,74.95092024539878,6.908867819297267,22.18014500836587,6.574015621080383,0.1835815950920248,559,12,142,4,11,188,103,163,0.067,0.885,0.048,-0.4257,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,0,10,2,9,7,1,0,1,19,16,7,0,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,11,6,0,1,0,1,3,6,2,1,1,5,3,11,4,28,11,2,22,0,0,0,0,2,12,0,0,7,85,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008988507629956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486463027389753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853604126114482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527634086649208,0.18481595889464567,0.0,0.19595119952905932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186457937123688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675218656587009,0.0,0.17092792864026954,0.0,0.11558772282189415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495660984703902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22173859555005426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263538468114205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991659329588147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224052945823633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593733604825204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668095118402136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26098380688873424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19891953003860752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106389765492354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,balencarina,2019/07/07,ED sub for only those with low BMIs? Is there an ED sub for those of us who are only restrictive/have low BMIs? I know a lot of the bigger users complain about high weight issues and feeling shamed and if we had a private space where we could vent so they don't have to see it I think it'd be productive. Plus I think a lot of the issues faced by low weight users are a lot different than ie those who binge and stem from a very different place (perfectionism vs lack of control). Any resources? :),5.173795379537958,5.145910950495053,5.228465346534655,87.55906765676569,68.20792079207921,8.713531353135314,26.73432343234323,8.344100000000001,1.3972561056105604,390,10,86,5,6,122,68,101,0.14800000000000002,0.8079999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.867,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,3,0,1,1,4,5,0,1,8,0,9,3,1,1,0,19,14,6,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,7,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,4,7,0,13,10,4,8,0,3,1,0,7,8,0,4,0,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118374196454857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19523534114887187,0.13898146734644548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637341298368322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801548866838822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18391548679140515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633696361153901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095664826665029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439666204553893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26477756101405314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818670649184161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871198820424313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22307523694058745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20938588699528946,0.0,0.0,0.1436267412546776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239429772816162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PuddingAwayyy,2019/07/07,"I found out I weigh the same as the dude I'm talking to: Fresh Hot Update Time to try out the heartbreak diet I guess :'))))))
Fk i hate long distances :')",0.7534408602150542,2.579243483870968,2.143225806451614,98.1015053763441,81.90322580645163,4.133333333333334,20.010752688172047,3.1291,-0.6346860215053759,112,3,26,0,3,36,23,31,0.2,0.649,0.151,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,5,3,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624814008612094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646597238583631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164396992133873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732793007220997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33902647558512594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459546913293157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28637418549554355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sams_Jam,2019/07/07,"I hate birthdays Forced food, unwanted attention, oh and I’m crying because my father called me selfish and dramatic when I couldn’t handle going out to a birthday dinner...",5.0076344086021525,7.890076645161294,5.949677419354843,70.81118279569894,72.87096774193549,8.004301075268819,32.913978494623656,8.841846274778883,3.649830107526884,140,7,19,3,3,46,28,31,0.413,0.5870000000000001,0.0,-0.93,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26279412249524503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402005692354525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735423211296128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5212869659842607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24500365805235425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256212926555786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smoothies_slave,2019/07/07,"Ate so much :) Peanuts and garlic breadsticks and even more cheesy pizza.
As if my fat ass wasn't fat enough
Good going me :)",1.41,4.02019,1.2966666666666669,100.015,86.5,3.2,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.181566666666666,96,2,20,0,3,28,22,24,0.17600000000000002,0.628,0.196,0.1657,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5896418835649363,0.0,0.3769139860505282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243178848956126,0.4786405497392477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41949902258246496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katebishp,2019/07/07,"back to old habits :( I’ll be talking numbers, just a warning!

I was hospitalized for anorexia in 2015 when I was 15, after a couple of years of dealing with it. I went in at 95 pounds and came out after five months at 130. I stayed at that weight for years, and was healthy. Recently, I got sick. Over the past 2-3 months, I’ve had consistent fevers and daily debilitating nausea that makes me only be able to eat once a day, if that. They don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been to the hospital several times, I’ve done lots of tests, but they still haven’t figured it out. On top of that, I was also in a months long depressive episode. I didn’t mean to drop weight, but last week I went to visit my psychiatrist and I was at 112.

I hate it, but my first thoughts to myself were congratulatory, and then I thought of dropping more. My disordered eating thoughts hit me like a truck and I’ve fallen back into counting calories and restricting. Last night I went out to eat with friends, and I had an awful panic attack at the table about what I was eating. I broke down and told my therapist and my SO about what’s been going on. Now I regret it, because it’s going to be that much harder to lose weight without being scrutinized. I don’t want this to take over my life again, and I know that, but at the same time, I do. It’s just a lot. I thought I was done with this.",3.4198409893992903,4.2979071943462905,4.4804434628975285,88.14271466431099,72.46289752650176,7.497455830388692,25.10406360424028,7.734863291789972,1.0620107420494698,1068,31,237,13,20,349,148,283,0.17300000000000001,0.782,0.045,-0.9895,0,0,0,0,1,0,38.0,0,0,2,3,12,10,2,1,11,1,23,10,0,1,0,43,43,20,0,3,8,0,3,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,17,20,7,1,8,0,0,8,5,8,0,2,25,3,33,2,44,13,5,56,0,4,0,0,7,19,0,3,27,162,50,1,0.09753436671599214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779981978245828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095942265779203,0.0,0.1499958151348727,0.0,0.05945604466880665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11155333207132713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079199216379415,0.0,0.06290159771497601,0.10055364936451712,0.08400620713397647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178283423778017,0.0,0.0,0.19962304071858936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992080265272169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296268250316859,0.0,0.0,0.07535480978031797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086205657012267,0.0,0.07800714299674398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629499452973186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720467440611774,0.1590070532240976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889140764540996,0.04765036492627404,0.0,0.0,0.08631484531612398,0.0,0.10911600803039988,0.0,0.16584046143995254,0.0,0.0,0.06510494714969446,0.0,0.0,0.10624351853310107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335530029417053,0.0,0.0716989819843228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915293960037578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023459108219731,0.10387091737515672,0.0,0.07417928095440232,0.0,0.11443556438793645,0.0,0.0,0.0931075892740481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630342049836788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018607233534244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395865755881917,0.07789107124966901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333370546872077,0.07839442943016726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324491721792475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30972556991205713,0.11374614716538994,0.0,0.0,0.09319826714059104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057528296517397014,0.0,0.07823618579726127,0.3563117482461029,0.0,0.27124600530219223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940196489922236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663851880254052,0.0,0.12561786875054942
EDAnonymous,Sanne4241,2019/07/07,"Guess who's back I thought I was healthy, happy and ""recovered"". 

My bfs ex gf had an eating disorder and he was telling me about how skinny she is and how good she looks.

The first time he saw me naked he told me he thought I was skinnier, and it wouldn't hurt me to lose a few pounds.

I lost 6 kg sofar and I am not good enough, not till I am his ex's level. 

I really want to get skinny 

Does anyone have some tips for me maybe? On how to deal with this.",0.4692555555555558,1.9394237700000008,2.195333333333334,99.11322222222223,81.3,5.6444444444444475,18.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,-0.4391222222222222,347,7,89,3,9,114,69,100,0.075,0.765,0.16,0.8346,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,0,3,0,9,3,2,3,0,17,18,9,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,9,2,16,3,8,8,3,6,0,3,2,0,14,2,0,2,4,54,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549992087620786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000677579638886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452952157245064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384867988441773,0.0,0.18209915224435352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129259044301452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21501045995911988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699948930995565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871735635812924,0.0,0.0,0.3490685706799457,0.0,0.0,0.2292323179839769,0.0,0.0,0.2215134738100027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22276243580421096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474145523933532,0.2327971699346168,0.2271525597304073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905229738373332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330645812667002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18187802508537956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33039714993892155,0.12133774699534422,0.0,0.0,0.19883693717144935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273565411848965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,metaphoric_mayhem,2019/07/07,"BED Struggles Ignore my rant y'all if you want to.
So I work at a movie theater that's a restaurant (we bring food to the seats, serve, etc etc) and yesterday I was training a new server. Every time you train, you and the trainee get a free meal. I explained this to the guy, and he said no, he would never eat here, and then went on to talk about his struggles with overeating.
Immediately, I almost felt relieved that I had someone to talk to, and I briefly opened up about my experiences with binge eating and trying to stay in recovery from that and restriction. 
But as soon as I mentioned binge eating, its almost like the got mad at me. Like I must have been lying or something. 
Yes, I'm not super overweight. But that doesn't mean that me going from having an out of body experience while I eat 5,000+ calories to now rarely binging isnt valid. Just because my experience is different than his, he acted like it didnt count.
Sorry, just a rant. Food is hard. I'm doing much better than I was a year ago. I just wish comments didnt bug me so much.",3.557304502369668,4.91768293838863,4.373030213270141,87.19850266587679,72.69668246445497,6.791587677725119,25.50977488151659,7.1686216300943375,1.027201184834123,824,26,170,8,16,265,135,211,0.128,0.754,0.11800000000000001,-0.507,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,1,4,0,3,10,11,1,2,11,1,15,9,1,0,2,32,28,17,0,5,8,0,2,3,0,2,1,1,1,1,8,12,8,2,3,0,1,4,7,4,0,0,10,3,24,8,26,16,4,23,0,0,0,0,17,8,0,4,13,112,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041224697635656,0.0,0.2352413081393861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160339699921221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388508872047043,0.0,0.13047316805104012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272219311713242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4807694653744291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620010861561576,0.0,0.0,0.0989663201660096,0.0,0.0,0.34469945049916795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278139243832135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840696528634214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061368748712262375,0.0,0.06675603711075911,0.0,0.0939446352323639,0.0,0.0,0.11630528216184398,0.0,0.0,0.10522236878202401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17215716329495714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279499313904072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269533148599447,0.0,0.090593495461979,0.11344498026424772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117327175603108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952468777949644,0.0904275468399066,0.0,0.13148845327405212,0.0,0.12519825478055446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559237880860715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18882209485287169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849270396292664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974860005214555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692817942594272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888792165872092,0.0,0.0,0.1350748466750287,0.0,0.0,0.08551331941224387,0.0,0.0,0.08344122916651216,0.0,0.0,0.07564130927683065
EDAnonymous,shirou1337,2019/07/07,Best place to puke? I started to puke out my food a lot lately because after eating I feel nauseous and really bad. Only problem is that I can't do it always because when my neighbors are sitting outside they tend to look at every second. I can't puke in the bath tub because my vomit can't pass through the holes. The toilet isn't an option as well because I can't puke silently.,4.666538461538462,5.1435351410256445,5.773487179487183,81.45484615384619,69.38461538461539,6.752820512820513,30.98461538461539,5.6839178017228535,1.6290892307692308,303,12,56,1,5,101,54,78,0.23800000000000002,0.6890000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.9332,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,5,0,8,3,0,0,0,6,12,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,5,2,1,1,0,2,9,2,9,12,2,10,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,2,4,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131035715258224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191972089687479,0.5606239922056078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412849615207812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23526371330166565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19371599613485194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625354799501107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780179948279979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25935773923729705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19307337797797136,0.0,0.0,0.1954682279984915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486314831087607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24021557887229603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200006621169972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729148353230273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273728227130818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067240699644944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fcista,2019/07/07,"Thankful for a heartbreak Recently got my heart broken by a guy, whom I once trusted and loved so much. It’s been hurting like hell since the break up, but I’m finding it easier to lose weight because of my lack of appetite. 2019 hasn’t been treating me the best until now bc I’ve been trying to lose but have only been maintaining :/ I’m really bad with bingeing and restricting, and have tried so many diets (you name it, I’ve probably done it this year) which many of them failed 😞 But I’m sooo happy I found this unexpected solution that works.  In the span of the last 3 days I’ve been consuming nothing but eggs and 0 cal liquids and lost 3kg so far. Hoping to make it through the month! Sometimes when life gives you bad cards you can still manage it in different ways because there’s always inevitable moments I guess. Want to get my heart broken a second time if/when this pain ends lol. Anyone else been through this phase?",3.6021261261261266,5.351414329729732,4.081621621621622,87.7663963963964,73.27027027027026,7.095495495495496,25.84684684684685,7.793537801064563,1.3697819819819812,741,25,148,10,15,233,123,185,0.233,0.613,0.155,-0.9626,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,1,6,8,18,1,0,8,1,11,8,2,1,0,19,25,14,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,13,6,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,10,0,1,10,1,11,8,17,15,3,19,1,6,0,1,9,5,1,2,13,81,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139927569484516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361233725964588,0.13717636242480236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356919994409574,0.16322458333776166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404992931356869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634182727339282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987659578539724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370062027646262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183995323118467,0.0,0.11857835828678236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236432381663816,0.0,0.0,0.14679302469842015,0.0,0.0,0.06994701968280241,0.128430345814891,0.0,0.0,0.10707644179779148,0.0,0.14748443114401313,0.13256271361718114,0.0,0.14251824944633718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31729800230406274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297351467469434,0.0,0.0,0.14332181174879216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913045155812898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456373503410538,0.0654072349103296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995560004950352,0.1461463477287147,0.0,0.12083235090732082,0.0,0.08936625309445735,0.2714675657217098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068621135854647,0.0,0.09841754968164504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846192141144336,0.0,0.0,0.14257833079809645,0.0,0.10182213005862316,0.14245825898924466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434579007921972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576725706717059,0.0,0.1321908123253808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074730798228193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324112078048148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691711600796526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232591490511399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806677849479934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179210150357072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896616972663986,0.1062680851902458,0.0,0.16303034443284106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746657641847634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086214633015032
EDAnonymous,mrnmy2811,2019/07/07,"What are people's most fucked up ED moments? I have so many but the one I'm most proud/ashamed of is from when I was in IP.
 I managed to steal an enteral syringe from the nurses and used it to syringe out my NG feeds after each meal. 
I was so proud I was beating the system and no one could figure out how I wasn't gaining weight even when they were constantly increasing my intake. 
It lasted about 2-3 months till I got caught.
Only now, looking back at it can I realise how sad and desperate I was. Like I actually gave myself blisters from repetitively pulling at the syringe.",2.8574358974358987,4.687221282051286,4.101205128205127,86.49796153846155,75.4957264957265,6.731282051282051,27.084615384615393,7.554174236665415,1.4976502564102558,458,18,92,6,10,150,82,117,0.19399999999999998,0.737,0.069,-0.9403,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,3,10,5,1,0,5,0,11,4,0,3,0,14,18,11,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,2,9,2,14,2,15,8,4,22,0,1,1,1,2,6,1,2,12,68,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.26386750386129715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079178436576625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29220203040530673,0.0,0.21588921427520533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859401660174676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499767571682321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162603929608853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204088400932147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210183385533986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706455017378402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741391171270823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21582751806663056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664546729961804,0.20564835260566533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18745854957081384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23353533861476555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292694990572789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitbygod,2019/07/07,I've been having stomach issues lately And the only reason I haven't seen a doctor about it is because the stomach pain makes me not want to eat.,4.4390000000000045,5.158129566666666,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,70.0,6.0,25.0,3.1291,0.6409999999999999,117,3,21,0,2,39,27,30,0.159,0.841,0.0,-0.5457,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,5,2,2,0,5,7,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,14,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21046138689875415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533783258570597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35327726302701873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603516289374246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894573922037079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304572654878189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625784213494201,0.3673706760214725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549748241200909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363758030688991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Asexualmew,2019/07/07,"I galaxy brained and now my food hoarding problem is a cool adult snack party box! I know this probably sounds super simple, and super like, ""so what?"" or obvious to people to do but...

My ED developed due to poverty (and acts and behaves a lot like anorexia now) and, so, from an early age, I would hide food all over my room, and, ironically, with this mindset of, ""I have to steal this food and I have to hide this food and I have to keep this food"" I ended up wasting a lot of it due to it expiring because I wanted to preserve it for so long.

Unfortunately, it would also just start to blend in with the trash and clutter in my room. I wouldn't even recognize it as an option when I looked around my room.

This is... still an issue for me, fifteen years later. 

Well!! I'm REALLY excited, and, I know maybe I shouldn't be because this isn't that big of a deal? But? It occurred to me, ""I'm an adult! I don't have to hide my food anymore! I don't have to worry about somebody taking my food! I CAN KEEP IT ALL IN ONE PLACE!"" And so, I've pulled out a box, and I scowered my room for any Still Viable snacks I've hoarded away, and I put it all in that one box under my desk next to my computer chair! It's all in one place!! Nothing will go to waste!! And nothing is allowed in there but yummy stuff when I need it! 

I'm SO EXCITED about this I just really wanted to find a community that might understand to share this with!!

It's progress! However small lit may be! It's progress!",1.2609536111423123,3.123365100977203,3.1444838818375835,91.37338762214985,80.40065146579805,6.188880152757497,22.31259126137257,7.237678284180719,0.6665447377288563,1134,36,253,15,29,380,142,307,0.052000000000000005,0.8170000000000001,0.131,0.9796,3,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,0,0,4,20,11,0,0,11,1,22,10,1,1,5,50,37,27,0,8,6,0,0,2,0,7,0,1,4,2,26,19,9,2,4,0,0,4,5,2,1,3,0,4,31,9,41,28,6,40,0,0,2,0,4,20,0,6,18,175,57,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145364591876813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060761474837066724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861179016951685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954098119009749,0.0,0.0,0.08394783391320504,0.0,0.0,0.10893459802878712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974482433620367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211654958606864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791381146806441,0.0,0.0,0.059015231406249626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166483354070858,0.0,0.7563017370892354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05078000746762997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093258816797119,0.0,0.15883784489829242,0.0,0.0,0.09820951072586574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730438390382862,0.0,0.0,0.07907247304126484,0.07503200402588839,0.0,0.0,0.15192537701173325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976469148338978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478687112583917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625234087685147,0.0,0.0,0.09502538125581303,0.0,0.0,0.17146862910966612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18163884550788134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06194445868066833,0.0,0.18670472822082854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633506361532072,0.08549646118246304,0.0,0.08982203605051843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448057004146618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324281755683625,0.0,0.14271101590896684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228506489503164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718053455873206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930171301185054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540260273471197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033692377617016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073987577395902,0.0,0.12694421129743208,0.0,0.0,0.05753885964749249
EDAnonymous,bashytr0n,2019/07/07,"Hiiiee im back - and i want to get to know you all This time last year i was nice n snug in a weight loss spiral peppered with cool ED behaviours such as spending hours in the supermarket and crying over a comment my bf made about me buying cookies then throwing them in the trash asap then contemplating taking them back out of the bin and eating them. It wasnt the *funnest* time but i *was* feelin that low weight. 


     
Now in 2019 ive grown a lot thanks to crowdsourcing free therapy via memes and friends whove had therapy  (have you guys heard about *boundaries* ? Im shook) but my fat ass thighs have also grown a lot and I 👏🏽 MISS 👏🏽BEIN👏🏽BONEY👏🏽
       
(And tbh i miss this sub cause it was the only place i felt comfortable posting and people were so funny and supportive. I would read it pretty much every day and was shattered when it got banned)

     
Im not trynna log every day on MFP again or make myself sick but i know even when i ""eat intuitively"" and am at a ""healthy weight"", the disordered thinking is still there. I am hopeful i can find a happy medium. IF has been a huge help.

     
I know this might be a bit silly but id like to do a little aa style intro thing because i am so interested to know everyones experience and perspective about their disorders. (Ill format it like a questionnaire but you dont have to use it) 


**1. do you categorize your ed? (Binge/bp/restrict/orth etc) and have you been diagnosed with other issues?**

     
**2. what do you think your ED stems from?**

     
**3. does your ED help you cope/hold you back, and if so how?**

    
**4. What are your ""pain points""?**
    

**5. What brings you joy?**
     
     
To anyone who read this far, I APPRECIATE YOU. regardless of whether or not you choose to answer!

    
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I'll start:
        
1. Ex-BPer + restricter
    
2. Probably hypercritical mother / family were masive foodies / tendency to internalize negative things and equate success to self-punishment 
    
3. Restricting helps me feel a sense of control over myself and gives me something to focus on when things feel overwhelming and bad. It makes me feel like im existing less when i dont really want to be there.

This is a double edged sword because even when i shrink myself and take up less space in the world, people take that space for themselves and i still end up feeling stifled. I mean this in a literal and figurative sense. Regardless of how much i control my own behaviour, sometimes other people will still suck and that isnt my problem. 


    
4.  My pain points are: fear of being selfish/ungrateful for having wants and needs, fear of being unheard and not valued or respected, loss of my father and personal stagnation.

    
5. Things that make me happy: colours, art, painting my nails, stand-up comedy, preparing a beautiful meal and sharing it with a loved one, having meaningful or hilarious conversations with people i care about, watching my friends and family grow and change into wonderful people.",2.012994214079079,4.7607404845173065,3.3135034286938816,85.68626928640309,84.95628415300547,6.7266795242687225,22.28117968498875,7.928766900206844,1.4720525875924149,2262,78,426,48,68,733,293,549,0.11199999999999999,0.674,0.213,0.9967,0,0,1,0,0,0,105.0,0,15,4,5,28,36,1,4,22,1,39,15,3,10,1,92,78,52,0,11,15,2,8,3,3,3,6,1,0,2,28,32,7,5,19,3,3,6,8,14,1,1,14,12,56,23,46,57,11,56,0,6,2,2,36,25,2,11,27,269,84,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05639239598934464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04930710551260725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626695931395807,0.058878725036196226,0.08597298164411639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698626826588369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189675133536864,0.07244035369942986,0.07459760478083405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818155763291475,0.0,0.0,0.07745958108885237,0.09095522475231901,0.0,0.0,0.07157324088692561,0.0,0.0,0.16163711544528603,0.0,0.061709876262461126,0.0,0.16529072894787947,0.0,0.0,0.1443129312082156,0.0,0.0,0.062457105491783564,0.0,0.0786450626465729,0.09315158816801246,0.0,0.11882717836853048,0.06738198743941362,0.0,0.06897912848750276,0.1329542482469917,0.15870239383801654,0.14262199672928688,0.05037733795592373,0.0677073504068834,0.0,0.0644512336944576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896247327125116,0.0,0.03684220670857118,0.06764630386859567,0.0,0.0,0.05639886331429285,0.0,0.0,0.06982288765241125,0.0,0.15013325312948625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179811707284065,0.0,0.0,0.07003926309693538,0.06944501157454673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046817165029245,0.07360139652355402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501713166796208,0.05748074289279308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335308979840258,0.07067653011134463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990201355177875,0.06364431922043208,0.06672486270256216,0.14121187654058068,0.0,0.0,0.07681365384741771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480736220508666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367617449793164,0.0522874402545653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0477841243378615,0.0536313338314991,0.15007005727551653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444379428333912,0.06157269884630057,0.07367522560627265,0.0,0.13332266081587468,0.0,0.06753576523665733,0.07174111050747417,0.07602922125527181,0.06747521743215491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410721071815783,0.0,0.04517497711875725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356457961687042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054287409190064674,0.0697430871336463,0.0,0.04991227480822258,0.0,0.16894483166742655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002182268309332,0.0,0.0,0.15905995805667286,0.0,0.0,0.06492255236403151,0.16128460321400456,0.0,0.18739336777252105,0.09036885494436914,0.0,0.0,0.08223802539180337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090402158833357,0.0,0.0,0.12477820904647965,0.0,0.0,0.2576120187794529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647264666836501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05009323275244877,0.0,0.0,0.04541061713919412
EDAnonymous,MarieSage,2019/07/07,"In recovery- why do I fart so much? I know this sounds like a shitpost but I promise it's not. I've been in recovery for a few months now and still have gastrointestinal issues: bloating, cramps, and lots of gas. Does anyone else have this issue? Does anyone know how to get beyond this? For context, I have struggled primarily with bulimia for the better part of the last 10 years. Any help would be greatly appreciated!",3.420664556962027,6.062132632911396,4.24352848101266,82.22706487341775,77.10126582278481,6.987974683544303,25.064873417721518,8.07648339933343,1.6909101265822786,334,12,61,6,8,107,61,79,0.036000000000000004,0.757,0.207,0.9405,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,4,0,7,1,0,1,0,10,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,4,10,7,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193595542238838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918821049257169,0.21385709716631734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18459483564910725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653024932397872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435779257048858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904696932023886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301132367823563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989982598330056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356964441417952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294128108940745,0.1701336962879777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019694730516445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744527759481146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659737147478668,0.0,0.15343234878878045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22602214343383814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668311990990453,0.0,0.0,0.21819822922245288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18833627164286196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482678618660764,0.0,0.0,0.13440807748464145
EDAnonymous,LeLennyfacedgod,2019/07/07,"I'm thinking of fasting until i can barely walk. How do i reduce the harm? I know i need to get my sodium and potassium, I'll also supplement with fish oil and multivitamins.

How do i not get gall bladder stones? Thanks.",0.7555303030303051,3.2830719772727264,3.360909090909089,84.0280303030303,90.5909090909091,5.660606060606061,20.96969696969697,7.1686216300943375,0.9865878787878786,173,6,33,3,6,60,34,44,0.092,0.838,0.069,-0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,2,0,9,10,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,4,10,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080203758166596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5331346811363236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804019372272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783194639786187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697392928570394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269264721744553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ladeda1312,2019/07/07,"Wanting to give into my binging I've arrived at a really intense self-destructive, YOLO mindset and that involves wanting to give into binge-eating and not giving a shit how much I gain. EVEN THOUGH I know that it will only lead me further down my miserable, anxiety-ridden brick road with a huge sampling of depression and panic attacks, woooo. My clothes are fitting tighter and it's causing me to not want to leave the house. I've been having a difficult time doing anything at all - showering, brushing my teeth (gross, I know), doing my skincare routine, cleaning the house, etc. all because I feel like a piece of shit because of my binge-eating and gaining weight because of it. I hate how big of an effect it has on other areas of my life. And instead of losing the weight in a healthy manner, my mind is like, ""JuSt DoN't EaT FoR A wEeKKK. OnLy EaT 30o CaLoRiEs FoR a MoNtH!"" Surrrrre, Brain, good idea.",6.022309725158564,6.817760459302328,6.081437632135309,79.31176532769558,66.5,7.882452431289643,34.822410147991555,7.686295010490155,2.6578883720930238,717,33,124,7,11,227,110,172,0.134,0.7,0.166,0.602,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,5,6,13,4,2,12,0,9,9,4,5,2,27,19,9,0,3,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,7,9,4,0,5,0,0,1,3,10,0,0,1,5,15,3,21,17,5,16,0,3,0,0,4,13,2,0,4,83,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753897166346672,0.0,0.0,0.14866801024620802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23898498152649916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588273106188127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424493958884795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11255498058471604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674376882851822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574337568472467,0.08631328180772327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607602102001706,0.0933582229402227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760821218762196,0.0,0.1096086592252614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902000470529115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015756568567652,0.0,0.14752245327712654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363724369947306,0.0,0.0,0.13837185131922075,0.0,0.0,0.09230354892247873,0.1276878478890929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619812730928644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13195011949465324,0.0,0.1043079815506225,0.0,0.09606525280112783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987769192887196,0.0,0.15332548828615966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371731727592167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13632833140934114,0.0,0.26828344751299577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283929932517464,0.0,0.07620088933052571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312363521160049,0.0,0.0,0.3182674493087225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,I-Can-Do-Both,2019/07/07,most of my family went to the beach today and i stayed home because the thought of me putting on a swimsuit literally made me burst into tears (:,1.4146428571428549,4.12182975,2.732857142857142,87.93714285714289,90.78571428571428,5.6571428571428575,24.857142857142854,7.1686216300943375,1.4243285714285716,115,5,22,2,4,37,25,28,0.063,0.831,0.106,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,5,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21973035190655552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398054039316003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615662969440969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3410717479414988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623573767652426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841976461161542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861614359411807,0.0,0.0,0.3416697055040807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341458973616493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sundaeys,2019/07/07,"telling a man abt ur eating disorder, then having him comfort u by saying “don’t starve urself, i prefer thick girls anyway” my anorexia is cured",5.555555555555557,7.2691277037037025,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,68.25925925925927,6.881481481481483,28.314814814814817,7.1686216300943375,1.840348148148148,116,4,18,1,2,37,27,27,0.19899999999999998,0.7120000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5912917254136464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5279173775065983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102821706637905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509388854593458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CS191,2019/07/07,"what’s the point What’s the point of living like this? All my friends are out there, being happy, getting jobs, internships, or in love and in happy relationships, and I’m stuck in this cycle of wanting to do things, restricting and being completely unable to function like a human and being miserable and useless, or eating and having energy to do things but spending all that energy worrying about how I’m so fat, how I look like shit, how I’m weak and will never lose weight or accomplish anything else in my life. I’m spending all my time being miserable or daydreaming and planning for a future that I’m doing nothing to achieve. I just want this to be over. I want my life back. I miss having real goals and dreams, and hope that my future could be what I wanted it to be.",6.164312865497081,6.35355388157895,6.755877192982457,76.70725146198832,66.10526315789474,9.65029239766082,30.046783625730995,9.444778638647367,2.6247432748537998,618,20,113,11,9,203,83,152,0.14400000000000002,0.6459999999999999,0.21100000000000002,0.8333,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,8,15,1,2,4,0,15,8,2,3,4,32,30,19,0,6,6,0,1,3,1,1,4,0,0,1,12,11,3,1,0,1,2,0,1,7,0,0,1,2,10,8,16,20,3,13,0,5,1,1,4,8,1,5,8,83,22,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245829076866353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377010368779567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687659508352868,0.0,0.0,0.12851533069915114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470465789944075,0.13446338065993166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435910443898388,0.0,0.08409617906576411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34269480758235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15987192237493605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973028534712638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22738492163407595,0.2359142061016773,0.0,0.14213269500314274,0.0,0.1351678260241336,0.18007568565532706,0.0,0.0,0.14527479605164184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414407946111138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444770620877482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304322877459116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832103818241691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728133144625971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522552870555454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21387245254595785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385843475758736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797590335990691,0.0,0.0,0.19600876635989506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346506935672594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DONT_PM_ME_BEES,2019/07/07,"saw a post on another sub validating the fact that it's okay to eat out of boredom or for the taste of food and it made me feel better about my snacking today until I saw it was on a thinly veiled anti fat person sub with the title ""please don't encourage this"" 

guess i'm a fat piece of shit and i'll go back to hating myself lol",4.578333333333333,3.7882535000000033,6.18,82.81500000000003,69.55555555555556,8.866666666666667,24.94444444444445,8.07648339933343,1.207377777777778,260,5,58,3,4,90,56,72,0.17600000000000002,0.6709999999999999,0.153,-0.4408,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,6,2,2,7,3,1,1,9,10,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,4,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,5,4,3,12,6,1,9,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,2,3,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855877020090876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20942399099097053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408756433517979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786869022838553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771074474496006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293324443044702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478548061827924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30002946223605553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688939294571238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577086493387502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378096621428108,0.0,0.2989637284701415,0.0,0.0,0.2608405643153098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795682366267771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581604570206967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rudeen_is_tHiCc,2019/07/07,"Guess who gained like 5lbs in 2 days! fml me.. the thing is, I didn’t even eat 2,000 calories today, I saved my calories since I knew my family was gonna have pizza tonight. 1 slice 2 garlic knots and a cup of sprite made me gain maybe 3 pounds. Thought I could ignore my restrictions tonight, guess what? Never doing that again.",1.8354725274725288,4.260899800000002,2.009890109890112,97.19153846153843,81.76923076923076,4.945054945054945,18.516483516483518,6.1826913282559595,-0.29673626373626405,257,6,55,2,7,77,55,65,0.04,0.777,0.184,0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,1,1,11,12,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,9,2,2,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,7,27,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592982148992826,0.0,0.0,0.17441585946176974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767346680377086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786276088569445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549532425458749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5958554417376866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321266812640011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559033702006051,0.0,0.0,0.2717002342849616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085853008449388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237164479232591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796728851282754,0.0,0.0,0.21470460781569392,0.0,0.0,0.2563520129170575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheLadyInBlackk,2019/07/07,"Can you ever truly recover from anorexia? I went through a really dark time with anorexia when I was a teenager. Took multiple relapses and years of recovery but I did it and it’s something I’ve been fucking proud of. 

However Ive been really struggling this year. Ive been really stressed and stress has kind of always triggered eating issues for me but so far Ive been able to bounce back to normal eating. 

But now I cant. I noticed food becoming an issue but I kind of let it happen and now Im at the honeymoon phase with anorexia once again. Im fasting, exercising too much and not eating enough. And Im obsessed with seeing my weight drop. It feels like a perfect escape from my chaotic life and right now Im not even afraid what might happen if I let the disorder take full control. I mean I realize everything goes to shit but I wouldnt really let it get that bad again.. right?

Im not even sure why I posted this. I guess I just need someone to talk to.",1.618087912087912,3.9895220615384592,3.462197802197803,86.77923076923076,82.23076923076924,6.791208791208793,23.64468864468865,7.957251820313856,1.4962380952380951,762,28,151,15,21,255,117,195,0.179,0.7390000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9678,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,3,13,14,2,5,6,0,17,9,1,2,3,33,29,15,0,4,10,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,10,5,1,3,1,0,2,5,8,0,0,8,3,20,6,17,16,3,21,0,0,1,1,2,5,2,3,13,98,29,0,0.09475906174793153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078847130364446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286386935634978,0.07911985847086936,0.0,0.10465393885921144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628034527687194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860209430323624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908865303815001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791144147948988,0.0,0.12517493318102582,0.08571499640967163,0.0,0.0,0.08516333459946725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0479130288109877,0.06769589264647807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458303360116405,0.0,0.0,0.08760322565878427,0.049507698727251206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043877897464307,0.0,0.1675902507141772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5117802371220105,0.19780768257539488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973539617863587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906926822803492,0.06693112767094997,0.04629449110494838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032203978143523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052438986419822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965881350211586,0.07026264359837958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284376125914673,0.0,0.1078838198588525,0.0,0.10091530816032784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907529873305047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24282032560070144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184744195603296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551070371601895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726881515994436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028904551424422,0.0729501552424508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21709237014961089,0.09906274573703333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930929426999344,0.0,0.07124702152370402,0.07616374442352387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05525477093740748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528080424000424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539100896911465,0.0,0.08784259959074786,0.08550531439829775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204345793558255
EDAnonymous,jaceisme11111,2019/07/07,Group chats? Any body have any group chats for motivation or just discussion? Or even want to like start one?,2.391833333333332,5.338455850000003,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,90.5,6.666666666666668,16.666666666666668,7.793537801064563,0.5286666666666675,87,2,18,2,3,25,16,20,0.0,0.716,0.284,0.6946,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,5,3,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,8,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6042306186973359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4934780582081078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934327209863204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704534839985265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30104533696446856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144529233613864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620388989630517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nnneow,2019/10/22,"Purging is so, so exhausting... I need to get up and take a shower but I am so sluggish. Halp.",-2.6804999999999986,-1.4327740499999972,1.1099999999999994,96.01000000000002,114.5,4.0,20.0,5.985473137389443,0.25800000000000045,69,3,16,1,4,25,17,20,0.228,0.772,0.0,-0.6943,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434495352054117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6293553820318095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6381726356039558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,need2bskinnyplz,2019/10/22,"Hate my job. Hate talking to people. Hate feeling gross. I’m back after not posting for a while but I was busy with life and stuff.
I hate my job. Hate being the new girl. Hate being foreign and that it makes me be different. Hate looking huge in my uniform. Hate that my boobs are big so that makes me look even fatter.
I hate that I live in a small town where i’m almost the only foreign person and people are ignorant as shit.

I needed to vent today, you can vent away too!",0.3879251700680264,2.7157027244897947,2.0439795918367345,94.95399659863949,88.08163265306123,4.082993197278912,17.35034013605442,5.46131890053228,-0.5261659863945578,369,9,78,2,12,120,63,98,0.374,0.593,0.033,-0.9932,3,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,5,12,10,0,4,0,7,3,2,2,0,12,24,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,12,0,0,1,3,12,0,9,20,0,14,0,0,2,1,4,8,2,1,5,49,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885518592474317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275197132753367,0.07591063532522818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314281376549757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652045299577313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049916487959352114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8772021787590081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593144192503334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697298190367515,0.0,0.0,0.0871727732037065,0.0,0.1658021645502369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179455430819426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320064062338,0.0,0.09534570866785093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508204599113676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688192744530542,0.08619968731527501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454777775016196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133606163587718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130123430723394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934849300497873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935763100280965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lily__gladys,2019/10/22,"Is “starvation mode” a real thing? I feel like I’ve seen so many posts and sites talking about how cutting calories too drastically can cause your body to hold onto the fat longer, in order to keep it from “starving”. Has anyone had experience with this? I barely eat any calories and I feel like I’m not losing weight quickly enough, and it’s frustrating. Is my body in “starvation mode”?",5.6778082191780825,6.900262534246579,5.783452054794522,79.60230136986304,67.49315068493149,8.579726027397259,29.668493150684927,8.841846274778883,2.337352876712329,307,11,56,5,5,97,57,73,0.10300000000000001,0.8009999999999999,0.096,-0.1421,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,5,5,2,0,2,0,5,5,3,2,0,12,10,5,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,3,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,5,2,8,8,1,7,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536463815189568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946648451153435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4748800020890963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195911703123085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21873060964541605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22087199353627066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20909902807132544,0.0,0.0,0.2161677129850129,0.3054214407858982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000037367741626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20886540705743828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23914359805023905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21671984641718234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20472370673104015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433065283086085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718127913532418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420131419728856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603030024076285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xdnshdjjskl,2019/10/22,I’m going to recover Psychiatrist said I need sufficient sleep and food for my anti depressants to actually make a difference. So I’m going to eat lunch and try to not feel guilty about it. I don’t know. I don’t know.,1.1773333333333331,3.5164809555555583,4.177777777777782,81.14000000000001,83.8888888888889,8.933333333333335,22.333333333333336,9.3871,2.3231333333333333,173,6,36,6,5,62,32,45,0.11900000000000001,0.825,0.057,-0.3753,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,0,8,12,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,6,11,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.2888553436966506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25494616873874715,0.0,0.0,0.3092591860768001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028840378739893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966755195586415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35792690548567346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364496213473213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32535001809015485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197583695396242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948180113600416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815657739906117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29621586190892363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009659908811372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strongbutstarving,2019/10/22,Im so fucking freezing. THATS it. That’s the post - I’m freezing my ass off sitting in school.,-1.7385000000000022,-0.2568038499999989,0.5200000000000031,100.24000000000002,112.5,2.0,25.0,3.1291,-0.060999999999999936,73,4,16,0,4,24,18,20,0.34700000000000003,0.653,0.0,-0.7538,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,8,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643989981157211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5426061143013536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810963988523981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5083880705555106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FertilizingMushrooms,2019/10/22,"My dad always finds a way to make some sort of annoyed comment Specifically, at what I eat. 

Vegetables?  I’m obviously getting carried away on some sort of health kick, the kitchen is a mess because I boiled water to cook my broccoli
A bowl of applesauce? I am eating way too much sugar
I didn’t add oil to the pan? My diet lacks healthy fats and I’m stupid and deserve to be harassed all day about it
I added oil? That’s the wrong type of oil
A bagel? I need a rant about how I have to eat more protein when I’m just trying to make breakfast 
God forbid, some of the junk food he buys? I get the healthy eating rant.

So in my ed brain the only conclusion is if I get thin enough he’ll be grateful I’m eating in the first place. But logically he’ll just get mad at me for “being stupid and getting carried away with vanity.” And now my life is a state of perpetual confusion and uncertainty tracing back to my childhood issues with food influenced by aforementioned factors.

Maybe I’m just being oversensitive though.",3.3045428072219,5.170365039603958,4.407483983692488,84.62688701223064,74.34653465346534,7.327198602213162,27.22888759464182,8.124751697461798,1.7573729761211418,806,31,160,13,17,263,122,202,0.17600000000000002,0.774,0.05,-0.9752,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,12,9,5,1,13,0,10,19,2,4,2,31,25,11,0,3,5,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,3,8,16,1,3,1,1,0,1,9,0,1,1,5,16,0,26,18,8,18,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,7,6,94,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590060766997658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391527112467433,0.09786441188610076,0.0,0.07758390911579133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14207778843642666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207999485235043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6511558122666246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315061322155219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632442103847004,0.10825760871215503,0.3077959294382717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324721746577459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352843226158482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283903732259406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989606926248457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991027004190634,0.0,0.12786196106427036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935596596267511,0.0943706716931152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679618992315003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329722872979748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250442214726792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640942186898372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20204538543678568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915209457852698,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,simplyskyla,2019/10/22,"Midterms and Restricting? Hey guys, 
Sooo this week and next I have midterms in pretty much every single one of my classes, and I’ve been restricting more than usual since my weight loss has kind of plateaued over the last couple of days. Tiredness, fatigue and brain fog have been a problem for me for a while now, but it’s gotten much worse lately to wear I can barely focus enough to study and all I wanna do is sleep. I’ve already had a monster and 2 cups of tea and I can barely keep my eyes open. 
How do ya’ll manage to study (and study well- I can’t let myself get less than an A!) and successfully restrict at the same time? Any secrets, tips or tricks you wanna share? 
Much appreciated 💗",4.940144927536236,5.618564318840583,5.011739130434787,86.44123188405798,68.85507246376811,7.292753623188408,26.20289855072464,6.937597516519254,1.0054724637681156,548,15,112,4,9,171,98,138,0.128,0.76,0.11199999999999999,0.4993,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,4,8,1,0,7,0,13,7,4,1,1,23,16,13,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,10,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,4,2,11,4,16,11,9,13,0,2,1,0,5,4,0,1,9,75,13,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082830368902344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283519852657255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21070005719681492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088409837356858,0.0,0.1217238795763133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950223879782631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902445614874175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861063715540808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868856416201833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677638074346766,0.0,0.1965472079818628,0.0,0.1538510634192233,0.21291077790740065,0.0,0.0,0.1930029157283448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162443514559283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007307486778716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12789741353287432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192019893741401,0.0,0.18060194482423664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613049209106045,0.0,0.18887970966653106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005779521346784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078741912184555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513985718081141,0.2298386151846404,0.1697029850651744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923456508665174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowaway97,2019/10/22,I think maybe I should stop counting calories But I’m scared I will gain weight because I have no sense of how a normal person eats :/,3.81111111111111,5.091405111111111,3.660185185185188,92.86583333333336,71.96296296296295,5.4,24.61111111111111,3.1291,0.1588666666666665,106,3,22,0,2,32,23,27,0.322,0.565,0.113,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,6,5,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904088131347987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676786710460962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609897587937744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35206172018257675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137482953882442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35974651120716555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004113731906729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23024063201906275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375604408989558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbitch1312,2019/10/22,one friend said they didnt notice my relapse currently relapsing and have been talking to my friend abt it. she keeps saying she didnt realize how severe my eating problems were which is RLLY frustrating bc i also relapsed last summer and was underweight so how could she not know? i know this is dumb bc plenty of people noticed and my coworkers that summer all knew simply bc it was obvious due to how much weight i lost. but my dumb brain is telling me she didnt notice bc i wasnt skinny enough and so this relapse i need to lose even more weight than the last. like wow it rlly takes just one person to say something dumb doesnt it,2.7758398950131244,5.015547574803152,3.682381889763782,87.51181430446195,77.18897637795277,6.438057742782153,22.394356955380573,7.492282038375204,0.9696514435695542,510,15,98,7,12,163,79,127,0.14400000000000002,0.754,0.102,-0.7011,1,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,8,11,4,0,1,0,14,5,2,3,2,20,22,11,0,3,3,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,1,8,4,4,1,4,0,0,0,6,7,0,2,11,5,16,4,6,10,4,6,0,2,0,0,13,0,3,0,7,65,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952994543536033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668563340199614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11933847481025027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15294364151679474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444096761433376,0.0,0.09872256760506803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23095806191805546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13285451490709907,0.0,0.0,0.16428801228199874,0.24367363510703635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07302278358305146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721707487820156,0.1631625788229417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098765823234946,0.11082903591760453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5105128045455817,0.0,0.0,0.20256751551610874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362267272604507,0.13051017259129788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430212161836233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421788190057576,0.2377267803803291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885691697134542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506819216444718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238174801118704,0.12013715872382365,0.13064210079505315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640248536820373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hahrrr,2019/10/22,"Guys like underweight girls I've been at lots of different weights in the course of my ed, ranging from a BMI of 17, to BMIs at the upper end of the healthy range. The difference in reaction from men has been startling. I got hit on so much more when I was underweight, and friends have had similar experiences. 

It's honestly depressing as fuck.",4.795000000000002,6.457114560606063,5.291333333333334,80.63700000000003,70.06060606060606,10.734545454545453,34.41212121212121,10.793553405168565,4.046433939393939,275,14,54,9,5,88,53,66,0.084,0.743,0.17300000000000001,0.6705,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,5,0,6,2,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,3,3,3,13,3,3,8,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,1,3,34,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397508724536805,0.0,0.0,0.5816534529076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24654414539598746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27228927996589003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150600771631004,0.2573391331383532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22262974640982466,0.0,0.0,0.2756199479594582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599252904717696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23665153251674675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20462646834378534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33896722405785423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,figglygiggly,2019/10/22,"I feel like such a catfish! I look drastically different across all forms of media!! Instagram me looks one way, DSLR me looks another way, video me looks yet another way, and don’t even get me started on mirror me, I don’t know her at all... 
People must regard me with so much disgust when they see the difference between me on social media and me in real life. I don’t edit my pictures or anything, but I think I look a lot thinner online even to the undisordered eye. 
Seriously, what is the truth? All I can dream about is the day I get to my GW and all my different perceptions of my face and body converge into a single, authentic entity that somehow makes sense and feels honest.",4.924742951907135,5.819153597014928,6.155472636815922,77.4496434494196,69.0,9.53764510779436,29.81426202321725,9.725611199111238,2.818377446102819,538,20,101,12,9,181,87,134,0.035,0.8690000000000001,0.095,0.8354,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,8,5,1,0,7,0,7,4,3,1,6,24,21,9,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,9,22,3,13,20,8,13,0,0,7,0,3,6,0,3,5,74,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914194006943163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435068926500835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435114073554326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961648894186988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355449657002335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18356104981783286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052279709672935,0.0992717056582893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519976039127205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763677463485577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815022663525813,0.06788791631082547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5834490986791842,0.0,0.0,0.11813722082300665,0.0,0.0,0.09275562129183416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215020380335407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416161549777756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633606100387768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816475752875575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073162728635523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165029960089168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835526954267916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890387496910123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33089545294786976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waterueatin,2019/10/22,"I walk everywhere and wear down my shoes too quickly. Need brands with sturdy soles. I sound like an old woman but the soles of my shoes always get destroyed way too quickly and I need shoe brands with strong/tough soles. No Birkenstocks please, they break faster than the speed of sound.",4.3984905660377365,7.035218283018872,2.347773584905664,97.10996226415094,73.71698113207547,4.994716981132076,20.033962264150947,5.6839178017228535,-0.2904158490566036,231,5,45,1,5,62,38,53,0.125,0.792,0.083,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,3,0,0,4,4,0,0,7,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,6,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304794391396567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20750630280204527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403848161502668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5889969347402572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4167658561719108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359762713118139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152571412431795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitty-angel,2019/10/22,"(TW food discussion) advice on what to eat with my antibiotics So I have strep throat and need to take antibiotics once a day for ten days. 

I’ve tried eating small amounts of frozen fruit and salad with them but my stomach still ends up hurting, the pills need more to work with I guess.

I’ve heard the whole glass of milk thing but milk makes me bloated. What’s a good lower cal but maybe higher volume food that will calm the antibiotics?? I’",1.9765517241379345,4.5881011954023005,1.9087471264367828,96.8734655172414,83.02298850574712,5.319080459770115,17.895402298850573,6.742157984588678,-0.11944045977011575,352,8,74,4,10,104,64,87,0.071,0.8490000000000001,0.08,0.2047,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,5,0,2,11,2,1,0,12,8,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,5,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,6,2,11,6,3,7,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19476461609008636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570784948030534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40789026948865575,0.0,0.0,0.17653058098978378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48201583338812704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717279391828796,0.0,0.0,0.21956377785087375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21336678178097954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304178610308115,0.0,0.20023490834824267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29557348628079805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21225994301143164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159170196647444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985723181194052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241351734938805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531923430818946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222523857770676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451009409375225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnyvogue,2019/10/22,"i need fast advice... please i binged today and i feel horrible about it. it was definitely over 1,000 calories. i’m going to fast for two days because i feel so guilty and sick. i have never done a 24+ hour fast because i hear the usually end in binges, so please leave some advice for me. what should i avoid? what can i do instead of eating? how do i stay focused? any other advice? thank you! 

* if you are planning to tell me to be careful and not do this, i really appreciate it... but i’m doing it regardless and it can go very well or very bad and hurt me even more. so please, just some advice.",0.3229268292682903,2.628481455284554,2.3819837398373984,92.5900487804878,88.10569105691056,5.231219512195122,17.956097560975607,6.742157984588678,0.04677170731707303,461,12,100,6,15,154,80,123,0.16,0.7040000000000001,0.136,-0.7953,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,1,9,6,0,1,2,0,12,2,0,1,1,20,22,12,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,9,5,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,2,3,15,3,9,18,3,14,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,4,9,69,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459385230498017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498089279924714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166192339542605,0.1702839736073924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240362812503451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007607270904903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293165979381808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291803598710576,0.0,0.0,0.12370681927936646,0.0,0.0,0.092251206586913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124344568748326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875620065382762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741907508187908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375475444957358,0.0,0.1495204160435363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789114693030753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356408404169656,0.10772268521295704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599495909658712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947665259823474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14887042519070767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207838310694487,0.1285900521520166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239153036819631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643801815052375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382758771494193,0.23048597621388126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558076915458344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SomeBodyOnceToldYa,2019/10/22,Music that triggers? I may just be a weirdo but is there anyone else that got a special song that triggers them? Mine is Riptide and I just feel like I'm being very weird,1.1121428571428569,3.4972178571428607,1.9825000000000017,96.43375000000002,84.71428571428572,3.5,20.17857142857143,3.1291,-0.5457142857142858,135,4,28,0,4,42,27,35,0.11699999999999999,0.6920000000000001,0.191,0.5818,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,2,0,8,8,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273775627005953,0.4797280412538564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911224991618408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367368819935487,0.3344834368981077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744637252372532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22873973425679636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863154929882094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mariah-xo,2019/10/22,complete loss of appetite? I am pretty deep into my ED and I feel as if I am completely losing the feeling of needing to eat? Is this normal? I am worried if I continue on like this my appetite will diminish fully. I am coming up on a year without having a period and my weight is dangerously low. I am confused and need help.,1.482012987012986,3.77875728787879,4.535627705627707,79.33772727272729,82.18181818181819,6.8017316017316025,27.61038961038961,7.957251820313856,2.2464571428571425,255,12,46,5,7,92,45,66,0.21100000000000002,0.648,0.14,-0.6333,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,3,0,9,2,0,0,0,14,14,6,0,5,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,3,10,1,9,13,0,10,0,3,0,0,1,6,0,3,4,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769958492037074,0.505609861909287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467212696761004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24383040259934166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161458384911034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779681523350673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697464805749582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35756805823885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362419184138845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453010651809117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936136252654433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324266611135507,0.0,0.0,0.2448644135128627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527042550597767
EDAnonymous,JSS-,2019/10/22,"MFP calorie adjustment?? I’ve switched my tracking app back to mfp and what does this calorie adjustment for pacer mean? 



(hope this doesn’t break any rules?? not asking for advice I’m just dumb and don’t understand what it meansss)",2.0149169435215946,4.816436139534886,1.8987375415282381,92.39069767441865,94.58139534883722,5.247840531561463,24.74750830564784,6.868970318607317,1.329527574750831,186,8,34,3,7,55,33,43,0.10099999999999999,0.899,0.0,-0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718690298896642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587870316679463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557628548529669,0.0,0.0,0.29261943975639576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33302184638520743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37797198971519214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145304833064825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961659433413648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tiny_Buttercups98,2019/10/22,"Am I the only one left with no friends I dont mean ""oH I HaVe No FrIeNdS"" 

I mean actually have no friends because you pushed them all away because hanging out would mean eating and they already started getting suspicious.",3.78142857142857,6.300728333333336,3.957380952380952,85.39178571428572,75.19047619047619,6.104761904761905,36.69047619047619,7.1686216300943375,2.7075047619047607,178,11,32,2,4,55,31,42,0.188,0.62,0.192,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,1,8,10,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,7,3,3,9,1,6,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.18953956882137946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21433662481985827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248461874126864,0.0,0.0,0.2368004945734473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22763504076947486,0.0,0.0,0.1987448430305081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45018272718608415,0.0,0.10147668026544343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211030468873802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6347172404590057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161465450627505,0.14771997124054348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13747634586873472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379747690927557,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ajago12598,2019/10/22,"i wanted to buy a meal replacement shake but i was so shocked bc they all had ~400 calories. then i remembered that 400 cal/meal is rather low for normal people.

i got soylent bridge so we’re all good",0.2522764227642291,2.6716991463414668,1.4652439024390242,96.7284349593496,94.1219512195122,4.684552845528454,19.028455284552845,6.42735559955562,0.08143577235772392,159,5,34,2,6,50,35,41,0.18899999999999997,0.71,0.10099999999999999,-0.4101,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,7,5,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,2,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991830585223667,0.38064045938363866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663051579182975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299462626840363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.539129909471275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807127190243871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slug_Queen69,2019/10/22,Is anyone else out there ? When I was younger it was no problem for me to skip days of eating and I don’t remember ever batting a eye lash at it but now it seems so hard I can’t go even a couple hours any more and I know this is good I tell myself how normal people eat 3 times a day. I can’t do it anymore I need to get back to being small I’ve let myself go and the fat is creating rolls on my body and soon I’ll be closer to 200 on the scale rather then 100. If anyone could help me with tips that would be lovely,-0.1002619414483803,1.372758033898304,2.293636363636363,97.72478428351313,83.0677966101695,4.968875192604006,15.812018489984592,5.565023196281405,-0.8928406779661016,400,6,101,2,11,137,85,118,0.049,0.818,0.133,0.9127,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,5,0,15,6,3,1,1,19,22,10,0,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,2,12,2,11,14,1,18,0,0,1,1,3,6,0,2,10,68,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580002488501835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834610736214544,0.2586996082414425,0.18954484130042296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422464354799207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548297316222786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770002732315762,0.20468869956759905,0.0,0.2386074052239886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785833540583093,0.15453599885237054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221846177929232,0.16733468609552302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966500095997384,0.0,0.21026896467602785,0.15516142885248252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571533828353538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399537198122025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182178583612702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166605506522804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18916553219835885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696133628153495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716826580243333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812516163679615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824926426511432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17701112379473766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20955841011971565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840859258838464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169003238615798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786956935633536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141209115684555,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Allison2664,2019/10/22,🍂🍁🍲 ITS SOUP SEASON 🍲🍁🍂 🙌🏼 All hail soup 🙌🏼,-10.087916666666667,-14.401350625,-2.0125,114.24083333333334,180.25,1.0666666666666669,2.6666666666666665,3.1291,-3.4947583333333334,34,0,15,0,6,17,10,16,0.0,0.8740000000000001,0.126,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SKJK_199,2019/10/22,"Kg or lbs? I’m always looking for new ways to make myself less triggered and I heard that many people prefer weighting themselves in kg because it doesn’t change as much as lbs, is this true? Which one do guys prefer? I HAVE to know my weight so not weighting myself is not an option, that would trigger me more.",2.5006989247311817,4.760478532258071,2.90451612903226,92.64344086021508,78.19354838709677,4.133333333333334,21.623655913978496,3.1291,-0.2145247311827956,247,7,48,0,6,76,50,62,0.0,0.938,0.062,0.5845,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,1,13,11,5,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,5,6,1,6,9,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527161997566035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840584897440896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22283207096367932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085694132132316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576373191172568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768868357993929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406056534328545,0.2135586596865766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484663844663732,0.0,0.0,0.20344005470684676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273696074659115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603314190500752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719838909929055,0.0,0.7695182682930902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963454695748704,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Miserablesouls27,2019/10/22,I hate forced recovery (tw suicidal thoughts + ED) My parents are forcing me to eat like 1600cal (ew) and I got my period back... Kill me now,-0.6310714285714276,1.385183750000003,2.186857142857143,89.35814285714287,104.35714285714286,6.525714285714287,27.028571428571425,7.554174236665415,2.344534285714285,107,6,22,3,5,37,25,28,0.414,0.521,0.065,-0.9371,1,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27576455584741144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366968318506125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868294041681081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35407316361383845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39677128004754586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520864442845427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982164956709244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922833288729649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28471239062431497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,killlandria,2019/10/22,Idk anymore I know I keep writing in here a lot lately but fuck I keep binge eating badly the past two weeks and I can’t handle it anymore. I was semi happy with my body a week and a half ago now I feel like I want to hide and I’m scared I’m losing control it’s starting to get really hot and if I keep binge eating im just going to throw myself off a bridge,-0.7340785907859058,1.1010571097560984,2.2096747967479686,95.44819783197832,87.65853658536585,4.132249322493226,15.208672086720867,5.033348758259628,-0.9567441734417343,281,5,66,1,9,99,57,82,0.228,0.6579999999999999,0.115,-0.8641,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,1,5,0,2,4,1,1,0,17,14,6,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,4,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,2,1,2,10,2,6,13,1,11,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,2,8,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515503455481186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391031024169155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274881132649192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18990380988649874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917520234345271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34988018807048266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644514843689538,0.12213758206517138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805458418207513,0.08932226727158772,0.0,0.09716347023395966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199564793257986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846717674209572,0.0,0.0,0.4558852090945304,0.0,0.0,0.09395800973628493,0.0,0.19285620657003846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835249671058167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19126634172809534,0.0,0.14534851000634955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320564057482562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952469302689023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17116600296768766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101005745445192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700817052501366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083971196660843,0.0,0.2742759622223855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,atemyvegetables,2019/10/22,"Being at the dinner table with family and having one of them talk about how they eat the least out of everyone 2 days into a fast, guess I don't exist then, or I'm not doing enough",15.21923076923077,4.8492360512820545,14.748205128205127,58.78846153846153,60.282051282051285,17.65128205128205,41.56410256410256,11.20814326018867,4.455287179487179,142,1,30,2,1,50,36,39,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,8,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,7,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,3,25,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25006700844739954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967655853282219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006499407654636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705122397992822,0.0,0.0,0.3655366825823873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4271509146079322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627497883048866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116591813036776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,samema,2019/10/22,"Weight training How many of the people here don't just do cardio but aome weight training to tone up? How do you eat when you do? 

I get REALLY hungry but are there people that restrict and weightrain at the same time? What kind of aupplements are smart to use?",2.7870588235294136,5.163759862745098,2.9644705882352973,91.97611764705884,77.82352941176471,5.648627450980393,20.003921568627447,6.742157984588678,0.2320086274509805,207,5,41,2,5,63,38,51,0.062,0.856,0.08199999999999999,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,3,0,9,8,6,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,6,8,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28620126406782265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14613085664274575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912628160779949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835702515241531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878152713792128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918194090270476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630943715474605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415695921281753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6811945383454387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yuvalinger,2019/10/22,"How a week long ""break"" became two months worth depression Hey everyone. I've been lurking this community for a while. Never considered my story special or interesting in any way but I'm starting to feel deeply misunderstood IRL.  

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Last November I decided to finish my weight loss journey that had been brought to a halt when I first started dating my bf (3.5 years ago!). My goal was: lose those 25 pounds that could turn me from OK Looking to Objectively Hot. 

Not even sure what Objectively Hot means. The only definition I come up with is sexist. I really do want my bf's friends or the guys from work to objectify me in their minds. I try not to blame myself for that, as I have been bullied for my weight since I can remember and that can badly screw with your POV. I just wanted to attract **good** attention, curious looks from men I found attractive, but always ended up getting mocked. I can't look at any photos from highschool or college years without cringing - I was fat and mentally abused by two different boyfriends who never hesitated to pull that card to trigger me.  

In my early 20s I've started losing weight for health reasons and people were quick to notice. I decided to seize the opportunity, get a personal trainer and change my life for real. My self loathing became dangerous and I was finally serious about a fit lifestyle. I did lose around 23 pounds, but then met my boyfriend and gained a little weight. Not anything serious, but because I was ""just OK"" at that point (not having completed the master plan of becoming hot) it was a catastrophe. I started feeling the danger again last November and acted quickly. 

I was doing great for a while. Coming back to the gym and carb-less diet felt exhilarating, I felt invincible and there were even moments I could actually say ""Wow. I look good"". I do take breaks from gym and diet for vacations but this time I decided to just ""take a break"" for no reason. I told myself I'd bounce back. No time for gym right now but it's only temporarily. I kept piling on more excuses and ""issues"" that could be easily resolved. That's how one week turned to two, two turned into three, to a month and so on... You get it. 

This is where I am right now, my pants feel extra tight, I binge on whatever because ""I'm on a break and it might actually help me lose weight in the beginning"". It satisfies my anxiety between one bite to another, but now I feel so sad and pathetic. How do I let two months affect me this badly? I have a life to live and the last two months are meaningless if I get it together now. I don't know if I'll be able to, though. I feel like I've lost the groove and will never find it back. But I can't give up, because this gym-diet balance is the only thing that keeps the demons away. I now look at myself in the mirror and pinch every bit of fat until it's red and throbbing. I make sure my bf doesn't see that part because his reaction is bad enough when I just sigh :(",3.7645691026827,5.596710467826089,4.900928769657729,81.71553376503239,73.01739130434783,8.30231267345051,26.8427382053654,8.962127807601751,2.160792784458835,2329,84,449,49,47,766,291,575,0.17,0.71,0.11900000000000001,-0.9896,1,0,0,0,1,0,82.0,0,2,1,14,29,34,4,0,24,2,40,14,2,8,5,88,84,44,0,7,22,0,16,1,4,2,6,1,0,4,27,24,9,4,19,3,1,6,14,17,1,10,21,24,61,16,60,55,5,82,1,8,7,1,20,24,1,6,48,296,88,4,0.05888114363293673,0.06976452688917098,0.1149190049573286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05219458114568557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0489938283726746,0.06379769452600496,0.0715470343763518,0.08008239358169374,0.06174201304062338,0.04504391371441925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04845416421132677,0.052416701360692236,0.0,0.0,0.05532077269186711,0.13582789481291227,0.14748988639946864,0.1435735945744873,0.0650295970860678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428295876466868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06228844260262005,0.1014417830940204,0.06173575883849671,0.0,0.0,0.14103540596590916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071424273166345,0.0,0.0,0.06151826288382992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052151216409434535,0.06083996129465229,0.0,0.07778088009652677,0.0,0.0496099030336504,0.056263456037246966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488603770061276,0.042064700776378784,0.11307026336797855,0.06450141476231902,0.0538162985586464,0.0500842706947298,0.0,0.06456013482602002,0.045491425509814915,0.0,0.1230518692745106,0.056484158280655526,0.0,0.09877341936473866,0.0,0.06491666872401024,0.0,0.058301589476822076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258790227540413,0.0,0.0,0.039466789415918295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145661615140687,0.0,0.052336265886083054,0.0,0.0,0.03235953666572501,0.1439879724671907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06020995868421175,0.08317898614047133,0.028766352577606437,0.05901437455165993,0.05199312858044205,0.05210795923361538,0.24722665528350826,0.2634917540480509,0.06427572381644489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03930362059455874,0.0,0.0,0.06413882701501543,0.0,0.0,0.05933834378921792,0.06246358848457454,0.059453169942019615,0.0,0.18799346835572955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623830363125367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703657228769076,0.0,0.0,0.07979877356330496,0.13434528905639495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376254062891094,0.0,0.04082077116768782,0.05141274346869616,0.0,0.0,0.05566171280067568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701963217713756,0.03772076834911111,0.12107924459056565,0.0,0.0,0.06670085754315158,0.10056834988285002,0.0,0.04682464873296735,0.0,0.0,0.0469206481080855,0.0,0.061425874309420085,0.0,0.0,0.04870709047411457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16670550609190274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109895620886619,0.0,0.08854258432645838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03911801547416869,0.0,0.05785042466346513,0.0,0.06866813672395879,0.0,0.0,0.056263456037246966,0.0,0.03997643146698631,0.19213732837981504,0.3451099293874965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945924814506693,0.046737111124184695,0.09446180353301747,0.3585068513623311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056759321283640515,0.0,0.042866173835814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715470343763518,0.07583505201097213
EDAnonymous,100bean100,2019/10/22,"Stress and fatigue induced rant It's 2 am, I've had a headache for the past 14 hours, I think I'm getting sick, and I still need to finish a good 30% of my essay due tomorrow afternoon. 

My ed and depression makes it so difficult to function properly let alone complete work efficiently. I can't sleep because of stress + my messed up eating which makes me super tired, and has caused my chronic headaches. Since I'm so tired and feel horrible all of the time I can't motivate myself to do anything. 

I will not let myself get below an A in any class so I know I will force myself to do the work anyway. Knowing this, why do I have to torture myself and leave it for the last minute?

On top of all this, I'm not even losing weight. So I'm pretty much failing in all aspects of my life right now.",3.2955894308943066,4.3705363231707315,4.489999999999998,87.21333333333334,72.96341463414635,7.417886178861789,27.081300813008127,7.793537801064563,1.4618959349593492,623,22,132,8,12,205,103,164,0.244,0.6629999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.9765,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,7,8,11,1,2,8,0,13,9,1,5,3,21,26,10,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,6,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,1,2,18,2,17,21,4,17,0,4,0,0,0,7,0,0,10,82,24,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589002067836415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043330644199346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262542541493182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352538318213903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760793002699147,0.0,0.0,0.16086134831471394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321432119416662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569902768436751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133460316057777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757540008048086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031462135199773,0.0,0.0,0.1286841347348816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109098680520272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863480086170107,0.1250604178623457,0.0,0.16245305876867994,0.0,0.3137713156244851,0.108367371793473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164136160074195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482240832352688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127837346262486,0.11376138856424282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146459842939891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15608659189925578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13102260881138855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691328969730076,0.0,0.1535340405951557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252399778141515,0.0,0.35149160649417804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830741733942948,0.0,0.0,0.08946232513778646,0.3526748902007973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868281740605931,0.0,0.0,0.13844061079132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223387892205582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skeletonne19,2019/10/22,The relapse ride I looked at myself in the mirror for a couple seconds and then an hour later I’m having an internal meltdown and rode a bike ride in half the time it would normally take just to buy laxatives and now I’ll probably intentionally self trigger myself so I can get back in the ‘swing of things’ and throw out all my binge foods lmao I hate my fucking brain,6.66,6.119287567567568,7.092567567567568,77.16290540540544,65.21621621621622,10.102702702702704,32.013513513513516,9.516144504307137,2.715362162162162,296,10,58,5,4,97,57,74,0.051,0.895,0.054000000000000006,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,8,0,3,3,1,2,1,11,9,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,2,0,2,0,1,7,0,8,8,1,15,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,0,6,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21034550612818267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053758127419709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026813850484414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307815850221386,0.0,0.0,0.25289550228988145,0.14292024343499582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700771264018801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693947742622944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297157708537659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680240306397822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29493658987176385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853756212325427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20567794347066254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173657425032588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951105618594102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19432432688024345,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FluffyMuffins42,2019/10/22,"Anger for being in the 3% with ED’s? Do you ever get angry that other people can lead normal lives, treating food as if it’s just a normal thing? 

I’m not angry tonight so much as sad, seeing people in other subreddits talk about their delicious meals and healthy diets. Why are we the ones who got ED’s? Why can’t I see food as a normal, important thing? Why does it control my entire life? 

Feel free to rant about it. I know I needed to.",1.9070604395604391,3.631404252747252,3.628667582417586,89.3069574175824,77.90109890109889,5.868681318681317,19.06730769230769,6.6274283507984215,0.11118571428571401,341,7,71,3,8,114,67,91,0.16899999999999998,0.716,0.114,-0.7596,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,1,2,5,4,1,0,4,0,5,5,0,2,1,15,13,6,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,3,4,1,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,1,3,7,3,11,11,1,5,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,1,2,44,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873713581668268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461948346018586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111482043745156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844702683154973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404017856223456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872816580156312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361268881657998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181149476084048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799901724700428,0.0,0.0,0.1475165389904698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280790451121587,0.12387245191124732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910483193987686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320379455075735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23163595059538036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662494758470124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427604321880476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22197372662416326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452235458425172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnylegend1612,2019/10/22,"Fast Food Binge order was incorrect and now I'm sobbing I have been salivating for fast food for weeks and finally tonight i decided i would go crazy. Planned to order all of my favourite stuff, let myself have a few bites, and then chew and spit the rest. I drove into town, placed my order, and then went and parked in a grocery store parking lot to hide and enjoy it alone. 

The drink was watered down. The burger was made terribly, not nearly enough sauce so it was dry. The fries had zero salt and tasted liked they'd been fried in burnt oil. I could feel this lump in my throat, I was so disappointed. I ended up chewing and spitting most of it and eating none of it.

Decided to try again, went to get a cappuccino and my favourite donut... but they didn't have any of my donuts left. So I cancelled my order.

I'm back home now and so bitterly disappointed.",3.837638009049776,5.3176938588235325,4.29470588235294,87.56309954751131,72.17647058823529,7.58371040723982,25.429864253393674,8.139509932561175,1.3589321266968322,676,21,140,10,13,213,105,170,0.14400000000000002,0.833,0.023,-0.9632,0,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,8,7,1,0,7,0,16,13,4,1,1,24,25,19,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,13,8,0,3,1,1,4,3,5,0,1,13,6,17,2,17,8,7,30,0,3,0,0,2,10,1,2,13,94,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19909713631817308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072616310431973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478165901998223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348373643015886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831678560944104,0.0,0.19670405207169744,0.0,0.0,0.17026285348161355,0.1986297948337873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971996218091162,0.0,0.0,0.21058367737414366,0.0,0.0,0.4649018360208652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043467742170653,0.0,0.1092513892470954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19282704122421854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20886352423089055,0.1965729676006057,0.0,0.09391614637842627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343103642709308,0.0,0.1818970865276757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008443081672405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006269782719015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305147178187374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419905154543553,0.0,0.0,0.3564069177355897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365579893815696,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smyalik,2019/10/22,Somewhere up there in the all time lows I vomited coffee into the sink while I was brushing my teeth. I think I drank too much or something I haven’t puked in so long and I don’t want to so uh wtf! Definitely not an all time low but majorly humiliating cause cleaning it all up made me late :),0.1415163934426218,2.4888269836065566,2.4722745901639342,90.91857581967217,90.63934426229507,5.67295081967213,20.739754098360656,7.1686216300943375,0.6358016393442618,230,8,51,4,8,78,48,61,0.17,0.718,0.111,-0.4193,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,2,3,12,7,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,1,8,0,6,4,5,12,0,2,0,0,0,7,0,1,5,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38131347914337893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.418717499782035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284906941385439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512281241481364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728667157404666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857595223490292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378430027275802,0.0,0.0,0.4328867265080305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21893696253983308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrwawy4dis1pst,2019/10/22,"Is it disordered to eat at 1200 cal a day if it's for weight loss? TW weight numbers calories bmr that kind of thing. I want to know if considering my situation this behavior would be disordered.
I'm underweight with a BMI of 17.8.  
My BMR is roughly 1300 and my is TDEE roughly 1550. I know that eating at 1200 is not restriction for someone with my stats.
 I would like to get down to a bmi of 17 and I intend to do that with cico. I want to do 1200 calories a day beacause I'm a college student and need the brain function , also I dont like the idea of unsustainable rapid weight loss. I want to loose the weight for Good and not fuck up my metabolism or whatever idk. Anyway. Is this disordered behavior beacause I'm already underweight or am I doing alright.",2.5664425770308132,4.626963202614384,4.251227824463118,84.0483823529412,77.10457516339869,7.770121381886089,27.922035480859012,8.634040054169528,2.2143486461251167,602,26,121,13,14,202,80,153,0.055999999999999994,0.82,0.124,0.8,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,2,8,1,0,8,1,13,8,1,1,0,24,24,9,0,8,6,0,6,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,7,6,1,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,6,13,5,21,21,0,6,0,2,0,1,0,4,1,4,4,75,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420492451863576,0.10293989151970276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369765551912414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603162190382953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425837962082513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086262437157572,0.0,0.0,0.2634319259332588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900251838574187,0.06725255587018121,0.0,0.0,0.10796690767040516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531281748050415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13404539781136002,0.14148580174364875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577530079391006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954466171053436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469026304324134,0.0,0.0,0.10906674432512113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551797016064001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22777282429521906,0.0,0.0,0.6270006869327845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828825271542865,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghastlycandy,2019/10/22,"i feel like as a fat person with an ED, ED support communities can be the biggest triggers sometimes like idk about you but the way people treat fat people in ed communities is horrible, and it's almost normalized in a way. you'd think they'd be more empathetic considering how a lot of us actually developed our eds, but apparently not 🤡",14.601999999999995,7.9841923538461534,14.694230769230769,47.59826923076928,56.23076923076921,18.53846153846154,52.5,15.247664890283005,7.417461538461537,273,13,48,9,2,97,50,65,0.086,0.726,0.187,0.7131,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,2,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,6,0,6,2,2,2,0,12,9,5,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,6,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,2,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.2546353262294131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26128912769661217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193678687233165,0.18641231376678025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549597284017209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22183796006687068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556613064474971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617995260950973,0.22783874103959864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580717991330945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961064185495809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719687885625492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31387317805682663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142367763294197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingarthersixties,2019/10/22,Did I just break my fast with a bag of broccoli and hot cheetos? YES. Will I regret this in the coming hours? MAYBE SO. I await intestinal hellfire.,0.14758620689654833,2.414591344827585,1.3202758620689643,95.92731034482759,101.06896551724138,3.6993103448275866,19.593103448275865,5.6839178017228535,-0.0424813793103449,115,4,23,1,5,36,27,29,0.09,0.7090000000000001,0.2,0.5297,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,3,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5221972066362188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5969958462502173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.609020555434147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stupidibidiby,2019/10/22,"I ate pizza for dinner? in a stable way?? guys I had a Social Event tonight at a really nice pizza place and normally, activities that revolve around food give me heart palpitations but screw it, I'm not a wuss.

I did my snooping and found out there was no online menu for this restaurant. no calorie information anywhere so I couldn't plan my order ahead or anything. cue the heart palpitations but damn it, I love my friends, I wanted to do this.

I ate light throughout today. I walked into that restaurant with *purpose*. everyone ordered for the table, we ended up with cheesy garlic bread, fried cheese, fried calamari, three types of pizza, and here is what happened:

I ate 1 piece of garlic bread, and 2 slices of thin crust veggie pizza. 

I ate *n o r m a l*

and yknow what, afterward I felt amazing. I still feel amazing. I ate fear food but I didn't go crazy and I don't feel like I'm about to explode, I feel content. 

this whole thing is sort of pathetic, I'm so alarmingly excited about successfully consuming normal people food in front of other people, but this recovering anorexic had a win today and I just had to let somebody know.

good luck out there guys, we're gonna make it.",1.6578235557545895,4.335080272727275,3.096638304224509,87.0487012987013,86.09956709956711,5.6104493207941495,22.2512315270936,7.0983637204850245,0.9768344827586208,937,33,177,14,29,305,142,231,0.113,0.696,0.191,0.9699,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,1,0,0,4,10,15,2,2,8,0,12,19,2,1,0,35,33,14,0,4,7,0,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,13,14,15,0,7,0,0,3,6,4,0,1,13,6,22,11,24,17,2,24,0,0,0,2,8,10,2,3,9,104,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256951913199796,0.12177535125617432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115857220763848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071219561633984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153930888182754,0.20750094028208024,0.09772541154928076,0.13134335699145455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4962342770357748,0.14998717758840546,0.1056864353687868,0.0,0.0,0.13122493473414815,0.07774298422825647,0.11473602426014633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708944421541723,0.12096617373980505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32420226994980594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517821308211511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988077611820168,0.0,0.06683046812487775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123461610735213,0.0,0.091310824208618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680574677171444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18967098724075251,0.0,0.14292025016602694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763351558040745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944390028137055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924358632756903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087962330997862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593287724191016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068443951337947,0.10858043287925204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272522606828667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,romeodendron,2019/10/22,finna eat an entire pizza relatable???????????????? tfw u thot u had an but u thot wrong ;;;;p ednos is my bff now ((((((; fuck,-1.8284057971014496,0.024704130434782808,1.7652173913043503,96.06202898550728,94.65217391304348,4.8057971014492775,12.014492753623188,6.42735559955562,-0.8892202898550718,77,1,19,1,3,28,19,23,0.297,0.542,0.161,-0.6715,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5814379063246028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253165491800788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6212668381994941,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alethoz,2019/10/22,"Just ate without logging! If you saw my post about failing to eat dinner yesterday and having a Coke Zero and sit-ups, you know I’ve been having a rough time lately. But today, even after I had already had my allotted calories, I allowed myself some rice and beans to end the day. And I didn’t log it! That’s the first time I’ve eaten without logging in a long time. The little victories :))",3.5476923076923086,4.990359153846153,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,72.84615384615384,6.7384615384615385,27.102564102564106,7.1686216300943375,1.4823179487179488,306,11,57,3,6,102,57,78,0.055,0.945,0.0,-0.5972,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,0,6,5,0,1,0,13,10,6,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,7,2,8,0,7,3,2,14,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,3,11,41,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710133535929983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838446235884346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512986591268823,0.0,0.0,0.21751878686998666,0.0,0.0,0.16220908969263906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20889771232286725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349691846867446,0.0,0.2770348694655705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461445013973983,0.0,0.2173383644550283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352061884543541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296144220170793,0.0,0.2327894714722031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4734776888904081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayaccnt6789,2019/10/22,"laugh at my laxative misery so i’ve always have had bad luck with laxatives. the first time i took them i ended up shitting my pants at a party :) whatever it happens (no it doesn’t) 

and the second time i was in so much pain and shitting so much i couldn’t leave my house for like a day and a half. 

well-the lil ednos gremlin in my brain has recently resurfaced and convinced me to give them another go, and so i dig up my old box from the last time i used them. and guess what-yup you got it-i assumes a whole block of lax was a serving but nOpe, only a little square :) so i’ve been taking 6x the recommended dose. :)",0.4949340659340678,2.5874037461538464,2.554505494505495,93.28692307692309,84.61538461538461,5.560439560439562,20.05494505494506,6.868970318607317,0.27595604395604445,477,14,107,6,14,160,86,130,0.10400000000000001,0.732,0.16399999999999998,0.8434,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,3,1,5,8,2,0,10,0,8,5,3,1,0,14,16,12,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,4,0,3,6,1,16,4,11,9,3,18,0,0,1,0,5,7,2,3,10,67,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477367183910543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861777839464932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482477319849512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820572026620167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450575546110615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725755321314486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102485437891286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032317054282478,0.10090636804692348,0.0,0.14200381492182754,0.0,0.19559252728602936,0.0,0.15700782996416504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20487010301682929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472782420862673,0.0,0.1880009529274591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674248718775147,0.1779528222992555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610409400126396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18630998675308444,0.0,0.0,0.13503559390866132,0.18892686293962865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753102674374317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645072556754978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133496312502391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105943803919187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19726577817222385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533471226437456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963974017694674,0.0,0.0,0.19822943542338145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,milkiiiii,2019/10/22,"Tbh?? I’m hurt. I’m stuck. (TW for specific numbers and stuff)

I’m fucking hurt. For the last two months I’ve hardly strayed above my 300 calorie limit. I’m always on my feet. I’m at concerts every weekend. I’m a fucking wrestler. I do a fuck ton of cardio. 
It’s like my body doesn’t fucking care??? I’ve never plateaued this hard in my life. The first time I started losing weight I lost it slowly. It took 4 months for me to go from 136 to 120. After that the weight fell off so fast. Still, I never felt like I was fucking stuck for this long.
I’m doing everything!!! I’m desperate!! I’m purging 200 calorie foods out of fear!! I’m not even taking laxatives anymore like I did the first time and it’s so hard not to go back to them!!!
I just want to get back to where I was last year. I was at my LW. I looked though food logs and I was eating so much more than I was now and still losing.
Why?? How??? I just can’t fucking stand this.
I feel like a fat fucking failure. 
I’m doing everything I can and nothing is working. It’s like my body is blocking me. I’m just fucking upset and hurt and stressed out.
I know if I keep going I’ll get there. A pound a month is so fucking agonizingly slow but it’s better than nothing. I just get so upset when I see people who eat more than me lose weight faster than me. It’s discouraging.
I’m sorry I’m so stupid and dramatic but this shit really fucking hurts me.",-1.047811222593829,1.043513836120404,1.32708584169454,97.38252768487554,97.92976588628763,3.8617911557042,18.015681902638427,5.6839178017228535,-0.4080622668153096,1083,34,247,9,45,363,147,299,0.218,0.7290000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9927,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,1,9,21,32,12,4,9,0,15,24,5,1,2,30,59,20,0,2,9,0,8,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,14,10,8,4,3,2,0,5,6,25,0,3,11,11,31,7,25,48,4,39,0,9,2,10,2,8,11,1,30,137,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056881803248713024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779571301070318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513073238076212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045972259060236,0.0,0.1518672533862607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969856484363791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990067710671614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045151775898267583,0.0,0.05759706553410913,0.0,0.12287686362966466,0.0,0.0,0.07692509663032637,0.034565360404104926,0.0488370905632771,0.06563725154579518,0.0,0.0,0.11629561216742215,0.16532471233426305,0.0,0.0,0.6319861512832607,0.10714735584986752,0.0,0.11655334373803598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18371400473089244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29272732865788725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607623710533481,0.0,0.0,0.03756940126903584,0.11144662898844944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04828537472189612,0.16698858426167856,0.0,0.0,0.06049730717658273,0.05740599757465423,0.2294353178130911,0.0746240740361243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16369522194275726,0.0,0.05025317859827718,0.0,0.1054483886302916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118838866948726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047392889087152584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04379378780738643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054474842294111585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017155323966323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652450901984051,0.04838624635468086,0.0,0.10918631775208797,0.0,0.07830726006494726,0.0,0.07825695532884328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051398941745070696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716430584953043,0.0,0.07972366259841884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595155289692793,0.0,0.0,0.06677873436519527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04032107122490974,0.0,0.0,0.2497357343956563,0.0,0.0,0.06168514247560334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049767600270115286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04402222331996703
EDAnonymous,VampFag88,2019/10/22,Uber Exorcisim My uber driver just told me I look like I am really struggling and she literally prayed for me for a good five minutes while driving.  I'm not Christian at all and would normally be offended but I was just too exhausted to say anything.  For some reason I also left her a tip.  At least she cares.,1.9215690866510573,4.516120360655737,3.6708665105386413,84.2654098360656,83.09836065573771,7.420140515222482,25.107728337236534,8.418075326091056,2.092028571428571,246,10,47,6,7,82,48,61,0.109,0.768,0.12300000000000001,0.2272,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,1,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,11,8,5,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,2,2,10,3,6,4,3,5,2,0,1,0,5,3,0,1,2,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243854147150812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509331950042276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108986712164715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557626378053631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33130969624341444,0.0,0.0,0.1489744561362072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560662246899205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29876878455939704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19534735711413095,0.3135210583893078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424943016304773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187813132253325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29137575717601444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21661506549896606,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mish321,2019/10/22,"DAE have dark bags/I look like a grandma Does anyone else’s face get more haggard/tired looking when they’re actively restricting? I looked at myself in the mirror and was like “damn I look terrible” 

like dark bags under my eyes and just generally dull skin, etc. i want to fix it but is that just something I’ll have to accept lmao",1.6063636363636393,4.2213516818181835,2.6456818181818207,90.78852272727272,85.21212121212122,5.724242424242425,20.37121212121212,7.1686216300943375,0.6233393939393941,265,8,53,4,8,84,53,66,0.107,0.654,0.239,0.85,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,2,0,4,3,3,0,0,9,10,4,0,1,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,5,4,5,9,2,4,0,1,5,0,0,3,1,0,4,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087617400865595,0.23574252066922954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20134316724622864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922009887140817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565982458657345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020647319878668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372140685583078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7728316713938752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712560079412665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570620746819315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,morganej,2019/10/22,"i lose something everyday trigger warning


I went on an (unplanned) mandy (MDMA) bender recently, when because of a combination of parties, festivals and birthdays I had to attend, I was caught in a cycle of essentially being high 80% of the time, for a whole week. 

The horrible thing about it wasn’t the fact that I was slowly frying my brain, but that all throughout that time I had no desire, and no need whatsoever to eat, and I forgot how light, free and careless that feels.

I have never had drug problems, we have had a wonderful, casual and controlled relationship, up until now. I’ve been in recovery for my ED for almost 4 months, and after everything that this illness has taken away from me, now I cannot even get high anymore, because the overeating/undereating part of it messes with my head so much.

thank you for nothing, you slut",11.693333333333335,8.085927133757963,11.074872611464972,62.26691613588112,57.9171974522293,13.778768577494695,44.00106157112526,11.538034831475384,5.061850106157112,668,28,113,13,6,219,109,157,0.11,0.718,0.172,0.9131,0,0,2,1,0,0,25.0,1,2,0,2,7,9,0,0,9,0,13,6,2,3,3,22,22,11,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,8,1,2,2,1,1,3,5,5,0,0,12,2,16,5,21,9,4,22,0,1,0,1,4,7,0,2,12,88,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586638594418808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417609369309645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500858133017246,0.0,0.0,0.21412277888060272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960592810025472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969820869318416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367308470210668,0.1797116097858581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600084430153824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784340308431782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880295205879098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175854471568996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802453178377716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711219105523701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964831581883324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018484379050453,0.0,0.12910701805772853,0.13022616866082848,0.13545538207523616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852010298007755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19018834805123494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805257635419754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17341177106283626,0.1885590810277169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13520725571811693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161694954139807,0.0,0.0,0.1166796471516612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048205632722939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140878438897548,0.0,0.0,0.16280920563276632,0.0,0.196082739339972,0.0,0.0,0.1904614135725439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diabetomaximus,2019/06/22,"I fucked up. I stood on the scale for the first time since I started my recovery journey. (TW numbers) So i think I've mentioned it in comments here, i was in the hospital for 3 weeks at the beginning of April. I was told I HAD to hit a certain amount of protein or at the very least calories for my knees to heal properly. I started the journey at 165 when I broke the knees. Just weighed myself today and I'm up to 185. I've always had a more muscular build but I'm really really freaking out right now.",2.121904761904762,3.7825829047619095,3.90666666666667,87.83333333333334,77.09523809523809,7.333333333333332,27.857142857142854,8.167268648758528,1.8495714285714284,395,17,84,7,9,133,68,105,0.096,0.888,0.016,-0.8228,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,9,0,4,6,3,0,1,7,14,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,6,0,12,1,17,7,3,22,0,1,0,1,3,10,1,1,10,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24845357144340102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539833350558064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27604472330551205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825730678826821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549970734324103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469994892185233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226917934720257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19132655001809254,0.0,0.0,0.1741121726971095,0.0,0.2830315644577621,0.28531872398032976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24637076953474196,0.0,0.0,0.2395135594859196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ljodzn,2019/06/22,"“How did you lose the weight??” I’m bulimic, mom. But of course I didn’t say that. 

I did disclose OMAD but stopped at that. 

My mom was emotionally abusive so she doesn’t get all my tips, nor do I open up to her, she lost that privilege a while ago. 

I had a huge fettuccini Alfredo dinner, tasted great. Purged it right back up, which felt even better.",0.3593740219092325,2.7258776760563417,2.1120187793427263,93.97143974960878,89.14084507042253,5.972456964006258,19.156494522691702,7.3871296695380915,0.4586701095461661,269,8,61,5,9,88,56,71,0.156,0.6509999999999999,0.193,0.6261,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,4,5,0,0,3,0,7,3,0,1,1,7,11,6,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,4,10,3,5,4,1,10,0,2,0,0,7,6,0,0,4,39,15,0,0.0,0.27076393752078576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20257301150633414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757210876100793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021111804252668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25705908902492325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093815078990186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194191739783612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939451942743405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519488573665625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556602474479868,0.24946127844006905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352898173500749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19515851119801167,0.0,0.18173170276216533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910565549139138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278281043480025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,enviose,2019/06/22,"Had a slip up and I’m not punishing myself today Last night I had a moment and ate like, a *lot* of these weird sugar almond things (I don’t even know what they were, I just know they were tasty) and I was kinda worried I might have a shit day today because of it. But I told myself that recovery means not punishing myself for my mistakes, and I decided not to over-restrict, and I just feel really good about it :-) I feel happy and healthy (minus all the sugar, ha) and I’m just so glad to see how far I’ve come from the stupid awful mess that was 2 months ago. 

I’m feeling good guys. And I feel like you’re the only ones who can really appreciate how bad I felt before, so I guess I wanted to share.",1.985450450450454,3.3331952027027083,3.890270270270271,89.1382882882883,76.70270270270271,6.825225225225225,19.765765765765764,7.492282038375204,0.414971171171171,542,11,120,7,12,184,92,148,0.13699999999999998,0.639,0.22399999999999998,0.9205,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,0,9,16,4,0,7,2,10,4,1,2,1,34,27,13,0,2,7,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,9,3,0,9,0,0,1,4,8,0,1,9,8,19,8,9,17,2,11,0,0,1,0,6,2,1,4,10,76,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522200382439152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14337961052350626,0.10467934399139896,0.0,0.1461216666518432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792217662406834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074564447555824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341990186578373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473085792968288,0.12267730136634135,0.16487880002410912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28806234944612863,0.0,0.0,0.18916970943222208,0.17003048946924032,0.0,0.1827998767559877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18874641009430548,0.1399752885869029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778811874278848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14599079712977456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18705418238522528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821685243806209,0.0,0.0,0.13706582328365352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611482429242236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636238951433645,0.13060132928981072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200173533212148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13683916400261112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17626882938435193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11408360179926895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32554228693095355,0.16408648640784262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012853171435945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17439070491395148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinybabybear,2019/06/22,"Where my drunkorexics at? TW: numbers

Anyone else like a full-on alcoholic that would probably starve to death without booze? I can easily keep my calories under 400 but I drink my way back to at least 1000 every time. If I wasn’t a useless drunk I would be at my GW already. Plus there are the not-so-occasional drunk binges where I get hammered enough that I decide “Fuck this! I’ll just be fat!” and the way a whole pizza while crying.

I could be losing weight at this exact pace while eating somewhat normally if I didn’t love drinking so much. FML.",2.8599999999999994,5.0041706422018395,3.9252201834862386,86.33480275229358,76.5229357798165,6.5618348623853215,22.82660550458716,7.554174236665415,0.9794983486238528,436,13,86,6,10,141,79,109,0.247,0.6890000000000001,0.064,-0.9662,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,0,5,0,10,12,1,0,1,15,14,8,1,6,5,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,2,10,1,1,4,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,12,2,9,6,5,13,0,2,0,2,1,7,1,3,5,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198050560257914,0.0,0.0,0.20450506271727276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12957994800356776,0.1898820863859253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249952551902015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796282059150273,0.0,0.20356515324764365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630858019432876,0.0,0.1896284716755645,0.15481095493024954,0.0,0.0,0.19148494414254888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613996638342378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17132521509749515,0.09682197281713667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472079759043304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09053791783052967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20732550914010905,0.0,0.0,0.16725839997234046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623141290676444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157410584559688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998061422301673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806149482310666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941965419621411,0.0,0.22566965181113985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069029943435684,0.0,0.17864172222151314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26329180867180435,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayed27,2019/06/22,"Anybody else scared of reproduction? Like shit, I am in the baby-making age (27) but I get sick to my stomache whenever my SO/family/friends start talking about babies and talk/ask about me having a baby.  


Fuck.. not only would I kind-of have to not be in an underweight BMI and stop restricting/purging but the hormonal changes, cravings, gaining, baby-bump, bigger boobs, stretch marks & water retention just to name a few...  


idk guys, maybe someday I would kind of maybe want to have a kid but not anywhere near to yet. I just feel really shitty that my ED is having a major factor in my decision about wether I want kids or not.",3.888181818181817,5.8079021570247935,4.829826446280993,81.9865578512397,72.88429752066115,7.815206611570248,26.97603305785124,8.548686976883017,2.0575414876033062,495,18,91,9,10,161,84,121,0.153,0.778,0.069,-0.902,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,1,7,0,9,6,3,0,0,20,15,6,0,4,10,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,11,2,14,12,2,10,0,0,0,2,5,6,3,1,5,56,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138200404379164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448818763639002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876173371246529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16485396942576466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978207541051357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524659866528909,0.18243955529032335,0.1031030817795159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953996662755193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41100277703617183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641136277875986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965132493168661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008752981908496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642237738651518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975738294706709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20256878953883012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396797263546275,0.0,0.0,0.16498679922887285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172321465877488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327949208432861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803722759567759,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,penfsa,2019/06/22,every single time my binge fantasies are better than the actual binge itself ive spent about 8 hours fantasising about eating pizza this is INSANE,7.170769230769231,9.513321461538466,7.180000000000002,66.74000000000002,65.15384615384616,8.276923076923078,20.69230769230769,8.841846274778883,1.7724461538461536,122,2,16,2,2,39,24,26,0.121,0.7759999999999999,0.102,-0.1363,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.4453570511202237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036274017537348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4669864860821342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845163840329231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44943833736341604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26611646079478485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ToeSprinkles,2019/06/22,Howdy... again. I deleted my old account because I outed myself. I started restricting again and using supplements to help. My boyfriend came over yesterday and I hinted until he figured it out which was a big mistake. But now I can start over with him being non the wiser? Am I a terrible girlfriend? Probably.. but I can't wait to see how he reacts and touches me when I am finally actually hot and in shape. Thank you guys for being welcoming.,3.5010714285714286,5.9507372023809575,5.081190476190475,77.33464285714288,75.78571428571429,8.009523809523811,30.73809523809524,8.841846274778883,3.0515523809523804,351,17,59,8,8,118,65,84,0.067,0.8,0.132,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,3,0,17,14,9,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,14,2,10,10,0,18,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,0,10,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.2845920854227999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777698609021592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335508655920754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194700849828182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28876287153432484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954756901870023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060201475886973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144300814295045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23239402567795803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128391787570237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26849681069195785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518775827402832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inkwelldreams,2019/06/22,"exercising when totally out of shape? I’m trying to get back into working out/reconditioning but long term restriction has left me w the fitness level of an 80 year old invalid :)))) I used to be able to run 10k a day and now I get out of breath when running more than 2 minutes. I’m a limp noodle!! 

Have any of you successfully gotten fit again? Any exercise recommendations? And how do you stay motivated when even the most basic exercises feel impossible? 

Any advice would be so appreciated !!!!",2.7693181818181785,5.650953184782607,5.243557312252968,72.3654743083004,82.36956521739131,8.12806324110672,25.75494071146245,8.841846274778883,2.640139130434783,391,16,69,11,11,137,71,92,0.026000000000000002,0.7609999999999999,0.214,0.9703,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,3,9,1,0,0,5,0,6,4,1,3,1,14,13,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,11,9,4,22,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,1,11,42,5,3,0.2518571595945577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461119014705765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5138145152229155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19366260951354108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624270323155318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634927859076182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734654735193165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631699417344805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736435408235903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22288566075857014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26428172206006256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684462214664122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099447902655335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217523721360974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833550117891316,0.0,0.0,0.17891210004104802,0.0,0.0,0.16218775331755894
EDAnonymous,howfarwego,2019/06/22,"Why are my ankles fat? My bmi is the low end of normal but my ankles are squidgy and just big, it’s like my foot just goes straight to leg and misses out my ankles, I hate it. When I’m shopping for clothes all the models seem to have tiny ankles even if they’re the same size as me. Any advice or does anyone know why this might be?",2.647500000000001,3.2139898611111133,3.4648888888888902,95.869,74.0,5.7600000000000025,19.95555555555556,3.1291,-0.562597777777778,258,4,62,0,5,82,56,72,0.11900000000000001,0.809,0.07200000000000001,-0.5733,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,3,0,6,3,3,0,1,14,11,7,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,6,9,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871690168467283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998435241536978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548263585561427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571699940790909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602840002660952,0.0,0.0,0.19410015728874727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901384663194571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150475923680582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357136491661526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117525112760172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879328665207697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675306834906291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5303488342903823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachelseaturtle,2019/06/22,"Books giveaway If this post isn’t allowed feel free to delete and sorry. 

I’m moving soon and I have a few mental health related books I’m willing to send out for free if anyone is interested! 

• “Starved” and “Beyond Starved” by Nancy Alcorn/Mercy Ministries - heavily Christian. I also have her book called “Echoes of Mercy” I can include too if you want, about Nancy and the formation of Mercy Ministries. Also “The Look that Kills” by Michelle Myers (Christian based as well).

• 8 Keys to Recovery from an Eating Disorder by Carolyn Costin, never read much less written in. 

• Life inside the Thin Cage by Constance Rhodes, founder of findingbalance.com. Mostly about chronic dieting and subclinical EDs, I’ve never read it. 

• Thin by Grace Bowman",4.982384615384618,7.971175238461541,5.011538461538461,76.94346153846155,73.53846153846155,6.76923076923077,29.23076923076923,7.882392219407189,2.3921538461538456,591,25,89,9,13,184,93,130,0.10400000000000001,0.764,0.132,0.4574,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,8,6,1,0,5,0,6,5,0,2,2,16,12,11,1,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,1,5,2,2,3,1,1,0,1,4,5,7,19,10,4,11,2,0,1,0,4,5,0,4,3,57,8,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360079404609104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468955049942408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145190885067605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407742804237077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496821489156007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622470136418144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22330929700459196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23242664145852304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483884284765591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641751388064186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21171509757077075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328587364689556,0.1544357942979504,0.0,0.3240592159500999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012022453249596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202813815493797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235171658059952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391289138826027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18889060140950645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boyskeepswinging_,2019/06/22,"i feel like i’m eating too much? i honestly just need reassurance. 
i relapsed recently into restriction and i’ve been eating between 500 and 1000 daily. is that too much? i used to have below 500 / day so it feels like a lot.",0.2056190476190487,2.5934808000000054,2.912698412698415,85.63000000000002,96.55555555555556,6.126984126984127,19.761904761904766,7.447530270364453,1.1785238095238095,176,6,34,4,7,61,34,45,0.046,0.718,0.23600000000000002,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,10,8,3,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,4,7,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17374484301780374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.551340016947652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724399450399234,0.3849279774148941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632367213109891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22903969044990166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960894101879573,0.1997614347844403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660063223256212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326806337697088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ollielilbean,2019/06/22,"TW lax, starving, purging, low weight, nudity, death, self harm A couple of days ago someone commented on a photo of me at my lowest weight. They kept going on about how “attractive” and “sexy” I was then. I quickly called them out and said there’s nothing “attractive” or “sexy” about ruining your body with laxative abuse, purging, and self starvation. I told them I was dying, literally. They kind of just shrugged their shoulders and didn’t say anything. They said I’m “still beautiful now” they “guess”. I have no idea what I really look like but to me, this just confirmed my beliefs that I’m fat and I need to eat less. I was trying to expand my diet so I didn’t need to eat only one thing (I was trying to eat fruit, veg, not just have one safe food) and now I feel like I can’t even eat my one safe food. I just want to die y’all. 
They routinely harassed me for nudes as well, it’s the only reason they ever talked to me (never sent any, they are now blocked). Which kind of concerns me-you think I’m so “attractive” but you chose to ignore the fact that I’m killing myself slowly for this body?
I just feel really ashamed and sad, guilty. I want to hurt myself, I want to curl in a ball and die. Thank you if you took the time to read this. I just don’t know.",2.0256335645406907,3.8581348521400787,3.1849467095246164,92.13005413635595,77.91050583657587,6.492911520893251,21.29064456098799,7.423996415210882,0.5613327355777358,975,26,214,13,23,314,143,257,0.198,0.6609999999999999,0.141,-0.9713,1,0,0,0,1,4,36.0,0,5,10,0,20,20,2,1,6,0,11,15,5,2,3,43,34,17,5,6,11,0,4,2,0,0,1,3,0,2,9,10,11,5,7,2,0,3,7,9,1,3,12,9,42,11,26,22,1,20,1,4,1,1,25,6,0,3,13,132,51,1,0.0,0.11976017267095455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959900294924412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687360877432946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831780753246392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22454837645606848,0.0,0.0,0.10321131099201153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184020373921966,0.0,0.06518655126128331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147071020295651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413709594516968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676065936530247,0.09143028132523293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221552556323273,0.0722097038848137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444463497888205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057444607101124624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134813490301336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820543094183137,0.11410406423784873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182715040134236,0.2105130840878159,0.0555494872744684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876260917760073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487954622741466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498952001386202,0.0779571103673581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969864767709235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054779554956436,0.15374781169693624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110473775828636,0.0,0.12950552185201825,0.1039243859710434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229547883268575,0.08038079332818364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089151297326075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564254011767626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072053005426201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124217314486389,0.0,0.09305847573277287,0.0,0.0,0.06715132312405457,0.06476630684269076,0.0,0.0,0.058939035909455324,0.0,0.0,0.09658377273581516,0.11230069361263173,0.13724981874701145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885418110831702,0.0,0.0,0.24617004851809554,0.09088070782535634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teal12,2019/06/22,"Mortified at Universal Studios I don’t know where else I can talk about this, but I went to Universal Orlando with my bf and some friends recently. When we entered Harry Potter world, we waited in line for the ride inside the castle/school. When we get up to the part where they place your party in a line, they made my group step to the side so they can “make sure everyone in our party can enjoy the ride.” They made only me get in a test seat to see if a light turned green. The girl was pushing and pushing, it turned green for a second, but it was uncomfortable. I didn’t end up riding. So my bf and 2 friends rode it without me while I had to go stand in the “disabled” section ( fat section). I was able to ride this no problem a year ago...times have changed. Ugh.",3.064615384615383,4.387297512820513,3.927435897435899,90.05923076923081,73.87179487179488,6.9948717948717976,25.179487179487186,7.492282038375204,1.0425102564102566,596,19,129,7,12,191,95,156,0.083,0.7809999999999999,0.136,0.8674,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,4,1,4,0,9,6,0,0,12,0,10,1,1,3,1,19,22,11,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,1,5,7,1,1,1,0,0,11,4,2,0,1,8,4,20,4,19,14,4,33,0,0,3,0,16,15,0,2,6,85,25,1,0.187997227081122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664819870381478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988761387090971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704755994899072,0.0,0.16650974266058438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17963940692018604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904923825911793,0.0,0.1964415837009696,0.0,0.1068431565479998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331835945155164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557750436938853,0.1254896088990416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298036267469358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20358267673281552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19641708912967168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988795673653385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562458158814196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19026323049903607,0.14980944990061187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17718516166816314,0.0,0.0,0.15110504991941115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089739966030461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742753129678216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812226182095085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106405050903694
EDAnonymous,intertropical,2019/06/22,"victories for today cw: meal/exercise plans (but no numbers)

initially planned to start ""recovering""/eating more normally from today onwards, but chickened out last night and made more meal plans. so today I was supposed to eat berries for breakfast, have small portions of safe foods for lunch and dinner, exercise a ridiculous amount, and have fruit as ""snacks"" if necessary.

this morning I woke up craving the package of bread that my friend gave me yesterday though. after a loooong time agonising I thought, ok, I'll eat a bit of the bread and save the berries for tomorrow. but I ended up eating the berries first, though, and still got through a decent chunk of the bread. i actually felt kind of awake/energised for once! 

lunch was with my family. the veggies were some of my safe foods, but I still ate a lot more than I'd planned to. I even had a small serving of rice, because it went well with one of the dishes!

I deliberated over exercising for like 2 hours. literally. I ended up going, though, but stopped at 3/5 of my originally intended workout. which is probably why I'm not as exhausted now as I usually am this time of day :"") 

dinner was supposed to be just a small serving of the safe veggies from lunch. but I was cooking for my dad as well, and by default he wanted noodles and sauce to go with it. I wanted noodles too, even though the disordered part me of me didn't. so I thought about tabitha farrar saying that when the ed voice tells you something, the only choice available is to do the opposite. so I made some noodles for myself too. and even a bit of sauce. 

it's 11pm now and I'm kind of anxious too but I'm proud of myself. and I'm so glad that I didn't binge (because no, brain, today was relatively normal eating, not bingeing!). I'm a little hungry now but I don't think I'll eat any more tonight, *but* I will try to eat a good proper breakfast tomorrow morning. 

thank you all for listening <3 people irl don't know the extent to which I'm struggling with food, so I'm glad to have this community to share my victories with!!",3.9985103383458656,5.787779373433588,4.739980419799501,83.28748942669176,72.30827067669173,7.79451754385965,29.76198308270677,8.472884824447931,2.2372186090225563,1626,69,314,28,32,523,195,399,0.048,0.8059999999999999,0.146,0.9923,0,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,0,2,0,6,25,20,1,1,23,1,20,29,1,4,1,51,46,34,0,5,13,1,1,1,1,1,3,3,0,0,11,16,25,4,5,4,0,3,8,3,2,2,19,5,30,17,56,25,14,41,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,4,29,199,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.08051496624291725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056107614386987366,0.0,0.0,0.0932094670161615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005910477978076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801526303453108,0.0,0.0,0.09210513990913652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05321021317135504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456021237556564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5065517799917126,0.0,0.0,0.1461534906360123,0.0,0.0,0.16348535921386445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778029146235838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921969426667913,0.0,0.0,0.0701804434485775,0.2993035096093844,0.0,0.0637447320506294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937813009049622,0.06920298804190332,0.06598841457976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125281158133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183676483779595,0.04534370974139102,0.0672542471507749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0403087706437739,0.0826937263621122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014453230299099,0.0,0.15614030652558886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07742726496191643,0.1616787565421676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786730157285644,0.05590890351044552,0.06275031948102383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934708072360505,0.0,0.057199990789976576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895654056732975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561290734237075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351794794394745,0.0,0.0,0.05839890538767679,0.0,0.13178045251315826,0.06897957727895683,0.0,0.0862542691786874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211478690591619,0.07596139441853228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0528671777650524,0.3242509794195904,0.13100274236528806,0.09622103345476253,0.0,0.31282809479174595,0.0,0.0,0.05601686215908076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09086984465215356,0.0,0.09732957610858307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148367469761297,0.07648484982002203,0.07444976766439403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PoisonousPineapple,2019/06/22,"I told my cat to meow if she thought I was fat. She fucking meowed. Just goes to show, I'm not the only one who thinks I'm too big :)",-2.513387096774192,-0.8409288709677405,0.7550806451612893,103.45262096774192,95.77419354838707,3.1,14.201612903225806,3.1291,-1.5904903225806453,99,2,27,0,4,35,25,31,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.4588,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,7,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,5,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4713951629544271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34552204422787586,0.3878026092746544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267239059790649,0.0,0.4048043558308677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4872321585216518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ravedrops,2019/06/22,"For the people that abuse laxatives or purge, don’t forget about electrolytes! Especially if you get any symptoms

Low potassium symptoms include: 
- Muscle weakness
- Bloating & Constipation
- High(er) blood pressure
- Dizziness/fainting
- Muscle cramps/twitching (including restless legs and eyelid twitches) 

+ Potassium is really helpful for reducing puffiness and PMS symptoms (cramping, bloating, irritability)! 

The RDI is about 3000mg however potassium is very safe, dont go over 6000mg though (no need to). Theres a thing called [nosalt](https://www.amazon.com/NoSalt-Original-Sodium-Free-Alternative-Ounce/dp/B0049IRCAA) which is sodium free. Be careful when dosing it.


Low sodium levels (uncommon, but could still be relevant)
- Headaches
- Muscle weakness
- Nauseau (especially if you get it after drinking a lot of water) 
- Restlessness/irritability
- Confusion/brain fog feeling

Low sodium levels is much less common than low potassium levels, but getting the RDI is still good for everyone. RDI is set at 2300mg of sodium (about 1 teaspoon of salt).

Low Magnesium symptoms: potassium and magnesium work together in the body, thus low magnesium symptoms are very similar to low potassium symptoms. Magnesium also spares your potassium and reduces sodium levels.
- Nervousness, anxiety.
- Headaches & migraines
- Tight muscles (neck, shoulders!) 
- Cramps in legs & feet
- (Almost) every PMS symptoms is related to a magnesium/potassium deficiency.

Magnesium is hard to get through diet depending on what kind of foods you eat. I recommend taking a supplement, 2x200mg daily (one in the morning, one at night) of either magnesiumglycinate or magnesiumcitrate. Avoid oxide as it isn’t absorbed well and causes diarrhea in most people.

Enjoy! 🤙🏼",9.632565454225967,12.629218642066428,8.862783342119137,54.505670356703575,59.996309963099634,11.80397118256897,43.163064487787736,11.491704259439757,6.501716780882096,1416,82,159,45,21,446,170,271,0.138,0.772,0.09,-0.8508,1,1,1,0,1,0,93.0,0,4,0,1,10,20,0,4,9,0,16,28,7,3,0,25,25,15,0,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,16,0,0,0,7,5,5,3,1,1,1,1,4,13,1,2,0,4,5,8,27,22,5,27,0,7,0,0,6,19,0,8,6,90,12,1,0.0,0.1157024584739548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778505392954842,0.0,0.0,0.0780928135618976,0.0,0.3174199165725981,0.0,0.06640717160313082,0.0,0.07470403353163094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847011415758988,0.0,0.10901268746323572,0.0997143053300882,0.0,0.09956341629463554,0.10031620285962667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796771955491183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444821462875845,0.09566245042881484,0.0,0.09992307148594612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227659530704615,0.09331132132655827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04937612955171408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808200925552913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040779810274402,0.0,0.05549826891058328,0.08190643556240565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747762106346108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545453351600689,0.10317541877876933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169023986303068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302081713077425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178595645596925,0.07240822546713857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916404257650909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234396757464387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540014650733154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255880786595211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597111407411982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7104896813285244,0.0734226629421813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487610197907137,0.0,0.09594326308495607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114737736674195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780148766266054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109231466665987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iyokatta,2019/06/22,"Metabolism is so fucked and I'm not even close to being underweight Anyone else in that same boat? Honestly I'm not trying to be underweight-- I just desperately want a sense of control. I have been eating well under 2,000 for months-- though I've never low restricted/fasted (I live with family-- they WILL notice), my intake ranges from 600-1200. I've been trying to eat at maintenance/a little lower (I'm 48~49kg and 153cm || 106~110 lbs and 5') which ranges from 900-1300 or 1500 at most. I have never had a fast metabolism (was never a skinny kid) and grew up basically just eating carbs and carbs and eating whatever the family made, so y'all know how that turns out. 

I don't know what to do anymore. Today we went out and I had to eat pizza at this snazzier place that didn't have kcal information-- and when I got home I *still* ate dinner. I don't count anymore, but I estimate that I ate probably 1500~2000 today. A part of me wants to do a 300kcal workout 4 times and spend 2 hours working out just to ""get rid"" of everything, but I know that shit will just mess me up and make me so unmotivated to move the next day. 

I hate how my metabolism is so fucked right now and I'm at a crossroads-- and I can't do anything about it. I'll never be beautiful. I'll never be enough. I'll never lose all this excess baggage on me.

Sorry if this was a mess, I currently am one and can't sort things out properly. Thank you for reading.",3.1857776781712235,4.693093560137459,4.793832362169431,83.22809502465265,73.87972508591065,8.2223815927088,24.336022710294337,8.841846274778883,1.6782098012849251,1130,34,232,23,23,381,166,291,0.14400000000000002,0.813,0.043,-0.9867,2,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,1,2,1,3,17,11,4,0,9,0,26,13,2,5,7,51,47,25,0,3,10,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,12,20,10,1,4,2,1,3,13,8,1,1,12,2,25,3,30,29,5,39,0,2,0,2,6,18,3,4,18,149,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964744530841682,0.06926246401893679,0.10149487925233378,0.08151488991359833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110005677789993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388311498158236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5067965915541629,0.08274882310724825,0.0,0.0,0.10235163123754494,0.0,0.06542574804096038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902540996406683,0.0,0.18676291661487787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831518954753732,0.05175282527744775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922436736864105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779758275089227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936153955414014,0.0,0.09755049633255901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331624609954626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928042972566413,0.08746852249919854,0.0,0.0,0.11081865549621288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937294605728385,0.0661208455066563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906578891061845,0.10528116425353726,0.0,0.0,0.4583899238910404,0.0,0.10534749256071953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127762473909043,0.0,0.0,0.06712310848953193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726831356141754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034927442929448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679943888076338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908310015522337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459353394002424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167986243210417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088541140377127,0.0,0.0,0.07910648443666682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119772698848687,0.0,0.0,0.0658086002909508,0.0,0.09732230603195348,0.0,0.057760521688215785,0.0,0.1877875689455872,0.0,0.0,0.13450544295667125,0.10774480326648113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685193745851225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906350459228964,0.09182617704737714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.072114161870668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neuroticflowerchild,2019/06/22,"Last night I got fucked up and fucked up I was craving food so I ordered a pizza, vegan kebab and extra fries.. I am beyond mad at myself. I can't believe that drunk me never learns.. But if I had to say something positive; I didn't purge last night. I saved the fries and the pizza for today which I'm glad my drunk ass did. But I will feel horrible for eating them later.",0.8961538461538474,2.950204961538464,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,82.71794871794873,5.438461538461539,17.442307692307693,6.6274283507984215,-0.060184615384615274,289,6,61,3,8,98,55,78,0.217,0.629,0.154,-0.8190000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,5,3,0,3,0,7,9,1,0,1,10,12,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,6,0,2,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,2,13,2,7,6,1,12,0,0,0,3,2,4,3,1,7,41,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733239576279921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482374895782216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266442837208474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933494848191047,0.0,0.0,0.4485543855462224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940271343252751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954981773382715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871059083844537,0.0,0.0,0.4553220572088811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929230224345284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18676316890277603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299537697466331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alwaystoiyurd,2019/06/22,"Common look: Small face thick body People like jordyn woods, jorja smith, kali uchis, ashley graham.. they have voluptuous bodies but their face/necks are TINY. How do they have no double chin even?! Is it with cosmetic procedures like kybella injections? Bc their face is so small, it kinda takes away from the fact that they are overweight (not saying that overweight is wrong theyre fucking gorgeous).",5.546832298136644,8.722107782608699,3.987619047619052,84.03000000000002,72.62318840579711,6.2616977225672885,22.900621118012424,7.447530270364453,1.2170273291925473,323,9,50,4,7,92,54,69,0.17600000000000002,0.762,0.062,-0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,5,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,8,7,4,1,1,6,11,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,5,3,3,11,1,5,0,0,1,1,6,4,1,1,3,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275351557184092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6510756581507811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935718303594518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709410950775472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28636114758805675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461073524366609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20317978870404976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23306326567481506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22035428361775505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32042911600607843,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elysevaldez,2019/06/22,"Veganism & Disordered Eating I’ve been a vegan for a year and 6 months now, but seeing a dietician for eating disorder purposes. She, and everyone else, keeps telling me how veganism is detriment during recovery, and wants me to try non-vegan foods during this process. I feel conflicted because I feel secure with being vegan, but then again I’m not sure if it’s disordered or not. I chose to be vegan, of course for the animals, but also because I feel better without meat or dairy. But another key factor in why I went vegan was the easy weight loss. Any input? I don’t know if I should try non-vegan foods during my healing/recovery process or not. I’m scared, honestly.",5.3434108527131805,6.611556209302329,7.196899224806202,68.99364341085274,68.30232558139535,11.934883720930236,31.38759689922481,11.645159339076185,4.401378294573644,537,22,92,20,9,188,84,129,0.095,0.7959999999999999,0.109,0.41100000000000003,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,1,5,0,7,5,0,1,1,27,17,15,0,4,13,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,5,3,4,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,5,11,4,9,11,0,7,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,5,5,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12177580691828807,0.0,0.1649919914074466,0.0,0.10355353506021098,0.15967563970394932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856532078342911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467657105233052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5235676676607265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31163463332794783,0.12720783632475627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550713351039346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309873755757074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682677394694552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353507332126973,0.0,0.0,0.08368741903869216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215459937308605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245577312397088,0.0,0.1213449988592534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435192055959353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309674980502065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677208122035928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981687942067572,0.0,0.0,0.18543227863939085,0.0,0.14116224088204174,0.13740624530718604,0.0,0.0,0.1467895277266745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806135114081134
EDAnonymous,blanabbla,2019/06/22,"I finally allowed myself to get takeout! And... Then I  complained every customer service person I could get to (because three of them disconnected on me after telling me to hold?), before finally cussing out the fourth because the dish I ordered was supposed to have squid in it... And they replaced it with imitation crab. The restaurant said it was correct but it wasn't. Any of y'all get the same rage??? like dammit this is the one time I want to actually eat like a normal human being and I'm not paying $20 for something I didn't order",4.408173076923077,6.064562701923079,5.364615384615386,79.75538461538463,71.01923076923076,7.123076923076923,32.230769230769226,7.645422480735847,2.333503846153846,427,20,76,5,8,140,75,104,0.066,0.845,0.08900000000000001,0.35100000000000003,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,0,6,0,8,2,0,1,1,14,14,5,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,5,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,5,1,12,2,13,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,7,53,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.22177398574943424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545452957895153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770724331365421,0.0,0.193382400813094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144944272976293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23254477289414285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19147722228365788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4979067072022935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35620353021321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205652299123727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22266756059481746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399795775835362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843556845274984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21617728496689875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17495664644079112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19863616008164234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325177361300174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13404444559897075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b149throw,2019/06/22,"Doctor’s appointments after weight gain? I’ve struggled with bulimia for about 8 years, cycling between purging, exercising, laxative abuse, etc., as well restriction. I have been mostly recovered, but because of stress from school I lost some weight unintentionally from a disrupted sleep and eating schedule. This unintentional restriction triggered a kind of relapse, where I have been binging pretty often for about a month, sometimes purging but for the most part trying to at least maintain *that* aspect of recovery. 

I keep telling myself that everyone overeats but if I purge again it’s really over and I’ll be back in the constant hell I was in, but it’s hard. In the period of about two months I’ve gained xx lbs and because I’m short I’ve crossed the threshold from normal to middling overweight. I feel disgusting and uglier than ever at my highest weight ever. To make things worse I have a doctors check up for the first time in a long time in two weeks that is really making me anxious... my eating disorder isn’t on record here because I see a school therapist out-of-state so I doubt that there’s any information on it. Furthermore I stopped seeing my therapist and so my records were expunged as well as part of policy.

I don’t want to elaborate to my doctor about my eating disorder. Partly because my mother who is controlling but whose health insurance I’m on may be present, and she has encouraged my bulimia before, so if she knows I’m medically overweight she will hurt me, eg she has told me to go vomit after meals explicitly because of it. The ideal solution would be for her not to be present but there are also other problems. 

I know I should be concerned about my health first and foremost and thus be honest, but being medically overweight as well as my highest weight is making this very troubling for me. I can barely sleep because I think about the doctor telling me I am disgustingly overweight and what my diet is like, what exercise I do. The most I can think of is that during final exams I gained weight and that I’m working on losing it, but I feel judged and really horrible to the point that I feel like I will relapse completely. 

Can someone share experiences with doctors and what they’ve said in similar situations? Is BMI and weight a huge topic? Do they tend to lecture a lot? It would mean so much if people could share stories... I don’t know if I’m sensationalizing the idea from my own insecurity and it would really help me. For reference, it’s a general check up. Thank you.",4.666791754756872,6.894686014799156,5.436971987315013,77.1438300739958,71.51585623678645,8.535496828752644,30.006818181818186,9.188382445141503,2.874655856236787,2027,86,351,45,40,658,229,473,0.18,0.7070000000000001,0.113,-0.9906,0,0,0,0,1,0,48.0,0,1,1,10,23,24,3,4,19,0,40,31,3,6,3,72,67,36,0,13,13,1,10,2,0,7,16,1,0,0,24,16,16,5,12,2,2,2,4,12,3,4,7,13,50,12,59,45,12,44,1,3,2,0,19,20,1,12,24,252,74,10,0.0,0.07762834640806636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052394876160113436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04455461871061436,0.0,0.0,0.0740169103337927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05037944707518607,0.0,0.239635698075871,0.0,0.05575115754610459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686945799903871,0.0708018920699476,0.07348422582147791,0.05231094673427457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017905336446302,0.3353032395849759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011244076343057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307010538708336,0.0,0.11852991512300183,0.0,0.06260544219432491,0.0,0.06408936579708646,0.0,0.0,0.09938390263313672,0.04680621096460493,0.0,0.0717719791454199,0.0,0.11145948488297854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037235499581096496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05869143283931645,0.0,0.0,0.1392855531438697,0.0,0.0,0.043915464448862684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013858187617489,0.07396206625019537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058235581305721665,0.0,0.06822711695606444,0.10802125810508494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401776038239369,0.0,0.0,0.05798154005158712,0.0,0.07329810030606725,0.0715208484389032,0.05570122568103617,0.0,0.0,0.13120170998017094,0.0,0.0,0.07136852070448876,0.0,0.13200537540800167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459199491996908,0.0,0.04816341129218765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641939193997632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21284945856492954,0.0,0.04542206628712269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06193587078747693,0.0,0.0,0.06665555762763407,0.0,0.06269206333957668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789053134897675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06232280611578106,0.0,0.0,0.13261582058111804,0.10441903607579177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364519528635655,0.13113102113600195,0.0,0.055513353256329286,0.0,0.06479916927242918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05477614398797288,0.07505086999216512,0.06849384201069147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453157896998305,0.06032035049113085,0.0,0.15214334635627727,0.043527376898132825,0.08396282655619261,0.0,0.0,0.07640837173987004,0.0,0.0,0.06260544219432491,0.0,0.04448255307468072,0.0,0.1280035109625049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05405937176258364,0.03864432840499959,0.0,0.05255474331991793,0.4787010583432781,0.1767261747758333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04769802563129663,0.0,0.06676863717581387,0.13962673586454188,0.0,0.0,0.04219156890960914
EDAnonymous,MufflerDindlin,2019/06/22,Thoughts on White Claw? I’m 24f and they’ve been super popular in my peer group. I had a couple of the 70cal cans tonight and thought they were fine. I feel like vodka sodas are more bang for your caloric buck.,0.3361240310077527,2.7696980000000018,0.9259302325581408,101.18874031007752,92.25581395348836,3.7968992248062015,18.794573643410853,5.46131890053228,-0.5323147286821706,166,5,37,1,6,50,39,43,0.0,0.7559999999999999,0.244,0.875,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,4,4,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.507685904494018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23199788543796915,0.3277877507759861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241608245252883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7285184408920372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wakka_wakka420,2019/06/22,"Boyfriend of a struggling person. Hey guys, I went off a friend to go here to ask for some advice. My girlfriend has been struggling with her relationship with food for as long as we've been dating (a little over 9 months). I think she needs advice from other people. People who have gone through this kind of stuff so she knows she is not alone. Im sorry this is vague but. Im out of ideas honestly.",1.056750000000001,3.579201175000001,1.837500000000002,96.13750000000002,87.25,4.2,16.75,5.6839178017228535,-0.6165250000000002,314,7,66,2,10,97,60,80,0.064,0.8270000000000001,0.109,0.5546,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,10,13,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,1,0,3,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,4,0,7,3,16,9,1,10,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,1,3,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483638580857489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461122040226385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663786268643038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21553824656199008,0.0,0.13771399932818326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130247311702832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649359113424185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20122034919048207,0.3850769576177011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561791191336385,0.09796046531191913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865137102830514,0.0,0.15774391289063622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227589092178522,0.0,0.0,0.13216866864180252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24714950521609874,0.15563931972148234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19137169553581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199534095783638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37268712207597743,0.2040513689055203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142141514915582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523772581497126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AlarmedRefrigerator5,2019/06/22,"binge shows does anyone else need the perfect binge show? when I binge, I have to watch a show about weight or that features lots of body goals. like I put on this Dallas cowboy cheerleading show (it's awful) to go with my dominos and there's so many perfect binges and self-triggering during a binge is basically my thing",5.919677419354841,6.758106290322584,5.300161290322581,84.6702419354839,66.74193548387098,8.135483870967743,26.79032258064516,8.07648339933343,1.4801483870967749,258,7,50,3,4,78,49,62,0.0,0.805,0.195,0.9022,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,3,1,2,2,1,0,2,8,4,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,6,4,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,27,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096691118369384,0.3072420464714618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330769054766275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624095414444745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504945859521414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041737082705333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649646887163592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25493028263881823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304011015340511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223424199094096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014421617763614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128194184301322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19921368622495544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651487455643219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EBOYFLAVOR,2019/06/22,"chaotic eating as a preface, i am 16m who's always had a interest in fitness. my golden rule when dealing with friends that had disordered eating when i was younger would be to consistently stress to them the importance of staying healthy: natural beauty comes with health and fitness, two things you absolutely can NOT achieve with either binge patterns or a lack of food. however, it seems as if my ONLY eating is a result of binging. i don't not eat. my chaotic meals aren't because i'm starving. for example, i could eat lunch with my parents at twelve o clock. when we get home at one, they leave after ten minutes to pick something up from the store. the SECOND i notice the ratchet ass car pull out from our driveway i run to the kitchen like a fucking animal. literally like an animal. i start pulling random shit from cabinets (some of which are thing i literally... dont even like) and savagely eat it in a manner of seconds. it's impossible to explain over text. something takes control over me and suddenly i've consumed 2000 calories in three minutes. not an hour ago i took an EXPIRED cinnamon roll can from the back of the fridge and ate the icing out the jar. literally... expired. i have been dairy free since the start of 2019 (i've been trying to set restrictions on my shit diet) and i will consume milk like its fucking nothing. not because i want to, but because some primal voice in the back of my head is forcing my ass to act junglese. my therapist said it's my minds way of rewarding me for getting through my day- here! you managed to not kill yourself! here's a cupcake 😌💅- but damn ma... doesnt change the fact that im getting fatter by the millisecond. it's absolutely disgusting what my eating has become. i'm not obsessed with diet, either, in terms of looking skinny, more in the sense of being healthy. my mind is telling my i'll be publicly humiliated or something with rotten tomatoes if anybody sees me consuming a gram of sugar.",4.850828267477205,6.42229020744681,5.58969604863222,78.90500000000003,69.79787234042553,8.137386018237082,33.90729483282675,8.634040054169528,2.9379699088145896,1562,77,279,26,28,508,218,376,0.1,0.794,0.106,-0.6359,2,0,3,0,0,0,47.0,2,2,2,3,8,18,7,2,25,0,24,25,6,3,1,45,43,16,1,6,14,2,0,4,1,2,1,2,3,0,13,15,17,2,2,0,2,7,10,10,0,6,8,6,34,9,52,29,7,40,0,0,2,4,15,16,7,8,18,185,47,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012491506393549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521137732785656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900802594584247,0.0,0.16530195977521914,0.09982819727242567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956201977954238,0.07786262554397774,0.0,0.0,0.10137960778288696,0.07216873013748501,0.0,0.0,0.05829380585942408,0.09318769518498547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035942976679257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593592275637477,0.0,0.0,0.6474377928739226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059701469717106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092994473700421,0.0,0.06983477068121975,0.16712743329289795,0.14167448551639994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276579363999657,0.09607990415421086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066812565937687,0.0,0.08901553558150868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763626487155004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000268566409404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957095213878794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663914578001833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590448786566949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253543135405775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673124652986057,0.10290914387714344,0.0,0.0,0.06125032343989364,0.06874535401058772,0.0,0.0,0.1003669394570708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598119622701525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202879804536796,0.08228728519293384,0.0,0.0,0.1855672242074884,0.07477120041172025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087589602832173,0.0,0.0,0.12795642979700592,0.09634327300556493,0.0,0.0,0.10354096649333276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06796172028755952,0.0,0.07900448310457618,0.0,0.0,0.10494927726289748,0.12010165034523188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042615700121547,0.06136859623245175,0.0,0.08829749236072325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0533141203154223,0.07174704685734529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421016918805955,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Beautyinloss,2019/04/27,Was EDA down for a bit? I literally thought they shut down EDA? I tried to visit a couple of weeks ago and it wouldn’t let me in. Was that just me???,-1.3195454545454552,0.5687169696969718,1.215378787878791,101.0430681818182,91.42424242424244,4.512121212121213,14.31060606060606,5.985473137389443,-1.0959030303030302,112,2,30,1,4,38,27,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,6,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624237409848157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463618614360633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523883491720697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.418080152994522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324583814420676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27758452171592723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279574188080133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,runner_618,2019/04/27,"I went food shopping with my cousin and her husband And honestly it was fascinating. I was just tagging along while they did their weekly grocery shop because I’m hanging out with them today. It was crazy watching two people with normal relationships with food go through a giant store and pick food for the week while also discussing what they were planning for dinners for the week. It also made me feel even more fucked up about my own grocery story experiences, lol",8.23729411764706,8.883509905882354,7.0047058823529404,75.12117647058824,61.70588235294118,8.682352941176473,35.82352941176471,8.238735603445708,2.9342235294117653,382,16,62,4,5,115,63,85,0.077,0.823,0.10099999999999999,0.2975,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,4,1,5,2,1,0,3,1,5,5,0,2,0,14,11,7,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,9,4,0,1,2,3,3,0,1,0,1,7,2,10,1,12,4,2,12,0,0,1,1,9,3,1,0,6,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876913807194279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964991538236517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880550802153668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759519201768103,0.0,0.0,0.09095002624060147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6525154120728666,0.0,0.0,0.16629121285274712,0.0,0.0,0.10222690720298228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020174034493488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623896322870478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247024320215839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311805485949327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705001333323872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571139348245826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43285377627934013,0.0,0.0,0.16674560001911246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,probablynappingtbh,2019/04/27,"Finally Diagnosed, feeling less like a fraud I like this sub and EDMemes because it’s super relatable. I have friends who have struggled with EDs and it’s been helpful to talk to them too. I’m not under weight or over weight. I’m arguably doing better financially, academically, and professionally than anyone my age. I think I handle stress super well. People love to be around me because I’m positive, fun, and charismatic. I kind of accepted that the amount I obsessed over food wasn’t normal and I went to see a therapist about it. 

Talked to the therapist and got diagnosed with EDNOS (which still feels like a fake ED tbh). I’m on Prozac and getting sent to an ED specialized therapist. It feels like this part of my life is so disconnected from my actual life but I’m starting to understand that this is me as a whole. I can’t nourish parts of my life and ignore this huge problem. 

Anyway, to those that think they aren’t as disordered because they function really well and hide it really well, you can still seek help and treatment!",5.0286463620981365,6.779027634517767,5.704588832487309,77.55542808798647,69.60913705583756,9.31424703891709,29.88460236886633,9.725611199111238,2.968152216582064,832,33,150,20,15,270,118,197,0.096,0.7070000000000001,0.19699999999999998,0.9436,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,3,3,10,22,0,3,7,0,11,10,0,0,0,26,29,15,0,2,3,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,0,0,15,13,3,1,7,0,0,2,4,6,3,0,5,6,18,16,23,23,5,13,0,0,1,1,12,6,0,1,9,99,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.10920605662478712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824866953444849,0.0,0.0,0.09962183816342324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20465421848302126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897352423266134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22716851112822006,0.0,0.0,0.12825625332788768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697521286393452,0.1598941827453405,0.0,0.12258973449218825,0.0,0.0,0.1353195873331407,0.0,0.08645983650853595,0.0,0.0584673066424821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950304366315408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500191353502827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165349521136224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371317713851145,0.2186903675085009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100133136290447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096460711956289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423708985314209,0.0,0.07758291066410257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708083420682142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433822496389726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917618032049497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920905225683099,0.0,0.17873973288112754,0.0,0.12819022598089225,0.11699053037715185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989480887741735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38980140975587024,0.0,0.14341224440644598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165001656309147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27254757052437995,0.3018561714690014,0.10373982912920153,0.0,0.12494127586493545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deadmemesdeaderdream,2019/04/27,"this actually happened yesterday. *has been heavier set than my peers my whole life, and always had strong arms and a stronger appetite*
*has felt fat and overweight my whole life despite being strong, muscular, and active and doctors never blaming anything on my weight except that one time in 2018 they celebrated that it “improved” when i lost 2 pounds from taking a shit*
*goes to college, terrified of gaining freshman 15 when my bmi has already been on thin ice for my whole life*
*feels fat and unworthy of social interactions despite needing them, being all on my own for the first time*

*on off restricts for months, loses a tiny bit of weight, focus on school, my sanity, and my period*
*schedules blood test bc i’m scared i have pcos because my period is gone, and pcos is known to cause weight gain*
*fasts for blood test that’s supposed to check hormones*
*very hangry, blood pressure and heart rate fall so low i get sent to the ER despite my weight going up and being in the so-called “healthy weight range”*
*eats breakfast*
*blood pressure and heart rate go back up to healthy levels*
*deletes triggering content that encourages me to restrict calories*
*realizes yes, i need to eat food*
*enjoys a substantial meal, tries not to obsess over lowering calorie counts*
*feels good and energized*
*feels allowed to eat*
*overeats, gets overwhelmed, scared i gained all of my weight back in a few days*
*adds back triggering content that encourages me to restrict calories*
*still feels unable to focus or figure out what i want from my body and my life*",2.9858633093525206,6.084104762589928,2.7406438848920907,87.7922607913669,87.70503597122303,5.369928057553956,26.014748201438852,6.961326702584282,1.5542342446043174,1236,53,209,18,40,368,165,278,0.11599999999999999,0.728,0.157,0.9006,2,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,2,8,7,17,1,6,8,1,12,31,12,4,3,39,30,17,0,3,3,0,12,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,8,15,16,3,8,0,1,5,2,10,1,2,7,13,24,7,36,20,8,39,0,4,0,0,7,16,1,1,17,120,32,5,0.0,0.0,0.08546278519196768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664369840902964,0.0,0.07287130673470031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07206863354214703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20202455114858392,0.0,0.05338629270639001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561169970883296,0.09727860732612276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899659835542495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564800959434341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08963904979574537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688402416479238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712680235466932,0.0,0.08408791594919315,0.0,0.0,0.07449318360299792,0.1058987860375959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915110209593486,0.0,0.09954436483377543,0.07345566144589621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744429321073329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755898014583712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247433671311315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797656699353142,0.09560093875895953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990334370517927,0.0,0.0,0.12987487635839773,0.0675449918400022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934462664513601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536025633427216,0.08863287571787548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989681212846479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927400087124654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06993932327844121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584721010631432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10213402422952507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945921958640474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226042198922547,0.05165534461442333,0.0,0.0,0.6398731497378564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933306929360842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snertig,2019/04/27,"What are your favorite teas? inspired by the tea post earlier today.

 Looking for recommendations here. Please tell me what your favorite teas are to curtail binging, suppress appetite, or fulfill those dessert cravings. I'm finally out of tea and I'm looking to build a new hoard.",4.47312925170068,7.815573489795916,4.211326530612244,79.4152210884354,79.40816326530613,5.715646258503401,38.77891156462585,7.1686216300943375,3.37658911564626,227,15,34,3,6,69,39,49,0.0,0.696,0.304,0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,6,6,0,5,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705817897400928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681592983597095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267240273085931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713424669905431,0.0,0.0,0.3239897332686844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29568167146721064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206607754058901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1999justchecking,2019/04/27,"19F 160cm 110lbs, recovered from a lower weight but weight now too high.  I have no desire to be underweight, but I just want to feel happy with my body. I feel like a failure for losing weight successfully in the past and feeling unable to now. I feel constantly dizzying myself calculating if I'm still at a deficit across the week or if I'm actually gaining! If someone could advise me on how to lose those 6lbs of weight (particularly interested in people with similar stats to mine who successfully went from a BMI of 20 to 18.5) and how long it took I'd really appreciate it, as well as how to stop the binging. Really appreciate this guys, thank you for reading.",8.849401041666667,7.296359304687499,9.32375,66.21291666666669,61.421875,12.908333333333333,36.95833333333333,11.855464076750405,4.3057614583333335,533,20,99,14,6,180,88,128,0.136,0.588,0.276,0.9748,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,5,9,9,0,0,7,0,3,5,1,3,0,22,13,13,0,6,7,0,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,4,1,4,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,2,8,9,7,22,9,0,16,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,4,9,64,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.13480140701190635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343863542786293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927660380293087,0.0,0.11029084452282638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793840865740165,0.09868482332049774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677696383508367,0.0,0.14704899227285148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594891496207513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748657114637911,0.0,0.0,0.122246554846496,0.0,0.3090790700363379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186702678002393,0.09576653384283344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817399387840584,0.0,0.17698770186596866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170427032038968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031607690080927,0.11548839310490155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127177633227975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534748588030511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147655284189836,0.0,0.11080485799421268,0.6728527175117163,0.12420140386246935,0.12805402339394628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alonlioak,2019/04/27,"Where are my smokers at? I know it's awful for you but honestly I'm wrecking my body anyway and nicotine is a hell of an appetite suppressant. 

Ahh there's nothing like a nice smoke and a coffee to start the day. Hideously addictive though please do not start if you dont.",1.736424242424242,4.170177581818187,3.003181818181819,89.85810606060606,82.27272727272728,5.848484848484849,25.53030303030303,7.1686216300943375,1.278939393939393,217,9,43,3,6,70,46,55,0.22699999999999998,0.6609999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.7971,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,4,4,1,0,5,1,4,2,1,0,0,7,8,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,4,8,0,5,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,4,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473970984472517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35397028745715103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551564569259825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37347860971403496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751325775672028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568595824362644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057722492041853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34980372452783937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4511122220029141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31309144161514313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StaticChocolate,2019/04/27,"It doesn’t feel like ‘real’ ED symptoms because I’m an athlete who ‘has’ to track macros and calories. I’m obsessing about being over by a tiny amount. Rant. So, I’ve been reading posts here for a while, I can really relate to them even though I feel like I shouldn’t be able to because I’m not diagnosed with anything related to food. I’ve always had a contrary relationship with the stuff, worrying about eating too much and getting fat way younger I should’ve. I was never really fat though, and I knew that, but the mirror didn’t tell me that. For a while when I was around 13 I started binging and purging, gaining weight at 14 as I took a year off sport then losing it again when I picked sports up come age 15. 

I used to be obsessed with the idea of having a BMI of 18 despite having muscle. That was mostly during the depths of my self harm problems. I never got to that weight because it was unrealistic especially with me being short, I couldn’t have ever stuck with 1k cal a day & I didn’t have enough control over my diet, as my Mum still fed me. I tried purging but it really didn’t agree with me.

So I’m 19 now and pick everything I eat. My weight does matter in my sport. I need to be under 60kg ideally, and I’m 55kg. Realistically I know that means the odd binge won’t hurt since it takes around 7000 calories to put on a kg I’m now branching out into other sports I’m gaining muscle and working out more and more. Some weeks I easily spend 10 hours or more working out. But in January I nearly weighed 60kg after I ate a lot around Christmas so I got really upset and started counting calories and macros. 

I’m justifying counting them with needing to for sports but it’s really becoming a problem. As soon as I eat something or plan to eat something I log it. Sometimes I’ll go over my calories especially if I’m eating around friends or my boyfriend and then I’ll tell myself all of these awful things about myself and want to purge. I feel fat and overweight even though I know I’m slim and toned, with a healthy BMI of 22. This week I’m 1000 calories over so far (because I ate 2 Easter eggs on days when I didn’t exercise) and I feel absolutely awful. I’ve even bought myself a sports smart watch to help me work out exactly what I’m burning during sessions, even though I’m convinced it’s wrong. I was on 1200 kcal a day back in February but now I’m on 1500 if I’m not exercising and 2000 if I’m exercising. Which is technically loads. But it’s healthy? I dunno it’s messing with my head even though my body needs food. 

These are only starting symptoms of an ED I know, and I’ve got it under control, but fighting it is so horrible. My heart goes out to you guys who suffer every day. I know I’m not that bad compared to others and it’s so exhausting. Thanks for reading anyway. Just needed to let this out to someone who isn’t my boyfriend (who is wonderfully supportive). Look after yourselves.",3.779141954112689,4.883495199664432,4.9417558919931315,84.31964804120494,71.83557046979865,7.624722959263308,27.61885437802404,7.97965635744439,1.6382415795223977,2313,82,473,31,43,764,271,596,0.11800000000000001,0.782,0.099,-0.9252,0,0,2,0,2,0,52.0,0,1,2,10,38,22,1,3,20,2,32,30,6,5,5,94,85,53,0,13,17,1,7,2,1,2,11,0,0,2,33,39,20,2,12,11,2,4,14,14,0,0,21,9,55,8,73,55,10,68,0,3,2,0,16,31,0,11,33,293,88,6,0.06637264816868832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05522736027833574,0.0719147365605743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054619034126695686,0.2363429147548244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051036469502652525,0.055418388833488624,0.16184060109993936,0.07330337526818627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372504947295326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057174159361415275,0.0,0.0,0.1488851374040229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712194687864798,0.0,0.0,0.06736684075795059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580831516898022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33957894513174297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858068808547647,0.0,0.2191925407003266,0.06003786017439864,0.055921818710962336,0.0,0.0596514564409573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342400207561081,0.09483326622718624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051613924885794,0.0,0.05127934333065611,0.0,0.034676969238110804,0.0,0.03772110551254285,0.0,0.15925280999190156,0.0,0.0,0.06571935677988146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06811748553053447,0.0,0.0,0.07865190765173688,0.044488186992094406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536368869431923,0.0,0.07105329261634173,0.07492664087594733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14590668655521927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787052963697897,0.0,0.06485264656652816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05573630808310261,0.07425401583487208,0.0,0.05642765196465922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722992716642596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04879153333876416,0.19685791044924475,0.1023813560233226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05047938979836073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356664985105241,0.0,0.0,0.127019320951007,0.0,0.06672284365796627,0.0,0.0,0.13278121909980406,0.07554660443788999,0.21260008992825308,0.0,0.0,0.07125938486300475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924114737663882,0.0,0.0,0.054904140441160085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056237329405945294,0.102193814468917,0.06564424618305192,0.0,0.14093670597582875,0.0,0.05300528256455934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598080263620051,0.0,0.07531889459036155,0.0,0.137973190160714,0.04990397124487144,0.0,0.11602523998464488,0.06110701698721534,0.0,0.0,0.04409503820628848,0.0,0.326053949166975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374245428185539,0.04506267129148876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05732465755381962,0.0,0.0,0.0391483075459094,0.05268351872383094,0.10648026964900216,0.2424720137218176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197830567132857,0.14496023508368872,0.06740464602031478,0.0,0.0,0.07256807141959487,0.0,0.042741809307885834
EDAnonymous,Linzcro,2019/04/27,"To the bank teller I encountered yesterday Fuck you.  

I was feeling good because I am finally the same size as my small mother (who has always been small, while me not so much) and said mother has been passing down some of her clothes that she doesn’t wear much anymore.  This dress fit me perfectly and in my head I looked so good.

Then you had to say this when I came into the bank:

“Oh you look so cute, what a good time of year to be pregnant and wear cute little dresses.”

Wat? Did I hear you right, maybe not...

But then.  Your dumb ass doubled down.

“You’re probably exhausted though and disagree.  Being pregnant is hard work.”

I glared.  Your co-worker looked uncomfortable.  Your peppy face probably thought I was being rude.  I could have killed you right then.  I should have let you squirm and then set you straight.  I was embarrassed and didn’t say shit.

Bitch, I’ve lost 50 lbs in the past year and kept it off.  I’m a normal weight finally down from obese.  I’m working on the last ten or fifteen than WON’T BUDGE and my fucking gut won’t go away and it’s making me sick in the head.

I’m under 130 lbs.  I may have been constipated (it happens when you don’t eat much) and maybe that dress wasn’t as flattering as I thought.  (I guess there’s a reason mother got rid of it), but you sure didn’t say that to the 300 lb woman behind me, did you?  You wouldn’t have dared.

You not only ruined my day but you ruined the lunch I was going to eat with my husband right after.  There was lots of “what’s the matter babe”?. Oh but I couldn’t tell him because I was embarrassed and he’d lie to me saying you were an idiot and I’m not fat when clearly I am still very much fat.  He means well but doesn’t know what it’s like.

So it was starving myself and then a massive binge because what’s the point if I look pregnant?  Also, I’m giving the dress to charity, though I should burn it so some unsuspecting girl doesn’t fall victim.

So fuck you bitch.  I hope your weekend was ruined too.  

Thanks for reading.",1.7749604072398206,3.809549154411768,2.748333333333335,93.99153846153848,79.51470588235293,5.6552036199095035,20.510558069381602,6.67199483983844,0.15590942684766196,1557,41,341,15,39,493,204,408,0.133,0.741,0.126,-0.6562,0,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,19,0,4,17,30,11,2,16,0,44,20,10,2,3,52,75,41,1,8,11,4,3,1,0,6,5,6,0,3,17,16,7,1,6,2,2,5,15,18,1,1,25,13,55,12,31,37,9,47,0,4,4,4,41,20,8,8,22,219,72,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174698304735568,0.0746520750249213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897556626173864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429246316528323,0.0,0.0,0.16407270736598625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261281988844922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163205419296859,0.0,0.0,0.05786030947865828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18360662368143474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04536381989980367,0.0,0.0,0.19656208195952185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24882690888343115,0.0,0.08606511803104552,0.10197694709844568,0.22575212912929854,0.0717552113030501,0.0,0.09883384564303932,0.0,0.07933681233503463,0.0,0.08036918007171669,0.0,0.1841518991567377,0.0,0.10111804531600817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910963497657735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992590251385352,0.0,0.04930634406779101,0.0731316663093705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174213369796752,0.0,0.04383139636449648,0.08992041779361,0.0,0.0,0.3013601252467676,0.0,0.09793715486219357,0.07627453651081563,0.0,0.0,0.05988707008273882,0.0,0.18026640111357134,0.0977285647064448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638104873402892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879040162790635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823413567926248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564542278590803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481195485285213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346109179458665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974169216292834,0.0,0.0,0.09224444334479624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298545423970471,0.08534180518316732,0.2853875523782213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209363553679394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164844219937934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455760032672903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078416973728834,0.08259974030423109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629380620556712,0.14245120934582184,0.052314945216626295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402626198692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925163945659642,0.08066672923587825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959460363587717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555014540156562
EDAnonymous,wu-zetian,2019/04/27,"Unnecessary post about my bf We live together and he knows I count calories and stuff but doesn’t suspect a thing, (mwahaha). I have two weight scales and always weigh myself at other peoples places and at the gym. Sometimes I don’t eat bc I’ve been b/p-ing and I tell him it’s bc of binging.
I always buy the low cal/sugar free option and if he buys the wrong thing I don’t eat it. I get really excited when I find new diet versions of drinks. If I eat above 1500 kcal i will stress and cry about it all evening, so nowadays if I ask him to buy something unhealthy like mcdonald’s he says “only if you promise not to cry or bitch about it afterwards”. 
I’m currently sick and have been puking for “normal” reasons (for someone who purges as a hobby i really hate puking..). I’m gonna start taking a new anti-depressant soon and I read the side effects you can get to him, one of them was anorexia. He laughed and said “you’re not anorexic, you’re bulimic!”. I literally froze for like 4 seconds until I realised he was joking about my current sickness that makes me throw up. Phew.",2.527952415284787,4.346207990867583,3.992021148762317,86.97140591204037,76.39726027397259,6.802307137707282,25.6815669310262,7.669130373188453,1.3801908675799093,846,31,172,12,19,280,140,219,0.192,0.7070000000000001,0.10099999999999999,-0.9765,2,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,1,2,1,1,8,12,2,1,7,0,11,9,0,3,1,28,23,20,0,5,8,0,2,2,1,2,2,2,0,0,10,11,7,0,5,4,4,1,5,5,0,3,5,4,26,8,18,16,2,17,0,1,0,0,18,6,1,6,11,98,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23300800821684786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308954701194444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076006183188472,0.0,0.0,0.12059503288092985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716175804004238,0.0,0.4298120346803769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247883126619093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279715114459923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630450364542738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382361902503416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694878554852795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680887451346874,0.0,0.1236361367735868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934613466086736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704554333745059,0.0,0.0,0.13718533437019856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487803823319543,0.106487998101295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706902787131014,0.0,0.14628626073561046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409602048843258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400532599925241,0.0,0.1793948624422568,0.14395911972753295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331866799196252,0.11134584190615536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186345685025828,0.10779067223870764,0.1384787809603986,0.0,0.09910359943141386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603871330948435,0.0,0.16028410008873245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527413299563147,0.0,0.12237960467173065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860399804175233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677467130956478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050100011090455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530848269444693,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,destructive-,2019/04/27,"I told my best friend about my binging and restriction and they said to “just eat normal amounts and learn moderation. Why starve when you’re not even fat???”
I just wanted someone to open up to but idk I now know that normal people will never understand very unhealthy relationships with food because they made it sound like eating “normally” is easy.",5.9528571428571455,8.170332222222225,5.2446349206349225,79.90314285714291,68.04761904761905,8.214603174603175,28.473015873015875,8.841846274778883,2.3347358730158727,282,10,48,5,5,85,53,63,0.07,0.7040000000000001,0.225,0.9221,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,1,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,1,19,8,5,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,5,4,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,7,3,6,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972812159237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611743780509176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40194758503483896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297252283382383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23749659488297914,0.0,0.15174386184288546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794036471871248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595472954168596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858454207847816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148148683880147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5773126211318497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361641538151673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086803280486632,0.0,0.0,0.18682840416152333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641534367478836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876756774279857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446701904676248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162056665703,0.11584616700966748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17722711972069824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yodledee96,2019/04/27,"Fucked up dream I woke up just a couple of minutes ago from a dream where I passed out at work and wound up getting sent to treatment for my disorder, they made me eat and when I went to go purge, it turned out they had bathrooms specially designed so that you couldn’t. So when they found me in the bathroom trying to purge I got sent to an actual hospital because apparently I was beyond their help.

The most fucked up thing about it is that I’ve never been this motivated to keep going.

It’s funny how the strangest things can make you think about how truly sick you are right?",8.928793103448278,6.341909465517245,8.106275862068966,78.2663103448276,62.103448275862064,11.34896551724138,34.40689655172414,9.3871,2.752229655172413,462,13,96,6,5,144,83,116,0.11900000000000001,0.755,0.126,-0.2716,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,4,2,11,3,2,0,6,0,7,5,0,5,1,16,23,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,4,1,1,3,2,0,6,2,2,0,0,10,0,15,1,19,12,1,21,0,0,0,2,10,11,2,1,4,67,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.20980641820138385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19058219523853295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106040048447978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23789049925722505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24640561113847365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21999598243004853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23573351773234066,0.0,0.3975232060605136,0.1123272515066429,0.0,0.2443759186059048,0.0,0.17195303620940566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410820435378385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19109953991807715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034357087734712,0.1435124131531151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658192249826709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836065782259346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856693970446096,0.13776163271107644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596910061439955,0.23385539920120554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930471484015813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652064508963487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alterily,2019/04/27,"Scared of overuse injuries So I am an over exerciser and I feel like I am always tettering on the balance of overuse injuries so I’m constantly icing everything and doing low impact activities but recently the pain has gotten so bad that I’ve had to stop mid session.

I went to to physio and just told him like where it hurt but I think I did a bad job because what I wanted to say is that all my joints hurt and everything hurts because I exercise for X amount every day, but I was scared of what he might think or that I was bragging or that he would be like ohhh that’s nothing you need exercise more, and my body just hurts too much to exercise more. He like out some electrodes and like stimulated the muscles in my knee which made it hurt worse.

He gave me a bunch of exercises but I don’t think they are going to work because like when you are in starvation syndrome you can’t put on muscle or something.

I am honestly terrified. I don’t know what to do, I feel like I can’t exercise and like I am going to have to fast till I can exercise to my crazy standards again, which he said will be 3 weeks, but if I can’t put on muscle then will it really be three weeks. I’m so scared, I know I should be trying to gain weight but omg I am so so scared. I am so scared that if I keep on exercising I might break something, or really injure myself and I am also so scared that I am just making it up and I should just take a pain killer or something and get back to it.",3.247792207792209,4.154350532467537,4.620000000000001,86.87500000000001,72.89610389610391,8.197402597402599,25.688311688311693,8.575989854853784,1.5203454545454549,1156,36,256,20,22,385,144,308,0.245,0.6559999999999999,0.099,-0.9958,1,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,1,2,18,25,0,6,7,0,36,14,2,3,1,50,59,35,0,7,17,0,3,8,0,7,11,2,0,0,17,11,1,2,7,8,0,5,5,16,0,1,10,5,38,9,27,38,7,30,0,6,0,0,14,12,0,10,20,174,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671046143796303,0.06982173318535384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645233583205407,0.14012648582850715,0.15345642827586772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932076186048825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906793567024198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05411647417827603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069970908618999,0.0,0.15082988050660415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848571329934275,0.11989388915637955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04384069927691025,0.0,0.09537855697899436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4491491186611341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326998304931613,0.07458508375422028,0.0,0.0,0.09223198146059003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279623840148267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793998216006861,0.05601209379878165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780353221550716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061685175704837225,0.062219887160735975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051608904386026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857714939626565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871002212582986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751270152577383,0.0,0.08285324630853966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981978731423532,0.06673040745994445,0.5040649431605322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19379930195146286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015441754807017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309158626427809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130278887555505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018177280691016,0.0,0.05697092520222926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04949363269134744,0.0,0.13461872773690353,0.10218254238283972,0.0,0.07778751772681798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061089134114501786,0.0,0.08551377498525872,0.05960887115910619,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,billionsofatoms,2019/04/27,"Anyone else just NEEDS to eat every 2h or so? Ever since having an ED where I started restricting like crazy, I also started feeling hungry (almost painfully so) every 2-4h. Before ED, I could easily go 10-12h without touching food during daytime. I also see people water fasting for days or eating insanely little sometimes and idk what I should do with my life and my insane constant hunger. What if I'll ever need to do a medical check that requires me to not eat 1-2 days before? Or only have to drink stuff? After ""recovery"" It's been 2 years on and off restricting and binging and eating maintenance calories. Whyyyy this hungeeerrr still.",5.41116666666667,7.165511783333336,6.228333333333333,74.1566666666667,68.66666666666666,7.666666666666668,30.0,8.167268648758528,2.51925,514,20,78,7,9,169,90,120,0.14300000000000002,0.805,0.053,-0.8743,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,0,2,0,7,11,0,0,2,24,14,13,0,5,7,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,6,8,3,1,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,3,8,1,10,11,0,16,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,12,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784722896436538,0.0,0.0,0.22017430106024607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625550841635973,0.14104957631047318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342781020896427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487622287015817,0.0,0.10991080597101012,0.0,0.0,0.17755942699618005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485500265770514,0.0,0.5634447376332076,0.1149977863459479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490438295644281,0.231970024373462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960534726087185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16645977183943253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823570447846685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723376917949814,0.0672540269231802,0.13797210905499588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386785951064897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20414721542339773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469710706661778,0.14648060873735158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954365429447534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969769360230844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387428994546656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136149876184866,0.0,0.1948737950822977,0.0,0.10993595140364022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758847839456586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269992820441956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864892787341105
EDAnonymous,swagzilla_xo,2019/04/27,I just wish Fiber One had a vegan version of their bars that’s it,-1.3520000000000003,0.6377088000000022,1.495000000000001,97.7025,94.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,14.166666666666668,7.1686216300943375,-0.3003333333333331,52,1,13,1,2,18,15,15,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5076791787458869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8615461981042581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatgirldoes,2019/04/27,"The worst part of this for me Is the competitiveness. I need to be smaller than everyone, I need to be sicker than everyone, I need to be worried about more than anyone else. I hate it. Guess a 7 day fast is in order.",1.6743333333333332,3.389995933333335,4.0063888888888926,86.37625000000004,78.55555555555556,7.166666666666668,22.36111111111111,8.07648339933343,1.0484444444444443,167,5,37,3,4,58,31,45,0.217,0.7829999999999999,0.0,-0.875,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,4,10,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,10,7,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17677616839832336,0.2590418363021655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304664368720806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111969317806914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831567148291783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785074424937354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496053555442956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5623838540590222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27377717109158634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567488704509863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,autotrapqueen,2019/04/27,"I’m back on my bullshit Wish I could flair a post as a fucking self-roast. I am fucking up hard. I stole 2 Vyvanse pills from my friend with a prescription and the worst part is how fucking easy it was for me to do. She left her backpack in my car, I knew she had some in there, saw that there were a ton of tiny capsules and I know she doesn’t take them every day so of course she won’t notice if I take 2 of them? What the fuck is wrong with me. I have such an addictive personality but I’m not a fucking drug addict like I’ve been acting like. I’m a college student in a highly ranked program, a fucking HEALTHCARE field. I have jobs and spend a lot of time with family and friends who love and support me. I am lucky to have a good education. I know so much better. I know that I can’t just take drugs that aren’t mine. I can’t take them just cause I want to be able to high restrict easier while still getting stuff done. Hell, it’s not ok that I felt like I needed them so badly because getting out of bed each morning and getting through each day is so fucking challenging and draining sometimes. I need to go back to a therapist/psychiatrist really badly I know so please no one yell at me I am a fragile Pisces. Just needed to get this off my chest",2.0997084048027475,3.5981887358490603,3.490368782161237,91.49263722126932,76.73584905660377,6.327615780445969,24.498284734133787,6.980632752743323,0.7572641509433962,985,33,221,10,22,323,153,265,0.13,0.6809999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.9492,2,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,4,3,15,24,8,0,15,1,22,14,1,2,0,38,55,17,0,7,7,0,3,3,2,1,5,1,1,1,10,13,0,1,6,0,1,3,8,12,0,1,8,5,37,12,27,44,8,22,1,0,1,8,14,11,8,4,10,148,47,5,0.09106384715519343,0.0,0.0,0.1985460698556876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400449548530372,0.15206901727029942,0.05551167600173499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053857258372388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354765571955788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270707202073892,0.0,0.0,0.11745729578197678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318993233218976,0.0,0.0,0.21121030368397672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672521877977298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584689062306512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743557398721602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407114048369253,0.589309415181848,0.19030840646761388,0.0,0.05175368290547763,0.07638003449881167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157532028860383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19242790854321692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903668169194028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018523548459735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894113638333836,0.0,0.0,0.13346758772230582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741922637735438,0.08218867742753003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694240559961298,0.20256806639927516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367679355330277,0.0,0.0,0.061707219583247236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986132723619512,0.0,0.0,0.0795134388395881,0.0,0.099960758216335,0.0,0.0,0.08721399320231962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833783231068996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949994528699708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006447333302875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272370597010429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424631815814768,0.0,0.10333817459630157,0.0,0.0,0.2738747201003807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573214529258586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05310006159225331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371181643505684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471893009057544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956402142198488,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinkyscum,2019/04/27,"Yoga and healthy recovery? I really want to recover, but I don’t want to end up overweight again. I really want to get back into yoga and I want to just look and be healthy/fit. But I’m not sure how to go about it. I’m barely underweight (BMI 18.2) but I don’t look like it. Seriously. My body type of thick thighs and hips of course a puffy tummy. I’m also not toned at all either especially my tummy, rip.
Also, because of issues with my digestion (constipated/bloating since before my ed) I fast on flavored coffee and water most of the time. So it’s really difficult for me to have a bite of fucking anything. Any idea how to work up to eating? Thanks!",1.099649122807019,3.4532911954887235,3.660481203007517,84.61127318295742,84.41353383458647,6.854937343358396,20.89674185463659,8.021203637495839,1.2603638095238097,511,16,102,11,15,178,85,133,0.08800000000000001,0.789,0.12300000000000001,0.4096,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,1,0,3,0,4,8,3,2,2,24,17,13,0,4,7,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,1,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,4,11,3,21,16,3,12,0,0,2,1,0,6,1,1,6,63,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029410591668626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288048027990606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586769542962114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456440417051338,0.0,0.11546213661467325,0.0,0.16117334322142027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21039100636837327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381297542292755,0.0,0.0,0.16776039888208044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510582355918133,0.09895852912906844,0.0,0.1076456564877986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138200176247476,0.0,0.1976940740664636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253580482024548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181121757853444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640212969169005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668131040649752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785160010608393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438261339961528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044607202313067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4468739936335524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378922087796941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swtpttato,2019/04/27,"Husband Blunders I weighed myself recently and was pleasantly surprised. My clueless husband says, ""I wonder if that scale is wrong? I don't think you look \*that\* skinny."" He didn't say it in a mean way, just matter-of-factly. Probably even meant it as a compliment...

I'm trying to recover, but that comment stung.",2.415517241379309,5.3610004655172405,3.5133620689655167,82.78659482758623,87.44827586206898,6.348275862068967,29.66379310344828,7.645422480735847,2.6008206896551735,249,13,41,5,8,80,50,58,0.073,0.86,0.067,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,8,10,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,6,3,3,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,2,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20035118517652128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547266286100559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33042284922317405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270485213642854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29950862914140103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824514126084423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436606017380584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20594586776593532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407747403690104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289559672553929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316513205339339,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theblacrose28,2019/04/27,"Possible TW idk; I broke my fast and now I’m sad and in pain,kinda a vent I gained 4lbs after doing good. So I’m like ok I’ll fast for like 3 or 4 days. Well tonight was day 3. I was debating weather or not to carry it into day four when getting pizza with my family. I decided to just break and eat the pizza...at 10pm at night. At first I felt good and fine. I’m like “oh this should be anew diet, the pizza diet” “I’ll fast and then end it with pizza”(we get pizza every Friday) then the stomach pain kicked in.  The sadness and guilt soon followed after. I ate two slices of cheese pizza and now I’m ill.My mother knew nothing of this fast so she’s like “oh it might be food poisoning we should take you to the doctor”. I’m like “nah, it’s fine” but I really wanted to say “it might be the fact that I unexpectedly broke a 3 day fast at 10pm with pizza”. But I didn’t of course. And now TMI: I’m shitting  maroon piss. I shit you not(pun not intended) Not only that I felt so bad and worthless. The only thing that made me feel better was a Kurt Cobain interview and listening to some nirvana songs. I love that, that always makes me feel better. Ok I’m done now. Sorry for the gross long,probably confusing ramble. I can’t talk to any of my friends about it and I don’t have the many but this community is really great.",0.3668920521945438,2.404567782918153,2.7605088967971514,91.95416785290631,84.69395017793593,5.881897983392646,17.90759193357058,7.1686216300943375,0.15527036773428282,1021,24,230,15,30,350,149,281,0.16899999999999998,0.674,0.157,-0.6667,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,2,0,4,12,31,4,2,12,2,17,18,4,3,1,42,39,22,0,3,9,1,4,5,1,4,3,3,0,0,15,16,10,0,6,1,0,1,6,14,1,3,10,7,23,17,24,22,1,31,0,5,0,1,11,6,3,6,28,127,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271045929146798,0.0,0.0,0.08394219944775105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306572940647354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21834208907770555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31842967308359743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634421403325258,0.0,0.1263201212392255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126308080793336,0.0,0.0,0.10932959452111808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400199566428084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636653617109995,0.0,0.12482811162499716,0.0,0.2370400327648112,0.0,0.0,0.10499645806823657,0.14926194464893455,0.0,0.095368036406452,0.0,0.12898271506485978,0.0,0.0,0.20706818809038624,0.0,0.1360910359892167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30152831321037743,0.0,0.0,0.10923891035652812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114077823356354,0.11680019633167403,0.08239594775851873,0.12514694635175178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618968174294426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583837575590128,0.0,0.11844226874308447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877606057871472,0.2626938661743073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915800793924235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815532570731294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981630000607806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534150484269177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817894334529093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281015390191698,0.09921493826014507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200684595130532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205811715842065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280704035570766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098575366581083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anhedonicandlaconic,2019/04/27,"Friends bought me a fuckton of ice cream for my bday because they've seen me eating it a lot and wanted to do something nice for me . . . I've been having a mini bulimic relapse and ice cream is one of my major triggers/favorite things to purge so I've been buying at least a pint every day and b/ping it

I've managed to stay clean for a little under a week because my schools ED services are threatening to hospitalize me if my vitals get any worse

Fucking pray for me",8.82125,5.750815291666669,8.888749999999998,74.08125000000003,62.75,10.85,39.625,8.07648339933343,3.2824875,372,15,73,3,4,123,65,96,0.067,0.7959999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.6997,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,6,0,6,2,0,0,0,6,11,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,3,9,3,12,7,3,6,1,0,3,1,1,3,1,2,2,44,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18677093780209345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33484732040307474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712607322987806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28103479366701273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314038754202241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121933629707202,0.2539088463322015,0.14349292019634755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752707451875442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23349700790267916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610946935135486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779597479916134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21143844439600676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927396037709729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246478678522945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619952693078344,0.0,0.2203070967695423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798910941667111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dramanautica,2019/04/27,"Scared I made my sister ED Hey guys, I’m pretty close to my sister and we chat all the time but I think my ED is starting to rub off on her as she picks up some of my bad habits (like obsessing over calories/weight or binging occasionally). What can I do? I feel like such a shit person rn.",0.7534408602150542,2.579243483870968,2.7141935483870974,94.0079569892473,81.90322580645163,5.423655913978496,18.397849462365595,6.42735559955562,-0.2724279569892469,224,5,53,2,6,75,51,62,0.213,0.71,0.077,-0.8847,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,2,0,3,1,1,2,1,11,8,4,0,0,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,11,2,8,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,9,5,1,2,4,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531157886315208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328065933893315,0.21656888151078854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001640280390811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962054495999449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28684582137106795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646970058721799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30841034265326084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035038780741923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111769072176453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145696054510324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19424489892494812,0.0,0.0,0.17676794665431933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691524075078823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,4amsolitude,2019/02/13,"DAE get blue and red dots around their eyes after purging? I never see anyone talking about it.

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~~And I definitely don't think its kind of pretty bc it looks like freckles from far away~~",3.6898648648648624,6.585868729729732,3.32560810810811,87.69489864864866,77.91891891891892,4.781081081081081,22.763513513513516,5.985473137389443,0.4726810810810811,161,5,28,1,4,48,35,37,0.0,0.7929999999999999,0.207,0.7968,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,6,5,0,5,0,0,5,0,2,3,0,0,3,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139093713564853,0.3520391254004747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20257758730494135,0.0,0.0,0.2579104761537829,0.0,0.0,0.2721996320976847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136571632873425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016967518595509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154159834372482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432901831929955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22344841019361344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947473984954429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308677650607621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328643833044797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18563961939988252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520391254004747,0.0
EDAnonymous,tipsybixh,2019/02/13,"Working out/gym TWICE a day? I thought about it- the day seems longer and more fulfilling when you fill it with more stuff, and what better way to fill it than BURNING CALORIES and gettin smol-er...

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I think if I went low to mid-intensity for about 30-60 min x2 a day, that would be ideal. Once as soon as waking up (hurr for that ""optimal fat burning"") then after an OMAD meal toward the late evening.

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Doing OMAD vegan-keto and gym twice a day UNF 

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So yeah who else does this? Just trying to relate and see others' take, not giving tips",5.438415584415584,6.049585854545459,5.342207792207791,84.75045454545456,67.72727272727272,7.740259740259741,26.623376623376625,7.447530270364453,1.2847012987012985,444,12,87,4,7,138,83,110,0.038,0.855,0.107,0.8185,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,0,6,1,3,3,2,0,0,14,10,11,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,6,2,0,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,2,2,1,4,2,14,6,2,17,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,2,10,54,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42989241527937744,0.4821103276951373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696817507595705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34117231274971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573662349410832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048149172498777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735271354155784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268703694739098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14918860366767114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084650627196618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053895489041362,0.12039934168507198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513995245032482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943876946750722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474321108509877,0.0,0.10499513609677752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979198389156072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497730225536923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260105508024335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628270081427603,0.0,0.0,0.09394965554646012,0.0,0.4821103276951373,0.0
EDAnonymous,oksurewhatsize,2019/02/13,"After five years of bulimia, I was absolutely horrified to go to the dentist yesterday But you know what? Two very small cavities. That's it. Nothing else. No worn enamel or anything. Holy shit I'm so relieved y'all don't even know. I've been b/ping since I was 13, and I'm 18 now and do it almost every day, maybe several times a day and I was SO worried my teeth were fucked by my dentist was like ""yah keep doing what ur doing"" so I guess there's my free pass to keep b/ping!",-0.8523529411764734,1.292287882352941,1.7541568627450983,94.59770588235297,96.64705882352942,5.072941176470589,18.564705882352946,6.742157984588678,0.23313647058823506,372,12,84,6,15,127,73,102,0.14300000000000002,0.74,0.11699999999999999,-0.7043,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,6,5,2,0,2,1,10,5,2,0,0,11,20,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,2,0,2,7,0,9,4,6,13,0,10,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,8,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088767026714268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152566461161532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845228624312344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18427351280598886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456967237327544,0.0,0.18585545259278333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393065356699933,0.0,0.0,0.12536561397563212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430032687417317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921386573433293,0.0,0.0,0.24245950767618546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776847263999227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216109493154743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21166076018791613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492023878547887,0.22643108056907574,0.18247321181829185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862701647368455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548305949140198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200873919773725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240184829773104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205185912514567
EDAnonymous,lilithbitch,2019/02/13,"anatomy class first post here 

ahhh 

so today in anatomy class, we learned the skin weighs 9-11 lbs... anyone else thinking what I’m thinking???",3.0114102564102545,5.8877198846153895,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,80.92307692307692,3.466666666666667,27.89743589743589,3.1291,0.6786820512820508,111,5,19,0,3,33,23,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27600162084872765,0.4044434684540123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297429513145951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357537629213454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37803842827096296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5058490085675801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741541261804786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nonfatchaitealatte,2019/02/13,"Valentine's Day AKA D-Day 2019 My boyfriend wants to go out for dinner tomorrow and we decided on a chain restaurant that has calories listed online.. No biggie.

We're also celebrating our anniversary/belated V-Day on Monday and he picked this dessert cafe with crazy Belgian waffle creations. I went there once before and mentioned to him we HAVE to share this desert (Cookie Licious- a waffle with a brownie and cookie dough and a million grams of fat and calories) and so now that's what we're doing. I don't even know how to start to estimate this.

Do I share it with him and count it as 1000 and call it a day? Or do I get a fruit crepe and estimate it at 800? Help me before I have a panic attack at work :) 

(menu attached for your enjoyment lmao what do I get)

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EDAnonymous,hollisterm,2019/02/13,"Chew and spit? I was wondering how the chew and spit method works for some of you... like does it help curb cravings, do you still end up consuming calories, etc.",2.7286021505376357,5.044987451612903,2.523870967741935,95.37247311827957,77.70967741935483,6.713978494623658,23.23655913978495,7.793537801064563,0.9266043010752684,125,4,27,2,3,37,27,31,0.0,0.843,0.157,0.6369,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,3,16,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625608087181749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36695096553081785,0.0,0.4620592236088825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27769968717264115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024083344534028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308642446879496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4492957416245495,0.3016187341474589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bayareagoddess,2019/02/13,"i'm an imposter (do i really want to be skinny) idk if peach is still down or not but i really need to tell somebody about this

i eat way too much. i eat a lot of sugar too. and i feel like shit. my body is very average, probably bordering on ""thick"". my stomach isn't that pudgy, my thighs are big but not ""sloppy""... i hate my body just because it's not the body i feel like i should have. i feel disproportionate and useless as a black woman sometimes because my ass flat lmao. thats so dumb. basing my body off of what men like. eating so maybe one day my ass will suddenly get bigger and men wont tell me to my face that they'll leave me for someone with a nicer ass.

i wish the fat went to the right places. it goes to my stomach and my cheeks. i want to look like normani, i want to look like megan thee stallion but i look like me. so i guess i fell into (god that sounds horrible) bad eating behaviors... because i thought ""if i cant look the way i was supposed to look... why not be skinny?"" so i started intermittent fasting. and not eating for 24+ hours. and i lost a little bit of weight. i would get so stressed when i ate a little more of the serving size of a snack. i felt like i was posing as someone with ed tendencies. now that i'm doing kind of ok i STILL feel like i'm posing. i don't know how i want my body to look. i feel like shit all of the time. 

this was a very whiny post sorry. ",0.4475000000000016,2.309934083333335,2.4306666666666668,95.447,83.16666666666666,5.466666666666668,19.333333333333336,6.588339656340683,-0.062466666666666885,1075,28,255,11,30,359,153,300,0.149,0.682,0.16899999999999998,0.3534,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,1,1,1,14,19,4,1,14,1,19,27,18,1,1,41,50,21,0,10,12,0,8,9,0,5,1,1,0,3,10,9,12,0,8,0,0,2,9,8,0,1,8,17,44,11,27,35,5,26,0,2,7,3,7,11,6,5,19,148,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06273065614417211,0.1373961871429146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820228209670169,0.4172640909496442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048452823366555535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843852282473345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899406668096164,0.2146923842409317,0.07213686291943469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07850495401206796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08276448758619129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417560969078016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398820438677721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823663840392432,0.04128964399764373,0.0,0.0,0.07955213192783474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330343793972896,0.15060058128474754,0.0,0.0,0.3785431425239056,0.0,0.08201358942456352,0.06387308810174275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547847713554147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055229409678748495,0.05570816000604045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091023066729106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784951651213603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195405239990875,0.0,0.08100316256069792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626077854829447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416085939344704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15424033144842048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12731530626163154,0.0,0.07430578047884377,0.08410221158163214,0.053177607810685534,0.0,0.1199982974738798,0.0,0.08606149635867097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133437450501265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059645060206005185,0.043809077809153184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12398071938628605,0.17725517258666554,0.1192698585106682,0.0,0.0914884561937851,0.0,0.06964653395792215,0.06779340332103614,0.0,0.08639612872122499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053370404284604274,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayfthoi,2019/02/13,"Three Pounds I’m three pounds away from my GW.

Will those three pounds make a difference on me visually? 
Nope. Three is hardly enough to be noticeable.
Will those three pounds make me a better, more complete person?
Nope. I did not need to lose them, and I will have used unhealthy means to get rid of them.
Will those three pounds make me happier?
Nope. An ED on top of ADHD fucks over your rewards system. I will not be satisfied.

And yet...

Will I still put everything that’s actually important to me on hold until they finally slough off?
Yep.
Will I still glorify this stupid number, then move on to glorifying a new one?
Yep.
Will I still cycle back and forth between averting my eyes when I’m in the shower and furiously agonizing over every detail of my body in the mirror?
Yep.
Will I still continue the hateful self-talk?
Yep.

Whether its three, ten, twenty, fifty pounds... nothing will change when you reach that goal weight. Why do we hurt ourselves so much getting there?",2.3315217391304337,5.170595630434786,2.79304347826087,89.2867391304348,84.54347826086956,6.243478260869567,21.043478260869566,7.586124646067393,0.9964043478260872,772,24,148,14,23,238,115,184,0.125,0.71,0.166,0.5402,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,1,2,3,5,10,8,4,0,7,4,16,4,2,4,0,16,28,10,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,10,0,0,1,1,7,5,1,2,1,0,0,2,5,6,0,9,1,3,20,2,21,15,3,27,0,2,1,1,7,11,1,0,13,104,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.14252049087798171,0.0,0.17551972656913994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721566215652034,0.11230088096015783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916641891051536,0.0,0.1622249361158018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449802091563045,0.0,0.1531271639126065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15258769474065198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090525978589742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305062570617105,0.0,0.13125733762849376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599869977583505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501780104923353,0.1526067234829298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082913758129674,0.14419085903188386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15634599010655198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338887611832656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924618762143871,0.0,0.0,0.15908764810332632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15522450644063482,0.10736111315566896,0.10829176166994202,0.0,0.1410527923168588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14013572706759647,0.16627511163652328,0.0,0.0,0.09896500917255684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752232651619466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681725040888766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235853743144456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665322649116814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173867881508637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613743871328578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17784550939420798,0.0,0.0,0.13178441137599708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,visvya,2019/02/13,"What are some good recovery-focused communities? Hey all, 

I'm a mod at /r/1200isplenty. Something I've noticed is that a lot of people turn to 1200isplenty looking for ""healthy ways to lose weight"" instead of returning to their disorder.

Of course, most of the tips/behaviors/recipes on 1200isplenty are similar to the ones ED sufferers use so it's not the right sub. Using our content with the same mindset would probably further a disorder.

Currently I just link people to /r/EDrecovery and the US helpline. I'll add helplines in other countries. What are other recovery-focused communities, on or off reddit, that I can redirect people to?",5.894336283185838,8.638574053097349,6.047088495575224,71.83452654867259,69.53097345132744,10.183716814159293,38.73362831858407,10.355215969177356,5.026218407079647,520,31,79,16,10,165,82,113,0.107,0.8420000000000001,0.051,-0.7399,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,2,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,8,0,6,1,0,2,1,15,11,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,5,1,17,10,5,10,0,2,1,0,4,7,0,4,2,55,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545073767276517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631344075094345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16651085261598692,0.22183205009543724,0.0,0.16857622549639367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257506739165361,0.0,0.0,0.13436417089106598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124010052908245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378655398658689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933572217337378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152650756432665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21567894402535745,0.0,0.0,0.2385144347046272,0.3425120153625589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573907193213411,0.0,0.24145973022431103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085715243928634,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teapip99,2019/02/13,Binge (Delete this if not allowed sorry) does anyone have tips on how to STOP BINGING I am at college which is a massive trigger bc I am soooo stressed out! I was at my lw (123.8) beginning of the semester and now i am around 129-130 (which I know is at least half water weight but it still stings!,-0.5437704918032793,1.6151432295081989,0.9103114754098378,99.40087704918035,100.31147540983606,3.7514754098360656,19.214754098360654,5.6839178017228535,-0.25360459016393433,231,8,51,2,10,73,51,61,0.076,0.924,0.0,-0.5024,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,7,2,0,3,0,11,9,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,6,0,8,8,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,4,36,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25142651938847416,0.0,0.0,0.32010220970574244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146706593149519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976156248458701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025200869635073,0.0,0.0,0.2871608500317248,0.3006247689774239,0.4118973847064383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378712598721026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noxfoxen,2019/02/13,"DAE starve all day then binge to convince themselves they don’t have a disorder because they’re eating only to cry about it Because lol same 


BUT IM TOTALLY FINE GUYS. Nothing to see here. Not disordered at all. ",2.587500000000002,5.490152750000004,3.1650000000000027,86.62000000000002,84.0,6.2,28.0,7.554174236665415,2.05535,170,8,30,3,5,53,35,40,0.13,0.688,0.183,0.5249,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,6,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32949255944128863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29686484216477843,0.17429353516117227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6194763267515345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765405837679452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675971162127186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919241506624657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593190707616273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554277765473014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535999682387785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,love_blue_,2019/02/13,"Stupid things that triggered me back into my ED (possible tmi) The first thing happened awhile ago, i was too fat to fit into my favorite jeans. I cried so hard and I don’t ever cry. The second was realizing I had stomach rolls and love handles again. The third was (TMI) realizing I had a BM everyday instead of every few days. The final straw was looking at ED related stuff and now I’m back in full swing.
I’m 5’8” 150 lb guy and at my lw i was 120 before inpatient was threatened.",1.6371428571428552,3.859511081632654,3.52383673469388,87.25330612244898,81.04081632653063,6.3689795918367365,24.08571428571429,7.554174236665415,1.2318253061224491,378,14,77,6,10,127,70,98,0.135,0.772,0.094,-0.505,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,2,1,0,5,0,9,3,2,1,1,10,14,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,8,2,10,1,7,6,2,17,0,0,1,1,2,7,0,0,10,52,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343541424915128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355894363361849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18568583640929115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794002982623796,0.1407313377565464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973889637263209,0.18385648344201008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23904508112403625,0.0,0.18561451086579908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606825582822492,0.19296778454611896,0.0,0.19547877167959687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18324657245439188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694855812596346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460058753592893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24980523709352795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28994617302244624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LeastCurrent,2019/02/13,"Throwing out food. God damnit this is something that makes me feel so bad and guilty but I am about to fucking throw away the food that my dad just thoughtfully made for me. He is concerned about me not eating for days cause after all these years I don't even fucking try to hide my disordered eating and just let my family members be constantly concerned about me like the biggest asshole in history. 
Yeah, I wish I could fucking just eat it and be like ""no big deal it's only one small meal"" like a fucking NORMAL person but instead my brain is going like ""but you haven't eaten in three days why would you fuck that up now"". 
So now I am just sitting in my room, shivering cause my body fails to maintain a constant body temperature, silently and slowly bagging the meal that's on the plate to just throw it in the trash next time I go outside. 
I feel like an ungrateful piece of shit and I act like one too 🙃

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EDAnonymous,JoelleBirch,2019/02/13,"My Peach post (numbers talk, so tw) This ended up a lot longer than I expected.

I've lost 3 lbs in one week. Probably because I eat about 500 calories a day and walk around 10k steps. Today I have nowhere to go and nothing to really do so I'm afraid of binging. I know my body probably really wants those calories but I'm unwilling to give them to it.

I already broke one of my rules today and I'm not happy. I don't ever eat before 2 and today I made cream of wheat and ate it at 830. I thought I'd make today a normal eating day. You know, breakfast, lunch, dinner, no calorie tracking, etc. But I'm so agitated from eating so early that I'm probably just going to fast the rest of the day. 

I'm so close to being in the normal BMI range (like 3 lbs to go) and I'm afraid that once I get there my doctor will take away my Vyvanse. But I need it to curb my hunger. I do not want to gain weight back. 

I also am supposed to start talking about my food issues and disordered thoughts in therapy this week and I really don't want to. I stupidly made it a goal on my treatment plan and now I'm regretting it. I'm terrified of being fat, getting diabetes, and dying. I've never weighed more than 183lbs (at 5'4"" that's obese) but I'm convinced I'll end up on My 600lb Life. I'm messed up and I don't really want to change until I'm at my GW (89lbs). 

Anyway this is getting long. But I miss peach and all my peaches. Hopefully it's back up soon. ",0.7541450216450194,2.6031423149350665,3.1256883116883145,90.93900865800863,82.01948051948051,6.184588744588745,21.63030303030304,7.3011,0.6770412121212117,1115,35,249,16,30,384,161,308,0.14,0.826,0.035,-0.9823,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,1,4,17,12,1,2,7,0,11,18,2,3,3,44,48,24,1,10,8,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,13,14,14,1,4,0,0,5,7,8,0,2,6,3,29,4,37,39,5,43,0,4,1,0,5,15,0,2,23,139,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228121337988336,0.07412089375072549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825101160313376,0.0,0.0,0.08708146936488043,0.14253949689541856,0.0,0.056500474275651365,0.0,0.07886888810132515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295315842643102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980494096945901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932424482940493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619334786420863,0.0,0.10622608997104456,0.09486796273591283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793633256143623,0.0,0.0,0.16418442234690878,0.0,0.10336929705109917,0.0,0.08383971763065913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120761778542402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527369733523568,0.08891277651371415,0.15802662648375626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098665881351841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205802816691752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096740016023759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187551126639736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654668037062517,0.045281656940674916,0.0,0.0,0.08202411923894926,0.0,0.0,0.10117762645152148,0.07879825152888244,0.0,0.17540331004353313,0.061868568824909424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872543249161353,0.0714850925291603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816250377129313,0.0889346364093777,0.0,0.0,0.09870747588129368,0.125612751183238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876748702832324,0.0,0.29979328232536195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375078852718756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560356858425219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968827412677625,0.14899485722760689,0.0,0.0,0.10599442290687533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716452879440153,0.0,0.0,0.35142164455845937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867421928983646,0.0,0.1486941025992055,0.11286647627970757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Izzy570,2019/02/13,"will energy levels still be the same eating more and moving more vs larger a deficit and pushing through? [triggers for exercise/relapse/ect]


hope the title makes sense lol


basically sort of in ‘recovery’ since I’ve relapsed the past month and I had a bad time trying to lift in the gym past Friday and I basically had a meltdown, told my best friend and boyfriend that I was struggling (and have been for a long time) bf offered to monitor my food and I said I’d eat at least maintenance but I’m SO ANXIOUS and scared I don’t want to gain any more weight I want to keep losing because it makes me feel better and I feel so massive :(


and I’ve been lying about my intake a bit and not eating a snack or whatever (deficit isn’t really amazingly huge as I’m really active more like 350 cals or so and I hate having to eat so much) but I don’t want to lie and my energy is shit. 


so if I actually do eat Maintenance but do a bit more walk a few more miles or run a bit more often will that help energy levels whilst I’m still losing? Or will it not make any difference? I love the gym, lifting has been my life for this past year and my mental health declines so much if I can’t be in the gym :(",2.5084677419354837,3.9574025887096766,4.138741935483871,87.47561290322584,75.53225806451613,7.540645161290323,23.28709677419355,8.238735603445708,1.195255806451613,934,27,202,16,20,313,130,248,0.16399999999999998,0.66,0.175,-0.6015,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,5,11,14,2,2,15,1,21,12,1,4,0,40,38,30,0,6,12,0,3,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,5,14,8,1,2,3,0,4,6,7,0,0,8,4,19,7,17,25,16,23,0,2,0,1,7,8,1,9,12,124,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.1008515455321567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055870333418213,0.0,0.0,0.1167524405145658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629024125453583,0.06299923548685807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845606553856033,0.0914018250830483,0.3384837387969377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079753847954303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5287477625598501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045104704492838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496733189634568,0.0,0.0798454628602009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203354545996322,0.0,0.10985279029232596,0.0,0.0,0.06927116557031576,0.0,0.0,0.10264666747129864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185936310453173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299688429411004,0.05049001456028596,0.0,0.0,0.09145864472439627,0.0,0.2312372147721959,0.0,0.0,0.09327450036724796,0.0,0.2069543266638581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414924289821643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249041070563512,0.10984126761398036,0.15194354334734814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29596857518678005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324131822436464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830645025467252,0.0,0.1034681518774601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060839805443376,0.08548952115471273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650657378006181,0.0,0.0,0.1080404893814697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052467248556788,0.0,0.0,0.09875227340236467,0.0,0.07016567711847045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828698185178167,0.0,0.0,0.12584853151898973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655193545800271
EDAnonymous,b_elle,2019/02/13,"Around and Around... Life is so cyclical. I made a post which was essentially the same as this one at essentially the same time last year. 

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I found out that the guy I have been dating since May has a girlfriend, which I guess made me the side chick. I want to hate him but I also just want him to like me. Like I know I need to call him out/block and delete his number, but it is so rare for me to actually \~have feelings for someone, I am almost afraid to let him go.

​

I woke up this morning and weighed 83 kg. I am 6 ft/ 183 cm tall. This is the lowest I have ever weighed (still technically overweight according to my BMI l o l) but I just can't bring myself to eat. The kicker is that I have lurked the girl, and she def isn't skinny, but she's tiny like short and pretty and wears makeup every day and I'm just like.. is that what you want? because I can do that!!!!  


This post made me realize that I have lost about 10 kg since making the same post about a different guy last year. So I guess some things have changed. ",2.1452777777777783,3.674144453703704,3.0751851851851875,94.38833333333334,76.68518518518519,6.0962962962962965,20.796296296296298,6.691623216298621,0.0683907407407407,806,19,187,7,18,256,120,216,0.057,0.843,0.099,0.7762,2,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,0,1,13,7,1,1,11,0,22,7,2,4,1,38,41,16,0,4,7,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,0,4,14,10,5,0,4,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,8,1,31,4,17,31,4,22,0,1,0,0,14,8,0,5,13,120,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.11021076456166704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309064991693338,0.0,0.0,0.09031612383135587,0.0,0.2447355924668331,0.2744629876900008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010767404367109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688456867286509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532187325805247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194729607194094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07283538141730513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799570992543905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155633160890156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215848644488863,0.09515476304722564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05710462240384054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383020235899148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06418501650451139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488269042876456,0.22365187564187092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115024563752928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06206752796223922,0.1841183656748599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548630417183547,0.07977113673590888,0.2207023433525688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232846850213384,0.0,0.0,0.32059274251869885,0.07538669652380699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837417677686233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765294117257698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244888834291686,0.11489809763742448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684622905392206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569162586950153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019207920884677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503069479489638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585479792644132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998404923569135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744629876900008,0.14545616829533867
EDAnonymous,throwaway-m1,2019/02/13,"Bad night!!!! I just needed to ramble and I’m having a hard time and there’s a lot of calorie talk in here so be careful if that might trigger you 


I stayed up too late and I can’t sleep. I ate a little ago because I had only ate 800 calories (trying to recover from a relapse and I’m trying to get 1,000 calories a day. In order to maintain my weight I’d need to be eating 2,200, but I spent months eating <500 a day so there’s no way my stomach can take that much). Now I just want the food out of my body. 
I’m feeling so restless and out of control and I hate it. Today everything I ate was very unsatisfying and didn’t give me any energy. If I’m not restricting I want to not feel all exhausted and weak and starving. I can only put up with that feeling in exchange for restricting. I feel so disgusting. 

I don’t want to lose anymore weight but my ED doesn’t agree with me lol. I have such mixed feelings about my weight loss. It makes me and my ED brain feel satisfied, but it’s a huge indicator of how sick I am and that makes me so sad and so heartbroken because I feel like it’s stolen part of me. I’m not myself anymore.

The only clothes that fit me now are ones I bought when I was 14 (when I was in the height of my ED), and they’re still a little too big. I can see my ribs and hipbones for the first time since then. 

The thing about this relapse is that I’ve lost a ton of weight rapidly and I didn’t even realize I was relapsing, I didn’t WANT to lose weight at all. I feel like I can’t stop.  It’s terrifying ",0.387141069193639,2.3376025835866265,2.4585955658859326,94.67052521008408,83.95440729483283,5.572715894868586,20.618719828356873,6.794906146795322,0.2224195601644912,1186,36,278,14,34,398,160,329,0.198,0.672,0.13,-0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,6,23,14,2,1,14,1,23,19,5,5,2,56,56,30,0,8,10,0,14,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,13,19,11,4,9,0,3,1,11,11,0,2,14,15,41,3,31,39,6,36,0,5,1,0,3,15,0,4,19,176,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913504917236015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070864077095366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177069478708263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453915174367702,0.10883987587515792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916207897140736,0.0,0.0996580929878033,0.0,0.0,0.09101968248072437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001271607036546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514728444825288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826969498964365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058963915755236275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080232736046216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611125291743348,0.12755317089596038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593549248199798,0.10794915832657408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04664141138813485,0.08563871085626157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0799709932592415,0.08813851737360608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070373204968458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722846992044518,0.17894981929202514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997471045404445,0.0974519280192338,0.07589663649318247,0.0,0.0,0.11918072260109674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470445087799063,0.0,0.0,0.07125678583802046,0.0,0.06562586144956813,0.13238946465051646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377657945016079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049363488711665,0.20368821479529298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667386301921826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974393288722579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071138951855336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384747449075489,0.0,0.08933738281747834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951530449753094,0.0712934620341876,0.07463615096299014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712211891273426,0.07175418425504296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05930895526171626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411150462262136,0.0,0.08462028120989973,0.0,0.0,0.12122089306724695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365950098134895,0.2106219035302822,0.07086068143095234,0.0,0.5435517766106491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lulus_lemon,2019/02/13,"Just binged-please help ;( I just binged on one of my strictly restriction days.
The binge was easily over 6,500 calories as a rough estimate. I had:
-half of an entire 12 in cookie cake with frosting and m&ms
-2 large slices of a Pizza Hut pan pizza
-4 cheddar cheese biscuits (sooo good! But 300 cals each😭😭)
- an entire Entenmanns cheesy danish (5 servings x200 cals=1000 cal right there)
-3 servings Carrot Cake Oreos
-entire family bag of Doritos Nachos
-Pillsbury chocolate chip cookie dough- 3/4 of roll
-2 boston creme donuts
- pint of Ben&Jerry’s Peanut Butter Core
-Cookies and Cream Hersheys bar King Size

PLEASE HELP.
I weighed my self and I am already 9 lbs up in ONE DAY and that’s without any water weight or bloating. I ate 9 lbs of food only; I didn’t drink any water or beverages, just straight up binged. so the weight gain is definitely accurate pls kill me.

I feel like an out of control pig compared to everyone else who binges on just 2000 max. I am soooo upset that I gained 9 pounds so quick after weeks of reatricting and this is before my body even converts the calories into fat. So great, I gain the weight first, then tomorrow morning I’ll gain all the fat too!

Does anyone have any tips so I can reduce the amount of fat I gain from this ungodly 6,000+ cals binge and not repeat it again?
Any help would be much appreciated

Xx thank you in advance",3.8204214195183774,6.181176167300383,3.938502851711029,86.34347037389105,74.39923954372624,6.360519645120406,25.40700253485425,7.333567415737692,1.2636972116603298,1104,38,203,13,24,340,181,263,0.033,0.7759999999999999,0.191,0.9913,0,0,1,0,0,1,43.0,0,1,0,9,14,6,1,1,11,0,11,16,4,1,1,23,14,15,1,1,9,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,6,9,15,2,1,2,0,1,3,2,0,4,4,7,17,4,26,8,3,23,0,0,1,0,6,12,0,2,11,102,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296198776189875,0.0,0.0,0.2807354119565117,0.0,0.35239461111649256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058458844260624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023777136529184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390118858233122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530168774279678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709846411055135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337034867418673,0.0,0.0,0.12690998277557874,0.0,0.0,0.10822265987000866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556675746071768,0.0,0.0,0.12379087227262785,0.0,0.0,0.12212850190598228,0.0,0.06550452892272221,0.0925507668342979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019542689191664,0.15665274821573055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866065295043828,0.0,0.14282967333287294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26050452451919986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332822274202991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329173727483843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523438356970357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557328471162278,0.09852884796720006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844146727212289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063525627340752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514922645061145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927251915113228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391744374942602,0.4732721269359249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488187513139465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202882273184797,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ablindbabywith7legs,2019/02/13,"Really want to act out- instead I'm posting here I just need to vent. I have really wanted to purge the last few days. This is the longest I've gone in 7 years without purging, it's been a month and a half. My ED has made my life miserable and left me hopeless, filled with self-hatred, and suicidal countless times. I have been through the pits of absolute hell, thinking I would never be able to go this long. I couldn't make it longer than a week without purging for a long time. This has been a difficult battle and it has been easy to forget that my recovery needs to be a priority in my life today.

In the past few weeks I have struggled with restricting and bingeing on fruit/veg sometimes too. I'm trying not to beat myself up for doing shit like eating too many carrots. For the most part I'm doing pretty good. I realized today that the last week I have not been taking as good of care of myself. I don't want to be responsible for myself and I want to be the victim, and my eating disorder gives me the perfect excuse for these things. I have been running from my pain and therefore running from myself and my self-responsibility. I feel like I forget all the time that the person or thing that I need to show up and save me is MYSELF. 

I will not make my eating disorder my higher power today. I will not listen to what this stupid ED is trying to tell me. I WILL regret purging so much. It is not worth it, it is never worth it.",3.781696020874104,4.865834534246577,4.986966731898238,84.07440639269406,71.8082191780822,7.4797129810828435,24.863666014350947,7.793537801064563,1.24569810828441,1132,32,228,14,21,375,143,292,0.171,0.716,0.113,-0.9604,1,0,0,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,0,3,6,18,5,2,16,0,31,7,1,4,4,48,52,13,1,10,9,0,1,2,0,4,3,1,0,1,19,13,3,1,3,1,2,6,11,11,0,1,8,2,35,7,36,35,6,34,1,3,0,0,5,8,2,2,21,168,54,0,0.10379347993660552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582437026818764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693820793875427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23791264050548394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186199261374608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0524811021010749,0.0741500828056289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956816371956168,0.0589882265696567,0.1741140930450471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921107855912387,0.0,0.0,0.11277191964674545,0.0,0.1466248088341963,0.10141650297168994,0.0,0.0,0.18370792710712056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982119003373703,0.13856590765452914,0.10523029762486286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828469654378387,0.0,0.07630015038427114,0.2308846506317525,0.1601038607843633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044358063700097,0.0,0.0,0.1123982241705617,0.09908262107654693,0.0,0.0906284631794916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940546261140427,0.1055952835251285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298552206267802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21655847218147048,0.0,0.10654251560254034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265440564971272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850748121032626,0.0,0.11353322068716508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803977965437063,0.0,0.09072007634740777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791155211213582,0.06650667094634466,0.0,0.0,0.18156843850826948,0.0,0.29515224818052965,0.0,0.0,0.1409379193879894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448803346517859,0.0,0.2497706066368437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20010642155983752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373191016654246,0.0,0.0,0.06683959807626189
EDAnonymous,_WinterSoldier_,2019/02/13,"Wow such bad I've been binging nonstop the past few weeks and I stg at this point I'm just walking nausea 

Like that's all there is

Is nausea 

It's horrible and I hate it and if anyone has any tips to help with the fucking nausea that'd be splendid cause it's getting old *real quick*",-0.9298360655737704,1.1331882295081996,1.1037540983606569,98.01399180327871,101.1311475409836,3.0957377049180335,17.575409836065575,4.935628992294339,-0.6762275409836063,226,7,49,1,10,74,47,61,0.154,0.662,0.184,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,1,9,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,7,2,7,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21148944910350492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174571812695681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25967051705850897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319480832668646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875128361255244,0.1624837300690504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30704634871453457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845554629787244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193801751564734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263403085198526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968829840411087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293993834346714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.353984052032691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494640069685447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,exhaletxn,2019/02/13,"rant about a shitty friend who triggered me into relapse ive been in the most disgusting restrict/bp cycle for months after being nearly 6 months recovered no slipups + 2 years of trying to be recovered...
and ive been previously very open about my eating disorder to my friends bc i found that it really helped my relationship with them since it explained all of my sketchy food choices, weird habits, body image issues and such

but y’all
this one friend
i’m not trying to blame her or anything
but she deadass knew ive been bulimic for 10 years and last october she was playing the “I want to lose weight so lemme tell you how much I’m eating/how much I weigh, etc.” card

and listening to how well she restricted (only 300 calories today!) and how all these numbers she started bringing up honestly triggered my relapse (please dont ask me how many calories are in this apple bc i know its [90cal])

she made me remember how much i fucking hate myself and how i look
:) i :) am :) disgusting :) 

my favourite is when she sent me a snapchat about “just purged for the first time!” as if it was something to be proud of

anyways
i dont wanna blame her bc eating disorders suck in general 
but holy fuck
ive purged so often these past 4 months.... these might be some new records lmao
cheers to me puking in a mcds on new years! cheers to me c/s so much my jaw locked up for days (s/o tmjd!)!!!! i fucking joined ED twitter??
one of my closest friends wants me to go inpatient! it has never been this fucking bad before!!!! 

i shouldnt have compared myself to her but cant change the past and now ive commited to finally being a skinny bitch hahaha i want2dead",2.2754797979797985,4.650637675925927,3.353288439955108,88.50843434343436,79.64814814814815,6.396408529741862,24.941638608305286,7.5764669431780325,1.3489456790123455,1293,49,255,20,33,415,188,324,0.136,0.684,0.18,0.9579,0,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,1,3,19,22,9,0,8,0,26,12,3,9,4,46,48,24,0,5,8,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,13,10,6,1,5,1,0,3,7,12,1,3,10,3,45,10,35,31,9,35,0,1,1,4,24,11,6,6,21,166,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185035007341503,0.0,0.092985359902424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304823765289998,0.0,0.0,0.08463648948433024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048201794530953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052196630678952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641460146798341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22798859127430174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331420004601952,0.0,0.0,0.20355288943499789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092858836336207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895788761313956,0.0,0.0846039789615652,0.12027219448330155,0.10905707945451153,0.3073823820035365,0.3678112496295724,0.0,0.0,0.056527650858783925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820005146273224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666685842702354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381451477279348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054662781773541516,0.08107638868353996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352466134460462,0.11127471013755308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411518764499212,0.0,0.100840826548327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551552518800876,0.0,0.0,0.2381735106809708,0.0,0.29246976979731143,0.0,0.07671272446947294,0.1921257915720547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479868361982505,0.07564681054051736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989917602538375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091815407678792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06371914869787819,0.0,0.0,0.1067870512598903,0.11267325789158315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227760134250413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657220256051897,0.0,0.0,0.07040109067446464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693587008575042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057998224933072814,0.0,0.09428018779099012,0.0,0.0,0.13505897639624634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206816954302143,0.11733282100820815,0.0,0.0,0.12112028662694405,0.08943002974513023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19215455439068468
EDAnonymous,ap0cryphal,2019/02/13,"using a blood drive as motivation disclaimer: I think it’s wonderful that people donate blood!! but I tried it once in high school and nearly fainted. I think it might be less safe for me to donate now since I weigh even less than I did last time and I’m not willing to eat the cookies and stuff they give you to replenish blood sugar lol

today, a volunteer for the Red Cross at my university approached me today about donating blood next week and I felt bad saying no so I signed up even though I had a bad experience last time. I looked up the weight minimum you have to be for my height to give blood and two weeks ago, I was under the minimum - but I was on vacation for a week and put on some weight since then. this morning, I weighed in at 3 lbs above the minimum. 

tl;dr my selfish disordered ass is using a blood drive as motivation to drop 3 lbs within the next week and a half so that I don’t have to give blood 🤪🤪🤪",4.4805846422338576,4.751469130890059,5.506505235602095,83.9329864746946,69.73298429319371,9.089179755671903,26.911431064572426,9.075114841892004,1.824277137870855,728,21,158,13,12,241,106,191,0.127,0.799,0.07400000000000001,-0.9213,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,2,7,4,0,0,12,1,12,15,8,4,0,22,23,15,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,7,7,6,1,6,0,3,5,3,3,0,2,5,7,21,1,26,14,3,34,0,0,2,1,7,13,1,3,15,101,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939345358431224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608049964626693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141435881516915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262768553094663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301920448095586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071638146995928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849071623916425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35515164667441323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038697905170668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118744432905394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363136189970856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091603606367316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624909144418216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142514110597375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555533999868897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405879391557052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813873251466836,0.0,0.12489515060039567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416819999512087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412722572812381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814930408180367,0.12124740933530105,0.0,0.1439200097509457,0.0,0.23395208322078898,0.0,0.0,0.08378570733126182,0.0,0.12055136188870134,0.0,0.0,0.21316920826113145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959607565941256,0.3005545920155729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13383035404554686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whydiepizzapie,2019/02/13,"Fasting but dont get hungry? This is probably just a sign of how long I've been at this and how messed up my hunger signals are at this point, but I can fast for scary long amounts of time without feeling any hunger. This in turn makes me fast longer or occasionally makes me think I did eat and then I restart the fast.

What scares me about this is that it makes the process kind of addicting??? Has anyone find their way out of this train of thought? ",4.5792673992673985,5.250880351648355,3.940384615384616,93.82544871794872,69.65934065934066,7.3853479853479875,27.25457875457875,7.1686216300943375,0.9199875457875448,356,11,82,3,6,105,65,91,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.9518,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,8,4,0,5,0,18,16,8,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,8,1,13,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,8,50,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360244700523499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723211099424974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138665302167614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537444651312427,0.0,0.0,0.22154060166615447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947238997123143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19788337706473252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11311591515176762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22545861118770705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38320357294221824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335600951250861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20466899428621715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334310484872643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676116896686565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138728874319457,0.0,0.17188228830622385,0.12624690991031176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354973271313589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185309341601748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20870491795843488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b00kfairy,2019/02/13,Music to drown everything out Anyone else struggling and the only thing that can help for a little while is music? What do you listen to when you want to drown out everything else?,7.156764705882356,7.534602911764708,6.657647058823527,77.60941176470591,64.0,9.15294117647059,25.823529411764717,8.841846274778883,1.8456352941176484,145,3,25,2,2,45,26,34,0.248,0.6579999999999999,0.094,-0.8205,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,6,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641026866607246,0.3024666475766304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493202401944539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5306123323526645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786592038521095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958673281873813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451242898955132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.308606484304544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961173495485158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411624136248027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,delaneyjay,2019/02/13,"Does anyone just get so down into their ed that you literally can’t give a fuck anymore? Like I just don’t care about protein or vitamins or enough veggies. I can’t be assed to drink water most of the time or leave my bed or do anything except think about how much I fucking hate myself and how I shoulda coulda woulda been this or that and how fucking LONELY I AM, because nobody cares about a fat anorexic and nobody would take me seriously, anyway, they just saw me eat (halo top) ice cream!

I can’t even enjoy my food anymore. Whatever I budgeted for is thrown away halfway through, or not even eaten, or completely eschewed for something else. It took me three hours to drink a smoothie today because it hurt my stomach. 

I fucking hate this",4.511496212121216,6.152609631944448,5.084898989898992,81.9227272727273,70.7361111111111,6.903030303030302,29.75757575757576,7.348242739294969,1.8746333333333336,593,24,106,6,11,190,98,144,0.14300000000000002,0.779,0.079,-0.8659,0,2,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,2,1,13,13,6,0,4,0,10,14,3,3,0,22,25,14,0,1,12,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,4,7,0,1,2,1,1,5,9,0,1,4,2,18,4,13,19,3,8,0,2,2,5,4,4,5,8,4,76,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786159308985122,0.09821951702134946,0.0,0.11559440211617522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197568770418194,0.0,0.0,0.17125776591796418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864359656949802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472795630319882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292577669959585,0.0,0.0,0.2752131996780641,0.0,0.1437353324216319,0.11734421457280067,0.0,0.0,0.14514250870067796,0.0,0.1855575155855471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698562364122767,0.0,0.0,0.5194470329619663,0.07338949855799877,0.1347511119376916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27736903327672136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383341290364325,0.0,0.1503754690959885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873688278337388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862628592186505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032612204665341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814025799233276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561555713146957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090007162194289,0.0,0.0,0.08190887551396732,0.0,0.133148629533351,0.0,0.15606674577066806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978547870195996,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,buffy-icecreamslayer,2019/02/13,Grocery stores Does anyone else fucking LOVE and hate grocery stores? I feel like I could walk in them for hours staring at all the food I want to eat. It’s like fucking euphoric to look at the options even though I never get to eat it. ,4.919374999999999,5.256910520833337,4.662500000000001,90.1325,68.79166666666666,6.4,30.583333333333336,3.1291,1.034783333333333,187,7,39,0,3,57,35,48,0.07,0.649,0.281,0.9012,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,3,0,2,0,1,6,0,0,2,7,9,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,5,3,7,8,1,6,0,0,2,3,2,3,2,1,4,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439030540770704,0.2262383475240201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629290188848434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19322583517698355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451872347644113,0.18445223184903514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583802878872254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164442428719266,0.15774141499045513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699536925430906,0.0,0.0,0.4082568744697305,0.11536024040542806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179968455196397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174460746493145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21574598539657536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18541856572376772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19928295891138245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029657007775548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21693742439119015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302350888554118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConsistentWing,2019/02/13,Venting like a whiny baby lol I wish I had someone to call me pretty. I'm 22 now - a big girl - I should be over this desire but I'm so not. 11 years - that's half my life - of torment for being ugly just didn't help. I try so hard - why am I still not desired or told that I'm pretty like all the other girls?,-1.9308253968253977,-0.1173766857142855,1.0976190476190482,101.04626984126986,94.42857142857142,3.111111111111111,13.492063492063492,3.1291,-1.5895555555555556,232,4,59,0,9,81,55,70,0.153,0.62,0.22699999999999998,0.5596,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,6,1,0,0,1,10,11,4,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,7,2,4,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,5,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813812246746578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24685084116045106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470445880632366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463870568779806,0.2692528915227984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5606944547919822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334841267971632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006543066596404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633128093703409,0.0,0.1870895821117804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486532694583047,0.0,0.3168845171165364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745391058572507
EDAnonymous,EmilyVS,2019/02/13,"Traveling with ED You would think I would be an expert at it by now. My fiancé and I are going on a holiday to celebrate our 6 year anniversary, engagement, and Valentines Day. He likes to have three meals a day and we will be together constantly throughout the trip. I won’t be able to hide how I have been keeping it under 500 calories a day and how anxious it makes me to go over that amount. It has gotten bad lately. I am supposed to be recovered. I don’t want to raise suspicion and worry him.

This is supposed to be a fun, relaxing, celebratory trip, but my ever-present eating disorder insists that it comes along as part of my luggage.

I want to enjoy myself, be indulgent, create wonderful memories that are untainted by mental illness, live in the moment. It is more difficult than it sounds.


Anyone else struggling with something similar to this at the moment?",5.169909090909091,6.671497096969695,6.2925,74.43875,68.93939393939394,9.863636363636363,32.53787878787879,10.125756701596842,3.613333333333333,691,31,119,18,12,231,111,165,0.129,0.721,0.149,0.384,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,0,0,3,8,0,1,8,0,20,3,0,3,0,21,30,9,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,12,10,2,1,2,3,0,6,2,3,0,1,2,1,16,5,23,18,3,21,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,10,91,28,0,0.1851314991058616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091458984034615,0.0,0.12944824869657634,0.18968909866234315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457706880551073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594743938164825,0.0,0.2000613813634625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581835041294621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121767370162164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943574171471572,0.15465361194784286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674620399196011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104289945978645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645533826838525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088363947519201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044589910989864,0.0,0.163474505476771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357671322281287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865690077054131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20047937259876109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252327271840098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935396392233708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186247893447372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183907095287667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076721359928135,0.0,0.18801002383882176,0.0,0.2630242105652082,0.0,0.0,0.11921861564955165
EDAnonymous,relapseandrecovery,2019/02/13,Today is my 4 year recovery anniversary. Celebrating with cake... ...and by cake I mean Halo Top cake flavor because I'm back to a restriction phase 7 years into this bitch lmao hopefully I can't say the same a year from now,1.8100000000000025,4.356409090909096,3.9329090909090887,82.53936363636366,83.0909090909091,8.065454545454546,22.43636363636364,8.841846274778883,2.0370418181818186,176,6,34,5,5,60,38,44,0.136,0.616,0.248,0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,5,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,6,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653238062179913,0.0,0.2103405893025761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427146434239263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758629492142465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743993207823089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270690943649367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.666606819048628
EDAnonymous,some-kind-of-rescue,2019/02/13,"In a new relationship; having a boyfriend around is making everything harder. This is my first post here, so I hope that this belongs. I've had issues with food my entire life, but the past year or so has taken that to new heights.

In January of 2018, I started heavily restricting the types of foods I'd eat. I did eat some, but because I'd categorized so many *entire food groups* as unsafe, there wasn't much I ""could"" eat. For about 10 months, I was eating an average of about 500-800 calories a day and I lost 50 pounds.

And then in October, I was diagnosed with a chronic illness. The root is neurological, but it manifests as fainting, dizzy spells, and heart problems. My doctor and I talked about the restrictions I had put on myself in terms of what foods I was ""allowed"" to eat, and she was pretty appalled. She essentially explained that I would not only never feel better, but also continue to deteriorate, if I didn't change the way I was eating.

I fought it for about a month and a half, until I ended up in the emergency room for a second time in early November after passing out during a lab (I'm in college). I started ""recovering""; my anxiety was at an all-time high, though. I had always been afraid of food, but that period was different. My birthday was in early December and I actually cried at dinner that night, in public, over being forced to order food.

I met my boyfriend that night. He's been one of the first people to make me feel decent about my body. Our relationship progressed very, very quickly and I got lost in it, which meant less focus on food and my anxiety around it. I started eating, and eating *very* unhealthy foods (he has a pretty awful diet). Between mid-December and now, I've gained about 20 pounds. I can't let go of how disgusting I feel.

We're getting more comfortable with each other now, and the excitement is dying down. With that, I'm feeling more self-loathing than I have in a long time. I've slowly started to restrict again, and over the past few days, I've decided to start fasting pretty much entirely.

The difference is that before, there wasn't really anyone around to worry about me and make me feel guilty. The person that I'm the closest to in the world is my cousin, who is a recovering/recovered bulimic. She's concerned, and has been pretty vocal about that, but she's also made it clear that she's going to stay out of it unless I bring it up with her and that my choices are my own. I don't really feel guilty when it comes to her because I know that she's been through it and doesn't take on my issues as her own problem.

My boyfriend, though... man. He worries more than anyone I've ever met. Not only will the weight loss freak him out, but my illness gets much, much worse when I'm not eating. The idea of being back in the ER/hospital doesn't really freak me out much, because I've been surrounded by doctors for the past four months, but the idea of putting *him* through that anxiety simply because I'm selfish and hate myself and don't want to eat is really killing me.

And at the same time, I've been dealing with this for a long time and I know that no amount of guilt will convince me to eat once I've decided that I'm going to lose weight. I just needed to vent, I guess. I feel like an asshole for knowingly putting him through this and I don't know that our relationship will survive it.

TL;DR - I lost 50 pounds through intense restriction and fasting, was diagnosed with a chronic illness and met my boyfriend, then gained 20 of it back. The amount of self-loathing is horrendous and I've decided to start losing weight again. I've never really had anyone to worry about me before, and I feel like an asshole for doing this willingly, knowing what I'll be putting my boyfriend through.
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EDAnonymous,mrsbertmacklin,2019/02/13,"ED sponsors? So you know how when people join AA or NA or lots of addiction groups, people have the option to have sponsors to call during moments of weakness or needing to vent. Is there any sort of network or system like that for people with EDs? I'm wondering because I've been in treatment for about five months now, and phone calls to my SO help immensely with my binge/purge cravings, but I don't want to constantly be burdening him every time my thoughts start spiraling out of control. Are sponsors for EDs a thing?",8.3049,7.356407690000001,7.550000000000002,76.55500000000002,62.1,10.4,38.0,9.3871,3.4794,419,18,76,6,5,130,76,100,0.068,0.875,0.057,-0.2869,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,2,0,19,14,10,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,6,1,17,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,8,8,48,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438212251673176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209572837352953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634039559354674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456761507298566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416958253990682,0.2508524856396083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884422779832612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991385282846942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12291708773621016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109268445965655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19014680714206764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785224081112313,0.0,0.0,0.16584024777438308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4651707806799054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583069276460902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858904161003353,0.0,0.0,0.17756019157712902,0.130417309023479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319198199055409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425485472170765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thestoriesofaly,2019/02/13,"#1 - the cure (or lack thereof) I was so convinced that one day I'd find a magic solution to all of my ED struggles and I'd be set for the rest of my life. By that, I mean a diet or way of eating that would taste good, be convenient and easy, be healthy, and I would never binge or restrict again, all while losing weight quickly.  


That's why I tried so many different diets. Keto. Paleo. Vegan. Intermittent fasting. You name it, I've tried it. I was so sure that one day I'd find a diet and I'd go on it and it would magically work for me. But after so many failed diets, I'm realizing that there simply is no magic trick. The only way to lose weight is to eat less and move more.  


It's hard for me to accept that the answer I've been looking for has been right in front of me the whole time and I never noticed it. I always knew about the good old CICO but I also thought... I don't know what I thought, actually. I guess maybe I assumed that it was possible but difficult and that these other ways of eating made it much faster and easier. I was wrong.  


Tell me I'm not the only one who felt like this?",0.8176208247807429,2.7286634248927086,3.0982086210113837,90.89338122784102,82.13304721030043,5.940585930210861,19.14331031908938,7.079830092131019,0.2347743608882253,850,21,190,11,23,291,129,233,0.09,0.805,0.10400000000000001,0.4862,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,4,9,13,1,1,10,0,16,11,0,1,5,41,28,21,0,4,7,0,4,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,22,9,10,1,12,0,0,3,5,7,0,3,11,6,20,6,18,11,8,22,0,3,1,0,4,3,0,5,13,125,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.10903186898668303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935003599812143,0.09296788948475536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411256098025166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673354083649892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429814970324601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727783578012076,0.0,0.20423746676098795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06349844625669221,0.1874267972219524,0.0,0.0,0.12308263415354592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008768072948332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061403607932685865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789178458574413,0.054585387101653615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382463518160948,0.24999344901311985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572114874441824,0.0,0.2265523405901222,0.11224729420412216,0.12170617360735718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187507701208214,0.08213403386236724,0.0,0.17234534738046106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720476947571566,0.11724130904626752,0.0,0.22713239018253603,0.16995062984651885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595821683847605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541637741038003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680392621986635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530372584616236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765650244708504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177401475886786,0.065150366465724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171398464099214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26605701531093084,0.0,0.2721128472219558,0.0,0.0,0.1008184899386612,0.12474198997899415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08134040233575476,0.0,0.0,0.2381082806202781,0.1221586621170668,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lbredj,2019/07/26,"finally confessed my ed to someone and uhhh (tw) i dont think it went very well

i was really emotional because today i ate at maintenance and now i feel like a complete and utter failure. i realized my ed is the worst it's ever been and im sicker than i thought and i need help.

so i sat next to my mom and told her i had something important to tell her. i then immediately started crying and explained to her that ive had an eating disorder, have been purging for a few years, and feeling really bad about my self. she literally fucking said ""but you eat??"" and she doesnt believe i purge because shes never seen me do it. what the f u c k!!!! then she told me she doesnt think i have one because i eat a lot, like thanks karen eating coffee for breakfast, air for lunch, and one halo top for dinner is ~so healthy~

i feel the need to explain to her how fucked my eating habits are but at this point i really dont want to. shes taking me to my doctor next week about this and i feel the need to low restrict so i can drop a BMI point and be even more underweight :-)",1.8749154135338344,3.4240098749999994,3.9159304511278212,87.98564849624061,77.48214285714286,6.858646616541352,24.28947368421053,7.669130373188453,1.126378571428571,828,28,180,12,19,283,126,224,0.132,0.769,0.099,-0.8868,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,1,10,9,2,0,9,0,20,13,0,1,2,34,45,20,0,4,2,1,4,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,7,12,9,1,11,0,0,1,5,5,1,2,13,6,38,4,18,31,4,21,1,1,1,2,21,7,2,1,14,120,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621823185466505,0.18883998745062225,0.0,0.0,0.11633926004149618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826670423037983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342684675285135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834551688418528,0.10569153104281234,0.0,0.0,0.2420411512493501,0.0,0.0,0.5283065213660442,0.0,0.11615420113050533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820260816927183,0.09340506387017616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20884651245456626,0.07376934540336051,0.0,0.1131168665599753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909253976698276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921335862727622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153909522997184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089576105977864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778841251991472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209374882316722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296991304168175,0.07964088885492561,0.0,0.21963749660869944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994401912069812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19522916086646566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984540247191038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822441330143948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772325619821296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749231451274107,0.07949500315199846,0.0,0.0,0.07308833673221644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763906987961437,0.0,0.09025425722900378,0.09506842529075796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132330360129985,0.0,0.08197732888379118,0.0,0.0,0.09787891134112586,0.1973397288174299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852007540379287,0.060905737748032485,0.0,0.08282937098847269,0.0,0.0928436202531022,0.09572354860847096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649639771859098
EDAnonymous,wrtrmorgan,2019/07/26,"Struggling Hi, everyone. Really struggling right now. I feel trapped in my own body. My body dysmorphia is fucking me up so bad right now I’ve spent the past hour doing checking rituals. My BDD and ED thrive off of each other. I’m so fat. I’m afraid to eat, I don’t want to eat. Really in need of support. This is so hard :(",-0.8802170963364979,1.1935664328358229,1.5794843962008152,94.58705563093623,101.08955223880596,5.421438263229308,19.523744911804613,6.980632752743323,0.6453402985074628,249,9,55,5,11,84,48,67,0.245,0.703,0.052000000000000005,-0.9416,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,3,1,0,4,6,3,0,0,5,12,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,2,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,6,1,8,11,2,10,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,4,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16488330989228708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4387002377711643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041322862076319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18869574891951132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998492531458311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825623817208854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768987405343802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19447301817218804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464251511843692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18851215615043196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25301498111822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33728500585141785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128873261358005,0.0,0.0,0.22409219933839988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164758243738426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,empathyrice,2019/07/26,"The scale read 130 at first several times but then 140 when I stepped on it after jumping around excited?? Wtf?? How can I gain 10 lbs in a few seconds? Is it possible that the scale misread my weight the first time - but isn’t 10lbs a bit much? 

Why did this happen?",1.8505555555555588,3.781289611111109,2.8257037037037063,94.03966666666668,78.81481481481481,6.542222222222222,23.76296296296297,7.554174236665415,0.9015007407407404,205,7,46,3,5,65,45,54,0.14300000000000002,0.732,0.125,-0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,1,0,4,5,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,1,3,1,5,4,3,13,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,7,31,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24313570657746755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29817753110001344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646333793492824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415201091256058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200775452830897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079030315970465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731950357770511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085491307759926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185182491139762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325879513822666,0.0,0.0,0.2464493343293164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,indigent-salt,2019/07/26,"why is my body like this me, binging: *can consume literally the entire kitchen and still have room for more*

me, trying to have a healthy meal: *full after three bites, the whole thing makes me almost throw up*

tf i just wanted to have a nice dinner without purging for once and now im lying on the couch with my cat as a heating pad & it still hurts like hell.

[here is my cat btw, she went to the vet today and was a very good girl](https://i.imgur.com/qs3GAb2.jpg)",4.117032967032966,5.701110373626378,3.7437362637362632,91.37626373626377,71.63736263736264,6.079120879120879,23.98901098901099,6.1826913282559595,0.4540945054945054,368,10,75,2,7,110,69,91,0.11,0.754,0.136,0.1513,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,8,0,7,4,1,1,0,9,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,8,4,11,8,3,11,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,1,7,49,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23477887753458185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25403845381704043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604333752918401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19665480798379265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250995407313511,0.0,0.2532581718044239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290916555861502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650457402004386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496933702978417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37448180083351895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15576550596821645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22224166417480348,0.0,0.0,0.15918366509085244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19345492411889328,0.13829120419762514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21734774582158292,0.21156463295507005,0.2617673934617293,0.0,0.22601208908455514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ridingthecurve,2019/07/26,"pls send help you guys... I've been sitting in this toilet for more than 10 minutes. the one day that I decide to go out and my digestive system decides it's time to do somersaults. my butt hurts so much my eyes are watering. three girls have come and gone, thank god the shit that my body have expelled doesn't smell too much like actual toxic waste dump. I didn't even take lax, I didn't ask for this !!!!

plz send help",1.8539534883720958,3.8039987558139567,2.5978488372093054,95.58421511627908,78.88372093023256,6.16046511627907,18.88953488372093,7.1686216300943375,0.06437674418604677,327,7,74,4,8,102,67,86,0.145,0.688,0.16699999999999998,-0.4885,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,8,6,4,0,0,6,14,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,4,2,0,2,0,0,5,3,3,0,2,4,2,8,2,7,10,3,11,0,1,1,1,8,2,2,0,3,40,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.25568347817282466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24494351525203384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29103349039096343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256979856653234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689744529845879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305480469316525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890603773346509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594305995944388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35123889191081586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28048659040223023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800460783869966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852142616551783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754441909906485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26894898814759355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699853766925413,0.0,0.0,0.2412231469263845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527798473694424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jumpstartmytitty,2019/07/26,"I buy a new dress to try and feel good about my body and how I think of myself... My mum sees this and says ""These clothes are for skinny people. Maybe you should lose more weight first""

Thanks mum. I guess I'll go hide in oversized black clothes instead. 🙃🙃🙃",1.5016666666666652,3.345745092592594,1.5145925925925958,103.4396666666667,79.55555555555556,4.32,18.20740740740741,3.1291,-1.0757214814814815,201,4,49,0,5,59,44,54,0.08199999999999999,0.804,0.113,0.3947,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,8,8,4,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,5,7,2,5,7,1,4,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,1,2,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129654526167424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246341357366246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23966001944308005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012743218663816,0.23632209551075375,0.0,0.0,0.31038406946370856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315210933604011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830600124945561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721200084726129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953329194181324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22406228682369933,0.0,0.0,0.22452165683724254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594014567121962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805367454019705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912926395801756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431007690684601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kamidere,2019/07/26,"idk what to do i can deal with starving myself and the restricting and purging but i can’t deal with the effect i’m having on other people. i feel like my ed has completely sucked away all my personality and now it’s the only thing that’s left. like i compare myself now to who i was a few months ago and i don’t even recognize myself. 

i’ve turned into a horrible, toxic person and i’m completely aware of it but i feel like i can’t stop. i rarely speak to my family, not because i actively avoid them but because i just...... have nothing to say. i’ve been in a perpetual bad mood for months and months, and when i do speak to them i’m constantly lashing out at them when they don’t deserve it because i’m so miserable. i understand that they’re just trying to help me and i rly rly appreciate it but i just. don’t know how to express that and everything manifests into anger instead. i‘m not using mental illness as an excuse for my toxicity because i know it’s not, but i was nothing!! like this pre-ed. i honestly don’t know who i am anymore and i’ve been letting this behaviour build up for so long that now i have no idea how to change it or how to go back to how i used to be if that’s even possible. i want this to stop i’m so tired",1.227045454545454,3.0904568863636404,3.7253696969697,87.16205454545457,80.51515151515152,7.102787878787879,23.43878787878788,8.109356740369918,1.315328969696969,974,34,213,19,25,340,129,264,0.166,0.716,0.11800000000000001,-0.9438,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,4,1,19,11,2,2,7,0,20,2,0,7,1,48,38,27,0,2,13,0,2,4,0,0,2,3,0,2,19,15,0,4,8,0,0,1,10,5,0,0,4,5,34,5,27,32,2,24,0,1,0,0,16,9,1,2,18,149,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912771453674996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208994451724905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566391295333787,0.09466236664107824,0.10278994400545054,0.30018170277116657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302318216579717,0.0,0.2581525560453318,0.1330358917199902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538376531287464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262319752886026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064143141787522,0.0,0.11605516019745273,0.0,0.12449409399351392,0.17589659913490524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996504959947407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251662211908313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897382046410353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297062658336704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337570801894743,0.1258861559827518,0.0,0.2405771820327769,0.0,0.0,0.10894660663080397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406379551239236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947906243212577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23625067696295735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362909604595544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853475085990925,0.2149861180854328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878564607612748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979003334838953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20584741303871606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817874103442655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149440700357294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358217473094601,0.13390603049233354,0.0,0.1281596527233773,0.0,0.21265137670433484,0.0,0.0,0.07261222177791825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dirkerks,2019/07/26,"Relapsed... Again... Atleast ice cream is pretty okay coming back up. Small victories, silver linings and all that",4.108333333333333,6.696841499999998,2.5538888888888884,84.76750000000001,106.22222222222223,4.022222222222221,26.722222222222207,5.985473137389443,1.6546222222222222,89,4,12,1,4,25,18,18,0.0,0.758,0.242,0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.499656615811128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5597457515529388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6610809026848427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patheticpinata,2019/07/26,"R/gainers? Does anyone else. Go there obsessively, as motivation to not eat? I feel bad but they totally disgust me. and people sometimes comment wanting to be fat shamed bc it turns them on and I read the ‘fat shaming’ as if it’s for me so I use it as meanspo jfc me",-0.2657727272727257,2.0252126727272746,2.538522727272728,89.1077840909091,95.0,4.931818181818182,25.056818181818183,6.6274283507984215,1.1315909090909089,207,10,43,3,8,72,44,55,0.201,0.7390000000000001,0.06,-0.8916,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,1,2,5,1,3,1,0,1,3,2,2,1,10,6,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,1,8,0,7,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,28,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22043636549682646,0.32302001691430954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632280280323394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27588520350434403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225885774373703,0.2633583727242861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594043813364063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916890815971076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21856083883868035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153442313921127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31179913090494715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34291117374542224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722824839036592,0.0,0.0,0.1859478778258192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDyoop,2019/07/26,"Generally uncomfortable feeling in your own body This might sound like a stupid question, but does anyone else get this feeling where your body is just... uncomfortable all day and makes you super pissy? And I don't even mean the whole thinking your fat thing either, my skin will feel dry (when it's not), my hair will feel thinner (when it's not), my clothes will feel weird or irritate me, everything just feels WRONG and uncomfortable. Is this a feeling related to ED or something else? Nobody ever understands me when I describe this feeling.",7.73942176870748,8.607065459183676,6.794285714285718,75.44238095238099,62.775510204081634,9.798639455782316,34.70068027210884,9.725611199111238,3.315219047619048,437,18,75,8,6,133,67,98,0.195,0.6859999999999999,0.12,-0.89,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,0,1,8,5,1,0,3,0,7,5,5,1,2,28,20,9,0,0,8,0,10,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,7,3,1,0,12,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,11,11,2,2,16,4,7,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,4,6,50,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288662294667408,0.16542025074423988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35865966819210704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041191533644144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412822647223772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26973441750022104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663339594855736,0.14603692478370986,0.0,0.0,0.14509703097682206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6530545811318891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434874150482218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788742390314168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077662924839701,0.0,0.0,0.17586175235560422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712684288215148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808561897908242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428882669707107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725738324385684,0.10344791838997013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680707205508761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18024841550605625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651558461307895,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HungryNaterpillar,2019/07/26,"I'm worried my young niece is developing an eating disorder First I'm sorry if this isn't the right place for this, I'm a very concerned aunt and looking for advice.


I have a 10 year old niece, she's an amazing kid but she has a very controlling and unkind mother. Her mom controls everything my niece eats, she can't even get herself even a small snack without it being approved and she makes a lot of comments about her weight.


Recently my niece has been avoiding eating when her mom is around, even refusing her favourite treats like ice cream. Then, as soon as her mom is gone she'll eat as much as she possibly can, sometimes overeating to the point where she feels ill.


At the moment she's staying with her dad so the negative influence on her is gone but she still continues these overeating habits. I'm really worried about this continuing or getting worse. No one else around me seems to be taking it seriously. What can I do to help her?",4.106485507246377,6.0096191413043485,4.457043478260871,84.95607246376812,72.26086956521739,7.732753623188407,28.027536231884056,8.447377352677275,1.992617101449276,758,29,146,13,15,238,117,184,0.195,0.759,0.046,-0.9814,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,12,6,0,1,11,0,16,7,0,4,0,20,29,14,0,1,5,6,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,6,6,4,2,0,0,2,5,3,0,2,3,4,24,3,20,23,2,26,0,0,2,0,28,11,0,4,13,99,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420188153456115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807427517652172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262154396141182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339406471514737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783398254814186,0.09762806780756447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23157027953708806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503326131059906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059091881488142366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940770834508868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211722525337372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833403655785838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057095713834315574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813953523791986,0.0,0.0,0.09935684168606823,0.0,0.0,0.0780101776221141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106225364111414,0.0,0.0,0.08591129499055326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263311824463465,0.0,0.07919265967779694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210199828857167,0.0,0.11047786531231044,0.13175090780793294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486851833095898,0.0,0.11539287362327699,0.0,0.0,0.0998044800815395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639207445963396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155852626952412,0.13082395684789894,0.0,0.12456554680665427,0.0933307923496554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787005657418086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285638246527767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231352089426655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265640844447875,0.0,0.0,0.2373698890657475,0.1190982933025552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752590446868043
EDAnonymous,zerotakashi,2019/07/26,"Apparently, autism and EDs can be related due to some autistic behaviors leading to EDs. It's a fairly new area of research with a few articles + studies online. One thing I found interesting is that people with autism and anorexia tend to not want to be skinny for aesthetic reasons but, say, fixation on a number (autistic trait of hyper-interests).

It's a pretty big proportion of people like this, so maybe consider it for yourself if you think it's relevant.",6.266509803921566,7.84367708235294,7.287941176470586,68.044068627451,66.41176470588235,10.84313725490196,36.51960784313725,10.864195022040775,4.665666666666667,372,19,58,11,6,125,64,85,0.013999999999999999,0.8540000000000001,0.132,0.867,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,4,1,1,2,0,13,8,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,12,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,3,38,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35224752970455936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15695253210636634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227511607569333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102771310780305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176956486915419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44544565599816205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32683925479830456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303111503751962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554806753412148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343239686307366,0.2058519097213901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948882805287148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MsFaceless,2019/07/26,"Other peoples adverse effects are my preferred effects , the most frequent adverse effects were diarrhea, weight loss, and nausea. ....",14.594736842105265,15.754815842105264,11.07263157894737,49.518421052631595,48.47368421052632,9.705263157894738,66.3684210526316,8.841846274778883,8.087063157894738,107,9,8,1,1,31,16,19,0.3,0.7,0.0,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,6,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947546362244211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8690327093581927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashy_knees100,2019/07/26,Help me!!!!!!! I haven’t eaten anything and kept it down since Monday and it’s Friday. When I woke up this morning I almost passed out and this whole week I’ve been feeling sick. I want to eat but I don’t want to get fat. Ive been told if you starve yourself your body slows your metabolism so I don’t know what to do. My birthday is also tomorrow and I’m gonna have to eat a lot because I’m in front of my family and some friends. Please help me in the comments.,-0.4801815181518165,1.58354400990099,1.7123019801980206,97.77723184818485,89.09900990099008,4.554785478547855,18.317656765676567,5.985473137389443,-0.3931788778877885,359,10,86,3,12,120,69,101,0.06,0.764,0.17600000000000002,0.8597,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,9,6,2,0,0,16,21,10,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,4,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,1,14,1,10,14,3,12,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,4,5,52,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22952792407171985,0.0,0.0,0.1833049189163032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862623211903684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972868285509002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254608645451601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690928571060245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160855844739936,0.0,0.11589910788274972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709264677883627,0.0,0.1197565309104506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072789264878049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597178330746392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948722738803575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25161166242446115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961084363241548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21902686572024505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27039649690959805,0.0,0.1838642185828544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255912827601307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whalel0rd,2019/07/26,Can’t weigh myself obsessively anymore My new apartment has uneven floors EVERYWHERE and I can’t weigh myself. The panic is slowly creeping in. Stepping on the scale 1 million times a day is part of my routine. Maybe this is good for me in the long run but right now I’m scared.,2.2502424242424226,4.811615872727277,3.2177272727272737,88.31992424242426,81.18181818181819,5.121212121212121,23.71212121212121,6.42735559955562,0.7507575757575755,223,8,42,2,6,71,44,55,0.133,0.831,0.036000000000000004,-0.6428,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,4,0,6,2,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,6,1,5,7,1,13,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226248454162501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20980111940367385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728586016093316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878933417642946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268224201120878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141910400772402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38168679938735656,0.0,0.3522842032392743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27781704320533673,0.0,0.0,0.3256968447317454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969366335723556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,highriskpatient,2019/07/26,"how to recover while currently at death's door? hey, r/edanonymous. it's been awhile.

once i started recovery really seriously, i left this sub alone.  but now, i've relapsed and hit my lowest bmi ever (13.8). my boyfriend came to me nearly in tears about the possibility of me dying at any moment. apparently even their family has been worried about me.

i'm impossibly trying to deal with the fact that i'm genuinely at death's door. i'll likely die sooner either way, the damage has been done.

i just need to know what i can do about things at this point WITHOUT another hospitalisation. i really truly want to recover, i can't stand seeing the way my EDNOS has affected my loved ones (most importantly my s/o).

please, provide any kind of assistance you can. anything at all will help. as a last resort, i'd throw my veganism out the window but it'd also be heartbreaking for that to happen.

i'm really begging you here, r/edanonymous. anything will help. anything.",3.126609145815358,5.7712582786885225,4.995823986194999,76.39993097497846,78.23497267759562,8.22421627840092,24.932125395455852,8.99025400887824,2.4223398907103832,767,28,135,20,19,261,121,183,0.13699999999999998,0.7390000000000001,0.124,-0.1505,3,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,2,1,0,10,6,0,0,6,0,15,1,0,2,3,18,27,7,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,5,1,18,3,23,17,3,22,0,2,1,1,8,10,0,1,8,84,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691863464737535,0.0,0.12116246729982726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606394854658225,0.1588714126705844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740393844768736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17328704157596653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620012503887326,0.0,0.0,0.3144868545232297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504730120658747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007090545918962,0.13704944087714885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142830114530362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397976502888576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20310787676954895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777431750938506,0.08326591651727913,0.12350084632746874,0.0,0.0,0.16461602439913528,0.0,0.0,0.07402011768514083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367436621742836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234272207963092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135317200757132,0.1026670759588044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631244813827809,0.14322589285336998,0.17080472501608476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29118349691806444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073382906136075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072395357248863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065649098875272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028653234307437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936450507843724,0.24052312202894574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605020326471188,0.0,0.0,0.15386572777198093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ArabellaDC,2019/07/26,"Jessica Clements weight gain I was seeing Jessica Clement's Instagram and noticed that she gained A LOT of weight and compared to last years she looks huge. I'm so scarred that I gain weight guys...

How people and MODELS (she is signed with a small agency and tried VS last year) deal with gaining so much weight and still post bikini photos?",6.7346875,7.523103093750002,5.215624999999998,86.166875,64.9375,8.275,30.0625,8.07648339933343,1.8742625,274,9,52,3,4,79,46,64,0.0,0.785,0.215,0.9259999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,11,5,8,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,4,4,2,8,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17068752890910452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393277142475113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26991085023232275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13903068898939475,0.0,0.0,0.14075520249750342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217073884194698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849385034872354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147800979229735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856298038905675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193176979268922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221831887466515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240597830801907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8064414331887511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21323347028542192
EDAnonymous,PMmeyourSUCCS,2019/07/26,"[tw?] When you eat well, exercise off most of what you ate, and feel good about yourself :) ..... .....and then you drink those calories back in alcohol x10",0.6333333333333293,2.8927908518518564,0.938222222222226,97.95400000000002,103.44444444444444,5.122962962962963,20.214814814814808,6.742157984588678,0.5971392592592588,111,4,23,2,5,33,24,27,0.0,0.765,0.235,0.7906,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,2,4,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4553766514541469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276484382581449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4174206739535617,0.0,0.4360117857759783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21545148783358645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35739665229498463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831195624823088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beatristee,2019/07/26,"I don't feel like i'm doing something wrong to myself ... and this is terrible in some way.
I don't feel guilty when i purge, when I'm restricting, when I'm starving, when I'm almost fainting for lack of food. I don't feel nothing at all, just guilty when I overeat or binge. 
I've read some ED blogs and there's always that ""I know I'm not good"" feeling, but I don't have that. I just feel like I'm taking care of things but on a different way.",2.202076583210605,2.9162865567010314,3.5606774668630337,94.21536082474228,75.18556701030927,6.7799705449189975,23.135493372606767,6.868970318607317,0.4120173784977905,344,9,84,3,7,113,56,97,0.182,0.733,0.085,-0.5851,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,0,1,20,21,10,0,1,6,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,1,6,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,5,9,4,7,21,4,10,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,7,46,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20917128260503964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381165305116622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21297536433219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21824363026585364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5281005600224825,0.29845943539790143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525883489960995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752054479873675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147994501890452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041043723194764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043378895761685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20894465233873655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081228339474346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705787298495075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877598790460044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331611340168767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283863720555679,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,adegreeinbirdlaw,2019/07/26,"Ya gal just got triggered by The Boys on Amazon, but not the way you'd think (TW for numbers, no show spoilers) TW: numbers

So I just launched into watching a tiny bit of the new Amazon show ""The Boys"" (apparently it's pretty graphic and contains a lot of potentially triggering content, so please be careful!!) and it's not any of the violence or the sexual assault or the disturbing deaths that has triggered me but a throwaway line in the first ten minutes of the first episode where a character lists her height and weight - 5'6"", 110lbs.

And my god, it has ruined the entire viewing experience for me, because I'm the same height as her and she supposedly has my GW. Every scene she's in - ""I don't think she looks that skinny, oh there she kinda does, her legs are pretty good, are they really *that* good, wait they're trying to play her up as fit and strong, wouldn't she be underweight, let me run her BMI, oh okay she's underweight, why do I still think she looks fat when she's literally 20kg lighter than me"".

I hate my brain and I hate myself.",2.789107551487412,4.9176440917874435,3.7652275616577695,87.47249427917622,76.68115942028986,6.869972031528096,24.90439867785405,7.85451343220497,1.340754589371981,825,29,167,13,19,265,125,207,0.133,0.693,0.174,0.7085,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,1,3,8,11,3,1,15,1,12,5,4,4,0,29,23,16,1,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,6,8,3,2,3,3,0,1,5,5,0,3,1,5,29,6,16,17,3,16,0,1,4,0,18,9,0,4,5,104,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133558734397838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161353506047513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819838446918836,0.0,0.0,0.1860827393351995,0.0,0.0,0.1699529997178064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587277433578005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14044470046729302,0.0,0.0,0.16305618246486767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835752527503606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27962568859289083,0.1333183464191285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291465100748204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17045325822984142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799576006046317,0.0,0.0,0.14171507402522462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099160043542168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297710934488395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33917017688207785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678678425542654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13311997364464215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32042737036652724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317252402859683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231188071644406,0.0,0.20298522785219814,0.0,0.0,0.15041306840776367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cobwebs4brains,2019/07/26,"I hate when people tell me not to lose any more weight “You look good now, but you’d look sickly if you lose 10 more lbs” well thank you, Karen, but I won’t be happy until I look sickly, and maybe not even then because I have lost all control of myself. I got to this “looking good” weight by fucking starving myself and binging and purging, thus causing me to lose a ton of weight very rapidly and now I also have body dysmorphia. Ughhhhhhhhhhh",6.0494318181818185,5.837055079545461,6.8285454545454565,77.4528181818182,66.38636363636364,7.94909090909091,30.1,6.742157984588678,1.5647654545454546,349,11,69,2,5,116,59,88,0.092,0.664,0.244,0.9385,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,5,6,11,2,0,1,0,5,7,1,3,1,13,14,11,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,7,14,5,7,9,4,5,0,4,4,1,5,0,1,1,5,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928318929678256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293028607833044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833037988774058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179322498262754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038263044465255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15327053233670054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025953290745377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126335617335032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292399542013273,0.10929572236767196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454721016339821,0.0,0.13491881106269155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590241180191117,0.4586469569866328,0.14917539636376215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728861061475825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947395744029923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944275034439698,0.12581383456325074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127549293091559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992279990855631,0.1228695210113325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fzawie,2019/07/26,"have you ever tried telling people the symptoms of your ED hoping they’d figure it out? When my ED first began and i knew something was wrong I became anemic, like dramatically anemic. I remember telling some people that hoping they would care enough to just do a quick google search and see the causes and read “not eating enough” or whatever and then ya know reach out. I kind of do this with my current people in my life and i don’t think it registers with them.

side note: i know and understand that nobody is responsible for my health except for me, i don’t expect people to do that work for me. Sometimes it would just feel good to know that someone is paying attention like i would.",4.057484620642516,6.02309163157895,4.474326725905673,84.51911825017089,72.53383458646616,6.941626794258375,22.617224880382786,7.686295010490155,0.9978781954887226,549,14,103,7,11,173,83,133,0.023,0.828,0.149,0.9325,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,3,2,5,8,0,0,3,0,13,4,0,1,1,34,25,9,0,6,5,0,1,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,8,10,1,0,10,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,3,2,20,7,14,18,3,11,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,4,9,75,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15114803480973404,0.15229084623750655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169403029079356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063582452606323,0.0,0.0,0.13409819882025298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07495830522897122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609910459085558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243428282622596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757998121312186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944861006930064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437678302583227,0.2444185694583107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471147455674462,0.14485231598920822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111041348153482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482874495086837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679353276979768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813392969850695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560948304773673,0.11412803863300032,0.14662040170136198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154085740500172,0.0,0.0,0.2591494042997731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499090417266122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006502069971266,0.0,0.0,0.15433070049697892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079258230768427,0.0,0.0,0.3159319529952617,0.16208518493097054,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gloob_Patrol,2019/07/26,DAE weigh themselves in lbs instead of kgs because it sounds like you've lost more? Like i could say OMG I've dropped 10 lbs which sounds like a lot or I could say I've dropped 5kg which doesn't sound as much.,1.419347826086959,2.9728046304347875,1.4645652173913069,105.0451086956522,78.78260869565217,4.6000000000000005,22.369565217391305,3.1291,-0.5991565217391304,167,5,43,0,4,49,33,46,0.052000000000000005,0.7709999999999999,0.177,0.6697,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,2,3,3,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922506870524614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5036052072765007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622313229751159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442708835459249,0.2681219616149084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318381356215564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5016003627454091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,megaladon5000,2019/07/26,"I think I just realised I have BED I joined this sub because I used to have a mild eating disorder in high school,  and it was nice to see people who shared the same experience,  but after a while I realised that I don't know if my eating habits before or after it were quite normal either. 

It's by no means the worst in the world - I'm 5""2 and about 62kgs,  so about 25ish Bmi, but I don't think I have a very good off switch at all when it comes to food, and I never quite realised. When I was a kid,  I would look to the adults in my family eating one or two portions of pasta for dinner and compete in my mind for how much I could eat or how fast,  trying to prove myself,  even at the age of 9 (I was a regular sized kid,  no weight issues or anything), but as I grew I didn't have a lot of self control and would always sneak bits of food from the fridge,  and always snack between meals if I could. 

In my peak ED in high school,  I got down to like 46kgs for about 6 months,  but when i moved out of home for uni I developed somehow worse habits,  I now realise.  I compulsively ate so much more food than I needed to or wanted and I don't know why - at some points I throwing up or having to make myself throw up,  not out of fear of calories,  but from how much my stomach hurt from eating so much food. I gained 15 kilos in a year and a half out of home. I genuinely don't know how I didn't realise this sooner.

I'm definitely better now, but I'm still not fully at a weight I'm comfortable with,  and Im really aware that I don't seem to have a point where my body or mind instinctively know it's time to stop, I have to really think about it. 

I guess I have to work on this.",6.7236666666666665,3.986337700000004,7.24666666666667,83.18250000000002,66.44444444444447,10.333333333333334,29.16666666666667,8.07648339933343,1.6080833333333335,1292,24,307,12,16,429,175,360,0.07200000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.6785,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,7,21,9,0,1,16,0,23,18,2,7,3,67,46,36,0,9,19,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,3,4,12,14,16,2,10,0,0,5,12,3,0,3,8,4,40,6,57,34,13,46,0,1,2,0,6,25,0,14,17,209,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938468198017165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892468391975658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051057348663113226,0.0,0.07127084099888288,0.0,0.0,0.07407605529885497,0.09144069836717576,0.09303488816928912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214903971429386,0.0,0.0,0.09394033783276116,0.1337459285618012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599251302405694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285204202754312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055320555652060815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193019123712425,0.07895842716132348,0.09424965030758416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40511606763619945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025120358795434,0.06698793907976974,0.0,0.09226752330215576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698724892935352,0.16802973578958458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896633529563955,0.0,0.0904716826918974,0.08742030560137774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841221181112432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040919326361475335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033459084192027,0.0,0.0,0.07120700939120503,0.0,0.0,0.05590829334228277,0.0,0.0,0.09123567501264376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691409195878097,0.0,0.06685385351445433,0.08902018976619516,0.2462834480400237,0.062104582549667615,0.06459838329267141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206384986450023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056755753964169126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058066397303286714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835443758710085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817126620552914,0.0,0.0,0.10731346120567628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16953264252418454,0.06674330045308947,0.07624901633985036,0.08737657619696969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688826350105684,0.07002440882900561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161003865875462,0.0,0.0,0.048839245254705135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05686534785915761,0.0,0.08181819247038108,0.0,0.0,0.07233895593137496,0.0,0.06910810571429654,0.04940191211247378,0.0,0.0,0.2039863596073714,0.0,0.0,0.07557745602112291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06097592499164725,0.0,0.08535530262190984,0.11899681045803501,0.0,0.0,0.053936612827517307
EDAnonymous,TalkingLed,2019/07/26,"hELLEo darkness my old friend // can the media just stop this please ? Sorry if someone has already seen this post but this is p1ssing me off so much again...I posted about this before when I first saw the stupid magazine in the supermarket but then yesterday my flatmate bought it and brought it home and i have not stopped opening it and reading the f\*\*king article. It's not even noon and i feel like shit...anyway i hope we can stop this sh1t.

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So going from one day of praising the media coverage of EDs ([here](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_xbHnQj60yQ&t=8s)) to completely turning me back to bad old habits. I've had a few up/down days last week but got myself back on track, sticking to my food plan. I was in the shop buying a magazine when I saw on the cover of ELLE the story ""Breaking up with thinness"". I thought it might be at least mildly interesting so I flicked to the full article.

Unfortunately the journalist opened the article describing herself at her ""worst state"": how her friends, family etc. would all beg her to eat before going on to also disclose her weight, height and indirectly her BMI at the time. Instantly I had phone out, googling her weight in kilograms, checking against her ""worst"" her stats to make sure I was thinner.

I know this stuff might help provide shock value to the majority of readers but anorexia is a numbers game to a lot of people. Anyone who has gone through it would know. I was surprised how angry it made me. I had been doing ok but for the rest of the weekend and even yesterday I feel like the anorexia parasite is back and invading my every thought. :/

Sorry for the rant but I'm really annoyed with journalism like this, especially in fashion magazines. Just lazy sometimes.",4.777061994609163,7.221301805031447,4.795260557053009,80.91127358490567,71.83018867924528,7.813297394429473,30.53953279424977,8.634040054169528,2.6054551662174306,1386,61,242,26,28,430,187,318,0.134,0.736,0.13,-0.3374,0,0,0,0,0,0,68.0,1,0,0,3,16,17,2,0,21,1,21,4,0,4,2,46,41,23,0,4,11,0,5,3,2,4,0,0,1,0,16,13,4,3,6,4,4,4,2,6,0,2,17,8,32,11,36,19,11,47,1,0,3,0,17,18,0,6,24,170,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005619929746544,0.08700202606311228,0.0,0.11787758094074853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607086032866994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25096617963669793,0.09083792735335944,0.0,0.0,0.18515030542499405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406778824048412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032545870143046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132278724771397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133337607086395,0.143714001851332,0.0,0.09166311422003057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025607155738862,0.0,0.1100184028265008,0.15544402371765328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253959279468764,0.13155338600640085,0.0,0.16810698983667602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365956911999502,0.0,0.0870120038334097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729219088308913,0.0,0.1091286298361846,0.10805637331941223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957999206270008,0.08868112453017192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945284917567312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249224053206193,0.0,0.10294292593992274,0.07262042542949694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23082516577268303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997565165964188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283207009682957,0.0,0.07372120936005537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542363079313949,0.0,0.0,0.11942246035433048,0.0,0.0,0.20838796806654986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882282026205216,0.0,0.06969582454750199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167484037524576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218027717249716,0.0,0.10759943389654728,0.2435705620024482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728684094403682,0.0,0.0,0.12454239062876488,0.0,0.0,0.10253647240615853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273958153817914,0.06343829432135213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833595579538728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726748650167583,0.26496205358675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456739033885292,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tlb198,2019/07/26,"My goal this year was to lose weight before my holiday in September So far, I've gained about 10lbs ✌",0.23714285714285666,2.651867000000003,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,93.28571428571428,6.609523809523811,16.523809523809526,7.793537801064563,0.5706380952380954,81,2,18,2,3,26,20,21,0.111,0.659,0.22899999999999998,0.4336,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4323700076133467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5684527744768323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6187494255739209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272105867143805
EDAnonymous,ThatsAGeauxTigers,2019/07/26,"To the woman who said I had some food in my teeth I’m sorry you got uncomfortable after noticing it wasn’t food that was in the way. Please don’t stop trying to help others out whenever you can.

I’m sorry I told you it was from my eating disorder. That wasn’t something you were prepared to hear and I hope it didn’t ruin your night.

I’m sorry that eating disorders make you uncomfortable. It’s not your fault that the world tells you that it’s taboo to even bring it up.

I’m sorry you walked away after I told you about it. Our community is trying to recover together but it’s hard when anyone we tell backs away from us. But we understand why.

I’m sorry this changed how you saw me. Going from flirting with me to suddenly walking away is hard to rectify and I get that. I just wish it wasn’t the first way to deal with someone with mental health disorders.

I’m sorry for who I am. We all wish we were healthy but you can’t see the affliction we suffer from and that makes it hard to accept sometimes.

But most importantly, I’m sorry that I couldn’t be better. Every day is a fight. Not only against my eating disorder but against anxiety or depression or borderline or dysmorphia or the limitless mental health disorders that plague us. We’re working on it but that doesn’t change how we feel today.

I’m sorry. We’re sorry. You might never understand how an eating disorder plagues our mind and I’ll be so happy if you never have to. But in the meantime, dig for mental health every step of the way so no one has to experience our lives every day.",1.5807142857142864,4.027416334394907,3.391659690627844,86.72517834394907,83.10828025477706,6.64589626933576,21.07333939945405,7.859703344183488,1.1221884622383986,1235,38,245,24,35,412,150,314,0.159,0.727,0.115,-0.6019,0,0,1,0,1,0,24.0,11,14,0,3,10,10,1,0,10,0,23,10,1,5,3,51,49,22,0,5,15,0,4,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,25,14,6,2,4,0,0,5,13,5,0,2,14,8,38,5,35,31,3,31,0,3,2,0,37,10,0,9,13,166,63,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045881210654534786,0.0,0.0,0.0419363713278826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690473018090352,0.04611757535238535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053043591521039234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689257751947347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773586695014776,0.06183226508493871,0.051656942349834166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124237687374387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454802652739569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039613353395860314,0.0,0.1515962240361004,0.0,0.0,0.058667697404910575,0.0,0.0,0.030325492402074525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051015260103565115,0.14504559620250476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0313348034731871,0.0,0.034085545940037265,0.0,0.04796800886667208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638451982371111,0.16117921495647802,0.0,0.0,0.1912539447790484,0.06759692022665191,0.0,0.040200416210065065,0.0,0.0,0.059569356469593215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052959600715688636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800684286635421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18132405646710895,0.06362469033372466,0.0605583127497301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251384249530772,0.0,0.0,0.05628308780969781,0.0,0.0,0.0682826788584515,0.0,0.0,0.040641054894165314,0.0456141869814749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583525703101648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705058062521463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04779283064839975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508171764577251,0.04617218809652402,0.059317454739695324,0.6042405028475429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05014233173517058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484272912906634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568499066096565,0.11461861395808187,0.0,0.08143906344293644,0.0,0.0,0.1248735405911793,0.14428665275269587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281764598443486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054118698535040886,0.0,0.1379380829346185,0.0,0.0,0.04366298994763642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ff_throw,2019/07/26,"The ultimate nightmare: I'm anorexic with a fat fetish There it is! Out in the open. This is gonna be a hell of a vent. TW all around. 

Basically my whole life I've known I was attracted to other women. Never even had a thought about men, it wasn't really a question. But I was especially attracted to fat women. Being attracted to big girls isn't my problem, in fact, I view it as a complete non issue. But when I was a teenager those desires shifted onto myself as well as I gained a little weight. That's where my frustrations began in earnest. 

So, it's like this. Without getting too graphic, my fetish involves women being fat, or gaining weight. There are many others who are into that and want it themselves but I had no idea I'd be one of them. I like the thrill I got from overeating but I never actually wanted to gain weight, that was just a fantasy. I liked my body and I'd worked extremely hard to maintain it. I didn't want to be fat, that idea grossed me out.

I kept indulging in it and eventually I had zero control. I've heard of a lot of binge stories where the writer knows she shouldn't do it, is unable to stop, then feels guilt after. For me it was the same, but add being unbelievably horny into the mix, and I felt like there was no way I could get out of it. I couldn't stop myself - imagine if the sexiest thing you can imagine is ordering 6 burgers from a fast food place and eating every single one of them in one go, and you had my nightmare. I didn't want it, I fucking HATED it, but as soon as I got turned on every single diet plan went out the window as I sought out release.

So this eventually ends up with me gaining 150 pounds on top of my original 120lb starting weight. I was fucking miserable. I was self harming every day and when i wasn't doing that i was intentionally putting myself into danger. I just didn't give a single fuck about life. I kept filling that void with food and I'd keep losing control because I'd get turned on by how much I was eating. I'm not ashamed to admit I spent a lot of nights sobbing about feeling so stupid, so animalistic, so unable to control myself. 

So that's really what hit me one day, is the control aspect. I definitely had an eating disorder before, but it switched gears. I threw out every single bit of food I had in my apartment. Every single bit. I went out and only bought food I didn't associate with weight gain or fatness. Unhealthy food had become a turn on so my idea was to be ""celibate"". I didn't get any sexual thrill from eating a bowl of broccoli like I did a cheeseburger but I was finally taking control of my life. 

But now it's just spiraled out of control and I've lost all the weight I gained and then some. My skin is saggy, I feel exhausted all the time, my teeth are loose, I have almost a bald spot in my hair, and now I can't stop losing weight because I feel like if I gain weight, I'll get turned on by it and it'll turn into a cycle I won't be able to stop again. Either way, fat or skinny, I'm dying but at least now I'm closer to how my body used to be. At least im not fat anymore. 

I am simultaneously petrified and excited by gaining weight/being fat even though I KNOW how much I hated it, my animal brain is just fucked up and wants what it wants. So here I am, living basically the most joyless sexually unfulfilling life I've ever lead. But I don't want to live like I did, and I don't know how to find a medium.",2.532182607423305,4.077128308345124,4.335394088669953,85.69107142857145,75.67609618104669,6.8560600887674985,24.212286006925808,7.566871749814121,1.104142876652197,2682,85,557,35,58,909,287,707,0.14400000000000002,0.726,0.129,-0.9723,0,0,0,0,1,0,75.0,0,2,2,21,39,35,10,3,32,0,62,43,16,14,7,123,119,55,1,14,24,0,16,7,0,4,13,1,1,6,35,35,27,13,18,1,2,7,21,21,1,5,42,18,78,14,80,61,21,77,1,5,1,4,17,40,6,11,34,385,113,2,0.04742079346909102,0.0,0.04627585389413682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047485074739870084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03224776568727928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047028684774019634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04221455997953817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05781455110973189,0.052372540724084114,0.04035160253572245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354244918083667,0.1053476225830248,0.0,0.05293728850950333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049719799733990835,0.0,0.3191187128849918,0.03786164491998574,0.0,0.0,0.06116497752640139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049215296843164384,0.0,0.05434833766045527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194093241331792,0.0,0.0,0.04200074777641208,0.0,0.0,0.06264197370035977,0.04289482258445477,0.1997703186988043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959095120535658,0.03387742432944118,0.04553139830379695,0.051947161335316516,0.04334174613064032,0.0,0.28670705847197386,0.0,0.0,0.17535903773475536,0.12387703683263873,0.04549034612507272,0.02695032974109876,0.0,0.07585348101831509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247971655522373,0.09363643198706373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605969112433533,0.05122259439563321,0.049494988072800734,0.0,0.04214978008917448,0.0,0.0,0.0781836837891742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397883530676752,0.16217183060538748,0.047528092945471036,0.08374685884483611,0.0,0.0,0.1061034762454219,0.05176539781864879,0.08063092564759823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807724158981308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697194790124201,0.0,0.0731476786450994,0.0,0.0,0.04450120229809392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853422765774872,0.03606565029603686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049544636173804016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045375295031873104,0.0,0.04767099514747894,0.05312214144380046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075794915022813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049470229679030336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03356468169090713,0.0,0.0,0.1585836268109286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035654535098192885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03150426806050712,0.0,0.0465906888148627,0.037646813060426526,0.027651446019746284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25790103035367123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040956340021829366,0.0,0.0,0.19579008832924205,0.07528083719903046,0.0,0.5197117608829083,0.04263698833706285,0.08791910126889461,0.0,0.052943622414074736,0.0,0.045711952689242566,0.0,0.03452290242442265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbredditor002,2019/07/26,Chest growing and I hate it I've noticed thar my boobs have grown recently and I absolutely **fucking despise it.** I think I'm developing a major complex over them :( I'm terrified they'll grow even more but i have no idea how i can prevent it. feeling realllly petty about it too. here's to hoping losing weight will help... 😐,-0.05486778846153584,1.800556421875001,2.7393750000000026,84.19120192307693,109.78125,5.0942307692307685,23.67307692307693,6.67199483983844,1.4392322115384617,257,12,48,5,13,89,51,64,0.259,0.623,0.11800000000000001,-0.8585,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,5,5,3,0,1,0,5,4,2,1,0,10,12,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,4,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,2,8,1,3,10,2,5,0,1,0,2,3,1,2,1,1,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20241401008811213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495543797213465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28331743028141965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30256590859517385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20541374952469352,0.0,0.0,0.3043840343655088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459561578527239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428504697801571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34890686252132075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30259238360427065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19636726196625365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731858489554561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,l1zkay,2019/07/26,"my boyfriend fuels my ED. (?tw) i just feel so drained and sad - sorry in advance for dumb rant :/

my bf just seems like he doesn’t like me that much. every time he says some petty insult to me, or watches porn on his phone (snooping was my mistake, buuut he also isn’t great at hiding it so w/e) every instinct pushes me to restrict. women with huge fake titties & asses - guys, I literally spent an hour comparing my height/weight to the pornstars that I know he watches (shoutout 2 pornhub for providing that info, so convenient!) makes me feel so gross. he doesn’t really initiate anything with me either sooooo feels that much worse.

as I type all this out it makes me feel super pathetic lol. 

i feel like being at a low weight is the only thing that makes me feel in control, and how I see myself is so distorted that i have no fucking clue what i even look like anymore. UGh idk what to do anymore.",2.169219725343325,4.495397769662922,3.447565543071163,87.95845193508117,79.73033707865169,5.9780274656679175,23.933832709113606,7.1686216300943375,1.0616244694132335,705,25,137,9,18,229,117,178,0.255,0.637,0.10800000000000001,-0.9806,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,11,15,3,0,4,1,9,4,1,5,1,27,24,11,0,1,4,0,7,4,1,0,0,1,0,2,12,5,1,2,9,0,1,2,4,9,0,0,2,12,22,6,15,21,5,12,0,2,4,3,12,8,3,3,6,81,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569165523586394,0.0,0.15674867668417242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869453208805893,0.0,0.0,0.11905016594082665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225845620921095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555243427716012,0.0,0.24377955061636505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388936110581174,0.1033514805009984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337440532142749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594979566712347,0.0,0.1432449411686915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246971060515165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950623589380326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827116392259074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214854277875131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897028127520798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126965528908248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002720623265773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267859232473173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115046504103719,0.0,0.0,0.11528237116951312,0.13170111971281775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194497277771114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611157904126996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435759036293176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523354563249837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474299534387147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,recordlace,2019/07/26,"Got surprised with a beach trip..... As a graduation gift my bf decided to surprise me with a week long beach trip..... I love the idea behind it but holy shit I’m so over weight and disgusting I REALLY don’t want to go. 

On top of that he invited by cousin who I love and have a great time with....but she’s about 85 pounds,  5’7 and beautiful soooo fuck me :( 

Also, the Airbnb cost almost $2,000 and isn’t refundable so I can’t do anything to stop this from happening. 

Fuck. I feel so bad I REALLY don’t want to go on this trip :(",0.7157248157248155,2.6146903513513493,2.803112203112203,92.93867321867323,82.42342342342343,7.27960687960688,19.0999180999181,8.296473431620573,0.7214792792792797,403,10,96,9,11,136,74,111,0.24100000000000002,0.534,0.225,-0.7442,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,5,10,4,0,6,0,6,6,1,0,0,14,18,10,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,3,2,2,5,4,5,0,0,1,2,10,5,15,17,0,13,0,0,0,4,7,4,3,1,4,51,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079488043943957,0.0,0.0,0.1660714655195778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17089249425842012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733935220013162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500282705063853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38397014679305386,0.0,0.0,0.2360442256181461,0.0,0.16609051131668034,0.2289539323970089,0.0,0.0,0.18363950837395554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344311053907348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183779026407538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37485569391057977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26607398119217945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131675001376232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361916229738392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109247318409387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449751091166329,0.0,0.16657818250152184,0.2528828266269825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mintthin,2019/07/26,"I hate guys so much sometimes 1) I met up with a guy I’ve been talking to for nearly two years and I was highly disappointed. At one point he was talking about my body and ass and mentioned how good I’d look if I worked out. It’s been on my mind all week :(

2) my dad just told me I was sloppy looking. 

I hate men sometimes :( insensitive asswipes",-0.5530136986301386,1.6519003424657548,1.804945205479452,95.12413013698631,93.52054794520548,4.5638356164383564,19.62876712328768,6.2581,0.007340821917808604,267,9,61,3,10,90,56,73,0.26899999999999996,0.696,0.035,-0.9589,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,1,0,5,2,2,1,1,10,11,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,7,2,10,1,9,4,2,9,0,1,2,1,10,7,1,1,2,37,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21553223183326287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274968451332975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842558192276496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831442736388309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050115688770452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258857324932555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19592284470077428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426400951949017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13148502203837706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342842145273552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38381665357948175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119204364467568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18541141490461494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895467170940916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15564540361601575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126181543458485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249539690861782
EDAnonymous,Mr_Skeletals,2019/07/26,"“Can you get actual food today?” So I’m notoriously known for eating a lot of snacks instead of meals. It used to be really bad, where I would literally not eat “food” at all. I’ve gotten better but the other day I had lunch with a person I haven’t seen in a while. When we were looking at the menu, he said “can you get actual food today? Like real food?”

I wasn’t even really that hungry but I got food. I ate all of it, and after I was done I got “I’m really happy you got food today. It’s been a while since I’ve seen you actually eat something”

Shit PISSED ME OFF. Like I’m still fuming. I know he didn’t mean it in any kind of offensive way, and doesn’t know I’m the way I am - actually at this point in my life I’m not sure if something that everyone knows that is just spoken of behind my back but ughhhhh. That kind of shit just sticks like glue in the front of your head and is like ugh yeah I did eat I probably shouldn’t have, I’m an idiot. 

Why is it like an insult to have acknowledgement that you’re improving",0.3086086956521754,2.2734439636363675,3.0513438735177867,90.22266798418974,84.36363636363636,6.553359683794466,15.928853754940713,7.7425588080867325,0.13407707509881428,792,14,184,15,23,278,117,220,0.182,0.6940000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.9608,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,1,5,0,1,9,19,7,0,10,1,21,19,4,1,3,27,43,11,0,3,8,0,0,5,0,2,1,1,0,1,12,5,14,0,6,0,0,1,7,9,0,0,16,4,21,10,21,24,3,23,0,0,3,0,11,10,3,2,15,108,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.32379976838106866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056410731416406075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0637855634300002,0.06926210199440194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733649881995643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05349767721571793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488948917938692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395255910962666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054789525390258165,0.0,0.0,0.07926493115713844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6018409471523873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667880213707665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990347355946371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830477124473432,0.0,0.0,0.08513347879155726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276509961502065,0.1367660268356542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859199802603918,0.20263267823402592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965943861779078,0.0,0.0,0.07052348269134645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090359890165282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243116329270599,0.0,0.0,0.07841718486530877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894371213693962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441841836343556,0.15942501493726013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890708480188446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029966247887476,0.06861939250122387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12772219744984498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624619308690748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818200851627957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23588859320976466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164456350790807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316881029593894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485197675244566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892727116622307,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ughleigh,2019/07/26,Looked at pictures of myself when I was 20lbs lighter Fuck my life I'm never eating again,-0.07833333333333314,1.4703072777777777,0.5872222222222234,98.86750000000002,115.11111111111113,1.8,15.611111111111107,3.1291,-1.2248222222222216,73,2,14,0,4,22,17,18,0.18899999999999997,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,3,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5319166465514832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805751640517719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671718412050452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43652691828732776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40092553105870266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ditzydream,2019/06/28,"therapy :0c? hi yall! im planning on asking my mom if i can get therapy and stuff to better myself haha :) but im terrified of opening up to anyone and would love to know ur guys experiences with it! i want to get better with this and other things (like a couple big time fears of mine, i can't handle being alone whatsoever) and im really bad at communicating. i tried getting therapy a couple years ago but i backed out the day of because it wasnt my choice and i was terrified haha but i want to get better now and improve :)",0.5652434721242088,2.8951957431192703,3.8102752293577993,82.67874382498236,86.9816513761468,6.6565984474241375,20.31122088920254,7.882392219407189,1.2114948482709955,412,13,82,9,13,149,70,109,0.145,0.5770000000000001,0.278,0.9209999999999999,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,4,2,9,0,1,3,2,6,1,0,0,0,18,15,10,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,12,7,14,11,0,12,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,1,7,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194435753200504,0.0,0.0,0.13955549016408225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421704432757404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259686629904032,0.0,0.0,0.1036108157113486,0.11250669429922112,0.08213948211243426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575137944976665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981862154582817,0.0,0.08689956907045142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180675561502495,0.0,0.1516259200340339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815954241483156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341902820364107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366441280286299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405249108649954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582974564344173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216128909383358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781206277498244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632128731642584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425112701282298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4622789693003885,0.0,0.08951878768062474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857106600762204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148321143963258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15895253406349372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957191926332442,0.0,0.0,0.0867715531760832
EDAnonymous,silent_g_in_lasagna,2019/06/28,Anyone here need a friend? Been struggling with an ED for about 5 years or so. Lost a lot of friends in the process and am looking for people to text with regularly to talk about struggles and life in general. I’m 23 and I’m a guy...just throwing that out there....,0.9505555555555568,3.2333770185185173,2.123703703703704,95.86666666666667,84.37037037037038,5.0814814814814815,23.814814814814817,6.42735559955562,0.4823925925925927,205,8,46,2,6,65,43,54,0.147,0.742,0.111,-0.2479,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,7,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,2,12,5,1,5,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,2,1,28,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907416399771332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4215149243025195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701057375058196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926801790317416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290755317502845,0.0,0.29778333559950754,0.23191694648937625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20227088977697294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18911876332613534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5703602568247768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925887732535346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566830369486813
EDAnonymous,sweetestapparition3,2019/06/28,Ugh Had in n out burgers and fries with my friends at  midnight last night and woke up super hungry? So I ate two pieces of toast n a bunch of peanut m&ms.. honestly I feel like such a failure. Now I have to get ready to meet my friend while I feel like an absolute piece of shit lol,3.575499999999998,4.080156883333334,4.026666666666667,92.91,71.83333333333334,7.333333333333332,26.666666666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.9571666666666672,223,7,52,2,4,70,48,60,0.131,0.5529999999999999,0.317,0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,0,3,1,2,2,1,0,0,6,7,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,2,6,6,10,4,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,6,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208145918309585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994251215116062,0.4230550934584195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575185111365066,0.0,0.15469538322911966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24135377178768266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893103184751762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778614471123033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039332674359886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892379888119908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatfuckingpig100,2019/06/28,"I act the same way I did when I was a teenager I recently found a diary from years ago that just had lists of food I had eaten and plans of how I was going to lose weight and logs of my weight and measurements. I’d also write notes about how I was feeling or mean notes to myself. I’d write in it for a while and then get bored and then pick it up again a few months later and do exactly the same thing. And I realized I am exactly the same way as I was back then. I still eat a lot of the same foods and feel the same way about my body and talk to myself in the same way. And the struggles I wrote about are exactly the same now too. 

And fuck that sucks. Like I’m growing as a person but not with this. I’m just stuck feeling the same way, doing the same things, and getting nowhere. I even listen to the same songs to motivate myself. I feel like I need to grow up and I’m not. I just got my first real adult job but here I am doing the exact same things I’ve done since I was 13.",2.3204166666666666,2.805666875,3.683407407407409,94.30233333333337,74.69444444444444,7.056296296296297,20.881481481481487,7.0316486544052195,0.13916148148148144,759,14,189,7,15,250,106,216,0.059000000000000004,0.877,0.064,0.2732,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,17,7,2,1,18,0,15,8,1,4,4,54,35,26,0,1,8,0,6,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,8,14,6,0,8,1,0,4,2,5,0,1,14,8,24,2,22,21,13,28,0,1,0,1,7,4,2,2,17,137,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490305027806864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365954004827158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967215679146138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398203406574842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264942755770046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263678382177688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561482993280425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621653207378782,0.09260276301000056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025733605781864,0.3134815153689403,0.14212503012846306,0.0,0.11983446007509065,0.13544543141935111,0.0,0.0736677904963239,0.0,0.1036714281746353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286309178961567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266545907252513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501508393530965,0.0,0.1102009176732575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119754778206228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346391556498027,0.0,0.0,0.09611388046207237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318188436512353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475394570975277,0.0,0.0,0.127987165759743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722556140501267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035171689192939,0.0,0.0,0.13551020022015614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418613152260088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583474682703654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5144438858858227,0.0,0.3156920114150439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347302155500637
EDAnonymous,magfrack,2019/06/28,"ED subsumes identity? I've been working on recovery for over a year now, and I'm starting to think that I don't have a personality/identity outside of my disorder. When I don't engage in outright behaviors, I throw myself into exercise (usually yoga) and build my whole world around it—how soon can I go to India, should I become a teacher, etc. etc. When I get too injured to work out, it feels like there's absolutely nothing left. No drive, no ambition, nothing going on in my head, nothing to say. I romanticize falling off the recovery wagon because then at least my mind would be occupied and I would have a personality again—even if that personality is defined by its antagonistic stance to the rest of the world.

Eating disorders were pretty much my entire life from age twelve to twenty (and then again at twenty-three); if they're not front and center, they're lurking in the backdrop. I worry that I didn't develop an identity because EDs dominated my adolescence. Does anyone else feel anything similar?",7.458646034816247,7.863977553191493,8.398858800773699,65.2877272727273,63.361702127659576,11.517214700193426,37.83558994197292,11.20814326018867,4.6241957446808515,812,39,133,22,11,276,126,188,0.11800000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.88,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,9,0,13,5,1,0,0,18,21,11,0,5,3,0,2,1,0,3,3,1,0,2,5,8,1,0,3,2,0,6,6,0,0,0,3,3,17,3,23,14,6,33,0,0,0,0,3,16,0,2,12,92,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042443023648004,0.14715857377019168,0.11818936116861765,0.12785477882493831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510230234736018,0.1586201446615459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32920843872108,0.0,0.12568531653184947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696202242733364,0.11997845486716545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203548667108421,0.0948615323303048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524004818195624,0.1026041867284358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07503700691611015,0.0,0.16324834132950905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739847066119247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560466376212928,0.0,0.10144506044639932,0.07016686573047436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501812773511774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557931402392436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4134299701025263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25081185096866343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461160632396749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142146482303919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165698649945602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920277176541112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581802691281424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16034977356683625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091182784332684,0.14585596725234073,0.0,0.2040510918484877,0.0,0.0,0.0924884011235354
EDAnonymous,Mimikyuii,2019/06/28,"TIFU by not working out the calories in a sauce I have been adding a tiny bit of this satay sauce to my meals / broths and I promised myself I wasn't going to go back to obsessing over small amounts of sauce because it's a tiny bit of sauce right??? Right? Wrong. So wrong. 
There are almost 200 calories per tablespoon. That's more than my meals. 
I could have had actually food for that. FML. Back to obsessing with me.",0.8989923329682377,3.4431863253012054,1.711763417305587,96.22937568455644,89.36144578313251,4.9458926615553125,19.59364731653889,6.574015621080383,0.12394939759036205,327,10,70,4,11,101,58,83,0.14800000000000002,0.8220000000000001,0.03,-0.8675,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,2,4,0,7,3,0,0,0,6,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,8,1,14,5,4,10,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,44,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.21254622835665424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181002118790072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349571495602916,0.0,0.13277188585885244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755732243978269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389954263256613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633706297926129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24756716332205694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37200850229410176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856460950503434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4762710780872461,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tigerlily_96,2019/06/28,"Tired of it all tbh Lately I’ve slipped into a relapse, having got healthy for the first time in 10 years... and it’s hitting hard. 

I’m hungry but I don’t want to eat. I’m tired of everything, and disappearing a little (or a lot) feels like the only option. At the same time it all feels so selfish. How can I be putting my family and my partner through watching me self destruct all over again?

Don’t get me wrong, I have a long way to go before I hit any kind of physically unsafe point. I’m just moaning. I want it to be over quicker so that I can numb myself out to the world again.",1.4510410557184767,3.1023595000000017,3.2708797653958928,91.68995601173023,79.0,5.799413489736072,23.369501466275658,6.574015621080383,0.5131064516129036,454,15,102,4,11,152,82,124,0.204,0.735,0.062,-0.9654,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,0,8,0,8,4,0,1,3,19,20,8,0,2,3,0,3,1,1,0,3,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,2,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,1,4,11,2,15,15,5,21,0,0,1,0,2,9,0,3,9,64,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044476200503288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322542281961386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962806269885105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723962194780145,0.0,0.18083163433950106,0.0,0.19398077986502751,0.13703686006812785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16316272475809518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021848176536774,0.0,0.10901621473953936,0.0,0.1534166641906377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183381229643652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997519065627899,0.0,0.0,0.2163822841924805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371398251004603,0.19225489396527934,0.0,0.16975542405242758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307923482735154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588840712394152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18133271382978225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19283294467154166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20011099061542054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22370457104652425,0.4409397190925809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262818252076562,0.15225846942693505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972599688209626,0.0,0.12352634416601473
EDAnonymous,annalisecp,2019/06/28,"whyyyyy did i do this ! some background: I""m 20 years old and I've struggled with anorexia for the past decade of my life. I reached my lowest point mentally and lowest weight last summer/fall (77 lbs in October 2018...i'm 5'5). I've been in therapy since last August working on my mental health and after transferring schools and being in a better environment eating got easier throughout the school year. I gained some weight, (I stayed at like 92-97 from december-may, I also didn't really weigh myself except for doctor's visits during this time). And apart from a few bad weeks, I really wasn't actively restricting during this time either. I wasn't losing weight and for the most part everyone thought I was okay and my body was just not gaining. I've always been thin, but i was adopted and whether that's genetics or just bc I've been sick most of my life is a mystery. So during this time I really was eating what I wanted but I don't think I really understood how much food a person needs. 

That being said, I haven't gotten my period in over 2 years now. I'm really tired of looking sick/ having people think I'm 15.

Since being home for the summer, I've really been focusing on my recovery (mainly weight restoration for me). I've been working with my nutritionist and eating \~2500 calories a day. I haven't exercised apart from some weight lifting a few days a week with my sister. My nutritionist has me counting again to make sure I'm eating enough (which is SUCH a weird game) and I haven't gone under since the beginning of May. I weighed 95 lbs on May 10th but have been blind weighed at check-ups since then. 

I've gained a lot of weight. I can feel it on me, my clothes aren't fitting. My boobs are HUGE. But I still didn't know the number. 

I was at my friend's house this morning and she had a scale in her bathroom. I've been stressed over this weight gain and the blind weigh-ins so I weighed myself and holy fucking shit. 108.

Rationally, I know that's still low. But I haven't weighed that much since high school. I'm freaking out and wanting to skip meals again and i just! 13 lbs THAT quick!?! I feel like I ruined all my progress bc now all I can think about is how huge I am now and how lazy I've been and how much of a slob I am. I'm really fighting the urge to go for a run right now.",1.850985902926478,4.1487002526766625,2.9354242505353336,91.34576307102071,80.73447537473234,6.204300499643113,20.649937544610992,7.413659706084162,0.6120592790863664,1826,51,382,27,48,583,219,467,0.126,0.79,0.084,-0.9676,2,0,0,0,2,0,60.0,0,0,0,9,21,17,3,2,20,1,42,32,3,5,3,63,68,32,0,3,13,1,10,2,1,2,10,1,1,1,14,21,18,1,9,2,0,4,11,11,0,0,25,14,50,6,40,38,17,60,0,3,3,2,9,26,3,9,31,229,64,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055340585148979264,0.05758136912513576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577805400739601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061203291823761774,0.0,0.07686750310128973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925876036729033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083088592203585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832425158574949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150386865502062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661252026621268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998093107806491,0.04943771783088413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367898644846031,0.0,0.053465072057325175,0.06397586887303662,0.0,0.0,0.03932892844016583,0.0,0.0553469318476911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355818525294049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311540957200127,0.06941496083389916,0.0,0.0,0.07984948598418946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606290373122593,0.112817265188954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775843332709064,0.06761692324002125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581120103012487,0.07741901610475255,0.0,0.058832821997402335,0.0,0.0,0.04619268100861064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947810124210713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261366524860873,0.051312193583274726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261555715981104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493871187983174,0.06606086571160093,0.04797575471547124,0.06042426684618962,0.0,0.0,0.06541798706835847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103267269972545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909788507300991,0.06582667641076148,0.0,0.0,0.2101074851826283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103456427901808,0.2862218618912418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375981882999592,0.11052915531540553,0.0,0.07927032881257592,0.07234465607648452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522179584591148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913819018321587,0.0,0.0,0.13302499097953474,0.0,0.05493843047849295,0.12105622664638008,0.07953718949080901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163392695448515,0.0,0.11101888050239342,0.5898833065100336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075934298691742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336909035537758
EDAnonymous,maccreally,2019/06/28,"I text my friend when I eat I used to absolutely dread people knowing I ate gross foods, but when I text her and say “I’m going to pick up donuts!” and she says “that’s so cute I love that” or something along those lines, it’s almost like positive reinforcement and a little reminder that eating is okay. She knows I have problems with certain foods and she even comes with me to get them sometimes because she knows it’s comforting to have someone so supportive of recovery. She’s my only friend that doesn’t worry about body image at all, she only cares about personal health and happiness and it’s just so amazing to have a friend that doesn’t enable my bad habits. Even when I text her things like “I’m so hungry bro”, she either tells me what she ate earlier or says “let’s go get something!” and it’s so sweet. Idk what this post is about, just a general post about how much of a positive affect having females around you who aren’t consumed in the culture can have on you.",5.462538461538461,5.807385061538465,5.633653846153848,83.61509615384617,67.61538461538461,8.756410256410257,28.55769230769231,8.59863814320734,1.897076923076923,777,24,157,11,12,246,111,195,0.077,0.624,0.298,0.9956,1,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,1,18,19,0,1,5,1,12,9,1,4,2,30,28,19,0,1,6,1,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,1,15,12,6,0,3,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,2,4,26,15,19,25,3,14,0,0,0,1,25,6,0,3,5,103,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271616034071615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798558476845085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066244182064823,0.08079302051369898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721817378232707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512979530131902,0.0,0.0,0.11416845955207094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712358554635592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750782171286231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32052732486094565,0.0,0.30719211442505684,0.0,0.13848970248337245,0.0,0.15064709501875032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410875692329678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088010228991427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185157835516609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355275513305817,0.0,0.12950127888320462,0.13283639203674655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961936622466025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097429577674377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159996182809506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188412150884652,0.1157257600199426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538666619129419,0.0,0.0,0.1268195314832487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161950343452608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229774673227877,0.20406614638465906,0.13108198789248338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040085007965268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584274317416353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880513617013337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446898249782278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345972496796405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cinnamonspiderr,2019/06/28,"Wish you could restrict? Easy, just get your heart broken into a thousand pieces! Haven't eaten and when I tried I puked later from the anxiety

Just had my heart broken by the most amazing, sweet, incredible guy that I was SO compatible with because he's just not ready to date (I met him a month after his eight year relationship ended). I am fucking struggling so hard today. I'm supposed to see him to talk more and I'm absolutely dying inside. I just can't bring myself to do anything.

On top of all of this I have mono (that I got from kissing him). :( Sorry I just need a friend",1.5873143236074228,4.047965543103448,3.250344827586208,87.65221485411142,83.22413793103449,5.293368700265252,20.9920424403183,6.67199483983844,0.4792660477453583,457,14,90,5,13,151,84,116,0.192,0.642,0.166,-0.1329,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,8,6,1,1,5,0,8,6,2,0,1,16,19,5,1,3,6,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,5,3,17,4,13,13,4,12,0,0,1,2,12,3,1,1,8,63,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596510613935812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173815744169804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721850118993447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662593159856912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21659240380926034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18484177697168647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612371965055085,0.19293511341446265,0.10903449498578448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691241184029215,0.0,0.0,0.20664080612355587,0.0,0.0,0.1869496784943167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946090283490355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657831371147652,0.0,0.0,0.1547446570546916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240602685945305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630285101830786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336169043696584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181732686233125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16774109124313097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781840541865825,0.0,0.0,0.1416901682854671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23998888687706274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439270198798745
EDAnonymous,dfwyb81314,2019/06/28,"Is this binge eating!?? I’ve been struggling with anorexia for the past 2 years, have reached a low weight and been recommended for inpatient (something i’m really trying not to do), and have been trying to just eat more by myself/without following a meal plan or anything while I try to figure out where i’m going to get treatment. since trying to eat more (so like the past week), I went from eating between 500-1,000 calories a day to eating like 2,000-3,000–but i find that even after eating all of that food, i’m still STARVING and nothing can satiate me. A big thing for me is also not eating during the day, so i consume all these calories in like a 3-4 hour window before bed... I’m just wondering if this counts as bingeing?? It feels pretty out of control to me and sometimes i feel really full but starving at the same time. My dietician said it’s just my body wanting food after being starved for so long, but idk...I just don’t want to go from one extreme (restricting) to the other (overeating), i want to be somewhere in the middle—So this eating tons and not feeling full really scares me, not to mention messes with my digestion and makes me feel like i’m just packing on so much weight. Do you think eating this much counts as bingeing or is it just like a normal part of recovery (like maybe it’s hyper metabolism or something) that will pass???",8.700496855345909,6.689432279245285,8.340235849056608,74.60003930817612,62.0566037735849,10.795597484276733,36.42295597484277,9.075114841892004,3.1461635220125785,1074,38,201,13,12,344,145,265,0.076,0.841,0.084,-0.6658,0,0,2,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,0,2,14,10,0,2,12,0,15,16,1,2,2,44,36,20,0,5,16,0,6,6,0,1,1,1,2,0,14,10,15,2,8,0,0,5,5,4,0,1,5,7,15,6,35,28,11,30,0,1,0,0,3,12,0,5,19,134,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332791009198831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516630944355124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738453359093392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796181522637721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881789188280513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214150674853044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7292767539929313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230399681496465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016260397445642,0.056573079983146216,0.0,0.0,0.0723778775686628,0.0,0.19151280443208485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04137330775006779,0.0,0.09001057135800823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798582365893711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23212828835005125,0.0,0.0,0.07008032129250821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05285968592392352,0.0,0.07955661658129674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164269639922176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077589013547384,0.07598457565201194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053660935606713006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575464093051667,0.15119090458190934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056431219867237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219269402517552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07532746237093227,0.0,0.07928262384561928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550647156120422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219280758691292,0.07832055854430788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324093241437759,0.0,0.0,0.08278618419581221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0526100644330462,0.05074151062950295,0.0,0.0,0.04617610394794026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150582139495512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012426791420354,0.0,0.0635211361069105,0.1928632454508387,0.0,0.07340957062973906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633596729568645,0.08587776432882309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05099551861488495
EDAnonymous,Solongsowhat,2019/06/28,"Anyone else here misdiagnosed with anorexia? A year ago , I started losing weight. At first it was fairly slow, but I was able to drop 20 lbs in 4 months. My starting weight was high (5'4"", 128 lbs) and I got down to 108 lbs. I had planned on stopping here but accidently slipped a little too low and became BARELY underweight. My doctor was concerned and referred me to an ED therapist and I was diagnosed with ANOREXIA. My BMI was BARELY UNDER Q8.5 and you literally have to have a BMI of 17.5 to be diagnosed. But I bought into the shit and over the course of a year I've gained and maintained to 120 lbs and now, surprise, I actually hate my body! I lost weight before because I loved myself and now I'm literally just excess fat that I thought I ""needed"" because I bought into the fatlogic that told me that a BMI of 18.5 was ~literally deadly~. And it was a DOCTOR who led me in this direction. A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. Now my hunger cues are fucked as I don't feel full unless I eat 1600 calories a day and weight loss is way too fucking slow this time. I've started running and skipping breakfast but I'm literally always hungry whereas I always had a small appetite before and I'm sick. If anyone every tells you that fat logic isn't dangerous I'm the perfect example of how it can ruin your life (and body). But ultimately I'm the shameful fool who latched onto a false diagnosis that went against actual medical knowledge just as an excuse to stuff my face again. Fuck. /endrant",4.757767857142858,6.173678645833334,5.77871031746032,78.05875000000003,69.83333333333334,8.402380952380952,30.7281746031746,8.841846274778883,2.5831674603174606,1182,49,216,21,21,391,161,288,0.165,0.7490000000000001,0.086,-0.9757,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,3,0,7,11,16,6,1,17,0,18,25,6,2,1,37,40,24,1,2,9,0,5,0,0,0,10,0,0,0,13,18,9,1,5,0,2,3,2,13,0,1,17,5,28,3,27,22,1,37,0,5,0,4,9,15,4,1,17,136,41,3,0.10441580120785747,0.0,0.20378951963692926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255830768182843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376462236074708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601991198567524,0.10698632762596028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730180652776402,0.0,0.1777003124814746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23196483256905664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06733955367535753,0.0,0.0,0.2119596805812538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374799402515413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684343206898668,0.08722600356619596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797481593419874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279576643448189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888160271665668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895921770485777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351085479089304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308898642266563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032102680139423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375196833520987,0.0,0.10465206382549387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681457302402412,0.11398218150020545,0.0,0.09423933725514992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103758692349811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334369633926075,0.0,0.0,0.07742299354781328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718131944448347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217181245603028,0.0,0.0,0.08729628523984913,0.0,0.0,0.11953111112142854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126401256840233,0.0,0.0,0.12123479304949752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289448280086356,0.060885693373931925,0.0,0.0,0.0997737726949649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288040284330696,0.0,0.5086012643621888,0.0,0.09679449381683193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448070514268756
EDAnonymous,jhkbucha,2019/06/28,"Frustrated with myself and relapses A couple months I gave a speech at my school about my struggle with bulimia to bring awareness to eating disorders. Of course, I ended with the note that I was recovering. 

Yes, I have drastically improved during recovery, and I genuinely cannot imagine doing half the things I did on a daily basis while at my worst. But recently, I've been relapsing: I would overeat after failing my (subconscious) daily food plan and feel an urge to throw up. In fact, I think I've thrown up more times this month than I had from January to May. 

Another problem is that due to burnout and an exhausting internship, I've been too tired to work out regularly. My stomach's been pretty darn bloated, and it doesn't help that I already feel the fat in most other areas of my body constantly. Usually, I work out to help reduce this annoying feeling, but with the increased awareness of my body fat and my constant exhaustion, I can't do that. This is causing the anxiousness that I used to always feel when I missed a workout day come back (I literally broke down for the past three days because of how miserable and crappy I felt). 

Obviously, this is super mild compared to what most bulimics (including my former self) face daily. But, ever since I finally started getting treatment a year ago, my recovery had been consistent. This month's rockiness really hit me hard and threw me off track. 

I just find it so ironic that I put myself out in front of the school as not only an advocate for ED awareness but also as as a guidance for my classmates who were struggling with an ED, when in reality I am basically slowly shifting back into my old habits.",9.09231096911608,7.859872948881794,9.09815974440895,66.99910330138448,60.72523961661343,12.691714589989353,40.03599574014909,11.729898335038438,4.820104749733758,1335,60,228,34,15,439,189,313,0.153,0.799,0.048,-0.9828,0,0,0,0,1,0,34.0,0,0,0,6,11,13,2,3,17,1,21,12,6,3,3,43,36,21,0,2,6,0,6,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,17,18,5,0,8,1,0,7,4,12,0,2,12,7,36,1,44,21,5,49,0,4,0,0,5,16,1,3,26,165,53,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670696711507127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283903744747516,0.09626546122427493,0.10016332573705464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622580372385445,0.0,0.1359917712164114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512499940246965,0.0,0.07338071548122181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674234693863017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236603612558486,0.0,0.10369414578205301,0.0,0.2601695927226363,0.0,0.0,0.13319488554246753,0.0,0.1552664416527717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796249650610615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231757459464118,0.0,0.0,0.1066183119446777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088879083645612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24346495755324954,0.0,0.11558081902431995,0.13186714392260776,0.1100224175479761,0.0,0.1455603731611331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289202576160832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783416750379664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137236118772655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882513721542894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12631543528548764,0.0,0.0,0.0915521498383903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491348870783395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224667079768805,0.0,0.11518455304757685,0.0,0.1210121557455116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711660290076942,0.0,0.11885778710683005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24365594633460774,0.0,0.0,0.12557948748845538,0.0,0.0,0.0995771167697504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520347594512884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516884006761457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997314470554011,0.07713273526428144,0.0,0.0,0.07019280973636449,0.1383556789326162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396709743849038,0.13257828330102828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527181180283244,0.0,0.0,0.08551238284042056,0.0,0.0,0.0775188556309875
EDAnonymous,LovelyPorcelain,2019/06/28,"Is anyone else addicted to an aesthetic? I keep attempting recovery at low points but always come back just for the way I see myself when I'm restricting. Does anyone else do this? Idk what to tell my fiance when he frustratingly asks me why I keep wanting to go back to the thing I seemingly hate. It sounds so dumb to say I do it just for the culture (thinspo, pain, and similar somewhat cringey things). Like, I want to go back to being sad sometimes?",5.01094696969697,6.035367897727273,5.684545454545457,80.43015151515155,68.88636363636363,9.503030303030306,30.57575757575757,9.725611199111238,2.8357893939393946,357,14,69,8,6,116,63,88,0.29,0.669,0.040999999999999995,-0.9825,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,3,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,12,16,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,2,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,0,3,9,1,10,15,1,12,0,2,1,0,5,3,1,2,6,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851662384560933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133236909390853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375321261076375,0.3480715680466324,0.0,0.0,0.15879082472071315,0.0,0.0,0.3918223743799904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631442373448514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864062651896814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837829142231432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19306420513530392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676959381105458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019485797657836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298222235377102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18073693131628865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16056719793572596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13507494223724176,0.0,0.0,0.13535187138459842,0.15462895875350507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799022773633948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846012881183912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22568727469764055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20036891220566752,0.134822422725193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326707006549686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gusscranberry,2019/06/28,"Fuck American portion sizes and fuck me for not having any control :( This week, I'd been pretty good. I had been eating in the range of my calorie limit. Then today happened. 

I decided that since I'd been doing so well with my eating and since today was a hard day, I'd get the chicken fried rice that I have been craving since fucking April. 

Well, I received like a pound of rice tightly packed in a tiny plastic box. No way I can finish this, I thought to myself.Then I proceeded to eat it all in less than two hours. 

My stomach hurts because this was a huge portion. I don't know why but I will literally continue eating as long as there is food to be eaten. Its like my mind cannot comprehend that the food isn't going anywhere. I have to eat it now. Why? 😭 

I need to lose 30 pounds before my birthday in a few months. The same 30 pounds I've been wanting to drop before any major holidays/life changes for four years now.

Ughhhhh",2.018461988304093,4.080036752631585,3.4319298245614043,89.2579532163743,78.84210526315789,5.906432748538013,24.239766081871338,6.937597516519254,0.8978888888888892,733,26,150,8,18,240,117,190,0.096,0.825,0.078,-0.5007,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,3,6,10,3,0,9,0,19,12,1,1,1,16,30,7,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,3,8,3,3,0,0,2,5,5,2,2,10,3,17,5,18,18,7,24,0,2,0,3,1,5,3,0,17,90,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15299677757170368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857405333381586,0.0,0.19144474124776453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900157540170435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616929600565846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254800652341427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755367821483902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720514436792592,0.0,0.0,0.31199100681503605,0.05877240499177047,0.0,0.06393177196939065,0.0943529170186918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947626673085773,0.0,0.10077069847465953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107819186077124,0.0,0.12042496738892965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061822638062370074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099157767400032,0.0,0.0,0.0995518426962113,0.0,0.12584972639754818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358480947841185,0.0,0.08979000744281433,0.0,0.0,0.08341136129365942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114444762623942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791635297400664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930604898251387,0.0,0.0,0.2132584452215313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988829700422237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635067124902871,0.08929087999494395,0.09023426309941586,0.0,0.20228755952249344,0.0,0.20301298973524068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07244113259942281
EDAnonymous,d_hatesthis,2019/06/28,"I don't know how I feel about someone creating a ""pizza with no sauce"" food on my fitness pal but I slightly appropriate it. I was so shocked I just accepted the calories instead of obsessively logging it.",3.2511538461538443,5.890130461538463,5.156089743589742,75.46182692307694,77.71794871794873,8.002564102564103,37.95512820512821,8.841846274778883,4.050328205128206,164,11,28,4,4,56,34,39,0.182,0.66,0.157,-0.248,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,7,4,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,6,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055861484251201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7308030567463518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321443346234878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5120782548775229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinthrowaway44444,2019/01/27,"Making food less appetizing I binge sometimes. Food just tastes toogood. I wanted to know if there was a way I could make food way less appetizing so that even if it was right in front of me, I wouldnt be able to eat it.

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I was thinking of just putting  alot of hot sauce on everything.",3.070508474576272,4.912227915254243,3.612000000000002,90.18342372881357,74.9322033898305,6.753898305084746,25.359322033898305,7.554174236665415,1.06931593220339,233,8,50,3,5,73,42,59,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,2,0,12,11,3,0,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,7,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,33,9,0,0.18475481677508088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018176678605298,0.2244973248041515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751168755863547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890503016514801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220288140157648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660457162580859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6702187734244248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153641554370657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24665054968406105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857296204817609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777960404275074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18272723795898735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183834265169388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897317776618624,0.29329954785440604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244973248041515,0.0
EDAnonymous,NobodysWaifu,2019/01/27,"Serious question to those on ephedrine Have you noticed side effects to your heart? If so how long had you been on it?

My resting heart rate is pretty high and when I work out it gets pretty damn high. I also have an irregular heart beat (arrhythmia? ) I'm not sure if it's related. 

I haven't been to the doctor bc no insurance so wondering what your guys' experience has been. ",1.5847597597597591,4.199604472972972,3.243693693693693,86.45160660660662,85.35135135135134,7.072672672672672,24.43843843843844,8.167268648758528,1.8262420420420429,297,12,59,7,9,98,54,74,0.113,0.804,0.083,0.1969,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,3,5,3,1,0,2,0,9,4,3,2,1,10,12,8,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,8,1,6,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,4,2,41,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434696830663447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362806839114773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17549198839085714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373142650193847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17763862284130008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6377854521260055,0.0,0.379101327184087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15876730292250332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20425316853360945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650376688828662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097405555043327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908658182490052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19455648564441128,0.13060858468870742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sssscccarr,2019/01/27,"What's wrong with me? About a year ago I purged for the first time but I stopped after a week as I hated shoving my fingers in my throat. I never binged when I threw up. I'm 15 now and have recently started again.

If I feel I have eaten too much for dinner I will throw up, for example I went out to a restaurant and went to the bathrooms after I had finished. I just feel guilty for eating normal food, and I've always wanted to lose weight. I ate some candy last night and proceeded to throw it straight up. I hate how it feels but I feel like I have to do it.

I go to boarding school and only purge then, but never at home, as I feel too guilty. My mother was bulimic when she was in her twenties.",1.985450450450454,3.3331952027027083,3.4118918918918912,92.56801801801802,76.70270270270271,6.014414414414415,21.792792792792795,6.42735559955562,0.2414576576576577,542,14,122,4,12,178,92,148,0.177,0.785,0.038,-0.9705,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,2,0,5,0,8,8,2,1,2,24,24,15,0,3,5,1,7,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,7,6,1,5,0,0,6,2,4,0,1,8,7,23,1,23,15,2,35,0,1,0,0,3,8,0,2,22,86,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489966077754878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985961893414633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17199222133676878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249424120137157,0.12007947156961606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429724364603098,0.2032482265582055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552619238309808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318969341745223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860227740433986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701115446065246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211750833240106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880433594264888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356131500004205,0.0,0.2592739788253114,0.0,0.0,0.15773574768267648,0.16468694561358949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278356992919039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659629878480307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011030511734646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897094660008875,0.0,0.0,0.1405260175764048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980113185080994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914048666627036,0.0,0.1348271025634775,0.204681419200061,0.0,0.3116316966301838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18377381725977188,0.0,0.1082407910178864
EDAnonymous,humsalot1991,2019/01/27,I keep fucking up & binging After almost 2 weeks on track I just binged on an almost full 155g tub of candy. I am so full of self loathing right now. I feel like a complete mess in control of absolutely nothing. I can’t believe I’m almost 30 and I’m still acting like a idiot teenager. My confidence is shot. Just after purging but that’s another thing I suck at barely got anything up. Sitting here with 2 herbal teas and a litre of water with little cuts in my mouth stinging. Will I ever be free from ED? I’ve even thought about if I drank boiling water to burn my entire mouth would it prevent me for gorging on food. What a mess 😓,2.017954545454547,3.9152391287878814,3.628787878787879,88.63818181818182,78.16666666666666,5.3090909090909095,25.393939393939394,5.985473137389443,0.7688212121212121,503,19,101,3,12,167,97,132,0.12300000000000001,0.777,0.1,-0.6137,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,9,9,4,0,5,0,6,9,2,1,1,18,15,5,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,6,3,2,0,1,1,1,6,0,0,3,1,12,4,20,9,2,20,0,0,0,1,1,12,2,4,8,61,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5585755533512886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146569601071826,0.0,0.0,0.1949740930726225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301261260269358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949048159558709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495434303002607,0.0,0.2085472968915605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281148450110192,0.16819319468466964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940167499304631,0.1328354305333302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22483914466880925,0.0,0.0,0.1718983492434751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487130442759649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652718379822306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18168158855254207,0.1863605281040538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841425327442598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587915735539556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397576374440745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484917647597715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353014121613826,0.0,0.0,0.14761543181261225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914969213699272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208629930584506,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brokenchalkboard,2019/01/27,"My ex-best friend gained a lot of weight And honestly it’s my motivator to keep losing. I know that’s terrible. But she would always comment on how I couldn’t fit into any of her clothes, she’d secretly eye my clothes and steal them for herself, she would parade her skinny body. And now she looks like she’s 180+. I’m under 130. It feels good, man. I know it’s terrible but still. ",-0.1311363636363616,2.180386250000001,1.8488636363636388,94.76068181818184,92.75,5.40909090909091,18.522727272727273,6.980632752743323,0.2708750000000002,300,9,67,5,11,99,57,80,0.105,0.747,0.149,0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,3,3,8,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,2,0,17,10,6,0,3,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,1,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,15,4,7,6,1,6,0,1,2,0,13,4,0,1,3,39,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215805196125568,0.0,0.0,0.18109115955047267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27946237696806703,0.0,0.0,0.29579604544464605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464781496901918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20574047869267245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335737289468924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366970978754348,0.0,0.0,0.29269984350975936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009931175452016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362249515633725,0.2979183384664531,0.0,0.2263962713378211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126652078548228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242781266459762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37833963845868296,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dostoyefski,2019/01/27,"From bad, to worse, to worstest Having a Bad Mental Health Day, ate brownie mix powder out of the box, cried for 30 minutes, took a modafinil because of how sleepy I am, immediately regretted it because I have a binge planned later and stuck my fingers down my throat until brownie flavoured bile came out of my nose. Not sure if I got the modafinil up. Room smells of vomit. Still eating the brownie mix. 

How is everyone else’s day going?",6.5612048192771075,6.998857409638558,5.9538795180722905,81.94262650602413,65.26506024096386,8.085783132530121,34.672289156626505,7.554174236665415,2.3830501204819288,347,15,65,3,5,106,62,83,0.218,0.782,0.0,-0.9536,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,6,0,4,7,3,2,1,10,10,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,5,4,6,1,13,5,0,13,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934012601520413,0.2872164716290255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694423638039045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25877510758317523,0.30386102970960377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410585867758057,0.19679803187333164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251081248270764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133886339492381,0.0,0.18841596761262785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504120135945691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374106434537617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881356116131967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22203268299601928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261739605317212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24007757449031064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jaquelinm,2019/01/27,"The Effects of Treatment- Please Read Hello, my name is Jacqueline Moreno and I am conducting a research study over the effect of inpatient or outpatient treatment has on the social skills of anorexic patients. This study is being conducted in order to attain further knowledge over how the curriculum of treatment can impact the after life of the patient who attained recovery. Most present research tend to rather focus on the causes of anorexia nervosa along with weight trajectory of patients but lacks dominance in the actual feelings and experiences suffered along. I am writing this message in order to ask you, the community, if you could share your experiences with me through a google form questionnaire. Ive read many of your messages concerning more information of the study and would like to do so. I am a student under the AP Capstone Program that allows us to perform undergraduate level studies for any chosen topic. The main investigator under my study is Ross Smeltzer, a master degree holder. His contact information can be provided for any who choose to participate. The questionnaire is made of generalized questions that allows you to express your experiences to the most detail you wish to to provide. A consent form would be signed electronically prior to the questionnaire, and your anonymity will be protected as your name will not be mentioned in the study but referenced as ""individual X."" I know that this is a difficult issue to speak of for many of you, but please consider this a way to bring awareness into what the negative and positive impacts of treatment can have in the way you interact with others. Thank you for your time, if you have any questions please send me a message. Please consider joining my study, I will greatly appreciate it. Also, feel free to comment below as well. The link below is the questionnaire if you wish to participate, thank you.

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EDAnonymous,lovelysilliness,2019/01/27,"Binge calories Yesterday was a full binge day. I didn’t count calories because I couldn’t even estimate how much I ate while binging. So today was going well until I thought to myself, if I have more cookies today it could just as easily be cookies I ate yesterday. So I don’t need to count these cookies because they might as well have been part of yesterdays binge. And that mindset I already know will be my downfall. Trying to fight it even though I’ve already made today a mini binge day. I don’t want it to be another full binge day. But apparently binge calories don’t count anymore. UGH. I hope this made some sort of sense lol. 


I just want to eat cookies until I’m dead but also be a skinny legend. ",2.766268412438624,4.90729260992908,3.954893617021277,86.02615384615385,76.80141843971631,6.3242771412984204,26.448990725586466,7.321109707123232,1.4413138025095478,562,22,107,7,13,183,78,141,0.053,0.863,0.085,0.0225,1,0,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,11,5,1,0,3,1,17,4,1,3,0,20,29,14,1,7,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,5,2,2,0,9,0,14,3,11,12,6,15,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,5,12,73,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35071409952853955,0.12707730798757313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662710729058808,0.0,0.0,0.15759234684124332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19373560699679568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268737475198672,0.0,0.0,0.3074442459701481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260081243223826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099122204595595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031011036037737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782980757678133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733074485805654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30072196009136315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857446894914618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168144120010119,0.11782700544177467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208003392282584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612462960776766,0.12615384950258504,0.0,0.0,0.4518737662814983,0.0,0.0,0.10788694451477696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18745410172124816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857516890624345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Beanutpean,2019/01/27,bella in breaking dawn im rewatching these awful movies for the first time since they came out and im just now noticing how alarmingly tiny she got in breaking dawn ,3.773645833333333,6.2310099062500015,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,74.9375,6.766666666666668,26.291666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.5897166666666669,135,5,25,2,3,41,27,32,0.191,0.809,0.0,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,4,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680115064079102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27369170599144993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573435115900746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6951191764735772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663296595665088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661659339514564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762277284405013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IdiotsOfBOCO,2019/01/27,"How the hell did I become an almost 300 lb bulimic Here I am. Trying to accept the fact that I am a 290 lb bulimic.  I am not officially diagnosed, but I don't need a diagnosis when my teeth have visible cavaties , shitting 5+ times daily, and am freezing when everyone else is hot. I am terrified of friends, family, ect not believing that I have an actual eating disorder because I am fat.

 I can feel my body dying. I have been struggling for so long, not getting any help, destroying my body, because NO ONE thinks a 300 lb girl is a fucking bulimic. 

I only started vomiting in October. But, when I read the dsm-5 criteria, I know I have been suffering for year(s). I eat one BIG meal a day. It started as OMAD. I thought I was healthy. I listened to r/omad's bullshit. I had no idea fasting was a form of purging.  I ate up the ""hunter-gatherer"" bullshit like I ate everything else. 

It started as binging occasionally. Then every day. Then I stopped eating regular meals. Just one big binge every night, 500 calories from my TDEE. I thought I was curing my binge eating, but I was only falling hard into bulimia. I gained so much weight. I lost so much weight. I gained again. I lost again. I have a psychiatry appointment tuesday and I am getting evaluated. I am terrified he won't believe me, because I am fat. 

And the worst part, I don't even really want to recover because I have no idea how to lose weight without it. (CICO, duh, but still)


Someone, please believe me. ",2.5336113886113867,4.8425021363636365,4.608256743256746,80.21645104895106,78.33566433566433,8.141658341658344,30.494005994005995,8.942964678507748,2.978388011988012,1145,58,214,29,28,393,155,286,0.262,0.665,0.07200000000000001,-0.996,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,5,14,13,4,1,14,1,29,20,6,2,1,28,47,19,1,2,9,0,7,1,1,1,4,1,0,1,5,4,13,1,8,1,0,1,10,10,0,3,14,8,42,3,15,32,5,25,1,4,0,1,5,5,3,1,20,142,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.09129578519178684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368140873606642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362032985573803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281200407948569,0.1033236953084057,0.0,0.31621196064583706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20783611997322526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066994295308553,0.0,0.0,0.09495594033560516,0.09709489486725267,0.0,0.107221666226418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829188091988951,0.15630571187183648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179192487750292,0.0,0.15764755542139547,0.08939542068661932,0.08408083376050259,0.0,0.08819494204441405,0.0,0.04730401210057866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228004476638791,0.08648971165985922,0.0977568247210718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380653734679264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270767015539466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122349097910148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051415156430161535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04570604743143279,0.0,0.0,0.08279286885125707,0.0,0.10466365674811696,0.20425177460496446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375467775086838,0.06936954363933223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779464588762108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901850357782513,0.14230496404286835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131050498916457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026948467628795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357990798345313,0.0,0.05993346645749886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603244302267487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926850117391745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19865526263613748,0.0,0.07471281704832179,0.07821582699146801,0.0,0.09780357116531392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059946004204638366,0.0,0.14854378986426547,0.054552434231384256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351742605671462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055180921559403455,0.0,0.0,0.3417728634588769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018328701100364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06024608915620595
EDAnonymous,malamala1073,2019/01/27,Do you ever want think about how thin you’d be if you were taller and want to cry If I weren’t 5’2 and ate the same amount of food I did now I could lose weight so easily. I think about this at least twice a day. Fuck my stupidly low bmr,1.3688888888888897,2.0425934814814823,2.3490740740740783,102.26583333333336,77.14814814814815,6.140740740740743,15.351851851851851,5.985473137389443,-1.1076148148148148,184,1,51,1,4,58,43,54,0.245,0.664,0.09,-0.8781,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,6,4,2,0,2,0,7,4,0,1,1,12,13,6,0,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,2,8,0,5,6,3,7,0,2,0,1,3,4,1,2,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23896413134637026,0.0,0.32876346790193245,0.1930216681592379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707310799573881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361910864271314,0.0,0.0,0.2766950578519461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33483654880025515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38355459355967547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530660003411483,0.0,0.0,0.36446285695762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayorup44,2019/01/27,"What would you eat for a 10000 cal challenge? Love them or hate them, I think most of us have seen them. When I watch them I usually find myself planning  what I would eat on a day like that. Someone posted a little while ago they tend to trigger a b/p, but I’m still never eating the things I would plan on eating.

So, what would you eat to get to 10k cals? 
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EDAnonymous,coolcucumbah,2019/01/27,"i told my boyfriend about my ed he was so sweet and understanding i'm so lucky i have him like he's actually perfect


i told him everything & then i said i didn't want to talk bc i was ashamed & he said :


""Aw babygirl you shouldn't be ashamed I love you so much everything about you I'm so sorry you deal with that I won't be so harsh about you needing to eat now that I'm aware it's a serious problem.  I love you so so so much. You shouldn't be embarrassed.  You are loved "" :)

he's the only person i've ever told and im so glad i don't have to feel totally alone in this anymore",-0.8824999999999967,1.137163115384617,1.6479807692307702,97.71889423076924,90.92307692307692,5.403846153846153,19.66346153846154,6.9077264865688965,0.15442307692307722,455,15,114,7,16,155,69,130,0.183,0.629,0.188,0.5611,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,8,0,1,14,13,0,3,2,1,13,4,0,0,3,14,28,12,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,2,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,8,4,22,8,8,14,3,4,0,0,0,3,25,1,0,1,4,66,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.14883180655615047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795865991642627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33049802803107986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125305155663252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723538817020494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560600470703012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795777711103108,0.0,0.0,0.2741397614147196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711573500894199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474144978145824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451070819393325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412949915304574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22423089236364813,0.11308730713174625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159938809656762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316946998097032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459354407173379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29015175742368937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072710049227752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258509382538392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43720140849942174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587726052091901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995679511235616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,antediluvian5,2019/06/16,"That satisfaction when you see people from high school get fat I know I sound like a horrible person for saying/thinking this, but it feels awesome a few years later when you’re hotter than people who were more popular than you in high school. Not only did I lose weight but my face matured and got a lot less round and prettier",8.665416666666665,7.066677625000002,8.033125000000002,75.46604166666668,61.8125,11.033333333333333,32.27083333333333,9.725611199111238,2.765214583333333,264,7,50,4,3,83,51,64,0.032,0.6859999999999999,0.282,0.9576,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,2,3,2,0,0,8,7,6,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,6,2,5,4,4,7,0,1,2,0,4,3,0,1,5,31,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770906681432805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162672997147778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18618888312762008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4919252429418026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793904395760505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373276709565945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604400941510263,0.0,0.19791553123643268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770524716266893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227840058870718,0.2032692035912133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712056199798002,0.18550892501430608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916680215565584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28348381059565586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991351935881694
EDAnonymous,goodbye-moon-men,2019/06/16,"I need serious help. I've binged over 5000 calories every day for the past month and a half. I am going back home to my family and boyfriend (I'm at university abroad) in two weeks and I've gained about 30 pounds.

I'm terrified of this and I cannot function. I haven't cleaned my room, the food packaging is building up in my room so much that I can't walk through it anymore. I don't leave the house unless I have a mandatory class. I have anxiety again. I'm so scared and I feel so out of control. Somebody help me. I can't do this to myself anymore.",0.17959706959707233,2.4193119230769256,2.0915079365079383,94.95250000000004,87.88888888888891,5.736019536019538,22.03235653235653,7.1686216300943375,0.6867587301587301,433,16,99,7,14,143,75,117,0.1,0.802,0.09699999999999999,-0.3167,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,1,5,0,10,1,0,1,0,10,16,9,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,6,1,1,1,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,0,1,15,0,14,16,1,16,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,6,61,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672615435915918,0.0,0.4336708502745784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812321928953108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24522707828984494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100685538176905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421642958127984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611746610496276,0.0,0.11055263357233884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26438437397244025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426003906087545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931040211187343,0.0,0.21931707998991387,0.0,0.0,0.2522850390516353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315117093837382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745190143871238,0.0,0.1607279997798276,0.16212125353624393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20871979174839084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21890010889323935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135827563893487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538248529590375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CinnamonandSunrises,2019/06/16,"Dear body: what the FUCK So yall, somehow I've managed to get back up to my sw (166 lbs ish) but Im wearing smalls now vs the larges and xls i had then. I tried on clothes from then and they were all hella loose- plus Ive lost almost 10 inches in the waist and 6.5 in the thighs. My measurements keep going down while my weight just keeps going up and I'm so confused. I've grown since then, about 2 inches, but that cant contribute that much. I keep tellling myself not to restrict but ugghhhhhjj",0.6111217948717922,2.8912573557692336,2.0861538461538487,95.54217948717951,86.01923076923076,4.620512820512821,18.28205128205128,5.985473137389443,-0.3875679487179493,391,10,88,3,12,126,74,104,0.124,0.8320000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.8543,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,7,4,1,1,4,0,4,6,4,0,1,19,13,14,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,4,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,3,1,10,1,12,10,2,18,0,1,0,1,2,9,1,3,6,52,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367812589223167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18182370130368167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626545586832316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21860412953808808,0.12354096900334224,0.0,0.26877215796444504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554181593417961,0.0,0.0,0.6305314699926386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25812481356005423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382584003924886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19560275483769585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054131025704674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28794545957093565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hugandkiss420,2019/06/16,DAE refuse to buy bigger clothes when you gain the weight back? It’s to the point that my old work uniform has some holes in the seam under my arm but the newer shirt in the same size is a little too small from not being worn so much. I just can’t break down and request the larger size so I’m determined to lose weight just to get into the newer shirt I already have.,5.891923076923074,4.618266782051286,5.781666666666666,88.34250000000004,67.07692307692308,8.312820512820513,25.91025641025641,5.985473137389443,0.6979641025641028,291,5,66,1,4,91,59,78,0.064,0.835,0.1,0.4403,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,0,8,0,5,5,3,0,0,9,8,5,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,10,6,3,15,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,1,5,43,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021970694086722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105715058189464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307379998780614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744667227175123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30636484223581073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013091177050348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287356451069201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25887401178625463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6669439526402683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993639403541576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,andimustscream_,2019/06/16,"just need to vent hi, first time posting here so i apologize if i make any mistakes.  my eating habits have never been the best but recently it's been getting worse. i've been trying to keep it under control but i can't help fixating on my appearance. it's kinda like being on tight rope, yknow? anyway, last friday a guy said i looked like i have a  baby.  i pretended to be jokey angry with him while being genuinely angry haha. he said that girls cant take a joke in a jokey manner but later apologized, i think. he's special needs and has crush on me (ive already told him no to dating, twice), so i don't know if he meant to be malicious.  

i just haven't been able to get the whole baby thing out of my head. i just can't. i don't want this to be what pushes me off the edge. i don't want to be worry my mum anymore than i have. i'm scared. 

i'm sorry if i tag this wrong.  i'm away to watch some tlou videos. i'll probably delete this later.",0.1442767577250308,2.165949305418721,2.4825279892521297,93.69887483206448,85.50246305418719,5.464308105687415,17.109046126287506,6.782984794422108,-0.12604236453201967,731,16,166,9,22,249,121,203,0.193,0.688,0.11900000000000001,-0.9561,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,8,9,0,1,7,1,22,2,1,2,1,28,42,10,0,8,9,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,9,3,1,3,3,3,0,2,9,3,0,2,8,5,23,6,20,28,3,20,0,0,2,0,15,8,0,6,11,102,32,0,0.16468593163094095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181735020729856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199208083026783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332419174798196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547278538966323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282772493211335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847092758531012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685148219463562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400817693154312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208320423200668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306496419991887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690152777457712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038550854176904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14638042289506298,0.0,0.0,0.09050708111517572,0.13424101461770974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091445517431285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382947053582403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992913817087002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442250631529601,0.1270159430394258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772359910625008,0.0,0.17755928835049362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626074896267259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133080673597991,0.0,0.16487934725563136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843524174250288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382332516939495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094100152347148,0.10552409526263933,0.0,0.0,0.09602969110318177,0.0,0.0,0.15736446513391833,0.0,0.11181093730894212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427205868257572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838659613922693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724655761657714,0.16782903384468142,0.0,0.18005821340777192,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sneepsnorpsnoop,2019/06/16,"I'm conflicted My mum wants to take me to the fucking hospital because apparently she's concerned about me but I'm not even underweight yet, and I'm scared that I would be put in recovery and end up even fatter then I already am. I don't even restrict that hard but apparently I'm going to die now.",3.0022580645161305,4.5738385806451625,5.0427741935483885,80.99416129032262,74.48387096774194,8.830967741935485,30.14193548387097,9.3871,2.787634838709678,240,11,49,6,5,83,44,62,0.17300000000000001,0.7829999999999999,0.044000000000000004,-0.8412,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,12,5,1,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,6,10,0,8,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,4,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085883035660769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704651805668861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902208631560478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476769227200707,0.0,0.0,0.5540962518742357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585215093580365,0.0,0.0,0.15892514038322095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505013846521911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811141707282153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799671624014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102535312262849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493817421205656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19864733787349376,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,davidbyrnestan,2019/06/16,"low cal ice cream in europe hi so i'm going to europe for a little over a week soon and i realized that halo top is unavailable in europe. are there any alternatives available in amsterdam, paris, and/or london? i've recently been snacking on loads of halo top because it makes me feel less guilty and idk if i can make it through nine days without a total bingefest if i don't have anything to replace it :/",4.371041666666667,5.867044687500003,5.540000000000003,79.09166666666668,70.875,7.833333333333335,29.583333333333336,8.344100000000001,2.259708333333333,325,13,59,5,6,108,63,80,0.105,0.8490000000000001,0.046,-0.5489,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,2,1,10,11,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,2,4,0,11,10,2,14,0,1,1,0,1,9,0,2,4,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24286663856179896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29389481158106673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177085045851522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303249879945153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058011386305364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029702167841868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579469127522421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767858596719477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526314907075297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864752122218449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442690696587292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FizzyChewit,2019/06/16,"DAE find the recovery community hella toxic? (A bit of a RaNt, sorry in advance) Before we get started, I am NOT saying that you shouldn't recover and get your life back. I'm just ranty, if that makes sense?

Something about the community rubs me the wrong way. Like, we all have low self-esteem, and we *do* need to raise each other up, don't get me wrong, but I've seen *countless* posts comparing ED recovery to chemotherapy and cancer, and I just think that it's ... Insensitive?

And personally, I *hate* it when ED recovery accounts say that we're warriors or soppy shit like that. Yes, this process **is** hard, but I don't want your fucking attempt at validation, because honestly, imo, it's cringy. Just let me work on myself by *myself*

TLDR: A rant about ig recovery community that makes zero sense whatsoever.",1.4133114035087715,4.091371427631579,3.2602631578947374,82.96850877192983,94.59210526315788,6.480701754385965,22.780701754385962,7.645422480735847,1.7526833333333331,635,25,115,15,24,211,102,152,0.17300000000000001,0.75,0.077,-0.9165,0,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,3,3,0,3,7,9,3,0,6,1,8,4,1,2,1,25,21,10,0,4,8,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,11,9,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,6,0,1,1,5,15,3,10,18,3,11,0,1,1,1,9,5,2,2,5,68,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270903786011674,0.0,0.11313535543673785,0.0,0.1579253944791928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20261874503929966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16962801784734255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715771088969532,0.2908929808880173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662542643358215,0.18323399233140752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897807210791964,0.13108934396690153,0.1813420654755601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24776862899307805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761435336894065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205205486559182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177746139743525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951809233894331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936132655480237,0.0,0.19050784906002965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428780348663856,0.0,0.20775540715128996,0.1313631990678049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892006452520057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094671586450218,0.14731454470557775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511341907962754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058321334753136,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AllConfuse,2019/06/16,"Appetite Suppressants? Hey! 

Has anyone tried appetite suppressants? Which ones worked for your or didn’t work? Are there any caffeine-based ones that are good? 

Thanks in advance!",4.536666666666669,7.476944793103449,1.7570689655172451,91.07399425287358,101.06896551724138,4.691954022988506,25.52298850574713,6.42735559955562,1.4703747126436784,145,6,22,2,6,38,25,29,0.0,0.773,0.22699999999999998,0.8097,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,13,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25850734566868355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26580181169736755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188422987950644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151836307295846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499806338046855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580892185070501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5534909895501294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,someheroeswearnooses,2019/06/16,"therapy :/ nobody:  
me: i should probably go to a therapist  
me: ....  
me: nah im too fat  
the world: ...  
me: yeah that's it, too fat. nevermind then guess nothing could be done \*shrug\*  
the world: are you fucking kidding me",-0.8846341463414653,0.07195724390244074,1.2626585365853664,93.31252439024394,122.90243902439023,5.542439024390244,23.612195121951213,6.742157984588678,1.5971053658536585,161,8,33,4,10,53,32,41,0.087,0.8240000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.024,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,1,5,3,2,0,0,3,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,0,1,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,1,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527131379723904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239068714028934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926149457546173,0.0,0.0,0.17988395413503533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486792547236909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418927675267079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037066805673724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412589526699188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619648726230915,0.3675007324434755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Imboredandunhappy,2019/06/16,"I’m weighing oats So I’ve recently been diagnosed with IBS and that gives me a good excuse not to eat certain things. I’ve been told eating oats every morning helps.

I read the calories on the back and it’s 450 calories per 100g so you see me weighing oats on a kitchen scale in hopes of getting under 100 grams for less calories.


And then I worked out till I felt like passing out (found some workouts on YouTube that burn a lot of calls and help with slimming down) and I had pizza for dinner which I ended up purging. 

Life is woe and I wish I could still enjoy pizza like a normal human being.",2.9309016393442637,4.570480614754097,3.676196721311477,90.43560655737707,74.81967213114754,5.5357377049180325,25.31475409836065,5.6839178017228535,0.6099219672131153,473,16,96,2,10,150,85,122,0.038,0.774,0.18899999999999997,0.9484,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,7,0,0,6,0,6,10,0,0,1,20,15,10,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,5,10,8,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,10,6,17,7,3,16,0,1,1,0,8,9,0,3,8,59,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526322343090294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20268802044369744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848400771364485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014706644763541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062247535916836,0.0,0.0,0.17580976338040855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724260552613368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905886153452075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176421339525362,0.0,0.0,0.10370668946062674,0.1904167761706724,0.0,0.16649018644603514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660972221289073,0.0,0.0,0.1971526886405308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402045712296465,0.1939515887906105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875537591272066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19448528945577787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19855109829282505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19599221790355775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817671397681154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852026574035755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318728405188378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896727549979627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22826219324999755,0.0,0.0,0.14450845824824424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,w0rkb0red0m,2019/06/16,"Couldn’t purge today? I’m new to all of this (about 3 months), but from the first day I fell in love with the feeling. Today I went to a baby shower and after the copious amount of deliciously fattening finger-food, I went to the bathroom to purge, and I just couldn’t :( idk why. Usually I can get it going within 5 minutes, but today just wasn’t working. I feel so shitty about how much I ate with the intention of purging, and it’s sucks knowing the past couple days restricting myself have gone to waste because of a few pigs in a blanket and tator tots. Ugh",4.981251580278126,5.261350690265488,5.951731984829332,81.14380530973455,68.64601769911505,8.581036662452593,28.532237673830593,8.418075326091056,1.940811378002528,440,14,87,6,7,146,76,113,0.21,0.6970000000000001,0.092,-0.9385,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,0,9,0,5,2,0,2,1,19,17,8,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,6,1,1,3,0,0,5,3,2,0,1,5,2,8,1,18,10,4,19,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,11,57,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123389948491364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22005420988150906,0.0,0.25651911482832696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011169146999026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691651297629082,0.2404835048701477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039053037243358,0.0,0.11302668633425278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929789219634137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794947401288288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587421511177289,0.0,0.146197871443985,0.0,0.0,0.19207716268789785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985111071901933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655379474166212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190355077106376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687229350205203,0.1794560420096755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478521417579318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yellowjournal,2019/06/16,"going home for the first time from college oops, i can’t help but feel good when the first thing my mom says is “oh my gosh you lost so much weight, way more than what i could tell from facetime” but then feel anxious later when she was stroking my hair and pointed out how i lost so much hair, i just said “it’s cause of stress from school” 

it’s also my birthday so i got some of my favorite homemade foods but i’m sad that i couldn’t even enjoy it while i ate it, and my immediate thought after inhaling my cake was “that wasn’t even worth it” and now i’m pissed at myself but i just want to enjoy my birthday foods like i used to ::///",1.0323076923076933,2.9095041851851846,2.008148148148148,99.16128205128204,81.22222222222223,4.746438746438747,19.273504273504273,5.369823440869387,-0.5573589743589737,495,12,118,2,13,155,83,135,0.14400000000000002,0.691,0.165,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,4,12,9,1,1,2,0,7,8,3,3,0,20,20,16,0,3,6,1,6,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,9,4,4,0,3,0,1,1,3,5,0,2,9,9,20,4,12,9,4,15,0,3,0,0,7,3,1,1,11,77,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315967342635411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859033629631806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904608872341662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138593429303908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21737761943452436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16641063634949935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27994539329520474,0.3979676511715958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352193387325954,0.13802319244953884,0.13161182634870036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029955844301506,0.0,0.16506479160242904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08039458071667549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592683398107669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19272799089255405,0.0,0.0,0.241937689390654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556021746274076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565320572552505,0.1308628889233252,0.0,0.16654117901551932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850029083807926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383068409626715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932482468988397,0.0,0.0,0.13064043354567986,0.09595491895652353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212501887763904,0.0,0.0,0.09706039576017073,0.13061824374851427,0.0,0.20038694806074928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AS123x,2019/06/16,"The dumbest things trigger me So I’m getting ready to go out for a fun #chill night with a friend so I’m leaning over my bathroom counter to do my make-up in the mirror and I suddenly catch sight of my stomach hanging over the bathroom counter and I’m hit so strong with an urge of “starve yourself to death” that I almost start crying 

can’t kill my self yet I’d leave behind a chubby corpse and we we can’t have that!! 

Anyway please share dumb things that have triggered you so I feel less crazy thanks",1.9306730769230784,4.025613798076924,2.3083076923076935,97.03669230769232,79.28846153846155,4.544615384615385,22.9,4.935628992294339,-0.06429307692307651,401,13,87,1,10,122,70,104,0.231,0.603,0.166,-0.8462,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,2,1,0,1,6,7,2,0,7,0,5,1,1,2,0,12,14,7,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,8,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,2,11,5,13,13,1,11,0,0,1,0,6,4,1,1,4,51,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28058333332121826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077903911182426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167931048135207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21648453163527392,0.0,0.1463947655420799,0.0,0.15924610826218835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100036608852625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966950518857121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18703801432091405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629520064147047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30757930317658816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29231336413700604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19832948189071656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579737393828436,0.0,0.0,0.3723095138709037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RainbowCrash311,2019/06/16,"Today I had 3300 calories or so I was at a cookout and was eating a lot of dip and also drinking adult beverages. I feel super nasty. Normally I just eat 1500 calories and have been very slowly loosing weight at a reasonable pace. I feel like to make up for this I need to fast for at least a day (500 kcals or less), but I'm aiming for 3. I'm about to purge even though it wont do much because I hate the feeling in my stomach. 

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EDAnonymous,congratty,2019/06/16,"How to live with an ED and an Injury? Greetings EDA, I broke my ankle recently and I can’t walk at all and i’m having a lot of trouble adapting to it. I feel conflicted because I want this thing to heal as quickly as possible, but I don’t want to eat because I can’t do anything to burn off the calories. I guess the anxiety is coming from 1) me wanting to be underweight by the time anyone can see me again and 2) irrational thoughts like ‘maybe if i weren’t so heavy my ankle wouldn’t have snapped’  3) I can’t step on my scale anymore and idk why but i refuse to eat if idk what i weigh. if anyone has any advice i’ll be extremely thankful forever ♾",2.1694767822105945,3.4313106043165504,4.1094048397645535,88.10693263570965,76.05035971223022,7.356703727926749,27.74427730542839,8.00094639256281,1.6761453237410069,510,21,112,8,11,174,92,139,0.124,0.778,0.098,-0.1432,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,6,0,14,4,0,1,1,24,24,14,0,7,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,7,3,2,2,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,2,2,16,2,16,19,2,10,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,5,5,72,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941198316916152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508975201903656,0.0,0.15196776373674115,0.0,0.1970087920357796,0.2778033307759729,0.0,0.16347316144891305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24219207768513565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711205760672055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065399149564299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044410770366864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883689377269935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705103112925303,0.0,0.17541281004446338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688863014019004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957201409401876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22394958563930048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961442745528092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15829943222233264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828915031789277,0.0,0.0,0.13197515142929667,0.0,0.0,0.15770700798183335,0.11583521853883998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515091965042396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792519742915752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberrymango8888,2019/06/16,"Does anyone else have trouble focusing on studies/being productive? Like you know you could have been studying for exams for a month now but instead you procrastinated like crazy until it's the very last minute/ day before a test or assignment due and you have a massive breakdown because you're angry at yourself for wasting all your valuable time watching mukbang videos on youtube and crying about your appearance. 

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And now the test is coming and you know you're going to do terribly because you've barely studied so now you feel fat AND dumb, now you won't get a career and no one will ever love you because your ugly. 

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I'm doing great guys 😔✌🏻",6.01738095238095,7.611838674603177,5.9779365079365085,77.13928571428572,67.01587301587301,7.504761904761906,33.84126984126984,7.793537801064563,2.6768317460317466,547,25,88,6,9,172,90,126,0.22,0.6459999999999999,0.134,-0.9201,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,11,0,0,8,8,1,0,6,0,10,2,1,0,2,16,19,10,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,0,3,1,0,3,2,3,0,1,1,2,11,5,9,15,1,17,0,0,1,1,13,3,1,2,13,55,12,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36014029297499284,0.40388559670111895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620607458596267,0.17028446324498844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30392930025346904,0.0,0.1414180811737299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14316063360445822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269166125249698,0.0,0.18255530848605755,0.10718079596913747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454366953625483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883300350493555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503311670660656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403222120432915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682903156002543,0.0,0.0944513644931811,0.0,0.0,0.18322847139637544,0.0,0.16455729059716925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267075482765105,0.1354695520333993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238710069528065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999575475813148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265374100513191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261674071317493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690852883301672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712670661231965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40388559670111895,0.0
EDAnonymous,booboocancan,2019/06/16,"Hi Hi, I have dealt with anorexia since I can remember.
I have been doing really good this past year but I gained a lot of weight. I feel like i'm completely out of control and i'm freaking out. I cannot shut the voices in my head telling me not to eat.
Do you guys have any tips on how to control this?
(I am currently seeing a therapist)",0.2745833333333323,2.3895095138888927,2.5061111111111143,93.12500000000004,85.80555555555556,6.377777777777778,21.5,7.645422480735847,0.8698000000000006,263,9,60,5,8,89,52,72,0.053,0.821,0.126,0.6183,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,3,1,3,0,0,3,0,9,3,1,3,0,12,13,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,10,2,9,12,1,8,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,4,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191181518123645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342185533498072,0.0,0.5010983128027163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22858216667669184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11295191898326752,0.15958876262799426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736764420069654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22118969948969888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22926101064801094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913631925224004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991688282611344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21324956489926114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431083696093292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530555816413927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801168283782867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478924505600328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525136293847706,0.0,0.0,0.2593712232489997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720269667754333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438548461166837
EDAnonymous,LaulenLush,2019/07/23,"Was anyone else traumatized by treatment? No strong details I hesitate to post this because I don’t want to discourage people from treatment, but I don’t know where else to turn. Please don’t use this post as a reason to avoid treatment.

I developed severe trauma comparable to PTSD from staff mistreatment in my residential recovery program. Am I alone? I feel that nobody has been in the same situation because we only ever hear the true successes. My ED is worlds better nowadays but my trauma is horrific. Am I alone?

For those wondering, I had residential at CFD. The Dr. Phil endorsed one. 

Please help me by letting me know if you’ve experienced the same",4.320096418732781,7.11682717355372,5.311095041322318,74.94421831955925,74.78512396694215,8.661432506887053,29.918044077134986,9.2995712137729,3.2711812672176315,532,24,87,14,12,174,82,121,0.217,0.595,0.187,-0.5329999999999999,0,3,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,3,2,8,0,1,5,0,12,1,0,2,2,17,20,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,3,14,4,14,16,2,8,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,1,58,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533763076633946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119286139170487,0.17479788602778484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799000360464498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088013196969716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28502559847326514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431572385692313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625951155393048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922764268421942,0.0,0.11434829220803365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751247867537266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444808790752464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11560166930603102,0.12974752187972768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827122344432114,0.0,0.0,0.37453090879635403,0.0,0.0,0.32677159233958275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19942001790282715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17540323200429542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19272726355974004,0.0,0.0,0.19175938171229093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855617148391987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14734196054908813,0.0,0.0,0.10062316343673663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18500633282733756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ErinNeeka_,2019/07/23,"Relapsing(?)  So I went to treatment for literally two weeks in May because it's all my shitty insurance would pay for. Can you even call that treatment? Anyways, it didn't last long and I'm back to my old anorexic ways. Any advice or suggestions would be appreciated. 💚",1.9763865546218469,4.810512745098045,3.678879551820732,81.66352941176471,88.21568627450979,6.835854341736696,26.893557422969195,7.957251820313856,2.282779271708683,214,10,39,5,7,71,44,51,0.10400000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.064,-0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,6,8,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,5,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,5,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879892622371676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20041434036254985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22661542047935945,0.0,0.1796537663473611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30093401427892386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946545686282708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402297036964821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608109425897805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092507826889665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878909073407611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23392875456074902,0.23640027723714396,0.0,0.0,0.27320107781954583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4187100533395676,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,herlmt,2019/07/23,Why is everybody acting like Eugenia is already recovered?? She just uploaded a new video and people are acting so stupid in the comments. They should have more common sense and do a little research about recovering from an eating disorder. Also she acts like she's already recovered!!!!!??? She's probably gonna relapse,6.0785454545454565,8.984383400000002,6.721818181818183,66.46272727272729,69.54545454545455,10.21818181818182,34.63636363636364,10.355215969177356,4.763472727272728,257,13,35,8,5,84,44,55,0.153,0.764,0.083,-0.7347,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,24,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6069997380501936,0.21993952556875654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31520553313655786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28142196360453314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687292513766202,0.2756499742353956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656234341519823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906695547674093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965263411649702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481696912369885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KnightUnseen,2019/07/23,"I tried konjac noodles for the first time Finally hopped on the bandwagon, and had a horrible time. First, while I was rinsing them, I dropped all the noodles into the sink full of dirty dishes....and my fucking clown ass just scooped em back out and kept rinsing. 

Then, I finally got to eat them and discovered they're upsettingly chewy/springy, which I was not expecting. It's the same texture as chewing on just the fat from a steak. 

anyway my verdict is 0/10 im just gonna eat regular pasta from now on",6.00921768707483,6.447120193877553,6.192244897959185,79.75870748299323,66.44897959183675,9.798639455782316,35.72108843537415,9.725611199111238,3.3808312925170068,401,19,77,8,6,128,70,98,0.11,0.873,0.017,-0.8617,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,2,6,2,1,1,8,0,4,7,2,0,1,13,8,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,0,9,0,11,2,3,17,0,0,0,2,2,6,2,0,10,51,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867385291659625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4969973304782381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5320659355766202,0.0,0.4131403077445621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451315932331387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19423127417991806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623222993250038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832184111384817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16488085949645293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dead_g1rl,2019/07/23,"anorexic, except i really do wanna eat. for about 2 and a half years now i have had a depression induced anorexia, and it took me until i wound up on a saline drip (for dehydration) in the ER to realize that this was very real indeed.

i hadn’t even heard the word “anorexia” in reference to myself until that doctor said it.

the problem for me is that i have an extreme aversion to food, and the act of chewing and swallowing. i desperately want to gain weight but when i try to eat solid food, i feel like i will choke or vomit on some days. 

does anyone else have experience with this? i don’t have any form of body dysmorphia that could contribute to this, (unless occasionally visualizing myself as a tall and burly woodsman counts)

the best thing for me so far has been taking seroquel for the induced appetite, and drinking supplemental smoothies on days where eating is just out of the question. 

i would love to hear any of you guys thoughts or experiences with this!",8.553743961352655,7.421801717391308,8.480072463768117,70.6784541062802,61.71739130434783,11.221256038647343,36.205314009661826,10.25414643259724,3.5717350241545884,772,29,140,14,9,251,118,184,0.068,0.8240000000000001,0.10800000000000001,0.8655,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,7,5,0,0,12,0,16,14,1,2,0,30,25,15,0,5,6,0,2,1,0,2,3,3,0,1,11,9,9,0,7,1,0,2,2,2,1,1,8,5,17,3,32,14,3,19,0,1,0,1,7,10,0,4,8,107,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757295425579835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157399792209117,0.14884311149341775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244865502542546,0.0,0.0,0.16135878388749478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598380353489755,0.0,0.0,0.1873702727821482,0.0,0.12511817281184315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868683322512932,0.12712404790528709,0.0,0.0,0.14230626366323618,0.0,0.4459329306278032,0.1213518592704572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594742101214927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841978161490655,0.0,0.0,0.07345131218319538,0.10377870628701004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35131463740846186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438370752366925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372636013160696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097007229340357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311090537771711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13900080980202606,0.0,0.0,0.16273218000939174,0.0,0.0,0.1653455413875253,0.093061699409995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818209288000005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092226342171948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650887712255217,0.0,0.0,0.11532569646520185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613968770297621,0.09862669323788084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986041058636253,0.08568218457661395,0.0,0.0,0.17689595571926475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10319344172833417,0.0,0.0,0.09354712435427806
EDAnonymous,anobunniexox,2019/07/23,"I want my eating disorder back...I know it’s bad but I miss it. I just want to feel in control again. I know it’s the worse kind of way to lose weight but I wish Ana would come back and motivate me through this, I feel as if I’ve lost something really important and I’ve I’m completely out of control, I’ve done everything I can to lose weight before but the only time I properly lost weight was when I had my Anorexia, it made me feel strong and independent and I can’t help feeling this way, I understand how bad it is and what it can you to you but I just sometimes wish I never recovered...",0.1521428571428558,2.3763508809523834,2.389174603174606,92.89471428571429,87.80952380952381,6.5346031746031725,21.09841269841269,7.793537801064563,0.961226031746032,465,16,106,10,15,157,70,126,0.19899999999999998,0.62,0.182,-0.5284,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,8,6,9,0,0,2,0,8,4,0,6,1,33,25,13,0,6,7,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,7,4,2,8,0,0,1,2,7,0,0,6,7,19,2,10,18,0,10,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,65,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935460574570435,0.2101636491290939,0.0,0.0,0.10709145661733316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084110366631798,0.13195425811208972,0.0,0.2823092157364174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423820317015362,0.0,0.0,0.12879110151816245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877882554602385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310837454300993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25453981264266395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435647371027577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105631626722358,0.13833080645358709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815941650204749,0.2747663788503644,0.0,0.0,0.11908495491866873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706543187901226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571671956856498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062452129155936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688762800259658,0.12447162947673085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07338577517977557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310171950576905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846247507839058,0.19979217687524128,0.0,0.4597643876707506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28944899987892825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825474709828216,0.08940221264519259,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seasonalopinions,2019/07/23,"Gained happiness and self-confidence after getting into a healthy relationship with v sweet and supportive bf, but also gained weight, upset w/the way my body looks, but somehow happiness isn't totally eclipsed by my body image???? what is this??? have i ascended??? am i.... am i.... happy??? healthy???? ??????? friends??????????",1.0373951048951042,-1.7460958269230762,2.3510489510489516,82.41667832167832,170.73076923076925,6.3300699300699295,27.363636363636363,6.351523495107088,3.0407769230769235,235,13,37,7,22,75,41,52,0.052000000000000005,0.5820000000000001,0.366,0.961,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,1,1,0,5,3,2,0,1,8,8,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,5,6,4,8,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667841534649193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4633229446055878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113177623649255,0.0,0.10896320594056083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6660431896225981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513660938254827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239137732801555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175719956768764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366697091118703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554402609294835,0.0,0.2539680614778768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aimerix,2019/07/23,DAE think about how much money you'd save if you didn't care about what you eat Like seriously I'd eat 33 cent ramen everyday all day,3.360689655172415,4.056070068965518,4.713275862068965,87.09681034482759,72.44827586206897,8.558620689655173,21.396551724137925,8.841846274778883,0.9594,108,2,25,2,2,36,24,29,0.135,0.687,0.17800000000000002,0.3339,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,5,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3900337924279052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467121990380371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7828854407200193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18689392230059515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28121723702940804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451216957419069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snibletz,2019/07/23,"I don't want to thank my ED for where I am I have been battling my ED for 10 years. 

That's 10 years of obsessing over nutrition facts, fad diets, understanding food science, thinking about cravings, thinking about fasting, binging, purging, so on and so on.

I masked my ED for years with veganism, or gluten intolerance, or lactose intolerance.. anything to explain why I wasn't eating. 

In 2017 I was hired to work on trails in the backwoods of Colorado. I began resource hoarding and binge eating. We would work 12 hour days and eat rationed meals. I constantly would think about food while preforming the monotonous tasks at hand. I began to control my binge habits by working hard on dinner for my coworkers. 10 hours a day I would think about creating recipes with the limited ingredients we were provided. Serving the meal, I found satisfaction in my crew enjoying my unique recipes. I found satisfaction in knowing all the details of my ""off the cuff"" recipes.. knowing every ingredient of the meal.. and just watching my coworkers eat it. 

In a twisted scenario, I discovered my talent as a chef. Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer. Food is my enemy, and I know it so intimately. 

I am currently the Head Gardener for an organic produce farm, the Manager of the local farmers market, founder for a local food co-op, and I am the Head Chef/Kitchen manager of a farm restaurant. Everything I am today is because of my twisted relationship with food. All this thought is falling on me today. I can't bear the thought that my passions are illegitimate, that is just my sick brain.  I can't help but understand my love for gardening as a long term way to control the food I am eating. From seed to stomach. I know all of it. I control it. I can't help but understand my love of sharing food and hosting dinner parties as a manipulation of the satisfaction center in my brain, to allow myself to starve. I can't see my passions without seeing the hate and fear and sickness. Do I truly care about spreading the good word of local foods and changing our food system or am I just concerned that processed foods will make me overweight?

Does anyone else find their career/passion in direct correlation with their ED?",6.027885507124193,7.575882679706607,6.441885169884497,73.99726161369195,66.94621026894865,9.259961217435293,36.35283702891829,9.581879112588783,3.728793373240032,1772,91,299,37,29,573,205,409,0.1,0.7509999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9758,1,1,0,0,0,0,55.0,3,2,2,9,12,15,2,2,24,0,26,34,6,8,4,63,54,23,0,4,10,0,2,0,1,4,3,0,2,0,9,17,22,5,17,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,10,5,54,11,56,40,4,42,0,0,3,4,15,22,0,3,17,196,63,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042397472811393284,0.06212782702070727,0.049897522096392685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03696259508519361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135377653032091,0.0,0.0,0.06182152710605567,0.0,0.06414389746893162,0.0,0.0,0.06552500371672867,0.20402226674887364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820924851296751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306218594322417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102242320667333,0.05065284678444515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05108768819177797,0.0,0.054494919462332515,0.0,0.0,0.06823134675924059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055419384281700235,0.0,0.7332020542892453,0.13296651821204605,0.046846529013945336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05085784633280496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054317141004324984,0.05986460941625319,0.12445821475079155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128486081673503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942672195048708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389526423578374,0.0,0.0,0.13329386417769193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053660156760055235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094510929285016,0.0,0.040474401096506483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509940696734612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663665089915932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582465488663672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541009883538945,0.0,0.09627499518309256,0.0,0.0,0.11494997270832573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936983724758485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035764153871290116,0.04812932124614826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0547137479251054,0.0,0.0,0.058450074085988526,0.0,0.1324292281772765,0.0,0.0,0.12922030921772756,0.0,0.0,0.11714105211562036
EDAnonymous,morimaruko,2019/07/23,"you guys they finally started selling those monster ultra enegry drinks in my country. you know, the zero calories kind. in white cans. I'm overjoyed and my happiness is immeasurable.",5.083387096774191,8.64270177419355,5.3228225806451634,70.70423387096777,79.64516129032259,6.970967741935485,36.782258064516135,8.07648339933343,4.054670967741936,149,9,19,3,4,47,28,31,0.0,0.716,0.284,0.8934,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,2,5,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946774524278819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4413447746569611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989230618368158,0.0,0.4288824125986149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4195464848121017,0.2214170413217244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851666288689954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,viewtifuljoe2,2019/07/23,"This sub is detrimenting more than it is helpful Long time lurker here first time poster. I understand that we all come here to talk the struggles of having an eating disorder and thats the point of the sub. But day in day out most everything here just reinforces the bad, negative thoughts that come from having a disorder that comfortably exist in my head (counting calories, not being able to do this or that etc). 
I understand the rules of the sub says it doesn’t inforce recovery on anyone but after months of coming here and just lurking i’ve found it is just really toxic. I’m never gonna improve if I keep coming back to my comfort zone here where I see really negative experiences associated with this disorder being talked about all the time. I’m sorry if this is worded poorly but I just wanted to get it off my chest",5.5555746140651765,6.818067301886793,6.300102915951975,75.63910806174961,67.80503144654088,9.806975414522583,28.919954259576894,10.018931242160765,2.938340880503145,667,23,118,16,11,219,97,159,0.15,0.807,0.042,-0.9424,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,12,4,0,1,9,0,10,3,2,0,3,31,25,8,0,3,11,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,13,9,1,1,4,0,1,4,5,2,0,1,2,2,9,2,18,20,5,22,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,4,11,88,22,0,0.13386625381986958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360239721628674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293488611676607,0.11177273034243353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612556973505578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266531846989813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4602669735177212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697859740462978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14929625895525456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12031035718742353,0.13094688315601155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138665671135736,0.0,0.14677743776754076,0.0,0.0,0.06993959249501025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738539683434822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972772815593419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898647717792545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846742210524328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685076664046167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324590753865792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265468792568746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151630007668595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645581803556098,0.0,0.0,0.10667407257212756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985231135972074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994607397235426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21519324811368104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10627485252732193,0.2341754673787873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787189825469774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895778485800005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kimakiya,2019/07/23,"Back to reality Woke up at 7

Workout 7:30

(Cant eat breakfast cause ew)

Smoke a cig at 9:45

Currently at work but ate half a cup of cereal

Get out at 5

Drink and smoke cig while waiting for food

Eat at 7p

Drink some more and chainsmoke cigs/weed

Take sleep meds 

Knock out

L O L what is recovery? I thought i was doing it since i haven't purged/binged in about 2 months...yet here i am.",-0.31265060240964004,1.816095385542173,1.2951927710843414,100.55989759036146,89.12048192771084,5.247710843373494,17.938554216867473,6.742157984588678,-0.2594086746987947,299,8,75,4,10,96,68,83,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,5,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,6,8,1,1,0,9,12,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,4,0,13,8,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,1,3,36,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919134280818943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563898330647479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4889913891643053,0.0,0.5107701226181347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30179597889424925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039648131676426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772297362599965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645710627388067,0.0,0.24976260414819695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876548728748919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981405142303264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816989296841422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mybirthrightistodie,2019/07/23,"I renamed the ""ANA"" bookmark folder on my computer ""BODY"" and the ""THINSPO"" subfolder to ""GOAL"" I know it's not much but it's a lot for me. I've been thinking of recovering for a long time now and I guess I'm going to start.

 Before I wouldn't eat more than 500 calories and I would work out at least an hour a day, usually two. I spent most of my time on Tumblr, Pinterest, Instagram, and Google images looking at bone thin men and women. Eugenia Conney gave me hope that my goal of 85 lbs at 5'9"" was possible. (Don't send hate to her. She's the sweetest thing and is just living her life) I now have fully understood that my hate for my body came from me being trans and because I didn't like the way my body looked I interpreted that as me punishing myself for being, what I thought of as, fat. I've never been fat. I've never even been on the high end of the average weight for my height and was usually on the underweight end. 

Now, after crying over it, asking people, ranting to groups, and taking a long walk to really think everything through, I've decided the only way to see if this is what I really want is to try it. I'll never get the body I want the way I'm eating. I need to eat right and exercise. I should have always done that. 

So to signify a new start and taking a tiny step towards my real recovery I have changed the names of some of my bookmark folders and removing some bookmarks. I don't need to know how to make natural weight loss pills. I don't need apple cider vinegar hacks. 

I can do this. And for once I really feel like that's a true statement.",3.7996548821548832,4.4936920462963,5.267833894500561,83.52570707070709,71.43827160493827,8.853872053872054,26.764309764309765,9.095868883498916,1.9679555555555552,1229,39,259,24,22,415,171,324,0.055999999999999994,0.871,0.073,0.642,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,4,7,8,3,0,19,0,23,15,7,2,4,51,55,19,0,10,4,0,4,2,0,3,5,0,0,2,14,15,7,0,10,1,1,6,9,4,0,1,12,7,36,4,40,38,7,43,0,1,3,0,10,14,0,7,22,166,50,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787498911083659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847768020823997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057693006008709274,0.0,0.08053354053155007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205045896594437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824546256537572,0.0,0.0,0.10011889732221492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396001142987213,0.061036388732926515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968518285382736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905277907585451,0.0,0.0,0.16764979385453962,0.0,0.0,0.06251027977771363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850583058017992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04785393944075203,0.06761240580034689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049446642709457984,0.0,0.05378734266184352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104259052137695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18687915514592385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999467934890124,0.0,0.09400105822603153,0.09320350169149674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104025754809734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684858398124,0.09247479563506912,0.0,0.08357079554894885,0.16751073560991733,0.15895122164831932,0.0,0.0,0.08046141306269927,0.0,0.0,0.06317440267052685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957290585813364,0.2105279738190707,0.21898169488084912,0.09140602544478664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079085303498277,0.0,0.07197965699977607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561298414899619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669485900140234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772354215568726,0.18189064819068967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082392073936777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541757915179585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339764709959295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142318310402761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287607156423544,0.12128579913367385,0.0,0.0751353342857085,0.11037325453509833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425584057199417,0.0,0.0924516762701717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847002226539832,0.0,0.1116448420051152,0.22536771675115086,0.0,0.2304974029923555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689006479780497,0.0,0.0,0.06723110267702295,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,p1ssg4y,2019/07/23,"w**d helps my BPD but hurts my ED TL;DR: I smoke weed to help my BPD and ED habits, when I'm sober it causes my ED brain pain. 

Long story short, I (18F) have BPD. I also have EDNOS.

If you don't know, BPD is short for Borderline Personality Disorder, symptoms including 'splitting' (or black-and-white/all-or-nothing thinking), fear of abandonment/rejection, unstable relationships, impulsive behaviors, unclear sense of self, etc. I have struggled with this as a result of CSA and my first real relationship being incredibly unhealthy and abusive.

  I smoke weed quite regularly (every other day, daily, multiple times a day, just depends on my financial state honestly) as I've found it really helps my BPD by allowing me the mindset to think rationally. This may not make a lot of sense to those without bpd, but I find that when I am unreasonably (to the 'normal' person) angry/upset, smoking allows me to calm down and rationalize the situation in ways that I cannot do on my own in the moment. It also allows me to enjoy time alone without the feelings of FOMO and boredness. 

Weed also breaks down the barriers between myself and food because when I'm under the influence, I don't think about calories or if I deserve to eat or not. When I don't smoke, I forget to eat or just choose not to because I'm just Not Hungry (typical ED behavior) but when I'm high I think about how Good food is for me. As a result of this, I find my eating habits have gotten arguably *more* unhealthy? 

I'll get baked, binge on whatever I can, and then the next day I feel like shit (mentally and physically) over what I ate the night before, so I'll spend days not eating until I repeat the cycle. If I smoke multiple days in a row, I binge multiple days in a row and then spend multiple days not eating because I feel so sick and so gross. I gained 5 pounds from this in the span of a week after bingeing 3 days in a row and I feel so helpless. 

 I don't know how to quit. Weed really helps my BPD and it allows me to actually enjoy food, but I can't be high forever and eventually I have to deal with the repercussions of my bingeing.

​

 I guess I'm not really looking for advice, more like looking for someone out there who deals with the same thing.",5.999867678193367,6.210452956422018,7.026146788990825,74.55643260409319,66.45412844036696,10.1939308398024,31.677487649964714,10.035473477838034,3.0813841919548333,1763,65,329,38,26,594,208,436,0.147,0.7659999999999999,0.087,-0.9865,0,1,4,0,1,0,69.0,0,1,0,4,20,14,1,2,21,0,19,15,2,12,0,75,42,44,0,4,23,0,4,2,0,1,3,0,1,3,15,17,10,1,14,0,2,0,15,7,0,1,3,6,45,7,53,36,6,48,0,2,2,0,13,19,1,12,28,211,60,0,0.0,0.07527252839756605,0.06199600606345732,0.0,0.0,0.06208067095783543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579780400810885,0.0,0.15241448463621862,0.0,0.06883460674128594,0.07719576720431441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161816895703722,0.0,0.0540592552046204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.560095686804386,0.07092036522818172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06526269474375107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277721747737179,0.13099304918686766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281075523413116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250346766698575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085261811258746,0.0,0.0,0.053526670378389526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148878598196677,0.12849048024955972,0.045385764440933576,0.0,0.0,0.116130332767623,0.05403848999262143,0.2304617770139071,0.06965724270964138,0.0,0.0,0.0331917442049511,0.0,0.0,0.05328585561734138,0.0,0.0,0.06998533368460852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17033097819411136,0.1342456286994785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680100587005521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982872961992248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620749881879693,0.0,0.0,0.05622195141353931,0.10669821045315074,0.0,0.0,0.05401083864153211,0.0,0.0,0.04240669333328924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402318437612384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06756475626137708,0.05961849593991665,0.06224580123824003,0.060958640624019324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760027966447077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094369489216492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514371115791982,0.0,0.07231092062391775,0.12209661843964455,0.0,0.0,0.13641464790847882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627552818707419,0.0,0.06521251673793561,0.0,0.07141025553212801,0.0,0.0,0.05382866765531105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641523240371958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06603187844228381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04220643444358892,0.16282954716227732,0.0,0.0,0.07408957678124029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042706775470828,0.05095984382019835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224810892772665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719576720431441,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kirwan24,2019/07/23,"How do I support someone with an ED? Hi folks, 

My girlfriend had an eating disorder before I knew her, and has largely recovered from it, but some symptoms still remain. For example, like feeling a bit of shame about eating something outside of her regular meals, or feeling a high from skipping meals. She's largely healthy now thank God, but she's said the symptoms will always be there, and there always a chance she may relapse. 

I obviously want to support her anyway I can, through the good and the bad. I've no experience in this kind of thing, as I nor any of my friends or family have ever dealt with it. So I'm just wondering if you could offer me any advice for helping her when she needs it. I'm deathly afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing, and if God forbid she does relapse I want to know what I should be doing. I hope I'm not asking too much of ye!

Also I want to apologise if I'm coming across as ignorant or insensitive in any way here, I'm not at all familiar with this and I just want to do my best for her",3.813269537480061,4.891779545454547,5.088019138755981,83.40080063795854,71.72727272727272,7.869984051036682,28.7658692185008,8.238735603445708,1.9391509409888368,811,31,163,12,15,270,124,209,0.106,0.66,0.23399999999999999,0.9799,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,15,15,0,2,9,0,14,6,0,1,3,43,36,21,1,11,13,0,2,1,2,3,2,2,0,0,8,9,4,2,5,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,3,4,26,9,26,27,5,11,0,0,0,0,20,5,0,11,5,119,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315796822124937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768058798116388,0.22408131997387884,0.0,0.0,0.2747024838101153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588077958105862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242820277891452,0.0,0.0,0.11457833027125615,0.0,0.14130822155201184,0.0,0.14700433432394605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599016351256353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075080984061216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543220440040921,0.0,0.11783425129590605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27556377084460354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179980075531348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171479919679271,0.1269372525733329,0.0,0.13616747610581284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403125265281474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129391135819494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025392137331456,0.14226648077540124,0.0,0.1337391132214079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14021859785750376,0.07400082755977276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578381880460663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898419134101387,0.09984222538984554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808421164457715,0.10708011033128972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140896010743554,0.103661141524555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753269414647466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305601376450402,0.0,0.2799084947786994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396881687945566,0.0,0.0,0.1789126678473487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176832781947004,0.10687992651656343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14602358018767758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722004772370373,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_chlozza_,2019/07/23,"Confused (possible TW) This is my first ever reddit post, and despite knowing that no one I know will recognise this username as me I’m still terrified. 
But I have to get it off my chest, with people who might (?) understand. 

See, I don’t think I have an ED, but then sometimes, I know that the way I think about food and everything surrounding it is so wrong. I see posts on here and I relate so damn hard, but I feel like I can’t possibly be sick. 
Then I go through super obsessive periods, heavy restriction, all my thoughts on food and weight, constant comparison, meal plans and diet plans and thinspo, it takes over my brain, until something something switches, and for a little while I’m okay, I eat normally, I’m not worried about food, and then it switches again. 

Does anyone else relate to this? What does it mean? I don’t feel sick, but I don’t feel, I guess  normal either.",3.654862155388472,5.4681750584795354,4.285852130325818,86.09013157894738,73.26900584795321,7.458813700918964,27.418964076858806,8.192908349453996,1.8024332497911444,689,26,135,11,14,219,106,171,0.171,0.7490000000000001,0.08,-0.9552,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,1,2,3,1,11,11,2,0,2,34,31,20,0,2,6,0,5,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,12,9,7,1,11,0,0,1,6,4,0,2,1,7,20,3,13,27,2,21,0,0,2,0,1,6,1,3,12,87,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720767075137507,0.12779118008807971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392296404697961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477885758736846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21828799379954686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762049667216846,0.10418820962863366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281708781471098,0.0,0.0,0.11209099691471966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18918772461949465,0.08910055165715687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608743354600816,0.4524385943647976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651614609901137,0.0,0.07088169466258216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739400263543422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172532310907618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20562984034621987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060932274247111826,0.12500298899564982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358574948639585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230904035305832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443997714696129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451402975446419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646568650154228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28120788436605954,0.23889606649875905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987726313693109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920323027431344,0.12335204260530686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960217769852184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377450645111814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983208233856425,0.0,0.09901436954587962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298387326873171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09899755156145418,0.0,0.15187631263119106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666000831981733,0.0,0.0,0.1363625962368946,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chocouggo,2019/07/23,"Heart aching after binge? I had a binge that was around 2500-3000 calories. In the morning I purged, but I didn't purge the rest of my binge later in the day

Now my heart has been feeling kind of weird? Is this normal? Its not in PAIN, but it has like an aching feeling..I dont think its bad enough to go to the hospital but I'm a little concerned. I ate a lot of fried foods so maybe its that but im not sure.",-0.801757575757577,1.2277830666666674,0.8431313131313161,103.59045454545456,90.55555555555556,3.7171717171717167,14.848484848484848,4.851557810540192,-1.334,316,6,80,1,11,101,60,90,0.11599999999999999,0.737,0.146,0.5843,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,8,0,8,5,2,0,1,12,13,5,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,5,1,6,3,10,8,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603215170026467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838648053919533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201619250574468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25808259003920964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22753412962562666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113439772053539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26627685617074864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514950127965366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5218959987286275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378628463713232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293131489267003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10758269494206438,0.22070665502203315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872132962648929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22122892319047785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21575746501183565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343172500691831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20754379909174026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110064303893693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bibimbrrap,2019/07/23,"Does anyone else get self-conscious that ppl will recognize and judge your ""ED food hauls"" at the grocery store? Sometimes I'll be in line between people buying normal stuff, like pantry staples, or ingredients for a meal, weekly grocery trips etc....

And then there's me with a zero cherry coke, diet sprite, 3 sparkling ices, a bag of sugar-free werthers, 390840928 packs of shirataki noodles, 35 cal laughing cow cheese wedges, 3 bags of baby spinach, many many apples (one of my fave my safe foods) 5 packs of gum, 3 halo top ice cream cartons, and a giant pack of oreos (binge food to squirrel away and obsess over but not be able to touch until I BREAK and devour in one sitting lolol).

Taking all these items out and putting them on the conveyor belt (esp where there are no self-checkout kiosks) make me feel SO embarrassed and self-conscious. I mean, I'm sure most people don't care or notice, but if I see anyone even casually glancing at my purchases, I want to hide lmao. 

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And then I feel sad because all this shit is, first of all, expensive and impractical as actual meals, and so *pathetic.* Like, what does it feel like to be able to buy normal food NORMALLY without ascribing tremendous moral value and fear to every item and potential calorie??????? ugh.",8.46074858757062,7.733954029661021,7.580000000000003,75.74621468926554,61.66949152542373,10.239548022598873,35.344632768361585,9.2995712137729,3.1143683615819207,1005,37,179,14,12,310,170,236,0.131,0.7440000000000001,0.125,-0.8123,0,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,1,1,2,6,14,1,3,6,0,7,9,1,1,4,36,18,23,0,5,7,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,14,8,1,4,1,5,2,4,6,0,4,0,7,12,8,27,14,7,20,1,1,3,0,2,11,1,4,8,96,18,1,0.21230717951878167,0.0,0.10359059076574896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501737015379865,0.12898823064706638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845011630733232,0.10876689735935617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973479194143976,0.0,0.0,0.06471024303532658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823065952559154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18579144350972132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886777029128456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183893130159106,0.07011344487772872,0.0,0.08943897773907128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945230093399906,0.16102333362252252,0.07583614573459899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902941892207514,0.5134453684077335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0554608693214384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558384579451795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085834546052691,0.21524615710256564,0.0,0.115632379239182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120239382690203,0.0,0.12085656552232213,0.0,0.0,0.14386483939491904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471870663114218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671367752641682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459066728663722,0.0,0.3322240360701807,0.0,0.10896513441994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498861461229933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152046325066597,0.0,0.0,0.10004850207209393,0.0,0.07981428852181373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261213758476226,0.0,0.08515000661915638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232827242836838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898823064706638,0.0
EDAnonymous,sororityengineer,2019/07/23,"Relapsing after one year of recovery I did everything right. At least I thought I did. Several gym memberships, 15k steps a day, not counting calories,  primarily vegetarian diet, only Whole Foods shopping, not being ashamed about my body, going out with new people at least twice a week, being grateful with a respected job, owning my own apartment in the city at 22, getting accepted into grad school, seeing a therapist regularly, having sex for the first time in years, taking care of my skin, not binging and crying everyday and running 10 miles a day, I thought I was in control...

I’ve been two months in a new city where I’m too nervous to go outside, I hate going to the beach and seeing literally all my insecurities show, no one cares about your job and education, all the guys here are superficial, and I really wish I could just stay home all day. I’m stressing about eating and not eating, I’ve smoked enough to keep me from eating that my chest hurts, I feel like im going to have a heart attack. I’m so lonely, I hooked up with a guy that I was hesitant about but he was the first guy to give me any attention, and he’s goes to my gym and now I’m too fucking nervous to run into him. The only thing I can control is food and working out and cleaning my apartment and I just hate this desperate, longing feeling I have everyday.",6.4208589743589775,6.441322957692307,7.236153846153848,74.05551282051283,65.57692307692308,10.164102564102564,33.871794871794876,9.888512548439397,3.2659794871794885,1059,43,196,21,15,354,152,260,0.114,0.813,0.07400000000000001,-0.8802,2,3,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,5,12,16,4,5,14,0,15,12,4,2,3,39,39,13,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,18,6,3,6,5,1,7,5,11,0,6,8,5,25,5,31,28,9,42,0,2,2,2,8,17,1,0,18,129,29,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06843121121265283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448008252278948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177619996435212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519606557645556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257280938997174,0.08034411579094433,0.0,0.11053629674094806,0.19469225572939866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089059499809841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397671836011872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043891012586383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176215214855967,0.0718894202503815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119005329661854,0.24336211649160425,0.0,0.0,0.09302994404049697,0.05257453030450295,0.09653256334126424,0.2287592541633065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989157695032078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870072601754155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924592007881273,0.0,0.0,0.10093915152237327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077254895098234,0.0,0.10869665234916796,0.0,0.19971762857292893,0.08944373175556022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916227552683477,0.0,0.0,0.0890535510914338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032115527695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19437634554881106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363777101055446,0.1530658686163381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976351951293246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06446555230316277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593666702932387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018419805954235,0.16037666394891234,0.0,0.0,0.11368219437041414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725718835971498,0.0,0.0,0.11527024772638625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756605293419084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683809412362765,0.0668534757618578,0.0,0.0,0.1597764658180669,0.0586776138620651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09829996920778844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071856172108333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234875131859587,0.1157184522889482,0.0,0.0,0.07325915383996293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12960363019597915
EDAnonymous,dyllyputty,2019/07/23,"I look 'sick' and it's annoying (rant) tw lots of mental health talk

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I'm a fairly private person when it comes to my health. I've always struggled with anxiety and was diagnosed with depression when I was still in middle school. I've mostly been making things worse but over the last few years it's manifested this ED and really dramatic manic→depressed→manic cycle of episodes. 

I don't sleep, I don't eat, and school and work and having no money is kicking my ass.

So yeah my eyes are bloodshot all the time and my skin looks like hell and I'm visibly exhausted. *However* I still keep my business to my self. So you can imagine my frustration when now I've got one of my instructors emailing me and trying to corner me in the hallways to ""talk"" and other students fucking texting and snapchatting me to ""check in"" and it's like, I appreciate the concern but bitch I've been doing this for years without you, mind your damn business. 

Anyways, I've just been agitated about this all, I know it's out of kindness and care but I really don't feel like being backed into a corner and made to explain my health because suddenly you noticed I don't always look so good.

Not to mention I cry when confronted about myself lmao.

Thanks for reading.",2.8797489539748966,5.484762280334731,3.9869355648535567,83.50565857740587,78.9163179916318,6.836552301255231,25.87799163179916,7.9765259561132025,1.8344361841004184,991,39,180,18,25,321,136,239,0.166,0.6759999999999999,0.159,0.0084,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,4,0,1,15,17,7,1,6,1,15,12,4,2,2,37,31,24,0,0,6,0,2,3,0,0,6,0,0,2,10,19,1,1,4,1,2,1,7,10,0,1,7,6,27,7,24,23,5,23,1,1,4,2,11,9,5,2,16,120,37,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21047935471849225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675518537243108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725363582371116,0.0,0.0770997045556118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895256580517964,0.0,0.0,0.10894944198232433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389299452628831,0.0,0.0,0.10893516020020697,0.12837232397760498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294183840891506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06395098553448841,0.09035577918602378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692670565620099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060835939023308,0.101155865846416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033200217762029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241929685803044,0.0,0.13170718558789052,0.06950890165780459,0.10309630327854792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185372021208986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186285411958506,0.0,0.0,0.1075269188491353,0.0,0.11967637047128905,0.0844249263184448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745989368106234,0.0,0.12770654244631768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399583525424398,0.0,0.0,0.08570464344596491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043555309951993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651204572339775,0.0,0.16204985903968894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560046103723745,0.0,0.0,0.13194394903498488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656915979764158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20201069930978047,0.0,0.0,0.1322220777281128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331616008229728,0.0,0.11644378293132328,0.0,0.0,0.08402624298148459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375023338368605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587013689883621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192010417278665,0.0,0.0920773585969141,0.0,0.12889170289327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289513743342274
EDAnonymous,upafterthesun,2019/07/23,Sometimes I really think I can be healthy and then I wake up the next morning and see that I've gained a little weight and swear never to eat again,4.248387096774192,4.671707548387102,4.5388709677419365,90.12830645161293,70.29032258064517,7.490322580645162,25.177419354838708,7.1686216300943375,0.8533741935483863,118,3,26,1,2,37,26,31,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.6557,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,5,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36888564812999625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613197708538864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278042951532516,0.0,0.3834001522480421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309481288224549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872750571623645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565477283911935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309964418837988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389968185476337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7486546445909090909,2019/07/23,"TW and please don't hate me anybody else here a vsg/etc recipient who used to have major ed and is now in danger of dying again but for an entirely different reason??? like, i'm walking on eggshells with my ""tool"" over here, i can't fucking eat, my butt cheeks don't even touch anymore, damn it, i have to do at least 3 to 5 dabs (weed) in order to force myself to eat. i am full blown i love starving and seeing bones plus nobody cares about me but me anyways so fuck it mode and it is... idk. when i got so heavy, i thought, no way i'll ever double digit again, i'm over that, i'm okay to get a vsg, obviously.... i was fucking wrong.
i feel like i have a very bad and very specific problem that not many people can help/relate with, which makes me feel even more alone than ever. vicious cycle. and probably nobody here can relate. i'll just get animosity, because i have this advantage. so yay, probably will get shit for venting here from y'all but who tf else am i supposed to reach out to? the void??? i'm trying to avoid (puns) the void, hence the reach.
i don't want an oh you poor baby (i'm old) i just want to know if i'm the only idiot who got themselves into this kinda jam or not.",0.40054962962963,2.476985612000004,2.558711111111112,93.20965185185186,84.88,5.143703703703704,18.85925925925926,6.42735559955562,-0.06653185185185206,913,24,205,9,27,308,150,250,0.22399999999999998,0.6559999999999999,0.12,-0.986,1,2,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,0,1,19,20,9,1,9,2,17,10,4,3,3,35,43,16,1,4,9,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,11,2,1,5,0,1,1,7,13,0,0,4,4,22,7,27,38,5,19,0,0,1,5,6,9,6,3,9,122,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571657922932212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995518426228292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941184522899687,0.07987997834310054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360269307355271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599748750170534,0.13690755661386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681706182358635,0.21893204710502945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461427946515788,0.17309965766426294,0.2370640216560025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251421309481656,0.09361407707272737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3634295138761695,0.20538694490148127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960724608901649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937359221306494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783248181975864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720154453390055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803778453660142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826754740307213,0.0,0.08746935315518492,0.13285267958584315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750307787045396,0.0,0.0,0.09966084002310338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084573877216268,0.0,0.0,0.1438411479637398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825637743938609,0.1253863435721703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472961326012542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442088228900906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345093476602474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403009464679283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896667912456807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317536817839915,0.0,0.2162413103044237,0.15458004667222927,0.1040124247215126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327025317505415,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cunket,2019/07/23,i don't like eating anymore i find it really hard to eat. i used to binge all the time now i dont even LIKE to eat anything at all. i can't even make myself eat anything. not even candy is tempting. fuck.,-1.6783809523809516,0.24154040000000165,1.0771428571428563,98.79,100.55555555555556,3.4603174603174613,15.317460317460318,5.288315135182226,-0.9059206349206348,158,4,37,1,7,54,30,45,0.23199999999999998,0.768,0.0,-0.8383,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,4,5,0,2,2,6,7,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,4,7,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773686033143826,0.0,0.0,0.2949635512622937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100430613383242,0.0,0.0,0.7335421666931782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551169180245877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638027071256291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568486311856118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605448139699177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511447470536592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962991929315775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481213193638412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450390485699906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478747324373854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coliewantsahug,2019/07/23,"yeehaw hello new friends

I just engaged in an unhealthy eating disorder symptom for the first time in years. It's been four years since I've been into a treatment program for my atypical anorexia and honestly? right now I feel angry that I even went. I miss having an eating disorder. how awful is that?? I'm mad at myself for letting myself gain so much weight after all this time and wow!! bad unexpected feelings. I don't plan on telling my boyfriend or anyone close to me, I want to keep this a secret. 

thanks for letting me vent bois \~",3.691904761904759,5.742533238095242,4.46857142857143,83.80476190476192,73.76190476190476,6.571428571428571,27.857142857142854,7.3871296695380915,1.6678571428571425,430,17,78,5,9,138,79,105,0.2,0.636,0.165,-0.6513,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,1,0,5,1,7,4,0,1,1,13,15,5,0,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,1,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,3,3,12,5,12,10,2,16,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,8,53,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837278030239252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329282777761102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420827904904389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37572378301641945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126171510568245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856606878671468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616445987042527,0.0,0.0,0.14184381233734278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318625748892351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754733989859199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496228011206704,0.0,0.0,0.17731565841399735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678776811227305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187036509149815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082384856750875,0.0,0.0,0.16046873163582842,0.1690281444155632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21410958636428615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082881493442772,0.0,0.0,0.223567311757767,0.0,0.17019292944716255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23645627204441336
EDAnonymous,uwuenergyy,2019/07/23,"Chest bone sticking out a LOT on one side?? Is this normal? I just noticed my chest bone just under the collarbones STICKS out on the left side while the right side is almost flat. I don't know if this is some kind of deformity or something or if it's because i'm too skinny? Is that normal? I mean bodies are not symmetrical lol but I thought it's weird I never noticed that and ive definitely touched there before so why am I noticing it just now, maybe it appeared suddenly and fuck now i'm scared it's a tumour or something",1.0405128205128198,3.50385137037037,2.7277777777777783,90.30269230769231,86.22222222222223,5.1749287749287785,22.196581196581203,6.67199483983844,0.6073794871794869,420,15,86,5,13,138,69,108,0.127,0.8390000000000001,0.034,-0.8666,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,1,5,1,8,7,6,0,1,24,15,10,0,4,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,1,1,8,1,6,14,2,16,0,0,0,1,0,10,1,9,5,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17763084141877875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081355290702314,0.0,0.1509461478218601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197040722199586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639945477281626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847247830324022,0.09748911359881852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19273516672938906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150810957396811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821247943316113,0.19323012741356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681439669978912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476098173914336,0.0,0.6058803695374547,0.0,0.0,0.1202043122761927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149041513563385,0.0,0.0,0.17759871621810708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731275618156501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082814689231613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600672264936984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,showmeurguacamole,2019/07/23,"I'm so fucking tired of this It's 8 pm, I haven't eaten in 20 hours. Not unusual for me but I need to eat and instead I'm procrastinating because I can't tell if eating will trigger me into purging. So I'll just...wait until I get shaky and sick and then eat something stupid which will probably trigger me into purging. And then since I've purged I may as well binge to have a really good purging session. And then probably start drinking because the alcohol will hit harder and being drunk is always better than sobriety.


I'm just so fucking tired of this. This is every day. People don't understand that I'm exhausted because I constantly have 20 different potential scenarios and obsessive thoughts about food/behaviours in my head at any given moment. Like no wonder I hate being sober because being sober for me = obsessive thinking and compulsions about food and my body.


I need help. I can't live like this anymore. It is a nightmare living inside my head and I can't do it. But I don't want to seek out help because I'm ""not thin enough"". Even though I know that's bullshit. It's just a never-ending loop of irrational beliefs and me arguing with my hell brain. I just want out of this.",4.185089453860641,5.736003902542372,5.373333333333335,79.89078154425614,71.41525423728814,8.464783427495291,30.060263653484,8.998388855275968,2.634677777777777,955,40,176,19,18,317,128,236,0.23800000000000002,0.68,0.08199999999999999,-0.9907,1,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,12,15,6,3,4,0,19,18,4,2,0,38,41,23,0,5,8,0,1,2,0,4,5,0,0,0,12,16,8,0,6,2,0,0,9,10,1,0,3,1,22,5,22,30,1,17,2,0,0,2,4,8,3,4,11,110,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171793336740652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094768842120951,0.0,0.0,0.07745175225216931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112952136814228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471432976585801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072989212055132,0.0,0.1265104386421736,0.0,0.1271432506146314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307883587117333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345213823221669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899487622086745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157265445256036,0.0,0.3496256559422762,0.0,0.0,0.10087618294955968,0.1176828363507393,0.0,0.07522584160832302,0.0,0.09596051634237797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27544189296164584,0.0,0.0,0.21058613606785007,0.059504857853014674,0.0,0.0,0.09552879307900876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244663897598282,0.2337759834757729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268135026018995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121625415934436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06259310454480835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128560540671108,0.0,0.2011407868082562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16890175577469205,0.08784199096429743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895968424063142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455937582271822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296334373313904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421420453615094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768108253167446,0.0,0.0,0.08061468307469559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954828181841907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297860725798165,0.11190017076966398,0.0904190282984499,0.0,0.26180854912351376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856755841534256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435513696192627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240428715231828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351306765200415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mechawaifu,2019/07/23,"How do you slow down or stop hair loss as a result of restricting? Hi everyone! It has been a while. I started refeeding again and gained a bit of weight back which is to be expected. Anyway, after I started eating again, my hair started falling out. Initially, I just thought it was because I have a lot of hair. But now it comes out in mini clumps, but luckily I don’t have any bald spots (yet). Is there anything I could incorporate into my diet or everyday routine to slow down this process and eventually stop it from happening? Thanks!",3.726688241639697,5.875420805825247,4.683042071197413,81.87131607335492,73.95145631067963,8.072923408845739,29.891046386192016,8.841846274778883,2.613753829557713,425,19,79,9,9,138,73,103,0.08800000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.106,0.7090000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,9,2,0,0,4,0,11,7,4,2,0,20,18,9,0,2,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,3,3,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,4,9,1,14,13,2,23,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,3,15,61,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585153211887013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19182062521778312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923875157144578,0.0,0.14209499392007238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25448374854446953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007941584900255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611059331752589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238518482091316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227360948154604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061286861300688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817244395653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4949660404779088,0.0,0.0,0.3897624223485288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146062520346232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18505457779230056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28385179888049983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallMeRyann,2019/07/23,"How many forks would you like with your family sized meal? One for me, one for my ED.",0.07833333333333314,2.1445157222222235,1.0311111111111124,103.70000000000002,86.22222222222223,5.822222222222222,9.0,7.1686216300943375,-1.3835333333333335,65,0,17,1,2,20,16,18,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44456635140602896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23039156523908536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781110030412829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6391135023395773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349989339719053,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Splinter1591,2019/07/23,"I missed my EDAnonymous meeting this week I texted a lady from the meeting. Feeling really disappointed in myself. i messed up my schedule and went to AA instead. Even though Monday is eda day on my schedule. 

 I know this subreddit has been taken over. If anyone knows where eda on Reddit has gone please let me know.

My city only has one meeting a week. I should hit more phone meetings.

Hope everyone here is doing well",2.4331645569620264,5.313087569620258,3.1745443037974685,86.37346202531647,84.69620253164557,5.185316455696203,23.08987341772152,6.742157984588678,0.9949939240506328,334,12,58,4,10,105,60,79,0.09699999999999999,0.792,0.11,0.0183,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,9,0,0,0,0,8,19,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,4,1,11,2,7,12,1,14,0,2,0,0,5,6,0,2,6,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17982110021445538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658550873670035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986011343550586,0.0,0.0,0.24573949312222096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003422174155674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554304743173445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240060972778249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629764641221646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426684697647815,0.19559139307179654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28229834812502325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475138832841674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526708281889745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4125767834853106,0.0,0.2312291023946533,0.23840162805400866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NoaahFoster,2019/07/23,"does anyone else stage used plates/bowls/utensils? i hope this is ok to post. this is something i feel quite alone in because i’ve never heard of anyone else doing it

i stage used plates/bowls/utensils as fake proof to my parents that i ate.  i don’t mean that i leave dirty dishes in the house for everyone else to clean up, i mean putting them in the dishwasher or hand washing them and leaving them out to dry, or i just put it next to me. does anyone else do this? 

also i’m 21, specifying because i know that doesn’t sound like an adult thing to do at all lol",3.675833333333333,4.388904564102564,4.132553418803417,91.48293269230771,71.73504273504274,6.875641025641028,24.881410256410252,6.6274283507984215,0.6297871794871801,442,12,99,3,8,139,73,117,0.08199999999999999,0.775,0.14300000000000002,0.8002,1,1,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,1,2,4,0,0,3,2,7,4,1,2,3,15,17,5,0,1,3,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,9,2,2,0,4,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,2,4,14,3,15,15,1,13,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,3,3,55,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364629363384766,0.0,0.10536789399744904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763875754430671,0.4050090333022201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063853747646312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306069670048175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402720754708079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12590169268911902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662147958705074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086675109622511,0.0,0.1520325842649326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241148567470297,0.0,0.0,0.2790282261485819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437095651598489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28704908859275136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162092320880403,0.0,0.14012754941311895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463031507971533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618902296397022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649090512180611,0.0,0.14014227321337275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014347746106709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753504867487298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275955251821694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MadSourCherry,2019/07/23,"SI scars related to ed I used to cut myself when I didn't get my way for attention, including when I failed to lose weight. Now I still have them and it's like they're there for nothing. I put them there ten years ago, fifty pounds ago. I've lost and gained that weight thrice over that time. Now I'm a consciously thick girl with scars. I wanted to be a skinny girl with scars.",1.9200723327305589,3.6828008987341785,2.4038336347197102,97.92936708860759,77.98734177215191,6.53960216998192,17.614828209764926,7.447530270364453,-0.12625641952983724,297,5,71,4,7,91,55,79,0.138,0.795,0.068,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,2,4,7,5,1,0,2,0,3,3,1,1,0,8,8,4,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,2,3,10,1,9,5,0,13,0,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,10,37,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290151412516636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264286299442053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822300843769787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27072243324946504,0.2641582528959945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321938060792336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24326456132120905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932517576270112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110502340218933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899975043335128,0.0,0.0,0.14273066523426564,0.19207864006677847,0.0,0.5893518602921608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558321996085401
EDAnonymous,seks6,2018/11/24,"can’t stand still in fear of fainting i didn’t know what flair to add but yeah im always feeling kinda dizzy (rly low iron levels + the whole ED business ofc) and whenever I’m standing up i cant?? stand still? i get more dizzy and i start worrying about fainting so i walk

for example yesterday i went shopping with my mom and while she was waiting in line i was walking up and down the same 3 aisles like a weirdo

Idk if this made any sense,, but can anyone relate or ",0.0738226059654643,2.413791704081632,1.6785714285714306,96.45489010989012,91.14285714285714,4.648037676609107,19.78335949764521,6.297961479604792,0.06063485086342224,369,12,81,4,13,119,76,98,0.175,0.746,0.08,-0.8082,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,1,6,2,0,1,0,16,14,10,0,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,2,1,1,3,3,2,0,0,5,1,9,1,10,9,3,18,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,3,6,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225610158241981,0.0,0.0,0.18438446319127907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895873567473087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30510782416062515,0.13709650512244714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165943253006485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928776729058493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14901142511784612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246528333552465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565591757535096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175558314090838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919142515416301,0.0,0.4330654272368752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25134944927548153,0.0,0.3027180702342964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753557797846317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icthaine,2018/11/24,"I work at LUSH Which is already a 'haha' scenario because I have an ED and everything is made of and looks like food. The soaps look like cheese, no you can't eat them if you want to keep having a good day, etc, etc. It's been a year since I started and have since lost all of that armpit-scratching animal instinct to eat any of the products because to me it's all stuff you smear on your body and rinse off. It's clay and soap with some oats in between. Don't get me wrong, I love our shit, but it doesn't make me hungry anymore.

And then we got the Rudolph jelly face mask in for Christmas.

[https://www.lushusa.com/dw/image/v2/AAHL\_PRD/on/demandware.static/-/Sites-lushcosmetics-export/default/dw51456c65/images/product/08422\_b.jpg?sw=300](https://www.lushusa.com/dw/image/v2/AAHL_PRD/on/demandware.static/-/Sites-lushcosmetics-export/default/dw51456c65/images/product/08422_b.jpg?sw=300)

Fuck this little motherfucker. This piece of shit. This shitlicker is made of cocoa powder and orange juice. It's a jelly face mask, which means it's literally the texture of chocolate pudding. It smells fucking indistinguishable from chocolate pudding. It's the color and approximate size of packaged chocolate pudding. I've tasted a number of our products before (for research) (duh) so I know perfectly well how bad they actually taste when you eat them, but oh my god. I get the urge to lick my fingers when I show a customer how it's used. Sure it's made of mud and seaweed too, but nobody's perfect. 

This product looks and smells so fucking delectable it's overridden my year-old toughened retail exterior, calloused from telling thirteen teenage boys a day that they'll be blocked up all weekend if they eat the fresh face masks. But go ahead. Eat them. No really, I'll watch. What're you afraid of, Bryce?

Now I'm Bryce. I haven't tried to eat any yet partially because I ""know better"" and partially because of how much pride I'd lose for giving in to the siren song of such a basic product. But the season isn't over yet. There's time.

Bonus: Yog Nog Yule Log. Not sure what it's supposed to smell like exactly, but if it were a real baked good it'd be in my intestines yesterday.

Bonus bonus: Day 1182, they still haven't released a nutritional label for the sugar lip scrubs but came out with two new flavors. You're hurting the people, LUSH. You're hurting me.",6.294870037501617,9.3624278009828,4.620029096081732,81.01590424156218,69.51597051597051,6.0532522953575585,25.943941549204716,7.0608816371341465,1.1442029484029486,1933,62,324,18,38,553,219,407,0.10400000000000001,0.727,0.168,0.9806,0,0,0,0,0,0,109.0,3,6,7,11,15,29,5,1,22,2,18,24,9,8,8,51,44,29,0,4,11,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,24,16,11,2,3,3,4,2,9,12,1,1,8,15,33,17,39,32,8,32,0,4,5,4,20,12,5,4,21,183,57,2,0.0,0.0,0.0848066669135958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590174158099986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181966530365972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861863297895861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256197918785379,0.21190573338478425,0.0,0.07394968709827311,0.0,0.0,0.0768603405551306,0.0,0.09653177615021548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939607812699376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813945414358902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5335525814000481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938439188511596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07810453952025212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050857756843692,0.0,0.0,0.2410265978691803,0.09080846892586372,0.08336711928511863,0.0493900694473089,0.14578344946673868,0.06950580440582707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860670311273975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724508700976848,0.0,0.0,0.09552134387197098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737206429557846,0.08710156179258913,0.0,0.0,0.2189347387535358,0.0972243774140298,0.09486698744660332,0.0,0.07843508438504844,0.2466946131608274,0.058009709734238725,0.0,0.0,0.09466493624637448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063885116496412,0.0,0.0,0.08393331444170964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119209582672712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060248930015703986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891682624346898,0.05567351785365364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841330552586174,0.1437772977481802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151175052833077,0.0,0.06940238233652281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994853429631426,0.0,0.0,0.1638137195224426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595873162541343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067495842735846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05900273691151019,0.0,0.08489348024146091,0.0,0.0,0.07505794910186052,0.0,0.0,0.05125877415745785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813796102762556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326781767217765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501688877806833,0.0,0.11192783993661944
EDAnonymous,ALittleBitChowderNow,2018/11/24,"Feed me lies: Can I lose two inches in a week? Have a holiday party to attend on Friday.  There's a dress I used to fit in that I want to wear but it's about two inches away from buttoning properly around my natural waist.  (It fits everywhere else.)  Even if I only eat about 200 a day, there's no way I'm getting there, is there?  I just ordered a corset that might help but I'm living in a fantasy, I think.",0.3485057471264348,2.292389597701149,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,84.0574712643678,6.625287356321839,18.86206896551724,7.793537801064563,0.5621862068965511,313,8,72,6,9,108,59,87,0.081,0.75,0.16899999999999998,0.7359,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,9,1,0,0,6,0,4,4,2,1,0,9,10,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,8,0,12,9,0,15,0,1,0,0,1,10,0,2,2,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274053381838489,0.0,0.0,0.2400044011930119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647446095155413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613899043697815,0.21339633414251125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872282004998795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346248056496976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712232620744054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225567704207696,0.0,0.0,0.2857840625339631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709928914787371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428181666150385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368253457366236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990765549001181,0.0,0.0,0.22062744128924364,0.0,0.0,0.15067147878815146,0.20276492577805716,0.2049071938928898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ponygg89,2018/11/24,"Exhausted and sick these ED demons taking control of my life. This is the first time I’ve posted here, but I need advice/ support. I have a 14 bmi and my ED brain is taking over my logical brain, even worse now I’ve started therapy... 

I’m restricting but I still eat 3 meals a day plus two snacks, I don’t count calories and I barely b&p anymore, but the weight keeps dropping. People look at me on the street and I hate it, not because I look good, because I look so thin. It’s warmer weather here and I’m not as covered up as usual. 

I’m also an alcoholic in recovery and seem to be replacing one addiction with another, a never ending saga. My relapses in the past have been to do with my depression and ED because when I drink I just self destruct and lose control, but I can eat without guilt. These relapses always end horribly, close to death. I’m lucky to still be alive.

I’m on a waiting list for inpatient and I feel that’s the only way out of this even though it’s gonna suck. My psyc was almost going to immediately send me to emergency yesterday because I was complaining about fatigue & depression so severe I just wanted to disappear. Literally. 

When you guys gained a bit of weight back did your mood and cognition improve? I feel like that’s the only thing that will help. My brain is in a constant fog & my memory is terrible. My mood is horrible and I’m always grumpy and irritable. The social aspect of my life is AA & amazing friends who have stood by me and even that exhausts me, I’m isolating.

How did you guys get out of this horrible mindset? I feel like I’m so deluded. I definitely have BDD too. I’m at a loss, I want to be a normal functioning human again, but don’t want to let go of the control at the same time.",2.475572033898306,4.462702415254243,4.291041666666668,84.0014777542373,77.10734463276836,7.927824858757062,26.88170903954802,8.751876143730069,2.162164124293785,1381,56,277,31,32,467,188,354,0.221,0.659,0.121,-0.9927,0,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,3,0,7,22,22,3,1,18,0,24,18,3,4,1,50,57,29,1,5,10,0,6,2,1,2,8,0,0,4,14,19,8,6,5,1,0,4,6,13,1,3,6,9,35,7,36,45,2,41,1,5,3,0,13,15,1,3,21,173,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307776386905008,0.0,0.08343320954771538,0.0,0.09124619667522804,0.08549661989416836,0.0,0.0,0.06827906033961062,0.14208746677862166,0.37004059909603376,0.0,0.0,0.08952929907849012,0.0,0.0,0.08467489223242235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565262786786595,0.0,0.20818957230914706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321380948667174,0.0,0.0,0.28593990377305545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226640112726786,0.2872857571153423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550636053860868,0.0,0.14707685679360216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364075933679731,0.0,0.17473191491302584,0.0,0.0,0.15124423779818458,0.0,0.0,0.16917980157615742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295134177612538,0.12199223805604599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262493445437636,0.0,0.0,0.06596505749327206,0.0,0.04460798678201673,0.0,0.097047845476489,0.07161343279731143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908099311849245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842959443330344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05722900532836048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589045077107517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730773638681967,0.12061408367615242,0.08342557219905697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21509531099825493,0.09551936716641647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330884200805775,0.06585099961956961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365513610029769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05785629519194008,0.1298720160592802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150571273987531,0.05919235299441785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177128332243243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772754812205457,0.0890708806107027,0.09645609374834026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703505674166533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060433027601128925,0.0,0.13637056501571826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688921287361048,0.0,0.0,0.12839159468497122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764047937225404,0.0,0.056723264018611816,0.0,0.08388628288010769,0.0,0.09957255760153114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340471520518962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403497879829624,0.0,0.15107956870928022,0.06777136983124696,0.0,0.20794182461260335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823041232450858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701041286154446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,navillanavilla,2018/11/24,What is that website where you put in your body stats (height and weight) and get a 3D mock up of what that body would look like?? I really need to know. ,3.790937500000002,3.8481962187500014,3.5562500000000017,98.06375,71.1875,7.65,19.125,7.1686216300943375,-0.2554249999999998,117,1,30,1,2,35,28,32,0.094,0.8320000000000001,0.07400000000000001,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,5,6,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,4,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6884624149959986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191097976251642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703140087866641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15140244053160554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602395898013679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978837146910505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115370583577297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19853112664789432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773770908016512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22014545595972276,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,floralwish,2018/11/24,small victories 3 days clean from binging... so insignificant but tbh means a lot to me considering that i have been binging almost every night for the past year...,4.517126436781607,7.496395655172414,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,75.20689655172413,8.004597701149425,26.90804597701149,8.841846274778883,2.4985080459770117,130,5,22,3,3,41,28,29,0.07400000000000001,0.86,0.066,-0.0537,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.400719084612914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580808173833368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33716606609697825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34021585618215977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359096604978005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755386539192607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820138695573593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577006262384322
EDAnonymous,abcdeffy,2018/11/24,"I’m not losing weight and it’s driving me crazy. I’ve literally gotten so used to not eating that I find it physically repulsive to eat now. I’ll eat under 500 calories a day, which I know is still a lot compared to many people on here, and about every other day I’ll drink around 500 in alcohol. I know it’s still a lot of calories and they’re not healthy calories but I’m still (genuinely, biologically) fat so I thought I would be losing some weight. Like I’m 5’6” and 154lb, and still flabby and fat and sticky out-y as fuck everywhere. It’s driving me crazy and making me restrict more and more but I still don’t see a difference. Help. ",1.6400462695199494,3.721375075187972,3.571428571428573,87.67934065934071,80.203007518797,6.498322729901678,23.012724117987275,7.61054688173877,1.0019755928282237,507,17,108,8,13,171,78,133,0.115,0.797,0.08800000000000001,-0.5285,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,11,4,1,0,4,0,4,10,2,2,0,26,15,14,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,10,9,1,4,1,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,3,9,1,10,11,5,14,0,2,1,1,1,4,1,3,9,62,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595667763174833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215803205251776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761585949534874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269135457610188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379108162554065,0.0,0.4192496351554073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506996349406562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482668039743415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626098687936338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154305369710626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501156210800948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06672343501089535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30558401312264694,0.0,0.23222162659585785,0.0,0.0,0.09116458429545317,0.13846517517390028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468360873189577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883224789318877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.545343129952677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084249510324559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179565758782226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326220595162516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701865420462727,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noonesgonnaseeit,2018/11/24,"How to not feel like passing out ? So I work 12 hour shifts on my feet 3-4 times a week, according to my Fitbit when I work I usually burn 2,500 cals and when I’m off it’s about 1200. I usually keep my metabolism on its toes with consuming 500 cals a day or 2000 so it just varies since when I work I usually feel hungrier; I’ve never been able to do a full day of fasting because even usually by my first break I’m already shaky. I haven’t even been to the gym in a month due to feeling too weak. I’m also anemic so I’m already always feeling weak as it is. I binged for a few days and now feel absolutely horrible. I upped my adhd medication dosage to help suppress my appetite but what do you guys do to ease off on the lightheadedness or feeling like you’re gonna pass out ? ",2.290820203892494,3.5242220301204874,4.317710843373494,86.85013438368863,75.68674698795179,7.99925857275255,26.02224281742354,8.617729084823388,1.6592924930491195,611,22,138,12,13,210,103,166,0.081,0.858,0.061,-0.4546,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,4,14,5,0,1,7,0,7,5,2,1,1,21,19,14,0,0,5,0,6,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,5,5,0,2,6,1,0,2,3,3,0,1,2,6,16,2,22,16,2,32,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,3,21,80,21,3,0.13050713919447732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684421993100256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880357467334081,0.1043665120628928,0.10859239451874876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955594072948177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524989245825715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17239746919161675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.395929985265039,0.186468652634188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100930592921944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922258610572782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747618442963112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285232434453064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160007417568828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275183920803833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147221269103646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416955339429644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065515125670746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795685416523612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609976237491196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5749407036518815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468495499252603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850322549983165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OliveLajoie,2018/11/24,Who plays Red Dead? I have been systematically starving my character because part of Arthur’s stats is his weight status and you KNOW I needed that “underweight” signifier ,3.8870114942528735,6.6659308620689695,4.605344827586208,70.65330459770121,102.44827586206895,7.450574712643678,25.52298850574713,7.793537801064563,2.917616091954024,141,6,21,4,6,45,28,29,0.221,0.7170000000000001,0.062,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,13,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30951342690770384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790404772197244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37648257645441024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5498326490156109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6182902055989269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rojaniv,2018/11/24,"My mom knows about my bulimia Well basically I always lock my room and everything, in case my mom goes in, cause I am veeery paranoid that she'll find all the food wrappers (plus it's non vegan stuff, I am actually vegan so embarrassing) .... Well that happened. 
She already is very suspicious of my eating habits (""you either starve or eat too much, you probably even puke, right??"") 

She said ""wow you even keep bags full of trash in your room, take them out!!!!"" She 100% saw some of the wrappers laying around... I am just soooo embarrassed. I know she will try to have a serious talk with me but I just don't feel comfortable confiding in my mom AT ALL. I love her, but my relationship with her isn't ... The best I guess.
I don't know what to do. I seriously don't want to have a talk with her, I know she loves me and wants the best for me but I really, and I mean REALLY don't want to confide in her. What do I do 😭",1.1472558401350987,3.234582262032092,3.1403996622572485,90.07734871939208,81.99465240641712,7.573205741626794,20.002533070644525,8.532816995589336,1.0496374331550804,701,19,160,17,19,236,106,187,0.152,0.764,0.084,-0.8401,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,4,1,2,10,12,0,2,6,0,16,5,0,1,2,32,33,9,0,3,7,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,6,9,3,1,7,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,2,3,39,8,21,29,8,12,0,0,1,2,24,12,0,3,0,110,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.12503237404227352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139009185301116,0.0,0.10661099401495554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405919522233512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689204073575017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316205700711609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622095186486515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692518673856821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151512770764267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647842934067001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171047308224406,0.0,0.15493031963250167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14114509908542508,0.0,0.11330129031500348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113884166934345,0.0,0.0,0.28165852593143764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23127721359124576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956664196582347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501784375168496,0.0,0.0,0.09418726230158038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13814136641583047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416143593095894,0.0,0.0,0.13755924264443492,0.0,0.10941879930161064,0.12187705001596832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466734758691167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633471440416687,0.20596545399588456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698906040670154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571726734993564,0.22671588649746474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304011023109889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,faultlessly,2018/11/24,"My mum fuels my binges with colossal amounts of bread Don’t get me wrong, I love my mum and her amazing baking and I appreciate her kind thought to buy me all sorts of breads and pastries cause she knows I like them, but it’s really frustrating when I’ve eaten well under my daily calories all day and have no urges to binge at all then suddenly come home to a shit load of croissants from the bakery, pies for dinner, tiramisu for dessert and huge loaves of bread covered in cheese - all my weaknesses. Hell, anything remotely bread like is my weakness by default. I can easily eat a ridiculous amount of bread in one sitting.  

I have fully moved past the point of buying my own binge foods anymore. I don’t remember the last time I bought any junk food or bread from the grocery store. If I lived by myself without being literally handed an entire tray of freshly baked garlic bread to eat all by myself then I would be fine. Some days it’s an entire baguette. Nine ciabatta rolls. Pizza buns. A whole brioche loaf. A straight up loaf of ginger bread. Sticky buns. Apple cinnamon pinwheels. What the fuck. It feels like the only reason I binge these days is because of the bread my mum brings home and ever so kindly prepares for me. Plus my absolute lack of ability to say no to bread.  

I was just sitting there, watching Netflix minding my own business not thinking about food, when I suddenly remembered that there were a bunch of bread rolls sitting on top of the fridge. Instantly ran and grabbed them and ate the lot. If those bread rolls weren’t there, which they wouldn’t have been if I was in control of the food in this house, then I wouldn’t have eaten anything. It feels like I only binged because of the mere fact that food was available to me in that moment. I can’t wait to move out of this bread riddled house.  

I can’t even ask her to stop buying me bread, cause she will just buy bread for herself anyway and then the temptation is still there. Hiding it won’t work either, when I’m on a ravenous binge path and I know that there’s bread in the house I will track that shit down until it is all crammed down my throat. Why the fuck am I like this who fucking created bread cause I have a bone to pick with you ",4.235994729907773,5.739965970251718,4.155781152485957,88.85389362734901,71.21967963386729,7.036100131752306,26.514735455238892,7.463857097105799,1.2454491228070177,1767,58,355,19,33,540,225,437,0.12,0.772,0.10800000000000001,-0.9114,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,3,3,17,22,8,0,23,0,29,43,5,6,8,57,50,25,0,7,10,3,4,5,0,6,2,1,4,0,19,15,32,3,9,1,6,5,12,11,1,2,12,6,49,11,54,30,16,46,1,0,1,4,17,18,6,7,25,228,68,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058399871428380684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516773443724153,0.0,0.0,0.14134027885789774,0.0,0.0802841813536684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470066001595124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646605723940824,0.0,0.07397614912837346,0.0,0.0,0.09631929223459017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661522936860717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574892550409502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672149887215429,0.0776814166962123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684482557649609,0.1227022823441372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5192190837263909,0.0,0.0,0.23817801883141004,0.04486762335170788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228493742944276,0.0,0.0,0.2972744678804388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788570960080522,0.0943924224159206,0.07000189599094238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097778571368411,0.0,0.07583170003927503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301026273625752,0.07750809732561087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671213047801057,0.0,0.0,0.18254909170400205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058193042288196176,0.13062792385026126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819801090350819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118231050940973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05501553895290625,0.08829671542623414,0.0,0.0,0.19456568818508596,0.0,0.0,0.06829349981640613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17630472329189556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858214849825389,0.07179771388051398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550270478970222,0.0,0.06817740688572596,0.0500760551295805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721448552821941,0.0,0.07749138698867566,0.09587953385416577,0.0,0.08278316661315384,0.0,0.06252008534396276,0.0,0.0,0.0610051487248027,0.09389392923750234,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katiegoodluck,2018/11/24,"Honestly, fuck this shit.... Litterally I'm out for my boyfriends birthday at a bar I love with people I love but I'm stuck on the damn toilet.

I sharted this afternoon... Litterally. Thank fuck I was home alone, completely naked on my bed and it didn't get anywhere. But I'm so scared it's going to happen again, and all my clean underwear cut into my shape of my tight dress, so there is nothing to stop it if it happens again. I'm terrified and just want to forget about it and have a fun time!! This is so bad! ",1.1958701298701295,3.3870114095238115,2.967012987012989,90.79207792207794,82.52380952380952,6.4848484848484835,21.926406926406926,7.686295010490155,0.9073809523809522,398,13,87,7,11,132,70,105,0.282,0.5529999999999999,0.16399999999999998,-0.9640000000000001,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,8,12,5,1,3,0,5,6,1,0,1,16,20,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,8,7,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,7,0,0,3,1,9,5,12,17,1,12,0,0,0,4,2,6,4,1,5,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317745459061688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868517530334856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346351003196753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137726381742352,0.1169188175336091,0.0,0.12718259840712906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957859978831341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244753528084469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039507516390597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21472846187918693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514486123209967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240485746749735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297128556520025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870949067821875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20603185128703064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13049126998779415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199463295885072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Linnaliis,2018/11/24,"What are the worst things you've binged? (for those of you who binge, obviously)
Please disgust me!

I have several variations of ""worst"" - in regards to what I actual had, I think just eating pure butter out of a package is high on the top. I had years when I didnt dare have butter in my fridge out of fear that I'd just... Eat it. I'd also make pie dough out of butter, flour and sugar and eat that. Disgusting.

Then of course there are those ""let's go for a walk past 5 different Stores and buy junk from every One of them because I am too embarrassed to buy that much from one place"".

At several occasions I have also binged on stuff from cabinets when I've been visiting Friends or family 😫 Butter, cookies, nuts, I'd cram whatever I could find into My mouth when they werent watching.",3.516371308016879,4.876036860759495,4.556392405063292,85.84678270042195,72.79746835443036,8.557805907172996,24.55907172995781,9.075114841892004,1.726340084388185,616,18,129,13,12,201,102,158,0.126,0.8270000000000001,0.046,-0.9259,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,2,1,9,7,2,2,4,0,13,5,1,1,2,16,16,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,11,7,4,0,2,0,3,3,1,6,0,2,4,6,14,1,23,10,3,21,0,0,1,0,6,12,0,1,6,84,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.16371701716512685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683274443180608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226959699197824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394881022499314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528147766786742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5150045409552915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135147357978348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581564013084546,0.188785238677213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533365848087711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296168635261317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095346216774799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17725572414809607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715537798656522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119862033250342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233285199699608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273673912521381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015319695403907,0.0,0.0,0.17528147766786742,0.1841584905034689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790593630852979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19205381126662605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145736622464132,0.1074987304039798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803686053850443
EDAnonymous,Mjdte,2018/11/24,"Embarrassed about my weight gain Hi everyone!

In the past I weighed <90 lb which was years but then I overate a lot due to feeling rejected and lonely and now I’m around <108 so just narrowly underweight discounting for water weight.

My attitude has been that I can lose the weight gradually.  I feel embarrassed about my weight gain not because I mind how I look, but because I used to post on another eating site MPA and the majority of users there disliked me and said they wanted bad things to happen to me, to put it mildly. But I was on there for years and now I keep thinking about how they would laugh at me and be happy if they knew I don’t look like how I used to. It’s tough to get this out of my head. Any advice?",3.150510204081633,4.823324000000003,4.037840136054424,87.93186224489797,74.3061224489796,7.8931972789115665,24.494897959183675,8.59863814320734,1.4954448979591843,576,18,122,11,12,185,94,147,0.16,0.7090000000000001,0.131,-0.5916,0,3,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,3,13,10,0,2,4,0,8,8,1,5,0,28,22,15,0,3,6,0,6,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,8,7,1,4,0,1,1,2,7,0,0,5,9,21,3,21,15,2,17,0,3,2,0,5,8,0,2,8,82,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502278278249835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396357952743788,0.1448882904981727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300483705814826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537015857758814,0.16846011049954224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413872816374083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203191087067773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973062739720196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219061261437151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221874898074494,0.14708960843385985,0.0,0.0,0.14180717399015036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281608133351928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750521150152346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320640075408004,0.15458222012970516,0.0,0.11747124541790605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951712510456873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190344955524058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323332314044157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890380459627313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143584477445386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179717522336464,0.08853681120810215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23867726837968334,0.0,0.0,0.0814990573469445,0.0,0.0,0.6730385650574013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981553897908148,0.0,0.0,0.17796003895241366
EDAnonymous,SammyJammers,2018/11/24,"DAE simultaneously get the urge to binge and restrict at the same time? talk about cognitive dissonance, feels like i'm gonna disintegrate into a pile of custard and chocolates xD

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but seriously, someone tell me i'm not alone in this?",10.979090909090907,9.580915090909091,10.421818181818184,59.52772727272726,57.18181818181819,13.345454545454546,44.72727272727273,12.161744961471696,5.497490909090909,200,10,33,5,2,65,40,44,0.085,0.77,0.146,0.4157,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,6,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34628845834739297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622709026345525,0.4062750059687684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905872083684093,0.23886156439555226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17468543371412568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334779165954685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28329587314121657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687399549959611,0.2922389097693735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496368997379185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062750059687684,0.0
EDAnonymous,missalligator,2018/11/24,"Calling a dietician this week I was recommended by a counselor to see a dietician. I was doing okay with recovery on my own for a few months until my brain spiraled out of control again and suddenly I was doing even worse than before. I wasn’t even counting calories or weighing my food I just couldn’t force myself to get more than a couple sips of soup and some almond milk without panicking. Except for when I’d get drunk and binge on oyster crackers. I didn’t share all that with the counselor though (only comfortable with you people here, thank you all for being so supportive and understanding). I mainly discussed the currently out of control anxiety and depression and she asked about eating habits, so I mentioned that I was feeling stressed and some restrictive eating habits from my past were resurfacing. She asked if I ever purge and I was honest that I had occasionally before but not recently. She explained how the restriction and the mental health issues perpetuate each other when your brain isn’t fully functional from malnourishment and I knew that but just couldn’t admit it to myself. I didn’t expect the referral but I’m glad she gave me it because I really am tired of this cycle and not being able to enjoy life because I’m constantly distracted by my thoughts and self hatred, in addition to just not functioning as an adult being my energy levels and brain function are screwed. I’m absolutely terrified and have no idea what this will be like but I know I need to make some kind of real commitment to recovery with accountability beyond just me and myself because my inner voice is trash obviously. Here I go, giving up control for the first time. Wish me luck!",7.066826923076924,8.1399976698718,7.2863076923076955,70.60869230769235,64.28846153846153,10.47076923076923,32.90769230769231,10.467255456243755,3.6875507692307683,1371,54,223,33,20,444,180,312,0.114,0.747,0.138,0.4803,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,4,18,15,1,2,12,1,24,13,3,5,5,68,47,29,0,6,15,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,2,11,23,6,5,8,1,1,1,11,4,0,1,13,3,38,11,38,27,10,24,0,1,1,1,19,9,1,6,15,175,49,0,0.1147643365054503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779440330286689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457832517189385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098778229889879,0.0,0.1953119951466978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843448631548511,0.1171872189941154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401947698491185,0.386153886001408,0.0,0.1269845554907139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884635486631473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348651343861869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516015237872286,0.10381091275144197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802829681963961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761848600414756,0.13877349124667074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991925820157748,0.11009240901567996,0.06522321718122003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219891230829762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955496675160286,0.0,0.11978415060099233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950939605851392,0.06307147799670716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106144485844738,0.056068057846012265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660608577706587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565545833747345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160379848301364,0.0,0.0,0.08509630134516373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728344939145967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955554504980533,0.07956314075530219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062694005396489,0.07352097267417862,0.0,0.11331593702641438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914523176061072,0.0,0.1197242321469527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146215971877526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023320904746746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565958197933448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275537792624192,0.09111006388454236,0.06692000752667468,0.1319047222971075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947372168388215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205702826660826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197332318855512,0.11062872501635547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695466349061802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cabbagepatchkitty,2018/11/24,I ate way too much this week Just came here to say that. I'm too afraid to hop on the scale. I'm gonna try to start a fast next week....,-2.8895454545454555,-1.3912333636363634,-0.5724999999999979,113.86125,94.75757575757576,3.3000000000000003,8.25,3.1291,-2.7656,101,0,33,0,4,33,26,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,4,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41010949287833465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635908098440511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813441341812781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851499074551705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537982714267818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434460490714444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846168262315277,0.5752477651054763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paigebot,2018/11/24,"Hey coworker, it really wasn’t cool to comment on my dinner like that... I work at a store that sells food. Normally, for dinner, I buy a 1/4 lb of a particular salad that I have fallen in love with, but we didn’t have it today. So instead I purchased the same weight of a vegan noodle salad. The cashier condescendling commented on how many hours I have been at work and “is that really all you are getting?” I don’t think that’s very cool. For all she knew, I had been eating Thanksgiving leftovers for 24 hrs and was stuffed. Either way, f*ck her. I will go to other registers with safe people from now on. ",3.742966023875113,5.031955123966942,5.06159779614325,82.71946740128558,72.14049586776859,8.68356290174472,25.014692378328746,9.150863307647796,1.9053904499540864,474,14,95,10,9,158,84,121,0.015,0.868,0.11699999999999999,0.8911,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,2,4,5,0,0,6,2,13,8,0,1,2,15,18,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,5,7,1,2,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,7,3,13,5,16,10,4,12,0,0,0,1,8,6,0,0,4,67,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602322591056792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075240539681165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287140108569953,0.0,0.14453558803070676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504534014292896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242476231737681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295332071951313,0.0,0.0,0.2578399763874161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24917903594211274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763130650652517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258470672652323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295761632778627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410650747907158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098401572203512,0.0,0.20186691919046929,0.0,0.30969254133356205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702951355605347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sh00p842,2018/11/24,"Did anyone else see that shitty ass post on 1200isjerky? Sorry if this has already been discussed. 

The post making fun of us, saying we claim that we aren't pro eating disorder with a screen shot of a proed post about someone losing weight with restriction. Fucking pissed me off dude.",5.9026923076923055,7.930284653846152,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,67.84615384615384,6.7384615384615385,26.461538461538463,7.1686216300943375,1.3991769230769229,230,7,38,2,4,68,45,52,0.27399999999999997,0.639,0.087,-0.9008,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,3,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,3,0,4,5,2,1,0,7,7,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,4,1,7,5,0,5,0,1,2,2,5,2,3,1,0,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311582583244958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464681348045353,0.21462946585666465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400737841770396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434279747812413,0.1749875051294072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19365407292511816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343462942300017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982460846918407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.601850633735595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658104461502574,0.0,0.0,0.16692256722378615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774854813641728,0.0,0.0,0.23448746179320865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25196978466071873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550812335706178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bhbubeepy,2018/11/24,"Does anyone have the ballet beautiful videos? On proed I saved a comment linking the ballet beautiful workout vids which can basically be done in bed. I suddenly had the urge to attempt excercise, but I can't find them online. Is there anywhere that you can watch them? Thanks!!",4.576599999999999,7.464603460000002,4.829999999999998,78.245,74.4,8.0,30.0,8.841846274778883,2.9716000000000005,223,10,36,5,5,70,42,50,0.0,0.78,0.22,0.8908,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,9,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,6,2,3,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,1,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502710821591368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383787065503558,0.5126387430299405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578529430586189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612011278428839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CaedesOfTheSkies,2018/11/24,"Just binged 2000 calories and feel so terrible :( I was doing pretty well this last week, but something broke in me last night after seeing my friends hanging out without me for the millionth time. I guess what really hurts is they all told me they weren’t really doing anything last night but then they all partied together. 
Now I feel emotionally terrible and physically sick from the binge.
Why am I like this :(
Just a rant, but I’ve realized that I need to find healthier ways of coping than restricting/binging. ",6.028328267477208,7.892252957446811,5.966291793313069,76.20500000000001,67.29787234042553,9.626747720364742,31.51367781155016,9.957137785484203,3.3392996960486325,414,17,70,10,7,130,71,94,0.255,0.625,0.12,-0.9585,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,5,7,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,0,2,17,12,7,0,1,6,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,3,12,3,9,9,2,14,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,1,11,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129137914777955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22047372769645804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820707589185174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791405373807615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142918837430538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159162035662063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20982215709814525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792987153516269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09575574681378617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453315880635001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678656263520848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19940256147038948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511253614037088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618670071068266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089045000163856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428923247350685,0.0,0.0,0.1872864916272083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555757535663077,0.1572194548870725,0.0,0.1762276254393689,0.0,0.1768596012470567,0.0,0.0,0.18893709876828807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asideaccnt,2018/11/24,"How do you take your mind off eating? The internet says drink tea, water, think about something else. None of this works for me...
I used to set reminders telling myself to not eat. I'm not trying to restrict, I'm trying to not binge.
So I'm wondering how do you take your mind off eating and not binge? Especially when you have nothing to do

If this is against the rules please let me know! I just wanted advice that's not just drink water! ",2.535340909090909,4.56113185227273,3.1818181818181834,91.8427272727273,77.06818181818181,5.763636363636365,21.227272727272727,6.6274283507984215,0.27488181818181845,345,9,72,3,8,108,56,88,0.0,0.9359999999999999,0.064,0.6628,0,0,3,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,0,1,7,0,0,0,2,0,6,8,0,3,0,19,16,6,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,8,1,3,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,10,0,11,15,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,1,46,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336643150448505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475954012353598,0.0,0.5446149451033453,0.14820622482785606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750182692870492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18141733707919766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582741462543621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023305050179582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194746760892286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108634631950456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658158987472527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667857646417628,0.0,0.1550672300965857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367941542621313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409042590680743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532283124651593,0.0,0.0,0.1046430865373231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19239738679231236,0.12915915037999431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spaghetti-tacos,2018/11/24,"What are some old ana forums you miss? I didn’t really use any of the forums except for mpa, right now i’m just using tumblr. I wish there were more forums out there though, that’d be awesome. ",3.0169166666666705,4.176587525000002,4.065000000000001,89.66666666666669,73.75,6.333333333333334,15.833333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.4536666666666664,151,1,32,1,3,49,35,40,0.04,0.792,0.168,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,7,10,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,4,6,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408095173103807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371582849672684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268543586789734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30241123808675235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479149964517068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6116812288391856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072133774311091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,damnbitchimfatasf,2018/11/24,"Acid reflux is fucking gross I've been purging alot recently, I usually do it once a week where I go full on crazy and want anything and everything in me and then I get this disgusting feeling like the food is stuffed to the top then I purge lol. 

But what's really gross is afterwards when I so much as cough vomit comes up, just a while ago I burped and like baby vomitted on my self it was gross.

What are you guys' experience with this?",2.4962078651685395,4.464477539325845,3.7307724719101145,88.1296418539326,76.97752808988764,8.045505617977529,24.608146067415728,8.841846274778883,1.7543134831460674,347,12,74,8,8,113,68,89,0.171,0.701,0.128,-0.8008,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,4,7,2,0,5,1,7,6,0,0,0,11,13,11,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,2,6,6,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,2,2,9,2,7,11,3,18,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,1,11,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205428070739314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061412189742892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578468189776887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251344085618046,0.24503833071008546,0.0,0.0,0.1266609798042584,0.17895817284171492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30290715625849657,0.0,0.0,0.2315844076509433,0.13087658585277415,0.0,0.14236565687661648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480356625381901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447645556294945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841472724462108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26677570018083563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604775419140314,0.0,0.2473398048509607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613274795429313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758917822496408,0.0,0.1477521521082663,0.0,0.20093702619530596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lionheart78239,2018/11/24,"Discord Server in the Making Hello. I’m planning on making a discord server since it seems the main one is full. I also know it has a couple requirements. Something along the lines of being active for two weeks, and I feel like discord can be more accessible than Reddit. Easier to communicate and all that.. anyways. I was wondering if anyone would be interested and if they had any suggested servers and topics, voice channels, etc.? ",5.094890109890108,7.701725961538461,6.001868131868132,71.87884615384617,71.43589743589743,8.046886446886448,29.091575091575088,8.841846274778883,2.8725728937728934,347,14,52,7,7,114,62,78,0.09699999999999999,0.7759999999999999,0.128,0.3818,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,5,0,9,0,0,2,1,16,16,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,4,2,7,10,5,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,4,2,43,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22187161658842494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867122139187992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939950771278684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069861630618297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094230503947748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028386460727366,0.1982058257254076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247579482422688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554497144918307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703916314705941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18800302289171886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525743129667855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295042852539482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21358970524453053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710221684602952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225485908993639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008758440466249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708803529160368,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deanisded,2018/11/24,"A stranger figured it out So today at a bar, a stranger caught on to my eating disorder. I was wearing lots of layers to hide my weight loss from my friends, and this guy came over and asked to borrow a lighter. We were sitting at a heat lamp so I took off my coat and unzipped my jacket. He noticed how thin I was (I'm 5'5 and 100lbs) and he immediately noticed how thin I was and commented on it. He asked how much I ate so I panicked and told him and he sorta spooked me by telling me all the harmful shit it's doing to my body. Like, I already knew this, but hearing someone who doesn't even know me saying it was terrifying. Sorry for the vent post, just didn't know where else to go I guess",2.1384018264840168,3.59530478082192,3.4604794520547952,91.92281963470322,76.53424657534245,5.962557077625571,26.55022831050229,6.42735559955562,0.8224858447488588,542,21,122,4,12,177,93,146,0.115,0.858,0.027000000000000003,-0.8829,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,9,5,1,0,7,0,8,7,3,3,1,24,22,15,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,7,11,4,0,4,1,1,4,2,3,0,0,12,5,19,2,16,10,3,17,0,1,0,0,16,10,1,3,2,78,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924016662219674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259909967592721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19366566517439668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19941213509047792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982239192611445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840552907946275,0.1456486469441236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515779100716095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470385176860514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990882073653979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206828347867808,0.1726358006755692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650727204029114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19163849808927647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517953548633687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822775745948003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281687137069614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39700160614084135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698093272664835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386516353654775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789697282522847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772780601564206,0.0,0.0,0.19517268681718716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523912526290581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526522253012765,0.16660071996195366,0.193711385237216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231365349727985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MissLadyPerson,2019/08/02,"Does anyone else suddenly feel fatter when they start restricting? It kills me. Every time I am like ""I'm gonna start ~dieting~"" I feel like even more of a whale than I did before. Logically I know it probably comes down to water retention and being more aware, but damn does it suck balls. 



Restricting is supposed to make me feel better, dammit.",3.913589743589746,6.3443551538461564,4.610384615384618,81.30378205128206,74.38461538461539,8.64102564102564,23.14102564102564,9.2995712137729,2.1011025641025647,275,8,50,7,6,88,50,65,0.21,0.6890000000000001,0.10099999999999999,-0.8358,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,2,6,3,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,11,15,3,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,5,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,7,3,5,12,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,7,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509145541301662,0.2419194519004549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090960757319495,0.0,0.0,0.20881739280860345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033852141019193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41323753157329335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19723704367137207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594640067402665,0.0,0.19893027197131755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581482745107819,0.16867483817013607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26121733620542953,0.0,0.1297581941535359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306998398285313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157603209363857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545632046428225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342354009791557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767584976929953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Imnotkeepingon,2019/08/02,"It's my birthday! Well it's the middle of the night and the start of a new day which is the 3rd of August.

On this blessed day 19 years ago this piece of sad trash was born.

I'm also fasting and I can't go outside bc I live in a weird country currently where women are seen as weird celestial beings and going outside alone isn't illegal but will make me VERY uncomfortable. I think I will go in the morning when there is no one out there.

I'll have some juice and iced coffee during my fast but I might just end up having nothing but water because I don't like having any calories during fasts.

I don't have any friends in real life and my family sucks so it seems I'm not going to be doing anything. I'm also away from my doggo so that's hard.

Idek why I'm posting this cus I feel okay but to other people this is kind of sad and idk I feel depressed now cus I'm pathetic.",0.8291237402015668,2.8205721755319138,2.8306494960806283,92.39184210526315,82.56382978723406,5.2344904815229585,20.00111982082867,6.339386263674448,0.0813148936170216,691,19,151,6,19,232,117,188,0.209,0.747,0.044000000000000004,-0.985,1,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,11,12,1,0,7,1,19,2,0,1,0,21,36,16,0,0,6,0,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,1,10,7,1,0,4,0,0,4,6,6,1,1,2,4,14,6,16,29,2,30,1,3,1,0,2,9,1,3,17,92,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117141956797986,0.0,0.0,0.17662567032241325,0.0,0.2727579430300302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319430265443757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140338031784584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022582336822466,0.0,0.0,0.10395822529795763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199654720821247,0.0,0.14688390820996913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104582207118294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607678066906645,0.0,0.17245801395841734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317570372543968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876821177093299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276832075923416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758881634662824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045585132662535,0.0833161270671341,0.0,0.15058795152215967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383526774276773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091359553526734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470641493954227,0.0,0.1600381193224036,0.0,0.16363556389866155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556078825192133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182293983364808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16332801686942253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941092870706793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552511563361403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070749229393225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927369974341354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071149818541806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333391177449293,0.0,0.15388378766652758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098207152339402
EDAnonymous,WorldsOkayestMistake,2019/08/02,"New here and struggling I've been doing really well for the past few months but I've gone into 2 heavily restrictive cycles in the past week. I'm sitting on the edge of my bathtub and I'm about to weigh myself for the second time in less than 24 hours but I'm terrified that I gained. I'm considered overweight and I hated that I let myself get to my heaviest, so I completely turned food away, now I'm stuck on the rush I get when I go certain amounts of time without eating, it's like a restrictive eating marathon to me at this point. I want to ask for help but if I do then there's no going back. I didn't expect this to be such a rant, I'm sure nobody cares but I needed to get it out.",1.0876701821668249,2.8865585771812117,3.1325263662512017,91.56001677852349,80.6778523489933,6.404793863854266,20.709971236816877,7.447530270364453,0.5716669223394053,544,15,122,8,14,184,94,149,0.175,0.7,0.125,-0.8695,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,1,1,7,0,6,5,0,0,2,18,25,11,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,5,2,0,1,0,4,3,2,1,1,4,0,15,5,22,19,3,26,0,0,0,0,2,9,0,1,13,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555716551174593,0.0,0.16638381494218654,0.13617285885488492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805571523741714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856776500775448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36241876615789226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141404155388312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775698681899046,0.0,0.2012909915934822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484174057440746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870107135191516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440000144100032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18108862432544007,0.0,0.0865182326807558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135318853670836,0.0,0.0,0.13131151466442714,0.0,0.17103660999832654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381088092659956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674092329399853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344970496766515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851350664216521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690716579406276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20652760251093874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262530229344324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445348218257304,0.0,0.14205256428435029,0.0,0.15922702511203504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071042122464286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitchyoubetternot,2019/08/02,"Weight triggered me to... live? TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE AND NUMBERS

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Ok, so I had decided to just end my unnecessary suffering on the Sunday after my friend's graduation (which is in two weeks) cause I promised her I would be there and I didn't want to disappoint her. I even got the necessary things to go through with it but today I had the brilliant idea of weighing myself when I woke up (mind you I haven't weighted myself in three months, when I relapsed) and guess what? I lost over 20 fucking kilos and now I'm at a weight I haven't been in over three years. I just stared at the numbers and thought ""well, maybe I can hold off the whole suicide thing until my birthday and kill myself by Christmas, I think I can get to my ugw until then"", so now my goal in life is to basically get to my gw so I can die skinny. What in the fucking world? My life is a complete mess, I'm an old ass woman with no job who dropped out of uni for being fucked up in the head and never leave my damn bedroom, I've been through all sorts of abuse and trauma but now I've decided that it's ok to live just to achieve a certain number on the scale??? EDs are the fucking nastiest shit, man, it's just unfair, I feel like my mind isn't my own and it's so scary.

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But ya'll, I'm not dying until Christmas so I guess that's nice lmaoooo",3.2835799931483365,4.552965741007196,4.046957862281605,89.62639088729019,73.24460431654677,6.5902021240150725,27.62658444672833,6.868970318607317,1.1609275094210345,1068,40,227,9,21,341,151,278,0.242,0.669,0.08900000000000001,-0.9957,1,0,0,0,1,3,47.0,0,1,0,3,17,20,7,0,13,2,18,14,4,3,3,40,37,23,5,2,8,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,1,2,12,12,5,1,6,0,0,1,7,12,1,3,9,5,35,8,38,25,3,37,0,3,1,5,7,17,7,3,19,155,47,4,0.0,0.09856606208604668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605435484188988,0.40433783453388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545862559631094,0.0,0.0,0.08722270342736327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17267532305470193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368128565741162,0.0,0.0,0.05494594028338226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206315678295183,0.05943066044068741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427207165478804,0.3076297455637132,0.08692625555952968,0.0,0.047278561676717054,0.0,0.06653431544566855,0.0,0.18328542675319173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537652057539488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939109223801724,0.0,0.0,0.08255283271444995,0.0,0.0920369568909084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808576525248796,0.0,0.0,0.11751853667983125,0.04064223209967156,0.0,0.14691586593424275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081126565054788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835751256120679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799554446995044,0.0,0.06640113787039215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416094106368465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729348177112001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539291970676731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199182069920303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110534935556435,0.05330453087171327,0.0,0.06604324289564878,0.0,0.0,0.07885400517534766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812641424978956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0490673761465692,0.0,0.06672967199065588,0.3039075313371415,0.0747974329875901,0.0,0.0,0.09287820749278153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059095498628605865,0.0,0.40433783453388,0.05357136913353245
EDAnonymous,dreamprincessa,2019/08/02,Impulsively just cut my bangs Was having a mental breakdown bc i literally felt so alone and cut my bangs and now I’m bingeing again we starting off with bacardi ayeeeee I wish dunkaroos weren’t so hard to find,2.4290243902439035,5.257683121951222,3.725073170731708,82.96078048780491,83.6341463414634,6.206829268292682,27.71219512195122,7.554174236665415,1.9701863414634144,172,8,31,3,5,56,34,41,0.205,0.731,0.064,-0.6101,1,1,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,7,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,5,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071321561592238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774368202220481,0.0,0.35928549203058296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521396165687379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961514748428154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27823759430038697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520446105405642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayy88288,2019/08/02,"Seeing my skinny bf crossdressing triggered me sm I’m using a throwaway for obvious reasons. Me and my bf are into bdsm, more specifically sissification. Nothing too extreme, we’re actually in an ldr so most of the time I just masturbate to him wearing girl’s clothes or vids of him pegging himself. My bf’s rly rly skinny like skin n bone kinda skinny, prolly cos he’s been dealing with depression-induced loss of appetite for years now and he hardly eats. Anyway the other day he sent me this pic of him wearing this mini-skirt and thigh-highs and he looked so tiny n cute. I couldn’t help but feel so jealous. I’ve gained a lot of weight lately mostly due to binge eating, caused by depression too (this shows how depression can affect people differently) and I miss being small n petite (my bf says I look better with the thicker build I currently have) but I disagree and even tho it doesnt affect my sex life I’d feel a sense of pride out of looking the way I like (aka skinnier). Seeing him gave the biggest thinspo and I couldnt even get turned on for a change tbh. I’ve been fasting ever since then (3 days now) and I wont stop any time soon.",4.104158746468016,5.470811956331879,5.122044695607503,82.33265861803238,71.35807860262008,7.48430516311328,27.444387361931682,7.928766900206844,1.7047496018494734,914,32,175,12,17,300,150,229,0.098,0.8059999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.5078,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,15,10,1,0,10,0,10,12,7,8,2,35,24,17,0,2,4,0,5,2,4,1,1,1,0,1,5,12,6,1,3,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,4,11,22,5,19,16,4,23,0,4,5,1,19,6,0,5,17,97,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.14678567904621778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228898628125263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303196188105018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452009851315415,0.159121658729153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401355144301324,0.15507372890721255,0.2591085629203303,0.0,0.0,0.1571541625251577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078290926013385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986985408726868,0.13606114486898713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521111083760874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858688036879663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347444404702688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082160885992264,0.1589242357602001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967737269831334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624425409477406,0.1469726821374675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789381833327549,0.0,0.0,0.12787948981323247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443295467868086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428048201886576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465413351106352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196179494056943,0.0,0.0,0.2397263775958147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442682308749894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575567703356555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754191846963434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361093175626634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991233387297274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193943263878651,0.0,0.18316786379931252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686387041959772
EDAnonymous,CiboChubChub,2019/08/02,Someone help I've kinda started to lose the feeling in my toes and foot and I'm getting scared is this normal??? Has anyone else had it???,0.06892857142857167,2.441872321428576,1.8900000000000008,93.98000000000002,93.64285714285714,2.8000000000000003,21.285714285714285,3.1291,-0.30424285714285704,107,4,21,0,4,35,26,28,0.19399999999999998,0.677,0.129,-0.47600000000000003,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,5,7,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528489473375366,0.3705163213957648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020821322551747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284292580791012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18892841279178893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24238227103086396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045536176697033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543049849468187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620387418769228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063944057901492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559522813857746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ellagreene,2019/08/02,Can weight gain occur with antidepressants even if you don’t overeat? Finally went to the doctor and got given antidepressants that say a side effect is weight gain. I figured that probably meant an increase in appetite but will it make me gain weight somehow if I don’t eat?,5.6320588235294125,7.703852941176471,5.347205882352942,79.43492647058825,68.60784313725489,8.237254901960785,30.39705882352941,8.841846274778883,2.562682352941177,224,9,39,4,4,69,41,51,0.0,0.792,0.20800000000000002,0.8753,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,0,5,6,0,2,0,10,10,4,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,5,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,3,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22433924113277245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427508224995715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476582190651113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24010014570706414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529766186187806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630384568063146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23631229312118016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430013008079567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8007038068817244,0.0,0.2031813527676286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwrwayw,2019/08/02,"welp finally passed out at work

LUCKILY i have the excuse of having passed out probably 30-40 times before throughout the past 10 or so years so wasn't questioned too much about it

UNLUCKILY i work in a hospital so they measured my pulse and BP and pulse was jumping down in the 40s so now I'm in the ER waiting room lol

wish me luck",1.7242236024844717,3.9500547971014512,3.3035610766045562,88.93434782608698,80.73913043478261,6.8414078674948255,24.349896480331264,7.957251820313856,1.4010853002070391,267,10,56,5,7,88,53,69,0.0,0.787,0.213,0.9247,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,2,7,1,0,0,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,9,7,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,5,1,9,5,1,16,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,3,5,34,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692180662004681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465813856318817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325774211769085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30202274015678165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411136705085987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544206250363149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448508503454025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36382407370511066,0.0,0.0,0.4606602189889515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20373985208137466
EDAnonymous,lavendermyth,2019/08/02,"What's your earliest food-related memory? The post about family dinners made me think of this. I think my earliest food-related memory (and one of my earliest memories overall) is being at my father's house when I was 2 or 3, my dad going to take a nap, and me eating a bag of Hershey's kisses that were on a bookshelf instead of also taking a nap like I was supposed to. I put all the wrappers behind a chair to try and be sneaky but didn't realize that my face was covered in chocolate. I think I was more concerned with hiding the fact that I hadn't been taking a nap than hiding the fact that I had eaten a bunch of chocolates I wasn't supposed to have found, as I don't remember feeling guilty about the food, just about the nap-avoidance lol.",7.722885154061629,5.596325620915035,8.436246498599441,73.5088235294118,64.0326797385621,11.618674136321195,36.23622782446312,10.290406445055957,3.5564423902894493,592,22,116,11,7,201,89,153,0.069,0.8540000000000001,0.077,0.2964,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,13,1,15,6,1,1,3,18,26,8,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,7,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,13,1,18,2,19,11,3,7,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,84,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13943118451944062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840812211309529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436585105793847,0.0,0.08815884479464978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6324902511503482,0.1911706466326657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908964756209816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20118161714539373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518077352756498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16497838902381787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11814708243485808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698335970958314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752743715374517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19750959476525748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932785258077164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351578595172578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183752213994772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,matchamomo,2019/08/02,"Zerp/low cal Italian ice i was craving that delicious, high fructose corn syrup goodness that is in those 100+ cal Italian ice cups without feeling terrible. so, i just crushed up some ice in my cheap blender until it was a more “snow” like consistency and squirted a few drops of lemonade mio inside. it was delicious and very similar to shaved ice! i am sure you could use lemon juice and Splenda in a pinch. just sharing for others in need of a summer treat!",5.492651515151515,6.636716295454544,5.416363636363638,82.35287878787881,67.86363636363636,8.139393939393939,35.12121212121212,8.344100000000001,2.8028348484848484,366,18,68,5,6,114,66,88,0.046,0.7070000000000001,0.247,0.9621,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,1,1,12,9,5,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,5,5,11,5,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,3,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30740980427590536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19467936741055986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32293930704800194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067982938827397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18810295375938169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854899251367987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628799377504318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325365418374099,0.0,0.3176845752234444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711487564517256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clementinenancy,2019/08/02,"just wondering... a couple nights ago my family got an indian takeaway and recently i’d gotten down to a weight i’m quite pleased with (6.7 stone) and thought that it wouldn’t really change much, oh no it did, now i’m 7.1 stone. nothing i can’t brush off but it’s a shame as i’ve never been so pleased with my weight before, i’m aware the weight that i have gained is water weight but it’s taking its time to go away again. just looking for some reassurance from others on how long it takes for water weight to go for you? thanks loves x",1.0673809523809543,3.2885662142857166,2.3785714285714303,94.63309523809528,83.28571428571429,5.8761904761904775,17.36904761904762,7.1686216300943375,-0.009288095238094929,424,9,95,6,12,136,78,112,0.049,0.763,0.188,0.953,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,6,4,0,1,5,0,6,8,0,1,1,14,20,7,0,1,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,4,7,0,2,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,7,5,3,14,14,2,14,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,2,8,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216343878406086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888146173626472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766984952576776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385462179134602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400058196273342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928359273021975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143822686859838,0.0,0.10119961010244227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197729280264712,0.10625544340812114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420053369605498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301595652411423,0.0,0.09758967498136888,0.0,0.0,0.11874219247946252,0.0,0.12141135941367068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27778940589556184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458290342375448,0.0,0.0,0.08105996827149542,0.0,0.12493559219792436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902734061446565,0.0,0.0,0.1164941383566918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045268199081853,0.07378212623600994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7704125676228196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721911349903249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ChiiChiiYa,2019/08/02,"You don't want my opinion Something that annoys me a lot when I talk about my ED with someone (who doesn't have a disorder) is when they say things like 
""You think you're fat??? Then you must think I'm obese!"" And similar stuff, like ????? 
Why would you even want my opinion? I am sick.
My perception has nothing to do with other people's bodies, just mine. I seriously don't understand.",1.7881578947368406,4.1399507105263185,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,81.36842105263158,6.43157894736842,22.657894736842106,7.645422480735847,1.0253736842105263,298,10,62,5,8,96,55,76,0.152,0.7809999999999999,0.066,-0.6701,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,1,0,5,4,1,0,2,0,10,4,2,0,1,15,16,4,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,14,2,4,14,1,3,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,3,5,42,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27909483600550256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879673981168816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659558227162124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24550731247251545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136135056379947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410921446535433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419305759041884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19981319558826247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21289301723287127,0.1934333452054354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876342546110655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20195444160810944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669269474190761,0.32199639244293154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26157203806003915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29640103472367024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267243838198248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784889300857259,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rigidmisfit,2019/08/02,"its a cycle and idk what i want long story short the first time I restricted my intake was when I was around 12 and it went on for a year or so then I was able to get out of it, sort of... i was able to maintain while keeping it in the back of my mind. Then came the relapses of ages 15, 17 and now 18 (almost 19). A part of me feels like it is second nature to restrict and hide my habits, hell even my boyfriend hasn't caught on and i see him a lot of the time.

I want nothing more than to continue dropping weight. I've lost 40lbs within the past year but I'm deathly terrified of the Freshman-15 that everyone mentions about college. I want to drop this weight quickly and I want to do it again because without it I feel so out of control. Part of me wants to get past this and live a happy life but man wouldn't that happy life be great while being skinny.

idk what i want. its either recovery or restricting and since no one knows im back in this cycle, i have to do either in secret. its messing with my head.",1.2853738317757006,3.1125457149532743,2.754028037383179,94.37543457943927,80.16822429906544,5.588411214953271,20.980373831775697,6.508806274219699,0.1604418691588787,789,22,178,7,20,257,122,214,0.11900000000000001,0.772,0.10800000000000001,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,11,7,1,0,11,0,12,6,2,1,0,40,30,19,1,7,7,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,16,13,3,5,4,0,0,3,4,3,0,3,8,5,20,4,31,19,6,35,1,1,1,0,4,10,1,5,21,125,36,1,0.2463972447517594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336562430531205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967289353926404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18946427201985924,0.0,0.07510073671206524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090640351051914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817773078604034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137152816538837,0.0,0.0,0.11772156324112795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458585035532753,0.08801312044157716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479268525687783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873239071155287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13582691609875125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26229444877639674,0.0,0.0,0.1264373293610685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307565315569214,0.0,0.0,0.10950459620244976,0.0,0.0,0.06770674093546394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403766080039634,0.06018862389006883,0.0,0.1087866406612959,0.10902690396809694,0.0,0.0,0.13448584959156618,0.10473906311954527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439548862020905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182124008548763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348257492730367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668242048299391,0.23521405054493824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981733514541666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191117352876326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367621488890464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359944366612071,0.0,0.0,0.3000454643034289,0.0,0.1142063572166214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875907561725625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586717471691366
EDAnonymous,seogyeokdong,2019/08/02,"When you were at your lowest weight and “very sick” what did that actually mean? Sorry if the title sounds bitchy but I came across that one female who said when she was at her gw she felt very ill and I just couldn’t make up what does that exactly mean? Like having a cold all the time? Not having energy for anything? Your mental state being so bad you can’t do anything? All of those combined? 

I’d really appreciate some confessions from y’all on this topic. How did you feel at your gw?",1.6242393320964723,4.097586377551025,2.8151576994434144,90.74737476808909,83.18367346938777,6.012615955473097,16.051948051948052,7.348242739294969,0.056334693877550635,387,7,80,6,11,124,74,98,0.19,0.7440000000000001,0.066,-0.9138,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,7,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,10,3,0,2,3,19,17,8,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,8,3,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,7,6,12,1,9,8,3,11,1,0,0,0,13,6,0,2,4,56,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.20982813467164094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538856570263996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953240346754987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459251663352453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881651206997753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872038178649776,0.0,0.206452557243632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504772652542847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435272677179968,0.0,0.0,0.4684388082749228,0.0,0.0,0.21668920639226488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570286100275825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774707610832493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20453290005904065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406968635476258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537967106063616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35482741458816525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261835973662645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thecommunistagenda,2019/08/02,"Tried to recover, now just overly aware of destructive habits 🤪 Finally realised how bad I’d gotten after even my friends - who tend to take a pretty hands of approach in dealing with me - began to get worried.

Thought well it’s now or never, tried to recover and just ended up overly aware of all my self destructive behaviour with absolutely no willpower to actually be able to stop them lmao

Now I’m just more fucking anxious that ever Yeet 🤪",4.643571428571431,6.792954309523815,5.6661904761904776,75.81214285714287,71.38095238095238,8.609523809523811,32.23809523809524,9.23628265651192,3.2634238095238093,358,17,60,8,7,118,64,84,0.209,0.6679999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.8255,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,10,6,3,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,3,13,9,3,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,1,4,2,16,5,2,15,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,1,10,41,7,0,0.2340928717317343,0.0,0.2284408745074568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644583131700558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954577698302136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24133947177191406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20733680190883189,0.0,0.0,0.1546161339963559,0.21175040455118616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564372986129423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085957200746228,0.21641508779370766,0.12230386365285795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805468540472906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381566084576973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24420991897448874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571212275265373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600870632491916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18584359172748224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178673872923535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21047760511053346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23773267438198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MSG-63,2019/08/02,"I just bought a scale (not sure it's the right place, will delete if needed)

I supposedly am fully recovered from bulimia for at least 2 years. Except that for a month, i'm eating less and less and i don't even force myself to starve, it just happens. I banned scales from my life since my recovery but i have the opportunity to weigh myself 3-4 times a year. Last time i did, i realised i lost 7kg compared to the time before that. And yesterday, i decided to continue under-eating and bought a scale. I don't feel like struggling for now and I have no idea if it's a good way to loose weight.  It's like something swtiched in my head and I don't feel the need to eat as mush as before.

PS: sorry for my English.",1.4669990412272256,3.3601036241610767,3.211720997123681,90.99223154362416,79.8724832214765,6.404793863854266,20.709971236816877,7.447530270364453,0.5277743048897405,556,15,124,8,14,185,90,149,0.138,0.775,0.087,-0.6407,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,0,1,9,0,8,6,1,0,1,21,17,11,0,4,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,6,4,1,4,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,4,3,18,5,17,12,3,15,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,12,76,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30002025475761185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607781355123589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643813211299192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827542421961629,0.125941881352206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478640051253028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589299916210975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809247877247077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19901037875700067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437001873297587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245191075908308,0.17225314795530644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19244177263382728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407132979057244,0.0,0.0,0.261434163214918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418592363932426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055101967877815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458292225139698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357169458440952,0.0,0.19734264519761474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842969799540162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615159506558244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083890115113653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399310965086498,0.0,0.2146741876437261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270504472022164
EDAnonymous,lilaroseg,2019/08/02,"I feel like im going on a downward spiral I have always been at least aware of my weight, butsince January i have gained about 20 pounds as a result of a traumatic event in a friend group. for a while, I didnt think much of it, but after going to therapy for a while and actually talking aboit what happened, I am very aware of my weight and am obsessive about it. I check my weight upwards of 3 times per week, obsessively check my BMI (overweight by .2) and compare myself to others. My therapist is aware of this after a meeting two weeks ago and she tried to help me by suggesting what I could to to help myself. ahe helped me talk to my mom, but my mom then said a comment that hurt me a long. I am now trying to exercise more ans calorie count but all it is doing is make me more self conscious and aware of how fat I feel. I weigh more than my sister by a little and she is like 3 inches taller than me which makes me feel even worse. I just feel like crap and dont know what to do.",5.4993807641633685,4.49883459903382,6.114308300395262,84.74324110671941,67.74396135265701,9.266403162055337,28.48001756697409,8.296473431620573,1.6329458937198058,770,20,173,9,11,252,116,207,0.09,0.8170000000000001,0.094,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,2,11,0,15,8,2,4,1,24,27,15,0,1,4,3,7,3,1,0,3,1,0,1,10,7,6,0,7,1,2,2,2,4,0,1,3,8,29,4,30,23,6,21,0,1,0,0,17,7,1,0,15,119,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.12545581306139478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113960499700852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697204654298297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264453375933193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067112001247174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491253084521537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600147766592861,0.1836862837106681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993249772180828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612698612442546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136850004349116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585127581083075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762591741631836,0.0,0.13886663748483327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065310014119909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884234632613333,0.12885068652373555,0.0,0.1137713713245363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716293203122621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011353517251971,0.0,0.0,0.09450624018445423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228980310417815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411590201910978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066629838195076,0.0,0.0,0.14701932747047108,0.14926782849728515,0.0,0.08237592438113192,0.0,0.0,0.07496424918849671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456732121362006,0.0,0.12558423735901492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607529315192277,0.0,0.0,0.2062458227841572,0.4696535812412489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101341230681612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jumbojimmy69,2019/08/02,"local fool wants attention i feel like such a faker and like an attention seeker all the time anymore because i have this weird urge to just tell everyone i know (barring like family members) that i have an ed just out of nowhere. i find myself being suspicious on purpose and like hoping they’ll wonder what’s up. i can’t tell if i’m horrible and just want attention or if the part of my brain that’s completely dominated by my ed just wants people to be worried about me and even if that’s the case, i still feel horrible about it.",8.065981308411214,6.281064943925237,8.415813084112152,72.84110280373835,63.11214953271028,12.298317757009347,36.35327102803738,11.20814326018867,3.914388411214953,427,16,83,10,5,142,70,107,0.14800000000000002,0.726,0.126,-0.5228,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,9,7,0,0,6,0,6,2,1,0,1,26,15,8,0,7,8,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,8,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,12,5,10,12,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,6,6,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006066535085007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12330754812674072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258105312690375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21208593618290628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360353126586716,0.0,0.0,0.1932864837340336,0.0,0.0,0.19069086648912928,0.0,0.20455692462111946,0.14450833054066267,0.0,0.0,0.18487956212813336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090892836163127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116738106595997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952936794993985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21904870656988698,0.0,0.1402349567202319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615404635519076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536019457685666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179506524017583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579286125228916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193632087455694,0.0,0.20542438860526455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bathroomspaceman,2019/08/02,"22M. Please help, purging is becoming more frequent and I do not know how to control it TW probably everything, I'm not sure how this works I'm sorry

Hi all,

Around 14 months ago, I started becoming really self conscious about my weight. I weighed 265 at the time and started using Intermittent Fasting to control my intake. It slowly turned into an obsession, looking back on it, because I was extremely particular about what I ate and when I ate it, never going above 1,500 calories. It started to control my life, I passed up many meals and drinks with friends because they were outside of my window. 

My first purge was on Thanksgiving of last year. I felt so gross mentally and physically after eating too much, and purging served as a quick way out of feeling that way. No big deal, I never eat as much as I did on Thanksgiving so I thought I wouldn't have to worry about purging becoming more frequent. Unfortunately, the feeling of relief after purging stuck around in my mind for way too long. 

As my weight continued to drop, I became more and more strict with my diet. I started to become afraid of gaining weight and returning to my previous size. I weighed myself daily and took note of what things made me weigh more the next day, and what made me continue to lose weight. I purged 2-3 times a month if I had to put a number on it. Only when I ate too much though. This was around March.

Fast forward to today, and it's starting to get out of control. I've noticed that because of increased activity with my new job, it's much harder for me to eat only 1,500 calories. I walk anywhere from 8-11 miles a day at work, so my appetite is out of control. This means that I frequently eat 2,000+ calories a day, which results in a purge. This is probably 2-3 times a week. I'm starting to get really worried about my obviously fucked up eating habits. Does anyone have any advice they could offer to me, short of seeing a therapist? Thanks so much in advance, I would really like to try to get this under control.",4.821131868131868,6.152217043589747,5.514963369963372,80.33134615384618,69.58974358974359,8.238095238095239,30.85164835164835,8.634040054169528,2.4653186813186814,1597,66,295,26,28,518,200,390,0.07400000000000001,0.852,0.07400000000000001,-0.1841,1,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,2,12,21,10,1,2,12,0,15,20,0,12,5,52,47,25,0,4,3,0,7,1,1,2,1,0,1,1,21,21,18,6,7,1,0,8,6,5,0,1,15,9,40,5,61,29,12,74,0,1,2,1,8,23,1,1,42,192,61,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322044478315826,0.05734933844986479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04399568108969743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04523713517792642,0.0,0.0,0.17278018603325698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049747436991692616,0.0,0.11831473431217325,0.28580778239317417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353741979519869,0.05165470599062745,0.0,0.0,0.12517122292467436,0.06669901198974293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05661614051922584,0.0,0.0,0.0633777129747038,0.0,0.331002170433612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581448344620505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542475448836556,0.0,0.06211856346165508,0.0,0.0,0.055030612911128415,0.0,0.0,0.04998417653447999,0.05981065769944066,0.10140339010789852,0.0,0.03676838029802758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04336454501714367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420106365924279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03555537719794258,0.05273609369959989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045696887716866134,0.0316073288400679,0.0,0.0,0.05725416172378622,0.0543285713438624,0.0723785757542155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243434703473335,0.0,0.06559186174849099,0.0,0.07047320272567227,0.0,0.0,0.06519862189378993,0.0,0.06532478832247607,0.0,0.10327988850991926,0.0,0.23779600687035055,0.0,0.09979550128618477,0.06248405923703072,0.06880521548182167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365713045794588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840885499505507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101707485610427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950703954900812,0.0,0.0,0.06503761904237361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433825867501595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05155454971708365,0.0,0.0674923177468774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242217579150724,0.2747541108808419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060975467384808225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595636317900828,0.0,0.0751173541590146,0.04298132602412096,0.0,0.06356375529162969,0.051361610522472206,0.1131747432567363,0.0,0.0613244977741705,0.0,0.07187993475545386,0.04392451951705205,0.07037096209502876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558768037350386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540586596460139,0.05189544414849137,0.31513050288475325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419930795111073,0.13140440212733276,0.0,0.04595837289500695,0.0,0.0,0.041662275744690384
EDAnonymous,TheLoudestWhisper,2019/08/02,"I am infertile mostly recovered anorexic but I went back to the OBGYN and she diagnosed me with PCOS which isn't correct. I had 12! ovarian cysts from not ovulating because I spent my entire childhood and adolescence severely underweight, but my testosterone was within normal ranges. I also am a healthy  BMI and have no hirsutism or other problems other than not ovulating. I'm getting a second opinion. I was told today at the age of 17 I may not be able to have kids. I personally don't want kids but I'm sure some people on this sub do. Please get help and take care of your body.",3.17158487530169,5.618933495575225,4.4977795655671775,81.11260659694287,76.87610619469027,7.648913917940468,27.97184231697506,8.575989854853784,2.4487061946902653,467,20,83,10,11,154,83,113,0.098,0.755,0.147,0.7851,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,12,3,1,0,2,21,22,9,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,1,6,1,13,2,10,14,2,8,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,5,4,60,17,0,0.2389144612791724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910598083675368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18371047341409866,0.0,0.14564003807192666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653801070712809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358921608827386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424931490884588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496458903752493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013932729472666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340854457103713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656332053148692,0.20861089222860946,0.0,0.2622563338183245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286088733413864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699053369477602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251740523191106,0.0,0.17963394161036975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264629737579449,0.2282930062065581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091793932270255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221476099187355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachysnailmail,2019/08/02,"scale addiction I'm addicted to the scale; I weigh myself at least 5 times a day, but usually more (like..way more). I know that it's really bad for me but i cant stop. I don't necessarily want to recover right now, but I feel like breaking this cycle could change that and be the first step to being healthy again.

Does anyone have any advice on how to break the habit without completely getting rid of my scale?",3.929437751004016,5.083869433734943,5.017048192771085,83.73151606425706,71.5301204819277,8.90682730923695,25.88152610441768,9.2995712137729,1.9534755020080319,325,10,68,7,6,107,66,83,0.08,0.8079999999999999,0.11199999999999999,0.3838,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,1,0,11,11,5,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,8,1,9,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,8,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910672626995969,0.0,0.2200918679593576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316392768807666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748585155623782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880574017572388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382631710141956,0.0,0.2361490679686565,0.0,0.0,0.17982759800825102,0.0,0.0,0.1452545315192497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19710003886029911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138829098364926,0.16090415133162647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19158027805880196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767322856189025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12378035950767953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22007172108568948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428792091156056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234494350437528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883021244396116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133325637843574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480587076708273,0.0,0.13284631970080274,0.17877686188966746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21711340512926647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,macknutcracker,2019/08/02,"when did u stop giving a shit about hiding it from ppl? for me it happened pretty recently. i just gave up. i measure everything in front of my family, i eat one meal a day alone in an empty room. i havent lost ""too much"" weight yet so my family isnt too worried but my mom has started to cook stuff 4 me and she keeps trying 2 get me 2 eat it which is a bad sign. i drink pickle juice and bone broth with vinegar in front of people. i scan the labels of shit at the grocery store. i spend 20 minutes in the ice cream aisle just opening and closing the freezer doors and checking labels lol. i just dont care anymore and it's weird how that changed",0.4983454987834577,2.6336161094890542,2.2698102189781046,95.0566374695864,84.98540145985402,4.821216545012166,20.082238442822387,6.079149491110277,-0.03615484184914841,505,15,112,4,15,166,97,137,0.171,0.754,0.076,-0.9204,0,1,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,10,6,2,0,8,1,6,9,3,1,0,16,14,9,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,8,6,2,0,2,3,2,3,5,0,1,3,3,15,1,14,11,1,17,0,1,2,0,4,9,2,0,6,67,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574223819106022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828168729624796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167968773120562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17300492277679322,0.0,0.17950397778394644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094326332007706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988692761927358,0.16622646615599945,0.0,0.3472597447819301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15250172188620853,0.0,0.3199273823030443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865328416316726,0.16277708463253854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005167379515275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082361215618195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18523096128123276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873274131325824,0.0,0.0,0.1247378235432481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498278555684377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763804800121908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726304047504474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675432306049093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483579375440673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12010374722679193,0.0,0.0,0.14186405821008782,0.0,0.0,0.1942484546674179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11520481434592053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663032560595615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232311153044175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jessrca,2019/08/02,"‘Normal’ people talking about “counting calories” around me is really triggering I live in a dorm and some people on my floor were talking about counting their calories (they’re sporty so it makes sense) but as I heard their conversation in the distance it kinda triggered me.

I have been counting my calories since I was 14-15 and keeping food diaries to stay below a certain amount I won’t disclose, but to hear other people doing it because it’s fun or for a sport it makes me feel a bit empty. I wish I could be like them.",5.157478991596637,6.2645563725490225,5.479131652661064,81.73323529411769,68.60784313725489,7.0050420168067244,31.23809523809524,6.868970318607317,1.8877154061624648,418,17,75,3,7,133,72,102,0.022000000000000002,0.836,0.142,0.9136,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,9,1,0,4,1,18,16,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,6,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,15,3,11,9,3,7,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,3,1,53,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428235042033706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303877718422094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382645988123756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742491066921105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035011047412477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639000441034349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459754821396191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939842165687482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662240176732272,0.0,0.19271237914811207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913575097599081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138315937445096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4539062071374334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981191765764295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805326885095315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326177726147094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508305702991355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509684342237235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maracylne,2019/08/02,"“You dont have to starve, just workout!” Everytime someone knows about my ed and notices me not eating, their usual advice is just to workout a lot, i understand that theyre trying to help but ana isnt about just starving its about losing weight in general. And everytime i hear that i feel like the 4 hours i spend in the gym isnt enough",3.932941176470589,5.197191117647058,4.637529411764707,86.03688235294119,71.6470588235294,7.792941176470588,26.835294117647056,8.238735603445708,1.6570082352941178,268,9,54,4,5,86,49,68,0.051,0.797,0.152,0.6901,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,1,6,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,12,9,3,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,3,3,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,8,1,8,9,2,4,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,3,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393494073252853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870641067938849,0.0,0.0,0.25063149615098385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530851913574689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384740620619775,0.1749828997067467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27606157639918183,0.0,0.16417597478765286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24121341040518185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461086028014785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966374882292813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740216281179145,0.0,0.2082365093439877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788621715785063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20753415679348955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662960099302409,0.0,0.0,0.25498784819309234,0.0,0.0,0.26976328209387784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29826703748404404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alwaystheintern,2019/08/02,"Any ballet dancers/ex ballerinas here? I feel like being ballet may have triggered my ed when I was young. Well, one of the many things that triggered it. Has ballet affected you this way?",2.9961428571428566,5.849158257142857,2.9939285714285724,89.18232142857146,80.71428571428572,5.785714285714287,23.035714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.0240000000000011,149,5,27,2,4,45,31,35,0.045,0.816,0.139,0.5204,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,3,0,5,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,4,2,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30929695807227303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299734547195747,0.32492745060328576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22220478058043536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4611217012811761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082015511418275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30216587319263755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610193365424227,0.0,0.0,0.4089427751956957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nyoomgottazoom,2019/08/02,ruined my ugw :) reached my ugw this morning and was SO ecstatic that I decided to reward myself by eating like a pig and consequently gaining 5 pounds. cue instant regret :p,7.0290624999999975,7.8905937812500015,7.981249999999997,66.33875,64.3125,10.15,37.875,10.125756701596842,4.305512499999999,139,7,21,3,2,47,29,32,0.125,0.447,0.428,0.9221,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9024192049531052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308591168024713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TallGlassOfBees,2019/01/23,"MA resi??? Hey Mass friends,

I’m getting out of IP and have to choose a residential. Can anyone tell me anything about Cambridge EDC or Klarman or Walden? Which one is “best”? 

Thanks y’all ❤️😘 ",0.4646153846153816,2.8700011025641032,1.9750769230769265,94.79492307692308,89.25641025641025,4.1456410256410265,23.18461538461539,5.6839178017228535,0.2376215384615384,149,6,32,1,5,48,38,39,0.0,0.735,0.265,0.9034,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30639267571935697,0.0,0.3605930800378072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598534298008429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33854455044051746,0.0,0.2289362187354217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969289225270053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829974231248816,0.4034265310556423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunnywithbpd,2019/01/23,"If you guys love the Kpop Weight Loss videos on Youtube, the youtuber is doing $1 patreon for 40 minute videos! There was a youtuber who posted super detailed/unbiased videos of idols who cycle through weight loss then all her videos got removed for some reason :( she has a patreon for 1 dollar a month and there is so many videos! Merry christmas guys! LOL  

[https://www.patreon.com/user/overview?u=13316214](https://www.patreon.com/user/overview?u=13316214) ",10.834313725490189,14.792418117647061,5.488823529411764,75.89637254901962,59.0,6.886274509803924,27.509803921568626,7.793537801064563,1.7556686274509814,384,11,52,4,6,96,50,68,0.094,0.6990000000000001,0.20800000000000002,0.9028,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,3,3,4,0,0,5,1,5,3,0,1,1,5,7,4,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,3,2,6,5,2,5,0,2,0,1,8,1,0,2,2,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068730686380056,0.0,0.0,0.5122257499881364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334496627199031,0.0,0.0,0.26223942173290393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064589837633562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477236273267685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594432255168465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6299534625482567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FeatherMahogany59,2019/01/23,"New low (NOT the good kind...) Somehow I went from NEVER drinking my calories to drinking alcohol daily and I can’t sleep without it. I didn’t even think I was drinking that much until one day when I got home from work early (4:00 pm) and poured a drink... and when my roommate asked “isn’t it early for that?” I  lied that it was just juice (it was juice and vodka because who drinks cranberry juice plain?!) 

Honestly I feel like it’s not particularly bad to drink after work even if it’s only 4:00 pm... but I was obviously self conscious enough about it to lie 😭😭😭 

On the plus side, I haven’t weighed myself in over a week! Wooo! ",3.637986111111111,4.535772312500004,4.6144791666666665,87.31038194444444,71.96875,7.251388888888887,25.940972222222207,7.3871296695380915,1.0963149305555548,488,15,105,5,9,159,82,128,0.028999999999999998,0.893,0.078,0.6828,0,0,8,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,0,0,4,0,8,9,1,0,2,17,13,10,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,11,5,8,0,3,7,0,1,8,2,0,1,7,1,12,4,14,6,2,16,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,11,67,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435074992975114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553631224058562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212054783640224,0.0818575622615929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660131160740843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7892762645981549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387500517606982,0.0,0.17738507569258352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789742983131296,0.09593167526445899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263006055399367,0.10739824016674056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469661977504888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398348956938408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560380421314004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871332535771137,0.0,0.10356719102804396,0.12969118679310712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099351583021152,0.10212813756901154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008626992054513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437980000377106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604301059068592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077135804388416,0.0,0.0,0.12448152183076262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294438490495793,0.0,0.19551898824186364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brucie239,2019/01/23,"i hate bmi: from an athlete I'm a national/international level athlete and whilst I know that muscle is more dense than fat but I'm 125lb at 5""4 and I feel enormous.

However, I'm already lean and I know that the more weight I lose the more my performance suffers.

I just feel huge compared to ""normal"" women and my quads have NO CHILL so my thighs are enormous. I've hated them for as long as I can remember.

I need to lose 10lb for my bmi to be under 20 but I just don't know how I can. I'm so hungry I am not sleeping properly and my performance has tanked.",0.04721428571428632,2.208802816666669,2.601190476190478,91.68000000000004,87.5,5.761904761904763,21.07142857142857,7.1686216300943375,0.6376428571428572,438,15,98,7,14,151,73,120,0.205,0.77,0.025,-0.9738,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,4,5,5,2,0,4,0,9,4,3,1,0,19,21,12,0,2,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,3,17,0,11,20,3,8,0,3,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,60,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24722237863669136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265523263249882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4423659560188979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693626432632059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825926183058892,0.0,0.501263928047995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661152066148027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195015700322192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537820128530676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22419152225332675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27280785798439683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gothicusmaximus,2019/01/23,"The Truth Behind Calorie Labels This is why I *deliberately* overestimate my caloric intake, even though I count calories meticulously on MyFitnessPal (I create a new, manual entry for every new packaged food I eat), and weigh food. I rarely eat out. This video just confirmed to me what I already knew to be true... but it still shocked me. 

(Trigger Warning: I'd advise against watching this video if you're easily triggered, as it mentions numbers, and shows how wrong calorie counts often are in restaurants.)",6.692987012987014,9.10678972727273,6.208311688311692,72.94318181818186,66.5,7.755844155844157,35.298701298701296,8.418075326091056,3.227283766233766,408,20,61,6,7,126,71,88,0.113,0.818,0.07,-0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,3,2,13,4,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,9,2,9,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,3,39,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483466896623361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605617345665538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864245589464795,0.0,0.1896131238028104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5442592405846862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4347066163836232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797240761618245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110907425717724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030713274809806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460552790912269,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zaniathin,2019/01/23,"My friend has an ED but now I feel like a fraud This is absolutely ridiculous. 

So basics about me, I’m 5’4” and 147.5lbs. I’m on the heavy end according to BMI and body fat. 

That being said my ED presents itself like a rollercoaster and typically rears it’s head when I’m super stressed out. Lo and behold right now is super stressful for me due to an upcoming international move. So I range anywhere from 130-160 depending on my stress levels. I use my ED as a control measure and I’ll lose a massive amount of weight in a month whereas if I’m not stressed I can gain a massive amount of weight in a month. Regardless I’ve never liked my body, but I take “better” care of myself when I’m stressed out. I typically just call it disordered eating but I know it’s more than that. 

Anyways, my friend just admitted to me that she has an eating disorder and she’s been inpatient before she was in the military. I found someone I can actually confide in now and it’s amazing. However, at the same time, I feel like an absolute fraud because she’s tiny and petite and doesn’t rollercoaster like me. 

I’m heavy and she’s tiny and light. How the fuck am I not going to feel conflicted? Like she’s excelled at her eating disorder and I consistently fail myself by not being stressed all the time. 

It’s such a fucked up way of thinking. I wish I would have never found this version of control. Cutting was replaced by starving and restricting and exercise which supposedly according to my old therapist was healthier and easier to maintain. 

I don’t know where I’m going with this. I guess more of a vent than anything else. ",3.0853057905009784,5.260760198113211,4.419885057471267,82.90500000000003,75.94968553459121,7.908219475168076,28.261114725656036,8.74248658614541,2.35525838212969,1285,55,248,28,29,424,161,318,0.205,0.635,0.16,-0.9555,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,9,14,26,4,6,18,0,17,12,4,5,3,51,43,25,0,4,9,0,5,6,2,1,2,2,0,0,13,18,6,4,9,1,0,3,7,12,0,0,7,8,36,14,32,33,7,33,0,2,0,2,12,14,2,3,21,157,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.08324564877247774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019897774084997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052001307492123776,0.0,0.07258851105762032,0.0,0.0,0.07544558874014284,0.0,0.1895098728728841,0.0,0.0,0.08710622955212734,0.0,0.08697441922746499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19135425248137186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29330172741492155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618657966957354,0.07126161609914919,0.0,0.07555515897286594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939873955565911,0.12188421951095182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706567500915133,0.13181329690613142,0.1577267152945683,0.0,0.0,0.09696191404970364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939733843688298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754782882884247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376310296857547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500551080159319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543478913723978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617972278886287,0.09066601345838196,0.0,0.0,0.13158538314478352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951354246420515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285024383115749,0.08114485689622053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227888772282896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5863014666705466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413895490119101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990460060868964,0.0,0.054660179556478936,0.0,0.0,0.0994843906576762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367637352004344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677113613841124,0.0,0.2077577016412012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809686314850287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060598424058795765,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LilacOrange,2019/01/23,"Underweight at a normal BMI? Hey ya'll, I just came back from the doctors (I just needed to update my prescriptions- nothing ED related.) The nurse there weighed me and measured my height and told me I was underweight, I'm 5'10'' and weigh 61kg according to their scale (\~134lbs) . This gives me a bmi of 19.2 on the old bmi and 18.74 on the new bmi scale.

​

I guess I'm wondering is there another way to measure if someone is underweight that she could have been basing this off? Has anyone else experienced something like this before? 

​",4.17235294117647,6.893127803921572,4.121333333333337,83.68200000000002,74.88235294117645,7.609411764705883,28.82745098039216,8.548686976883017,2.4211262745098048,444,19,79,9,10,136,71,102,0.0,0.968,0.032,0.466,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,6,0,7,3,0,0,0,13,15,5,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,11,1,9,10,0,11,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,5,47,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661898520871261,0.4106699800079663,0.0,0.17719526380135395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815807921057593,0.173144865000562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993885615143386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14379359165748554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19327355708151786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492058721299727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296307103378836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14116509041051384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621055879819291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18615577398849095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825574221274251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530006462734858,0.0,0.16320654240567262,0.0,0.0,0.16556919424371758,0.16214544289793453,0.0,0.17732108821870735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318024595412382,0.13009273062229332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147218796277846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13413224362338488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832567730055193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4106699800079663,0.0
EDAnonymous,suddenlystevie,2019/01/23,"Did anyone else have weird behavioural issues around food as a young child? When I was a little kid, I was generally a bit of a menace, but my behavioural issues around food were through the roof. Exampled of this include; I wouldn’t eat anywhere but home. I had extremely specific preferences over which cup or bowl I’d use. I was very afraid of germs and would obsessively wash or and to avoid touching food with my hand. I had foods that were firmly, non-negotiably off-limits due to various sensory issues or irrational connotations. I was obsessively vigilant about use-by dates. I wouldn’t go to certain restaurants.

It went beyond normal ‘fussy eater ’ behaviour, especially considering that my preferences were usually quite adventurous for kids (I loved greens, brussel sprouts were the best. I was also super into flash  cheese) and also because most of my food issues weren’t about the food itself, more the conditions around the food. It’s also important to note that I didn’t have any significant body image issues until I was older - none of what I did was with the intention of losing weight. I was diagnosed with OCD, depression and anxiety which were managed, and the ED in a more ‘typical’ sense came after that.

I was wondering if these kinds of childhood experiences with food were common among people with ED’s, or if was just a coincidence.",7.80181693989071,8.719146586065577,7.680229508196723,68.97187431693993,62.64754098360656,11.424699453551913,33.889617486338786,11.20814326018867,4.124089945355191,1093,43,178,30,15,350,142,244,0.091,0.7759999999999999,0.132,0.937,1,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,4,11,13,0,4,13,0,27,15,2,2,1,37,33,19,0,8,9,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,12,15,10,1,3,0,0,3,5,7,0,0,24,4,19,6,31,6,7,22,0,2,1,1,4,9,0,8,10,126,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879548710774595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053276568431793486,0.0,0.059932902704612274,0.0,0.0,0.05477990721524398,0.08027262886207931,0.0,0.20922816005715647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047757741085393685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221713576526726,0.0,0.08553129591788097,0.08702246037909611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960460084339332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674775241477718,0.0795174540082787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016541327420453,0.06544631231638473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663541023245893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7578704642640463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04452466879829238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078585363582379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.408853615574916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158316175978837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785212135562271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764683370405188,0.0,0.0,0.07070846818986767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676043110187715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054313826330262036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332842796484502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353280269429351,0.08628478594020733,0.06464195862151814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540181778102184,0.0,0.07262562095986924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496066531275194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055653290002779215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,give-me-brie,2019/01/23,"My flatmate called me out I’ve been doing okay recently but definitely not eating as much as I should. Instead I’ve mainly been drinking and taking drugs to replace food (super unhealthy I know). But this morning I woke up to a text from one of my flatmates saying she’s concerned about me not noticeably eating and I just burst into tears. I didn’t even realise it was becoming an issue but I guess the people I’m living with have noticed I just don’t really eat. I don’t know what to do cause I don’t really want to eat. My appetite has completely gone and I’d rather just drink wine or smoke weed and sleep instead of forcing myself to eat. Everything is too hard and I just want to curl up in a ball. Really need to find a therapist. 

Thanks for reading lol just needed a rant xx ",2.703477088948788,4.632688157232707,4.201549865229112,85.16787735849059,76.23270440251572,7.058580413297397,24.564690026954175,7.957251820313856,1.444857681940701,623,21,122,10,14,207,104,159,0.076,0.818,0.106,0.5689,0,0,5,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0,6,2,13,11,1,1,0,30,25,11,0,6,12,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,8,9,0,3,5,0,1,6,0,0,1,6,2,17,3,20,18,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,1,83,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372709488694431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12691621358837152,0.0,0.0,0.12768230783296702,0.0,0.0,0.13031798711161274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435180378746911,0.14413946990460946,0.6359096541431644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209381338023164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170579795454848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136008017704502,0.0,0.15029459873393616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692185029130624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113413807812267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972874493199302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366154644077069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975227303780008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136905434031238,0.18432215475043498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830149439402828,0.0,0.0,0.08422359861122024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616854852036951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432581631600567,0.0,0.2388742616618313,0.0,0.12272353410258027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884213112293576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243819434133338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345225182434362,0.0,0.0,0.11443154116338106,0.0,0.14431280206058109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662149740851158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,norwegian_twat,2019/01/23,"dinner with dad or? As I live alone and study about an hour away from home, and my dad rarely works from our hometown anymore, I rarely see him. This week his work has brought him to my student town and yesterday he asked me out for dinner later today. I really wanna meet  him as I so rarely see him and it's nice just hanging out. Maybe even tell him I'm going to therapy finally? But fuck........

Yesterday was a mess. 

Ate over 6000 calories, started from when I woke up, and ended before I went to bed. Only break I had was going to therapy, which I didn't rly wanna do as I just wanted to sit at home and eat. Either way! This means I just really don't want to eat today, and the binge urges are still lingering. I might be able to fight through, but if I am to meet up with my dad and eat dinner...... I'll go straight home and binge. Or as I decide whether to join him or not, I'll binge before too aswell. I'll probably not purge either cause I don't want to smell like puke meeting up with my dad. But I'm also starting to feel like I'll binge either way, cause then I won't have to leave my room if I cancel. Honestly I just don't know what to do, I just wanna binge and sit by myself in my room tbh, but also wanna meet up with dad, but also not, but also fuck. I was doing so well with restricting too I really fucking do not want to enter another binge phase

So idk I just wanted some insight? Do I go? Do I say I'm sick? Cause in some way I actually am, so wouldn't really b lying. Dunno when I'll b able to see him again, possibly month or two?idkkkkkkkkkkkk small vent my thoughts r just mumbled rn i dont know what i want to do or what i should do or what im going to do

(still dont know how to flair sorry)",0.927525575447568,2.6202699239130496,2.964328644501279,93.08770460358059,80.73913043478261,6.0685421994884905,18.7039641943734,7.048011613610866,0.07901476982097178,1324,29,306,16,34,447,168,368,0.081,0.83,0.08900000000000001,0.782,0,1,0,0,1,0,51.0,1,0,0,2,26,10,4,0,3,0,29,11,0,4,0,75,62,41,0,14,29,5,1,2,0,4,1,1,6,0,8,17,7,1,8,0,0,9,12,5,1,0,10,6,45,5,49,47,5,49,0,0,3,3,23,16,3,12,20,194,53,3,0.1674712428047926,0.0,0.08171388748013547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672485043077269,0.0,0.2678533847305983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780410008374014,0.0,0.0,0.083043235998502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782815025332398,0.0,0.07867237271565151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250569278700834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580586476562409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962750493064833,0.0,0.0,0.2570473359463549,0.0,0.0,0.0741649065133324,0.0,0.0,0.05530658820682885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04233924615496259,0.05982074466104019,0.0,0.09172828028148644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23223669806606465,0.0,0.0,0.2379444166556714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519809669555609,0.0,0.08246271982490598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044884021936347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805672294121674,0.0,0.0,0.0886639325958744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181798993519858,0.0,0.07394008780601642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412368653118818,0.09121263964579104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888302616774182,0.0,0.0,0.06683697411896554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636847133481348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439933162289324,0.0,0.0,0.090281162443887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145727329740132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658992704093293,0.0,0.0,0.2001793469107805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937351726236856,0.1185370076269884,0.0,0.13374275083533074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318862390260716,0.0,0.19151796141081426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664767300338277,0.0,0.0,0.1587431562805043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179753484847473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963366341096491,0.19939631609060499,0.06716766463418118,0.0,0.0752883798846126,0.07762375995131378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192105933476427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doublecouponn,2019/01/23,Orthos how do you do it?! I mean I know fitbits aren’t super accurate BUT i “burned” more than i ate today. I feel semi immortal  and not invincible because I feel hungry. Like ???? How do y’all move past that? I take phentermine and I STILL feel hungry. ,0.32202857142857155,2.753201660000002,3.007714285714286,86.22100000000002,92.4,6.057142857142857,19.142857142857142,7.447530270364453,0.938485714285714,193,6,38,4,7,67,36,50,0.069,0.742,0.18899999999999997,0.7193,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,11,11,5,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,10,2,1,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20856944117460705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5189989271310167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880348680839894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715558594252092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726980395737391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636477748835124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266177219183797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732387815827614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572517235896598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32431504762520985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AyN19,2019/01/23,"Accidental recovery?!? Oh dear god..... I think I recovered but I didn’t want to.... I started to eat more calories and now I’ve gained and uncomfortable 10-15lbs... none of my clothes fit, and I don’t have the urge to restrict anymore! I feel like the only thing I do is eat (even though I eat less than the average person) i feel like a whale, and i don’t know how to restrict anymore! It’s like my whole world has come to an end, and I’m so depressed all of the time. I’m not trying to complain, but I just can’t stop myself, HELP! ",-0.39830357142857054,1.7627472053571474,1.8585714285714303,95.98642857142859,90.33928571428572,4.985714285714288,20.5,6.5431188927421005,0.17402857142857142,405,14,95,5,14,136,71,112,0.161,0.61,0.22899999999999998,0.8167,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,6,0,8,3,0,1,1,20,17,10,0,1,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,3,3,4,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,2,14,4,9,16,5,8,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,8,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697312302909441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057309032668068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605520413901443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.57222256948278,0.0,0.0,0.1651012379267222,0.0,0.0,0.12312003894738832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885059196241802,0.2663383387521868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494465590993525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244439018070227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27320707443787545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177089279948546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627633673057555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319398056264451,0.0,0.0,0.15584456520139536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384050123236524,0.11944205310073575,0.18314389163119876,0.0,0.10869539734451934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655808967666174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099476545683728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20811671371712434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dorianthrowagray,2019/01/23,"omgomgogmgomgkgmgkgmgmjdndjahdbbcjskdnz I'm sorry I've lurked here forever and I've never posted but I'm having a mental breakdown and I have to vent

I was browsing random thinspo on tumblr and there's a picture and I am so so so sure that it's my best friend and I can't find the pic on her insta or anything but it looks SO familiar and she has other pics up in the same outfit but holy shit my world is shaken

It wasn't even like she posted it it was just in the midst of a dump of a bunch of randos and I have no idea why this is affecting me so much but I just. I want to??? cry?? die??? lose a bunch of weight maybe (exactly that fuck my fat ass)

Idk we go to college together I have to see her every day and I try not to think of her that way because I know she's struggled with ED :( and I'm sorry for just ranting at y'all but I just feel some type of way",-0.6274822695035454,1.5019877765957474,2.0894680851063825,94.03416666666668,91.44680851063828,4.6226950354609935,15.812056737588652,6.21433560688645,-0.5581390070921985,674,15,158,7,24,233,110,188,0.21899999999999997,0.7,0.08,-0.9789,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,0,2,12,9,3,1,8,0,12,5,3,1,3,35,23,20,1,1,11,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,10,11,2,0,5,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,3,4,23,4,19,20,6,14,0,1,2,2,9,7,3,3,3,108,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14075394877105585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042663241877244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949924633494296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878828822452111,0.11030868965147313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751579826002264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297239556878932,0.0,0.14411124128941558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648456214321654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563303516563566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321475229209296,0.15812664741611787,0.0,0.0,0.09720777084018446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308691081898505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940008488483604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356304938785936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363317803129047,0.19135354749450686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183584631844612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172371277841884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573640478693587,0.0,0.1319190312610695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276241376194385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13629925533967574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557334816971756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382937633424448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788114507135352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612061562780764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959755199728917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612707965022485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088568871446334,0.2715322016984805,0.0,0.20828449241491664,0.0,0.0,0.15433984993574462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stagvelvet,2019/01/23,"I said it out loud I work in an educational setting where staff takes ""working lunches"" - we eat with the kids, don't get a scheduled lunch. I've been dodging the question ""Why don't you eat?"" All year. Coming back after a long weekend without medication left me with questionable judgement.

Again, I get the question from coworker. I consider myself lucky, she's trustworthy. She's seen some shit. So I told her, ""I just eat at home. So much. I'm doing much better than I used to."" It didn't click for her. I blurted out: ""I have an eating disorder. Food is hard""

Fireworks behind her eyes, you guys. She lit up and was immediately supportive. Not in a prying way. Not in a pet project way. But genuinely concerned and informed way. Bless it, she even promised to stop asking.

...it felt good to say it out loud",1.1454369501466282,3.784656754838714,2.6119208211143707,88.8851539589443,91.12903225806451,5.39882697947214,23.819648093841643,6.980632752743323,1.1531935483870974,627,26,122,10,22,203,107,155,0.086,0.789,0.125,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,0,3,7,7,1,0,9,0,8,10,2,1,1,24,20,5,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,5,9,7,1,5,1,0,1,6,1,0,0,7,10,21,6,19,13,4,23,1,0,4,0,20,10,1,5,8,78,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190692095047254,0.0,0.0,0.09793592811118376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264411292808345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971378732899836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597148071273622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5213053251148656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412347138322021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229050446491488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540104284970562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308605393407327,0.0,0.0,0.10682783361464483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611150935456442,0.0,0.0,0.11409414515239467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775761652801296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383825933643379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271413776720147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830697543141034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725606014935187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280343049475715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115341103949252,0.10128586852781092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073848222876694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648295706397742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453244744196306,0.0,0.0,0.09576273178626313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170284594354353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000258434602968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30328955074644115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492722522161927,0.0,0.0,0.12277544645444426,0.0,0.18544667242181373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08201897201179782
EDAnonymous,thisistotallymyrealn,2019/01/23,"Small utensils Does anyone else when they eat only want to eat with the smallest spoon/fork possible, my family has two sizes and i will only eat with the smaller ones and will wash one if need be. Idk if its an ed thing or a clinging to childhood thing",9.882941176470588,6.212440921568633,8.931470588235298,76.44661764705886,61.352941176470594,11.768627450980391,37.26470588235294,8.841846274778883,3.044482352941176,201,6,41,2,2,63,41,51,0.028999999999999998,0.945,0.027000000000000003,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,9,6,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,2,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789234534471607,0.2167164559580568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850933701442702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6492810003163715,0.1766890291471591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993923126532304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683159842636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866485933457579,0.3217249790611938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384451573468181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810349986457521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20661402715690766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247537705566509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,michigangirl77,2019/05/06,"Bridesmaid dress doesn’t fit My bridesmaid dress for an out of state wedding just arrived in the mail and it won’t zip up entirely.

I have one month and I’m trying not fall back into bulimia from my past and just do a lot of cardio everyday. Planning to fast. 
I get anxiety knowing I’ll even be in pictures also. I’m 142 lbs and this is the heaviest I’ve ever been.

The millionaire question is how much have any of y’all lost in 30 days?",0.9348913043478221,3.160451402173912,3.0045217391304355,89.9078695652174,83.8913043478261,6.288695652173913,24.417391304347824,7.554174236665415,1.3042182608695658,347,14,73,6,10,117,70,92,0.047,0.924,0.028999999999999998,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,7,1,0,0,5,0,9,1,0,1,1,14,14,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,5,0,12,10,2,16,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,2,7,48,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444515925011585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078723778983356,0.0,0.2338437959927357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350484812526829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19713783345192784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201898267241432,0.2765043896878467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970479606627824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799332621172552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336850199721139,0.2598775742953534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24399026770220125,0.0,0.22470942682800804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20713617653115365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918054404689265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3424307273892929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075361511380174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chubspo,2019/05/06,"I eat everything in site when I get home Why do I turn into a human garbage disposal as soon as I get home? How tf do I break this habit? My partner left for a weekend business trip which I’m pretty sure is what triggered this binge phase again... while he was gone I ate pretty much whatever the hell I wanted and when I finally weighed myself this morning I was up 3 lbs. I’m pretty sure I didn’t actually gain that much weight/eat that many calories over, and I did OK at work today. I ate 2 apples and a bunch of watermelon and some peanut butter crackers. I was planning on eating more apples when I got home but instead I ate like 1/3 of a large bag of chips with some queso, some salsa, and a large piece of cake-type dessert bread. Upwards of 800 calories for sure. Very disappointed in myself.",3.1174358974358967,4.690995320987657,4.202098765432098,87.13098290598292,74.18518518518519,6.7130104463437785,25.424501424501425,7.321109707123232,1.1220877492877488,630,21,129,7,13,205,104,162,0.049,0.8170000000000001,0.134,0.8375,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,1,0,6,1,8,8,0,2,3,17,19,13,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,7,7,8,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,10,1,18,5,17,9,8,21,1,1,0,0,3,9,1,3,10,78,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.13661203148400186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4297404007332147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258158137833098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533544309323686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628012003529528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196441842813984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212702742782939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210175499048434,0.0,0.0,0.06839303673872013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419299502664319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058205059528832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272666810993674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39582250706265576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269607977550926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522711337062814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550808953470815,0.08257092895968247,0.0,0.0,0.17047258382972216,0.0,0.0,0.1263210366810471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191586834277523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kahmanee,2019/05/06,"do you guys ever fast for a long time then eat and regret it? I fasted for 24 hours and wasn’t THAT hungry but decided to eat a little bit of nuts now I feel so much more hungrier 

does this happen to anyone else?",1.3169565217391297,2.8449817826086985,3.5167391304347824,90.33206521739132,79.0,6.339130434782609,15.847826086956525,7.1686216300943375,-0.17720000000000047,166,2,37,2,4,57,40,46,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.5879,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,4,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,5,3,3,9,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18140735570355912,0.2658282220162419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832426524819608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270387879634218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5309463407382177,0.21672987526639687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346794657202817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118129234541182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568876287692849,0.2294230423201265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25549737275331363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260028292160118,0.0,0.22959734387433145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907191719084145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128228040880126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitterturtle,2019/05/06,"my morning routine *wakes up*
ugh i feel massive, i definitely gained 10 lbs in my sleep i just know it

*steps on the scale, i lost weight*
wow i’m a skinny legend

*looks in the mirror*
i am disgusting",-2.3721138211382105,-4.54012463414634,0.4418536585365871,96.76310569105692,161.1951219512195,3.044552845528456,14.928455284552848,5.2151,-0.5243281300813011,154,5,33,2,15,52,33,41,0.18600000000000005,0.614,0.2,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,3,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,3,7,1,4,5,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275210506468893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472946773582747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778659539180444,0.0,0.49120123527582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4503003038338369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5479487364371523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Infectedthrowaway123,2019/05/06,"I binged then i tried to purge (which i’m bad at) so i drank a cup of salt & water [HELP] Uuuggh my stomach is fucking burning and it hurts so fucking bad

I’m not bulimic and i basically have no gag reflex and i’m not easily disgusted either by visuals, smells, or tastes; which makes purging much much harder for me.

Today is ramadan fasting, in the evening you feast; problem here is, people eat waaaay too much in one sitting, which means binging.

I was fasting before hand so i basically shocked my stomached with too much food. 

So i tried to purge, which fingers and tootbrushes don’t work. so i figured let me get something to help me purge **2 tablespoons of salt in warm water**

Uuuugh my goood, and i was jumping up and down to make myself sick, didn’t work. So i got the good old finger in, didn’t work either.

I just burned my throat, my stomach is burning so much it hurts so bad

I drank cold water which made it worse.


Fucking #HELP WHAT DO I DO TO STOP THIS PAIN???",0.7252307692307696,3.2308738564102555,2.342179487179486,91.62865384615385,89.92307692307692,5.05128205128205,21.85897435897436,6.67199483983844,0.6512051282051288,762,28,154,10,26,248,109,195,0.2,0.735,0.065,-0.9814,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,3,13,14,4,0,3,0,13,20,7,3,0,20,27,16,0,1,6,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,7,8,1,2,0,0,1,6,12,0,1,8,9,23,2,17,18,7,15,1,2,0,3,4,7,3,1,6,98,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827024361854331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31965829917902605,0.0,0.0,0.1085905293985882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305814794483594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842881652676935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431194453415634,0.0,0.0,0.3539326113303612,0.06667330249437298,0.0,0.0,0.10703697727691378,0.10206496325904996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256611902417087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27322789597333563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304944593591056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075191342511099,0.1703673223641408,0.0,0.0,0.13900958808407804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690566581990218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390993730144304,0.0,0.08647487924944998,0.0,0.1357908119242843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847181729666262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210982958523565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824386696475808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669142553943037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096361234261023,0.0,0.0,0.17328372001552753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787145997974978,0.0,0.13005006491834686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MissNietzsche,2019/05/06,"Are there any other tube purgers out there? For those who don't know what tube purging or tube vomiting is, it's basically when you take a ~3 foot/1 meter silicone or vinyl tube, shove it down your throat until one end enters your stomach, and you purge through it. It's essentially hands-free purging through a tube for those whose esophageal sphincters won't open to purge hands-free. Here's a case study that explains it more in-depth:  https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5111253/ 

Yes, if you haven't heard about it before, you're probably in shock right now. And yes, it is real.

Anyway, I'm asking around here because I just recently started doing it (I'm up to a 1/2 inch/13 mm inner diameter tube), but tube purging is basically unheard of in the West. Besides these case studies I posted, the only information found through Google in English about it is in some very short threads on MyProAna, but the mods always either delete or lock the threads, so we can't talk about it there (and I only know a couple of us).

While it's virtually non-existent in Western countries, tube purging is very common among bulimics in Asian countries, so Asian search engines are filled with information about this. The only issue is, I don't speak Japanese or Chinese, and Google translate is really rough, especially for Chinese. Of course, I've searched through Reddit too, but I found basically nothing besides someone associating it with some k-pop singer, I think.

So, I was just wondering, are there any other tube purgers out here in the English Reddit community? This includes anyone living in an Asian country too of course💕! I just haven't seen it mentioned here before, and I can't be the only one.",9.062115384615383,8.575858801282056,8.088717948717951,71.8021153846154,60.34615384615386,10.620512820512822,39.05128205128205,9.827888789773867,3.8331243589743593,1374,61,234,22,16,425,169,312,0.006,0.977,0.016,0.3987,0,0,0,0,0,0,60.0,2,5,0,0,24,1,0,0,13,3,20,3,2,0,0,36,34,19,0,1,12,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,24,12,0,0,9,0,0,2,7,1,0,2,5,4,16,0,35,27,4,32,0,0,1,0,17,21,0,8,8,147,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608822514783335,0.0,0.0,0.20609630248730812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595592640424437,0.0,0.0,0.13489717097429,0.1416636074747463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923735719338493,0.0,0.2578881328615708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16766922017851507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421393132106438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33229788672965904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581618728624277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16655798006849104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380708387849435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540072696898926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20536639127353204,0.4609930030436538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451274516456848,0.0,0.1633790198825569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247859071141589,0.09707640513768546,0.0,0.1496213041152553,0.0,0.0,0.12940900072474412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839406077192614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725637332120913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393452684289634,0.12179709408049284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709671298057806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822764521118059,0.0,0.0,0.2500624392595471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433189573983994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redditnovice143,2019/05/06,"Weight loss bet – Ideal formula My friends bet within themselves that they need to reduce 7.5% of their weight within 10 weeks. As they progressed, people who are close to ideal BMI find it harder to reduce weight than who is far away from ideal BMI.  On the other hand, fat people need to reduce more since this is flat 7.5%.  How to come up with an ideal formula? So that, person weighing normal & FAT person need to put same amount of effort. Flat 7.5% doesn’t seem to work for the people who are close to Ideal BMI.",3.9896999999999987,5.763207170000001,4.153000000000001,87.55150000000002,72.3,5.8000000000000025,18.5,5.985473137389443,-0.10499999999999997,407,6,76,2,8,126,62,100,0.02,0.78,0.2,0.9682,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,9,2,7,0,0,3,0,5,7,3,1,0,19,10,3,0,9,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,8,4,6,0,2,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,6,20,10,3,11,0,1,0,0,9,8,0,3,1,44,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431403814178945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15982387896173653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653464217849715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547739426767368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142650998340788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37840307303872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667161369442415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35379841998420336,0.29706685895367874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100746438171807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486169143854567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071669200776854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364519250161144,0.6214442007695604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384205507843687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RedDevil1159,2019/05/06,"Refeeding? Hi all,

Struggled with anorexia from 16-25, it's only been the last year or so I've maintained a healthy weight but of course the struggle is always somewhat there. The past few months I've been dealing a lot of blood sugar crashes. If I don't eat pretty much every hour, my blood sugar will plummet and I feel horrible. Is this my body still trying to refeed/heal itself? I have abnormal liver enzymes according to my doctor/blood test results, used to have gallstones. I exercise regularly. Trying to get my period back but no luck yet. Any thoughts/advice/similar experiences?",3.5504740061162074,6.457197495412848,4.2992889908256915,80.41725152905202,78.63302752293578,6.569113149847095,28.34938837920489,7.793537801064563,2.252724159021407,473,21,77,8,12,151,85,109,0.14800000000000002,0.797,0.055,-0.8807,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,5,0,8,9,4,2,1,13,11,6,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,4,8,1,8,8,5,9,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,9,48,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024266348711994,0.0,0.0,0.13913425868731644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732391443881918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272632391760129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21093246788131795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20941562973805544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20935573886573092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723833859959562,0.0,0.0,0.2001369702619305,0.0,0.0,0.103451344428329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689447359070496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20148868971072212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667753997943426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17394265661754146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16330887906746494,0.0,0.15040372288932674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560667261963246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19531278783189893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081506220072574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339293490038068,0.0,0.0,0.42778235830950617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778184271652392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670774659996824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24914632426783115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175497474731615
EDAnonymous,gaaaaaylien,2019/05/06,"Doing a 31 day water fast and worried I won't lose enough I decided to fast for the whole of this month and so far its going okay - I ended up having one diet coke at a nightclub the other night bc I thought I was gonna pass out and whenever I get chewing gum or chewy multivitamins I eat too much but I'm just not gonna buy any more. Other than that I'm sticking to it.

This is v tmi but yknow how chewing gum can have laxative effects if you chew too much? Well last night I experienced it first hand and hit the beautiful ED milestone of shitting myself and having diarrhea for the rest of the night. Now I've woken up the next morning and found that I only lost 1.6lbs overnight. I'm stressed to the point where I kinda feel sick with anxiety bc I'm meant to be losing 2-3lbs each night and now I'm scared I won't reach my goal at the end of the month. I think I can kinda feel/ very slightly see that I look a bit smaller since yesterday but I dunno if that's just in my head. 

I'm trying to tell myself the only reason I didn't lose more is bc diarrhea causes dehydration which causes water retention aka water weight and if I drink a lot today it'll go down tomorrow but god knows if I'm right. I think I'm gonna try and force myself to do some cardio at the gym today even though I already black out for a few seconds just by standing up. It's just put me in a sad mood for the day :((

(sorry its so long)",1.8999999999999984,3.3174549471947223,3.779704290429045,89.55102178217821,77.0858085808581,6.564171617161716,22.0209900990099,7.24861992348623,0.6001768712871289,1111,30,247,13,25,376,172,303,0.107,0.8220000000000001,0.071,-0.8583,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,7,15,11,1,2,18,1,15,16,3,5,0,46,42,22,0,4,14,0,4,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,15,13,11,0,11,2,1,4,4,8,1,3,7,8,26,2,28,27,12,42,0,5,3,0,2,15,1,10,22,149,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025004229786745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741026820410376,0.0,0.08336101523884913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896596594945645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238824363277256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055202849213386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674817156433113,0.0,0.11150252926203293,0.0,0.0,0.193028446568564,0.11259414474437596,0.0,0.07197302139558613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101960387788974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268900742240588,0.0,0.11947892488150323,0.0,0.0,0.05693182443468324,0.0,0.1238592301291466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183366979183387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059886533088932735,0.08882430926664152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643416891521643,0.09150654674103488,0.36572543846494204,0.11895257651280675,0.09264157870471397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395609182367114,0.0,0.16020956104137601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588980734766878,0.40904023879587625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738402397849667,0.16575172633090135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301096211167432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954397989151096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203831906586158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305896241922793,0.0,0.0,0.10909701609469287,0.0,0.08683421442357282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185515081530986,0.0901403136724532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219819157807042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482366400787402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952437415657733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964591819249655,0.10706152583720234,0.08650924362104344,0.0,0.0,0.20657981180565588,0.0,0.0,0.14796564676161686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899108678963206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326949309472649,0.0979762511476919,0.0,0.0,0.12166003858675192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066334681558797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arecito,2019/05/06,Chewing and spitting recovery I’ve been chewing and spitting more than usual the last couple weeks. Does anyone have tips for stopping besides just eating the food? Thank you.,6.178000000000001,9.463752800000002,4.830000000000002,78.245,71.0,5.333333333333334,33.33333333333333,6.42735559955562,2.397333333333333,144,7,19,1,3,42,26,30,0.051,0.868,0.08,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,6,2,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323565505785463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676910104134953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908038067922715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400326844459189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018265451094808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27087428889628723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277823256305511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059433354530273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659888497017333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665563667031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,297al,2019/05/06,"Family dinners are the worst I've never posted anything on here before but just needed to rant about my family...

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I was eating dinner with my family because they insist on heaving a family dinner every night (which already gives me so much anxiety) when my mum starts touching my arm and pinching my upper arm fat. She starts criticising how flabby my arm is and then says that my elbow is ""too pointy"" now that I've lost weight.  

My arms are one of my biggest insecurities and when I asked her to stop talking about it she just ignored me and started telling me how I need to lift more weights and do more pushups. I was even wearing a baggy top with sleeves, which means that I can't even hide how disgusting I look with clothes. 

To top it all off, when I put food on my plate my dad said ""really? you're gonna eat that much?"" I know I'm still bordering overweight and probably don't deserve to eat a proper meal but I'd been heavily restricting and purging almost everything for the past week and decided to reward myself with an actual meal for loosing 2kgs. But now I don't know if I can keep it in. I want to purge so badly right now because of their comments. 

I just wish my family would understand that I can't handle them commenting on my body. Especially when their criticisms are so inconsistent - some days they'll tell me I've gotten too skinny and other days (like today) they'll remind me of how disgusting I am.",7.1118979833926455,6.557702562277584,7.463330960854094,74.92031079478058,64.30249110320285,10.767354685646502,32.96820877817319,10.203070172399654,3.185327212336893,1144,40,215,23,15,375,163,281,0.156,0.7879999999999999,0.055,-0.9859,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,6,4,25,9,2,1,6,0,18,21,9,4,2,42,38,25,0,6,7,2,3,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,11,13,14,4,5,0,0,1,5,7,0,1,6,6,42,2,24,28,7,33,0,1,1,0,20,11,0,3,21,145,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.10224080516534756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491242983538214,0.0,0.11561675081500715,0.0,0.0,0.11351869359560908,0.12730751374930896,0.0,0.0,0.08014907556275311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621711899471317,0.0,0.09794618877357032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747891464848995,0.1277341368838805,0.0,0.0891519007386065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11637630479800044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351364917981988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216188508856798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839973310752396,0.0,0.08827358768410175,0.0,0.09416088732452108,0.0,0.4938410829804253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668879356314586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050532240242603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312475278615097,0.0,0.0,0.1151581528124021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05118552932644747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798075585115747,0.0,0.11436927700546973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141256891114063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403661024268048,0.1553718603928736,0.08080539775408245,0.0,0.0,0.09831993082594646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070995140128032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001520971928192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003410899136493,0.0,0.11296022040036273,0.0,0.0,0.1053231980994121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067118606341931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894733562128468,0.09966065045359317,0.08331763383821139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224711026865616,0.0,0.08366978338753495,0.08759275262797812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421048554059223,0.18314790955369564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931009656438666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906968994334648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179630130950271,0.0,0.08404050186627271,0.25516426393833513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048079894133452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442589203017679,0.0,0.12730751374930896,0.0
EDAnonymous,freshgreenavocado,2019/05/06,"Classmate remarked my weight gain I've gained like 25 pounds since March thanks to a binge streak.
Today I went back to school after a holiday of 2 weeks. I was talking with my classmates when this happened:
Classmate: Holy shit she has gained so much weight. 
Me: :) I know
Then another classmate looked at me as if saying 'sorry'.

fuck my life i guess

Then, one of the guys I used to have a crush on entered the classroom, and, mind you, he is skinny as hell. I suddenly started feeling so bad for myself.

There goes my confidence for the next couple of weeks I guess.
YEA GIRL I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT THANKS FOR NOTICING NOW watch me water fasting for the next 21 days love u sweetheart ♡♡",1.8141447368421064,4.468693812030075,2.1135291353383465,94.71510573308271,84.5639097744361,4.528007518796993,21.846334586466163,5.985473137389443,0.2213913533834586,539,18,107,4,16,163,93,133,0.11199999999999999,0.636,0.252,0.9646,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,3,0,7,1,5,9,2,1,0,9,18,9,0,1,1,0,4,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,5,0,2,1,0,2,0,4,0,1,2,7,18,5,16,16,1,20,1,0,2,2,9,2,3,3,17,59,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148646064422735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900347542107924,0.11836236017017265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568529964003137,0.0,0.09142245407721283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07167731695397295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105337582614104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123257651398456,0.14036312388482572,0.12535650340770266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790672080514092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012816495243844,0.06925600394085922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904137075709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279425094501144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431355942917282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420875026969352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015233776110816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139290172478,0.0,0.0,0.09605917471577884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273198603928004,0.0,0.1434670900375971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551298189602005,0.11726403063171192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15868694622697674,0.10033733991576146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394004897879408,0.0,0.2610242161784021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437040760417646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243376082988665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22742010896564194,0.5178707000226979,0.0,0.1314114763599136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maariyas,2019/05/06,"Got triggered by a girl at school even though it logically makes no sense (numbers mentioned) So there’s a girl at school who clearly has a weird relationship with food like when I first met her (prior to having an ED but still having poor body image) she would always make remarks about people’s food and it would really upset me. Anyway for the past year I’ve been on a really big health kick and most of my diet has been plant based and I noticed that she copies me so much with food related choices like if I bring something in for my lunch, she’ll bring in something similar. I hate being copied anyway so this just always pisses me off. So the other day the subject of weight had come up and I’d noticed she’d lost weight beforehand but when she said her weight, I realised she’d lost 11 pounds from when she previously mentioned it. I worked out her bmi because I’m that bitch lol and it puts her at like 18.9 and I honestly have no idea why this fucked with my head because not only is my bmi lower than that (hovers between 15.6/16) but I’ve also lost like 30 pounds total but for some reason my competitive nature is going INSANE",5.627313527180789,6.0678789247787615,5.795094816687738,82.26681415929205,67.27433628318586,8.227054361567639,27.204804045512013,7.957251820313856,1.5539972187104931,911,25,177,10,14,289,138,226,0.19699999999999998,0.7140000000000001,0.09,-0.9844,1,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,5,16,14,4,1,8,1,16,13,3,4,2,30,31,20,0,3,7,0,3,4,0,3,1,1,0,2,11,11,8,0,3,0,1,5,3,9,0,1,9,4,26,5,23,16,4,24,0,3,0,1,19,10,3,3,13,115,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786412830906205,0.1828436324409089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395318566919198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204236975643035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464449257316188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085797116624881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256903126206636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345656673653244,0.3985708417585495,0.0,0.0,0.10157434975094223,0.0,0.0,0.06244245530512589,0.0,0.08787420494899012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084752723891034,0.11275976639453553,0.11678817290867274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403145031112227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21471048791520805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35981287472491474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668004106403998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076812962868432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501786610802021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356215965796812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488469475821728,0.0761710028308583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045111553154477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077287961559293,0.11296611037283052,0.0,0.11796077802914268,0.0,0.0,0.1045128729077223,0.0,0.0,0.22239146896240475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691687612473027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774345137823471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794810423119086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013813400705872,0.0,0.0,0.0991418597311215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998769634172,0.0,0.0,0.15609899713459646,0.0,0.0,0.07075358691384118
EDAnonymous,catunicornmermaid,2019/05/06,I want to give up I tried my best for 20+ years and I’m very tired. That’s all.,-5.3478571428571415,-4.636902095238097,-1.7424999999999995,116.90625000000004,117.57142857142857,2.1,5.25,3.1291,-3.2672,60,0,21,0,4,21,19,21,0.147,0.599,0.254,0.3197,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581472569920018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41879221835516217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501766395669111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963984757070547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36021123520518145,0.25749691153596016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28113307011632377
EDAnonymous,Ravioli_polie,2019/05/06,"A 7 year struggle and 2 surgeries later I started purging when I was in college. It started out with a simple thought of “I wonder if I’m even capable of making myself throw up to feel skinnier.” That was the first step to a 7 year battle with bulimia. 

I can remember a time when my biggest worry was “will the dentist know I make myself throw up and give me away?”. I thought teeth issues were the worst thing that could happen to me. Little did I know.

About 5 years in, I suffered from a host of GI issues including self-induced SIBO and acid reflux. It took me a round of antibiotics to completely start my gut biome over and a year of being on nexium to get relief. It wasn’t until I saw the physical consequences of my bulimia that I realized I had to stop. 

A little over 1 year of being purge free, I thought I had seen the last of what that time had done to my body. Turns out, all the purging is highly likely the cause of yet another health issue: a massive hernia.

2 surgeries later to fix it and I’m hoping I never have to find another ailment resulting from that time of my life. There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about wanting to get rid of the food I consume, but I can say that the physical pain I put myself through and the new incision scars that are there as a reminder... I know never to go down that path again.",3.858987559808616,4.690849214545455,5.2016459330143565,83.54857416267943,71.4,8.116746411483254,27.92822966507177,8.371475516178862,1.8831090909090915,1054,37,213,16,19,353,151,275,0.065,0.902,0.032,-0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,10,9,1,1,21,0,20,8,3,4,3,36,47,12,0,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,15,10,1,1,12,0,1,6,5,5,0,1,16,6,30,5,43,27,2,47,0,1,3,0,2,16,0,3,26,151,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341172145550314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488437752370057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400086969605045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11467948103315173,0.0,0.0,0.1170467497407344,0.0,0.0,0.08913114094247804,0.0,0.0,0.07199507897993404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424095018915302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373359766329815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056445805871856235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203199811384896,0.09495633014391218,0.13498899634114692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664893749651302,0.10709007652902296,0.06344451340338217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871810437142302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866235504760099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794807960867625,0.0,0.11087834243918304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495525432547477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405436303525624,0.09099709523363933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788508164282964,0.05453902461801858,0.22377438486904336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490339190831306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219896464376594,0.10781738824579612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878708073665192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222360244351824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646023515754268,0.0,0.0,0.08877631125071439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645923000167616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23704662442458796,0.0,0.0,0.09333152074035364,0.0,0.1167047179810791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416506500773888,0.07153094136992035,0.0,0.2658761980375096,0.19528509162699034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12403014348367332,0.0,0.12142638353004782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584497694507635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106295711293165,0.0,0.11337035088921515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594450979992187
EDAnonymous,ohnochin,2019/05/06,"""Have you lost a lot of weight? You carry yourself like fat girl."" My max weight was 400 lbs (but I was pregnant)... without being pregnant for a year I was around 350.

I've lost a lot of weight but still need to lose around 30-40 until I'm in the ""normal"" BMI range.

Anyway.

Asshole at work tonight.

""Did you used to weigh a lot?""

Me: ...

""You carry yourself like a fat girl.""

Me (irritated): What does that even mean?

""Uh... idk. I'm paying you a compliment!""

Me: That's not a compliment. At all.

""You look like you've lost a lot of weight!""
(This is coming from a guy I've only seen 3 times in the last week, never knew him before.)

Me: *mumbles and walks off*


Like... do I walk ""like a fat girl""? Is it my crippling low self esteem that's showing through? Can he see my loose skin through my clothing?

ugh, why do strangers feel the need to comment on the way others look?",-1.1553030303030312,0.8044519545454598,0.5764090909090918,101.379196969697,103.3181818181818,3.0284848484848483,16.093939393939394,4.935628992294339,-1.0061387878787875,648,18,149,3,30,207,105,176,0.14300000000000002,0.7929999999999999,0.064,-0.9197,0,0,0,0,0,0,60.0,0,6,0,5,5,13,0,0,14,0,11,9,4,1,2,21,27,4,0,3,4,0,6,5,0,0,3,1,0,5,7,4,8,0,3,1,1,3,3,6,1,0,9,11,18,7,20,17,5,21,0,5,4,0,14,9,0,4,13,83,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20326726332810144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714846989184836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09834553253720847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990909439112844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540681798954484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577267181385742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304416562846785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930620723159948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278883333584124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19174455597819773,0.1277246716326017,0.3738832320455585,0.3882458470239448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436230726065388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693080952437972,0.08805331895085304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186029708693243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868298288478802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097703105048506,0.0,0.11910201371213165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09117462852658482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657221776352673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860440516503906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062116107518564,0.0915785989710917,0.5561029570276879,0.0,0.0,0.10301876767366384,0.0,0.0,0.11005377681337652,0.0,0.08311558738687391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352038132150675
EDAnonymous,rightclickundo,2019/05/06,"Anyone else love a competition? Who can fast longest. Who can restrict more. Who can lose the fastest. 

In a way, it’s accountability.",1.5762499999999982,3.759527458333338,2.9986666666666686,82.11300000000004,107.75,5.253333333333334,25.63333333333333,6.742157984588678,1.6533933333333335,105,5,19,2,5,34,19,24,0.2,0.648,0.151,-0.0935,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,4,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148245643107399,0.4613333006987878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761252584782908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5037134532863066,0.0,0.0,0.4063672945535813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35738669281765434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ambibambi06,2019/05/06,TW I want to die I have recently relapsed *again*.. Only just now put two and two together why I am relapsing. I don't want to be on this planet. I see no point. Humans are so incredibly selfish and greedy to the point we have ruined our only home. There are too many people on this planet. If soon enough life as we know it will be no more or society collapses under climate change pressures what is the point? I just want to drop out of university and waste away..,1.6041935483870944,3.9681542043010793,3.3896881720430123,87.32453225806455,82.2258064516129,6.730752688172044,21.12795698924732,7.908726449838941,1.0685621505376348,363,11,74,7,10,121,67,93,0.262,0.701,0.037000000000000005,-0.9732,0,0,0,0,0,2,12.0,3,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,2,0,10,1,0,0,0,14,15,7,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,2,0,1,9,0,11,12,2,14,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,2,4,55,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691997799306075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19920310867417915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543222124451345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19457075687106185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888865836447095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034882239742716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300631644666766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091304366502632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864308700786103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054788617782326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5340309900551704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18929985326101334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859297648210537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005574988873974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36789580803884175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33320382349918964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699171566426169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peppermintpumpkin,2018/12/20,"A Really Weird Question: Are there any yoga poses that relieve the feeling of disgustingness after you eat? I find that after I eat something like a whole meal, I always stretch since it kind of makes the fullness go away. DAE do it?",5.7067424242424245,6.903982250000002,5.952727272727272,78.50742424242426,67.4090909090909,7.684848484848485,30.57575757575757,7.793537801064563,2.142039393939394,185,7,32,2,3,59,35,44,0.045,0.7979999999999999,0.156,0.595,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,5,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22565345292425704,0.0,0.0,0.1844198466456976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547937932386624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5549941994197647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712281399823842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478645575721998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412465242095807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824047160596155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249070347794775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18102275315422464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30379708391459986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373252729276942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243328090994441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20877683621118145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027761619566379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3211THREELAKES,2018/12/20,"Oof i feel disgusting I feel like i dont even have the right to say i have a problem and need help.
I havent eaten anything and kept it down for 5 days at this point. I'm also expected to go to family gathering tomorrow which involves a lot of food and I am very much not excite.",0.5630054644808737,2.3986007377049177,3.2700819672131125,89.72566939890713,82.60655737704919,7.3453551912568305,21.642076502732237,8.344100000000001,1.2189650273224042,219,7,50,5,6,77,46,61,0.153,0.757,0.08900000000000001,-0.5744,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,11,12,4,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,3,6,2,7,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,3,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21295440912460872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21913644240311853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173694967301906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120934028368157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588400944239185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510373329534929,0.0,0.2692914754623652,0.19023976636320852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220025423892123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134044381592546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849057901313808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009730468732078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22639277867883525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957559888453628,0.19745287903981185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517329505056837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25480642924861896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22741275977399,0.0,0.21176687508974765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197196064777116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zsobotka,2018/12/20,My thighs are wider than a sequoia Ughhhhhhhhh I was shopping today and checked myself out in a mirror.......big mistake. Doesn't help that I've been binging a lot these past few days because my pre-period cravings are messing with my brain.,3.0613333333333337,5.868421355555558,4.7022222222222245,77.38000000000002,79.8888888888889,5.377777777777778,29.0,6.742157984588678,1.6858000000000004,191,9,33,2,5,64,39,45,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.5659,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,2,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,4,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721947285997024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984645077084375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879687576576763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992932527908286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796157282573177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262543049103699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232491868031677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bathroomhaunt,2018/12/20,"i just kinda need a place to talk about this and idk where else i could do it, so background info, i guess: i was (or i guess, am now) addicted to benzos, xanax specifically. ive always struggled with depression, and around the end of my senior year of hs, quite a bit of shit happened that really just wrecked me and so i self medicated a lot. i’m not talking a couple bars every now and then, i was probably taking at least 8 or 10mg of xanax a day, if not more. i would sleep all day, regularly black out, it was the only way i could cope, the only way i could think of to make me not care anymore.  once when i moved to college and no longer had a supply, i felt like it got much better, bc xanax is harder to come by for cheap here. 
we’ll, heres where the ED comes in. i’ve definitely gained weight since dropping xanax. i know i have, bc xanax WRECKED my appetite, and it’s pretty hard to eat when you’re basically hibernating in your bed. naturally, now that i’m home with a steady supply, my ED brain Really Really wants me tl ",3.8672837022132818,4.338439568075117,5.245918846411804,84.55024647887326,71.15962441314554,8.527028839704895,24.60395707578806,8.634040054169528,1.350330918846412,800,20,177,13,14,269,135,213,0.087,0.8440000000000001,0.069,-0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,1,1,0,3,15,6,1,1,11,0,14,13,3,1,1,36,30,14,0,7,8,0,3,1,0,2,7,0,2,1,7,12,3,0,4,1,1,3,4,3,0,0,6,4,23,3,21,19,6,25,0,1,1,0,5,8,1,7,12,106,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761481295297706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503765534812216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519122690540854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237593784527672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164462343339034,0.13781595543259673,0.0,0.0,0.14092003910795026,0.0,0.0,0.12870502364867314,0.0,0.0,0.2174805971372391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30236519283706165,0.1396766568880671,0.0,0.16282229913438095,0.0,0.10872604420234397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916994773048662,0.1054531673421901,0.0,0.11180676581409348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10635845513163894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120542268535095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096168327223802,0.0,0.27812422928411457,0.0,0.11162921791101008,0.0,0.11308178954390748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662402514655918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937546977682311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06167205805363035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732050616391096,0.0,0.0,0.08426286108001173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716850959679174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416785659440253,0.09279726999289344,0.09360167336492502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443618441025465,0.0,0.19201485354727907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318887359700761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842640526797025,0.13610271031587198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342664903113039,0.0,0.0,0.24260817312635705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316906645076227,0.0,0.12957844167144816,0.10442291921574448,0.0,0.1263261929162314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196825929453435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491303052877624,0.2029258667957299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088630846799376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445668984984187,0.200398978127906,0.0,0.15372025556728824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967374166836338,0.0,0.0,0.08129121892501504
EDAnonymous,walkthroughthefire,2018/12/20,"Best places to find ED-friendly recipes? I want to make a list of easy to make ""safe"" recipes. What are the best places to find recipes like this? If you have any good (vegan) recipes, feel free to post them here as well. I prefer to eat mostly whole foods, but I'm not opposed to the occasional processed food. Filling is a must though.",2.6959090909090904,4.7615813181818245,2.466666666666669,96.97,76.72727272727272,5.612121212121212,24.63636363636364,6.42735559955562,0.4455636363636368,261,9,58,2,6,77,49,66,0.0,0.764,0.23600000000000002,0.9013,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,2,3,7,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,2,1,14,9,4,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,8,9,8,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,33,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007158540734362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4014565318834339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571910703595727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967129196595244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496384641469169,0.0,0.46257395944347596,0.0,0.14777634817984053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16042996067256468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934458853890006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553512208781736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996772637242776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318579706537244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792386480778447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281723888802705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171976586650276,0.0,0.0,0.2135484663150776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amborgg,2018/12/20,"Not going 100% makes me feel like a complete failure when I shouldn’t. 80% should still be relevant. I get it into my mind like “I’m going to fast one day, then eat the next etc etc” but then the fasting day comes and I’m like ffff I’m starving. So instead of eating what I really want, I’ll skimp it. 

Like example: could really eat a bagel with cream cheese but Instead I compromise and have a lite buttered English muffin. I feel like I should be okay with this.. I mean, it’s a difference of a couple 100 calories, honestly it’s probably a 400 calorie difference which should feel like an accomplishment ...But it makes me feel like I’ve fucked the whole day over by just eating.  Just ranting. ",2.512909698996655,4.675746768115946,3.684782608695652,87.55168896321074,77.69565217391303,7.144704570791527,24.3835005574136,8.139509932561175,1.4812691192865106,546,19,110,10,13,177,81,138,0.083,0.723,0.19399999999999998,0.9192,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,7,10,1,0,10,1,8,5,0,2,0,26,24,9,0,6,6,0,4,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,6,4,0,5,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,6,10,9,8,17,3,15,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,17,63,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257311591935736,0.1248485378424679,0.0,0.0,0.0950722053158098,0.13175492532942648,0.0,0.2303818011796428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24881738934309186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4873764076892118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656016186094739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408328756176813,0.3402706298921843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008350584565528,0.06221210464868095,0.0,0.1353468549974179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072203838037033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896782206833096,0.0,0.0,0.12970827478939667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023244675389586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663828876062538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068873201238036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838367436851408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525658018394462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509395596819237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023389469654666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294369409863238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apricaught,2018/12/20,"Anybody know of an app that lets you count exchanges instead of calories? Like I'm in quasi-recovery but it's just so much easier to use cronometer or fitbit. If I could just enter in a ballpark amount with hints about portion size and it would calculate exchanges for me maybe I wouldn't be weighing out fuckin spinach arugula mix again. 

Also wtf is up with fitbit and its calculations that I burned 100 calories walking .8 miles for 22 minutes?! That's not how that fucking works for a 5'3"" chick with a bmi under 20!! Anybody manage to get their fitbit accurate?",6.197343124165556,7.211732392523363,5.8106809078771695,80.6284112149533,66.19626168224299,7.983444592790388,33.97730307076102,7.957251820313856,2.564416288384513,454,20,80,5,7,140,82,107,0.049,0.882,0.069,-0.4115,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,1,8,3,2,0,4,0,6,3,0,2,0,18,11,8,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,16,6,3,9,0,0,0,2,3,6,2,2,2,53,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955525262693289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29507909154339873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341670215715998,0.19308999156752404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031111822600528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779199936794022,0.0,0.1805578349808629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712921992512953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27168339586593593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31919795434467624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690582172636325,0.0,0.0,0.26253861410288665,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,That_child,2018/12/20,Haven’t gone home yet Uni finished a week ago but I haven’t gone home yet. I’m scared to. I’ve made plans with friends and family but they all revolve around eating. I want to see my parents and siblings (haven’t been home since term started) but at the same time I know I’m not going to be able to restrict. 😥😥  I hate this. I hate myself for putting me in this situation. ,-0.6021363636363652,1.5924011500000006,1.1113636363636379,100.04818181818185,93.75,3.9090909090909096,18.522727272727273,5.565023196281405,-0.5364999999999998,292,9,69,2,11,94,55,80,0.207,0.727,0.067,-0.9294,1,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,2,1,2,0,5,1,0,1,1,14,17,5,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,1,1,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,4,1,9,1,9,12,3,15,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,8,37,11,0,0.19157663798207694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982113049821598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054382440993934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603072781576847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18060140440534825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801163527855488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10887741825056914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782845355468686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5765009643009317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528551007303444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812744469879612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21272318491252315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925874349944524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918016354347703,0.0,0.15266177696078145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847417463712607,0.21534016783833265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559893040325838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117098782258613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299686466136542,0.0,0.1536712232645573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkribbon007,2018/12/20,"Gained 4kg on my holiday 🙃 So I left weighing 52kg and now I'm 56.6kg. Looks like coffee, Coke Zero and tuna cans for me from now on ",-2.2696875,-0.573443593749996,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,94.3125,4.45,14.25,5.985473137389443,-0.8811500000000003,103,2,27,1,4,38,26,32,0.0,0.747,0.253,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,4,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7454495513865568,0.0,0.0,0.33519375603544344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5761511192841968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwallcaloriesaway,2019/06/08,"Man do I love being paranoid with a house full of people I just drank and binge ate in my own home that's full of people and the group was talking about portion control and ""over dosing"" on food and my paranoid ass lied to my husband so he could watch the kid while I ran upstairs and puked up everything I just had because OBVIOUSLY they were talking about my fat ass eating practically ALL of the pizza bombs plus a fucking Mickey ice cream bar like the lardo I am..

Now I'm ""putting the kid to bed"" but tbh I just wanna hide in my bed for the next few years and maybe die hopefully?? 

Am I the only one with two inner voices constantly going at each other? One totally logical and the other is fucking insane??",3.665531370038412,5.178183197183099,4.817784891165172,83.51396286811783,72.66197183098592,7.135467349551858,26.289372599231754,7.686295010490155,1.4856535211267603,562,19,108,7,11,185,98,142,0.157,0.7909999999999999,0.053,-0.9279999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,1,7,5,2,0,10,0,9,13,3,1,3,23,18,11,1,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,3,3,11,7,1,1,1,0,3,0,2,0,3,6,3,13,3,18,10,8,17,0,0,2,5,10,9,4,1,6,77,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647857022464655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064860091478404,0.21430874347546072,0.15255918041334912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830742605241447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955191453245484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717273987080636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23105067913263275,0.0,0.0,0.3532946221885639,0.0,0.0,0.10859328024074354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916654888323233,0.1897822564509645,0.0,0.2204768335285935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335041387653824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245416324872215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19196220686248325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321221621075944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589570060673471,0.1453224248937338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649370213330111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19208483848384444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071603940177177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866541512015488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230471168090316
EDAnonymous,w_alnutcreek,2019/06/08,"aaaaaaaaa I don’t know if relapse is the right word, because I don’t know if I ever stopped participating in disordered eating. that’s to say, I stopped purging (through vomiting and fasting) but started binging again. 

I don’t know why, but my appetite has been through the roof recently and I keep fluctuating between the same 10 pounds and I hate it and my body so much. today I couldn’t stop myself from eating even though I had already had breakfast, and had way more with lunch than I needed to, and I feel disgusting. I want a gym membership but finances suck and I want to save to see my boyfriend and don’t know if id have the time to go because I work 6 days a week and just fuck 

I downloaded my fasting tracker again. I’m hating brunch with a friend tomorrow, but might just have a coffee and tell her I’m feeling sick. get a bunch of monster to stock in my room. I don’t know. 

I just spent $50 on “healthy” groceries but now I don’t want to eat them at all. 

ugh",3.2759666666666685,4.499979330000006,4.124000000000001,89.24366666666668,73.2,7.133333333333335,29.833333333333336,7.554174236665415,1.6510333333333334,766,33,166,9,15,246,117,200,0.18100000000000002,0.728,0.09,-0.9694,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,10,8,5,0,9,0,16,10,1,0,2,45,39,20,0,8,11,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,2,12,6,4,7,1,2,1,7,6,0,0,5,4,26,2,19,32,5,24,0,0,1,1,5,6,2,4,16,105,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251792795855418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850279695435824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351990733301496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891338736617313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840038069698098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242693241568593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128625555889854,0.12501865778777854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976603402904564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678053243095142,0.12777271362640247,0.07220890514258109,0.0,0.0785478024658216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729070862575783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284720195365287,0.0,0.0,0.3797824002722783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661873443582607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160009020476456,0.10248079989768638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646548303574166,0.0,0.0,0.11803039612240795,0.0,0.109909963615446,0.0,0.0,0.11013529980294233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782559295610553,0.0,0.0,0.3466486916687687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080143871092328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579040616321594,0.0,0.08059123360339297,0.0,0.13100671007092635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24455912568348526,0.10970448945479286,0.1108635480489318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471282841459727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006183652011164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cuteproof,2019/06/08,"people’s “weight loss tips” does anyone else get mildly annoyed when you overhear people giving the stupidest weight loss advice to each other? “you should eat -blank-!!! it helps you lose weight!”  or i’ve had friends try to eat only one kind of food because “their body will start burning fat to get the other stuff it needs” or the classic “eat more veggies and fruit and you will lose weight!” 

i always feel the urge to explain that weight loss/gain is pure math in it’s core and it’s hardly related to how healthy you eat. like, try losing weight while eating 2k calories of fruit per day and tell me how well that goes for you SHARON",5.5570121951219535,6.3678680650406525,4.604623983739838,89.4342530487805,67.53658536585365,6.800406504065043,25.944105691056908,5.985473137389443,0.7226105691056909,504,13,100,2,8,148,81,123,0.142,0.747,0.111,-0.6562,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,6,1,5,4,10,1,0,4,0,5,16,2,2,1,14,12,10,0,2,2,0,8,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,9,5,15,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,10,9,4,9,8,2,5,0,5,0,0,13,1,0,2,5,50,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187179364272202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822922369801186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657384927029417,0.09633097051371567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057311559537973726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443108919745116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06063283695638876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227443505768113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810115335580646,0.07853868586779675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04753754552105036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368507295256275,0.0,0.07263688143491936,0.0,0.09823943675835572,0.09018915239527933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422027872845117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630172493232264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790367228910382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04593169191947767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31554110060374785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0697120115629453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06370798440597543,0.07150375206732766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035834697022575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654533214140115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762634998713604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217452733237725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766200575676262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6869202984301344,0.08453208573604716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowedturner,2019/06/08,"i am a dumbass So, basically I've been binge eating in the past week or so, and I haven't lost any weight and didn't gain either. I am such a failure, not only did I not lose that much weight before my binge circle started, BUT I am also failing in my personal life so that is just fucking great!! But no,  I will start going to the gym every fucking day, I am unemployed at the momement so I really have no excuse. I am just so angry at myself.

On a lighter note, my dumbass self lowkey fell from the eliptical today. I didn't really hurt myself and no one saw so it's fine.",1.941900826446279,3.3782116611570245,4.537264462809919,84.08407851239672,77.01652892561984,7.815206611570248,22.843801652892562,8.548686976883017,1.440516694214876,445,13,94,9,10,158,74,121,0.231,0.64,0.129,-0.9426,2,0,0,0,0,2,14.0,0,0,0,4,10,8,2,0,7,0,13,6,0,0,0,11,20,13,0,0,8,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,8,6,0,1,6,3,15,2,7,13,2,13,0,4,1,2,3,5,2,1,6,69,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497892150215604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737507656003216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593843279609017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079741850597857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166166203705468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157814094070522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463243170637558,0.0,0.0,0.10645079561108003,0.0,0.0,0.20650645613652654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051584986769316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230036283843435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095484465669102,0.20446754588371016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769208172514802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269239646496548,0.14245529480069294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880557626825042,0.0,0.1635491109242632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399871203385001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540188780565707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26515349569033103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754498636048294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024625162761449,0.4561785490888388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,this_isnt_me_bed,2019/06/08,"No one actually wants to listen I have opened up to my SO a few times about my struggles with eating. Things in my life have put me smack dab in the middle of disordered eating again and he said he wanted to me to talk to him any time I was feeling I was struggling. That was a couple of weeks ago, and I've only brought it up a couple of times when I was really struggling. Nowhere near as much as I actually think about/struggle with it. 

I can ready tell he is annoyed with me and doesnt want to deal with my shit.

No one ever does. My therapist even seems sick of my shit.",3.6101033057851235,4.061632851239672,4.7418078512396695,88.00543904958677,71.72727272727273,7.7028925619834725,25.042355371900825,7.645422480735847,1.0102636363636357,449,12,101,5,8,148,73,121,0.21,0.759,0.031,-0.9675,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,3,3,4,0,9,6,2,0,1,15,18,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,8,2,0,3,0,0,2,3,6,0,2,6,3,16,0,22,12,2,17,0,0,0,0,9,7,2,1,8,69,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.25727273974917003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168496272343903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964146883313141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29171052548763504,0.0,0.0,0.1358996441557377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107604240761394,0.0,0.11535573197421944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697675772685945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706523403141854,0.119237870278991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06665166835839101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310768772259803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690216316939046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864798873674778,0.10025432144075992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251454588194225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844466537299296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539009520667596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000310506727932,0.0,0.0,0.2706207046617557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.55122353475781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595115274962134,0.1152156528746276,0.0,0.0,0.1530520677232891,0.08757471419393807,0.08446431949922051,0.0,0.0,0.2305942303669005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23325085887013525,0.0,0.1057372842969322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mingelingen,2019/06/08,"i binged. now i'm panicking. this is my first post, please help This is my first post ever lol, so don't judge me too hard. (Literally wrote the entire thing in a Word doc, before pasting it here.)

I’m pretty sure I’ve never experienced this bad of a binge, in which it physically hurts, in my life. Aside from the fact that I want to end myself in shame for letting me splurge so bad, my stomach hurts and is twice the size than what it usually is. After having dealt with a strict calorie restriction plan, I’ve begun binging more often and I’m afraid I’m about to develop a binge eating disorder. According to my Lifesum (I’m never really sure if this one’s accurate though, as I feel I have eaten more today. If you have any better calorie counting apps, please comment down below), I’ve ate approx. 1800-2000 calories. 

Anyway, after having binged, I stepped on the scale and it said 46.5 kg (approx. 102 lbs), whereas I normally weight 43.5-44 kg (95-97 lbs). And I wonder if this weigh is permanent or water-weight only/post-binge weight? And if this would greatly slow down my progress?

Upset and terrified as it is, I just need to know, even if it’s bad news. Thank you!",3.0272844827586205,4.939874745689657,4.192620689655172,85.66444827586207,75.25,7.053793103448276,23.66896551724138,7.908726449838941,1.246373448275862,919,28,181,14,20,300,143,232,0.155,0.733,0.11199999999999999,-0.9277,0,0,0,1,0,0,47.0,0,2,0,5,12,13,0,3,8,1,13,8,1,0,6,32,28,17,0,9,7,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,16,7,6,1,3,0,0,1,3,8,0,4,4,6,19,5,22,22,2,25,0,2,0,0,6,8,0,8,14,109,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206400052384281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30227892982245497,0.0,0.0,0.10268661598889224,0.0,0.0,0.10672835254693706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830545822890705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348194920531845,0.0,0.0,0.10688335498806054,0.0,0.0,0.07970553700389693,0.10915859341006737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061017547104899726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529434412250808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304601168642124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810223304914772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088675881043296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583728819322957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663205210313396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233996602751694,0.08523721703249297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947992376753541,0.18614595494339112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182371208126775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177336244103019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519915277639158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649326081035653,0.0,0.0,0.3467235207271769,0.12277114863443013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773083074846759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479076562076787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274719092179361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110249436661128,0.0,0.0,0.08017195038230462,0.0,0.11856382077401745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143869919232232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13290786037884592,0.0,0.07117798958328715,0.0,0.0,0.4408535527797944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308682651296841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857249585394872,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Risperdoll,2019/06/08,"Accidentally rested my foot on my scale while peeing and got 23.6lbs Why the fuck was my first thought ""fuck I wish""",2.1471212121212133,5.020300681818182,2.2881818181818185,91.71893939393942,87.63636363636363,4.751515151515153,20.96969696969697,6.42735559955562,0.17522424242424295,93,3,19,1,3,28,19,22,0.32299999999999995,0.584,0.09300000000000001,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,4,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095907216634003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.672964508326889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910982018251358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28894968139144805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328424218575658,0.0,0.4185448682796207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anniesun42,2019/06/08,"Wants to be alone but is never alone but fears being alone (rant and possible triggers) This might be hella triggering so sorry 

TL;DR hate myself because I’m genuinely a fat pig 🙂🙃🙂

I am at an absolute loss. When I was in high school and single I didn’t have to worry about people calling me out for not eating bc I was alone all the time. I was still super fat (still above 200 ugh) but no one would yell at me to eat or to have a meal at every mealtime. If anything I kept getting compliments about how good I looked since losing so much weight! It felt awesome, and I eventually got down to 170 my freshman year of college. 

Now that I’m in a long term relationship, I am constantly being forced to eat meals. And because I don’t want to and it makes me feel bad and throws me into depression, I end up binging even more. I’ve gained LITERALLY SIXTY EIGHT POUNDS in the relationship. 

BUT HERE’S THE THING!!! A few months ago, my boyfriend and I had a huge fight and during the calm-down discussion he confessed that he thought I was getting too big. He has since said he regrets saying it, but I can’t get over the hypocrisy of it all! HE KEEPS DEMANDING I EAT LIKE A FAT PIG BUT DOESNT WANT TO FUCK ME BECAUSE IM GETTING TOO FAT??!!! It’s so frustrating and my weight has been going up and up because he demands that I eat with him all the time (he isn’t overweight, he’s very healthy and in good shape) but my weight goes up and up and up and UP AND UP!! I bet that if I stood on a scale I would be 270-280 right now. I have no idea how to stop eating and binging and just freaking the fuck out every time I consume anything. 

My dilemma is that I genuinely love this guy, and he genuinely loves me, but I’m spiraling and getting huge and he guilt trips me any time I try to diet. I’m so frustrated but leaving the relationship is not an option because he is the man of my dreams and he treats me so well otherwise. And I know him wanting me to eat is out of love and kindness, but he doesn’t understand that my body can’t eat regular foods because it will just store all of it. 

I understand my binging is on me, but I also don’t realize what I’m doing until I’m already done and then I want to throw it up but I can’t because that will just cause more trouble than it’s worth. I hate every inch of myself and I tried explaining this to him, but he just gets mad and frustrated because he wants to “fix” me but it’s not that simple and he doesn’t understand. LOVE THIS ANA/BINGE ED YAAAAAY 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃",2.6194209039548007,3.7070233314500953,4.142805555555558,89.00494279661021,74.63088512241055,7.343898305084746,25.892702448210922,7.822599999999999,1.2615479849340874,1963,67,439,27,40,655,230,531,0.183,0.6709999999999999,0.146,-0.9671,0,4,0,0,1,0,48.0,0,0,0,4,24,31,9,2,18,0,41,27,5,6,5,93,83,55,0,11,24,0,5,1,0,5,5,3,0,2,24,32,20,3,11,1,3,4,16,19,1,2,14,9,54,12,50,59,10,55,1,4,1,6,35,31,2,6,21,271,78,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055792631296943535,0.0,0.0,0.26074798874115235,0.06945600309448836,0.05033320250705167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042801449503053285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035887350488902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05255238296957347,0.3069417725074842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991230015716596,0.0,0.0,0.0642689140538037,0.0,0.0,0.0646568553874674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801592507917807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054210245280707337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440960954097484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5152277617189251,0.0,0.0,0.055746277198724235,0.0,0.0,0.04157136497622805,0.0,0.1590893327168143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082514927111885,0.03182442294476928,0.0,0.06043239907539129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610745999806022,0.0,0.0,0.11637427955929483,0.19730173388123728,0.0,0.035770328669911484,0.1055823966318154,0.05033897493736938,0.0,0.0,0.06232062820136215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428070379218027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649970733895362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710517503092233,0.06798614541859277,0.0,0.0,0.05594408312025324,0.0,0.0655424641853845,0.03459025167941133,0.0,0.0,0.06664451418313437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030749370296516757,0.0,0.0,0.05570003807564957,0.05285386077343589,0.0704139106047938,0.0,0.0,0.227223713519868,0.0,0.04201302825568196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676953594237145,0.0,0.0,0.05023821456162714,0.0,0.046268240554514034,0.0,0.04854331156078828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042649863775502096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363476408899144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07095554427858805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027224480351847,0.0,0.05375053062974596,0.059870480683020574,0.050052520875211386,0.0,0.0636987759313543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104129458680167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07045632714996942,0.0,0.0,0.10052814480452392,0.05262077038748536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04181462838693231,0.0,0.0,0.049967436001073236,0.14680359339964272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546443912174069,0.0,0.0,0.19656869793049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051932202263730326,0.22274233091959372,0.0,0.0,0.2299323815204911,0.05659073936991989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391876137415901,0.0,0.08942173086024889,0.0,0.0,0.040531382792622
EDAnonymous,groobi-,2019/06/08,"Is my ED a lie? I asked my brother and he said that it's just a phase. My ""ED"" is a lot less intense and extreme than other anorexics and I have less damage on my body. I'm so confused.",-1.5300000000000011,0.27640409523809595,1.7336190476190474,97.59471428571429,91.38095238095238,4.312380952380953,20.304761904761907,5.6839178017228535,-0.1907580952380945,140,5,35,1,5,50,30,42,0.152,0.823,0.026000000000000002,-0.7088,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,6,6,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,0,2,5,3,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837041909613103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747207427286172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398795562620567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921710063652946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nivegan,2019/06/08,"it’s never going to end i started this year at my high weight of 120 pounds, i’m currently 104 pounds. i told myself once i hit the underweight bmi (18.5) i would get better. what was i thinking. i just want to get smaller and smaller. now i’m telling myself once i hit the bmi of 17.7 i’ll stop, knowing damn well i’m not going to stop. i can’t stop and i need help but i don’t feel sick enough to get help. lately it feels like that it’s never going to end.",-0.9438004569687736,1.1159516039603936,1.342970297029705,99.27200304645851,92.36633663366337,3.8997715156131,15.690022848438687,5.369823440869387,-0.9174697638994668,356,8,85,2,13,119,60,101,0.115,0.747,0.138,0.29600000000000004,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,2,17,23,3,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,2,1,3,4,0,0,3,5,1,1,0,2,3,13,3,8,18,1,17,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,13,43,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636088821397694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29314689860808285,0.1709935759210463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735163951835205,0.11822482218498802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593823044501241,0.0,0.282152318648903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218465399630015,0.17484739739002295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094800147591307,0.0,0.18667792782116865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084918840806181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270742316739032,0.2552694448363386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35247912086195765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713341858621384,0.0,0.0,0.4150667026554125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464400428109345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603817351570413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581310924063832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760924373037254,0.0,0.0,0.2015200772720688,0.1487937900955474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755808812309608,0.0,0.0,0.10656899221806752
EDAnonymous,livefortomorrow19,2019/06/08,Peanut butter problems.. Seriously though why does peanut butter have to have 140 calories per spoon?!,7.0031250000000025,11.002513062500006,4.492500000000003,77.1025,74.625,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.855725,83,3,11,1,2,23,13,16,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.2481,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703974825588501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5143450989951934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5281220195681795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4850386170081186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HolyPopcorn,2019/06/08,"ED vision Does anyone else notice ED symptoms that others don't? There's this one girl in my grade who has talked about how hard-boiled eggs are sO lOw CaLoRie!1!!1! and I've never (or at least don't remember) having seen her eat anything but oatmeal, apples, sushi, hard boiled eggs, and peppers and hummus. She's also always looking at either food porn or those calorie comparison posts on IG (you know, similar looking foods, 250 v 500 calories or something similar). She talks about how after sports practice she eats a ton which sounds like A. restricting and binging or B. she's not telling the truth and she just doesn't eat much (I suspect this). She also talks about how when her season is over she continues eating the same way and gains weight (spoiler alert: she doesn't). Sounds like she's trying to avoid suspicion of an ED ngl.",4.245262206148284,6.585512151898732,3.9721880650994574,86.68506329113924,73.0506329113924,6.286437613019893,25.20976491862568,7.1686216300943375,1.1709587703435806,672,22,121,7,14,203,112,158,0.115,0.8009999999999999,0.083,-0.6605,0,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,12,5,0,1,5,0,8,12,0,3,2,25,12,18,0,0,8,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,7,6,10,2,3,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,1,7,14,3,11,11,5,13,0,1,3,1,18,6,0,4,7,73,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202459258584565,0.11458192862455653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628682125048144,0.14109546108173054,0.11331981536517965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205069282266764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5636280315755132,0.11503519622167822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33302784557886644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24671399024119164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567928948830195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13455181059802498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23127571704996244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012293175398789,0.0,0.10620689789650734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15677851672818333,0.0,0.0,0.09331274652806447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188371306228494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599338022885936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060123487374244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312864264579786,0.0,0.33204716596447165,0.12036059391184288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349293103148136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930414113007092,0.0,0.1676880856982543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IHateBloodElves,2019/06/08,"3 weeks of recovery ruined. (TW) Hi there people.

For at least more than 3 weeks, I tried to go back in shape and take finally care of the damages I've done to my body. I'm overweight because of bulimia even though I purge 90% of the time I binge. 

I go approx. 4 to 6 times a week to the fitness and have a full workout routine every 2 sessions. Today I went shopping to get some summer clothes, tried them on and felt so fucking disgusting about my body. It obviously triggered a binge/purge session tonight.

I sweat tears and blood and I look like shit. I hate myself and want to die.",1.688022598870056,3.9124561355932213,2.9450000000000003,91.46264124293785,80.86440677966101,5.628248587570622,25.08757062146893,6.816661863887847,0.9348960451977404,456,18,95,5,12,147,84,118,0.21,0.715,0.075,-0.955,0,0,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,1,0,6,8,4,0,6,0,2,7,5,1,1,11,14,8,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,1,2,1,3,0,6,0,0,3,2,12,2,16,11,4,19,0,2,1,1,2,6,2,1,11,52,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847749620867242,0.0,0.10978071878610908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000770569893933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361296512095715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690418100659936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429380072647972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894723330038025,0.0,0.15173293752474154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291389579901334,0.19727894105638305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648958470354144,0.0940891860858276,0.0,0.20469771112708346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17780082368184522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798249767817526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512295906530545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485119184968485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848589994124357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540468328241667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17693674719112693,0.0,0.21002294828936666,0.0,0.17070352608194742,0.0,0.0,0.2445375220398216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622128965019527,0.0,0.4333701355219653,0.0,0.0,0.16694451391672707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunshinefunshinebear,2019/06/08,Is anyone else scared of eating non pre-packaged food? I know logically that some blueberries aren’t going to make me fat but because I don’t trust the calorie count of fast food at all (like who really knows how much oil they used to make the fries?) I also don’t know trust anything else without a set nutrition label like blueberries. Dumb I know because I can just use a food scale but I just don’t trust it!!! It leads me to prefer eating prepackaged food like chips or buy frozen blueberries because it feels safer to see a calorie label and a number of servings per container. Am I the only one with this dumb illogical thought process,4.982598566308244,6.424662887096777,5.1994623655913985,82.32474910394265,69.32258064516128,8.091756272401435,29.10035842293907,8.515128840125781,2.132757347670251,514,19,96,8,9,162,79,124,0.086,0.721,0.193,0.9385,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,4,9,2,1,7,0,7,7,1,6,1,25,19,6,0,1,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,7,1,8,0,1,2,5,3,0,1,1,3,10,6,10,18,3,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,2,4,52,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874003526735566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507764829473153,0.1393235798055249,0.1118967415290033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24866929907856844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782749864375678,0.2271811611565786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875360002957544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.657691342659031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727834922775154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29891562628059937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929315703826475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815302006094772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099958076558937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921409220970246,0.10341594872781204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710976930336199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13613579384726626,0.0,0.10835534404897328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079498319665794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234879378300952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107610473554526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UncagedBeast,2019/07/13,"I drank 500 calories extra today and I don't feel like absolute shit. So I have struggled with anorexia for a while and today I went out and drank approximately 500 kcals more than my TDEE, and for the first time in a while, I don't feel like absolute shit. Now if I'm realistic I probably will cut my TDEE by 500 in the next two days (probably just maintain tomorrow because I'm going out) but still the fact that I don't feel bad about drinking 20% of an American pound makes me somewhat so happy, especially knowing that I needed to gain weight!",8.310000000000002,6.36138532110092,8.609247706422018,72.16671559633028,62.761467889908246,12.022752293577984,37.39633027522936,10.793553405168565,3.810510458715596,436,17,86,9,5,145,71,109,0.1,0.767,0.133,0.8644,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,6,8,3,1,6,0,5,6,2,1,1,18,17,10,0,2,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,4,1,0,2,3,5,0,2,3,4,11,3,12,13,3,17,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,13,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199863730404475,0.11097196862566072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740293467238397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833323000763385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761398426057957,0.2601036865386725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484602534740158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034594609514142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378858726710105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004629328261916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778744223923801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151538489847888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498287644517964,0.0,0.0,0.19360522401844932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925471558354794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737298736936959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14538009655849618,0.0,0.0,0.19031129037181005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615097207391136,0.0,0.34511171998360946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782995250575892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167982172139375,0.0,0.16875605812609595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,salsa-mama,2019/07/13,"Having friends who dont eat a lot is so triggering Sorry couldn’t think of a title 😭
I’ve been trying to recover for a while now, my last relapse was really bad and it made me realize that I don’t need to live like this. But I have so many friends who weigh barely over 100 lbs and just hardly eat. I’m nearly 100% they don’t have eating disorders, but I could be wrong. They just don’t eat, they forget about it and never get hungry I guess. It makes me so jealous because I WISH I could be like them.  I wish I could just forget about food entirely and never have to worry about what I eat. I see them and it makes me feel like recovery isn’t worth it, I’d much rather be barely 100 lbs and suffering than be my cw (or greater). It’s terrible logic, I know it is.",3.1126552106430125,3.5470695670731733,4.686740576496675,88.01568736141908,72.84146341463416,8.158758314855879,23.44567627494457,8.296473431620573,1.0751780487804878,595,14,136,9,11,201,91,164,0.15,0.6990000000000001,0.151,-0.1855,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,5,0,11,10,1,0,3,0,21,7,0,4,2,35,34,13,0,8,7,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,12,6,7,0,5,0,1,0,8,5,0,0,3,3,21,5,11,23,3,7,0,1,1,0,9,2,0,3,8,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352213317985956,0.07557998623577886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29697533375137936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209732786883933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453092678638944,0.0,0.0,0.6343370408805795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269044264592219,0.08857476934009452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992291813792075,0.0,0.19158070529989996,0.0,0.06477694323679631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658324068488992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106603202539284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813880624888329,0.1010641639635853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18171813876884568,0.0,0.10948085416712633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540744732337408,0.0,0.1173174201522882,0.16552163995653765,0.12570113190762566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114309742063167,0.09193316177175076,0.19124944980313716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942784078306905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987998370784843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138790838215763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944445664466418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417754389962963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28515281342338905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259125876651195,0.0,0.0,0.1355579206150651,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,setniessesed,2019/07/13,"Catastrophic binge ft. 10 lbs of weight gain I made a comment in the daily thread but it was super long and I felt kind of extra posting it, lol. I feel like I use this sub as a diary sometimes. I just feel like inhuman trash because I just finished a 3 day binge that made me gain about 10 lbs in water and food weight and most likely some real weight too. Guess who is therefore now doing an extended """"""fast""""""  🙃 and I'm visiting family so I'll have to be convincing them I'm eating. Idk what is going to happen to me when the semester starts; I'm going to be stressed out 24/7 and probably binge urges are going to be 1000x as strong. I keep telling myself maybe I can eat over maintenance and try to find a good gym program that will turn the food into actual muscle. I've never really known what I was doing in the gym though and I sure can't afford any type of personal trainer. I need to do some research if I want a shot at any kind of semi stable food and exercise regimen (after 6 years of this shit who knows but I have to keep hoping). But before all that I still need to lose some fat so I don't look like a marshmallow when muscle builds up. I have until the end of August to lose like 30 lbs lmao 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻😊🔫

What's more when I was stuffing my face sitting in my car near a park a cute af ranger saw me and told me (very kindly) that I needed to move. I died",2.103141082519965,3.2840025646258546,4.044877255249928,88.8300399290151,76.0748299319728,7.153859804791483,21.286010056196393,7.7425588080867325,0.6941229222123626,1070,25,239,15,23,365,173,294,0.08,0.7340000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.9868,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,6,12,19,1,1,14,1,19,13,3,4,3,43,46,22,1,6,6,0,6,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,13,11,10,2,6,3,0,6,3,4,0,0,8,8,27,15,32,34,7,34,0,2,2,0,8,10,1,7,21,137,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.09638202951807227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432945446986247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060207249599107775,0.0,0.08404316764411518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06369633592183993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250421751114483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20212593546187704,0.0,0.0,0.08747796034683555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310843309592462,0.0,0.09987879902721687,0.1411178676113056,0.0948314986332792,0.0,0.09027095349735828,0.0,0.35828717372867275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839413590750432,0.08284080274057459,0.0,0.0,0.10880262980356756,0.0,0.08733904631679001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980975956486057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557672120015874,0.0,0.30855088650695583,0.054279582724635365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24126204749959645,0.0,0.0,0.08740540116659866,0.08293913368302203,0.22098929612084445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691083577066026,0.0,0.0,0.09922440222158177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497334712731332,0.0,0.2197027186519933,0.0761749500990158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623925277537732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459117496475572,0.0,0.10648718268002992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241810123896803,0.06327246237153472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138257465730978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768276904131608,0.0,0.06990756235202808,0.0,0.07887519585928814,0.0,0.11313689484154832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308642424635903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632642904283568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703775871741108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437579245633518,0.0,0.06705609048927906,0.10742978304475198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530269764371237,0.0,0.08149285223398578,0.058255145069405836,0.0,0.0,0.3608136141791241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636025018154314
EDAnonymous,TheFamilyChantel,2019/07/13,"Doc added ""active ED"" to my chart 40 y/o F

Saw my psychiatrist for a med change 2 days ago and while he was updating the visit notes (typing, but he was saying everything out loud as wel) he said ""aaaaaand I'm going to add *Active Eating Disorder* here"".  Then he glanced at me like: ""right""? 
I just shrugged and made a (most likely) Horrible Face of Misery.


I know it's necessary medical information.  I know he is right.
I know I've been in denial.
I know The Chart won't call anyone or follow me around with a megaphone screaming ""EATING DISORDERED HUMAN"".

It just made me feel so sad.  So failed.
The Chart holds so many embarassing and fucked up facts already, for *whateverreason* but this latest addition really got me.

I waifed my way out of the building and cried in my car.  
Now I feel so embarassed and exposed and even MORE worthless.  Whaaaa.

That's all.",1.6240259740259724,4.30930078787879,2.9930735930735963,87.59818181818184,86.57575757575756,6.294372294372296,21.19047619047619,7.62386473244151,1.116229437229438,670,22,130,13,21,217,114,165,0.22399999999999998,0.748,0.027999999999999997,-0.991,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,1,10,7,1,0,7,0,5,5,1,2,2,30,20,16,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,4,0,1,4,12,2,1,7,0,0,4,1,5,0,0,8,8,15,2,15,11,3,21,0,3,2,1,11,9,1,2,9,69,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242790509565062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730787717135216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234707444015883,0.0,0.0,0.1430340238958857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406623202152396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997190506806434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649296652523488,0.10362150951405368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682929032729559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32881945627454057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612373512226203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440353085856336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248331672249905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854062677586935,0.0,0.0,0.09131480015565216,0.0,0.12850576462029592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532091581921685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15699450958081018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040674579909138,0.0,0.16289833000127898,0.0,0.0,0.17847271620524852,0.16186226330333756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293194995791842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744296261859121,0.15283787379318994,0.1277745022469162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753563074028995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RoseyWren,2019/07/13,Will I ever be able to lose weight? Hi everyone. I am currently struggling and trying my best to recover from a severe binge cycle over the past couple of years which has caused a lot of weight gain. I just feel very sad and unmotivated about how my body looks now. The concept of losing weight seems impossible. Will it happen? I just feel like I need reassurance. It is so silly. I can’t seem to get myself away from the mindset that one day everything will be ok.,2.67258852258852,5.050840483516488,4.0434432234432265,84.08211233211235,78.23076923076924,7.121367521367523,21.1001221001221,8.167268648758528,1.142061294261294,368,10,72,7,9,121,68,91,0.166,0.677,0.158,-0.2084,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,7,9,0,1,5,1,9,4,1,2,1,13,17,4,0,1,2,0,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,6,9,5,11,12,2,8,0,3,1,0,2,2,0,3,7,49,13,0,0.15575634225143578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463382107304797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345667179020734,0.0,0.0,0.17301018348745925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600046685513217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17234143016823664,0.0,0.10044995535147637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408905287853046,0.0,0.14883185981265515,0.13998375718866504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575101731935417,0.11127236202601444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137626022042199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137734819059725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07609468126731203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307960992540093,0.3485030120999745,0.0,0.13241847228266249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549135419799315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554452851539363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868705287648032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835894483732056,0.0,0.17596033246393214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283034724878054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057483322738994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851529448119434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5690077915780201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030197773765023
EDAnonymous,midnightelixir,2019/07/13,"It was my birthday yesterday! I allowed myself to have a free day without counting calories, and while I was still a little obsessive and tried to count them in my head, I didn’t log it on Lose It. I ended up putting in my breakfast at like 20 servings to estimate a high cal day, but eating what I wanted (without bingeing) for a day was so amazing!",8.672952380952381,5.9465864857142865,8.849999999999998,73.1716666666667,62.71428571428571,11.047619047619047,43.33333333333333,8.841846274778883,4.02047619047619,274,14,52,3,3,91,50,70,0.045,0.792,0.162,0.8787,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,1,4,0,5,3,1,1,0,7,6,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,10,4,11,2,0,15,0,1,0,0,1,7,0,0,8,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4775600270349741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25257148051679,0.0,0.0,0.21862051405626304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533215680208536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607923063850047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058999235351132,0.2473912171080005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761426611189754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481350455995562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971209181910216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675832051324204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455883254593554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758758414796723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,metal_folding_chair,2019/07/13,"BED recovery success stories? Hi, I’m currently trying my hardest to recover from BED, and I’m kind of down in the dumps because I’m just having a really difficult time. The most I can make it is ~10 days before I fall into a horrible 3-day binging episode. I read Brain Over Binge and I am trying hard to apply its principles but sometimes I slip up, and one binge tends to trigger a bunch of them over the next few days. I’m trying not to care about my weight right now but it’s hard because I’ve always been pretty fit and now I’m ~10 lbs overweight. I want to restrict and overexercise so badly because I’m so physically and mentally uncomfortable at this weight but I know it will just push me into more binging. 

Has anyone here successfully recovered from binge eating? What helped you get there? What was the catalyst, if any, in your recovery? I just want to be healthy and happy and reasonably fit (read: normal weight) again. I’m determined not to give up but I just want to know if there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. There are a lot of AN/BN recovery stories out there but not many BED stories.",2.629280327515623,4.8539276832579175,4.051842275371687,84.75695324283559,77.5972850678733,7.46744236156001,25.45593622064209,8.418075326091056,1.8523185089420384,882,33,172,18,21,291,124,221,0.11699999999999999,0.738,0.145,0.8264,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,1,2,16,8,1,0,11,0,10,6,1,3,0,37,27,17,0,6,14,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,7,11,5,1,3,2,0,2,3,3,0,1,2,6,15,5,27,23,5,26,0,0,0,0,6,15,0,4,9,108,22,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974334151485712,0.0,0.0,0.08968996463506254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922208033563066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012293800220643,0.24119741014193766,0.0,0.11222897857462044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14723325579627272,0.0,0.0,0.1344710077366232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551751053598425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495676041379254,0.0,0.0,0.11681570807860835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689072673149474,0.12652124723183436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403997362059394,0.2362957057237874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840332534172256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734350969732084,0.14496698059830898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212846402996153,0.0,0.0,0.08803783662035075,0.13371611973857336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329144576711234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026688962243508,0.0,0.12922454567834024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937231841744374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417990725456794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638520943421774,0.0,0.08449233915037553,0.13560525203695142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263364318897325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304429342819409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690632708230352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686346821678632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333770469792691,0.0,0.0,0.4818207655691058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachyyqueen,2019/07/13,"(TW weights) I hate having to live inside a body and I want to feel better so badly. I’m 21 and I’ve been struggling with restricting, then binging/purging, and cycling back, for almost 9 years now. The whole disorder used to be a lot worse, but now my metabolism is trash. So usually, when I’m tracking calories at like 1,400, I can maintain a weight of about 134 lbs, which I don’t love at 5’7” but am ok with. 

I have been really trying to mend my relationship with food this summer, like go out and eat with my friends when they ask, not track calories, go drinking, etc. 

Now that I’m eating more, or maybe because of my birth control (?) I have been getting so hungry. Some days I mini binge (like 1/4 bag of chocolate chips or 600 calories of cereal/yogurt/fruit). I know I said I’m not tracking calories but I know the calories of most foods.

Sometimes I will still purge afterward and I’m trying so hard not to. But I do have other ED behaviors. I go to the gym every day, but am trying to focus on strength training. I also walk a lot because I live in the city. 

Anyway, I just feel so terrible today, because I was 139 lbs and I ate almost a whole plate of cheese fries for dinner last night. I’ve definitely gained like 4-5 lbs overall and It’s making me feel like an absolute giant. I know I look better in the low 130s and I can’t stop weighing myself every morning, because my stomach feels huge and if I’m ever over 138 lbs I feel like I’m dying, but if I’m under I feel mostly ok. 

I don’t know what to do. I want to feel better about food. I really would appreciate some tips on recovery. I want to feel happy and healthy in my body, and I don’t want to think about food all the time. I want to be able to go out to eat. I just feel so BAD and I know this isn’t even the worst manifestation of a disorder but I’m so sick of it and I would love to hear anyone’s thoughts on my issues.",1.257462548057802,3.1685260554156223,3.2567658756462947,90.32109737504973,80.63727959697731,5.891793716028106,21.78238101551107,6.950104931194217,0.5347722921914362,1472,45,320,17,38,497,193,397,0.113,0.6970000000000001,0.18899999999999997,0.9843,0,0,1,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,1,6,23,23,1,1,14,2,24,19,3,3,2,73,69,35,1,9,16,0,12,6,1,3,1,2,0,0,8,19,13,3,16,2,0,5,8,7,0,0,7,15,42,16,44,57,12,41,0,1,1,2,8,15,0,12,27,192,50,0,0.07486130481769387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499255661636878,0.0,0.0,0.059866558416065314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052344764940566633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998521447122426,0.0,0.0,0.05756372249223325,0.1250121251279663,0.18253902631742455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19862622171552746,0.0,0.1663080667586805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396331893899676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965586969723706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769421532498955,0.0,0.1715950820007349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733355787249399,0.0,0.2298054119212108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349014356396188,0.04944518579830593,0.06771633609818888,0.12614775610101744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34066912541722544,0.10696186223951296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362090347756743,0.0,0.05783765840065455,0.0,0.03911194198083341,0.0,0.1701816188293678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969125101874182,0.0670610248578533,0.07391003992366561,0.0,0.0,0.0843741312834513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813575265207559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057090766777418,0.061021955031675526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21944071286015304,0.0,0.13220780735341486,0.0,0.0628646417454598,0.0,0.0,0.12728880858081867,0.13513050075689773,0.0,0.04997050227336937,0.0,0.07520824273263453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025226332753992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591613759895944,0.0,0.0,0.0803730253129688,0.0,0.0,0.07121024394793496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740397446633069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059784334729699976,0.06258740289492619,0.0,0.07826128992734185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796810136017489,0.0,0.059431513936355714,0.04365222885786338,0.0,0.07095976366455656,0.0,0.0,0.15247773583832055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465613142027532,0.08244915093120872,0.0,0.2207756858550146,0.0,0.0,0.18232180303002424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671599467552693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629006518942551,0.10635864613344946,0.0,0.0,0.04820822587830489
EDAnonymous,alerae2020,2019/07/13,"I gained 7 pounds within a few weeks and I feel so worthless. I worked so hard to get myself to stop emotional eating every day and lose weight and get to a place where i sort of felt good, and gained back 7 pounds in literally 3 weeks and I'm starting to feel like it'll just never happen for me. It seems like im going to spiral into a mess of emotional eating every day for the rest of my life and ill just be fat forever. 

I have no interest in anything now. I dont want to be seen in public or go out with friends. I dont even want to just lay in bed with my boyfriend. I feel so huge and awful. Even though i started eating really really healthy again and tracking my food, my weight hasnt budged at all. Im so hopeless and i dont know what to do .",2.3234458077709625,3.195669478527609,4.041242331288346,90.28227249488756,75.07361963190179,7.151124744376278,22.172290388548056,7.492282038375204,0.6127591002044994,587,14,136,7,12,198,93,163,0.159,0.677,0.16399999999999998,0.2409,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,4,14,9,0,0,4,1,9,9,1,0,2,29,26,15,0,2,4,0,7,2,1,1,3,0,1,0,3,13,7,1,6,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,2,8,16,5,23,21,3,24,0,3,1,0,2,11,0,3,13,83,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783195766188532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914149765448748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334156021831105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179958600868099,0.0,0.0,0.3649461054833141,0.0,0.26745851523528064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570444128459196,0.0,0.20033093180725095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803349908661688,0.08493123537259502,0.11414793133557387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143755820568129,0.0,0.0918500047806966,0.0,0.12422467151198575,0.0,0.13512980068092814,0.0997148247080058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051293252301808,0.0,0.10649731721715988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25683169881541296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533590812199769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397176159062587,0.1161620939403754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300154148701065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916911901499974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242091817668107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523211336804513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822814286686083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829436932247954,0.0,0.0,0.09939291136733323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680358929966225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024252268840245,0.0,0.19072423009098574,0.2895390121765966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865494591041165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tylloh,2019/07/13,"DAE purposely “ruin” foods? Like when I’m cooking for other people, I’ll add one of my fear foods to an otherwise “safe” recipe so I will have no temptation to maybe eat some.",5.621714285714283,5.355915314285717,6.406428571428571,80.30107142857145,67.28571428571429,10.428571428571429,28.92857142857143,10.125756701596842,2.575857142857142,136,4,28,3,2,45,31,35,0.226,0.645,0.129,-0.6204,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180653641748615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34977970628759136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7517342435103512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185997942160226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122790309469498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21063219743448114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21549626261359034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,axolotlcervantes,2019/07/13,"""you're looking so skinny lately"" had a friend tell me this tonight, I said ""thanks I haven't been eating"" it came out as a joke so we laughed but :) boy, I was not joking",1.4475000000000016,2.8030554166666697,2.5288888888888903,98.305,78.16666666666666,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.6036000000000001,129,3,31,0,3,41,32,36,0.053,0.635,0.312,0.8312,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,5,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,5,5,2,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,2,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41913995630014783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.374986635733792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831310467546905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41339008350773815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077394955714393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3485934850434318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203078034267444,0.33739304288835875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,washingt0nsquarepark,2019/07/13,"Is anyone else dumb as hell??? So my I’ve been following this girl on Insta for a while and she’s beautiful, has an amazing body, etc. and she posts pictures of herself quite often. My boyfriend also follows her, I might’ve even shown her account to him, but recently I’ve noticed that her posts will come up and he’s already liked them. I keep finding myself getting upset and sad when I see this, of course jumping to all of the irrational and insecure conclusions that I have ready to go in my head (that he wishes I look like her, that he’d rather be with someone who looks like her but he’s stuck with me, etc) I don’t want to try to police his Instagram usage or anything because of my personal issues, I just can’t seem to stop myself from reacting this way. Anybody else going through this?",5.211886792452827,5.672863805031447,5.750622641509434,82.15310377358493,68.18238993710692,8.875723270440252,31.62327044025157,8.841846274778883,2.489580628930818,631,25,124,10,10,204,110,159,0.14800000000000002,0.727,0.125,-0.7105,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,7,9,2,2,3,0,9,2,2,1,1,23,23,13,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,8,0,2,3,0,1,6,2,5,0,0,2,3,26,4,19,18,3,16,1,1,3,0,18,3,2,3,7,84,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17552464787363167,0.12719876256604684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121717204749038,0.16297389369023696,0.1308913228018316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696038523803244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667777183245348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701453107975542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657453853715049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547838134937015,0.10505642239666516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537628749342635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310132991012191,0.0,0.18079284912403829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323957260658495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601540680587445,0.0,0.1413782114259733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331233652887943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671376090673859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873558458333676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18108878288700933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388834605038088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30466752179414497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917794462481553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570507557856589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674876963724235,0.14480058584934216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347694728491868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297975382397909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799005783670963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938166308150167,0.12625297326975038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829090478727293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VegetarianCurry,2019/07/13,"DAE feel like they need a hug? Sometimes I feel like everything is crumbling and falling to pieces, and I wish someone would hug me and say ""I know how it feels. It sucks big time, and your struggles, no matter what people say, are valid. You are stronger than you think, much stronger than the malevolent ED voice in your head. Hold on.""

I am sending this virtual hug and encouragement to anyone who needs it. ❤",3.5852747252747212,5.817158333333335,3.278791208791212,91.40192307692308,74.64102564102564,6.508424908424907,26.52747252747253,7.447530270364453,1.2507780219780225,322,12,65,4,7,96,58,78,0.094,0.628,0.278,0.946,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,1,0,1,8,1,1,2,0,5,4,1,1,0,17,14,6,0,4,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,6,5,0,1,5,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,6,10,6,6,13,2,6,0,0,0,3,10,3,1,0,3,38,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601368867175801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20582940835752173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473998670612477,0.3272254567576797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350417337995671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586401389374524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22377629432099969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683568690383003,0.3396325056905499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15877440281291935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642535614509176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19404884523967905,0.0,0.2265077361071093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394225923775974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146747481286685,0.0,0.0,0.13354405231389468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26336297659419433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269002723238726,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mackcleaver,2019/07/13,"today i bought two pints of ice cream every friday i buy one pint of rebel ice cream it's the only ice cream i can have and it is kind of expensive it's like $5 a pint. so i finish half on saturday and half on sunday and count the calories and plan it all ofc. well today i bought a pint of rebel creamery ice cream but i also saw that 100 cal basically-frozen-ice stuff everyone likes and it's also keto friendly so i can have it. well. tonight i ate a pint of the low calorie ice cream (100 cal per pint) and it was great and i didnt feel guilty bcuz i stayed under my calories and i had it during my one meal a day (i do OMAD at 8 pm daily so i fast ~24 hours every day naturally bcuz fasting = easy, eating = hard). well i told my mom, bcuz i was excited, bcuz this stuff is cheaper than the rebel creamery stuff, but instead of getting happy for me she said ""oh, you ate the whole pint? you shouldnt eat two pints of ice cream in one weekend maybe you should put the other one away and eat it next week"" and i tried 2 tell her that it was only 100 calories and sugar free and dairy free and basically just frozen water with stevia and erythritol but. i gave up and now im kinda glad shes shaming me ill prob just give the ice cream 2 my dad and eat some ice cubes thx mom 👍",-0.1717391304347835,1.9234680398550736,1.8824456521739137,96.92845108695651,87.80434782608695,4.6094202898550725,16.596014492753625,5.985473137389443,-0.5987333333333331,993,22,233,8,32,330,142,276,0.038,0.775,0.187,0.9928,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,0,1,12,18,3,1,11,0,15,10,0,0,1,28,26,24,0,2,5,3,2,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,17,17,9,0,1,1,6,1,2,5,3,8,13,12,29,15,17,11,3,25,0,1,8,0,15,8,0,2,17,130,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726380629155471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141253988080362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922385755923133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417954665759978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818870570700653,0.10314064141855307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054577361035395434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339364725516465,0.0,0.05639383721968204,0.10354522678445388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190034761909688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490340827325972,0.0966924250775401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629848286321078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659298301668965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240218674831144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546739447226296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084395502611694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528344430695633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479468637936872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925698941879603,0.16418542645353296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850882492770693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267500671640446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504894833992428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706940753326444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434371920077687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20462769980621867,0.10314064141855307,0.0,0.07328370977424851,0.0,0.21088205372817126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865824079443227,0.0,0.2911512223689568,0.0,0.0,0.12051039081090527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1200or1200,2019/07/13,"Better mood when not eating Stats: 151.7, 5’9.3

I’ve been having mood swings recently, (I.e.: Getting terribly mad at family etc. for no reason) and I think I found the cause. Whenever I eat a normal amount of food, I feel like shit, so I treat them like shit. When I’m just drinking Diet Coke and eating very little, I’m the happiest and nicest person.",2.5442016806722703,5.018724176470588,3.642689075630255,86.24852941176474,79.29411764705883,6.8268907563025225,18.537815126050425,7.957251820313856,0.8158462184873954,276,6,52,5,7,89,52,68,0.19699999999999998,0.584,0.21899999999999997,0.2094,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,1,4,10,3,0,3,0,2,9,2,2,0,11,8,6,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,6,4,3,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,5,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401725603631706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190510327008859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816723938321732,0.0,0.5692911956951249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682804317324485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482767557877593,0.0,0.09377012206584076,0.13248697221496825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424933914825892,0.20333858629734086,0.0,0.0,0.09689103502863096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120499536825252,0.18587166096995064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170362096427226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192956540076975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19067558092422698,0.1831115133362963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807277017167415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883017701916194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15301735254930413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,miserable_alt_,2019/07/13,"I'm starting to panic Okay so I have bulimia and right now I'm in the middle of a binge and I'm freaking out, I want to purge but last night I had made myself puke three times throughout day and I kinda injured myself the third time and I'm too sore to really do it again and I just want curl up and disappear into the void rn.",-0.05249999999999844,1.98118652777778,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,86.5,5.266666666666668,17.333333333333336,6.6274283507984215,-0.16270000000000007,258,6,59,3,8,88,50,72,0.233,0.7120000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9361,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,4,1,3,2,0,1,0,14,11,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,0,7,1,8,9,0,15,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,8,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21959236119523312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27755045605035955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221864426410489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195333173938343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994998013011231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813106216739045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29078253095664697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410054905061076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970930141725412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016678407768655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pan_Lil_Problem,2019/10/14,"Clothes?!?!? [potential trigger] I’ve always been fairly skinny around the waist, but with (undiagnosed, but I’m pretty certain) atypical more is, I’m even skinnier. I have no idea how to wear pants. Size 0 and XS just fall off me. I can ish wear like leggings, but they make me really self conscious and I just don’t like them. How do people buy pants that actually fit?",1.5534585289514882,4.216544126760564,2.9430046948356825,88.01369327073554,86.60563380281691,5.972456964006258,21.973395931142417,7.3871296695380915,1.0543039123630678,287,10,56,5,9,93,55,71,0.037000000000000005,0.759,0.204,0.9299,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,6,5,5,4,1,16,9,7,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,3,4,8,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.3334941400591416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843594872304593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042257936624453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22571956423105266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857888747897115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339190073589351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281176582804591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23692317875836064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34767785541115537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189308062252704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35651490609072817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,merely_artistic,2019/10/14,"Idk what to to call this. Overprotective parents ig Two years ago I had ana. Now I'm fully recovered, but my parents keep trying to shove food down my throat that I don't need. They're doing this because they love me, but I get heartburn a lot in the morning and one time I vomited my entire breakfast (not on purpose) because they made me eat too much too fast. I was extremely depressed before my ED and ate a LOT. I was never overweight, so my parents still think I need to gain 10-ish pounds even though I was healthy like eleven fucking months ago. I'm going to relapse in college. It's going to happen. Maybe if my parents hadn't pushed recovery too far I would be fine. However, they just made me hate myself even more. I'm going to relapse in college because not eating gives me a high almost like a drug would (not that I would know, but the high from fasting is goddamn amazing for me). I'm 14, but I know I'm not going to recover ever. Ana is a part of me and I'm okay with that. I know not to take it too far. Idk why I'm even posting. Mainly to ask for advice to help my parents loosen up on me and let me eat what I want. Please help. I went to the school counselor already. It didn't really help. Please. My parents are destroying my mental and physical health. Please. I don't know what to do.",1.4284703290651244,3.546672992565057,2.9468566707971924,91.68021341043648,81.15613382899626,5.472174032768829,23.34586259121575,6.605766666666668,0.6323315709761812,1021,36,215,10,27,334,139,269,0.075,0.7390000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.9849,7,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,3,1,14,10,3,0,8,1,18,14,1,2,2,36,50,12,0,7,11,6,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,11,6,7,1,5,0,0,6,10,4,0,3,10,0,36,6,25,35,6,29,0,1,0,2,16,11,1,4,13,136,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256861070633048,0.1498013883633395,0.0,0.08461063841384968,0.0,0.09324354714824816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899244708504786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452411433915142,0.0,0.07189995741341297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627996502462286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727763668587899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979886499164898,0.2593818134044267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16742663085167725,0.07643155967220586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217301915585868,0.0,0.0,0.07811528262120516,0.04414572464566457,0.08105635820085742,0.19208432269295952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07471962191259718,0.0,0.0,0.08342240517280221,0.0,0.08981540276599727,0.0,0.0,0.1699078635839427,0.1785495369829732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510401577517196,0.0,0.0,0.18574738652618514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640298672978038,0.0,0.08256105250173039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436711247126827,0.07626102892779016,0.15990450513387935,0.0,0.0,0.08488768919697709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515219480347103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744398064121565,0.0,0.062114355525788485,0.12530557456362507,0.06516860110842812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725674393338319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5629375156697969,0.0915010418909574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782540313062508,0.0,0.0,0.08092390663391251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054130365114500416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551456392848862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747869436897083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353055130550618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05414168888518296,0.08301698894572118,0.0,0.04927035523506131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057367305227062425,0.0,0.08254041164401349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049837988821876136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832873095266636,0.07624458745222333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18007081474734107,0.0,0.0,0.05441271789374598
EDAnonymous,astankova,2019/10/14,Anyone else enjoys snacking on ice ? Literal ice from an ice cube tray in the freezer. I have been doing that a lot lately. And now I really want a shaved ice machine.,1.2495454545454552,3.775908424242424,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,85.96969696969695,5.724242424242425,20.37121212121212,7.1686216300943375,0.8710666666666662,130,4,24,2,4,44,28,33,0.0,0.847,0.153,0.5984,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130103394755473,0.4586747968007153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37395777899152177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5049736205344025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805797316174625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28677884813430793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26403814194557296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,why-am-i-like-this_,2019/10/14,"Midnight feast but it's just me binge eating my feelings because I've decided my flatmates hate me Dealing with my feelings like a mature adult  😎  😎  😎 

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(halp I have already binged so much this week and I know logically that I'm underweight and need to put on weight but at the same time if I keep this up I'll put on weight and I can't be having that)",5.91842105263158,4.9235113684210505,6.414736842105262,82.91315789473686,66.89473684210526,9.178947368421053,33.473684210526315,8.07648339933343,2.27522105263158,288,11,62,3,4,94,56,76,0.07,0.833,0.09699999999999999,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,16,11,7,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,3,1,5,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,9,1,6,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,36,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266190061914064,0.0,0.0,0.22250662940654534,0.2495339303621254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518507462495096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21171633884539875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210133750361585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076715842847257,0.14670866802140914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027497144043652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253271069678464,0.0,0.0,0.11286005687420365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032814194805216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096265586179325,0.15227125976183647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128854740154361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974661281723804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472677945460545,0.5001444124804231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495339303621254,0.0
EDAnonymous,btch-for-avo,2019/10/14,"DAE get triggered by absolutely anything the days after a binge? I had a particularly bad binge a couple days ago. Before then I had been successfully restricting for about a month and a half and I was feeling lighter and leaner. I didn’t even enjoy a second of the binges, I just felt myself going back and forth between my room and the kitchen grabbing handfuls of danish cookies at a time. 

Anyway, since then I’ve put on a crazy amount of weight for one day (I know most is water weight but seeing the scale increase that much so quickly gives me immense anxiety no matter what type of weight it is). And now. Every. Single. Thing. Triggers me to no end. 

A friend cancelled our movie plans - it’s because I’m fat. 

I made eye contact with someone at university and they didn’t smile back at me - it’s because I’m fat. 

I accidentally cut my finger while chopping apples - it’s because I’m fat and shouldn’t be eating anyway. 

The worst has been a message my boyfriend sent last night. He knows I have issues with eating, but not the extent of my ED. We were messaging and I complained about not having enough money to buy summer clothes (hi to any of my aussie friends!) and he said “maybe if you didn’t devour porridge like it was your last meal on earth you could save some”. Porridge is my ultimate safe food, it’s filling, cheap and comforting. And to hear him refer to me “devouring” anything has put me in such a negative headspace and I just never want to touch it again. 

He noticed I was upset by it and apologised but I feel like it’s already sent me into a spiral.",2.8579746977160774,5.104598503246752,3.800120913569192,86.73422077922079,76.95454545454545,5.936587550380652,25.231079265562023,6.953978226594392,1.0856494402149581,1241,45,238,13,29,398,184,308,0.128,0.758,0.115,-0.6336,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,2,3,1,2,14,14,1,1,18,0,21,15,6,3,1,45,39,22,0,4,8,0,10,2,2,1,3,2,2,0,12,18,12,2,6,0,3,7,10,5,0,3,16,14,33,9,29,20,9,36,0,0,2,0,22,8,0,3,23,161,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071381580559133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337582516702265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219129220620805,0.0,0.09246021025673627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989206461586643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858730688568254,0.10091593427172693,0.22103171627973492,0.0,0.10284589596576617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649963198082233,0.13373311120443832,0.0,0.2338407840132171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24734697076771794,0.0,0.0,0.10704914463987407,0.12488425515109072,0.0,0.07982917040994936,0.0,0.10183267143235078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222438613257205,0.08634487453352997,0.11604786821000852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614856637802945,0.0,0.18675760699584548,0.0,0.06314616541614808,0.11594323672484008,0.06868948528976962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13622189492609493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615004297922774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284678515693565,0.1970396902478134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809555557307062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143639210027429,0.0,0.0,0.12142358307291495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647205458913992,0.0,0.08884854423007117,0.0,0.0932173454748332,0.0,0.0,0.1134221625485522,0.0,0.0,0.13760384161793304,0.0,0.0,0.08190020330683416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430023047130208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114968820670273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631252330694272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997949678135716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240721098911404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029630725471547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047645104385221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128839568076714,0.0,0.0,0.44153737260397824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadmoonchild98,2019/10/14,60 lbs in 2 months? Has anyone been able to lose 60 lbs in 2 months?,-2.416874999999997,-0.7571889374999969,0.06750000000000256,108.8275,94.625,3.2,8.0,3.1291,-2.603025,51,0,15,0,2,17,11,16,0.191,0.809,0.0,-0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,0.4348264305437198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040407504542584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4864595514850368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6941486167477363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saranghesseo,2019/10/14,"Questions about purging first i wanna say that im not pro-ed at all im desperately trying to fix all of this... but im just freaking out so bad right now and i have 2 questions about purging... 1, can you get rid of liquid calories from purging like if i accidentally drank a lot of soda and 2, if i binge eat heavily every day but i purge the binges 30 minutes after how many of the calories do i lose or am i gaining all that weight?",1.6241304347826109,3.2284503260869606,3.9015217391304375,87.57336956521742,78.34782608695652,5.9043478260869575,25.630434782608692,6.6274283507984215,0.9168217391304352,338,13,73,3,8,117,65,92,0.18,0.748,0.07200000000000001,-0.8857,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,3,6,4,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,1,3,18,6,9,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,2,8,1,12,5,4,7,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,6,5,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16395852584642326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664068862948796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009328110189996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16544795241249755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670299582907001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259382989616413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6363312689702473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593516296761756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968482358883828,0.0,0.1669444895068803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990856607349236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399527210493693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16769663462489592,0.0,0.15615918962891498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13332053333152322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239122517306742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StageMeowMix,2019/10/14,"ED Logic: Not eating a lean cuisine because it's too many calories, then binging on an entire sleeve of Girl Scout cookies (ironically, Thin Mints) instead.

Whelp.",7.437857142857139,9.38512707142857,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285714,64.0,7.028571428571429,39.0,7.1686216300943375,3.2972285714285707,130,7,18,1,2,40,28,28,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897302372526211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6541952115981786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6481812765677747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i_hope_you_all_burn_,2019/10/14,Throwing up blood??? Hi guys I tried to make myself sick but instead a bunch of blood came up and my throat now hurts super badly have any of you had this problem before ??? And should I be worried ????,1.8019230769230743,4.080945538461542,2.433012820512822,94.98490384615386,80.7948717948718,3.9,20.006410256410245,3.1291,-0.5137743589743589,152,4,31,0,4,47,34,39,0.33,0.574,0.096,-0.9193,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,1,0,7,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,5,1,5,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23788945786130056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29208491859742874,0.0,0.0,0.2976708818882383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4001006548273197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34637659772106866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37448932794275547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335074309607837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33473030163100165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23750467945765105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552589846140566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeolf,2019/10/14,"y’all ever just carve the feeling of starvation, the hunger pains and the emptiness",7.7360000000000015,9.274025266666666,5.993333333333332,78.81000000000002,63.0,8.666666666666668,35.0,8.841846274778883,3.1190000000000007,69,3,11,1,1,20,13,15,0.401,0.521,0.078,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6090042889751933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34042164458856683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7163985482295694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unicorns-n-mermaids,2019/10/14,"Having trouble handling my emotions right now....feel like I'm relapsing I guess I'm writing this to try to get a little support right now. I am feeling so overwhelmed, and sad and angry and all of these complicated feelings that I can't even put into words. It's difficult to breathe or think right now. I don't have anyone to talk to about it that understands. The only solution I can think of is to restrict to make myself feel better. I know I shouldn't but I just feel so weak and I can't talk to any of my friends about it. I haven't even been able to drink water today, let alone eat. I'm worried because I usually do not feel this depressed even when I'm wanting to restrict. I'm not used to feeling like I want to crawl into bed and go to sleep for a week. I just want to fast forward to when things will be okay. I'm not good at handling negative emotions and I just cannot do it.",2.06995320855615,3.709244508021397,3.5445955882352966,90.46630514705885,77.18181818181819,6.172326203208556,26.126002673796787,6.9077264865688965,1.0356740641711228,701,27,151,7,16,231,100,187,0.191,0.685,0.124,-0.9584,0,1,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,14,13,0,1,3,1,17,6,2,2,1,38,42,12,0,4,8,0,6,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,10,8,3,2,10,1,0,3,10,6,0,0,1,6,17,7,24,37,1,18,0,3,0,0,4,8,0,2,11,96,27,0,0.12734682102674566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13189290079195426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660020520675403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904385822297181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762944010744527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262791446851506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968363034721124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247514031651022,0.0,0.13030759007908296,0.0,0.2864960664831585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25233412275507633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.450732653384756,0.18195318877321015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838783802781573,0.0,0.06653345794026846,0.0,0.07237413309814175,0.10681247154823402,0.0,0.0,0.1402868805685114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998648242921307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022075251094511,0.0,0.12443044843454926,0.12763496987907846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500499189962407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685299585837233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801872855986246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262604680368964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743878937789685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451166337304586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20471310185890512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460356929487123,0.16319740174935313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207098960604094,0.0,0.0,0.0864601322122853,0.0,0.0,0.13257253181570042,0.0,0.10998676574380864,0.14025453193760165,0.0,0.22533736345180894,0.0,0.10214993838582492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293268783144562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,puddlenymph,2019/10/14,"Confession A month and a half ago I admitted to my primary doc that I've been struggling with my depression. It was the best I could do at the time.

I had a terrible experience with the doc and the office staff which I wont get into here. It wasnt directly related but it made me feel really unsupported there. 

Tomorrow was supposed to be my intake appointment and after spending this long ruminating on things I couldn't bring myself to confirm the appointment. I didnt cancel it per se....I let it get canceled because I didnt confirm. 

I feel yucky. I realize I'm sorta tossing the baby with the bathwater here. I got mad at the office staff and used it as an excuse to ""nope out"" of an appointment I probably needed to go to. The thought of anyone there being able to help me was so far away. 

I had to come here and clean my conscience I suppose. I'm afraid my partner will be angry at me for not going to get All Better (tm).",3.1505496453900683,4.701120898936175,5.240553191489365,79.8136666666667,74.05319148936171,8.843120567375886,27.95886524822695,9.3871,2.5866371631205682,731,29,143,18,15,254,110,188,0.10099999999999999,0.787,0.113,0.0692,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,6,7,1,2,14,0,18,0,0,2,1,26,35,8,0,3,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,10,11,0,0,6,0,1,4,7,5,0,1,12,2,22,2,24,15,2,18,1,1,0,0,5,8,0,1,6,105,32,2,0.20812864580516546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844934867423796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552838837902374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955437139100184,0.0,0.0,0.1268732907025804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184181732554884,0.18407287381966828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17928439939140134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617378809337965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792608976580968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035897523534245,0.0,0.0,0.21047219377037416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262158817203938,0.0,0.23656861147520056,0.0,0.16645949096402116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950424411963866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282564148295816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184187302111038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19693635700097373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612629941857815,0.0,0.0,0.15432475367603496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439788188667625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133332539941349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175812501693564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827142417577007,0.0,0.0,0.16523089657396614,0.12136148709522512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797563254911652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evenforyou,2019/10/14,I nearly threw up today My emetophobic ass was terrified but my eating disorder ass was like ‘it’s free purging’,1.6050000000000004,4.042877952380955,4.438452380952381,72.59196428571431,102.8095238095238,7.814285714285713,24.29761904761905,8.07648339933343,3.0575619047619056,91,4,14,3,4,32,18,21,0.387,0.385,0.228,-0.6542,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6128089408508597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5471283886820237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612258837480593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.506830115493846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,totallytwopercent,2019/10/14,"nutritional value of broccoli?? first time posting so i hope this is right :)

vegetables are very safe and i eat alot of them. broccoli is one of my faves but my mom told me it has zero nutritional value??

i obviously dont believe her but i have no way to actually know this lol. she said she ""watched a documentary"" which could be literally anything.

anyway so i only got to get one bag instead of three like i wanted and it made me really upset but i cant argue cause she pays for the groceries.

any science people who know the truth?",1.4484615384615367,4.055412952380955,3.7428571428571433,82.61406593406595,86.14285714285714,6.278388278388277,23.315018315018314,7.61054688173877,1.4346996336996338,420,16,80,8,13,144,77,105,0.057,0.727,0.217,0.9495,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,4,6,1,1,4,1,9,2,0,2,2,16,18,7,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,5,4,2,16,4,7,12,1,5,0,0,1,0,10,1,0,2,3,57,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.20536144973466725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310806511303728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317618459739587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23709654841587946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618233910825504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802115219515398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466369543495367,0.0,0.0,0.21533513738493995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900221886871295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994748116796467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16831003124197255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090168111069444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313073060416059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10281153880699533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19912571045094968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464676242876915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852024664169993,0.1600509468147506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589428005221994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154567111730526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481480589142547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17971668077907646,0.20017893663445546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271067012324685,0.0,0.0,0.20108675502684836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17363703961687507,0.12412439441019785,0.16703940136684467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amywaited7,2019/10/14,"dae try to be bodypositive around others if/when my family & friends complain about being or looking fat, i always say something along the lines of ‘theres nothing wrong with that. youre still worthy and beautiful’ and then i go on to fast for 48 hours and restrict to 300kcal a day in an attempt to lose more weight lol",8.358571428571429,6.869667714285715,7.771428571428572,76.74857142857145,62.33333333333334,10.304761904761904,36.873015873015866,8.841846274778883,3.073025396825397,258,10,49,3,3,81,57,63,0.11199999999999999,0.72,0.168,0.5903,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,1,2,2,1,0,0,8,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,6,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,1,12,2,1,9,0,1,1,0,4,3,0,1,5,31,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22453686992826533,0.2923824308756866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402237678992788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403096670898424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25439062366673226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084854895365889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533620096874824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657479552240199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22660608972191976,0.3018931958930929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589284136614098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21459560134833056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774376243256484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155026091547257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18321047957757106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286046791053869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950386824785185,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TinySwordGirl,2019/10/14,"Looking for a friend like me Yo yo, I’m looking for someone to send ed memes to, help me restrict myself from eating, and to help me keep count of my calories. I’ve been anorexic off and on for about 4 years now and the only real problem I have is keeping myself away from temptations. 

I want to get skinnier and I want to look good and feel good about my body, but it’s really hard when I’m surrounded by food most of the time. 

I’m really just craving affection and friendship and someone to vent to. I can’t vent to my friends irl because they’ll just try to ship me off to a mh again. 


But yeah, so be my friend plz uwu",1.4470454545454532,3.20252991666667,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,79.37878787878788,5.915151515151516,23.87878787878788,6.816661863887847,0.6673060606060606,487,17,109,5,12,160,82,132,0.04,0.711,0.249,0.9790000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,0,4,1,6,3,1,1,0,21,18,11,0,3,4,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,7,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,5,15,6,24,15,1,11,0,0,3,0,7,5,0,1,6,65,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15666011352568754,0.0,0.0,0.101644710164347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852133824170105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061925485319349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431004277959055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162575200242813,0.0,0.38647463898460777,0.0,0.08711609975816065,0.0,0.0,0.2797114779504005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14936857224486896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22352803149841505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964168776489163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146198690370607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4200652376894693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681522214957702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955010022935606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897895252439909,0.2136390930315643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825608411750449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097228921174797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320724543839655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19669815098976035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073767346258694
EDAnonymous,no-property,2019/10/14,"I'm about to buy Glauber's Salt I've sworn to never ever ever use a laxative, yet here I am, terribly constipated to the point where everything just fucking hurts. 
I can't do this anymore, I just can't.",3.625,4.625247690476193,5.603333333333335,79.82500000000002,72.09523809523809,9.40952380952381,30.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,2.9010380952380963,161,7,33,4,3,56,32,42,0.184,0.816,0.0,-0.7902,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,3,6,7,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,7,0,6,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32521446536950555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5932556634724239,0.0,0.0,0.29471873468824034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031622932825695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3510515542239702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252916739197522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099960552459424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832227668643872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UKNLEU,2019/10/14,"Scared I’m starting to develop disordered eating I keep ‘forgetting’ to eat, but really it’s just me not even having the energy to get out of bed and make food, or really put any amount of effort into being a functional human being. I’ve told my therapist about this (and many other things)  and it feels like he just blows it off to talk about how I ‘talk too much’ because ‘my family’s always been too harsh’ like fuck off maybe help me eat first? I have no idea how much I’m actually eating or how many calories I’m consuming but I just hate it. I only eat snacks and takeout and whenever I try to make ‘healthy foods’ they just rot away in my fridge, like the salads I made last week. I just don’t know how to change this and I hate it.",1.8779793233082744,3.7942756513157896,3.627180451127821,88.39526315789475,78.67105263157895,7.50075187969925,19.409774436090228,8.418075326091056,0.9095906015037594,577,13,124,12,14,193,93,152,0.122,0.779,0.099,-0.6858,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,14,7,3,1,3,0,6,10,0,7,0,30,21,14,0,0,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,9,8,9,1,3,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,1,15,3,16,16,3,11,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,2,7,76,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.11470887616210182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780848683114184,0.0,0.0,0.07993596334686487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043923790080616,0.0,0.0,0.07165553550654201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124349097026853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471899942832044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013994262202679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763865816698227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081281204651452,0.0,0.05943527463635851,0.08397557138517131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998538373916836,0.2842765001402085,0.0,0.0,0.10867026997188488,0.06141343478985991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321065734548454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878924919872646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269620945999758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448113859918493,0.0,0.0,0.0646007348467722,0.09581646081199556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228252072067302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112257752870384,0.15692701652533614,0.23834833450539786,0.11809172024708005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282108078259004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939975960201417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816716102972125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060718449151805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768501273635665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832003429760688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18895958696342924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648107996160935,0.07809297677785787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112321157208503,0.0,0.07980666954525083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942890806228364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_RICECAKES,2019/10/14,"Snake diet sub?? So reddit just recommended me r/snakediet...

Has anyone else been on there? I kind of fell down the rabbit hole and I found it super upsetting. I thought I’d be down, considering that it’s pro-fasting but the language they use and the way they talk about people is so full of hateful. I honestly thought it was satire for a few minutes, but I think they’re serious. 

They even hella downvoted someone on there who was commenting on a post about how “the only way to lose weight is fasting you’re a fatty if you try to look for any other option” saying that that’s a really dangerous thing to say to someone with a history of eating disorders, and that they should try to be mindful of that. 

I don’t know why I’m making this post, I guess I just wanted to see what you guys thought about it?",5.132037037037037,5.4203847962962985,6.0242962962962965,80.72533333333331,68.32098765432099,9.196049382716053,29.78024691358025,9.120678840339163,2.3453683950617275,635,22,127,11,10,210,101,162,0.11,0.8390000000000001,0.051,-0.8837,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,4,2,11,8,2,1,9,0,10,3,0,3,0,23,24,9,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,14,4,3,0,6,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,7,5,15,3,21,14,2,12,0,1,2,0,12,6,0,3,1,85,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649620946337783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950128067365536,0.1604594843306466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948195256694546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602451677175436,0.1308226935444296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343558088777094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17170839516433767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17251715492266378,0.15506275492721586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15461420135273554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307914978754912,0.08606555925118291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150806557321162,0.17520001448476052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453450313613197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581255743298478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191045322521297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856961692324964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29996702129669456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003246448454002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490758518314364,0.0,0.0,0.1247932521891645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653804192467306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258725041321465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404085550911966,0.10034563220193538,0.0,0.3729786672532167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21264791066783206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352557261831822,0.0,0.0,0.09236920012986126,0.2486102102288872,0.0,0.1907016962363446,0.0,0.0,0.14131091008435295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yugiohbitchxxx,2019/10/14,Tfw you're finally ready to eat something but... No food in the house appeals to you so you eat applesauce and down dietary supplements.,2.230599999999999,5.1013815600000045,2.895500000000002,85.43525000000002,93.4,7.300000000000002,30.25,8.07648339933343,3.1196,109,6,19,3,4,34,21,25,0.08199999999999999,0.8240000000000001,0.094,0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.690879627734124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698143762135153,0.0,0.0,0.4082163077224432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895346218381516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598940007515194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TaeFae666,2019/10/14,"I just saw a video on another sub of a really thin woman pooping behind some cars while she was out jogging... ...and my first thought was that it seemed like it could be a woman with an eating disorder who’s been abusing lax and this is an unfortunate consequence of the “lifestyle.”

Maybe I’m just overthinking it, and most of the comments were just calling her a crazy asshole, so who knows. But something about it just seemed...off, I guess.",6.482857142857143,6.797431095238098,6.273904761904763,80.00442857142859,65.42857142857143,9.577142857142855,33.46666666666667,9.3871,2.9084838095238097,348,14,66,6,5,109,63,84,0.133,0.8370000000000001,0.03,-0.8225,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,8,0,7,2,1,0,0,17,13,6,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,5,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,5,1,8,5,2,7,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,4,3,49,13,0,0.0,0.3352131796385632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966656183523204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888923000082462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258880885150169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242500988542251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894971373455773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406510640591028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116675729101993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554850819038823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822010904570786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842305252152257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18124538731270204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575591606768105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178051463975393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246063703485053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretly15hotdogs,2019/10/14,DAE consider/avoid getting the flu shot? I remember I got the flu in college and even though it was miserable for 2.5 weeks I lost so much weight. I would basically drink water and eat like 1-2 fruit pops a day. Now I’m considering not getting the flu shot in hopes I can get the flu again... I feel really shitty about it cause I know I should get vaccinated but ed brain is winning right now,1.7623750000000022,3.9513924875000015,3.5025000000000013,87.76250000000002,80.375,7.5,22.5,8.472884824447931,1.37275,309,10,67,7,8,103,59,80,0.168,0.728,0.10400000000000001,-0.2838,0,1,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,0,1,5,0,5,10,1,1,0,11,15,5,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,8,3,4,10,1,8,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,6,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515030659352169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314394147074301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529625344323208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207027469700406,0.0,0.2305324216949945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14880483006836875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391562078917265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708281128797957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018851715969766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22376817933485613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381591333650592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006746649524353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24593545735553024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561731079106767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443293651928844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25521464297667035,0.1924001913581073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22135060957774627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18071758258891152,0.27434789130240145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004268169553484,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nosnomylime,2019/10/14,"I just have to tell someone I’m on fall break currently (this is my 4th day) and I have had an incredibly stressful semester. I haven’t lost any weight this entire semester, but I’ve maintained so I keep telling myself it’s okay. The past 3 days I wanted to just “eat what I want”. Cue eye rolling because that never turns out well. Gained 5 lbs. but the true awful thing happened this morning. I wake up confused and dazed from passing out after consuming more sugar than any one person should, and the first thought in my head is “I have to puke”. Not like being hungover and knowing you’re gonna puke, but like “oh shit if I don’t get to the bathroom I will be mopping up my own vomit”. So I ran to the bathroom and puked and puked. I had the sad realization that’s the first time I’ve ever had my body make itself get sick because I ate too much. 

How disgusting can I be? I will not let myself destroy all of this progress. That will never happen again. I refuse.",1.4038095238095245,3.708555571428569,2.619387755102043,92.90656462585035,82.57142857142857,5.161904761904762,22.59863945578231,6.42735559955562,0.4444108843537413,756,26,159,7,21,242,125,196,0.248,0.6559999999999999,0.096,-0.988,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,5,9,13,3,2,8,2,19,11,5,2,5,31,35,13,0,4,8,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,1,1,11,8,4,2,2,0,0,3,6,8,1,3,7,3,22,5,15,19,4,22,0,2,1,0,4,6,1,2,14,105,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192930611072116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965768731443252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909769982693505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20796875176393054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649854653676801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584788666314366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742958231578177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847911183276815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28516228099907104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547543967384962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14331464682523729,0.0,0.0,0.08861151039646291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487551830640826,0.0,0.15754427987214073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600897775627894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762679394672184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185275758303514,0.0,0.2487114691685142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925820610898047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539187383507616,0.0,0.14078572568724326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550722421432787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661538938281026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846961717508807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818560821819633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711854346634646,0.0,0.0,0.1280039826171351,0.09401845542593593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753793021116808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020324526637333,0.0,0.0,0.1963429446772311,0.14497121722320233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ieyeku,2019/10/14,"Lord this was my worst post binge poop Ended my friendship with some one I loved. (He loved me, but it was too freaking much) so I had to binge right ? So I went on a 3 day one. And lord that was fucking dumb. First I wasnt at my house. So I didnt know the toilet lacked pressure. So the poop struggle phase 1. The toilet didnt flush. But I got it too... I normally drop the kids off in the pool but I have to force these mother fuckers in. but I need flush this shit out my bod not force. 



I AM TOO WEAK. 



So I  took some of that lax-lax but like a real one. A really strong one. And weoohh lord. It got it out! Then l flushed all was good... until it wasn't. The water didnt go down... my 10lbs of poop paste started to rise. This bathroom was one of those decorated ones and I didnt know what the fuck to do I fell crying and right when I knew my life was over it stopped and sucked down smearing it ALL over the toilet bowl leaving me to clean with toilet tissue cause she had no damn brush and i wasnt gonna ask. 



 So the final chapter is me going to Cracker Barrel already sucked cause it is cracker Barrel. But as it turns out I got gas! And lax poop so what did I do? When to the B room of course.  It sprayed all over. I am so sorry. I cleaned all that I could but I didn't have time to reach in the bowl. I am sorry to Cracker Barrel. I spritzed some vanilla toilet freshener like that had any meaning though.",-0.9467592368993004,1.1535214125412558,0.8446703694759741,102.16954600338086,93.95049504950495,3.484150366256138,15.641068984947276,4.913462152894677,-1.1520904934395872,1080,25,263,4,41,348,143,303,0.204,0.726,0.07,-0.9936,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,2,14,19,8,2,14,0,28,13,5,2,4,39,50,28,0,4,8,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,3,1,21,12,1,1,4,1,0,6,10,13,0,7,24,1,33,6,31,24,10,37,3,0,0,5,7,17,8,3,14,175,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314772922279636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102134348902558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138264648695224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24478541498434764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512601176371596,0.0,0.13087301989179606,0.07683739552256717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552535779962477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051536167321995,0.0,0.10134299732725886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22029161598344696,0.0,0.0,0.13542345502450773,0.09993151777827773,0.2858686862225384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13747505592939496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095578281709855,0.0,0.0,0.12615526198255922,0.0,0.0,0.0841542429707867,0.11641452903073295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21506246582410565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12978168364224985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758383312071534,0.08834304436370931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673486933815845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4844063884988659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373549994103666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141060850443553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356108476850841,0.07632607349493405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20349498698913795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229860439066345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26674172717377764,0.08433004725817432,0.0,0.0,0.09960890487873457,0.0,0.12455415983863467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705741844149987,0.0,0.06947325677257267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323722860868302,0.0,0.1295933998596437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044677904558607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,palmsizegiraffe,2019/10/14,I drink instant soup from a Starbucks coffee cup with a straw It’s so weird and I’m so embarrassed even though no one knows.,1.0187179487179492,3.4000906153846167,1.85923076923077,97.16910256410259,85.15384615384616,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.04791282051282053,100,3,22,1,3,31,23,26,0.299,0.701,0.0,-0.7706,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5543864734741097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737850394255197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110150122595408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834822604919327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5560138490791376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wasting-thyme,2019/10/14,"Jelly Bean Belly I am currently stressed to the max studying to take the GREs. I forced myself to try to eat as normally as possible so that I could hopefully get the most from my brain cells in the process, knowing that I can begin restricting again once the test is over. 

Of course my ED took this to the other extreme, and I purchased and consumed a 2lb bag of jelly belly jelly beans in the last day and a half. I now feel sick to my stomach and I am freaking out about that to the extreme that I now can’t concentrate for different reasons. 

Dammit brain. Just be normal for like 2 days for me. I can’t deal with this.",5.813869516310461,5.254440330708666,6.2589426321709825,82.50346456692915,66.95275590551181,9.461867266591675,32.316085489313835,8.841846274778883,2.436989651293588,490,18,102,7,7,159,81,127,0.113,0.843,0.044000000000000004,-0.8242,2,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,10,0,8,5,3,1,0,16,15,7,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,6,1,1,3,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,14,2,21,12,1,13,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,9,71,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549573197437933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269658853792254,0.0,0.0,0.26283414792396603,0.21008156955825413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128999757634805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085112010432044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303402330002223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064632629324468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023931015225833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198860710452824,0.16610263040308348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955345745281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993096031801221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21701216705247567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297240460621588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095131350463379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23342189879595465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532123403153978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22639989802986665,0.1383488559568696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OrbitalSandwich,2019/10/14,"well, could be worse just bought a scale after over a month of not having one and non stop binging. 

now obviously i knew I'd gained weight but to actually see the number be higher than what it was all that time ago is just so soul crushing. turns out it's *very* possible to gain 6.1kg in 5 weeks and on top of all that samsung health just HAS to say that a 19.7 bmi is completely healthy.

honestly just still struggling with coming to terms with it, how I've gone from 65 to over 71kg in such a short timespan.",3.101886792452832,4.320721594339624,3.8265566037735854,91.22775943396229,73.62264150943396,7.186792452830187,23.62735849056604,7.645422480735847,0.7918150943396222,403,11,91,5,8,128,81,106,0.096,0.73,0.174,0.8397,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,10,3,0,1,5,0,8,2,0,1,3,19,14,5,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,6,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,1,4,3,1,2,18,7,3,19,1,0,1,0,1,8,0,0,9,56,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2326886539134427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21136776867977944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20539989854151394,0.25000583024172146,0.0,0.0,0.19037952733480398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534566799832205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903251212123572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157700992350013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26881175382825256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896216293847945,0.0,0.0,0.19001038954471874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19042308242965075,0.19935132228873928,0.0,0.2492752680156787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390396332353837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593605024908641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196742714224934,0.0,0.0,0.19126679628400486,0.2903626835029521,0.21439136370709566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24299658828372656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway74648593,2019/10/14,"Overcoming binge eating and losing weight Hi everyone. I debated where to post this heavily. I thought this would probably be the place I would get the least amount of judgement. A little backstory... about ten years ago when I was a kid/ teen I developed anorexia and got to my LW and almost was hospitalized. I got scared out of my disorder eventually as it became a life or death situation. For years I maintained a low weight for my height that was still healthy 5’10” and 130lb. Over the last two years out of seemingly nowhere I have developed a binge eating disorder. For about a year and a half I would put away 5000 calories a day regularly. I have a fast metabolism and I still gained 20 pounds in roughly 3 months. This was on top of 20 pounds I gained slowly from increasing calories and stopping my exercise purge behavior. I am up 40 pounds and am now overweight at 170lb. For the last 2ish months I have beat the binging somehow. My weight is still 170. I am desperate to lose it as I hate being (actually) fat now. I gasp for air going up stairs and I can’t run anymore. I have chest pains in the morning (which my doctor told me is from my excess weight). I need to lose 20-30 pounds as quickly as possible. I would like to lose 40-45lb long term a healthy way. How can I attempt this without bringing back my tendencies to starve or purge? I feel I have 100% beat the binging finally but now the weight is the issue. I need to do something because is destroying my health, my self confidence and my happiness. I am miserable everyday because of it. Please comment if you have advice or kind words or anything. I appreciate any comments in advance.",3.399342571704804,5.613441934579441,4.349949511225695,83.59065420560748,75.13707165109035,8.165903963905897,29.13750134278655,8.939507131559953,2.54015471049522,1315,58,254,30,29,425,175,321,0.11699999999999999,0.785,0.09699999999999999,-0.0516,0,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,0,11,14,13,2,2,19,0,27,15,2,1,0,33,39,22,1,7,7,0,7,1,0,4,7,0,0,2,9,12,9,1,3,1,0,6,2,10,0,3,8,7,40,3,37,25,4,52,0,6,0,0,7,19,0,8,26,164,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.08385852837858168,0.0,0.0,0.08397304984373231,0.07617470697451474,0.0,0.08604981113351197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058437607228576535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522276662363598,0.0,0.0,0.07071580381477846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073718682873364,0.06607742195471226,0.0,0.1047683136441203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05541988501613489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969740688720376,0.08795639861538357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586248784892985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211297385542964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043450470718050326,0.0,0.0,0.09413575626264857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044896615122214434,0.0,0.048837888471516884,0.0,0.13745745902690992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914776215241254,0.0,0.08484136680675271,0.0,0.09134310519076876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969206427601764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948633336787616,0.0,0.14009425716599685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069724822584744,0.04198268153945859,0.08612776633285707,0.0,0.07604828774430572,0.0,0.3845496355031158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718231903374642,0.0,0.0,0.12743694205965447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914391156882041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978203380302956,0.09432898466788986,0.0,0.0968769113052166,0.08230037040938215,0.0,0.09265065775621678,0.0,0.0,0.08638672575454286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603424870399044,0.0,0.0,0.07823047091280354,0.08964719849198798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965926568549144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615567128397516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20587939110865264,0.07184410686254025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822146056155069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211297385542964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394437113344236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820987287517277,0.0,0.5232181914566215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283665798151628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441782718287582,0.0,0.0,0.2213529733751065
EDAnonymous,bingerina,2019/10/14,"I binged tonight (x-post sort of) Today, I ate 3/4 of a bag of barbecue shapes, and eight chocolate croissants. I feel like shit.

Why did I do this to myself?

My ""boyfriend"" of three years, with whom I live, told me he didn't know if he wanted to be with me because ""we have fun, but you want to get serious"".

I feel so fucking stupid. What am I? I thought I was a partner, an equal, a loved one. But I'm not.

I'm just...a bit...of...

^^^^fun",-0.4955319148936184,1.3183334893617058,1.5079148936170237,100.99400000000004,86.44680851063829,4.611063829787233,21.102127659574467,5.6839178017228535,-0.26119234042553163,324,11,83,2,10,107,68,94,0.086,0.79,0.12300000000000001,0.3189,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,0,0,1,8,3,0,4,0,7,4,1,0,0,15,20,5,0,3,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,6,2,15,4,9,13,1,4,0,0,0,2,8,1,2,2,4,48,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16379071476745896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29333950423508154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27171511722777103,0.19195193732000276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483992488067126,0.14037925066706847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766480300869272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312681893603894,0.0,0.2372578806966856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425028965298493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18207105837584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25733040890146736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758060612078204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133095665892394,0.0,0.0,0.25468636805669714,0.2567444719048846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169602303155663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424506141845383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302732316645292
EDAnonymous,swtsumrchild,2019/10/14,"why does running feel SO good? i’ve been heavy restricting since the weekend. 
why does running in the mornings feel so, so good? 
is this a physical thing or mental? just curious!",1.9945454545454562,4.839274515151518,2.717333333333336,87.33600000000001,91.72727272727272,6.276363636363637,27.81212121212121,7.554174236665415,2.261550303030304,141,7,25,3,5,44,25,33,0.064,0.665,0.271,0.855,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990830395584071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883664007556984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783498471082475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873696978578233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23588359531570344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18944465871074956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146170127501324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,enukimushruum,2019/10/14,"Brain. Pls just stop. Pls. Y’all I’m not even low restricting or counting... Just eating 3 healthy meals but my brain just spends all the time between meals thinking about the next meal... The only time I won’t think about food is if I’m interacting with friends but SIKE here’s where Depression™️ and Social Anxiety™️ go “Aight imma head in” and all my lonely ass will do is lie in bed... thinking about food. 

For some reason the only entertainment that appeals to me has also to do with food... Cooking shows, food subreddits, etc. 

Ugh. 

I’m supposed to be studying bc my finals are coming up but I guess not... 

Bye end of rant I’ll just be here stewing passively in my pot of crippling mental illnesses",1.7225,4.288190724637683,2.9085326086956518,89.5719293478261,83.78260869565217,5.7688405797101465,23.11775362318841,7.1686216300943375,0.9857231884057968,552,20,109,8,16,177,94,138,0.153,0.746,0.10099999999999999,-0.8945,0,2,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,12,5,0,0,4,0,10,14,4,1,2,26,19,8,0,1,11,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,5,9,2,4,3,1,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,16,15,4,14,0,2,0,1,5,6,1,4,7,61,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312830825931346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158400971618792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185827751231072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475247487811024,0.0,0.0,0.12529467065726396,0.0,0.1577691944821001,0.09343530626989767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496634740259496,0.0,0.0,0.6842328933302171,0.0,0.109294347656876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803969659538308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583799180767424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14518236119134795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425619334369458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044803501542212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151787296710848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454480366795506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442042213156518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826981866301865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719322924615439,0.0,0.0,0.16497700663257986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sameoldmistkes,2019/10/14,"is this ‘tip’ even real ??? tw purging hi this is my first post kinda nervous but i can’t stop thinking abt this thing i read on mpa one time ages ago

someone said that when u purge u should brush ur teeth BEFORE purging to minimise damage??? is this even true or am i super gullible? i mean i don’t always do it but like if it does work tht sure would be good",-1.340212550607287,0.5687234605263178,0.35315789473684234,102.94325910931177,103.86842105263159,2.3384615384615386,15.056680161943321,3.1291,-1.4566020242914983,277,7,64,0,13,88,60,76,0.129,0.65,0.221,0.8835,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,3,7,0,1,0,0,10,1,1,0,2,13,13,5,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,2,6,5,2,9,0,8,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,3,7,35,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170823908950444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377014565085394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083854473057116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143070431040399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32349832198376616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20830540239990547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054041776169014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964208655006738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26675968294026875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659454695810546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23453928330822116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449587325856557,0.2787412346371915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329488104178674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749658767521764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047410631281744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23080824650503315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626956695466043,0.15691720081771282,0.0,0.0,0.14279876350322016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828462841434828,0.0,0.0,0.1739645781339895,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anongurlx,2019/10/14,Is telling gp about bulimia worth it? Been having a good yak after eating at least 3 times a week for almost a year now and it’s not getting any better!! I’ve been going to the gp and counselling for anxiety but haven’t told the doctor about making myself sick. I got put on venlafaxine and I’m going back on Thursday to say how I find it (good) but I don’t know if there’s any point telling her about being bulimic cause like what is she going to do?? Anyway any advice is welcome pls help XD,2.080474649406689,3.8203272524271834,3.6519741100323637,89.26354908306368,77.44660194174756,6.131175836030206,21.153182308522112,6.937597516519254,0.4776373247033439,389,10,81,4,9,129,72,103,0.068,0.723,0.209,0.9483,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,5,0,10,3,0,3,0,13,19,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,4,1,6,5,12,14,1,15,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,2,8,50,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455130493765173,0.0,0.0,0.18911549555340368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852927823225673,0.0,0.14447699063858066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522128791738992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670308687651081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940107169087664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193305687625884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932504040433181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261414965750746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986712870796918,0.0,0.3219995962248835,0.3168127546681572,0.15104818441177212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265885331618764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103792234963503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226720569643863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606517410330229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178533260014133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985594779468276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018864434246845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301430319473541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012548564868947,0.0,0.0,0.1804633332424082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514916886581995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161931763889088
EDAnonymous,0ClandestineCat0,2019/10/14,"My grandpa told me my face looks fuller I was riding the bus back from the grocery store when my grandparents called me. They live in Cuba so the last time I’d talked to them and they’d seen my face was in August. One of the first things to come out of my grandpa’s mouth is that I don’t look skinny and my face looks fuller. I’ve dropped over 10 pounds from when he last saw me and somehow I look fatter??? Thx fam, guess it’s time to up my restriction and exercise even more. I don’t understand why I can’t ever have one interaction with my family where my weight or how I look isn’t brought up ughhh",2.485312499999999,3.75338565625,3.4145000000000003,93.38050000000004,75.25,6.995000000000001,21.39375,7.554174236665415,0.4510974999999995,476,11,111,6,10,152,79,128,0.018000000000000002,0.956,0.026000000000000002,0.2359,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,3,1,9,0,0,0,4,0,9,7,5,1,1,14,21,9,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,7,2,1,1,1,1,3,4,0,0,3,6,8,21,0,14,14,1,21,0,0,7,0,10,7,0,3,10,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797661777036007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994658720932765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336719624693495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992735301904794,0.15054807587915156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689811488848002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156772971785825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334459021022986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713300348406938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696328951109985,0.0,0.6988085446536944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255584647819433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377245120457334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11057061558308444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409671110553398,0.0,0.0,0.15903375704164374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732625062328034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20267042059974905,0.0,0.0,0.15017979466021605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iwannaberepulsive,2019/10/14,"Just a small mental breakdown. FUCK THANKSGIVING FUCK THANKSGIVING FUCK THANKSGIVING FUCK THANKSGIVING FUCK THANKSGIVING FUCK THANKSGIVING 

ALSO ! FUCK POP TARTS ! 

AND MOST OF ALL, FUCK THIS EATING DISORDER

:') guess its time to get so high i cant think",5.091000000000001,8.268980099999999,3.4700000000000024,79.09000000000003,98.0,9.0,25.0,8.472884824447931,3.5705,204,8,29,7,8,58,28,40,0.5479999999999999,0.405,0.048,-0.9896,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,8,0,1,0,1,9,0,0,1,6,12,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,12,2,3,0,0,0,8,0,2,8,2,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015063201694282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547341448971393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12988164754143156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9387620331750092,0.06631597690254379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982831825550812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410910190694514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791614656035474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0813319753700569,0.0,0.0,0.07401422824009159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ButterflyBallerina,2019/10/14,ED group meeting a donut shop? A local Project HEAL chapter is holding their meetings at a donut shop. This seems a bit insensitive to me and maybe even triggering. What do you think?,3.0452941176470567,5.967111470588236,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,81.3529411764706,5.752941176470588,29.088235294117645,7.1686216300943375,1.7579647058823538,146,7,27,2,4,44,29,34,0.07200000000000001,0.9279999999999999,0.0,-0.3094,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,15,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5544784216302824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33545297585649103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5102383260629579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623590478412009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254319321014213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,certifiedsnax,2019/10/14,BIG TW (and rant): i’ve been drinking too much laxative tea i was hoping that the senna teas would be less harm on my body than normal laxative pills but i’m pretty sure i’ve been shitting a little bit of blood this past day. i can’t say for sure and maybe i’m just being paranoid but i know i need to stop but i’m already like super constipated so should i just be using fiber capsules instead so i can have my body go back to normal? i don’t rly know what to do i’m losing my mind,-0.12842767295597213,1.9284037358490602,2.2153773584905667,94.91256289308176,87.11320754716982,4.665408805031447,17.323899371069178,5.985473137389443,-0.4330666666666661,380,9,87,3,12,129,72,106,0.127,0.682,0.191,0.8098,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,1,0,2,0,13,8,4,1,2,20,23,7,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,2,3,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,1,10,5,7,15,3,8,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,5,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008536118800155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941986889590988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794877250116885,0.4027996776434309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693302908324055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761945073333862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030453641565896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800864812545883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929171540272825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885812397484529,0.18172503610468355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028448529762552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821550603001817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18307623416043653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328722083660915,0.13444260708771216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552999624339977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730854674596056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18446230844414616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418878529567122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611700939099435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515872693487368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34177405642330544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15659774899282727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288008128893395,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gay-commie,2019/10/14,"Does anyone else feel like this or am I gonna get my ED card ~revoked~? I really hate eating home cooked food. I like some dishes obviously, but even if it's all cooked and done...idk it doesn't seem at all appealing and I'd much rather eat out, calories and control be damned. I'm eating more these days, but even at my worst I'd starve all day/for days so I could eat 1 piece of sushi and 1 dumpling. It's weird af and I'm worried it makes me fake because I feel so adverse to eating homemade stuff. Or I'll eat home made stuff but not stuff that's cooked - like toast or canned peaches or even weetbix, but not anything cooked. Idk maybe that's part of disordered eating too. Anyone else have a similar thing?

Brought to you all because I'm hungry but I don't want to eat home food OR go out and buy anything bc broke. Guess that's better anyway.",1.2888700564971742,3.4141636779661013,2.245000000000001,96.48128531073448,81.71186440677967,5.0632768361581935,20.002824858757066,6.139981653823899,-0.1364598870056497,669,18,150,5,18,210,102,177,0.18600000000000005,0.74,0.07400000000000001,-0.9736,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,2,8,11,2,0,1,0,7,15,0,3,5,37,22,19,0,4,14,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,13,8,15,1,3,4,1,2,4,7,0,0,2,2,10,4,9,17,10,8,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,9,5,77,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084672008086965,0.17708470867128012,0.1422243234245644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535553384499308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764270232933226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692174291357017,0.06899532619778853,0.0,0.0,0.16719153058060232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903904843847124,0.0,0.07562232730339405,0.08843252246184906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7073927467638467,0.144377246820572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122882873671144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738801607261222,0.0617348756846239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898666251069697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04514825799431533,0.0,0.049111621947612184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519583790175236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531689764929175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600437984855801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266539759585667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176793914002163,0.057682667095619575,0.0,0.08681545774065708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635249499456191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935789972687039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553596460162753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866894807489508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29677341665697626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057410269840385934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050969791419401785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877586021905317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amskinnypig,2019/10/14,"Oh god it's another relapse So my period is like a week late, and I don't remember having last month. My ed has been kicking my ass lately. I think I lost my period.again.",0.6016666666666666,2.797832500000002,3.9811111111111153,82.55000000000003,85.1111111111111,8.044444444444443,22.88888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.037855555555556,134,5,28,4,4,49,31,36,0.159,0.7140000000000001,0.126,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,5,0,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31250923802078245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429332926040321,0.6723790548914461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560184357368006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32533369878781404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378837871308089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.337608593235019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909648551466816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23906076908076546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carnavas_,2019/10/14,"A stranger touched me and made a comment about calories?? Literally why I was at the store with my boyfriend and I picked up a package of Reese's thins, bc I'd been thinking of buying those. I was reading the back when out of nowhere this old woman PRESSES HER HAND INTO THE SMALL OF MY BACK and says something like ""not too many calories in those?"" I was too shocked by a stranger touching me that way to even say anything, I just put the bag down and walked away. 

My boyfriend was like ""well she was rude!"" but I couldn't even say anything until we left-- I totally boiled over. I mind my own fucking business, I don't mess with anybody, but somehow this bitch is allowed to TOUCH ME and IMPLY I SHOULD EAT LESS

why do things like this always happen to people who already have food issues

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EDAnonymous,thatchedrooves,2019/10/14,DAE only eat in front of people? i know a lot of people hate eating in front of other people but i usually find myself waiting until i “have” to eat bc im going to be around friends or just fasting for long periods of time so if i’m randomly asked to dinner by friends i can go and not sacrifice social life too badly - im at uni so this is like easier to pull off as i don’t have to face a family dinner every evening but was just curious. i rly don’t mind eating in front of people as long as i feel like i’ve saved enough calories. it’s like the only time i actually don’t feel guilty bc it’s like i had to eat,1.993529411764708,2.776076,4.724294117647059,85.41482352941178,75.76470588235293,7.792941176470588,22.423529411764704,8.238735603445708,1.0848023529411766,480,12,108,8,10,173,81,136,0.069,0.705,0.225,0.9751,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,7,9,1,0,3,0,10,9,1,0,0,18,19,11,0,1,7,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,7,1,4,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,2,2,10,7,23,16,2,20,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,4,12,64,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.11886993659309095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084375899265411,0.11387681493920132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170707302902596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6232151691635461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586329552899989,0.0,0.08045499774960699,0.0,0.10263099702593348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483254288932905,0.0,0.12318257424879353,0.08702178227095092,0.0,0.0,0.1113330210214841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822170859864093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13845596430553173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026311560418107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631535038498337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694412422148684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603869144243644,0.23804275076584785,0.0,0.0,0.21559775295287992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355933183965096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229943566582447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18528546544752905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377935604079338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417094527331185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205791394336534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415757561689004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckwhywhywhy,2019/10/14,"I realized I don’t know what I look like Last weekend I was at a birthday party and thought in my head “I’ve always thought she was kind of big but I’m pretty sure I’m almost as big as her”

Then I saw her today from across the room& whispered to my fiancé “I’m pretty sure idk what I look like and that’s why I think I’m fat bc at the bday party I though I was the same size as her”

And he said “yea you obviously dk what you look like.. you’re half the size of her”",-0.9928816199376946,0.8285282710280413,1.4519859813084108,100.53411604361372,88.7196261682243,4.314330218068536,16.393302180685357,5.46131890053228,-0.9254417445482868,363,8,94,2,12,123,62,107,0.015,0.7509999999999999,0.23399999999999999,0.9729,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,0,5,1,4,2,2,0,3,14,17,9,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,3,1,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,6,18,6,11,10,1,10,0,0,4,0,9,6,0,1,7,50,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699598833648345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553850100353962,0.2023357988837494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19165203839916375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944639404817609,0.10262898606937257,0.15222034618050806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736993698442702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.470450882344244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799692254217893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776352130921797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35200585036521986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196572773008881,0.18347390100868208,0.2965059254731437,0.0,0.0,0.17701038559480664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850637524089626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iampieman,2019/10/14,"I gained 500 grams this morning since yesterday morning and I’m freaking out :( I feel like I can’t eat anything today now. Yesterday I had a slice of low carb bread for breakfast and a small amount of chicken for dinner but now I’m thinking I didn’t weigh it correctly and probably ate way too many calories :( I can’t bring myself to eat today now and I’m just lying in bed all day coz I’m so tired 

Sorry just needed somewhere to vent feeling like this is all kinds new to me and it’s all overwhelming",0.4449587912087942,2.887641490384617,2.1706043956043963,92.73153846153849,90.82692307692308,4.894505494505495,21.85164835164835,6.5431188927421005,0.5897494505494509,401,15,82,5,14,131,68,104,0.192,0.7290000000000001,0.079,-0.9228,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,1,2,0,5,8,0,1,4,18,15,7,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,6,7,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,2,8,3,9,12,4,15,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,11,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564432490551862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765223280918418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43680827040213743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158450638866676,0.3049655727419424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222666754073724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20855365728531905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639637321170468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582643090271562,0.0,0.2061433147649576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301262427316429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656117206202893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23893049783334186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676481690167594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531982473709565,0.4046355311042852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942007905943085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PenelopeSummer,2019/10/14,"My treadmill is broken. And today is Sunday so I can’t call customer service to see what I can do about it at home. 

It has an intense incline program on it that makes me burn 200 cal (according to my height and weight) in 20 minutes. 

It’s the only exercise that fits in my busy schedule. 

I’m just so sad right now. 

I’ll probably have to wait at least a week or two for an appointment with a technician. The anxiety is kicking in big time. I’m high restricting and don’t think I’ll be able to low restrict until I get it fixed. And I know I can do other forms of exercise.. but you know how it gets in our heads when something that gave you stability goes wrong.

Stupid little stuff like this makes me feel like my life is literally over, even though I act maturely otherwise.. 

I’m so ashamed of this but at least I can share it on here. 

I’ve been sitting here in front of it for three hours now, trying different way to fix it, (like someone at the hospital bedside of a dying family member, refusing to leave them for even a second. I’m such an idiot, and I’ve wasted so much time doing this)

[FYI, I loosened the belt too much and now it’s not tightening. It’s probably not broken forever but I’m just feeling so down right now. Panting on the treadmill everyday is the one of the main things that gives me motivation in life.]

Thanks so much for listening guys ❤️

I don’t normally participate here, but I just needed someone to share this with. 😔 


I’m having major anxiety about tomorrow, which ashames me because I’m a pretty reasonable person when it comes to other things.. but if anything messes with my tiny little daily 20min exercise regime, I just go bonkers.",2.5291626424570204,4.6379926676646726,4.121516322194321,84.70338516515359,77.41317365269461,7.662970832528491,26.043654626231408,8.558390810932622,1.9737505505118795,1317,51,261,28,31,439,182,334,0.13,0.7959999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.9621,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,1,1,27,14,2,2,15,0,19,7,1,5,0,39,44,24,1,3,13,0,3,3,0,0,5,1,1,2,27,10,1,4,7,3,0,4,5,8,0,4,2,5,24,6,38,41,8,46,0,2,1,0,13,24,0,2,19,174,51,3,0.122077437751546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867778114785835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045932959771237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441727297153088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465471302011585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515890314789103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669710684430735,0.12754493959222424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126199259032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115083743698427,0.0,0.12345204108754405,0.0872121459219299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756084532950182,0.11710780210794088,0.06937942114986058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087585636145293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252866704747302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898151550093526,0.12245362365066915,0.0,0.12022168555806588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418113437488235,0.0,0.0,0.1292623799883854,0.0,0.0,0.17245380908532548,0.1789226091475268,0.2447073270413436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297527529199318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269222889472206,0.09051887325517427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960996950226024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272283120936902,0.09284539243007864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10659330989836832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241966418244104,0.2632402507749331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551593797713556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085069296400654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972799124688353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20687163370125172,0.09398117574512924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397494594544302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239250306060022,0.0,0.0,0.16220565037872606,0.07822229284029984,0.11994046276988785,0.0,0.14236867134735087,0.0,0.11571513684833434,0.0,0.0,0.08288256685982721,0.0,0.11925191813777865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689938785017413,0.09792315696675916,0.14865743132817238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347251414408062,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GeraldBones,2019/10/21,Halloween Every year since forever my family has had a Halloween party. It’s fun but the food. SO MUCH CUTE HALLOWEEN THEMED FOOD. My fat ass of course eats so much of everything. And then on top of that I’m on candy duty and I’m constantly eating fucking candy. I LOVE HALLOWEEN BUT HATE IT AAGGHH,1.2571610169491514,3.90608240677966,3.08625,86.0714088983051,89.33898305084746,5.661864406779661,20.934322033898304,7.1686216300943375,1.0453881355932202,238,8,43,4,8,79,42,59,0.14,0.603,0.257,0.8473,4,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,2,0,2,8,2,0,0,5,7,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,3,5,6,2,6,0,0,0,3,1,3,2,0,3,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446206445020005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632567556432097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907226631472808,0.0,0.20344267935626326,0.0,0.2133972097171875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5474440256296723,0.0,0.0,0.20927122020402794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22348902720513245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430366558516455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328093181484547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187251847742528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577193458365145
EDAnonymous,blackcoatsdaughter,2019/10/21,"my dad reminds me of myself during the worst phase of my ed i developed my ed after leaving home so he's not aware i ever had a problem with food (i mean he did notice i lost a shit ton of weight but he never said anything, good or bad, about it). i live in a different country than he does so i don't see him often. he was over visiting this week and... my god. he's constantly justifying himself whenever he eats (like ""oh i walked a lot today so it's okay to be hungry""), gets really anxious if he sits down for more than half an hour, he's constantly looking at his fitbit. this morning he was boasting to me about skipping breakfast. if we're out for dinner and i don't want any dessert bc i'm genuinely not hungry he'll spiral into endless self justification/hatred for ever wanting one. sometimes he'll avoid eating with me for no valuable reason even though we only see each other a few days each semester.

thankfully i have a great support system and it wasn't enough to hinder my own recovery (which is... a work in progress). he's always kind of been like that and i can definitely trace back some of my ed rules to his own food rules. i might just be more aware of his weird food and exercise habits because i'm trying to fight them myself but i really feel like it's more intense than before. i'm just worried, really. and i care about him a lot but our relationship is kind of awkward and idk how to bring it up to him. 

anyways, tl;dr my 50 yo father is behaving in the same way i did when i was deep into my ed and i' m v sad and worried. sorry for the rant haha, just had nowhere else to talk about this.",2.6572972972972977,4.171912687687692,4.457237237237237,85.07342342342342,75.27627627627628,7.215615615615616,24.94594594594595,7.921354282810032,1.3738900900900894,1267,42,260,19,27,430,190,333,0.14,0.738,0.122,0.0909,1,1,0,0,1,0,37.0,2,0,1,3,19,23,2,2,12,2,19,11,1,2,3,45,38,21,0,5,11,2,2,3,0,3,1,1,1,1,11,17,9,1,3,1,0,3,7,10,0,2,11,6,39,13,40,22,15,29,0,2,3,0,31,11,1,8,15,172,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860224456490179,0.0,0.0,0.07241197572371505,0.0,0.0,0.12029528855463267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762629600985232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187872333230115,0.08890871510191882,0.06491094471526157,0.0,0.09060904533867736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856634170152464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301402206160388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867261612376581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125189343809316,0.0,0.0,0.09318384194326416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21791703672975726,0.08895274072931103,0.0,0.0,0.11002522785001274,0.0,0.07033090482708029,0.19263963164330855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05384091820379778,0.07607135489368712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862783814398631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05563288365983906,0.0,0.0,0.0893127456023338,0.0,0.11739769578470835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681096038029836,0.0,0.1048641380317788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217709624589214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274994186361965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606639597138344,0.0,0.09402628957952626,0.0,0.08941875865577015,0.0,0.11623858739618312,0.1810557880875982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599101817607352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296145508805296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212612280894324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123140750395806,0.0,0.0,0.07215552127764037,0.08098499037180754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018896873094223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20464688227801173,0.10948208373659307,0.0,0.11432270913105952,0.0,0.0,0.10128955547350728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16970605796279972,0.0,0.11108481453577516,0.0,0.10930309460223273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10531424144258696,0.11919881009641425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083545339158792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558686510466451,0.0,0.09803508327115752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461883964704652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009332719509171,0.0,0.0,0.0722948517255582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561266379574934,0.08452111393670103,0.08541410312958997,0.12966740006916552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752076830723179,0.21627696494649604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ecastine1,2019/10/21,"Weigh in at the doctors TW NUMBERS



So in two months I have another appointment with my primary care physician. Last time I was there she brought up concerns with my weight (I went from 138lbs/62kg to 121.5lbs/55kg). The doctor mentioned an eating disorder but my mother very strongly assured her that was not the case (she has no clue). I am worried however because I have lost weight since then and with another two months until the next appointment I’m sure I’ll loose more. What the hell do I do to throw her off my tracks?",3.8138833883388337,6.0717875940594075,3.9747854785478562,86.55335533553357,74.04950495049505,7.261166116611661,30.03410341034103,8.167268648758528,2.224622882288229,421,19,79,7,9,130,72,101,0.177,0.72,0.10400000000000001,-0.8533,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,2,6,1,0,6,0,8,7,0,0,2,8,13,5,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,5,2,14,4,12,8,1,15,1,1,0,0,6,5,1,0,7,52,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699897737693904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754581677819956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987499556706346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219603030861105,0.3611528104610738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18052476210130147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380828314208355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258653340362608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28163829377127303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762785059555812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459389198536968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627657953478475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028736638168356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446792505659473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556744268250058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296713446743365,0.0,0.16354587858724898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916610940968355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FastestDickEver,2019/10/21,"Well, I’ve made that mistake again. For some unknown reason I decided to look through the folder on my phone full of old body checks. Now I’ve been trying SO hard you guys to get better. And I’ve been doing kind of okay at it. Yes I have put in some weight but my friends tell me it’s healthy and I have to trust them. Also I’ve managed to keep calorie counting at a minimum so woo! 
BUT tell me WHY the HELL I didn’t realise and appreciate how skinny I was a year ago. I mean I could see my ribs and all that and I didn’t realise. All I did was think I wasn’t good enough. I would give anything to look that small again. God damn. 
So basically I’m hella triggered rn. The temptation to start restricting so I look like that is intense. I’m finding it hard to get the thoughts out of my head. 
My apologies if this is stupid or something, I just need somewhere to rant about it.",0.8781507823613097,2.931842567567569,2.303584637268848,95.88940256045521,82.7837837837838,5.192034139402562,22.709815078236126,6.339386263674448,0.288081081081081,685,24,157,6,19,221,112,185,0.138,0.67,0.192,0.8421,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,1,12,12,3,0,6,2,15,5,4,4,2,30,31,15,0,5,5,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,9,6,2,2,6,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,10,7,22,8,19,19,6,15,1,0,4,0,9,7,2,4,8,97,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405342671892994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678268734040907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304631689772964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14021387360843485,0.0,0.17609984762708086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657959881468622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381201244827034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490075243002667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248597473316244,0.0,0.16565900037111672,0.15208398300237108,0.0,0.13297405404461532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569774289447254,0.0,0.0,0.2840376053753255,0.0,0.16270560560380035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091575432314746,0.0,0.16509280813537308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745360132154452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39939567748942056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500123776873942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269423099262693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755383103206772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635883871950233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937436034849936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16300334763559668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12633416636703568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205020739259435,0.0,0.0,0.11221392920873838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27713819425359804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158467361350966,0.0,0.12586136983511895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763681550341482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930564305053837,0.14254459598301844,0.0,0.14305577994724258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262076303911732,0.0,0.0,0.10209319844791324
EDAnonymous,Bittybybitty,2019/10/21,"Pre-spending/logging calories? So I just cooked a meal that will last me for about 4 days and instead of logging one portion for the day I log as much of the 4 portions as I can for today (as long as it's at least within maintenance) and as little as possible for the next three days. Does anyone else do this just to have a(few) ""free"" meal(s)?

I often do this with desserts too, just eat half, so I have some ""free"" dessert tomorrow, as I pretty much pre-plan/log everything I eat. I guess it's the same logic as bingeing on stuff today so you can't be tempted tomorrow. 

... Does this even make sense? 

I hate this overthinking bullshit.",4.911190476190473,5.373387698412703,5.162023809523814,86.10589285714286,68.84126984126982,8.204761904761906,30.035714285714285,8.07648339933343,1.8855428571428576,494,18,102,6,8,156,81,126,0.069,0.903,0.027999999999999997,-0.7041,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,11,3,1,0,5,0,8,6,0,1,0,12,11,13,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,3,6,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,11,4,20,9,7,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,10,72,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656084239851295,0.1854579908361149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35019404644193464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316792228742291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704205702774507,0.15120398773389804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955014745581255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267297214324866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993941652634941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870205215493293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754082939109342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814116058061559,0.0,0.16018111912000235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082027438608595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26611466734258976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19249773440648094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226516739646933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204052616173738,0.0,0.1841441570345108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072040437586667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431375602118981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AnnKay1,2019/10/21,"Virtual Binge Eating Disorder Study Hi everyone. I’m sharing a post to a research study that is trying to help understand Binge Eating Disorder so that better tools and therapies can be created to help those who are suffering. It’s fully home based, and you get compensated $300 for your participation [https://eligibility.horizon.mygretel.ai](https://eligibility.horizon.mygretel.ai/?fbclid=IwAR1Cw9aUspVn-fQjJO737nUZ2wYfSxfdS9PgQHEMOqw64pcf4lGxSOTZdkQ)",18.05913793103448,22.405260258620693,13.665000000000004,22.91750000000001,41.24137931034483,14.075862068965519,40.36206896551725,13.023866798666859,6.764744827586206,397,15,38,12,4,116,48,58,0.133,0.657,0.209,0.5965,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,20,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085554547208842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5405191224819997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4825865564637234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253272871240612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320138964097133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161179641968053,0.0,0.2365374196347664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22584152446240024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696701557650623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010002736756412,0.0,0.0,0.24548731801343485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diet_coke_farts,2019/10/21,I saw a picture of an e girl my boyfriend finds attractive. Please excuse me while I obsess over how my body compares to hers :),3.66,5.351617599999997,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,73.0,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.4481999999999997,100,4,20,1,2,31,23,25,0.07,0.596,0.33299999999999996,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6138724206330199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051144384527423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6066465653514634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,missnoone,2019/10/21,"Why can't I stop eating??? Every evening after a horrible day of eating - and feeling so fucking guilty over wanting to constantly eat-, I feel positive I'll do better and feel better the next day but I don't.

I've been steadily gaining weight (already being overweight) and it feels so bad.

I feel like I want to just eat even more and more. Just thinking about the lack of control makes me want to cry (and does if I say it out loud).

The worst is I know all of the right things I should do but I just can't get myself to do it.",3.0432727272727256,4.016655281818181,4.039772727272727,90.5896590909091,73.45454545454545,6.590909090909091,25.56818181818182,6.6274283507984215,0.8090909090909091,411,13,90,3,8,133,69,110,0.195,0.65,0.155,-0.8962,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,8,6,1,0,5,0,10,7,0,2,1,28,23,10,0,6,6,0,6,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,6,6,2,7,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,8,11,3,11,20,5,9,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,7,61,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796799809578124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195230701883725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532065409927748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546927413714512,0.1605532847717245,0.0,0.0,0.15724197393121647,0.18463796057722756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527027151657258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5859068651804369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909655064574069,0.0,0.12060883767181572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619010711212077,0.10226536149870116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233853916710192,0.07478921555478645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867070617340848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06993515681918196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555277689191166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522401199749238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224809004076895,0.0,0.1138374822914605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196786078384124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510154404388538,0.09172381862649516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532981926608187,0.0,0.0,0.17431638441568434,0.0,0.0,0.12916931212749053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yvesrosies,2019/10/21,"Relapse🤪 Yeah i started counting cals again, recovery lasted a week that's kinda lame",2.1372916666666697,4.743419812500001,3.452500000000004,79.80916666666668,100.875,4.633333333333333,30.33333333333333,6.42735559955562,2.4248583333333342,71,4,10,1,3,23,16,16,0.17,0.68,0.15,-0.079,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6060750356755874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5262733606533821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5964137833731131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cam_Leon,2019/10/21,"Is it still Claustrophobia if its because I'm fat? Planet Fitness' bathroom stalls are so narrow that I had to talk myself through going in there in order to keep myself from panicking.

I panic because of the small confined space, but more so because I feel like I will die due to my own fault: being obese and thinking I can fit into a space. 

That's irrational right? Fml.",3.9333333333333336,5.9063101111111145,4.659444444444446,83.03000000000002,72.8888888888889,6.466666666666668,27.277777777777786,7.1686216300943375,1.5120944444444442,296,11,53,3,6,95,58,72,0.203,0.6920000000000001,0.10400000000000001,-0.8408,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,0,6,2,1,0,0,8,11,5,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,8,1,9,8,2,14,0,0,0,0,1,10,0,1,3,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5687335783737059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227606354809804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724691836019658,0.22217277363730767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767439416525059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764240120367182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15193500064511156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648821488776868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655855006835909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483586427696277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499636194701641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19927114023952866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RotundToRadient,2019/10/21,"Life Fasting    I would love to have people join my circle to help me stay on track. I couldn't find any recent posts about a life fasting circle, so I made my own. Feel free to join me!
   https://lifefastingtracker.app.link/0eO9V3AsY0",4.707000000000002,8.136085700000002,2.870000000000001,88.73500000000001,79.5,4.2,15.5,5.6839178017228535,-0.7786500000000003,188,3,33,1,5,52,30,40,0.0,0.6679999999999999,0.332,0.9312,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,5,3,1,6,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181014788269789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216632351608273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931334535764446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149727237456702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530698714957637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894634908316933,0.30347424435877196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22234776360544736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071623453726343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31667358703407994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418462274967354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22783120625969816,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RuntyGlee6,2019/10/21,"Can't restrict, can only fast And I can only fast if I can lie in bed for days and have absolutely no food in the house. Otherwise I just binge. I'm completely incapable of restricting at all, it's miraculous to me that people can just have food and eat 50-200 or however many cals at a time. 

I really wish I could restrict or even eat normally... but it feels impossible. I'm either binging or fasting and it sucks. I have no willpower. I even purposely spend all my money on bullshit so I can't buy groceries. I'm literally an animal that has to lock itself up.

Thank god I finally live alone, at least. When I had roommates I would sneak some of their food when I got too hungry. Now I have full control over the food I have access to.",2.0763428571428584,4.094742386666667,4.164571428571431,84.28800000000003,78.46666666666667,8.019047619047619,24.714285714285715,8.841846274778883,1.9440285714285717,578,21,119,14,14,198,96,150,0.135,0.79,0.075,-0.8668,2,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,9,2,1,0,4,0,15,6,0,1,2,24,23,12,0,5,8,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,4,6,4,1,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,2,1,17,1,14,19,6,18,0,0,0,0,1,9,1,5,9,82,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233330859626432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421340166914865,0.0,0.16496574306939205,0.11743355940970887,0.0,0.0,0.0948561669378055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010046213672079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942934586077512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436942719671231,0.0,0.0,0.16112189710005134,0.0,0.0,0.7114118883192803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763546312399475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697136760861823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987670958717648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491187617026114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410980718563166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372602646504486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196861752352168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422493721844444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354139793913044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576509910720109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913783427566728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044833226757428,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemonye,2019/10/21,"Empty cabinets :( Anyone else has trouble buying and keeping food at home? I barely keep anything other than my safe foods. I know some people hoard food in their cabinets but I really dislike dealing with it (and I’m also poor lol) it’s only a tad awkward when I have someone over, to have them almost empty... am I alone with this habit?",1.383418803418806,4.074195923076921,3.2020512820512828,84.96905982905986,89.76923076923076,4.735042735042735,21.068376068376068,6.42735559955562,0.7576324786324791,265,9,45,3,9,88,53,65,0.253,0.7190000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.9274,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,1,1,4,3,0,0,0,11,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,7,8,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,1,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19449519454824207,0.20116567467982044,0.0,0.15532718300164686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581146299734054,0.19901353833194846,0.15983630689497502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002445637455897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622558320251344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7045979658409189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948304358451127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452844803770036,0.0,0.0,0.10674477452389833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772211498588758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465594576333406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442993093157916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457206147278086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pineapple_Boy_,2019/10/21,My cousin was just diagnosed with an ED If I tried to tell my family I have an ED they would think I'm trying to copy him for attention.,2.869,3.1981792333333345,4.813333333333336,87.27000000000002,73.33333333333334,10.0,21.66666666666667,10.125756701596842,1.598666666666666,107,2,26,3,2,37,24,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350947752251662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4041154070949925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746797025330833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746767936042868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5820825977890882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30451749249641724,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lamb-of-hell-666,2019/10/21,"I keep binging I don’t have an ED (not that I know of anyway) so I’m not If this is the right sub but if it isn’t then let me know and I’ll put it in r/offmychest

I finally almost got back down to my GW in August. All I had to do was lose one more pound and I would’ve been there. 

But in the short span of two weeks this month, I binged and gained a pound. It sounds stupid but I hate myself for gaining a pound rather then losing it.

I eat when stressed. I’m stressed over that point. I’m just binging instead of working on getting back on track.

I’m stressed over how when I binge, it makes me look more like a box and my stomach pouch become more noticeable. 

I want an hour glass shape and a 20-22in waist. 

I started at a 30” waist but, at last check, my waist is still 24”. Even so I still had a nightmare the other night that my waist went up to a 27”. 

I feel like I’m going crazy.",-0.718767881864327,1.1611181776649744,1.0200392247346564,103.69842062759577,88.03553299492388,3.987909552376558,16.568758652514994,4.851557810540192,-1.131810152284264,679,15,177,2,22,219,113,197,0.14800000000000002,0.769,0.083,-0.9281,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,5,15,9,2,3,12,0,11,6,5,2,1,24,29,18,0,4,10,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,11,5,5,1,3,0,1,3,4,7,0,2,6,3,21,2,18,22,4,35,0,2,1,0,0,16,0,3,18,109,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14661773201857142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251747358190551,0.0,0.0,0.16170856175505074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498234497897225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670853592868196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07403397390303931,0.1046019438533799,0.0,0.1603951351347872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764980166466185,0.0,0.08321343591515562,0.0,0.11710485256203206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445586994172651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419347064296184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014415994100653,0.0,0.0,0.16093638490020173,0.1193512338024503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972360676429428,0.0,0.143066102535027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295529618765864,0.3276113838213722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773598857917523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687045110749165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740455056223885,0.0,0.0,0.16669929040592896,0.0,0.0,0.09921747543399473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841352130641402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719179089178386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504124234470002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036363011410422,0.0,0.2338612097349072,0.0,0.5031682800603747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430303349790541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636186922133315,0.0,0.11744869316886072,0.0,0.0,0.13573211477261432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10659496028796052,0.0,0.0,0.10401203661039812,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bianspo,2019/10/21,"Tell me I'm not the only one who feels excited when going to poop I mean... It's exciting, you feel light, you shit the amount of water weight, your stomach is not bloated anymore, belly is soft and flat again... Yeah pooping is great",1.7028260869565202,4.1191227608695655,2.8762608695652183,90.82743478260872,82.26086956521739,5.419130434782609,22.243478260869566,6.742157984588678,0.6371530434782606,181,6,36,2,5,58,40,46,0.067,0.71,0.222,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,1,3,6,4,0,0,6,8,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,5,5,3,2,8,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32931091848604155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33579558579699004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871541662687133,0.0,0.0,0.3660935710459549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617069804437006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250101441825276,0.25254400546930583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408513255889421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902321022332486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404355479230356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peach_milk8,2019/10/21,"I want to be perfect He'll go if I'm too big
He'll go if I'm too small
145 sounds good
But that's not good enough for ana
I try to eat a sandwich
But carbs makes a boy large
So mister bullie helps fix it
You wanna be perfect 
But your trying not to give in
If you let it happen he'll be mad
If you don't he'll think your gross 
Well miss ana can help you get perfect
And when she fails
Mister bullie can help fix it",-2.617822164948453,-0.9806483814432968,-0.08748067010309057,106.48774806701029,104.97938144329895,2.4250000000000003,10.186211340206183,3.1291,-2.2256798969072165,325,4,86,0,16,108,59,97,0.09699999999999999,0.644,0.259,0.9506,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,6,0,4,5,10,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,1,3,17,22,10,0,6,9,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,4,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,0,1,9,6,6,14,1,6,0,2,0,0,16,3,0,4,1,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471500718276353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495696837113731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619179664744534,0.23170188173747916,0.2745392218951005,0.405175324003952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213588142671806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4856864111368131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469853699005291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612261407102181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476554182284186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32797211388108183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424632940382708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21716850432736995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilgeoffrey,2019/10/21,"Recovery ""motivation"" in social media I see so many posts on social media aimed at motivating people in recovery from eating disorders, reminding them that starving themselves or losing weight or being skinny will not make them happy, not make them feel more beautiful or loveable or make their lives better. To be honest, I've probably posted something similar myself in the past.

I mean, it's certainly true. Starving yourself or purging, losing weight or engaging in destructive behaviours is NOT going to make you feel happy or beautiful. That's simply a fact. There could be small false waves of a feeling of achievement, but you will never be satisfied and, most definitely will never be happy.

I read one of these posts recently and I thought to myself ""you know, I've never found reading this kind of thing helpful"". In some ways actually, it even has the opposite effect. And I found myself thinking about why that's the case. What does that statement mean to me? What does my ""eating disorder"" mean to me?

And then it seemed so blindingly obvious. I don't know about anyone else, but I never fell into this mess under the illusion or hope that it would make me happy. I have never thought to myself ""if I just lose X, I'll be so much happier and life will be better"". In fact, and I don't know if this is true for anyone else, my body and brain is actively opposed to anything that resembles happiness and the notion that losing weight will make me happier was never, and never will be, a motivating factor. I know I had some truly bizarre thought patterns in the beginning (""if I get skinnier maybe I'll look taller"" is a personal favourite of mine) and I'm not saying that I was fully aware of this when it all started 12 years ago, but I know now that happiness to me is bad. It feels wrong, selfish and undeserved: I'm not allowed to be happy and when I do get those fleeting moments, I'm immediately thrown into a burning pit of guilt.

So what does my eating disorder mean to me? Why has it taken over my life for so long if not as a way to make me feel better? Why do I continue to go through that weight loss cycle when I'm not trying to get thinner or feel beautiful and delicate?

I'm not going to lie and say I don't fear putting on weight and becoming fat / simply fat-TER, because I do. It does scare me. And today I realise why it scares me. The past couple of months I've been doing a lot of in depth thinking and questioning over why I am what I am, tracking my thought processes right from early childhood to now and the thing that stands out the most to me from anything else is fear. Crippling fear of things I have no power over and no way of saving, changing or protecting anyone from.

When my eating disorder became apparent, I became hyper focused, hyper fixated on weight, food and my body. And my brain was so caught up in all of that it forgot about the real worries. The real, scary things I was truly terrified of became replaced by a ""safe"" fear. Being scared of eating too much or being fat is far easier to cope with - hey, I can control what I eat and how much I exercise to stop this from becoming reality! - than the repeated existential crisis I was enduring that I was powerless to. Especially when, deep rooted, I blame myself for the lack of power, like I should have god-like abilities to keep the world safe from harm, like its simply a result of my own laziness and selfishness that others suffer.

By becoming absorbed in food and eating, restriction, over exercise, calculations and balancing acts, routines and obsessions, I'm distracted away from my failings - failings that mean I'm not allowed to experience happiness. Because being happy and content means accepting and enjoying the fact that I have neglected my duties without a care. Staying stuck in this rigmorale traps me in a perpetual groundhog day where nothing changes and nothing can move on, because if everyone is okay now, then keeping everything the same will mean that they'll be okay forever, right?

My eating disorder is not about being happy. In fact, it's almost the opposite. Maybe I'm alone in this, maybe I'm not. But I think it's time to be honest and say that these ""reminder"" posts are superficial motivators that online ""recovery"" communities rely on that feed into stereotypes. We all have our demons, our triggers and our contributing factors, but being ""thin, happy and beautiful"", in my option anyway, is not a prominent one, if one at all.",7.4585811361091325,7.4970297787081375,7.83314567850962,70.58382826020566,63.41387559808612,11.038338593097832,35.25134887508908,10.67485904561417,3.907374814211544,3549,146,602,82,47,1168,344,836,0.185,0.6809999999999999,0.135,-0.9943,6,1,1,0,0,0,112.0,4,3,5,19,25,58,1,10,29,2,64,29,7,19,19,169,126,69,0,11,36,0,13,2,0,10,7,3,0,1,53,38,20,12,36,4,0,8,25,26,0,3,18,19,76,32,92,81,16,95,1,9,3,0,21,43,0,27,37,430,129,10,0.0,0.0,0.03690062388184942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033519479362752465,0.0,0.03786486332561145,0.039163490878261716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932045565017969,0.0774890140230837,0.062234750108929274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03552712672223138,0.0,0.03157278076806861,0.06915246805424627,0.12528646784675293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003291824148219,0.0,0.08400478155792084,0.0,0.08442497796292986,0.0,0.0,0.03855349052569408,0.0,0.08000356054314649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0424111734554831,0.03019108673686828,0.04184003479688754,0.0,0.02438664703634433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216688337204979,0.0,0.13236376251432475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095420654053425,0.09476524473037083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024975529528008897,0.0,0.0,0.03613252012222578,0.033984430012303925,0.036988961632058094,0.0,0.17020327410062025,0.1147181694067695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914487227239359,0.0829213324240336,0.0,0.0,0.059268143868935176,0.0,0.06447102954878857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4427861432592336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025345662409828967,0.0,0.0,0.03755744197173394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722093925403966,0.0,0.039377050778501135,0.10390684220910364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341773510104447,0.03694763480811816,0.0,0.03339010606470059,0.03346385057274657,0.03175390466902089,0.16921500696436104,0.0,0.032147774813339164,0.0,0.0,0.1766861251374876,0.03833706047307056,0.11396654639628814,0.28833070960682866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030182458813557387,0.04018987791948793,0.08339205187314015,0.0,0.20414928361793386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256634782935309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687043228191301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219472949859701,0.026215192586904332,0.03301738141879693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14485992409040008,0.0,0.04076946185882895,0.0,0.0,0.03801311729514011,0.042359891741823696,0.0,0.07564767596097383,0.08608032206985218,0.0,0.0,0.037336373151093984,0.0,0.0,0.06458522425987336,0.0,0.09021268946436814,0.11357404597124905,0.0,0.030132547506341038,0.03442408588689986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770924168028959,0.0,0.02911076059766317,0.0,0.0,0.02676466430254435,0.040304271757083135,0.0,0.03161386702964264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048671594764697,0.07268829387013555,0.0,0.12007911445749525,0.02204941721222781,0.0,0.03584287618887631,0.0,0.0,0.025672955700400332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900440389067826,0.0,0.2762807036715921,0.0,0.0,0.1706044852820483,0.0,0.0,0.036450965917332386,0.0,0.0,0.03840155147676635,0.0,0.026861700124868645,0.04134324107791251,0.0,0.02435072190501867
EDAnonymous,pointandshooty,2019/10/21,"Insatiable is triggering and upsetting af Last season I was like, meh, this show is weird. But this season they're really been nailing how Patty's relationship with food is portrayed and it's actually really hard to watch (e.g. trying to destroy food and then eating it anyway, going to the gym then eating uncontrollably and having to go back to the gym)


Has anyone else watched it and feel this way?",8.442162162162163,8.344096054054056,8.527702702702705,66.87371621621624,61.43243243243244,11.724324324324325,32.013513513513516,11.20814326018867,3.720767567567567,324,10,53,8,4,106,52,74,0.174,0.795,0.032,-0.8516,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,2,0,7,4,0,2,0,10,10,9,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,4,1,1,6,8,0,9,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,7,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.2131751414805724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274492747214996,0.22382726617917856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797413508469095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470566256430547,0.18248647608705768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11045460040631476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282998593007968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24829970155276684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19568779016872526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806544945048666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10672336195198168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27988860963644674,0.0,0.0,0.2345329458654705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483128301890113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339499728510194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanillapie__,2019/10/21,"DAE gets really emotionally unstable when they're restricting? I feel like such a mess, literally the smallest thing can make me really upset or angry and I can't control it",4.803958333333334,7.517227312500001,7.0075,63.82083333333336,72.75,11.766666666666666,29.416666666666664,11.20814326018867,4.720341666666666,142,6,22,6,3,50,30,32,0.379,0.555,0.066,-0.8965,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44580806253658695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4471119460797486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097803115751006,0.2839600743090417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076671015016344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418884396591726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653212508030604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092722394650936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640683132377065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluegrassgirlie,2019/10/21,"a first post/vent so hi, this is my first post here. i won’t go into length about my entire history with food but for context i’m overweight and have been almost my entire life. i’ve been on numerous diets and have never seen my weight fluctuate all that much. i’ve always had an unhealthy relationship with food. eating a lot, and then not eating for periods of time. i’ve never been diagnosed formally with an eating disorder, but i’ve been eating in disorderly ways my entire life. 

this past summer i started trying to eat healthier and i lost around 10 pounds. i felt better about myself for a little while. eventually i got back into my old binging habits and gained it all back.

recently i’ve been going through a lot and have started restricting. i went to my doctor last week and i’ve lost 15 pounds since the last time i went in and today i weigh 7 less than that visit, which was last monday. 

i’ve never been losing weight this fast and it feels so good. i don’t really know how to feel because i’m still overweight (193 lbs today) but i know this isn’t the right way to go about it. but it’s working. 

just thought i would introduce myself and put this out there. i feel like this is an accomplishment but i can’t really tell anyone about this because they might be worried.",3.2423957219251345,5.2120884000000025,4.339866310160429,84.59258021390376,74.80392156862746,7.303030303030304,22.571301247771835,8.150884317080207,1.2380980392156866,1022,28,198,17,22,333,137,255,0.105,0.8220000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.8107,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,9,14,6,0,0,9,0,20,17,0,1,5,43,40,20,0,1,7,0,6,1,0,3,6,0,0,0,14,17,13,1,7,0,0,7,8,3,0,2,16,7,23,3,24,20,6,46,0,3,1,0,5,9,0,4,28,128,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136379345147064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759190830168138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379720837037625,0.0,0.0,0.08122304449858797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403160297913744,0.0,0.11123825191421584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08069446530131452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260679399318644,0.0,0.0,0.2091381480872532,0.09338812171664956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668070680237072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840122760619597,0.06518195487863643,0.08760481673396069,0.0,0.0,0.1552175868269342,0.22065581334606785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556157635237053,0.07652787783357289,0.07297305322037857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002863598175557,0.22311860898088454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889118004860484,0.044575310441514235,0.0914465627526186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207434800592534,0.1991987225520865,0.15513816240206274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679134121989476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707198119545718,0.0,0.21110999950393133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574115023814804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709901178664957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476561410217778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172151414186107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690150530679325,0.0,0.09008860418878853,0.0979577355838918,0.0,0.07791855787981633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547476423120554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291604430264307,0.0,0.07286447201292379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974788023587065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243445801446677,0.10640568711841522,0.0,0.17296991718505034,0.0,0.0,0.061946047493418616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484430946743465,0.0731873150408966,0.22221175453889128,0.0,0.16916099748761168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642388884779199,0.09265876353939388,0.0,0.06481435838971729,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lirains,2019/10/21,"Am I a fake? I’ve never binged like over 600+ calories at a time, I don’t feel guilty when eating, only after I finish, sometimes I ignore the cals because hey what you don’t know can’t hurt you or make me feel like shit, and I haven’t lost any weight in a month. Soo.... i can add having an ED to my list of failures?",3.5651408450704243,2.6563040704225362,4.960669014084509,91.1117077464789,71.67605633802816,7.1000000000000005,23.38380281690141,3.1291,0.06012394366197205,243,4,60,0,4,82,56,71,0.35,0.65,0.0,-0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,1,7,1,0,5,0,7,3,1,1,1,9,12,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,3,10,2,6,11,0,9,0,2,0,0,3,3,1,1,8,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18774896081466164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16830037150604993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825064278450771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791962611444023,0.19723695820076345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29555736849182696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173046433074194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697648040384431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013821094105338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429054359756236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037040069067387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129356927360648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20997697731526785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28339984125961365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730575873978605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098883580259854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362001847237515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jadedjewels,2019/10/21,"The dumbest things bring me joy Today when I walked into work, one of my coworkers was making roast beef. When he picked up the huge thing of it, he said “this probably weighs more than you!”
It was kind of a joke, but damn it made my day",4.3270748299319735,4.347173408163265,4.506530612244899,91.8444217687075,70.0204081632653,8.165986394557821,22.455782312925173,7.793537801064563,0.5702190476190472,183,3,43,2,3,57,40,49,0.11199999999999999,0.785,0.10300000000000001,-0.3587,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,5,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,5,3,6,2,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,4,27,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204069971141997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35589056192793506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32338167842862764,0.2281275264829464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315854945929552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684752007471302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32509212581493324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4541004607743014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239486222502249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24880542960223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kitKatandcaboodle,2019/10/21,Literally making myself dumber Used to be so good at doing math in my head but the mental gymnastics required to turn a 4 shrimp and a tsp of butter into 500 cal is destroying my ability to do basic math at my job and at school. Have to use my calculator waayyyy too often. I promise I didn't used to be a dumbass oh noooooo,3.3367164179104485,4.545245358208955,5.8389850746268674,77.06683582089553,73.02985074626865,8.942089552238807,28.32537313432836,9.3871,2.593838208955223,257,10,50,6,5,92,51,67,0.156,0.732,0.11199999999999999,-0.6462,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,4,0,7,1,1,4,0,10,12,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,2,11,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,35,7,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231530725595104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832984764922581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739288457822674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426001354006954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781851611797889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793689910702839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002541597377995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7152343347945992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ksbduapsbwbqleo,2019/10/21,"DAE go into ultra restriction mode when dsting a new guy? What's worse is his ex had anorexia and that somehow is motivating me to undereat. On the plus side, at least I've got my motivation not to binge back.",4.185714285714287,5.325229952380956,5.884285714285718,77.81071428571428,70.90476190476191,9.40952380952381,28.285714285714285,9.725611199111238,2.5922285714285715,166,6,33,4,3,57,40,42,0.114,0.764,0.122,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,8,5,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,6,3,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,22,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36225357574445777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677419791398861,0.0,0.376788731855892,0.0,0.0,0.4664717646251079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549998000786001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801000997177692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeyedtea,2019/10/21,"What are your favorite kinds of tea? Looking for tea reccs!! Obviously I LOVE green tea & have a cup of it every morning , & i usually have a different cup of tea in the afternoon that I like to switch up. RN it’s vanilla caranel from bigelow bc i have a bit of a sweet tooth, the smell itself is enough to satisfy me.

Looking for tea reccs! Like i said, I have a pref towards to sweeter teas, but i’ll try anything !",1.7444186046511625,3.6672580348837234,3.2838953488372127,90.66561046511627,79.11627906976744,6.625581395348838,28.19186046511628,7.645422480735847,1.609958139534884,325,15,71,5,8,107,56,86,0.0,0.8170000000000001,0.183,0.8953,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,7,0,6,8,1,0,1,2,10,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,8,5,13,9,2,5,0,0,3,1,3,3,0,0,4,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5152623968063217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19567014899416574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595908179204174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24842627791168034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24568712483417576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003373141644514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476080768154211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323315895133393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993454619394308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460295783347594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261803056108361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16143492367930953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618776895162642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zeerega,2019/10/21,"(Ex)Boyfriend: you're too big now Boyfriend at my lowest weight: ""You're too thin. You should gain weight"".

Boyfriend at my average BMI-weight: ""You've become too large now. You'd look nicer if you lost weight"".

FUCK. YOU. I CAN NEVER WIN.",0.3286666666666669,2.323797422222224,-0.5288888888888899,107.76000000000002,108.11111111111113,2.8888888888888893,13.888888888888893,5.033348758259628,-1.4354444444444443,184,4,41,1,9,50,29,45,0.245,0.634,0.121,-0.7541,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,3,5,3,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,7,1,2,3,0,7,0,1,1,1,4,4,1,1,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20763633616495947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17380724519592336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15787653378028668,0.0,0.20522925553319687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14500075595774808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9157559319752668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,klokatankar,2019/10/21,"Triggering friend Okay so I've had a lot of issues regarding food since 2013. Lost a lot of weight and concerned everyone around me. Tried to make an effort to find peace with myself and eat more during 2015, which caused me to gain back the weight that I had previously lost. I still struggle to find a good relationship with food and exercising but the last year or so I've gotten better. 

While this has happened one of my best friends moved home. She had lost A LOT of weight but it seemed to be in a healthy way. The problem is that she has continued to lose the weight and is very picky with so-called ""bad foods"". I'm worried that she has some issues with food and at the same time I am extremely triggered by her, especially if she managed to lose the weight in a healthy and sustainable way. I feel myself not eating and constantly working out, and being very conscious if she doesn't eat snacks when us friends are together. 

She is literally one of my best friends and knows about my struggles and tries not to talk about weight or food at all, which I love her for. But I don't want to stop seeing her because I get triggered just by looking at her.

HELP!",4.730791484716157,5.8567761048034965,4.625936135371179,87.38903520742359,69.6113537117904,7.995742358078602,27.84961790393013,8.278499904357787,1.630626419213974,924,31,192,13,16,284,127,229,0.113,0.6729999999999999,0.215,0.9858,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,11,9,19,0,2,13,1,15,17,0,5,1,46,30,21,0,4,10,0,7,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,7,16,15,1,6,1,0,1,4,9,0,2,7,9,25,10,30,21,9,20,0,5,2,1,19,7,0,9,10,127,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621302543430085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05719281336208658,0.06210330769875309,0.04534071117828626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561122164456411,0.06578212767555312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640765952110087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037721003161992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283246715912192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107226416215487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03760822666440364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359620064880986,0.0,0.4496965446045157,0.0,0.22985993670962265,0.0,0.03885992602789681,0.0,0.0,0.062385525594469936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577305058783531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049854635327473466,0.0,0.07460814083853333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526457723227582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040876719989415694,0.0606287629433129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245957639219087,0.16642201588056718,0.24358019631456015,0.18970294372190866,0.06712989687521784,0.0,0.049648519699471226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790530417052639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080218873779484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07117060003682615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985514551619034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05927038493315667,0.0677117930722332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06152702739153727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939911718936487,0.06218412391711115,0.0,0.15551403399578712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597829741715831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04337095778063557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099683516067763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946870621959424,0.0,0.0,0.12274082941303024,0.04387062562778552,0.1180770802915141,0.0,0.5434410632812469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05414875382811443,0.07553542353428297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04789759844921795
EDAnonymous,Saturninegirl,2019/10/21,"My bf comments that I have tiny wrist (but my arm still fat) Then try to wrap his hand around my upper arm and he can't 
That makes me scream in side and it my new goal now !",-0.6134615384615358,1.0656373333333349,0.6176282051282058,108.00028846153843,85.92307692307692,3.9,12.314102564102564,3.1291,-2.0145435897435897,132,1,37,0,4,41,33,39,0.066,0.85,0.085,0.2003,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,5,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,4,21,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4923228762144245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691585131159063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5341295052525222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416584807513797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37547787651083897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,debgr8,2019/10/21,"yo i’m back tried recovery for six months, but now i’m at university for the first time and it’s fall, so it’s time to restrict again because i feel fat. time to go down to 95 lbs again lmao",-2.421802325581396,-0.9310468139534862,0.2271802325581387,103.0072819767442,110.16279069767441,4.010465116279072,14.67732558139535,5.985473137389443,-0.8356023255813949,149,4,39,2,8,50,32,43,0.076,0.804,0.12,0.4497,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,9,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30339932237415274,0.0,0.24052569263139936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19950601858725076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33562031888916793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242427417734021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149413324953829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6902293362308597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26788655382003457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BBspoonie,2019/10/21,"Feeling invalidated This is my first time posting here, I’m drunk so please forgive any mistakes in grammar/spelling/etc. Lol 

I don’t know if my “disorder” is real or justified. I’ve been dealing with a bad relationship with food and binging and restricting since I was about 12. However, my bmi has been steady at about 21 over the past year. I’m currently 20 years old, and from the time I was about 15-16 my bmi slowly and slowly dropped, but I’ve hit a plateau with it over the past year over so. I just don’t feel like it’s worthy of bringing  up to my doctor or therapist, since I’m not underweight or anything. I’m closer to being overweight honestly.

I apologize for the rambling, I just didn’t know where else to post. I guess I’m in search of validation, or maybe someone to tell me that I am in fact suffering. I don’t know. I’m sorry, thank you for listening.",2.45505681818182,4.460907119318187,4.053409090909092,85.59386363636366,77.23863636363637,7.581818181818183,27.47727272727273,8.472884824447931,2.0207909090909086,687,29,141,14,16,229,108,176,0.105,0.754,0.142,0.7532,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,9,7,0,0,6,1,13,4,0,0,1,27,29,12,0,2,9,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,7,3,1,6,1,0,1,5,3,0,1,5,3,16,4,23,22,0,24,0,1,0,0,7,10,0,6,11,80,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629503715234212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862845263920827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051094215387346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114704402506602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914290952147896,0.15998821823828027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305755682830812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17432512703773248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806839527828534,0.11166671553756947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295580154740094,0.1890086756871892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721912684434738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25770894187424226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636436373133136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703274553129762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401931805802614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984280109699794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157962834783744,0.0,0.0,0.2994003808574448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17791312106419366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678166697288801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585997625681356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243955660711004,0.0,0.0,0.1749743992078895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662038632630558,0.14390772678679808,0.0,0.1814860402965297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822893102416915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019723553617187
EDAnonymous,Sapholic,2019/10/21,"Please help me I’m freaking out Hi, 
So yesterday I was hospitalized due to an overdose ok Xanax, and apparently they weighed myself while I was sleeping, and they said this morning I was supposedly 39kg, but I weighed myself 2 days ago on my scale, and I was 34kg, how did this happen?!
Please help me, I’m having a panic attack.",2.481818181818184,4.494315363636368,4.2545454545454575,84.1518181818182,77.18181818181819,6.824242424242425,26.15151515151515,7.793537801064563,1.5257151515151524,258,10,52,4,6,87,46,66,0.151,0.677,0.171,-0.2942,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,2,1,6,4,1,1,0,6,10,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,1,12,1,3,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,5,32,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441912038334121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133916028365267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776580308070882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436008721168804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692890184141076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232095489144967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6047757644841858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620389899565957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756730839960857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VentingFooligan6000,2019/10/21,"Taking my food scale out with me today Couldn’t afford to get a bag of mandarin oranges at the grocery store yesterday (food budget was $30 for the week this week and I pretty much stretched it) and wound up buying a bag of gala apples that were buy 1 get one free a 3 lb bag.

I usually do broth and 3 peeled little mandarin oranges that had been froze overnight so not having them made me nearly lose my mess and sob in the store because to me apples have less volume and my brain was scared a gala would be more calories but I held it until I got back to the room I’m staying in

I always weigh the cores of my apples so to keep my buddy safe I slid him in his own bag, a little Bananya lunch box that looks like this (https://www.target.com/p/bananya-lunch-box-blue-purple/-/A-54007330) in my book bag for being on the go

It’s kinda funny how the people who want me to be less disordered don’t realize they’re shoving me more into it but hey motivation to eat less until I can build my stockpile of safe foods

Travel safe friends",7.8870588235294115,6.614116725490196,7.1160000000000005,80.37900000000002,63.11764705882353,9.336470588235292,30.203921568627447,7.554174236665415,1.763772156862745,828,20,163,6,10,255,128,204,0.034,0.816,0.15,0.9779,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,2,4,10,0,1,12,0,15,8,1,3,0,24,26,12,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,10,8,6,5,2,2,6,3,3,4,0,1,8,2,22,7,25,13,7,26,0,2,1,0,6,14,1,1,9,104,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201206185983785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199441608536934,0.0,0.09671343757950454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710929340867165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818301607807347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623416961632881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755317580967624,0.0,0.12257496664300888,0.0,0.16577935954577647,0.0,0.09016619460439178,0.0,0.126889351570492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101813634796284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750987506162868,0.3180241072272865,0.0,0.0,0.13322861917396078,0.17749220100928395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501213688434844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662825970481767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750742472957647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099900609432802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16140720678201045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15883939814086934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691030608354416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192873623839271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038455747856452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473393986888902,0.0,0.09357768996042057,0.0,0.2545238424019038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127025874015641,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mustard_seeds1,2019/10/21,"Boston ED Therapists Hello! This a looong shot but would anyone happen to be able to recommend any therapists in Boston, MA that specialize in EDs? I've tried to have a browse online but I don't really trust psychology today etc as my last one from there told me to ""EaT wHeN mY bOdY fEeLs lIke iT."" Thank you!",1.3769262295082,4.031082983606556,3.0526024590163963,86.75792008196724,88.01639344262293,6.9844262295081965,15.821721311475413,8.07648339933343,0.79317868852459,246,5,48,6,8,81,51,61,0.059000000000000004,0.785,0.156,0.7547,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,4,8,4,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,5,4,8,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,28,8,0,0.2369302776801243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112071350789905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16566715905729168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631761263949116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424388237754341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26423988930376624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979906735337545,0.16926303771558876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095166620782757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931297989722152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575216586391428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605500879598339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178360282838133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813356710114107,0.0,0.5501886275723623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245821997105459,0.2263970337473475,0.0,0.16086010603291548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16830847140219898,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadgirlcult,2019/10/21,"Anorexia and Stimulants Anorexia has lead me to become an avid drug user. I was using a lot of cocaine and then I starting using m to get off cocaine. The come down from m doesn’t make me panic like cocaine does, but it makes me almost suicidal. Have any of you had this problem? How long does you come down last? Were you able to get clean without treatment?
(note: my m bender was about a week long - how long will this depression episode last?)",2.2974712643678146,4.7254313908046015,2.9639080459770137,91.03022988505751,79.91954022988506,5.2459770114942526,24.60919540229885,6.42735559955562,0.7906919540229884,349,13,68,3,9,109,60,87,0.195,0.7340000000000001,0.07,-0.9457,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,1,3,4,0,1,4,0,8,1,0,8,0,17,17,6,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,0,9,1,11,12,1,14,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,9,42,12,1,0.1717743518609312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200720063500471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168124496589482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971127600497772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29593678837524034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479489975543966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30064178576086176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992037134112912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949001824483474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28003804636799423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839202716615938,0.0,0.0,0.4560446879199152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603641124321126,0.0,0.0,0.2293214274337473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154019105713414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436485609796647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12158277036490407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789326083038396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29671577580966657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778702379365976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558434541189687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iluvmnms,2019/10/21,Less well known Aussie safe food suggestions? Getting a bit sick of eating the same safe meals and just want to expand my horizons ☺️,2.4679487179487194,5.20927553846154,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,82.07692307692307,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.1736820512820514,108,3,21,1,3,32,25,26,0.102,0.5539999999999999,0.345,0.7102,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4819972393495456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517587097777635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338564493260849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23066245870948354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604046740892875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969562403676764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gimmethatdamnavocado,2019/10/21,"Well enough? I haven’t weigh myself in months, mostly because i quit my gym and have no scale. I’ve been eating regular meals, no binge no restriction. Am I well enough though? Coming from an Asian family, it’s so common to hear things such as “you’re eating so much, you’ll get fat” or “my girl stop eating, you’ll be fat”. I know they’re saying it in an affectionate way and mostly just jokes, but it affects me. It makes me feel like I might fall back into the constant diets. After hearing those words, I woke up and for the first time in months, I felt fat. “I think I really did gained weight” was the only thought that went on in my mind for the whole day. I guess it’s an indication that I’m not well enough since I went back into the slump so easily...",2.353269230769232,3.9337959935897473,3.461794871794872,91.61653846153848,76.24358974358975,6.594871794871796,17.76923076923077,7.321109707123232,0.001976923076922432,589,9,131,7,13,190,101,156,0.054000000000000006,0.835,0.11199999999999999,0.865,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,3,11,6,0,0,8,0,10,10,3,2,0,25,25,10,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,3,3,3,0,1,9,6,10,2,5,2,0,4,5,0,3,1,8,6,19,6,14,13,7,24,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,5,12,86,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19661788779557152,0.0,0.0779363204829977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013166231595056,0.0,0.1381606913028204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245282890435776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924681443424383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39631042761193996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052582919418504,0.0,0.0646449235123128,0.09133623798848088,0.1227562813212403,0.0,0.0,0.10874935000660058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679647429760985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408414548451564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881930278184628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026314909049187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246116997376148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534102889540662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562890209943804,0.1290922977881544,0.0,0.2040976858161907,0.0,0.09398463805256382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723586972299453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598446910628234,0.0,0.0,0.08190413842138737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167164347934532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10575904083854447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688852654960926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493801940918805,0.08192127231064664,0.12561221302598796,0.1014988106462014,0.07455050389383716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101481570669575,0.0,0.15568715094684998,0.3448581635955462,0.2370369092744297,0.0,0.14274022870687247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OverGi,2019/10/21,"I AM A LITERAL DUMBASS I take the battery out of my scale because I'm paranoid about other people using it up and now I LOST the battery and I wanted to weigh myself so badly this morning because I haven't done so in 2 weeks already 

we don't have any more batteries at home
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send help pls eeeeekk",6.9076881720430094,5.2437580483870985,7.886129032258066,75.33252688172045,65.29032258064515,10.20215053763441,38.40860215053763,8.841846274778883,3.3917569892473125,237,11,46,3,3,81,50,62,0.20800000000000002,0.73,0.062,-0.8849,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,6,10,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,8,0,7,8,1,7,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431583681102192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146733053784447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259643359489155,0.3791235928708544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31822586264615155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084337450320995,0.0,0.3119239385206813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394557811258638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21558445304263296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338074963673199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685745107740286,0.0,0.0,0.1834156189577316,0.0,0.2494379168442314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sardonic_cynic,2019/10/21,"Tell me if you agree Body dysmorphia via vaguely reflective surfaces 
(store windows/windows in general/storm doors/TV screens/glass tables/etc) really does hit different. Anyone else feel this?

That’s it, that’s the post.",7.213859649122806,9.715283894736846,6.118421052631582,73.75728070175441,65.3157894736842,10.329824561403509,36.35087719298246,10.504223727775694,4.5373403508771935,180,9,27,5,3,54,35,38,0.0,0.9229999999999999,0.077,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,9,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341319797225895,0.3430891081864641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719382153903788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498426088567394,0.0,0.0,0.2930258295951241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27972071234019885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734415967317553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693081052875766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206897312780934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145108036007696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926700016387291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PMmeUrFavoriteSongs,2019/10/21,"(TW: Sui) Conflicting thoughts: I want a nonexistent stomach. Also I really want a baby bump. ovulation is absolutely breaking my brain and I wanna fucking D I E. The thought of actually having to put on weight to grow a human is terrifying. But also, dumb primal lizard brain is screeching very loudly that I need to get knocked up - consequences be damned. 

Don't have a stable relationship, still in college hell, and can barely keep myself afloat. And yet, there are two very loud conflicting interests. 

One: Vanish into nothingness, restrict intensely, isolate yourself, maybe sorta also Commit Not Alive (TM) 

Two: FOLLOW THE WAR DRUMS OF YOUR OVARIES. BREED WITH A VIABLE MALE SPECIMEN. BECOME A FERTILITY GODDESS SWOLLEN WITH CHILD. REEEEEE

​

Maybe I'll just fucking strap myself into a basement for a week like I'm a werewolf waiting out the moon until the hormones pass.",4.483962848297214,7.848972084967323,4.9034674922600585,74.24981424148609,79.78431372549021,7.142621259029927,30.928448572411426,8.20500826718156,3.1768248366013068,711,35,101,15,19,225,117,153,0.20600000000000002,0.737,0.057,-0.9776,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,0,7,8,6,0,13,0,9,7,3,0,1,24,21,8,1,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,3,1,8,1,5,2,1,0,4,3,6,0,3,2,3,9,2,16,18,0,15,1,0,0,2,5,6,5,1,5,64,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.14951985706365364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36758806581688,0.0,0.16601296139069255,0.18617812357934488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692185912125891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34208664541925143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832974008097397,0.08005071881788382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618828317279952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485517173148977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30785860209792604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361011056244175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382530915117644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402763602891115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815615605068133,0.0,0.0,0.1645001021177632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236106740766553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243277892638098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993458295978478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528438066444797,0.1807453320406939,0.0,0.12290321663919868,0.1865797330630919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617812357934488,0.0
EDAnonymous,ehvll1,2019/10/21,"🤘🏻tw numbers I’m 7 weeks postpartum. 
I’m 172 lbs the most I’ve ever weight not pregnant. I hated my body before, but now it’s to an unspeakable level. I was recovered, but I can feel myself slipping back into past eating behaviors and I kinda don’t mind it. I love my son but I’m not proud of what it’s done to my body. People always tell me I should be, but I’m not. The new stretch marks and the fact that I can physically feel my stomach move when I walk grosses me out. I feel like this isn’t even my body. I’ve never hated myself more. I just needed to get it out there it’s not like I can tell anyone outside of this thread. eek.",-0.5687431231485434,1.5196455323740992,2.115370292001693,94.45962336013544,90.07913669064749,4.709437156157427,16.80956411341515,6.2272716619740125,-0.3504840457046132,495,12,113,5,17,171,83,139,0.042,0.815,0.14400000000000002,0.9383,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,2,0,4,0,9,7,4,0,3,25,21,7,0,2,9,1,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,3,0,0,2,7,3,0,0,2,4,20,4,8,17,2,15,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,2,10,70,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13772135310398126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573161202538455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272704616358895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140840679474681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5515480109804944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937883581998778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693626911497048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932079007002704,0.14971737376210106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510673677783489,0.1182436176403808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647451373646695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32682267557943706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617240837241347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938333092287193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671224985411137,0.0,0.0,0.17591575794415684,0.0,0.1227269312694613,0.12765501386532438,0.15985497032357954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15800235303975374,0.11474693908789248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893339997488101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276577715312154,0.20155211505866144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_potato_cakes_,2019/10/21,"Getting worse Wow I just “binged” on salad, sweet potatoes, whole grain cereal, and veggie straws. Couldn’t have been more than 600 calories (def way less) but I still felt guilty and purged. I’m happier because I’m losing weight fast, but at the same time I know this means I’m getting worse. Now I feel guilty after eating a fucking homemade salad!",3.05201298701299,5.738707621212125,2.9265367965367983,90.87409090909094,78.84848484848484,4.983549783549783,21.549783549783545,6.1826913282559595,0.3331238095238103,277,8,51,2,7,83,52,66,0.23,0.6509999999999999,0.12,-0.8516,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,11,13,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,4,2,4,10,4,8,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,5,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534844050605956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576365733217473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730890506486742,0.0,0.2417508895631273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327690612665407,0.26309215149438825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383731945388766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816804526507572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27426518740747363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20107400007656548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681652490393654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998533982911405,0.0,0.3066035141326613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811064077122697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5131761904885451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,normalsizedsnail,2019/10/21,"Do you guys use tumblr anymore? And if so, who do you follow? I self harmed for the first time since I was a teenager and relapsed into my eating disorder again so I might as well get back into something I got joy from when I was that age too",2.39970588235294,3.6686610784313705,3.727598039215689,91.04669117647059,75.47058823529412,5.8843137254901965,22.553921568627448,5.985473137389443,0.2789568627450976,189,5,41,1,4,62,41,51,0.109,0.769,0.122,0.1837,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,7,3,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,1,0,7,9,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,8,2,5,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,6,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287043620410141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22255910218231226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33171975104751583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961661959968037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24619487038273624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121882871691367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23148912112717016,0.0,0.0,0.286588025846288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070468004682077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019457996289689,0.0,0.0,0.239425185984722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228226581739345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687729778798394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24998054219686025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602385236683584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheShortGerman,2019/10/21,"Can somebody please talk me down and tell me 100 cals over my limit isn't a binge I just ate 103 calories over my daily limit for the day, and I'm kinda freaking out. I purged yesterday and I *really* fucked up my throat, it's been bleeding and I've been coughing like crazy and it hurts so much. But I ate over my limit so ED brain is telling me to purge it even though I barely have anything in my stomach",3.2622480620155048,4.013482511627911,4.132558139534884,90.96341085271321,72.72093023255816,6.663565891472868,24.79844961240311,6.42735559955562,0.6292077519379848,320,9,71,2,6,103,60,86,0.142,0.8029999999999999,0.055,-0.8228,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,0,2,0,6,8,3,0,0,12,10,9,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,13,1,9,6,1,9,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,1,3,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239177009753467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32445721630331964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187442716677004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19196903527572814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686976743568639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111427057039176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199502360660882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21365835613611567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31904218390898903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861953606298017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23361035901375315,0.5080750767412846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855583582791704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roachincalzone,2019/10/21,"Going back to my old ways I’ve been eating so much lately, I’ve had a few stretch marks on my sides for as long I can remember but I got a new one on my stomach and I don’t know what to do except stop eating like I used to. When I would starve myself, I always felt tired, stressed out and completely drained, but I was losing weight, which is all that mattered.

I want to talk to my boyfriend about this, but I know he’ll be so sad and I just can’t do that to him again. I care about him too much for me to be the reason he’s upset. End of my ted talk 🤷🏼‍♀️",0.21083806818181827,1.4091635781250034,2.2231818181818177,99.84909090909092,81.1875,5.279545454545455,17.886363636363637,5.565023196281405,-0.7287749999999997,430,8,114,2,11,144,85,128,0.221,0.711,0.067,-0.9705,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,2,3,0,12,5,1,2,1,20,21,10,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,1,5,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,5,2,20,2,17,12,4,16,0,2,0,0,6,5,0,0,10,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788861336271827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366661862460356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812112753006003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863503235565187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637317378169748,0.0,0.0,0.15741923699663074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706521516838025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101011456357907,0.0,0.1421498156295638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953555035606564,0.0,0.20049126974396853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086831671161627,0.0,0.0,0.1572886645559302,0.0,0.1988384630930884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613093283091862,0.0,0.0,0.17165624187880024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650154069083785,0.0,0.12043690360911545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827397672753721,0.0,0.0,0.2013375492343138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485932683010161,0.20359326613825016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28571110956719104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20427865546234145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350478593221167,0.0,0.0,0.1048318965325034,0.14107667815136338,0.0,0.216431672682185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625686727705468,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eli-motionless,2019/10/21,"could my mother like,,, not tell everyone how i don't eat. ok cool. thanks.",-1.3459999999999999,0.233183733333334,0.5199999999999996,100.24000000000002,111.66666666666666,4.666666666666667,11.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.7183333333333333,56,1,13,1,3,18,15,15,0.23,0.597,0.17300000000000001,0.0129,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785789099519343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4851849932016583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530810765743072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316510735911729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144375415511332,0.4365436674822901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maddiekennedi,2019/10/21,"Doctor's appointment All month I've been stuck in the worst binge cycle since the beginning of my disordered eating and it's been incredibly emotionally taxing, so I finally opened up to my mom that I should see a doctor (I didn't tell her about my ed, just that I am struggling mentally) and made an appointment for an office visit with a family doctor in 2 weeks. The only problem is I've gained so much weight (I was UW last month but have probably gained approximately \~10 lbs since) that I fear I won't be taken seriously :-)

Also I have never spoken aloud to anyone in person about my ED so if anyone has advice for my doctor's appointment I'd appreciate it... I've never seen this doctor before but for the record I'm not nearly ready or very interested in recovery, more so looking for counseling to help with the mental toll this binge cycle has put me through

Honestly in a fucked up way I'm hoping this will be the thing that fuels my restriction again so I'm actually seen as ""sick enough"". I miss how easy restriction used to be and even though I was miserable then too at least I had the little spikes of euphoria every so often when my weight dropped :(",8.20745215311005,6.8327087324561395,8.744513556618823,69.28629186602873,62.55263157894736,12.325996810207338,32.569377990430624,11.389717465364855,3.5973105263157894,933,27,173,23,11,314,138,228,0.157,0.6970000000000001,0.147,-0.1391,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,17,11,1,3,12,0,18,10,0,3,3,24,33,19,0,4,6,1,2,0,0,3,6,0,0,1,10,6,3,2,0,0,1,2,5,8,0,0,11,6,20,3,25,16,6,26,0,2,4,1,6,11,1,4,11,117,30,6,0.0,0.0,0.11137484418766956,0.0,0.0,0.11152694333111883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127007020918702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15960531213455734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711659682001617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080336999592315,0.5840866981872135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678393099271896,0.0,0.12838138145885844,0.0,0.11792725166897865,0.0,0.07538207805355725,0.0,0.09615981660457024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759201980356957,0.12842847314643915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250243164166799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551175105967406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649922697151147,0.0,0.0,0.11335727713120887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303153993479436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143886822369278,0.0,0.0,0.09584082361821207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079929802009462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23003327591750294,0.0,0.0,0.13366818985653475,0.18219565383631287,0.0,0.08389900410716805,0.0,0.17604885974497114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868013411797252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965429643622227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305191578009267,0.1092074157227968,0.0,0.11473261344820515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094718274253973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18881975577159008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931391440088555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997550335057111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582319182078065,0.0,0.11213257607784492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098572054420943,0.0,0.09416956423673448,0.0,0.0905914295232664,0.09154855329701628,0.2779602536622577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,risaeola,2019/10/21,"don’t eat at all -> feel shitty because i don’t eat -> eat to stop feeling shitty -> feel shitty about eating like what?? it’s like i have to choose being physically unwell or mentally unwell

not even to mention the feeling shitty because i’m not shitting lol",11.134615384615383,7.485220153846152,10.661538461538463,64.93346153846157,59.0,11.93846153846154,41.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,3.9479692307692313,216,8,36,2,2,71,33,52,0.299,0.542,0.16,-0.8992,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,4,5,1,0,1,10,9,1,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,5,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,5,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,3,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23688465711148124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7952619200185768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283320736386235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929718633189223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18984849092592584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19580680227072705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19944422469625547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624419256897009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sgice,2019/10/21,whats the stupidest thing a medical professional said to you regarding your ed? i find it amazing how a lot of them love to invalidate lots of people with eating disorders,7.17625,8.074339125000002,8.718750000000004,61.05125000000001,64.0,13.9,37.875,13.023866798666859,5.9152000000000005,140,7,23,6,2,49,29,32,0.09300000000000001,0.687,0.22,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,18,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36716785584577255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278149908612732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292809250115815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5447284196592768,0.2891433463230793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32273562499456593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22210184860139495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047419807113785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128373203617495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bizarreghostofmysoul,2019/10/21,"Gastritis & Relapse Welp, I relapsed and gave myself gastritis. Ironic thing is, it hurts to eat now. I’m sorry body. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m really trying to get better. It’s just that the nature of this disease causes me to not realize that my behaviors are disordered and causing many of my health problems.",2.0718442622950803,4.898601983606562,4.213258196721313,78.43660860655741,86.54098360655738,6.9844262295081965,25.6577868852459,8.07648339933343,2.444162295081967,255,11,41,6,8,87,47,61,0.195,0.76,0.045,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,2,0,8,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,1,6,6,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210432491569042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042904141451696,0.0,0.2266075808541481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4191460888013334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338115473080388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208751743987742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658608121090248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685161790965515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367908836037603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683271522756685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520869262355545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069314273078886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567418842015173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355342588039093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850845813180684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,12248732213,2019/07/06,"I purged and feel so broken. tw b/p

so I’ve been restricting well the past 3 days after gaining from my birth control which upped my appetite. anyway, got home night 3, binged, and purged for the first time in 3 months. 

I never feel “sick enough” because binging or eating a lot seems normal for those around me. I don’t feel sick enough because I haven’t been good at restricting (until recently). I don’t feel sick enough because I’ve only ever purged maybe 4 times, during 4 different months. 

I purged today and felt like a failure because I didn’t purge everything. I didn’t have the energy. I think my ed brain can only take over long enough to start, before I feel like such a weak person for giving in to what I know logically is unhealthy. 

how fucked is that? I don’t feel “sick” enough when I can’t purge everything, but I stop myself because I realize how sick I am and how tired I am. what? 

I don’t know. I’m confused and crying. I feel okay and then I’m not. I feel like I’m recovering until I gain 5 pounds and then suddenly I need to stop eating. and then I need to start purging. but then I can’t. 

I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m still in that mindset where I don’t want this to become my life again, but I hate the weight. I want to be less. I don’t KNOW",1.5965449438202235,3.341359932584272,3.1562406367041187,92.2487429775281,78.8876404494382,6.097940074906367,20.11376404494382,6.996647511020387,0.2415044943820224,990,24,221,11,24,326,128,267,0.147,0.71,0.14300000000000002,-0.7971,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,4,14,10,2,1,7,1,22,13,1,4,2,48,53,24,0,5,5,0,10,3,0,0,8,0,1,1,8,9,3,5,17,0,0,0,14,4,1,1,6,10,35,6,20,46,7,37,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,4,32,131,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338842104097535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855095571628681,0.1034539618321833,0.07970843290935385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456953489833212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506171964130526,0.0,0.0,0.1028948875415117,0.06041103947791467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978678679485387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917007892209253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4839438744575083,0.0,0.0,0.08473217600477723,0.0,0.0,0.1683736792555373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789092093739143,0.13383936372363106,0.08994032898084724,0.0,0.0,0.07967781534902668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659875454732882,0.0,0.0898592366665897,0.0,0.0785680829566693,0.07491848802456817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248224095071264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396119601121647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20591991469313786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616368579084766,0.13729101555139786,0.0,0.0,0.08289725090211808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963704442358918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941066576755034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495370567515031,0.0,0.0,0.13891400416058516,0.07224603819137382,0.0,0.0,0.08790533398575705,0.09177920141717327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248437664446792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942103945936516,0.0,0.08179124950534034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249033329720943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527596304671711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260381301164048,0.0,0.07480701208199211,0.15662887696951536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043009298757279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002158181109918,0.0,0.0,0.10924242366633953,0.10766280585838052,0.08879061583255701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11050098306746887,0.0,0.0,0.11406791916095355,0.08422286379612877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bloodorangejewelry,2019/07/06,"[TW!] having an ED with high BMI makes me feel like i have no support, even on here sometimes i'll say things on this sub and it'll get downvoted once or twice. it's always the type of comments where i say how i'm triggered by the weight loss of someone (without an ED) when it is clear their weight loss attributes to a better quality of life. and how it is reinforced that thinness life easier. i said this about a female family member and a popular youtuber who lost 100 lbs.


i'm not saying thinness is some magical elixir for success in life, but because of my ED, i can't help but feel that way sometimes, especially since i have actually experienced love and success when i was smaller. the thing is... thin people with EDs say shit like this all of the time, how if they lose those last 5 or 10 lbs they will have a much better life.

and it just sucks because having a high BMI and being on ED support subs, i am not only not allowed to be candid on the only support groups i have, i have to kind of adapt to unintentionally hurtful language. ie someone with a low bmi saying she ""feels fat"" - which, of course, is not fatphobic. when it comes to most people with eating disorders of all sized at IS a feeling and it is truly an awful feeling to have that drives us fucking crazy. so i feel like a lot of higher BMI folks in online ED support spaces have to adapt, yet we have to walk on eggshells 


blog time: when i was a minor, i was hospitalized for disordered eating. when i got to the psychiatric facility, they didn't seem to care. i was able to binge/purge all i wanted because no one cared that a fat kid didn't eat nor purged. my roommate at the facility, a thin girl (who, by the way was very sweet and supportive!) did not have an ED, but was simply thin. she was watched like a hawk (by female staff of course) when she went to the bathroom. i'm not complaining about not being monitored, i just kind of feel sad that no one cared.",6.7112210796915175,5.668367647814912,7.0412583547557865,79.22281298200515,65.32390745501286,9.939383033419023,32.30347043701799,8.982922981607832,2.466011722365039,1521,50,312,21,20,496,189,389,0.114,0.723,0.163,0.9645,1,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,2,0,4,8,18,32,3,0,25,1,35,14,3,7,4,53,65,25,0,2,16,0,14,4,0,2,6,6,0,2,21,14,7,0,8,1,0,4,15,11,0,3,14,23,28,21,44,46,7,35,0,7,1,2,24,19,3,7,14,203,49,4,0.07888638225072905,0.0,0.07698172957926552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656397894889301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14426521926934904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139537188933828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412897726191784,0.0,0.0,0.06795363323135335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808212569099616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242161389148244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052103711481416286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436706047775869,0.0,0.27921127595582107,0.1127128944843306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292918923257051,0.04121487881064972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309264629407227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052875879169092775,0.16669558802164908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444950376637063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429605550114376,0.0,0.06430293035952782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228791389247019,0.15415960665050182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825368338346304,0.0861138049565677,0.06706638118584471,0.07119803991127821,0.0,0.05265727271515885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057990567737761615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08401142252402592,0.10691090841742673,0.1199932969164136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937976946162628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075039014320209,0.3136680871665966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181519963574988,0.0,0.0,0.08097573775259942,0.0652556305871841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368035137011286,0.0,0.1560412983310843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475966586610168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481721417717292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199856775576294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09489060482356693,0.0,0.0,0.06508952700714216,0.04652923212716737,0.12523267674355626,0.0,0.19212472293255026,0.0,0.07312846667527009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604365742258745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stealingyourcookies,2019/07/06,"Experience with seeing dietitians? I’ve been dating my bf who is literally obese for almost 7 months. I put on weight going out to restaurants and bars with him. My moms always on my case about my weight (no wonder where I get my ed tendencies from) so she signed me up for a 12 week clinical weight loss program. I was all for it til now. Bars and shakes all day long every 2-3 hours “to get my metabolism to work with me not against me” is what the clinic said. It’s so hard to eat that often, even though the whole day adds up to 820 cal. I’m mostly pissed bc I am basically forcing myself to eat as often as they say I should and it’s making me feel sick and upset. I haven’t binged in a while, but this is making me feel the same way a binge would anyway. The worst part is how expensive it was to sign up, and the fact that I’ve committed to this shitty thing for 12 weeks! I can never commit to anything for one week let alone 12. It’s only been one day since I started (was at bfs for the 4th and ate and drank too much then). It’s been a shitty day. I already was feeling depressed. Didn’t need this shitty diet to go along with that.",2.2667940598383893,3.5317659917012483,3.7518628521511235,90.75554706267744,75.80497925311205,6.567460144136274,20.153090194365586,7.0608816371341465,0.20986639004149368,888,18,201,9,19,294,145,241,0.16,0.8220000000000001,0.018000000000000002,-0.9884,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,2,12,6,1,2,10,0,18,15,1,3,6,39,35,17,0,3,2,1,7,0,1,2,4,2,0,0,15,14,11,0,4,2,1,4,5,6,0,2,11,10,24,0,35,21,8,31,0,2,1,0,8,9,1,5,17,136,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449164843333133,0.12876126069470775,0.13719365682455806,0.0,0.10344679697795478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230733654406954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207125152634941,0.0,0.10707932296793307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25442718259928426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211424968577938,0.0,0.10474759245554947,0.0,0.0,0.12161186923649878,0.0,0.0,0.1885845182100928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990740019101746,0.0,0.1413113907336518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136909793047416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243323236913613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271288155863024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100220509157384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659732988904996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145605738132178,0.09923353001856404,0.0,0.09139179960984273,0.0921840198097238,0.09588565610863484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848913020434686,0.09455333663829832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13462982612961835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497907607554135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825975890915412,0.09886673672851608,0.0,0.0,0.09906943221481936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284137139347917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799654577215298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259475814292065,0.0,0.1221468363265863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868190762769967,0.2991735286918771,0.4541762099420153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880232608807438,0.0,0.0,0.1348231227433831,0.09050871363398814,0.0,0.0,0.08831557899760939,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loopysoupy,2019/07/06,"I spent today being miserable because my shorts don't fit anymore Shorts I got when I was 14. I'm almost 23 now, and I fit in them up til now. I haven't worn any shorts so far this summer and this morning I tried on every single pair of jean shorts I own and out of 6, 1 of them fit. And then I had to go shopping for shorts because I'm going on vacation on Monday and who doesn't love the self loathing that comes with trying on clothes in stores. Of course I couldn't just accept that I can't fit into a size anymore, I had to try all of the different styles in that size to make sure it wasn't just one pair. And I made myself stare at my reflection bulging out of the shorts like a sausage from a casing. I haven't weighed myself in a while, and I've been trying to pretend I'm better. 

I'm a fucking adult now why am I still crying in fitting rooms and trying to fit into clothes I will never be able to fit into again! why can't I just fucking get over this! 

I've tried to talk to my mom and a couple of friends about it, but they don't get it and say I shouldn't be complaining about my size because its relatively small to them and I get that but to me its not. Sorry, I don't know if we can talk about numbers so tw >!I went from a 0 to a 6!< and everyone just keeps acting like I'm ridiculous for wanting to fit in those again. thanks for reading",3.3530223015165035,3.5407649694915264,4.4252631578947375,90.98968777876895,72.18644067796609,7.159678858162358,25.356824264049955,6.5966054737557815,0.6950677966101693,1066,29,249,7,19,349,146,295,0.10300000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.07,-0.6931,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,4,1,16,13,3,1,11,0,21,4,0,2,3,41,45,21,0,4,8,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,2,14,20,1,1,3,3,3,5,13,5,0,1,10,2,31,8,47,29,3,54,0,1,1,3,15,35,2,2,16,160,45,1,0.12665915554842236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268308484046324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613256910044015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25122369594734045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316307368436188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120197302354804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10910564733688094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014594651868845,0.13912913491418796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323318595210365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671580131413086,0.1210282509853836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785654938509113,0.23418869669214956,0.19852254333057145,0.0,0.1439666339191069,0.0,0.10130089722613232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258047708810047,0.0,0.0,0.0696085594663325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12375853119978172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431483298604468,0.11984795547017825,0.08454596985303331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483416721706968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768734904820277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582752176432103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669343131471736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072444421836292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213312257241294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417845548986618,0.0,0.0,0.10115016523327122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937475515485305,0.0,0.0,0.2036076629325633,0.0,0.11661073323476452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200580695935728,0.0,0.0,0.5159595149523079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07470685156802305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11741430613716672,0.2285803746221065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,semiiitrash,2019/07/06,"Do you actually gain the weight back? My first time on reddit lolol will anyone even read this.
You know how on eating disorder blogs they’ll always tell you that in the end you will gain more weight after? Is it really true? Or are they just trying to mess with those who are reading it?",3.109999999999996,5.123224561403512,3.5542456140350893,89.88505263157896,75.3157894736842,6.665263157894738,16.66315789473684,7.554174236665415,0.03581684210526381,228,3,47,3,5,71,46,57,0.078,0.7609999999999999,0.162,0.7686,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,2,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,1,6,8,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,7,1,6,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,5,34,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.22247242395912006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969492054257345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159406645756987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530005016149375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612811088290292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332771318058661,0.0,0.0,0.2019197352314639,0.0,0.0,0.1505764946291807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391690883189625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529006081963578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560768915939648,0.0,0.14604774504170542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992617297739463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293507746092914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478124985503405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5552285334050375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inadaze319,2019/07/06,"Guess what??!! I’m on my eighth week of no purging and I finally got my period back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven’t had a period since November of last year due to my bulimia. Ugh, I feel like I’m finally getting my shit together. I have established a good routine for my meals everyday and as I’ve gone on my binges got less and less and less. Progress feels good. Now I just have to lose all this weight I gained so I can be pretty and happy again Lololol.",1.2233577533577529,3.241655560439561,3.135750915750915,90.58980463980465,81.30769230769229,8.0004884004884,23.2979242979243,8.841846274778883,1.6727206349206352,340,12,77,9,9,114,60,91,0.113,0.669,0.218,0.8894,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,5,7,1,0,2,0,6,3,1,0,1,10,15,7,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,3,13,4,8,10,4,15,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,13,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625208124180266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373732788434316,0.15099378563691876,0.0,0.4630634529257674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042553036470867,0.0,0.0,0.35455315822809336,0.3380836790103895,0.0,0.2328340307202423,0.0,0.0,0.22499390757646515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228450971742287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325856108545584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23645489385109644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21502648414645528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695535801730526,0.17483704489290758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169538176312793,0.25737640189927713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13610725116032854
EDAnonymous,Kyumiip,2019/07/06,"Why are you so skinny? How do you even answer this question? ""I have an eating disorder.""? Sometimes it's someone you just met... 

Until now I just nodd or say I don't enjoy eating food.",0.21891891891892,2.60791467567568,2.6041081081081106,89.57264864864867,91.43243243243244,4.0410810810810815,18.210810810810813,5.6839178017228535,-0.09880108108108088,141,4,27,1,5,48,30,37,0.09,0.91,0.0,-0.4885,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,1,0,6,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336708932080543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5958164314558997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922947804540026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520468312649252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32614267791257073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.231525679235502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466814079731948,0.0,0.2879442399706547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26270795984516604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lozzibee30,2019/07/06,Help! I've come to a party at my brother's and he's ordered pizza 😫 How do I get out of this one???,-4.363399999999999,-3.130409839999995,0.5355000000000025,102.35525000000004,107.4,2.5,14.25,3.1291,-1.5391999999999997,74,2,21,0,4,29,23,25,0.0,0.732,0.268,0.7377,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6211134411471642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37671444464774734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832989452173078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.488596408062836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,se4nced,2019/07/06,"Dreamt I was at my UGW Such a good dream, probably the greatest disappointment I’ve ever felt after waking up.
My dreamself triggered me a Lot though and I’m starting a fast so idk maybe it’s not so bad (yes it is).

Worst thing is that I have a trip I’m going on with a friend next week. She has an ED and weighs a little more than me and my stupid competitive ass feels such a need to get way ahead of her. I’m terrified of her seeing me at this weight.

Why am I like this, that’s my close friend for the love of god.",0.0342625368731575,1.9748839823008884,1.9709955752212416,97.70363200589972,85.28318584070794,5.18259587020649,16.496312684365787,6.42735559955562,-0.5622147492625373,402,8,99,4,12,133,79,113,0.154,0.62,0.226,0.8135,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,9,1,0,10,1,6,5,2,1,1,12,17,6,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,4,13,5,13,15,4,16,0,1,1,2,6,6,1,1,8,63,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091846796315598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068327233172073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156155007460773,0.0,0.2195459158054121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533185959722261,0.0,0.11946348459240907,0.0,0.12995065042344522,0.19178606439688234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170992324442644,0.2291736929003568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943954180302852,0.20637124721455968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297159970045752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16954575665454275,0.0,0.0,0.24317857985350744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465301759432605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220947492708175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184411318491929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190909220432264,0.0,0.22465366373364828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814967358918232,0.18341429963592384,0.2784417853479521,0.0,0.0,0.20632675466224984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nxtyourbaby,2019/07/06,"U know you’ve put on weight when You no longer have to wear a belt to keep your jeans up 

Lol kill me now pls",6.7869230769230775,2.057665384615383,6.350000000000001,95.84500000000004,68.23076923076923,10.4,26.0,3.1291,0.2022,84,0,26,0,1,26,24,26,0.23,0.633,0.13699999999999998,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052982066581124,0.5044770886813613,0.0,0.2505960629184535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4583883664874229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5552638556524803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beeopop,2019/07/06,"Preventing brittle nails or hair loss? Whenever I don't eat properly for a period of time, my nails get super brittle and my hair falls out...will taking vitamins/supplements help? I know the right answer is actually to just recover but that's really hard right now ://",5.265204081632653,7.4632571020408225,6.767091836734696,68.36451530612247,69.81632653061224,12.246938775510205,30.617346938775512,11.698219412168324,4.773812244897961,214,9,35,9,4,73,43,49,0.10800000000000001,0.802,0.091,0.2312,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,7,5,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,3,5,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.34375128957870643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604460879260405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18403935347286488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155524127161751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361099412980599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935908244792548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256643758570883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6016498311287825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648528635986107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540345402914525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,omniamoresaequat,2019/07/06,"Been staying with my friend for a month in order to try and recover, panicked because it’s working I got REALLY bad two or three months ago. My friends decided I needed more help than I was getting at the time and encouraged me to book a trip to visit my best friend who lives in another state. Her parents knew what was up and so were very open to me staying for a month (bless them). 

Here’s the thing: it worked. I don’t think about eating that much anymore. I don’t think about the calories and the amount of food I eat. I eat when I wake up and I eat meals when the rest of the family eat and none of the family make me feel weird for it; no body talks about food like it’s an issue. They are respectful about it and sweet. 

I am dreading going home. I live alone, so I will no longer have those structured family meal times I’ll have to buy my groceries and prepare meals for myself and try not to binge/purge. 

I’m very worried about going home :(",3.44877551020408,4.405253265306122,4.078163265306124,90.75969387755104,72.46938775510203,7.4367346938775505,24.20408163265306,7.7094869923839395,0.924983673469388,744,20,165,9,14,236,118,196,0.11699999999999999,0.75,0.133,0.6456,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,3,10,12,0,1,11,0,11,12,2,1,0,20,22,14,0,1,2,1,1,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,10,11,10,0,5,1,1,4,6,3,0,2,6,2,23,9,25,15,6,22,1,0,0,0,12,6,0,1,9,105,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326217530636977,0.0,0.0,0.10896566478167197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032169082630447,0.0,0.0,0.10433989071472903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784582191850017,0.06413494204119269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041123632019913,0.0,0.0,0.1168644145608946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5382796607628728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975474216102649,0.0,0.053197256388617824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25444031268876394,0.0,0.24385458457790785,0.0,0.054967799109374216,0.0,0.11958635345318458,0.0,0.08414592028049922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705199381332942,0.0,0.2110680959398808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098117387559984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05140021354955035,0.0,0.18580443279586045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022838527688381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519324719740631,0.0,0.07734133811947966,0.07801176337213532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168230767563372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740011766061575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427938199908806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456368424544683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989674285547494,0.13482843477914208,0.0,0.0,0.12269740774883064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286115063135574,0.0,0.10277472625197373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361827320129275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531880333642438,0.1068456996931314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,comrade_toastboy,2019/07/06,"Getting off laxatives So I relapsed and went back to laxatives. I’m trying to get myself off of them, what’s the best way I can do this?",0.7816091954022966,2.83306555172414,3.235172413793105,89.08540229885055,83.13793103448276,6.625287356321839,23.459770114942533,7.793537801064563,1.2712666666666659,107,4,23,2,3,37,24,29,0.0,0.851,0.149,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,5,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533795595971206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822884472042901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.480210807563388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312016624395002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647838266650956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260243030112911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bigheadedbear,2019/07/06,how to stop calorie counting in recovery when not knowing how much ive eaten makes me an anxious wreck? even the thought of eating over 1600 makes me nervous and i really really really wanna stop feeling this way,5.607416666666667,7.410505575000002,6.4250000000000025,72.74666666666668,68.25,9.333333333333334,33.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,3.6760833333333336,173,8,27,4,3,57,33,40,0.252,0.7090000000000001,0.039,-0.8242,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,4,0,12,7,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,5,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087334498156987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27963804456330604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18050168993994126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381807435521812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018989362393906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648387587937783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20089539074344034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5252187240153101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569557909062687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695719265694244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21692034161497928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pitifulcretin,2019/07/06,"hit a new low, ethnically and emotionally! [nsfw] tw: fat shaming, porn, etc. THe usual. you know where you are and how fucked things can be here. Just gonna be grossly brutally honest.

anywho I was rolling through a certain subreddit I frequent to intentionally trigger myself. It contains a lot of NSFW images of people who are so large they're immobile - which is already pathetic enough that I'm hitting that low to trigger myself. Like, I wouldn't shame any of these people irl. this is just the stupid shit I do in the dark in secret.

 Typically this subreddit is all still images and ocasionally text posts, sorta all sharing a theme of people finding it ""gross but hot"" and glorifying the literal morbidity of it. Which, again, is fucked. But whatever. I'm there to shame myself into not gaining any weight, not like I have a moral high ground to land on. 

But yeah tl;dr: I came across a video I found so exceptionally triggering and gut-wrenching and I actually got weirdly turned on and shame-fucked myself till I came. Like. Wtf.


Anywho I'll be drinking some vodka [128cals] to forget this",3.0639768976897663,6.007986346534654,4.282599009900991,79.34950907590762,81.5742574257426,6.733003300330032,25.743399339934,7.937092434478242,2.0121676567656768,870,35,148,17,24,284,128,202,0.187,0.708,0.105,-0.9523,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,1,10,18,5,3,10,1,14,7,2,5,3,36,27,14,0,1,8,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,13,10,3,1,4,3,0,2,3,12,0,0,5,2,15,6,19,15,6,21,1,2,0,3,5,12,3,3,9,99,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.15308647161653302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311444695112982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21335950614226348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588443089854139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367687470436114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17646222405192538,0.0,0.16209285855447697,0.17495606572699904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338006607112894,0.0,0.0,0.17200433037638796,0.0,0.4350826742327081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546653158999604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574607730787316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621389113386603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22992225275626665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336873198281232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15150996291427676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262702019938807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502420035542141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610289876161731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527984202591733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422016737449186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17063395028185185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17277463486938227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910303659374389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cafemomos,2019/07/06,"just ate a full sized meal plus dessert. have been working really hard against purging but now i can’t stand it i can feel the acid guys. i don’t know what to do. haven’t purged in two weeks, i know if i do i’ll regret it but i feel so awful. i can feel it in my stomach and it feels like concrete. plus i have an swim competition tomorrow i don’t know what to do",-0.9822222222222194,1.0170377530864236,1.2628271604938277,100.43572222222224,91.22222222222223,4.721481481481481,17.976543209876542,6.2581,-0.4296923456790127,282,8,72,3,10,94,50,81,0.13699999999999998,0.82,0.043,-0.7962,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,1,12,4,1,0,0,15,20,7,0,2,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,3,0,7,1,0,1,4,1,0,1,2,6,10,1,7,18,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5868205330937265,0.20727837916370614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872874107358335,0.0,0.0,0.2599113412305177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783653885630294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174932488967695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858731805981116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28342777307519723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23273539532936965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122772466330367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookyskele10,2019/07/06,"my mom invited all of her friends over My mom invited all of her friends over, and I don't like being around them, nor do I have friends of my own so I always end up isolated in my room.
Previously (recently) to avoid being stuck in my room I'd leave to get carryout & snacks, come back to my room & b/p. Which would pass the time, and make me feel awful and want to lock myself in. 
Im having such bad urges to leave and get something, but I'm trying to get back on track (to my lw) and have been doing well the last few days - I really don't want to mess things up :( 
I hate that she has people over knowing my feelings about it, especially because it prevents me from doing multiple distraction activities but it's her house and my problem so I can't stop her. 
I just wish these urges and thoughts would go away.
Sorry for the lengthy post.",3.6584482758620673,4.427784787356323,4.7132758620689685,87.09681034482759,71.816091954023,8.328735632183909,26.568965517241374,8.59863814320734,1.5942275862068964,659,21,146,11,12,216,105,174,0.159,0.7240000000000001,0.11699999999999999,-0.7811,0,1,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,0,9,11,1,2,3,1,15,1,0,1,2,28,31,12,0,6,3,2,2,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,7,9,1,3,4,0,0,3,4,6,1,0,3,2,25,5,25,24,4,26,0,0,0,0,11,14,0,0,9,96,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724531273528252,0.3053437910421916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543646307529366,0.0,0.0,0.13238608842073954,0.21669646340458856,0.11765085814931993,0.08589516044944809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137828353414143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087289372091603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480114088940625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424928978663744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32659152720836204,0.0,0.22085314683937265,0.0,0.0800802861163284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391157795928785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16258692869255004,0.0,0.0,0.1522029620501301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743840647606559,0.11485742471903256,0.0,0.29839881054032896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883969096189142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405603606204513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33005546429817323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768667280388098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349492661564782,0.0,0.0,0.1348282801610378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026817108608098,0.0,0.13912795244985146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847653840989158,0.0,0.1577330443044305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780395945413814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361187133542134,0.0,0.0,0.11186384694393624,0.08216358501227057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566611479582834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622034941176392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669166789316416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16203526807483504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001915570412276,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laurieloumanizer,2019/08/17,Does anyone else repackage already snack sized food packages? Like I feel so weird doing it theyre already portioned out but here I am making the small servings even smaller and bagging them like a drug dealer why is this my food ritual,6.56310606060606,7.973046068181818,5.684545454545457,80.43015151515155,65.5909090909091,6.775757575757575,32.84848484848485,6.42735559955562,2.0713575757575766,193,8,31,1,3,58,40,44,0.034,0.851,0.115,0.5429,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,1,0,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,5,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5205904517366267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493010679262846,0.24168301707279194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641683133327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27354147866116435,0.0,0.19704427824443824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579398977825792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926608197232708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5704448170882656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23047437024994544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744917922137633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21284156082736186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silverkwang,2019/08/17,anyone else want a hysterectomy to make their stomach flatter im just gonna say its for health reasons but we all know the truth,1.92448717948718,4.530831192307693,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,83.23076923076924,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.6725282051282053,105,4,21,1,3,33,26,26,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,2,9,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584709369694653,0.3787545954296552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087988009754221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929253194849797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39929016276285023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20315237962149474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467471686633342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800662678739764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939639993399083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180317303853165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,httpram,2019/08/17,"clothes sizes I wear an XL in shirts because 1) baggy clothes and 2) i’m busty. whenever i see the tag on my shirts i want to dig a hole and lay in it. it sucks. this sucks ):

side note: Is reverse body dysmorphia a thing?? i swear to god i see myself as okay-ish in the mirror and then i look like i weigh 300 pounds in pics 🙃",-1.7374999999999972,0.17934247222222233,0.4930000000000021,104.35200000000002,96.5,3.991111111111112,15.533333333333335,5.6839178017228535,-1.0049099999999993,246,6,65,2,10,81,52,72,0.135,0.78,0.085,-0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,5,0,1,5,4,0,0,4,8,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,9,1,8,8,0,7,0,0,3,0,0,6,2,0,2,31,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514219342874206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581321230382563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014992249484554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463489456428745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.657328676087938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740093579226559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432700605503388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starvingunderground,2019/08/17,"Food waste I keep wasting food and it’s making me feel really awful. My dad made homemade pulled pork 2 weeks ago and I took some home with me but than I went really heavy on the restricting and it’s been sitting in my fridge for 2 weeks because I kept telling myself I’d eat it but now it’s probably gone bad but if I throw it out I’ll feel like really awful about it. So now I have two voices in my head, one telling me to eat it cause I really want it and the other telling me to toss it cause it’s probably spoiled and I just feel like such a piece of garbage. I just really hate myself and I dont have anyone to talk to so I thought I could at least vent on here. But I just don’t know what to do. If I eat it I’ll feel disgusting and if I toss it I’ll feel like a horrible wasteful pos",-0.04163841807909563,1.7531888192090401,2.245000000000001,96.48128531073448,84.53672316384181,6.193220338983053,18.8728813559322,7.3871296695380915,0.18969830508474628,619,16,154,10,18,210,90,177,0.185,0.75,0.065,-0.9741,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,2,0,4,2,7,6,1,4,0,36,23,16,0,5,10,1,5,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,14,9,5,3,7,0,0,5,2,3,0,2,7,6,24,3,16,15,3,17,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,4,8,93,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451267580986412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243955677973076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844293120184393,0.07187173560574017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422348904833187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413485294118544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381798251245722,0.0,0.0,0.3619283862651537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980730179546921,0.2526868310146799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851342232329961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640344435202732,0.12100108074006015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826494188187475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047963805741391,0.0,0.0,0.06479564910124556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280233398850514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156136727557717,0.07870024947393536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07989319167221476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542357835622733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37765399656775545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476485925616696,0.30915364803741113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936007196369028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099304231553252,0.0,0.0,0.11517275477367556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06954143250158402,0.0,0.18914714195148585,0.0,0.0,0.10929598656052927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sinful-Diana-Gene,2019/08/17,"My medication is making me gain my clothes feel tight, some of my pants are uncomfortably tight, and I haven't even been eating poorly. This is really triggering for me, so hard to resist relapse.",8.110833333333336,8.198141750000001,8.146666666666668,68.71500000000002,62.05555555555557,11.644444444444444,31.88888888888889,11.20814326018867,3.633488888888889,157,5,27,4,2,51,31,36,0.11699999999999999,0.7959999999999999,0.087,-0.0429,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,7,7,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871388371853481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144399878945201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407154821888965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4264655396485529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31778066714150555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795908102465989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049828679836739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ShouyouAllen,2019/08/17,"Mad at others weight loss One of my friends has been losing weight like CRAZY.... however she has severe medical issues that cause this. But every time she talks about not being able to fit in any of her clothes, or how the clothes she does have will be to big in a week, I get angry. I think it’s jealousy for how small she’s getting but still. Does anyone else get like this?",2.2188345864661656,4.2197911842105285,2.61796992481203,95.63078947368422,77.94736842105263,5.395488721804512,20.06766917293233,6.1826913282559595,-0.109554135338346,294,7,64,2,7,90,59,76,0.138,0.754,0.109,-0.09,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,2,0,7,3,0,3,0,8,11,5,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,2,8,3,9,7,0,9,0,2,0,0,7,6,0,1,5,39,13,0,0.19523092500611025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327637237578369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651000210937872,0.2000371539920838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20055593881463699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416957962216681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16309038635747433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449047455839882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508349283684721,0.0,0.3060003013692588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377036311966426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075993692610635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184134669452488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196674617608638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229352740019248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22055537498345112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559116688999464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15691922230390934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509609366467206,0.0,0.0,0.1138407223765729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15660247189204146,0.4754773422800458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,felixxxculpa,2019/08/17,"my housemate and best friend of 7 years is in relapse and won’t shut up about it not that she’d admit it (she constantly lies to me). it is so so triggering that every single day she just casually tells me “ugh I’m not hungry but I wish i was so I could eat.” or “ugh I made this giant pizza but I can’t eat it because i’m just never hungry anymore” and goes on and on about how she “accidentally” lost all this weight.  i woke up from a nap and she just saunters in and goes “i should probably eat something before i go to this pool party” and proceeds to ask me to “transfer hunger to her.” i told her I wasn’t hungry either so even if I wanted to, I couldn’t. she decides she just won’t eat beforehand. 

shit like this happens every. single. day. I am losing my mind. I brought it up to her that I’m worried and she *immediately* got defensive but it’s not just that I’m worried. it’s that i’ve had an eating disorder since high school and don’t want to hear her basically bragging about how she never has to eat. I know this probably sounds hella selfish but I’m exhausted. she is the type of person who voices her every thought and is constantly bitching about her anxiety and how bad she has it (mind you, her parents just paid for her 50,000 wedding in france and a 250,000 house for her while my parents haven’t spoken to me in a year for reasons I still can’t figure out). she doesn’t understand how much I struggle and I don’t feel like I can talk to her about it because she’ll immediately turn it into a competition. I’ve LIVED with her for 7 years (not just known her) so I know how she reacts. I’m just... I’m sad. 

thanks for letting me vent.",1.2821381074168805,3.302964034782612,3.2798167092924158,89.62095268542204,81.1159420289855,6.029838022165388,22.32097186700767,7.1686216300943375,0.700109974424552,1292,42,280,17,34,436,159,345,0.177,0.759,0.064,-0.9909,2,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,3,25,18,3,1,6,0,25,11,1,9,3,65,54,30,0,7,19,2,2,2,1,4,1,3,0,1,21,16,9,1,10,3,2,2,16,12,0,0,11,5,55,6,36,35,6,28,0,3,0,0,39,14,2,2,14,193,76,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133164301121799,0.0,0.09247330142932106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717084411579322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785510521364956,0.11368173355178793,0.0,0.0793440412457251,0.0,0.0978541521127018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015279499812221,0.0,0.07444799530583407,0.0,0.0,0.1202697339059164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068660591893529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5724732542696197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061586988281257186,0.0,0.23568706188276975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04714712552926894,0.06661375470564039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204032369635689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052992890992881785,0.0,0.07457599386816105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245563663980861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050931157543189,0.0,0.0,0.09851773447740116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759141615148343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024892700080369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534862591674667,0.0,0.0911089212100942,0.0,0.08233643529401438,0.0,0.0,0.10431653350172007,0.10178718071948073,0.0,0.0,0.08823002201356607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883003471268902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854529771766454,0.0,0.14383152258470522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20707354621111346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814173361264207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20106627704666188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587068195228124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436822122771436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571394571026323,0.07713265796223301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07178402643179893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446502754423746,0.0,0.0,0.09747919980101301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494624548326509,0.0814996380856966,0.08584683418217726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740255677724871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890989354537707,0.0,0.0,0.10142303504095676,0.0,0.09707061661979544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999582149819856,0.0,0.0,0.11354645113915718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722635637962932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893882488560994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801388382483792
EDAnonymous,Tinyturtletakeover,2019/08/17,"Ran into a childhood friend and it was so triggering I was buying safe foods at Walmart and ran into one of my childhood best friends. He used to live next door to me, then I moved away and came back and I was fat. Really fat. He teased me about it a little and stopped hanging out with me at school. Now he hasn't seen me in a decade.

I saw him and said his name, but then immediately regretted it and had a panic attack while trying to make small talk. He was pretty cute, too, which doesnt help, but he's on meth and just a trouble guy, so I dont want him or anything, but attractive guys make me so nervous regardless of me feelings for them.

If I had known I was going to get to reveal my weightloss to someone from the past, I would have dressed hotter. Ugh. He said I looked really different though, and I had to tell him who I was. I've cut my weight in more than half since 2017, so I really look like a different person.

Now, to continue my quest to run into all of the people who hurt me over my weight in school and show them how hot I am now 🤘",4.4633264033264055,4.132004459459463,5.421351351351352,86.61003118503119,69.72072072072072,8.812751212751213,26.536382536382536,8.384062270229773,1.4114777546777546,818,21,187,11,13,270,132,222,0.158,0.738,0.10400000000000001,-0.9166,2,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,1,13,16,3,2,8,0,15,5,2,5,1,38,31,24,0,5,6,0,4,1,2,1,2,2,1,3,6,16,5,2,3,1,1,7,3,9,0,2,16,10,31,7,29,14,3,34,0,2,4,0,26,14,0,2,14,124,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065918652557638,0.0,0.0,0.1473586763094352,0.12169736997006747,0.09960030541253634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593337626332988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14814741243413684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706618304046195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15180778503831935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549408293807768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15662776685597882,0.0,0.2001485724564944,0.0,0.06767389595233379,0.0,0.07361468507049672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565094361180855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682099398416135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866416925226654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328164416331511,0.12982273789572948,0.11437705398655,0.0,0.2175445661403251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17292409429278865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766951885695794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775625218861445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777264305021948,0.0,0.0,0.151975135477557,0.0,0.0,0.12365070744915957,0.08979954996159874,0.11310029413247727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317782207344869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489400316354504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464247181607305,0.0,0.0,0.2621818419860992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714826494940287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097500520510426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829258730015576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411102612249974,0.11321462329435662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272622234040169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794212975691325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187202907389096,0.0,0.0,0.07639994352967196,0.0,0.0,0.3154644362620024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201414692721398,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,novakayne96,2019/08/17,"Does high restricting slow the healing process? I'm due to have a c section in a month, and while logical brain knows that I shouldn't restrict at all, I also know that crack rat side of my brain is probably gonna. Would high restriction impair my healing process?",6.648823529411764,6.900501333333335,6.079215686274508,81.75647058823529,65.07843137254902,9.937254901960783,36.607843137254896,9.725611199111238,3.3993607843137252,212,10,41,4,3,65,42,51,0.107,0.847,0.046,-0.4359,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,4,2,0,1,10,8,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,5,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,4,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109764650392688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5890199212042636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23087033851735506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574798535242327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899767414210698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21057831391935536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28444218513355096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740989779008296,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rice-and-cigarettes,2019/08/17,my anorexia encouraged me to start taking my meds again because 200mg of zoloft suppresses the shit out of my appetite ☹️,10.195,7.465771833333335,9.503333333333334,69.67500000000003,59.83333333333334,12.933333333333335,44.83333333333333,11.20814326018867,4.999883333333333,100,5,18,2,1,32,21,24,0.0,0.755,0.245,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158289720183818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754923407054968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5318222398099629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667138708538374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895467473744706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SuperShitposter,2019/08/17,"How tf do people enjoy eating? I don't eat until my body is phsycially shaking/I'm going to pass out. I don't know how to enjoy it, I have no desire to eat. It makes me feel ill and all I worry about is the grease or mess or what is inside it (like freaking out that cheese comes from cows and cows are gross). I go through peroids where this isn't as strong and then I can gain a bit of weight, but it always comes back. It's not even like I'm self conscious about weight or not being fat, etc. I'm just scared of eating food.

I weigh 65kg 6ft2 atm btw - but when I eat I go up to 70kg in like a week no issue.

I want to fix this before I die an early death, I've been like this since I was a child.",0.1612748643761286,1.4871603354430434,2.179783001808321,99.53569620253164,81.72151898734177,4.76745027124774,15.083182640144667,4.65589566412798,-1.2291045207956603,535,6,138,1,14,179,101,158,0.225,0.7140000000000001,0.06,-0.9790000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,9,11,0,1,5,0,13,12,2,3,1,24,24,14,2,2,8,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,10,7,10,0,3,0,1,6,7,4,0,0,2,4,14,7,17,21,3,17,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,10,81,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094226340756603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111917170687254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190100725694857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435693210316708,0.14607232846241008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265597010922775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648135248964072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6728118538652194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666275559254865,0.08685776416720993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649284247642527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901627997197126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22421184199061625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725697795060066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227166884158807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569866594500643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778056006265529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911689585102804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165937335347527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718831923503866,0.0,0.0,0.10878223471941696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756501324141404,0.0,0.10548532034991112,0.32027514740706897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335496369790024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gaypeaxh,2019/08/17,"that ed feel when... you weigh out your 128 kcal breakfast only to feel too sick to continue halfway through eating it and your first thought is 'thank god, only half the calories'",7.08727272727273,7.707204545454545,5.505606060606059,84.9784090909091,64.15151515151516,7.8121212121212125,34.68181818181819,7.1686216300943375,2.2519818181818185,142,6,26,1,2,41,29,33,0.087,0.792,0.121,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,1,4,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987586659962029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39408635581956497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314771888753553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5927662602428833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587818521459847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30937693351870843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stick-people,2019/08/17,"Does Anyone Else get sick during extreme calorie deficit and fasting ? I woke up at 5:50 am because I was feeling nauseous. I had eaten nothing but lettuce, cucumbers, cottage cheese and tea between my fasts these last 5 days. I eventually just started vomiting (not purging) and I feel horrible, had to force myself to eat some fruit because internet said sugar may help .

 Might it be just an occasional thing , not really related to eating, or is this hand in hand with my disorder. 

Some information:
My BMI is 20 so I'm not underweight. Been a very long time Binge purging (about 6 years) and periods of restricting. I haven't purged in a few weeks . I'm 19 

I would really love to read your experiences with nauseousness and sickness due to ED, I could use some help. 

Thanks x",3.828482142857143,6.434518534722222,4.8922619047619085,78.30750000000002,75.45833333333333,8.55873015873016,31.119047619047624,9.23628265651192,3.267063095238095,615,30,107,16,14,201,109,144,0.098,0.723,0.179,0.9431,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,13,12,2,1,0,26,25,8,0,2,7,0,4,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,4,7,6,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,7,13,2,14,13,4,15,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,6,11,64,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198018609964826,0.19339931435621435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301236302348127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507035687107833,0.0,0.0,0.12172979294512674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21632679869663612,0.0,0.16517864653854886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862820037687281,0.1576785525596602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846362328537904,0.0,0.0,0.19087794218038026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861542767858612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530337387183561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538585375326307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704008530964262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035656438503208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002366491159514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811131822034887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888036497552431,0.0,0.2418394600614497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795469185719123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360004099534242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377800732752754,0.0,0.0,0.12539882079537915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100631418417232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630216176731365,0.0,0.15574063853725587,0.0,0.0,0.1514059267790208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340844105990109,0.0,0.0,0.12155046698894745
EDAnonymous,catlynpurrce,2019/08/17,"My drug usage is tied so heavily to my eating disorder, but I don’t want to admit it to anyone, bc I think I secretly like how much my drug usage makes me restrict. Tw for drug use and alcoholism 

When I’m sober, I want to eat everything. My hunger cues are so fucked up that no matter how much I eat, no matter how much I binge, I will still be hungry and I will still crave food like I’m fucking starving. I don’t trust my hunger cues anymore, bc I am so scared that any one single bite of food will make me binge and binge and binge. I am either restricting or binging. When I’m sober, there is no in between. 

When I’m fucked up, though....completely different story. When I do drugs, when I’m drunk as fuck, I don’t crave anything. When I’m high on coke, I have absolutely no appetite. When I’m doing drugs, eating is the last thing I wanna do. It’s like...when i have drugs, I can be perfect. I can restrict, I can not eat, I can hide the disorder. I can be perfect. 

I am so, SO fucked up. In more ways than one",0.966720930232558,2.6963989162790725,2.9271511627907003,93.22328488372095,80.76744186046511,6.16046511627907,20.51744186046513,7.1686216300943375,0.35156279069767393,777,21,180,10,20,261,99,215,0.28600000000000003,0.594,0.12,-0.9940000000000001,1,0,7,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,2,18,11,5,1,2,0,26,23,0,6,2,27,45,22,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,3,7,0,0,0,5,4,12,3,3,1,0,0,8,6,0,2,0,0,29,5,16,39,6,18,0,0,0,5,2,7,5,1,12,115,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219646415598456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0586666032094123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555672401782187,0.06032203602901895,0.0,0.07099291363537417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904525228486172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901338573267364,0.19774593945743185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6002753257891192,0.4413790743389653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07753397259852576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086362125032193,0.0,0.0,0.3987764294173809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114906128864002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070321618105676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644158974076444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517187791156905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19025527462211372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169176588224834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637138600481073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377907723009388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057313998483864176,0.055278374862844114,0.08475990183198834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07450963804038839,0.0,0.0,0.10176864021912176,0.06847716285302276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DamnYourReddit,2019/08/17,"*apparently* anyone who is not anorexic is not allowed on this sub someone made a post about how they first hand have seen skinny privileges and said they were real, and wanted to know people thoughts.

i agreed and stated that i was original 180 lb and that i am now 145 and still have some weight to louse.

i forgot to  mention that my eating disorder is not anorexia or another ed that has to do with wanting weight loss, but rather one with portion control and excessive weight gain.

someone assumed that i was just some pro-ana girl wanting to be thin.

after me attempting to enplane many times the MANY wrong assumptions about me the commenter /u/rottentothepit stated this.

 ""If you have a problem with overeating and you want to talk about treatment that’s INSENSITIVE to the people with anorexia/ednos on THIS sub, try [r/bingeeatingdisorder](https://www.reddit.com/r/bingeeatingdisorder/). Please do yourself a favour and post there instead, because it is MUCH more appropriate given context. I sincerely hope that you can get help there, **because nobody will want to help you here**.""

YEAH, and people talking about eating is insensitive to me, but if we blocked EVERYTHING thats insensitive their wouldn't be an edanon because talking about ANY ed can be insensitive the point is to TRY not to be, and i defiantly wasent trying to be. 

i was sharing my recovery, and yes i am happy i am recovering, and not its not wrong to be proud of yourself for it (from her/his earlier statements)

but i guess that dosent matter **because nobody will want to help me here, because im not anorexic or ednos...**",4.989553490773005,7.762373094076657,4.878203639179251,79.02083881791202,72.41463414634147,7.3180539424441875,29.79339269583172,8.285830014693849,2.4442252935862694,1286,55,213,22,27,397,155,287,0.094,0.711,0.195,0.9858,2,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,1,4,3,6,15,12,1,0,8,2,30,7,2,5,0,58,46,20,0,12,16,0,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,16,17,6,3,4,0,0,0,8,5,0,2,10,7,25,7,31,27,5,15,0,1,1,0,20,5,0,9,6,152,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704935344583012,0.10869836749732208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248269531180741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159561572705157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626545024958004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880532905043968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21214366800834344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316448319929772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817461876776107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05415897801563704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419508794227046,0.0,0.0,0.11034984440500764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20844682746487245,0.0,0.0,0.10295949263581587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197246215716974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056969778523737816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808724001767627,0.0,0.21019345771347286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620330263866258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024387436892142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559798429263952,0.0,0.0,0.11378945590795428,0.09799384593368217,0.0,0.1985585746073352,0.0,0.0,0.0991902804958268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798974878147735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860604820784154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566450320620133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278439541283841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24995812767712075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229583839872863,0.060445991257737176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111385404281005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668542622343339,0.0,0.0,0.3786961994975832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266756680876034,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,someblueday,2019/08/17,"L my grandparents survived residential schools/genocide so that i could exist and try and starve myself to death.

you hate to see it",5.7650000000000015,8.192918833333334,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,69.0,8.133333333333335,32.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.9934833333333333,108,5,18,2,2,33,22,24,0.341,0.552,0.107,-0.802,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4851682383953156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5999398976562426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48422751785751394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41256225057820595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,concernedabout202,2019/08/17,"Eating Disorder and Gastroparesis? pls help! So I clearly suffered from mental health issues from around Feb 2019 to April 2019. I guess to be as technical as possible on and off I would severely restrict my caloric intake. Eating a few snacky type foods here and there. I did not attempt to purge but I suffered from depression and paranoia most likely no official dx.

Anyways since I came home towards end of April 2019 ( I was studying in another province (Canadian). I started to eat a lot more like half a large pizza and 10 chicken wings etc and would feel generally ok.

But since mid june i have symptoms of nausea and low appetite and early satiety. lots of tests have been done everything coming back normal. I have yet to get a Gastric emptying study. 

What I want to ask is if my eating patterns from Feb 2019 to April 2019 could have triggered what I am experiencing now? or was that too short a period of time and what I have felt since mid June could be a viral gut infection or something else? 

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Thank you!",4.332683823529411,6.6913525625000005,4.732414215686276,81.24959558823531,72.85416666666666,7.64264705882353,29.52328431372549,8.4952907291091,2.4369181372549016,820,35,144,15,17,259,127,192,0.168,0.753,0.079,-0.9655,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,9,8,0,0,6,1,18,11,1,1,1,34,28,17,0,7,6,0,2,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,4,12,6,1,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,7,3,16,4,22,15,6,24,0,4,0,0,3,9,0,7,15,97,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359381661432943,0.15245022125600538,0.0,0.1315579832327098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168789579612133,0.11729015601637507,0.0,0.0,0.09647263415579628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349525397225782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807451637994553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003426047573539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806034928861127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437904712557838,0.0,0.0,0.12839131917777585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5135163252466469,0.10480751121028803,0.0,0.1111222086238693,0.0,0.13992344009280766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275727318461555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343742297259335,0.0,0.12046332051479555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517093063916882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554878500688993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382106816382238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336037800874012,0.0,0.0,0.08409462154743902,0.0,0.12584874660023815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309498683152142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225889193985618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21332683382318365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643631868857969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292624990579365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414397012779519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417364962604244,0.0,0.31135071289422994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658687770058967,0.0,0.0,0.08880274182512107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13040319233867534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11550867353497607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315797732257406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400081526992824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782493958607782,0.0,0.15245022125600538,0.0
EDAnonymous,hammerprice,2019/08/17,"Me at the supermarket: Oh, olives are a decent low-calorie snack! Me later in my shame hole: Not if you eat the entire >!700!< calorie jar you fucking gumboot",3.823,6.523827300000002,4.043333333333333,83.885,76.0,5.333333333333334,30.0,6.42735559955562,1.6380000000000008,129,6,22,1,3,40,26,30,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.6093,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7420094309859543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6703894422855274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jonathanfranzensucks,2019/08/17,"Long time etc etc, first time etc etc Been lurking for several years now, back in the days of r/pr**d. I never posted or commented mostly out of imposter syndrome, and also just never feeling a real ""need"" to. But these days it's been getting really bad, and I really only have one friend who has an eating disorder who I can talk to about these things, and it's not fair to put it all on her. I'm trying to find a new therapist with whom I can talk about these things (I love my previous therapist but he couldn't really help me with this), but in the interim I just need to get my thoughts and feelings out.

I've never really been the bingeing type -- too scared of food. Restricting and occasional throwing up is more my style. And the throwing up has become...well, it's not *that* bad. It's like 2-3x a week, if that. It could be so much worse, and I've deluded myself into believing that if I limit myself then it'll be fine. I'm well aware that purging isn't going to lead to any real weight loss, my body has probably already absorbed the calories, etc. but it's honestly just...calming. When life and my thoughts feel like too much, it just makes me feel better to empty myself, like hitting a hard reset button.

What scares me is how ""okay"" I'm starting to feel with the actual act of throwing up. I always hated doing it in the moment -- it was painful and unpleasant and I'd tear up really badly and get a horrible runny nose, etc etc. But just the other day I surprised myself with how oddly satisfying I found the act itself. What used to be a way to punish myself is now like...soothing, almost.

This has been a really tough relapse. I *know* that I can't have all the things I want in life and also hold onto the starvation, purging, and self-hatred. I *know* this. And yet, something in my brain keeps saying ""But you can. You can have it all. You're just not trying hard enough. You're not committing to this eating disorder enough. You need to work harder.""

You know how fucking hellish it is, I don't need to explain it. I hate how in love with this I am. I know I *need* help but I don't know if I *want* help. Very confusing. Very painful. Very addictive.

That's all for now, I think. Feel free to commiserate, I hear misery loves company.",1.6230386375430468,3.9051325587583183,3.353670802472049,88.10950983629759,81.50554323725055,6.499051752606503,21.12567816200405,7.69321558396912,0.9452843421238852,1748,52,354,30,47,581,206,451,0.20600000000000002,0.695,0.099,-0.9948,0,0,1,0,0,0,89.0,0,4,0,6,23,29,5,3,19,1,32,16,3,7,8,92,74,34,0,12,20,0,9,3,1,1,5,2,0,0,38,22,4,4,17,0,1,8,12,15,1,2,8,12,42,15,43,59,17,47,1,1,0,4,22,15,1,7,25,246,80,3,0.0,0.0,0.06264994430261893,0.06998748215638254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428703173072045,0.0,0.07084630238675943,0.10268144223782877,0.05341954744317316,0.0,0.0,0.04365820518004376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936584131830181,0.1608129686044072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723314213636003,0.0,0.05677968761306534,0.0,0.07131173313774389,0.0,0.07166843823647429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05125848030528031,0.0,0.0,0.12421107703597126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715753641874366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138526613435664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326715346308046,0.5011998356367268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19476871032979134,0.04586449668138029,0.0,0.0,0.0586776418491308,0.054608491791714016,0.07763090135744719,0.07039199221262983,0.04960076491255573,0.0593518704818283,0.10062555918288434,0.0,0.03648634255522572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502118933403413,0.12676842791719448,0.0,0.0,0.07235807199352698,0.0,0.1290957310130863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057063914606424876,0.0,0.0,0.1764132199473017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069272485928384,0.125459519072288,0.0,0.0,0.05681498451751001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382903421146192,0.0,0.04285400212183687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438878182405937,0.2380174526224038,0.1485450058943799,0.06200476526526836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04350358516430518,0.048826997065325305,0.1366266643527189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06148585864702132,0.0,0.06921846424281558,0.0,0.0,0.0645387375816392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614732261695973,0.2467690043436732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05105442108899883,0.12855081036216556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697460712705941,0.07252773229043004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04942430068093105,0.0,0.0,0.0454410942536253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320306496574262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908230895528693,0.12795489266178325,0.04113677117399956,0.0,0.10193526614559828,0.07487107885624428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717517892724971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055448191773546825,0.0,0.15891518405607272,0.07573365309255957,0.05095897601763481,0.05149737184259418,0.07817831098797719,0.05772351496007388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04673836854534762,0.0,0.06542529025658864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041342698594003344
EDAnonymous,omgitscynthia,2019/08/17,"Went out to dinner last minute and didn't trigger a binge. Today I had all my calories planned out and pre-logged by noon. I even cooked what I planned on making for dinner but my husband decided last minute that he wanted to go out to eat. I managed to keep my meal UNDER the calorie count of what I had made at home and didn't say eff it and binge.

This is the first time in months I can say that.",4.3584705882352965,4.041279670588239,4.644705882352942,92.04117647058823,69.94117647058823,7.270588235294117,26.411764705882355,5.6839178017228535,0.6074000000000002,312,8,73,1,5,98,58,85,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,6,5,0,3,1,15,12,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,6,7,5,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,2,9,0,14,6,1,16,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,7,46,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740907039642805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692097418161076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278441167415583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522327063038707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686884124442497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23808892710143265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366881651414633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534584314371417,0.178800621330698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138056776935382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260307910770599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561930596486183,0.0,0.2539027877545227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799252763014476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483116691065433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashamedhuman1234566,2019/08/17,"[TW] ;-; It's been a long day I finished a 25 hour fast. I think this time my ED was at it's most horrible.
I just spent the last hour crying. It's 3am.
I need some tips on how to get better tomorrow or even now. Please.
What do you guys do after a late night breakdown?",-2.239666666666668,-0.4433976333333334,0.5800000000000018,102.77833333333334,100.33333333333334,4.0,13.333333333333336,5.82211442006289,-1.1391666666666662,202,4,53,2,9,69,49,60,0.11900000000000001,0.792,0.09,-0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,6,1,4,5,2,15,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,13,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357006098785717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927414829710561,0.17187265283178454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17602298952619516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923703273610247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638802765179162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.52490435366428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21723584971899496,0.3006274557038086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23584713238079344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976089024200108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500953978075403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925407158293246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076462484650667,0.0,0.0,0.15540028213031853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kalanchoe-,2018/11/20,"Fuck laxatives *potential TW*

I have taken so many and I feel so nauseated and shivery I bet I’m going to throw up soon and then probably spend the rest of the night on the toilet and I have to be up super early tomorrow kill me 🙃

On a serious note fuck dulcolax and all the other brands out there for making such massive packets they are so clearly marketing to people with eating disorders they don’t give a shit about people’s health they just want to make money!! For real who the fuck needs to buy SIXTY laxatives in one go......unless of course you’re me and you have an eating disorder and you binge then take them continuously for like the next three days of course :) :) :) 

Mods please remove if this is inappropriate I don’t want this sub to be banned again. To anyone else reading this if you’ve never taken laxatives please never ever start it is not worth it and will fuck with your health so much and also this is just the most horrible feeling!!",2.881503267973855,5.216500112299464,4.2370677361853835,83.18867349970292,77.28877005347593,7.364111705288176,21.618835412953054,8.344100000000001,1.3526104575163402,759,21,144,15,18,250,118,187,0.166,0.706,0.129,-0.9013,0,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,3,4,1,13,9,6,0,10,0,12,9,1,2,5,33,30,18,1,5,5,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,12,2,1,2,1,5,3,5,7,0,2,2,2,14,2,22,25,4,23,0,0,0,4,9,6,5,4,15,100,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419397919720597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911027707889158,0.13349892834083998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840271691728704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986504465492961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666412428200034,0.10884173948144646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11785602348626585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175848533801582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4818091700718712,0.0,0.1249873755919879,0.14809520140459245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769873142250455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414812109372244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636537929124137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17394103192503454,0.13209502155668865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577916472040404,0.09660941633316547,0.2009775076092028,0.0,0.13856637363236515,0.12226964531406954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828881926131661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18065529214543435,0.0,0.0,0.2860416455316085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047615744768827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032665081087114,0.14830012863676784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374224166307205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222091794141572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796291190273784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369847759982969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Apropos_apoptosis,2018/11/20,"Any advice on hair health? I feel like I'm losing more hair (I'm a woman, early 30s) and I'm getting fixated on it. It used to be wavy, now it's limp and straighter. It seems much thinner too. 

Has biotin or any other vitamins  made a difference in your hair?

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EDAnonymous,partytimez2,2018/11/20,Thoughts of Eugenia Cooney? She seems to be the face of aneroxia but what do yall think? People have been asking Youtube to ban her because she is so skinny. All she does is post vids of makeup tutorials and outfit hauls lol. Do you guys have any thoughts on her? ,2.6099999999999994,4.8736692307692335,2.9890769230769263,92.15592307692309,77.84615384615384,5.6984615384615385,23.861538461538462,6.742157984588678,0.6500338461538462,208,7,43,2,5,64,41,52,0.094,0.843,0.064,-0.4098,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,8,2,2,0,1,8,13,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,7,0,6,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,1,0,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317217802055849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185553832671496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771812278173585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29819274402724755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373962115306364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23623324282114644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263444423425209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102061300239454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183389309990735,0.0,0.5410350984328863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mmmgood5,2018/11/20,"Feeling rough today Feeling weird today, I know it’s mostly because I’ve been eating real meals lately and I gained a little bit of weight. I’m trying really hard to recover and figure my shit out, but today is hard. ",4.686201550387602,5.7911118837209274,6.465116279069767,74.2401550387597,69.69767441860466,7.593798449612403,23.635658914728683,7.793537801064563,1.4987426356589144,173,4,28,2,3,60,35,43,0.17,0.726,0.10400000000000001,-0.409,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,10,6,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,3,0,3,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,4,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934386959175598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23164723736483006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171146399442912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457067782330635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38014588458778026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660940029943187,0.0,0.2393499676640207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21266159947228447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415089930735083,0.1359288985334144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178012548765534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6033697408945216,0.0,0.0,0.14405730674179196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583798981576817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-PM-ME-NICE-THINGS-,2018/11/20,"ALL I WANT IS A FLAT STOMACH DAMMIT Even when I was 2lbs off of underweight I still have this nasty, saggy pooch - I just want to wear a body con dress and look dainty, darn it.

I know you can't spot reduce. I know genetic fat placement is a thing. I know height is a factor. I know everyone says to ""Rock it!"" but it's hard to do that when you're rocking like Winnie the Pooh.

It just fuels me to the brink of insanity! ",0.5551186017478145,2.480392651685396,2.4531835205992536,95.08766541822723,83.15730337078651,5.7533083645443215,17.754057428214733,6.937597516519254,-0.12416204744069904,322,7,76,4,9,107,62,89,0.11800000000000001,0.812,0.071,-0.7134,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,6,0,7,4,4,0,1,11,14,4,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,10,1,7,13,1,6,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,4,46,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31716910539283993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18859560635007974,0.0,0.0,0.2728444469521881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25578657338077865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6276983681445965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394997768120169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397805779581423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270718204516127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280315601315872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969921241331086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368362251566887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thekroganrebellions,2018/11/20,"Two things I miss about recovery 1) that sense of self worth and optimism that came with believing that I had finally conquered my demons and was on my way to a happier, healthy life

2) my butt :(",7.033947368421052,6.3161076578947375,7.0357894736842095,78.4605263157895,64.52631578947367,12.86315789473684,37.42105263157895,12.161744961471696,4.483378947368419,153,7,32,5,2,49,32,38,0.098,0.652,0.25,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,0,5,1,0,4,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41443757798791175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420718946952169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029583838678082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598211988871582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837446222009213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443811868882518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593330469705168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919798090421687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CreativeCondition,2018/11/20,I feel like being trans contributes to my ED A huge part of why I'm so determined to lose weight is to look more masc. Oops lmao. DAE feel like this?,0.9770833333333327,2.739848375000001,2.213750000000001,98.18958333333336,80.875,6.766666666666668,16.916666666666664,7.793537801064563,-0.034970833333333395,116,2,29,2,3,37,27,32,0.073,0.5670000000000001,0.36,0.8914,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,4,5,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290434315346164,0.4649025404982943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31792809998326993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732369373818081,0.3640165732680033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523544275828117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962247274037075,0.0,0.0,0.2936045034332088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HobbitProstitute,2018/11/20,"How to calorie count correctly without resulting in a binge? Every time I calorie count I get to the end of the night and I've done really well and say ""oh I have 1000 safe calories I could eat and still lose weight""...

Only then my thoughts are like ""LETS EAT THEN"" and before you know it I've ate 2000 calories in an hour. Yay life.

Do any of you have tips on how to bank them because a brother is struggling. Thanks!",1.3010457516339855,3.5482084117647053,2.253333333333334,95.72888888888893,82.52941176470588,5.189542483660131,22.38562091503268,6.42735559955562,0.3341111111111115,325,11,71,3,9,102,62,85,0.061,0.779,0.16,0.8353,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,1,4,7,0,1,5,1,8,5,0,3,1,13,13,8,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,4,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,3,2,8,5,9,8,0,10,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,8,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249269724086444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277321258050011,0.0,0.17830099421661674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729865749281353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442963026450088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288183829817832,0.0,0.0,0.1855880464659605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654439576437742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947470454643986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063522466090208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515633973302833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21426630823471168,0.1480025453637991,0.10236944689679793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344188844501265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19663676570368155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593627241733303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423509921889604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666326441282033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673369321381855,0.0,0.0,0.2190541087532176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291399385150346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663493833192562,0.12218301150451699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551602465669848,0.1883993926677512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019866894966424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,intensitei,2018/11/20,"(Science-related?) question regarding a paragraph from that article on obesity from HuffPost.. I don’t know if y’all have seen the article or not but here’s the [link](https://highline.huffingtonpost.com/articles/en/everything-you-know-about-obesity-is-wrong/)

Okay I guess it isn’t so much of a question but more of .. a plea for comfort

This is the paragraph:


“For 60 years, doctors and researchers have known two things that could have improved, or even saved, millions of lives. The first is that diets do not work. Not just paleo or Atkins or Weight Watchers or Goop, but all diets. Since 1959, research has shown that 95 to 98 percent of attempts to lose weight fail and that two-thirds of dieters gain back more than they lost. The reasons are biological and irreversible. As early as 1969, research showed that losing just 3 percent of your body weight resulted in a 17 percent slowdown in your metabolism—a body-wide starvation response that blasts you with hunger hormones and drops your internal temperature until you rise back to your highest weight. Keeping weight off means fighting your body’s energy-regulation system and battling hunger all day, every day, for the rest of your life.”

This is terrifying me? Like... irreversible.. metabolism slowing down.. hunger hormones... oh my god. Maybe it’s common knowledge and I’m just a doof 

but I’ve never heard this before??

Also I’m sorry if this post is kind of an incoherent mess, I’m going through med withdrawal from my mood stabilizer so I’m not all there but damn. This kind of crushes my hope for ever being comfortable at a lower weight and also maybe one day recovering from BED. What’s even scarier is that I’ve experienced a tiny taste of this. Lost like 30 lbs last year and gained back like 60. Guys what am I going to do :(",4.7793456032719845,7.412715441717798,4.827754601226996,79.80471983640085,72.49693251533742,7.659550102249489,28.96482617586912,8.548686976883017,2.4042379550102253,1438,59,248,27,30,447,184,326,0.165,0.7240000000000001,0.111,-0.9597,3,0,0,0,2,0,67.0,0,9,1,10,15,20,3,0,14,1,17,17,2,2,5,46,32,27,0,4,19,0,6,3,0,0,3,1,1,1,19,9,13,1,7,1,0,3,7,9,0,4,4,10,17,10,34,26,10,28,0,5,1,0,15,6,1,11,19,152,36,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268685124424715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057973564614567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591350248797296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19819056757358364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712291432115393,0.0,0.0,0.17260458253857613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131305763977976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178483957890883,0.08069806442268145,0.07516561242958979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588434263427574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014033542802373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09827793192263708,0.08833467535043077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886084173179786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929641537369916,0.0,0.18580275785335004,0.09805801836649997,0.07272032041432062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301362280712403,0.13075456975160674,0.0,0.07877651664081008,0.0,0.0,0.1996125556800072,0.194772569571086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17925245123582895,0.0971788678931512,0.09909528378679182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558165612857701,0.0,0.06880639349946925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045288661366108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544117978078228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19987745532982693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172559323476966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073797731123702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099866400015529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926900498377581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742958402233272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6518227707377323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494796425416703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754016691196762,0.0,0.11490020700439744
EDAnonymous,bangsofsteel2,2018/11/20,"Just accidentally learned that I can in fact purge So I've got a bad chesty cough and I've been drinking so much water, even whilst eating and the convulsions I think made me feel like I was going to throw up. So I tried making myself and this time it was so so easy. I've ALWAYS dissuaded myself because I thought it would be gross or hurt but 5 minutes later and I can barely even feel that it happened. I'm shaking. It feels like I could use this occasionally but I know that's not true and I know I can't let myself fall down this path. 

This is really scary, I don't want this to be the start of something. Someone please convince me that purging won't always be this clean and easy. ",2.1086511375947983,4.057535119718313,3.2953521126760603,90.89173889490792,78.08450704225352,5.777681473456122,21.486457204767063,6.67199483983844,0.30845113759479936,545,15,117,5,13,176,88,142,0.134,0.713,0.153,0.7156,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,8,8,0,1,3,0,15,4,0,3,2,27,31,14,0,3,5,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,14,6,3,0,8,1,0,4,4,4,0,0,6,3,16,4,6,18,1,11,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,6,73,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178206283530723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945997665475425,0.11641938270132828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524816588569743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708728708469474,0.0,0.19541979405374602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522804300788264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896950501423736,0.27287170805555994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853809955562643,0.0,0.15274382082701454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888261672185892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044475961920893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20991477126639504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528956541801326,0.0,0.1866059574299358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807095014761485,0.12748035628993953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403919697219249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20963823476593876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234641277146555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618163830266165,0.14702541532230934,0.0,0.0,0.135176333570606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237200695911098,0.0,0.1516164582459035,0.11136173211162692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966260231296078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494504347174518,0.0,0.0,0.11264470762765184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566641805433186,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,billiedove,2018/11/20,"Anybody wants to take this fight with Reddit elsewhere I was thinking. I’ve seen so many beautiful testimonials after the removal of our sub. It’s a mental health awareness issue, it’s a feminist issue. It deserves to be published elsewhere than on reddit. I thought of some online feminist leaning publications, or even something like Vice. 

The last thing most people heard of online ED communities was probably alarmist articles from the mid-2000s. Let’s change their minds? I didn’t find any actual news about this yet and I thought people would be interested. ",5.626224489795916,8.839384887755106,5.4503673469387754,73.44106122448981,72.57142857142857,8.001632653061224,33.269387755102045,8.841846274778883,3.513049795918368,461,23,68,10,10,143,74,98,0.031,0.87,0.098,0.7490000000000001,0,0,1,0,1,0,11.0,1,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,5,0,7,1,0,0,0,13,14,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,2,6,2,11,3,2,5,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,3,4,42,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.20449123035974806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250164452568034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167682829714627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384062442527133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19152552025231104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22274256806670806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374329226123885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708117681536053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21427976226936293,0.0,0.10237587479531884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21245149376377834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111777931504456,0.0,0.21158644516187936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905521057518302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22593106943965605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16132234702547427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755602839471458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13921615691877404,0.13427161099721746,0.0,0.3327196571871556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359841714885972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885878693207846,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_BrusselSprouts,2018/11/20,"If ED subs are so harmful, how come /r/drugs and /r/crippling alcoholism is still up I won't even go into the incel communities but I'm still so mad and hurt that /r/proed got shut down. I am in my 30s, have been on and off of ED communities since Myspace/Livejournal/Nutridiary and legit this is the only one that was supportive and focused on harm reduction. We need a place to be honest with each other. In the throws of my ED if a normal person tells me something is dangerous I just roll my eyes and move on (I've lived with this for twenty+ years) but being able to see things discussed on Reddit really helped. 

Anyways, there are a ton of drug reddits (including meth and opiate subs) for people not seeking recovery, how are those less harmful than our subs? 

Now there are notices up in diet subs that we're not wanted there either. I'm pretty disappointed in Reddit.",3.820125313283208,5.6744856198830425,4.7688930659983315,82.62697368421055,72.91812865497077,7.458813700918964,25.66457811194653,8.192908349453996,1.6705034252297413,695,23,130,11,14,226,114,171,0.128,0.7909999999999999,0.081,-0.895,0,0,5,0,0,0,24.0,2,0,0,0,13,9,2,0,6,0,14,4,1,2,0,26,23,15,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,8,13,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,7,0,1,3,2,9,2,23,17,4,23,0,2,2,0,6,15,0,2,4,91,17,0,0.18728617765824848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015196655300416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613304586010862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43438501331484697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370075400526395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643905077484044,0.0,0.1497898651912314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125533977061133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004937267280152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537712611406968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990555674283037,0.0,0.138870327639051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18350068948440312,0.0,0.2132265545883434,0.0,0.0,0.1269099609856039,0.14243957754748418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298406540592694,0.1635310663665508,0.19567419382192405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905373732746927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998032114453536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924283557046086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549250615208615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441820495360982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29913396681059096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125301349649632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16369637424574188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442461446409699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11046624000037747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060615799337752
EDAnonymous,NeutralSmithHotel,2018/11/20,"Fuck... ED's are so sneaky and quick I thought I had this shit reasonably under control, but my ED was almost back in full force yesterday... it only took a day. How is that possible?  I was kind of restricting again (not like before, but it was moving in the direction... I mean you can just eat less.. than less... than less) and I just looked like a monster in the mirror. 

I started talking about food and asking about my body to my new GF... and she is supportive, but I do not want to be doing this right now. My life is going ok and I really like this girl... my ED wants me to be miserable and alone so it has power and I'm not going to let it do that. 

Anyway, sorry I normally try to make these posts more entertaining, but I'm posting this because I feel on track right now and want a public reminder that this is what I wanted. ",1.218647058823528,3.2726155705882363,3.0947058823529403,90.68617647058822,81.52941176470588,6.352941176470589,20.0,7.510576382923642,0.5777647058823527,637,17,138,10,17,213,102,170,0.10800000000000001,0.782,0.11,0.5444,1,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,2,13,10,2,1,5,1,17,6,2,4,0,31,35,15,0,5,9,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,14,8,2,2,4,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,6,2,19,7,15,26,5,23,0,1,1,1,7,8,2,1,12,101,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490601412232404,0.15417236372698595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916246867768844,0.0,0.0,0.11446288746589915,0.0,0.09074267230687384,0.0,0.12666749721904955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534807606160745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16695730419926375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600132502630933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231926095665102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526725760501407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000011523473153,0.0,0.0,0.13761715166664226,0.0,0.0,0.16919926857977896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501307107658252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221775471135865,0.10514305927260016,0.21817402118962512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500352830144895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936410869020627,0.0,0.0,0.16215038926120293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821287474109547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376832804582804,0.0,0.0,0.14584958348757265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321348773031255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781543027469933,0.2851303140436496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953624747394916,0.15305118253266747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542484457510165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528009635220368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663474259072206,0.10536271071210736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689226986028962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964670808648993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817690720996984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653871109851071,0.101065052563685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512020611750933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,somersetfrisby,2018/11/20,"is there any way to get edfood unquarantined? cause it was a great community resource for recipes etc. and now nobody posts there 😢😔. if not, would it be possible to create a new sub or would the gestapo just come after us again?",2.014666666666667,4.561787800000001,3.1288888888888917,88.66000000000004,82.1111111111111,6.266666666666668,22.333333333333336,7.554174236665415,0.9604666666666666,181,6,37,3,5,58,40,45,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.7622,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,9,7,3,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,3,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,25,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19462575511329414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940061481361564,0.0,0.2465358832534429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191885566238972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952764212287836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155364145543772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27641365948528696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226473996800001,0.2741004037755496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442632565794536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271721695001315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066164135626337,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RottingDirtDog,2018/11/20,"Any other men on Peach? Especially trans men!!!  
Preferably 18+

In the process of adding people before this gets shut down too. Feel free to add me if so. I'm ChrissoWoofer",0.5881818181818197,2.873626454545456,1.2156060606060601,96.14340909090907,102.63636363636364,3.412121212121213,17.62121212121212,5.46131890053228,-0.4723696969696967,135,4,27,1,6,41,32,33,0.0,0.878,0.122,0.6341,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589197888352639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5742459522447804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34122343114982107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35258023229310514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4678546393660806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blankethugs,2018/11/20,"my nose is bleeding and all i care about is how many calories might have been in the blood that went down my throat i’ve really gone off the deep end, haven’t i?
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EDAnonymous,matcha_madeinheaven,2018/11/20,"Feeling empty I've done a few four day fasts here and there but they've usually been hard, but this week my mom got admitted to the ICU and I feel so damn numb inside. 

She was getting better when I saw her a few days ago and going to be released and then a day later she had trouble breathing and heart damage and she's on a ventilator and they don't have any idea for how long. I don't even feel hungry, it's like why would I even want to eat when she can't and I don't know what I'm going to do if I lose her, I don't want to fucking eat again if she can't. I miss talking to my mom so much and I'm here at home trying to be strong for my husband and kids and it's hard.",-0.3404946236559141,1.2136006709677432,2.0670967741935518,98.64731182795698,84.2258064516129,4.907526881720432,17.43010752688172,5.6839178017228535,-0.7003634408602148,524,11,135,3,15,179,87,155,0.154,0.725,0.121,-0.8068,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,3,11,10,2,0,5,0,15,6,2,1,0,25,31,21,0,5,4,3,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,11,2,0,6,0,0,2,6,7,0,1,6,6,19,3,11,22,3,17,0,3,1,1,14,2,2,2,14,85,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142750319831118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849644470554017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110507319537527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086810416477898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327049016340667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265098554437325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21075666146098185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420130708937723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749728962393432,0.08335596461059805,0.0,0.1813468250114846,0.0,0.12760315069320866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28584294881297245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906224433157476,0.0,0.0,0.16003719469086924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18010750542704332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768206152500163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794589652549541,0.0,0.0,0.14119279069602755,0.0,0.17849065971209396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737156385856166,0.0,0.0,0.1172843364238718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282366692048097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832095526111178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757168823415515,0.0,0.18820819754774007,0.0,0.12797781616443124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396504269505353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333658077468367,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnyfuckup,2018/11/20,Currently mid-binge in front of people and I can’t stop My friends and I are waiting for a flight and I’m bingeing on protein bars that are supposed to last me a couple weeks. They’re so good and I can’t stop there is no reason for this why do I do this I’ve lost track of how many I’ve had they must think I’m crazy I hate myself fuck,2.479740259740261,2.513794896103896,3.7484675324675334,95.61698701298702,74.06493506493507,6.679480519480518,23.19220779220779,5.6839178017228535,0.07403584415584374,265,6,68,1,5,87,54,77,0.23600000000000002,0.677,0.087,-0.8644,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,3,5,2,0,2,0,9,2,0,2,1,11,16,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,3,2,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,9,2,7,13,0,8,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,5,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018180307917808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107436695041934,0.2521741549617088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287889708128677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693067710109518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223463238191822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977638476990164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765489119332261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18910638678520744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280455976262013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561007245294998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17478186322421976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21880197071684687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461351193517821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tifaloch,2018/11/20,"this time last year. this time last year, i was vomiting in my boyfriend’s brand new Mercedes Benz, because i drank so much at “Friendsgiving” and on a 4 day empty stomach. 
  
this time last year, i couldn’t hold my alcohol because i weighed 40 lbs less.  
  
this time last year, my BMI was 14 and i was happy.  
  
this time this year? i’m eating day old chinese food AFTER eating turkey and 15 fucking cookies at Friendsgiving.  i’m drunk, but also full of food... and i didn’t vomit in my shitty boyfriend’s year old Mercedes Benz.  
  
this time this year, i hate myself. ",2.1959090909090904,4.492606045454547,2.8990909090909125,92.08863636363638,79.45454545454545,5.454545454545455,23.63636363636364,6.574015621080383,0.6532727272727272,435,15,88,4,11,136,59,110,0.124,0.8540000000000001,0.022000000000000002,-0.8934,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,5,12,1,0,0,7,10,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,4,8,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,12,1,7,4,3,29,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,23,43,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056163006407134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769859722386473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894631729019492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757794490877733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25001900864383897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29545475788234044,0.0,0.0,0.11294337832257045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005129477188454,0.0,0.12061670843206886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39833653807315583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898083565725636,0.0,0.0,0.11799169266790825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25639187052483703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274267609107025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5507103326635171
EDAnonymous,Firebug__,2018/11/20,"Need help stopping c/s that doesn’t include “eating enough” C/s has taken over my life, it leads me to spend hours on the couch and b/p afterwards anyway. As u can imagine my teeth are in some kind of way and I have braces :/

I need help but not recovery help",1.1116363636363644,2.7838132545454566,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,80.0909090909091,5.854545454545455,20.090909090909093,6.742157984588678,0.05256363636363659,199,5,47,2,5,65,47,55,0.055,0.8109999999999999,0.134,0.6428,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,1,0,10,8,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,6,7,2,8,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,3,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924823435909989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953457607411659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747710236502247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814916108484001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976549783065189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189494221042306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238886408305169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389723130314037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268838991031713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittypatrasrevenge,2018/11/20,"I miss the daily food diary posts :( The daily food diary thread on /r/proED was really nice. I really liked it to celebrate eating healthy things without binging or feeling bad. I really loved the positive reinforcement of healthy eating habits and the reassurance that it wasn't the end of the world when I binged. 

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Like today, I'm really proud of myself and wish I had somewhere to share that I didn't worry about calories but didn't binge or feel bad about myself because I just ate tons of vegetables and fruits and I feel so good. It doesn't deserve its own post but it's something I can't share with people in real life because that would mean talking about my eating disorder :( 

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It was just really nice to have that daily stickied thread to feel that sense of community and support regardless of whether it was a ""good"" or ""bad"" day when it came to food, and it also really helped me to think more about the actual nutrition content of what I was eating to make sure I get enough (or as much as I possibly can) protein and micronutrients even. 

  
Anyone else miss it?",7.865757575757577,7.452962637681162,7.710443566095741,73.29976284584981,62.71980676328503,11.005533596837942,33.31093544137022,10.436869588844218,3.369371014492754,874,30,156,18,11,280,114,207,0.091,0.7120000000000001,0.19699999999999998,0.9636,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,1,11,18,0,0,8,0,13,12,0,1,1,31,29,20,0,3,10,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,17,9,10,0,6,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,10,5,16,13,24,18,5,11,0,2,0,1,6,3,0,4,7,104,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.09485245063961928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773020822192041,0.0,0.21063070196949127,0.23621546493946635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06796397831791616,0.0995921220908222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24347195095786456,0.11850352600586801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111700522780594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268547766799268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139876591098076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978364102156546,0.08119750429260618,0.0,0.08608968868306467,0.10043281227087128,0.0,0.06419919048900066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658745311847067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526011708908384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050782598408363036,0.0,0.0,0.16305224515786787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515061101282024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686547075487838,0.09497329145731673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772612155158846,0.0,0.06488125673883086,0.0,0.0,0.10587848242827758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145263550159395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738572412269014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957755430923828,0.18618003375008274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063403055617883,0.3736099858418837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482873437350755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030056145565673,0.09160914648918908,0.0,0.0,0.07812507843770994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457486528466197,0.062281357161430025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213352748108014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177434504866443,0.09369661219036636,0.0,0.0,0.09871056049343473,0.0,0.06904756118347398,0.0,0.23621546493946635,0.0
EDAnonymous,KittyMClaire,2018/11/20,"Incels are more important than we are, apparently. I am fucking livid. Fuck you admins, truly. Fucking disgusting. I'm so in shock that TRP, MGTOW, shit like that is all fucking fine and dandy when they fucking threaten to hurt females and harm people with their fucking delusional bullshit, yet people who suffer inwardly with body image are hurt in this. EATING DISORDERS ARE TRAGIC, THEY END IN DEATH, BODY IMAGE IMPOSED UPON FEMALES IN GENERAL HAS CAUSED MANY OF US TO END UP SICK, AND WE ARE STRIPPED OF SUPPORT COMMUNITIES BUT MEN WHO REFUSE TO FUCKING SHOWER OR USE DEODORANT ARE JUST ALLOWED TO RUN THEIR SEWER SHIT BREATH MOUTHS ABOUT HOW THEY WANT TO ASSAULT US ALL. THANKS.",3.831666666666667,7.0207451721311465,4.024622950819676,80.69442076502735,80.88524590163935,6.204153005464481,27.80546448087432,7.554174236665415,2.1855490710382512,549,24,85,9,15,170,85,122,0.311,0.5870000000000001,0.102,-0.986,3,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,4,1,5,0,6,21,11,0,0,0,9,15,6,4,2,19,21,8,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,7,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,17,0,0,0,0,11,4,17,21,3,11,0,4,0,7,14,6,9,1,5,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257602224383034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911887988223027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289576289982105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865206228403112,0.0,0.0,0.20540541471503349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7503969704057238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24826685581842906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056650304516896975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756130866622892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607787508705075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23805458780470834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315856342128758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10675681884142624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789618772826624,0.10014885987480436,0.0,0.0,0.06839392565180334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nightdrivemotel,2018/11/20,"All alone in someone else's kitchen Hey everyone! I'm at my friend's house because she's out of town and I'm taking care of her cat. Well, her kitchen is FULL of amazing food and I'm trying to avoid binging on a bunch of stuff. Trying to distract myself. Of course I've just been standing in the kitchen for like 20 min hanging out and arguing with myself. Lol...

I did find these protein bars and I had one and it was amazing. It helped to take care of some of that urge. Plus I guess I'm actually hungry and it's not only a mental thing. I just have that fear that I won't be able to stop once I start ya know? 

I guess it's just a trigger for me to be all alone and know that there's no risk of anyone showing up or walking in on me eating. I get a little nervous when left to my own devices lol. Also it's kinda late at night which is usually when I want to binge. 

Sorry this is kind of long and probably pointless and if you read all of it thank you for listening. I hope you're all doing okay and it's so great to have this community, seriously. This is my first ever Reddit post so I hope the formatting is okay. I'm on mobile. Thank you all for everything 💕 ",0.024744827586207663,2.169729160000004,2.215268965517243,94.5346,87.4,5.048275862068966,19.820689655172416,6.48374012150746,0.08545931034482734,910,28,207,10,29,306,140,250,0.1,0.735,0.165,0.9634,0,3,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,4,0,1,11,22,1,5,6,4,15,6,0,1,6,39,36,18,0,4,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,18,14,6,2,3,3,0,2,3,7,1,2,4,1,25,15,35,29,9,30,0,0,0,0,12,15,0,8,12,135,43,1,0.12715780011659455,0.0,0.12408767018060984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633942642695231,0.0,0.10168804681239284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889116904076391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751421471504583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25929170368399873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301141744988764,0.10622402546488394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502151012690423,0.0,0.12150472723921568,0.11428123156251185,0.0,0.0,0.14308787710393028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621992564878501,0.10816035982058304,0.15375971663974294,0.0,0.09824180094151964,0.0,0.06643470231626489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019192353501467,0.28015730545114825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523119304676402,0.0,0.0,0.25259277388576984,0.0,0.14672302880150392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241528125195712,0.1397652029606358,0.0,0.1434395371354399,0.0,0.13815732188538174,0.0,0.0,0.06212287814838977,0.12744552126953226,0.0,0.11253065168057184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814515468375626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193289815038102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541890714252058,0.08616541622873737,0.096709236938594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178202284920853,0.0,0.13709761528090916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719221082319146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774039139613252,0.0,0.0,0.14234274666809849,0.09000294540013105,0.0,0.0,0.10630961464685516,0.0,0.0,0.14556525889636415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121368140839848,0.0,0.0,0.2341396363162538,0.0,0.0,0.0844779922012209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266359884390226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004635210974328,0.0,0.0750009650537663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433013334269995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sassyfreddo,2018/11/20,Fixing bloat? So I’m starting recovery with a binge lol. But I tried to fix it with laxatives (also lol because is it really recovery???). But the BLOAT is real and idk how to fix it. Like the pain is ridiculous. Any tip or things that will help it? ,0.6346666666666678,2.992156200000004,2.764,90.08866666666668,87.0,6.533333333333335,20.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.0067333333333337,190,6,40,4,6,64,36,50,0.122,0.6779999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.6767,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,2,4,1,0,1,0,8,6,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160345002281022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268743772082468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409050707133635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264888532553624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930706052853889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42051161968035494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4498144460802107,0.2531697947226789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27971857814384804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625476728335847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683090878365064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachparks,2018/11/20,"Going against science and nutritionists who claim “cookies aren’t filling!” I mean, not to brag, but after eating a mere 10 I am FULL of self- hatred. ",5.419285714285714,6.865190928571433,5.884285714285718,77.8107142857143,68.28571428571428,7.028571428571429,31.857142857142854,7.1686216300943375,2.1372285714285715,118,5,20,1,2,38,27,28,0.209,0.7909999999999999,0.0,-0.7959,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5359683238985558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29768214412284383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5705612790266791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.546427601538611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-NotSoCreativeName-,2018/11/20,"How to deal with people commenting on my weight gain?... Went from anorexic to binging to health freak (for really fit but still had a slightly bad mindset) to now, the worst of my worst through binging.

I’ve gained a hella lot of weight. People have commented on my looks and I am so ashamed Im scared to see people who I haven’t seen for months+ (old friends, relatives).

I’m getting a bit better now with healthier eating and going to the gym but I die a little every time someone says something.",3.7152835051546376,5.581497061855671,4.344935567010307,85.507506443299,73.22680412371135,6.911855670103092,28.619845360824733,7.645422480735847,1.7944649484536082,393,16,74,5,8,125,68,97,0.27,0.62,0.11,-0.9731,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,2,6,0,4,4,0,1,0,8,11,6,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,6,0,0,3,6,6,2,16,8,4,12,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,1,6,45,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15165188081802702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16063529876057656,0.19829084907163103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872506006879773,0.0,0.0,0.18850129730463397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18585089461969695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302951177024166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032542314741642,0.0,0.09489318828501428,0.0,0.1032234375254078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930621819887869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961895206211077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203907633000213,0.0,0.0,0.15252186374548235,0.0,0.0,0.15441371953806252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497382034267406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905881427525318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37775417607481504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635561472771765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443795888007804,0.1818414180891781,0.0,0.14473408398023427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153892903711428,0.13982618854857967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504843903633888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059088084682595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.442348201269824,0.0,0.16837107271604285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meadow_sleep,2018/11/20,"3rd binge of the week :))):):) things im reminding myself 
- not to look at my thinspo folder on my phone bc it will make me feel like death rn (seriously distracting myself by typing this up)
- not to hate myself
- to eat tom 
- to not starve myself (mostly bc this results in.. more binging) 
- its ok if im not skinny. the world keeps turning. i may have a belly and love handles and hips and thighs (ok i hate myself again) but that has 0 impact on the world. just how my particular flesh suit be shaped at the moment
- i still have time to lose weight before seeing my long distance bf (43 days :) !!! )
- i will be at my goal weight when i see him 
- i WILL be at my goal weight when i see him and i wont starve to get there 

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EDAnonymous,xvxpunk,2018/11/20,"Denver ACUTE? My treatment team wants me to go to Denver ACUTE. While I have been inpatient before, I have never been to this particular hospital. Has anyone here been there before? What should I expect? I still haven't made up my mind over whether or not I am going (I would like to reach a lower weigh first, as messed up as that sounds). Any information would be super helpful! ",3.272440476190475,5.7403694583333325,3.82698412698413,85.94500000000002,76.6388888888889,6.336507936507938,20.007936507936503,7.447530270364453,0.6374103174603176,299,7,56,4,7,94,53,72,0.062,0.789,0.149,0.7602,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,0,12,1,0,1,1,12,16,5,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,4,1,9,2,9,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,43,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957796505863303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130408938560504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899578297394122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448848137008444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32723669547003964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297111127754932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065180133612726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724148494639255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906936298207517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22204370847292293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22991470256769825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980895205084104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4090271573955812,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skin_ny,2018/11/20,One good thing about ending a relationship You feel so numb that eating anything becomes completely unappealing ,13.390588235294118,15.316758647058823,11.169411764705883,45.262352941176516,50.764705882352935,13.858823529411767,46.41176470588235,13.023866798666859,7.273282352941178,95,5,10,3,1,29,17,17,0.156,0.6990000000000001,0.145,-0.0557,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938954641424084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944326340095256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37445408033232425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654429752858054,0.0,0.0,0.3163196848344166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058051482148074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995517557843533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420070387768669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38343427934364105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372676838252685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bubble_gumz,2018/11/20,"Every time my coworker sees me eat he says ""Someone's hungry!!"" and it makes me want to die It's honestly driving me insane.

I just recently got to a place where I can somewhat comfortably eat in front of other people, and I finally found a time slot at work where there's no one in the lunch room so I can go in and eat in peace. But one of my coworkers has started coming in to make coffee every time I'm eating lunch and, without fail, always makes a comment along the lines of ""Someone's hungry!"" or ""Lunch time? Hungry girl!"".

I don't even eat that much during my lunch (always under 400kcal), but the comments make me feel like a fucking pig.

How do I deal with this!?",2.8299064171122987,4.3743588088235335,4.242112299465242,86.66973262032086,74.88235294117645,6.7101604278074864,24.128342245989305,7.348242739294969,1.0471264705882355,522,16,105,6,11,173,84,136,0.045,0.8490000000000001,0.106,0.7879999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,1,23.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,1,0,7,0,5,10,0,5,0,21,19,9,1,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,7,9,0,2,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,2,3,13,3,16,17,2,22,0,1,1,1,6,11,1,2,8,65,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075855938227621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745155809132832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128600377557406,0.0,0.0,0.12945933371840562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6381954217946941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238889835306178,0.0,0.2101958863552221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307175981930788,0.08911352898594385,0.0,0.1366454197454801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676981744716574,0.0,0.11531914690561952,0.0,0.0,0.07089201844890565,0.0,0.09976513139955502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060941148918950964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330568641603225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916974790267458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905267812981986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647828006714485,0.0,0.1303256507589742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316466199316255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919741767104376,0.0,0.0,0.09940079111574512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138181077104395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829086903655907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29094513354044804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735742630837055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024389402699627,0.0,0.09081143938100697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,violentyetflammable,2018/11/20,"I need kind (but honest) words... So I haven't been good the past two weeks - gained three pounds from binges actually. Yet, today I ate about 4500 calories and I know I'm just going to gain more and I have family thanksgivings Thursday AND Friday and I hate this cycle I'm in and I had been working too hard...I need comfort but I also need honest words about what these calories are going to do lololol",0.8697386363636355,3.4298545874999995,1.996363636363636,93.70318181818183,90.625,4.409090909090909,17.272727272727273,6.1124844417494595,-0.25237500000000024,317,8,64,3,11,100,54,80,0.054000000000000006,0.7859999999999999,0.16,0.8028,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,7,6,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,14,17,9,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,4,0,8,5,6,13,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,40,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.24005505544193045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19672163785330746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319016333305418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796085801021802,0.20632843688992702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22036266983100986,0.24286854785500886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561653195360296,0.13519209240021204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472052058922235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23482949567318104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331739338139265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403007905827183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973218745905714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908685757522355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fattyoftheyear,2019/10/27,Fasting to undo a binge? I Binged like crazy yesterday (probably equated to...2500-3000 cals) and ate a frick ton of candy today( maybe 800 or so) plus a meal (300). Will fasting tomorrow undo the damage ive done? I've lost almost 10 pounds and i would hate to gain any of it back.,3.460789473684212,4.301281000000003,4.872763157894738,85.50809210526316,72.33333333333334,7.805263157894737,24.77631578947368,8.07648339933343,1.3097052631578945,215,6,45,3,4,72,46,57,0.2,0.7020000000000001,0.099,-0.7236,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,8,7,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,5,2,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322461665529885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256329296771968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551309509104488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395429142898013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275802528250024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209896128020415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621949650401571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333340801104345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35773263720886445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145041911172736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356986427453169,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,privatedapenguin,2019/10/27,"green tea I used to hate how it tastes but now i love it, like it completely changed it's flavor.I don't understand is it something scientific or did i just got used to it?",2.0490990990990987,3.4126526486486526,3.890270270270271,89.1382882882883,76.56756756756756,8.176576576576577,25.84684684684685,8.841846274778883,1.6806468468468476,136,5,32,3,3,46,27,37,0.06,0.711,0.23,0.8271,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,7,9,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,3,2,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,19,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423850178414537,0.0,0.3393470443020079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25885718286578435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195431860526278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581219200382294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29211207834106523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491661175813261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369371972657351,0.0,0.5590695459834771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slapmyalpaca,2019/10/27,"Secret eaters Have any of you watched the UK show secret eaters? The show always blows my mind because they just eat mindlessly and nobody ever remembers how much they’ve eaten! 

I keep wondering if this is how normal people are with food, because I remember every single little thing. I was thinking how it must be nice to not be constantly counting and tracking. 🤔",6.008059701492537,7.880086223880596,6.0151044776119456,75.80414925373138,67.3582089552239,8.345074626865673,29.817910447761196,8.841846274778883,2.693838208955224,295,11,46,5,5,93,55,67,0.0,0.9520000000000001,0.048,0.4753,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,3,2,20,11,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,3,6,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,2,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18698474584677424,0.0,0.0,0.1528170639858175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27397401860099596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24284210220819405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22994429728441154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032717835745959,0.18933599227375167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27173188570382273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19974114496299394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252281194054009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269027802202496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651947950226774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22017753876719812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579230641050548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5091271006869976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492937462618685,0.14399127418871874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436988681806391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yamicacti,2019/10/27,I’m going insane My friend keeps texting me to tell me that he hasn’t eaten in 2 days. OMFG can he stfu he is making me want to starve. Like wtf whose says that to a person. I want him to stfu about that he hasn’t eat in 2 day. My stupid ED voice is like because he is starve u could do better so now u get to starve even more. Just to have think I was recovering. Now I have just spiraled into a relapse,-1.0110909090909104,0.9664563555555574,1.3675757575757572,99.83045454545454,91.0,3.7171717171717167,13.737373737373733,4.851557810540192,-1.3691111111111112,312,5,77,1,11,105,57,90,0.18899999999999997,0.6709999999999999,0.139,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,0,2,0,11,2,0,1,0,9,20,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,9,4,10,17,1,8,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,6,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17393925852338174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523580732332177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278189942652457,0.0,0.0,0.3680385174434299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919717772916238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884629085366652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204512562578115,0.0,0.14907720994907678,0.0,0.16216403248483513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536213238677382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788032466610772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19046517972230764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491459381260611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269120503771919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24939779110761245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828329240423212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33659922371523343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starkiller1851,2019/10/27,"Purged Today I binge a lot, and I'm used to it. It's been happening for years following a period where I restricted everything. Due to life and health troubles, I've been binging more as of late. I happened to step on the scale after I binged two TexMex meals (nachos and enchiladas). I felt sick, but the five pounds the scale went up made me feel even worse. Rationally, I know I didn't actually gain five pounds, but my emotional mind was having none of it. With binging, I'm already considered obese by my BMI, upset about that to no end, and another few pounds is just... overwhelmingly a lot.

I hadn't purged in years. I'm frustrated that I did today, but it made me feel so much better. It's scary to realise how easy it is to revisit old habits. 

I'm sorry if this is rambling, but I needed to get everything off my chest. (Also: I'm sorry if the formatting is weird. I'm on mobile.)",2.8405805243445705,4.597665342696629,4.417775280898876,84.52516479400751,75.34831460674158,8.342172284644196,24.22621722846442,9.029198982220553,1.8244437453183533,693,22,143,16,15,232,108,178,0.19399999999999998,0.752,0.055,-0.9703,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,2,7,6,1,2,7,0,11,6,1,4,0,25,30,14,0,3,7,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,9,5,2,1,4,0,0,3,4,5,0,3,10,3,15,1,20,20,6,19,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,4,10,88,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.14968339598348576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926615421874827,0.1226633730462698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083943974643344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356581647343907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253951103565926,0.1358551821734345,0.0,0.0,0.1013105384940942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757083409262833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511395537009973,0.0,0.14727538766934678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801382751354483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27127889130420874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304300169573624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429737696347764,0.0,0.17302699781115707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834163700418507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608079539674061,0.0,0.29027660845238845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487694802455348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275695105110345,0.11373437281849436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609536500721464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434079418831308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29078551338020003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498366211272674,0.0,0.0,0.13247695170674112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219110553691502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631425913976552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975521476852587
EDAnonymous,Istanbullsh1t,2019/10/27,"Anyone else just want to not let their ED tendencies control their life and just move tf on? I feel like I’ve reached a point where I’m just like fuck it, you know? Whatever. This is a part of my life but it’s not my whole life.",-0.5899333333333311,1.4633949400000006,0.8760000000000012,103.62466666666668,89.6,4.933333333333334,16.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.6784666666666661,177,4,46,2,6,56,38,50,0.047,0.8220000000000001,0.131,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,0,11,7,2,0,1,6,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,3,6,2,4,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711127364806623,0.2507428341401912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744724001332927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20443075138886552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373693349554063,0.17482681379553214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262381397364299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344907864968158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502410582088907,0.5185553511596808,0.2391140159250061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600968413478251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26500608852352603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313379085013865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434120316688792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732192603379977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vdo0422,2019/10/27,DAE get way too open about food/eating habits when drunk? Seems like everytime I get drunk I reveal way too much and get way too honest and I just want it to stay a secret but I guess my drunk brain doesn’t care lmao,-0.08775362318840862,2.197692543478261,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,90.95652173913044,3.936231884057971,9.840579710144928,5.46131890053228,-1.8050898550724641,171,1,41,1,6,52,34,46,0.125,0.594,0.282,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,10,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689575207025642,0.0,0.0,0.2456441559457323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24653150191264395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913334694152459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3776278872973125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26541151857850565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770621081095935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711124566276826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21933359098199776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567992854026506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210673534083249,0.5737169743543755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RElizabeth72,2019/10/27,"Looking for advice Ok, so not going to lie. This is pretty embarrassing , but I thought if there is anyware I could go for advice it would be here.

What do you guys do to stop you're stomach from growling on fasting/restriction days? I think I've gotten the discipline part under control, but it's pretty hard to convince your friends that you aren't hungry when you can hear it. Help!",4.0368,5.82200568,4.546333333333333,84.73150000000003,72.2,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.5789999999999995,306,12,57,3,6,97,59,75,0.075,0.701,0.22399999999999998,0.9229999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,4,0,1,4,4,0,1,1,1,9,1,1,1,0,11,16,5,0,3,4,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,7,3,8,11,1,7,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,1,3,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393843081890905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521554952497934,0.17950100900309493,0.0,0.0,0.14499073144924535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369588985282292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555415324250613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226078068673779,0.0,0.0,0.2013951586082068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25338923149890386,0.0,0.15069255426504205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18879273798769464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434588740558577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4574468862359495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796014465357955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440560057357317,0.0,0.1784824971122781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970615161939145,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,acuppaplease,2019/10/27,"When I restricted I’d gain on even a small number of calories.... Now I’m in recovery, I’m eating 4 full meals each day, 2 snacks, plus 1L of caloric drinks, and MAINTAINING an underweight BMI. Why does my body hate me so much that it always does the exact opposite of what I want it to?!?!?",3.6673728813559294,4.31746383050848,4.962500000000002,85.75527542372883,71.71186440677965,9.289830508474578,26.614406779661017,9.516144504307137,2.054081355932204,222,7,49,5,4,74,50,59,0.125,0.774,0.10099999999999999,-0.5305,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,3,0,0,5,1,0,1,6,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,7,4,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564736887674457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423762297816737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987841195340322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5394717434997993,0.0,0.0,0.3019499828488206,0.0,0.31539825277457834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20358430741718347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043152542780287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265859616129701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180320034670291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27813140810055786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_lesley,2019/10/27,I did it!! just took my first shit in a week !,-4.978181818181817,-4.075288363636364,-1.6449999999999996,116.6525,114.45454545454544,2.2,5.5,3.1291,-3.2254,32,0,11,0,2,11,11,11,0.359,0.6409999999999999,0.0,-0.6679,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449180821993585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5369178133289358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5811434950153779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4195704947484157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mookipls,2019/10/27,"Shopping for food Does anyone else get the idea they should buy a snack or something, get to the supermarket but then struggle to decide on something to blow your calories on so you just go home without buying anything?  I’m sure the staff think I’m up to something.",4.7085294117647045,6.550940980392162,4.42171568627451,86.0702205882353,70.56862745098039,5.8843137254901965,30.39705882352941,5.985473137389443,1.4244470588235294,214,9,39,1,4,65,40,51,0.057,0.8859999999999999,0.057,0.0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,9,7,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,9,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,22,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718385256072416,0.24498558012535376,0.1967584250697854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20923748711969967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19973685946479264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891199310081826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24983912522719856,0.0,0.13588569316921645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398361827624873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699141076043903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5522111744086166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499585960750934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253483450927561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320523445893494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304832793130384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Resident_Brit,2019/10/27,"My parents think I have anorexia (I don't); how do I convince them I don't? To be clear, I'm not in denial or anything, I've just got a super fast metabolism, combined with being a picky-eater and not needing much food to begin with, leaves me in a state of looking way too skinny and eating what looks to be not enough for me. I'm fine though, I suppose I'm always in a state of mild hunger, but it's not an issue to me.

My parents can't understand that though, and so they're constantly nagging that I don't eat enough until it leads to mild fights that lead nowhere since there isn't anything wrong with me that I can fix. I don't really know if there's any way to convince them that I'm fine, but I suppose you lot would be the most help.

Also sorry if this doesn't fit on this sub, but if you could direct me to a more appropriate sub that would be great",11.156268115942023,4.772543250000002,10.542826086956524,74.09637681159424,62.15217391304348,13.353623188405798,40.44927536231884,8.344100000000001,3.3102384057971026,674,18,154,5,6,221,103,184,0.10400000000000001,0.789,0.106,0.5334,2,0,0,0,1,0,18.0,0,2,2,3,9,9,2,0,7,0,18,5,1,3,1,31,30,16,0,7,12,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,6,5,0,3,0,0,2,11,3,0,0,1,2,20,6,18,21,6,15,0,0,2,0,8,5,0,6,4,103,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391276816897393,0.1185251860699685,0.0,0.0,0.0968671046483537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23443927611974036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393183662925547,0.0,0.11373029549361302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4372686739435414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29436637113094777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224438372412088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392583218007993,0.15704549930307446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547750634067496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867498839177745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828373964305592,0.0,0.0,0.1508280958838987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392349101282051,0.0,0.0,0.12110117005223267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471305415414946,0.10562074824756157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163353895931533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125355653517604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783151374614792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945488983236114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127264627059506,0.2799018805106528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482896868688609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261315343732703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023768882046561,0.15574063515616285,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elfperson,2019/10/27,"I'm actually happy today That's it, that's the entire post :)",-0.7892307692307696,1.3575258461538446,4.191153846153849,76.59134615384617,98.23076923076924,5.676923076923077,14.192307692307693,7.1686216300943375,0.43410769230769297,48,1,9,1,2,19,11,13,0.0,0.573,0.4270000000000001,0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.4940670624148222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5389562709600697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4848869045286117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799047464302317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,perccarp,2019/10/27,"I've gained 12kg since last December I just reached a BMI 18.5 and it fucks with my head sometimes... but fuck it I was always too smart for anorexia and directing all my ambitions to being underweight. This week I finish my first year of uni after starting again at 21, and for the first time in my life I feel like I'm working towards something and it isn't tied to my body.
I'm anxious as fuck because I can't predict my future as much as I can predict how much weight I will lose at x deficit and x calories, but I am so much healthier, and, as corny as it sounds, it's the bravest thing I've done.

You all deserve more than such a narrow, disordered, fearful life. I don't think it'll ever be easy but you have no idea what you could be if you tried to let it go.",4.086319018404907,4.063721466257672,4.883564417177915,89.0819110429448,70.53374233128835,7.9923926380368115,29.796932515337424,7.554174236665415,1.5647771779141104,601,22,137,6,10,195,107,163,0.16399999999999998,0.731,0.105,-0.9032,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,0,5,7,7,3,1,4,0,15,8,2,1,3,20,24,17,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,10,7,1,0,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,2,2,3,19,2,18,15,6,18,0,1,0,3,4,5,3,1,13,91,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13123734371993778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818097283493944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614587084803053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519359262671158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592818772083073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18076308310651928,0.0,0.0,0.16140437190308188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266858405339944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17748110591750593,0.07974898517760476,0.11267663249898002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683165152202146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43743435875028336,0.0,0.0,0.08963705063389651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16186828080963694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17804894662463774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12856448564960393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128143698217776,0.2228074342620933,0.07705500521575515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645058082795026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34783146609565724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046927309960138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214221057091683,0.1559910967343632,0.0,0.11163644753668234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478349238959599,0.10106189281804824,0.0,0.0,0.09196896998230944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708288883290253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126515079454191,0.19206291257872746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482349872431942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156780065317443
EDAnonymous,anonymous928373929,2019/10/27,"Do I still deserve to recover if I’ve only been sick with ED for about 6-7 months? BMI, etc. Struggled with ED thoughts all my life, they got really bad about 6-7 months ago and started acting on them for real 3-4 months ago and I feel like a fraud. I am technically underweight now at a BMI of 16 but not yet at my goal weight and I’m angry I’m so weak. I’m angry I’m even considering recovering because I’m not even that sick. I’m not like a real ED girl who’s sick for years on end and only decides to recover once she sees how thin and sickly she is. I’m just a fucking fraud who gave herself an ED for attention and isn’t even skinny enough for people to realize it. I hate feeling sick all the time, but at the same time I feel not sick enough and it’s a constant battle and chaos in my mind.",2.6561809523809536,3.1362226514285747,4.66207142857143,87.61234523809523,73.91428571428571,7.890476190476193,24.869047619047624,8.07648339933343,1.164419047619048,624,18,146,9,12,216,98,175,0.294,0.6709999999999999,0.034,-0.9952,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,1,11,8,3,1,8,0,5,11,1,1,2,32,22,13,0,1,8,0,5,2,0,0,8,0,0,1,5,10,2,0,7,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,6,13,2,19,18,6,22,0,0,1,1,9,7,1,1,16,80,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632116019914958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396257882400508,0.09050325484495264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604385757121009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149645916899091,0.3068093147978013,0.16557839476740194,0.29418039581596805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252060124525761,0.10606385792942404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725405954767286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874150696850724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657904808104288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486564751306383,0.14506559070318087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990793833782073,0.0,0.35551148857580706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581110240102272,0.0,0.2258295655497516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292735699502324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379727236623938,0.09511086828924907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830786533698714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508471941938324,0.0,0.11856482399263253,0.0,0.0,0.15520848576177232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786510665943915,0.17314297649439309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807911101127906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560698203134416
EDAnonymous,i-have-kneeples,2019/10/27,"I got clothes that actually fit!!! I usually get either A) way too big clothing, or B) way too small clothing

But today, I actually bought clothes that fit right! I bought some cute sweaters and a leather jacket, as well as a bralette that isn’t too small and is lacy and cute. It’s the first time I’ve bought clothing that actually looks flattering on me in a long time. 
I don’t know if anyone else has this problem, but I usually have a tendency to hide my body with huge Walmart sweaters, since they are cheap. Or I will buy too small clothing and try to put it on, just to torture myself and show that I need to lose more weight. It’s a shitty cycle that I get sucked into, but today I have broken that cycle!",4.788541666666667,5.09358132638889,5.318055555555556,85.4325,69.06944444444444,8.344444444444445,29.88888888888889,8.167268648758528,1.8399222222222225,557,20,119,7,9,179,83,144,0.183,0.727,0.09,-0.9637,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,6,8,2,0,7,0,8,2,1,0,0,19,18,13,0,3,8,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,7,1,0,1,1,5,1,2,4,1,1,4,3,14,4,11,13,3,23,0,1,1,0,2,12,1,4,8,72,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.4845345420687309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157267415140656,0.16958206472447748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838415997792562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382603376586119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407806548906813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294174899317225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237152350773146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909586323324291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646899164486024,0.13898467504652073,0.18516063615698347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272176636337015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836839265244998,0.0,0.16638082181825833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134256086185362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690957259934813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19301759063328047,0.0,0.3137636490232151,0.0,0.0,0.11236877614566082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645664122746135,0.0,0.0,0.26274441138876864,0.0,0.2015436328311994,0.148811182511074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeah--look,2019/10/27,"Binging on fear foods Does anyone else binge on foods they’d otherwise cry over the thought of? Bread, butter, peanut butter and dried fruit are all fear foods for me, yet when I binge I’ll eat multiple bread rolls lathered in butter and spoonfuls of peanut butter with sultanas. Is this normal? Or am I subconsciously faking my fear foods?",4.55182795698925,7.321058806451617,3.6658064516129047,87.18537634408602,73.83870967741936,6.068817204301076,23.23655913978495,7.1686216300943375,0.9309591397849464,274,8,48,3,6,80,46,62,0.23199999999999998,0.768,0.0,-0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,4,8,0,0,1,7,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,5,0,8,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836134406668914,0.1587890596653081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702315362130634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561869155510628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585769741434878,0.1294607955239154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231661194903662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7495801500120521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184150372243105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303195433915645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,omfghewontfkndie,2019/10/27,"its that daylight time change thingy today so i have to fast one hour more that's it

that's the bash",-1.3386363636363647,0.4682328636363664,-0.5722727272727255,108.96159090909092,106.72727272727272,2.2,10.045454545454547,3.1291,-2.3385818181818183,81,1,20,0,4,24,19,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5436349063540235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5060850475695486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3482299201957287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996574847407116,0.0,0.4871142861170534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,earringbacks,2019/10/27,Why are my binge cravings so random!!!!! Literally just drank a whole can of sweetened condensed milk... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!,8.975000000000003,13.25090094444445,14.797777777777787,5.000000000000028,67.33333333333334,8.044444444444443,36.77777777777778,8.841846274778883,4.202577777777779,99,5,12,2,2,41,18,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285836359486078,0.7777419961771566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunn681,2019/10/27,Social media DAE have a mental breakdown bc your friends keep posting group pics on social media where you look like absolute shit and you can’t do anything about it :) (except maybe cry),3.5994117647058843,6.6588586470588265,3.3426470588235304,86.23691176470591,80.17647058823529,4.576470588235295,23.20588235294117,5.985473137389443,0.7144352941176466,150,5,24,1,4,45,31,34,0.087,0.7040000000000001,0.209,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23400480937994625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123571198493184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21969654266284527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25275305273902904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892438268299662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23879155604023544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28567876648202745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865689265995379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723391583017216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918923996759817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5797402983711085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,discontentdoor,2019/10/27,"Just venting Possibly TW!

I am fairly new to reddit so I don't know if I am posting this in the right place but I need somewhere just to vent my feelings. I am recovering from anorexia although I never fell underweight.  But because i wasnt underweight i spent way too long of recovery by myself.  Now that the doctor put me on a meal plan I am scared shitless because I know I am going to get overweight.   I started to binge almost every night now for the last month and I hate myself so much   my stomach Is bloated af and I can tell I have gained so much weight but my mom threw out the scale.  I started to chew and spit my binge food a week ago today but sometimes I end up swallowing it.   Today i ate so much and i feel absolutely disgusted with myself.  My stomach Is hanging out from my pants.  Even after binging I am still thinking about food and if I should have more or not.  I don't know what is wrong with me?? Why I cant I be a normal teenager and not one gaining weight and obsessed with food when it used to be the complete opposite.  I hate myself.  I dont want to kill myself but sometimes I wish someone would end it for me because it is the same shit every single day that I wake up.",1.24089118198874,3.4681029390243943,2.969918699186992,90.62178236397749,82.6178861788618,5.248030018761726,23.68918073796123,6.490185161304077,0.6947334584115072,937,35,193,9,26,310,135,246,0.155,0.7959999999999999,0.049,-0.9804,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,3,13,8,5,2,9,0,22,16,5,1,1,40,41,21,1,8,12,1,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,12,10,0,6,0,1,5,8,8,0,1,4,4,42,0,24,33,6,35,0,0,0,0,2,8,1,4,20,143,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978601853982014,0.0,0.1105465423558899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189076540525489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574904277459327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119686360251355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299589873498656,0.0,0.0,0.12938433735619098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955577607692268,0.0,0.0,0.0729161071858756,0.0,0.1860282888336245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163997313518023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004770866222464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05767782055376373,0.0,0.06274109885159516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179881542025064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12213780634397375,0.0,0.18201373713501906,0.08998820293509302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769777703724386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292955077730326,0.0881177473940861,0.0,0.2434632581468533,0.08185789792870471,0.08514489026155027,0.10662200797160967,0.0,0.10360000635323256,0.10816551645721932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748077923420564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534125725395385,0.0,0.0,0.12445591033655568,0.10572970775322227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109793701091818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427834411829936,0.0,0.0,0.1105265496010936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332082505350535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935389298766678,0.0,0.21837070164551853,0.0,0.1562789793016962,0.0,0.08816310200489577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649175113301084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073787192445523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092866939303312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534747079515232,0.0,0.0,0.0651149482560585,0.08762791575667468,0.088553729179161,0.26886735113683863,0.0,0.0,0.09961602552823794,0.0,0.12695097963261448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842278592344701,0.12070167299027007,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinnnnn,2019/10/27,"Thoughts on Comparisons (and Thinspo) To preface this, I’d like to apologize in advance as it’s probably going to sound like I am romanticizing ED stuff, but I don’t know how else to express my feelings.

Comparisons matter *a lot* to me — even outside of ED stuff. I’m not super competitive, but I absolutely compare myself to others in everything I care about. It’s not like I feel the need to be *better* at everything, but I get really anxious when I don’t know how I “stack up” relative to peers.

For some reason it matters SO MUCH wether an acquaintance I barely know thinks I am good at XYZ. I feel compelled to ask stupid validation-seeking questions, and then I feel devastated whenever people don’t answer how I wanted them too.

In terms of ED stuff, I’m sure everyone has thoughts about whether or not people they know think they are thinner than others, but those thoughts are usually like kept private. I’m such an attention seeking person that I actually ask the same type of comparison questions about food/body image.

I have asked at least a dozen people if they think I am thin, if I look “concerningly thin,” who they think the thinnest person in our class is — embarrassing cringe like that.

I’ve done *really* bad attention seeking stuff like purposefully oversharing less-than-healthy thoughts for... no reason? Maybe it’s just because I obviously can’t say those things in an actual conversation?

Anyways I originally wanted to talk about comparisons, so I’ll move on to that. 

Thinspo is a strong motivator for me. Like I gave my own goals, but thinspo makes things feel exciting and fun I guess? What I like even better than thinspo of random people is having a specific person to idolize. 

A certain Kpop idol that I absolutely love is my favorite thinspo. This is super cringe but I genuinely feel amazing fantasizing about being that cute and thin while. Obviously I am then encouraged to continue ED behaviors, but I actually think it helps my self confidence as I won’t be moping as much about never being able to be thin.

Is thinspo honestly that bad if I assume I would be engaging in unhealthy behaviors regardless?

Idk thank you for reading my random rambling. I’d love to hear your thoughts.",5.095441176470587,7.35705766176471,5.951274509803923,73.76823529411766,70.42156862745098,9.407843137254902,32.34313725490196,9.845776108104099,3.602551960784313,1778,83,299,47,34,583,203,408,0.102,0.6659999999999999,0.23199999999999998,0.9957,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,1,2,5,8,18,32,1,1,11,0,28,2,0,9,5,74,69,28,0,8,16,0,10,8,0,2,0,3,0,4,25,4,0,1,29,1,0,3,10,4,0,1,8,14,45,28,46,53,8,28,0,0,1,2,29,16,0,12,17,199,70,5,0.07807190664861703,0.0,0.2285607566433668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819903222821793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21896008135124476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037356197175182,0.04759190965575808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380965139690073,0.0,0.08672028823512327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959951204808621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079894666488563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521906003666741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313151605544728,0.0,0.0,0.07460105250081113,0.14033199118035125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368530107991862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440485941726516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040789348924786965,0.0,0.0443700637162038,0.06548301120033771,0.0,0.0,0.08600500707803492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799271288633527,0.0,0.05232995334140593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716251125493283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30513592019348224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06556073867270165,0.0,0.0,0.06637394315485222,0.14092588776224302,0.0,0.05211360392624236,0.0,0.07843372380601328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297808131098658,0.11478366891089074,0.05788932953441237,0.060213867387789874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165009196014035,0.2045081325352552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417472001045026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749168060833174,0.0,0.07809303401532736,0.0,0.100029725089055,0.16054184578493794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062085913743862874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144602548467082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574946182906035,0.0,0.0,0.07358184807325825,0.0,0.0,0.06275124125289559,0.0,0.07187812235058529,0.0,0.0,0.10373501137875686,0.2501266268750522,0.0,0.3099018658120204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598517525756046,0.0,0.092097666629413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05546004249074584,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lolimscared101,2019/10/27,I decided scince I'm sooooooo smart I would get sick on purpose.🤡 10/10 dont recommend. Never do this I hate it and think im also getting an ear infection. Dont b like mee I'm dum.,-2.1887456445993045,-0.4879288292682915,1.372334494773522,95.65585365853659,105.58536585365854,5.269686411149826,20.49128919860627,6.868970318607317,0.7065094076655059,142,6,34,3,7,51,32,41,0.293,0.64,0.067,-0.8479,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,4,3,1,0,1,5,10,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23985840536052985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7030446210125411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313407962050438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961243269241647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239819366635401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465333926274539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313288390552696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19218663315271306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21306565746251527,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unbearably-white,2019/10/27,im afab assigned fat at birth,-1.7814285714285738,0.13193085714285854,0.6257142857142846,103.04428571428572,97.57142857142857,2.8000000000000003,21.285714285714285,3.1291,-0.6545999999999994,24,1,6,0,1,8,7,7,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schmerzlich_,2019/10/27,"ADVICE: I’m calorie counting and all I eat is sugar It’s so bad I normally eat about 800 calories but the past three days I’ve eaten terribly. One day I ate 1k calories and 900 of it was sugar and chocolate, the other day I ate 1.1k calories and 800 of it was sugar and chocolate, and yesterday I ate 1.6k calories and 1.5k of it was sugar and chocolate. I just realized how much of a sugar addiction I have and I have no idea how to get over it. Not only is it slowing down my weight loss, but I’ve been having trouble sleeping and I woke up sick today and I’m getting p malnourished. Please please give advice on how to get over a sugar addiction this serious because I’m going to try to go on a week long sugar fast and I’m really not sure I’ll be able to do it. Thank you!",2.328881118881121,3.6057079393939446,4.521212121212127,85.2541258741259,75.66666666666667,7.258741258741258,26.025641025641022,7.882392219407189,1.5150326340326339,610,22,127,9,13,212,89,165,0.155,0.79,0.054000000000000006,-0.9514,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,6,7,0,0,5,0,11,18,1,3,2,25,27,18,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,12,14,0,2,0,0,2,3,5,0,2,9,8,11,2,16,17,2,18,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,0,10,78,20,0,0.15771537185863835,0.0,0.0,0.34386606997829994,0.0,0.3082352721022848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168574772647948,0.09614182682386904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30514010214493875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227643981942715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471993170026603,0.15129495586720593,0.17926656075886988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17804145764736054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957314108157598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159389452793686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452757827734198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068720176773188,0.11994964722533764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15055716830537572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34624823452699044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103650574554746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782927201401006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864487149200847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520312467896002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494957313475983,0.0,0.0,0.1070783847831092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265097580604214,0.19205483415526375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,circus-witch,2019/10/27,"Hi Thought I’d introduce myself? I’m currently overweight and a total fucking mess. I used to be skinnier than was healthy. Then I got healthy. Then I got gross. So now I feel like I either need to starve or eat everything and I know that sounds stupid but ta-da, here I am. I can’t diet healthily. There is food or no food and unless I’m having unusually good mental health (I kinda have many other problems entirely unrelated to food) that’s it. So basically I’m an imposter but here I am.",0.2818181818181813,2.701146878787881,2.5981414141414163,88.19054545454546,95.36363636363636,5.468282828282828,22.761616161616157,7.0316486544052195,1.1495301010101011,387,16,77,7,15,131,69,99,0.16699999999999998,0.731,0.102,-0.6514,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,2,0,8,8,0,1,1,17,19,12,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,2,11,2,5,14,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,5,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895066424023108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474135325471188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830976596137612,0.13890099473518358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7053174154933611,0.0,0.0,0.17974761407698125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16307885174428588,0.3110072319876429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20667024188898767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068537692906368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498878903653814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971217355844045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593994076118595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441675514865428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860434711635462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435588407936685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792529191189398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oldtownhoe,2019/10/27,My boss asked if I have an ed and it made me feel so fucking good about myself. 🤪 I was feeling fat and gross and sure I had gained weight but she said I look skinnier than ever.  why am I like this.....,-1.4924242424242422,0.4767794545454542,0.4109090909090938,105.17803030303033,95.36363636363636,2.9333333333333336,14.151515151515152,3.1291,-1.662957575757576,152,3,39,0,6,49,38,44,0.046,0.723,0.23,0.7299,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,1,0,4,3,1,2,2,11,11,6,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,5,9,3,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,2,25,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926827085839751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831941119898954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31660008668781603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894326399935606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262592317733088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295255028454588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629040113578228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962389785631972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978058613534265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29506932675297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812408059896885,0.0,0.0,0.28250134277215583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thestarxvii,2019/10/27,"[tw: numbers and details] I’m a stupid dumb dumb. I had disordered eating when I was a teen/early 20s. Restriction, purging, all the fun things. Tried to “get healthy” and my health “buddy” assaulted me. 

Took years to even admit I was a binge eater after that incident. 

Then... a few months ago, I relapsed on restriction. I’ve had a couple binges, but mostly I stay under 500 calories a day. Promised myself I’d not let myself go back to purging. Didn’t need to. I was restricting and exercising and everyone in the ed universe knows how bad purging is. 

Well guess who purged again. 

Like I should’ve known. I should’ve expected it. I have the urges, I always have, even after “recovery”. I get upset and I want to do two things... barf and self injure. 

Oh and bc I’m very very smart, I started stressing about how I don’t poop hardly enough anymore so even though I never abused laxatives before here I am. Nearly shit myself at work too. So glamour. Much attractive. 

Barf, shit, fast, and cry every time I get invited to lunch. 

And this is unrelated but can everyone in my fucking life SHUT UP ABOUT MY SOUP. I like soup when I go out. It’s usually low cal and doesn’t make me feel like a garbage heap and it helps me be less cold but everyone is just “OH SOUP AGAIN MY GOODNESS ALL THAT SOUP YOU EAT SO MUCH SOUP” 

Well now I have to pretend to eat it bc I don’t deserve food anymore thaaaaaaaaaanks. 

This is so fun I’m so glad this is my relationship with food and my body. 🙃",0.27029684601113146,2.690586904761908,1.8662492269635145,93.58356679035252,94.91836734693878,5.121706864564008,19.947124304267163,6.782984794422108,0.4891387755102032,1146,39,239,18,44,370,167,294,0.14,0.6759999999999999,0.185,0.9484,0,0,0,0,1,0,44.0,0,1,0,1,24,24,7,2,10,0,22,15,4,3,3,37,40,26,0,3,5,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,12,14,6,3,4,2,0,3,6,11,2,1,7,3,34,13,21,31,8,32,0,1,0,1,6,10,5,2,21,148,46,1,0.0,0.12847168403482098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611655143782233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022235108610073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215066621381156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337588916900786,0.09053442548697037,0.0,0.0,0.09226584653997504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044115930701475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997560621971096,0.11910513802786127,0.06992830613202974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427004300121865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328525280373633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203705712151198,0.0,0.2148507507458428,0.0,0.09135685529212048,0.31082820750180795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054825408191807236,0.07746233204945685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26222769651326,0.0,0.0,0.10024168216559133,0.16995042008716268,0.0,0.12324640568575253,0.09094584375111188,0.0,0.0,0.11944774365372945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971318798373899,0.0,0.0,0.11525589814866327,0.0,0.0,0.0726782668184009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595902295250501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087690453510933,0.0765872349622005,0.1589200955260041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237779071404286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654770032904899,0.0,0.15941688426654685,0.08039938637803727,0.08362781238551023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164131185500747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11311601852298063,0.0,0.22260343909857133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674723122371035,0.11557183116061212,0.0,0.0,0.12420606778724295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407199613208346,0.0,0.10653181222674556,0.0,0.06322633835441145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046959272790325,0.07361677490374463,0.0,0.10592024290507036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942020030144453,0.1789320228900793,0.06395475594040326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498297840099468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893824822413052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698252914134655
EDAnonymous,RVKH,2019/10/27,"Thoughts on fasted cardio? I’m planning on doing about 30 min of cardio tomorrow afternoon after (hopefully) having fasted for about 24 hours.i binged today though so theoretically my body should have plenty to burn through, but is it relatively safe? is there a chance i’d faint on the treadmill or something? should i eat something really small before? any advice based on your experience w this would be super helpful ❤️",6.4860000000000015,8.879528200000003,6.749000000000002,68.93950000000002,67.0,8.733333333333334,31.16666666666667,9.2995712137729,3.218466666666668,345,14,51,7,6,111,64,75,0.0,0.799,0.201,0.9542,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,2,0,9,5,1,0,0,8,12,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,11,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,7,32,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753501737238224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916186839984597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23977230081940595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129918053468211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883292119961077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756329262314602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888698354603465,0.0,0.0,0.27986910623263395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051418463395413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338528995852179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27684542748980034,0.2237002354002028,0.0,0.0,0.26709257066382275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20016698718442946,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turbollamaa,2019/10/27,"I think im going to have my roommate drive me to the er after work tonight I know that my body is in DKA right now, and I have been for a little bit. I am in a lot of pain and uncomfortable situations surrounding my blood sugar constantly and it is making it so hard to function (I have left work early the past three days because i couldnt last more than 4 hours).

I know i could just give myself insulin and i could be possibly okay but it is so hard to get myself to gove myself insulin because i know if i give myself insulin i will gain weight and for some reason thats more important to me than having my body be healthy ????

I dont know what i am going to tell my parents or the hospital because i know why im in such a bad state of dka ,, but i dont know how to tell them. (I will definitely have to tell my parents, bc even tho i live in a different state im still inder their insurance and theres no way i could pay to go by myself, i will need to tell them about my ed if i go to the hospital)

Its crazy because i know i need help and I do want help, but it is going to be so hard to walk into the er and say ""hi, im a type one diabetic and i believe im in dka"" and its sad because i feel like if i go in i will feel like a failure because i have not quite reached my goal weight but its so hard to do anything and its so hard in general and i dont think i can get myself out of dka or get mysef better at all by myself.",1.7609268093226116,2.3597242476489018,4.097500340738724,90.38873926673028,76.11598746081505,7.17792013084367,23.90091317977375,7.423996415210882,0.7761543137522153,1101,32,269,13,23,386,136,319,0.11900000000000001,0.774,0.10800000000000001,0.3505,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,3,6,14,7,0,0,11,1,30,11,3,3,1,50,56,28,0,10,11,2,9,2,0,4,5,1,0,0,11,14,3,0,12,0,1,8,6,3,2,2,1,11,51,4,36,44,6,35,0,1,0,0,15,14,0,7,12,182,62,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06175196403760488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265570984520498,0.2744640711450206,0.0,0.0,0.08454498270218733,0.0,0.06636725252433595,0.08192482570855518,0.16670622893711265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109215654562292,0.0,0.17974127629674272,0.0,0.0,0.04839493524599315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840138446491157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638408341899573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049563563717514164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588549547498212,0.10721794222954882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761674249078286,0.14397143228511436,0.2558835821592181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33610788642419165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005961737390487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389980833886614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052832583545766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28868219767823405,0.061168049175039325,0.0,0.0,0.08153175767513915,0.0,0.0,0.07332202706532967,0.07521032700351392,0.06626216463664618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379677690318257,0.0,0.0,0.05009013786549843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128320741063999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050849406604502566,0.0,0.07984841688850795,0.0,0.16664726086256065,0.0,0.07163467888758067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459692487782709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981484279324075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715416496554861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408420438542292,0.0,0.05967524301978885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434870213770854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05992746585626545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26235493034778484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616588591137064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04426085005641869,0.059563681519194014,0.0,0.18275830408306967,0.0,0.0,0.0677124083978901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926080217147237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Death_by_Hedgehog,2019/10/27,"Trying to ""Eat Intuitively"" Staying with my boyfriend's parent's friends for the weekend and trying to eat as I feel necessary, not obsess, and enjoy myself. You guys, I had some pizza and a cider last night. I just had a Mediterranean takeout salad. I have had a normal amount of energy today. I'm terrified I'll have gained this weekend when I get back home, especially because I'm on new meds, but maybe they're actually working and helping. They're definitely helping the contamination OCD even if just a little. A month ago I was hospitalized, now I feel like I have so much more freedom. Holy shit you guys. I'm so terrified, but I feel so good too.",4.3080952380952375,6.117050920634919,5.619238095238099,77.2174285714286,71.53968253968253,8.214603174603175,29.266666666666666,8.841846274778883,2.4636247619047627,520,21,95,10,10,174,83,126,0.111,0.662,0.22699999999999998,0.9301,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,10,6,1,1,7,0,7,5,1,0,0,16,14,12,0,2,6,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,3,13,4,7,10,4,14,0,0,0,0,8,2,1,2,12,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.1692816265944913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15377062478117734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338766713346215,0.0,0.10574565814684814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355006086746741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457525154851653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313482367262153,0.12392695137379632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340224362238964,0.0,0.09063087778221084,0.0,0.0,0.1454983455571287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435250036613314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23254647257935004,0.0,0.17400448186753922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414011442136401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474864461863424,0.17386244025121905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17427385882952273,0.0,0.19268598424476086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846204169717036,0.0,0.12752035693973787,0.0,0.0,0.16753833762427586,0.0,0.16278977644940484,0.16996369849214527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926178264947085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806438847719866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489586256294752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442920863629162,0.0,0.0,0.2355493887782079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628817375338858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thrifteddenim,2019/10/27,"Anyone else feel like they have to qUiCk EAT EVERYTHING ONCE THEY ARE FINALLY ALONE?!?! Whenever my roommate leaves or I come home to an empty house (which is rare) I always feel like I have to rush and eat everything that I wish I could eat when people are around. Even if I’m not hungry, I just have this instant urge ‘cause I have done it so much at this time.

Being alone = finally being able to eat. 

Ugh. I hate eating around people.",2.4143965517241384,4.45725462068966,3.2995258620689683,90.7761853448276,77.50574712643677,6.648850574712642,18.92097701149425,7.645422480735847,0.4303114942528734,340,7,71,5,8,108,59,87,0.154,0.7609999999999999,0.085,-0.7412,0,2,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,0,7,4,1,0,1,0,11,5,0,1,0,13,17,5,0,3,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,4,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,11,2,7,13,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,45,16,0,0.1257621917568295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26050340553500856,0.0,0.0,0.10464421814081172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08793584859298073,0.12885822734310928,0.0,0.22391002759316014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919241372435206,0.0,0.1083329924530256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041087675514823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286983858675954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.643430593664139,0.10505817376085354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306474156390709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22605389751620306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717828576662674,0.17968906983910618,0.0,0.2755326677244763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416412773289005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614973235444615,0.0,0.0,0.14511268413230022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316400244350324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288210879741952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244968132451513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339326297871003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743753376549819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333294536616303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462031396693414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dewchild,2019/02/22,"My boyfriend confronted me on my bulimia and I don't know how to feel. I told him I ate three chocolate bars and he said ""don't puke please, it's your birthday and you deserve to be happy"" and I felt so many feelings at once. I had never told him I was bulimic so I don't know how he knew. I was contemplating purging at the time.  I want to lose weight. I don't want people poking their nose in my business. I also felt grateful because it's been four years of me struggling with food and body image on and off and counting calories every single day and I'm just exhausted. But I'm back up to my start weight of almost 150lb at 5'5... I've lost 8lb so I'm at 142lb. It feels so pointless if I'm not even skinny. It's embarrassing and I feel childish",-0.2844444444444427,1.8881267901234613,2.064061728395064,94.6912777777778,89.74074074074073,4.721481481481481,20.44567901234568,6.2581,0.11259160493827156,588,20,133,6,20,199,97,162,0.12300000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.079,-0.6990000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,2,10,7,1,2,1,0,9,9,3,2,1,29,30,18,0,3,4,0,8,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,10,6,0,9,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,12,10,23,1,16,17,1,15,0,2,0,0,10,9,0,2,6,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223427211805208,0.0,0.0,0.12956305955502284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457926767122493,0.0,0.09876262876810768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799617560122961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044860481158831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10700915038028888,0.0,0.136504332876956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276779064252633,0.0,0.3111189485453811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19590876163559653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17246761088215115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17807803259627378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18125295508293587,0.17685813241352102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642574290447122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495568836231498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254031797220276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232056091680877,0.0,0.0,0.17784343702376965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411303608657298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146748053536564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937289257950852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944720471137542,0.0,0.0,0.3096238880574653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112088011431927,0.0,0.0,0.3945804009642071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433212474155992
EDAnonymous,milk-and-roses,2019/02/22,"Does fat ever redistribute normally..? Before my weight loss/gain, my chestbones didn't show at a healthy weight and only showed when I was slightly underweight. Now they still show at a healthy weight and I'm worried that from now on I'm only gonna lose fat from my chest (not even boobs) and everything else will stay pudgy while my chest is skeletal. Do you think there's hope that it'll ever even out? :( I'm not really a fan.",3.481428571428573,5.282000470588237,3.5833613445378165,90.99941176470593,73.70588235294117,7.210084033613445,23.907563025210084,7.957251820313856,1.0879915966386564,340,10,71,5,7,104,59,85,0.175,0.7909999999999999,0.034,-0.8737,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,9,2,0,0,3,0,6,9,6,0,2,11,12,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,4,5,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,3,7,1,6,7,0,12,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,1,7,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540858548611774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584644434935649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126921430734766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23920343830871146,0.32759469224019105,0.0,0.0,0.1627431462221522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985342900625345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025823488242504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774200820749265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27543919982208565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600456916347887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930073268719114,0.14461082705480607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160288366727882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6615204512729275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18389566353998732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YouSmellOfButterfly,2019/02/22,"Purchased 2 orders of yakisoba for binging. Could only force 1 down. Threw the other one away because I knew I wanted to fast tomorrow to make up for the binge. What the fuck is wrong with me that was like $8 of food

Fuck",2.1360869565217366,3.8675645652173967,3.5167391304347824,90.33206521739132,77.26086956521739,6.339130434782609,22.369565217391305,7.1686216300943375,0.6686695652173915,174,5,37,2,4,57,39,46,0.204,0.746,0.05,-0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,5,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,3,1,10,5,0,7,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29654648531183603,0.0,0.0,0.19240622818031405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520063254639905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816632501984746,0.0,0.0,0.5835930640339121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15420176431093788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21068669109641305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138802901777985,0.2400522223950157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18616782546179456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450938469894039,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heartfr0st,2019/02/22,"Delaying Laxatives Guys help! I took some stimulant laxatives a few hours ago, and they’re due to hit in the middle of a symphonic concert I’m playing in tonight.  Is there any way to delay the inevitable???",4.876153846153844,6.648778666666665,5.818461538461541,76.50153846153849,70.02564102564102,10.328205128205127,36.07692307692308,10.504223727775694,4.3409076923076935,164,9,29,5,3,54,33,39,0.06,0.802,0.138,0.4646,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,5,2,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,6,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37756122182479535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896469873277042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4217376377780576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854918826110313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4194552262392401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732238718792006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33808338707335417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ratorture,2019/02/22,"Earning food with exercise? I've found more and more that my relapses are a descent into this behaviour. I exercise X amount, 'earn' Y amount of food. My recovery strategy now is to trick myself into overestimating exertion and under estimating intake, or eating something 'for free' behind my own back. But obviously the worse the period of relapse, the less possible clarity is. Is there a word for this? Exercise bulimia I guess? I hear a lot about exercising off calories, but not about exercising to have calories available and then eating those available calories. Means my intake is high when I'm working really hard (burning 1300 in exercise usually) and low when I'm lazy. Getting to eat if I've been productive is big motivation, and I actually want to eat/enjoy eating the food once I've earnt it. ",5.6604942528735664,8.027444882758623,7.1887068965517225,65.04489942528741,69.13793103448276,11.17816091954023,34.8419540229885,11.038039088145766,4.933816091954023,648,33,99,23,12,222,93,145,0.08199999999999999,0.858,0.06,-0.4971,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,7,3,1,0,7,0,8,13,0,1,1,21,16,12,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,8,7,0,3,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,9,2,17,14,7,15,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,4,7,67,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.13134124171154998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349204566826824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6886001331994601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882433221435957,0.14757190555666752,0.0,0.0,0.07031815717270913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826698059105653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056695339823167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15169365478727628,0.0,0.0,0.14220260858166894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442431639547765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466088778823387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333484857465734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173094579676247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622233642077914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361460164757293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823279183575874,0.0,0.07938516264660696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09798373212697964,0.0,0.13715956107050706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,__coni__,2019/02/22,"Dad called me a walrus Hello, I'm new to reddit but I've been spying on this sub for like ages, that's why I decided to join and the first thing I'm gonna do is rant :)

So yesterday I was napping. It was really hot, so I was wearing a tank top and shorts. Thing is, my dad thought it would be fun to take a pic of me and send it to the family group with the caption ""the other walrus"" (the other bc the first is my cousin who is fit as hell but they call him that bc he's always sleeping)

Seeing my horribly fat body (I'm 150 cm and weight around 78 kg, not my highest weight but still obese), my fat legs, my fat arms, my fat everything... as soon as I woke up, plus all the laughs from the rest of my family, made me want to die so bad. I laughed of course, but damn. A walrus, jesus christ. 

Everyone in my family laughs at my fat body, I am so damn tired. I used to be ""healthy"", weight wise, I gained +40 kg after being medicated by my psychiatrist almost 8 years ago, and I've been diagnosed with an ed about 6 years ago now. I don't know why they do this, they know it hurts. I mean, they have to, I don't think they can be that stupid and oblivious.

So that's that, I'm going to go and cry now :) ",1.2454761904761928,2.3889326538461546,3.2170329670329667,94.04987179487179,78.23076923076924,6.9523809523809526,18.919413919413927,7.62386473244151,0.15567216117216146,910,17,227,13,21,308,143,260,0.16399999999999998,0.685,0.151,-0.8396,0,0,0,0,0,1,45.0,0,0,5,4,11,12,4,0,13,0,21,18,11,2,1,28,39,20,1,2,5,3,4,1,0,2,9,0,0,0,16,11,9,0,6,1,0,3,3,6,0,2,8,5,31,6,27,25,2,25,3,1,1,0,16,8,3,1,15,133,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21738419529256,0.0,0.12278267742200548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020267211778941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915464972675996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237962627847058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723985006161559,0.0,0.0,0.2504102394732937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468842877776954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445313054991697,0.1272565316496968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716528657349196,0.11019977206015844,0.0,0.3467756708206749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20859500436260425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937152510111278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126346140759773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347736045334697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05990421102461456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602266358130192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356527623768805,0.0,0.1235231882151126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842374561764972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855124702027036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770944710823362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270501678100935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792166704898964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219232159947036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16292186140087428,0.07856767950333607,0.0,0.09734377652950786,0.0,0.1409295884892346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590125661240574,0.0,0.0,0.07232236772576213,0.0,0.0,0.4479414625786979,0.0,0.0,0.2212845751270886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710321843965438,0.0,0.0,0.15792196617461787
EDAnonymous,dietdumbbitchjuice,2019/02/22,"What's wrong with me? When I wake up I keep shaking? I don't restrict super low, only about 900. I'm 92 lbs now and 5'3/4 so I'm not remotely close to my lw and I'm not underweight. I recently lost my recovery weight but 14 lbs in 1 1/2 months is normal. Almost every time I sleep I'll wake up shaking but not from the cold. It's like my arms and legs are spasming and I can't stop it?? Idk what's wrong with me.",-1.6972704714640194,0.2318608279569893,1.1569892473118273,99.50933002481388,96.63440860215051,4.581968569065342,15.75599669148056,6.297961479604792,-0.5438231596360628,319,8,80,4,13,110,62,93,0.14,0.732,0.128,-0.4814,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,0,2,1,0,4,6,5,0,0,17,9,8,0,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,0,1,2,11,2,8,8,0,13,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,1,7,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552661509436095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147815944541629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265851361806785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245413253288978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782759409271038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20347518545351576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24976805662516424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938785983339229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25170333199189443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255104693860875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131250305515171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486462479453378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104246065795109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574313012430256,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shapay199,2019/02/22,"I‘m going inpatient, and I’m scared shitless I’m not skinny remotely. In fact, right now I’m probably my HW. My stupid brain tells me I don’t deserve to get better before getting skinny, but I need to go, I’m at the edge of insanity.

Anyway, gonna go cry for 2 hours because I’m going to be the fattest person in the ED ward. If anyone has (uplifting) personal experiences to share, they’re much appreciated.",2.1903658536585344,4.4018030975609745,5.1001829268292695,76.75320121951222,79.0,8.002439024390245,26.103658536585364,8.841846274778883,2.3901414634146345,322,13,60,8,8,116,62,82,0.154,0.7390000000000001,0.106,-0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,3,0,3,3,3,0,1,6,17,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,9,15,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15330055445301324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336491527641171,0.0,0.18656055916919195,0.0,0.0,0.19390356706775752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447488953255513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24082932074735175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144627743381941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290919597481697,0.0,0.4984058397028887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591124986340746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116962118204708,0.16256670308712698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38287093814066253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363821938418969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18723324155201745,0.0,0.0,0.2195015658464016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191628984541716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kindalost_,2019/02/22,"Does anyone meal prep? Sorry if this is already established somewhere - I’m curious in seeing how many people here meal prep vs. alternatives. 

I am not quite in recovery but I’m not really restricting as far anymore. I want to find a decent enough balance and thought meal prep would be a decent option. Like I said, was curious as to who preps and what sort of things y’all make? ",3.334011741682976,5.7674685068493154,4.479882583170255,81.51849315068493,76.26027397260273,8.007045009784736,25.497064579256357,8.841846274778883,2.214821526418786,303,11,55,7,7,99,56,73,0.016,0.809,0.175,0.8912,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,0,16,12,7,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,7,7,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,3,1,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969452993355272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266862989932078,0.18815258623204525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354807221825827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27803983579255115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24594155709175602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13146280465716448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796183295258669,0.2728129970037382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865517378852582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862082107337583,0.0,0.0,0.17238466321439913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559643085651761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442829708701452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012219854800388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877011042616076,0.0,0.0,0.21362581460643995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871507425026904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911523947129106,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckidy-007,2019/02/22,"Always the girl who was fat Always the girl who no one wanted to be around
Always the girl who was stupid
Always the girl who was weird
Always the girl who was quiet
Always the girl who retreated into her clothes 
Always the girl who was looked down upon 
Alway the girl who had to prove herself 
Always the girl who overcompensates 
Always 
Always
Always
Always 
Always

always fucking stops today I’m so sick of this shit ",5.364599156118143,7.183320164556964,5.3779113924050685,79.95690928270044,68.87341772151899,6.279324894514768,19.495780590717303,6.42735559955562,0.36064388185653984,339,5,55,2,6,106,37,79,0.191,0.809,0.0,-0.9436,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,9,0,7,4,2,0,1,5,11,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,9,10,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,6,2,2,0,7,4,0,6,0,0,1,1,20,4,2,0,2,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9818562914146658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003013742155788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272619634451666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06606030594958276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05330666499075768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075034790469818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065768973926066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745669356833524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639972152506399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FormerFeatherWeight,2019/02/22,"I just agreed to a foursome because I hate myself. The other girl is so much skinnier than me. Fuck my self esteem right. I know the guys are only going to want her and not a fat pig like myself. Also??? I don’t even want the foursome? I only agreed because my fwb (who probably only fucks me when he can’t find anyone else) wanted to. 


Kill me now pls. ",-0.3594520547945201,1.8935380547945224,1.9665890410958904,93.96522602739726,93.10958904109587,3.4679452054794515,15.519178082191784,4.935628992294339,-0.8318372602739723,270,6,56,1,10,91,53,73,0.21899999999999997,0.6409999999999999,0.14,-0.8878,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,4,0,5,0,4,3,1,0,0,8,12,4,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,0,13,1,4,12,1,4,0,0,0,2,6,1,2,0,3,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600903005991936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997612984348007,0.20511630069627268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440655381519195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167231417070125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222231020231126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296823880446905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701412282290598,0.0,0.0,0.11377147457477604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821762982176394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764424115455434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22147840225034626,0.0,0.11001810958448173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780176282873347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716124088329602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567560681182633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21583656220918296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17095948950748052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883978163551276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35422827216375724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,natts13,2019/02/22,"My friend’s comment has been on my mind all day I am doing Whole30 to lose weight (of course, smh). A friend who doesn’t know about my ed sent me a message today that really upset me. It completely reinforces the diet culture that has already wormed its way into my brain :/

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EDAnonymous,Seaslire,2019/02/22,"The guy who wouldn’t commit to me in college is now dating a girl who’s thinner than I’ve ever been in my life🙃 I knew it. I KNEW he didn’t want to be serious because I was too chubby. Good enough to fuck, but not to date, because I was too fucking fat. I’m so embarrassed that my fat ass ever thought I had a chance to have anything more than casual sex with him. He’d never have settled for me, and I’m sure he regrets our hookups. I’m probably a cringey memory to him now, if he even remembers me at all. 

The girl he’s seeing now doesn’t even have a very pretty face and she looks a fair amount older than she is, but you can see all her ribs, and her hip bones and collar bones stick out really far, and she looks great in a bikini so she’s worthy of his love. I was only worthy of drunken sex when he couldn’t find anyone better. ",3.0006410256410234,3.280161060439561,4.6535714285714285,88.71226190476195,73.01098901098902,7.605128205128205,23.95787545787547,7.492282038375204,0.8502622710622703,651,16,150,7,12,221,111,182,0.079,0.698,0.223,0.9827,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,1,12,11,2,1,8,0,17,13,8,0,7,27,31,11,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,4,7,2,0,5,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,9,4,23,6,18,18,5,16,0,1,4,6,23,6,3,1,10,95,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256662619756532,0.0,0.14789643504450106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191145296767648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589500869327841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570154970542455,0.0,0.23741024261050006,0.3251388688747933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426325443157164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33230140457972984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507428395368491,0.0,0.19814486609185247,0.0,0.17795368842693488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694342912549872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018435386064041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622067166439518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386131942185931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668718082933562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828425557276201,0.1937714237479822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513493745639465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035907378779471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28643138100156057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693864792350107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14267971607888005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482900158051108,0.10600508076791243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princesstinytits,2019/02/22,"Woman I looked at myself in the mirror today and accepted what I had been denying to myself. 


I look like a woman. I have curves, I have boobs, I have an ass. 


I want my child body back; when I was a child people wanted to pick me up, hug me and love me.


Now I am a woman whose only attributes are parts you can grab hold of. 
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EDAnonymous,FeedMeDreams,2019/02/22,"Is Peach just not working for anyone else? I miss being there... Their Twitter says it's back up, but it's not working for me, I can't log in.",0.1456989247311853,1.8205530322580683,2.143225806451614,98.1015053763441,83.19354838709677,4.133333333333334,20.010752688172047,3.1291,-0.6346860215053759,108,3,26,0,3,36,25,31,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,19,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959973868463174,0.4337445896923272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255093695461952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536321693328293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336643557112128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6163685849378402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shittypebbles,2019/02/22,"A professor was ""fasting"" (rant) I was talking with a professor I work with while he was making copies. He never eats any of the candy I have out but mentioned that he hadn't eaten anything. I offered him some nuts I keep at my desk instead. He said no, that he was actually fasting. I was excited to talk with him about food and not eating! He went on to say he ""starves for six hours"" then eats.  
  
Since when does skipping lunch count as fasting? I'm guessing my starve/binge cycle has really thrown off my perception of normal...",3.177950377562027,5.1903896213592216,4.110226537216828,85.97811218985979,75.11650485436894,6.907874865156419,26.97842502696871,7.793537801064563,1.6406470334412084,413,16,80,6,9,133,74,103,0.10300000000000001,0.866,0.031,-0.8122,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,8,6,0,1,1,14,15,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,6,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,9,2,11,1,14,6,1,13,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,2,8,49,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.1939243449240936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13513801064540995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353155958868704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739032652907564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6100277171367987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402958511645565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21891506970933008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957014825245155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663355302285189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264870992878974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326692508386405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947057076071243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273066242585555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18903045924439266,0.15803198670599702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438517922877066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31945099058617504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421760686349686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467223560801334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pumpkin_boots,2019/08/16,"Help me decide how to diet! I’m trying to decide between a ingredient/recipe delivery service (HelloFresh specifically, but it’s similar to blue apron etc) or getting something like youfoodz or another meal delivery service. 

Pro of hello fresh

It’s cheaper, I’ll have leftovers and I won’t be as lazy

Con of hello fresh

The meals average 500-800 cals per serving. I would have to somehow work out how to count them properly and I am worried I’d over eat 


Pros of youfoodz or similar

Don’t have to cook, calorie controlled meals at a max of 350 cals per. Much easier to calorie count

Cons

No leftovers, it’s more expensive and might make me lazy


Thanks for help!!
I find I binge if I don’t have food ready to eat. So this is my plan to fix that.",2.311509009009012,4.6801604662162175,3.5661081081081107,87.06898198198198,79.47297297297297,6.91963963963964,28.10990990990992,8.021203637495839,1.993963423423424,591,27,117,11,15,192,96,148,0.078,0.753,0.16899999999999998,0.934,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,0,3,0,12,8,0,4,0,19,16,12,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,4,8,1,3,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,10,2,19,12,3,3,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,6,1,65,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439611056359667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609445610197394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761323007197874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594740076628201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21264424418692549,0.0,0.2813297164727259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155365771371256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118901087813344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136644374605906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530032571883065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24681226539634354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102963358946768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791106924471542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21419926798581596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579588021150138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937703596557604,0.2362744337432664,0.0,0.16527282732898593,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abbyellstrom,2019/08/16,Normal HR / BP What is considered a normal heart rate and blood pressure for a 20F?,1.7043749999999989,4.387680687500001,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,85.875,5.7,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.8407249999999995,65,2,12,1,2,21,14,16,0.145,0.855,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174657990390775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8557038896866421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SoloHappyCup,2019/08/16,Those of you who went inpatient voluntarily How did you know when it was time? Are you glad that you did.,0.6857142857142868,3.211852809523812,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857146,92.33333333333331,6.609523809523811,16.523809523809526,7.793537801064563,0.4149238095238093,83,2,19,2,3,27,17,21,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,15,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44851680866518695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758846496871602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7565490549441755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hatefulkoala,2019/08/16,"ED made a comeback because of my gap year I took a gap year after I was done with school and it's all gone downhill from there. 
This time last year I was at my lowest weight ever, but besides that I also looked my best and was super fit. I had managed to abandon my habit of counting every calorie and obsessing about my weight and somehow (I really have no idea how I did it) transitioned to not counting calories and not even weighing myself anymore. 
Since then I've abandoned my healthy habits am stuck in a binge ""phase"" and gained like 20 pounds. I have pretty much binged every day for the last half year just eating and eating and eating my boredom away...
Today I had a pizza, pudding and some sausages for dinner and proceeded to throw it all up just to have some more sausages and cookies... I don't even wanna think about all the other things I ate today..
I can't wait to have a structured life again in September, so I can properly meal plan and workout to lose all the weight again. Hopefully I'll get drowned in work so I won't have much time to mindlessly stuff my face and maybe the stress will make me forget my appetite. 

I do this to myself over and over again, I never learn from it and I hate myself so much for that",4.090162601626016,5.362462406504073,4.322113821138212,88.41699186991873,71.27642276422766,6.767479674796747,26.268292682926827,6.937597516519254,1.0683999999999996,976,31,196,8,18,304,140,246,0.152,0.7290000000000001,0.11900000000000001,-0.7886,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,6,17,10,1,2,9,0,19,13,1,3,6,42,31,22,1,2,5,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,11,16,11,3,3,1,0,3,7,6,0,1,12,4,30,4,28,17,11,31,0,3,1,0,0,9,0,4,20,145,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540193797903328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831077898493753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208365845413318,0.0,0.0,0.0727224736490566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125195064785407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769368330468646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208246780683085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662124938431442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15758936787740582,0.10791115887619092,0.20102609406913796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06232786987958374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778129946640173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848905010763447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467203234987118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944863016454617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426314944169491,0.058282592241406264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017961298515343,0.13346306608323985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288190724175196,0.07963181590518517,0.0,0.11985008489757197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26309153377409245,0.0,0.0920093649548803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136815354457092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642484930241768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073514833259452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868388721544023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665455420459052,0.0,0.13656676705329746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925576727265776,0.07644083695493245,0.0,0.0,0.13912632829840094,0.0,0.22615961736381435,0.0,0.13254359293975704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43581559901967465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868497917447783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072939749338975
EDAnonymous,OverwhelmedAdenium,2019/08/16,"I was really skinny in high school and middle school because I was in two sports.. and because I routinely starved myself. Now I’m married, with my bachelors, and 200lbs+.. I’ve gotten so disgusted with myself that I’m falling back into school habits. It’s now 4pm and all I’ve managed to make myself eat is a 300cal veggie soup. I tried to talk to my husband about my thoughts two days ago.. to expose them, but he took it in one ear and out of the other. I’m hiding it and I know it’s not healthy. Idk what to do. I know logically this isn’t how to lose the weight healthily..",1.726295454545454,3.5854686750000013,3.5128787878787904,89.30727272727276,78.91666666666666,6.03030303030303,23.40909090909091,6.980632752743323,0.78775,451,15,95,5,11,151,77,120,0.147,0.84,0.013000000000000001,-0.9243,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,6,2,1,0,3,0,5,4,2,2,1,19,14,9,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,10,3,0,4,1,0,2,2,2,0,3,5,2,13,0,15,9,1,14,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,5,61,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715275621613975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14879084609532892,0.0,0.2359136535589032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12479257419740325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980005241533618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044451465927184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268692324406094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21647888166465654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291638725078346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112174475141378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239621297030498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875020855362775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552931891582192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361871783934433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21498748390448744,0.13137493745385004,0.0,0.3780460446669853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356329139252888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Preshylust,2019/08/16,"Buckle up people Not starting a political argument whatsoever BUT....So everybody is going to pretend like our own president isn’t fat shaming people? 
I’m not OW and I’m deeply saddened. If some of you guys are crying now over how you’re getting treated... wow. One of the most powerful men in the world is legit telling ppl they have weight problems and to go exercise. Very cruel. 
I’m done.",1.8508,4.636007480000004,3.855,80.7825,87.53333333333332,6.7333333333333325,27.5,7.908726449838941,2.4246000000000008,311,15,54,7,10,105,62,75,0.175,0.69,0.135,-0.5397,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,1,1,1,2,6,1,1,3,0,6,3,1,1,0,9,13,4,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,3,0,1,1,1,3,3,7,12,3,8,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,3,3,30,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202643817622576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29836656001407025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232778680720166,0.0,0.3313999259388348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886897092976051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244122737825368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19756823912540472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40426124458884016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789830320718453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20636728999950427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548358234434657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24056709323050515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35504088183440224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SwissMissintheClouds,2019/08/16,"Ngl I love having a love interest because it motivates me to restrict. Just started a new thing with this guy and BOY OH BOY the idea of him touching me makes me want to never eat again! Stopped a binge last night because I knew we would be hanging out that evening. Went to the gym this morning after only 4 hours of sleep because now I have someone to look good for. 

Kinda forgot how much I am influenced by my partner ... but I also don’t mind it?? It’s almost relieving to focus on impressing someone else (restricting) rather than hating myself (bingeing). Does that even make sense?",3.64080357142857,5.864358616071431,4.2654999999999985,84.42950000000002,74.44642857142857,6.622857142857143,29.057142857142853,7.554174236665415,1.9270150000000004,463,20,83,6,10,147,89,112,0.053,0.778,0.16899999999999998,0.8951,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,1,8,7,1,0,5,0,6,4,1,5,1,24,17,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,8,4,1,4,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,2,12,6,14,12,1,14,0,0,1,2,8,2,0,2,10,57,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17611521976570205,0.0,0.0,0.14064862133720876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216386126627491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15391098155937336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799658842249066,0.14692250665496795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323299484149948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751712372824582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414569311703024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736419378911886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732032300693882,0.0,0.0,0.19854351058206135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336307403639126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769222461239295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174713752538685,0.0,0.23479827263266245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758544115977587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928969192411352,0.0,0.13564703825890911,0.16986291896247624,0.0,0.1650484718724951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376223924412142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600382603212866,0.0,0.2980397005786628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448651128260008,0.0,0.0,0.1470408883214763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684473749759501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373669929204314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303956481481102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493783960318143,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,set2be,2019/08/16,"Butterfingers, anyone? DAE ever get a complete case of the ‘drops’ when they haven’t eaten for a while? I swear to god fasting obliterates my fine motor skills",4.029885057471262,6.88813520689655,4.048965517241381,83.2509195402299,76.24137931034483,6.625287356321839,23.459770114942533,7.793537801064563,1.4967839080459768,127,4,21,2,3,39,28,29,0.044000000000000004,0.8009999999999999,0.155,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4271654077912858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6405319076065771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526068625269004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191774509776021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,0Alexandriac0,2019/08/16,"I tripped on acid and had a visceral vision. I was laying on a blanket on the floor, eyes closed, listening to a recording of Terrence McKenna with my partner, having a really nice, soft, chilled trip. 

I couldn't concentrate on the recording, though, because I kept seeing myself.

I saw myself fat. Fatter than I am now. I mean, like... undeniably large. Like no one in their right mind would say, ""No, don't worry, uh... you're not fat...!"" 

I saw it SO clearly. I saw myself standing next to my boyfriend at an event of some kind; I saw what I was wearing - my favourite purple dress, once loose upon my frame, now taut and uncomfortable. I saw myself pretending to laugh at a joke someone made. I saw myself pretending to be happy even though I knew I was far from it. I saw the shame and felt the overwhelming, unrelenting disgust with myself. I saw the awkwardness and... yeah. It was a lot. It was intense.

I've always been super scared of gaining weight, but I never knew real terror until I had that vision. It scared the shit out of me.

Guys, I'll be honest. I don't know if I have an eating disorder. I have struggled desperately with food and my body since I was 10, I have spent years swinging between heavy restricting and overeating, I have been obsessing for so long, to the point where I sometimes cannot follow a conversation because I am thinking about what I'm going to eat and what my body looks like and so on, I feel powerful when I deny myself food and even more invincible when I have no appetite, I feel like my life will only start once I am skinny, I have developed a fear of certain foods, and yet... this acid trip seemed to kick shit into overdrive. 

If i never had an eating disorder, I'm certainly heading that way now. I am not anorexic, but something is very fucking wrong. To the point where I'm erratically skipping my psych meds because skipping them = absence of appetite, and I keep doing it even though it makes me feel fucking godawful. I'm literally scared of taking my meds (risperidone, that evil fucker) because I ALWAYS overeat the next day and that is how I gained 15kg the past year. I can't bear it anymore. (For what it's worth, please dont worry - my doc took me off the risperidone. I just have a couple of months left to slooooowly wean myself off it.) 

I don't know what the point of my post is. I just want to get this off my chest because no one in real life knows except my partner. I deeply relate to 99% of the posts on here and I don't know, I just want to say I'm really sorry for what you're going through and I hope you understand and don't judge me even though I don't officially have an eating disorder. I'm sorry that any of us are experiencing any of this to any degree. 

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EDAnonymous,okbunnie,2019/08/16,I hate my pooch/fupa I RLLY can’t find a right way to get rid of the pooch guys :o(( I read it was just a diet thing but ughhh I’m sure I can work it off right??,-4.560607142857143,-3.486021274999999,-0.3814285714285717,107.975,111.75,2.2857142857142865,5.7142857142857135,3.1291,-2.8625714285714285,119,0,36,0,7,44,32,40,0.068,0.8370000000000001,0.095,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,3,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,19,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969892954129873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976775128478436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217417110414911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208110014419176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250279576718579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5549940105971057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062521273828089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158757135808469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579222665654698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365602076975924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dabdoubi3,2019/08/16,"On the verge of a breakdown in the supermarket I haven't eaten in a little iver 24 hours. Help. I want to eat but I can't. I spent about an hour in the supermarket, picked out low cal options I haven't tried before but i ended up having a full blown panic attack because I kept thinking this will turn into a binge since the items aren't part of my safe food list. I just returned everything to the shelves and got the fuck out. I'm fucking starving. Fuck me.",1.7953567251461988,3.8015174947368418,3.3077192982456154,90.14847953216378,79.3157894736842,5.485380116959064,22.13450292397661,6.42735559955562,0.3867309941520465,362,11,76,3,9,119,67,95,0.25,0.682,0.068,-0.97,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,11,0,6,6,0,1,0,13,17,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,10,1,13,12,3,16,0,1,0,3,1,12,3,1,4,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240072557591403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003113467549167,0.0,0.16755119759191273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014824256412623,0.0,0.0,0.17439891224800186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769650372771992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23809766148695885,0.0,0.0,0.5461050169261444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574824887671164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198091277525642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878224706152644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973500032674932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310249650347283,0.0,0.21322834812802904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628814087625745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616843095193347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368520704606127,0.21417551611582952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613935547505527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HauntingGuarantee,2019/08/16,"Hiding it from family Bit of a vent, also sort of looking for advice...

How do you guys stop other people noticing your ed?

I've been restricting again and losing weight again, but this time my mum actually commented on it. She always protests about me eating light/zero versions of things because she's very anti light/zero, and talks about how being too skinny is not pretty etc. I know that she just wants me to be healthy and eat enough but it doesn't really help to hear these things. A few days ago she saw my back/ribs and said I looked very thin in a very concerned way and I feel horrible for making her worry about me but I don't want to stop restricting or losing weight. She's never said I look too thin before and I don't want her to pay more attention to the amount I eat/what I eat.

I try to wear baggy clothes at home and when I do eat I try to make sure she sees me cooking/eating. I don't want to be forced to eat, especially not calorie dense food. I've struggled with body image my whole life, had an abusive grandma who always told me how fat and ugly I was (that all changed when she saw me recently and now thinks i'm beautiful and worthy of her attention because i'm skinny now??? It was validating but also fuck you?). Throughout school was told by the pretty girls how fat and ugly I was. The only person who ever told me I was beautiful was my mum and now I feel like i'm punishing the person who was always on my side.

I feel like she always tried to make sure I would never develop anything like this but I did and now I feel terrible but I don't want to stop.",3.3726834862385324,4.486165966360859,4.627113914373091,86.15608371559635,72.82262996941895,7.529510703363915,23.410932721712538,7.937092434478242,1.0682987767584096,1249,32,261,17,24,413,161,327,0.23399999999999999,0.667,0.099,-0.9929,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,3,0,2,21,12,3,1,8,0,22,16,6,7,6,57,52,28,0,6,10,2,8,3,0,1,3,3,1,4,15,14,12,5,8,0,1,0,9,7,0,0,17,17,47,5,27,31,9,26,0,2,6,1,32,7,1,2,21,167,62,2,0.0,0.09180283372422136,0.0756107062878125,0.0,0.0,0.07571396410824625,0.06868261948991324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392375534688076,0.2578830520419018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376062131697784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059578442887982676,0.0,0.09446393043594427,0.0,0.06593099663921329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458966236736393,0.08606441025882001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196508733260878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049969117387106105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756971236995488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005903715786522,0.08641228424214782,0.0,0.07008639622556949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304260371913365,0.0,0.1567077716746007,0.11070550903807368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936908619270826,0.0,0.0,0.07163034056274832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671880486054439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732721137991907,0.0,0.05193417439975219,0.0,0.07772019938564106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04258177180267693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472743079110804,0.11356055005130035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519468021256156,0.17336381943078416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515838379872518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951692254717433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821313027672638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058928124759208535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371587302462485,0.13530760546719586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15765295428343948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04963659296657303,0.0,0.07650357222193524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740518049936005,0.0,0.0,0.07841535141050293,0.06174267422958597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943338537245729,0.0,0.08100042162674764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460506760081126,0.0,0.0,0.062276644616271436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295044861127133,0.049646976665168575,0.0,0.0,0.04518004936689536,0.0,0.0,0.22211050212708466,0.0,0.15781443039160634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917909016534448,0.2285027969228869,0.061501158720679024,0.0,0.18870303480675585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650525808386321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868616094413222,0.0,0.055040590235975885,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,niceflowerkid,2019/08/16,"Relapsed while in recovery, not sure what to do now. So I've been in recovery since May. After weight restoration and having restrictive tendencies reduce remarkably, I found myself really wanting to restrict again and now I've relapsed again. 

I was doing alright, but a couple of months into recovery I started to get criticism over eating too much junk food/unhealthy food, ""we don't want you to get overweight"", and that pushed me over again. Exercise, restriction, etc. 

I have a dietician and a doctor on my treatment team (not a therapist yet), but the former is already concerned about the reasons why I was eating a lot of sweets (I'm hungry and I want sweets, there's really nothing more to that), and even congratulated me for ***eating protein bars instead of actual dessert.***

I'd have so much weight to lose, but I'm really tempted to continue with the restriction, even though I'd still have to wait until I moved out or something to do more.",4.858190476190477,7.198496342857148,5.48,76.55333333333334,71.28571428571428,8.780952380952384,30.523809523809533,9.3871,3.1760095238095243,760,33,125,18,15,245,107,175,0.109,0.8320000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.6887,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,1,1,0,2,17,5,0,0,8,1,13,11,0,1,1,29,23,15,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,10,9,5,2,3,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,4,13,4,24,18,6,23,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,3,14,95,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.13524214590724198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293558631269494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334526887357192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185095213351556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4254311523432999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456253918816198,0.18307247158490708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351629376582128,0.15195486903448005,0.0,0.0,0.14481328710391825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504480855692052,0.0,0.1178227789811794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106198234418,0.14729738312785448,0.20375662812716414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297916903134452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26634955595193394,0.14249180863805988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464163719592592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669201000030994,0.0,0.0,0.09809348065097373,0.0,0.11067675997488677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061779081492528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091164648550707,0.0,0.0,0.1361622575141053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452288316209461,0.0,0.0,0.3375263189492021,0.0,0.0,0.12505434468978585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,are_beautiful,2019/08/16,"This is gonna be a dumb ass question, but: Does decaf coffee also help you poop? I love coffee for eNerGY and also the poop assistance but like. If I drink more than one or two cups on an empty stomach (lol so all the time?) I get really restless and anxious and all the bad things with coffee and I go straight past “I have the energy and motivation to get to the gym” and into “fuck, was that coffee laced with cocaine?!”  Is decaf the solution? I don’t want to be that nerd if it’s not going to help me poop though 😬",0.470833333333335,2.6345033055555582,2.88851851851852,90.38333333333335,85.3888888888889,5.822222222222222,17.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.18174444444444404,399,9,86,6,12,137,73,108,0.182,0.579,0.239,0.8256,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,4,7,2,1,8,1,7,8,5,1,2,20,15,15,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,2,2,0,2,2,5,0,2,1,0,8,2,10,11,3,7,0,0,0,3,5,3,3,4,3,59,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725543244266189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631490142402892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19449008367285425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20384203276054688,0.0,0.0,0.2281865511495089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153436446636464,0.2433967060610629,0.0,0.26476341596324937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122613772314298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137997415896374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023194647768065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784204455839465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22236177237707627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26093928658867105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922342619248372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547509382863248,0.0,0.22885638211491666,0.0,0.1358256350635089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22754258166934496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373904541528918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovesnailssomuch,2019/08/16,"DAE have avoidant personality disorder? do you feel like it fuels your ED? so i was talking with my therapist once about my past disordered eating habits and she brought up that my ED may actually be a symptom of my AVPD. the more i think about it, the more i think she might be right. i feel like the need to be positively perceived by everyone while simultaneously not being seen at all drives me to want to be as thin as possible and is the main reason i do restrict what i eat and fall into these disordered patterns. are there any more avoidant ppl here and do you feel the same?",5.883383458646616,6.3144583157894765,6.39125313283208,78.24710526315792,66.71929824561404,10.023057644110276,32.075187969924805,9.957137785484203,2.896918796992481,464,18,94,10,7,151,78,114,0.045,0.867,0.08800000000000001,0.6046,0,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,2,6,0,14,3,0,1,1,23,23,8,0,2,1,0,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,6,2,3,7,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,3,5,16,2,13,13,6,10,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,2,4,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.16210368976236844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296348666972075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711444733596021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33995299848813515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15872942557772998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25197729180899914,0.2373443176655739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623102078047655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762211250072609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317172098848456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690641205076293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585749887398941,0.0,0.14504468464857287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18726902414099966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079326704106915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418607879121146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17265646316761246,0.0,0.13351646048496932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287161887337195,0.0,0.21287879714641053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797857557691328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cryinglikeatallchild,2019/08/16,"""I don't really mess around with skinny girls"" This guy was hitting (big eye roll) on me all day yesterday. I don't even remember the context of why he said it, but it really hurt me. I feel totally crushed. I couldn't even be mistaken for thin. I'm just not. But jeez loooouise, I felt like ed wise I've been doing so good. I hate that he set me off so much.",0.20392857142857326,2.124660740259742,2.4156980519480515,94.88640422077923,84.45454545454545,6.966883116883117,20.01461038961039,8.07648339933343,0.7442999999999995,275,8,67,6,8,93,59,77,0.162,0.652,0.18600000000000005,0.05,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,1,0,7,2,2,0,2,12,13,4,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,5,9,3,6,6,3,8,0,1,1,0,5,5,1,0,3,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435637709309362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645064383541242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614230573624725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383413828974851,0.0,0.2627008091996353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22948436150790996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709089777803339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701253131898318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928965804563799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366810821454847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20112893778634947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350552871242353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099377100391161,0.0,0.2602581390650973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468832326507415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girl_who_loves_girls,2019/08/16,Fuck this fuck me I need to kill myself I'm fucking tired of getting back into bad habits and having less and less people give a shit about me every day. I wanna fucking kill myself.,0.7281081081081098,3.243574243243245,2.2851891891891896,91.85913513513515,90.35135135135135,2.9600000000000004,15.508108108108113,3.1291,-0.9723145945945944,145,3,27,0,5,47,28,37,0.504,0.496,0.0,-0.9807,0,0,0,0,0,2,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,8,7,0,1,0,1,6,1,0,0,5,9,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,6,0,5,9,2,3,0,0,0,4,1,1,5,0,2,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202429555075214,0.16507688727432268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750450501619118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657647322193933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7311068592098953,0.10329362261205996,0.1896583404510853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374664768548032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659705819817764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706497452133642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20294314911315126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22723483800747465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittenplague,2019/08/16,currently binging i can t Fucking stop. went two Weeks with eating nothing But salad and i haven t Lost shit. now i m Just snarfing snarfing Snarfing down all of this Dark chocolate i found in the fridge. how do i stop,1.1028682170542652,3.7268830465116274,2.023604651162792,93.31897286821709,90.6279069767442,3.7968992248062015,25.77131782945737,5.46131890053228,0.6767550387596901,173,8,33,1,6,54,35,43,0.26,0.74,0.0,-0.8716,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,1,9,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,5,0,4,3,1,8,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,5,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014410773751289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323004832968986,0.0,0.27234548147850496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32158187852674514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28266889079794844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30239437073653497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4925840693053704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877734983003257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23630386735061634,0.0,0.0,0.2730896596553218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hanhansal,2019/08/16,"My BMI is higher than i thought I just did the NHS BMI calculator which takes into account your ethnicity and activity level and I'm 19.6

Apparently, to be considered underweight, I have to be less than 42.7. I am 45.3

Now I have to lower my gw.",3.3427551020408166,5.06331791836735,6.044642857142858,73.54410714285714,73.89795918367345,9.797959183673472,28.5765306122449,10.125756701596842,3.1242204081632647,194,8,38,6,4,70,36,49,0.05,0.95,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,10,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,6,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6876341916772685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7260573107106281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7anon3,2019/08/16,"My step-sister is cooking pasta(she's italian)and asked me to eat with her. I told her I wasn't hungry and her response was ""Of course you aren't, you never are"".
And this made me feel somehow bad for not eating with her but somewhat good because I refused to eat with her so many times that she's used to me doing that and, soon enough she won't even ask me anymore.

I'll take that as a win.",2.9647389558232966,3.879562602409642,3.595361445783133,93.9242871485944,73.57831325301207,5.533333333333334,24.676706827309236,3.1291,0.1258851405622492,308,9,69,0,6,97,57,83,0.057,0.8370000000000001,0.106,0.7146,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,2,1,15,14,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,1,1,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,17,2,9,9,2,3,0,0,0,0,13,0,0,2,3,50,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899641899337054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940249559437379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595822727753907,0.1284645127298805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6469156949223794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774967758900546,0.0,0.13919109416902686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655594911337077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767578394475899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994062974234287,0.0,0.2136562265271119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253487598008534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844946955676578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228835810715256,0.0,0.0,0.20137010529673985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820107970437206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unclehands,2019/08/16,"“If you’re that worried about it, do something about it” - my bf when I told him it upsets me when he calls me fat or says I’m gaining ‘chub’ as a ‘joke’ 

(disclaimer: he is a beautifully sweet boyfriend, he doesn’t have much experience with eating disordered people so doesn’t know how to tread safely, and also doesn’t know about mine so this is totally a harmless comment supposed to be motivating but to me it sounds like “you’re fat, lose weight” lmao)",4.879588014981279,5.790017651685396,5.309606741573036,83.41512172284645,69.11235955056179,8.18052434456929,29.44007490636704,8.344100000000001,1.9413131086142323,357,13,72,5,6,114,64,89,0.076,0.7559999999999999,0.168,0.7541,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,9,7,0,1,3,0,8,4,2,2,1,11,12,11,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,6,2,4,1,3,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,4,7,5,8,10,2,2,0,1,0,0,9,0,0,2,3,44,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869509955783425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792450282793221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134220885137353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798296676738737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675076507626569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005856237222175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360438564177013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30594471289233777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010330551293185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959073933925946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21747555273065255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21053175963300744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26131378518216697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330146739695916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777236334281877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deleteme_please,2019/08/16,"I've been watching This is America by Childish Gambino on repeat just to watch the thin kids dance in the background I'm sure this is what Mr. Glover wanted, right? 

Also I now realize how creepy this sounds.",3.234250000000003,5.788845925000004,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,77.25,7.0,25.0,8.07648339933343,1.6594999999999995,167,6,31,3,4,52,34,40,0.055999999999999994,0.8859999999999999,0.057999999999999996,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,5,5,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,4,4,0,7,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,2,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954760219879155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5291159268563327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.58394460169954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36544295003182137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fox_corpse,2019/08/16,"""You don't need to lose weight"" The thing that pisses me off the most is when people say ""you don't need to lose weight"" or ""but you look so healthy at this weight""... especially when the person saying it has a bmi of 15 and has never experienced feeling like a whale. I get that they're trying to be supportive, but I've been thin before, and I know how fucking amazing it feels. 

I'm sick of being average, ""curvy"" (that made me want to blow my brains out), and healthy, when being light and thin made me so damn happy. I could wear any clothes I wanted, I never worried about looking fat in photos, I had an insane amount of self control, and people flirted with me all the time. I wasn't one of those people who think they're fat while actually being underweight and perfect looking... I knew I was thin and hot as fuck, even though I had a lot of ED behaviors (more like osfed or orthorexia than anorexia). 

I'm more miserable now (at an average weight) than when I was underweight. Being thin made me happy and confident... is it so wrong to want to get back to that?",6.624240994854205,5.656443165094341,6.899005145797599,79.92695540308748,65.4622641509434,9.973241852487137,31.065180102915953,9.095868883498916,2.349994339622642,829,25,170,12,11,269,119,212,0.152,0.6759999999999999,0.172,0.6994,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,0,4,13,16,4,1,9,0,18,12,5,5,4,36,41,23,0,6,4,0,11,2,0,0,3,2,0,2,11,10,6,1,5,0,0,0,5,8,0,1,10,18,20,8,22,25,6,19,0,3,3,2,8,9,4,4,12,113,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.10584129036820733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375650246543991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339902618273858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229145053867956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210772023193246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164708485501133,0.08659646482075836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163679078537137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096812447540887,0.07748382803658341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20053899895648672,0.11333172116370298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23091532105638146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596067659598933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597613082818493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732371887661785,0.242677938781174,0.0,0.09220879244765333,0.0,0.307882353287508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16084339480988674,0.1673020386171028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349528623987593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22557747149747825,0.09470306694905653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725034512707641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314740849554722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307909467895345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205598823217936,0.06949677276019195,0.10656137506591663,0.0,0.06324388381837266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736372037393317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919175106260933,0.0,0.0,0.5283001225862934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11014636970518292,0.0,0.0,0.11858395667512014,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sensitive_Spirit,2019/08/16,"I'm genuinely concerned. Okay so two things: I have a cute little chihuahua, and I today I went to my therapist after two weeks of not seeing her. (Oh lord)

 My doggo just got her uterus removed, and has lost a significant amount of weight from eating less than normal, because of pain (I feel so bad for her, but this was honestly the best thing for her). Today, I saw her itty bitty body walking around, and her little hips moving--And I got genuinely jealous.  She looked so elegant walking around with her brand new -1 lb body, and I felt so jealous of her.  Ana/EDNOS has fucked me up. I mean seriously, what is wrong with my brain?! She lost all that weight due to her surgery and my ED is here just...just fucking idolizing it?  After she gets a bit better I'm going to try to make her go back to a healthy weight, because I want her to be healthy at least. Pt.2 of this wild ride was getting to see my therapist again and OH BOY- When she first saw me she gawked a little bit. She commented on my ""weight loss"" and congratulated me on it. I almost had a breakdown right then and there, but decided to just smile and thank her. During our session she casually asked me about calorie counting, and I--Being the dumbass I am--responded with ""Oh yeah, I do it all the time. Honestly I should go for a walk later and burn off some of the calories I ate."" As soon as those words left my mouth...I regretted everything. I tried my best to convince her that I was fine, \*TOTALLY\* not starving/restricting, and that the calorie counting thing was just a hobby and not something I do seriously which--who tf would believe that???  Either way, I'm back home,  feeling sad, and I want Halo Top but I'm too scared to eat anything in case I unleash a binge. fml.",2.883187984496125,4.813554741279074,4.043627906976745,86.49517054263569,75.71511627906978,7.028527131782948,25.71085271317829,7.908726449838941,1.4663545736434107,1357,49,274,21,30,442,188,344,0.133,0.698,0.16899999999999998,0.8988,0,0,1,0,0,0,70.0,1,0,0,8,18,26,4,1,14,2,15,14,4,1,3,47,46,25,0,6,10,0,7,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,14,19,7,0,5,1,0,9,3,15,0,3,14,12,52,11,37,29,12,40,1,5,5,2,24,14,2,2,16,180,66,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129816423903332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750289046068869,0.16232939934932247,0.08523591764358271,0.0,0.0,0.1402152367947216,0.07612695968973428,0.11115834631277087,0.0,0.0,0.10272252131592846,0.19136417767118394,0.080636500170865,0.1990780383691073,0.20254879246722665,0.0,0.10178097617379782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18658869888981827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194182681057262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220120671095684,0.0,0.08754188770145482,0.0,0.0,0.07755304480893217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16857884625444244,0.09526990209995377,0.0,0.1554498320458369,0.0,0.14584126919985285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145553015777742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906143981614317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741426222539116,0.0,0.0,0.07656367801391135,0.0,0.19905563244181693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06085973513923657,0.0,0.0,0.099315838216074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805697028450651,0.0,0.0,0.0893317228748667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701617344657278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778625867626514,0.0,0.0,0.09128165262526336,0.0,0.1453086597734325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019064031246476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839412966862467,0.0,0.21172141195049005,0.18171700405077088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05316462644288273,0.0,0.1728456679719719,0.0,0.0,0.12380309976986965,0.0,0.17812861833693594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755425024799144,0.07237013183932302,0.07313474251008233,0.444104267025898,0.0,0.08451974216496412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06476780039190377,0.09968508222640607,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liquid_nitrogenn,2019/08/16,Anorexia fucked up my GI system and now I'm reliant on an NJ feeding tube. AMA. PTSD and body image are a real bitch rn and I'd really appreciate the distraction ❤,-0.02117647058823735,2.3299086470588217,3.3737647058823548,82.98594117647062,94.88235294117644,6.249411764705883,21.50588235294117,7.554174236665415,1.4722541176470587,130,5,25,3,5,47,31,34,0.273,0.616,0.111,-0.8211,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4889500199804895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069470335535795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145566214099695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501030708197974,0.2819959266528768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oof_bro_yikes,2019/08/16,"Help with diet. I've only been eating a apple and some rice almost everyday for the past 9 months and every time I try and eat more than that I just throw up. I want to steadily start eating more, but I have no idea how to do it. I was hoping for some advice from here, please and thank you.",3.412741935483872,3.6285081774193593,4.5388709677419365,90.12830645161293,72.06451612903227,6.845161290322581,18.725806451612907,5.985473137389443,-0.24275483870967784,225,2,51,1,4,74,49,62,0.05,0.7490000000000001,0.201,0.8273,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,1,0,14,8,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,8,6,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,5,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21514254766951504,0.0,0.0,0.22046329897741776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6758508309343353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549838550061007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757186105724818,0.0,0.0,0.21867337766516795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485393221080572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757334863212384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744529281227208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101722657384764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24167489591356306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558338171571037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20269821789012654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837989714462292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947748416625145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985893542521693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MardyBum96,2019/07/05,"Safe Foods & OCD My mom is the best!

Yesterday I was talking about my ""safe foods"" and how it makes me anxious when I can't cut them in squares (I have OCD, but I take medications that help me a lot), then she said she is going to make sure to prepare meals that can be eated like that when I'm visiting. I felt so loved! 😍

Just wanted to tell you guys something that made my day amazing.",6.109146341463416,4.339269548780493,6.363536585365857,85.95189024390245,66.92682926829268,9.663414634146342,31.47560975609756,8.07648339933343,1.852721951219512,301,9,71,3,4,97,63,82,0.016,0.667,0.317,0.9833,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,6,8,1,0,2,0,7,6,0,4,1,13,17,7,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,4,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,3,14,7,5,12,2,8,0,0,1,1,12,1,0,1,6,43,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163241165776653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22555124296755374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20952367489518026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875977197988567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042950272149704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19169834439951186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828427896724455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134674924305746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19768801885946474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382330534021422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754044961571172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973797785555544,0.18019477282263446,0.1889166483919228,0.26654007065901003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011295551746363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338313691994076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991587626729825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370275754309007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18817074148647306,0.0,0.15011432996310786,0.16047364812036116,0.17450566282231172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776060721916615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,disappearc0mpletely,2019/07/05,"I'm scared I'm developing othorexia, I'm so paranoid about food Should I tell someone? 

I want to cure my acne so badly, I've been dealing with it for around 8 years. I've cut out sugar,dairy, I try to eat as little bread as possible. Now I'm thinking about cutting out fruit and caffeine (I love drinking green tea). I'm just so tired of thinking about every bite I take. 

I have history with anorexia-like behaviours, but was never officially diagnosed. I'm restricting more and more each day, I just want it all to stop",1.9561188811188792,4.363028038461542,3.6415034965035,85.79440559440562,81.11538461538461,6.858741258741258,25.8006993006993,8.00094639256281,1.7675307692307698,412,17,81,8,11,137,69,104,0.17800000000000002,0.769,0.053,-0.8866,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,10,5,2,1,0,0,4,9,0,0,2,20,16,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,8,6,2,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,8,1,15,13,4,9,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,5,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499863178271926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828954341084163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126745530985307,0.22582825689438016,0.0,0.22232850583148764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145830653268252,0.0,0.224140181233192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455688670423884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648729924063257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195430462878451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769883578830208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689428630878798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469430374022228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21930466619281688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855981559785611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831334394238706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469638826903665,0.0,0.1914570874505606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807134655984844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25176276962909105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487188097926318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583996703596754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105934749263305
EDAnonymous,8395930201,2019/07/05,"That one user who posts on a lot of weight related subreddits And who is always talking about how chubby and unhealthy a BMI above 20 is and how fat they used to be at a BMI of 23 and suggesting women go to their lowest healthy possible weight.

But it's framed as completely scientific 

That's the trigger",7.881,6.827221099999999,8.140000000000004,72.32500000000003,63.0,12.0,36.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.058666666666666,246,10,46,6,3,81,46,60,0.099,0.857,0.044000000000000004,-0.5106,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,4,0,10,5,8,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,8,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,0,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324988660052553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929653468339657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880017100095015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375519131641146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934144338500206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150027686042269,0.2676060186769474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224586286493038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413281715481674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6805137640017114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,themrschanandlerbong,2019/07/05,Fourth of July aftermath I haven’t been home to weigh myself since being out of town for the fourth and I KNOW I didn’t eat THAT much over my daily allowance but I’m so scared that I gained instead of losing or maintaining. I get home tonight and I’m so scared to step on that scale but I know that I wont be able to stop myself from doing it. I still have so much to lose before i reach my GW and I can’t stand the thought of having to lose the same weight all over again ):,0.6625961538461524,2.4425769903846195,1.9679230769230784,99.47707692307692,81.98076923076924,4.929230769230768,16.16923076923077,5.6839178017228535,-0.8769853846153843,373,6,91,2,10,119,63,104,0.248,0.708,0.044000000000000004,-0.9778,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,4,6,5,0,2,3,0,10,3,0,1,1,14,16,9,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,1,14,0,15,10,4,12,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,63,19,0,0.18304366029223115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575667310607513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18729936137884054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563275765421886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672154314818416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011920173826809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6143371053360013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691163031765563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665172723544821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514156073147272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617890355651095,0.15303269615685527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531622009676873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222897865986748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IWillNeverLoveMyBody,2019/07/05,"My girlfriend said something last night and I'm kind of annoyed but I'm not even sure I should be So basically last night she was reading off these dumb ""would you rather"" type questions one of them was ""would you rather never have to sleep again or never need to eat again"" I chose eating because hunger pains suck and one of the stipulations was that you could lose/gain weight if you wanted. She went ""Really? I'd go for never sleeping."" Then she said loudly ""OH, YOU HAVE BODY IMAGE ISSUES"" Like wow, thanks for the call out. And her brother was in the room next to the one she was in with the doors open. Idk, it just felt kinda mean. She has some body image issues too, but they're not as bad as mine, I mean, she starved herself to the point she passed out at one time so I expected a bit better from her. Most of the time she's super understanding and does her best to try to make me feel better about myself and my body, but sometimes something like this happens which makes me feel sort of crappy.",3.056852941176473,4.909688650000003,3.2172352941176463,92.95082352941178,75.0,5.7058823529411775,20.264705882352946,6.2272716619740125,-0.05219117647058802,790,17,167,5,17,241,125,200,0.128,0.71,0.162,0.905,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,5,1,4,10,15,3,0,8,0,13,10,5,2,4,43,32,15,0,10,10,1,4,2,1,3,1,3,2,0,5,9,4,0,7,1,0,3,5,5,0,4,9,7,28,10,24,18,4,25,0,0,0,0,24,9,2,7,15,110,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892768635661574,0.0651797244921575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220987709892756,0.1891307324907532,0.11673304006184908,0.35630454015803165,0.0,0.0,0.10918110173707117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536991249904075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356969262465054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188193759696339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062212728565387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812771961099582,0.0,0.10266356618600876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060767230179252424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945523174408638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22320122698555248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134462991442576,0.0,0.174314251464056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447508491848168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119620324236551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427448644433593,0.0,0.0,0.2329426151920963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928260448847528,0.24739855883059345,0.0,0.1137146192686985,0.20068138900563226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898171960426786,0.0,0.11377440680411564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10107750288936007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977906866970375,0.0,0.10695268331725537,0.0,0.06849809105676456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20341793972208425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21400193456937625,0.0,0.0,0.16463025042210291,0.10575032103506664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077436731851118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844102171382203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469619490470768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259420639067297,0.0,0.0,0.11131139277850333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06306639700629689,0.0,0.0,0.13020431992165185,0.0,0.09911938583468526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191112590426614,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,miacolette,2019/07/05,"Pregnancy fucked up my body I had a baby 6 months ago. I love him dearly. But he FUCKED up my body. I hate looking in the mirror, I’m officially the highest weight I’ve ever been, my fat just hangs. It’s disgusting. 

I’m also a single mother, which doesn’t help because I don’t have the time to even think about what I’m eating or meticulously count calories so I’ve continued to gain since he was born. I’m so sick of looking in the mirror. 

But most of all, this has fucked with my mental health. I want to be happy and healthy for my son. And I feel like me being so unhappy with how I look is affecting my time with him. I know it’s probably unhealthy, but I can’t get back into the head space I was in before I got pregnant to lose all my weight, sure it wasn’t the healthiest but at least I was somewhat skinny. Now I’m just unhealthy and fat. 

How fucked up is it that I miss my ED, and am actively wishing to get back into that headspace? Now I just binge and gain weight",0.8595859213250492,2.8706618599033824,2.790517598343687,92.61260869565218,82.57487922705316,5.875224292615597,20.48516218081436,7.07126945348624,0.3850466528640446,763,22,171,10,21,255,115,207,0.16699999999999998,0.7020000000000001,0.131,-0.8956,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,16,13,6,0,8,0,16,17,6,3,4,32,39,16,0,2,8,2,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,9,10,7,0,3,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,7,7,25,5,21,30,6,22,0,2,3,5,8,10,4,3,12,110,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153638304700532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062230843585526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935035115623124,0.0,0.0767018294255397,0.0,0.1070679154411413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795267012421425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875051698511975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310630956080117,0.11381603080743508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362096472786627,0.08988949572094936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652932087989141,0.13147687101600905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063384823930352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339431871783558,0.0,0.12422626305021944,0.12913288063811282,0.1337462259312536,0.0,0.0,0.08433793020855057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691501990733048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061471801277714365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31698424991090096,0.14076613205880678,0.0,0.0,0.11356208947033206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268021334202464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043241576330264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566076803566493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408384512297306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858869292184808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062366065209857,0.0,0.0,0.146739286582065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07421491979829374,0.0,0.0,0.4596633208368613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469268615095127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,butionlyhaveone,2019/07/05,My mom found my bulimia recovery guide book when she helped me move into my apartment I’ve never told her about any of it. So that was fun.,1.2688505747126442,3.441326,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,82.10344827586206,6.625287356321839,20.011494252873558,7.793537801064563,0.7112666666666658,110,3,24,2,3,36,27,29,0.0,0.883,0.11699999999999999,0.552,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,6,1,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,15,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748170805885895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430993376139121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27087471696067444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733032545220132,0.0,0.4295181412147126,0.0,0.0,0.31168409762119154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3861562583342964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cluelessnumber7,2019/07/05,"Whyyy can’t I stick to my safe foods?! If I did I could essentially binge all day and still lose. 



Brb. On the way to McDonald’s. 🙃",-1.726034482758621,0.19078665517241689,1.0719827586206918,100.29004310344831,96.24137931034485,5.658620689655173,14.14655172413793,7.1686216300943375,-0.47831724137931,99,2,27,2,4,34,26,29,0.1,0.7809999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.126,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,3,1,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558218084244244,0.0,0.0,0.28741267002104165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5388916633133083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4985775298134907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35590321346220033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537427347447876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paintskiesforyou,2019/07/05,My stomach is a little bitch I cannot sleep because I am so GODDAMN hungry. Like body can you stop demanding food why the FUCK would you do that to me bruh,1.6254545454545486,3.4252515454545467,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,79.0,5.612121212121212,23.12121212121212,6.42735559955562,0.4472303030303033,123,4,27,1,3,40,30,33,0.39399999999999996,0.541,0.065,-0.9323,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,0,6,5,3,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130765987743213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3882606139472956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226656693941904,0.0,0.0,0.3231444905101921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707677956951702,0.35033133343298034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349792858933103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922314466995923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31540586604394183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248303489128382,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,25PaperCranes,2019/07/05,"I told my mom about my bulimia I already knew that she was catching on but I told her ALL of it. Okay fine not all of it because I didn’t want her to keep me from doing dangerous things, but most of it. I think she’s concerned for my mental health now that she knows it comes from a lack of self worth and a perfectionist mentality that includes very strict rules and self punishment. 


She even offered to start going to church with me even though she’s never been religious. 


I almost feel bad for saying this, but I don’t want to recover or get help yet. I want to keep using my ED to cope as I go through junior year in high school because I know I’m going to be really stressed out then and it gives me a reason to push people away. I guess I’ll cut out the binges and restrict 24/7 instead so she can’t say I’m “losing control” of my stress. They weren’t that satisfying anyway.",4.8016244411326365,4.783437617486341,5.535340288127177,85.00810730253356,69.0,8.621758569299553,27.565325384997514,8.296473431620573,1.5775289617486339,696,20,151,9,11,227,116,183,0.165,0.723,0.11199999999999999,-0.9368,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,10,9,3,2,4,1,8,1,0,3,3,34,31,12,0,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,11,8,0,4,6,0,1,6,6,7,0,0,7,3,28,2,26,23,4,18,1,1,0,0,19,6,0,4,6,100,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503236755090084,0.0,0.1488098561399228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669561203298788,0.0,0.11259376009404913,0.16440609513634766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161609660298903,0.0,0.0,0.15124526168386282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813374124730266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818399546695167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07045333574954428,0.12935999725448308,0.2299143584265513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485520068237366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333878936960182,0.0,0.0,0.09038682572056557,0.14247597675602405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397209914218457,0.0,0.0,0.1482195964905844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508621780768759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27179330358500364,0.0,0.0,0.15793418913168095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400430327223348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348771420015034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638808895465365,0.13864781935835802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144755845149329,0.0,0.13647496631412426,0.0,0.0,0.2813550267506469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954472212509771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30893945863001515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958806377526073,0.08640616086137284,0.13248901999128238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577090901254917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164667338034912,0.0,0.11126501963238272,0.2386133144987012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683870326250957
EDAnonymous,vodkabipolar,2019/07/05,"fuck my life. fuck my life. i went from 132 to 136 from staying at my boyfriend's for two weeks. been trying to fix it for two weeks. go to a party last night. wake up and weigh me. 138. how is that possible? please, someone, reassure me this isn't permanent pounds. i drank four alcoholic drinks yesterday and had a hotdog, hamburger, potato salad and pasta salad. i had a few chips too. please tell me it""s just bloating or something in just freaking out!? like what if the scale was wrong and i've actually been 138 this whole time. i went from 115 to 160 over one summer about four years ago and thinking about it happening again is scaring the fuck out of me",2.016626373626373,4.487047915384618,2.7360439560439573,91.98538461538462,81.38461538461539,6.175824175824177,21.59340659340659,7.447530270364453,0.7731868131868134,519,16,107,8,14,162,89,130,0.141,0.772,0.086,-0.8674,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,7,8,3,1,5,0,8,13,1,1,0,13,17,8,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,7,7,0,1,1,0,3,1,6,0,5,8,0,11,2,18,9,2,20,0,0,0,3,2,6,3,2,11,67,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.15226337916392535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13831173185390472,0.16674928273457054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285060786070215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327433867591661,0.0,0.0,0.08867579808141926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797736353596365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718578187572188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204180850657426,0.07622868038778514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146424168730979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573038741848996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425495351836733,0.0,0.17590108201879284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621387215811186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220423949085078,0.12011999560832608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630788227657098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637764075877165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999781221925922,0.0,0.0,0.09098271032161097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593455006573718,0.0,0.30483849067480584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503167063306325,0.0,0.0,0.2892838991773499,0.0,0.174202617036254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705949908128292,0.0,0.10047860475776144
EDAnonymous,Rasmu_27,2019/07/05,"Anyone else get a ""high"" feeling after purging? This is probably not good and is probably an electrolyte thing but I just started purging recently and I always get this really good feeling afterwards like I'm slightly high and it feels nice to just lie down and relax afterwards. Is this normal?",4.226100628930819,7.364492396226421,4.998396226415097,74.95973270440253,77.86792452830191,8.061635220125785,31.474842767295605,8.841846274778883,3.569669182389937,239,12,35,6,6,77,36,53,0.079,0.6890000000000001,0.23199999999999998,0.8537,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,12,10,5,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,3,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830541681680068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983568528757016,0.21956416078115235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901076423767673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250525111165306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239140680555101,0.0,0.0,0.3594704944525841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4528156859603343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469066527387108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20995748955774954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620790594066072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727886851335422,0.0,0.2115843011007941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167468912242993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236393206736747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TwitchyWitchyGurl,2019/07/05,"Relapsing and ready to Snap I want to say I've been recovered from my disorder eating for maybe 8 months, maybe a bit more?? Maybe a bit less?? (No clue as keeping track of all that triggers me). My story may be triggering to some so forewarning.

But, I think I've finally come full circle, and I feel like I'm about to relapse *hard*. I have never been diagnosed, nor have I ever received any kind of treatments for recovery. 

I've also never really talked to anyone in depth about it, basically I've been called *anorexic* my whole life, because I was naturally thin, so I wanted to not be that, and I wanted to jump on the thicc trend train to feel *beautiful* and not look *anorexic*. I learned that I do not carry weight like I want, it all goes to my thighs and ass, yes whooo, and it slightly goes to my stomach. So not whoo, and I realized I didn't like myself either way.

**Cue major body dysmorphia**

Looking in mirrors and at photos of myself has always been surreal, no matter my weight. I can never look at it and ""that's me"", it's always ""who is that person? That can't be me.""

And one day, a comment from a very close loved one, who I put above all others said ""you should exercise to tone up"". The straw that broke the camel's back. Idk why, but it was just the end, it absolutely crushed me to hear it from that person. And although I have never been overweight, I've always had an lower end of normal bmi, but I just couldn't get away from the thought ""I'm a whale, and need to exercise, because someone I love said I'm fat"". 

So I spiraled into a controlled diet, and shed the 10 pounds I hated, I continued that diet only to plateau and stay there. I was ok with maintaining, but I began to feel like I could be a *tad* more strict and cut out a part of my diet. I lost some weight, my loved one thought I looked more attractive and was more receptive, so I was thrilled and it made me want more. I realized I liked the feeling of hunger and feeling like I beat the day with so few calories. Then my whole diet changed, every calorie was counted, only water to drink, one measly salad with a few leaves a day. I also began  to exercise excessively. How to lose ""1000 calorie"" workout routines done in secret in my room.

The comments and praise are what kept me going. ""Wow, you look like one of those Korean girls (kpop)"". Comments like that had me over the moon, riding a high for days for each one.

Then, I started to get hungry again and was plateauing. I had heard of purging, and thought ""I'd never do that"". Welp, I was wrong. I would eat absurd amounts of food, but I didn't want to lose progress, so I started the seemingly neverending bp sessions. I became very underweight, but was still receiving praise, and I thought ""shouldn't I look sick at this weight?? Do I still look too healthy??"".

Then it became ""look as sick as possible"". Which I got close to, people just always thought I was *petite*. So 2 or 3 years of disordered eating and thoughts.

Before it became life threatening, I somehow recovered on my own. No one ever knew I was sick. I'm a normal weight now, I get thicc and sticc comments. So it's feeling like it did in the beginning. I weigh enough to be called thicc, I weigh enough to still be called sticc.

I'd rather be neither. But being thin enough to disappear sounds good too. I'm ready to snap.

(Sorry for my life story, first time here, won't be the last. Also sorry for typos or being incoherent)",2.2376866432536535,4.39264314138439,3.4295081001472774,89.08046017899628,78.55817378497791,6.358137532570523,23.259114081794486,7.439217596111235,0.9872670261697072,2659,87,540,37,65,860,298,679,0.075,0.779,0.145,0.993,2,0,1,0,0,0,134.0,0,2,0,9,32,27,2,0,26,2,51,38,5,5,10,106,109,54,0,15,18,0,14,9,0,5,12,6,1,3,31,33,21,3,19,5,0,8,20,7,0,8,39,28,71,20,68,53,28,67,2,4,8,4,28,23,1,7,43,359,102,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258123777139594,0.17454216026462624,0.0,0.0,0.035662027338903314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03666832542403019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927052801272913,0.040324286704895566,0.0,0.06393571952412783,0.0,0.04462386531681919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450510057757556,0.05825069918140529,0.0,0.0,0.16064594517049294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055476167572996365,0.04517372021748632,0.0,0.0,0.05881761635633476,0.04187028116385133,0.0,0.0,0.1352817507967923,0.0,0.0,0.053227032112506484,0.0,0.0,0.120205035118799,0.0,0.0,0.05366587540859976,0.0,0.051372718339626415,0.0,0.16098228042666696,0.0,0.0,0.09289523063283957,0.16255830521157266,0.0,0.0,0.09487270222306643,0.04418423673766931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909602888849209,0.1498569103142214,0.0,0.05744711449727654,0.0,0.04460672442170308,0.06341248604096217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219557876402964,0.0,0.02980372052252438,0.043985453283797465,0.041942268807993836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04697729535224317,0.05177513738195605,0.0,0.0,0.059105396820183835,0.0,0.0,0.05540733803843858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04661242656144225,0.0,0.054609766182604005,0.0,0.04274683261358805,0.0,0.055527990626049344,0.0,0.0,0.11112297516698463,0.2305824702691889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523013075030368,0.11733727872221325,0.05724610660223416,0.0,0.1419915396150534,0.04962142786551715,0.0,0.0,0.15805364617957016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041858315593415386,0.0,0.0,0.038884717626624966,0.2022306398616522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027630972894098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24875008625531936,0.07976826793677352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056789048513803474,0.0,0.036356342318668494,0.09157981329707836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911992676157524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05271820530787144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0335953762605303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976777626462638,0.04170359622296165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04774078414119963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044433524038435535,0.0,0.0,0.1174079613748448,0.07423674605492993,0.0558956756105293,0.12563958078425894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04215050193988802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033602404225997806,0.0,0.24979622270942836,0.03057906812766841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653948118119187,0.1855881795362782,0.04162563230460288,0.0,0.31929817685644635,0.0,0.0,0.04732030899603496,0.11709815360610198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0372529464265312,0.0573365623849235,0.0,0.03377061520149987
EDAnonymous,afrolocke,2019/07/05,"Smoking at the bus station So a teenager called me out and told me not to smoke while pregnant.


*I'm not even pregnant.* 🤐",-1.4486666666666683,-0.5583173999999964,0.19500000000000028,101.08583333333335,123.0,1.666666666666667,24.16666666666667,3.1291,-0.20033333333333306,95,5,20,0,6,30,22,25,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6602289947964068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42705903646656057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.617833516250437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pennybeagle,2019/07/05,"7 years recovered this month (diabulimia/bulimia) I don’t want to talk about my ED with anyone in person anymore so I am sharing here. July 2012 was when I ended my relapse and decided I wanted to be healthy and bulimia/diabulimia free so I could be fully-functional and change my relationship with my body. I had struggled with disordered eating since I was 12/13, beginning in 2005. I’ve had a really rough few years but I realized today that I’ve never intentionally restricted my insulin or binged/purged as a result and I am just really proud I haven’t, even if other things in my life aren’t going so great.

I acknowledge that I will always have thoughts and tendencies related to formerly disordered eating. I am flawed. But I am in control over my body and how I choose to treat it.

If there’s anyone out there who doubts your ability to recover, and is actively trying, I would like to share some words of advice.

Mark the little victories, like getting rid of your scale and not weighing yourself compulsively. Like going grocery shopping for meal planning instead of binging. Like when you can stare at food or insulin and not think “this will make me fat”. When you make it through a full day with energy and healthy meals. You can do it. I believe in you!",4.508305439330542,6.644984548117157,5.659621338912134,75.77018514644355,71.71966527196652,9.131464435146444,29.94163179916318,9.642632912329526,3.1261780753138058,1013,43,178,26,20,336,145,239,0.018000000000000002,0.765,0.217,0.9936,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,6,0,3,14,12,0,2,4,0,22,12,3,6,1,45,32,24,0,6,9,0,1,4,0,3,4,0,0,1,10,15,7,2,6,1,2,2,6,2,0,0,5,2,31,11,25,21,3,24,0,0,1,0,12,10,0,6,16,127,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841681119346366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786250444318758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404767793843431,0.19808718588845806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595888186982179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146780482459094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984482917250674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887030522885465,0.11309442239582695,0.0,0.0,0.09135125823007567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32468181817626496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28988258520915217,0.0,0.0,0.12545810727464626,0.0,0.0,0.09355718496051332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128135474947914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400524704249503,0.0,0.16100367439861296,0.0,0.0,0.15616744822880446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005018947477233,0.27680828145966346,0.1419685338712233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18910231393728716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306210259191178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924768962687477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368159229000593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148670454285856,0.0,0.0,0.15207696914547889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717271048412005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14808127138702226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385131740413035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410465411199292,0.09076233527495997,0.0,0.11245271004760707,0.0,0.0,0.13426576575118634,0.0,0.0,0.09616971132691346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16709535088473235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062269326933987,0.0,0.0,0.18243336868073015
EDAnonymous,snflwrr,2019/07/05,Restricting induced acne? I've been heavily restricting for the past 2 weeks and noticed that my face and chest have been breaking out more than ever before... has this happened to anyone else??? I tried to Google and search reddit for any other discussions on this but couldn't really find anything. I've restricted in the past and not experienced this at all but nothing else in my life has changed other than eating less. :(,7.189740259740257,8.393645896103896,6.660155844155844,74.74166233766236,64.06493506493507,9.796363636363637,32.28311688311688,9.888512548439397,3.2705293506493507,342,13,56,7,5,106,56,77,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.8852,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,4,2,1,2,16,7,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,11,4,3,10,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737800192717144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618188370057662,0.2371238672387248,0.1904443463181607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692696366050674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448186224592693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23680715436678404,0.38665440245238136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20933857982058388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21151969014602365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046497494359275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346342879675949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220600332269124,0.263480681104288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44184569048358907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482577852242873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15712344816553986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856364330980939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DramaticBat,2019/07/05,"I just dont want to eat anymore Ive been going through stuff with my family and bf. It's sick but I feel kind of relieved because now I have my ED to save me. Ive been gaining so much weight ever since recovery and I realized now that theres no point in it anymore.   


Binging, pinging and restricting seem more comforting for me.",1.4359663865546215,3.6352298235294103,3.2956302521008425,88.73676470588238,81.64705882352942,6.8268907563025225,27.36134453781513,7.957251820313856,1.8640815126050423,260,12,54,5,7,87,53,68,0.125,0.6759999999999999,0.198,0.8171,0,0,0,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,13,10,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,10,4,7,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930293342576344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15152597707655802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29132221224105903,0.0,0.0,0.25434918608064183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22484581403386625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343296927341518,0.0,0.12568447082871306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126807069052927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588474248927076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827275655669192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23497901387434866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262888106128653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056196892338029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845532030964685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466130380503075,0.0,0.0,0.3026913192628008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ketogurl33,2019/07/05,Freaking out Anyone else on family vacation and freaking out knowing they’ve gained weight because your family is watching your every move with eating so you have to eat all the time? 😩,5.2931372549019615,7.874946352941179,5.488823529411764,75.89637254901962,70.76470588235293,8.062745098039215,28.98039215686275,8.841846274778883,2.804050980392158,152,6,23,3,3,48,30,34,0.151,0.78,0.07,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,3,1,5,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480385701236154,0.2708053405045915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111408732584453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408872824063611,0.2207877223263685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22268312702705134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983147484887487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452517012376015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809077831751143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411474804173875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218447198650445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlex-xbones,2019/07/05,"Crush liked me thinner Just had my heart destroyed. I've gained a lot of weight since high school and just found out he liked me back then. Now he said I'm just too big for his tastes. 

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Thanks me. I ruined it myself with no one else to blame but my stupid eating habits. I hate myself right now.",1.2308294930875618,3.6194101935483904,0.9965437788018434,103.6933870967742,84.16129032258064,3.542857142857143,13.695852534562215,3.1291,-1.6673115207373268,240,3,55,0,7,69,50,62,0.256,0.639,0.105,-0.8968,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,3,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,9,6,3,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,3,10,3,5,3,1,8,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,1,6,31,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24876544033856746,0.2789823306905997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654392432431698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349323931521322,0.19179666326771888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517384129259672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22667694044372155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27207047367784193,0.0,0.2425790929733269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243364566406336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19519295153693847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555791098051477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960723661615436,0.21839685437919024,0.0,0.0,0.2323617938674413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992286319162546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113796798212112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27958413044907365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789823306905997,0.0
EDAnonymous,Blacknbruisey,2019/07/05,"Grieving the loss of my dog.. I've had minimal appetite since Tuesday. My best friend is gone forever 😞 Last week I was worried about over eating at my work bbq and now I wound up barely eating at all. When they asked why I hadnt ate, I let them know my dog had died and I couldnt eat. It's been 2 days but it feels like forever. I'm not having any ed thoughts; no nothing. I just feel satiated. I hit 116 today....I havent seen that number in years and yet none of it matters. I wanted to break my plateau but not like this. I used to be an emotional eater but I guess not anymore. I just wish I had my baby back. 11.5 years wasnt enough time. Nothing matters more than wanting to hold my dog one last time. I told her Sunday it was Ok to go and that I loved her more than life itself. By Tuesday she was gone. I guess she understood 😔",-0.22262037776004107,1.8823868603351959,1.7756264964086201,97.51405959031658,88.21787709497204,4.750305932428837,19.13833466347433,6.1826913282559595,-0.2012715615855276,644,19,152,6,21,213,113,179,0.09699999999999999,0.782,0.121,0.8522,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,3,7,8,0,0,2,1,15,7,0,1,1,28,36,8,2,4,8,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,8,4,4,1,5,0,0,3,9,2,0,1,16,3,28,6,15,16,6,24,0,2,1,1,10,5,0,2,17,92,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09855733408055298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437315639660095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548993669893425,0.0,0.0,0.11144218354627652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15209503831196447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346782630706432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504144038964757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448985539235526,0.0,0.1630266837690056,0.0,0.14975137786430132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465618721097141,0.10353798336926223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197251783434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823670290100843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193133531797009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796497088364953,0.2362745013201729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14820069050415222,0.1023683079248283,0.14161090319449318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080493595668966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781283865938436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820828316368996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988755014051865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505818939041115,0.16901963563035546,0.0,0.13737664390576695,0.1384867755615397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517294144941174,0.0,0.0,0.17096687594468385,0.0,0.11625406175151265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077673510248158,0.0,0.1666622869802084,0.0,0.0,0.10551072780264983,0.14718339663517102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18666026880020767
EDAnonymous,kathysocold,2019/07/05,freaking out bc i’ve purged three times in the past two days i had ice cream every time and it was just so easy to throw up so i did. i’m terrified i haven’t thrown it all up every time or so on. do you personally gain when you purge?,-1.4703234501347708,0.4826284905660394,0.9439892183288447,101.7801886792453,94.28301886792453,4.538005390835579,13.231805929919135,6.1826913282559595,-1.106226954177897,182,3,48,2,7,61,42,53,0.12300000000000001,0.752,0.125,0.02,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,5,6,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,3,1,5,0,6,3,1,12,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,1,6,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21565025817902952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5634665136310567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192077211831306,0.0,0.2919715374051849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5849466522512381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266449452634688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Arakance,2019/03/05,"Any baristas who can share their coffee shop drink/food calorie knowledge? It could be nice if we could compile some info that makes it easier to estimate the cal counts of drinks are, especially since I like studying at hipster little coffee shops that have no cal counts for any of their stuff.

I'm thinking stuff like:

- Types of non-dairy milks you have and how many cals they are
(e.g. Starbucks Almond milk is 60 cals per cup, but the brand at my university's coffee shop is 70 cals per cup)

- How many cals in syrups/flavour shots, and how much syrup is typically added to different drink sizes

- What kind of snacks tend to be lower or higher cal

- Are there any drinks that kind of masquerade as low cal but aren't?
(e.g. I genuinely can't figure out if the Lavender Earl Grey latte at a local coffee shop has flavour syrup, or how much milk goes into it. Like is the tea bag steeped in water first, then milk added? Or is the tea bag steeped straight into hot milk? The line is usually too long/ I'm always too nervous to ask.)",6.089626865671643,6.332484094527366,5.501703980099503,85.4516604477612,66.26368159203979,8.491044776119404,28.192786069651746,8.07648339933343,1.5755502487562187,817,23,166,9,12,248,121,201,0.047,0.8690000000000001,0.083,0.6529,2,0,4,0,0,0,29.0,1,1,3,1,7,9,0,1,7,0,19,12,0,5,0,25,25,15,0,4,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,6,12,0,4,7,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,3,8,7,19,21,3,16,0,1,1,0,8,12,0,6,7,85,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183243247206269,0.0,0.0,0.29010883994881703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294065066174302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22707511982499765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857191518789273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5572193856093753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095783705655892,0.17195248593869225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961651762261364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20841967385339888,0.1425248087273347,0.0,0.125845219564966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949216364671894,0.28834313506277204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907119968425905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763182794407677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255769284771101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111796904547713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566165632858052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychedelicsnack,2019/03/05,"Boyfriend wants to take me to an all you can eat place on Friday I am really scared about it because I have been deep in my disorder recently, but whenever I’ve been to this place in the past I’ve pigged out but I cannot do that this time because it’ll push me over the edge.
I’m planning on my first proper fast, generally I’ll just miss a meal or two a day but I want to miss all meals until Friday. I’m thinking just water and then if I get super weak I’ll just have apples or other water based fruits. Am I allowed to ask for tips? I need help staying motivated, and also excuses to skip breakfast. 
It’s in case I fail on Friday, so I can comfort myself with the knowledge I’ve fasted so I can eat a bit more than usual. ",2.840332167832166,3.5592930448717968,4.6909090909090905,86.69045454545454,73.6794871794872,7.4675990675990676,24.43822843822844,7.686295010490155,1.0535717948717953,569,16,126,7,11,195,96,156,0.105,0.78,0.115,0.5677,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,5,8,7,0,1,7,0,12,9,0,2,2,23,23,13,0,4,9,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,8,0,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,2,2,1,16,2,19,20,4,23,0,3,0,0,4,11,0,3,10,80,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749867358948744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841191266330702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401144752927361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21501542759013467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701470653269226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22571865265552496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4030524833773613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752326099971304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289682832072043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200961444446688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603391717989164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880084696925599,0.0,0.0,0.4115359918946065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616947463952574,0.0,0.19446168518836202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19717859118106346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20991960237954824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14807984880242256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619586859040588,0.0,0.0,0.11484154636978874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923888810213412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690961120557936,0.0,0.23232922421438595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elliegruff,2019/03/05,"I gained 3 pounds. I let myself binge last night because I got too drunk. It was all bread :////// 

Feeling pretty upset with myself. I was almost 10 pounds down and now I’m only 6 again. ",-0.6523423423423438,1.4904286756756768,1.1663513513513522,97.68394144144148,100.08108108108108,2.466666666666667,11.572072072072071,3.1291,-1.705825225225225,139,2,29,0,6,45,30,37,0.131,0.679,0.191,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,6,0,2,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935569180053957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395838763575437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872482131480146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143373193902079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203671417416556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018938256618492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688265443387273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989125794604885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998468593476272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunnyalert,2019/03/05,"PSA. If your friend is recovering: Please don’t talk about their appearance with regards to weight or body. Don’t say they look healthier, or that their body is filling out. Just don’t. All of these can be triggering, unfortunately, because ED brains are wired to interpret all of this in the worst ways. 

Positive affirmations to people in recovery can include:

You look so much happier!

You have a spring in your step!

You’re taking care of yourself!

Your eyes have such a sparkle today!


If you guys can think of others I’d love that. I’m trying to figure out how to ask the people who support me to stop inadvertently setting off my ED spirals. :( 



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EDAnonymous,probwatchingcritrole,2019/03/05,"Just ed things - airport edition So I was going through security at the airport and they told me to open my small-ass suitcase because ""there was something electronic there"". And guess what the culprit was. My fucking food scale. The security guard just gave me the longest eyeroll ever and waved me along and then I proceeded to die of embarrassment. I'm",3.544218749999999,6.6844974843750045,3.939375000000002,81.06812500000002,81.96875,6.325,33.0,7.645422480735847,2.8154125,285,16,47,5,8,89,46,64,0.10099999999999999,0.828,0.071,-0.4588,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,6,4,1,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,11,9,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,0,8,2,6,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,3,34,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21462033861309326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36539602818591616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184700450359317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257278819322088,0.0,0.0,0.3254856721629395,0.0,0.0,0.20009111145015893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878479320334666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710428769593939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339015541630849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364206913407624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emmmily20,2019/03/05,"Tired of this I’ve been bulimic for nearly 5 years, and it’s worse than it has ever been right now. I’ve never wanted to accept help before and I’d never reach out. But I’ve been trying to recover and it has only gotten worse. So today, despite how afraid I am, I’m going to talk to my doctor about it for the first time. I’m really hoping that this will make a difference because I’m tired of struggling with this. I don’t know how this is going to go at all, so it’s safe to say I am very nervous.",1.3802020202020202,2.6251630000000037,3.873030303030305,89.0639898989899,78.0909090909091,6.343434343434343,18.585858585858585,6.937597516519254,0.11128282828282776,390,7,87,4,9,137,70,110,0.18,0.741,0.079,-0.8584,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,3,2,0,10,3,0,3,4,18,21,8,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,4,1,4,3,16,16,1,15,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,8,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336087769660212,0.0,0.15824020050702922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429099885810014,0.0,0.19034026986329472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682135256082722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581794173664208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170599416605551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464659400121984,0.0,0.0,0.18470250039153285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220000381417807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413126356439798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868511436485637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143269103646994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913219614284955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881076802467542,0.0,0.14788466622810326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944081481053643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494694337006671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843609887860944,0.4274725612923256,0.17627049409520654,0.0,0.0,0.12625617883863768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534383536327664,0.1096853687783903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790228938491375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975360903388416
EDAnonymous,samtheonionman,2019/03/05,"Do you ever feel like the universe wants you to get fat? Hey everyone, first time caller, long time listener here.

The past few weeks I have been day dreaming about a blizzard from dairy queen. I wanted a cookie dough one and thought ""mm wouldn't it be bomb with peanut butter"". Today I go on their website to look at their calorie charts (of course) and in their ""new"" blizzard flavour section [this](https://www.dairyqueen.com/ca-en/Menu/Treats/Blizzard-Treats/Peanut-Butter-Cookie-Dough/#open_nutrition) bad boy appears before my eyes. 1020 CALORIES FOR THE MEDIUM!! What kind of disgusting binge eating pig would eat that? Me of course, i'm going tonight. So yeah, the universe knew what I wanted and it came into fatty fruition. ",6.112569792412312,8.813467314960633,4.150522548317824,85.86911954187546,68.76377952755905,6.192984967788117,27.29348604151754,6.980632752743323,1.3879196850393694,587,20,96,5,11,164,98,127,0.06,0.868,0.07200000000000001,-0.3645,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,2,3,2,4,4,1,0,6,2,6,4,2,0,1,16,20,4,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,5,6,3,0,3,1,0,4,1,2,0,2,4,6,11,2,13,13,2,20,0,0,2,0,9,5,0,1,12,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16902619259618795,0.0,0.0,0.17225872548957205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315336603664643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055492732870694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142865744719278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311558907624928,0.0,0.1934369465277408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102358080413585,0.14462082225093165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219255756069615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057648229129152,0.0,0.2300988888168957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21080667609386364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989003484192094,0.0,0.0,0.17915011330391362,0.16999584691935402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955146308141989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717635017413002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932487407792878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607121310929899,0.23608494086887524,0.0,0.1918863257058917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582072400707033,0.0,0.16238251367667272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380522679076135,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mildno,2019/03/05,"""I completely forgot to eat"" Get out of here with that shit. How the hell does anybody ""forget"" to eat. It infuriates me way more than it perhaps should. I get annoyed when people even say ""I did not have time"", so the ""forgot"" excuse is even more frustrating.

I think about food single second. When I'm awake and when I'm asleep. Every single thing I do is literally dictated by food.

Either these people are using forgot interchangeably with 'I did not have time to eat at my normal set time' or they genuinely have a super power which I need to somehow gain.",4.537686915887849,6.05598570093458,5.506623831775702,79.40516939252338,70.49532710280374,7.966822429906544,23.655373831775687,8.472884824447931,1.5156925233644865,438,11,80,7,8,144,73,107,0.149,0.777,0.075,-0.8667,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,3,10,5,4,0,3,0,10,7,2,2,0,19,20,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,4,5,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,1,10,1,12,14,5,10,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,6,60,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18803892901357994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569452741636264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.550541516016807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23691023915890225,0.0,0.15110518134747733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43372731591150737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873998323405192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298141469551056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571918854158095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486693040239741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426216663541487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409419263615406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914828412722955,0.11491648966183933,0.0,0.0,0.3137310481768845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489576296011867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235503841414132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinnekjottt,2019/03/05,"Crying over pancakes It’s Pancake Tuesday in Ireland and the UK (I don’t know if this is a thing anywhere else) and I told myself I could make a batch and just have one as a treat. 

Well, here I am, having just binged 1,156 calories of pancakes. I feel sick physically and mentally, and I feel stupid and weak for doing this, and I’m not eating again for a while. I wish I could purge them up, but I’ve never been able to before and that’s a slippery slope I know I shouldn’t start down.  I’m lying on the sofa sobbing over pancakes - I guess that’s my life now. Anyone else struggling on pancake day? ",1.551102150537634,3.575024701612904,2.8093548387096803,93.3256989247312,80.20967741935483,4.778494623655916,21.623655913978496,5.46131890053228,-0.007911827956988304,469,14,100,2,12,151,82,124,0.172,0.782,0.045,-0.9413,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,1,1,7,0,10,4,0,1,1,24,21,12,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,6,8,1,0,4,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,2,2,14,2,12,16,0,14,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,2,7,69,20,0,0.20937561455592896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464002979230252,0.2145300599779503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816322674440935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343387823481873,0.0,0.2299892810682465,0.13502995017615166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21424352437019206,0.3498129189388552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117332035055838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23065084464886154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23013472422914524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14788818853340327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975984854437462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21100137380227107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614833815427389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187833510659245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481971376330605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218884852653597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909985480531525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20006737230303245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18825382248623154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407716237376555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pillbus,2019/03/05,"Ready to eat food I can keep in my room? Do y'all have suggestions for food that I can keep in my bedroom? Stuff that doesn't need to be cooked. I'm trying to completely avoid the kitchen. 

(A family member is gonna be staying at my house, I don't wanna run into them.)",1.2610344827586208,2.7349306206896564,3.1753793103448267,92.95755172413791,79.0,6.708965517241379,20.220689655172414,7.554174236665415,0.4208993103448279,208,5,49,3,5,70,43,58,0.047,0.9,0.054000000000000006,0.0943,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,9,5,0,0,0,6,14,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,5,3,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,9,11,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555549357688759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494050965968045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22977474609779636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5894585602057295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812412353392812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332915418401115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807288366788728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597925623498327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790220019917972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548228397970274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loploh,2019/03/05,"just found out my “maintenance” is 2400 calories and i honestly have to laugh it’s pretty high but i’m pretty tall, so 

anyway, im killing myself whenever i go over 1500 when i could eat up to 2400 and still maintain my weight .... and yet i still can’t accept it lmao in my head all i’m thinking is “if you eat that many calories you will gain” ED brain why ",1.3227428571428597,3.153966226666668,2.748571428571428,94.44000000000004,80.06666666666666,5.885714285714287,21.38095238095238,6.868970318607317,0.3270952380952377,277,8,63,3,7,90,55,75,0.073,0.659,0.26899999999999996,0.9482,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,2,0,1,7,4,1,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,1,12,11,7,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,10,3,6,8,1,11,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,4,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349047917111017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800788374667713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306362652045565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307210353081466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958983492782813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21595758500732734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223264174283032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272959799451836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328049773828833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213338739850114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281573886957021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33609264129815897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483235999103588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562419429088421,0.0,0.0,0.18987656045468512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starruby-xx,2019/03/05,"I want to tell my partner so bad But my ED won't let me. I get close to confessing that I've been hiding this from him this whole time...

BUT.

A small voice pipes up in my head. ""but you're not at your ugw yet. If you tell him, he won't let you lose weight any more. He's proud of your progress. If you tell him he'll make you gain weight, that's what ED recovery is right???""

So I just keep quiet. It's killing me hiding this from him but if he knows then he'll make me eat more and that'll kill me more so I can't.

Anyway that's today's headache how y'alls doin",-1.4398326771653522,0.4724176692913424,0.2347588582677176,107.51702017716535,92.77952755905513,3.8049212598425197,12.661909448818893,5.148860815047168,-1.694385433070866,432,6,119,2,16,137,74,127,0.152,0.725,0.124,-0.7028,0,0,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,7,0,4,7,5,2,0,1,0,8,4,1,3,0,18,16,13,2,4,9,0,2,0,1,5,0,2,0,1,9,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,4,22,1,8,8,4,10,1,1,0,0,21,6,0,3,4,68,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181878894424831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511319827857486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783767386017624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908017360062476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783658166918266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447871947201008,0.3845611620394004,0.0,0.09551426152009873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3554383240579253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944343375842585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320216346071291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842165032495086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557185983645037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134240234807064,0.0,0.16473919220099767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250994723519033,0.0,0.0,0.423275741077446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403809408809802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i_love_junk_food,2019/03/05,I’m really spiralling with the bingeing. I’m deep in the vicious circle of hating myself but wanting to taste food to feel better. Please can someone talk me away from it. It’s been almost a week of pure excessive eating. Like 2000-3000 calories a day. I didn’t think I was capable but here I am. I’m also no where near underweight and I’m just ruining any progress I’d made recently. Feeling really alone even when I have friends around me as they wouldn’t understand. ,1.8904985337243403,4.535150268817207,3.3137243401759555,86.3633137829912,83.94623655913979,6.822678396871946,24.58357771260997,8.00094639256281,1.7986,377,15,71,8,11,123,73,93,0.12,0.652,0.228,0.9171,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,2,0,4,0,7,3,0,1,1,15,18,6,0,2,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,3,8,3,11,13,0,10,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,5,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22172824082266904,0.2293327157221791,0.0,0.17707595870885856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057869015626668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711794016630108,0.0,0.0,0.20803897380704975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583514606242933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428027958382884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22657620942909426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462511610893452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22392138479611767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677517180069065,0.0,0.17107478835835335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21861439047047326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108178577037425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20952060690958527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430615425354986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837050010950476,0.0,0.21863351958519495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18761529694179094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779755063059379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418821753000134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230514444438652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060402089822332,0.0,0.17761625258228875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crystaldeluge,2019/03/05,"how do i stop obsessing over my partners diet??? title basically covers it - i am constantly counting his calories in my head and making sure when i serve dinner or we go out that he's getting enough calories, healthy snacks etc (he often forgets to eat, not disordered at all tho)
i try not to be obvious about it but i feel i'm obsessing over his diet to distract from my lack of and i'd HATE for him to pick up any disordered behaviors",3.516009852216752,5.20284526436782,5.261740558292281,79.47517241379313,73.36781609195403,8.649589490968804,30.81937602627258,9.23628265651192,2.9245513957307057,346,16,65,8,7,118,66,87,0.20199999999999999,0.7609999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.9463,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,3,6,1,3,3,19,9,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,5,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,1,12,1,14,8,4,10,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208505420375622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734609292410535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.580042457693295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589369003039148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614719058431829,0.2822215386440917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795145050083434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221000676244912,0.0,0.14381613285336942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249837936528676,0.25970589184983883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16891517293420694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115640528418988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23849992431350844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718067122669434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nadaatractiva,2019/03/05,"Can only blame myself So I've been gaining weight and with that i've feeling horrible about myself, but have not been making changes in my diet/life. my so and I haven't been having much sex(only once this year) and the last time he didn't finish, (which is unusual) and he assures me it is because he is tired and very stressed and not because I look like a fucking cow (nicer words but whatever) . But today I left to do a small job for literally one hour and I walk in on him passed out with his dick in his hand, dirty shirt full of cum, like wow the little part of me that said it was OK to be this fat and that it was gonna be ok just completly vanished, and being 100% realistic, I don't blame him at all! 
So... 
I've literally decided to live out of pedialyte for 3 weeks, maybe a cup of coffee in the morning, while walking back and from work (4 miles total)
If I have one bite of food then I can't stop eating, so that's why I'm thinking a strict liquid diet might help.",5.349645232815966,4.41005785365854,6.1835476718403575,83.92299334811533,68.02439024390246,9.210643015521065,29.36807095343681,8.296473431620573,1.7707073170731706,760,22,170,9,11,252,129,205,0.127,0.743,0.13,0.1371,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,1,1,7,2,21,10,4,1,3,31,29,20,0,1,7,0,3,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,10,14,5,1,3,0,0,3,6,2,0,2,7,5,17,6,22,17,5,27,0,0,1,2,9,13,2,2,13,108,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205991445904755,0.0,0.20938611296523973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816815260198082,0.0,0.18006947046862196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17573616232941378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683851876309273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767255087461564,0.0,0.0,0.15877381463584755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151158421784789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913245022269774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042861879367344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999362467731674,0.0,0.0,0.1865994818731773,0.0,0.0,0.1678100981803499,0.17213179809377854,0.15165238603415454,0.0,0.1442210276189873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11463991503654375,0.0,0.1725391213750478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18219238758224254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625100799161035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18290089561514536,0.2327552648567993,0.13061843743658574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598114193134893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336710548281572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358499962598992,0.19673124749565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004610348544294,0.0,0.0,0.1001448370489592,0.19739353608360904,0.16279246570337666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417061207524235,0.0,0.0,0.1377620301566188,0.20913694137321429,0.0,0.0,0.15497151887458935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250310900660322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059698556795672
EDAnonymous,ab515928,2019/03/05,Does diet coke/coke zero actually have calories? I know everyone has opinions about this but what is the real tea?,4.454285714285714,7.1407070476190535,5.92404761904762,71.29178571428572,73.76190476190476,8.009523809523811,29.54761904761905,8.841846274778883,3.0139333333333336,92,4,14,2,2,31,20,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.4745478643170161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4255547346249191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46466992838101795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672516877553887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535032839656413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goodergrammerthanu,2019/03/05,How do I not let my roommate copy me? Ive been on a restriction (under 600 a day) for about 3 weeks after a whole semester and a half of binging (curse unlimited meal plans and McDonalds!!!) and I’m already dropping weight. My roommate was trying on clothes today and decided she wanted to lose weight “my way” and now she said was only going to eat when and how I did. I thought I was hiding it pretty well but I guess she noticed my restriction and is now trying to copy my diet and its really scaring me. I’ve always had a bad relationship with food and it would kill me for her to go down the same path but I don’t think I can eat much more than what I’m doing now.  I love her so much and shes actually pretty thin already so I really want her to be happy with herself. Sorry for the block of text i’m just concerned. ,3.28963178294574,4.047667691860465,5.161627906976744,83.58550387596902,72.66279069767441,8.058914728682172,25.96124031007752,8.344100000000001,1.5690914728682173,641,20,136,10,12,221,104,172,0.159,0.728,0.114,-0.8078,0,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,0,2,11,7,1,1,7,0,16,8,0,2,0,29,28,17,1,3,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,12,7,3,3,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,8,4,26,3,19,17,5,17,0,1,0,1,11,5,0,1,8,99,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.13756228342354954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111185249060308,0.0,0.11729483573424905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770055244575367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091127732975147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28848640519696883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17045640141953575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022822211705826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15528971814667442,0.0,0.0,0.1500607122772737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595776868733402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414707827505507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577046693172515,0.0,0.0,0.12722713556846912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20725216122406126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049049433045054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10721084086806322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286825787569638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061259853481074,0.0,0.0,0.1513445111246525,0.0,0.0,0.1340907538991003,0.0,0.14113135459426068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779966883045915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032519084188358,0.0,0.11191109687698136,0.0,0.0,0.13361909296700705,0.0,0.0,0.19141304600629427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662905588725951,0.11189208833213132,0.11307425951985607,0.3433167289584631,0.1267451809180499,0.0,0.0,0.15738327830007054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013805776419787,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patriotsfan4life,2019/03/05,"my ideal relationship with food. i've been thinking a lot. about my life and what it would be if everything was perfect. and what my eating habits would be like.

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first off, i'd eat relatively healthy. not a health nut but i'd eat mostly fresh and unprocessed foods. plant based because of the aesthetic. but i wouldn't be afraid to go out with friends for a night and have pizza, either.

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when i'm not eating, i don't think about food or plan my day or track calories. if someone offers me food, i'll take it but i won't ever eat if i'm not hungry.

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the food i eat would be pretty and very aesthetic. like smoothie bowls and sandwiches and pasta and such, all very healthy and pretty. and i'd be skinny without trying. i'd never go on diets again or intentionally try to restrict. 

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it's hard to not think of food. you can control your actions, but you can't control your thoughts. but i will get to this perfect relationship with food someday, i swear.",2.674274611398964,5.2009405077720245,3.397334196891194,87.89309974093267,79.15544041450777,5.725284974093263,25.194041450777203,6.961326702584282,1.09848,790,30,151,9,20,249,106,193,0.032,0.789,0.179,0.9840000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,4,0,7,6,7,0,1,5,0,17,20,1,3,5,51,27,22,0,8,17,0,1,2,1,6,2,0,0,0,6,14,18,3,4,0,0,3,10,1,0,1,3,1,15,6,16,13,4,13,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,8,9,94,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29510760174380546,0.3309535537852446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041507827480489735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527403767849083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043913258622301096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4180464236955541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159248360373616,0.0,0.0,0.06119607431221121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05791842918314472,0.5763539333573143,0.0,0.05260717327581587,0.0,0.03557489645735857,0.0,0.07739571550509107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06099643471581069,0.0,0.0,0.07237787304030807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048094902366319206,0.0665319443215448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05788879247752798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052516212052505375,0.0,0.0,0.06389907703885041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854667274561258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14620915805585366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057693541696721376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119618723473023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089047636503529,0.0,0.05405689023638876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245905282430812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236491531981402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06563758810200293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511032814721211,0.0,0.3309535537852446,0.0
EDAnonymous,centipede_soul,2019/03/05,"do I have an eating disorder? I (female, 5'7) eat less than 1000 calories per day, except for two cheat days per week. When I first started losing weight I ate about 1500 per day and went from 180 to 150lbs over the course of a couple years. Since starting college I got depressed and began self harming. I wasn't counting calories, but I dropped to 130lbs unintentionally. After that I started counting calories again and heavily restricting. It's been a few months since I last checked my weight so I don't know how much I weigh now. Sometimes it feels like getting skinnier is the only thing in my life that makes me happy.",5.0432674199623335,6.807332686440681,4.723333333333333,84.55095103578157,69.59322033898306,6.600376647834276,30.060263653484,6.937597516519254,1.6496354048964212,499,20,91,4,9,152,89,118,0.11699999999999999,0.812,0.07200000000000001,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,6,6,1,0,5,0,6,7,0,2,0,10,17,7,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,3,6,1,2,0,1,1,2,4,0,2,6,3,14,2,11,11,3,20,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,17,55,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841681651798175,0.0,0.31197306246713963,0.0,0.1388818655269007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848031125612891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329992016952926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153136376712941,0.11519493936970265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715667577730595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424493909847147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289640124631906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17165050490320485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861717296068602,0.13143788380112614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389357452253104,0.078777173732463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039422646402345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763367164951827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870587327046396,0.0,0.1185351501286265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226356631714273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821586119015222,0.0,0.0,0.26677048596484826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15947747578177804,0.0,0.342394519259888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712538869028124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751495774337862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934267366581595,0.39271098326221787,0.0,0.14947764980036374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383782669634173
EDAnonymous,sendjubes,2019/03/05,"DAE assume everyone is as disordered as you I just kinda forget that I’m not the norm, like there are people who just eat??? And it’s fine and they don’t gain weight??? Sounds fake but okay.

But the thing is I assume everyone has a problem. If I see a really thin person I wonder if they have restrictive issues. If I see an overweight or obese person I assume they have binge eating problems. It’s like I forget that some people just aren’t informed as to what is the appropriate amount for their height and weight and will just eat a bit more and over time gain (like the people on Secret Eaters who appear not to be disorder but just habitually eat to fill time when bored and stuff like that).

It’s too the point that if I hear someone knock back social food with “I already ate” or “I had a really big lunch” I think “I wonder if they’re like me”

Because apparently at this point it’s inconceivable that people aren’t constantly lying about their diets to avoid food.

Also I feel a strange kinship with obese people even though I have a healthy range bmi. It’s like I see them and I’m like “yes. I too eat more food than is socially acceptable but I throw mine up or starve myself for days afterward. You’re like me but different”. 

Is that weird?",3.168330464716007,5.010762493975907,4.104165232358002,86.75662650602409,74.66265060240964,7.313138267355135,21.49569707401033,8.11559375814309,0.9613697074010324,987,24,201,16,21,318,130,249,0.19899999999999998,0.7120000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9771,4,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,6,2,14,17,0,1,12,2,16,16,0,0,0,48,28,26,0,7,20,0,4,8,0,1,3,3,0,2,17,9,16,2,10,0,0,3,5,6,0,0,2,10,28,11,17,24,5,19,0,0,3,0,16,9,0,16,15,128,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953664844507323,0.07213196930211273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935733026221293,0.0,0.05498436769681024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09847375770818838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747288818307803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817078140234279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423857629248517,0.20675134022651614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614795905185428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059575474497020116,0.0,0.0,0.17237768902082126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045607237063605116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272063386473016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016606333929015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414414091631723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525327257254334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31266254748355243,0.1575162730758516,0.0,0.0,0.17053409255857407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17261619149465554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556735639924035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156303609276125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18389269008306466,0.07642517334531314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032560769461745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059924092665530025,0.057795766223038135,0.08861988948705528,0.0,0.10519132267670944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21967574297269765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19563356034654356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkrott,2019/03/05,"Weird ED Things god, there’s so many weird things i do bc of my ED. for example, i’m satisfied by making food, but not eating it. ( for example, i’ll make a sandwich and just give it to someone else or throw it away ). 

along with this, i love cooking super rich foods for other people; watching them eat and enjoy it has the same satisfying effect for me. ",3.8466197183098596,4.8068407042253565,5.071943661971833,83.99101408450704,71.53521126760563,7.933521126760564,25.46760563380281,8.238735603445708,1.4716343661971831,274,8,56,4,5,91,57,71,0.032,0.642,0.326,0.9837,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,2,3,6,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,3,0,12,7,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,6,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,10,7,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,0,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148302326550028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4679452017571093,0.19101309760854174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552984499207823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934807260093026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20637134558183998,0.0,0.3052598705930344,0.2318217199249311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852157047691132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19373984188666746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30381832922420904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MentalBookShelf,2019/08/08,Has anyone told their parents about their disorded eating/ Ed? Same as above ^^. What's your experience and do you have any advice for others?,2.1838461538461544,4.742515846153847,3.2303076923076937,81.16469230769233,102.07692307692308,5.1569230769230785,20.584615384615386,6.742157984588678,1.0886707692307689,116,4,19,2,5,37,25,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599597887861473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504992827378688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575677801664989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42217559299960816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769270265835897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603294254983804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4090232101256261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519863668237248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mydogatemywilloflife,2019/08/08,For the first time since I lost weight I saw myself as skinny It's been 6 months since I lost like 30 pounds and just today I saw myself in a mirror and thought of my body as skinny. It was surreal. I had to touch my reflection to be sure it was there and it wasn't just in my head.,1.2428571428571438,2.2904812222222226,2.997015873015872,96.01742857142858,78.04761904761905,6.309841269841268,17.36190476190476,6.742157984588678,-0.3911371428571431,219,3,55,2,5,73,41,63,0.077,0.8420000000000001,0.081,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,2,0,6,5,4,0,1,8,11,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,10,4,10,2,8,0,0,6,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,5,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809618658137201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21515258524760897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595917665164695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235748277725747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5522327851017154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018961250974945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4184729572790867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383951177449051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200807926748641,0.14749268518200312,0.0,0.2397597180397001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080155698771205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkidmax,2019/08/08,"Why my brain stupid? You ever get a depression spell and feel life is worthless/you have no purpose? And you try and do hobbies and things you enjoy but it doesn't work? 

Well why do my brain get excited at the idea of relapsing and starving myself etc?? Like thats supposed to give me purpose?? WHY CANT MY BRAIN DO THAT WHEN I EXERCISE HEALTHILY????? 

I have small brain 😞",0.9309589041095876,3.5044561369863025,1.9665890410958904,93.96522602739726,90.36986301369862,5.111780821917809,22.36849315068493,6.742157984588678,0.7173408219178081,290,11,59,4,10,91,52,73,0.16399999999999998,0.73,0.106,-0.5546,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,1,3,6,1,0,2,0,8,6,4,0,1,9,12,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,10,4,3,12,1,4,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,38,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7381813106042674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14238488421192866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436903959044376,0.0,0.1495361646065702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358783017192972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273970008205905,0.15858445090373122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18661961753628173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676631329330865,0.08076417117443688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982741344203152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223749501201016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863732548948794,0.0,0.4475110763870138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035071154498507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bumandu,2019/08/08,"My (18F) boyfriend (18M) wants to help me getting better but I feel guilty. First, English is not my first languaje and it is also the first time I'm posting on Reddit, so please be kind and helpful to me, I would appreciate it.

A little background story: My mom has dealt with anorexia nerviosa years ago and has overcome it. I saw when she was just getting into it but I was way younger so I really didn't knew back then.  She always wants to be skinnier and she already is, she is healthy and looks great without overdoing it. When I was a kid she never commented on my weight or on my looks. She's an amazing mom and she has never made me do any diets nor talked about me in a negative way.

I have been with my boyfriend for almost two years and I believe since the beggining of our relationship he is aware of how I feel about myself. He has been amazing, nothing but charming. Recently I've become more open -with him- about my struggles with food and how it all started. In January I felt really bad with myself and wanted to change it so I started to eat less and less, not good. I came back to school and everybody was telling me how skinny I was. I'm not gonna mention weight cause I know it can be triggering. Anyways, I felt so proud about it and back then my boyfriend and I we were on a break so we didn't spoke much.

We got back together, time passed by and now we are great in terms of relationship, but in my health I just came back to wanting to repeat the cycle. I can't help it, I feel guilty because I know he worries so much, he just got into college and I don't want to become a distraction to him, the thing is he wants to be involved and help me feel better.

I don't know what to do. I just need to know if you can relate, and how has it been to you, guys. Please let me know in the comments what you think or anything. Wish all the love and luck to you all.",1.1827827763496153,3.31582933161954,2.581156169665814,93.87826381748071,82.16195372750644,5.535244215938302,22.321401028277634,6.742157984588678,0.4654673007712082,1466,49,323,16,40,474,176,389,0.083,0.738,0.179,0.9931,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,5,4,0,6,28,15,0,2,12,0,37,8,1,7,5,83,75,41,0,10,15,2,8,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,14,32,6,0,13,0,0,3,13,3,0,4,21,12,59,12,41,47,9,45,0,0,3,1,41,13,0,5,25,233,73,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266674669733851,0.0,0.08208708739877063,0.0,0.09046251567907752,0.06555614947750524,0.06821056971705024,0.0,0.0,0.05574646717706762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745923427085065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151722844961307,0.0684465065156503,0.0499717873022583,0.18107202531594155,0.0,0.09235884045823592,0.0,0.14500215841638622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751733029597895,0.0,0.08421189722494646,0.08671970119163311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388187736880602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579804373149942,0.0,0.15741956361769607,0.0,0.0,0.209186141484864,0.09912566209724258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856581164072049,0.0,0.0,0.06875754999712988,0.1311273354830241,0.1807575813066036,0.0,0.08116909344936174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713661727201183,0.0,0.0,0.2197870450527257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536535259522042,0.2252592321383013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382597810586118,0.0,0.0,0.08216145264347642,0.0,0.0,0.1376783286078879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398650883706127,0.07756764004178313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920185185469596,0.0,0.0,0.120523532887777,0.06078413922636103,0.1264498355083328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865814918244532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996998498128708,0.0,0.0,0.07851031408150427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503180440141983,0.0,0.08094137564030078,0.176023015211857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296405292122908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781136524436694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604601970479905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569907735672366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06588917535615216,0.0716506065202488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05446118848678516,0.05252688823474922,0.0,0.0,0.09560168868048458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007860608984102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29010928797322344,0.13013741046975433,0.0,0.19964928147994407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426831394610996,0.07902190480116716,0.0,0.0,0.08325057151835909,0.0,0.05823337342771339,0.0,0.0,0.10557966735817592
EDAnonymous,Vanessam_2020,2019/08/08,YoYo dieting hi guys i’ve been yoyo dieting and have not been able to stop binging even when i try to eat “normal” and healthy i still binge but maybe not as much as i do when i heavily restrict. i’ve gained so much weight from binging and i’m thinking about heavily restricting. i know i shouldn’t but i’m going to. any advice on how to stop urge to binge,0.4462666666666699,2.756962160000004,2.1346666666666683,94.60066666666668,87.4,6.0,21.66666666666667,7.3871296695380915,0.7908666666666675,282,10,63,5,9,92,46,75,0.15,0.748,0.102,-0.6757,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,0,16,10,11,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,4,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,6,0,10,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,36,6,0,0.25461737147152635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488091485712585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17314854380234224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605371363118441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681723725033214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447049198668966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521112286429288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993104854122626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557973725439245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743461293636369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24947096365535615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20333776175982796,0.4257430471227636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16314853064010112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728684817059489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100553641330734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,croutonhoe,2019/08/08,school makes me want to disappear i just got into a new school and i hate it. every popular person goes to the gym and i'm afraid of going because of people like them so i don't really exercise. they are mean. they are cruel. i hate this. i hate me. we had a boring class and i was able to disassociate for a while and it helped but everyone is probably looking at me. laughing. gossiping. making fun of me. why do i have to be fat. i just want to not be here anymore. i want to be skinny so i binge eat and binge eat after periods of restriction but i cant purge. and i end up like a monster. i want to shed my skin off and leave this body. i want to be free,-1.8064788732394383,-0.057687056338027176,1.4998478873239451,94.42613802816904,106.1830985915493,5.088901408450704,15.539154929577466,6.742157984588678,0.021808676056338072,506,14,117,10,25,179,85,142,0.135,0.6829999999999999,0.183,0.7992,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,3,0,5,13,4,1,5,0,13,7,4,2,0,23,28,12,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,9,4,1,1,2,1,2,3,7,0,0,3,2,23,7,18,21,0,11,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,7,79,27,3,0.15166083969082206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040680048999425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245104021050407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846100340757966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31037380234769385,0.0,0.0,0.13432648864395266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12778079851789767,0.14491843160708226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619235022171635,0.0,0.12129702798212172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4492010422621943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165506397146187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605869311360475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481876511760423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735690858177107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246957631868834,0.0,0.0,0.16520311532197166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647498403190562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514253036103367,0.1324243953867374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635160362482433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971578174036877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30697773310582843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44726746323255057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368503184863652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheRedPlate,2019/08/08,"If you're a victim of a parent food/body shaming you SMAsH that like button No but I have no one else to be happy about this with. I'm moving out of my abusive mom's house and I've over the moon. Every few months I try and lose weight and change how I eat (aka I go restrictive and lose 10-15 pounds) and she screams at me for how ungrateful I am, everything I do I apparently do with an attitude, and shit talks me to my boyfriend about how I use her as an emotional punching bag ect just #supportive parent things.

Oh how I'm going to miss eating at night and having her bust into the kitchen and loudly talk about what I'm eating to my family and how unhealthy it is and how she could never eat anything like that even though...it's like egg whites or greek yogurt... lmao NOT

So long bitch. I'm happy to not be your victim anymore :)",2.5144581280788216,3.9525321206896606,3.76978653530378,90.17172413793104,75.4942528735632,6.810509031198686,21.623973727422005,7.447530270364453,0.5979422003284078,655,16,143,8,14,214,112,174,0.192,0.643,0.165,-0.5695,3,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,2,12,15,4,1,6,0,9,8,1,7,1,30,18,21,0,2,6,3,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,6,14,7,1,0,0,0,3,5,9,0,1,0,4,19,6,19,15,1,12,0,3,1,0,11,5,2,2,7,88,25,0,0.0,0.14904351935265836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475233895605035,0.0,0.0,0.10351649302833227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972708766833186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330717646123905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043505964897877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148684456742166,0.10508347590683803,0.14149960907154294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08308474682520163,0.0,0.10598558999225577,0.0,0.11305417009895755,0.0,0.11858595513167627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152108766432469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298153082504375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26781686864659765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514763298193922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436755547344152,0.0,0.0,0.11132238655901212,0.0,0.2814592178494543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732663253091496,0.1004063576019167,0.1336974989111521,0.0,0.0,0.09701891562596768,0.0,0.0,0.11804772129435567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524024014951774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27935532555312426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912417328577933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427478158745781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20221446137419016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357093434638975,0.0,0.12359047315817218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540483685161844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864431436588093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531813522478749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,macyhart_,2019/08/08,Didn’t realise I could’ve ate way more calories & still lose Lol so at my worst I was eating like below 900 and exercising 500+ and loosing sooooo much. HATED LIFE WOULD NOT RECOMMEND. Little did I realise now that I understand metabolisms and shit and how much I weight train that I can actually get away with eating 1500-2000 calories and exercise 300-600 and still loose a little every week. Lol why did I try restrict so damn much?,4.146369747899158,6.112097082352946,4.8327731092437,82.04176470588239,72.29411764705883,7.680672268907562,26.26050420168067,8.418075326091056,1.8131680672268908,352,12,66,6,7,113,62,85,0.278,0.637,0.085,-0.9614,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,1,2,6,8,1,1,0,12,10,9,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,1,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,1,8,1,4,4,5,10,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,5,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.1785005418789018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19819042198886186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171856481115974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460442880233985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37433937828586417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411540636563167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556654860032876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805926032994877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291996402555428,0.08936397465134567,0.3666616445218007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20463726124179246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033949804049481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18776160456358448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921554001733796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418859146738155,0.0,0.0,0.1904229796113712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519094843571204,0.14672493138765808,0.2227435479770711,0.0,0.0,0.16505408237715946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993894204688733,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NicolasXage,2019/08/08,"Am I the only one that wants to be even thinner by my next outpatient appointment? I feel so conflicted. I feel like it's a challenge to lose weight by my next appointment and it motivates me to loose more weight. 
It's fucked up I know. I had gained weight since I started then I went on a treatment break because my support worker left the hospital and had to wait for someone new. 

I feel like I want the treatment but at the same time don't. It's almost like it validates me.",2.313321878579611,4.367218247422676,3.4545704467353966,89.49143184421537,77.86597938144331,7.197709049255441,26.241695303550976,8.167268648758528,1.665910423825888,378,15,79,7,9,122,61,97,0.068,0.76,0.172,0.7738,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,5,2,7,1,0,6,0,5,4,0,1,0,14,16,5,0,2,1,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,3,2,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,6,14,5,10,12,2,12,0,1,0,1,0,4,1,1,9,50,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349413289741602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952958855303697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784015008113557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24766691316765485,0.2332842538790101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094308041646942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973046554004271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739638404893054,0.0,0.0,0.23930054085832825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18266050902497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768989576335604,0.3472849680314497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063788050068143,0.1241763281375034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506095431744833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383405207112133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556533414119355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18528004809421228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520568757918084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19260506528573812,0.0,0.0,0.5964668840164826,0.0,0.15135552914070613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noyanishi,2019/08/08,"i gained even MORE weight and i hate myself!!! so i’m 5’2 and too many lbs. 

when i was about 15 lbs lighter, i had a lot of comfortable clothing for when i was having a horrible body day and just wanted to feel covered but also look kinda cute. 

i’ve been trying those same clothes on lately, and they’re tight. like, see all of my fat type of tight. i feel like every single time i have to dress myself i have a breakdown because i look fat in ALL of my clothes. 

why the FUCK do i have so much problem with food? why am i so gross?? why can’t i just STOP eating junk?? why can’t i just stop eating at all lmao

i’m actually getting ridiculously triggered because i am now officially at my highest weight. i literally look like a beached whale. i just checked my bmi and i’m actually about to cry. i am ONE AND A HALF pounds away from being considered obese and i’m having a panic attack. i can’t believe i thought i was fat when i had a normal bmi. 

brb gonna have a crisis lms if you relate lmao",0.4949316770186343,2.630135209523811,2.524202898550726,93.2276086956522,85.0,5.175983436853001,20.55900621118013,6.498293943080001,0.1771801242236024,774,24,173,8,23,259,116,210,0.22,0.6579999999999999,0.122,-0.9786,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,16,12,4,1,9,0,20,11,4,1,3,31,36,16,0,4,6,0,6,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,8,9,4,3,1,1,0,3,7,0,2,7,10,28,5,17,27,8,14,0,0,4,1,1,5,1,3,12,108,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.2466605458495648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010673707412404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437773874238747,0.1187397332065521,0.0,0.0,0.1540821782283833,0.0,0.0,0.14238885664001066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403815375818228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882432306737666,0.08150571774457338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586399862125339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347389689108747,0.0,0.10648200240132537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780473294678266,0.09028708574663412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528212093144765,0.0,0.0,0.11683781153520086,0.06602920303375909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477572795399627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425640213678748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18523109118969816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183863022313967,0.0,0.0,0.10744517096372876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12813117053024498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290506442567066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382719698549866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563948605611113,0.0,0.0,0.1482816518144408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093018387354855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070982322073836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113214595751813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033292395019286,0.07369416439471209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580485369174552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454317964258521,0.0,0.0,0.30779763775600644,0.0,0.0,0.4561591760485433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lillytigerflower,2019/08/08,"I’m sick of chewing and spitting. Need some help to stop

I used to be bulimic in college. Got my ish together and now for whatever reason have came to chew and spit.

I love to bake. I have been baking at night when my husband goes to work and chewing and spitting what I bake.

Yesterday my tongue swelled up a bit. It was so painfully dry. Today, my mouth and throat hurts. The scale says I’ve gained 2 lbs.

Pretty sure this is causing me to gain weight. Despite sitting out almost immediately...

I mean what the heck am I doing to my poor body !? Yesterday was the worst reaction I’ve had to this.",1.932955182072828,4.19149310084034,3.2506092436974825,89.42000350140059,80.17647058823529,6.319607843137256,25.04271708683473,7.492282038375204,1.245167507002801,465,18,96,7,12,151,84,119,0.151,0.7140000000000001,0.135,-0.4693,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,4,0,10,16,6,3,1,17,17,8,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,5,8,7,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,6,2,12,2,14,10,3,13,0,1,0,1,4,4,1,2,7,56,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22084084399449774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407746222536105,0.2449723203711721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25224116726779616,0.0,0.2265572704168525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638749501577755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782457895207152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23609465285774664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19904766478567595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402347705068271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16352901575150378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069636223196104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346721185867797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243703867140981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22675379244575924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753837615364207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438289389080653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20785811978429836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904792289023566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047738151188112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685606057060945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16055712137581968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mackfork_,2019/08/08,"im in so much pain someone help me 3 days ago i had food poisoning and used it as an excuse to binge and my stomach has been huge for 3 days i look pregnant im so bloated and full of food ive probably eaten 10,000+ cal it's the worst feeling ever so yesterday i popped 20 dulcolax and some OTC gas relief and ive been lying 2 everyone saying it's food poisoning but it's not food poisoning anymore i feel like ive completely lost control and i dont have access to a car so i cant go get more lax even tho today ive stayed under 1000 i still want the food out of me im so uncomfortable in this body",-0.3228888888888868,1.6436395259259269,2.779259259259259,91.1666666666667,87.07407407407408,6.266666666666668,20.85185185185185,7.554174236665415,0.7925407407407405,476,16,110,9,15,170,88,135,0.187,0.718,0.095,-0.9462,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,9,8,3,0,4,0,11,12,2,2,1,16,20,14,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,7,6,1,2,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,5,4,14,2,10,15,5,16,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,1,8,62,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573421348343127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829336216346592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249280233069902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506244443980588,0.0,0.13378227089075684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385101397196546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979486235147912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878308437901067,0.10789527300843599,0.0,0.11397681792585218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062275076148213,0.08521340634177957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7211671358792366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062318694440188366,0.0,0.06778937433202079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995063560258636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865274739604669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582740123173057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016486529733136,0.0,0.1302078291392099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768426780691634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269219582577112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860363781712544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485596582524734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10106526101853347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713623705603164,0.09525688318304072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306316192447095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301932079054857,0.0,0.0,0.07035422845208722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smolcaliforniaroll,2019/08/08,"i haven’t eaten all day and i went on a run im shaking and my body is in so much pain and i cant catch a breath

im on the verge of a breakdown why can’t i just be thin  why is it so hard i hate my body so much",-4.6410714285714265,-3.4379786785714264,-0.4278571428571407,110.59785714285715,103.64285714285714,2.8000000000000003,10.571428571428571,3.1291,-2.336207142857143,158,2,53,0,8,59,35,56,0.222,0.778,0.0,-0.8785,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,4,0,6,5,3,0,1,5,9,6,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,2,2,7,0,4,6,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5069234412624692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716023073035694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20440863848690374,0.2252851140186528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4929571865935982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354839659162598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24280457021046314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21152946917623694,0.4118023339628989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashplowe,2019/08/08,"Food shamed by boyfriend's 80 year old ana(?) auntie So I met my boyfriend's extended family for the first time last night for dinner and immediately suspected shennanigans. She's 80 years old and rail thin and her husband mentioned she hadn't eaten anything all day. She had a small portion of salmon for dinner and left about 2/3 of it on the plate.

I had mushroom ravioli with fresh veg and truffles. It was delicious so I finished it all. At the end of the night, she looked at my plate and said 'I see you're a disciplined eater."" I said nothing in return, I was shocked that the conversation had turned to my food. She continued in a happy tone ""I can eat that much too, but I have to be pushed to do it."" Then she proceeded to ask everyone around the table what they do for exercise.

I felt so ashamed. I've gained 20 lbs since I quit smoking and I've been trying really hard to make peace with it and not restrict. It felt like she was simultaneously calling me out for being a fat pig and humble bragging about how much better she was at not eating.

Just feeling sad and triggered",3.8141643760307855,5.505588294392524,4.5381033534909285,84.94766080263882,72.5981308411215,7.839032435404067,27.074216602528864,8.4952907291091,1.8213884551951616,861,31,173,15,17,276,132,214,0.083,0.8059999999999999,0.111,0.7987,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,4,10,7,0,2,10,0,15,9,1,3,2,29,27,16,0,0,4,1,5,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,9,14,8,2,4,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,15,9,24,3,26,10,5,28,0,1,2,0,18,11,0,0,17,109,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185593971215604,0.12825507597903898,0.1346883452700515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742042411975754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711413746446705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291484790682693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29484428389272604,0.0,0.0,0.12760547782213585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766745410484432,0.0,0.0,0.13581873705524294,0.0,0.07284738820862399,0.0,0.2766643997576141,0.0,0.0,0.12254800047613094,0.34842609361199894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336786224507348,0.12906066714894285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743832194354775,0.0,0.0,0.15653519992237278,0.0,0.0,0.07038654931932582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098461991814008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961695168667493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211819739025852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27040457532505874,0.0,0.13824145569642382,0.0,0.30235972005032963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532388449565137,0.0,0.0,0.09229653688644636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27409189201149503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480713459395728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917826622642302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400983717257386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781577478307504,0.15670951567002173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555594123737426
EDAnonymous,jdoebe,2019/08/08,"Fucking tired of bingeing I’m so fucking tired of bingeing, it has never been so long and frequent for me. It started with few binges in month or two, then each two weeks and now i binge every week one or two times. I cannot purge, so i just fast after it. I eat so fucking a lot i hate myself. I don’t know how to stop. I thought that i can eat on maintenance but i binged. Fuck me. I probably gained fucking a lot. Sorry for that shit post i just hate myself so much and I’m too ashamed of myself to tell anybody irl.",-0.9458445945945932,1.1759867297297326,1.0417511261261296,99.95019425675676,96.11711711711712,3.4957207207207213,18.64921171171171,5.148860815047168,-0.5871220720720722,401,13,93,2,16,131,68,111,0.255,0.716,0.028999999999999998,-0.9789,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,10,9,8,1,2,0,5,10,1,1,1,17,17,13,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,2,1,2,0,0,0,3,9,0,4,2,0,16,0,11,15,5,16,0,0,0,5,1,2,6,4,13,66,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638980979954406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086467653975383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5960655328204439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25462479924506304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708680882949786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411756274466002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925903006214192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292744494410867,0.0,0.09479381032726884,0.0,0.0994549482236998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738052384886638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349939706308072,0.0,0.13903097049835642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323663317169459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435006890614524,0.0912721699867034,0.0,0.0,0.1078087964358394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270884351919053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237267711195837,0.07519235560562906,0.2964203726687388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778991213618319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20687340187943384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chmagriff,2019/08/08,"Dealing with stretch marks in recovery Hi pals! When I was in treatment for anorexia, I rapidly gained a lot of weight, resulting in loads of stretch marks on my butt and thighs. While those ones have mostly turned white, I still have some really angry looking ones on my hips? Has anyone else experienced this, and if so, how did you deal? I'm finding myself comparing my scarred skin to that of my friends and it's getting me down.",5.162357723577234,6.700965073170736,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,69.0,7.9056910569105705,31.959349593495933,8.344100000000001,2.330554471544714,344,15,66,5,6,104,65,82,0.043,0.88,0.077,0.4135,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,5,5,4,2,0,11,9,8,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,10,1,12,7,3,11,0,0,2,1,6,8,1,4,3,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17951161589731315,0.2630502688282616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5293548043632698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21446500871701274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346466089782778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983489949951414,0.0,0.1341308517448347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21558857768004752,0.0,0.0,0.218262702487352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479338438122028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164467840008146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050249446121236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792485657688421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126280298745478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,d0gnut,2019/08/08,"[tw: numbers] I'm worried I'm losing too much weight I'm pretty short (5'0) and I've went from 111 to 104 in the past month. For my size, rationally I know that's too much weight loss in such a short amount of time. But I still feel like I look the same as I did when I was 170 lbs. I think my loose skin contributes a lot to that. I KNOW I don't look the same though because I can see my ribs when I stretch and my measurements are drastically different. But I FEEL the same I still think I'm huge and I know I should just up my calorie intake and eat more but I feel disgusted with myself and like shit when I do. 

I've been in a depressive episode the past month which I'm pretty sure is what's doing this (I started birth control last month and went back on wellbutrin... depression + appetite suppressing medication = not good). Even my ASIAN grandma is telling me I'm getting too skinny. Everyone is worried about me and I want to just eat normally and not think about food and numbers every waking fucking moment. I'm scared something is going to happen but at the same time not losing weight is just not an option. If I eat at maintenance I'll feel like I'm gaining. I want help but I don't?? This is the worst I've been and I'm scared.",1.3178348678348684,3.4090228223938226,2.7374710424710464,93.17886471636473,81.39382239382239,5.992337392337393,21.93065043065043,7.1686216300943375,0.5744688446688442,977,31,217,13,26,317,130,259,0.171,0.72,0.11,-0.9654,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,5,17,16,3,2,11,0,17,14,5,1,1,47,48,21,0,5,13,0,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,11,8,2,10,0,0,3,6,11,0,0,6,11,30,5,18,41,10,31,0,5,3,1,2,11,2,3,20,126,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07697319950420206,0.0,0.06102199563244753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227427657407583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243751862011925,0.0,0.0,0.10458656217777527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072917638594925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611723471304097,0.0,0.0843412828164575,0.09565291943122747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246078931010505,0.1430275250634437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104521463229813,0.0,0.0,0.09254381664617983,0.05229980242319572,0.0,0.05689096852565621,0.08396183410940437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852094952638849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06709708030930221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504234034980025,0.08159748736582062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671613508497386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681229914026617,0.22397980230778827,0.0,0.08510418049202352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084346580603748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23970431273796,0.0,0.1471747738979252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807990463929464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911197065892112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20368193115254693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200441578796012,0.0,0.07976930834416772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275451991476328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706435168681221,0.0,0.0,0.07085357648663837,0.0,0.15988512643518102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434610302952047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749462915334327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19242630997323204,0.09835090837174046,0.0,0.1167419887111282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808694905224702,0.0,0.0,0.3656962730430456,0.0,0.1855933812737365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033193642190377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leontevskaya,2019/08/08,"Dear Diary, Today my coworker asked me if I was pregnant I’ve gained 3 pounds in the last month, and am bloated on my period. So yes, I’m pregnant. With a food baby. Jerk. 


On the bright side, this is some baller motivation to jump back on the wagon, I guess?

Recovery? What’s that?",-0.019078947368420533,2.328135929824562,2.3010307017543887,91.25575657894736,93.21052631578951,5.6570175438596495,17.651315789473685,7.1686216300943375,0.4005105263157893,216,6,46,4,8,73,48,57,0.04,0.728,0.23199999999999998,0.8918,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,4,1,3,1,0,1,0,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,2,6,5,1,11,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,3,5,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712531533046061,0.0,0.0,0.3053604058037122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801985119339904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374719338885181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237054197445701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169770200625371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764228804220937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misterrazorz,2019/08/08,"DAE hate eating pass a time in the evening??? normally i stop eating at 1600 in the afternoon, but this week circumstances keep having me eat past 2000 in the evening. my health is really bad so i mustn't skip meals or i'll be hospitalised a lot more. my delusions make me cry about this all the time. my brain thinks this is the worst ED rule to break.

basically this week i literally want to kms. i just can't cope with being this fat and this ugly anymore. there's no value to living like this. either i'm fat and ugly or i'm disordered. my only solace is drugs and self-harm.

my mum doesn't care about my coping. she thinks i will eat at 2100 for all she cares. all she does is yell at me when i literally cannot eat because of my ED. 

sorry this got long/ranty. i have no one in my life i can count on. thanks for reading.",0.6285853361728044,2.803738618497114,2.352960146029816,94.4104989351993,84.78034682080923,5.723030118649224,17.197748707027685,7.0608816371341465,-0.07491213872832336,643,14,147,9,19,211,106,173,0.21,0.7090000000000001,0.081,-0.9797,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,0,7,0,14,12,3,1,4,21,26,8,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,8,4,8,2,2,1,0,1,6,3,0,1,1,1,22,4,17,21,7,18,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,3,9,90,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268293524976904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678014551512298,0.07795861310417412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14276397600540155,0.0,0.0,0.2607782544522043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047765699959303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656936522726888,0.0,0.11191461029387006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483080996149318,0.6543006741677025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893606533481031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228276559802324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626174957027467,0.0,0.13593770004716801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136716738373103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033023681187057,0.062479036139264685,0.0,0.11292639728332117,0.11317580354746805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872479360536698,0.0,0.0,0.08536543953240079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253019220335581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665941300483046,0.09726368271692422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208243198333756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792141918590638,0.0,0.08192756598275151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334138351572524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431588148893395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691910055433143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11774099361667045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16388940954585204,0.0,0.0,0.14914365609674302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754309546779338,0.0,0.20516617185989447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nogoodatthisstuff,2019/08/08,"Going to talk to doc about this today but feeling like a fraud. So I've been trying to recover (?) I guess, I'm having a hard time acknowledging that I have a problem. But I've come to accept that it's not normal or healthy to be bingeing and purging so I figured I'd get some help. Also I've lost a lost of weight this passed year and am having a hard time sometimes seeing that I'm not obese anymore and having a hard time knowing what's a good weight to stop at. If it were up to me I'd lose at least another 20, even though I've had multiple people, including my doctor, tell me to stop. But I think my judgement might be clouded and I wouldn't know when to stop anyways.  


 Now my appointment is today and I'm feeling like a giant fraud, I haven't purged in a couple weeks and my mind is telling me that I'm fine and am just making a fool of myself in going to the doctor. I'm not underweight. Even when I do purge I operate on a two weeks on one or two weeks off schedule. I don't know, I'll purge 3+ times a day for two weeks and then pull myself out of it for awhile til something happens and I start again. But I'm using that to tell myself I don't have a problem even though I've been fighting thoughts and urges for these two weeks and I feel like it's only a matter of time. 


I don't know why I'm writing, I think I just needed to talk myself into keeping the appointment.",2.7982582294662848,3.502637624161076,4.31811121764142,89.37864653243851,73.76510067114094,6.884244167465645,24.59316075423457,6.868970318607317,0.7647952700543303,1084,31,243,9,21,363,139,298,0.17300000000000001,0.735,0.092,-0.9751,0,0,1,0,2,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,16,13,1,0,16,0,22,5,0,2,0,56,53,27,0,6,12,0,8,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,13,14,3,4,13,0,0,5,8,7,0,5,7,9,26,6,31,42,2,41,0,3,1,0,8,11,0,6,28,152,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972991937176858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143170358676428,0.0,0.0,0.08647414564307805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511088954180027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647976035735406,0.0,0.05623364974258828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849583451560574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17277469643784113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226544321400527,0.18687666939145364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04555586011546865,0.0,0.0991100112775516,0.07313514377694452,0.0,0.0,0.09605527361815604,0.0,0.07710637147883521,0.0,0.2343291470253327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058445062181941676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750304393518873,0.0,0.0,0.1916806672745782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277974182871658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754905439277993,0.19036758402882745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05820343087492012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250026077914836,0.08804223159772402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465408906895741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543272075354033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059085681302834266,0.06631583067648794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045012894431346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686793985578247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948323481281217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712707625405173,0.08623821983882872,0.0,0.061717166596300235,0.0,0.0,0.21869711603701206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401682960843616,0.2286371784530897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174224571306676,0.1713375583241261,0.06922319880362676,0.2542209272748152,0.0,0.1653015883953493,0.0,0.0,0.05919977422733519,0.0,0.34070791469924666,0.0,0.0,0.07530860216638767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34971339593428064,0.2123603721570777,0.0,0.0,0.07868004859845958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056150809274650514
EDAnonymous,awwwtist,2019/08/08,"Do I have an eating disorder if I don't like eating, but I don't want to be thin or have an image problem? I find eating to be difficult, time consuming, basically big chore. I don't particularly like many tastes, textures, or flavors, which I attribute to being autistic. (So I'm picky too.)

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I've been with a BMI under 16 my while life. However, I don't have a desire to look thinner.",2.635515370705246,4.5759428227848105,4.943074141048825,79.72430379746838,76.46835443037975,7.552260397830018,27.74141048824593,8.418075326091056,2.1737435804701635,309,13,59,6,7,108,52,79,0.231,0.769,0.0,-0.9336,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,12,5,0,1,0,10,15,6,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,4,8,2,6,11,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,4,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23936710440838055,0.26844240336448777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531938580790637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6781700054962022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20191719546713785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604257495506893,0.2158610455142851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18551745183726148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22397855772470415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113909367821405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882043132477816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030454490867782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26844240336448777,0.0
EDAnonymous,jursorin,2019/08/08,"Feeling invalid After battling with an eating disorder for 7 years, I was finally diagnosed as anorexic a couple of months ago and began my recovery. I’m constantly in 2 states of mind; wanting to relapse and lose weight again and wanting to recover. I struggle to even see that I need to recover; I look fine. You wouldn’t think I suffered if you saw me, even though I know technically underweight. There’s a lot of tension in my house right now, so it’s making it really hard to eat throughout the day since they all loiter in the kitchen. Then at about 11pm when they’re all in bed, I go into binge mode. I ate a lot last night and the night before and it took so much strength last night to not purge. But while I’m eating, even chocolate cereal, I’m not feeling that immense anxiety and depression, but it hits the morning after. I know that probably means I’m doing okay in my recovery, but it just makes me feel like I’ve been faking my ED because I can eat so much and I do eat almost everything handed to me (by friends for example, I feel really awkward saying no since my only 2 friends know I’m recovering). I just wish I could stop night eating so much because it makes the morning after so challenging.",6.017142857142857,5.999836846473028,6.791621221102549,77.03054979253113,66.42738589211618,10.205216360403083,33.811796087729704,9.957137785484203,3.2651372851215186,964,40,184,20,14,320,139,241,0.12,0.7759999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.2725,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,1,3,16,15,1,3,9,1,7,11,1,3,2,42,36,21,0,7,8,0,7,1,2,1,1,1,2,0,9,9,9,1,9,0,0,2,4,8,0,0,6,11,25,7,26,27,7,33,0,3,3,0,6,8,0,4,23,114,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155579148172536,0.0,0.09212848637795837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038263271354303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216928926698123,0.0,0.07828843241600142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942339112258332,0.0,0.07345752444039526,0.10180042227251622,0.0,0.05933482078020012,0.0,0.07924271283704011,0.0933818905345632,0.0,0.0,0.10544429198532694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5648569567821229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230286839676385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268705661307606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607948335657906,0.06572751212781971,0.0,0.10078563362639044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216376994114774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05228786308194608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241730711042719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615999865485952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516885987104007,0.14999070530116773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494839504431946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725999559512839,0.10292868569208366,0.0,0.1564366314228371,0.0,0.0,0.18423969396782727,0.0,0.0,0.10021907805560462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928975810187095,0.0,0.07343653195698438,0.0,0.20290007252787376,0.06821963015337287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34535722495391663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06997301341974749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991956257493546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787994272523687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078570717425758,0.0,0.07316509117319712,0.0,0.0,0.07331509343104951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221293962684765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07691927191045755,0.0,0.0961823172322808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589523012761214,0.09039323752429074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221957443782227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853241531692512,0.0,0.0,0.11203580667834533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579979571046838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059247411829492926
EDAnonymous,xShatterBolt,2019/08/08,"Second time I got called fat this year (By male classmates this time) Been eating normal for a period of time but I decided to fast again [TRIGGER WARNING]] Been eating normal for a few weeks before school. I just wanted the headaches to stop before school started, not necessarily feel full or anything. After just a few weeks of that I just started eating normally, but of course, doing intermittent fasting. Not gonna lie, I do feel really nice when my stomach demands for food. Anyway, school started on aug 5 and it's aug. 8 now so yeah I wore the same uniform where I still carried the 7kg I lost this year, my 2 male classmates approached me before lunchtime why I looked the same (implying I didn't lose any weight at all despite the plans of doing so) and I told them I did lose weight and showed them my arms, but of course, they laughed and they were like ""What? No you didn't."" then I went ""I lost 3 inches on my arms"" and ofc the hot skinny guy classmate had to go ""And you're proud of that?"" And idk I just felt defeated. Obviously, they're skinny dudes, they've never felt the need to exercise. Anyway, I felt proud of myself that I don't even eat much despite eating ""normally"". I feel like I can go back to my routine where I try to skip meals as much as possible, whenever I can, but if the hunger is unbearable, I'll take 5 bites of anything. Lots of water, too. I hope you're all doing fine, me, not so much, but I pray you all stay strong and stay recovering. Me, it's not what I chose, but more like an obligation. I am, however, scared when my period starts because that's when hunger just becomes like a binge-athon or some shit. Stay strong everyone, whether you're a man or a woman, I hope you choose recovery.",3.438073858742463,4.969027805232559,4.266098191214471,87.16942721791561,73.27325581395348,7.421877691645133,24.95004306632213,8.045849151850463,1.3116762704565028,1351,42,279,20,27,434,177,344,0.086,0.742,0.172,0.9867,2,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,3,4,10,21,20,1,1,15,1,16,20,7,1,5,55,41,28,0,9,20,0,9,4,0,1,2,0,0,5,11,8,15,1,8,2,0,4,9,7,0,1,16,10,43,13,25,24,14,40,1,5,1,0,14,7,1,8,30,172,54,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056285345956523576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362226713609201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364378575749499,0.0,0.05045484456332455,0.09141118804519256,0.21128942054294228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451578401592147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234636494712385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05466774342315176,0.0,0.0,0.07908874712980632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255505602808114,0.05912975698811651,0.2384119132716601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100083870186628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407837106175096,0.0,0.06619744546839437,0.0,0.0,0.08195372257874865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441538098626618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174582545025548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950460494471226,0.18519332240184147,0.18070295803154224,0.07036672848717745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253287844081315,0.061371715164627076,0.06383608772126674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32438180967847324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330892770276056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05302355240193359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286560114401262,0.251298099615593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496056670623957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23433558023383055,0.2646602849563916,0.06609894611497315,0.06919808324592193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06223153139916385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478874789457075,0.0,0.0,0.07908874712980632,0.0,0.05619430625362661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04881894305190701,0.0,0.13278362580681993,0.20157921115210506,0.0,0.07672713016918274,0.0746856015026915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660026373248294
EDAnonymous,DuFeilin92,2019/08/08,"So I got friend dumped today mid relapse... This year has been a real, real struggle. I have had a really crappy job and problems with alcohol, mild (to moderate if I'm being honest with myself) drug abuse and a bulimia relapse. My current situation is very isolated (I live in China-long story) and I've slipped into some very restrictive eating patterns. I had made what I thought was a good friend to whom I could vent. However, I was told today that I've been using them as a dumping ground for my problems without making any effort to sort them out. I am massively, massively hurt by them as I really trusted this person and am in desperate need of a listening ear for my pathetic, scale-bound existence. 

Has anyone out here had anything similar? And how did you move forward from it?",5.745100671140939,6.837814953020136,6.931067114093961,71.90881543624162,67.25503355704697,10.25530201342282,33.69194630872483,10.355215969177356,3.849031677852349,624,28,104,16,10,211,102,149,0.204,0.695,0.10099999999999999,-0.9419,3,0,2,0,1,0,22.0,0,1,3,1,3,11,2,1,6,0,16,4,1,4,0,26,25,10,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,6,10,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,0,0,12,2,17,5,18,11,1,13,0,1,0,0,10,8,0,3,5,73,23,1,0.0,0.18458198721825408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648880491166668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059404256549029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10892981396031083,0.0,0.12819933450325705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124383153168355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066333042792126,0.1594088781439284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24072112566124776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066664996989627,0.12459700533076505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677308512176847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459444752522353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756267580396742,0.1378664931034092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740931971476107,0.10398895710625176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16557680697769064,0.0,0.11551400310720635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602710117808153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981340237032097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35463916811317736,0.1996021385578721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511098875628736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16286227976682574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367738710485016,0.0,0.0,0.2953355073205185,0.14886104709948142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345498518333352,0.0,0.2570809950080607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017300027472752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003216478714318
EDAnonymous,adrawnangel,2019/08/08,"Does anyone else get cold sweats/nausea/stomach pain when fasting? I feel dumb posting here again since I just had other issues like two days ago but this is the second time it's happened and like. I'm just trying to get some sleep

I popped a couple of tums and the pain isn't as bad but cold sweats are still existent and if I move I feel like the nausea will hit again

Idk I'm overweight so I feel like this shit should be affecting me the way it does, like I still have a ton of reserves to blow through?? But I guess I've never spiraled this hard lmao",2.2355172413793127,3.9514515172413813,2.7684827586206917,95.8747931034483,76.93103448275863,5.329655172413793,20.220689655172414,5.6839178017228535,-0.2463420689655172,440,10,98,2,10,136,76,116,0.162,0.6509999999999999,0.187,0.6358,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,9,10,2,0,6,0,8,6,3,1,1,17,18,10,0,2,6,0,4,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,2,1,6,9,5,6,13,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,15,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275504395821545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260512144380015,0.16500774793412146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13446431126365282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17819119270927966,0.0,0.1038595149999654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28185990796152394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453089501372115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442847804889744,0.2300985304072128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827680787774058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740719616879486,0.0,0.14240993394270113,0.0,0.14426303865989865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808721801463225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39338776522332336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17116339209752846,0.0,0.0,0.12420641247148548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427225518291029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423483019763345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530848880030558,0.13321656557222428,0.0,0.16115946277411888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572185501384273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093905561280357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093377340347514,0.0,0.15731576617956075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782856393444772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paracetamolsmiles,2019/08/08,i relapsed but wow it’s been 2 days since i relapsed (anorexia) and i was like ugh about it bc i wanna he recovered but i’ve already lost inches off my tummy so i’m UGH BUT SKINNY???,-2.6050277777777784,-1.7314672249999958,0.8933333333333344,96.57388888888887,121.25,2.7777777777777786,16.944444444444443,5.033348758259628,-0.5611388888888893,141,5,31,1,9,50,30,40,0.259,0.564,0.177,-0.6068,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,4,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,5,2,3,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699890480190194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333110556081668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25234398067294955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5638390186840434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272679709419826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,riessk4,2019/08/08,Why am I not losing weight? I weigh 150 lbs and have been eating under 200 calories a day for several months (like a granola bar or some fruit) and I I work out most days. I am not losing any weight at all. I don’t even look slightly thinner. I just want to be skinnier. Why can’t I lose weight?,0.7909523809523833,2.567489603174604,2.36531746031746,96.80607142857143,81.53968253968254,4.834920634920637,20.02380952380953,5.46131890053228,-0.3279714285714284,227,6,53,1,6,74,47,63,0.049,0.847,0.10400000000000001,0.265,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,0,2,0,7,7,0,0,1,11,9,3,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,5,8,1,5,7,3,6,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,3,4,32,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460097973082267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217365953899386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724404399940228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113074255740682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823315098670968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151633408490427,0.5656002239886024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13451293532194614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19038229226009087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939885076824947,0.0,0.0,0.6156444816713472,0.0,0.0,0.3041304253723696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268628094600326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bpdix,2019/08/08,"Overeating lately for the last week ive been having 2200+ calories a day, and breaking even worse today at 3000+, i cant weigh myself bc ive been at my boyfriends apartment for the last week and he doesnt have a scale so i want to die, i stopped purging and now just binging multiple snacks throughout the day, i need to trigger myself into restriction before i gain a bunch and its too late :-(",5.056750000000001,5.428406174999999,5.252500000000001,85.9025,68.5,7.4,31.0,6.742157984588678,1.654325,314,12,63,2,5,99,56,80,0.174,0.76,0.065,-0.8235,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,0,8,2,0,1,0,11,10,5,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,10,0,8,8,1,17,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,11,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20193742954686056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060968478027226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24629531206588545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567441979484473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868864984228213,0.5354028988192291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175965929227035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840581261963114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249466972898576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997442722542364,0.0,0.3807192619361424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418440721070353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boredomsbestfriend,2019/08/08,Do you ever forget to eat until your body punishes you by throwing up/dry heaving? It happens and I hate myself every time.,3.8024999999999984,5.742980916666671,5.8066666666666675,74.80500000000002,73.16666666666666,6.466666666666668,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.0555666666666665,98,4,15,1,2,34,23,24,0.314,0.6859999999999999,0.0,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.457077689932898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4210616633024008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722203868726573,0.34670191333856115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638832792967252,0.0,0.0,0.40626568475691865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399457863427176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilratbastard,2019/08/08,"I can't poop?! \[trigger warning: poop?\]

Does anyone had tips for \**ahem*\* encouraging bowel movement that don't involve laxatives? I know it's pretty common for this to happen when you restrict but this is a first for me! Please help a sister out.. I've already tried BM massages from YouTube and I've also eaten 2 fiber one brownies.. Is there any hope left?",2.3652777777777807,5.272599220588237,2.9743137254901946,87.19552287581702,86.20588235294117,4.1986928104575165,25.20261437908497,5.82211442006289,0.8899065359477119,289,12,49,2,9,90,58,68,0.026000000000000002,0.723,0.251,0.9424,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,1,0,7,9,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,4,2,6,7,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303560527078135,0.2394015975516465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035780534155663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20932254470259035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26197579838138224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546392004222544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26472694475705183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20065764282278814,0.0,0.0,0.29733639052886895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452284176840193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32526028977465365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20285706083940944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32861220693453064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30456121192055285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032487725843956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MonarchCrew,2019/08/08,I’m going to iHOP in 30 minutes I’m really really scared. I’m trying to lose weight “the healthy way” but it’s so hard and I can FEEL the relapse happening. And now iHOP! It’s for an event I can’t avoid. I’m about to have a full panic attack over *pancakes*. I feel so out of control.,-2.1935064935064936,-0.5273549682539667,1.0658585858585852,97.6218181818182,106.61904761904762,4.195670995670996,15.25108225108225,6.1124844417494595,-0.4597809523809526,219,6,52,3,11,77,44,63,0.278,0.693,0.027999999999999997,-0.9453,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,1,3,4,0,3,1,0,1,0,8,11,5,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,4,3,0,9,11,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31161585767867395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072169937016339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27699753199154536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567120851315305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422205764574083,0.0,0.24537246397261575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064388549833388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213781731333272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509516752432543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742349411171293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18596911207823533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217419582937118,0.0,0.3335525377090028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,weetbbix,2019/08/08,"[TW] hELp me come up with REASONS NOT TO BINGE so I saw this post a few weeks ago about ""reasons not to purge that aren't disccused enough"" & i thought i'd ask if anyone could help me come up with physical/mental reasons NOT to binge eat. as in the binge-without-purge kind. which is what i've mostly gone through (though i guess if overexercise counts as purging (???) i suppose i've done that for a lot longer which is why i've managed to maintain average size throughout my 2am dry cereal bonanzas)

mentioned post:
https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/ciovvd/reasons_not_to_purge_that_are_not_discussed_enough/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app

PLS TELL ME REASONABLE REASONS NOT TO BINGE SO I CAN REFERENCE THIS POST NEXT TIME THE URGE HITS (and ohhh will it hit)

i'll (try to) start - mostly mental reasons:
1. post-binge feelings are a special type of hell. i feel this mix of profound SHAME - being so out of control around food to the point that i feel like an impulsive animal chomping on cold pieces of wholegrain toast just feels like self-imposed degradation.
2. when you're so full from a binge that you have no room left to actually enjoy a proper meal with oThEr humans/people you love. you binge, then you skip proper meal times - leading you to feel restricted bcs you're seeing other ppl eat but you have to stop yourself from eating with them because you ALREADY ate too much. then the satanic restrict-binge cycle starts up again :))))))
3. you see food as an enemy instead of sth to be enjoyed - bcs you eat so MUCH of some things that they taste like cardboard in your mouth, yet you keep. on. going.

then the more obvious physical reasons
4. the 5-month food baby bloat. skin is not meant to be stretched out that far, that fast.
5. the weight gain (!!?!!) though sometimes i wonder whether this is the least important reason to stop & i should focus on more mental priorities 

OK FRIENDS help me i'm counting on you",4.625006422607576,7.648055338150293,3.709778420038536,85.58376846499681,75.09826589595377,6.156583172768142,24.929030186255627,7.3871296695380915,1.2571222864482978,1561,53,273,20,36,456,204,346,0.064,0.812,0.124,0.9717,0,0,0,0,0,0,82.0,0,12,2,3,15,13,1,1,15,1,16,15,2,10,1,51,41,19,0,4,10,0,7,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,18,10,12,5,17,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,6,12,28,10,43,27,13,42,2,0,3,1,22,18,1,8,19,160,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.07117961761576408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646575443103494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804918945980536,0.0,0.0,0.2370937080153737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051001845030819865,0.0,0.0,0.06493270213954877,0.06818972378542182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0444639838524856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566393754583555,0.0,0.0,0.08180921598677944,0.058237226996904264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464367759862278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985462511703452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536725857170884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440508978247855,0.10421772508371284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646006122734511,0.0,0.056353816738788996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041453890185983486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08035242278806055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667187451840874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06483306037311425,0.0,0.07595653196066672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925030205101058,0.0,0.0,0.10690544931717304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06201158890261254,0.06583184456330637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701417306693895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05822058412701527,0.0,0.10723963879363696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07757327964102283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050567908825446733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895255374795015,0.0,0.27942817545898113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5999616397209275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624861499131404,0.0,0.07609307523471869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214023384624972,0.0,0.1032556293231927,0.0,0.0,0.12196341036024748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375340133558056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048458571049632165,0.0,0.14332776751709653,0.0579067814550437,0.08506463689297182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049521958644168036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058508643172400086,0.08882214252404189,0.0,0.0,0.06581765156487554,0.0,0.0,0.0703122479454115,0.07910109575341727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ShaAleMoo,2019/11/01,"I hate laxatives I took some laxatives last night and Jesus Christ, I have been waiting for them to kick in for over 16 hours. As soon as I’m out of the house and in class though, now they kick in.
Murphy’s law I guess",3.439503546099292,3.5781923829787274,4.07744680851064,93.73333333333336,71.97872340425532,7.9687943262411345,22.04964539007092,7.793537801064563,0.4736156028368792,170,3,42,2,3,54,36,47,0.085,0.915,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,7,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,11,5,1,11,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,5,26,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838971076277101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440582168427929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431889508537309,0.4021065685834586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840629643569825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270309213011849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34238616262810445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871812626230909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,purple_sanpa,2019/11/01,"My mom pisses me off so bad Alright I feel pathetic for making a post with this title but I need to vent. 

I just had a quick phone call with her and it was not good. First I told her that I started exercising again and the first thing she said was ""Wow that's amazing, think about how much more food you can eat now, aren't you excited!?"" Uh... no? 

Then I told her that I've transitioned off keto and onto low carb and she literally screamed ""YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!"" at the top of her lungs before I can could finish the sentence, I asked her what she was so excited about and she said ""Oh nothing, I'm just happy that you'll be eating more! Ahahahaaaaaa!"" I started getting really annoyed by this point and asked her to stop talking about dieting habits

Finally she asked what I was having for dinner and I told her ""steamed brussels sprouts, broccoli, spinach and mackerel"" and again she broke out into a deafening scream: 

""NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... Why not get a pizza, or an ice cream!? it's a friday!!!"" 

I got really upset at this and called her an immature prat before I could calm myself down. 

I wouldn't have minded if she had said anything of these normally, but the level of (childlike) enthusiasm and obsession she showed over the prospect of me eating more food just got to me really badly. 

And for the record I'm not going to eat more because I'm exercising or off keto, low carb for me just means I eat plain oatmeal for breakfast and eat more veggies than usual, I tried eating fruit again and immediately got hit with sweetness cravings so I dropped it fast, I just can't handle sugar I guess.",2.9149936748893097,5.4321581928104585,3.607389837655493,86.78067362428844,78.1830065359477,6.562766181741514,24.250052709255748,7.717688229018142,1.3403931267130509,1261,44,240,20,31,398,166,306,0.16399999999999998,0.7340000000000001,0.10099999999999999,-0.9644,1,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,3,0,3,17,20,2,2,13,1,17,19,2,2,0,45,44,24,0,6,13,1,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,14,19,15,1,3,3,0,1,7,11,1,2,15,10,44,9,31,23,6,33,0,3,1,0,33,15,1,4,15,164,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256778856634383,0.0,0.2473199661740783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472596499684506,0.05375605185011029,0.0,0.15007590971541468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009112532337712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408152451853332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6316386014559956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044588400358628766,0.0,0.0,0.09660108898561573,0.0,0.15001826263778878,0.21326450459517896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214483602751586,0.0,0.05011690984819248,0.07396442317293764,0.21158602360637505,0.0,0.09714444436664,0.0,0.0,0.09387334003445848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058863399578172965,0.0,0.0,0.09605805638126998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904054246266092,0.10327985045599172,0.0,0.0,0.06482527074612983,0.06538720178553475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640144237498983,0.08461477513921452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336223462948024,0.0,0.08445574477867558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694784826034693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516490841317994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248339550978635,0.0,0.0,0.07372564087928929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087883219750796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058585426500883823,0.056504645519143214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25279032142101954,0.0,0.05987104046787069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712204391291963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795722016702774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nihilistic_Asshole_9,2019/11/01,"Do diet drinks make you hungry? Was watching Secret Eaters and one of the guys on the show drank several litres of diet coke a day. He was also a huge snacker, and ofc this was correlated. They cited a study that found out that drinking diet soda increases your appetite because your body expects sugar, so people supplement it with snacks. 


What is your personal experience with diet drinks and hunger? Do they suppress your appetite or just make you crave sugar?",6.653293172690763,8.484265192771089,6.438734939759038,73.5387449799197,65.74698795180723,8.424899598393575,30.700803212851405,8.841846274778883,2.7787767068273093,373,14,57,6,6,117,60,83,0.024,0.9420000000000001,0.034,0.212,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,6,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,6,15,1,2,0,14,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,6,14,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,3,8,0,6,5,1,5,0,0,1,0,12,3,0,1,1,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825153622592175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912682387396566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253511959382529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718939941986825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6707352187066717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22325262836146406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25024229654037666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259834754365184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046904504285514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465448152641328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582258703622526,0.1992815385488084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578348150227013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,singingtangerine,2019/11/01,"Anyone else dealing with compulsive overeating in recovery? I became weight-recovered in fall 2017 because my body ""lost control"" I began binge-eating until I gained enough weight to be healthy. Since then, I have stopped trying to restrict and have begun eating healthy foods, focusing on getting enough protein because I do weight training now (as a hobby, not to compensate). I would call myself mostly recovered, except for one thing: the binges.

Every time I'm alone for long periods of time, every time something stressful happens, or every time I'm around a lot of food, I think to myself, ""I get to eat now!"" and I binge. I have literally no control over my eating. I spend all day thinking about food, am super excited when I'm about to eat, and am upset when my meal is over. There's literally no reason for this other than I just love eating (and it's exacerbated by a food addiction). If I didn't log all I eat and put *significant effort* into a healthy diet, I would eat 4000+ calories of food a day and would never stop eating - I've tried it. 

Is anyone experiencing this? What do you do to ""deal""? I'm tired of it, I want to be healthy!",4.351588235294116,6.020295281818182,5.440695187165776,79.1051604278075,71.18181818181819,7.72192513368984,28.395721925133692,8.313332769828598,2.1018101604278074,902,34,163,14,17,298,125,220,0.1,0.772,0.128,0.8027,0,1,1,1,0,0,42.0,0,1,0,6,9,6,0,2,6,0,16,21,1,3,3,31,29,13,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,9,17,5,3,0,1,2,5,3,0,1,3,3,22,3,31,21,6,29,0,1,0,1,5,8,0,4,19,109,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159368504028693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751835614194502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466876492267213,0.07668903935047006,0.0,0.06662921441304051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125141003367523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313753994345457,0.0,0.0,0.07642660014416483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789332996588416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653954474832327,0.15432681974820187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6126928812753889,0.06252461009091675,0.0,0.0,0.15467279400463738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18918410241957967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525231598273378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820836841103844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618647405811465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623675848106976,0.0,0.0,0.08170374847225452,0.06363178055035745,0.06755184894643253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057726201180622036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071789578153737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524136123896502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695462266196325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061913762033656575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057620458671244865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251499776179659,0.08573636272928101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049724659751206456,0.09591717396678992,0.0,0.0,0.17457428210298226,0.08602499107547179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163166145664812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044146379088028986,0.0,0.0,0.2734284597986309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950632516368676,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sophielandeg,2019/11/01,"question so, i have pretty good self control, but sometimes it just goes out the window and i get an uncontrollable urge to eat/binge. (binging to me is literally eating a normal person amount) so any advice on stopping myself?",4.487926829268293,7.270023097560973,5.387987804878048,74.68978658536588,74.12195121951221,6.051219512195122,27.32317073170732,7.1686216300943375,1.843678048780488,181,7,27,2,4,59,38,41,0.121,0.777,0.102,-0.2093,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,8,3,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555870233929419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17786532838276506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933544565061369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352689926045396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665089264781313,0.0,0.0,0.21937864098524906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25626686715412345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22837840107238944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660939087590269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29299974528233524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27285731149127274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586830693452941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867041217976732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pinkwashtub,2019/11/01,DAE get confused when people refer to being under 200 lbs as onederland because they have always thought of that as being under 100lbs Or is it just my disordered ass? Keep seeing people on loseit celebrating this and panicking because everyone is congratulating them,9.305999999999996,11.233975600000004,9.402222222222225,54.37000000000002,59.66666666666666,11.333333333333336,37.22222222222222,11.20814326018867,5.2058888888888895,222,10,26,6,3,73,39,45,0.163,0.768,0.069,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,7,9,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,7,6,0,4,0,0,1,1,2,3,1,2,1,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828156162352988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41438744402496186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895432602663699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247793552621491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757843892632888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021097509555365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712737067686925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270848236392338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698346063465275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emotionalaquarian,2019/11/01,"why do mirrors and phone pictures have to be so different right i’m just so done with this. in the mirror i look like a massive whale and in pictures i look like so thin ?!?! 

i swear my phone is like broken or it has like some special lens idek 

in the mirror i feel like i look like fat monica and then in pictures i look like skinny monica (i say this because Courtney Cox is literally my body goals and I love her). 

anyway rant over..",3.8740823970037472,4.534768561797755,4.911853932584272,86.26680711610489,71.24719101123596,7.731086142322098,26.069288389513112,7.793537801064563,1.286706367041199,338,10,72,4,6,111,55,89,0.069,0.6809999999999999,0.25,0.9544,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,0,0,3,0,7,4,3,0,0,9,14,9,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,11,9,7,12,1,8,0,0,4,1,5,7,0,2,8,43,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041758079138338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011989958317476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18924643580186296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853629294476987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915867726425548,0.12940213721629626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6194503239840151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.608427626585895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16348047084198294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468741214088053,0.0,0.14404499517683075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634452253148141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sleepy_Golden_Storm,2019/11/01,"So No Binge November didn't work out That's it. Just wanna publicly wallow a little.

.5/30 days is a pretty impressive failure lol",1.6653999999999982,4.395799440000005,3.3675,82.05125000000002,94.6,5.7,22.25,7.1686216300943375,1.5696000000000008,106,4,17,2,4,35,24,25,0.18600000000000005,0.515,0.299,0.5434,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,11,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732481070039387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5800630177211161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888003413590025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213394167482679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sfn24,2019/11/01,It’s November 1st and I’m already dreading Thanksgiving Anyone else feeling it this early?,4.942499999999999,8.430078250000005,5.967500000000001,66.5275,79.0,8.200000000000001,39.25,8.841846274778883,5.0951,76,5,9,2,2,25,15,16,0.201,0.71,0.08900000000000001,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5729192261911724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36301714272341135,0.5319530800574229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337015980243692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625089690619508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImBoredOnHere,2019/11/01,"Anyone wanna chat on kik (pro or not I don’t care) I’ve been wanting to talk to other people who have an Eating disorder (I have anorexia) and just wanna chat learn about other ones share different story’s ya know? 
I guess I’m just lonely and wanting to chat with actual people now message me for my kik!",0.7532258064516101,3.2370323064516136,3.038951612903226,87.07842741935484,88.83870967741936,5.035483870967743,17.427419354838708,6.6274283507984215,0.2388645161290324,241,6,45,3,8,82,46,62,0.09,0.873,0.036000000000000004,-0.5093,1,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,14,10,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,6,2,9,9,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,1,0,2,1,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.2832706117608162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20296995582076646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959589756990537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30327996606019875,0.3326850951790036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970280750327903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197752491802751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595298488879218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19670068857134407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024860753193217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333154137155003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34242836895090395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,glitterONeverything,2019/11/01,"how do i know if i lost too much weight too fast? cw: numbers (weight) my weight keeps dropping like everyday pretty much, i lost 10 lbs over 2 week span so far. is that bad? i went from 112 to 102. im always shaky and out of it, often feel like i will pass out but i havent yet.",-1.601774193548387,0.2971068064516125,0.5647580645161305,104.8171370967742,93.83870967741936,3.745161290322581,12.588709677419354,5.148860815047168,-1.5930709677419361,210,3,56,1,8,69,49,62,0.125,0.78,0.095,-0.1926,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,6,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,11,10,5,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,3,4,7,2,6,6,2,12,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,3,6,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674307037648805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728523647157827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524804786374057,0.1345751204418059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20347729931001568,0.0,0.0,0.16743633391180698,0.0,0.0,0.10352596033861212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406099610135399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4112670773562063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769545640186855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164507254470736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110304308576594,0.6881699164976444,0.0,0.17462548993304752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,butterbr0tt,2019/11/01,Jeans Do you ever just have to remind yourself that skinny jeans aren’t supposed to be loose/baggy?,8.149473684210527,7.708703947368424,7.346315789473685,76.23421052631579,62.15789473684211,7.6,29.52631578947368,3.1291,1.4296947368421051,81,2,13,0,1,25,17,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dancesatagathering,2019/11/01,i used to think lack of appetite due to depression was a scam... then my boyfriend and i took a break :(,1.3142857142857132,3.2208063809523857,1.9907142857142863,99.49178571428571,80.42857142857143,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.6963142857142857,78,3,19,1,2,24,18,21,0.3720000000000001,0.628,0.0,-0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,3,2,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4866208275754975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620196306688911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6277192201842119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879657137457737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,helenalloy,2019/11/01,Nothing more triggering than looking at old pics of yourself from when you were skinny Guess who’s crying at her desk and trying not to go puke in the bathroom lol,6.145937499999999,6.788121718750002,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,66.1875,7.65,31.625,7.1686216300943375,1.97895,133,5,24,1,2,41,31,32,0.085,0.763,0.152,0.3561,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,7,3,1,6,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,2,16,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510403354455711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23336146988872666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523377518205136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448124492565259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39399532733767184,0.0,0.43087045154009534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27878003750970776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,janelle_jay1056,2019/11/01,everybody out here doing No Nut November while i be doing No Eat November,2.255714285714287,5.171803142857144,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,89.0,11.371428571428574,28.42857142857143,10.125756701596842,5.1189714285714265,60,3,9,3,2,22,11,14,0.28600000000000003,0.7140000000000001,0.0,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,burnerbaby0987,2019/11/01,200 calories gonna make me fatter probably idk Only 40 hours into my fast and I’m really regretting taking in food. I had 200 calories of soup and broth and I justified it because it’s way under the 20% of BMR allotted for multi day fasts. But I don’t feel as hungry as I should. I really need the feeling of hunger to let me know I’m actually doing something. Stupid because I’m doing 72 hours anyways and I know 200 doesn’t make a difference in that amount of time but it feels like it halted my fast. If I can even call it a fast anymore.,1.95315789473684,3.679050631578949,4.2788070175438575,84.6903157894737,77.77192982456141,7.3670175438596495,23.68070175438596,8.238735603445708,1.4575712280701754,428,14,88,8,10,149,74,114,0.066,0.872,0.062,0.1494,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,4,0,8,2,0,2,0,20,21,9,0,4,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,1,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,11,1,12,17,2,13,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,2,9,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.1955764064495735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19875810804472024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443425932756087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046464122315668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925127791859234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20939131504501174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237240459410846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040079674382581,0.14317671858150044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24234295634156156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947373673375594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22028599700478396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20493820593570092,0.0,0.0979127841540001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675575159807731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486053932668075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242485416481058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21608157273337372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567823250810526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428947664771714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15068735120667895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686376350932196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15908032348342238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mourningxdove,2019/11/01,"Work so much to distract oneself Just wondering does anyone work so much just to distract themselves from the real world. When I'm in work mode I'm a total different person (I work in social care) I do crazy unsocialable hours, I look after people and I find that ironic when I can't look after myself. I guess it's easy to restrict but dumb on my part as I need the mental and physical energy to do my job. How do people manage a healthy work/life balance? How do people with EDs cope with restricting in a damanding career? I'm only asking as I have a habit of burning out and having to take time off from work,it's something I need to work on.",3.439090909090908,4.7644301818181845,4.844363636363639,83.84154545454548,72.93939393939394,7.098181818181819,24.56363636363637,7.554174236665415,1.23294909090909,512,15,99,6,10,171,79,132,0.13,0.8059999999999999,0.064,-0.741,2,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,8,4,1,2,6,0,7,0,0,2,1,20,19,12,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,13,1,22,19,4,14,0,0,2,0,3,8,1,2,6,66,15,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490795627363499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689241574353352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838925771477031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181252413006587,0.0,0.0,0.11878122183569632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405787777770455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495256539021583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367006749674135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469446547679395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279637582367656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678735250273902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995593481623364,0.20128920737688547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323137473310362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469860559718196,0.0,0.2823013683184106,0.1185171781835828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449433647461855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836311824580738,0.0,0.10449421039939576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205463213457162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914724294574238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471970932115367,0.6917087737106729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsntwhatitlookslike,2019/11/01,Surgery while having an ed? Hey! So I have some questions. So I have a disease and need to go to the hospital a lot. Everytime we go I get blood drawn and I nearly every time pass out! And I've been heavily restricting this month and the surgery is in December and I'm gonna heavy restrict up to that date too. I have to be put under anesthesia. I'm kinda just scared that me having an ed could mess something up. Can anything go wrong due to my eating disorder? What could happen if I come in and lost a lot of weight? Lol I'm just scared that something is gonna go wrong! If anyone could offer any insight or what they have experienced that would be amazing! Thank you!!,0.7518205238299699,3.1888132846715362,2.3675397166165766,92.44215543151569,87.6861313868613,5.559295835122369,21.197509660798627,7.048011613610866,0.6570338342636329,528,18,111,8,17,172,85,137,0.17800000000000002,0.759,0.063,-0.9408,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,1,1,1,1,5,8,0,2,7,1,16,3,1,0,0,27,31,12,0,7,5,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,9,2,2,2,0,0,7,0,6,0,0,2,2,11,2,13,21,3,19,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,8,5,72,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851347808280444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115754718434918,0.0,0.1313130052937963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745594024015145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822124127338659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288172907064548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328055789603171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444511046090085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336905106330432,0.0,0.36275059103876894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411077522152277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741901568038688,0.2713224310764669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12736772838413946,0.0,0.0,0.11831957599700972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16041252399579406,0.1787555884390272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31951601045518785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456904834534827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691116702132254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304689852684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19431399895986348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335437402812545,0.3489307967027699,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chunkyypotatoe,2019/11/01,"Trying to compromise with my ED I have two exams on monday for work with a lot riding on them (huge raise and promotion) so obviously it's really important that I pass. I told myself I would eat at maintenance from Thursday to monday so I can sleep, study properly and focus. Obviously my weight will go up so to compromise, once my exams were done I will compensate and lose it all. I'm only one day in and I am kind of freaking out. I hate feeling full, I feel huge and disgusting. I think I just need encouragement that I'm doing the right thing.",2.7303669724770643,4.842339880733949,4.7912752293577965,80.12562844036698,76.79816513761469,8.763669724770642,23.74403669724771,9.3871,2.223626788990825,433,14,84,12,10,149,76,109,0.12,0.799,0.081,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,3,4,6,2,0,2,0,9,3,1,0,3,18,18,8,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,2,3,3,16,2,14,12,3,17,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,1,4,60,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501442025118849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382470663742309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23822435739578104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354330498097688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231218027221525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22985322606695285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424374239556928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604565957329287,0.0,0.1979280712386128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17262682907524504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479367237083342,0.15775914491935866,0.17706368973759914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914505310626525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19881980856363687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23297970354927944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466966211583225,0.1491762534201046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224614318815953,0.0,0.15806377375351496,0.0,0.2274230748678556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28350177223606216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948959559980795,0.0,0.0,0.16538265950833994,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AstrologyBou,2019/11/01,"I have no friends to shock Because I’m a dysfunctional bitch I really look forward to people being concerned about my weight.

But because I’m a self-loathing bitch I’m convinced that no one likes me or wants to talk to me.

So I’ve been spending hours on public transit to go to underground shows where I do nothing but sit by myself for hours at a time, barely speaking to anyone. I’ll know when I’ve become a skinny legend when someone gets worried.",5.014666666666667,5.876778022222222,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,68.77777777777777,7.333333333333332,31.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.005333333333334,362,15,67,3,6,117,63,90,0.14800000000000002,0.785,0.068,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,4,0,4,2,1,0,0,5,12,6,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,2,2,3,0,1,1,3,7,3,12,10,0,11,0,0,1,0,4,4,2,1,7,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744132782599933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291954477027056,0.2644731723101512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850120892117493,0.0,0.12511194780528706,0.0,0.1360949669977588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4716547373060001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316051413503913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169917831710174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010924893657874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22977563989830685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16226945680452504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660166959450243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534090893114743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498169536409053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290013735146945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924750021096409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396354949883538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124420668707727,0.0,0.0,0.2916070482467535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431909921775767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aurate9,2019/11/01,"Triggered by a girl at work What am I suppose to do when I’m so incredibly envious of a girl at works body, sure she doesn’t eat which makes me eat 10x more for some reason. Every time I see her I want to purge. It doesn’t help that I work around unhealthy food..... and everyone always comments on her weight loss. I just want to be as thin as I was when I was little",2.085485232067512,3.089753012658228,3.5855063291139264,92.80754219409285,75.83544303797468,6.785654008438819,22.02742616033755,7.1686216300943375,0.395833755274261,284,7,68,3,6,94,58,79,0.11,0.79,0.1,-0.4159,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,0,2,0,7,5,1,3,1,10,12,6,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,11,1,12,9,2,9,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,1,3,43,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17558893029039746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878561612141421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23440016881706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4318606098449661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777968796238709,0.2016425412783411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551711420119027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14144498533212224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115015552665442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086020476381605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21696788906053605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815886170728192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19888768777474392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304983171226777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489349268196771,0.0,0.0,0.2569704659683191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608841068033837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,worthlessstatue,2019/11/01,"I'm a horrible person, maybe one day I'll change. I have a strong hatred for my family, they caused me horrible trauma that partially caused my anorexia. if I die from it I hope they think it's their fault. That sounds so evil but still, they caused this, they fucked me up. I grew up with no love, from family, friends or any living thing so anorexia was the only thing that was there for me, now it's too comforting to leave. I was shown the tiniest bit of affection once and that almost made me not wanna die or starve. I'm a fucking pathetic loser.",2.4932432432432456,4.470391342342341,3.515576576576578,89.62795945945946,77.01801801801804,7.322882882882882,21.009909909909908,8.238735603445708,0.9800190990990988,433,11,91,8,10,139,73,111,0.317,0.532,0.151,-0.973,0,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,5,2,6,11,3,0,5,0,4,3,0,5,0,16,12,7,2,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,10,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,4,1,16,5,10,8,1,7,0,1,0,3,8,3,2,5,3,59,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479302996124573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191320738566844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17966775901261925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5071760057121403,0.17409318285688255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613400136047424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415952457338126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31028379958936386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271463329116424,0.304284528535606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345509045926965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17425581197576467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531827836831426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14853080251567571,0.15572006309996242,0.0,0.0,0.16533263158653294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526162270094248,0.11151685527233793,0.12516286059072704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369613006656268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314257723538385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21866592055895626,0.10544977707138957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,okykuhl,2019/11/01,"I'm tired of not talking to anyone Long time lurker. I'm bad at this.i think I have an ed. Mods please remove this comment if it doesnt follow the standards. I'm really feeling alone. I'm not in the position for therapy. It wont change my behavior. On that note, I'm  not ready to change my behavior because I want to be thin. My family life was great, my husband is great, but I cant look at myself.  I'm an engineer and the logic behind eat x to recieve y rules  me..... and I'm odly ok with it..... its math. Im just tired of not being able to be openly talk about it. What brings me joy is physco to norm.",-0.10463467829880102,1.8186547251908431,2.561575790621593,93.3634541984733,85.7175572519084,5.880261723009816,18.517448200654307,7.1686216300943375,0.21569749182115586,463,12,108,7,14,161,86,131,0.085,0.7829999999999999,0.131,0.7229,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,1,10,4,0,0,0,16,23,4,1,2,7,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,3,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,1,3,10,4,16,18,0,11,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,1,2,58,18,1,0.18195671186853984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845227822269114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722836364276094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192625407329854,0.1109191226939217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849721491158388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861871417844329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153259421700456,0.0,0.09200278070820224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40121583439737457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19654447274654532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852140669201326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102596415985554,0.152797811000671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997338290565856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656612889087707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29249982520437434,0.0,0.0,0.208083357706356,0.0,0.0,0.1165905138753515,0.0,0.0,0.10610042194766127,0.4182649467585205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732278299591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katspossum,2019/11/01,"Recovery help I am in the midst of a restrictive relapse, and I’m constipated and mentally hungry, which makes me want to eat but bloated whenever I eat anything, which makes me want to restrict. Along with feeling uncomfortable with the weight I’ve put on in recovery. I’m open to advice from anyone as to what my next steps should be, anything would help. Thank you.",5.606956521739129,7.193683608695654,5.8673623188405815,77.57582608695652,67.98550724637681,9.577971014492757,32.64057971014493,9.888512548439397,3.327287536231885,295,13,53,7,5,94,49,69,0.091,0.735,0.174,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,2,0,16,12,4,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,13,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209517837412175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581011608378959,0.0,0.372138037635786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4627333466594283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432785908591515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30311313390875394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30185996349559274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22786539788375124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404702330638659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22730270226637814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817143465637009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667307208894124,0.0,0.0,0.2753407025309397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062184478178426,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anu_start_69,2019/11/01,"Not as recovered as I thought I was I struggled with anorexia when I was younger. I'm 27 now and usually feel like I'm totally recovered, but recently I've realized that I still struggle with some of the habits/behaviors/mental blocks that were (are?) part of my ED. 


For example, I'm still a bit underweight, and though I tell myself that isn't a big deal because I eat regularly and without counting calories, I also (and this is hard to admit) am afraid of being a ""normal"" weight. Sometimes I fantasize about actively starving myself, but I don't do it because I know that's like a recovering alcoholic having a drink. Even still, sometimes I skip meals because... I enjoy it. It's like a game to me, seeing how far I can push my body, and how thin I can get without setting off major alarm bells to the people around me. But I tell myself I skip meals because I'm busy, not because I still struggle with anorexia - after all, I'm not counting calories or anything... 


Something else I really struggle with is eating in public. It makes me uncomfortable almost unconsciously, so much so that my stomach hurts too badly to want to eat anything, anyways, even though I tell myself consciously that it's fine and I should eat. And of course, I don't like eating ""unsafe"" foods still. Being vegan helps a lot with that (socially acceptable excuse). 


Anyways, I guess the point of this post is that I'm not as recovered as I thought I was, and that's been a tough realization to have. I'm not really sure what to do about it, nor do I necessarily want to do anything about it, but I found this subreddit recently and thought this would be a good place to get this off my chest. 


P.S. thanks for the support and the memes - they warm my heart and make me feel less alone! I laughed at ""eat and yeet"" for about five minutes straight.",6.152230790043291,6.404461071022728,6.568733766233766,77.82280303030305,66.13068181818181,9.772943722943724,33.807359307359306,9.606745405546679,3.095800703463204,1435,60,272,27,21,466,169,352,0.111,0.7490000000000001,0.14,0.8872,0,1,3,0,0,0,57.0,0,0,1,0,25,22,0,6,14,0,26,16,4,4,3,58,51,30,0,5,12,0,6,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,22,18,12,1,11,2,0,1,11,9,0,1,9,7,42,13,38,37,9,25,0,1,1,0,11,11,0,5,15,192,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399081407921104,0.07869841119505623,0.08139748141878457,0.0,0.06284989480601971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940232523451872,0.06996343204444011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562093363680994,0.23954439059095625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0858019734244499,0.08729785691481004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102477315096987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699011819533924,0.0,0.4825146575062264,0.0656534276703826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381838570007693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947682780807785,0.05614605188499824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950336083653984,0.08617193544093121,0.0,0.0,0.08212202285190551,0.0,0.0,0.06591913678398832,0.0,0.0,0.08657781188986663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040288383721267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313175141072083,0.05267847780637911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413422868468992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04319203966924561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358408304869287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06681600246408348,0.0,0.0,0.1049213749505412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05777407172340001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700335179974381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510734293587274,0.0,0.05448571114652168,0.0,0.08211178294390856,0.0,0.07429472591588096,0.0,0.07526929236292737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069593639237163,0.0,0.15519999222019662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262754981092489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011452022687307,0.0,0.06050386576111438,0.15545874981531094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31381786829098884,0.0,0.0,0.3286451714917287,0.0,0.0,0.08918512947683012,0.07407191299007862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20607829098307734,0.07235684022698156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544322381842798,0.18717951212943376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655784798682419,0.0,0.09271104936602433,0.0,0.0,0.09570373213742188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151952772421015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05582941376670268,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drmngofthn,2019/11/01,"Should I ask if he wants me to be smaller? Creeped my husband’s phone...Before you say anything, YES I am insecure when drinking, ok?(and maybe all the time) I searched my husband’s phone and it’s littered with skinny, undressed/nearly undressed girls on tumblr and “xxx small teen” pornhub video searches. He isn’t talking to anyone else from what I see, but he seems to be looking at skinny porn frequently recently. These girls on the searches are definitely smaller than me. Should I ask him how much smaller he wants me to be? Or should I just obsess on not eating and becoming what he is searching on the internet?",3.900830721003136,6.433560775862072,4.0865203761755495,84.54688087774295,74.86206896551724,6.287147335423198,32.09717868338558,7.348242739294969,2.2600103448275863,494,25,86,6,11,153,76,116,0.04,0.9,0.061,0.5149,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,1,10,5,2,1,1,17,17,8,0,6,5,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,4,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,13,0,12,11,2,10,0,0,2,1,16,6,0,3,4,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451732377960845,0.2410781387645004,0.1936201913508022,0.0,0.43992098166915933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598547149911772,0.20021091265361346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304905402355848,0.0,0.2407561443968336,0.19655112067330807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19758083988092776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363762419143319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729621581999601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323163731261632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710873657979427,0.0,0.0,0.18749234483478072,0.21419538392399504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18911383857668965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719706023830194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775553584677641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunflowerdrug69,2019/11/01,Y’all ever wonder how much your hair weighs? And does it count count?  Like will a haircut break a plateau? Wtf is wrong with me.,0.5350000000000001,2.9846352,0.06350000000000122,105.73925,97.0,2.5,14.25,3.1291,-1.67,100,2,22,0,4,28,23,25,0.248,0.6679999999999999,0.084,-0.7131,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,1,1,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021808156789806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157156571928863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22452716094300976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378435588552541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983939893738316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5024776601595357,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snakepack,2019/11/01,"some weird part of me is proud three hours of running a game at the local church & i didn't eat a single piece of candy!

everyone else that was helping was stuffing their faces. some weird part of me is proud, as i definitely have a sweet tooth.",5.272333333333336,5.355378100000003,5.306000000000001,86.70633333333336,68.0,8.266666666666667,26.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.2358666666666671,195,5,42,2,3,61,37,50,0.062,0.675,0.263,0.8999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,4,0,6,3,2,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,3,1,5,3,6,3,6,4,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34363524521707944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245267928712046,0.2649407141286181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30305337294341944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125810338387974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123319123034809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6868917896632928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halfcupgrapes,2019/11/01,"I don't understand how I got here I don't like, have an eating disorder, but I lurk here and on the memes subreddit. I just need to vent a bit.

I've lost weight on and off for years, never in a disordered way. The past few months, lots of my thoughts have been leaning towards disordered, but I've still been eating at what people say is a safe deficit. Lately I've been really cold, it'll be torture when it's actually winter. I got into weightlifting a while ago, but the past couple weeks I've been making very little progress, I've heard it's a lot harder to build muscle on a deficit. 

I figured that even though I'm just above my goal weight, maybe I should try to eat maintenance so I can have more energy, get muscle, and not be freezing. But I just can't do it, unless I have like 3 glasses of wine. Last week I told myself I'd get a pastry while I was at the grocery store, since I was always such a big fan, and have it be a maintenance day. Then I convinced myself that my maintenance is actually lower than what any calculator says so I had a small dinner to make up for it and still be at a deficit.

I eat the same foods every day, and if I'm put in a situation where I have to eat something different for one meal I spend a lot of the rest of the day stressing out trying to figure out what I needed to eat.

I just don't get how this happened. Even just a few months ago, I could eat candy and stuff. 

My school has a program where you can meet with a registered dietician for free. I made an appointment early next month. I'm really hoping that if I sit down with a professional who says ""you need to eat this much to keep up your workout routine, and yes you can have cookies sometimes""  it'll be easy to listen to and I don't have to go to therapy just to convince myself that being warm and strong is better than being underweight.

P.S. since I know lots of you have freezing hands I have a sock filled with dry rice and I microwave it and hold it. It's very nice",4.259539584503088,4.530727562043797,5.274756690997567,85.40041128579449,70.21654501216545,8.464196144488117,26.513288414748267,8.384062270229773,1.5110875163765676,1552,44,337,22,26,512,200,411,0.08199999999999999,0.7859999999999999,0.132,0.9683,2,0,2,0,0,0,38.0,0,5,0,5,21,14,1,1,27,1,41,15,1,5,1,57,66,28,0,8,14,0,7,2,0,3,0,5,0,0,21,18,14,3,5,3,3,3,7,3,0,1,14,13,40,12,45,41,11,51,0,1,0,0,13,21,0,7,27,227,61,4,0.0,0.0,0.14359796813725512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044031843259635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122063281172545,0.0,0.0,0.0500337999192092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507146864585019,0.08032528882307123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058743975781428336,0.08140978866458097,0.0,0.14235015274993573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687064081986847,0.25297137285242993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6022880776696063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097191725127937,0.0,0.06199045386586548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896767446229874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532034068171768,0.0,0.04181459947021261,0.0,0.11768994879366206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506248961994003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730769806608424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539720252471083,0.0,0.0,0.040435119646106764,0.05997377686475532,0.08299626406563053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189045506264186,0.0737418869895016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031624833525201,0.2502047205548852,0.0,0.06961882929242091,0.0982243112862297,0.0,0.07391638576142044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618156428291828,0.0,0.05408639000305946,0.16366569655363836,0.05674588982962023,0.0,0.07824828027544048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985660008016255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404721028485996,0.05100792336004298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739636059219887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426857974483374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553035077074106,0.0,0.07446224011223182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172467432270904,0.0827018404062972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05664194304870094,0.07276795906089313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751483049750527,0.0,0.08428038038749933,0.0,0.08422623850728769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413989031872872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228746403291211,0.05841065488156528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030445460547133,0.0,0.09990574377439174,0.0,0.0,0.07659459369424712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141483279635325,0.0,0.058400733599547484,0.11803550734674942,0.17919004933268048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04738014998651535
EDAnonymous,BigTiddyShego,2019/11/01,here’s to having your ed ruin your favorite holiday felt like crying this whole day and debated on even going out because of it :-/,10.663599999999997,7.475884960000003,10.68,63.02000000000001,59.4,13.2,41.0,11.20814326018867,4.704600000000001,104,4,17,2,1,35,24,25,0.251,0.523,0.226,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,4,2,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683461349159416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.483546779462522,0.28389713309851144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29075260818150744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4226678065510568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25017981397131844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150629313895198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4914754562843775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HailTallulah,2019/11/01,"Who the fuck decided senior pictures this year would be the day after Halloween Have awful skin and am super overweight bingeing on candy and junk all day

My senior pictures are tomorrow, who decided this 😔

I needed to start losing weight ages ago so that my cheeks wouldn't look so bad when I smile but that didn't happen 

Happy Halloween y'all 😔",5.094179104477611,6.7392196119403,5.310626865671644,80.85489552238808,69.29850746268656,7.151044776119402,26.832835820895525,7.554174236665415,1.6314501492537317,282,9,48,3,5,89,50,67,0.205,0.7340000000000001,0.061,-0.8485,2,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,2,3,5,1,0,2,1,7,5,2,0,1,9,12,6,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,5,2,3,8,1,12,0,1,1,1,3,1,1,0,11,30,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633947128137176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480976340097013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832585717166676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27469908866892745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26275795665502,0.3163086909975272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24952089829608035,0.3324211697980352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203238981076165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21031564933427835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36183376543538703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110781529005525,0.0,0.0,0.19134698762971533
EDAnonymous,sco_aml,2019/11/01,What happened to r/intuitiveeating? It was helping me out but it disappeared out of nowhere today. Anybody know what happened?,4.296428571428572,7.402792809523812,3.8765476190476207,76.62053571428574,97.09523809523807,5.90952380952381,38.583333333333336,7.1686216300943375,3.9889904761904766,103,7,14,2,4,31,17,21,0.121,0.807,0.07200000000000001,-0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8091296180905976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066519013641833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25142945734030875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336555090159153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strangebadgerbabe,2019/11/01,Repeat after me: Today I will eat so my hair does not fall out!!!!!,1.7185714285714262,2.2453080000000014,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,76.14285714285714,5.6000000000000005,14.0,3.1291,-1.1034857142857146,48,0,11,0,1,17,14,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5314586994560015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6214269690673242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5756562975320728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,findmeplug,2019/11/01,"I only feel self confident when I restrict I’ve been feeling really confident and happy with myself for the past week, and I’ve realised it’s because I’ve been eating really clean and restricting to around 1,200 calories.

I don’t even care about the weight loss anymore or looking skinny, the confidence just comes from the fact that i restricted. It’s because I have control over myself and I’m able to do something most people can’t. I’m 5”4 and 40.1 kg and know I’m thin, but that’s not even what I care about anymore, I just like the feeling of eating restricted calories, and need it to feel confident during the day. Exercising and wearing workout clothes when I go on jogs also makes me feel really confident too, because it makes me feel fit even though I’m not

On days where I binge, my self confidence falls even if I don’t gain any weight. I need to feel hungry and I like that feeling because it means I’ve managed to control something.

Anyone experience varying confidence based on what you eat?",7.0707132867132865,7.044625656410258,7.117482517482518,75.60797202797205,64.23076923076923,10.167832167832168,35.67599067599068,9.800150414767053,3.457102564102565,813,35,146,15,11,261,100,195,0.05,0.6940000000000001,0.256,0.9919,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,4,15,6,0,0,6,0,7,8,2,4,1,41,30,16,0,3,7,0,11,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,10,12,6,6,10,3,0,4,5,1,0,0,2,12,18,5,16,28,1,18,0,1,1,0,3,8,0,3,8,84,28,1,0.1071525177488867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568982973064633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07286738648564346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125330097329361,0.07492353183015428,0.0,0.0,0.09538845844950414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26127672106403543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21849826637188627,0.0,0.0,0.09230240610833228,0.0,0.0,0.2403613200377941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820901888282155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289313289374792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28309290957470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481572331452872,0.0,0.0,0.43343626037406174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089724516743285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140658476366612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05888822147435779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469861537874384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998112785786858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305027530063671,0.0,0.0,0.11672050466551782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890446837235414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149431822540333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228920275142024,0.07428606404686361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593394000089585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356689021574103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498248632292695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527680464523294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595128639792246,0.2609657991235841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonymous17845,2019/11/01,"I’ve been going harder and harder with my purging lately, and I hate to admit it, but I don’t wanna stop. I’ve started going till my throat is raw and my stomach throbs like hell and even then I keep pushing. I can barely handle eating anything without purging it, and I go for as long as I can on nothing, break, and then erase it. It hurts so much but I’m so exhausted of fighting it and it just feels easier to give in.",2.338266452648476,3.607735539325844,4.218009630818621,87.46707865168541,75.62921348314606,5.984590690208668,23.950240770465488,6.1826913282559595,0.6445364365971105,329,10,68,2,7,112,58,89,0.23199999999999998,0.6859999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9542,0,0,0,0,2,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,17,15,16,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,8,1,2,2,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,1,1,9,1,12,14,1,14,1,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,8,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21220204476797788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638616653306544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031830049064786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303849809393602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473689120274068,0.4396541891661507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545896468130159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27605127446433186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292034713076581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29088448886206664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598047942508364,0.0,0.0,0.2282036163049699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895614469826416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474297295928833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18251913866730649,0.0,0.0,0.2155878256109718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485739715476422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,help_with_stuff,2019/11/01,"need some info and support hi all.

so i recently got serious about recovery and despite only increasing a small amount of consumption and liquids, i've gained quite a bit. is this all fat gain? Is it just food weight? i have a BM 2-3 times per day but i'm still gaining fast and panicking.

thanks",1.4646246973365642,4.008927762711867,3.09714285714286,87.86983050847458,84.9322033898305,7.439225181598062,25.37772397094431,8.418075326091056,2.0954435835351086,234,10,47,6,7,77,49,59,0.08199999999999999,0.7,0.21899999999999997,0.8238,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,2,11,8,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,2,7,6,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213767855433584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898448802474792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3559544653358184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23543530305493274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827229520032787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238823371934757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130996910117513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906557543224759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350849840213302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33404861316819584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27101717823188626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17165004126822306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584644568333767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jujuchatia,2019/11/01,"epic gamer moment that moment when your dad gives away all the Halloween candy so you can’t even binge like you had been planning on to. I suppose this is helping me out in the long run and I’m getting sushi now, but damn I wanted peanut butter cups.",0.5910924369747903,3.0811448039215685,1.3651540616246507,98.25176470588237,91.15686274509804,2.9142857142857146,17.089635854341733,3.1291,-1.0140834733893556,199,5,41,0,7,61,46,51,0.07,0.8640000000000001,0.066,-0.29600000000000004,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,8,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,1,5,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,6,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514486330818633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31736787368340164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510431230397147,0.4609425141006814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32207120882397644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23474962329693835,0.0,0.0,0.4252302674752674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834132741117185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,landgirl81,2019/07/21,"Diets vs ED I had an eating disorder for 12 years and have been in recovery for about 4. In that time I have also had a back injury and had to take medication for migraines that have meant I have gained about 2 stone.  I am now ready to shift that weight but there is a lot about losing weight (even though that is classified as a healthy thing for my current weight to do) that feeds into my old anorexic behaviours - the compulsion to exercise and the self berating when I don’t. Constantly looking and ways to further restrict my calorific intake, not participating in social events because of what I might have to consume... how do I navigate between diet and anorexia...?",7.606190476190478,7.568157714285718,7.444285714285716,73.7507142857143,63.12698412698413,10.692063492063493,36.253968253968246,10.290406445055957,3.725949206349206,536,23,95,11,7,171,84,126,0.085,0.858,0.057,-0.5346,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,11,1,0,0,6,0,16,10,0,1,0,14,19,11,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,7,6,7,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,4,10,0,20,13,1,15,0,1,1,0,2,5,0,2,9,75,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523720103048113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965048529370247,0.0,0.11071062861556476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19626095880973915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20814616774174516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18583716681541534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995478911396615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525105977771455,0.20318038154671364,0.0,0.15440231382853095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295769214768348,0.0,0.19266448450236265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19057406503325336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18946372912683213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851333039707246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655164376264434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065672928713247,0.0,0.1784355096534635,0.0,0.10590098555518004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415728651411655,0.0,0.6634732910871359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695390512595942
EDAnonymous,dontfeedamy,2019/07/21,"New here, venting... Hey guys.. so I’ve been reading things anonymously for a while now and maybe should vent.. I’ve had bulimia for at least 15 years.. I’ve been fat, I’ve been skinny, I’ve been “normal”... but I’ve never been happy. I’ve had 2 kids (aged 5 and 2) and after the birth of my 2 yo I weighed 222lbs.. I have since lost weight and now weigh 155, and while I’m proud of the number, I feel like I’ll always want to get lower and lower, and I’ll never be happy with my body. To lose the 67 lbs I became obsessed with what I eat and how much I eat. I will binge eat at least 3x a week, and after binges I always purge. On the days I don’t binge eat and purge, I don’t really eat at all. If I do eat, I kind of pick around at my plate and pretend like I’ve been eating.. (for example, this morning at breakfast, I pretended my eggs were underdone and it “grossed me out”, so I just kind of pushed things around and maybe one ate a couple bites).. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be consumed by this.. but I don’t want to be fat again. I’m a “normal” weight now for my height, so no one really suspects anything. Also, I weigh myself at least 4x a day.. need someone to talk to that understands..",0.5015229885057444,2.0692691570881223,2.485732758620692,96.61066810344828,81.56704980842913,5.576053639846744,17.771551724137932,6.42735559955562,-0.37555057471264375,914,18,224,8,24,306,127,261,0.131,0.8029999999999999,0.066,-0.9534,2,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,0,3,14,11,0,1,9,0,22,19,4,2,3,38,34,23,0,8,4,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,8,18,18,0,4,3,0,1,8,4,0,2,11,3,25,7,30,18,5,29,0,2,0,0,4,11,0,1,19,133,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765801301897091,0.15936184022029362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880323942351876,0.1704953922681482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636901252503672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10595785389405528,0.0,0.1235159959204952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6859127020822371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04841969775281748,0.06841176069207212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05003123092609253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481856077995716,0.0,0.2038789781628185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994409332316137,0.05262780520538128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356808878707534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713219450970134,0.1045345706704654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924098251907808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039543897126467,0.07100565442790972,0.14771375291067412,0.09248668294702383,0.0,0.0,0.18765112412896354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297804215832968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578703072080104,0.0,0.12269404654220528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921458505639427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113808317144815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696915799787947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272388612767868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969069937237797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694471626178762,0.0,0.07681379135675673,0.23322248316707925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06166701931181653
EDAnonymous,little_shiki,2019/07/21,"marie kondo started watching that show last night 

oh no.",2.7360000000000007,5.329054600000006,1.6999999999999993,91.78000000000004,103.0,2.0,25.0,3.1291,0.266,46,2,7,0,2,13,10,10,0.196,0.804,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5698582031071586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560561444362428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948251849885292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachm3lba,2019/07/21,"ED + TMJ... so i am finally making the call tomorrow to the oral surgeon to get seen about my TMJ issues. the joint is constantly popping out of its place – when i'm eating but also when i so much as yawn, talk, or even lay sideways!! – or getting stuck open, i can hear grinding and clicking, it's likely causing my tinnitus, and it's very painful! 

i'm sure they'll want to try an orthotic or something, but i'm secretly hoping they need to do an implant so i can be on that baby food and jello grind for a while!!! 

have any of you been treated for TMJ problems? how was it?",3.5875423728813587,4.217805338983055,5.0625,85.03832627118646,71.88135593220339,7.933898305084746,30.00423728813559,8.07648339933343,1.9763694915254242,442,18,93,6,8,149,86,118,0.099,0.831,0.071,-0.6566,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,2,0,9,6,0,0,6,0,10,5,0,3,1,19,22,17,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,9,4,12,16,1,10,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,4,7,59,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254100449838536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672233681552635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22031228764571684,0.0,0.0,0.2216421411829997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23315695108818396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207735429212544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425056367188732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363515344276196,0.0,0.0,0.26089453767711784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254485287213241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431741150735443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21429564389062875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251945260679739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540809991000494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440196477909156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586064129444245,0.15998127594856346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295809388232093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254204172341495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645056111272125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610048126060287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033486660856124,0.0,0.0,0.17341751448385076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14648501824308033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802233710724044,0.12725922322610714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadbitchxx,2019/07/21,"Almost shit myself during Pilates Took laxatives last night, thought I was good to go this morning for Pilates but I was not. I obviously couldn’t leave the class early though because I needed the full workout and I love to suffer",6.219689922480622,7.705481976744188,6.1906976744186055,76.20759689922484,66.44186046511628,7.593798449612403,32.93798449612403,7.793537801064563,2.5531612403100774,187,8,30,2,3,59,35,43,0.14400000000000002,0.6679999999999999,0.187,0.266,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,1,8,8,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,4,0,6,2,3,3,1,6,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,3,20,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117824822833088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898024206114659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695330061212505,0.2611543458678608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538002970458585,0.0,0.3296857253178375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810149331847337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23086980439913754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921906597620187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196069942724176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059100294053117,0.2471853922592685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459328803625349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smoltective,2019/07/21,"I’m now a healthy weight but struggling. when I was at my lowest weight no one even noticed (tw, rant) I’m miserable and find every day a struggle with clothes and my appearance, especially since I’ve moved into a shared house which seems to have triggered more of my disordered thoughts and behaviours. I have a model as a housemate who is stick thin, but eats as much as they want, and I hate not being in complete control of my environment. 

anyway I’m currently on a waiting list for therapy as I’ve recently realised that my ED and OCD are ruining my life and relationships. I’m a virgin at 19 all because I find myself so repulsed by the thought of anyone seeing me naked. I feel as if I don’t deserve love or any sort of physical attention. two years ago I began throwing up after every intake of calories and also restricted myself heavily (an iced coffee for breakfast, a flapjack at school which I threw up, and a small dinner. and copious amounts of Diet Coke). so I lost a bunch of weight. I never told my therapist at the time as I was so ashamed of my behaviour. at the time my best friend had been admitted to hospital for anorexia and i confided in my therapist with all of my worries and guilt concerning the amount of mental weight I was put under due to being her one venting system. I felt disgusting that I would self inflict disordered behaviours when she was so sick. however doing all of this gave me something to focus on when, for what felt like years at this point, my life was otherwise falling apart .

at the time I was studying for my a levels and isolated from friends that I used to be close with. I started to study at school as my mother was at work and my father still ill enough I felt as if I was second hand caring for him. 

long story short, I lost a fuck ton of weight. I hate to mention numbers as I know they’re triggering but I got to 45 kg which is the lowest weight I’ve ever been since the age of  9/12 (always been a bit chubby). and no one noticed. I opened up to my mum a few months ago about how much I had been struggling and she (who has also struggled with EDs in the past) told me she knew I had been thin but pushed any concerns to the back of her mind. but friends and teachers didn’t notice. 

I’m now at uni and back at a healthy weight but these disordered thoughts are more prevalent than ever. I’m on the waiting list for therapy but I’m at 52-56 kg (I’m 5’ 3” and have yet to get scales since coming to uni so i weigh myself every few months at home) and I know they won’t be worried or take my thoughts seriously if I arrive at an above healthy weight. people tell me they think I’m tiny when I confide in them and that I don’t need to lose weight but I feel as if it’s taking over my life. I feel so ashamed I gained weight when I’d spent so long restricting and manage to get to 45. I feel as if my whole life is on hold until I lose weight yet I can’t stop myself from eating, or the guilty thoughts after. I don’t even know why I’m posting on here. I suppose I just feel helpless.

I don’t think I’m ever going to be sick enough. I’m never going to warrant people worrying over me or people hoping I’m okay. No one ever notices how much I’m struggling and I feel as if that will only happen if I lose loads of weight but it just feels like a losing battle because I never can. or at least not keep it off. I sometimes think I’m going to live the rest of my life comparing myself and never feeling worthy enough.",3.327865863326462,4.501194728291317,4.5544384546271335,86.40408355795151,73.00560224089638,7.405485967972095,26.636964219650125,7.837336299996399,1.4638684847523915,2732,94,567,36,53,901,305,714,0.201,0.7170000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9984,4,0,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,4,10,35,34,5,9,30,1,41,31,1,6,11,115,114,73,0,11,25,3,26,2,3,3,8,0,1,1,17,31,19,8,28,0,1,11,16,23,0,6,35,27,86,11,97,71,22,97,0,9,1,3,28,41,1,16,45,382,103,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07682257620614696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930532214402359,0.036055774672135665,0.0,0.0,0.058934621647106174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030298808656634275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06663941333335137,0.0,0.05282968637875887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045474360791818665,0.0,0.04730742531175165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044179959239078866,0.0,0.0,0.03732676334002916,0.04543287764659798,0.0,0.04860062964457131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027945616787290874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489870064904179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867910301970068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13432091398219229,0.0,0.05724088073355992,0.15678544455759294,0.1095274779314098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752800755267568,0.030956457644159555,0.1248168210219509,0.0,0.07920950041949161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043480835298052,0.04005982399493471,0.04527846280758653,0.0,0.07387988528998828,0.0,0.03465663518971936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03831842889568143,0.0,0.0,0.08556294636126427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04346562481456609,0.04303854807464034,0.0,0.04999942026517423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03851555742114745,0.0,0.0,0.0714425592733324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303370247599454,0.04233974609160618,0.0,0.03826303415883598,0.07669508177482735,0.0,0.19391012352937476,0.09460420186746256,0.0,0.03910890793718498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04366856039106802,0.0,0.04375306380771049,0.0,0.06917453034398813,0.046055159833665066,0.0955622280209129,0.032130199713572664,0.1336815333849181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733551146987985,0.0,0.0,0.1174517972682457,0.03295601120502162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0413653882311726,0.09012305688602901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04096283636666405,0.0,0.04150016933891303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04356072432742144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042785216629115434,0.04652245392404476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770878796126656,0.0345300698444551,0.039447912253553485,0.0452048259281289,0.0,0.0,0.10753427140117956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033359164088299836,0.042856550394040425,0.0,0.03067068018513093,0.0,0.03460506739682661,0.036227572074918536,0.0,0.2265005728292264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516068605783612,0.0,0.037874161358458516,0.0,0.09910805514213007,0.10062380526551018,0.0,0.08329637126372648,0.0,0.17200421770699448,0.07580187996460001,0.0,0.0,0.0828113483079438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04232916085015921,0.0,0.0,0.03742501769958116,0.0,0.0,0.02555839258941517,0.0,0.0,0.6332018222121911,0.0,0.0,0.03910047626292967,0.04837873708614129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031546281566817144,0.1320175389434767,0.0,0.030781877345661988,0.0,0.0,0.055808897536210926
EDAnonymous,cardigante,2019/07/21,"Sometimes I think I’m doing okay and losing a little bit of weight at a time, and then I walk by a storefront window and see my reflection and realize even the backs of my knees are fat?! Okokok yup thaaats why I never wear shorts even when it’s 100 degrees, dumb me for thinking I could go for a walk in them and not hate myself.",13.499565217391307,5.412338739130436,12.059202898550724,70.05228260869566,60.15942028985508,14.959420289855073,44.64492753623188,8.841846274778883,4.06876231884058,259,7,57,2,2,83,53,69,0.11199999999999999,0.815,0.07400000000000001,-0.3599,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,2,0,5,2,3,4,3,0,1,12,9,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,4,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,2,9,1,7,8,1,12,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040054415581487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896475736191082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182681443335524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504668053067312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078062532808764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261936679516204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26590827065247713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968117394380414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20462185126044447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141609126760635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623963522325797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399972508730251,0.0,0.0,0.15470320260034126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32307361583362143,0.0,0.0,0.2393991641328191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heisenberg_was_hot,2019/07/21,"aint it funny - Danny brown ok idk if anyone knows this song but. wow i really like it. like 2 days ago i went on a massive binge up to like 3,000 cal after restricting and fasting for a few days and i started panicking bcuz i threw out my laxatives and promised myself id never buy anymore. it was like 11:15 pm and i was trying 2 fall asleep and just be normal and tell myself tomorrow is a new day, u can stop this if u want 2, u can just eat normally and forget u binged, u dont have 2 purge. but. of course that didnt work so i drove at like 90 mph to walmart 2 buy more laxatives and cried in the car and this song was playing and i related hard 2 it, even tho i think it's abt his relapse in2 drugs and stuff. he talks about how he cant stop and stuff and i was like yes dude. thats me man i cant stop. i cant physically stop. idk what this post is but i really like this song",-0.9577891156462606,1.0357452959183675,1.6827551020408191,97.54379251700684,90.93877551020408,5.3074829931972785,16.329931972789115,6.816661863887847,-0.2830537414965989,682,16,169,10,24,234,116,196,0.146,0.65,0.204,0.9467,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,7,11,0,0,4,2,16,3,1,1,1,34,23,21,0,5,7,0,1,7,0,0,1,3,0,1,15,14,1,5,2,4,2,5,7,0,0,0,8,5,17,11,11,14,2,25,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,2,21,90,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166864791603575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612049456561365,0.09597218069925656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076863336151985,0.2655551722633294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086232949165574,0.0,0.15917271097034452,0.1404465600562677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065591012838277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295389620801232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543198904726897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693924546835563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585984108785944,0.1325621394974075,0.0,0.0,0.2689623381549708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13145275102992587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17585867278368647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715009240972164,0.0,0.0,0.45900670655024295,0.0,0.0,0.3142492346346309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103207070942015,0.11996728646724812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794773071893605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318742019444946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095680261794065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723714902928288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992358013909172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yeezus--Jesus,2019/07/21,Does anyone know of any good before and after ED subs? Specifically looking for lesser-known progress pics subs !,6.126315789473683,9.555602947368428,4.883421052631579,76.97144736842105,72.15789473684211,5.905263157894738,25.28947368421053,7.1686216300943375,1.5423473684210527,92,3,13,1,2,27,18,19,0.0,0.728,0.272,0.7177,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333736845502514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3431541101289449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176046387782917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42947152250901627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.411630171426597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697114610523007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121187710219309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pulaski-,2019/07/21,"tw: weed mention ? my friend might have an ED? please take this down if it breaks any rules and disclaimer: i don’t think i have an eating disorder but i’ve been lurking on this sub and EDAmemes once i saw it mentioned in a different sub a month ago or so and i just have a question. i rly hope it isn’t invasive or offensive but it might be kinda dumb? i can’t tell. i have great respect for this sub and it’s maybe not the greatest place for me to lurk on but this community is rly nice

i got stoned w a couple of friends and my one friend mentioned two things that maybe set off red flags? specifically saying that sometimes she drinks ice water to suppress appetite, in response to me exclaiming how great drinking water is when ur stoned

she also said something about when considering priorities to drop, food is the first one to go. in response to me saying how i didnt pick up snacks for tonight bc i didn’t have any time to (bc of work)

i didnt say anything bc i wasnt sure if it was serious and i should say something (but what?) Or if i was just reading into things too much bc of the weed

i got really paranoid thsi trip and i’m sincerely sorry if i sound out of my mind or am in any way harming anyone w this post. please take it down if it breaks any rules",0.995319260521832,3.2712113193916363,2.394044840697525,94.0512927756654,84.09505703422053,5.4526812639307725,21.996722171233774,6.8039241337230125,0.4655895896158379,999,34,220,12,29,322,143,263,0.12,0.7290000000000001,0.152,0.9333,1,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,10,14,2,0,9,0,23,7,0,3,1,38,33,26,0,7,16,0,0,0,3,3,0,6,0,0,18,9,7,1,2,3,0,2,8,4,0,4,11,8,24,10,27,18,2,28,0,0,2,0,16,13,1,14,7,137,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779323509514773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822395702518937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000892495202668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713926463778356,0.0,0.0907850847357333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220684938152093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526234740827634,0.12643784393746071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161458790024671,0.0,0.11288629980803094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383929808628404,0.13340103442105608,0.0,0.2557020425517372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269817500503855,0.0,0.17646814986367554,0.2432593923266197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095740095651816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22166528193153656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23406707207817085,0.11139313119619297,0.0,0.08805746230604508,0.0,0.08109889820224904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748865494664835,0.1495132263174758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526234740827634,0.2421994633205428,0.0,0.0,0.10565737357618132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358517884130428,0.0,0.11035122114506483,0.0,0.07067469239456002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494088299102823,0.35092791483541197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986155567137473,0.1091106524937416,0.12349573778383632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397658243629003,0.0,0.16589587606423453,0.0,0.09642573703387287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658522780528996,0.07068947714629857,0.0,0.0,0.06432927605500037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776794486276862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756796578323044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031526881793445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweetlycreeply,2019/07/21,"Boyfriend’s comments are making me really upset My boyfriend, who is a wonderful, sweet, supportive human being, is unintentionally triggering the fuck out of me. A couple weeks ago, I confessed to him that I have body image issues and that I used to struggle with an eating disorder. I was very transparent about my past, however I didn’t tell him that I’ve relapsed back into my old ways. He doesn’t know for sure that I still am struggling with my eating issues, but he has his suspicions. He has noticed that I eat very little, and that I tend to pass up any snacks that he offers. He has brought up my eating habits to me on several different occasions and is generally concerned with what I eat and how much of it I consume.

In an attempt to be supportive, he “compliments” me when I eat more than I usually would. Typically he’ll say something along the lines of, “Wow, look at you go! You really ate a lot of that” or “Damn, you really finished all of it?!” I try my best to ignore those kinds of comments, because I know it’s coming from a place of love and genuine happiness to see me doing better. 

However, all it really is doing is making me want to run to the nearest bathroom and throw it all up. I know in his mind, those comments are meant to be encouraging, but they crush me each and every damn time he says something about how much I’ve ate.  I have stopped eating as much as possible around him in attempt to avoid the comments, but sometimes I have to. 

I don’t want to worry him by admitting that his comments have been really hurting my feelings, but they need to stop. I was hoping he would have realized that by now, mainly based off of the fact that I immediately stop eating right after he makes a comment. He still has yet to realize what his words actually do to me. I try to laugh it off and recognize that he is saying those things to make me feel good about my “recovery”, but fuck do they hurt.",7.368532737679742,6.2742531379310345,7.892187630880919,73.8204620968868,64.0397877984085,11.332067569454141,34.696216668993436,10.5429385540328,3.4788864721485417,1511,56,292,32,19,503,186,377,0.126,0.731,0.14300000000000002,0.9,4,1,2,0,0,0,38.0,0,3,3,4,12,26,4,4,12,0,33,15,1,8,5,62,64,19,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,0,1,25,17,11,5,11,0,0,6,3,11,0,0,8,8,52,15,54,50,11,41,1,2,2,3,43,17,4,4,17,209,77,0,0.0,0.0,0.07311618451804719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641666671769701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050951703488384514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666993107004159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761285190107838,0.0,0.045673704870336417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862937209514885,0.06626524831915008,0.0,0.08322500357247824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454142318145016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290330576105755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828088420908308,0.08587076737085247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6133374558311162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312771025954644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576886205478403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385342752318837,0.0,0.0,0.042581716302420435,0.06284370073019963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975926580102434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441762681367216,0.0,0.0,0.16041794679298987,0.0,0.0,0.15640487969938716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078023063233724,0.12353078699114395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509473129424525,0.0,0.0,0.06291829537577588,0.0,0.0,0.06369872343141886,0.06762291587793101,0.0,0.2000526041231312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565309054455585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523592315451896,0.0555560844568149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530283377695798,0.078621390837676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152457882760009,0.0,0.0,0.07828088420908308,0.0,0.0,0.08446690228754179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399949999393237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398570914741518,0.0,0.1787505726153985,0.0,0.0,0.05970568168513125,0.0,0.0,0.08464414638914428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536215485865445,0.0741029360055076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967071876741214,0.18792245972339727,0.0,0.15665616853669107,0.0,0.0,0.17004845208432393,0.07061611179339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654879249403704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04977697184988974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04368948510373679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173858155484623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471131404880183,0.08251951952221813,0.12364226922042162,0.08838564527678096,0.05947213417076215,0.06010047389108701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125318042458399,0.0,0.07609017485841524,0.0,0.10644942096843013,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,omchill,2019/07/21,Pissed at myself I ate a smallish chipotle bowl today swearing it would be my only meal of the day and I’d obviously walk 3 miles in my hilly neighborhood with my dog tonight... only ended up walking a mile (on my period and have autoimmune pain) and my husband didn’t eat his burrito so I took off the tortilla and ate the inside... but I easily consumed another 600 calories today. I’m so pissed at myself. Why couldn’t I have more willpower?? Thanks for letting me vent...,3.415978260869565,5.465350163043481,4.927608695652175,80.21684782608699,74.54347826086956,7.643478260869566,28.89130434782609,8.472884824447931,2.3943217391304352,373,16,67,7,8,125,68,92,0.126,0.797,0.077,-0.685,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,5,0,7,7,2,0,1,9,12,7,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,0,13,1,9,4,1,17,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,6,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722604096255308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744953788515018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656816439899023,0.0,0.0,0.2299683933654748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655045925391853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3949434280748024,0.27628057442123544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390462212871255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4922261797907007,0.0,0.2884751361403257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23428921720183565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18444435046832106,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_Me_Your_F00t,2019/07/21,When you're famished at work and customers are testing your patience... I might just show up on the headlines tonight,5.127142857142856,7.980685761904766,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,72.33333333333333,4.2,39.07142857142857,3.1291,2.0948857142857142,95,6,16,0,2,26,21,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,11,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8245194785440626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5658335704970384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Peanut2ur_Tostito,2019/07/21,House Sitting all week... I've been house sitting in a house alone all week & have managed to lose 4 lbs...,1.8395454545454548,3.692517500000005,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,78.54545454545455,4.4,24.63636363636364,3.1291,-0.09125454545454527,83,3,19,0,2,25,17,22,0.217,0.7829999999999999,0.0,-0.5719,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24374706340714014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549968575228749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8146716672912593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632915255192165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775600863922163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clearandfull,2019/02/19,"Instagram Truth of Overeating Can we talk about all the before/afters on Instagram where the before is “1200 calories, sad, mad, bad, cardio, tired, restriction” and the after is “2000+ calories, no workouts, happiest person alive” but they look way thinner?

Is there any truth at all to this or do we think they were just underestimating before (or airbrushed the after?)

Believing in this “eat more to lose” stuff was what kept me eating more than I “should” have for a long time because I thought it was ok if they were doing it. 

Once I started to doubt that any of these girls were telling the truth, I got real (got restrictive) and got where I had always wanted to be. 

Dark but true. ",7.4727790178571425,7.248954023437502,6.844553571428572,78.55937500000002,63.453125,9.501785714285717,31.566964285714285,8.841846274778883,2.4084651785714284,537,17,100,7,7,166,90,128,0.134,0.737,0.129,0.2715,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,3,1,5,10,1,1,6,1,15,4,0,0,6,25,24,7,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,8,4,2,3,2,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,11,1,11,5,15,11,4,12,0,2,1,0,9,6,0,4,5,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053030357585034,0.0,0.0,0.24604786801385065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105098003501655,0.11028009799713584,0.0,0.3078794937651524,0.20382184681586926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702289694168139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43406698622877865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16009826508125885,0.1519175157686785,0.202390255283194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266157059375402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15796226053497248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20591339587565308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280479157951236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070968670079753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540734097174374,0.15812193910162925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591881529022208,0.0,0.1436210834087005,0.10548915863870913,0.2079276241869525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670447744862016,0.1435966887965345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cersm,2019/02/19,"I just want to be where I used to be... ...and I wasn't even happy back then. But I used to be so thin, and I didn't even realize until I got fat again. relapse sucks but whatever. I feel like I'm too old to do this again but here we are! ",-2.42942857142857,-0.7509346181818158,0.7761038961038977,103.4927272727273,95.1818181818182,4.5974025974025965,13.311688311688313,6.1826913282559595,-1.1229220779220779,176,3,50,2,7,62,36,55,0.076,0.8290000000000001,0.095,0.2366,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,10,3,1,0,0,0,7,1,1,2,0,12,14,8,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,2,8,2,5,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,7,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488670144269466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42753578937047865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364725806732994,0.2312157567353774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588526188429923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445316400387161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811913212236406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33961642519384266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5590596887868485,0.0,0.0,0.19089726452007064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,barkinglambs,2019/02/19,"Peach is reaching out for someone to adopt and maintain the app The tweet: 
https://twitter.com/peachdotcool/status/1097965702055710720?s=21",21.256,28.8609936,7.788333333333334,52.58250000000001,46.33333333333333,5.666666666666668,34.16666666666667,7.1686216300943375,2.729666666666668,124,4,11,1,2,26,14,15,0.0,0.7879999999999999,0.212,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peptobismolveins,2019/02/19,is peach down again for anyone else? it was working for me for a little bit but the loading times were suuuper slow. it isn't working at all for me now/crashes when i open it ://,0.634729729729731,2.7719113243243285,2.6877702702702737,92.26787162162165,84.40540540540543,4.781081081081081,22.763513513513516,5.985473137389443,0.2959243243243246,137,5,30,1,4,46,29,37,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,6,2,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,22,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663238893270909,0.3902620470140174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158281484218637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181808317003635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817471779718194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22209730773311226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5545781351269496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hotoutthekitchen,2019/02/19,"anyone else develop a horrible gag reflex when heavily restricting?? I've been going between fasting and eating 500 calories max in a day for the past few weeks, and ur girl nearly puked on the dental hygienist today when she stuck that suction tube thing into my mouth. I can't even get through brushing my teeth in the morning without gagging like crazy. Does this happen to you guys too??",8.176250000000003,8.279806347222229,7.655000000000001,72.24000000000002,61.91666666666667,9.977777777777778,37.444444444444436,9.516144504307137,3.7294611111111102,315,14,50,5,4,99,64,72,0.209,0.765,0.026000000000000002,-0.9236,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,2,3,2,0,0,5,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,5,1,10,4,1,13,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,8,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780016308349145,0.3045033519888624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166112409493255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600704749931574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304096644168823,0.24826172704384136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962893077129612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552680183272833,0.0,0.1688983042846213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942619991640256,0.26280161256050816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519062849065048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836987591776968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974379350555163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28169866611500044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383856032202665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864778044989193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hmmsecretaccount,2019/02/19,"Peach is back! (For me, for now)",-4.877142857142856,-5.7747808571428525,-2.424999999999999,118.6825,143.28571428571428,1.4,3.5,3.1291,-3.5598,22,0,7,0,2,7,6,7,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leointheskies,2019/02/19,"Since Peach is back, let’s have a new username exchange thread! I’m brand new and my account is leolio. Add me and share your account here!!",0.5735714285714302,3.07185635714286,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,92.57142857142857,4.228571428571429,21.285714285714285,5.985473137389443,0.15325714285714342,110,4,23,1,4,34,24,28,0.0,0.8859999999999999,0.114,0.4724,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125580825279379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41565341039875797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7851619671160035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33624451350894696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallmadscientist,2019/02/19,Peach is back up and running! Yay for one of our safe spaces being back and running! ,1.105882352941176,3.5459963529411773,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,85.47058823529412,3.4000000000000004,20.264705882352946,3.1291,-0.4285058823529409,66,2,13,0,2,21,14,17,0.0,0.685,0.315,0.7835,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9151042849310356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032172462840079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moonbee_,2019/02/19,peach is back up!!! finally omg ,-1.875,-3.1238018333333297,1.313333333333336,90.99000000000002,150.66666666666666,7.866666666666667,19.666666666666668,7.1686216300943375,2.2882666666666682,23,1,5,1,2,8,6,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5745261936206113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8184861958785937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dolllheart,2019/02/19,"A Revelation I know that loving to cook for others is common among ED sufferers, but I only now realized that my incessant desire to feed others is not out of some sick satisfaction (as I previously thought), but out of this weird maternal instinct to want to feed others the way I wish I could feed myself. It just feels like eating and food in general brings me so much pain now, but it makes me so happy to know that I can still make my friends and family happy with my cooking. 

I offered to make chicken noodle soup for a friend, and I remember distinctly sitting him down at my dining room table, bringing him napkins and a drink, sprinkling spices and parmesan on top for him. He kept saying how amazing it was, and I was convinced that he was just humoring me, but when he left and I went to grab the bowl to clean it, it was completely empty that it almost looked like he licked the bowl clean! Another really close friend of mine that I go to community college with comes over maybe once or twice a week after classes, and she literally jumped up in joy when I said I'd make her quesadillas again.

I put so much love and energy into the food I make for others because I want them to experience just how enjoyable food can really be. I just wish I could experience it with them.",11.656848888888884,7.100326595999999,11.149733333333335,64.59975555555559,59.040000000000006,14.791111111111107,41.77777777777778,12.261556223090626,4.841004444444444,1019,35,193,23,9,337,141,250,0.053,0.6459999999999999,0.301,0.9977,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,1,15,17,0,0,8,0,11,15,0,7,1,52,34,22,0,7,10,0,2,2,3,0,2,2,3,0,18,17,11,1,6,3,0,7,1,3,0,1,8,7,33,14,33,23,3,33,0,1,1,2,19,15,0,3,11,137,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355763777722627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891389072210096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912997282975142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768742964017567,0.11890184525303348,0.0,0.0,0.18108759365029328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109266148693718,0.0,0.11604051438744613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186157497248246,0.10690711655158187,0.0,0.05734042585398244,0.0810157781556142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113853854815289,0.0,0.2628467457794493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445005719127304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241441148398134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464764970828013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321368336475982,0.0,0.0,0.1108068473451374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952307254725584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047029182581616,0.0,0.378489962846625,0.0,0.11392947319965148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667298490542713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077146631506765,0.0,0.08624878606495529,0.12066975907570693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400225500523525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452989011702167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846452673543518,0.0,0.10787309056333677,0.09018334337219117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09056451146665094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003003963671476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337771322442516,0.09001474767645308,0.0909657786453054,0.0,0.0,0.10512656356008217,0.0,0.0,0.26081780675099275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laksa-girl,2019/02/19,"DAE cringe at unattractive/ “fat” old photos of yourself and want to block those years out completely I personally can’t look at old photos without cringing and hating myself. Like, how did I even feel like it was acceptable to go out and pose for a camera back then, lol? It’s actually shocking how unattractive I used to be (especially considering that I’m only *okay* looking now)... and it feels embarrassing that others saw me this way and still put up with my shit.",4.25508620689655,6.7551274252873625,4.927112068965517,79.1072198275862,73.59770114942529,7.5683908045976995,26.96695402298851,8.472884824447931,2.1066333333333334,374,14,66,7,8,120,69,87,0.15,0.706,0.14400000000000002,-0.3814,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,2,1,1,2,4,2,2,3,0,17,14,8,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,8,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,5,6,4,12,10,0,15,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,0,9,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.21194057147828307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670013395378192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277136321139377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344819800574174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962984023306667,0.15515652480491054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343085661743647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21442455661569204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21221058107516744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647602665888537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557968284146877,0.0,0.0,0.16517846546849851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18963697494714413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21833023281662786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229365880574341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734436820791838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875775243335962,0.0,0.0,0.1281009416308782,0.17239080767505433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20935793855926685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985958429816508
EDAnonymous,ellewoulds,2019/02/19,"I thought I was recovered So for years now, like five, maybe even six, I maintained a board on Pinterest with what I see now is fitspo. At the time I created it, I was actually OK. I was eating balanced meals and was working out in moderation like a normal person should. I didn’t realize that the Pinterest board would be a wormhole back to unhealthy habits, but it all came back really quickly in different ways I hadn’t seen before. Like, instead of purging, I just wouldn’t eat during or after work because I sit down a lot at work. The calories matched up, none of my coworkers disagreed or looked at me funny for not eating, and I was steadily and slowly losing weight, so I thought I was still doing the “normal” thing. 

TLDR: Up until like, two weeks ago, I thought I was ~recovered~ ",7.312828947368421,6.664256730263157,7.579210526315792,74.56447368421055,63.93421052631579,10.494736842105263,36.10526315789474,9.827888789773867,3.4681815789473682,621,26,114,11,8,203,99,152,0.059000000000000004,0.821,0.12,0.7761,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,11,6,0,0,8,1,15,5,0,0,1,22,22,9,0,5,5,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,6,5,0,4,0,0,1,5,1,0,3,14,4,18,5,18,4,3,25,0,1,3,0,1,10,0,3,16,88,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.1421844674203363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12915633450154687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240722137818776,0.0,0.08881879497554299,0.0,0.12398196107248312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664466304937492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222793563187376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472696097371886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09623502236306496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847312172527998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235327072888995,0.16300365084471252,0.0,0.12387092031882578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463775856922733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28551471813046364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272216645354578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334065084179467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161059019740442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163580780774568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679816143205217,0.0,0.0,0.3470141519580631,0.08496020699507698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142330016198949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156517367414517,0.11687362966546473,0.17742619942253154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182191196028495,0.0,0.0,0.10350276294753558,0.0,0.0,0.09382753084206852
EDAnonymous,FancyForager,2019/02/19,"For all the guys here I know that the guys here often feel marginalized or forgotten as people who struggle with an ED, so I thought I would tell you about the band Silverchair. I'm sure a lot of you are aware, but some of you younger guys may not know about them. The lead singer Daniel Johns suffered from anorexia and he wrote some songs about it. Supposedly the only song he wrote about it was Ana's Song, but I find lyrics in some of their other songs seem to be referencing ED type thoughts as well. I just thought listening to music by a guy who struggles like you do and spoke of it publicly would make you feel a little less alone. Love you, stay safe",6.7311886586695735,6.092715946564892,5.67040348964013,87.74076335877865,65.10687022900764,9.012431842966192,30.164667393675032,7.957251820313856,1.6320438386041445,523,15,114,5,7,155,88,131,0.08800000000000001,0.795,0.11699999999999999,0.7264,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,6,2,1,10,8,0,2,9,0,7,1,0,2,2,32,22,8,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,3,0,6,0,4,7,3,0,1,9,5,0,1,1,3,1,0,7,8,13,5,17,11,6,4,0,1,0,1,24,2,0,8,1,71,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254677933393294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871132824632206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344408494262728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.621597425106436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250477087806138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667497083871408,0.15729924173063098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342828081654254,0.14164819832077813,0.0,0.1047614206498204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119363077550733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880529363089372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287603497409745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728155280840587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281441467137366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479179783671048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137176080905987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737883079870681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111161461480082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22297720375866065,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grape_fruits,2019/02/19,"experiences with renfrew/iop? my therapist at school recommended renfrew's assessment and possibly taking part in their intensive outpatient program. i told her it was too much of a time commitment but she suggested taking the assessment anyway. tried searching edanonymous and mpa (need an account) already

does anyone have experience with their iop? or renfrew in general? or literally anything about having an eating disorder beyond telling their therapist lil snippets here and there, holy shit im so lost. like could they pull me out of classes? will I have to write ""yes i have a disability"" on job apps??? kinda regret telling her that sometimes i fast bc now she's ""seriously concerned"" kngjkns",5.575895883777238,9.141340076271183,5.6971428571428575,69.2291525423729,76.20338983050848,9.134140435835352,36.39467312348668,9.424239791934726,4.759935108958837,571,33,79,17,14,180,92,118,0.142,0.7759999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.8655,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,4,1,8,5,1,0,5,1,7,2,1,0,1,16,12,7,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,3,0,14,1,12,7,2,10,0,2,0,0,13,6,1,3,4,54,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336183072994065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251929433404747,0.0,0.14419277355193547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990050656639447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008195889483296,0.0,0.1533379502713854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929584702946774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428014708308334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926982487787652,0.0,0.1738807947074389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560461687147038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19127550830780504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288083290094195,0.1299248904579283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974834736394866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975364738953126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773340155002433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986286179132174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17329903533087146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26349027001695075,0.0,0.3063034969935121,0.0,0.0,0.4068924872277934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217335547969833,0.0,0.0,0.16743212699418647,0.0,0.11896423400872827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dgracieh,2019/02/19,"Anyone else shit themselves before because of their ED? I hadn’t eaten much in the past 48 hours and had just been drinking lots of water and coffee. I worked up the courage to meet some of my coworkers out for lunch to try and get some sustenance in me. 

So we’re chit chatting while we wait for our food to arrive. And then out of no where, I kid you not, I literally shit myself. It wasn’t a lot and was super watery but I immediately ran to the restroom and threw away my underwear and tried my best to get it out of my pants and then sprayed my pants with the air freshener in the bathroom. 

Please tell me you guys have experienced this before and I’m not just fucking disgusting. 

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EDAnonymous,averylynne-,2019/02/19,"Break up with your girlfriend, cause I’m bored WELL IF THIS ISNT ME during a restrictive, over exercising, hypomanic episode. 

Thank u for calling me out Ariana. ",3.06964285714286,6.005066678571431,4.2940000000000005,74.25100000000002,96.5,7.954285714285715,27.028571428571425,8.238735603445708,3.2691771428571434,129,6,20,4,5,42,27,28,0.071,0.747,0.18100000000000002,0.4995,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,5,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5270184203043402,0.0,0.0,0.5301996196734013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751759318357236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4640557959579323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Poems_for_your_dogs,2019/02/19,"My cousin triggered me into getting better. Growing up, we were always close but super competitive. She's always been perfectly slim, and I was rounder. She's always been a fussy/picky eater since childhood and she was my thinspo. I've had this Ed for 5 years and recently it's spiralled out of control. I'm so underweight I feel I could be snapped in half like a toothpick. My cousin is a healthy weight for her size, but still tiny. She said to me ""I still think I'm skinnier than you, you can see my ribs more, look!"" and showed me, when I was talking about my eating disorder. This pissed me off because its not a competition, and an awful thing for her to say. I pointed out that her bmi was healthy and that her jeans I borrowed were too big for me, yet tight on her. Then I realised how stupid this was. I eat about 700 calories a week. I don't feel hunger. I go days without eating (thanks ritalin!) and I have started fainting. I realised I'll be dead within the year. I can't get my degree if I'm dead. On Sunday I ended up in the hospital. And now I have an appointment to discuss further treatment, which may include inpatient. But I'm okay with that. My uni said they'll support me. And I am going to get better. I don't want this. I don't want to die. I want to fucking live. And I will.",0.9557610062893112,3.2818788716981184,2.4157547169811338,93.47595911949688,84.81132075471697,5.042767295597487,23.550314465408807,6.42735559955562,0.5878955974842763,1011,39,215,10,30,327,152,265,0.121,0.723,0.156,0.8255,2,0,0,0,0,2,41.0,1,2,1,5,10,11,3,0,9,2,25,10,2,3,1,35,48,18,3,5,6,2,4,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,11,16,5,2,3,1,1,3,6,3,0,1,12,9,47,8,27,30,1,33,0,0,2,1,20,15,2,2,16,144,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398171993124172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298456224663622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407946821717426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268316934727152,0.10869000863326657,0.0,0.0,0.08779362266810654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412831125028238,0.0,0.15601861202814307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4178898484322463,0.0,0.0,0.1205721951085161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766445851923084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585147426631574,0.2133694333342988,0.0,0.1547334553699316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650702542232677,0.0,0.12020670034398526,0.0,0.11431626170651085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868836736592668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441353587221722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589846583807036,0.10825731539212403,0.0,0.0,0.10847926333857594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260946954155165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635464994897308,0.0,0.2174297495429095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448053094222064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941742669018048,0.0,0.12533169106929942,0.0,0.0,0.09043978872861268,0.08722763506482915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408818411929536,0.0,0.1091965613655836,0.16577161955662026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122600835059328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17532857940159674
EDAnonymous,navajohcc,2019/02/19,"I had my wisdom tooth yanked today *(Possible TMI if you're squeamish/TW - bp-ing)*

I have AN Type II (B/P subtype) and right now binge/purging has gotten pretty bad, sometimes three times a day or more.

After the dentist got the tooth out she gave me a long list of precautions I had to take so as not to disturb the blood clot, because (not to be gross but) there's essentially an open wound in my mouth right now.

is puking gonna knock out the blood clot? Or make it more likely to get infected/take longer to heal? What do you guys do when you have to avoid binging?

Anyone else here had their wisdom teeth out? How did you cope arghh its such a pain in the arse

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(ps. New here so I hope I'm doing this right)",0.9847972972972984,3.20892727702703,2.129662162162159,96.269222972973,83.66216216216216,4.781081081081081,18.033783783783786,5.985473137389443,-0.4059000000000004,559,13,124,4,16,177,108,148,0.11599999999999999,0.7809999999999999,0.10300000000000001,0.2561,0,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,3,1,0,10,9,0,2,10,0,12,10,6,2,0,15,21,10,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,0,12,4,14,12,2,18,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,4,10,72,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128526997746064,0.2387073630327735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373618958406798,0.20128549034018975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402693306720434,0.119753650381001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669352600102585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16410815557311084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263663437209032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711842558127448,0.0,0.0,0.19451566100455225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951184492024034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597518929647067,0.0,0.0,0.17385142025938197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113141182646626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897319271625304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903587182798244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214670325962096,0.0,0.19985953031663328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032998044086762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429334922143973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770540110368144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455114795902716,0.0,0.1862109358297284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387073630327735,0.0
EDAnonymous,avocadonut115,2019/02/19,wellbutrin :( hi there anxiety induced binge eating and serious brain fog distracted bullshit. It’s nice being extremely happy but not with this weird sinking anxiety lying below the surface. it’s been a good week but thanks no thanks. ,6.177999999999997,9.463752799999998,6.0100000000000025,69.785,71.0,9.0,35.0,9.516144504307137,4.4144999999999985,192,10,25,5,4,60,35,40,0.337,0.39799999999999996,0.265,-0.0941,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,2,0,2,2,1,1,0,6,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720597520194471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444292080231472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157102643373654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587861045281761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284432561552761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681186293342501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24748968214562306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ultravegan,2019/02/19,"Shout out to A line dress+ cardigan combo! ""has she gained weight? Has she lost weight? Is she dieing of a rare south American wasting disease?  Consorting with a local coven? Did she kill Lara Palmer?"" All is hidden by the A line dress and cardigan combo.",1.969696048632219,4.813222382978722,1.841337386018239,93.82000000000002,91.12765957446808,4.387841945288755,19.480243161094226,6.1826913282559595,0.15252218844984802,200,6,37,2,7,59,35,47,0.20800000000000002,0.742,0.049,-0.8538,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,1,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,5,4,1,3,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380713027552873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603879624175905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35558853853843964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7933379494628608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,taglilie,2019/02/19,"losing the only thing valuable I lost my ass.
ever since I was 15, I was told I had a big butt and would always get catcalled and now it’s gone!!",2.9078124999999986,2.7457241562500023,4.662500000000001,90.1325,73.0625,6.4,22.25,3.1291,-0.04605000000000015,111,2,26,0,2,38,27,32,0.264,0.645,0.091,-0.7081,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,2,0,1,4,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,6,0,5,1,0,1,0,4,0,2,0,2,1,1,2,0,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069481394077497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336844162327874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927311233832999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126963861607619,0.4026897772607581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805593948172728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051517159114838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450758078300416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35249262449787816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620506719005645,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LucifersLittleGirl,2019/02/19,"Anxiety after losing weight? So I guess I’m looking for advice? Or at least reassurance that someone else has dealt with this issue. 

I was chubby through most of my teen years and overweight in my late teens. About 3-4 years ago I lost about 60 pounds and now stay on the lower end of a healthy BMI (always aiming for less ugh). Anyways so I watched Insatiable out of curiosity from all the controversy and it’s p mediocre as a show honestly but the fact that Patty always feels like “Fatty Patty” even after she loses weight was so relatable. 

Since losing the weight I get the positive attention I have always wanted as a “fat girl.” I always had crushes on dudes at work or from class and whatever and fantasized about if I was skinny and how they’d want me. Now some of them do. I had a fling with a guy from work that I can’t help but think that years ago it would have been a fantasy and I would envy the girl he was flinging with. The thing is I could NEVER relax around him. I constantly felt like the nervous fat girl at this hot guys house. I was self conscious all the time. For context I come across as an extroverted, very open person and still portrayed myself that way but was also sooo self conscious.

I guess the long and short of it is I still feel like a heavier girl and don’t know how to get accustomed to the “league” I’m in now. I don’t want to come across shallow it’s just now I have people give me a chance that before would have been someone in a daydream and it makes me so nervous to talk to them. On the inside I’m still Fatty Patty, ya know? It’s like he can’t really be taking to ME, right?

I don’t wanna seem like ~humble bragging~ or some shit. I’m just so insecure that even posting this makes me nervous but I do love this community and lurk constantly. Y’all are so supportive and kind and I’m just hoping that someone can offer insight or at least the comfort of being able to relate. ",2.8517775695095287,4.6566028969072155,3.98875351452671,87.40673070915341,75.44329896907216,6.764885973133396,23.613245860668545,7.5764669431780325,1.0301965635738837,1516,46,308,20,33,493,193,388,0.107,0.7509999999999999,0.142,0.9526,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,3,7,27,23,1,4,23,0,33,9,4,4,4,67,63,35,0,10,12,0,7,5,0,3,3,0,0,9,19,22,7,0,11,3,0,2,6,10,0,0,12,9,36,13,46,44,8,43,0,4,2,1,24,17,1,12,26,211,55,3,0.08732065791867133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853287363068091,0.15480898923577605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983029858947669,0.2906311300015785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680006430063251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773389860216406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430344841843807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504380297949593,0.0,0.18872521995607436,0.0,0.06971844000145633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294520494895591,0.0,0.07734018477153866,0.0,0.0,0.11534894202908773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08830389667177194,0.12476379092918248,0.08384152530969523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124287947051796,0.0837659318201529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923870986308755,0.17292235974753184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05852919636241372,0.0,0.0,0.08672911603135362,0.0,0.10075631534219563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114008024793588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909310279574256,0.09597829991922477,0.0,0.09850150555240464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21330231361131075,0.0,0.0,0.07727603443716709,0.07332736038201773,0.2930684413551827,0.0953208131764483,0.0,0.07881030299770371,0.0,0.11657443443346845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734707453468575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060537149504618915,0.07624503037979649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836290526268059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593984943593557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457136475057631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949344743460396,0.18218898027407945,0.0,0.08963340052194405,0.0722325505771058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22195953026473453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307220295807303,0.20920317063162924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990904478094956,0.0,0.0,0.06565426756487885,0.07018503718729376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801196506934781,0.05595155174065286,0.0,0.0,0.05091737784650683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204868774199936,0.15451195932200146,0.06931107381377323,0.0,0.3189991110682037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714095789761834,0.0,0.0,0.18609027010006474,0.0,0.0,0.1686949223381908
EDAnonymous,throwaway_5555556,2019/02/19,"just venting/asking your thoughts howdy, i haven't posted here before but i've been lurking since proed was still up. i'm a 25 year old guy and i'm basically just a mess atm.

i lost a bunch of weight last year (33.5 bmi to 21) but due to a personal tragedy in my life and a career change, i've basically gone full back in to a binge cycle that doesn't feel like it's ever going to stop. a big part of it is that even though i'm only at a ""normal weight,"" not thin at all, i have all kinds of loose skin on my stomach, legs, and thighs. i've read that this effect could be hard to get rid of fat instead of loose skin but my brain just can't accept it for some reason. i'm less than 20 pounds from my big gw but i can't get myself to snap out of it!! i have a fucked up relationship with food so if i can't stay motivated to restrict i self harm by binging. i keep thinking ""if i'm gonna look flabby at lower weights, fuck it i'll be 300 lbs""

at least when my restricting game is consistent it's somewhat healthy (not mentally but i stay away from junk food etc) so while it doesn't fix my relationship with food it doesn't make me miserable like this binging does. 

idk i guess this is a dumb thing to post. it's pretty  narcissistic to tell strangers about my baggage and expect them to care but i just feel lonely in this issue because i stay secretive about it. is anyone out there going through something similar? 

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EDAnonymous,killveemaim,2019/02/19,"Other ways to feel in control I have been working on minimizing my disordered habits, mainly B/P. Still heavy restricting most of the time but still not at my goal weight for my initial weight loss. Lately I’ve been really struggling with interpersonal relationships and feel like especially with my interactions in dating that I’m losing a lot of my control and I’m slipping up more than I have in the previous month. (Maybe 4x in January, easily 10x this month.) 

What non-harmful behaviours help you feel empowered or in control of your own life when it feels like nothing is going how you want it to? ",8.383422619047622,8.181015258928575,8.441785714285713,67.78654761904764,61.589285714285715,12.109523809523811,36.52380952380953,11.538034831475384,4.35562023809524,487,20,84,13,6,159,81,112,0.10099999999999999,0.779,0.12,0.3205,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,7,4,5,0,1,3,0,5,3,0,4,0,19,13,6,0,1,3,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,2,4,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,6,10,2,17,11,5,18,0,2,0,0,6,8,0,3,10,55,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5210275229107167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746987940345246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131843635058424,0.22124770210295144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800401217268823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037917340013076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467593437843482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10937412609129224,0.1513023815268094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732359437670827,0.0,0.13164671880369092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15556620402266616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471973062710188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485813814917257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919996059362228,0.0,0.0,0.1662494162801486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473245398641448,0.0,0.0,0.16188134908556998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090293447816456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913336999803669,0.12291158915081116,0.0,0.3771276894313304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273160493328915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bulimicomrade,2019/02/19,"I don't know if I can stick with this I'm currently a few weeks into my treatment for bulimia and I don't know if I can stick with this. I can't weigh myself and I have to eat every few hours and I can tell that I've gained weight even though I can't check. I also had to delete my MyFitnessPal account and it's stressing me out. The thing is, I don't think weighing myself or using MyFitnessPal were really issues. Plenty of people without eating disorders use MFP and weigh themselves. I don't know if I can stick with this if it means I'm going to gain the weight back.

I'm just really stressed out right now.",2.8011627906976737,4.1031854341085285,4.2596046511627925,87.49963953488373,74.50387596899225,7.330542635658915,22.20232558139535,7.908726449838941,0.8767637209302328,487,12,105,7,10,162,73,129,0.046,0.9,0.053,0.204,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,2,3,0,14,7,0,2,0,25,25,12,0,4,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,11,7,0,5,0,2,1,7,2,0,0,2,2,17,0,12,23,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,5,71,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453177754805615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935685822028145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19280372891678046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442782456393588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111293036773157,0.0,0.14173924734425986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560778292951244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567057818813702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17558620325697769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773609354747825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832494826786004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116628032459482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155421796097302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366569321230607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854089440242007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703858500525582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176313058199096,0.1077936349161825,0.16528304126665014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29058975559938505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494226068603196,0.4097124821662301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621656763379943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zanzanzanzan0,2019/02/19,"Today I engaged peak awkward at my new job due to a ginger cookie My new boss, who I have been trying to bond with, offered me a cookie (of reasonable size) from a box and I took so long starting at it he adds ""it's gluten free!"" 

I'm panicking because (1) I already ate my snack for the day and (2) I don't know this guy well enough to eat a cookie in front of him. I don't know about you guys but I often choke and get flushed in the face, heart racing etc if I eat in front of someone who I know but don't know well. Like strangers are fine, family are fine, anyone in between is apparently no-go according to anxiety.

But I decide I should take it, and he starts eating his then like a TOTALLY NORMAL human being I say ""oh I better put it somewhere so I don't get any crumbs on these papers"", walk half the floor to my desk and put it down, then return to our conversation. 

So far it's been a really low-food office, thankfully. What are everyone's tips for staying calm when there's unexpected food at work?
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EDAnonymous,betterno1,2019/02/19,"He didn’t choose me. I didn’t expect this today. On social media, I was browsing along and all the sudden there’s this girl. I don’t know who she is, I didn’t know she existed as a romantic prospect. My eyes watered and I found myself crying in my office.

He didn’t choose me.

I clicked out of the image the first time, I didn’t remember her face - I knew I shouldn’t have viewed it again. But I did. Again. And again, and again.

I thought you liked me.

I stopped eating what I was eating in the moment. I didn’t hestitate, like a machine without thoughts I snapped the lid back on my Tupperware and put that back in the fridge. I don’t have any plans to return to it this week.

My mind instantly goes to “he would’ve chose you if you were skinnier”. At this weight? You know, that’s cute that you thought he could possibly like you. It’s cute.

Better luck next time",0.5404522479382834,2.834988418994413,1.7097047086991246,97.9866852886406,86.59776536312849,4.9737696195796754,19.13833466347433,6.42735559955562,-0.11143915935089098,673,19,153,7,21,212,97,179,0.03,0.8220000000000001,0.14800000000000002,0.9559,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,6,0,3,7,7,0,0,8,0,17,6,2,0,1,28,25,8,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,7,4,1,11,0,0,1,10,0,0,1,15,4,33,7,14,8,1,24,0,0,3,0,16,7,0,2,19,100,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433022882470005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585542814126112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869220231628036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423350223265415,0.0,0.1846765514723325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34406608057725124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300636814021586,0.0,0.18433951977428506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771900089034799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24641099189634266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975752646281272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880200591352102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953478697429169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901126845083647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904519574064147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138146091301762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055936864717705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004155320519271,0.19606915911191355,0.0,0.1593620939470479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485910110949173,0.2047299962864628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206574004742774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943061590032933,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rayotap,2019/02/19,I threw up for the first time in 3 years tonight Does this mean I'm going to relapse??? who knows!!! I got fucking food poisoning from a restaurant. guess this just means I should never eat ever again!!!,1.3099999999999987,3.9253589743589785,1.6725128205128217,96.96415384615385,87.46153846153845,4.1456410256410265,20.620512820512825,5.6839178017228535,-0.0949425641025643,156,5,32,1,5,47,35,39,0.153,0.847,0.0,-0.7774,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,2,8,10,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,3,0,5,7,0,11,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,7,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318582893121024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711085435760807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396611607499819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22536512825415744,0.32037687668864656,0.0,0.0,0.24494069446706365,0.0,0.0,0.15057638472870696,0.0,0.2119035843076816,0.0,0.29187073332166386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560881150423968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772133556426603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20434467977732532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15449364865561888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061819994128233
EDAnonymous,krysalism,2019/02/19,why can't alcohol be zero calorie I mean it's probably a good thing it isn't otherwise my budding alcoholism would've been full blown by now but wouldn't it be damn nice if I could get drunk without worrying about the calories i'm ingesting?,5.768911564625852,6.1471277959183706,6.6738775510204125,76.30564625850344,66.9591836734694,11.431292517006804,36.74149659863946,11.20814326018867,4.336341496598639,198,10,38,6,3,66,41,49,0.063,0.7120000000000001,0.225,0.79,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,7,4,0,0,0,6,10,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,3,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6106290200869386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22809930966473616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926063906918408,0.0,0.0,0.2396222631049999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111989233760342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30802091314074737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897989855242976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577897619764812,0.0,0.0,0.2753938682241288,0.0,0.0,0.2901309071199681,0.0,0.20294517081498287,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrueRusher,2019/02/19,"Life hack: get the flu so that your taste buds will be killed for a week thus preventing a good binge Seriously though eating like a normal person is so easy when i can’t really taste the food. 

The flu was horrible tho 10/10 would not recommend ",9.802499999999998,6.975784250000004,9.011666666666667,73.20000000000003,60.66666666666666,13.766666666666666,32.333333333333336,12.161744961471696,3.5092583333333334,196,4,40,5,2,62,41,48,0.301,0.5479999999999999,0.152,-0.7887,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,6,7,0,1,0,5,7,5,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,2,2,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32865703164385784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883836042602338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678082510648791,0.0,0.0,0.26939850411078736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3553485806971202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268656343357743,0.15691696010874798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31469750361486104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28045027238659964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20576221077525628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155670415531845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576388337173096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281637971598133,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,redneck_ancap,2019/02/19,"Lifting on very little food I was a fat strong guy, started eating a lot less and now I’m a little less fat , a lottle less strong, and have no energy. I’m still lifting, rather irregularly now, but it sucks I lost the muscle because even though I’m down nearly 30 pounds I still look like a fat mother fucker. Also, literally none of the fat on my face is gone. I still have no jawline and fat cheeks. A baby face is a death sentence for a male. Why is it so fuckin hard to look good",3.2719094766619534,3.979722386138615,4.757934936350782,86.64940594059406,72.66336633663366,6.9595473833097605,22.34936350777935,6.868970318607317,0.4846848656294198,375,8,82,3,7,126,63,101,0.215,0.6559999999999999,0.129,-0.9103,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,10,8,3,0,10,0,6,12,8,0,0,6,15,7,1,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,3,5,4,7,12,5,13,0,1,2,2,3,6,3,1,7,51,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277722695746047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240809447778932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20828037489854745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344415053009762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24613099648337414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072636831365748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154447830819847,0.0,0.0,0.18233898777714524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994432497485901,0.40801705196828025,0.0,0.0,0.3418580365312641,0.0,0.22219663890325486,0.1730491933368303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407229098682608,0.0,0.4876609820376288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999848334039169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679483810532353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367037052563626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SayBone,2019/02/19,"Dumb ED thoughts. I just found out that the prosecutor decided to charge my ex who sexually assaulted me. This actual assault happened awhile ago, and the arrest came out of the blue.

I think most people would be bracing themselves to have to recount what happened in front of strangers, and to have to face their abuser again. But not me!

When we were together, he always complimented me when I lost weight and encouraged me. Honestly, all I can think about is how I want to try to lose more weight before the preliminary hearing.

In my head, he'll be impressed and it will make him feel bad for how he treated me. But I know that's not how it will work in actuality. He probably is just scared and mad, since, you know, being a registered sex offender is on the line. He'll be scared and mad no matter how I look.

But that's not stopping me from fasting.

Do you have ED thoughts in totally inappropriate situations? Is this just me?",4.381739824421388,6.127174312849164,5.2176576217079,80.42733240223465,71.23463687150839,8.913168395849961,29.54549082202713,9.424239791934726,2.643609417398244,738,30,144,17,14,240,109,179,0.209,0.716,0.075,-0.9823,0,0,0,0,1,0,22.0,1,2,1,3,11,16,6,2,6,0,17,5,2,5,2,40,35,15,0,2,9,1,3,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,9,10,2,1,9,0,0,2,4,11,0,0,6,6,21,5,19,20,4,15,0,2,2,1,14,7,1,1,6,99,30,1,0.0,0.18421236141163194,0.303442196460312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781913924553865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293675915478404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298150672912481,0.0,0.0,0.1322977089968348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782189398579287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861279303875293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047022920756755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749719235383637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956212647079762,0.0,0.17523153884457146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088990434491932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055977874263702,0.17393667093447546,0.1697192454910359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037807190071314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778673613582347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762826415291412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113150433512671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861046371002302,0.17476032864344054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299839981133432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19924410690660216,0.0,0.24685944576884336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555726770773673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170313835142917,0.0,0.0,0.3786531443214305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11318759631985005,0.0,0.0,0.11044492516775116,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imTired1029,2019/02/19,"The pressure maintaining a weight is making me binge like crazy I'm on accutane and I have to get monthly blood tests and they can see my triglyceride levels and all of that in the tests. And I eat like crap, but had finally gotten to maintain a reasonable weight but then after my first blood test the doc said my triglyceride levels were a little elevated, not bad, but that I should pay attention to then. 

So that absolutely wrecked me, because after it just threw me back into my disordered eating habits. I felt like such a disgusting person so I tightened up and stopped eating such awful food (even though it was under my calories) and started eating healthier but then I just snapped or something and ate terribly again the last 3 or 4 days before my latest blood test, and I'm so scared to see my doctor Wednesday because I'm scared she's going to tell me that I'm too unhealthy to have the medicine anymore because I couldn't control myself. 

I felt like a failure and I'm so scared of what the blood test results will be that I've binged all day today. I feel so awful and completely out of control. IDK why I'm posting this but I just want to say this somewhere. I'm just so frustrated and scared. ",5.263983050847457,6.310633661016954,5.462500000000002,82.17052966101697,68.32203389830508,8.103389830508474,30.85169491525424,8.278499904357787,2.23755593220339,968,38,181,13,16,306,129,236,0.244,0.7,0.055999999999999994,-0.9951,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,17,14,3,5,11,2,11,14,5,5,2,40,32,28,0,3,12,0,5,4,0,2,1,2,0,1,10,13,8,3,5,0,1,2,2,10,0,1,9,9,24,4,18,19,2,30,0,0,2,0,6,9,1,2,22,116,34,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915538567139617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463356405092114,0.09190008256143473,0.2012846942496592,0.0,0.09365762105426624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154015669701766,0.0,0.2468956010379729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419662647075548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261445814704889,0.11265668780185438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504978762554556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269721480981782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05565241632882042,0.0,0.21136025240299802,0.12057135889165248,0.0,0.09362164533930033,0.1330916213906483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057504673142662034,0.0,0.06255275160248748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971806054381834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150897454525042,0.11031453124019464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346956592983589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785322006474333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610493610428457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541230974826568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131656499911972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469748100572253,0.08752849140072393,0.4407790063754319,0.0,0.1754158826846023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473378768895369,0.0,0.0,0.07790491680797793,0.0,0.0,0.09201967389102116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620208524860424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813878020870844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104329210188809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491947476891367,0.0,0.0,0.2680602179037838,0.0,0.0,0.09931698064826752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HellaGayThrowaway,2019/02/19,"Had the urge to b/p this morning so instead I went out and spent over $100 stocking up on low/zero cal food/drinks that I already have stocked up in my house My ED is so glamorous and I am going to be broke because I can't fucking stop hording gum, mints, sugar free drink mixes, and fucking Walden Farms products. They're taking over the shelves in my pantries. I've spent more than my entire last two week paycheck on food in the past two weeks. Fuck. I used to be responsible with money but I keep getting scared of running out of safe food in case I'm feeling bingey.",4.078397435897436,4.891455931623933,4.334262820512824,90.03677884615387,70.88034188034189,6.191880341880343,30.009615384615394,5.148860815047168,1.075941025641026,452,18,95,1,8,141,86,117,0.069,0.813,0.11699999999999999,0.5534,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,3,1,3,0,7,7,0,1,0,12,20,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,4,3,1,1,4,3,1,5,0,2,4,3,10,4,19,14,1,20,0,1,0,3,0,12,3,0,5,51,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721506827281397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950965959397789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30564264699815563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887865545499342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5659100991550008,0.0,0.0,0.43266047826435694,0.08150394177086387,0.0,0.08865880885138157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000389523766733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386606149888812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716141459002994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892034687881564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618394343498118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042359399176434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729313304597368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047800872394327,0.0,0.0,0.13473454151138406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25026874862178594,0.0,0.0,0.14461423790851166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NuclearSpark,2019/05/25,"Why can't I ask people if they think I'm skinny without sounding like the attention/validation seeking whore that I am If they won't comment on my weight loss how will I know I'm actually visibly losing anything? I've lost 15lbs and no one's said anything wtf this shit was hard to do cause my BMR is like 1100 wtf

The number on the scale is hella nice but a comment is so much stronger. Why am I like this lmao",1.2147126436781583,3.3737415057471267,2.9639080459770137,91.03022988505751,82.2183908045977,5.705747126436782,23.459770114942533,6.937597516519254,0.7512666666666665,329,12,71,4,9,109,63,87,0.247,0.613,0.14,-0.5104,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,3,2,9,1,0,4,0,10,4,2,2,0,9,17,6,0,2,4,0,2,3,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,3,4,8,4,4,12,1,2,0,3,0,1,6,2,1,2,3,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2139477150362324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36083353561416814,0.0,0.20496085932346744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22522103122644305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639698736123032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204891903098842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213304225627849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24527474254759624,0.2393275898609555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116745530344226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485634623524822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199419313779522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20854851846176214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22504786733459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048086226754472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26697663002663685,0.0,0.0,0.3956620345270695,0.0,0.0,0.2113406237750036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,potatowedgess,2019/05/25,"Im scared im going to die Ive slowly been restricting more and more foods from my diet. Ive gone from being 56kg to 49kg in the span of 3 months and im still losing. I love how i look (though i still think i have some more to lose), but everyine around me is scaring me. My dad called me 'sickly looking', my grandma says i look like a skeleton and my friends just in shock. Im getting close to my gial weight but i dont think im going to be able to stop. Im scared but i dont want to get help cause i feel like theyre going to make me fat.",-0.15225108225108386,1.029020888888887,2.2693362193362208,99.19435064935068,82.17460317460316,4.8992784992785,17.803751803751805,4.851557810540192,-0.8374984126984129,416,8,110,1,11,143,73,126,0.18,0.69,0.13,-0.5319,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,6,10,0,3,2,0,9,6,1,3,0,19,24,8,1,1,4,1,2,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,3,0,0,4,2,6,0,0,2,6,19,4,14,20,4,13,0,2,3,1,6,5,0,1,6,57,19,0,0.10466437967531364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317348804811924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068740338276754,0.0,0.0,0.1075191490568268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862510172850044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24533174695968504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052921455176574976,0.07477225375297597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12656058335701326,0.0,0.0808634401059279,0.0,0.10936563703477516,0.0,0.17844953688317064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015432746592698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783329432823908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226745821466553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636751555889618,0.2341853374903963,0.0,0.0,0.09446368902718046,0.0,0.06986428616549956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354210930040737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832333156384051,0.31436190871095143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16717021761839276,0.08750410796924944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341294166670373,0.1028322216209144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061733762893070684,0.0,0.0,0.12745301769647974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cykablyattttt,2019/05/25,im not crazy ur crazy! !!! SO i've been telling everyone I don't wanna eat out cause I'm saving $$$ for a good while now but i still like to see my friends so i sometimes join and get a coffee or something. One friend put her foot  yesterday and told me 'dude it's so awkward when you come and don't eat you make me feel weird id rather you just let me get you something'. Like bitch I never thought of it like that!!!! How do I reprogram my brain to be ok with eating food at restaurants so I can at least feign normality??? Is anyone else like this? Lol,-1.3369166666666672,0.6835738083333354,0.7766666666666673,101.36833333333333,98.41666666666666,4.0,16.666666666666668,5.82211442006289,-0.6795833333333334,427,12,105,4,18,140,84,120,0.07200000000000001,0.645,0.28300000000000003,0.9818,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,0,10,12,1,1,2,2,8,6,2,3,1,20,17,12,0,3,5,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,2,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,3,2,16,9,9,12,1,11,0,0,1,0,10,3,1,1,10,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350712511224405,0.16632951369441618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121750167130474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676087969580775,0.0,0.13983564979358046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983220704501895,0.13560853126388034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511629812951785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208052702652557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19629391043892452,0.0,0.2508364049675781,0.0,0.16962475987205114,0.0,0.0,0.13615735900857032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17534767735285192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599666212191572,0.0,0.3172311433960153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835864980777224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252013462565305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905203750191774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000115547666572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631896700047298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129358517108259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24994400636154585,0.1605516534522355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296394772165133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418863434716123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288744021611988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511629812951785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ristii,2019/05/25,"Having nightmares where you binge and can't stop It's that time again ahahahahahahahahahhaha!!!!!

Literally woke up panicking 

Does anyone else have dreams where after a long time of restriction you just have these dreams about literally not being able to stop eating?",7.620000000000001,10.908698272727275,7.204545454545452,63.00181818181821,66.27272727272728,8.945454545454545,24.63636363636364,9.516144504307137,2.4792,220,6,33,5,4,69,37,44,0.099,0.695,0.205,0.6535,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,5,4,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,22,5,0,0.31640871192379033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212403282461044,0.3241981168175851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768913960451916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237651038195653,0.2643188781331989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800117532510518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5290637020250897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690009288284415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DontLookAtMeStop,2019/05/25,"Vegan restaurants in London Hey everyone
I'm heading to London in about a month's time and I want to check out at least one vegan restaurant while I'm there. Does anyone have any suggestions? They preferably must have calorie information on their website as I need to know what I'm gonna eat before I go.
Have a good day!",2.9641145833333336,5.220410515625002,4.241875000000004,83.64895833333338,76.65625,7.3916666666666675,24.729166666666664,8.344100000000001,1.7404979166666668,259,9,49,5,6,85,49,64,0.0,0.92,0.08,0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,1,8,12,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,10,10,1,10,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,4,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202493359358605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264642513947173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755978119112437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088756444921056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834293513308265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314098403554589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094809801612335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18406832542419999,0.2716549674680421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33239406224569656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779958401105354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585177260179547,0.0,0.0,0.2401527303517841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21946930030112985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18885688647625612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19103266766057592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AingealNiMhaolain,2019/05/25,Anorexic voice research! UK participants needed RECRUITMENT CALL!! Participants needed for an ethically approved research study investigating the lived experience of the Anorexic voice on behalf of the Counselling Psychology Doctorate at London Metropolitan University please DM me anm1598@my.londonmet.ac.uk,17.315384615384616,22.17761592307692,14.290256410256411,15.763076923076936,43.615384615384606,16.482051282051284,56.589743589743605,14.06817628641468,10.900651282051284,267,17,18,11,3,82,31,39,0.0,0.861,0.139,0.7163,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,1,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797280597805641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806319318704964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637671253324956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32837425982718593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5514842605134928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082093427054168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sodium100mg,2019/05/25,"is there a sub that allows tips? Last night I had my post deleted for sharing a method to deal with body dysmorphia, which did not involve food. It was deleted for violating rule #1. Is there any ED sub that allows sharing such information?",4.081666666666667,6.3952531111111135,4.530833333333334,82.61625000000002,73.44444444444444,7.166666666666668,29.027777777777786,8.07648339933343,2.0584444444444454,190,8,35,3,4,60,36,45,0.07200000000000001,0.805,0.12300000000000001,0.3527,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,5,2,1,2,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,2,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630414388860576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296544215836201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987801450394831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4677275190510715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152986298744014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36299135878637534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704533583769515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RapMobster,2019/05/25,"I just have to lie and agree My mom insists I'm not fat and that fat is what she is. 

And I get that this should trigger something in my brain that tells me ""ey, she's right. Look"" but that just doesn't happen to me.

For me, it's not about thinking I'm fat, it's that I'm too big. I want to be prettier and in my head, that means to be skinnier. It doesn't matter if anyone thinks I'm fat, I'm still not thin enough.
I'm just nodding my head and agreeing, saying that she's right, that I'm not fat and that I don't want to be skinnier. But it's all bs. I want more. Reassurance will never be enough.

Sorry, mom.",-0.4475078206465071,1.2615927007299277,1.662924921793536,100.56965328467156,85.4963503649635,4.498227320125131,17.084984358706986,5.288315135182226,-0.897733680917622,468,10,121,2,14,156,64,137,0.009000000000000001,0.847,0.14400000000000002,0.9356,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,12,8,8,1,2,27,28,9,0,5,10,2,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,15,6,5,0,3,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,15,1,9,22,4,8,0,0,1,0,8,6,0,1,2,74,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595560401352793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109186853477548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722582416579969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411386758411154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929408020959188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697439628799933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126926123622625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19622141811515867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219472990117205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893234610121458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076711120222773,0.0,0.14325174632482807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867785066222954,0.0,0.20164802346379104,0.0,0.0,0.14385721284594966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574472093761982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084834508524416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187474609345517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zioioio,2019/05/25,"How far have I went I’m cat sitting and the people I’m cat sitting for said I’m welcome to any food I want and they left stuff out too
I went down and saw lots of crisps and chocolates, and I thought to myself that I’m going to have a massive binge, and that I’ll probably get to 1500kcal and then I was just so sad by that thought, eating too much in my mind is a LCD for normal people

Why am I like this",0.032918192918195636,1.7555393736263731,1.9687179487179485,98.9568376068376,83.83516483516485,4.484004884004884,20.001221001221,5.033348758259628,-0.4918947496947492,317,9,78,1,9,105,58,91,0.047,0.873,0.08,0.2044,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,1,0,16,18,10,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,8,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,7,2,9,2,11,11,2,11,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,1,2,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964690760815452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517415341742128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660948675069654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149711621290924,0.0,0.12506396703218448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390935354566435,0.0,0.0,0.10750916684360227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870853441096825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221957319557218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617678653373481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21561000415728215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051208585663955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372596189102565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093254409664012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25191362943519724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494027592750366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979584181750511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40799172730804734,0.1985680130022786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cokebutnotcocacola,2019/05/25,"Had not one, not two, but THREE of my male coworkers tell me i looked skinnier tonight after a two week hiatus from work. I spent these past two weekends treating my body like garbage and was too busy drowning in substance abuse/running around at music festivals to eat, so i guess??? A foolproof diet plan??? Should i develop a full fledged drug problem to finally get skinnier??? I also feel like this is a scam bc my scale says i weigh the same!!!!! i!!!! am!!! confusion!!!! ahhhhhh",2.547977528089888,5.253041157303372,3.3933595505618013,86.58576966292135,81.24719101123596,6.256629213483146,29.1247191011236,7.554174236665415,2.0055519101123602,369,18,69,6,10,117,72,89,0.08900000000000001,0.748,0.163,0.7961,0,0,1,0,1,0,30.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,1,5,0,5,5,1,0,0,11,10,4,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,2,3,0,1,1,1,0,2,2,0,5,3,3,11,4,8,6,2,10,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,8,45,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456597681238525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18319204146762486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285804477661205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386449582126321,0.2105691563045657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405094425817052,0.1470126545339679,0.0,0.2254271165701444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751402965863396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266950840237557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20107205213111867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280734769991454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944506098429452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964448128915733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19690819786144192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636482794552457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986492716828373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6030653480099916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506810024966662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981373667244344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,howtobeahumanidiot,2019/05/25,"I passed out for the first time... At a bus stop. If my bf hadn't caught me in time, I'd have cracked my head on pavement. I just remember waking up and thinking the ground was really, really comfortable. Its a scary thing.

But at the same time, i feel disgustingly happy with myself for getting to the point where I pass out. That shit about osfed not feeling 'disordered enough' is true. But now I feel like my disorder is more justified. And I hate it but I love it. I've never been so conflicted in my life.",1.4922459893048128,3.8360677254901963,3.065579322638147,89.59965240641712,82.52941176470588,7.238502673796793,21.037433155080205,8.296473431620573,1.2156941176470593,396,12,84,9,11,130,74,102,0.131,0.7170000000000001,0.151,0.629,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,3,0,6,0,6,5,3,0,2,21,14,7,0,1,6,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,5,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,4,3,13,5,13,10,3,21,0,0,0,1,2,11,1,1,8,59,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4591613290197138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20698103422586955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038589190294838,0.14310652219073502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038955854422572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046573774205516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21324119725559745,0.0,0.19777158974232764,0.2055830584027272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148983834681791,0.09786477967306564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18079393533659335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544968382990163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936433615515527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566564303642884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269201390706244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20562254681898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674740019239218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308172995860676,0.12835506072951391,0.0,0.0,0.3504194033421672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,I_Love_Spiders_AMA,2019/05/25,"So I'm 1 month sober today! But I feel my ED coming back in full force. I haven't felt 'worthy' of posting here since gaining 70 pounds in the last year from my alcoholism and binge-eating, and I know that's a stupid and silly mindset. I fit the description of someone with an addictive personality perfectly. Drinking, self-harming, food restriction, and binge eating, smoking--I feel like I'm in a vortex of mental health problems and addictions that I'll never escape.

I'm trying to stay positive because I've had such a dark journey with alcohol and drugs, and I finally have started to overcome it and will continue to do my best every day to continue to. But I can't describe properly how much guilt consumes me with the amount of weight I've gained after working so hard to lose it. And I did lose so much weight, but not healthily. Though my ED consumed me then, it was the happiest time of my life. Even though the days of feeling sick and week, *I was finally skinny*.

And it felt like that's all that mattered.

Now it's coming back, and it's fucked up because I'm happy. I desperately want that thin body back, even despite the constant sickness I know I will feel again.

I'm jumping from one hell to another and I wonder if I'll feel happy again. Maybe at first, but how far will I go this time?

I'm self-harming again too. I don't know if it's worth the trade of not drinking and using.

But I don't even have the desire to drink, because I'm overwhelmed again with the obsession of counting calories, several trips to the scale a day, spending half the day in the bathroom from laxatives, dirtying dishes to look like I've eaten dinner, EC stacking with bronkaid and caffeine, drinking monster and coffee and tea and water in place of meals. It's happening again, and it's sad but I'm relieved.",4.422669555796318,5.78352572957747,5.124859154929581,82.63888136511379,70.5774647887324,7.8277356446370545,30.555254604550377,8.263242389622931,2.2484301191765983,1434,60,271,21,26,463,179,355,0.11199999999999999,0.746,0.142,0.8332,0,0,7,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,8,22,19,3,3,17,0,14,26,2,3,3,58,43,35,0,5,10,0,11,3,0,3,9,0,0,1,15,26,17,1,11,4,3,6,7,10,0,3,7,12,22,9,35,33,6,50,1,4,1,1,1,12,2,3,33,164,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351541031781944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897074495084496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306894754699704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20474485030872794,0.0,0.16231544799723774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314448939930124,0.0,0.0,0.098588482350246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291176177944574,0.0,0.0959142642157352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22896244488336415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3477903892303619,0.10292938210880727,0.09082007561329053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586852841435535,0.0,0.07478119413133733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243898107159872,0.0634076739215012,0.17044035159002138,0.1944568533349122,0.0,0.07549624854554865,0.10732473341419208,0.0,0.0,0.08205397033541988,0.0,0.0,0.05044237435770592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848709540770074,0.1889659268526173,0.07950840623000377,0.0,0.0,0.09434402778726357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633478270003686,0.07234840803419823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269135323646194,0.1300858537315021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453312089990137,0.1985916803557196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916785163522255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08944569400435345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084460557702278,0.0,0.1304925058117428,0.0,0.06845449805362648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060143713375456674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07749876768655138,0.0927316700501888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500420931156967,0.0,0.0,0.08492800053198091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518480990797734,0.10026960137130454,0.0,0.07342030855909454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520310935290735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282231999811325,0.09460263835155563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17440565583869333,0.0,0.1035092783694507,0.0,0.08413080067573586,0.0,0.0,0.06025984933256245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07665713390334132,0.0,0.0,0.05235089369384298,0.0,0.07119512472345832,0.21616305463008906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625265725839503,0.06461580191175365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057156287349986415
EDAnonymous,litas-f,2019/05/25,"spiralling further why the fuck do i think starvation will bring me happiness?? it literally wont

yet it keeps calling to me

how much longer can i resist",3.5426436781609176,6.279874758620689,4.455862068965517,80.33367816091955,77.27586206896551,8.004597701149425,30.356321839080447,8.841846274778883,2.945749425287357,124,6,22,3,3,40,26,29,0.111,0.763,0.126,0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,6,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4320474154095185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911627218537261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504134655710543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760837860015184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110379884494183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711148149176223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38179520515912607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilcassatt,2019/05/25,"DAE have such a warped perception of food that they don’t even know what a normal amount is I just ate five saltines and half a slice of cheese after fasting for days and was like “well that was a binge.” My anorexic brain sees things as either fasting or binging, even though I logically know what a portion size is. I also feel shitty because I feel like I’m invalidating BED and actual binging in my head by considering a fucking apple a binge. Idk what I’m trying to say I just feel like shit after years of thinking like this and feel like I’m letting down my fellow ED community.",9.131810344827585,6.59535131896552,8.920068965517242,72.43182758620691,61.67241379310346,11.34896551724138,36.99310344827586,9.3871,3.2286089655172407,467,16,91,6,5,152,75,116,0.077,0.795,0.128,0.5770000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,8,8,2,0,7,0,7,6,3,0,0,18,20,8,0,1,4,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,1,0,7,4,2,0,9,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,3,6,9,6,11,16,3,8,0,0,1,1,3,2,2,1,11,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.17136719451377386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404329315915231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704845607401348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603559639964235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325204960210865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319736620396833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551688974860162,0.3763612343903972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21234479808859344,0.0,0.0,0.1623459309793929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802235436133808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930181353808269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17957015387202238,0.0,0.42896378535899504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17205766961085944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964981145531274,0.0,0.0,0.13993611994876315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025816097127031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666555186835842,0.1125219367058352,0.17253308066302098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922569134171244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157891869279255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11308521261345693
EDAnonymous,aenema_onodi,2019/05/25,"i feel the need to puke more and more especially when i'm nervous and because i have anxiety, shocker, that is pretty often. i also can't eat a full meal in front of ppl anymore, i get too nervous",6.511219512195122,4.841208048780492,7.946463414634148,74.60310975609757,66.07317073170732,10.151219512195123,37.57317073170732,8.841846274778883,3.238453658536585,154,7,31,2,2,54,34,41,0.268,0.657,0.075,-0.7373,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,7,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337776941479426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192936573603517,0.0,0.4139276396158536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544302566751966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42708273490906734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21103927385915466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180632084657707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094811088424892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246243136277095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LolitalovesCherrys,2019/05/25,"Binged the last whole week, hating myself Hi. i used to be bulimic/anorexic for most of my life and underweight, i kind of got better at 23, am at a normal weight and just relapsed from time to time. i activily tried to stay healthy, do keto, dont use chemical sweeteners and work out. for my depression i managed to get on wellbutrin (wasnt easy cause of my diagnosis), so i wouldnt gain weight and it also helped me at first a hella lot with binging. ( i quit smoking a few weeks ago so that also made me binge) 

​

Im 5 3 and weight 115 at the moment, cause i gained through binging. I know im not overweight but i feel awful. and when i started to lose weight when i started the medication my bf seemed to find me prettier, he complimented my thinner face and my body. 

he always tried to get me to go to the gym regulary and do keto and he says he does it cause he wants me to be healthy and happy, and i do believe that, but at the same time he asks me everyday, and im at the moment pretty depressed and go through alot of lifechanges (work, health, all this)  , 

and he also does not believe i have or had depression and seems dissapointed that i take a antidepressant. He himself goes almost everyday to the gym, and i know he is into slim muscular girls, not necissarly skinny, but very well shaped with big butts and legs (all muscles). 

It could of course just be my interpretation (he also always tells me that im beautiful) ; but him asking me so often why iam not going to the gym makes me feel like he secretly wants my appereance to change (it would be alright if he said it straight out, without masking it) and i too want to get fit and lose weight, 

but the more he asks me the more i want to binge, cause im embarassed that im not working out and dont have a pretty body. 

at the moment i barely have energy, it is hard for me to fulfill daily tasks and work. I havent seen him in a week cause i been busy with work, last time he complimented me on my weightloss (i havent ate carbs, and not even sweeteners, and worked out like crazy, restricted calories also)...im supposed to see him tomorrow, and im afraid to do so ; cause i gained. i look fatter and bloated. and im ashamed cause i think he looks secretly down on me because of this. he thinks im lazy i guess, and maybe i am.",3.73277344258031,4.702270894849786,4.831865001950842,85.57192677851477,71.81115879828326,8.051918324879699,27.42593315125504,8.391295532112219,1.7078263233190267,1791,62,380,28,33,589,209,466,0.087,0.775,0.138,0.9694,0,0,0,0,0,0,66.0,0,0,0,14,16,17,1,2,18,2,25,17,7,11,2,92,62,44,0,9,16,0,8,2,1,2,4,2,0,1,14,35,8,1,12,3,0,3,13,8,1,1,8,14,53,9,51,47,10,46,0,5,4,1,32,21,1,10,23,227,67,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651152230066823,0.0,0.05254116318220503,0.0,0.0,0.20980134978855475,0.08731854881985697,0.05685126360905341,0.06375683858165107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471572061242538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031985247794206875,0.0,0.0,0.1182315285292505,0.0,0.04640548415438963,0.0,0.11656476607258252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773082736800428,0.055506342298239385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04189305534392252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355770990014111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183376664893148,0.0,0.12298898612980272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0346559648508095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306085492270457,0.037484605207780325,0.0,0.0,0.04795666361539156,0.04463098701431359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224028677314241,0.0,0.0894597942931559,0.0,0.04196508214375076,0.0,0.05780166172845801,0.0,0.0,0.05585533049644595,0.04700284735127139,0.05180329903430639,0.0,0.05577319615438914,0.0,0.0,0.03516956005318949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5667664430350285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463946965280096,0.05767232069804901,0.0855401671390981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03706113914412838,0.05126841982648322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812323301104996,0.11740110108596155,0.0,0.0446081494573877,0.0,0.0496484180672112,0.03502415740588678,0.0,0.05271320502799345,0.0,0.0,0.05285804255994577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051409496215359896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067617827243369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055808343447224726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991102109200196,0.04172627973937467,0.0,0.0,0.04181182649496977,0.0955335028376279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427712507736682,0.05592607851555336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039450938153560426,0.0,0.04586112540449007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724136264668434,0.0,0.0,0.12238280306022728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124742235168086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063453121727988,0.0,0.04329327596787195,0.12379275005845987,0.0,0.12626489719279385,0.3194718502585349,0.04717686502732712,0.0,0.04734604756783682,0.05858092295218233,0.0,0.0505792436629805,0.0,0.2291928728858387,0.0,0.0,0.0372732091352238,0.0,0.06375683858165107,0.0
EDAnonymous,FowWithSocks,2019/05/25,"A short poem (critique welcome as always) Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
Fuck peanut butter.
No seriously, fuck peanut butter.",3.322857142857142,5.433888904761908,4.590857142857144,69.62914285714288,112.33333333333334,5.48952380952381,23.24761904761905,6.742157984588678,2.2720019047619053,101,4,12,2,5,33,17,21,0.377,0.519,0.10400000000000001,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,5,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103829741878658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9119132713677992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fibreoptic_Calico,2019/06/24,"What do you guys all wear in the summer? So, summer in the uk is finally upon us, after raining all last week. It’s suddenly unbearably muggy.
My standard uniform is leggings and a hoodie and Uggs.
Now it’s hot and I’m not at goal weight, or even near it and I don’t know what to do. I’m so flabby and excruciatingly self conscious. I can’t just wear a vest top in public. I need to be covered! I need to hide how fat I am. 
To be honest I’m usually always cold and when everyone is in summer gear I’m still in a hoodie and boots, but I can’t regulate my temperature very well so suddenly I’ll be hot and swooning from the heat.

What do you do? What’s your safe summer outfit?",-0.7190689655172413,1.4478582482758642,2.618189655172415,89.20452586206898,94.10344827586206,5.382758620689657,18.28448275862069,6.961326702584282,0.3985103448275869,526,16,114,9,20,189,83,145,0.028999999999999998,0.8859999999999999,0.084,0.8121,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,3,0,2,10,3,0,0,6,0,14,5,4,1,2,21,21,15,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,7,8,2,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,4,12,3,14,18,2,23,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,1,14,76,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210760648863405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16836729090000174,0.0,0.0,0.2435798015632283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792441651282877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524034354765526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400932341322449,0.20778769637987576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780287523548594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26592931414009274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20357343822628213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066283305308278,0.0,0.28075008628582365,0.21032949508911136,0.0,0.0,0.2044754177973432,0.3104147304996136,0.2291969359964471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bpollock2,2019/06/24,My ED just came and hit me full force I stupidly weighed myself yesterday and now I’m like nauseated just thinking of how disgusting I have gotten. Like I really let myself go. I want to healthy lose weight. Please help. I’m getting so depressed about it I don’t want to do anything including eating,2.9741954022988466,5.570237568965516,4.048965517241381,83.2509195402299,78.48275862068967,7.314942528735633,28.63218390804597,8.344100000000001,2.388508045977012,241,11,44,5,6,78,44,58,0.19699999999999998,0.5770000000000001,0.226,-0.2596,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,9,14,4,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,1,9,2,4,10,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284839865401835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175599874093956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391413110163252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841073716127421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506174082603088,0.0,0.15779606325913054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610432206326186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839180411736948,0.0,0.27129354193320543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106216326567596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047785827289594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787101827151067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17790822789715638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275327554728278,0.0,0.0,0.3381054071801994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Callmefaz,2019/06/24,"When you log a snack and someone else eats it (: I bought a mini snickers and logged it to eat later because i didnt have lunch. i politely offered it to my coworker bcs i know he doesnt like them. He took it. Thats okay. He said he didnt like it,,,,,.then wHy dId yOu eAT It 🥺",-2.5602395964691063,-1.4786159016393403,-0.02557377049180154,103.60345523329133,117.85245901639344,3.1883984867591426,16.167717528373267,5.369823440869387,-0.8088068095838592,214,7,53,2,13,71,41,61,0.075,0.835,0.091,0.2216,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,5,5,0,0,0,3,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,5,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,6,1,8,3,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,4,26,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552326176618842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7817132887158798,0.2127278666514816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399492879685506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488188012254472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422309967438256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157645929307369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829261417267073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297825218421649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LethalRevenge2020,2019/06/24,"My ED is rubbing off on my boyfriend, what should I do? My boyfriend is conventionally attractive and I guess I have a conventionally attractive face but not body, and I know body dysmorphia can hit anyone. I feel like I’m rude when I say “you’re still conventionally attractive” because maybe it’s comparing my experience as someone plus size with an ED to an average size person with ED. I have no idea how to be there for support",3.626341463414634,6.194440597560978,4.956280487804875,77.78490853658538,75.95121951219512,8.978048780487804,29.76219512195122,9.516144504307137,3.0973365853658534,347,16,66,10,8,115,57,82,0.08,0.75,0.17,0.775,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,3,0,8,3,3,1,0,13,14,7,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,11,5,9,11,0,4,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17706201324434562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436466059272322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5625556089993254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24770432648322385,0.0,0.0,0.1280390402725989,0.1809052222318328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27895778553339384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858621485476628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391667850664806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371378637675745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544002802559064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211078079979004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013760547114533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21455818150426215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022271889029127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28735868553727506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiredanddisappointed,2019/06/24,"I was gonna do better tomorrow but now im not lmao back to fasting bichez Today was a bad day and i almost passed out a few times cause i overexerted myself on a 24+hr fast, i ended up finally eating around 6pm and i planned on maybe having a small dinner later tonight.

 Tomorrow i actually wanted to eat normally (even planned our most of my meals) and go to the gym (for fitness, not just calorie burning) and see my girlfriend and have a relatively normal day. 

But my parents just jumbled all my plans cause they all of a sudden want me to do yard work all day (even though i spent the whole weekend cleaning the house and entertaining their guests) instead of studying for my college admissions or working out or basically doing anything besides working for them so now i have no apetite. Rip me i guess. 

Why does a bump in my routine always make me throw my eating habits under the bus??",5.736468733578558,6.415116687861271,6.231497635312665,78.39782974251183,67.09248554913296,8.60304781923279,33.646347871781394,8.575989854853784,2.739975722543352,709,31,130,10,11,230,115,173,0.07400000000000001,0.868,0.057999999999999996,-0.6833,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,3,7,11,3,0,0,11,0,8,5,0,3,3,30,16,12,0,4,8,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,9,5,0,0,4,1,3,3,1,0,0,3,1,24,2,18,12,6,31,0,0,1,0,7,10,0,5,18,90,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.13843067359603786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204796516637092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803528347981047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11673513171816305,0.1262816238225746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907825605268684,0.1184435613613998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545981469484996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29144970354453953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744555203293304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413885509925435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354613023370253,0.0,0.0,0.12564202098845922,0.0,0.0,0.1873886678474621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15539595555601474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061984784182065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156270016392465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368240035033613,0.0,0.0,0.1532284690358257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468976303246174,0.0,0.14251308989215902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779768808047027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575139370094813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304060499961227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937247815457374,0.0,0.08271718350513124,0.0,0.1344625909397187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734030218528734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280026803433851,0.15837679257439366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098178575830853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smokvenjak,2019/06/24,"D&D night, nervous about snacks Apparently I'm not as recovered as I thought.. My friends and I are about to start our very first D&D campaign (very excited!) at my place, and the DM said they would bring the snacks and drinks. I'm taking recovery slowly but surely and challenging behaviors at my own pace so as to avoid a relapse but the thought of having chips and other oil soaked carbs plus beer around me all evening freaks me out. I'm not ready to have those without massive guilt and anxiety yet, but I know I won't be able to hold back and not eat anything while we play.

How weird and obviously ED would it be to make a bowl of carrot slices for snacking? Popcorn maybe? I really don't want this disorder to ruin my night but what else can I do? :(",5.067,5.942109700000002,5.1280000000000046,85.01400000000002,68.66666666666666,8.666666666666668,30.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,2.2303333333333333,605,23,123,10,10,189,102,150,0.175,0.745,0.079,-0.9414,1,1,2,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,1,2,8,11,0,3,5,0,11,6,0,2,3,33,23,19,0,3,8,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,5,12,6,2,3,3,0,1,6,6,0,1,3,2,15,5,20,15,2,13,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,7,80,20,1,0.1759605374080752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813063375322269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346093294920072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480052947740182,0.15664218409349498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530279187103667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20166602037569306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17237433778368585,0.0,0.18005155836478248,0.14699245024144428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622027543468162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967194322982658,0.0,0.0,0.13594667471249347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670330959387476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174550250758558,0.0,0.17677601053012215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302540889275497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838413103001422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272482599068133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673787656326983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454577404135135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584072409968767,0.0,0.1323004255717984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793860234385055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29037174287982537,0.10378608394360464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696196788949641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499946344404846,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kindapeachy,2019/06/24,"I’ve binged these past three days and holy shit, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to eat normally. Disappointed, but definitely not surprised. My goal was to keep my diet going for a full week, literally that simple, and still I couldn’t do it. I feel fat and want to purge so bad, but I’m afraid of getting addicted. 

How can something so simple like eating be so difficult to do?? Jesus Christ.",3.575991561181436,4.950465354430381,5.079177215189876,82.09868143459916,72.67088607594937,8.30464135021097,24.55907172995781,8.841846274778883,1.6659603375527428,309,9,63,6,6,104,60,79,0.19699999999999998,0.705,0.099,-0.8638,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,1,1,0,8,6,2,1,1,14,15,9,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,4,1,2,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,1,1,5,2,6,11,1,7,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,37,8,1,0.25201238389150765,0.0,0.0,0.2747306968667205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21041981398510132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625271391456788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157431673632452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22795962921113344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742503342043776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166606915575,0.0,0.1432244453932096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240001860723668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312052113218512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469186289181712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405743362200652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586870905493647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940114453307881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012574153134253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147935978361344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486434334349311,0.0,0.20214913320510566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xrnz,2019/06/24,"Finding out I’m not underweight has been bittersweet I finally decided to weigh myself after 6 months and tbh I was expecting a * ~ shocking ~ * number bc everyone I’ve seen has commented on my weight loss / I’ve noticed bones protruding that haven’t in years. So I was v confused when I realised I was just a “normal” BMI.

On the one hand I’m sad because I feel like all this struggling hasn’t paid off at all BUT I’m also happy because this means I can lose a fuck load more weight and still be “healthy”

This counts as positive thinking right?",3.292711518858312,5.059839229357799,4.5058103975535175,84.32937818552499,74.13761467889908,8.147196738022426,29.542303771661572,8.841846274778883,2.4585098878695204,432,19,85,9,9,142,80,109,0.168,0.6659999999999999,0.166,0.4235,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,9,1,2,4,0,10,6,2,0,2,16,19,7,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,5,0,1,0,3,7,0,1,6,5,9,2,9,12,3,13,0,3,1,1,1,7,1,1,7,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648035664009173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538074929149839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989235800896164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526135866216817,0.14872283828949753,0.0,0.22804948805262834,0.19027147513602025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924577674354303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22160999799739586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170555177181816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23289861097686526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267675324482213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16616617780299964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20397083415445835,0.0,0.23701272363318399,0.0,0.0,0.14106721166812616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778339273326804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662517043007468,0.0,0.0,0.21763348024230406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339244534970618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070109188631379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406019737143562
EDAnonymous,totes_not_undercover,2019/06/24,"DAE go out of their way to look into a specific mirror they ""prefer""? In my university, there's a restroom in the biology department that has a wall with a floor to ceiling mirror. It's the only mirror on campus that I can actually look into without being immediately repulsed by my reflection. Rn I'm across the country staying at an inn and I hate my reflection in all of the mirrors. What do.",4.193679653679657,5.87126787012987,6.8851298701298695,68.55721861471862,71.59740259740259,9.28917748917749,32.31385281385281,9.725611199111238,3.5569670995671,314,15,53,8,6,114,56,77,0.051,0.9129999999999999,0.036000000000000004,-0.2668,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,9,0,4,0,0,0,1,10,9,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,16,8,1,15,0,0,2,0,2,11,0,0,0,43,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.3378198085246825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967409451512805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34177912305160235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5814046954624024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632839818622777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36897970644886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747799972133679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337032556999629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caroIineh,2019/06/24,new to this so I've always had ana tendencies i used to starve myself and skip meals as a teen but now I'm 21 and the thoughts of the perfect body and the feeling of starving won't let me go and i can't stop,0.6624999999999979,1.8230802500000003,2.610833333333336,97.7175,79.83333333333334,5.633333333333334,22.416666666666664,5.985473137389443,0.024316666666666542,164,5,42,1,4,55,37,48,0.111,0.7090000000000001,0.18,0.5396,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,1,1,1,10,9,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,5,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249116453521309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337365937318043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974390311077423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22191946880701005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39929349047526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771291833470147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264597739754369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30999846149956783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33725039022669484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheBoyWhoCriedTapir,2019/06/24,Nicotine to give your mouth something to do and appetite reduction. I picked up a small pod vape yesterday and I’m in love. Its been about 20 hours and I’ve only snacked once. It also helps my ADD by giving hand something to do. Just hit the vape every time you want a snack and it really helps. Im using the lowest concentration of nicotine at 0.3% per mg.,1.5175000000000018,3.941136861111115,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,83.16666666666667,5.822222222222222,21.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7372999999999994,282,9,57,4,8,92,56,72,0.033,0.757,0.209,0.9136,1,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,3,5,2,2,0,9,10,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,9,8,0,7,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,3,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20178657563170685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21259718614806147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484111936452035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33826022076402884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484922095344168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725574926907364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22773583226236424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687210385552129,0.0,0.19190678123454707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16164775014626356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38850877705037584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471344605898719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21793033870792625,0.0,0.0,0.1488295663225227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DesiignedTheFuture,2019/06/24,"I mean, is it really relapsing if I do almost everything but count calories? I'm not making myself throw up or doing obscene amounts of exercise but I am looking at thinspo and not eating for hours on end and making myself do tasks and before I can eat and weighing myself daily and bodychecking in every single mirror I walk past but is it *really* relapsing???",3.44464285714286,6.142813338235296,5.551512605042016,72.56323529411767,77.38235294117645,8.003361344537815,25.890756302521005,8.841846274778883,2.7714344537815125,289,11,43,7,7,100,48,68,0.092,0.9079999999999999,0.0,-0.7998,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,2,0,16,12,10,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,6,12,2,9,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,3,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25505522711017625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167394113916564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5212637446568531,0.0,0.0,0.2255974181697017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146041225994508,0.0,0.22891688372040614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508379982169329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138922118203955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400417455746976,0.0,0.0,0.2774538117274469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24314947303622755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263474387300158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cat3r,2019/06/24,"fear of diabetes Hi guys, I've been bingeing a bit for the past month and I'm really afraid that I've destroyed my health :( If i try to go back on meal plan, will my body recover??? I'm not overweight or anything. I have really bad health anxiety.",-0.0553781512605056,2.274106431372552,2.2906442577030823,91.61647058823529,92.52941176470587,6.835854341736696,21.01120448179272,7.957251820313856,1.3274851540616242,192,7,42,5,7,65,41,51,0.275,0.688,0.037000000000000005,-0.9258,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,2,2,0,3,6,1,0,0,4,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19296571117734326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20757504145447667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19395980617543251,0.21061292172922647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27538474860893986,0.2801858444637318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28384424791041984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14335588619733186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497608832902795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5362464349897413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20133848463941384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407951175546839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231874981730101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125688893880334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SymptomOfTheStorm,2019/06/24,"food combos from treatment never leave... The title is the question-

I’m thinking about Cliff bars smothered in peanut butter, Oreos with Nutella, cereal with nuts, ice cream with nuts and M&Ms, oatmeal with butter, fruit with a side of honey, vegetables with globs of hummus???

I’m talking about butter and peanut butter on toast, adding potato chips to any sandwich, putting pesto on fish entrees, mayonnaise with veg burgers. 

Why do these combos stick out in my mind as tasty af so when I’m consuming an unregulated intake they’re the ones that I really crave??",8.333833333333338,9.17728125,7.194000000000003,73.17033333333336,61.5,9.066666666666668,32.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.8588666666666667,455,16,70,6,6,138,76,100,0.076,0.924,0.0,-0.755,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,5,0,2,5,0,0,1,14,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,7,2,0,19,6,0,9,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,2,36,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32908896793377423,0.0,0.2065453340380779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36726888763352794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216039083624717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066785168645139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23425362033410246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058138325329657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053303510124315,0.34024467170002864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945758199870062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441249180903844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946165241640654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27406711725861377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kithkath,2019/06/24,"How do you handle intimacy with partners while your body goes through recovery/weight gain? Hi there,

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One of my biggest struggles with weight gain in recovery has been in regards to sexual intimacy. For the longest time, I've correlated the smallness of my body with my attractiveness. I was never overweight, but it wasn't until I was underweight that men suddenly seemed interested in me. A lot of people I've been with bring up my size as something they find attractive about me (i.e. ""You're the smallest girl I've ever been with"" ""You're so petite, it's so cute."" I literally had a random guy hit me up on the street with the opening line of ""Wow, I just wanted to say that I love how small you are!""...wtf). 

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For about the past year I've had a friends with benefits. We've had a positive relationship and for the most part, his comments on the way I look don't revolve on my weight or size, which is a nice change. However, the first time we slept together, back when my BMI was under 16, he did mention that I had ""a great body"", and the last time we slept together back in May, after I had gained a lot of weight, he offhandedly asked if my ass had gotten bigger. I don't think he meant anything by it but it really shook me and made me feel bad about myself.

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He's been out of the state for the past month for an internship but he's going back to visit in July and I'm so worried I won't even have the strength to go see him--he works out a lot and is in great shape. Whereas my BMI is closer to 19 now, but it looks like so much more than that on my short and small frame. My butt and thighs are covered in cellulite even though I'm not overweight and my body looks so gross and out of shape. I'm afraid he'll be as disgusted by my new body as I am. I'm not sure I could even be intimate with someone at this weight.

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Tl;dr: how have you guys worked on overcoming intimacy issues while undergoing weight gain? I only ever seem to enjoy it when I feel thin enough.",5.065960591133005,5.3174274876847365,5.653452216748773,83.45534088669953,68.45812807881774,9.057576354679801,28.801576354679803,8.954980946260402,2.018628492610837,1584,51,334,26,25,513,204,406,0.068,0.768,0.16399999999999998,0.9923,1,0,1,0,1,0,68.0,2,4,1,8,25,21,1,3,22,0,31,18,10,4,4,55,57,32,0,3,9,0,8,1,2,3,2,1,0,5,12,23,7,0,7,0,0,5,7,6,0,2,20,13,40,15,57,30,8,62,0,0,4,3,28,31,2,10,25,214,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888564464020328,0.3239430868796197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054846408602427205,0.0,0.0623077731332581,0.0,0.0,0.15374679018351606,0.05564909095607965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701598034714625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050575383557088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053213764863627784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886618376016328,0.0,0.13206301256043354,0.12057558554046398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06739942537348226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060915934641748576,0.056691564487569665,0.0,0.0,0.05149281495262984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757562706465002,0.0,0.0,0.14696140964962398,0.0,0.13198588194280594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956418990247801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05432779136262902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03256131135792191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790500103090433,0.0,0.0,0.16998766669602866,0.06015328129062358,0.06306484984659735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053198557584528204,0.0,0.04899464841559442,0.0,0.05140378052731991,0.0643699731166344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04516305473495802,0.05068953128061443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217432007721254,0.1272479322594288,0.046205991401783816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04269702526804151,0.0,0.0,0.07155603172857533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053001921689800016,0.0,0.0,0.05311058564137176,0.12134940540539373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564714407097182,0.05130961939020602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06967595562508322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281584846216595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042705957247752696,0.06548225690320829,0.0,0.11659061958959095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039311278679440974,0.052902835810649716,0.0,0.486962808913541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704246162075543,0.06768524593014083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239430868796197,0.042919739889020855
EDAnonymous,teamobliterator,2019/06/24,"Should I still weigh myself? My therapist said it’s okay to weigh myself once per week. Part of me knowing I had an ED was how obsessive I was over weighing myself every single morning. If I was over I’d be devastated and fast for a day or two. If I was under I’d be so happy and end up binging. 

With that being said, since I’ve put away the scale, I’ve neither binged nor restricted. I do still count calories. I feel like weighing myself could provide a good barometer of how I’m doing in eating, to ensure I’m not over/under doing my calories. I’m also scared I’ll fall back into my old ways. 

Do any of you have experience with this? I’m fearful if I don’t ever weigh myself I’ll constantly be at a sight defector to make sure I don’t gain weight.",2.701981132075474,3.821488962264152,4.7913364779874215,84.31077830188681,74.47169811320755,7.3125786163522015,24.57075471698113,7.793537801064563,1.252664150943397,591,18,123,8,12,205,99,159,0.107,0.762,0.131,0.6027,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,8,8,0,3,5,1,18,7,0,3,2,20,27,11,0,5,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,5,7,1,2,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,7,5,19,5,17,14,3,21,0,0,1,0,3,8,0,4,11,82,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094740119731494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985633288659273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16559307609945487,0.1355256975377833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904640953175657,0.0,0.14072162273722622,0.0,0.0,0.11366694329302293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18034818574483186,0.0,0.0,0.15610556265487996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15942859994240755,0.14849858468346322,0.0,0.0,0.1724067354578487,0.0,0.1983307286632029,0.08911751061421144,0.12591333883859018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478304943476785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18762185477895013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096862624234789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610705490358472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764852729643252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18494517252785544,0.18770095043651325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086203479963487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17718035782197603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33530903023798464,0.0,0.17645742256316824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579617288405716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815076341585836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16611393972715546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20464032792871695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217105503945926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989938358531967,0.14137745967559787,0.2146255355126161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,youngdyingyoung,2019/06/24,"I don’t know what to do. [So just some back story, I have been in a inpatient once before for attempting to commit suicide, after my best friend had killed himself a few weeks prior, and it was the worst experience of my life. I felt like a prisoner, like I was being punished for being sad and they wouldn’t let me leave, my father saw it as shameful and to this day won’t look at me the same]

Anyway, I restrict my calorie intake to 600 calories a day, and if I go even 1 over, I purge, I also work out regularly for my division one sports team, though I often feel faint and weak. I know I have lost control but help seems to me more harm then good, and even then I don’t want to change bc I know I am still fat and have a long way to go, the only reason I feel concern is being so weak all the time I struggle to preform well in school and sport.
I’m not sure what I should do, and any advice would be great.",7.786958762886598,4.316293237113406,8.161314432989691,79.74186855670105,65.08247422680411,10.937113402061856,33.01288659793815,8.07648339933343,2.200837113402062,704,17,161,6,8,235,122,194,0.182,0.685,0.133,-0.7927,0,0,0,0,0,2,20.0,0,0,1,6,12,18,2,2,9,0,22,5,1,2,3,34,36,18,2,5,4,1,3,2,1,4,5,0,0,0,5,10,1,2,8,3,0,2,5,10,1,1,7,5,27,8,19,20,7,19,0,2,2,0,6,5,0,4,13,116,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200518477586175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439616358410754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578178714682017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961112228780515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236466277571146,0.0,0.16324391400089922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455509088588166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744665976154924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006384162016563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054833811646697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15216127636857105,0.0,0.0,0.15730515546085955,0.0,0.14935585710265972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018033115795113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768093995630896,0.1304709856398801,0.0,0.17149840123693896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042643040658912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209701932947474,0.0,0.25646458353556983,0.0,0.0,0.16470880999767673,0.0,0.1590641025771752,0.10987211312588677,0.15199127045325198,0.0,0.0,0.13766004750301333,0.13062585298248894,0.0,0.16980513771789216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565951508893634,0.1054071500877371,0.1183055278906332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599350157548838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742855523158947,0.0,0.14161016193091086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422531175279793,0.0,0.0,0.16261840469340175,0.0,0.17015039905003052,0.0,0.14660743400988266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528306294157197,0.0,0.09070455936475674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174954785990842,0.12347121307637675,0.12477572095345785,0.0,0.139861374229464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324487877283465,0.0,0.0,0.1105008195982277,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goughths,2019/06/24,"Binge eating for a year, how do stop??? Hello Reddit, everything basically started off as an innocent diet, turned south and started to get a little bit anorexic for a few months until I dropped down to 8 stone. I'm not sure what exactly triggered binge eating, but it started happening and a year on I am up to almost 9.5 stone and look like I've given up (I have barely any confidence physically and don't fit into most of my clothes). I'm starting to diet at 800-1500 calories a day to stop binge eating and start to lose the weight sustainably. Any suggestions, help, or motivation would be greatly appreciated! <3 (I am 18 years old and 5'2 for reference).",7.157619047619049,7.008171904761909,7.912539682539682,70.39357142857143,64.07936507936508,11.009523809523811,35.460317460317455,10.608840637214634,3.8284888888888884,524,22,93,12,7,176,89,126,0.08900000000000001,0.753,0.158,0.9054,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,7,0,7,6,0,3,2,21,19,11,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,6,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,3,19,16,3,25,0,1,1,0,3,10,0,3,15,52,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851441622757902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017163549568476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191978720793945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564985398748208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552848119333385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329449364974913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748761441352206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351601401112345,0.0,0.0,0.13115302327370648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994113255956473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07245842098162174,0.1486489600548128,0.0,0.0,0.12454587711864347,0.16592472393304214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183823169375203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562993281499546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248848332341511,0.0,0.0,0.24799323669698564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978359600317586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613223572977003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806057287987877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053575627256205,0.0,0.0,0.286526842894836
EDAnonymous,PMMECUTEASIANDUDES,2019/06/24,"I appreciate having y'all For real. I appreciate having this space, even though I don't participate all that much, where we can just be here, be sad sometimes, encourage each other, and laugh or cry or worry at how much we each pooped (or didn't poop) this week.

I don't have this anywhere else. Thank you.",4.91,5.746114666666667,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,69.0,8.666666666666668,25.0,8.841846274778883,1.5495000000000003,240,6,49,4,4,78,43,60,0.134,0.648,0.218,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,2,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,9,2,2,1,1,12,10,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,8,3,2,7,5,4,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,3,1,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428705004972567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26075243602631354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20616514579806625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589167839543426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552830007062193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087138718747669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873760445086941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066753994149241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250379418098182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31699273683870693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,impractically-me,2018/11/26,im at negative calories rn i had a four hour long swim practice that burned 487 calories. ive had 396 today. that -91 calories is the most satisfying thing ever ,1.5571875000000013,4.203935343750004,3.3862500000000004,85.03375000000003,86.1875,5.7,26.75,7.1686216300943375,1.6513499999999994,129,6,24,2,4,43,26,32,0.11199999999999999,0.7879999999999999,0.1,-0.1045,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4014176270743445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4370265152069536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4793504450194023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927246922850025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948227260449357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42064443514309424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mabver321,2018/11/26,The pros to this disorder I actually had a terrible addiction to sugar and chips before I fell into the disordered pool. Now im too terrified to even smell it ,5.767741935483872,6.568433677419358,8.345322580645162,62.83798387096778,67.06451612903226,13.94193548387097,34.854838709677416,13.023866798666859,5.6514387096774215,128,6,22,6,2,47,26,31,0.299,0.701,0.0,-0.8814,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.31297579372152284,0.34963140067067994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729085207253897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7351442571168401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21183208724795544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464319032150831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thegoldghoti,2018/11/26,"Need to Purge I ate way too much and need to purge, but the old finger down throat thing doesn't work for me",1.2512500000000024,2.5580616250000037,1.3816666666666642,106.53,78.58333333333334,4.800000000000002,12.0,3.1291,-2.0023500000000003,85,0,23,0,2,25,21,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151166048641789,0.6356963200020822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44980967717231946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28478462921931663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402527122336283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120717468385963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dwaiiiii,2018/11/26,Which body part do you guys focus on the most? I hate each part of my body equally but I definitely focus on legs the most. I stare at my legs anytime there’s a reflection while I’m walking and I even stare at other people’s legs a lot. I think I focused too much on them that I don’t even know which looks nice to me anymore...,0.6239637826961797,2.4827297464788742,2.4924748490945703,95.25830985915495,82.52112676056338,5.183903420523139,20.00201207243461,6.1826913282559595,-0.1186917505030185,256,7,60,2,7,85,47,71,0.037000000000000005,0.804,0.159,0.8463,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,0,4,2,1,0,4,0,2,5,5,0,0,9,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,12,1,7,7,8,7,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,3,1,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372640524868338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5314884729183457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31603453524883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368874678675474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23620221807618744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314812987244219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009032579900961,0.0,0.0,0.20339522853807626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587060117930314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181521440470906,0.0,0.16586047147408314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329679093501386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,introuble333,2018/11/26,"How is BED generally treated? I am considering getting treatment by going to a mental health center to see what kind of treatment options are available. I used fasting for several months to lose a ton of weight, and after talking to some people on /r/fasting I may have developed an eating disorder. Just in the past 6 weeks I've gained 30lbs back, due to uncontrollable binge eating. I am coming here to ask and see how you guys feel BED is treated. I have done a little research and it seems like there are a couple medications out there like vyvanse and topiramate, I am looking to see what your experience with them is like as well.  

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I tried therapy a couple years ago for my social anxiety and depression but I didn't see the benefit. I am no longer depressed, and manage my anxiety much better, I think I just stopped caring about what others thought. Are eating disorders treated differently compared to depression and anxiety when it comes to therapy? 

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Thank you. ",6.400243589743589,8.162342161111113,6.854444444444442,70.58115384615384,66.27777777777779,9.760683760683762,35.512820512820504,10.035473477838034,4.003743589743592,799,39,126,19,13,260,114,180,0.16399999999999998,0.731,0.10400000000000001,-0.888,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,3,1,3,11,17,0,1,8,0,15,6,0,3,0,26,32,12,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,2,1,6,11,4,1,4,0,0,3,2,5,1,0,3,7,17,12,21,28,3,19,0,4,5,0,8,5,0,4,14,89,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943305416790337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218628928332848,0.24518521503499155,0.0,0.0,0.2315421267915863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431869592393193,0.0,0.0,0.07757831820643947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922916242643995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028642589949529,0.0,0.0,0.17381590738344585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232661228345368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26068968374200463,0.0,0.0,0.10540876114032502,0.2312577661375045,0.0,0.0,0.10324567895630107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097075136860896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868995199639972,0.0,0.0,0.051013104686420084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052710953171422964,0.0,0.05733821236201765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989713673919373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724153986077817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506159350312763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786953234313333,0.10111846172751228,0.0,0.0,0.08472233848186446,0.11287030087855728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016362387133705,0.10167356836378144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052957639291136,0.0,0.07416588835436627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631108950128653,0.06994454517846407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215856337370309,0.09184662758290732,0.0,0.11397718228155565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284482961763132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434870517889685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109170227819026,0.0,0.09288611956659956,0.2307534191568144,0.0,0.0,0.06464635138181835,0.0,0.08009553065764863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849780728860189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871367194502798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092801404599942,0.1228570550952764,0.09071238516311037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24518521503499155,0.06496996589926325
EDAnonymous,asdfasdf12312369,2018/11/26,"yall what the fuck how do i not get lightheaded i used to be really underweight and i didn't get very lightheaded often? (maybe because i was just high restricting for a loooong time) but now i'm fasting or staying under 300cal a day then purging it all. what the actual fuck i'm super lightheaded every time i stand up, my vision blacks out, and i fall over. how do i stop this from happening?",1.5604078762306628,4.050183240506332,3.5168776371308006,85.48251758087203,83.68354430379749,7.561744022503518,22.701828410689174,8.515128840125781,1.8331507735583683,312,11,61,8,9,105,58,79,0.15,0.752,0.098,-0.4784,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,5,3,2,0,4,0,5,2,0,3,1,14,13,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,9,1,7,10,1,15,0,0,1,2,1,5,2,2,7,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.252808556997038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792267467305102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670744935639639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827213006860127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4789999703466256,0.2706999205103483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290889533998139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737147586566858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602640561727144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596267986655908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761271683738802,0.0,0.21658864442103376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021239622341901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237476426579908,0.0,0.21375447769528194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MotherLeader,2018/11/26,"Perspective shifting of recovery and restriction I feel I can never truly be 'in recovery', ever.

Even when I'm trying to break the binge/restrict cycle, I turn to 'healthy restriction' by doing things like measuring out portions, eating according to a template (in my case all the money I poured into Renaissance Periodization templates for cutting/athletic performance), planning food around workouts, adjusting macros according to activity. Like, even when these things are considered normal and healthy weight management methods, put them in my hands and they become unhealthy obsessions about meal timing, macros, measurements, etc. I'm an overexerciser too, so being a slave to my fitbit and calories burned also becomes an obsession.

Is it delusional to say 'well these are healthy behaviors, and to truly be healthy and maintain weight, I need to vigilant about these things since it doesn't come naturally to me?'

The fact is that it's 'restriction' but it's 'healthier' than fasting and binging...I get so overwhelmed by trying to figure out if I'm getting better or just controlling things in a different way. Like if i wasn't such a perfectionist, a lot of this stuff would be normal human behavior. Even when people talk about 'cheat' meals it seems so innocuous but I have to turn it into a 'cheat' with guilt and all that other shit that makes it disordered rather than a funny IG post about donuts.

It's as simple as a perspective shift but it's all such a mindfuck to me.",9.474417077175694,9.555823877394637,8.67994800218938,66.0366379310345,59.268199233716466,12.514614121510673,39.715654077723045,11.899873341045813,5.116491844553916,1196,55,184,33,14,376,153,261,0.085,0.812,0.10300000000000001,0.5579,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,2,4,22,12,3,4,14,0,14,8,2,2,6,43,26,23,0,7,8,0,4,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,22,15,6,4,4,1,1,2,3,7,1,0,1,5,14,5,35,20,6,22,0,1,0,0,5,9,1,5,11,136,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405812930001858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158357365660398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874179824946534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508190665203405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208816425140564,0.0,0.0,0.14594234460399874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594928922321636,0.14913053048735225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314679569712412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511988636254167,0.2578321022550802,0.11770236078140628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579334818247114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15734345359933355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596624304109714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19071240001631987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062465967806248,0.0,0.0,0.08685712231210799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648345531912884,0.10035773484383202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549829164501672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902098753384895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462044337856586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080806334167416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347785218504492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845774110581875,0.0,0.0,0.13356786623447695,0.10763786263911687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895800447199195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458674561163378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457878132598484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07587490236463296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668793586972165,0.283069688056807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032844027094514,0.0,0.3169059029927398,0.11699486981210395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092434591567898,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,teryakis,2018/11/26,"Is there gonna be a new food sub too? I’m super grateful for this sub and it’s meme counterpart! But, could something similar to r/EDfood ever be created? That was one of my favorites because I find that recipes and meal ideas on other food subs can be too complex for my depressed ass. I know we have new rules to adhere to but I’m hoping this could still be a possibility! (Also so sorry in advance if this already exists and I somehow missed it😭)",1.8555676328502424,3.9933436630434787,3.7879710144927534,86.11161835748794,79.76086956521739,5.828019323671497,25.439613526570053,6.937597516519254,1.1611120772946864,355,14,70,4,9,120,67,92,0.099,0.768,0.133,0.4909,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,2,8,4,0,0,2,0,10,4,1,0,1,16,16,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,6,2,8,8,0,7,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,3,4,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274920275452139,0.16485835321672387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566733445461975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291885453633485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17755698662726685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18647478576322898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884176769446392,0.0,0.4985556212533892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047538036308184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327186422819678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329483611579952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982025678815713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969280627358874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324035348183046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870460409533865,0.0,0.2307684289712225,0.0,0.0,0.16463192861694334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slugs_instead,2018/11/26,"What foods do you rely because they’re lower calorie than you’d think? For me, it’s goat cheese. 30 grams of chevre feels like an insane indulgence to me for 75 calories. It’s a ton and makes salad way better for me. I usually use more like 15 grams, but when I need more creamy flavor, it’s my go to. 

And Fage 0% yogurt. Mix a packet of Splenda in a small container of that, and it’s dessert and dinner all in one 100 calorie package. ",2.6160439560439563,3.8273117032967012,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,74.82417582417581,6.518681318681319,23.98901098901099,6.868970318607317,0.7386000000000004,339,10,73,3,7,112,66,91,0.040999999999999995,0.894,0.065,0.25,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,2,1,12,8,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,8,3,11,7,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019241826193012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29295972684711274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748767788644428,0.2366418517714013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4005433740945705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882544515121549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236596394141677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110894377358384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24561434145354424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244605238665015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224874163862065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860897584862151,0.3648201208324406,0.0,0.0,0.2629272601193324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway-way-wayway,2018/11/26,"My periods are very abnormal... currently three days late So I’m not terribly disordered (Well, so I think), but I do probably have BED. I’m working on it. Last week was pretty high in calorie consumption because my family was visiting and decided to spoil me. 

As of today I’m back to a slightly more restrictive (but not unhealthily so) diet of 1200 calories. Usually this diet plan helps me prevent binging and lose weight which I need to do b/c I’m overweight. 

My periods have been later and later each month. As of today I am 3 days late with no end in sight. I have tracked my periods for over a year, but in the past few (3 or 4) months my period has been late by at least a day. And that’s with the app adjusting my cycle a few times. Should I be concerned about this? Have you all experienced this? I’d appreciate any insight you have!",2.2674999999999983,4.410776226190481,4.378809523809527,82.37035714285716,78.40476190476191,8.723809523809527,27.16666666666667,9.354420925462401,2.6808380952380957,658,28,131,19,16,226,109,168,0.057999999999999996,0.852,0.091,0.6753,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,3,6,3,0,0,6,0,16,4,0,0,1,22,22,13,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,7,4,2,4,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,4,3,16,1,19,16,6,33,0,1,1,0,4,7,0,1,25,86,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831933082709996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248041061842603,0.0,0.0970987191640638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30817713853247963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18255452560758387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107932120002326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15015981725099736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676544564231356,0.16829345460927894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983861684808815,0.5390415958365093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17819928451456782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25427969596569505,0.0,0.0,0.11810788412811205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205565242901065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16205021178674034,0.1717362795090014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020634610969296,0.0,0.0,0.09288042335417054,0.0,0.30196730213873874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754300351676796,0.13142689004454372,0.0,0.0,0.127768900126337,0.19396634141252886,0.1432164352079539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596145063463548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257438270357314
EDAnonymous,MaZZeL3L,2018/11/26,"Last year i lost weight until i had a BMI of 18, now im at 26 and loosing again. What should I do to not gain tons of weight again after loosing a Healthy amount of weight? Last year, when i was at my lowest weight, I didnt eat for 3 days without loosing any weight, which made me frustraded and binge for at least a week.",4.1919565217391295,3.702584101449277,4.305615942028986,94.91755434782611,70.30434782608695,6.9,25.94565217391305,3.1291,0.24615652173913016,249,6,61,0,4,77,47,69,0.11900000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.042,-0.6093,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,3,0,5,6,0,1,0,6,7,4,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,5,5,7,0,12,1,3,15,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,12,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801162325473826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295029602728376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747838524830506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568240208392056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349662521225129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733216117464016,0.0,0.0,0.13637689879766665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561036434802074,0.8775421632252385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389337397407287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18562673303765853
EDAnonymous,Fearae,2018/11/26,"Trouble Drinking Water I’m attempting to recover from Bulimia right now and it’s been such a struggle. I get dizzy standing up, I have to consciously resist the urge to purge in the bathroom, and I feel nauseous all the time. (Also I’m starting to fall into anorexic tendencies to deal with recovery, but that’s an entirely different problem). Anyways, one of the biggest problems right now is dehydration. I’m kinda unusual for a bulimic because I don’t really binge. I have a naturally small appetite, so just eat however much I feel like, then purge it up. Most of the time, I don’t have enough food in my stomach to purge it all by itself, so I chug water to help it up. Unfortunately, I trained by brain to think that chugging water is going to be followed by vomiting, so drinking water makes me extremely nauseous and is a massive trigger for my urge. I’ve been getting pretty dehydrated and i always have super chapped lips. It’s just so hard to drink enough water every single day. I really want to keep up my progress with my recovery and get over this. Any tips on how to drink enough water? ",5.179968404423384,6.534836412322277,6.393630331753558,74.27771248025276,68.76303317535546,9.418135860979463,34.44581358609794,9.725611199111238,3.598605434439179,877,43,152,20,15,295,121,211,0.066,0.83,0.10400000000000001,0.903,3,0,4,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,12,6,0,1,10,0,12,16,3,3,2,26,27,13,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,8,12,1,4,4,0,3,2,4,0,1,2,3,16,2,31,24,8,24,0,0,0,0,2,13,0,2,8,106,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766353621369194,0.11202291777994262,0.0,0.0,0.09155299442599313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206917847921688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029156831629936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682519125270094,0.13879758470988082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065966130631585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275444551818987,0.0,0.1377600669616478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173262352558018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134315539977094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614591329506553,0.09617967554334493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627950908644307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21101580381032548,0.0,0.07651331296849494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060200668514252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902396292069219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966530081441445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657734016031156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986654859520946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896851669207493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122875009710504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696707709655315,0.0,0.2576453930741372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249480890640018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22994651294640184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529178379542846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074447312744656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862654469295057,0.0,0.0,0.15700763320263805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794082428589229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,famarino,2018/11/26,"Were r/thinspo and r/thinspocomnunity banned as well? I was subbed to them well after r/thinspo went private and suddenly after the proed drama, they just are unavailable to me now. Is it this way for anyone else or did I just get randomly banned?",4.186914893617022,6.326462531914897,4.8095212765957465,81.50875,72.61702127659575,8.104255319148937,26.643617021276608,8.841846274778883,2.163429787234042,197,7,36,4,4,63,37,47,0.131,0.7829999999999999,0.086,-0.4871,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,7,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,5,2,6,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599967411050882,0.3809904573600858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106217002658725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19426923523019066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2951465227954753,0.0,0.0,0.6686513762797208,0.3446961802272796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starvingforjoy,2018/11/26,"ED affecting sex life wow it’s finally happened? I was getting intimate with my partner and i suddenly started to think about my body and how gross it was that my chest started to hurt and i had to run to the bathroom and ride out my freaking out. this is *great*. 
this sucks. 
I have zero desire to be close to anyone, let alone have sex with them. ",0.0535324675324631,2.3971873142857163,1.726103896103897,94.02162337662338,97.28571428571428,4.831168831168832,22.07792207792207,6.574015621080383,0.7168571428571435,272,11,56,4,11,88,48,70,0.18,0.737,0.083,-0.7701,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,0,1,0,8,5,2,2,0,13,14,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,9,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,3,0,9,2,11,9,0,9,0,1,0,2,2,3,1,0,4,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071388220069114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735631377683925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294028324856127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248586282989861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549363746882351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269500371911448,0.0,0.0,0.2622402832920841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174654478033065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30324489253712034,0.20946371052840448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4198025906754293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001878579860107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sighsless,2018/11/26,"Telling my DBT therapist? My entire post history on this account was from r/proed. I hadn’t posted or commented in a while before it got shut down but I had been reading and saving things. I’m really sad all my saved posts are gone especially. Thank you all for existing and sharing your experiences. It has helped me feel so much less alone. 

Now, for my question: how do you tell your therapist? I am undiagnosed wth an ed but it’s definitely been a problem. When I was restricting the most, i was wearing layers and layers of clothing and i wasn’t seeing my therapist that much so I doubt she noticed. She does know I sometimes purge. We are doing DBT therapy mostly for my bpd and anxiety. She has asked me in the past if food is an issue and I’ve said no. But lately I panic if I don’t log things properly into MFP. My brain has half given up on caring about food (which leads me to eating far too much and dissociating). This previously lead me to my HW.

 I don’t even know if I want help. I feel like I needed help more when I was restricting but now I’m at a middle of “normal” bmi so it doesn’t seem concerning. But my brain is filled with terror about food, fixating on what would fit my calorie intake best, and then slipping over to panic when I disregard all my rules and eat and eat and eat. It’s a cycle of that. I haven’t purged that much lately and purging isn’t too much of an issue. Mostly eating too much now and the mental horror of it all. 

Has anyone had a similar experience to me and told their therapist about their struggles? Also if you’ve specifically worked with a dbt therapist around an ed or ed behaviours, I would love to hear your experience. ",2.363180970149255,4.54131647761194,4.16743936567164,83.83011427238807,78.25373134328359,7.530783582089553,22.70755597014925,8.472884824447931,1.5128675373134328,1320,41,263,28,32,445,172,335,0.151,0.726,0.12300000000000001,-0.8912,0,1,0,0,0,0,32.0,1,5,2,4,19,15,0,5,13,0,28,12,3,3,4,58,48,35,0,10,11,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,15,19,8,3,6,1,1,4,8,7,0,1,15,5,45,8,30,31,16,33,0,1,1,1,24,15,0,12,12,191,60,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881294275168825,0.0,0.06085428043911612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582135538357025,0.0,0.0,0.05320838694408808,0.0,0.0,0.067741948133024,0.0711398814414006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475244956679077,0.0,0.07985849913991097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584077845980887,0.16989754502957793,0.0,0.0,0.07758537284442782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659249088562458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3893281812496049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050260968436208836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22331070470303135,0.0,0.0,0.07695327387216051,0.05436329841926157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27604828325290265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06086125947235607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576619706858052,0.0,0.15301748100434892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884978625846094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364120585665494,0.0,0.17168015499405326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03717686755751929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867999102092795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668729437223139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33563775153004594,0.05642453201130292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745583358514183,0.0,0.0866362797551763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856550847838168,0.0,0.0,0.07264264440360191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186380091825719,0.0,0.0,0.07281399792061596,0.0,0.0,0.08524540708573945,0.0,0.07611701384515497,0.0,0.04874931589952215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238512234540972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060638995358250125,0.0692753237630654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526130622154377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955250160977016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302325220648129,0.07005936064731995,0.08702288936571452,0.4417690499838767,0.10111016170526034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271339137563626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04488364073908052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05539910084506992,0.0,0.0,0.10811342843440908,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemonpepperfresh,2018/11/26,"A really deep hunger took over me I dont get it. I used to be so good at restricting. I ate 1200 ~ 1300 calories everyday from ages 15 to 18. I was on the verge of underweight, but i still felt fat!! Earlier this year it's like a switch went off in my brain. I wasnt hungry but fucking ravenous.  I kept overeating everyday to the point of my stomach hurting, and I put on 20 lbs.

My bmi is 22, so its at a healthy range, but im so scared im just going to keep gaining and gaining until im obese.  I keep watching overweight mukbangers and fat acceptance activists, my 600 lb life, supersize vs superskinny, just to see the overweight people on those shows and it just fills me with so much dread that someone's body can end up like that. Even mine could. And if I don't stop soon it probably will, but I cant stop!!!! I have no one IRL to tell this to; no friends or family that I trust. 

This might sound childish but I just wish I had an older adult (Im 19) that I could confide to, and that could offer me guidance. I'll never go to my mom because all the advice she gives comes from a place of anger and cynicism ... I dont want that now! But I do know that I need help, It's got to a point were I feel desperate every second of the day. ",1.3723342701272971,2.940148144486696,3.182112745908416,92.61500743924616,78.96197718631178,6.703190610018186,23.22185485204166,7.586124646067393,0.8354888080674501,954,31,222,14,23,319,157,263,0.136,0.696,0.168,0.8819,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,2,12,12,3,2,11,0,18,12,5,1,2,42,39,20,0,7,13,1,2,2,1,2,6,2,0,1,17,9,7,6,4,1,0,7,8,6,0,2,10,6,30,6,28,23,2,36,0,1,2,1,8,15,1,3,16,138,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321308324083652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062470540052182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868983096400952,0.0,0.12933354437328745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979963331769792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27750462128933306,0.0,0.0,0.07471749647303745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715645965543963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261397455739857,0.0,0.0,0.0765217553950781,0.0,0.0976136258783232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921866887274853,0.0,0.05858024410701242,0.0,0.11123987058469753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951001148650972,0.10710694921621022,0.060529946625994126,0.11113957410317872,0.1316872006702569,0.09717446532854948,0.09266057848230556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765579412745205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402617945462112,0.0,0.500577182678576,0.0,0.0,0.20595616462331348,0.0,0.0,0.06367139447020075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183247635604939,0.11320271988799308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290484327725855,0.0,0.13568907613607414,0.0,0.0,0.08516744610858343,0.08590571115498304,0.08935524285637135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785069829996835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031992084573364,0.0,0.12104479812736793,0.0,0.2190426216066737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491229803362605,0.0,0.0,0.11646721885119618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422028152273318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599200669992935,0.0,0.09232218388502862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981643615956263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252270296454856,0.19372150626250995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126319770500976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872021170883896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006233354074777,0.0,0.0,0.06833483485770157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739961665375837,0.0,0.0,0.13322861279262369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746074265700648
EDAnonymous,trashbabyx,2018/11/26,"Weight loss during holidays? DAE lose weight during the holidays?  I get so anxious around people, especially when food is involved, that even if I’m hungry I can’t stomach food.  Like the anxiety makes me physically sick.    Usually I would find a way to eat when I’m alone.  Eating at night would be my danger time, but with relatives staying over all weekend I’ve barely eaten anything since Thanksgiving.  Had a separate Thanksgiving at my Dads house yesterday and they ordered in Italian food (all things I would usually be really tempted by), but I barely had a few bites and still felt like I was going to vomit.  I brought a cliff bar with me because I knew I wouldn’t be able to eat and might start feeling faint, but even that typically safe food seemed insurmountable.

I always find that restriction is way easier to stick with after a few days, but I’m dreading the inevitable b/p cycle that is about to start.  I’m so happy to be alone FINALLY but alone means bingeing.  Ugh.  ",6.187630630630629,7.134310172972974,6.623581081081082,75.03356981981983,66.18918918918922,10.05855855855856,32.17342342342342,10.125756701596842,3.319477477477477,782,31,138,18,12,254,112,185,0.147,0.728,0.126,0.1469,0,3,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,2,9,9,1,1,8,0,16,15,1,1,2,30,32,13,0,5,6,1,4,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,5,7,11,2,7,4,0,2,2,5,0,0,7,4,15,4,17,16,4,25,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,3,16,81,20,0,0.10572646204871296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328502187749466,0.0,0.0,0.08797288599481616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088045408121305,0.11944080827408715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700386978770099,0.09411896653498386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444986994735341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818482148944327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32455369594805844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396626621063267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05345847593657036,0.0,0.10151398369006448,0.11581817130572758,0.19326414183233329,0.0,0.5113794303149827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05523771272165533,0.0,0.060086784849557616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254778482642826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199414209769725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330521781424556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828086725088223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057323439694839,0.0,0.0,0.11516711194547465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215906841942933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921712252575918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329741658152113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773107886919083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624940024093556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745802195380803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966746801838554,0.1126903411905322,0.08443328916454078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023996348021319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06164995025029004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328855220492156,0.0,0.0,0.16784148882507505,0.0,0.2574926958012457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253151355970522,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i_rly_need_advice,2018/11/26,"there’s this voice in my head telling me to lose weight but i really don’t want to i have not been diagnosed with an ed so idk if this post even belongs here, but i know if i brought this up to anyone in my life they would lose their shit. 

i am fairly average sized and proportioned, however i often get comments (especially from my friends and family) telling me how “i need some meat on my bones” and how “skinny” i am. i don’t like the words they use and i certainly don’t like the attention, but for some reason i still think i want to shed just a few pounds. i just like how that amount of weight sounds prettier than mine now. and how i like how my bones stick from my skin. and i like being cold all the time. 

i go through these spells of thinking like this and then all a sudden i snap out of it and realize how stupid it is an stop. i don’t know want to be sick but for some reason i just my brain likes how i look that way even though i logically know if i lost weight i’d be unhealthy.

i’m sorry if this doesn’t make and sense but i just needed to write it out because if i told someone i wanted to lose weight they’d flip because i’m already underweight.


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EDAnonymous,xxobutitoldyouso,2018/11/26,"I just discovered a side effect of C/S So i recently began to C/S because carbs are the devil but also delicious as hell.

At first it was small amounts, a cookie here and there...but my dumbass self was like ""I can have anything...
Without having to purge later...
Cake! 
Oh how i missed cake <3""

*Insert montage of me getting boxes of cookies and whole cakes to Netflix and C/S all afternoon.*

You guys, my mouth is so fucking dry.
I think that it's because of all the saliva i wasted (?)
I feel so dehydrated. 
My skin is flaky as fuck.
Can't pee (I think i might have fucked up my kidneys because they hurt a lot).

I don't know what to do (been drinking water since 6 pm nonstop but i don't feel better) 

I guess i just wanted to rant for a bit and let you guys know what could happen (i thought C/S had no downsides) 




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EDAnonymous,zohebikgehoord,2019/10/12,"what the fuck So I weigh less than I have since my mid teens, and underweight for the first time ever

This is after months and months of restricting

And I hate the shape of my body more now

I hate how foggy my brain feels

I hate how cold I am all the time

I hate my friends and family worrying about me 

Maybe Ive never had a full blown eating disorder, maybe its just disordered eating, but I've had enough of whatever it is

I gotta take myself off of all the subreddits, and maybe delete mfp, and start doing some form of muscle building exercise and eating more

Eating less hasn't made my body more masculine, if anything it's feminised it and left me feeling even more hopeless

If anything at least I have a blank slate to build onto I guess lol

Idk if I'll ever have a decent relationship with food but I sure fucking hope I haven't fucked myself up beyond the point of no return

I don't plan on coming back to these subreddits. If I do, then I guess I didn't make it. 

Peace x",3.046311881188121,4.530916044554456,4.112957920792081,88.06121905940594,74.1980198019802,7.624257425742575,22.030940594059405,8.278499904357787,1.03010792079208,779,19,165,13,16,253,121,202,0.145,0.758,0.09699999999999999,-0.6913,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,2,11,11,7,0,9,1,15,13,3,4,6,34,33,18,0,5,7,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,8,10,6,1,2,1,0,1,6,8,0,1,4,3,26,3,19,28,13,26,0,1,0,3,2,11,3,8,14,116,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098247135689568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988370560208481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23079300762723975,0.0,0.11597372329034288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949058896475202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23813003085687875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252147493103661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734440588065904,0.0,0.0686172557079711,0.18794586670621985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09793666247504357,0.0,0.10505811239099676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883673521035661,0.12562216917720562,0.0,0.08026385849204289,0.2881292340142299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288893943793695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41027283258806346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031845429592061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287496388679673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830164050199597,0.06934626044958687,0.0,0.3131093435860333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584533208656105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012507706165166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820804227588477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153717679249102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593749203418549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353268775847664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791351233493598,0.0,0.0781110877407581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115622993029627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550363203747297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thecalcographer,2019/10/12,"ED-friendly cookbooks, recipe websites, etc? Before I developed an ED I really loved cooking and baking fancy foods. I’d like to get back into that hobby because I think it will be good for my relationship with food and for my mental health in general, but I’m really not in a place where I can just google recipes and be okay with following them. So I’m curious if anyone has a recommendation for a book or website that focuses on creating interesting low (or lowish) calorie meals, snacks, desserts, etc.  I know it’s a bit of a weird question but 🤷🏻‍♀️. EDs are like that sometimes.",3.4818421052631585,5.5874233245614064,5.106877192982456,78.75347368421055,74.52631578947368,8.41964912280702,28.94385964912281,9.120678840339163,2.7067817543859647,465,20,86,11,10,157,85,114,0.042,0.7659999999999999,0.192,0.9424,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,0,6,1,6,9,0,0,0,17,13,9,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,6,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,6,11,10,3,9,0,1,0,1,4,7,0,4,3,51,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579995191430982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933968574182555,0.0,0.1183919300456164,0.0,0.16526303544484694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203295995332785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332031099644141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696921637706482,0.0,0.1500503677600456,0.0,0.10146955185113793,0.0,0.0,0.162898697221508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064419316059457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067357270699094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897677083103806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528701796425214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19572348432834136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20291379894627096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21756574194447395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24883876904470476,0.0,0.0,0.20851470027807945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920840369890104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244454123641342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anastasia9876,2019/10/12,"Dissociating Anyone else dissociate for hours at the gym? The first five minutes I am anxious and hate everything but after that I just sort of flow into this dreamy numb state where I somehow manage to drag myself though high intensity cardio, endurance, weights, calisthenics, yoga. The workout is not over until I feel like passing out or I have a heart attack. No rest days, ever.",5.570196078431376,8.220819941176472,6.0094117647058845,72.16401960784316,70.17647058823529,7.4745098039215705,28.98039215686275,8.344100000000001,2.471403921568628,308,12,47,5,6,99,62,68,0.218,0.738,0.044000000000000004,-0.9001,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,2,0,4,0,3,4,1,0,1,11,5,5,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,3,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,2,6,1,9,5,1,15,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,3,7,37,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28703620191508433,0.0,0.17765748185387115,0.2603332833221535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890507899170068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638595089182253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224984914752407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22982840337967145,0.0,0.0,0.22834922752532225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284696421158689,0.18151361574981253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161189048823039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25084975721003544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010840543926017,0.0,0.2684477144321501,0.0,0.0,0.2502159831810118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412984216988372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496306774925228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093989671187639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mal31_,2019/10/12,"Idk who needs to hear this rn but   It does get better. I hated myself so fkn much at this weight last year. I’m that weight again rn and I look and feel so much better. 
  When you first put on weight, you look different from how you will when it’s a part of you if that makes sense. 
  It takes time for weight to redistribute. Give it time. Be patient. 
  I send each of you my love and support 💕💕",-0.7343181818181819,1.3941373214285733,0.5929437229437227,104.41266233766235,92.45238095238096,4.006926406926406,12.3982683982684,5.565023196281405,-1.4784380952380949,301,4,76,2,11,94,57,84,0.07400000000000001,0.747,0.179,0.9011,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,0,3,6,5,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,0,10,15,10,0,2,2,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,8,10,4,8,13,4,12,0,0,2,1,10,2,0,1,8,46,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596820232327765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338460888247174,0.0,0.0,0.12847392263563634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423125957993783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487602724059077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07670186850273103,0.14083298389446647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494391932864598,0.0,0.0,0.16546489882570506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196692808787862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465658947333511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325012435440173,0.0,0.09799643536661147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215843648186158,0.1088573330711224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898030759072262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758402746330734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659760283467345,0.0,0.0,0.11038242165585327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712115199673659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7150973463829915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454046040157543
EDAnonymous,oats-oats-oats,2019/10/12,"I didn't purge This is mostly just a post to keep myself accountable, I have no one in real life to talk to this about. I have gone over five weeks now without purging, which is a big deal for me because I went about a year purging at least once a week, often much more. Unfortunately I am still struggling with binging, especially now that my hormones are returning. I have binged a lot, and today was one of the worst. I felt so numb and could barely move from fullness. I know I've gained weight and will continue to if I keep binging, and it would bring me immediate relief to purge but I can't go back. I remember what a horrific addiction it is, and it's never ""just one more time"" for me. I honestly would rather be chubby with a functional menstrual cycle and ability to concentrate than put myself at risk for osteoporosis, heart conditions, etc. Plus I was just so numb, even when I'm depressed I'd rather experience emotions! A couple months ago I purged so hard I could barely walk, and as I stumbled to the drugstore to get electrolytes I could feel how fucked up my body and heart were, and how I was risking my death. I may hate myself but I'm done treating myself like that. My parents already lost my brother and I can't put them through that again, plus I actually want to live, at least sometimes. Sorry for the random stream of conciousness bullshit, i should probably just start a journal lol. Good luck to everyone struggling",4.9699280575539575,6.351438258992808,5.408697841726623,81.04232733812951,69.28776978417267,8.58158273381295,30.08705035971223,8.982922981607832,2.4577490647482017,1148,45,217,21,20,367,167,278,0.205,0.705,0.09,-0.9889,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,2,21,17,2,4,12,1,25,9,3,2,1,47,42,22,1,10,10,2,4,1,0,5,4,0,0,0,10,14,1,2,4,0,1,8,6,11,0,4,10,4,35,6,33,23,10,34,0,2,0,1,5,8,1,7,18,163,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.11272391366706455,0.1259260959317644,0.0,0.0,0.10239520366782724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747134195843146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882227904285055,0.0,0.07041558306954579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283087756764655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27668291997487743,0.12781281111594445,0.0,0.0,0.1190887131697799,0.0994910793301299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820978745404055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993644898521006,0.0,0.0,0.12882740218835648,0.0762951716837855,0.0,0.0,0.11037751263697924,0.0,0.11299376755788085,0.0,0.0,0.058406785865631736,0.0,0.11091048526687966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678980162944436,0.06035071524427724,0.0,0.0656486350307941,0.0968867281891786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347685668916673,0.11404506008196065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273766651838329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053463209010543,0.0,0.0,0.06348286114673282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159016740611369,0.05643376125086536,0.0,0.10199999451019573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126095960281998,0.09820492477986402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220128343772208,0.1227719169028631,0.08491526219146125,0.0,0.08909065872019573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301745351011555,0.23482356287093775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826338972119555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106294139447852,0.0,0.12454242815899473,0.0,0.0,0.23224471032865446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314789530998684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085358179015286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424519777422255,0.12930721854309474,0.08176061515458488,0.0,0.09224873986335866,0.0,0.0,0.2415182976784621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928448821054141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735649267607137,0.0,0.10949270922981696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813249291699877,0.0,0.18531493881703728,0.14066357562711,0.0,0.10708160246802556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135029988388792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411407977932072,0.0,0.0,0.07438651125630917
EDAnonymous,az4angela,2019/10/12,It all evens out in the end <3 Ate really horribly yesterday and binged and felt so bad about it I binge drank a litre of vodka and so I haven’t been physically able to eat or drink anything today and won’t be able to tomorrow either cus I’m not going to feel much better. So All things summed up I’m going to be skinny on Monday. Love my body self regulating my eating!!!!!!!!!!!!!,2.015274725274729,3.857208000000004,4.18648351648352,84.89423076923079,77.97435897435899,7.534065934065935,18.83516483516484,8.418075326091056,0.8750087912087912,296,6,62,6,7,102,59,78,0.11199999999999999,0.8029999999999999,0.085,-0.5027,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,5,8,2,0,2,12,14,8,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,5,6,0,2,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,4,2,4,2,10,7,4,11,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,5,38,7,0,0.4425694544562296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209847582804084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18476350416624465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19570835872065032,0.0,0.2457974468796028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21677478870804665,0.0,0.4528590394941521,0.0,0.0,0.19599258753732415,0.0,0.0,0.146156475348203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118882069486474,0.0,0.212468040218212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25152241998455555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997181058559448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266973585970854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176066258160835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084823090469164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701174008896986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975204726823787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boring-unicorn,2019/10/12,"Fuuuuccckkk work Trigger warning just in case

So Im at work and we're handing out cookies to the costumers and everyone is eating them and they smell so good, everyone keeps telling me to try them:(

So I finally went on break and i was planning to eat my little salad and half cup of soup in solitude with my juul, but now theres 3 more people and they all commented on my lunch and i just want to leave.

I think I'm gonna give in and grab a cookie before i leave but like spit it out outside, they just smell so good. I feel super dumb but I almost cried before taking my break because the new batch they brought out smelled so strong and delicious",2.853424470266578,4.519971827067671,4.119439507860562,87.06347915242651,75.09022556390977,6.6408749145591255,25.62474367737525,7.348242739294969,1.1441187969924809,515,18,107,6,11,169,86,133,0.079,0.723,0.198,0.9703,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,6,5,10,6,1,0,3,0,2,6,2,1,1,26,12,17,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,13,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,6,18,5,15,8,2,17,0,0,0,0,9,10,1,1,4,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739614642894882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590173884515118,0.0,0.2956560098934744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908298205006558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555300760895877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320052183936038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784107031277187,0.0,0.0,0.19030830847542796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666537805048203,0.0,0.2914262025244556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18765385912489907,0.0,0.0,0.15441562436114567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679014363579167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487373370374772,0.17411906138875452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677856243799421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043971345762597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306203089754167,0.0,0.15184415506109314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131658682805347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794852995705846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024680781900065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104571467496176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529491504509788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingfoffi,2019/10/12,"how big is your average binge? sorry if this is a weird question but, how many calories do you *aVeRaGe* eat in a binge. I used to be able to binge on more than 5000 calories but now if I go over 2400 it’s death from there.
Sorry I just feel like I need some sympathy and to know I’m not alone in this :(",-1.5736363636363606,0.3848419393939402,0.7506666666666675,101.436,99.30303030303033,4.458181818181818,15.690909090909093,6.2581,-0.5864799999999999,232,6,58,3,10,77,48,66,0.18100000000000002,0.701,0.11800000000000001,-0.5484,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,15,10,7,1,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,9,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,4,2,37,9,0,0.27378907812484343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835629144716263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801545784400004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384359843412626,0.19559497211803265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560064257012987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504673171344454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337595139512793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775791523235475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301113226075926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067064270739301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6129689150375736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364658572247048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghoultearzz,2019/10/12,"i need new youtubers to watch i been following the onision drama very closely and i watched every vid on it
but idk what to watch now i like commentary vids or anything interesting 
my go to is ready to glare but i've watched l her vids",1.115624999999998,3.652699312500001,2.7716666666666683,89.44000000000004,87.125,6.533333333333335,26.75,7.793537801064563,1.8501000000000007,189,9,39,4,6,62,37,48,0.032,0.765,0.20199999999999999,0.8573,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,5,4,0,6,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,1,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40580917129754746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41548861621951605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28026073351946384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409214954128271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656543308577533,0.0,0.4762741282890634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068891072828445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jennyithinkwedied,2019/10/12,"I'll try to stop reading/watching/listening to stuff while I'm eating I always distract myself when I sit down to eat. I know it makes it easier to slip into a binge.

I know I'll hate it but I have to start being aware of what and how much I'm eating.

Wish me luck!",0.011581920903957156,1.8196278135593216,2.645,93.613488700565,84.42372881355931,5.289265536723164,16.612994350282484,6.42735559955562,-0.35595141242937833,207,4,48,2,6,72,41,59,0.099,0.728,0.17300000000000001,0.7345,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,2,0,10,10,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,8,9,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984615613613597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7321736977828276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23548177904852866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621605367418797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920898956941015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753341792695541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882042149714427,0.0,0.0,0.19940718466592466,0.0,0.0,0.2730398238965782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193437561655047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27427767940151543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punsandprose,2019/10/12,"The idea of a colostomy bag finally made me quit laxatives for good I was abusing laxatives and water pills for a few months, almost daily. Recently I had been experiencing stomach pain whenever I eat, even if I don't take the pills

Googling the symptoms led me down a rabbit hole that led me to colostomy bags

Now I am too scared to take them because of the consequences but now I am also scared of weighing myself because I know I've gained weight from the food ive eaten?? 

Time to fast until I feel better I guess",4.015882352941176,5.686257009803923,5.000147058823528,81.92316176470591,72.0392156862745,7.845098039215688,28.43627450980393,8.472884824447931,2.1186627450980384,413,16,78,7,8,135,70,102,0.10400000000000001,0.804,0.092,0.1556,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,3,5,5,0,2,8,0,7,11,1,3,0,11,14,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,3,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,3,15,2,11,9,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,8,50,16,0,0.0,0.2273742238200245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921635981782984,0.0,0.0,0.1534651303330376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339651401871124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16972301849102833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963651517909984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675042767853506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703215713938512,0.0,0.0,0.21022086396678824,0.0,0.0,0.23205042965987344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609595202858983,0.0,0.0,0.2114033003020239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21663565158739406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546512476510364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18158369708280495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317551360494244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041988152376536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204112955169998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894815186824915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38425768934864735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946117697672508,0.28857504356375874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190045274427993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336867193041164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prettyhoneybee,2019/10/12,"Nice At work today (I’m a nurse), and I was sitting in a rolling chair, and just kind of rolled over to talk to another nurse. 

This OB came walking by and I was sorta in her way and so I said sorry and tried to roll out of her way. 

She looks at me and goes *seriously??? You’re rolling around in the chair? Don’t you think you could get up and walk? You know, you could probably really use the exercise, don’t you think??*

Cue me wanting to burst into tears. I couldn’t even eat the rest of the day I was so upset and this’ll probably trigger another relapse. 

Bitch a year and a half ago I was on deaths door from starving myself, you don’t know who the fuck you were talking to.",0.6507276995305169,2.729850035211271,2.2287605633802845,95.94464319248829,83.85915492957747,5.75849765258216,20.734272300469485,7.0316486544052195,0.31367173708920193,523,16,122,7,15,170,84,142,0.128,0.852,0.02,-0.9338,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,7,0,1,5,6,2,1,9,0,11,3,0,2,0,25,23,11,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,13,1,0,4,1,0,3,4,4,0,1,7,2,19,2,21,13,1,21,0,0,1,1,14,11,2,1,4,77,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379370961024924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638513047098859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444819693624104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19843317028176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27704482973487865,0.0,0.0,0.11189054794337984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17752969103394833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459245216860653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603942289564019,0.09064448375100502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066935489058736,0.1906976960385897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145692919057855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37411600044422655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111459612553708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503439802623046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421453453658366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788989781911896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223384247419711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164453893586237,0.0,0.0,0.11779237532584225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984481355592127,0.0,0.0,0.10233241846650662,0.27542605145894394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126307132776993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172571664767217
EDAnonymous,imacuddlybitch,2019/10/12,"how quickly can you fall into an eating disorder? for a little over a month, i’ve been purging every day. i had never done it before then, one day i just started. initially i just did it in the shower and only once (after dinner) per day, but now i’m going to public bathrooms at 9pm just so i can vomit again in a toilet without being monitored by my family (who has noticed my behaviour quickly since my sister has an ed). i’m purging, counting calories, trying to low restrict, doing exercise out of hate for my body & spending my time looking at eating disorder blogs so that i can motivate myself to avoid food. 

i’ve been telling myself and others that it’s temporary, to ‘lose the fat on my chin’. but i want to lose at least 9kgs, which would put me quite underweight. i’m wondering if i have an eating disorder, but i’m not sure this has been going on long enough to be considered one or if it would even be worthy of getting help for (which i don’t really want anyway)",6.849540816326531,5.759056301020411,7.947877551020408,72.98997959183674,65.07142857142857,10.697142857142858,33.375510204081635,9.888512548439397,3.2018648979591835,769,27,142,14,10,264,124,196,0.141,0.79,0.069,-0.9408,1,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,4,12,6,1,1,8,0,20,9,2,2,2,26,33,12,0,6,11,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,11,4,6,2,2,2,1,4,4,5,0,2,6,1,18,1,24,22,2,30,0,3,1,0,6,12,0,4,14,108,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760043876121347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806449818501884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106426082261556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24570632344912574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4366462891728552,0.0,0.0,0.12996130780056458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898467608638744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122112688487514,0.0,0.08387985888857499,0.0,0.10699986065404014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197208099284324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356443091670635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635032554216512,0.0,0.14434984864922587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538255482616514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512294339904641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728365643709885,0.0,0.11238772978817067,0.10664490776108383,0.2841527521985516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136723561165084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979473761814521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445861300845926,0.0,0.13524691554568305,0.17211196010291124,0.0965864093627334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276663588275639,0.0,0.13507619808914353,0.0,0.0,0.08135708216120717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050526522911952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988863528918653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969251048005836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100036440941896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405256422142541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622215192623761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981141703936293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241990201125673,0.13772207082092466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042905664557707,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinagainplz,2019/10/12,910 calories in 10min? You better beleive its 5:50 am and I cant remember the last time I ate.,-0.669666666666668,1.516552700000002,1.1700000000000017,98.54833333333332,97.0,4.666666666666667,21.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.37316666666666665,74,3,17,1,3,24,19,20,0.0,0.847,0.153,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504772542529689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652287164116649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6465363836988924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328026837145798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Liquid_Is_A_Paper,2019/10/12,"I've finally admitted to myself that I have an ED. Potentially triggering, idk.

After 2 years of disordered behaviour, binge-restrict cycles, purging through exercise and fasting for days and bingeing on thousands of calories at once, relating to this subreddit and r/EDanonymemes, I've finally admitted to myself that I have an eating disorder.

I don't feel good though. I thought maybe I'd feel relief if I admitted it, but.... I just feel like shit. Like I deserve it. Like I'm worthless for not being able to control my eating habits. Fuck, I even started c/s-ing my food the other day and it felt...good? Why the fuck did it feel good? It shouldn't have done, I had to do it in the sink in secret to avoid my roommates noticing and it meant I didn't really get that food...

Idk. I'm confused and a mess, and for some reason admitting that I have an ED just scared me more.",2.8088377192982463,5.018969719298248,4.1734466374269035,84.17666118421054,76.953216374269,7.783771929824562,28.231359649122812,8.660442795831766,2.3605464912280705,686,30,132,15,16,226,100,171,0.196,0.7190000000000001,0.085,-0.96,0,1,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,1,4,14,3,3,7,0,12,8,1,3,0,30,28,10,0,2,5,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,7,4,2,12,1,0,0,4,8,0,1,6,4,17,6,17,20,2,12,0,1,0,2,5,4,3,3,11,83,30,0,0.1367441324500057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533701721322727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17637730574085594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134412454875097,0.0,0.0,0.13993672404508414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798467714128933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031820981860053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765677682727229,0.09769003554505366,0.13129581149557512,0.29959302619718475,0.0,0.0,0.3307030954983692,0.0,0.0,0.2528354939688716,0.07144316529919628,0.0,0.0,0.3440834715529318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004188277064339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373778607066545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556841011283389,0.0,0.14562803821356154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760179278110213,0.14059574286170473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690473178923665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036588689394552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678820076630118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435041584424812,0.10855956669748756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339031034691983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805873796531283
EDAnonymous,jameshardensneck,2019/10/12,"My story might change your mind about waiting to do things because of your appearance. I've been a binge eater for over three years now. I've always been skinny, though. I was pretty skinny three months ago but now I'm really lean. I lost  12-15 pounds over the last 12 weeks. 6'2 140 lbs, maybe 8%body fat. Count calories everyday. Somehow, I didn't binge once during the last two months. I read about Dopamine and how the rush/gratification comes before the binge so now I just stare at the food like a freak until I get bored and walk away. And I fucking finally did it. My face hollowed a lot and now I have cheekbones, which is what I've been obsessed about for the last three years. It's just so stupid and I feel so ashamed but it feels good to be saying this. My mom said last night that I have really nice cheekbones all of a sudden and then I totally lied and said I haven't noticed. Now I've seen some old 'friends' and they treat me differently. Especially the girls, they used to just kind be like meh but now they are more enthusiastic talking to me and  I'm worthy of their attention. Literally only because of how I look.... And it's horrible because I'm a much worse person than I was back in high school but NOW they like me? They don't even know me. Strangers treat me differently. But this is what I told myself I wanted. It's everything that I've wanted to happen these last three years since I went to college. Now that I'm here, I still feel like I fucking piece of shit who's wasted the last three years of their life because they were ashamed of not being perfect. And a part of me knew all along this would happen. I would become attractive and people would think I'm attractive but so what? SO FUCKING WHAT? I wish more than anything I could go back three years and just forget everything and be a normal decent person with friends and hobbies. This unhealthy relationship with food/obsession with my appearance has made me into some type of a monster. 

So to those of you who are delaying things until you reach your goal or whatever, please don't. People DO treat you differently but it doesn't matter because you yourself stay the same insecure, and in my case, shallow, stupid person. You carry those insecurities with you no matter what. I hope I'm making sense? Take it from someone who's done it. It feels like everyday I'm just living separately from everyone else in my own little world full of anxiety and hopelessness. All because I cared so much about how I looked. If you've read all this you can probably tell I'm pretty fucked up. I usually don't cry but tonight I was alone and I just sat on my bed sobbing thinking about what I've become. God it felt so good to cry and feel the wetness on my cheeks and hands. All my issues and thoughts inside my head. I've never told anyone about this. Not my family or friends. I pretend to be normal, everyone thinks I'm normal. I'm that guy sitting there staring off into the distance when everyone else is engaged. I wonder if anyone has ever looked at me and wondered if there was something wrong. No one has ever asked me if something is wrong :( Never. Literally not a single damn time. I have a hard time envisioning myself ever talking to somebody about it because I'd be so embarrassed. Maybe I'll find someone like me. This has been such a rant maybe I'll just post it no one will ever know it was me.

I truly hate myself but I'm going to try to become a better person and to finally live my life. I really love this community so thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone in this world.",2.7594008739893177,5.006196323903822,3.7301821866621663,87.11372796554708,77.27439886845828,6.597133146150434,23.14064050328274,7.652158237619267,1.0768307922903162,2839,89,561,42,67,911,295,707,0.168,0.67,0.161,-0.7040000000000001,4,2,2,0,0,1,70.0,0,11,8,4,50,48,9,6,23,0,46,16,8,7,13,120,112,56,0,15,26,1,10,7,3,5,3,3,1,6,41,31,4,2,18,3,0,7,15,22,0,9,25,19,79,26,60,75,19,78,0,3,6,5,43,20,7,16,55,368,120,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04813949247438713,0.0,0.0,0.112490444973904,0.0,0.0,0.04518741180534872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04154437295357948,0.0,0.0,0.07594482472938646,0.0,0.04468967510043317,0.0,0.05076930666037404,0.0,0.05102280470925002,0.08351679141949303,0.0,0.2317334422788728,0.17993200045801822,0.04621088624915317,0.0,0.0,0.04802974284048399,0.0,0.06032235026469091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05536916152359368,0.0,0.05744914410828609,0.04678029640866912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04335937253184397,0.0,0.1193064214223742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702164030132252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557446999180756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073233181142376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035868973463037995,0.1964935856386906,0.0,0.15567674799007064,0.0976144763538058,0.0,0.051195395547825186,0.0,0.1647541834724717,0.11638986090201925,0.05214281801866425,0.1189803731491251,0.04963521581353809,0.0,0.13133542593901826,0.0,0.1258713503150642,0.20082217399786986,0.028372938362918664,0.0,0.06172734383674398,0.09109953895226082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053772036603387516,0.09604623070718613,0.0,0.048648014608388516,0.0536164890043728,0.05573420229213062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05737786669272716,0.0,0.05393867176721725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05668194371488889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05655192967351502,0.059690934867214274,0.26560258804029313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671666463152295,0.18572010889253088,0.05442944415399583,0.09590738222544104,0.0,0.13681150935882685,0.0,0.059282029954623026,0.0461694988441477,0.04901379444166499,0.05138618410426447,0.07250010657416017,0.0,0.16367472904941613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761068259908717,0.054834148759883086,0.06360319161551846,0.08669396282618361,0.0,0.07984314653032612,0.0,0.08376914037716,0.0,0.0,0.050963031654746485,0.1596267075611797,0.0,0.06182838325964329,0.056985603758817935,0.05783471847645905,0.07359906670567429,0.04130258920588017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058808716870160926,0.0,0.07529866753564407,0.1896735885582236,0.0,0.059612299513744076,0.0,0.0,0.0520106767629212,0.11049859866522864,0.058551661292174324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086425206136955,0.0,0.10437052683697423,0.0,0.0,0.058304926264302386,0.0,0.0,0.1033159572252008,0.0431867595412791,0.0,0.05496114223856456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05574490772377818,0.044922951077685735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202755119535748,0.0836156925678345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578835716968736,0.043369292304256235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040831777727549236,0.08729911838250036,0.04746633075143738,0.04999818797931778,0.0,0.0,0.07215773630889125,0.10439236056947197,0.053355923576698334,0.043113345856298765,0.06333318858956774,0.0,0.0,0.10378449866004708,0.0,0.03687059230126452,0.0,0.05304962215079465,0.0,0.0,0.04690343508054955,0.0598110080699275,0.0,0.06406283717505093,0.0,0.04356145006319891,0.0,0.0,0.05034272906841725,0.0,0.0,0.062449868695554724,0.0,0.11778630457908988,0.0,0.0,0.05534302843830545,0.11573347518463732,0.11875140548564372,0.0,0.17485823410418894
EDAnonymous,alindsell,2019/10/12,"Got friend zoned tonight. And I can't help but think it's because of my weight. Even though he was up front at the beginning about his own mental health issues and things he's dealing with right now, I still think it's because I'm not thin enough. Why am I like this? 
All I want to do is binge right now.",2.388307692307695,3.5430112153846167,2.5507692307692302,99.92923076923078,75.30769230769229,5.815384615384616,20.69230769230769,5.6839178017228535,-0.3741692307692306,239,5,59,1,5,72,52,65,0.027000000000000003,0.861,0.113,0.6335,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,9,11,4,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,6,2,6,9,3,11,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,6,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837494988981167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399423622820295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24048027189821514,0.0,0.153721064215563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17981257947643162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18614160981526406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24738930525998,0.0,0.0,0.15599918290092452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429177048693096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370389037362474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23454487387511155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975134699224141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586463797621716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462059470727407,0.2982578574813936,0.2286636210223909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727473295778952,0.0,0.0,0.2834118341247676,0.0,0.0,0.21000958564737648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bettyboobs69,2019/10/12,"CandyMan Went to a movie with the boyfriend and he got a bag of those bite size twixs because he knows I love them (when I’m bingeing, but he’s oblivious) and just the smell of them in the seat next to me made me nauseous. 😐 Handing out candy on Halloween is going to be a FUCKING BLAST BRO. 😂😭😅",3.57015625,3.5725782031250013,4.662500000000001,90.1325,71.65625,7.65,30.0625,7.1686216300943375,1.4697312500000002,231,9,54,2,4,76,51,64,0.0,0.9540000000000001,0.046,0.3818,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,6,0,2,3,1,1,0,8,10,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,2,5,1,9,6,0,7,0,0,0,2,7,3,1,0,2,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449898502700073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715430075431188,0.0,0.0,0.2284046877910536,0.0,0.32143003102912154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22086952871907906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627235426332865,0.3802802650361774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42741708046804266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725582408286554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kmrlort,2019/10/12,"Hating how accomplished I feel when I restrict I’m going to a very special place for my birthday next month. It’s out of the country and I’m trying to lose as much weight as possible before I go, so I’ve been restricting to under 800 calories all week. So far I’ve been around 300 and I absolutely HATE how accomplishing it feels. I’m terrified that this isn’t even the worst part of my ED. I’m still classified as overweight by my BMI but I feel like absolute shit. I’m also terrified that all my rapid weight loss is going to give me a ton of loose skin, which is all I can think about now.

Oh well. At least I’m down five pounds this week haha stay safe lovelies 🤪",1.3670714285714285,3.457904992857145,2.975714285714286,91.53928571428571,81.21428571428572,6.571428571428572,21.42857142857143,7.7094869923839395,0.7904285714285709,529,16,117,9,14,174,93,140,0.214,0.647,0.139,-0.8657,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,12,12,3,0,4,1,6,6,2,2,3,17,23,12,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,4,3,3,4,0,0,3,1,6,1,1,2,6,11,6,18,21,8,18,0,2,0,1,2,7,1,0,8,68,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522838990677402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053393958609246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389077373443487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116882787494912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565045691617029,0.12080434214669998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221514611691676,0.2883085346173173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339004599984014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261321808924403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18917850015189794,0.0,0.0,0.15261842778444787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497318923841772,0.0,0.12430720403951374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798386792202258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831177122886674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766724388982708,0.0,0.0,0.19063368770163167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735776687095264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802370089391741,0.13504266056114994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083517958179584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480710466514958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952436456737075,0.0,0.0,0.2712819970944618,0.4118339941524672,0.1520402872747073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,krustypewp1000,2019/10/12,How the fuck is Jeffree Star so skinny ALL HE EATS IS SUGAR AND REDBULL,-1.032,0.6251738000000024,1.3066666666666684,94.60000000000002,111.0,2.0,18.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.7076666666666658,57,2,11,0,3,19,14,15,0.2,0.8,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,1,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7420094309859543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6703894422855274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Iryna_Soroka,2019/10/12,iryna soroka ukraine say oh you so fat don't eat.  you a cow.  well i stopp.  i am a big girl always.,-4.1808695652173915,-3.570685608695649,-0.4568695652173904,106.53121739130437,122.47826086956522,1.84,8.947826086956521,3.1291,-2.3854452173913043,73,1,20,0,5,26,20,23,0.0,0.89,0.11,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665911435617915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5737899748964845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44593303125868256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5041839952739816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amandathekat,2019/10/12,Im shitty at restricting and I’m contemplating purging I wont do it bc im chicken and dont want to fck up my teeth but oooof why cant i control myself,-2.599166666666669,-0.9691848055555552,1.8277777777777795,92.645,105.38888888888887,4.622222222222223,19.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,0.3704222222222221,121,5,29,2,6,46,27,36,0.172,0.828,0.0,-0.4958,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,0,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855924144720974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40292213718600894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7427095830254972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027776672987852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102191712225289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CogDiss88,2019/10/12,"Anyone else a lifter/worker-outer torn between wanting to be ripped and wanting to be S M O L? 
I am a power lifter. Every time I binge 3k cals in one night I justify it by saying “its for the gains lmao this is going straight to my deadlifting THIGHS bitch 😛😛”  and then the next morning when I look in the mirror and realize I look like a god damn FRIDGE with a scrawny thighs and a big fat tummy and man shoulders I decide I want to be a skinny waif with a sexy flat tummy, and eat cucumber slices and broth for my meals. I’m not getting stronger and I’m not getting skinnier I’m just getting better at hiding my horrifying binge eating from my housemate and also chugging vodka sodas like it’s my job. Fml. 

Also this is my first post on this sub. I have almost cried at the accuracy of some of the posts on here so I wanted to chime in with my tale of woe.",3.1294102564102566,4.079112300000002,4.6255555555555565,86.56115384615386,73.22222222222223,6.871794871794872,24.95726495726496,7.010146845296331,0.9465213675213672,674,20,142,6,13,226,112,180,0.11900000000000001,0.754,0.126,0.0539,2,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,6,6,2,0,12,0,7,9,5,0,0,23,20,14,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,6,12,6,0,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,3,16,3,23,17,1,18,0,1,2,0,2,9,2,2,8,85,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17268306856961935,0.0,0.0,0.2758152935891301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205805636061256,0.17669469194795093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251739620703508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942746379626865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529173817816045,0.14405926600138805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452959770244418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466852906205313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702929326247114,0.0,0.09800691404932056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17112932571206851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850003921022985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896279672349851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340179211629892,0.16183199057745187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685611199812344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303175293356016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713860883517576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005565764660738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4068602720620171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,valentineskies,2019/10/12,Who else...? Stays up all night after a binge and drinks green tea every 2-3 hours til it's daylight and you look in the mirror and feel thin enough to relax now and sleep???,0.4708333333333314,2.6345033055555582,1.3588888888888917,101.35000000000002,85.3888888888889,3.6,11.777777777777779,3.1291,-1.825755555555556,133,1,31,0,4,41,33,36,0.0,0.892,0.10800000000000001,0.594,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,5,2,2,9,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,5,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383259729742808,0.0,0.0,0.2885079321390551,0.0,0.0,0.3568541082588114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909846970832231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462679449883675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401147100251609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290019407414579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241014219453112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456141679936035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681128709399072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Beware0fthechild,2019/10/12,"White Claws; yay or nay How do you guys feel about them?

My bf wants to drink with me tonight and white claw is the only thing I feel comfortable drinking right now because it's zero(???) cal and I'm having a bad body image day, but carbonated drinks scare the shit out of me because they bloat you so idk what the FUCK to do",1.1412366737739852,3.3110070895522408,2.0562899786780378,97.36776119402988,82.5820895522388,5.0226012793177,18.526652452025584,6.1826913282559595,-0.3662989339019189,253,6,58,2,7,79,56,67,0.192,0.687,0.121,-0.7788,0,0,3,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,2,0,4,6,2,1,4,1,4,6,2,1,0,10,9,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,4,8,2,6,9,0,5,0,0,2,1,6,2,2,1,3,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891733151398649,0.2762253078693184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25166397492272885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611645704887422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6658458704335978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291173587451138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945680307200631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243361608412012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17231380621846631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348629872108766,0.0,0.0,0.22683229317110398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23256695068922864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052051736411848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363461617093114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kaydensnow,2019/10/12,"My bachelorette party is tomorrow and all I can think about are calories I should be having fun and looking forward to tomorrow but thinking about all the food I am going to eat makes me want to cry and have a panic attack honestly. I am just obsessively putting in all of my calories into my fitness pal that I think I may eat :( It ain't looking good chief. My wedding is next Saturday and I want to be at my lowest weight so I guess it is all restricting until my honeymoon :,) Does anyone else do this before a big event?",4.7027060439560415,5.557537374999999,5.975439560439563,78.68384615384616,69.48076923076923,9.019780219780221,31.203296703296704,9.23628265651192,2.765171978021978,413,17,78,8,7,139,70,104,0.22899999999999998,0.66,0.11,-0.9556,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,2,3,0,15,4,0,1,4,21,25,7,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,4,1,3,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,0,3,15,3,11,21,4,14,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,2,7,59,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340502694262354,0.19548722808206784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21705153092500995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234850885699306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095742062871756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696189362230282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904522538050515,0.15938082960887273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23070441071326994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843053489135288,0.16002586735425495,0.0,0.0,0.2101770459572329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204316319048756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273540192545396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290766842424493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238513309435005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917969669499669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667521973748321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250661463716994,0.0,0.0,0.23233120898588944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,publius-esquire,2018/11/16,"I p****d for the first time the same day proed was banned What's weird is I thought I would be emotional about it. IDK, if you would see this kind of thing in a movie you'd expect it to be a very big emotional moment. But instead I was almost completely unemotional. I was a little bit mad at myself, and a little bit determined, but it's like my inner monologue just stopped. I didn't think about it at all. 

I had tried to purge before but wasn't able to, and I also used to have a phobia of vomit before my restricting/binging fucked up my stomach so much I unintentionally threw up from eating the wrong amount of something at the wrong time. This time I tried a different method, and it worked. It's super fucked up, but I was kind of thinking ""this will prove that I have an eating disorder"" which I think is fucked up maybe but also....still doesn't prove that I'm not just pretending to have an eating disorder lol. I mean I'm 9 lbs away from underweight so it doesn't count anyway.

I think it's kind of ironic that this happened the same day proed was banned. I hadn't actually been on there in a while. I also purged for kind of a funny reason: I had been so good and so hungry and low energy all day during my strenuous classes, and then just impulsively bought some rich tea biscuits on my way home and ate half a package with a diet soda and a Twix bar. Not even like my normal binges of whole bags of candy. But I was angry that I had fucked up my whole day that I had spent so much energy being good on beforehand, so I purged. It was less bad than I thought, but I keep thinking about it like you would think about, idk, receiving news about a sideways career move. 

Unfortunately I have now ruined Diet Club Orange and Rich Tea Biscuits for myself. And then I had a ""normal"" eating day the day after. At myself: wtf",4.292195121951217,5.092594067750682,5.164231978319787,84.32677073170733,70.3821138211382,8.072021680216803,23.97409214092141,8.238735603445708,1.2047690189701896,1437,34,297,20,25,469,169,369,0.20800000000000002,0.667,0.125,-0.9884,1,0,2,0,0,0,43.0,0,3,0,3,21,23,5,0,21,1,33,17,1,2,4,54,56,29,0,7,13,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,22,11,11,4,12,3,4,3,7,11,0,2,23,1,39,12,41,25,13,41,0,2,1,4,4,20,4,3,20,206,61,3,0.07961028663375844,0.0,0.07768815583263955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797182023816305,0.0,0.0,0.19099295237583686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747964849027998,0.0,0.0664712640152941,0.0,0.0,0.13548498070131235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17382762824119782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346987088640863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080522933045017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317580534650257,0.18248057118813404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258447918247243,0.0,0.17910171442268175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05258184349910237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771646914174116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29439370867936543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335466626878606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039911355322348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985560851967256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076128063180183,0.0,0.331607451072357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668069433505253,0.159580843159493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997923327341168,0.08671894069941588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08461313577518442,0.11704544150558815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600235607352356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185263373401909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634390912685488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06128788805737049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655776433848548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052889536994324964,0.3060663429145668,0.0,0.12640335006378906,0.13926419503533227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810031773572233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875772693961225,0.0,0.06568682393654146,0.0,0.06319093997605138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776408395870566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057957236823313815,0.0,0.0,0.1696585904817368,0.1740827020036972,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Teld8,2018/11/16,"The whole ED subreddit banning was fat logic in action Everyone else continues to kill themselves while sticking their greasy fingers into bags of garbage and stuffing their face while we choose to kept ourselves clean of that junk while also recognizing that sacrifice is sometimes necessary to feel beautiful. Everyone else is so disordered and disgusting but god forbid we look at thin women who are healthier than they'll ever be and count calories. 

I feel like they couldn't handle the truth. That sometimes you have to starve to be beautiful. That their curves aren't and that the models they scream about are healthy and better than them. That fat kills more than thin ever will. That people with eating disorders are statistically more intelligent than others, especially fat people. They can't handle that we realize this and we're living by it. ",7.1091666666666695,9.729519601351353,6.202432432432432,72.56126126126127,65.82432432432432,9.527927927927928,31.25225225225225,9.928628108626363,3.54361981981982,703,28,105,17,12,213,97,148,0.128,0.7170000000000001,0.155,0.6873,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,3,1,8,1,5,8,3,0,3,0,14,6,5,0,3,24,18,12,2,1,1,0,5,1,0,2,3,1,1,1,12,11,4,3,5,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,7,13,3,17,11,3,12,1,0,1,0,14,5,0,0,7,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399032574349846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472441913719384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40100369165841104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17901215945705773,0.2922877889042683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316495093499698,0.0,0.3343344211513344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691464934455997,0.12498056798772185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38710090255743257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546917053319927,0.0,0.15447942387578548,0.0,0.14690953330821496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425693311528004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460496722080305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953195714140553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GospodiPomilui,2018/11/16,"Everything hurts. Just got dumped. It hurts to even breathe and stay alive. I know it sounds dramatic but it is what it is.

I have recovered but I can't stand it anymore. I'm back to square one. I miss having the ED voice in my head making me feel better when I'm down. I need it.. I feel so alone. ",-1.7415340909090915,0.060851437500001986,0.32284090909091034,103.11079545454548,104.9375,4.202272727272727,13.630681818181818,6.1124844417494595,-0.8942312499999998,228,5,57,3,11,74,46,64,0.174,0.7390000000000001,0.087,-0.561,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,1,0,5,2,2,1,0,9,14,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,5,8,1,4,13,0,6,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,34,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268619352322572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572160131483245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994322844430737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293833652631295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17130522369881246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330965747495196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622810145761048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074343569749537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266178791014658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5553017519341825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253779747497305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312520788575622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19231259124194736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757494481830022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764438800635625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Im_Crafty,2018/11/16,"Proed got banned because it was a selfish, negative, echo chamber that dragged people down There are real support groups on reddit. It's funny to see everyone talking about how unfair it is that proed got banned when in actuallity, it was toxic. This place will become the same thing and it will be banned. It's inevitable. I hope you all get help, the right kind of help.",4.319904761904763,6.526513371428571,4.300000000000002,85.01333333333334,72.42857142857143,6.3809523809523805,25.952380952380953,7.1686216300943375,1.2352380952380957,296,10,54,3,6,91,55,70,0.228,0.614,0.158,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,1,1,9,13,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,2,3,6,6,2,6,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,1,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.23834324407934365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888658454588144,0.26974415826905584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333820178831577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276054457824638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906824665402182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274181716515599,0.0,0.0,0.2425856697579533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543386273054695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932543106407733,0.0,0.2551790689677887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779988663499937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085798321320772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19462785095535656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771609322040364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963110548355117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622623640627816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MaddieLionJones,2018/11/16,"You are not alone. I want every one of you to know that you are not alone. 

We have seriously come together in an amazing and beautiful way. 

Reddit thought they were taking something from us, but all they did was bring us more together.

If anyone reading this needs someone to talk to, please don’t ever hesitate to PM me. I check Reddit every day. I’m also on pancake with a similar username.",3.2104135338345827,5.457654552631581,4.636390977443612,81.15973684210526,75.84210526315789,7.50075187969925,27.962406015037594,8.418075326091056,2.277024812030075,310,13,56,6,7,103,61,76,0.065,0.8009999999999999,0.134,0.6629,0,2,1,0,0,0,9.0,3,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,2,14,15,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,1,2,3,1,0,1,4,0,11,1,9,11,2,7,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,1,2,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257676005136313,0.0,0.16437516516277442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437226326376446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705978990354285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13256024884901732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185928241490006,0.3463629577619698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129627770461972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240985024659806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928337663962084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256279253847268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056017527807656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17415856814630962,0.15823945224037114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454510853608566,0.16521019260478195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318066676337706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4944933701095721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123643244741568,0.16315294987819418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stellapaigee,2018/11/16,"ed support server hey there, i’m part of an incredible ed community on discord with 150+ members and growing all the time. we’ve had an influx today of people joining due to the loss of the proed’s and would be happy to have any of you if you would like to join. message me if you’re interested. i’ll need to ask you a few questions just to ensure that the community stays safe but if you’re genuine it shouldn’t be a problem.",3.863333333333333,4.43948111111111,5.600000000000001,81.63000000000002,71.22222222222223,7.777777777777778,29.44444444444445,7.793537801064563,1.7867777777777785,340,13,71,4,6,117,65,90,0.078,0.762,0.16,0.5346,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,1,2,7,0,0,8,0,7,0,0,0,1,16,11,6,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,5,11,5,3,6,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,4,4,43,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035264216616984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616838988003655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979760428602736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675293591331195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075543454042208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30312201064668143,0.0,0.1940586763082523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678420384886904,0.0,0.0,0.3135702510187008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983534681585658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31764563237711585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322141076738905,0.0,0.2653278660927541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976889318925109,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,new-accwho-dis,2018/11/16,"ive been in recovery for one year now. so yeah, today is my one year diagnosis anniversary! one year since i was forced into recovering. one year of which approximately two weeks were spent actually pretending to get better, and the rest of being tired all the fucking time. honestly ive lowkey been planning this post for months but i just forgot everything i thought of so haha nice. 
   anyway i still want to starve myself lol. 90% of my thoughts are ed-related and sometimes i think ""ok, but are u planning on staying sick forever??"" and then i freak out so i think about ed-related things instead of contemplating recovery. oh and i started purging in august and ive done it ffour? five? times this week so far. in the school toilets. i think im going to stop bringing my toothbrush to school and keep my nails long so im not tempted bc i dont have access to like baking soda or anything and i cant properly brush my teeth 1 hour after and i dont wanna fuck up m teeth. im sorry this post is such a mess but im just venting rn, please feel free to stop reading
    every time i even briefly entertain the notion of recovery i panic and just NOPE. agh. it sucks because i feel like i was actually restricting an embarrassingly short amount of time and thats one of the things i beat myself up about the most when i consider recovery. i was only actually sick for literally like. 5 fucking months before i got to bmi 13 and i was forced into recovery. i feel genuinely embarrassed by this and i know i shouldn't but ??? 
   my biggest regret is mentioning that my teacher had a talk with me about my eating when i went to my therapist exactly 1 year and 2 days ago. (2nd biggest regret is not having taken A SINGLE FUCKING PICTURE of my lw) she probably would have forgotten about everything my dad mentioned before and maybe i couldve gone on a bit longer. and probably died lol
   also i have a 4 day intensive multi-family therapy workshop next week so thats gonna be a nightmare 😎 fuck camhs tbh
   anyway im really sorry about this wreck of a post, i just felt obliged to make one today since ive been planning one for months. hope everyone had a good day despite the tragic losses (F) :( thanks yall, sorry again
   
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EDAnonymous,nomaize,2018/11/16,"You're going to get EDAnonymous banned. Here's how to avoid it: I used to frequent ProED, but stopped when I began realizing how unhealthy it was. It was supportive, but it came with significant flaws that kept me from recovery. 

* Don't repost material from banned subs. [Example](https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/9xk6e9/complete_rproed_and_rproedmemes_submissionpost/). This is the most obvious way of getting banned for subreddit ban evasion, like /r/edsupportgroup was.

* Don't share thinspo. Unlike ProED, thinspo is against the rules of this subreddit. Example, posts like ""resposting some of my art i had on here before!"" that are drawings of skinny bodies (obviously not going to link that again).

* Don't share tips for self-harm. That doesn't *just* mean unsolicited advice, it means suggestions for triggering material and more.

* Don't share ""progress"". It's not ""progress"" to lose weight because of a sickness, just like it isn't ""progress"" to lose weight because you had the flu. It's a consequence of the sickness, and it sucks, but don't celebrate it. The comments in this [Example](https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/9xg66w/i_cant_see_any_physical_difference_even_though/) all say things like, ""big difference"" and ""doing good"". 

* Don't link to other subs. [Example](https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/9xohqn/if_reddit_is_gonna_ban_rproed_and_rproedmemes/). Whataboutism doesn't help anyway, and you're encouraging brigading by doing this. 

I understand the desire to vent to people who understand. Vent away. Sometimes you're spiraling and need to get it off your chest. Just don't try to take people down with you! 

I'm not a mod here, I can't make rules, but I understand the purpose of a *safe* safe space. I don't want this sub taken down, and hopefully it can be a healthier than proED was. 

There's a reason /r/EDAnonymous is still up and others aren't. Don't get this taken away too.",6.6646794871794866,10.448373544871801,4.922692307692309,75.20564102564106,73.16666666666666,7.697435897435898,28.217948717948712,8.59863814320734,2.6725602564102555,1574,61,237,33,36,453,158,312,0.14300000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.6781,0,1,0,0,0,0,115.0,0,3,0,5,14,17,1,1,13,0,28,8,3,6,3,52,53,14,0,4,10,0,2,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,26,10,3,9,9,1,0,3,17,4,0,0,11,3,12,13,36,41,4,21,0,2,0,0,12,10,1,3,10,147,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532969556498913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24100034629798775,0.0,0.0,0.15636660664713195,0.0,0.10913590160561888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424628397648969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669001354983846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339995984983166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680326183525229,0.0,0.1457810024897877,0.10757454710786224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596689320921566,0.0,0.0,0.1273865543929634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506364461518942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869699792785978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561147750785049,0.0,0.0,0.2794154667336725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509975630152588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778322953361418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283322312918928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13186791532340145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199384436278648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379835692717326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684787317632648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024249306127378,0.10722725991227987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455427115750162,0.0,0.0,0.09643210157082792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520719087091366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707699981853156,0.0,0.0,0.4005551934797193,0.0,0.11077148895862593,0.0,0.0,0.07564835974814553,0.10180316920584116,0.0,0.31236105760766064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mrs-Schrute,2018/11/16,"What’s up with the Cactus Crew discord? Hey guys, anyone know what’s going on with the Cactus Crew discord? I know that when proed went down things were crazy in there but it’s not showing up in my discord at all anymore. Was I denied/banned? I joined it about a year ago but I left when I tried to recover and I was hoping that maybe someone there still remembered me 😕",1.4782894736842105,3.753118407894739,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,82.02631578947368,4.852631578947369,20.026315789473685,5.985473137389443,-0.0797578947368418,293,8,62,2,8,92,53,76,0.131,0.8170000000000001,0.051,-0.5845,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,11,8,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,8,1,11,4,1,15,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,1,5,42,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481427449244475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776172312303054,0.1957348977160767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909175345683607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771765981962052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27803554590895146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30768650984298795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041468354046599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28122922541332424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171082805200423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23718539590380103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235539820768721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18597431999048825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19005538925226192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594996817773133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026696981211784
EDAnonymous,Capt_butter,2018/11/16,Why can’t I log in to mfp I have spent like 2 weeks now trying to finally create a profile on myfitnesspal and every fucking time it gives me an error saying that they’re unable to process the request right now. Seriously it’s been 2 weeks fix the fucking website ,6.332201257861633,6.154788886792453,7.330188679245285,73.97503144654087,65.79245283018868,9.330817610062894,34.647798742138356,8.841846274778883,2.9703761006289318,213,9,39,3,3,72,44,53,0.08800000000000001,0.82,0.092,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,3,1,5,5,0,9,0,0,0,2,3,3,2,0,7,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24283593204831155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31572851818754955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5329054342103979,0.0,0.2764847819344359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080866142945572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461364312866869,0.0,0.2292023673215439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806212029957715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19568097096796036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623818774317186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26007174024734314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eternalcoffeebreak,2018/11/16,"proEDmemes I’m creating an imgur album with 80-90 images that were originally posted on proEDmemes. Very little of the content is mine, just stuff I’d saved. Once the images finish uploading I’ll edit this post to include a link. Please feel free to claim and/or repost as you wish. I don’t know if I can set it up to be collaborative but if I can I will so others can share their backups too if they want. They won’t bring us down guys. Hang in there. ",1.4980434782608685,3.863477065217397,3.0045217391304355,89.9078695652174,82.69565217391305,5.419130434782609,18.98260869565217,6.742157984588678,0.1431313043478255,358,9,74,4,10,117,75,92,0.0,0.843,0.157,0.8688,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,1,3,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,9,0,0,1,0,13,15,6,0,5,5,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,10,4,10,11,0,12,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,3,2,46,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681104715605108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679121760808756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870115828539895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711876236662917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881539599167208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970105261534017,0.0,0.0,0.5182728596935985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097440871616627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254688793179737,0.0,0.0,0.2232530338460879,0.15959237549504926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111483454048121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IncredibleMsDee,2018/11/16,"Reddit - You need to check yourself I have always had an eating disorder - I have body dysmorphia and bulimic. The only experience I had was from what doctors told me (""Just stop throwing up"") or what I saw in media which demonized the type of person I was. Those with ED are displayed as selfish, or stupid or vain. I felt like a freak - I was in and out of recovery and institutions. I'm pretty sure my first marriage failed partly due to it.

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Then I found a forum online. It was thousands and thousands of men and women who had ED. There were people in recovery, those who didn't want to recover. All sorts of eating disorders from anorexia to binge eating disorder and EDNOS. I was able to be honest, as opposed to group therapy where a therapist tells you what you can or can't say. I wasn't judged for days where I struggled to be normal and okay. Everyone was supportive, and more importantly they understood. Didn't matter their size, where they were in there recovery - they just wanted you to be safe. 

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Anyone who has what we have, doesn't want to share it. It's like living in a personal Hell. These groups connect you to others who know what it's like. It's not about tips, it's about listening, and being supportive in anyway they can. When groups like that get shut down - it makes us feel alone again and isolated, like freaks or losers.

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I'm 32, I'm fairly old in terms of membership - but this is a life long disorder, that doesn't go away. We need a safe space to talk about it - to know that it's going to be okay. This is will be okay. Stop taking that away from us. ",3.032270573978188,5.259068514376999,3.9253806323675238,86.14325878594248,76.31629392971246,7.3843340310675325,23.253167346039444,8.326086129247049,1.4489040211523636,1267,39,247,24,29,406,166,313,0.11900000000000001,0.78,0.1,-0.469,0,1,0,0,0,0,56.0,4,5,5,3,13,24,2,1,9,3,33,6,1,1,2,45,57,20,0,6,9,0,2,5,0,1,2,2,0,4,30,14,3,5,6,0,1,3,7,9,0,3,19,5,27,15,40,31,4,31,2,2,1,0,32,17,1,6,16,173,57,3,0.08808432384569803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122879466199668,0.0,0.0,0.07329321372768276,0.2863179842567161,0.3210962843466534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159060729545333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655162436233283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978418266031958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05680710184617725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038090655804163,0.09015803790845774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703967607091133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416834620533467,0.0,0.08616337077766847,0.0,0.0,0.0445380807741844,0.0,0.08457476435845038,0.0,0.0,0.07492448086525305,0.0,0.0965799145986025,0.0,0.0,0.04602042366298165,0.0,0.10012070229109958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968176815630338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221656289515143,0.2151677565997573,0.0,0.07778007173537395,0.07795185475142044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05879697015298765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306268200383406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630393529600214,0.0,0.0,0.0924296804979148,0.0,0.0,0.0669920975163029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538673897019458,0.0,0.061066579303911725,0.15382366802261652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961342423711696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004818976798187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728487777987104,0.0,0.09208486044064658,0.0,0.0,0.1999140937072697,0.08301843278941676,0.0,0.06622844930260567,0.07079884293228664,0.07698958151487192,0.0,0.10073210094249857,0.10227268908352267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416834620533467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190919209927334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558632491709882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210962843466534,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondecurlyhair,2018/11/16,"Additional backup Hey everyone, just wanting to let you guys know, just in case, I made an inconspicuous sub that is relevant enough for peeps here to know at r/peached so hopefully if anything happens here, which I hope nothing does, that’s there too! ",6.919710144927535,8.089806043478262,6.807391304347828,73.56731884057974,64.65217391304348,10.481159420289854,37.072463768115945,10.504223727775694,4.052428985507246,202,10,36,5,3,64,40,46,0.0,0.857,0.14300000000000002,0.7706,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,10,9,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,5,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235572285031852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377359582079419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807026671630025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595876433414457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26899115840537,0.2402325492053972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5396494802131694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986000666974913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777959688465153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570560845628624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260669988630688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602351135549695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fart_away,2018/11/16,"Anyone like reading the symptoms of their disorder again and again? I don't know I like affirming it, kinda makes me feel like someone understands even if that's a definition.",3.6178125,6.776370156250002,4.492500000000003,77.1025,81.8125,8.200000000000001,29.875,8.841846274778883,3.3682250000000007,143,7,23,4,4,46,28,32,0.081,0.693,0.226,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,7,5,2,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,15,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235531969434268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664227855888668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21116972005172904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616582589457354,0.2284055175509465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570781637401267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685919686059509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21341323337232224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31980300031933445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708947364077121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323078404925681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328361316068641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bethalj,2018/11/16,"My boyfriend doesn’t understand my ED I know most of our posts have been about Reddit banning the other pages, but i need to vent. 

My boyfriend doesn’t believe/understand my ED. Throughout my entire life I’ve battled with anorexia and bouts of binging. Most people don’t realize that this isn’t normal weight fluctuation. I’ve always been either 98 lbs or 185lbs. Most people, including my boyfriend, believe this is because i do not understand nutrition. Except, i understand nutrition better than most anybody i know. I know almost every calorie, carb, sodium, and fiber count for all the foods i eat or drink. 

I am not ignorant, I’m just sick. My boyfriend met me about 8 months ago, during a period of binging. He just assumed i didn’t eat healthy Bc of my upbringing in the south. But I’ve started starving again when i hit my breakdown weight. My boyfriend doesn’t understand. 

He keeps trying to assist me with tips on what to eat, and how to eat. He even recommended fasting to me. I tried to be honest with him without exposing too much. He didn’t listen and kind of dismissed me. Nobody realizes i have an eating disorder until they see me passing out or sneaking laxatives. I don’t know what to do to help him realize that while I’m not underweight right now, i know where I’m headed and his comments are not helpful. 

What do i do? ",4.05611150568182,6.209510683593752,4.7122443181818205,82.00377840909094,73.0234375,7.779545454545455,29.99573863636364,8.575989854853784,2.5110296875,1069,47,192,20,22,342,141,256,0.07,0.843,0.08800000000000001,0.5489999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,1,1,11,5,1,0,5,0,20,12,1,1,1,48,39,14,0,2,14,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,9,9,3,13,1,0,1,13,2,0,0,5,4,35,3,26,32,8,18,0,0,1,0,14,6,0,9,10,125,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245457768163642,0.0,0.10444016477273893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678494226362105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635795697620803,0.0,0.0,0.11750901172578003,0.0,0.09224379739435716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953544079854868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217309991512248,0.0,0.5336184637229548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888836219375248,0.0,0.08787622264849264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261185018339182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704064107205633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981855080756495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270555014946442,0.0,0.108611132072659,0.2865994161398053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366931458017502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325029314452008,0.0,0.07667160592897689,0.07733622567859955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219066214800064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461528672538315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988940281434074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907059039908136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311262606502019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738232150954063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14162405396770253,0.0,0.0,0.542893554522979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540156377242418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054030444516893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paavanilla,2018/11/16,I'm so pissed proED got banned just over a week before thanksgiving Fuck you admins that's when I need that sub most ugh ,0.15820000000000078,2.514247120000004,0.5355000000000025,102.35525000000004,97.8,4.1000000000000005,10.25,5.985473137389443,-1.4148,98,1,22,1,4,29,23,25,0.45299999999999996,0.547,0.0,-0.9335,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606914238165786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5005154671466333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330069436627115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4014411526417805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4342783288104034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lisztomaniac2,2018/11/16,"My gums are unhappy with me So, I purge a fair bit.  I'm trying to reduce the amount I purge, and I have been fairly successful since finding r/ pro ana (although I was not on it for very long).  Anyway, I have a problem where my gums develop a white coating over them which comes away easily and they appear to be slowly receeding.  I like my teeth, even though they have never been given a good lifespan (I got the short end of the genetic stick, unfortunately.  My teeth are naturally crumbly).  I'm not sure if this is a result of my purging habit, or a vitamin C deficiency.  I'm alergic or oranges, but I can take vitamin c supplements just fine.  I'm not sure, however, what I can do if this is a purging sude effect.  Any advice would be appreciated 

Stay safe guys and thanks in advance",4.303519061583579,5.42918493548387,5.8925513196480965,77.91337243401759,70.61290322580646,9.249266862170089,29.574780058651037,9.573946990214177,2.705387096774193,615,24,120,14,11,210,104,155,0.071,0.759,0.17,0.9461,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,3,6,9,0,0,10,0,16,4,2,2,3,24,26,11,0,4,9,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,5,1,18,8,10,18,2,13,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,5,4,78,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559334449393786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003336439580678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20728555370836985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24086664110361555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900499139349484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540930547385327,0.0,0.0,0.14572150762007655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164832670357746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18505076780768528,0.17645490649915854,0.0,0.0,0.21845459975937392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778680470412083,0.0,0.0,0.19524722191635352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016050710757769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110945298048114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250425160700606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23515814699283574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158751173188158,0.0,0.1658834261147095,0.0,0.0,0.20312293961035735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676409647101008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979069034473536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820396999768705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672650443885575,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nipplesalami,2018/11/16,"a huge binge i'm looking for something to blame last night/this mornings binge on, because me and my lack of self control c l e a r l y aren't to blame /s

so i'm blaming it on the reddit admins for shutting down ProED! 

(no but really, i usually distract myself by scrolling through proED and proEDmemes so i totally wouldn't be feeling so guilty rn if they didn't get banned)
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EDAnonymous,peachychamomile,2018/11/16,"So I'm officially medically underweight now ? BMI is 18.3 now, 5'6 at 113.8lbs and I don't know how to feel.. 115 has been one of my goal weights for a while now and I thought I'd feel amazing when I got there but even at 113.8lbs I feel fat and disgusting, possibly even more so than at my SW. 

I hate this disorder smh can I get a refund? ",0.2745833333333323,2.3895095138888927,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,85.80555555555556,6.933333333333335,24.277777777777786,8.07648339933343,1.3171611111111114,263,11,64,6,8,88,52,72,0.22699999999999998,0.741,0.032,-0.9497,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,10,3,2,0,2,0,5,3,1,1,0,10,14,9,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,5,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,4,8,1,7,11,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,40,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32537576496339765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37502858392671695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4306474520894357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14832683889114254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706199926174606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802939979192989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602486365815033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860009371508173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19237903332667067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32005633334105177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538611345390136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3457155965002889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pokeisbaee,2018/11/16,ProED got banned during global fasting week. Coincidence? Seems as one behaviour gets more normalized the other becomes more demonized?? ,8.514833333333332,12.98226215,7.070000000000004,56.24833333333334,77.5,10.666666666666668,36.66666666666666,9.725611199111238,6.202166666666668,113,6,11,4,3,34,19,20,0.157,0.843,0.0,-0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927446465785213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330982835256003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568319980219355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371385045545487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30232709595915913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4061639934221056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578797200253492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,datantdupaleozoique,2018/11/16,"Weekly Support Thread Weekly support threads, and gentle support in general, was one of the things that makes our community so special.

For anything that's going on in your life",8.350645161290323,9.792868096774193,7.584032258064513,68.29604838709679,61.58064516129032,8.780645161290323,41.30645161290322,8.841846274778883,4.202406451612903,145,8,20,2,2,45,26,31,0.0,0.633,0.3670000000000001,0.9259,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995356741069603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378037223991526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126675633786556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16185346621552518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643068489058842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8254708259881168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108913886786505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38899648672329823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,picalowpiepi,2018/11/16,Why didn't the admins take this sub down yet? I saw so many posts about how replacement subs were banned within hours. Are they using the sub to weed out more info? Letting the sub stay temporarily so we find another website like discord to regroup in? Or just letting it stay in general? ,2.8496969696969683,5.559960545454548,3.6468181818181833,85.24356060606063,79.9090909090909,6.575757575757575,25.53030303030303,7.793537801064563,1.6902121212121215,230,9,42,4,6,73,46,55,0.113,0.845,0.042,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,2,0,10,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,3,1,8,3,1,10,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,3,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626325326692961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22891885271127846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466558274358332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5122312397149712,0.0,0.12236368173068615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539304012600097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398745378287975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5339209513445975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831717679372006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631981186891053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22600410605220386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Inky-flower-,2018/11/16,"I just stress ate 950 cals :^) Basically the title. My dad bought those dominos marbled cookie brownies, i intended to have one (they're 190 cals each, i had 200 free cals) but instead of eating one i stress-ate five without a second thought. I'm so fucking pissed at myself, I've totally sworn off purging but i dont even know how to cope with accidentally eating 1650 calories in one day!! even before i had an ED that's more than i ate in a day, oml. I feel awful. Losing pro-ed has totally thrown me off",2.4005717367853308,4.219928776699032,4.110226537216828,85.97811218985979,76.76699029126212,6.519525350593313,25.036677454153185,7.3871296695380915,1.169190722761596,396,14,81,5,9,133,76,103,0.191,0.768,0.040999999999999995,-0.9548,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,1,4,1,5,6,1,2,2,13,13,4,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,3,0,2,0,2,4,0,5,6,1,11,2,11,7,4,7,0,1,0,1,1,5,2,0,2,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628768470030887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267216952866496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428034510761195,0.0,0.0,0.4239763228742769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27366963923967863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475213348522816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915267102847211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385603652571125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317719122728859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42115430319900016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746284987794703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644710270154112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19970592978513416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,optimisticorthorexic,2018/11/16,"Someone please encourage me to eat! Okay fam, so I planned to make shirataki Pad Thai with my boyfriend tonight but now I can't do it!!!!


 I was all set for a refeed day, I had planned out a perfect 1200 cal day with tons of protein and vitamins and iron. I was feeling good, like my body deserved nutrients after several medium length fasts.



But I haven't eaten ANY of it.



I've just been sitting here obsessively going through edfood posts and thinking about the ban and not eating and I'm fucking miserable. I'm just running circles in my brain about how lonely I feel and how it's DEFINITELY all my fault the sub was banned.



Can someone just give me a pep talk?",2.9042875318066166,5.053199167938935,3.710248091603052,87.90572837150131,76.40458015267177,6.809414758269721,29.23727735368957,7.793537801064563,1.8871368956743002,525,24,105,8,12,167,92,131,0.149,0.682,0.16899999999999998,-0.3417,0,2,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,10,10,1,2,5,1,9,7,2,3,3,26,19,11,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,9,3,2,3,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,6,2,13,5,13,13,3,13,0,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,7,63,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497230737518583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445591117620141,0.0,0.2457824095037473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839827270522688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4505775216873469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226490214229832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035435136376949,0.0,0.21120701861737134,0.12512762113795511,0.1846680561212718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756388604082567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696510985254482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416804211905171,0.0,0.0,0.21086189207595546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487293045143045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730984631602404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17696421604554172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107597412670095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prisionmike2,2018/11/16,"A pointless rant that will probably get deleted ...but here we are folks First off I want to say I’m so glad everyone is coming back together so quickly . This is really my safe place everyday. I didn’t even notice how much I relied on this community everyday until i didn’t have access anymore . 

*insert guess I’ll die meme*

I thought I’d be back to pretending I’m on (newest fad diet) in order to cope and seem normal.Seeking help is usually met with feeling ashamed or not taken seriously , so I seriously relied on you guys just to feel validated sometimes . It seems so counterintuitive to ban our sub .

Hopefully ED awareness continues to progress.

I instantly thought the ban was my fault when the sub wouldn’t load . I’m the insecure dumbass the posted my progress pics on my bday a couple weeks ago, but then deleted it as soon as I woke up the next morning . body dysmorphia and low self esteem can’t stand not being center of attention , amiright? 🙃

*insert this is fine meme * 

I posted it to this community bc there isn’t anyone in my real life that I can be truthful with about eating habits without them getting angry or weird about it , even though this controls me most of the time. NOT bc I wanted to show anyone how to be scared of food or how to use exercise as your only avenue to self worth. If anyone remembers my post , I hope it didn’t come off that way . I’m seriously over here debating if that could have been the final straw for the ban??? I’m obviously not okay . 


Anyyyyways , rant over . 
Stay hydrated and electrolyted up. 

Also sorry for any offensive dark humor , this shit sucks ass sometimes. ",2.747255075022069,5.3770250906148895,4.253403942335988,81.24547219770523,79.64724919093851,7.499499852897911,25.544866137099145,8.484438967287268,2.15017928802589,1279,50,232,29,33,424,187,309,0.166,0.711,0.122,-0.9717,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,2,2,1,4,22,20,3,3,10,1,22,8,3,5,2,49,47,25,1,8,13,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,15,8,3,5,8,3,1,2,11,12,0,1,10,3,24,8,37,30,2,42,0,1,0,1,11,15,3,11,18,146,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10013151754105554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033343351218577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681613130751136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120251759409705,0.23695110268109745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737173084955775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547220926477978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460870190572416,0.0,0.0,0.12669335083746766,0.0901887317061244,0.1249872091640655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723381834586954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558546456076448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921697595398548,0.0,0.0,0.10793735884936187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423113376273784,0.0,0.0,0.12374128505157893,0.0,0.09608304003058092,0.13659071616897256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803304228391935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443729680251935,0.11184736999948863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571417242833514,0.0,0.0,0.22438795178715107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978642540041042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303801116711089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201333934646351,0.0,0.11067603504328176,0.0,0.1286048008543508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591056371772131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801832458151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245510738639076,0.0,0.12178912569247928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857230248115242,0.07236455767445743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796075647093502,0.0,0.0,0.08982969176190904,0.1130918676998302,0.0,0.0,0.2056676312012902,0.2356821676074236,0.0,0.1159509982066773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22343907947136105,0.12644857921017244,0.0,0.12039948027678565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098184303421876,0.17935397840600248,0.0658674194328221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756048290294317,0.12440860291347318,0.0,0.13325252873690713,0.08966175720975972,0.09060905873566852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888864035267863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrsblackattacks,2018/11/16,"Shout out to everyone who had to act normal today with a burning hole in their hearts for ProED. I've been chasing similar subreddits all day, only for some to be shut down in hours.  Can't tell anyone why I'm so depressed and feeling hopeless, all energy drained except for the ugly adrenaline rush of getting more bad news on this site.  It was easy not to eat today...I just didn't want to.  There was no question, no inner debate or bargaining, I just...gave up today.  

I know everyone else seems to be in the same boat so I wanted to tell you, you're not alone.  We will find a way to regroup and build our family back up.  And well done for putting on a brave face today.  ",3.517352941176473,4.6783807352941205,4.637529411764707,86.03688235294119,72.52941176470588,7.792941176470588,25.364705882352943,8.238735603445708,1.4662729411764708,524,16,108,8,10,172,98,136,0.154,0.7490000000000001,0.096,-0.8574,0,1,0,0,0,1,19.0,2,1,1,0,6,5,0,0,5,0,10,3,2,0,2,24,17,6,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,5,0,1,3,6,3,1,0,6,2,7,2,24,8,5,22,0,2,0,0,8,12,0,4,6,68,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157289750034984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908149029484042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995729933071425,0.13025666396025293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006095507223426,0.0,0.1343658518172291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964605964009926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596308426681417,0.1303211641765286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981366491707819,0.0,0.0,0.1470665068354481,0.0,0.07888021305610111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258465488173644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150555121297785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18486526440902687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363232697074705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857356133957673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285060975673082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11864792629825315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682691625954104,0.17475996886494555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202000832450262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727084098564583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.591493478309673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840301765517476,0.12382856194669613,0.0,0.0,0.14026615930314185,0.0,0.14076917248904766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinktardigrade,2018/11/16,"Has this happened to anyone else on their period? Something weird happened to me during my last period.

So I went to work without eating. It was just a 4 hour shift so I thought it would be fine. Well, my boss surprised me by taking me on a 'walk and talk' session.

We barely walked a mile, which is normally totally easy for me. But every time we would stop for a second, my legs would shake so badly. It was so odd. It only happened when I stopped.

Do you think I was close to passing out? Any idea what was actually going on here? It was very scary.",0.8730145530145528,3.246962081081082,2.6228828828828843,91.46575883575883,85.84684684684686,5.217186417186418,20.250173250173248,6.67199483983844,0.3508289674289671,425,13,88,5,13,140,77,111,0.156,0.768,0.076,-0.8598,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,2,1,1,1,8,6,0,1,4,0,12,2,1,1,1,19,20,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,5,1,2,3,0,0,6,1,3,1,1,7,0,15,3,12,9,1,20,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,8,63,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.17185602016976045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975949018814215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313881981813858,0.1804434743369777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470428377001381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18020246624426345,0.14711565005802515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837859933675274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008624416014912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671952120268898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17343092194613152,0.0,0.0,0.19880451463216786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355153823171807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725484648500165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339380822424228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355765549235026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944683746966553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241131145836774,0.1415489527705163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284290601200365,0.0,0.13981009360606514,0.1026900006159508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453075570958913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834225651232126,0.1632538956011435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697618434299048,0.0,0.1282087334129552,0.0,0.0,0.3753062463036696,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noctif,2018/11/16,Is anyone else conflicted? Where are my boobs Seeing weight loss progress is exciting but I also look more like a kid from losing what little curves I had before. It doesn’t help I also have a youthful face. There’s no winning,2.452272727272728,5.158206954545456,3.1283636363636376,88.30754545454548,81.72727272727272,5.3381818181818215,20.163636363636364,6.742157984588678,0.4972690909090906,182,5,33,2,5,57,39,44,0.14400000000000002,0.512,0.344,0.8988,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,2,0,6,3,2,0,0,2,8,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,4,3,1,7,1,3,0,2,2,1,2,2,1,0,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4760902163502678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081364882557766,0.3049961915554893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532936672737937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486635393758475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952068315506316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542561994790787,0.2983416817220726,0.0,0.0,0.2499662723333237,0.33301451392058823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372029725029437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624796085933085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jaksusu,2018/11/16,"Anyone with a carb addiction done keto? I really want to try it but tbh carbs are probably my main food group. I basically am a slice of bread tbh, and i only really ever crave carbs. 

Just wanted to hear y’all experiences! ",1.7029545454545456,4.222776113636364,4.737454545454547,76.77118181818186,83.31818181818181,8.974545454545455,17.89090909090909,9.3871,1.9615872727272718,175,4,33,6,5,63,37,44,0.0,0.9590000000000001,0.040999999999999995,0.1502,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30874642500070953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19803068683047348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28982752944477297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561844066430221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770388577738548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34246500267203506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31920416851155553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153979586485887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053539393124149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628698806540581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922845629911764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340953828332474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aha98,2018/11/16,"going keto I’m starting keto today once again...

I’m so tired of binging. I can’t focus, I waste too much money and time, my skin is shit, I’m bloated all the time, and my weight keeps going up. I’ve started b/p and c/s again and it makes me hate myself. 

Although I really want to lose some weight, that’s not the only reason why I want to go low carb. When I was doing keto last semester, my mental health was the best it’s been in years, my digestive issues were gone, and my skin was clear.  

Having no cravings and not being hungry all the time was a plus! 

So yeah i just wanted to share that I’m starting keto today here because I don’t think anyone irl gives a damn and I also want to hold myself accountable lol 
 
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EDAnonymous,heythere12211,2019/05/03,"My friend has been helping me sm So I have a friend (*cough cough* that I happen to be hopelessly in love with) that I’ve only known for one and a half years but we are reaaally close. We tell each other all of our problems. He knows everything bout me, I know everything bout me. He knows I’ve had an ED 5 years ago and lately we’ve been talking a lot bout my issues with food because I’ve been experiencing disordered eating again. Ever since I had ANA I’ve been following a pre strict diet but in the beginning of 2019 I decided that I wanted to start eating intuitively for a change. So I started overeating (smtms downright binge eating) and eating a lot more junk food, which made me gain a bitta weight. Consequently I’ve been feeling unattractive, guilty, ashamed, angry at myself. Honestly I’ve been feeling self-conscious bout my body since my weight gain and I liked myself better skinnier but what bugs me the most is not putting on weight, but feeling like I’ve got no self-control, like I’m some beast that eats non-stop because it feels good. Anyway I told my friend all of this and he’s been so supportive, every time I overeat I have a mini breakdown and he’s the only one who’s able to calm me down. He hears my obsessive repetitive rambles and always presents counterarguments to my toxic thoughts. 

He told me that I was definitely not fat because I had a BMI of 21 and as long as it didn’t affect my health t’d be okay if I were overweight, because I had a beautiful personality and when it came to love most guys didn’t care about girls’ weight, if smth they preferred thick girls. Then he said that how much people ate didn’t define them, overeating didn’t make me disgusting or worthless, in fact if it helped me get through the day every now and then there was no problem with it. Life was hard af and there were a lot worse things one could do to find enjoyment than eating. He also said that I should stop comparing myself to  other people. I always pay attention to what others eat and feel like shit if they eat less than me. 

Anyway sorry for this lil rant I just wanted to tell smn bout this, sorry if this post was poorly written or didn’t make much sense, I just took some sleeping pills n I’m sleepy af atm.",3.489534058945821,5.374865045248871,4.0458419958419976,87.3329417879418,73.8868778280543,6.769328604622723,24.38938485997309,7.534196372845213,1.0804390852390848,1778,55,354,22,37,561,228,442,0.138,0.6890000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.9645,0,0,0,0,0,1,39.0,3,0,3,3,16,25,2,2,16,1,32,29,4,5,4,72,68,33,0,12,15,0,11,4,3,1,7,3,0,4,24,20,19,1,14,0,3,4,9,8,0,4,33,15,46,17,33,31,14,34,0,2,0,2,34,10,1,14,23,213,70,1,0.06678560400066368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920140833382799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0534084233903566,0.1111419452234824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16284753726895818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906643946404514,0.0,0.07418375030804952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638493908884557,0.06809237430585684,0.0,0.07065031357763339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490573378191892,0.05332287040047237,0.0,0.0,0.04307118954526045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654208821814336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5467067674959669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06041140236658789,0.11253950362008112,0.0,0.120045189030382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884404032804093,0.09542329768493757,0.0,0.0,0.061040832133375224,0.0,0.16151483491127172,0.0,0.1547951759461771,0.0,0.034892721616194514,0.0,0.0,0.05601659601423668,0.05341454850036439,0.0,0.0,0.06612824797836046,0.05905828905494258,0.0,0.059826783155089824,0.0,0.0,0.07098997401706715,0.07527222953860041,0.0,0.08952996516306427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970681913203768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101108640929914,0.0,0.07533707028890156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04717264719062612,0.13051229057424982,0.0,0.0,0.05910315792019194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703361967366931,0.12055323018933675,0.06319415331377674,0.08915981853831431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819020678114612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576696108759942,0.10158692263416093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926014574445838,0.05831461337254594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396214738654944,0.0,0.0,0.12780960687160126,0.0,0.06713797832826762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12705680630812027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934390074341915,0.0,0.06855446277176334,0.11049148354547583,0.0,0.06683383576515578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952203172161968,0.09454238851057414,0.0,0.0,0.1116715108118869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578751197473918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053679738702016616,0.11674712318246795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044369387711557316,0.0,0.0,0.05302030955216856,0.038943222768387416,0.0,0.0,0.12763301331363475,0.0742012634057956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878375918985027,0.0,0.0,0.3253074941053453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806023613044931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601547864877833
EDAnonymous,colorful-habit,2019/05/03,"I can't stop fixating on my bf's ex. I wish I'd never found her instagram, and even worse her pornhub lol. She is exactly the kind of woman I've always been jealous and intimidated of. She's so thin and small and beautiful and dark haired and artistic and cool and very much his type that it hurts! I'm big and tall and blonde and all over the place lol. It's such fucking torture looking at her yet I can't stop myself lol. He doesn't want anything to do with her is the biggest thing and she lives in a different country! So this fixation is all in my own dumb mind lol. I just wish i looked like her and was cool and fun like her. ugh. bleh.",-0.038909403177328265,2.2016850145985423,1.8507513954486927,96.14726492056678,89.36496350364962,5.267325032202662,19.737655646200086,6.794906146795322,0.1832382138256765,505,16,117,7,17,166,88,137,0.146,0.62,0.23399999999999999,0.9031,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,12,4,0,4,6,9,2,1,0,4,27,17,16,0,3,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,15,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,3,7,18,6,9,14,4,15,0,1,3,1,14,11,2,0,6,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451797043707314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270581459027494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206574176597858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13059147404193108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678857736792936,0.0,0.18278794450105895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21166218039752155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20589381693875905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19319094262021735,0.0,0.17458941819494214,0.0,0.3320681719812157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963973381526365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534614725294207,0.0,0.15249301087960693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206574176597858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306037208089394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135565696935006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631388059483344,0.11661973469381715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547339730857632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014924589116102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Neon-Socks,2019/05/03,"[TW] Help navigating new boyfriend's comments on weight/body? Hi! You all seem absolutely wonderful and I thought you would be the best people to help with this :)

I've been seeing my boyfriend for about 3 months now, and he knows that I have some issues with ""eating my feelings"". I've told him that when I'm stressed out I eat huge amounts at once, but I haven't told him that I have BED.

ANYWAY he makes comments about my/other people's bodies sometimes that make my anxiety skyrocket. Like, they get stuck in my head and I think about them a ton. Examples:

* ""You're the skinniest girl I've ever dated.""

* ""I went out with this girl once and she was great but she was overweight and I just couldn't be attracted to her.""

* ""It creeps me out when people sit down and they have those lines or creases in their stomach.""

* ""You're so light you can't weigh more than XX lbs!""

He's never said anything negative about my body, but all these comments make me worry that if my weight fluctuates he won't be attracted to me anymore and I've already gained since we started dating and I keep waiting for him to realize that he's wrong and I'm **not** skinny.

Any advice on how to approach this or if I should even say anything? Ugh I'm driving myself nuts freaking out about this stuff!!",1.2166666666666686,3.79815588492064,2.09077380952381,94.09901785714287,87.3730158730159,5.0547619047619055,21.36706349206349,6.6274283507984215,0.4399539682539686,1001,34,206,12,32,312,145,252,0.133,0.759,0.10800000000000001,-0.8239,0,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,1,3,4,2,14,9,0,1,3,0,15,10,5,4,4,47,37,20,0,5,9,0,2,1,0,3,1,2,1,2,14,17,6,2,7,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,9,6,34,5,26,21,7,25,0,0,1,0,31,11,0,7,11,126,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169710106778131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209368373541844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140118754576678,0.0,0.09157139051600333,0.0,0.11871181484151068,0.0,0.0,0.1970084225475105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561943617807053,0.0,0.0,0.39888445295130265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449692250345167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07906177281968127,0.10827694333306803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06052472172649592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06253914150588856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197142815814938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228483676692703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046690831223287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493736297143945,0.0,0.10639627524350176,0.0,0.0,0.06578486469272905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0584801516650139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23970522719066345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554466900014114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232124739538157,0.11560854380693752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25495657844726904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489580369143737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138636257210426,0.09519151071299213,0.0,0.0,0.09538667129171027,0.10897183400508458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901839416044524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838793560359392,0.0,0.08472540317152154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711776961632438,0.0,0.13702968489455022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669994704437992,0.0,0.09502969353442826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22876000239372865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915285833899794,0.0,0.11096457535455936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981127078389848,0.0,0.12156277749284787,0.0,0.08503257680447181,0.13087490017240969,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DietKokeHead,2019/05/03,"Anyone else have children? I have two kids under 3, and I seriously feel like I'm going to royally screw them up. 

I stay home with them, so I have total control over their eating/exercise habits and I'm so fucking worried I'll end up either giving them shit foods that I want but can't have, or I'll subconsciously over restrict their intake of ""junk"" and give them a complex. 

My oldest is 2 and he's normal and healthy and eats a wide variety of foods, so I guess I'm not doing too bad. My husband is obese and trying to lose weight (the healthy way). I'm hoping that watching us model healthy habits will help my kids. 

They are a big motivation in not continuing to fuck up my body. Being postpartum and deflated isn't doing much to help though. I seriously hate that I hate the body that made my babies. Fuck bulimia, my dudes. If anyone can relate to this rambling mess, lemme know.",3.5619074675324685,5.198025142045456,4.800357142857145,83.03750000000002,73.14772727272727,7.528571428571428,25.63961038961039,8.192908349453996,1.5858633116883118,699,23,137,11,14,231,108,176,0.168,0.65,0.182,0.4337,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,7,3,5,14,7,0,5,0,14,12,3,3,1,27,32,15,0,4,6,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,5,9,5,2,4,0,0,1,4,12,0,1,1,3,22,2,15,29,3,15,0,1,1,4,17,9,5,4,4,83,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914861583985132,0.1402986798147749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432896690418007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041917644530593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357613515193652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401112908423738,0.1143855800774926,0.0,0.12127736024024335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06923479378097336,0.0978212249049676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311472014624824,0.0,0.0,0.3797625456090827,0.0,0.2627071843498064,0.07781920612471033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084137395814842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27037564555181026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18355959331580407,0.0,0.13734971583296754,0.13600016963139044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525192038869735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689599101510306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318714776055573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12956436497083532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065766467972233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416014024045242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405543862711095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459467819975148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453083695844306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296496637926968,0.0,0.13375853307115015,0.0,0.16470724557792232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076354531379445,0.10868688887131348,0.0,0.16674113301564014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390567951587167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vireon,2019/05/03,"I hate wasting food This is probably the worst thing about my ED, the amount of good food that goes to the trash.

I've just spent half an hour to make myself dinner, when I saw it I felt anxious and started thinking about all food I ate today, so threw it to the trash and went to my room.

Why can you save the food for later? Well, I can't because I know I'm going to think about the food in the refrigerator all the time, ending eating it at the end.

I'm just ashamed that sometimes my parents buy food for me, and I waste their hard work. The amount of poverty and starvation in the world is huge, and I'm here throwing away food because of my weird feelings.",3.9897242497972454,4.487351459854018,4.3860827250608265,90.72896999188973,70.8978102189781,6.9648012976480125,26.17112733171127,6.42735559955562,0.7451920519059207,518,15,116,3,9,163,83,137,0.168,0.76,0.071,-0.9231,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,9,7,1,1,12,0,4,10,0,1,2,16,21,7,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,5,10,0,5,0,2,4,1,4,1,1,6,4,15,3,17,15,5,19,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,8,70,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156726585001928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619969250072737,0.0,0.0,0.1248331772788152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477153043099972,0.0,0.0,0.18137602705119285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051771953993828064,0.0,0.0983113940541082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8666810226571651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05819115128832676,0.08588069280104403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172220290056762,0.10108989077690217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083448631455064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056271402679926905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834677159015283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136930617448273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103947900122542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126729344069622,0.0,0.07247285984933842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06802401479122785,0.13121600616867746,0.0,0.0,0.059705001539267076,0.0,0.09705467302971857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206178412789592,0.0949174606066134,0.09239192998463293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454185003266002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,030729,2019/05/03,"Compliments from other women is my new trigger apparently.. usually when guys compliment me on my weight loss I kinda get upset/angry and I dont really care. They never noticed me when i was chubbier so I'm still bitter over that i guess. Solidifys the idea that if you're fat you have no worth.

i got a pretty nice compliment from a female co worker today about my visible weight loss. my little disordered brain decided it's time to start heavy restricting again. I threw out my 300cal lunch and instead went and bought black coffee. i skipped dinner and instead had 8 massive cups of tea. 

I've been eating normally recently so I know me restricting will get me to start B/P again. its SO stupid that a nice compliment messes me up this badly 😣",3.668044871794869,5.945836680555559,5.11888888888889,78.09192307692308,74.55555555555556,8.597435897435899,25.66025641025641,9.265573868473778,2.4997698717948715,598,21,105,15,13,200,104,144,0.16699999999999998,0.687,0.146,-0.5039,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,3,11,13,2,0,4,0,7,8,2,1,1,16,19,10,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,7,5,7,2,3,0,2,2,3,6,0,0,7,4,20,7,10,11,0,20,0,2,1,0,4,5,0,3,13,65,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921495593587206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19949888891899728,0.0,0.0,0.1822062311275287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048165533810611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094461863890877,0.0,0.0,0.18286441883696036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18673666072830744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293030120985026,0.0,0.19686864648515065,0.17695048759912765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017412568654712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821405973431116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791138534297639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378317725329044,0.17259873498692846,0.0,0.0,0.17509735245930574,0.0,0.2034619340523619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18181179427004207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448587271608605,0.0,0.17645405754630858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529829877120999,0.0,0.14271762620171574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042069383087632,0.0,0.16939569657884349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968232507135928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352400181570512,0.0,0.16566548374264134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,101goal,2019/05/03,"1 week fast Hi I really need to do a whole one week fast. Have you ever tried it? Do you think I will be able to accomplish it? I really want to know your experiences. 

Love you x",-1.7553846153846169,0.15140256410256825,1.7706410256410263,93.94519230769232,100.28205128205127,6.702564102564103,11.628205128205128,7.793537801064563,0.010774358974359188,136,2,34,4,6,49,28,39,0.0,0.77,0.23,0.8382,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,1,5,10,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,1,3,8,1,5,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,5,21,9,1,0.2938394393405078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26579459550887063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874313550428068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614864712963287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652015662624679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21787822104496996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19911320872158972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764821380607812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18828044801285684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994976911848345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17331411444039002,0.0,0.4714005482344041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32806124041233736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,am_i_the_grasshole,2019/05/03,"Any other average height/tall people triggered by finding out the weight of short chubby people? My friend posted her weight on her snapchat story yesterday, and she's like three pounds smaller than my ultimate goal weight. But she's slightly chubby, and I know it is logically obvious that someone half a foot shorter then me would weigh very little but I stresses me out so much.

It's like 'hey even *she* has the discipline to weigh X, even though it seems like she doesn't even try (from what she eats around me) and though people would probably interpret my look differently from hers because I'm much thinner than her, though I weigh a lot more. 

It's like being thin doesn't really count when you're taller cause there's all these short people running around with far more discipline to restrict than you.",5.8956231186032495,7.588084582781459,5.1583383503913325,82.52963275135463,67.41059602649007,8.404816375677303,28.296809151113788,8.841846274778883,2.164107284768213,656,22,118,11,11,197,97,151,0.052000000000000005,0.858,0.09,0.5895,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,11,6,0,1,4,0,7,8,1,2,2,25,11,11,0,2,2,0,4,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,8,7,3,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,5,19,5,15,8,6,16,0,0,1,0,12,11,0,2,7,76,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815713378675848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308075944209249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790250891554408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331721966616445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544234853186246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265030521123836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25687067329199226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848523551192255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015668876650204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124472372838637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25333500454420155,0.1299296357166283,0.0,0.0,0.10886184765817583,0.0,0.0,0.11021215188358692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905952027326199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594939685650088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241557467693807,0.0,0.13976986428102475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304833742262334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801602456934016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984042174742976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849795101345373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821010385866159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880145425113243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696352941220097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735862910008207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18417982527269589,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chevrongiraffe,2019/05/03,Sunkist Tangerine Lemonade Singles To Go Packets are sent straight from heaven,7.8675,12.097150750000004,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,83.16666666666666,5.7333333333333325,56.0,7.1686216300943375,6.3182,67,6,7,1,2,18,12,12,0.0,0.6579999999999999,0.342,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,effareeewhy,2019/05/03,"1 meal a day Honestly I’ve put on so much weight recently due to hormonal issues and it’s kicked off my ED again, I’ve been eating 1 meal a day and honestly seeing how it’s slimming me already is so satisfying but I know my mindset is mega unhealthy :/",2.9685849056603786,4.154310716981133,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,73.90566037735849,9.073584905660377,30.23113207547169,9.516144504307137,2.8387018867924527,200,9,41,5,4,71,39,53,0.142,0.7390000000000001,0.11900000000000001,-0.5051,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,1,0,5,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,3,4,1,8,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,5,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496008665360968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4086244795867949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32416937329979234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306608546479545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410708105925396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328872418551575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184753166158692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128055288983914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524516085596476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857816758949617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liketotallyamy,2019/05/03,"Reached my GW1 today, but not exactly in the way i’ve ever wanted. I reached my goal weight 1 today, 120 lbs. A BMI of 22.3, the lowest that i’ve been in years but i’m not exactly happy.

Last year when my ED was most prevalent the lowest I got to was 126, that’s with weeks of fasting and less than 300 calories and up until a few weeks ago it was always going up and down due to my restrict/binge cycle. 

This time is completely different, I was drugged and raped about 5 weeks ago when I was out with my friends, my appetite has completely gone and eating even 500 calories a day is difficult for me, I am losing weight at an alarming rate and it’s as if one part of me knows that this is bad but then the ED part of me is ecstatic, which is fucked up I know. 

The rape as a whole has messed me up, i’ve been put on anti depressants for the first time in my life and I just feel super sad all the time. I haven’t even binged since it happened which is the longest i’ve gone without binging in years.

Sorry for the rant I just feel like this is the only community who can understand how I feel in terms of eating. Thank you. 💕",3.3830462184873973,3.901350193277313,4.490241596638658,89.36376575630253,72.27731092436973,7.6306722689075634,25.379201680672267,7.645422480735847,1.0533605042016805,878,25,199,10,16,288,133,238,0.22399999999999998,0.691,0.085,-0.9911,3,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,4,9,15,3,1,15,0,19,9,0,1,4,32,34,18,0,2,9,0,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,12,10,4,0,6,0,0,4,4,10,0,2,10,5,22,5,31,24,8,42,0,3,0,3,3,13,1,2,25,130,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167998882457016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175248352196947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210444004881518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564309421238842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886492351133996,0.0,0.10532551383065232,0.0,0.0,0.1277637661374976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181396169517171,0.2502600221686113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153866687340218,0.11061548745588344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549576828135445,0.08736177422281731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401716089240463,0.0,0.0,0.09447854308033636,0.113052253571124,0.0,0.0,0.06949845416749206,0.0,0.0978039920965578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813788748820792,0.1301766617234783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344113465194801,0.09968013171226968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637484248274105,0.0597431944769715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680774320190928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08286475727422626,0.09300468559008154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648495567772667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229320940857894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115697395949108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689015464263254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258533284465916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21391939605150104,0.0,0.23182733443013745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730495871733494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721279724108186,0.09706563637677304,0.2942734858665272,0.29782496038708595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365289386494744,0.0,0.11788019216830432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23624623150814505
EDAnonymous,playingtisbo,2019/05/03,"i just want to eat food sounds so good. every food. and every time im about to start eating, i panic!! and i don’t want it anymore. but i can’t stop thinking about food. but i can’t bring myself to eat it rn, and when i do, I feel so guilty!!

it’s honestly not even tht I’m always super restrictive, it’s that i BINGE like crazy when I’m not restrictive, and I’m so scared to binge again. I just did last weekend, and my PROM is in less than 48 hours. I hit a new lw yesterday, and I’m not about to ruin that 

honestly I’m just excited to get cross faded as fuck on Saturday night and go to a grimy gas station with my friends in my heels and dress and eat as much junk as I want. I’m gonna regret it the day after, but at least I can enjoy food not sober!!! 

anyways i plan on getting ritz, nutter butters, jalapeño chips, and vegan ice cream oOO and cookies!! like lenny and larrys soft ones <3",1.085330691862236,2.6142914922279807,2.960963120999697,94.05476988722953,79.67357512953367,6.199207558671138,20.161231331911004,7.048011613610866,0.2060096921670218,690,17,163,8,17,231,111,193,0.139,0.6609999999999999,0.2,0.9072,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,2,14,14,1,2,3,0,7,10,1,0,0,32,26,23,0,4,10,0,2,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,7,13,8,3,2,1,0,3,7,5,0,1,1,5,17,9,21,23,3,24,0,2,1,1,1,5,1,0,18,89,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452583034530853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458119805574762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101445124297345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141621258563478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829707674121335,0.0,0.2116803883337549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351720218197658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6076003869912158,0.0,0.0970536327317745,0.1161335848316539,0.13126243895072076,0.0,0.07139269114747471,0.10536402255210284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371030954173748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569106191242908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239699489895104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274308781541232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234508965035064,0.0,0.0,0.1213244942146432,0.0,0.11788577809176674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851233037332286,0.0,0.0,0.14738790091752058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257674469159588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889144205819478,0.0,0.0,0.10502387168099847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049216757707227,0.0,0.0,0.07324998114803515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222816371573825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,almonddouble,2019/05/03,"the guy I've been in love with for months just asked out my best friend Luckily she's not interested in him, but I'm also fully aware that even if she was, I would need to find a way to be okay with that; it would be wrong to harbor any ill will towards either of them.

I feel so worthless. No guy is ever going to like me, and it's because my body looks this way. I don't just feel worthless; I am truly convinced that I am worthless. I don't see how things could ever change when I look like this.

Should I try to find a way to be happy even if no one ever loves me (and they never will)? I don't see the point. I'm a social person; love is all I really want out of life. And it's never going to happen to me because I just can't. Fucking. Stop. Eating.

I deserve to starve; at least it will make me into someone worth looking at.

I don't know. I just found out. I'm just spitting out thoughts and emotions here in my dark room. I just. I don't know. I don't see how I could ever be loved.",0.4401834862385314,1.983329761467896,2.5720091743119258,96.03663761467892,81.66055045871559,4.910458715596331,18.239449541284404,5.341637118332708,-0.5793089908256883,760,16,183,3,20,257,112,218,0.141,0.6409999999999999,0.218,0.9529,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,2,1,18,17,1,0,5,1,25,10,2,3,7,48,52,12,0,9,11,0,2,2,1,6,2,0,1,3,10,11,1,1,8,0,1,2,12,5,0,1,4,8,30,12,25,36,4,27,0,3,6,5,15,13,1,2,11,130,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511445396532819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07237810872190302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995005136919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976117187488898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169489639409294,0.0,0.0,0.11822310039786635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125920310114462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995622450145734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890755858506293,0.0,0.11972283090328277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059602227969895,0.3850990685967547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763147373053436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945557186232006,0.0,0.0,0.11669832152985375,0.08222989334365745,0.09839561926255462,0.0,0.0,0.12097668502111687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21077086201268552,0.09411837507911862,0.11329993732283625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698561734886227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517679521043819,0.10399560259250476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26813081280056944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.384239852441501,0.0,0.07104487259500902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495382744634274,0.0,0.0,0.07891874158624071,0.16417542502233756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212177421929218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929332146565417,0.0,0.0,0.10061361356850293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818372305169904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544400299377771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849506852557904,0.09018035915874206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898277708711759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070937444161708,0.0,0.0,0.08449593547485862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226103950251196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627769574451694,0.2534447505125902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121393862705854,0.11636780788144024,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asadghoul,2019/05/03,"Can’t get comfortable because... bones? Does anyone else have this problem? I literally have to arch my back whenever I sit, or my spine rubs against the chair painfully. Even laying down hurts. 

Definitely one of my reasons to recover.",4.152195121951216,7.408848121951222,4.588487804878049,76.77053658536586,79.97560975609754,8.158048780487805,32.590243902439035,8.841846274778883,3.626527804878049,187,10,30,5,5,59,36,41,0.204,0.674,0.122,-0.6105,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,4,3,1,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,5,1,5,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282479718340809,0.3344668814346021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510050990770554,0.0,0.1989891567228665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28566175103175423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726910067872066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560443318900616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054659509415376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34945087163580035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22119792578770894,0.0,0.3473453354243525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31235014442320297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33562518023073457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spinchxx,2019/05/03,"Relapsing Ugh. I don’t want to relapse. Fuck. 

I’ve gotten my period back and my hair is so MUCH THICKER. So many people have commented on it. I’m trying to use this as motivation to power through.

I can’t stop emotionally eating. It’s not even that I’m hungry or have extreme hunger — I’m just emotionally eating. I can’t stop. I’ve gained so much fucking weight and I want it all off.

I keep telling myself that I’m just going to restrict until I lose 10 lbs, maybe 15. God. I don’t know. I really need some motivation. What do you guys do when you’re feeling like this?",-0.0190651260504211,2.307573453781515,2.6803728991596643,89.09266018907564,91.77310924369749,5.6640756302521025,19.202205882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.5847684873949581,447,14,95,8,16,155,75,119,0.152,0.711,0.136,-0.5994,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,5,8,5,2,0,0,0,9,7,1,3,1,20,24,9,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,2,4,4,4,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,1,3,12,1,9,23,4,9,0,1,0,2,4,2,2,2,7,54,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672703472514355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638936836768645,0.0,0.4000308382965919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744364928012264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990747282426373,0.12702946942547996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32877005798593034,0.0,0.0,0.10105508773517728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606258552210274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804814879256826,0.0,0.0,0.09772124126958504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687033160334794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19892699280478748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027422720230493,0.17863681448171412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614256721952716,0.1318459065654717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327297727699922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11391140555550433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29731885425323995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541618739467433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072319034840158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357313153412194,0.0,0.0,0.2097571425853413,0.0,0.0,0.2165280354949278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,she-demon,2019/05/03,"My Lil sister makes me feel way worse about myself I’ve been restricting for two weeks and I lost 6 pounds already and it’s the first time that my BED hasn’t jump in and ruined it. I’ve also been working out and my entire family has noticed my determination. But my sister keeps ruining it by saying I must secretly be hiding snacks or I’ll restrict all day and make myself my first meal at like 5pm and she’ll be snarky and say “aren’t you supposed to be on a diet?” I mean she’s my baby sister (two years apart) so I should probably brush it off, but at the same time that shit hurts. It also does one of two things it either makes me stop eating altogether or like tonight binge to my hearts content.",2.154357218124339,3.9967464589041133,3.6612328767123294,88.81659114857746,77.56164383561644,6.410115911485772,20.134878819810325,7.321109707123232,0.4425106427818757,557,13,118,7,13,184,96,146,0.163,0.7909999999999999,0.046,-0.9377,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,4,4,7,1,0,3,0,11,6,2,3,2,27,18,14,0,2,5,3,1,2,0,3,0,2,1,0,9,8,4,4,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,6,3,4,19,2,12,9,3,18,0,4,0,0,9,7,1,2,11,76,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115023047199526,0.2480574414210456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000228840258868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357239194001244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870001554041674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14620894389927558,0.0,0.07842025280702829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638459775884267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837872922564667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660314752146443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785478998194192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154231682344504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693035652742184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105796107647181,0.0,0.0,0.16894297631184696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17657569636213336,0.0,0.0,0.1050957971889925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721770521490906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24667415635313375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920189694485934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966563836361514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303764925529103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087327030814812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545132904585672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310650233264787,0.12440715693878268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291037469749865,0.0,0.15805416978550824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987553555117247
EDAnonymous,milkydewy,2019/05/03,"How tf do people eat normally I feel like it's impossible for me to break this restrict/binge cycle. If I eat anything, I feel so guilty that it turns into a full out binge. 
Wouldn't it be nice to eat a couple almonds without feeling like such a fatty lolllll",3.5017924528301885,4.819954226415099,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,72.77358490566039,7.564150943396226,28.34433962264151,8.07648339933343,1.9254943396226407,206,8,40,3,4,71,41,53,0.14300000000000002,0.76,0.09699999999999999,-0.3222,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,10,7,3,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,6,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320974798345654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24634154446960635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6834339781303467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377130440686413,0.3181011726723103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21753656437704225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21813516431546087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15434717159715616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421630977346889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146123272859375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,syhnjtjbts,2019/05/03,"i’m lying to myself about my ed I honestly don’t know if this is a common thing with people who suffer from eds or not, but I have this thing where it’s almost like i’m lying to myself and ignoring all my fucked up eating habits. I’m convinced that I don’t have an ED but at the same time i kinda know that I have one (and i’ve been diagnosed). idk??? it’s really hard to explain. for example (tw), I haven’t eaten anything in 2 days, but i was convincing myself that I wasn’t fasting, just on a little quick diet thing. my brother noticed that i haven’t eaten anything and he postmated pho (which is my fave food) to my place and when he told me, I was fine and convincing myself that i’m not afraid of food and that i want to eat the pho, but as soon as i tasted it, it tasted good, but i immediately started crying, and panicking about getting fat and regaining all the weight that i just lost. 
Im really bad at explaining it, but basically it’s almost like i don’t want to see the truth and want to hide my ed from myself, which doesn’t make any sense, since i should only be concerned about hiding it from others. idk man. anyways I still ate everything cause i can’t say no to pho but I feel like i’m 2 years pregnant. sucks cause i was actually starting to like my body :/",3.1621091908876693,3.997453380597016,4.92523173605656,84.87412804399058,73.02985074626865,8.030164964650433,24.17989002356638,8.371475516178862,1.3219820895522392,998,27,215,16,19,341,136,268,0.188,0.6709999999999999,0.141,-0.9479,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,1,11,18,2,1,7,0,19,15,2,3,3,43,44,21,0,5,13,1,3,4,0,1,2,1,0,1,23,10,12,1,5,0,0,0,11,7,0,1,10,7,33,11,25,32,3,19,0,2,1,1,9,8,2,5,15,140,56,0,0.0,0.0,0.12555007891450226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576615828414605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749075783920361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117464954635556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10742271268023408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429082471283124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26433110761567913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413230045066995,0.08297272885348551,0.0,0.0,0.13058352888352728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632952146245054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562806860855958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505253708836613,0.09191215158798652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111436378794675,0.0,0.0,0.11894076053321193,0.0672176543110879,0.0,0.0,0.10791087688675056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525085583455358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389709800555858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414123759086522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25142005624165914,0.12894750324025311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14044364899326914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587914016667299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464761541226794,0.0,0.0,0.08718090033823007,0.0978489829950815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919414231539967,0.0,0.13441854569861367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164841157290043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231272618050967,0.0,0.0,0.10252248659613986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642589630830088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212731178008415,0.0,0.10274516021343594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564207686057274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750205763424952,0.0,0.0,0.12293669525074508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22765461872542125,0.0,0.0,0.15666882426155215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285049777448282
EDAnonymous,Incatceivable,2019/05/03,"The sangria trick Who ever made the recommendation in the comment about seltzer + wine + vodka is the mvp.

I just did red wine, cherry seltzer, vodka, and angostura bitters and I’m  in h e a v e n",-0.5518699186991861,1.6678221463414682,2.9042682926829286,86.4113617886179,95.82926829268294,4.684552845528454,23.90650406504065,6.42735559955562,0.8736308943089433,152,7,32,2,6,55,30,41,0.08199999999999999,0.9179999999999999,0.0,-0.1531,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,5,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6910124821852225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7228428248687382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wizardkd,2019/05/03,i fucked up so much i just binged over 1000 cals and im supposed to be fasting until tomorrow night so to fix it i had 18 pieces of chocolate lax i wanna die i feel so shitty and disgusting,-0.09829268292683224,2.102641121951219,2.2860487804878065,93.27785365853659,89.0,5.231219512195122,20.39512195121951,6.742157984588678,0.3896985365853656,150,5,33,2,5,51,32,41,0.33799999999999997,0.662,0.0,-0.9506,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,4,6,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,5,0,7,2,2,6,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4749330564422826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313843490909197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230585260490631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4943036997774461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364003407970022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294415228285994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,M4rwic,2019/08/20,"HOW TO HELP MY GF WITH EATING DISORDER? PLEASE... I’m gonna go straight to the point. (English is not primary language so...)
My (21M) gf (18F) is a model and have a ton of pressure of the agency’s.
She has about everything you can imagine that is related to ED.
I don’t know the fancy terms or the correct names of everything but 
She has eating disorder, anorexia, body dysmophia, binge eating, purging and the list go on...

I know everything there is to know about food, body, and every other subject related, technical parts, biology behind, physiology and it doesn’t matter what  I know, because her brain just ignore it all and think “he’s making all this up and I’m right no matter what proof he has” and keep doing all the shits, throwing up, taking laxatives...

She’s current living in other city so there is a distance gap between us.
I read already so much about all this but i just don’t find anything that can REALLY help me help her.
She doesn’t have the money to pay for therapy, I don’t have too, her parents don’t think is a serious thing, so... 

Anyone please tell me what to do, she’s killing herself and even don’t care as long as she is skinny (and she already is).
She is 5,11” and weight 119 pounds (1,80 cm height and 54 kilograms).

What can i do to help her? Actual things beside the other shit I already read about like:
“Say positive things, be an example etc”

I’m fucking lost and her brain don’t let her help herself about anything... just a week ago she was scared saying that she is never going to take laxatives because of the addiction and the cons of taking it. And what happen? She is addicted all the sudden.

I need people who actually went thru all this and managed to fix/help/cure all of her problems, a doctor, a therapist, a nutritionist. 
I just want her to be healthy, with her body and especially with her mind, herself...
I love this girl so fucking much and i feel crippled not been able to help her...


TL;DR: GF has every possible disease related to eating disorder and i wanna do something to help her before she kills herself.",2.7229065200314224,4.9510454278607,4.1517098716941625,84.13915946582877,77.30845771144278,7.017648599109718,26.001832940560355,8.032893268588372,1.7528049751243788,1610,62,306,28,38,532,193,402,0.114,0.743,0.142,0.9386,2,0,1,0,0,0,77.0,1,1,0,1,19,15,6,2,20,0,38,20,8,2,10,61,66,29,2,4,9,1,2,1,3,1,3,2,0,1,22,21,7,2,9,2,2,5,12,12,0,0,4,4,47,3,38,58,13,20,0,1,0,3,50,8,4,1,8,216,69,6,0.07313033720230183,0.0,0.14272931986296206,0.159445723987405,0.0,0.0,0.06482563149778475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24210343681132104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0511344321368828,0.0,0.12036007281787575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915914957454739,0.0,0.0622285306553139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436939557320667,0.0,0.16327528394474686,0.0,0.0,0.07456125265922846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25144110644738044,0.07485199892427212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29932236786660776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155965711217493,0.04830189801348387,0.0,0.12323092635703968,0.0,0.19717449481819446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03697689581025869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683980333513898,0.0,0.08842949402777008,0.0,0.0,0.1352156366739475,0.0,0.0,0.1246849677640509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466891567134801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39214178804283395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500160384143151,0.16181576590693364,0.0,0.1607620832113713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747807245212886,0.0,0.03572778880102979,0.0,0.06457542755951942,0.06471804714653147,0.0,0.0,0.07983040183324983,0.0,0.06600298452406972,0.0,0.04881506794891136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384079345859675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751842465627176,0.054225218404368766,0.056402624392698386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120258507123305,0.07919302869075677,0.0,0.0506993678478952,0.0,0.0,0.1605502992400522,0.06913180647011274,0.08244346716051881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699758562348328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463002546202804,0.0,0.04684916662110061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062452908393391876,0.0,0.11631235876015708,0.07321622522997805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013448045395772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05629930640334931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649547371801157,0.0,0.06391913806490172,0.0,0.08363091396291629,0.08490995801211985,0.14575363957658946,0.09371793441128122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796679135344282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313416762362022,0.0,0.05866074534974699,0.08905304928485525,0.0,0.0677925552480304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Be11a_a,2019/08/20,"Someone called me skinny today I just kind of looked at her with this dumb look on my face. I kinda laughed but it didn’t come out right. Nothing happened though, all of this time I’ve expected something amazing to happen now that someone thinks I’m skinny. It’s also weird because these past few weeks have been pretty rough, with the beginning of school overeating got pretty bad. I haven’t been restricting hard lately and I was feeling down about it. 

If anyone was wondering, validation doesn’t make you feel any different. I don’t feel any different, I still have self esteem issues and I still struggle with eating. It’s a losing battle until you get help.",4.372938181818179,6.714238832000003,4.512218181818182,82.95210909090913,72.68,6.785454545454545,25.763636363636365,7.686295010490155,1.56956,534,18,92,7,11,166,92,125,0.171,0.679,0.15,-0.2579,2,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,7,9,2,1,2,0,10,4,3,1,1,20,25,7,0,2,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,7,3,1,5,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,6,7,12,3,14,19,2,17,0,1,2,0,6,6,1,3,10,58,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645204604022345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980528207963544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182070154191054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12158639260513646,0.08876843624916776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486940263199062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254385039571001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042832500306118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14900533852502146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088913369551252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608029906479986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646540126674668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575420939059132,0.0,0.1304466760887934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976058359647372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198916567058354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164054096968638,0.0,0.0,0.16426539899327547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445677970651444,0.16291123058328796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09720230100666542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972605900497542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901051018153648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29629523474660324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435845437620785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737494174793878,0.0,0.0,0.1519131376168547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24676625055846876,0.1121051830392236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258421010414665,0.0,0.0,0.1522333599744797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330724357387113,0.14307064607376252,0.0,0.08491203602160198,0.0,0.13803047784772626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680736433121397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791838623641485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spaghetti_girl,2019/08/20,"what are your favorite food documentaries? im on a kick! 

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currently watching ""food choices"" on hulu, a doc supporting plant based diets for humans. not sure if i love it yet. the last thing i watched was ""food, inc."" which basically trashed gmo's, the meat industry, and food corporations that control a large portion of the food industry in the US.",5.870625000000004,7.9795285625,5.995750000000001,74.87425000000003,68.0625,9.495,36.2375,9.888512548439397,3.968910000000001,284,15,48,7,5,90,51,64,0.083,0.821,0.096,0.2173,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,7,0,2,7,0,1,1,5,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,3,5,3,1,6,0,0,2,1,4,3,0,1,3,27,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534245917260664,0.17421150323855591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080280958208978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8668241378735795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548653230348812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686653099569112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939795887375088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16269575426969576,0.13512550606601922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524934665519126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245770523691406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421150323855591,0.0
EDAnonymous,rose-starling,2019/08/20,Back to school season Can’t wait until my friends and gf ask why I’m not eating at lunch,5.2905000000000015,3.5933030499999994,5.780000000000005,89.24500000000003,68.5,8.0,25.0,3.1291,0.33799999999999963,71,1,17,0,1,23,20,20,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,8,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4202897991117257,0.0,0.0,0.3456936660861621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600251216913145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34733876310829404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549915874353816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40566944722132775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,browncat330,2019/08/20,Peach 503 I got the 503 error message for the first time since I joined. It feels like an ED initiation ceremony 🎉🍑🎉,2.3412000000000006,3.70525932,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,75.8,8.200000000000001,24.5,8.841846274778883,1.5726,93,3,21,2,2,33,21,25,0.11199999999999999,0.785,0.10300000000000001,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745319795437899,0.3878837943753529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46183323777506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.434246944924815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652580853352205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4491340890909715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165986793388953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whateverwhatver,2019/08/20,"Bulimia cheeks make a drastic difference to your face shape. Hopefully this will convince some of y'all to stop purging. I was bulimic for 4 years, consistently purging everyday or even multiple times a day. As you guys may know, purging causes your salivary glands under your jaw to swell and gives the appearance of ""chipmunk cheeks"" 

A year ago I was forced to stop purging because I had gotten all 4 of my wisdom teeth out at once and lemme tell you, my face shape *completely* changed. It's actually scary how different I look with and without bulimia cheeks. I look so much prettier and feel so much more confident. My boyfriend even makes comments on how drastically different I look after I purge. Not wanting bulimia cheeks is probably the only thing that stops me from binging and purging now. Although I still slip up from time to time, seeing my face puff up afterwards really motivates me to not do it again. When I have bulimia cheeks, I look like I have a double chin, but without, I actually have a distinct jawline. It's wild lol. 

It takes a few days for my swollen glands to start to go down after a purge and a few weeks for it to completely subside.

ALSO. I lost a lot of weight as a result from not purging anymore because it caused me to binge less frequently and become more restrictive. Honestly, without b/p it's been *a lot* easier to live with an ED.",4.6132303732303725,6.6136526138996174,5.348185328185327,78.68577863577866,71.12355212355212,9.257657657657658,32.41055341055341,9.725611199111238,3.4084460746460747,1093,52,196,28,21,354,150,259,0.048,0.857,0.095,0.9142,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,6,0,2,11,6,0,0,14,1,11,14,10,8,2,41,29,18,0,2,8,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,10,10,1,4,3,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,6,7,27,5,37,21,12,33,0,1,5,0,10,9,0,7,23,135,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.21210882849410967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633681969890827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691005500319739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777974249655008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249865398325789,0.12002672369545417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328525021912932,0.11496730757519305,0.0,0.2278944111688176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017711869426264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406373038852971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356207976775556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05495105041622213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425419751793344,0.061764423429026064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760867489119888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079421454142191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05972679118939244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309476311207394,0.0,0.0959649937539586,0.0,0.3650498452831089,0.0,0.11863528129554728,0.18478893137912072,0.0,0.0,0.1450873147219532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597822165569781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573891954029555,0.0,0.0826547993114381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717366650628687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962214811552297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866025920263218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692311122472917,0.0,0.08679068844374174,0.272579956424167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171261072221947,0.0,0.09498968751702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220108143401778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011369843657103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06410131969730504,0.0,0.08717523481981447,0.13234097924501145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31428621788182337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399706171038456
EDAnonymous,2LOSEYOURMIND4,2019/08/20,"My advice on Purging. If your never done it. Don’t try it. Don’t even let yourself consider trying it. 

I tried it once a year ago, and for the past 6 months I’ve been purging non stop. It’s never helped me lose weight, it just hurts me physically and mentally. My teeth are starting to decay and eating is so painful because my brain screams at me to throw it all up. 

It only takes 1 time to get you hooked. Please please don’t let purging take over your life because it’s fucked mine up royally.",2.2454901960784355,4.070336882352944,3.2907843137254917,91.65519607843142,77.23529411764707,6.101960784313726,24.07843137254902,6.937597516519254,0.7388549019607842,390,13,84,4,9,125,72,102,0.17,0.767,0.063,-0.9097,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,1,3,6,1,0,2,0,9,7,2,0,3,9,14,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,2,11,0,9,10,1,16,0,2,0,1,4,5,1,1,10,50,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828130253174846,0.1435821595421115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19747841930840446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081904739670232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575792570055736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574212616430314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698377580781199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497444195215465,0.08462589764257684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856925623589783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339891000365232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312633497216997,0.11440860522701456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812099754290553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323394800558547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928788570496302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24985211642474944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724994043046518,0.0,0.12319022590477527,0.1723541345754806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462464462508801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556025317054824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464761306076016,0.0,0.0,0.1354193855599466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24357194156894355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444964540513387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299136941895881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972434179922574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043073849594804
EDAnonymous,k_e_r_a,2019/08/20,"My boss is thinspo. I love going to work, too busy to eat and my boss is super thin and gorgeous.  Sometimes I hate it  because myself next to her is like Rob and Big, but she makes me want to push myself harder!",3.2446969696969674,3.830423772727276,4.343636363636366,90.0437878787879,72.63636363636363,5.866666666666667,23.75757575757576,3.1291,0.1552212121212122,162,4,35,0,3,53,33,44,0.092,0.69,0.218,0.6588,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,8,8,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,4,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,22,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271443440991968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38128101965817934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176727501282996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678829208086757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204222880208504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33630210022974777,0.0,0.24872526587172716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962832431331657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685285185990605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21977962463493494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27127018638309786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HateIsExhausting,2019/08/20,"Thank God for European Labels So I traversed my whole Eastern European city to go to the ONE store that has walden farms zero calorie products. 
It’s like it says 0 cal per 30 grams for the peanut butter.

And I’m all like but what is it really though?

And I try looking it up online and in these stupid ass suburbs my internet isn’t working so I take another look at the bootle 👀

And there it is. The gorgeous white label that tells me 11.9 per 100.

I am so grateful for the EU.",0.5834848484848507,2.9444143434343464,2.407297979797981,92.49761363636364,87.38383838383841,5.3202020202020215,21.381313131313128,6.816661863887847,0.5754101010101014,376,13,79,5,12,124,72,99,0.086,0.753,0.162,0.7391,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,5,0,5,1,1,0,1,6,11,9,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,5,7,4,8,11,2,4,0,0,3,1,2,3,1,0,2,48,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017023278118698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351943548510334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811335461190922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4832291901276438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496834128764848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843225229843303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22880863169159044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633165559563972,0.0,0.25148231323713666,0.2648963964909649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826860823988516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19534482011893406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32123210858098417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20946554531910316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SkinnyisSexy,2019/08/20,"I love my boyfriend but.. Relapse again, woot.
My boyfriend, being thoughtful got me a drink on his way home, and me being rhe shit that I am fasted today.  So he says he got me a treat and pulls out a strawberita. . You know those shitty 8% sugar shits you can buy. Well shit now I have to eat so I don't make myself ill (I have stomach issues for the whole next day if I drink without eating,  no matterthe amount)  so I drink half of the huge ass can like 25floz I think so like 1million calories and eat some veg and polenta but man..  sugary drinks make me feel so guilty.  Sorry im tipsy and on mobile so grammar errors are real. Send help.",0.5305,2.9011184153846195,1.8295192307692325,96.41735576923081,87.92307692307692,3.865384615384616,17.35576923076923,5.148860815047168,-0.6627307692307691,494,12,105,2,16,157,91,130,0.151,0.6970000000000001,0.151,-0.6123,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,0,9,8,3,0,5,0,9,15,5,2,0,18,18,14,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,6,8,0,4,4,1,2,3,3,1,1,3,3,18,5,7,13,3,13,0,0,0,2,10,4,4,2,8,62,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702241378516685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.528742767007513,0.0,0.4142189626274809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822758367119683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584093640423116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044460760022224,0.0,0.13535158722151328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575379522448156,0.14083789470874913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415717465672661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318456104221073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217848077965302,0.0,0.1801413590794445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350573060646396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358645644805352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730634650923344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155289107960576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510495560008215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646139800847567,0.0,0.10712393517754994,0.0,0.0,0.12790333981995708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710573975115203,0.0,0.0,0.12132346946484733,0.0,0.0,0.15065097718754328,0.0,0.13007327469822674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peanutvonstreusel,2019/08/20,"spiraling is restricting for 3 days, losing control and eating 5 slices of pizza and drinking 3 heavy IPA's, and then puking in the shower after so your boyfriend can't hear you


when it's been awhile
and you know it's emerging
but you are giddy 
because you know you're about to drop weight",4.9036206896551695,5.982228155172415,4.916724137931039,85.63818965517244,69.17241379310346,7.179310344827586,26.568965517241374,7.1686216300943375,1.2449172413793101,235,7,45,2,4,73,46,58,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.7935,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,0,9,7,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,4,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,6,6,0,6,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002694371264839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684754315264844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211875304502788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218352890093553,0.0,0.3361692121227043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702782932738775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611040714234599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36754213354528703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4000622289418136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,A_Depressed_Vegan,2019/08/20,I just threw away 95+ dollars worth of food and poured dish soap on it after finding out a bunch of shady shit about my ex. It’s real relapse hours :( The only thing I have in my dorm now is raw vegetables and coffee. I’m going to be fucking skinny one way or another. I feel so powerful right now and like I have all the control i need at my fingertips.,2.152799999999999,3.47006528,4.074333333333332,88.11550000000004,76.2,7.133333333333333,24.5,7.793537801064563,1.1873999999999998,276,9,60,4,6,94,61,75,0.085,0.81,0.105,0.1321,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,2,0,3,0,4,6,2,1,1,12,10,5,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,4,1,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,1,8,1,10,8,2,13,0,0,0,1,1,6,2,1,5,39,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28108193514150176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25184909069165257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30064957274592985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553805836309804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449999375800141,0.0,0.3241365090259933,0.0,0.0,0.2478150809245654,0.0,0.0,0.1523434031574963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639828987861625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13095948206541835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987614334787952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816428764667454,0.2038700066369732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051084177062214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289198635332809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751574399119303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808566560892833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21277177388216573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bella2401x,2019/08/20,"Boyfriend is studying with a girl that is definitely into him Just saw them together in the library, looks like I’m not eating for the rest of the day. Why is this what my brain goes to. Ahhhhh",1.9226923076923088,4.23171094871795,3.643269230769232,86.30798076923078,80.53846153846153,6.976923076923077,22.57051282051281,8.07648339933343,1.223405128205128,153,5,32,3,4,51,35,39,0.0,0.871,0.129,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,2,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,6,5,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5281696635392232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30512977251095963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4841302079112271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311474674443212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3973101219512904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269263232938829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imsodumb321,2019/08/20,"My parents are forcing me to recover I have some things to get off my chest. 

My parents weighed me at the end of June and found that my weight was scarily low.  I, truly, genuinely, was not trying to lose weight, as the scale number never really triggered me. If anything, I've been trying to gain some muscle. But alas. 

My parents have been freaking out since, which is completely understandable since my weight is dangerously low \[even though I feel perfectly fine--I don't feel tired, lightheaded, cold, etc\]. Consequently, they are now forcing me to go back into recovery and they have set up appointments with a psychologist and a nutritionist despite my protests. I've been through this before and I found it really not helpful because 1. I hated my therapist as she said nothing useful to me to help me overcome my insecurities and food issues and 2. I didnt want to gain weight so I ignored everything my nutritionist said to me. 

This is also upsetting because my parents have been micromanaging everything I eat/do because of my weight. I was really looking forward to going back to school in order to finally cook for myself again and get some control back into my life but going into ""recovery"" again really throws a wrench into those plans.

Also, I just....don't want to recover. While I still have some disordered tendencies and a low weight, I don't feel super isolated or impaired because of my ED. So I  know that going to a nutritionist/psychologist would be pretty pointless because I dont have any motivation to change my eating habits, so I'm not going to. And now I'm going to waste my time shuffling between these various appointments when I could be doing things that I actually enjoy doing or would help advance my career.

Also, I'm turning 21 in a few months. The way my parents have been treating makes me feel like I'm 15. It just feels so infuriating and stifling to be put in this position again. I feel so suffocated by them all the time. I know they're doing this out of concern for me, and I know I'm very privileged to be complaining about this kind of stuff, but I just feel so trapped in this situation. 

Anyways, thanks for reading my little vent.",5.9540231092437015,7.258942938725497,6.751680672268907,72.60970588235296,66.91666666666667,9.946218487394958,33.19887955182073,10.125756701596842,3.5728379551820737,1741,76,299,42,28,576,195,408,0.11900000000000001,0.7809999999999999,0.1,-0.6881,5,1,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,3,9,25,20,3,2,10,0,34,13,1,5,3,60,70,31,0,6,11,5,13,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,17,18,10,2,14,2,0,10,8,12,0,0,13,17,53,8,47,50,8,48,0,4,1,0,15,18,0,7,20,215,70,4,0.0,0.0,0.06719655689714676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519981268347878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04682655509217242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566651791588189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884521216320308,0.0,0.20987936721899814,0.0,0.05859402966146611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728438064519579,0.0,0.0721974652133467,0.0,0.07723134544556913,0.054978395059020996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891850406954544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08070236238252414,0.0,0.0,0.14092011748005667,0.0,0.0,0.060988731707400684,0.0,0.07679610811446498,0.04548079177031805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237722534042115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437206398665235,0.0491929609054822,0.0,0.07543178760783772,0.0,0.0,0.08326470738497407,0.15100091667988166,0.0,0.0,0.0719520843229996,0.0,0.2348053094800778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679841137459999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846442691628985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187101916619516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170616522776185,0.11352949571036265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04863722477331387,0.03364108222869265,0.06901491670211776,0.0,0.0,0.05782430857078221,0.07703572898753037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04596398965561544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496268348889901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05310838954170435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607217179235503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38229945558302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005446868982625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922242310426689,0.0,0.0,0.06887774280083163,0.0,0.17645163269670264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100156161292226,0.0,0.0,0.06968909406305801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392193232280826,0.07740052309164559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499097303547067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788272048902237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339621563811472,0.0,0.07995073233970283,0.0914938639954109,0.0,0.06765372453174434,0.0,0.08030459988939,0.07914341569199664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350162934716306,0.07489893670957835,0.0,0.07168476044549274,0.0,0.059472160986411136,0.0,0.056815976061440024,0.08122977259933843,0.054657155237825036,0.0,0.5031110607586134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783107009649644,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NyanDerp,2019/08/20,"It frickin sucks when you're told that you'll gain all of your weight back after you have kids because ""the only thing keeping you skinny is your metabolism"" (Thanks, coworker.) Nope. Not because of your ED. The crazy weight you suddenly lost over the course of a year as a young adult was the magical metabolism kicking in that you somehow didn't have when you were an overweight kid/preteen.",8.018972602739726,7.94993497260274,6.8836643835616425,78.21535958904111,62.28767123287671,10.03972602739726,36.05821917808219,9.516144504307137,3.2133863013698623,315,13,58,5,4,95,53,73,0.133,0.8220000000000001,0.045,-0.6801,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,9,0,2,4,3,1,0,7,0,7,4,1,0,1,4,12,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,2,9,1,7,6,1,9,0,1,0,0,12,2,1,1,7,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21175564918639025,0.0,0.33574678935082025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447766706676258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006175051691045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20944426723578846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535394038433447,0.0,0.0,0.1829549248265695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263144135636811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6706944945519304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17734023661103482
EDAnonymous,Tavrey,2019/08/20,"DAE hate being skinny? Possible TW  I really hate being skinny, I get made fun of all the time for being skin and bones. I wish it was just as easy as “eating a burger”.  It’s just so hard to eat

I. Hate. Being. Skinny.",-0.8044927536231903,1.302932608695656,2.5347826086956537,90.54463768115944,92.47826086956522,4.8057971014492775,9.840579710144928,6.42735559955562,-0.9579159420289852,164,1,35,2,6,59,34,46,0.23199999999999998,0.609,0.159,-0.6207,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,2,0,5,7,5,1,1,6,11,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,4,1,5,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787165802560298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12221340843784972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20954613875296454,0.6928419382455002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213405120635872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637093575387073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14985497403717568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13640048037611838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26899615443970554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheExtremeCabinet,2019/08/20,Ana Buddy Who wants to be my Ana buddy?,-1.2299999999999969,0.5112237777777793,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,89.0,3.6,9.0,3.1291,-1.913533333333333,30,0,7,0,1,11,7,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietcokehoe,2019/08/20,Sitting here with my hands over a candle It’s 100 degrees outside and I’m sitting on my couch holding my hands and face over a candle like a 16th century peasant lmao,1.521470588235296,4.064806735294121,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,84.58823529411767,4.576470588235295,29.088235294117645,5.985473137389443,1.3812000000000006,135,7,25,1,4,44,25,34,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,4,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TorriRain,2019/08/20,"I only ever eat 500 calories, and I always consider it a binge. Every single day I never have any more than 500 calories, but any time I get even close to 500 I consider it a binge. Like, logically there is absolutely no way I can gain by eating just 500 calories a day but that really doesn’t stop me from thinking I’ll weigh 5+ lbs heavier the next day.",3.7279729729729714,4.36868287837838,5.809027027027027,79.77516216216219,71.56756756756756,8.622702702702702,26.962162162162162,8.841846274778883,1.9656410810810807,279,9,57,5,5,98,54,74,0.08900000000000001,0.802,0.109,0.3384,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,0,2,10,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,4,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753344824373498,0.0,0.0,0.3228764085850993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593045716661008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858331062341673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679858018064774,0.2147393155431392,0.20001733970925709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240302138962266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598025724437695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309531896176512,0.0,0.25247456473513635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18055123188680308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208269469627278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984746493045804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521145095483596,0.0,0.0,0.13842818863203027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18843480960675216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inathrowfarfaraway_,2019/01/19,"Do you log any calories for c/s? Pretty self explanatory. I was c/s some pretty high calorie candy and I don’t know how to log it, if at all. Any tips?",-2.8043137254901964,-1.3072941764705879,1.1964705882352966,96.57745098039216,108.41176470588236,3.443137254901962,14.490196078431374,5.46131890053228,-0.9069450980392156,114,3,28,1,6,42,27,34,0.0,0.8,0.2,0.7757,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,6,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665954283972174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624697270111751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18854096634707607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6980461143282553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578942993111185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jaredkushnerswife,2019/01/19,"Reached my goal weight but wondering how to keep it there Previously when I reached my goal, I gained about 5lbs back in the months following.  

So now I’m back to the ideal weight I want but I don’t want to gain 5lbs when I go back to eating normally.  

Should I lose 5 extra lbs as like a buffer? Would this work? ",2.7506153846153865,3.995307446153853,3.640000000000004,92.12000000000003,74.53846153846153,7.661538461538463,22.23076923076923,8.238735603445708,0.819061538461539,244,6,57,4,5,78,45,65,0.05,0.644,0.307,0.9465,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,11,10,7,0,6,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,8,2,7,8,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,8,35,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145019801789809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22822116733380346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675630890269488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982443478981432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896396048905167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951986005025625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802494079541345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185275978207103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26310442903943804,0.0,0.0,0.5431947102992756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418726658192387,0.16237262126163884,0.0,0.0,0.1584381379904637,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DopamineDarling,2019/01/19,"Confession: I Plan to Keep Myself on My Medication Longer than Needed Because It Made Me Lose Weight A few months ago I went to rehab for an opioid relapse; the cravings were absolutely unbearable. I was put on Naltrexone to reduce cravings, prevent pleasure from use, and reduce the risk of overdose in case of a relapse.

Right now I 100% do need this medication to not relapse; but ever since I've been on it not only has my appetite been suppressed to nothing, I've also lost a ton of weight, more than if I had just been restricting.

I plan to tell my doctor I think I need to stay on it to prevent me from relapsing even when I don't *really* think I need it for that reason anymore just for the weight loss.

I'm *critically* underweight and any more weight loss at this rate will probably bring me close to death (I didn't see any rules about numbers, so I'll spare them unless I'm told it's ok) but ever since getting sober my ED has come back full force and I can't talk myself out of this.",3.377400000000001,4.99882654,4.5070000000000014,85.01350000000002,73.6,7.4,26.0,8.07648339933343,1.54365,788,27,158,12,16,258,119,200,0.094,0.87,0.036000000000000004,-0.9195,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,6,11,7,0,1,7,1,13,8,0,3,2,31,31,10,1,5,8,0,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,6,4,5,4,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,11,5,22,2,29,19,5,22,1,4,1,0,5,10,0,1,7,103,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726898728580106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677248651433218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645833163207845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200104369613144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305002168121168,0.0,0.0737672079789287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424029757599597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238599290960848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992665191492222,0.21892283088394265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06322327486381515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756017419223238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538040249811525,0.13209784712338504,0.0,0.0,0.11450357380229845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438117874819029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658985915883396,0.0,0.0,0.3589126170741145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611335842127915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203435035700652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304703703316876,0.0,0.0,0.121649520617471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752277212757963,0.1244195054684655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334276861832008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643013306878144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20020316876239705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289816696699135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726409168954676,0.10576898442767364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507797891886016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156312363819698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451468685493072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5894353940431966,0.0,0.11217844823033374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatgentleman28101,2019/01/19,"My house is full of binge food Yesterday was my birthday so we have a cake, and my mom bought Oreos and Swedish fish and potato chips and granola and white bread and popcorn and tortilla chips. Those are all my worst fear/binge foods, and it almost feels intentional.

I can’t go in the kitchen because it makes me so anxious. I know that if allow myself to eat something I’m just going to eat it all. 

Would it be weird if I asked her not to do this? I’ve been fasting for two days because of it and I’m feeling super lightheaded and tingly and I’m getting heart palpitations and I want to eat but I just can’t right now.",1.9705989583333328,3.980129445312503,2.9512500000000017,92.90208333333337,78.765625,5.5166666666666675,23.947916666666664,6.42735559955562,0.5277635416666664,491,17,106,4,12,156,85,128,0.048,0.9,0.052000000000000005,-0.1048,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,10,8,1,3,2,30,23,17,0,4,6,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,13,7,0,3,0,1,2,3,2,0,1,3,3,13,1,8,18,4,9,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,3,4,67,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765622408779258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991950568293739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648384143084786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149700038423813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371389383369587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5412680376392148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984126498856184,0.1783086418464416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4264214892501922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212160804760644,0.0,0.20041710527169432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20894387162667102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203453329051806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690263369089888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11769712244473088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20650763109679116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505790714846384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574223365300467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224217091438426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400000699910923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525496070204242,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookyoneoverthere,2019/01/19,"Fuck plateaus Basically the title. I've been having a 10 day plateau and it's starting to make me super paranoid. I weigh all my food, so I know logically that I'm not underestimating calories, but I'm still freaking out. I'd been losing steadily and even though I know this happens, I hate it so much. And I know I could eat more or less it might kick me off the plateau, but the amount of calories I'm eating makes me feel ok, and eating less makes me want to binge and that makes me feel awful.

 Fuuuucckkk youuu plateauuussss🖕🖕🖕

(It doesn't help that I'm waiting to hear back about a job offer, since I've been unemployed for 2 months)

I've missed being here and love you all🖤

Tldr I'm just bitching about goddamn plateaus, lil fuckers",2.74981151299032,4.587259569536428,4.022119205298015,86.91425878757003,75.82119205298014,6.23555781966378,25.522669383596536,7.010146845296331,0.9760989302088636,589,21,123,6,13,193,94,151,0.233,0.6920000000000001,0.075,-0.9791,3,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,10,10,4,0,5,2,8,8,0,4,1,27,31,12,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,7,5,1,6,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,3,3,13,3,9,25,6,7,0,2,0,3,5,2,3,2,5,66,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700198931144888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187112371644807,0.0,0.0,0.10651801229903987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070162804788829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909018191285892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702516697740855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971864433274505,0.0,0.0,0.15269274095715862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460552082803309,0.0,0.0,0.16306662762576965,0.0,0.0,0.18615339758247,0.0,0.11070687890278263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639011634307189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723117355138338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847778229429144,0.0,0.0,0.14906821231978012,0.0,0.4409967195201087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521437716456173,0.0,0.0,0.1318334379599775,0.0,0.12141556529996395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662651679109772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690491263966145,0.0,0.13190129323825234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227415638500492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741882588975896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,c0nstantheadache,2019/01/19,Why does eating anywhere near 500 calories feel like a binge? I can’t weigh myself rn but I ate 468 calories yesterday and I feel like I woke up 10lbs heavier? Also my wrists look fat? Can someone please just reassure me I’m crazy. ,0.6957142857142848,3.2161878260869616,1.8511180124223607,93.49543478260873,94.65217391304348,4.367701863354037,21.7888198757764,6.1826913282559595,0.4796124223602485,184,7,36,2,7,58,39,46,0.064,0.698,0.23800000000000002,0.8171,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,5,8,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,7,3,2,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539884985310763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27793816065915233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32498907053992643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211811288672701,0.4537939629249071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31033139174063834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667080986459146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486347705774145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691055743487759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865889934753844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Future-Scone,2019/01/19,"DAE tell themselves that you'll treat yourself to something you used to love to eat, either later or the next day, but when the time comes you don't actually allow yourself to have it? I used to love pizza, nacho bowls, and McDonalds. I'd pretty much eat one of those things everyday.

Some days I'll daydream about those foods and how amazing they taste, and if I've been somewhat happy with how I ate the past few days I'll tell myself I can treat myself to one of those things later. However, when the time comes, I think about how there's at least a (normal) days calories in one meal and that I shouldn't have it. I won't allow myself to have it and then I forget about it for a little while.

Then, a few days later I go back to daydreaming about those foods again and the cycle continues. I keep telling myself I'll let myself have it, but I never do. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I want those nachos so bad. 😭 Maybe on Sunday...",1.9873904881101367,3.8546739468085134,3.221877346683357,91.66029411764707,78.14893617021276,5.700125156445558,19.037546933667084,6.522977012572876,-0.017400876095118978,714,15,152,6,17,231,103,188,0.073,0.78,0.147,0.9516,1,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,1,0,13,7,0,0,8,0,12,10,0,7,1,30,23,19,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,14,9,8,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,2,1,20,6,19,17,7,30,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,4,23,105,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.128303432020241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109836387260718,0.10977852688714043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265130806875415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239617357483551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26906936230470085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31796711667847066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472190157247974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996063395731712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686356899455715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444502663157865,0.0,0.0,0.1317753629404894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373278159287168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208718895879498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665136008532982,0.0,0.1014038361771758,0.0,0.13982820285346478,0.0,0.12882039400314535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267278415514818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551050082650642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376025761285507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121808523776622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447523519362333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469610500092198,0.08424570815835232,0.0,0.0,0.15333160281696656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22710932573215906,0.0,0.0,0.07754905227265732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,igotmadattumblr,2019/01/19,"Why do people like to discuss your weight? I walked into a group of people at my party and my friend was like ""I was talking about you! You've lost heaps of weight since I last saw you"" and I was like haha no you're wrong. And she's like ""no I'm definitely righr"" and I'm like haha "" I weiyh myself every day that haven't lost weight in 3 months (horrible time for me rn but at least I'm not putting on weight/ ) and shes like ""haha you must have got thicker then"" and fuck now I'm getting worse with resticing and I think I was getting better but I keep thinking about the fact that 7 people we're talking about how fat I used to be??? Sorry this is badly written I'm not used to writing stuff like this I hadn't made myself vomit for 27 days but here we are",-0.03426864707781618,2.105413619631907,1.7275686147885057,97.95681627381336,87.65030674846625,3.9223764933806913,17.167904423635775,4.9825596385082,-0.8175325153374233,592,14,136,2,19,193,96,163,0.133,0.67,0.19699999999999998,0.8443,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,4,0,3,6,17,1,0,2,3,13,7,1,4,2,25,32,12,0,1,5,0,4,7,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,10,5,1,2,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,11,5,22,12,16,19,1,14,0,2,1,1,13,5,1,0,14,76,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023201192035508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616946584078232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483734007467867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114253621639012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274596140695393,0.11097906048107646,0.1254364288532243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601042713709344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670092751891187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785216142637976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105332152724313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620851614859973,0.0,0.0,0.11358885963776863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581824907376292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496708967607736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067772090919995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993019208066497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437981350624734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137422052063479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929741909679541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383913528094315,0.0,0.0,0.06999882161434637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735953824022504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5847266772223796,0.0,0.0,0.10832134760680036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233544091253155,0.0,0.13124964389384491,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bootlegdnyh,2019/01/19,"I say I'll up my MFP goal to 1200 but can't physically do it I even wrote it out kinda on my Twitter as a ""See! I'm getting better!!""

But even the 900 I have it set to feels super high...and I even log 200 calories as ""Nothing"" for over estimation.

I think I'm scared from how long my last binge cycle was and the weight gain, but I'm just so mad at myself. I keep saying I'm recovering because I havent purged in almost 3 weeks but now I'm restricting and fasting which I'm starting to like despite how out of it I feel at times. It also just ends in me bingeing.

Just needed to vent at how dissapointed I am in myself...",1.453030303030307,2.6945174814814834,3.968215488215488,88.47151515151516,77.8888888888889,6.390572390572393,22.643097643097644,6.980632752743323,0.5500370370370375,480,14,111,5,11,169,86,135,0.096,0.8,0.10400000000000001,0.285,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,12,5,1,1,3,0,6,1,0,3,0,23,21,13,0,1,7,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,4,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,6,15,3,20,19,0,20,0,0,1,0,3,11,0,2,9,68,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216409623841864,0.0,0.0,0.17282842038272134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174271417686229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113762927601735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19141521998571476,0.0,0.0,0.42822906058809795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185501606564985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291203853191795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283391241337056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920944234390499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616392817329227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558368693837472,0.0,0.0,0.19125644934917999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024777004970556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073697705216076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437292955012761,0.21637048535365053,0.0,0.17221700274390356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296848912827432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384788336957848,0.0,0.0,0.12601936639245712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335575417420984,0.26317187802926106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smelllykat,2019/01/19,"My dentist called me out for eating a bagel I got my wisdom teeth out today. My appointment was scheduled for the morning but got pushed back by 8 hours. I had already been fasting prior to the surgery so when it got pushed back, my mom took me to the bagel shop next door. She’s in the medical field, so she’s notices my weight loss and eating habits and other symptoms, but there’s been other stuff going on in my life so I’ve been blaming it on that. I’m not sure how much she knows. 

A few weeks ago I wouldn’t have even touched one but I felt trapped so I had one. I felt like crap about it, felt like I undid so much progress but told myself it’s okay because I’ll be able to restrict easily after the procedure.

When I went to the dentist later in the afternoon, they asked what I had to eat so I told them. My dentist says “that’s one of the fattiest things out there! It’s so fattening it’s crazy. You really have to be careful about not indulging too much.”

I felt like he was saying it because of my weight. He’s super fit, vegan, runs triathlons and crap. I’m not skinny so he probably thinks I gorge myself on bagels every day. If only he had seen me a few months ago before this latest round of restriction.... lol

Needless to say I’m hype for my chicken broth and sugar free jello diet for the next few days.",1.693846153846156,3.69464052747253,2.9848534798534807,92.3643131868132,79.62271062271063,5.811721611721612,21.48901098901099,6.844919456158928,0.4264241758241756,1036,30,222,11,26,335,146,273,0.09699999999999999,0.764,0.139,0.9017,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,2,3,21,12,2,0,12,2,14,17,4,1,1,26,34,20,0,2,8,1,8,3,0,1,6,3,1,0,15,7,8,2,6,1,2,6,4,3,0,3,21,13,32,10,27,10,6,37,0,1,2,0,18,10,2,1,24,138,47,0,0.10374618786725144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392947171507654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144864981239002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698868094996672,0.0,0.0,0.15954882919983626,0.0,0.12648542637314986,0.0,0.08828036460723453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593645733164543,0.0,0.10577615285162996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381541693279236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184747513571789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852337863271864,0.0,0.0874106378145516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3984504397096009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058961349396796627,0.0,0.24892591149620286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216909697112957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057016191654633425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327900062992072,0.15205544090871978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451336962372633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150628134955248,0.08280921735927295,0.0,0.228796155815402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220670495543324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181157225119691,0.0,0.0,0.21090330561388554,0.07890365085531656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185593756768022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646246452072814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24750939797734026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187645640500228,0.0,0.0,0.09777955427918364,0.10783201289993312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892435730658962,0.06647636809787262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833925537481207,0.19826785690473311,0.11526583203782333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321893403352572,0.25266981487314666,0.0,0.09617375554152116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fefebear,2019/01/19,DAE log in to ubereats and add orders from different restaurants to compare the price and perceived calories and then two hours later they change their mind I've even uninstalled these apps already and I've opened the website on my mobile browser instead.,8.259333333333334,9.927342044444448,5.731111111111113,80.69000000000003,61.88888888888889,6.888888888888888,39.444444444444436,6.42735559955562,2.908111111111111,212,11,32,1,3,59,38,45,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229251802330829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054269879730205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004139930972448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531325766210365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774234032733141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869725844458221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743789199220005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carrotlime,2019/01/19,"Why am I like this I just binged right after saying to myself that I would never binge again because I had restricted so well this month :^(

oops",4.49758620689655,5.4753444482758615,4.713275862068965,87.09681034482759,70.0344827586207,7.179310344827586,21.396551724137925,7.1686216300943375,0.5176758620689652,115,2,23,1,2,36,25,29,0.087,0.737,0.17600000000000002,0.3902,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,5,2,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26401290122987325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21159011096222502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456951895643501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340323584052246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698638583670361,0.0,0.3444174090005593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894076759052236,0.0,0.3908041438533474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30766083618462914,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bloomign,2019/07/27,"i purged for the first time for the past couple months i’ve found myself falling into obsessing over my body, fasting and restricting, but i’ve refused to believe that i have an ed. maybe i’m faking it? maybe i’m just dieting hard? but last night i purged for the first time and now i’m really scared that i actually have a problem",3.8991044776119423,5.247317119402986,4.958388059701496,83.38026865671642,71.83582089552239,8.345074626865673,26.832835820895525,8.841846274778883,1.9650322388059704,265,9,53,5,5,87,44,67,0.301,0.6990000000000001,0.0,-0.9590000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,5,0,2,2,1,0,0,10,6,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,1,1,6,0,6,5,0,13,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.21607097337586292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494610457146007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459442823726181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449936096904379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766742367408691,0.0,0.2427722234162193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19834606889838266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18048434127993088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448861116093278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767328724740083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778477948655688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113675032340289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21186608867731754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184534815114785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22167696262459385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25821997235987065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cakeface00000,2019/07/27,"Funeral... and they still comment on my weight I went to a funeral today and a lot of extended family I haven’t seen in a while was there. I was so anxious because I’ve noticeably lost weight since the last time I saw them.

“Wow! Look at you”
“I didn’t even recognize you”
“You get prettier every time I see you”
“You’ve lost so much weight!”

All of these and many more comments about my appearance has just ignited my Ed behaviors even more. Let alone the fact that I’ve worked so hard for the job I have, accomplished SO MUCH MORE than fucking weight loss. But this has just showed me that people really do only care about what’s on the surface. I could have not been doing shit with my life but as long as I’m losing weight and looking good, I get praised for it and that’s my only worth. 


Sorry for being so negative just drunk venting",3.380473372781065,4.7816070473372845,4.2823668639053265,87.51455621301778,73.20118343195266,8.276923076923078,24.834319526627226,8.841846274778883,1.632446153846154,657,20,139,13,13,212,105,169,0.153,0.7290000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.633,2,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,2,7,14,10,2,0,7,0,14,9,1,1,2,18,28,15,2,1,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,6,6,0,0,2,1,2,4,6,0,0,9,11,21,4,16,16,7,14,1,4,5,1,9,5,2,2,7,94,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771893406418606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840503191272776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692869357378293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588537455065205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074938084429687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014456820843589,0.0,0.09576463342412636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714985427042177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050781347027562,0.1187667827654685,0.0,0.0,0.09533379143167912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10181829088447417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279140331722565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264921287624547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162264844171186,0.08028240965246046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058676412049652,0.19089390277452373,0.12715803546106505,0.2481496940309303,0.096630859473826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523482184140825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710841714709254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294042596049049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17288923611370188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787985048935123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728144046356789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057342166231216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667179587158558,0.09402188634082724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723463402673554,0.0,0.0,0.090770142519385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255375518124307,0.0,0.1077377190880384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6920448358357768,0.0,0.10536525844823527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274685441124811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carshredders,2019/07/27,"What is so heinous about not wanting your picture taken? I hate getting pictures taken of me. I politely decline to be in any pictures. Of course if my best friend or maybe grandma wanted a picture of me, I can grit my teeth and crank one out, but in a casual setting? I can sit this one out. Sure, maybe it's also my fault for having \~low self esteem and poor body image\~ but I still think a perfectly valid reason to not be in a picture is just not liking pictures and saying no.

I went to a concert yesterday, my group is getting their photo taken and asks a stranger to take it for them. They're like ""oh carshredders want to get in?"" and I'm like ""nope I'll pass!"" and they nod understandingly

but woe is me because the stranger taking the photo says ""cARSHREDDERS? WHO IS CARSHREDDERS? YOU?"" as I continue to smile and say ""I'm really uncomfortable with pictures! I'm good on this one!"" as if that'll stop what's going to happen

and she turns to me, grabs me by the shoulders (she's unnaturally strong too), and tries to drag into the photo, screeching ""it's just a picture..try to have some fun"", completely drowning out my meek little attempts to stand up for myself

I'm a tiny fragile baby so I ended up crying a bit and making her uncomfortable (and not ending up in the final picture!). That'll show her.",2.2998425898425907,4.634937702702704,3.6942277992277996,86.31940525690527,79.3088803088803,5.683457083457085,24.63335313335313,6.844919456158928,1.0280981882981886,1031,38,197,11,26,338,144,259,0.139,0.736,0.125,-0.6994,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,0,2,3,4,8,15,1,0,14,0,13,3,3,2,2,39,37,22,1,5,12,0,2,3,1,2,0,4,0,1,10,16,0,1,3,3,1,3,6,4,0,3,4,6,28,11,35,29,3,28,0,2,0,0,17,15,0,4,10,133,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157787062073538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488159618618633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043678160625932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505297615460973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642258885821294,0.0,0.15232486099308626,0.15498051372036992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462890175575629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532613567031517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24715498299538854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15284251419565606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779645492871254,0.0,0.2186877273819724,0.0,0.07929511546247038,0.11702671799555568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12338125181287768,0.0,0.0,0.13775177812732128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20449419606073074,0.13984042696423415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931338360685679,0.0,0.28034267541869784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836366898173183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938311032579263,0.1434546531136234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328669796645804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555471536110814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114246240656976,0.1166489159801762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150040027506565,0.0,0.20981045534744847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894018087742897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18945625662629575,0.15176283315449093,0.0,0.14525015730720928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24688588986192106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934081611332066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cheese_is_life93,2019/07/27,"C/S and can't stop I've been in and out of fasting lately and now if I don't fast and I try to eat I start chewing and then cannot bring myself to swallow so I spit it out...i know that sounds nasty and I'm ashamed of it and have to hide it from my S/O, I haven't been diagnosed with a proper ED because I refuse to go see help since I'm still plenty well overweight. I just feel.... Lost.  I wish I didn't feel like this anymore but, I. Just. Can't. Stop.  :(",-2.3645714285714305,-0.5960506952380946,0.28857142857143003,105.46142857142858,98.8095238095238,3.1809523809523816,14.61904761904762,4.604124745555138,-1.4595523809523807,347,8,94,1,15,117,68,105,0.128,0.7440000000000001,0.127,0.2216,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,1,0,9,6,1,0,0,20,20,11,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,9,4,3,3,0,0,2,6,2,1,0,4,4,12,2,10,16,0,13,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,10,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434979575875259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967168635169226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492059122840754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25123660204900616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482928282013209,0.17540536530381526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395393105250774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645723489552384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493585465134336,0.0,0.2769664569458676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995265600859405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680229885890852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19565415347758974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20310342971215412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737860941270962,0.0,0.19607910433023032,0.4105450686196497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669750255176582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207593010020423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823452647891865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mangoasis,2019/07/27,"Any latinas up in here? Just curious. I don’t know many latinas who aim to be very thin bc i think Latin American culture generally values more “thicc” body types (you can still totally develop an eating disorder to reach this ideal tho). 
I definitely got my eating disorder from my mom. She is very very very thin. I think she never identified in any way with her family. She is already naturally small but she engaged in fasting and diet tea to get even skinnier. She holds her weight mainly in her breasts and stomach. I hold all my weight in my butt and thighs. Like even when i was little i had a huge butt. And I’ve ALWAYS hated it. Growing up my mom was so concerned with her weight and not getting fat. And of course it rubbed off on me. I remember being FOUR, eating beans and rice and aaying i was full bc i didnt want to get fat. I remember sobbing bc someone called me “gorgeous” and for some reason I didnt know that word but i did know the verb “to gorge.” So i thought she was calling me fat. I never really understood that we had different body types so inwojld always compare my legs to hers. She also constantly makes comments on other peoples bodies. I hung out with some friends a few weeks ago (first time in 6 months) and the first thing she asked is if they were still skinny. 
Oh yea also my parents started giving me diet tea when I was in middle school and praising me for losing weight (i wasnt even close to like chubby??) and i didnt stop until like junior year of HS and it was a huge deal bc they said id get fat. 
I have the typical very curvy, thicc latina body type and I get praised for it but all I want is to be a tiny fairy creature. I’m like 4 lbs from underweight but no matter what I still have a booty and I hate it. 
Idek what I’m asking here I guess I’m interested in other Latina experiences. Y’all binge on pan dulce too or wat",1.373296865950188,3.695616931398419,3.0531166741746567,89.6376632987966,82.8522427440633,6.019460711757513,21.381105605251307,7.3138001815848295,0.7623482978312635,1463,46,302,22,41,483,202,379,0.068,0.7759999999999999,0.156,0.9863,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,2,2,6,18,15,2,0,9,1,25,26,15,2,5,57,52,30,0,4,8,3,7,4,1,0,4,1,0,0,14,21,16,3,10,0,0,1,9,4,0,3,18,8,55,11,34,31,9,45,2,2,0,3,34,24,3,5,23,192,69,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698834003701344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08699753998925175,0.12609031913158894,0.13119581568349406,0.0,0.0,0.10722243287377714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740212667380098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35027631062440245,0.0,0.0,0.16100083999521875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519376149433658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127650440547651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823668913672513,0.18070588341251334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24200687741167945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621139969746572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711678296176241,0.07431961037145547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411580529544334,0.0,0.0,0.060908535570714635,0.0,0.2059429077225885,0.07562672141537778,0.0,0.0,0.06305238985857015,0.0,0.08684679556426543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556685529880504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997869167438464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406124469191107,0.07901443164905297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819737287944024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05262367459830549,0.07992737945180442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846636545597374,0.06292618183583029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216064415044208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753810232942807,0.0,0.0,0.05465498970030478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0505043914319815,0.0810565880643661,0.0,0.0,0.1786117497411765,0.0,0.07499113547191907,0.0,0.0,0.07978629001751665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679752812817832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055800560950996884,0.0,0.18887571069513934,0.06591046665646337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237516763351616,0.10102991333835856,0.0,0.0625870164994954,0.04596993390901279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252399822822017,0.09299908804673808,0.06257638584584835,0.06323752285277706,0.38400427445539137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050767830543370494
EDAnonymous,filthfilthfilthfilth,2019/07/27,"I need emergency dental treatment because of my bulimia Woke up in excruciating pain, my front left lower teeth are killing me, I am too ashamed to admit to my dentist what I've been doing, wish I had pain more attention to harm reduction and recovery :'( I cannot fucking afford this",11.993018867924526,8.266207641509434,11.665754716981134,58.62429245283021,57.49056603773585,15.128301886792451,49.14150943396226,13.023866798666859,6.338441509433963,227,12,38,6,2,76,44,53,0.42100000000000004,0.516,0.063,-0.9791,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,0,0,6,5,1,0,0,5,11,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,0,8,0,6,8,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924623129641978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29188158823156496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493016334176909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430348590997016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23410521533446516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6719048188761327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630668167132689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,little-pinkie,2019/07/27,Being complimented on your weight loss at family camping trip is exhilarating!!! But they don’t know that yesterday you cried your eyes out last night because you forgot your food scale..😭 lmao fuck me man,5.868018018018018,8.180099405405407,5.803783783783783,75.41936936936938,68.45945945945945,9.257657657657658,25.84684684684685,9.725611199111238,2.468754954954956,166,5,29,4,3,52,34,37,0.17600000000000002,0.608,0.21600000000000005,0.4359,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,5,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,7,1,3,4,0,7,0,1,1,1,7,3,1,0,3,15,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140068396102167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38562999280346705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33095418974617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245109253625286,0.0,0.0,0.32455526110957433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293693087804947,0.286165999822013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32945206630055096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275043386135053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moonlighttravel,2019/07/27,I can't wait for autumn I can't wait for autumn so that I don't have to either suffocate in clothes that cover my arms and legs completely or suffer while wearing a t-shirt with not long enough sleeves so when I look in the mirror I just wish I could end my life.,2.965,3.6823493157894767,4.044692982456141,91.44493421052631,73.3859649122807,7.1035087719298255,23.021929824561404,7.1686216300943375,0.5705824561403503,209,5,48,2,4,68,42,57,0.075,0.872,0.053,-0.2682,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,0,0,10,9,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,6,8,2,8,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,6,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39919240016527374,0.0,0.0,0.30398515260876524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.337217354118583,0.393400042894265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26892371411188865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33693764692514266,0.3197207056793005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378253594853906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,confusedsugarplum,2019/07/27,"Grief and ED I have never posted to this subreddit before, so forgive me if my etiquette is off or the rant that is to come triggers you. I don't want to upset anyone. I just want to share this with you people because I think some of you sadly can relate and maybe this rant will be cathartic for me and for you too, maybe you'd even want to chime in and share your stories. 

To sum it up... I am grieving the suicide of my ex boyfriend. I am in deep pain and I miss the love of my life. I have taken steps to get therapy and I have a support system, so dont worry. My body and mind is going through trauma and now more than ever eating is difficult. It neausates me. I throw up in pain. I have anxiety poops. I dislike that eating is like a chore I am forced to do now for the sole purpose of sustaining my body's ability to function. I feel my relationship with food right now is so clinical and I am disgusted by it as well.

My ex was a great cook and I was always amazed by the flavors, ideas, passion, thought and love he put into his cooking. I discovered so many things with him. One of our favorite movies was Chef. He used to be a chef. He made me like food again and realize that cooking could be so sexual and beautiful and caring. Seeing him in the kitchen being in control and powerful and artistic made me admire him and want him. And when he taught me how to cook I was swooning the whole time and we would listen to music and dance and sing while we cooked together. It was so romantic. I would beam with pride and happiness when I cooked him something he liked. Feeding someone you love like that is so caring and hot too. I would make his lunch and leave little love notes for him to take to work. We loved being in love. Gosh this is turning into quite the cheesy rant about him - it's hard not think about the love we shared and food is such a trigger for that and for the pain too now. So, yeah..  of course food reminds me of him and eating makes me cry now and feel guilty. There is no pleasure or flavour anymore, it is all disgusting. 

I know my pain won't be this intense forever, but now it really is overwhelming. My ex was funny and had dark humour, much like jokes I've seen on here at times. They crack me up. God, he made me laugh. In the spirit of messed up jokes, I have been telling myself that I am on a grief diet and that at least I'll lose some weight in this process. It's dark and funny for a second or two, but then it makes me feel ashamed and disgusted and sad that I thought that. I'm sure many of you have dealt with a volatile change in your relationship with food during time of grief. Feel free to share that here and any tips or words of wisdom how it got better/if it got bettee will be much appreciated. Thank you for being a community open to venting, sharing appropriately inappropriate jokes, and support. You are lovely and your pain is valid - be kind to yourself and reach out for support when you can💖",2.973356288258209,4.50348042404007,3.815105383973286,89.93692630077909,74.47579298831386,6.794671675013912,24.165310239287706,7.413659706084162,0.8917003060656651,2310,70,496,27,48,738,272,599,0.11900000000000001,0.669,0.212,0.9962,1,0,1,0,0,1,59.0,5,13,1,6,33,64,3,3,20,1,54,38,3,12,4,101,102,60,5,9,9,3,7,5,0,6,7,1,2,0,28,52,19,1,12,12,1,6,6,22,1,3,18,12,75,43,71,67,8,50,1,9,2,9,56,25,0,7,22,338,103,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052657596017619546,0.0,0.0,0.043035484972437484,0.0,0.04841230600279621,0.0,0.06276100727388338,0.044249844596715715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03857751370434561,0.0,0.05385026675584125,0.0,0.0,0.055969808720600235,0.0,0.1405891518971863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290450956519978,0.0,0.06694638398506507,0.054513809299000786,0.0,0.0,0.07097870855077079,0.0505273533300496,0.0,0.06951481718658227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07416871253324127,0.0,0.0,0.1942668722754558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04179867442551338,0.057244260288608566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12799374706208605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826180525502131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03306342776575098,0.0,0.035965918439825516,0.0,0.10122845018557268,0.0697711493471511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673672998111856,0.056690290458382836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714402565380369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06590084600535366,0.03477938886709772,0.0,0.0,0.06700892193894224,0.0,0.0,0.04469956313704791,0.15458752900567793,0.06342748051317781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079892916867195,0.0,0.0,0.4569323152417136,0.17964336628342328,0.12672825807091034,0.1283206674235302,0.12715514367443545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389908910485995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304246441199933,0.0,0.048808743148701705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04288307038424462,0.0,0.3366947138766802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04387335606691749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060608853133312615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361818723148745,0.0,0.06731062857490439,0.0,0.0,0.0405415344580322,0.0,0.0,0.13588728056778504,0.0,0.05404443494400719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0504293829452702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362057063824058,0.048719335585506264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922273804287815,0.21544277531160932,0.05964469114539425,0.0,0.04758190766756907,0.0,0.055313255822544066,0.05826366855373385,0.07237109696327496,0.0,0.04204326798431237,0.08110003104215943,0.0,0.10048130921276484,0.1107047292381908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883513123850142,0.06181955240404478,0.0,0.0,0.05465730471462578,0.0,0.0,0.14930684741306965,0.0,0.0,0.07706321214577844,0.05690017375602153,0.0,0.0,0.07065464593369009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0460717143289475,0.06426826489551966,0.0,0.13486602437509973,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DanielleChaar,2019/07/27,"Feeling sick and disgusted after eating normally hi this is my first time posting on this sub but my mind is driving me crazy . i started restricting last year after stressful events under the guise of trying to be more healthy and had an obsession with working out and counting calories. this faded after awhile and i never get skinny so i dont even know if it’s all in my head or what. but lately the thoughts have been coming back and i feel disgusted with myself and guilty after eating a normal portion of lunch or dinner and i would just feel a lot of self loathing and promise myself i wouldn’t have the next meal— but i still eat anyway to avoid the spiral, and then i’d just feel disgusted again. this is not only mental but physical so maybe i’m just overeating? thinking of working on weight loss again",4.228461538461538,6.242431121019108,4.527643312101912,84.11195492405685,72.18471337579618,6.61420872121509,26.72660460558549,7.321109707123232,1.4910131308182266,654,23,116,7,13,205,104,157,0.23600000000000002,0.718,0.046,-0.9881,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,11,8,3,3,7,0,11,9,2,0,2,41,22,19,0,5,11,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,13,7,2,7,0,0,2,4,7,0,1,3,5,13,1,18,16,4,28,0,1,0,0,2,6,0,4,19,89,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910769586057385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343169013580572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154036189667808,0.0,0.0,0.4755007481303621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230926522566013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132861602761265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317569286380363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092828413933907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589709638699884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512838669875036,0.12626328086601898,0.17473271066754148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168950896933873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556167689262188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561016626515026,0.0,0.15640373635669216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946758400270276,0.0,0.16473674172598268,0.0,0.3035360755966354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178075965269897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483503320491485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16159333909931284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963824153293412,0.0,0.12370246484967355,0.0,0.17743617121794816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925296315900632,0.0,0.12297242742458166,0.09032279660406033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516618800547516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862513510120532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255364939422115,0.0,0.0,0.11003573715645767,0.0,0.0,0.09974981563545887
EDAnonymous,Mira_chan,2019/07/27,"Weird effects when breaking fast ? (Maybe kinda gross, sorry)


I realized some weeks ago that if fast for 48h (or more), when i break it, 30 minutes after eating i have a intense urge to go to the toilets and i basically got (explosive) dirrhea. Do you experience this too ?

In fact, knowing that i'll absorb less of my meal in these conditions, i often break my fast with junkfood, this way i'm not so guilty about this food, and i won't crave it during the next week. Maybe it's dangerous, but who am i lying to, ahah ? I got the worst life style of all time, it's just a drop in the ocean.",2.4496638655462206,4.095832159663868,3.7266302521008434,89.53969327731095,76.14285714285714,6.776806722689076,23.664705882352944,7.554174236665415,0.9232514285714286,453,14,98,6,10,148,86,119,0.159,0.815,0.026000000000000002,-0.9487,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,7,4,1,0,6,0,4,4,0,1,2,16,9,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,11,3,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,11,0,12,6,5,20,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,11,61,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20952142599439866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24185822759618905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23120824471435106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858109247928373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433046796663187,0.0,0.3780819641159934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989885382538746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16695008759889687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4749165514215653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25137459739323537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26458888551467485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782509228902445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876138471590608,0.3791920797869368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hippycynic,2019/07/27,"Doesn't matter how much weight I lose Cause my ribcage will always :) be :) fucking :) huge 

I just keep losing weight off of my ass but my stomach literally stays the same and my waist still looks huge, yay.",1.6723076923076905,4.377655205128208,1.6725128205128217,96.96415384615385,86.69230769230771,4.1456410256410265,18.056410256410253,5.6839178017228535,-0.5113528205128208,159,4,33,1,5,47,33,39,0.134,0.561,0.305,0.8696,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,1,1,3,6,3,2,0,8,6,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,1,2,4,2,5,0,2,1,2,0,3,2,0,1,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997654465636937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24662786610492485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22194970715178075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133937655715156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160638527567395,0.5371752898434133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764861184170885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558928933247476,0.19172786619493032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5847045118726264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,staystressin,2019/07/27,"snooped in my boyfriends phone, currently sitting in the bathroom crying like a fuckin loser. paranoia got the best of me, friends. but like... he’s searching for shit like pics of girls wearing heavy makeup. watching porn featuring girls with HUGE tits and asses and skinny tiny fucking waists and omfg I just feel so disgusting about myself. i can’t compare to this shit???

I was “recovering” when we first got together, back then he reassured me of how attractive he would always find me no matter what. definitely turned out to be a scam :/

here I am two years later spiraling backwards. losing weight feels like my only protection?? UGH sry this is so fucking pathetic.  just needed to vent.",4.4000375234521565,7.411905439024395,4.408943089430898,80.3047091932458,75.91056910569105,7.361851156973107,28.97373358348969,8.384062270229773,2.6020911819887442,551,24,89,11,13,170,96,123,0.29,0.541,0.16899999999999998,-0.9774,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,0,4,9,17,6,0,4,0,6,12,7,1,0,16,14,9,0,2,3,0,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,6,3,1,3,0,0,0,2,9,0,2,3,4,11,8,12,9,1,13,0,2,1,6,9,5,7,0,11,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566601739544667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477212291176192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19758336457599454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20681163168214145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19039534840444533,0.1345039479430733,0.0,0.0,0.17208025936763138,0.16014691686749366,0.0,0.0,0.14546106867980646,0.3481150552275771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011619939867089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679273041954637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106319581251464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960378669134565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14319188798941512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865238831868252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20478951660447767,0.18391765985983066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229268655109284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374540703858992,0.0,0.0,0.12124315280606815
EDAnonymous,Syd_Squid24,2019/07/27,"Too impatient for this MENTION OF NUMBERS

How long did it take for you guys to see results with extreme calorie restriction? I’ve been eating >1000 calories for about a week, and I burn at least 200 through cardio. My weight hasn’t budged. I know I need more time to really see a difference in weight, but when does the weight loss actually start? (Asking for a friend, duh)",3.4764989939637796,6.043766267605637,3.489657947686116,88.10901408450707,76.46478873239437,6.874044265593561,27.044265593561374,7.957251820313856,1.7504631790744458,299,12,57,5,7,91,59,71,0.09300000000000001,0.846,0.062,0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,1,3,5,0,2,0,8,10,4,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,5,1,12,8,2,7,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,0,5,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.19032623775214352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18233160019902805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20377029077260564,0.0,0.0,0.17067663283100448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19956971772096926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506837249501055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931155283534479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718625472395757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17260002976111086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461614222082395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494455425666505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108356335184103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13804693052650516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14664221085071313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372660354110922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644548684003226,0.7125010550186601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,esheboyette,2019/07/27,"EDNOS I am 21 years old and my first binge occurred when I was 8 years old. Before that, I very consistently overate/ ate to nauseating fullness just because eating would ease my anxiety. Well after years of binging, a full blown stint in anorexia, a difference of 90 lbs in weight gained and lost, I am so worn out.

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I recently admitted to myself that EDNOS is just as serious as any other eating disorder and am trying to recover. The problem is that there really isn't any solid info out there for EDNOS recovery. Doing one thing might  feed my anorexic tendencies, but doing another thing might feed my bulimic tendencies. 

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I decided to try 3 meals and 2 snacks with 1 desert a day in proper portions. Not even keeping myself on a meal plan is working. I went grocery shopping and took everything out of the wrappers and into clear bags at home so I wouldn't know the calorie content of anything, but Im just estimating the calories instead and I can't stop (I dont have an app on my phone). This attempt at recovery has caused a massive massive binge marathon and Ive gains so much weight im getting panic attacks looking in the mirror. 

Ive been to a recovery house before but they obviously did not know how to handle EDNOS. 

I have been suicidal on and off since around age 8, and I fear that I'm spiraling faster than I ever have. I dont have friends or family. I have a husband who is in the military and deployed he can't help me right now. I want to try recovery before checking myself into a recovery center but there really seems to be no help for people like me.

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Any suggestions would be really appreciated. Much love.",4.369629898403481,6.353449770440253,5.6925786163522005,76.03397677793906,71.73584905660377,8.79167876149008,31.09869375907112,9.367010060515213,3.15894687953556,1329,60,228,31,26,445,180,318,0.128,0.778,0.095,-0.8686,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,1,7,17,10,1,2,15,0,33,11,0,2,3,48,48,23,1,5,10,1,2,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,9,18,10,2,6,2,2,2,9,6,1,2,9,3,29,4,37,32,5,39,0,1,1,1,11,22,0,4,16,162,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840800740188977,0.3185865409788721,0.17829650793278168,0.091642160242988,0.06685757971435355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191933113960597,0.07780082813861079,0.0,0.09942538684694996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05327569394279387,0.0,0.2231022729258081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977960375444707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636308784149509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913100533563893,0.10016320624897647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048545512463605,0.0,0.0,0.17885552898147086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057724129216167964,0.07905454235569355,0.0,0.0,0.07854574723503133,0.0,0.08238902155704997,0.098344619442212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433885833362319,0.0,0.0,0.06752181052971898,0.0,0.04566072017620458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171591809794134,0.0,0.08766515508160136,0.0,0.0,0.1008430673718918,0.0,0.0,0.1888050125511234,0.0,0.0,0.07768143973045337,0.0,0.0,0.096060938037704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0426971937372498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339049585222422,0.0,0.09540288519334633,0.0,0.07887815932733229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854263540610222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284919991393481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341446867583408,0.0,0.059221684181812624,0.0,0.0,0.10254018979000727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060589272496351085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362601747417624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679640423416442,0.0,0.08629285020042701,0.0,0.0,0.07463557131894231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956189195730287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229474340691913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306683701722208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559686593900796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612382771234815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709999587766162,0.1780081191730803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211072226437483,0.05154833180349623,0.0,0.0,0.21284918131282304,0.07857935753843356,0.08101682086983605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362521366254735,0.0,0.0,0.1241669969187226,0.0,0.3185865409788721,0.1688401700763854
EDAnonymous,starfishbuddy,2019/07/27,Weight gain after weight loss? Has anyone else here lost a massive amount of weight and then started gaining back some? I’m so miserable. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone and it’s all my fault,1.333947368421054,3.9802697631578963,1.6582105263157914,96.71047368421057,88.21052631578951,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.3974378947368421,153,4,31,1,5,46,33,38,0.251,0.5539999999999999,0.195,-0.3844,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,6,6,4,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,4,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30770093860546904,0.2254472898989946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918990333222406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18380728219282505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24018932592804745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557387484700083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8038137622398016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25302426178323906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theboysandme0,2019/07/27,"I NEED OPINIONS: Family Vacation At The Beach So my mother just out of the blue came up to me and announced “we will be going to Bulgaria in a month, we can go to the beach and tan! Aren’t you excited?” And in my most convincing excited voice, i smiled and said “i can’t wait!” While my ED was screaming in fear. The second she left i started crying. How will i lose all this weight in a month? I’ve been trying to lose weight for 2 years now.. binging, purging, fasting, extreme diets, intense work outs.. none of it is working. I don’t know how to process the thought that i will have to wear a bathing suit.. i am 15 so not going is not an option and my mum does not know anything about my ED or that i’m struggling with BDD. I just need help coping with this.",0.3978129395217991,2.5988276139240507,2.097890295358649,95.65593530239107,86.15189873417722,5.030098452883263,21.436005625879048,6.42735559955562,0.2580241912798873,585,20,131,6,18,191,102,158,0.11199999999999999,0.7929999999999999,0.095,-0.5791,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,2,1,0,4,8,8,0,2,9,0,14,4,1,2,1,30,27,11,0,2,6,2,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,5,12,3,1,3,3,0,4,7,5,0,1,5,6,19,3,20,18,3,20,0,2,1,0,8,9,0,4,7,88,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418237110698212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19711462752233366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931083524947254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508186341078649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246976443580347,0.193933935035762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938397165923353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551796692983154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943055372566928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725131457344496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856157567016252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751252835856778,0.0,0.0,0.2555804936846789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393778242378468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198535417209574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18017045875722434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682119398352308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700967209441687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.419735004672948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509357018828969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098332496729774
EDAnonymous,insertnamehere2019,2019/08/25,me: I'm faking my ED also me: *crying at work after a binge because the family bathroom is closed*,-1.032,0.625173800000006,2.8800000000000026,83.32000000000005,111.0,4.0,15.0,5.985473137389443,0.10000000000000007,76,2,13,1,4,28,19,20,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193625005073191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196693802933899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5760287897646408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4943576613455509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817694546481288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oops_all_failure,2019/08/25,What's y'all's favorite waist trainers? Thinking of getting some waist trainers or maybe a corset to fix my tree trunk waist. Any recommendations? Or tips?,2.7332142857142863,5.585077321428571,2.186857142857143,89.35814285714287,97.21428571428572,3.6685714285714286,27.028571428571425,5.6839178017228535,0.9623914285714288,127,6,22,1,5,37,23,28,0.0,0.867,0.133,0.5484,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632118639223431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558777602446947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6843163397190893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4364595468978496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Adamsam43,2019/08/25,treatment update I am in a bad place with my eating.  I hate treatment and i hate eating.  i want to just stop eating all together and just make the stupid treatment to stop.  I want it to be done.  I feel like I cant beat this stupid problem and I feel like i am trapped in this illness and I just want it to stop,-0.3005597014925385,1.8162982537313432,1.4135634328358222,99.84482276119408,88.8507462686567,3.9470149253731344,18.82276119402985,5.148860815047168,-0.6127597014925374,241,7,57,1,8,78,34,67,0.409,0.48100000000000004,0.11,-0.9781,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,8,4,0,2,0,5,4,0,1,1,19,13,4,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,3,3,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,2,11,2,7,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005950360165646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18391695083534376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5516982613097997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817446456144976,0.256785394785348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548745016780053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756051764743133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199651435121434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18777016274419586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196869713225588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4507643366840964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180122548222233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,temporal-turtle,2019/08/25,"my abusive ex just hit me up to tell me about his new girl and how she's his ""soulmate"" and all I can think about is how much thinner and prettier she must be than me he led me on for 2 years and told me we were exclusively dating and I was his girlfriend, cheated on me and tried to gaslight me saying we were only ever just friends. I feel like he never wanted to actually be with me bc of my appearance and because he never actually wanted to date someone who isn't skinny. He asked me to lose 40 lbs (would be underweight if I did that) and told me he wasn't into my stomach and couldn't look at it during sex...I know he was an asshole and I shouldn't think about it but ohhh my god my brain is being so mean to me today :(",4.32551282051282,3.8255430897435896,5.768717948717949,84.57628205128206,70.02564102564102,8.471794871794872,28.23076923076923,7.793537801064563,1.4976846153846155,566,17,128,6,9,193,93,156,0.067,0.878,0.055,-0.4497,0,0,0,0,1,0,12.0,2,0,0,1,9,4,1,0,1,0,18,3,3,3,5,37,31,15,0,7,4,1,1,1,2,3,0,1,0,1,4,14,1,0,5,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,8,3,28,2,18,14,2,15,0,1,1,0,23,5,0,2,9,91,32,0,0.0,0.2197153527583461,0.3619241875308534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336079629013318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130421303825031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20701168667485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16774054400675126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376372693704477,0.1324779365943202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327001198255787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191263856632014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059631858753173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572238270367644,0.20745924279524214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019978581019818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363192878859097,0.0,0.2860445776317681,0.17909851749649078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103501159617554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474688451696002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571221925737899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208219960708434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376441455857775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577485796668146,0.3543905661473429,0.0,0.12590117260799674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187539124685409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317308214695591,0.0,0.0,0.11941688668302718
EDAnonymous,ablalb,2019/08/25,"I miss how I looked... I’ve been holding this in for forever because NONE of my friends or family would ever get it. But I can’t help but miss how I used to look. I was 5’8 and like 110 pounds, I looked like a (crackhead) beanpole. But my body was literally eating itself. I’m type one diabetic, and was “diabulimic,” raising my blood sugar to insanely unhealthy levels because of what that does to my body. At first there weren’t many problems. Yeah I felt like shit, but I was losing weight and eating whatever the fuck I wanted. I could eat a whole pack of oreos and LOSE weight. Because diabetic ketoacidosis attacks fat...first. Then when there’s none left it goes for muscle. I loved the way I looked. I couldn’t breathe. Had to take breaks walking from my bed to the bathroom down the hall. I was throwing up even the water and gatorade I was drinking. I started having trouble walking. I wound up in the hospital. If it got worse, any one of my organs could’ve failed, especially my heart. I could’ve lost my eyesight or my limbs. But my dumbass brain KNOWS this and I STILL miss looking that way when I see old pictures or clothes I could wear. I damn near died but I fucking miss that me sometimes. No one I know would ever get it, but it’s nice to just throw it all out into the void.",2.040751272074232,4.336394758754866,3.2330933852140085,89.48849670757261,80.01167315175097,5.8215504340017965,24.28150254414846,7.010146845296331,0.9019489374438798,1011,37,208,12,26,326,145,257,0.243,0.6759999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9933,1,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,5,11,21,5,0,9,1,16,22,8,3,3,37,41,22,1,8,12,0,3,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,13,8,8,1,3,1,0,4,6,15,0,4,12,10,35,6,22,24,4,28,0,8,6,3,3,12,4,4,12,133,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658741350437265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139555267071204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906921639064116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752904603265533,0.0,0.10930856897081268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127173560724944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162314355096397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568846455835796,0.0,0.0,0.09592209681227756,0.0,0.3005828460558013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646737365615579,0.17714438366528412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230812050522423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940163754502587,0.0,0.0,0.1665775406382089,0.0,0.0,0.0756509945781105,0.18104672538567734,0.10231594405965494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831375288590993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160329803943194,0.06563218977332091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076260462456056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063878991296066,0.0,0.0,0.14351296921291226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111311560105291,0.21908978487127465,0.10688876814583216,0.0,0.08837457344211687,0.0,0.0,0.09927320847389227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274818511594412,0.0,0.1990547620300989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936940426344668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802775261154153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051114176688324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684313779247204,0.0,0.06930667261008752,0.0,0.0781972249146465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362194624311792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456947917278572,0.0,0.0,0.05775441356183025,0.15544507126906387,0.0,0.2384748296161935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093216476543681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978653126011773,0.13911589065794028,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beeslmao,2019/08/25,Any one else getting triggered by Bachelor in Paradise? Hannah G is so skinny and she's the one getting persued the most. I shouldn't take this fabricated reality show seriously but...,3.961363636363637,7.161277181818183,5.8638636363636385,67.71579545454549,80.21212121212122,8.148484848484847,35.52272727272727,8.841846274778883,4.2071272727272735,149,9,22,4,4,51,30,33,0.052000000000000005,0.821,0.128,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,5,5,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152170728023121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872207914533323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4843517819680988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6282013983555438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34851773281809273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lord_germ,2019/08/25,"looking for clothes that fit [T.W. clothing sizes] i am finding it so hard to find anything that looks ok on my body... everything looks wildly disproportionate when i put it on. i have super long legs so that makes it so much more difficult

for example, i ordered these real nice super skinny trousers from the tall section in a uk size 4, they fit me length-wise, but they are so baggy around my thighs, they looked so ridiculous.

its so upsetting for me because i love fashion but lately its taking me hours and hours to get dressed, aimlessly trying on the same things over and over again until i decide to just wear the exact same thing i've been wearing basically everyday again and feeling miserable about it

does anyone know any good brands, preferably uk based, that cater for super tall and super skinny ladies? i just want clothes that fit right, i'm so tired of all of this..",7.823908969210173,7.602143506024097,6.886465863453817,78.5415997322624,62.73493975903615,9.546452476572957,33.50468540829986,8.841846274778883,2.670176171352076,706,25,129,9,9,215,110,166,0.111,0.6920000000000001,0.19699999999999998,0.9309999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,3,4,14,12,1,2,4,1,4,9,7,1,2,22,16,15,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,15,5,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,6,15,8,19,15,6,25,0,1,4,1,4,14,0,0,9,81,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061859999213712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137399953153377,0.0,0.13386042971800793,0.1448074130004817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09915981102304967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068548741705767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235029543982766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461938996205872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224892270194946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973479356479756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498638025645504,0.0,0.0,0.136436698229026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145716972114297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203868979550187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939709422409152,0.0,0.18349456867842215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395447591085792,0.5463945871758139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468126042833502,0.0,0.10858095744496007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957838002366382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635244684727485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18514975768950148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389160534545175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230474489860292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21613640215731308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869608777586087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043967803106504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959447444396834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookykawaiigothgf,2019/08/25,"Numbness/tingling feeling along with heart palpitations? Anyone else? Ended up going to the ER yesterday. I get heart palpitations accompanied by a low heart rate on a daily basis but yesterday it was accompanied by a numb like feeling in the left side of my jaw and neck as well as a slight tingling in my left arm and shaking and cold sweats. Thought I was having a heart attack so phoned an ambulance. They ran multiple ECG's on me, a chest X-ray and checked my blood but said nothing was wrong and to lay off the caffeine and that my low heart rate is likely a result of my exercising. They couldn't offer an explanation for the numbness and tingling. They said my blood sugar is borderline too low but that was all. I feel like surely something more must be wrong though.....",5.732905405405402,6.871592425675678,6.048216216216217,78.06029729729731,67.31081081081078,8.892972972972975,31.016216216216225,9.120678840339163,2.6221951351351347,621,24,114,11,10,199,91,148,0.11699999999999999,0.74,0.14300000000000002,0.6395,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,0,4,14,1,1,13,0,10,18,12,1,3,21,19,14,0,2,3,0,3,3,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,9,1,0,4,1,1,3,1,9,2,0,8,7,13,5,17,8,2,18,0,3,0,0,7,12,0,0,6,72,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816025244474326,0.12918706118061427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434377564205045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532627214425797,0.0,0.11167222512616808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912542488315253,0.09007380955576068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587322882335021,0.0,0.0716559454153971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.747045549822989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739793680372639,0.0,0.0,0.18479353823033992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098015873439433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398678488758054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706494934170197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883185299947875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238760299653181,0.10009591747620672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336387117736756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757042082350461,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WaZhajdbdjjend,2019/08/25,"Am I really disordered? Help? TW (weight, etc)
I must say I was always skinny - my current weight is 51kg at 175cm. I've never counted calories but I am always careful as to not eat too much. All my friends say that by seeing how much I eat I am obviously not disordered but they also say that the first time they saw me they thought there was something wrong.
Anyways, I went to a party not too long ago. There was this girl who was very small - not scary small, but small. We started talking and at one point she mentioned eating disorders and told me that she sees what I'm doing. I was drunk and started crying - I don't even know why exactly. She begged me saying how she lived through all of that and how she can find me a therapist or someone else that can help. She asked me about my BMI and told me that I am way underweight (which I don't think is true). 
I guess I've had thoughts that sway in the direction of an ED but I don't think I've ever really consciously acted that way. I weigh myself every month or so and based on it I ""restrict"" - not in a way that I'm starving, just so I don't go above 55kg. 
I don't know if there's a problem with me. I feel like if I go to a therapist it will only turn into a Real disorder which I don't want. I just need advice, thank you in advance.",1.7506823230720414,3.2178210437956203,3.483094255791816,91.30895430022218,77.61313868613138,6.66302761028245,22.86194858774992,7.423996415210882,0.7459119644557282,1002,30,227,13,23,335,148,274,0.08800000000000001,0.815,0.09699999999999999,0.319,1,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,1,3,2,17,7,0,0,9,0,23,8,1,3,8,50,49,21,0,6,15,0,3,1,1,2,0,4,0,1,16,9,8,1,9,1,0,5,12,2,0,2,12,10,43,5,17,35,5,29,0,0,3,0,25,11,0,5,11,151,59,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930553918381741,0.08441359720604028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615354543697739,0.1584741252080987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902503085463434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709097163780024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460314062721747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365567094432512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923250866832682,0.07955051162171428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620404128211478,0.06289698795046518,0.0861388931369606,0.08023343190405967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04814997890091605,0.06803067732297267,0.0,0.0,0.08703637906336749,0.0810006203705819,0.0,0.0,0.07357267335081441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082401760260767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490403129453683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276582201310117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10466929071622204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046523436844817564,0.0,0.08408779066970415,0.08427350474750897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600982978890514,0.0,0.14000661129653108,0.07061012193845524,0.07344546141461844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452874399266685,0.07242494570641196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002094280706613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112003394146356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838995373307077,0.12201058714645595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30291550967150593,0.0,0.0,0.15176827184366368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068610863104092,0.07331092445854806,0.0,0.0,0.13480529141514327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654040619044385,0.0,0.08767285827459792,0.0,0.22113336434406536,0.0,0.12203611108125235,0.0,0.151200290001173,0.0555280290316565,0.0,0.0,0.1819882681725671,0.0,0.0,0.10358037616221694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078572813326933,0.05616775598587922,0.2267619120459397,0.0,0.2319233321331642,0.0,0.08827701821109178,0.08592817415980343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411652465644228,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cannonbaby,2019/08/25,"How long for the facial puffiness to go away? (Bullimia) I'm a recovering bullimic and I threw up 3-4 times a week for around four months, a week ago I quit this practice (from throwing up blood). I was wondering how long will it take for the lymph nodes under the jaw to clear up? Just an estimate.",1.7819999999999998,3.975891866666668,3.256666666666668,89.525,80.33333333333334,7.333333333333335,23.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.4138333333333346,232,8,50,5,6,76,45,60,0.0,0.945,0.055,0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,0,2,4,3,2,1,7,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,12,4,0,16,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,7,31,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523417956709829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534156660360532,0.0,0.0,0.2674557935431568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178389078417948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5038460205307265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22721999266020645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027804058499564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21403557832875544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659927194160141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566884263197422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087112688064879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vintagetimetable,2019/08/25,"I promise this isn't a flex, just a rant Me 12 months ago:

85 lbs, straight Bs and Cs in standard-level classes, didn't get into a single team sport or club, socially isolated, tired and exhausted, couldn't run a lap, depressed and anxious AF

Me now:

115 lbs, straight 'A+'s in all AP and IB classes, silver and gold medalist in debate and speech, MUN best delegate, president of Ted-ed club, large friend circle, generally better mood

Also me now: 

I'm such a failure because I put on 20 pounds!!! And my shorts from back then don't fit anymore!!",4.876782376502003,5.56317603738318,5.590120160213621,82.20971962616825,69.0,8.357276368491322,32.10814419225634,8.418075326091056,2.4111452603471286,424,18,83,6,7,138,83,107,0.131,0.6759999999999999,0.193,0.8018,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,6,7,0,0,5,0,4,2,0,0,1,13,6,10,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,1,6,4,7,4,3,17,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,1,6,41,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542981764404164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294145537575789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240881112658979,0.2845038071606689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22058985947381524,0.0,0.1748768860860269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30105855844047463,0.253718421018578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470857924929375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22163960888068585,0.0,0.14988081749689042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22898160659692754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883895153727113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.292433853136541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297216461489205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,98thproblem,2019/08/25,Aaaand I can’t pretend I’m not ‘relapsing’ anymore... ...because today I sharted 👍🏻,-0.2177083333333308,1.8034943125000042,3.452500000000004,79.80916666666668,105.875,4.633333333333333,36.583333333333336,6.42735559955562,3.2354833333333337,63,5,10,1,3,23,14,16,0.12300000000000001,0.877,0.0,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6606238356468768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.406067814716063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6314151388959005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,firstsunflower,2019/08/25,"i feel like i am trapped in my body and i can't go back to my real self I can't recognize myself in the mirror anymore. And I feel like it is impossible to go back to my former, skinny self. I feel trapped. All this summer I didn't go out, not even once, because I am too fat to go out in public. I used to be called beautiful all the time when I was at my LW, people suggested I should try modeling, my sister's friends would always inform my sister when they'd see me outside and they'd tell her that she s got such a beautiful sister. Girls would look with envy at my body, and they'd even tell me how envious they are. 

I gained 30 pounds and now I'm so so fat. I'm scared of going out in the public and of being seen by people. I feel I can't lose this weight and that I won't be able to live my life. The thing is I would share my concern with others but I AM TOO FAT TO DO THAT!! It's one thing when the tiny, beautiful dainty girl is sad and is feeling insecure and another thing when the big, ugly girl is feeling sad and insecure...

I don't want to talk to anybody, I have even given up on running (my favourite activity) because I'd be too fat to be seen on streets. At the beginning I'd just run at 3AM when everybody was asleep, but my neighbourhood is dangerous so i can't do it that late.

I feel as if losing all this weight will take me forever. And i feel such a failure for not being able to restrict. 

I am lost. I am lost. What do I do..? Please help?",1.5003178840087372,2.7878455362776045,3.6079022082018963,90.91154270808056,77.86435331230285,7.022033487017715,22.602402329531664,7.748469712250963,0.8178440669740352,1133,33,265,17,26,388,145,317,0.153,0.752,0.095,-0.9712,0,2,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,4,5,21,15,2,3,9,0,40,11,8,2,3,43,67,24,0,6,6,3,10,2,1,6,5,0,0,5,15,16,7,1,9,0,0,7,9,11,0,1,9,14,46,4,32,43,3,36,0,6,4,0,25,16,0,1,15,180,61,0,0.20487921610609566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523796016603898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741686091758698,0.0,0.0,0.10159256484480866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753947074630856,0.0,0.1248924685181435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275746223807825,0.0,0.0,0.10460229325696267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029811849642545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41437235037959697,0.14636575292299775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914458706934993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29109394989120524,0.0,0.08193031259631141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866310994369526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555633983909612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07235612466699297,0.10009363614049803,0.0,0.0904560506914624,0.0,0.08602347069000166,0.2292074367488485,0.2236498664540007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909483930936223,0.06941572957463941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420374517488812,0.0,0.0,0.11244792760529496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659870084868774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255991839521487,0.0,0.08163110471751432,0.0,0.2137337048953964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702183648937005,0.08233707660965317,0.17907346529371898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416897120585206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059733359253238034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06954976955554347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847493076762256,0.0,0.0,0.06042153494841317,0.0,0.0,0.24948769043504926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183104752748352,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Animarie0,2019/08/25,"ED Research Survey for Those Living in Dallas/Fort Worth Hello. I am a MSW (social work) student at University of Texas Arlington. For my macro class, we are working on a community assessment project and I have chosen to do mine on accessibility of ED treatment in Dallas/Fort Worth.

One of the biggest issues I'm currently seeing in DFW is the lack of accessibility for ED treatment. In my area alone, there is only one therapist who specializes in EDs and one still has to travel to either Fort Worth or Dallas to go to an ANAD or ABA meeting. It was only recently DFW got a residential higher LOC in Dallas specifically for EDs with ERC.

So what I'm researching is access to ED treatment in the greater DFW area (outside of the main cities). If you live in this area, even if you are from Dallas or Fort Worth (as I need this as well for statistical data), and if you want to help a girl out, which hopefully will lead to helping everyone out in the long run, please click the link below and take the survey. This survey IS anonymous and will remain anonymous, so please feel free to answer any and all questions.

Thank you so much for helping out, and maybe we can start creating change within our communities together through education and awareness of our need based areas and our strengths.

https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/7FCZSSR",9.473271604938274,8.677191522633745,8.963467078189305,66.86643518518518,59.699588477366255,11.556790123456793,36.71090534979424,10.686352973137794,3.882322633744857,1072,40,181,21,12,343,141,243,0.017,0.831,0.152,0.981,1,1,0,0,0,0,33.0,5,4,0,4,7,6,0,0,12,0,14,0,0,1,1,33,27,20,0,8,7,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,15,0,0,4,1,5,4,0,0,1,3,2,3,15,7,43,23,6,31,0,0,2,0,18,22,0,8,5,123,23,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16108572247445738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576806286314708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16453374126787956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027283607252334,0.0,0.0,0.14861885338067066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07864237323003792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839323002658453,0.0,0.12439428868553296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127523299880729,0.0,0.0,0.15447978560224307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233648745344673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274677728584025,0.13764218728724895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625423110885947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433496370696405,0.23065212862208925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161804232300709,0.2365803575170631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414579909524895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423303214675884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357049406845052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394000320714765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854674059315732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008735915201028,0.0,0.12420919457928575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694177966287858,0.0,0.0,0.1431942816997574,0.0,0.18058629483666394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173764413946968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984322841035274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22646037243349215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Idleinterdial,2019/08/25,"Anyone still use peach? My username is oddballidler, incase anyone wanted to add me.",4.947142857142854,8.531718000000001,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,83.28571428571428,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.6618285714285714,68,2,8,1,2,22,13,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7282733461134182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158900851708737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4497807682359143,0.0,0.0,0.3071654780772731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vainpelican,2019/08/25,"ED making my life SO unexpected... It's almost as if every year I have a whole new problem to deal with. 
I'm about to start my senior year. Aside from my relatively new ED, this year was already full of other mental health issues I've struggled with (depression, attempted suicide, subsequent hospitalization, losing a therapist, more anxiety). This summer my ED has thrown my life all out of wack. After months of restrictive eating, excessive exercise, losing my period, etc, my first appointment at an ED clinic came up. Surprise, surprise: my heart rate and blood pressure was dangerously low and I needed to be hospitalized yet again. It's safe to say I wasn't happy. After being discharged, I began outpatient where they took away all control over food from me and gave it to my parents. I finally got diagnosed with atypical anorexia. Worst of all, I'm not allowed to work out - the only thing that helps me cope with the anxiety and depression. Heading into my last year of high school with all these new rules and limits (when I'm supposed to be experiencing the most freedom), it's disappointing to say the least. Not to mention the guilt of having to make my parents take a break from work so they can supervise my every meal...
Recovery is a lot of work.",6.706566091954024,7.757131581896554,7.277344827586209,70.43547126436783,65.07758620689657,10.497011494252872,33.139080459770106,10.504223727775694,3.73443183908046,1005,41,167,25,15,331,143,232,0.163,0.7979999999999999,0.039,-0.9826,3,0,0,0,0,1,37.0,0,0,2,9,7,16,1,3,10,0,11,12,3,4,4,33,24,10,1,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,10,14,3,4,0,1,0,2,3,12,0,1,8,3,21,4,36,13,12,35,0,6,0,0,10,11,0,4,21,115,31,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239012564809156,0.0,0.12385740346984515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717234971530177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545127819137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837035020367524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588443995044524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571243048954555,0.1933408178641552,0.11391918854912238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484747523419997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517501805243902,0.0,0.0,0.1891306802595492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295122249509345,0.0,0.09546956965802243,0.135718612647794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976696687533617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947941827708475,0.0,0.0,0.11518854959410064,0.11930372576354492,0.0,0.1330025483860756,0.07523075306990534,0.11858558966173802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11714729225817548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148893506014036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585540110950846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25113118368769555,0.0,0.09542071813405646,0.0,0.0,0.14983944827850126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131094866151766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958728595567393,0.0,0.0,0.08322304105973335,0.0,0.3252004255601912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536204250613344,0.0,0.0,0.24925399179195384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739659014729384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851229545386416,0.0,0.11359082929566215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944262093393878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733550765734616,0.0,0.12277013471062187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438899383779623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130316947168876,0.07456592761343182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12470052712718725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12530969800468414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451317616623561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891103206677258
EDAnonymous,pyrehoula,2019/08/25,"If this is a choice, is it no longer a disorder? Today I ate the new Popeye’s chicken sandwich. I grumbled about the calories, but I wanted to take part in the social media trend, so I ate it. I generally don’t eat pasta because IMO it’s not worth the calories, but if my step mother makes homemade lasagne, I’m going to enjoy a nice dinner with my family. Most days I refuse peanut butter because of the caloric density, but if I’m going to be doing strenuous physical activity on a certain day, I’ll plop a (measured) glob of it into my oatmeal. I eat what I want on Thanksgiving. I eat what I want at Christmas. I eat a slice of birthday cake at birthday parties. I gained 60lbs because I could not physically do a job that I loved - working on a horse farm 60-80 hours a week - while restricting. I just stopped restricting one day because it was no longer serving me. 

But most days now, I restrict. And *I like it.* I know everyone in denial says “I choose this! I could stop if I wanted to!” but I literally can and do. If at any point restriction doesn’t suit me, I don’t have to do it. However, 29 out of 30 days it does suit me. I enjoy this, it improves my life, and I feel happiest while restricting. 

I explained it to my therapist like this: if you want good grades, you make a plan to study for an hour after class twice a week. If one day you can’t study because you’re sick or you have an event, you may be like “oh that sucks,” but you’re probably not going to freak out about it if you’ve been doing well with your studying habit recently and you’re kept up with the class. I feel the same way about my restriction. 

I think I started to feel like I’m different from other people with anorexia when I suggested to someone to up their calories and eat whenever you’re hungry to prevent binges. I realized that they can’t do that despite knowing that low restriction and fasting will cause them to binge and undo all of their progress. I don’t have that problem at all. If I know logically doing xyz will help me maintain control, I do it, no questions asked. 

I know the underlying need for control over my body is a way to cope with my trauma, so I guess you could argue it’s a symptom, but isn’t a “symptom” supposed to be bad? This is a coping mechanism just like anything else, it’s just not socially acceptable. 

I restrict because it makes me happy. Some people collect postage stamps because it makes them happy. I think collecting postage stamps is dumb, but I wouldn’t try to have them diagnosed with a mental disorder because of what they enjoy. 

**Do you think that choosing to restrict/purge/whatever makes it not a disorder? Does being “disordered” require a reduction in quality of life, or does it mean “anyone who does things that aren’t socially acceptable”?**

Side note: I’m not looking for a diagnosis, ~~(I fired the last doctor that tried to give me one)~~ I’m looking for a discussion and maybe a new perspective.",3.4471309111880046,5.281870349480967,4.621820934256056,83.37395400807381,73.87889273356402,7.861649365628605,29.3427047289504,8.59863814320734,2.326446251441753,2314,100,447,44,48,760,258,578,0.14,0.708,0.151,0.8649,4,0,0,0,0,0,77.0,0,8,7,7,11,25,3,0,32,0,40,19,1,8,3,108,83,32,0,21,28,1,4,5,0,4,7,1,0,0,38,17,10,16,19,0,1,4,18,8,1,4,5,8,69,17,57,67,7,51,0,1,2,1,31,20,2,17,30,293,107,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04494505355361236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0462132966878883,0.0,0.05438835948758237,0.0,0.061787410523218775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055184338249314006,0.3223141870979267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341368367433193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789503303598605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825634515441366,0.15830805225937358,0.0,0.0,0.2557445266616433,0.0,0.0,0.06708232782343039,0.0,0.0690524220412659,0.30299016314950866,0.06764830446750625,0.23135138764621385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381447884888949,0.05521166431190376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315405750518019,0.0,0.0,0.06230597047095339,0.0,0.1002548098374633,0.04721637664794279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340178921512916,0.11268538960939632,0.05543511406777433,0.0,0.0,0.0728081572666899,0.0,0.0,0.14071303714668018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04430029834405638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301752714958208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558644332566661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529047331008438,0.05387407347335912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933659402376618,0.16144687980931738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100182963699802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059650911893022525,0.0,0.2205857309536156,0.0,0.06639863296213581,0.07199392740715277,0.0,0.0,0.06660552763494595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049006628241777886,0.0,0.1276647761369954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343576280967402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157155712028793,0.0,0.0916402052523506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062478618603229015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712587145866959,0.06324143771681441,0.0,0.0,0.07403854007212679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652582064312929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05255927678498826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211843406634872,0.05599982015897981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046780494212746486,0.0,0.0,0.11051230136162354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739048275190466,0.049693209909719864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673829389296984,0.0439088099584339,0.1270478968945274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264780470130983,0.0,0.0,0.08974471280422551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491485506667688,0.1049220368407068,0.10603056748625432,0.0,0.05942494567708804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048116006340987526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maetabee,2019/08/25,"extreme hunger far into recovery? hey guys, i’ve been recovering from anorexia for about a year and a half now and while i had a brief relapse early this year, my weight has been stable for a while and i am at a healthy bmi. the thing is though i still experience extreme hunger? sometimes i eat and i end up hungrier than when i started. i made an appointment w my doctor to ask about this but i just wanted to know if anyone’s had a similar experience?",3.651208791208792,5.1195866483516514,5.0404395604395615,82.07956043956045,72.62637362637362,8.276923076923078,28.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.1951934065934062,359,14,72,7,7,120,63,91,0.039,0.909,0.052000000000000005,0.2477,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,8,0,7,5,0,1,0,11,12,10,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,10,0,11,7,0,15,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,10,53,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683025412098734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22502134561113848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24636592423419215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462954659301397,0.0,0.0,0.21318812900490772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.470900187475848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23833014135270256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228203582196033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277554895581884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380577540373577,0.0,0.17036819745262746,0.0,0.1922227651795675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990991396730633,0.0,0.2364858318800856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197067847736308,0.0,0.0,0.2931068923774874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31000490428223765
EDAnonymous,EDaspie,2019/06/11,"Does anyone else become calmer, more contained when restricting? When restricting I feel calmer, more soft-spoken, with an easiness to ""let things go"". I naturally speak lower, softly, but on restriction I speak more softly and most of the time. It also seems like I can't get annoyed for a time longer than seconds.

It must be the psychological effect of ""having control"" and having less energy to invest in emotions, which means that I sometimes get a flat affect.",8.07987804878049,8.997834060975613,7.642585365853662,69.47924390243907,62.04878048780488,9.974634146341463,31.03414634146341,9.888512548439397,3.1439092682926835,371,12,57,7,5,117,62,82,0.096,0.7440000000000001,0.16,0.6622,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,5,0,6,0,0,3,1,16,12,6,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,3,0,5,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,5,5,1,9,9,5,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055606236044145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17973344064358132,0.26337532333154223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838885347745391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883003910304101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494381422381168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147300258074347,0.2891436017458304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997083238367155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685931978278637,0.0,0.14608589761185414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628482677983325,0.0,0.12558032111526166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799998529800421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340061972695682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542263408349988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077079658899982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997726818830141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,s0704025,2019/06/11,"[Academic] Sense of self and well-being in people living with and beyond anorexia (18+) Anyone with experience of anorexia (either suffering or recovered) please complete the following survey as part of my PhD so that we can help understand more about this illness. Thank you.

[https://glos.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/sense-of-self-and-well-being-in-people-living-with-and-be-3](https://glos.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/sense-of-self-and-well-being-in-people-living-with-and-be-3)",12.755416666666667,13.996328152777787,10.113333333333333,54.61500000000001,52.194444444444436,11.644444444444444,34.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.311683333333333,385,12,47,8,4,114,45,72,0.11900000000000001,0.745,0.136,-0.0141,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,9,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,23,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810391179357095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20708596823525613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932031373003576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238710357012626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744053620824205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21388458993143572,0.0,0.13692888984299886,0.0,0.0,0.216807182930332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6181394816579766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184110285693367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205615363097581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5327568932088657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,calmdownlemon,2019/06/11,"I'm becoming increasingly bulimic I started out just restricting. Which - of course - led to binging. One day I started (or tried to) purging. It used to be just an ""emergency measure"". But these days the purging has become so easy and efficient, I started planning binges around it.

Of course I would like to stop. But it's my coping mechanism for when I'm not well, usually because of anxiety. It worries me. But not enough to actually do anything about it I guess.",3.3926614987080086,6.126404674418605,4.738992248062019,78.10587855297159,77.83720930232558,8.473385012919898,33.974160206718345,9.150863307647796,3.744316795865634,366,21,63,10,9,121,61,86,0.149,0.75,0.10099999999999999,-0.3419,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,0,17,11,7,0,1,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,7,2,12,9,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,9,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.20404578995805706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599565008429027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206672154755864,0.1861381803664137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746189167295272,0.4618562617387048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26969693926539645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21605021672428376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23034084941757946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10215287085176553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416876503190633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439938810840367,0.0,0.0,0.17481212492088374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14196124551224915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059026577149329,0.2302877353195893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18800080894392174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123453232601298,0.0,0.14853452990780602,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emmetthale,2019/06/11,i’m at my highest weight in 4 years and i’m freaking the fuck out i was trying to recover and then i got weighed for an appointment and now i’m just so upset and i feel DISGUSTING and huge and i already knew i had gained weight because i’ve been having violent intrusive thoughts about ways to die bc of my weight gain but knowing the actual number makes it SO much worse,1.6719805194805204,3.957341571428575,3.18193181818182,89.39289772727275,81.33766233766234,6.966883116883117,25.209415584415584,8.07648339933343,1.6304038961038962,299,12,62,6,8,98,56,77,0.235,0.679,0.086,-0.9233,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,3,1,3,0,4,5,0,1,0,14,14,10,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,4,7,0,8,8,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,3,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2027012465038464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292202166153283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662199170664906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21557683279033346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502765486136524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920304680701612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612978324767785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415550318878878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865231237582587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15269545683312472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490362234488345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102580321057595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487561280884322,0.0,0.7588278615356673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211680761020758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337625536961089
EDAnonymous,whattttdo,2019/06/11,"Everybody treated me better when I was skinny Everyone was so caring when I was anorexic. Now I have EDNOS and nobody gives a shit anymore. It makes me feel like I don’t deserve to recover anymore because I’m not skinny ™

Does anyone else have the same experience?",4.616176470588236,6.435649784313724,6.272696078431372,72.7996323529412,70.76470588235293,8.237254901960785,32.357843137254896,8.841846274778883,3.1375843137254904,213,10,34,4,4,73,40,51,0.069,0.748,0.183,0.711,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,2,0,6,3,3,1,0,5,11,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,6,4,1,8,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5222539639122044,0.18410839585704356,0.2697862351784455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050777644510278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23287113873254356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684561467982131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304192511222021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199568452714656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515984154445638,0.0,0.2575619996635957,0.0,0.0,0.13313449835867813,0.18810454968284013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525853497468202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863711610346296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575757621925794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702779438834484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thenxred,2019/06/11,"Is Binging/Weight Gain Inevitable? I don’t know. When I initially lost 20 lbs through restriction, I’d heard all the horror stories about people losing a crap ton of weight in a short amount of time and gaining it all back plus some. I was like, lmao okay, there’s absolutely no way I’m going to gain TWENTY POUNDS back... but, guess what, I did. 4 months of binging and now I’ve gained probably around 30 lbs, putting me at a higher weight.

So I guess I’m kinda just asking this to see everyone else’s experience on this. Did you end up gaining all of the weight back? Did you only gain some of it back, or a lot more? I guess I’m just trying to normalize this with myself, if this makes sense.",1.4085106382978732,3.6952945319148967,2.637702127659576,92.89400000000002,82.40425531914894,5.745815602836879,20.038297872340426,7.0316486544052195,0.3237012765957443,543,15,117,7,15,174,93,141,0.077,0.7509999999999999,0.171,0.9359,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,8,12,5,1,0,6,1,6,4,1,1,3,24,19,8,0,2,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,5,3,1,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,6,5,10,2,17,13,9,18,0,2,1,0,4,6,1,9,10,70,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445259643713646,0.1201935339268621,0.0,0.0,0.3954427965736393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740189613768626,0.0,0.11387290635367735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285203877439405,0.0,0.1257639747594293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306804133931133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4248957666205003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065749836887547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06281173093815014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438344774075674,0.14034693690559344,0.1093037425709332,0.0,0.0,0.08582000220641027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262158819608204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12596914259787656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778160238022114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913272158350043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386178293722486,0.0,0.0,0.12924614569038995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245188772048053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496891578960636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728909410386831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205113216348467,0.0,0.6262437568754242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lotuscakes,2019/06/11,friend posted a picture of me in a bikini it was my friends birthday recently and for her birthday we all went out in a boat. i hate being in a bikini more than anything i hate hate hate my body. she wanted a group picture and whatever i tried not to think about it to much but today she posted it. i saw she tagged me in something and my heart sank. i feel so so disgusting. i thought i was better and now i just want to go purge my entire dinner. i reached my ~goal weight (not ultimate goal weight but what i’m okay with) and i knew it wasn’t healthy for me to weigh this about but i’ve kept at it and i haven’t gone up. i just tried not to think about it so my ed habits don’t pop back up. ignorance is bliss sometimes. but now i’m not happy. i want to reach my real goal weight which i know will probably kill me but i hate the way i look. my stomach is huge and i want to cry it looks so horrible in the picture and everyone can see it i’m trying to distract myself but all. i can think about is purging and wanting to lose weight. i was happy where i am but now i want to weigh in the 80s or high 70s. i have bad depression which stops me from doing a lot of things including exercise and my mom and everyone is trying to force me to exercise to be fit and healthier but i know it’ll end bad it’ll end with me hyper focusing on my body and weight and intake and it’ll all just end in my bulimia fully coming back. i swear i got better i really thought i hated my body less i don’t know what to do i don’t know what to do i don’t know what to do,-0.22196284829721336,1.7831470823529436,2.0941795665634686,95.98459752321985,87.0,5.578947368421053,18.653250773993808,6.950104931194217,0.07747058823529418,1208,33,288,17,38,409,146,340,0.214,0.685,0.10099999999999999,-0.9947,0,0,1,0,0,1,18.0,1,0,0,6,17,21,8,1,9,1,27,15,5,0,3,62,64,28,1,6,16,1,6,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,19,20,8,3,12,2,0,4,10,14,0,0,12,10,55,7,40,46,7,34,0,2,4,0,9,16,0,2,11,195,74,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629054532838471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755873385181086,0.12765216103033253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521390512225806,0.0,0.25473030032236205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584822430968024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396821527994718,0.0,0.0,0.06583959250785276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20311541603926409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608767947797865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038651495259455305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811817575647393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043443888720737504,0.0,0.06113784543821139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274837976460169,0.0,0.4528253387470856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905844268683905,0.0,0.08076542746517239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457201682032188,0.0,0.21005329006757045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838446451480054,0.08551931755885064,0.0,0.06498846201392533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952823196592875,0.0,0.0,0.056193844694678766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464210778001158,0.0,0.0824176677460519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700800869523663,0.04897085874532835,0.0,0.07547749361678391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0609145712376365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058848973849123486,0.07560333366647815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06390913861063638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05078483005578082,0.146943309528106,0.0,0.12137320567127853,0.0,0.0,0.07245830889371803,0.0,0.0,0.2075970627526434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705256953931272,0.060676294974810537,0.0,0.4654302959793993,0.0,0.07086272577452676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dnicky,2019/06/11,I'm on a forced company retreat and it's hell I'm a faggoty trans boy and the cis bros have already given me a mean not nickname. Yay,-1.0380000000000005,1.0296988666666709,1.8883333333333359,94.8825,93.66666666666666,4.333333333333334,24.16666666666667,5.985473137389443,0.569666666666667,106,5,24,1,4,37,25,30,0.322,0.622,0.055999999999999994,-0.8617,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7116810180421319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7025027605344443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sarahkazz,2019/06/11,"Being a slut is preventing me from purging It turns out having your gag reflex repeatedly jammed by a dick is a good way to desensitize it and not be able to use it for nefarious purposes. 

Fellatio: 1
Recovery: 1
Bulimia: 0",3.3326744186046504,5.649998488372098,6.7141279069767466,66.07258720930236,75.74418604651162,11.741860465116279,31.68023255813953,11.20814326018867,4.879609302325584,177,9,31,8,4,66,36,43,0.233,0.703,0.064,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,1,1,0,5,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,5,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,21,5,0,0.4843531782125392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062524659037863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5268371723788603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183256332574125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844570080804057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,great_dayn,2019/03/30,"What’s the point? I recently started seeing a dietician and it’s not going well to say the least. I’m really curious though does anyone actually eat and do what their dietician tells them to? We make weekly “goals” together but idk. Like what’s the point of it all, half of the time I’m motivated to change...but the other half I’m actively engaging in ED behaviors.",2.7491071428571416,5.087052680555559,5.1380952380952385,76.54500000000003,77.75,10.225396825396826,25.563492063492063,10.290406445055957,3.2846325396825407,291,11,55,11,7,102,50,72,0.04,0.752,0.20800000000000002,0.9253,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,2,2,2,3,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,2,1,8,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,4,3,6,8,2,8,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,5,33,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.2561780562989796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18355751218258284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297297974819497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686197288703467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491940722581894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282522119449034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752316796193161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963255433979384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817467435203562,0.0,0.25920319216622656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20876351137478374,0.0,0.0,0.20919151600870514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185810399858661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22945083134277355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579209479208416,0.0,0.15307537514920425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21057475421554525,0.0,0.23603369531804425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rich_random_guy,2019/03/30,"Unsure if I fit here, but I'll try. Idk what it is with me in the last few days. I've been in the hospital for some time (accident related) and since I got out I've barely eaten. It's not like I force myself to not eat or that I don't enjoy it. I'm just apparently fine with eating one sandwich and that's it per day. Anyone else like that?",-0.3809210526315781,1.432124592105268,2.5544736842105285,93.66881578947368,85.97368421052632,5.905263157894738,16.07894736842105,7.1686216300943375,-0.16857368421052674,263,5,64,4,8,93,56,76,0.161,0.7859999999999999,0.054000000000000006,-0.7859,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,12,6,5,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,6,4,7,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,6,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994390225749064,0.29225121862412073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678987223868828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837217505644717,0.2382725569107865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22812400072566205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325000232773137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786973465615353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932788175956542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23594470027520364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16631955204141854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936520340003284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Best__Wishes,2019/03/30,"Any downsides of drinking monster ultra / sugar-free energy drinks? Okay so let's talk some Monster Zero Ultra, my friends. Today ya girl broke down and said uh huh it's time let's try this baby, and of course this sub knows its shit bc that's some holy water in a 16 oz can when fasting. 

But...

I've got this worry thought that drinking that beautiful fizzy white monster will jump start my sugar cravings or otherwise impair my fasts. Before today, my fasts have been just green tea, water, and salt. And I've been really good about avoiding sugar (even artificial sugars) when I do eat, so the last thing I want is an enormous craving for sugar to return that I'll have to fight all over again...or just as bad, an enormous energy crash that makes me tempted to end my fast or challenge why I have to keep restricting in the first place. For those of you who've tried it, what (if any) downsides would you take into consideration when considering regularly drinking sugar-free energy drinks? Did you experience any consequences from it (physical or mental), or have you continued to sip your holy water with no issues? Bless you for your information \~angels\~",8.580126262626267,7.899575379629631,8.183922558922559,71.36242424242423,61.407407407407405,11.0026936026936,33.98821548821549,10.230975488527342,3.35519074074074,926,31,161,17,11,295,139,216,0.114,0.7829999999999999,0.102,-0.6990000000000001,0,1,5,0,1,0,36.0,0,8,0,2,9,10,2,1,5,2,14,15,1,1,1,27,23,16,0,3,8,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,15,6,14,3,4,5,0,1,1,5,1,2,6,8,17,5,20,13,3,25,2,1,2,0,14,8,1,7,16,95,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663384134758156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090050178751633,0.0,0.0,0.11108967884050372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6394536579243546,0.0,0.1335867381324755,0.0,0.0,0.11562984586329715,0.0,0.0,0.08622800958335791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277043809826216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110470071328879,0.0,0.0,0.10086373591949352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950037259791864,0.10441393049754376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13626180829756118,0.0,0.11604013816202255,0.0,0.0,0.07174766945970197,0.10641686623911584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699543065045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714411482828183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156516795817916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639849163227175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363460970516888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418433662324647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340091999672808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240499695459868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09815845231324473,0.10493232018839284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673259055445381,0.0,0.0,0.10364327831958776,0.07612560752921144,0.0,0.2474950425410205,0.0,0.0,0.17727174654572586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770026349312691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780238873707748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258134707578326,0.0,0.0927400131074264,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,withfeathers,2019/03/30,"Any downsides to drinking monster ultra / sugar-free energy drinks? Okay so let's talk some Monster Zero Ultra, my friends. Today ya girl broke down and said uh huh it's time let's try this baby, and of course this sub knows its shit bc that's some holy water in a 16 oz can when fasting. 

\~But\~ 

I've got this worry thought that drinking that beautiful fizzy white monster will jump start my sugar cravings or otherwise impair my fasts. Before today, my fasts have been just green tea, water, and salt. And I've been really good about avoiding sugar (even artificial sugars) when I do eat, so the last thing I want is an enormous craving for sugar to return that I'll have to fight all over again...or just as bad, an enormous energy crash that makes me tempted to end my fast or challenge why I have to keep restricting in the first place. For those of you who've tried it, what (if any) downsides would you take into consideration when considering regularly drinking sugar-free energy drinks? Did you experience any consequences from it (physical or mental), or have you continued to sip your holy water with no issues? Bless you for your information \~angels\~

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EDAnonymous,jdkdjssm,2019/03/30,"A Slice of Normal I dealt with restrictive tendencies for about 3 months. Inevitably, this spiraled into a binge/restrict cycle; I was stuck in that for about 3 months as well. During this time frame, my hair thinned out drastically, I lost my period, my nails became brittle (and I swear the bags under my eyes darkened?) — the whole shebang. I was miserable. So fucking miserable. At the beginning of this month, March, I decided that this needed to end.

I won’t lie — this month has pretty much been a “binge” month. I’ve binged pretty much *every* single day. I know that that’s not “recovering” or “breaking free” of the cycle, but I didn’t restrict once. As someone who would literally restrict until I was on the brim of passing out, I count this as a win. 

These past 2 days, however, have been the best I’ve had in a while. 

Yesterday morning, I was feeling miserable about my weight. I’d gained at least 20 pounds (some of which was water weight, but the weight gain/bloat was still apparent all over me) and didn’t want to leave my bed. My friends had invited me over.

Normally, I would have *never* gone out in public after a binge. But a month binge? Oh sweet lord, that would be unspeakable. Wouldn’t have thought twice about making up some BS excuse as to why I couldn’t hang out.

However, something just clicked in my brain. I was exhausted of letting this shit rule me like it does. I’m fucking fifteen — I want to go out and enjoy my teenage years. And so, I went.

I wasn’t starving. I wasn’t restricting. I felt fine. I didn’t think about food, which is normally all I do when we hang out. Literally. I had such a good time. My friend even commented something along the lines of “you seem a lot happier”. It wasn’t anything special; we just hung out over at her house. However, it’s the best I felt in months. 

I even had a cookie that she’d baked earlier. It was *normal*. I didn’t binge afterwards, or curse myself. I didn’t even think about it. Looking back, I’m still surprised I didn’t think about it. 

Today, I woke up and ate breakfast. I didn’t scarf it down like it was my last meal. I felt full afterwards. I had lunch, and just now finished a snack. I feel satisfied, not overly stuffed or starving. I haven’t counted calories today, even though the number still lingers in the back of my mind (I’ve pretty much memorized the calorie count of every single item in my kitchen).

I feel so awesome. I really, really do. I want to continue this. I can’t wait to have a normal fucking relationship with food. I’m really starting to get better.




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EDAnonymous,salletite-wishing,2019/03/30,"Sick from mental and physical stress (warning: numbers) So...  Wednesday night I ate 800 calories that day and burned 739 over the course of an hour and forty-five minutes and had an hour long panic attack later that night (full on bawling, rocking back and forth, coughing to the point where I was scared I was going to throw up for an hour straight) and when I woke up Thursday morning, I was the kind of sick I’ve only been once before. And I’m still sick and it’s Saturday afternoon. I’ve been eating only 200 calories under maintenance since Thursday and haven’t worked out for all this time except for last night where I attempted light cardio for three minutes and realized very quickly that it was a really bad idea. I bought some Premier Protein drinks so will that help? How do I start feeling better? I’m not as bad as I was on Thursday but I’m still pretty weak and (TMI) food still goes straight through me. How do I get better? I’m pretty desperate at this point and I’ll do pretty much anything except eat up to or over maintenance. ",4.217789408866995,5.965893300492611,4.355169334975368,86.43600523399016,71.66009852216749,6.848399014778327,27.465825123152708,7.413659706084162,1.4919657635467982,832,30,157,9,16,258,121,203,0.126,0.7609999999999999,0.113,0.3476,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,4,12,10,1,3,7,0,13,11,0,2,1,25,24,21,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,8,13,5,0,3,2,1,2,2,7,0,1,11,2,11,3,25,12,4,43,0,0,0,0,1,17,0,2,24,96,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945525030963236,0.0,0.0,0.13749261261621926,0.0,0.09293179439116714,0.20182157452313,0.0,0.0,0.10284065052186804,0.0,0.0,0.21377689973231895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794295248127919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839413138271075,0.0,0.24733435534299586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06110907616427245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614111237027805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314294477554826,0.0,0.06868598192351379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100809257917492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570602514779961,0.0,0.0,0.13643316734403946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585426742378902,0.0,0.09851482032135528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069548967164288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12179572035907978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884401269237767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402491330516341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870906735698334,0.0,0.1838348271127581,0.0,0.1417999873019711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284984033615832,0.0,0.0,0.368865932603549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774242734158138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099922900499295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997439753226796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554341049024022,0.0,0.28955035892594405,0.0,0.1384416150614203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07047285653707468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971991979305647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798554506199703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EmissaryOfLiight,2019/03/30,"Passed out for the first time ...and I have mixed feelings about it. it was definitely a very scary thing to go through but as fxcked up as it is, my brain is kinda sorta.... satisfied?? like ""you're not eating enough to the point of passing out? well done!!!"" 

I passed out at home (luckily) I was walking to my room then I became light headed FAST.. I was heading straight for my bed, I was literally 4 steps away IT WAS RIGHT THERE!! but instead my body decided to plop down in the doorway of my bedroom.

.........

 I woke up on my left side and the left side of my head was pounding hard along with other parts on my left. i knew the moment I opened my eyes what had juss happend and I knew the sound of my body hitting the tiles was loud so I got up really quickly because my brother was home but by the time he came to see what the noise was I was already up so he asked what the sound was and I said I juss fell off the bed lol.

idk what my point is but the fact that I'm not scared by this ACTUALLY makes me scared. any advice on how I can avoid this in the future?",-0.21693050193050206,2.000434842342348,1.481422136422136,98.56317567567572,90.21621621621622,4.432689832689833,17.838481338481337,5.985473137389443,-0.4672707850707853,813,22,191,7,28,263,125,222,0.037000000000000005,0.852,0.111,0.9571,0,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,3,14,1,18,8,7,2,1,27,31,14,0,0,6,1,2,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,13,11,1,1,4,0,0,8,2,3,1,1,19,9,28,2,35,11,2,43,0,0,2,0,5,27,0,2,9,129,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.12742293194628782,0.0,0.0,0.1275969471733903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409340132959714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879587315644649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207054244446572,0.0,0.12268005725509552,0.0,0.0,0.07959766262134751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900800701335254,0.0,0.145765533070414,0.0,0.1493436796874443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362415491205862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361141826811812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491948090817293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06602293744465948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106752305562888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420911217297163,0.0,0.1044332209600828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697007350953895,0.0,0.4020246535188656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261955909774771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425612254598522,0.0,0.0,0.06379263357179825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716021469421525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140063044049173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24687226085356065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365006119040458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11151083328498346,0.12420727966621165,0.0,0.2614578726725801,0.0,0.10405183290565934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674861439132148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227934345418973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773852985086788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740312940949495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kokuno,2019/03/30,"Feeling like I'm not as strong as I thought I was after a comment (Warning: Relapse) Sorry if this is a mess, I'm a mess rn. If there's anything too triggering lmk and I'll take it out of the story.

So my boyfriend and I were getting my safe food (chipotle, no nuts/250-300 calories for my meal without chips) on Tuesday, and I showed him a meme from the sister subreddit and he said ""you're skinny but they're like REALLY skinny"" I know rationally he means unhealthy skinny...probably...

So I tried to figure out if he meant it in a different way, while trying to still force myself to eat the chips and tacos, because sometimes he's bad at words. 

So, he realized what he said/how I took it and tried to backtrack, and lemme tell you this dug himself into a hole by trying to fix it..
""Your ribs aren't showing and that's good""
""You are really beautiful, you don't need to lose any weight""
""The only thing that matters is I can throw you around""
""Bones aren't attractive I like you like this""
""They're too skinny""
""The only thing I want you to do is take care of yourself, and that's not""

I'm sitting there, after maintaining the middle of my healthy weight for 2 months, already struggling about my weight because I'm 3 weeks out from a moderate surgery (recovery is 1-2 weeks) where I gained 6 lbs (he probably didn't notice but I did) like, WTF. 

And that's the story of why I've been on the toilet all morning (lax), worked out the last 3 days, and am back to 800 calories max a day. ",3.1710862342914936,4.481058504983392,4.214909721219128,88.15306803408926,73.58471760797342,7.095247724974723,26.70821898021089,7.586124646067393,1.3507803264480724,1154,41,242,14,23,375,164,301,0.1,0.754,0.145,0.9147,2,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,7,0,4,12,15,0,1,17,0,16,11,5,1,1,39,33,22,0,5,8,1,4,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,14,17,9,1,7,2,0,2,8,5,0,0,9,5,27,10,33,24,1,28,0,1,0,0,20,12,0,3,17,138,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13029938671129784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029547299195204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097166177477182,0.10511233843531836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079286612795932,0.09858821363269693,0.143955608341713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038596752546345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229801805964674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336389548250312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082084049178825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05970258303667709,0.0843532490486489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14277751267102234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168963990731224,0.0,0.0,0.0990362309642192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489127475252594,0.09624739252755583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28842892715436674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209642016496698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861896908877912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424683620140624,0.0,0.0,0.08755157872312831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442987999873593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17960366478505882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730549282163192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128453587601529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22463391406198654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677981086561788,0.13217599355785686,0.0,0.0,0.09429534548248036,0.0,0.0,0.12343827868903498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775563484168378,0.0,0.10320329936657074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688839529006707,0.0,0.0,0.0937388559145656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118636231708153,0.3206623907810655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696440619970235,0.09372293399711,0.18942628598179986,0.4313528991357352,0.0,0.0,0.10654488475524784,0.0,0.0,0.11382068755282312,0.0,0.08596046021003878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SuplexPrincess,2019/03/30,Me: I have to eat so I don’t pass out in public. This is non negotiable. Also me: *grabs Diet Coke and one rice cake*,-3.812472527472529,-4.091724115384613,-0.07219780219780247,102.19576923076923,136.30769230769232,3.024175824175824,7.5604395604395584,5.288315135182226,-1.7778175824175824,87,1,22,1,7,31,24,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459322327361071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.698543477050344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4625959445673777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raisemeupdemo,2019/03/30,"ed twitter i know this has been talked about but i wanted to rant. i think ed twitter is the worst ed community next to tumblr pro ana. 

1. EVERYTHING is considered pro ana, you literally can’t express a thought without someone calling you pro ana

2. there is always fighting. I have actually never been in an ed community with so much fighting since mpa

3. so much kpop, i have absolutely nothing against kpop but seems strange to me to make it such a big part of an account about your ed? ",3.0348304093567258,5.3488467052631625,4.4256140350877216,82.13374269005851,76.6842105263158,7.169590643274852,31.60818713450293,8.167268648758528,2.499046783625731,387,20,74,7,9,128,65,95,0.175,0.825,0.0,-0.9549,0,0,0,0,4,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,6,3,2,0,5,0,9,0,0,1,1,11,15,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,9,0,11,12,4,4,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,2,47,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.24852242546737024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119069002490986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600478434708207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22888211868250294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996067129457718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999505214017446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744253767013337,0.0,0.1964181855593068,0.0,0.27084578779158724,0.0,0.0,0.24436395476134976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757841708939741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318431619612131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21066670854973585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21578214299291995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046951222898436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163183068426626,0.0,0.2021805435356709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021171499493674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454940190011192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilbee0718,2019/03/30,I feel so stupid for getting upset about an extra 5 calories I’ve already been having a terrible week but to top it off today I found out that my boss mixed my unsweetened almond milk creamer with the regular sweetened one because “it tastes better” it’s only an extra 5 calories per serving but here I am crying in the bathroom trying to calculate how much of it I’ve used this week.  ,10.386535087719302,6.93751335526316,10.126842105263162,67.57956140350879,60.184210526315795,11.712280701754384,42.43859649122807,8.841846274778883,4.062707017543859,309,13,53,3,3,102,59,76,0.134,0.7879999999999999,0.078,-0.51,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,1,1,5,0,3,2,0,3,0,9,7,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,5,1,9,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,37,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244808878357415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17924429570474396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600548345790135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32298956700906784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867565871780386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32240011631079124,0.0,0.0,0.15362397040090014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21615352316346764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199249381585082,0.2236309704862014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787159133699048,0.0,0.0,0.19963412699460906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539564929916435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4717229375069041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,miamyamae,2019/03/30,"scared of the scales I’m either completely obsessed and weighing myself multiple times a day or terrified. Right now I’m terrified because any outcome is bad in my head if that makes sense ?
Like if I’ve gained weight = fuck im eating too much activate panic mode
If I’ve lost weight = I look exactly the same though so that means I have to lose more to be “happy” (spoiler: i won’t ever be happy w my weight) AND gain more if I was made to WR. So I’m still fat despite weighing less 🤷🏻‍♀️
If I’ve maintained = I’ve been restricting so much and feeling really ill and if this is the amount of calories I am supposed to maintain on how the fuck am I going to be able to function without gaining weight ?

I’m so scared to weigh myself but I know I’m going to cave eventually and I’m just worried whatever happens tbh...
Anyone relate ? ❤️",0.08534832015810068,2.4155259488636402,2.546620553359684,90.43395256916996,90.64772727272728,5.333596837944665,22.42490118577075,6.895973343053719,0.874500296442688,661,26,137,10,23,226,107,176,0.185,0.7440000000000001,0.071,-0.9388,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,5,11,12,2,4,5,0,11,13,2,3,2,26,29,19,0,6,11,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,9,1,3,0,0,2,2,9,0,0,4,6,11,3,13,21,8,10,0,2,1,2,0,3,2,7,6,74,14,0,0.1275826581968714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676058256964071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920876105581106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652619046319456,0.07777320425739245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376798975776907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228025988701125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054891038093566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540581858409875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450962541429484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23589622332688495,0.0,0.0,0.14501632959358787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128209232952942,0.2716282240809177,0.0,0.0,0.13093661490777098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781116414668715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07011609237023936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062330442346002476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713730037182168,0.1427323601422122,0.13927154256974805,0.0,0.0,0.12072179600550062,0.08516241504198864,0.0,0.0,0.13897491691427674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18757586724699832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969076017467275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173271778158876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895489300032712,0.0,0.0,0.2554649956594874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188767564125964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534931390588913,0.0,0.07439447398715476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6214452268622229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298512970400916,0.0,0.0,0.12956638240852755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bakermillerfloyd,2019/03/30,"i just got fired from my full time job, i have no money and no food in the house, and i’m going to be alone for the next month... i already know this is gonna end badly lmao

my boyfriend works 12 hours a day, 9am-9pm. i have no job, no friends, an empty apartment, empty kitchen, empty bank account. i’m spiralling hard because losing my job was a huge defeat that is gonna ruin me financially... but on the bright side i don’t have to eat!! at all!! for a month!! i fucking couldn’t even if i wanted to!!! i’m having a lot of health issues too that fasting will definitely worsen so hopefully this is the e n d my only friend, the end!",0.49556390977443604,2.526307390977447,2.4879323308270718,94.14588345864662,84.1127819548872,4.702255639097745,20.026315789473685,5.773587663045528,-0.1647954887218046,485,14,109,3,14,162,90,133,0.209,0.637,0.155,0.573,3,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,4,9,1,0,10,0,12,5,0,0,1,11,23,5,0,4,3,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,4,2,3,0,1,0,3,1,6,5,0,0,2,3,12,4,10,16,3,17,0,3,1,1,2,7,1,3,9,63,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702957416290446,0.18144817322916296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728883701666916,0.1002325598721788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604116358802823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824884098511428,0.0,0.0,0.2912652531495215,0.0,0.0,0.10860181838159874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988245647676129,0.0,0.2540702303705385,0.15200918204411912,0.0,0.0,0.09344708166020628,0.0,0.13150648810281326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472933941800657,0.0,0.0,0.17477714284958856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633121126548084,0.16192648311962465,0.18972552096460288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161801865290935,0.4895022834682112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903642262602961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395062888632135,0.0,0.1397891002765509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624865195914317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486891012500747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505337785172474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958781194535644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698271146599947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197040820277114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,captainamyyy,2019/03/30,"why is this disorder so triggering it’s always a competition with people I love and eat around for me to eat less. my bf had some medical issues with his stomach and couldn’t keep anything down a couple years before I knew him as did he lost a lot of weight. he’s ‘6”3 and dropped down from his original 160 lbs to 130 lbs. and all I could think about while he was telling me this was “MUST BE NICE”. I feel like such an asshole wanting that problem when he obviously was suffering

another friend rants to me about how hard it is for him to eat and wishes he could gain weight.  #cantrelate. 

people have every valid reason to vent to me about their issues but I just use it to fuel me ED. it’s triggering and I don’t want to be an asshole and tell them to quit telling me either ",4.649056603773584,4.970240100628931,5.305339622641508,85.34555660377359,69.37735849056604,8.624150943396227,27.849685534591192,8.548686976883017,1.734486289308176,612,19,131,9,10,198,99,159,0.067,0.836,0.098,0.5932,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,3,9,7,0,0,5,0,15,8,1,6,3,35,25,13,0,8,3,0,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,7,10,5,1,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,4,19,4,22,12,5,8,0,2,0,1,17,3,0,2,5,87,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11382873190178668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344694592997925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257491506037152,0.12178118845862584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640690120641498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184476691259734,0.15136682818324051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567848901954454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199422950155625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526007539432362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06917029555698047,0.09773009593742656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569150136213656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254611607910225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855677507084192,0.0,0.12159431047054466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683367158902999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933358704779218,0.11630264482968836,0.1234675287671416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781181745982096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968007896531164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089932379540914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550386029073226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065339787834558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587082345460217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765604954350388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815145687155228,0.0,0.0,0.16137661411277215,0.0,0.0,0.3331715983349168,0.0,0.0,0.12344090981921944,0.0,0.1573134879171516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809484878843894
EDAnonymous,wrinkle-crease,2019/03/30,"I just ripped my pants I couldn’t feel more fat!! You know when you wash your jeans and they’re tight when they dry? Well this morning I put on a pair of freshly washed and dried jeans and as I was pulling them up, they ripped along the side where the belt loop is and underneath. I am devastated 😭 awful way to start the day",1.899166666666666,3.6379948970588254,2.018235294117648,100.7787254901961,77.97058823529412,5.7098039215686285,18.686274509803926,6.42735559955562,-0.4868313725490192,255,5,63,2,6,76,53,68,0.115,0.853,0.032,-0.7568,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,4,1,4,3,1,0,0,10,7,7,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,12,1,7,5,1,12,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32558122988870714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552632090721126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774478789960218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075054993173294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573296611130615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007199635074224,0.0,0.0,0.4539134538401297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lmaothrowaway19,2019/03/30,"I love being home but fuck I hate it so much I'm home for 1.5 weeks for spring break and I love seeing my family so much bc I miss them but shit it's so hard

I come home and theres granola, chocolate, ice cream, and my favorite yogurts and cake waiting for me in the fridge. It's like fuck do you WANT me to gorge on this food right now?? because I can but I'm trying so hard to get a grip on this binge/fast cycle and this isnt helping

to make things worse I was going to come clean about my ED this break but I completely chickened out when I saw the food. I dont want them knowing how much all the food they got affects me. I still want to be able to fast for days without feeling guilty. I want their support so badly but I dont want to change ",-0.5865243902439019,1.493144371951221,1.0628780487804868,102.04736585365856,90.03658536585365,3.76780487804878,16.736585365853657,4.935628992294339,-1.012069756097561,583,14,143,2,20,187,94,164,0.235,0.617,0.14800000000000002,-0.9293,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,4,0,11,10,4,0,4,0,8,8,1,3,1,26,33,17,0,5,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,8,8,3,1,2,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,3,7,24,4,17,28,4,17,0,1,3,4,8,5,3,0,8,85,32,0,0.11828264636104685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876106904203497,0.07210400336186286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512735613077985,0.20378005275753835,0.12401710428803668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628252162368755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772527612239278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150635210324937,0.0,0.05980725999601213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290835364687943,0.0,0.0,0.21870080115923385,0.06179780078745379,0.0,0.06722275375163797,0.0,0.09460143762031112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21191603612006574,0.1167796251496208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928236456463238,0.0,0.3559414154328627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500504908159134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778692632476145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21350941280736926,0.0,0.07895458492580035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608540645532746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101273370693432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425595504390506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141543672231304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446067417585513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422574537774032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858173440926222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030615260232729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34883084710719736,0.0,0.09487920421158884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140202501659706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054012181109093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skelekey,2019/03/30,"Thinness doesn’t determine your disorder. This is a rant, PSA, story, and everything in one. It’s gonna be a long one. 


Throughout my disorder I’ve always been overweight. It started out binge eating, I had gained weight from antidepressants and my mother tried to force me on diets. She would restrict my food intake and it just made everything worse. I would horde food and money and use it to buy more food at school. I remember my mom used to let me have 2 eggo waffles each morning. So I would make 4, quickly shove 2 in my mouth and chew as fast as I could so she didn’t catch me. 

I always had the stupid stereotypical thoughts about how I want to lose weight, “might as well just be anorexic.” It was so stupid of me to ever think that would work out. No matter how little I ate, I always binged and the scale went up. When that number went up, it’s like it correlated with my self hatred. I thought losing weight would help me love myself.

That was absolute bullshit. I’ve struggled so much the last 6 years with absolutely nothing to show except for internal damage, and how the memories haunt me of my organs failing. I remember overdosing on diet pills and vyvanse in the school bathroom. They couldn’t even get an IV in me because my pulse was so strong, blood pressure 210/160. I remember having to consume 800mg of caffeine just to function and exercise, but never getting warm enough to stop my nails from turning blue. I remember going to the hospital because my kidneys were failing. What little urine I made was brown and smelled like burnt rubber. All because I couldn’t stop taking laxatives. 

And I have nothing to show for that. No “beautiful” physique like people think. No weight loss. No better mindset. Just more self hatred, scars, and the loss of normal bodily functions. But I have to tell myself that thinness does not determine my disorder. I’m not less sick because I’m fat. I can’t keep brushing off my habits and saying that I don’t have a problem. I do. I need to get that into my head to be able to change my feelings.

For everyone out there who is feeling alone, or unworthy, or struggling with the same thing I am. You are worth it. Your disease does not define you. And your weight does not determine how serious your disorder is. You can’t just put something on the back burner because you feel like it’s not important. It is, and you are important too. 

I love all of y’all and this sub. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk. ",3.51988245931284,5.679965478902957,4.146449668474987,85.43569620253164,74.59071729957806,7.130319469559977,26.897528631705853,8.037061389416179,1.7704946353224833,1943,74,367,31,42,616,242,474,0.17800000000000002,0.72,0.102,-0.9863,0,1,1,0,0,0,57.0,0,10,1,10,23,25,2,3,13,0,39,26,6,9,4,84,71,34,0,12,15,2,11,4,0,7,6,1,0,2,22,26,15,4,11,3,3,6,17,14,1,2,16,16,60,11,50,41,9,37,0,7,2,2,24,19,0,3,16,248,82,5,0.06744812660702335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985591787418828,0.0,0.0,0.1683667334814356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05186344603640999,0.0,0.20557875974381945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059652386870041735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713511746477993,0.05810058880667191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05385184079169543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092055860931934,0.0,0.17707293035613142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901627196225181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969194480578472,0.0,0.04454885150550688,0.06101069199417525,0.0,0.06444957539897657,0.12123605422816558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231139820588184,0.0481849551248304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446756272631675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057165870002158,0.0,0.03833232469345898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922123668380317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04520905751919785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05995099398254178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054979225366263464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897027920607005,0.0,0.13180699089488124,0.13520148423775208,0.0,0.059689469578449665,0.0,0.15091440222127706,0.0,0.0,0.12174913522703502,0.12764209644608146,0.04502214825347458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715518035909871,0.0,0.07899443070139223,0.0,0.0,0.04958213373707552,0.050011931246998785,0.0520201532844479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608484348164066,0.12943659313094585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914091923203112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046760038478165934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453874809445441,0.0,0.06780399653763082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056223168770768,0.0,0.0,0.05363745744747959,0.0,0.1365222100198614,0.0,0.0,0.14072621188190845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05192486307941135,0.0,0.0,0.04774013116605358,0.0,0.0,0.11277930794131735,0.0,0.14102285297599282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071259718555629,0.05421224927709823,0.058952635551058265,0.062097173038149066,0.0,0.0,0.044809538292346435,0.08643607218758789,0.0,0.10709255699424974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04579285055485945,0.07336419353132186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650705123494827,0.0,0.0,0.039782652593524905,0.0,0.0,0.4106682378812653,0.06064396601408272,0.12505017819715064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049103039473223836,0.0,0.06873540326721958,0.2395660698016899,0.0,0.0,0.0434343821612279
EDAnonymous,wordsanguine,2019/03/30,"I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. [TW] I’ve lurked here for a while, but I need to tell someone this. I don’t have anyone to talk to. Not about this, not about anything else. 

Also, please forgive typos, incoherency, etc. I can’t bring myself to read this over again to make sure it’s readable. 

My boyfriend is leaving, moving away for a job. He wanted me to go with him but he’s changed his mind. He says he’ll think about it while he goes on an initial trip out there, that we’ll talk about it when he gets back. He’ll break up with me then. I know he will. Or he’ll say he wants to try doing long distance for a while, but that amounts to the same thing. He says he loves me, that he wants to be with me longterm, but I don’t believe him. I don’t think he could be happy with me. He wants kids; I don’t. I can’t have them, and even if I could, I wouldn’t be able to handle them because of my issues. 

He’s successful. He treats me well. He’s considerate. At least for the most part. He travels, and when he talks about traveling, I’m reminded that I can’t. I don’t say anything about it, but it’s one of the reasons he cited for having second thoughts. I get it. I’d hold him back. He said before that he didn’t mind that and I believed him when he said it. I think it’s just finally sunk in what that really means. 

I’m older than most of you. I don’t want to say exactly how old, but it’s been a while since high school. I was ana then, although it wasn’t “that bad” because no one knew but my primary care doctor, and she thought I had a handle on it. I remember once when one of the popular girls passed out during an event due to dehydration, they held her at the hospital because they thought she was ana. She was sporty, very active. Skinny as hell but equally fit, and absolutely gorgeous. I suppose I can see why they thought what they thought, but at the same time, I was so pissed because everyone was fawning over her but no one even notice how much I was struggling, not even when I outright asked for help. Nope. I was “smart” and I “could handle it”. Fuck them. 

After high school, my ed morphed into bed. Really no wonder considering that I wound up in an abusive marriage with a disorder that kept me practically bedbound. He’d shove food at me, just the way my (also abusive) mother did.

It took me a while, but I got out of that. Got my own place, stopped eating everything in sight. I got “better”. Everyone applauded my weight loss. Yay me. Then some stress happened and I started seeing a guy who massively triggered me back into restricting. He didn’t mean to, at least I don’t think he did. He turned out to be not such a great guy for reasons, but he never hurt me and he actually made me feel loved and cared about. He didn’t know about me ed but he’d still make sure that I ate something that was reasonably healthy on most days, and he didn’t admonish me on days I couldn’t or even days I fell back into binging. 

After that guy, I wound up having to move to a strange city. I dropped more weight because I mostly didn’t eat, but I was pretty happy, all things considered. Then I met my current boyfriend, and he somehow gets me to eat without it being a big deal. He can be a jerk sometimes because he doesn’t understand eds at all, and he manages to say exactly the wrong thing a lot of the time. I’ve started purging again, which I hate for many reasons, but I’m having trouble coping with everything else that’s going on. Despite this, he is actually trying, which means a lot. 

Since I met him, I’ve gained weight. I’m not sure exactly how much; I stopped weighing myself after 10lbs up. Despite this, I’ve still been reasonably happy, but now that he’s leaving, I’m doing my best to not freak out about everything. 

Tonight, I ordered in. I got about $50 worth of food, including delivery fees and whatnot. In all fairness, I didn’t actually think it would be that much food, but it was somewhere I’d never ordered from before and the portions are simply massive. Makes it a good deal for a normal person. I’m not freaking out over having eaten about 2,500 cals (very rough estimate) in one sitting though. When he leaves, I’ll lose it again. I’m pretty much planning on not eating again for a while, and then going back to hardcore restricting on days I do. 

There’s one thing that keeps going through my mind: at least I’ll be a pretty corpse. 

That’s what’s kept me going the entire time. I won’t let myself die, I won’t kill myself, not until I can be a pretty corpse. I won’t let them win. I won’t let them know how unhappy I am, how much I struggle. 

They. Will. Not. Win. 

For anyone who’s actually reading this, please don’t worry. I’ve still got a long ways to go until I can be a pretty corpse because I’m still overweight, and once I’m at the point again, I’ll find something else to live for. I always do, because I won’t let them win. 



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EDAnonymous,AugustusMarius,2019/03/30,"TMI so my bf commented that I ""have no gag reflex"" (I will leave the circumstances to your imagination). I was like oh god what if he guesses why....

anyone relate?",0.5100000000000016,2.9464580645161327,2.8150967741935484,85.92264516129032,97.38709677419355,6.3509677419354835,19.103225806451608,7.554174236665415,1.1761561290322582,124,4,24,3,5,42,29,31,0.221,0.649,0.13,-0.3034,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35513497054359994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5595082939195789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5377919795160344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24813392254902544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4583000818032417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oldesoul96,2018/11/22,"Thanksgiving Scores: BED - 0 Your Girl - 1 After being out of control for nearly two months now and maintaining my weight I managed to NOT BINGE EAT today. Of all days! A day when my table was FULL of all of my favorite foods. I ate one reasonably sized plate and a half a slice of pie. And I ran 5k this morning to help. 

Fuck you BED, you don't own me.
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EDAnonymous,cooking2recovery,2018/11/22,"Thanksgiving wins - recovery is possible 2 years ago, I was a chronic bulimic and a very active poster on ProED. Last thanksgiving I had been attempting recovery for 2 months, tried to restrict all day, ate 3 helpings of dinner, purged, and then helped myself to a few pieces of pie, purged, then broke into the leftovers a few hours later. 

This year, I ate breakfast and had coffee, gave myself permission to eat whatever I wanted at dinner, served myself reasonable portions of only the foods that looked good, ate until I was satiated, took seconds of only my favorite thing, and had one piece of pie. Oh, and some wine. 

And I feel good. I don’t feel restricted, I don’t feel uncomfortably full, I don’t feel a painful urge to run to the fridge and stuff myself. I feel thankful for my family and to have barely thought about food all day. 

No matter how awful today was for you, even if you’re not in a place where you want to recover, I am confident it can happen for anyone. I never thought I would be here, but this is the least I have ever thought about food on thanksgiving in over 10 years. Recovery is possible. ",8.72338028169014,7.1576738497652554,8.450333333333337,72.41550000000005,61.67605633802818,12.088075117370892,35.85399061032865,11.00357731598739,3.7976745539906105,882,31,163,19,10,284,126,213,0.065,0.851,0.085,0.4582,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,0,2,7,6,0,0,10,1,19,13,0,2,4,33,37,14,0,4,3,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,9,11,2,9,1,0,2,6,2,0,2,15,6,22,4,26,20,10,28,0,1,1,0,5,10,0,2,16,114,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117194003359014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812421819669597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625598985962267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12896178052011045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324267664614557,0.11400278871388893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881136664673828,0.0,0.3186267939670108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4571936971471191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141863653919307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144931892291499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895263645943293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411572914379808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273256716514224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583479383896634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059721282725746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09720333190643396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540226719272885,0.1917054069839257,0.1341064977821184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167618722534627,0.0,0.0,0.28416336254589325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295814651814681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427601790078662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603295531009172,0.0,0.0,0.08372978832623289,0.0,0.0,0.3001650140850185,0.0,0.0,0.1194632109526418,0.0,0.140025733933849,0.08556717676486507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039892609500304,0.14867339444471986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952922560270662,0.0,0.0,0.2434806357999107
EDAnonymous,rosepurplesoup,2018/11/22,"Today is the lowest of the low. I'm not going home, partially so I don't have to deal with food. My ex boyfriend came over and cooked me dinner. I had water with dinner because I had only one coke left and I needed a chaser for the rum after he left. As soon as he left I purged as much as I possibly could without the rinsing method. Partially for the calories directly, partially because if my stomach was emptier I could get drunk easier. What the fuck am I doing.",2.181264775413709,4.3228108617021315,4.174822695035463,83.73388888888887,78.68085106382979,7.1565011820330975,24.274231678487002,8.167268648758528,1.6708855791962178,367,13,70,7,9,125,65,94,0.134,0.836,0.03,-0.8176,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,7,0,10,9,1,0,0,11,16,8,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,7,0,0,3,0,2,3,2,0,1,4,0,11,0,13,10,1,10,0,1,0,1,4,5,1,1,3,50,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382910158488364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22354461155860686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121044670075334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20150206247195532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363409034678751,0.0,0.0,0.18069189519770995,0.10211541689968884,0.0,0.1110796733382665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960539348522756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6370763485132502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367944712386313,0.14492491729520454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13244309214551206,0.14864978247396382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034236119933226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852653047312376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884084098842028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yatessc,2018/11/22,"Can't enjoy anything when restricting Whenever I restrict for a month or more (1000 cal or less a day) I lose my enjoyment of anything. Everything is boring so I just lay in my bed all day. It's not bad when I'm at work since I don't mind working but on days off I just lay in bed all day and it drives me crazy.

Days like today where I can't just go to work and pass the time are the worst. I just want to go to work but everyone is off there too so I won't have anything to do if I go there.

Does this happen to anyone else? Is there a fix that isn't eating?

When I eat I can enjoy games and movies but now I just lay in my bed and wait to go back to work 😫. ",-0.2227719962157053,1.1982856490066247,2.1356338694418184,98.96167218543049,83.2384105960265,5.638789025543993,17.40823084200568,6.5431188927421005,-0.4738140018921469,507,10,134,5,14,173,83,151,0.145,0.795,0.061,-0.9082,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,6,17,8,0,0,5,0,12,2,0,0,2,23,20,15,0,2,12,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,4,2,3,0,1,0,6,6,4,0,0,0,0,16,4,16,19,5,27,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,3,14,86,20,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976147315530974,0.14304133606222633,0.34464789301983306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734726432827336,0.11656394912752238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501668550225035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216886274118822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857005677595226,0.11662166901455225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339810858965873,0.12546754751131686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31736188052734915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345182256429675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820372041019966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561817567503868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409607759373083,0.0,0.1114310018978496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548230773187665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140452262022478,0.0,0.13232876848433012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234236731278717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5081687932916488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Delicious_Delilah,2018/11/22,"I'm down 5lbs in 3 days! It's been a bitch with the headaches and almost passing out when I got my blood drawn yesterday, but woo. Today I'm only eating some turkey breast that I'm making soon. 

I've been at under 1000 calories per day of mostly protein and eca stacks. Usually around 500 calories with a tiny bit of walking. Tiny bit. 

It's nice to see the scale moving in the other direction for once. 

Happy Thanksgiving. ❤️",2.4016279069767457,4.487702360465121,3.6955232558139532,87.71444767441862,77.72093023255816,6.16046511627907,22.377906976744185,7.1686216300943375,0.8210046511627911,337,10,66,4,8,110,67,86,0.027999999999999997,0.82,0.152,0.9151,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,5,0,2,3,2,1,0,11,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,2,13,5,4,17,0,0,1,1,0,7,1,3,7,33,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422905421923366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21539796834867947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283208732297346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120916550987495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475880944474037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351955476309265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575736335220602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151188085185272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571678980594684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576822187182696,0.0,0.1840234223619942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928128251821655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22935220525836655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26648756437724536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moonspirit2030,2018/11/22,"Hope everyone’s thanksgiving will be okay! It’s 1pm and still haven’t calmed down at the fact that people will be right in front of me, watching, when I’m eating. I normally eat alone to avoid questions but oh well 🤷🏽‍♀️ ",-0.061875000000000575,2.182736562500004,1.788333333333334,96.49000000000002,89.625,5.7,18.416666666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.22989166666666616,177,5,41,3,6,58,44,48,0.07,0.746,0.184,0.6177,0,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,5,2,0,0,1,7,7,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,5,3,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,2,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298589941075465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5900019699282061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754812406212731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863451171945932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28247097914742986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998696396635713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32295991229358995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462050480388283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23023527796723706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592146634067525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xXnanixX,2018/11/22,"Food poisoning on Thanksgiving. I was finally ready to stuff myself and feel like shit later. Life had different plans for me. I’m puking and pooping my guts out every 5 minutes. At least I’m not gaining though, so there’s that. ",2.452272727272728,5.158206954545456,3.6647272727272733,84.46209090909093,81.72727272727272,7.156363636363636,24.70909090909091,8.238735603445708,1.9663600000000003,182,7,33,4,5,59,40,44,0.248,0.653,0.099,-0.8192,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,2,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,4,1,5,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426599291412603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763297443934119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16583201100195094,0.23430257474274294,0.0,0.35927624051583545,0.0,0.0,0.39658388042518417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23165564306292816,0.160230082479882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366575569535177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754483715879535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222298791727628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,softdyke,2018/11/22,"Reassurance that my legs won’t always be this fat So I’m at a healthy bmi now from an obese one and I am very pear shaped so my thighs and ass are huge but also my calves?
I have noticed that they are smaller, 4 inches since I last measured them but I’m worried my legs and calves especially will always be big?
I’m mostly happy with my torso and look normal sized/ slim on my top half but it’s just my fucking legs!!! 
Has anyone gone from having really big legs to slim ones?",0.7779545454545485,2.994036450000003,2.4694545454545462,93.5497272727273,84.5,4.836363636363637,17.090909090909093,6.1124844417494595,-0.41829999999999945,375,8,82,3,11,123,70,100,0.049,0.813,0.138,0.8401,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,1,5,3,1,0,2,0,10,9,7,0,0,11,16,10,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,1,12,2,6,11,1,11,0,0,1,2,3,8,2,1,2,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21255489880023304,0.4423228288686732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858489365187628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24572173021585936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829420338117697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21665710906925126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319952771384535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604211144599343,0.0,0.3026075658591361,0.0,0.0,0.3602169950292953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17027406836188733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198670604039658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193074043936296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699261159354441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asadnlonelydood,2018/11/22,"Today's Thanksgiving y'all I know there's already posts about how you should take a break from restricting and starving yourself but please take those posts to heart, allow yourself to be happy,to eat as much as you like without the guilt
Remember, it's OK to take a break every once in awhile. 
Your happiness is worth way more than what that awful voice in your head says,I believe in all of you. ❤",5.608101265822788,6.218129810126584,5.209974683544306,85.85116455696203,67.35443037974684,8.345316455696205,28.458227848101266,8.238735603445708,1.7391650632911393,321,10,64,4,5,98,60,79,0.087,0.6659999999999999,0.247,0.9351,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,6,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,2,3,3,2,2,1,10,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,7,3,13,5,3,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264254425229688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311718966102225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20995426735940387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17287621398774375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21842198688076228,0.0,0.0,0.21057779014213804,0.0,0.0,0.2431438091815941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276365892861301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024244797414693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083371307823426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21851406693560946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22523021377607305,0.0,0.0,0.3930187542337679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232433264664404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.462818081240735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944902654942217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628653621514444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977898760530539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MrsBluebeard,2018/11/22,"If you think I'm going to keep Thanksgiving down this year You're right. 

I feel huge, and ugly, and unwanted, and scared. I have to see family I usually avoid tomorrow, I had a huge fight with my boyfriend last night over a girl who's much prettier and cooler than I, I'm going to be homeless in a couple weeks, and I'm hungover. 

I'm scared. I won't eat much at all this year, but I'll try to keep it down. I really just want to disappear. 

Please, guys-- have an amazing Thanksgiving.",3.5166571428571416,4.353923179999999,4.8494285714285725,85.73900000000002,72.2,9.314285714285717,25.285714285714285,9.606745405546679,1.9676714285714283,378,11,83,9,7,126,65,100,0.134,0.71,0.156,0.627,0,1,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,3,4,0,5,1,0,0,1,17,17,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,3,2,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,1,2,9,1,12,14,3,18,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,1,7,45,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22455979734180476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20766803796180827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19132275701824367,0.0,0.10261738148826514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23068179237381906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095194466923205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607817385738845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16543095614780134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983825158440941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19045438789677108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227776418782124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001466721906382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733177916973322,0.0,0.0,0.4063757733536388,0.0,0.16172450128840732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13004186556280012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778941048289692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235202373480845,0.0,0.11970489239888535,0.0,0.16279387309388232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613856896947138
EDAnonymous,get_lizzy,2018/11/22,"Struggling to keep down lunch Really want to keep down lunch but the urge to purge is so strong. I need the food because I have to work all afternoon and can't concentrate without it, but I'm really struggling to keep it down. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated, I'm struggling!",7.261757575757572,6.95999941818182,7.221818181818183,75.939393939394,63.90909090909091,10.969696969696967,32.878787878787875,10.504223727775694,3.219969696969697,228,8,44,5,3,73,36,55,0.146,0.617,0.237,0.8085,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,3,2,0,5,3,0,0,1,12,12,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,10,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,26,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395522056850672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509623467088393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481449585266889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.547209518726917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521631975845881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26293002433220203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6436010679736359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104022932309424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781847479968606,0.0,0.14939785989201054,0.0,0.0,0.14577777064342146,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Doodle111,2018/11/22,"Binge Eating Disorder > Most people with binge-eating disorder are overweight or obese, but you may be at a normal weight. Behavioral and emotional signs and symptoms of binge-eating disorder include:

Eating unusually large amounts of food in a specific amount of time, such as over a two-hour period

Feeling that your eating behavior is out of control

Eating even when you're full or not hungry

Eating rapidly during binge episodes

Eating until you're uncomfortably full

Frequently eating alone or in secret

Feeling depressed, disgusted, ashamed, guilty or upset about your eating

Frequently dieting, possibly without weight loss

> Unlike a person with bulimia, after a binge, you don't regularly compensate for extra calories eaten by vomiting, using laxatives or exercising excessively. You may try to diet or eat normal meals. But restricting your diet may simply lead to more binge eating.

[Source](https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/binge-eating-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20353627)

This. This is me. I'm not a large person, 5'5, 125 pounds. God damn, I feel so validated.

I will eat until I'm uncomfortably full. Sometimes I am unable to stop eating even after I'm stuffed. Like every day is thanksgiving and I'm never going to be able to stop.

What is going to help me break this habit?

- Drink more water because hunger is sometimes thirst

- Drink 0 cal sweetened beverages to curb sweetness cravings

- Choose low calorie fruit and veggies over processed carbs and sugar

- IF. IF. IF. I've been reading so much about people who lose control as soon as they start eating. This has been a big discovery for me too. I dont struggle to stay under my TDEE if I skip breakfast and lunch.

My goal weight is 115. What do you lovelies think? Any suggestions? Can anyone relate?",6.7351165121523415,9.483868706840395,6.3498534201954415,70.56810761713857,67.14332247557003,8.892458030568779,32.003132047105986,9.466822959209583,3.5626337759959914,1451,62,204,32,26,451,184,307,0.183,0.725,0.092,-0.9854,0,1,2,0,0,0,64.0,0,7,1,6,10,12,2,3,7,0,21,37,1,4,1,46,35,26,0,6,15,0,6,1,0,4,5,0,0,2,8,9,33,6,6,4,0,3,6,9,0,0,3,9,18,3,34,26,10,32,0,4,0,1,15,12,1,14,16,125,26,3,0.06250093025916399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647321144541603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04250277582445392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043702103656219314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0380999869733252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020021569524765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04030792944420785,0.0,0.0538319596487077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148944427109808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325062478110078,0.12245423460264225,0.0,0.8314027153831032,0.0,0.0703051341463325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256254995173153,0.0,0.052659729386363915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948070448455942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557637295987818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104143800157188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04189305608965111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06155082645161974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030534797480696117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992255384120097,0.0,0.0,0.05640952975813324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045945375189691474,0.0,0.04820457047599809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224752828999612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666055088134507,0.1091468030580778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046040792987178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251784389852554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363003634192353,0.0,0.04423848012795888,0.06661767564288402,0.0,0.10450715260611948,0.0,0.06533954271372648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496239771805068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04004807243311894,0.0,0.0,0.03644479505328547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04243402897716007,0.0,0.06105432712283845,0.0,0.0,0.053980736383996905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283278856210487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06024866641893663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hippobampus,2018/11/22,I neeeeeeeeeeed a new r/EDfood thread!!! desperately. i miss it so much 😭. I spent so much time lurking that sub for low cal food inspiration or when I was just bored and wanted to look at food...  r/1200isplenty is just not cutting it for me 💀. ,1.0175000000000018,3.5302024166666683,2.2800000000000007,92.965,87.33333333333334,5.7,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.5000999999999993,188,6,41,3,6,60,39,48,0.217,0.6890000000000001,0.094,-0.6451,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,6,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,2,1,5,1,4,4,2,5,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7522294475453347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611979856590474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573051450160576,0.0,0.0,0.3004075020713166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813718161851311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346136342052474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gottlieber,2018/11/22,"do i have an ED? sometimes I feel so fat and big and ugly that I gag myself until I throw up. not often. just once a month or so. 

I feel happy afterwards. which is weird because people usually say they feel bad about it afterwards. 

I almost feel like it's a good habit, but I know it's definitely not. but what harm can it be? like, it's not hurting me if it's just every once and a while, right ?.",0.13739869281045713,2.0955393411764724,2.669803921568626,92.74300653594773,85.0,5.660130718954249,17.6797385620915,6.937597516519254,-0.010124183006536391,304,7,70,4,9,105,56,85,0.085,0.693,0.223,0.9214,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,6,8,0,0,4,0,5,1,1,0,0,19,10,11,0,1,9,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,3,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,0,5,10,4,3,9,0,10,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,4,8,47,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21940876246768887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829491551683481,0.13356848632019155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846110957752296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431579283349851,0.15653347474831836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837805364185262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332485274250574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345636553084692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120418085046167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21409386215515688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17489290479058334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.466693715795334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519044955710778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871202334298686,0.0,0.17424645450364726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670711894812766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24132063176706745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,6sixofspades66,2018/11/22,"How many of you got started because of a loss? I am asking everyone ""why or what started there ED and was it due to a death of a loved one""

The reasoning is because I thought I was cured of my bulimia years ago. However, since 2018 began, I have been in two car accidents  that were not my fault, and have had three very close family members pass away suddenly. One, my grandmother, who I would claim to be my best friend in the world. And now I feel lost, wandering this world that has no rhyme or reason to it. I do not know how to process any of these feelings. I cant even identify most of my feelings. I have never dealt with death before, and I feel extremely alone, although I only have family and friends surrounding me. 

So I turned back to my ED, although this time I'm an Ana. It gives me a sense of control in my screwed up world atm. And it gives me short bursts of happiness when I see my weight drop. In a way it really has been a savior during this time in my life.

Anyways, please feel free to share your story with me. Happy Thanksgiving everyone",3.5134330985915483,4.8059579577464815,4.4488233568075115,86.87774207746479,72.70892018779342,8.517488262910799,26.927523474178404,9.017664075816787,1.9744650234741783,827,29,175,17,16,268,130,213,0.107,0.755,0.139,0.8506,1,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,4,9,12,1,0,9,0,18,4,0,5,1,28,37,14,2,1,4,0,6,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,13,9,1,1,9,0,2,2,5,4,0,4,10,7,28,9,23,25,2,30,0,2,1,2,10,13,1,3,13,120,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522748049089584,0.0,0.0,0.13462948908881012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839703510928187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152224695466185,0.0,0.12212902405138505,0.09995358238427676,0.0,0.15848027903186868,0.0,0.1106111369282585,0.0,0.13641552469978152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579381168336816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585656448579519,0.0,0.0,0.24842028197473706,0.0,0.0,0.245084280639202,0.0,0.32863193478771363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20085848876932827,0.0,0.0,0.2493947495492798,0.0,0.0,0.10396414576068197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767515955933052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07143860144095579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181513475509437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189844136166274,0.0,0.11732022405131586,0.0,0.0,0.13178852928866874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002555956908352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616793586862994,0.09886255644419592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426889800072583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327433621733515,0.2673008574390114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358447075959568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752831413109748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18401388639668653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031968133273752,0.15159536126213702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139079684448594,0.12698044759575353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725460843287137,0.0,0.10317928493824084,0.0,0.1582916858970529,0.0,0.0,0.11729493042986393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234051619936716,0.0,0.0,0.08370870868500756
EDAnonymous,Mystalist,2018/11/22,"Dumb Question: Am I Bullimic or at the Start of Developing Bullimia? I know how fucking dumb this sounds, just hear me out for a minute

So to start off I can make myself throw up at will: I don't know how, but I just can. And sometimes I use this ability to throw up food I binge eat. 

*However,* I don't throw up everything. I throw up until I'm sick of throwing up, which is about 10-20 minutes. Keep in mind that I'm not just spitting up or dry heaving; I'm definitely throwing up chunks. 

And it's only sometimes. Most of the time, I binge and deal with it. But I'm throwing up more and more often. On my most body-anixiety filled days, I have trouble keeping food down period. Sometimes throwing up isn't a choice. 

Also my temples really hurt and I get a kind of headache after vomiting for a while is that normal 

I'm also not a very thin person objectively and subjectively, I am on the line of being overweight but I'm not sure if that's relevant 

Wow this sounds even dumber reading it over ",1.7657389162561543,3.9056887635468014,3.656184729064041,86.92782389162564,80.08374384236453,6.818620689655173,24.92832512315271,7.908726449838941,1.4798632512315266,781,30,161,14,20,263,113,203,0.132,0.807,0.061,-0.9223,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,3,0,8,0,12,8,1,4,1,35,29,19,0,2,12,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,10,8,4,2,3,1,0,9,6,5,0,0,0,4,17,3,31,27,4,36,0,1,0,1,4,19,3,7,8,108,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495787247745017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006363030290078,0.1608758425179217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967328886957707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10306644263743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024344518905246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37738116920895504,0.0,0.0,0.1442613565314616,0.08152722372304584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587438335213545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704971082147324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774004479821325,0.0,0.1624971570969973,0.17151682137783827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416144308023302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756125983244473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528912530789285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867947504970598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625272866476335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480643793519096,0.0,0.15608751851172809,0.0,0.09996660882388367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4629983469386902,0.0,0.22089931946825667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707083951953584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099126373854352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347730290137621,0.0,0.12875370699785538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whose_cat_is_that,2018/11/22,Monster Energy Ultra is finally available in Shanghai!! Up until now the only zero calorie drinks I’ve found have been coke and sprite. So happy to finally be able to drink monster again without feeling guilty!!,6.5045045045045065,8.974673864864869,6.760540540540539,68.55990990990989,67.1081081081081,8.176576576576577,36.65765765765766,8.841846274778883,3.9665927927927935,171,9,22,3,3,55,34,37,0.032,0.745,0.223,0.8490000000000001,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,6,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,16,0,0,0.26980373850312217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5286098967540901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642087688246313,0.0,0.0,0.5911136152552402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29582587326959264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872110966167052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20519790095371215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600811759481489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Skets,2018/11/22,"I need help. So I know you guys are mostly skinny and deal with other EDs but I am just at my last straw. I have Binge Eating Disorder and I have it bad. I am morbidly obese, and have severe Binge Eating Disorder. I mostly lurked because I empathized and felt with you guys so much, just in a bit different way. I am just so f***ing sick and tired of being fat. Do you guys have any tips, tricks, or just plain words of encouragement?

Thank you guys <333 !!! I seriously love you all!!!! While different, trust me I completely sympathize with the pain you feel. ",1.694679487179485,4.3204973425925965,2.7277777777777783,90.30269230769231,84.83333333333334,6.656410256410258,19.41880341880342,7.882392219407189,0.8729350427350435,435,12,89,9,13,138,68,108,0.247,0.613,0.141,-0.9364,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,6,0,0,7,8,1,0,2,0,10,9,2,0,1,22,16,11,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,2,8,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,19,4,7,14,5,5,0,0,0,1,14,2,0,3,2,59,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241936383291876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575232133817504,0.09180991952072334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442614780885195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791079320153348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527138589686218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31470894247139025,0.34522219136293386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30822145159211617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615249460466281,0.0,0.1446083705122443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5965068163026621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095011609218768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277083166478125,0.12276653148599688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593060782204422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071502994130457,0.11167475153037908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025871869803196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17014543247475386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866063950870527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310302393125465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954650640766196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadveggiehead,2018/11/22,"Always have a stomachache DAE always feel tummy sick? I don’t eat and I feel a dull ache and it’s never too much until after 24 hours when I have to eat, then I eat and still feel awful if not worse. It’s a never ending cycle. My body hates food. I hate eating, I hate the feeling of being full and feeling sick. I wish I could live off soylent or something so I never had to chew. I just hate all of it.",-0.7844318181818188,1.2807139659090936,1.743636363636366,96.81045454545456,91.1590909090909,3.2,13.681818181818182,3.1291,-1.4016045454545454,311,5,70,0,11,106,57,88,0.301,0.614,0.086,-0.9707,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,4,1,6,9,1,0,4,19,16,10,0,3,4,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,5,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,5,11,0,7,13,3,12,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,10,50,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22068993701124046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473035868665181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588100546806377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5427864423269602,0.0,0.0,0.11745610668462017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352665867939643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603566442501779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237130921376781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305974816474275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710005782927033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748610439595487,0.0,0.306838877931701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209227077131684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059052289615254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249886017095207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514437950853406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowcalpizza,2019/10/11,"Yee fuckin haw, my dudes Catch me trying to not cry in my work’s break room because other people are in here. I just want to eat my chicken salad in p e a c e",-2.3270270270270292,-0.5703831621621589,1.0095135135135145,101.00508108108109,96.83783783783785,2.9600000000000004,12.805405405405404,3.1291,-1.676368648648649,121,2,31,0,5,43,31,37,0.0,0.879,0.121,0.4318,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,16,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28914541548080963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5210260788585419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4853550691795581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288387081067215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220369851495208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797704302579171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453157993449455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,batcrumb,2019/10/11,"Alone I feel so alone. Tonight, I want to relapse and binge/purge. Usually on a weekend night I'd have someone to keep me company which distracts me. But now, all my friends have basically fucked off. 


I'm currently watching Insatiable (I know I'm dumb for this, this show triggers tf out of me) and there's a scene where Patty goes to an eating disorder support group. 


I desperately wish I had an irl ED support group to go to. But I dont think I can find one in my state. At least, not one specifically for eating disorders. There's mental illness groups, addiction groups, maybe the rare overeaters anonymous group. But nothing that applies to me. :(



Sorry, idk why I made this post. Just ranting I suppose. Anyway, probably gonna go relapse now lol.",2.3825269262634627,5.170238478873241,3.2901822700911367,86.35113090306547,83.22535211267606,6.439768019884013,28.775476387738195,7.724431198458867,2.1362596520298265,592,29,110,11,17,188,100,142,0.184,0.713,0.10300000000000001,-0.8841,1,2,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,2,1,5,1,5,6,0,2,1,18,20,6,0,2,5,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,3,1,4,2,0,2,2,3,0,2,2,2,15,3,14,17,2,17,0,0,1,1,6,6,2,0,7,62,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700668293586511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231451316274304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575870264777577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828349265760701,0.0,0.0,0.3192610299365498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888005112601994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258436217531684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052790817068865,0.14422271123850322,0.0,0.0,0.17732075514292478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866306843590992,0.0,0.0,0.08573543739250489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14761427275050829,0.0,0.0,0.15672647241291585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721482391631278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639870591699033,0.0,0.1496895545773103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21142400231218275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940821856011738,0.0,0.16819814607057235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13218124948866847,0.0,0.0,0.17463313309360828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35406181987037244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996073623540776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181580248891118,0.0,0.09201489938172486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14076888350956035,0.0,0.17939631267724382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RoknaBlue,2019/10/11,"how my dietitian gave me weight loss tips while she was trying to make me healthier e x t r e m e trigger warning, someone asked for the specifics of something i posted so here it is


ive been to the dietitian with my dad a couple times bc i'm now underweight & people are beginning to say stuff to him about it. yeah nosy church people are the best

she basically just gave me a ton of in depth information about different foods & what they do, & i've kinda picked and chosen stuff and i ended up losing 5 pounds in about a month.

so apparently chia seeds are magical?? 2 tablespoons of chia seeds is 130 calories which is a lot. HOWEVER. in that 2 tablespoon dosage each seed increases by 20% by absorbing water in your stomach. so you feel *full*. for a *long* time. it takes a while to digest them as well, & there's 10 grams of fiber too. literally i just swallow 2 tablespoons in the morning and i have no desire to eat until 6 or 7 pm. 

also! fish. meat used to be a biggg fear food for me. all tbe added oil, butter, blah blah blah. but 3 oz of mahi mahi (think of 4 king sized Hershey's bars stacked on top of each other, it's a lot) is NINETY CALORIES.

AND 20 GRAMS OF PROTEIN?? do you know how FILLING that is??? and it's so easy to cook in a nonstick pan with no seasoning. and my dad thinks i'm eating normally because its a lot of fish. it's great.


also something she said was i should eat more meals during the day if i'm going to eat so little. and i'm doing that now, but not really meals. and it's helping me so much with binges, i literally have not binged once this month. 

i'm eating a piece of small fruit every other hour (when i'm not at work) and then like a sweet potato or fish filet for lunch, and my total intake is coming to 300-400. and i don't feel the need to binge, because i'm already eating. 

also, on days i work i make sure to eat a lot of protein, and some extra chia seeds. i work in a kitchen where i could easily sneak a few bites in at a time of cookies/chicken nuggets that'd easily total up to 2x what i want to eat that day. but now if i go anywhere i know i'll be tempted, i make *sure* to get full before i leave so i know i won't overdo it.

also!!! one last thing!! 5 calorie chicken broth cubes are the best thing ive bought in my life. it's like i'm drinking soup, like a f u l l on meal for nothing.",1.1160372919752568,2.8465603967935884,3.160091051668555,91.7274625337632,80.30260521042085,6.182817809532107,21.06826696872005,7.1686216300943375,0.4563517121198926,1814,51,412,23,46,614,256,499,0.036000000000000004,0.845,0.12,0.9928,3,0,3,0,0,0,74.0,0,3,2,9,27,13,0,1,24,1,27,25,1,8,5,63,59,38,0,8,12,2,3,6,0,2,2,2,1,0,25,18,23,0,8,3,1,5,7,3,1,1,7,9,39,10,58,46,21,51,1,2,0,0,18,23,0,10,25,242,64,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07960658723856634,0.2307564096899205,0.0,0.3126479760492957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743972448909398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794987438679804,0.0,0.061384518364363864,0.0,0.15140973167194274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062140897893750234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057596692370232225,0.07981983669416322,0.0,0.1395700213975926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536933945496271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066822988006614,0.0,0.5905252524423429,0.0,0.0,0.06389326597167379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06077976598805741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117582603285761,0.07295074834707402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446023047421974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03768936926678095,0.0,0.0819959013748508,0.0,0.0,0.07953290961067336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04835289082045496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104185440553583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893623726843283,0.05880247515443656,0.0,0.07638421584775243,0.0,0.0,0.05095352947286054,0.10572962681327497,0.07230169090934284,0.0,0.06384026927418357,0.0,0.0807044872671912,0.0,0.24531816458932298,0.0,0.0,0.14445895170972056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151604651010316,0.0,0.05303007031756736,0.05348975590299232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07068037683372884,0.06921880038280573,0.0,0.0,0.07682510824992178,0.04888288916853758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002345367783497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908870619106629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04621374630773991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862019740790394,0.057367400829876826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06112268520366644,0.11107142564428306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516256124222795,0.0,0.0,0.1359792944221254,0.0,0.054239146080265886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585117813370717,0.09244682793178384,0.0,0.0,0.12619355287049758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04897728076495005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062304469914954363,0.0,0.0,0.042549134243418975,0.0,0.0,0.08784521314680914,0.0648611412957045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15755297966074985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pm_me_your_omad,2019/10/11,"I’ve eaten today no way I’m sick tw calories

So what if breakfast was 80 calories worth of seaweed and lunch is 50 calories in an almond milk latte...it’s health, right? Health! Saving up to eat big later on...(narrator: she did not eat big)",-0.3926020408163282,1.8080510408163304,1.7293622448979598,93.57322704081636,99.81632653061224,3.266326530612245,18.369897959183675,5.148860815047168,-0.3370224489795919,187,6,37,1,8,62,43,49,0.11900000000000001,0.8420000000000001,0.039,-0.5983,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,4,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,15,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6180134828939725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6419933127045323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25789412069771456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862471143806301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397021765070927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,glossier123,2019/10/11,"Getting Through this Weekend I’m visiting my family in Canada this weekend for thanksgiving, and I’m so completely stressed about it. All that’s on my mind is the food my lovely, amazing, kindhearted grandmother is going to serve and how I can’t bear to disappoint her by not eating it. I don’t want her to worry about me or be concerned for my wellbeing, she’s too wonderful to be stressed about me. She phones my mom sometimes to talk about how I’m doing and so I really just don’t want to worry her this weekend. 

But oh my god the amount of food that everyone is going to be expected to eat is insane! I can’t deal with having an appetizer course, soup course, meat, potatoes, beans, gravy, cranberry, etc etc etc. I’ve been vegetarian for a long time now but I break that whenever I’m with my family because I’m scared they would judge me. My uncle is a professional chef, my great grandparents owned  fancy restaurants, they kind of look down on vegetarian eating. They’re from Alberta, so they see meat as a part of the culture I guess. Usually when I get into situations where I need to be around a ton of food and avoid it I use the excuse of saying I’m vegetarian/eating vegan that week, and I can’t use that when I visit them. 

Basically, I am freaking out about how to get through this weekend with all these factors involved. I talked to my therapist about it yesterday and she was telling me all about mindfulness and giving yourself permission to be human all that usual stuff but it’s hard to follow her advice when I’m not in her office anymore, and she doesn’t know that I’m kind of relapsing. Anyway, I have my little ED voice in my head telling me to fast until Sunday night when we’re having dinner, and I’m trying to recognize that this is unhealthy and ignore the voice but the urge is so strong ugh. I just don’t want to make my grandma concerned, she’s so important to me. 

Sorry this is so long, thanks for reading!!! 💖🌙💖",5.423817829457363,5.822956268733853,6.462574289405684,77.44952034883724,67.70801033591731,9.860852713178298,30.595284237726087,9.827888789773867,2.8130121447028418,1544,56,300,33,24,517,187,387,0.098,0.81,0.092,-0.3134,1,1,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,4,1,27,15,0,4,11,0,28,9,1,6,4,48,58,30,0,6,9,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,21,16,7,2,2,5,0,5,9,8,0,0,2,6,48,7,52,50,11,37,0,1,2,1,30,11,0,3,20,206,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273139953096317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411146118447526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447767446664317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05784779979289584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949678638153887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783374271338637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913072941897945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175028073943771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067731849007883,0.0,0.0,0.17891925084194854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34424632967332724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873793302375915,0.09103301451422252,0.10786331463555578,0.0,0.0,0.10462331786559848,0.104538785407507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500829259684071,0.0,0.09739080647463846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763943187819932,0.052152431064433916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511085193862033,0.0,0.1679601769278653,0.07968884863929714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564746193074871,0.0,0.06334390336965183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916360780435657,0.11114120003599508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703642776529455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905358916295256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276326076586424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949218098120989,0.0,0.06079289055792241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546521108718413,0.09500758046495396,0.0,0.07561992902535478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666722563059143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385469863419034,0.10622844779499208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174063916077238,0.0,0.10863336465954604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525478286965112,0.16588679992382815,0.08736760641255041,0.0,0.1101817205513254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533469628773418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442824283366046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391957473375526,0.20902935979811496,0.0,0.16791658768603002,0.0,0.07611995109614494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291080452267144,0.0,0.19274325189567745,0.0,0.06741148774478734,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sarahy2001,2019/10/11,"we love stress-induced b/p!!! /s had an hour between my last class of the day and a group interview for a summer job I literally don't even want but am stressed about nonetheless (because I hAvE tO bE pErFeCt At EvErYtHiNg ya feel) so I decided it'd be a great idea to get an order of fries and a diet Coke from a fast food place on campus....gonna walk into that interview with chipmunk cheeks, a sore throat, and terrible bloating.
I think that pretty much sums up my life rn.",4.870312500000002,5.195662072916669,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,68.89583333333334,9.316666666666668,30.583333333333336,9.2995712137729,2.479783333333333,373,14,77,7,6,123,79,96,0.113,0.708,0.179,0.871,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,9,0,7,8,2,0,1,13,12,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,4,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,8,3,13,8,1,12,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,5,46,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394145893768293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749384129786744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105548471031446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554257087343453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563858045789766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27654731247463066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948733245692254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521447133978149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22522535772951546,0.0,0.0,0.2581766701337163,0.0,0.0,0.22695140160631955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642261822781075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153895473500154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064124440167444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812225212359844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238944866834142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23267210864546586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5239546347899513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465429785450005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348943388548211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,claudiagraceloupoet,2019/10/11,"I'm trying TW (maybe?)

 

Okay,

I had been questioning my eating disorder lately. It went from binge eating (for years) to not eating at all (not something I've had an issue with before).

I think I was in denial about it. But I'm currently at my desk at work and trying really really hard to eat this chinese food I ordered (something I love and thought would be perfect because how can I turn my nose at my favorite?) I can't. I just can't. I've put two things in my mouth. I'm nauseous and I don't know why I can't do something so simple. Something that is required to live. I'm shaking and I think I'm having a panic attack and I don't know who to talk to. I wish I could talk to the doctor about it but I can't afford to go to the doctor again until six months from now because I think I might have to save up for a surgery (whenever they figure out the source of the issue). This issue doesn't affect my eating at all. I've had this pain for a while and already had one surgery for it but the pain didn't go away and now they think it's something else. And even if I could, what would I say? ""Hi, I'm not eating. What can we do about this?"" When I was binge eating, I was never scared for myself. But not eating scares the shit out of me. Binge eating would just make me feel sick. Not eating makes me dizzy and I know I need to eat. I know it. I feel it. My stomach will growl and I will tell myself ""in a little bit"" and then never do. I eat like three times a week (so basically every other day) and when I do eat, it's so small, like a handful of cashews or some strawberries or jerky or something like that. Something small and quick so I won't have to think about it anymore. Just force it down so I can function and move on. But lately, I have been eating less than that. I'm scared.

Anyway, thank you for listening.

\*Edit: not that it matters but I still haven't eaten and I tried again just now. Didn't even work up the courage to try again when an attorney (I work at a law firm) walked into another's office and is sitting in sight and I'm too afraid. I hate being so full of fear.",0.7687653562653587,2.6809048896396424,2.484193284193285,95.22515970515973,82.31081081081079,5.027354627354628,18.424242424242426,5.985473137389443,-0.3378450450450448,1617,37,368,11,44,532,190,444,0.109,0.8109999999999999,0.079,-0.899,2,0,7,0,0,0,62.0,1,1,2,5,30,21,3,7,16,1,43,27,5,4,5,78,76,40,0,8,20,0,4,3,0,7,5,2,0,0,24,22,16,1,14,0,0,7,19,12,0,4,14,8,51,9,49,51,6,55,0,0,1,1,13,22,1,7,27,255,75,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585659527119733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0556503163073965,0.0,0.0,0.05263287643855955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06037673285251245,0.049862619423283135,0.0,0.0,0.06470404476610707,0.0,0.045160117076755296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794056287208187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08474688537048362,0.0,0.0,0.03422686303033515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608247786317874,0.10864228993523996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7602785349371998,0.04433460446050192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010672906293844,0.0,0.044715205414268426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597204295989781,0.05366930333533974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417452350678816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060323752707849676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047541828637982175,0.05239732706330449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617923321148234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116667297506062,0.0,0.1197344031176733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778447159961886,0.053191796780617036,0.046863293061225456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04789929116328452,0.0,0.07085155829545055,0.0,0.05331766694197724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563006984332451,0.0,0.0,0.04236133332273051,0.056406829717350476,0.0,0.03935200117801282,0.08186435045748597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035962764826102875,0.0,0.11294408450555107,0.06226821782576866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05335172797956979,0.05945246226209223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799819398842424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042204754666127685,0.15940212319740246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05447734859845663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860003714082206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238313689627897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531406183371959,0.0463870145744756,0.04886130100595047,0.0,0.0,0.03525848651910329,0.17003104707903474,0.0,0.04213301030288668,0.030946541428877213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412883198447046,0.057726781555587074,0.0518433499476851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04257092526381362,0.0,0.0,0.0491980077256094,0.04788896432877413,0.0,0.061029848389261926,0.0,0.0,0.11591051289247735,0.0,0.0,0.1131018622074956,0.0,0.0,0.03417644180812293
EDAnonymous,Timid_anon,2019/10/11,Braces and Ednos. Hi guys is there anyone else here with braces that found having them helps not eating? I am no way encouraging not eating as I’m in recovery but I recently got braces in. It’s extremely hard to eat anything that isn’t liquid so I’ve just not gotten hungry as often so guess im wondering if anyone else here that has/had braces has lost weight or found recovery hard while having braces?,3.4775357142857146,5.570701825000004,4.35464285714286,84.19750000000002,74.5,7.571428571428572,20.17857142857143,8.418075326091056,1.087732142857143,326,7,62,6,7,105,55,80,0.094,0.8370000000000001,0.069,-0.4488,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,7,2,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,14,14,9,0,1,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,3,3,1,6,9,0,5,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,5,2,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299940034861239,0.3370254573415522,0.13533979869553395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5048629673908029,0.2747770149355025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36065241422810745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315368264965813,0.0,0.18117555743001146,0.16284514472294315,0.0,0.0,0.2946547491893884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023670352487036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764926332375788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953180420959305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238828684765272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13054381009587854,0.0,0.20027275625984434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835411328231332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heads-cars-bending,2019/10/11,Took some lax last night before bed looking forward to a morning waterfall.... Woke up this morning and someone was in the shower but I COULDN'T wait so guess who shat into a bowl in her room lololol love dat,1.9987500000000007,4.755171375000003,2.575000000000003,90.85000000000002,85.25,4.2,28.0,5.6839178017228535,1.08785,165,8,30,1,5,51,37,40,0.0,0.861,0.139,0.7783,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,5,4,1,9,0,0,1,1,3,6,0,2,3,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32266353856572105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.417721541462312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090912043510993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31842486557695976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34223460393751504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558449851209832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212872303955893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42129505702107467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,milkjar,2019/10/11,"No self control anymore I feel like every time I eat, it turns into a binge. I can’t control myself around food, I waste my spending money on food, I can’t stop thinking about food. It feels like my life revolves entirely on food, and it’s ripping me apart.

I hate when my boyfriend touches me now, I hate being around other people. 

I keep telling myself I’ll restrict tonight/tomorrow, and nothing is changing. I just eat and get all depressed because I have no self control anymore. 

I can’t wait to move into an apartment so all of my expenses can go to more important things, than to literally nourish my addiction.

Thank you for reading if you did, I haven’t come out with my feelings to the people around me because I feel like it’s so arbitrary and insignificant compared to real life problems.",5.782857142857143,6.63732676623377,6.123792207792209,78.58711688311689,67.05194805194805,8.237922077922079,36.82857142857143,8.238735603445708,3.0849449350649354,638,33,113,8,10,205,93,154,0.179,0.7440000000000001,0.077,-0.943,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,3,9,8,2,0,3,0,9,9,0,3,2,30,23,8,0,2,2,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,12,6,7,5,1,3,3,6,4,0,0,1,5,26,4,18,21,3,17,0,1,0,0,5,10,0,1,7,77,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147240540056594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087339984459159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810501911600917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830320983329765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132697687369042,0.09065250766166133,0.0,0.0,0.3540973197500351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906406243574492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21536780440059414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866685852089214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21284431019211808,0.2255443758839613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5090128374636831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05498208027283217,0.0,0.05980871156961564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779984537932789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353963622314428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866425743718562,0.15424070345978969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118504621375269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009779073801312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459164126720432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069776359021533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052656533669388,0.11978294415011742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957064915934765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798299025201188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198192919782837,0.09688825139689268,0.0,0.0,0.06991490270225928,0.0674317322523367,0.0,0.0,0.06136464285836885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446782645042727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spooky-cheesecake,2019/10/11,"Quest ownership change I work in food retail marketing & found out recently that Quest was bought by the company that makes Atkins snack foods. Probably not a big deal, but they bought Simply Protein a while back & changed the ingredients to add more sugar (1g to 3g...not a big change but I was upset on principle lol).

I don't know how likely it is that they'll change anything but I wanted to send out a warning bc I know it's a safe food for a lot of you & I would want to know to keep an eye on the ingredients if it was one of mine.",3.3368421052631585,4.146548078947369,4.562236842105263,87.73440789473686,72.59649122807018,8.50701754385965,24.77631578947368,8.841846274778883,1.4483894736842098,427,12,97,8,8,141,74,114,0.062,0.887,0.051,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,1,2,3,0,1,10,1,7,6,1,2,0,20,17,6,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,2,4,0,3,1,2,1,0,1,6,2,10,2,14,9,2,11,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,2,4,57,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43789020553094815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085878093750216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358734611260234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5700414753461251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888501716186674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886929200353272,0.14770779685227353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974068130961328,0.0,0.0,0.22210715084170776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06581483409482382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452968379955883,0.0,0.0,0.0899231580290956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128621761953544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524531176672306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301458766728788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589165286313527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09807396025174922,0.0,0.0,0.09569751062033854,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stilltakesmybreath,2019/10/11,"i was just chilling and upset about some stuff and just thought that after walking i-dont-know-how-many miles yesterday i deserved some chips........ some dude on the street told me ""you shouldnt be eating that cuz you're gonna get even fatter"" and now? i wanna d*e, jesus

by the way, this is my first post here, even though i've been keeping up w/ the subreddit for a while. so hi!",4.253636363636364,4.728284233766238,4.361454545454547,91.22218181818184,70.29870129870129,7.19896103896104,24.49090909090909,6.742157984588678,0.6211787012987018,294,7,65,2,5,91,63,77,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,9,1,0,1,4,0,5,1,0,1,0,13,10,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,0,6,0,7,3,3,12,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,5,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32953905403325906,0.0,0.0,0.2877157547663671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714314340795503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391702493708679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469041370259635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499243293250486,0.0,0.0,0.15452832489146315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850708196984973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26929123407179256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218820585261501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27625640347853736,0.2232242845738856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26867806247823045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231863690414375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,technicol0r,2019/10/11,My doctor told me my weight..... I usually ask the nurse not to tell me but the doctor herself came in and commented on my BMI so (: time to lose 15 pounds (:,-1.15625,0.8906433750000033,1.2872500000000002,97.23275,99.625,5.0600000000000005,15.775,6.742157984588678,-0.13866999999999985,116,3,27,2,5,39,26,32,0.079,0.6679999999999999,0.253,0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,7,0,4,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,17,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661593865499002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32562501464100824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5828122934993769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185104474490184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488434510065488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601292918980645,0.0,0.0,0.2720464421696276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135607370673072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466922236059993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,copperwiretree,2019/10/11,"I love pooping The euphoria I feel after a good poop is addicting 

I’ve been so down the last 4 days because I haven’t pooped at all. I’ve felt so bloated even though I’ve been eating <500 calories a day and I hated that the number of the scale was not changing at all

Well this morning I took a massive shit. I weighed myself before, and I weighed myself after. Straight up lost 2.4 pounds from the poop. Good god I feel so happy lmao",2.3023333333333333,4.173976066666668,3.219722222222224,92.01625,77.22222222222223,5.388888888888888,24.583333333333336,5.985473137389443,0.5493333333333337,346,12,72,2,8,110,60,90,0.1,0.604,0.29600000000000004,0.9570000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,6,8,2,0,8,0,5,10,5,0,2,8,12,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,6,3,10,5,8,6,2,11,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,5,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24286083577822715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580336331039514,0.0,0.18956761694524168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23566951920016765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2873466802198116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279574472406189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714272704053216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252864384540841,0.0,0.21390175681360646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3737111296866066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371512576371189,0.0,0.2199470920061821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815937533197234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431884358500106,0.0,0.2010657869588172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286783520457299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21887819306933312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475144862828309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030412089888408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1800wiishopchannel,2019/10/11,"BF is visiting and I'm scared he will make me eat more TW for general disordered thoughts/behaviors. I have been fluctuating between high restricting and lower, and have finally found a place where I feel comfy restricting while still being able to fuel myself through my (very busy) days. My boyfriend eats...so much. And he LOVES to cook/eat big meals, desserts, to the point where it feels super threatening and uncomfortable. I work weekends and will work tonight and Sunday morning. I usually eat at work but now I'm afraid I'll use up all my calories at work and be forced to eat more to act normal around him. I stocked up on some dairy free halotop so I can binge a little bit but I'm worried bc he always wants to feed me and when he cooks I feel like he wants to fatten me up which is just too much, it makes me feel so gross. Watching him cook is so stressful, he just throws any amount of oil and butter on everything with zero regard to how fattening it is. And I hate being rude when people cook for me so I feel pressured....god I just don't want all these anxieties to get in the way of actually maybe ENJOYING myself :/ we are long distance and havent seen each other in months.",3.6543381858902535,5.4014988638297865,4.1970884658454635,87.00105263157894,73.12765957446808,7.67077267637178,25.98544232922732,8.371475516178862,1.6188297872340425,943,32,191,16,19,298,145,235,0.174,0.754,0.07200000000000001,-0.9723,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,5,16,11,2,3,4,0,16,10,0,4,2,41,35,22,0,4,5,0,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,16,9,2,6,4,1,3,2,6,0,1,3,9,23,6,26,27,10,34,0,0,2,1,12,17,0,1,14,114,29,5,0.1218460502790905,0.0,0.11890416856833168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138567471577996,0.0,0.0,0.08285949246888209,0.0,0.09321189495619864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846881761118464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302432905442305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858062235777474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396461298665772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987157133412364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950737331216988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30804512042641435,0.08704684266537427,0.0,0.13347639229285824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359790501140711,0.0,0.0,0.06365953226055865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029774878489713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287370419322322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595278254846332,0.12212175248560128,0.0,0.1078299202254002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997081756429668,0.0,0.16266636942275875,0.0,0.12241073472762537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725635485364288,0.0,0.17914173348272674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11938325890746602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447270941502373,0.0,0.1273031889318213,0.0,0.11518390163769925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198915254470236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730641314784128,0.0,0.13957423891986684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523586596668992,0.1341962101020971,0.10053575223093927,0.2156038721307408,0.09671572324473926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548215031305311,0.12374057860644615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashcan3264,2019/10/11,"why does chocolate have to taste so good :( I swear I have an addiction to it, it's sooo fucking bad. I almost had a tantrum tonight because all I wanted to do was eat chocolate lmao :(( I've gone two days without and I feel like I'm experiencing withdrawal symptoms. I feel so pathetic lol",0.4940350877193005,2.943768929824561,2.406315789473684,89.09087719298245,96.5438596491228,5.340350877192981,27.385964912280702,6.937597516519254,1.6907754385964917,227,12,45,4,9,75,43,57,0.259,0.568,0.172,-0.7174,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,1,5,5,0,0,1,7,11,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,4,6,2,4,8,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030007101365735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783214321591984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320721848393296,0.16943248749897385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17925131461191204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24323124866562554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844067804242497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28107434703083045,0.1985637236307894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25695536329974805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23312679732434355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578972339423387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28889092920092324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271511549970899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393896423511903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25080182790130706,0.0,0.0,0.2679287377972929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vinegar_doppio,2019/10/11,i just got jealous of a borzoi for being skinny wtf lol,-2.16,-1.6381703333333313,1.7033333333333331,89.97500000000002,127.33333333333334,1.6,12.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.3053666666666666,44,1,8,0,3,16,12,12,0.41,0.42200000000000004,0.16899999999999998,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lauren_geisel,2019/10/11,"[Rant] realizing stuff about my ED So I've had an ED for a while, since I was in middle school (I'm now almost 23) 
It was mainly restrictive, but I never was quite as rigid and strict about it as most of the people I know. I would eat, then restrict/exercise to make up for it. I don't have ""safe foods"", I don't weigh out my food, and I don't really count calories aside from basic estimates in my head. 
My senior year of college it got Bad. I was barely eating anything, but when I did it was almost always junky comfort food. 
It eventually got to the point where I started purging, even though I wasn't fully bingeing. And my purging behaviors are weird too, I'll do silly things like eat a sandwich and then 3 hours later purge an apple. 

And then it clicked. 

I also have something called BPD, which is characterized by extreme emotions and fear of abandonment. And it has a high comorbidity with bulimia. 
Everything in my life surrounding food is completely emotions based, not over-rationalized and rigidly controlled like it is with most restrictive eating disorders. 
Although I restricted, it wasn't really a typical restrictive eating disorder. I always had the more emotional tendencies associated with bulimia--eating for comfort and then feeling guilty and punishing myself in some way to ""make up for"" the food I'd just eaten. 

I'm not really sure what to do with my realization. I talked to my therapist about it briefly, but I haven't told her about the purging yet, and I'm scared to. I go to individual every week, and I'm part of an ED group that also meets weekly. I know I should bring it up, especially because how much I've been purging is arguably worse than my previous restriction. 

I'm not sure what I want from posting this, aside from just wanting to complain/rant. But if other people related I'd love to hear about it😊

Hang in there♥️",5.249243697478993,6.51958068067227,6.241384873949581,75.74920336134454,68.52380952380952,9.633568627450982,31.08672268907563,9.888512548439397,3.125557176470588,1481,60,269,35,25,492,190,357,0.155,0.7759999999999999,0.069,-0.9867,0,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,2,18,17,1,4,12,0,27,16,1,4,3,56,48,31,0,5,10,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,20,17,13,10,4,0,0,3,10,8,0,0,15,3,31,9,42,31,7,35,0,1,1,1,8,14,0,6,18,179,51,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681408141225649,0.0,0.0,0.13428012484279436,0.13971723309262604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908912796043203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701002538528322,0.05117916390030912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574039824108594,0.0,0.08572907517107134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880268974101964,0.0,0.0941644655016471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19244307375522107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295428062395666,0.0,0.28331962312959863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05545254226681885,0.0,0.07073705623830108,0.0,0.07545477822833048,0.0,0.0,0.09447451595001308,0.042450979405441236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5076032678715271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047714470371625635,0.0,0.13429552467084224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616369273842164,0.0,0.09462518960505163,0.0,0.0,0.08870475708587136,0.0,0.0,0.0826803389033285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228070304495918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593010292367673,0.0820339075717486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577410908439745,0.0,0.11208336442344284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06171776092576424,0.0,0.06475250542375169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091681592896572,0.0,0.11640987017535324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936612385698187,0.0,0.0804072147337518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929817816848593,0.0,0.0,0.16135424273575713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405520261437546,0.08496856109242301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944976682849892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463389217236966,0.0,0.0,0.059424913366887065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611022017877573,0.0,0.0,0.15825620320210468,0.0,0.0,0.06748113459324533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748008316829458,0.05577703424757922,0.0,0.0824869329023565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022412886331072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903955544873748,0.06664084095799762,0.13468984013845056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555894767413183,0.059640359571252785,0.0,0.0,0.05406529756060988
EDAnonymous,throwawaycos555,2019/10/11,DAE say they'll allow themselves to eat xyz and then not actually eat it? Last night I told myself I could have peanut butter cups tomorrow. Its tomorrow. I dont want them now. Like a month ago I told myself I'd let myself order this desert from a local fast food place once I hit my ugw. I hit that yesterday and I dont even know if I want that desert now. Somtimes I tell myself it's okay to have something and then end up being fine not having it or actively not wanting it. Somtimes eating as a whole is just honestly such a stressful and guilt filled endeavor that I'd rather just chill with my coffe.,3.72913082437276,4.859863830645164,4.628494623655914,86.41829749103943,71.98387096774194,7.769175627240144,24.261648745519715,8.167268648758528,1.2436444444444454,481,13,100,7,9,156,82,124,0.067,0.8170000000000001,0.115,0.6763,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,7,6,0,2,4,1,10,4,0,1,0,19,18,9,0,6,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,2,17,4,6,10,1,18,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,14,64,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.15978036592187095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513994926588664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072794925747985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837890983603852,0.0,0.0,0.5026210190616008,0.0,0.0,0.14501936288543782,0.0,0.0,0.10814449262037112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19798730811032927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998369958792468,0.13346472986313968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674286900461119,0.0,0.07999196203959816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069059019417034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365288349770562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174370930685367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106675363410995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020752331600266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260501176200028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875562752458668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143110375348616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31290892562108363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289722942416647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828027070424742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whitenikeswhitesocks,2019/10/11,"TW// used to have bad ED but recovered randomly 7+ years ago and now I’m trying to get fit in a healthy way but like the ED is kind of coming back? 

Hi... I used to have a really hard time when I was younger...like I’ve always had body image issues. I’ve always had body dysmorphia. I remember being 8 and my mom was the most beautiful woman in the world and she would pull at her skin in disgust and I mimicked it. If she wasn’t beautiful, then surely I wasn’t?
I remember weighing myself obsessively at 9. I remember trying to throw up, but I couldn’t. I remember finding forums online with Ana buddies. somehow I went to exercising in my room for hours and only drinking water and never eating and no one noticed. They noticed enough to take the scale away but that was it. And it was never good enough. I remember being 180 lbs and saying to myself in 8th/9th grade like this is it you’re doing it I’m GOING to be skinny. Before 10th grade hit I was 120lbs and I would pull at my stomach while sucking in and be so confused on how I looked the exact same. Fat. How?

Anyway. I don’t know how it stopped. I was in a relationship? I was happy for a little bit and I didn’t hate myself? And yeah sure I have had body image issues but I haven’t tried to not eat. I haven’t purposefully over exerted myself. I am not happy with how I look but I haven’t tried to cope in any bad ways.

And here I am now. I’ve just started going to the gym. I’m definitely overweight so I wanted to do it for my health. It’s been a week. I haven’t restricted or done anything like that but like I want to. I want to count calories. I want to check the scale. I want to go another hour another hour at the gym... just one more hour? Couldn’t hurt?

I’m just... scared. How do I turn off this part of my brain? For the past few years I’ve just ignored it and haven’t looked at calories haven’t exercised at a gym and I want to be healthy but I’m scared it will get me. It will make itself known in my home again. In my heart. It will fuck me up so bad and I don’t want it. What can I do to keep myself from going back to bad ways? And continue to be healthy and happy in my skin?",-0.4528253500368464,1.7251567565217414,1.9954605747973488,94.6427450257922,91.21739130434784,5.031687546057481,17.579218865143698,6.6175320697248425,-0.07847199705232111,1668,45,380,22,59,567,198,460,0.135,0.706,0.159,0.8290000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,57.0,0,0,1,0,21,25,4,4,15,1,48,20,10,8,5,79,83,40,0,12,16,1,3,4,0,5,5,1,2,1,19,22,8,4,8,6,1,9,18,14,0,2,16,7,54,11,52,53,8,62,0,1,3,1,9,27,2,6,27,254,73,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06194628044633984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629503928931965,0.0,0.0,0.04752223605147015,0.14655498602280395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05750702810795449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656565494818975,0.10747006911223672,0.2333945955142641,0.0,0.0,0.059464534670510064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629317266560394,0.23286983521899654,0.0,0.07801155419166789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06019725617664429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151366844178672,0.0,0.06845787044973123,0.0,0.14301370395721485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441381545656964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387098909353794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460489127993284,0.07302104391113858,0.0,0.1588624705402971,0.058613804367293076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231724396154281,0.06260065075867292,0.06899412298914684,0.0,0.07428142274154025,0.0,0.08281064534354309,0.0,0.0,0.07009746138461459,0.0,0.2752792350201308,0.0,0.07481025179194019,0.0,0.0,0.1458775488118961,0.0,0.06211443665089165,0.0,0.07277147130707988,0.03840538403428333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656349031458778,0.07004024011877047,0.0,0.0,0.1760501345446898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04664685587017741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184509105893638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779479375095817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591225072006498,0.0,0.0,0.09470786234741284,0.053148499134441585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567552295792591,0.06671038818755236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04476827370801895,0.0,0.0,0.07502724121350686,0.395814080378052,0.0,0.0,0.05557306445505432,0.13992838068915964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04946292223082453,0.0,0.0,0.058424579087815766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13172613686792695,0.0,0.052542655192701626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0407488245126149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897814815668863,0.0760116763513892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071142399111498,0.0,0.0,0.2885279831275478,0.16640751565010767,0.0560552191882763,0.0,0.0,0.06478142275732379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928450207670272,0.0,0.0,0.09000358459477288
EDAnonymous,mud_octopus,2019/10/11,"Sad thoughts of a 32 year old ED'd woman ""discovering"" young people are still developing new eating disorders. This might sound dumb, and I hope this isn't inappropriate. But my ED started before my teen years. Back then I thought it was a young person/teen thing. 

I *never* imagined I would be in my thirties with it still. I thought it was a kid problem, and I'd die of or grow out of. But I was part of one of the old online communities, and guess what...many of us have died and yet many more of us haven't grown out of it. 

And now I am so sad to be finding these subreddits and realizing ""kids today"" are newly developing eating disorders, same as always. I know it's fucking dumb to be ""surprised"" by this. 

But growing up has changed shit in my mind from thinking this kind of illness a teenager/kid problem to seeing it as such a serious health problem that young people shouldn't be dealing with. No judgement, but it's just so unfair. 

Like y'all in the very beginning, I wish you could just get out now. I KNOW it doesn't work that way, but I wish it did.

Trust me, you don't want this. Again, I know it doesn't work this way (hell, I'm the one who's here at my age).",2.468,4.077023133333338,3.741666666666666,89.61,76.0,6.633333333333333,24.5,7.365786028017652,0.9145250000000004,912,30,200,11,20,298,135,240,0.138,0.7809999999999999,0.081,-0.769,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,2,3,0,2,13,16,5,0,8,0,22,6,1,0,1,44,40,17,2,10,8,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,21,11,2,0,10,0,0,3,8,11,0,2,7,2,23,5,26,25,3,34,1,2,1,1,10,8,5,4,22,133,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019442686304556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833500839566791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223728984589494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466894030000725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654564619671444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175185266531387,0.0,0.0,0.22499654608542485,0.0,0.24846316172906016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218330057895581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907227839935136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021065691454743,0.05663260655617047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941077404035685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522022593030963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766201009154154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287809328123978,0.17871535824377008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05295696968078895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197937226203058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499137238921135,0.10944938916229814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360192920181402,0.10468984732279413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227487420284727,0.0,0.1469043119302443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738265815054795,0.0,0.15029672846021552,0.0946474910134216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111619348445495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637783787706055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126727116697573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672347761080006,0.0,0.17313089227983933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201370260096261,0.06945598898946324,0.0,0.2581637250928043,0.0,0.0,0.10274704280608167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607748679082142,0.0,0.0,0.08943832131250186,0.06393496165607328,0.1720799166382918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24930085126058446,0.0,0.0,0.1578276329632275,0.0,0.0,0.07700164010360729,0.0,0.0,0.13960736034405732
EDAnonymous,MortallyHolyRunaway,2019/10/11,"I would like to talk to someone who learned their Ed from there parents at a young age. I recently hung out with my 10-year-old cousin for the first time in a really long time and I noticed her mom told her older half-sister (18/thin) to eat more and her(10/chubby) to eat less, and then I did another dinner I sat next to her and she pinched apart her french fries and covered them in catch-up and basically made them grow so that she wouldn’t eat them, I know that’s an ED behavior and it made me worried. Everyone in my family is really thin except me so I know what it’s like seeing everyone around you look like that and look at yourself and not be the same. I’m just wondering if those that were once in her shoes think I could do anything. I’m 20 so we’re not close in age and we also live halfway across the country from each other, but I’m wondering if there’s anything you wish someone had done/said to you to make it better.",2.8955384615384614,4.176225938461542,3.8820512820512825,90.3846153846154,74.23076923076924,7.4564102564102575,24.282051282051288,8.021203637495839,1.1032666666666668,738,22,164,11,15,238,118,195,0.009000000000000001,0.9209999999999999,0.071,0.8765,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,3,4,2,8,4,0,0,6,0,9,5,1,3,0,37,26,18,0,6,7,3,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,16,4,0,6,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,7,4,27,4,22,15,4,25,0,0,3,0,21,13,0,4,14,103,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344449586248393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13563914268930274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21289494688249969,0.1151526502786298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440326571881752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327879192766788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237424315951515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3970848769599691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24720693627557186,0.0,0.0,0.12194361439514202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002860458699956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421793555151529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18958776413837625,0.0,0.11422211617469867,0.11447438412943213,0.21724987522214595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447961170177693,0.08634492365067445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149805934046726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756964437228222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727059818974833,0.13573545855990266,0.13775798649619994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363251559028872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573520779404635,0.0,0.12772165333474808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304545275917955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307853875155924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192027641667979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039699949102523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288493933788997,0.0,0.0,0.1508549322676175,0.0,0.0,0.12360346813778593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875093015198862,0.0,0.2805581938165423,0.0,0.13136545495148938,0.0,0.09188950242827502,0.0,0.0,0.08329985478282917
EDAnonymous,olive_cardigan,2019/10/11,"How do you deal with knowing you'll never be able to change your face? No matter how much I go through to change my body, no matter how much money I pour into makeup, and no matter how long I spend carefully picking out my outfits and caking my face every morning, I still burst into tears every time I see a photo of my face -- and most times in the mirror.
Unlike with my body, there's nothing I can do to even let my disordered mind try to fix it. How are you guys able to face the world some days and still smile despite hating the focal point of the only physical representation you have?",11.889201680672267,6.229964453781516,11.084768907563028,68.57824579831936,59.92436974789916,13.244537815126051,38.99369747899159,8.841846274778883,3.4204605042016807,466,11,92,4,4,152,75,119,0.071,0.843,0.086,-0.2163,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,5,0,0,9,2,1,0,5,0,8,6,6,6,1,23,13,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,9,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,17,1,14,10,4,14,0,0,1,0,7,6,0,2,7,65,18,0,0.3328530521795444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697247046221835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16968293509504834,0.0,0.3521143944662609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733134120491862,0.17157844063431754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19073921741691355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992315087634473,0.0,0.2804430522956912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458403007761633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16478842637003274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431173912353084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146366630927172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17018239866891485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728223845209218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804334848109828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446852919150083,0.0,0.12835839679032113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969074033136646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657487255775846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157326860962008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262039397857808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658168774343998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408929145923226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299268669086752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,andwhyshouldi,2019/10/11,"I'm recovering, but I feel like it's too easy? But I don't know if I actually am recovering or not? (Mention of body/body structure warning) Hey all,

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I developed anorexia last fall, plus some binge/purge behaviors, although mostly restriction/overexercising. My ED was never ""severe"": I wasn't hospitalized, I hit an underweight BMI over this past summer, but nothing below 17.5-18ish. I didn't look stereotypically anorexic, and I started off the whole thing at a BMI of 20ish, so I was pretty thin to start. I didn't think I actually had an ED because I felt like I was never good enough or had enough control for it to be an ED; I wasn't losing weight fast enough, I didn't have the control to stick to 500 calories a day, I couldn't not eat for more than 36 hours without nearly passing out. I thought I was just being healthy, exercising, eating better, etc. When I finally admitted it to myself and realized I probably needed to gain weight (amenorrhea), early in the summer, it started more binge behaviors. I would tell myself if I just binged now I would gain the 1-2 pounds I needed, then I could go back to eating ""normally""/restriction. 

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In the end of August I ended up in proper therapy, although all outpatient- I've never been to and am unlikely to need a hospital. Anyway, recovery, while not easy, has been relatively smooth. The problem is I KNOW I'm gaining, I can tell from my thigh gap and the way my hips don't stick out the same among other things, and it's really getting to me because everyone is telling me I'm naturally going to eat as much as I need and so on, but I can't believe that ""as much as I need"" actually means my thighs touching at the top again or my stomach not being concave when I lie down. But I haven't been struggling to get to my calorie goals, not that I'm counting- I'm definitely eating more than enough. Realizing I've ""overeaten"" in the mental calculations of calories I allow myself triggers bingey behavior (like tonight- I haven't BINGED binged but it's been a lot closer than I would like to get to a binge and I'm panicking a little because my body is changing and I can't handle it). 

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Anyway, my ultimate point is that I feel as though I don't deserve recovery/I need to be sicker in order to get better. Which I logically know is ridiculous. But I really want to restrict tomorrow morning, I feel like I'm out of control and eating everything in sight and I need to make up for it. How do you deal with this? I just feel like to have a real recovery or even a real ED I should be struggling more to eat enough each day, to not wildly overexercise, and so on. But I'm not really struggling like that, as I mentioned above. It's more mental/thoughts based. 

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What if I gain so much that I weigh more than I did pre-ED? I fought so hard to get down to my lowest weight and now all that effort is going away, and I know I'll be healthier with a few more pounds- but I can't stomach gaining more than that. I just can't do it. Obviously I'm tired of having these thoughts, I just want the ED to go away but I also want to be able to look at my body in the mirror, to not compulsively calculate the calories in my food. I also struggle because I can't tell if I'm ""honoring my hunger"" or using it as an excuse to binge and otherwise overeat. Like, does my body actually need food or is my messed up brain just telling me I ""need"" it as part of recovery when I don't? I've had so much dessert today and it's just been a lot and I don't know what to do. I want to go to a nice restaurant this weekend and go out with one of my friends but I'm already planning mentally what to eat to have enough calories left over so I won't go over. I feel like if I put food on my plate I HAVE to eat it, even if I'm full, and I can't stop. I haven't been binge levels of disgustingly overfull, I've managed to not do that, but...   


I'm sorry for the absolute rambling, I just don't know what to do. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. Because my ED has only been actively manifesting as restriction for about a year now I didn't really get involved in the ED communities so I'm not sure who to turn to or what to do, and I can hardly call my therapist every single day. 

  
Anyway, thank you all, and have a good night.",3.2358009725129966,4.686362230769233,4.863305700006755,83.00901541500643,73.64982778415614,7.924907138515568,27.389764976024853,8.539824195847483,1.9262334571486468,3377,127,689,61,68,1141,313,871,0.063,0.784,0.153,0.9975,1,0,0,0,0,0,128.0,0,2,0,16,35,29,3,4,32,0,77,31,9,8,9,142,145,74,0,27,44,0,14,9,1,6,3,0,0,0,36,29,19,6,20,2,0,10,37,10,0,1,25,17,96,19,109,103,34,90,0,1,3,0,18,41,0,17,46,481,132,2,0.042153232680664746,0.0,0.16454189767764646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651714046964632,0.0674198498903682,0.0,0.18269203999226266,0.20488316643298568,0.02866564371879323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920869940610327,0.03241323396766131,0.0,0.12848109694986445,0.0,0.0,0.04749225823489972,0.0,0.07456221751985805,0.0,0.18729095496858705,0.0,0.04705694858267305,0.043043163580912286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04459253085695404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183530444048004,0.033655926255749764,0.0,0.0,0.08155604348729119,0.04345813195152965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03688857798447194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881995253855589,0.0,0.0,0.07467050482548357,0.261333345770975,0.04701199714277442,0.055683625257946616,0.0,0.03551591658747782,0.04027922026347596,0.03788460747724756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656970503135263,0.12045711139872416,0.04047371388306646,0.046176805967932735,0.0,0.0,0.15291556884009766,0.0,0.03256748300346683,0.0,0.13213994559077352,0.0,0.16769657487835074,0.07071226325192631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552203348635178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041512443068348115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899788567412807,0.034360510751761685,0.0,0.0,0.04579961064623647,0.0,0.0,0.18534546221171366,0.04224861319759575,0.0,0.0,0.0707961977776446,0.04715868499032927,0.0,0.07167434202247097,0.0,0.0,0.028137610139559874,0.0,0.0,0.04591722803285513,0.0,0.0,0.12744163198791936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394990493361732,0.2813047911993693,0.09753351512308016,0.0,0.0,0.03955795333250975,0.0,0.040447163636070094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028564121398654833,0.032059432951058724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045647843190622615,0.040240030331392826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0398484300121294,0.0,0.0,0.042884991996936385,0.04544831439047698,0.04033495075697268,0.0,0.04237564164505825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595921461536132,0.10801776100178173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04762115448849972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04718709285001402,0.08950882515861729,0.0,0.0,0.0352419900178492,0.0,0.1762708449835342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039728922938509055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421891670920187,0.038809033186935536,0.04820589526099577,0.048943152102376784,0.0560094694684596,0.02701008942883467,0.04141533708510081,0.10039487455999753,0.0,0.04844893997539365,0.03995633573314433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04585061255108463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03640685877206787,0.0,0.0,0.09945227515062126,0.033459274030435165,0.0,0.15399384377414246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047062578909237485,0.0,0.040634212062544715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977778824405726,0.0,0.20488316643298568,0.02714529979832684
EDAnonymous,baphomet-butt,2019/10/11,"if i could fist fight my eating disorder i would. like honestly who the *FUCK* gave this bitch permission to ruin all of my preteen, teenage, and most likely young adult years. fuck this slutbag and i hope she rots in hell.",1.6950000000000005,4.471820880952382,2.030476190476193,92.97285714285721,90.1904761904762,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.883257142857143,175,6,34,3,6,53,36,42,0.361,0.499,0.14,-0.9359999999999999,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,8,6,3,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,6,4,3,3,2,3,1,1,0,2,5,1,4,3,4,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621326078389425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762771404347088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359479469377147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6070433807971525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260906205071437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32079600016205123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23322537429965545,0.0,0.0,0.2114239308891312
EDAnonymous,garlicbreadaddict,2019/10/11,"When you realize you just ate 2000 calories in 20 minutes Fuck.

I’d try to purge, but I just took my meds and also physically can’t make myself throw up...",4.379687499999998,4.583177593750001,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,69.9375,8.9,28.5,8.841846274778883,1.97395,121,4,26,2,2,41,29,32,0.07400000000000001,0.9259999999999999,0.0,-0.3071,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624182629583907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4189696080336325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30250983374071705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5033952365505837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5035140767271185,0.30768828554943384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherriesandweed,2019/10/11,"I take these potions/elixrs instead of eating a meal sometimes Idk the calories but I'm at my ugw, you can find more elixrs/tinctures on etsy I find.

https://cattailapothecary.com/collections/potions-1",6.6133179723502336,9.762541483870976,4.788755760368666,68.61741935483872,101.90322580645164,3.061751152073733,23.783410138248854,5.288315135182226,0.5738442396313372,170,6,23,1,7,49,27,31,0.048,0.9520000000000001,0.0,-0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201281417804741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7505294728839945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060763419352463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087067529825805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sephoratheexplorer,2019/10/11,"Anyone else irrationally angry that “thicccc” girls are so idolized now? My human brain knows that all women are beautiful and I love them, but my shit ed brain is just so so mad.

Like...when I was 14-16 I was pear shaped, I was the thic girl, and I still had a chance to not have this ed. I had a chance to go to college instead of in and out of treatment, I would have continued to play volleyball instead of dropping out and getting sicker. I would have been pretty and accepted by my peers instead of being called thunder thighs and wanting to kill my self, I could have had a chance at a normal life.

Now I’m 23, constantly suffering, emotionally terrorize everyone who loves me because I can’t love myself and I haven’t weighed over 115lbs in 3 years. I’m almost impossible to insure because of hospitalizations and even when I can keep my life together and actually maintain weight, it doesn’t even gotdamn matter because I still don’t fit into the “hot girl ™️” category anyway because now I’m too skinny and I have no ass. And even better, I’m too sick to ever get an ass, I can’t gain any weight without risking a serious relapse, which would mean I loose my job, put my family through hell again, get back into debt and ruin everything that I’ve worked for.

Ffs! I got sick because I was so obsessed with getting rid of my thick thighs and ass and pretty much as soon as I did thick thighs and asses became the new look! I spent 7 years suffering to still be on the wrong side of the trend? And now it just looks like I’m going to be sick forever? Bruh.",6.314923886487505,5.735913801916933,6.9720578838564204,77.86974252959972,65.93290734824282,10.048411952640482,32.4692726931028,9.478462496947786,2.7549167073858296,1232,44,246,21,17,408,174,313,0.252,0.599,0.149,-0.9942,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,3,27,19,4,3,11,0,30,23,11,0,2,40,52,24,1,6,5,0,5,1,0,3,6,1,0,6,8,21,4,1,3,1,2,3,8,12,0,0,11,8,31,7,32,34,2,35,1,3,2,7,12,14,6,1,18,160,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.10507157291225032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078171675489292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322011758917392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528621617135893,0.11032188253637684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279251726698984,0.0,0.3281768628306652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522643880022734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403933672246228,0.10994434765608407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635433122139,0.0,0.08596670293515755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994548306387934,0.12111562337901145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21334746373611108,0.09739477717798796,0.0,0.10288445893710786,0.09676794428604377,0.0,0.1015028378806802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250150609860621,0.0,0.12238406417649388,0.0,0.08611450563069675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106847065758475,0.09570312202139912,0.11912224525532858,0.0,0.059173283260534074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210272505006128,0.10520543276196274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083340381249166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915324226657322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728551672922635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915073095372697,0.0,0.0,0.10398952923257862,0.0,0.0,0.10549492876348762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190806658751464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10823930886065168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232455821554456,0.0,0.11052295369169192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579591112825628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350727156586876,0.0,0.0,0.2622290632359412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379120784970827,0.0,0.07838592600643117,0.0,0.0,0.2294596231424761,0.1177215697830882,0.0,0.13867346309922973
EDAnonymous,T-Kun,2019/10/11,"“People that can eat anything and gain no weight are blessed” I used to read shit like this on Twitter and be like “yeah...i guess?” and didn’t think much of it.

Now I’m like, “YEAH FUCK MUST BE NICE!”

Oh how did I get here? 😔",-1.8775510204081631,0.011933897959185202,-0.33755102040816176,109.95040816326531,97.77551020408166,2.8000000000000003,13.122448979591837,3.1291,-1.980314285714286,167,3,46,0,7,52,39,49,0.154,0.508,0.337,0.8976,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,2,0,0,1,7,4,1,2,1,8,13,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,2,5,3,8,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,4,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382693553000251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962749437945725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676779917334759,0.15127435400922054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189644412142606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243684971908312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128475425940369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007327747219954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896215209287122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972118994992486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18552756981141974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500723313132969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525855733356195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blueorangeade89,2019/10/11,"Typhoon Hagibis -- ED friend or foe? Me, about to be sitting through the worst typhoon to hit Tokyo in recorded history:  Do I have enough food to last 3 days like they recommend? 

Also me: If I don't, isn't it the best excuse to fast for a few days? 

(Don't worry I have cup noodles and soba, some canned fish and fruit, and a few jugs of water. I'll be ok in a bad scenario. Heck, my ability to endure fasts might even be helpful for once.) 

Bring it, Hagibis!",2.7714133738601845,3.826398542553196,4.083313069908815,89.70500000000001,74.21276595744679,6.648024316109423,27.258358662613983,6.868970318607317,1.1377039513677811,349,13,76,3,7,115,67,94,0.131,0.68,0.18899999999999997,0.4888,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,3,7,1,0,5,1,11,3,0,0,0,7,13,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,1,7,4,12,8,6,9,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,4,6,50,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227947397518158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23799755101244666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991332231240685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36765607151871627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945238242153421,0.0,0.18826706797130752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446730304085979,0.0,0.2202221751139697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19105715225528191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323466758230715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925676462631498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023837386350763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035596456566878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894732419575813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jesjjssm,2019/04/10,"Dark Circles? I had really bad dark circles under my eyes during my ED. I’m in recovery right now, and honestly they’ve gotten so much better, they’ve faded so much. Is this because of recovery? Have been seeing some progress lately (on top of getting my period back) so I just thought it might be related. Pretty sure I’ve been getting the same amount of sleep as before so Idk.",2.289594594594593,4.83780491891892,3.9634459459459457,83.12192567567571,80.8918918918919,6.943243243243244,24.114864864864863,8.07648339933343,1.782275675675676,300,11,54,6,8,100,55,74,0.069,0.7290000000000001,0.20199999999999999,0.8744,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,7,4,0,0,1,0,7,2,2,0,1,7,13,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,5,3,7,6,5,10,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,2,5,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044346694424272,0.22198714199102892,0.16206954610423355,0.0,0.2262325238893757,0.0,0.0,0.2351370169785369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778081952980682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999086136962402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28204198588855395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908844434931377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704814697503446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17032067277166893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270482516826469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21186091117468392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660581697093535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25057571349841395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106803695124474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,8yearsandcounting,2019/04/10,"well I feel like a right idiot now me: IF is stupid and I'm gonna lose weight the ~healthy way~ this time!!1! 

also me: fasts for one (1) day and breaks the moNTH LONG plateau I've been stuck at?!?! well fine then who would have thought just not eating makes you lose weight 🧐",-0.2669736842105266,2.0186700877193005,-0.3901973684210525,110.55049342105265,93.73684210526315,2.85,14.142543859649123,3.1291,-1.8714192982456144,213,4,54,0,8,60,49,57,0.23600000000000002,0.635,0.129,-0.8453,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,2,5,8,2,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,9,10,5,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,3,3,4,4,2,5,0,10,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,7,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882442232605335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614834949775875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21601801819176092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674345266939754,0.15081687574225774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313757954249092,0.0,0.0,0.18682552039765965,0.0,0.4723557091328423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091742373118346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685058198089179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305345687422222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18028660667904803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675975916059263,0.12309981590984236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756912448849376,0.0,0.514149700406502,0.3796261079072992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996633736709195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,th3Y3ti,2019/04/10,I’m so screwed I’m in my university’s boxing club and a few weeks ago I  signed up to enter my first amateur fight on the 19th at the 112 lb weight class. I thought it would be a cool motivator to get down a few pounds. I was well on my way to getting there in a sustainable way. But I binged all last week and now I thinks going to be impossible for me to get down to 112 in time I can’t think of anything more humiliating than being disqualified because I’m too heavy and I think it’s too late to change my weight class. I have no clue what to do,2.9475000000000016,3.2961767500000008,4.715000000000003,87.97500000000002,73.16666666666666,8.333333333333334,25.0,8.472884824447931,1.1702500000000002,430,12,106,7,8,147,77,120,0.12,0.841,0.039,-0.8476,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,2,0,6,1,8,3,0,1,1,12,19,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,5,1,0,2,2,2,1,1,2,3,13,2,20,13,4,21,0,0,0,1,1,9,1,0,8,66,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758947784833367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16328964220936268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096009326737996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20991090594402692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687830710770475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110119021875176,0.0,0.11277141607076185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174560631552465,0.22383584551447214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38143466401291054,0.0,0.15752996197672728,0.1157051788978923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31500640977244804,0.3183345405378354,0.483264598132316,0.1784109358940668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095782163012713,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ororeo,2019/04/10,"skipping class to b/p so. what's in the title. 

i always feel anxiety about going to class because of my stomach issues. i feel like everyone sitting there in the lecture hall knows just by looking at me or something. i'm skipping class more and more because i feel like their eyes are on me and i feel like i'm going to dry heave or my stomach's going to growl and everything's going to come to a stop and all my classmates will just look at me.

that would be bad enough i suppose. but whenever i skip class i end up coming back to my apartment and it always, always starts with just the opportunity. i realize no one's there looking out for me, watching over me. i eat a couple bites of something that's not a safe food and it's like my brain goes haywire. i have to eat everything. i'm not even hungry. i'm just eating until i hate myself, then going and purging it up. 

i should be in class right now but i'm laying in bed and my throat's burning with stomach acid and my teeth ache and i'm thinking about my parents shelling money out for expensive college classes just for me to skip them and waste even more money on food that's just going to end up in the toilet at the end of it. 

ugh. :( not a great day.",1.6320238095238118,3.6174629960317524,3.254999999999999,90.4275,79.75396825396825,5.469841269841268,23.595238095238088,6.42735559955562,0.611076190476191,953,33,199,8,24,315,120,252,0.139,0.813,0.048,-0.9752,2,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,15,10,1,0,9,0,7,12,7,0,1,42,32,18,0,2,13,1,4,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,17,5,2,7,0,3,8,4,3,0,1,0,10,29,7,38,27,5,38,0,0,5,0,3,19,0,2,14,130,37,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696461731007249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263570710841184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306141871592403,0.09019295504406018,0.13169709880206582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205870698869092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861009131990473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952309190624508,0.0,0.06966455618786845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315971017223308,0.0,0.0,0.28702341487555155,0.11161448478715567,0.0,0.14269359601036513,0.0,0.0,0.10321861691411176,0.1941644729245837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184744885591649,0.2315104976222627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261238647240676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683446645041188,0.0,0.0,0.1190934441696586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664829353658567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274577436498467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936547190429325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110942580390778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27213109773177296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319777008715866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994444675773615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224927431910902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663195612176701,0.0,0.0,0.07645776220795057,0.0,0.0,0.09031032485606047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921544298360745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673496134428419,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,banishedlight,2019/04/10,Any guys here? Is everyone here a girl? :/,-1.7674999999999983,-1.1481827499999984,0.7199999999999989,97.025,126.5,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,0.97255,30,1,7,1,2,10,7,8,0.28300000000000003,0.7170000000000001,0.0,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430477486057263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6225437680168879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6450953025396576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebakingmegger,2019/04/10,"Called fat by pedestrian TL;DR: random passerby called me fat and it triggered me; really would appreciate advice as to what you would/have done. 

About half an hour ago I encouraged myself that a gentle workout at the gym (doing some movement that made me feel good but would not trigger my anorexia-voice) would help me alleviate my depressive state I’m in. Halfway to gym from my apartment, a random stranger walks past me and says in my eyes ‘holy fuck but you’re fat hey’ and stared at me for a few seconds after passing me with a smile on his face. I’ve been catcalled too many times to count since living on campus of my uni, but this was a first. I’m seven years this year in recovery from anorexia and I’m 5’3” and weigh 144 lbs (20yrs), but a muscular, hourglass figure. I’ve made peace with the fact that I have big thighs and arms as part of my genetic build, but obviously have regular moments of body-loathing. But this just triggered me for some reason; I felt like I was back in art class in fourth grade all over again and my friend was poking me in the stomach and callings flabby. All of a sudden I want to scream and cry again and whilst I know this will probably help me feel better, my taps are shut tightly and I’m feeling so disassociated with my body. Numb. 
I don’t know what to do because I feel like it would just make anyone I want to tell very uncomfortable. I’m sorry, this is a very pathetic post. Has anyone else had something like this happen? What did you do? Did it help?",4.819141414141413,5.706393094276098,5.140220538720541,84.6592196969697,69.23569023569024,7.960202020202018,27.30791245791245,8.07648339933343,1.5585597306397303,1187,37,240,15,20,376,169,297,0.09300000000000001,0.753,0.153,0.9355,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,2,8,11,1,0,12,0,22,13,10,7,4,53,41,20,0,6,9,0,6,3,1,5,4,2,0,0,15,14,4,1,9,4,0,3,2,4,0,4,11,10,32,7,33,25,6,33,0,1,2,1,14,14,1,4,17,149,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478322787138474,0.1041236297236178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426535476573614,0.1203544559339667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032159479137324,0.0,0.07160419468563195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388624603601633,0.0,0.13047462156691586,0.0,0.0,0.3598277651072467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902730179844246,0.0,0.0,0.10117048390840268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020516291467093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812504490486317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23757075827685475,0.08391540332221807,0.11278264886174424,0.0,0.0,0.09991374472839427,0.0,0.0,0.09075141981046532,0.10859240828500426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852217144690896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387191106995088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361983913264584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567713562183075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291088975081583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17215908118484752,0.0,0.10372174945463468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222921651876101,0.07840728956445847,0.11908877957769555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720069832825276,0.1121314743728076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124968330694086,0.0,0.12664469828660488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524963761104668,0.12077125780331635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093411083671719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716639049723796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042855423381677,0.0,0.13148991810055374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266761017746608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849346699515825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383812068160736,0.1385651321647911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172107936522273,0.0,0.0,0.15128430389395828
EDAnonymous,BabyBluePirate,2019/04/10,Any Sprite Zero lovers out there? I love Sprite so much but I hate all the calories so Sprite Zero is a godsend. Does anyone else feel this way? Am I the only one on Sprite Zero island? Come join me there's no food!,-1.1381666666666668,0.7600154888888895,0.5015277777777811,101.48562500000004,105.22222222222223,2.25,10.069444444444443,3.1291,-2.0467222222222223,167,2,37,0,8,53,35,45,0.14800000000000002,0.608,0.244,0.6582,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,5,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,1,4,2,2,6,2,4,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158883190777568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219801769529319,0.3252822661649708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27346954876014945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778173472174744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652027856094137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605207593419405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.383882130138764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134327522433603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865261932479101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23337463557832944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21512372843194533,0.24144781670653825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25199037910517863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moneetree,2019/04/10,"My eating disorder is leading me to drug use. I do drugs. 
I haven’t really been into heavy drugs until my eating disorder spiraled. 
I learned that coke was an appetite suppressant when I first tried it (not smart; I should have been more careful) . My usage has gone up HEAVILY and I’m scared it’ll keep getting worse. I’m addicted to thinking about anything besides my body/weight which is why I love doing drugs. 
When I’m on acid, I don’t obsess over calories and eat whatever the fuck I want because I’m not fixated on my body. It’s a liberating feeling. 

I know it may seem dumb that I use drugs to avoid eating and to also eat. Wow. I sound fucking stupid re-reading this. 
Basically, my drug usage has gone up a lot and I feel almost dependent on it to cope with my eating disorder.
I don’t want to end up a fucking druggie because of this fucking disease. I don’t know what to do. I know asking strangers online isn’t the best option but it’s the only one I’m willing to take. 
I’m just so lost. I feel like a failure.",1.6025714285714299,3.7518975428571433,3.5938095238095267,87.10785714285716,80.71428571428572,6.285714285714287,25.714285714285715,7.447530270364453,1.418285714285714,804,33,162,12,21,272,115,210,0.14,0.7759999999999999,0.084,-0.8803,0,1,7,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,6,16,6,3,8,0,20,20,1,4,0,33,51,10,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,4,7,1,0,0,12,6,7,3,9,0,0,3,7,10,0,2,6,5,24,6,20,41,3,16,0,1,0,5,2,8,5,6,6,100,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904247874068208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305972722774695,0.0,0.0,0.06633291625090038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825855046251099,0.0,0.07754451722541716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112779375994098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704806132199915,0.0,0.0,0.09213573784786268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457028826975085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28519433481497675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5771551204000793,0.5092547006638241,0.0,0.0,0.07346667711446313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582192330993808,0.0592575591256134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055492080482766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30673372466947946,0.043336534460422266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372736077799275,0.0,0.0,0.1367569806884334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04052385509070297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054676329787197,0.07051881804017751,0.07486316590435678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056207229046002685,0.06308515027701793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296973472081076,0.0,0.05313815668376764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304470556606018,0.0,0.0,0.07551209571900032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06236603766365122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314927288997661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056315763753541775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327964940965826,0.0,0.0,0.09784891911291724,0.0,0.0,0.10100745066262504,0.0,0.0,0.0748470258006842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453037286385724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FlarpyBlundergufff,2019/04/10,"I think about this at least once a day. When I was 13 I went to a mates house, and her little sisters came downstairs while we were hanging out. One of them took one look at me and said 'you're really fat.' And the other agreed with her, and said it was gross. I just agreed with them and made an excuse to leave. 

I always think about this when I'm eating. Fill me up with shame.",0.7026249999999976,2.6284260125000003,1.5850000000000009,101.51000000000002,82.625,4.5,13.75,5.148860815047168,-1.3768749999999996,291,3,71,1,8,90,55,80,0.095,0.8340000000000001,0.071,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,3,2,1,1,0,15,13,8,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,11,2,0,2,0,0,5,0,2,0,2,9,3,12,0,12,4,1,14,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,0,4,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961062442725926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260628801634724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469608099458777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23317346874548145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629376676465428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24128719295861775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22839106027414005,0.0,0.0,0.19135798136368312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562125524946293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426799111915085,0.30882859711993005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598284474009374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335234610726596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29202676707513536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531780033069249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112428199064292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annashae,2019/04/10,"LOL Doing my school report on EDs and prevention methods This is worth 15% of my English grade. My teacher said we should pick a topic that interested us since it’s a five minute oral presentation and there needs to be effort. I chose EDs and oh boy I don’t even need to do research to go on for overtime about it. Probably going to change my topic a little to be addressing the problem of the skewed perspective of EDs like how people only think anorexics are skinny-ass hospitalized pieces of yarn, or let people know EDNOS and Pica, etc. is a thing, or at least educate my class on the difference between anorexia and bulimia. I don’t really have a point to this post, I just find it hilarious. Any other points I should make?",4.353558994197293,6.077589617021277,5.5608639587363005,78.02454545454547,71.2695035460993,8.815215989684074,27.002578981302385,9.339509955726095,2.4336609929078006,580,20,106,13,11,193,99,141,0.02,0.883,0.09699999999999999,0.8636,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,8,1,13,0,0,3,0,21,21,8,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,1,8,6,0,1,3,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,1,1,12,2,17,15,3,11,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,2,2,73,20,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330856142932471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070291677454136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446930817061654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182619926583635,0.1292608243203403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788701569055865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22244649280706827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755394844709842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012087500569126,0.0,0.09561122070761947,0.1961470914659272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063411960681656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902244722533479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884191578044342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27135339810910303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37000758390846017,0.0,0.18743059259172204,0.0,0.2110023029164992,0.18726255553997254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253731663810379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861595761882639,0.0,0.0,0.1980631689575711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188859414077478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300172206766445,0.12539939374866862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23540813986206485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,46kgs,2019/04/10,Terrified of the scale. Should I stay away from it I noticed a significant weight gain for the first time in a while last month. I went from 5'7 110lbs to 116lbs in 2 months. The last time I weighed myself was in early march...I think it was the period weight + stress binge combined but I was terrified to see the numbers go up so quickly. I'm absolutely terrified to step back on the scale because I know I'll have a mental breakdown when I don't like what I see on the scale. What should I do?,1.2151871657754043,3.4901941372549032,2.487147950089128,93.74671122994656,83.11764705882355,6.062032085561497,21.037433155080205,7.348242739294969,0.5504000000000007,390,12,87,6,11,125,63,102,0.183,0.78,0.036000000000000004,-0.9474,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,10,0,8,3,0,0,0,5,15,4,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,4,4,10,1,14,9,0,24,0,0,2,0,0,7,0,0,14,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18981238352469795,0.15534741116255293,0.0,0.12315467080143695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184530032893847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481742653179568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102955518152244,0.3293603098558313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870089809627763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035971646993145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32251437009412776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300107346679008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219810433063107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533545192811526,0.0,0.0,0.2314229122320538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945167619574155,0.0,0.0,0.2356088331660385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4920324619907037,0.0,0.18728240150784986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietfreddo,2019/04/10,"veganism feels like cheating somebody: \*offers easter chocolate\*  
me: oh sorry im vegan   
somebody: oh sorry my bad!!!  


friends: let's do a maccas run  
me: \*gets a salad or a small fries\* sorry im vegan this is all i can eat here ://   
friends: o sorry   


like im vegan for ethical/environmental reasons but it's so enabling??? like nobody notices if i restrict because 'vegan food is healthy anyway' (it's not - there's so much fried shit and also oreos)  


also it's all fun and games until somebody remembers youre vegan and specifically buys food FOR YOU only. i was seshing (smoking weed) w/ a group of people and they brought out the munchies and there were sour patch kids and chips for me??? l",0.03818181818181898,1.5287500909090923,2.6638787878787897,83.8008181818182,116.27272727272728,5.093333333333334,21.824242424242424,6.588339656340683,1.4044678787878797,540,23,94,11,30,185,87,132,0.13,0.72,0.15,0.7041,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,2,1,1,8,9,2,0,5,0,7,5,1,1,2,17,10,14,0,1,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,4,1,3,1,1,2,1,3,0,0,3,2,10,6,6,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,2,4,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21768465019377814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11364116064319915,0.0829677392979179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926837739983153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688182753261168,0.09723272968133062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291550106412087,0.0,0.21030723612792596,0.0,0.07110872608815526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4410470488559601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391755683224435,0.0,0.19948062858920276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005210535510728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495531387857273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035132302832244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435738125017358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993758712180324,0.0,0.0,0.15417930785919445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970880715408113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6094291706326751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trstmfckr,2019/04/10,"tw, but r/shittyfoodporn is one of my new fave subs esp when I'm restricting

nothing makes food seem less appetizing that those images, lol

ymmv

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EDAnonymous,eriwhi,2019/04/10,"You know you have an ED when you research the calorie content of semen 12 calories per teaspoon. 

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EDAnonymous,distracted_tatertot,2019/04/10,"So Frustrated ... Does anyone else ever take an extra bite of food or two (or three) while in the process of making a meal and just pretend that the calories don't count? Because I do it more than I'd like to admit, and it always makes me feel like I'm terrible at restricting. D:

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Like, I'm  *juuuuuuuuust* on the verge of being underweight, but I feel like the way I look doesn't reflect that. I hate it.",0.9925301204819306,3.445451686746992,3.427722891566269,85.27074096385546,86.34939759036146,5.7296385542168675,21.55301204819277,7.1686216300943375,0.7970973493975908,322,11,66,5,10,111,59,83,0.085,0.725,0.19,0.8453,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,6,0,4,2,0,2,1,14,14,7,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,1,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,3,5,4,8,13,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,6,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361952573440456,0.2260800152684359,0.2535413661009896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458979826981131,0.21379398418536627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719550719937633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825973430328658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430633652723826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887424051603015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21100672402945467,0.2981295253517188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523091437708688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20600581048063607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077575202854105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521951668167882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27856063483612786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568842649029656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038277889843674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562239239305515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535413661009896,0.0
EDAnonymous,danimarie82,2019/04/10,"My mom attempted a mini intervention almost a month ago and now I can't stop eating I don't know if it's a coincidence but it is really stressing me out.

On St. Patrick's Day weekend I was visiting with my mom when she randomly blurted out, ""I'm just going to say something and then we can let it go. I don't think you need to lose any more weight. I'm concerned."" Cue an awkward ""ok"" from me and then a weird silence.

A little background on me: I am in my 30's and have had various forms of an eating disorder for about 20 years but have never been formally diagnosed or sought any kind of treatment. I am actually at a normal healthy weight right now, for the first time in my adult life. I used to weigh 253 pounds. I have lost 110 lbs in the past 4 years, but the majority of it has happened in the past 18 months. So I think my weight loss seems so drastic because I used to be very big. 

I know that even though I am at a healthy weight, the way that I got there was definitely not healthy. It involved a lot of restriction, fasting, and laxative abuse. I recently had an awful period of depression and anxiety that caused me to lose lose 30 lbs between Christmas and St. Patrick's Day weekend when the comment was made. The thing is, ever since it happened, I cannot stop eating. The eating is stressing me out big time and nothing I am doing to try and compensate is helping. I recently decided to finally reach out to my doctor for some help and I am currently waiting for a call back from a therapist. But now I have gained 8 lbs in less than a month and I am more preoccupied with that than finally getting help for the restrictive part of my ED...",4.158340038935755,5.020266334328364,5.412822842310189,82.1975730045425,70.73134328358209,9.169370538611293,30.983127839065546,9.43228470229965,2.681259571706684,1302,55,269,28,23,435,173,335,0.146,0.7609999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.9664,1,0,1,0,1,0,34.0,1,1,0,8,14,12,0,3,23,2,29,12,0,4,2,49,48,24,0,3,8,2,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,11,18,9,5,6,2,0,3,6,10,0,1,9,5,35,2,40,37,9,55,0,6,0,0,14,17,0,7,34,181,46,1,0.0,0.10084433504276856,0.08305747315615561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544705114727157,0.0,0.08522782377062757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157587686677588,0.0,0.06511079095355464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654462200368547,0.0,0.05188375926910936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690932714733897,0.0,0.0,0.08743393100563862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10978097758320587,0.0,0.07330722809310708,0.08638734470462227,0.0,0.0,0.09754624099733523,0.08711619865219608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483651370018063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056215970222490544,0.07698908341046971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864730564677143,0.0,0.07239660611954972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0444677420104596,0.0,0.09674273300895103,0.0,0.06807220108668706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052931612279058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114724254823446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08863151876444691,0.09355115279520833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703324622422673,0.060117440201329024,0.0,0.08530503430606362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28565718042251503,0.09291029290514913,0.07235956096943988,0.0,0.0805354577105336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19936534451412816,0.203807835665908,0.0,0.0,0.06310980289588365,0.06564396811995084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339212948873957,0.08166769085225922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216848873031104,0.16249892756677986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054525214619621766,0.0,0.16807655180434716,0.0,0.0,0.07268556688125931,0.0,0.0676848360569943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748317748315213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07040589780724905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552372189254432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231563783767742,0.1949920468215649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988221139854535,0.056544929559288665,0.1090732419812401,0.08362254955726603,0.0,0.0992595075940868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057785766326135676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701965823124338,0.0,0.07022668458723079,0.0,0.06755830080559147,0.0,0.4145761365668805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096192539960781
EDAnonymous,Pedalio,2018/12/25,"Scale is not working anymore I'm freaked out, and it's really obvious to my parents if I'm going to buy a new one. What can I do",1.7699999999999996,1.826214,5.206666666666667,84.45000000000002,75.66666666666666,8.666666666666668,31.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.468666666666667,100,5,24,2,2,38,26,30,0.084,0.9159999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,15,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493119117946946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25748336866439464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375663526587088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30700390536895195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030674232028741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29024063101691233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298317051296358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WastingMyYoungYears,2018/12/25,"A positive Christmas post! My beautiful, amazing mother is aware of (she too struggles with ED behaviour and in the past had anorexia) my struggles and gave me for Christmas essentials instead of food or clothes (things that she knows I won’t touch) she bought me toothpaste, toothbrush, mouthwash, etc because she knows I care about my teeth crazily after previously being bulimic (now I’m closer to anorexic tendencies) and other essentials. I love her so much for that. 


She also for Christmas dinner made my safe foods and low calorie/healthy foods and options and desserts so that I’m not left out and the rest of my family doesn’t clue in on my restricting or habits. 


She’s so precious and I love her so much. She knows I’m trying to improve and not let this control my life much, but that it’s a lifelong struggle and sometimes I’m weak and I really adore her for supporting me (but not condoning or embracing) my journey and isn’t shaming me. THIS IS HOW YOU AID SOMEONE WITH AN ED TO GET BETTER! Not shaming, or shunning. 


I love her so so much! Sorry for the rant, I’m just so happy and grateful :) ",4.052390731964191,6.169897369668245,4.5845102685624015,83.07248946814116,72.9336492890995,7.342917324907846,32.1013691416535,8.167268648758528,2.563391574512902,879,43,158,14,18,279,117,211,0.084,0.6829999999999999,0.23199999999999998,0.9914,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,2,14,18,0,5,6,0,8,11,1,3,0,36,25,28,0,0,11,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,16,5,3,3,0,1,1,7,7,0,0,4,1,30,11,19,18,6,12,0,1,0,3,17,7,0,5,3,114,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296705385425513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07848916929006955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387524415056186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312765052241031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444121027116477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359826815003626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138079078947728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670810047045746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727030153121775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706439041195614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122847025484141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989503042749038,0.13166291905191205,0.09094498948647106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3486250901234563,0.12183313744304593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786053085933347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12291327782446825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331376693987572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248513332774032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090955233276454,0.0,0.12734412295957534,0.14413309844545535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038148175471005,0.0,0.0,0.14611209864682115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554053544297566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741765939132425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ClassicMarketing2,2018/12/25,"Parents know about my ED now I'm an adult but live at home and my parents have figured out that I'm bulimic. I know that the obvious solution is to just move out which I'm aiming to do, but it's something that will take time for a couple of reasons. (last year of school) My mom will often point out to me ''that's not binge food'' whenever I grab something to eat. I only binge on my own food nowadays, guess that makes me a slightly more moral person? She makes comments that imply how pointless she finds it all which just makes me feel worse when I engage in bingeing and purging anyway. My dad has also told me that he's there for me in case there's something that I want to talk about such as body image. But this is a really private matter to me and though I appreciate that they care, I want it to stop. It was a lot better when this was all a secret from everyone. This was supposed to be my secret way of punishing myself, others (except on this sub) knowing about it defeats that purpose. Now they know about my bingeing, and now this all truly feels like the shameful thing it's been all along.",3.89296524663677,4.9893037982062785,4.555938901345289,87.2229666479821,71.5560538116592,7.009977578475336,26.04512331838565,7.1686216300943375,1.1244082959641255,869,27,177,8,16,278,125,223,0.081,0.795,0.124,0.8029999999999999,2,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,2,19,7,1,1,8,0,12,4,1,5,5,42,30,13,0,2,7,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,25,8,3,1,11,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,3,25,4,29,22,7,20,1,1,0,0,16,9,0,3,10,129,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872194208468948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202397974495958,0.0,0.15101365838245487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861362507523614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504299304003472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911434222316088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299093682297775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748432032693014,0.09712518724438793,0.0,0.0,0.12425900999736968,0.0,0.32879095491540244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976807644883536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637241693916874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298865889906919,0.1108202247862638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06641999892715336,0.0,0.12004940616700364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558277977475273,0.0,0.0,0.27224999387889554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592270627472863,0.0,0.14449702462190014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033987414163896,0.0,0.0,0.30192048230860125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870932739283516,0.0,0.0,0.12851997466590245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709527516636692,0.13978281177827148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759217142410238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139908734683988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136631898142863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222009099180852,0.10927425061073212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903214454740874,0.0,0.13357359553028314,0.0,0.07927556257315514,0.0,0.0,0.1299093682297775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037775991342235,0.1079135376079331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854820234557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754957827240292
EDAnonymous,perspica,2018/12/25,I’ve been in recovery and my parents just got me a food scale for Christmas It was actually really sweet because they’ve been keeping track of things I mentioned wanting and about 5 months ago I mentioned it once or twice. I just said I’ve been kinda eating whatever now and my mom said she’ll keep it for recipes and whatnot so it actually worked out great!,3.7246948356807534,5.71515529577465,4.4813380281690165,84.01008215962445,73.50704225352112,7.550234741784037,30.143192488262912,8.344100000000001,2.2618431924882625,290,13,56,5,6,93,51,71,0.0,0.8859999999999999,0.114,0.8264,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,12,11,6,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,7,2,6,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,2,3,33,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.4140781270153125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880684087821624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933170878118586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170942269937842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565465826859359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696849690743094,0.23390885265055056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37715785933112783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484810376212803,0.1693453212911948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259451215032872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355802883905086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359161186035168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036284281037559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095070337682042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513837631330335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445613178462092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AmbiguousWitch,2018/12/25,"So I’m in the ER and it’s probably related to my ED Merry fucking christmas lmao. 

It’s *probably* an ulcer but I’m here because if it’s not it could be really fucking bad. 

If it’s an ulcer it’s 100% caused by my purging on an empty stomach, reliance on coke zero, and other terrible ED decisions. 

I guess I’m posting here because I have no one else who can relate irl. 

Anyways, merry christmas and don’t fucking purge. ",0.06051724137930847,2.4210749655172417,3.377729885057473,83.75900862068968,92.44827586206895,5.658620689655173,26.790229885057467,7.1686216300943375,1.913291954022988,330,17,61,6,12,119,56,87,0.158,0.7390000000000001,0.10300000000000001,-0.7325,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,4,0,5,7,1,1,0,11,12,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,0,0,4,0,5,10,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,3,3,3,0,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870939426637668,0.2731890693704555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23018758258186114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890630199469698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18718658744215114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6214634301172373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468447685204947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518395687680082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146026868138359,0.0,0.4831832467010778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354870241666787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myfatmakesmelookfat,2018/12/25,"Weight loss/ before and after pics I made a side by side of my weight loss and I have no idea what to do with it. I’ve always wanted to post in r/progresspics but I also know people would see my post history and it would be a no-go. I also considered making a new username and posting it on there, but I would feel guilty knowing I didn’t do this in the healthiest way (but then again I high restrict at about 1200 per day, I just have an unhealthy mindset). It’s also only about a ten pound difference and I’m no where near underweight. 

I want to share my weight loss as motivation, but I’m not sure where to do it. Any thoughts on what to do?",1.6567401960784345,3.3353555073529435,3.232941176470589,92.06990196078434,78.48529411764707,6.298039215686276,21.62745098039216,7.1686216300943375,0.4917715686274504,503,14,113,6,12,166,84,136,0.171,0.775,0.054000000000000006,-0.9412,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,10,5,0,0,6,0,11,3,0,3,1,27,22,14,0,5,6,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,6,3,1,6,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,5,12,2,18,15,0,20,0,3,1,0,1,11,0,0,5,77,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35005632602751185,0.12141012766258405,0.0,0.0,0.09922488149243568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416001215291425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09410090152290353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244655088990475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377728165572099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292491643219345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416360092007214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471641932967446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037838267315094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806506995944667,0.09739711617736246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409223182684758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097233561156558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115672123140836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192288949500895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627264220876933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751994230679795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583750020740935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212486684022962,0.1158178247473392,0.0,0.5330430060789577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31095421126416706,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VTMongoose,2018/12/25,"""Every time I look at you, you're eating"" So yesterday like any other day I did a spin class, but didn't eat much of anything all day because I knew at night my parents would do something out of my comfort zone. No surprise, they ordered out for sausage pizza. So I manage to down two slices of **fear food incarnate**, and yet, no surprise, I'm starving two hours later. So I'm standing there in the kitchen with my mom and grampa. My mom's eating some cake, my grampa's chowing down on some candy out of one of the numerous candy bowls around the house, because Christmas, and I'm standing there sweating bullets trying to figure out how to not go to bed hungry. There's three problems:

* I feel guilty justifying eating how much food I need to eat relative to what others eat (as a tall male that exercises every day)
* I hate eating in front of or around other people
* I feel guilty eating at all after eating high-fat foods

I eat some deli turkey out of the fridge and down that (Hallelujah safe foods), then break a banana off the bunch and start eating it, and my grampa laughs at me and says ""Every time I look at you, you're eating"".....WHY

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I can't describe how upset that comment made me. It was hard enough even getting to the point where I could put that banana into my mouth. I know it's not realistic for me to expect anyone to understand my mental state, but it's hard to not get angry when you feel personally attacked. I don't know how to process these things and respond in a loving manner yet, and I need to work on it. The best I could do was to sarcastically say ""I appreciate the commentary"" and walk away.

​

And after all my efforts, my stomach woke up at 1:30 am anyway, starving. Ugh...

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I know this is nothing compared to what a lot of you have to deal with this Christmas. Really the worst battles are (hopefully) far behind me in my journey, and I'm grateful for where I am at. Even being able to eat pizza was a gift. I still think all of us struggle in different ways and to different degrees. I'll be praying the peace of Jesus Christ is with all of you today as we all try to put our food battle on the backburner for a day and celebrate what really matters this holiday season with our families and friends.",4.8630405405405375,5.785673997747747,5.596414414414415,81.2994864864865,69.15765765765765,7.901981981981982,28.98918918918919,8.021203637495839,1.9167221621621613,1781,63,337,22,30,580,220,444,0.11199999999999999,0.7440000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.9576,3,0,1,0,0,0,75.0,4,5,1,3,21,20,4,3,18,0,20,26,3,5,6,69,46,29,0,8,6,3,5,1,1,1,1,2,2,2,20,28,21,1,10,2,0,6,8,10,0,4,8,9,45,10,71,33,16,66,3,0,2,1,22,34,0,6,21,237,65,3,0.055524430331114184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804820911977008,0.2024047809121728,0.03775851663900375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03882397269482397,0.0,0.045691875174435966,0.09885702971504656,0.0,0.0631670552686641,0.05216703004855988,0.0,0.0,0.06769435474143452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826946404737818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866347911075677,0.0,0.0,0.14323465656821865,0.05724324960182445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160224238468658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6817842470154977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573715791478441,0.0,0.07334672514065346,0.0,0.14034518190902204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05234349136842192,0.062480420833006936,0.08422446089362295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357018077721959,0.0,0.042898037139514185,0.0,0.05801844632331547,0.0,0.031555813318171304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994779669342049,0.054818879693658264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058664609147585985,0.0,0.05514828765086895,0.05468037933138395,0.06406773774938868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915443244620402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027126432012474024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325307458603717,0.0,0.0,0.0472048850950947,0.050112966192325546,0.05253855850386077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595556628837522,0.0,0.0,0.13005908346663422,0.0,0.0,0.08163369003240976,0.08234132308603814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05210591653768669,0.0,0.0532771884048712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03762479097591448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616533090093852,0.0,0.0,0.03849364881382472,0.048481790888012494,0.0,0.0,0.05248853374483039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053129381088765734,0.0,0.11163477686666444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114074370881432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831051117350278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04274541914712282,0.0,0.0,0.03930047757103716,0.0,0.044341881786258384,0.0,0.0,0.058046190228396334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03688796431039356,0.03557781297794512,0.0,0.0,0.06475348368342675,0.0,0.05263066765266638,0.0,0.0,0.0753948869509937,0.0,0.10847860083644276,0.057802890148897425,0.06678905314554133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04407270834734136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05010216210115583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04042244657382474,0.0,0.0,0.03944296223349119,0.0,0.2024047809121728,0.0
EDAnonymous,threwawaythefood,2018/12/25,"mom, a shitty christmas pseudopoem comments how my legs look like a man's
asks what my weight is then in disbelief says
it looked like you would have weighed more

i spent hundreds of dollars to travel home",18.238461538461546,8.618371307692314,14.445641025641027,60.957692307692305,53.87179487179488,17.65128205128205,56.948717948717956,11.20814326018867,6.366825641025642,167,7,31,2,1,49,36,39,0.08900000000000001,0.7879999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,1,0,2,7,2,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,3,5,1,3,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,0,3,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30098801110412937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229509212509267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145856079177368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5407285990534331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770742482715776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560345554316481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3920590748313661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287102897755459,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ana_and_boredom,2018/12/25,"Christmas Eve I feel like I have hit a new low, purging on Christmas Eve and probably tomorrow, I tried so hard to just eat and forgive myself because it’s Christmas. My body hates food, how is your Christmas? ",8.116500000000002,7.121213650000001,7.550000000000002,76.55500000000005,62.5,10.0,42.5,8.841846274778883,3.902249999999999,166,9,30,2,2,52,33,40,0.166,0.723,0.111,-0.3108,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,6,5,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,2,2,4,0,6,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982711467061658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612826447905903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328149124061359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445763713357234,0.2323607341169517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932970932808725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913627089198085,0.32111989779721595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15890213598174835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141312740413449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506776336747223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208253664379116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,springtimefairy,2018/12/25,"Some bs that pissed me off SO OK um I saw something that made me recall an experience I had with an individual that pissed me off. 

So I'm a dumb teenager and I'm apart of the tumblr generation, and even I am not above some of its bs. I too flipped my shit and had a mental breakdown when voltron season 7 dropped, and I've gotten into my fair share of stupid, pointless, petty argunents that I came to regret once I got more levelheaded, but this particular experience still makes me pissy even two years after it happened. 

So basically I was 15 here, and involved in a specific group of mutuals on the hellsite, and one person came into my ask box on anon claiming to have a crush on me, and I was like ""oh......cool...........ok............................."" but really weirded out, then they showed up in my DMs on their actual blog and was like trying to be cute like ""that anon was me tee hee"" so I looked at their page and they went by ""they/fae"" pronouns (no judgment or anything at NB people like to each their own I'll use any pronouns you use, but I'm trying to make this an immersive experience), they were a year younger than me, and they were one of those very very SJ people on tumblr (again, no shame, social justice is great.....when done correctly at least) who will reblog ANY callout post, tweet, or anything regardless of if it's factual, relevant, up to date, etc.

So we talk and I try to be sweet and outgoing since I'm always up to make internet buds and I'm fine with being friends/mutuals with peope from all different perspectives bc a binch (me) loves to discuss things with people and I'll probably be anyone's friend as long as they aren't like a full blown nazi or something like that. Plus I'm like sensitive as shit and understanding to a fault and can't put up boundaries with people even when I get bad vibes.

So them and I talk and they send me some selfies and I'm like ""oh wow I totally love your pastel purple lipstick and micro bangs"" so I, perfectly innocently, sent them a pic of me and my friend having fun and I was like, ""This is my friend isn't her hair cool? (:"" and they got REALLY mad at me for triggering them with my ""skinny body"" without permission.

And I obviously feel bad, I'm a pushover 15 yr old, and I'm like ""oh I'm sorry!!!"" And I try to like kinda show I empathize with them and that I get where they're coming from by bringing up my struggles with eating disorders and body image issues, and instead of seeing that I was trying to relate to them and show that I understand they literally get fucking MAD.

And like they go off on this long rant abt how eating disorders are caused by fatphobia and that I have thin privileges and every time I restrict or hate my body, I'm directly causing the oppression of fat people. I'm not a suffering 15 yr old girl, I am singlehandedly enacting oppression and violence onto a minority.

I still kind of get angry when I think abt this interaction, bc like........I was a struggling kid who was hard on myself!!!! And I tend to take on a lot of guilt when I shouldn't so hearing shit like that really got to me, and still does.

It also kind of makes it harder for rational, normal people to talk about body shaming and hardship they face because these fucking mean weirdos become the face of an actually necessary movement.

Idk. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Or an inverse one? Let's have a lil slumber party here... I love you guys. Merry Christmas eve, pretties. Hope you all get what you wanted.....AND MORE! ",3.998820949432407,5.3663942295321645,5.218658410732719,81.5352167182663,71.61695906432749,8.464121087031305,27.59305125558995,8.95278374424137,2.1388651874785003,2719,97,537,53,51,903,324,684,0.13,0.693,0.17800000000000002,0.9923,2,1,2,1,0,0,148.0,1,5,18,1,27,55,12,5,25,2,34,21,14,11,7,100,89,65,0,6,12,0,4,13,4,2,1,1,0,4,27,54,4,1,5,4,0,10,9,23,1,4,24,11,76,32,78,58,15,62,0,2,4,5,51,30,8,12,33,335,103,0,0.0,0.0,0.11620298468710903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047613330677430066,0.049541232020471684,0.0,0.0,0.08097714697874386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326213058804234,0.06100475928790908,0.09799107647975508,0.0,0.05566094406146879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942518510983636,0.03629443236566327,0.06575616693868096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645377047356786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619354898498065,0.0,0.1223259432258442,0.0,0.05128759151667086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220560091450179,0.1364737442419811,0.0,0.052102995324104166,0.060929086271610436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12184655739657355,0.04973720913017759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640174279252142,0.11797487833491067,0.0,0.05016419002834924,0.0,0.0,0.2329623345060196,0.0,0.0,0.030104716127995312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799909137417224,0.11008572431345108,0.1555333959593493,0.0,0.0338373956467849,0.0,0.14285637354309266,0.0656419768381681,0.0,0.058952987904175434,0.05265015642689719,0.0,0.0533352649058824,0.05878245324894425,0.0,0.0,0.06710479973643857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05913567841430289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06214326540866943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240014489535062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06088267914946595,0.0,0.4072285903492736,0.0,0.0,0.10538031357213144,0.049997779303470415,0.0,0.0,0.05061794342990186,0.1612088631961088,0.056337257825744926,0.15897102568172533,0.0,0.0,0.0648554443735607,0.0,0.0,0.060001325779467374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833559568918354,0.0,0.0,0.12495236637156085,0.06340711035239625,0.1210355371490117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476611478846071,0.05198717343779237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057021920532935685,0.060572585325224415,0.06419313081605459,0.0,0.0,0.05985315724064471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442665732666217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047444888298829514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334783718526146,0.049251290425102345,0.0,0.0,0.06069253028026416,0.0,0.09167208876444637,0.0,0.06664905541106192,0.0,0.0,0.14264380853659528,0.0,0.0,0.12448621651692607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04476593133774935,0.14356562058478467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039555077550687004,0.03815019824853663,0.0,0.0,0.034717679826715316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211542274179894,0.0,0.0581609686098416,0.123964433670267,0.0,0.10284518927050353,0.0,0.0982518495159832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05519326559497685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573934880868716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668235024180076
EDAnonymous,devilberries_,2018/12/25,I got a peach account :) Please add me! Im blueraspberry,-1.1848484848484873,-0.8851900909090897,0.8581818181818193,95.44060606060609,131.72727272727272,5.103030303030304,21.84848484848485,6.42735559955562,1.1798848484848483,43,2,9,1,3,14,10,11,0.0,0.556,0.444,0.68,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608863140583002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6224577279929066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6325584418657794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,athrowawayCNA16,2018/12/30,Sugar free gum a staple for anyone else? I chew more gum than I'd like to admit. I just pop it in my mouth ahead of any time I might be offered food so I always have a good reason to say no. I like mint gum but hate anything else mint flavored so even when I spit the gum out I don't want to drink anything. I don't even want to drink water because my mouth is so cold. My favorite is eclipse winter frost which is 5 cals for 2 pieces. And with all of this chewing I'll get a nice muscular jaw line 🙃 anyone else? What's your favorite kind?,1.2344067796610148,2.6200826101694936,2.712,96.63596610169493,78.83050847457628,5.058983050847458,20.274576271186444,4.935628992294339,-0.4100908474576266,420,10,100,1,10,137,80,118,0.076,0.7040000000000001,0.21899999999999997,0.9548,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,7,7,1,0,4,0,8,12,5,1,1,11,13,6,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,3,7,0,2,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,12,7,13,11,3,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,6,54,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14651334848374986,0.0,0.0,0.11974099624343144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24623960803607775,0.3608312184494437,0.28979902499484594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733723406420206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449843395195624,0.0,0.0,0.4412787948564307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325994430210941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212917627499385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919949614237964,0.0,0.0,0.14768823842707504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384335645979565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336107886363776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204838975840936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679392509547654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810404100482657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002653610283494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267414263934496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077140604626299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1ovewaters,2018/12/30,"feel like god just called me out for being fat so as the evening approached and my mother has been slightly more .. proactive.. about me being depressed .... i’ve been skipping meals lately and she’s been asking if i’m going to eat. 

my mother asks me if i’m going to eat dinner today, i say “no” (fuck yeah my appetite is usually sky high) and she leaves me be. odd, but i guess she’s getting used to it. 

of course i come downstairs about an hour later as i’ve accepted my fate in this meat prison as a food slave who will never stop eating. as my sandwich is on the stove, i grab a chocolate bar. gotta get that dopamine. not even looking forward to the sandwich at this point but waste is waste so i’m gonna have to eat it.  except it’s burned. god has said *”fuck you fatty you’re not eating tonight”*. 

so i threw out the black sandwich and sobbed with frustration in the bathroom. to be truthful, i’d rather this than any day of binge eating. ",0.7253192934782611,3.1024425781250042,1.862527173913044,96.57758152173912,86.76041666666666,3.964130434782609,19.806159420289852,5.192301501255418,-0.3476288949275359,733,22,156,3,23,231,120,192,0.125,0.7929999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.8938,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,9,8,3,0,8,1,14,16,1,1,2,24,34,15,0,3,9,2,2,1,0,3,1,2,1,0,8,8,14,1,2,1,0,6,4,5,0,0,5,6,18,3,24,22,1,24,0,2,2,2,12,10,3,3,11,92,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271648418594163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274260218352031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12420370512451602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477843220970308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844499903278274,0.0,0.10476469718993436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7467824600427616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067853745929214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061502692263960365,0.08689660737990422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708243726448209,0.0,0.0,0.22490059020384512,0.1270993228806578,0.0,0.1382568048560878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13399549701223273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12851485298599313,0.0,0.0,0.11978671660987812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721042925307095,0.12879470128963152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942508563122492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214339910427556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381299254280492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498510423374725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570345691840456,0.09672963414815172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169293732208763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529647285164622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505423800775324,0.13396459910603614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mynewnewone,2018/12/30,"Drinking senna tea even though the last time I drank this, I suffered for three full days Gonna feel this in about 8 hours, probably going to be cramping my way into the new year. ",15.148333333333332,6.570072722222222,12.872222222222225,66.89500000000002,57.88888888888889,15.511111111111116,47.111111111111114,8.841846274778883,4.488644444444444,142,4,29,1,1,44,33,36,0.10800000000000001,0.892,0.0,-0.5789,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,5,2,1,11,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22159588849634454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33660070476296344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269469291197591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17373629810937985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19527783727772768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33838032028189263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800827841928601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33185448619816793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3704627827950603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33758878041375223,0.0,0.2003580152157997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272736534541637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212694450380211
EDAnonymous,moonxwitch,2018/12/30,"stronger resolve for 2019 hey i hope this post is okay for this subreddit, it talks about some very unhealthy practises but i felt like i really needed to vent somewhere.

for me, 2018 has been defined by slow weight gain. it started in january/february when i got together with my currently ex gf and at first it was amazing. she made me feel so good about myself and i slowly stopped restricting and went back to eating like a normal person. but then i got into a really bad depressive episode and i started drinking a lot and also binging. the rest of the year i’ve been going through episodes of restricting for a short period of time and then binging heavily, which always put me at a surplus combined with excessive drinking. at the end of the year my binges have gotten worse than ever, i never knew that food could make you feel this sick.

i went through failing at restricting and then going back to binging all the time but then i decided to give myself some leeway in december. so i allowed myself to eat and drink as much as i wanted to, without any restrictions. and i vowed to start eating better in january, go back to exercising more and working on self improvement in general.

boy do i feel fucking terrible after the massive binge that december had been. coincidentally that also lined up with a depressive episode caused by the fact it was my first christmas away from home.

last night was probably the worst bc even though i didnt even eat that many calories compared to my usual binges, i think i had too many fatty foods and i lowkey thought i was gonna die bc i think i ended up having a panic attack but i lowkey thought it was a heart attack.

either way i couldnt fall asleep until like 7am but when i woke up it made me even more motivated to do better in january. if i continued with my binges and living like i did in 2018, i would probably be 400 lbs and dying of heart issues. but i won’t. this has given me an even stronger resolve and i’m one of those stubborn tauruses who once they decide to do something, they stick to it.

so here’s to a better 2019, may it be full of self-improvement and strong will. i plan to exercise more, eat healthier (definitely up my veggies and protein intake bc it’s been lacking so much) and just try for a more healthy mindset. binging only makes my depression worse as i always feel anxious and ashamed of myself, and i really don’t need that rn.

i really hope you all manage to get better in 2019. may the new year treat us all well. 💖",4.352053610988037,5.909061631147544,5.222636242800178,81.1102680549402,71.00819672131145,8.472396987151086,29.172795746566237,8.994212911058018,2.4503143996455474,1988,78,373,39,37,648,245,488,0.159,0.691,0.15,-0.8842,3,0,4,0,0,0,38.0,1,2,2,14,23,31,4,2,20,1,31,18,3,7,6,83,68,43,2,11,10,1,6,4,1,6,3,0,1,3,21,24,11,6,15,5,0,7,6,13,1,3,26,6,54,18,64,32,17,63,0,4,0,1,15,20,1,8,38,262,75,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253089284382373,0.11708735752211012,0.0,0.0,0.04784600509885729,0.0,0.0,0.07948476660150676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008527439567585,0.06610386762697504,0.16230339422000584,0.05874617828865687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489045265917663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227727725258838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05617531687187098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179830605451808,0.0,0.14604145704449187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067728219930903,0.0,0.3599701412057022,0.0,0.0,0.12463300631452685,0.0,0.0,0.1858837739107107,0.06364304181545162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230092860523336,0.0,0.06755492881359275,0.0,0.0,0.11969333901530012,0.17015488780904492,0.0,0.0,0.06504504447650378,0.036759268182501005,0.06749401970219551,0.11995860054736908,0.0590131402820253,0.11254379837546437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16674966872583644,0.0,0.0,0.07057503546745389,0.1397631838858352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734357063575806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057351343258003076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749389752688998,0.0,0.06212760093459632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981604612660614,0.0,0.13314930573653275,0.09392932190282002,0.14266439222811564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344278052211822,0.10433946338219248,0.054264599900692816,0.06795241130048914,0.0,0.06602642715491402,0.06893612118792505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492921246091593,0.04767655355977305,0.053510599918507734,0.0,0.08255021649745563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061434087472425215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738372991287618,0.0,0.15171613122614874,0.0,0.0,0.07072944832868244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18029312002751596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679794466493626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416519833179528,0.0,0.0,0.14939973952596866,0.0,0.0,0.05882262581050721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05655127543843376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016541817167463,0.06912659798550118,0.11171314174832464,0.08205289259921927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04776861575328284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463228065607972,0.0,0.07748964375087836,0.05805290342160204,0.041499103514200636,0.055847083413470215,0.0,0.08567736238182794,0.06326049318138485,0.1304455573260954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782281732811578,0.0,0.051221625133484966,0.0,0.14340208253186926,0.04998046375021602,0.0,0.0,0.13592516867597124
EDAnonymous,lawsoflife,2018/12/30,felt so freaking good in my body so I met this guy on hometown tinder that I have some mutual friends with and we mega hit it off. we hooked up after our date last night and he was just the sweetest person ever. he was so....reverent of me and touched every gross part of my body but it didn’t even make me feel bad bc I knew he was so into it. I was driving and thinking about it today and I just started to cry bc I haven’t felt that comfortable in my body in sooo long. The thing that sucks is that winter break is almost over and we go to school on opposite sides of the country so we have like.....5 days to keep hanging out? It makes me so sad :/,0.17966426858513174,2.199168309352519,1.946302158273383,97.61350599520384,85.33093525179856,4.8577458033573135,18.61918465227818,6.079149491110277,-0.3317284412470021,501,13,118,4,15,164,87,139,0.16399999999999998,0.78,0.055999999999999994,-0.9563,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,5,0,0,0,11,8,1,0,3,0,10,3,3,2,1,27,23,12,0,0,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,11,13,0,1,5,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,9,4,17,3,19,13,2,25,0,1,0,0,12,11,1,2,10,79,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735573747223828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14471698724143853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5775664324711205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19038654796399454,0.11177862710114386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11447782869060652,0.15678005852835925,0.14603162046497425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763702707697975,0.0,0.3328334218840811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133908477506071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850312973900256,0.1453746289215222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161645289266245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405693720558938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412809114112255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467658320003679,0.0,0.0,0.1533848941580516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313881323924699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16265135698232194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18769129878540045,0.0,0.0,0.15133845829513354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541154982620324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267850623756242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514771930096344,0.1110580130596231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428939516686675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wisver,2018/12/30,"Does anyone else feel compelled to overshare about eating anxiety to friends? I’m an attention whore, so this simultaneous feels like it would be incredibly rewarding to do and is also the dumbest idea in the world.

I feel so guilty for fantasizing about conversations where they ask me personal questions and I can answer them without the burden of it being oversharing (since they asked to questions). It’s so embarrassing but I really want them to act concerned and tell me how worried they are.

It’s really stupid but these thoughts have been on my mind so much. I desperately want to share my feelings with even complete strangers, but it’s literally only for attention and probably will not help me at all in the long run. In fact, It’s incredibly uncomfortable when situations similar to these fantasies actually happen in real life, so I probably would just feel even worse if I overshared to a friend.

That being said, if you are bored and have nothing better to do than give me attention and ask about me really personal Q’s PLEASE go ahead.",8.261870537839123,8.72366182198953,8.294907187053786,66.51876249405048,61.67015706806282,12.181056639695385,37.25892432175155,11.741389052700956,4.710241884816753,852,38,142,25,11,277,120,191,0.17800000000000002,0.71,0.111,-0.9490000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,5,3,15,11,1,1,6,0,15,3,0,2,2,38,31,19,0,6,8,0,5,1,2,3,1,1,0,2,10,7,1,0,13,1,0,3,2,5,0,0,3,6,19,6,25,22,2,14,0,0,0,1,21,8,0,4,4,101,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.12112753829840332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09926226164799616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495484903614017,0.0,0.0,0.08679068733704026,0.1271801466533384,0.0,0.0,0.3481187588262753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097779712732394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014210305541146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086221249578984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701027936005632,0.10369003377999488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396603044507546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138052060861426,0.08867451743414641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179645308398285,0.0,0.0,0.11907146338299135,0.07054277389105387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976282332485372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08319798884904632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012137274106734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767275554720838,0.06064092662207112,0.0,0.0,0.1098462143849058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253302901776337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124573782626216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910073802571555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944022221066681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167613287582104,0.0,0.13625135002878974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26765425801592674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780955371216781,0.0,0.0,0.14128077538254802,0.23855186430906075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807075692663688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267701097825886,0.13952105967944078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084902226310747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854093240983734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642360927148546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196515209147241,0.0,0.0,0.1260543835820641,0.12649339818978605,0.1763488672198667,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inthemoodforlove2000,2018/12/30,"Why does feeling small feel so good? My mom gave my her old Apple Watch because she doesn’t like it, and the band is loose even when I put it on the last hole. Even though I’ll have to get a tighter band, it feels so great to look down at my wrist and feel dainty for once. I gained so much weight recently and I missed feeling thin and willowy. One time my boyfriend was touching my knee and he said my knee bones were so skinny. The rush I felt at that was intoxicating. I want to be thin for him, whenever I read posts on here about how girls’ SOs were more attracted to them when they were thin I want to just work out and restrict hardcore. Even for myself, last year I was at my lightest and I felt fat then but I still noticed how much better I looked in clothes. My confidence skyrocketed. I’m going to get that back. My boyfriend always tells me he loves me no matter what, but I don’t want him to love me *despite*, I want him to love me *because*. 

I can tell whenever I wear makeup or nice clothes he’s so much more into me, I can’t wait to be thin again. I hate how the fat hangs off my body, I feel like a sexless blob. 

This is so scattered I’m sorry. Thanks for reading. ",0.9961133603238856,3.0337764331983834,2.0696777327935223,97.82137489878544,82.23886639676113,5.0856032388663985,20.406315789473688,6.152001189255117,-0.15577655060728726,917,26,215,7,25,289,138,247,0.055999999999999994,0.7340000000000001,0.21100000000000002,0.9898,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,3,21,13,1,0,6,0,15,14,9,3,0,31,43,23,0,4,4,1,14,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,9,4,2,8,4,0,4,4,2,0,1,10,18,41,11,24,31,5,32,0,1,3,3,21,15,0,1,14,131,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614690206482304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885085961515253,0.0,0.14087648174424813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021946333411386,0.0,0.1283500619199589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111863158026643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289591641299694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505534774005936,0.0825489821936075,0.22189234643578248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074026889709576,0.0,0.0656697589602884,0.09691790367994456,0.0,0.1273943432773887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11408175665314167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883774337454668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290384017362755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940658879118298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31286530733214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533082756785778,0.0,0.0,0.25482775677882197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13155450318107442,0.12125034483730593,0.1230570371513184,0.07829970755013722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066501145475734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161597201520692,0.0,0.0,0.2311626484498959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409173899239194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991456275317174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934882605810746,0.0,0.0,0.09227842297673793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019916818336009,0.1063829657643076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352734210149587,0.0,0.06737816614729597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726176643352363,0.0,0.0,0.14070883730623812,0.0,0.0,0.10426595174073842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412181604457658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441044679462414
EDAnonymous,gossipsquirellxoxo,2018/12/30,Holes in my teeth 9 years and it’s caught up with me ,-3.325384615384614,-1.808547769230767,-1.254999999999999,115.63750000000002,103.6153846153846,2.6,6.5,3.1291,-3.0582000000000003,41,0,13,0,2,13,13,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0
EDAnonymous,halfpricedcrunchwrap,2018/12/30,"Home From College & Overeating I’m home from school for the holidays. At school, between 15 credit hours, two jobs, and no friends to hit up the dining halls with, I barely eat. Usually getting a coffee in the morning and letting my other meal swipes go to waste. I’m so busy I forget to feel hungry. But now that I’m home for the holidays I feel insatiable. I’m so hungry, but I’m also still so embarrassed to be seen eating anything. Last night, I ate dinner at my boyfriends house, then stopped at mcdonald’s on my way home and ate it in the parking lot, and then ate the dinner my mom made when I got home. I feel disgusting but I can’t stop. I want to enjoy my time at home with my friends and family, but at the same time I can’t wait to get back to school and go back to how I was living. ",3.67534022863364,4.114928880239525,4.815939031028852,87.57515514425695,71.57485029940119,7.988894937397933,26.55906369080021,8.00094639256281,1.3834,621,19,137,8,11,205,92,167,0.113,0.7859999999999999,0.102,-0.4312,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,1,1,8,0,5,9,0,2,0,24,26,18,0,1,4,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,3,8,9,3,3,2,1,2,3,2,0,1,7,4,16,4,25,16,2,29,0,0,1,0,3,11,0,1,15,83,19,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903691444328073,0.0,0.12063461696154985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162164218086004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712240145477393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22785302670013885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049595057840322,0.0,0.16888743106758738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720388403431872,0.0,0.11633896198460986,0.0,0.1265518399289113,0.0,0.08904712558341743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6700862210488092,0.0,0.10964544856799256,0.12846904008649346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048573075037232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075528530564413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385059220564694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831344529820896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465553941176738,0.0,0.10535065565950114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303976556254092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044831192043678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380398333652892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891462675008745,0.18616701491520074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984410224701004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087609942924562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262301678282535,0.0,0.06567000466609256,0.08837487843792262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minni-hasnofriends,2019/05/31,"i hope this may help someone❤ please consider watching this! if you already know the stuff then maybe just keep working on using it, if you haven't heard of this, i really hope it can shed some light and bring some clarity❤️

i understand of course this may not be helpful to everyone, but that's okay! different things work for each individual!

please stay safe💕

[[link☺️💕](https://youtu.be/s9g_4rvdRyI)]",2.911154401154402,5.787580519480523,3.224588744588747,87.18227994227995,81.46753246753245,7.578066378066379,25.43867243867244,8.515128840125781,2.0801642135642138,328,13,63,8,9,101,61,77,0.023,0.7859999999999999,0.191,0.8723,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,17,13,5,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,9,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,5,3,5,9,3,4,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,8,1,35,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294301844049808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21721822338411176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986637364084816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27871092185387525,0.0,0.0,0.4129964766813932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479700435952395,0.0,0.0,0.11426007066121832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20887019833351608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4564381891401251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319033895593382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216008513494114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380034002025742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13812395580247425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164381795916024,0.0,0.17956461290074502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027170692863466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinybluecinderella,2019/05/31,"I love rules. So I made some more. New game I’m playing to fight binges and keep my self control 💪 The 100 calorie game!!! Just made it up. I’ve been playing it about a week and something in my OCD is so satisfied by winning at it. Here are my rules so far:

•Eat any food you want in the world. 

•But you can only eat 100 calories of each specific food item a day.

•You can’t have the same food twice in one day.

•You can have 200 calories of ONE food per day. Happy indulgence. Go crazy.

This is helping me in many, many ways. 
1.) I don’t kick any specific food groups out of my life, because when I do that, it’s all I can think about. This way, nothing is off-limits.

2.) I’m building calorie awareness. I can have a huge amount of some foods to equal 100, but just a nibble of others. Turns out I’d naturally rather have the huge amount. 

3.) I’m building self control. I’m restricting, but in a funny way, it doesn’t feel like it. I’m naturally ending up at a calorie deficit at the end of the day. 

SO RELIEVED to find something that is helping me again. This is a kind of satisfaction that binging can never give me.",-0.007994672191799168,2.2443487510729625,1.8756371170637856,95.92549356223176,89.38626609442059,4.587183661388192,20.910019239307392,6.129581340695534,0.080039336983869,861,30,194,8,29,283,123,233,0.044000000000000004,0.789,0.168,0.9788,0,0,2,0,1,0,39.0,0,2,0,3,12,9,1,0,13,0,20,9,0,4,2,25,35,9,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,13,5,7,4,3,4,0,1,4,1,0,3,3,1,15,8,25,32,10,31,0,0,0,1,12,16,0,2,12,112,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931975563693882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05796187319048204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21328792393277154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452833484328269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945878265118839,0.0,0.0,0.16843109354261013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807695354114778,0.06792750044106766,0.0,0.0,0.08690437769931479,0.0,0.6898503375495595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121252774195683,0.05403800824918269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012178990788945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746461075328744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451437092016766,0.0,0.09901458421042604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716011897696933,0.04645287833595008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581635507814676,0.17994016057871162,0.0,0.19279900487943705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333407234725901,0.0918320056832696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123495304929544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886175644596354,0.07231510437652705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198385155592936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463994788660294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092551416137899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342328379360463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05608257068192124,0.226417999741368,0.07627005639793204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fhkiyggj,2019/05/31,"How to deal w/ looking fat and significantly different at notmal BMI? :*( Hello, anyone know how to deal with looking bad at normal BMI? I'm at bmi 22-23 right now and it's supposed to be the healhiest and best bmi but I just look fat and ugly :*( maybe I just have bad genes but I look so different and worse at bmis over 19, I can't ever recognize myself. Or maybe my brain just don't want to acknowledge that it's me in the reflection :*( I just want to get back to under 19 now, I hate how I look right now, hate it.",0.6793160967472858,2.6289278073394517,2.9974812343619703,91.22130942452046,82.8532110091743,6.5324437030859075,19.08340283569641,7.686295010490155,0.484368807339449,397,10,91,7,11,136,62,109,0.239,0.7390000000000001,0.021,-0.9809,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,13,5,2,0,2,0,4,3,3,3,1,23,16,12,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,5,10,1,14,15,1,14,0,0,5,0,3,9,0,1,5,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081897161120816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087097841339744,0.24078040867398345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131546397301449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609604871798707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973011341165023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012896580168934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042548523142591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533180773095621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847098167432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924145837807857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6054042403935259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28971064050433964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14127274246223426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462699881557576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17009057260976804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469389713619497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnybgood,2019/05/31,"Sad Truth Series of events:
Smoke a bunch of weed to not think of ED
Get the munchies while stoned 
Feel awful the day after
Repeat


Fuck life sucks lmao",2.5669999999999997,4.955867033333334,1.6833333333333336,100.80500000000002,78.66666666666666,4.0,13.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.604666666666667,121,1,26,0,3,34,27,30,0.293,0.557,0.15,-0.7096,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,5,1,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,11,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918542117077548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30722275852061914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5617199603132578,0.3174479290590337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4291685619601118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389328007418896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway7654321p,2019/05/31,"DAE start to feel depression and emotional instability after over-exercising and restricting for a while? Aside from feeling unhappy about my ED, I'm usually pretty happy otherwise...but the past couple of months have become hard for me. I've been restricting for the past couple years and I exercise everyday, but over the past two months I have started exercising even more, because I really want to get leaner. Since then I've been feeling depressed a lot and like my emotions are all over the place, like the smallest things can make me feel upset or hopeless. Nothing else is really wrong in my life, so I'm wondering if this is the problem. DAE experience this?",7.0744834710743785,8.386481933884301,7.472386363636364,68.42857954545455,64.37190082644628,11.339256198347108,34.959710743801644,11.20814326018867,4.433982644628099,538,24,87,16,8,176,80,121,0.212,0.662,0.126,-0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,8,0,8,3,0,1,1,19,20,10,0,3,3,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,5,8,3,12,18,3,17,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,4,15,54,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593913668815079,0.15569958944938286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119798819003318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242849014183668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776938046203715,0.31716349601434685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311491721233102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379039469924608,0.0,0.0,0.2851317015476334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365540609786878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007415022013068,0.12628897388079033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957722770253756,0.13774987042781778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985481176476097,0.0,0.0,0.09410419047111372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22505526063318995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527259678225756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037395635329549,0.0,0.0,0.1472924438079232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342573641526096,0.0,0.13489730897012567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062877240031844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661880635761067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957050343636348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365979834292344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771543196815833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526781301830034,0.0,0.08315272509943575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288508341241264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413777177144686,0.0,0.0907854807123712
EDAnonymous,laurenwhats,2019/05/31,"Freed food backfire Been anxious all week because we get free breakfast on the last Friday of the month in work, eating slightly less everyday because I didn’t want to be the one who didn’t eat anything and then finally was so hungry and looking forward to it and mine was the only one not to turn up 😊😊😊 top it all off no one even noticed I wasn’t eating 😊😊 so now I’m devastated about not getting food I didn’t want in the first place Christ I’m an adult why am I like this 

Felt like the universe was like oh you aren’t skipping this?? Well do it for ya!",3.33762396694215,3.7214761818181854,4.546766528925623,89.4037861570248,72.30578512396694,7.041735537190082,28.348140495867767,6.6274283507984215,1.1462140495867772,442,16,100,3,8,146,78,121,0.068,0.764,0.168,0.8578,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,2,0,3,6,6,0,0,7,0,12,6,0,0,2,11,21,6,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,6,0,1,0,1,1,8,0,1,4,9,2,8,7,11,11,3,16,1,0,1,0,5,8,0,0,12,63,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17927505415055475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305887300402825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934724671034348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871398834000861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481355440288988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236773081200858,0.1738376458806765,0.0,0.134982027065686,0.3837782763945341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581843479496886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935390777118602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325844338961369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332600220066659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666521385742904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18067014432697048,0.0,0.0,0.32259829473959023,0.12069124825029423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657977586662334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17260965502037254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871994936339604,0.0,0.1272919176450041,0.0,0.14268178451779692,0.0,0.14319346045843429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552854731929048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Freaks-Cacao,2019/05/31,"A 25 days plateau During those 25 days, I fasted 5, ate <500 for 5 others, <1000 for 11, and ate between 1000 and 1300 for the rest (my binge days...).  I swear I write evry single kcal. I live with my parents for the month and I even got my parents mad at me when I simply refused to eat any single food they make. No processed food. No hormonal change, I had my periods 20 days ago and I still got a week before I get the next ones.

I should be losing. I started to walk 3 hours a day at a minimum last week ( 1 hour and a half to go to the city, 1 hour and a half to come back). It's not a lot but I try to walk fast.

I even changed scale. The new one is good. My sister is losing weight with it. So it's not that. 

I want to fast for days but I'm with my very over-bearing and slightly abusive family. They will not accept it. I'm even thinking of purging under the shower but that's the line I refuse to cross...But I'm going crazy. 

66,4 kg for 25 days. Sometimes it's 66,3. Sometimes it is 66,6. I want to die.",-0.7695927601809949,1.2046982171945722,1.393778280542989,100.20930995475115,89.45248868778282,4.123981900452488,17.0972850678733,5.369823440869387,-0.7998180995475113,770,19,190,4,26,256,120,221,0.16899999999999998,0.813,0.018000000000000002,-0.9786,3,0,0,0,0,1,43.0,0,0,2,2,7,5,1,0,14,0,7,6,0,1,0,27,23,12,1,3,6,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,10,11,6,2,2,0,0,5,5,3,0,4,5,1,25,2,23,15,4,33,0,2,0,0,8,3,0,1,25,109,35,0,0.0,0.12847628691176372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611999509672467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373868234444735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337887635611231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226915223601874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294171029300944,0.09340609196943654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895156806387053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253713437385007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095481782025343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21485844840758175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222170854107007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622370915937954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056652169687381675,0.0,0.12325082135168908,0.09094910215416298,0.17344878388695611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203562650943052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883879954824118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957490060178128,0.0,0.0,0.2426193059815326,0.0,0.09218651411580364,0.0,0.0,0.07238038386183683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865508011556419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472601131636956,0.1153205451624068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695505846134266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408057399072159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21448754348897184,0.0,0.07674998091959605,0.0,0.08659534925199898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947998182166068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361941244180098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946921682873438,0.12791409461627398,0.0,0.17395806026449814,0.13204312033429516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Depressed_Cow_Help,2019/05/31,"I did it! Oi boys and gals. Today is the day, I ate more than a 1000 calories and didn't barf out anything today. This is an achievement for me since I didn't reach these huge amounts for 3 weeks!",0.8657142857142865,2.6608205714285766,1.7097619047619048,101.50607142857143,81.38095238095238,4.2,20.02380952380953,3.1291,-0.7648761904761909,152,4,37,0,4,47,33,42,0.099,0.9009999999999999,0.0,-0.3859,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,4,0,4,2,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,22,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355416167262975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629635359276396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372931129807416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7729942903915027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270706119097733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elektorhyperion,2019/05/31,"i just purposefully put olive oil on my food for the first time in a long time im still terrified of it and im positive im going to like break out in horrific acne or something 🤷‍♀️ but i did it! 

i hate being 21 and my greatest fears are the individual components of a grilled cheese sandwich. i dont wanna be 30 and trying to get my phd while also suffering with an eating disorder, so.... we stan a recovery icon! (me)",-0.8031282051282034,1.3542680888888905,2.9744444444444484,86.06807692307693,95.88888888888887,6.76923076923077,21.367521367521373,7.882392219407189,1.5113162393162392,328,13,71,9,13,121,70,90,0.22399999999999998,0.6759999999999999,0.099,-0.9244,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,4,4,1,1,6,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,8,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,1,1,9,1,11,5,1,13,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,7,45,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000043256758587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22930403945869945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23448718277610864,0.0,0.0,0.2047273485486735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22514074121262675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701842537096499,0.24193228157107324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045312742382789,0.0,0.1137076080042538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753329190375848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6483481360471943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977468609897071,0.0,0.0,0.17706066258919967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011312990035878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540280174480458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597806800758137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23333145196878816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583823944749834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,betuwontrelapse,2019/05/31,"I relapsed after almost 8 years! TW numbers and weight I weighed 96lbs at 5' when I graduated HS 10 years ago. I ate maybe 800 kcal/day, wasn't actively binging/purging (though there was some lax abuse). I got pregnant and got distracted so my ED kind of ebbed away, especially with therapy and better relationships.



Last year things came to a head and I realized I weighed 145 (the same weight I was at 9 MONTHS PREGNANT), eating probably 2000kcal+ per day. I ended up having a really bad period of anxiety last year so lost about 20 pounds and have wavered between 125-135.



I am at 125ish. I recently caught myself at JUST the right angle in the mirror before getting into the shower and my ED popped right back up like it was nothing. Now I'm balls deep into a relapse. It's really scary how quick it was, like it's just been waiting all these years to take over again.",3.808021978021976,5.719878952662723,4.758093829247676,82.4499556213018,73.08284023668641,7.905494505494508,26.864327979712595,8.634040054169528,2.035058833474218,689,25,130,13,14,224,117,169,0.10300000000000001,0.848,0.049,-0.8286,1,0,0,0,1,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,13,7,0,1,7,0,9,7,1,1,1,19,19,11,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,10,6,1,1,1,0,2,1,3,0,0,12,2,14,4,19,7,3,35,0,1,0,0,1,14,0,2,21,76,20,1,0.0,0.16426581414895905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289605833177075,0.0,0.13882800510200866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10605927523179487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302569109372059,0.10660565725151028,0.11575866871251275,0.0,0.0,0.11797248953258835,0.0,0.0,0.12261587678608395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585673076727722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882275343603524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186340468814185,0.0,0.0,0.12279395280589304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243371520686935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217662603987421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14228471103247955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437229997030587,0.0,0.22602032465157534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546507192009652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134201539838496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928258632553514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066118237710676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302888775876606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947744589151382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776327597844806,0.0,0.13689034495483346,0.14884755220507806,0.0,0.2367957271088151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424007980692104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854700437553135,0.0,0.09210630310679163,0.0,0.13621316634603556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376525144967579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463983028008111
EDAnonymous,gh0stbabie,2019/05/31,Krave is the devil So a few days ago I bought a thick bag of krave as I had just got a new job and thought “hey some cereal won’t hurt I’ll treat myself” I was W R O N G I’ve been eating them shits everyday and purging then and I feel nasty af but I can’t stop eating them A N D they are high calorie wtf bro!,-2.2341591591591587,-0.5678422837837811,1.0112612612612608,102.45701201201204,93.45945945945944,4.3699699699699694,13.627627627627628,5.82211442006289,-1.192676876876877,237,4,66,2,9,84,58,74,0.264,0.708,0.027999999999999997,-0.9402,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,3,0,2,4,1,0,5,0,7,3,1,0,0,9,11,7,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,6,2,9,1,2,4,2,8,1,1,0,0,5,2,1,1,6,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24730475727542384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992325479811205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5709458112636059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14106399015128998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223131042379458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29476462393068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986608885604569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768511179767673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694469634851301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863757003941155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23324526099266055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214841699462497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GFDThisUsername,2019/05/31,"I'm so so so sick of this. [tw numbers and food] I just wanted to share this because I'm getting fed up with myself. 

I've been stuck in an awful B/P cycle since just before Christmas. I had finally hit my lowest weight as an adult and I was about 10 pounds away from my UGW, despite all the B/P'ing I'd been doing since Halloween(ish). Since Christmas, basically all I've done is sit around and fucking eat. It started with me just doing a lot of C/S binging where I'd sit with an entire feast of food and spit into a bowl. And that was ""fine"" but I stopped having the energy to work out because I'd get home from work at 9pm and be up until 3 c/s-ing all night just to wake up at 7am the next day and hate myself for skipping the gym. And then  I lost my job and it's slowly turned into exercise purging and I haven't ever actually thrown up during a binge (despite trying desperately at least twice), but I'm worried if I keep going down this path I'll get there. It's cycled into the point where I feel so....foreign in my own body and I've gained 26 pounds since this started.

There's literally been three days since December 1 and now when I haven't binged and I'm just fucking TIRED. I'm tired of not being in control of my life, I'm tired of not having direction, I'm tired of doing something so inane as watching TV and being so distracted by my binge monster that I cannot physically sit there without snacking on something. And then suddenly it's 9pm and I've wasted the entire day sitting on the computer eating 7k calories so I desperately run 3 miles on the treadmill with a full stomach as if working out for 40 minutes is going to change what I ate and then HATING my body the next day when I wake up bloated and using that as an excuse to just eat whatever the next day, too. It's fucking bullshit. 

I just want to get back to how things were before. When I was so in control and calorie counting at responsible levels and working out because it felt nice to have energy and to sweat and not out of anger and hatred and desperation. 

I keep telling myself it's not my fault, I've just sort of worked my way down a rabbit hole and that it only takes 28 days to break a habit and all I need to do it take it one day at a time and make good choices but GOD DAMN if I'm not driving myself crazy.

I used to be ambitious and funny and active and I just feel like I've successfully burnt out my own spark and alienated all of my friends and all that I've done by doing that is give myself one more reason to fuel my self hatred.


I'm not sure what I was hoping to achieve by writing this all out other than getting it off my chest and I'll probably end up deleting it later, but I'm just so tired and ashamed that I've let it get this bad. 

Happy Friday? :T",4.246913474366302,4.318258943396227,5.521373642081191,84.32113803125597,70.2006861063465,7.987211740041928,28.02977892128836,7.594959193182576,1.4841862397560508,2176,69,466,22,36,731,260,583,0.162,0.726,0.11199999999999999,-0.9903,3,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,12,33,22,7,2,21,1,30,28,8,7,9,101,76,61,0,7,24,0,4,1,1,0,8,0,1,2,30,48,9,5,4,3,0,4,10,12,0,4,16,5,39,10,75,54,13,77,0,1,1,3,8,38,4,6,30,293,69,10,0.0,0.0,0.06829745861877431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06230348919995987,0.0,0.0,0.06575532367486735,0.053815873934891234,0.0584364290124497,0.12799073100886255,0.0,0.11910798710227186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15548011086753816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07403722878839714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569933003476549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31595189704752896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324250825466714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21484328222825172,0.0,0.0,0.0619879287323216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330747298847032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077531130608898,0.04999890421349567,0.06719873389310924,0.0766676096302372,0.0,0.0,0.1692577170504129,0.0,0.0540719744731396,0.19410625005184906,0.2193926919100799,0.0671381459354231,0.07955073220110698,0.05870198340303221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745027272883026,0.0,0.13819583650419526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020291651791259,0.06951312929300417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945154478910537,0.12441576412685355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156670323067953,0.0494340632864848,0.03419223435691359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639934907503672,0.059500655789174274,0.0,0.0,0.046717031741122746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05189465785477215,0.0,0.0,0.22329669786110268,0.06567829152094495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948503415478138,0.053228456125038716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616057157936286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545809098319002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195854767527078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301196369264441,0.0,0.0,0.28947087536408345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775920611238728,0.0,0.0,0.09907466922517484,0.0,0.0,0.05851247345166127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596215331555443,0.0,0.1052434014944885,0.0,0.061171939880702665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04649641796128748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04081012734207312,0.40220023225640217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047516747553750016,0.07612602887291432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089302313973074,0.0,0.0,0.08256058478126176,0.055552620111013216,0.0,0.08522561382969725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746520991960504,0.0,0.2547577517560111,0.07107544797287944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zemindar,2019/05/31,"finished grad school, got a full time job...more time to dedicate to my eating disorder? i'm realizing now that i'm not in school that i have so much time to dedicate to my ED. i was focused on finishing my research, etc in school and felt like i needed to eat to keep my energy up. now that i'm just working, i don't have anything to do after work but run and think about food.......this is going to be an issue.",2.927586206896549,3.5153941149425307,4.9845402298850585,85.15198275862069,73.36781609195403,8.558620689655173,25.99425287356322,8.841846274778883,1.7060666666666668,316,10,71,6,6,110,57,87,0.023,0.912,0.065,0.3071,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,10,16,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,8,1,14,12,3,15,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,9,45,11,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508185635079726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100474329147964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37506931069870597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20439851917461013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597140487504562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161517434749106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415861500109892,0.0,0.14658064672639753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129003083391036,0.1818707764155398,0.1629020037552356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953822738942813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472718965396588,0.13589505812326766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564480275957958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174343277793747,0.0,0.0,0.32060494411713264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26685073888816474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CaptainArkham,2019/05/31,"I destroyed a 1500$ gamer computer because of a cappuccino Sorry for the negativity, I just need to vent.

I can’t stop thinking that it wouldn’t have happened if I wasn’t a pig that keep drinking huge mugs of sugary drinks. I probably would have the money to buy a new one if I didn’t eat all my bank account with my binges. I want to kill myself, I don’t deserve to eat. I needed it to work on my diploma. I don’t know why I’m alive. I’m ugly, poor and I can’t stop crying. I should kill myself.",1.3482161060142699,2.6323778073394517,3.856269113149846,88.98625891946995,78.26605504587157,6.312334352701327,23.120285423037714,6.937597516519254,0.6179594291539248,387,12,89,4,9,136,67,109,0.29,0.652,0.057999999999999996,-0.9774,0,0,2,0,0,2,12.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,6,0,11,4,0,0,1,17,20,3,2,8,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,3,2,2,5,0,8,3,0,1,2,0,17,0,10,15,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,55,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564664205507455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083896656044748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716909679558336,0.0,0.3882453668628171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776164820820968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862469524051535,0.4197763224078371,0.0,0.1042607246810314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813380097541205,0.0,0.1832249805928732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285537250782095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204541565689346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21236699273257947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172153648791693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155975541175873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189702161395287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118552437139029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811255688215224,0.0,0.0,0.13476592405470994,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rimeraison,2019/05/31,“Eating recommended serving sizes for a day” videos are hilarious to me Like how do people not just know how many calories are in a 30g serving of something???? It’s all I think about every single day 🙃🙃🙃,7.125,5.32970673809524,8.333333333333332,72.72000000000003,64.95238095238095,10.304761904761904,35.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.9190571428571435,161,6,32,2,2,56,35,42,0.0,0.8009999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.7882,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,7,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5069667741245879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021861382802383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311598177007693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160088532290432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19202335608385565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3984888912462259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724899326879741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30258748507976063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251849231296147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IneedClearSkin,2019/05/31,"Angry :( Sometimes I’ll get so angry that I smash up all the food in my pantry, and then cry about it",0.5549999999999997,2.088921772727275,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,81.27272727272728,4.4,15.545454545454547,3.1291,-1.270345454545454,77,1,19,0,2,25,20,22,0.44299999999999995,0.557,0.0,-0.9266,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5548090771460167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6107473981123094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26388460170677136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995392082684683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nihilistictablelamp,2019/05/31,Working at a distribution center as an order filler Mostly recovered because I've gained weight (all muscle; I still look waifish) and I realized if I work here I am going to gain more muscle and won't look waifish. I am terrified :),9.37340909090909,7.576420431818184,9.34909090909091,67.21863636363638,60.59090909090909,12.436363636363636,40.18181818181819,11.20814326018867,4.54249090909091,185,8,32,4,2,61,34,44,0.087,0.7170000000000001,0.196,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,6,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,3,5,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,21,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888762655036964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040695153226211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6030619316079685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286756238331654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43725429612217137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5228189809149878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LoneWolfGal,2019/05/31,"Is this the start of an eating disorder? Pls help, Trigger warning Hi so I'm female, 20 years old and 60 pounds over weight.. I'm 5'5 and weigh 80kg but would like to be 115 pounds... I've recently been going to the gym lately and burning around 700 cals most days, the thing that has been happening to me lately is that I keep throwing up after eating foods I consider bad, the other night I ate for the first time in 20 hours and I had a pasta ready meal, a cream cake and a few other bad things and made myself throw up after although I did feel sick, after I had threw up I ate another cream cake and some crisps and threw up again, most of the time I feel sick after I eat unless I ate healthy food/not much.. my mum knows I have been throwing up but I tell her I always feel sick when I throw up although sometimes I don't and I'm just throwing up to get the bad food that I just ate and regret out of my system, this morning I had some healthy cereal and a tiny bit of pizza and because I ate a lil bit of pizza although I chewed and spot most of it out I threw up, I like the idea of being able to throw up and eat whatever I want without gaining any more however I don't want to get an eating disorder or ruin my teeth/body but I'm finding it really hard to quit throwing up, maybe I just shouldn't eat bad foods anymore and stick to my diet although I have trouble sticking to it.. what should I do and does this sound like an eating disorder?",5.576942182410424,4.395399273615638,6.268369299674268,84.2964953175896,67.66449511400651,9.108224755700325,29.28521986970684,7.865858978985527,1.6626288273615633,1135,31,251,11,16,374,148,307,0.187,0.733,0.08,-0.9911,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,7,10,0,0,16,0,20,26,0,2,0,48,45,27,0,6,9,1,5,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,14,19,23,1,6,1,0,11,4,7,0,1,16,8,33,3,38,24,10,45,0,2,2,0,5,15,0,6,21,160,47,0,0.08299435220885644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905794957670416,0.0,0.0,0.05643900549962759,0.08702681470186198,0.0,0.0,0.0823080961434846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388256929035407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771872696719497,0.050592586780792176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812166745266125,0.09218801556663232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0535244912232618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28535615377446416,0.0,0.07262891690704021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944675931068233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589331453418498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585533434943079,0.07059495359116881,0.4014284005112293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672224712712782,0.0,0.04716760296589032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339163156523443,0.0,0.07434663782702428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05562936483973525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173271898657744,0.0,0.0,0.09369052153652777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376919360336984,0.0,0.0,0.04561152548416692,0.0,0.18724248854224146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164054484776687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785312627795047,0.0,0.0,0.08337898199292594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061010398326066674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788457735640614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708861149043902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827470955086232,0.0,0.0,0.05316830721683916,0.0,0.08194691029299155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208353649464999,0.0,0.058743829663015085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254072195469106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027551958615818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678934839176973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790443848460496,0.0,0.0,0.10106476218172414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000359386897245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05895680658487724,0.0,0.0,0.053445641745780564
EDAnonymous,aliensdid9ll,2019/05/31,been working on recovering and intuitively eating and i weighed myself for the first time in a month... basically now i am curled up in a ball in the corner of my room crying because i feel disgusting :’(,4.734912280701753,6.620625473684214,6.428947368421053,71.53096491228072,70.57894736842105,9.27719298245614,31.08771929824561,9.725611199111238,3.2594456140350867,160,7,28,4,3,55,31,38,0.16899999999999998,0.831,0.0,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,5,0,7,2,0,11,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,4,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696262903468856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858535577436338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452590564461589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22364374926046865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762261759112875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530452910399384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579128150240487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220048217632092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oleandergrows,2019/05/31,"Peach is down :( For me at least. Assuming it's not down forever, could we get a new username thread going? Mine is innogen.",0.213750000000001,2.5423928750000044,1.9916666666666671,91.47,99.41666666666666,5.7333333333333325,22.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.313616666666667,95,4,19,2,4,31,22,24,0.11599999999999999,0.884,0.0,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5424760449609732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549783700336915,0.0,0.3861403359321044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6562055610995425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chris12312,2019/05/31,"Some times I think I look great and others I think I look like a gelatinous blog. I don't even understand it. In the morning I could feel happy, healthy, and hot then later in the day I'll simply hate everything about me. I'll notice rolls, my stomach seems to stick out, and I'll legitimately see myself as an enormous fat ass in the mirrors. Even when I was under weight I'd still see myself in the same light. The only reason I ate enough to get back to a healthy weight is because my brother showed me a picture of me holding my toddler and my response was ""Who the fuck is that and why did you let a crack head hold my kid!?!"" And he was at a loss and awkwardly told me that it was me. I realized after that, that I really don't know how I actually look. Part of me says if I could see myself like other do then I could truelly kick my ED, and the other says if I could get liposuction I would kick my ED haha.

Sorry long winded and pointless, but I wanted to share for whatever reason.",2.3365824964132003,3.888275082926832,4.0787948350071765,87.2977331420373,76.21951219512195,6.7747489239598275,23.278335724533715,7.510576382923642,0.924308464849354,772,23,164,10,17,260,115,205,0.059000000000000004,0.851,0.091,0.7339,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,7,10,2,1,13,1,16,8,4,3,0,33,35,17,0,8,3,1,4,2,0,1,1,2,0,1,10,10,4,2,9,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,7,13,33,6,17,22,4,18,0,1,6,2,9,8,2,4,12,113,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.1235459464021963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734964098531994,0.0,0.07717581450803834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043277312340384,0.0,0.0,0.08164825064552471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081440445837178,0.0,0.16723974327987484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378231929770992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401411556196017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170421313385195,0.1322893428438901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395798941656993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477089980399135,0.0,0.12499392916693855,0.1299308675901967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695775182527564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945981095538014,0.0,0.12370334236915101,0.0,0.0,0.11203938184105426,0.3189430794064953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441379825715909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962870379145845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370983577508765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110491430794016,0.26033726741993485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20135905439880614,0.0,0.0,0.302657817745828,0.11525431883062184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172132755012673,0.0,0.0,0.10110505836844977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622437620079388,0.0,0.0,0.07382303686311094,0.0,0.0,0.12097427969483568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317978476993838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467353682407632,0.0,0.0,0.30833589803306843,0.0,0.0,0.11423922078996485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993490664344195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,another-lost-human,2019/05/31,just weighed in at 10 pounds more than I thought I weighed *fuck* here we go again,-1.5732352941176484,-0.6266072941176457,-2.1324999999999985,117.92125,121.94117647058823,1.7000000000000002,21.897058823529417,3.1291,-1.1455764705882352,64,3,17,0,4,17,15,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6875586033786426,0.0,0.0,0.4226741048935673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5904318487111209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grandeicedcovfefe,2019/05/31,"Made my first therapy appointment for non-ED issues and I’m concerned my weight will be addressed. I have my first visit with a psychiatrist a couple weeks from now. 

I’ve scheduled it as a consultation, as I feel like I’m dealing with a multiple issues – mainly being anxiety and depression. 

I’m medically underweight so am concerned the Dr. will take note and try to address any eating issues. I’m not sure I’m comfortable discussing them at this point. 

I honestly have no idea what to expect. I’m going to be nervous AF and feel like my problems aren’t even bad enough to warrant a therapy appointment. 

Does anyone go to therapy for something other than your ED? How do you skirt around that topic?",4.588687628161313,6.686232721804515,5.805153793574848,74.97776486671223,71.40601503759399,9.046889952153112,30.887901572112106,9.573946990214177,3.2856977443609026,564,25,95,14,11,188,89,133,0.156,0.784,0.06,-0.8984,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,2,5,9,0,1,6,0,10,4,0,2,1,16,22,8,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,5,7,2,0,3,0,0,3,3,4,0,2,1,3,10,5,15,16,2,11,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,7,60,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973677759894187,0.0,0.10953283247604743,0.0,0.0,0.10011526439214136,0.0,0.0,0.1274611661297499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954989169996573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584267051241013,0.0,0.0,0.1476129996690433,0.1233213145841432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252983827258519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650958632545613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794392269255946,0.0,0.0945694923787801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14479291333615998,0.20457662060653667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435788358210419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274576629706752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163356587423636,0.0,0.4483303083387672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990170116240333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548102654876587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442394772313853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535202784953831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700457901367105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022748684442699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13494610157460216,0.0,0.10765405641164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912187764405396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721028680200816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485090935221268,0.17435550179208814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unnecessaryletters,2019/05/31,"can we erase today from existence hi! i've commented around but this is my first actual post in the sub (or on reddit!!)

i was having an awful day with a bunch of problems at work and i decided i would have the cheat day that i had planned for tomorrow (a month ago) today instead. i have been craving an impossible burger for like two weeks and my sister said she would go out with me. 

we're out and as soon as our food gets there, she mentions how she still has my ex boyfriend on facebook and how he has a new girlfriend who ""looks just like"" me. she was like, ""do you want to see a picture of her? you don't care right?""

and i don't care about him, he was incredibly emotionally abusive and a huge jackass to me for nearly all of the three years we were together. i dumped him over two years ago now and i know he has dated a lot of girls since (can't seem to keep one, i wonder why). but this girl did NOT look anything like me, she looks way older, noticeably bigger, just not... anything like me. for some reason, i immediately got nauseous and couldn't eat any of my food. i physically could not take a bite if i tried. and it's been like three hours and i'm still nauseous and pissed off.

i feel like a terrible person because part of me wishes i could tell this girl what a cheating shitbag my ex is, part of me wants him to never find anyone who will love him so he's miserable forever, but most of me is pissed off that my sister thought this girl looked ""just like"" me when i see no resemblance. i honestly feel like just fasting until i clearly have no resemblance to literally anyone. i feel like such a superficial jerk.

went out to rage run my feelings away and missed beating my 5k personal record by 18 seconds because i couldn't even have one good thing happen today!!!

sorry for the rant... i don't really have anyone to talk to and i wish i could just pretend my ex doesn't exist anymore but now i'm just a mess of all the horrible memories 🙃🙃🙃

how was your day??",3.8198550212164086,4.663764457920792,4.903974540311175,85.60237623762377,71.5,8.147666195190949,26.557284299858562,8.418075326091056,1.5809224893917966,1547,49,331,24,28,509,211,404,0.195,0.6779999999999999,0.128,-0.9893,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,3,3,0,4,22,27,7,1,18,1,36,6,2,4,4,70,68,27,0,13,15,5,4,10,1,3,0,1,0,6,11,21,3,1,11,1,0,3,13,12,0,8,13,11,56,15,43,47,8,48,0,2,6,1,41,16,2,7,37,225,67,1,0.0,0.09758498400084004,0.08037300444944387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601711193781158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05600868697091097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168053903966277,0.17276735903751575,0.0,0.13555309697285006,0.07331925251619441,0.0,0.0,0.07738139938404606,0.0,0.0,0.10041368840465252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794620467581647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727701811264686,0.0,0.0,0.15934918312233848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842764402838151,0.0,0.09264567253474047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439903542848362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657792326554796,0.17651735066378915,0.0,0.0,0.07527697625145245,0.07005670320395442,0.19918385721391987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04303051719071605,0.0,0.04680797413594034,0.06908097122000582,0.06587206560615495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728320579399431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110954883907112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320674126079227,0.0,0.0,0.04526376094853921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023769931827606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766518776942175,0.0,0.0,0.0700208553759208,0.07433452599540102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06574021361493637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352231462501386,0.07954531053499778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937691850839583,0.0,0.0,0.11162065291193872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837909277332234,0.0,0.0,0.1438298795260884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887961027937164,0.0,0.0,0.07880889238336962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05276292608842692,0.08468140380980768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703363245758078,0.07834470678695267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126300425459614,0.0749788734470896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681303358108449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219702646241523,0.0,0.0,0.13154810081189738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619256451679002,0.06619910434095258,0.07198763607964337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054717362596834296,0.0,0.0,0.06538588095067893,0.0,0.0,0.2342073936175172,0.0,0.0,0.05591809475485851,0.0,0.16091055841464413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715796725339593,0.0653747748987744,0.06606547766821345,0.0,0.0,0.0763499938179561,0.0743184998637043,0.0,0.1894234649995973,0.0,0.08931760149744443,0.05996019860624108,0.0,0.0,0.1170145822232364,0.0,0.0,0.1060762921670768
EDAnonymous,caprisundad,2019/05/31,"""You're doing the right thing seeking help, you could have killed yourself. You look healthier."" Bitch, why do you think I developed an ED in the first place? Waving that promise of early demise in my face only reminds me of how much I miss anorexia. And thanks for reminding me of how much I hate my current body.
Also, really weird how I'm getting complementing for 'seeking help' when I got forced into it. Funny how my parents give god credit for all those times I talked myself off the ledge, but now I'm getting credit for a decision I never even made???",3.882668743509869,5.88937282242991,4.596199376947045,83.2855347871236,73.11214953271029,6.9985462097611615,25.907580477673932,7.793537801064563,1.5712334371754926,440,15,80,6,9,141,77,107,0.11,0.7390000000000001,0.151,0.5666,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,1,8,9,3,0,5,0,4,2,2,5,2,13,16,8,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,5,0,1,2,1,15,4,11,13,3,13,0,1,1,0,8,6,1,0,7,54,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965941334444373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23565517867780564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938764216768507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012566342875732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804580161534549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216833339612658,0.20351737194203395,0.0,0.0,0.1696788706229894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945807384759424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844046014108066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347168794962444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815586064792407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074516897179295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119150841975012,0.0,0.1636261821418189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135261634301593,0.0,0.0,0.23557182167169116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216556919614052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13591123379941522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117828867173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052128481874596,0.0,0.1953228259531081,0.0,0.0,0.14094563763052742,0.13593966567201518,0.0,0.0,0.12370865697225515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914359145599627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dbe002,2019/05/31,does anyone know where i can watch the movie “my skinny sister”? it’s unavailable every place i’ve checked since i’m in america.. wondering if anyone knows somewhere i could watch it?,2.333823529411763,5.269834147058823,3.0267058823529425,85.47417647058826,89.88235294117645,6.249411764705883,21.50588235294117,7.554174236665415,1.4722541176470587,147,5,25,3,5,46,28,34,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,2,0,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.487501980839059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783307496268862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050644182266081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937126618462889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831656612493613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642154416531201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28836761047963594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780445672409344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mr_White_Sky,2019/05/31,"This sub is pretty clearly not for me While I came to this sub to find people with similar problems as me, it has become clear that it’s not as welcoming as it claims to be. By the one thousandth ‘men are trash/pigs/scum’ I think the opinions of this sub have been made abundantly clear. Yes, some of your boyfriends are wack as shit but to be supposedly against generalizations and then turn around and say stuff like that is ridiculous and it’s in every other thread. The general hostility that I feel from comments in multiple threads to who I am is overwhelming. I’m sure some of you will think “oh but we’re jus talking about the **bad** ones.” Think for a minute if that were told to you if you’d actually believe it, for any group that you’re a part of. For a ‘supportive’ community, how my gender gets talked about has made it clear that I am not among the people supported.",4.700009633911368,5.768265855491331,5.038280346820809,84.61826830443161,69.63583815028902,8.772447013487477,28.289499036608863,9.075114841892004,2.0480678227360305,695,24,145,13,12,220,107,173,0.077,0.8,0.12300000000000001,0.7267,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,0,4,11,3,1,8,1,16,1,1,3,5,32,29,14,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,18,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,6,0,2,6,2,12,5,28,19,3,7,0,1,0,0,13,4,1,5,3,99,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.16067020196582807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196454716480836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465693511205057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374720676504224,0.0,0.18183795624500187,0.0,0.185499032893462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18831052473204887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872088681731035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324968301688578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15048295208754509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602044847129296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043744688148724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115829982314565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22313602645275865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829497017495907,0.0,0.22828883874685846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750360662424196,0.0,0.15754345308696274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093266464843406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690061812088246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18847964114440705,0.0,0.37367539513253695,0.15517638151762378,0.0,0.0,0.2646715408308063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164944553257459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732577650070348,0.0,0.0,0.17908696284206055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lw2295,2019/06/20,"In what way(s) do you differ from most others that have your same ED? For example, I don’t have a “safe food” or “fear food”.  I also am not SUPER obsessive/precise with calories.",2.705047619047616,4.510564457142864,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,75.85714285714286,6.9523809523809526,23.095238095238088,7.793537801064563,1.1410952380952386,136,4,27,2,3,45,31,35,0.187,0.7340000000000001,0.079,-0.6109,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25978392203772666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394010616010765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655486664887053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7856243382032168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578522927682547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatsveryclean,2019/06/20,"My truck for not binging ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’m not sure if this is common or not, but when I’m wanting food outside of what I have planned for the day I tell myself “if you are really so hungry that you are going to get up and go downstairs to get food, you can first do your exercise circuit” (it’s donkey kicks, push ups, mountain climbers and the like) and I always tell myself “nah I’d rather stay here watching tv”, telling myself I should exercise has stopped so many binges lol!!!",12.995438596491224,6.474799000000001,11.168421052631583,71.3922807017544,59.0,13.92982456140351,46.403508771929815,8.841846274778883,4.291666666666666,375,14,77,3,3,116,70,95,0.068,0.889,0.044000000000000004,0.3696,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,2,6,2,0,0,2,1,8,4,0,0,1,15,15,10,0,5,8,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,12,2,7,14,0,11,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,3,6,49,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867126464005567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384820805525596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264790241607612,0.5193009669517555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437349590608646,0.0,0.24407024313964204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490547003241026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770093644558475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375605378878529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22887194782285736,0.0,0.1795225917713186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20237901465245955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630463665222771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665239805946868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stayregional,2019/06/20,"yeehaw started working out n i can feel n see my spine again... boy does it feel good,, i suck",-2.4450000000000003,-1.1387814999999986,-0.06999999999999673,104.47000000000004,114.0,2.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.5215,70,2,17,0,4,23,17,20,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,6,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,7,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4291617870448906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4959328611187382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113333031698845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39079390583618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34711528120828194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570248957977137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hour_after_hour,2019/06/20,"Intermittent Fasting isn’t the tipping point for an eating disorder, is it? Aight so, context: Deep South, specifically Alabama. Very “large” family, to say the least (smallest of which is pushing 200+ 🤮). I’ve been miserable for the past 4 years knowing that I was overweight but couldn’t do anything about it. I was even pushing obese at age 12/13. Any attempts to remedy that were met with “sToP sTaRviNg yOuRseLf” and shit like that. So, now at 16 after seeing my fucking awful license photo and at a just barely “overweight”, I’ve started itermittent fasting full time. 

Progress so far? Well, including the multiple binges and failures since Memorial Day, I’ve lost 8 pounds. Hurray. I’m still fat. That’s not the important part, I just wanted to share my frustration. 

The *important* part comes from how much I am relating to posts in this sub and /r/edanonymemes. A scary amount of posts I’ll read and think “oh yeah that’s me” and its just got me concerned... am I really developing an eating disorder?

I’m following a fasting schedule on Zero perfectly and keeping under a 1,400 cal budget with Lose It. That’s normal, right? I’m planning on stopping once I hit my goal weight of 120lbs (a far cry from my current 157lbs). I won’t let this get out of hand. 

I’m going to let this get out of hand, aren’t I?

I need to stop overthinking it. 

I need to just keep going. Follow the apps. They’ve gotten me this far, why stop now, right?

Right?",2.0867094861660083,4.798800865942031,3.1913833992094887,87.07851778656126,83.81884057971016,6.388932806324111,24.66798418972332,7.686295010490155,1.586769565217391,1133,45,213,21,33,363,168,276,0.198,0.6890000000000001,0.11199999999999999,-0.9742,2,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,0,7,16,10,3,1,14,2,15,11,4,1,1,33,41,12,0,5,6,0,3,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,16,12,7,6,2,1,1,7,5,6,1,1,8,5,17,4,29,28,6,47,0,3,1,1,3,19,2,0,20,119,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010034832046888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693005559193688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146452667890687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938534499251356,0.07596396061031654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699920868600313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410544716196901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779831882833001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104069397125227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889374584823544,0.12307945791253455,0.0,0.1338840538936968,0.0,0.09420637556424348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20939199940328565,0.0,0.0,0.06473358356276884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408938318281669,0.0,0.05754560417890445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177541488747924,0.12858026929465816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865882400624642,0.17467764222355173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540790725591275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544111060258875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551073456096762,0.11244263263683968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134838468332718,0.0,0.2256180103647853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782056525436205,0.0,0.07545845094146135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017726929233237,0.0,0.09367029394964696,0.0,0.0,0.09386233574664113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209083975770689,0.09743602153132976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337144101018662,0.0,0.0940661999575327,0.3939064761466374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754742364288253,0.0,0.0,0.06868353234841394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718800504821916,0.06947482113933175,0.0,0.0,0.1434348919159263,0.10590617812885267,0.0,0.10628597183199792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585205448165212
EDAnonymous,whyisntthiseasy,2019/06/20,"Why can't I have one good thing that my ED doesn't ruin? CW: exercise purging

Two weeks ago I started running every day. And I loved it immediately. But of course, as everything does, it pretty quickly got entangled with my ED.

At first, it really helped. I could actually eat food and not feel terrible about it. It got me think of eating as something good that I'm doing to take care of my body and help myself be happy and healthy, rather than some guilty, shameful habit that I'm disgusting for ever indulging in. I started making goals around being healthy and getting nutrition, rather than just exposing every bone in my body. It's helped me think about things other than food (mostly running, but even when I'm not thinking about running I don't snap immediately back into every though being about food.) Most people have told me running makes them ravenous, but I haven't had a single binge urge since I started. I still weigh myself every day, but I was so dispassionate about whatever number appeared and instead really cared about running progress. I used to purge with laxatives nearly every time I ate anything, but I haven't taken any since I started running.

But as soon as I realized how many calories I was burning running, the thought appeared. The ""think of how fast you would lose weight if you heavily restricted *and* kept running"" thought. I'm really starting to feel like I have to run off every single calorie I eat. If I *can* have a net calorie intake of zero for the day, I feel like I *must.* Its starting to get in the way of my running, because even though I know I need to take rest days (especially because I'm just starting out and I jumped in hard at 25mpw), I don't feel like I can ever take off a day and miss out on the calorie burn. And goals are getting tied up. Getting better at running being more important than losing weight has turned into ""if you lose the weight and get really skinny you'll be so much faster, better do it quick so you don't waste time for progress!""

It's just so frustrating because I was so excited. I was so excited that I found something else I could really care about besides fucking weight and food and now my ED is gonna a ruin it too. I'm gonna get too skinny and weak and not be able to run. I'm gonna be too scared of the calories in the food and stuff I need to do really long runs. I'm gonna overtrain because I'm trying to burn more calories and then get hurt and not be able to run at all. 

This sucks. Why does this always happen? Why does my ED have to come in and ruin it every time something makes me happy?",4.142901431661347,5.529878299412919,4.987546091255538,83.255588371614,71.28962818003913,7.570728190338861,27.92877742300957,8.032893268588372,1.7970203522504895,2045,74,393,28,38,664,213,511,0.092,0.763,0.145,0.9822,0,0,3,0,0,0,57.0,0,5,1,10,38,31,4,2,12,0,38,23,5,6,4,80,104,44,0,11,18,0,9,3,0,7,2,0,0,0,21,27,16,2,13,1,0,18,11,16,0,4,14,9,50,15,58,73,10,70,0,8,0,2,11,20,2,8,34,255,71,2,0.1123190033879592,0.0,0.05480357254781179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04978200978127791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046729204253272316,0.0,0.0,0.038190386943277185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04621448479448722,0.04999386301342125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04318319028351035,0.0,0.13693724391600295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993370309896553,0.0,0.12476109225722558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17177506443479315,0.0,0.0,0.0483764380072454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967758472479861,0.0,0.0,0.18109116316479928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743667515381514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17239557140372702,0.0469140574354586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418564243199732,0.10159896894870823,0.33121761621637313,0.0,0.05047253893697543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358372584279387,0.12036107769413415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04776924345180431,0.3395414618363062,0.06157599491830034,0.0,0.05191855437393,0.2053871521600573,0.0,0.0,0.09420785110279857,0.08983176754557944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04966166187838363,0.11956566766986396,0.05030788266750167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292759058195563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011990808184639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030863793433159925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231008740502936,0.0,0.0,0.0496993917627155,0.0,0.18848435205409844,0.0,0.0,0.05068614289215302,0.0,0.11246071039922656,0.056936920135358685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04128369554015851,0.08328311782324753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805513176716814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03893392733389374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713440292808099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21586328898834226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05622545829995603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291144027507496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970298432710856,0.0,0.0,0.27824989045257364,0.0,0.044849050596997835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428919339654486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12667486841295578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461975500957603,0.1439389642568462,0.1103528505539413,0.08916874253561423,0.09824117118152642,0.0,0.0,0.05366281053117048,0.0,0.03812861524370336,0.06108541123617649,0.0548596728602627,0.0,0.0,0.048503778165043435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04457679843504517,0.045047764769988376,0.273548574421695,0.0,0.0,0.15202564568133084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039894098708583216,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lilith-Rising,2019/06/20,"OCD, Uncertainty, grief, guilt, fear The first part is rant, skip to end for question if you want. My Grandma passed this week, my ED used it as a selfish excuse to emerge, everything has a background flavor of guilt to it. I feel guilty and selfish for the thoughts; it kills me. I had to be at my parents, last night I binged, this morning I weighed myself for the first time in a month in the hopes of triggering restriction episode and you know I just feel numb.
I have decided I will not deal with dieticians or therapy at this time due to current climate and wish for self help methods with a support system as I’m dealing with medication shift and starting topiramate already and seeing a psychiatrist.

How do you deal with managing your obsessive thoughts during a traumatic shift in life? I can’t sleep without busy food or weight thoughts. Every second consumes my energy. Im talking concrete activities to ease GUILT. Usually I could give advice on this but I feel almost delirious, my mind is racing and loud. Marijuana truly helped me with feelings of excess guilt but I went too deep and so thus quit all drugs and alcohol. 

I am so surprised by these guilty feelings that have no reasonable basis but haunt be regardless and leave me drained.",5.7967621703853975,7.502068823275862,5.703042596348883,78.48151115618664,67.66379310344827,8.907099391480731,33.90567951318457,9.325443323948027,3.221745131845841,1005,47,176,20,17,314,151,232,0.184,0.7340000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9639,2,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,4,0,3,5,14,1,6,10,0,13,9,1,5,1,48,32,20,2,6,9,1,6,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,9,14,4,1,12,0,0,2,4,11,0,3,5,9,25,3,28,23,2,23,0,1,1,0,15,7,0,6,13,112,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737813435993324,0.0,0.1283698468659844,0.12028104626034528,0.0,0.132553442667102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590462453857836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715098312512569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392990001558107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638908991801528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120478098217917,0.0,0.10795451084268208,0.0,0.0,0.13516639232071193,0.30367690583089657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20434499309035767,0.14524742838523902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522834188728415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102542172672715,0.0,0.0,0.11930449547316348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129748289959055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132893013403362,0.0,0.0660138323333973,0.09791238124187762,0.0,0.12718785124783524,0.0,0.0,0.08484305108353178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100646954343493,0.0,0.0,0.12128516031561434,0.0,0.0958772171864386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272281241170187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333770682451978,0.13007632679384826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345598967139343,0.12776051258344373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350153579179693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957186695587718,0.0,0.12530950024044615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202049679132332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502029434078154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13630873255814044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09654647521563828,0.0,0.0,0.1373656529438709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860813479655559,0.14008380006082066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374357534039688,0.13229324912410886,0.0,0.07084883829484759,0.0,0.09635159064165204,0.14627163188819328,0.0,0.11135079332635822,0.0,0.0,0.13813002495209278,0.1157896776236714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,s4rc94,2019/06/20,Just found out I hate creatine I fucking love Bang energy drinks. So of course someone at work just told me creatine makes you hold high amounts of water weight if you aren't exercising rigorously. Bang has SUPER creatine. Can I not have just ONE zero calorie drink I enjoy.,5.355,7.35797935294118,6.041323529411766,74.45845588235295,69.19607843137254,9.805882352941175,30.39705882352941,10.125756701596842,3.3856235294117654,221,9,38,6,4,72,41,51,0.061,0.614,0.325,0.9167,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,2,4,5,2,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,0,9,10,2,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,1,7,3,4,8,1,3,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,1,0,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5362304890464029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000905841339708,0.0,0.2530250518913424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702154775539263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891720054279627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247018895077302,0.0,0.18269240754508828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854616679187542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23189945067406234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615256835059849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332847142629949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992519870140237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovelylayout,2019/06/20,"Overshadowed (v mild spoilers) Has anyone else seen [this webseries](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tk2fzDG5IFI&list=PL64ScZt2I7wEZdJoj9yDwcqIzePh23DpY) from BBC Three? It's eight 10-minute-ish episodes about a vlogger who develops an eating disorder. I don't want to spoil it too badly for anyone who hasn't seen it yet, but wow. 

I really thought there was no way to do the whole ""invisible friend only you can see who embodies your mental illness"" trope *yet again* in a worthwhile way, but this series had more than a few scenes that hit me *really* hard, like, harder than any other movie or series about ED's I've ever seen. I guess probably because of the up-close-and-personal nature of the vlogging format they used. 

*Trigger/content warning for anyone who plans on watching it:* No overt mention of numbers that I recall, but there's obviously a heavy focus on the main character's relationship to food and her body, and also how that relationship affects her relationships with those around her. There's also at least one jump-scare.",6.332390109890111,9.15587964285715,5.573722527472532,75.36190247252749,68.50549450549451,8.286263736263738,28.957417582417587,9.017664075816787,2.7071747252747267,853,32,134,17,16,258,128,182,0.10800000000000001,0.8029999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.3289,1,0,0,0,1,0,46.0,0,2,1,1,14,4,0,0,9,0,7,4,1,3,2,16,16,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,15,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,6,6,11,3,19,9,5,11,0,0,5,0,15,5,0,2,5,88,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437658673708448,0.0,0.165137135661382,0.0,0.1036446316065371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197077140975941,0.1561629679124289,0.0,0.13567800510400074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272567269605798,0.09290826393019212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692941402378956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467608422457553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559543899121024,0.12731974167446805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786437571230914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429585319173605,0.0,0.11775227555882628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789777831403618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13653022090932151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446026229294231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535943297174726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327756350320727,0.115915349758866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307931040444082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643247173636946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19527663770293915,0.0,0.0,0.490896773098379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214517466424517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099722221521995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163407395970556,0.0,0.0,0.08989589176450595,0.2419533407116955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016131580201074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hypotheticalfox,2019/06/20,"DAE adamantly refuse to count vegetable calories? Cause I'm not eating 70 ""real"" calories of carrots even tho they keep me from bingeing high-cal snax.",4.352222222222224,7.479936074074079,3.216296296296296,88.03333333333335,77.14814814814815,3.6,31.222222222222207,3.1291,1.2109111111111115,122,6,19,0,3,35,26,27,0.084,0.9159999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42875855851552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270782871706968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275671905413838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44097904993196296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37098161196316976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750635292240948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sesva,2019/06/20,"My friend could tell that I wear mediums, rip Basically my closest friend from high school (we are now in university) is one of the tiniest people I know, and we went shopping a few days ago. She was talking about how it’s hard for her to find clothes that fit properly since she’s so petite but has curves as well, so she can’t even shop in the kids section, and then said, “What about you? You wear medium, right?” And I mean it was kind of a fair question because I have pretty big boobs so it would make sense for me to maybe have a similar problem, but it’s kind of shaking my worldview that she could tell what size I wear just from looking at me. 

I try super hard to pretend I’m not aware of how my body looks because I’m convinced that if I draw attention to my insecurities, other people will suddenly be able to see what I see, which is uhhhh bad. 

I know that’s not logical, but another friend at one point estimated my weight to be about 120lbs, which was probably about 25-30 pounds lower than my actual weight at the time, and I have no idea if she actually believed that, or was just guessing what would be the most acceptable estimate socially since I was being grouped together in this estimate with two very skinny people. It drives me up the wall that I have no idea how heavy I look to people.

This post was brought to you by that fact that I’m going to have to eat around other people all weekend and that 3-ish weeks of restriction has kind of warped what a normal meal should look like to me.",10.9184698469847,6.314581693069308,10.068238823882387,71.9397299729973,60.452145214521465,13.658445844584458,40.416741674167426,10.832165505486646,3.99000594059406,1195,39,249,20,11,383,166,303,0.09300000000000001,0.7959999999999999,0.111,0.8258,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,2,3,0,1,16,15,0,2,9,0,27,10,6,4,2,45,45,19,0,9,10,0,4,1,3,4,0,1,0,1,26,9,5,1,10,4,2,5,5,4,1,3,9,11,35,11,37,26,4,31,0,0,6,1,22,17,1,6,9,168,61,1,0.09745732993474944,0.0,0.1902085912549198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639004274834987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021925078977194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675768579574092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137279970012487,0.11881816752398132,0.0,0.0,0.1098010374484986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825312337516343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556234955555715,0.0,0.0,0.06285191536416837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972317877233942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643696472799328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907423397196333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258858740626836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553872465069678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736023635965587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746052501021735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029690198547721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200349258987233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304460435967164,0.10711999960554754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04761272864623699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273584475577583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505352450001456,0.0,0.097908987074918,0.1061596028942215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954874911856468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207921795861854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.337823207772658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212867778122263,0.0,0.09333718238325846,0.09914914108619699,0.10507548505437872,0.09325350284765324,0.0,0.0,0.10917451368466373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832280272664721,0.09270423827194094,0.0,0.0,0.09863202089249233,0.15532174822990608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612354208365679,0.0,0.0,0.09934547477751894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783325101835058,0.17036400393733878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056828152816038986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616712975854391,0.0,0.09520165024235236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041250375343728,0.0,0.0,0.0781743915381354,0.2373535454059541,0.08762584376614498,0.09034392123272028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384617819964971,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daniel_silva2,2019/06/20,"Not ready i guess... Right now i'm at my lowest weight since i can remember.
23yo 1.75m 60.8 kg

My first goal weight was 61.5 kg before recovering to 68kg. Got through that, but i'm still unhappy, 2 years ago got my heart broken and that kickstarted my Ed journey. 

Only sports give me happiness, i'm  basically going in a day to day basis. But i guess i must have the shittiest poker face because my father just asked me twice in the same day if everything is ok because i look sad, absent of joy and distant.
On the internship my colleges praised my healthy eating ( i mostly eat veggies ) and i stayed there smilling without talking because if i told them that's because i hate myself and eat them because they are low calorie and keep me full for a long time and easy on the digestive system because induced vomiting fucks you up bad everyone would look at me like that weird fucked up guy....

I made this post to rant i guess. 
I just want to be normal....
It's just so fucking unfair, i just want to be happy, normal, and not be obsessed with the kcal of foods.
I have friends that are pushing to almost 100kg and they have girlfriends and seem happy about life in general and here i am hating myself restricting for days, having the inevitable binge and purging via exercice like a crazy motherfucker.
My weight chart is literally a roller coaster with a downward trend.

Still i guess i'm not ready and sick enough to tell people because i'm still at a healthy BMI.

Sorry for the long post. I just wanted to get this off my chest.",5.121287625418064,6.034493528428098,5.473944816053513,82.44469648829433,68.56521739130434,8.254247491638797,30.334615384615393,8.395991825355821,2.1610614046822745,1211,46,234,17,20,386,172,299,0.209,0.633,0.158,-0.9668,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,4,3,14,19,5,1,13,1,16,17,3,2,1,48,45,17,0,9,13,1,3,2,2,2,4,0,0,1,8,14,8,2,3,3,0,3,4,10,0,2,5,5,37,9,29,35,4,36,1,2,2,3,15,15,3,9,16,140,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441174198591985,0.0,0.08405829964198316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847678390098962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009015834840858,0.3582025532475052,0.0,0.07143059404588073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21654905406277056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576885673192292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673711720484298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021257536666404,0.07544391159082889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140315616456029,0.10150603305368076,0.0,0.06485531914049765,0.2328160367166071,0.04385754108162291,0.08052722179224589,0.047707598761036064,0.0,0.1342761840695053,0.0,0.3698973610101462,0.08311826128864168,0.0,0.26808147116140096,0.0,0.1657556463897926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947464691328914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461373629479978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059292488985197865,0.08202209343939873,0.0,0.0,0.14857649713030138,0.14098449058265147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943032376674809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16449559071725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384358150376451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05819655269036195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607912697399015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509276428307656,0.07168815171199946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07641992792894008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943976500411596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396900478229098,0.0,0.08947367703602045,0.20111457910196884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674714162818933,0.07337120055375612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04894871805077662,0.0,0.0,0.08021257536666404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14853793836605791,0.0,0.0,0.30666539021700845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091951076042514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059631770450946024,0.0,0.0,0.05405751133416007
EDAnonymous,BrokenTableLegs,2019/06/20,"Missing the ProEd community Hi all. 

I’m 21 F and I’m about 147 pounds right now at 5’ 5”
And I fucking hate myself. But that’s about to change because I finally want to take the reigns back and get control of myself. 
My GW is 120 but my UGW is 115 (or maybe even 110). 

I used to be more in control of my diet. I used to be thin and beautiful. I’m not anymore - I’m only 21 but I look like I’m 35. I’m washed up, my skin isn’t fresh, I’m tired all of the time, I can barely exercise because I let myself atrophy. I am fat AND I haven’t worked out. It’s embarrassing. 

My gut is huge. When I lay on my side I feel pregnant and absolutely disgusting. I hate letting my boyfriend touch me because I just feel so nasty. My thighs are G R O S S. They are huge and flabby. All I want is tight and toned legs, and a gap. 

I want to be the beautiful person everyone is stunned by and everyone notices... right now I’m just an ignorable blob. 
I’m looking for accountability partners to message with over Discord... anyone interested? 

Thanks for listening to me rant. Time for a breakfast of Bronkaid and tea!",-0.4161921458625528,1.8134065000000028,2.2331136044880786,92.26696353436186,92.69565217391305,5.576437587657784,22.201963534361855,7.1029339738359605,0.843472650771389,845,34,190,15,31,291,132,230,0.147,0.7120000000000001,0.141,-0.5487,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,1,3,10,10,4,1,7,0,16,12,5,4,3,34,42,17,0,3,7,0,6,1,1,0,4,1,0,2,2,13,4,4,2,1,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,9,29,3,24,37,4,19,0,1,2,1,6,12,1,1,8,106,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398472749168534,0.10151688273586418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163847373694236,0.0,0.26551069075997963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358671368320262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256751429688177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958934696571646,0.0,0.0,0.2774614022170664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468200208367517,0.0,0.0,0.1590433137727076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134221397976408,0.07585328603821996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28668069727519074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969234515720742,0.0,0.07093016573288119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438380407879188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458580694158834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652943371844683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041990339806478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677013553173086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24797477210322355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916121819320114,0.0,0.0,0.13366704588991166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931734064158555,0.1668690547330762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25078683299081644,0.0,0.0,0.25690201613079466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569657054386887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ffsalwayscryn,2019/06/20,"Cereal hacks? Does anyone have any hacks for cereal? Most low cal ones I pick up taste like cardboard, but I don’t wanna go too crazy. Like when I was a kid I used to straight up put sugar in my cereal, which now obviously makes me hella uncomfortable. Or if anyone has a reliable cereal they like, gimme those recs!",3.61,5.3325290322580665,5.233096774193552,79.62964516129036,73.19354838709677,9.476129032258065,20.464516129032265,9.888512548439397,1.8445703225806451,248,5,49,7,5,84,50,62,0.127,0.7070000000000001,0.166,0.3851,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,3,1,9,7,4,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,7,3,6,6,1,9,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,3,5,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358120174599696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849321499838862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303456293571556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19707447917754034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5082354310029629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314682579118805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349768649909058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34859449330735504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994935296287473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lurking_60,2019/06/20,"calorie counting app with password protection? Finally updated Lose It and as it turns out they took away macro tracking for non-paying members. which sucks, bc I really enjoyed tracking my sodium intake. 

i downloaded MyPlate and Cronometer, but it seems that neither of them have passcode lock for the app. Any suggestions on an app I can use that tracks calories and nutrients and lets me put a passcode lock on?",4.239939117199391,7.534327027397263,4.222648401826486,79.235098934551,80.09589041095892,7.080060882800609,34.138508371385086,8.167268648758528,3.472684627092846,335,19,50,7,9,103,58,73,0.055999999999999994,0.912,0.032,-0.1689,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,9,8,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,7,1,9,6,1,8,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,1,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123488226581456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933803655025172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420676848423813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193089833371472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493412300117834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139094904333939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20004299048637345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842715364670619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469344976600274,0.0,0.3396513153128485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696940516239504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hkcute_,2019/06/20,"ed is for life ive been in recovery before and the only way i could feel good and In Control was to count my calories (and make sure i was at my maintenance). if i didnt, my anxiety and self hatred would spiral and i would feel like absolute shit until i could count again. maybe maybe one day ill be able to eat without obsession, but so far it doesnt look like it :/ anyone else felt this way?",4.403780487804877,4.408682060975611,5.3401463414634165,85.9865609756098,69.85365853658537,8.999024390243902,26.15609756097561,8.841846274778883,1.6006165853658536,307,8,68,5,5,101,59,82,0.115,0.753,0.132,-0.1338,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,1,1,0,12,4,1,2,1,18,17,9,0,5,3,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,4,9,4,8,7,0,9,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,1,5,42,12,0,0.18520922807512885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14168455253752368,0.0,0.0,0.1295025985991766,0.18976874117694206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759941178771722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077278979465761,0.2957489960118796,0.0,0.0,0.1194446301313076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951527785533465,0.15471854452770215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872947012588619,0.13231350954342566,0.17782990363761006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534471331710975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081875507705878,0.18096774711608146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552910544706694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362859791337412,0.0,0.3721351268273888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550256619620434,0.14085996379858906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932136175141096,0.0,0.1901146110909961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17455750559962765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940209289321522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785350866577077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263134643424437,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConsciousAppearance,2019/06/20,"Accuracy of fitbit & maintenance worries! I've heard so many conflicting views on this! I'm in recovery...sort of. Going it alone, no support. I've absolutely shot up 10lbs since Christmas & it's really messing with me. I think I may have to just maintain for a bit to come to terms with this & hope it evens out the bloating/discomfort.

Here is my issue...wtf is my maintenance?! I walk a lot (I have a little girl I walk to & from nursery every day & then walk around the local park - that gets me 12-15k steps 5 days a week) & my fitbit Alta HR tells me I burn on average 1600 daily. This cannot be true since I've definitely had less than that (unless it's been a heavy binge day) most days & have still gained 10lbs! Sooooo...I have no idea how much I should be eating.

Recovery eating is so difficult. Like, eat to mental hunger? Sure, then I become a gluttonous pig or I'm terrified of eating anything because it will open the floodgates to behaving like said gluttonous pig! I'm so much more comfortable with a calorie goal. But all the TDEE calculators give me different values & I just don't know what to believe anymore.

If it helps my stats are 5""3 & 92lbs. Anyone got any good ideas? Do I take into account any exercise or no because it's just walking (& half the time at snails pace with a 3 year old!).

Thanks for your time :)",2.003459904407862,4.376584936802978,3.2906147105682457,88.58189126394055,80.6728624535316,6.519437068507701,22.618295273499733,7.7094869923839395,1.100087519915029,1064,35,215,18,28,345,166,269,0.094,0.768,0.138,0.9215,1,1,0,0,0,0,64.0,0,1,0,2,11,11,0,0,13,0,18,8,0,1,3,31,34,11,0,3,8,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,0,1,13,9,7,1,4,1,1,7,5,2,0,1,5,3,19,9,27,24,9,31,0,0,1,0,7,11,0,7,15,117,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606344276000399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7957404124198328,0.0,0.09988573626322672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728344228511491,0.05135213777545556,0.0,0.06043625384811209,0.06537867530846707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953874603786141,0.08111057741070939,0.0,0.08274363602527808,0.0,0.0,0.08017930506581858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326351360779638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18945525941223046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07673093556472747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005967374941236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04850754409405738,0.0,0.06187779196944741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038370252221895634,0.07045196184497693,0.041738605316589066,0.06159940578211369,0.0587380291174084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04922641722407102,0.0,0.0,0.07294417003094167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658134590026312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040361632569030685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175980083289157,0.0736078679540601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06243749917434468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445834728943458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740119506041011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797618601823372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706470021802572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04704862767522058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985986587942775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150345102468735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05865062909995509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334076033756606,0.0692179243834025,0.0,0.05521901151140693,0.0,0.06419127478741757,0.06761524163854096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04705846998590139,0.0,0.0,0.08564888095533214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05891049438365304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458360189922915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04729404096138055
EDAnonymous,That_Occult_Guy,2019/06/20,"Prediction: Onion boi will try to take credit for Eugenia Cooney’s recovery And we will all collectively be unsurprised and very exasperated 😬

On a serious note, recovery is only chosen by one person: the individual with the eating disorder.  The amount of strength and courage it takes to get help and recover is something only the person with the illness can do. I’m proud of Eugenia for having that strength (and I’m a bit envious of her courage!) 
But will Onion see it that way? Nope! His narcissistic harassing ass will think that his videos encouraged her to recover. We all know it’s going to go down like this /:",3.8126315789473684,6.667255087719301,5.193947368421052,74.74513157894737,77.0701754385965,9.764912280701754,29.675438596491237,9.928628108626363,3.7488385964912276,496,23,86,17,12,165,75,114,0.134,0.6729999999999999,0.193,0.8463,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,0,3,0,11,2,0,7,0,10,3,1,0,2,14,20,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,7,9,1,0,2,1,1,2,1,3,0,1,0,1,6,8,14,15,4,5,0,0,1,1,10,2,1,0,1,54,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260224634938788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27317832326955344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438992088232325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453194585255503,0.0,0.2709280985273567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597659949903878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099503783660382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644942519575514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151719770004794,0.36256320982807744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162491166382445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994005191510752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834992337785192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35843032314737355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272984921491448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182908323705888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19666988443812589,0.0,0.18919707359626256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,666hell666,2019/06/20,"family vacations are my personal hell so i‘ve been on family vacation for almost 2 weeks now and i can‘t fucking wait to go home on saturday. it‘s been nothing but a struggle. when i‘m at home i try go only eat a little bit of dinner and that‘s it (note: on a good, not binge kinda day) so i‘m used to that and changes in that pattern freak me out. so here on vacation i feel like i‘ve completely lost control like i eat breakfast, lunch and dinner and in between snacks, and i eat so much of it too... if i try to talk myself out of eating i‘ll get yelled at and even if not everyone else eating ‚triggers‘ something in me & i just end up stuffing my face for ever meal 🥶 in conclusion i feel like i gained 10kgs while being here and i‘m too scared to step on the scale once i get back home, thinking about it makes me panic.",2.253035714285716,4.131902517857147,3.598238095238095,89.21342857142858,77.39285714285714,6.860952380952381,23.104761904761904,7.793537801064563,1.065794761904762,645,20,135,10,15,211,104,168,0.102,0.79,0.10800000000000001,0.0267,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,15,11,2,3,4,0,5,13,1,3,1,27,20,17,0,2,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,7,10,11,2,4,0,0,3,3,7,0,0,3,3,16,4,25,16,2,27,1,1,0,1,2,15,2,4,12,86,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161116464498832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256366136682566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916182563632975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659224311745498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226644482595349,0.0,0.1215760497355792,0.0,0.13005279156671049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478103682647799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5932518254232231,0.09686507600505816,0.0,0.10270123829774176,0.0,0.0,0.07658683010466033,0.10488745151484,0.0,0.11079945979726899,0.0,0.0,0.2186230985953666,0.0,0.11726012242531125,0.1656757849880772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071980338179486,0.12116284354834195,0.0,0.13179918851338818,0.0972571032669686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34893534624959466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994848257241155,0.11621683560051653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657799535502948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774005053488181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523987318233209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126143584442788,0.0,0.0,0.12348772017888338,0.0,0.08818859523964212,0.0,0.13604758011918694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124696569041124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609064722523996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08926741167230859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212207825426404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319980616028624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429893871367974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745093967325238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014742734526996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301167702891633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orryvsworld,2019/06/20,"feeling guilty about your body? am i the only one who feels like ashamed and guilty and like a fraud for having their body? like i feel like even though sometimes i really do like the way i look and my body it isn’t MY body because i didn’t get it in a healthy way and i feel like i’m going to lose it at any moment. like i’m legit terrified that one day i’m gonna wake up and be the old me again and i’m not gonna be pretty anymore and everything i like about myself with disappear. and when people compliment me on my body i feel guilty and scared for it to change, but i deliberately show off my body so that people will see it/comment on it? even though i don’t like it? like it doesn’t make sense and i cant even appreciate my body and feel good about myself because i feel like an imposter even though this still is my body",2.197773343974461,3.4007629553072647,3.4377693535514773,93.18822625698326,75.87150837988827,6.678531524341581,21.165602553870713,7.1686216300943375,0.27478260175578617,655,15,155,7,14,213,88,179,0.12300000000000001,0.693,0.184,0.8781,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,1,14,16,0,2,6,0,12,9,9,1,0,22,30,17,0,0,2,0,7,11,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,12,0,0,7,1,0,2,6,3,0,2,1,9,24,13,14,24,0,16,0,1,2,0,3,6,0,0,17,93,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052806301570197056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07701032483023289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467237670516733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6900345756378331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214595336880033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050079380384290766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205154737618204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978897899301373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27484374159790353,0.22189958869214715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040570179205855116,0.0,0.04413165406638075,0.06513115725959319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173074963130068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06520846708596081,0.08687318399972385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183358661225921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148314168512763,0.0,0.10523856526383878,0.05905815690694662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076688073969698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900041744888628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04974612220776674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774360891707782,0.0,0.061878917026552134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768002189924017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06201331488156071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22887929549407665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327373716799987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neuromantiska,2019/06/20,"i am my own trigger [TW weight] hello, i don't know how to tag/flair this but its just a thing i need to share.

apologies for my bad english.

i have always been a very thin person, but in a normal way i guess, never had any problems with food, never cared about being thin or not or anything until in my mid 20s it all spiraled down when i started to treat my psos with birth control pills and noticed a slight weight gain (3/4kg) specially in my breast that used to be nearly flat and 3 months after starting the pills they got a little bigger and this triggered a mindset that made me feel that need to lose the weight i gained  no matter what and go back to my normal thin self, but i never had the ""discipline"" to be anorexic and i have emetophobia (i cant vomit i think im gonna die if i do) so im constsntly trying to lose this weight but always failing. also now i notice every aspect of my body, i make comparisons of pictures of my body now with my body before and it triggers me a lot to see how 3/4kg made me got so much bigger (in my mind) and i need to go back to that.

has anyone feel like this too?",4.980897435897437,4.2908048675213735,5.902649572649577,84.80346153846155,68.7008547008547,8.054700854700855,26.974358974358967,6.67199483983844,1.08485641025641,865,21,188,5,13,287,134,234,0.115,0.795,0.09,-0.8321,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,6,13,10,0,0,10,0,13,12,4,10,4,48,34,21,1,7,9,0,9,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,13,10,5,2,4,0,0,2,7,5,0,0,7,10,29,5,27,23,4,30,0,3,1,1,6,13,0,5,15,127,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915692383893365,0.16472410033647675,0.0,0.0,0.06731205068929384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921143759377045,0.0,0.08145483699043088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222412370978905,0.08264693619870903,0.0,0.0,0.0842275133607232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32984445713563343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092008984324533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110182081342882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272905688788576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833977147370225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009787964134352,0.07071370233211507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196910213252797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250900166033027,0.0,0.15833200379765566,0.0,0.1090412845249711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21383793865483755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439864307011079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0483582494540366,0.09920728873234784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214740283280907,0.0,0.08415207749504279,0.0,0.1873208180800831,0.06607213354667955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994493445538656,0.0,0.07900754026731344,0.0,0.07276412807673065,0.2201846287970528,0.2290261114759352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19396527146362474,0.0,0.2253863277581677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642841552707105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471366757145384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887688922794488,0.0,0.10326118838923017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012180423647635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576011836548637,0.06342451356025636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720317565278128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548980609483972,0.0,0.08167160392391637,0.0,0.07856835072875308,0.0,0.4821400614454506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daniriddle,2019/06/20,"i need to start restricting again so my sex drive will go down (tmi?) it really sucks having the much higher sex drive in my relationship especially being the girl, but it hasn’t been an issue for the past few weeks as i’d been restricting hardcore and my sex drive usually drops pretty dramatically when i restrict. 

however the past few days i’ve been binging every day and my sex drive has skyrocketed and i’m reminded how much it really sucks. plus the body dysmorphia and seeing how much i’ve gained makes being naked hard and awful for me unless i totally block it out. i’m just so frustrated and want to cry. 

sorry if this is tmi.",8.275107526881719,6.950811564516133,8.742580645161294,69.1922043010753,62.38709677419354,12.782795698924732,32.763440860215056,11.855464076750405,3.8024827956989244,510,15,96,14,6,171,78,124,0.253,0.682,0.065,-0.9791,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,3,0,6,1,10,5,1,3,1,22,20,16,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,8,0,4,0,0,0,5,1,3,0,0,3,2,8,0,10,14,6,18,0,0,1,4,2,3,2,1,9,60,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22235253327662724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21988603662680667,0.2581963857814631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16865852440533705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137657204528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17932009014219696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089337322028383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362031062163368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4414613941075177,0.1484293852525359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821849350840977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036529016933258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564781924641669,0.0,0.0,0.2149161629228344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951587868825298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22408278360094472,0.14168695637559478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046768907082331,0.0,0.1180701188884094,0.0,0.16057064640641455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,therealspicylemon,2019/06/20,"Step mom bought the full sized spaghetti instead of the half for me. Guess who cried about it but still ate the whole thing anyway? Me, bitch.",2.607777777777777,5.3022134814814805,1.0311111111111124,103.70000000000002,80.85185185185185,3.6,16.407407407407412,3.1291,-1.316125925925926,112,2,24,0,3,30,24,27,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,3,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441156528341679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44539315037723376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735230950672921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228825629841328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26860566083368537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513977807117716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hellbelles,2019/06/20,"DAE purge to help with anxiety? Recently I’ve been purging whenever I feel very anxious, not because I went over my calories or binged. One day I was just riddled with anxiety and thought i would feel better if I threw up, and it worked.",5.486231884057971,6.300286173913044,5.78130434782609,80.92384057971016,67.69565217391305,9.611594202898553,37.072463768115945,9.725611199111238,3.631776811594204,188,10,36,4,3,60,37,46,0.12300000000000001,0.7559999999999999,0.121,0.228,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,12,8,4,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,2,6,1,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,22,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551881373870125,0.3361012228720266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135912186344516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631231094421106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186911253416725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008596374184814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19941444782945772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160023912631875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293754888528488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361894307416649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454766198043064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27579442709650354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165905692491583,0.0,0.0,0.21134232009986376,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rowurboat22,2019/09/06,"Why the fuck does a muffin have 420 calories????? (Possible TW - calorie counting)

Binging on a road trip and among other things got a pumpkin muffin from Starbucks and ate the entire thing. I assumed it had 200-300 calories and was dealing with that but I just checked and now I’m freaking out. 420 is like a whole ass meal, like I could have just ate actual food instead of a muffin. I also ate like a whole baguette which is just as bad but for some reason this muffin is freaking me out. It was good tho, also 420 blaze it 🔥🔥",2.132358490566037,4.206233367924534,3.12701886792453,91.52316981132078,78.52830188679245,4.994716981132076,24.75094339622641,5.6839178017228535,0.5373199999999994,411,15,83,2,10,131,69,106,0.171,0.7140000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.8181,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,8,8,1,0,8,0,9,7,1,1,0,16,15,10,0,1,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,7,5,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,7,0,5,4,9,7,3,7,0,0,0,2,1,5,2,2,4,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.20629983908580266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33811945479856875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765135357277171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878891683739403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794827348191265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850010923590922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556305937123985,0.0,0.0,0.1954396203562265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177315671402362,0.16907911590324073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098439936918658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383262811764332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173585533997551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808948894283755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907592563946579,0.4720501023980876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hannahville,2019/09/06,"I’m freaking out I ate a ton these past 3 days and definitely gained weight (I haven’t weighed myself yet). I would try to just put this behind me, but they are weighing us at school on Tuesday and I’m freaking out about it. Everything just sucks.",1.939,4.171886900000004,2.7059999999999995,93.473,80.0,5.6000000000000005,24.0,6.742157984588678,0.6400000000000001,195,7,42,2,5,61,41,50,0.175,0.752,0.07200000000000001,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,8,7,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,7,0,7,5,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22709027243223165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31646554191916904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361413474672019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35398097777388343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563673814113685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23906847445881926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235607397735642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4287910796090293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501381510241333,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DandelionsDandelions,2019/09/06,"If I just have vegetable boullion and diet soda, everyone around me is concerned about me returning to disordered eating habits. But if I have iced green tea and miso soup, it looks like a healthy lunch choice and no one bats an eye, even though it's essentially the same amount of calories. I just thought it was funny how much little tweaks can change the perception of my habits.",10.769107981220655,8.373173704225355,8.763943661971833,74.38234741784038,58.43661971830986,12.283568075117373,39.15962441314553,10.504223727775694,3.828968075117373,307,11,57,5,3,91,58,71,0.03,0.858,0.11199999999999999,0.7096,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,4,0,5,7,1,1,0,13,7,8,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,6,1,5,5,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27921648616445044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318018803297304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35947198970655725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32094396376037104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071639712873743,0.0,0.0,0.29970761391652484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323436381882374,0.3143613746717776,0.0,0.0,0.2633884093523561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305700682004012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21253849036833394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30816117531896264,0.2490043923972516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PhysicallyDying,2019/09/06,How much does your weight fluctuate in a month. Right now I’m currently 5 pounds above my usual weight and have been for the past 3 weeks for fucking no reason. Maybe I’m drinking too much water or something.,4.587967479674799,5.983910073170732,4.418048780487805,87.72918699186995,70.21951219512195,7.417886178861789,25.861788617886177,7.793537801064563,1.303725203252032,167,5,33,2,3,51,36,41,0.066,0.934,0.0,-0.3597,1,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,2,5,0,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,4,2,8,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,6,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20939170574718505,0.0,0.0,0.2343990124445557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22120645318968726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403845190932515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909875154517756,0.0,0.3517902212464898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228415651965648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460151865848077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043400703780356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420606067262427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635282886040017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19193246786347645,0.5827464829539124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1001073,2019/09/06,anorexia i have anorexia and while i have always know this was dangerous i just cant stop myself i know its sick but i love my anorexia i just cant stop wanting to be skinnier.,-0.3977477477477471,1.8082584594594628,1.4852702702702736,95.39745495495498,99.54054054054056,3.547747747747748,22.382882882882885,5.46131890053228,0.2193099099099105,141,6,29,1,6,46,24,37,0.111,0.635,0.253,0.7488,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,8,1,1,8,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437632160593889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540987615740418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37287242033512896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6908023360885753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436790032592411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JANISwithaPANDA,2019/09/06,"I always feel sooo much less guilty after exercising I felt soooo guilty because I actually ate lunch in school (btw in Sweden schools provide free lunch and you can basically take as much as you want (within reason)). Anyway, after I came I decided to go for a run. After I was done I felt soooooooooo much better. I also had a much better time this time so that's also great. 

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.",3.3009107142857133,5.350207412500005,4.502142857142862,83.14000000000003,74.875,6.571428571428572,21.42857142857143,7.447530270364453,0.8069821428571431,323,8,61,4,7,106,56,80,0.06,0.7290000000000001,0.21100000000000002,0.9127,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,2,5,5,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,1,0,9,14,6,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,5,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,3,11,6,12,7,5,12,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,42,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.16772913265916847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749031852854109,0.14301711612717566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477585713381224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040260565913981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965838132861568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805855915718558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758919157123264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690719844581228,0.0,0.3300616327351056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768280975849956,0.0,0.0,0.1894972297096352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.505403434411135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672026211629474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479014950391379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292316347325896,0.13814984807375333,0.0,0.15824311175839575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004480811212645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137870103257507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad_chuu,2019/09/06,"It's Like Doesn't Want Me To Eat     I went to go get breakfast this morning and I went through the line. I get what I want and punch my school number in. She looks at me and says ""Sweetie, you need bring money in."" I have been told I have free lunch and now everything is fucked up. I'm already anxious when I go to get food. Everyone around me shoves food in my face. I feel so disgusted and pissed off. I told this lady that I have free lunch and she said I need put in an application for it. I did thattttt. 

      It's now just giving me a reason to not get lunch other than ""the line is too full."" It's not good but of course part of me thinks it's good. My family doesn't have the money to pay for the shit at my school. Even if they did they wouldn't give two shits anyway. 

       I'm sick of being afterthought
        I'm sick of feeling like shit
         I just want help...",-0.012228260869569851,1.978090059782609,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,85.90217391304346,4.984347826086957,16.265217391304347,6.2581,-0.6862165217391305,657,13,163,6,20,212,99,184,0.185,0.713,0.102,-0.9638,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,2,0,10,12,6,0,6,0,13,15,5,1,0,24,40,10,0,7,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,10,7,7,0,5,0,5,6,5,6,0,1,8,5,27,8,22,30,2,20,0,0,1,1,12,10,5,1,6,100,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012338651360634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434490032974063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303734574403825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12993019966119074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386777503648854,0.0,0.0,0.12133292572290913,0.11411964370240195,0.0,0.11970356277782898,0.0,0.12840778962751048,0.09071311245931954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30708461641160284,0.0,0.0,0.11738911993500215,0.2653630680786006,0.2436177463627833,0.14432905340418264,0.2130062530685238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511068046643272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12407007910452995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662954434359324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830516420586688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750480597761344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276479670298555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055453775153386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078516084620512,0.10097800645160003,0.0,0.2570170410793781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910232935903764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136237874022634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24266585144581826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124039060691221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246847524894836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23541976636625545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,communalistwitch,2019/09/06,"Pretty sure my desire for validation comes from the same place as my desire to ~melt into nothing~ I’ve thought this since the last time I seriously relapsed and then “recovered”. My behaviours getting less and less extreme until they weren’t ruining my life anymore was around the same time that ProED got banned, I decided to leave all my discord groups, and my blog got terminated. These were some of the only places where I could get some validation about how I was actually sick, and I got validated a lot. It didn’t motivate me to seek more help than I would have. It simply made me crave more and more validation, and to act more extreme for it. 

I think a lot of us are aware that at its root, irrespective of behaviours, an eating disorder involves 1) poor relationships with food (and often with your own body and a need to control this, and 2) the thoughts and associated behaviours causing significant amount of distress and possibly interrupting your life. Those are the only actual qualifiers. We only seek validation so much because it’s another goal that we can work for, just like being thin is (for quite a few of us). And just like “being thin”, we will never get enough of “getting validated”. I feel like it’s just not conducive to any of us getting better to want so much validation.",8.917434301521439,8.075203589211618,8.938765560165976,66.74668222683266,60.825726141078825,12.514661134163209,37.92565698478562,11.698219412168324,4.468327524204701,1039,43,184,27,12,341,141,241,0.098,0.772,0.13,0.7574,1,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,6,2,1,6,10,8,0,1,11,0,15,6,1,6,3,52,31,18,0,6,4,0,3,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,13,20,2,2,6,1,1,2,4,3,0,0,11,3,25,5,28,15,19,16,0,1,0,0,13,8,0,5,9,133,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.21781618617102924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589363289339658,0.11702511531512268,0.0,0.0,0.11067984592515948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993500247090652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803194305566009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870347967207474,0.0,0.12396539146372608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464666976915892,0.0,0.09613580591013997,0.0,0.0,0.12517186813276626,0.0891056393848402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12790631223161028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419737841353098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531537660733195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05642965600597734,0.07972895953057116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495037426546982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915389068646897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677765165771363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748049076319665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097105980265034,0.0,0.11817109823378184,0.0,0.0,0.15765651240556586,0.1635702609198186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897611738529679,0.0,0.10560113126163988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408158620969868,0.08275195508863116,0.08607484816049113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708575808337964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25463654600189195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23320204358188004,0.0,0.0,0.12581522569337653,0.0,0.1135400227247629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870316177822375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981948609268042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923188700641663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518418223305057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151047545413666,0.0,0.17720008497465578,0.1301528120456429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4027327605997032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582613785632498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124806253002567,0.0,0.0,0.07927932457188998,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tahtilapsi,2019/09/06,"Can anyone explain me why I my intestines feel like they're about to burst through my stomach after eating (not even average sized but smaller) meals? I have nobody to tell and I'd like to not die because fasting is the only thing that doesn't hurt... I'm a teenager and female, if that helps. I also don't fast a lot or really binge, just try to keep my kcals about 1000/day. So I'm eating in a way my stomach shouldn't shrink to this point, right?",3.039953917050692,4.227116344086024,3.9290629800307215,90.55645161290329,73.73118279569894,6.174500768049157,24.038402457757297,6.1826913282559595,0.5200273425499233,352,10,75,2,7,113,69,93,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.9182,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,6,6,3,0,0,13,11,7,1,2,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,8,2,10,10,1,7,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,3,5,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187614101801223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404176752684646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430134634940999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513012747255768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434836878720105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801204221229917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549548590629248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186236962626931,0.16760236634604345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572512623673138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511502651537444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852833483482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292329993636292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945338535469864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842821445464854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221778227541934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029442546877925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003519947697764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20505573150573786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15586160935949075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928187740015426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862190928739488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116951630013361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SlutForWormOnaString,2019/09/06,"How to lose weight fast? TW: Numbers What are the best ways to lose weight fast? Besides just skipping, which I can't do because of my parents and friends at school. I'm 52ish kilos (114 pounds) and I can't weigh myself daily as the only scale I can access is my grandmothers. :(. Any exercises or tips? Thanks uwu",0.4600000000000009,2.8682262295081986,1.4906393442622985,95.24022131147542,98.18032786885244,3.7514754098360656,19.214754098360654,5.6839178017228535,-0.14639147540983588,244,8,49,2,10,76,49,61,0.08,0.76,0.16,0.7461,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,1,0,5,8,5,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,3,5,8,1,4,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,27,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125880161507644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14455428196606224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488568084617667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832086288477572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5305830981425129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803505893278529,0.0,0.0,0.2633085092168964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23999159818885815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21832051793283144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822540620363112,0.0,0.5775290436343735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cornsoup123aaaaa,2019/09/06,Somebody took my cake today at Starbucks lol Had been building up towards this all week.. i saw it come out but somebody came up to the counter and snatched it. I thought they had ordered it but turns out it was the last one. Idk i nearly cried lol this sounds so stupid.,1.6483333333333334,4.104466055555555,1.4681481481481493,100.56666666666668,82.8888888888889,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.0059111111111112,213,9,46,0,6,62,41,54,0.17600000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.7543,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,0,1,9,10,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,8,2,5,0,8,2,1,14,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,0,3,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818801335700315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28761585911872195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36676145225768025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27216414604706796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262518669822476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650706164752739,0.0,0.0,0.3164877865915781,0.0,0.3709630290797494,0.0,0.36317541671178816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678256626450629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emptygates,2019/09/06,"Living with my best friend has gotten really difficult I don’t know what to tag or flair this as, I don’t really post a lot so this’ll be the first time talking here rather than stalking about and nodding my head in solidarity.

I live with two friends of mine that I’d met online; we were friends for almost a decade before we all moved in together and had met in person a few times before hand.

This has been going strong for about a year and half, almost two years now, and I feel like absolute garbage because I’ve talked to one of my friends less and less as time goes on.

Now, there are personal disagreements with any roommate situation, and I understand that.
But the reason I can’t talk to her is that she hard triggers my ED.

I’d been on the recovery mend for almost 5 years without true relapse thanks to the support of my family and friends, temptation would be there but I promised my mother that if it ever started rearing its ugly head, I’d call her and she’d help me.
It’s a long, personal story, so I won’t get into that now.

My friend I’ve been distancing myself now physically repulses me. At first, I thought I was okay! I met her in the middle of my strongest years, we talked about recovery and fitness, and it was refreshing to have someone identify with me and my struggles, even if they hadn’t had exactly the same experiences.

She says she’s 300 lbs, but it’s a lie. I’ve driven her to the Quick Cares and Emergency Rooms when she’s gotten sick or hurt herself and she fluctuates somewhere around 450-475 lbs, sometimes higher.

She talks about how hard it is to have her medical problems but then eats chicken cooked in 4 sticks of butter [I truly wish I were over exaggerating], orders huge Uber Eats meals every other night, and has others buy her food/gifts by posting mildly suggestive cropped-and-edited-to-hell images on her insta/twitter and pleading for it.

I regularly would applaud her, get your grind on or w/e, girl, but this is too much for me to watch.
So instead of having her shout me down for disagreeing or calling her out on her eating habits or behavior, I’ve chosen to distance myself slowly.

Am I over reacting in wanting to move out?
I’d hate to move back in with my parents, but I don’t know if I can control myself. Just watching her do this to herself and to her body, I want to purge and fast to keep myself from ever getting as big as her.......

I don’t even know what kind of response I’m looking for, or even if I want one at all, but I felt I needed to say something somewhere instead of hold this inside of me until I capsize.

Thanks for reading my novel, I guess.
Sorry if I come off as hyper judgmental.",5.27379045655038,5.683935147448017,5.986203815088505,80.69618949418572,68.03591682419659,8.907395314200608,30.77510454259037,8.841846274778883,2.377988783868936,2099,78,412,33,33,687,268,529,0.08,0.79,0.131,0.9736,1,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,3,1,1,6,29,22,1,1,13,1,34,11,4,5,6,85,67,47,0,14,21,2,5,1,6,3,2,3,1,4,21,30,5,3,8,3,1,6,8,5,0,7,18,12,75,17,74,43,9,60,0,1,3,0,54,27,0,16,25,292,96,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249779363286912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050928534318621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666898065162609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057586653720156714,0.0,0.04565293575469516,0.0,0.1274536657504024,0.0,0.07859361711257233,0.0,0.0,0.08318715882727204,0.0,0.0,0.152944427490763,0.0,0.07635649495726206,0.0,0.0,0.06451207438468598,0.0,0.0,0.0839967667759406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22989695777770955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839464871716915,0.13548662349313134,0.06309900431773002,0.0,0.0,0.07325789244557011,0.07060068916371112,0.0,0.037867203913207935,0.05350223591673572,0.07190722618046175,0.0,0.0,0.12740470831694653,0.09055864774247384,0.0,0.3471641925262143,0.0,0.1173825681344882,0.0,0.04256235320077149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250101941939167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417547890962309,0.07393948291133115,0.1537198042795966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05019794362574725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017250012486814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656667449802968,0.0,0.07798758395680555,0.1234746140748553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036588021634884685,0.0,0.13226047398497418,0.0662762904906259,0.06288968466078527,0.0,0.0,0.06366975783388515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754449312581286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238792246993603,0.05505359524739191,0.05553082154578251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028024919420656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149633137168496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315773349256937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961761295875021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344999522087845,0.0,0.0,0.07166069403561431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491139335611043,0.0,0.09595434699052748,0.0770005514022613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911285980839754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418076428626757,0.0,0.0,0.06345500866744401,0.0576548482243428,0.07406923932047571,0.08383448497381461,0.05300832497872116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829246628980087,0.0,0.0,0.08498556313999557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009732542954613,0.0,0.13789937514904366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945518922233281,0.1310088548055582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631549746389966,0.07796430412795141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132518180764403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612109977684759,0.07219237369439235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064010154287369,0.0,0.0,0.19290972090914454
EDAnonymous,inthethroesofwhey,2019/09/06,"DAE obsessively watch diet/health reality TV and docos I have been watching and rewatching supersize vs superskinny, secret eaters, fat families for YEARS as well as any obesity/health/ED doco I can find. That sugar film, the magic pill, the weight of the nation, desperately hungry housewives etc etc etc",7.533076923076923,9.965617692307696,8.087692307692308,60.2323076923077,64.38461538461539,11.353846153846154,32.230769230769226,11.20814326018867,4.631676923076924,248,10,34,8,4,82,44,52,0.08,0.878,0.042,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,3,4,1,0,0,5,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,1,4,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149806545691823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7370535579581995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20767229036887125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20134347709690767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683215384870307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26825708177493635,0.19806953459716795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186123411176885
EDAnonymous,thejanefox,2019/09/06,adhd and ed? I have ADHD (well ADD but it's now under the name ADHD) and have been medicated for it since 2nd grade. January I started developing an ED and abusing laxatives. I've had body shame issues since elementary school when i was made fun of for developing body hair earlier than other girls and in high school (over ten years ago) because my mom said i looked like a pregnant teen when i was 95 lbs but i never acted on these feelings until January. and i just realized i went off topic sorry... i meant to ask if anyone else has ADHD and an ED (or just does this as well) and finds themselves obsessively googling ED symptoms and warning signs?,4.158571428571431,5.930388984126985,5.4319365079365065,78.56028571428574,71.85714285714286,8.214603174603175,27.679365079365077,8.841846274778883,2.2577517460317464,516,19,95,10,10,172,90,126,0.102,0.838,0.06,-0.6715,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,4,0,7,5,3,1,1,23,15,16,0,1,6,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,9,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,2,2,1,8,4,10,4,12,7,0,16,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,2,9,59,15,3,0.0,0.1560067638902256,0.0,0.0,0.6329643519372483,0.0,0.11671702024267752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206633877561717,0.1349109083771686,0.0,0.0,0.1230931588308362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026447275001071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925101456221552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522482033200047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10999292747356808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657602860289642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034348912051232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911599985853298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374286938210854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432704089983915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105691736416584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458881433954598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264311547525642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542096649073963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155159465292177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524779605083372,0.0,0.0,0.2665130196223942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178366543056003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739316592580556,0.09319631225119417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685497071341296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23677329134856095,0.12205889646377895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08479080688437314
EDAnonymous,petiteanakitty,2019/09/06,"Random significant weight loss despite eating more? Idfk know what's going on here. I felt terrible this week because I had to keep eating and then I hopped on the scales of an afternoon (when I'm usually slightly heavier mind you) AND I HAVE LOST WEIGHT. 

Like, smashed my goal weight. Wtf. I have been attempting to eat healthier instead of less, but holy  hell. I haven't even been that active!

I'm wondering if what I've been eating has impacted this. Like I've possibly eaten the same, basically but it has been healthier, thusly can consume more of it.

Mind has been blown. Has anyone else experienced this??",2.7622180451127814,5.683981236842108,3.836591478696744,82.05947368421056,83.12280701754386,7.4676691729323315,24.809523809523807,8.418075326091056,2.218152380952381,487,19,86,12,14,157,75,114,0.127,0.789,0.084,-0.7187,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,4,4,6,1,0,3,0,14,8,0,0,0,13,23,7,0,1,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,8,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,9,5,8,2,7,14,4,8,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,3,7,54,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308621371570817,0.15105906152567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987172403859693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6034292020920439,0.12315852438089553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737586931958604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141555549075654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378764690723382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104221452042691,0.0,0.0,0.08102345999925753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14405332446338434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160936838847917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29772376448940474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620473759095716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237289064577198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182591431867105,0.5385886546685162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598811269877777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eliasfxnn,2019/09/06,"just binged bc i’m high, but i fasted for most of the day before that and i tracked all my kcals so hopefully im good.... im still definitely under my tdee, but i really wanted to break 24hrs on a fast and i only got to 19.",-2.2910000000000004,-0.5432753999999953,1.4794999999999978,95.58725,103.0,4.9,12.25,6.6274283507984215,-0.6376,170,3,42,3,8,62,39,50,0.0,0.828,0.172,0.8514,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,4,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,6,3,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539508155056323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19246938098012775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503176641579527,0.2386900662308137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31531868832873866,0.0,0.2964186752169563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644733730590727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22697738699005385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911885744994976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383349042298414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760278915285557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fujibayashikyou,2019/09/06,"if you’re comfortable sharing, what are your fear foods? I feel like I fear every high calorie food, but some are especially bad, like things I used to binge on. 
- Pasta is a big one, it goes down so easy & I can eat SO MUCH without ever feeling full.
- Cheese
- Bread
- Liquid calories in general.. whenever I consume a drink with calories in it, my mind races with “it’s not worth it!!”
- Potatoes, cooked any way. I associate them with extra large fries & over-loaded baked potatoes covered in butter & sour cream. I know I could eat them in a healthier way, but imagining these things makes me want to avoid them altogether.

I want to get over my fears but life hasn’t made my attempts at recovery very easy. People commenting when I eat certain things is also a huge problem for me. I remember every single comment anyone’s ever made about my eating habits (and there have been a lot)",4.5231360946745545,6.2080797751479375,4.910769230769231,83.0092307692308,70.77514792899409,7.803550295857987,27.792899408284025,8.384062270229773,1.9613218934911243,698,25,130,11,13,221,116,169,0.127,0.7170000000000001,0.156,0.6558,0,1,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,3,1,8,11,0,4,5,0,9,12,0,4,3,31,19,9,0,5,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,9,4,11,1,5,2,1,0,3,6,0,1,3,5,21,5,17,15,6,17,0,0,1,0,7,12,0,3,5,81,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001475105119451,0.0,0.36587841397629184,0.0,0.07654513580986315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870505854390285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398348276151212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987055973085112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026663360607136,0.0,0.4607107872710429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036351945810788,0.18967448875518972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799862434092252,0.11382814389050605,0.08041338650659924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722176902574137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880831993156147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892655946647886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06186041695408025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079504951162006,0.10998294463119722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956950818550044,0.0,0.21301531171795374,0.07513514123827475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365421946076938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274506583418513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627404335301971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803541660393824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077053881595718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750933060127667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243409823180194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972163045231541,0.0,0.09287436573611714,0.13278243430851966,0.1786908886389317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850449797557186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jesus_here_AMA,2019/09/06,Why do I always get triggered right after deciding to get healthier I finally talked to my therapist about my restricting and made a plan on how to eat more without freaking out. Immediately after I went on a date with a girl who weighs way less then me and we watched the food channel and talked about eating the entire time. I have never wanted to simultaneously eat everything in sight and never eat again as bad as I did tonight 🙃,6.731445783132532,7.211382144578316,7.375566265060242,71.74985542168679,64.90361445783131,10.495421686746988,33.46746987951808,10.355215969177356,3.4712428915662654,350,14,63,8,5,116,60,83,0.077,0.8909999999999999,0.033,-0.5407,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,0,3,6,0,3,2,16,8,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,6,1,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,3,2,9,0,16,5,2,17,0,0,2,0,5,5,0,0,10,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14153779822332016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202737007607313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6962238423088061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287596153277186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18633751496830445,0.0,0.0,0.20568700743699436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17774167913454764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16095383795260584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623850141963659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526546797994214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734417509000485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19750056649231948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991873589269022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033007600384956,0.13501838953097972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768548682519365,0.1534898464964934,0.0,0.0,0.163971455792932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpunCookieLoopz,2019/09/06,"The curse of the Sag I’m 5’9 and have been tall and curvy all my life, talking DDs when I was in 5th grade (guess when my complex of wanting to be smol started?) at my lowest I’ve been 125lb and my heaviest has been almost 180. 

I’m sitting at 150lb right now, and without fail, EVERY time it seems like the majority of my weight falls off my tits and ass first, which is what I’ve always wanted, but because of the fluctuation I always get the sag of extra skin where no one wants it :/ I hate that when I’m my least confident (heavier/fuller) there’s less skin and when I’m finally happy with my weight I have that shit to deal with.
I’ve accepted there’s nothing I can do about my boobs since that’s all fat. Anyone got any tips and tricks to help with this or do we just accept it and move on? I’m currently still losing weight but this is the first time in my life I’m doing yoga/light exercise in hopes it helps",2.900901098901098,3.7550470205128232,4.062655677655677,90.74365384615385,73.66666666666667,7.212454212454213,22.646520146520142,7.447530270364453,0.6114981684981684,719,17,165,8,14,235,115,195,0.152,0.7290000000000001,0.11900000000000001,-0.7292,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,4,11,10,3,0,6,0,14,13,7,0,2,29,30,15,0,4,5,0,5,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,11,12,4,0,4,1,0,2,2,5,0,3,5,5,16,5,20,24,6,26,0,2,0,3,5,10,4,5,14,97,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448019753255763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406474768712463,0.0,0.0,0.09833700793217193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111184576847464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881504477892454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908238964936288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183675362194835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840875506918942,0.0,0.2460035023583781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555064292984763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11565459196330186,0.0,0.1592997620999799,0.0,0.0,0.15393572769412073,0.0,0.14276844238365938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19385264651918171,0.0,0.0,0.14362634136340072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20427892459386573,0.07064716512795094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177707451671464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536932448637497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875331356003906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979887373229828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349269518357593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316438301212302,0.0,0.0,0.14843593443605665,0.1196195400283568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023528390055737,0.0,0.11548250220291945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622878879592215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686417901288855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558770160448423,0.0,0.0,0.5282732871892748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939498003640968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nibblerkibbler,2019/09/06,"First 20 hour fast! Wish me luck! Any tips? Started my fast about an hour ago, let me know any tips for during or after 😊",-1.5138461538461527,0.4529333846153882,0.10653846153846304,105.87596153846157,99.76923076923076,2.6,10.346153846153848,3.1291,-2.1820461538461537,92,1,23,0,4,29,21,26,0.0,0.785,0.215,0.7418,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,3,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27474853943860394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4215479880929465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636400162655993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6104690000319944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703382849457508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169409131183973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21938146312200849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35642274835708465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Squeakymeeper13,2019/09/06,"Had a tiny victory (slight tw) Had the best victory ever earlier today.  Went to Savers after work today and found an adorable pair of jeans two inches smaller than I have been in like, ever.  

Figured, why not?  

Last time I checked I was a 31-32 inch waist.  

These pants?  

Size 29 inch waist and they fit like a dream!  

Same brand/style as my old ones and I couldn't believe it.  

Small things ladies, small things.",1.1744999999999983,3.726197450000005,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,87.0,4.7,18.0,6.2581,-0.29427499999999984,316,8,68,3,10,95,64,80,0.0,0.785,0.215,0.9481,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,2,4,0,0,5,0,6,2,2,0,2,10,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,2,6,0,6,4,6,1,2,16,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,10,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592762765580125,0.24150590745613296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41632922821212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523242775590721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875856322578832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248585493730624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24148139345103206,0.0,0.1559411852509462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057746090730308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418991485142653,0.0,0.4362702612519138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248023331163239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333164104079586,0.2076553872868228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16753645843509088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UsualLetter,2019/09/06,just saw a pic with me in the background 🙃 guess who is fasting for the next 4 days lol!,-0.4160000000000004,1.231961400000003,1.2900000000000027,103.625,85.0,4.0,20.0,3.1291,-0.8489999999999998,68,2,18,0,2,22,19,20,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.4753,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881576433762749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6630298551162581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6400976918510881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SteelPandas,2019/09/10,"TRIGGER WARNING: Triggered in tea shop Howdy my friends. I'm not entirely sure why I'm writing this post.. I mostly just want to vent. At university today I ate a decent amount of food and I didn't feel TOO bad about it (yay!) but after classes my friend and I decided to get some boba tea and talk about our insecurities (gotta let my friends know they're not alone!). Anyway, there's a TV screen in the place where we got our boba tea that plays music videos. I know I can't name the celebrity, but oh my goodness, this sent me into a spiral. This was right after I finished chugging that boba tea too. That was hours ago and I still feel nauseous and guilty for how much I ate today. I couldn't look away from the screen. The whole thing just made me feel so poopy and I still feel poopy. I hope this was okay to write. There really isn't much to say honestly, just wanted to complain to people who can actually understand me. Anyways, I'm so glad this community exists.",3.0931346153846166,4.778323348717951,4.049278846153847,87.73853365384615,74.48717948717949,6.7211538461538485,23.469551282051288,7.413659706084162,0.8695705128205136,763,22,158,9,16,246,120,195,0.07,0.753,0.177,0.9714,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,3,0,0,0,17,14,0,1,7,2,9,7,0,4,1,37,30,11,0,4,7,0,4,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,11,8,7,0,8,4,1,1,6,3,0,0,9,8,22,11,18,18,6,19,0,0,3,0,14,8,0,3,9,97,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.1508976435577532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707113639371302,0.0,0.0,0.16015118080244956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14528100451437986,0.0,0.12911050592861475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312744512435473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869805346596849,0.0,0.35840280277729797,0.0,0.08078836531779511,0.0,0.0,0.12969722661465066,0.12367261301651244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358356839000056,0.15228048116015178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16996241244141475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581207718867884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12985117551548125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631568153435864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273432947799452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720173185804366,0.0,0.16155658341078133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809384565682324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990606394335258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320541108013304,0.0,0.12296885370436215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24697718547400194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573797767309996,0.0,0.0,0.12428661736748968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273002899563212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931443962872459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097642393767045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824108531443637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953051250229553,0.17264009610652573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowcalgrll,2019/09/10,:( yay I guess (: I’m getting my wisdom teeth out on Friday and I just find it exciting but also sad at the same time that I am looking forward too not eating and starving myself for as long as I can,-0.7721428571428568,1.391898928571429,2.030476190476193,92.97285714285721,95.42857142857142,3.752380952380953,18.904761904761905,5.46131890053228,-0.19126666666666686,153,5,32,1,6,53,36,42,0.12300000000000001,0.644,0.233,0.542,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,9,6,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,6,6,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,3,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310088433680083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235398727454702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37831214553952747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162542664800675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559756458375633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36630304174251055,0.34758557871809764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413580163445551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,niceartichoke,2019/09/10,refusing to buy new clothes in a bigger size because you're convinced you'll lose the weight ✨✨✨ it's been 3 years ✨✨ when will I stop ✨✨ wearing too small clothes ✨✨ which make me look fatter,-1.3520000000000003,0.6377088000000022,0.9705555555555564,101.4625,94.33333333333334,3.888888888888889,20.833333333333336,5.46131890053228,-0.2956666666666661,156,6,39,1,6,52,35,45,0.18899999999999997,0.7440000000000001,0.067,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,2,0,7,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24280419060791966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33447748166072405,0.4456035405612572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658729500979808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846872881170029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330024052112239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4850305023310608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564965859885985
EDAnonymous,mghallstrom,2019/09/10,Someone asked me what my comfort food is I wasn’t sure how to explain that it’s a gargantuan bowl of steamed broccoli with raspberry vinaigrette,13.003333333333336,9.236041925925926,11.110370370370374,63.49666666666669,55.66666666666667,13.762962962962966,56.62962962962963,11.20814326018867,6.493474074074074,120,8,20,2,1,37,27,27,0.0,0.8140000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708382383539816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6090071408328112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42673509778963103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746775874557778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,proana_lexi,2019/09/10,CAN EVERYONE PLEASE SEND ME MEANSPO I REALLY NEED IT Please send me meanspo I really need it at the moment. My friend got me food but i dont wanna eat it but imma feel so bad if I throw it away since she spent money on me,-1.7383163265306116,0.1280936122448999,1.4885459183673468,95.29975765306123,102.67346938775508,4.898979591836736,12.247448979591837,6.6274283507984215,-0.5415122448979592,173,3,40,3,8,61,34,49,0.11900000000000001,0.762,0.11900000000000001,-0.4604,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,4,0,4,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,2,1,10,1,4,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,25,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264570645496562,0.0,0.2012512666253014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28248716783294964,0.0,0.0,0.2466354373180536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303159640697989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12187278797542422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29145629291657593,0.0,0.18622036862197588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277493986581665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574436631688945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5291604973840259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088219508601727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199383779271472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatbitchdetox,2019/09/10,"ED makes me feel prettier I know that it probably should be the other way around but I just feel much much better whenever I feel hungry or cold. Especially when I see my calories goal at the end of the day and it still has few hundreds calories left and it's just *chef's kiss*

I think that's the scariest part of this disorder - that it's actually making me feel better.",2.5159428571428606,4.6435284800000005,4.0072380952380975,85.41600000000003,77.53333333333333,7.485714285714287,24.04761904761905,8.418075326091056,1.5777619047619047,296,10,60,6,7,98,50,75,0.055,0.816,0.128,0.677,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,2,0,16,12,5,0,1,4,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,8,3,4,10,4,8,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,4,40,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.2101999169506685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175220455374928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810086586222973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891556950792489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24686775286240625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19078100027423534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356520684536299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837853838402446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340333857841419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875631506870256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31668845553407243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332578627832259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322382820487908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716463928530065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17201920007278226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802000912604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709749728596355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ConfusedWeirdo4,2019/09/10,"My friend says she has an eating disorder (Undiagnosed) and I can't stand seeing her suffering. How can I help her? She is 5'1"" and 108 pounds, and she wants to go down to 88 and then less and so on, she says she can't stop this. She feels extremely guilty and hates on herself when she eats something that is high on calories and then she would excessively exercise that she feels severe pains and nausea. She knows it's wrong, and knows that it's affecting her health very badly, but says that she can't stop and that no one can help her. I have to do something, I can't leave her like that, she tells me not to worry but I just can't.

Is there any way that I can help her? Is it true that I can't help? I don't know much about eating disorders so I don't know... Please help anyone.",1.5842886178861804,3.3990725914634154,2.6325365853658558,95.66205691056913,79.1829268292683,6.324552845528456,18.25040650406504,7.3011,-0.02523934959349594,611,12,144,8,15,194,82,164,0.13699999999999998,0.6920000000000001,0.172,0.8488,0,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,0,1,0,19,6,0,2,1,27,29,18,0,2,4,0,2,1,1,1,3,3,0,0,12,10,3,2,6,1,0,1,10,5,0,1,0,6,30,3,9,28,2,13,0,1,1,0,29,5,0,0,6,96,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766510217747184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013880406814946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763677576780764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954903989555454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957298312923165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13036433679626938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995976840139904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326409629061381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727466853491004,0.0,0.13702824310439096,0.0,0.0,0.4320375518288879,0.13620341615359252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833883415657448,0.0,0.0,0.13650000673495116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629802663282411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476571664924503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735462721812556,0.0,0.13717227313003622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150750640529208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30754981953023125,0.0,0.0,0.10272678491889604,0.0,0.0,0.14563473316688688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848669231251104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21555369111259254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267544043148542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636653362466814,0.07603609000018201,0.10232495406126574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130917172478548,0.0,0.09157593099961356,0.14094587366591035,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stellar_corpse,2019/09/10,"Do any of you had infantile anorexia when you were a toddler or a child? I didn't know the term & the thing that I had is called as this.

I had a abusive mother, who force fed me almost every meal time.
When I was a kid, every meal time I was swallowing my tears along with food and she was forcing me more when I started to cry.
I know it sounds shitty.

The first time I had it I was around 2yo. I was fed with some risotto, then my mum thought that I am done.
In the morning, she noticed that I was chewing something, then she realized that was the last spoon of risotto that she gave me and I pocketed it in my mouth until morning and surprisingly I didn't choke.

Do any of you have similar stories, or had same condition as I had?",2.5228431372549025,3.822382673202618,3.804722222222221,90.49375000000002,75.20915032679737,6.930065359477124,26.47549019607843,7.492282038375204,1.2079764705882352,571,21,127,7,12,187,83,153,0.091,0.8740000000000001,0.035,-0.8446,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,9,0,22,8,1,0,0,16,29,13,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,11,7,7,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,21,1,28,1,13,8,4,16,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,4,13,97,39,0,0.0,0.247385448223048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907593248177764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262270233837513,0.0,0.2839726679785883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18586995051350785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213200898612596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293492000050711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136676313205816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518340522190673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17759913679947026,0.25247320732889084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294942383844399,0.17019408332504565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23771210416251426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607389775811883,0.0,0.0,0.14778469153568094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387127272725112,0.0,0.0,0.16575824274668444,0.36524646277078665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImpartialBlueberry,2019/09/10,"TW Numbers Restrict TW: Numbers
*I am Not Pro ED 

I had restricted for a couple weeks. Started dropping at a week-ish. I have lost 12lbs. 
I have increased restriction, resulting in shedding more lbs. 

After some appointments I've had I have realized I've had one days worth of intake over the period of a couple weeks. 

I know these actions are unhealthy. 
They work for me though.
Not only do I feel so much better when I refrain from eating. I also can't help but to feel proud of myself when I dont eat. Along with feeling proud, and stronger when I overcome hunger spurts. I can not stop doing these actions. I don't know if I even fully want too.",1.2996093749999993,3.8823809921875028,2.64875,90.32125,86.734375,5.075,22.84375,6.6274283507984215,0.7912718750000001,509,19,98,6,16,164,87,128,0.10400000000000001,0.715,0.18100000000000002,0.8917,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,5,8,4,0,0,4,0,14,3,0,1,0,22,22,9,0,2,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,5,6,0,1,3,6,1,0,1,4,3,17,3,13,18,4,17,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,10,68,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033967398793407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626645553173106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160261721005553,0.0,0.12124133579416145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22032894566093228,0.0,0.0,0.3847319953240814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416904044371002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285168028183808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600920342086425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663446399679136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052189417298524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138198085051044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273903963241852,0.14297880241316802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306395287907616,0.0,0.0,0.15717238464888375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847043055005072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088442534220737,0.0,0.4523951704604379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686272683160272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yungmonet_,2019/09/10,"I feel so fucking disgusting. Hi everyone. 

I have anxiety. I also have bulimia nervosa and OCD (according to my old psychiatrist, they work together). I used to have a BMI that I was happy with 2 years ago. At the time, I wasn't happy with it, but when I look back, I looked so decent. It was a healthy BMI too. I was engaging in very bulimic behaviors, but overall, I was OK. Then, I got into and out of a physically abusive relationship. I spent a lot of time after that going through a sort of ""treat myself"" phase, include music festivals/concerts, food, going out with friends, spending as much money as I wanted while barely making rent, etc. Honestly, it was deserved. I was working full time, a straight A student at my university doing a double major, constantly just working and studying and never being kind to myself and I probably wouldn't have recovered as soon as I did had I not treated myself and surrounded myself with friends and fun. At that point, my bulimia sort of went on pause because part of treating myself was allowing myself to enjoy the food without shaming myself.

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However, during that time (it was only 1 summer that I did this, so about 3 months), I gained 10 pounds. I'm 4'11. 10 pounds is A LOT on my body. I have tried on and off to lose it and I never have. It is two years later. I am back to a grind of working full time and studying 20 hours a week for the LSAT (law school entry exam, think SAT but for law school) while trying to squeeze in family, friends, the gym, etc. I have gained another 2 pounds on top of the 10. I literally hate my body. I can't buy new clothes because when I try on clothes I just cry. I eat relatively healthy too! Greek yogurt for breakfast, salad for lunch, veggies for dinner, maybe some almonds or a string cheese or fruit as a snack throughout the day. I want to go back to being bulimic again to lose this weight. I have tried the healthy route. I rock climb at the gym 3x a week for about 2 hours. I eat pretty healthy but I have a crazy appetite. I hate my body. I saw myself in the mirror this morning and cry. I just got a dress in the mail for like 10 bucks and I was like oh this will be cute and I tried it on and was like wow I could never wear this. I just hate hate hate hate my body so much. I will never been thin and tall. I will never have control over my body again. I'm so sad.",2.1126619883040942,4.197633772631583,3.6058245614035087,88.01121637426904,78.6421052631579,6.495906432748537,24.450292397660817,7.554174236665415,1.2034678362573101,1842,66,376,27,45,607,221,475,0.129,0.696,0.175,0.9626,2,0,0,0,0,0,74.0,0,0,1,11,22,31,8,1,26,1,38,18,6,4,5,56,64,37,0,4,12,0,4,3,3,4,0,0,1,0,17,22,11,1,2,3,6,5,10,12,0,1,21,8,59,19,57,35,12,68,0,3,3,1,7,27,1,7,39,259,76,9,0.0,0.08132561569165835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06084405122082154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05489033014319949,0.0,0.07436998455214994,0.0834035129459501,0.0,0.07197364403470925,0.05250840476287517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583367316646496,0.0,0.08368300837461226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38121051766571606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417403218219931,0.07698411965574946,0.05480240334136974,0.0,0.1507927409051537,0.04426627231663509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046901712508433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310055113170445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558720322777542,0.0,0.0,0.06470644181883331,0.0,0.034705780579140866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599633631770594,0.0,0.15909022908537088,0.06345535657394094,0.0,0.0,0.11702683629640595,0.0,0.10979325040942256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461343091594681,0.0,0.4065989359981351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519055345140618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147662613024779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060018058863808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11527841355972307,0.1535782587737935,0.0,0.11670830779978003,0.0,0.0,0.0458168540129523,0.0,0.06895678292367614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05478674206566267,0.0,0.10091465961564586,0.0,0.26469191955772703,0.06629166793312342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202475173155844,0.0,0.0,0.052202811538409714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432900509664994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0648857415912593,0.0,0.0,0.0698302168494327,0.07400410963245417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369225842875074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893202365177834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04398089667529459,0.0,0.0,0.20011884070920855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330058015997734,0.0,0.06705001987932302,0.0,0.0,0.05928178424381626,0.0,0.056634102050633565,0.0809697474169221,0.0,0.11011562285617044,0.08358342474833022,0.0,0.06362874697244544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616524121156503,0.0,0.1998791153608097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834035129459501,0.08840212312481903
EDAnonymous,anothrrthrowawayy,2019/09/10,"[TW] Ladies- have you ever had noticeable changes in your period due to your ED? Advice/input? I’m 24. Without unnecessary detail I’m going to briefly describe my experience with my ED as I feel it may be pertinent to my issue.

I started purging when I was about 15-16. It was *very* sporadic. Usually just when I was having a bad day and felt I ate too much.

Around 19-20 it started becoming more of a couple times a week thing. Still sporadic enough where I didn’t *think* I had an issue.

In the past year or so I started doing it almost daily, and after most meals. I realized recently it’s a big problem and it scared me, so I’ve been on the road to recovery since, but this was all just to give an idea in terms of where my bulimia was at and the relevance to my hormones.

This all being said, idk if it’s because of my ED or other factors, but my period has been seriously out of whack these last couple months. I’ve been on the same pill for a year exactly and these issues just started this summer. This is basically what my cycle has looked like since May/June:

- normal 5 day period May 23-27
- normal 4 day period June 19-23
- early 10 day period July 3-13
- “normal”? 4 day period August 9-13
- early 6 day period August 28-Sept 3
(Spotting between) 
- wayyyyy early 3 day period Sept 6-9
(Still spotting but not heavy)


Could this be in correlation to my ED since it was at its worst in the last year? Has anyone else had period issues due to this? I’m used to having a relatively normal cycle so it’s stressing me out, on top of the potential women’s health issues from having an ED..",2.6123418449505422,4.288137850931676,4.928812974465148,80.96683114791814,75.77018633540374,8.000184034966644,24.03772716816195,8.735056554316923,1.7846048769266158,1236,39,243,26,27,433,167,322,0.067,0.915,0.018000000000000002,-0.9264,0,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,3,0,1,16,7,0,2,15,0,28,4,0,1,4,41,44,17,0,7,11,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,21,9,2,0,5,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,16,4,23,1,35,22,9,66,0,0,1,0,6,18,0,7,48,156,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908168700820148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06341530452372462,0.09292664889348544,0.0,0.08073682583913372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572564317701312,0.05528617787531875,0.10016432011237032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594215224634267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241172319146966,0.20070221681248104,0.0,0.4094305730390247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576314083904462,0.0,0.0,0.0937110736004756,0.0,0.0,0.08203785191839758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871606624115566,0.0,0.0,0.045857576004217256,0.0,0.08708039540972848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870018816787887,0.05154345040358091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640340644242497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238240755197756,0.0,0.4733044989549398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785531524921364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04430847302090996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761600592645632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07239102957417952,0.0,0.06667047385249662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3554431806224988,0.0,0.103255640304419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657761831990465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678184242980062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954931437724327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627069603415684,0.0,0.09080044551208956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22506886805100454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25677452152416125,0.0,0.14485657914165315,0.0,0.10388959027558314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06025301708281298,0.058113008218381175,0.0,0.0,0.05288435986490381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833043606171815,0.09988655064096152,0.07483199040273006,0.0,0.0,0.07274919999081549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742571200142764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521175201143885
EDAnonymous,FreeHugsFromSenpai,2019/09/10,"Used my pending breakup with my boyfriend as emotional motivation and fasted for 36 hours.. Only to break said successful fast just now with a Butterfinger bar. 

What am I doing >_<",5.981458333333332,8.987190062500002,5.16375,77.03958333333338,70.25,9.266666666666666,35.666666666666664,9.725611199111238,4.117216666666666,150,8,24,4,3,45,30,32,0.0,0.7759999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,6,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,15,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5323792228048074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4660880253937509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35995274416396617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4502001331413318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40876420806947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunscreeninmyhair,2019/09/10,"Tw: bmi Last time I was hospitalised my bmi was <16, but not by a lot. I feel like that is too high of a bmi to be hospitalised and I'm really salty about it >:/",-1.5632432432432457,0.3831061891891885,1.0095135135135145,101.00508108108109,95.21621621621622,6.203243243243244,12.805405405405404,7.554174236665415,-0.3725848648648644,127,2,34,3,5,43,30,37,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.5023,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450172054434549,0.3461826323205941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5119832803653732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3949957597954129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367403422294209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4119709015610411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104330861562539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825613387103825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Uwtp,2019/09/10,"I desperately need some advice! Please help me I'm new here and I'm not sure if this is the correct subreddit to post this in, if not it would be amazing if you could just link me the right one. 
I may not have an ed but I certainly don't have normal eating behaviors. I've always been fat, my whole life and by fat I mean I havent been under 190lbs since I was like 11-12 (5'4 since I was like 10) and I only was about 190 because of a weightloss program from a hospital my parents sent me to, kind of like a bootcamp but only for 2 weeks. My parents have pushed me to lose weight as long as I can remember, now that I'm 22 they don't say anything anymore but the 17 years prior have left a lot of insecurities. I started purging when I was about 13 or 14 I think, never seriously since I litterally don't have any selfdiscipline whatsoever. I also started using laxatives and fasting a lot (at least for me) for a couple of months when I was 17 and I lost about 44lbs in roughly 4 months which ended me at about 236lbs (I've gained a lot inbetween those two times). At 17 I was then inpatient for my depression and after that I gained pretty much all of the weight back, so now I've been at about 287 lbs for the past 4 years , sometimes a few lbs less but nothing worth mentioning. 
At the moment I'm eating once a day usually but a lot, like A LOT, I'm also living with my boyfriend of 2 years which makes it hard to change my habits e.g. exercising. He knows I absolutely HATE moving my body in any way really so it would be extremely suspicious if i suddenly started working out, I know it would be a normal thing for me to want to lose weight at my bmi and nothing really suspicious but I just can't tell him that I want to lose weight, I just feel too ashamed, he doesn't seem to mind my weight at all and he tells me all the time he thinks I'm beautiful and sexy but I just don't believe him especcially since his last girlfiend is soo skinny, like literally thinspo skinny. Not that I could come up with the motivation to actually work out, I've always needed to see some weight loss results before I was able to muster the strength to even take like 10 min walks. I know this is bad and I just should start exercising but I simply can't, I'm probably the laziest fat fuck ever but I really don't know how to change that. Also I just feel so incredibly ashamed if someone sees me doing any physical activity. 
I've started using laxatives again in the past week and while I know everyone says they just get rid of waterweight, I know I've lost about 44lbs because of them and you could see a difference. 
I just want to lose some weight now, I desperately want to reach my lw of 189 at least (I definately want to lose mor weight ugw beeing around 110 ish) but for now I just want to get below my lw.. 
I need some advice on how to get some discipline to eat in a way that would be achievable (I'm not talking about a healthy lifestyle that leads to me reaching my goal in like 3 years or so) do you have any tips that keep you from overeating? Or how I could keep this from my boyfriend? Also btw I work mostly nightshifts (from 10pm to 6:30ap) and my bf is currently unemployed so he's home pretty much all of the time. 
Also feel free to ask any questions, I feel like my text is kind of  a mess and confusing",4.023715763263746,4.735754340675482,5.154620762306075,84.47466625167594,70.93832599118944,8.623648087850349,27.13914958820149,8.841846274778883,1.8085688948477308,2610,84,562,46,46,864,287,681,0.128,0.748,0.124,-0.8923,5,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,4,3,18,43,33,2,4,29,0,47,21,6,9,9,124,102,51,0,25,32,2,14,8,1,6,6,2,1,0,20,20,16,3,18,2,2,6,15,18,0,2,13,19,77,16,79,75,22,76,0,9,3,1,28,24,1,23,51,350,97,9,0.04927781113549203,0.0,0.04808803525852535,0.0,0.0,0.0963074134432981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19703723880735088,0.08200617285574809,0.0,0.0,0.16755300690140573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048870347303557084,0.0,0.0,0.040551439822888335,0.043867699413243436,0.04606810139615372,0.0,0.0,0.037891595025440906,0.04114491396258962,0.06007859257617836,0.0,0.04193178779401573,0.05551921840554077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054736539284218136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425878035354176,0.042448470937633584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737728967881665,0.05452496074247448,0.0,0.03178011153079085,0.0,0.04244290652351529,0.0,0.0,0.051484824389130567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127050903193465,0.0,0.0,0.04364551423679802,0.0,0.0,0.032547529504887034,0.0445746013799823,0.0,0.04708706029416558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966536777064612,0.035204078121367735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04555654234269256,0.07723686735493385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04414323962887655,0.048651636479547886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033029878072442224,0.0,0.04942966243602927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760076543175886,0.0,0.1026305144474648,0.162490777643827,0.040167993097265216,0.0,0.0,0.05354048598364153,0.0,0.034806375323007815,0.19259719521932986,0.0,0.04351321004399096,0.04360931217262684,0.0,0.2756463294234545,0.10758510393646868,0.2094711641809654,0.0,0.0,0.03289332158141546,0.0,0.0,0.05367798261190613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04975654172196371,0.0,0.07866615742121666,0.05237451465905412,0.07244972232441206,0.109616617680269,0.03800608582838592,0.04759281706413538,0.0,0.0,0.0965635844856139,0.09456677762884078,0.0,0.0,0.05247926060552373,0.03339192014518546,0.07495599182351148,0.0,0.0,0.10943435526037744,0.0,0.0940824932587626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05409223877781464,0.0,0.0,0.047194521422664185,0.1002664992353698,0.05312981497591448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055202426228627824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947058829315966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055822153881335,0.04208298146032455,0.0,0.0783753865629134,0.0,0.0,0.11780410636581586,0.044860668512599115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630524583765141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04175292946256104,0.0,0.048737015243369694,0.0,0.17439544176601618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04644375381626112,0.0,0.03705078127462635,0.03960763798039845,0.08614195787973271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032737988082369,0.0631504632496373,0.0,0.0,0.0862028638642956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04813726113336772,0.0,0.0,0.08512041409480815,0.05427254704902618,0.0,0.17439197851065089,0.07822886557209383,0.07905537540229032,0.480056787547331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055016916320687344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762450020760872,0.0,0.0,0.14002217272472614,0.0,0.0,0.12693317893902178
EDAnonymous,heallahdancing,2019/09/10,10 days without a binge! I'm super happy I've gone 10 days without bingeing or going over 800 (only gone over 600 twice) and honestly any urges have just gone. my friend cooked for me and i could only eat a little bit. i know I'm back on my bullshit but it feels so euphoric,0.17233990147783018,2.4243167758620707,2.0862561576354715,94.86293103448278,88.13793103448276,4.0039408866995085,18.630541871921178,5.288315135182226,-0.4077320197044334,215,6,46,1,7,71,43,58,0.07,0.706,0.22399999999999998,0.8961,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,10,10,5,0,1,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,1,0,4,2,0,0,1,3,1,5,4,6,6,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741975355388193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697117327625271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27966029717944385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20452285905528805,0.0,0.0,0.33040392471560803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26211555734291275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952215663930716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19790852539574985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14558159062504766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27268700725759776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077879759168252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567395440741158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896423374009305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4938580601430178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grearti,2019/09/10,"I need advice So this Saturday I’m meant to go out with my friends to drink and plan our friend’s bday party. They didn’t exactly tell me what we’re gonna drink or where, just that we’re going.

Now my question is: should I drink half of whatever I get or drink it all anyway?

I absolutely don’t wanna get drunk, I hate not having full control of movements, speech etc.  and I don’t want a hangover.

The fact is I don’t wanna just not drink anything bc I don’t wanna seem weird bc we haven’t been friends for a long time and I did tell them I drink (like an idiot)

So yh, advice??",0.7720133333333337,2.5733195280000025,2.5381,95.41888333333335,81.72,5.446666666666667,19.216666666666672,6.42735559955562,-0.14573333333333327,451,11,106,4,12,149,80,125,0.069,0.8370000000000001,0.095,0.4479,0,0,6,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,2,2,7,7,2,0,4,0,12,7,0,1,3,25,23,7,0,6,6,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,4,6,7,1,3,7,0,3,8,3,0,1,4,1,17,4,10,17,3,10,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,4,5,65,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573423502210561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083572121372969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476845817188593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7739475575260746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685230509824995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051950719589192,0.0,0.1375893870000154,0.0,0.14966774485959736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300016896530885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432969837377424,0.0,0.0,0.11652813095883705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763525987100916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147506008059737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987187127932733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23017930916050655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678068520199091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766525961862293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dealingwithme,2019/09/10,"Can't cope, everything is too stressful (TW: numbers, calories, weight gain) I've been having a really tough time in work recently and I feel so out of control. I've been low restricting for a few months with planned binges/""cheat days"" but recently I've been so stressed out. 


A massive trigger for me(which is not even food related) is on my Fitbit when my resting heart rate increases past 62, it freaks me out and I can't cope, it's at 67 currently and I'm so panicked over an arbitrary number and I don't know why! 


This week it's just triggered a massive out of control binge cycle and I can't stop myself from eating everything, even stuff I don't even really like I've just been shovelling it in.


I've put on 9lbs in the past week and rationally I know some of it is water weight/salt retention/whatever you want to call it but that doesn't stop my stomach bloating making me look 6 months pregnant and making me feel 10x fatter than ever.


It's so hard as I keep saying to myself that tomorrow I will get back on track and stop these binges but the next day comes and I've already eaten 600 calories this morning and it's only 10am. 😭 I can't even bring myself to stop wearing my Fitbit to stop seeing my heart rate fluctuations because I need to know how many steps I'm doing.


I'm struggling and stuck in this binge cycle and I don't know how to stop 😣",2.5294964028776974,4.5079592589928055,3.7726992805755413,87.82014244604319,76.9136690647482,6.894043165467626,25.148776978417267,7.839951260653429,1.3875373812949643,1086,39,221,17,25,354,146,278,0.113,0.823,0.064,-0.9308,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,5,16,7,0,3,7,0,19,9,4,8,1,50,40,23,0,2,6,0,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,15,18,5,10,6,0,0,5,9,6,0,0,6,7,23,1,28,33,4,42,0,1,2,0,3,14,0,1,24,127,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985099618532837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654438783181704,0.0,0.060682046868878285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164714233491258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574968195813054,0.0,0.0,0.2232976107262787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283972965887545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018599551614068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629956030847336,0.09004465431416107,0.0,0.0,0.17893025364194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100666448046261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12037088121163984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052008444315608235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917326525940418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359239258387145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848066383944149,0.0,0.0,0.21883053651188814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048632930324952126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08359319568538949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13289486296441516,0.10092356929113416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589126258434225,0.0,0.0,0.07381176829054048,0.0,0.0,0.10586782791587404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570888088249075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19005499365618853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000707782487114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275428641136833,0.0,0.1965784541796546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916262144035224,0.0,0.0,0.07932491976819081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4993472520358776,0.22805819568532254,0.10406662858235044,0.11395584532852154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058045814112705416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0587145479488466,0.0,0.1596988807391168,0.2424393384776201,0.0,0.0,0.08982438079119646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247035020620925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jazzaran,2019/09/10,"I’m scared for myself I’m 14 and have always really hated my body and tried to starve myself but suddenly I just got more serious about it

I’m 26 hours into not consuming anything right now and I plan to go all of tomorrow too 

I want to eat but I can’t bring myself to do it I’m too scared 

My head is hurting so bad & I’ll probably delete this I just don’t know what to do",-1.7034751131221704,0.21897372941176485,1.5364705882352934,95.69257918552036,99.94117647058823,5.4389140271493215,14.773755656108596,7.010146845296331,-0.07918099547511304,297,7,71,6,13,105,56,85,0.25,0.733,0.016,-0.9671,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,2,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,12,16,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,1,0,10,0,9,15,2,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,43,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958487111508141,0.2550259218828489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19369144902281096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965261416151916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614457009358807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240844749424294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337675720980161,0.0,0.18824882827925796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323815383180514,0.2415600108488731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317944243999493,0.0,0.2519710468108495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293545281093898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25377128146237404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078560116996514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20100676311003984,0.0,0.0,0.4712977127633887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15980242490265945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388287533201124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Moose--And--Squirrel,2018/11/30,"Does anyone else have ptsd over fitted clothes? I was over weight when I was a kid / younger teenager, and so I always wore oversized hoodies and jackets to try to hide it. Now that I've lost all of that weight and I keep going down in weight I still can't bring myself to wear anything fitted because if clothes are touching my skin like that it just makes me feel so fat. 

I had always planned to go out and buy new clothes that fit me better but I just end up wearing my old baggy clothes because I still don't feel skinny enough to wear anything that fits me. ",5.098383458646616,5.3344831491228115,4.6316040100250655,90.86289473684212,68.3859649122807,6.514285714285713,30.32080200501253,3.1291,0.9720065162907272,445,16,94,0,7,134,74,114,0.027999999999999997,0.92,0.052000000000000005,0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,8,3,0,0,1,0,7,9,6,1,1,14,16,9,0,1,4,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,5,5,1,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,5,7,14,2,12,11,2,20,0,1,0,0,1,10,0,1,8,57,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723379154565264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442708505637525,0.16767759197561982,0.2693381292052844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19951764722076668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14473411424221194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321021659033592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367076201247943,0.0,0.14494431275540945,0.16909301422015866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549155726124906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18601083217137568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545862231643655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995056475972569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17864205778612868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923688205376306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15805308476899527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17172194554492154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912967550898522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613803753984394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111068309491591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5978406576083415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shutuplynds,2018/11/30,"Having a snack because I felt hungry... wtf Is this what normal people do? I'm used to just ignoring my hunger until I get home and can binge in the sanctity of my own living room whilst sitting on the sanctity of my own ass because I put off eating for so long. 

This feels so foreign and i feel lowkey guilty for doing a normal person thing lol",2.705047619047616,4.510564457142864,4.131428571428572,86.22190476190477,75.85714285714286,6.3809523809523805,21.666666666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.7260952380952386,272,7,53,3,6,90,53,70,0.198,0.764,0.038,-0.9001,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,5,4,1,1,0,10,11,5,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,2,3,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,7,0,9,10,2,9,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,3,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190647172972964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677885756533176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646508600526132,0.0,0.2512769268134329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672956367546532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625104982486874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23108946907802205,0.2315998471875957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5128288041376725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143263531259896,0.2285098803708982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630848514441003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17386454083688144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22602827142589804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hypermagical20,2018/11/30,"Has anyone ever stolen food for a binge? Book incoming. I just had an old coworker add me on social media and it set of an insane anxiety attack because I worked with her about 5 years ago, in the absolute worst period of restricting/bingeing/overexercising/suicidal depression of my life. I pretty much ghosted everyone I knew then when I graduated and got a new job. Not that there was anything wrong with them, but I was too fucked up to try to maintain social connections and I just wanted to disappear. Anyways, I worked at a place that served breakfast foods, and if I was ever on a shift alone, I would steal and eat soooo many donuts, bagels, scones, etc. I literally couldn't help myself. I had barely eaten for months and the binge monster just took over. Those two years are just steeped with shame between bingeing and gaining like 20 lbs, stealing REALLY EXPENSIVE food, and then just disappearing from people who I was fairly close with. Looking back now, I can't believe how much I ate that I shouldn't have, but it legit felt out of my control. I just feel like such a gross failure for not even being able to stop myself from STEALING FROM MY WORKPLACE because I was such a pig 😑. Today is hard.",6.010014556040755,6.987350205240176,6.080157205240173,78.66247743813683,66.59825327510917,9.076098981077148,30.550509461426486,9.21078282632365,2.611735138282388,963,35,174,17,15,305,151,229,0.245,0.705,0.05,-0.9934,1,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,4,19,12,2,1,10,0,16,9,0,2,2,38,26,15,1,5,11,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,15,7,2,3,1,1,3,5,10,0,1,13,4,26,2,27,9,4,29,0,1,1,1,6,9,1,1,18,124,33,5,0.12578287635715554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149893058613898,0.0,0.0,0.130273125775293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962235561303516,0.0,0.0,0.08795031174646961,0.0,0.10350858984629832,0.0,0.0,0.14309618046187614,0.0,0.09671926780505233,0.0,0.1533521479057455,0.0,0.0,0.14171422843739753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107619136961747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10833660709496384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870728424287747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028115633999566,0.08307840354734132,0.2275556257412417,0.0,0.12019092866600843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359960163874093,0.08985931200215899,0.12077128669194055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562914601166666,0.0,0.0,0.11628424235392334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060005670724873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267675094123936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430961063296102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248200961682598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884416541264316,0.12290231969921908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562593691309956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752409422305838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039869186964273,0.0,0.1849297737715108,0.0,0.0,0.12148188578845427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198796977957866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720200892492297,0.0,0.1314163342726813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796640501554032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805797314490189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564396044699766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516011681895356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758605134778729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922745938088833,0.0,0.13974940378503084,0.08539831644165792,0.0,0.12287159323417145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418999939740291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314286410967287,0.0,0.0,0.08935254647709633,0.13752382956981726,0.0,0.16200009684082997
EDAnonymous,heyimbored_,2018/11/30,"Proed getting taken down made everything worse First of all I’d love to say thank you to this community for stepping into when proed got deleted. I was on the road to recovery, eating ‘normally’ slowly stopping binging and restricting and then.. I woke up and Proed was gone. Months of the community, the support, all gone. I spent days looking for substitutes, but nothing... So I relapsed, eating between 200-500cals, spending all my time looking at thinspo.. Whoever took it down is an idiot  who made thousands of people relapse into a illness that kills the most people than any other mental disorder. To whoever had a part in taking it down- you killed more people than proed did. You have countless lives, so much blood on your hands.
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EDAnonymous,unicornyogamat,2018/11/30,"I told someone and I feel like shit Throwaway for this one. 

 I'm going to make this short and sweet.  I've been talking to this dude online and we've become good friends.  I'm a very reserved person.  I don't talking much about my feelings or things like that.  For some reason, we talk a lot about our diet and exercise routines.  Last night, half-drunk (pretty positive he was quite sober and was putting up with my drunk antics), I admitted to a fucked up relationship with food and exercise. And then, I deleted the comment.  He had already seen it, of course, so the deleting just made me feel cowardly. I told him that and he said I was overthinking it.  My favorite pastime!  

So here I am still overthinking it. Now I'm embarrassed/ashamed about oversharing, ashamed of being a coward, and I halfway want to avoid this person but I also really don't.  

I just feel really weird about this whole thing. ",2.511373929008567,5.168126459302325,3.2393635250918003,87.9616952264382,80.91860465116278,6.411750305997553,25.33170134638923,7.669130373188453,1.5524372093023255,709,28,134,12,19,223,104,172,0.10300000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.098,-0.4179,0,1,0,0,0,0,26.0,2,0,0,1,12,10,2,2,6,0,9,7,1,3,0,28,26,15,0,1,4,0,4,2,1,0,2,1,0,2,12,12,3,1,6,3,0,2,2,5,0,1,10,7,18,5,16,15,4,10,0,0,1,1,18,3,2,3,7,86,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621037477827805,0.12044891844851772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634541369815795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046273340869672,0.10760131334467514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212751794098292,0.0,0.11636685963367815,0.13924363451916955,0.0,0.0,0.08559950859942253,0.12633097883770555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227735263166056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716839822260575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804978046011822,0.0,0.14251810736447576,0.10053848279244586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072133811724556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134450618580918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206244999046367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26302712810409845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323234661910093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141238709398014,0.0,0.16020046142211108,0.0,0.0,0.19297910788961609,0.15486007859637485,0.0,0.16170704024944513,0.0,0.0,0.14327192163567168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460690227319093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276178865036731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028348795851487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363182400386549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012741147663185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28784332949862657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242753745788306,0.08883822048414314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815928063421912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallblush,2018/11/30,"hardy har har, universe i’m having a meltdown because i think my best friend and her fiancée are going to try to get me to recover when we move in together. i can’t. i’m not even thin. i’m the high end of normal— i’m an embarrassment. if they try to make me recover i seriously think that i’ll lose my mind. i know that they just want the best for me and i know this is the illness talking, but it’s not fair. her fiancée— let’s call her amy— is in recovery but she is the fucking epitome of irl thinspo. she is so tiny and perfect and i’m a literal whale... i can’t even comprehend the universe’s sense of humor. i can’t handle this. i can’t spend another christmas a whale... if my birthday comes in february and i’ve gained because of amy, i will be fucking heartbroken. i’m not even remotely ready for this",0.5052631578947349,2.677484672514624,3.032280701754388,89.35263157894741,85.31578947368422,6.64093567251462,25.374269005847953,7.85451343220497,1.5856479532163739,633,28,138,13,19,219,91,171,0.109,0.762,0.129,0.5103,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,2,5,6,10,2,1,9,0,13,3,0,1,1,23,30,11,0,3,8,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,4,0,1,3,7,5,0,0,0,1,23,5,13,27,2,10,0,1,0,2,11,5,2,2,2,84,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908180970599103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21984345627244725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37847056583221533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18412743343522006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553301794241784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971047737910132,0.0,0.0,0.3573000501174011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931520269417902,0.3334068690687262,0.09421004023152343,0.0,0.10248031895499668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190518551881306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981989071194326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438997029207915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173256120281954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036536134847398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18207234283078044,0.0,0.0,0.19165219805438446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667584453194432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493482045801506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23108424333347702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448516216143438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10635772704273128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prettypleaser,2018/11/30,"Modern princesses & eating disorders https://www.vogue.com.au/blogs/suzy-menkes/dianas-disastrous-legacy/news-story/1e4ac9f12b3105ab5c3b36bd4ba23f3d

This is a Vogue write-up from 2014, but i found it fascinating how the body image of women in the royal family has changed generationally, jump started by the fame of Princess Diana. 

Also I didn't realize there were so many princesses i didn't know! They're all so gorgeous, the pressure must be unreal.

The article mentions that princesses are being reduced to solely their appearances regardless of their social work accomplishments, but i feel like it has always been like this, including the way people take interest in the First Lady of the US. What do y'all think?",10.86789346246973,12.241907338983054,8.484285714285715,64.25889830508478,56.11864406779661,11.827602905569007,36.34866828087167,11.491704259439757,4.714361743341404,598,23,80,15,7,175,92,118,0.026000000000000002,0.758,0.21600000000000005,0.9785,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,1,2,3,5,5,0,1,9,0,12,2,1,2,2,13,19,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,5,1,8,4,9,11,1,8,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,5,53,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849889277642228,0.19247927547168808,0.2506383850170466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25694771640633685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447090725634927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651162106924413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367011893923085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807074689251135,0.0,0.11696386448772475,0.1652572047806426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19676323439190815,0.0,0.2536337409917017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712907684291372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260254765144637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345252248646149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037024906047775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358046778098174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373161730512295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392611524365745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822244458808026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782530993429019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836134383782949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840590654398974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fatalope,2018/11/30,"Back in the rabbit hole It's never ending isn't it? One week I'm binging and hating myself, so I decided to up my calorie count to maintenance (1201) and now I'm eating below the amount i had previously set because seeing a comma makes me so nervous? 


Why can i either eat maintenance or for fucks sake just eat at the 900 cals i had set out before? Why must i be so difficult? ",2.015274725274729,3.857208000000004,4.4890476190476205,82.72500000000002,77.97435897435899,7.021245421245422,22.68131868131868,7.957251820313856,1.2934703296703292,296,9,58,5,7,104,59,78,0.17300000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.0,-0.9238,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,2,1,4,0,6,4,0,1,2,10,12,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,1,8,0,8,8,2,12,0,0,1,1,0,5,1,1,5,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17298473845380494,0.0,0.1371370038195165,0.0,0.19142924280643586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6905882273653027,0.0,0.0,0.1992528385217132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797716635362634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221070558289664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501663529027396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735074179976329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524425817627094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926853800332776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18045391633884425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4059931095688077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mimedianaranja,2018/11/30,"DAE get comments from people at grocery stores? Has this happened to anyone else? I went shopping at my favorite grocery store earlier today, Trader Joe’s. There’s a couple of things there that are staple “safe foods” for me. One is this black bean enchilada frozen meal. I know it sounds weird but it’s about the only thing I feel safe eating for dinner, so I end up eating it about 5x a week. So, when I go to Trader Joe’s it makes sense for me to stock up- right? The cashier checking me out was making comments asking me what my plan was for the rest of the day. I told him I was heading home since I had finished work and working out. He replies “You gonna eat an enchilada tonight? Or six?”

Im probably being way over sensitive about it but it made me feel so vulnerable. I know my safe foods are keeping me sane right now. I know that my grocery basket doesn’t look “normal”. I know he was probably trying to just make small talk but in that moment I felt like my eating disorder was exposed and this shame flooded over me. 

Has this kind of thing happened to anyone else? Any tips to help cope? Especially with feelings of shame around food choices ",2.0980263157894754,4.5267830131579005,3.0202631578947354,90.32934210526315,80.71052631578947,5.378947368421053,22.657894736842106,6.6274283507984215,0.5878736842105257,909,30,181,9,24,288,138,228,0.077,0.8390000000000001,0.084,0.366,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,3,12,8,0,2,7,0,13,10,1,4,0,28,35,10,0,1,5,0,4,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,17,6,9,4,8,1,4,2,1,3,0,2,10,7,26,5,29,23,1,25,0,0,2,0,10,13,0,1,10,109,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177073334417168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759186746034916,0.21627614579837948,0.0,0.09395286349181467,0.09866553522734402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677786303030332,0.0,0.06806448754651655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095783899429068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319745560860681,0.17633004406550906,0.0,0.0934770023495233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600923940324665,0.0,0.1013348297720401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828577032163363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05514022809641392,0.0,0.059980742484397824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665712381473096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831435883906193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074115276614193,0.0,0.10586509868116586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400117450666765,0.0,0.0,0.09380868915482517,0.0,0.10990353771625387,0.2320078182785581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051561451345124784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862691314951003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986438049774099,0.21134605600480424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340666814998598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07151654992381619,0.08026782988261642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316805982805417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275796688928025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026095123998245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730367427946667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482895283271143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21034800774422835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003945996976288,0.1008478722892182,0.0,0.07165464653455347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377263939667164,0.08465772074684215,0.0,0.0,0.09783652043090482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366857029400233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kernalmustache,2018/11/30,"Feel like I've gotten worse since r/ProED was shut down At the very least ProED was constantly filled with reminders of why I shouldn't just give in to my anorexia, but now that I don't see how people are suffering every day it's like all I can focus on is how good I think I'll look if I lose even more weight. Maybe it was just really bad timing with me getting really sick right before the subreddit was deleted or maybe I just wasn't better and my improvement was just a fear response that forced me to be healthier. Either way, the timing for this literally couldn't be worse.",7.003841807909608,5.915186559322038,6.98,80.04790960451977,64.76271186440678,10.578531073446328,28.98870056497175,9.725611199111238,2.273859887005649,466,11,96,8,6,149,84,118,0.256,0.6509999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.9765,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,0,1,4,0,14,2,0,2,1,18,21,6,0,3,8,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,7,4,10,4,10,10,4,13,0,2,2,0,1,6,0,2,7,59,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536906811949224,0.0,0.0,0.15662993087414875,0.0,0.0,0.16279487176349072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19891417414076068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187098603258433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157643555570788,0.0,0.1550868329494472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20712981642549988,0.09307127411993373,0.1314995761622377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616892760981988,0.17657662450217418,0.0,0.1543891022975232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985451468196018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15457236012977854,0.20592713926435605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698459183929469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276108948380055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358397877018763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719469223416732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667988183896702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226452667502402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794456203549693,0.0,0.0,0.21466528249077252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187694812024596,0.0,0.14610612200833475,0.0,0.22414755429273409,0.0,0.0,0.16609445807462894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751659153179163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anmosquitebebe,2018/11/30,I wanna eat poison so bad rn So then I’ll either throw up or die...no downside🙃fml,-4.3580000000000005,-4.382100799999998,0.13000000000000256,101.255,132.0,1.6,9.0,3.1291,-2.1737,64,1,16,0,5,24,18,20,0.381,0.619,0.0,-0.8398,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.497094824000383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6178823414655094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6091946717241771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeeanddietcokee,2019/04/15,"normal people just ... eat you know what I think is so odd but amazing and I'm very jealous of? people without eating disorders don't think about food 24/7. they eat when they're hungry, stop when they're full, and thats its. they don't think when their next meal will be, obsess about how much they will eat, will they be satisfied, how much weight they'll gain after. they don't ""feel"" the food inside of them turning into fat. they just eat, enjoy, and move on. I wonder how much of my time my ED has taken from me without me realizing it.",2.2550458715596307,4.248960422018349,3.0591651376146807,92.5439770642202,77.80733944954126,5.460917431192661,18.239449541284404,6.2581,-0.2380245871559632,422,8,89,3,10,133,69,109,0.096,0.755,0.149,0.8577,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,9,1,11,4,1,1,1,0,11,10,1,3,0,21,20,11,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,4,4,10,1,7,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,2,16,2,11,13,4,11,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,1,7,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196757716728101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783988457479184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704499530940405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32067348447675664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287180872445043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409295593120885,0.2924220159154493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101834650557546,0.0,0.12991684501271675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385204085243104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085697641490293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548882891057139,0.0,0.0,0.07731834013113212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422739100743456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940635948753616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146734713017213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25563743057496024,0.14379572169109625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twdawydhfthaa,2019/04/15,"[Rant] I sent a pic to the guy I'm currently seeing... I sent a racy pic to the guy I'm currently seeing while he's out of town (haven't seen him in about three weeks). I carefully posed it to look skinnier because I'm currently feeling shitty about my body.

His response? ""Have you lost weight bc you look great"".

I absolutely haven't and now I am terrified of seeing him again because he's definitely going to realise I'm still as fat as ever because I'm trapped in a bulimic downward spiral where I can never fully purge all of the shit that I binge in the middle of the night and I constantly gain wait while craving the ecstasy of restriction and weight loss.

FML. 

I replied like ""oh, not much"" and he responded ""it's nice you're looking after yourself better"".

Someone please kill me.",3.41,5.252993333333336,4.672051282051285,82.93961538461541,74.0,7.876923076923077,28.66666666666667,8.617729084823388,2.2661435897435904,624,26,120,12,13,206,95,156,0.13699999999999998,0.713,0.15,0.0516,3,1,0,0,0,1,22.0,0,2,0,4,7,9,2,0,9,0,5,5,3,0,3,12,24,8,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,5,3,2,1,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,4,10,16,5,18,20,2,25,0,2,7,0,13,8,1,0,15,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28552685781063075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808461701922173,0.0,0.173425634646085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591853091750557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872145454204426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122885068198934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894420200786845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873248251212912,0.0,0.0,0.1721342748317501,0.0,0.3091872094915225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273511245190634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627740821933597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39333054387523575,0.0,0.17043473311096466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477378035175202,0.0,0.12041735998281895,0.0,0.0,0.1465177677831021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138425194840254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732470517422181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16026557250940718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228874870548551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468590844046995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523835842211975,0.3802494372829343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,illbecountingclouds,2019/04/15,"I blurted to my coworker “No me gusta comer” when she offered me food because I didn’t know how to tell her I don’t like mushrooms I work at a restaurant and I told the Spanish prep cook I don’t like to eat. I asked my super chill manager how to explain I have an eating disorder to a Spanish woman and he said “you don’t, because she will not stop feeding you if you tell her”.

F u c k my life, guys.",-0.4914772727272734,1.4833000795454545,2.457909090909091,93.11436363636366,87.97727272727272,4.883636363636365,23.572727272727274,6.2581,0.5709054545454548,309,13,70,3,10,109,58,88,0.061,0.8029999999999999,0.135,0.7085,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,2,3,3,0,0,4,0,6,6,0,2,0,9,11,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,2,5,1,2,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,20,3,6,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,17,1,0,1,4,44,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935898379718108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28607167684526424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26892053626378426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801955385481827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837305398247557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323328814578893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895333495459813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657348770434837,0.22926886362320775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319866941025213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196171565683788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101756263038744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22421088308595094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17082247282998622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doubleflipheart,2019/04/15,Any other human yo-yo's here? So last semester I upped my restriction to 1200 calories. My maintenance for my h/gw would be 1400. I'm convinced that I can lose weight just doing that and technically it won't be an eating disorder because it's not as crazy as eating like 800 cal or less a day. But it's spiraled out of control because I had E X T R E ME hunger for months and ended up gaining like 8 pounds binging on candy and chips and shit which is crazy because I spent all summer shedding it and now I'm back to square one after almost a year. Now I'm trying to do it again but really stick to eating healthy foods. I feel like this is just a rollercoaster of ups and downs that will never end. I either get obsessive and eat like a mouse or eat everything I can get my hands on. It's so frustrating.,3.9770252824098975,4.4011200000000015,5.343830016137709,84.1142818719742,70.89349112426034,8.51231845077999,27.197955890263586,8.575989854853784,1.761551479289941,636,20,135,10,11,214,109,169,0.10099999999999999,0.774,0.125,0.4261,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,9,9,2,1,5,0,12,10,2,1,2,23,19,15,0,1,8,0,3,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,12,8,8,2,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,2,4,12,5,18,12,3,20,0,1,1,0,1,7,1,3,17,85,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367962586886322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290021593634587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504548456439834,0.0,0.2498305309478703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322093745365528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810284214800491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565681279565174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6989361761666771,0.0,0.0,0.2419937291628143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277722593030835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907466447854205,0.0975949796364894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651906547623399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274729707362555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113562597734043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26696508399784785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15283284972956945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090416571218856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536288323461668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257120028416872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751655309459566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022930585130705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274995288094168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635548672627776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704458847505054,0.0,0.0,0.08797305365475226
EDAnonymous,fuckoreos,2019/04/15,"Breakfast rant Ok so I wanted to post this in the daily thread, but this rant got kind of long. 

So to preface this, I have the most shitty sleep ever. I have sleeping pills (recently got it, don’t remember what it was, but it’s definitely not melatonin) prescribed to me but don’t want to get addicted, so I never take more than 2 in a week. I’m always constantly tired and never really get a full cycle of sleep. I know it’s not 100% accurate but my vivosmart HR tracks my sleep and I think it gives a good estimate of my sleep, just based on how I feel the next day. 

My mom usually wakes me up for work, but recently she’s been waking me up earlier than usual. I usually grab like a bite or two of something then head out the door, as a way to kind of skip breakfast. But with all this extra time, she’s been preparing me things to eat now. I didn’t realize this until yesterday and it makes me so mad. 

My parents are super traditional and always nag me to eat breakfast every single fucking morning, saying the same thing each time. (You have to eat breakfast, it’s healthy. Everyone eats breakfast, it’s not good for you if you don’t). 
But I’m like why???? Why is more food better than more sleep?? They know I have prescribed sleeping pills too!! I’m so fucking tired each day, I’d rather get more sleep than eat stupid fucking food. And it’s not even like I’m getting a full meal either, my mom will heat up like a bun or two to eat. Like that’s sooo much healthier than what I’ve been doing before??? Like I still have at least 20lbs of fat reserves if I’m really dying for energy. Like my body is not at the point that it’ll shut down if I skip that days breakfast??

I’m like super stressed bc of lack of sleep and my calorie intake bc of this. And can someone confirm this for me, but does sleep help you lose weight better? 

But I really fucking don’t understand their logic here. Ugh. ☹️",2.210382579767128,3.9838025809768634,3.614475275971572,89.52657606230154,77.17480719794345,6.838681385150462,23.009299863904427,7.724431198458867,0.9763451686072888,1480,45,316,22,34,486,187,389,0.10400000000000001,0.73,0.166,0.9789,1,0,1,0,0,0,52.0,0,4,2,6,15,27,7,1,13,1,21,40,15,2,4,52,47,30,1,7,22,3,3,8,0,2,6,1,1,0,24,11,17,0,8,0,0,0,12,10,0,2,7,4,36,17,40,38,17,38,0,1,0,4,14,14,4,6,30,196,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663140433995815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123142248830083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051762134215586064,0.0,0.0,0.10759897491880603,0.0,0.06756878831030304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573598112310645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176915999759392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313228324452651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05323303556904692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734677104556218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0401778621721,0.055024520074628734,0.05125218032975837,0.058125991353791824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03075764482385233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711256365141026,0.0,0.0,0.22494665581389944,0.12712535619537998,0.058353999684521374,0.0,0.1020431968519398,0.09730315076615677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242947265476339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04077329090543084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669086492425846,0.0668615218801862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23774902986395285,0.0,0.0,0.05383293173230863,0.0,0.06805358440589435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04060472057279298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424875049221734,0.0,0.0,0.044717295018045465,0.0,0.09383220793360753,0.0,0.06469375074826868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675448875756282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057504328117481025,0.0,0.058258645305577214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690840961497223,0.0,0.1201252332038415,0.0,0.06890891071954555,0.0,0.0,0.04837472347228345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6087426534826134,0.0,0.05154134494221157,0.04683016332871938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0485791836361726,0.0,0.0696809425404009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0457368410464777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082594242784387,0.038977622067555465,0.0,0.0,0.07094131435607998,0.13983104179718728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884479544712825,0.06332652341595046,0.0,0.0,0.20098805791731525,0.0,0.07175861458720646,0.04828428803426373,0.04879442503308778,0.0740749595217423,0.0,0.0,0.10977983050036508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0442852079349902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberriesnsugaa,2019/04/15,Has anyone else tried those Bang drinks? currently drinking the rainbow unicorn kind and it’s sooo good. this and bubly sparkling water are gonna be my meals 😩,1.9800000000000004,4.747337000000002,1.3033333333333346,96.40500000000002,95.66666666666666,3.733333333333334,22.66666666666667,5.6839178017228535,0.3188666666666671,130,5,24,1,5,37,29,30,0.0,0.738,0.262,0.8176,1,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423526787794783,0.35513544338355696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6790774196431076,0.0,0.0,0.28954209512973444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29071391473121383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36093339329866825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353204933776046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dkaspa,2019/04/15,I binge but how do I purge I always binge and took my first lax (wish me luck hasn’t kicked in) but I want to purge until I can start fasting again. I love the feeling of being hungry but I binge and it takes me a few days to feel hungry again,-0.5322222222222202,1.3823128148148172,1.2496296296296308,102.13333333333335,87.51851851851852,3.6,12.703703703703706,3.1291,-1.7359407407407408,188,2,47,0,6,61,38,54,0.0,0.759,0.24100000000000002,0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,11,12,7,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,10,2,5,10,1,9,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,7,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010358680920814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23332276411834066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658608792575791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30773594158965106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265270031793889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560747874220781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27201889116607353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4019588049854177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21339141843868975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4160373361498334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Missyxmoo,2019/04/15,"A goodbye letter to my Eating Disorder (ED) ED,

First and foremost, thank you for being there when no-one else was.

You told me that I only needed you and I believed you.  I pushed away my family, friends and loved ones because I was convinced that you would be the one to solve my problems, not them.  
For 15 years I've drowned in the life that you've created for me.

Starving, Bingeing, Purging.  You made it seem so fulfilling.

Hospitals, ICU's, Treatment centers. You told me that I didn't need their help. I fought getting better because you told me that I needed you. You told me that I would be nothing without you.

You told me that my body was the cause of all of my problems.

After I was raped,

You told me that I needed to punish myself.

You told me that being in control of my body would fix my problems.

You told me that I was unloveable.

I believed you.

I spent years fighting anyone and anything that would help me get better.

Because I was loyal to you.

I chose you... over relationships, family, friends, school, college, birthday parties, dinners, celebrations, work.

I chose you over everything.

Now... I choose me.

I choose the things that once made me happy, the very things that you took the joy out of.

I choose treatment.

Im choosing to let go of you once and for all so that I can finally help myself.

The 14 year old girl in me is scared, but the 29 year old woman in me is confident.

Im not sure who I am without you, but im excited to find out.

  
This is my goodbye to you, to who I once was.

I have to let you go in order to finally be free.

Goodbye ED, I'm finding me.

​

\-I'm no longer a slave to you anymore.",1.7595913261050846,3.977517486238536,3.0335668612732865,90.96259382819021,80.55963302752293,5.55385043091465,24.893800389213233,6.714681859716394,0.8945828746177376,1266,49,260,13,33,409,142,327,0.09699999999999999,0.789,0.113,0.8031,0,0,0,0,2,0,66.0,0,25,2,5,6,22,4,1,10,0,25,7,2,4,3,38,51,10,1,11,6,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,20,7,2,1,7,0,2,4,6,9,0,3,21,0,75,14,33,19,2,28,0,0,0,2,49,11,0,1,12,183,95,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787662515220686,0.08733609604980376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128077144288189,0.05025673098771427,0.0,0.059147071244257186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752900884684615,0.0,0.0,0.13144315507210105,0.0,0.0,0.1619572168485386,0.0,0.12713534458441034,0.0,0.15967403391089438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07383551175187633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061402009434902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08237507499286087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354615614097826,0.06004241115814071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645966923500127,0.0,0.13551486785437794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747128596268076,0.13138505211101711,0.06113691104190715,0.0,0.0,0.11106102558685182,0.0,0.07510353131854391,0.0,0.08169653494740367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651236506784788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14452906432465504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329122786255521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699428929893166,0.05076749851486938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487007088947119,0.13601988760737202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213177860804502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06896608305626467,0.0,0.15084162316441382,0.2296338610494076,0.09740883620586356,0.0546642413676622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20632424975493305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771669433688147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195949933439932,0.07274142379295616,0.0,0.06543237843510719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774141751363043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617292204184783,0.0,0.0,0.09550122619363023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.549437794971646,0.07985586466098768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059304472937415975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857003518200786,0.0,0.0523259183003908,0.0,0.0,0.20423199427928898,0.0,0.08733609604980376,0.18514079427899385
EDAnonymous,wingsinallblack,2019/04/15,"Hey y'all Been lurking here for a bit, finally got up the nerve to introduce myself.

I'm 27 years old and a teacher in the Midwestern US. I have a beautiful family with 2 sons, one born just 2 weeks ago.

I've struggled with eating ever since my dad died when I was a teenager. I used food as a way to cope and then panicked when I put on weight and swung the other direction into extreme restriction. I struggled all through high school and college. Getting married helped me recover a lot because it finally held me accountable to someone else's standards of health. However, since having kids, my obsession with weight loss has resurged. Breastfeeding shaved so much weight off me that I actually weighed less than I did in high school within 1 year of having my first son. That triggered me to try to lose even more, just to see how low I could go. Thankfully I fell pregnant with my second before things could get too out of hand. But now the desire is starting to build again.

Well, that's me. I'm happy to be here to offer support and to talk to like-minded people. Please feel free to message me anytime.",5.058620155038764,6.2560303348837225,5.367441860465117,82.10992248062018,68.90697674418604,8.524031007751939,31.077519379844965,8.841846274778883,2.5185100775193803,882,36,166,15,15,280,149,215,0.11,0.77,0.12,0.6369,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,0,3,14,11,0,3,10,0,11,8,1,3,2,27,24,12,1,3,3,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,11,6,2,1,0,2,3,0,6,1,3,5,6,22,6,31,16,6,31,0,3,1,0,11,11,0,1,16,109,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.11495282165545627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441988042011162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180792166483738,0.0,0.10023652033330636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286037500429778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18810254375968516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222546266498913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205356783171634,0.09840422853468582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780376832587843,0.10655407681451802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104847197980933,0.0,0.05956167259159029,0.0,0.0,0.258081581212808,0.0,0.10019801753509204,0.14244052820844896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308807919399994,0.0,0.06694671599948124,0.0,0.09421297438823367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539703374062444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521263947116762,0.0,0.0,0.07895680626065467,0.24891787058218065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05754963504529871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317846452900276,0.0,0.10014674647696856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894132991726145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659430526296015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236080736274814,0.0,0.07982225558908085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08166556662442041,0.0,0.0,0.1293056670696087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841846108042485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384335856202531,0.09386891047185683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488569316123389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09980896554204133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337728088526665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24629387763772656,0.0,0.0,0.13367457228577614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468071882074727,0.0,0.10845159642678788,0.0,0.0,0.07825905311288074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997639030293377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416952156398399,0.10173873530156707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350172848685158,0.09448960038259738,0.4303348170710217,0.10591359648270357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517147353005096
EDAnonymous,maeian,2019/04/15,"What do you guys do to distract yourself from food? When I'm fasting or restricting I try to keep busy but often I find myself just sitting around watching Netflix, bored out of my mind. I want to binge in those moments, just for something to do.

I mainly like to watch YouTube videos, but that gets boring after a while. I like to play Sims but I can't play when my boyfriend is working, since he works from home and uses the computer. I play stardew valley and browse Reddit. I'll go to the grocery store and walk around for a while. 

What do you guys do to keep busy? I also have a job but I only work 30 hours a week.",1.8115879265091863,3.8117985511811017,2.5674212598425217,95.50551509186351,79.23622047244095,4.863254593175854,22.394356955380573,5.46131890053228,0.027604199475065986,484,15,105,2,12,151,82,127,0.071,0.7909999999999999,0.138,0.8628,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,3,8,8,0,1,6,0,8,1,0,1,0,21,15,13,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,6,1,3,1,5,1,2,1,3,0,0,0,2,14,5,18,15,1,16,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,2,11,67,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523766772147314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33924624168024425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17415228880516515,0.0,0.23040460944508284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955053231948346,0.0,0.108289628994625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773338382721755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19112954899891166,0.0,0.18764586833422411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908391689727644,0.3387256550780626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617877022914034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19239349229568392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491607069474358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761863068050924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668883777418412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936577253918075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456744346166924,0.0,0.0,0.1123868360248444,0.0,0.1528416086811657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4161513789930295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vickythescout11,2019/04/15,"Told the doctors I think I have an eating disorder As the title says...
I told her and she asked if I’d lost weight and I said no because I stay around the same three kilos. She asked to weigh me and I said okay. She said I was a healthy weight for my height, which I already knew. She said I was fine because I wasn’t underweight so it wasn’t really serious. 
I’ve been making myself throw up on and off for around six years. I had a stomach ulcer that I’m pretty sure I caused from constantly vomiting. I’ve been so underweight they wanted to make me an inpatient. I ‘recovered’ (aka put on weight) because I needed to do well in my A Levels and I needed my brain function back, but the thoughts are always there. Recently it’s been getting worse and I’ve been throwing up more and getting intense stomach pain again. 
I’m currently crying in the toilets on campus as I don’t know what to do. I know I’m not skinny enough to have a bad eating disorder and I’m hesitant to even say I have one. I really feel like I do. I feel like my relationship with food is fucked. But then again if I’m not skinny enough then does it really matter? I dunno what the point of this post is, I’m just feeling really lost and let down right now. This was the first time I’ve ever said anything about my eating to a doctor and I feel like I’ve just been dismissed. Sorry this is so long and pointless.",1.2214918414918436,3.4226218251748257,3.0224055944055976,90.373351981352,82.4965034965035,6.190955710955713,20.72214452214452,7.42949916751922,0.7020502564102569,1086,32,229,17,30,361,143,286,0.14300000000000002,0.765,0.092,-0.9599,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,3,16,13,1,0,14,1,23,19,5,3,2,42,57,22,0,5,8,0,7,3,0,0,5,7,0,0,10,14,10,0,9,0,0,3,6,6,1,4,22,14,37,7,26,34,4,34,0,2,0,1,18,15,1,3,17,151,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506172484612653,0.0,0.07167846661531051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070888932487085,0.1533723288569366,0.16106547851042602,0.0,0.0,0.0662391947935309,0.07192639868818325,0.1575372161254784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616486854309858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849331839463366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309074618410723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946248192057724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19745630703073766,0.17634347251667726,0.07538494015153323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644395599487251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801895787216082,0.0,0.05689710727339115,0.07792191650074996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422739015067126,0.1846232485047644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327379476527295,0.10416531471341324,0.0,0.0,0.07963847075667509,0.09001306487679832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468465909370474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808777874281266,0.0,0.12625639461325805,0.0,0.0,0.07623447157278689,0.0,0.0,0.18807206853512745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500318918613693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277489372204446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0583732065525851,0.0,0.091662979829485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814336489972978,0.0,0.08250186078480988,0.0876391211515092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659822047464767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22074346297245867,0.0,0.08505652006276049,0.0924861049521154,0.0,0.07356625670076422,0.4097119692701028,0.13700986971051102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964308293998357,0.0,0.091817731878996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118942614879585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0551974103186458,0.0,0.068388482503644,0.050231089396241456,0.0,0.0,0.1646280108813485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050809791402906,0.0,0.0,0.31469949049011753,0.0774535397250505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778779880983814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0554737241851311
EDAnonymous,cattivity,2019/04/15,"Anyone else feel so shallow? I really feel terrible for putting so much value into my physical appearance. 

Because as far as I can tell that's all my ED is centered on. 

I'm putting all my energy into looking perfect and I feel terrible about it. 

I want to spend time on other things but right now this just feels so important. I can't stop thinking about how perfect everything will be when I'm skinny. 

Maybe not perfect, but better at least? 

I just hate my body and my looks so much, since I was a kid I've just wanted to be beautiful. I think I'm addicted to the attention? Idk I wish I had a nice personality but instead I substitute real connection with shallow interactions and basking in compliments to feed my ego. Somehow that feels like enough. 

I hate it. I'm such a vapid human being and I wish I could change it. I'm disgusted with myself.",2.435283613445378,4.829646386904763,4.418879551820731,80.98298319327729,79.17857142857143,8.000560224089638,27.14425770308124,8.841846274778883,2.521734173669468,675,29,126,17,17,230,104,168,0.124,0.635,0.24100000000000002,0.9701,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,15,12,3,0,4,0,10,4,2,1,5,38,31,15,0,5,7,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,8,8,2,1,8,0,1,3,2,5,0,0,2,7,21,7,17,24,6,16,0,0,2,0,5,9,0,2,5,87,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625679614755312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427147477919917,0.15279590312126526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090504800474357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318887004371498,0.0,0.16564395129383694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577541854186626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906395822246554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245745721560932,0.0,0.0,0.15408570408753686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340236868737168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770097073309855,0.1065347330674518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944595843569253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285480787017566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504544213239959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498158296094719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192476622177877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302099575323412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29982307354357435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973658417842682,0.09553311715052888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735170002469062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335751322082085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467494714827212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303415822591132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990718407536898,0.1911062042923524,0.0,0.0,0.08695582615714502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591525254248172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429721475745614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,el3ctraheart,2019/04/15,"When is the actual best time to weigh yourself? Like, straight in the morning after you've used the bathroom or a few hours later?

Sometimes after waking up I can't go #1 full way and #2 at all. When I come home 3-4-5 hours later after classes and stuff (after not drinking or eating anything, I find it much easier to get stuff out. Am I just delusional and trying to convince myself I weigh myself less than I actually do after binging or what haha ~~I fucking hate myself~~",3.285,5.200533617021278,4.935053191489363,80.60875000000001,74.53191489361703,6.402127659574468,26.643617021276608,7.1686216300943375,1.5487489361702125,376,14,66,4,8,127,71,94,0.040999999999999995,0.7859999999999999,0.17300000000000001,0.8949,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,0,4,1,4,6,1,1,1,13,10,8,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,10,4,13,10,6,21,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,3,13,51,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.3852990752201509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245654640084795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20717591155159432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17005640289577115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19339252215124755,0.0,0.20200585213052166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804346467681076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250791013295972,0.1031417115323628,0.0,0.11219606179367696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19490742804046515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19802434350517426,0.0,0.3888299855565996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964474853373827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512347438131076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19524947111383176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451988175419181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511485670562682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403250472409606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17050403835781303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669963119935107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietpepsi4life,2019/04/15,"Psychologist with an ed? I’m starting a new job, so idk if i’ll be working with ed-patients, but I’m worried. How would you react if your psychologist was visibly underweight? I don’t want to trigger anyone. 
Also, how do you hide your body effectively?",1.2944897959183663,3.97183355102041,3.9971428571428578,78.87285714285716,91.04081632653059,6.881632653061224,27.40816326530612,7.957251820313856,2.5143795918367338,200,10,36,5,7,70,37,49,0.139,0.753,0.10800000000000001,0.1423,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,5,0,12,9,7,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,3,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,22,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981415628677977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26068226469387457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141155617828973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3699632747436543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3600689125230766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26388174073011983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198970836658632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714151640318003,0.3786136876546993,0.0,0.2648384492252711,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EFFY-here,2019/04/15,"My ED isn't valid? Sooo I go back and forth with myself all the time on my ED. Most of the time I can agree with myself that yes, yes I have an ED. Other times I just laugh at myself cause I'm eating 2000+ calories in a day or more for months on end, obviously my brain thinks you can't possibly have an ED if I do that. So here I am currently telling myself my ED isn't valid and I've just made it up. When in all actuality I've suffered from an ED since I was 9🤷 I think I started doubting myself when I would go through moments of I suppose ""recovery"" which should just prove to me that I do have an ED, instead of denying it. So does anyone else do this to themselves? Or am I just shitting on myself once again for no reason.",1.0446091644204856,2.5617972389937123,3.0883423180593006,93.14900943396229,79.75471698113208,5.800718778077267,22.048966756513924,6.5431188927421005,0.26328535489667537,567,17,134,5,14,192,94,159,0.087,0.8370000000000001,0.075,-0.2168,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,13,4,1,1,7,2,15,3,2,3,4,24,22,9,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,0,25,1,18,18,4,22,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,5,13,96,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.20091313374629144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395891485816806,0.21095253955781884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831212604713465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298346898321291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114996328033365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277817993875848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18017051965267508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106707822407484,0.17198970537711492,0.0,0.18235215874678207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340173005199187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948124662532675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643346845250212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925979400613602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321033318176361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21168309342181527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21133701877327785,0.1703094137728075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457257903256398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995173447629928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2638443721146889,0.0,0.0,0.3601579358310361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625412207448088,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rocketsheep3,2019/04/15,My boyfriend has a thing for chubby girls and I have anorexia. Do you see my problem He's always gone on about how he loves my thighs but it was today where he said he legitimately had a thing for Chubby girls. If I was thinking of recovery I sure as hell ain't now.,0.8991666666666696,3.078571535714285,2.5892857142857157,93.12238095238096,83.64285714285714,5.161904761904762,20.047619047619047,6.42735559955562,0.021783333333333488,210,6,47,2,6,69,43,56,0.141,0.769,0.091,-0.6059,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,7,2,1,1,1,7,12,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,2,7,2,6,7,0,5,1,0,1,1,9,2,1,1,2,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29557022065076666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205985352836573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398960997881234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378941064974115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830631280514226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347892014780199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719827312604419,0.22760965067503586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367055722802103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Six_FoxSox,2019/04/15,"Help - is this an ed or am I just overly concerned?? I’ve been having issues with my eating habits since moving to uni. I usually eat 1 meal a day if I’m alone but will eat better round other people. 
I’m on antidepressants and don’t know whether this is just a loss of appetite due to side effects. I’ve spoken about it to my GP a few times but they just increased my dosage of medication in the hopes it would help. 
I have safe foods that I can usually force myself to eat if I know I’ve not eaten enough. I’m at a point where I don’t have an appetite and feel like I’m just eating to show face or because I have to. It’s so frustrating. I have displayed concern but everyone just brushes it off... 
HELP!!",2.7918547895057984,3.7979723221476505,4.264539353264187,88.61388041488712,74.1006711409396,7.028920073215375,24.28370957901159,7.348242739294969,0.8842966442953015,552,16,122,6,11,184,91,149,0.063,0.752,0.185,0.9625,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,8,6,1,0,7,0,14,10,1,1,0,24,23,11,0,4,14,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,3,8,1,4,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,3,13,4,15,19,3,15,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,5,6,77,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457529635553068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578718708027358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446350193429885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075866315832852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7200052964842756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541083705564328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447273903408266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115688953201972,0.10053693691166184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17017025361443971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28298335975627514,0.0,0.0,0.13977580517407792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688467591068202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468212711402402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875315694382575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176981885406625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957282102098848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975638770709096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303453976734358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641261180434853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206030237037537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30998656575479466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996995445333848,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,angelic-rose,2018/12/17,"Where do you gain first? Personally, I’ve eaten like shit for the past few days and my thighs feel fucking GINORMOUS. My arms look huge too. That’s how it always is when I gain. I feel it in my thighs first, then my arms, my stomach, and my face last. I need to stop this before my fucking gap closes.",1.3611827956989266,3.337933935483876,2.523870967741935,95.37247311827957,80.61290322580646,5.423655913978496,18.397849462365595,6.42735559955562,-0.2724279569892469,232,5,53,2,6,74,45,62,0.085,0.746,0.17,0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,4,4,4,3,0,1,0,2,10,7,1,0,8,9,5,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,3,11,1,3,8,1,12,0,0,1,2,2,4,3,0,9,31,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166390335221209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154580966799756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679096196664703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263290045097454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429214192217749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4813942638728431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21222683366584666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719795589284802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863547079491868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930524437795643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485415390227073,0.0,0.22733489963383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26725414115507395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21767126826506916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chaiteathaichi,2018/12/17,"My mom just told me I’m too thin.... I’m not usually the type to go online and rant. But, I need to let this out to people who might understand. 

I was out to lunch with my mom and my brother (I’m an adult and haven’t seen either of them for a few weeks) and my mom looked at me from across the table and told me I was  looking too thin and I need to stop losing weight because I don’t look good. Now, I *might* understand that if I was actually losing weight. But I haven’t lost weight since early spring. And, this is coming from the woman who started telling me in 5th grade that I was fat and needed to lose weight.  This is the same person who put me on diets throughout my childhood and bribed me to lose weight.  I didn’t know what to say. It wasn’t satisfying to hear. It was rude. I wish I’d told her that I was sorry that the way I look is offensive to her and that probably wouldn’t change at any weight.  Why the fuck do people think it’s ok to say shit like that?

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EDAnonymous,erelme,2018/12/17,"Looking for some encouragement I really need some encouragement right now. It’s been two weeks and one day since I worked out (I normally go to pure barre regularly) because I fell into a bad anxiety hole... I’ve been binging for about a week straight and my panic attacks are immobilizing. I feel so disgusting and fat and just awful. I just booked  myself for cycling today at 6 pm to help get back to a good spot with exercising/eating, but I’ve never gone to a cycling class and the studios insta is full of skinny, fit girls. I KNOW I need to go and break this streak but need a push.",4.66,5.678097931034486,6.035689655172416,77.61577586206899,69.6896551724138,9.248275862068963,28.29310344827586,9.516144504307137,2.441210344827587,464,16,91,10,8,157,82,116,0.111,0.779,0.11,-0.0215,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,2,1,6,1,4,2,2,0,2,23,14,9,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,9,2,0,2,1,0,5,1,4,0,2,3,2,10,3,14,11,3,20,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,2,7,55,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932177378738469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369309367708411,0.0,0.16014254643886985,0.17389215974026268,0.1269561072205172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431337433103785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053047897287086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088096063597189,0.0,0.2367230315942581,0.1746823830185719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959530549017155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445672356997788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488972870792946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632764673946331,0.16062642284246634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20405499296622992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14112541630783915,0.0,0.0,0.2443535197002007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341957273307736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785674654949954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227854798670464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974103959221142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20344415618594414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33411444195219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161903768619542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherrybombshelll,2018/12/17,"Does anyone else get food/eating nightmares? I keep getting these nightmares where I go out of control and eat everything, like for example last night I had a dream that I ate a ton, like a whole pack of BIG chocolate donuts dipped in milk. They always feel so realistic and I wake up questioning if it was a dream or not. Does that happen to anyone else or am I just crazy lol 

(idk what flair to put for this so let me know if i should change it) ",1.2353846153846175,3.562658087912088,2.222736263736266,95.33476373626374,83.50549450549453,5.398241758241759,18.99010989010989,6.742157984588678,0.012893626373626343,350,9,77,4,10,110,67,91,0.043,0.8220000000000001,0.135,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,4,1,5,4,1,1,0,15,13,8,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,3,2,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,9,2,9,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,5,4,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677366721363355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24667711617219226,0.36147232811939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18660111792593492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784050423795374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087265852966068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3609895300759078,0.29470856025506154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15853126009189486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918994151589574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21329593054777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431682837205696,0.0,0.1002485898207982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598434320232274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678680208326934,0.0,0.0,0.09694135003361888,0.143784387106276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18037448250914656,0.0,0.1723540780712078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655335136367833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732436244002853,0.19760128425741705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969372374291183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AbleBadger,2018/12/17,"Anyone want to recover for their children? I'm 30 and have had disordered eating since I was about 8. Right now I've been in a binge, restrict, take laxatives, over exercise, take ephedra and too much caffeine cycle for months. Prior to this I was heavily restricting without binges for almost a year.

I have a daughter who is about to turn 3. I never cared about my mental or physical health, but the older my daughter gets the more I realize how I need to be a good role model for her.


I don't even know where to begin. People always say see your GP or therapist. No one seems to want to admit that millions of people are in my situation. That they make too much money for subsidized healthcare and not enough for ""regular"" insurance or to just pay out of pocket. At least where I am, low-income clinics and places with a sliding scale wouldn't even consider accepting me with my family income.


I'm currently about five pounds overweight. I need to lose weight for my health, and also gain muscle, and increase my cardiovascular endurance. I'm so weak, tired, and get winded incredibly easily. 


But, like I said, I have no idea where to begin. I have no idea what health weight loss or exercise looks like when you have an ED. I have no idea what a ""normal"" healthy meal looks like. But I need to do it for my daughter.",4.520706589307913,6.037805720472442,5.279589722337342,81.02117074181518,70.53543307086613,8.65445503522586,27.147948611686697,9.134995656068208,2.2239007874015746,1039,35,196,21,19,337,153,254,0.145,0.731,0.124,-0.5783,3,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,2,3,17,9,0,0,9,0,17,13,0,2,1,41,41,18,0,7,10,3,2,3,0,1,9,2,0,1,7,10,5,2,8,2,2,2,9,3,0,3,5,7,27,6,33,34,6,22,0,2,3,0,14,10,0,6,13,134,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159551624677336,0.0,0.0,0.09260377246052702,0.09635337230488318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096878842387599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806397448637553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327147605388096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849045966447674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196504873439899,0.0,0.15296722765028936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916422982498572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099955205410586,0.0,0.0,0.0971260296040168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36926419000278143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39216619194669866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363965804527942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16971944253959542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19448263384543898,0.12954855703426935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07729619247695986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166973417057253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242901222977566,0.0,0.17024999034618835,0.2575886767140768,0.08931070455184961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345764206559035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846785191118606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16055977222985685,0.0,0.12098446445351248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889102342280397,0.11015059829535126,0.09208737023149846,0.0,0.0,0.0922761667358548,0.10541832509715604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578946120808708,0.1301620197797233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17413165853358736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445062628171073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330929873243769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259551808187284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660154796704133,0.0,0.0,0.2820220037545138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11162532500655327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457023917984637
EDAnonymous,throwaway247648,2018/12/17,"I don't think I'm ok... I think there's something actually wrong with me now. I was in a horrible abusive relationship for over a year. Because of what happened I developed an even worse body image. I was binge eating for years and became obese. Because he wouldn't let me outside or let me eat I lost over 50 pounds in about 5 months. I was happy with the weight loss but became terrified of gaining it back. I started intermittent fasting and tracking calories that lasted for about 3 months. But just these past few weeks I haven't been hungry at all. I've only been eating 500-600 calories a day. I actually feel dizzy and nauseous all the time now. I eat when I'm around others when I have too, but even the smell of foods make me sick. Am I developing a real problem? ",2.7570779220779222,4.837943019480523,4.024675324675325,85.79987012987014,76.59740259740259,6.477922077922077,25.285714285714285,7.447530270364453,1.2529662337662342,611,22,121,8,14,200,99,154,0.188,0.7709999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.9640000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,13,6,0,0,8,1,12,9,1,1,2,20,21,9,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,7,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,3,17,2,16,12,3,22,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,1,16,78,22,0,0.0,0.15998937782780984,0.2635410992311609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020601030958873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383032443456196,0.0,0.16462700381359524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998874099888554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708367353216698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526807381116784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837309544593788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827561272868134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327973875941834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940726081002576,0.1437427617539588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006809695854873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761562145824693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740203254243495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013408512456796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21556053899502506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10269698259104906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890214560921806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920620717225914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369457419675078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497250929452624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039532810058659,0.0,0.0,0.09557547148024036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304452565272893,0.0,0.0,0.07873752579526523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083135359016255,0.16443109601412514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760788699550658,0.0,0.14763494560875526,0.0,0.17391077284949402
EDAnonymous,plumcove,2018/12/17,"My Keto fails I am so sorry I tried Keto, they sell it so well. It works for most people, it seems, but not me. I’m angry at that sub, honestly. Heavy people with their food-porn, losing weight eating dripping cheeseburger patties and bacon-wrapped pork rind crusted chicken tenders. I guess those people who were fat and lost it on Keto, didn’t have eating disorders, but how can people get that big without having something wrong? 

My background: binging/purging, food addiction, and grazing. I’m 35, 180lbs, 5’6. I purge now by running and weightlifting, and taking weird supplements, and doing experimental diets.

My boyfriend decided to do Keto at the end of October, so I said I’d try it with him.

I did my research and filled my head with ideas that maybe if I just cut down carbs to below 20g, and allow myself the fat and grease and burgers, maybe it will work. Maybe it will cut down my appetite eventually. I genuinely was intrigued. I made sure I knew what I was doing.

Too good to be true, I was continually hungry as usual, still a food addict, and made excuses to eat a ton of butter, eggs, bacon, cheese, hamburgers, olives, etc. 

I don’t even want to check the scale now, last I looked 2 weeks ago I was 186.

I feel defeated, fatter than ever, and I don’t even have the motivation to exercise, because now I’m in a deeper rut then where I started. I will most likely be trying Keto combined with fasting to lose the 2 months of screw-up. Yes I know this seems like a bad idea. Whatever.

One small plus I noticed though was that I don’t crave bread or sugar as much. Just fat. And meat. Not sure what’s better lol. The latter is also more expensive though, and my budget did suffer from this diet.

Happy Holidays and thanks for listening.",3.1529616157748634,5.380769264094955,4.266294630037333,83.83776299416101,75.94362017804154,6.722274337130277,23.927347563893946,7.717688229018142,1.3197771417631854,1370,44,254,20,31,446,209,337,0.10300000000000001,0.736,0.161,0.9666,0,0,1,0,0,0,60.0,0,0,2,9,19,23,2,0,10,2,26,19,4,6,4,51,46,30,0,2,9,0,3,2,0,3,7,2,0,0,17,20,14,0,9,3,4,2,7,11,1,1,14,9,34,12,30,27,6,27,0,6,1,0,7,10,0,7,17,165,51,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21050164235049867,0.0,0.0,0.0855833669002615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07720885065447973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061297287146323,0.05885434537428715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538825177331039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065158420466874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29637601021432003,0.0,0.0,0.085512261815181,0.0,0.10767577419017224,0.12753717824741173,0.08733257128859097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0488172219513242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35023617930085643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05044198576136083,0.0,0.0,0.08097930478540283,0.0,0.0,0.10635774918681502,0.0,0.0,0.1027764090865721,0.0,0.0,0.09908539617858812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179803273036577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05305987783396804,0.07869894541024243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433627985862583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107542615427972,0.2160234929268308,0.10539279621400677,0.0,0.0,0.1827108023683268,0.0,0.0,0.2909842557228872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770631434527329,0.0,0.07097338331528844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991975480787207,0.0,0.0,0.06542295738514363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677349992517086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183860297821568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578609385791738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432683777731865,0.0,0.10807681152064648,0.06833668447465081,0.0,0.07710280820793182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198939824462002,0.0,0.07259156328467838,0.0,0.0,0.08888779349842273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971448800364696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664786227823136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10633322424507498,0.0,0.05694610616783299,0.0,0.07744443017237346,0.11756861621615332,0.08680762849982755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306816362543342,0.0,0.1405751862539512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555932959832227,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oiyouz,2018/12/17,"I finished nursing school and I’m embarrassed about it. So I finished an 18 month nursing diploma like two weeks ago and every time someone says they’re proud of me I just feel so, so ashamed.

In 18 months I gained 15kgs (33lbs). I was either working or in class every day without a day off that whole time and I was so, so depressed. My BED completely took over and the only thing that made me feel happy was eating.

I just feel like my shame over my body is so much stronger than my pride over becoming a nurse. 

I’ve already started my weight loss (Dr prescribed me phentermine so I can recalibrate my hunger cues/emotions around eating) and I just really, really want to be skinny. That’s all. 

This post has like no real point 🙃 but just needed to share because I have no one else that could understand. ",3.2019077757685364,5.283013512658228,3.6734538878842713,88.82683544303802,75.26582278481013,6.53960216998192,25.20976491862568,7.447530270364453,1.1899461121157322,637,22,126,8,14,199,104,158,0.106,0.7709999999999999,0.122,0.1307,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,13,12,0,3,4,0,9,7,2,1,1,24,19,14,0,3,8,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,7,6,5,0,4,0,0,1,3,5,0,2,5,5,19,7,13,12,4,21,0,2,0,0,2,8,0,1,14,78,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127554034844379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15879146103924666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809685613008912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771691851482885,0.1589204724045931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159834654917707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087093259834905,0.0,0.0,0.11488826804104453,0.0,0.0,0.1856004499442206,0.0,0.1239363578078183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29448055389837585,0.12020561932122285,0.16186225279829106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24247510608497636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182725635359164,0.10279845514177696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531786624039526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108991541931172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13615671418310835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297108711939968,0.0,0.10577921547503534,0.10669615147569016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975068227410604,0.10943845960845856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360270721257063,0.0,0.13781141709433534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378375513962146,0.18436535344271013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443089962518893,0.0,0.1456291932432548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192157486974985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184946150561308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559729380542252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781239952742558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15987238824775785,0.0,0.0,0.140564285257138,0.14979953422937353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487286576197181,0.0,0.1154237079293946,0.17522506898936716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065337614957387,0.0,0.13870942702938496,0.0,0.10475710909216857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NevermindForgetIt,2018/12/17,"It’s easier for me to eat around people than alone Does anyone else feel this way? I can restrict much better if I’m alone but as soon as I’m around people and they’re eating and I’m not, I feel like I should be so I tend to eat more. If I’m at home though I can restrict much easier.
I know typically people say they don’t eat in front of people and eat at home. ",-1.0173170731707302,0.9553531219512196,1.7104390243902436,97.40468292682928,90.95121951219512,4.743414634146341,11.858536585365849,6.2581,-1.112984390243902,284,3,70,3,10,98,49,82,0.13699999999999998,0.768,0.095,-0.3215,0,2,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,15,13,10,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,5,5,2,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,12,11,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,2,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777984369260421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377398056937206,0.1374132290802843,0.0,0.2387755950817605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861085170515127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11736200447002047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6861484702021373,0.1120330707275438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13562175482636635,0.09580938612199796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690498298456537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370425287504677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552017559999124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971749805997035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37190451418106196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665096310403367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13176401047920705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645158157022368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sky-circles,2018/12/17,"An ode to bread What's great about bread is that it can take whatever else sad odds and ends you have in your fridge and make it a meal. Only have hummus and half a cucumber? Now you have a delicious veggie sandwich! Only have a can of plain tuna and the jar of lite mayo that's been in your fridge for 6 months? Now you have a yummy socially acceptable tuna salad sandwich!

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The awful thing about bread is that it only ever comes in full sized loaves. So it sits mocking me in my kitchen. How can I possibly sleep when I know that it's there? I usually try to freeze it, but that doesn't stop me. I've had binges where I literally sit on the kitchen floor at 2 a.m. with the toaster, toasting bread, buttering it, spreading honey all over it, and loading up the next slice in the toaster before I take my first bite. I can polish off two pieces by the time the next two pop up. When I still lived at home one time my mom bought a pack of raisin bread at Costco that came with 4 loaves. I think I consumed my literal weight in buttered raisin bread that week. I fasted all day every day and lost NO weight because I was consuming 1800+ calories each day in just raisin bread and butter. On one particular, horrible, night either I couldn't find the toaster, or it was too loud or just wasn't fast enough or something, I can't remember, and I ate like 1/2 a loaf still frozen.

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Anyway. This is just a rant. My roommates think that it's odd that I refuse to ever buy bread and just ask to buy slices of their's off  them, a slice at a time. But bread is scary guys. You get it. ",4.4701190476190495,4.984259953703706,4.703686067019401,88.81944444444447,69.83333333333333,7.899823633156968,25.61375661375661,7.793537801064563,1.1166015873015869,1251,33,272,14,21,392,175,324,0.10099999999999999,0.85,0.049,-0.9611,0,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,6,2,2,20,6,1,0,20,1,21,19,1,2,4,39,34,18,0,1,10,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,6,1,23,14,18,2,6,0,3,2,5,3,0,6,9,8,30,3,32,24,7,50,0,2,0,0,14,21,0,3,26,172,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24054062190235784,0.26975846497308736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037716186396971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06766561469087849,0.0,0.09445428311496692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695638984175875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956181480130664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21476076813373596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272768877868456,0.0,0.09831457171995847,0.1146944433890616,0.0,0.0,0.2008148109097561,0.0935237316715714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145355580602662,0.09441800138659924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057993814238603475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237978176733172,0.0,0.10990914871488323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134376986130473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0610036391743972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05422983064113278,0.0,0.0980165472773546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12117148350658445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409450616570344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000386609070413,0.08860050925005601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361031646607073,0.10416758930700357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043526856710066,0.2532654167158419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513775443762873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12574330368874342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110818783026332,0.11315226884341932,0.0,0.08545454263821878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177292224681237,0.09280240339238817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691894947745184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374460660100454,0.14225083280312276,0.0,0.0,0.1941779765927638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536287759259276,0.0,0.21686509117167174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225270597860542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903887960476595,0.2703403677002789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26975846497308736,0.0
EDAnonymous,Artist_juller_22,2018/12/17,"I’m a liar I purged for the first time today. I know I fucked up because it made everything feel okay again. McMuffin? Gone. Gummy worms? Gone. Pizza buffet my boyfriend forced me to go to? Gone. At least mostly gone anyways. It was so much easier than I thought. It just worked. I didn’t have to try hard, almost as if I’d done it a million times over. I’m back to restricting tomorrow and I told myself I’m not going to purge anymore no matter how many slip ups I have, just like I told myself I wouldn’t binge anymore no matter how hungry nor dizzy I get. It’s lies. I know this. I lie to others but I lie to myself the most. But at least for right in this moment...I feel okay. Liar liar pants on fire. ",-0.7539312039312058,1.4135121081081117,1.225528255528257,98.25816953316955,96.83783783783785,4.042260442260441,14.15970515970516,5.852544927426893,-0.8501324324324324,544,11,123,5,22,178,93,148,0.18899999999999997,0.735,0.076,-0.955,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,4,0,4,2,6,2,0,3,0,22,25,9,0,2,6,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,1,1,5,0,0,6,6,4,0,2,11,4,18,3,18,13,5,21,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,4,8,77,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069452119801293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975312000665064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541127910277937,0.0,0.1221759017629108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510214855617168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012712341928358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20267961781013824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047956358275065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18528768412346666,0.10471266068654002,0.0,0.2278098351176011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795394957548561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202943004656076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791647487868717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896449352992713,0.0,0.20319730008316145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733384684792478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17116000852608734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911334589202067,0.2337363371445275,0.0,0.18997741555878256,0.3830252212056848,0.0,0.13607395087425528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591021305938415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neverbeenabeauty,2018/12/17,"Using Poo-pourri to cover the smell of vomit Has anyone used it? And did it work? 
I'm travelling soon and will have to share my bathroom with a few friends. I would prefer if they didnt find out like that lol",0.5254545454545436,2.7528133636363634,2.055636363636367,95.99845454545458,85.81818181818181,4.42909090909091,15.618181818181819,5.6839178017228535,-0.7550036363636363,164,3,36,1,5,53,39,44,0.046,0.768,0.18600000000000005,0.7469,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,6,1,0,2,0,10,9,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,3,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813085034167349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677092764918902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31082812472823285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965511374234567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6949432130301776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928906333081563,0.0,0.0,0.2857935421355136,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bovineuniversitygrad,2019/02/10,Fucked up ed things I thought we could have some fun... what’s the most fucked up experience y’all had with your ed? Mine:on a first date and we went to a Italian restaurant. I had the spaghetti and he got pizza. I drank and ate too much... so I excused myself to a bathroom. I purged and the fucking noodles came out my nose... ,1.0006396588486126,3.1354891492537327,2.0562899786780378,97.36776119402988,82.88059701492537,4.4255863539445635,23.004264392324096,5.288315135182226,-0.02555266524520228,251,9,57,1,7,79,50,67,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.8777,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,2,0,1,2,4,3,0,6,0,4,7,1,0,0,13,13,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,8,1,11,1,6,4,3,7,0,0,0,3,6,3,3,2,2,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30109674407390563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21018989939342128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575166038861137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223926915651154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7301326694288527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21055127923753247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193524743977075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17489675760510673,0.0,0.0,0.2089972547779356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440425804204063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Panda_Melody,2019/02/10,"I’m winning. Week before last 146
Last week 142 
This week 137 

Fuck binge restrict cycle... at least we’re back in the restrict phase :/ ",1.92448717948718,4.530831192307693,1.85923076923077,97.16910256410259,83.23076923076924,3.466666666666667,20.2051282051282,3.1291,-0.5705487179487183,105,3,21,0,3,31,22,26,0.322,0.58,0.099,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,6,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23597018367280445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26113051353049554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28370369885156266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5002929384506332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7384768881387525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LuckyPeaceful,2019/02/10,"If I eat an entire loaf of bread before 7am on Monday, I don't have to log those calories FOR Monday. I'm so committed to starting a new, healthy eating, binge free lifestyle tomorrow that in order to avoid future temptation, I'm eating all of the possible binge food that I already have. Because that's 100% logical and how it works hahahahahaha end me :) :) :)",2.816397515527953,5.313498507246378,4.842691511387166,77.89956521739133,78.42028985507247,7.421118012422363,27.248447204968944,8.418075326091056,2.341809937888199,283,12,50,6,7,97,55,69,0.028999999999999998,0.737,0.23399999999999999,0.9386,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,0,3,5,0,1,2,7,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,28,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659433082557989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690794673192334,0.0,0.2050684805842176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7397922930633335,0.0,0.0,0.21344950358005832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914113797664837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327538890067961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27168497097173105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057707360082672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544679023010715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corgifreaksanonymous,2019/02/10,"Sponsors needed Hi there,
I’m reaching out on behalf of the GSB of EDA. We have an incredibly long waiting list (11-12 month wait) for sponsors. Currently, there are NO sponsors in EDA who are able to assist with the waiting list. We desperately need sponsors who are willing to step up and work with folks who have been waiting. 
Please PM me if you can help out. Thank you! ",2.302500000000002,4.921112027777782,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,81.5,5.266666666666668,25.66666666666667,6.6274283507984215,1.0089666666666668,294,12,57,3,8,92,52,72,0.07,0.809,0.121,0.4694,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,14,16,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,12,14,0,9,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,1,3,36,8,1,0.3615191918210564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423186937801497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31993310841611505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28856116981729124,0.0,0.0,0.5361237998845337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39683951044372817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328383001935936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26319027731852285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zeyhrr,2019/02/10,"My face Yesterday while I was getting ready to go to an event, I looked in the mirror and I was shocked. Is my face really that slim? When the fuck did my face slim down? Why the hell wasn't I informed? Every other day I've looked in the mirror I've wanted to smash it and cry. Why was yesterday so fucking different?",0.9824675324675312,3.1551367272727298,2.7477489177489183,92.1559090909091,83.24242424242424,6.195670995670996,20.034632034632033,7.447530270364453,0.574335930735931,248,7,54,4,7,82,41,66,0.204,0.7609999999999999,0.035,-0.9179,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,5,0,6,5,3,0,0,4,13,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,5,2,7,0,6,8,0,10,1,0,2,2,1,3,3,0,6,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29073730967376904,0.17069597442651252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27653308449738545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22300336297560716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893826995638029,0.1382837850440739,0.0,0.15042310100700962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4445271784388468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16956006122749032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561144547652159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776630229379544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Duckerino117,2019/02/10,"I don’t know if i’m more addicted to the weed i smoke or the feeling of having no money so i can’t eat. I haven’t eaten in 2 and a half days and i really don’t want to, i’m hungry but i’d rather just drink tea and smoke, i think i spend all my money on weed partially because i’m addicted but mainly because it ensures i can’t buy the food i like eating. I’m super fucked up at the moment🙃",-0.06532608695652442,1.1193733369565244,3.388478260869565,91.25163043478264,81.93478260869566,6.339130434782609,19.108695652173914,7.1686216300943375,0.21019130434782607,305,7,75,4,8,113,58,92,0.09300000000000001,0.773,0.134,0.3483,0,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,5,0,6,9,0,0,1,14,16,8,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,3,1,4,0,6,1,0,1,1,1,10,2,7,15,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,2,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5436163277778763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039803656530951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16079820630579192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24424997202979595,0.0,0.5102567894962089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606951011483888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014926685298209,0.0,0.0,0.23050297627500266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702608501465746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181078841081715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597281587810304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597615730215912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706219281967092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cumbanshee,2019/02/10,"Dead Eyes Since falling into these habits, all the life has gone out of my eyes. It’s not just discolouration either, it’s like they’ve sunken deeper into my head and there’s a pronounced ridge underneath.

Has anyone else noticed this happening when you’re having trouble reaching maintenance intake? I feel like a freak and like everyone can see what’s wrong with me on my face.",6.168450704225348,7.705358802816902,5.404338028169018,81.60791549295776,66.6056338028169,8.496901408450704,28.284507042253523,8.841846274778883,2.201634366197184,309,10,54,5,5,93,58,71,0.19,0.6890000000000001,0.121,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,4,5,4,0,1,11,8,3,1,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,3,7,7,2,8,0,0,3,0,0,5,0,0,4,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001145107178133,0.2932410561713668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23907957193169546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734720139713813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14470901706946315,0.20445808431683235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530816883539609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937190957166477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20214830781878632,0.4194619169217567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32583541297421365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22806071718143395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367438309837277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129097932675449,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,radcherrywinter,2019/02/10,"I’m so god damn tired This post is literally just gonna be me feeling sorry for myself disclaimer 

I have had food issues since I was 12. That was 6 years ago. In this time I’ve had a bmi of 15, ‘learned’ of how to purge causing this to be a factor, lost my best friend to suicide, tried to kill myself multiple times and now I’m just SO TIRED. Physically and mentally. I walk everywhere for fear of laziness, try to maintain going to the gym, work my ass off at work and it wears me out. 

I’m all on my own and the only person I have a real connection with is an asshole who doesn’t respect me or my boundaries in the slightest. I just want to take a week off work, cry and sleep for a week and just sort myself the fuck out. I’m on the waiting list for treatment for bulimia and even though I’ve been diagnosed no one takes me fucking seriously. 

I honestly feel like just ending everything on a regular basis and I don’t know how to move forward. When I restrict I am weak, when I try to eat normally it turns into a binge/purge which somehow leaves me feeling even more tired. I need someone to throw me a lifeline but I know that doesn’t exist and that I’m the only one that can truly heal myself. Well I feel so exhausted and done trying at this point I don’t know if I can. I know this disorder can be fatal and at this point I really hope so. ",1.7884805653710243,3.5050645689045967,3.668616254416964,88.9225851590106,78.22261484098941,6.78948409893993,23.687491166077727,7.699297019823105,1.0697181342756186,1055,35,229,16,25,356,153,283,0.16,0.747,0.094,-0.9496,0,0,0,0,0,2,21.0,0,0,0,5,19,17,4,1,15,0,21,14,3,3,1,45,46,23,3,5,8,0,4,1,1,1,7,0,0,1,14,15,2,2,9,1,0,5,5,10,1,2,7,4,31,7,32,35,4,31,0,1,0,3,3,16,4,5,12,153,45,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457887216605006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197004757094098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960537831247742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719968574969156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082933992427939,0.0,0.0,0.12228196221422917,0.0,0.0,0.10918625068279908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091758433848142,0.0,0.0,0.09450029336042744,0.0,0.0,0.14094236899955195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589078120770167,0.0,0.0,0.12006178205510674,0.21579323000071768,0.07622308427627138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12901627979739394,0.0,0.0824324599125521,0.19727601753132734,0.0,0.0,0.06063735055984875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059724247112167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113620861621261,0.0,0.0,0.11804244929481593,0.0,0.23454760356196103,0.0,0.0,0.11297482913017727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052125893596635504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11647043299854865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752368365828864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340013026396475,0.0,0.07911315140552383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453865902823188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445988805386794,0.16229304065505948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316214797584753,0.0,0.0,0.2017229338357726,0.0,0.1021845245137828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144251539455345,0.06835168803707635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825938598249113,0.0,0.106772270915514,0.0,0.09040251104528446,0.0,0.0,0.11943656006006324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670724996058085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044304945928345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482750888881974,0.0,0.12442967799604596,0.3678913689985321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897561944844532,0.1160537576907894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293160330883565,0.0,0.17116893449124446,0.0,0.09593181357881432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23302616592413775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870822154728952
EDAnonymous,RavenPotter01,2019/02/10,"I want to love my body i decided that i want to recover. Can you guys help me with tips for when i want to fast, purge, overexcercise, or when i just feel triggered. By the way im overweight.",-0.12075000000000102,2.1092384250000045,1.6900000000000013,97.195,89.75,6.2,20.5,7.554174236665415,0.6738499999999998,147,5,35,3,5,48,30,40,0.061,0.6779999999999999,0.262,0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,9,6,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,6,6,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3774214718609343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180411060625891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33643783955297685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22774887416170006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670231277236375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066667389199953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6012371084374307,0.26970332772521177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spacetimesymmetry,2019/02/10,"“I swear your thighs used to be smaller” Said a friend whom I hadn’t seen for a year 🙃

I’m in quasi recovery but now i just want to throw it out of the window and start restricting again. ",-0.5578048780487848,1.5289971219512208,1.1348292682926842,101.53151219512196,89.97560975609754,5.231219512195122,15.517073170731704,6.742157984588678,-0.5620087804878051,146,3,37,2,5,47,36,41,0.121,0.7829999999999999,0.096,-0.2382,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,7,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,6,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,4,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4123079729759445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5076372755948798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777305752149481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4609148991076428,0.0,0.0,0.3147692283345442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34366252788037177
EDAnonymous,koshele,2019/02/10,"What are your safe clothes? I tore my safe dress last night (in a way that it's unwearable now). This is an actual catastrophe. 

Not only do I really like the dress, but I've been wearing it like every single time when leaving home for two months now and I had largely stopped looking at the mirror to check what I look like. Cause, same. Meanwhile I've gained a bit of weight (1.5 kg / 3 lbs), but you really couldn't tell with that dress, it's a pretty special design.

Obviously I'll find something to wear if I have to, but I just feel lost and don't want to eat at all. I'll probably still eat, cause I meticulously planned today's meals yesterday (thanks past me!), but ugh.

What are your safe clothes? What aspects of clothing help you get your mind off what your body looks like?",4.168793706293705,5.217712557692308,4.463986013986016,88.31737762237762,70.85897435897436,7.980419580419578,26.361305361305362,8.296473431620573,1.4462641025641023,613,19,131,9,11,192,104,156,0.077,0.708,0.215,0.9759,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,6,0,3,5,11,0,0,6,0,9,7,3,2,2,24,17,8,0,3,7,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,11,3,4,4,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,3,5,15,9,12,13,4,17,0,1,3,0,8,4,0,1,16,70,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.1462540974994665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16362212885872146,0.16647473971892338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30792101382661863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30671429539330475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627418063560036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578012044411847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13698089675209513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830227947522002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045648531972473,0.0,0.15033449860073225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216622174772285,0.0,0.15869350782895394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29288084672515113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3775658659041881,0.0,0.1636037134395605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513286634631267,0.0,0.11962692794099213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064533946014424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139849120201011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307041312964142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247437617551826,0.16158807690606194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19202452836879935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537929636003952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968850047228773,0.12530025523939167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099531139925086,0.13798260999035994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739195372655463,0.0,0.1420617582394786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640381220209447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839877837630382,0.1189619421041462,0.0,0.18250452486198399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cuddle-A-Caribou,2019/02/10,"Roommate almost heard me purging in the bathroom because I’m dumb :( This week has been truly awful so things have been bad lately. I was purging for the fourth time today like ten minutes ago, when I thought I heard my roommate come out of her room. The sound was so quick I thought I imagined it and I was going to resume purging, but paranoid me decided to go check. I spray all air freshener and make sure my face isn’t dripping liquids, and go out to check....

My roommate is standing by the door wearing a clown mask from last Halloween. I screamed at the top of my lungs of course, but not because she scared me. The fact that she was so close to the door means if I had kept going she would have heard and who knows what would have happened. She’s close enough to my family I think she’d definitely tell them. Ahhh I was SO CLOSE to ignoring the sound and continuing.

Now I feel super disgusting because I can’t finish and I have an insane amount of food in me. I’m gonna have to fast for like 4 days to not gain and I’m just so so so tired of life in general. I  feel so broken and sad. 

I don’t know what the point of sharing this was, but thanks for listening.  I hope you guy’s days/nights are going much better. Ily all ❤️
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EDAnonymous,spookiestghosts,2019/02/10,"Was this the right choice? I just want to give a heads up that this will probably end up being fairly wrong. Plus ignore any grammar/spelling mistakes, I’m on mobile.
Just for some context, last year I asked the person who I like out and eventually I asked them to be my s/o, to which they agreed. It was great to have someone who had similar interests as you along with someone to talk to about more serious topics. We would basically go to each other with our problems or with anything that happened with our lives. Now granted I struggle with anxiety, depression, and am eating disorder while my s/o struggles with similar issues. But as time went on, I started to get worse. I tried to open up about me falling down the rabbit hole of sh and relapsing in my eating disorder again with the addition of accidentally dragging my s/o down with me. My s/o tried to offer their best advice for my problems, but there’s only so much they could do. Plus with all my problems, I am almost certain added to their issues they have. I realize that I need a good amount of help but the issue of me being a minor, not having insurance or the money to pay for what I need goes into account. So today my s/o asked to take some space apart, since currently it isn’t good for any of us. They still care for me, but currently it didn’t seem like our relationship was going very good. I was at first taken slightly by surprise since I thought everything was good, but then I realized I was quite oblivious to what my s/o is going through. I really care for them, but I’m thinking some time apart until our issues get sorted out would probably be the best thing. 
So my question is was this the best choice? 
And my next thing is what should I do regarding my mental issues?",6.515263157894736,6.093864971098268,7.029446303620322,77.09987070276848,65.47398843930635,10.174383936720414,32.37237602677213,9.682069395223575,2.8813317919075145,1384,49,267,25,19,455,179,346,0.085,0.752,0.162,0.9894,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,6,1,8,5,11,25,0,2,11,0,29,3,1,0,2,59,53,22,0,11,11,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,18,23,2,1,6,0,3,5,3,10,0,1,12,0,48,15,56,32,11,39,0,1,0,0,27,17,0,9,19,197,66,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822016543432297,0.0,0.0,0.08423460674895453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114409754057716,0.0,0.06435201121463148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922406739547447,0.0,0.2359241523672553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264838067440751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153306934214022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716343584115153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07245292977206001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928189383871388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17215270214670145,0.0,0.0,0.0745058629788265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560215054935926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155291988742424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08789905914636137,0.08069612268088032,0.1434229875344397,0.2822253959088116,0.0,0.09274323319749044,0.0,0.0,0.07438754849541407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633198086656177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056384249628061385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390001362739742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856949774041313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219412972925501,0.0,0.07428001071810332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477375632124602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183830318816154,0.12474868402707888,0.0,0.0,0.08946318804696005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397748948431563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345084322043269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18139241953751334,0.2414760945875734,0.0,0.0,0.09423429822305283,0.08947258832632259,0.0,0.0,0.053889795705062464,0.0,0.0,0.09031401853196996,0.0,0.07183851319547341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658021402163402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391708212698632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255018394900246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05954097742029017,0.0,0.06717880151549292,0.0,0.0,0.17588218338953915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324820502580705,0.06761293342248009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11177194710245604,0.05390106914996537,0.0,0.06678234183832538,0.0981027699449987,0.0,0.07973647110669209,0.0,0.0,0.11422470002915988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118669672838504,0.0,0.0,0.06940828590682542,0.04961649584814331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798061771700927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572605466191413,0.11951368883437614,0.09197264556266417,0.0,0.05417089363518197
EDAnonymous,yeeeahhimbitchehh,2019/02/10,"Is this en eating disorder or am I just severely stressed? So I've never felt like I have an actual eating disorder. I've struggled with my weight since having children, and binge and purge from time to time. It's never been a habit though. 

But now, I dont know what is going on with me. I just dont eat. I've lost about 25 pounds in the last couple months but wasnt actually trying to lose weight, even though I needed to. 

My problem is I will go days (like up to 4 or 5 days a week) without eating. When I do finally eat, it's one thing. Like I'll have a sandwich or a bowl of pasta and that's it. The cycle will start again. I still drink, but not much. I'm writing this post now because its Saturday and I've just realized I've not eaten a meal since Monday evening. I have no appetite and have to force myself to eat. I don't have hunger pains. Everyone keeps asking how I've lost weight and all I say is I dont eat and laugh. 

I dont know what's wrong with me. I know it isnt healthy. I can barely sleep at night then can barely stay awake all day. I only go to the bathroom, like #2, once a week IF that. I've had an almost constant headache. 

I just dont know what to do. I dont know if I have an eating disorder. I feel like I'm being overdramatic about it all. ",0.6357357859531767,2.3323278913043524,2.744202898550725,94.2951672240803,81.68115942028984,5.840356744704571,19.31103678929766,6.844919456158928,0.038370568561872716,982,24,233,11,26,332,137,276,0.141,0.7979999999999999,0.061,-0.9558,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,3,17,14,0,2,12,0,30,19,1,1,5,44,49,21,0,4,15,0,5,5,0,2,1,1,0,1,14,10,17,1,8,1,0,3,15,8,0,1,7,6,25,6,20,39,4,32,0,3,0,0,4,4,0,6,28,142,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.1329525479211833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821334609336559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368394368351953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0415259321553666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361460559112598,0.0,0.0,0.07537459595762219,0.0,0.1317972374580102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342177191511696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790238606319499,0.06673265061490477,0.0,0.5576383534353843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998656220722707,0.0,0.0,0.06509253919994397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03444402675575109,0.04866565932970241,0.06540684725939798,0.07462323086034042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614421036698933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605490788996908,0.0,0.0,0.1871876131739308,0.05552771077515718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640240972378756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620997951974541,0.14872424720432914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05437353599545037,0.0,0.05007677651742453,0.05051086178624948,0.10507823661810464,0.0,0.0,0.06392694821604616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254664671798157,0.046160555732998335,0.051809093682656085,0.07248555183035874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524109206511683,0.0,0.0,0.06518260150276013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417255707073024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695734537592447,0.0,0.11270079797098274,0.0,0.06817020081999861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821639770471094,0.07260792716363453,0.05440152230509115,0.0,0.07803238066414853,0.07121486471091253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0452565685618507,0.0,0.13385708238921987,0.0,0.07944381124636847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04624969057386058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928512186133403,0.2488590952568105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566621757418734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447962476498797,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pdxfonix,2019/02/10,"restricting the second time around is so much harder so back in november i decided to try recovering and getting back to a healthy weight and all that fun jazz and it was literally just me binging for 3 months straight and 0 actual recovery. now im sitting like 10-20 lbs heavier than i was back in september (my lowest) and restricting again and NONE OF IT IS COMING OFF!!!! 

i know the body loves to hold onto fat especially after being deprived for so long but its all sitting in the worst places and it wont fucking budge and im so frustrated!!!! this sucks!!!! :( ",3.2056880733944944,5.435719339449546,4.6830183486238495,80.90177522935781,75.78899082568806,8.396697247706422,28.33119266055045,9.120678840339163,2.6410579816513766,444,19,84,11,10,148,78,109,0.142,0.7759999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.872,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,3,0,4,0,6,5,2,0,2,19,12,13,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,10,2,3,2,1,0,1,2,5,0,1,2,1,5,3,14,8,5,20,0,1,0,2,1,8,2,0,10,60,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.21032102795636815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186268653050514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971755972444896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23939936716357996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18565545451758367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19924912224302704,0.11260276595406275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4656073438440279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844674461381235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529448713768512,0.0,0.0,0.19073258691705386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945194661702148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202976795849173,0.0,0.15843546105080625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251774507205578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256741920885422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14632713123970845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624510350952803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chibi-Bunny,2019/02/10,"I'm going to die I don't know why I'm posting this. I'm 19, in college. Been AN for like 6 years. I've been restricting under 100 a day everyday since the semester started. Today I just can't. I didn't drink the electrolyte water I'm supposed to take, I didn't take any of my vitamins. I don't know if I can bring myself to eat anything.
My everything hurts, my head and legs and chest. I've had heart problems in the past. It's harder to breathe. My BMI is 11.6. I just want to get smaller.
I feel like this is it, this is how I'll die. Too afraid to eat a goddamn apple or sip on my stupid propel. 
I love you mom. I'm so sorry I'm hurting you so much. I love my friends, and I wish I could be ok for you. I'm sorry to my dietitian and my doctors, I'm sorry to everyone I'm letting down. 
Please don't miss me.",-1.1709440559440552,0.7498938736263767,1.8352647352647369,96.63928071928072,91.03296703296705,4.847552447552449,19.811188811188813,6.351523495107088,0.017980219780219908,623,21,152,7,22,219,102,182,0.168,0.6890000000000001,0.14300000000000002,-0.6644,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,0,0,6,12,1,1,6,1,16,13,5,1,0,17,39,9,2,5,4,1,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,4,1,3,1,0,2,6,6,0,0,5,1,25,6,16,31,1,14,0,3,0,2,7,5,0,2,8,81,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231198574617533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170745318584753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838219491154308,0.0,0.0,0.08754498820688171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817659880524442,0.0,0.0,0.1389418595376322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297947416288727,0.0,0.2778042469825605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971119167267667,0.12199981900794896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863729409557091,0.09697702290891194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487708060202597,0.0,0.07092172133267427,0.0,0.07714762253734704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393146354142635,0.0,0.0,0.16085975214434886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906379611264832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492049852077394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880955848715545,0.0,0.1326373506258675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450322646449481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589841620887539,0.0,0.0,0.0997889840685004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958498831623572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14900842626998068,0.0,0.0,0.13000721590840011,0.0,0.0,0.1298906606066997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229055577609373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455869850888943,0.09608177037357228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041283087757748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12867140647008266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006655193399702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248971849060683,0.0,0.15610128666393872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741602151484124
EDAnonymous,heavensdoor90,2019/02/10,"Just a whole lot of... ugh... icky feelings. I’m just venting. Ugh, going through a really tough time lately. I got into a fight with my boyfriend a couple of days ago and literally can’t bring myself to eat anything without feeling incredibly nauseous. Skipping meals and seeing the number on the scale go down just makes me feel like I’m actually accomplishing something, feel way more in control of things and generally just less shitty. I’ve gotten rid of all laxatives/cleanse pills, and that’s helped a lot over the past few months, but many days I struggle to not feel like a failure when I eat food that isn’t healthy. I weigh a lot less than many people I know, but I’m petite in height anyway, so I really struggle to ever feel like I’ve reached an acceptable weight. I wish I wasn’t so obsessed with this, then again I’m terrified of gaining weight. It’s such a catch 22. 

The first therapist I saw wouldn’t prescribe me Wellbutrin, because she said it’s unsafe for people with an active eating disorder. She then prescribed me Prozac, which would help me “feel well and not worry about gaining weight.” 

So I stopped seeing her, of course, did not take the Prozac, and went to another doctor who WOULD give me the Wellbutrin (that would help my depression and that I felt comfortable taking without affecting my weight). However, now I’m afraid of telling him about my eating disorder because he might change my prescription. ",7.085522388059701,7.575736171641793,6.573097014925374,77.77031716417912,64.14925373134328,9.53582089552239,33.91417910447761,9.354420925462401,3.0223164179104485,1146,46,205,19,16,355,156,268,0.127,0.6940000000000001,0.18,0.9485,1,0,1,0,1,0,35.0,0,0,0,5,16,15,1,4,16,0,9,15,0,3,2,48,38,15,0,5,11,0,12,3,0,5,4,1,0,0,10,11,11,2,10,0,0,5,9,9,1,1,8,16,26,6,27,25,9,28,0,1,3,0,13,7,0,4,18,126,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.08393479470855522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624398514395184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901905336089873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07078011730718481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486359667535933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098873845118736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646918568999782,0.0,0.09517006385908164,0.0,0.1109405748357754,0.0,0.07408155951337363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971532097372935,0.08803639181166055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520448569738035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780230562406279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044299115614803,0.1843398500771824,0.08258450677464138,0.0,0.0,0.0731613187992848,0.10400541997297592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251004664255089,0.09776460956600956,0.0,0.06879123583290851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295504091743158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047269658624526464,0.0,0.09702469298544904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606258985684005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21937164704321369,0.0,0.0,0.057413329103087586,0.17440427624419724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124458531744516,0.0,0.0,0.06865354072133896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210768764921912,0.11925905724913036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020230983751486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181661150668018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708002320440785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621583749906765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190944650618268,0.0,0.17983574269675495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293398535980324,0.0,0.07517782242045896,0.0,0.0,0.09986595467983783,0.05714220375384565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0501539842003037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827190731308548,0.0,0.4189552317391701,0.07733464781113115,0.07973350132930047,0.0,0.09602874295131396,0.09890895429774127,0.16582398991387995,0.0,0.0,0.08734883046998647,0.0,0.1833002574202512,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Clefaerae,2019/06/19,"My ED is destroying my relationship. My boyfriend has finally caught on to my rather disordered eating since I’ve lately been refusing to eat anything he cooks for dinner and making up whatever excuses I can for such. He’s also noticed that I’ve stopped eating anywhere near as much as I used to just a month ago, thanks to an awful bout of strep causing me to relapse due to how I could NOT eat during it and rapidly lost a noticeable amount of weight.

Everyone I knew complimented me so much on how small I am now and how I obviously lost weight, and so the cog gears of disordered eating thoughts in my worthless lizard brain began to spin again, and here I am. I never thought I would relapse after how my ED nearly killed me a few years ago due to how dangerously low I let my weight get and how miserably unhappy with my body I was even then.

It’s progressed to the point where he always insists on cooking breakfast and serving my plate so that he knows I’m eating at least one meal a day. Heaping portions of eggs, steak, hash browns, biscuits and gravy, pancakes, you name it. He eats whatever he wants and stays lean because he’s a pretty avid weight lifter, but I could not even begin to eat as much as he expects me to without gaining a butt load of weight.

I usually sit there and just sip on a cup of coffee, dancing my fork around the food while I talk to him and distract him until he leaves for work. Then, I scrape it all back into the skillets and his brother comes home from work and eats what he assumes are just freebie leftovers. It makes me feel so guilty and awful because I know he’s just worried and trying to take care of me.

It’s also ruining our life in the bedroom, as I can’t stand the idea of being touched or looked at. I feel so disgusting and I can’t stand my body. The last time I tried to be intimate with him, I just cried hysterically and killed the mood. It’s frustrating and upsetting him deeply, but I hate myself so much that I just immediately get hostile and defensive when he confronts me about it. I’ve told him to just use old pictures I’ve sent him before if he needs something to sate him, because I just can’t do it. He’s probably going to end up cheating on me or leaving me and it’s all my fault. I’m such an awful partner and I don’t know what to do because I feel like I’m in too deep once again.

Sigh.",5.4924506873879295,5.419610489539753,6.027689778840407,82.2531066945607,67.53556485355648,9.00430364614465,31.924985056784223,8.634040054169528,2.33141398684997,1866,71,384,26,28,606,243,478,0.18100000000000002,0.777,0.042,-0.9969,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,1,1,0,6,38,26,11,3,17,3,20,27,4,11,4,79,54,50,2,8,17,1,9,1,1,1,2,0,2,1,15,26,21,3,11,3,0,5,8,20,1,1,11,11,58,4,57,37,10,58,0,6,2,1,33,21,1,4,29,244,73,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156512080312925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433448895863602,0.05427953738686148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053681651449077404,0.058071687714660813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050160571508418364,0.0,0.15906306066129827,0.0,0.0555089443636604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449195311543857,0.0,0.07282221319551489,0.0,0.0,0.06650994940682424,0.06701282283378192,0.0,0.05619292511863354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041673593765996,0.0,0.0716559889509082,0.0420702415909238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495265943294774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6007518432768516,0.0,0.0,0.057777560866115164,0.0,0.0,0.08617228596769766,0.0,0.0,0.06233345029209988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895212520644224,0.046602859468153665,0.0,0.07146016284878509,0.0,0.0,0.07888066474336664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816367245281643,0.0,0.03707372843139475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440462295122243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543456710108699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364073503062755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14434251061854458,0.0,0.10755195533454387,0.05317404793206067,0.07358628311103291,0.1381458159396819,0.0,0.06670572216977064,0.04607638388318985,0.03186981630304039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054779750528637185,0.0,0.14242024637977255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708779919273363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052068795361742866,0.0,0.191816653533784,0.04836984900363234,0.050312133460464016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14853765270591426,0.06845163478412597,0.0694715992437076,0.04420394013821224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061666787865593535,0.0,0.0,0.0663659698333855,0.07033279759110338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003641719145329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053961864712525225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050219971995905104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953028218433238,0.0,0.05453816679177966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04904750940995885,0.05243225459000602,0.0,0.060058286263199374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035763003360444,0.03803820622306233,0.0,0.0,0.06233345029209988,0.0,0.08857859360979484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126816808625259,0.07184553659904952,0.0,0.038476436540895186,0.0,0.0,0.397184435026124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288281206019299,0.0,0.09498159921915696,0.06624783413997518,0.0,0.04634004060139856,0.0,0.0,0.04200826591416086
EDAnonymous,fierce_redhead,2019/06/19,"Inspo and help to stop binging so much? I have a history of binge eating and emotional eating that has caused me to be less healthy than I would like to be. Ive been getting better with it recently, and Ive been trying OMAD to help me curve my binges, and its been helping me a lot. 
However, I'm really struggling to be consistent with it lately and recently I keep sliding into more  binges and back to the cycle of feeling disgusting and hating myself.

What do you guys do to stop binges?
Im open to whatever suggestions",4.904327323162279,5.879071776699033,6.072843273231622,77.73106796116505,69.09708737864078,9.769209431345352,30.248266296809987,9.957137785484203,3.0340635228848827,415,16,77,10,7,139,66,103,0.124,0.71,0.165,0.3968,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,5,2,1,3,0,13,2,0,1,0,18,18,8,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,11,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,1,11,2,14,11,4,9,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,7,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453044203625118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662362704705726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308777023479493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846621486507321,0.0,0.21143087759990126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503875232703678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982018885965683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18611098648272886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18557261897935207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779589807455993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20303018368380307,0.0,0.0,0.16706841374802664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21202824660913966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182827267268094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15979775954322362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817299569892005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204126589229695,0.0,0.3711777137706581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142877011654389,0.0,0.1964976957327956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761321197491254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335221340325822,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kinabatangan,2019/06/19,"I just got a new office job and we order take out every day I recently got a new job. It's super chill and I love everything about it. Except for the fact that it's in a doctor's office and the drug reps come in daily to order food for all the staff. I share an office space with 3 of my coworkers and we all eat lunch together. All we do is sit, talk, and eat all day. I want to lose weight fast so I feel like my only option is ordering salads and only eating a little. I just don't want my coworkers to get suspicious. Ugh",0.13552631578947327,2.0768450964912297,3.0202631578947354,90.32934210526315,84.87719298245614,6.2561403508771924,15.640350877192983,7.492282038375204,0.08769824561403583,407,7,91,7,12,144,69,114,0.071,0.79,0.139,0.7703,2,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,3,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,8,0,4,10,0,0,5,24,13,7,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,12,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,13,4,12,11,4,16,0,1,0,1,6,5,0,1,7,54,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376665699980546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613505513673525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357754146307002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533479468213587,0.4905922795401197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465112659245662,0.0,0.143631519821819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080732371219074,0.11417194960998125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324907061627314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349680111187552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556374926366072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171836821918505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807759228844255,0.1601767294957259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17879223381230372,0.0,0.0,0.1442393802815517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087008665820111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430931919857821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15779814516190646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201610767398424,0.12845333520958396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885261901974346,0.0,0.0,0.1946117548115684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ensnsndjleown,2019/06/19,"My thinspo posted a picture of herself in a bikini and OMG she has a... normal body? To be fair she's definitely gained weight but she still looks really skinny in pictures but in her full body pic she's... curvy, maybe a BMI of 22.5? My BMI is about 2 points lower and I've felt so huge and looked at pictures of her as thinspo and... I'm pretty sure I'm thinner. Not that much, but definitely less. And she looks good! But literally my perception was so different",0.7785483870967731,3.2686444086021496,2.7851881720430143,88.89778225806455,88.78494623655914,5.680645161290323,20.65322580645161,7.1686216300943375,0.7408000000000001,362,12,74,6,12,121,61,93,0.027000000000000003,0.733,0.24,0.9674,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,4,4,3,0,1,14,10,12,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,11,2,10,7,3,9,0,0,3,0,8,7,0,0,1,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655204655224823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21893272510819525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119863376668648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575865162685594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5279018244986551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21051880916171167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540416552840012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053122347069144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980902889058133,0.0,0.20068875261468969,0.21318532378341654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424160925090994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734504751778195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19749620801649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551726211350633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halfwaytohealthy,2019/06/19,"TW: Laxative abuse - numbers, just curious So just wondering what laxative abuse looks like for other ppl. I abused for a long time, everyday. Most days I’d take 100-150.

You? Any consequences long term ?",1.943928571428572,4.415455694444447,2.8046031746031765,84.11500000000002,103.16666666666669,8.723809523809527,24.58730158730159,8.418075326091056,3.188496825396826,159,7,28,6,7,50,30,36,0.275,0.616,0.109,-0.8504,0,0,0,0,3,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,3,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,7,11,4,0,0.0,0.8014353179727155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332734611225268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14540951100432564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101532634274808,0.0,0.0,0.3990677472678368,0.18933803173182992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952539585179904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314733825434097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445126200838729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bleare,2019/06/19,"❗📢 Harm Reduction, Summer Event - sign-ups until July 4th ❗📢 Hiya guys! Blaire here with a summer event and looking for harm reduction practices to put in our wiki :)!

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**Harm reduction**

>Anything that you've learned and picked up is welcome and all you need to do is reply here :).   
>  
>We'll have some volunteers go through all the posts before adding them.  
>  
>If you're interested in volunteering send me a message or the mod team - I'll need some credentials though.

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**Summer event - hunger games**

>The exact execution of this isn't in place as it'll depend on how many people join so keep an eye out on updates :).  
>  
>Sign up [here](https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfuhGw27ni2ZJcWv1uj-vQqodzWovSDlCWT6p8sarI5OHmD6A/viewform) \- open until the 4th.  
>  
>I'll be posting more about the games in [the discord](https://discord.gg/yVvG5pK). More about it below.

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**Discord**

>For those of you who don't use it, it's a group chat client similar to Slack/IRC/Skype that you can use on the web and as a program (Android/IOS and Win/Linux/Mac) - so you can use it anywhere anytime.   
>  
>It's great for support and updates since chats tend to be more responsive than forums :).  
>  
>Our invite link is  [https://discord.gg/yVvG5pK](https://discord.gg/yVvG5pK). You'll be brought to the sign up page if you don't have an account yet.   
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>If you need any help signing up feel free to ask me for help!",3.7421484698097593,7.0014683306451655,2.5916129032258084,87.80806038047977,89.48387096774192,4.9629445822994205,23.294458229942087,6.67199483983844,0.970760835401158,1158,42,196,15,39,330,152,248,0.036000000000000004,0.8490000000000001,0.115,0.9563,0,0,0,0,0,0,134.0,1,7,1,1,9,8,0,0,13,0,16,2,1,6,3,31,30,16,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,10,9,1,1,3,5,2,4,3,3,0,0,1,3,11,6,33,24,8,32,0,0,2,0,23,15,0,5,11,103,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946867845108809,0.4426283606185991,0.08257211239770271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999211565601608,0.0,0.11351453837740873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033224159564467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06139534662722253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900774702090401,0.0,0.0,0.13386978651918646,0.0,0.12022830946814606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277516322252486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792674484219142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196511994588756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310432402737062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701018574103321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417973425284153,0.0,0.12686166559627432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258020846866226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206410849049038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044273577040104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377898964826873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192979268955923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146126349784652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426283606185991,0.0
EDAnonymous,twiggyxoxo,2019/06/19,"DAE feel like their ED stems from an addictive personality? I'm pretty sure mine does. Just kind of put 2 and 2 together today. I used to have BED in high school and college because I was obsessed with food and could not break the habit of overeating. Now I am obsessed in a different way and I think I'm addicted to restriction. My personality is black-and-white, all-or-nothing. I also have a shopping addiction that I'm having a hard time shaking, even in the face of financial instability. Ugh, why must I be like this? *facepalms and cries forever*",2.4487421383647816,5.14568069811321,4.107830188679248,81.3446383647799,81.64150943396227,7.684276729559751,27.701257861635213,8.59863814320734,2.496650314465409,438,20,83,11,12,146,78,106,0.142,0.755,0.10300000000000001,-0.2406,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,3,6,0,9,5,1,1,2,15,15,6,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,1,2,2,6,1,1,2,1,1,2,1,4,0,0,1,2,9,4,11,11,0,12,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,5,47,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5625459018454461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755560934311714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485514642200697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733526406970145,0.0,0.18894391148326006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797128916756325,0.0,0.0,0.15052631623198126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361038351829544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869729655995466,0.1228833302440386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799407774864684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540863610930488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173705046618435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912100064777112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806990842523573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650473636238471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300383410213798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499508573234152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291664746421542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17408238501058132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621165342918717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102164812243592,0.0,0.0,0.10029988525475772,0.0,0.1630445074507958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856062868143702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13653281147670945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521145192215755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxietyridden777,2019/06/19,"birthday coming up a year ago, i was out eating AYCE kbbq with my friends on my birthday. i was slightly heavier than i am (gained it all back rip) now, but by comparison, i was in a better mental state because i had one less problem to worry about: food. 

but now, it’s been months since i’ve let myself even go near any place ayce or buffet-style. it would’ve been a whole year since i’ve been to one had it not been someone’s birthday at the time. Yes i binged that time. 

i got to choose my birthday cake for the first time (my parents always liked surprising me and i had never liked cake that much until noW I CRAVE EVERYTHING I HATE) because i *needed* a place that had their calorie information posted online or i would start crying

i have always dreaded going out to eat with my family because we’re not close to each other at all and it’s awkward but now, on top of family, i’m absolutely TERRIFIED of eating out with ANYONE because 99.98% of restaurants don’t have any nutritional information posted online. i managed to escape a birthday dinner with them, but since I’m leaving for Japan in a few months, my parents are saving my birthday dinner for a farewell dinner, and my first emotional response was fear. 

i hate that i can’t enjoy my extended summer vacation. i used to explore the city, trying out a new local restaurant or two every week with my friends without a care in the world. that’s probably why i got so close to being overweight but food made me happy. it made me so, so happy. it still makes me happy now i guess, but on par with that happiness is fear, disgust, panic, anxiety......................... 

i’m so tired",4.100128004179727,5.547894147335423,5.166790752351098,81.6931746342738,71.47648902821317,7.322936259143156,27.39824973876697,7.793537801064563,1.7078368861024025,1279,45,238,16,24,421,162,319,0.166,0.685,0.15,-0.8692,2,0,0,0,0,0,61.0,0,0,2,5,13,22,3,5,13,1,22,10,0,4,3,45,40,17,0,3,12,2,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,14,17,9,0,4,0,0,4,6,9,0,5,16,0,36,13,39,21,7,51,0,0,0,0,8,21,0,4,25,163,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751915790493999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14553082847386092,0.0,0.0,0.11893801190083925,0.0,0.06689901869579787,0.0,0.0,0.06114708067801716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724366013212772,0.0,0.2132348589546925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734242776585358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916111397508518,0.0,0.0,0.07533044072022461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096059730233291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26844957807998765,0.0,0.09836949139890712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577599071957134,0.0,0.0736804055612619,0.0,0.07859443065695759,0.0,0.1648801741559386,0.1968111487973352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876986856937147,0.2114897997168576,0.0,0.1351273224158311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939971254327187,0.0,0.13988352426591966,0.0,0.0963360458023944,0.0,0.0,0.3723686493507349,0.0,0.17267756113755614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259693436870443,0.0,0.08942356068848606,0.0,0.0854473157505922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549462883640456,0.058373561090590324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088129042154297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960352816979887,0.0,0.06428581986821633,0.06484307473443994,0.06744683924444328,0.0844597651073415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851678072112895,0.0,0.0,0.1026037452019764,0.19420577536961886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18273329644004305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750587334807632,0.0,0.09428590215652058,0.0836778496972567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21701865718670624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409611013777817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061897567557304536,0.0,0.06983769137466253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529784131867465,0.1005109226903313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937281678179505,0.0,0.08542595330627667,0.0,0.0,0.07552873126420538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701471235454745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07891003252613843,0.09763481373909157,0.0,0.08429868949197326,0.0,0.0,0.08880973061980417,0.0,0.1242439568371536,0.0,0.0,0.1126298792428152
EDAnonymous,fucksckldkckcjd,2019/06/19,"got my period back i got my period back and i feel so fucking shitty about it even though i should be glad.

i'm in this weird recovery???? i don't know what you'd call it phase where it's either i'm eating normally or i'm eating my emotions away. i'm trying my best not to think too much when i'm eating, and everything has been going okay for the past month until i saw the few drops of blood on my underwear. i feel so fucking upset and it's making me want to starve myself again.",0.06766025641025307,2.212813009615388,2.539999999999999,92.28833333333336,87.17307692307692,5.7743589743589725,15.397435897435901,7.1686216300943375,-0.07776025641025619,379,7,84,6,12,130,70,104,0.125,0.775,0.1,-0.5687,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,11,7,2,1,2,1,6,6,1,1,0,14,23,9,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,4,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,3,14,3,9,16,4,15,0,0,1,2,2,4,2,1,9,55,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976537913283116,0.2778808385795657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18962432108291186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18450597066177804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5546767808788311,0.0,0.20325333798653208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934486772645335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239364614987867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18272585222958504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340923014846246,0.0,0.0,0.10269100247450412,0.0,0.2890306011756415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993031865483538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061281371995634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422603335490927,0.0,0.13282886073314654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17703906245629802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249024556005144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577965821124125,0.17752823755175529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267749914072144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657638190728157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,divkahard0,2019/06/19,"How do you treat yourself? I’ve been thinking a lot about how people with eating disorders think of themselves. Sometimes I catch myself on a thought that I can treat myself as a victim because of my ED. That I deserve more. That I can use my ED as an excuse for negative actions: like if someone is shooting points that I don’t respect my mom because I didn’t eat meal which she prepared for me, or I react or talk aggressively with my parents at the moment (but my mood is completely f#cked right now because I ate too much and feel guilt and pain all over my body, so I am in aggresive mood), or when I see a woman lifting weights and controling her diet and she is successful at it and it makes me feel terrible because I don’t have as much mental control of my actions as her (so I find an excuse: I am sick, I have an ED, I can’t compare myself to her). Or when I literally put myself higher than others  just because I have lived with ED for almost ten years (I am 20 years old right now) and haven’t killed myself yet, and these thought lead me to thoughts of how I deserve more in this life and I deserve that people treat me better, more respectful, or that they should be really careful with me, especially talking about my lifestyle and choices. Guys, I don’t know if it’s normal for people like us, or not. I think it is not, so if you agree with me and have the same problem or resolved that problem in your life, please give some tips on how to change my mindset and appreciate whatever I have in my life right now without asking for more and more...",6.802500000000002,5.686649974522292,7.095597133757964,79.14492436305733,65.17834394904459,9.63343949044586,34.91162420382166,8.472884824447931,2.6898668789808915,1228,48,246,14,16,400,154,314,0.092,0.779,0.129,0.8047,1,0,0,1,0,0,32.0,1,3,1,6,17,21,3,1,9,0,24,12,1,10,1,62,40,36,1,7,15,2,3,2,0,1,5,0,0,2,15,17,6,2,11,0,0,5,10,8,0,1,6,4,54,11,34,32,11,28,0,0,1,0,20,13,0,13,12,189,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720596937239632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008743606718963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263164809944299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468661543929548,0.0,0.11892046144983515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915566468454403,0.0,0.11325617614826974,0.0,0.11225125698303752,0.0,0.24015567801828255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270100141119335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190999403454045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826635809317653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785167094464417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270251610933016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600706666622177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844696041210995,0.0,0.058837839437899005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268607187594891,0.10460904008974492,0.0,0.09453668582746833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910193001990422,0.0,0.0,0.07146394405332057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789214877970912,0.0,0.0,0.12538836539708054,0.0,0.0,0.15740407638843248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048968949850131,0.0,0.0,0.1123423451715673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392028531821985,0.0,0.11887839637115608,0.0,0.0,0.22266752498711845,0.0,0.0,0.11752065586227295,0.10120710177143777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488553576461085,0.0,0.1076257176329394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858591748471986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27428812489189897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531363066856944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071230486070912,0.0,0.1058859112801136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17210290044497034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058007958291676,0.0,0.25498305162415696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878101209265566,0.09246619402072992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303712644327564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320283219098868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788734554757656
EDAnonymous,min_imalist,2019/06/19,"I just found the most disgusting subreddit of all **Warning:** It is \*super\* triggering.

It's basically a subreddit run by a few guys that have an EXTREME EMACIATION fetish. They're posting pictures and selfies of very very very thin girls and salivating over them. I'm a very hard person to trigger, but honestly, this made me break inside. How does one report a whole subreddit?

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(the sub in question is r/  sinandbones. I'm warning you again, it's triggering)",3.5831818181818207,6.784000738095237,4.385800865800866,77.21980519480522,83.28571428571428,8.292640692640694,32.63636363636364,8.841846274778883,3.8425142857142855,378,21,60,11,11,121,64,84,0.084,0.866,0.05,-0.2006,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,7,0,3,1,1,5,1,13,7,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,3,4,2,6,5,4,7,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,1,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21977104013839885,0.2464660561879595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17750179270464522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22239750335188446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083799353941126,0.0,0.0,0.1816998250538497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192685944309404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744587165785074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771072166859942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942593329826365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272210030939452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.669438650010431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264574180444127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464660561879595,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oathkeeperkairi,2019/06/19,"How to cope with recovery when you’re higher BMI? I recovered from 10 years of Bulimia at 175 pounds and just hit 200 pounds yesterday. I gained that in less than 6 months. I am an older woman who is also African-American, so my body has a lot of natural muscle and I am also tall. So 200 pounds on me looks more like 150 or 160 on someone else shorter, but it is so misery-inducing for me. I’m struggling with chronic pain that has developed from this weight gain in my stomach and joints and back, and my fiance and best friend and mom seem to care about me less and less as I gain weight. My mom just offers diet pills, my fiance tells me I’m not trying hard enough to lose weight, and my best friend just gives my
Body weird looks and says nothing. I also am struggling with getting older and feeling more irrelevant in the world. Im so depressed and just binge and binge and binge to cope with the depression and I don’t know what to do. I’m more ashamed of my
Binging than I ever was of my Bulimia, so I am just too terrified to seek therapy again. The treatment center my insurance allows me to go to sucks too so it just feels like a nightmare.

I guess this was just a vent but I feel so disgusting because 200 pounds is a lot. I went to see a a few plastic surgeons too and they all said I need “diet and exercise “ and I don’t WANT to do that. I CANNOT do that. What is the point of recovery if everyone just wants you to diet and exercise and be skinny again? 

Sorry for this, I know no one cares, but I needed to get it out",3.276099300507475,4.292047447949528,4.488687422850088,87.42924838842409,72.94321766561514,7.910519818954875,25.454532985872998,8.321376580360154,1.4313764641338644,1199,37,259,19,23,395,158,317,0.14400000000000002,0.7090000000000001,0.147,-0.4178,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,6,28,18,2,3,11,0,19,16,4,2,2,56,46,38,0,5,14,2,7,2,2,0,6,2,0,1,13,25,7,0,6,2,0,2,5,10,0,1,4,12,34,8,36,40,13,23,0,3,3,0,13,11,1,6,12,181,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25848983730849223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284890961704583,0.0,0.06568007869451259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261425194899653,0.0,0.0,0.2393598154347053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970550260239724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560044907534354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900067475034003,0.0,0.0,0.11132892388595078,0.0,0.0,0.09746111554466104,0.0,0.10295453648294442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343664817031173,0.07697272929446121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648634681135946,0.0,0.1125841625879707,0.10335839182300444,0.061233711730418326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869277097444655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651795517609864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638260494168146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184271757503498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527709118941422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809565746127793,0.12053859341281972,0.0,0.18320112982263387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523782335957811,0.08600067325926511,0.0,0.0,0.15978243978418533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338380328522387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301049671281001,0.0,0.11464779961159435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10185342751512824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248974196285272,0.08568279209666607,0.0,0.0,0.08585845800601583,0.098086593305591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129160904860477,0.0,0.0,0.12061120450129625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252759986666461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417348725781567,0.0,0.12321528495032727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315147809621042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710105636765456,0.0,0.0,0.3936115124197197,0.0,0.09988027891337888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938395877939789
EDAnonymous,mel________,2019/06/19,Best calorie counting app? Not my fitness pal. Pls list below.,1.384242424242423,2.3220013636363674,1.9309090909090896,87.74969696969698,126.27272727272728,1.4666666666666668,30.93939393939394,3.1291,1.1944303030303032,49,3,7,0,3,15,11,11,0.11800000000000001,0.522,0.359,0.5699,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gethighoffyourhorse,2019/06/19,"A Cute Boy Asked me Out I can’t wait to see how I fuck this up! 

Date is this weekend... should I start a fast? I’ve been making progress in therapy, but there’s no way recovery is going to win over a flat stomach.

I’m ready to get hurt again...",0.10611111111111173,1.6035670185185182,2.170148148148151,98.7396666666667,82.51851851851852,5.801481481481483,20.059259259259264,6.742157984588678,-0.058314074074074185,185,5,48,2,5,62,44,54,0.163,0.624,0.213,0.4574,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,3,0,5,2,1,2,0,6,14,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,4,2,7,12,0,11,0,1,1,1,2,4,1,0,5,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535982878502271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496717877350465,0.1976119645186848,0.0,0.21495943641919854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40490795614297465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25247452880414384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014040015416276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677163926816219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325442221722456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30022501566634396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Savesomeposts,2019/06/19,"Boyfriend confessed that he had disordered eating behavior in college and I panicked I didn’t know what to say you guys, I felt like such a chicken. 

He said he used to restrict himself and fast and constantly worry about getting down to zero (!!) percent body fat. He would go days without eating. He said he misses the willpower he used to have. 

I didn’t know what to say. I feel like, of all fucking people, I should be able to have a meaningful response. “It’s hard to feel comfortable with recovery but maybe what you were feeling wasn’t willpower and it’s good that it’s gone.” “I’m so proud of you for making so much progress since college and you don’t ever have to pretend you’re not still fighting that battle because I am too.” “I think you deserve to eat.” NOPE I mumbled something that might have been “me too?” And then he changed the subject because he probably thought I was talking about the willpower to study for tests or something and I sounded like an idiot trying to relate. Jesus fucking Christ.

I feel so fucking stupid! It’s been in front of my face THIS WHOLE TIME but I have such a poor model for what a healthy relationship with food is supposed to look like I missed it. We’ve been together for years!! Fuck!! How did I not realize that waking up early to do pushups and eating a bag of chips for dinner was CUH-LEARLY not healthy??

OF COURSE the person who I’ve spent years going “he’s so kind and mature and healthy and perfect and I don’t even deserve him, I’m so lucky to have found someone who’s not a dysfunctional train wreck who can still relate to me” has a history of ED. DUH YOU IDIOT. Everyone who can understand you will be like this. Your best friend. Your boyfriend. Your boss. This is your life. Don’t fucking kid yourself.

GAH I feel stupid for not having a better response, for not seeing it sooner, and most of all for telling myself that finding someone like him was some kind of sign that I’m finally getting better. What a jooookkkee.",2.273683691093016,4.834379694300523,2.881850481125092,90.77039723661484,81.07253886010362,5.230594621268196,26.029854428818158,6.5431188927421005,1.0392641993585,1566,65,302,15,42,487,191,386,0.11800000000000001,0.68,0.20199999999999999,0.9916,3,0,2,0,2,0,41.0,0,11,0,6,16,30,11,0,14,1,35,16,4,5,4,58,70,23,0,2,10,0,7,6,1,4,2,5,0,3,25,15,7,1,16,1,2,4,14,13,0,1,19,14,35,17,40,45,8,20,3,2,2,5,41,4,5,5,18,195,60,4,0.09120476433008697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119515560720833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571377327762594,0.1613264047468089,0.0,0.10130793252839992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648254734105216,0.0,0.0,0.09855994915469536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588195278110077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452856153249908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37330097281622104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060239886667403875,0.0824999309078638,0.0,0.08715006081170748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23057934620918666,0.06515670186098771,0.08757087657387781,0.09991036126994957,0.08335950228407851,0.0,0.11028516305511776,0.1000013165272843,0.07046457467822521,0.42158667484586265,0.09530145004928686,0.0,0.1036675387668144,0.07649822913934229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030705587940747,0.0,0.0,0.08170155439835447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899514541650339,0.10024750653033664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442062229166391,0.2673482455265208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658903153041023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06087988840693472,0.0,0.09162744452309708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675384198482856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704599593729768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632298998356885,0.07963648228127633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833416180876844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979197844603004,0.0,0.0,0.17351323311758113,0.1450593785729563,0.0,0.0,0.07267838885043483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544552353787698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545550016924712,0.14042776688586658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14567248521600878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330693479345371,0.07971698403720963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05844033029574496,0.0,0.07240639520705296,0.053182231530159635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192204814216363,0.0,0.0,0.09494737617639062,0.0,0.15754326599147295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182686226463418,0.0,0.08791813816459887,0.0,0.0,0.0926228653618181,0.0,0.06478924778756745,0.0,0.0,0.11746575592583534
EDAnonymous,SubWhereItHappens,2019/06/19,"help convince me that if I broach the eating subject with a new doctor, the conversation won't go like this: Me: I don't eat enough. 

Doctor: Eat more then.

Me: Excellent suggestion I'll try that, thank you. 

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Okay but seriously though - 

I think if I felt like I had any idea of what to ask *for*, I wouldn't be so uncertain about bringing it up at all? I'm shit with self-advocacy. I don't know where I fall on the spectrum of disordered eating <-----> eating disorder, and am trying to avoid self-diagnosing, and maybe it doesn't matter? But uNcErTaInTy and what happens *after* opening Pandora's box? Like, I don't know if I need to brace for a full messy interrogation and recap of my food habits going off the rails, or if I'll get a 'cool cool, here's a referral to a specialist, go away.' 

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Obviously no one here is going to answer that question for me, but I don't suppose anyone has any stories/insight about raising ED issues upfront with a primary care doctor and what sort of path things went from there?",4.916631130063962,6.067336288557215,5.8600319829424325,78.6207089552239,69.19900497512438,8.926936744847193,29.78002842928216,9.23628265651192,2.5282506041222472,818,31,156,16,14,270,125,201,0.145,0.732,0.12300000000000001,-0.7509999999999999,0,1,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,1,0,1,8,14,1,2,10,3,12,10,1,0,2,32,29,16,0,6,8,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,10,9,6,1,7,0,0,7,8,4,0,1,3,3,17,10,24,23,4,18,0,0,0,0,6,8,1,8,6,99,27,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22308640045155428,0.2501841246864793,0.14001519221358802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198304492906976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624169376579847,0.0,0.09672224162423892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104961486338003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448919604833383,0.0,0.0,0.23597271878651024,0.3161123284114967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5267032055020258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063719313814974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884541377349336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448410934956992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05378563988330376,0.0,0.23402896408466706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103582982643924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900330845488356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621480805163015,0.0,0.1074500840744468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315412898022692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508843406882677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342425497194356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633401153730396,0.0,0.09942700451120848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975965701797407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532437498429772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147926707397311,0.0,0.10567377596948707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477990961231847,0.0,0.0,0.06839351586116761,0.06596438056971173,0.10114505781635813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978872222777616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543304474785748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501841246864793,0.0
EDAnonymous,sketchypotato_,2019/06/19,"Am I seriously relapsing? Possible TW

To start I’ve never considered myself recovered. For the past 3 years though symptoms have been mild in comparison and to everyone else I am for all intents and purposes ‘recovered’

However I think I’m on my way to a bad relapse which I think is pretty ridiculous and pathetic considering how far I’ve come in life and where I’m at. I recently started my career as a nurse and I’m getting married in a couple months. Besides some recent work drama my life has never been better. I’ve reached huge life milestones that just a couple years ago I figured I’d never reach.

Yet here I am, heavily restricting, lying to my fiancé to make sure he doesn’t catch on (which he has noticed), purging more frequently than before. What the actual fuck is wrong with me!? My fiancé’s never known me at a bad point in my ED and I worry a relapse could be too much. He knows of my history and I’ve told him that I’m in a state where it wouldn’t take much for a relapse to occur but for it to actually happen is different. I don’t want him to resent me but I don’t necessarily want to stop these behaviours because I do need to lose weight for the wedding.",3.408361092604931,5.048909991561184,5.356593382189651,78.87547634910061,73.55696202531647,8.702553852986899,28.50743948478793,9.276330184999452,2.616633755274262,936,38,179,22,19,323,136,237,0.14300000000000002,0.8140000000000001,0.043,-0.9612,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,8,10,3,0,11,0,18,6,0,3,6,34,37,12,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,8,9,1,2,5,1,0,2,8,8,0,0,3,1,24,2,28,31,5,34,0,1,0,1,7,14,1,1,16,115,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.24117309775362725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953739832268967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063516694707337,0.07532715883680363,0.0,0.10514901578181704,0.0,0.0,0.10928767218835177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106444661087697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866063425096272,0.2734558319228935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910440734867412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032269251245456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180764834142652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142385250370944,0.06456025378119051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927259189493498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791087081238506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618435535917534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824328399793712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248397151752834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863243929416833,0.0,0.18167641774541904,0.09162563032952728,0.3812193783108264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406853270911159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796160012369125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168136437258248,0.13930667072289046,0.0,0.12571517057987294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440210442123125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749270424491542,0.0,0.0,0.10331009941623852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164633148241252,0.1284366016910513,0.09290930317858592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835740392191966,0.12140695203227113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180764834142652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576964053077093,0.09808415826486247,0.0,0.15047503751195454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996047204435409,0.12549138949318148,0.0,0.0,0.1351044572289687,0.0,0.15915012854997085
EDAnonymous,tariota,2019/06/19,"i eat one meal a day and still think im eating too much (TW: calories) i fast for 20 hours. 8pm-4pm. during that period, i only drink water.

i have dinner with my family. maybe 500-700 calories. then i treat myself to a quarter cup of frozen cherries and flax seed pudding. 200 calories.

that's 1000 calories a day, max. and then i go to the gym and run. i need 1600 to maintain so im at a deficit of AT LEAST 1000 calories.

im dropping weight extremely fast. its scary but im proud of myself, unfortunately.

but then i feel so guilty when i eat dinner. like im cutting off my progress even though im gonna be at a deficit even when i eat

yeah. okay. thats my life ig.",-1.1615911193339483,0.8489536241134772,1.1115078630897308,98.01260869565218,101.41134751773049,3.5869256860931236,18.187172371261173,5.511479884284512,-0.4507005242059825,515,17,117,4,23,171,86,141,0.128,0.743,0.129,0.0429,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,1,0,6,2,2,11,0,0,0,10,7,14,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,10,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,15,4,12,5,2,19,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,13,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103297587537054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470836951682882,0.0,0.479269036320395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468008140096615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103865985857176,0.0,0.059206671881601725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654769880138843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531483525399053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7588951563293143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270755185008809,0.05720662652301036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176375103064746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607818409792663,0.08682434378077104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934649733424949,0.08905590603282224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351209438482316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07502964852137192,0.11504509057907696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425899755382318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Irene_sel,2019/06/19,"Kinda lost a friend I used to be pretty close with one friend. We are in different classes.. last year she always came to talk to me on breaks, but this year not anymore.
I feel like it's because of her own weight issues, but I'm not sure. She always commented how fat she is and I'm skinny. She said she felt inferior : /. I never liked being called skiNNY since I didn't feel like I was, but never said anything to not make the other person feel even worse or something.

I have told her before that I was struggling with my weight, not sure if she understood me. I did give advice how to lose weight like: eAt mOre vEgeTables and lESs sUgaR. I wasn't going to tell her how I ate once a day and starved the rest, then also exercised 2 hours a day..

Anyway, I'm not as extreme now, I let myself eat whatever and whenever without worrying about it cuz life sux atm. I miss exercising a lil, but it's ok, I'll get back to it eventually.

For the friend, I don't have anything against her, if she doesn't want to be close friends, I understand, though I do hope she takes care of herself and not beats herself up. She's pretty, her body is pretty, she's smart as well. I hope she doesn't become insecure about her body like me.

Really wanted to get this off my chest since I've been wondering about her...",2.142840909090907,4.071144268939396,3.494696969696971,89.59954545454548,77.90151515151516,6.672727272727273,21.60606060606061,7.645422480735847,0.7761696969696974,1013,28,215,15,24,331,145,264,0.157,0.6759999999999999,0.16699999999999998,0.7027,1,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,0,3,13,23,0,2,7,1,19,17,6,6,4,47,48,21,0,6,14,0,7,5,4,0,4,2,0,1,8,11,11,0,7,2,1,2,14,6,1,1,14,10,43,17,25,30,4,20,0,4,0,0,34,6,0,7,16,139,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151929489552843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07489645301055678,0.1558581390259767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288131757695696,0.0,0.0,0.15414137071697884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201547492991224,0.0,0.05709166339645056,0.10343539502922812,0.07969412769820984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806080450960904,0.0,0.0,0.09563297111475964,0.10711720432876397,0.0954882580094413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080039511025326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09785030367755612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166638482773649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185872601868642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206545256108416,0.13381534367597028,0.08992418745918547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894327370242015,0.0,0.09786250628808543,0.08984310969850318,0.053226709348026494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860425429848669,0.09223202800592792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097752249031577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634191957184126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957693287404548,0.06615181144505064,0.22877729339739755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047768050555224,0.10223629211394762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251592666177036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446614450093986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974029528025784,0.0634635461099662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177657049270391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858446401034349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059998258482708976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817609132131335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15494597443826896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07210075614160474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790930326831307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653883328797929,0.0,0.07041745295295783,0.0752769277222379,0.08185923558953248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201627867622304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894920630250848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749891731231608,0.0,0.08088847992744372,0.0,0.0,0.11048115154103304,0.0,0.0,0.3421423424377219,0.08420774838354593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028078108486454,0.10156564351109196,0.0,0.09511193942173646,0.09544318955035833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062243829429325
EDAnonymous,littlejanedoe-,2019/06/19,Triggered at the hospital I’m sitting in the waiting room at emergency and all the nurses are SO thin.. I just keep watching them. I probably look like such a creeper. There’s also this girl who is rail thin sitting in front of me throwing up and my sick brain is like “hey girl come cough on me!”,2.860500000000002,4.5670107166666725,3.84,88.905,75.16666666666666,6.8000000000000025,28.66666666666667,7.554174236665415,1.6445666666666665,233,10,48,3,5,75,47,60,0.1,0.82,0.08,-0.2942,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,1,1,8,8,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,7,8,1,14,0,0,2,0,5,9,0,0,2,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201325106627934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4468849787828809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34483673384064617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355819198738756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911482927375705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361645654327527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4316082879114788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cartoonz0mbie,2019/06/19,"What should I do? I'm feeling desperate. I suffer from depression. I've had it for as long as I can remember and it has left me with no friends and no hobbies. What should I do? Does anyone have suggestions for things to do? I know this probably isn't the right community for this post, I'm sorry. I just know there are a lot of like minded people here and I need help!",0.4644011544011555,2.733112467532472,2.6116017316017337,91.57708513708515,86.66233766233766,6.53910533910534,20.243867243867246,7.793537801064563,0.8613330447330454,288,9,64,6,9,97,54,77,0.198,0.68,0.121,-0.7377,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,11,0,0,0,0,14,17,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,8,2,9,14,1,4,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17894536219296825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22042370300232367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22395750153790456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940094838299224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977233204246817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153792307812862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812941104943367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780580584065245,0.0,0.0,0.12502968821947094,0.0,0.0,0.2264813336746612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21757421186692055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25840645877700097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897615939370849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774228511663139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24510081955962454,0.0,0.2759252727032471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899077107566169,0.21855446213900315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864817240711953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17002201670527914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wazoo900,2019/06/19,"Seeing my boyfriend’s Instagram likes is destroying my self esteem Trigger warning: numbers/weight 

Not that I had much self esteem to begin with. 

This is my first post here so I apologize if I break any rules.

We follow a lot of the same famous models on Instagram. He always tells my that he likes my body and that he thinks I’m very skinny, but I’m a cow compared to the models he likes on Instagram. It’s so triggering to see a picture of a super tiny model with a bunch of comments calling her anorexic and then seeing that he liked the photo - just makes me want to die. I will never be thin enough for him. 

He knows that I have issues with eating and always tries to be supportive but the other day I was talking about how I want to see a therapist but that I was scared because I didn’t think they’d believe that I had an ED because I’m not thin enough. His response was just “Oh that’s fine, I’m sure they know that not everyone with an ED is super skinny.” Like, I realize I have an extremely warped perception of myself but I’m 5’9 and just got down to 115 pounds. And he still doesn’t think that I’m skinny :( 

I feel crazy and wish that I could stop caring so much about what he likes on Instagram but I can’t get it out of my head. Any time I try to eat now my mind just flashes back to the models he likes and his “not super skinny” comment. 

I just needed to vent somewhere. I’m really glad that I found this community.",2.39118243243243,4.047676996621624,3.817464864864864,88.78158918918922,76.33108108108108,6.763027027027028,22.31297297297297,7.554174236665415,0.8253574594594602,1125,31,237,15,25,371,150,296,0.07200000000000001,0.731,0.19699999999999998,0.9902,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,1,0,2,4,15,17,1,1,14,0,18,8,6,4,2,52,47,18,1,6,15,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,18,13,6,1,9,0,0,1,8,2,0,1,8,7,34,15,27,34,7,20,0,0,4,0,24,7,0,2,17,150,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18572304591346547,0.0,0.0,0.15178591420637322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581478927230696,0.0,0.13606267453877235,0.0,0.0,0.12573685601875054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12396428762148355,0.0,0.0,0.11395777465447203,0.0,0.11378533220859602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891048459491269,0.0,0.0,0.07197383937609779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582490546352008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22839272309992584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306286995772348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066401705677264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0564291535315585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492831663434212,0.0,0.12236546196459115,0.0,0.0,0.0583072621748667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925804405917677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453550223058488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648314004320452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266670953313034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816605436430256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487974206810364,0.0,0.0,0.07449497594598947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268586450167208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408012515525486,0.08275121822891086,0.0860740817122728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688354258969804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149488236257541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173273266917573,0.0,0.3557283018008746,0.0,0.2328497456427777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912523138694653,0.09330398657337936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664424342986833,0.10518324562693636,0.0,0.0,0.08970118847147067,0.09754477157783872,0.0,0.0,0.12957813120956455,0.0,0.2145295160804516,0.0,0.0,0.06507582655394621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154040546340544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09208305897196636,0.131651103423017,0.0,0.0,0.13590075858002065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833640352091966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pandorisalt,2019/08/21,"when your friends :-) decide to all measure themselves :-) and share it with you :-) and my friend who’s clinically overweight with like a BMI of 30 has the same measurements! as me!!!! and a lower leg circumference and waist !! even though my BMI is in the mid 17’s! yeehaw! 

wow 
I am so glad :-) this information :-) was shared with me :-)

also for context I used to be a model so I kinda obsessively measure bc I had to stop because I gained weight and didn’t fit the standard measurements after I aged out of kids lmaooooo I’m still a fat fuck apparently !!!!!!!!!!!!!!",0.1695714285714267,2.2509233619047606,1.9660714285714285,90.31767857142859,105.85714285714286,4.766666666666668,20.488095238095237,6.508806274219699,0.6531809523809522,423,16,84,7,20,138,78,105,0.09,0.601,0.309,0.9794,2,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,2,0,1,7,9,1,1,7,0,7,7,3,1,1,17,10,11,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,3,9,4,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,12,7,13,6,2,9,0,0,0,1,9,4,1,1,6,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600159504039581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820355332553025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21475323316392167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5024078255398761,0.3005885518405734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884796404226215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596588316631845,0.2718332818455886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194503770326912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808183050017233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959353781851385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sad_Extreme,2019/08/21,"This damn body dysmorphia I weighed myself at work and my weight was down from the last time so I was pretty excited and shared with my colleague who is also working hard on losing weight. 

I look at her and honestly she looks fine. Like she’s not skinny but I really don’t consider her fat. She’s my height and told me she weighs more than me and her work uniform is 2 sizes bigger than mine????? HOW???? I feel muuuuuch bigger than her I’m so confused :(

Like wtf this is all in my end and maybe I look fine to other people???",-0.17064252336448504,2.1403443831775704,1.6854147196261695,94.89017815420559,95.82242990654206,4.917990654205608,16.033294392523366,6.6274283507984215,-0.14899953271028066,407,10,88,6,16,133,71,107,0.162,0.7,0.138,-0.7841,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,4,10,1,1,1,0,6,7,3,1,1,13,12,11,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,7,22,7,11,9,2,11,0,1,3,0,11,8,1,1,5,58,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516084802999544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058261849357254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679131854821777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585824383822007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698280364706628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453445315810635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18524016230369356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776028413087776,0.2120935177385944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904603786888976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143213509714982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287282528524555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145094224856312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054666000426902,0.0,0.0,0.18115351433569826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617190667755496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41405337940893217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girlwithillness,2019/08/21,how bad is tapestry residential in brevard nc? the reviews give me hope i'll be put on the street and get sicker---what's the reality? i'm going to disappoint everybody in my life.,1.779166666666665,4.2677952500000025,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,82.6111111111111,9.155555555555557,28.44444444444445,9.516144504307137,3.3867444444444437,143,7,27,5,4,52,32,36,0.171,0.754,0.075,-0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,6,0,6,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,13,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38475590176252944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24075345477272905,0.4420495625518909,0.2618881254481305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576868778166965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254827154740281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4632398815655899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bbygrl_xo,2019/08/21,"I'm blanking on a recipe blog everyone used to post on ProEd! I think it involved the word skinny. The website was super cute but she had the best recipes and she broke down ingridients, portions, and calories. She had a lot of low cal recipes for food that was pretty calorie dense. Does anyone know what I'm talking about?",4.36967741935484,6.280892096774196,4.091161290322585,87.81674193548392,71.58064516129033,6.250322580645161,30.14193548387097,6.742157984588678,1.5392477419354835,258,11,49,2,5,78,49,62,0.08800000000000001,0.706,0.20600000000000002,0.8588,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,5,0,4,2,1,1,0,8,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,4,3,7,5,3,5,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,1,0,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267280021874183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402876690605903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28375944632651723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30984141609467863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39209279691793175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782031423387569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756716674830226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105485298541941,0.32988589557153114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26062545768083617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077707637519158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28005389885179033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,naby12,2019/08/21,"How tall are you, how many calories do you eat, and how much do you weigh? I’ve been stuck at my current weight for weeks regardless of restrictions. I’m curious to know how my measurements line up with you guys. I’m 21 years old 5’4 and weigh 127 lbs. I try to eat under 1100 calories a day...",2.274590163934427,3.751157114754101,3.289311475409839,93.20937704918032,76.21311475409837,7.50295081967213,23.67540983606557,8.238735603445708,1.080905573770492,228,7,53,4,5,73,44,61,0.034,0.9259999999999999,0.039,0.0772,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,4,0,10,8,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,8,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969934821306567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6019680356672967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912500367974479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616545334220706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982171092773789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21623059896820554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086559527974979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997053123297637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359455719975018,0.3581896637412487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18941989306751855
EDAnonymous,SexyTruckDriver,2019/08/21,"Do I have an eating disorder? I'm assuming yes but I want other peoples input. I'm into bodybuilding and I was on a caloric restricted diet for 5 months. After it was finished I keep thinking about food 24/7. Even after I'm done eating and I'm full I keep thinking about food and eating. I go to sleep thinking about the next meal, and whenever i eat unhealthy I can't stop eating. It's really frustrating as I also have body dysmorphia. So they don't go hand and hand.",0.4558045112781954,2.9251170842105303,2.9553759398496235,85.96013157894741,93.94736842105264,6.082706766917294,21.52255639097744,7.447530270364453,1.3909398496240597,373,14,70,8,14,128,59,95,0.222,0.718,0.059000000000000004,-0.9545,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,3,1,8,13,4,0,0,16,20,9,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,9,4,4,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,2,10,0,10,17,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360716828733534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157799187289883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628157010684719,0.0,0.0,0.14537905370551227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7268259831036544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383080792697256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435645889891437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147455542200392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525429954445224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339277081283328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108486545487487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848811003714142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100874573367854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216489357053624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187704421546146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273083352768127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379202399565967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tryin2Balivetbh,2019/08/21,"My mom always constantly up how much better I looked when i was at the height of my eating disorder My mom doesnt know I had (but am in recovery from) an eating disorder. 

I've never been noticeably skinny, but when I was running 10 miles a day and eating 1/2 a serving of kale and zucchini for my only meal most times, I was 40lbs lighter than I am now. My weight fluctuates a lot because of depression (and some other things) but anyways, 

My mom consistently brings up how much better I looked, but I think she's noticed because now she'll just say i ""look sooo different now"". It really hurts me and makes me feel ugly. She also just suggested I start intermittent fasting and I don't know how to tell her how bad that feels after learning to eat again and finally being ok with my bigger body. 

I was talking to my partner about this and they said ""i like you chubby, you could even be chubbier if you want i'd love it"" and I know they were trying to be kind but that made me feel ugly too. I hate talking about my body and I am really unsure about how to tell the people I love to shut the fuck up about it 

Any advice ???",3.8739473684210535,4.817057403508773,5.1315350877193,83.65282894736843,71.45614035087719,8.33157894736842,25.653508771929822,8.660442795831766,1.678082456140351,880,26,180,15,16,293,132,228,0.157,0.727,0.115,-0.9148,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,2,2,22,12,2,0,7,1,17,12,3,7,1,39,37,23,0,3,8,3,4,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,8,10,7,0,8,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,9,9,38,7,23,23,5,25,0,2,3,3,22,9,1,4,15,131,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982251220753684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169153951067869,0.0849992944292488,0.0,0.0,0.06946739188119681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529330254989771,0.12454277041461825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806916612372196,0.0,0.2269374149110185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039086237722696,0.0,0.08156068083690164,0.0,0.0,0.06588009080125519,0.0,0.08798403784484111,0.0,0.0,0.10672791070466688,0.2341518669518083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181111766886217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747094632002791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549545414301587,0.0,0.0,0.1119033749063638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944385970206545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085471933592403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935666142336213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10637639839979282,0.1684214854811036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04990668730356393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573478165864851,0.0,0.0,0.08684663867913882,0.18439374057483088,0.09665942831797586,0.0681877724198349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589202962578703,0.0,0.0,0.15018809108437434,0.0,0.07878651976876981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23260322920945845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769179070763621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081987390163756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308833704774051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717068445138344,0.08123598902957846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230426191386151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421306665609173,0.17857206074989088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06786576646929747,0.06545537527451062,0.0,0.0,0.05956610623393355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935503065092602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060252355041616176,0.0,0.0,0.12439456325827918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halfwayto500,2019/08/21,"This community makes me feel less alone. TW: Yo-yo dieting, numbers, health problems

Seriously. Thank you all so much for sharing your stories and making me feel like I’m not alone with this struggle. I have been in a very bad place lately. A few years ago, I lost 70 lbs through pretty unhealthy methods. I was really fat (size 18/20) and ppl kept praising me for my weight loss and congratulating me  on how small I was getting, but I didn’t tell anyone about the nights spent on the elliptical cause I went over my cal limit or the days which I ate nothing at all. Once, a friend asked “how I did it”. I told her, while laughing, “just don’t eat!” She thought I was joking but I was really telling someone the truth for the first time. 

Then I went into therapy for my ED and instead of recovering, I went straight into BED and literally gained it all back, plus more. I am now in a worse place than I was before mentally + all sorts of physical comorbidities related to bingeing/restricting for so long. When I was fat before, I had a healthy blood pressure and cholesterol level. After BED, I have to take medication daily to keep my BP from going so high I could have a stroke. I am a lot older than many of you, but still way too young to have HTN.

The numbers were there. This isn’t a case of fatlogic. Statistically, I was at a higher risk of cardiovascular incidents, but the numbers contradicted that. From a medical standpoint, I was in better health before I lost the weight. 

Eating disorders look different on everyone. Looking at me, you’d think I was just another fat gorl who eats pizza way too often and doesn’t care about a proper diet. Because of my size, no one can tell I have relapsed harder than before, and now I only eat a proper meal about twice a week.

Maybe this time I’ll actually lose weight, at least that’s what I’m telling myself.

Thanks for listening.",4.233489010989011,5.846491304945054,5.202527472527475,80.91747252747254,71.39010989010987,8.276923076923078,27.83516483516484,8.841846274778883,2.141896703296703,1481,54,286,28,28,485,213,364,0.102,0.773,0.124,0.9197,1,2,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,4,0,9,20,21,0,3,21,0,27,21,4,5,5,42,55,22,0,2,8,0,6,1,1,0,8,1,2,0,11,12,15,3,4,1,1,4,6,10,0,3,24,9,43,11,41,29,10,45,1,4,2,0,17,19,0,4,21,189,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.08293160738047638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533271824916489,0.0,0.0,0.17603448979963895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911257778931359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942241795408455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944807221194326,0.0,0.0,0.06534704245611221,0.07095764740864569,0.0518051343199337,0.0,0.28925869342755123,0.0,0.0,0.07516097281056948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664631117514678,0.08730143312039693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785238535989707,0.0,0.0,0.054807307427101534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878963799077627,0.09739841885898726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478372224563457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120534715180018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594039146068737,0.0607122077094072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722868958834985,0.0,0.0,0.06565801785281758,0.0,0.04440035533677248,0.0,0.04829806425563027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066690849607567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978970161767141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07553721259310413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586505540187344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04151863059761508,0.0,0.0,0.0752076963799794,0.14272942177021708,0.09507476462583342,0.1855389922187594,0.07224990687182359,0.0,0.0,0.11345425181812055,0.08615989955763645,0.08537731783350469,0.0,0.0,0.17122380994670447,0.08564334909726044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062472628527357785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797512293427885,0.0,0.08154393116072943,0.0,0.0,0.09050462163316207,0.057586998434705036,0.06463375818228716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757927598155254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645874075847527,0.0,0.08131770320143916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888517358743066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200621806564572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678679086523503,0.0,0.0,0.08884317438369517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389699286502819,0.0,0.29711719314217616,0.15648272195718374,0.09718600394511874,0.0,0.0,0.054453975879432966,0.0,0.06746738216858827,0.09910908916161923,0.0,0.0,0.08120534715180018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012026266283232,0.0,0.13491184513084842,0.06816861324165442,0.3104609141170145,0.0,0.236341583378112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660541592989578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472656817196776
EDAnonymous,mtngdss,2019/08/21,"Made a diet plan... This time for the goals of recovery and maintenance instead of weight loss!!! This is the first time I have ever done this. Ive spent hours of my life since i was a young kid making diet plans after diet plans, copying crash diets i would see in magazines, and doing ridiculous stuff trying to lose weight. It was one of the things that planted the seeds for the awful cycle of restricting, binging, purging, feeling guilty, ashamed, afraid, etc, all the bad things that ride along with an ed.

I am proud of myself for making a diet plan for recovery. I included 3 main meals AND snacks. Which is a huge win for me because I never thought I could do this. It feels weird to eat regular meals??

One of my end goals for recovery is just to have less food rules in general, so one day i hope to not follow any diet plans at all, but i think this is a step in the right direction for me, it feels right.

Its been only a few days but I'm feeling more energetic, and more in control, less likely to b/p which is really nice.",4.898659447348769,5.309125199029129,5.483203883495146,83.97445481702762,68.85436893203882,8.66855862584018,27.011202389843174,8.617729084823388,1.7305934279312916,805,23,165,12,13,260,123,206,0.08900000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.1,0.7504,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,13,4,12,1,2,14,1,17,14,0,4,4,29,31,7,0,3,4,0,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,16,6,13,2,6,0,1,3,2,7,0,4,7,7,15,5,27,22,9,22,0,2,1,0,1,8,0,1,12,113,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108512904574876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411412407334445,0.0906138958016963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672036850404934,0.11868261819239168,0.0,0.0,0.19173017151931093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211759806805775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521030986859292,0.0,0.0,0.13165721464762853,0.0,0.16578081568634606,0.0,0.13445981710461674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006417714847721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643915197600408,0.17974466997196595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764011592769094,0.14638745620832416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049938466103258,0.07262146727711112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629808856341746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065348533195218,0.19844619432925245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464581154150452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30218137705051445,0.11305282200471475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522714209047614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25388763175404816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11845249765362162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296242172122893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016537225425582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19750906362138765,0.09524706307784626,0.0,0.11800919770003032,0.1733546451753218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092162716156854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362024257397126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559463883177192,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,veronika-k15,2019/08/21,"Brain fog I restrict during the week and have ""cheat days"" on the weekend so overall my weekly calories balance out. I have been fairly happy with this eating regime. However, I get quite bad brain fog during the week - I drink a lot of water and take a multi vitamin. Anything else I can do to help?",4.8224137931034505,5.880851413793106,5.527068965517246,81.26232758620691,69.34482758620689,7.179310344827586,28.29310344827586,7.1686216300943375,1.637675862068965,234,8,42,2,4,76,45,58,0.149,0.7140000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.2006,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,5,0,5,6,2,0,0,6,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,5,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613762126985764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888617628818855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5050125386950085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587581575077216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22158309309241575,0.0,0.23145197673591345,0.18895528304570453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817654175021686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24078672589968605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161244488704126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230125685088711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24058416944462424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700690363343433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5443153038553377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,waywardkittymama,2019/08/21,Writing about Eating Disorders I'm currently recovering from disordered eating having only recently approached my GP after a couple of years. I'm writing a blog about my experiences as I think we each experience things in different ways and I've often found that a lot of writing and research tends to deal with younger people (I'm nearly into my thirties and didn't have an eating disorder until my late twenties). I'm using Recovery Record alongside meeting a clinical advisor as an outpatient but would like to be able to discuss things with people outwith this network and I'm not sure how and who - is reddit a good idea as I've never used it before? I'm interested in how other people experience their disorders and recovery as I don't think they can all be catalogued into neat distinctions  - I sometimes feel I'm not exhibiting what is expected because there is quite a tight diagnostic criteria around disordered eating (I'm specifically referring to anorexia which is my own clinical diagnosis). Do other people find it helpful to be in contact with other people recovering from eating disorders? Thank you!,10.223869346733668,9.80698779396985,10.612206030150755,54.42242964824123,57.99497487437186,13.990150753768845,44.02060301507538,13.023866798666859,6.427355376884424,917,48,126,30,10,311,118,199,0.022000000000000002,0.865,0.113,0.9636,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,2,1,7,6,0,0,8,0,14,7,0,4,4,40,30,14,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,12,14,5,1,7,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,2,12,6,27,24,4,16,0,0,0,0,13,7,0,2,8,91,24,1,0.0908169481274534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084633814454972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05536116864605859,0.0,0.07727853387216986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004872257370669,0.0,0.0,0.0936282857605941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094884381391102,0.6245045433927655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4646420520517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665092050241431,0.0,0.0,0.04591977771721272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300504530075434,0.0,0.0,0.09957609607834364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617294730838836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060872685990725775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252128015897596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10244547319559306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0443685735138331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07720932165316259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004362908315291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907038141934399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31480518455698103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659500321265464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967078003760268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982028388140208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559389883569117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361204419397239,0.0,0.0,0.12066948985614705,0.11638366666485862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687336862792978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720862662425908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451375428420701,0.0,0.0,0.058483137043475325
EDAnonymous,rosegoldiehawn,2019/08/21,"Toxic mentality to recovery I have this on-off cycle with wanting to recover. Life situations change and sometimes, even when I'm happy and steady with recovery I start losing weight unintentionally (busy work days etc) but then I continue it ""by accident"".

You know, that type of ""oops hahah I have been so busy today!!"" and ""i haven't lost weight, i've always been naturally skinny! :-)"" while drinking excessive amounts of coffee and water to curb hunger etc. I know it's harmful to my recovery progress. I'm lying to myself and others.

It feels unrealistic to ever say to anyone ""hey, can you watch out for my behavior with food? i have this need to lose weight and i keep lying to myself about it, thanks and though i am an adult i don't want to take care of myself""

I know that I should want to recover but it feels more like I want to find a way to consistently be underweight in a ""healthy"" manner. All I can think about is losing weight, if I'm not below a specific number or if my bones don't visibly pop out enough or I can't feel them with my fingers. It's all I can think about. It's tiring but I still choose to not recover.

Like. I acknowledge that when I'm unhappy or bored with my life, I seek a false sense of control from dieting and exercise. 
...And? Then what? Idk.",1.585902957612106,4.09476747035573,3.5302003543682723,85.29146245059292,83.78260869565217,7.12601880877743,21.372359274908,8.216663640201805,1.3853359411203492,1002,32,201,23,29,337,137,253,0.147,0.774,0.079,-0.9257,0,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,1,7,10,11,0,0,5,0,16,16,3,1,3,49,39,24,0,8,10,0,8,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,14,16,10,3,11,2,0,0,6,6,0,0,3,10,30,5,33,34,7,16,0,4,1,0,6,4,0,5,13,133,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262625162247748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783677094752799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349704890163508,0.0,0.11776064760230875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248536244583274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179148848756693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905015334386868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502219260586055,0.2483000234442921,0.07352509091999067,0.10069432823445004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16885855866135965,0.07952625234549279,0.0,0.0,0.1017434680500235,0.0,0.13460726919231086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850105085218515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989453629969634,0.0,0.0,0.18353388692878364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725567802835627,0.10876959407403088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736121618000796,0.12151774142147695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11218327991993833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825415620774278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852526613521271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512712017652464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009724951319824,0.0,0.07879209824483291,0.0,0.08889942621558415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369796735154834,0.0,0.0,0.1024874971903578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426573267679792,0.10937026497675946,0.0,0.0,0.12794471265714238,0.10551731156152973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626351118044645,0.08835977017690842,0.0,0.5422257770113769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810414930959643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hm119,2019/08/21,"Life without an ED IS POSSIBLE! Neuroplasticity IS YOUR FRIEND I’ve seen some posts recently where people have said it is impossible to fully recover from an ED. 
I don’t think this is true. Yes, some people will never fully recover but others do!

I was diagnosed with severe chronic bulimia. I suffered for 6 years. I honestly thought I would never recover either. I was very attached to my disorder. It affected my life negatively in so many ways. I semi recovered and relapsed multiple times. Fast forward to now: I have been ED free for a long time now. I consider my fully fully recovered. What’s different this time (other than the length of time I have been ED free) is how my brain reacts in situations/ my thought process. 

The times that I considered myself “semi-recovered” I would still think about using my ED as a coping method to deal with stress, anxiety or bad body image. Maybe I wasn’t acting on the behaviours  but I was still in the same thought process.  It was still consuming a lot of my time, and one major setback in life could trigger me into relapse. 

Now, I don’t think of going back to my ED ever. I have rewired my brain and learned new coping strategies for dealing with stress, anxiety, adhd, and life in general. When I was in the depths of my ED it consumed my whole life. Now I don’t think about using food/purging/restriction to cope. It is no longer in my brain as a possible coping method. I am focused on other things such as career, school, friends, family, health, etc. 

Now, I live a healthy lifestyle. I don’t view foods as bad. I go to the movie and eat a bag of buttery popcorn because that’s something I go to with friends and that’s what I’m craving and it’s yummy. I also eats salads sometimes because my body craves it. But the main difference is my thoughts. I have rewired my brain to chose other coping methods and thought processes. I never think about using an eating disorder as a viable way to get through a difficult situations. I don’t think of foods as bad/good. I don’t see super skinny people and want their body. To me now underweight is as undesirable as overweight.  I am not triggered by things like in the past because I have made new pathways in my brain. (I study neuroscience at university. Yes, I am educated in this. Our brains are plastic.)

LIFE COMPLETELY ED FREE IS POSSIBLE WITH THERAPY, DEDICATION, MAYBE MEDS IN SOME CASES, AND SELF-CARE.  KEEP GOING. HAVE HOPE. 
(This post is to give hope to people suffering or in semi-recovery. I know how hard it is. I know it seems impossible. I know everyone has different circumstances.)",2.8365094339622634,5.5113275243902455,4.267369228409265,81.00176023930052,79.65040650406505,7.696947384568185,27.5757017947538,8.622042349995798,2.5243158766682003,2050,90,369,49,53,677,226,492,0.109,0.7659999999999999,0.125,0.8982,2,0,4,0,0,0,74.0,1,1,1,1,21,19,0,2,19,2,42,26,10,10,5,68,75,28,0,6,8,0,1,1,3,3,10,1,0,0,24,16,8,1,16,0,3,6,14,7,0,1,16,5,57,15,59,55,10,56,0,2,3,0,10,19,0,9,30,250,81,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094427457371219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04720739145725422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031772306598536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04539150492904192,0.14786626667607491,0.10795498563285022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19671174235738367,0.0,0.3953914100025592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06189330267119855,0.0,0.0,0.04713177167244453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171756836438505,0.0,0.05991563119701234,0.0,0.18502575506211894,0.13531020360065546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812115866785643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583561832057197,0.0,0.05339728340522668,0.0,0.0564070350694307,0.0,0.0,0.0556495528589229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21414301959679935,0.0,0.13682254600882224,0.0,0.03084147150919469,0.05662830052414445,0.1341956262638825,0.049512739906574524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05288054192104343,0.0,0.0,0.06274762069776985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172630051406004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05246982309947321,0.0,0.0,0.09732634545195956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501737531991912,0.0288397615957054,0.0,0.052125810139798126,0.05224093382996579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050186387640997976,0.0,0.055856940608208415,0.0,0.05984857705048905,0.11860995685828232,0.0,0.06557058078579456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658597093005556,0.11402579326118267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040001206252803366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05635215347393501,0.16369976769949166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19964711093155016,0.11307153210849605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058286388620971075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05615238207704668,0.0,0.0,0.05974293112619008,0.047040385175789484,0.053739972005468886,0.061582627346036735,0.0666886824945646,0.0,0.0,0.13270754003520638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045445257855682514,0.058383566755658485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142766348695465,0.0,0.13524054482353273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750755369030667,0.0,0.07843568191890737,0.2269496358183859,0.0,0.2343216995866188,0.20653011399317164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295253578078752,0.0,0.048707089543085495,0.03481825079694118,0.09371275964563952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06590645304517917,0.0,0.05690416571715549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386842964966489,0.0,0.0,0.03801428795489538
EDAnonymous,NCAshleyRDH,2019/08/21,"How to save your teeth TL;DR - tips for taking care of your teeth with an ED, feel free to ask me any questions,

I struggle with BED but have never been able to purge. I’ve tried and tried and nothing ever happens. I’m severely overweight and attempt everything to maintain a healthy diet but I fall short. A lot. 

Anyway, earlier I read a post where someone emphasized their dental routine.  I’m a dental hygienist and have been for over 13 years.  I wanted to offer the advice I’ve learned over the years to help with your recovery or current status, whatever that may be. 

1) I stressed this on another thread but PLEASE do not be afraid to come to the dentist, for fear of judgement or punishment or anything of the like.  I have worked many places but overall, we are VERY sympathetic and understanding of what everyone goes through. There are so many ways people “ruin” their teeth and cause themselves pain that is due to a less than ideal circumstances.  We would like to know if you purge.  We’d like to know if you binge.  We’d like to know if you don’t eat.  We want to know how to help your TEETH and give you advice on how to maintain them as well as possible.  If you don’t want to talk about it, don’t!  We aren’t there to tell your parents (if you’re underage) or spouse what we discuss. We’re not going to call anyone.  Moral of the story is, you can be transparent about your ED.  We’ve seen it all.  I guarantee we’ve seen worse.

2) I know most of you are good at this, but inadequate vitamin and mineral intake is vital for healthy teeth and gums.  If you’re restricting, please find a good vitamin supplement containing calcium (for obvious reasons) and B12 and C. Those promote good gum health.  It doesn’t matter if you’re cavity free if your foundation is poor,

3) Protect your teeth when you purge!  Wear a night guard, Invisalign trays, whitening trays, or sports guards when you purge.  I know during a harsh purge it can be hard to keep them in but do your best.  Any barrier between your teeth and the acid will help tremendously,

4) When you purge, do NOT brush your teeth afterwards.  Rinse with some water.  You can add a small amount of baking soda to the water if you like (baking soda is alkaline, it helps to balance the acidity in your mouth).  If you brush immediately afterwards, you’re basically scrubbing away more already weaker enamel and will speed the process of tooth decay.  If you really feel like you need to do something, wipe your mouth and teeth with a towel or piece of clothing.  As a last resort, brush with no toothpaste.

5) Use a fluoridated mouth rinse, the strongest you can find.  The strongest over the counter one is phos-flur.  They sell it everywhere.  You can use it after purging to give your enamel a little boost.  Avoid alcohol based rinses - they’re harsher on gum tissues that are already irritated from malnutrition or purging.

6) If your teeth become sensitive, it is due to one of two things - thinning enamel (due to purging) or gum recession (usually due to vitamin deficiencies and gum inflammation).  For the first, a sensitivity toothpaste may or may not help depending on how advanced it is.  Same with the fluoridated rinse.  For the gum inflammation, try a supplement (listed above).

I can’t think of others at the moment.  Hopefully this doesn’t sound pretentious and assholey.  I’m passionate about my job and offering advice to people it may help.  I’m happy to answer any dental questions (ED related or not!) in the comments or by a private message.  

I’m with you.",4.656915094339624,6.616619474242428,5.125088622069757,80.49810463121787,70.92424242424242,8.496283590623213,28.967981703830773,9.105243231594127,2.5326738136077767,2783,109,508,58,53,887,303,660,0.10099999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.192,0.9968,6,1,2,0,0,0,96.0,7,33,5,7,17,29,1,5,34,0,46,32,15,9,4,119,79,57,0,19,34,2,4,6,0,7,8,1,3,0,21,32,10,8,17,2,4,4,14,9,1,4,4,12,57,22,79,62,10,47,1,1,2,1,66,19,0,34,28,315,78,5,0.08127881904697253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382741638610011,0.0,0.08686233909393283,0.0,0.0,0.1793863958884096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658171523642232,0.08522792860153479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683204010431633,0.0,0.06688554267145264,0.0,0.0759847239748583,0.0,0.07636412602974277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976606988488309,0.0,0.0,0.08529710608515638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299476176371481,0.0,0.08286917296771712,0.08349573644237149,0.0,0.07001450569048583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831685231644727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352134512819486,0.0,0.07766539472665146,0.07304816167091241,0.0,0.0,0.09146126828461884,0.08219402613081822,0.05806560456743313,0.0,0.0,0.14857473623794518,0.06913572196005087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594009887219235,0.046192625935514466,0.2045184515074504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187459125581576,0.08652281424900116,0.07280985707902991,0.0,0.0,0.08639558387800378,0.0,0.0,0.32687687473926896,0.0,0.0,0.08072820677303867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065668637659958,0.07224434890509998,0.0,0.0,0.2680122799407817,0.06625308566275184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382523526077177,0.08146272939697986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910034539566147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16480793059707116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060267214443153534,0.06268723592927992,0.0,0.0,0.07627466569738159,0.0,0.07798921897744203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101532625971978,0.0,0.08648639404880998,0.0,0.0902505098519278,0.0,0.0,0.11269699833888545,0.0,0.08491906658928995,0.1784394714846024,0.0,0.09162965610849004,0.07784264110624015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210175772839512,0.0,0.08130081424972219,0.0,0.05206929274459913,0.08356816294848418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918219304270368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886727961876267,0.06257240582618097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931046126058428,0.08497026919150917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611115566494864,0.06532883596301113,0.07104127035601959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05399803578922184,0.052080185350429416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554894855326824,0.0,0.07939759593457017,0.08461411707940683,0.0,0.14039760644791072,0.08951713619517805,0.06706353792029353,0.14382106000647532,0.06451534334186966,0.0,0.0,0.07307941951698507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0591719482922588,0.0,0.08283006045263946,0.0577381410477259,0.0,0.0,0.10468178927098283
EDAnonymous,pumpkinpie0003,2019/08/21,"extreme fatigue...? the past couple weeks ive been.. extremely fatigued. i constantly feel like i just finished a 10 mile hike. my entire body aches. it’s hard to keep my eyes open. i havent even been restricting low, and im at the higher end of the ~healthy~ bmi range. i havent showered in days because i cant find the energy. caffeine just makes my heart beat fast for a bit but doesn’t help. has anyone else experienced this? not even sure if this is e.d. related but in case it is thought i’d try my luck here",1.3752987012987037,3.6110057333333367,2.6298701298701306,93.20922077922079,82.14285714285714,6.103896103896104,22.87878787878788,7.348242739294969,0.8154761904761911,402,14,88,6,11,129,80,105,0.098,0.7909999999999999,0.111,0.6492,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,6,0,10,5,3,1,1,16,14,4,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,4,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,5,10,3,6,11,1,13,0,3,1,0,1,6,0,2,8,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532999750618395,0.22464061420097914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336486476443557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393568408157,0.24352982113527544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23692406102568694,0.0,0.0,0.2425884813081565,0.0,0.14139375594364728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831495991143119,0.0,0.1941844408586703,0.0,0.0,0.2896161921221636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085597255490427,0.1566274185441757,0.0,0.0,0.20038435465531115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639888439661454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25980430178487085,0.14695412615208986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23682032769979866,0.0,0.0,0.1948734704082798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711117545122742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146346568965072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092924859233224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663416444718327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405464738785914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885177233444818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17586370716218014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frozen_orange_,2019/04/03,"Has anyone been to treatment (inpatient, residential, and/or outpatient) at Walden Behavioral Care? What was it like for you? I’m looking into Walden but I feel like I can only find info from their own website on google. I’m trying to find a really good treatment program in Massachusetts, but I want to make sure I get info from people who have actually experienced the program.

I’d appreciate any information you have to offer. If you want to share but don’t really know where/how to start, I can offer some general things I’d like to know about Walden. Feel free to just say whatever’s on your mind, and if you want to use some of my questions, only answer as few or as many as you’d like. Thank you everyone!!

• How did you feel like you were treated (as a person, as a patient, as a paycheck, etc.) when you were there?

• Was it generally helpful or did it not do anything for you? 

• Praise/Criticism about their approach to treatment? 

•  How were the staff & clinicians there?

• Did you love it? Hate it? Feel indifferently about it?

• Favorite experiences/most hated experiences 

Thanks again everyone!",2.9067647058823525,5.79417467647059,4.2102941176470585,80.01632352941178,81.64705882352942,7.51764705882353,25.16666666666667,8.472884824447931,2.215219607843137,870,34,155,21,24,285,116,204,0.046,0.693,0.261,0.9935,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,12,2,0,10,16,2,0,6,0,17,1,0,4,1,37,39,17,0,5,9,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,9,2,0,0,13,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,9,7,20,15,29,29,5,9,0,0,1,1,24,5,0,7,8,101,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.13369376828192833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844114238629286,0.0,0.09316576466136876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957946822404836,0.0,0.11274061770320802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396822299076894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279296376634965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618217398237039,0.0,0.1340138226730075,0.0,0.0,0.2770884381702756,0.19574789602586776,0.0,0.0,0.2504339034944598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157766508487083,0.0,0.0,0.11491041578254607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27052137102566043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918292635924351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058495845154318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334660231112757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150468129335528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364926459887852,0.0,0.09144961090397367,0.1388980873577601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833252957256106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20839173296060268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497963759099608,0.11962448534242635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534731111623447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755334259970288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894914622542252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697041542888474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291223570992813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25226527533089,0.0,0.0,0.09101775460715696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301507208960257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832536780586746,0.0,0.0,0.2424212243220785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_SirMcFluffy,2019/04/03,"Why is my butt nonexistent Why has starving myself not given me the perfect curves I wanted and instead just turned me into a flat stick (with a better waist tbf)?

Who would've thought that losing weight wouldn't make me automatically love everything about my body hahah nobody could've predicted this

I don't even know if you can have a decent butt at less than 120lbs 5'8, but I sure have an awful one

I guess the best would be to gain weight and do squats and stuff, but the idea alone makes me so anxious",6.120133333333335,6.41375128,5.66,84.16833333333334,66.2,8.266666666666667,25.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.171566666666667,408,9,82,4,6,125,77,100,0.122,0.6970000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.8237,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,5,5,6,0,0,7,1,10,7,4,2,2,21,19,7,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,12,5,6,14,2,2,0,1,0,3,3,2,2,2,0,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890534072698961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621498985426426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156144707636652,0.16143924999846615,0.0,0.20275759162857812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574103811450778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056404701810786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640525944922238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20108521844232533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20606219136414106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031762806512312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421234745935635,0.0,0.0,0.16474687862729456,0.0,0.2436898916784486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369187743741215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896133217481336,0.0,0.0,0.17203907651302294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449140846554492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985479710349541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766512347008288,0.0,0.0,0.4445620757216602,0.0,0.0,0.3294227201385747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25933826733956433,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mab564,2019/04/03,"How long does it normally take you to complete a purge? It seems to take me like 30-45 minutes, and I’m wondering if it takes anyone else that long or if I’m just weird. ",4.623243243243245,3.576649297297301,5.657432432432432,87.45209459459461,69.54054054054055,9.562162162162162,29.31081081081081,8.841846274778883,1.8382,132,4,32,2,2,44,29,37,0.048,0.8809999999999999,0.071,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,9,7,5,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177455677176813,0.2600375655532192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660936989383243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22209309929686288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21200875031050415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123988840606364,0.0,0.0,0.44919184205293744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24866004661244004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23104063468294314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5724548678170791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752241316734369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Such_fruits_as_these,2019/04/03,I drink non-diet drinks ama Full fat coke is worth it and my ed will never stop my addiction to that sugary goodness.,2.8212499999999987,4.518011958333336,3.84,88.905,75.25,6.466666666666668,20.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.4297333333333331,93,2,19,1,2,30,23,24,0.0,0.737,0.263,0.6992,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41132201845320215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7392374832676799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31646851516538804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910036184237228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154468472515859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unharmed,2019/04/03,"What are your go to movie snacks? I am seeing a movie with a friend in an hour and am heavily researching the nutritional values of snacks beforehand so I don't look insane when we go to the store beforehand, HELP",4.74642857142857,6.025212214285716,5.603333333333335,79.82500000000002,69.71428571428571,10.361904761904762,25.904761904761905,10.504223727775694,2.6662761904761907,171,5,34,5,3,56,33,42,0.0,0.736,0.264,0.8969,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,5,8,0,5,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,2,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583547017350265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5272117245300849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31089616100355183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456780131042567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895012447827348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696132769978684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anonymous_fiend,2019/04/03,"Does it really matter what scale I buy? I need a new scale. My old scale died but it sucked and would tell me different weight readings, I usually like analog but it might be nice to get another digital. Plus they look nicer. Any recommendations for a cheap nice scale? Does it even matter? I know those biometrics are not at all accurate unless getting a medical grade machine.",3.1980000000000004,6.101151871428577,4.1739285714285765,80.72232142857145,80.28571428571428,8.642857142857144,24.464285714285715,9.188382445141503,2.5914285714285725,301,11,54,9,8,97,55,70,0.08,0.695,0.225,0.8892,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,13,10,5,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,3,5,7,1,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,4,31,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334140908124985,0.23644666088817606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340237472408752,0.2355897892890559,0.0,0.0,0.39465686398900296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893448135280998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356191689673536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392379217478668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016336653020706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893553975503727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22715815842612144,0.0,0.239209999754191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16719849760444247,0.0,0.21778032414109555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366145590740709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255517219796713,0.0,0.14445511707587935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970888115733521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24834615005814856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27458692626164805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018212434156798,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway12448es-j,2019/04/03,"Does anyone else get dramatic changes in appearance after only losing/gaining a couple of lbs? I literally lost 4 lbs (2 are water and 2 are fat—I counted my deficit and it was 8,000 calories which is a little over two pounds of pure fat) in the last couple weeks.

Yet I look SO different. It’s crazy. Maybe my mind is fucking with me but I can see my collarbones and ribs way more and my face is noticeably thinner too. Even my bf commented.  Am I nuts? Do I have BDD??? How 

I’m not sure if pics are allowed but here’s a couple of my collarbones - don’t judge me for the face I was making in the first pic pls - https://imgur.com/a/UnEblQM",1.5398660714285697,3.931255218750003,3.0022767857142867,89.82218750000001,82.75,6.4696428571428575,22.424107142857146,7.7094869923839395,1.1054825892857143,500,17,103,9,14,163,88,128,0.10099999999999999,0.8859999999999999,0.012,-0.8613,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,0,6,0,13,6,4,3,2,16,21,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,3,2,14,1,10,18,1,12,0,1,2,1,2,5,1,2,5,63,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726836958014132,0.18649477731035125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254660025851691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6041848437853463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901658137073557,0.0,0.0,0.1592816138215128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520492802372102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202184819682072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15482095306540633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16826894229672695,0.09509476435065768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836564333208707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18242577132321647,0.0,0.0,0.1528458570454658,0.0,0.1986897020201188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149570943060616,0.0,0.1828574537002457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378217962454246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207224061923106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842979311365064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450415341538506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17154597186424525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17780115872363614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444741829600303,0.14600059308438562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tokimekanjitera,2019/04/03,"Don't tell me I'm not fat and then berate me for a fucking 170cal soda Like, bruh what the absolute fuck. How tf are you going to assure my tearful ass that I'm not fat at all and then see my food journal with a 860~cal day and bitch at me for allowing myself a small Mountain Dew? I almost NEVER drink full sugar soda anymore but I fucking love Mountain Dew and hate the diet version; so I had one at work because they're free.

And what do I get??? ""Why would you waste your calories on that??? I thought you said you were getting serious about losing weight!"" BITCH I'VE LOST 80 FUCKING POUNDS AND WAS UNDER 1000 CALORIES THAT DAY, FUCKING FUCK YOU.

So instead of actually eating dinner like a normal person who hasn't had anything since lunch, I smoked a couple of clove cigars, bought a 220 cal energy drink (because fuck your disapproval of an occasional 170cal soda) and a large pizza to chew and spit. Because bitching at me about a soda == ""Yes, I actually do think you're fat as fuck."" ...I'm so fucking sad, y'all...",2.793667214012043,4.776484724137934,4.2122742200328425,84.94963191023535,76.14285714285714,6.087465790914067,25.563492063492063,6.937597516519254,1.1775902572523265,801,29,152,8,18,265,122,203,0.22399999999999998,0.6890000000000001,0.087,-0.988,0,0,3,0,0,0,35.0,0,8,0,3,7,22,13,0,11,1,10,31,5,2,3,22,33,16,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,6,9,19,0,2,2,2,1,5,17,0,1,8,4,22,6,17,24,3,14,0,3,1,11,13,8,13,1,7,88,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.1904491517381482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771286149704783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677372072984708,0.0,0.0,0.08030050795910262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17845265873687075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797106251205296,0.0,0.12586281079366485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118365013028646,0.0,0.09984930060477756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799483205267301,0.0,0.0,0.8119051151477009,0.10196365749871356,0.0,0.0554572958285915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634062660690598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534589076958867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916771570351096,0.10652073678102944,0.0,0.08807028875961978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07526016365599088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956082560620929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612313054972555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520360392765285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282148311461016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775909332409482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071966919547185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528973329363611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252569944429323,0.0,0.07746808550961487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882686551214545,0.0,0.0,0.08805130126992597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103982886313841,0.0,0.0,0.06931844864474072,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yabukothestray,2019/07/15,"Post breakup, not eating, need to vent Not sure if this is okay to talk about since it’s only partially ED related. Also not sure if the flair is appropriate, so my apologies if neither is correct.

I’ve struggled with my ED for years, but in the last few months I have been getting help. I have been eating fairly regularly recently, though I am still prone to mildly restricting & only had a few instances of purging, but I have felt more in control of recently since I have been trying to take care of myself and it was a small improvement for me. It’s weird to say...but I felt like, kinda felt like myself again. Not completely. I can’t really explain the feeling.

The past month has been really taking a toll on me. I’ve been with this guy for 3.5 years. He was my first serious boyfriend. I am 21, and was 29. I know he was toxic for me. I know he was abusive to me. I didn’t realize it until a month ago.  He wasn’t always this bad. I don’t know what made it finally click in my brain. Lately I thought about my family, close friends who he didn’t let me see anymore. Maybe that could have been it. I don’t know. It was like I woke up one morning, and I just realized that he never changed like he promised to every time, and that I’ve already wasted almost 4 years of my life.

So about a month ago, I tried to leave him (for the first time).He was able to convinced (more guilt me) me into staying. I knew nothing could be repaired beyond that point, but I stayed because he told me I was throwing away a 4 year relationship, and that he had already invested so much. He told me neither of us could find a better match - that I was the one for him. I felt convinced he was right. I got scared of being alone and that the 3 years I wasted was for nothing 

Ever since, it got much worse. He was belittling me more and more every day. He was more aggressive. A few times telling me that he hated me. He’s threatened to leave me many times before, telling me he could find someone else, some girl who is a model or something, and honestly, at this point I honestly feel desensitized to it. I used to cry and feel like I needed to beg for forgiveness even when I didn’t do anything wrong. It was just the way it was. But 4 days ago he got really, really angry with me over the phone over something I would consider really small. So he threatened to leave me again, but this time he brought up how I wanted to leave him a month ago: “well you know what, I think it’s about time I take you up on that offer? I don’t want you,”— I just feel like time stopped when I heard it this time, if that makes sense? I just said “ok” because I just felt so tired. It felt mechanical. I didn’t really even think about what I was saying....I just..said it

I guess he expected me to cry like usual, because he said “what?” with a shocked tone. I said ok again, and he yelled at me to wait. But I hung up. Then, in a moment of clarity (very brief) I blocked his number because I felt afraid of what he was going to say to me (when I tried to leave him a month ago, he said really awful things to me).  Then a few minutes went by and I had an unmarked number call me 2 times, and I knew it had to be him...but I didn’t answer. We don’t live together, and I am not as worried about him coming to my apartment since I live next to a police station.

The last 4 days I’ve felt really lost. My emotions are just everywhere. I feel guilty for hanging up on him without an explanation. I feel sad because I don’t have anyone to go to since he made me cut off my friends and family. Even if I did talk to them, they would be angry at me for not talking to them in so long, and that it was my fault for not knowing he was going to hurt me so much. I feel regret for being so stupid this whole time and not seeing it for what it was early on.

I’ve been sleeping pretty much at all hours each day. I go on reddit and maybe watch some tv to get my mind off it. But it only works for so long, and my mind hasn’t stopped thinking about it. I don’t want to think. My stomach hurts since I haven’t ate or drank anything, but I just have been ignoring it. It’s not a big deal because I used to fast for 2 weeks at a time...this is no different.....that’s what I keep telling myself. 

I thought I had so much control, and was doing so good, and now I just feel hopeless. But I asked for this? So why do I feel so bad? I don’t even know why I’m doing this to myself. I don’t know what I am going to do with my time now. I don’t even remember the things I liked to do before I met him. All of my friends are gone because the only friends he let me have were through him. I’m exhausted even though I’ve done nothing at all. I feel so alone. I feel like my life has stopped. 

I know a lot of this wasn’t completely related. This is the only place I feel like how I feel is safe to talk about how I feel since people have been nice to me here. I don’t know who to talk to. I just want this feeling to go away.

If anyone ends up reading this, I’m sorry I wrote too much. thanks for taking the time to read anyway",2.1120381754198405,3.3200636604303138,3.5574986636375807,92.22381002494544,76.1000935453695,6.736874693750278,23.016181121653524,7.2636822038024595,0.6216590850371957,3899,110,903,44,84,1285,345,1069,0.152,0.7290000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.9918,1,2,3,0,0,1,141.0,2,2,3,7,58,55,4,4,34,4,101,11,3,10,8,165,198,64,0,20,36,0,23,10,4,2,4,7,0,2,61,30,4,11,49,3,1,13,34,23,1,4,78,34,143,32,116,107,25,123,0,6,4,0,80,39,0,14,77,583,204,3,0.035975264173834155,0.04262480532726205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944950533436253,0.0,0.03602403045395163,0.07451904822417707,0.07939919719487991,0.02876940576231022,0.029934301710955936,0.038979183702042695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03567779521859103,0.05030948235380082,0.0,0.05920915424780384,0.0,0.033632015698845434,0.0,0.06759988984919411,0.0,0.060075685794726184,0.15351130991027645,0.0,0.061224600217048925,0.0,0.0,0.03181719766292285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04016029255219383,0.03673476699715021,0.0,0.03667917945089565,0.0,0.038057059346117854,0.030989504618171026,0.07543876005644305,0.0,0.0806986356195161,0.11489328443567284,0.0,0.07903427685338407,0.09280427693109614,0.037088917694674116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036815185594770455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736233529687584,0.0300527169721661,0.04046733005738451,0.031863406033892434,0.0,0.0,0.14256793617612226,0.03254168606797645,0.06062142333375245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06782855469314275,0.0,0.27285261753049744,0.10280294365593916,0.2763351622533797,0.03940914344541475,0.0657614794160435,0.06120108265658222,0.0,0.0,0.11117759944081204,0.0,0.037591181413113434,0.0,0.12267343008166905,0.03017434475416415,0.08631811548822364,0.0,0.039630809374624015,0.03562116755507207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03551812538971464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024113461249698355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035428388546107664,0.0,0.07702452871240165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03197646776124543,0.0,0.0,0.1977106435550168,0.058649283712444426,0.04058166496029613,0.1904630517100531,0.0,0.07357429003293034,0.05082078600187508,0.17575696894551496,0.0,0.0635336347257778,0.06367395343660033,0.0,0.0,0.03927125054968434,0.0305848831129726,0.0,0.06808132961355874,0.0240137681885388,0.03647327133128052,0.07228397653354494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264952284111524,0.0,0.17229067583708352,0.0,0.15867575120830069,0.05335040508796173,0.027746341535548117,0.0,0.03826010157934631,0.0,0.0,0.10355770869910234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04875554010268954,0.13680404755845565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034342460339915434,0.024940718469940462,0.0,0.03758649411699237,0.0,0.06801650575456125,0.0,0.0344543585970109,0.036599777005719814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196999918247507,0.0,0.18437340343236036,0.0,0.07104246656690619,0.03862397035592285,0.04075296135032757,0.030722679038950464,0.17110357240959004,0.05721794802481395,0.036017515373585565,0.0,0.05733525562678339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20831377197902484,0.0,0.03600124507937715,0.0,0.03048172459034485,0.055391031906806915,0.0,0.04027136290434855,0.0,0.07668968989619665,0.028729892440367163,0.09023079514506344,0.0,0.037609157181771394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678125214681506,0.0,0.10819568592742217,0.14457777312070474,0.09433189968565768,0.03312118982209185,0.0,0.0,0.047800733946755464,0.0922059866603701,0.07069102878879831,0.05712068255604224,0.2727070559872566,0.04134827399267293,0.0,0.06875181320835061,0.0,0.07327452868701764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04327381328367575,0.06214215512184811,0.039621670940438884,0.02968336057786718,0.08487657158672797,0.028555490190476925,0.02885718692576652,0.0,0.0323460829478171,0.03334943030989301,0.0649241606449877,0.0401650976993358,0.0,0.03467887088328031,0.0,0.026190420781879654,0.03653462704940803,0.03666186764593931,0.051111590976675406,0.03933330388250475,0.0,0.11583445316290925
EDAnonymous,dietdrpeppr,2019/07/15,money spent on binge food who else is embarrassed over how much money blown on food? thinking about it makes me want to die a little bit. I'm like a little kid addicted to junk food with no impulse control.,4.243333333333332,5.553677073170731,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,70.95121951219512,7.417886178861789,25.861788617886177,7.793537801064563,1.3834813008130076,164,5,32,2,3,52,34,41,0.191,0.731,0.078,-0.7239,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,3,0,6,6,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,1,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,7,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21991106076946698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202324902370497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262528054143263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20935968710950129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685161458573887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7317834564126775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985531093302017,0.4043647933155626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465363768584585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14829178373131205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925784307101384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898319152500593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abbiyah,2019/07/15,"No one even noticed my relapse My bf has been there for one relapse and another attempt at recovery, but he hasn't noticed I've relapsed again. Even though I only ate carrots around him when we hung out today and have bought a bunch of diet foods.

Family will comment that I'm thin but they don't care too much to notice I'm not eating much in family meals.

Bf has noticed I've been sadder but won't even make more time to see me. Oh well.",4.1039492753623215,4.574677728260873,5.1400000000000015,85.52166666666669,70.6304347826087,7.872463768115942,27.28985507246377,7.793537801064563,1.4861246376811599,349,11,73,4,6,115,67,92,0.106,0.865,0.028999999999999998,-0.7901,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,1,1,10,2,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,1,0,10,16,7,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,1,2,4,2,7,2,8,10,4,9,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,0,4,48,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116775716657966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682550633415302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15670730199133115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572733793395679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045520232880629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897891927534462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18585454148529826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025958835450252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22597423784238374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6999534658278013,0.0,0.0,0.20830207384685812,0.1168957076756844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247892881961835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510093813755367,0.0,0.08962365364834192,0.0,0.1456895431925878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381946778696667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rhyanon,2019/07/15,"(tw su*cide) So I spend the day high restricting, then binge a pint of B&J and 5 jam doughnuts at night, then panic and try and make myself throw it all up. That doesnt work (as always) so I have a bit of a cry. So what is the solution? To binge some more obviously  


please end me because I dont have the courage to do it myself xd",0.05637323943662054,2.14882229577465,2.1642077464788763,95.3536355633803,86.60563380281691,5.240140845070423,20.142605633802816,6.6274283507984215,0.12453380281690185,257,8,60,3,8,86,52,71,0.154,0.73,0.115,-0.4496,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,6,0,6,0,0,1,2,8,7,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,7,7,4,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,40,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22880242694771544,0.29793685911183376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762308629147418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002030554717638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020487087142152,0.177337056314154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222703411206768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24354750953508214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905277073387176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183548909700692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580467626127466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32262560671608875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018415585170625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669095361931126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001861241173607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Glitter_Cunt,2019/07/15,"Does anyone have access to the full article published in Nature today arguing anorexia nervosa has metabolic genetic markers? Titled: Genome-wide association study identifies eight risk loci and implicates metabo-psychiatric origins for anorexia nervosa

This one: 

https://www.nature.com/articles/s41588-019-0439-2

I heard about the study on NPR and read a few articles summarizing it. If anyone has access to a pdf, I’d really appreciate it.",10.942358974358973,15.118902030769231,9.148846153846158,48.76532051282052,59.46153846153846,12.333333333333336,40.06410256410256,11.538034831475384,6.6858717948717965,372,19,38,13,6,113,53,65,0.08,0.8740000000000001,0.047,-0.2748,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,6,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,24,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5968388329160038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734842082594068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892019385971702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269025271911688,0.0,0.2734107015638176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045442039680208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ppid,2019/07/15,"DAE's eating disorder get way worse when introduced to some sort of a drug? Mine was weed. Sucks to say because I live in Canada and weed is going through it's glorification phase at the moment. I don't blame legalization, and I stopped blaming the stoner girlfriend that introduced me to it anymore. I know now that it was inevitable that I would stumble across it eventually.

My eating disorder was really bad, but my binges weren't that bad. Psychologically, I was still in hell, but at least my body wasn't entirely ruined pre-weed. But after the discovery of weed, my binges turned into the types you see on My 600lb Life. It was scary, but I couldn't stop. To an extent, I still can't stop. 

I'm not actively smoking weed right now, but I've lost all faith in a possible weight loss and ED recovery now because I know deep down that I can, and will eventually, binge everything back in a few weeks. 

My life is hell right now. It's self inflicted, as a friend would tell me, but I still feel trapped here.",5.168111888111888,5.954178111111113,5.7257575757575765,81.13940559440559,68.39393939393939,9.526651126651128,28.86713286713287,9.661875296680813,2.4096149184149183,798,27,163,17,13,258,115,198,0.22399999999999998,0.685,0.091,-0.9832,0,1,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,2,10,10,3,0,9,0,16,7,1,0,1,24,26,12,0,3,7,0,2,0,2,3,3,1,0,1,11,5,3,3,3,0,0,1,6,8,0,0,8,4,21,2,19,14,5,30,3,3,1,0,6,13,3,2,15,101,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746576775564873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658400214150364,0.23147030865057164,0.16899306654941768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539665832586502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177225133399858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16074580825695764,0.28366917514347384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457544620550927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700863460931643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709121717530813,0.0,0.0724190015405271,0.0,0.07877634228832768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235496051948638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958113813617313,0.0,0.0,0.12239685527617783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513112728648593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562641007558423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879833836868004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367476261200697,0.0,0.11022975363869016,0.0,0.0,0.11045574545614276,0.0,0.14460245138798794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320869491224334,0.34765728806458024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12115291817304427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076995375437574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002368163791,0.11118611258667964,0.16879196309113642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125737738073302,0.19693184659460694,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadbitchsideaccount,2019/07/15,"Okay real talk does anyone know how to not binge while high? I feel like this is just my curse but I’m trying to be healthy and not consume thousands of calories just because I want to have an edible. Not trying to starve just trying to not binge and have some moderation in my life for once. Maybe it’s inevitable but if you have any tips pls lmk.

 (If this is not allowed feel free to remove)",1.8212499999999991,4.024890625000001,2.6175000000000037,94.10750000000002,80.25,5.0,20.0,5.985473137389443,-0.1200000000000001,310,8,66,2,8,97,55,80,0.067,0.7859999999999999,0.147,0.6067,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,2,0,22,11,8,0,3,12,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,5,4,9,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,2,42,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17945923587766868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845231511650934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608693648015381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23093833449716145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26686884160353624,0.18852830743753735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788220213029441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503107271543644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186398490682232,0.12892690694362413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26512034122938466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810420469873798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003729394537197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121106800268948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5375068993308395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565348435839607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,risklabfsu,2019/07/15,"FSU Research Study (please take down if not allowed, I didn't hear back from Mods!) Our research team at Florida State University is currently conducting a study of factors associated with suicidal thoughts and behaviors. The primary goal of the study is to better understand how certain experiences influence suicidal thoughts and behaviors.

​

We are interested in recruiting people who use this website to participate in our research study.  
Participation is completely voluntary. If you are interested in participating, you will complete an online screener to see if you qualify to participate. If you qualify, you will complete a variety of questionnaires online.

  
The study will involve three online assessments over the next two months that should take about 40-50min to complete and you will be compensated up to $50 in online gift cards to Amazon. A few important things to know about the study are:

1. The study includes questions and images regarding self-harm, suicide, and other unpleasant images. \*\***We strongly emphasize that some of the images included are extremely graphic suicide-related images**. **Some people may feel that these images are very disturbing and may find them to be triggering**\*\*.
2. All information collected will be *kept anonymous*.
3. Participation is *completely voluntary.*
4. The link we provide will send you to a website telling you about the study. Once on that site, you can decide whether or not you want to participate.
5. If you start to participate and decide you no longer feel comfortable or you are no longer interested, you can stop at any time.
6. We will provide links to treatment resources throughout the study.
7. This study will include only participants who are 18 years and older.  
**Please send us a private message if you are interested in participating**. Once you contact us, we will send you a link to the screening questionnaire to see if you qualify and to tell you more about the study.",5.986287262872629,9.4906006097561,6.023089430894313,68.10795392953932,73.39024390243901,9.863956639566396,35.635501355013545,9.928628108626363,4.824231436314364,1592,87,228,51,36,502,168,328,0.08,0.841,0.078,-0.5729,2,0,0,0,0,2,70.0,9,19,1,4,6,9,0,1,19,0,30,0,0,5,2,56,45,20,3,9,12,0,2,0,0,12,0,1,0,0,11,15,0,2,14,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,4,6,30,8,37,26,5,25,0,0,3,0,43,12,0,14,9,159,41,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620050896034105,0.1303150822440184,0.07293065182129775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246520832002041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484997403703094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5622245953701402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490672701642004,0.0,0.0,0.10845314521570668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802049007158654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208735295749742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05893934974006543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560237507975776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405685943498625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228426021940194,0.0,0.08156507368467128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870112222959586,0.0,0.0,0.2354468180246189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013956065079585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709216369468083,0.0,0.1118804983647035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590895250326914,0.0,0.0,0.08966208220178118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35192767616459203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612706139279773,0.0,0.1874746760297912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124917822483487,0.0,0.0,0.17028197501289252,0.06253574283495322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047633192704904,0.1116464000961132,0.2580063844669161,0.09262572182434907,0.0,0.08848881067308585,0.06325620421259462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303150822440184,0.06906261821982419
EDAnonymous,purplepopper,2019/07/15,"do you guys make vegetable noodles very often?? i tried today since warm meals help fill me up - i peeled a cucumber which made these thin twirly slices, then cooked it in a pan with water and tomatoes (cuz i need nutrients!!) im glad i tried this over shirataki noodles since i'd heard they were odd-tasting and had a weird texture.",3.184895833333332,5.496028531250001,3.135625000000001,91.58020833333336,76.1875,6.1416666666666675,24.729166666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.9825291666666672,262,9,52,3,6,79,53,64,0.027999999999999997,0.83,0.142,0.7809999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,3,4,0,3,0,8,7,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,3,7,2,4,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,2,26,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034472177940384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20541613961116328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33103335558741953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899833367759957,0.20456688103491166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22723892987361885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070198333816751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904917275480092,0.0,0.0,0.4161374334678696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528646251756138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Magpiemegan0321,2019/07/15,"Out of control life is making it hard not to restrict again Over the last few years I have become a lot more accepting of my body, however these last 2 months have had me struggling for SOME sort of control in my life. My dad was in a motorcycle accident May 18th and then my 8 month old daughter was diagnosed with cancer and had to have a tumor removed from her abdomen. She did great with the surgery and we were sent home 2 weeks later. I’ve been struggling to take care of her and my father these last 2 months. My dad is addicted to pain medicine and is completely obstinate, not to mention self centered, racist, and has taken to talking shit about single mothers (I’m a single mother). I’ve been trying to work around all of that, get my daughter back in daycare (since her last one dropped her despite promising they’d save her spot), get signed up for cosmetology school, and go back to work. Not to mention dealing with the new coparenting dynamic with her father and his girlfriend, made more stressful by my boyfriend breaking up with me through text while my daughter was in the hospital. I had everything lined back up... then the oncologist called and said they decided they want to do chemo. I’ve gone back to controlling eating habits for some sense of order. 

TL;DR: my life has been shit for over 2 months and I need some sense of control.",6.348779069767443,6.977655689922483,5.928982558139534,81.27510174418606,65.74418604651163,8.93062015503876,33.179263565891475,8.841846274778883,2.647456589147287,1080,44,204,16,16,333,144,258,0.152,0.79,0.057999999999999996,-0.9783,2,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,3,6,7,12,2,3,9,0,22,12,4,6,1,41,36,13,0,2,3,9,1,0,1,1,7,1,1,1,4,18,1,5,2,0,0,4,3,6,0,1,16,2,27,6,42,18,10,40,0,0,0,0,30,12,2,6,21,135,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129610065035964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088413827499894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140119046874643,0.0,0.0,0.11275335418130175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340196252689652,0.0,0.0,0.10424805029715137,0.0,0.10409030073749603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704224220789127,0.0,0.4580225281204282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525307966704248,0.0,0.10362193048091684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446630849635534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175432605811808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667843274975994,0.0,0.058021627986506674,0.0,0.0,0.11255755023702484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091454996455229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024072913740806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33287667123742043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633325681670612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679555346957861,0.0,0.09660257099768464,0.06814766278869094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32595764192157695,0.0,0.0,0.0757004354133333,0.0,0.09860175538742257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712910345293154,0.0,0.06918064836622292,0.0,0.10863381935462577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711352639836254,0.0,0.0,0.10332325191615382,0.0,0.0,0.10650494040028452,0.0,0.20959335665863385,0.08445212748435055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694683051761146,0.2134588908552452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767609966695291,0.08205823635852441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931423441138533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060216913207244566,0.0,0.08189259712209374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864938727852872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06574434458999984
EDAnonymous,ItchyElderberry,2019/07/15,"Anorexia not just a psychiatric problem, scientists find. The Guardian: Anorexia not just a psychiatric problem, scientists find.
https://www.theguardian.com/science/2019/jul/15/anorexia-not-just-a-psychiatric-problem-scientists-find",33.794561403508766,44.515347052631576,14.206315789473686,4.490877192982482,25.842105263157894,13.059649122807016,58.96491228070175,10.504223727775694,10.381301754385962,210,10,10,5,3,44,11,19,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.5448,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6907172340838229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7231249563800115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aphex3rdcousin,2019/07/15,"i can’t handle living with my family i’m a 21 yr old female, i was diagnosed with EDNOS in high school. I live with my grandparents, this is my second time moving in with them. My family doesn’t exactly take my ednos seriously (lol ednos things) and kinda brush it off a lot... while still constantly making comments at my body?
they keep referencing how “healthy” i was last time i lived with them, when i hated every inch of my body, i was very much overweight at that time in my life, i p much lost it all in the past 2 years, but moved again for work,,, and the number on the scale is steadily climbing again. i can’t handle living here, i can’t handle confrontation either so i do whatever they tell me too but i fucking hate it so much. i can’t skip a meal without being chastised or questioned, but when i talk about my body insecurities,,,, i’m ignored? 
i have a lot of early childhood trauma that makes me feel really guilty about not finishing my food, and sometimes i feel like they use it against me. as a kid i used to over feed myself bc i was scared of the punishment of saying that i was too full already, and i still get like that but i’ve been more controlled lately.
i can’t live in this house anymore. i have no control over my body or my food, i’m being forced to eat whatever they make. They’re red meat and potato people, i am definitely not, after dinner most nights i’m left with awful stomach cramps bc of the red meat and they refuse to help me out with any other food related things. 
i just wish i had support bc maybe it would all be so much easier to process and deal with. idk.",3.5431717948717965,4.737651803076922,4.686326923076923,85.58313141025643,72.50769230769231,7.632051282051282,24.003205128205128,8.07648339933343,1.2017205128205126,1256,34,260,18,24,413,176,325,0.154,0.752,0.09300000000000001,-0.9611,1,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,7,5,16,14,5,2,10,2,23,17,5,8,3,50,43,21,0,2,11,0,2,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,14,16,8,5,3,0,0,3,10,11,0,1,8,6,49,3,36,31,12,40,0,1,2,1,16,16,1,7,23,176,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589420140545653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909367997331497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617955347827687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3860967457554153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939059624471642,0.19492719046641566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958811345646275,0.0,0.08819973053395527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891843856308418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321538735944763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16383956802033486,0.0,0.08787656897925672,0.06208001171485485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31523254027084363,0.0,0.0,0.08033588246715198,0.0454006646018155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158774345316385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05824595692033919,0.09181260142899833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026872685103816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723901369445313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083354017803069,0.0980248287276724,0.0,0.0944150273052045,0.0,0.06137868971755395,0.08490803319890809,0.0,0.3836630205127137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948595286275368,0.14775529450249258,0.0,0.0,0.17401544634188165,0.0,0.08730080969309903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847178314049028,0.25552037438000885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154796932392311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911849259422249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295405809990028,0.060244193005706825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734574656796842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0556691405807198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910484772826238,0.08700014598085798,0.08794550472667581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08594443140435515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879385129155086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861092092553346,0.0,0.0,0.0653365478750382,0.0698453918135248,0.07595275944846376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11546245731347014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15201292248301584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010409549601586,0.0,0.07170002363269083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992851310669254,0.08376665625051309,0.0,0.06326284330525139,0.0,0.0,0.06172990877024495,0.0,0.0,0.05595951986280906
EDAnonymous,princess-in-training,2019/07/15,"coming to terms with the fact i dont have to be skinny for people to like me is so hard specifically talking about platonic relationships


i have friends and people WANT to talk to me regardless of the weight but i feel like noone will truly care about me until im skinny but everything in my life is telling me otherwise. 

i need to stop. i keep isolating myself and ruining things because i want to have a phoenix moment where i come out as this perfect human before i let other people into my life and its so unhealthy.

im so tired and sad. like if u dont wanna fuck me  i cant fathom why ur spending ur energy just wanting to exist around me. like ur telling me u just like my personality? what are you gaining from this? idk it stresses me out.

idk im so exhausted of this feeling.",2.295283018867924,4.409624440251573,4.203119496855346,83.80807547169816,78.18238993710692,7.007295597484277,25.065408805031446,8.021203637495839,1.6031061635220123,622,23,122,11,15,211,96,159,0.16699999999999998,0.596,0.237,0.9137,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,10,13,1,1,3,0,12,8,2,0,2,28,23,13,0,7,5,0,4,5,1,1,4,0,0,2,8,11,3,2,2,0,1,2,3,5,0,0,0,4,22,8,23,20,1,13,0,2,0,1,12,6,1,1,10,82,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697506061053015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801010436151592,0.0,0.11181287107187783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339724342315337,0.0,0.0,0.22638125669544384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30800280821810105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809506098248622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328809419194492,0.0938731510214923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152035740769744,0.12147843112405968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770980015364355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258080212345268,0.0,0.0,0.1167955578132652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436678355583906,0.18562531965433055,0.3209803124727719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974324363831714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732914543010345,0.11473459083242372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410758748078599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985741274478288,0.1505198029893204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112308562047972,0.2297011440962285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087297218487045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102652243043954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325117629728624,0.0,0.0,0.1600114451263332,0.0,0.0,0.11856928061453338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ddlgrande,2019/07/15,Cant stop melting down about a family photo I have been in recovery for about 3 months now. It's going okish. I'm currently on my first trip home to my home country in 4.5 years. Tomorrow will be the first time in ages that my sisters and parents are all together in one place. My mum has scheduled a photographer to take a family portrait and I'm having a fuckinf meltdown because I hate having my photo taken. I have major anxiety about being around my family all at the same time. All of the winter clothes I bought are huge and baggy and make me look bigger than I am so I borrowed a jumpsuit from my sister but its quite form fitting and this gives me massive anxiety as well. I dont want to ruin this for my mum as I know how important this is to her.,4.552258064516128,5.051052774193551,6.061451612903228,79.21217741935486,69.64516129032258,9.038709677419355,29.69354838709677,9.120678840339163,2.4624064516129027,600,22,117,11,10,205,101,155,0.048,0.8690000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.7157,3,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,8,3,1,0,8,0,15,0,0,2,3,16,27,10,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,1,1,0,2,2,2,2,1,3,3,1,19,1,22,21,6,27,0,1,1,0,7,12,0,0,13,88,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695681599337813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684553772552345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740316091842468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649216090934236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4982858421162041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997324961237061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901651474670354,0.10013225205170187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395013157580094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534638053998146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968288502925626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479543606576634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176075057507608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063235508774474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939020602658312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19563700086900448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407997396780465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18739865735661468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14730186832268358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324721786165777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054744108173854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392081953380396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584150436713057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345992023854895
EDAnonymous,Cosmic_Lad,2019/07/15,"I told my friend about my anorexia and I regret it so much I don't know why I admitted what was wrong with me. As a cry for help or attention or what. I'm highly disassociative so who even knows what kind of mindset I was in, maybe I really wanted help. All I know is that I don't want that anymore. 

He was understanding but upset and worried. I feel so guilty. I felt like I ruined the time we had together by forcing it to be about my issues. I promised I'd work my way back to eating normally again but I don't want to. I don't want to recover right now. Ana gives me control and a goal and I'm not ready to let go. 

Why the fuck did I say anything why the fuck did I say anything. He's a good person I don't want to lie to him he's my friend. I dont want to break my promise. 

But I am. And I feel so guilty. 

I'm sorry Ross. I'm sorry for being a stupid white bitch. I'm sorry I disregarded your concern the first time. I'm sorry I'm a fucking attention whore, I shouldn't have made it about me. That's not what I wanted. 

I'm sorry.",-1.2683116883116874,0.7198124502164518,1.7671125541125539,96.10781168831171,93.32900432900429,4.8116017316017325,16.790909090909093,6.42735559955562,-0.3311963636363635,800,21,195,10,30,281,113,231,0.29600000000000004,0.607,0.096,-0.9925,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,0,4,11,17,5,1,9,0,19,5,0,2,1,38,49,15,0,10,7,0,3,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,11,7,1,2,10,0,0,1,9,10,0,1,9,6,35,7,18,36,2,12,0,2,1,4,17,3,4,2,7,115,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740099967429336,0.0,0.0,0.1616420179069931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551980778460306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015433736214504,0.0,0.0,0.107882473214645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510501598178055,0.0,0.0,0.10049651519376612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486882303113509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931898369239194,0.0,0.0942999731476266,0.0,0.0,0.08354000850358005,0.0,0.0,0.15175838726268262,0.272389271452521,0.0,0.09421495007573416,0.05581676525610597,0.08237648446507405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166033477898906,0.10376752722600316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250895470122176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227382508843444,0.16192604568629798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004295438609339,0.0,0.04798195732144499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293160525878437,0.0,0.0,0.09866825474590636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219792542797293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622798056468176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575588636891557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291782359881512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387344657180326,0.0,0.15620599038655303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5497075955923807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453769110085395,0.0,0.0,0.09384682117946873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224329564998387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.405500396645611,0.07795698343188621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658661267221916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150030293116884,0.09974016543167856,0.0,0.0,0.10738060172093848,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananishokolad,2019/07/15,"I can’t stop eating I’ve been trying to love weight for years you guys.... it’s getting so sad. I can’t stop myself from overeating. 

I was bulimic for like 7 years and sadly during that time I was able to actually have some portion control and stop myself from overeating constantly with the exception of the occasional binge every other day. In a very sick way I had a grip over my overeating. 

Now I don’t. I got rid of one of my own wrongdoings and now I’m into another. I am mostly eating quite healthy but I’m still not loosing weight because I’m constantly overeating. Sometimes when i know I’m full I continue to just eat and eat until I eat everything i can without feeling nauseous. 

I’m kinda obese - I do need to lose weight. I’ve been that way practically all my adulthood. I wanna just have control over myself and I have no idea how to do it.",2.483779069767444,4.5902579011627935,4.17575581395349,84.27142441860471,77.54651162790697,6.858139534883722,26.44767441860465,7.865858978985527,1.7053651162790695,677,27,131,11,16,227,100,172,0.124,0.836,0.04,-0.8765,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,4,8,5,0,0,4,0,15,11,0,3,1,28,26,10,0,2,6,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,7,9,5,3,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,6,5,22,2,25,20,6,26,0,3,0,1,3,9,0,3,16,93,27,0,0.11377706859286413,0.0,0.11103000640717636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930517682497928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935744497363958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24590518220951546,0.2552213141748188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337679670035854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5821117282340661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958620874542185,0.0,0.10225549286353226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057529104498954375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059443822364442865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099791548673324,0.0,0.0,0.11265718591217773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844046144895638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252890137123626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05558572861275116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272874367083856,0.0,0.0,0.10268824655839903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436425469760737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709828625220394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101591754471035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252843011045342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09086251395009233,0.2853681718305617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06634432366744744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724716105162342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938779972876783,0.0,0.18062188232479,0.0,0.41564945347610543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967703397936003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653740369216156
EDAnonymous,thinfritatas,2019/07/15,"It hurts and I am pitiful Got annoyed and hurt by something my boyfriend did almost one year ago, is it time to either restrict or eat like I was a whale ?? YES IT IS",1.6284761904761886,3.1665985142857167,2.782857142857144,95.8904761904762,78.14285714285714,4.666666666666667,25.952380952380953,3.1291,0.219095238095238,128,5,29,0,3,41,30,35,0.32299999999999995,0.551,0.126,-0.8529,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,3,0,3,1,2,3,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27886375443222194,0.0,0.31501497483807844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219026076578879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25160518905430035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6735470647924252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15369206735698554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131733324273396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24218562307572006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343910417883635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258470187082428
EDAnonymous,skip78,2019/07/15,My gf (22) who has/had anorexia cheated on me. We’re currently long distance and she told me that she messed up and slept with someone else. She didn’t blame it on being anorexic but she said she was in a dark place mentally and I’m worried that she is relapsing. I don’t know what it’s like to have an ED and I don’t believe it’s an excuse to hurt me like that. I was hoping someone here could give me some insight.,0.6829999999999998,2.6039266333333337,2.4700000000000024,95.165,82.66666666666666,5.333333333333334,23.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.4463333333333344,327,12,75,3,9,108,62,90,0.138,0.737,0.124,-0.0772,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,3,0,9,1,1,0,0,11,16,5,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,6,1,14,3,7,8,1,7,0,1,0,0,12,5,0,2,4,48,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285937076273278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026325449769057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120109474962457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434607536646688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520730742779591,0.0,0.0,0.27168996613338553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947764160230064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479802511680934,0.0,0.0,0.22459824866131664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557630022271893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651589950481358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24141464840032414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300748792665871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425094721699752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25773845687033325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,captain_peanutbutter,2019/07/15,"Had my worst binge episode in weeks last night and I never want to eat again Plus my intestines are fucked from all the laxative tea I drank in a desperate last ditch attempt to purge it

Happy 24th birthday to me, right???",5.014806201550389,6.201334046511634,4.269767441860466,89.97968992248066,69.0,7.593798449612403,28.286821705426355,7.793537801064563,1.4936263565891466,176,6,36,2,3,52,37,43,0.245,0.6829999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.8343,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,2,5,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,7,3,2,9,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,6,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432099010337903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100827085650197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35705198776752844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5468105987292472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586901777349413,0.0,0.0,0.3147611556551769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864397560628761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19783450875111366,0.0,0.2690470311263505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aye-yo-buh-la-kay,2019/07/15,"Does going to the gym multiple times a day actually help you lose weight faster? I mean like doing hard cardio in the morning (lots of running, biking, etc) then going back again to do some weight training? Then possibly doing some more cardio at night (walking my neighborhood, around the park, etc)?",6.34556603773585,8.370052943396228,5.8303301886792465,76.86172169811323,66.73584905660377,8.318867924528304,28.34433962264151,8.841846274778883,2.413984905660378,238,8,38,4,4,73,43,53,0.07200000000000001,0.8270000000000001,0.10099999999999999,0.3899,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,6,6,6,15,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,3,9,26,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.2041048178757169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18619202783460348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608270552146738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348874796233659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18303268887697247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665255597621935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377348738320925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873615305025101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401919877198096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218242241100424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233990611438465,0.0,0.17781584789447447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278307858917289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962775189644573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357905000317589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195978850593625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5093881599944285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hamm103,2019/07/15,28 POUNDS I knew I've been eating like shit from all this binging lately but I've gained 28 ounds from ky lowerst weight. god I feel like shit. idk how im gonna lose this weifggt because Ic an't seem to stop binging,0.7813043478260866,2.9687171304347832,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,84.21739130434783,3.68,20.069565217391304,3.1291,-0.6993686956521739,172,5,39,0,5,53,35,46,0.218,0.546,0.23600000000000002,0.0083,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,1,5,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,7,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,2,2,3,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625978628472103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27293428408479736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486813775506,0.19055399338067328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881172375588155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008862603040537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606243837463578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29840581907175434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24282355871758504,0.0,0.0,0.5475948520814213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22300059679678216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248087394920234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkplease,2019/07/15,Y’all I just found out how many calories are in vodka and I’m so upset I love making vodka limoncello cocktails. They’re so good. But I never googled the amount of calories in any alcohol cause I just knew I’d be pissed at what it was.  Well tonight I broke and googled how many calories are in vodka. And guess what??? I’m pissed!! Who would have guessed? I thought vodka was supposed to be the ~skinny~ alcohol so how much calories are in other drinks wtf???,0.4623333333333335,2.8527183444444475,1.3033333333333346,96.40500000000002,98.88888888888887,3.733333333333334,22.66666666666667,5.6839178017228535,0.3188666666666671,361,15,72,3,15,111,55,90,0.195,0.7040000000000001,0.10099999999999999,-0.8908,0,0,7,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,9,7,2,1,2,0,9,7,3,5,1,19,18,10,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,3,6,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,0,7,3,8,10,2,8,0,1,0,1,3,6,2,2,2,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530656509112258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414773393507452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177528867756308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20765114849944816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324155590634345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777914462549304,0.0,0.0,0.4670205084732113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131234911720105,0.0,0.1414924702111968,0.4298111997107712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558232748313895,0.0,0.16348531277410985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828151274612224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19058763047972102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057831005393266,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,InsomniacCyclops,2019/07/15,Dysmorphia is a hell of a drug So I work in a store and a coworker I'm friends with and I were reorganizing a shelf. This girl of similar age and height and what I thought was considerably lower weight than me walked by in a really cute crop top. I said offhandedly to my coworker that I wished I was thin enough to pull that off. She looked at me like I had three heads and told me that that girl had at least 20 pounds on me. Sounds fake but I can't refute it so ???,1.3875757575757568,3.1282893737373776,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,79.50505050505049,7.632323232323233,20.090909090909093,8.515128840125781,0.7672303030303027,364,9,89,8,9,120,67,99,0.07200000000000001,0.84,0.08800000000000001,-0.1675,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,6,0,7,3,1,0,0,10,13,8,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,7,6,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,8,5,14,3,13,5,2,12,1,0,1,0,6,9,1,0,2,58,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465159918757673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087428176968352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308540405692283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30665753004560997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597978960994976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509188123652002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19142050813266745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28422956599354965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372157778987617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28551855689343625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36386090029598905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34360808441238694,0.0,0.0,0.2175317507165289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LauSaid1326,2019/07/15,"Hi I'm new I'm worried I'll never have a decent body image or a healthy relationship with food. I'm scared I'll never find peace. I've suffered with an eating disorder of some kind for 15 years and I'm so tired of this life. 
What's worse is I feel like I'm alone, I feel like I'm not sick enough to talk about it.",-0.7720833333333346,1.0828759583333358,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,88.02777777777777,4.711111111111111,15.944444444444445,5.985473137389443,-0.7932555555555556,247,5,63,2,8,84,50,72,0.278,0.552,0.16899999999999998,-0.8355,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,3,0,2,6,1,0,2,11,10,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,2,3,7,10,2,4,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,6,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340701544106394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288765545796275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361526528242619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21084193099945125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129060843216169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083714670725805,0.2944061942145411,0.0,0.0,0.18832716449823905,0.0,0.2491580620721058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457073144047928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455401339856408,0.2013325241234685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178389460207113,0.19900563928268825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212219944985119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20629330735294454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561623797441144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23682566958907605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20925510737634312,0.2099838884489889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326902880475814
EDAnonymous,Pinkshake,2019/09/03,"Do you guys trust LoseIt? Can I too or should I just keep eating pre-packaged food only? It's just too much anxiety, please help D':",0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,84.55555555555556,5.0814814814814815,16.407407407407412,6.42735559955562,-0.357237037037037,102,2,22,1,3,33,24,27,0.057999999999999996,0.647,0.295,0.7882,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276803711564819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370248777083172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375337834619354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582747373958025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425311855256525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321616650332796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265991249011062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27519274396557275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971875030766662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeymilkflowers,2019/09/03,"breaking my purge-free streak i just failed a midterm for one of the most important classes of my academic career. i haven’t purged in almost two months but after crying for a little bit i binged on chinese food and threw up in the bathroom...

this is so fucking exhausting.",7.0730128205128215,7.255456173076923,6.6007692307692345,78.61089743589746,64.19230769230771,9.241025641025642,34.641025641025635,8.841846274778883,2.93178717948718,219,9,39,3,3,68,44,52,0.19699999999999998,0.774,0.028999999999999998,-0.8708,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,1,0,5,0,9,3,2,9,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,2,2,28,6,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380736971481376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685892756629404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708553684936448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082466576585308,0.0,0.0,0.3121205902070078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383799686216871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26948190337766026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287773673748165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298018151350241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sixteen_sosweet,2019/09/03,Other people Ive been eating at maintenance for a couple days and just about been distracted enough by school to feel okay. Yet now ive just had two friends separately tell me they've eaten only X calories and now i feel like shit! (They don't know i struggle with ED),4.072777777777777,5.418063500000002,4.75277777777778,85.03250000000003,71.4074074074074,7.622222222222224,24.61111111111111,8.07648339933343,1.294422222222222,215,6,43,3,4,69,44,54,0.10800000000000001,0.7170000000000001,0.175,0.4125,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,1,2,1,1,6,3,1,0,0,8,10,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,2,6,3,6,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,5,27,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145543720060249,0.0,0.1833393896799655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908930718679413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937409299663987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874846377048704,0.20309224499618272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196367872430704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623481986513588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888659654078625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21621047145263272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708643841290768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28771015821166634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918130076534204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971949204109775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484763775640921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777037477828241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sapphosviolet,2019/09/03,"getting dinner with a recovered friend I made plans to go to the dining hall will my friend who is in recovery, she doesn’t know I have an ED. I’m freaking out because I don’t want to possibly trigger her with my weird food choices and (if I’m really having a bad day) my measuring cups. For those in recovery, is that something I should be mindful of? I know it’s different for everyone but I’m still wondering.",1.572023809523813,3.9185502499999987,3.783333333333335,84.5616666666667,82.21428571428572,8.019047619047619,27.190476190476193,8.841846274778883,2.5444619047619046,327,15,65,9,9,112,62,84,0.07400000000000001,0.855,0.07,-0.0745,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,9,3,0,2,0,14,19,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,10,2,11,15,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,2,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212233768203853,0.15486739762650878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638421593452999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654296789756672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24275703464236506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072000053580406,0.0,0.3925590191653314,0.0,0.13273138994743222,0.0,0.14438328593985075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27924005088389403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403896118552049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565195288689464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864048226431482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275185553478588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19558120759270173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20288580530325628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498461194511586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27550794569776754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LawrenAnne4,2019/09/03,aaaaAAAAHHHHHHHH TFW you carefully plan your day around having a grande pumpkin cream cold brew from Starbucks AND ITS NOT EVEN THAT GOOD AND NOW YOU HAVE TO FINISH IT BECAUSE YOU ALREADY DRANK SOME,5.014714285714284,8.369094400000002,4.342500000000001,79.51375000000003,76.42857142857143,5.785714285714287,25.892857142857146,7.1686216300943375,1.394571428571429,164,6,27,2,4,49,32,35,0.081,0.878,0.040999999999999995,-0.3503,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,4,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,3,3,3,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,3,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946486668541973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990324082810839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27324552919879225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570148781771657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890804534815541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960610940544066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759660030116458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KoalaB00,2019/09/03,"Trying not to fall back into the cycle. I used to have a binge/purge cycle of 5 days. Binge 1, purge 4, repeat. I've been our of the cycle for 3 years. In the last 2 I gained a lot of weight. I went too far in the opposite direction because you circumstance I don't really want to go into but were out of my control.

I keep slipping from eating. I'll eat a normal ish amount and then I'll feel bad and slip for a couple days and not eat much or anything.

I've noticed myself justifying it to people again. I've noticed myself justifying it to myself. I'm scale watching again. How do I break the cycle? I've deleted my calorie counting app already because I was obsessing over it.

I'm chronically ill so I'm already weak. I find it hard to make food for myself so some days and on those days I've mostly stopped eating. I can feel myself getting worse but I'm dropping weight like anything and it feels so good.

How do I fix this? How do I stop it all again? I don't know what to do...",0.2941025641025625,2.495498153846153,2.6534615384615385,91.47487179487185,86.69230769230771,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.2208455128205129,768,24,165,8,24,262,113,208,0.141,0.8079999999999999,0.05,-0.9538,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,1,0,2,11,5,0,1,9,0,11,10,0,6,1,33,26,15,0,2,5,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,8,7,4,5,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,4,7,21,2,22,22,6,27,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,4,15,99,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27109641676127105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20216060266513736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445025527753068,0.10255962105921954,0.14975454059732551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776657527328906,0.0,0.13591131377991206,0.0,0.3168660115591601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5027513598353549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18632270735659615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122662574714238,0.0,0.14852898795664488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417467016640757,0.0,0.06980827787911886,0.10302568577482617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003337940578248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917875919424212,0.0,0.0,0.06750527576717899,0.10012450516996003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000952929663076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442740621971752,0.0,0.0,0.08199133919289135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029568118909387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034931756047805,0.0,0.2796901788498217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515626917558453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868934885751007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20538616769897167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833948909171188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608744281133893,0.0,0.0,0.07244951849975144,0.0,0.0,0.2991526623589867,0.0,0.11386652985736645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517634058938615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909980528616972
EDAnonymous,Bobularsponge,2019/09/03,"Today my mom suggested a career path... “Hey son, since you’re still thinking about what you wanna study in college, I was wondering if you’d consider being a nutritionist? You’re always very meticulous and saying what foods are healthy or not and counting the calories. I think you could really help some people that way! 😊😊”
I’d LOVE to spread the binge restrict agenda mother it’s what i was born to do ☠️☠️☠️ /s",1.2167058823529402,3.6843457882352943,3.2732352941176517,86.73455882352944,85.23529411764707,6.223529411764706,21.44117647058824,7.554174236665415,1.0899647058823532,332,11,65,6,10,112,64,85,0.033,0.828,0.139,0.8526,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,11,4,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,7,1,5,6,1,5,0,0,0,1,11,1,0,4,3,34,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22815409000510165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21892420450653244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315604212919569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378864693157795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474737370820499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32113652286544675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900938589290707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565778921217365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21805267063875905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22681881112429414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189742900626057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35138907168527145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259906946221103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22624145992548436,0.0,0.21764502616319145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29735523747263004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mykenna0807,2019/09/03,"not sick enough (TW numbers) I'm 5'2 and 97 pounds. Food, calories, and weight are all i think about, I track and plan every calorie, i don't eat more than 600 a day, and i feel terrible physically too. a year ago i was 140 pounds so this wasn't dramatically fast or anything, it started as just trying to be a little healthier. people are starting to get worried about me but i don't feel thin enough to have an eating disorder or deserve help. am I a fake?",1.3003225806451653,3.5888089784946264,3.135924731182797,89.1438870967742,82.87096774193549,5.870537634408603,23.27849462365592,7.1686216300943375,0.8961965591397858,357,13,75,5,10,119,68,93,0.128,0.8109999999999999,0.061,-0.7139,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,5,0,9,5,0,0,1,13,16,9,0,0,5,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,4,8,0,7,13,4,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,6,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854103203922505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17212327244632805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348927884997448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23971884283551165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280517971399267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322424461960087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622879261016788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115181276568115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25292064945597537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927899988013527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401975053700333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096362084567854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14500724203024598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960932017959771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340231621676478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200790204148347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25470410419952666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21241511199540555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346940715078387
EDAnonymous,jjyochi,2019/09/03,"i finally ate a major fear food of mine before i developed AN i was a really bad binge eater. one thing i used to do was eat a dozen or so glazed donuts. i’ve been afraid to even be around them for 6 years, until today. i’m on my sixth month without relapse and i finally ate a glazed donut. i didn’t purge, i didn’t freak out, and i didn’t eat a whole dozen:)",0.5926607142857172,1.9692930875000023,2.7321428571428577,95.83,80.625,6.571428571428572,17.67857142857143,7.447530270364453,-0.047267857142857306,277,5,70,4,7,94,55,80,0.146,0.8540000000000001,0.0,-0.8718,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,6,0,8,5,0,1,0,7,12,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,8,0,11,0,9,3,2,9,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19637806909452624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418925234530226,0.0,0.0,0.1877117704099223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45145153680993294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570221560415902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823291646060425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4833063873183071,0.0,0.0,0.2667467270334609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17607839371673087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494822133182228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132006518661505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655482215040316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091001301288996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19052495097815084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462886346697725,0.0,0.2126476032914935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14205721360754664
EDAnonymous,unrulyheart,2019/09/03,"Uh oh Guess who just sharted moments after finishing a 62 hour fast?

<This dumb bitch right here.>",5.050000000000002,8.351025111111113,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,75.66666666666667,5.822222222222222,36.77777777777778,7.1686216300943375,2.7642444444444454,84,5,14,1,2,23,18,18,0.321,0.679,0.0,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,5,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6454790517917818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5770329449767727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5003896223038753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,andiJET,2019/09/03,"Does anyone else love Black Swan? I saw Black Swan in theaters when it first came out in 2010, and I’ve been obsessed with it ever since. I even have the DVD so I can watch it whenever I want for motivation. Natalie Portman and Mila Kunis look absolutely INCREDIBLE, and the whole story of the main character losing herself in trying to be perfect is just so relatable. Comment please if you’ve seen it and love it because I would love to talk more about it",4.243434991974318,5.9861022359550615,5.278683788121993,79.86258426966293,71.58426966292134,8.231781701444623,28.4446227929374,8.841846274778883,2.3145364365971104,365,14,68,7,7,120,65,89,0.043,0.731,0.226,0.9599,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,7,6,0,1,3,0,6,3,0,1,2,14,14,8,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,6,6,4,10,8,3,8,0,1,6,3,6,4,0,1,3,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242592616181644,0.2233598124156973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288664195312191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24932616658601034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19076733352826156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821053608123751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398246411283416,0.1971873454350362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854249193110742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18305939957438602,0.2438786497026621,0.0,0.0,0.5902421690297079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392910905093467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803262420668579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521469066494186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480030851260979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857804759910554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433816421781799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485612707034954,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caj065,2019/09/03,"Hugging people is so uncomfortable Honestly sometimes I just need someone to hug me but sometimes I cant do that because I feel like they can definetly tell how fat I am. It makes me so self conscious. When someone hugs me I instinctively suck in my stomach a bit, not so it's too noticable but it makes me seem a little skinnier. It's honestly really annoying when a lot of the people I'm around greet through hugs and I'm here trying to not start crying because I hate myself.

Then theres one person who I can usually go to talk to about all of the things I go through. She knows full well of my ED, and she also knows what it's like to have one. Yet she'll do things like put her hands on my hips (sounds kinda weird but that's normal for us) or something like that and holy shit that is so anxiety inducing. Because I'm not the typical underweight anorexic person so it's difficult to feel like any of this is valid. I know someones gonna tell me to just talk to her, but it's just that I dont know how",2.301333333333332,4.00657722857143,3.90666666666667,87.83333333333334,76.71428571428572,7.333333333333332,25.47619047619048,8.167268648758528,1.494047619047619,798,29,171,14,18,266,115,210,0.121,0.6920000000000001,0.187,0.9241,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,1,0,20,18,4,0,6,0,12,9,5,5,1,33,31,19,0,2,11,0,3,5,0,2,1,1,0,3,17,4,1,0,9,0,0,3,5,6,1,2,0,4,26,12,19,29,4,14,0,0,0,4,15,5,2,4,11,114,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840277806413768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367799636198946,0.0,0.09413266210830516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954029592767142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250298134300771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433837199585105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516428648053258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421329889752346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443522255968688,0.1758134202091892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986392830432054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148607582840958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704995263287616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005792707583237,0.12332809743008785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461243064763799,0.0,0.0,0.16427322281617254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912397724665581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056255242322468,0.0,0.14009286688683392,0.0,0.0,0.16676328429443596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706142980243894,0.2148844542986731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369890668415205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882877060782302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201979976410052,0.12836764380056295,0.0,0.12630871980868213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312778762758325,0.0947296489976475,0.24339854352054,0.0,0.08709519101755861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780533027264766,0.2151016735353631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349746855138916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354264994458105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801360444229536,0.0,0.13552182913663405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063643259980356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bombay-,2019/09/03,"Me, trying to replace my binge eating/bulimia with nicotine addiction bc I heard that smoking reduces your appetite: is this recovery?",13.119999999999996,12.25357463636364,11.762727272727272,49.9140909090909,52.63636363636364,14.254545454545458,58.36363636363637,13.023866798666859,8.374763636363637,110,8,12,3,1,35,22,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8488398837837615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5286500276155957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_A_WILL_TO_LlVE,2019/09/03,"*see myself in mirror at angle I'm not used to* ""Oh wow, I'm a pretty normal looking dude"" *face the mirror normally* 

""I'm a fat disgusting piece of shit and nobody will ever love me""",-1.3630827067669171,0.4115165263157934,2.3639849624060147,87.78289473684214,107.42105263157896,4.276691729323309,13.323308270676687,6.1826913282559595,-0.24839548872180384,140,3,27,2,7,51,32,38,0.152,0.606,0.242,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,3,0,1,4,3,1,1,6,8,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,4,7,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,1,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912242514026812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270358812760824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905744846231389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6308897159809809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275411924794164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25655426802428216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304793684455465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780633825811297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slothrunning,2019/09/03,"DAE feel like they keep constant tabs on everyone's size? Apparently it's not tiring enough to keep constant tabs on my size and check myself in every single reflective surface.  I now have to keep tabs on everyone else's body.  If someone's body changes a tiny bit I take notice.  I don't judge them in any way, but I guess I do use it against myself most times.  Honestly it's absolutely exhausting and I don't know how to make it stop.",3.4281006493506467,5.0309839204545455,4.599220779220778,84.47954545454547,73.43181818181819,8.21038961038961,27.34415584415585,8.841846274778883,2.043874675324675,347,13,71,7,7,114,58,88,0.079,0.847,0.075,-0.0828,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,4,2,3,0,17,13,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,11,2,9,13,4,12,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,6,39,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511267574688533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848042511561303,0.3760523081414177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17907030435546153,0.0,0.0,0.3658518681104641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140738321294632,0.0,0.0,0.17490612914360495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262132851764442,0.3234986708836465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559043027296613,0.12092995836647755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18647528785723494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513776875513841,0.0,0.0,0.09302900887249592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269912195640326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129922503768488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19272049357674495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342599752729476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14152132111165538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727359090441515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987055032113174,0.19455649321460916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619908661057354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343624653949968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GrimReaperScythe,2019/09/03,"Did I meet someone with ED or am I just delusional So I am a cashier and a big, bulky guy in his 40s, wearing a hoodie, walk up and asks me to ring him up. I smile and start to ring him up and notice that he has laxatives, tic tac 0cal, and sugar free gum. I started looking at him more closely and felt odd for being judgemental about his shopping choices. He was sweating and looked a big cautious, that hit me hard that not everyone with ED is a girl or young. After I finished his transaction, I subconsciously whispered stay safe lovely... He just looked at me, and left.


After thinking about it, I felt worse about assuming he had an ED based on his purchase that could've been just a coincidence and I am too consumed with my own thoughts and ed behaviours. I started getting embarrassed and now I hate myself for judging someone like that. Has anyone else felt that way seeing a stranger do something that made you question if they have ED or you just need help?",5.543971631205672,6.205359851063832,5.583829787234047,82.93333333333334,67.51063829787235,8.394326241134753,33.21985815602837,8.344100000000001,2.4761156028368787,764,33,148,10,12,240,116,188,0.077,0.848,0.075,0.128,0,0,1,0,1,0,20.0,0,2,1,0,10,6,1,1,8,0,13,4,2,1,0,34,32,16,0,2,9,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,8,15,1,1,7,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,9,12,26,5,19,21,2,23,0,0,4,1,22,11,0,6,9,99,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858189321563648,0.15911224495128776,0.0,0.0,0.14517453833284188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12398587461162262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297242886405869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483855863924731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473062583189432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113225290897735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537608272126824,0.0,0.0,0.13910871599699168,0.15331603975425195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408714826604958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687222850351741,0.0,0.0,0.07586651080898697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912117185813197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015466131160087,0.1469384958106113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151450525277441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17679790381282692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739595620335876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237454712846649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631522496074513,0.11954929429232015,0.0,0.0,0.3297437095748933,0.16551773799795413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950311679804356,0.0,0.12328236275791997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326142275833908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825306926523902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosyrin,2019/09/03,Does anyone else feel like they use fasting as a way to get away with their disordered thoughts I alternate day fast (on and off anyway) and if I frame it like that to my friends and family it's fine and I know it's healthy apparently but I feel like it's also a free pass to turn down meals all day or even for 2-3 days without getting looked at funny,3.5912000000000006,4.0997563866666695,4.577333333333332,88.96200000000002,71.8,8.133333333333333,27.0,8.238735603445708,1.431,279,9,64,4,5,91,57,75,0.0,0.737,0.263,0.9542,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,15,9,9,0,1,4,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,7,7,12,8,1,12,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,8,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699162438113602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601035296741327,0.2139586477888883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961913205154138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040108722338465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23932344064250854,0.0,0.18273797905970213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444058684114985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13792227435059007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19685496150343632,0.0,0.2111692408920243,0.29835914398270025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133221588590113,0.0,0.21819750113871292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147608740947481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30605368059739435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535447032471108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657781124261001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22713394589950225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035164702527112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574995435444195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20129303428607312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinheadlardy,2019/09/03,Good ed songs? Does anyone have any good ed songs? That sounds so weird but im just curious if they exist bc there are songs about everything lol,0.3099999999999987,2.617344827586209,0.9133793103448262,98.84455172413792,100.72413793103449,5.078620689655172,12.696551724137931,6.742157984588678,-0.4952400000000004,116,2,25,2,5,35,25,29,0.046,0.647,0.307,0.8515,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666146994276882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27413793580881457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430949337166623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35235884930992645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6576837763599178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234928007457355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rainydaysunrise,2019/09/03,"Fasting all day, caved on a milkshake because I'm also trying to make myself do a bit better. Ended 10 minutes later with a horribly upset stomach and ruining a downstairs toilet at work 10 minutes to closing. Went home and proceeded to do the same for an hour and wonder if not eating and all of the fasting and restricting was doing it to me... Cue 4 hours later after it's all said and done and I remember I'm lactose intolerant...Completely forgot.",5.309655172413791,6.489111862068968,7.154655172413797,69.59336206896555,68.3103448275862,9.018390804597699,34.04022988505747,9.2995712137729,3.535836781609195,360,17,56,7,6,126,63,87,0.124,0.8420000000000001,0.034,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,7,0,5,2,1,1,3,20,12,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,9,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,1,3,1,10,7,5,14,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,10,41,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18888662045500232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398347213572452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20889701332557856,0.2578659015824158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247648014632352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232749659579034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417114919186106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24168845272176084,0.0,0.0,0.20920039613095476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23692480528774096,0.0,0.4652128470034562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766330229403736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675651074128605,0.0,0.22467739380676016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036222881433226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21895694465777776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25614552339940083,0.17195419713064158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilyivsky,2019/09/03,today i ate like eight pieces of bread and coated them in sriracha mustard and they were delicious thank you ed however now my torso looks bloated and i feel like a really plump blueberry,7.90942857142857,8.211842942857142,7.417857142857144,73.04964285714289,62.42857142857143,11.571428571428573,34.64285714285714,11.20814326018867,4.0567142857142855,153,6,26,4,2,48,31,35,0.0,0.7140000000000001,0.28600000000000003,0.8807,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,6,3,2,3,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,4,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362025599950051,0.3337284980944109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456446924104583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922841662194873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992650639555969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300843746817368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4427988603990229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depression_butterfly,2019/03/06,"I'm so depressed you guys I hope this is allowed to be posted here. 

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I'm feeling so sad every day and stressed out and I think that is partly because of school. I hate everyone rn and yet I want to be around people, I want my partner to know that I'm relapsing with my restricting behavior and embarrassingly enough I've dropped some not so subtle hints. But she's completely clueless when it comes to this stuff, which is actually a good thing because its not like I want her to stop me, I just want someone in my life to know. I feel so lonely but that's just because I hold myself back from people. I feel like I deserve nothing good, I'm uinworthy of other people, and that I can't make my career aspirations a reality. I've never been able to cut myself (although I have tried in the past) but recently I got cut in two places by a cactus as I was walking by it, and I am fascinated by the cuts and it is making me want to cut myself. I'm sorry ",2.764924242424243,4.28834108585859,4.671603535353537,83.61073863636366,75.01010101010101,7.374242424242425,26.516414141414145,8.07648339933343,1.6411202020202025,757,28,155,12,16,259,112,198,0.17600000000000002,0.727,0.098,-0.9236,1,2,0,0,0,2,19.0,0,1,0,0,11,15,5,2,5,0,11,1,0,3,1,38,33,17,0,6,7,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,14,11,0,3,6,0,0,2,4,10,0,1,3,3,28,5,21,28,3,18,0,3,0,0,5,6,0,2,10,107,42,2,0.1309254632753305,0.0,0.12776436593159152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185768475873986,0.15908876838560582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655142012517665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006735997121826,0.0,0.2394328416192784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278069367890944,0.13727285728300534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443609261925307,0.0,0.11276590967208153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528100214581798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031034957839443,0.1251048908470454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985995443060544,0.09353317712404063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962813375763104,0.1047130532499687,0.0,0.0,0.12963679271459078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292617894020056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003852658142734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390642123891045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247652663731347,0.12792713611146206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17478752677833387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100977788576723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562651309195086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177951813392595,0.12498316922126684,0.2723016935457182,0.0,0.1367892430583433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539040267698615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292731000188103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325035586115233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109327201640004,0.0,0.0,0.14656033711117733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945954975234697,0.14997467583092536,0.0,0.14987833180760365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698106018956828,0.08389175032832903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888979539082772,0.0,0.12789515340612342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3861161520078759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15908876838560582,0.0
EDAnonymous,fiyacht524,2019/03/06,"Feeling at such a loss right now Ugh so idk if this is my body dysmorphia thinking for me, but I feel so utterly fat and blob-like even though my scale technically puts me being underweight (it's a nasty cheap thing and I don't trust it at all!). 

My life (and body lol) are going pear shaped at the moment and I cannot deal. I can't decide if I should eat healthy and exercise or if I should just fast until I'm thin again. 

Having said that.... I'm currently monching down on a kinder Bueno in bed so.... 🤷‍♀️",1.6074821610601404,2.956039330275232,3.314984709480125,92.86699286442408,77.71559633027523,7.046279306829766,21.285423037716612,7.793537801064563,0.5850236493374106,393,10,94,6,9,131,82,109,0.131,0.782,0.087,-0.5615,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,9,3,0,0,4,1,9,6,3,0,1,18,16,15,0,5,6,0,3,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,5,5,2,0,4,1,1,2,3,2,0,0,1,4,11,1,8,12,1,17,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,4,6,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.598282422210145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776454042113255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755699932076924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17787583069536875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723411016664297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530543182800293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19022067168401172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707295878796363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299881250363126,0.2561742076959242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891670778183325,0.17256211577655933,0.2645943921005647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jwish91,2019/03/06,"Recovery weight gain in stomach So I chose recovery just before Christmas and have slowly been gaining weight. At the moment it’s sitting around my abdomen. I feel like I’m pregnant and I’m seriously waiting for somebody to ask me if I am because I feel like my stomach is so huge. 

Anyone have tips on how they coped with this? How long did it take to go away (I know everyone is different but some light at the end of the tunnel would be good!). At the moment I feel like I still have ‘underweight’ arms and legs and a pregnant stomach...",3.298888888888889,5.206472452830191,4.254276729559752,85.53904612159329,74.47169811320755,6.975262054507338,28.758909853249477,7.793537801064563,1.8623576519916147,424,18,82,6,9,137,71,106,0.013000000000000001,0.86,0.127,0.8686,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,7,5,0,0,5,0,10,8,6,2,0,18,20,10,0,2,3,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,6,11,4,12,16,1,15,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,8,54,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378837097232863,0.0,0.0,0.17554584246800986,0.1843512146444603,0.0,0.18527170531676573,0.0,0.0,0.12020857361046845,0.0,0.1677988842120148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20602737304657828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465672166831642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842879337743046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991239770525818,0.42262960912826747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207077229953404,0.16539826682828954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837351413568866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890193468996866,0.0,0.0,0.1745118514804786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748061654741102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826650815859035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802620967686384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008205698007595,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,robxnarchist,2019/03/06,"My MRI shows me how fat I am lmao I have an injury in my pelvis from running that’s been persistent for like 18 months now, and it’s kinda funny bc I just got my MRI results from the most recent MRI and I can compare them to the MRI I had about a year ago and I CAN SEE HOW MUCH FAT IVE GAINED I HATE IT. The MRI shows my body composition and I can see it positioned around my midsection and it makes me wanna puke, I’m disgusted by it. Like even if my weight hasn’t changed that much (and it hasn’t), I can see my muscles replaced by fat from not being able to exercise and boy am I feeling triggered. And it’s nowhere close to healing, the doctor was basically like “idk what to do with you, I’m gonna refer you to someone else.” I am EXHAUSTED.",0.7026249999999976,2.6284260125000003,2.69125,93.57875,82.625,6.0,21.875,7.1686216300943375,0.5456249999999998,582,19,135,8,16,195,93,160,0.113,0.772,0.115,-0.2086,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,2,7,6,2,0,6,0,16,15,5,5,0,24,26,11,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,1,12,0,0,1,10,11,4,0,2,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,5,24,3,16,20,3,9,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,3,8,89,34,1,0.20549545353750864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215932067483184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829345212145359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22825912324629785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21738694211792564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21033330428357788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716650828299245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357278089877443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390467575608472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16435348656088447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028842165131381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011840958663943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716981093463493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640245104726541,0.0,0.3021256059199953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029019692120549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912598126500068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411563092437904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25023810161117965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323323346450602
EDAnonymous,ffawnn,2019/03/06,"recovery hey yall

basically, i'm killing myself like this and I need to get help. I came so close to suicide last night and I have to do something if I want to live. To be honest, I don't know if I want to be alive anymore but maybe someday in the future I'll be happy and I'll look back and be grateful to be around still.

I'm deleting my account and aiming for recovery, or as close to it as I can get. I'll still have my peach but I'm not gonna go on it as much, it's more so just because I really do love this community and everyone in it. You're all wonderful and supportive and I wish everyone the best in life. ",0.8492822384428216,2.294384481751827,3.5048357664233585,90.26898114355231,80.0948905109489,7.194403892944036,23.82542579075426,8.07648339933343,1.1695600973236011,482,17,115,9,12,170,78,137,0.037000000000000005,0.68,0.282,0.9889,0,0,1,0,0,4,10.0,0,1,0,1,7,7,1,0,2,0,11,2,0,0,1,26,28,18,2,6,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,12,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,13,6,17,21,4,15,0,0,1,1,4,7,0,4,7,73,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812642178427796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270897714952326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405431046446028,0.0,0.11141826990477874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918116480239901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904652051335326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34929971345288496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098534690516486,0.0,0.10387554881874972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19456795610633945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225105886204299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022140494464081,0.0,0.10044865425013222,0.14898645605819116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290997659516944,0.08929489423641747,0.0,0.1613941463411395,0.0,0.15348541652200665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496205671129668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836225919881309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343610489249097,0.13552574354182212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152245839721028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709068819772304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070953673813247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919295573060918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19992677003288548,0.2074115115580012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156114926326509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21018284543609755,0.0,0.19821227143427264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kiara47,2019/03/06,I swear I’m giving up food for Lent. That is all. ,-3.907499999999999,-2.602476749999997,-0.4666666666666668,109.095,108.16666666666669,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-2.8693,37,0,11,0,2,13,11,12,0.10300000000000001,0.69,0.207,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7834133639661609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6215010065633227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HaveASchpadoinkleDay,2019/03/06,"Does any one want to get stressed out for me on my behalf? I'm in a community theater musical that opens this weekend. The role requires me to not only wear shorts on  stage, but also strip down to a slip and change into a dress on stage. I've dropped about 35lbs and will be doing a water fast for the next three days. Predictably, my ED brain is screaming that it's still not enough (and lots of other nasty things). 

This has to be someone else's reoccurring nightmare, right? Anyone have any tips for emotional survival in this scenario? Or just any love to share with a freaked out ED girl?",4.863017241379311,5.931539784482763,4.611551724137931,87.82612068965518,69.25862068965517,7.179310344827586,28.29310344827586,7.1686216300943375,1.3275896551724131,469,16,95,4,8,143,86,116,0.111,0.7959999999999999,0.094,-0.4784,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,1,7,0,7,4,2,0,0,16,11,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,8,8,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,4,2,20,8,2,20,0,0,0,1,4,12,0,2,5,60,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866799576471254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557974945542381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621967402415962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494093565542173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236347548303465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408669312345232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19551536545433584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18663780382059247,0.25131616603545043,0.0,0.2308514242779275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672714231566665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994274027208846,0.20164425996499186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23760851104861996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139441364453993,0.16992012411873272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079850080195185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893020900398166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842260432020726,0.0,0.2559255695331931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484295748217645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177824264142088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nazea,2019/03/06,"just took some laxs to start a fast tmrw gonna hate this at 6am before my 9am class but took a couple laxatives for the last time in awhile. i wanted to feel absolutely empty for my fast tomorrow, i am flying home friday therefore my boyfriends taking me out to dinner friday night. :/ im excited but that means i have to start fasting tomorrow thurs and friday during the day. 

lent will start off with no more using laxatives and restrictive eating. lets get this shit right this time. ",3.8862765957446825,5.951152893617022,4.683989361702128,82.40875,73.25531914893618,7.67872340425532,22.388297872340427,8.472884824447931,1.4404510638297872,388,10,71,7,8,125,68,94,0.168,0.8009999999999999,0.031,-0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,4,3,1,2,0,14,17,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,7,1,11,12,2,20,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,13,38,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979975951603188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079490784350814,0.0,0.1286912764566428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20418634967873506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008969350571535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425504684786413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19701130356926025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20016186373513573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155449514666975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626573997193281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040502789706337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21736513080675687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18726129753338053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041200739598628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048320794954324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237210807899938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003447459043226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23271486579829806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434080137189148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17234449809538274,0.0,0.0,0.11769796285218068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smebyy,2019/03/06,"Not entirely ED related but this sub might appreciate it more than others. My son and I were out to eat and there are giant, bold calorie counts next to all the menu items. My son explained he wanted the seaweed salad (he would never actually eat this EVER). I asked why, and he said that it had the least amount of calories. I thought this was odd because I don’t discuss these things around him and started to panic. 

After asking more questions, I found out that he thought calories were “added” in to fast food!! He thought calories were added like sugars etc. He thought he could get a bowl of noodles and hold the extra 500 calories or just order seaweed salad for fewer extra calories lol. It ended up being really cute and I explained the very basics of calories and energy needs. 

But boy do I wish I could order pad thai and hold the calories. ",4.367621082621081,6.251696512345681,4.711975308641978,83.47542735042738,71.53086419753086,6.4660968660968665,27.893637226970558,7.010146845296331,1.5045568850902178,673,25,120,6,13,212,101,162,0.042,0.815,0.14300000000000002,0.9567,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,7,1,13,6,0,0,3,36,28,11,0,6,5,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,11,11,6,2,8,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,11,2,11,3,15,12,9,15,0,0,0,0,18,6,0,3,8,81,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.1534981149479052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002670582887697,0.2941008791697265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588612489144756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511759647845671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219059634935628,0.0,0.0,0.1393174856336582,0.0,0.17542651551252966,0.0,0.1422831531710076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020283501795213,0.17246684306492868,0.0,0.0,0.08218061921727808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684683479863025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686609997752894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663292189300176,0.12131630040283813,0.0,0.16728598149404225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455285547579964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762074146113703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076778576572452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496244278824742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133485251654077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450041118990663,0.0,0.0,0.4995015198890855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297855965701519,0.09277720129864928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193509018330214,0.0,0.1808825301698665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173849923690224,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,very_famous_model,2019/03/06,"Fat Camp Trauma Sorry I’m on my phone. I went to fat camp almost every summer in high school when i was 14,15,and 16. I was supposed to work there the next summer at 17 but my ED therapist advised me not to. The stuff they taught at that camp was insane, we were encouraged to eat zero grams of fat a day and if we exceeded 12 grams of fat we were punished with exercise. Day to day there included mile run prebreakfast to “kickstart metabolism”, after breakfast we exercised for about 8 hours everyday via running, playing sports, etc. If you accomplished a certain amount of weight loss you would be allowed to have seconds at meals. 

It was fucking torture, I self harmed with my disposable razors on my face and arms. The crazy part is that while I was there I thought i was having fun even though I was hurting myself. I actually loved it and was excited to lose the weight I hated myself so much. I’m still fat now, I have always been fat except for when I came home from camp. I don’t know what to do, I feel like I am so traumatized by these experiences and I don’t know anyone who can relate, not even in treatment. I hate being the fat girl at treatment in the first place. I feel totally alone, I can’t even remember most of camp but what I do remember is fucking horrible. I want to kill everyone who was involved. I feel like I will never have peace and now I have to hate myself forever. 

Has anyone gone through anything similar? Or can relate in any way? Or just words of kindness. Thanks",3.1469413298565847,5.190634318644069,4.195000000000004,85.19526401564539,75.3050847457627,7.5215123859191655,26.26140808344198,8.384062270229773,1.839059973924381,1184,44,231,22,26,384,168,295,0.21,0.672,0.11800000000000001,-0.9889,1,1,0,0,0,1,29.0,4,2,1,5,16,23,8,0,8,0,32,19,9,1,3,39,52,17,1,4,10,0,5,2,0,2,9,0,1,2,10,12,12,0,8,4,0,5,6,13,0,3,17,5,39,10,36,31,6,36,0,3,0,3,16,13,2,6,19,163,49,5,0.0,0.0,0.11174089286913268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466076156107102,0.11859321003950918,0.0,0.0,0.09527778507084224,0.0,0.0,0.07786769616773552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012987685550026,0.0,0.09422830582655416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096383718176516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215398083227961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716775737889942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770394921751013,0.2268894947365777,0.0,0.09647585901373874,0.10941495387711744,0.0,0.1120083934705852,0.0,0.0,0.17369232995719186,0.16360556636461596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739835683760932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21171705976490005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391515542614326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098139353770207,0.11485839637922265,0.0,0.11276489499893325,0.0,0.12258055261661828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668341851627793,0.11923990300627865,0.12585850429882114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188324934778447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810241383449034,0.0,0.0,0.10334572363727706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417474967658717,0.0,0.08831373421878007,0.0,0.12177794458894485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399834516709307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196339217338273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594249186120637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588572321891875,0.0,0.0,0.11945425464048105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817958128303636,0.0,0.0,0.09144427498169633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108145213889172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542132018415667,0.0,0.13294976156075594,0.0,0.0,0.11250111514895862,0.09090461117525432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753833631461027,0.09088917066553882,0.0,0.2788738081107,0.0,0.10614778604099087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336139944956683,0.0,0.0,0.08134145280432807,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notyourpeach,2019/03/06,"I can’t have an eating disorder bc I can’t stop eating I feel so fucking disgusting I want to cry. I was doing so good today, I ate below 1000 calories (I know is too much but I feel dizzy other way) and then my mom comes in and makes this huge and delicious dinner for us AND I ATE THE WHOLE FUCKING THING I CANT STOP EATING. I’m honestly crying right now. I will never be skinny. I will never be liked. No one will ever love me. I don’t have an eating disorder because I can’t fucking stop shoving food down my throat.

I want to die. ",-0.17120300751879824,2.0219687719298283,2.4909774436090224,91.70684210526319,89.35087719298247,5.011528822055138,17.791979949874687,6.5431188927421005,0.033766416040100555,416,11,89,5,14,144,71,114,0.214,0.557,0.22899999999999998,0.6151,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,1,0,0,0,5,8,4,0,3,0,15,14,2,1,3,18,29,8,1,2,1,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,9,3,3,0,0,1,8,4,0,1,3,2,19,4,6,21,2,16,0,0,0,4,3,5,3,0,10,63,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847004610358231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108858689483822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28279846914544626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359704566259345,0.0,0.2950618126412197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5268744737563378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164398457204508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301752532564166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556557348603625,0.0,0.0,0.3570147526426906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796908434772594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074432709094333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288891824953438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618005024256815,0.0,0.08592546364067365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076208813568456,0.0,0.0,0.09462826619614507,0.0,0.19856252813436714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872279259856962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993112034642556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228615703555681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551969425397735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201699633423616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15484127441833342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518516108875664,0.10217653951013422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437177462067599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilybitsy,2018/12/15,"New England Eating Disorder program/Sweetser in Saco, ME Bit of a long shot maybe but I had such a shit experience with them and I'm wondering if anyone else has had the same?? Or a positive one. I did the IOP program and everyone else in the group seemed like they were lovin it but it just made my ED worse tbfh. ",0.7476562499999986,3.193335953125004,2.2800000000000007,92.965,87.90625,6.325,22.0625,7.645422480735847,1.0391625000000002,247,9,54,5,8,80,51,64,0.158,0.728,0.114,-0.4784,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,6,0,5,2,1,1,0,12,9,6,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,6,1,4,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,4,3,33,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404488305157752,0.240385840052282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25613353781282344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688835759506965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24006477034865656,0.3919733784109343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22418006764674472,0.0,0.22949376054611126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461867650875768,0.0,0.0,0.20762261419192596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219938117413046,0.0,0.0,0.23569744553439065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265879603076225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897792026591898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21358028381905125,0.0,0.0,0.24082396399895015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25442471726816224,0.0,0.0,0.2390878024995685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caway224,2018/12/15,"Chest pain-- even after restoration DAE have continued symptoms including chest pain, dizziness, and trouble concentrating even after weight restoration? I have been restricting and purging more lately, but my weight has only dropped a bit. 

Are my electrolytes just fucked? 

Halp lol",9.576162790697676,13.444219581395352,5.890872093023257,71.9749127906977,62.48837209302327,8.020930232558143,38.656976744186046,8.841846274778883,4.2126325581395365,234,12,28,4,4,63,35,43,0.23600000000000002,0.693,0.071,-0.8205,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,1,5,8,2,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,5,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633704535730532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31867210321365336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22302152243702356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721280437594353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18347309247601468,0.5133905038218595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25073963828292445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875281030420749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,creedbrattenberg,2018/12/15,Christmas Day Wow you know your ED is out of control when you’re already pre-logging your food for Christmas Day 🙃🙃🙃,2.718,4.175647400000003,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,75.0,5.0,32.5,3.1291,1.193,95,5,20,0,2,30,19,25,0.0,0.84,0.16,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4541754985695315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46160848423210704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.530854595936437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4976696332850553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22618699755541904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cdg2m4nrsvp,2018/12/15,"I thought losing weight would solve my problems I’ve recently lost 50 pounds in just a few short months.

When I started losing/restricting I used to imagine how my life would be so much better once I lost weight. I’d have loads of friends, I’d go out all the time and guys wouldn’t be able to resist me. This idea kept me going.

What a fucking joke.

Here I am skinnier than I’ve been in years and if we’re being objective, I do look pretty good. I’d say I’m a 6.5 or 7 out of 10. I have a pretty face (makeup) and long hair which makes up for my body not being amazing. But with all that said my life is still not great.

I have the same amount of friends as I used to, turns out unless they’re shitty, people don’t care what you look like if they want to be your friend. I go out a little bit more but I spend the whole time feeling insecure and nervous. And guys do have more interest in me but they’re all shitty people, nobody I have an actual interest in.

Anyways I don’t know why I’m posting this. I really thought once I lost weight and became skinny my problems would disappear. I’m not even that upset that this didn’t come true, but I miss the fantasy of it. Now I know that life is shitty no matter what, I’m just not fat anymore.",1.90084687175942,3.3880000266159698,3.295086415485656,92.7307941583132,77.25095057034221,6.3027307293467,21.08002073971656,6.980632752743323,0.3201878326996201,969,24,219,10,22,317,141,263,0.158,0.6920000000000001,0.15,-0.7424,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,1,5,10,24,1,3,10,0,23,12,5,4,4,51,52,18,0,9,14,0,5,1,3,4,4,2,0,2,12,12,5,1,7,2,1,5,9,11,0,0,9,9,28,13,22,34,11,27,0,5,2,1,10,11,1,3,11,132,40,0,0.10152964056140153,0.0,0.09907828336120217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069012160865463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979471635783501,0.11084407154669064,0.1127765424446589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351623514818188,0.0,0.0,0.0874587952948857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705937004196028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05133643689220937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23532464532772795,0.0938625166721838,0.0,0.0,0.1731049034475882,0.0851582454617341,0.0,0.1119367871500632,0.0,0.2010606132462752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461460596349875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159607044611647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21514016315012213,0.04960225391806405,0.1017593726361377,0.0,0.08985053694537536,0.17051865435637567,0.11358569751194195,0.33249478865032456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777182346531507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103999044683835,0.0,0.0746359679627992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625150725777026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077573798265094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723733027296153,0.2065842900311991,0.0,0.19430030827959205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504248755866313,0.0,0.1002482714272816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657793822763716,0.08074044527580702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718632021595521,0.0,0.08108170210351856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120638726970035,0.11840549978218876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043509396058723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537802204162853,0.0,0.0,0.05988481254539545,0.0,0.0,0.37090724987810697,0.0,0.0,0.09161470868128667,0.1133542178543097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21637123088136698,0.0,0.0,0.06538175974151995
EDAnonymous,suzimimi,2018/12/15,"PTSD and ED I have been doing so well at eating; I was eating enough to take care of myself and be healthy, but I was still losing weight (in a sustainable way). It was crazy and I was pretty proud. 

I have PTSD. Last night, I was triggered really badly. No one was able to come help me or be with me (literally everyone was busy), and my thoughts were so dark. I was seriously in a place where I thought I should kill myself. I have a medical marijuana prescription for acute triggers like this, and I smoked, which changed everything. I calmed down, I stopped crying, I was no longer suicidal, and I had no more plans to hurt myself. I didn't have another flashback or outburst of rage that night. But, I binged. 

I know that one night of binging is better than suicide, self harm, getting wasted, or any other of my many maladaptive coping skills. I am still uncomfortably full over 12 hours later. 

I want to restrict to ""make up for it,"" or go to the gym to ""get rid of some of it."" 

I'm a grown adult. I cannot keep doing this. No one can help me anymore and my friends and family are sick of my shit. I feel so fucked up and lost right now. I don't want an eating disorder anymore, but it just won't go away. 

Thanks for listening ",2.635313588850174,4.4040960853658575,3.800522648083625,88.67914634146345,75.95121951219512,7.287340301974447,23.90940766550523,8.11559375814309,1.2254578397212548,951,30,203,16,21,309,146,246,0.32299999999999995,0.5539999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.9972,0,0,1,0,0,4,41.0,0,0,0,6,9,18,4,0,6,0,29,8,1,3,0,33,49,19,3,3,8,0,2,1,1,2,2,1,0,2,10,11,4,3,4,1,0,4,8,10,1,3,16,3,33,8,27,29,4,27,0,3,0,1,6,12,2,5,11,141,43,0,0.10993028572178376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475636396093603,0.11527148957747425,0.0,0.0,0.21804260857412344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328312211933666,0.0,0.09178719678658727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722440433100528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120812527628425,0.0,0.11629166605793785,0.09469520725659768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075325693683572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598963135047586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374583792579043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358737136827958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504309896606363,0.09879825246099663,0.0,0.103632489833613,0.0,0.055584055496443435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493186605478599,0.10162877775676447,0.11486807416882255,0.0,0.12495182944023665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736790657668078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825918766619314,0.0,0.11768264449741808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771108894104552,0.12162157362429465,0.0,0.060414810107353674,0.08960785506303948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05370638481044948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229838706445975,0.12000189276493232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337931934194895,0.11145205548127844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074319761207642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309486378804332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234748198697101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485375111064122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183862123015907,0.0,0.0,0.25700524249507906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042415595921718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387986335752684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468126291228666,0.0,0.11284185855275702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755809363603111,0.09190664121576264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404917803445325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265389386992142,0.0,0.0,0.10120903749293976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454473506204696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296794614283998,0.08725754397233558,0.0,0.13386547261773182,0.09884052896045993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,162decreasing,2018/12/15,"Peach? I’ve created one, but I don’t know who to add.
Mind if I could find some like minded people by creating a thread?
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EDAnonymous,Postana,2018/12/15,"Do all the super skinny health gurus not realize that they can have the healthiest diet in the world but still succumb to the effects of being underweight? Or am I ugly FA and osteoporosis don't real???

Like there are more healthy, muscular fitness gurus now but there are still extremely skinny ones who laud their healthy diets and lifestyles but I thought just being underweight can cause all sorts of issues, most related to bone density. Am I wrong? Or if I am, why don't I just do what they're doing instead of recovery because there's actually no harm in a little ortho?",7.805555555555558,7.817040296296297,8.146666666666668,68.715,62.70370370370371,11.274074074074075,36.518518518518526,10.864195022040775,4.206174074074074,464,20,76,11,6,153,74,108,0.162,0.728,0.11,-0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,2,9,4,0,0,5,0,15,7,4,2,2,20,16,8,0,1,9,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,7,2,7,13,4,8,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,5,4,61,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.27289514525164543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704702236164243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872745148031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972516980769938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291878827136386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662140510076407,0.2802797730660861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18949605342081868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.318299523468428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4466529318463128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222008491553482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523379330425207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305750109137864,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,victorfrankensteins,2018/12/15,"A friend of a friend on Twitter posted a picture of themself holding something I cannot stop thinking about their hand omg like I can’t even be jealous I’m just gay and in awe how do they have such thin pretty hands???

That is all.",0.5268750000000004,2.9177179375000013,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,88.375,3.2,22.583333333333336,3.1291,-0.3028166666666663,183,7,39,0,6,57,42,48,0.055999999999999994,0.614,0.33,0.9291,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,5,4,1,0,3,0,6,3,2,1,1,7,8,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,5,7,1,5,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254846244110704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5962040499429055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850383030043985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695317804493338,0.3925419398794315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29704146985954905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225827610695685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472331789514876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowawayy123,2018/12/15,Is anybody else’s ED a result of OCD? I’m still not entirely sure the link or how this could be and just wanna know I’m not alone?? It’s like the last thing I would have thought I’d have and I’m not really sure how to handle it...,-2.2990094339622607,-0.5193844150943399,0.5748820754717023,102.74081367924528,100.69811320754715,4.159433962264152,12.285377358490566,5.985473137389443,-1.2027716981132075,178,3,47,2,8,61,38,53,0.141,0.8240000000000001,0.035,-0.6448,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,3,2,18,11,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309988285462861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551665880221521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669764133995666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563829106075668,0.2605084829518736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15613551760565011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047375201559648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25522496512340137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6024195343773957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21232137711194546,0.0,0.0,0.2537187398708627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22702754720540866,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,healthyhabitsidkher,2018/12/15,"used my dad’s scale not realising its wifi connected? help? I don’t know what the flair is in reference to but its fitting so

Anyway i tried my dad’s garmin scale not realising its wifi connected?? it said something like “add a second user” when I stepped off and now im terrified my stats got on his garmin app
i dont know how ill explain this away honestly im just . embarrassed and worried 

im not rly looking for advice i guess im just ????? yikes",-1.0579347826086969,0.32791124999999965,1.4670434782608694,92.7377391304348,115.84782608695652,5.318260869565218,19.817391304347826,6.742157984588678,0.8846634782608702,353,14,75,8,20,119,64,92,0.12,0.745,0.135,-0.3425,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,16,11,6,0,0,6,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,2,9,2,6,9,0,8,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,1,3,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820241076683555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17133546248691614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21372735552996916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585185736413492,0.0,0.2008927253603496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223366175874477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7879306717442754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20044319378421868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909304919507162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15313847316641174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17346838746252866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039147239074135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381208794973247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15750254788118506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519785272614456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDHelp12,2018/12/15,"Help with water weight driving me crazy I’m 5 foot 4 and a half and my weight last week was 6 stone 8 3/4. This week since Wednesday I have gained a pound a quarter a day and ended the week on 6 stone 9 and 3/4. On Wednesday I had a moment of weakness and ate a chocolate dessert pizza that put on 1,450 for the day which is under my maintanence calories for if I was sedentary and I do over 10,000 steps every day. I am in a relationship so it makes it more difficult to keep my intake significantly low, on Thursday I ate at McDonald’s for dinner but I had the grilled sweet chilli wrap and an apple pie, putting me at 1,084 for the day. Yesterday was my birthday, for dinner I had one of the M&S meals from the ‘count on us’ range, it was chicken chow mein with egg noodles and then I had to eat a slice of banana bread my partners mum baked for me, however I calculated what the calories should be in a slice of the loaf from the recipe if we sliced it into 10 and it came in at 250 for a slice, give or take. Even if I was abit off with the banana bread I was at 499 calories for the whole day without eating the slice and it’s impossible we could of been off by enough it would make me gain real weight. Me and my fiancé will be eating at an Italian restaurant tonight as my birthday meal, however they have nutritional info and I’m planning on having a skinny pizza and ice cream for dessert putting me at 729 for the day. However, I just know it’s going to make me gain more water weight. With it being this time of year and my fiancé’s birthday coming up and Christmas there will be a lot more days that are just going to make me keep gaining water weight and thinking about it is driving me insane. Is it possible at all that what I have gained is actual fat weight? Logically I know I can’t have as all that matters is CICO and I am aware all the foods I have listed have been high carb and I haven’t been drinking as much water as a I should of been to go along with it. It’s just making me insane. 

Thank you to anyone that got through that mess of thoughts haha ",3.656573643410852,4.505749106976747,4.571627906976744,87.81550387596901,71.88372093023256,7.128682170542637,25.96124031007752,7.1686216300943375,1.0354403100775196,1636,50,351,15,30,531,201,430,0.042,0.88,0.078,0.9513,3,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,3,1,1,6,7,7,0,0,29,1,42,34,3,5,3,61,66,29,0,7,9,1,6,0,1,5,2,1,1,1,24,29,32,2,6,1,0,11,3,4,0,3,19,9,43,3,62,37,10,56,0,1,1,0,10,24,0,5,21,243,67,0,0.0,0.0,0.08119134793844951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901473314332149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817548174750373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515881069996752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.071669565097101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642855242072743,0.0,0.0,0.3756005116996763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150447568920118,0.0,0.2554035835652231,0.0,0.0,0.07369064078624799,0.08596799925077844,0.0,0.05495291663220408,0.0,0.07009971762100581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060595572827137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981316840809796,0.14185369355287458,0.0,0.06654276314154517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05576730903075906,0.08790553005784567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479042382914469,0.0,0.0,0.09144925685806138,0.06781922958624338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073379514324696,0.0,0.0,0.277683742225104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06116168587114966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056378577171335514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937956718901008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509174025688692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469998938506946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932582794851035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882402664766865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06255616095952403,0.0,0.0,0.07659952294480885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05331129881488116,0.0,0.06605162824127007,0.04851467851736229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10007954035882344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002144334713955,0.6078922354349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289000000684304,0.0,0.08020197885983199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05910300183648811,0.0,0.0,0.053578170956488085
EDAnonymous,dwightuignorantsIut,2018/12/15,Dunkin Donuts help! What do you usually get? Husband brought up going there tomorrow and I’m wondering what I should get drink wise...no food. ,1.6403846153846189,4.064071500000002,1.868769230769232,90.9262307692308,103.23076923076924,6.695384615384616,24.43076923076923,7.554174236665415,2.080209230769231,113,5,21,3,5,34,23,26,0.0,0.88,0.12,0.4574,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,8,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37916845999026944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680308041585509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40444256569446,0.0,0.21997338622023435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594361169026692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42628855092760204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4197467549738813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edthrowawaythrown,2018/12/29,"Whenever I see fat people eating I involuntarily hate them. (This post title is identical to a post from yesterday, only with “thin” changed to “fat”. Let’s see how long it stays up, as a fun little experiment.)",4.755384615384617,6.498013256410258,7.028717948717951,67.8246153846154,70.28205128205127,10.328205128205127,28.384615384615394,10.504223727775694,3.343215384615384,163,6,29,5,3,58,33,39,0.095,0.821,0.085,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,2,3,2,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,6,4,0,8,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.270138930975518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612988786775826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24979284635187665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25211691570201866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611247479215175,0.0,0.0,0.255939615560458,0.0,0.22598716253812126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421416050283966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17703572322695374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4891320432403884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069805951469888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27218170822118243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawstring,2018/12/29,"Why mom..... I'm currently trying extremely hard to go through recovery after losing my period, finding out my heart rate is way too low, and generally being pretty scared for my health.  I'm eating more and trying to not restrict food groups, and it's hard as hell.  My mother knows this (and is the one who made me get help)  and yet she is constantly talking about ""diety"" foods.

As if the holidays aren't difficult enough, we have a second christmas with the other side of the family tonight where the big meal is fear food #1... pasta.  I've been wrapping my head around a small, sit down, everyone watching you eat meal for days, and today my mom decides she isn't going to eat the pasta and instead wants zucchini noodles..............

I'm just.... I don't even know how to express how annoyed/anxious/angry this makes me.  I know she's just trying to be healthy, but come on.  She's having something totally different than everyone else.  

She isn't trying to be better than anyone or purposely trying to hurt me of course, but constantly won't eat the carbs in a meal or wants substitutes for everything.  She eats a lot less than me throughout the day (also urrghhhhh) but is almost 8 inches shorter (so I know I need more) and then will eat a load of chips, chocolate, etc.  I don't think she is a disordered eater per say, but just is a bit uninformed and ""tries to be healthy""

How do you tell someone to stop trying to be healthy???? To put their nutrition on the backburner because I can't handle someone eating vegetables while I'm having pasta????? I don't even know how to handle this, and I feel pretty dumb for being so annoyed by someone else's eating that doesn't affect me.  

Sorry if this was just a long rant, but I needed to get it off my chest.",5.9488123167155385,6.0005186246334326,6.6313475073313795,77.8870212609971,66.56598240469208,9.635249266862171,31.126246334310853,9.3871,2.679660293255132,1365,48,259,24,20,450,185,341,0.099,0.836,0.065,-0.9085,2,0,1,0,0,0,73.0,1,2,1,2,19,10,3,2,17,0,29,22,3,7,1,55,51,30,0,6,14,3,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,9,15,18,2,9,1,0,4,10,9,0,2,3,5,32,1,37,40,8,33,1,3,1,0,21,13,2,6,14,172,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357043393331142,0.0,0.0,0.0587546046143345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300113713690327,0.0,0.0513725199691445,0.0,0.0,0.06540462477972551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04478714244532137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497898788963527,0.08021112905984278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06328862354953697,0.0,0.15879175520156624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947652280803992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767613908652926,0.08420394844354337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6014320948857345,0.12275091935331847,0.0,0.0,0.0759150182440478,0.08193940831210739,0.09705359447828804,0.0,0.0,0.140409073268632,0.06603085402635815,0.0,0.0692617696987382,0.08267512168717679,0.03714906451536261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715101719280464,0.0,0.2665236959496564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677096354234329,0.0,0.08351034359997257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163088391257455,0.0,0.07540227870481651,0.07809606781442216,0.0,0.08706329975676103,0.04924595569732525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865205432973127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188826258863646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501938186189668,0.0,0.08219507742139279,0.0,0.06246228126242812,0.0,0.069519885744446,0.049042356553164405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209632087571178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895539459018913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04978574297222157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949251609228914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385848749834785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058426961279917776,0.0735571284457354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18675481423550966,0.056561442487769474,0.0,0.08224459080851634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142491247572088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059053078578748086,0.0642167529671494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047077147978512944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964176608687135,0.0,0.0,0.34917314569206703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08667001059736182,0.058317733413456925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662960059051889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scrmbldegg,2018/12/29,"youre allowed to be happy just a reminder that your ED does not need to be your identity. I see some posts here sometimes, and it’s definitely different for everyone, but I know some of you find it difficult to enjoy anything because of your constant thoughts about your ED. There are tons and tons of non-food related joys in this world and you have the right and the ability to enjoy those. There is nothing wrong with being happy even when you’re suffering. 

On the flip side, there is nothing wrong with being sad when you should be happy, either. Sometimes that can feel a lot worse, but it’s totally valid and you’re allowed to be sad. Either way, let yourself feel whatever it is you feel and don’t beat yourself up about it. We do enough harm to ourselves, at least in this one small way we should try to show ourselves some self acceptance. 💖

Happy early new years guys! May your 2019 be (even?) better than your 2018.",4.768246669531585,6.161073061452516,4.810167597765363,85.10057155135368,69.78212290502793,7.965792866351527,28.29437043403524,8.384062270229773,1.9061539321014185,734,26,142,11,13,228,106,179,0.111,0.665,0.225,0.9786,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,2,11,0,2,11,16,0,0,5,0,19,0,0,2,1,34,26,10,0,3,6,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,10,10,0,0,7,1,0,0,2,7,0,1,1,4,15,9,21,14,11,18,0,3,1,0,15,9,0,5,6,100,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888727195756294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066044112418408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702541267016055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429898439834464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824520410203606,0.0,0.0,0.1157932584367817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672090973410705,0.0,0.17479091801544866,0.0,0.0,0.12643648566675678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20071340350535866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093717913175572,0.0,0.16000067364268697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101662431393088,0.0,0.5634241917983726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271906814807583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530515390189773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249289160167487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811287024209624,0.0,0.12779452560804136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539273199372317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966278647353483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12672503643523256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129997126382936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544112057505907,0.0,0.13803758644953334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26173377105142204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504651476443087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983592299835944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100573443923032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484437680457634,0.0,0.28934013405554576,0.0,0.08520910500303673
EDAnonymous,rheartilly,2018/12/29,Recovering from restriction has turned into binge eating and my mom won't stop sending me diet pills and meal replacement shakes 🙃 I know I've gained weight and I'm ugly now but it's hurting my feelings and makes me want to jump off a cliff!!! ,3.535,5.3033118367346965,4.3589285714285735,85.62982142857145,73.48979591836735,7.348979591836735,24.494897959183675,8.07648339933343,1.3434040816326531,196,6,39,3,4,63,42,49,0.166,0.737,0.096,-0.6632,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,5,0,1,0,12,8,5,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,4,2,2,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,4,7,0,7,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35558563159411744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570959290206184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37201260993995816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098033769590128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319631090939241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069951003545313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905307712577899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779869927992703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049681799198758,0.0,0.0,0.4231689733184149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3ldritchB1tch,2018/12/29,"I am a desperate fat loser. Hi guys, I don't know where to post this but ugh. My life is just a stupid mess in the most self inflicted way. I started seeing a married man over a year ago and he left his wife early in our relationship due to problems in their marriage unrelated to me. I broke it off with him because I felt so guilty that I started seeing him when they were married and I could tell that he had a lot of unresolved emotional baggage about it. He wouldn't commit to me or meet my friends or family which I understood considering he only separated from his wife recently but it made me feel used. I realised I don't want someone who doesn't see me as a priority and I know if he cheated with me he will cheat on me. I hadn't seen him for about 3 months but he came over tonight and I AM SO FAT. I have been emotionally eating since I broke up with him and I love him and I am drunk and I am miserable. Sorry for the ridiculous post. I just ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh",2.4313169446883265,4.104579611940299,4.754509803921568,82.03411764705884,76.26368159203979,7.714486391571556,25.753877670471176,8.4952907291091,1.6520931226221829,766,28,166,15,17,268,119,201,0.255,0.69,0.055,-0.9916,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,2,1,8,13,4,1,8,0,16,6,2,2,1,34,32,17,0,5,8,2,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,8,11,4,0,5,1,0,1,5,11,0,0,9,6,37,2,22,20,2,24,0,4,4,1,30,10,0,6,10,112,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934587567782236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582598337341153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979177397119986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550921133008133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085202911504626,0.0,0.3536514918227514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819157528675234,0.0,0.07948365187470906,0.0,0.15093400997083542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214502039168404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556499901087572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727829929558418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079526998464065,0.0,0.11103306518913904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364347888517855,0.141876653776532,0.14874383699745658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547334366292498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955559073907784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30110302064283195,0.0,0.0,0.15041653645412448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552133180551259,0.16877101500296854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757975629544401,0.0,0.16399101318642387,0.0,0.0,0.1300351880378188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319271816820266,0.0,0.0,0.17596944928986466,0.22253004255223266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739732356528955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576795054651805,0.0,0.0,0.09271900975392317,0.12477585859101288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122987384501324
EDAnonymous,RainbowSilk,2018/12/29,"What's the goal: Make digestion longer or quicker??? Hi there, hope you guys all got a wonderful and not so stressful Christmas, and that it'll get better after new year.

Anyway, I had a rather confusing question, that I didn't dare post on r/loseit or any other weightloss subreddit.

Here it goes: People always tells me not to drink water while I'm eating because it disrupts my digestion and makes the food stay longer in my stomach. Good. BUT, they also say to eat whole foods (especially whole grain bread) because it will make the digestion last longer.
In the end, I don't understand what I am supposed to do. 

Make my digestion last longer or make it quicker?? What should it be healthwise?",5.033153846153848,6.844773700000005,5.001538461538463,82.35846153846154,69.69230769230771,7.969230769230768,29.153846153846153,8.548686976883017,2.2431384615384617,551,21,99,9,10,171,89,130,0.012,0.897,0.091,0.8364,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,2,6,5,0,2,6,0,9,12,1,5,1,22,20,10,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,12,3,11,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,1,10,3,7,13,3,12,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,7,7,62,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505040390777807,0.1197088855778375,0.0,0.0,0.09783450700310099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754000001202384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723868795122925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093490884304502,0.0,0.294423755780084,0.0,0.0,0.1274234777167146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34792914327059365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516458005217358,0.0,0.0,0.12066883064255406,0.11506359838789268,0.0,0.0,0.14245096853014003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428924124846215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345416459334181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4801617649431222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389476643978806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973927711346693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137784836632344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16116398790237246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440882869491148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533431011925628,0.0,0.0,0.16479918532190393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12574611666630192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977064155190267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212447800613091,0.0,0.0,0.1560176462222782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926456440076234
EDAnonymous,pinkwavesinlife,2018/12/29,"how to support girlfriend with an ED? hello! 👋 i just found this sub and it seems like a good place to get some advice as i’ve browsed a little and this looks like a rly awesome community. i’m looking for some advice on how to support my girlfriend who has an ED. I, myself don’t have an ED and i don’t really struggle with like thinking about what i’m eating and stuff at all so i have a little trouble empathizing with her. 

so what i’m rly looking for is what to say when she’s feeling down as most of the time when she’s feeling sad she says it’s cuz she ate too much. most of the time i just reply with “that’s ok” or like it’s ok or something along those lines cuz irdk what to say but i feel like i should be like saying more or something, or maybe i shouldn’t be and that’s just enough idkkk.

yikes, sorry if this post is a mess but it’s 12:30 am and this has just been stuck on my mind. thanks for any replies and i’m sry if this breaks any rules",-0.3931578947368415,1.7037249377990449,1.2770985645933024,100.79648995215312,89.09569377990431,3.9181626794258366,16.97244019138756,5.108053359733372,-0.9143371866028712,748,18,181,3,25,241,107,209,0.063,0.7829999999999999,0.154,0.9282,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,12,16,0,1,10,2,14,2,0,4,1,42,33,25,0,4,12,0,3,6,2,2,0,4,0,0,18,12,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,10,16,12,22,25,8,13,0,1,3,0,13,7,0,11,10,116,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24928735818162834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348133420873724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051894352024848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179673067385586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348445264060093,0.09112415460376097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985568893977404,0.0,0.0,0.06664137241616189,0.0,0.0,0.10698571689340093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738968081960193,0.2556839768849372,0.0,0.0,0.3213381225934092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814450673829214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879254456797434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937664050643344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326612562352608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216087158263235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171395643796515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057422448425687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611979950382333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639363526517567,0.0,0.14278555725726114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334647945563546,0.14601809432045365,0.0,0.28949211044969503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743400780856718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173105054221347,0.0,0.0,0.1487547942026486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawberrivoid,2018/12/29,"Obsessing over weightloss DS game I was able to get a game emulator for my android and play some classic games but I wanted to try a good ol fashion dating sim game. 

The only one I could find in english was this one where the main character you play as is overweight and your objective is to lose weight so the guy of your choosing falls for you. There's a bunch of other things you have to focus on like how your face looks and school subjects, all ranked from 0-100. I've been playing it non-stop.

You also don't lose weight if you're too hungry and the lowest weight caps out at 45kg (99lbs) but I think that's a good thing for it to have.

It honestly motivated me to go to the gym today and eat healthier.",5.7003571428571425,4.988436272108847,6.105501700680275,84.01702806122452,67.23129251700679,9.254761904761905,29.2593537414966,8.472884824447931,1.816551700680272,560,16,122,7,8,181,102,147,0.09699999999999999,0.74,0.163,0.8885,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,7,0,4,6,10,0,1,9,0,9,6,1,2,1,18,14,12,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,6,5,0,4,8,0,2,1,3,0,2,3,4,13,7,19,10,4,10,0,2,1,0,12,6,0,2,3,78,21,2,0.16697413638720068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335291565427505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331526109604433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17085622666295355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261133566636806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723709465898058,0.0,0.0948952496293292,0.2800999671346817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533064665965533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08157512884937823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14021622105440446,0.3736026965745916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262919922811641,0.12699135486521787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898674034754207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959785462660088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186039359897194,0.10699028447679204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827195752175496,0.0,0.0,0.11336447813673747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848567179187084,0.0,0.0,0.6099885450760986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bongothebean,2018/12/29,"Trying to recover.. but.. I will always love Wasted for multiple reasons I’ve been trying to recover for a while but dealing with my ED for 17 years now. I recently did a large purge (of personal possessions - I have a child now and I’m trying to downsize junk).. I got rid of all of my ED lit, except for Wasted. It’s one of my favorite books. Center of Winter is another of my favorite books.. maybe it’s the writing? Or the connection I felt to Marya Hornbacher.. I don’t know. 

But I couldn’t get rid of that dog-eared, water logged book I’ve read at least 10 times. It’s triggering, but also healing.. I don’t know. Anyone else feel this way about any ED lit or film/television?",0.6155626598465496,3.008599746376813,2.8816794543904543,88.86080562659845,87.76811594202898,6.435464620630863,21.16112531969309,7.724431198458867,1.1572705882352947,527,18,108,11,17,179,86,138,0.05,0.865,0.085,0.6767,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,8,3,0,2,1,18,16,9,0,1,7,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,4,12,1,19,10,2,10,0,0,2,1,5,2,0,2,7,63,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740823374682478,0.18113106872543644,0.0,0.0,0.1480330280092313,0.22826133777994945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221017002097326,0.22304365064217385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244233175964584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184759396873446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100679006869752,0.0,0.20901140332535392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137312460092719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410230198694576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392675834653394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19646889730597009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869349162825769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750875384298404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19007384154093745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774356044723311,0.0,0.0,0.22381607746935533,0.2149373320681993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269336710900109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433807683101726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278794428288766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018177874478455
EDAnonymous,LilMama351,2018/12/29,"Every One Must Be The Same I'm doing a breakfast meal prep (so inspired by Starcucks' sous vide egg bites 🤤) and I'm insane. I've measured out 12 exact portions because I'm afraid of mixing everything together and accidentally grabbing one that is slightly more calories than another egg bite. Spent idk how long getting a precise 5g bacon, 7g gruyere, and 12 eggs beaten one by one to fill each cup in the baking tin. Anyone else do ridiculous things like this? I know if I eat all 12 throughout the week it will be the same calories in the end but I want each one to be the same each day. -.-",3.0433613445378183,4.836989848739499,4.123268907563027,86.69599579831936,74.88235294117645,6.104537815126051,27.866386554621855,6.742157984588678,1.3078732773109245,468,19,92,4,10,152,85,119,0.073,0.8809999999999999,0.046,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,1,8,0,8,7,0,1,4,20,15,7,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,7,7,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,5,1,1,3,2,9,9,9,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,52,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22365244490705646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491368489994879,0.2185401096492627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001918737874366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375539638615851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182482180460797,0.1781758548650094,0.0,0.1889110263893216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17970544785732312,0.0,0.19169068428317151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114348644395525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172182300986386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420238615814212,0.0,0.0,0.1887543328729413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7226518026013791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169994416854476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258035647366163,0.0,0.17108782391488475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,help12345777,2019/09/28,"Am I purging?? Disorder help I started 'purging' a few months ago when i discovered a whole pint of ice cream can kind of just 'come up'. I mean that I don't have to force myself to throw up (I don't even have a gag reflux -- LOL not sexual) I just kind of bend over and press my stomach and some of it comes up (not all). However this disordered habit has continued, I mean I would even get a huge ice cream and cake with my boy friend and then throw it up in a public bathroom. HOWEVER now I now do it almost after every meal! I just eat sweets at the end and chug some chocolate milk or ice cream and then it makes some of what I ate comes up (only like 1/4th of the meal I can control what comes up). HELP?? What is this condition? is it bulimia or noT? technically I have no stomach acid coming up (I think).",1.2021428571428563,3.080809928571433,2.9038095238095245,92.94535714285715,80.66666666666667,6.5809523809523816,20.61904761904762,7.645422480735847,0.5808976190476196,620,17,142,10,16,205,93,168,0.016,0.8290000000000001,0.155,0.9696,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,7,1,13,7,2,2,1,31,25,11,0,1,8,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,11,12,5,1,3,0,0,7,6,0,0,0,1,6,18,5,20,23,6,30,0,0,3,0,5,12,0,6,12,97,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286847148590778,0.0,0.14536708901418166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6252568104634311,0.0,0.0,0.16282083930642452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327554892454115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854546214939174,0.0,0.0,0.12857779995341306,0.0,0.0,0.19176723247901825,0.0,0.12231224172970508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121582162700698,0.0,0.07584549182542791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460918857514506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023450630950821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092287738937003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690230476268988,0.0,0.0,0.3162660369966483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587355114126552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040855733425513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275228790991092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301926867700162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207745937773546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312481837172932,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eponinedawn,2019/09/28,"When ur not feeling well so u take a Bronkaid And then forget and drink an entire pot of coffee bc u feel like shit and warm drink feel good

20 min later I’m just like “wow I feel really good, that coffee hit hard I’m jittery but I’m gonna get shit done!”

*face palm* accidental EC stack I guess here we go",-2.837844112769485,-2.8629905970149245,-0.22490049751243826,103.30470563847427,134.07462686567163,2.6829187396351584,9.692371475953566,5.033348758259628,-1.7314504145936984,238,4,58,2,18,79,51,67,0.201,0.639,0.16,-0.4468,0,0,2,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,2,0,1,6,4,0,0,13,14,7,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,4,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,6,3,7,1,11,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,6,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21884409852021805,0.0,0.4189856644644253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325185139241424,0.15277539122880696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172846307518496,0.0,0.12153660590907242,0.3587366011867309,0.0,0.0,0.23558128557820399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156873476869146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20895385861094695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699860062294136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.439030514540268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078954219591635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227797575956693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sleddingpenguins,2019/09/28,"Another shitty boyfriend post Just made a new username to post this in case he knows my old one.


My bf and I are always going out to eat together and snacking while watching movies etc. He doesn't know about my disorder and it's not obvious on me in anyway (I binge as much as I restrict... so I'm always stuck at the same weight).


However he gained some weight and started intermittent fasting. Which, great, whatever. But he's become one of those guys who thinks this put him on a higher plane of existence or something.


He was driving home today and I called to ask him to buy some potato chips. He did and when he came home, I took the chips and started snacking on them while reading a book. And THEN. He started to talk about how that's an addiction just like his smoking is. That he used to snack while doing things and managed to stop and now he doesn't ever feel a need to do it. That it's a problem.


I was so shocked by this I didn't even know what to say. I asked him when exactly I hired him as my lifecoach and nutritionist. He was all nooo it was just some advice. Buddy... I reeeeally don't need or want your advice, jesus. I just feel like I got punched in the stomach. How am I ever supposed to feel comfortable eating in front of him again.

How is this shit ever okay to say to anyone WHILE THEY'RE EATING. I'm so angry and embarrassed.


Sorry if the formatting sucks, I'm on mobile.

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EDAnonymous,averyisland26,2019/09/28,"TW I just want this to kill me Backstory: I’ve never had a healthy relationship with food. Was disgusting and fat as a child. Comfort ate to cope with my parents awful messy divorce. 
Developed anorexia aged 11. Wasn’t diagnosed till age 15 when I had to be hospitalised for 6months because I was on my death bed. 
Note to self: no one cares unless you are dying or look visibly ill. 

Been struggling and maintains a low weight ever since (got to a healthy bmi - 20.5ish last year due to binging and major depressive episode). 
Now working my way back down to bmi of 15/16. Currently at 17.5. Everyone still tells me how ‘well’ I look and how WELL I’ve done to get over my eating disorder. 

My eating disorder, past, trauma, negative thoughts and behaviours still take up 95% of my day. Just wish I could starve myself to death and let this kill me already.

Update: I’m 21 now",3.9344148020654046,5.967123801204821,4.3885025817555965,84.71807228915665,73.03614457831327,8.11635111876076,29.929432013769365,8.841846274778883,2.502875731497418,685,30,131,14,14,216,117,166,0.29100000000000004,0.647,0.062,-0.9926,2,1,0,0,1,2,25.0,0,1,0,1,13,11,3,1,4,1,11,8,1,2,2,20,22,13,5,3,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,8,6,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,2,1,10,3,16,4,22,9,1,25,0,2,2,0,7,6,0,1,18,79,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477706411305464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784895935720228,0.0,0.08549935262207639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300133779820134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198378497211237,0.0,0.0,0.09045414832894692,0.0,0.12080313055132134,0.14235788136853245,0.14556460055211135,0.0,0.3214932986151132,0.0,0.0,0.1435315857703216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28703580956101643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687046743124708,0.0,0.13402155408095034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695992958243847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327848267007563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217631888013073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103471330784846,0.0,0.0,0.11432815779063207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342226379882933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355610755897848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817482882628376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504175889611148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573877696140542,0.0,0.13389115692907522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15058350581068328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631861807919652,0.0,0.0,0.11602202246127252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22401880932320664,0.0,0.0,0.14662704757766373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545579306326054,0.0,0.12259078178265502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113483745239694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272720018775208,0.11132946155974884,0.0,0.17079521505554107,0.25221573673761594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128860403603815,0.0,0.0,0.10210875121458454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903208960145625
EDAnonymous,aggressivehealth9,2019/09/28,"i dont want to be ""thicc"" It has been a long road for me. I will be 30 years old at the end of october. I dont feel like going into all the details, but the past few years i've been doing a lot better. I also quit smoking recently. 

Yesterday, someone i hadn't seen in a while said i had gotten ""thicker"". 

I know it was meant as a compliment but I havent been able to stop fixating on it. It's true. 

This is horrible",-0.6009782608695673,1.2431086847826087,2.6197391304347843,92.66656521739132,87.15217391304346,6.288695652173913,20.069565217391304,7.554174236665415,0.6336747826086961,317,10,76,6,10,114,66,92,0.115,0.754,0.132,0.5399,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,7,0,15,0,0,0,2,11,23,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,10,3,9,4,9,10,3,16,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,1,11,52,14,0,0.22204072826734625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775658901742912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963769802040777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5204601597125506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966621800650865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227046378937244,0.15862594064002747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12619086280492378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202777738902952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084778841210224,0.0,0.0,0.19649905730236386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887710869213144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329943930457663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119629995632796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361676460458032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192384319709536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211211579397394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881343885115246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856359911571646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096537440898004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859738982258709
EDAnonymous,leelo2002,2019/09/28,‘Ha! She thinks she thin!’ I was bodychecking in my mirror looking at how bloated I am after a full day of eating and keeping things down and I didn’t realise my curtain was open a bit. This random teenage girl then decides to yell out ha she thinks she’s thin. Me being the pussy I am I just closed the curtain and freaked the fuck out. I felt like screaming I KNOW IM FAT YOU DUMB C*NT but nah I just let myself get bullied again. I want to yeet myself off a cliff 🙂,-0.118422291993717,2.1737977857142887,1.3173469387755112,99.04468602825749,91.55102040816324,3.4235478806907382,19.78335949764521,4.713530739802397,-0.5317120879120876,365,12,81,1,13,116,70,98,0.16899999999999998,0.78,0.052000000000000005,-0.9022,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,7,2,0,6,2,7,3,1,1,0,19,16,6,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,7,2,1,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,5,19,3,10,10,2,14,0,0,1,1,6,10,2,1,5,54,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235687019322614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113969718225005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032693289004041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845699626167815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27399726711518924,0.15484560129400626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201397785994275,0.0,0.0,0.26343494360202185,0.0,0.0,0.16288194375727605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30306722884624365,0.0,0.14479562767073031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24888340384576801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19690079194207288,0.3798149169728262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748117945361501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowkey_a_throwaway,2019/09/28,"Are there Anorexics that previously used to be overweight/obese? If so, how long did it take to become underweight/healthy weight? Do you plan on recovering or are currently recovering?",5.387258064516132,9.022047000000004,5.703467741935487,67.97520161290325,79.0,10.841935483870973,33.55645161290323,10.125756701596842,5.086929032258067,151,8,23,6,4,48,28,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,0,4,7,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5042525099150295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040555440521093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432884592679208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943352177956035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559867743972857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laurendenn,2019/09/28,"Family just makes it worse I’m definitely sure that anorexia nervosa but at the same time I binge eat once I go way too long without food (at times 4 days) 

My family isn’t aware and as always compliment my weight loss when I’ve been suffering :( 
Dropped about 40 pounds in a year and now at a normal BMI range. 

Whenever I eat something high in calorie during a binge moment my family bullies me for it and just has to point it out and it really hurts. Why do they feel the need to do that, it’s so low.",2.1914316239316243,3.9143476730769247,3.7801282051282072,88.5426495726496,77.07692307692307,7.699145299145299,22.132478632478627,8.515128840125781,1.2133388888888892,394,11,86,8,9,131,77,104,0.18600000000000005,0.747,0.067,-0.9388,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,7,6,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,1,1,15,10,8,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,3,8,2,12,9,1,20,0,4,0,0,1,9,0,0,8,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962652335629453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597047965137952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680061238414255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5085612613089308,0.0,0.09092353635853764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21744178734360856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219713284416687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899920877924122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250344564035102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15913703905747195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003275310811648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333359252880123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761876322995786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915048352890686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16999015686364913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519874265538108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843595901052386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948034942117635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209711608678678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273453782862236,0.0,0.21897506502543634,0.0,0.0,0.1622616176742084,0.0,0.0,0.17334223909047916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325424286088474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579963801393885
EDAnonymous,Maiko90,2019/09/28,"Bf's grandma is concerned how skinny I've gotten... So we are visiting his family and I cannot understand one word but he is translating and his grandma said I was waaaay to skinny and now she is worried and always wants me to eat chocolate and covers me in blankets and my fucked up Ed self is just so (positively) triggered. I love that attention and but hate that I have to figure out how to not eat all the stuff she is throwing at me. 

And I'm shocked that I like that attention so much. I realise it's a bad thing to be so hyped about someone thinking I'm ill..",3.836858974358975,4.589925111111113,5.141100427350427,84.25216346153849,71.3931623931624,8.243162393162393,30.009615384615394,8.472884824447931,2.124146153846154,446,18,93,7,8,149,75,117,0.16899999999999998,0.757,0.07400000000000001,-0.9217,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,9,6,2,0,2,0,10,7,2,3,1,25,20,16,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,7,10,4,0,5,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,3,1,15,2,10,16,2,7,0,0,0,2,11,4,1,0,2,66,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786164517279412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19854603827083545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4866403059004464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22416874044478066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21983448568353456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347699569183671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161729555676104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21461618660887916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480417329846765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113372994559536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261942480489728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480684802704191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014800356255594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722144700630447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15797816081526408,0.15236724403633098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475494228603079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402556359334574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414888940310441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,novadelfuego,2019/09/28,"Started growing hair everywhere?? I know this is a common thing to happen with anorexics, they dont have enough body fat to keep warm so to compensate, their body grows more hair. I, however, only very recently lost the final few pounds to bring my bmi from overweight to normal, and yet my body has started growing a lot more darker and thicker hair where Ive never had it before (stomach, back, thighs) anyone know why this could be happening or have the same thing happen to them?",9.863666666666667,7.9062383666666705,8.787222222222223,72.1375,59.77777777777778,11.666666666666668,36.944444444444436,10.125756701596842,3.616111111111112,383,13,67,6,4,119,67,90,0.055999999999999994,0.88,0.064,-0.3222,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,9,10,9,0,1,12,19,4,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,3,2,1,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,2,4,8,1,8,15,6,13,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,8,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571983166795427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127257506735304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082634325732518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5514918687338289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321364374331512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939620581178854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100335232819575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812946280627801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4390471775811367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710194951499173,0.0,0.0,0.18190640269564187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806602767661433,0.14070021633406288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276420198210457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215259604158247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586844955889942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340900140026118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342802311725793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21989862058301665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655292516244594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933592216644226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bunni54,2019/09/28,"I hit a new embarassing low I haven't owned a scale in close to a year because I decided it wasn't good for my mental health. I work at a retail store and we sell scales. A customer removed a scale from the packaging to try it out. It was no longer able to be sold, I ended up hoarding it away in the backroom and weighing myself daily when I was alone (I had honestly been walking past the scales ***every day*** for months waiting for somebody to do this JUST to weight myself, like how stupid).   
The guilt took over and i finally got rid of it.  Long story short I basically triggered myself, I was attempting to try and recover but now i'm fully back into restricting mode. Damn. Feels bad man",0.5528260869565216,3.0471198623188407,2.3212898550724645,90.70976086956524,93.13043478260867,5.368695652173915,20.668115942028987,6.961326702584282,0.7672307246376809,543,19,108,9,20,178,96,138,0.15,0.8220000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.9354,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,2,5,8,2,1,10,0,9,3,0,2,0,16,16,7,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,8,2,2,2,0,4,3,3,5,0,0,9,2,15,3,19,5,1,25,0,1,0,0,2,11,1,0,12,71,21,1,0.22097740660938145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288659499483957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761554764092094,0.16991798556133786,0.18450690428639308,0.13470577603094436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142512146258319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19572039268671876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861829957458009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117328164098644,0.0,0.0,0.2420699476502752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18534536446190447,0.17673581873578995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23488864985638194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795839886939236,0.0,0.0,0.19555805109584615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22269325142153806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638205770817492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21342135630071835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094793872339868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24551402955627036,0.30005830749968104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26909094959027946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087418383984026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230220482757608
EDAnonymous,katarina-stratford,2019/09/28,"I'm being ignored and dismissed and it feels like a challenge. My psyc wants me to be more ""spiritual"". Good karma vs bad karma. ""Paying"" for thing I've done in past lives. 

My surgeon has told me there's nothing wrong and I should just deal with the pain. 

My gp isn't understanding how bad things are for me right now. No one noticed the 20 fucking pounds I've lost and my bpd brain is rolling up its sleeves like this is a challenge and we're going to win damn it!",1.8111458333333343,3.781071989583338,2.705416666666668,94.66458333333335,79.10416666666666,5.1000000000000005,23.166666666666664,5.82211442006289,0.17377916666666635,365,12,81,2,9,115,72,96,0.184,0.6609999999999999,0.155,-0.6397,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,4,14,2,0,4,0,9,4,1,1,0,14,17,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,8,0,1,3,1,8,6,7,11,1,6,2,1,0,1,2,3,2,0,4,46,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404525037990694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567721324480907,0.2275907793947777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101851144154211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20863385823666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308480663741053,0.14564760727480375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18847820315167124,0.0,0.0,0.11586627731455887,0.1709998160845518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992050505826725,0.0,0.18002445358472616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225525252037042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956225759107305,0.2321118698909025,0.0,0.0,0.13815028062063128,0.0,0.2169362817949533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946207763535983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17410725926567916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27088961766017305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19481031833317566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21223999622657336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025015165586005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22290418515145696,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Weightles,2019/09/28,"Just purged at a party and my boyfriend was worried about me I am usually not one to purge but I restricted all day and then went to a party and binged on pizza secretly like a pathetic fuck. Anyway went to the upstairs bathroom and purged some of it (I'm trash at purging--last time i did it was last november) and my boyfriend knocked mid purge. The reality is he'd probably be happy I purged because it's punishment for betraying my diet which would make me skinnier, and it was necessary for what i did. But I'm just very ashamed. I shouldn't have eaten pizza in the first place. Fuck
 Fuck EDNOS and fuck the 120s and fuck my lack of self control.",2.717974358974363,4.8517775923076965,3.7934615384615378,87.16070512820515,76.92307692307693,7.410256410256411,26.98717948717949,8.344100000000001,1.9039487179487184,517,21,104,10,12,167,81,130,0.309,0.607,0.084,-0.991,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,9,6,1,7,0,12,9,0,2,1,22,23,11,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,8,4,2,1,0,0,2,2,7,0,2,8,0,13,2,12,11,3,14,0,0,0,5,3,6,5,1,7,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684631064097672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818737904897602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245867692766904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351356244107157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7343685766032075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912117495594226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25900220165043075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761636465243966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604765202673606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765512747918736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16598642152822032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17128985033831282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573714191372044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09263898030853247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497400406384014,0.131085245298911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945500891843678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134125164543592,0.0,0.1128574277029604,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,williamsmade1578,2019/09/28,"only thing i like about being poor is that i’m forced to starve 🤠 i save so much money from not eating it’s gr8! i have rent, gas & other things to pay in college and food just ain’t my priority i’ve lost so much weight from being broke in college and i lowkey love it so i’m forced not to eat. it’s so fucked up but",-1.3088280060882838,0.6073792739726009,1.1514155251141571,101.25427701674278,91.87671232876713,3.792389649923897,12.220700152207005,5.033348758259628,-1.5875893455098935,249,3,64,1,9,84,50,73,0.245,0.6679999999999999,0.086,-0.8359,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,7,10,7,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,4,0,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,5,3,9,7,2,3,0,2,0,2,1,3,1,0,1,38,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27162110135740897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5130342485327996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031337707236805,0.0,0.0,0.23175766330238776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247383588414895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736563291711268,0.0,0.2262563389938071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685700777400171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19066005256560453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330928656576715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30527130027095395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ytr_333,2019/09/28,"How did your partner react to finding out about your ED? I'm about to put myself out there in the dating world, but one concern I have is how a potential partner would react to my ED. I'd rather not have my partner know anything, but my bulimia is too severe for it to be hid successfully, at least if I'd end up living together with someone. And well, I just read a thread about someone discussing their partner's eating disorder, and it seemed like several suggested breaking up because you wouldn't want to get ""dragged down"" with them (which I think sounds pretty harsh; if I needed emotional support, I'd go to a counselor instead! So I don't understand the automatic assumption that you're a burden if you have an ED, but maybe I just have trouble empathizing?)

Anyway, so I'd like to hear what y'alls experiences were like once your partner or date found out about your ED in some way.",12.373158914728684,7.472744726744188,11.30046511627907,65.10228682170546,58.12790697674418,14.489922480620155,46.689922480620154,11.538034831475384,5.227659689922481,711,31,131,13,6,229,108,172,0.12,0.7340000000000001,0.145,0.7697,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,7,2,1,16,8,0,0,7,0,12,1,0,4,0,33,24,13,0,8,11,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,0,5,5,7,1,0,6,1,0,2,3,2,1,1,3,2,19,6,23,18,2,17,0,0,0,0,17,10,0,6,6,91,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190983258883266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512256842044357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976401004447779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645713449474867,0.0,0.19398054597185804,0.15273755125956368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868702272131375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761415026580702,0.0,0.0,0.18908009402690928,0.0,0.0,0.09009684953149337,0.0,0.09800604961145422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19436118549983586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477279209393026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25274782951628283,0.0,0.152274552511947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17324697741499914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278678466321764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18365126169236834,0.11685508130708393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544139225271754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733576531468715,0.0,0.0,0.1724944506496187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698998571322784,0.0,0.3896338208360157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922288952502771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569170149184345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049757674208463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952422466500298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171417087108114,0.13688102402080646,0.0,0.0,0.1550512678096387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250195786436067,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thicc_mint,2019/09/28,"Why don’t you just stop eating when you’re full? “There are only two options and you always pick the wrong one - you either stop when you’re full or keep eating until you complain your stomach hurts. Stop doing that. It’s not like its unconscious or something”

Oh yes, dear BF. I hadnt thought about jist stopping. Thanks, I’m fixed 🙃",1.535,4.132263030303033,1.9305303030303025,95.91579545454546,85.36363636363637,3.9060606060606062,18.85606060606061,5.148860815047168,-0.4527212121212117,264,7,53,1,8,80,53,66,0.256,0.633,0.11,-0.8321,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,0,0,5,6,0,0,1,1,4,3,1,1,0,14,8,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,5,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,6,3,2,6,3,9,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,3,8,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168758378332172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150608814715524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21711771804162824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027134543792334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908519445759216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743273455795454,0.15424999345678767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561369429793159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6782498914383195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867248595534305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101250415766982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812084489076406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18300904712628516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217464312931872,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iwantoyeet,2019/09/28,you guys know when you haven't eaten anything for 5 days and you burp and you get that weird ASF combo of gases from having no food I fucking hate when that happens but I also kinda like I bc it means I'm loosing weight😎,-0.16000000000000014,2.060239666666672,1.788333333333334,96.49000000000002,89.83333333333334,3.2,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.0453166666666664,176,4,38,0,6,58,39,48,0.12,0.818,0.062,-0.162,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,4,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,6,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,3,9,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,1,4,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24954435086944105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567885844492037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124488524383885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773291933664878,0.0,0.0,0.2884829754917195,0.16303199033120222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30897618144019146,0.2759426597928087,0.0,0.0,0.3080823989797978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714931987596056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245069393733315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33991131341334874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799899074728185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,constantly-napping,2019/09/28,"Trying to grocery shop in relapse TW: numbers 


I’ve gained 17 kg in my ‘recovery’. I started comparing  photos from now and then and now I’m supposed to be grocery shopping. Sorry this is a bit of a scrambled mess but lowkey so I am lol. I know my girlfriend loves me and that I’m just a healthy weight but I feel fat and disgusting and I don’t want to burden her with it.  She’s so gorgeous and I look like a potato on fat legs 

I’m so sick of my own bullshit and I’m sure everyone around me must be too. I just to be skinny and dainty and in control (and <40kgs ofc).

I just needed to let this out",-0.4208430232558129,1.7242675891472885,1.91561531007752,95.68877180232559,90.16279069767442,4.46531007751938,22.015988372093023,5.985473137389443,0.2211895348837212,465,18,105,4,16,157,81,129,0.152,0.65,0.19899999999999998,0.7864,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,10,7,1,0,4,1,8,7,4,1,2,25,19,16,0,3,5,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,4,13,4,1,2,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,15,4,15,14,2,10,0,0,1,1,4,6,0,0,5,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24689041897218456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027822470736857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31105915733113937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26500920266371264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023088020934107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241820560531946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835978140545593,0.0,0.13549377690357278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23289482519710816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503091839766055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564327912779426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104581908587734,0.1963018998504964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26138862971409943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882949071132989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16358166796898596,0.0,0.0,0.33772406290190743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onegundeath,2019/09/28,"My boyfriends eating habits are very triggering and I dont know what to do. I think the most adult and recovery oriented thing to do would be to be open with my support system and let him know that I get triggered sometimes, but thats messed up.

My boyfriend is living his life enjoying food in a way that I cannot relate to or even comprehend. A lot of the feelings that come up for me when he is eating are feelings or guilt, disgust, and even worry. 

When we eat and I’m full I expect him to be full but then he wants more and I cannot believe it. Or he will eat shortly after we eat or eat a lot of fast food without a care. 

I think the last time I ate that was I was in middle school. Now all I see are numbers and behaviors and punishment.

Sometimes when he is eating, I get the urge to just say very mean things that my mom used to say to me which no surprise led to me developing this terrible ed. 

And it goes beyond my boyfriend, I get triggered by the way others eat too. As if its me doing the eating. I feel this comes from my inherent views on food as being bad. That is something I need to work on for myself which is why I dont want to tell my boyfriend...also because I am deeply afraid he will feel shame and guilt and stop being comfortable eating around me.

Can anyone else relate?",2.4730787428185192,3.9873315241635687,3.5667404528556936,91.2689278472457,75.76579925650556,6.526596823251097,23.37968908415005,7.1686216300943375,0.7084706319702598,1016,30,222,11,22,328,142,269,0.162,0.79,0.048,-0.9868,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,2,0,0,1,10,14,2,4,10,0,28,15,0,5,1,51,51,24,0,6,9,1,4,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,18,18,14,1,9,0,0,3,6,9,0,0,3,8,34,5,30,39,7,29,0,0,2,0,15,13,0,8,10,155,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05989908212724044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237320228624843,0.07674592461289732,0.0,0.06667863764717293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06254002023884057,0.045659548578124785,0.0,0.0,0.08438887600747323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636755518834054,0.0,0.0,0.12904283790512774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755691130767209,0.0,0.0,0.7664341944343908,0.06257098867230608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09894409577867452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149075589646452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27171529546212325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739957098838925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232833290735671,0.06105510643528553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659234392163566,0.052905479863703316,0.0,0.0,0.06613981595106581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735796078458053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159020874320122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772428753111904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055538865180035465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913011329488404,0.0,0.07580479724854239,0.05968717626545862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05766319952365943,0.14815993648558273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262140475955333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499787329078484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546762734891333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099523087549138,0.09598832199079173,0.0,0.0,0.0436759438085986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06469125716325523,0.0,0.12360394703706115,0.08835825067357539,0.11890740227549525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675873819335361,0.0,0.0,0.07220283075289942,0.0,0.05452952967892025,0.07606659116287777,0.0,0.05320821380288315,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MyMeanBunny,2019/09/28,"Throwing food away Thats it, I’ve relapsed. It honestly makes me want to cry.
I used to love this pita bread chicken sandwich with fries and a brownie from this specific restaurant. I LOVED that combo, I could eat it every day. 

I just lost 10lbs and got over a plateau, so I’ve been steadily losing for the last 6 weeks straight because I hate my recovery body so fucking much and nothing fits. I basically eat the same thing every day. My parents have been noticing and my dad bought me the chicken sandwich today because he doesn’t want me to die and I wasn’t even tempted to taste it. I just hid in my room and shredded it with my hands and threw it away. I gave the chicken part to my three dogs. I feel like shit. My parents really love me but I really can’t force myself to eat normal food again. I can’t :/",1.663486631016042,3.9218689030303078,2.8559001782531186,91.8744385026738,81.18181818181819,5.336898395721925,24.85739750445633,6.522977012572876,0.8006114081996434,639,25,132,6,17,205,98,165,0.12,0.784,0.096,-0.5972,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,10,3,0,6,0,8,16,3,2,0,20,23,10,1,4,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,11,9,9,0,1,0,1,2,4,5,0,1,8,3,24,5,14,14,3,15,0,2,0,4,8,7,2,0,7,81,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418221660212249,0.0,0.0,0.15689982231828034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294864309815186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275069591647534,0.0,0.14136295237494634,0.16599236562053954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335627654598203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950544606885017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500035332453193,0.0,0.21685839918616973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507092553255328,0.09193813245737677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112315890597814,0.0,0.0,0.11897438159757825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292735535910208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12705745577271307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490177465212047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628727813292972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397427853985612,0.14048334829350465,0.0,0.3484507174099071,0.0,0.08590341568068792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460398514908157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609157936746082,0.12348417273893192,0.14651755863517632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28579615732671004,0.1393617165452791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16488775305027378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321012673375585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549775041198904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219856875028517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114922366231793,0.0,0.0,0.15181264667255073,0.0,0.10322956832083394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluejeanscrash,2019/09/28,"PSA: Lean Cuisine shepherds pie is NOT worth it I was super excited to try the Lean Cuisine shepherds pie because its only 150cals but it looks like someone’s already purged it... literally looks like vomit in a bowl. Doesn’t make up for it in taste either. Not worth it. Save your money and your calories.
Had half a very suspicious spoonful and made a 190cal frozen empanada instead.",2.9465571205007848,5.955654985915494,3.6077934272300496,83.24749608763696,83.64788732394365,5.40907668231612,29.015649452269173,6.937597516519254,1.971487010954616,308,15,50,4,9,97,54,71,0.134,0.73,0.136,0.0481,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,2,0,9,8,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,3,5,5,5,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649378238171129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159283846398274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231285354698989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.555412694990535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129181799000589,0.220746118701036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515137339881066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802026879664813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22452491532235294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728637415886636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HerculesMulligan26,2019/02/15,"Canceling Gym Membership I tried to cancel my gym membership at Anytime Fitness because I’m in recovery and not supposed to work out. I had two of my doctors write official letters but AF would not accept them because there wasn’t enough detail about my ED and why that restricts me from working out (the guy was so rude!) He said it has to be a physical disability and “I looked like I could jog.”  My doctor’s are rewriting their letters to better explain, but it sucks to pay for something you don’t even use!
Has anyone ever had to cancel a gym membership because of ED? Have you had issues with the gym- how did you do it? ",4.434796747967479,5.792695406504066,5.377398373983741,80.85113821138212,70.54471544715446,8.06829268292683,31.55284552845529,8.515128840125781,2.542586991869919,497,22,92,8,9,163,84,123,0.121,0.8109999999999999,0.067,-0.7068,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,2,3,6,5,2,0,4,0,15,2,0,2,1,19,21,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,6,0,1,2,5,1,1,4,2,0,1,7,2,14,3,16,11,1,7,0,0,1,0,12,5,1,0,2,67,18,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949399621156584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909916570416916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908880808726047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707019772870235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376669095946438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209126485637264,0.0,0.14121294511122318,0.19339442451633604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169570579480185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22315175021265055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445192604018952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953823129414706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033728482889244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459375701378734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451562290240065,0.0,0.20885162461286685,0.0,0.0,0.18465463502552334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929213295665648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112980282811306,0.0,0.0,0.1518774519304303,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Common_Dot,2019/02/15,"tired of having to have a purpose driven life because I'm fat I have to have a purpose driven high achieving life and I have to be social and friendly because I have to make up for my weight. I have to be trying hard 24/7/365 and my efforts must be visible and constructive and show results in a reasonable time frame always. 

I'm tired of it. I want to go away, relax and just exist for a year. I have already made plans for world travel and budgeted for it, but  I feel have to become underweight first to make up for it... ",3.4573584905660373,4.764483933962269,4.605801886792452,85.6409669811321,72.86792452830188,7.186792452830187,27.400943396226417,7.645422480735847,1.5588905660377357,411,15,82,5,8,135,57,106,0.052000000000000005,0.894,0.053,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,6,1,2,0,0,4,0,13,6,1,5,1,17,23,8,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,2,3,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,3,9,2,19,16,0,13,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,58,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233252923047747,0.0,0.16839179527547268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19013750382498035,0.0,0.0,0.24673123276517456,0.22350673468642465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232662750407194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17213964569570325,0.0,0.0,0.15635403612408058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501409165710777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128780094292335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138197696094074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858861875182545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914916444196261,0.2701730994524642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20807469067445716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20629531638376405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800619797674528,0.4651994328379461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739900079307146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936572301171508,0.0,0.0,0.24643762010290265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032254242106414
EDAnonymous,meafy--,2019/02/15,"how tf do people do this?? \[\[sorry for shit format im on mobile\]\]

  


SO the other day i decided im gonna at least try to eat like a normal person. cant deal with not losing at least a little, so im doing 1200 cals a day. well today i woke up a little late (at noon whoops) and went to make lunch. i made a pretty normal meal of a buffalo chicken wrap and some toast. i did the math afterwards, and somehow im supposed to eat 910 calories by the end of the day!! WHAT THE FUCKKKK how is that even possible without it being a binge. even if i have a big-ass snack id still need like 600 in one meal. i dont even know what im doing 😥

  


i guess it might have something to do with thinking 0-450 cals a day is normal and 700 is way too much. maybe.",-0.3061497326203231,1.4630221212121235,2.426809269162213,94.95080213903744,85.36363636363636,5.094474153297682,18.19073083778966,6.2272716619740125,-0.2606007130124772,570,14,136,5,17,199,102,165,0.024,0.885,0.091,0.8329,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,11,5,1,0,14,0,15,7,1,4,0,24,24,9,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,6,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,4,0,7,3,17,17,4,20,0,1,0,0,2,8,1,5,12,82,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850162286575603,0.11390577887024775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948827383218164,0.0,0.0,0.22610865682256945,0.0,0.0,0.0978574276992355,0.0,0.0,0.21892404552960174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217123197348811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5967169149370487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06071998387892024,0.0,0.1246325436942516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795534452863056,0.22147114826874587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236050999686618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454412474360301,0.07374998083370532,0.0,0.11099761274611783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172077377059656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121961200554949,0.08192365566736584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32475722256056155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748678866198612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659678792164075,0.09647174453819854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455588772949915,0.0,0.11240355247445108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341185745706432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505719530173288,0.0,0.12367955828608415,0.0,0.0,0.08823392481329774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079469677108767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10472740861390664,0.0,0.0,0.07501245457519852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769830864153431,0.0,0.0,0.0993398028463316,0.10242123713609726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650415390438933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amourexia,2019/02/15,"My boyfriend triggers me by accident The other day me and my bf were laying together and he mentioned that he really liked my body after I mentioned something offhandedly about what I didn't like about it. Then he said something along the lines of ""I wouldn't have so much sex with you if I didn't like your body"" he caught himself and apologized and tried to explain but I went numb and zoned out. I know what he means and I'm not mad at him but my ED made it out to be something worse. He knows about my ED and I know he feels bad but its been over two weeks and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm underweight and I do really like how I look right now, but I still want to lose a few more lbs to hit my GW. I'm afraid of getting fat and him leaving me and I'm afraid of getting emaciated and him leaving me. Logically I know he wouldn't leave me for such arbitrary reasons but god that scares me so much. He's done things before where we'll eat together and when I ask him to finish my food he'll say something like ""you ate more than I thought you would"" under his breath to himself, in a ""I'm proud of you"" kind of way but it still gets me. He never had sex with his last girlfriend bc he wasn't sexually attracted to her body and she's at least 50 lbs heavier than me. This scares me so much I don't know what to do. I also feel invalid when I do eat in front of him but if I don't he'll want me to. It's so frustrsting!!",0.9237027117509201,2.6773916213592277,2.580403972770899,95.5403883495146,81.00647249190939,6.074366700145074,21.334784064278537,7.0983637204850245,0.3322729829260127,1117,33,268,14,29,367,148,309,0.11699999999999999,0.816,0.067,-0.9547,0,0,4,0,0,0,21.0,1,5,0,2,17,16,1,4,4,0,19,12,5,4,1,52,50,32,0,7,10,0,2,5,2,6,2,2,0,0,14,19,5,1,13,0,0,3,10,8,0,1,13,5,52,8,35,29,7,27,0,1,1,2,39,10,0,2,18,170,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469259558172358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900735273135396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842667456088033,0.0,0.0,0.09011778603762942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529114303368271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683002905874797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837810313512757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673554573456846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709801275630967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806135928793472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599376875369107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102842882271336,0.2910144845387089,0.08632712311915605,0.0,0.3364159206834818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587004058156942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893395278772886,0.1184811726085569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10021035128888488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153621442451759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23355819958082535,0.0,0.08168085576592234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569155913344932,0.10888849960012327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044272420953836,0.10074038915088042,0.08422030979920582,0.2120597754848198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261249330553315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691525491809841,0.08854174587841229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035891290402928,0.06785997252566678,0.0,0.08407714269525503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190288734501195,0.0,0.10345429154044858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249316237385628,0.08406286185821217,0.08495100948980776,0.0,0.0,0.09817546589081293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792675926160247,0.07523223350335959,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pourange,2019/02/15,"holy shit i cannot stop binging after getting sick and finally getting down to 116 for a hot minute, i've spent the past four days binging as if my life depended on it and i'm back up to 123 or more probably. i can't even look at my face anymore-- my cheeks feel disgusting, and my thighs are awful and flabby and gross. 

i haven't been restricting, i've been eating regular meals with more calories than i would ever need, and i can't. stop. binging. i have no self control anymore. it's been like this for months of just nonstop binging, but at least before i had exercise to help put some of it off. now, i can't exercise, i can't restrict, and i'm getting more and more disgusting by the minute.",2.6766550116550114,4.372276706293712,3.9106468531468543,88.25007284382286,75.64335664335664,7.284149184149183,27.301282051282055,8.07648339933343,1.7009631701631704,551,22,115,9,12,180,89,143,0.139,0.79,0.071,-0.8568,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,3,0,3,1,13,10,4,2,1,24,22,12,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,9,2,5,1,2,1,1,7,4,0,1,5,3,13,1,18,16,6,17,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,4,11,75,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398747869481904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15458446298545062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106703726263556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254792429452799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965174654977107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20571026713212612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327825436389775,0.18184879291802555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164996580856853,0.0,0.0,0.22022537954892235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150994212496074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475035719333592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419978450145646,0.09821615445158234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168819813317421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16046521256129412,0.0,0.0,0.14906582816064906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19191184333851974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21675107397969784,0.0,0.0,0.2020969525565013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972464764941973,0.0,0.20636081626676214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33615060483524506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281038025830595,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,forjeong,2019/02/15,"Almost binged again For the 3rd time this week.

 Already ate everything I had in my room and decided to go out and get ice cream and sandwiches from the bakery nearby bUT as I was leaving the warden at my hostel asked me to change into something else before heading out???Bc I was wearing something ""iNaPpropriaTe""??? 100% don't understand bc I was wearing something that went til my knees?? 
 I'd just rolled straight out of bed after binging on my bananas and oat cookies without looking at the mirror so I probably looked like a mess lol
But that shook me out of my binge mood and I just came back without buying anything so yay

Also I just moved out of my parents house and started living on my own in my home country after living abroad for  10+ years and everything is sO confusing. I'm in India now and the people here are super blunt about everything!!! Great!!! Anyone else here living in India? 
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EDAnonymous,salveinou,2019/02/15,"a lil reminder to this sub since yall need it so bad Having an eating disorder and a distorted view of your own body does NOT make it cool for you to think the same way about other people's bodies. 

If you are using your ED as a reason to scrutinize the bodies of others, you're a bad person and you need to reflect on why you feel such resentment to an entire group of people who, as much as you want to claim otherwise, have not victimized you with their mere existence in this world. 

If you verbalize that hatred and say shit like ""DAE secretly ummm hate fat people? Oh I feel so bad for saying this, but they disgust me and I hate them"" then you're a bad person, and you need to realize that hating fat people will not actually distance you from the reality that any one of you could become fat at any time (because you don't always have control over your appetite, which is why you're here, and that terrifies you). 

And if you really felt ""so bad for thinking that way,"" you wouldn't post about it on a sub where the silent majority of people are suffering from EDs that include binging and weight gain. The majority of people on here are, in fact, overweight. And the majority of ED sufferers are also overweight. If you felt so bad, you would actually be ashamed of your behavior and of projecting your insecurity onto others, which forces them to either put up with with being insulted every day, or to leave this community and suffer alone. 

Hating other people for what you're insecure about isn't gonna stop you from having those insecurities. Work on your shit and stop being such a hateful bunch of bastards, thanks. ",10.095522241336935,7.297510392971251,9.897763578274764,66.98414352420744,60.08626198083067,13.081248463996069,37.1759646104694,11.362043627235082,4.042770164659621,1295,41,237,27,13,427,163,313,0.313,0.642,0.045,-0.9988,0,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,24,4,3,13,28,12,4,15,1,18,12,8,4,1,49,37,27,0,11,10,0,5,1,0,4,5,2,0,2,22,15,7,3,10,0,0,1,6,25,0,1,2,9,31,3,45,27,8,21,0,3,1,0,36,12,3,5,6,169,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.16420358786564432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713654457637998,0.0,0.06728122989714126,0.07000550000458151,0.0,0.0,0.11442682048861726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214858722398743,0.05128677228072965,0.0929184268777348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803588072219264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436245399644813,0.06717345456854341,0.0,0.0,0.05425890565159906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642385053332288,0.0,0.07362546490351808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608919102838712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07088578668791035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508047212735567,0.0,0.16156198822666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153202154407281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890848318167428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04110319528789021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05615951443482285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061847527568871935,0.1871509390644707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05701078307821347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082912100888784,0.14692359967284085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057627748296901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457702864056219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389783441192148,0.08650286514930748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338120761723739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272288816729384,0.0695957906467769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067811994712942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774584781242305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781821907695414,0.0,0.0,0.049058701936679015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266400737644463,0.0,0.0,0.049623897109556114,0.13356191755952082,0.0,0.10245148100606814,0.0,0.0,0.1518341190055772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06124991723106798,0.0,0.0,0.059765758308005526,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowkeydeadinside,2019/02/15,first i found out the guy i like isn’t interested in me... then i found out one of my best friends is 40 pounds lighter than me. what a great fucking night.,1.197272727272729,2.890719636363638,1.9303030303030293,100.81545454545456,79.9090909090909,5.612121212121212,23.12121212121212,6.42735559955562,0.05086666666666684,120,4,31,1,3,37,27,33,0.0,0.581,0.419,0.9485,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,6,5,5,3,1,6,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,4,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047340219149185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24699556148885765,0.0,0.6367694499673375,0.22434548873060897,0.2684499808379163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32014300735660484,0.0,0.2875200862221167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14186412836475626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27250028418284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19676779365047964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bribear20,2019/02/15,"I’m a terrible human being I have a really good friend from high school and I have always admired her thin figure. We’ve kept in touch since and now we’re a year away from graduating college. 

In January, we were speaking on FaceTime about how stressful our workload is at the moment, and she said out of the blue “I’ve eaten no more than 400 calories a day in the past week” and then her eyes got super big as if she didn’t mean to say it out loud and that instantly alarmed me. I asked more questions and if she is ok, and she basically admitted to me that she starves herself and always has but that it’s not a big deal. 

I told her that I love her and support her, and that I really care for her. She broke down and told me everything and I listened. I helped her find meal replacement shakes with calories she was okay with that have nutrients and also a multivitamin to take. Because I know I can’t just tell her to eat. I also helped her to schedule an appointment with her psychiatrist to at least just talk. I’ve been checking in everyday, not even to ask if she’s eaten to make her feel bad about herself, just to be someone that she can vent all her problems to. I’m just trying to be a good friend because I know from experience what it feels like to be alone and isolated with no one to talk to, because you have a secret. 

Okay so here’s the part where I’m a piece of shit. It literally triggered me so much into hardcore restriction, because I realized she wasn’t just naturally thin eating whatever she wanted. I’ve lost 23lbs since January. I still have a really long way to go because I’m still fat (5’10’’ 170lbs down from 193 in January), but I am so ashamed in myself that her suffering is what finally made me restrict and stick to it. This is my lowest weight in years. I was 225lbs in high school, and every time I see the number go down, I get excited and then feel like a total hypocrite. 

I am sitting here everyday supporting and listening to her, and helping her stay positive, and then hanging up the phone and sinking back into the reality that I’m starving myself because I am so inspired by her starving herself to be thin. 

I’m telling her that eating is necessary for survival, and that she will always be loved and that she is beautiful on the outside and inside, while telling myself that adderall and Diet Coke is a full course meal, and that I’ll never be loved until I’m thin because I’m not living up to my potential. 

And like the logical thing to do is maybe confide in her and tell her what’s going on, but I know she’d secretly think I’m lying because I’m so fat. Plus, it would be so rude to make this about me. It needs to be about her, she’s actually sick. I just needed to get this off my chest cause wow what is wrong with me",4.7231105169340495,5.222533000000002,5.716020499108738,81.83716800356508,69.26737967914438,9.014081996434935,30.20008912655972,9.075114841892004,2.366005704099821,2187,82,447,39,36,724,251,561,0.132,0.721,0.147,0.8903,1,1,0,0,0,0,43.0,2,1,0,3,27,34,2,4,22,3,39,19,5,6,3,88,89,50,0,8,15,0,9,3,2,2,3,6,0,1,29,39,12,3,17,0,1,5,9,13,0,1,15,18,76,21,70,62,9,65,0,3,3,3,71,35,1,4,25,312,105,4,0.0,0.0,0.07701965591876041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174275323038392,0.0,0.12623298294088106,0.1970163840945556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14756890354480795,0.0,0.07415286756911382,0.060688643139253234,0.06589928449288933,0.3848967838610379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08046954935677163,0.08107796957677901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050900254959520295,0.08136846400875368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422806940158741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052129381248273814,0.0,0.06649792457276499,0.0,0.07093292282871988,0.07720403608391681,0.0,0.0,0.11972092888767474,0.11276842438116495,0.0,0.0864587501973537,0.07213624586024399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195490002096207,0.0,0.08247036802313261,0.0,0.13456511002293287,0.132397505116171,0.06312372994386889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587057880719156,0.16677771339734745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012575494941464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156766669736311,0.0,0.06969243903377775,0.06984635991744048,0.0,0.0,0.08615623036607499,0.0,0.21369935045732466,0.07468097699605337,0.10536643040647464,0.0,0.07929101883477091,0.08597273165676418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05801913776303313,0.11704414110945074,0.06087201603442938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053481789934284284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546835123691209,0.07534307879093834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552080224304403,0.0,0.0,0.08841433947451423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168460257649666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507598354846648,0.06276452420152942,0.0,0.15975312706103142,0.06289320333241402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101563180717107,0.13057555973490012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687310561802602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412381190968568,0.1260596083312007,0.0,0.09040860371983704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912686986312462,0.0,0.0,0.05934196333769036,0.1268742477252402,0.2759365784190211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05243442706737572,0.05057211138331026,0.0,0.0,0.04602194619615373,0.0,0.0,0.15083291145439787,0.0,0.05358506188929266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046552155533327984,0.06264718736049266,0.06330907240521302,0.09610968819891104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0560662309568143,0.08629236764621315,0.0,0.1016505427389518
EDAnonymous,glitteryghost,2019/02/15,"Someone on my fasting app said they just finished fasting for 986 hours. They finished a 986h45m fast and said they lost  36.4lbs doing it. That's 41 days!!!!

I'm jealous and I'm mad at myself for it. Like, fuck, I'm not good enough body-wise and I'm not even good enough at fasting holy fuck. 😞",1.1332795698924727,3.053425016129033,1.952903225806452,99.46602150537636,81.09677419354837,4.133333333333334,23.23655913978495,3.1291,-0.2690408602150538,229,8,53,0,6,71,41,62,0.311,0.652,0.036000000000000004,-0.9583,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,3,1,2,8,4,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,10,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,2,5,3,5,7,2,11,0,1,0,2,5,3,2,0,9,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516179815373082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858356622015517,0.0,0.15527921362943534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346863911491171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943760694765382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315229831258117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485641719904555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256635919709168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.447261770951802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991967486410384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IvoryBoneGoddess,2019/02/15,"Just started C/S So the first time I did a chew spit was about 2 weeks ago. I was getting my toddler a snack of pizza flavored goldfish and 3 fell into the counter. I absentmindedly popped them into my mouth; mid chew I realized what I had done and I took the top off the garbage can and spit them out, then brushed my teeth to get rid of the taste so I wasn't tempted to munch more. Then today my company brought in iced cookies for Valentine's day. As soon as I saw then my first thought was,  ""I can chew and spit one in the bathroom"". Not, I don't need the empty calories, not i'm stronger than a cookie, not there'll be cookies tomorrow. I can chew spit one. Like, duh, why didn't i do this forever ago?!?!?!!11!1 This is *clearly* the solution to my inability to control myself. I just did it again with 3 dill pickle flavored chips I was giving my kid to go with her sandwich. On purpose, not as a gut reaction.

 I have no opinion of this habit, other than it's weird; I know it's supposed to be bad for me. Any ""seasoned"" c/s people here, please talk me out of this habit before I do any sort of damage 😮",1.9313043478260847,3.611918869565218,3.3115217391304377,91.80336956521742,77.69565217391305,5.991304347826088,26.28260869565217,6.742157984588678,0.9368434782608706,860,34,190,8,20,281,133,230,0.08199999999999999,0.858,0.06,-0.7645,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,2,4,8,4,0,0,12,1,20,15,7,1,1,24,32,12,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,10,8,1,3,0,0,4,8,3,0,4,14,5,30,1,29,16,1,29,0,1,1,0,6,10,0,2,16,124,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35683087778276384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737436546998964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805367042830413,0.0,0.0,0.1712676043705497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257436055038175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980375640659453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20597108413678836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34240363430116866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21031257250381752,0.1930783937498168,0.1143874870314794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061379955176304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833130772929158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924060000753095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727741634433621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953662705787828,0.0,0.0,0.22093615936495328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246132156889305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177476870296814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978744535206935,0.1173632921515574,0.0,0.1907822737090004,0.0,0.2236205412916744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614482170933938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161662828366493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lrn___,2019/02/15,"I know i should get help but i want to lose weight so badly i feel like I can't im telling myself im going to talk to my therapist about it but im pretty sure i won't and I don't know what to do
ive been eating like 800 cal a day and made myself throw up a few times  when I messed up but part of me feels like it isn't that bad and i can just try to do better on my own and im so afraid of them making me eat more so ill be fat longer if i tell someone
idk im really emotional now typing tbis out i just ate way too much and i feel really guilty its probably a mess im sorry",-2.3076386554621853,-0.6620198142857134,1.1917647058823562,101.18617647058826,93.57142857142857,4.722689075630252,11.80672268907563,6.2272716619740125,-1.240058823529412,446,5,124,5,17,161,86,140,0.175,0.621,0.203,0.5148,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,2,9,11,0,1,3,0,11,6,1,2,1,22,22,13,0,3,6,0,4,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,5,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,3,4,20,5,12,16,5,11,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,7,72,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18728438289512567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918928350004533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232872794185599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295188818074945,0.0,0.12615584552970602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012218310791194,0.16024274719220205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058594763589629326,0.0,0.06373853622183871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517308624734388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7268600910549405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327155447387347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16437532938509458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546934172791505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612088430353232,0.07486229573049501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824445856709523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144962985293198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11409884980817285,0.12091876799333673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369481857473418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502598104311716,0.0,0.0,0.12554492304353648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570188311391657,0.0,0.0,0.09014348703994217,0.19605149056275065,0.0,0.0,0.1302170549843307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539670240205234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07614381040370906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661501243039899,0.08902099556324612,0.0,0.13657085796218493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaymyfeelingsk,2019/02/15,"Feeling even less valid after official diagnosis Guess I'm back to reddit for the time being since Peach is down. 

Anyway, I've been feeling especially shitty since the holidays, so I finally decided to start therapy again for the first time in 3 years for me. I've only had a couple sessions so far, but my therapist keeps saying she thinks I'm headed for inpatient treatment and outpatient likely isn't enough. After a shitty intake assessment with an ED treatment facility, I ended up getting hospitalized for ""suicidal ideation"". 

Didn't help one bit, and the unit I was kept in was painfully incapable of dealing with eating disorders. Got discharged with a diagnosis of major depressive disorder recurrent severe and anorexia binge purge subtype. I thought I might be a bit more ready to accept my problem with a tangible diagnosis, but I don't. My BMI is still in a normal range, so I don't feel I can accept an anorexia bp diagnosis. 

As if being male wasn't enough, I now feel like the psychiatrist was just humoring me and I probably don't even have a real disorder. Logically I know fasting for days on end and holding back tears every time I enter a grocery store isn't normal, but I can't convince myself I'm more than just a tad disordered. I have zero friends I can open up to about the depression alone, but trying to talk about an ED would make me feel like a laughingstock. I'm invisible and it's unbearable. 

I don't think I have the desire or willpower to ""recover"" either, and I'm pretty sure suicide would just be easier right now lmao. Hope you guys are feeling better than me this Valentine's Day",7.595196078431371,7.554432571895429,8.358758169934642,67.19441176470589,63.15032679738562,11.775163398692813,36.954248366013076,11.326091736570909,4.476593464052288,1301,58,218,35,17,439,175,306,0.175,0.653,0.172,-0.6062,2,1,0,0,0,1,28.0,0,1,0,2,17,15,0,0,20,0,29,3,1,1,1,51,52,17,2,8,10,0,6,3,1,3,1,2,0,2,2,12,1,3,14,1,1,1,9,4,0,3,10,8,27,11,32,35,9,31,0,2,0,0,9,10,0,5,23,147,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100529552111115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927322293207682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584566514757767,0.21193859584503444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107400026507322,0.0,0.12519714913444205,0.10006924062999252,0.16720302861666814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449773194045908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932121887282122,0.0,0.0,0.17194067898910975,0.20058715740293304,0.0,0.12822037774892575,0.0,0.0817810302373562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944723754406398,0.13868580084847,0.0,0.10632941869391352,0.0,0.08256301676952184,0.0,0.0,0.07499179433257723,0.0,0.05071219669123325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763135015718277,0.0,0.10692749333691393,0.09610911854949207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996161833122442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506029041026908,0.0,0.0,0.09640695288359312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627539021870029,0.0,0.0,0.05334411245939027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226243992284876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06479130955166211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297009883542364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19020520862691967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577341936405298,0.07382192851774629,0.1032834748773356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874949499309252,0.10465195130892213,0.0928776206395666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048065467608874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289255531412386,0.0,0.07718958876591482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965526021465342,0.0,0.16058552003761525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870275489748573,0.0,0.0775158375759707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212345624416623,0.0,0.09148214548058037,0.0,0.0,0.07801677087084058,0.0,0.0,0.11100171857449133,0.11269936936971076,0.0,0.12439002861449674,0.0,0.07705837326807212,0.16979727702619635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06590042613801582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13790367620139926,0.0,0.0,0.06250635762535217
EDAnonymous,MurkyForPrez,2019/02/15,"My store manager decided to buy a shitton of girl scout cookies for the break room.. Im 8 thin mints, 4 samoas, one peanut butter, and two of the mercis in.. AMA",1.6254545454545486,3.4252515454545467,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,79.0,6.824242424242425,23.12121212121212,7.793537801064563,1.0335939393939395,123,4,27,2,3,41,31,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,12,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6724603634905909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4218556989915016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6081404679533291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,latex55,2019/03/17,"Anyone else get anxiety over going to someones house to eat? I just found out we are going to my in laws lake house next weekend and its giving me a ton of anxiety.

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it will be my wifes family and her sisters and husbands and they all are the type that can eat whatever they want and not workout. they always eat the worst foods and friday night we are ordering pizza and Saturday night its lasagna.

add a ton of alcohol and sweets and dips and chips and that's our food weekend.

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i dont know how to go into this and get through it? I normally end up eating one piece of pizza because i have to sit at a table with everyone and then i go to bed starving because i cant just eat pizza. i thought about bringing a separate bag of food with sandwiches and fruit and carrots. 

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I also will be away from the gym for two days, so i hope the weather is good so i can get a run in. Im so nervous and dreading the weekend. ",3.678392857142857,4.82621279166667,4.815863095238092,84.96187500000002,72.125,7.777380952380952,29.86011904761905,8.192908349453996,2.0660494047619054,744,31,150,11,14,245,114,192,0.08900000000000001,0.841,0.07,-0.5459,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,3,0,3,0,8,6,0,2,10,0,13,14,0,1,1,35,27,22,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,7,23,14,0,3,5,0,6,3,3,0,2,2,2,20,3,24,21,5,26,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,1,10,106,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870441909905296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386000987458265,0.07685065997631504,0.30021505312852764,0.3366813939919046,0.0,0.0,0.14130981847501356,0.0,0.0,0.06458004197474396,0.0946334158794182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677496805170783,0.0,0.0,0.11260321824916923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05956435863817992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824486757553374,0.0,0.0,0.4725350970227786,0.07715466877074563,0.0,0.08180327059046448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882536407671784,0.0,0.0,0.08706849492834115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33504510742378785,0.10126763174740393,0.0,0.0,0.14476237639258924,0.08859982953477552,0.2099605586119092,0.07746692510490906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173401082170007,0.0,0.21314136116905014,0.0,0.0,0.09976431305456013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050758469625446286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09822557698272497,0.17334662290162467,0.09049288533988603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258531551150273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825606471811916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332327633890956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022199570412526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0544761374922907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366813939919046,0.0
EDAnonymous,onespicyapplesauce,2019/03/17,"Headaches (TW) I get these giant migraines when I don’t eat, but I can’t stop starving. Pain killers are just going to hurt my stomach because yOu knOw I dOnt  have anything in my stomach to sUppoRt it. Anyways, what do you guys do to get rid of headaches? ",2.1405882352941177,4.3567214901960805,2.50172549019608,95.29376470588235,79.19607843137254,4.08,31.768627450980397,3.1291,0.9990674509803928,200,11,41,0,5,61,38,51,0.336,0.609,0.055,-0.9636,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,0,4,12,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,5,12,0,5,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547875499030509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873901236261728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628675932568965,0.0,0.0,0.3168144175822818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235231150278939,0.0,0.17596188227865114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065684731134121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33145028336218685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015683166258572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32945320557369284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588528019906937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513485165184362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turdddburger,2019/03/17,i’ve had 5 monsters today and i feel like i’m d y i n g .WHY why did i do this tomyself is this hell omfg i’m so jittery i think restriction plus this finally killed off my last 2 brain cells i’m ,-4.289754500818328,-4.84372819148936,0.13063829787234127,100.56538461538463,139.42553191489358,3.9993453355155486,14.253682487725039,5.8734145424116955,-0.4385927986906708,153,5,40,3,13,57,36,47,0.282,0.6609999999999999,0.057,-0.8971,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,5,9,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,5,1,2,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546976935991392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16065652245067072,0.2269901729586129,0.0,0.3480635074717018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515270503194504,0.0,0.0,0.2589966897901645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552294257765416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359196065343205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30117592738339233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5734134035430268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,artandtrash,2019/03/17,I weighed myself for the first time in a year And it was the biggest mistake i’ve made in recovery. How am I supposed to NOT lose weight when i’m almost overweight? i never thought i would be fully weight-restored because my weight was so high when my restrictive eating disorder began. ughhh does anybody have advice??,3.7445000000000017,6.4258297833333335,4.240000000000002,82.47500000000002,76.16666666666666,6.0,30.0,7.1686216300943375,2.0695,257,12,42,3,6,81,48,60,0.135,0.826,0.039,-0.6797,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,6,5,0,2,1,10,10,5,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,2,7,0,4,3,0,11,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,7,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943808583001415,0.0,0.0,0.19918814638534388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12125887273774275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279778371838881,0.0,0.17407492189457455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035432879625527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919997648130455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016831911634828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22253892274725284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822149657169776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15341821194897012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791907145353332,0.11599097838047807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7266874407171025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130599681875772,0.0,0.0,0.1280969937140882
EDAnonymous,throwaway123556677,2019/03/17,"bdd in legs only?? right, I personally perceive my upper body as quite bony, and my arms are thin, but my legs... i feel like they aren't even attached to me.

They're not obese, I can see that, but they just seem so average compared to my waist and arms.

for example, ill look at people in the streets, online, etc etc and think 'oh my legs looks like hers' and then I look at their arms/waist and it's double/triple the size of mine. 

I don't know if i'm going crazy, or if i just have fat legs. ",0.6862857142857166,2.4368262476190523,2.1030952380952392,98.68607142857144,81.76190476190476,5.342857142857143,17.166666666666668,6.2581,-0.5981619047619047,376,7,93,3,10,121,71,105,0.07,0.866,0.064,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,5,11,9,0,0,18,15,13,0,2,8,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,17,2,9,15,2,10,0,0,4,0,5,8,0,4,3,53,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430043889302621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879732345851817,0.1444956627136484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106167932304713,0.15628948420205874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433215386599634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023038797755475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137601515641024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5511356418390193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663846054931888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516677202684579,0.1910217120252868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23268905096345266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682856694738495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17433153584577285,0.19916018589159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017911922562545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drowing_dancer,2019/03/17,"Teeth advice Any other bulimics have advice for staining on your teeth? I’ve been struggling with bulimia for about 2 or 3 years now and before that I was dealing with anorexia for a good 5ish Years. I was just wondering if there’s any hope for saving my teeth, they used to be so pretty. I’m really trying to get my life back. I actually threw away my scale like two weeks ago and I’m really trying to stop my b/p cycles. ",2.8663546798029564,4.391831333333339,4.5835796387520515,84.33724137931036,74.74712643678161,7.730049261083742,21.623973727422005,8.418075326091056,1.1743215106732352,334,8,68,6,7,113,63,87,0.06,0.7979999999999999,0.142,0.7994,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,6,5,0,1,1,0,5,4,3,1,0,12,12,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,9,4,12,7,0,10,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,4,8,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.19572125269845256,0.0,0.0,0.3919770791618764,0.1777876306829812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727804055859964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884362109734416,0.15422111561122595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066494796073967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677238188054647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478626233422483,0.0,0.0,0.16822332719078595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992050219636773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416640822085544,0.09798529954458056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20404540057140197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569725011725436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768024512256172,0.0,0.20967274038604328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27233919221760305,0.0,0.19592160502804,0.0,0.0,0.17322265286242178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088011314144487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175027917999147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583129114901587
EDAnonymous,craazyyy90,2019/03/17,"I think my sister might have an eating disorder Hi there.   
This weekend i've been having some alone time with my little sister. She is 13 and still lives at home. I live pretty far away, so I only get to see her about once a month. I'm her big brother and i'm in my mid-20s.

She has been periodically depressed in pretty much all of her life, probably because of our mother - our mother is a good person with a beautiful heart, but she has her own problems and she isn't really capable of raising children herself to be honest. I had (and have) a lot of problems myself, being depressed and feeling i wasn't good enough, but i've managed to learn how to control those feelings and turn them into what i would call my personal strengths. Since she was born i've tried to learn her how to do the same, while also using every opportunity to tell her that she's talented/good enough and that i love her - something that our mother hasn't really been good at telling us. 

When she was about 10 years old, she got an diagnosis for a special kind of arthritis, and the medicine she was prescribed caused her to gain a lot of weight. At the same time our mother was stressed out, so my sister mostly had unhealthy food such as pizza and other types of fast-food. 

In the last year, my sister went from overweight to slightly underweight. At first, i thought it was a good sign; that she was starting to attend gym classes again and having a more active lifestyle. However, this weekend i noticed that she nearly doesn't eat at all. I managed to get her to eat something without forcing her, by giving her time and not making a big deal of it, and having some fun at the same time. However, what really got me worried was when she asked me to fix something on her phone, and the first thing that came up was a google search about ""how to throw up"". I acted like i didn't notice it, as i didn't know how to react. 

Now i'm here. I know it's different from person to person, but i really need advice about how to help her through it. As I mentioned, i live pretty far away as i study somewhere else, but i'm definitely willing to do whatever I can and take a break from other things in my life while I try to help her through it. I think this might be the first ""phase"" of an eating disorder, but i'm not sure. She isn't *really* underweight, but I see know that she might be good at hiding it with her clothes. 

So - what I really need is some advice about how to help her. How should I talk to her about it? I mean, what is the ""first step"" towards getting her to realize that she isn't overweight, getting her to eat and most importantly - make sure that she knows i'm there for her? I have no idea which role she needs me to take, but i'm sure I have to do more for her than my mother is capable of. Thank you everyone. 

Ben

tl;dr: i think my sister is developing an eating disorder. I want to help her the best way I can, but i'm not sure how. ",3.8131764800514816,4.81499579222973,4.75680501930502,86.0638063063063,71.65202702702703,7.597554697554696,26.088481338481337,7.8761006319780495,1.350355566280566,2287,71,477,29,42,745,239,592,0.098,0.743,0.159,0.9925,3,1,3,0,0,0,74.0,5,1,1,9,27,24,0,1,24,0,51,15,1,14,6,90,95,43,0,8,12,11,3,1,0,6,4,0,1,5,30,21,11,1,15,3,0,6,13,5,0,4,21,5,90,19,80,64,19,58,0,2,2,1,79,25,0,10,26,348,120,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157875004174525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061360187812973324,0.0,0.04737838667859573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055386289787326716,0.0,0.11132568212102033,0.0,0.0,0.036115340524069985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217421066392221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060496000846120376,0.06776075665296183,0.0,0.06086116804390309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644855987650249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06107922765408469,0.10205565451516978,0.0,0.0,0.06189865257837806,0.20370048894428727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637359472434725,0.0494917850307154,0.0,0.0,0.12243231360973685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991665902734886,0.05661135335835055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991233384719409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015758395017617,0.1432791274669509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381274353806546,0.05683342028364414,0.0,0.2981525135445647,0.09476764047559624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020587932582135,0.1588433074616001,0.0,0.05942779330602565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688065000175172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061694787086279824,0.13023850959195338,0.048292767412511976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369331193004287,0.02894422535159752,0.059379281798017734,0.15694386276191416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073634684136812,0.053471130513613366,0.0,0.07909329822427248,0.0,0.0,0.06453542060646629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18854947040881456,0.0,0.0,0.047288975010274036,0.0,0.04355205873544277,0.1317887555238575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490216737481334,0.06216789968406496,0.0630942332684206,0.0,0.045058664874564544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069225883103788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18082108490392304,0.0638763751798275,0.11337936211566566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277240571087218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09442155092965468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04900826405085817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682961076199132,0.0,0.0,0.041934076649609374,0.0,0.047313314863715684,0.0,0.0678652074334079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335170147849573,0.0,0.08909007518571824,0.047619069344955314,0.10356587958653993,0.05454504523350385,0.0,0.0,0.07871979265616216,0.1138858478561164,0.0,0.04703409253295902,0.13818547335471407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080447240435612,0.06444179435072007,0.0,0.0,0.07126471348592446,0.05116885414194553,0.0,0.0,0.034944369913417636,0.047026103605298186,0.0,0.07214472580719791,0.0,0.05492091904112073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0571102847191103,0.0,0.0,0.06016640391553709,0.0,0.042086109477860414,0.0,0.0,0.07630396759665713
EDAnonymous,VelehkSain,2019/03/17,"I don’t know if this is the right place but I need help with my eating problems. Every day I wake up I am not hungry at all. If I don’t force myself to eat I’ll get horrible stomach pains and feel nauseous. If I force myself to eat I’ll still get stomach pain and nausea. The only thing that kinda helps is smoking weed sometimes gives me the desire to eat but my body always feels bad after eating. 

Summary is I just never have an appetite but my body is always in pain from hunger and eating makes it worse. No matter what I do I feel pain and nausea. 
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EDAnonymous,balienated,2019/03/17,"whats up with the ed diagnosis criteria? why is anorexia the only eating disorder with a weight/bmi requirement? like if you're not underweight enough you're diagnosed with EDNOS. 

but the thing is, you don't have to have a high bmi to be diagnosed with bed, and there isn't any weight requirement for the diagnosis of any other eating disorders, except anorexia. it doesn't make sense.

i am genuinely curious if there is any actual reasoning behind this, please enlighten me if you know the answer",6.868514492753622,8.025894619565218,7.576956521739131,68.04992753623189,64.76086956521739,12.655072463768114,32.72463768115942,12.161744961471696,4.717863768115941,403,16,67,15,6,134,61,92,0.02,0.8390000000000001,0.141,0.9021,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,7,0,10,5,0,2,0,18,12,5,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,5,3,2,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,11,11,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,46,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.17284632848973833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613487876719529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35955188119191583,0.0,0.0,0.4059962089784575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624817407542594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830152277970592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713999102418544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734207333898334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653326625873309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823086213887217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347098910919209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442767462365693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18211176551312155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767253562673036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313757712705885,0.0,0.0,0.15982580131599514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onesingleplease,2019/03/17,"why don't calorie-free burgers exist? Like c'mon tho, technology and the food industry has come a far way. Why doesn't this exist yet ",2.2867948717948714,4.98312742307693,4.128461538461536,80.89987179487181,82.46153846153845,6.5435897435897425,24.051282051282055,7.793537801064563,1.6682974358974354,107,4,19,2,3,36,23,26,0.0,0.894,0.106,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34238488075076684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4806218386866485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418357794025928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31549288135162085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7173090139441437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fluff_Me,2019/03/17,"What movies really thrill your ED? My favorites:

- To the Bone
- Ratatouille
- Cloudy with a chance of meatballs
- La Chocolat",4.746833333333331,8.27838135,2.3500000000000014,90.08833333333334,85.5,4.666666666666667,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.348666666666667,97,4,15,1,3,26,20,20,0.0,0.6779999999999999,0.322,0.7645,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,farmerbutts,2019/05/22,"Shitty LPT get a labret piercing Pros:
-lip too swollen to eat much
-risk of infection goes up every time you stuff your face (a great motivator)
-6-8 week healing time
-very painful
-men have literally never been less interested
-sometimes your lip just starts bleeding all over your face, giving you a handy excuse to leave conversations


Cons:
-like people really need more of an excuse to comment on your appearance",5.785792563600782,8.828212863013697,5.126457925636012,76.88287671232878,71.05479452054793,8.007045009784736,28.23679060665361,8.841846274778883,2.614958512720156,341,13,54,7,7,103,61,73,0.145,0.7170000000000001,0.139,-0.1366,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,6,0,1,2,5,0,1,4,0,2,10,4,1,2,6,7,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,6,3,8,6,4,9,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,1,6,28,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668140823771144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196945505328093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623199935579686,0.2501367873522243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874796660605223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27609839715030143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739010789274954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19168249949218988,0.1933440790727396,0.2011077832673758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774581895677583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18077239473749376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704421378507997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578900953631467,0.0,0.1845613929509337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984983083357753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30409282242020874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21514745784027028,0.0,0.0,0.20915928273058934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grrrlgang,2019/05/22,"Welcome back to the thrilling mental hell of ‘I’m can’t have an eating disorder because I’m not skinny enough” On this episode: almost having a panic attack at work and break down crying because your boss invites you to a surprise dinner that you have neither the calories or emotional energy saved up for coupled with the fact you hate eating in front of people so you have to make up a lie while pretending everything is ok and working four more hours.....but I totally don’t have a disordered eating, right? 

Tune back in next week for: going back home and seeing clothes from your teen years!",7.962886904761909,7.656028562500001,7.3882142857142865,75.34011904761907,62.48214285714286,9.966666666666667,34.73809523809524,9.2995712137729,3.1457988095238107,477,18,82,7,6,149,83,112,0.16,0.695,0.145,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,6,0,2,4,9,3,1,8,1,8,5,1,2,2,12,14,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,5,0,0,1,0,2,4,4,0,1,0,1,7,5,16,14,4,18,1,0,1,0,7,8,1,2,7,56,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570581611128946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843445503930286,0.0,0.3618136372380563,0.0,0.19122318186514015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354661680909594,0.17228747076686807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35951717541793365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4814764597351025,0.0,0.17643013188337436,0.0,0.16206337965968465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409626660554209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913894005033855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485250788404978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732887413353194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469562193781433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806342300770315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16680702082255558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840244575861856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873695503701106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394524192641885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498559575657572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581203869581986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22837085550618835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101003391225418
EDAnonymous,lostlikethought,2019/05/22,"I haven't purged in a while, but I keep binging. Is anyone else like this? I want to purge so badly, but I know it's not good for me. I keep reminding myself of my teeth and how awful it'll make my smile. Wish I could make myself stop freaking binging.",0.9783333333333316,2.692428314814819,2.6071851851851875,95.60633333333335,80.66666666666666,5.060740740740742,18.20740740740741,5.6839178017228535,-0.4751659259259258,195,4,45,1,5,64,42,54,0.29100000000000004,0.5329999999999999,0.177,-0.8585,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,3,0,14,11,6,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,11,2,4,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,29,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20078738328866616,0.29422706094752155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397647359033871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22927210597244735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398834620925191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408543058754405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5104780242772508,0.0,0.0,0.15781439565828048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029077715863722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833600706577771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400767463255263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937308747845572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302172535595901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squirrelwhatthefuck,2019/05/22,My therapist isn’t taking me seriously The only person I’ve confided in thinks I’m a fucking joke (no surprise there),3.979130434782608,6.168375826086957,6.851521739130432,66.42336956521743,73.34782608695652,9.817391304347826,33.23913043478261,10.125756701596842,4.258669565217392,96,5,15,3,2,35,22,23,0.075,0.7090000000000001,0.215,0.4865,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.434864703033704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577500996424561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4107233136644749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536720779851183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.546154935683694,0.0,0.30140465052106125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VeryImpish,2019/05/22,"A meltdown in my work's parking lot I have an arrangement with my mother that on my lunch break I can go to her house and spend my hour lunch there as long as I walk her dog (her house is 5 mins from my job). It is a great setup because I can't eat in front of other people. Well her on-and-off again husband/exhusband/boyfriend/whatever-the-fuck-he-is showed up earlier this week while I was eating.

He already makes me really uncomfortable to be alone with (he assaulted me when they first got together) but I ALSO CAN'T FUCKING EAT WHEN PEOPLE ARE AROUND. And he hovered and watched me and I wanted to scream.

Well sure enough today, I had my premade salad with me and was on my way to her house to eat my pre-planned calories when I see his car there!! I called her and asked why he is doing this and she didn't even know he was there. 

And when asked why I can't eat at work when on the phone venting to my sister I broke down crying BECAUSE I JUST FUCKING CAN'T!!!! I don't want anyone looking at me or hearing me it's private! I get it, its weird and I'm weird but I can't! So no lunch for me today and I sobbed for 10 minutes in my car outside my job. Today sucks.",0.28123271889401025,2.433956362903228,2.0433179723502306,96.18854838709677,86.17741935483869,4.833179723502305,19.744239631336406,6.1826913282559595,-0.08723087557603693,910,27,207,8,28,298,136,248,0.12300000000000001,0.8140000000000001,0.063,-0.9374,3,1,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,3,16,13,4,0,4,0,19,11,0,1,1,24,35,23,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,8,14,9,0,1,1,1,5,8,9,2,1,6,5,44,4,26,28,2,33,0,2,3,2,21,11,4,2,15,134,52,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663816010645158,0.11362174510495535,0.08233912190127378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199381583589136,0.0,0.0,0.09165850758411898,0.19251218904497905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255300416238466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513628549658134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309953723019202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5267820167158982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638784793743736,0.0,0.06800579970846142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757990079781193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855616823546017,0.05379368789122137,0.0,0.05851599552775993,0.0,0.08234856490946563,0.11351658570864427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604628802576787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139738120991344,0.3564149100975396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204348906506671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056585530182144995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911186254118037,0.08646261847867089,0.0,0.0,0.08753508639634255,0.0,0.0,0.06872830820772048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14276254958954504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596045233778396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204782958150528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704099413331824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927894028844114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145997091808865,0.08172688748491899,0.08259035489434216,0.0,0.1851514131972919,0.0,0.1858153909000395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499159396771408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xx0throwaway,2019/05/22,"Helpful Apps to Cope?? Longtime lurker here hi!

So I've been eating disorderly for just over a year. The cliché self hate, diet restriction weightlosss, still don't feel great despite losing alot ect.

I'm at third year university. I'm just in a horrible place. I've started to binge and restrict. Before I would regularly exercise and eat safe good and now I'm just out of control and have started gaining and I'm terrified.

What Apps can help me? MyfitnessPal has a minimum of 1200 so I stopped using that a long time ago. I want to get my exercise habits back. I would like to improve my mental state.

Any recommendations? What do you all use?",2.0578963414634157,4.873725130081303,3.5251981707317093,83.4809679878049,86.3170731707317,6.652235772357725,25.573678861788625,7.865858978985527,1.9350654471544724,513,22,95,11,16,168,88,123,0.157,0.667,0.17600000000000002,-0.4503,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,3,9,6,1,0,6,0,8,5,0,3,1,22,20,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,6,3,5,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,8,4,11,17,2,17,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,1,12,52,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15998204344038006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273060428472435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877573553546896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357270364376865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024203932490745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20684237127067384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693462211806563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125463516709996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942918261990976,0.0,0.0,0.15137561333673713,0.0,0.1989766195617385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818375375648232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241939966954278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817198580148647,0.0,0.0,0.1597165378994692,0.0,0.2019076900178444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18187844955149274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18856013764316087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882769566576985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554852144794908,0.0,0.1441292304668485,0.15088692141426438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523763761681622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117485043097166,0.0,0.0,0.10645005870498088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25641148120185586,0.0,0.0,0.23244264670424855
EDAnonymous,ForeverFlexin,2019/05/22,Bamboozled myself into buying a chicken salad wrap when all I wanted was a Diet Coke I ordered that Starbucks drink recommended on here (2 shots of espresso on ice in a grande cup with 3 pumps sugar free vanilla) and needed to buy a Diet Coke. I figured I would go to the vending machine at school and bam apparently it’s one of those vitamin water machines not soda. So I went down to the cafe connected to the school to buy a Diet Coke and they only accept credit cards over 5 dollars. I could have bought like 3 diet cokes and saved them for later but my social anxiety kept me from that since there were a lot of people around during lunch time. So I ended up ordering a chicken salad wrap on whole wheat even though I don’t even want to eat it and I’m trying to low restrict. It ended up being 9 dollars total just because I wanted a Diet Coke. Not sure what to do with the wrap ¯\_(ツ)_/¯,5.303984848484845,5.551164216666668,6.394040404040402,78.36590909090911,67.94444444444444,8.101010101010102,28.58585858585859,7.686295010490155,1.8188888888888888,709,22,131,7,11,238,120,180,0.073,0.845,0.08199999999999999,-0.3491,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,0,10,8,0,0,12,0,8,20,0,0,3,28,17,10,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,9,19,2,2,1,8,2,3,1,0,1,5,1,14,8,26,9,4,21,0,1,0,0,3,12,0,1,6,89,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476473805752992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181430333453676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176533265576185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409783136861016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890702490548713,0.0,0.19749107332593346,0.0,0.0,0.3418881647579253,0.0,0.0,0.25495438247004165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968850868864577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429190886291652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16408493093468085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310987395080854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307843714962515,0.1467880888234807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380453515173665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39066030405695706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596547398066128,0.0,0.0,0.1967430710234108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190379967299145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896252559420709,0.0,0.11254206928552787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103691273964588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34151592966707184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891645846404214,0.0,0.21548185283679774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710436368828624,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,melongorl,2019/05/22,"I purged for the first time I ate a sandwich really quickly and downed a coke and threw up after, there was blood in my phlegm but i cant tell anyone or ill have to out myself. i told my sister last week about my habits and she said to tell her whenever i feel bad or my thoughts are becoming unhealthy but i didn't text her. i wanted to go to the doctor and get help but my 18th birthday is in a week so i want to wait first so my parents dont have to know. i have exams right now so i really dont want things to get out of hand because i really cant deal with this right now.",0.9467755681818204,2.3278902968750046,2.8684943181818205,95.22252840909091,79.625,6.217045454545455,18.66761363636364,6.980632752743323,-0.07174375,450,9,110,5,11,151,77,128,0.10300000000000001,0.802,0.095,-0.4545,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,0,5,0,11,7,2,0,0,19,25,12,0,3,5,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,7,3,1,3,0,0,2,5,1,0,2,7,3,21,0,18,18,0,20,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,2,10,75,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622057743723642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878160868164002,0.10132241050050424,0.1835701209589357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135916448846186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701269022411916,0.0,0.0,0.38960275123901694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840427086664577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827628046780989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17367973614420976,0.0,0.09446315229426402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114096293315824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134677633078732,0.1354864590218873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845607926399148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31944251473736257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28389141221652403,0.1581074187738225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905564342753325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042508571539544,0.0,0.0,0.13195521797633378,0.096920623295254,0.0,0.0,0.1588244413794463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29411167733741994,0.0,0.2666534236342409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maxmydogmydogmax,2019/05/22,"How to actually take my meds?! I have been prescribed psych meds that make me incredibly hungry. As in, eat for three hours and I'm still starving. Naturally the side effects list ""weight gain."" Wonder why.

I am also terrified of eating, gaining weight, being fat, consuming too many calories. Etc. I have EDNOS so it's not like I have a lot of room to gain weight before I slip into complete despair. 

What will happen is: I get really depressed. As in, looking up exit bags, staying in bed crying, completely lethargic. I cant handle it so I take my meds.

My meds help a little. And then I start getting hungry. I gain weight because I lack the self discipline to just say no to fucking food when I feel like I'm starving.

Gaining the weight makes me so anxious I stop the meds.

Then I get cripplingly depressed again. 

And the cycle starts over with me taking the meds. Only to later stop.

Has anyone managed to stay on their psych meds and manage the hunger? I've mentioned this to my psychiatrist and he disregards it. ""Yep, those are the side effects, anyways..."" 

Any help appreciated!",1.6411764705882348,4.405150176470588,3.0267058823529425,85.47417647058826,91.35294117647058,5.072941176470589,22.976470588235287,6.742157984588678,1.0938717647058829,852,33,150,12,30,276,129,204,0.20600000000000002,0.701,0.09300000000000001,-0.971,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,1,7,11,6,1,0,10,1,11,11,1,5,0,22,28,15,0,1,2,0,6,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,7,7,10,4,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,8,22,2,20,25,3,25,0,3,1,1,7,12,1,2,13,94,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.07928220408680879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497061689396506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05524855243970761,0.0,0.0,0.09178233975162424,0.0,0.05680753594891098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04952545068919576,0.0,0.06913246797747959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17036510309169955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924247107077626,0.0,0.0,0.13995028738206247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626532712221925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060828408102813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04107929334968183,0.05804056853854143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824029427918846,0.0,0.0,0.07510856012488826,0.1273395564559696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184360123415552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089119786335009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08000875229808233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07938320860810583,0.08142760527725404,0.0,0.0,0.0682243085803407,0.0,0.0,0.06907055153995911,0.0,0.0,0.10846170032486303,0.08236843534803608,0.0,0.0,0.6317046264512035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06178955128164915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05204684213330806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460831014885157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475497512388684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500952310960745,0.17319010698824627,0.06488138304174787,0.1358468662124823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325562191084946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946651490200698,0.0,0.0,0.073309869575996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810540751800458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bruiseyyy,2019/05/22,"I want to eat the world TW

Jesus Christ I want to eat a bowl of mac n cheese and cake and everything but I have to lose weight (which isn’t happening despite IF& restricting- kill me) because I’m meeting my LDR bf for the first time in 5 weeks and I wanna not hate myself
I just feel like I’m getting more obsessed and I just don’t know what to even do anymore.",0.2941025641025625,2.4954981538461567,1.85923076923077,97.16910256410259,86.69230769230771,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.04791282051282053,288,9,66,3,9,93,58,78,0.075,0.708,0.217,0.8857,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,2,1,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,14,13,5,1,3,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,2,9,1,8,13,1,5,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25290378965156324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23148380135834515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422869056302038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4776812443016325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416763477892778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20977730175575546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802104685292172,0.16675088835018792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19854168641578154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194909351523416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20640708093885865,0.0,0.0,0.23044783546627998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25823782217469515,0.0,0.1282781378689899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11403420821679107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26113037326735594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361054826105199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27534705153138955,0.0,0.1872304968722945,0.2842351655470108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heylu,2019/05/22,"DAE shop for unnecessary clothes just to validate themselves? okay so this will sound low-key shopping addicted but i swear i am not. 
i just want to know if i‘m alone with this. 

short TLDR about my body/ED
- wanted to lose weight, started working out and eating healthy, shit happened, spiraled into an ED because it was way to cope. was fat, don‘t know what i am now, less fat i guess - you‘ll see what i mean. 

due to my severe dysmorphia i started to buy clothes online, trying them on, feeling like a fucking LEGEND because the size XY fits and then i will send them back because i literally don‘t care about what i wear anymore. 
i take tons of pictures in those „outfits“ and keep them on my phone in „hidden mode“ and look at them when i feel like a failure. 

i don‘t do this often as in excessively but from time to time, when i ACTUALLY need something i would add those extra things to my cart and check out. 

when i look in the mirror i don‘t notice any change in my body at all.... only those photos of me in those clothes give me certainty that i am thinner. 

am i the only one?",3.475691797845897,5.108729488262913,4.088019884009942,88.06975973487988,73.36619718309859,6.514112123722729,26.613918806959404,7.048011613610866,1.148227506213753,843,30,171,8,17,267,131,213,0.098,0.8009999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.2484,0,1,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,4,2,11,7,2,0,6,1,15,9,5,0,1,29,36,14,0,5,6,0,3,2,0,4,3,1,0,0,13,10,4,1,5,2,4,1,5,3,0,1,2,7,31,4,29,30,4,28,0,1,3,1,8,15,2,3,13,117,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.1444673072112323,0.16138726375857435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533265151909015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067340697975273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14681754909441694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383490029972665,0.0,0.2707344699318678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444091329455826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093834125065836,0.0,0.15660844916858216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151483579250909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14970862530185974,0.2115219863613041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686213135390016,0.0,0.14201505225231148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308458147039395,0.0,0.13091275312290304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158623162219305,0.0,0.0,0.16271965203444974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465135672620247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486354222987575,0.1656207526066762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126077022659446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977101682179256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16854641382719696,0.0,0.0,0.10031686177347426,0.2251847104976091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797003789404348,0.0,0.0,0.16724494009961266,0.15196263901183935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396970435732545,0.0,0.0,0.20956930119022074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130890609361442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835230232108053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264856770047102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005105710425242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746376161916928,0.1175085808209046,0.0,0.18027486211640945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777609337651516,0.0,0.0,0.10516454942823322,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carinaarabella,2019/05/22,"I’m done I’m done with the constant anxiety and obsession
I’m done with not paying attention to the conversation because I want to go purge 
I’m done with alienating loved ones because I *can’t* just go get a meal
I’m done with the secret eating
I’m done with having my face in a toilet bowl
I’m done with the raw, bloody throat 
I’m done being cruel to myself.

I love my body. I love my heart. I love my mind. I love myself and I am so sorry I have hurt myself for so fucking long.

I am taking my life back. I am never, never purging again.


Thanks for giving me a place to rant. I love you all and am sending the biggest hug.",0.0259999999999998,2.079184044444446,2.6044444444444435,92.42000000000002,86.33333333333334,5.0814814814814815,17.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,-0.11664444444444433,486,12,108,5,15,168,69,135,0.142,0.643,0.215,0.9286,0,0,0,0,0,2,13.0,0,1,0,0,5,12,2,1,8,0,16,15,4,0,3,18,38,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,0,1,3,4,4,0,1,8,0,21,8,13,29,1,12,0,1,0,8,11,3,1,0,6,71,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07054475736267568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090818042891775,0.0,0.11242766844327436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243085309588974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965241043856896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.754949413825455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943596817958254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08525192782157598,0.04817889668751863,0.08846170130790079,0.10481661375587974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092760473676197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871881307633153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513467537651513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160799179452441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.499369612367213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311156829294556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224486403946332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062487744232806224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634577838923096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322792526852287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933472929523378,0.0,0.0,0.0848998261091945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054391208522130086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shutuppleaseplease,2019/05/22,"Mom says I’m as thin as lightning It’s a Chinese thing, doesn’t translate well but hey, at least I’m kinda thin? I guess? She keeps on telling me to stop dieting but I like being thin, I like being skinny. I’m meeting some high school friends tomorrow, and I just don’t want to look like some washout who couldn’t afford to go out of state. They’re all off following artsy, trust fund dreams.",0.6459259259259262,3.049578839506175,1.6998641975308644,97.30238888888893,87.76543209876543,4.721481481481481,20.44567901234568,6.2581,0.05203604938271589,310,10,68,3,10,97,61,81,0.032,0.6779999999999999,0.29,0.97,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,1,14,14,5,0,2,3,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,2,0,1,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,5,6,6,10,11,4,13,0,0,1,0,8,8,0,4,5,34,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144280848359004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773338517211466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057435525659596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932381205753687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24669187952780244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067786723631852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330651880820505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32505356938085217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22071235707392128,0.0,0.2808870908537111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320373491721448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24258374217186776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18438642110472828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370132818408648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24954338475840496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chief_catnipples,2019/05/22,Best appetite suppressants? Tired of drinking coffee and diet Coke to kill my appetite. What are some suppressants I can get over the counter that aren't stackers? Bonus points for an Amazon link.,4.984705882352942,8.388226588235298,3.3426470588235304,86.23691176470591,77.23529411764707,5.752941176470588,29.088235294117645,7.1686216300943375,1.9503176470588244,160,7,25,2,4,45,31,34,0.247,0.618,0.135,-0.7105,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4367884721405337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077289856780055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21745342041350715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46047654880688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934545620783496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783740904064818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Auntie_Vodka,2019/05/22,"Hate my legs I've lost damn near 35lbs but I cant look at myself without hating myself.

What do you guys do when the body dysmorphia starts taking over your life?",2.624545454545455,4.672492666666667,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,76.87878787878788,5.612121212121212,17.060606060606062,6.42735559955562,-0.3388303030303028,130,2,27,1,3,40,30,33,0.165,0.7340000000000001,0.1,-0.0765,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,1,1,4,3,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,6,0,4,8,0,5,0,1,1,0,3,3,1,0,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427196644046377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055042493901956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6092410205339585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21793174040293176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25909685972339896,0.0,0.33680911506471106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183870155378288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319845479896959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297422660347008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mementomorii0,2019/09/16,"Is this normal I had some roasted cauliflower and a pickle for dinner and I feel vile. Is it abnormal to feel disgusting after eating even low calorie foods? I couldn't have consumed more than 100 calories during that meal, yet there's something inside of me which tells me I'm doing something **wrong**. I only feel content if I don't eat all day. I'm very confused. I feel like I've just sinned. 

Is there something wrong with me? I don't even know if I have anorexia. I feel like I'm an imposter too, which is weird because people say I'm skinny. I feel like they're lying or just comparing me to others. I don't know. When I look in the mirror I see a subhuman sack of flesh and a worthless, ugly face. I don't enjoy food anymore. I get anxious thinking about eating and I just eat dinner now and have coffee or tea for lunch and breakfast.",0.9305513784461183,3.3973725146198843,2.6289891395154577,90.71736842105264,87.01169590643275,4.4267335004177095,21.00835421888053,5.916634753146586,0.23496524644945715,664,22,130,5,21,218,102,171,0.19,0.76,0.05,-0.9694,1,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,12,13,2,1,5,0,14,15,3,0,1,28,30,11,0,4,7,0,6,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,7,13,0,9,0,0,0,5,9,0,0,1,9,20,4,11,28,3,7,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,6,8,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490375594700805,0.12720512973393416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818959332757483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272077923086299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249914188059508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16943659874039213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38913001656699453,0.2748991712771922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31019883923022035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701354552894631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098297223305112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799245776858448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10771090154088284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567317371174244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755186110117417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889233011509951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200204997271403,0.0,0.0,0.1022111734434312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962356567985305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210989416100303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218749521597382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583265333837676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28047686201366473,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squirrels-rule,2019/09/16,"DAE get cold while heavily restricting? I know a hallmark of anorexia is being cold all the time (been there), but this is something else. Now I’m at a Normal Weight™️, but I’ve noticed that if I’m hardcore restricting for a day or two, I get really cold. Then when I start eating normally again, I’m fine. I’m thinking it probably has something to do with metabolism, but has anyone else experienced this?",4.194416666666665,5.646550275000003,5.6875,78.03416666666669,71.25,9.333333333333334,30.833333333333336,9.725611199111238,3.0657083333333337,322,14,61,8,6,109,57,80,0.077,0.892,0.031,-0.5204,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,0,1,13,16,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,3,1,5,14,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,8,36,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565260026657396,0.22936792627051536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436923039828645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290615725680975,0.3740075577655078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339120613763487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302593973241173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4386646146027881,0.0,0.2548626510733796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413556822116429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340851111423153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34467207382219894,0.0,0.0,0.15844711991230948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343851137545915,0.0,0.0,0.13053280300961145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186757380184909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725974895436325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cant_get_outta_bed,2019/09/16,"A small victory Today is the first day in several I've had any motivation to leave my bed - I'm washing all the bed linens, showering, and working on resisting the binge urges.

This is a small thing, but kinda big for me considering on Friday my partner was asking me if I was a danger to myself thanks to my SI.

I know it can get better, I am more than the ED that tries to control me.",6.232500000000003,4.769273250000001,7.6975000000000025,75.49750000000003,66.5,11.0,32.5,10.125756701596842,2.966375,300,10,63,6,4,105,59,80,0.069,0.816,0.114,0.5719,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,7,0,7,1,0,2,1,8,12,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,10,2,9,9,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,3,43,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20821522029106693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862401593973089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27079434703413785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434107329414189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974629714390037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604394546519756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996819601853554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827039637613908,0.0,0.0,0.32420402493244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459001050040024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28189254961692833,0.0,0.0,0.2034146544582124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902260744016082,0.0,0.0,0.20787843899441172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229051712634989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jnlh93,2019/09/16,"Have I beaten holiday - related food anxiety? I'm out and proud as a 'picky eater' with 'gastronomic issues' (fairly true) and am living my best life due to the purchase of a portable blender and single-serve packets of my food replacement shakes.

I'm two days in so far, and didn't realise that it was possible to be this relaxed on holiday. Usually I'd be worried about what I was going to eat at what meals (not to mention this was worsened by a 'foodie' ex who always forced me to eat when he did). But this time, I can chill, have a shake for lunch/tea if I need to, and save eating for dinner. We're in the Med so it's all salads, vegetables and fish.

So glad I got the damn blender! Haven't been able to find skinny milk though, so I'm soya. It's only 8 cals more for the whole shake, so I think I can live with that.",3.185350877192981,3.957430064327486,4.596739766081875,87.48703947368423,72.91812865497077,8.039181286549706,25.36111111111111,8.344100000000001,1.3839742690058479,635,19,141,10,12,212,112,171,0.107,0.76,0.133,0.8193,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,8,11,2,3,8,0,14,12,1,0,2,18,21,16,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,11,9,11,0,2,3,1,4,3,5,0,1,7,0,10,6,22,12,4,15,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,1,5,86,21,1,0.16815394488161364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13991755267317088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286373075768475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17646719087927973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844538341986526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5161903958767545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368965925622846,0.0,0.4066648352384897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556576198540152,0.0,0.13448807087703055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550903068997914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187721041728323,0.0,0.0,0.2969660281070954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867811251701368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468401945881752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788865238942582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895683072595302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077462581214328,0.1652103970819746,0.0,0.09805191751867283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426197042551202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851978136767054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773787433675215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707684934140045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,park-row,2019/09/16,"Grad school off to a GREAT start! /s (tw: binging) After taking time off to get myself together, I've finally started grad school in my dream program. Aaaand I'd be incredibly happy, if my go-to academic stress relief weren't binge-eating. I won't share specifics, but I have gained weight while ""recovering"" over the past 18 month and it's killing me. 

I'm trying to curb my impulses, but fellow grad students seem to socialize exclusively through beer and pizza. I'd rather d\*e than tell any of my new friends that I struggle with disordered eating, though.  God, imagine if I devoted all the energy I spend on hating my body to studying for classes. I'd be the best student this university's ever had lol.",3.977512437810944,6.297618417910449,4.879925373134332,79.96501243781096,73.77611940298506,8.048756218905472,29.07711442786069,8.841846274778883,2.583186069651741,564,24,101,12,12,183,101,134,0.10099999999999999,0.6609999999999999,0.239,0.9589,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,3,11,2,2,4,1,6,5,1,0,2,13,13,8,1,3,5,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,4,1,2,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,12,7,16,8,2,15,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,10,53,15,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343833726153945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19049174584627415,0.0,0.0,0.20162536983507084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20803513951298835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18573803853603096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419325383037262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988438914767308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024021194772004,0.0,0.09483556535229533,0.0,0.10316075613274893,0.0,0.0,0.2001240295015799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19322908710842346,0.0,0.17921126045867053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082256583746852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488578645060454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753110347773832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327929155152955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674114347926856,0.0,0.16524699950311292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503455114213896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25695848443061353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079280413560763,0.1897618297525714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647880510649574,0.0,0.1586545691684415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17834032952692513,0.0,0.10584449641114554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232386797954724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22103979489020686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,koalasalaura,2019/09/16,"How to not get triggered by calorie related math in a test?? I have a math test coming up and I know calories are going to be on there.. when I first has the lesson on calories I had a huge anxiety attack and had trouble breathing and remaining calm. My councillor spoke to the math teacher about removing my trigger from the rest but there's nothing he can do, he said. Any advice on how to not get triggered by that stuff? Should I just skip it and risk a bad mark?",2.131158392434987,4.2602592553191485,3.4216312056737586,89.13388888888889,78.78723404255321,6.305437352245864,26.401891252955078,7.3871296695380915,1.3959919621749406,366,15,74,5,9,119,64,94,0.145,0.82,0.035,-0.8836,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,1,1,7,0,9,1,1,5,0,17,16,8,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,4,2,7,1,13,10,1,11,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,54,10,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30429776626958793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21176357627699804,0.0,0.2382211577616584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3542639573070909,0.0,0.0,0.2600070952905791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682446641656805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26487780405119393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32538867458497983,0.0,0.1769765466284905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711380218427193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29879796546204096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962139658834437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35648000974267297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brookeD95,2019/09/16,"I think the guy I've started going out with has an ED...? I've been out with this guy three times now, and I'm starting to pick up on some subtle indicators that he struggles with some sort of ED as well. 

Examples: he is muscular from working out yet thin (He is also tall though), he used to be heavier (from old FB photos), he always orders whiskey and diets or white claws, referred to my cheat day iced coffee with whipped cream (obv didn't know it was my cheat day) as ""not coffee but dessert"", snap chatted me while on vacation saying that he felt disgusting about the way he ate that week, works out pretty religiously, we've never gone out for food - only drinks (i.e. I've never seen him eat). 

It doesn't make me think differently of him if this *is* case, but it's just interesting to me how much of myself I am noticing in him...hmmm. 

Also is it bad that I kind of love it? I hate dating because I feel like food is constantly being shoved in your face, but we have the same eating (or lack thereof) and drinking habits which makes me feel normal? At the same time I kind of feel competitive with him because oh god he cannot be skinnier than me, and if we y'know, do it, I feel like he will be judging me that much harder bc goblin brains unite.",8.229069264069267,5.6337785158730185,8.094545454545457,77.83227272727272,63.444444444444436,10.750937950937953,33.62337662337662,8.575989854853784,2.4657571428571434,974,27,204,10,11,315,155,252,0.086,0.816,0.098,0.5268,1,0,3,0,0,0,43.0,2,1,0,2,9,13,4,1,5,0,19,14,3,5,2,48,39,18,0,4,9,0,6,2,0,1,0,1,0,2,14,16,10,0,9,4,0,2,6,6,1,1,7,10,22,7,32,27,7,32,0,0,3,1,20,13,0,7,17,123,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939474217918942,0.1009002529969946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124926170295907,0.1478411924259152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536924021403104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104186354970254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640877665977992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669367745052595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23758249673329715,0.0,0.248163962960121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24525619164757376,0.17326014690236766,0.11643117673397516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932625962690435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689163680892951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401382102085005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972177846024447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25255281431500337,0.13328558085320874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11848562765101535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944429127320142,0.0,0.16188754352989834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828402564168164,0.0,0.1870504886140817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881166704406405,0.0,0.13805834997070401,0.12724477031832612,0.0,0.0,0.09222572247014507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336772693645648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643293983302756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716606795116914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677006837462276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540044113445506,0.1191399545291046,0.0,0.14141847245691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473201002176848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625266065978688,0.09726959692284144,0.0,0.10902970058934082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656133144553726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cardiosucks,2019/09/16,"My boyfriend said “I thought you weighed more than that” This happened a few days ago and I can barely function anymore. His comment totally blindsided me, especially because he’s normally the sweetest guy ever and has only ever said lovely things about my body. I believed that he really just slipped up in the wording, because I was trying to explain to him how TDEE worked — he apologized profusely as soon as he realized how bad it sounded, and reassured me that he wasn’t calling me fat at all (he also knows about my ED). 

Still, I’ve been nonstop crying about it ever since. I can barely force myself to eat beyond maybe one solid “meal” a day, and even then I feel really guilty for eating afterwards. I feel fucking huge even though I’m only 2-3 pounds away from being underweight, and I can stop feeling obsessive over losing more weight again. It scares me because I’m slipping back into my destructive old habits so quickly. I want to get better. I don’t want to feel like this. 

My boyfriend has been really nice and apologetic over this, and wanted to take me to a nice dinner to have a nice date night. I don’t know why I’m still so devastated over ONE bad comment that was mostly a misunderstanding (he reassured me by telling me how bad he feels and how he’s just ignorant of women’s height/body ratio). I don’t know why I can’t stop crying about it or why my stomach feels like a ton of bricks. This whole situation just feels so stupid and sad. I wish I wasn’t so sensitive to these kinds of comments and yet here I am.",7.035319767441857,6.419335661129569,7.271127491694354,76.43931582225916,64.48172757475082,10.448588039867113,34.094892026578066,9.827888789773867,3.1355995016611296,1218,46,233,22,16,396,165,301,0.163,0.713,0.124,-0.9486,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,3,31,21,3,2,8,0,18,11,3,4,5,47,44,24,0,5,4,0,8,2,0,0,1,3,0,2,14,11,7,3,13,0,0,0,6,11,0,2,9,11,33,10,31,34,8,30,0,2,0,2,26,10,1,2,22,152,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522659823289737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688699256739588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534984484756356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033124061256936,0.07392944609664209,0.24083077238416034,0.17582700339378304,0.0,0.0,0.10832230898921802,0.0,0.085032296476188,0.0,0.21359048241766385,0.0,0.0,0.09817462968856616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112211808335829,0.12401093386453653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967603446266361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700551805722854,0.2609055323051051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402960340247237,0.13737178358990704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888435388407863,0.0502317098550594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519850592940644,0.08502056311271629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012005407294426,0.15851606641202595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394302320060637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756148132147103,0.0,0.0,0.08677447044071235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659041296149104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022541784960532,0.09420152819292238,0.0,0.0,0.1008878346442038,0.0,0.13030046155509606,0.14624496417783506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18477853630931698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18291151661319005,0.0,0.09625775588499894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953200389412228,0.10807082672173747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356278435326365,0.16076278003993122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228895313701808,0.0,0.08403482655524358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387435851203913,0.0,0.0944618156171024,0.07632826224176982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527603419044638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012615022320393,0.0,0.0,0.11707851165436195,0.0,0.0,0.26026728696783835,0.10734227859246462,0.11056181931799637,0.0,0.0,0.0699945874666425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mimikkyu_,2019/09/16,"i kind of enjoy getting my period? i kind of like restricting through my period and seeing how much weight drops off with the combined period bloating and calorie deficit. its like doing a little weight loss sprint once a month lol, but i have it sort of easy because my period has only ever lasted 2-4 days max.",5.616499999999999,6.628092316666668,6.38666666666667,75.99000000000002,67.5,9.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,9.516144504307137,2.631333333333333,249,8,43,5,4,82,46,60,0.084,0.745,0.172,0.6659,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,3,1,3,2,0,1,1,8,5,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,5,6,5,1,11,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,10,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251268377295534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077147418572054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21147120125080132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214260000637722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869005555468576,0.0,0.1905653329280753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228430311038392,0.23431319452480845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18660432502622565,0.0,0.17185829301785785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489725524721757,0.0,0.1778034255061409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18629574626358025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693723689519348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tween320characters,2019/09/16,"Christopher Eccleston discusses his dysmorphia and ED Hi, guys!

I wasn't sure if this was suitable for this sub, so please delete if it's not. I found this to be a really positive and brave act for Mr Eccleston to take, particularly given the misgivings he expressed and the insecurity he says he has felt around his mental health.

\>  I always thought of it as a filthy secret, because I'm northern, because I'm male and because I'm working class 

I always think it's very important for these issues to be discussed, particularly by those who ""don't have"" these problems, because it helps to show that you're not alone, even if you don't fit the white/middle-class/skinny/teenage girl image so commonly associated with body dysmorphia and eating disorders. 

 [https://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-49713708](https://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-49713708)",11.400159574468086,12.50355507092199,9.360345744680851,59.34562500000001,55.02836879432624,11.589007092198589,37.483156028368796,11.20814326018867,4.431332624113474,719,28,104,16,8,216,93,141,0.05,0.809,0.141,0.9128,0,1,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,5,0,8,3,1,0,1,19,17,11,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,12,7,1,0,5,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,6,2,7,2,12,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,18,2,0,3,1,57,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19479848048774875,0.0,0.0,0.3130021988586893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743479054156102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586174656329196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089191161744895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21556075763601773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19245706471696813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422782270753943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805903020606122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062245881812744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862329022789706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19992468117760212,0.0,0.0,0.12606885682733296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963110112919176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895446089799427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645994184398145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17997115268063313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049153769024497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957208388290344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772671076031373,0.0,0.14141589107919852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051674384836167,0.0,0.1493178245227508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15518914087425126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692751835200329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smooshedegg,2019/09/16,I’m doing the thing I said I would never do. I’m voluntarily starting residential treatment  tomorrow for bulimia. I’m 25 and I’ve never been this scared of anything in my life.,2.188714285714287,4.841183800000003,5.3539285714285745,72.26232142857145,82.42857142857143,8.071428571428571,28.75,8.841846274778883,3.0577142857142863,143,7,25,4,4,52,27,35,0.10800000000000001,0.892,0.0,-0.5228,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,9,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31305971749182665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687074509099193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5868188426537181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618740157388781,0.0,0.3808746580105204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692688001687958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527393686902442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702450395549993,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blahpunchlineblah,2019/09/16,"My favorite Doctor (from Doctor Who the TV show), Christopher Eccleston, just interviewed saying he's a ""lifelong body-hater"" and dysmorphic. The article I read: https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/entertainment-arts-49713708

I am a huge Doctor Who fan and was introduced to the show during the reboot in 2005. Christopher was the actor playing him and I hope that he is doing better. The show was a huge part of my life for so long and knowing that he was struggling during that time really hit me. 

I hope that people realize that boys and men can have EDs and that should be listened to.",6.174423076923077,8.269506826923084,5.818461538461538,76.50153846153847,67.26923076923077,8.661538461538461,29.34615384615385,9.188382445141503,2.735042307692309,466,17,75,9,8,144,68,104,0.026000000000000002,0.782,0.192,0.9393,0,0,0,0,1,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,9,0,11,4,0,0,0,12,16,7,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,8,6,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,8,4,6,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,2,2,51,16,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359333431506065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6721396988395089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348208713347334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202980322808103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15461081014812644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19371368096911426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23704011123891505,0.0,0.1517530519174403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189525340979952,0.0,0.14022865207846666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407273667124076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288348023837082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763844262689186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ScoutFinch80,2019/09/16,How does everyone take their coffee? I have tried black so many times but I. Just. Can't. I don't do sugar or aspartame and I can't have milk.,-1.4651612903225804,0.4807140967742001,0.9118709677419368,99.56780645161292,101.58064516129032,5.060645161290323,12.651612903225805,6.742157984588678,-0.6012632258064516,111,2,27,2,5,37,24,31,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,0,5,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336126444189201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4734684872084256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5023560483686658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725519760714649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889282058374685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364098451068321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,exoticclassic,2019/09/16,"Body perception A highly prevalent eating disorder stereotype is the concept that body dysmorphia manifests itself in a way that the perception of ones body is an objectively very large person despite exhibiting a low weight.

I’ve never personally been able to resonate with this. I’ve always felt ‘normal’ but that was the whole problem, I wanted to loose weight so I could be thinner than everyone else, have a kind of ‘augmented feature’ in a sense. So no matter how much I lost, in my eyes I would just look like an average person which drove me further as it fuelled the reason I begun to loose weight in the first place. 

I am curious how others perceive their body image and the potential origins behind this
- Is it comparable to what the stereotype suggests or something entirely different?",8.839014084507044,9.2400808943662,8.533908450704228,65.493397887324,60.478873239436616,11.607042253521128,39.58098591549296,11.20814326018867,4.8938563380281686,645,31,96,16,8,207,99,142,0.15,0.7879999999999999,0.062,-0.9193,1,0,1,1,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,5,5,0,0,14,0,10,9,5,4,1,20,15,8,0,5,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,11,2,4,0,5,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,5,6,9,2,14,7,2,14,0,2,2,0,5,8,0,1,5,72,20,0,0.12604384767251373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487857842564596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5600252008508102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063575608527163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168899375231755,0.14445716935955086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289743230500492,0.10529346113710998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044029794151315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12102186008045172,0.0,0.0,0.10721283244071074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317224535345362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125527120106742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06157865725212323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584508709069512,0.0,0.13759174910503474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265673083028804,0.0,0.0972127856817747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349620907624248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08541057322331234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301698781493839,0.13168899375231755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060693962914433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959406798052986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970347118835462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399937470942107,0.07434392704073478,0.10004773942425328,0.0,0.46046235016457104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407234546410603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953793301189394,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tookawaylove,2019/09/16,"Is anyone else just absolutely exhausted? Don’t know what’s up honestly. I’ve recently upped my calories to maintenance and feel I’m doing a lot better so I don’t think it’s due to not eating enough, I just wake up every morning feeling absolutely fucking knackered like I’ve already done a full day at work and everything is just turning in to a struggle. Anyone know how to stop feeling like this?",3.706043956043956,5.9679237435897425,5.245457875457877,77.30192307692309,74.38461538461539,8.046886446886448,31.655677655677657,8.841846274778883,3.0374446886446886,324,16,56,7,7,109,55,78,0.092,0.716,0.193,0.7936,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,1,3,0,6,4,1,1,0,15,15,4,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,6,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,3,3,4,9,14,3,10,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,1,6,35,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339949312112249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965310551882781,0.2172633046427057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18753496865204267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675031463668033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216993801577941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697311839539954,0.17713487513865925,0.0,0.0,0.21909729635674474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786555315929905,0.0,0.1905707451296866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216462217528242,0.1514836961766796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603051087742446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23306678189621025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071871822953455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027153605993596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20936706748555056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772776001859858,0.0,0.2216735800504602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358687132119249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230642099268428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543699665931675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SaintLovely,2019/09/16,"ED doublethink? Being a self aware dumb bitch™️ with an ED I can’t be the only one who is like, partially aware that the things I believe are true aren’t true? Like I’m not dumb! I swear I know that the one piece of cake I was forced to eat tonight (had dinner with my family and my mom made it and I can’t raise suspicion) isn’t going to make me gain 100 pounds. I know it probably wasn’t 1000 calories for the little slice I had. I know even if it was, and even if the soup that she also made really was 500 calories for 2 cups like I counted it as, my daily total still only comes out to about 1600!! Which I know isn’t really that much? When that’s more than I’ve eaten the past 3 days combined? But at the same time, it’s SO much to me. I still FEEL like it was 1000 cals a slice. And I’m still going to work out like it was 1000 cals a slice. I still believe I should log it as 1000 cals. And I’m still going to cry myself to sleep like it was 1000 cals. And then cry more because I’m aware of how dumb and dramatic and irrational I feel like I’m being?? My brain literally goes around in circles fucking kill me sorry for the rant I know no one cares this is just my post cake freak out :)))))))",1.4548891312250092,2.6091545725190883,3.1024318429661935,95.04113231552164,77.70229007633588,6.5171937477281,18.964740094511086,7.07126945348624,-0.054515303525990884,926,17,228,10,21,307,126,262,0.138,0.748,0.113,-0.8672,1,1,0,0,0,1,30.0,0,0,0,2,14,16,5,0,12,0,21,6,2,4,3,36,43,18,1,3,5,1,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,18,15,3,0,7,0,0,4,8,6,0,3,12,2,26,10,24,27,7,23,0,0,0,1,4,7,4,2,18,137,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604912190403098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578841637519807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559305956201457,0.0,0.0,0.2424607663765469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011919669375097,0.0,0.0,0.10970720806631286,0.0,0.0,0.09268942440681112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363910530423019,0.06939426038928792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11010350590716313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142139950346106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143740228049444,0.0,0.10881340797324526,0.15374149719720842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947613175307686,0.0,0.0,0.18345775068653186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904545099246353,0.0,0.2956756807830553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36798163576468695,0.10784527326085136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363085284786914,0.0718250381430466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602192961278505,0.0,0.0,0.1581994100694317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187412966636286,0.16367203775538958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271809507254942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305278209546563,0.0,0.11601294134229707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378649388771583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225214620189156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767951038427903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045140745790266,0.0,0.0,0.4296546889629486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148585578147541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274347585287203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833539313245992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moellevej,2019/09/16,"How do I count calories in chips/chrisps when c/s or licked? So.... my biggest weakness is chips/crisps- you know deep fried potato thins, in bags, seasoned to my liking. But I only lick the bastards. On occasions I chew, but spit. I lick the seasoning, but also a fair amount of grease. Gross I know, but how to count calories in my “binges”?",1.3209090909090904,3.8649970757575782,2.109318181818182,94.6339772727273,85.81818181818181,4.512121212121213,23.40151515151515,5.985473137389443,0.4300060606060612,261,10,53,2,8,81,47,66,0.136,0.7909999999999999,0.073,-0.6261,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,1,0,3,0,2,3,1,2,0,9,4,10,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,9,1,7,4,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,1,4,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4898896821588438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.673329196513859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992815575173217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659038975650603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiddiesout,2019/09/16,"Night shift is great🙏👌 Sunday: coke zero😡
Monday:coke zero😡
TueSday: 2monsters,large bag of chips, one muffin, handfull of small oven snacks, 2 cups of aiki noodles. One more muffin cuz oreo, small bag of chips from vending machine, ride home cant resist stopping at the gas station, one large beer and cheese oven snack for the road. Come home raid the ff fridge. 
Wednesday: coke zero 😡
Thursday:coke zero😡
Friday-sun: alcohol👌🤡

Endless loop",3.442852941176469,5.8331861529411775,3.6855147058823534,87.56356617647059,75.70588235294117,4.720588235294118,24.742647058823533,5.148860815047168,0.5750294117647061,353,12,62,1,8,109,61,85,0.0,0.9420000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.5013,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,7,3,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,19,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982838692844669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404286815349665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077199275271019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.559940478688795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26192596987275163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673967865337242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333485844952671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lolaecho,2019/09/16,"thoughts on recovery (after major milestone!) I weighed myself for the first time in months three days ago. I’ve finally gained the weight needed to put me just above underweight on the BMI scale, meaning I’m technically healthy!! I still have lots to go in terms of mental health but I’m so proud of myself for the physical aspect of recovery. I never thought I would be able to do it, I thought I would find it easier to die than to gain weight, so for months of recovery I only gained less than 1kg. In two months I managed to gain 4 times that! This might be really hard for people to read if the idea gaining weight is a terrifying as it was to me a few months back, but I just wanted to let everyone know that whilst it’s not my favourite thing in the world, I can think about it in a positive light and it doesn’t feel like the world is ending. 

The problem I’m having now is that my body dysmorphia is playing up, and even though if I were to lose 2lbs I would be underweight again, i see myself as relatively large in the mirror. I guess it’s just a big change from how small I was before. I’m trying to make sustainable healthy changes to my lifestyle to appreciate my body more to combat this. I got the go ahead from my psychologist/dietician to rejoin a gym, which I’ve been waiting for for ages. I have to put a lot of effort to not overdo it with the exercise but I’m doing well now and my progress has lead me to believe I can do even better. 

Sorry if this isn’t what people wanted to hear, at my lowest point i didn’t even consider recovery as an option. I just want everyone to remember that it always is. It’s so satisfying now to have a level of control over a disease that took so much away from me, including relationships I’ll never be able to mend. I love you guys and thank you for being a community I could turn to. If anyone has any questions, don’t hesitate to ask!",4.198569151056199,4.933570124352336,5.393264248704663,82.83817457154247,70.55440414507771,8.943642885611796,27.281387006775606,9.162432508145574,2.030774332403348,1492,48,312,29,26,497,199,386,0.07400000000000001,0.747,0.179,0.9928,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,14,21,9,0,0,21,0,35,9,2,4,2,50,64,20,1,13,13,0,5,1,0,4,2,1,0,1,21,5,4,2,11,4,0,6,8,2,1,3,10,8,38,7,61,43,8,48,0,1,1,1,8,18,0,10,25,220,59,3,0.18245207095178065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086637618536463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590736948127405,0.0,0.0,0.06203683239765765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06378736511571764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528402856038239,0.0,0.08570986330705255,0.07014719023384695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762663707498275,0.10278050244422636,0.0,0.08068201497328621,0.0,0.2026631199523018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930100987857177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231775589345612,0.07283656619743162,0.0,0.0,0.05883324594033289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467822209042943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807991901097629,0.0,0.0,0.18076180817578213,0.0,0.0,0.17434077260615505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046126624572281935,0.06517189797179981,0.0,0.09993366277045176,0.08337894372598349,0.07759681917295047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103691716531522,0.0,0.0729617942270086,0.0,0.10049576299087344,0.0903281176579976,0.0,0.0,0.08172060916691548,0.0,0.0,0.09696900978913277,0.10281837208763556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298308998107804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05013544333061334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328480202710086,0.0,0.044568432928479264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205859898136456,0.0,0.1551142261754033,0.08233505871921379,0.0,0.060894087061931626,0.0,0.0,0.09937189646195672,0.0,0.0,0.09193438716716353,0.09677640730907464,0.0,0.0,0.29126300467883914,0.0,0.06706163267695256,0.06764294938447438,0.14071828493140506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938151078201221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12648929313980306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623809038523596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729099560522371,0.0,0.18341472490667998,0.10219403779201032,0.0,0.09125072253667524,0.0,0.0584417343019977,0.0,0.0,0.09794262171038913,0.10334131474138228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269533919965558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212007792972964,0.0,0.0,0.07285322977252003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398867686179448,0.0,0.0,0.06060652438477366,0.05845395998708454,0.08962911667518123,0.2172698463624324,0.1063892698126712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135548205487104,0.061936489853889436,0.09922773038223334,0.08911458099854484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614224379262751,0.0,0.0,0.3332662043177632,0.08202316169925053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441307459774154,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hellbelleizzy,2019/09/16,"Is this simply insecurities or something else? I’m just looking for some opinions? I’m new to this community, sorry if I offend anyone.

So here are some habits of mine:

Binge one week, feel guilty and see my self, 20 pounds heavier in the mirror when my weight hasn’t changed.

Feel guilty and starve for a week, lose 5 pounds and feel great in my body, I feel soo much lighter.

Always clench my jaw and throat so my face looks better, I feel like my face is really fat

 Turn mirrors away from me so when I’m getting ready I can’t see them

Wear corsets and shape wear that are made for heavier bodies when I’m pretty average.

Always wear long shirts to hide my hip dips and love handles. 

I don’t eat breakfast or lunch and binge eating at dinner until midnight, because then I won’t feel as guilty

If I eat more calories one day and less the next I feel like my body looks wayyyyy different 

So self self conscious that people are looking at my butt and boobs and sexualizing me. 

Change outfits 5 times, 

spending an hour on makeup and taking it all off because I feel uglier",3.711945061043284,5.42924053301887,3.912208657047725,89.22546614872365,72.91509433962264,6.120310765815763,24.734739178690344,6.522977012572876,0.6953653718091002,851,26,172,6,17,263,128,212,0.115,0.787,0.098,-0.168,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,9,8,1,1,4,0,9,23,15,1,1,30,32,25,0,2,5,0,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,11,8,0,9,0,1,0,4,3,0,2,1,15,22,5,16,30,6,21,0,1,6,3,5,8,2,7,15,89,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883418638149628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093835528965604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531851212341996,0.0,0.0,0.12368971680201385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897270083703462,0.0,0.3380745163530217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21464782151315254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06542884622664343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599687967420854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311435498408719,0.08475103357249843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41038182107507504,0.14495620707448112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05300504910959181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118523833578212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991085165017184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991297045754481,0.0,0.0,0.08978278686744072,0.3407801560564689,0.1135000503903964,0.0,0.0,0.09156536937405317,0.09599736118839122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457969013944818,0.0,0.0,0.09798402079756936,0.10789650587803958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374944707966119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033479436570901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321425955032854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499344351562263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16168994567159306,0.0,0.3175130783692883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781035406731607,0.0,0.11356842153998135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628009323522347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059158109190488375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035182249135723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275908898477376,0.12354252478810103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lupinustexansis,2019/09/16,"my friend gave me a package of oreos it's even the halloween ones but I've paced myself this past week and I've planned it out, I can make them last until oct 1st if I just stick:) to:) the :) plan:) but of course thats the main issue right, I would be skinny if I could stick to my planned calorie intake and oreos are a binge food and why I haven't bought myself any since my summer binge phase and man just fuck those delicious devils",0.7695604395604398,2.9811343626373628,1.7040549450549491,99.05344505494509,84.49450549450547,4.07956043956044,15.693406593406591,4.935628992294339,-1.0526008791208792,341,6,77,1,10,106,65,91,0.102,0.782,0.11599999999999999,0.09,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,3,3,3,1,0,5,0,6,3,1,1,0,14,10,9,0,4,6,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,12,1,6,5,1,7,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,2,5,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20144722270107934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365163307743276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19565776663140025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35820367350757665,0.0,0.2288673181656773,0.2738607650353825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30918817699118456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414677838542662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19773647756404505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073377668065587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827859869880339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529796359653474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24504532552092725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376186215469375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673023811579326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043398693349752,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,julethelibra,2019/09/16,"i’m using my ed as a way to slowly kill myself (MAJOR tw) obviously, my ed didn’t start out as a slow suicide. it just kinda *happened*. i’ve been suicidal since i was 12 and i was always scared of the quick ways you can kill yourself.

with my ed, *i’m* playing god. i’m the one who gets to decide if i live or die. and honestly, that kinda control is better than any form of losing weight or calorie counting could ever dream of being.

(sorry if this post is an incoherent mess, i’m incredibly tired, depressed, and lowkey suicidal lmao)",0.3558333333333329,2.7926095833333378,2.9513333333333343,86.72700000000002,92.05555555555556,5.102222222222223,20.162962962962965,6.742157984588678,0.6326362962962961,417,14,81,6,15,144,79,108,0.31,0.604,0.086,-0.9873,1,0,0,0,0,2,20.0,0,1,0,3,3,9,2,1,5,0,9,2,0,2,2,18,17,9,6,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,6,0,1,4,1,8,3,10,11,2,8,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,6,4,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384736857823841,0.0,0.0,0.11317041935548687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718381187555973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665271733654756,0.1328717863629712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433361781671391,0.0,0.17271633130982336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053523729790905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694689947089856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716350240217774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682352581227202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695075663666068,0.0,0.0,0.1861799514765456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276961469689578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593831074552803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661414569355598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766326424591874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18629210417840197,0.11779200888921712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5461051245221157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19127380874930286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373231995309116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641908279123695,0.0,0.2026531370798825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PepperoniSlaps,2019/09/16,Welp. Just had a full relapse after 4 months of sticking with recovery. I hate how comforting it is. I hate that the R/B/P cycle is so fucking comforting. Ugh.,-0.12593749999999915,2.17686078125,2.7622500000000016,86.65775000000002,97.4375,6.3100000000000005,25.15,7.554174236665415,1.9885175000000008,123,6,24,3,5,43,28,32,0.289,0.565,0.145,-0.7463,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,3,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,3,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3981750296980912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8504537791469171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437804753904021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnhappyNarwhal,2019/09/16,"Told a friend he was offering bread and  after some hesitation I took a slice. and it just felt right to tell him why i hesitated and he took it soo sooo well, like i'm still a person, I'm still friend N that he goes to gay bars with, not just an ED victim to be pitied. And that's soo nice :) He said it was sad to hear but not with that look I sometimes get, that SAD OH NO HOW HORRIBLE HOW SHOULD I REACT LOOK when all i am is reduced to an ED victim and GOD I hate when people do that (I understand that reaction but it doesn't feel so great). 

I feel like he's the only of the 5 people I've mentioned it to that I actually feel comfortable talking about with. He's not shaming me or pitying me or showing his worry he just sees me. And he hasn't an ED history, he's just an understanding person.",0.9229069767441836,2.6417026279069797,3.2152906976744187,91.15747093023258,80.86046511627906,6.625581395348838,20.63372093023256,7.645422480735847,0.5726325581395346,620,17,145,10,16,213,94,172,0.2,0.6809999999999999,0.12,-0.9535,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,14,16,3,1,9,0,9,3,0,3,1,32,27,15,0,1,11,0,4,2,2,1,0,2,0,2,12,9,2,0,6,2,0,2,6,8,1,0,7,9,14,8,12,18,2,8,0,4,3,1,22,1,0,3,7,85,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.15394897294565404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23930143315360905,0.1127022894810889,0.15147234282665814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437667551218425,0.0,0.0824220019172978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392866359790576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575328515472806,0.0,0.0,0.17780464119687198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414510198237358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26495384069723044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998200690998972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187389561351869,0.2754962612585484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472440159965554,0.15006390800242425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571263715460074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560266166171401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519713571947116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679984023270338,0.13788737543359672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074445300885378,0.3505497072982644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284631164459989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14184331593324326,0.0,0.14235198501352248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021082538595674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3dgirlsareweird,2019/04/21,my meds made me gain so much weight and i just want to relapse my meds for my bipolar disorder have made me fat as fuck. i cannot stand it. everyone tells me i look healthy but i dont think im pretty unless im underweight. i don't know what to do. i want to relapse. but my meds make me hungry all the time. sigh.,-1.965038961038964,-0.12274882857142624,0.7146753246753264,101.27305194805193,101.57142857142858,4.259740259740259,16.363636363636363,6.1124844417494595,-0.5342857142857143,242,7,61,3,11,82,46,70,0.114,0.769,0.11800000000000001,-0.4102,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,5,4,1,3,1,13,14,6,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,2,14,0,6,12,2,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,35,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510087374521746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097369334747225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100162249791068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654433852384805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866097591310668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09835039762677134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15027928305799182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33866795019508106,0.1194555643233591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5963445351470605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315544014597642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18206418009873335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564167997593829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466878171751906,0.0,0.0,0.10435159534042628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21110761703703945,0.0,0.0,0.2179221028263576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hdiejdi,2019/04/21,"Someone called my dog chubby Today one of my family members told me my dog looked chubby. He honestly doesn’t and looks like a normal dog, but I was offended because in a weird way I feel like it reflects on me. 

In my screwed up mind, only chubby people have chubby dogs because they don’t walk them or always have food around. I know that isn’t the case, but it made me embarrassed anyway because I AM fat because of this stupid ED. 

How fucked up is this thought?!? He is a dog. HE IS A DOG. And he is in a normal weight range. Plus, WHO CARES. Am I crazy!?!? Yes I know.",0.9695480225988716,3.0155297118644064,2.645,93.613488700565,82.38983050847456,5.289265536723164,20.002824858757066,6.42735559955562,0.08370960451977405,438,12,96,4,12,144,72,118,0.21,0.675,0.115,-0.9431,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,0,3,10,4,1,6,1,12,5,1,2,0,17,22,7,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,4,5,15,4,10,18,0,10,0,0,2,2,9,7,2,1,3,57,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941363888572914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598521762601349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378480703753883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335738256605968,0.0,0.1830799236948683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692792314803344,0.0,0.0907941728709324,0.12828228004210168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713241719492707,0.0,0.0,0.1660062536620714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973700070590424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754541565274874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015811209075371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991008001395128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18131088668472367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518739148386879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167884744603427,0.13656834729185638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448874000807005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15214603749681366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14255567273198155,0.0,0.0,0.1702079616705717,0.17158340105344574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425314590840559,0.0,0.2186635133717636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cookiesncloudberries,2019/04/21,"im not hungry around my s/o i don’t want to eat. not that it makes me uncomfortable around him, i’ve eaten with him before just not much. i have no desire for food and it repulses me. 

he doesn’t eat with me either, only when i do. which is kind of putting me in my place with my eating disorder because i’m kind of watching the not eating. but still can’t eat. he says i suppress his appetite ahaha.",0.38045219638242855,2.366034848837213,2.6808527131782967,92.86169250645996,84.23255813953489,5.217571059431528,18.857881136950905,6.42735559955562,-0.05742739018087839,311,8,70,3,9,106,58,86,0.047,0.8959999999999999,0.057,-0.0531,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,6,7,0,1,0,17,10,3,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,6,7,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,0,1,2,14,2,10,9,2,7,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,2,47,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26838991601164497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189271737116927,0.0,0.12827284260154814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276676325813134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7712485450031554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822813820173347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283040513043573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139553193034704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062341922032646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081487717501363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464832108341913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749637977939485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154030256415074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987842819636292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038510526480847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891327235381148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nfiniteee,2019/04/21,"I can’t tell if my SO already knows about my ED... When he asked if I wanted to get lunch and I said no, he nodded in acceptance and went: “or you don’t want to eat.” as he walked away. Yes??? 😭 

He’s never brought it up, and I’ve been pretty good about hiding my second scale/baby food, etc. but whenever my weight dips dangerously low he always suggests we share a dessert/something sweet. I can’t tell 😑",0.4698692810457494,2.5105876470588235,2.3921568627450998,94.73359477124184,84.29411764705883,5.189542483660131,18.8562091503268,6.42735559955562,-0.12365359477124115,310,8,71,3,9,103,65,85,0.114,0.696,0.19,0.6747,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,0,4,6,1,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,1,13,12,10,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,2,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,4,3,10,4,8,8,1,9,0,1,0,0,13,4,0,3,2,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557683707585389,0.0,0.19285453377101552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166774013975548,0.0,0.2177593011141934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371626628967285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584892750051693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802620389744143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109234809165925,0.0,0.0,0.19440103348996346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737692815601862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787583960487386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23579748072018145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22047014827494305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17843094749013194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051613810643489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734126187324701,0.0,0.0,0.2822382898812557,0.0,0.2148568186439249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spookyblacksgirlfrnd,2019/04/21,Hiding in the bathroom once again I’m at a restaurant with my family and everyone is ordering so much food. I’m so stressed. Kept trying to find out how many calories were in each thing and I got so overwhelmed and anxious that I just got up and now I’m sitting in the bathroom trying not to cry.  It’s been like 5 minutes and I should probably go out but I don’t know what to do. This post is a total rant and I’m not really asking for help but fuckkkkkkkkk I don’t wanna be here. Also my old NA sponsor saw me and i was so awkward and Im not clean and FUCK!!!!!!!! I wanna go home so badly,-0.8123253676470591,1.308477234375001,1.912095588235296,94.76452205882352,93.0625,4.574264705882354,19.248161764705888,6.2272716619740125,0.028370772058823768,458,15,103,5,17,158,82,128,0.161,0.7709999999999999,0.068,-0.9157,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,11,6,1,3,4,0,10,2,0,1,1,27,23,18,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,13,1,1,2,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,7,1,10,1,14,14,3,15,0,1,1,1,2,7,1,0,4,71,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551952498058234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21924038629282866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142637776320047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16203777619180135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131734044286807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185439263390202,0.0,0.0,0.18294902537335092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737365362867058,0.0,0.23466649603372405,0.0,0.0,0.17941174500715687,0.0,0.0,0.22058541149991687,0.0,0.31042609654252035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13007896907042224,0.0,0.19466494902208545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096255810485202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665410668992208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481129685461807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19675340193884885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266151949953373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364059221397274,0.20667494146277368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858624690944309,0.0,0.20923696853532564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432424152083567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223030069006127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892944169682954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26351740637117005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chokedupbitch,2019/04/21,"weird things EDs make you do this is a pointless post but i’m curious 


i look at photos/gifs of ballerinas legs. their legs are so muscular and usually not at all thin and it makes me feel better about my own. (to clarify: not saying it makes me feel better in a mean way but in a soothing, I don’t need thin thighs to be pretty way). 


not that weird i guess, but i look at ideal measurements for my body to reassure myself that i have them. it isn’t a healthy behavior but it keeps me from spiraling so i guess it could be worse.


i sleep with my legs crossed or curled up normally, but spread away from each other because i get panicky if my thighs touch :,) 


if i feel like i’ve eaten too much i drink a lot of water. i know logically it doesn’t do anything but it feels like i’m flushing everything out. 


i dance and skip around like a moron when i’m in my house because i feel like that burns more calories than walking.",2.3559210526315795,3.989176210526317,3.6359868421052655,90.14503289473686,76.3684210526316,7.276315789473685,23.980263157894736,8.07648339933343,1.1833947368421054,720,23,158,12,16,235,111,190,0.07400000000000001,0.72,0.20600000000000002,0.9818,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,3,6,11,1,0,6,0,11,11,8,3,1,39,32,15,0,6,12,0,8,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,13,7,3,1,8,2,0,3,6,3,0,0,1,11,25,8,21,28,6,20,0,0,2,0,5,12,0,6,6,101,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351882699779485,0.12280229264936007,0.0,0.0,0.12960597560208,0.0,0.0,0.16818271772132667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440062522721105,0.0,0.1532282888252964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013964854552327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351357809280629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397808698301105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487513541763845,0.2956486135632179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720717408260603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30392888061544304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917259709625653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12261384773703385,0.0,0.0,0.07581219703768059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695762194863341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23168188218433056,0.0,0.0,0.11727781283003533,0.0,0.0,0.2762425673385798,0.0,0.0,0.15026498808242802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101407095907124,0.10228613264928099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515900901898706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13211532650930038,0.14034193890632324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970118431033993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380468666979014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916460185288092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519293989583737,0.0,0.0,0.2189922009156356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058002562567615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yaaviel,2019/04/21,"I'm starting to slip. I just need to vent.

I am now living in Japan and I don't know enough Japanese to tell what has animal products in it. Currently working on that btw. I would play it safe and make more things from scratch but my things (blender, mixer, etc.) are still being shipped here. I am living in a hotel at the moment and I am pretty limited. I have already accidently eaten some things with milk, eggs, and pork fat.. Now I am internally freaking out and starting to just restrict instead of take a chance on anything.

I don't want being vegan to turn into it's own ED.. thing. It is staring to feel that way. There is a vegan food festival coming up and I plan to go.. and probably just watch other people eat because I've grown very suspicious of other people preparing food and lying about it being plant-based. It's pretty ridiculous, you guys.

Being vegan has actually helped me.. until now anyway. I have never cared for animal products but eggs and chicken were ""safe foods"".. I overcame that and decided to eat vegan again since that's just where I am emotionally, spiritually, and so on. I love Japan but man do they need to stop putting animal products in everything.

I am going out with my husband and other family tonight and I 'already ate' because I have no freaking idea what I could eat at this place. Watching everyone eat without a care and actually enjoy their food is going to be torture. I am kinda starving right now and I really just want to cry.",3.369073672806067,5.631016373239441,4.957323943661971,78.97624593716144,75.40845070422534,7.8903575297941515,26.76814734561213,8.730908602173464,2.3148595882990253,1166,45,208,25,26,392,159,284,0.16699999999999998,0.726,0.107,-0.9496,1,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,2,3,18,12,2,0,5,0,27,15,1,1,1,49,48,20,0,6,9,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,20,21,14,5,4,2,0,6,5,4,0,0,3,5,26,8,33,38,5,37,0,0,3,1,9,16,0,2,14,153,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.18957065526630928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143717782378244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993010088569158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184196661489161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980619754603719,0.0,0.0,0.08366929951950433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775507768410019,0.0,0.10669326057047986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3975548784707739,0.0,0.1092587055212429,0.0,0.10036174028209437,0.10832614950379707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281232666858298,0.08729460356703314,0.0,0.09156596287228072,0.0,0.04911208415478336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4698022002433063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560445368606722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617443628486357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510450672289733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964847804427416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05338036621630569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17153596932030013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876640415422232,0.0,0.06483534305936188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404202576940084,0.07491300648758976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134676076278385,0.0,0.10148066814590878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976332143652944,0.10472307492929103,0.0,0.0,0.09764295012230588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222426634954634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294889080105776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034732863134204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749889340791913,0.0,0.07756851893485008,0.08120542226467851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303002552089509,0.0,0.08489631211481374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581166737010761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056500598127185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014281020415986,0.1145801357230234,0.07709764615831705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363030712114187,0.0,0.07071213909163386,0.0,0.0,0.06899869918924575,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elephants78,2019/04/21,"My greatest fear is that I am the type of girl Who you would see and go “oh god well she got fat in recovery, why would you want to recover if it meant looking like her” 

Ya know? What if I’m actually a giant whale and recovery has done me no favors?",-0.8261904761904759,1.2699447407407405,2.0593121693121685,94.03833333333333,92.33333333333331,6.048677248677249,18.825396825396822,7.447530270364453,0.5037174603174606,192,6,46,4,7,67,48,54,0.086,0.6829999999999999,0.231,0.7998,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,6,1,1,0,0,9,14,4,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,2,8,3,3,9,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,2,1,30,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.3070858238621986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32203060369350583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3541065648279021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788419556954261,0.0,0.25168124141601456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294189034238544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15373852365124238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642549894915022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25076210650744724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560855490697067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829383704175973,0.0,0.2839530252126372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470844362738287,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pisces_Problems,2019/06/05,"Quick s/o to the Recovery Record app I actually think I read about it on this sub. I was finding MFP to be super triggering and it was really exacerbating my binge/restrict cycle and I was getting obsessive about counting again. RR is more like a food diary (no cals) and you can track your mood/feelings about the food entries, take pics of the food if you’re more visual, etc. 

Anyway this isn’t #sponsored but I thought I’d share if anyone is looking for a middle ground between obsessively tracking their cals and still recording their food.",5.864618585298196,7.077876349514567,6.072843273231622,77.73106796116505,67.05825242718447,8.604160887656034,32.190013869625524,8.841846274778883,2.690568377253814,436,18,78,7,7,139,75,103,0.032,0.893,0.075,0.6245,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,2,1,7,5,0,2,5,0,8,4,0,1,0,11,13,7,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,10,3,9,8,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,4,51,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.1723940845469263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12352435540964672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19702192145684352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932429733031769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16146348512444658,0.0,0.854468958977855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229724171056043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630685621080675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834939766150815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670719995345774,0.0,0.11317253104247288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108041977962132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282587831357118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11319620610519185,0.0,0.1402478253239493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brookenerd,2019/06/05,"Eating riced cauliflower while watching ALR eat a bunch of Japanese snacks: AMA. I’m on my period, hangry af, just wanting some chocolate but refusing it because I know it’ll snowball into a never-ending binge phase. Also watching Amberlynn Reid continue to put snacks down her gob. I’m living vicariously through her",5.9537499999999985,8.751785446428574,6.688714285714287,67.05628571428575,69.53571428571428,9.48,34.41428571428571,9.888512548439397,4.266747142857144,259,13,37,7,5,85,48,56,0.069,0.9309999999999999,0.0,-0.5499,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,6,4,2,7,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,3,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662882426663085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298476237044716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6814542310406662,0.0,0.0,0.29492616108338143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18300002531738996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940321409678635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568188091531511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347422209888927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19640337098116675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nicegucci,2019/06/05,"Got diagnosed and feel like a fraud Got diagnosed with atypical bulimia on Monday, but I feel like a fake... Yes, I abuse laxatives, over exercise at times, and sometimes purge, but I just don’t feel sick enough to “actually” have an eating disorder. Maybe if I was thinner or able to restrict like I did before, I would feel different, but now I just feel like an attention-whore 🙃

I can’t figure out if this is my ed trying to trick me into thinking I’m fine or if I’m actually fine???",5.056323024054984,5.342905783505156,6.651082474226808,76.1722250859107,68.48453608247422,11.00274914089347,31.630584192439862,10.864195022040775,3.466004810996564,379,15,76,11,6,131,64,97,0.19699999999999998,0.624,0.179,-0.6111,1,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,1,0,4,1,7,5,0,0,0,24,17,10,0,4,10,0,5,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,7,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,5,10,6,9,12,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,7,45,11,0,0.16519646298854718,0.19573079551589606,0.3224158360010978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14057002270883373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353418651502953,0.0,0.17259514354819036,0.18932945853524036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690372229794805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706921060652537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176414764267282,0.35404915850049645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26424540487206544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228265896821915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596205098576935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633835259582942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585122314224067,0.0,0.0,0.0963273860433864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215755458859833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173508275889922,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toleodo,2019/06/05,"can we discuss steph buttermore’s new video? the tldr of her new video is that she has decided to eat 2500+ minimum calories daily, not in the freelee delusional way but to intentionally gain weight in hopes metabolism will gradually rise and her weight will plateau and it will put her appetite under control so she can feel full more easily. whether or not she considers her trying to maintain a low weight while never feeling full and being so food focused as disordered, i actually think this is a big deal and i hope it works for her and the weight gain doesn’t scare her into severe restriction, maybe being so public will keep her on track but my brain already was putting myself in her shoes like “after gaining too much i would restrict and lie to everyone that my weight plateaued and i have lower appetite already”. i really do hope this works out for her.",10.493280423280424,8.327496864197531,9.460405643738977,68.45611111111111,58.7530864197531,12.713932980599651,41.04409171075838,11.20814326018867,4.5057202821869495,700,29,123,14,7,220,107,162,0.10800000000000001,0.71,0.182,0.9528,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,6,4,6,0,1,5,0,16,9,2,2,1,30,23,16,0,4,6,0,7,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,10,7,4,4,2,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,7,21,4,16,15,4,20,0,1,0,0,16,11,0,4,6,87,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.1098891343181523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485313889927145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257077356317922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629941302245692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609387193512125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905848892168706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522606538902355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760174054720098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387594572056173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13616600368072693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33553536645011595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000911372979922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550145658399617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312984088305855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277981440725114,0.0,0.08685020812453129,0.2175149572580148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22640422371568705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213954874110727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274022206915847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721495292887106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215463993262905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645341949605734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938296470414077,0.0,0.6856308503186478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16395988587259802,0.0,0.0,0.07999347063851535,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,supraorbitaltorus,2019/06/05,"As if by magic (positive post) TLDR: ate more food, got more energy, don’t feel as depressed. 

So I’ve been restricting forever now and have reduced my binges to a few times a month. Recently, I’ve been fatigued, my muscles have felt weak, my hair has fallen out and is thin and coarse. 

I went to my GP today and told her all of this and she said I looked far too pale. She told me to up my calories to 1,500 a day. I was like sure ok of course haha whatever you say (scared of triggering a binge)

Except this time I went home and actually did it. I ate 500 extra calories and as if by magic, ENERGY! 

Instead of lying on my bed, feeling depressed and tired like every evening, I did laundry, cleaned the kitchen, listened to music and DANCED. I feel SO good. I know it’s stupid to make a post about food equalling energy but I have been too scared to try it until now. 

I just hope I can continue to do this without my brain thinking it’s bingeing time. 

I just want my period and hair back.

Thank you for reading ♥️♥️",1.553277511961724,3.5368849377990443,3.221385167464117,90.57944617224881,80.00478468899522,6.4766507177033485,23.36866028708134,7.554174236665415,0.9989864114832528,788,27,170,12,20,261,125,209,0.10400000000000001,0.769,0.127,0.4181,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,0,12,15,1,2,6,2,14,11,3,2,2,31,34,19,0,4,7,0,7,2,0,0,3,3,4,0,7,11,5,1,6,2,0,4,2,7,0,0,15,11,26,8,25,19,6,24,0,3,1,0,10,5,0,3,15,108,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.13770970138633545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085101565899458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753308862809842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100870196508523,0.0,0.24308749367277324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320635673478296,0.0,0.11889704292350604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21405877720625546,0.0,0.13549431801868067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412781404129428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836212896792934,0.11286404616155248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415517189899368,0.14016088549944825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775541370705713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378851417972914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850262325705338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419660146706382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126381332637794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703018918217868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115505066406292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13933587719136015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342344516138828,0.11222179302598924,0.2825651946701769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300097279736367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299214472835468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042198740043704,0.0,0.0,0.2468591319562076,0.1621930742422049,0.1337622852286086,0.2696864189775908,0.0,0.0958090864405612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323438167714961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616334905368103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603161962224675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whitetrashing11,2019/06/05,I fucked up While I was at work I wrote myself a mean fucked up note (meanspo) to keep myself from eating. I forgot the note at work. On a desk. Where someone is going to find it tomorrow. And only I use that desk. The note is in my hand writing. I fucked up big time. I keep my private life very secret and certainly never talked to anyone at work about my mental health. How do I fix this? Is it possible?,-0.11753246753247025,2.1641178095238125,1.997705627705628,94.34123376623378,91.14285714285714,4.483116883116884,15.96969696969697,6.1124844417494595,-0.4345095238095236,312,7,67,3,11,104,54,84,0.153,0.78,0.066,-0.8656,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,3,0,4,0,5,7,1,2,2,14,15,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,1,3,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,1,13,1,13,12,0,15,0,0,0,3,4,10,3,0,4,45,17,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280083995398967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943419541811588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358913855745126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5267512332143907,0.0,0.0,0.10793945655754958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018827071182841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33763032961393585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341505170080743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20688534937959047,0.0,0.0,0.1914009743827188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14648282149508876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14444746059682653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21411329372598947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16092388311119868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265551391749835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074751533931124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16403528739764664,0.0,0.1567090350751778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41480568463681816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peekapikaboo,2019/06/05,Ate App Does anyone use it? It’s a picture log of food but has “mindful” aspects to it because you can also log how you feel.,-1.3083333333333336,0.7220321481481484,1.4647222222222247,96.58375000000002,97.88888888888887,2.7,21.564814814814817,3.1291,-0.3682518518518516,96,4,21,0,4,33,23,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33352254763576217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916178885220163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542357649709215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.364971815512726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21087795111170232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504310329728844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4211114776349404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36020573492288915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nococonuts,2019/06/05,"a rant from a girl with no one to talk to I can’t stop restricting. Most days I don’t even feel hungry. I do it all day until I feel dizzy and by dizzy I mean I need to stand up and get that black out blurred vision. Then I *try* to eat something small. Last night I feel like I binged, I had a bowl of cereal (with REAL MILK ugh bc I’m living at my parents house), a packet of fun dip??? (Yes eat straight sugar dumbass) and a protein bar and I feel so much bigger than yesterday. When I get an appetite if I don’t eat something right then it’ll go away before the food is ready. I have no one to tell these things to. I just wish I had friends.",-0.5888563829787223,1.35870104964539,1.4880097517730488,100.09031250000002,88.14893617021276,4.6597517730496465,16.61391843971631,5.985473137389443,-0.6933230496453904,492,11,123,4,16,163,94,141,0.13699999999999998,0.731,0.132,0.327,1,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,7,1,9,7,0,0,1,22,20,10,0,3,2,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,7,7,2,5,1,0,1,5,1,0,2,2,6,17,3,18,17,3,20,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,3,11,73,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010838842357768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595179061624754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060757862182866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4904512221455474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552602569824214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32313635844498684,0.11413912235521825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193193506736568,0.0,0.12343725942521855,0.0,0.16694558743953553,0.0,0.09080049752068887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18435216370479646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302331923899898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805514305268815,0.0,0.1410790985111709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403545702856754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744871847628965,0.11846681033600005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14993253692082695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165274401441377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740474870363332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18185228602799425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644199269791152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459962154139184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335741747076719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841640170381055,0.13964529104349788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614353298827456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084727745192379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18372665322050155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,magnusu2009,2019/06/05,"I’m About to Square Up Trigger Warning: Discussion of Struggling With ED

This one girl added me to her private snap and had a rant about her EDs growing up. She then proceeded to state in her story to contact her if you had struggled with EDs and would like to talk. I knew her well and proceeded to message her saying I sympathized with her problem and was happy that she was recovering. 

This girl went off on me saying how I don’t understand her situation and that I was ignorant. I was a bit hurt by her words, but told her my experiences. I explained how I went from 220 to 145 in a few months due to ED and being pressured by my wrestling coach to make weight so that my matches would be easier. I then told her how it’s incredibly common to have an ED in wrestling and that it’s often expected.

I would think that after explaining my story she would sympathetic to my experiences, but she continued to go off on me about how I’m a man and it’s a totally different situation. She continued saying how what I had wasn’t a real ED. I understand that our situations are different and I won’t fully understand her’s because I did not live her life, but dismissing my problem in that manner made me irate. 

I was personally hurt since this is a personal issue that I have struggled with. This had been my first time discussing this subject with someone making me more emotionally vulnerable. To be immediately shutdown by someone I had thought as a friend left me broken and furious. 

What hurts more is that I know for a fact others in the sport are silently suffering and have had this same situation happen to them. Its saddening for this problem to be accepted and promoted.

Apologies for the long rant. I have just fully processed this situation and was unaware where to share this story. Thank you for taking the time to read my post. 

TL/DR: Opened up to someone I felt close to about my ED and was dismissed.",6.843280566280569,6.818004916216212,7.450617760617764,73.02680180180181,64.70270270270271,11.047619047619053,35.45688545688546,10.712014347399686,3.8006885456885455,1529,66,285,37,21,507,173,370,0.16399999999999998,0.7559999999999999,0.08,-0.9863,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,2,1,2,14,20,1,4,13,0,34,2,0,9,2,62,57,27,0,9,6,0,2,1,1,5,1,3,0,5,25,21,1,1,11,3,0,4,4,13,1,2,24,6,56,7,51,24,6,36,0,4,1,0,42,16,0,2,15,217,81,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05248556153612295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09399854333845904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991166588836802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968505434693766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844400292759756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826691883489309,0.0,0.0,0.0732363379026855,0.0,0.0,0.06652039381023125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04893242835564077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613765651959141,0.09165470296661782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765144422311876,0.0,0.0,0.0898656892550835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731812860109697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354754668079802,0.0,0.06081474533707607,0.04206395118423992,0.0,0.0760275887123122,0.07619550124055179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146959243222546,0.1149444006565096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872393758070024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05834336672807985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035782695638714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245968662319418,0.0,0.0,0.2471572772496257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612297283301182,0.09800027753533846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054097473646352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712225392670894,0.4838981996519647,0.0,0.0,0.21885592068508936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700302175098715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473623888858858,0.06920365579086336,0.0,0.07926901107815038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0551691939307801,0.0,0.06835352296592784,0.1004108234881982,0.0,0.0,0.16454385461782509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26889838830404844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484620637417937,0.07741394621684354,0.15963051900518654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446509496255824,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,navytuesday,2019/06/05,"oops how'd this happen again :/ \>december 2018: my eating disorder is long behind me, i just want to lose 10lb in a healthy, sustainable, body positive manner !!!

\>???

\>june 2019: anxious insomniac exhausted mess, severely underweight, haven't eaten anything other than the same 5 safe foods in a month, every aspect of life is a complete train wreck, haven't taken a shit in about a week, had a meltdown over the possibility that a barista got my order wrong

ha ha hate it when this happens",4.971333333333334,7.505891633333331,5.317500000000003,76.97625000000005,71.55555555555556,8.5,30.13888888888889,9.188382445141503,2.9928888888888894,397,17,66,9,8,126,75,90,0.265,0.568,0.16699999999999998,-0.8932,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,2,0,9,2,5,7,2,0,0,4,12,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,4,0,4,3,9,8,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380598807267124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17340916529041975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23406857141494386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209417205518904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24150972642850316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21562483616573344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754535683834916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25481016066870155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853646530860122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726878000073621,0.0,0.0,0.20804784512656116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488416815262158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18648547266813004,0.0,0.23574797891003574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819911641359706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375613854203386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380598807267124,0.2163067396629641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242913838117607,0.0,0.16903131824796833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303952988699402,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Orion--,2019/06/05,"I wouldn't eat any food at all if it wasn't for the fact that I'm a man and expected to be muscular If I eat even one meal a day I don't lose any weight, but if I don't eat at all I'll lose all the muscle mass I've been working hard to build. It's so much easier to just not eat rather than having to count calories and track macros, plus I'm much less hungry when I don't eat at all rather than just a little. 

Being a man sucks when it comes to physique. You can't just be skinny, otherwise you're a manlet, you can't be fat because duh, you have to have muscle mass but at the same time no fat. If you eat too little you lose muscle mass, if you eat too much you gain fat, if you eat the wrong macros you're wasting your time spent at the gym.

I just wish I could stop eating and watch my body improve by itself but no, fuck me.",6.4780347593582865,3.1827564491978606,6.903790106951875,87.19921457219253,67.3957219251337,10.205614973262033,28.187834224598927,7.1686216300943375,1.1686475935828873,644,9,166,4,8,212,93,187,0.13,0.7490000000000001,0.121,-0.1984,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,9,0,5,12,6,2,0,10,1,16,19,6,0,5,32,23,16,0,12,16,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,5,16,1,0,1,1,1,10,6,0,1,3,3,18,0,16,14,9,17,0,3,1,1,11,10,2,6,6,102,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373915203924585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05546061391681052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105836179617968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783712852476013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264019285308387,0.0,0.0,0.05867462669360975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8378580394787128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060091486515024564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001347703597038,0.0,0.0,0.08410962034602379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150028371553789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237188821534234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053503219341752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006424870782121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061650458564417365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606342288635352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610243563299283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107892304507129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462260500571732,0.0,0.0,0.06623458371283047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947243804919836,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rani-jhansi,2019/06/05,"Do you guys hide your ED from your SO? If so how? Do you live with them and how long have you been seeing each other? 

I had BED when I met my bf so it was pretty easy to just say i had a big appetite and ate like shit.. Now that we live together and im more restricting it’s hard to hide especially since i first told him i wanted to lose the weight i gained these last few years and now i’ve done that but want to keep restricting :)))

I’m almost uw and still weigh my food and obsess over it everyday so i think he’s starting to suspect things. He asks what i have eaten and suddenly wants to cook for me . i joked that i need to starve for two days to be able to eat his unhealthy food and he was took it seriously and asked why.. I just want this to be secret but it’s so hard!!!",-0.028836601307190787,1.888015188235297,1.8368627450980384,98.71477124183008,85.35294117647058,5.424836601307192,15.915032679738562,6.691623216298621,-0.5644183006535948,602,11,151,7,18,198,106,170,0.17300000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.076,-0.9538,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,5,1,3,13,6,1,1,2,0,12,9,1,2,0,31,29,20,0,6,5,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,13,12,8,3,3,2,0,1,0,4,0,2,11,5,23,2,15,16,3,15,0,1,1,0,20,2,1,2,13,95,36,0,0.14949444112750393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969708836191484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795142443761233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964115471606952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298471663478475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15297013460157827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715989525378418,0.3615385432258976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14802300019878162,0.0,0.0,0.26783531109901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147964979259938,0.0,0.0,0.1328775281287826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185792227618066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303543267900216,0.0,0.2640126607614252,0.1322978760821254,0.0,0.16724604042458235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084823385885872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208959084839474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888397985209972,0.0,0.0,0.11912771446808045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345389552453834,0.12366334653359998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581293487371304,0.0,0.11938645379426667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931746397087143,0.09579000155353837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284834494086093,0.16609382470650244,0.0,0.0,0.14603434658968584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527027785776551,0.0,0.0,0.18204395525637565,0.0,0.0,0.13489548074471167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626951871833098
EDAnonymous,goodgutenguy,2019/06/05,"I’m new here, could use some help Hi, I’m 25, I’m a girl, and suffer from bulimia but I’m a weird way. I always ate a ton of stuff when I was a teen, sugary stuff mostly, but since I was always still thin, it never concern me.
Then at 18 I realized it had some impact on me so I just slowly changed my habits with fruits. I was eating between 6 and 15 fruits per day, was pretty known to be a fruit eater, all my friends found it quite funny, but I started to feel like it wasn’t normal. My stomach was a bit messed up so at 22 I just stopped fruits (it’s good sugar but it’s still sugar, and it wasn’t healthy) and every dinner or lunch I ate a ton of vegetables. 
Problems started. I had some crisis, sometimes I would buy a ton of chocolate ice cream, yoghurts, cookies, then throw up everything.
Sometimes I was having dinner w my friends in a restaurant, and instead of going out with them, I would go home to eat again. 
Now it’s better, but still, from time to time, I eat a ton of sugary things and force myself to vomit. I’ll say 2 or 3 times a month. My bf realized I suffered from bulimia (I was eating a lot compared to him) but doesn’t know I sometimes force myself to vomit.
Anyway, Im seeing a shrink but not really because of that, and I don’t know what to with that issue cause I just CANT be around food. I live alone so I have nothing in my fridge most of the time, sometimes I even throw food away not to be tempted, but I’m afraid it’s going to be very very problematic in the future. 
Do you have any advices ? What made you suffer from bulimia ? 
To me it’s pretty obvious, mom died when I was 10 then I lived w/ my aunt who hated me, so I’m pretty sure it’s a compensation thing.",1.209421794547147,2.951576002785515,3.1151228159027617,92.10500801890775,80.05849582172702,5.577141892462226,20.906643031991226,6.42735559955562,0.1868302692664812,1311,36,291,11,33,440,177,359,0.127,0.759,0.114,-0.684,0,1,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,1,2,19,14,1,1,16,0,26,21,1,3,4,53,47,26,1,5,15,2,2,1,3,2,2,1,1,1,20,12,18,1,7,0,1,5,8,8,0,0,16,11,41,6,37,24,12,40,0,3,2,0,14,12,0,8,23,192,61,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932937487231997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467804727832038,0.0,0.0,0.15212868656655149,0.0,0.0,0.06216512241102722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137845313391229,0.0,0.0,0.08588710832560997,0.0,0.0,0.05572554516998384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084886257622731,0.09980116282293884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390806565060998,0.09670461848106572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298718968496506,0.0,0.0,0.0589549110482462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09487401336326444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741601890670982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06037853910429725,0.0,0.0770208171098185,0.0,0.08215762689371614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04622201282881218,0.06530667119182063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210780065677105,0.10023148671843367,0.14125352197845528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585922109640915,0.07667430294151856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025307850868887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061273338257752524,0.0,0.09169638530807334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987435496057026,0.09541318372614306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047824337002656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04466059889884353,0.0,0.16144168815025564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771749850214622,0.0,0.0864987878606874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107063777447464,0.0729663316124893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050464272705917,0.08828887506681862,0.0,0.0,0.08956698481585702,0.08771485836080148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790048048358677,0.0,0.08747151035042308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972307728750366,0.0,0.0,0.05856258977744954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269662881314448,0.0,0.0,0.07284567063466581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561917435745734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616458545963293,0.0,0.12940757299197847,0.0,0.21901166315924286,0.0764267722350672,0.0,0.0,0.20929589339528504,0.0,0.0,0.08615726135295226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146371314176307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21321855825037986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895293942702562,0.0,0.1508533822233624,0.0,0.07256072412992616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12987674271958366,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pootties,2019/06/05,"Is there an evolutionary biology or anthropological reason why men find extreme thinness very attractive? I always wondered because to me it seems backwards. Wouldn't you want your partner to be an average to chubby weight so she won't die in a famine and have healthy babies? The amount of positive attention I got when I was at my lowest weight was undeniable, it was such a big difference. And it seems to be like that for much of history.  I'm just scratching my head as to how that preference came to be from an evolutionary perspective. It's interesting and confusing. 🤔",5.165115303983232,7.536224735849061,6.369371069182392,70.37489517819708,70.50943396226415,10.37148846960168,33.47589098532495,10.504223727775694,4.209621802935009,466,23,79,15,9,156,79,106,0.051,0.782,0.166,0.9292,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,6,4,0,1,6,0,10,3,1,2,0,17,17,8,1,3,2,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,6,4,2,0,7,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,4,9,3,13,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,5,2,55,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18084102540098174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248605449781534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485745715938721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255605336211655,0.22706994146641826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19864123580224124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738235137546517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22304951511344634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617942851107996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976702263876866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22345768307775588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957092014652318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793250237163176,0.1281904484233044,0.0,0.0,0.529313579012336,0.0,0.0,0.19611200384274305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356917031454507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,4792927659286,2019/06/05,Trying to stay healthy but struggling I’ve been in recovery and it’s been rough. Today I found out my ex is talking to a girl he’s interested in and she’s way skinnier than me. Apparently when they knew each other before I met my ex she was in with a stress related ED and he was always super concerned about her (just found that out) but when I was with my ex I was skinner than her but he never even noticed?? I know this is all dumb and I don’t want to go back to how I was but I’m having a rough time now I almost want to go back to being unhealthily underweight just to make him worry about me instead of her,-0.3490106951871681,1.8590779848484864,2.0988413547237066,93.84473262032087,91.12121212121212,4.924064171122995,18.370766488413548,6.522977012572876,0.002955793226381953,482,14,108,6,17,164,78,132,0.11800000000000001,0.7809999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.6608,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,12,5,1,2,3,0,12,0,0,2,2,26,23,11,0,2,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,9,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,11,2,20,2,19,11,2,17,0,0,0,0,16,5,1,1,8,79,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20925504050761345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388125199094964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213727822439593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17781958372006176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380238824088824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582535166210385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23752694388967874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484541902876695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394902783422978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611719107716418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379157437932859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227361009237738,0.0,0.0,0.23937645507716904,0.218462665347472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796359202252995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185311887269287,0.0,0.19808080236062944,0.0,0.0,0.14187811372354098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465139269775941,0.16587206320961634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21222097491081288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,horiblehumor,2019/06/05,"oh no my scale just broke and shows a different number by like 4 kg every time i step on it

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EDAnonymous,lalaloolee,2019/06/05,"Talking to SO about my ED? Hi all! I got into a new relationship about two months ago with a really great, supportive guy. He knows I have an eating disorder, but definitely does not understand the severity of it. 

As I’m in recovery I try to be really open about my disorder to keep myself more honest. Today in discussing some struggles I was having with my bf, he said he didn’t view me any differently and just thought of me as a picky eater. But I’m not a picky eater, I have a severe eating disorder. I know this stems from his lack of experience with EDs and not a lack of compassion, but I’m really struggling with how to explain it to him. 

Do you guys have any experience telling SOs, or advice for me to go forward?",5.108245210727965,5.4360904758620725,6.72505747126437,75.54291187739466,68.3793103448276,10.85823754789272,30.59386973180077,10.746095033038511,3.2614674329501923,569,21,114,16,9,197,91,145,0.18600000000000005,0.732,0.081,-0.9488,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,2,8,0,8,2,0,1,1,27,21,10,0,2,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,8,2,1,5,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,5,2,16,3,24,15,5,10,0,0,1,0,16,5,0,2,5,77,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953849395472658,0.11750861541034945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18029402635237649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384995479463924,0.4557841642759414,0.0,0.11600629513988225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712889654654139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593430297535965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533829642131783,0.0,0.10602230274073153,0.14615057140737944,0.0,0.2625153380011467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782759828756448,0.0,0.0,0.14570571371369653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581008453258353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802964227007654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547687037786474,0.0,0.0,0.1423224634236844,0.0,0.0,0.12609724842641062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995156769024968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27716611462122515,0.0,0.0,0.15043029968694382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654867760737027,0.11586542604658215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523977958381443,0.0,0.0,0.12565370445340895,0.0,0.0,0.09000120333604003,0.0,0.12949425360682404,0.1380021876837136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wishuponastarrr,2019/09/02,Losing weight=pretty? A large part of my motivation to loose weight is that somehow it will make me like pretty. I’m not only talking about body wise but that my face will somehow look better. Have any of y’all seen dramatic changes in your face due to weightloss. My BMI is already 20 so I feel like I won’t see as much of a difference in my face but I’m still kinda hopeful. Please comment any changes u saw in losing weight whether it was how people treated you or facial wise.,3.1024489795918377,4.763325520408166,3.877295918367349,89.08288265306123,74.40816326530611,6.124489795918367,26.535714285714285,6.6274283507984215,1.0157510204081641,383,14,78,3,8,122,69,98,0.064,0.6990000000000001,0.237,0.9555,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,4,6,9,0,0,2,0,7,7,5,3,0,13,16,7,0,1,5,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,7,10,7,10,10,2,5,0,2,4,0,5,3,0,5,4,45,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848670526461607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20765592277196696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503347626604478,0.0,0.16959359286665504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230314042369612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951860421652458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771998377392569,0.10907496473534938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164616596200614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491839397430827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282131488349005,0.341620803790259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019154053445784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223771973771084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161203843581149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533808019954416,0.0,0.10584941990329354,0.0,0.0,0.1675973169019033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31066187361960074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166657418904253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193082778918606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271878562103924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5577710733416573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,helpmeindisguise,2019/09/02,"Triggered when I really don't want to be :( So.. Within the past year I have lost 50 pounds. To a lot, that really isn't much, but I am a short lady so I don't carry weight well at all. 

Well, I'm loving my body now but there is something happening that I notice..
My friends are more comfortable with their bodies than I was. Or maybe not, but either way lets just say they remind me of my former self. 

When she breaths heavy just by talking too fast freaks me out. 
When she complains about being fat and feeling bad about it, but countering it with , ""I'll feel better after I shove a whole pie down my face"" freaks me out. 
Her food tattoo freaks me out. 

I love my friends but I feel awful that this is low key triggering me . this is not her fault and not her at all, I realize the issues fall on me. I do not like these new emotions, but don't regret losing weight. 

What makes me feel the worst is when they compliment me, but it feels like a stab because they say them with such contempt. 
Ex. : friend : ""ugh. You're so tiny, you're so lucky. I'm a giant beast who will never get there""
""Ugh. you make me feel like such a giant"" 
I'm sorry girl, I really am ! Nothing I can do about it though. Nothing I'd want to do about it, nothing to complain about on my end. 


TDLR: I feel bad that some friends trigger me over things I used to struggle with and feel bad about changing first in the group .",1.1223631540872887,3.19713113986014,2.2841789245237543,96.25157342657343,82.00699300699301,5.2035688449481565,18.603327706775985,6.311591054244273,-0.2388942367976852,1070,25,241,9,29,340,154,286,0.193,0.629,0.17800000000000002,0.3324,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,5,4,25,33,1,1,10,1,21,10,5,6,3,49,42,20,0,3,15,1,10,3,4,1,1,2,0,2,15,10,4,0,9,0,0,1,9,18,2,1,2,12,42,15,30,36,9,31,0,4,0,2,27,15,0,4,17,163,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521510136960933,0.06136391500413976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902923634350199,0.0,0.22363029493399472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648929446770633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11323358926948388,0.08915853421642225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071904413525989,0.14382893906174934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562485153525183,0.1217234570153024,0.0,0.3110914066531269,0.0,0.05259284946957351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901695145372579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050671909729315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293588589324852,0.0,0.147538217158912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261740466703808,0.10988678147375057,0.08558103752727167,0.18170660225816213,0.0,0.13438816744359958,0.0,0.1011306416553523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399971291190904,0.0,0.07763837734567207,0.09722203719829382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897698226172746,0.11460677114680835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609529571432418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934640443927716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010430182314853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501463423965923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774961598313268,0.0,0.11268524412079932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523599780497617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091000891747296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687677030868358,0.0,0.09890198967361033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694148167682071,0.0,0.0,0.11874861563667333,0.07990249524819341,0.0,0.2451635652987583,0.18101827156849515,0.0,0.0,0.11238789832207753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482439476043787
EDAnonymous,BingeTooOften,2019/09/02,"Not sure where to go for this...      (TW: Numbers - also sorry if this is the wrong place to post this)

     For a some backstory, I’m 16 and weighed 260lbs at the beginning of June last year. Up until probably late December, I was eating pretty healthily and had lost around 50lbs. After the loss of my father I began to binge and restrict, which caused my weight loss to slow. I probably lost another 20lbs in around 7 months, which put me at about 190 in July.

     Since mid July I’ve been back on track and haven’t binged at all. I have two set times a day I eat (12pm and 5pm) and eat around 1000 calories a day (I feel guilty eating this much, but because I live with my parents it’s hard to restrict), and drink probably drink anywhere from 1-2 liters of water a day. I’ve been losing weight rather quickly and dropped down to 172.7 last Monday. 

     Here’s the problem: since last Monday I’ve done nothing but GAIN WEIGHT. I have had no diet changes whatsoever, and I have gained 3lbs and the number just keeps going up (also 3lbs sounds like such a small number but I’m super obsessed about my weight and any sort of gain makes me anxious and depressed:’). I really don’t know what’s happening. Yesterday I lost .4 lbs and then today I wake up and have gained .8lbs (I was out all day yesterday and probably only got in like 16oz of water). I feel so over dramatic but a week without weight loss just kills me lol. I know it must be water weight or something because there’s no way I can gain 3lbs on 1000kcals, right?",3.5150753336203167,4.871131943894394,4.151786482996126,88.76050796383987,72.79537953795379,7.1177500358731525,24.395035155689484,7.586124646067393,1.0222657196154397,1181,34,246,14,23,375,170,303,0.152,0.736,0.111,-0.7301,1,0,3,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,13,17,15,1,1,11,1,17,18,1,2,4,47,34,26,1,4,11,2,9,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,20,17,3,4,2,0,3,6,11,0,1,12,10,23,4,37,20,4,55,0,7,0,0,2,22,0,4,28,139,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349859760941348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052509265514514514,0.08096730407648092,0.0,0.08723166553224762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621480198409856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937404110957323,0.0,0.09413984349374344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932170583689932,0.08168388143319025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19919073316698327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901838204876659,0.0,0.15128381131350274,0.0,0.3160434010373657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808506925139952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08776682600601386,0.0,0.061756380482540923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828151265754936,0.0,0.0691700236602579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863278577324564,0.08542763670352277,0.0,0.08487136443911895,0.1888230942913436,0.08710257612997692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544729760559829,0.0,0.06818280202316059,0.0,0.0,0.08638452133726568,0.25286989289891754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05154202208943957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06163276660066025,0.0,0.05676236100352381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409046437296721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05872595409285255,0.0,0.0,0.08573880175361771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067388236750077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395121406777708,0.07855603918912314,0.33300596783069936,0.07388491462426885,0.0,0.07762301939968279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049466299696310334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06594171265583043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774710803496292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594443522499751,0.0,0.08643655839812918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727748026051194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0450250456106444,0.0,0.0731913737078668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542843523783754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612901604869658,0.06193770816347038,0.5641668967674955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443309667476299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442315265333035,0.0,0.04972432395254255
EDAnonymous,hxneyfxck,2019/09/02,"I’m so over this Go easy on me, it’s my first time posting here so if I do something wrong I’m sorry!!

Woke up early today, went and got bagels for me & SO to make breakfast sandwiches. Everything was fine, I toasted them, made the eggs, prepped the toppings (goat cheese, balsamic, chopped basil, fresh tomatoes, avocado) and everything was going swell...until it came time to actually put it all together.

Promptly burst into tears, told my SO to either eat mine or give it away, and am now hiding upstairs. 

It was going to be damn delicious too.

I am so over this. I just wanna have some breakfast, ya feel??",3.009976689976689,5.288675871794876,4.089805749805752,84.68524475524478,76.60683760683763,6.98958818958819,26.875679875679875,8.00094639256281,1.817331623931624,475,19,90,8,11,154,86,117,0.099,0.8140000000000001,0.087,0.3493,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,2,9,3,1,0,2,0,8,5,0,2,1,15,22,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,5,0,1,0,0,6,0,2,0,1,9,1,11,1,12,12,3,20,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,3,6,58,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.19762953751416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21942948197864567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027346653548355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316280272041905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20722771321938988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640224191069881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239979878986367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226273857503013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427488224471748,0.3452890063210022,0.0,0.16197311460511027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162857544317616,0.13518314683665913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19395742395837812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20358774460193588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590918386698185,0.0,0.22670367774305555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361811626850436,0.0,0.1919645333657676,0.19351578617859044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773733880936244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22142296671529246,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throowawway6969,2019/09/02,TW:exact numbers & weight loss I deadass didnt want to loose weight this fast. I was going for 2 pounds a week. I lost 5. I hope it's just water weight or somthing just because I dont want to a)plateau fast b)have people notice fast weight loss c)damage my metabolism. I have been restricting but idk my exact number of calories bc I over estimate out of paranoia. If i keep restricting like this I'm literally going to be actually unhealthy. I also know that fast weight loss = fast weight gain wich I really dont want. Fuck. I'm worrying myself. I will litteraly allow myself to go eat xyz and then I go into my schools dining hall alone and drink coffe cause I get too scared. Like what the fuck. This is kinda ass.,1.87875,4.4081351048951065,3.326394230769232,87.1326682692308,82.56643356643356,6.372202797202798,21.524912587412587,7.645422480735847,1.0439653846153854,572,18,112,10,16,187,95,143,0.272,0.589,0.139,-0.9543,0,1,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,5,4,10,2,1,2,0,9,13,1,2,1,21,25,7,0,5,5,0,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,10,3,1,1,0,4,3,7,0,0,4,6,18,3,10,19,0,15,0,4,0,3,0,4,3,4,9,55,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.10387698379368912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024706032860684,0.0,0.08512568231290261,0.0,0.11533535437090335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488914502154594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935046166183708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951034328003915,0.10427760242013244,0.0,0.10892192573264252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968171993381418,0.05561419991044023,0.0,0.24198528866955346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572595746678456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946150455321038,0.0,0.0,0.0585005250792931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400932175203312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619954982533448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211906931442473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379699444154272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06819271788754272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065720855245682,0.10773011637583672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883557170521816,0.0,0.08538541765450733,0.7777431153926775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10810216524189156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MadLassWithABox,2019/09/02,"Labor Day family picnic rant Sorry y’all... I just needed to vent to people who’d understand.

I ran a 10k this morning for training and so that I could eat whatever I wanted at a picnic today, guilt free. And my sedentary, overweight father looked at my plate and said he ‘expected better’ of me in eating choices since I’m a runner. It wasn’t even that much fucking food, considering how active I am?!?! Way less than most others, who only walked from the car today.

I get it. He’s just gone on a diet so he’s looking at everyone’s food choices very critically. He has his own restriction-binge cycle issues and he’s just started fasting again. (This apple doesn’t fall far from the tree).

But god damn it. You’d think someone with their own food issues would know better than to comment on someone else fucking food. Especially considering I’m borderline underweight (but maintaining, even though it’s a struggle right now,  woot woot).

Whatever. I still ate my food. And I’m not going to feel guilty or listen to the tiny voice saying maybe he’s right and I should go on another run to counteract the food. I just need to keep reminding myself that his comment came from his own food issues. 

Anyway... rant over. To anyone else struggling with picnic woes today, keep calm and try to have some fun ❤️",3.3911426086956524,5.678632956000001,4.508330434782611,82.09999130434784,75.44,7.067826086956522,24.069565217391304,8.04050195162591,1.5504313043478262,1029,33,185,17,23,336,153,250,0.102,0.82,0.078,-0.5781,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,2,1,2,14,12,3,3,9,0,10,14,0,1,0,34,36,14,0,7,8,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,12,10,12,2,4,1,1,10,3,7,0,0,6,7,20,6,26,25,7,31,0,1,2,2,20,11,3,3,9,107,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726712490830152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058191825425728615,0.08527233875829811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472088938555201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518554438459936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644721469653671,0.0,0.0,0.05367229028472922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170316890684172,0.13904515632377598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099367099416604,0.0,0.0,0.07952364692975987,0.0,0.0,0.0784557349611579,0.0,0.04208031605818674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7044395380439721,0.0,0.0,0.15387762013462675,0.043480858160201835,0.0,0.09459569705615012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26059122147172303,0.0,0.14794579014810744,0.0,0.0,0.045737474194833545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977360532830266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360921931051687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061178868486291685,0.12341838214266687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329524280985402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05769671510386245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14214487540718893,0.07916463258640666,0.0661826893638638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884336190217591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103004944971206,0.0,0.0,0.09316192535258587,0.05890604106741649,0.0,0.06646241651355413,0.0,0.0,0.17400660127961634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332627596139389,0.08176669315565173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23665851880931965,0.0,0.0,0.05650331219233645,0.0,0.0,0.08663862709484263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866812600649642,0.0490873927282228,0.06605896234131299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911960608994893,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghositie,2019/09/02,"im just now realizing how much i actually used to eat i binged last night at a family party and i realized that i was eating the general same quantities as my enormous, 6’4” grown man of a cousin. it was literally the amount of food i used to eat at these functions before my ed started to develop ///// wtf considering i’m 5’ and 10 years younger",1.3811956521739148,3.862114565217397,4.362155797101451,79.15019021739131,84.5072463768116,8.667391304347825,26.01630434782609,9.188382445141503,2.7875347826086956,271,12,54,9,8,97,52,69,0.057999999999999996,0.9009999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,3,0,10,6,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,0,8,4,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.21499462221112128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874709338184713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6763084781102391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769237271948396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664044875863599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23797685842719726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958526387069296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619560936176546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067497057516554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15593933882411662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805610100804247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187495239376366
EDAnonymous,cactusfarm,2019/09/02,i don’t know what i look like what does that mean why am i so confused,2.3082352941176474,1.4818151176470593,3.5341176470588245,100.00352941176472,74.29411764705883,6.8000000000000025,22.882352941176467,3.1291,-0.3473058823529413,55,1,16,0,1,18,14,17,0.18100000000000002,0.667,0.152,-0.1258,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,9,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368720592739808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743590557793945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24389438615691705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41922028988088095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5437985160422968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504697140109169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jntamnvr,2019/09/02,"I’m so insecure and frustrated. I don’t think I can do this anymore I’m about to turn 17. I’ve been actively trying to lose weight and be skinny ever since I can remember and I have never felt comfortable in my body. I promised myself I’d reach my goal weight by 17 this week and I’m far from it. It’s so frustrating. I’m 100% sick of it. I keep binging even though I don’t really feel like eating and everything is just so infuriating. I’m also about to go back to school and I feel so ugly and fat that I can’t bear anyone seeing me. I don’t wanna have to go back looking like this. The only thing that boosts my self esteem and allows me to express myself is fashion and wearing cute outfits but those don’t look good on my big body!! I even bought a bunch of cute clothes over the summer that would only fit once I reach my goal weight to motivate me and because I was sired id reach it by now but again I was wrong after thousands of these attempts. I know this is so silly but I cant help feeling this way. The hatred I have for my body is beginning to consume me. I can’t even be myself and it feels like my entire life and my goals and happiness are on pause until I’m skinny. It all relies on my appearance. It’s ridiculous. I can’t believe I’m really convinced being skinny will fix my life or something but I keep holding onto that because I actually do believe it to be true. I don’t have friends, I’m ugly, I don’t get attention, etc etc ALL BECAUSE IM FAT. The logical part of me thinks that’s probably not true but my disordered part convinces me otherwise. Idek where I’m going with this. I guess I’m wondering if there’s anyone out there who’s going through the same crap or has gone through this in the past and has tips to help me feel better. I just want to be skinny and it’s so easy so why do I keep ruining it and failing?!?!? I can’t take another day looking like this. It feels like I’m stuck in an astronaut suit 24/7. I despise myself and my lack of discipline and my brain and my body and everything.  Someone help. I feel like I’ll never be able to get through this on my own but idk how to tell my mom about it. She’s amazing and I know she’ll understand and help me but I’m so ashamed and it’s too embarrassing for me to tell her about it. It’s something I thought I could accomplish  and get through on my own but I can’t and I’m too prideful to admit that. I don’t know what to do. I really thought I could do this alone. Idk


For context I’m 5’3 around 125lbs. I know that’s a healthy weight but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like a whale. I wish I could get down to at least 105.",0.7747092731829603,2.7750865285714283,2.8019360902255634,92.47271303258144,82.82142857142857,6.072681704260652,21.967418546365913,7.273561745256523,0.6756130952380945,2056,68,463,30,57,691,230,560,0.14,0.69,0.17,0.9624,0,1,2,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,10,31,34,5,3,10,0,47,21,13,3,7,93,106,49,0,9,15,1,13,7,1,3,5,0,0,1,38,28,11,6,24,0,1,6,17,12,0,1,9,17,73,22,55,85,12,40,0,3,4,0,15,18,1,6,22,301,111,7,0.06807794758391439,0.0,0.06643425647989931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050822246217904,0.0,0.05444191008697132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07138566386733201,0.0,0.0,0.06751503091303106,0.09520336768359283,0.0,0.0,0.06060380671272849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469547898222084,0.0,0.12449905491146915,0.0,0.0,0.1534010684898316,0.0,0.06020941234224308,0.0,0.30247701076414024,0.0,0.0759975042326849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306410477823086,0.0,0.0,0.04390464424354003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802322592794599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696607360565906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184981429758565,0.13489452696228094,0.06158040112570463,0.0,0.0,0.12236813919404288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27537804649503744,0.2431744967828278,0.06536550572838049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052596853428681666,0.0,0.14227167119571466,0.0,0.1547610658754251,0.05710055249704137,0.0,0.0,0.07499553443935733,0.0,0.0,0.07247024110736837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18252485297580606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353586562508582,0.0,0.0,0.1815324234159852,0.0,0.0,0.1496554383999222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617093536523284,0.2328161250768004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150499030378,0.07616180968181295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973206941748552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050118200981158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725007923530156,0.0,0.10355269369474966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744356617163454,0.06498810414918063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07339954181666719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308374293731947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711904360982494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889851746308162,0.0542493101427932,0.0,0.07102014657870273,0.0,0.0,0.056314781739513015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057682224066560574,0.104819460075382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05691621250885609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051186144177990674,0.0,0.1190062536906886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04522796336359791,0.08724319988945861,0.06688623785057655,0.10809257200218113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04622045765563375,0.07404925789653301,0.0,0.07087154433262666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04015413732379408,0.05403710602448325,0.05460802315332039,0.3316023994053892,0.0,0.0,0.06142975884710574,0.0,0.07828627997233936,0.0,0.07382763014393845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04836062071187475,0.07443254862775757,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway_mf_,2019/09/02,"my college roommate makes my ed spiral out of control Im a sophomore living with my roommate from freshman year, but she gives me so much stress with her disorered eating habits and her comments about my size, which causes me to relapse into these shitty habits

My bmi is underweight but she makes comments about me being big or huge, maybe she is referring to my height but im average, and even then she could just say 'tall'

We share food and cook together but she eats even less than me, i feel guilty if i actually finish a plate even though im meant to be recovering

I tried to say this is unhealthy but she said her doctor said its fine, and that she doesnt need to eat as much as other people

Did anyone else deal with this in college? I knew id have a hard time being in total control of what i ate now that im over 18 and not living with my parents, but i didnt think other students would make my ed worse",4.6223618538324445,5.096760786096257,5.190173796791445,85.60722147950091,69.48128342245988,7.73065953654189,26.813279857397504,7.492282038375204,1.2883942959001784,725,21,150,7,12,233,113,187,0.12,0.8390000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.9525,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,9,3,0,1,3,0,12,7,0,6,1,37,24,18,0,4,10,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,10,12,6,2,5,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,6,29,2,22,12,4,14,0,0,0,0,21,9,0,2,5,102,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.11529308948075495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261016959326342,0.1210541569181066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136810389276995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26502073416660965,0.09432966975897464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180295393383796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092705574545265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626774152833835,0.09869551144850633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341022176146727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05973797901462561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428621614321479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333605120084088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583527584650464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5104702052696558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20864950677340596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365893708081811,0.0,0.11869316242051316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737012600722427,0.08760348558531446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311867374646648,0.0,0.0,0.08190730201078929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476709317525445,0.1879082896089989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533541683821435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570294742807955,0.11607747891136283,0.0,0.0688916653492762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021312561757601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204004876272798,0.08392726383211684,0.0,0.0,0.07608191039006329
EDAnonymous,polyamorys,2019/09/02,"purged mcdonald’s for the first time holy shit i would not wish this on my enemies, that was actually the worst",1.504848484848484,4.218502818181818,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,89.0,8.387878787878789,20.96969696969697,8.841846274778883,1.934315151515152,90,3,19,3,3,29,21,22,0.451,0.5489999999999999,0.0,-0.9209999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.4410035193258981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843983794925511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.463883904974327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26351507282944475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5196795570848324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210272088643689,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,juliaxrei,2019/09/02,"Help I suppose Idk of this fits in this sup, pls redirect me if not
Ever since my ED my hair used to be super thick and healthy, it’s gotten way thinner and gets oily so quickly and I don’t know what to do. My ED is in recovery but my hair isn’t and it makes me really anxious and self conscious",6.141948717948723,3.7297150923076927,7.201538461538465,82.02179487179487,67.30769230769229,10.512820512820516,33.97435897435898,8.841846274778883,2.520435897435897,231,8,54,3,3,79,47,65,0.063,0.825,0.11199999999999999,0.287,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,2,1,13,10,8,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,5,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232811404955857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389190215442105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19575455304635905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511397435191408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20591403199751054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25010144837142273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24002925570428674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908723903770272,0.0,0.0,0.3099387203839546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236027531970928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974031147266106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feistaspongebob,2019/09/02,"real talk my life sucks lmao my life is in absolute shambles. got completely taken advantage of sexually by this asshole and I can’t cope, I don’t know how to. then the one guy I was actually liking is of course out of my life forever. I can’t move on, I feel like a worthless piece of shit. this dude actually told me I was just there until he found someone better lol. that really stung and I feel like I’ve cried enough to fill up the Pacific Ocean with my tears. 


I have no control of my life anymore. nothing good is coming out of it, I’m tempted to stand on the end of my local bridge again and just end it all because I am so incredibly worthless. the only thing I do have control over is how much I eat. I’m goddamn good at restricting when things like this happen because I’m too sick to eat, that’s the one plus of grieving I guess. 


I am 4 pounds away from being underweight again and that’s the only thing I got going for me. I’m so obsessive about it, it’s one of the only things I think about because it makes me genuinely happy yet hurts me so much. but it’ll never hurt me as much as men have, even if I die from it. 


Sorry for this being so morbid lol but I put all my self worth and validation in one person only to end up even worse off. I just want to feel loved and needed and I’ll never have that. but I’ll have being thin at the very fucking least.",1.1430886699507354,3.057391106896553,3.2603201970443334,90.13491379310348,81.0344827586207,6.211822660098523,20.701970443349754,7.310402129719878,0.5381970443349755,1071,30,236,15,28,364,147,290,0.132,0.754,0.114,-0.2956,0,0,0,0,0,1,22.0,0,0,0,4,19,19,3,1,9,2,21,10,1,5,4,39,45,23,2,3,7,0,4,4,0,1,5,0,0,4,19,12,2,3,6,0,1,5,6,9,0,4,7,4,30,10,40,34,8,32,0,5,0,2,8,15,3,2,15,162,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.18416713105984675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358161139676414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865607562872789,0.0,0.0,0.1725663458704095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345539877627181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128438881348668,0.09893661708357357,0.0,0.21166970415423725,0.0,0.0,0.10365207460554712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979327150245488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311148474945586,0.0,0.0,0.25072980516076754,0.09750102804656842,0.0,0.12465023991467962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313657817635345,0.1348242662517511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346291125788908,0.0,0.08723602096815426,0.0,0.0,0.05362802079124772,0.15829250589255964,0.1509396024544844,0.0,0.10395022953387996,0.09343307901214593,0.08344388300440514,0.10044995683813836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020326499947754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05185881162446004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666022952016597,0.1844017576462996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516526466220296,0.0,0.06298727567169891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002917259309304,0.2081004781361492,0.06996812507909715,0.14555537052404785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905427516213114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557681594041857,0.2870657928873088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239313826343582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485973431374577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740445749014893,0.060450625123393435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844000170910992,0.0,0.0968610954109265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07995249952638447,0.0,0.0,0.10563037908152552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584449037782016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25075931297203274,0.060463271057243424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016680300825028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785841859141919,0.05565707108759288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616279902111573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liskovaa,2019/09/02,"I can quit all my addictions except for my ED ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’ve been sober from cigarettes since Dec 23, 2017. 

I’ve been sober from cocaine and hard drugs since Feb 13, 2018. 

I’ve been sober from alcohol since Feb 28, 2019. 

I’ve been sober from nicotine since August 28, 2019. 

And yet I still can’t get sober from bulimia!! Ugh!! I’ve B/P’d every day for the past five days and I’m in so much pain and I’m so uncomfortable but I just can’t stop! I just keep binging and binging and I feel like I’m  *starving* and ugh I’m losing my mind :( I know this is all probably related to nicotine withdrawal or whatever but !!! I’m so over this I reached my lowest weight in like a year and now I’ve ballooned up seven pounds in days fucking kill me",-0.37454545454545496,1.8882499870129867,1.4685714285714262,97.00142857142859,94.58441558441557,5.137662337662338,19.337662337662337,6.782984794422108,0.2448155844155844,574,19,131,9,22,187,85,154,0.20199999999999999,0.737,0.061,-0.975,1,0,4,0,0,1,25.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,2,0,2,0,8,6,0,0,2,21,18,14,1,0,6,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,8,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,4,3,12,2,14,14,3,15,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,1,12,62,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831547422076375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955065672818404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250559541922545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483724231334834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155493157480253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495046026197073,0.1200257504247877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532172615312476,0.08777783199601225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505031730804285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933422730860815,0.1858772010226939,0.0,0.09233341970860053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416154121557835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18795923260269692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16964131934180948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350603614836547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877355147808807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038371770860174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18114224978223928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17869838204477342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559155279617707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341723019651796,0.14046314905738408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045898488423572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819236626106
EDAnonymous,LittleGraecie,2019/09/02,"Coming out of lurking to cry To sum up a v long, sad rant I originally typed up and deleted.

Going through a binge cycle. Put on a lot of weight. You know how it is.

Customer comes to my workplace and thinks it's okay to tell me I should join Slimming World. (A weight loss programme) cue another mental breakdown and starve cycle.

I haven't eaten more than 400 calories a day this week because strangers think it's okay to judge someone's body. 

:-)",2.91,5.0288472727272815,3.315909090909092,90.88136363636366,76.27272727272728,5.3090909090909095,26.90909090909091,5.985473137389443,0.8662454545454552,352,14,70,2,8,109,67,88,0.16899999999999998,0.74,0.092,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,5,2,3,4,1,2,0,13,10,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,3,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,2,6,2,13,8,2,13,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,1,4,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22799797756401385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254544022172146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24151959573423626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745994056058154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238840484032804,0.14022661625446575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357246579237699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11949576230758027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924218005725787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485418169487128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21912182174945247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185807177033168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842306944572458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900464581331983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786452076424876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744120340586141,0.5295508392295123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RuuSkirata,2019/08/01,My coworkers are comparing their weight... They weren't trying to include me in their conversation or anything. But I can hear it obviously cause I'm two feet away and trying to inconspicuously google kg to pounds because of course I want to know where I rank. And I'm heavier than all of them. And I'm a short female. I can't decide if I want to eat my feelings or never eat again. Fun day!,2.635515370705246,4.5759428227848105,4.345605786618446,84.00784810126581,76.46835443037975,7.0459312839059685,23.943942133815554,7.957251820313856,1.2293132007233272,309,10,64,5,7,104,56,79,0.042,0.9209999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.3387,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,1,3,16,12,7,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,12,1,10,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,3,3,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777620459734114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372208946825965,0.0,0.0,0.1539144109006784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593748443258175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283394583244667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5167167490877108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766557695378558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845724549700694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13876086442455093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473439906234044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34284571156071936,0.0,0.2466441996063719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29784806298223704,0.0,0.0,0.30746250239023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,takethisedandshoveit,2019/08/01,"The doctor I was referred to refuses to treat me for my ED. I told my psychiatrist everything that was happening to me. So he referred me to another psychiatrist who specializes in EDs. 

I told her everything and she said ""well, your behaviour is linked to your borderline personality disorder, so I say you keep working on that and eventually the rest is going to go away on its own"". 

It's been a year since that and I still feel terrible. I had bulimia-like symptoms back then, now I have more BED-like symptoms. My borderline symptoms have improved, but my ED keeps being a bitch as always. I'm afraid of reaching out again and having the same response. My therapist doesn't specialize in EDs and she can't help me, either. She says stuff that don't help at all like ""you need to eat in moderation, don't worry about other people's opinions"", well gee thanks I'm cured now. 


I guess I'll have to figure this out by myself.",2.8032278088143983,5.268916067039108,4.373249534450654,81.42071849782748,78.27374301675978,8.2235878336437,26.145561762880202,8.998388855275968,2.403632898820608,732,29,139,19,18,244,112,179,0.083,0.812,0.105,0.474,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,4,0,1,10,10,1,1,5,0,15,5,0,0,1,22,29,10,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,10,7,1,3,5,0,0,2,4,3,2,0,7,4,26,7,22,21,6,18,0,0,0,0,19,9,1,2,8,100,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100573900585285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249140889460527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366321270310795,0.11182330057590507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667032291478573,0.14884925151412848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14880668204818565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261398282772714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353154683606121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529742597360825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020268059305656,0.0,0.12859936718121584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19495141237524224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585218890093673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104759656009225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783123081116733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081979192076806,0.1269800141035252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138333036299865,0.2312965290453734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029754916911835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613706242002975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647750547762294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534586051438029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388834287417115,0.0,0.1688503163287168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27792076279581085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615101370220157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587156006467563,0.14768674372647195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364931069821214
EDAnonymous,CoughsFromHouston,2019/08/01,"My grandma's sister said I wasn't skinny Ever since I've reached my LW again, my grandma keeps telling everyone how skinny I am because she worries about me. Last week, her sister had seen me for the first time since my relapse. She hadn't said anything to me then but my grandma just told me today that she said I ""am tall but not skinny though"". Dude wtf. I have body dysmorphia, I don't see myself as thin as most people in my life say I am, but wtf. TW TW TW my bmi is fucking 16. Guess I really have to starve to death to be skinny :) :) :)",1.6011504424778735,3.279063849557524,3.1231946902654886,92.79735840707966,78.64601769911505,5.5819469026548685,21.919469026548683,6.2581,0.2431210619469031,417,12,92,3,10,137,71,113,0.168,0.73,0.10099999999999999,-0.8933,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,6,1,1,0,1,0,11,7,5,1,1,10,20,8,1,0,5,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,8,7,23,0,9,11,1,11,0,0,2,1,12,3,1,2,8,57,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573428416885132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655488093479265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21238216627545603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295303148029115,0.0,0.18270157374931573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16263620688277955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17676304123871114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21063040824132034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994900091490853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585503761277125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13505153025683414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255529715522585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12248880935884285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5456302691298063,0.15205139563606945,0.0,0.0,0.15236312971976004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163283135852835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16711885571272878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187854859486134,0.0,0.11149134384488417,0.0,0.1812370093549452,0.18270157374931573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15337060127674867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941747729050564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greensquarequilt,2019/08/01,"Restricting is........expensive? Not sure if this makes any sense, especially making a post about it, but I cannot be the only one who thinks that restricting is so expensive???? Like you would think that not eating would make my life cheaper, but uh NO??

Like a can of Coke is half the freaking price of a can of zevia? A pack of seaweed sheets is three times as expensive as a bag of chips?? Am I just MISSING SOMETHING HERE???????",4.128455284552846,5.410266073170731,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,71.1951219512195,8.393495934959349,27.081300813008127,8.841846274778883,1.8939691056910568,326,11,67,6,6,104,57,82,0.209,0.711,0.08,-0.8958,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,7,0,10,3,0,3,1,16,16,6,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,0,2,2,2,0,3,0,4,2,1,3,0,0,4,3,8,13,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,46,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17914371468465032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26955808802807546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607076904745934,0.2574004611100332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275314294907563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850925882761773,0.2003529369818708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25229633406087915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280386660788066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482828191630209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375949133892149,0.0,0.0,0.1536101075781963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742709937590609,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i-dont-know-help22,2019/08/01,"(tw: suicide) my aunt doesn’t believe her husband raped me. Should I just kill myself now? My grandma doesn’t believe me. My aunt doesn’t believe me. They think I’m lying. But I found his shirt in my bed.

It’s because I was drunk they didn’t believe me. I don’t even know if I believe me. Should I just kill myself now? I haven’t eaten today and I didn’t eat yesterday. I feel I don’t deserve or need food. I want to die for destroying my family. 

Worst fear became reality.",-0.7638666666666687,1.3989556800000038,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,97.2,4.266666666666668,19.666666666666668,6.079149491110277,0.08376666666666699,368,13,80,4,15,125,59,100,0.332,0.6559999999999999,0.012,-0.9888,0,0,0,0,0,4,16.0,0,0,2,0,5,6,4,1,0,0,11,6,1,0,0,14,19,4,4,5,5,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,4,1,0,0,8,6,0,0,5,1,27,0,3,12,1,5,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,2,4,52,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767482757498396,0.0,0.0,0.8102117063797064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926839634493874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716962374174808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949955355133984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558609422980675,0.1618439275850976,0.07272260850159719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739146386753134,0.15769748485756294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182437123391864,0.0,0.07904285759459452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10664495335599464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15732200028987262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921577177373436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363299710656501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848321395400783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imsadlol45,2019/08/01,"Does anyone else experience this? Okay so I do this thing where I'll go roughly halfway through the day without eating,eat dinner and then go back to restriction for the rest of the day, but here's the thing, when I do this I get physically ill and tired all of sudden. DAE have to deal with this? Or at least know what's going on, should I be concerned about it?",2.0592277992277985,4.125228783783786,3.0436679536679527,92.0698648648649,78.72972972972974,5.850193050193052,21.382239382239387,6.868970318607317,0.33943474903474824,286,8,62,3,7,91,56,74,0.132,0.847,0.021,-0.8433,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,1,5,3,0,0,1,10,10,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,3,1,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,11,8,3,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,45,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578775390830834,0.25759344703770176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933144125300816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242699910938268,0.2591868264748431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22000562453141784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572493941114635,0.2100160593276333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24592167675042945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134838678918995,0.0,0.4286366253310364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816524570810598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340437334089942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889522957935252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24234480401834324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonytheo,2019/08/01,"DAE remember wanting to change their bodies at a ridiculously young age? I remember looking in the mirror at age 8 or so, in my gymnastics leotard, thinking how fat I was and how bad I looked. It’s just sad to me that I’ve never really had the perfect relationship with my body or with food since before that age. 

I also remember it being completely normal to stand in front of the mirrors in a primary school bathroom (the kind of bathrooms that have low sinks and stalls specifically for kids) with your friends and say ‘I’m so fat. I wish I had your body’ to eachother.",8.934324324324322,6.915555945945947,8.90763963963964,70.73983783783788,61.61261261261262,12.483603603603608,39.31711711711712,11.20814326018867,4.29611927927928,454,19,85,10,5,149,73,111,0.098,0.813,0.08900000000000001,-0.015,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,1,6,7,1,0,6,0,5,6,5,2,2,20,11,10,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,5,6,3,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,3,3,12,3,16,7,0,14,0,2,2,0,7,7,0,2,5,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575909186615564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313037841518245,0.0,0.0,0.1338148967479095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5240342521504077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663580145521869,0.0,0.16488192412781466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19015688604862568,0.0,0.12149706929168247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375991123293224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26411407188153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128699295867995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540793604010674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10074344240671616,0.0,0.0,0.16883614059869015,0.5344276610316251,0.0,0.0,0.12505779996805322,0.0,0.15915339805748605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008536619836125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076451737336696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275478829530856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083883278843849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BabyDontMind,2019/08/01,"Me: *sobbing into my pillow after my boyfriend of three and a half years, who I thought I was going to marry one day, breaks up with me* My ED brain: Now wE cAn RestRiCt aS mUch aS We wAnT!!!!!!

Restricting is easy when your heart hurts so much that you feel nauseous.",1.026855345911951,3.370631339622648,1.8814150943396264,97.30690251572331,84.66037735849056,4.2880503144654085,20.154088050314463,5.46131890053228,-0.2793874213836478,203,6,44,1,6,63,46,53,0.162,0.7879999999999999,0.05,-0.7627,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,10,7,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,2,1,11,0,8,5,2,9,0,2,0,0,5,2,1,0,5,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376216333692218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173445622476361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040316007366205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153142392573305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39936029610805823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607778225082645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954845161039079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283677406082014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675495172414689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19877813724354665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170243816205073
EDAnonymous,pineconestan,2019/08/01,"My period stopped early? I’ve been doing a fast, intermixed with 100-400 cal days, for about a week and a half now, and my period ended four days early for some reason. I haven’t lost a significant amount of weight either, but I’m still wondering if this is ana related. Anyone else experience this?",5.066034482758621,6.184981637931037,6.54431034482759,73.96922413793105,68.82758620689657,10.627586206896552,24.84482758620689,10.686352973137794,2.7457793103448283,237,6,44,7,4,81,46,58,0.068,0.904,0.027999999999999997,-0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,10,7,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,3,0,5,5,3,12,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,12,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753772411977613,0.2894651199795023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643914585450945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360010493667488,0.0,0.25022021361203417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763492180595129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30839329263486565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29046757229572706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256130375965728,0.2361912053759119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22661266875007796,0.34402135599288475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30637029740920635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blissfultomorrows,2019/08/01,"My body isn't horrible? So I bought a full-size mirror for my dorm and it's standing in my room right now with the rest of my college stuff. Well, the first thing I did when I got home with it was just stare at my body in various positions, with and without clothes. I realize that yes, my thighs are kinda big but not too bad, my stomach is pretty flat and with a push-up bra, I look like nice. I don't look horrible. But then, the more I looked, the more I realized well, if I didn't eat so much, if I stopped eating, or if I worked out or started abusing lax again, then who knows what I'd look like. Yeah, I'm not horrible now but I still could look better...

Why can't I just be happy? I know deep down that I should be happy but I'm not.",0.9366459627329212,2.3702112049689457,2.6738819875776407,96.37492236024849,79.80745341614906,6.339130434782609,20.816770186335408,7.1686216300943375,0.2337006211180124,568,15,141,7,14,188,97,161,0.087,0.6940000000000001,0.22,0.9667,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,3,12,9,0,0,6,2,12,6,4,0,0,31,24,17,0,5,15,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,8,8,2,1,4,0,1,0,8,1,2,1,5,6,22,8,12,15,5,20,0,0,6,0,1,9,0,6,12,95,30,3,0.0,0.16633491944380405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721677413510585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416035614841853,0.0,0.31187526934917065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120871113927341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28730065489375445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941259409160672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227982295003952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.298887851451081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081899849411916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430538024239596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717140076903314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5894460641332978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320015185319452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282343140729695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11988921248569895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936621146548398,0.0,0.11211275472127973,0.11736931055812025,0.0,0.0,0.16070883273007844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326648144599277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524484539056243,0.0,0.12667688389339904,0.0,0.0,0.13532747306374696,0.0,0.10220296603130813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grimeanddirt,2019/08/01,had a large amount of food. so tempted to abuse lax and immediately start a fast just like ive been doing lately. AAAAAAAH i need to chill i need to ch i dont want this extra weight in my body,-0.99642857142857,1.1119060238095244,1.187619047619048,99.01571428571432,95.90476190476193,3.752380952380953,14.142857142857142,5.46131890053228,-1.1981714285714284,151,3,37,1,6,50,35,42,0.141,0.7959999999999999,0.062,-0.4915,0,0,0,0,1,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,1,0,0,5,9,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,5,1,5,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,21,6,0,0.0,0.34915360732593403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273286682469562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453686941201767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563343427239545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324175818139742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439682345733789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.437010474200287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085796012977699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381288265972425,0.0,0.0,0.35884701290406124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bittermyrrh,2019/08/01,"my flabby arms I have the same upper arm circumference as my much heavier sister. and its so flabby.

dinner is Lakewood cranberry juice.",3.1575000000000024,6.217299750000006,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,93.16666666666666,5.7333333333333325,22.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.8586166666666672,110,4,15,2,4,36,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lukewarmsriracha,2019/08/01,"Is anyone else a little triggered when their friends talk about diets? I have a group of friends that I appreciate so much but whenever they talk about their eating habits in our squad group chat I can't help but compare my eating habits to theirs and feign ignorance (""oh really? Consuming a lot of salt makes you retain water weight??"") . 

It's probably bad for my mental health but I don't know how to broach that subject without talking about my eating issues lmao. Does anyone else feel this?",3.9545893719806777,6.613712043478262,3.9162318840579746,85.19205314009663,75.30434782608697,6.697584541062803,23.265700483091784,7.793537801064563,1.2998077294685997,396,12,70,6,9,121,68,92,0.111,0.764,0.125,-0.3709,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,1,4,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,4,7,0,3,0,13,7,7,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,6,2,2,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,13,2,10,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,15,2,0,1,1,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240033362851596,0.3282469356297553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374371408753885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14017470728434092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4917127722818594,0.2676198820276774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099188434119982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475095352778512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17026398307587204,0.0,0.0,0.10736536168926154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718643494807786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803080791799055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054256660788718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13617941462838182,0.0,0.0,0.10692147760897673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16142389176459168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177508228245167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727012672847819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261549005974374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.386240152152192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19505624011600084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440792496785036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JustChopItOff,2019/08/01,What happens when you just stop eating and lay in bed all day? Asking as a fat guy who's given up,0.34090909090908994,1.8216558181818208,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,81.72727272727272,4.4,15.545454545454547,3.1291,-1.1217090909090903,76,1,18,0,2,26,22,22,0.10400000000000001,0.8959999999999999,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267814140680217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944154529338334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671304713014044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520232267978361,0.40369613900114615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816683354071079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlebirdie214,2019/07/09,"New to recovery from B/P, help Hi guys this is my first post here and I'm really scared right now.

Ive (22/f) been struggling with anorexia since I was about 15, and in the last year have been able to maintain a decent weight. Last year I went through extreme hunger and ate over xxxx calories a day and regained a substantial amount of weight over the winter and spring and through the summer.

However, in the last six months I have been on and off struggling with binging and purging about 1x a week, mostly on ice cream. Otherwise, I was making drastic strides in eating out, flexibly, and trying new foods, breaking free of anorexia for the most part. This took a turn for the worst last week. I have had about 8 days of nonstop binging and was purging up to 4x a day in a total panic. I was pretty much unfunctional. I have recently moved twice in the last 4 months and have to move again in a few weeks, started a relationship that ended abruptly, and in the middle of starting a new position and am a full time student. So a lot of shit is happening and I feel so insecure in my life. Nothing is stable and now Im struggling hardcore with something I never imagined would be a problem.

I made a commitment to eat at least 2000 calories a day and stop purging. I did not purge yesterday but ate a ton again, and have not today and eaten a normal amount. But my stomach is extremely distended and my limbs are bloating, my face is bloated, I feel like a sausage about to burst. I feel so lost and afraid. I am still exercising as it was a healthy part of my recovery beforehand. I just went on a short walk/run and things are swelling like crazy.

Is this normal? Will it subside? Please help I am freaking out and am telling myself I need to return to complete restriction to lose the weight I have gained in the last week.",5.638458608430676,6.015356416201122,5.7206094464195045,83.03214829862875,67.24022346368716,8.74372778059929,32.753174200101576,8.575989854853784,2.4611072625698327,1439,59,285,20,22,454,190,358,0.115,0.797,0.087,-0.7951,1,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,4,14,16,1,7,30,0,33,15,3,2,3,51,51,28,0,5,5,0,6,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,27,10,2,4,1,1,5,3,13,0,3,18,7,26,4,47,30,14,71,0,2,1,0,6,23,1,3,43,194,33,1,0.08460039900108697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887019087626918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182410341572576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313465738175274,0.0,0.0,0.07493084278618224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832951107756038,0.06043854195033555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196105617219073,0.10229913828399677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376769586685963,0.0748118534395529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134117283011079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913829484225304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137636999043561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059755763745504425,0.0826629632414316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464620653823393,0.0923513292278032,0.07192423389182635,0.0,0.08005094308690007,0.05647142326608999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350544626955618,0.17983367099895092,0.06219102751246846,0.06273012389154263,0.06524904315880185,0.24512277760111134,0.0,0.0,0.1657808573111359,0.0811763645269216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09926034005351896,0.0,0.18322797573895694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286583308017897,0.0,0.0,0.08102379653277736,0.0860690201765571,0.0,0.08095115631058812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541971819171205,0.0,0.08353268774539051,0.09082916771168148,0.0,0.07224827849820148,0.0,0.0,0.08469975805902108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684109383421475,0.06998232429010001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512952035257244,0.0,0.0,0.11976119569766668,0.0,0.06756198792505852,0.0707297217200128,0.0,0.2653281172556309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394447764047839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620474591791328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049331172995920665,0.0,0.08019128618802038,0.0,0.09399415614258247,0.05743811760569861,0.09202094049705598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714453482450808,0.309061483509408,0.0,0.1568508348982721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060097696146344214,0.0,0.0,0.10895976644732913
EDAnonymous,ipry_hedgie,2019/07/09,"I love baking. I hate eating. Fun times. I often try to bring what I make to my place of work to get rid of it, but unless a recipe is perfected, I have trouble justifying it. And food waste is a huge no-no from how I was raised.

My latest recipe: take a pound of self-loathing, a pinch of perfectionism, and a dash of anxiety- mix it up and freeze to consume slowly in tiny servings over a period of months while accumulating more at an unsustainable pace.",4.5792673992673985,5.250880351648355,5.755769230769232,80.8100641025641,69.65934065934066,9.143589743589745,26.155677655677657,9.2995712137729,1.879547985347985,356,10,75,7,6,119,65,91,0.122,0.7,0.17800000000000002,0.6542,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,7,0,4,4,0,2,1,9,10,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,8,3,16,9,1,12,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,1,5,47,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381844199209246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185921521696656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764896424999158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626692469994702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073969210215953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810085065011325,0.0,0.2078307433821035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24851923110590124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32529792709458605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248093923029015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23409893087671435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155261126223096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138845083136434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266689083467558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slinkysoft,2019/07/09,"I’m a dumb ass I used to scoff at people telling me eating disorders were about control but I’m currently going through something which is really laying it all out there for me. 

Even though I’m in therapy I’ve become depressed again very recently (like within the last two weeks it’s come on really strong) and my first inclination is to go further into my ed behaviours. Even the idea of dedicating my day to calorie counting is making me feel so so much better.

I never saw depression and my ED as particularly co-morbid but OH BOY was I wrong. I totally use it as a distraction and also as self-harm simultaneously. 

Relapse here we go!",3.1844086021505404,5.614005290322582,5.378709677419359,74.9047311827957,76.74193548387099,8.649462365591399,27.268817204301072,9.2995712137729,2.8341849462365603,512,21,91,14,12,178,92,124,0.129,0.804,0.067,-0.7925,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,4,10,8,1,1,4,0,5,2,1,4,3,18,17,12,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,1,2,0,0,4,1,5,0,2,3,2,12,3,16,14,3,19,0,2,1,1,3,7,2,0,9,61,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13705176724481402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892747001306328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515708459364084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762787973624836,0.0,0.0,0.19221618126692674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052531173537956,0.0,0.2952170554796266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964152430082614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536355665843972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22638849717432585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665439886357279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457749354414713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29219599677483565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346609118209895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969680233999268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837271488976366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143968490568592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598332352120706,0.0,0.13217809131834135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881265712963515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21957962029276312,0.0,0.16921614010499558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17878572928553954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193596828279022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979284668225434,0.0,0.19598688362199185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683790500211021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16741243301484535,0.0,0.0,0.2960329542505904,0.0,0.14140566748484212,0.0,0.0,0.1374699393712002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873760915749169,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fossilizedferns,2019/07/09,"ED search history have now learned my lesson that a friend typing ""e"" into my laptop searching for ""ebay"" reveals a big suggestion list of ""ed  ---"" this and ""ed--- "" that. simple appreciation post for partners in poor mental health that understand and are willing to just keep typing.",12.353749999999998,10.16070354166667,10.732500000000002,60.86250000000002,55.25,12.933333333333335,42.75,11.20814326018867,4.934049999999999,222,9,33,4,2,69,40,48,0.057999999999999996,0.821,0.121,0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,21,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284408615984352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518747064661072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37785952116979177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284134106931877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40714026135986736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4425571030590647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fairyjimin,2019/07/09,"using a relationship to fuel my ED i’ve started talking to my ex again a few months ago and lo and behold, we have feelings for each other again. i can’t help but use this to restrict/fast and exercise more even though i know what i’m doing is.. bullshit. i feel awful about it and try telling myself i’m not ‘doing it for a guy’ while in reality i AM? he knows about my ED but thinks i’m doing way better than before even though i’m doing worse than back when were dating :-(",8.5441,4.829952010000007,9.028000000000002,74.86400000000002,63.9,11.2,34.0,8.07648339933343,2.4695,371,9,79,3,4,126,68,100,0.161,0.784,0.055,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,10,1,0,0,3,1,9,1,0,2,0,16,21,10,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,9,1,10,20,3,11,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,9,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917345883485612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663193440554964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405315047552076,0.0,0.0,0.19129746697905325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857247763914492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187329219254844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21416842540040776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449795832440731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23774278116860875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726465155779086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23222245315376186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530964081154028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385165137715874,0.1890534552661872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859463579493636,0.4250221810451602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468517317836676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736230007862011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168680283081927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22042552237597732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MakingBadDecisions,2019/07/09,"When our partners pretend they want us to recover Let's share stories!

Mine is way, WAY kinder and sweeter to me when I'm restricting and running his hand over re-emerging bones improves his mood even more and I get lots of compliments.

He is very vocally disapproving when I'm heading toward a binge and if I have binged, will berate me for ""eating shit.""

Thoroughly denies that he wants me to relapse but admitted he knew I had relapsed but didn't mention it to me because he just wanted to see how it would go first. His excuse being ""When I'm sad, I hate people asking me if I'm slipping back to depression. I didn't want to upset you by asking if you're slipping back to anorexia."" Sure.

He is ridiculously tall and keeps the snacks (even the ones I've bought) out of my reach so I can't eat them without him getting something for me.

 I know he doesn't want me to die. I think partners that spur on our ED's genuinely believe they can just encourage us to get down to a nice 17-18 BMI that seems the most popular with dudes, then when we're at their perfect size, they can just cure us with their awesomeness and enough compliments and then we'll just stay that size for them forever more.",6.464357901512713,5.937036832635982,6.490460251046027,81.27419697457357,65.61087866108787,9.86430640489218,33.44737689089153,9.265573868473778,2.740037399420664,949,36,192,15,13,302,143,239,0.107,0.721,0.172,0.8739,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,6,1,7,2,15,15,3,1,5,0,16,7,4,1,2,38,40,21,1,9,10,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,6,10,3,2,5,1,1,2,5,6,0,2,5,2,35,8,26,30,5,22,0,2,1,0,33,7,1,6,10,123,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464599885134229,0.0,0.0,0.20271645220232887,0.0,0.08035369804421648,0.0,0.0,0.14851128563815988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353276928333775,0.0,0.13680400611210244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26976097551629635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620097465362266,0.0,0.17412620674192766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212246586418632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20660497029620464,0.0,0.07491396600478974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014082851816544,0.1352810562158473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716395394949425,0.0,0.0,0.07244252526503145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347906027902883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206509309768167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932180843153498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138448974720627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504013920637756,0.12000016835122665,0.0,0.0,0.1353070410158618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10147825519692928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049812134486075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423484672880007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446225248834764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756745902621977,0.0,0.0,0.10876185317837016,0.3887419179249829,0.20925851864958864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706574289338765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363817380002172,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Misame2,2019/07/09,"Making a change, for real this time For the past decade I've struggled with restricting, binging and purging or over exercising. My weight would always fluctuate between healthy and obese. Sometimes I would be good for a few months, and I would believe that I was 'cured'. But it would always come back. I never told anyone, never sought any help, I assumed I could beat it on my own, and nobody had to know. It's why i never had an official diagnosis.

I'm now 29, and recently got into a relationship with an amazing man. I realised that my problems with eating were interfering, making me insecure, making me hide parts of myself. I am constantly thinking about food, about losing weight (at a healthy weight currently, but still a bmi of 23), it's messing me up.
I realised that at the very least, I am bulimic.

I told my boyfriend about it, it was embarrasing and painful, but I wanted to tell him because he needs to know what he is up against. Slowly I've been telling him about how I feel, my thoughts and when I purge. It is probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

Recently I had a setback, I binged and purged, and burst a bunch of bloodvessels and my throat bled too. I realised I bad I am, and that if I want to continue my relationship with my boyfriend, I need to live, I need to be healthy and I need to change my relationship with myself, and with food.

I do want to get professional help, but I can't afford it right now, not at all. My boyfriend has been amazing, he's my rock. He supports me everyday, listens to me, and never judges. But he is not equipped to help me fix myself. I want to know if any of you have been in a similar situation. If you have any advice for him, and how to deal with me. Or for me, how I can help myself. Because I don't want this anymore. I don't want food and weight to control everything I do. I want to love and live and be happy and confident in who I am.

So, do any of you have supportive spouses? What do they do that helps you? Any advice on changing your mindset, breaking through the habits? Can you ever really truly recover, or will it always be a struggle?",3.8704563522397213,5.113194642180093,4.930406665647458,83.9600833205932,71.77251184834121,8.099189726341539,29.489680476991285,8.558390810932622,2.1328309738572084,1657,67,337,28,31,544,186,422,0.076,0.794,0.13,0.9753,2,0,0,0,0,0,63.0,0,6,1,3,16,15,0,3,15,0,42,13,1,7,7,81,72,35,0,20,13,1,5,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,20,28,9,2,7,2,0,1,9,8,0,1,14,6,66,7,51,48,6,34,0,1,0,1,33,12,0,7,20,249,86,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847466465053526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686765036254498,0.0,0.0,0.2409144385911816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026774691856479,0.049542494876460084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054482056226243206,0.0591598087762911,0.0863834118498109,0.0,0.0,0.07982776066240703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248611887209058,0.06103411531737951,0.0,0.07656758635962146,0.0794683537707907,0.05657084598351032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304696565708246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250093653501809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818230201267786,0.0,0.0,0.06367866028869071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03582571654112077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570294166798091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037018089342725165,0.0,0.0,0.059428650442903186,0.056668108333231965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542499044130722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23745842225439756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681788108804947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513007988232402,0.0,0.0,0.07926707127595486,0.0,0.0,0.06394815364061142,0.0,0.14188601414086738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05655467932727061,0.0,0.0,0.210148230279116,0.218586702792668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04801224307477008,0.0,0.07539324166758629,0.0,0.0,0.0767275601626022,0.06763779255251091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639218050504827,0.06779734034612571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064692543971834,0.04539063993277767,0.0,0.13991879348510666,0.2282107981167438,0.0,0.06050859987683176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964243165265268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007603673072464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05658378828143942,0.0,0.0,0.14814316425540602,0.0,0.0,0.1608076847775409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385836461862328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04707199330722694,0.04540013540166367,0.0,0.0562498557025767,0.04131531256262718,0.0,0.0,0.1354073305572273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846165257687255,0.29253908422042235,0.0,0.0,0.34512245886433285,0.0,0.0,0.06393436675600721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013295001750985,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jendestiny114,2019/07/09,Natalie Dyer. That’s all. I can’t even look at her anymore.,-2.597179487179485,-1.8230112307692288,1.5307692307692342,91.80589743589745,122.84615384615385,4.810256410256411,19.71794871794872,6.42735559955562,0.8179948717948724,46,2,10,1,3,17,13,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6803291464860302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530975159793261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5760684798311342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thintay,2019/07/09,"Feeling Creative Tonight ‪To the tune of Camptown Races‬

‪I fucking hate myself, doodah doodah‬
‪I fucking hate myself, all the doodah day‬
‪Goin’ binge all night, goin’ fast all day‬
‪I bet my money that it will last all year, somebody bet on my life‬",3.0863768115941994,6.160200826086958,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,84.21739130434783,3.066666666666667,25.057971014492754,3.1291,0.2455623188405797,202,8,34,0,6,58,33,46,0.147,0.772,0.081,-0.6794,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,4,7,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,5,4,6,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,2,5,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771559015432856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14784947182203034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5406500471782799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5773816054805853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383502593297307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653530198728512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27440361709040284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18830014761008065
EDAnonymous,MacyLing,2019/07/09,"Purging in restaurants.. Does anybody else purge in restaurants restrooms after you eat?
Do you wait until nobody is in there or just go for it?",3.7360256410256376,6.792312346153849,3.220769230769232,87.40756410256414,79.38461538461539,3.466666666666667,27.89743589743589,3.1291,0.8044512820512821,115,5,18,0,3,34,22,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.519858282919403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6078627698254342,0.4962536217885268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33761303529634495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MonikerOfApathy,2019/07/09,just came home after buying 5 lemon drop bangs it’s called culture honey ✌️,-0.5120833333333329,1.4360036250000014,1.2399999999999984,95.67166666666668,106.5,2.1333333333333333,11.583333333333332,3.1291,-1.625141666666667,62,1,12,0,3,20,16,16,0.149,0.851,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5573136361892016,0.6242395059675353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5474728761381494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gazer_0,2019/07/09,"Is it bad to eat the same thing everyday? So, for the past I would say of a minimum of a year and a half, I have been eating roughly the same thing every day. My routine consists of this

Breakfast: Regular rolled oats(oatmeal) with water or milk with peanut butter put into it. Sometimes, I may add cottage cheese or honey.

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Lunch: Usually white rice with either canned chicken or tuna, some sort of canned veggies( usually green beans or peas), and canned beans (black or kidney beans).

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Supper: Supper is usually a free for all but I usually aim towards healthy food. Try to atleast.

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I was just wondering if that is healthy for me because I started doing this because I am very much into weightlifting and try to eat healthy and I found this routine I enjoyed the most. Although, for the past 5 weeks, I haven't been having bowel movements as much. I still go but def not as much as I used to by any means and sometimes I use stool softeners to help me (btw, I had a whole bunch of blood tests and urine samples done and everything came out completely healthy and had my heart checked out as well).

I was just wondering if it could be because of my eating habits and how I have been eating the same breakfast and lunch pretty consistently for the past 1-2 years.",6.7015300546448096,7.345574836065578,6.1326885245901614,80.06695628415305,64.98360655737704,9.293551912568306,34.29945355191256,9.21078282632365,3.0122866666666663,1036,44,188,17,15,318,137,244,0.009000000000000001,0.872,0.11800000000000001,0.9806,1,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,12,0,24,19,5,3,1,49,33,26,0,4,13,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,9,19,14,0,4,1,2,4,2,1,1,1,10,9,21,4,29,19,12,23,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,13,14,135,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5006471406384274,0.28072972266324664,0.05236999766740992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430081703978427,0.14083524124370705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0880798609085592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074437842744295,0.0,0.0,0.061486872466519835,0.0,0.0,0.049665607246215895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880880532279659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940064675479056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06488493637499376,0.0,0.06921235834356898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312178790315452,0.08443838799092074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04376702309747985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125819119245543,0.05161872859215518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388735828032487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698354386158493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205466217955488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834768871330265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741714352822228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06124209417944634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233133811282132,0.0,0.054508653991912126,0.0,0.06150093945470705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232513227997306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10457058182416863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330252428778307,0.3392661480595667,0.06354199082021754,0.0,0.0,0.06177343370283951,0.0,0.06924197482116326,0.0,0.0,0.08597982909008331,0.0,0.0,0.16702989607698465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05470627620021284,0.0,0.28072972266324664,0.09918488494905256
EDAnonymous,nokia8210,2019/07/09,"Started hoarding food, stopped binging (????) *TW: numbers*

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A little background: Lost 40 pounds in what started out as a healthy way but quickly evolved into excessive fasting followed by binging. The fasting eventually stopped and the binging became way more frequent (daily or more frequently) which caused me to gain 25 pounds back in 2 months. I also developed the habits of laxative abuse and overexercising. After my therapist finding out the extent of everything and strongly suggesting outpatient treatment, (which I should probably do but can't fit in when I'm working 12 hour days) I've been trying to do things differently and not make changes that are based on deprivation or motivated by shame and self loathing. 

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I know it sounds sooooo counterintuitive but I've noticed over the past couple weeks that by keeping everything I usually crave stocked in my apartment, the binge urges I usually get just haven't been happening. This was sort of inspired by that book The Fuck It Diet. Knowing everything is available to me if I want it removes that binge high I get when I go out and buy things to eat. The foods I enjoy are no longer on this pedestal I've been putting them on. It's really weird and I feel like there's still something wrong with having 12 different kinds of snacks in my cupboard but if it keeps me from binging I guess I'm fine with it. Has anyone else experienced anything similar? It's creeping me out because it feels too good to be true and I keep thinking about all the times I've tried to keep things I like in stock and ended up just eating myself sick. I haven't felt this calm around food in so long.",5.878106913756232,7.781533865573772,5.444034212401996,79.65062722736992,67.72131147540983,8.451888809693514,34.57234497505345,8.964715089967882,3.1415944404846763,1339,65,232,24,23,410,187,305,0.136,0.7390000000000001,0.125,-0.7075,3,0,1,0,1,0,37.0,0,0,1,5,13,16,1,1,11,0,16,9,0,3,2,51,40,22,0,4,11,0,3,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,21,17,7,6,9,1,1,4,5,6,0,0,6,5,23,10,38,32,4,52,0,2,0,1,3,22,1,6,26,142,44,5,0.0,0.10953298264234422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392875575148337,0.0,0.20032965401570485,0.22466317551054987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464015043700085,0.09472149679316016,0.0760748959989345,0.08229623128428082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108500125727085,0.0,0.05635401236006704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496715153241804,0.09779524360926273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228935731866416,0.0,0.05961979870748892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931720638296952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18918996534725496,0.0772264811814214,0.0,0.08187940972962299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492525774661845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09348660024110857,0.06604319337410547,0.08876232483110626,0.0,0.08449365255875352,0.0,0.33535695370908164,0.0,0.0,0.08546451706593293,0.09659807686193242,0.0,0.05253899532853452,0.07753902815101188,0.0,0.0,0.1018393098104403,0.0,0.08174938613581496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767390860372664,0.0,0.0,0.09104034699684813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286797780179753,0.0,0.09626792226131026,0.10161142706670702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032855343725134,0.0926548312107758,0.0,0.08181149430470103,0.0,0.0,0.10091535132597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061708191602935177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378923868785839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052499893026529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824983676585804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967205027462428,0.0,0.0,0.0929334154876977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059223052876180286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964409783099796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116918059575725,0.0,0.0,0.1308670188085366,0.0,0.07382721834918203,0.15457741163544206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733652903019104,0.18425035333824452,0.059235442008758125,0.0,0.0,0.053905804018539054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552906094905242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20363165354348534,0.0,0.05452684165342515,0.14675811360840058,0.07415432704921396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730153681341362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010748098050066,0.22466317551054987,0.0
EDAnonymous,DudeWhereIsMyPie,2019/01/01,"I just had the worst binge omfg I fucking hate myself Jesus Christ i just had a 2000 cal binge and I can’t purge because my entire family’s just like wondering about the house 🤮

Why am I like this lol
Gonna fast tomorrow though so whatever 🙃",0.12932773109243811,2.5046888235294134,2.2906442577030823,91.61647058823529,92.13725490196079,6.0515406162464975,17.089635854341733,7.447530270364453,0.5035635854341738,194,5,41,4,7,65,41,51,0.158,0.682,0.161,-0.2127,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,2,0,3,1,4,1,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,5,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111926551624005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266021506458327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32028736775656264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420475695426224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997566915948425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385158613996017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403852866722237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31261716531418604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757101588971905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,exqueeze,2019/01/01,"'Normal' People Fasting Makes me Mad When non-disordered people do 24+ hour fasts and feel great I get really annoyed. Whenever I do fasts, I feel like death and want to lay down and never get up, but these people can exercise??? And it's not like I'm underweight either.

Sorry for ranting ",2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,4.064285714285717,82.54738095238098,80.42857142857143,7.3047619047619055,21.833333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.6403547619047625,228,7,41,5,6,76,43,56,0.13699999999999998,0.705,0.159,0.3168,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,13,10,6,1,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,4,3,4,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,8,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918993178484256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575600501207371,0.1819521530539983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26613231686636746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28079904112998305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508205055595404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488594802958925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700090160634936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643431996114435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495442721606836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5297144921655697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163162340140215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851070572993973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022405385329418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Grumblepuffs,2019/01/01,"Went for lunch with my girlfriend's family and holy shit I get it now! OK, so I don't have an ED but my girlfriend does and I lurk this sub and EDmemes because of her. Today, I went for lunch with her extended family. The moment we sat down, her great aunt who I had only met once before looked me dead in the eye and said ""nice to see you, you used to be skinny but now you have padding"" and pointed at my belly. When I went to put sugar in my coffee, she told me to use honey instead ""because its healthier"" and then shamed me when I put the honey in! To cap it all off, she told me in one sentence that I ""ate too quickly"" but also that ""I didn't eat enough.""

I don't have an ED and I am usually pretty confident in my body. I am a 6 foot tall \~170 pound guy but I left this lunch feeling ugly, fat, and disgusting. I went home and immediately went for a run. My girlfriend told me that this is pretty standard for her extended family. Anyway, I know its not really comparable at all but I feel like I got a little taste of the shit she put up with. ",2.242114467408584,3.3340421621621634,4.279517753047166,87.63975357710653,75.57657657657657,7.38569157392687,22.51828298887123,7.928766900206844,0.915192050874404,808,21,181,12,17,278,122,222,0.121,0.75,0.129,-0.2999,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,1,3,0,0,10,8,3,1,9,1,11,14,7,2,2,27,32,19,1,0,6,1,2,1,5,0,1,1,1,1,11,13,9,0,3,0,0,9,4,4,0,1,15,10,39,4,24,16,3,32,0,0,3,0,24,14,2,0,10,124,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886895598973272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352115967287221,0.0,0.09437078563599496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318888573561755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705247792752636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134820584566781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145930536314005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136501000702395,0.0,0.11215237355749648,0.07922954600038651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794254777269853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886997312013356,0.12227159817927492,0.0,0.10981198915227794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124534209523572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06094971202666821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049707373388725,0.0,0.0,0.05418189153245203,0.11115453139869674,0.0,0.0,0.09313108281186568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181087025735208,0.07515114198029217,0.08434717679172632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483973862659396,0.0,0.0,0.2256576407448845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344662155710897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104767883583889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549470961786328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837580153987575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22768188035759196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512363456889526,0.317919395310212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915701851599724,0.12214463472540148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5140436895790587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThisIsNotGumpy,2019/01/01,"ED Wars: Return of the Boobs Hi! I have finally chosen  recovery and I’m about 7 months into it.

I was wondering if anyone got far enough in recovery to see the Return of the Boobs ™️? I miss them and my butt so much. It would make sticking to recovery 10x easier if I could see them again. 

I am kind of aiming this specifically at the other “older” ladies because I understand that teens probably bounce back faster.

Also, will we ever see the restart of the adult ED subreddit again? 

Thanks!",1.9208238636363648,4.512136177083335,3.669886363636365,84.2955681818182,83.0625,7.657575757575756,21.227272727272727,8.575989854853784,1.70045,387,12,74,10,11,129,69,96,0.055,0.875,0.07,0.3493,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,2,0,7,4,1,0,6,0,6,3,3,1,1,12,16,6,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,10,2,10,11,2,14,0,1,3,3,5,4,3,3,10,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803977433136768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773209149482484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734585369374925,0.0,0.13751261674958135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18010877080093193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23308637790580336,0.0,0.0,0.2040517200385047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24711391685369705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18041843211055208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349088085266251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057765271416895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005729982621566,0.0,0.16582863333520856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432154140593497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.539278642710169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768548190164254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23483868663566024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446339199136684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024689118610974,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilllyyy,2019/01/01,"rant/freaking out about ""recovery"" weight gain okay so i tried to stop restricting and try self ""recovery"" back in early November and have been gaining weight ever since. i was 119lbs back then and this morning i am now 137 FREAKING POUNDS and feel so disgusting. my clothes fit tighter than i'd like. i'm so aware of all the fat jiggling around whenever i walk. my body image is worse than ever & i feel so uncomfortable in my body. i don't want anyone to even look at me. i'm trying not to relapse and start the new year with going back to old habits but it's so hard not too. i can't stand being like this.

also how TF is it possible to gain nearly 20 pounds in like 8 weeks?????? i know i have been eating more but oh my god? like? is this really all fat or could some of it be water weight?? SOS. also idk if this is TMI but i haven't gotten my period back yet. i haven't had a period since june. i thought once i started eating ""normally"" it would come back but it hasn't but yet i am still gaining weight and looking worse than ever??? ok.

basically starting the new year with a breakdown. any advice/encouragement would be appreciated :(",1.4366086956521755,3.7867833565217417,3.0301739130434804,89.72395652173915,82.82608695652175,6.288695652173913,20.50434782608696,7.554174236665415,0.7327182608695648,892,26,187,15,25,293,132,230,0.11599999999999999,0.7290000000000001,0.155,0.9133,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,4,24,8,1,0,5,2,23,11,4,1,5,38,38,22,0,6,9,0,7,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,9,11,9,2,4,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,6,9,20,6,20,26,4,39,0,0,2,0,1,8,0,3,31,119,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573975156580269,0.0,0.10662762254750698,0.0,0.06692244366329808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881083677876529,0.0,0.0,0.0876061163243931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37835759863365664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218623529014164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477184198158058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857269318218355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201396805819288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499913818174692,0.2670535108410049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099518505862114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05592889570384855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815638471105745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05408377978296209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923133936110025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16527989407207996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19009074666302087,0.0,0.0,0.0964212932100236,0.0,0.0,0.1032651558011988,0.10480385957595233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094293463691507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304421938149356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266350514979328,0.0,0.0,0.16281219241689676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896615362307086,0.0,0.07859066907040968,0.08227549727082542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812686158076801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004425964101538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804500106682463,0.0,0.07893888334922307,0.4793493998398452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005772011604756,0.1398158430438836,0.0,0.0,0.12674613654574096
EDAnonymous,shi7863,2019/01/01,"New year “ABC” variation After hitting tons of plateaus last year I have decided to each day consume as many calories as the first number of the date in hundredths. (Jan 1= 100 calories Jan 2= 200 calories, Jan 15= 150 calories Jan 20= 200 calories etc). ",4.587765957446809,6.826875382978728,4.30739361702128,85.10875000000001,71.7659574468085,6.402127659574468,35.15425531914894,7.1686216300943375,2.5134297872340428,201,11,35,2,4,61,35,47,0.0,0.972,0.027999999999999997,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497667178675438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319250318431226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294243336742789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156888794902358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926460965616929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740421647250183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987975492373006
EDAnonymous,girlinamber,2019/01/01,"starting the new year off right! just kidding lol

i woke up, had a waffle, then glanced down my shirt while aimlessly standing in the middle of my room for the past 15 minutes. you know how that ed brain be

i have that stupid little fucking weird roll thing under my titties and i dont know if it's from my bad posture or because i gained a gorillion pounds again and look like a twined christmas ham, but im literally so close to just killing myself because *how could i let it get this bad again *",2.730055555555559,4.761752250000004,3.139333333333333,92.34522222222223,76.5,5.6444444444444475,26.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.8273777777777775,395,15,82,3,9,122,79,100,0.16399999999999998,0.772,0.064,-0.9231,0,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,1,0,1,7,7,3,0,6,1,6,3,2,2,0,13,13,10,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,2,11,1,9,8,0,19,0,0,2,1,2,10,1,2,9,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812707988755326,0.27836020033562703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25487760350784405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822927768644311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675861622085681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110756545608317,0.11928636001780787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24662185148885346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525992521813801,0.0,0.2509544219669461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334698969014353,0.0,0.11154429461990646,0.2288339046127201,0.0,0.0,0.1917290195233523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051026038453647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21795468692427816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949817172425108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16160415224792338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516838615957685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470288483951352
EDAnonymous,MythicalDisneyBitch,2019/01/01,"About last night. Currently trying to wrap my head around recovery, it's not going well. 

Last night I went to see a few friends and one of them pulled me aside to ""talk"". 

Told me I had lost a lot of weight and she was worried for me, I'm too skinny, people are concerned, etc. 

It's nice to know people care about me but all I could do was laugh. Now it's the morning after the night before, a new year, and yet the battle continues.

Good luck for 2019, guys. ",0.7717894736842119,2.871140757894743,2.0265789473684244,97.45355263157896,83.52631578947368,5.063157894736842,16.868421052631582,6.2581,-0.5079684210526314,352,7,81,3,10,112,68,95,0.079,0.736,0.185,0.9143,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,7,9,1,0,6,0,6,3,2,0,1,11,14,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,6,2,10,7,12,7,4,16,0,1,1,0,6,1,0,2,12,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871172511475753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170766798691615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817737562496805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234631330626207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883524891237275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774278871364792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132365060051816,0.14953725984192726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765304874705039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297216398885052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979809441420302,0.29065264712468664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19461947709585808,0.1515717955289945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218906394347233,0.0,0.5019260598595419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081074052259645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472011723117301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420703098711435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329897933266267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703592545273409,0.0,0.12104402294218468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710347796835908,0.1602999054343589,0.16527226909020107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810573870891192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480989471281942
EDAnonymous,shostakovichbanana,2019/01/01,Binge free 2019! Speaking it into existence ✨ ,2.3537500000000016,3.9966868750000017,3.6700000000000017,75.87500000000001,117.75,6.6000000000000005,29.0,7.1686216300943375,3.4113,37,2,5,1,2,12,8,8,0.0,0.626,0.374,0.5562,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quincess912,2019/01/01,"I want to recover so I can enjoy life. I’ve been flirting with recovery on and off, noncommittal as fuck, for about 15 years. I am ready to get better. I want a normal sex life with the person I intend to spend the rest of my life with after a ten year, torturously abusive marriage. I want to enjoy my life, my kids, and my boyfriend. I want to live. 

Idk what I’m going to do or how I’m going to do it but here I go.",0.08467643467643171,1.8201531208791228,3.0060805860805893,91.51947496947498,83.72527472527473,5.8026862026862025,18.902319902319906,6.937597516519254,0.11129206349206333,318,8,75,4,9,113,57,91,0.09300000000000001,0.7440000000000001,0.162,0.2566,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,4,0,5,6,0,2,0,14,16,7,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,12,4,17,15,1,8,0,0,0,2,3,2,1,1,3,49,14,0,0.0,0.24220611894468602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18079425589079828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18898443634656487,0.1068018268554126,0.0,0.34853244688850155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5775559674572829,0.0,0.0,0.18050798087209025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002897240130961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784930195202765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822925251040128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632815622289706
EDAnonymous,OscarTehOctopus,2019/01/01,"Things fueling my relapse in 2019 1. The 16lbs gained since my LW
2. My husband hasn't touched me since early November. 
3. I don't fit into my LW uniform pants comfortably. 
4. My husband's (desired) Weight gain from underweight to healthy BMI.
5. The sexy sweater dress I just bought that my husband promised to take me out for fancy Italian in. 
6. The calories in all the booze I just consumed. 

EDsnonymous this drunk adults needs commiseration and support for 2019. Apparently I never learn my lesson.",2.333975155279504,5.261353391304347,2.877204968944098,86.13891304347828,91.17391304347824,5.6720496894409935,29.39751552795031,7.1686216300943375,2.168525465838509,400,21,70,7,14,124,68,92,0.048,0.753,0.19899999999999998,0.9353,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,0,2,11,6,1,0,2,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,3,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,13,3,10,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,2,37,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679268270355634,0.2786853909434294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5978034453762098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41004097620196095,0.0,0.0,0.2716804753560504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24005626490013654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.440011154124012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iamacrazycatlady,2019/01/01,"weirdly fueled by the new year sorry if i’m being problematic but i am feeling like going HARD at the beginning of 2019. i really really tried to recover by eating maintenance and letting myself enjoy food again, especially for the holidays but god damn ... i just can’t do it. i’m not ready. i haven’t weighed myself in a month, but tomorrow i am weighing myself first thing in the morning. i hate myself so much but i just can’t let go yet",2.138320707070708,4.492178715909095,4.7165151515151535,78.66282828282829,80.02272727272728,8.002020202020201,24.550505050505052,8.841846274778883,2.276662626262626,349,13,64,9,9,123,62,88,0.19,0.65,0.16,-0.2309,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,5,0,9,4,0,0,0,10,16,7,0,1,8,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,1,1,0,2,4,3,0,1,0,2,11,2,8,13,1,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,9,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424571741045287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980813501125688,0.16927584932883316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201548027286251,0.28651871735855405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693262576430265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21225905574186268,0.23393730288634945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845911990914346,0.0,0.11576092720957645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891298014537354,0.0,0.17418419874286,0.0,0.0,0.22884605876366854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30359018282700045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652441230507288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15741786275029784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087228162359826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15258687927315673
EDAnonymous,redtopiary,2019/03/10,"Why do all the other ED folks at the grocery store have to steal my favorite foods? I have a very particular set of strange safe foods that I get at Kroger and lately they’re ALL GONE, like my fav cereal, ice cream flavor, frozen dinners, etc. 
Is this life’s discreet way of suggesting that I starve? Why does everyone have to like the same cardboard flavored low calorie brand of cereal as me?",7.467763157894738,6.857672881578949,6.880526315789478,79.57368421052634,63.605263157894754,10.23157894736842,33.473684210526315,9.516144504307137,2.827457894736842,313,11,61,5,4,97,59,76,0.11699999999999999,0.7140000000000001,0.16899999999999998,0.6641,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,0,5,4,0,0,2,5,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,6,3,8,6,4,7,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,3,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21650051570513806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759152610876887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364003286576737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5983116603584198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292557566992413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27907682681812895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474521693088008,0.2417332912904165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20413006926833266,0.0,0.19637379586055206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44647820029958185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,patriljaz,2019/03/10,"I'm 15 turning 16 soon but I can't find a balance with food for last 7 years Hello. Firs't I'm sorry that my english isn't perfect so please don't mind. The short story withouth details is on the end. Thank you
  So where do I begin? When I was little I wanted to be a dancer or an iceskater. Everyone called me chubby or round but I was not a fat kid at all. Me and my mum always watched iceskating together and I always asked her to train but her answer was that I was to fat and that iceskaters eat only youghurts.
   When I was 9 I still wanted to be a ballerina but my mum told me that I was to fat. So at 9 years old I quit snacking and only ate weggies,meat,frui t and healty stuff in order to loose weight. I refused to eat cakes at birthday and my mum was proud on me. In that time I had binge attacks. My mum is bingeeating herself all the time so it was normal to her. I would eat half a loaf of bread with nuttela,jam,butter and all that I could find. I didn't know nothing abaut calories at that time so I would also drink araund half a liter of milk a day,trying to loose weight.
   When I was 11 I started hiding food and I had panic attacks at school. Everyone thought I was seeking attention but in reality I was o erexersizing and not eating much. I was put in hospital once but I was not skinny enough for noticing.
    After that I started binging again and I putted a lot of weight on so I stopped fainting. In 6th grade(I was araund 13) we learnt abaut anorexia in school and I finded counting callories an amazing idea. So I did it in a healty way. So I though. I would eat 1200 callories per day. I still wanted to be a ballerina so I saved up but my mother was constanyly telling me that I'm to fat and that my ass is to big so I started cutting callories down and restricded. I was in a hospital tvice that gear once beacuse my mead hurt so much I feelt like I would fall. I also couldn't feel my body right but I was tk afraid to tell them that. My weight was normal beacuse before restricting I was fat.
  My mum saw me writting my cal down and saw found my hidden food but she was kinda proud and she was still telling me that my butt is to big.
   I attemped suicede and I had to go to a psychiatrist. He was full of bullsbit and juddged me for my attemt. I fellt even worse. He told me that ballerinas are stick thin and that theyre anorexic. Like all of them? Wtf
  In 8th grade (13/14yo) my aunt eventualy singed the papers and I started going to balle classes. I was so happy and did much better at the beghining. But my mum thought that I was to fat so I went back to not eating much. 
In 9th grade I was 174cm tall and had 50kg and my balle teacher was consurned for my weight loss but my mum still saw me fat.
   I got my shit together for my last year in elemenaty school and wanted to gain a bit for my school dance. I also meet an amazing guy who I'm I curently dating that makes me feel apreciated. So I gained weight.
  I cried to my mum and asked her to send me to treatment 3 times in the past. On my healthcheck the doctor saw my ed and wrote a note to my personal doctpr but he ignored it...ugh
  I couldn't take it anymore so I ''relapsed''. Curently I'm loosing at least 1.5kg per week some weeks even 2kg. I'm back on my safe foods,exercise and counting callories. I can't find a way out and I feel bad for my SO beacuse he is so much supportive but I still can't take it anymore. 

 How can I get help if nobodey wants to help me beacuse I'm not skinny enough? It's to much to hanndle mentaly.



On short: I'm struggling with a mix of restricting and binge eating dieat for the last 7 years. I asked my mum for help 3 time. 1 doctor found out abaut my ed but my personal doctor ignored the note that he recived. 

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EDAnonymous,yelaa,2019/03/10,"for my rice cake gang out there: get your hands on some of the kallø lentil protein cakes. they have a gram more protein per cake than normal rice cakes, and they are super tasty/better textured than rice bois imo. same calorie count too (30 kcal)

this has been a crunchy psa ",4.479339622641508,6.040300660377362,2.9359905660377343,97.61266509433963,70.69811320754717,5.300000000000002,22.683962264150942,3.1291,-0.2741283018867926,217,5,46,0,4,60,45,53,0.0,0.9259999999999999,0.07400000000000001,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,6,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4705218328904261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8823883525825995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jane_doe86,2019/03/10,"Also trigger warning ( need to drop at least 5 kilos to get to the weight I want , support welcome) As I said, I need to drop 5 kilos.
I have been IF for a while and dropped 30lbs but I am obsessive with being a single digit weight in stones. I am 10 but need to get back down to 9 at least. Anyone else get that? 
I am not great at heavy exercise.
Can anybody help shake it off?
ED approx 15 years. Sorry for crappy format etc. I’m on mobile . ",-0.18595307917888704,1.942957892473121,2.1717888563049854,94.55041055718478,88.35483870967741,4.242033235581624,17.056695992179858,5.565023196281405,-0.53150752688172,336,8,74,2,11,114,65,93,0.212,0.7190000000000001,0.068,-0.9153,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,3,0,7,3,0,1,0,11,17,7,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,3,7,3,17,14,4,14,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,3,48,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635086112776332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296495488522046,0.20949602412965865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721906476171085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17080220765894769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280297680491061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204696989533952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254206610128024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370469238958167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4548191255201292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19449068736751995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288790626108109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320216559213031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205972975668275,0.0,0.0,0.4979605577439299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166716567767184
EDAnonymous,dezelita,2019/03/10,"When you get called out for using sweetener... lol I'm 16 and work at a fucking breakfast restaurant. Today I was pouring myself some coffee and had three packs of sweetener to add to it when a co-worker of mine said ""Are you seriously gonna add three packs of those to your coffee? That shit is worse than cigarettes,"" to which I responded with ""Sure, but *clicks tongue* zero calories, ya know."" 

""You don't need to worry about that shit, dumbass.""

Ha.

Hahahahahahaha.


Totally didn't make me wanna starve even more. ",2.342187499999998,5.183910510416666,3.6320833333333375,83.27125000000002,84.52083333333334,6.533333333333335,21.541666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.3108291666666672,403,13,74,8,12,131,75,96,0.142,0.778,0.08,-0.7462,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,0,1,4,6,3,0,2,2,6,4,2,2,2,15,15,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,4,2,10,2,15,10,3,5,0,0,1,1,8,2,3,1,3,50,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25732812471976546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16644876529916386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23297713650130306,0.13166366646326366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849688810357044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682171534092276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868605794531112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397171128072113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5173647398579789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375143550423467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388739137530064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21765381341319626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669293378638008,0.2559261384913514,0.2568174626175165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fortniteandfoxes,2019/03/10,"Missing my ED. I feel weird writing this but part of me misses my full blown Anorexia. I’m what you call recovered now but I miss that disassociated relationship I had with food, I miss being able to say no and have this intense self restraint. Most of all I miss that state, it was awful and painful but it was powerful as well. 

I think some thoughts of Ana are creeping in so I’ll see how it goes. ",1.3285185185185178,3.705216913580248,2.779259259259259,91.1666666666667,83.56790123456791,5.575308641975309,23.814814814814817,6.937597516519254,0.7616518518518514,314,12,68,4,9,102,61,81,0.239,0.674,0.087,-0.8942,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,8,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,1,14,16,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,8,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,4,3,10,1,7,11,5,4,0,5,1,0,6,2,0,2,1,46,18,0,0.29587529502600396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30212175706269323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496034392230553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577735811895477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31483217466703634,0.0,0.0,0.3204041116761451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176593386198435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352919101694549,0.0,0.0,0.2357743030321423,0.0,0.308662460716262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895849421318732,0.0,0.234891934659482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660274234228366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nbarbacc,2019/03/10,"The one moment it goes wrong So like many of us on here, I struggle with binge eating, sometimes for emotional release or boredom. The whole cycle I realize what I’m doing, except for this one moment where I decide. “Fuck all that, I know this is bad, but I don’t care”. Then I fall back into the cycle. I was wondering if or how any of you overcame that little moment where you tell yourself it’s worth it, and allow yourself to fall back into the habit? 
 ",4.5275091575091535,5.186266604395605,5.496428571428575,82.66940476190476,69.76923076923077,7.3853479853479875,26.155677655677657,7.1686216300943375,1.2805369963369957,355,10,68,3,6,117,64,91,0.106,0.763,0.131,0.5182,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,2,0,0,7,6,1,1,4,0,4,2,0,2,1,16,9,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0,4,0,1,2,1,4,0,2,1,0,10,2,10,8,2,14,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,4,7,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190498628454074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435284349164779,0.1865116510515261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277491876489676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285718912152285,0.0,0.2512706577645897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20650975078620784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276293835714512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913141324378353,0.22388386150610487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264706583123053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027339983611073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209269701871108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23352362633351156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19524258579770226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686967366602198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493940297958813,0.0,0.0,0.24224436894019716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24422923688309764,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,parawhour,2019/03/10,"Annoyed/triggered by certain user on another ED subreddit. So I’m not going to name the sub, but it’s another ED sub named after one type of eating disorder. The reason I feel more comfortable posting about it here is because the person in question only frequents that particular sub and I’m also afraid of sounding like a huge asshole to other people there. 

There is this user who keeps posting snapchat pictures of them with captions about the amount of days they’ve gone without behaviors, number of days in recovery, rants, etc. However, there is something about the way said person is doing so that is really off putting to me. I don’t know what it is exactly (maybe the selfies/body check type things?) but what they’re doing seems very unhealthy and counterproductive and just kinda unfit for that sub/the reddit format in general. It feels kinda trigger-baity. 

I mean, I get it. A lot of us with EDs seek validation and attention. There’s just this weird vibe I get from the posts and I’ve been wondering why the mods have been letting it go on even though I’ve seen people comment and tell the OP to post it all in one thread instead of a continuous update especially because when you go to that sub, all you see is their pictures.

I don’t want a witch hunt or anything. It was just eating disorder related and triggering/annoying me. Please don’t trash this person in the comments as I’m sure they mean no harm. I’d rather people discuss it and give their opinion or if you feel more strongly and want to rant and be more specific you can always DM me. 

Anyway, rant over. Thank you for coming to my TEDtalk. ",5.611403993855604,6.738532496774192,6.040046082949308,78.05102150537638,67.58064516129032,8.872503840245775,31.53609831029186,9.107695989026183,2.7572227342549933,1294,52,232,23,21,417,179,310,0.11,0.804,0.086,-0.8737,1,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,1,5,4,1,20,10,0,1,14,0,19,2,0,1,5,50,45,21,0,4,11,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,21,13,2,1,11,0,1,6,6,4,0,2,6,7,20,6,35,37,8,28,0,0,2,0,23,10,0,10,8,152,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629258407447084,0.08978663891929531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262982100055981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887976443295268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315572891788397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985951099190785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295167424671157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13918120060787814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24733980760017335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208300521877328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034398541522738,0.07127105625355531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368191705256255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127531172993297,0.10351350144815567,0.18397681492772155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591202736299756,0.0,0.0,0.05930244952692066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034144502045352,0.0,0.05271754010044287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173802960128004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084063253477002,0.2350830663037634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624012668761238,0.08206756074977037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244258080851185,0.2826587094946494,0.0,0.11844865190875738,0.0,0.0,0.4133774135661233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084755787890962,0.12087968841022265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912750278990157,0.11094559024843856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026435480077932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08598730553356038,0.09823379155869508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307149819638827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017003576375285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431481312454122,0.09934557150685684,0.0,0.0,0.07168811352936644,0.0,0.10601733653219483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979792498517986,0.0,0.0,0.08903395188072001,0.127291796537483,0.0856509536000783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973686011662718,0.0,0.0,0.10401776825100753,0.11701971828389905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WhoreBabyy,2019/03/10,"Does Anyone Else Not Want To Be ""Thin""? Does anyone else have no interest in being ""skinny""? 

I really don't want to be skinny at all. But I l do desire to meet a certain asthetic. I love that curvy, wide hips and tiny waist look. 

I'm fortune or unfortunate that my body just sort of distributes fat in a visually pleasing way (for those who like thick girls) but I have been looking into liposuction and fat re-distribution surgeries, and fully intent to have ""something"" done this year. 

I feel as though when I first started with my eating disorder, thin was just the goal. But now, I purge just because of the intense, physical satisfaction it gives me, and yeah, I guess keeping my weight down is something I need to do regardless.",5.129130434782611,6.59717698550725,5.781855072463768,78.1888695652174,69.0,8.998260869565216,29.74202898550725,9.3871,2.6946063768115947,576,22,105,12,10,187,98,138,0.068,0.785,0.147,0.872,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,4,1,13,10,7,1,2,26,25,11,0,5,8,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,6,7,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,7,13,4,15,19,1,15,0,0,2,1,5,9,0,3,6,69,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373279447793295,0.347772367613097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103452589784104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18850763647938693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450038696187755,0.0,0.29702571168392666,0.17367048765144688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365393391409567,0.283538975968025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580960343390905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443537727441873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16279964218287876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869527989311608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508445132015065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291089128515396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850244191884093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316834480988406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258365361784932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628872444671454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871946713954428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612994438941111,0.0,0.0,0.12012039113173854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667375193685971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019667617462536,0.13470653010128214,0.0,0.2066589603120156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092865655442939
EDAnonymous,cocainecalories,2019/03/10,"I’m fine. Does anyone else work and it makes them feel kinda invalidated? Like on one hand, it’s great to be able to provide for yourself but on the other hand, we all know people too sick to work. Like I’m diagnosed but not underweight so I can work 40+hours a week and not be completely dead at the end of it. I know so many people who are underweight and collect disability or have to rely on their parents bc they’re so sick and in comparison to that, I’m just... a normal part of society. ",2.228338833883388,4.092431811881191,4.20844884488449,84.8781078107811,77.4158415841584,7.657205720572058,24.093509350935093,8.515128840125781,1.548583278327833,387,13,82,8,9,132,68,101,0.08,0.743,0.177,0.8352,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,2,3,5,4,0,0,4,0,5,5,2,1,1,18,12,10,1,1,6,1,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,5,4,13,10,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,2,4,50,11,3,0.2034706278934083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227139395081215,0.20847970332315865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21333508215554428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20651840428873972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780585176338865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997360082423044,0.0,0.18021458303158688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028808630712243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243270855669003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003775824381912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236442717471874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19881094218063575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581822409416916,0.20628728070605734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993580144307059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787696332181246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259300531502491,0.22033886194062013,0.0,0.28212182808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632118645370155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443871212896508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,awfulyoung,2019/03/10,"Welp, Here We Are Again, You Stupid Bitch It started with a heaping plate of Pad Thai, a package of double stuffed Oreos, and a bag of Jalapeño potato chips and it ended with my head in the toilet. The next day it was two big bowls of Panda Puff Peanut Butter Cereal and every nibble of my roommates food I could sneak without them knowing (yes, I’m a horrible food stealing monster) and again... ended with my head in the toilet. Then onto crying in the Fred Meyer parking lot, $25 worth of Taco Time, and guess what happened next? Yeah... head in the toilet. Move on to self harming for the first time since December and laying in bed in the dark while Crazy Ex-Girlfriend plays silently in the background and disassociation to forget the past 24 hours. 

It’s been a rough few weeks... I dropped two classes 8 weeks into the quarter, I’m barely meeting deadlines for work, and all the while I’m shuffling between eating and yeeting  everything in sight and restriction while my doctors are lowering and upping my dosage of meds because they have no better clue of how to help me any more than I do. 

I don’t know where I am in my head anymore and I don’t know how to find myself as I slip deeper into this... It’s scary and lonely up here... I hate being alone... I don’t remember how I got here and I don’t know how to go back... I don’t even believe I am ready for change. I’m tired of not being able to move forward in life because I’m chained down by my own mental capacity, or rather incapacity. 

I felt like no one understood what I’m actually going through until I found this community. I’m so thankful to have found this and you guys have given me hope that maybe, with baby steps, I’ll get closer to having a healthy relationship between my body and my mind something I have wanted since I was 7 years-old...  As for tonight, it’s time to just sleep this day off... thank god I won’t ever have to do this day again...",4.402115384615385,5.225307000000001,5.165833333333335,84.33173076923079,70.14583333333334,7.366025641025642,27.790064102564106,7.321109707123232,1.4084518429487185,1504,50,303,14,26,488,217,384,0.11900000000000001,0.804,0.076,-0.9498,1,3,1,0,0,0,57.0,1,2,2,3,17,12,3,0,17,2,24,12,6,4,2,52,52,29,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,14,23,3,1,10,1,1,6,10,6,0,5,9,4,35,6,54,39,6,55,0,1,1,0,10,22,1,4,29,196,49,3,0.09556029730989964,0.0,0.09325306543585248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09897164853527976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498427907295531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477013711354523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347997004618359,0.0,0.11650534056300488,0.0,0.0,0.10766373130208948,0.0,0.08451531734541552,0.0,0.10614594778434773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10109012371063074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629712158979278,0.0,0.10496849942905326,0.18488545877620102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781001353318784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778204080240407,0.0,0.0,0.16927611923525146,0.0,0.0,0.06311667512256029,0.08643975984707343,0.08051367196541795,0.0,0.0858834334585969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917528712732798,0.0,0.08734038052049431,0.08128354007480013,0.2311037816462228,0.20955386725507386,0.0,0.0,0.04992631123860127,0.0,0.10861823829826332,0.0,0.07642829935801959,0.0,0.10527044105003457,0.09461971830534166,0.08450365531841593,0.0,0.0,0.094346009684067,0.3922897367455935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06405205296220992,0.0,0.0,0.09491293710933876,0.09410764369422188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006976113538176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749706404371872,0.0466859343285545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124194750430642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600316282474126,0.0,0.10614594778434773,0.0,0.09630230366658196,0.0,0.09648865910439557,0.0,0.0,0.20313094583359625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325892059402945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027445705449606,0.0,0.06475413057712083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122311665532357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025959968679048,0.10825118848546594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969023102066993,0.0,0.0,0.15809693085522786,0.0,0.09562930981377098,0.0,0.0,0.07356698552288171,0.0,0.0,0.06763807028209795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595816566421582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716593351087042,0.10983250427011113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669705003499096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056363939235308975,0.0,0.1533054127874497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211671652958144,0.0,0.06956903455925492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway6112443375,2019/03/10,"I got dumped today. On top of that, I had to move out of my shared house and back in with my dad. It was increasingly toxic there, dirty, smelled bad and overall just miserable. On the bright side I had my privacy and now I don’t. 

The girl I was living with said “your eating disorder is out of control, get help.” during one of our house meetings, so in front of everybody else. It was humiliating. She’s been saying to other people that I’ve “been on a downward spiral for months”. 

The guy i was seeing called out my behaviour when he took me out to eat last week. I didn’t even realize what I was doing but he said he recognized it, and he said I could let him know if i ever wanted to talk about anything. A week later I get hit with the “it’s not that I don’t like you, I’m still just hung up on somebody else”.  

Hearing that phrase has become a pattern with people I’ve tried to date. You start to think there’s something wrong with you... when every venture is a failure. The only thing I can think of doing is to make myself smaller. I’m tall (5’9”) and always feel huge even though i’ve slipped into “underweight”. So frustrating i can’t get like, height reduction surgery. Maybe i’d be liked better if I was petite, or had bigger tits or something. Grass is greener, I guess. 

Probably one of the toughest days of my life so far. Just needed to post somewhere. 

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EDAnonymous,distimias44,2019/03/10,"I don't know how to ask for help When I was 15/16 I was aware I had an eating disorder, even though my then psychologist told me I was healthy (ok, does avoiding to eat and purge every time and track your status counts as healthy? cool) I remember I recovered myself, alone, but I did it. My relationship with food was fine, until now. 

I just started to lose weight suddenly, and without noticed, I lost almost 10 kgs in less than a year. Now, I just realized that I lost 3kgs in 2 months. Sometimes I forget to eat, other times I don't want to spend money, so I avoid it. But I am tired all the time, in a bad mood, with terrible headaches all the time, and I want to sleep all the time. I try to eat, but I get empty so fast. I am turning 25 in a month, and I don't know how to tell my parents that my eating disorder, might be back",2.054285714285715,3.378063919540232,3.6341543513957326,91.14413793103449,76.47126436781609,7.040394088669951,23.34811165845649,7.7094869923839395,0.8575973727422004,638,19,147,9,14,212,103,174,0.205,0.723,0.07200000000000001,-0.9728,1,3,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,3,12,11,0,2,7,2,13,9,1,2,3,29,24,17,0,2,6,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,7,7,2,4,0,2,0,4,7,0,0,9,2,28,3,19,13,4,21,0,3,0,0,7,4,0,2,17,97,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453526343988495,0.11846340778769478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069300611158866,0.0,0.0,0.08795132530005037,0.09550270211472044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621792723528562,0.0,0.1000948972078968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.585197576544311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755470534633161,0.0,0.0963702645725263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830901036611434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05975894162746528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666664728734429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257207500609307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796220360008453,0.2497190331365837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133933308284715,0.0,0.0,0.18259439321076434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13022263323147396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700569311010074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280154563673107,0.12957048684993006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144628193283689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312495763097648,0.0,0.08095890510447261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999733496884571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237798079688988,0.0,0.3334801168277643,0.13146323148346786,0.0,0.10929519738017557,0.0,0.07765665807743585,0.1244128291459706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492882895192207,0.0,0.0,0.13928428803183246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025844588632268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736571085536238
EDAnonymous,Joudsjourney,2019/08/06,"Is there a way, other than eating, to feel more energized and less light headed? Uhh, i am not asking for tips to starve myself or anything, i am trying to recover but my food intake is still pretty low and i dont think im ready to eat like a normal human being yet.

Its been 3 times now ive fainted as soon as i woke up. I cannot concentrate in any of my classes and im pretty sure i failed freshman year of college. 

I dont know what im really looking for, but does anyone have tips to feel more energized and less like shit while restricting? Should i get vitamin pills? Energy drinks? More water?",1.1916501240694792,3.3838357580645173,3.3558064516129043,87.99217121588093,82.54838709677419,6.396029776674937,19.21588089330025,7.61054688173877,0.6917662531017368,470,12,96,8,13,160,85,124,0.138,0.64,0.222,0.9193,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,1,0,2,0,12,10,2,0,1,16,20,10,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,4,5,1,4,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,4,12,5,14,16,5,11,0,2,1,0,2,3,1,1,9,61,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681647461167644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983058294714043,0.0,0.12925944817144713,0.0,0.14684404279554306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745750461399622,0.0,0.36818176462338936,0.15387382809477315,0.0,0.32145414330509103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15884381043070528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899358704677058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206527229278962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120439936889985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5090042832918178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632438347822227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347794851520682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190354866444548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390027701337408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196037531059879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062635029971936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612353635274911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544040157454653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480414509452765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064740077135398,0.0,0.0,0.09159177136137166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066437024638307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467892680372572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115123369210667
EDAnonymous,Ep1cDuCK,2019/08/06,"Why I regret letting my therapist convince me to get rid of my scale My therapist thought that the number on the scale was the cause of my dysmorphic episodes--like that seeing a higher number would trigger it, and that weighing myself durring recovery would be triggering. This seems to be the popular opinion of people outside the eating disorder world, with the ""smash your scale"" campaign and all those scales that just say ""beautiful! Gorgeous! Sexy!"" or whatever instead of showing numbers. I really wanted to recover, and I knew that seeing the number on the scale go up would suck, so I agreed.

But weighing myself is usually more of a comfort than anything. I know that the number on the scale is reality, unlike what I see in the mirror. Weighing myself during dysmorphic episodes helps to bring me back to earth, 4/5 times it shows me that, despite everything that my dysmorphic brain is percieving, I haven't actually gained weight since the last time I weighed myself. And even when it does show that I've gained weight, at least that makes me feel less crazy, like I'm not just hallucinating the changes that I see in my body.

I've definitely had periods of abusing the scale, weighing myself every day and freaking over normal fluctuations. But if I'm not over-using the scale, I'll just assume the worst anyway.

So now, here I am. I'm the middle of a relapse, having restricted to 500-999 calories per day for the last week. It's physically impossible for my stomach to be bigger now than it was last week, right? I'm crying and obsessing over the way my stomach looks in the mirror and in photos, desperately trying to figure out what's real and what's in my head. Without the scale, it's just me and the mirror, with no objective way to measure anything. There's nothing to tether my last sane brain cell to reality. This is so much worse without the scale.",7.511561604584529,7.741520349570202,7.478537249283672,72.52554226361032,63.269340974212035,10.30378223495702,35.21504297994269,10.008157457239328,3.556021088825215,1498,62,256,29,20,481,179,349,0.11599999999999999,0.809,0.075,-0.9508,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,0,2,16,10,1,1,26,0,17,14,6,4,1,45,37,17,0,7,12,0,3,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,23,12,8,1,7,3,0,2,6,5,0,0,5,9,31,5,39,25,6,37,0,1,5,0,4,17,1,5,17,174,54,0,0.0,0.1267712134747208,0.10441138469190528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17609502906058555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822723133420136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188469819817576,0.0,0.2388829218692143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991302117019268,0.11318619657134572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752864448148455,0.13800544907913606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262518599468422,0.0,0.09363177551822532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948228061416823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066898461615605,0.0,0.09014764219543936,0.0,0.09615992962371443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054099730831258484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590031024306926,0.0,0.060807548848452166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980742140376586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171628633209935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058801484271664185,0.3488598157136658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940932112656704,0.0,0.05227220173510396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984859352196567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141978737471588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786534091876296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104832080503531,0.10266429211545154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417664716801715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178338299666687,0.06854353910279175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137288189492583,0.0,0.08508647309879802,0.0,0.0,0.341043665766228,0.09740394866256524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850711442558301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248458166792612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494183359357671,0.12477893003378955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264237218306878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870143991347224,0.0,0.11783953654336042,0.0,0.06310824115800523,0.16985481177069225,0.171649375332467,0.26058141931302153,0.0,0.0,0.0965460670799676,0.0,0.0,0.2062781288995038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090367314065542,0.2280178769494312,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maxcollins164,2019/08/06,"Went to the doctor today... Asked the lady who weighed me not to tell me my weight, and she didn’t. Gave me a weird look like they always do. Then when she was entering it into the computer later, she read it out loud as she typed. I know she just forgot but like

Hot fucking damn if I didn’t want to relapse before I sure as hell do now knowing I’m 60 pounds heavier than I used to be. Fuck me. I’ve been able to avoid knowing my weight since I started recovering and that was literally the only thing keeping me sane. I’m so upset now and I don’t know what to do

I know I don’t want to relapse but I just wish that my brain was able to let me lose weight without taking it to far. Like I know I don’t want to relose those 60 pounds because I was so unhealthy back then, but I just want to lose so I’m more happy with how I look and at a healthier weight :(",0.8194652406417121,2.419073834224601,2.7085561497326225,95.23577540106956,80.71122994652407,5.469518716577539,20.090909090909093,6.2272716619740125,-0.1197037433155077,665,17,159,5,17,222,97,187,0.19399999999999998,0.68,0.126,-0.9657,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,11,14,4,2,6,0,15,9,1,2,1,33,41,17,0,6,9,0,5,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,7,5,3,6,1,0,2,7,9,0,0,10,8,29,5,19,29,1,15,1,2,2,2,10,4,4,1,12,101,38,4,0.22903371887960866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528720080825716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705780493651616,0.0,0.0,0.08805639620533195,0.0,0.06980841460744393,0.0,0.09744541281803136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278386881341099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721285813146025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21173798250402048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190532630602033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10178784640195478,0.0,0.0,0.3776128264410752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710124753180527,0.0,0.16784145915686122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19233064024277968,0.2562301468698833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709523193129222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11454784932832834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094729529513179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105562252653432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793078477065243,0.0,0.08610242649973082,0.0,0.10009278268528757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607991290973573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854859264402124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890579828668923,0.0,0.0,0.27018004290846337,0.0,0.0,0.5578027351045084,0.0,0.10615827599601864,0.0,0.0,0.13168873677642787,0.11039016595631244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thatcatistooold,2019/08/06,"Being hungry makes me feel powerful Whenever I fast, I always feel so incredibly proud of myself. ""Did I really just go 24 hrs without binging on food I don't need?"", ""I can't believe I stuck through those hunger pains. I am so strong.""

At night, I often think ""Okay, tomorrow won't eat"" and I feel great. I'm excited for the day ahead. By morning, I convince myself that I should just eat three meals and no snacks and I'll be on my way to being thin. By nightfall again, I've binged my weight in food.

I guess it seems to be much easier to avoid a binge if you're avoiding food altogether.",1.161884615384615,3.4353386500000016,2.956666666666667,90.30576923076923,83.33333333333334,6.35897435897436,20.89743589743589,7.61054688173877,0.8010512820512816,458,14,98,8,13,152,87,120,0.09699999999999999,0.741,0.162,0.8365,1,2,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,6,9,0,2,2,1,10,10,0,1,0,19,21,6,0,3,4,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,9,2,5,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,2,5,17,6,14,13,1,13,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,6,59,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480507059384112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960697362300014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223353397533292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561477707727657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26398105374048003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6313053192721457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989040091558419,0.0,0.0,0.19186626376272573,0.1917112416583653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616490778179073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12793045682237714,0.12903940852819065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633133012404178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18517784896664127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114866648529426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584283730026182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150998724185104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381351672339278,0.0,0.21191897691690456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775658890784068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thegirlinthetardis,2019/08/06,Shout out to Urban Decay eyeshadow primer and NYX Matte eyeliner I purged and my makeup did NOT move. This shit is POWERFUL.,4.798260869565219,7.190958608695652,5.8254347826086965,73.77989130434786,71.6086956521739,9.817391304347826,24.54347826086957,10.125756701596842,2.988669565217392,100,3,16,3,2,33,22,23,0.096,0.675,0.22899999999999998,0.5799,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7193021634214303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6946973425148897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yayy_depression,2019/08/06,dreaming about food i keep having dreams about food. my friend told me that it means I'm starving myself or something but I don't feel like I am. does anyone have or has had these dreams?,1.7881578947368406,4.1399507105263185,1.778157894736843,99.2346052631579,81.36842105263158,3.8,17.394736842105264,3.1291,-1.0163368421052636,149,3,32,0,4,44,31,38,0.114,0.6990000000000001,0.187,0.4469,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,6,11,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,6,2,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20029069572215452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506720668560868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483642191736326,0.2046380934942965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6927467125778429,0.0,0.2213085654918983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546076276275991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399437399914126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31202521442120074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22052121783646728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27371278445721925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pugtastic_smile,2019/08/06,"Some help for someone considering starving herself for the first time in 15 years. I've always been fat, like obese fat. As a teen I got hocked on positive attention I got from losing weight so I starved myself 2 days a week. Thankfully that git better after getting therapy. Well now I'm struggling to not fall back into that pattern. In my church we are asked to fast (but really be vegan) many days in the year. Problem is that this is impossible because my job. I was thinking about punishing myself for God by not letting myself eat the rest of the day if I break the fast. Help, I know this can cause issues.",2.7245518207282906,5.1797033529411785,3.944726890756304,84.44353291316528,78.49579831932773,6.991876750700281,25.04271708683473,8.07648339933343,1.7077725490196074,485,18,91,9,12,158,89,119,0.13699999999999998,0.703,0.16,0.2516,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,3,5,8,1,1,7,0,8,5,2,1,0,12,16,4,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,5,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,4,1,13,4,16,10,2,20,1,1,0,0,5,5,0,2,14,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14924034529145644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767565464559786,0.0,0.0,0.13791534291420013,0.0,0.1093350608674957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862770447333374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18425022209363165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34701349811305915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18352815984598084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525619470945664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370722838598113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286898187565548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24043996869050166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18720330538602836,0.17798528417653867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985705462477765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340585584913646,0.0,0.08762533025184371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20065588698470974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184100835053205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162152257393626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490142085365412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196957479977474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18750407669853675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512888301996767,0.2051116708082658,0.0,0.0,0.11492545759048553,0.0,0.0,0.10458517710896233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387028575198949,0.21840990207863745,0.1612645130182379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310015306667737
EDAnonymous,Queenbeezzzzzz,2019/08/06,Hate my 'everything' The worst feeling in the world is having a friend group made out of people who are 1# better at everything than you 2# skinnier and prettier than you NATURALLY,15.622727272727275,8.960143393939399,14.08606060606061,52.84909090909092,54.45454545454546,18.04848484848485,51.18181818181819,14.554592549557764,6.968054545454546,144,6,24,4,1,47,29,33,0.175,0.584,0.24,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,1,0,4,1,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,2,6,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32922902858864195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6691170371843823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188223159833496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876030555274962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675244452144851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522363950960856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580745357008599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fluffy_Hair,2019/08/06,"I'm so sick of comparisons I'm losing friends I've had since first grade because our damn parents won't stop comparing us. A friend's dad literally came up to us while we were talking and called us a before and after picture, friend and me respectively. And another friend is jealous because her mom always talks about my weight loss so she doesn't even talk to me anymore. She stopped taking pictures with me because apparently I just make her look a lot bigger in comparison. I don't go out of my way to make new friends bc I'm awful at it and this just makes me more and more alone.

I'm trying to recover and thinking I make progress but then something like this happens and I want to stop but at the same time it feels good to be compared positively??? I wish it didn't hurt my friends so much and I just feel like a selfish asshole for even feeling a little bit good about something so shitty that makes people I love feel terrible about themselves I'm just a shitty person. I want to start recovering but then I feel stuck in some state of sort of recovering but being able to revert so easily I'm so sick of being like this I'm so tired.",2.746883116883115,4.825216069264074,3.922510822510823,86.53233766233768,76.61904761904762,6.651082251082251,26.15151515151515,7.62386473244151,1.41363722943723,916,35,184,13,21,298,129,231,0.174,0.596,0.231,0.9149,2,1,2,0,0,0,11.0,5,0,0,4,16,20,2,0,7,1,10,5,0,5,0,42,39,23,0,3,8,3,6,3,6,1,3,0,0,1,7,13,1,3,6,0,0,2,4,7,0,1,5,7,25,13,25,30,7,23,0,3,1,1,24,8,1,3,14,110,32,1,0.09618138359454104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961490661634524,0.0,0.0,0.08003061608065266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085456690820004,0.0,0.0,0.09538608781704637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17589383614771611,0.0,0.08184327334531988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500516012528904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982119463733859,0.11000587981920328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270537935119234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24316098736311625,0.06871199965788928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181183575123402,0.0,0.0,0.4458569902614276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05466209679763242,0.16134476252852928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505287986875537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029641604086473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409680971448508,0.0963990141178246,0.0,0.0,0.0807681383189619,0.10760236599717543,0.0,0.08176997285325284,0.08680745386600366,0.0,0.3210091020501987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126464740138808,0.0,0.0,0.07070438371382304,0.0,0.0,0.09289257961974448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679804418239147,0.0,0.0,0.06668006101885803,0.08398187426584414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956223442039789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480902561766583,0.0,0.0,0.06807767835108071,0.0,0.0,0.2412358302069103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231643054221656,0.23192085854170394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06162914697332859,0.0,0.0,0.0560841382441748,0.11054635158882303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530084594885988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470830858884703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346054403556248,0.07634430542244715,0.0,0.11712301380254862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060384443770067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stixstonesnbones,2019/08/06,"[TW relationship drama] Guess who's back, back again, etc so, i got fat again

i used to be about 200lbs, and dropped down to 120. but, my boyfriend LOVES carbs and HATES me taking ages to make dinner. so, guess who gained most of it back!!! i am back to 180, 2 years hard work down the drain.

thing is, he doesn't understand his role in it - i try to call him out but honestly its a lost cause. he is a picky eater, but at 6ft3 he can afford to be. and now he says ""you promised not to put the weight back on, so now i dont care what you do to fix it, just fix it!""

gladly, hun :-)",0.06973118279569945,1.7257167258064567,1.3819354838709683,103.55956989247312,83.35483870967741,5.101075268817205,15.172043010752688,5.985473137389443,-1.1105731182795702,430,6,116,3,12,136,85,124,0.094,0.7340000000000001,0.172,0.9198,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,3,14,7,1,0,4,0,9,4,1,3,0,16,20,9,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,3,11,5,16,16,2,19,0,1,0,1,15,6,0,3,11,71,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6173877637362836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639720524886081,0.0,0.1637239277610748,0.16496182394596856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882007661208832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909124287759698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284319979911742,0.0,0.3537980875417556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384982200009602,0.15854136004594946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529409011701835,0.0,0.1449314152435533,0.0,0.10718965110533624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16142914130835986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240484184944313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770115538698104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073758827236153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668346496276168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902455490260557,0.0,0.0,0.16717139916036933,0.0,0.1386911848683481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19554546749171994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690552036108624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340946512872258
EDAnonymous,packyuromanticmind,2019/08/06,"bulimia just picked up a dead rat out of my purge bucket, this might just be a wake up call for me",5.84090909090909,3.166532181818184,6.3990909090909085,88.36863636363636,68.0909090909091,10.618181818181819,26.54545454545455,8.841846274778883,1.299763636363637,76,1,20,1,1,25,19,22,0.185,0.815,0.0,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,5,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6934867203375077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7204694085910431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tallyoo,2019/08/06,"Food sucks (TW cuz I'm gonna be ranting about food very violently. and purging.. fuck food)

So I ate 
And I ate nicely
But I hate eating and I feel so full I want to die :) mother of my bf is cooking for us so I feel obligated to eat but I HATE it.. I hate feeling so full I wanna purge but I can't bcz I'm not alone hahah :))))) I want to get rid of it so badly ughh my stomach feels like it's expanding and I hate it so much I don't want a bigger stomach.. that would mean I'm gonna eat even more... I feel so hopeless and confused I don't want this

I just wanna lose my weight and look pretty :( I want to be happy with myself and find myself good looking. The only thing I see that when looking into the mirror is how fucking fat I am. Absolutely disgusting. I hate it to no end. I'm so disgusted at it, so absolutely disgusted with myself for eating like a pig. 

I deserve the worst",-1.7287265664583664,0.14586560209424348,1.640128356696504,94.27762540111469,102.40314136125654,4.139908799189326,16.63249451106232,6.0311780096671335,-0.3127903732477617,674,20,154,8,31,240,99,191,0.327,0.525,0.149,-0.995,0,1,0,0,0,2,28.0,1,0,0,1,14,22,12,1,5,0,9,16,3,2,0,33,41,22,1,8,5,1,6,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,10,10,12,0,7,1,0,0,5,17,0,0,2,10,28,5,16,34,5,7,0,2,4,2,3,5,3,1,4,99,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494501281675654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846044570609195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051622296255871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147344285812912,0.0,0.0,0.08974633021486865,0.0,0.0,0.06692603768570163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561718301221619,0.07238858048157777,0.0,0.0,0.09261174779640403,0.0,0.36757783192150817,0.0,0.0,0.18735178466921784,0.05293957866085955,0.0,0.0,0.0849889275943703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078652973548692,0.0,0.5002009839198978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900726216005044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552694249982325,0.1133598581001331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037564883803112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448757125904404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706433652354848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308677199957923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074511524226116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731766918978276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188483341932625,0.0,0.0,0.08360602370866038,0.29882872585192244,0.0,0.0,0.12338992829642208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198034191198571,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-flameohotman-,2019/08/06,"Inpatient question Those of you who were inpatient for medical stabilization before you could go to residential treatment, how long were you in the hospital for? Asking for someone who needs to be treated ASAP and just trying to get more information on the process.",12.637333333333338,11.368817288888893,11.540555555555553,52.39750000000001,53.88888888888889,15.222222222222225,49.16666666666667,13.816669648895859,7.175666666666667,218,12,30,7,2,70,35,45,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,7,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,9,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,1,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33882000696623754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30839839719683765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893682003886327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893529734035155,0.0,0.2059754253557384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207361928606829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36510673490078094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26873477916721084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060008090739004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070829364056857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24606391463908386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KellyRKapoor,2019/08/06,"""Normal"" people really get on my goddamn nerves sometimes So I'm ""dieting"" at the moment, not heavy restricting like I used to but definitely eating less than I should in an effort to lose weight at a ""healthy"" pace. Like any other millennial girl, I've got a finsta that my close friends follow and I use to vent about shit like my ED, depression, work & school. Long story short my roommate has been following my posts and awkwardly trying to bring them up in conversation, even when I expressed to him that 1) I only let him follow the account on the condition that he be cool about it and not bring shit up and 2) I don't wanna talk about mental health stuff with people who don't understand. Last night as I was about to go to sleep he starts up talking about ""I don't know anyone who's ever counted calories or thought they're fat, and you know you're \*fine\* as far as how you look, right?"" Like BITCH, you acknowledged at the beginning of this uninvited talk that you don't know shit about EDs and thought you might trigger me, but you went ahead anyway? When you've known for years at this point that it's something I hate discussing? HOW do some people get the idea in their tiny little minds that telling someone she looks ""fine"" is going to cure all the bullshit they're going through? It's so incomprehensible to me that some people think they have the right or the power to lecture me about what's ok and not okay when they don't know the first thing about anorexia or BDD, and they actually believe that the dumb, uneducated shit they're spewing is somehow going to help someone who's been struggling with this disease for a decade. Can't wait to move out",6.04223076923077,6.531059030769232,5.8878076923076925,81.79294230769231,66.38461538461539,8.715384615384616,29.788461538461537,8.548686976883017,2.0335076923076927,1335,44,262,18,20,417,183,325,0.183,0.748,0.069,-0.9928,1,0,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,6,5,6,19,21,7,2,14,3,18,10,6,5,2,48,48,23,0,3,8,0,1,4,1,2,2,0,0,1,21,12,4,2,11,0,1,11,9,11,0,1,7,4,31,10,45,37,4,45,0,2,2,0,29,20,6,7,17,161,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.09798047333741124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087884168474068,0.0,0.06827861790171921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020527904738708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113121679217152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864783942332572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273904237826977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631633689560687,0.09082177133162876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540416010825742,0.0,0.0,0.07757239815816905,0.0,0.104914590942087,0.0,0.2282491487394669,0.0,0.080302785892045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991288237350196,0.0,0.10672546794878353,0.0,0.0,0.067299133150613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334464993447813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207191209610177,0.08184320601840707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026705766151663,0.0,0.19621059843261332,0.10063185553042278,0.0,0.08885497246085529,0.16862926869440056,0.1123271420237196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118429086093192,0.10651348692663017,0.10138009347525496,0.0,0.0,0.10671427330151798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422298020098947,0.09837525763105684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636227513621231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27843182126356464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491486580494356,0.0,0.09615991843013456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432180193117923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17149007734522048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161488531630006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122557992504628,0.0,0.0,0.10047717999070592,0.0,0.1701451003340795,0.07729641947799351,0.09930278492198116,0.0,0.0710669414554293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496476016648287,0.11493932432923755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421044088971129,0.08775810616811608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670440060984535,0.06433525769364112,0.0,0.15942018365534608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681681794744101,0.0,0.0,0.10452480132693448,0.0,0.17343479347510174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226583759310923,0.0,0.09307613401832368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07309579480184951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465731490071
EDAnonymous,crochetyhooker,2019/08/06,"Safely inside a month free from purging! http://imgur.com/a/k2r1vqg

My binging is subjective and very self critical.  Soda free is a personal goal. They're not going well but now that I have one on lock the others will be focused on. I also get tested for celiac disease at the end of the month.",4.641666666666667,7.265645759259264,4.573851851851857,81.50633333333336,72.8888888888889,6.542222222222222,25.61481481481481,7.554174236665415,1.626130370370371,237,8,38,3,5,73,46,54,0.057,0.764,0.179,0.7843,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,6,6,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,28,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764582136546045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061898596675735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061532011638232,0.0,0.19647073250577227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5518729730323979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342570026283472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30185414246554715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606431667307541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852408182644263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31082812013420946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ouranox,2019/08/06,"Helping out a SO with ED and other symptoms of ED Hi all, I've been dating my wonderful girlfriend for a while now and been dealing with her eating disorder (bulimia nervosa) and I'd be interested in anyone who's had experience dealing with it or any ED with a partner. I'm learning to be more considerate and try and help her as much as I can as she suffers from anxiety and self-esteem issues.  
As for the ""other symptoms"" we were discussing were how much she has cravings, almost insatiable. Initially we chalked it up to her just loving food. But it comes to the point where it's constantly on her mind. Every day she'll say hey I want this food or that food. Sometimes we'll walk past people and she'll eye their food and say I want that. Even doing mundane everyday tasks, outta nowhere she'll have cravings and occasionally leads to bulimia kicking in. I myself could never have many cravings. Even after a full meal and our gut's about to explode, she always has room for ""something more"", no matter what. I know what I describe is generic sounding but any thoughts would be helpful on whether it's another ED or she really *really* just loves food. 
We do plan on seeing a professional for her ED but as a partner I'd like to know what I can do to help.  
Thanks ya'll.",4.6293172690763065,5.957582232931732,5.538333333333334,79.9941666666667,70.0441767068273,8.264257028112452,31.10240963855422,8.680891452615391,2.5167686746987954,1012,43,189,17,18,332,141,249,0.027999999999999997,0.8290000000000001,0.14300000000000002,0.9788,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,5,0,1,2,9,6,0,0,8,0,24,13,2,2,2,45,36,25,0,4,9,0,0,1,3,5,2,3,1,2,14,19,7,0,6,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,6,5,27,5,31,21,6,23,0,1,2,2,35,11,0,5,10,134,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043249318944312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668918907601772,0.0,0.0,0.14169698489484533,0.1092456993092978,0.07970024965207577,0.0,0.0,0.07284766937604874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974503735403695,0.0,0.11258557385849413,0.0,0.08318221144910967,0.0,0.0,0.06718987123556645,0.21481765164955893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940355271762725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066059403614408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13762470999199408,0.0,0.08777926540898015,0.0,0.0,0.1019116554027038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6298967520341153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793285671717876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874072091277807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11451327996209107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089889605398437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805972388901568,0.0,0.0,0.10562592524084312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519584326149273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317402235399433,0.0,0.08035289651211586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994551356664166,0.07222786353960857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848727698046096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334854992198377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657021287070622,0.0,0.0,0.08302092468609165,0.0,0.10868632660555498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020570655782924,0.103040348849473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165735227789873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591835863200107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271022484616028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073389733223774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229004977876774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298278458840068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400911531087123,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BronzeMirror,2019/08/06,PSA for my other Aussies out there. Woolworths has Quest Bars! I don't know if this is known info. But my local Woolies has Birthday Cake flavour on sale so I finally get to try it!,0.34621621621621657,2.7668295675675694,1.3284324324324324,98.71859459459463,91.16216216216215,4.0410810810810815,23.616216216216216,5.6839178017228535,0.2487664864864865,142,6,31,1,5,44,34,37,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7325900774618236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493976790114475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36753109307644427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540417777340836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ksj-4,2019/08/06,"my brother doesn’t know how to address my ed other than blowing up at me alright story time folks

my brother and i get along really well in small things, but we’ve never talked about each other’s real problems, and deep stuff just causes an argument. my best guess for this is that we’re polar opposites, which shouldn’t doom us to never getting along (i have other girl friends like him) but since we’re siblings, we view ourselves as having more license to comment on one another’s lives than we probably should.

not only is he my opposite he’s never had a mental health issue. all of his issues are external, whereas i’ve had some sort of disorder at every stage of my life so far. so he views my mental health problems as simple matters with one clear solution.

for example, he’ll say “you just need to feel better about yourself.” “you just need to stop worrying about calories.” and i say “you can’t JUST do anything,” and he says “i don’t know about THAT.”

so when he sees me flipping over packages (i’m post therapy but i’ve been counting calories for 2 years, kind of a habit at this point) he yells at me telling to just eat it. he’ll make jokes in public, for example, we were in a really nice part of town and i said “let’s wait to eat a really nice lunch somewhere close” (we were right next to a mcdonalds and he was hungry) and he said “unlike you, i actually eat, so i need to eat now.” (we were with a friend.)

he paused a movie we were watching to try and talk to me about it and wouldn’t press play until i agreed to “just stop worrying about calories”. which i mean, i wish.

but anyway i always feel worse when he tries to ‘teach’ me about my own disorder without knowing about mental problems at all, and without any attempt to educate himself about it. i tell him i don’t want to talk about it with him and then he gets mad at me, which i mean i guess i can empathize; to him it probably feels like he’s trying to help me and i’m rejecting his help. but he’s not helping.

anyway. just a rant.",2.9170352170352167,4.496163275184276,4.064226044226047,87.89111384111384,74.72481572481573,7.095495495495496,25.355446355446357,7.793537801064563,1.3108679770679768,1571,53,325,22,33,512,200,407,0.125,0.74,0.135,0.3642,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,7,4,0,3,28,19,1,0,9,1,23,8,0,3,6,78,50,28,0,11,16,2,4,2,2,5,3,6,1,1,17,25,5,3,8,2,0,0,13,6,1,2,10,14,49,13,60,34,8,34,1,2,4,0,53,19,0,4,15,209,66,1,0.0,0.0,0.07841067917634509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685820782345213,0.0,0.0,0.05464122207758065,0.08425470056980856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612176856461713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432308810737221,0.07106365246960086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254228852255571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841776956859813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288752469307177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769891876779742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188316389789156,0.057402546401273034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415748194997653,0.0,0.12593975183629402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770306797175402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708180444987115,0.0,0.0,0.16157211407256925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773048162402993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836728751630244,0.13247590763948022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216402074420584,0.05675406603891085,0.07851057338597264,0.0,0.07095112816212239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053634707088754716,0.0,0.0,0.1750509061469471,0.0,0.0,0.24292377954924085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17873704748209387,0.18591420838574665,0.0,0.08545386651869342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889540915989436,0.061110317728942064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701196322712097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759573702616072,0.0,0.07695374656625442,0.0,0.1732632599514009,0.2306542657915382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145667209891836,0.1544241215666094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06861904713573394,0.152863805729713,0.19169427253790086,0.0,0.0,0.06402909400260437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646691809065226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435354335048194,0.0,0.0,0.0919823121663217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19374851423545647,0.14046008298358334,0.0,0.0918880125018016,0.0,0.0533814256832327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046853131388485486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365852507356465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665198239030057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04739291663859521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224491678081357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239932390419577,0.1549103886895363,0.0,0.0,0.16320004465830806,0.08188421396751633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05174320762489837
EDAnonymous,tesarsoat,2019/08/06,"I TRIED ON MY DATE’S JEANS AND GUESS WHAt !?!? They don’t fucking fit 

I feel sick 

I’ve always  felt self conscious when the guys I dated where bigger than me 

The date went well and I’m now considering either fully relapsing into not eating at all or breaking it off because dating someone my height with smaller hips",3.989838709677418,5.8067105645161305,4.662129032258068,83.72319354838713,72.38709677419354,6.250322580645161,25.30322580645161,6.742157984588678,1.0698929032258064,253,8,46,2,5,81,54,62,0.057,0.8490000000000001,0.094,0.3123,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,12,7,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,2,7,1,6,5,2,16,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,2,6,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25961810942771596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901989823271232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192651008204875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157762113844455,0.0,0.2995794468723409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884491004324321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437152436117917,0.3089398999700394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254954733655892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26436586985242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118349576640579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28053531976096946,0.28923728140205546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hideousthing,2019/08/06,"WHAT did I do wrong, apart from the entire ED of course So I've been restricting under or way under maintenance as well as walking everywhere and drinking nothing but water for the last six fucking months. Dont own a scale and dont want to so I waited that long to go to the doctors and weigh myself. THIRTY FUCKING POUNDS GAINED. Even the doc was beyond confused saying I dont look heavier and have even leaned up from the last time she saw me. I've literally never felt worse and as soon as I go back to school after visiting home I'm fasting harder than before lmao just wanted to rant kms bye",2.786045454545455,4.9084351500000025,3.807878787878789,87.19227272727277,76.66666666666666,6.03030303030303,22.57575757575757,6.980632752743323,0.7614166666666669,478,14,92,5,11,154,86,120,0.08900000000000001,0.784,0.127,0.8329,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,2,1,6,0,8,6,0,0,1,15,19,13,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,5,3,2,1,1,0,4,4,4,1,1,5,4,7,1,19,14,1,20,0,0,2,2,4,5,2,2,11,60,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568805846606518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390895525063625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730478648534014,0.0,0.0,0.5747098570372019,0.16012526826538406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592312430181845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694399768776587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30222604003002057,0.0,0.0,0.1857923387439129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396032677025638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26647793852350904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465397337688954,0.1372624011280312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046952215418806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260678294080041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684104440022606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998727240178107,0.0,0.16542683552927034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531287511160284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928219101214291,0.1297442641720104,0.0,0.0,0.1469671402212847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16657626989293808,0.0,0.17871416444434096,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alexako413,2019/08/06,"Fucking over it. I'm just tired of feeling so shity Everytime I eat and instantly thinking about throwing up. Bulimia is expensive, throwing up then eating on repeat cost money. And I ain't even skinny.",3.0194594594594584,6.104042297297301,4.836540540540541,73.56724324324324,85.48648648648648,7.284324324324325,31.72432432432432,8.238735603445708,3.5763340540540534,163,9,23,4,5,55,32,37,0.08199999999999999,0.8759999999999999,0.042,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,5,6,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,6,6,0,8,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7489592250187206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24172033891723035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504589167215976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383342152994854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344993861544917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206297322339446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BathT1m3,2019/08/06,[TW] After all these years... I’ve been relapse free for 9 years and I just broke my 24 hr fast with 4 laxatives and Glenlivet 12 year. 7 lbs down this month. Yeehaw.,-0.5752941176470578,1.6381614705882368,0.9443529411764722,100.40358823529414,96.05882352941177,3.896470588235295,15.623529411764707,5.6839178017228535,-0.8136282352941175,126,3,29,1,5,40,31,34,0.085,0.816,0.1,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,4,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38185459213737066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9242224139586759
EDAnonymous,bellyache007,2019/08/06,I wish I had access to medicine that suppresses appetite I just wanna stop thinking about food,4.430588235294118,7.696479411764709,3.689705882352944,83.74867647058825,78.41176470588233,5.752941176470588,32.029411764705884,7.1686216300943375,2.427964705882353,78,4,12,1,2,23,15,17,0.13,0.71,0.16,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6127675569679256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236680729711829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247067640986773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5827407677698638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HopefulCurrent,2019/08/06,"[tw: relapse] in the wake of a loved one disclosing their ed... finally/officially relapsed tonight. the last time i purged was 5 years ago. now i'm resetting the clock.

someone very close to me opened up about their ed recently, and i've gotten bad again. i haven't weighed myself yet, but judging from the fit of my clothes, i've lost a non-significant amount by restricting. tonight, after my omad turned into more food than i thought was acceptable, i finally relapsed into purging behaviors.

if anyone has experience with close friends/family/significant others with eds - first, i'm sorry you have to go through that, and also i would love to hear any words of advice or commiseration you have.",8.298672665916762,8.356408968503942,7.931383577052866,70.51291338582679,61.67716535433071,11.666591676040495,38.61529808773904,11.20814326018867,4.4492731158605165,557,26,97,14,7,177,94,127,0.079,0.8059999999999999,0.114,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,2,2,5,5,0,0,6,0,7,5,1,0,0,17,17,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,9,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,5,1,13,3,18,11,2,23,0,1,0,2,7,8,0,2,14,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20722150536556733,0.1879774222731546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695834278127438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420732559317945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482765153289907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17706032598382265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20743429767830207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232300162466091,0.0,0.1803771942406789,0.2564224667958317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051796125990992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23900579522758114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285630876234995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314873424126569,0.0,0.3827828778989533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369660054479771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20938258336345908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17967682003521473,0.0,0.0,0.23738257996824175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835108147328282,0.12365325145192108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306591918068859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749708032687625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15064056015614233,0.0,0.0,0.1365589806649066
EDAnonymous,FickleKaleidoscope,2019/08/06,"Well I fucked up TW: binge, purging, self harm mention




Was doing so well eating a normal amount of food today..... until lunch time that is. Down went an entire fucking block of chocolate! Fuck. And then the urge to purge was super fucking strong. I resisted for a little bit and then by the time I gave in and tried nothing would come up. As a result I ended up losing my self-harm free 260days streak. Ugh this is so fucking shit",1.4978571428571428,4.056308309523811,2.436,92.559,84.95238095238095,3.8361904761904757,19.114285714285714,4.935628992294339,-0.3419485714285715,334,9,64,1,10,105,63,84,0.235,0.615,0.15,-0.8696,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,4,14,6,0,6,0,6,9,1,1,0,8,14,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,9,2,0,4,0,5,6,12,9,2,15,0,1,0,5,3,6,6,0,7,40,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561465832685554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306741830963836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15522467403961066,0.0,0.0,0.13435918403503067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834335266526484,0.0,0.0,0.7012106471483458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204100224332004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697109842842061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863159073568818,0.14555808656643962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31650768358143155,0.0,0.1557155648384922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691236091221715,0.0,0.1437917335280382,0.0,0.0,0.10299281747079084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727889985756943,0.14062533803524366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776173223687588,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paddedbag,2019/08/06,Food is for people that don't stay with men that are bad for them I got into a big fight with my bf last night and I purged for the first time in months this morning. There's something about recognising the fact that I'm not strong enough to break up with him that makes food feel really bad - like I don't deserve it? And there's no one I can talk to about it. I'm meant to be this intelligent strong woman and here I am purging my breakfast because I'm in a relationship I KNOW is bad for me.,3.4706738544474405,3.878733075471701,4.230808625336927,91.70084905660377,72.01886792452831,7.5665768194070075,23.633423180592988,7.447530270364453,0.6193385444743941,390,9,93,4,7,125,68,106,0.19,0.752,0.057999999999999996,-0.925,0,0,1,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,1,3,5,7,1,0,4,0,8,3,0,1,1,13,16,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,7,3,0,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,2,1,11,3,16,13,1,12,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,6,58,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5159774980845397,0.12556919312912104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128420583859642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415440240222436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752144321032484,0.4981662686048511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647484971288069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320635723274836,0.16790880966274924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063598931665184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13749948769448286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441873037264385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330704670668347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395837115973165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280707573357354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319620494240951,0.0,0.0,0.2211554677704015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858066194063108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219557234611946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16556643322303774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011404391821068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skelefin,2019/08/06,"Twas a week of bad decisions - TW (little bit of thinspo talk and self harm and purging) I made ALL the bad decisions this week. I relapsed in every way possible. Im 10+ months into recovery and this week my brain was like 'hey... fk u.' 

Mistake 1. I made a tumblr acc. I immediately went to all the thinspos and that was v upsetting

Mistake 2. I purged. I dont have a purging disorder, only anorexia, but i have purged a few times if i felt really bad. it feels like shit, mentally and physically, even though i didnt get everything out which made me feel guilty

Mistake 3. I weighed myself. I saw i was a relatively close distance to my gw so that gave me negative motivation.

Mistake 4. I self harmed. a lot less than i did in the past, but still enough that it will prob scar.

Mistake 5. I keep going on edanonymemes even though it very clearly triggers me, i love it and the people there with all my heart

So, in recap, I fucked up.",0.8455382469193218,3.293446443850268,2.914559404789585,88.64784933736344,87.23529411764706,6.246826319460591,23.63845617298303,7.586124646067393,1.321467519181586,723,29,150,14,23,243,117,187,0.243,0.6629999999999999,0.094,-0.9849,0,0,0,0,1,0,31.0,0,0,0,1,8,16,2,1,10,0,9,6,3,5,4,34,23,13,0,6,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,10,10,1,1,6,0,0,2,3,13,0,0,12,4,24,3,13,10,8,19,0,0,1,2,6,9,2,2,9,91,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269158823190553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248516081782553,0.0,0.0,0.14569441086646046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14957791114650698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295894077172076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348536507312008,0.0,0.17240371977397026,0.0,0.10996188022060223,0.0,0.11729565417118995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198144680781512,0.0932377066963858,0.12531186312285286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065612166879328,0.06818706590147358,0.0,0.07417290391783747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15465719548614668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097521659394596,0.0,0.0,0.11600494757378264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752301549054712,0.13080718140774575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095652554753807,0.1177920590714347,0.3704804638622174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315252692151609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417333025004304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09926015896060814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458834856409523,0.09048049835149237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713252474642685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836092464889632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723046900001654,0.0,0.13396856004172486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042269487433655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490049818153127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25645450116038426,0.0,0.07610252150956767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768596185669048,0.0,0.10359424834611318,0.3140662516052719,0.0,0.0,0.12098581192896515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kiselozele,2019/04/13,"I'm continuing this journey alone from now on. Today me and my boyfriend had a fight.. again. I'm staying at his place for  a few days and my ED is making it challaging. For dinner he gave me a leftover dish that was already cold and I was like ok with it, but was honest about the taste. Anyway, I ate half of it and didn't feel like I want more. He offered a sandwich and I said I was already full... he insisted then I just raged ''im not  a pig dammit''. He answered ''yeah, I forgot you do that at home only'' :) Mind you I was attempting recovery but failed because he was commenting how I was getting bigger. I gained only  3 kgs most of which was water probably. We had many fights and he knew exactly where to hit. ''you're fat"", ""you never eat normal"", ""kill yourself if thats what you want"" (im suicidal) etc. Anyway, today I decided it was enough. Finally. I can't take this anymore. 
Please, if someone is experiencing this kind of relationship, LEAVE. They're not going to change.  No matter what they say. No matter the situation, they should be respectful and mindful towards your mental state. They don't want to help you, they don't want to understand you.",1.1496350592638829,3.664445820960698,3.006629756706179,88.07348799126639,86.4235807860262,6.066188396756082,22.152370555208982,7.447530270364453,1.086518278228322,899,32,180,16,28,299,140,229,0.124,0.74,0.136,0.726,0,1,0,0,2,0,42.0,1,7,4,3,8,11,4,0,7,2,20,8,1,2,2,37,38,13,2,8,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,13,9,8,1,5,0,0,2,9,5,0,1,17,6,29,6,16,18,6,21,0,1,0,0,28,8,0,3,11,116,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372188987117038,0.2924103476174031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139372777894376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076421259361383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401560512681364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544460094224196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556957119801752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689680425572315,0.1477605274949906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699054193590431,0.09465034141574402,0.0,0.14513548929082798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06922016098839212,0.0,0.07529668980900224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880474658927362,0.0,0.13289751288204954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862222346421714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657971706850906,0.13796715821724506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14028697802098045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945510332906304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843759825908132,0.1343232970296499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351799478027254,0.0,0.26755273326087065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021838716279112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981132765899428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152807844568668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384230596625976,0.14543340264759044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284581205304514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224386388213978,0.0,0.0,0.12602760948342204,0.10536076347739992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489234598107919,0.0,0.0,0.11225770534636402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14121590440125875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492172757564925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961542197677613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511686209273825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379259740739772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125823519516514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maypay_pma,2019/04/13,"How long did it take you to seek help? Title says it all really; for those of you that have sought out help, how long did you suffer with your ED before you got there?

I'm on my fourth year with bulimia. I sometimes have periods of a couple weeks/months where I'm able to control it, but have kept relapsing. Now back at it since August. I've previously booked appointments with my GP or psychologists with the intention of getting started with recovery, but I've ended up cancelling them.

I told someone, a friend, for the first time last week. I was tipsy+ and she was talking about her own struggles with Anorexia and body image and I was just unable to keep my composure. Immediately regretted it and I've been dodging her and her messages ever since. But I'm once again researching recovery and how to get help, maybe I'll crack it this time.

Any advise on how to actually go through with seeking help?",4.355147783251233,6.2504049252873575,4.990476190476193,81.42000000000002,71.58620689655173,8.419704433497538,27.94581280788177,9.04235418022936,2.3278847290640403,723,27,136,15,14,232,110,174,0.071,0.841,0.08800000000000001,0.6046,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,5,1,2,12,4,0,1,4,0,9,1,1,6,2,30,21,14,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,9,14,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,9,1,17,1,24,12,2,23,0,2,0,0,20,6,0,1,16,87,26,3,0.1609716119847069,0.0,0.15708507286288492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946621610138084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377723343161685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697498567954555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788031724627221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805433505348396,0.0,0.17811202693208547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425730693127042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560803883887544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692237092180562,0.0,0.0,0.12436626811203624,0.0,0.16820204680747194,0.0,0.09148387668316284,0.0,0.1287437031407775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315835135095849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430789649308113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121334836238968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849096222504913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171762029384087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848600492743378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17142951321862385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312253655110072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280110867776548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663147617369788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639072446201714,0.0,0.15920504028633575,0.0,0.11393653547911553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828247953045505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103061904821046,0.12938288421701788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877276828953907,0.0,0.0,0.15381527353827015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912171747617698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366044045654206
EDAnonymous,yyiikkes,2019/04/13,"Why does my brain do this I just snapped and ate 1300 calories in one sitting completely in a trance, and then spent the next 30 minutes unable to do anything but try not to eat anymore. Like I couldn’t do anything but resist the urge to continue eating. I think the urge is gone now but that’s just insane to me that I had to just sit and have a war inside my head for a FULL HALF HOUR about whether or not to keep eating after I’d already eaten more than most people would in one sitting. Why can’t I just eat like a normal person. I wasn’t even hungry to begin with.",8.193249999999999,4.9668351583333346,8.028333333333332,80.25000000000003,64.08333333333334,10.266666666666667,34.0,6.742157984588678,2.11405,449,12,97,2,5,145,79,120,0.076,0.868,0.055999999999999994,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,7,0,10,8,2,0,0,21,17,9,1,3,11,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,6,1,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,3,6,0,9,2,15,9,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,9,67,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720142991495427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592498804094945,0.0,0.0,0.2642834478795588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792577637424914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683626110249245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052258372681156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572440972760197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060600234551738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479899566822218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813663945603976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272879351700846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569002575087589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077615260797022,0.0,0.1573320032465459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762314299645355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132432397603023,0.1402102103092104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289167435052106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902168383234956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28979270594090845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406975544179937,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KH0SH3KH,2019/04/13,"why do i do this ""I'm doing great ED wise, I'm eating when I'm hungry and I haven't gained weight, I'm not stressing over my old fear foods, I've stopped restricting and I'm clearly recovered and will never have a disordered thought in my life""

  
*starts comfort eating to cope with depression*

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*""****oh no***""",-0.6524999999999999,0.08317290322580817,0.9567338709677422,95.10510080645165,126.41935483870968,4.130645161290323,20.00403225806452,5.985473137389443,0.5288677419354841,248,10,49,4,16,79,45,62,0.147,0.638,0.215,0.6834,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,2,1,0,6,5,0,0,2,10,13,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,4,3,4,11,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312725925871343,0.25936467226719195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18384385963765795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446317764916484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368245329660443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401901842353341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581041484097761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23532897841319736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076579111832009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462551886118698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239794880113454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108075173746782,0.0,0.0,0.17845345423266568,0.2445058380927523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945516927783036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25992415428435306,0.0,0.0,0.1926050974885222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25936467226719195,0.0
EDAnonymous,nvrgonnaleavethisBED,2019/04/13,"My boyfriend won't have sex with me My boyfriend is having a pretty tough time in life between his studies and assorted other long term issues, but we're sort of hitting an impasse in general because we haven't have sex since November. Three months of that time were long distance, but last year we lived together and only had sex 9 times total.

And instead of being worried about his mental health and why he is feeling this way my brain keeps telling me he isn't attracted to me because I'm overweight and maybe if I was thinner he'd actually want to fuck me like when we first started dating. There's so many problems with our relationship right now its hard to deal with it all, and my own long term mental health problems flared back up earlier this year AND I broke my leg so I haven't been able to work out so I've just been packing more pounds onto my already overweight self. 

I just feel really overwhelmed with everything in my life at this point and it's so hard to even think about restricting food when the only thing that makes me feel any better is eating.",6.02520879120879,6.558989447619048,5.712857142857146,82.87598901098903,66.42857142857143,8.556776556776558,31.39194139194139,8.384062270229773,2.2310183150183147,864,32,166,11,13,267,132,210,0.161,0.7759999999999999,0.062,-0.9732,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,4,0,0,3,15,9,1,1,3,0,17,14,2,1,2,35,28,17,0,4,5,0,5,1,0,1,6,0,0,1,10,16,4,2,4,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,5,5,23,3,22,19,6,29,0,2,0,4,13,9,1,2,20,104,33,1,0.12298837731890615,0.0,0.1200189149765352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13572073267115325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363631402802005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457047053876984,0.0,0.14994514655351646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877322519410204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372957037863624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679561661426655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584781407929865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123266328812571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053402319788344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865598568791024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461385091881988,0.14871803404271766,0.0,0.0,0.11370077302301937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22034685739703566,0.0,0.0,0.26146178778838736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283679125373576,0.0,0.10931772073563484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025194255496317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17374065619754547,0.06008590877511957,0.0,0.10860099042412026,0.3265225311261044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209569688077115,0.1246909108122412,0.12355835577831005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788671432478826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816814939838804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870764060391301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626376992305465,0.0,0.0,0.12512339485310164,0.0,0.23536653430205326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878950380787887,0.0,0.0,0.13204349012518202,0.0,0.10503140223326904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830370031204286,0.0,0.0,0.10173725664502227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705180648402581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074972627088878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170801296075157,0.07880598613293661,0.0,0.0,0.2151465355829553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254173146166992,0.0976224492779979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097788091194456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08953700347266795,0.12490066716525297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840096532206455
EDAnonymous,Mokikimo,2019/04/13,"They aren’t lying about gut flora, my god So I was on anti-biotics because I had a bunch of procedures done on my mouth, and i’m freaking out at the complete lack of “HEY MOKIKIMO I NEED THIS THING RIGHT NOW” signals from my body.
I now understand that your gut flora really does affect your appetite in a huge way. 
Since today is my first day off the pills, I feel like now is the time for me to make better choices and lay down the groundwork for beneficial cravings",3.823647416413377,5.13998227659575,4.710972644376903,85.20500000000001,71.97872340425532,7.073556231003039,27.258358662613983,7.447530270364453,1.4479167173252283,370,13,73,4,7,120,72,94,0.087,0.782,0.131,0.4939,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,2,5,3,0,0,6,0,6,5,4,2,0,9,11,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,13,2,14,8,2,17,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,8,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16495228372152945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23931940867615306,0.0,0.3005701954983889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837138524774724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451147735466216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23679962758073264,0.2769127734058877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13682103155852554,0.19331321968195564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23016808499105465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219911547323135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806243549118204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006428651188656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17335017351504892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310867681825073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22383909328029145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797713850166392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577862002423112,0.0,0.256492549674377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816990802906433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21478582429672224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fairshine,2019/04/13,"me: yeah uh can i get a trenta iced coffee, black? please and thank you! barista: *looks at me for .00001 of a second too long* name please 

me internally: FUCK SHE KNOWS!!!!!!!!!!! 

me externally: haha fairshine :) 

why i’m like dis >:(",-1.264758497316638,-1.6366137906976732,0.2441860465116293,99.20327370304115,140.3953488372093,3.183542039355993,12.610017889087658,5.369823440869387,-1.0291631484794277,169,4,37,2,13,53,37,43,0.077,0.58,0.344,0.9142,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,7,3,3,7,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,0,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977821415196285,0.16828727981012614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770212328670067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15736489835988807,0.0,0.0,0.2850539944686088,0.2704882197045053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7071521179847607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29655226197760665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29065089146384737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whaleterweight,2019/04/13,"Going wedding dress shopping today Send help. I am terrified and I just know that this is going to be super triggering. Not to mention that the laxative I took yesterday night is apparently still doing its thing even though it's been 36 hours, because fuck me right? This might end up like that scene in Bridesmaids...  fuck",5.1461016949152585,7.503348694915258,5.0120000000000005,80.14613559322035,70.52542372881356,8.109830508474579,28.749152542372883,8.841846274778883,2.4974515254237293,259,10,44,5,5,80,50,59,0.159,0.7090000000000001,0.132,-0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,0,6,13,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,9,0,13,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,1,7,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564831925065177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273618310116968,0.0,0.0,0.16954928891407725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746338340934786,0.0,0.0,0.29177939159199634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206197905928255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527998193623388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107673825376738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541165947549096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27232031824371383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408974928393736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21922215573722664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500259586382408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054144152507056,0.0,0.25220846955949777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24332353648974955,0.0,0.28520543277430976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Upiko,2019/04/13,"Y'all i almost died thrice today lmfao So I ate a big ass piece of meat today I choked on and barely swallowed, why did I think it was a good idea to purge? Anyways, it I got stuck like 2 times while it was going out, almost thought I was dying when I couldn't breathe lmao.


After it came out I was laughing hysterically because I imagined my body being found at the toilet with a meat stuck in my throat and barely digested food in the toilet.


How was your day?",1.980839243498817,4.072604436170213,3.2960992907801447,90.03388888888891,79.1063829787234,5.028841607565012,20.01891252955083,5.82211442006289,-0.04943356973995261,363,9,74,2,9,118,66,94,0.177,0.7020000000000001,0.121,-0.6784,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,8,8,4,1,0,15,17,6,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,13,0,13,3,10,2,1,16,0,0,0,1,2,7,1,2,8,48,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150630423575194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263380315162018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302086759575437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237039454297213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365948035731634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301867681615049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506082271253855,0.2272395665097969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778528217716558,0.1738319557387864,0.16575722359785605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339606811159358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125216602194394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279780491160975,0.0,0.16453381246134455,0.12084948137297605,0.0,0.39289863824059257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870114150210316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prekheadaches,2019/04/13,Anyone else find it easy to restrict until they break a fast? I was on day 3 of a fast with only water and Coke Zero to keep me going and I had a few grapes to break the fast. The stomach pains from hunger came roaring back even though I was perfectly comfortable before that,3.9053571428571416,4.975238821428572,4.620000000000001,86.875,71.5,7.028571428571429,22.92857142857143,7.1686216300943375,0.7456214285714284,218,5,44,2,4,70,44,56,0.122,0.7070000000000001,0.171,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,5,0,3,5,1,0,1,8,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,0,5,2,8,2,1,11,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174837633782657,0.3186933733311188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391676611001605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26466892211081605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557425851573106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20059263642024652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598308581624584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543649590485186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28428147855198505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17676905686194386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764632917251254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365570681022473,0.33096447750645297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055915159283621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kirbias,2019/04/13,"I had a meltdown at Starbucks today. I think I've hit a low. Today was my birthday. I had a starbucks reward for a free food or drink item of my choice, and thought this would be a good opportunity to ease into eating food I didn't make myself. I spent two weeks picking which specific food item I was going to eat. Finally, I placed the order through the mobile app. When I went to pick it up the cashier told me they had just sold out and didn't have any more, but they could offer me a different food or beverage of my choice.

I should mention that I'm in exams right now and had some other personal stressors today that were overloading my brain. Maybe it was the stress, the hypoglycemia, or the fatigue from not sleeping, but I just lost it. I stepped away from the counter and  started sobbing- I couldn't stop, something broke inside me. Like, full-on ugly crying in the middle of a food court. A stranger came up to me and asked me if I was OK. The barista ended up finding the item in the back fridge for me, but it didn't matter because when I got home my family surprised me with thousands of calories of cake and pie and fudge that I binged on (and purged after they left, but it had been so long that I definitely didn't get it all and I hate myself). 

I hate this disorder so much, you guys. Before my ED I would have just picked a fucking different food item and gone on my merry way. But now my life revolves around these obsessive anxieties, number crunching, bizarre food rules that don't even make sense. I'm always hungry but I hate feeling full. I'm irritable and inconsiderate. My behaviour is erratic, as evidenced by today's episode. I can't imagine living the rest of my life like this and I don't know what to do. I am so embarrassed and ashamed of myself.",4.058031290743156,5.3462059548022625,4.753333333333334,85.23402868318124,71.37288135593221,7.7060408518035635,28.022164276401572,8.139509932561175,1.7491194263363758,1404,51,283,20,26,451,191,354,0.18600000000000005,0.71,0.10400000000000001,-0.9894,2,0,2,0,0,0,39.0,0,1,3,3,13,21,4,4,21,1,29,16,2,5,1,52,55,29,0,6,14,0,1,2,0,3,3,0,1,2,18,18,10,1,6,1,3,5,9,13,0,2,24,1,47,9,34,24,10,42,0,5,0,1,10,19,2,5,18,197,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068064792354983,0.0,0.0,0.05562732768060319,0.0,0.062577364040767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282002677787287,0.07647267630043339,0.0,0.07685451476760345,0.06289974175340303,0.0,0.049864989259653936,0.0,0.06960642912316667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913167108381213,0.0,0.0935582872456656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531125749656194,0.0,0.08985430318194043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092878545341397,0.09375076764238552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013361129932926,0.0,0.16740521561797714,0.0,0.0,0.07245120117920202,0.0,0.0,0.054028636144615234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711448450520637,0.0,0.041360926416020106,0.0,0.0,0.08960874355449377,0.07476442050711445,0.0,0.6923966981921812,0.0,0.0,0.07562349240271891,0.04273752536418116,0.0,0.04648926186535099,0.06861060364699137,0.06542354725035565,0.0,0.0,0.08099562156115553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422839710275613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205284048076174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04495556311913891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887677437335749,0.0,0.11555660392333865,0.07992744719239114,0.0,0.07223157728754825,0.07239110604502312,0.0,0.0,0.08929520187225427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920529639850368,0.0,0.08217986677717433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013297699993365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142527589349472,0.08546439272670699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985740938829378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185984408488166,0.0,0.0,0.06297422805231442,0.0,0.0,0.05789900500460875,0.0,0.0,0.06838910530218416,0.0937025039959309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052414629515371465,0.0,0.06494067299269822,0.0,0.0,0.3101502554832401,0.07816413984265815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990746475496838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492964256113584,0.06561564238301065,0.0,0.0,0.07583013197094401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162178379957652,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oftenheardseldomseen,2019/04/13,"Feeling really proud of myself right now 😊 Today I got all of my calories (375) from fruit and vegetables, drank eight glasses of water, AND did about two and half hours of deliberate exercise.  


Also, I've just realised that despite my calorie limit being 500, I haven't eaten over 400 for a single day this week (this is the closest I've come).  


I’m on top of the world!",6.405958904109589,5.936287369863013,7.206952054794524,75.89755136986301,65.7123287671233,9.491780821917807,31.948630136986303,8.841846274778883,2.5944821917808216,290,10,54,4,4,97,59,73,0.0,0.899,0.10099999999999999,0.7171,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,0,1,8,10,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,5,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,2,5,1,10,5,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,5,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29601279332697744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31885572825635744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387193315185993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716147319615725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960467413600356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36452808039385376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713075018008345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161103192726362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508636275729324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615876170780648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969159870742127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_Throwaway_main,2019/04/13,"Any blogs your recommend? I obviously follow the Balanced Blonde and I poured over eatglitter’s blog today. Any others people recommend? I really enjoy reading about other people’s journeys, whether or not they realize their eating disorders yet.",6.591000000000001,10.488026100000004,7.000000000000004,59.12500000000003,75.5,10.2,33.0,9.888512548439397,5.2928500000000005,204,10,22,7,5,66,34,40,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.8340000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,2,16,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680916469706125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944459770065984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521694568001569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772050672286949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442608152980378,0.0,0.22048262785153047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32623071687687943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,animalshelterloser,2019/07/12,catch me mid-twenties falling into old habits me purging in a fast food bathroom? absolutely not,4.707647058823528,8.042353000000002,5.0779411764705875,73.79573529411766,77.82352941176471,5.752941176470588,37.911764705882355,7.1686216300943375,3.383258823529413,79,5,11,1,2,25,16,17,0.10300000000000001,0.897,0.0,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7552700545392473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6554137202685663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,diet-coke-addict,2019/07/12,I just blew a fucking piece of egg out of my nose Don’t purge Thai food kids 👌🏻😩,-2.0499999999999967,-0.9790871904761876,0.8669047619047632,107.54892857142859,87.57142857142857,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.6160666666666668,63,1,20,0,2,22,20,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7944217075690566,0.0,0.0,0.6073665701560008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thesmellofass,2019/07/12,Nothing like ordering $50 of binge food for yourself and then “and a diet coke please” and they look in your car and expect it to be full with people but it’s just your desperate ass,1.2923684210526325,3.5210190263157912,2.709736842105261,92.55565789473684,82.42105263157895,5.905263157894738,20.026315789473685,7.1686216300943375,0.42945263157894775,145,4,31,2,4,47,33,38,0.221,0.74,0.039,-0.8227,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,8,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,1,1,5,0,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.540108669600079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21821778682819187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750858119072143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42858677974285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096610290373524,0.0,0.0,0.4903036564882279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Out-Of-My-Head,2019/07/12,"I finally came to a realization I know this may not seem like a huge feat but for me it's everything. 

I have always binged and starved for as long as I can remember. My weight yoyo's so much it's hard for people to even pin me as someone with an eating disorder because I'm in the healthy range. 

For me it's always a struggle day by day, unitl recently.  I have been doing OMAD and I feel it's the control I've been lacking in my life. It's in a way correcting my disordered eating by giving me structure.  
I'm not binging, I'm not counting calories and I am picking the healthier option.

I have finally come to terms with the fact that weight loss isn't meant to happen over night but rather little by little in a healthy way. For me this is something I've always heard about but would either end up

a. stuffing my face for weeks on end or b. starving myself for ages.

So thank you OMAD for restoring some sort of order to my life and letting me focus on something else besides my body.",5.1954761904761915,5.129619512315274,5.9464162561576375,82.56014983579642,68.16256157635468,8.737110016420361,31.69499178981937,8.344100000000001,2.2460775041050898,783,30,160,10,12,257,116,203,0.113,0.8059999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.6589,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,5,4,0,1,11,0,13,8,2,2,2,32,26,13,0,3,9,0,4,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,8,8,4,1,5,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,5,6,22,2,31,18,5,28,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,6,13,104,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147681358376537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686749232978844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400652156840669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422124689121515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086213033393717,0.0,0.0,0.14142838174897907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626441216135612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890359155654557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25805719240158403,0.1053377692424242,0.0,0.2233688298588404,0.0,0.0,0.08328580505271252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332775185639656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375837518947926,0.0,0.0,0.2762659537331997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12096362471834005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11150706131818358,0.0,0.1129580433923182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929955174055745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12894261095996673,0.17813192176741438,0.06160456991185698,0.2527644165567515,0.0,0.11159177754326732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269572132545613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833338703340013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741970482602576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12450546412439754,0.0,0.14284319260192416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479387065963605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068414837161874,0.1941510893175803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182384555395332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609307250806518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001796801982767,0.10114731723548387,0.30710407694611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895756110986684,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,penis_jizz,2019/07/12,"how can i encourage my friend to eat more, and help her when it comes to choosing what to eat. i have a friend who very clearly has an eating disorder, most definitely anorexia, she barely eats and calorie counts all of the time, additionally what she is eating has little nutritional value to her. 
some of my other girlfriends have reported her to a member of the support staff in sixth form, however she isnt making much progress,
in situations like this i just want to know some of the things i could possibly say to encourage her to eat more, and put more healthy foods into her body, i cant convince her she isnt skinny (although she is very clearly underweight) but i would like to help her put some more food into her, help her out, and make sure she has a somewhat nutritional diet, rather than eating nothing or very small amounts of junk food.",11.811296296296293,7.7479314876543235,10.673333333333336,66.63000000000001,58.19753086419753,13.762962962962966,43.049382716049394,11.20814326018867,4.6110049382716065,679,26,126,12,6,216,93,162,0.027999999999999997,0.748,0.22399999999999998,0.9818,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,0,0,7,0,13,13,2,3,4,30,19,9,0,4,4,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,7,9,12,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,23,9,20,17,13,12,0,0,0,0,25,7,0,6,4,93,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250791001047336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725046944483114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087006493476663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160845918075156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7254989280148187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674328226079597,0.0,0.15650940314277198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367322807176552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055665124941364726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896820383314564,0.10151698297442367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522078351396505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07445818594078447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718837404206966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11418677360769522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036444259740324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054812245865464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385172887798273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494019299057212,0.09546255103517408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672911123951364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059061729618004113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25071912349323233,0.05974216760686395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195194569474084,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liketobeyou,2019/07/12,"feeling very invalid i’m only 15, but i feel like such a failure. since i was forced into anorexia “recovery” two years ago, i’ve been struggling with bulimia. i can barley lose weight. i’m having all the negative side effects EXCEPT losing weight. at least when i was anorexic (and i was only slightly underweight) i was able to calm the voice in my head screaming at me, but now i’m just stuck losing and gaining the same 5 pounds. i hate myself so much. i feel like i’m going insane. i’ve been dragged to the dirtiest, lowest points yet i still believe i don’t deserve recovery because i’m not thin enough. i cannot describe how god awful i feel. i just don’t know what to do.",0.9924774581365412,3.489243627737231,2.712065264061831,89.97208243881495,87.1751824817518,4.975354229282955,23.38729068269644,6.522977012572876,0.8256469729497642,535,21,104,6,17,176,88,137,0.353,0.5579999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.9928,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,9,9,1,1,5,1,12,3,1,2,1,19,25,7,0,0,6,0,7,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,6,0,0,1,5,6,0,1,7,9,16,3,9,18,5,14,0,3,0,0,0,7,0,0,8,64,17,0,0.15882546211157705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407891891818926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681852753857527,0.0,0.0,0.17894190744569366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16410915908345905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212277032591679,0.2269298837346771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026417025221993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680726209819912,0.1630007452734066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728632033185191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551881964074897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5330551983690868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167549893439001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415878417705603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014139862161294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138206351573553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683821920551866,0.0,0.0,0.16603885770396445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514939824074733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104763979004486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868132500465756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227839030253398
EDAnonymous,RedMakeupBag98,2019/07/12,"Why am I triggered by literally the smallest non offensive comment ever? So going to the doctor is a historically bad time for me. Getting on the weight scale, talking about my weight, etc. etc. So after going through a couple of insensitive doctors, I found a primary care physician who is literally amazing. He’s so nice and caring and super sensitive about mental health conditions. So as per usual before my visit, my mind likes to play a twisted game where I have to weigh at least 10 pounds less than the last time I was at the doctors office because that’s some kind of weird benchmark for me. Anyway, I had been binging recently so my weight was up. I hate what I do to myself just for a doctors appt about something completely unrelated but I digress. So I get there early this morning, weigh in, didn’t meet my goal, whatever. When I go in and sit down and talk to the doctor about my back pain, he says to me “ I think you could benefit from a little weight loss.” And this is out of context, we had been talking about a bunch of things before this, but of course this is the one comment that sticks out in my mind. I can’t remember anything else that was discussed the whole appointment, just those words are repeating over and over in my mind. It’s as if he said to me “ you’re a fat piece of trash that should never eat again”.  Ugh. I hate what my ED does to my rational thinking of but I don’t know how to change it. 🙃🚬🚬",3.964345864661652,5.249649845614037,4.93934837092732,83.82210526315791,71.59649122807018,7.814536340852131,27.957393483709275,8.269060116576782,1.8326340852130327,1126,41,225,17,21,368,165,285,0.077,0.845,0.078,-0.1908,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,1,1,0,3,21,17,3,0,16,0,20,16,1,2,2,31,34,20,0,3,6,0,4,1,0,1,9,2,0,0,15,9,8,0,5,2,0,4,4,8,0,1,10,6,31,9,44,22,8,34,0,1,0,0,17,15,0,2,15,162,46,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689983641581301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185583228899257,0.0780252727618311,0.05696510359901845,0.0,0.15903492630919466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055316262989835,0.0,0.09885571497727996,0.0,0.09797857073709874,0.0,0.0,0.07461071594943809,0.10339856192500202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47824052760279206,0.08177707524266792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562075107484212,0.07806390914952213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20843870041675652,0.0,0.0845291700958539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246103483388984,0.0,0.0,0.09764556640167836,0.0,0.15932615193869165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18452133403791693,0.0,0.09933097649969096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731183167294302,0.05135664016889701,0.07617268614437049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04565402878170835,0.09365956101133832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417372076989508,0.0,0.2830678715044737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207294724362898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332286123476429,0.0,0.09943538302763368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226873997737584,0.0,0.10585849776485808,0.0,0.08889055684457263,0.07431369184470135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194092445079173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253301654500247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208277533701874,0.11975555774813484,0.0,0.0,0.10898069478653212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291989651089928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.455178516397017,0.0,0.0,0.08432238893563836,0.1043314832627806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mysterious_Ideal,2019/07/12,"Advice about therapist and therapy goals? I have an ED therapist, but I feel like we’re not getting anywhere. We barely talk about my eating disorder, and I low key feel frustrated that I have to travel to see this ED therapist if she’s not gonna address my eating disorder. RN we’re talking a lot about my mom and how she has some cluster b traits, but I’ve already covered all that a few years ago. I know I have boundary issues and I know she’s volatile and spousified me and feeds into my eating disorder. 

I don’t know what I want from her (the therapist) tho.

What goals do you guys have for therapy?",3.162540983606561,4.859653614754102,4.546688524590163,84.19462295081968,74.327868852459,8.158688524590165,28.593442622950818,8.841846274778883,2.3308236065573764,479,20,95,10,10,159,74,122,0.153,0.807,0.04,-0.9388,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,0,2,5,3,1,0,4,0,7,4,0,1,1,23,16,11,0,2,5,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,8,4,0,5,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,3,20,1,8,15,4,5,0,1,1,0,10,2,0,3,3,61,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223153957969166,0.11088023750302996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803432353171607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300744775909032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839793127216151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264933914205335,0.08936069435177964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06535170984640305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385374010283713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055616206556755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623020813034248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06111017534555989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634272889268008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649795063858728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967648924127176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20107704677623944,0.0,0.0,0.2860910225956072,0.5809329484790521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377832872736383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055058967291166
EDAnonymous,ktojm,2019/07/12,my aunt spent close to $600 for my senior pictures but i look so fat and the photographer put up some of the photos on facebook so my entire week is ruined bc i’m ugly and a complete waste of money,0.06697674418604649,2.2271077906976764,2.8570232558139534,89.8966976744186,87.3720930232558,4.370232558139535,17.902325581395353,5.6839178017228535,-0.2901032558139533,157,4,33,1,5,55,36,43,0.255,0.745,0.0,-0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,4,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,6,3,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,1,2,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5637892806340432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4515494447893103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5405572066882668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313266189907504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lacechou,2019/07/12,"I have a beach day coming up this Sunday 😍 you know what that means! Liquid diet until I look good enough for the beach! Because all I see in the mirror and on my scale is a fat failure. >!because somehow I look fat at 5’4 and 109lbs!<

Isn’t being delusional great? Unless I’m told I look skinny, therefore I’m not. All I’ll be able to think about is getting thin and how much my belly will stick out in my bathing suit.",1.9465909090909117,3.82615047727273,3.0477272727272755,92.80409090909092,78.31818181818181,4.854545454545455,21.227272727272727,5.148860815047168,-0.0905727272727277,334,9,70,1,8,107,66,88,0.039,0.8640000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.7067,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,7,4,3,2,2,15,19,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,3,5,4,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,9,2,11,15,4,11,0,0,4,0,2,7,0,1,3,44,12,0,0.2408541618989673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29364492313220675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074745337909848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533100905716415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488667336174536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583635870327672,0.0,0.0,0.20201704375254187,0.0,0.2655425637834977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236714849917353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6067705059731812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623607911250399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705552203079744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192958354001413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543296216800505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230146473272816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TwinPurpleEagle,2019/07/12,"Going inpatient for the first time on Monday and super scared! So after completing a clinical assessment with Reasons Eating Disorder Center, I received a phone call today saying that my treatment team recommends I attend the Reasons inpatient eating disorder treatment program at BHC Alhambra Hospital in Rosemead, California. I will be admitted on Monday. 

This is a huge shock to me! My outpatient therapist and I were trying to get me into Reasons's residential treatment facility. I thought I wouldn't need inpatient because I'm medically stable and all my labs are normal and I'm not suicidal, but the doctors are concerned about potential refeeding syndrome.

On top of all of this, I'm only 18 and have no support from my parents. They are abusive and don't believe in mental health issues (southeast Asian culture). I'm currently a college student and I had to medically withdraw from summer school to pursue treatment. My parents still have no idea I even have anorexia, let alone that I've withdrawn from school and that I'm going inpatient.

I feel so lost right now. I'm super scared. I wasn't expecting to have to go from outpatient care straight into inpatient. I'm not looking forward to the lack of privacy and strict rules. I could really use your support right now everyone. Thank you! 💖",6.1290467585272195,8.536036085836908,6.867309690535352,67.6694398012198,67.96995708154506,9.883803930426927,38.014230856110224,10.186864033877496,4.804498712446351,1060,60,151,29,19,349,139,233,0.129,0.726,0.145,0.4468,3,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,1,6,7,10,0,2,8,0,17,7,0,4,2,31,39,12,1,6,3,2,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,5,12,2,0,7,1,0,6,7,4,0,1,5,3,21,6,26,29,3,31,0,1,1,0,12,15,0,0,12,101,26,7,0.0,0.13564003575757833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856671588460416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978592262535059,0.0,0.0,0.12897971519410267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168968414232948,0.0,0.1167199515418336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003006269472365,0.0,0.0,0.09140293480233773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624079103954525,0.11717509263397652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23428316335061736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561293559912631,0.0,0.0,0.10939051017805593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05788450881942955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973765976900773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059811055462852473,0.0,0.1951848027812587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168684690020284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923394320606615,0.0,0.1194873381075064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706351799479454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961343360534901,0.0,0.12496840250428327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306530367967926,0.1153688763080299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848854416841655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216605693275736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706717020824596,0.0,0.0,0.2542329013141346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333879545696377,0.3531134044352161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19553052507416668,0.0,0.09103906113440008,0.2292288274709209,0.23171966785285414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142384599772893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252224982148354,0.2598210097780898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539776867740247,0.0,0.13292006009997082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908843027541461,0.06675418680499796,0.0,0.10851361873699678,0.0,0.0,0.07772437993102882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988739312480736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mako011,2019/07/12,"Homeodynamic Recovery method  

34yr Male

Currently 165/75kg overweight after rebounding

Currently trying to reverse dieting but find that its not working for me as I tend to find myself slipping backwards and restricting or turning to stupid amounts of exercise or i go the complete opposite way and get myself worked up to a state that i binge, was wonder if there any males with experience following the Homeodynamic Recovery method

At the time this all started I was a very active individual studying to be a personnel trainer

I have be suffering from a medical condition for the past 2 ½ years causing me to drop a severe amount of weight dropping from 82kg @10%bf down to 62kg and calories dropping as low as 1400cal (before Illness 2700-2800cal).

Now that I am recovering I have been still extremely active and able to maintain weight at 68-70kg @ approx 15%bf 1700 cal a day but after a recent trip away with unrestricted calories my body rebounded hard jumping up to 82kg and slamming on a lot of body fat post trip my calories have been sitting at 1800-1900 cal and bodyweight back down to 75kg.

My question should I try bring the BF% back down or since I have been in such a caloric deficit for so long to just except the fat and continue to walk my calories up and try to reverse my metabolic adaption or should I just set my calorie intake at a range I’m comfortable with say 2300-2400cal and give my metabolism and body time to adapt. Throughout this whole period I have remained fairly active with daily weight training and cardio",8.732659698025554,8.364366052264812,8.40022299651568,68.91571196283394,60.95121951219512,11.416399535423928,40.73612078977932,10.793553405168565,4.565068943089432,1255,62,209,27,15,402,168,287,0.109,0.8340000000000001,0.057,-0.9166,2,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,9,4,1,0,16,0,15,14,5,1,1,36,25,22,0,3,11,0,4,0,1,2,7,2,0,2,6,15,7,1,4,1,0,7,1,3,0,0,5,6,22,1,45,16,5,48,0,2,0,0,6,15,0,8,18,135,28,2,0.12665062557944334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612676842902935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189924318155386,0.19477302678805755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777035410875976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220408810370419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010507999053614,0.0,0.0,0.1327907712910584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816791759539048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12388861416636973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315127546201405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616972455346044,0.12149482058585015,0.07197846918160948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11345408380109186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208181817504496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767383279841236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275871809496995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090235293257486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129628983860867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418776860062938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505221351438406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10071766084466294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430791572374538,0.0,0.10476670625076796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08964396465232241,0.0,0.10114335318902601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477019965454494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579623836091093,0.137759511987776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450003002956118,0.0,0.10052937148358726,0.0,0.4626790262357322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140090050485896,0.0,0.0,0.13734720088692698,0.18440632764701065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155885046929255
EDAnonymous,myTransAltIGuess,2019/07/12,"Me: You probably have an eating disorder and have had one your whole life, you should get help Also me: maybe I can not tell anyone for a while and see what I can lose.",0.4392857142857132,2.657239142857144,1.9825000000000017,96.43375000000002,86.14285714285714,5.785714285714287,14.464285714285715,7.1686216300943375,-0.3679999999999993,130,2,30,2,4,42,29,35,0.146,0.782,0.073,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,7,0,1,6,1,1,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385507994668612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085786431498995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34187821280262665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052358789616845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584969764564796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19994453505760576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21069846263845887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337219535357075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996829432832942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213613666591845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216183883499989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237706874803168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607277822739704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330418516809762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jaggary,2019/07/12,"Does anyone else compare your body to almost everyone you see? Makes me feel guilty af but I feel better when I see people bigger than me, consequently hate myself when I see someone smaller. The rest of the time I’m obsessing over food lol fml",2.9117021276595736,5.5718427234042585,3.8930212765957455,83.89400000000002,79.21276595744679,6.313191489361702,22.16595744680852,7.554174236665415,1.152424680851064,196,6,35,3,5,63,38,47,0.18100000000000002,0.6829999999999999,0.136,-0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,2,3,1,1,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,8,1,4,8,1,5,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,1,3,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23541491884887394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438475312733505,0.2408838742009236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20792351414953705,0.0,0.2611389174089403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20573429872758034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639273668264925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246445264896973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377434396030084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842792994359884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232108859028754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692856179951425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629861273335001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5620237816453731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991962762185209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708650468495395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biblicalirony,2019/07/12,"studying abroad in ~italy~ w an ed and a cHeF for a host dad !! :’) i just find the situational irony of this all so funny idk. 

so im a sophomore in high school rn but this summer i’ll be in italy doing a home-stay program for a year !! whichhh im really excited about but also i got my host family placement a while ago and turns out my host dad is a chef !! (just my luck😭 though in retrospect it’s italy and in hindsight i guess taking into account the importance of food in their culture shouldn’t make this a surprise but still) 

also everyone in my host family is skinny wtf ?? they’re also so pretty idk i’m like so intimidated too bc they’ve been hosting for a while and my host mom sent me pictures of her precious host students and most of them have been white and thin lol! it’s so dumb especially bc they’ve been nothing but sweet and loving so far (thru the convos i’ve had w my host mom and host brother online) but like ?? i’m just scared that whether or not it’s subconscious their perception of me will be contingent on my weight so i’m trying to lose as much as i can before the end of august which is when i’ll meet them.

idk how i’m gonna restrict @all when i’m w them let alone in italy. :/ on the bright side i have enough time to lose weight so that when i come back to my home school as a senior i could actually maybe be skinny ?? on the other hand i could also come back the same obese fuck and if so makes no difference !",0.3281353135313516,2.5926273498349843,2.335404290429043,93.30990511551157,87.38283828382839,5.346864686468646,18.317656765676567,6.816661863887847,0.06553399339933996,1129,30,251,15,36,376,161,303,0.16,0.7040000000000001,0.136,-0.7426,0,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,5,2,26,13,2,1,18,1,19,9,3,3,2,39,36,40,0,4,12,5,4,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,10,13,6,1,2,0,1,3,3,5,0,0,6,7,24,8,30,21,6,35,0,2,2,2,15,17,2,4,17,153,34,5,0.0,0.0,0.10850956552939033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985670094378183,0.0,0.0,0.1151637271342913,0.0,0.3556880635468411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710030568444682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461813215986167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191568032009084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17755914995730554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617434348871825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984851171747998,0.11489340286855032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106250888128566,0.0,0.0,0.2096481195276486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10162954642997496,0.0,0.13445655014891086,0.0,0.0,0.10279730893664367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893221384978138,0.0,0.12249302227264765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174828490523242,0.22307383391160987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402177807836222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370367259605678,0.0,0.10864780533804204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487958868330564,0.0,0.0,0.10035716811691177,0.0,0.14844607455594194,0.0,0.11170958765667477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26045876539216617,0.0,0.0,0.08174058110175328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066938990005916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312454554123287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712338953250883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132486019039073,0.22506907103867785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498701600555705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851829474055975,0.08879988600086602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360425118265609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924780367275552,0.0,0.06483827182802598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549360893803146,0.12094743326521158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27080932484635434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160546289680117
EDAnonymous,Carsvn,2019/07/12,"Feeling like a fake Okay so I’ve (very recently) developed some very disordered eating. I restrict and purge, and try my best to fast for 20+ hours (Ik that isn’t a lot but it’s weird for me). My therapist agrees that I might be developing anorexia. But I still eat, sometimes more than I did before developing these eating patterns, and I feel like im doing a fake ‘I’m doing this for attention’ thing. I also haven’t lost weight (in fact I’ve mostly gained bc of the muscle I’ve been developing) and I’m overweight, and I’m a guy, so I feel like I can’t reach out to my parents until it gets bad enough to be a real issue bc I don’t look like someone with an ED, even though I know that’s bullshit. 
I know it’s not bulimia or BED, but I feel like I’m too fat and too passive with my ED (in the sense that I can still eat normal meals) to count as anorexic. What do y’all think? Is this anorexia or something much more casual?",1.3281613085166375,3.0751413451776664,3.353460236886633,90.51319091934576,79.71065989847716,6.408234630569656,22.11195713479977,7.3871296695380915,0.6965354765933447,723,22,162,10,18,245,114,197,0.132,0.7070000000000001,0.161,0.1699,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,3,9,13,0,0,8,1,14,8,1,0,1,31,28,17,0,1,6,1,5,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,12,9,8,1,8,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,3,6,19,8,16,22,8,9,0,1,1,0,3,3,0,6,11,98,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693221913214363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120594057589236,0.0,0.0,0.10314144848086558,0.0,0.12720323833158426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891805818279562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961155640246201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524314021266386,0.0,0.08005857880657426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451512548365436,0.3463720295169111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332763116966572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001773160412275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193682049056778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092844518966484,0.12651256558776058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322855247110316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960873291680385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017865297514644,0.0,0.13231588776373945,0.10304907291208483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858548566248582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910387197517496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876083155905945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345902298582152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796440712890773,0.0,0.0,0.1196810249374848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027015028370087,0.09331398234474717,0.11988056344100292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19359817527555068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407350610338036,0.0805270580818581,0.07766697527662797,0.11908897858101306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229416496788271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20002317989352908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760207895240635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ae_eliza,2019/01/10,Accurate Bathroom Scales? What’s the most accurate bathroom scale you’ve found? I hate that the scale in my bathroom and the one at my doctors office weigh me so differently 😭,4.48,6.988797606060608,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636367,72.93939393939394,8.036363636363637,32.21212121212121,8.841846274778883,2.997230303030304,143,7,25,3,3,45,26,33,0.127,0.873,0.0,-0.6199,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,15,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781075082828131,0.0,0.468385631269938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017483223536243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517974561845575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31008997169200386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PuzzleheadedSpring,2019/01/10,Stopped myself mid-binge and threw the food in the trash And then proceeded to dig it out an hour later and keep binging. Digging food out of the trash is like a normal procedure and my stupid ED brain doesn’t even care that it’s gross. ,9.115624999999998,6.118305979166667,7.782500000000002,82.01250000000003,62.125,11.266666666666667,34.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.501966666666666,189,5,41,2,2,57,39,48,0.158,0.7340000000000001,0.107,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,9,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,5,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31923626091607205,0.0,0.0,0.2915647112419729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888799938904672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.691590309227172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816221090780717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541826106504715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139710131651029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801891499160602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390830995081201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaythecalories,2019/01/10,"Fml. I've been craving strawberries a lot recently, so I walked to a nearby store and found out they were out of stock. Anyway, I'm the sort of person who doesn't like leaving stores empty handed, so what did I do? Ended up buying a 24 pack of Coke Zero and two packets of rice cakes. 

^Why am I like this?^",1.4922395833333333,3.3829570781250027,3.135625000000001,91.58020833333336,79.78125,5.5166666666666675,18.479166666666664,6.42735559955562,-0.07934583333333345,239,5,51,2,6,79,51,64,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.6575,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,6,2,1,0,0,7,8,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,4,1,4,2,8,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075961793525813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807859562673354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677303484224448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393370569657613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952538464183266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30324054834786895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429073348988478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392522202576688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133755340033222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MudBulli,2019/01/10,"Feeling like I ate more calories when I ate less than a serving size So recently I’ve been eating these bumblebee chicken salad/cracker kits, and I really like them. I must’ve gotten a bad one today, the chicken was soggy and way too sweet. So I only ate the crackers. 
I still logged it as consuming the whole kit (220 calories) but I feel like I ate way more calories than that, even though I didn’t eat the whole thing and the crackers are LITERALLY ONLY 80 CALORIES.
I’m thinking it’s the buttery taste, whenever I eat carby or buttery food I feel like I’m eating more calories than what it really is, and the chicken usually hides the taste of the crackers but keep the cronch. You could put zero calorie toast in front of me and I’d still feel fat for eating it. Next time I only eat the crackers I’m gonna try to convince myself not to log the chicken along with it.

-sincerely, mudbulli



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EDAnonymous,isukatdarksouls9,2019/01/10,"Any advice for losing post- re feeding syndrome edema/water retention? I've been out of refeeding syndrome for a couple of months now. But, the water weight is still holding on in certain areas. Does anyone have any advice or experience on this? I currently am back in the throws of high restriction and there is no way it is possible for me to weigh as much as I do. It really sucks knowing your weight has not been accurate for months now after so much anxiety and hard work fml",5.8957971014492765,6.811577565217391,6.5508695652173925,75.40644927536233,66.82608695652173,9.611594202898553,30.55072463768116,9.725611199111238,2.96362463768116,384,14,67,8,6,126,68,92,0.141,0.8370000000000001,0.022000000000000002,-0.8531,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,6,3,1,0,3,0,9,5,0,0,1,10,11,7,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,3,4,1,16,9,2,18,0,1,0,0,1,7,1,1,8,49,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642273291707714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534691028086277,0.0,0.14256867065962656,0.0,0.0,0.13031070076861126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330313691024826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062092637973825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16308921678741595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823006740745763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16694638238246567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969047935518921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242129835438836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849469998639653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975094376356245,0.0,0.27399935184554514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100984704537703,0.17848609857423106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193901541035714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488312835573523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792781652348402,0.0,0.4538845851197356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567589749822567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_koala_master_,2019/01/10,"Higher BMI ED support group on Instagram Hiya, I'm probabaly annoying everyone with my constant asking for making groups and stuff haha, oh well.
I was in an ED group before, but my account got deleted and I didn't find any of the other members again. So now I got the idea to make a support group for ED sufferers (AN/BN/BED/OSFED/whatever) of a higher BMI, so overweight/obese. Since while everyone struggles, suffering from an ED when you're heavier is an experience which smaller ed sufferers dont necessarily get.

If you want to join, DM me @bn_monster_ on Insta.",3.3300849617672057,5.9957620934579445,5.297094307561597,74.41041631265931,77.5981308411215,8.750722175021242,30.288020390824126,9.339509955726095,3.446446728971962,452,22,76,13,11,155,79,107,0.162,0.722,0.11599999999999999,-0.85,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,1,1,7,1,4,0,0,2,0,10,14,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,4,0,7,4,11,10,0,8,0,3,0,0,6,3,0,1,5,43,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511926974863234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857528054694081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690746304933811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147184788057384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232868812379046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.379722770675272,0.0,0.1943616297426034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18160343707511054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038098261924128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31782874703562763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22430223106017835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652606284949039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436238234386036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771893425625984,0.2274579955780965,0.0,0.4509529828135616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719533429125545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17865047719127555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkhowtocomeupwaname,2019/01/10,I was not even hungry but I forced myself to eat like wtf??? And now I feel like my stomach is gonna explode like why did I even eat THAT much food and I can’t wait to see what my scale says tomorrow morning :’) ,-0.3449999999999989,1.5626658043478263,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,86.6086956521739,4.5495652173913035,17.895652173913042,5.6839178017228535,-0.6317599999999999,161,4,40,1,5,53,35,46,0.16899999999999998,0.642,0.18899999999999997,-0.2477,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,6,8,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,8,3,2,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5690979232085539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673432098299481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060743112720045,0.19866298998616366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33625981085392465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075728229551036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20442345359838976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114325195834494,0.0,0.0,0.2215966373990061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509272092293852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hydroflower,2019/01/10,"B&W thinking Well today is fucked because I woke up still drunk from last night. Last night was fucked because I started drinking, purged my stupid kids meal and then had Hardee’s and didn’t purge that because I fell asleep.

Today is also fucked because I spent 8 bucks on college dining breakfast and binged as fuck, but I don’t have a comfortable place on campus I can purge. Really hating myself today, feeling bloated, uncomfortable, & weak.

I just want to live in shades of grey, not constantly think black& white.",7.607298245614036,8.697015431578949,6.235526315789473,78.55785087719302,63.105263157894726,8.017543859649122,32.675438596491226,7.793537801064563,2.3964385964912283,426,16,69,4,6,126,74,95,0.249,0.652,0.099,-0.9508,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,4,9,6,0,1,0,8,11,1,0,0,10,20,7,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,3,2,2,1,3,7,1,0,5,4,9,2,8,15,0,17,0,0,2,4,1,5,4,0,11,37,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815717845920182,0.0,0.4396210226954617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297818776882384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461542318080343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249081766881166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838507427212284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5001356200449314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352866089936202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204891229731758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942580124821273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538407679650601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130459229689832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664285275353432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572870098936173,0.0,0.1080086300516254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733219559108406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3845957421880466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797723332900515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160352197564014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleGreenNotebook,2019/01/10,"Today I’m eating every time I’m hungry and not ignoring hunger cues Today is the day I take back control of my life. I am finally feeling happy with myself and can actually feel real hunger, not just “oh shit I should eat or I might die”. 



I am going to eat all my meals and not skip any. I am going to the gym again. I am no longer going to be called skinny (in a negative way) by everyone I meet. I will not get fat. I will no longer get light headed just from standing up. 



This is it; I’m feeling so happy and positive and right with the universe again! It’s good to be alive and I’m going to live the rest of my life without punishing myself by withholding food anymore. 



Love you all and wish me luck! 




(Possible warnings ⚠️)



I just ate a full breakfast with protein, carbs, and coffee and it feels good man. Feels good. 💚",1.172394220846236,3.1954601988304105,3.307210182318542,89.26739938080497,81.51461988304094,6.128792569659443,21.169934640522875,7.285733465282438,0.6847885104919159,638,19,135,9,17,217,101,171,0.07400000000000001,0.6759999999999999,0.25,0.9841,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,7,10,2,0,6,0,13,16,4,1,2,36,32,11,1,2,9,0,5,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,4,12,11,3,5,1,0,4,8,3,0,0,1,6,18,7,16,25,4,18,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,3,8,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.12443030436571445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671043237282765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645457766673282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804648238528572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020085512150414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301208669180854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223269944994467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13233411920724875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914203476854087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743175745948776,0.12184022933336708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32236168466208465,0.0,0.0,0.139679780100336,0.0,0.0,0.1541842820710714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13323628717706734,0.0,0.28986501168516904,0.3208452763586081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714712148897139,0.0,0.0,0.13086092965055882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012663033644466,0.0,0.0,0.11259270503764585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508177102309212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526680516936876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374713929271918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451330566841572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889191383207032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088606543218115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587083286318998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435147176884595,0.0,0.2417270779922093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121063899771704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662895561366093,0.1229140406417062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pyragonal,2019/01/10,"I can’t stand being juuust underweight i’ve been maintaining a 18 BMI give or take .5 points for what feels like forever (about a year probably) after losing a ton of weight super quickly. it’s driving me mad that at this bmi any small binges completely cancel out my hard work restricting. i wish i could just lose weight as easily as someone heavier. the craving to be lower is real and i can’t take this long without results 😓 

my ugw is bmi 16.7 and apparently i’d do anything to get there besides not eating so much lmao

anyone else relate at a similar bmi?",4.602094594594593,5.9040132072072105,5.873502252252251,77.66538851351353,70.08108108108108,9.153603603603603,29.190315315315317,9.516144504307137,2.758863963963964,450,17,82,10,8,151,89,111,0.14400000000000002,0.722,0.133,0.1742,2,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,5,5,1,0,5,0,9,3,0,1,0,13,15,6,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,4,7,2,12,11,2,11,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,1,5,48,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222384710731282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568775168190446,0.1841785931404989,0.14792172624752362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846801234178576,0.0,0.0,0.14351845744024325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839325962618936,0.15016089418693054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908887163570399,0.12841585969349895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391372866160833,0.17243583362768602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610237327350322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08781842800065769,0.0,0.0,0.15907609606998765,0.0,0.4021961346891259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321394263580732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992505757523987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19380455985715556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20459871396974436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230446635108433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703043615170845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377824130350697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20670753055638344,0.1732758560914617,0.0,0.13086261077098071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575529148134048
EDAnonymous,Ednasucks,2019/01/10,"Threatened with hospital So I have been denying that I have a problem for some time. Been seeing an ED clinic which tbh made it worse because when I started to track my meals in recovery record I just used it to eat tiny meals out of panic because my clinician kept mentioning being careful about binging or going too far the other way with recovery (not that there's anything wrong with that) but super triggered me.

I've also been denying anorexia because I'm not technically underweight. I'm 66kg and 180cm. I don't see a problem. My gf is worried. My friend has offered me free training in order to get me to agree to a meal plan (I've been wanting to tone for a whole because I lost 62kg and prior to developing an ED had asked him about training).

My doctor is great and kind and wonderful and said to me that she acknowledges that I'm about to start my career and that hospital treatment is not practical but she needs me to commit to stopping losing weight or else it won't be a choice and she'll essentially force me (I tbh needed to hear that). My gf generally eats dinner with me and will eat a slightly larger portion or have seconds so that I'll eat. Feeds me snacks while driving. Calls me on my lunch break to make sure I've eaten. She's a fucking angel and she agrees with everything the doctor said. And she has been very vocal about how she would never force the hospital on anyone because of her own experiences. 

But I still don't think I'm sick. I am fine? It's not a serious life threatening eating disorder I'm just not skinny and need to be?

I think I need it drilled into my head that is serious. I'm valid. I'm sick. I'm unhealthily skinny. I need to be better.",3.2320756302520977,4.9707142411764735,4.589831932773109,83.78352941176473,74.23529411764707,7.445378151260503,27.142857142857146,8.192908349453996,1.833021008403361,1342,51,262,22,28,445,175,340,0.092,0.738,0.17,0.9863,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,5,14,18,1,1,13,0,26,24,3,5,3,56,61,23,0,9,13,0,1,0,3,4,6,3,0,0,16,18,16,2,4,0,1,2,9,9,0,1,12,6,39,10,34,41,4,21,1,2,2,1,19,7,1,5,9,165,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927536733887655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931499953765506,0.0,0.08157671888670133,0.0,0.0926745036341945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30214799271623505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767369243775816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122427177909396,0.0,0.10107109784198852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11361320509366744,0.20293043469964175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5071809963280772,0.08281158801760542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909293566009592,0.09696955863686996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658869554295153,0.09164540801439867,0.051792079750409364,0.0,0.05633867514673437,0.0,0.0,0.10929274958625257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173744477984836,0.0,0.11172832426591013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323012774447583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001945942218796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090271135002372,0.10821366415784066,0.0,0.0,0.09380055428716308,0.06617099811046538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675234897071446,0.07645626870827221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11630937196636244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897107776451054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885933782272892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15798982741716006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033147025313275,0.0,0.07916648663631025,0.08287831281027963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934301979327953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703883291396514,0.0,0.0,0.057804332993679874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856177255660905,0.0,0.08179381017127361,0.058470284775722074,0.07868591353935435,0.0,0.1207153734196687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067669942936714,0.0,0.0,0.10750380524984683,0.0,0.10067277731975306,0.10102339439936092,0.07042012239367469,0.108384654855201,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shmegadee,2019/01/10,"My obsession with food knows no bounds My biggest problem is and has always been that I LOVE food. Cooking is my only real talent. So naturally this pairs wonderfully with my binge/restriction calendar. I’ve eaten chicken broth and raw veggies all week in an effort to, ya know, not be a fat sack of shit. But tonight, ooooo lordy tonight. I fell HARD off the wagon. I made some over the effing top quesadillas. Braised shredded chicken, full fat cheese, a jalapeño sauce I made to dip it in and guacamole. I’m talkin MULTIPLE quesadillas because got forbid I eat just one. I ate three. 



I deserve to be as fat as I am. ",2.9253954802259905,5.457162754237288,3.745000000000001,85.72704802259891,78.23728813559322,6.6451977401129945,28.47740112994349,7.793537801064563,1.977353672316384,487,22,91,8,12,155,88,118,0.124,0.7659999999999999,0.111,0.10099999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,2,6,1,1,5,0,7,11,4,2,1,19,17,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,9,2,3,1,0,1,2,4,0,2,6,1,13,2,12,9,3,11,0,0,0,1,2,7,1,2,3,53,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810248741079979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326207440117853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22261515119459532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261416398209574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400022823734124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19488836311366636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391273042207551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196353710333714,0.4117154374070082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742227151947426,0.16546192208432264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20817269256176305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476275253557685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22331916123738768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745111237532531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359313147865683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,defyangravity,2019/01/10,"9 days into 2019 and I’ve followed my diet for 2 of them...... And I wanna crawl in a hole and die! I’ve just been over eating or binging for days! My stomach hurts from all the food I’ve put in it today. Why can’t I stop!? 😭

Sorry to be so negative I just needed to vent.",-2.133548387096773,-0.3667473387096756,1.5163709677419348,97.99455645161294,94.96774193548387,3.745161290322581,14.201612903225806,5.148860815047168,-1.120167741935484,203,4,51,1,8,74,47,62,0.228,0.772,0.0,-0.9315,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,1,11,5,5,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,11,3,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783632424477056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044431641222836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001625730009588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547108710349011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140291740354651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175097196217264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948901973670057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283728713837326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452474343401841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278054355591884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646959466434057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeasomerandosaidso,2019/01/10,"finally clicked for me I've never been formally diagnosed with an ED, never underweight, never hospitalized.

What I do have: fucked up teeth, iron deficiency, diagnosed gastritis, possible IBS, colorectal problems. Despite striving to eat nutritious, healthy foods, my mouth will crack and bleed if I don't take a multivitamin on the regular. Once-weekly shits, 750 ""high-calorie"" days, blue nails, lollipop head, etc.

For anyone who knows they have problems but feels like it's not ""real"" ED. Take care of yourself, because your behavior can still hurt your body. Some damage can't be undone. Stay safe.",6.447549019607841,9.316086303921573,6.182941176470589,70.91990196078433,68.31372549019608,10.023529411764708,34.86274509803922,10.25414643259724,4.419345098039216,481,24,72,14,9,150,89,102,0.153,0.731,0.11699999999999999,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,1,0,1,9,2,0,3,0,9,11,5,0,3,15,15,3,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,1,3,7,3,7,12,2,9,0,2,2,1,4,2,2,2,7,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749549081181425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243389436282904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665140584700093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713250858695034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837006819879236,0.0,0.0,0.341108364791412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17194396737063986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740585437979704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496463811886021,0.12004578219280082,0.0,0.18407649750911734,0.0,0.0,0.20319120343841626,0.0,0.0,0.15534764866370834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245460705592794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754048765848782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988725747500348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092348829748837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209446952614073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888018557644921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894366522409446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215777404657356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191263078507292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248773215563726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910525676237074,0.13419469473020912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25268606686037504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478927560601514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitchincoffin,2019/01/10,"What’s your dream ed technology? This is what I think about at work when I’m bored lol. Mine is a chip that could straight up be implanted into my body and tells me the exact calories and macros as I’m eating. Like I would be eating dinner or let’s be real shoveling handfuls of popcorn in my mouth and simultaneously watch the number increase on an app or something. 

What do you think? Too far a la black mirror?",4.1564257028112435,5.367235746987955,5.15921686746988,82.71223895582331,71.04819277108433,7.461044176706826,25.88152610441768,7.793537801064563,1.3328730923694785,329,10,66,4,6,108,65,83,0.025,0.815,0.16,0.8496,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,5,1,9,6,3,0,1,12,13,7,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,8,1,8,7,1,9,0,0,2,0,3,7,0,2,2,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120244348177057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242814421012064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5748761333532704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28724651664731393,0.0,0.13723700788276175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31973375020626005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625599053159905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455251653922511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.359987822789258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20450369648841088,0.0,0.0,0.1995483267562772,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prettypuzzlepieces,2019/02/09,"ED dreams? Does anyone else have dreams about ED behaviors or mindstates or anything? 

I have VERY frequent dreams about purging, which is weird, because I don't actually purge. Last night I dreamed I was trying to find a bathroom that was quiet and open and people kept walking in when I was just about to purge, lol. Kinda out of left field for me. 

Also I have dreams where I'm in a crowd of people and they're all calling me fat, or mean names, like ""hippo"" comes up a lot. I'm sure this is just my subconscious ED voice really sticking it to me, bah.

So am I nuts, or do other people have dreams like this too?",3.02390243902439,4.6438787479674835,3.693178861788621,90.49196341463416,74.52845528455285,6.220813008130082,22.86910569105691,6.742157984588678,0.5231047154471549,478,13,100,4,10,151,80,123,0.034,0.775,0.191,0.9575,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,0,3,1,12,1,1,0,2,20,17,10,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,6,1,1,2,6,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,2,11,3,13,13,2,13,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,6,6,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.2149085549524104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761144452513002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398695838249074,0.2256472963940759,0.181227020125168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424756745319605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22487510394164534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897049754705652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19272102973853486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18397034758295805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128233724997327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17951337178703405,0.0,0.0,0.2392759116136747,0.0,0.0,0.215182345722554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18722804937367227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398903929816973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066669391213541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580303987289974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410822486778784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20756015432027144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495188219200851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170929996107102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PursuingPeace,2019/02/09,"Does anyone else think they thought themselves into an ED? If there was ever a tally of how many times I've thought about the perfect way to eat, the perfect time to eat, the perfect exercise routine, the perfect this, the perfect that, I wouldn't be surprised if in total that figure clocked over a million times... Seriously. If you consider the 6 years I've been at this. I've gone over and over things concerning food and eating to the point where I used my own ability to think to create the obsession with food purely because I decided to constantly think about it a million different ways there by keeping it firmly locked in my mind. You'll probably become obsessed with anything you do a million times. I've turned food into something it never was at the beginning. Before dieting food never crossed my mind until it was time to eat. Anyone remember those days? Yeah I would emotionally eat on the occasion but before dieting it was just as effective as taking a walk or calling a friend. I never felt shame or guilt afterwards. I felt good. The shame & guilt only came in after dieting because I knew eating more = diet ruined. There was no wrong before trying to lose weight. And I'm also beginning to think having an ED is synonymous with being a perfectionist. Whatever a perfectionist is defined as. Maybe there should be a dark side of perfection called an obsessioner. 

If I thought my way here would it be farfetched to say I could also think my way out of it? Not in the sense of thinking about not wanting to think about food but to proactively and repeatedly choose to think otherwise instead of further engage in the thoughts that come up to dwell on food or binge eating. If I eat a satisfying breakfast and immediately I have a thought to eat something else because that's what I always do, technically that thought is a lie, I don't need that extra food no matter what my mind says. I don't have to accept the lie. What's going to happen if I don't accept it? It's like the build up of lies I've believed as facts so I crumble at any temptation or desire to engage in more disordered thinking and eating. 

When I think about it, my obsession with food is much more unhealthy than the food choices I'm making. I must be lying to myself when I say I want to be normal around food but I ""just can't"". The truth is, I can but I just don't want to abandon this disordered way of eating/thinking which has become my sole refuge, my identity, my enjoyment because I lack the bravery needed to experience life without it. ",6.570596898675916,6.910544782340863,7.023786730864548,74.61587268993844,65.24229979466119,9.920526800254905,34.0415634072081,9.753983421225431,3.2955584365927897,2027,84,361,39,29,663,218,487,0.10800000000000001,0.7340000000000001,0.159,0.9773,1,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,3,1,8,23,29,0,8,33,1,36,28,0,4,15,99,74,31,0,20,20,0,3,1,1,6,2,3,0,0,26,16,26,2,26,1,0,6,14,13,0,3,17,6,39,16,67,44,8,56,0,3,0,0,10,24,0,10,22,255,65,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531011329208445,0.039179739612920345,0.05101820254625378,0.0,0.032020434331481086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584795054568789,0.04824568317278607,0.038748177066731865,0.04191696748126602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148139722401596,0.10400667862021054,0.1202014289946428,0.0530503605982991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616116117135796,0.05385441145252577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040560850004025685,0.0,0.05088377818460088,0.0,0.03759473839517787,0.0,0.0,0.030366896814857932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919537013710736,0.10793041564229952,0.0,0.04120571303127982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4818124415593664,0.07866945666544885,0.05296597427887012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04259243455951655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04605963171138045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042084735702162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693718211178492,0.0,0.0363789127181002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026760342780182925,0.03949392178491832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04163843601089588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04185264425820907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033258587116943746,0.023004085229491395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05267774869126194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03143060405540137,0.04773831998452616,0.04730471761320894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426318249579893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03461399498171902,0.06982808551118229,0.1089480336375499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0461347721090657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03581140467607518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044511961738346935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050767210417210884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05333982498001125,0.0,0.0,0.11233522297151144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249897552162919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03540318764414513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031282178008096136,0.3318824037794278,0.0,0.22428852598611831,0.13728258261859155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03196864232809851,0.05121659023786941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040667617373693565,0.0,0.0,0.08331851213991118,0.18687535807336172,0.0,0.057338671226019475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538970524172009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689779654807526,0.051481695451354885,0.0,0.03032216189273433
EDAnonymous,rsmason03,2019/02/09,"When giving your body what it needs feels wrong Yesterday was the 1st day in weeks that I've gone over my calorie limit. I've just been so frustrated about my weight and so HUNGRY. 

We got Mexican last night, so I went over my limit by about 600 calories. Then today we had Panera for this first time in ages. I got the Green Goddess Cobb salad (half) and Turkey Chili (half). My side was a sprouted grain roll and my drink was the plum ginger unsweetened iced tea that I cant remember the name of. This plus my small breakfast left me with only 264 calories left for today.

Honestly, I've felt the best physically in a long time. I feel like my body has what it needs right now and I have been beating myself up for this. 

It's just crazy to me that me doing what's natural is something that I keep telling myself is wrong. ",3.413608391608392,4.959855442424246,3.877575757575759,89.86867132867134,73.36363636363636,6.773892773892776,22.995337995338,7.321109707123232,0.7289114219114219,648,17,135,7,13,203,104,165,0.09300000000000001,0.8220000000000001,0.085,-0.3327,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,2,1,0,5,9,6,1,0,7,0,12,7,2,0,0,20,23,10,0,2,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,13,8,5,3,4,1,0,2,1,3,0,3,11,5,21,3,16,12,1,28,0,0,1,0,6,11,0,0,16,85,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386174387597596,0.0,0.0,0.3468778614426197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069888659719398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529600410344272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790050889343393,0.11154811294691984,0.1499211247948765,0.0,0.0,0.1328145875569159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497859523855305,0.0,0.0,0.2497625730269803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387864786990028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727684035405026,0.0,0.0,0.3392982004611111,0.0,0.0,0.07628325620230406,0.0,0.0,0.13818105001923198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23155512092856576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465290009048156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875327928133532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768788236586714,0.13334469810275024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020599534709872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647528013529914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209569852544893,0.0,0.2960093463674435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524796010896388,0.19013929499038068,0.0,0.14474550578526982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414342561042166,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gierschotel,2019/02/09,"Bless and curse of parents house I almost never weigh myself, because I only have a scale available at my parents. It had been about three weeks since I weighed myself, until I weighed myself this morning. I always eat loads of bad food at my parents, because there is so much available and I can't just go to sleep at 21 to avoid cravings like I do at home. So yesterday evening I ate loads of calories. I'm talking bananas dipped in chocolate, yoghurt with cranberries, some bread. 
But when I weighed myself this morning, there was still progress!! All the weeks of restriction have paid off! 
I was 1kg less than usual, so I'm sure a big part of it is water weight, but it felt so good to see the number on the scale!",4.5268085106383005,5.703613489361705,4.4707021276595755,88.12350000000002,70.13475177304964,6.491063829787233,30.41205673758865,6.2581,1.4356405673758856,566,23,111,3,10,174,91,141,0.055999999999999994,0.835,0.109,0.8136,3,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,11,6,0,1,5,0,10,11,1,0,3,14,17,10,0,0,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,10,2,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,7,3,16,4,19,10,5,17,1,0,1,0,4,8,0,2,9,76,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16903315173770134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404587243434086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409445637359617,0.20580310432096705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17272897059248074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149366725910917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207862787364086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20411886465147328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593539025607303,0.14158506228047146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932450542967456,0.0,0.0,0.1947775315387604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246926850314945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409060467461877,0.0,0.1301923049654184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838329880294405,0.0,0.0,0.5623116920571641,0.18279863842252092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345151950261421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963668530726106,0.0,0.1689262374466208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348073551760978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590960823455646,0.0,0.0,0.13567852543901174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591411987444104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708093011736412,0.20555819654546456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,madcapmango,2019/02/09,"Just bought nearly $50 worth of groceries... And proceeded to b/p. Half a loaf of rye bread with butter, a row of Oreos, a vegetarian corn dog, and a pint of low-calorie Ben and Jerry’s. I’ve been really depressed lately (SAD compounded by what is probably an unhealthy relationship) so I’ve been binging to cope with it, and over the past few days I’ve started purging again. I feel like I’m constantly on the verge of death. I don’t have therapy for another two weeks, not that my therapist seems to care about my eating habits. Everything in my life just feels wrong and awful right now, and it feels like it’ll never end. I just want to sleep forever (especially since I can’t binge if I’m not conscious) but I’ve been having trouble sleeping, even when I take a fuckton of melatonin. I just feel so isolated and alone. ",3.6214393581878253,5.286732871165643,4.93680981595092,82.00048607833884,73.04907975460122,8.450967437470505,27.875884851344967,9.057496981413335,2.304805002359604,650,25,128,14,13,216,113,163,0.145,0.81,0.045,-0.9381,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,0,8,1,9,5,2,0,1,25,21,12,1,2,8,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,6,0,2,0,5,4,0,2,4,5,9,3,19,16,1,18,0,2,0,0,1,6,0,2,14,74,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17553238246839878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777167997596663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279833571231168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314998221201584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930195850037146,0.0,0.14597471764608905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342253906733568,0.0,0.0,0.1501108698506557,0.0,0.0,0.1119413541323166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231961791744744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427810466126559,0.2421561473840313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118323448216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971024668739046,0.1656008241094054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071507354374653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16178987861350724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18273041068478926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10857459783614558,0.0,0.0,0.18196038995474745,0.0,0.14473682034412386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542901736928237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401973764439601,0.0,0.3392090731809169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996033003279202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274294759274802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938175960232184,0.19678182576886444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555942271074747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996495648701964,0.0,0.13594834859343544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530211282568546,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavenderelf,2019/02/09,"bought the same dress as someone else I bought the same dress as someone I've always wanted to look like body-wise and seeing how it fits on her vs. me triggered the fucking shit out of me. I feel like a sausage. I know I'm carrying some extra water weight because I'm on my period but fuck man, I'm going crazy. I don't know what to do other than starve and obsessively check to see if my arms look like hers or not in this dress.",5.176521739130437,4.321075782608698,5.822956521739132,86.08726086956526,68.34782608695652,8.664347826086956,27.09565217391304,7.554174236665415,1.2234365217391299,340,8,77,3,5,111,64,92,0.165,0.764,0.071,-0.8749,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,4,0,2,6,2,2,0,17,18,8,0,2,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,3,0,3,1,2,4,0,0,2,6,10,3,11,16,4,7,0,0,4,2,3,5,3,3,4,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182698079840526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384655228938305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342080392662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111020126194199,0.1568593497624475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40597396612199815,0.0,0.0,0.12478549602717197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413375484106639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32180935157592944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687634684280694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499343733261425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538329138860025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3720783338564077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950683468479468,0.0,0.0,0.267374547077041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinybutterflly,2019/02/09,"Feb 11! I’m so tired of not staying on track, feb 11 is the day I get back on track!! I miss having a routine and set rules and stuff :// ",-2.3614516129032244,-0.6512562580645174,0.37443548387096826,106.18165322580644,95.45161290322581,3.1,14.201612903225806,3.1291,-1.6959741935483872,100,2,28,0,4,34,24,31,0.193,0.807,0.0,-0.7365,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422506802532898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870495365168922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23254383437022424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744121859097475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5095274348293047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5115713748487062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vanilla_peach,2019/02/09,"I got arrested, bye recovery. I feel so fucking worthless.

I got arrested the other night. I got pulled over with weed on me. Spent the night in jail, which was so awful. I was in recovery, but for the first time I seem to be keeping food from myself as punishment. I've dropped 5 lbs below what I said I'd never go below. 

  


Cant believe I got arrested for using the one thing that's kept me in recovery. And if I get probation, who knows how I'll be able to boost my appetite.

  


I'm such an IDIOT. 🤦♀️",-0.3234004313443606,1.8159048411214973,2.6181308411214985,90.95179726815245,89.37383177570094,6.282961897915169,21.31488138030194,7.61054688173877,1.016698634076204,386,14,86,8,13,136,75,107,0.212,0.755,0.033,-0.9597,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,3,0,5,1,5,2,0,2,1,12,21,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,1,2,3,0,1,2,2,4,0,2,9,2,13,0,14,10,0,15,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,2,6,53,19,0,0.1987100363377105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238781644840633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047376494089197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16902265539778746,0.24028096469696655,0.0,0.0,0.1837042266233463,0.10381779253215598,0.0,0.11293149292530527,0.0,0.6357062742661925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1766226104716192,0.0,0.0,0.10920583925480704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15325743010880802,0.0,0.0,0.3729518162318321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13465106327859375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901874869761706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808981540548199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13201411855701578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158694201723012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162167097229175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dalishmage,2019/02/09,"if i drink ""gut healthy"" drinks after purging will it help relax my stomach? i know purging fucks u up but if i drink yakult or something will it help?

can't stop making myself sick because im a fat mess lol :) ",0.7241860465116297,3.047552116279076,2.0337674418604657,95.79902325581396,85.97674418604653,3.44,22.55348837209302,3.1291,-0.21289395348837206,163,6,34,0,5,52,34,43,0.17300000000000001,0.479,0.348,0.8335,0,0,4,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,3,8,3,1,0,7,6,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,3,2,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581020481315915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7622154296254263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397720166643566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3476840018293278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801508246321121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425362104669232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312328031914995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19966623040331385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21683465250258907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crazyrunner92,2019/02/09,"Favorite vegan Costco buys? Any non-triggering binge foods that you like to get at Costco? I live alone, *heavy sigh*, and can't keep too many ""good"" foods in the apartment or I'll binge on them. I'm also really into fitness and trying to lose that that 10 pounds we all love so much. (F/5'5""/CW:125lbs GW:115) So Costco can be a bit tricky. Any favorite deals there that you have?

   
**What I usually buy there:**  
 * Orgain vegan protein powder  
 * Frozen vegetables (multiple types)  
 * Toilet paper    
 * Occasionally frozen fruits for oatmeal and such
  
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EDAnonymous,darkstar256,2019/02/09,"How do you imagine your ED looks like? I am not speaking about real numbers, just your fantasy. I have seen several description of Ana - extremely bony demon-like woman with hissy voice or spiky malevolent presence in the air telling people they are fat. BED can look like HAES activist etc.

But I imagine my ortho looks like excel spreadsheet - thru day I fill numbers and spreadsheet sums them, then compares with maximum for carbs, fat, calories and BMI, target protein range, minimums for vitamins and minerals. Sometimes numbers starts blinking with red background and I must take some action - mostly not eat for some time or take vitamin pill.",9.969729729729726,10.251074756756758,8.208783783783787,69.16020270270272,58.189189189189186,11.003603603603604,42.82432432432432,10.504223727775694,4.877389189189191,522,27,76,10,6,156,86,111,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,2,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,1,1,21,13,9,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,1,5,3,1,1,0,7,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,8,11,4,10,11,4,8,0,0,5,0,8,2,0,5,7,44,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757286064152267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341445710672785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551997843266418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353762504402272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764648016057976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863808405281446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604523564444868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585065322356483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263132636153647,0.0,0.16196314603438805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440950656452217,0.0,0.2000026830185477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334293955473864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_sumi,2019/02/09,"Eating before bed So I used to hate eating before bed. I usually would eat dinner at 4 or 5 and then go for a long walk or try to do some exercise. But I don’t sleep very well from the hunger and I can’t really take it anymore. I think I am going to do OMAD an hour or two before bed and then exercise in the morning. I feel weird about eating before bed, it goes against all my instincts. Does anyone else do this or something similar? How do you find it?",1.147961053837342,2.912409752577325,3.3329209621993137,90.36359679266899,80.34020618556701,6.3729667812142035,20.0561282932417,7.3871296695380915,0.4983846506300118,354,9,78,5,9,121,66,97,0.08800000000000001,0.8859999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.6839,0,0,1,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,4,0,8,9,1,2,1,16,15,12,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,4,3,6,0,3,2,0,3,2,2,1,1,0,1,9,1,9,14,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,5,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656908118025755,0.1033389893920436,0.15142947047820995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030374407645831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293330075285044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6049088589654645,0.12346051897527173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472763232528128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13507840879754562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798620189523078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591313649625345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554448572523726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079049298222822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946787776878817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789785580360088,0.0,0.0,0.11377682676950507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112053153011683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469858396047516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034047113218007,0.0,0.1443704521072289,0.0,0.0,0.12764407838217876,0.16277104201608725,0.12194315426680913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288196841747485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498657331842128,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,little_milkee,2019/02/09,"Why did I puke water instead of food? I wasn't trying to purge but: I had a big meal and afterwards I coughed (like not a bad cough just a regular cough) and basically projectile vomited gross acidic water everywhere. 

My question is, why did no food come out instead??? Considering I ate a LOT. 

Now I feel like my body is gross and plotting against me by not taking this prime opportunity to have slightly less calories in a day when I've already gone over 😞",4.0846709470304985,5.7879050112359565,5.278683788121993,79.86258426966293,71.92134831460675,8.681219903691815,31.815409309791328,9.23628265651192,2.895660032102728,362,17,70,8,7,120,65,89,0.153,0.731,0.115,-0.5477,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,5,0,7,11,1,0,0,12,12,5,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,6,2,9,3,8,6,2,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591190684021764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19605684045575136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608213729479018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226833143404213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143325519463768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872717200077185,0.16774856629687787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5678672326227828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22943295986518555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996273690266977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630413392458894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654816631103154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15942081936829233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237596504113596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TallHoe_InA_Tahoe,2019/02/09,Bought a Fitbit today and the only thing I’ve used it for is watching my heart rate go up when I smoke cigarettes I don’t have any food to log for today & im kinda thinking I just blew $200 lol kms ,6.247826086956523,3.1088024782608734,7.488695652173912,82.33782608695653,67.69565217391303,10.069565217391306,29.52173913043478,7.1686216300943375,1.5358173913043478,158,3,38,1,2,55,40,46,0.0,0.93,0.07,0.4215,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,1,1,0,5,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,4,6,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159168714845325,0.0,0.19827816215999194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35256860387412803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657064214150731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455128363113432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149465292052529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217527541954329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19370670302585252,0.18682681415646304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5527501069596769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25182358080489986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,srkchrstn,2019/02/09,"Email from Pinterest Just thought it was interesting. I received this email from Pinterest that someone was concerned about my well being. I have a private/hidden board that contains a lot of thinspo. I know it wasn’t a user who flagged it because it is hidden so it must be someone working for Pinterest. Didn’t know people monitored that kind of stuff. I guess it was a nice gesture on their part it linked to some suicide hotlines and mental health links. 


[email ](https://imgur.com/gallery/NB9NyZs)",5.008275862068963,8.372832873563219,4.078862068965517,81.3148448275862,76.58620689655173,6.238620689655173,31.68850574712643,7.554174236665415,2.5278009195402302,408,20,63,6,10,120,60,87,0.054000000000000006,0.856,0.09,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,4,0,10,1,0,0,1,12,14,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,0,6,4,8,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,0,48,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361946052249045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27761110838220354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267868748742478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624236618488391,0.2769899064005058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21424501378387545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25396102641892165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27289606064365424,0.0,0.17470802659715687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270447907806315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28848459117699893,0.2756517632404792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000632367362712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22658209813690916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834621057956348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,R0b0t_Skelet0n,2019/02/09,"Mistakes I did so fucking good all week. At or below my limit. Had a date tonight, so I figured I'd be real good and just eat a little bit. NOPE. My fat ass ate my whole curry dish, and the appetizer and then came home and chowed through most of my cereal box. Ugh. Why can't I just hold it together :(",0.06799107142857252,2.0938017812500007,2.5413392857142867,93.126875,85.875,5.5321428571428575,20.080357142857142,6.868970318607317,0.271341964285714,230,7,53,3,7,79,51,64,0.11699999999999999,0.743,0.14,0.3803,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,3,0,4,7,2,0,1,15,7,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,5,5,2,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,7,2,4,2,4,8,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,2,4,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001946142427291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31449095089570345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28136163558849764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542041409259221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612614150537516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758160349679095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755908835523058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.312974589451586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22056331271307505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481164914620999,0.30699274419225103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,still_not_clever,2019/02/09,"Tips for soup? You guys, how do you eat soup and not go crazy? I am always craving some kind of low cal soup or just broth from Pho (#tastyshit), but the bloat and water weight from all the sodium is insane!! 

I feel like I start all over with losing every time I eat soup even though it’s impossible that I’ve truly gained. What do you do to feel okay about the temporary weight when it feels totally not temporary? ",5.256024096385541,5.369501108433738,5.1008674698795184,88.05828915662653,68.03614457831326,8.567710843373495,23.828915662650605,8.238735603445708,0.9734115662650606,324,6,71,4,5,100,61,83,0.09300000000000001,0.741,0.166,0.7811,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,0,2,6,5,0,0,3,1,5,5,0,1,3,16,10,7,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,5,7,3,8,10,4,6,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18398313868881502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525061479897166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604258256044672,0.0,0.1862966412983844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335403053376364,0.15796266456206134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256632102644963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21893593088706303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302544249505094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080242963582924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24736809481201624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650441732270212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172417028345832,0.0,0.1289323547681046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385104038277088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,circa90melancholy,2019/02/09,"I'm losing my mind. Is the final 10lbs actually worth it? I thought I slowly began to gain 10 pounds on my own, away from the scale and measuring tape and without ever seeing a number in my clothes. I was wrong. Between the last time I weighed myself and the time before that (months), my weight stayed the same. I felt better mentally and physically and thought it was because I gained weight (I understand the irony). I was wrong. I thought because the dumbest aspect of female biology had come back to punish me after months without it, I must have gained weight, and I will repeat a third time: I was wrong. 

I'm scared to look for others who have gained 10 pounds as a reference point. I Googled for images and one of the first results was of someone I can't convince myself gained *more* than 10 pounds to look so much larger. I go to bed every night scared my life will end when I close my eyes and I still can't bring myself to say ""yes, this is worth it."" I don't want my clothes to be tight or too small, or my thighs to be on the verge of starting fires, or my boobs to be large enough to show through baggy shirts again. Does 10 pounds really make this much of a difference? I'm scared. Every direction on the scale scares me. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live with me, either. What if 10 pounds isn't enough to feel better? 

This is fucked. I'm doing an equation where my life is intertwined with the math, and it's sick because my life should ideally take priority, but I hold this cheap, poorly constructed concept of nihilism in the back of my mind where whatever I do - whether I die from this disorder or something else - doesn't matter, so I might as well cut out the insufferable middleman and just die young. *This is fucked.* 

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EDAnonymous,bone_jones,2019/08/22,I’m torn between wanting to get better and wanting to get worse. I’m in treatment right now and I can’t decide which I ACTUALLY want.,1.2355952380952395,3.4985608928571463,3.6428571428571423,85.56880952380955,82.92857142857143,5.161904761904762,27.190476190476193,6.42735559955562,1.2401761904761908,107,5,21,1,3,37,20,28,0.18,0.6709999999999999,0.14800000000000002,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,8,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.3510991102444809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182013651059778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759465358427269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072551678961655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6366330851291032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666525397950744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deoxyribose64,2019/08/22,"Binge foods: exposure or cold turkey? Which is a better way of dealing with binge foods?

Keeping them around and teaching yourself to have them in moderation, or completely abstaining from eating them at all, in the same way an an alcoholic could never allow themselves 'just one drink'?

I find that keeping them around invariably leads to binges, but I also feel like if I don't teach myself how to eat them properly, then I'll never *stop* binging on them.

What do? :(",5.1991932773109255,7.426416717647061,5.1104201680672245,80.05117647058826,70.05882352941177,8.151260504201678,28.61344537815126,8.841846274778883,2.4614033613445376,371,14,63,7,7,115,65,85,0.059000000000000004,0.87,0.071,0.2446,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,6,2,5,2,0,0,4,0,5,6,0,3,3,23,8,8,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,6,4,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,10,2,12,7,2,13,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,3,5,48,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19323221671565136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459467534460613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321920657900331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15991283950927376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957713462839865,0.0,0.0,0.14436305445015174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18640843878568789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712616989347266,0.0,0.3700300558256686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142359068218754,0.12917157887454658,0.0,0.0,0.16525818859284366,0.0,0.4372753141698208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214266580828581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833523387376363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789055345445532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252236891237775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116628451161107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870390766852277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,15stepand,2019/08/22,"i came across the song courage by superchick and it triggered a whole lotta memories from a ""ana playlist"" that used to be on youtube i found the playlist and several others but most of the songs have been deleted. does anyone else listens/used to listen to this kind of stuff?",7.3447435897435875,7.594678346153848,5.920000000000003,83.49166666666667,63.615384615384606,9.241025641025642,36.56410256410256,8.841846274778883,2.9925564102564093,222,10,42,3,3,65,42,52,0.0,0.956,0.044000000000000004,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,2,0,9,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,2,9,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680257069221,0.28838785093602204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321913940499007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463065345104325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351227514055655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30860509913566314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930960780279818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179683840452112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32220304240015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385603389035343,0.2430900757501006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142387521995989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unipigs_fly,2019/08/22,"Going through aftercare paperwork from my OBGYN I had an appointment two days ago with my OB to get a pap, discuss amenorrhea, and birth control (yes, you can still get pregnant if you’re not having periods, it’s just less likely). My OB (and anyone with access to my records) knows I have an AN b/p diagnosis and she knows I went from an underweight bmi to slightly overweight bmi during a recent hospitalization. 
Well I considered the birth control options she gave me and went through my paperwork because she told me instructions for making an appointment would be in there... but the aftercare description just contains a cut and paste guideline for weight loss. 
I know it was probably just an honest mistake/something standard they put in paperwork for anyone with an overweight bmi but it just made me feel so bad. I’m already struggling so much with this weight gain, wearing my moms clothes, feeling like I’m not in my own body, having difficulty showering or changing clothes or leaving the house... and then I saw this. ):",8.811774193548388,8.751690500000006,8.031741935483872,70.60761290322583,60.66666666666667,11.310967741935485,41.718279569892466,10.793553405168565,4.714973763440861,827,43,136,18,10,258,114,186,0.136,0.787,0.077,-0.9157,1,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,4,9,8,1,1,13,1,8,7,2,4,0,34,25,14,0,2,11,1,4,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,10,4,3,5,0,0,4,2,4,1,1,8,5,21,4,17,15,3,16,0,1,1,0,9,3,0,4,11,91,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350420943023095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619880740095733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106161337535637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257507340832658,0.09180876068926856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729066446526908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932246420547228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378375971718986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712919457988534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230306680471906,0.10759382485309738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737210804079427,0.0,0.08559355131898343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378050578673102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483093607760445,0.0,0.0,0.15947129525989193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715815606778118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250818884570027,0.10053148583712784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17638935056050128,0.0,0.0,0.11071363248817656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437716287659564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623800511772617,0.0,0.0,0.1514018495796109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870645592627707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159447925024276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12027511685356715,0.0,0.0,0.15744736198336845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14391164855024627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471213654689548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667980293422137,0.13541397394295845,0.2792287952938132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698704476620033,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AwwJeezGliff,2019/08/22,"Day 6 of some kinda severe stomach illness First off, hello, dis my first post uwu. Okay, um this will get gross so I don't know if it's worth a read or not.

  


So the run down is I've been having really bad diarrhea, nausea, vomiting etc. For the past several days. Well, the vomiting was only a one night fiasco, but I've been on the edge of it since. I'm now at the point to where my diarrhea is literally just water and I'm exhausted.

  


But you know what I'm upset about the most? I've MAINTAINED my weight during all of this. I barely eat anything because it won't digest and I don't have much of an appetite. I'm talking one can of soup a day and like two servings of Pedialyte. No more than 300calories a day, but my fat ass won't shed ANYTHING. 

  


I'm stuck in bed all day only to drag myself to the bathroom like once every couple hours to pretty much ""pee"" out of my asshole, why can't I at least drop a few pounds? My ED is stupid and this illness that I'm waiting on a couple test results is stupid. I just really want to be better and live life again... and be sKInNY.",2.180137053352915,3.4556924493392103,4.091328928046991,88.19155041605484,76.04845814977973,6.982770435633872,22.743269701419482,7.594959193182576,0.8636218306412142,834,23,182,11,18,284,138,227,0.172,0.732,0.096,-0.9613,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,3,9,11,2,1,14,1,18,15,5,1,2,25,30,13,0,2,8,0,1,2,0,3,8,0,1,0,8,7,6,1,2,1,1,1,7,6,2,5,4,1,13,5,23,21,10,25,0,0,0,1,3,10,1,5,14,112,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199272225583455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157293908325036,0.08145776116829527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11818219666355145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957114033082222,0.0,0.4308917076734921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673375122101442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902939522671702,0.0,0.0,0.11258648625115578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273260663358505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981457703543863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315956492141984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468757770978994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438468135219984,0.13056677642678616,0.0,0.11799506344743167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964623978275848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253998600324664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230836287561394,0.1810981875241744,0.2032586656336976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756206391274172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126320679536469,0.0,0.12797770019744745,0.13594666914907533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366313223698198,0.0,0.17120971852090064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019208833807202,0.0,0.11053761117569742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740429749437476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053413379235845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0788166495809896,0.0,0.0,0.16272165121738694,0.12014669477598793,0.0,0.12057755687427005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinconflictions,2019/08/22,"Does anyone else count calories in their dreams? I'll go to bed and wake up from a dream where I was eating, but kept track of the calories I ate. It's like I don't get a break from my disordered thoughts even when I sleep, but at least I'm just as happy as if it were in real life when I lose weight in my dreams so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯",4.251249999999999,3.379930513888893,4.54111111111111,94.565,70.25,7.755555555555558,24.94444444444445,5.985473137389443,0.3519611111111112,255,5,65,1,4,80,55,72,0.048,0.746,0.20600000000000002,0.8922,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,6,3,0,0,3,0,3,6,2,0,0,8,9,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,3,1,1,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,1,8,2,11,4,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736000085184706,0.2745510274941454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30709904559065565,0.0,0.23448876888840764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27418432529151804,0.22384158270234988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769814051855794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399951550296715,0.0,0.15228470452127466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28524252378837023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189264171744822,0.1309090227554764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299772520112687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30499085798490805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681479909216385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21272592425212308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262963661199111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babymeijy,2019/08/22,"Swimming at a low BMI Hiya,

Just wondering if anyone has tried going swimming at a rather low BMI and whether it’s a good idea. I’m at 12.8-13 and at this point, it’s been hard to move around. I just about made it to my exams. Otherwise I stay at home and keep my mobility to a minimum. I don’t know what is it about trying to swim that is so scary. I don’t know if I’d be able to do it, and I don’t want to ruin the day for my boyfriend. As a kid, my mum would take me to the pool for rehabilitation from an accident, so I wonder if maybe swimming could be beneficial for my eating disorder? I can’t find any information about this in particular, so wondering if anyone’s ever tried it. Thanks!",3.949187173750936,3.761034060402686,5.913646532438481,82.15191648023865,70.81208053691276,9.575242356450412,27.29381058911261,9.444778638647367,1.9491291573452645,541,16,126,11,9,190,85,149,0.135,0.797,0.069,-0.8627,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,0,8,0,13,1,0,1,1,27,25,13,0,8,8,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,10,5,1,1,8,5,0,6,4,3,0,0,2,1,13,2,22,19,0,19,0,3,0,0,3,10,0,7,2,82,23,1,0.16341219082444908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112589340341998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22852320669428344,0.0,0.0,0.14547149523010025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047133740233552,0.0,0.0,0.10538734432851987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18728452805309306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721146711157406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14781568212519774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935578195209784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287091388094976,0.13706239262466735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463852255533292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391575121255367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18447247284057314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524826354139814,0.0,0.0,0.17961413295825532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462456609957073,0.0,0.0,0.16416950977445374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368129765891646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447733981701606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417565273502586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286563060191233,0.0,0.0,0.15044799019091215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328384527356298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638474401213262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316406507552546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608333183688625,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,operadiva31,2019/08/22,"Me: Okay I’m going to get yogurt while I’m at the store. I can totally do this Also me: Stands in front of the refrigerator reading the calorie counts of every single Greek yogurt there for a solid ten minutes, then trying to decide between the 80 cal, the 110 cal, or the 120 cal (because who cares about taste???), and ending up settling on the 110 cal because I’m “in recovery” or some other lie I’m telling myself this week.",5.522117647058824,5.493948741176472,6.5882352941176485,78.10705882352943,67.47058823529412,8.211764705882354,29.94117647058824,7.554174236665415,1.9051647058823529,333,11,63,3,5,112,60,85,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.7219,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,8,1,2,1,0,0,1,6,9,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,12,9,3,12,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,4,41,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805598124606077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277272349149725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35769608148923765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107325641371605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29559065804366025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329497130685404,0.0,0.19938561830788865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35092642580539457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066421821328545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23819154969016024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814158560980866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imsomessedup,2019/08/22,"Do y'all ever have an amazing four months of great mental health then it all comes crashing down and you've consumed nothing but 5 gallons of Diet Coke and 6 hi chews in the past week Because LMAO, me. 

^^I'm ^^so ^^tired ^^of ^^being ^^alive.",3.9864893617021298,6.076256106382981,3.5542021276595754,90.50875,73.04255319148936,4.7,30.89893617021277,3.1291,1.068536170212766,195,9,36,0,4,58,44,47,0.0,0.778,0.222,0.9081,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,2,6,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546243429245447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762075842885916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29004208386871505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535126394949689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3408310218119349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231351045656441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25593606585386725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076678691347307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060922762686821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685346705194614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25720236539233576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,johnjoseph421,2019/08/22,yo you guys all gotta get away from this shit for real i love y’all and eating disorders suck balls but i’m here checking in again to see the same shit people just circle jerking with other disordered people and wallowing in their own misery about how they are better than others cause they know about calories or how they get high off restricting let’s be real here drowning yourself and looking at this shit isn’t gonna help any of us if we wanna conquer over this shit let’s challenge ourselves and step outside of our comfort zones instead of isolating ourselves and eating protein bars and rice cakes and shit fuck malnourishment let’s go motherfuckers,11.557258064516134,8.706799564516134,9.878774193548391,68.40816129032261,57.38709677419354,12.178064516129036,41.73548387096774,9.888512548439397,4.160672903225806,542,21,91,7,5,166,93,124,0.263,0.643,0.094,-0.9856,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,3,2,4,3,9,12,8,0,1,0,6,10,5,3,1,23,18,12,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,9,3,1,1,2,1,2,1,8,0,0,0,2,10,4,17,12,3,10,0,0,2,2,12,7,7,2,1,59,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487085705738621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725726920602135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037881038165666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820787134740336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28607191218252864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25541086940130714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153790930016125,0.13040965861225806,0.0,0.07092887008939301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357537394678675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365334983688738,0.13186205657637218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06858889920662409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828609936619321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480375115130794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126402933434386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730464677587791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841080726060957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945246240820517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6405464859369896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501235929553977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bvdhope,2019/08/22,Panic around food I've been restricting a lot and just had a full sized meal. I feel like I'm ready to purge but I haven't purged since June. Ugh. Sorry for the rambling I'm just so uncomfortable right now.,-0.3948504983388688,1.8081402790697685,0.8010631229235905,100.26046511627912,99.69767441860466,4.317607973421929,13.119601328903654,6.1826913282559595,-0.9327980066445178,164,3,38,2,7,51,36,43,0.302,0.62,0.078,-0.8793,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,6,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,3,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,19,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142386628087435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848389769406578,0.2521783130239429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268406100441696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17245457904092187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001020769707628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141613000103216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014541450310303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919995074579053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951468313740996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Zenosparadox1,2019/08/22,"I don't have an eating disorder, but I do have a disease that causes uncontrollable weight loss. Would it be appropriate to do an AMA here, if the users think there would be any value/interest? I truly have no idea how this would be received, or if it's even appropriate to suggest.  Please feel free to tell me to fuck off and get out if it's not right.",5.7558333333333325,5.258216250000004,6.507777777777778,80.465,67.05555555555556,9.977777777777778,29.11111111111111,9.516144504307137,2.194461111111112,278,8,60,5,4,92,52,72,0.188,0.6759999999999999,0.136,-0.5187,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,1,4,0,12,3,0,2,0,16,16,7,0,6,6,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,3,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,4,2,6,10,0,4,0,1,0,1,3,3,1,4,0,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945084912489075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559763553421257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28558170678854905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549732039733861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458094705414295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12599282392331404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23036276477287526,0.13018619201048284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812937309716283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27352465829994405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21279823842120504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21779418015145774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966439245369746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30343393928887186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5310306683681015,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,10scentpistol,2019/06/26,"I recently entered a competition to see who had gained the most weight and lost the most hair. A funny meme I saw on Reddit but can’t share because I can’t post photos...

Supposed to be about getting older but we all know what’s actually happening here. 😂 In-patient competitions are fierce 😂",5.030789473684212,6.261231333333335,6.3218859649122825,75.11861842105263,69.0,9.208771929824564,31.793859649122812,9.516144504307137,3.0135649122807013,234,10,43,5,4,79,47,57,0.035,0.8320000000000001,0.133,0.6003,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,1,0,1,8,11,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,4,4,1,4,7,3,5,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,2,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.34757856630214234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21712293880187705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18608842079303736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149672262845856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19574623648456904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888106051814131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34112028086024143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516830255317796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838279291650907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337291206177214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,50wordsforlove,2019/06/26,"Coffee/tea? How do you guys make your coffee/tea?
Milk(what kind of milk?)
Sugar?
Honey?
Artificial sweeteners??

Just curious on what people put in their drinks, I know a lot drink plain black coffee or plain tea, with nothing in it.",1.867857142857144,4.607340547619046,2.4833333333333343,87.94500000000002,95.90476190476193,5.257142857142857,17.904761904761905,6.868970318607317,0.5629619047619046,181,5,32,3,7,56,36,42,0.0,0.919,0.081,0.504,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,2,0,7,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,5,3,1,4,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6263126940303537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165250206629271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328886506655037,0.17568308349180298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717732579747631,0.0,0.0,0.21338319302197292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067334035314014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221619951587524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213581279905692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slimdog_millionaire,2019/06/26,"i just lowkey binged i binged. it was carrots and peaches, so my calorie total for the day is still reasonable, but still it feels like a binge. i feel huge. rip",0.9684375000000004,3.468953968750004,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,87.4375,4.45,20.5,5.985473137389443,-0.07052500000000039,125,4,27,1,4,38,27,32,0.0,0.807,0.193,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,7,4,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26788442287679914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4200551577702264,0.2967460998780726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293269124871005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4270777272307351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6634427558906142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,2zerostorywriter,2019/06/26,"Today I found out someone I know also struggles the same way I do. Today my school’s drama club went to this Italian buffet and I was sitting next to this girl who I would consider a friend although I don’t know her too well. I made some offhand comment about calories in Italian food and she mentioned she was really scared to come here and was googling calories beforehand, although we never said it directly for the rest of the dinner we hung out and supported each other through the meal. I had absolutely no idea she was struggling and she said she suspected it for me.

Idk it was just really nice not to feel so alone.",6.675667060212515,6.784440132231411,6.657213695395516,78.12140495867772,65.03305785123968,9.558913813459268,34.64108618654073,9.23628265651192,3.0592210153482884,500,21,92,8,7,159,82,121,0.134,0.782,0.084,-0.638,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,0,7,7,0,3,5,0,9,3,0,1,1,24,19,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,7,11,3,0,6,2,0,2,4,3,1,0,11,3,18,4,12,7,4,11,0,0,0,0,15,3,0,1,4,71,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18561005362305408,0.0,0.14331613388785386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437565967366795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061520095045122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670440948831649,0.19649720457201372,0.1384590966044872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20230904558191765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19698095467724525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957515617062893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382196918233259,0.0,0.19059447684845648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22961617273207796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409441640156249,0.0,0.17942292928243353,0.18137257009607916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15184612983023782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37470353406696616,0.0,0.0,0.20336816786020695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397449012960465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422505035099849,0.0,0.0,0.16113351776525284,0.16613173935061765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273073847293504,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,auntiewhiskers07,2019/06/26,"I'm done I'm done, I'm so fucking done 

 5 years of this shit. 

My EDNOS has took 5 years of my life. 
 
I was constantly bullied for being the fat kid in school. All the time.  I mean what 12 year old weighs nearly 120 pounds?

I stopped eating properly once I changed schools.  Surviving on apple's, diet coke and Hershey cookies and cream bars. 

I used to get violently ill when on my period  if I didn't eat. I'd take this as an opportunity to drink non diet drinks. Sounds pathetic but when you have the same 3 safe foods you kinda look forward to switching it up.

I was lonely and had pretty much no one.  I mean seriously, who would want to be friends with the girl who turns up to school with dried vomit in there hair. 

My hair was everything to me. Waist length and pretty much the only thing I liked about myself but it started falling out like crazy. It went from thick and beautiful to thin and ratty. I cut it in a Bob. 

I thought I was doing so well, eating properly and holding myself together, untill I tried to kill myself. 5 years of hell and I was back to my starting point in under a week. 

I joined a pro ana community and mentioned I'd felt like shit and I hadn't are in about 3 days. Someone suggested I tried purging because even if you didn't binge, you still get a rush and it feels good. I tried it and was left crying with vomit in my hair at 2 am. I'd convinced myself I'd actually get a rush and feel better next time I tried. I did it a total of 3 times before I just stopped. I started taking laxitaves and having 20 minute ice baths at a time. 

I was a total bitch to my boyfriend to. I've always been ashamed about my eating disorder and have never told anyone about it but I swallowed my pride and told him. He was understand and honestly really sweet about it all. I wasn't to nice to him to say the least and he left.

Today I tried to eat normally. I made myself a sandwich. My dog ate it off my plate. I tried to make some boiled eggs to have with toast but one of them cracked in the pot. I try to eat normally and all this shit happens.

I've only ever told 2 different people about my ED and just needed to rant because honestly I'm a mess right now.",2.1059315481266694,3.804168904656322,3.7027050997782713,89.11295696173747,77.24833702882485,6.754244129853888,22.872306555233386,7.61054688173877,0.8939503212234916,1700,51,367,24,39,565,230,451,0.166,0.698,0.136,-0.9322,2,2,2,0,0,1,40.0,0,4,1,4,19,28,9,1,18,0,29,32,8,3,7,62,63,32,1,7,8,0,8,3,1,1,5,2,1,2,17,25,21,4,7,4,0,6,6,13,1,2,27,13,54,15,55,33,10,57,1,1,2,1,20,24,6,4,32,226,71,3,0.0,0.0,0.0702308718085012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059883555050388323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05032204668044287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533933209258315,0.0,0.08774265596356877,0.0,0.06123989049314929,0.0,0.0,0.06365028742592578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613312748748817,0.0,0.0,0.07777237833108132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905401493105542,0.046413726969291184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751917619906334,0.0824821329924758,0.0,0.0,0.22094627907566744,0.0,0.14100345737052686,0.0,0.4418504383102265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04753451373199704,0.06509962610455332,0.0,0.0,0.06468064484007516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277886931766926,0.0,0.06910104359934728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702459263615601,0.0,0.055602682507599394,0.06653371609190406,0.1128017083861395,0.0,0.0,0.060363761033852464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636415045047488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962247926996074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638796584085238,0.0,0.05083347802186135,0.10548051757111153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043541202365176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680983322942358,0.04803953080887498,0.0,0.0,0.15678958374941687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581025267039212,0.05336372885685478,0.05550654185404785,0.0,0.07653931336977451,0.0,0.1410276940390534,0.0,0.0,0.07551883153809798,0.07664410085330002,0.09753543269333163,0.10947057048047776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0498938943661506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803349224608071,0.0,0.0,0.14643566984238612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04610486224499196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614607034862297,0.0,0.05723223767668745,0.0,0.2185078845223256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216238848665739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06097867423674067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281901847904625,0.0,0.05747413492911976,0.12033777259912047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822270679656357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04781267173674927,0.0,0.0,0.05713494791676695,0.16786163818176827,0.0,0.0682177204084385,0.206306950008262,0.07995964859233907,0.3420331988313379,0.07828105881518457,0.0,0.0749217438205422,0.0,0.06215767454877645,0.0,0.0,0.042448884361663435,0.0,0.057728787481152864,0.0,0.0647083221641042,0.06671551804165307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05112435562250717,0.0,0.0,0.18538141078931986
EDAnonymous,Bujolady,2019/06/26,"DAE miss proED comics? I found some of their comics on their twitter, but I can't find the rest 😭",0.8657142857142865,2.6608205714285766,0.8669047619047632,107.54892857142859,81.38095238095238,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-1.6160666666666668,76,1,20,0,2,22,18,21,0.075,0.925,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6402980469969103,0.0,0.0,0.7681265592413417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Boviiine,2019/06/26,"Things you can do once you're recovered At this stage in my life I consider myself fully recovered from my Eating Disorder. I had a restrictive eating disorder and a severe exercise addiction for a very short amount of time compared to some of you, but it was without a doubt the most miserable time in my life. All that was going through my head was what I had eaten already, what I was going to eat tomorrow, how I was going to work out today, when my next binge would be, all the while fighting myself to stay conscious. My fingernails were blue, I was tired, I would snap at people for no reason because I was on edge all the time. Also, I would cry. A lot. As soon as I came clean about my ED to my family, my mom, being the incredible person that she is, set up all the doctors' appointments that she could and helped me in any way that she could even if I was miserable and was being unpleasant to her. I can't thank her enough for this because I know she was under so much stress and she was just superb. Anyway, time passed, I kept working out, restricting, bingeing, and eventually got myself in the hospital with a resting heart rate of 48bpm. At this point I was fully committed to recovery and was going to do everything I could to get myself out of the hole I had put myself in.

Now, My recovery was in no way linear. The more I ate, the more depressed and anxious I became. I could barely bring myself to go to school. I felt hopeless. The only thing keeping me going was the hope that maybe one day I would be able to be myself again. And I think I've gotten there. I'm making this post for anyone who is in recovery or wants to be recovered and is just feeling like, '*what's the point?'* I really hope I can help because I know what you all are going through and I know it's so hard to find a purpose to keep going. 

**These are some things you can do when you're fully recovered, mentally and physically:**

1. Order whatever you want at a restaurant. Whenever I went to a restaurant, I always went for the grilled chicken or whatever the 'healthy' or 'lite' option was and estimate calories. The other day I ordered Fish and Chips and I ate almost all of it. I hadn't one thought about how many calories there was in it, what I was going to do to burn it off, etc. All I thought about was how good it tasted.
2. Work out for your own personal pleasure. Okay, this one really resonates with me especially. Recently, I've been getting back into exercise because it makes me feel good and combats depression. Also I don't want to be completely out of shape, lol. I don't overdo it, I don't even time it. I just do what feels right. It's so reassuring and empowering to know that you're working out for yourself, not your ED.
3. Actually have fun when you go out. Whenever I went out to a public activity, I would stress constantly about food. Now I can focus on the activity at hand, not the calories I'm going to be eating.
4. Like what you see in the mirror. I don't feel fat anymore. I don't look at myself in the mirror and see what angle makes me look skinniest. I don't body check. I finally feel comfortable in my own skin for the first time in YEARS.
5. Stand up without your world almost collapsing in on you. Wow. It's nice not to feel like you're going to pass out all the time.
6. Most likely, more people will like you. The ED mindset tells you that people will only love you once you're skinny. This is not true. This varies from person to person, but when I had my ED I was kind of a miserable jerk, for a lack of better words. I hadn't the mental space to focus on other people's feelings. I just cared about how **I** looked, how much **I** had eaten, etc. Now I feel like I'm less selfish and more vibrant and actually have a personality and a sense of humor. 
7. Enjoy a warm beverage on a rainy day. I don't have much to say about this. It's the little things. 
8. Know that you're a very, very strong individual. You just turned an entire mindset that ruled your entire life on its head. that takes a LOT. 

That's all I have to say. If any of you for any reason need to talk to someone I'm always here. Just remember that it does get better if you commit to recovery. Thank you for taking the time to read this.",1.4926177465521704,3.7742940046838456,3.378816549570648,87.7389065833984,82.02107728337236,6.5121831902159775,21.31558678116055,7.715138304826218,0.9750316835805362,3296,101,675,58,90,1105,321,854,0.10099999999999999,0.7509999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9936,1,0,0,0,2,1,117.0,0,19,0,9,38,41,2,6,44,2,75,27,8,10,12,127,146,45,0,19,20,1,13,6,0,7,9,2,1,5,51,33,12,5,22,3,1,20,18,12,0,4,43,22,105,29,108,84,31,106,0,6,6,1,43,47,0,18,36,484,156,7,0.0506650240438356,0.0,0.0988835098984018,0.05523235464620816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146740606468237,0.0,0.055910113898005855,0.08103360284617261,0.08431471738985002,0.0,0.0,0.10336186118253698,0.0,0.0,0.057237055943795766,0.05024608975340586,0.03542616283193484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03895827612441447,0.0,0.12353971360548285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961819303453086,0.0,0.05627742010062341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05794729018973641,0.05165636865953637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05312131376754085,0.05475089191184464,0.0,0.16180759619389926,0.0,0.055653149865905464,0.09802424728623564,0.0,0.08727542193753722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613301393213668,0.051857798969755536,0.044337303966332536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073718725358503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235051345190469,0.11300978900628575,0.06692754109546284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04553445671099008,0.0,0.04776247559686005,0.0,0.204942067761634,0.10858530990079987,0.0486463684188443,0.055501057353211515,0.046306914101764435,0.043095643569447034,0.06126434818298865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941115182345834,0.0,0.3455292088805885,0.08499083676436987,0.040521448065883946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538590991836869,0.0,0.1039938630575317,0.0,0.0,0.06003829743452493,0.06791939528742359,0.0,0.0,0.1006436014974084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900668025747964,0.0,0.05275982599769853,0.13922086104822542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073586144747914,0.14851422935161404,0.05077966427131783,0.0,0.0,0.12763757965335507,0.0,0.0,0.08614718328732747,0.0457271622941682,0.0,0.10145789090885866,0.05136638219048053,0.05089982649411337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211685539070987,0.0,0.0,0.05933826382063501,0.0,0.0,0.11173386679380454,0.03756747335431549,0.0,0.0,0.0538828278527851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791319415835596,0.10299579453969393,0.07706606767751749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140498993402154,0.2211937237699952,0.0,0.0,0.09578964820886417,0.0,0.04852308792779175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050932342937594605,0.0,0.0,0.05067873471888264,0.0,0.06491462350913409,0.1041841659298033,0.05002559896924416,0.0,0.05739359568549327,0.043267653704447386,0.0,0.08058172132964136,0.0,0.051275709208901864,0.08074692908032212,0.0,0.0,0.057237055943795766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0429283104581245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400217443477626,0.0,0.0,0.11607322772593184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761875854818483,0.04072262716943397,0.044283464165642605,0.0932910941578156,0.0,0.0,0.13463836279411212,0.032464101643282985,0.0,0.08044473950540394,0.2363454636583282,0.058231992012266164,0.04802451868778955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510899733179514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254118527201797,0.08965063159968993,0.08043107564648816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090095463937244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976785503853166,0.0,0.14753896368574546,0.0,0.0,0.17995489715093035,0.0,0.0,0.03262661436616696
EDAnonymous,euphoric-feels,2019/06/26,ED 101 [its called self care sweetie](https://imgur.com/a/OxHmVdj),10.126666666666663,14.209984444444444,3.2094444444444434,80.06750000000002,93.44444444444444,6.2444444444444445,26.722222222222207,7.1686216300943375,2.3662888888888896,56,2,7,1,2,13,9,9,0.0,0.652,0.348,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.573469257468844,0.0,0.572601476032321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5858844257903941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonwantsnsfw,2019/06/26,"Took a couple of caffeine pills so I had enough energy for an unnecessary late night workout, can’t sleep and am supposed to wake up less than 5hrs from now. Jesus what is wrong with me. Gotta take my cat to the vet in 7 hours cause he’s got a surgery booked (nothing too major, general anaesthetic for some much needed dental work and a gum infection). Also I’m sticky from sweating earlier and desperately want to shower, but won’t because it’s 1am and I don’t want to wake my sister.",3.1693181818181806,4.793176777777783,4.612007575757578,84.03801136363639,74.15151515151516,7.77828282828283,25.506313131313128,8.472884824447931,1.6890494949494954,387,13,78,7,8,129,79,99,0.044000000000000004,0.9079999999999999,0.049,-0.1451,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,5,0,6,6,4,1,0,12,14,7,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,13,9,5,7,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,44,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996131244732667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521600136435728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25641835368413834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27618885245923097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579139811357417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996360169735276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458156901525642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28157108999673364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834921602628668,0.1850827427494864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342421905510066,0.0,0.23950764419102905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24979038755944125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18767574746707855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773260300166264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944530343967237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817191417415208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729094840787134,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,buttz_,2019/06/26,"I'm like, 7 years from my last relapse and it's not looking good. I was anorexic in 2010 and dropped super low in weight. Got some help, and over the next couple years I gradually managed to stop thinking of every bite as calories. 

Flash forward to now, I'm 27, I'm the fittest I've been in my life, and besides some periods of very bad thoughts and hating myself, I haven't actually done any ED behaviors in years.

A couple months ago I started feeling a little... Soft. Like, I'd probably gained a couple pounds and it was also my period sort of soft, nothing earth shattering (to most people) and all my clothes still look nice and fit properly. But I have fluctuated in the past and didn't want to keep creeping up, so a couple weeks ago, I decided to track calories and restrict again for a bit until my upcoming vacation. 

I've definitely been successful and have lost a couple pounds each week. But, whatever that tipping point is in my head, where I go from wanting to just diet with some managed calorie restriction, to wanting to eat the bare minimum for survival and thrive off the feelings of hunger, I accidentally hit it, or something. 

I dunno. Maybe it was triggered by a long talk I had with my husband on a recent road trip where I told him some stories from my ED days. 

This feels a lot like last time. Only since I live with my husband this time, and have told him some of the really messed up stuff I did, there's a lot I can't get away with and I find myself thinking of strategies to appear normal/healthy in front of him while secretly starving when he's not there to witness my eating. 

I just want to be so small. I hate that I equate smallness with femininity and attractiveness. But I do. I know that doing this isn't healthy and won't make me feel better, but it will feel even worse if I eat.",5.555971131932132,5.889073506963786,6.09108255254495,80.45700367181566,67.41225626740948,8.978526209166878,32.19561914408711,8.841846274778883,2.5207537604456816,1435,57,283,22,22,466,200,359,0.094,0.8340000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.669,0,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,6,14,15,2,0,16,0,21,8,1,2,1,66,52,29,0,5,10,2,8,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,12,22,6,4,12,0,0,5,7,6,0,0,14,10,37,9,44,34,11,55,0,2,2,0,11,23,0,13,31,179,49,3,0.0,0.0,0.08916750506185528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619944614117557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307147773567499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06213721775360517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584855535182268,0.0,0.07629318403850538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081257116835014,0.09975636411345534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5055160485206257,0.0,0.058928447389327114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350697184184698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804941771336591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06035143640773679,0.0,0.07698624403359089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310063235429552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351386397611506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773896267410186,0.0,0.0519297530220737,0.07663988540844413,0.07307985789017406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18042513147960376,0.09377572984728984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061245833904075175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121710164561095,0.0,0.0,0.05021657036643731,0.14896344625308766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453991374598547,0.1339216549966094,0.09158040558237153,0.08068461013214863,0.08086280803513067,0.1534617118872778,0.0,0.0997451366879724,0.1553652253996598,0.0,0.0,0.060992623276121725,0.0,0.09179711644994436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293357851222951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717691716741833,0.0,0.08952678002045604,0.08767548494724654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06949378098322727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722649146281565,0.06334698635922215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637763718453201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985162529583781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058536302223559065,0.0,0.09022045948602628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558523045011599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034390261958064,0.0,0.0,0.06467474228396079,0.0,0.07297111776131614,0.0763924658134858,0.0,0.0,0.10460097236558523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344268155516262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709709538345606,0.0,0.07254047438665673,0.10656142439094954,0.0,0.0,0.17462288340771973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07539283360614885,0.21557819310627235,0.0,0.14658886661627268,0.1112684938246042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931175592423288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652491125985476
EDAnonymous,skinnyleg3nd,2019/06/26,Ate like 2.5k calories in one sitting out of depression last night so I‘m starving myself the entire day today cuz why not :‘) Gotta be able to do the time if you wanna to do the crime. You wanna eat so much? Fine. But you have to face the punishment to remind yourself what it‘s like to hate yourself so much.,4.704193548387097,5.240725387096777,5.109838709677419,86.03475806451617,69.3225806451613,7.490322580645162,26.79032258064516,7.1686216300943375,1.2207935483870966,242,7,49,2,4,77,46,62,0.22,0.69,0.09,-0.9022,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,3,6,2,0,4,0,4,3,1,1,0,7,8,6,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,4,3,10,5,2,8,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,7,34,6,0,0.2967889978868038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19140435089579186,0.0,0.2556239289907254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036892382927492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29301769099720204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419226451776197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899922259523028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4363481248531466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27851636947867353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111190592773506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17306005138169311,0.0,0.2813212673700353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267805908017244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KatoMcFato,2019/06/26,Me: ok today will be a binge day. I will eat a substantial amount throughout the day binging on many things and through the night too as I have to do revision all night Me 10 seconds into eating a normal breakfast: oMg jUsT tHink oF aLl thOsE CaloRieS iN tHat onE biTe yoU fAt BitCh,1.41,4.020190000000003,2.069285714285716,94.47571428571429,86.5,4.628571428571429,22.285714285714285,6.1826913282559595,0.3788500000000004,224,8,45,2,7,69,47,56,0.068,0.86,0.07200000000000001,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,5,1,5,4,1,0,2,7,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,1,7,3,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3501171943158954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5555089189841733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27520109736993104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094626605745897,0.265956990431208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839371360091924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803349954238033,0.17393003003852156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25729669250468984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sickcupcake,2019/06/26,showering with no energy Y’all ever have to take breaks in the shower because you’re just so exhausted? Washing my hair is a TASK.,4.602,6.527587799999999,5.805,75.70750000000002,71.0,9.8,28.5,10.125756701596842,3.2578,105,4,18,3,2,35,25,25,0.198,0.726,0.076,-0.5173,2,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601318306775874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6827787421514073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5675313979538349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Exs-dee,2019/06/26,DAE wonder how much their hair weighs? Like how much of my weight is actually just my long hair? idk maybe I'm just finding excuses to lower that stupid number,1.8927419354838728,4.659576903225808,2.6583064516129045,89.80745967741936,86.41935483870968,5.680645161290323,17.427419354838708,7.1686216300943375,0.2872516129032259,128,3,25,2,4,40,26,31,0.204,0.691,0.105,-0.5514,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,0,6,3,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.3320065154005861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109557337856907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621474374272707,0.0,0.0,0.30108478534446564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417976171389551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5002030072834738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41429739323705417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689550470364416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stememcphie,2019/06/26,"Just took some laxatives, what next? It was only slightly above a healthy dosage, but it's been 90 minutes and I've felt nothing. I've been eating healthily yet I haven't pooped at all in the last week. The box said it should kick in within 4-6 hours.  

I'd like to go to bed soon and I have an appointment in the morning, Will I shit myself?",1.1136904761904738,3.045437750000005,2.351984126984128,96.52000000000002,81.22222222222223,5.2253968253968255,21.3968253968254,6.1826913282559595,0.052965873015872855,266,8,61,2,7,85,56,72,0.071,0.852,0.077,-0.318,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,7,3,2,0,1,8,11,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,2,4,1,7,3,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,7,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31382414865145897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944739798574137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743010571381719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30203144587270586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499962415170908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983501545302502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261721538423214,0.0,0.0,0.2942808086322129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332543250255073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917358733468637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148166028987813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407479065802235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460111297375327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,11572762,2019/06/26,"My friends were guessing how much I weighed My friends were only guessing my weight since one of them was going on vacation and had a scale out to measure her luggage. All three of my friends weighed themselves.I was the only one who didn’t and they kept asking me to do so.

Mind you that I am the tallest yet skinniest one out of all of them. This was true even before my ED. I was like “please don’t make me do this.”.Then they just started to shout out numbers 10 and 20lbs above my weight. They only assumed these numbers Bc of my height so logically I would weigh a little more than them.
But my ED brain took it as “they are calling me fat”. I think that I am really upset about this because I regained the 10 lbs I lost last summer.

I am also hurt because I told my friends that I have an eating disorder. I guess people who don’t have them don’t know what triggers people.

Sorry for my long ass rant.",2.3868548387096773,4.1302582634408616,3.2179435483870966,92.69691532258064,76.58064516129029,5.725268817204301,25.065860215053764,6.322622252153567,0.6423021505376343,711,25,153,5,16,225,108,186,0.09699999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.105,0.3626,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,8,1,8,9,0,1,6,0,20,9,3,3,3,24,33,9,0,1,2,0,2,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,10,6,7,1,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,4,12,3,35,6,16,20,4,14,0,2,0,1,19,7,1,4,6,106,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218196392721356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945277713872884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15578143036756234,0.0,0.1087274784631178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426396359653236,0.13047299854538172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644171088997393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074616242351744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439446537920653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948759160836766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261772054542709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222771197341815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678623881609914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022203383231304,0.10415402810497036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062424620129883625,0.1280645470659309,0.0,0.11307723327545195,0.0,0.0,0.1394819740177413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529109064923204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12901675800348544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392964190296912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597518114130548,0.2915369132377741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716678725098547,0.0,0.0,0.14025905014181184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185621130965526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569715476703888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303413096501266,0.09044010587779676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187333517282988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209489753155878,0.14196320241974572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31119209777990303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076799827897716,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WinonaQuimby,2019/06/26,"DAE have an ED therapist or dietitian who has clearly not fully dealt with their food issues? Here's the situation: I feel like my ED therapist is living vicariously through our discussions of my binges. 

I know this dynamic is pretty common for ED therapists, dietitians, and people who work in counseling for substance abuse or other types of addiction. I mean, these fields are often populated by folks who had their own struggles, got treatment, and found the inspiration to help others. They're human, and overcoming this shit is a lifelong process. You're never ""done"" working on yourself or ""done"" guarding against relapse. I don't know my therapist's ED story, but I get the impression she's not nearly as far along in recovery as one would hope.

Like, y'all. Y'ALL. The way she lights up when I talk about binge foods, omg. I once mentioned feeling guilty for eating white bread on a road trip and her eyes got huge and she straight up had an Oprah ""I LOVE BREAD"" moment. Also, she's shared a lot about her food preferences, more than seems normal. Hang on, I'm gonna make a list off the top of my head and see how long it is.

LIKES: **Cinnamon toast crunch**, popcorn, sugar free pudding, protein powder, pb powder, spinach, pickles, dill pickle flavored anything, **mac and cheese** (whole box consumed straight from the pot, obvs), **milkshakes**, guacamole, any kind of chocolate and peanut butter candy, and of course bread

DISLIKES: Onion rings, beets, kale, watermelon, lettuce


The bold items are her favorite past binge foods. Seriously, this lady has brought up cinnamon toast crunch in three different sessions. I don't even talk about cereal. She just manages to squeeze in it every time. Idk, I just feel like she's getting some kind of unhealthy satisfaction from these discussions.

For what it's worth, I do like working with her and plan to continue seeing her. But this specific part of our relationship feels so bizarre that I wanted to check in with you guys and see if anyone else has had a similar experience. Thoughts?????",3.9258770464416974,6.972566246575347,3.884690945539592,83.06751754092885,78.31506849315069,6.958235883728701,27.80654861343134,8.096554002634818,2.2361179418643498,1620,69,276,31,41,495,234,365,0.069,0.75,0.18100000000000002,0.9918,1,0,0,0,1,0,80.0,2,3,2,5,12,18,1,1,14,0,19,14,3,2,2,49,43,23,0,6,10,0,5,5,0,2,1,1,0,2,16,15,9,1,12,0,3,3,5,3,0,2,10,15,34,16,43,31,7,31,0,0,5,1,32,19,1,9,13,164,50,6,0.0,0.10784642709894944,0.0,0.09922763720817653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279042326184347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06189821967142231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364484106611139,0.09326300400275753,0.07490351789468679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509882957989066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18629463285038486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313843790914787,0.07603737131888172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060119306967766926,0.0,0.07669013221295143,0.0,0.0,0.0890371808246476,0.0,0.0,0.18409424402424115,0.13005256074983934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402576391491471,0.09980114801141816,0.0,0.0,0.09511068906254473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14559754236758907,0.0,0.0,0.0901262919657375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341504070800986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101026434731119,0.0,0.0,0.0904055860073199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500353215395507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895712361640393,0.10004684522608287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223442546304332,0.0,0.0803742733037486,0.08055178580499234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738382243973435,0.08215109241221956,0.0,0.0607580276421798,0.0,0.0,0.09914986369613987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020193468806753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918243359648609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693567609520692,0.06167900077178325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856817635277393,0.08689099262767601,0.06310333514986237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926023040429146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772378246142667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175987345400989,0.0828631955209758,0.0,0.0,0.09343298387920504,0.0,0.1023127704265082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515617014824668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463203986437264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227351752451473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226146230845598,0.05307577884807981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053687253934402865,0.07224918841171518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016230396290666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19879574467432945,0.0,0.0,0.0646595618191814,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IsabelaDC96,2019/06/26,"Took Castor Oil and now I'm waiting to poop (TMI) Have been trying to poop for 3 days. Today my mom recommend me to drink a tablespoon of castor oil and oh boy!!! Never going to forget that nasty taste and thick oil texture.

Usually you poop in 1-2h, but is almost 22h and nothing happened (I took it at 18h). Do anybody here use castor oil as a laxative?

That's my first time taking laxatives - and I hope the last one - and I eat around 1000-1200cals a day, so it's not like I'm restricting too much. My last binge was almost 2 months ago, so I guess my body is not used to such a long period of time eating ""normal"".",0.9347956730769234,2.968061109375,3.0921875000000014,90.43021634615386,82.4375,6.125961538461539,19.221153846153847,7.321109707123232,0.4396362980769229,474,12,102,7,13,161,89,128,0.044000000000000004,0.87,0.086,0.6398,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,0,5,0,6,8,4,2,1,21,18,10,0,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,4,2,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,2,4,6,10,2,12,14,1,22,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,4,16,56,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149905283542774,0.0,0.3196852933384573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210121879498053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730879551341486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20589147105363995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637296957899496,0.0,0.3266750401577639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357780196659983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071928512326148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758463275835007,0.0,0.14115697917578468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585448988753477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26023342240493963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798533016099772,0.0,0.0,0.14126422158966082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695235259687187,0.12741216198926014,0.0,0.1173436717831252,0.0,0.1231136163983523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639984806765664,0.1531657066396704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10816688848522144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001908572486435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186158717880946,0.0,0.15130703483596825,0.0,0.3547013081819794,0.10837575595309733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757316829693158,0.17580577933034414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,infinityletters,2019/03/25,"im too fat to think ive relapsed? i weigh about 130 and i have a pouch. i used to be 105/110 and starve, purge, exercise, the whole works. but now i think ive relapsed bc ive started vomitting up my food to make myself feel better. i yearn so hard to starve myself but my binge-mentality and be-happy-mentality keeps forcing me to not and i just want to be skinny again. i want my ed back so badly. but i dont think im relapsing bc im fat and still eating regular food. ugh. ",-0.9234674063800306,1.185246951456314,1.943363384188629,94.23351941747576,94.04854368932035,5.272954230235784,18.036754507628288,6.868970318607317,0.13715312066574192,368,11,86,6,14,128,60,103,0.198,0.763,0.039,-0.9305,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,9,4,0,0,2,0,7,9,3,2,0,20,17,10,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,17,1,8,15,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,49,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361805761857241,0.1478728484978128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663240751709834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20756233176564945,0.0,0.0,0.1812196527668424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954813857569169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42830510305735997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864868721754075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.573901947734004,0.0,0.0,0.1574164759070943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821702102041158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535377161037645,0.0,0.14143395871365375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404396066973536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295934400248334,0.0,0.0,0.20891880375937025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19772816001761306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893243158658507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shiftless-kitten,2019/03/25,"Shouldnt have weighed myself I was not home for like some weeks and I couldnt weight myself for that time.
After some time I was feeling a bit better, cared lesser about all the food and calories I ate.
But today I was home again and I coulnd resist.
I weighed myself.
I gained 4 lbs over a bit more than a month and I just.. 
let me just say: The stress is back again.
I was dumb.
I knew better.
Still I did it.
Yes, some part of me wanted to fall back to old habits - to restricting.
But some part just hoped for me to be successful at intuitiv eating.",0.2006390977443644,2.4861675350877235,1.4558897243107791,99.12789473684214,88.56140350877193,4.309774436090225,14.283208020050125,5.773587663045528,-0.990268671679198,425,7,97,3,14,134,70,114,0.09300000000000001,0.72,0.187,0.8747,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,9,8,1,1,5,1,11,6,0,0,1,22,17,6,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,4,6,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,7,3,18,6,13,6,10,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,13,72,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26333606043870605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028843193931689,0.3738853746739157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17458401619119635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521467000039476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658082779728321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705628817265725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435224240621045,0.17007355152248102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509790615083182,0.0,0.0836560631166195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366769858278962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968080598539027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708584958025308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361717916531422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674733410258755,0.0,0.19614745281681195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969531988396905,0.0,0.16230938344551288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099798421055407,0.0,0.13735322504215353,0.20851633313188836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fritterly,2019/03/25,"Anyone watched the movie Us? (Spoilers) ~~ Big ol' spoilers for movie plot below ~~

The night after watching the movie I purged and I felt really bad thinking that my tethered self would also be somewhere doing the same action. ):  I felt guilty thinking about a fake entity being forced to purge bc of me even though I don't give a shit when the real me is suffering from purging lol.",2.304322678843228,5.11794990410959,2.9294977168949785,88.50633181126335,84.2054794520548,4.888280060882801,21.80974124809741,6.42735559955562,0.6341914764079148,305,10,54,3,9,95,58,73,0.223,0.708,0.069,-0.9164,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,7,1,6,1,1,0,0,8,11,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,4,8,0,7,6,1,6,0,1,2,0,3,2,1,0,3,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894883029083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739523706106276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077204429685872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431647548067385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47773455726499103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386519102805648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23346265401063696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831654703236035,0.15937448123129858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259531215314533,0.0,0.2553685226761663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188156429689745,0.2444245391403153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992510379303621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672577812563692,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shaquille_ofeel,2019/03/25,"I wish I could keep snacks in the house like a normal person Whenever I go to someone's house and they have all sorts of chips, cookies, ect. but only eat a few at a time as a treat I get so jealous. I can't even have a jar of peanut butter in the house, let alone my favorite comfort food because I will always eat the whole thing in one or two sittings. Why am I like this",1.218677248677249,2.693588962962963,2.7623633156966503,95.8677777777778,79.12345679012346,5.122398589065256,21.447971781305114,5.288315135182226,-0.16556578483245188,290,8,68,1,7,95,61,81,0.083,0.706,0.21100000000000002,0.8661,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,5,1,0,8,0,7,4,0,0,1,9,11,5,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,9,4,8,8,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,3,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18076818638950973,0.0,0.0,0.14522916113601927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063964247840092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13935397157308513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571908205816098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528035615951215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21105140762131128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118862693797647,0.0,0.09919366928096378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6041784370266391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513692732504825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847639350060246,0.0,0.17054038814892006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100966772100565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118271110150126,0.13274361472514287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239939097767002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478850362029569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595494292476755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017742052870077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049775182367827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749292365288006,0.1948648577857378,0.2007094826049857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,werewolfnightmare,2019/03/25,"rant about a friend faking an ed i know someone irl who is faking an eating disorder. she’s literally stealing a mutual friends experience (down to her heart disorder from her anorexia getting bad) and claiming it as her own on the corners of the internet. she could very well have a problem with food but she’s known for lying and having unwell mental health. this is very triggering for me because im recovering from an ed of my own and i’ve seen her fake stories about me too and use them. any advice on how to approach? 

(she’s also pretending to be someone she isn’t physically. could this be related to body dysmorphia??)",4.2342499999999985,6.281967258333335,5.6099999999999985,76.215,72.25,8.8,31.16666666666667,9.3871,3.154316666666668,501,23,88,12,10,168,81,120,0.179,0.762,0.059000000000000004,-0.9369,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,6,9,0,0,8,0,9,5,2,3,0,14,13,8,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,6,1,0,1,1,14,3,17,8,2,5,0,0,1,0,13,4,0,0,0,63,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446084045047047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427731513217693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214088816588684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490679899611654,0.10883234612143823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19831043749289726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28508889651935865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4092296476823684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826843105670823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17463999138200922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21588338038884408,0.0,0.27586903184057066,0.0,0.09327636928965798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18977272982930354,0.0,0.21156302135529906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284678391510385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811732596571393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17991974606975872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17083241915684197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025416592502001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419559566113245,0.0,0.2946176202968021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052303038616356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LowFatMilkPlease,2019/03/25,"Boo Boo The Fool gets played again, then binges. People say they're ''disappointed'' but not shocked! Read More. So i got played by this guy, and it really SUCKED because I've really been there for him, and as a last attempt to patch things up, i decided to give him one last chance. Then shocker, I got played AGAIN. So due to this (idk if its minor) inconvenience happening, i decided that the only way to cope would be by throwing myself a pity party, then proceeding to eat a 840 calorie bag of flamin hot funyuns, knowing well that I'm already at my calorie limit. RIP past progress, hello new HIGHER weight.

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Ps: To anyone who's into astrology, can we agree that cancer men are the absolute worse? AVOID THEM AT ALL COSTS!!",4.715636363636363,6.569855342857148,4.9664935064935065,82.12396103896107,70.57142857142857,7.948051948051948,27.72727272727273,8.575989854853784,2.058071428571429,588,21,108,10,11,185,106,140,0.18100000000000002,0.665,0.154,-0.8162,0,1,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,0,1,3,6,10,1,1,6,0,5,3,0,0,1,14,13,10,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,9,4,2,2,3,4,1,1,1,6,1,1,3,3,10,4,15,8,2,17,0,2,0,0,10,4,1,1,11,62,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752512064264482,0.0,0.0,0.34414196670198266,0.38594399538898094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104391213872694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680933529501794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16250266860087553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829718703260192,0.15234539008527495,0.0,0.0,0.25403034136713193,0.0,0.0,0.1572472470476715,0.1404354969796615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727803310484987,0.25890331614878664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338005726263354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10761402539118382,0.12078245234543294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15160248009688287,0.11009912330149664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885335908727033,0.0,0.2034759955139384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262923905386928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550656163030794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12605628980597294,0.0,0.19338826241389875,0.1427896064455538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184134756495885,0.11281433940764266,0.0,0.38594399538898094,0.0
EDAnonymous,youreacreep_goaway,2019/03/25,"Creeps that lurk and post in these subs... LOL So I made an account to reply to some creep who clearly has an ed-girl-fetish (his invasive questioning of one of the users and the way he wrote was sort of... disgusting... and I looked at his history and I was right lol his account is like blossum64 or some shit) and it just got me thinking:

I wonder how many creepy, old, ugly men are here lurking? Trying to lure innocent girls or guys and get their personal information? And WHY DO THEY ALWAYS USE the most ANNOYING EMOJIS lol

shit like this: ""hi you sound so sweet 🤗 so young, so tight :))) and what is your weight? please contact mail with me anytime 🤗 oh so young and tight hun. HUN. HUUUNNNNNNNNN."" 

Sigh.",0.31259803921568263,2.5837836911764707,1.2832352941176488,95.95539215686277,101.7941176470588,4.913725490196079,18.166666666666668,6.6274283507984215,0.2572460784313724,546,17,113,9,24,169,98,136,0.099,0.727,0.174,0.8937,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,2,0,8,8,4,0,5,3,7,3,2,3,1,28,15,17,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,6,10,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,4,1,1,5,6,13,3,9,10,3,8,0,0,1,0,19,3,2,8,5,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752896193602738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100634306561418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848752927803734,0.0,0.0,0.2085908320891885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20583992560680936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769050010573568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933570638686768,0.0,0.2135805909293743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22105680305230965,0.0,0.14275161900932298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394398911519835,0.0,0.2312462005119303,0.0,0.0,0.2017582191189704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359922904438166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17990620815098046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43248786623437613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349852124537717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143027268698569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194636411961226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721555940964974,0.0,0.2565324311271928,0.0,0.0,0.19009181367641345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284565066977131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnRickStricted,2019/03/25,"do we binge for the taste or to feel full and bloated ? do we binge for the taste or to feel full and bloated, with my it starts with taste then to stop i must bloat myself ....is that weird ?",2.1926666666666685,3.1476136000000032,2.2950000000000017,102.35666666666668,75.5,5.333333333333334,18.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.0219166666666668,144,2,37,0,3,43,25,40,0.10300000000000001,0.897,0.0,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,1,12,7,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,7,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6783153277925474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4747691355306759,0.0,0.0,0.5607874677889509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ElectronicRanger,2019/03/25,"im tired of myself the end of 2018 was rough for me. i decided i didn't have time for my food bullshit anymore. i stopped obsessively counting. im finally not thinking about my next meal. i stopped using exercise as punishment. i gained weight. i'm mostly ok with how i look.

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but now? im just stuck with myself. at least when food was all consuming i didnt have to think about me. i could be hungry instead of remembering how alone i feel all the time. i could be 3,000 calories deep into a comatose state instead of thinking about how im treating everyone that loves me like shit. 

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now im just stuck with me and i cant get out. its fucking bullshit.",1.0267744610281897,3.612550798507464,2.459601990049752,90.68784411276951,89.52238805970148,5.365837479270317,25.35489220563847,6.937597516519254,1.2612036484245444,533,24,106,8,18,172,81,134,0.204,0.711,0.085,-0.9253,0,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,13,8,3,1,3,1,11,9,1,4,2,27,23,7,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,6,4,2,6,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,6,4,19,4,17,13,4,15,0,0,1,2,1,4,2,1,11,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799811226988274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468882898678654,0.27687716763957193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298889575402064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819291979563633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090901191269523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886591236795888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057606915392762185,0.0,0.0,0.1248057951234875,0.0,0.0,0.27553153227476845,0.0,0.0,0.1053273344201804,0.05952422300668845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6153249241637261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055660910996763326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095673310119095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028271373740628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116686590079374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290615654209598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694849072008873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19050276404851946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21900707185312035,0.0,0.0,0.13286811514231514,0.13094687581289682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839976719376944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873721314910584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27687716763957193,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cheskaz,2019/03/25,"Alcohol and diet soda So went to an event on taste and cocktails today and learned a few fun tidbits that you guys, gals and non binary pals may find interesting! 

Turns out the stomach pushes it's contents into the small intestine at a rate of 2-3 calories per minutes. 

That means that when you use a diet soda as a mixer you drunk more quickly as the alcohol is absorbed sooner. But it also means you get drunker because if the alcohol spends more time in the stomach more of it is broken down before it can be absorbed. 

So booyeah for us drunkorexics.

[Pictures of the slides](http://imgur.com/a/HDKddRo)

Also sorry if this is unclear at all, there was a lot of free alcohol going around.",7.855098901098906,7.572786707692307,8.082087912087914,70.19576923076926,62.69230769230769,10.197802197802199,37.802197802197796,9.606745405546679,3.7749890109890116,552,25,91,9,7,181,89,130,0.066,0.861,0.07200000000000001,0.4199,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,1,4,0,0,9,3,0,0,12,0,7,13,3,1,1,19,14,14,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,8,7,11,0,4,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,4,16,10,6,17,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,5,5,68,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6996787783086792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617830181597756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570619774255908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977527209184524,0.0,0.13927608344488174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495967513407672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551387025352193,0.0,0.0930207510486212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206481339906947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915134496568374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565819431374538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18322170109469485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954406977965361,0.0,0.15514555698116653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780323118134411,0.0,0.0,0.1968818810905732,0.1413633727539671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15172914227985496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,impkidz,2019/03/25,"My parents threatened me into recovery and now I'm having unhealthy responses I just hit 100 pounds but I've decided to recover after realizing that that's not a good thing. Ana always feels like a game and a challenge I'm trying to win, but seeing that number actually made me cry out of fear. I don't want to go to inpatient care again. I've been losing more and more weight lately due to my depression and PTSD, so i definitely don't have a sense of pride on getting so low. 

Despite telling my family and everyone being encouraging within the first few hours, its all shifted onto hostility and threats of punishment and retaliation if I dont eat enough or skip a meal. I get overwhelmingly  nauseous from eating full portions because my body isn't adjusted but saying so or not cleaning my plate has led to more shaming. That's the opposite of support and definitely makes me feel helpless. Shaming somone with an ED doesn't make it go away. 

I spent $30+ today on pure sweets and ""cute"" drinks (marble sodas, fruity sodas, sparkling and fruit waters) and relapsed into  a safe diet I had as a teen of eating pink/cute things only to help fight how disgusting I feel with a full stomach. I already feel nauseous from just eating mini marshmallows and downing fizzy water. The mentality behind it is ""I can feel better if I only put sweet/cute things in my mouth"" but o know this is going to be another terrible crash diet. I ate so much better of foods when i was constantly between fasts. I wish i could be normal. ",6.740221595487513,6.922330773972603,7.515672844480258,71.77211522965351,64.89041095890411,10.295245769540694,33.61482675261885,10.056822442137396,3.400330539887188,1214,48,213,25,17,406,187,292,0.184,0.636,0.18,-0.0593,1,0,1,0,1,0,28.0,0,0,0,7,10,27,5,4,12,0,18,19,3,5,2,50,42,27,0,6,12,1,6,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,11,17,16,1,9,2,1,5,7,14,0,1,6,10,24,13,32,31,10,29,0,5,1,0,7,13,0,4,12,139,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.10993951579601016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432266727510018,0.0,0.0937418100737074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813341092672246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10584740035755336,0.0,0.0,0.06867624495388218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992765175680507,0.0,0.1251394155095861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486396799718393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174500181824904,0.0,0.08994952139113505,0.0,0.12375127774220165,0.0,0.0,0.09703354622589508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13203620919906953,0.11036351557152846,0.0,0.4611155748764899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640748000325454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076510733110132,0.0,0.0,0.10620544205464966,0.12677336839501124,0.2848203876346133,0.08048403894858502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095828196062426,0.13622843245989605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771997965747187,0.0,0.19208113646421202,0.09449352526597138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551335342696859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109470099678726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061914768470785815,0.0,0.12708493306161112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05503978867157215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603727236865864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660123512859264,0.15040231226507222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135343764374942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281776692560078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038248563080368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17136540103550185,0.0,0.0,0.12509515063460086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13169304063511514,0.11325401225479738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959143373947913,0.0,0.0,0.08977511310254234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784477614116427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846945386835224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22453809176617026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678812546797264,0.0,0.0,0.07648847151721846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644954950192153,0.0,0.0,0.13718903905567914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955297717878395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,olivia2070,2019/03/25,"Beautiful song about body image - ""Body Love"" by Mary Lambert I first came across this video a few years ago, and whenever I come back to it, it makes me super emotional. Just wanted to share in case anyone hasn't heard it! It's very raw, which I love: [Mary Lambert's ""Body Love""](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3-gBH4sSLfA)",7.5219642857142865,9.490124410714287,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,63.82142857142857,8.457142857142857,26.5,8.841846274778883,1.8415142857142848,261,7,45,4,4,72,44,56,0.0,0.6709999999999999,0.32899999999999996,0.9664,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,5,3,1,0,6,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,2,4,4,6,6,1,8,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,4,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730829804550653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652778559405765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501400870046658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6506573897152427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233212569002603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16819606341491494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196371221943673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660849585432238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5286794597941984,0.0,0.13033513529294094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110694441999102,0.11516725898766896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573869295346315
EDAnonymous,PoemOfLifeItself,2019/03/25,you know that feeling when... you shit before a weigh in,-0.2681818181818194,1.804562636363638,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,104.45454545454544,2.2,14.590909090909092,3.1291,-1.451763636363636,43,1,9,0,2,13,10,11,0.275,0.611,0.115,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5568105675247161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308631286098712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3596181118480876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6716892106101658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,illmurderyoudickhead,2019/03/25,"BMI of 21.29. Ashamed of myself. Title says it all. I don't even know why I feel ashamed. Hell, I don't even know if I'm happy or sad about this. Just ashamed.",-2.2301904761904763,-0.5454242571428551,-0.5035714285714263,109.06273809523813,105.85714285714286,2.333333333333333,14.404761904761903,3.1291,-1.7776666666666672,121,3,32,0,6,38,25,35,0.389,0.526,0.085,-0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,4,1,3,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5490468962653238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015788936990945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44245191240478776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568450022383746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33053017687180625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37504655518116375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovedieshere,2019/03/25,"Overeater finally became an undereater... So I've had an EDNOS for years, but always on the overeating end of the spectrum. Overeating (always) & purging (sometimes). Even once dug into an old first aid kit to use some Ipecac. I'd always wished I was on the undereating end, but now that I am... fuck. It finally got triggered.

This Friday morning I went to the doctor's and got weighed: 140lbs. BMI of 24. Fuck. Last time I'd looked I was at the low 30's. 

*Me: ""Did I just hit 140..""* 

*Nurse: ""Yep!""* 

*Me, audibly: ""Oh no...""*  
*Nurse: \*laughs\**  
I've seen myself as fat since the 4th grade, & since then every ten pounds has been a knock to my self esteem. But I thought I was a worthless pig without self control, so I surrendered to the Oreos, doughnuts, and buttered toast. 

At a doc appointment,  at the age of 21, my insanity finally swung to the other side of the disordered eating spectrum. To be fair, there are other contributing factors. For starters, my bff also has an ED. Really triggering. It also doesn't help that I feel like I have no control over anything in my life right now. One fuck up after another. 

Stayed up til 2am yesterday, looking up the menu the dining halls would be serving. Literally drew MAPS of where to go in the dining hall, where to stop first, and how to avoid the sweets aisle. Now I am three days into restricting. Went from binging twice a day, every day, to ≤1,000 calories a day. Tallying up calories, drawing maps, and printing them out 'tricks' me into a sense of productivity. When I know it's a huuuge waste of time & my academics will only suffer from it.

I once lost 15lbs in 3 wks by 'dieting' over summer cap in middle school, looking back I know that I was restricting. A part of me is gleeful knowing I'm back to that. That I'm finally caving to it's desire to be small, dainty, & precious.

Fuck.

(New accnt bc my ED friend may know my other username & she doesn't deserve for her bff to be a trigger. I'm also terrified of anyone realizing what I'm doing to myself)",1.5201362353452017,4.096147410714289,3.2255210594876265,86.79242726877987,85.09693877551021,5.9892314372557545,23.391445940078157,7.378060373470096,1.2608456795484155,1563,59,299,26,47,517,221,392,0.153,0.7559999999999999,0.091,-0.9785,0,1,0,0,0,0,101.0,0,0,1,5,17,15,5,1,27,1,24,13,1,7,0,36,51,17,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,2,15,8,7,6,7,0,0,3,5,10,0,6,14,8,31,5,56,29,2,69,0,4,4,4,7,33,4,2,33,188,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19465427806474672,0.2025359834352914,0.4395563424656208,0.0,0.0,0.0850786023859804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056732465779206424,0.0,0.06676835379773115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247777851375334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820027704326783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930509394357316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298935747003688,0.08304655571628955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08302280519360118,0.0,0.0,0.14372555692099606,0.0,0.0,0.05358983490390909,0.0,0.1367218529732723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04102500777873439,0.05796386893773747,0.0,0.3555238936758282,0.0,0.1380291811808961,0.0,0.0,0.06268579063618285,0.3000372218814661,0.0,0.0,0.04611169272347173,0.0,0.12978440124197302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054384026674978506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836180051767067,0.06613700490479897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05730904727756415,0.0396391525400188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044024540331289,0.0,0.08856997821001389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783620522932779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513901577031589,0.1728152615274201,0.054980132591517135,0.06170789746542212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878628274999351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519780631375944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929005251794725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211438060055025,0.0,0.0,0.16928594579978715,0.0,0.0,0.13423375687795125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024598611115226,0.0,0.0,0.08648061963860043,0.0,0.06783367347197734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441324809518251,0.09462258862664456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007580925010333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042853357198946,0.0,0.0,0.0933028695848862,0.07821260579909672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763697916056903,0.0,0.0,0.052249189160034064
EDAnonymous,LifesOke,2019/03/25,"Yikes my friends know now At my friends house the other day, and accidentally told her that all I had eaten that day was a bowl of oatmeal. The conversation went like this: “why?” “Oh.. I don’t know just trying to lose weight I guess” “that’s really unhealthy..” “no it’s cool, I’m not that hungry anyway” “are you sure?” “Yeah it’s fine” *my friend continues to stare at me In a pitiful, concerned way*
Yikes 
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EDAnonymous,-Cokeman,2019/03/25,"""What's your goal weight?"" **Disclaimer:** mentioning numbers in this post. Just a warning if anyone does not want to read ahead.

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A couple of months ago I saw my friends for the first time in half a year. The 6 months before I saw them had been very drastic for me. Exercised a lot along with an ED so I lost a lot of weight. I'm 5'10. I went from an extremely obese person to a healthy ish weight. I was 298 lbs. When I saw them I was 200 lbs. Everyone was surprised at how different I looked. They asked me a ton of questions like how I did it. I told them about my ED.

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A friend of mine asked me what my goal weight was and I didn't even know how to respond. None. Zero. I don't know. There is no goal weight. I just don't eat until I die I guess. I'm now 180 pounds with a good bit of muscle but still overweight on the BMI chart. Whenever I weigh myself I think of that question. What is my goal? When will it stop? Why do I do this to myself? What do I want out of this? 

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I can't justify it to myself. I just want to look good though I know I never will, but I never stop trying. No matter how much I lose, no matter how much better I look; it's not enough. I'm always going to be that grossly fat dude I was growing up. I guess that's the whole point of this post. I want to know if and how everyone else justifies it. This question really got me thinking, so now I'm asking you. What's your goal weight , stranger?",-0.6402801120448203,1.5439288562091562,1.1723436041083095,99.63411764705884,93.77124183006536,4.221475256769375,16.436041083099905,5.916634753146586,-0.6267958916900094,1114,28,261,10,42,361,150,306,0.10099999999999999,0.802,0.09699999999999999,-0.3205,1,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,3,4,10,20,9,0,0,15,0,20,12,1,6,2,44,50,18,1,6,9,0,6,1,2,2,4,0,0,1,18,6,11,2,9,2,0,3,12,2,0,3,16,12,48,7,31,31,9,29,0,2,6,0,19,7,0,9,18,175,66,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06516046664425865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061164600795270224,0.23893788137924216,0.2679610437315253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051398549966186126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061603608485628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06254995134486846,0.0,0.0,0.0650119121624479,0.08025177132254252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133527857854353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628976867121777,0.07680028517646002,0.0,0.0,0.06432740525951741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521710439457542,0.06140655807391076,0.0,0.0,0.07595348370576731,0.0,0.04855138533389454,0.0,0.0,0.14048021729201252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06252592469124021,0.0,0.0,0.1135843012614001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04177632877260665,0.12331015895866496,0.05879111669523145,0.0,0.16195484751896838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16159244605452186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03591232876030176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518478974138816,0.08223672493300795,0.080242739109005,0.12498786068494068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734687639259445,0.0,0.10807377516557848,0.0,0.11338790661883992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06418440923074104,0.0,0.0,0.0694888837250596,0.0,0.14080081837833258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470375762427287,0.0,0.07352795985918853,0.0,0.047091150342744616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05870363768542348,0.12291207186052798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420200309786092,0.07222130312950142,0.0,0.04286314531422166,0.0,0.0,0.07024010864600626,0.0,0.04990715265805663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06065185410163785,0.17342785103529998,0.0,0.0,0.5370781383928632,0.0,0.06814271504812568,0.06632959749926723,0.0820691322752238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679610437315253,0.04733678543404723
EDAnonymous,annelysa,2019/05/18,"My ""ED"" voice is getting louder. Anytime I even think about food, I'm getting screamed at. I can't tell if my ED is getting worse, or if this is a result of my Bipolar. Mental illness is always full of surprises, huh?

Cheers to a period of fasting, I guess.",0.7469871794871779,3.0608684423076937,2.9938461538461536,89.03448717948721,85.73076923076924,5.005128205128205,25.974358974358967,6.42735559955562,1.1106051282051284,197,9,39,2,6,67,37,52,0.153,0.753,0.094,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,5,3,0,1,0,6,11,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,6,11,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,2,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27010962827055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21440827658557346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3925314779252692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5088012476017076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576052413583719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3271403463550317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837319607917913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080032217023153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308152479108734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sn0wflaker,2019/05/18,"DAE hate having days off? I literally cannot focus on anything other than eating/not eating. It’s nice to not be working but I feel like I can’t enjoy myself because any progress I have made can be erased at any second.

I LOVE work because it distracts me enough and any small break in my day will merely result in a cup of coffee or tea. I even skip lunch or just walk to keep myself from losing energy.
Even when I get home I am sometimes too exhausted to prepare food so I just go to sleep and feel perfect waking up the next day.",2.7075656565656554,4.2822119181818215,4.08757575757576,87.52580808080809,75.27272727272728,5.9797979797979774,22.222222222222207,6.42735559955562,0.4664646464646469,421,11,85,3,9,139,82,110,0.096,0.682,0.223,0.9571,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,5,7,9,1,1,2,0,9,8,2,2,1,14,17,7,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,4,1,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,1,2,13,5,13,13,1,15,0,1,0,1,1,7,0,2,6,55,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806697199600223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15355046468407174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22749120248081345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610119084237972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909316254145212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19280085582347092,0.0,0.2464863542020576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18869445327874426,0.1333023581386945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256294729945493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748734713975256,0.0,0.106045326001415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18422234627680398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716838833291255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658527822621819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116010723645426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208750279429242,0.0,0.0,0.16840782340738658,0.17655918128334272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19844419164579846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186728149772501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18454563809865415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27168442666807097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HoneyNutMyCheerios,2019/05/18,i thought this was supposed to be Erectile Dysfunction Anonymous dude im sorry i just felt the need to post this like erectile dysfunction is the only ED ive heard of,1.2809090909090912,3.948388000000001,2.3597575757575764,89.89963636363636,93.24242424242424,5.0642424242424235,27.81212121212121,6.742157984588678,1.6751866666666664,136,7,25,2,5,43,25,33,0.198,0.7190000000000001,0.083,-0.4633,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838731515630502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43185536738167385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532333425283105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964485296952944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040678599399833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829003334028305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475462295791861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317398571407498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dharmadying,2019/05/18,"Does anyone else feel like they are militaristic with more than food? With everything? I keep a tight control over my behavior to everyone, displaying a different affect depending on who I have to speak to. I also keep a tight control over my sleep, my meditation practice, my time spent doing ""enjoyable"" activities, etc. It feels like I'm my own helicopter parent, obsessed with control and precision and the analytics of everything I do.",8.108684210526313,9.64039144736842,8.659052631578946,60.05436842105266,62.157894736842096,13.44842105263158,40.2,12.688352899677879,6.2360452631578935,354,19,52,14,5,118,54,76,0.024,0.902,0.07400000000000001,0.5661,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,3,1,4,0,1,4,0,4,2,1,5,1,17,10,3,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,7,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,10,3,11,9,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993582907349095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223539196742858,0.17929330813290362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5887833019813676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282258798399514,0.0,0.0,0.15313097706367546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461779190072966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19515507101461446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720612968343354,0.3145313414416123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695583780657706,0.2500193307874223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115931429559647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110702781962719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097813815157129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19430067287250968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511185734884052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203544345538408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zucc_succ_yum,2019/05/18,"How people treat you after weight loss/mean girls. Something similar happened to a buddy of mine after he got fit, his friends and random men would be passive aggressive or shitty with him. Not a lot, but enough to notice. So it's not just a ""wom3n r cAttY durrr"" thing.

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But, alas.... women toward me have been MEAN. Again, not a ton, but I've noticed that ever since I have reached my lw, some girls are passive aggressive. Before, people ignored me and I was ok with that because I felt gross and didn't want to be seen and IN GENERAL my self esteem was trash. Now I admit I feel a little better overall, but some women will just be cruel or passive aggressive as FUCK, including one ""friend"". Too much to type and I'm tired but \*\*tl;dr\*\* anyone else noticed this? It feels icky. \*\*

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I don't want to get bigger, but I did notice the ""hot"" girls I grew up with had trouble finding genuine dudes while the short, bigger ones found their ""love"" and I'm just wondering if this is worth it and if I should just go to a therapist to build self esteem lol",2.4756021062271074,4.87276526442308,3.3632417582417595,88.59128205128206,79.04807692307693,5.5003663003663,22.404761904761905,6.655083550727371,0.6626146520146516,837,26,158,8,21,266,134,208,0.158,0.72,0.122,-0.9023,0,0,1,0,0,0,55.0,0,1,1,1,10,14,5,0,8,2,17,4,0,1,1,47,35,21,0,6,17,0,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,8,8,10,1,1,8,0,1,2,5,8,0,2,10,6,18,6,17,19,6,16,0,0,1,2,17,8,1,9,6,107,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463567809759314,0.2762810977463717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07949167317091793,0.11648441741608345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930173742034013,0.0,0.09673814324400576,0.0,0.0,0.10054574841573492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496980066896052,0.0,0.0,0.11746770107140245,0.0,0.0,0.10283520928140767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496579481926182,0.0,0.10915608437888599,0.0,0.10390665505587827,0.0,0.0,0.1246504839499126,0.17566655400119774,0.105100582414899,0.059396077383295574,0.0,0.0646101937750692,0.0,0.09092482641563147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053187439538516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139429210872871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966515026049942,0.10260576787178433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24767407468855399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835720581559326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.517727616308269,0.0,0.0,0.15407272258772414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576306770415897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371979234662245,0.0,0.0,0.0940419721202872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752079327652097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199784077366036,0.07552771649494858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066496925142004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410952315096664,0.0,0.0,0.13843853530387326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328727416218828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075904769981336,0.0,0.2762810977463717,0.0
EDAnonymous,whooptidooo,2019/05/18,"PSA Booze calories don't count if you pour some into your black coffee. 
Not even if it's a fuck load of alcohol and the coffee cup is bigger than your (actually, my) flabby-flat butt. 
This has been a PSA issued in the interest of anxious ED-ed messes+coffee fiends everywhere.",6.9542767295597505,6.931372981132077,7.552830188679247,72.37880503144656,64.47169811320754,10.840251572327047,30.874213836477992,10.504223727775694,3.149432704402516,220,7,40,5,3,73,45,53,0.105,0.838,0.057,-0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,4,0,4,4,1,0,0,6,5,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,5,4,1,3,0,0,1,2,3,3,2,3,0,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.4069255171755894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4456392501467613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710839778132445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27542028293235066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855037839219113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4352328898176401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SaltySamoyed,2019/05/18,"How to get over deciding a binge and purge is worth it? Especially after a days work, it’s so easy to crave stopping at Walmart, getting unholy food, devouring it, then purging as much of it up as I can. I always say “I can’t do this shit anymore”, but in those moments I consciously make a choice to say, “fuck it, it’s worth it.”",4.593970588235294,4.335272220588237,5.963529411764708,82.58588235294121,69.44117647058823,9.15294117647059,31.70588235294117,8.841846274778883,2.3681352941176472,253,10,55,4,4,86,51,68,0.13,0.778,0.092,-0.5429999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,3,0,4,3,1,2,0,7,8,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,9,1,1,1,2,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,11,8,1,9,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,5,37,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475427383350178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950387555869928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186204059936987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597365912146826,0.0,0.0,0.2750327407772657,0.3108615685811953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858268258709955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186957643706153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731657906283879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053781253420572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487222220629484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165825861279397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schreiner22,2019/05/18,"Have had no motivation to eat since breakup 21 year old male here. About a month ago, shortly after Easter I went through a break up that has hit me pretty hard. Since then, I've been eating a lot less and as if now currently haven't eaten in about 50 hours, and have lost about 16-17 pounds since it happened. (I've never counted calories or watched my weight to to closely so I'm not sure what's normal) Not really sure how to motivate myself to eat more because I know I should be but at the same time feel like the weight loss is worth going through this. I have never been diagnosed with any kind of eating disorder but at this point I just have no idea what to do about it",6.660873586844808,5.3825713669064745,6.5010483042137714,83.82100719424461,65.54676258992805,9.669475847893112,30.648509763617678,8.418075326091056,1.951085508735868,536,15,116,6,7,169,99,139,0.121,0.799,0.08,-0.5825,1,0,0,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,9,6,0,0,5,0,13,8,0,3,4,25,22,10,0,3,7,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,4,7,0,5,0,1,2,7,2,0,0,6,5,8,4,20,13,4,22,0,2,1,0,1,7,0,3,13,75,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080027937128653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267222099539334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307246630894524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383170742364977,0.0,0.0,0.15618387975290765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5577766822309602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890514200875691,0.09735546284532573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774486808756189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050824495252258,0.0,0.12207635464122282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13420421797702414,0.0,0.0,0.15383879712522666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191028098563135,0.07489361891101398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657747512463809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487611400146281,0.11585681676583436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087740479895892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21020860503748545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352135552577582,0.0,0.0,0.14299853405951973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288246846514208,0.0,0.0,0.1386414864676575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873017706944251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381862642146289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568766682921333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946351822430135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33189443693558385,0.0,0.12632903720398464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775715091468572
EDAnonymous,partly_cloudy_,2019/05/18,"Grad dress doesn’t zip anymore I bought this dress about a month ago for my college graduation (finally felt pretty in a dress after reaching my second GW). But I’ve been nonstop binging for like ten days and I fucking can’t zip it up. Like not even close.

My whole face and limbs and stomach are inflated and swollen and I just wish for all the world that I didn’t do this shit to myself.

Commencement is on Monday. I want to die.",1.381034482758622,3.844671758620692,2.451275862068968,92.98381034482759,84.28735632183907,5.319080459770115,22.49310344827586,6.742157984588678,0.5896399999999997,341,12,71,4,10,108,65,87,0.09,0.754,0.155,0.431,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,3,0,7,5,3,0,1,13,12,6,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,2,4,1,9,2,10,8,2,11,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,8,46,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24331747259398584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722188112816471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17702235937824756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28487570230585696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129704986421888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26355198283363396,0.3006887089465833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25376017333372103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682024091885737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21909408304675432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792534608326581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281758476464024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190041510021005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064565812919703,0.3156482013788015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doyouhearthatbatsy,2019/06/13,"The Tragic Ambivalence of the Binge-Restrictor I'm not sure how relatable this is going to be, but I need to get my thoughts out there and hopefully it's useful in a commiseration sort of way to at least one of you.

I constantly feel like I'm torn between two worlds as someone who is perpetually stuck in the binge-restrict cycle. The truth is that, as much as I want to be thin, as much as I yearn for the aestheticism and the accomplishment and the control, I love food. Wondrous food, diverse and fulfilling and brimming with positive cultural, social, and potential personal meaning. Not only that, but my body yearns for the biological necessity it's being deprived of. As a result of this, I am plagued by the urge to consume - and I enjoy consuming, I sincerely do - but it's the type of enjoyment that feels wrong. Disgusting, revolting, egregiously perverse. I want it, but it physically sickens me. I love it, but I hate it. It's just so emotionally exhausting. I wish I could stand here and declare my undiluted and singular hatred for food and mean it as much as someone can mean anything, but my feelings are more than just hatred. Another complication-cog to add to the death machine that is an eating disorder.

How are you supposed to deal with this? I just want to starve in peace. I'm tired of the war.",4.63556451612903,6.612819169354843,5.851645161290325,75.19496774193551,71.01612903225806,9.798709677419355,32.561290322580646,10.125756701596842,3.6750541935483874,1046,50,188,30,20,349,138,248,0.225,0.597,0.17800000000000002,-0.9505,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,2,0,2,8,19,3,1,15,0,13,9,1,5,2,49,36,27,2,9,11,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,17,14,4,1,7,0,0,1,2,10,0,2,2,4,21,9,37,30,5,11,0,4,0,2,9,7,0,2,2,136,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965358185145068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017500991016191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734280018105088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361736899342147,0.13867947069951225,0.09872124695881668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747356718559655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417089953518317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652069694176574,0.0,0.1390850754761298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18755735478112529,0.08833270663816281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485395980665431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459991673117177,0.0,0.07027085494080418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207479820373372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280834858141228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06040717600241576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319063320903215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40406013257662543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27268204749044034,0.0916819210437038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378571016973499,0.0940383329126292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796289293548653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260414966871141,0.20952966055723649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653486470752834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816108986297503,0.0,0.14211285500979512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078414754674467,0.0,0.0,0.10679041986604228,0.0,0.0,0.2187887923768706,0.09814441681149703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218676493788607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351874594015977,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,witchy-plant,2019/06/13,my sister said that my hand was cold and I felt so proud of myself for all my “hard work” I’m an obese ana FYI so i feel like it was extra important to me,0.00833333333333286,1.0064342777777815,2.5288888888888903,98.305,81.22222222222223,5.911111111111111,14.777777777777779,6.42735559955562,-0.8774888888888892,118,1,32,1,3,41,30,36,0.033,0.632,0.335,0.917,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,4,6,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,7,2,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,20,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477890121311037,0.3500988933589869,0.4705343595260716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389974164376675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239418515228089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.466159191323164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35676944672050936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TeenyBeanieWeenie,2019/06/13,"Old Fast Food Favorites List? Hi,
I remember on the old subreddit I could find a couple big lists of safe-ish fast food options. I’m really struggling at a new job to eat anything for lunch so I’ve been digging trying to find any of the lists.",2.9063999999999983,4.410841439999999,4.153000000000001,87.55150000000002,74.6,7.4,26.5,8.07648339933343,1.5757999999999996,192,7,40,3,4,63,38,50,0.066,0.8740000000000001,0.06,-0.0754,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,7,1,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,5,16,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239248798543272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723102591399743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718100322542506,0.2316862275708837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21425840632187554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827576226534884,0.0,0.506390821301625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20778742274980885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022303197454864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.439439495984818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13414069719264493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23719823126021986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21890005700486512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216217280160198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moogantron,2019/06/13,"Plans for a tattoo and my reservations Okay, I’ve wanted a tattoo of the NEDA symbol made out of flowers on my upper inner arm for years. To me it represents growth and that I have people on my side. My only reservation is that I will have my diagnosis out in the open permanently inked on me and will I regret that in the long run? Will I have to explain it to people and will that trigger me? I don’t believe I do but now that the appointment is booked I want clarity and am wondering if this is last minute nerves or real nerves since this is something I’ve wanted for years. I know it’s not something you all can answer with 100% knowing since I know myself best but here’s hoping the venting helps",5.8863811188811175,5.487717804195807,6.646984265734265,79.24432255244757,66.76223776223776,9.387762237762237,29.063811188811197,8.841846274778883,2.1091545454545457,558,16,111,8,8,185,82,143,0.036000000000000004,0.815,0.15,0.9546,1,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,7,1,15,1,1,2,1,29,25,9,0,6,5,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,0,6,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,19,3,16,20,2,18,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,4,5,81,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23124454794770585,0.21539542737107428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13757360861671428,0.0,0.0,0.2038578727561908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383972928747859,0.16730475810907067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18163828615179253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421090355658527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610058051060402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845866552190775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233617499250012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395670284262882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160203367535348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631822942988052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22258302535639932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643463509240432
EDAnonymous,ShenYuAkaOracle,2019/06/13,"Hullo fellow beautiful humans! Any tips/small changes you did on your road to a healthier life? Kinda got out of an Ed phase and stabilized in a sedentary lifestyle. Do you have any tips on getting active again? Like mild exercise, healthy foods or anything you do to treat your body?",4.3309615384615405,7.022076326923081,4.123692307692308,84.0213076923077,74.19230769230771,7.236923076923077,29.63076923076923,8.238735603445708,2.3940723076923067,227,10,39,4,5,69,43,52,0.0,0.742,0.258,0.9364,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,4,1,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,7,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,2,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810895060988408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29108507983192955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929081181052706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37419356174452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277250042465518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480642362863228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829057528578953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498460371273741,0.17281189703337407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sneasel_,2019/06/13,lil vent my friend said she only eats 1 slice of bread a day i hate myself so much she already has a thigh gap,1.022400000000001,2.0589010399999985,2.501000000000001,99.3955,78.6,5.0,16.5,3.1291,-1.1438,86,1,22,0,2,28,23,25,0.14300000000000002,0.7340000000000001,0.124,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4404932946906627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25743120302858263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084498894338098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083972433202392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39409708477909855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934353952626929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035862717258214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797014529456877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caffeinelover94,2019/06/13,"DAE get really terrified after a purge I just back myself into this terrifying little corner thinking of all the awful things I've done to my body and the potential repercussions.
God forbid my chest twinges (like it's been doing today) because then I'm worrying about my heart health, stroke, heart attack. 
Just sat at work thinking of all the horrible, self inflicted ways I could die. 

Please tell me this is a thing we all do.",6.8229999999999995,7.6333503,6.875000000000004,74.27,64.75,10.4,29.75,10.355215969177356,3.1069500000000003,344,11,59,8,5,110,65,80,0.285,0.6679999999999999,0.047,-0.9734,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,5,1,6,6,4,0,3,12,11,2,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,8,1,7,7,3,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,39,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299281649902477,0.0,0.15540934561520894,0.0,0.12320377053905752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244975368730215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613675908025165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097572331840231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682767782486985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559361079891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21483241603898898,0.0,0.4790002764164161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987402485177266,0.20256631401665026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22185498989096689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947620074608487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21084376541544306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665217438212574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685444780682084,0.25900657289127244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19157570008795968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604247168615698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471377591626713,0.2052515001825799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7aylorAbi,2019/06/13,"Dae wait until midnight to eat, that way they can count half of the calories for one day and half for the next day? Is this normal or am I just weird?",3.6437500000000007,3.664450875,3.9250000000000007,95.42,71.5,6.4,22.25,3.1291,-0.25042500000000034,116,2,28,0,2,36,28,32,0.064,0.9359999999999999,0.0,-0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5314230979770963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4215877932777588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4381759630606382,0.0,0.4036810818725359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27918778122860594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270333558558894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ToasterII,2019/06/13,How to access r/thinspo? Used to be a subscriber because of the quality content. Tumblr thinspo is just too out of context for me to identity with. I thought it got deleted like r/proED but recently found out it just got private/quarantined. Could you please help me?,3.634599999999999,6.288633260000001,4.3580000000000005,81.62900000000002,76.4,7.2,36.0,8.238735603445708,3.3628,213,13,36,4,5,68,40,50,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.8229,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,11,8,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,1,9,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030395659108173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26593346490341896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651997928746782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5327813695051116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22325330266058932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16272373085050867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656165768752231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288716025870137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644245241031721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28767005328969103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,somesortoffreak,2019/06/13,"DAE feel like their body type basically forces them to want to get extremely skinny? I have the truly amazing combo of flat-chested, flat-assed, and nearly straight waistline at a healthy bmi and it makes me feel disgusting that I even have fat on my body because I don’t have the curves to balance it out and make it look good!!",5.8515625,6.42063103125,5.400000000000002,84.845,66.8125,8.275,31.625,8.07648339933343,2.0769187500000004,262,10,52,3,4,80,50,64,0.048,0.69,0.262,0.9214,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,4,4,4,2,0,9,11,3,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,7,3,8,11,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,1,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811289886405081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6600936258392309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19625296962448546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004778656206288,0.2122712531276274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523927431135512,0.0,0.0,0.24922033340633565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516375005307575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24951615466168556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966760082479794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525622877288732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,burnyoufuckers,2019/06/13,"Trigger Warning, please don’t read if you are easily upset. Please I have edited this so many times before posting. I keep changing how I want to say what I wish to say. I’m just going to be blunt.

My life has gone to shit. I don’t feel like typing out all that I’m going through. I don’t think it would make a difference, if I did. 

I just finished the biggest binge I’ve ever had, and feel like it would be a perfect last meal.

There is a very, very large chance that I will try to end my life tonight or tomorrow.",1.7655656565656557,3.1062417181818205,3.122121212121211,94.44762626262629,77.27272727272728,5.9797979797979774,22.222222222222207,6.42735559955562,0.2286464646464648,399,11,93,3,9,130,74,110,0.078,0.722,0.201,0.892,0,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,1,0,1,6,5,1,1,4,0,14,4,1,3,3,21,26,6,0,6,5,0,2,2,0,3,2,2,0,0,6,2,1,1,3,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,3,4,12,3,7,18,1,13,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,3,9,54,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876845428381444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18494820295887412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826613685319108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548485297437595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814480842535242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767997918631907,0.24979885486065345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872117319122445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15539798268775049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251074326041244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469768606796757,0.17082736355607325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670116790550923,0.17725137214102354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838242619779233,0.0,0.0,0.16743993929388631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487848830742903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780655375377313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946169029407702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202475853290643,0.0,0.0,0.10194546497696703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869889262918755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885080608424275,0.10311995762408324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104722480268594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483901032797325,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emelinette,2019/06/13,"I turned my parents into pumpkin farmers I’m visiting home this summer after living abroad for five years. Kabocha (Japanese pumpkin) has become one of my favorite safe foods. I get one every week, I would live on kabochas alone if I could—and they don’t exist at home. 

Such was the elaborate panic attack I had yesterday, over the phone, to my parents. There were tears. There was a failed plan to put some in a suitcase. I thought I’d just have to make peace with it all.

But *then* I woke up this morning to the news that they have sourced kabocha *seeds*—and all the equipment one could ever need to grow them—and planted five in the yard. My father even prepared a little paintbrush to pollinate them. They’re sending progress pictures. 

The harvest is set for the week I land, the world is a less scary place, and my family have the patience of heroes. 
💫🥧",3.1371590909090936,5.562239636363639,3.235511363636366,90.23326704545458,76.87878787878788,5.579545454545455,27.28219696969697,6.6274283507984215,1.1973106060606065,680,28,129,6,16,207,112,165,0.098,0.7979999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.2247,2,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,4,6,5,1,1,13,0,13,1,0,1,3,17,20,4,0,4,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,4,3,1,1,1,1,0,4,1,3,0,5,6,0,16,2,19,12,4,24,0,1,0,0,9,11,0,2,8,84,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16863991228791467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18523948955866013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17982989151993292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600086001020079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075458549402578,0.14728655867142232,0.13718897057055712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534990285927519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689134233392025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507051133068255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266579913718441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631956685768144,0.28755886831124106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868844563969117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073433368999445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310078511093974,0.0,0.0,0.19104268052975415,0.361600756657922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011980754320244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368634722500955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926663887464265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710927776338345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26122037723280195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566779802758942,0.0,0.0,0.10485540267527907
EDAnonymous,xoxoemogrlxoxo,2019/06/13,Bulimia and Acne Does anyone think that purging has worsened their acne? I feel like my skin is clearer when I am not using symptoms....,2.8954666666666675,5.814484680000002,4.18,79.93666666666667,82.2,4.933333333333334,28.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,1.793533333333334,107,5,16,1,3,35,23,25,0.11,0.795,0.095,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,5,6,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32975384374053784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4127005364185597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384552446067216,0.3369112961646961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23040004930438876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4901732080139857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021823828689098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40731117775458586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wheresnemonowthough,2019/06/13,"post-add. weight gain:( hiya. so i recently went from 150ish to 124, unfortunately through use of certain adhd meds. its now summer and, since i was on it for school/academics and no longer have access, I'm up to 132ish lbs in the past 2 weeks (im 5'3.5 - 5'4). any tips on how I can keep this weight off? i exercise pretty regularly but, between pcos and hypothyroidism, gaining weight is almost inevitable 4 me:( its really draining to my mental health, so anything helps!",4.605600649350649,6.500946670454546,4.867402597402599,82.55681818181822,70.93181818181819,7.755844155844157,27.34415584415585,8.418075326091056,1.8983064935064933,369,13,69,6,7,116,74,88,0.038,0.83,0.132,0.8466,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,2,1,9,8,7,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,3,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,13,6,0,11,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161158437141097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18006971086427234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228781096245295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798143283201953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191146573414626,0.0,0.0,0.12053354220651105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19424288185430802,0.0,0.0,0.159837564860724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19974608908887292,0.0,0.1812222598146636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17166421485461406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722235494584184,0.1829476374538726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115201106833276,0.0,0.17755642903616656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18199345956910692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875388224637628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553118816005009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424552834867574,0.6569386768903377,0.0,0.1667004551605329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sksjlau,2019/06/13,"Just binged on a whole watermelon. I feel sick. I feel soso sick physically and just feel like shit mentally because I did not want to eat more than 1/4 of a large watermelon today.

I was okay with eating half- and I could feel myself being full at that point- but I kept going and I don't know why. My head hurts from eating so much watermelon and my stomach isn't exactly bloated but it's full of watermelon.

I'm so full but I just can't stop eating watermelon. I've had other foods besides watermelon today and I'm so hungry for watermelon still. I don't know why.

There is more watermelon and I want to eat it, how can I stop? I'm physically full and I want to stop eating watermelon and save it for at least tomorrow.

Is it asking for tips if I am asking if I will gain a substantial amount of weight from eating a whole large watermelon? I know I'll gain a lot of water weight.",1.8132473910374465,3.996569812154696,4.238848987108657,82.58220227133214,80.16022099447514,7.558133824432168,21.10527931246164,8.515128840125781,1.3122557397176189,700,20,146,16,18,244,87,181,0.083,0.768,0.149,0.9291,0,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,1,0,5,1,14,16,3,1,1,37,31,17,0,6,9,0,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,9,11,4,7,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,4,6,18,3,17,24,12,16,0,1,0,0,2,8,1,3,8,95,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18753062751393346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06114087527224061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007998212287583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7184109624798326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028552120990676,0.07165308164513183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128102815109612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057001800329429815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293492877252107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737133876202323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536386660878347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049000653085195287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526997569778368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10107703403903197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373074578151373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481425466490707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295470052485273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009830284919295,0.25156145540238634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901420051191839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17747549916518396,0.0,0.0,0.24427246804930824,0.0,0.0,0.18100711975743894,0.22395880292044054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whereisvicsage2,2019/06/13,why can’t local restaurants have calories on their menu that is all,5.359230769230769,7.251840307692312,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,69.0,5.2,28.384615384615394,3.1291,0.7786,56,2,10,0,1,16,13,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDHelp98,2018/12/11,"I can’t see a way out. Hey, Im not sure why I’m posting or if this is going to help at all but I feel like I need to get things off my chest and this was the best place I could find. 

I had been overweight my whole life, by the end of last year I was just over the ‘obese’ BMI category. I had been eating nothing but takeaways and chocolate for months. Mine and my fiancé’s lives revolved around food. I was at my biggest and I felt disgusting, I was sick of food so I finally decided to make a change. I wanted the body I had always dreamed of.

My diet started as a normal one, I was losing weight in a healthy way, about a pound a week. I was eating 3 meals a day and I was content for a short while. However, all of a sudden I started to want to restrict more and more. My lunch went from a tin of soup with bread to a cuppa soup with no bread. My breakfasts went from porridge to nothing. Eventually I was eating nothing but a tiny apple from the ‘kids’ multipacks and a piece of frozen chicken breast on a sandwich thin for dinner. This added to around 300 calories each day.

I experienced rapid weight loss and it felt great. I was losing up to 4 pounds a week. My goal weight was 10 stone, nearing the higher end of the ‘healthy’ bmi category. (I’m a 20 year old female at 5’4 1/2) As you can guess when I got there, I wasn’t happy. Everywhere was still too fat. I had to keep going. Every stone lost I just thought ‘maybe just a few more pounds will fix me’.

Now I’m here, I weigh 6 Stone 8 pounds. I told my fiancé I stopped at 8 stone. Every week I give him a weekly update, “ I still weigh 8 stone”, hoping he won’t notice the new bones sticking out weekly. He thinks I’m eating enough to be at maintenance, I’m eating 800 calories a day and making sure I do over 10,000 steps a day. I would choose my eating disorder over him. We have been together for over 5 years and if he found out I weighed so little he would try to force me to eat and gain weight. I would rather die. 

Today I thought to myself ‘he hasn’t noticed so far, maybe I’m skinny enough now, I should try to eat at maintenance and stay where I am’. So today I ate a decadent Chicago town ‘one person serving’ chocolate pizza at 515 calories as I had seen my fiancé eating them and had been craving one, I thought I was strong enough to finally try one. That’s puts me at 1,460 calories for the day, according to MyFitnessPal that’s 10 calories under maintenance if I was sedentary. 

Even knowing I can’t gain weight or even maintain from what I have eaten I can’t stop sitting and just hating myself for giving in. I just want to die in my sleep as my eating disorder is making life too stressful and I don’t see a way out. I don’t want to lose more weight in case my fiancé notices. I don’t want to gain weight. I have proven I can’t eat maintenance without wanting to kill myself. I don’t know what to do. I feel tired all the time, I do over 10,000 steps a day whilst feeling like I’m about to drop dead. My hair is falling out. I can feel every bone in my body.

I don’t know what I can do. Alls I know is I never want to be fat again, I feel like everyone is going to try to make me fat over Christmas. Its my birthday on Friday, my fiancé’s mum is baking me a cake. Alls I can do is be angry that I haven’t been asked if I actually want a cake. I don’t want any of your fucking cake. 

Losing weight is all I have ever succeeded at in life. Thin is success.",1.8210937287135,3.3376170900277025,3.3429630806957,92.17651809636259,77.54570637119113,6.008664456655012,22.22387720811952,6.636973602784848,0.3638378093637886,2657,75,597,23,61,876,290,722,0.129,0.758,0.114,-0.9285,1,0,0,0,0,2,72.0,1,2,1,14,28,23,4,1,35,0,70,56,12,4,10,98,131,34,4,22,17,1,18,3,0,6,10,0,1,2,12,26,42,4,19,1,0,9,18,11,0,4,39,22,97,12,88,82,18,100,0,6,3,2,20,43,1,8,44,376,109,3,0.0,0.0,0.04315616590815554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036797843603187316,0.0,0.0,0.030073781660544963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873732847304879,0.04134339480159308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046410274958409034,0.0,0.0,0.09824560965689286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046783042789440135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03530920106759182,0.0,0.0,0.17112461656158193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179489245694204,0.0,0.10136888591068173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977732100903788,0.0,0.0,0.07833853237811741,0.13708539146084914,0.0,0.05841896328939624,0.04000306691888343,0.1117816782421344,0.04225785011297733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180471201630147,0.09478073045914692,0.08492379562456588,0.0968902839987869,0.040419861101689165,0.0,0.10695147763895456,0.048489244936277716,0.0,0.04088430082396848,0.02310517258521037,0.0848472263346737,0.0754004175210078,0.0,0.035369908235796964,0.048757027207091165,0.0487176330123444,0.0,0.0,0.047077184488094725,0.0,0.043661964651433904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029642360939829707,0.0,0.0,0.04392433043971721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04776942176023652,0.0,0.0,0.03930825148428339,0.04892721444157214,0.0,0.09721723807654756,0.03604839675781719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370998627990024,0.06481671947330128,0.0443239852287818,0.03905053100546408,0.0,0.0,0.19790101484695166,0.04827563207529119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807923828089542,0.0,0.08885774217089316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03529911050405446,0.0,0.0,0.032791475838485684,0.03410821292056505,0.042711736884533884,0.0,0.0,0.04333005133546749,0.1273021300249434,0.1510476758810719,0.04640556409344904,0.0,0.1198690891012873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03861462057998782,0.0462045831389142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04235429011650901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044457253674840116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048147606299264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04425585733526809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260383546983009,0.047136813846977474,0.07063455823792211,0.07394635358459134,0.05065835019794737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336104123683265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029380406947099324,0.0283369018356293,0.0,0.10532655631158004,0.02578732301209408,0.05082888969102752,0.08383820915252764,0.04225785011297733,0.0,0.12010055321630245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347597209117482,0.1053086661771303,0.17736880278280384,0.43082255819665416,0.0,0.08199203259514737,0.03990520862238901,0.04937442662662662,0.0,0.042630280118778265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424621037918238,0.0,0.0,0.08543626236898794
EDAnonymous,hanuszka,2018/12/11,"I had a panic attack, broke down and told my mom (almost) everything I just had a panic attack and felt like I was about to faint, my heart was pounding and aching so I instinctively run to my mum, laid down and told her that I've been starving myself. I spared her some details I'm going to tell only my therapist. My mum told me she loves and cares about me, she even said she would take me to a hospital but I didn't want to. She made me sandwiches, hot cocoa and gave me vitamins and I ate everything since it was a first full meal I had since a while..all of this was so scary, I thought I was dying..i want to get better if not for me then for my mom, that's why I'm saying goodbye to you guys at least for now, I wish you all the best and I hope you'll choose to get better too, love you, bye",1.9947132058692745,2.9122224508670516,3.5826589595375715,93.0791373943975,75.9364161849711,6.941574032903514,20.244108492663408,7.321109707123232,0.21628892841262806,616,12,149,7,13,205,98,173,0.12300000000000001,0.6990000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.9447,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,0,4,8,13,2,2,6,0,12,8,1,1,1,24,34,13,0,6,4,4,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,4,8,3,0,3,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,19,4,35,8,17,13,5,9,0,1,0,2,25,4,0,4,5,97,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223429317097446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004639029551588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858387506205194,0.23358433748915866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463916468148754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722127068852233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373655514269781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679378319970114,0.0,0.0,0.11232615846159144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379868726787525,0.0,0.07505006201552071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307554944356068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564861492444615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116069506800285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451554216869608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383701020534291,0.12495390418760775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30932310891292664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043399532956128,0.0,0.3098768494760295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256148169513268,0.105015663411489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21847499372189788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928914027991556,0.0,0.11542214017717248,0.0,0.0,0.15332636472916114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483714603918363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785534534558933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577925774981435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915935535840352,0.0,0.151857061300363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380828603123774,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StarfishEyes,2018/12/11,"My period has cured me temporarily and it's so relieving I started my period yesterday, and ever since then, I have been eating when I am hungry without issue. I even ate cake for lunch, then had a salad, then had vietnamese food later that night! And I are all my breakfast this morning and wasn't even disgusted when I was full! I wish I could live like this all the time. It's like all the anxiety around eating has been lifted.

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I think how exhausted I am from my period is helping too. Do I really need to be this tired to eat? How do I keep this up? Anyone else experience this?",3.1104237288135583,4.962057161016952,4.812000000000001,81.58003389830509,74.84745762711864,8.448813559322032,23.664406779661018,9.120678840339163,1.9188074576271184,467,14,91,11,10,158,76,118,0.064,0.7909999999999999,0.145,0.8579,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,10,5,1,0,3,0,17,10,0,2,4,17,23,12,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,5,8,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,0,17,3,7,14,4,17,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,16,72,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185283108538572,0.2077889653295072,0.0,0.0,0.13081783622053775,0.0,0.0,0.11957019611714136,0.17521413349904988,0.0,0.15223009921601974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365330342290635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249403298190104,0.1428521659970276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258934802616742,0.15468319700715144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672750374513734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067791017046116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462059062397388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848408105332092,0.0,0.15199649618564234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670881453160638,0.0,0.15099994690408794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679753598805585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047596953171214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954974577236247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141456540051535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103773736922918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957266296859483,0.0,0.0,0.09971399377590864,0.1965443093069584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664652789771547,0.1648420615212942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077889653295072,0.0
EDAnonymous,PMmeyournavel,2018/12/11,"With the loss of /r/ProED... Went my weight loss as well lmao.

Back up to 160, up from 140 a few months ago (M, 6' 1"", 24).

Been eating like shit for the past month, and went to the doctor today only to find out I've gained like 20 fucking pounds in 6 months.

Back to the grind, and I'm hoping this new sub will help motivate me!

Hope everyone here is doing well!",2.9079220779220765,3.0483268051948045,3.9017142857142884,94.51828571428571,73.15584415584415,7.19896103896104,19.29610389610389,6.742157984588678,-0.1799901298701303,272,3,68,2,5,88,61,77,0.087,0.624,0.289,0.9523,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,5,10,2,0,5,0,4,5,1,1,0,8,10,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,3,1,2,6,13,6,1,15,0,2,0,1,1,4,2,2,11,33,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803813409515827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741789994685489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248137303049644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18242918509864325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035813708424552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294847513724062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482081567666454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195001017559434,0.0,0.0,0.3541527591383578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17420125178891901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269141016491211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218793449804748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13559312314871322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019238601512182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18300610889614166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16899251960901115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710205391433213,0.32059770794776976,0.3305423700286752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,warmcorgi53,2018/12/11,"I’m so wasteful I just walked all the way to my college dining hall, bought this yummy looking flatbread just so I could throw the entire thing out in the trash because I didn’t trust the amount of calories it had posted.. ",8.62409090909091,6.6409895909090935,7.471818181818183,80.67772727272728,62.18181818181819,8.8,35.63636363636364,3.1291,2.045218181818182,178,6,34,0,2,54,36,44,0.0,0.835,0.165,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,4,2,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167871130941861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41491565569486827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4363934392772309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4977019452108652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452468604345342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41249129552750186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkherecuzimsad,2018/12/11,"I had a dream I went through the Panda Express line 3 times in a row...and ate it all Three double entrees. Orange chicken, honey walnut shrimp, and chow mein.  I could NOT STOP stuffing my face and kept going back through the line for more, crying at how fat I was.

I woke up mortified before I realized it was just a dream. Hallelujah ",3.795909090909092,5.209873439393941,4.576181818181818,85.76427272727273,72.18181818181819,7.098181818181819,26.83636363636364,7.554174236665415,1.4534036363636362,261,9,51,3,5,84,51,66,0.053,0.7829999999999999,0.163,0.7216,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,4,4,2,1,1,10,9,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,7,1,7,0,6,1,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331490105925903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668352511465443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.344199118504615,0.0,0.4735442729869103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450046679138947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604197907469508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513784957174597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996350029221459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeecalories,2018/12/11,"What do you wish you could tell your early ED self? If you could tell your early ED self one thing, what would it be? For me, it would be this: ""You will not stop at your UGW.""  
I had it in my mind that once I was skinny, I would be able to stop. I had a BMI of 26.3, and first I just wanted to be in a normal weight range, which progressed into wanting to be right at an underweight range, but now nothing is enough. I didn't ever plan for it to become unhealthy, and I didn't think that starving myself *was* unhealthy if I was overweight. I thought it was something I could snap out of when I was at a certain BMI or until my body looked a certain way. Each time I would reach my ""UGW"", I would only lower it to a new goal.  My BMI is right at 17 and yet it isn't enough. It will never be enough. 

Maybe this post could help deter anyone who might visit this sub early on in their ED and possibly persuade them to seek help. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I began but I thought I did, and now it is something that will always be a part of me. What would you tell your early ED self or someone who is in the early stages of an ED? ",4.199102040816328,3.5799603183673483,5.009693877551023,90.31494897959186,70.3061224489796,7.3265306122448965,24.8469387755102,5.288315135182226,0.4123877551020407,878,18,206,2,14,286,113,245,0.07400000000000001,0.836,0.08900000000000001,-0.3191,1,0,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,9,2,4,7,2,0,0,9,0,39,4,2,0,4,43,48,14,0,16,8,0,1,0,0,10,1,2,0,3,23,9,3,2,4,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,15,4,37,2,25,12,5,37,0,0,1,0,22,14,0,5,19,161,60,1,0.10297352680163764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856822233362049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200148419345846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372617013328752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438037455670867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32886392847588697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191975392346678,0.0,0.0,0.09314545033774847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758922929342244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05379941767827063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380419688527017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624457777828813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647182796794416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345074825495916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923863916503213,0.1039739076168744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941953198598707,0.09945247385368164,0.0,0.0,0.1008921929157059,0.098805876177547,0.0,0.0,0.1096634453513875,0.06977752673660972,0.07831600729747618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115102948292412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608717941213605,0.09862017416408624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587765850161402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222715384374891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724913509730277,0.15854810352649176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218095851095294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27001020349964544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06841103562742201,0.06598127808571372,0.0,0.16349895605187909,0.06004469156920163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147290811937847,0.08173559255199739,0.0,0.12539401441475873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841447392337318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388966339103961,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,randomjee,2018/12/11,Trust issues with the scale now Made the mistake of moving the scale to a different spot on the floor and weighed myself again. 4 lbs more..... and now I want to die. Why is this so triggering? I don’t know what to believe anymore. This day is ruined and I have no appetite and fuck this bullshit.,1.8476836158192107,4.1117731186440665,2.645,93.613488700565,80.52542372881356,5.289265536723164,23.39265536723164,6.42735559955562,0.5233706214689269,230,8,48,2,6,72,44,59,0.28300000000000003,0.65,0.066,-0.9432,1,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,5,0,4,2,0,2,0,10,8,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,6,7,1,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,4,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094526299833089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35155404244409405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123530191589825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238407179938818,0.3260077979901245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884692378657616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325681109385011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714850322138506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29525292093579497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33164141856147583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404499311516606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815610120798785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ZerOxCalx,2018/12/11,"I'm getting so nervous about living on my own. I currently live with family, and since they know about my ED i feel i need to eat, (about 900 - 1000 calories), so because i do eat when I feel I need to, everyone in my life is more relaxed about it like they'd push me when they feel they should but generally let me do what I want, i get away with fasting twice sometimes three times a week, using the regular unwell, not hungry or forgot excuses. So i feel like when I finally get my own place I'll be able to eat when and as much as I like, I'm more worried about when other people see my eating habits, the weird safe foods, how little I can let myself eat and with losing weight faster that they'll change attitudes and push more for recovery and make me eat when I'm just not ready. ",12.650555555555556,5.607664919753084,11.6139012345679,69.50455555555557,60.2962962962963,15.182222222222226,42.276543209876536,10.793553405168565,4.193452839506172,615,16,134,9,5,200,95,162,0.08199999999999999,0.82,0.098,0.376,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,5,1,18,8,0,1,3,0,10,9,0,3,0,28,28,19,0,4,5,0,5,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,8,8,2,5,1,0,2,2,3,0,2,1,6,26,5,17,21,6,19,0,1,1,0,6,5,0,1,15,86,30,0,0.11415243913387095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724997423478387,0.0,0.0,0.06958626737137394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207581445303624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7008386605297289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907754748772244,0.0,0.0,0.10761276030849792,0.0,0.2308756124924409,0.08155052532597325,0.0,0.12504841734401204,0.0,0.0,0.13803358251609846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789198139378136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627351952037859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334572061575146,0.08062924364894575,0.1673073470951661,0.114410732933922,0.20159739024968465,0.0,0.0,0.12770738032770645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619763953007573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391517731138286,0.1692851743949222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913892816291332,0.0,0.11926500278672698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096471462357823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944280772702954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289968117370905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656320524855848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859105614787632,0.0,0.0,0.06733006618887179,0.0,0.0915662011042078,0.1390069180189023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592734303170353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiatrbl,2018/12/11,"Self-Initiated Recovery Valid? After hitting my lowest / goal weight the other day I bit the bullet and decided to open up to my dad about my eating disorder. 

I told him I needed help. I booked in to see my doctor. I called a therapist to organise sessions. I did it all. But he insisted I didn’t have a problem in the first place. He told me it was all in my head, all in my control and my own “stupid fault”

And today I was officially diagnosed for the first time in my life. 

I thought maybe the fact that a professional told me that my eating disorder was valid, took bloods and insisted I get proper help from a treatment centre would encourage my Dad to treat this a little more seriously - nope. 

He said it was a nice metaphor (??)

Anyway, all this in the span of a few days, eating 3 “normal” meals for the first time in months, I feel so invalid. 

I feel as if I’m pretending I’m sick to get attention. I feel like me wanting recovery is proof that I’m normal in the first place, because according to my dad, actually sick people “don’t know they have a problem” and are “hooked up to machines in hospital”

I’m so lost and afraid and almost about to give up attempting recovery as a whole - opinions,

TL;DR - recognising an eating disorder alone and taking actions solo means you don’t have a problem?

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EDAnonymous,j4ckson,2018/12/11,I just ate a foot long subway and then realised it was 1000 calories Pray for me,4.801764705882351,4.594677411764707,4.92235294117647,90.05058823529413,69.0,6.8000000000000025,28.764705882352942,3.1291,0.8003411764705879,64,2,14,0,1,20,17,17,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EnyFey,2018/12/11,"I'm afraid to SOUND fat Guys, I'm having a really bad ED-flare-up right now... I'm extremely self-conscious about the space I occupy and, what is even worse,  the SOUNDS I make!

Like, I'm scared I might SOUND like a fat person? I don't want others to hear my steps, or breating, or drinking / swallowing, any body-function actually. It's driving me crazy, I can't sleep unless I leave the TV on or music because I hear myself breathing.

I constantly worry that people might hear me and think it's disgusting.  I know it's probably stupid but my brain won't stop freaking out about it. 

Are you ever repulsed by someone's breathing? Or am I making this up?",2.933095072866063,4.695559603053436,4.2774462179042345,85.60681471200556,75.10687022900763,7.206384455239418,24.88619014573213,8.00094639256281,1.434902290076335,512,17,102,8,11,169,88,131,0.172,0.746,0.08199999999999999,-0.8685,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,0,5,8,2,2,5,0,9,8,6,2,1,18,21,8,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,3,2,6,0,2,8,3,4,1,2,2,0,2,3,6,0,0,0,6,16,2,9,18,0,11,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,6,6,57,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.15612410122677128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10879655394399727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335823490797184,0.0975265075657497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859825145172845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17288896399174036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672621943143916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056698150336977,0.14471727822894512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15841214880934387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5409504708539306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792459663094021,0.0,0.0,0.16940298907119106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563230013493016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135849485491801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339441561129918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091474751813947,0.13969435897279514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724928990520306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249168200290187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366279080048555,0.0,0.0,0.16017476115239934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690119135973694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010240495398648,0.0,0.13555635099006166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13375618233743108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251312269153223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436439771265434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247442669858878,0.16304028283682845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punkmermaid,2018/12/11,"Which BMI calculator do you use? Hi guys! First post in the new community. 
So, as far as BMI calculators, I’ve been using the first one that pops up on google, the NHLBI one, but it doesn’t take age or sex into consideration. 
I don’t feel it’s accurate anymore. 
I’d seen one that gave you weight ranges predictions with your BMI but can’t find it anywhere anymore. 
So, which ones do you use? ",2.516274864376129,4.427085835443037,3.8975045207956636,87.22050632911396,76.72151898734177,7.552260397830018,22.678119349005428,8.418075326091056,1.1445030741410491,307,9,68,6,7,101,55,79,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,3,0,11,13,7,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,3,4,5,0,7,10,0,10,0,0,1,1,7,5,0,1,4,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827243112952889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756519378478984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763598112289582,0.3282593846783043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19105842634784084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18635971645886068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5230124337366102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18480010584133102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508015114158634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4999604104394311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23497045439365555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deadgirlaesthetic,2018/12/11,why the fuck do i eat thats all,-4.370000000000001,-3.408676888888889,-0.27999999999999936,113.10000000000002,95.66666666666669,3.6,9.0,3.1291,-2.6402,24,0,9,0,1,9,9,9,0.368,0.632,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6209002759174838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5609699449967386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5475359058326208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isthischick4real,2018/12/11,bella hadid someone posted here before about how bella hadid is losing weight and how she really has a problem and I saw this clip tonight and thought of that : [https://www.instagram.com/p/BrDToCHAfQs/](https://www.instagram.com/p/BrDToCHAfQs/),18.37838709677419,22.311260548387093,10.248548387096774,49.19282258064519,40.29032258064517,8.780645161290323,31.62903225806452,8.841846274778883,2.9472451612903217,211,5,20,2,2,52,26,31,0.171,0.8290000000000001,0.0,-0.6786,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,7,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3204790248296033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4213455781348559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607013914392119,0.0,0.0,0.3603780120082381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24127478304082076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191120346137596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989971445834637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4586261975394386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stella-p96,2018/12/11,"3 days of binging - how do I stop? I tell myself I'll eat right each morning.  And yet, I'm now on my third day of 20+ pizza rolls after dinner.

Help?  What do you do to make yourself stop?",-2.11785714285714,-0.2880584999999982,0.9066666666666664,101.03000000000004,98.28571428571428,2.8000000000000003,14.142857142857142,3.1291,-1.5031714285714282,141,3,35,0,6,49,35,42,0.122,0.812,0.066,-0.3049,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,6,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,5,5,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590566475109854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641781468482263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23855462371397496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375683596332798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30393965684680524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5951025490243583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110753588450241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WhatsAMooseSay,2018/12/11,"Chest Pains Anyone want to share their experiences with Energency Room/ Chest pains?

Trying to tell myself I'm fine, its not an issue. Too anxious to go in. What if its nothing, and then I've just admitted I've relapsed for no reason? 

Just talk to me about your experiences?",3.6063461538461534,6.117483865384616,4.577538461538462,80.76746153846155,75.73076923076924,7.236923076923077,23.861538461538462,8.238735603445708,1.582918461538462,219,7,40,4,5,71,41,52,0.17800000000000002,0.706,0.115,-0.6848,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,9,4,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,8,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28483674026020384,0.0,0.17629615245906605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4932658214632749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432920973708556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631596985428182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419268992239885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5365712187307476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592330940231566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20265368626162705,0.22037397578165333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118068505027698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487136450682061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,irresistiblecodfish,2018/12/11,"Punishing yourself when you're upset with someone else. Anyone else do this? I'm currently on the verge of breaking up with my bf and I've never been so motivated to lose weight. I've lost 1.5kg in just a couple of days because I've been too upset to eat and even when I do feel hungry I feel like I don't deserve anything. I've already deleted almost all of my social media because I just want to remove every trace of my existence. I was trying to control this relapse but fuck it, anorexia can have me back. I'm done with caring about anything and anyone beyond this disorder.",4.561474358974358,5.494517572649574,5.847083333333334,79.19062500000005,69.85470085470085,7.559401709401709,30.009615384615394,7.645422480735847,2.0449153846153854,464,18,84,5,8,156,78,117,0.155,0.764,0.081,-0.8332,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,10,8,2,2,2,0,9,3,0,2,2,17,17,7,0,1,3,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,1,3,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,5,3,9,2,16,12,1,13,0,2,0,1,2,5,1,1,7,54,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798239124143107,0.0,0.198171527480658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511336969904988,0.18400142568761385,0.2955588709373453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808630584570902,0.0,0.21894119008935484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309426984961708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20141478064410198,0.0,0.1987023876998432,0.0,0.1158145545919907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058147905390415,0.0,0.0,0.1837731821366588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837556654415056,0.3000328989574267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861121472232802,0.0,0.15130430135981293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181602575016468,0.12829233224992365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601926192292402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773395256331208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090462449236154,0.1960333097173539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850353853336367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18305968633451586,0.15215795967022455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12192335933146325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592122107594776,0.0,0.0,0.21868064785891775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CallMeDaring,2019/01/02,Anyone else happy holidays are over and no one will judge you for not getting wasted and stuffed? I want to look good and feel good. Im having a good time don't need your damn guilt trip friends!,3.487916666666667,4.764572625000003,3.4750000000000014,93.89666666666668,72.75,6.333333333333334,23.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.35558333333333403,155,4,34,1,3,47,35,40,0.08,0.46399999999999997,0.456,0.96,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,7,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,2,3,5,3,8,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428887451008488,0.2700507025108963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201724656128249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332650080772885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036275639609358,0.0,0.13770041332185806,0.0,0.0,0.6631906082497091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805669482940581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28469249023230514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132593559078215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542809125275734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785966221729004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368528515136756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545586158084398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachelcoiling,2019/01/02,"Mirrors and cameras and weddings. My fiancé’s mirrored medicine cabinet is directly across from the shower. Every time I open the curtain I have to remember to avert my eyes. Even putting on make-up is hard now because I *have* to look in the mirror. Curl my hair? Mirror. 

I feel like a toddler at this point. I’m so shaken up by seeing myself in a mirror or in a photo that I’ve deleted every form of social media but Reddit. I can’t believe I’m behaving like this at 29. I can’t stand it. But I don’t want to see this body. I don’t even want to see my face because it’s attached to this body. 

It’s to the point where I’m desperately trying to convince him that we don’t need a wedding, because the thought of spending five hours with people photographing me and touching me is unthinkable. But it’s so important to him to have a wedding with all his family and friends. He loves me and he’s so kind but he doesn’t understand. And how fucking selfish would I be to deny him because of, what, my selfish dysmorphia? 

Guys, I really don’t want to do this. I cry almost every day working on the guest list and looking at dresses. I’m crying right now. I’ve devolved into a toddler. I’m so embarrassed. I just don’t want to be seen or touched at all. I know how selfish I sound. I’m so scared of something other people want so bad; I’m really sorry. I just needed to tell someone other than him. ",0.9614583333333327,3.2469877847222257,3.161666666666669,88.42500000000004,84.34722222222223,5.544444444444443,24.625,6.9077264865688965,1.1104249999999998,1094,45,219,14,32,372,141,288,0.16899999999999998,0.721,0.109,-0.9726,1,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,0,1,15,13,1,2,12,0,18,7,5,2,2,39,44,21,0,8,8,0,5,2,2,1,0,1,2,1,14,12,0,1,5,0,1,1,8,7,0,1,2,13,30,6,35,39,3,24,0,0,7,2,18,17,1,3,7,141,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547312541409953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628471762730664,0.2811842225215461,0.0,0.0,0.12992255305058384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561819540402418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25334019675475755,0.07436980103272815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523313277890854,0.0,0.2914781521329636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871042334852367,0.0,0.05830764284586652,0.08238235044864818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909347955858138,0.106608530510742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141817696868032,0.0,0.0,0.10330120915273873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356382676373665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008470977122702,0.06337510170638454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11267593471191495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193674150343655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407792120081133,0.0,0.0769748645767114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710119034428987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15989230941155091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802331388945756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592524243534184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774979971205515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063146343432314,0.09847992367918668,0.0,0.0,0.11545224166836884,0.0,0.2756776968128547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175509632426896,0.09770755693087163,0.08877651242227227,0.0,0.12908772507270766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079197270718243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154866428624864,0.06724215791195576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829254282129586,0.0,0.0,0.12004886366150498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34008420462839706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839520094082721,0.0,0.0,0.08191775157568994,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yourpsychedelicface,2019/01/02,"How many hours of fasting until you feel better? I am on vacation and I don’t mean to be ungrateful, I’m having a fun time, but I can’t wait to return home and fast/restrict because I feel more bloated and uncomfortable every day of three huge meals with family. After a traumatic event in July I have basically been overeating consistently and I look and feel so uncomfortable in my own skin, the scale says I have gained ~7 lbs since my LW in June. But I feel awful in my LW clothes and I feel like I’m unrecognizable. When I get home I want to fast for at least 24 hours , ideally 48, maybe more, just so the chipmunk-cheek feeling will go away, it’s hard to think about anything else. 

When you are stuck feeling this way how long of a fast makes you feel okay again? In the past just a day has made me feel so much better, physically and mentally, like things are starting to fall back into place. Is there anything else you can recommend to make the yucky jiggly-puffy feeling go away? :( ",3.486938775510204,5.2433133571428625,4.3589285714285735,85.62982142857145,73.59183673469387,7.553061224489795,25.005102040816325,8.278499904357787,1.4415673469387755,782,25,160,13,16,252,124,196,0.138,0.687,0.175,0.6411,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,4,0,4,13,7,0,0,8,2,14,2,1,5,0,33,39,17,0,2,4,0,12,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,9,1,1,12,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,14,19,7,25,34,5,37,0,0,1,0,5,13,0,0,22,96,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19867710448638376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268323293831635,0.09282275076921123,0.0,0.07358703455897471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352605977393835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15570299271169358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016845829274864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170799609285057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379980865399512,0.0,0.610373724481978,0.08623916114709758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06306885457375676,0.0,0.13721077534753487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813735677966747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421749326638381,0.0,0.2377608578396579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795096932901515,0.0,0.0,0.1068293987703245,0.10137059801373838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142239034575186,0.16115703701959516,0.12238654700111387,0.1212749222725057,0.13149454380143344,0.0,0.0,0.12165280859703223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873976556149482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523658238246068,0.0,0.0,0.1261219808630441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599779276229142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998570903126969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544303619557145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08019799922422995,0.07734960361586295,0.0,0.0,0.07039016561760275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120111617794246,0.09581832708653704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icecreamqueen69,2019/01/02,"Welp I only take lax the night before I have a day off from work so I can ~deal with it~ 

Guess who was -supposed- to have today off. 😬",-2.1020000000000003,-0.3485338666666635,0.12333333333333485,104.86500000000002,104.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,9.333333333333334,3.1291,-2.2734666666666667,104,1,26,0,5,34,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32466520510017965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24606383297883874,0.3933543388636753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42031290717405095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580524951524475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901808358185575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868730415392683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36165838980966203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777680313032454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,messystressy05,2019/01/02,"Upset with therapy So I just finished a session with my therapist, and this is the second session that I talked about my issues with eating (mostly restricting and the occasional purge). And I’m so pissed. 

She spent the entire hour taking about nutrition, suggesting that I go on the paleo diet, stressed the importance of eating whole food, and called refined sugar the enemy. 

I KNOW all this stuff!! Just because I know what proper nutrition is doesn’t mean that I will magically eat that way!!

Also who tells someone with disordered eating to go on a diet and stop eating refined sugar?? 

Now I’m off to buy vast quantities Diet Coke. Hope you’re having a better day than me.",5.861644444444442,7.469868160000002,6.6298666666666675,72.26737777777778,67.4,9.395555555555557,29.08888888888889,9.725611199111238,3.0265022222222213,540,19,86,12,9,178,81,125,0.154,0.7829999999999999,0.063,-0.9168,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,2,9,0,5,13,1,0,1,19,15,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,9,12,2,3,0,2,2,1,3,0,1,1,2,10,2,13,13,3,12,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,2,5,61,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136836364152764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665814792311456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572712696079846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515912944489576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168009728444727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629252910886071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7273152041898299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17189791986109973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158324272712188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119488950620873,0.1399969146228004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837593358546605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562525489962289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485164874655674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044994339713075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885038564324482,0.16284141584315193,0.0,0.16273680620103195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688506327082707,0.1142611503969047,0.1242522870165982,0.0,0.1625699694922299,0.1650563007088234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283833914731126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871423974343088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arcoalien,2019/01/02,"Poll Time: What does a binge look like to you? ​

Hi,

I hope I'm not breaking any rules with this. Reading through all of these posts and seeing several people talk about their binge eating made me wonder what others personally consider to be a ""binge"". I always thought binge eating was eating 5k-15k calories a day like they show in some bad talk shows, but apparently some people feel they've binged if they've eaten just over their personal daily budget of like 800 calories. And then there are some more extreme individuals who would consider eating anything no matter how small to be a binge... So I'm curious what you all think is your minimum. Check the link below to vote please.

[https://linkto.run/p/4Z9PEJZP](https://linkto.run/p/4Z9PEJZP)",7.620697674418602,10.11977715503876,5.814643410852714,76.35080232558141,64.27131782945736,8.26077519379845,27.62868217054264,8.841846274778883,2.2333528682170543,619,19,97,10,10,179,93,129,0.038,0.838,0.12300000000000001,0.8449,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,3,3,0,5,5,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,2,2,22,17,7,0,3,4,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,3,5,0,5,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,9,4,12,10,6,9,0,0,2,0,12,4,0,6,6,56,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371920757892085,0.161101928024093,0.1806705597760748,0.10111202373885378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235644772490754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12414714585714652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589059160888704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301166933297637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6085742688471818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518044004648222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767939703308547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21792236679889174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485934208448925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140690907575539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061612096613995,0.2596549031858475,0.0,0.1632132968705396,0.0,0.0,0.14240071421816508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14872689121477836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118484013106013,0.0,0.0,0.16797359760513733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390174014645138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527240449606293,0.0,0.11804059520810767,0.08670038394210708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16124433425117649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056227333243222,0.0,0.1806705597760748,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pinkatoki,2019/01/02,"Small victories Just wanted to share something that really made me happy and is a major step for me! Yesterday my boyfriend and I went to Whole Foods and got ingredients to make lamb curry. I'm still struggling with my disordered eating habits and as of late have been surviving off low cal drinks and water. But!! I had a **great** time. We laughed, we drank beer, we chopped, we trimmed, we seasoned, and ultimately made something so delicious and satisfying. For a moment I forgot all about calories and pesky macronutrients and enjoyed the moment with my best friend. I savored it like the delicious rice and naan we had. It was so much fun working together and putting love and effort into a dish. We pigged out then laid about all cuddly. It brought me such happiness and serenity that I've been longing for. And though Im sure the scale has went up, I'm okay with that. For once I finally feel okay. I hope everyone is having a good new year, mine is off to a wonderful start ❤️",4.034552139037434,6.161802679144388,4.491119652406418,83.68020889037436,73.01069518716578,8.311363636363637,28.265040106951872,9.017664075816787,2.400326470588236,779,31,148,17,16,246,121,187,0.037000000000000005,0.6659999999999999,0.297,0.9956,0,0,4,0,0,0,25.0,7,0,0,4,8,18,0,1,9,2,11,8,0,3,3,39,28,20,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,26,7,1,2,2,0,5,0,2,0,0,13,2,20,16,20,15,6,25,0,1,0,1,10,7,0,2,14,93,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965460415860408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435804214230607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490328018351798,0.0,0.1556704354192656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453699711632197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692321175009584,0.0,0.0,0.1666546896404268,0.0,0.0,0.1839602958819708,0.0,0.11753787769733913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760226740461048,0.12167496752761955,0.16772759665126705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32389763952417644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110278048490958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433016457779276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161308741504305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432468851378929,0.0,0.0,0.13463326046217666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730632178363475,0.28790457911805595,0.10155021740325897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183554440738837,0.0,0.0,0.14693137352316324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201709245028728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529360738283927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09746054354596816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23423942832144776,0.0,0.0,0.10768079460532393,0.0,0.12149391967079945,0.0,0.0,0.15904284817678244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338391716966278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494702806656709,0.0,0.08871020159857887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973221350980283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820583484986611,0.0,0.16985149399990418,0.0,0.0,0.16498216902478546,0.11075491790380884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979689135759648
EDAnonymous,yikesmonster505,2019/01/02,"people think my body is beautiful now that I’m skinny Between September and December I’ve lost 20 pounds through constantly restricting and fasting, and never in my life have I’ve gotten this many compliments on my body or told I was pretty. Lately I’ve been seeing family for Christmas and friends who are on break for college and my body is always a topic now. It’s validating, but it’s kind of making me feel crazy? How fat was I before if people Im not even close to can notice I’m skinnier? :( It’s hard to tell myself I don’t need this to feel good, when it is making me feel good. The whole “nobody cares if you’re stomach isn’t perfectly flat :D” body posi mindset I used to have is completely being conflicted by the fact other people see my body as beautiful now. My mom proudly mentions to family members over Christmas that I lost the weight “when I got the flu.”  My boyfriend always tells me my little portions of food that I know aren’t enough or good for me  are “cute” and he tells me he loves my “perfect body”. This is all so confusing :(",4.275428571428569,5.437227114285713,5.210000000000001,82.64500000000002,70.71428571428571,8.266666666666667,27.333333333333336,8.648137234880735,1.9625619047619047,834,28,162,14,15,273,123,210,0.1,0.6559999999999999,0.244,0.9914,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,8,15,0,1,5,0,17,14,9,4,5,31,37,16,0,3,6,1,5,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,12,7,4,2,5,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,8,7,22,12,18,28,4,16,0,2,2,1,11,6,0,5,9,98,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200615479576205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283776047163989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6488040556553144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925490965651074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206972219792404,0.10520086818608164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058867121278954,0.0,0.06429881946159817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354601081554967,0.0,0.14766939886857638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771612101008523,0.0,0.07521244172800111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449579222344768,0.07785976388388276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720656340202468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515480770621294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013751430614363,0.05350106615785978,0.0,0.10981514716645673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876125091677596,0.0,0.09757036974195303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21253825651282052,0.0,0.08786226132677218,0.0,0.12996388838287434,0.09869771639003372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114015254411501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218386174959253,0.07508239452565706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083372812190843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024708945697499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904004436670827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15515084313671512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25526482111088666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237800990079805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302218739450988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407922539184966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854618915540854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868790423268744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,innocentkitty,2019/01/02,"psyllium husk and energy drinks?? so psyllium husk is fibre which you're supposed to take whilst drinking a lot of water (as it bulks) but does it have to be water or can it be any liquid?

basically can i take psyllium in my protein shake and then chug monster to make it work because i hate water and i'm so bad at drinking large quantities of it lmao",2.1497384305834966,4.387470211267605,4.154446680080483,83.34281690140848,79.28169014084506,7.437424547283702,25.635814889336014,8.418075326091056,1.9784913480885304,279,11,54,6,7,95,50,71,0.17,0.746,0.084,-0.8392,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,1,1,0,6,6,0,1,0,7,11,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,8,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,33,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707128171866243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960424122940696,0.15302897245708535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968294630024787,0.0,0.0,0.737757956743433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478456841138755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134214910135074,0.0,0.0,0.167568213117574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37749506065735816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275690748574655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bugkid,2019/01/02,The only thing keeping me going I’m American and will be living in Scandinavia for a few months this time next year. I do NOT want to be known as the Fat American my whole time there. The thought of it just makes me want to hide. I hate how my entire life is controlled by my ED. I know I won’t be able to enjoy my time there. Spiraling!!! ,0.20916666666666828,2.3078449166666672,2.1783333333333346,95.47500000000002,85.94444444444444,5.822222222222222,18.72222222222221,7.1686216300943375,0.19535555555555506,262,7,61,4,8,87,53,72,0.121,0.8340000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.5454,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,4,0,7,2,1,3,0,12,16,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,10,1,8,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,40,13,0,0.2507606515781169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281249393355854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251305707332718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475742282953433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228875888785994,0.0,0.0,0.1378114961497472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771196640831231,0.0,0.0,0.2214262494915844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673846821167642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001547596934882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26668679777089466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19071477523288405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659423447846106,0.0,0.0,0.1990759471164343,0.4386616574968258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958102585704547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799653123078301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148163810539856
EDAnonymous,anonxrandom,2019/01/02,What things did you do that caused you to lose weight abnormally fast? I’m curious to know because I would like to use a few tips just to help myself not gain anymore weight because I’m extremely unhappy with myself right now.,9.159318181818184,7.309154477272727,8.544545454545457,72.9868181818182,61.04545454545455,12.436363636363636,37.90909090909091,11.20814326018867,4.0247636363636365,183,7,35,4,2,58,34,44,0.171,0.679,0.15,-0.2661,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,7,7,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26392715247930354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32445793284634306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733864403269006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837977725531232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625681561492762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001654406607427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297728806239972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22727158854985996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17680340839018596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22984887308409524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.648143649249793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904947156223872,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,darlingadoring,2019/01/02,"does anyone here have a ED tumblr? i don’t follow many active people. i’m darlingadoring on there too :)

i also have a semi popular poetry blog",0.3782142857142857,2.6451518214285765,4.2940000000000005,74.25100000000002,102.21428571428572,6.525714285714287,12.742857142857144,7.554174236665415,0.9588199999999998,113,2,18,3,5,42,24,28,0.0,0.7020000000000001,0.298,0.8176,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433522662313617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37905372307363694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4744013688193165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5496112718302434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37582864103741376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heartclub,2019/05/05,How do your crushes/SOs affect your ED? I find that it negatively impacts me and motivates me to restrict :/,3.5875000000000017,6.229834750000002,5.420000000000004,74.01500000000001,76.5,8.0,35.0,8.841846274778883,3.685500000000001,85,5,14,2,2,29,18,20,0.22699999999999998,0.773,0.0,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,12,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the_better_cheddar,2019/05/05,"Anyone else here going through relationship turmoil? My boyfriend (maybe ex idk) and I are going through an extremely hard rough patch at the moment and I’m not sure we’re going to make it. We broke up in early March (together for just over 2 years at that point), started talking again in early April and decided to work on things. I thought it was going really well and headed in the right direction. Then about a week ago, something bad and unexpected happened (unrelated to our relationship) and it sent him into a tailspin. He has diagnosed anxiety and depression and this event has sent him into a dark place. Now he is saying we should take a step back, give each other some space, and just limit contact while he works on this issue and sees his therapist.

I’ve been having a really hard time with it. I love him so much and want him to be okay more than anything. On the other hand, it really fucking hurts that I’m what he chose to push away, considering things between us had been going well and I just want to support him. We text maybe once every other day just to say “hi, I hope you have a nice day” and that’s it.

The only silver lining to this situation is that I have literally no appetite when I’m stressed or sad (always been this way, even pre-ED). I’m down nearly 8 pounds since all this happened. Anyone else here want to commiserate?",5.037912970004222,6.096038319391639,5.722021546261092,80.06251689902831,68.84790874524714,8.734178284748628,27.538867765103504,8.998388855275968,2.0937572454583866,1070,34,205,19,18,348,163,263,0.113,0.789,0.098,-0.6252,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,5,1,0,3,16,16,1,2,11,1,15,5,2,1,2,38,41,18,0,5,6,1,4,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,21,20,0,1,2,0,0,9,2,8,2,0,8,7,19,8,31,31,5,48,0,4,1,2,28,19,1,3,19,134,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667196865882037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074370819642703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342789077503482,0.0,0.0,0.15250962024464765,0.22348245490252489,0.08974417154440395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246213086608838,0.08385768344863773,0.0910575859443153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066478494358134,0.0,0.0939301662413366,0.11069000779768667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822053512899508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203076102823026,0.0,0.0918847682262242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082093678619224,0.0,0.10461689047348056,0.3098964873774312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287652875989605,0.0,0.19538632843037024,0.0,0.11192338722880983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831766847880983,0.0,0.0,0.1167471923169556,0.0,0.0,0.11382660690164495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842770990233264,0.0,0.07279603159741849,0.0,0.219123737616257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016904377531618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614156702883124,0.0,0.08294234949326422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394078563158025,0.0,0.1030936016201362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095930758858088,0.0,0.0,0.23417164223226397,0.0,0.09313361803601518,0.0,0.1734521429394732,0.0,0.0,0.08690387629887747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902126278326337,0.12258402647055225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395698828362197,0.0,0.0,0.07719072127040792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492380253708064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237559745376115,0.1027844196866233,0.0,0.08199688309679906,0.08765544880542664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266229516028688,0.14490452774623622,0.0,0.0,0.08657864479178973,0.06359169683447935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311814894858003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297297092018667,0.08656393906466787,0.08747851127601541,0.0,0.19610970321982527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878879847747948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022878247439203
EDAnonymous,kentang_rice,2019/05/05,"My disordered ass is so ready for Ramadhan It’s been awhile since I a. have a functional hunger cues b. participated fasting during Ramadhan.

In my country the muslims fast from 4.30am to 6pm. We’re not allowed food AND water during, but can consume food throughout the night. Back when I was living in Europe it was from 3.30am to 9.30-10pm and ya girl couldn’t do it.

I remember struggling with eating at 3am in the morning last time I fasted in my home country. But since I only eat on command (no hunger/full cues), I’m eating my sahoor in a breeze. I’m not even a muslim.",3.5702203065134057,5.068216577586206,4.7970114942528745,83.62691570881229,72.8793103448276,7.224521072796936,26.68199233716475,7.793537801064563,1.5609704980842911,457,16,89,6,9,151,82,116,0.071,0.91,0.018000000000000002,-0.6761,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,7,0,8,8,1,1,0,10,10,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,10,0,13,6,0,15,0,0,0,1,2,7,1,0,8,52,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804868081491146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22066350493544812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910387064292625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716853971831085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4656317903036172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931298039015544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694294170091844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001325335367184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806824586666956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643268119477953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181063171616242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185363581298632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128094971932328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11226957912440866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mina1200,2019/05/05,"Is my stomach made of i r o n ?! 🤪 Hmm let’s see

Breakfast: raw Oates (7-8 spoonfuls)
Lunch: nothing🤪🤪🤪
Dinner: 10 pieces of raw macaroni, and 8-10 spoonfuls of raw brown rice (and may or may not pick something out the trash bin if my flatmate through her food out gross I know..)

Repeat!",-0.7850409836065566,1.332134983606558,1.3116188524590164,99.239887295082,92.60655737704916,3.705737704918033,22.37909836065573,5.148860815047168,-0.10321475409836056,218,9,51,1,8,72,46,61,0.07,0.93,0.0,-0.5696,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,5,1,2,0,12,7,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,6,3,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,4,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5444401495053377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474438352856073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604078004302759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260343552580354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587883609671247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466219402506204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rawrtits,2019/05/05,"My partner is trying to lose weight and it’s taking all of my self-control to not obsess My partner has gained a bit of weight over the last few years and it’s come to the point where he’s feeling uncomfortable about his appearance. He’s been talking about dieting and trying to lose weight for a few weeks now and it’s driving me nuts. He’s not super well versed in nutrition/dieting so he’ll go on about his regimen, but he’ll be really wrong about some thing like calorie content or how much he’s eaten in a day and it takes all of my will power to not correct him and out myself in the process. 

I just hate the diet talk and feeling like my obsessive thoughts are about to be on display at any moment. I just wish I could be normal and supportive and nonjudgemental. I don’t want to project my ED on other people. I just feel like such a bad person.",3.5369580419580444,4.731378045454548,4.641136363636363,85.90141608391609,72.52272727272728,7.688111888111888,26.606643356643357,8.139509932561175,1.5632898601398604,680,23,141,10,13,223,104,176,0.147,0.725,0.127,-0.6858,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,5,14,13,1,2,8,0,10,6,0,1,3,33,26,13,0,4,8,0,6,3,2,3,0,0,0,3,6,11,6,0,4,0,0,4,4,7,1,0,3,6,16,6,25,16,7,21,0,2,0,0,14,11,0,3,9,94,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095106129491943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167730017988735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15268533136840107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047261485749225,0.0,0.0,0.15685916519644014,0.11166275950580233,0.0,0.0,0.0901948421699864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121445225383554,0.19982474050289264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948276401730928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380777619151161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400041167831547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049781229727472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129237246760017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280944520881408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702811038925505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695777998130564,0.12211590636041147,0.0,0.0,0.1322080879104623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959463169607904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458991644716013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870568593965725,0.0,0.0,0.21030696296341472,0.22482014595240135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291338279890192,0.0,0.0,0.11102917059758556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899045968872787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249004497797405,0.0,0.11218316682416564,0.5109167821458639,0.12574635319713784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082623576250588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290938103383492,0.0,0.09006197185185592
EDAnonymous,novosanova,2019/05/05,"Old habits die hard After almost 9 years of recovery I'm rapidly falling back to the worst habits, bp, restricting ect and it's so hard. I'm at my HW ever and feel so low. 

It was easy when I was younger, but now I have a family and it's impossible to let it go under the radar and unnoticed. 

I absolutely do not want to go back to my darkest place, but I cant help but want to be thinner, for confidence. It's stupid really but I always feel more worthy when lighter. 

Sorry for the rant, the forums I used to use are long gone and I need a place to vent 😟",1.486750000000001,2.852054175000003,3.84,88.905,78.08333333333334,7.466666666666668,22.0,8.238735603445708,0.9934000000000004,431,12,100,8,10,150,76,120,0.25,0.667,0.083,-0.9379,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,0,6,0,8,0,0,2,1,20,20,13,1,3,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,3,4,9,0,13,15,2,19,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,10,61,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229303611290696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978661153080626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953226257863769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929965162767133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370459483269346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810313636860704,0.0,0.19419503250147008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827324726978134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34404720701686475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871548842438849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19636647304593635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16994291967533912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14238983316055212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20150604265369532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012666533710167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230210816145274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149649149109138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33170923765051985,0.0,0.0,0.22653175449273025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366277956402733
EDAnonymous,offroadanorexic,2019/05/05,"Fitbit overestimating calories burned? I’ve taken 3,830 steps today. It says I’ve burned 1812 calories. I don’t think that’s correct. If that’s how much I’ve actually burned, hell yeah! If not, then I’m really confused.

I did get 37 minutes busy (ran up and down the stairs and paced around my house like crazy) so it’s possible I burned that much, but I’m not sure. 

Is this a reasonable calories burned estimation? Or is it wrong?",1.062490196078432,3.6799216705882363,2.44308823529412,90.1630637254902,91.11764705882356,5.656862745098039,20.024509803921568,7.1686216300943375,0.6607450980392153,342,11,70,6,12,110,58,85,0.14800000000000002,0.8109999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.8648,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,2,1,4,0,0,2,2,15,10,9,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,1,4,2,3,7,2,8,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,4,3,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2758703993802563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516592680895404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769692938888215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32619308989231605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811092738305986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156279982156446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186971287147191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18110221948516445,0.29065844743662617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22481111025283268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26643752120729003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18114010506009476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679626393532621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30908356629298045,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nomorebinge,2019/05/05,"My youth passed me by and I am still fat I always teeter around the higher end of normal BMI. I was 114 lbs once. I looked so beautiful. I was limber and energetic. I could run miles. I got compliments.

Now, I'm borderline overweight. Literally none of my clothes fit me. I work from home thankfully, so I don't have to face the humiliation of going in public every day. I start eating well and exercising. I daydream about showing up at work after losing all the excess weight. Getting compliments. But I don't do what I need to do to get there. I keep getting bigger and I see it in my coworkers eyes... That look that says.. Oh! She's getting big. I know that look. It causes me so much shame.

I will turn 38 in 3 months. I really want to be happy with my body when I do.",0.018181818181815856,2.37417075159236,2.5256658946149417,89.6654762594094,93.07643312101914,5.6570932252460935,17.964389114070638,7.1686216300943375,0.4539961783439486,596,17,126,11,22,204,105,157,0.077,0.757,0.166,0.9201,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,10,7,0,1,3,0,12,8,4,1,1,15,30,9,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,6,4,1,1,2,0,3,3,2,1,0,3,7,27,5,18,24,3,22,0,1,5,0,3,10,0,0,9,82,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687385931954574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643632568300102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18271798614003296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898271663193826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133668026113648,0.0,0.0,0.10608631919639802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832048654722556,0.0,0.0,0.14569464145303035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859498459751587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34376950737493583,0.0,0.09348687431883028,0.0,0.13156248763425868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510906335352902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16500291202182302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621161342430153,0.0,0.0,0.09040270614370724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41440566160193865,0.18402896075553435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129914723640382,0.0,0.12092349582774918,0.12197170842936055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117116575509793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751828839994635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053803573211064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081383097096086,0.0,0.0,0.13108202403529412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643112380937598,0.0,0.1313667275127801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15144582693057246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17892442462106598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702400970518717,0.0,0.0,0.2003118268905437,0.1479016697863199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23951011145896714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,A_Jay_Brownie,2019/05/05,"""Must leave beautiful corpse"" My s/o just came into the room from the bathroom, after weighing himself and calculating his BMI and said how far away he was from underweight, and we had a joking back and forth about how he barely has any fat on him. He then pretends to do crunches and says ""Must leave beautiful corpse"" with each pretend crunch. 

He explained it was a reference to a character in a show or something that I hadn't seen, but I'm just laying on the bed feeling so called out. Like, I've definitely had that thought before, especially while exercising during a water fast. 

I thought you guys would appreciate the humour.",10.527203389830511,8.109266805084747,9.714000000000002,67.45218644067798,58.91525423728814,12.829830508474581,41.396610169491524,11.20814326018867,4.524903050847458,505,21,90,10,5,161,87,118,0.07400000000000001,0.742,0.184,0.9493,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,9,0,10,4,1,2,2,25,18,12,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,3,2,2,2,1,3,11,3,0,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,10,4,8,3,13,5,1,14,0,0,1,0,14,8,0,1,6,59,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934134112660956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339613845393996,0.1914801064361172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118966801071312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542760636610109,0.2848111979539512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259114007730797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465677887548792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5273499632155333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165802012007612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23687392858118586,0.19802976558472105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170685847111768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953862648729297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689582952858934,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BRMTS,2019/05/05,"Thanks to this sub my eyes have been opened I hadn't realised how differently girls are treated in regards to weight. As a boy no-one has ever made any comments on my body, besides the times when i starter going to the gym and built muscle. It also made me more cautious about making comments seeing as using the wrong words at the wrong time can have a hell of an impact. Stay strong!",5.133947368421055,5.926801342105263,4.932736842105263,86.77015789473684,68.47368421052633,6.606315789473682,27.042105263157893,5.6839178017228535,0.8753873684210531,306,9,60,1,5,94,63,76,0.154,0.7709999999999999,0.075,-0.7639,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,7,0,7,3,2,5,1,9,14,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,3,5,3,10,10,1,11,1,0,2,0,4,4,1,0,5,37,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807044000854504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366417930894327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509965515650363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360856851490632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20439858602802566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842130961665227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276277350488459,0.15083361853743468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800651194776686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408489858971388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080385248957196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26352441285604905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951615016675413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27516490767738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4941152514716369,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,devourpizza,2019/04/20,"unsure what to do so I was feeling extremely insecure and doubtful of the number on the scales so in desperation I posted on another ED forum (not myproana, it's more support-based like this forum, maybe a bit more disordered??) one of those 'guess my BMI'  things. but someone privately messaged me, saying they couldn't post on the thread itself, and called me 'thinspo' saying they were jealous and it kind of sounded a bit like they were asking for advice, whether I fasted or exercised a bunch and stuff like that. I was a little uncomfortable, but responded saying I did neither of those things (which is true) trying not to give advice or sound at all disordered or anything. My BMI is supposedly 14.8, which I know isn't healthy, I just don't see it and really wanted some kind of validation, I guess. But I now have this horrible image of some 13 year old (or anyone really) taking extreme measures to try and reach that sort of number. I'm an adult, and I feel really irresponsible having done this. I'm probably going to delete the pictures I put up, and maybe my reply? Should I send another message or something making sure I don't encourage it or anything. Was this a really awful thing to do?",7.843531571218798,7.37192879735683,8.213931718061676,69.86542033773864,62.78854625550661,11.26710719530103,34.775697503671076,10.686352973137794,3.757998825256976,955,36,165,21,12,316,131,227,0.154,0.772,0.073,-0.9719,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,3,0,4,11,1,2,10,1,18,1,0,1,3,37,32,20,0,3,13,0,2,3,0,1,1,5,0,1,20,8,0,0,3,1,0,3,7,3,0,1,7,8,21,8,19,23,9,16,0,0,1,0,15,7,0,12,7,120,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241345276853172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405110299811589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018928023773128,0.0,0.1887492870320697,0.0,0.1072134717216284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504090790262113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710454520229002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628741600730637,0.0,0.0,0.11736090679295574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159747174863604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001474050385213,0.06517720319841794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526733275958457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23885016801252695,0.06302698203301099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808550806456107,0.11494286716708516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655204135445348,0.0,0.2304297233743299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034090711553032,0.0,0.07771242090987537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21966993796653614,0.0,0.12364807193836605,0.0,0.0,0.11528846464018645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938764190068208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736024614518685,0.0,0.0,0.09138779939386006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717084895109612,0.08828886270376192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131285023206752,0.0,0.13014133150906387,0.10808772090706822,0.0,0.08622762323743273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285716094077057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572496317491327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764322416121807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385233153895203
EDAnonymous,fabscarbs,2019/04/20,"Easter! For all of those who celebrate, how are you guys going to deal with the copious amounts of food (AND CHOCOLATE) waiting for you on the table tomorrow? There’s going to be so much good food, so I will just try to shut up the dumbass that’s living in my brain and ENJOY the freaking food for one! single! day!
Is this going to affect me? Probably 
Should I care? Absolutely not
Will I panic at the first sight of bread? We’ll see...",1.7560919540229882,4.0495864482758614,3.506436781609196,87.1405747126437,81.06896551724137,6.625287356321839,21.160919540229887,7.793537801064563,1.0106919540229882,339,10,68,6,9,113,65,87,0.064,0.7440000000000001,0.192,0.9288,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,2,0,1,5,5,0,1,5,0,7,5,1,2,1,10,13,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,3,4,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,2,8,3,15,8,4,11,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,0,3,51,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21228728384152631,0.0,0.0,0.19388612194612134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264083891430097,0.19605199807226475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175444424914753,0.6898456390370195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32422584120516224,0.15950156939803956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829347165990876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791937871202428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979332193918428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886087877939495,0.0,0.0,0.2231179195441424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050302773070726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153706449661486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910970580803402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luxiocharms,2019/04/20,"Recovery is hard. I’m trying to recover from EDNOS, it’s been almost a year, but I still can’t weight myself. I can’t stop comparing myself to other people, and I still feel fat in my prom dress. I feel guilty eating 3 meals, and recently I had to work through a meal and genuinely forgot how great it felt to be extremely hungry. 

Now that summer is coming, I’m seeing bikini pics posted from girls I’ve seen eat normal amounts of food and can’t help but be so jealous.",4.772187500000001,5.073165177083336,6.0145833333333325,80.43875,69.10416666666666,8.9,25.375,8.841846274778883,1.7389499999999996,371,9,73,6,6,125,69,96,0.134,0.772,0.095,-0.4213,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,1,0,2,0,9,7,1,1,0,15,18,8,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,7,2,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,7,8,1,9,11,1,10,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,7,43,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21391219649025967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184016971934656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371785429910779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160280309136924,0.0,0.20511121597246404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583133203979413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355196930165497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913639080151192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431867394043888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093048115008216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809902730817065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20459141948513407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109265659049227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022957055198676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34119860101182553,0.1785980759446636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14503573661535427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26013480123620863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555198117994447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756596356978693
EDAnonymous,youcanbeastarr,2019/04/20,"ooo wee in 6 days i gained 8 pounds tw:numbers my binge eating the past two weeks has been so fucking bad. i went from 136 on april 14 to 144 right now and i want to fuckung scream. i don't know how much of it is water weight because on Sunday i weighed 150 then 140.8 on Thursday but binge ate on friday and i'm just so fucking confused and don't know what is water weight or actual weight gain and i could  find out if i fucking stopped binging :))))

on top of that i realised my scale puts me at 1.2 pounds lighter than i actually am so a couple months ago when i thought i was 135 i was actually pushing  128-133 and my stupid fucking body dysmorphia made me think i was hugeeee.

But um can someone tell me if its possible to gain 8 pounds in 6 days??????",3.9983544303797487,4.208560481012661,4.687189873417727,89.5992658227848,70.77215189873421,7.5858227848101265,29.7240506329114,7.1686216300943375,1.41176,588,22,134,5,10,189,105,158,0.105,0.8029999999999999,0.091,-0.4926,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,8,8,5,1,2,0,12,13,1,2,0,23,25,16,0,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,6,8,1,5,0,0,3,2,8,1,1,8,4,19,0,16,16,1,27,0,0,0,4,1,11,4,4,13,73,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.3866918735669476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708664075051005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028664256024716,0.08051865500309673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467182346890378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546025755266714,0.14615111023161598,0.0,0.17036962595707048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515738198472907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072459396255315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4884470635857978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451824829806453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498336331561385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543011941877213,0.0,0.09709871597795286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260914327666388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890759100403067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278333354690836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280108006555202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11191639412996504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043016067091466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544935209683455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463564383995646,0.0,0.10486186244100433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902923839558972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790799213103983,0.0,0.10595175794249977,0.4825370219359741,0.0,0.12244543367319898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depression_obsession,2019/04/20,"Flipping My Disorder I'll delete if not allowed! ( Idk how people feel about pro-ish talk )
Have any of you guys ever battled overeating with starving yourself? I'm overweight, like 230 and disgusted with myself. I'm sick and tired of how I'm treating my body, I want to lose weight quickly so I've started not eating instead. I'll have half a stick of gum if I start feeling hungry. I have one or two days a week I'll eat a meal around 500-600 calories. Being fat, will this even work? Has anyone experienced anorexic behaviors while being fat?",3.0654716981132104,5.371109509433963,3.7949433962264174,86.73449056603776,76.54716981132076,5.749433962264153,27.581132075471697,6.742157984588678,1.3620369811320754,432,18,80,4,10,137,79,106,0.21600000000000005,0.723,0.06,-0.9585,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,9,5,2,0,3,0,7,10,3,3,1,17,15,9,0,3,5,0,3,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,5,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,0,4,7,2,9,12,0,9,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,8,45,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332467970955448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14736896326563298,0.0,0.0,0.1876219378055631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23410791326282646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359233830093175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24155031897308046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313221560438496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392056259655842,0.19064535409162595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21313414748605994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20868648562056946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029671588272814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23578760302987736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281708064218493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611511198494656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983553837219836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940167570173778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422387186682389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20588283259204315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431227449642407,0.0,0.16905972874481418,0.2566500692453464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343648861156295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AnIraqiCamper,2019/04/20,"Anyone else seen the recent 1200isplenty post? You know... THAT one The fucking bracelet. That’s so 2000’s proana. The post has been reported but because it’s not in violation of the subreddits rules it’s been kept on!!! 

It’s fucking ED behaviour!! She bought a bracelet to stop her from eating!! A fucking ENGRAVED one !!! 

That sub is so in denial sometimes.",1.9231818181818203,4.750185863636363,2.5385454545454564,88.61781818181818,91.87878787878788,5.670303030303031,26.29696969696969,7.1686216300943375,1.7223078787878796,281,13,51,5,10,87,46,66,0.043,0.887,0.07,0.4234,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,4,0,6,0,4,4,0,0,0,5,11,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,4,0,2,5,1,3,0,6,6,0,7,0,0,1,3,3,3,3,0,2,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571109179808876,0.2302250414500671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697107067263833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22991754294762015,0.18770258529444425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6231765539024459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348567009723573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304516258319594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303885195678315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218577217602778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22222761463023868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18785382519199964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FigsAndRabbits,2019/04/20,"I don't know what to title this as, I'm just struggling. I'm undiagnosed (too sneaky to bring it up with doctors. And the one time I did see a doctor at a lw (sub 15 bmi) she didn't say anything, so) so who knows if I actually have a problem. But lately, I'm in a ""relapse"" and it's all I can think about, estimating how much I'll lose by x date over and over, planning out my meals.  I feel like I can't do anything else, I don't have enough will, or energy. 

I'm trying high restriction, so I thought this time would be different. If you'd asked me if it was different a week ago, I would have said yes.  I was on cloud nine, losing seems to just get rid of depression for me.  But now I feel like shit.  Maybe it's just because I'm tired, and I just came off my second 48 hour fast this week (I'm garbage at fasting, frl), but I really really feel like shit. And I don't know what to do about it.

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I don't think I'm looking for anything here, I just wanted to get it out.",1.7424999999999995,2.5665414158878512,3.742137850467291,92.055636682243,76.42990654205606,7.219158878504674,23.18808411214953,7.645422480735847,0.7113934579439256,749,21,185,10,16,256,118,214,0.114,0.833,0.053,-0.8674,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,0,3,14,10,2,1,6,1,20,6,2,1,1,38,46,17,0,7,12,0,3,3,0,3,3,2,0,0,12,9,1,1,10,0,0,2,6,7,0,3,7,7,22,3,23,34,3,24,0,3,2,0,6,11,2,5,14,112,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.1160339053694074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540190618084724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883327091398966,0.14448231290150787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935454883344221,0.0,0.1111599109677056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248324545007867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599538271240386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241250599397436,0.0,0.0,0.2484603585491603,0.0,0.24340814538257485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932967957904236,0.0,0.0,0.12286041484893474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803654764173813,0.25483677888219514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242456716382898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12562942006963862,0.0,0.0,0.11709724899568848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960408593859385,0.0,0.1341297620785375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17427259663720907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985006164859693,0.2660480506786788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945582548203346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740868886653351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805729508681132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11377580847847722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234688350137765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310566720483148,0.09455784727781677,0.0,0.0,0.09475170872679327,0.10824643878700453,0.0,0.0,0.24410807974711446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430508481356567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237875362029002,0.0,0.09439710727124516,0.13866865765988756,0.13666354395319832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072853515516061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013311531271574,0.0,0.19075647193853834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689330771387594,0.0,0.14448231290150787,0.0
EDAnonymous,FriendWithAKid,2019/04/20,"I don't feel like eating I'm not saying that I'll never eat but I just never feel hungry. And idk if this is the right place to post. I just want some help I don't want to hurt myself.

It started a while ago when SO breaks up with me and says I'm mean for wanting to move taking our son with me. He said I'm taking away his happiness (words burned into my mind). Long story short I decided to stay until I have money for my own place (he still doesn't want us to leave). 

Now since that day I've had 1 meal a day. Usually around noon and I haven't finished my plate. I thought I was ok from the break up after talking to my cousin but I can't seem to want to eat. I was so confident and happy. I even had normal conversations with ex which we haven't had in a while. I also haven't been sleeping well. Idk what it is but when I want to try to make myself eat I have a hard time swallowing and I end up giving up and not eating.",0.7379566395663986,2.1664258878048805,2.7814227642276457,95.40600948509486,80.36585365853658,5.726287262872631,17.242547425474257,6.42735559955562,-0.4366802168021682,717,12,175,6,18,242,116,205,0.043,0.775,0.182,0.9831,0,0,0,0,0,2,17.0,3,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,6,1,17,8,1,1,2,39,37,18,0,8,8,3,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,12,7,0,6,0,1,1,11,1,1,0,8,6,28,5,26,29,2,37,0,1,0,0,16,12,0,3,21,113,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593590352478752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654836933770202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634417011204696,0.0,0.0,0.10168197915163006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959375633808546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5537115710057358,0.0,0.0,0.09585619725907876,0.0,0.0,0.07148231526358621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944473126251986,0.07731674413130735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382033231317007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23041738187851896,0.09694932364785452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725416703942957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585827344054354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459580834431395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05287380346902916,0.0,0.0,0.09577668869410799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722417590249428,0.0,0.0,0.11788994538591452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927750449572984,0.0,0.0,0.11502721176037906,0.0,0.0,0.16694127329766614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603859485166407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261464697479797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365068287417672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924244940780188,0.1029478001892263,0.17213146977420835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852497250432947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895257444380125,0.0,0.10830425492587076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660298731416132,0.11535461768600802,0.08642949953519231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627451095750507,0.08698803589795412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591943072314939,0.06310750652054208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0734784145844055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018266715932247,0.0,0.11919575394297725,0.0,0.3830073304171099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730825713693214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,motherofdogandcat,2019/04/20,"Eating order came back with a vengeance after break up (trigger warning) I'm new here and was looking to vent/hear others stories... don't feel comfortable talking to close friends or family 

I'm a 23 year woman and I went though a really bad break up in February. I have struggled with bulimia since high school but thought I had a handle on it. After we broke up I convinced myself it ended partly because I wasn't pretty or skinny enough and I started making myself throw up again. My therapist helped me with the bulimia but now I'm skipping meals and refuse to eat more than twice a day. I feel proud of myself when I go to bed hungry and feel sick to my stomach when I do eat. Thinking of eating makes me feel guilty. I'm a normal weight according to bmi but when I look in the mirror I see someone very overweight and feel disgusted by my reflection. Some days I feel like I'm hallucinating because I'll look down at my body and cannot interpret my actually size and think I've swelled up like a balloon. I want to overcome this but I'm addicted to the control I feel when restricting food or throwing up. I know deep down it's bullshit but I've convinced myself my depression/anxiety will be cured if I can get down to 120 pounds or less. I think about my weight all day and I am starting to feel miserable. Thank you for reading I don't know where else to go.",2.9678939393939388,4.922624618181821,4.197295454545458,85.37860984848486,75.54545454545455,7.201515151515152,27.09469696969697,8.07648339933343,1.7907606060606067,1090,43,214,18,24,357,156,275,0.159,0.754,0.087,-0.9696,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,0,2,11,13,1,2,10,0,12,14,3,4,1,51,47,24,0,3,10,0,10,2,1,1,3,0,1,1,5,15,10,3,16,1,0,6,4,5,0,1,6,14,34,8,35,39,6,43,0,2,4,0,7,17,0,6,19,132,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.10017558338943468,0.11190810994352618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853009754410595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893465842018982,0.0857118769263876,0.1251539604015709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140255518038274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740893110606565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513529030665788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19861018623424834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201630450048181,0.08575431955028923,0.0,0.09092105401058123,0.10606911569318717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677313966616033,0.0,0.4152399367731293,0.0733361020997428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412973258149955,0.0,0.07931029495695441,0.0,0.053632524908789884,0.0,0.1166813695335944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156986196168617,0.0,0.06880687238312973,0.1084596817308406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283200598210814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003032058106633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586107434359374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370448038194864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914395938439108,0.0,0.0,0.10057921225120536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116437543582026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443611390360108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268186922407208,0.0,0.06576283838644485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389141908466523,0.08180201871715026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08491652369002248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697847696716711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453181859100524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731634301050756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250946872820142,0.0,0.09451009366374548,0.0,0.11918931005350883,0.0,0.1973297868171044,0.10085712179880107,0.08149588054514627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470037470084392,0.060548041703870084,0.0,0.0,0.25001005184593234,0.0,0.0951613694782864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06610586803625808
EDAnonymous,SunShineee_3,2019/04/20,"this is more of a confession and i guess a way to talk myself out of it... i haven’t done any ED behaviors in what feels like at least a year and i’m at a “heathy weight"" (according to everyone but me and my mom) but summer is coming around and i was trying on a bathing suit and my mom told me i looked fat and needed to do sit-ups and stop eating as much. i looked in the mirror and realized how absolutely disgusting i look. i want to start restricting and exercising 24/7 and i want to be back at a good weight. 

i’m falling back down a rabbit hole i thought i climbed out of...",0.8884146341463399,2.776478430894312,2.9896138211382137,91.88490853658541,81.76422764227642,7.0268292682926825,20.819105691056908,8.07648339933343,0.8340032520325211,449,13,105,9,12,152,77,123,0.113,0.807,0.08,-0.7049,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,8,0,7,5,1,1,0,27,21,14,0,3,2,2,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,14,4,2,4,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,6,15,2,19,16,3,20,1,0,3,0,5,10,0,1,7,70,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424277077451155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955170370118556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25835649773324065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447133365356484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719178285758866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190144189661413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052699784723568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494362452026365,0.12001609226607292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409067412001034,0.0,0.0,0.18506609656635994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207416578251496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232219869415997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935088393878653,0.0,0.0,0.12349609794014654,0.12456661087251407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189081523885652,0.0,0.0,0.14045184635456928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350285020362871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336974339743962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052699784723568,0.0,0.11405798683594486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817631839168035,0.13334709001614184,0.0,0.4091467720629281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818366030386847
EDAnonymous,Just-Another-Mom,2019/04/20,Everyone else is eating but me I’m insanely jealous. Im the heaviest here and I can’t let myself eat a night snack like everyone else is while we are playing games. Tomorrow is Easter pictures and I will ballon up if I eat anything else today. Im just watching them eat nachos and I wish so bad that I didn’t care.,0.07757575757575808,2.436729787878789,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848486,92.03030303030305,5.963636363636365,22.484848484848484,7.3871296695380915,1.3049212121212128,250,10,50,5,9,87,48,66,0.141,0.6759999999999999,0.183,0.2647,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,2,0,8,5,0,0,0,8,11,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,9,3,1,8,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,5,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322770883915144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517750890131994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650651188122373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6626455491684474,0.4057333374332075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30939967539312074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34975379833143444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16555098979340854,0.0,0.07909485816036084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192967788645234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345973959857595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617394073500332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,insectways,2019/04/20,"when someone dies of an eating disorder triggering warning for death


hi all. i am hesitant about making this post but i don’t really have anyone to talk to or share these feelings with and i know that it’ll be bad for me to try and suppress them so thank you for listening in advance. 


a girl i have followed on instagram for quite a while died yesterday after battling anorexia for 12 years. she was 22. i don’t feel like i should add her username but i’m sure a few of you know her as well. 


i don’t want to make this too long. i cared about her deeply, and i hope she knew that. she was such a sweetheart and didn’t deserve that world of pain. i am heartbroken that the disease she was trying so hard to fight was what killed her. 


i haven’t had someone i know and love die of an ED before. i am devastated over her death and i am furious at this awful disorder that took her. 


but something that’s also been in my head is that she died trying to fight an illness that i don’t have any desire to recover from. of course i never wanted it in the first place but essentially i can’t see my life without it. it feels weird to not want help with something that others are trying their best fighting against. 


i don’t know. if you read this, thank you. i just needed someone to listen.",2.599287936398201,4.259917095057041,3.6988886968544783,89.83573712409266,75.7680608365019,6.7590044936052545,24.121845834773588,7.520522993642371,0.9851688212927758,1008,32,215,13,22,326,148,263,0.276,0.569,0.156,-0.9919,1,0,2,0,4,0,19.0,0,4,2,4,10,20,6,0,9,1,26,6,1,3,3,40,51,18,7,8,9,0,4,1,1,2,3,2,0,1,20,9,1,1,8,1,0,3,11,9,1,1,9,7,39,11,34,39,3,20,0,0,1,1,29,8,0,3,9,154,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896485206934515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565234147100429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778707165990156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09288729395123757,0.0,0.0,0.0946637123184912,0.0,0.11674773756580956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342458029316835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618307486455864,0.0,0.2549993099641066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383430648219288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875074136661666,0.07947547431293754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462735014429062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965620730415313,0.0,0.1141723719306407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456707763389807,0.0,0.0,0.11049419999182436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307924477003715,0.0,0.24455559912120556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857763462441429,0.054350071988204414,0.0,0.0,0.09845083167443623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040551292712899,0.0,0.14851758511604005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248885874987602,0.08580118722540295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837553814947985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623030786768047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654467252649656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832576444387607,0.11127793850868946,0.0,0.07126821065318238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886501198067372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28277978433790096,0.17128803424967726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484976628830547,0.0,0.0,0.08941679438543944,0.0,0.20484411650541398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236004360961355,0.3021199051496868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19685056317513805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10002516243297742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723894137934424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163995721922196
EDAnonymous,alenasch,2019/01/18,"Is there anything else that gives a similar feeling of control? Three years into recovery and I'm about to relapse, and not because i think i should lose weight, I actually would even gain weight **just to lose it again** (I'm 5'7"" and 105 lbs) but because restricting gives such an incredible feeling of control and power. I always turn in this bad bitch who's studying her ass off, whose nails are always done and her room is clean, who's an extreme perfectionist. 

Other than in relapses I'm a lazy slob sleeping all day. Anyone else feeling this way? So I'm wondering if there's something that could give me that feeling without me destroying my health and slowly coming to the binge-purge-cycle",3.0350636132315536,5.9016960687022895,3.66943511450382,84.30959796437662,80.6793893129771,6.2414249363867675,27.05394402035624,7.554174236665415,1.84452631043257,559,24,98,9,15,176,90,131,0.18,0.688,0.132,-0.8992,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,6,8,5,2,0,5,0,7,5,2,2,1,26,22,9,0,4,5,0,6,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,10,8,2,3,6,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,1,6,9,0,12,18,1,10,0,2,0,1,8,5,2,2,3,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.13731349559117992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341654050605231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838830071532338,0.14417489822790364,0.1157930433922022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174876854840915,0.1715520609748934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120994121742,0.0,0.0,0.31563837500106634,0.11234616706778884,0.0,0.0,0.09074686002682564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399605727269288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23509172556982955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293819190462296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845905424165092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4049480182284341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956905772628407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148389060732289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081247356456705,0.0,0.0,0.10832608981847858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016183350382068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530530028703219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168972624986093,0.0,0.3426958245747316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564024185091952,0.15259491869746775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999569533967155,0.0,0.0,0.09061317650489677
EDAnonymous,ksck135,2019/01/18,"Gym Hi all!

I need a little help.

I need to get my ass to gym, but damn, I am so anxious about people judging me there (yeah, everybody is there to do their business yet internet is full of stories about people doing dumb stuff in gym). I am afraid I would just run around doing random stuff until I either hurt myself, my panic makes me leave or someone comes to me and says I should rather try some other sport.

Anybody else has this problem or some reasonable advice for my paranoia? Or at least some tips on exercise?

Thanks!",3.2236785329018325,5.247475553398059,3.881100323624597,87.62083063646173,75.01941747572816,6.131175836030206,23.09492988133765,6.937597516519254,0.7929771305285866,414,12,79,4,9,131,76,103,0.258,0.696,0.046,-0.9790000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,1,0,9,7,2,2,1,1,10,2,1,2,1,22,16,7,0,6,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,5,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,15,1,13,14,7,10,0,1,0,1,4,6,3,7,2,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19630528537177352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269460939086331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178832780240537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730470978937389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781602416470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495561207070787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134650893612113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150546019457592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21271123085384144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20134240425789285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409420207649905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979115957379254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23569861228043684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785406868412659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222254522415294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20654617113880988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975408408631114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702116262956483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599370603323542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18495054529332156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638966584603934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14270496731430968,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,butlb,2019/01/18,"TFW you have been making an effort to eat a little more and be healthier and people comment on it, destroying any progress you’re making :)(: I bumped into somebody that I hadn’t seen in a while today and they wouldn’t shut up about how much weight I’d lost. I felt happy at first.... but then it reminded me of how much more I’ve been eating recently. My mum always comments on my weight and joked about how I’m going to get fat again because of how much I’m eating now (compared to what I usually eat)


I’ve been trying so hard to ignore the panic while eating, I haven’t counted any calories in weeks. Any progress I’ve made has just been curb stomped in to the ground, nobody is ever going to compliment me if I put on weight. 


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EDAnonymous,sofieex,2019/01/18,im having a panic attack i just accidentally had a gul\[p of gatorade with 80 cal for 12 fl oz thinking it was gatorade zero and im having a panic attack please i dont know know what to do ,-0.4085714285714275,1.6763686190476186,2.8574285714285743,89.53757142857144,89.0,4.312380952380953,17.923809523809524,5.6839178017228535,-0.3438533333333331,150,4,33,1,5,54,30,42,0.33399999999999996,0.615,0.051,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,9,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,2,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146234796695177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650805929244761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4886251671702033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24860458561443194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5307456269386907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24827708011451666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492663807002146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RusselToveysEars,2019/01/18,"What happens if I tell my doctor the truth? The last time I went to the doctor, she was concerned because of my high resting heartbeat. I'm pretty sure this is because of EC stacking, but I just played it off like I was nervous about being at the doctor. I'm going to go back to the doctor in a few weeks for a pap smear, and I'm wondering what would happen if I told her the truth? Have any of you told a doctor about EC stacking, and what was their reaction? I'm at a normal weight and don't fit the criteria for an ED diagnosis (I think?), so I'm not worried about being hospitalized or anything. I'm just not sure if the benefit of my doctor knowing what's going on is worth the risk of admitting to abusing OTC meds...",5.686,4.768646500000003,6.826500000000002,79.51575000000003,67.33333333333334,9.366666666666667,32.083333333333336,8.472884824447931,2.341733333333334,565,20,117,7,8,192,85,150,0.095,0.733,0.172,0.8878,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,2,14,0,10,8,0,0,4,22,28,9,0,5,9,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,3,1,0,4,1,1,4,3,2,0,0,6,1,13,7,19,19,2,15,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,5,5,78,19,6,0.0,0.1433258603270907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226156235089845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954535752892082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301599130937917,0.0,0.1474804594843131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7428877853152405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062446358492237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139410580534604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780805054720393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648018182319225,0.09860407550386427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059098261186629523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436682881646736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185217662292358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306670932217514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280195277315604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573030246066936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751063180195568,0.0,0.0,0.07053670548540171,0.0,0.0,0.23117789515936876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703225882206816,0.14730495624600404,0.0,0.11213742218610613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118331890963125,0.0,0.12284764266680948,0.0,0.08593133379934803,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsveronicalodge,2019/01/18,"""Calorie counter and fitness app MyFitnessPal could fuel eating disorders among vulnerable people"" As someone with an eating disorder (not underweight) this is such bullshit. MyFitnessPal has helped so many people in our very obese society lose weight. It is triggering for some of us, of course, especially those in recovery - but they should delete the app. The obesity problem - in my opinion - is much more severe. ",7.773631840796018,11.036602805970151,7.257537313432838,62.91874378109452,65.71641791044776,11.033830845771144,38.03233830845771,10.864195022040775,5.505947263681589,336,18,44,11,6,105,57,67,0.19699999999999998,0.7829999999999999,0.02,-0.9104,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,6,5,0,1,0,10,6,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,9,4,3,5,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,2,0,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710351325055292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910233114728979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383956814312547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358538221851294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396544333623717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171827822904087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574744092115666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970226926136972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049770847160758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420046444752165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815056756333088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576771105586044,0.0,0.0,0.1767517582800899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608590363828974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jungkookiedough,2019/01/18,"Does restricting get harder every time you try it? Why is that? 😥 I feel like every time the restrict-phase of the binge/restrict cycle comes on restricting gets harder, whereas my binges become more and more extreme.

I remember when I was a teenager and was totally fine and not even really hungry on 800 cal a day. Then a couple years later I managed to do 1200 and still lost weight, albeit more slowly.

Now even eating at MAINTENANCE which is around 1600 calories for me feels like too little. It's really hard to eat only so much so that I don't *gain* any weight, but my body is asking for more. That is with eating high-volume whole foods with enough healthy protein and fat. I love healthy food but if I listened to my hunger cues I'd probably eat 2500-3000 of healthy, whole foods and that would just make me gain weight and I can't handle that rn.

This has been really distressing to me. It seems impossible to lose weight anymore and I'm scared that I'll just keep gaining and gaining and never reach my GW. Has anyone else experienced this?",3.561519607843138,5.713236426470591,3.984901960784317,86.6787254901961,74.44117647058823,6.886274509803924,23.098039215686285,7.793537801064563,1.1193450980392163,837,24,160,12,18,262,128,204,0.098,0.746,0.156,0.9483,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,6,11,8,0,2,5,0,13,15,2,1,2,31,26,17,0,2,6,0,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,12,14,13,3,4,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,4,9,16,4,15,21,9,16,0,2,0,1,4,5,0,2,12,96,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745566162418917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837428978834084,0.06935910088966632,0.10163648766411852,0.0,0.08830413558595959,0.09273346736404378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109552532096091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101827278637868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544727859518993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097568277029142,0.0,0.06397224643845036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680577553842589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40600295033724143,0.08286427651242094,0.0,0.0,0.10249443501296586,0.0,0.13103406364273087,0.0,0.16715128919481928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003114394709599,0.14172914144977844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598391499572532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365006444940718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885878834610196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048044355610916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816862944247042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969228445279995,0.09941894847733243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097327269381477,0.108282514607632,0.0,0.0895269091943633,0.0,0.06621309910592195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07291937107338481,0.0,0.07650491366019117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544188723702727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694844835819528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906396104431909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236803185419766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931099926743324,0.0,0.0,0.0903029474487878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921685595201293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568222147330465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734655430169482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4831687120996148,0.0,0.0,0.08950760766498732,0.2214942339482109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046492687505787,0.0,0.0,0.06387800587511773
EDAnonymous,topiramate,2019/01/18,"Can somebody who is very well into recovery describe what that later phase felt like? I see many posts here about people who are a few days or weeks into recovery, but far fewer posts from those who are very well into recovery (over 9 months to multiple years). By this point, I would imagine that many thoughts and behaviors have calmed down and changed. ... but what is your sense of what kinds of other things changed from the 9 month to the several-year mark? Physically, emotionally, behaviorally... anything goes. 
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EDAnonymous,violettheatre,2019/01/18,"Kinda ruined my boyfriend's birthday with my relapse :/ So it was my bf's birthday on Tuesday. He had been away for work the whole weekend until Tuesday morning so I wasn't going to see him until he got home after work on his birthday. My ED issues aren't really with body image so idk if it's as much of an ED in the traditional sense - I struggled in the past with heavily restricting food for long periods of time as a form of control when I was anxious. It got to the point where I was passing out occasionally and struggling at uni cause no food = no brain power or focus. 

I would say the past two years have been really good! I eat healthy normal meals and exercise control in slightly more healthy ways (hopefully). But....the few days my bf was gone I was feeling really down and anxious and totally relapsed. I think I ate like a few pieces of fruit and a couple of cucumbers+dip over four or five days. 

Of course, I am not really used to eating like this anymore (well for more than like a day or two at a time) and Tuesday aka my bf's birthday rolls around and I feel SO sick. I have no energy, walking to work makes me feel like puking, I'm sweating bullets at my desk. I tried to get some food in that day so I wouldn't be sick at night when he got home but it was too late :/ 

We ended up cancelling our plans cause I was super sick and fatigued. I felt so horrible. He was really nice about it though, we don't really celebrate birthdays or holidays anyway and we were just going to see a movie. I still felt awful that he had to take care of me on HIS birthday though, although his response made me realise how great he is.

Sorry, this is pretty long. It still makes me feel a bit emotional and was totally not worth it. Still struggling again this week but eating a bit more, we'll see how we go I guess. ",2.9289855072463773,4.539656391304348,4.200521739130437,86.79520289855074,74.76086956521739,7.189275362318843,25.58188405797101,7.908726449838941,1.4036225362318846,1424,49,293,21,30,468,186,368,0.153,0.7340000000000001,0.113,-0.8949,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,6,0,0,8,23,16,0,3,14,1,26,17,3,10,2,56,54,34,0,5,10,0,6,4,3,3,5,1,2,0,12,19,9,3,7,3,1,6,9,5,1,4,23,11,39,11,44,27,14,55,0,2,3,0,20,19,0,9,33,194,51,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17789121795412988,0.07808174229334004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008884916062927,0.0,0.0,0.07397202021486625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719115657222392,0.08745434788650502,0.0,0.08789179920657042,0.0,0.0,0.08027329659439393,0.161760465943515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661097136921247,0.0,0.08711630197353835,0.0,0.20310446849803346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416898089438005,0.0,0.08856375842399979,0.0697338566826579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15923859745666522,0.0562466998336059,0.1511915940535296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856118995569793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0411346177870241,0.0,0.13423692657002728,0.06603730405788473,0.18890934284207733,0.0868031464036333,0.086733012101976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795075651921575,0.0781993961536239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217654654989079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888139832030138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385939934215728,0.0,0.0,0.13935203093615106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744988416647424,0.10510945800891007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0578776380759119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073885362226909,0.07714138874329297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031865739188044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442790735081281,0.0,0.0,0.08009952236805243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026293346677288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261145125216741,0.0,0.0,0.18821944966377066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813487943504981,0.0,0.0,0.1886282527185308,0.0,0.0,0.2469257279726684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059197237483960226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05044877383963589,0.1547090748887372,0.0,0.09181941160067413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053454376226181405,0.0,0.15382093338425099,0.0,0.0,0.06799982611101107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06249440057750496,0.06315467138715826,0.0,0.07079020711499551,0.0,0.0,0.08790231539061495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195516204257402,0.0,0.0,0.055929494106796686,0.0,0.0,0.05070131640782161
EDAnonymous,mojomastrblastr,2019/01/18,How do you experience your “ED Voice”? I’ve heard a lot of people with eating disorders talk about their ED/Ana/Mia voice.  It always confused me that everyone was calling it a voice (it makes it sound like psychosis or something). I decided to research it a bit and found an academic article about the “ED Voice” and it stated that most people with eating disorders experience this voice as separate from their own voice/internal dialogue. For me it’s just my own internal dialogue which explains why I was so confused.  Now I need to know if I’m the odd one out- how do you guys experience this?,3.97699115044248,6.245006389380535,5.211690265486727,77.82390707964602,73.60176991150442,9.47575221238938,29.88407079646018,9.888512548439397,3.3333865486725665,474,21,86,14,10,157,72,113,0.068,0.909,0.023,-0.5803,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,2,0,7,3,0,2,6,0,4,2,0,3,0,20,11,8,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,1,12,5,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,7,11,1,11,7,5,3,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,6,2,58,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500034269357119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968138524493296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18408115848049464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4132220473359583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36893311741323404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226070093230164,0.0,0.529031280072017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976624768668988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850081342489976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907454785913042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807336781806899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326354774111628,0.0,0.0,0.12033511109438098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367179346417993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215915654428353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499602814760566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878467397963995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14489839540103305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267034858054533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nietzsches_hoe,2019/01/18,"The “skinny legend” meme is triggering, don’t @ me Like I get it, I’m on stan twitter i KNOWWWWW it’s not that serious i know the justification is ~skinny is a mindset~ but my brain is already SO STRESSED OUT abt being skinny again and staying skinny i don’t wanna see that word ever again DeleteEeeE",0.4111402157164861,2.6009614237288154,2.501818181818184,86.67904468412942,104.25423728813558,4.179352850539291,24.00770416024653,6.1124844417494595,1.0406135593220336,240,11,43,3,11,80,44,59,0.10300000000000001,0.845,0.051,-0.7075,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,7,5,5,2,1,10,11,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,6,1,3,10,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118576974508829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166370997153356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33759897753703044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499211538957092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20511202453657154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18233650489734174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974081250122204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978030032387604,0.0,0.0,0.4275224013503517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dikeid,2019/01/18,"Im so ungrateful and i hate it Sorry just need to rant

My sister offered to get me some stuff from the grocery shop (I cant drive right now and its really hot out) and I asked for sugarfree jello and the cookie dough halo top...

She came back with REGULAR jello and the candy bar halo top (it has nuts in it and i dont like them)... im just trying not to cry because i was looking forward to finally eating something and she could have texted me to ask if she wasnt sure but she didnt. And now she has spent her own money on me and im never going to eat it and i feel so guilty and sad and im so mad at myself like ??? I should have been more specific and just arghhh im so upset",-0.2889000000000017,1.58349896,2.5409166666666683,93.543375,86.06666666666666,5.3500000000000005,16.708333333333332,6.6274283507984215,-0.24196666666666644,524,11,122,6,16,184,91,150,0.21899999999999997,0.7609999999999999,0.02,-0.9847,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,10,7,2,1,3,0,12,3,0,0,2,29,22,19,0,4,6,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,16,3,0,1,2,3,4,6,4,0,0,6,3,19,3,13,14,3,16,0,1,1,0,11,8,0,2,8,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25486775474931883,0.0,0.0,0.10481597304128193,0.0,0.08309489394145131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590529691164665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088345168711522,0.0,0.14973298709055347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15975734851542364,0.0,0.0,0.2789636344768389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892374479342693,0.0,0.0,0.1493237871388051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121770585299357,0.0,0.07746959021694384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13458046868258491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7362049807552087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319089898684525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114468250300022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10107406348679117,0.10513267823426477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732534014068401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641021306388827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494009682432147,0.0,0.15259079229792755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560453110957654,0.0,0.0,0.1284730095070606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254730558921892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girl_snap_out_of_it,2019/01/18,"Let's share little gleaming moments of pride! What was something delicious you ate this week? Feel free to share details, recipes, etc. Let's take a moment to celebrate ourselves. Like the title says, I just wanna take a moment to hear about any particular moment that made you proud this week: a food you cooked for yourself that you enjoyed, a new food discovery you made, if you restrained yourself of making any poor choices, etc. I'm sitting here eating dinner which I made last sunday while meal prepping, and knowing I'm eating a plate full of food that I carefully crafted, whose ingredients I picked off the supermarket with my own hands, a tomato sauce I made myself, fills me with happiness, fills me with the joy of knowing decisions like this help me show myself some much needed love. Also I got my pots/cookware set which includes a dutch oven so I'll be to cook more generous, delicious meals, yaaay!

PS: I also discovered PB2 this week. What the heck my dudes. What. The. HEEEEEEEECK.

What about you? Tell me about any little rays of sun that shone upon you this week!",4.752452941176472,7.026435010000004,4.515235294117649,83.64482352941178,71.4,7.105882352941178,27.264705882352942,7.928766900206844,1.7782088235294118,862,31,152,12,17,263,120,200,0.013999999999999999,0.741,0.245,0.9938,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,8,0,2,8,12,0,0,12,0,4,13,1,6,0,20,22,6,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,16,4,11,1,4,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,24,13,19,12,7,21,0,0,0,1,16,5,1,2,14,90,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822537945498356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23247258853850264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161810516896001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332014702857844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541718761631575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05761725413985388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41337147312213024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113734810336477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130338936179433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284315149818968,0.0,0.07637922466659666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524942401833697,0.09288560382976536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23304606376991305,0.0,0.11134180098659598,0.22841848750037425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284559182107188,0.4312942979282721,0.0760634475727503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376739396845817,0.0844935228101761,0.0,0.1100549768632268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061873079717216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772535860187954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713545500132314,0.0,0.09959855043494756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656197740549037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonn1999,2019/07/11,I just purged for the first time in two years. I forgot how much my throat hurts. I also lost the buzz from the alcohol I had tonight.,0.730952380952381,2.8685768571428567,1.5357142857142847,100.67595238095241,84.0,5.161904761904762,16.476190476190478,6.42735559955562,-0.6166095238095237,104,2,25,1,3,32,23,28,0.19699999999999998,0.8029999999999999,0.0,-0.6597,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,0,1,2,1,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,5,0,3,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012965321474108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30028813398211784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194010863565828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40198174736372827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099038626010871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760365509586688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21895774025938536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668100610890626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418104293047161
EDAnonymous,hebanwbs,2019/07/11,"Wondering if my eating disorder 6 years ago could have given me permanent damage. Okay this is my final account and final post here.

I am a 17 year old boy and I had an eating disorder when I was 11. At the worst moment I was 157 cm tall and weighed 30 kg. It lasted 3 months, until I got help and recovered quickly. I started to eat normal and healthy again and was physically healthy very quick. 

Sadly this eating disorder had a big impact on my mental health. I felt like I was not really a man and a pussy. I got over that. But now I keep getting worried the eating disorder could have given me any permanent physical damage or even make me infertile. I just want to know if this is possible. Please someone who knows a lot about this tell me if it is so I can finally try to move on.",2.5257412398921844,4.410806987421385,4.498405211141062,83.03957547169813,76.61006289308177,8.064869721473496,25.19362084456425,8.841846274778883,2.013222461814914,617,22,122,14,14,211,103,159,0.159,0.7440000000000001,0.09699999999999999,-0.9096,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,0,8,1,15,7,0,1,0,25,28,15,0,7,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,8,7,6,1,4,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,11,1,19,2,9,15,2,25,0,3,0,0,5,6,0,6,18,83,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470239572724434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07265116762399185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17059741367985715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897666682082834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5465921556947725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056322251494397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10257793617090052,0.35109613134388656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558166507097984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708907220973373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135601466458624,0.0,0.0,0.07160895685545826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495947000697047,0.0,0.0,0.11742696577309647,0.08708442938735103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05219397197249292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908269266111055,0.0,0.0,0.07131290163379436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076641136297402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527433041692838,0.11354823509551218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046751904453434,0.0,0.0,0.11210490432143312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727227040802908,0.0,0.12043991970102645,0.1023179813427533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844095791021627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09052058012191304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561805488849542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337811861923083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253365674077343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814970463736686,0.06301379434764108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11585752834259302,0.0,0.10849568649726904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375959141331837
EDAnonymous,disettes,2019/07/11,"DAE have hope for everyone but themselves? I talk to other people with EDs, or even just non ED friends/loved ones who are self-conscious about their weight or feel like they should try and lose a few pounds before a beach trip, and I really do believe that they are all beautiful like they are and they need to take care of their brains + bodies and eat to fuel them and stay healthy, and to enjoy what they eat and not be afraid. 

But when it comes to myself all of that switches off like a light, I can't imagine any future where I deserve to eat where I want or I'm happy with my body.",6.675895316804406,5.230992140495872,6.122933884297524,87.08318870523418,65.61157024793388,9.05840220385675,28.431129476584026,7.1686216300943375,1.2649658402203854,463,10,103,3,6,142,84,121,0.026000000000000002,0.7120000000000001,0.262,0.9863,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,8,1,6,9,0,1,3,0,8,7,3,0,2,25,16,13,0,4,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,10,4,0,2,1,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,3,15,7,13,14,3,8,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,4,5,67,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477562355880835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436186428401664,0.19015632813272268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749512195560985,0.0,0.18841337279337586,0.0,0.0,0.17208161276851094,0.0,0.0,0.14538831057361268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181096812668715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147705025730516,0.0,0.0,0.16127573019307953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533981980270493,0.12057587305999835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796685653305438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763579893365274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24737093188199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888207196418166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514761626116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143691339047357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170102254784204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812425839819716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17607348410026294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798961388670358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690093131657734,0.13565830392906048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458997774832193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955032762155666,0.0,0.0,0.2055275601783345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theorganicmeme,2019/07/11,"I was having a crisis about keeping up my fast or breaking it with a good ol b/p session but then I found a single fucking laxative pill that's probably from about 2 months ago on the floor of my dusty bedroom and proceeded to run it through some water and take it so that settles it, merry fucking christmas to me I guess.",7.910454545454545,5.750103075757576,8.186969696969701,75.55045454545456,63.6969696969697,10.618181818181819,40.18181818181819,8.841846274778883,3.5638545454545465,257,12,50,3,3,85,53,66,0.04,0.8540000000000001,0.106,0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,9,8,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,10,6,2,10,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,3,5,36,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738399829750415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387161240412612,0.0,0.5711852979946442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591084254678657,0.0,0.0,0.3403115030578701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27458333498681403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465779351225206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330692765392213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23227027837283226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SkyJude,2019/07/11,"Is it possible? On Monday I was \*pretty\* \*pretty\* active and eat only 500 cals. I had some errands to do and walked by feet everywhere and workout aswell. I was so dead in the evening. On Tuesday I treated myself and eat around 900 cals. On Wednesday I almost binged and I didnt count anything I eat that day and eat pretty much to satisfaction (almost to unpleasant fullness - as I would feel after I binge but I stopped) On Tuesday and Wednesday morning I weight the same. Today (Thursday) I stepped on the scale and weighted 0.5 kg / 1lbs less. My BMR is around 1500 cals. 

Is it normal and possible or is my scale broken?",2.0099439775910355,4.779679126050421,2.8737478991596634,88.5893893557423,85.47058823529412,4.854005602240896,26.420728291316525,6.42735559955562,1.2166634173669464,492,22,89,5,15,155,74,119,0.085,0.8640000000000001,0.051,-0.7101,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,10,7,1,0,0,21,11,13,1,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,11,6,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,15,1,14,6,5,21,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,4,10,63,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825779869218807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161114081618275,0.2512137854506728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909963620896465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5775128049301518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319371887920024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713432509878751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372306528155356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824581594079174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731118055001833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31813297687967185,0.0,0.4306413459740268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796401887459047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374414839221302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436380424666367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023177795878184,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ikow2d,2019/07/11,"There isn't very much of me, and maybe that's not such a great thing Recently I went to a concert with some friends, and while we were jumping and dancing to the music, it occurred to me that there isn't very much of me. Like, we were putting our arms around each other and hugging and shit, and I felt like my physical existence was so small and insubstantial in comparison to my friends'. And it made me feel quite sad-- not necessarily my size, but just that it's normally something I'm so concerned with and consumed by. I'd never felt this way before-- usually I feel like I'm occupying too much space. Maybe it had something to do with being completely fucked up at the time. But I still keep thinking about it. Like, when it comes to enjoying the moments as they come, being so concerned with occupying the least space feels like such an arbitrary and empty thing to focus on.

I think we probably all already know this, how pointless it all is, but it hit me pretty viscerally for the first time then.",6.8050209790209815,6.7129417538461515,6.7544055944055925,78.21104895104895,64.7948717948718,10.167832167832168,34.65034965034965,9.800150414767053,3.1396153846153836,802,33,157,15,11,255,114,195,0.064,0.81,0.126,0.8982,0,0,2,0,1,0,22.0,4,0,1,2,14,13,2,0,8,0,10,4,2,2,3,43,27,21,0,1,6,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,16,21,0,1,8,2,0,6,5,3,0,1,8,6,18,10,22,16,8,26,0,1,0,2,7,8,2,1,16,113,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490884477945504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689776843292235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173898985100376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262316735261062,0.13768078214370907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918970971129432,0.1876222472192728,0.2521650756480365,0.0,0.0,0.1116960687303922,0.0,0.0,0.20290655408994435,0.12139816330949345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477472849191633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671838424352145,0.0,0.0,0.07216702931602839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207682222443867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12425297955010413,0.0,0.0,0.2638461824703863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895938575508647,0.0,0.1012778577320871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12866035476257978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359408136248827,0.14157926882446598,0.0,0.0,0.13200736794172604,0.0,0.139669162221561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296572525188868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479247389475327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021846751184765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10486795008652984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447907234712162,0.16828209202051844,0.0,0.0,0.15314111222376958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446243984084249,0.2166964726332586,0.0,0.1042313585477892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217298811825058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,woodencurved,2019/07/11,"I’m disappointed in myself for losing 30 lbs and then gaining 40 lbs in a few months. this is my life. Losing weight then gaining more back, then losing weight fast, then gaining more back faster. 

I feel like I’m going crazy. My life is a wreck, my mind is a wreck, my body is wrecked. When I gain, my life is out of control. when I lose, it is more stable. But then that stability falters, I snap and gain everything back. 

I’m tired :(",1.3354797979798008,3.4899313863636365,2.571060606060609,94.04464646464649,81.72727272727273,5.2747474747474765,20.005050505050505,6.42735559955562,-0.003791919191919568,334,9,74,3,9,107,48,88,0.251,0.565,0.184,-0.7512,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,10,5,6,0,0,3,0,6,7,1,1,0,7,11,10,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,3,10,1,5,11,4,17,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,14,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502690755975705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16866112395656185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17030259589179325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646490251144125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677537330437287,0.10847524270714047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629474104271072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32174937215249044,0.07418184416058651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6794849706322587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331612777787684,0.0,0.12119803975104153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451889595254466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698028703015482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strawterri,2019/07/11,"made a batch of cookies and burned them I’ve been trying to stay off of Reddit & trying to keep myself away from watching YouTube videos or reading posts about food, diets, lifestyles, etc... because I’m trying to snap out of this relapse I’ve been in. I was going good for a couple of days but I’m still tracking everything that I eat - I made a meal plan for myself because I’m scared of losing control lol!!! 

I am a 19 y/o runner currently in training for a half marathon and my body is crying for my fuel. Woke up super hungry even though I have been eating, ate a regular breakfast, and I decided the ways in which I’d fuel recovery today is by eating the cookie I’ve been craving and moving on with my day.

Made a batch of cookies and they burned after being left in the oven for too long because I was too busy purging up some of the cookie dough I ate in the meantime.  (Because I didn’t want it to hold me back from running but now I’m dehydrated & burnt out from purging that running is the last thing I want to do. But here I go anyway)",4.252063492063492,4.712044629629634,5.395661375661381,83.85833333333333,70.2962962962963,7.282539682539682,28.3915343915344,6.868970318607317,1.4255367724867731,824,28,165,6,14,274,125,216,0.055,0.873,0.07200000000000001,0.3348,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,4,10,4,0,1,13,1,14,10,1,4,0,22,29,10,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,8,9,3,1,4,0,6,1,2,0,1,13,1,19,2,36,15,2,32,0,1,1,0,2,13,0,2,10,109,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772346734222178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019898575208687,0.0983739886419036,0.0,0.3119515438578059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210675719054475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348979228638048,0.0,0.14155745793174115,0.14053040528052949,0.1650147653414635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927278154263805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268115540617193,0.08449974976471769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497957745863975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15469930633121753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454166262444183,0.10730566701441367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371435667751535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428396308113584,0.0,0.0,0.1390015689891234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321830019218893,0.0,0.14312635222496708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36316509330676816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597447947851468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252620432779525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796945269601134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808508495718476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636150833572389,0.10216892186666332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499421746726189,0.0,0.12569532259802085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126726143728983,0.0,0.0,0.2605780586119317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091855684378336,0.10154871453802852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinklemonade97537,2019/07/11,I can’t stop eating 😓 I was restricting for about 6 months and then suddenly a switch flipped ! And now I’m in binge mode and I just can’t stop eating and eating. I have no idea what to do I feel so out of control. Has this happened to anyone else ? And I’m gaining and I feel like 💩,-1.557142857142857,0.4119237619047631,1.0003174603174614,100.35857142857144,97.09523809523807,4.06984126984127,16.523809523809526,5.82211442006289,-0.6579333333333333,219,6,54,2,9,74,43,63,0.16399999999999998,0.7440000000000001,0.092,-0.4926,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,0,15,11,8,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,3,4,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,7,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,7,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556562690270572,0.2280934479236921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496795424721533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6833663894086915,0.18596469608318625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511976378732748,0.1590348569077788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968560462054456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513031151271435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875752546675282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768766797183114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.372229071380065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,missnight31,2019/07/11,"best friend of 9 years is triggering my ED.. So for the past 7-8 months, my ED has been at its worst its ever been. (Bulimia, Binge eating disorder) I've gone into a really dark hole and I'm finding it hard to come out of it. My best friend is aware of my circumstances and has been a supportive friend when I need her to be. But just recently she's gone on a health kick eating really well, going to the gym and for some reason, she feels obliged to sending me a photo of all the meals she's eating every day and taking pictures when she's at the gym?!!? I dont know if im just being a sook.. but I just find it weird she's sending me this stuff every day when she knows what im going through. Don't get me wrong, I'm super happy that she's taking care of herself and gaining a passion for it but why am i under the impression she's rubbing it in my face",3.2088738738738734,3.415701702702705,4.9652027027027055,86.92329954954954,72.51351351351352,8.112612612612612,24.605855855855857,8.07648339933343,1.1668288288288289,665,17,151,9,12,228,104,185,0.03,0.742,0.228,0.9899,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,4,9,15,0,0,11,0,12,7,1,2,2,26,28,13,0,2,7,0,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,11,8,4,0,6,2,0,7,2,3,1,0,5,3,22,12,20,21,5,24,0,0,0,1,15,7,0,2,10,99,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781062168826648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509504160222385,0.0,0.0,0.1141390968472686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709061903859547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185924558459332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529184204384738,0.0,0.0,0.4067491454733221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985601910874913,0.2232779966690158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699720162480012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422096112980862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071131084420659,0.0,0.06922704232901394,0.0,0.15060835046357526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105128326867505,0.1186961365594341,0.0,0.0,0.14084386968353338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286250688674378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563972267713984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576216247806358,0.0,0.0,0.09824886083537636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264885468486212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16976887828409495,0.13623454954166045,0.13083014833019166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516835627753744,0.0,0.15036216885560674,0.0,0.0,0.1992506499649807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11913558282715705,0.0,0.11956281894291268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487058881657014,0.0,0.08532721016817599
EDAnonymous,iamalsoafish,2019/07/11,"Restriction is the thing I'm most proud of about myself. I don't really know what I'm saying but I have struggled with my weight for a long time. I have lost a ton of weight over the past two years (60 pounds) and I am actively losing more weight, even though I promised myself and those that care about me that I wouldn't lose any more. I really think I should stop for my health but I just want to lose more, and I am not being honest with other people about my intentions. My mom asked me how much I weigh and I lied to her for one of the first times ever. I can already see my ribs and have been called thin by other people. For reference, I am a 6'2"" tall and 170 pounds male in his mid-twenties. 

I guess my point is that I am so proud of myself for losing the weight that I have lost so far. It has been a daily struggle to prevent myself from overeating. The things I admire about myself are my determination, dedication, planning, and deliberateness, and one of the few things in my life that really illustrate this is my weight loss. This mentality got me through working full time through my bachelor's degree, pulling 100 hour weeks, and basically my whole career. It is, honestly, the person I see myself as. I want to be known as someone who achieves what I set my mind to and as someone who is willing to sacrifice for a goal. Where I have limited self-esteem when it comes to my body, I am proud of the person that I am even if I think it contributes to unhealthy behavior. 

Is this something other people relate to? So much of my self-worth is wrapped up in my weight, specifically the person I had to become to lose it. Losing weight taught me so much about discipline and personal achievement. But I think I am going too far and I don't think I can stop. I don't want to change who I am.",4.850200576507326,5.302736676795583,5.477542637521021,83.82442349267356,68.97237569060773,8.72659140043238,26.512611097766037,8.716276077567194,1.6560577468171993,1415,39,296,22,23,458,168,362,0.124,0.75,0.126,-0.0535,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,19,18,19,0,2,14,0,35,12,2,2,1,45,56,26,0,6,6,1,8,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,26,15,8,6,7,0,0,3,5,11,0,4,7,11,59,8,45,44,11,30,1,9,2,0,14,13,0,3,13,224,85,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572682792840414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04666577195918722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641529374525235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578835278245145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622432170302597,0.0,0.0,0.07007142333077895,0.0,0.06996539030528501,0.0,0.07259369077727587,0.059112357976285765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064925887028248,0.062073137976984716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058370412033157223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03899984743498438,0.0,0.05488382174811497,0.0,0.07559561275687728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294269425172521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757951158188147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03771322737018877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048470224545273055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072890766867335,0.0,0.4606273198486182,0.1498195114295672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915551585951812,0.0,0.06928933930864188,0.08037004721744531,0.0,0.0,0.15133668516406748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930010006738674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550810780657422,0.14272296668302425,0.2396746905481917,0.0,0.0,0.06487060838820563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188432776619688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457150522386981,0.0,0.0,0.10936677423636408,0.0,0.14317683149632293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162875391472044,0.05282908757488042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474325751720027,0.0,0.14347863832658314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676956753931013,0.17588255630999858,0.06742142946397947,0.0,0.12004330037739025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703438190492833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142629444839337,0.0,0.0550449703782706,0.5849475149910399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661476563144094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049958124464507696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04419075261589203
EDAnonymous,throwawaysarasa,2019/07/11,"Twf you kno you gonna have anal on friday so you have a Reason(TM) to restrict (when in fact you don't need to but shh) I mean with just a throughout cleanse it's just fine but today I ""Ate"" so that can't happen again until further notice.",0.9399999999999976,2.857935941176476,2.2703529411764727,96.95258823529413,81.74509803921569,4.08,20.003921568627447,3.1291,-0.5909325490196079,187,5,42,0,5,60,40,51,0.04,0.9109999999999999,0.049,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,1,10,9,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,6,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681327529304744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534727890679353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30868120676253785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739603578614974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280257785963917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946037638177768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dubtmihs,2019/07/11,"How to trigger someone back into an eating disorder my boyfriend’s friend edition Step 0 
be an asshole already 


1. ask them if they are preggo in NYE (this was in my own house and I had the munchies) 


2. Make comments  about your 45kg ex gf every 5 seconds 


3. Point at what that person is eating often 



4. Repeat until that person is eating nothing but kale smoothies 


Rinse and repeat",2.8927428571428595,5.11391656,4.0072380952380975,85.41600000000003,76.73333333333333,4.819047619047621,26.714285714285715,5.288315135182226,0.9388285714285716,302,12,53,1,7,98,65,75,0.026000000000000002,0.945,0.028999999999999998,0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,6,3,0,3,0,9,8,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,6,1,7,5,1,10,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,2,4,35,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23481633230356874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989276177439284,0.0,0.0,0.16362047713036368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24387294614218466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6532043015592252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792826727367928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643991189919125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455282419461226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420373295961843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20417537538236535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715957298101051,0.0,0.0,0.20115299627261934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802941849153568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pettybat,2019/07/11,tfw u wanna lie about having eaten earlier to skip a meal but at the same time you don’t want others to think you eat so often what a fat bitch that it. thats how it be rn,-0.7692499999999995,0.7909725750000014,2.1750000000000007,97.28,85.75,5.0,12.5,5.985473137389443,-1.1745,133,1,34,1,4,47,35,40,0.131,0.8320000000000001,0.037000000000000005,-0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,3,4,1,1,0,7,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,5,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6985782908844652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374501973432969,0.0,0.0,0.3980911394629666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026774652626183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aus_tiefem_traum,2019/07/11,"Underweight, afraid of carbs, and ... prediabetic. Long history of AN-R, ""recovered"" since 2015. Got some routine labs done yesterday and my A1C level was borderline prediabetic, despite the fact that I'm underweight and have literally never been even on the higher side of normal my whole life. Not only that, but I already limit most starchy/sugary foods. I'm scared of fucking bananas and grapes, for god's sake. I don't get it. I really don't get it. Guess I gotta go eat less and exercise more ... cool, cool, cool.",4.440312500000001,6.5392107395833365,5.68375,75.68625,71.8125,9.383333333333336,28.66666666666667,9.827888789773867,3.0236916666666667,405,16,73,11,8,135,71,96,0.04,0.855,0.105,0.7393,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,2,2,3,6,5,0,0,2,14,15,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,1,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,3,6,3,6,10,5,7,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,3,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27509105013063045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551040419505033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25507972621692765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646497053842388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30143515550641786,0.0,0.0,0.2304590053116833,0.2604811619241725,0.0,0.1416738199567462,0.0,0.1993751563731907,0.0,0.2746143878919517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17607663406729493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22060846123986733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19226315882169304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442453540754163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895916857325761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969768888808442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495767331978693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621026881501006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783166403456321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amberinthewoods,2019/07/11,"DAE lie to your calorie counting app to feel more accomplished? I didn't realize I was doing it until today, but I set my calorie goals like 100-200 kcal below my tdee, and then eat way below that at my ""real"" restriction number. Even on days when I exceed my ""real"" goal I still beat the number that I set in the app and somehow that... helps? Anyone else do this?",5.825273972602742,5.211374232876711,6.722020547945206,79.37426369863014,66.94520547945207,8.943835616438355,27.839041095890412,8.07648339933343,1.751605479452054,281,7,55,3,4,94,54,73,0.036000000000000004,0.799,0.165,0.8194,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,11,1,8,3,1,14,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,39,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19834317956252373,0.2906454072254549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829386280906938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902572086745849,0.2369633381171817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873561831146047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14342811250403698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901327682478748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858300431624912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457392851749921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22653296947235366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688785623970945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251578212836753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ybnbaddie,2019/07/01,what are you favorite protein bars? i exercise and i need energy for that but i don’t want something that will totally throw off my whole day,2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,3.6428571428571423,85.56880952380955,80.42857142857143,8.019047619047619,27.190476190476193,8.841846274778883,2.5055333333333336,114,5,22,3,3,37,25,28,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.4588,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632097032638749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4175968057031061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335696786321277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33218290578309434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6287793493729447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liltuuna,2019/07/01,Family celebrations are the worst My little sister passed her summer classes last Friday and today we’re celebrating. Everything was going fine and i was eating enough to keep my mom off my back and myself in check... Until she brought out a cake. My stomach DROPPED and i think my mom noticed because she gave the first slice to my sister and the second one to me and watched like a hawk until i choked it all down. I’m so sad. i hate myself so much.,3.025421348314609,5.1251349550561835,4.128525280898876,85.27795646067419,75.85393258426966,6.247752808988763,22.360955056179773,7.1686216300943375,0.8136393258426966,357,10,68,4,8,116,63,89,0.156,0.762,0.08199999999999999,-0.8469,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,5,0,3,2,1,0,1,10,10,10,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,3,0,3,4,1,16,2,9,6,4,16,0,1,1,0,8,5,0,0,8,50,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17836770245668088,0.0,0.14140445285358172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23735935042553954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396831106444176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847627857595724,0.0,0.21867710492755427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19731034568434289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183174678743445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290186151780668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20618223187778886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908342697752786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332697656237348,0.2324910891506419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5433520596062632,0.0,0.0,0.17052185987358706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640950755217753,0.0,0.0,0.1571863119753794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863458547139638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21987685062278156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minsssk,2019/07/01,"My hair is falling a lot and I need help. Well I really don't know what to do next. My hair doesn't stop falling, I've been eating everyday, maybe not a lot but I can say that I'm doing much better than I used to. My doctor has prescribed me some iron and vitamin pills and I've been consistent with them. I'm not in the point of getting balds everywhere on my head but all my family is worried because there's hair of mine literally everywhere 24/7 and I'm trying to recover but my hair isn't doing well. I'm sad also because I used to have the most voluminous hair and now I look like so sick. If someone can recommend me anything I would be so grateful. Thanks in advance 🖤",1.4200201207243452,3.4765073802816886,3.655855130784712,86.91746478873242,80.83098591549296,7.155734406438633,24.227364185110666,8.192908349453996,1.5444068410462777,536,20,113,11,14,184,87,142,0.11599999999999999,0.703,0.18100000000000002,0.8729,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,0,0,4,0,16,12,7,2,1,23,27,12,0,3,6,0,5,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,6,1,1,1,0,0,3,5,1,2,0,2,7,17,5,11,23,6,11,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,5,5,74,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078731681219953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551646490982137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298826817521688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16676152103081418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19299397010101507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19293877566668766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777528157850839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851217345110766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351176579360455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638440122598446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362486348581504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211841905006783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833866021291634,0.0,0.0,0.3206053331599684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894287800043527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386095757737477,0.13981109829867544,0.0,0.0,0.20053031702412746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782453639537435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079312232232532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14994645574960894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976198816062914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764037216205615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735960549259436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801642669390442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257018552683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390670698854589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914866935045192,0.0,0.1339440189528029,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,an_ungulate_ahoof,2019/07/01,DAE lick the seasoning off chips and throw them out? I feel so wasteful..,1.24642857142857,3.911835071428573,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,91.14285714285714,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.7275428571428577,57,2,12,1,2,17,14,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idlehandsdevilswork,2019/07/01,"anyone on myfitnesspal? if so, please share your user names. i need motivation cause i have been gaining weight for like a month or so and i want to stoooopppp. 

could really use some motivation to not eat so much. and to work out more. i'm just logging my steps rn while i'm at work. but hey, that counts too",0.32267025089605283,2.7598181129032247,1.7515053763440849,94.77503584229393,93.67741935483872,5.336200716845879,16.566308243727597,6.937597516519254,-0.06769390681003573,241,6,54,4,9,77,50,62,0.0,0.802,0.198,0.7949,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,4,0,17,8,9,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,7,6,3,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,3,32,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20612910120923592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028379955405143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23537162725262195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016511970593547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402305229547474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353043634152121,0.0,0.2167099086824953,0.2185884357265581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235988696680506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888546758895894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546101844656277,0.0,0.0,0.17387906410819828,0.0,0.0,0.3589836484326317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292318380932567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway5738382826,2019/07/01,"Which ass do you prefer? https://m.imgur.com/SiQLCzg

And what do you think of the rest?",5.126190476190477,8.09829828571429,1.4014285714285712,93.32690476190477,101.85714285714286,4.723809523809524,11.809523809523812,6.42735559955562,-0.5890190476190469,72,1,12,1,3,18,12,14,0.22899999999999998,0.7709999999999999,0.0,-0.594,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PostcardFrom1982,2019/07/01,"Starting outpatient treatment this week After over a decade of having bulimia and BED, I scheduled a consultation with a local, but nationally known, ED clinic. The consultation consisted of them asking me questions about why I thought I needed treatment, and my behaviors. I fucking cried during the whole thing while I was explaining things like trigger foods, my specific kinds of purging, how I would hide it from people. I explained how my behaviors wax and wane and how I was, surprisingly, doing the best in regards to ED behavior that I have done in literally years. They asked why I reached out to them now, and I sort of lied. I said I was basically sick of having bulimia.

That's not totally true. I've almost totally curbed my purging behaviors. So it's morphed so much more into BED and I've gained so much weight, and I was really hoping they could just help me to not eat so much anymore. Even when seeking treatment, it's because I want to be thin.

But at least I'm going right? I'm hoping that will count for something.",6.731529209621995,7.4341929948453656,7.137680412371132,72.68356529209623,64.9278350515464,10.384192439862543,35.23883161512028,10.317481424215053,3.7864687285223373,827,37,143,19,12,270,119,194,0.086,0.765,0.149,0.9123,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,4,2,12,8,1,0,6,0,13,6,0,4,3,36,28,18,0,6,5,0,2,1,0,2,2,1,2,0,9,10,3,1,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,7,3,25,7,20,17,9,19,0,0,0,1,13,10,1,5,9,105,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780131674451392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628465202502648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946464510035304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960639984467428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653785673892739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582095437812366,0.0,0.17310268726533332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126692904267104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125155757442153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408518874133953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905556707856941,0.0,0.0,0.14568728810676715,0.0,0.0,0.08956072077682603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562771262738622,0.0,0.0,0.3130402846422838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16410333793969206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698938951897474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475352724357371,0.1168492817939266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925146813157607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653428817458694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095471504598973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13457903363874302,0.14990198867634924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131870949177342,0.0,0.0,0.11154138423390662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093885293538766,0.0,0.0,0.1251070300449973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294930764525587,0.0,0.12640734634758266,0.19189936263412305,0.0,0.0,0.2843967737426665,0.17594103780888798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119457797391138,0.0,0.0,0.1014813112422445
EDAnonymous,wowitsholly,2019/07/01,"its sad how people treat me after i gained a bunch of weight back lol (tw: suicide and depression mentioned) i lost about 40ish pounds more than a year ago? i went from about 170 lbs all the way down to approx. 132 lbs. it was healthy at first, but then it spiraled down to this obsession and all i could think about at the time was just how fucking huge i was. i counted calories like my life legit depended on it - it was SO bad that if i didnt count for a day, i would get suicidal ideation and horrible panic attacks. but the smaller i got, the more.... nicer people seemed. i cant really explain it. the diet in general helped my skin clear up, my body was toned from all the exercising i did, and my body did look good looking back at some old photos now. i did notice a bit of attention from guys, and people seemed to want to talk to me way more now than when i was 170 lbs. everyone was just much friendlier, but i didnt really truly realize it at the time.

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then i went through  a HORRIBLE depressive episode. all i did was work and go back home with a bunch of food and basically stuffed myself because food was the only thing keeping me alive. acne started to come back, my clothes are so much tighter... even my face ballooned up. i avoided weighing myself or calorie counting because all i wanted to do was stuff my face until my stomach felt like it was about to explode. this went on for two months or so, and well... 25 lbs later, i can say that a lot of things changed. people stopped talking to me less. no compliments or even a bat of an eye towards me. even my own parents started shaming me in wearing clothes i usually wore, even though they would have not said anything if i were 25 pound lighter. im basically invisible again. alone. 

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i hate that i started counting calories again. i hate how i started thinking about food again. but i also cant handle this sort of treatment. even with body positivity being more relevent now a days, people are STILL pressured into these standards and its so horribly depressing. 

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ANYWAY thats my rant about spiraling back down into this hellhole! please take care of yourselves ladies and men and nonbinary friends. 

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tl;dr: lost 40ish pounds and didnt realize just how much better i was treated to how i am now after gaining more than half the weight back from binging for 2ish month. even more depressed and spiraling back down into this rabbit hole after i was beginning to recover.",4.723945386064031,6.408698720338986,4.873333333333335,83.475527306968,70.27118644067797,7.617325800376648,31.33145009416196,8.167268648758528,2.2995294726930315,1964,86,365,28,36,614,235,472,0.175,0.7070000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.9889,1,2,0,0,0,1,72.0,0,0,1,7,44,27,4,5,19,1,33,19,9,6,6,66,65,37,2,7,13,1,4,2,1,2,2,2,1,2,22,19,7,3,9,1,0,5,7,17,1,3,30,9,48,10,59,31,21,66,0,7,3,1,12,19,1,11,42,268,70,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054429493074955634,0.0,0.0,0.06359433368521131,0.0,0.049103450287493286,0.0,0.2661177536962271,0.29844238437331777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05052891578977979,0.0,0.0,0.0698540562008811,0.0,0.3305024077517945,0.05126841122962982,0.07486062537628492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05430540333841161,0.06703548111925815,0.20461256094945005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260380487638098,0.0,0.06495556206928822,0.05289270178273612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049024793275751474,0.0,0.0,0.07919889337309179,0.0,0.2115430730910553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433341037507957,0.0,0.0,0.05867259250926174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05895590099471008,0.0,0.0,0.05222882155781678,0.22274395582112394,0.0,0.04743931602487828,0.0567654983833196,0.03208020219495024,0.0,0.034896379886899045,0.051501391785257485,0.04910908168448425,0.0,0.0,0.06079799647841225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124424944943706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041156711943113766,0.0,0.06159158001925338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06632509249401439,0.0,0.0,0.05457724459296796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043370307326327226,0.05999618941453989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312504651882218,0.0,0.13405587275774647,0.05220209620923517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802156621819053,0.0,0.13541341322202158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990700120606748,0.06443145462767437,0.0,0.0,0.04669926660226621,0.0,0.07204244718168692,0.06818006149240846,0.0,0.0,0.21284334818056808,0.0,0.0,0.06740135960701824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867185652507766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05840771151994861,0.048829626332942584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179681665788477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384364411431308,0.0,0.04903600918510296,0.051335127790636564,0.0,0.0,0.07029101922855106,0.13432844583669654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046166937971816736,0.09870579258761764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158600780469223,0.07868831423897955,0.060327513306687335,0.0,0.07160842735483416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998118993510331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676260318132837,0.0,0.07243341325703989,0.0974766809288792,0.0,0.14954308094998964,0.0552081015904768,0.17076182666414805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04470165409382053,0.0,0.0,0.0872369588504262,0.0,0.29844238437331777,0.03954111085544465
EDAnonymous,DoctorHasick,2019/07/01,"my family and friends say i’m in denial of having an eating disorder. i don’t think i have one. am i in denial? is it serious enough? backstory:

throughout childhood, high school, and first year of college i was always average/above average in weight. always on the chunkier side. sophomore year of college i gained the most weight i ever have, clocking in at 175 pounds (5”7 tall) 

i went out a lot throughout college and intentionally started making myself throw up after drinking. i convinced myself it was to not feel sick, and not for calories.

i eventually started making myself vomit after large meals, but not all of the time. only when i overate. i did this maybe 4 times a week. got down to 150 pounds. this lasted about 8 months.

i noticed a change in weight, and continued. eventually had to stop because my roommates contacted my family, my family said they wouldn’t let me go to medical school. 

so i switched to eating less. i would make sure to never go over 1000 calories every day. most days i would eat only once. most days i reached 700 calories.

i did this for 2 years. 

i am now 120 pounds (5”7) and continue to keep my caloric intake under 1000 in hopes of losing more/maintaining. if i go over, i don’t eat the next day. i don’t have “safe foods” i eat whatever i want as long as it’s under the caloric goal. i weigh myself at least 3 times a day still. i look in a mirror probably 200 times lol. i don’t think i’m fat, but i see my body and see fat that needs to be gone and it is constantly on my mind. if i am not the skinniest person in the room, i become preoccupied the whole night with how much of a failure i am and how perfect the skinny girl is. 

again, i don’t think i have a problem but my family and friends do. i’m not sure what to think of it and i’m not sure what the point of this post was, i just needed somewhere to vent it to. thanks so much everyone",1.6394185342216832,3.8720487585301835,3.3029396325459324,88.78222289521506,81.0997375328084,6.322390470421968,22.63012315768221,7.5161900641278425,0.9940321825156476,1471,49,303,23,39,487,189,381,0.047,0.833,0.11900000000000001,0.9754,0,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,1,5,11,13,0,0,18,1,29,19,4,6,7,59,59,23,0,10,12,0,4,0,2,3,5,2,1,2,13,13,15,3,5,1,0,6,13,3,0,2,10,9,47,10,47,44,11,67,0,1,3,0,8,25,0,7,35,200,60,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157537002712566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048196756254096515,0.08732011340520571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782241823422063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363935985480232,0.0,0.0,0.08544023019501143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25494909642488184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061433610596248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07745274167098233,0.0,0.4045116870872514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169437545162872,0.0,0.0,0.07151802682829021,0.06661493463024554,0.07554915887359506,0.0,0.0,0.2981384790041386,0.0,0.03997719679706147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725190363847101,0.09560465279597533,0.0,0.12216949243047212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480189141663532,0.0,0.06323480275278094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353558811891335,0.0,0.07852851505541672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07027582634918199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444781375563542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808484237334221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06996926189733316,0.0663939515035707,0.0884525311388625,0.0,0.06721749101888846,0.0,0.0,0.158327750501502,0.0,0.07943053968043874,0.0,0.0,0.07964878714467177,0.0,0.0,0.07983222677460443,0.0,0.06310822960556678,0.0,0.11624245701558612,0.11725009252473127,0.06097912671706957,0.0,0.08408559302947481,0.07419632459325405,0.0,0.0,0.09001502941360735,0.0,0.08420071187894422,0.05357589674069333,0.12026365841114167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06903574358945425,0.0,0.0,0.07474115313447481,0.0,0.07572157562288792,0.0,0.08524449832850206,0.07565368899805494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520808759843275,0.06287496495034592,0.0,0.1600342294067092,0.12600774101125592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119239880723162,0.0,0.06314071170227595,0.06610114807248198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235510040654808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279162294581608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20264439322321132,0.0,0.0,0.1844117065072477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04663406892280283,0.0,0.06342047134358242,0.2888364097603384,0.0,0.07329323522539395,0.0,0.08827227110548481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232977071534304,0.0,0.0,0.1527441112603741
EDAnonymous,cas1o1,2019/07/01,"The sturggles of working at a food place and having no self control :))) Had a footlong ultimate pizza sub today cause ya know ya girls a pig. Can't even find how much calories it is online.
Probably 4 the best i got upset about my 400 calorie wheatbix and milk this morning.

Anyway probs gonna eat a punnet of b&js tonight cause fuck it",1.96318181818182,4.666794939393941,2.8244696969697003,89.50670454545454,84.45454545454547,4.512121212121213,26.431818181818183,5.985473137389443,1.021218181818182,270,12,49,2,8,85,57,66,0.12300000000000001,0.815,0.062,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,3,4,3,1,1,6,0,4,5,0,4,0,8,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,4,5,2,4,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509417084379118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24305301585507394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758400720675888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597624112111493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23698764597191205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529715695860354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116809079457676,0.0,0.28005521636749564,0.0,0.0,0.21411320284779176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852340429987052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12728292888148635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702548228487459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419757971333633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497071609524453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161239612217006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195325237425489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860971194140867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,excusemebro,2019/07/01,"Make microwave scrambled eggs more palatable without adding lots of calories? I’m sick of boiled eggs, I want scrambled eggs for breakfast tomorrow. I don’t want to use oil or butter, so I’m planning on nuking them.. I’ve done it before, but not without drowning them in ketchup... cooking eggs in the microwave is inherently gross. Does anyone have some suggestions?",4.589010989010991,7.698351153846151,4.0068131868131855,82.8746153846154,75.92307692307692,5.560439560439562,33.901098901098905,6.868970318607317,2.44910989010989,295,16,46,3,7,88,50,65,0.10300000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.065,-0.6612,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,2,0,11,10,3,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,9,9,3,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,1,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22057609716168813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26843216694598004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27606008344626964,0.3228238325995884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681917536643565,0.0,0.0,0.21057116938406414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724550801297981,0.0,0.0,0.37213149539891227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6081819677343732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LatterDaySaintLucia,2019/07/01,"Recovery means giving up weight loss completely? Why? Say I'm a fiercely competitive academic overachiever who thinks anything less than an A is unacceptable. I push myself to the brink of exhaustion, grinding away to get the highest grades possible. It's making me miserable, and my physical health and social life are suffering as well. I can't keep living like this, so I seek help.

I'm told to quit checking my grades and take a flexible intuitive approach, only studying what I feel like when I feel like it; my grades will naturally settle where they're supposed to be, even if I have to flunk some classes. *What?!*

Of course, if I recover, I may feel fine with a 3.5 GPA instead of a 4.0. Still, surely it's better to try to do well! This kind of treatment would go beyond just fixing the rigid mindsets and dysfunctional behaviors that are ruining my life; it would totally redefine my values and lifestyle in a way that could ruin my life quite differently.

That's not how therapy works for stressed-out academic achievers, yet that's what I'm getting out of ED treatment as a formerly overweight patient.

""Healthy at Every Size"" is sadly a lie; we know excess fat is inherently unhealthy in many ways, and calorie-conscious approaches prevent these harms in a way that ""intuitive eating"" can't. It's not disordered to want to take care of your health - my disorder led me to *neglect* my health! Narratives of mentally well fat people losing weight patiently and healthily are dramatically different from my own weight loss story. I don't see why I can't strive to be more like them instead of becoming more like their previous selves who didn't care about how big they got.

Any thoughts?",6.265255773165741,7.856549382636661,6.465947091493714,73.88337547500733,66.42765273311898,10.284770534931306,34.715141771411865,10.436869588844218,3.9792109324758833,1362,64,230,36,22,436,191,311,0.171,0.72,0.109,-0.9626,3,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,1,1,3,8,17,27,0,2,13,0,20,14,2,4,2,39,44,15,0,6,5,0,6,5,0,4,10,1,0,0,18,10,7,4,8,0,1,5,7,13,3,0,4,8,27,14,34,33,6,23,0,10,1,0,12,11,0,4,9,143,45,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570290942304555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950760260677127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907749020682996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670594461701388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544993219316566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19701505017409915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013011422289944,0.0,0.0,0.07714085530479474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018885137341019,0.2214630273133355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886336605855534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381465252550933,0.0,0.08140403451305198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655745558558994,0.1380464844472235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095684531497012,0.09268388142182668,0.054909697963946485,0.0,0.07727348370580306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080982291058287,0.0,0.0,0.06476037426546782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587767630961002,0.0,0.10061179323911278,0.05309820577105893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20473044627642467,0.2360110597730581,0.0,0.08531462822116348,0.0,0.0,0.10808976902193844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449263335985876,0.0979545274583603,0.0,0.10524429536609806,0.0,0.0,0.09736726521090742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348162280956058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698209957656806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10892121068157752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552825814778866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683375875446727,0.0,0.0,0.07699128247387567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984889186255572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715850361665047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106042937360227,0.0,0.1452879999684102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104900207740167,0.0,0.0,0.06190830656587095,0.0,0.07670314813628316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232173491596972,0.0,0.06559663711980768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05698724133180005,0.23007035940462275,0.0,0.3529606266112153,0.2606110026301645,0.0,0.17436372566768515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703383655478257,0.0,0.0,0.13726796525299384,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunarfroth,2019/02/12,how am i hungry and full at the same time?? i just ate a huge salad and was full for like 10 minutes afterward and now i’m STARVING?!?! why does my body do such strange things? it would be easier to understand my ed if could just behave normally. i also have lost 8 pounds since yesterday so i’m just not understanding what the fuck is going on,1.0448571428571434,3.4132199857142886,2.9939285714285724,89.18232142857146,84.85714285714286,6.928571428571428,20.17857142857143,8.07648339933343,1.0661428571428568,269,8,57,6,8,90,58,70,0.166,0.7340000000000001,0.1,-0.725,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,3,0,8,4,1,1,0,15,16,7,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,1,4,10,3,10,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,1,5,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21400319467315404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.297248234472779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21366039082337085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2341824714372309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473960165756064,0.0,0.0,0.15208578490107624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073802480023902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29212188621053536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26219555874431794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22136517951564816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778451624691655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604231606671987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5571713730974245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414714072353632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900985346066069,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quentintarrantino,2019/02/12,Vertical sleeve gastrectomy I can go to Mexico and get the surgery there but I don’t qualify for the surgery here. Seriously debating doing it. The thought of just not being hungry anymore is making me want to plop down the $5k. ,2.6663636363636343,5.425472909090914,4.737454545454547,76.77118181818186,81.27272727272728,8.974545454545455,29.25454545454545,9.3871,3.4354509090909087,184,9,33,6,5,63,38,44,0.049,0.9159999999999999,0.035,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,10,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5722707210353365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014806879187827,0.0,0.3279463312059033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851800917582942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581069821173183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403543893572354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stop-meowing,2019/02/12,"While it SUCKS that I can’t use Peach... ...it has brought me out of my binge cycle!!

I was hardcore binging bc of stress in my life, but for whatever reason, Peach being down has put me back on my game. So I guess there’s a bright side to all of this?
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EDAnonymous,Strawberry_Smoothie,2019/02/12,"Went in for sterilization consult, did not expect blood work I didn't expect the doctor to be a good match, so I went there with the intention to check him off my list, instead, he ticked all the boxes and I made an appointment on the spot. 

As it's 100 km away from my home town, doing anything else but having the blood drawn then and there would have been highly impractical, so that's what happened.

Didn't mention my bulimia, only complicates things, and you know how doctors can get with sterilization even when you're an old hag like me: ""Ohhh, you have a mental illness, well maybe you're too unstable to make this decision! Fix denied!""

I've purged at least once a day, more frequently two times, during the last months and can amuse myself now with sitting here and keeping my fingers crossed they're not checking too many parameters or that mine are at least somewhat passable still. It wouldn't be a BIG issue, I set the date for April, so if the numbers were bad, I could still get a second draw, with plenty of time beforehand, but still... I don't need all that anxiety!",5.998750000000001,6.604376375000001,5.797115384615385,81.99788461538462,66.5,8.9,29.461538461538463,8.841846274778883,2.1458250000000003,858,28,166,13,13,267,143,208,0.08,0.865,0.055,-0.7163,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,1,17,5,0,0,15,0,18,6,3,4,2,31,28,16,0,7,6,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,8,9,0,1,2,1,2,3,6,1,1,2,8,1,16,4,18,15,6,30,0,0,0,0,6,10,0,3,16,112,24,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12222370922630132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147720055845982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010929286769795,0.0,0.1334013817671311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12756344515028628,0.0,0.0,0.10303851394064756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270629883934906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346743917804468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552666152142616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669465933323877,0.0,0.0,0.13400760160699313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412841949420484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880591030976502,0.16026246342973616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16675850216180116,0.0,0.14201102915272024,0.0,0.0,0.08780548300498409,0.13023397708061474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805561335628633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117835648227462,0.10664779986807484,0.1619818310451128,0.1605105663237269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101070886613522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752699043000335,0.0,0.0,0.11846752413095303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676518712097418,0.17014997006093166,0.0,0.12151238048612595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827778874796449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614417253210903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18632649083896885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607219778160647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365253106679762,0.2962170152955237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11631455472030724,0.0,0.0,0.11349611361745765,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marigoldpony,2019/02/12,"Those moments you realize the extent of how badly you’re hurting yourself Relevant info: Severe EDNOS for 13 years, in and out of recovery, never recovered. I just need to throw some thoughts out there. None of this is probably very helpful.

In these last few years my ED has shifted, and me along with it. I’ve become more self-aware, I’m finally able to admit I have an ED and a severe one at that. Somewhere in the murk of my mind I do realize that what I’m doing is harmful, that it could kill me if I don’t stop. But that epiphany is still a fair distance away, I know it but I don’t feel it. It’ll come when it’s ready, just like the realization that I had a very real mental illness did. Ten years a little late but hey, could be worse, right?

At this point in time right now, I am doing the best I’ve ever done. Last year was full of challenges that in the past would have broken me; my four year long relationship ended (amicably, though not without its own struggles), I had to leave my house to move back in with my father at 26 years old (we aren’t close for good reason), dropped out of school for my mental health, couldn’t afford therapy or get that medication review I really still need, it’s just been hard. But I did what I needed to do and I got my shit together. In fact, in the process I stopped purging almost completely. I threw away my scales, stopped counting calories, I put as much effort into my recovery as I could because if I didn’t keep pushing forward during this shift in my life, the only other place I’d be guaranteed to go is backwards. I had spent years learning to manage my depression and anxiety, there was no way I could let myself unravel like that.

But somewhere along the way I stopped eating. I got good at it, and everything else it seemed like. I’m in a wonderfully healthy relationship with my new partner (and I swear I’m gonna marry him), I got a raise at my job, am volunteering at a crisis hotline, have made new friends and overall have really come to value myself as an individual. I love myself, I really do. I don’t want to be anyone different. This isn’t even really about my body anymore. I could stay at this weight and be fine, I’m not happy with it but I’m also aware enough to know I never will be so it is what it is, most days. This is now about me and how it feels good to finally feel in control of this thing. Even if I know it’s still controlling me, it doesn’t feel that way. It feels good. It feels structured. It feels like I just want to do this for just a little bit longer. It also feels guilty. Feels like I can’t let go, like I’m watching myself from the outside, it feels like this is on a whole other level of self-destruction and if anything is gonna kill me, it’ll be this.

I’ve reached a crossroad in my progress. The truth is, I didn’t argue with my psychiatrist when he misdiagnosed me with BED a few years back, he doesn’t need to know we hold very different definitions of what a binge is. It wasn’t my proudest moment when I went back a few months ago to tell him that I wanted to get on amphetamines again, or when I dipped into my savings account to afford the medication I didn’t need that my insurance wouldn’t cover. Or when I started countering my fatigue and hunger with Adderall, or when I lied to my therapist about it, my boyfriend, myself. I mistake my high functioning disorder with progress because that’s what others call it. But it’s not and I wish I felt that.

I have therapy on Friday, my first time in almost three months. I want to tell her about the med abuse but I know that if I do, I have to stop. I have to stop. I have to stop. If I don’t, I might never be able to stop. I might never have that future I’m working so hard for. I might lose this relationship, I might lose all of them.

I already know what I’m supposed to do, now if I could only stop feeling like there might be another answer out there, I might make some actual progress.


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EDAnonymous,daffodilhill,2019/02/12,"DAE think Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez's body is goals? I know I should value her mind and morals more than what she looks like, but I'm just so jealous that she can rock an all-white outfit and still look thin.",4.073571428571427,5.1852335000000025,3.074761904761907,97.95357142857144,71.14285714285714,5.6000000000000005,18.761904761904766,3.1291,-0.7972952380952383,165,2,37,0,3,47,38,42,0.127,0.79,0.083,-0.5926,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,8,8,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,7,1,2,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,19,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4303162293520427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290597851252036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926502276710644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6506401312385242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39116553036385227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093796951236833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823152488975295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,properrank,2019/02/12,"i think my friends are the reason i’m relapsing so, for context, i was anorexic around five years ago and was very underweight, and somehow i woke up one day and thought “this is gross, i’m going to recover”. it was, surprisingly, one of the easiest things i’ve ever done. it was like something clicked in my brain and i realised being a little chubby really didn’t matter. 

cut to now, five years later, and BOY do i regret recovering. i despise my body, and i miss my collarbones and my hipbones and not having massive thighs. 

but i was going lose weight naturally this time—do it with exercise and a healthy diet. i was talking about it with my newfound college friends and i said i want to lose weight 

do you know what every single one of them said? “don’t eat”.

half of them are overweight and the other half are ex-anorexics themselves, so i didn’t feel like i could be angry about the joke. but i also didn’t feel like i could confess to that being triggering because oBvIoUsLy a 10 and a half stone girl isn’t anorexic

i actually felt so triggered and alone and here i am starving and all they’re saying how much better i look :)",4.074428910577684,5.594902668161438,5.082833025586918,81.98516222632553,71.64573991031389,7.758269585861251,29.26114481667107,8.313332769828598,2.1193916644684783,897,36,171,14,17,294,128,223,0.13,0.72,0.15,0.5806,0,2,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,2,3,12,15,2,0,8,0,25,9,3,4,3,41,41,22,0,4,3,0,5,3,2,0,2,3,0,2,10,18,5,0,8,2,0,2,6,7,0,8,15,10,27,8,15,21,3,13,1,4,2,0,12,4,0,1,10,123,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.1335802816490254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134053636441552,0.0,0.0,0.14177186159853733,0.0,0.1094671042962438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185691537224892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834439926091613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106390113709793,0.0,0.15204868102367594,0.0,0.15280923664881568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21858350593279424,0.0,0.0,0.0882796776016726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400811610251588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400678089192321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382056731410045,0.11533174729935305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842661512248353,0.1955817344320756,0.13143132967808424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21151444652599066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559011166323206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522856682312147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006256918475059,0.13719500576739174,0.0,0.0,0.1149491548632192,0.30627921579205925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062642673442243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27827101318335856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769221177929412,0.14074086005412773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604184842908126,0.10885666419038333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538097166335236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002319825358793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909404937247876,0.08771055650123961,0.0,0.10867161745527824,0.07981890416912489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294468697359256,0.0807384812789913,0.0,0.0,0.33337877365622953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629925720738038
EDAnonymous,throwupupupandaway77,2019/02/12,"My boyfriend cares too much about me/my ED I’m a 22 y/o F. I’ve had an ED getting worse for months. A few years ago in high school I had a ED but it was never serious. It went away when I starting lifting seriously and paying attention to what I ate. 

Over the last few months I’ve been under a lot of stress and for the first time ever, I realized I had an ED. It started with not being able to control my appetite, puking a couple of times. It started because my body was so full, not because I forced it. Then I went full bul and I’d purge by not eating at all for days at a time. 

I told my boyfriend finally and only him and he was suuuuper caring about it. Almost too caring. Now I feel like I have to hide my issues. He’ll notice if I don’t eat or when I binge and then try and ask me about it. That’s why I finally told him to begin with. 

Since I told him I’ve been trying to get better. I tried deleting my reddit account and tumblr to avoid looking at ED-related stuff ever since I told him about my ED. Recovery is hard. I fall off the wagon sometimes and I don’t know if I can/should tell him. 

The thing I can’t stand is that he’s the only person that knows and I can’t talk to anyone else about it. I love him so much and I know he loves me and only asks me about it because he does. But when I’m with him I want to GET AWAY from my ED, rather than obsess about it even more. 

It feels good to be back on Reddit and be reminded I’m not alone in this. (Will probably delete the app again in a week or two though)

Anyone have some advice? 💕",0.13811764705882368,1.923708576470592,2.4700000000000024,95.16500000000002,83.82352941176471,5.294117647058823,17.941176470588232,6.37848985222837,-0.29764705882352915,1196,27,286,11,34,408,171,340,0.062,0.815,0.12300000000000001,0.9734,0,2,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,0,3,22,13,0,3,15,0,20,6,1,1,4,44,52,27,0,4,11,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,18,16,3,2,7,0,2,3,9,5,0,2,15,4,42,8,39,32,10,47,0,0,1,2,23,15,0,7,29,187,60,2,0.09059703627916496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08853037532130532,0.08030880634910742,0.0,0.09071984511880694,0.0938312069486478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126695108504815,0.09282736993042738,0.0,0.0,0.16939199844018865,0.0,0.17023779571268333,0.06966352867736847,0.0,0.16568133727346984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012571629886017,0.0,0.10063288366630764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771091493876834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161227980944132,0.0,0.10024389745972596,0.0,0.058427593494250266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928207697055105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18540677137697564,0.07568219865345971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983848802138965,0.16390041218543466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161716735821276,0.06472254081997922,0.0,0.1984892497913539,0.0,0.07706179277754027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199963660326093,0.0,0.0,0.075988495683691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115714943468276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572074295138884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09455976802646944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14936928546552955,0.07384867639287541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044261135692935896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607869302785653,0.0,0.0,0.07702236046386987,0.1635347247728018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462738002377196,0.0,0.1331984917875685,0.0,0.06987401950861745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031453262769427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067093856473397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791058375883749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767892818216964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168903745944246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14988560922813182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960278544031341,0.0,0.19237514573633888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377859896234956,0.0,0.10371193138861867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281846600645203,0.07918580293400566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060188645267748864,0.0,0.08901112815800191,0.0,0.1584835812493425,0.0,0.0,0.3462774024617522,0.0,0.18452832206371367,0.0,0.0885001401805021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0534364792857225,0.0,0.07267147777415975,0.0,0.0,0.1679687205673048,0.08174973377438581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232611988981304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05834152102327075
EDAnonymous,PastaQueens,2019/02/12,"I’m doing it guys, I’m accepting inpatient treatment It’s been a year since my last attempt at inpatient treatment (which ended in catastrophe may I add). My therapists have wanted me to go inpatient again for over 8months now, and I finally (a tad unwillingly) agreed to it a couple months ago. So here I am, currently sitting in the car, on my way to the treatment center. 

I won’t lie, I’m scared to death, and not completely sure if I actually want this or not. But I’m willing to give it a try. I’m sick of this eating disorder ruining my life, and I really want to recover (at least parts of me does). 

Idk, felt I needed to get it out, to try and ease the anxiety I’m feeling right now and so on. 
So I guess this is it. Wish me luck guys...",2.542121212121213,3.8095019350649366,4.89292207792208,82.84033549783553,75.10389610389609,9.28917748917749,27.768398268398272,9.725611199111238,2.585213852813852,574,23,124,16,12,202,93,154,0.153,0.74,0.107,-0.8583,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,1,7,0,8,3,0,0,1,24,25,11,1,6,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,10,7,1,0,3,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,2,15,3,19,20,2,24,0,1,0,0,3,10,0,5,10,78,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.16856611669719368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312067589919898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214311450925778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18111115968370894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911298901278444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797124109970302,0.0,0.1511630637324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767527836618524,0.0,0.0,0.15299345890503604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734087348326952,0.0,0.1658543355552576,0.1892246284589115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902478043715962,0.16570479738865065,0.09817025610285916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028896656498376,0.3420730118236249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408034779446573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220090505457756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787679825860344,0.0,0.0,0.12808208575866112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870570297498407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065956308628104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751621116708608,0.0,0.0,0.17293958631757142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14288959602267728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628023100457127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005606403052578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345537820938691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056537706587759,0.13711036448278285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19863869793740085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123678134670507
EDAnonymous,Byrdnest47,2019/02/12,"Today is the last day I binge ...she says to herself every day for the past 3 weeks. 

What is wrong with me ",-1.214057971014494,0.7916412173913088,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,93.34782608695652,3.066666666666667,12.014492753623188,3.1291,-1.8726985507246376,80,1,20,0,3,26,20,23,0.134,0.866,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767692261285552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114342360654748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013026396330539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528593461650213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939493491308454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503716668659724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964996686318617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40413889258712615,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jbh4y,2019/02/12,"I swear to God if the scale doesn't move down tomorrow . . . This is ranting/venting.

So I've been eating less than 200 cals a day which has translated to a smooth downward trend for my weight loss.

Until this morning.

I usually eat around 4oz of a protein. Yesterday I found some rib eyes steaks cut to that proportion. Not chicken?! We gotta have some of that. I counted the calories like crazy, weighed it three times, cooked it up, it was delicious and filling. I go to bed very content.

And then the scale went up by 0.2.

Now the logical portion of my brain says that's no big deal, I just used too much salt, I'm retaining water, and it will go down tomorrow.

And the other half of my brain says, if the scale doesn't go down you are going to be running until you puke and will never eat again.

So yeah, really emotionally invested in what the scale says tomorrow.",2.5111627906976746,4.6244430813953485,3.5583139534883728,88.69816860465116,77.48837209302326,7.323255813953488,25.284883720930228,8.278499904357787,1.6084465116279074,678,25,140,13,16,218,116,172,0.08199999999999999,0.855,0.064,-0.273,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,2,0,1,7,3,1,0,10,1,11,11,4,1,1,18,20,12,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,3,0,3,1,0,12,7,7,1,2,1,1,8,5,2,0,2,4,7,12,1,21,12,5,30,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,4,14,89,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395313617489516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610360361558653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10428736368755566,0.16671237905442998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4963985911544239,0.0,0.1818981325738762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17730291374361512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676062940425475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900166478168738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17186849872808074,0.1188729393505744,0.0,0.1247180800887109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359337313914396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38578667831547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429240471161356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966256180913555,0.1780969474215977,0.13342486025083775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969150452206669,0.0,0.14990361576041755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Judiroo,2019/02/12,I'm a binging idiot Reached my gw today so ended up having a celebratory binge. I was binging on cookies with this icing my friend made only ton realize it was infused with cannabis. :) Nothing better than binge/purging while high for the entire fucking day.,3.23070921985816,6.318461468085108,4.537340425531916,76.4841666666667,83.25531914893618,4.835460992907802,31.23758865248227,6.42735559955562,2.206435460992908,207,11,30,2,6,68,40,47,0.111,0.741,0.14800000000000002,0.2249,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,3,2,6,3,1,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,4,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157950861837602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23027746615338454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316253717916427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758676295840814,0.3301009540894948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772589084528085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378636544391967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426136172234842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715641172846208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3384559876609097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kmsrip_,2019/02/12,I just found out this sub existed and I’m mad that I didn’t know about it Lol I gained 7 lbs after I had surgery and I am triggering myself on purpose to get rid of my fat thighs. I hate it but I can’t think bout food. My BMI used to be 17.3 now it’s 18.2 :(((((,-2.830127504553733,-1.1771133934426228,0.20743169398907213,105.64735883424412,100.96721311475409,4.0225865209471765,13.335154826958108,5.82211442006289,-1.2588047358834242,197,4,56,2,9,68,48,61,0.08199999999999999,0.8490000000000001,0.068,-0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,1,5,3,2,2,0,10,12,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,10,0,7,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,32,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.521779450055706,0.4731246751330949,0.0,0.0,0.22544436993476746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4260233969105833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371447227253637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27649198276605896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726831262330712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ForgottenLover3268,2019/02/12,"I can’t say no to food, I hate having roommates. I can’t say no to getting food for my roommates and it’s even worse because my boyfriend lives with me.
I always get offered to go eat, to eat dinner with them and to help bake food with them.

WHY CANT I JUST SAY NO TO FOOD.
I can easily just drink Diet Coke, halo top and fruits/maybe the occasional salad but I can’t fucking not say no. What’s wrong with me?!?",-0.00977272727272549,2.0846484772727294,1.921545454545456,96.95981818181819,86.95454545454545,4.42909090909091,17.89090909090909,5.6839178017228535,-0.5345490909090911,318,8,74,2,10,105,52,88,0.175,0.748,0.077,-0.8603,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,3,3,2,0,1,0,6,13,0,0,0,11,11,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,7,12,0,0,1,0,1,9,3,0,0,0,4,13,0,11,11,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,0,45,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192439154089124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735935797957649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038749310146595,0.0,0.2932801626140478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465372471110972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6931554517141886,0.0,0.0,0.13248613591540864,0.14974525545407255,0.0,0.0814453613607307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148719353303474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605647598663472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265437797416296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397236431994567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4558577794814761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931337424704406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604331467351678,0.0,0.15668503665818972,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,miranya,2019/02/12,"I think I may have a binge eating/emotional eating disorder Hi, I'm pretty shaken by my own thoughts recently so please be gentle with me.

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Background: been slightly chubby all my life (never obese), eaten relatively healthily with the occasional indulgences. Had a habit of eating crisps or other treats on the weekends. Nothing big, but still enough to make it hard to break out of even now. I've always felt ashamed of my own body and a few years back I lost 10kg just through diet. Gained all that back until now, and I want to lose it again and more - just so I'm in the normal, healthy BMI. So about 2 weeks ago I started an intermittent fasting diet. Weekdays are great. I go to work every day and prepare a healthy lunch for myself, it makes me feel good to be healthy and I lose weight. I also walk to work which I really enjoy and it's exercise that I really, really needed.

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However, on weekends I seem to completely forget what I'm trying to work towards and why. I make reminders to myself to make a meal plan, to eat healthy, to stick to my fasting cycle, but it's like I subconsciously decide not to give a damn. For me the hype about eating pizza and watching a film just takes over me completely - even if it ALWAYS ends up in me eating the pizza and paying zero attention to the film because I'm too busy distracting myself from the fact that I really hate myself for giving in to the temptation again. And I don't even really enjoy eating the pizza, it's not even tasty to me anymore. Yet, I repeat the same every weekend. Earlier last week I also started using a workout app for some daily exercise, along with yoga. On the weekend I decided to sit down all day on my PC eating cheese toast and pizza, instead of doing anything, so I missed my exercise for like 4 consecutive days. So now from what weight I lost over the week, half of it I gained back on the weekend. 

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SOME days I've managed to get my ass up, cook REAL food and maybe clean up the apartment, go food shopping or something besides just sitting and eating, but that's super rare. I'm very introverted as well, and I have no social contact with anybody except through text, so I can't just go out with friends either seeing as I have none.

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So - would this classify as an emotional eating disorder? It feels that I definitely have all the signs for it and I'm not sure how to tackle it to break out of the cycle. I thought of using an app or something for emotional eating but I'm not sure where to start.

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Help is much appreciated. Sorry for the long post.

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TL;DR: Want to lose weight and weekdays are great. On weekends I always binge. Don't know how to break out of it.",4.52390551257724,5.9753174952561725,5.398406072106261,80.42650805235246,70.44212523719166,7.8339707098720375,28.123826205420126,8.303829127061777,2.0158046903128497,2148,77,393,32,39,702,242,527,0.099,0.731,0.17,0.9923,1,0,2,0,0,0,83.0,0,0,0,12,36,23,2,2,28,0,17,32,2,8,8,84,57,39,0,6,19,0,7,2,1,2,5,0,1,0,22,26,26,0,11,15,2,4,10,10,1,2,8,9,44,13,78,45,15,70,0,6,2,1,7,23,2,8,39,270,66,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271016995490351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770617762051499,0.12027310252941513,0.31322911108314433,0.3512762356828572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04778329961597805,0.0,0.0,0.039649433773828346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111462597215568,0.0,0.029371117128984006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351900694123318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010351915624132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429284217462055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044080499119226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930190770036628,0.0,0.1625937823464284,0.0426746851360837,0.04978457590628914,0.0,0.12729423381680804,0.0,0.08119032066180827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048724230461677065,0.0,0.04626198792373346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652300584472512,0.0,0.037225061919586515,0.0,0.02517294963682904,0.09244055405647728,0.08214831141608328,0.04041252401585428,0.0,0.10624098874822874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043161339372208535,0.04756945368670781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032295177900236734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026479402273530656,0.039274516246367235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0340321596299442,0.047078289761265976,0.0,0.0,0.04263928833261383,0.0,0.16170899377987633,0.10519203441875777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864663561538392,0.0,0.0484049937359485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03541909337597257,0.035726120060573484,0.037160697367013766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04720783608113477,0.04623164064180458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05288903793469077,0.0,0.0,0.04614474997209027,0.04901811055944948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05484132294521296,0.15433215399538194,0.0,0.047573616091272586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03839457681434435,0.04386281012483356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911517551112059,0.0,0.07418525324855202,0.0,0.05393546848431808,0.10230976580303366,0.0,0.03847796787895519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082136413348547,0.0,0.036226642132389325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03087288788436332,0.0,0.07650177574376259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032712211587249664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322703795952549,0.0,0.03975494851661274,0.05683763003931772,0.0,0.11594536045458925,0.1760169912153593,0.04332113471219876,0.0,0.04347649008869797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523055437884614,0.0,0.0,0.034226897297386434,0.0,0.3512762356828572,0.031027435117134745
EDAnonymous,R3sin6,2019/01/05,"Am I helping my friend incorrectly? My Internet friend just confessed to me she has anorexia.  I sent her this     ""ouch. My sister has an eating disorder. I'm not gonna give you the ""Just eat"" advice, I know you've heard it a thousand times already, and I know its really hard to struggle with every meal. Do you have counselling of any kind? Its offered free in most western countries schools. You need to focus on not letting it get worse. I know its extremely hard. But, letting it get worse is the worst thing you can do. I got to the point a few weeks ago where I cut myself 30 times in to days. I now only cut one or two times a day. Anorexia is even harder to beat then Self harm, and the deeper you dig your hole the harder it is to get out. ""

I then recommended that she tells her parents, (I'm the only person who knows about it) and she said it wasn't a possibility. She also told me she hasn't eaten in 3 days. I didn't say anything Negative about that. A bit later on, she asked me if I can forget she said that, and she just wants to deal with it alone.  Am I doing this wrong? Should I agree to not do anything? I'm just lost, and I want to help her.

​",1.4057869205892928,3.327286962809921,2.946536112109236,92.67774883219549,80.19834710743801,5.5310097017606905,20.85231764283148,6.498293943080001,0.161300898311175,903,25,200,8,23,296,135,242,0.147,0.748,0.105,-0.8701,1,1,0,0,0,1,38.0,0,6,0,2,10,11,2,1,12,0,20,4,0,0,0,29,44,11,0,5,10,2,2,0,2,2,0,4,0,2,17,8,4,0,5,0,1,1,7,7,0,3,10,6,38,5,21,30,4,21,1,1,0,0,38,8,0,3,12,136,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113187623469608,0.10098089944720877,0.0,0.0,0.11798406805727538,0.12571068080945272,0.09109970157473153,0.0,0.12342945253095068,0.13842210676886685,0.07746773665251715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874886234019328,0.0,0.10649738888716873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124368293656106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040189159096565,0.1174438346634543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055920680554425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331318741790525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524136662788433,0.0,0.09598032055940599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760245973540696,0.0,0.17855141518403914,0.10927994788919926,0.0,0.0,0.09111014928425748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204095224896264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271286045534035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862743935128175,0.2504240897405843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23297651404234185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435429619577475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446830675890317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719337671007225,0.17327862813374853,0.0,0.0,0.12649178864091454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946827744486453,0.0,0.0,0.10768876193671804,0.1284247492089622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297840182108455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21672306357199395,0.09059168675301267,0.0,0.11529048796783944,0.0,0.0,0.11884068999007888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909119792196285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956882647421132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568165699319744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19927845163833974,0.0,0.0,0.10885295507576513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128074445263487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438286501501145,0.0,0.09137766483406404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321831204517155,0.0,0.1245507910468802,0.13842210676886685,0.0
EDAnonymous,smileyslimey,2019/01/05,"What is the biggest lie your ED made you believe? My biggest false belief that I still can't shake despite knowing that it's false: That my life will magically turn perfect at my GW.

I just realized that my life consists of always just... *waiting*. I feel like my life hasn't really begun, that it isn't worth living fully until I've reached my GW. 

Then, I imagine in my head what my life at my GW would be like - absolutely perfect, living in a beautiful big house with a loving husband, being surrounded by friends, having my shit together, finishing grad school and working in a well-paying job.

But I've been at my GW before, and I was still depressed, socially anxious and poor. And I wasn't satisfied with my weight and set a new UGW because what I am addicted to is the *waiting itself*, imagining up all these fantasies about my perfect life that seems just out of reach. But surely losing ten pounds would change EVERYTHING about my life, right?

Ironically, my ED prevents me from all the things I want to do. Won't go out and meet new friends because I isolate myself, pick fights with my boyfriend because I feel so insecure, can't focus on school because I'm too preoccupied with food. I'll never have that perfect life, I won't even have a decent life with this illness.",7.484221388367728,6.919903219512197,7.427398373983742,75.51588180112573,63.55284552845528,10.170856785490932,36.809255784865535,9.466822959209583,3.3948734208880547,1016,44,186,16,13,326,140,246,0.113,0.72,0.16699999999999998,0.9202,1,0,0,1,1,0,35.0,0,2,0,6,10,16,2,2,8,0,21,15,2,2,8,42,33,11,0,3,5,1,3,2,2,5,10,0,0,0,16,13,2,3,8,1,2,2,8,6,0,1,4,3,31,10,24,22,2,27,1,2,0,1,9,15,1,1,11,121,47,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11804966252523455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010410652903099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233436690113905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640448989185472,0.0,0.09214492379715747,0.1220032442782322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455411128729323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932681050126209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152305646365888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732207294861928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950710906431352,0.0773608106522364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309420116914532,0.0,0.16732573821807986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615424400580712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111345018447433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12494955748224948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745891115919833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059512131135781264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6118948836713394,0.10580787757136928,0.0,0.19124018481489452,0.0,0.0,0.1211463252864942,0.0,0.0,0.0977339480027723,0.10246451437838253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351821056827544,0.20917002266679768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937192382338557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247717123027614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219186026256749,0.0,0.09858112661184752,0.0,0.0,0.11115584857196384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038575325760124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295751970502718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020599497754798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194158837064082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177860074732319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387093744423641,0.0,0.0,0.13186534140922668,0.09736371778000336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883479250517887,0.0,0.0,0.15384906194571624,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WorthwhileTree,2019/01/05,"Spotting instead of period: should I be worried? Sorry if this is a bit tmi but I want to see if any ED ladies have experienced something similar to this... 


My period was due a week and a half ago. I got all my usual lead-up symptoms including bad cramps, a headache, and craving all the food ever. Then there was no blood. A week later (3 days ago) the lead-up symptoms came again but this time with some very light spotting afterwards which is ongoing.


I'm normally like clockwork with heavy periods and obvious lead up symptoms. 
I took a pregnancy test which was negative. The only thing I can think of is that I recently just hit a new underweight LW (only 0.5kgs off the slightly underweight weight I'd been maintaing for ages though). But if it is due to a low BMI then it's not matching the experience I had when I lost my periods about 5 years ago...  Back then I got no ""light period"" phase or cramps with no blood or anything... It just went from all to nothing. No symptoms no spotting... it just stopped when my weight was low enough. 


I won't be visiting the doctor's for another week and a half and am slightly panicking it's something serious! So if y'all have experienced a similar thing when you hit a low weight then it might put my mind at ease before I get to a doctor!",4.38192797540624,5.54385457312253,5.376251646903821,81.55201032059729,70.46245059288538,9.416688625384277,30.656346069389553,9.725611199111238,2.8658794027228813,1009,42,201,24,18,332,136,253,0.172,0.7879999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.9839,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,0,2,14,7,0,0,18,0,19,14,2,1,5,36,32,23,0,7,13,0,3,1,0,3,8,0,0,0,14,9,4,1,1,0,0,6,8,6,0,2,12,8,18,1,17,13,6,45,0,4,1,0,3,6,0,8,34,131,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28527807760969537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295058474749039,0.11248704623709603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827807098601084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248774716849981,0.08957002886621765,0.0,0.0,0.0912830063647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711636531936462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269386373785572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691834113390717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196007336911588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084360878729113,0.0,0.0,0.0970362542484673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493539943322297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971718890288195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604668776970289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715950137159909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05240907889318069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171031840524235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380167603826373,0.10831702995834754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360673015710248,0.0,0.0,0.10510658811519252,0.10293312327377796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317473302854213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784086578981747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592098445397516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548417606235273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517085943138138,0.0,0.12008542524673367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968658805250614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459986255678133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253730316344165,0.0687373999776499,0.10539700721570673,0.0,0.06255283469297453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918631879640887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118148104775341,0.08851299585295158,0.06327349298238223,0.0,0.25814827064352713,0.3918956455693472,0.0,0.09944487178176356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894282957046976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908149396050754
EDAnonymous,Kraye5,2019/01/05,"I just have to make it a week I just need to vent. I’ve been deep into my binging and purging the past few months. Plus purging without binging. So. Much. Purging. 

Because of this, I haven’t been traveling anywhere. Just easier to stay at home in my comfort zone. Until now. I’m heading to visit some family for a week and I’m freaking out. I will not be able to purge there without probably being heard. I don’t want to, but the struggle is real. I’m hoping I can hold out for the week. And really hoping that a week off will help me slow down on the purging for a while. I’m exhausted. ",-0.2371745419479261,2.0535262950819733,2.2006268081002887,92.06727579556414,93.42622950819671,4.837801350048217,21.110896817743487,6.522977012572876,0.5375288331726136,456,17,95,6,17,155,77,122,0.068,0.8009999999999999,0.131,0.7684,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,8,0,11,2,1,1,0,22,21,8,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,3,0,0,3,1,9,3,22,14,3,22,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,3,10,68,12,0,0.17886775119164974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903612093598596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862059700129273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835699160701008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989128325338586,0.0,0.17941893843022136,0.3553120720143088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939561285127682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427705325032883,0.0,0.13148837791309154,0.13262817108356248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707495078203456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284968847014455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035906599903491,0.11458726158390267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064922365871986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18699140989795768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550083395646878,0.0,0.5739076834780416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448442584763284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,queerasfolx,2019/01/05,"Every time I get close to my goal weight I end up binging. It’s all in the title, but I just need to vent about binging away all my progress towards my GW. Also, I’m on mobile, so please forgive my errors.

I (5’7” 21F) have a GW of 115, which puts me right at underweight and is honestly where I feel my best. But whenever I get back close to that size, it’s like there’s a switch that gets flipped in my head and then all I can do is eat. 3 days ago, I weighed myself for the first time in about a week and I was back down to 116. But then immediately I started binging and now I’m back up to 126. Now I know that it’s pretty much physically impossible that it’s all fat, most of it is water weight, but some of it is fat and you can definitely see the bloat in my face and midsection. It drives me crazy but I can’t seem to stop. Then I usually hit 130 and I feel so unbearably fat that the switch flips again and I hate myself enough to low restrict back to 115 pretty quickly. I just wish there was a way for me to safely exist somewhere in between the two habits, but it’s impossible. I’m also terrified that one day the switch won’t flip back and then I’ll head down the same track every other woman in my family is on: towards obesity. Anyway, thanks for reading I have nowhere else safe to rant about this. I know this is textbook ED behavior, it just drives me crazy.",2.90565826330532,3.8392912975778586,4.271952545724172,88.94625144175319,73.74048442906575,7.580886472235953,24.488548360520678,7.957251820313856,1.0607309606195416,1071,31,244,15,21,355,145,289,0.111,0.738,0.151,0.9408,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,4,23,9,1,0,11,0,15,12,6,0,4,39,33,23,0,2,9,0,4,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,19,11,9,4,6,1,0,3,2,2,0,3,2,5,33,7,36,29,10,49,0,1,1,0,3,21,0,3,25,166,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983387419637178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19817278746495945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641236800665206,0.4763746090039144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13003014137319147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15981632015666378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12678524889319648,0.10350632095905006,0.0,0.10974262110301597,0.12802648298484007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087897911656128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680614699095684,0.0,0.12529968868055172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539311487810826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19420498114259926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223300538802036,0.2543235521747965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618935917028274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060533486058225935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108407318710482,0.09187362589286532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396090421832307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600994669465216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521108670002987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455825753206153,0.0,0.0,0.12393804263526645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058137765138738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873585434340976,0.11279801448313377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770025154926472,0.0,0.0,0.1035897203717626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407462784300675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449943508861704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103670450151785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364633152168318,0.0,0.0,0.0983496345949674,0.09938872597376364,0.30176463185832064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248407428759075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Morbid_bones,2019/01/05,"Fitbit Username Thread? As the title states! If you guys want to share your usernames, let’s do so here! :)

Mine is morbid-bones",0.3987499999999997,2.2895647083333373,0.5403333333333329,99.73800000000004,110.25,1.92,13.133333333333333,3.1291,-1.5803566666666666,99,2,19,0,5,29,24,24,0.0,0.731,0.26899999999999996,0.7478,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.64264081963447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636761972735247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828141613264722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,laurdoor,2019/01/05,"FitBit buddies Hey friends,

I recently got a FitBit and love it. Have been tracking my food for 8 years, and being able to track activity, sleep, and water intake as well has really motivated me be more active i.e. focused on productive output rather than only controlling my intake, which to me seems like a step in a slightly healthier direction!

If anyone wants to add me, dm me for my link! ",7.889931506849315,7.7888431643835645,8.500102739726028,66.62631849315069,62.56164383561644,11.683561643835617,34.688356164383556,11.20814326018867,4.1444821917808214,313,12,51,8,4,105,59,73,0.0,0.738,0.262,0.9667,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,5,4,1,2,0,11,9,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,8,4,9,5,1,5,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,3,34,10,1,0.2903270923854153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030034534370128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32562652112398943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35106467253357404,0.0,0.2243059913894806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23220109766524585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183915235162753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26203153600431617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22080683639894155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599096963217446,0.0,0.2866629784091969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643028809846672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29053676313939203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124244120450474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610389229365967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18696112874858048
EDAnonymous,mikey-way,2019/01/05,"Food recommendations for intense practice days? Hey guys!

So I’m currently in color guard, which if you don’t know, is a fairly intense sport, at least in my case. I’ve been doing it for three years and while I’ve been struggling with an ED during that time, usually I’ve kept myself together enough to eat well for practices. 

This week, though— major TW!— I’ve been doing really badly. Purging everything I eat, barely eating in general, you get the gist. We had a two hour practice and I was running on a single bagel that I’d eaten 5 hours beforehand. 

Basically, I nearly passed out. I crouched down to pick up my flag and next thing I knew I was flat on my back with the girl next to me asking if I was okay. I stood back up and I was dizzy, light headed, my vision completely fucky, and my hearing fading in and out. I sat out for a bit and had a granola bar, but a while later I felt the dizziness and weird vision come back and had to sit down again. 

Obviously I can’t keep this up for the rest of the season. I have a three hour practice tomorrow and I really, really want to make the best of it. 

Sorry for the long context, but my question overall is what are some good meals to eat before practice? Something that’s not too difficult to make or too calorie-heavy (I’ll burn a lot off at practice, but the ED still gets antsy if I have too much). I just want to keep my blood sugar up (I’m assuming that’s what happened) and keep myself stable during practice. 

Thanks in advance, you guys!",2.8979734219269098,4.597015501661133,4.198623255813954,86.40509767441864,75.04651162790698,6.9422458471760775,24.00013289036545,7.699297019823105,1.1431710564784052,1170,36,237,16,25,385,167,301,0.031,0.85,0.11800000000000001,0.9752,1,0,1,0,0,0,39.0,1,3,0,2,11,9,0,1,17,1,19,11,2,3,1,46,42,21,0,5,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,12,18,9,5,5,2,0,4,3,4,1,3,16,5,30,5,38,26,10,48,0,0,1,0,11,20,0,8,23,159,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259001563773844,0.0,0.0,0.2531447492987017,0.09162646688078824,0.0,0.0,0.0933787726243384,0.0,0.11516303527042387,0.0,0.11980523958701506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452938509103616,0.11505797991982646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07077179306514929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44915660125759005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338846685720234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862524539283128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053654829622821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269536544005325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466692700029753,0.0,0.0,0.09204284774089473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731532057026234,0.09704076102625532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262262695364594,0.0,0.12368245940503506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32420884024710706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926199568625699,0.0,0.0,0.06030901684775562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971144866437742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329514070564547,0.0,0.0,0.14650164748036762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066989870383286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334147589887897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293143408138935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109025055621136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08448150834005573,0.0,0.12284246615203588,0.0,0.0,0.08763673700440719,0.0,0.0,0.1147217597050701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103180886376534,0.0,0.0,0.07290490833205346,0.0,0.10781681677705092,0.0,0.0639889850304263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071978706038536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086066674595702,0.0,0.12945237782252486,0.0,0.088025031995842,0.0,0.09866744786129664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066753576580719
EDAnonymous,feduprunner1,2019/01/05,"Fuck all the stupid little ED bullshit that makes me hella anxious and fills my head all day First of all I already had to log 700 cal from what I ate from today towards my intake from tomorrow bc I'm a fat kid.

I bring lunch to eat at work but I'm too anxious to eat with anyone else in the break room bc I'm worried they'll judge my food or something (this like a new thing too that came up over the past 3-6 months). So I'll dart in and out at odd hours and eat my ~healthy~ aka sometimes obviously sometimes only low-key disordered AF meals.

I have therapy tomorrow for the first time since before Xmas and get to tell her about how shitty I did and how much I purged over the past couple weeks. 

I have a new roommate thats gonna be a dietician and can't wait to see how long it takes her to question my eating/grocery shopping habits and call me out on my shit. 

I haven't been able to work out as much recently and I gained like 3-4 lbs since October and its fucking with me so bad. Plus my sis bought me jeans for xmas that are like half a size too small so once I lose that I'll fit into them. I wore a pair today and felt so self conscious even though I had like 3 other layers of jackets and stuff on too.

I'm going out to lunch with coworkers Monday and have to plan for that and figure out what I'll get and how I'm gonna eat the rest of the day. I'll probs need to grocery shop some before then too and thats its own fucking ordeal. 

fUck all this I want to go back to OMAD and purging if its over 1200 cal but I can't/shouldn't/don't *really* want to (or do I?). Its a constant fucking fight and no side ever wins. I just want a fucking guarantee that I'm gonna lose weight or at the least not gain. Why the fuck am I like this?",2.8234748010610105,3.3854239336870044,3.930782493368703,92.70688992042442,73.58885941644563,6.9671087533156495,23.518567639257288,6.844919456158928,0.4820790450928385,1361,34,323,11,26,443,197,377,0.156,0.755,0.08900000000000001,-0.9845,0,0,1,0,1,0,29.0,0,0,2,10,19,19,10,0,17,0,14,20,3,5,6,57,48,35,0,5,8,1,2,5,0,4,1,0,1,2,21,28,11,1,4,2,3,5,4,13,0,3,9,3,32,6,46,34,10,52,0,2,1,7,11,23,8,6,28,186,53,2,0.08224119674343604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907552056632897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18581828658824026,0.0,0.0575049569660796,0.08426582487864097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323840384958634,0.0686679640636862,0.0,0.0,0.13996240215661215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397745699208105,0.0940620197696902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887351695924968,0.0,0.0,0.09099831994404993,0.0,0.10607753651012544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425553651112016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33661310322324073,0.06870196691926883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05431953481384024,0.07439187085180904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789644460155865,0.0,0.0,0.13990863987406374,0.09944638154945404,0.0,0.0,0.5322146282062231,0.08593526183645445,0.0,0.09347913471683478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440319444460029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809910125647537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20089447282768286,0.08242728467452873,0.0,0.07278087113840541,0.0,0.18401372534497787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054896637439602235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06564413861382637,0.0,0.12091348479960827,0.06098080531083772,0.0,0.1588581205842895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758419046945834,0.0,0.0625481360536413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570170561539824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212896213471933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052685816540042965,0.0,0.08120326013224126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553558600088166,0.0,0.08579550434194977,0.0,0.08441940661938349,0.13606153560649545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06331329119443885,0.16267729296242764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414649423730292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06183514490784488,0.0,0.07188243088124273,0.0,0.0940499758674856,0.0,0.05463739676795792,0.0,0.08080155823906282,0.0,0.047955503187282415,0.0,0.15591007660409342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552396590563688,0.0,0.0659689273150691,0.10014762172610582,0.0,0.0,0.07420988826109037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974514143429454,0.08351992737564927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cereal_boi,2019/01/05,anybody disillusioned by recovery blogs/instas wtf all those girls r fucking skin and bones theyre skinnier than me at my lowest weight like.. after “recovering”?? is eating vegan and exercising all the time rlly considered recovery lmao. just want a recovery blogger that actually looks normal,7.018124999999998,10.6389395625,7.820666666666668,56.09100000000001,70.04166666666666,11.340000000000002,34.6,10.793553405168565,5.62512,241,12,29,9,5,80,44,48,0.179,0.7240000000000001,0.09699999999999999,-0.6662,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,1,6,2,0,2,7,4,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,4,4,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.3707337640541269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38873900685341134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512172691023672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560303708101436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319025625123713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37222752972178863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22152642905069966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240785892877512,0.0,0.0,0.4626235477555774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tietack2,2019/03/04,"Too heavy for support. Hi all,

So I'm older (late 30s) and have had an ed since I was 8. My mom had an ed and thought it was great when I got one. Naturally I wasn't going to get any help from my parents. So I started treatment when I could afford it (a few years ago).

My outpatient teams have been lovely. So have the folks at iop and residential.

However since I am in a larger body, nobody in real life (aka not a paid professional) takes it seriously. I've been many different weights throughout the years due to what ed behaviors I was using. When I was thin I was congratulated, nobody asked how I did it. When I was heavier I was told I had to go to weight watchers or the gym etc. Nevermind the fact that I'm a gym fanatic and have gone regularly for at least the last decade.

My partner just told me that he would support me if my team thought I was going to lose weight. But since my team has me on a weight neutral plan he doesn't want to support me. He thinks he knows what my health is like (even though he is not a doctor or in the medical profession) and thinks his judgment is more applicable than my team's.  Also that he thinks that health at every size is bs and just an excuse for people to be lazy and in denial. 

He also told me I'm less attractive at this weight and he doesn't want to be intimate as much because of that :(

I educated him as best I could, showed him my meal plan, let him come to appointments with me, sent him articles, gave him books. I even sent him articles on mortality rates for eds. But none of it has done any good.

I haven't had one person in my real life who is not a paid professional support my recovery. Everyone has been in my crap telling me how they think I should be dieting or try exercising. I went on my first commercial diet when I was eight and I've been purging regularly since age nine. I know about nutrition and dieting and exercise and lax and diet pills and thinspiration and all sorts of stuff. I'm not ignorant but people sure treat me that way because I have the bad fortune to be in an overweight body.

My dietician is terrified I'm going to flip into restriction and lose a stack of weight again. I honestly don't see any downside to it. At least my partner would like how I look again if I did that. ",3.716753246753246,4.739790242424245,5.0925108225108255,83.48733766233768,71.90043290043292,8.890043290043291,27.41991341991342,9.259372276320047,2.108310822510824,1780,62,380,38,33,596,214,462,0.067,0.8440000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.7268,5,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,10,22,20,1,0,19,0,50,25,3,4,4,61,93,40,1,9,14,2,7,2,2,3,10,0,0,3,18,19,12,2,8,10,2,9,10,6,0,5,34,9,57,14,42,49,11,44,0,2,2,1,38,17,1,6,19,251,75,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507069951554699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174067836506919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975742466526834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862544926221548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06129161219944827,0.08949620847465772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770359082675292,0.0,0.0,0.1630768139167114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323345873403881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721871404038728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669448266399237,0.0,0.0751349708071228,0.0,0.07512064319117508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818679867502523,0.09696899880638757,0.0,0.061848395416521686,0.07014334364111502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624397869912109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0383520234985635,0.0,0.16687510550015433,0.06157014148333001,0.05871012418533592,0.08093125668160572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560559925140002,0.0,0.0,0.04920303101500936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068491558387658,0.05983633986903447,0.08280606832033073,0.0,0.0,0.07506342695706637,0.10369878815670618,0.07172570959084848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06164322443084368,0.1642468660168796,0.0,0.0,0.0662525034290149,0.0,0.0,0.07442297403713856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394962869982888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597315752851319,0.0,0.0,0.05396244464994003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948469558082107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150956482755455,0.0,0.0,0.10178206535392743,0.06409598674972733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16710601948767576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05849571597469034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428914556989145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051957711204806106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403322413023062,0.0,0.3332046691140123,0.0691850407217077,0.0,0.05519277837440032,0.0,0.06416077915810375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881444548520168,0.07212180876815585,0.11655359992911045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21043003092334508,0.0,0.04983839897922331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339990667739713,0.0,0.0,0.08659446565933543,0.0582669014183274,0.0,0.5363382424887939,0.0,0.06804883947927988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429216983867433,0.0,0.0,0.09454314554950204
EDAnonymous,bluesackskin,2019/03/04,"32 lbs in 21 days Might be my record but not low enough to satisfy me, I don’t feel enough pain, I can keep going I know it ",1.0868965517241378,1.217521310344832,3.085689655172416,98.76577586206898,77.27586206896551,7.179310344827586,17.948275862068964,7.1686216300943375,-0.3805999999999998,94,1,27,1,2,32,26,29,0.136,0.6729999999999999,0.19,0.1952,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,6,8,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,6,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21972538279976925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7040749769429397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226977841210278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19362948400943625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028326646902585,0.0,0.0,0.1872415723726568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614322616763052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625322335406076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dekopacchi,2019/03/04,"I gave in I'm on my phone so sorry if the post is messy or something 
I've always been a lurker as well, but I guess I really need to rant, you can ignore this

I've always told myself that I wouldn't purge, that I would have enough self-control and that it wasn't THAT bad, I mean I just restrict to 1000 calories and occasionally binge and c/s so what's wrong with that hahaha 

Well guess what
I did 

I can't believe I gave in just because my sister forced me to eat some chicken and toasts she made?? But at the same time eating this really made me feel like a monster... She was practically force-feeding me and it was the first time she's done something like this, she usually never comments on my eating habits, it was so out of the blue and it fucked me up

I'm telling myself this is the one and only time I do this, but what if another shitty day like that happens? Will I give in as well? 

At least I guess I realise how bad it is but... I'll probably think the opposite by tomorrow 
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EDAnonymous,porkpokets,2019/03/04,"mental break down + the flu made my 3 year recovery go down the drain! Ya I had a mental breakdown over figuring out I was a victim of covert incest via my Nmom, this made me lose my appetite for like 3 days and now I have the flu which is making me not wanna eat at all.

Weighed myself alone for the first time in years and I lost 10 pounds.. now I don't wanna stop watching that number drop. :/

Last night was again, the first time in years, where I hid food and pretended to have already eaten it.. lying to my sweet husbands face. 

But I just can't do this.

I'm not looking for anything.. just wanted to share this with people who know what it's like. No one in my real life would understand.. my husband believes I'm fine and recovered still and I can't break his heart like this.",2.1360869565217366,3.8675645652173927,3.1136335403726747,93.2221273291926,77.26086956521739,5.8422360248447225,20.816770186335408,6.5431188927421005,0.15581242236024906,609,15,133,5,14,194,105,161,0.156,0.7390000000000001,0.105,-0.8128,0,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,4,7,9,1,0,7,0,11,10,2,3,1,25,23,6,0,4,5,2,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,10,7,4,1,3,1,0,1,6,3,0,3,7,3,19,6,18,15,1,28,0,2,2,1,6,9,0,0,18,85,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775678132634475,0.17874293994253285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329125073881512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248984730596632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044601827471298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16574039817761893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27555093321293395,0.19586026470750825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205386754651908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19194061761648407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901697481957101,0.1320308739464438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440741243100687,0.2373977454779779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601782482509314,0.18120808617837508,0.1768143514408995,0.0,0.0,0.3065284647766902,0.10811926761885916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264644923371009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520021395420067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975814472092373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11229275612584312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436249478961755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935308215824445,0.13541797371070555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888973213926747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686212153659981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553678420965774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506207063892485,0.0,0.0,0.31291889242894
EDAnonymous,adorablenari221,2019/03/04,I cant eat... I finally get the courage to eat something sort of high in calories (a burrito with 540 calories) and my roommate got it and said it is bean and cheese as she knows I am vegetarian.. I took a few bites and it tasted meh then I took a bite and it tasted really weird.... it had meat in it and my roommate shrugs and says meat wont kill you. I just started bawling and was sick for the rest of the night I couldnt leave the bathroom. Now I'm afraid to even eat anything for fear of finding meat :(... I know it is silly,1.8239186507936507,3.083607919642862,3.48654761904762,92.23067460317465,76.94642857142857,6.406349206349208,24.94444444444445,6.937597516519254,0.7443718253968252,405,14,95,4,9,135,69,112,0.07200000000000001,0.8440000000000001,0.084,0.0992,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,1,2,7,0,8,6,0,0,0,15,17,10,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,7,9,5,0,3,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,6,4,12,2,11,9,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,5,59,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547438216705227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772464991596841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242009931957474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21160127620876054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20599252068294852,0.17186840063542097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824499516797024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039560734299465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986783379243752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20804233029063668,0.0,0.20668763779733676,0.0,0.0,0.1991109711535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17646613595753918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120465515104798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788724803284692,0.1495397807651249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447651139832164,0.0,0.0,0.13309819458277514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41784661253688304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kurotokyo,2019/03/04,"I'm afraid to start caring about my weight again I've probably been binge eating my whole life, but for about 6 years (high school through college) I started going through restricting/binging cycles. This past two years now I've not (purposefully) restricted. I still binge eat though. I'm overweight and unhealthy but for the first time my weight has actually stayed stable instead of going between the same 30 pound weight loss/gain.  I am in therapy, overall hopefully getting better, and I don't think I hate myself for being fat anymore— but I don't like being so unhealthy and out of shape.

But I'm also terrified about caring about my body again. I don't want to end up in a binge/restrict cycle. I just don't want to fall back into hell hole. 

Or is it my depression/anxiety thats just getting in the way of me wanting to make a change in my life? Making me want to stay the way I am (garbage and treating myself like garbage) instead of actually caring and trying to do something?

God I really hate eating disorders and mental illness. I can't even choose to live healthier without being terrified of going over the deep end again.",5.5766513056835665,6.838528078341013,5.8759631336405524,78.7015637480799,67.7557603686636,8.551643625192012,31.517357910906306,8.841846274778883,2.6667298924731178,911,37,161,15,15,291,123,217,0.177,0.682,0.141,-0.868,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,18,12,3,1,7,0,14,12,2,2,0,28,37,14,0,5,9,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,8,8,1,2,0,0,4,7,4,0,2,1,3,21,8,31,33,2,34,1,0,0,0,0,11,1,2,17,106,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.20496506726152194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398295061974569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033857243739878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075244997308306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287999071863222,0.0,0.11665145389843848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32121890963416244,0.0,0.1110952434055799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035986099371042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223792560012977,0.0,0.0,0.1860297621459394,0.0,0.0,0.06936347615681432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932835709377514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973526385766733,0.0,0.17905264894974904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073672981190424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095740702953376,0.0,0.10430668658279256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835480428461256,0.10261309507730386,0.0,0.09273292177028772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020081781557986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583356191136904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025167619785028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322729283475895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727729521068045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628394155590823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084807756961764,0.0,0.0,0.148664728178252,0.2238706802916844,0.08386760428993327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009736977664845,0.0,0.0,0.06729136924586376,0.10317976723395368,0.0,0.06123690884538952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130040820966871,0.0,0.10258744106453148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24776962649954584,0.16671698695502565,0.0,0.3836513251945482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11724897777136807,0.0,0.10123371768611722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13525644902669925
EDAnonymous,kano2018,2019/03/04,"I want my period back I am at my lowest weight (bmi 15.7) but have been trying to maintain for 3 months now. I last had my period when I was 4lb heavier. That’s nothing to regular people, but deciding to gain that weight back has been really tough for me. I have 1400 calories a day and I’m going to keep planning days around that, but I’m going to have snacks here and there to try and get my period back. 


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EDAnonymous,makemedizzy,2019/03/04,"gah i feel bad for my girlfriend i relapsed into this eating disorder in january of last year and lost 30kg from it, but i’ve been with my girlfriend since may of that year and i feel super super bad for her because she knows im starving myself.. is there anything i can do to help her not worry? i dont want her to baby me especially since i have a tendency to freak the fuck out at times..",2.9079919678714887,3.8087210240963887,4.732710843373496,85.77007028112452,73.69879518072291,7.461044176706826,25.88152610441768,7.793537801064563,1.3328730923694785,307,10,66,4,6,105,61,83,0.225,0.5920000000000001,0.183,-0.493,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,1,7,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,13,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,2,14,2,13,10,0,8,0,1,0,1,7,4,1,1,4,44,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18713182149081573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3797410266333613,0.1386216680651524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606214898654564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665125266599159,0.0,0.0,0.2326882104690093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996177067856136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21022875603543295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242223887268674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24563233101198184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497375896209165,0.18536233847063344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482352852678085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762172646374264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259947532570315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412712649504832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23093696892307636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29287784954397383
EDAnonymous,JaimeRustic,2019/03/04,"Literally can’t afford eat- living my old ED dream But it’s turned into an actual nightmare. Back at my worst, 5’6 and 90lbs, I fantasised about not being able to afford food so I had no excuse to binge, but now as a very poor university student in A LOT of debt, I literally can’t afford to eat and it’s actually hell.

I wish I could go back in time and backhand 16 year old me for wishing for such a stupid thing. And of course not eating has caused a massive relapse into my ED, making me hyper aware of calories and just ugh

Sorry for the rant, am very hangry
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EDAnonymous,incerta,2019/03/04,"I’m fucking done I’ve been in “recovery” for a little while, mostly because of my boyfriend. He gets mad at me when I don’t eat and I have MAJOR issues with letting people down. Needless to say, I’ve gotten fucking fat. But I’m done. I can’t keep doing this. I want to hurt myself. I fully intend to lose 10+ pounds by next month. And if he gets mad at me, then tough shit. He’ll probably like me better when I’m skinny anyway. 

If I don’t lose weight then I WILL hurt myself. Oh well! 🤗",-0.6903410740203206,1.3719269905660385,1.9503773584905664,95.60224238026129,90.41509433962266,4.016255442670537,15.701015965166908,5.369823440869387,-0.7898844702467342,375,8,85,2,13,129,71,106,0.226,0.6920000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9489,0,0,0,0,0,4,15.0,0,0,0,3,4,13,5,0,1,0,10,7,3,1,0,10,21,10,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,10,1,0,4,2,13,3,11,14,2,12,0,4,0,2,4,5,3,3,8,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710154516195156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553872300412119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595923043650596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797790145656541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248528880533648,0.1835859215397599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761685202024296,0.0,0.0,0.18337908359118987,0.0,0.15616506533861704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965920901620286,0.0,0.08583530471229453,0.1760917310730082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931137070102146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023742319000848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685276021143712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12180422673735015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942804863059587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13971906870004838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18034755732232788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362898308942964,0.0,0.0,0.21394818648010508,0.15797017340096114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annfartin,2019/03/04,"DAE feel hopeless in recovery? i relapsed... again. i quit b/p, quit taking adderall, fixed my sleep sched, cut back on drinking, etc. i don't feel any better. i slipped up this week. and last week. and the week before. it's been months since this has happened, and quite frankly, i am scared. hope you guys are feeling at least a little better than i am. xx",0.4390000000000001,2.9038606142857155,1.1314285714285717,99.41857142857144,92.85714285714286,3.371428571428572,19.857142857142858,4.935628992294339,-0.4700285714285717,273,9,58,1,10,83,56,70,0.18600000000000005,0.752,0.062,-0.826,0,0,1,0,0,1,19.0,0,1,0,5,2,6,1,1,2,0,6,2,1,0,0,7,12,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,8,3,5,11,2,12,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,7,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715702577422865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247349770435451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659848946291193,0.0,0.0,0.30473718732611804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876984668906062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19213891775760386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26133143497331657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058533131996526,0.1523475687564622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111396137430207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043205459644473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726708778589576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751309515412352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5497263282995569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724833916189304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251266973538526,0.0,0.17240547520802324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953391338721146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145804136052069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notickles,2019/03/04,"DAE find it easier to fast on their period? I mean on all other days I'm stuffing my face but on my period I just feel so ,,,fertile,,,, and awful that I just can't eat.  It's really strange because I get even more depressed than usual but I don't binge usually...",2.6579090909090897,3.5355765636363685,5.219772727272726,82.12965909090909,74.27272727272727,9.136363636363637,24.65909090909091,9.516144504307137,2.041454545454545,201,6,43,5,4,72,42,55,0.214,0.752,0.034,-0.9006,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,1,9,6,4,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,5,6,2,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,6,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852734842818776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960103172094261,0.0,0.2617752792624396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109972351843726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074352402618206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367661888624215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777873793482631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587913754994743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310699016499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470594721938525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6694739980717995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WorriedOrchid,2019/03/04,"I feel disgusting and worthless I literally just wrote on my Instagram and Facebook two days ago how I haven’t taken diet pills in five months and how I wouldn’t listen to the urges to, and yet now I’ve relapsed and taken them again _aaand_ ordered more online. I just can’t stand this fucking weight I’ve been gaining. I’ve been binging hardcore this week and I hate it I can’t stand it. 

I’m sorry for failing. ",4.017499999999998,5.115235273809528,4.760476190476194,85.86785714285716,71.26190476190476,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.4404428571428567,329,12,66,3,6,106,55,84,0.182,0.784,0.035,-0.8957,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,2,7,5,3,0,1,0,6,4,0,2,0,13,14,8,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,2,5,3,9,0,5,8,1,12,0,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,7,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084781351044763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22442912426563635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595762043430171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217174015464017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435747592835242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27776769760988623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38955388731995705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339942273337866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27914201391076154,0.42376630869686027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strangerousdangers,2019/03/04,Snap group for recovery? Hey y’all I was thinking about making a snap group for those of us who are recovering or trying to recover. If you are interested PM me your snap!  :) ,3.076666666666668,5.107957647058826,5.141764705882356,78.38460784313726,75.47058823529412,9.239215686274509,26.03921568627451,9.725611199111238,2.606992156862745,136,5,27,4,3,47,29,34,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.7177,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,0,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015013198530967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854124959880806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083743368730244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7235221482967724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kimooni,2019/09/27,"almost cried over half a pound (no numbers) sometimes whenever i think i don’t have disordered tendencies, i need to remind myself of moments like these where i almost curb-stomped the scale due to it giving me two different numbers with a .5 lb difference 

how do normal people handle these things? wouldn’t they just take the smaller number and go on with their day? i wouldn’t stop weighing myself until i saw one number consistently, and did so for nearly five minutes. i was tearing up and cussing the whole time lmao",7.095704467353954,7.88882064948454,6.651082474226808,76.1722250859107,64.15463917525773,8.940893470790376,32.66151202749141,8.841846274778883,2.8045615120274907,421,16,70,6,6,131,75,97,0.048,0.826,0.126,0.7394,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,7,1,0,1,0,15,13,6,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,3,1,12,1,11,8,1,12,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,2,7,52,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382828668562258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403907128290949,0.14113677744177205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4572924292224228,0.2508150757810062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099358527200396,0.12437453080106164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691650441205844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227063015465493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144214176108445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14829488553928888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517194141620604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164430816082962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829640338988276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454403773046114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539074645461816,0.14022689738475985,0.0,0.0,0.1276101501434399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137795490319198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244332379600438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plushiealien,2019/09/27,"fast food salads trigger tf out of me One time when i was about 9 i went to burger king with my family and one of my school friends was also there with her family. My mom noticed that my friend (also around 9 years old) was eating a salad so she had to shame me for eating chicken nuggets in front of mine and my friend’s family and now I can’t look at salads from fast food restaurants without cringing about my mom, an adult shaming me, a child for eating a kids meal but for some stupid reason it still makes me feel shitty about my body and how gross i must still be for eating (;",6.585750000000001,5.210262075000003,6.468333333333334,84.31000000000003,65.75,9.0,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.2550000000000003,459,9,98,3,6,145,78,120,0.125,0.821,0.054000000000000006,-0.8979,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,13,7,1,2,4,0,7,11,1,4,1,17,11,10,0,1,2,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,2,8,10,0,2,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,5,2,18,3,20,4,1,15,0,0,1,0,10,4,0,1,9,68,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847320332301653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603440895798943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478356670631762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5335006346528611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686321206234674,0.0,0.06590619178536335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152266335596485,0.0,0.3021119529459492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945671161976234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700609285228122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053162516245769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839829371263974,0.1367748260290182,0.0,0.17664987085460193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13401605040413572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191578525431638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20818687593525395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600503706044102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208308336839072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564762999265694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393770697091542
EDAnonymous,five_days_underwater,2019/09/27,"If I eat enough sugar free jello Will it make me shit out the rest of the food I ate today? Idk but let’s try it, welcome to Myth Busters 😎🧬🧪🧫🔬",-3.307500000000001,-1.7806078611111058,0.3291111111111107,105.52700000000002,99.83333333333331,2.8800000000000003,12.755555555555556,3.1291,-1.8572711111111109,111,2,32,0,5,40,33,36,0.10099999999999999,0.722,0.177,0.5647,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,2,5,1,1,0,4,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,3,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3741077740820488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37777030838468456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4420940728181581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37385846696722136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24404586322355498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752908724858507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465531861760991,0.0,0.0,0.2482235116860611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JustCallMePeri,2019/09/27,"Is this becoming an issue? I’m fat, been fat since I was little. Did crash diets in middle school and all that. 

Finally stuck with CICO, and the results are there. But I feel like a pig every time I eat. Could be a really unhealthy meal or a spoonful of peanut butter, and I feel pathetic. I’m only at 900 calories for today but I feel like I so overdid it and don’t want to eat more, even though I know that’s “unhealthy”. Just thought I’d get it off my chest.",0.7061855670103085,2.7286202886597937,2.790938144329896,92.32970618556705,83.22680412371135,5.5294845360824745,20.009278350515466,6.742157984588678,0.2524070103092781,356,10,78,4,10,120,73,97,0.139,0.792,0.069,-0.7577,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,0,8,7,3,1,1,18,18,9,0,2,4,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,6,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,8,2,7,11,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,47,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234205877202909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931429406006532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4339848441261889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006498632085299,0.0,0.17867142622104046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32167483797876945,0.3029943467609265,0.0,0.23230361407965866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107936704065357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22133768838537726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654375869260206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072056153277288,0.21254188829064294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128274755615046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585238162061467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21461811957779375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541992203017112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20834989084947636,0.1683535829044948,0.12365508874396546,0.0,0.20101003093707864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507969348279416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,electralime,2019/09/27,"I was “recovered” for almost 5 years One month into teaching and I had a whoopsie daisy moment. And to top it all off, the other professionals have already noticed my weight loss/lack of eating. 

Fml. I can’t have this destroy my reputation so early in the year",2.9752000000000014,5.465454120000004,4.594000000000001,79.93700000000003,77.8,6.4,26.0,7.554174236665415,1.6788000000000007,206,8,36,3,5,69,44,50,0.08800000000000001,0.8740000000000001,0.038,-0.5147,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,5,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,5,0,6,3,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,5,27,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375253414917951,0.0,0.3719633923476835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449051513588378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26904480363507266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837546396746488,0.0,0.0,0.2284062904040217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104585388853671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341220331834086
EDAnonymous,chsgsgsgsgsgsg,2019/09/27,"It’s all coming together TW

I’m new here and I didn’t think I’d be here. I got way fatter than I’d ever thought I would and got more and more tired of it. I started intermittent fasting and pretty intensely dieting and I saw results. I’ve lost 60 pounds, pounds I truly needed to lose, but I’m still fat and I’m still not happy. I have a HealthyWage goal that seemed aggressive but reasonable. But then my progress wasn’t measuring up. Then the fasting got more serious and the diets more restrictive until I found myself occasionally binging and purging. The guilt was too much, realizing I’d taken in carbs and sugars and things that would throw me off course. I only have two months now left in my HealthyWage goal and I still have about 25 pounds to go. It’s too much; I don’t think I can make it. I’ve been purging lately. It was supposed to be a one time thing. Then I did it the next day and the day after that. I took a break for a couple of days but it was too irresistible. It’s become my fall back whenever I make a mistake and stray from my diet. If there is anything I’ve learned from my dieting it is that I do control my body after all, and that has been liberating and healthy. But sometimes controlling my mind is harder. With the purging I feel like I can make up for my lapses in control when temptation gets the better of me. I don’t mean any disrespect or to trivialize the much more real and long term stories here. I’m a 28 year old man and I’ve only recently begun to struggle with this. But purging feels too good and has quickly become my way out, and in the back of my mind, that scares me.",2.870838088844131,4.470232758308157,4.2708694192682115,86.27765245608148,74.89123867069486,7.320622132706728,25.552310618775877,8.045849151850463,1.4500653686919551,1277,44,265,20,27,423,162,331,0.09699999999999999,0.825,0.078,-0.513,2,0,0,1,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,9,18,12,1,3,15,0,25,8,2,8,3,61,52,32,0,5,9,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,18,23,6,4,11,0,0,5,5,8,0,2,17,4,33,4,28,31,11,49,0,2,1,0,1,9,0,3,33,179,51,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025170903044972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501214045295184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588720702573424,0.0,0.0,0.2281870023376589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913658744463507,0.0,0.11474981864668678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889890812539371,0.0,0.0,0.3475998179404335,0.0,0.1143062648595438,0.0,0.1998717172706521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344630646161586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446936385266166,0.07380191793045042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326983632519536,0.0,0.0,0.05397318767144062,0.0,0.0587112527921026,0.08664827818958218,0.24787004140634786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10997129339970416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653381120698217,0.0,0.1122424094986534,0.0,0.0,0.050470155567660116,0.0,0.0,0.09142267173910464,0.0,0.11557313167983232,0.1127708412628326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068729263219708,0.0,0.0,0.11253065777602382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20861947845971485,0.0,0.08245796515234756,0.0,0.2278256701952139,0.07660018434949874,0.0,0.09977370141427797,0.10986723828531082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10840240256062934,0.0,0.07000290539064925,0.15713792981264366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509947061006628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175849893705551,0.0,0.10621590439758644,0.1020023376897666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342745525094812,0.0,0.0,0.0940460183180434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217240135548636,0.0,0.07312060856294977,0.0,0.24750121994143684,0.0,0.0,0.10799799433961628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372640011383539,0.13238879001324588,0.0,0.08201352560956153,0.06023863355025187,0.11873519629889423,0.0,0.0,0.11477690847137155,0.0,0.0,0.10091507533058047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639991905721745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677141756484804,0.0,0.0,0.06652575890790649
EDAnonymous,n0ta_bot,2019/09/27,it's my birthday I ate two pieces of cake and even though it was probably way too much I didn't purge. I'm feeling pretty good about it but I'm worried about having leftover cake in the fridge... I've been b/p'ing a lot less lately and eating 10000 calories of cake tonight would kind of ruin my day...,2.663333333333334,4.063769619047618,3.3716190476190446,93.33171428571433,75.03174603174601,5.674920634920635,23.711111111111112,5.6839178017228535,0.2809263492063492,238,7,52,1,5,75,49,63,0.154,0.782,0.065,-0.7632,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,4,2,6,4,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805319033335246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28643860996006065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489134138589605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154118467014953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23479227770313774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915043595008828,0.0,0.0,0.3157736025965772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23798675424055596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20578100008458294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847897800801117,0.3018122391441825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750301257197889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734512547336397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22219566447508127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28428283596055165,0.0,0.19885447323240785,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pas-de-dog,2019/09/27,"Quasi-Recovery and Yom Kippur (Help!) Note: I'm posting this in multiple subreddits because I genuinely have no idea what to do and need a second opinion. Also, TW/CW for religious talk

I want to observe Yom Kippur this year (Oct 8-9), to support my mother as well as to rekindle my feelings of trust and security with religion. The problem: the staple of Yom Kippur is to fast from sunset to the following evening (roughly 24 hours). I know this probably wouldn't be good for me, and I've been panicking the past half hour trying to figure out what to do. I was going to e-mail or visit the Rabbi(s) in my area, but it felt awkward and scary.

Would it be wrong of me to nourish myself during the Day of Atonement? Would I be bad if I chose not to fast with my mom?",4.536666666666669,5.1314740718954255,5.87896078431373,80.16432352941176,69.71895424836602,8.73437908496732,30.98627450980392,8.841846274778883,2.5031600000000007,595,24,116,10,10,201,102,153,0.145,0.8009999999999999,0.053,-0.9473,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,24,21,11,0,7,4,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,1,5,0,0,3,3,4,1,2,3,3,13,5,25,12,0,15,3,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,7,79,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434707153975067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715930998484519,0.1252775974212997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253759276435026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357380765270411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039125359385293,0.0,0.19732278733447645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167966366553117,0.17237287544098015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774969055033234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047738736789036,0.0,0.0,0.2319969028288724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294347039685693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406919980514012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238380163473084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19618350246668093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968227284213628,0.0,0.2215756157463616,0.19664627104296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23321144609150024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651819562658793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395284781300928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121571173436545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18477906885445264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919782343839282,0.2246940155969933,0.0,0.1323423453234638
EDAnonymous,tennantlegs,2019/09/27,"Not to be pathetic but: quick rant u can ignore it’s okay Tw weight and body issues

Just got triggered by a twelve yo (?) boy who weighs 54.5 lbs in the psychiatry waiting room and I’ll I can do is stare at his bony knees and think about my fat ducking thighs

His dads also yelling at him to turn of his iPad even though he has headphones like... this is public be quiet I’m fucking sweating you’re making me anxious no wonder your kid (potentially) has control issues with food hahaha I’m projecting!!!!! The dad and his friend are talking so loud my hands are shaking and I want to leave this is me problem and not a them problem but wow my therapist better call me in soon bc I’m  this 👌🏽 close to absconding.

Yesterday I got triggered by this cat with a thin triangular face can my triggers PLEASE be realistic thanks!",1.3983128834355831,3.9800407791411065,2.790953987730063,89.56888496932515,85.99386503067484,5.7139877300613495,22.87392638036809,7.1686216300943375,0.976514355828221,649,24,130,10,20,210,115,163,0.11699999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.9327,0,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,1,2,8,11,1,1,5,1,14,11,7,5,0,26,27,11,0,3,5,2,3,1,1,0,1,3,1,2,6,9,4,3,2,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,7,17,6,14,22,0,11,0,0,1,1,17,7,1,1,4,74,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423076095865375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010343443964792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15738348510085207,0.0,0.19766380481490195,0.0,0.0,0.18170819805153626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958754148049115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11753517126568093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151794474533902,0.0,0.13748475156826673,0.1645131316561718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28464786008281656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714698982989457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842475807354475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693802828412359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878389064793027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533711607635024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34055076861483863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303053363101575,0.0,0.16383367071205554,0.0,0.20661520287112345,0.0,0.1140240231203836,0.17483627241488026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935599406060236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496030151091623,0.0,0.0,0.21669677238158788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19298062008550207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,magicpeachy,2019/09/27,"a new low ordered food at work from a healthy lunch spot. all was well until I googled if the nutrition info could be trusted from this place :~) 

purged in the bathroom. at work. where I told myself I’d never puke. happy fucking Friday.",2.112391304347824,4.630414152173916,2.8762608695652183,90.82743478260872,81.3913043478261,4.5495652173913035,24.417391304347824,5.6839178017228535,0.5695443478260875,185,7,35,1,5,58,39,46,0.1,0.6890000000000001,0.21,0.6786,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,2,5,5,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,3,3,6,1,1,10,0,1,0,1,1,6,1,1,3,22,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458336475273881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3723147375396179,0.0,0.0,0.2846492272346579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32776601078777745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374719942502276,0.29737240586257113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216906886048788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29421230489051625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768396984503444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4483107400200682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bruhmomentbruhhhbrug,2019/09/27,"This is the last fucking weekend I can fast before I go abroad and my family have already just arranged a lunch and a brunch on Sunday Why are social events just fat fuck calorie fests? 

People are so fucking dead inside now all they have in common for entertainment is fucking food",5.456886792452828,7.260647094339625,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,68.62264150943396,6.809433962264151,28.34433962264151,7.1686216300943375,1.6837962264150947,228,8,38,2,4,71,44,53,0.146,0.805,0.049,-0.763,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,4,5,4,0,3,0,7,8,1,0,1,5,12,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,3,12,1,10,0,0,0,4,2,2,4,0,7,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391695691509069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844232910744389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20431599783396534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26207365246950703,0.0,0.0,0.8014623664589308,0.0,0.0,0.1231740053445136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666581542488413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502549421533543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22093136620647774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19556726110005676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,accountable-side-job,2019/09/27,"Cosmic justice I was just about to cook something for myself when all of a sudden the power in my building got all freaky and dim so now I don’t want to use the stove top in case there’s a power surge or some shit. Not sure if this is a win or a lose. On one hand I had the perfect meal planned. On the other hand even my building is telling me not to. 

Moral of my story: my thinking is so messed up I take advice from a building twice my age.",0.6138373424971384,2.2456225257732,2.238075601374572,98.21308132875143,81.4742268041237,4.311111111111112,20.0561282932417,3.1291,-0.6338833906071017,343,9,82,0,9,112,68,97,0.128,0.682,0.19,0.7773,2,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,7,8,6,1,0,9,0,6,5,3,1,4,15,11,7,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,3,2,11,3,13,8,3,10,1,1,0,0,1,6,1,4,4,59,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32375911454186485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883173799972375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649844521816466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706589486733354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22450895756686365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400921148300799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550639948969429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31226232901387163,0.0,0.24910913313272215,0.0,0.28958564051213914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21229454030191197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286151490435337,0.0,0.0,0.1954193366400057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cottonvoile,2019/09/27,"Im so tired My brain is just so noisy. It's layers and layers of shame. I can't even understand what I want from this anymore, what I'm hoping to achieve. I just want relief. It hurts so much to be alive.",-1.142666666666667,0.8990355111111121,0.9705555555555564,101.4625,93.88888888888887,3.888888888888889,14.166666666666668,5.46131890053228,-1.160333333333333,158,3,39,1,6,52,33,45,0.225,0.561,0.215,-0.3683,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,8,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,24,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089821283517981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478021159093853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057813274079384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309447703774318,0.0,0.0,0.33352961794638475,0.0,0.3365364417932217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290312084672279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580904487974668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243431916024978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675303304953864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bokuwachan,2019/09/27,"Will anorexia lanugo go away? Hi, I didn't eat for days (first time in my life), and found some new lanugo on my nose, which freaks me out, I swear I didn't have that thing before starving, now I back to eating, like 12 hours passing, not feeling starving anymore, but those new tiny white hair are still there..",7.345027322404372,5.974314868852461,6.074426229508197,87.7278142076503,64.24590163934425,8.133333333333333,30.169398907103826,3.1291,1.0665366120218571,241,6,51,0,3,71,52,61,0.126,0.8440000000000001,0.03,-0.3685,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,7,8,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,3,4,7,1,6,4,1,15,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,10,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394918406306875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22688652630052544,0.1856898577108113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548904589006847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574019473775375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4942063321979866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221039121446407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20541011354841446,0.0,0.26477982890363144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724355903878774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378176659040078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705705678744573,0.11797915128594726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4664624660303879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285313959310652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604343217716684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081396779838362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sskeletons,2019/09/27,"HAIR LOSS I've been restricting a LOT recently and my hair is falling out in literal handfuls, PLZ someone help!!!

Does BioSil work? I've been taking Biotin for 2 months and I'm still losing a pile a day. Like it's breaking at the roots too and around my face... FML I hate this fucking disorder",0.7781779661016941,3.30813145762712,2.286249999999999,91.80700211864408,90.35593220338984,5.661864406779661,22.62923728813559,7.1686216300943375,1.0435237288135593,232,9,47,4,8,75,48,59,0.265,0.625,0.11,-0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,3,5,2,0,4,0,3,5,4,1,0,8,7,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,3,3,1,5,5,1,10,0,2,0,1,1,4,1,1,5,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586854959332499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18740563152656992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333039754237808,0.0,0.2542960751047598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686445130825745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868961189899225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19477543851330847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14196693018743153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32509435590579194,0.0,0.2470480682354153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319450782450543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869212228669434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24621480973829854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206446144610204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21848649135786627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21155198914890289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,destinaaa,2019/09/27,"i’m literally going crazy // rant like i just can’t do this anymore. everything i’m doing isn’t working & i’m just going insane.  i don’t know what this disorder would be called because i’m extremely overweight. starting weight was 265 and i’m around 225 right now. i honestly hate my body with a passion.  i’ve been starving, and purging when i finally eat a “normal” meal (ex. 100 cal pack of almonds). i weighed myself this morning and it said 232. HOW AM I GAINING WEIGHT WHEN IM LITERALLY STARVING MYSELF SO HARD I ALMOST PASSED OUT YESTERDAY??? i cried and screamed at myself in the mirror. i thought i was doing better because i didn’t purge after the almonds but maybe i should have.  i skate on my penny board everyday so i’m active as well, why am i gaining weight? this just makes me want to dive even deeper into my ED.  i know i need help but honestly i don’t want to get it so, any ideas?",0.7124355432780831,3.210688187845306,2.6716919889502755,89.3404293278085,89.77348066298342,5.226611418047883,23.011279926335174,6.816661863887847,0.9502208103130756,706,28,139,10,24,235,113,181,0.11699999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.175,0.9251,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,13,8,1,0,4,0,17,9,1,2,0,26,36,13,0,6,5,1,4,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,7,8,7,0,4,0,0,3,5,2,1,0,6,6,24,6,12,27,0,18,0,0,0,1,4,7,0,1,9,82,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800355482001928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014470560864313,0.0,0.10051124448821776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658105864200785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157618422970738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019891790081705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071991943109282,0.0,0.1641760355178928,0.0,0.0,0.15092359273938385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235487505878565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939527243814795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512395728605928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762261973245838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328359858875025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191118119859446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722107172512016,0.0,0.16799992954018547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13240263582529505,0.14592506035493613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906936950134228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16685182229953913,0.15965281931613642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245754682725325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220917776421243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865978380933137,0.0,0.14848818064884195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095942001020631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481575455407095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622312534327693,0.14059468993284735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461586580352644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733923113970653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435631379211208,0.0,0.0,0.5399534380982965,0.1328928273836443,0.0,0.1333693988162577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760249003523403,0.0,0.0,0.10499515270403313,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,burp863,2019/09/27,mom: you need calories to live oK bOoMeR... ..... .,-1.2566666666666677,-3.3766299999999987,-1.2749999999999986,108.95333333333332,161.5,1.0666666666666669,15.166666666666664,3.1291,-1.6691333333333334,32,1,7,0,3,9,8,8,0.0,0.784,0.21600000000000005,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5372678658414601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7126031433044445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4511540762165274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hereforagoodishtime,2019/09/27,"ran through my adderall script about a week before it was time for my refill. bought coke to ~supplement~ energy and help keep appetite down. took pics this weekend and the coke bloat in my face made me look 20 lbs heavier than i am THE COKE BLOAT IS REAL YALL. i look like a pale, puffy, unbaked pie. i learned my lesson, no more adderall binges that leave me fucked for a week 🙃",3.5972000000000013,5.2732195866666665,3.4450000000000003,92.62750000000004,73.13333333333333,6.066666666666666,24.5,6.42735559955562,0.5406,299,9,63,2,6,90,58,75,0.10099999999999999,0.804,0.095,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,5,0,3,5,1,1,0,7,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,2,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,5,2,10,1,8,6,1,8,0,0,2,1,2,2,1,0,5,33,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329981234201608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25313943034103864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353378218646027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433811557956327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899326968048495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337731689456325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598746822125789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590922927005306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116637242667196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966491112096814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042207933640024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43927900726519337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ampeaxhy,2019/09/27,"like clockwork 1. spend hours researching recipes, calculating macros, comparing brands, and wandering grocery stores in order to compile a list of qualifiable Safe Foods

2. purchase a haul of these seemingly heaven-sent items (which are always items that are more expensive cause they’re SuPeR LuXuRiOuS diet foods and gourmet health foods)

3. cycle through a limited variety of meals all week using these ingredients, feel alright cause it tastes pretty good and you know it’s mostly healthy stuff

4. realize that you’re getting bored and also feel ashamed and heavy after eating, get existential about food again, sense a spiral coming on

5. /binge on all the “safe” foods in one lonely evening; try not to cry/

6. RED ALERT nothing is sacred anymore, not even your low-sugar vanilla greek yogurt

7.  whelp, no food is safe anymore. better research new potential candidates while fasting off last night’s binge!!!!! maybe they’ve invented new vegetables?

8. rinse and repeat

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EDAnonymous,obscureconifer,2019/09/27,"Inappropriate My roommate (who has no idea about my previous ED history) is an extrovert to the max and an over sharer. She told me a couple days ago she used to ""kinda"" have an ED 4 years ago (b/p). Today I left a bag of open chips on the counter and she starting eating them and was like ""if i make myself throw up tonight it's your fault"" as a joke and I was like ??? No. Not okay. Mind the fact that we only met 3 weeks ago.  Oh boy.",-0.21903225806451587,1.69208284946237,2.2477526881720458,95.51162903225807,86.09677419354837,5.440430107526883,17.902150537634412,6.742157984588678,-0.1849862365591393,327,8,80,4,10,112,72,93,0.1,0.823,0.077,-0.2746,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,9,1,5,1,0,2,1,14,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,13,4,8,6,0,15,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,2,11,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.604876269852601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516749927662181,0.0,0.14668986883636242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327435835376176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25676937792975657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24713087802621794,0.0,0.0,0.2222463668637708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182819681722026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296650397804385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299002551387105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099405097134842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560105409441355,0.21734331208211316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19644837254215802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18245094321547176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647377300349795
EDAnonymous,dwyer666,2019/09/27,Excuses to restrict? Does anyone else use minor inconveniences or things that happen to you that aren’t really your fault to punish yourself and restrict even more? I’ve been doing it for years but honestly don’t know if it’s just me.,6.061333333333334,7.183411577777778,6.5177777777777814,75.05000000000003,66.55555555555556,9.555555555555557,28.333333333333336,9.725611199111238,2.684333333333334,191,6,33,4,3,62,39,45,0.16899999999999998,0.748,0.083,-0.2845,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,7,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,4,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735208809236149,0.4008082758179703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423226640768822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32677917703734555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583695006050791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34591757537175555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21498129920256476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505987607418421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598814029920969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378523533970671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519059245938
EDAnonymous,cheapyoutiao,2019/09/27,"why can't food labels/brand names be a little more discrete i DONT appreciate the “LOSE WEIGHT QUICKLY” and “ONLY 10 CALORIES"" and ""DIET"" plastered on all sides of everything i consume but thank you anyways🙃",5.478596491228071,7.549023000000004,5.807894736842107,75.98359649122811,69.0,7.171929824561403,33.719298245614034,7.793537801064563,2.754445614035088,166,8,26,2,3,53,36,38,0.049,0.8079999999999999,0.14300000000000002,0.5251,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,2,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778119045999598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897228124105096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898076432256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230965780337687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606463879343363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451747476714711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967923647778195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39255634837045655,0.0,0.0,0.2908862162341238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ihatebeingalive1234,2019/09/27,"*gets so drunk I spill my salad* Tells myself it’s ok! I didn’t need the calories anyway. Still a fat drunk POS! Not really but I’m feeling down. It was a good salad but drunk me fucking flipped the bowl, just stupid movements that inebriated me did too hard. Shit. Counting cals is will be difficult I’m kinda homeless and living with my best friends mom while she’s away at college. I’m gonna try to fast all day and only have family dinners with them. Stressed and angry = skinny for me, I’m gonna ride this hate train for as long as I can.",-0.30850598646538074,1.9665642920354005,1.5173971889640825,96.02274856845392,96.34513274336284,4.0747527329515885,18.151483602290472,5.900188976854957,-0.2488330036439348,427,13,92,4,17,139,85,113,0.262,0.609,0.129,-0.9597,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,5,10,4,1,4,1,8,10,3,0,1,13,19,9,0,1,4,1,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,4,5,8,0,1,3,0,2,2,6,0,0,3,2,11,4,10,12,2,10,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,1,5,51,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316391524675439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25873601111867994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590025080043723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23242270005570634,0.0,0.1246616411443138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904817076277588,0.22792885674669125,0.12881070401464698,0.0,0.0,0.2067920424341161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22085780931350624,0.2434142564688671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770564025907407,0.2181864591971341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887530288466976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281157921920668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875102086779392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579444101310826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25307709470499673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689286329361325,0.0,0.2824189141696784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154930660645113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16738932327044162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lethargicmandarin,2019/06/01,"(TW) Being at a healthy weight for the first time in years, but still super disordered. Can anyone else relate? TW: my entire life story 


As a child, I was never overweight, just ate a lot due to being an athlete and going through growth spurts. I definitely feel like I had what I now consider to be “binges”, but they never affected my weight and I never cared much about weight or calories or body image.

Then, I was bullied by a “friend” for “eating too much”. Ironically, she was struggling with being overweight herself so she bullied other people and took her insecurities out on her friends. 

As a result, I developed restrictive anorexia when I was a young teen, which turned into AN B/P (binging and fasting and then binging and fasting, rinse and repeat). 

Became severely underweight, then got put on a massive meal plan (hypermetabolism) and gained weight until I felt “fat” (while in reality still underweight. I had a lot of body dysmorphia...). 

Started losing weight again. Cycled through treatment, went to tons of doctors, therapists, programs, etc., hated everything and left. 

Eventually, I starting lifting weights and gaining weight on purpose. I was finally satisfied with my body when still slightly underweight and excessively lean due to overexercising. Then, I started binging. I gained some more weight as a result and felt terrible.

Now I’m at the lower end of a healthy BMI and I feel...ambivalent. I would like to lose a bit of fat, but I don’t feel like I need to lose much weight to be okay with my body. Physically, I’m healthy. I’m hyperfocused on my athletic performance more than anything else.

The thing I hate the most is that I have leftover shitty eating habits. I binge 1000-1800 calories a couple times a week, usually because of undereating, so I consider myself to have BED. However, I have a high TDEE due to being an athlete and having increased muscle mass, so my weight isn’t affected.

I am just  frustrated with my eating habits. I’m terrified of other people judging how much I eat, i have no proper hunger and fullness cues, I obsessively count calories and exercise, I won’t eat certain foods, I have phases of body dysmorphia, and I think about food very often.  

In short, I’m fucked. Lol.

TLDR: is anyone else physically recovered but super disordered?",5.0756688241639685,7.559455800970877,5.6281877022653735,75.0951024811219,71.0873786407767,8.558360302049623,31.590075512405612,9.225670689056813,3.2435596548004315,1818,83,294,41,36,585,214,412,0.174,0.66,0.16699999999999998,-0.8846,2,0,0,0,0,0,75.0,0,0,1,11,18,21,4,3,21,2,27,33,7,5,4,53,51,38,0,2,8,0,14,3,2,2,7,0,1,1,6,23,24,1,5,1,0,6,7,11,0,1,13,14,44,10,44,30,15,58,0,3,0,1,9,17,1,7,38,204,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882033636690977,0.1155006631008771,0.04638176776489497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03435822921060922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153356090633394,0.31303172765541376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746561337384589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062364347051372775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291932640977772,0.057689696417799675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883659885748582,0.14125161796502045,0.0,0.04992069613686026,0.0,0.06285940157057687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05065523482279877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549614937837187,0.08053116648553063,0.10823422056722108,0.061742673487569996,0.0,0.04794215419557403,0.13630820120122247,0.0,0.0870914922435922,0.052106484414339835,0.0,0.0,0.032032268305212275,0.0,0.04507846618584516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129315824208172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05955037448373345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06123832834934832,0.0,0.039810700286363666,0.08260802594046615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18916661049378897,0.0,0.09583524464647936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657325219601863,0.041792289222653364,0.1304113580857291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814971361495594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05666016414678055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06367390145447509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968160313778214,0.0,0.13503417328028605,0.0,0.0,0.058922618179537825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654415349084139,0.03744492839115632,0.03611499534274228,0.0,0.0,0.06573118373248486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262112546663813,0.0,0.0613065226276722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06207564230102775,0.04650519853879996,0.0,0.0,0.04521082455383026,0.6863468514074302,0.0,0.05224886426349793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04003850372279877,0.0,0.0,0.03629578415047156
EDAnonymous,morallyabiguous-,2019/06/01,"Found a pro-ana on Tik Tok... ummm idk if anyone cares but i found a girl on tik tok with like 13k followers and idk if she’s trolling or what but she made a video and the caption said something about you haven’t struggled with an ED if you’re not skinny and she refuses to apologize and instead just keeps posting hella triggering stuff. it just really pissed me off, i hope it’s supposed to be satire but that doesn’t really make it any better :/",2.6316758241758222,4.535996714285716,3.628667582417586,89.3069574175824,76.36263736263736,7.187362637362638,23.46291208791209,8.07648339933343,1.2114054945054944,355,11,74,6,8,114,65,91,0.151,0.7040000000000001,0.14400000000000002,-0.1753,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,1,5,0,3,2,2,3,0,24,12,11,0,4,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,6,1,2,2,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,1,7,4,8,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,3,1,5,1,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303643700214185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676369397386251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203707125276608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444384282084539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5257412464164052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381232401507848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21309848356016786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171284578305218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22685476406797864,0.16003323518256246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296117139604693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071766163606805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280546562206712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18456924308067613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25063601218408404,0.2744533865205939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bruiseviolet_,2019/06/01,"Are vitimins making me fat? This might sound stupid but I’m worried that my multivitamins are making me fat because ever since I started taking them I’ve been unable to lose any more weight & im just so confused. I’m trying so hard eating maximum 700calories each day apart from weekends, excersing & everything but I’m just staying the same & I always look pregnant?? I’m thinking of stopping taking them although I really shouldn’t because my hair is falling out & I’m starting to develop other problems but I just don’t know what to do",5.138785714285714,6.920294152380954,5.711607142857144,77.49026785714288,69.3809523809524,7.5357142857142865,33.125,8.07648339933343,2.7146428571428567,446,21,74,6,8,144,71,105,0.213,0.787,0.0,-0.9671,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,6,4,1,1,1,0,8,5,3,2,1,19,22,6,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,2,4,1,2,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,5,10,0,6,19,3,10,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,2,6,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266767366476604,0.6598123899789817,0.0,0.10352912416536587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18560944340914168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818287279668086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15578058551684387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771073185231986,0.0,0.0,0.13682442543220258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637806390692467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644464421716374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366769122558733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784412626590275,0.17031877608380147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032441456701246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16150367936834747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456741096096459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752950518504053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259353571215189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21551397588575594,0.1622686866788617,0.0,0.12728032191373698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22893262293178354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754990781393766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336166919915712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18538856629435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15460816069627825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fizzy_yellow_drink,2019/06/01,"Does the dizziness ever end? (Recovery) Hi all,

I’m wondering if anyone would be able to give me some guidance.

I finally started to take recovery seriously about a year ago when the perpetual dizziness started causing me to mess up a lot at work. I’m now almost at a normal BMI but I’m still crazy dizzy/foggy almost everyday. Has anyone else dealt with this, and if so, does it ever go away? I’m starting to get so scared that I’m stuck like this forever.

It’s not dehydration, and none of the medical professionals I’ve talked to have taken me seriously. I’m just scared and want to be able to function again. I remember when I used to be healthy enough to run for over an hour, but for almost a year now I can barely walk five minutes without getting dizzy. :(",3.6704746136865367,5.328353569536425,5.259221854304638,79.76887693156735,72.90728476821192,8.477041942604856,29.139624724061807,9.075114841892004,2.5301253863134656,603,25,116,13,12,204,95,151,0.135,0.78,0.085,-0.8392,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,12,6,0,2,8,0,7,1,0,2,3,26,26,11,0,5,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,3,5,0,1,2,0,7,1,20,20,5,26,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,8,19,72,12,2,0.2757003374667256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219585717888845,0.0,0.4141110947125349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927760863088736,0.1412437882465977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295147712750623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161009586575704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412672232289198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515612742941995,0.0,0.12209433339995937,0.14243607397441418,0.0,0.0,0.249386739380854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100812178438364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404204721457248,0.13223844289251946,0.07834342764955518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357546484004477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734662936214228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719528388842144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886954242557534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506389699656146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561573688905072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760241341169336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927131768211966,0.0,0.11008732281878572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364617122231608,0.11079874395629158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905828582117944,0.0,0.0,0.08130760109365455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288264346421896,0.149492627696827,0.10035656462547386,0.0,0.0,0.0979248047536215,0.0,0.0,0.17754197813794165
EDAnonymous,EpoTheImpaler,2019/06/07,"My anxiety is skyrocketing and starting to affect others. Is this due to restricting? What are your guys thoughts? I've been restricting and exercising a lot. when I do eat, it's protein bars and cabbage - about 800c or less (I'm 5 foot) I've noticed I'm more irritable and anxious with the accompaniment of insomnia. The weight loss has been glorious. I've been on edge and in a constant heightened state of panic but it seemed like an even payoff. 

Today, I got upset at my boyfriend for something I could've used my words for and not gotten mad. He was playing a game with his friend our conversation was brief. Thank Christ because my brain went on a fucking rollercoaster. I felt shaky from the adrenaline and my thoughts became heavily distorted and thought that he was being manipulative, lying, didn't care about me, etc. All shit my mom's told me when I was growing up and she was stressed and this is scaring the shit out of me. Those thoughts I had aren't me and I feel like shit for acting out like a child (I punched pillows and cried) I'm shook and don't want to end up like her at all😭

Logic is telling me it's the restricting but I'm also like, ""But there's others who don't eat much and don't do shit like this. Restricting has nothing to do with this."" I'm not trying to pin it solely on restricting for me thinking that shit. I'm predisposed to it I think but I feel like restricting like this isn't helping my mental state at all. 

Also me: Start fasting to your goal weight and only THEN you're allowed to eat more to see if it helps and not be a fucking asshole in a shorter time frame.",2.77156885842793,4.816521791925466,3.801835510816023,87.5817701863354,76.4223602484472,6.925851360034269,26.63139858642108,7.873277556716777,1.5468071107303492,1275,50,261,20,29,411,164,322,0.21899999999999997,0.654,0.128,-0.9858,1,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,2,0,2,8,27,8,6,13,0,27,17,7,4,2,57,56,27,0,2,9,1,5,8,1,0,2,0,1,2,18,21,6,6,11,4,0,5,9,15,0,0,19,6,30,12,34,35,8,30,1,1,1,2,19,12,7,5,19,162,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504287395883492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195049770758928,0.10625342920661833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733400328397276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049945598466328,0.0,0.0,0.09589358187511693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016381769088,0.0,0.07509388666043522,0.0,0.10331310585242086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288719941320465,0.0,0.0,0.0833032848900481,0.0,0.1048942631468088,0.06212130089939252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511232334237986,0.13438335647163874,0.0903058932315862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266532672117977,0.17390147380503276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522299570484395,0.0,0.0,0.09312752898418923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608385494206825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675974336178903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996073076992191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947835793276453,0.0,0.0,0.11015405859275164,0.0,0.0,0.06913997881031893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902466537020127,0.10708027662272424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153175360946533,0.0,0.11035125294608522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941637356974972,0.0,0.07494828281448178,0.0856225688896183,0.0,0.0,0.482721674469743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240680588852295,0.0,0.0,0.13314278383927725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773770839184688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220670765051738,0.08659161888444314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053108144130295,0.0,0.2986711770247437,0.054843220831852654,0.0,0.08915150705140493,0.0898719345369206,0.0,0.06385599969973839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123183137249336,0.0,0.0,0.05547505825223945,0.0,0.0,0.22906310096090204,0.0,0.08718832792297215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biciklici,2019/06/07,"recovery not working?? hey guys♡

im feeling really offended by my own damn body like wtf are you doing bitch

anyways, im in recovery and its doing GREAT and i eat like at least 2 or 3 meals a day (which is a lot for me) and i just wanna get to normal weight

food doesnt scare me anymore, food is not scary for more than 6months..
  but, i just weighed myself and i am 103(47kg) pounds?????? like bitch what the actual fuck

i am trying so fucking hard to fucking recover and i gained 4 fucking pounds in 9 fucking months????????????????

tbh,i just want to look like a healthy fucking person and my body is working against me? like bitch wtf 

does anyone maybe have some advice how to fucking gain? sorry if its triggering to anyone i dont wanna offend anyone but im just so fucking pissed right now

lots of love, stay safe ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡",0.05390088593576792,2.29438498255814,2.148471760797346,94.24724806201552,88.7093023255814,4.904097452934662,20.399778516057587,6.42735559955562,0.2228778516057588,635,21,139,7,21,212,102,172,0.195,0.57,0.235,0.6362,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,4,9,24,15,1,4,0,11,18,3,2,0,27,24,13,0,5,10,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,6,1,1,0,0,0,4,16,0,0,0,4,14,8,16,24,6,8,0,0,1,9,4,4,13,5,8,76,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.09216308430145102,0.0,0.0,0.09228894688992093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366242380593864,0.19811095509723475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098105384135746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060908146535317835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264801051958225,0.0,0.1106869008031368,0.0,0.0,0.0966391230949834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04775339459389081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22840254323753484,0.0,0.0,0.6984908291370191,0.04934275146921477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412412488955823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08460268949195705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060450680968575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23070124725145666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930862638749879,0.0,0.0,0.1605847147578008,0.0852388091343766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488103739290953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07538377955249755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925344290898238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246428886560153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050282726630817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806541033987594,0.0,0.0,0.09455426740046476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572159620514823,0.0,0.10066404317580536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641208340557961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05570513375647677,0.0,0.0,0.11500655501506653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751176472082174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princesspug14,2019/06/07,"Why is everything about dinner 🙃 Oh it’s your birthday? DINNER! You did well on your exam? DINNER! Cousins are in from out of town? DINNER! 
Ugh",-1.2026587301587313,-2.001591821428568,0.7947619047619057,94.90579365079368,145.78571428571428,2.6730158730158733,13.825396825396824,5.033348758259628,-0.7266079365079365,111,3,21,1,9,36,24,28,0.139,0.792,0.069,-0.4795,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,6,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,14,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764954534781584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5767421401261756,0.0,0.5788104144896593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,georgiaxmaii,2019/06/07,MyFitnessPal is shit. so I can’t get a weight projection under a certain amount of cals?? Anyone else get really pissed off with this or is it just me lol.,2.272795698924732,4.475969612903229,4.046451612903226,84.4563440860215,78.67741935483872,8.004301075268819,20.010752688172047,8.841846274778883,1.3433784946236569,122,3,25,3,3,41,28,31,0.233,0.633,0.135,-0.6759999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,1,3,3,2,0,1,4,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,16,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791227957120421,0.40901713285311453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334718620645878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41712039795432615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25573121314920805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097626018893172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861056443636954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hsnslsksn,2019/06/07,"My ED is ruining my relationship I’m more snappy, I’m more sassy, overall I’m just a worse version of myself. My boyfriend is worried about me more and it’s ruining our relationship and his mental health. The bad thing is - I don’t want to stop, I can’t stop thinking of calories, I can’t stop thinking “if I only eat x calories I’ll lose x pounds”. 


I love him, I love him so fucking much, god I love him. But I can’t stop thinking of calories, thinking of weight, being happy when I see pounds being dropped by the week. He makes me the happiest I’ve ever been but so does losing weight and the sound of my stomach rumbling.",1.3857245080500888,3.5062696356589167,3.1900775193798445,89.8654025044723,81.32558139534882,5.519618366129994,25.426952892069174,6.67199483983844,0.9594097793679192,489,20,102,5,13,163,72,129,0.16699999999999998,0.708,0.125,-0.3064,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,2,6,10,1,0,5,0,10,9,1,1,1,18,24,9,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,3,4,4,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,1,4,21,4,8,21,5,8,0,4,1,4,11,0,1,1,7,61,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138387367326042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931261000174895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951050887075905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332791158757372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604472171002454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451371430623725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449237212878081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050605958741477,0.0,0.0,0.3691582432775104,0.0,0.09100843373186544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739929418225946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022605556470493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369319799144992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29275763961744383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864583540662527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559475090045669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057866082433713,0.34944629933866994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804172400182219,0.0,0.10936423485903066,0.3320523303560017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846053474986875,0.1389427567529506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheezypita,2019/06/07,"I don’t know who else to talk to (serious serious TW) TW pregnancy loss and relapse maybe? Ugh


I did everything right. Fully recovered. Healthy weight. Ate when I didn’t have an appetite. Morning sickness wasn’t as bad as before. I wasn’t gaining weight but I wasn’t restricting. Quit smoking again. Quit drinking. Ate enough to support the baby and breastfeeding/weaning a toddler. I thought. Drank stupid health shakes. Took the stupid vitamins. Took it easy at work. Got plenty of rest. Drank enough water. Went to all the stupid appointments and waited to have a healthy ultrasound with all the healthy signs and then told all my coworkers. 

You “show” earlier the second time. I unpacked my maternity clothes. Planned my leave at work. Came to terms with body changes and my little early bump. 

My sister in law is pregnant, a month ahead of me. We were excited. Planning her gender reveal for next week. Mine would be in another month or so. 

And then it’s just fucking gone. With no explanation other than “These things just happen sometimes. It’s not your fault. There’s nothing you could’ve done differently.”

Now it’s cigarettes for breakfast outside while my husband wrangles our screaming toddler inside. I’m still bleeding. My healthy toddler needs me. My husband needs me. I can’t afford to check out now but it’s all I want to do right now. I feel completely lost and heartbroken and just want to be selfish and empty and alone right now. 

I know I didn’t cause it but it’s still there in my head that maybe if I was healthier and happier it wouldn’t have happened.",2.264477490654965,5.183178754266216,2.5955607020965417,88.8790813424346,89.1023890784983,5.793889159759468,26.430115390866238,7.2636822038024595,1.7340811636600033,1257,57,227,22,42,384,171,293,0.159,0.7290000000000001,0.111,-0.9451,2,1,2,0,0,0,40.0,2,3,0,10,14,16,4,1,9,0,20,16,2,1,4,46,46,23,0,7,9,3,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,13,17,9,2,5,2,1,6,10,14,0,1,22,4,32,2,26,20,8,35,0,2,0,1,12,10,1,2,19,143,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832964541872194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980220176352485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539486571260487,0.0,0.0,0.09721924000950843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269071754370019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306727797588979,0.0,0.11736731406942758,0.1208624759821968,0.0,0.11979006631234422,0.0,0.0,0.09122017747305752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11936804420842292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691850503373052,0.0,0.11192254634917448,0.0,0.0,0.09544210313818437,0.0,0.0,0.2361037795612952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268148887987448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05776877054186316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056232671445895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913770124761197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020636761819659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725455253471655,0.12144353782926215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557879309994802,0.0,0.0,0.1209753796447776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450958041057753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247185320648331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295610992491053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238821765788135,0.0,0.0,0.16943143175990033,0.0,0.0,0.12150730213163098,0.0,0.0,0.10962697675075232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430401388459112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927093517933096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11299722314650355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248209371432605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965075286937172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183067704963484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590332986619007,0.0,0.0,0.09070258241353822,0.06662071388178017,0.0,0.0,0.10917178725048282,0.25387427067473856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477647473435908,0.0,0.09164531158356563,0.2782540317385308,0.0,0.10591188045275376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635226983382045,0.0,0.0,0.08116067745339936,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,COOKIE_PRINCESS,2019/06/07,"I have a major surgery coming up and it's really messing with me (Potential TW destructive thoughts. I'm not 100% of what is okay to share in this sub please delete or let me know if it's not!)

So I have a major surgery coming up towards the end of the year. I'm really glad that I'm going to be lucky enough to get it done so soon because it'll improve my health a lot, but it's messing with my head so bad.

I've been told I should be in the best health I can be for the surgery to reduce risks and improve my chances of a good recovery. I've been told I need to gain and to be as healthy as possible but I also really just want to lose as much as possible before the surgery.

If I lose weight before a life threatening major surgery then surely people will take me seriously... But I also really don't want to potentially put my life at risk... But they'll see my body during the surgery and I can't not be at my gw... But my gw needs to be stable and healthy rn... But that goes against all of my ingrained thoughts... Maybe it isn't so bad if things go wrong. I feel like I'm being forced to recover when I'm not in a good mental place for this and honestly the surgery itself terrifies me anyway and I just can't handle all of this ontop.

At the moment I'm flipping day to day between binging (on real unhealthy foods 🙄) and heavy restriction because I just don't know which to pick. And the entire process is just going to lead to me being less healthy and messing up my bloods again, which is probably the more important thing over my actual weight :)))",4.050569069733154,4.484289931888547,5.094639540026538,85.9316924664603,70.73374613003097,8.50532212885154,28.38404835618458,8.563005593585519,1.8386147427392008,1220,42,265,19,21,402,154,323,0.134,0.687,0.179,0.8569,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,5,14,22,1,2,16,1,27,10,3,2,3,51,52,32,0,8,18,0,3,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,17,14,3,1,5,0,0,7,9,12,0,0,7,4,28,10,41,32,11,29,0,2,1,0,4,13,0,6,10,174,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.10511877186885617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722866192765673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988270059881029,0.13132971295801935,0.0,0.18332285823180855,0.0,0.11304505400471508,0.0,0.0,0.11965217033666048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855817609800892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389404360570024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11023453032999056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540757549131727,0.11130312195475976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0544662565313002,0.07695488985978853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025494436754095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627903486941346,0.0,0.1836585600554819,0.1807001468689045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055136673179948,0.22900175383458726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839972870664182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015056932504852,0.1521710507610056,0.05262634592471999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410213140410199,0.0,0.09157933528481553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082187971461871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855600126664294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918628606927403,0.1597454081182629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467919398502082,0.0,0.11254403471827562,0.11824375184787204,0.0,0.2428752837845761,0.0,0.0,0.1161399269041161,0.0,0.0,0.10828793078854672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12260846546972995,0.27603168644075976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583855918773649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152442984826128,0.0,0.0809917186974249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312820568254636,0.0,0.0,0.17103462910664322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20586135085067536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707159903890086,0.0,0.0,0.2623468585428297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777445121533253,0.0,0.06936787814134178
EDAnonymous,Afrospanish20,2019/06/07,"How is a therapist going to help me if I don’t overeat for emotional reasons? Hey guys I’m a compulsive overeater i have been since child hood since birth tbh. Idk what to do I don’t know how a therapist is going to help if I don’t eat for emotional reasons plus I need a therapist that’s qualified to treat mother other illness including schizo affective, ocd, and anxiety? I wasted money on an unqualified psychologist and had to stop seeing him cause the idiot wasn’t qualified it’s heard to find a good therapist in general.",3.8181445523193123,5.9895926699029145,5.599546925566346,75.30044228694716,73.75728155339806,10.40302049622438,30.861920172599785,10.504223727775694,3.9303557713052863,427,20,77,15,9,146,67,103,0.146,0.715,0.139,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,7,0,10,4,0,6,0,16,17,7,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,3,3,1,4,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,4,2,8,2,11,13,0,6,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,2,46,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152253215346798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15473015556441666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412378015473369,0.0,0.3388586707731173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766566432350927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17120376444285074,0.1263344819184582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491393362495331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20191733468022047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277784298809343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111684211237054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097287455432189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002613270123175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24919194173405096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592663127803838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6995344207588072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TakeOffMyGauzePaws,2019/06/07,"Digestive issues after intense restricting (TMI) After one of my first, and most intense restrictive periods. Pretty much anything I ate ran right through me, or caused intense stomach pains. It was extremely helpful to my ED.",6.4904054054054034,10.081996351351354,6.195878378378378,67.11652027027029,71.97297297297297,9.105405405405406,41.682432432432435,9.516144504307137,5.548627027027028,183,12,22,5,4,57,33,37,0.121,0.65,0.22899999999999998,0.4201,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,6,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,4,0,5,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,4,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29295030216272555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36570087111712735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302805805701856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23861329718454224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715621673491726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616943829767862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412287489433201,0.0,0.37879957697311417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621708794569275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040144120296333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hope_fiend,2019/06/07,"Went to my first EDA meeting and I LOVED it. Oh my gosh. I’m in another 12 step fellowship that I am very active in, and have tried a couple of other fellowships that I absolutely HATED, so I was scared I’d hate this one too, but it was sooooo good.

I was scared it was going to be a bunch of folks not actually interested in recovery and just super competitive about who can be the sickest because I know a lot of ED groups can easily head in that direction, but it wasn’t like that at all (I think having the steps and traditions and the big book helps a lot with that). 

I already feel so much less shame about my ED behaviors. It’s like a weight lifted. I can’t believe it. I don’t know why I’m so shocked, because I had a similar experience with the other fellowship in part of, but I was so scared it would be triggering.

I love that the focus is on moderation and not on abstinence - I went to an OA meeting and absolutely hated it. I have no interest in cutting out huge swaths of food groups, I don’t want meetings where the focus is weight loss, I couldn’t stand the calorie counting talk. I want to move towards a sane relationship with eating and with my body, and for the first time ever, I actually feel hopeful about it being possible. I just wish there was more than one meeting a week here!",4.20810606060606,5.0331205681818245,5.684545454545457,80.43015151515155,70.5909090909091,9.351515151515153,28.68181818181818,9.586721724236666,2.4549181818181824,1026,37,212,23,18,348,140,264,0.139,0.6809999999999999,0.18,0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,14,19,4,4,17,0,25,9,2,1,2,37,44,16,0,6,7,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,19,14,4,0,5,1,0,6,8,10,0,4,10,4,24,9,29,28,8,26,0,1,0,2,12,14,0,3,7,152,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.22866630922662395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929111645240865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12285451176212152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284166481400593,0.0,0.0,0.13200138761846314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014050533226232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296374604065134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198859162131976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597968421886714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460686092475915,0.0,0.0,0.11848119643122347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993157760863586,0.1416726853706197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658583165678092,0.09826987826867696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470194849447905,0.12024195374950512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07853118007864282,0.0,0.0,0.11636824443900255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877827858642746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144788136005098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19921378673575027,0.2114864539892972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12452460264009628,0.08612750822191254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587839281962767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687496587652888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208248573973813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578807911332446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518986291306956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941703309926381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07507264166446699,0.0,0.0,0.06831807059227192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954526793023606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09667087237046633,0.1382102979475527,0.0,0.09398024280146744,0.2853433635765367,0.0,0.21722058812432984,0.10572042931269447,0.0,0.13473045122265614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322848208167218,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catpotatotots,2019/02/21,"Part of your weight isn’t you I was reading my textbook for microbiology and learned that if you add up all of the microorganisms living within our body it’s about four pounds of organic matter 

Y’all can leave my body now thanks 🙃",9.497333333333334,7.448916622222224,8.656111111111112,73.07750000000001,60.55555555555557,11.666666666666668,35.833333333333336,10.125756701596842,3.2176666666666662,188,6,37,3,2,59,40,45,0.027999999999999997,0.88,0.09300000000000001,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,1,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,1,6,4,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,8,1,7,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,27,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6597076398133817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314436051019833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622196934096438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32157699125307826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29703874493841803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733993821697005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616153103925717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,timeforamphetamines,2019/02/21,"~*rEcOVerY*~ accounts... You know the ones The ones where they're not weight restored (and clearly aren't trying to WR, or are losing weight), but still post all these super positive recovery posts. Idk I honestly just think their accounts are really harmful - I think they send the message that you can be recovered and happy and have your life be all rainbows and unicorns while still being underweight which is so so damaging. Like that's just not what recovery looks like - you don't get to stay in an unhealthy body and call it recovery.

Thinking of accounts like @allie_beks @meghanturnbull @balancedbrooke @storyofkorey

No hate towards them, just concerned about the message they're sending.

What are y'all's thoughts?",7.256451612903228,9.884671741935488,5.708903225806456,76.2183548387097,65.45161290322581,9.153548387096777,35.78709677419355,9.642632912329526,3.886828387096776,592,29,90,13,10,173,85,124,0.153,0.643,0.204,0.8739,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,5,3,2,9,10,1,0,5,0,11,4,1,0,3,20,19,10,0,0,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,5,0,3,2,5,4,0,2,1,3,10,6,6,15,2,11,0,2,1,0,13,3,0,1,6,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20319117746606688,0.0,0.0,0.1867893960247466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557205130165733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19472968983204034,0.0,0.18060300178277147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100532151735631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292070795430602,0.26810736062939816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361300057413746,0.2046490442113128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24791277128144545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35038789456620034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171880192980032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949763402357631,0.2921722224185295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35163760313545395,0.0,0.14522397536905735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419574221978676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455127470053801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annabanana2608,2019/02/21,"I've stopped losing weight And no matter how restrictive I can be, or how much I have gone to the gym (haven't been able to much lately, considering I have a bad back) nothing is working. ",1.5402631578947386,3.830484868421056,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,81.89473684210526,5.905263157894738,22.657894736842106,7.1686216300943375,0.7707684210526313,147,5,31,2,4,48,30,38,0.266,0.705,0.028999999999999998,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,2,0,7,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,5,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,22,3,1,0.3070519696304498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23610401145884444,0.25637556907208586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34636799598555684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34351261316440945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514370550616335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946246460978323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567091954881265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739065787276536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22353749086227584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NopeEwNotThat,2019/02/21,Help**Low calorie Chipotle options Help. Roommates are taking me out to eat. I can't just not eat. I've never been and I'm a nervous wreck googling things now.,1.117741935483874,3.705148516129036,1.2925161290322578,96.83877419354843,96.09677419354836,2.4800000000000004,28.780645161290327,3.1291,0.5587367741935485,128,7,24,0,5,38,28,31,0.163,0.7490000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,6,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7429895905309288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4866947776149061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800095636092008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729713641897722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411968914078693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,touchytascha,2019/02/21,"Are they worried because I’ve lost weight or worried because they think I’m crazy? So a little context I have AN and I restrict but I’ve gotten good at not restricting to heavily and keep it to about 1200 calls/day. I avoid the scale because I hate the anxiety it gives me about having gained or lost weight. So realistically I can’t always tell if I’ve lost weight, other than clothes being a bit baggier. I also look like I’m at a normal and healthy weight.

So this weekend I’m at my uncles as I have my reading week from Uni. My uncle is basically like my dad/close family. They always stuff me with food when I come visit which has been a huge issue with me not wanting to come. They also don’t know I have an eating disorder. 

To my surprise when I got here last night my uncle started talking about how amazing fasting was and all I could think was “this is the best fucking thing”. I was going to have to be careful and secretly fast all week and be careful not to consume to many calories but now I’ve challenged my uncle to a three day fast with me. He was totally on board but like 16 hours in and he is asking why it’s so easy for me and keeps telling me I’m such a healthy weight and why I worry so much about food and stuff. Is this concern coming from the fact that I have way to much knowledge about nutrition and fasting or from the fact that he thinks I’ve lost weight since I last saw him? Like sure there could be small differences but where is this sudden concern coming from? He doesn’t know I’ve ever had an issue with eating but today he was all oh you look healthy don’t lose any weight blah blah blah. I don’t know... I like never post but I’m just a little overwhelmed and I obviously wanna keep fasting but I don’t want him to think I’m weird because it’s easy for me? Anybody else ever deal with this? Also is anybody else deathly afraid of the scale? Like I’m gonna be devastated if I lost and I’m gonna be devastated if I gained.. I can’t step on that thing. Also if I step on it I’m gonna obsess! ",1.5851408450704234,3.504995061032865,3.1888521126760594,91.168911971831,79.61032863849766,5.668450704225353,22.387089201877927,6.6274283507984215,0.4534030046948354,1600,50,346,15,40,528,180,426,0.139,0.695,0.166,0.9655,0,1,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,4,10,25,27,2,4,16,0,36,12,0,1,11,73,82,40,1,10,18,0,7,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,19,22,11,6,9,2,0,8,11,13,0,1,15,10,44,14,38,56,8,44,0,7,3,1,20,12,1,7,28,212,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224691830046596,0.10521802783372904,0.0,0.0,0.04299578026836643,0.0,0.04836764062294818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05910768185065714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541676877668976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663516815686712,0.0,0.06902630769213075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128926038150079,0.0,0.0,0.21785405859491255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10096147319879406,0.0,0.0,0.08155095020682662,0.06518312690241948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605760879878066,0.07246235930452981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939176060759858,0.10563425335220802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438289302748783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059603751780625686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15290601906492218,0.0,0.0,0.058451325958761624,0.0,0.06065204471195655,0.035932736145046884,0.05303088538467849,0.05056752821391111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242248678359981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062264775843830424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13198282648171286,0.0,0.16859425555076446,0.0,0.0,0.10424190380720882,0.10307509468018893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533388714772686,0.12673792415107185,0.0,0.0,0.10618766469520477,0.07073360980412917,0.345092694436372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641011391409416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295662307622987,0.0,0.04876371201441705,0.0,0.0,0.059333224330693116,0.06194795810069195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06055293517213976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632430100616275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052301118032895375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04475161760832248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447570582101653,0.0,0.0,0.05958966272378233,0.0,0.0,0.050818583654434216,0.11052444719966377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400895740690685,0.16205041568276235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059930760612400234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458454817049619,0.0501857766832041,0.10143200688216293,0.5389447933075566,0.0,0.0,0.11410308160496688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262691224091186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HaleyxxRP,2019/02/21,"Help, Tips, Comments, Friends??? Hello i’m a female.  Last year around this exact time i weighed 192 lbs. Last year in July i lost all that weight and my lowest was 154. I still to this day find that that was the lowest i could drop to. I always tend to gain weight around the school year and now to current date, i weigh 159. I’m going to have a quince soon to celebrate my fifteenth birthday the dress is beautiful but not for someone of my body type, i really need help to drop to less than 140 a goal being 130 or anything lower than that. I’m willing to go to extreme measures to reach this goal except for bulimia because i don’t have a gag reflex. I am fully committed, i was eating less than 350 calories in the summer each day, i just need someone or tips or just help in general to keep me in check. It is a terrible life to have to live in this disgusting body. please comment or PM any tips or help. 

Info- 
5’2
159lbs
Goal Loss- 
more than twenty pounds 
Goal date-
May 10

in no way am i looking to gain an ED, i had one but it wasn’t considered an ED because i wasn’t thin enough, please just help. it’s an absolute burden to be this fat and gross at such a young age. I don’t need a lecture just help me please...

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EDAnonymous,alizarincrimson7,2019/02/21,"DAE have Dory syndrome when restricting? Brain, “I will restrict, I will be thin. I don’t need food. I could fast for days if I wanted to. I will undo this damage I did and be a svelte goddess...ooh chocolate! Let’s eat it!” 🤦🏻‍♀️",-2.766472727272728,-1.8481241199999976,0.3427272727272737,100.70136363636364,120.2,2.6181818181818186,14.545454545454547,4.851557810540192,-1.1124,174,5,41,1,11,60,41,50,0.22399999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.0,-0.8602,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,10,3,1,0,0,8,12,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,2,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296077408734429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072627291234896,0.0,0.0,0.2481894006620206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937865032149595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4653490012451354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935240821059211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853533371891515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269880885769678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TiredMama90,2019/02/21,"I’ve just written my “suicide” note before I attempt my LAST attempt at losing weight It’s not a suicide note per say, I’m not suicidal at all.

I’m resorting to illegal avenues to try and lose weight but I know absolutely nothing about it, obviously it’s not dosed or regulated because it’s illegal.

I don’t want anyone to think I actively killed myself so I’ve wrote a letter in case I accidentally kill myself.",4.4730894308943085,5.840499073170732,6.864390243902438,70.19016260162603,70.46341463414635,9.856910569105693,34.39837398373984,10.125756701596842,3.869944715447154,332,17,59,9,6,119,54,82,0.34299999999999997,0.585,0.071,-0.9809,0,0,0,0,0,3,5.0,0,0,0,4,3,4,2,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,13,8,4,5,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,3,9,0,7,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,32,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374994464891725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788659777485292,0.0,0.15059866517269965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916087700104048,0.0,0.09726469067748897,0.1442639692070956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3959952241945749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981902310661104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14074320723875253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5807688193703944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340293332055675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015917536744945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438858187788454,0.0,0.0,0.43103284652962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beemei,2019/02/21,"Started with IF, now idk As the title mentions, I started IF March of 2018. My intentions were to, of course lose weight, and eat healthier. I did 16:8, then went on to 23:1, then continued to extend it to 48, 72, and my longest fast which is 5 days. Initially, i was amazed at the self-control i didn't know I had in me. I became better at moderating meals and even choosing healthier options when I do get to eat.

The problem is that, fast forward to almost a year later, I no longer have a structure. I've thrown the ""You have to eat 3 times a day"" and ""You have to eat or else you'll get sick"" ideologies out the window a long time ago. For the past few months now, I am spiraling between fasting for 2-5 days and binging. I keep having these thoughts of ""Well, I need to eat bcuz I wont be able to in the next few days"", ""I can easily lose this if I just fast"", ""Why can't I stop eating?!"" It's either all or nothing for me when it comes to eating. I thought it was normal until I started reading abt ED posts and relating to them.

I want to stop binging because sometimes I'd just be binging continuously for days by justifying I will fast tomorrow which usually gets pushed back and back and back. I'm worried abt gaining weight and it distracts me from studying for my exams.

Am I at risk of developing ED? I'd appreciate any feedback and advice",2.8293530192435306,4.334391397810222,4.4263968148639705,85.51042468480428,74.80291970802921,7.317584605175848,27.783012607830127,8.00094639256281,1.7237503649635029,1049,42,218,16,22,352,158,274,0.084,0.8370000000000001,0.079,-0.2987,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,3,1,4,12,8,0,2,11,0,22,11,0,1,1,36,37,21,0,7,8,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,10,13,10,3,4,1,0,4,4,5,1,0,9,2,30,3,35,23,4,51,0,2,0,0,5,8,0,7,40,140,40,3,0.09226399568724904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901593087622219,0.08178646528579865,0.0,0.09238906417421557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274268093455386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21283595270076475,0.0,0.05624327540750016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08160000643129113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794772626720697,0.0,0.0,0.10348191653004313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975132220417671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.660863709238812,0.07707472933935464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060939498988960575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461238907179574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200847864135567,0.0,0.0,0.05070587911777149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165073280459062,0.0,0.20643962191587065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364424110769828,0.0,0.0,0.06841258372925077,0.0,0.0,0.09812380612559922,0.0,0.09039912627236288,0.08852979223563971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807642377220047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836340374433299,0.0,0.0,0.08828418334790554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922889636348082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625146953157393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125145091895026,0.0,0.1959147930828436,0.0,0.0,0.1542736634055766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649461317469786,0.10759975570526756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161575629037677,0.0,0.05441969513403951,0.0,0.0,0.2247053813638273,0.08295641258327217,0.08552964835549802,0.08325390536123188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369856622132984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941498822866587
EDAnonymous,ivorycircles,2019/02/21,"My sister is the main reason for my past disorders She’s always been thin, danced ever since she was little. Long torso, long legs, the perfect dancer body basically. We’re the same height but she’s 40 pounds less than me, and I feel that pain every day. I’ve always been short and stocky, not exactly curvy but just ‘squished’ I like to say. I can’t go to any of her dance recitals and be supportive because I just feel like absolute shit the whole time. She eats like garbage and can pile away bread like there’s no tomorrow, then LOSES weight. I exercise regularly and have lowered my carb intake by a lot, but I still feel like I’ll never be as good as her. Does anyone else have a sibling that overshadows them? ",2.5125227963525845,4.8642580283687975,3.150623100303953,90.41250000000002,78.64539007092198,6.58176291793313,21.418946301925022,7.7094869923839395,0.8256095238095247,566,16,116,9,14,177,101,141,0.135,0.727,0.138,-0.1676,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,5,11,1,0,6,0,10,8,3,1,4,21,15,11,0,0,6,1,5,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,3,0,4,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,3,6,17,8,9,10,5,18,0,1,0,0,9,5,1,1,15,66,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25821807774488764,0.0,0.0,0.10551697233466073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849441178866852,0.15898405261807091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578186741396693,0.0,0.0,0.09458665212878344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723524396296423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006806834448867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783160845823198,0.0,0.13578523129765466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587717066552465,0.12961977337062247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035489626896874,0.1307325251357997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353670350713389,0.2216986615695543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818338688262234,0.13014436372805205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3790269363020452,0.15551528490622585,0.0,0.274630856894162,0.0,0.17358904297695066,0.0,0.13191504852430472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967219153704405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510564169129646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812177981685434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953463339892998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339279444479925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592738147794993,0.12835342422217008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391432530149506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760784879177196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047748898243428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18894818611232292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732352807241565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,svidrigailovs,2019/02/21,"I have to quit coffee or else I am going to spiral completely lol I’m a university student back in school after over a year off (bulimia and its attendant mood and behavior disruptions) & I just had an awful two days where day 1 I slept in almost 5 hrs past when I was supposed to (I wake up 4-5 in the mornings) and I let it throw the entire next two days off. slept like shit, got through the next day delirious and bingey. ate a donut, 3 slices of cinnamon toast, a half bag of goldfish, and 3 mini eclairs on TOP of normal meals and drank like 10 cups of coffee to keep my stupid body propped up. then naturally I couldn’t sleep and was just lying there bone tired for 2.5 hrs with my heart pounding the whole time like 35bpm over normal. eventually tried throwing up lol but that didn’t work so I gave up and went to the library and now today’s a new day and my stomach hurts and my head hurts and my homework is due and this semester was supposed to be different :/ I know I need to stop drinking so much coffee but I have relied entirely on caffeine since like age 13,14 and I literally don’t know if I CAN (plus I’m scared I’ll be ravenous without it). I know the coffee isn’t directly tied to the ed but it sure as hell feels like it and I’m so so scared of bombing this semester ",2.8321990369181367,4.224349127340826,4.129620117710008,88.10078651685394,74.58052434456928,7.482718031032639,25.448368111289447,8.11559375814309,1.3676075976457995,1015,34,220,16,21,334,158,267,0.142,0.782,0.075,-0.9698,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,11,14,3,2,13,3,16,15,10,0,1,37,33,28,0,5,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,8,17,4,2,4,1,0,5,5,7,0,3,12,1,20,6,33,17,2,40,1,2,0,0,1,15,2,3,25,127,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955976109456215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936758692324676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180962373516766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262416303339067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251864382741347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850088759716471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474540467519578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169644977363292,0.0,0.0,0.09974163401920312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060371171418797075,0.08529789163259463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785658447242568,0.0,0.09549341680961906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253670321022235,0.0,0.0,0.14148709967455367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556358668152804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612634949521868,0.0,0.0,0.1968539084445807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209245367871167,0.0,0.29165894200387965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777120284664304,0.08853203828439365,0.0,0.1153152466720182,0.2539620662450635,0.0,0.2339692048379303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397881641501227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699437556215584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23907627653103086,0.1208370605051741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256024007352324,0.09876718598538103,0.0,0.11948413896382758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982200006470758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11253111830887026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962188220510931,0.1372303348054212,0.11317525900550235,0.0,0.0,0.08106334423383463,0.0,0.2332688201343182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068305989767947,0.0,0.13330350393220838,0.0,0.11509532569194646,0.0,0.08692310139061908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07688834021156843
EDAnonymous,c_marier,2019/02/21,"Healthy BMI... 18 weeks pregnant and I've gained 4lbs, which puts me in the healthy BMI category for the first time since college.  I'm going through such a mix of emotions right now.  This is a victory and I have a sense of, not quite happiness, but satisfaction or accomplishment about it, but then immediately I feel awful about being anything but horrified at weight gain and then I feel guilty about not being happy about being healthy for my baby.  My husband has been very sensitive to my emotions over starting to get a baby bump and watching weight go up, but he still just doesn't quite understand.  I don't understand.  There's not really a point to this post, I guess, I just knew this was the place to go to express all these confusing emotions.  The attitude in a lot of the pregnancy forums seems to be somewhat... defeatist.  ""You gotta gain all the weight for baby and there's nothing you can do about it and some people gain a ton of weight and there's really no control over the process.""  And that's supposed to make me feel better?  Haha.  Idk.  

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I'm very happy to be pregnant and so excited for this little one and most of the time, I'm ok with the fact that I will inevitably gain weight in pregnancy and that's good and ok.  But other times, I find myself just daydreaming about after baby's born and how good it will feel to be losing weight again.  I can't wait to feel so focused and in control again.  I can't wait to let myself feel good about the scale going down.  I can't wait until I can skip meals without being immediately nauseous and dizzy .  Trying to remind myself that pregnancy is temporary and plenty of people ""bounce"" right back to their former weight afterwards and I can too.  If that's what's important to me, I will make it happen.

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Pregnancy plus a history of disordered eating creates such a mental paradox.  Any thoughts?  Advice?  Experiences?",4.495245964275483,6.4167691024930775,5.019952239946509,81.24376731301942,71.27146814404432,7.9710000955201075,27.960741236030184,8.641336200584522,2.1745511701213105,1510,56,275,27,29,482,176,361,0.102,0.72,0.179,0.9868,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,2,1,13,24,13,0,1,19,4,26,9,0,5,3,62,54,31,0,1,14,1,13,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,17,19,9,5,12,0,0,5,10,2,0,2,4,14,26,11,47,38,7,38,0,1,1,0,6,14,0,9,18,191,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07171676292603854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903807406091935,0.1783560148454462,0.04990834596785328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060394478308771975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056433091496719275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06490830948393693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646283268317799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841123588232248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509723876955511,0.0,0.2476647388479065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179040767549617,0.0,0.0,0.22265194225838492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707797624540987,0.06242628367071153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834372943335195,0.0,0.1668390168435218,0.18467047870095551,0.0,0.0,0.0808483785165226,0.0,0.06489935297189303,0.2343780144257766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07504719362955478,0.0,0.0,0.07355698775901716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210567287359857,0.0,0.062394340307985886,0.0,0.0,0.09797802521581392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739607910937537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704205723049551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973159043685487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176005381423793,0.0,0.07667789660196607,0.0,0.06937814656565003,0.0,0.07028821942704945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377815075699168,0.0,0.1561205661040668,0.0,0.0,0.09403221221254966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12535089861541673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06681234213222571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06070973190854587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05194647475348844,0.0,0.05861008784355218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058264196937775035,0.12838451642024598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049827620853495784,0.0,0.0,0.15280508326500336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111039918243395,0.0,0.0,0.058869773499763474,0.6255926287202758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07074623314386094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783560148454462,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckinhelpmehdhd,2019/02/21,"pathetic didnt eat since monday (2900 calories) and then broke my """"""fast"""""" (hit my juul to suppress appetite ) but apparently there are like 3 calories in a pod so then I binged (3100 calories) and npw im high so im gonna eat even more dkskskdksj LOL",0.4162285714285723,2.87079868,2.063714285714287,92.98900000000002,92.2,4.457142857142856,23.142857142857146,6.1826913282559595,0.5524857142857145,194,8,40,2,7,63,40,50,0.08199999999999999,0.754,0.16399999999999998,0.7365,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,1,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.607970017154566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19621724880208627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138792682813015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6417905410766831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513732819283914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24574603111007565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatnihilist57,2019/02/21,"Drank two cups of senna tea. You already know how my evening is going, don't you? I am new to the world of senna tea and failed to do my research on it. I hadn't had a BM for about four days before I drank my first cup, and I had heard senna tea was a good way to find quick relief.

""This is gonna make me feel GREAT,"" I thought, drinking my first cup.. you know, like a child. 

9 hours pass.. nothing.

""Ah, I'm sure another cup won't hurt.. I better steep it for a longer time, too,"" I said to myself, you know, like an idiot. 

Four hours pass.

So here I am, working an overnight shift, fresh out of a before-work binge. It was a pretty big one for me, x boxes of doughnuts and x bowls of oatmeal, so I'm a bit uncomfortable the way it is. Then...it hits me. The stomach grumbles. 

I'm five BMs in (within the span of four hours) and I am thinking existential thoughts and think I'm losing my marbles. It did the job though, I guess?

Yeah. Never again. I figured you all could laugh at my rookie mistake (and maybe learn from it?)",0.4123636363636365,2.3391239720930272,2.0520613107822427,97.75661205073999,83.69767441860466,4.467230443974631,19.075052854122625,5.238671369647483,-0.5477906976744187,774,20,183,3,22,252,125,215,0.08900000000000001,0.802,0.10800000000000001,0.6134,1,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,5,0,6,10,13,1,0,14,2,16,7,1,2,3,26,37,10,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,7,7,6,0,11,1,0,3,4,5,1,8,12,3,26,8,20,21,2,24,0,3,0,0,8,8,0,1,13,108,33,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577385035449019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498856794714884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216319202153714,0.0,0.0,0.12641934235237934,0.15605411094290994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141264357482098,0.0,0.0,0.09218486006695896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002736728360105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441091640053673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227506087067513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306451163293939,0.24317039805535104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123643550328173,0.1198917912302706,0.0,0.1575925131291371,0.15746518317264752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223030853992617,0.0,0.15302086575919496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418464867073827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356692421414981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966711124802708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15991396557090484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541395863832597,0.0,0.14360304249287106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024460063294814,0.13805291957515406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13715535822225874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968602480506898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542197550913374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359692410835405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347198213067372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318112610118267,0.14043841108148736,0.22695773524608145,0.08334981177354654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963219346435493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269191855721896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20812491447263154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tamagotchi-hands,2019/02/21,"MY PEACH APP JUST LOADED anyone else? is peach back?! (sorry...on mobile)
@fluffybunnypantsx",4.5428571428571445,5.9849211428571465,3.4749999999999983,76.38250000000002,123.28571428571428,4.257142857142857,10.642857142857142,5.985473137389443,-0.08337142857142821,72,1,9,1,4,21,13,14,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158017711395859,0.60930189464788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4572586731994045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4967641231808184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hotelbell,2019/02/21,"Self-inflicted pineapple I absolutely love pineapple. But my body (my mouth) does not. I always end up visibly bleeding after a few bites and my mouth stings for hours. I can’t eat or taste anything else at this point. Thanks, bromelain!",2.745891472868216,5.777993860465116,2.8468604651162783,87.41664728682171,87.13953488372093,5.657364341085271,25.77131782945737,7.1686216300943375,1.5767550387596905,188,8,33,3,6,57,37,43,0.0,0.82,0.18,0.8264,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25663273536243075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538059407537243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425885469741789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699031425999946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155938401598149,0.2576479330004601,0.0,0.27317133125068843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037346369346882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783638990487059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915595307706635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217525690408663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28395456238054634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chronicallyvicky,2019/02/21,"my ED is back I struggled with purging disorder for about 9 months, thought it would kill me. I eventually got help, went on antidepressants, and thought I had beat it. The medication I went on caused me to gain an EXTREME amount of weight, very very quickly. I tried so hard to work out, lose weight in a healthy way, love myself the way I am now, but can't. I am so disgusted every time I look in the mirror, and its causing me to withdraw from any and all social situations, my depression is so severe from my body image issues, and for the past two weeks, I've gone back to restricting and purging. I hate how much comfort I find in it, I had how it instantly makes me feel skinnier, I hate how much I love my  empty stomach, because it's finally flat. I'm so scared to tell my mother and father about my relapse, even though I'm a 20 year old adult who no longer lives at home. I'm scared of  how much I love my ED, even though I want to hate it.",6.121384615384617,4.904721061538464,6.598589743589745,82.48557692307695,66.58974358974359,9.851282051282054,32.32051282051282,8.841846274778883,2.30714358974359,737,25,163,10,10,241,114,195,0.254,0.639,0.10800000000000001,-0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,0,0,0,4,18,14,5,3,7,0,8,8,2,7,1,24,27,17,1,2,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,8,8,2,1,4,0,0,3,2,10,0,1,8,5,27,4,22,18,5,23,0,2,1,3,10,7,0,0,11,101,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459152683721593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868643419262802,0.0,0.06686471990808797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183851888129935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22535935674329066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447401928337693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571182532367095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448956342500881,0.0,0.09241677847082024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055461493143925615,0.0,0.0,0.1201577224430448,0.10025274467157096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772742614081029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825880491051256,0.32488224907901275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352148082070242,0.0,0.11002589748571882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448565978003053,0.0,0.0,0.12135339912628113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968564168078363,0.0,0.09211020234375422,0.12271269229365984,0.0,0.0,0.2969928107900882,0.0,0.07321751858947809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049900983730077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755182764219473,0.0,0.2418996609065727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150989894966845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470950284038592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21963342701633515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391609474722345,0.0,0.0,0.1232937845639242,0.0,0.11181299095181063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114669598851429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958720509083042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155355908250779,0.17415986545946505,0.06395989098504733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447087748654592,0.0,0.10714913065727694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810079940677912,0.06469675967939544,0.1741302837137218,0.08798500941579708,0.26714060086068186,0.0,0.20336354665308135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985409059535901,0.0,0.0,0.07791913024834282,0.0,0.0,0.07063540516565134
EDAnonymous,throwawaytrash58285,2019/02/21,"I gained 15 lbs and I want to ~~die~~ I had been overweight and finally pulled it together and got to 128 lbs which was great till a bunch of awful stuff happened to me and I became so depressed I didn't care how I looked. 

Now I've gain more than 15 lbs and I'm at 145 lbs and I finally am breaking out of my depressive episode but I care how I look again and I can't stand how far I've fallen now. I hate myself so much. I seriously feel like skipping my classes so people can't see me anymore. I don't have the iron will I had before and I don't know how to get it back.

I said I'd never gain weight again and was so good at restricting, I did it with practically no cheat days for over a year and I have no idea how I did that now. How can I get back to that? I feel so worthless",-0.1780888888888903,1.6178143942857126,2.0919523809523817,97.38065873015877,85.05714285714286,5.488888888888887,19.436507936507933,6.691623216298621,-0.07441587301587349,609,17,153,7,18,206,95,175,0.233,0.6559999999999999,0.111,-0.9704,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,0,0,0,3,18,11,2,0,3,1,17,2,0,6,1,26,33,23,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,7,12,2,1,4,0,0,2,8,6,0,0,10,7,26,5,15,22,3,22,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,0,14,103,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579853998226424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25710360083158484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422586410509899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409041597692161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781785649178573,0.0,0.2879853458168635,0.0,0.17350739023639838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906338275567978,0.11943407558962665,0.0,0.3662770305826887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17469025079371953,0.0,0.0,0.14022341555890236,0.13370984608479522,0.1843175436009281,0.0,0.0,0.14783752669020214,0.0,0.0,0.165056537166655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887268981881659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918782560400328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167614804765208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28077971781491423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228972050157056,0.0,0.12894022425595408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11590219303321968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902732956142562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13322154037530232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191382144397996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860763229314376,0.0,0.0,0.20358130971920232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765902487184444
EDAnonymous,thabigfloof,2019/02/21,"I feel so gross /vent i’ve been drowning in a sea of stress and anxiety lately from back to back exams in grad school, balancing a full time job, and just trying not to hate myself every single day. and this week i guess a switch flipped inside me and i just stopped caring. i skipped work for the past two days. i didn’t go to class. i didn’t even do anything productive. i just slept and ate and hated that i slept and ate, and stressed stressed stressed. 


i binged today for the first time in over a month— C&S’d over the kitchen sink like the classiest of all ladies. i’m so disappointed in myself. i feel disgusting and bloated. this is why i’m fat, this is my lack of self control. i want to go to the gym right now to run it all off but i need to get up so early for work tomorrow. ugh. ugh. ugh. i feel like such a failure. i wish i had more discipline. i don’t want to be fat and gross and uncomfortable wearing shorts on my upcoming vacation, but at this rate, i’m still gonna be a whale 🙃


also unrelated, but do any of you have friends who trigger your ED? a dear friend of mine lost a large amount of weight in the past year, and it sounds so vain, but every time we hang out, i notice how thin her arms have gotten, her thigh hap, the angular slope of her shoulders... and i feel so triggered. i used to be the skinny one in our friend group, and now she’s thinner and fitter than me by miles. i hate that i gained all this weight. i hate that i’m struggling so much to get my old body back. i hate being so uncomfortable in anything i wear. and i’m sooo tired of being stressed out by food and clothes and my shitty low self esteem. it shouldn’t be this damn hard to lose 20 lbs but i just can’t seem to do it when i’m knee deep in work and stress


i just want a break from it all 🙃 it sounds silly, but there are days when i feel so overwhelmed that i lay in bed and hide under the covers and daydream of everything just coming to a stop. at the same time, i feel like my problems aren’t of any true significance and i just need to toughen up and deal. maybe just go to the gym more. ugggggh.


thank you for coming to my shitty ted talk 🎈


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EDAnonymous,krisgreg,2019/02/21,"Peach Hi guys, many of you are on the Peach app and a lot of you already know that it was down for a bit. Personally for me, it’s a way to talk about things and not feel judged so it’s a great outlet for me. Right now they’re struggling. As you know, Peach team has reached out looking for benefactors to support Peach and adopt Peach. If you are interested, we have started a GoFundMe to raise some money to go towards Peach’s server costs. Please consider donating. If you are unable to donate, please - PLEASE - spread this link around on all platforms. 

https://www.gofundme.com/45pnb5-save-peach?sharetype=teams&member=1727742&rcid=r01-155062330546-fbf57e740b0d44bc&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

Thank you so much! ",9.648220255653884,12.802964362831865,5.596932153392334,77.29819075712884,60.23893805309734,7.146116027531957,25.829891838741396,7.793537801064563,1.253226941986234,595,15,94,6,9,156,76,113,0.023,0.7829999999999999,0.19399999999999998,0.9552,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,6,0,1,5,5,0,1,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,16,14,8,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,6,0,0,4,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,9,4,19,13,5,12,0,0,1,0,12,8,0,4,2,59,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778049071180466,0.0,0.0,0.5236631087656585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434152805976016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588208203793118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814582077238773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155819944329673,0.0,0.0,0.1776159510010136,0.0,0.1595166921429905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17707531799792142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352854308580345,0.0,0.0,0.13696348880812334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333253494301034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184287915180374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406683907886071,0.0,0.5305261301300945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375805587081704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402909908817885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841919453220544,0.0,0.0,0.18281708022740525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948799665232047,0.0,0.14832143365575562,0.0,0.0,0.1070292677718233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278755765280327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,behindgreeneyes123,2018/12/02,"Scared to tell people about my ED? So I’m a teenage girl. I’ve struggled with body image my entire life but in the more recent months I’ve developed a mild eating disorder. I make myself throw up when I over eat, but it’s not something I do all the time. Just about once a week or so. 

I know that it could lead to something more serious, and I want to get help but I just don’t want to tell anyone about it. 

I have many people in my life that I can talk to about it, I’m just terrified that if I tell them they will think of me differently And start to just pay too much attention to the eating disorder and make me feel even more stressed about it. 

My mom used to have an eating disorder when she was young and I really don’t want to tell her because I think it would honestly break her heart if she knew I was struggling with something she did too. 

I even am scared to tell my therapist because I just don’t want it to become this big deal. 

Last night I was at a party and drunkenly told 2 of my close friends about it and instead of feeling relieved I regret telling them because now I’m worried they will think of me differently and be overly worried about it. 

I just don’t know what to do about it because I’m scared to talk to people about it. I think a part of it is if I tell people about it, it makes it more of a real thing. 

Any advice on what to do would be greatly appreciated. Thanks! ",3.1443877551020414,4.025262894557827,4.278843537414968,89.32091836734695,73.1156462585034,7.504761904761906,24.8843537414966,7.793537801064563,1.0516843537414964,1097,32,247,14,21,359,132,294,0.152,0.731,0.11699999999999999,-0.8975,2,0,3,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,4,1,26,13,0,6,10,0,23,8,2,5,1,49,48,18,0,11,14,1,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,22,10,4,0,10,0,1,2,5,8,0,0,6,2,38,5,40,35,7,23,0,1,0,0,24,9,0,4,11,171,60,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07706512600423791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053630320356794256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05514364118308699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229939384744846,0.08709924787253864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876002821830064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296659948428636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130546662520538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479248427496895,0.2711554147212629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227908194526083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417804290414437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07975215874763011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06093023983080144,0.0,0.04120325875975645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694799404598219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345438699300633,0.052860971436140464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668333901433106,0.06428480090373596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140815038491957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792727984718413,0.07995586092185493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236472897377404,0.06294860506771457,0.0,0.0579742179784541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740086540771018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398773649040127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08540217962399417,0.0,0.21869786224121365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976465820012731,0.050522388260125436,0.0,0.07786882515659523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368702897914756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821404064595264,0.0,0.0,0.055820445025971284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090338607246953,0.16489184716671926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12677601869088742,0.4825151481732299,0.07260750545044566,0.0,0.09156734634223228,0.0523938310975078,0.20213182904863744,0.0,0.0,0.0459863149201861,0.0,0.0,0.07535806652881381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06811329681916391,0.0,0.0,0.18606445502715555,0.0,0.06326005702849449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601807270130464,0.0,0.11204564631747052,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aconfusedbutterfly,2018/12/02,"It’s the last week of the semester, everything is due this week. You know what that means. It means while I slept I woke up and ate a box of bear paws throughout the night and an entire box of cookies the previous. ",3.8869696969696967,4.632221636363635,4.343636363636366,90.0437878787879,71.27272727272728,8.593939393939394,26.03030303030303,8.841846274778883,1.5463575757575758,168,5,38,3,3,53,33,44,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,4,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,6,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845638274499641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400985513988018,0.25809317038665897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6897989988556353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971328820853307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5079579760003934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Asfi2000,2018/12/02,Man I hate baklava that is all,-1.7814285714285738,0.13193085714285854,0.6257142857142846,103.04428571428572,97.57142857142857,2.8000000000000003,21.285714285714285,3.1291,-0.6545999999999994,24,1,6,0,1,8,7,7,0.425,0.575,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dovahkiin14,2018/12/02,"I'm pretty sure I was throwing up blood and I'm scared. I don't really purge much and I usually restrict so I'm pretty sure I don't have bulimia. Anyway, yesterday really sucked cause I threw up almost everything I ate. And earlier today my mom fried up leftover rice from the chinese food we'd had yesterday. So that's what I ate for breakfast. Then I realized that oil has a lot of calories so I felt like I needed to get it out. And I also decreased me calorie limit and I'm trying to stick to it(I know, it's bad). So I threw up the rice until there was nothing left to thro up. During the first few minutes it was fine, but after that the food coming up had a red tinge to it and there were streaks of dark  red in it, and it was clear that it was blood. Nothing I had consumed was red at all so there's no way it was anything else. And even though stuff started coming up red I still didn't stop and I know that was probably a bad decision. Is this a bad sign? I'm not in pain at all and I feel like I would be if something bad had happened. If I just stop purging and be careful for a bit should I be fine? If there's no pain after a few days should I be good? Please help me, I'm honestly pretty scared.",0.6528076923076931,2.5662352807692312,2.742307692307694,93.21269230769232,82.73076923076924,5.8461538461538485,21.15384615384616,7.010146845296331,0.4452692307692305,943,29,214,12,26,318,129,260,0.111,0.6970000000000001,0.192,0.9551,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,2,15,18,1,2,10,0,27,9,2,1,5,43,49,24,0,7,6,1,2,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,16,14,5,4,6,0,0,5,6,9,0,1,19,7,24,9,25,22,7,33,0,0,4,0,3,13,1,5,16,142,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288229569219653,0.0,0.0,0.09014972859022903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927667611489084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37649764572902655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307140116293955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11493522319263305,0.11580423407116328,0.0,0.1942129395062924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270119207946188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417101975700272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744567618006676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013139924628977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699941486158499,0.0805339667547179,0.10823798414058143,0.0,0.0,0.09588764252730984,0.2726258819535915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05889650328158376,0.0,0.0,0.09455214377557804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09968631147175336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755601976972065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390635387564587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122480915517026,0.0,0.0,0.1101478645696376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583857707657258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202741061878656,0.0,0.0,0.08286914244633056,0.08358748488923104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633396277004896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23990424055513104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12374312272579226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34405924030426643,0.12154145148193908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443478965125991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22572376101538244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678466517499554,0.0,0.0,0.07979050984342621,0.0,0.0900259125031574,0.18849379464682256,0.0,0.0,0.1290482902664463,0.0,0.0,0.21249241141371256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075614685484717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685437086141103,0.0,0.0,0.07653592069630044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415560165136699,0.0,0.0,0.08947941822993448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800797919225441,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starvingangel,2018/12/02,Weight goal next year I am so motivated to lose so much weight next year. Is it bad that I am excited. I am going to the beach next year & i want to show off my body to everyone. So i have to look the best and be the slimmest. I am aiming to lose 20-50lbs by May–June. So if you want to add/follow you can be apart of my journey 😊,-1.062631578947368,0.5810935263157937,1.6228947368421096,100.34776315789473,87.42105263157896,5.378947368421053,16.07894736842105,6.6274283507984215,-0.6383105263157898,252,5,69,3,8,87,47,76,0.11699999999999999,0.721,0.162,0.3897,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,5,4,5,0,0,3,0,9,3,1,1,0,5,13,6,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,3,10,2,10,11,2,10,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,6,42,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18881616191554754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550407857322753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828804700558915,0.0,0.0,0.19356923968972028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665177700226585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09903887167952752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463387933393815,0.38991614089964416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810489893458854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559987292139654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20557214083880807,0.0,0.0,0.42441588648361417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366630306728657
EDAnonymous,cofeeeandsushi,2018/12/02,DAE decide you’re gonna get something low cal from a restaurant while your out and spend a over a hour in the car looking up all the food stats before just deciding to to go home? I just sat in a target parking lot looking up all the restaurants nearby food cal contents and just realized I should just go to the gym instead.,13.624545454545455,6.46566115151515,11.94060606060606,68.2309090909091,58.6969696969697,14.412121212121216,48.15151515151516,8.841846274778883,4.6177515151515145,260,10,52,2,2,82,46,66,0.036000000000000004,0.9640000000000001,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,8,0,1,2,0,0,2,14,8,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,10,5,3,12,0,1,2,0,1,7,0,1,2,33,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22541704184944175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6406551704199888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840340130812515,0.0,0.3011064356974367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657241408518325,0.0,0.2608808392458025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449116969876928,0.0,0.0,0.2252151537844552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393898062471166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smallgrl,2018/12/02,"This has been said before but why isn’t r/fatlogic banned They are such a hateful and triggering community I just don’t understand how they survived and r/proed didn’t. I understand the name was misleading, but fatlogic’s posts are literally so much more triggering than anything proed had to offer. I didn’t post a screenshot since many of us follow here and on fatlogic but their most recent post has so many comments about disqualifying people with eating disorders and it’s so messed up. I get that it’s satire (or some twisted form of satire) but the circle-jerk of which bodies/perspectives count as deserving respect is disgusting and straight up hate-speech at times. Wtf is wrong with people?? ",6.6213178294573645,8.206864620155041,6.373643410852715,74.8959689922481,65.58914728682171,10.38449612403101,32.162790697674424,10.504223727775694,3.599827906976744,572,23,98,15,9,179,89,129,0.213,0.71,0.077,-0.9697,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,3,1,8,5,2,0,4,0,13,1,0,3,0,22,19,15,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,7,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,6,1,8,1,13,13,5,11,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,3,2,65,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226531019802374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471079405251179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19813517981387246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689915150759827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903225379991833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413659384541863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3505458793189078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270865136387287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397061126620817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4967130582169577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17069790426450016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444823854745896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430079219800741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080757692102194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599478491955629,0.20795306227438104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599709151137042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901687582086102,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,parrotshoes7,2018/12/02,"Does being a support group mean we outcast potentially half of our ED sufferers so someone can say they fatshame people? 
I'm willing to bet many here are overweight and struggling with BED, b/p, restrictive x binge dieting, and yes anorexia too. 


I am by no means a community leader, however, when mods allow people to talk about how they think they're 'better' than someone in their just because they're thinner, that seems like it isolated and insults many of us here. That sounds like it has the potential to make those with greater BMIs feel like shit about themselves, potentially making their disorder worse while letting the OP get it ""off their chest"". Do you really think it's okay to make people sick here feel worse at a few people's slight enjoyment venting/bragging?


From the perspective of someone formerly fat you are casually humblebragging that you are just SOOOOOO great being thin, and just because you're able to control your intake (despite us ALL having a form of self harm, addiction and so on) that somehow makes you BETTER? You're disordered. Keep that in mind before you body shame people, and if you do this, maybe keep it to yourself or join up on fatpeoplehate. Despite thinking that thoughts just stay in your head, if you let those things fester they CAN AND DO turn into subconscious and real animosity. 


I am fucking disappointed in the community right now, I thought we were better than this, even with ED. This is gross. It's one thing to body check and compare and keep it to yourself but we should really put in a rule to stop this sort of shit being posted, because it AFFECTS many of us. It makes many of us feel WORSE THAN WE ALREADY DO. I know for a fucking fact that I get treated better underweight than I did obese, and I know it feels good to get comments. 


Skinny-shaming sucks but as thin people we are more privileged than being fat. We get help, people have more sympathy for us, we have attention.  Fat people are treated like shit in comparison pretty much, especially if you're not in the US (Even then). Yes, there are some toxic fat people who say stupid shit, but I promise it's because they're jealous of you, but you're not them, you're just mean. So kindly fuck off to fatlogic or something, because you're making people feel even worse just so you can 'vent' :)xoxo",6.137318627060601,7.312206457274829,6.039108067213508,78.35898383371826,66.41339491916861,8.836155132595367,31.790156884606198,9.035553425615538,2.7088361710599664,1848,73,329,31,29,580,215,433,0.155,0.715,0.13,-0.9386,1,0,1,0,0,0,53.0,14,11,7,5,24,36,11,2,11,3,30,20,12,10,2,80,66,29,0,4,17,0,7,4,0,2,8,3,1,1,27,22,7,6,17,1,2,1,3,17,0,2,4,10,40,19,48,54,8,26,0,2,0,3,41,17,8,10,10,213,67,0,0.05833712005855755,0.0,0.0,0.06359607174615968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06437646262900447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778088346106227,0.0,0.04964059243791388,0.0,0.0,0.20637776790406992,0.0,0.1295987784454786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543004065167593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371878735633386,0.0,0.0510512068901584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155933528245834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474850036796998,0.041676050226141265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16179518238692242,0.12191494981903807,0.0,0.0,0.04893040851920375,0.0,0.06431688081268527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598707154396244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039102141881536726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15555813821040454,0.0,0.06074913338308832,0.06412111107338361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193073154413684,0.0,0.11400228055542777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336428838054901,0.2365787334652933,0.05860747814069419,0.19063867756962208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058903861215584864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04288449559810367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03953074232821239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044361372016948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05587083514667633,0.059349823672790375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05864491847952835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640041424757635,0.0747445058336881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0498195817813995,0.0,0.09278403870222723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053107923112310065,0.06085833907420968,0.0,0.2395288616526717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828655754351744,0.044910765114895834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217960798161331,0.0,0.04877244453227387,0.0,0.0609866242319334,0.0,0.0,0.06620027251630144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04688916733223559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751318076955882,0.11214021295157207,0.0,0.09262631401390056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345403469798247,0.0,0.0,0.4210342354218231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23780203687706966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kalari-,2018/12/02,"Y’aaallllll I ordered a pizza and didn’t binge? Papa johns cheeseless pizza is a major binge trigger for me - I’ll eat a whole damn medium pizza and then start aqcuiring additional binge foods and it’s horrible. But I ordered pizza with some friends last night, ate two slices, and stopped. Who is she????",3.59059523809524,6.4384863928571425,4.275000000000002,81.03666666666669,77.92857142857143,5.8761904761904775,27.190476190476193,7.1686216300943375,1.6441047619047624,242,10,41,3,6,77,42,56,0.161,0.7829999999999999,0.055,-0.7149,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,3,7,0,1,0,10,5,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,4,1,2,3,3,7,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,5,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606052177724372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261377080325828,0.0,0.2722724573192372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872626262253774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33071457070279603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494388628385395,0.0,0.0,0.2946320175236874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442550893439948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934551529829479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throawaybecauseuhhhh,2018/12/02,"My sex work is intensifying my ED I consistently get more money when I do my camgirl work when I'm thinner. I consistently lose momentum in follower counts and tips when I gain weight and I get more when I lose weight. I've been tracking my follower metrics for over 2 years and this isn't something I can ignore anymore. When I start gaining weight my followers become more niche. There's a market for every body but some markets ARE smaller than others. 

I can't separate my life from my work because I do this to make my livelihood so I HAVE to keep my body in a certain condition and I'm afraid it's going to literally kill me but I don't know how else to maintain my body. 

But my weird thing is I had blood work done recently and a general health checkup and my protein levels were lower than normal, but my blood pressure was 117/78 and I have enough nutrients, so I don't even know if I should be worried about my health at all. It seems like my body is doing okay despite everything?? 

Literally having to look at my body every day has made me so hypersensitive to changes in it as well. I stare at my body for over 4 to 6 hours a day, seeing every single angle that I hate most, and it's exhausting, but it's so much better than retail work and needing to stand all day or getting berated by customers. Despite everything I have to do, this is still the most accessible work for me.

Some of my clients have noticed but only because I talk to them every other day and it feels absolutely miserable to have them worry about me. But I don't know how else to do this. But it sure as hell is having an impact when there are actual consequences for gaining weight other than me just having a panic attack. No, I also get to lose money!! And followers!!! :) :)",4.929478011710478,5.6844833954154765,6.049889124205805,78.71428055313321,68.91404011461319,8.934894730285286,29.787093559237576,9.085049710711278,2.4324507537062408,1391,51,268,25,23,465,168,349,0.161,0.74,0.1,-0.9821,6,0,1,0,0,1,32.0,0,0,2,13,21,20,4,4,7,1,34,18,8,4,4,45,58,36,1,4,11,0,5,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,16,11,4,2,5,0,3,5,6,14,1,0,6,8,47,6,37,50,12,30,1,4,3,1,3,9,1,7,16,194,63,8,0.0,0.0,0.07500533262863464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146578273585417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622554416028772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874405813954605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370760930053984,0.08488703086069582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679773845511608,0.0,0.5122520369835971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130883761243693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19827616774336665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078655576616491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841514957206718,0.0,0.0,0.0794180481411772,0.0,0.050766022434271814,0.0,0.2590351199156263,0.0,0.1381555761999575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03886327451830767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606269805231436,0.0,0.0436819264601104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588440986324065,0.0,0.1633994805450425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569268726117792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06831766482461152,0.08503540378430942,0.0,0.12672252838714226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542892581213633,0.03755044423500041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454395431317833,0.2579636849181068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272781803295478,0.05130537176682253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056501741988214726,0.0569915213942733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07530754516397806,0.0,0.08750685588669647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058456319425474725,0.0,0.09017992382007163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589104987252246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061248334334339995,0.06997144602895546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05917141912536261,0.0,0.0,0.054402672299899035,0.0,0.06138136259586972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07244066397770957,0.0,0.0,0.0617780295115644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106309027826278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743843851910943,0.06910734699397525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357347162829292,0.15611232759602528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049496019419110325
EDAnonymous,tempacc433,2018/12/02,"[TW] [TMI] I somehow linked purging and oral sex in my brain? I made a separate account because I wanted to share this and see if anyone could relate or had any advice but this is really embarrassing and please remove if it's inappropriate!!

Me and my boyfriend have been getting more into oral and it's been pretty great since I actually have so little gag reflex anymore. The problem is that the last few weeks I've found myself getting slightly aroused when I have been trying to purge and whilst slightly funny, it just feels so messed up and I have no idea what to do.

If anyone has any advice I'd really appreciate it as it's so awkward but if not I hope at least someone can get a laugh out of it. lol",2.766268412438624,4.90729260992908,4.205957446808512,84.22615384615386,76.80141843971631,6.3242771412984204,24.321331151118393,7.321109707123232,1.1421648663393342,562,19,108,7,13,186,95,141,0.139,0.672,0.18899999999999997,0.8821,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,2,4,1,14,3,2,1,0,28,23,19,0,8,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,9,0,0,4,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,6,2,11,4,10,16,3,11,0,0,1,2,1,6,0,7,4,74,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.17799418988748833,0.0,0.0,0.3564745355854433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480738634156709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088985817474612,0.2550739212461715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118816102266836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036165514016184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456300045971589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222593676786638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999900521528425,0.0,0.0,0.2858863657119692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109449893018375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181162423687187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20590520188337585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867875870404595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182810768226542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17258944930161424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20021829065579816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556439463899824,0.0,0.1745303046936824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23369772847325626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453476342245686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088155547354046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454527961402714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383630603486445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10758309827313536,0.0,0.14630871718227742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,foulmeister,2018/12/02,"I hate this food bull (poop talk briefly) Tw for self harm talk. Fatshaming (it not, its medical stuff but ill pop that in there just in case, dont wanna trigger someone.) 

So, i used to have anorexia, turned into bulimia, then full blown nonstop binging. Its been the binging one for SOME time, recently taking the form of self harm (i have massive amounts of food sensitivites. Ill get mouth sores, just the worst shits ever, i dont think ive had a solid one in ages. Ive been talking with a lisp the last little bit because of the blisters that will pop up on my tongue. I dont even ENJOY the food in these binges, it just HURTS. and it hurts im gaining so much damn weight. I feel so NASTY.
i was looking to get my wisdom teeth out, and signed up for studies, and was contacted. We were going thru the process and, mind you i was expecting to be rejected because im on multiple medications, but! Nope! Its because im too fucking FAT. Im above a 30 bmi because im so nasty! I cant have the stupid wisdom teeth study get em out! And i cant afford it otherwise so whoooooooohoooo for me!!
Im so disgusted with my damn body . Im covered in scar tissue, acne, hair, and fat! Im so sick of it. But do i want to approach it in a healthy way? Of course not, because that would be smart! 
I hate it because my fam is clearly on that side too. I know im fucking fat and need to lose weight. I miss being skinny and not even having any left to lose. My dad just keeps encouraging me to work out and says how hes obese too (i hate it because he even weight less than me now im pretty sure) and its all good advice! Its good advice cause i shouod lose weight. 

Then add in the issue where when im losing weight my mom gets more and more rude to me, so its such a damned if i do damned if i dont situation. Ugh. Dammit.",0.6522222222222211,2.736606695767197,2.2679867724867755,95.63372619047622,83.89417989417991,5.261481481481481,20.825661375661376,6.508806274219699,0.1375267724867717,1393,43,319,14,40,454,191,378,0.255,0.637,0.10800000000000001,-0.9975,1,1,0,0,0,0,55.0,1,1,0,6,25,33,13,0,14,0,28,28,11,4,4,51,49,28,0,7,12,2,7,0,0,2,10,1,0,2,21,19,13,1,3,0,0,2,10,25,0,2,7,9,33,8,38,37,11,33,0,8,1,2,14,21,7,3,9,189,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806418348311453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03760142284706136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359444965660559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06036609562387143,0.0614185264971632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056801575358143584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592139137059281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095623506411267,0.05001606553423951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02795801539208683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20058307499600386,0.0,0.0,0.10223575474748857,0.1155541227421522,0.0,0.031424525788542636,0.09275499748380786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16377241948383506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838550306754135,0.0,0.6569902221625328,0.05771196657106002,0.0,0.04914733378470579,0.0,0.0,0.03038781851747887,0.04507151859879392,0.0,0.0,0.060076464461563076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055418534644775516,0.0,0.0,0.04643254822245915,0.24743678148350134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114046103960678,0.0,0.0,0.055830593532586466,0.06475898721453577,0.0,0.0,0.04064702709088689,0.04099937156888146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493650709552803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625328821108825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054595583278966735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043971548249923886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536619575701235,0.0,0.056757902785476474,0.0,0.06215212269243363,0.0,0.0,0.04684993677102765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329773900930652,0.0,0.0,0.052113395579873725,0.0,0.041573771765880486,0.13332827365049765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03542979197375267,0.0,0.0,0.032242038850192764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060143364902000215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04775576312365466,0.0,0.0,0.03261349272081016,0.04388934444717418,0.0,0.3366624574699301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04025426953783092,0.0,0.0,0.03927886032869605,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinatadog,2018/12/02,"DAE have very low muscle tone? I have dyspraxia so I have always had very soft muscles since I was a little kid. It's weird because I have lost forty pounds and I can feel my hip bones, collar bones, some of my ribs, etc. but my stomach is just mush. It's almost as if I don't even have ab muscles. The same goes for my butt - as if there were no glutes. It's so weird to see a combination of bones and then what just looks like a bag of cottage cheese. I know I've lost weight but it's just so hard for me to think positively about it when I don't look toned at all. I bet there are probably workouts that could make this better but I've just been afraid of getting to the gym.",0.7854500978473595,2.585905294520547,2.1360469667319,98.32260273972605,81.67123287671234,5.267318982387477,17.962818003913895,6.1826913282559595,-0.5132606653620355,527,11,129,4,14,169,93,146,0.1,0.813,0.087,0.4843,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,12,8,0,1,5,0,15,8,7,1,1,21,25,14,0,3,9,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,2,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,6,0,0,6,7,14,2,13,18,4,5,0,3,3,1,1,3,1,5,3,79,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801222017596246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284852582701568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12663066448450208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837208619424768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585600554414826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23167456451808105,0.13720412252689804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503484856845167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853068085724643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860858427938499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416332209375556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148669335733336,0.208200664913684,0.0,0.0,0.34888282324744063,0.0,0.4535250449762068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13866180915192172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396875445468914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655344178176945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183692447413018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310540045800756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427990515374709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529599454262085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gyuu,2018/12/02,"Eating around other people Struggling with my ED is really taking a toll on my social life.

It’s a pretty common complaint that social events revolve around eating, that social situations make us feel pressured to eat “normally” and have high calorie foods. My problem is slightly different - I have noticed that simply being in the proximity of other people makes me want to binge.

On a typical day, I prepare all my own food. I weigh it on my food scale and log it into MFP and even though I’m eating at a strict deficit, I can manage to cook things that keep me full throughout the day. These past few months I’ve been really successful and have only binged one or two times. I eat really slowly and mindfully and feel full after I eat.

When someone else walks into the room, that all goes away. Even though I’m eating the exact same meal, in the presence of another person, suddenly I don’t feel full anymore. I get the urge to keep eating and don’t feel satisfied at all. If I have to eat lunch with someone, I feel like I didn’t eat and crave another meal soon after.

I don’t know what causes this, but I feel so frustrated and hopeless. I have to choose between my social life and my eating rituals that make me feel good and safe and full. I don’t want to be isolated like this forever (I basically eat all my meals alone) but I can’t feel comfortable eating with other people in the room.

Anyone else have this problem?
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EDAnonymous,Lana_Del_Rayquaza_,2019/02/01,"I Ate Cereal For The First Time In 4 Years I measured everything out so I knew my calorie limit. With my cup of coffee and creamer, I am at 635 calories from one bowl of cereal. Does that scare the shit out of me? Absolutely. Am I proud of myself for making an effort toward recovery anyway? Yes. Very much so. 

I have to remind myself that if I want to feel strong and build muscle that I have to eat more and not just deprive myself of things I used to love because fuck that. 

My next goal: Girl Scout Cookies season is among us and I'm going to get a box of Thin Mints and eat them. I haven't had a thin mint since I was 14 years old (23 now) and they used to be my favorite. 

I'm dedicated to recovering and not letting food control me. I just wanted to share this with some people who understand the small feats.

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EDAnonymous,snooze_schmooze,2019/02/01,"People wonder where all the food goes I eat all the fuckin time at work and I'm one of the few that's not overweight. 

They say ""you're metabolism is so good, it just goes right through you!"" 

And I'm like haha yes straight into the toilet the same way it went in kek",-0.17120300751879824,2.0219687719298283,1.2488721804511298,100.61210526315791,89.35087719298247,3.95889724310777,15.160401002506266,5.288315135182226,-1.1322862155388471,208,4,50,1,7,66,45,57,0.0,0.7390000000000001,0.261,0.9354,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,1,3,4,1,0,5,2,1,4,0,0,2,9,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,3,3,5,4,4,9,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,2,28,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33574666680196824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967616329968309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752098421391665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603018990882258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22234127376070476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22747573307295985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802110109527729,0.0,0.2609326328662524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19132826614017065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604448252830128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041687077480013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35583001475291925,0.23887383894043765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,titiparisienne,2019/02/01,"I think I just purged blood I was b/ping coffee and chocolate ice cream when I noticed a few red spots in one round.  I did it again, and the next one was like 1/3 red.  I haven't eaten anything red since having strawberries two days ago.

How fucked am I?",1.3769811320754712,3.2632383962264164,2.1251320754717007,98.70618867924532,80.13207547169812,4.994716981132076,18.147169811320754,5.6839178017228535,-0.5968309433962267,197,4,46,1,5,61,42,53,0.09,0.8590000000000001,0.051,-0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,0,5,9,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,5,7,1,1,5,1,6,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,6,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29090518295953866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700580634166597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116441589412234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033902533365169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603285413156136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490152517767537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736266466417081,0.0,0.0,0.4447564539043896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27146774156976505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102797321568356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205769160512485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,windyy3,2019/02/01,"I literally can't enjoy anything I gained 15 pounds back and I'm in the worst place of my life right now. Everything reminds me of how fat I am. I can't sleep at night because I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I twist and turn all night and I'm so hyper aware of my stomach skin stretching because it's flopping everywhere, my thighs chafing together, my calves being so fucking thick that I feel uneasy not tucking it under me, and the rolls on my back and how disproportionate my body is. It feels like there's this giant mass on my body and I want to cut everything off. Whenever I go on tumblr, Youtube, or reddit, I close out of it immediately because I see a thin/normal girl and I get bitter. I tried to start a new show on Netflix and just couldn't finish the first episode because there was a sex scene and the girl was too pretty. Tried to go to my bf's house, broke up with him instead because I can't stand how ugly and unappealing I am. Not even going outside because I don't want the world to see me. I feel so gross and nasty, I want to cut all this fat off with a knife. Like I'm actually going insane",4.270359195402303,4.715829340517242,5.446310344827584,83.56305747126437,70.25,8.083218390804596,28.397701149425288,8.021203637495839,1.6558111494252872,885,30,188,11,15,295,125,232,0.154,0.782,0.065,-0.9699,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,16,10,4,0,9,0,11,12,9,3,2,32,31,19,0,4,4,0,7,2,1,0,3,0,0,2,7,15,2,0,4,2,0,4,7,7,0,1,2,10,31,3,24,27,4,34,0,1,2,2,4,20,1,1,11,117,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.12825633959191007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815536981089716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20212251355810992,0.0,0.4807096191534421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919773341863869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680801730855564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362409161672471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26581903763844045,0.09389333904536676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179395841134572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12150455584067013,0.06866654622945591,0.0,0.2987779027305006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15165212289447794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283261978559916,0.12841973653997682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269355355172518,0.0,0.2466755698230681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731596820669684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371116231395327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224016810415546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094647645046236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13152452605273293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302655382851363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784641547081388,0.1429576738046314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325617661204175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FrankWest21CP,2019/02/01,Today has started off so well :/ I ate some peanut butter and started freaking out so I bought laxatives and took the max dose. I can’t wait to do this full time shift with cramps and sludge shits :/,3.7892307692307696,5.291889974358977,3.3979487179487187,93.85538461538464,72.33333333333333,6.225641025641028,23.256410256410252,6.42735559955562,0.3580871794871792,155,4,33,1,3,46,33,39,0.245,0.696,0.06,-0.8184,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,7,9,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,3,1,3,1,4,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,4,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40770353371723467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.562257573371358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316011080105592,0.0,0.3764838662051108,0.0,0.4412858926127655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571159979859762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princesszelda00,2019/02/01,"""What happened to counting calories?????"" Trying to bring myself down from a couple days of binging, trying not to go super low at first so I don't binge again you know?? I was at like 900 cals for the day and I was making 150 cals oatmeal for dinner and my roommate (a clueless guy) was like ummm food at 9pm?? What happened to counting calories??? ....... time to count calories until no one can deny I am counting them when I get back to underweight aka normal to guys sigh.",2.8528260869565223,4.762324500000002,3.9015217391304375,87.57336956521742,75.73913043478261,5.034782608695653,25.630434782608692,5.148860815047168,0.6738869565217391,362,13,68,1,8,117,66,92,0.138,0.799,0.063,-0.8023,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,1,2,4,5,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,6,13,5,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,3,0,9,3,16,10,0,15,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,10,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17821781167641146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564505183469239,0.0,0.2989466095606215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714453650890068,0.28025875765359143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210909303368868,0.0,0.13172096236223813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589800220990238,0.4099091635459377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737543682109415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22646348513409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470913238337947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22708664946806545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705422091502955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514770006223914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147149771182813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Braseford,2019/02/01,"So close to unsubscribing, then suddenly back I haven’t been following my ED subreddits since mid December. I’ve been so close this week to thinking “why do I still follow these? I should delete and move on. I don’t look at them anymore anyway. I haven’t tracked my calories since December either. This is my recovery!”
And then suddenly I’m back, with new vigor. On my subreddits, in MyFitnessPal. 
It feels like a big fuck you to the world. A way to fight back to all the things I feel are so unfair and I feel so powerless against. 

Thanks for reading ❤️",2.0380886850152926,4.569171944954132,3.324977064220185,87.40257262996944,81.8440366972477,7.670030581039757,24.679663608562695,8.59863814320734,1.9493296636085635,438,17,89,11,12,142,71,109,0.133,0.7959999999999999,0.071,-0.8288,1,0,0,0,1,0,13.0,0,1,1,0,9,5,2,0,4,0,9,1,0,0,1,13,19,9,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,4,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,4,13,3,12,16,2,23,0,0,1,1,3,9,1,0,11,59,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21569638808115926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017202027348845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299157008959506,0.1553783207092799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010704277534356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625696781253396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264084528610044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311625405338472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21005782249871946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21755364616497885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35982787395709565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369161943387945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20023998035206494,0.0,0.0,0.1444938735251643,0.13936187872770972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726372399481497,0.17446120064132428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962552179097045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Starbar_,2019/02/01,"'Self recovery'. Why do I do this. Just today...

Tell myself my bmr is 20% lower because I *definitely* don't have much muscle.

Tell myself my activity level *can't* be above sedentary.

Tell myself my workout only burnt half the calories all the sources I can find claim because *everyone* knows it's exaggerated. 

I'm not going to measure the amount of milk I'm putting in my tea because *that's* disordered but it was *at least* 200ml so I'll log it as that.

Eww I can't eat this bruised part of this banana. It's only a *tiny* piece anyway how much difference does it *really* make?

Same thing with the milk in my tea but for butter on toast or bread since it's always *so much more* than you expected.

Cooked myself dinner for the next few days and split it into three equal portions. Oh no, I must have portioned it wrong! This looks like half and not a third! *silly me!*

Wow look I've eaten my maintainance calories today again! I am doing so well!! I'm basically recovered!! 😮

I'm fully aware of what I'm doing. I'm not even in denial. Who am I even trying to fool?",-0.2340394600207673,1.971974261682245,2.0021651090342694,91.2957814122534,100.77570093457943,4.433852544132918,17.15939771547248,6.286939319323684,0.016294288681204968,828,24,167,11,36,277,135,214,0.073,0.8690000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.457,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,0,0,10,6,0,0,7,0,16,9,0,2,2,19,28,10,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,17,4,9,0,2,2,0,2,7,2,1,4,2,3,19,4,16,24,14,14,0,0,2,0,6,7,0,1,6,109,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266578805003484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278372722472782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816825803187113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903580201286874,0.1744554433213647,0.0,0.1332073242091278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557573971892425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010775998466848,0.0,0.0,0.14545117881167138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912483547853854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650920938951419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365523708165565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436620832099439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556501926994852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016069461367731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356940564190324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188596682696035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315378641524291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648376646532784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302150810907428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975149876756248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158796960889285,0.0,0.0,0.12591661133039325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991367025402822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112712343380327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885704388200698,0.0,0.0,0.1033462835576225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686259823991542,0.0,0.13735340580115493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16642689550399012,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chimpansies,2019/02/01,Nothing like a good ol’ divorce to trigger my eating disorder! Not even posting this on my alt account because idgaf. My soon to be ex-husband is a POS and this whole process has depleted any sort of appetite that I had before. I went from bingeing constantly to not eating for 2-3 days at a time. I’ve lost 25 pounds in less than a month and I feel really good about it. Hoping to lose 50 more.  It’s all about cOnTrOl right??? ,2.089568965517241,4.05174765517242,3.435158045977012,89.80377155172415,78.19540229885058,6.189080459770117,26.96695402298851,7.1686216300943375,1.3266333333333329,334,14,69,4,8,109,69,87,0.177,0.7909999999999999,0.032,-0.8923,0,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,2,1,10,8,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,3,1,6,4,13,4,4,11,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,2,6,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137838991181745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673324764004734,0.0,0.17690666237730787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246648673749012,0.23317630879157164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407759975579106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23827016567073125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425464979781204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731527121193354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511993701248876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34875148884320184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649053004427914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156890745052184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258570502361706,0.22694622218841634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16594292878470376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19948461396729214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991096899657925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133185367142998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177544535654037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212275279756006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927243750842796,0.0,0.2321117117256196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tofuxhoe,2019/02/01,"I feel so guilty for having a healthy, young body and not taking care of it I realized the other day that I would probably be an *extraordinarily* healthy person if I didn’t starve myself, eat almost exclusively things with no nutritional value, abuse bronkaid, drink excessively, and smoke. Even while doing all these things I have less health issues than a lot of people. I have a strong constitution, no allergies, plenty of energy, I never get sick, I can physically do all the things I want or need to do. Good health is a huge privilege that too many people don’t get to enjoy, and I’m here taking advantage of it, testing its limits, and slowly throwing it all away.

I feel so guilty. There are so many people bed-bound or hospital-bound or otherwise chronically unwell that would love to have this level of health, and would appreciate it and take care of it. And I know this, I know what I’m doing to myself is wasteful and ungrateful. But I still can’t stop. It’s like some kind of compulsion to destroy myself. My sick mind is willing to give up my health for a skinny body. And for what? What the fuck do I *need* to be skinny for? I don’t even know. I wish I could give my body to someone who needs it and would treat it well.",3.557314049586779,5.394854772727278,4.683545454545456,83.0353181818182,73.58677685950413,7.815206611570248,22.843801652892562,8.548686976883017,1.3729547107438016,973,26,193,18,20,319,129,242,0.133,0.679,0.18899999999999997,0.8984,0,0,2,0,1,0,34.0,0,0,0,3,10,14,2,0,9,0,26,16,5,0,4,43,49,19,0,11,6,0,2,1,0,5,7,0,0,1,23,11,4,2,6,1,0,1,8,2,1,0,1,2,23,12,23,40,6,11,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,7,7,140,46,1,0.0,0.12217494895366755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325523009490337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688036142556324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34361406408279216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21026615102025786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232929777200458,0.0,0.0,0.06650093595551798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101388641239743,0.0,0.10551285010799699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621356696736306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427654151995903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953285737134998,0.10774713538264023,0.19783547491386053,0.0,0.08648834878531449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4384276139512711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762574156191627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737887533434463,0.1700086670083745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050377001242128426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766506977314889,0.09306572124769744,0.0,0.0,0.2090857672596764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411721152125313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22937640306747736,0.07952899338143121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144618127311808,0.09003643526221583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117589753008283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736938778376699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234813309754258,0.08620913500373023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23258996088719985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551597309551234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060820165167642826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927131749379064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857768079745452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930010340491642,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,couldntfindquiet,2019/02/01,"Trans Discord Server Hey ya'll! I made a discord to replace the old trans ed subreddit, we deal with different set of issues and could use a place to jam about it. It's a brand new server for now and you are welcome to join! 

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Join: [https://discord.gg/e79sDwE](https://discord.gg/e79sDwE)",6.107210884353743,9.855521795918367,4.6929591836734685,75.96215986394559,75.9387755102041,5.715646258503401,24.493197278911573,7.1686216300943375,1.2567931972789121,244,8,38,3,6,71,39,49,0.10300000000000001,0.745,0.152,0.3786,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,7,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031433992099607,0.33996543864760514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22338295394062804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884426895372047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923123705746857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920194477636696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26473624793618244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702149486457577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935838725614868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923123705746857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24164159364992685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33996543864760514,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gloomy_Shroomy,2019/02/01,"Does anybody else actually love their ED? Ok, so I don’t technically “love” having an ED. There’s so many things that I strongly hate about it- for example my neurotic need to overestimate calories, my obsessive body checks, the nausea from hunger, the disappointment and shame I feel when I go over my daily calorie limit... tbh the list goes on and on and I know we can basically all relate to most/some of this. 

HOWEVER. I get a little high from feeling hungry. I know if I’m super hungry that my body is likely consuming my fat and that pleases me greatly. I love being able to notice actual changes in my body within 24 hours. I have a sick sense of pride in being able to lose 7+ lbs in a week if I try hard enough. I also feel that the “control” aspect of having an ED benefits the entirely of the rest of my life. All my food is prepped ahead of time so meals always feel organized. My brain seems to function better when I’m fasting. I feel exhilarated watching myself lose all the weight I put on over the last few years. I’m getting very close to my goal weight and it brings me immense joy. I feel that when my ED is “going as planned” and doing what it “needs to do” I just feel 1000% better in every other aspect of my life. Everything feels organized and even my stress from work is greatly reduced when I’m feeling a little bit skinnier than I was the day before. My fiancé notices the changes in my body and showers me with compliments, thus my ego becoming even bigger. 🙄🙃

Anyways I just wanted to bring this topic up and get feedback, does anybody else feel that their ED is more beneficial to them than negative? 

Disclaimer; I do truly realize how unhealthy this thought process is, I realize that it’s just the ED trying to tell me I’m fine and everything should continue, and I DO plan to eat at maintenance once I reach my goal weight. My stats are f/23/5’2’’ and my SW: 165lbs CW: 126lbs GW: 110lbs 
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EDAnonymous,hemp_heart,2019/07/08,"Anyone else develop a food kink? I'm a few months deep into recovery, generally doing well. Lately I've noticed that when I eat, I'm thinking very deeply and excitedly about textures, temperatures, and flavors to a point that it makes me feel incredibly sensual.  It completely unleashes my inner slut. Granted, this is mostly after I've smoked pot. Some amount of this still holds true  sober. Anyone else?",5.038690476190479,7.945313583333338,5.957539682539682,70.67000000000003,72.8888888888889,9.114285714285714,29.73015873015873,9.606745405546679,3.51463253968254,326,14,50,9,7,107,58,72,0.051,0.7979999999999999,0.15,0.7432,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,11,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,3,5,7,4,9,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,5,27,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135409242272938,0.4594522978046777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23507634588960585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294193167423121,0.3745916759281607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11336558951480345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711115008786837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529148014056708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965964108047738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895956259235582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552606909000698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119476993126429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905167390423204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14366253101885582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18499391912453986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20158865223993064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yayyayyayayay,2019/07/08,thinner/ smaller bf my bf is an inch shorter than me and like 13lbs lighter. his legs are so much thinner than mine and it’s been so triggering and my ed has gotten so much worse since we’ve been together bc i feel like i look like a refrigerator next to him and i’m afraid people judge us all the time. i always think about how i’d feel so much better about myself if we broke up and i dated someone a little taller and not such a petite frame but that feels petty and selfish bc i honestly love him to death and i resent that i even feel that way,1.5052272727272715,3.4429469051724158,2.967554858934172,92.5692946708464,79.94827586206897,5.597492163009405,20.028213166144198,6.574015621080383,0.0791482758620683,435,11,96,4,11,142,79,116,0.14300000000000002,0.72,0.13699999999999998,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,2,0,0,1,9,10,1,1,5,0,5,2,1,2,1,20,14,15,1,1,3,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,5,17,6,7,11,4,8,0,1,1,1,8,4,0,1,6,60,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377415787624825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470471712500106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793887298247798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223893092593368,0.14919752541339412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060905134614556,0.2093156134340347,0.0,0.0,0.17537557383621075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884890174748113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605710416740997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221069659953761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447854835830773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727571392331151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695204893870056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381820158836355,0.0,0.0,0.12177806908014847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512124897409078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576990198429886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21282892241350776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Autumnalboquet,2019/07/08,"I’m actually losing grip on any form of stability Warning ⚠️ B/P behaviour 

I’m just all over the place today and suppose to be high restricting. But there were cakes at work so I had ate a few in the bathroom and purged there which is becoming a habit. I’m

Now I’ve just gotten into an argument with the other half because the kittens have fleas and like I’m so stressed. I’m so upset and I literally can’t stop eating. None of it is even nice. Why am I eating fucking pickled onions but I’m at my parents house now so can’t purge so fucking whoopdi doo I guess. But why can’t I stop eating it’s not even good food. And then it’s over fleas which isn’t going to kill the cats and they’ve been treated so why am I continuing to be a whiny bitch I just don’t understand.",0.16892845887172925,2.3102785748503045,2.6762180901355173,91.5304506775922,86.60479041916166,5.671478096438702,21.36432398361172,7.0608816371341465,0.585797604790419,610,21,137,9,19,210,99,167,0.187,0.79,0.023,-0.9762,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,15,11,4,2,9,0,15,7,0,0,1,21,28,16,1,0,7,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,8,5,3,1,0,0,1,7,7,0,1,5,1,8,4,13,21,4,17,0,1,0,2,1,9,3,1,8,82,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.1492857162120373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104031160783689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325475322009456,0.16895360309773974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696080045937882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208275205870724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849831606130904,0.0,0.0,0.28285377080641483,0.0,0.0,0.08694165399420654,0.12831176756231194,0.0,0.0,0.1685239312472988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163101545786296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651755736529728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924891487614088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473795215944565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114469113979544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986539391159314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983079453469062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557950671437687,0.17523725595817166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450064763156411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592568324739285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41412003530125824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137074263261083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dr_Wh00ves,2019/07/08,I feel like I am stuck in a cycle of restriction and binging that can't be broken. Over the past couple of years I have lost around 100 pounds and am now in what would be considered decent shape but I feel like my relationship with food is more broken than ever. I can lose weight easily but whenever I try to maintain/gain I just end up in a binging cycle where I eat until I physically can't any more. I just can't seem to find a middle-ground and will just sway between one extreme to the other. Do any of you guy's know how to switch from losing weight to maintaining without falling off the rails?,4.599695121951222,5.172776398373983,5.46803861788618,83.24400914634148,69.5691056910569,8.426422764227643,25.944105691056908,8.472884824447931,1.562366666666667,479,13,98,7,8,157,83,123,0.09699999999999999,0.778,0.124,0.498,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,3,8,5,0,0,6,0,13,4,0,1,1,20,19,7,0,1,6,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,5,4,1,5,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,4,12,2,21,13,2,16,0,3,0,0,3,9,0,1,8,70,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24078245577014545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760046013263618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19588806836616715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18115304386301848,0.0,0.0,0.15680223076317265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601400981058342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903044871325394,0.2529505301022401,0.0,0.0,0.16180860670943195,0.0,0.21407383784343326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17529445938964885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729490288035594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17298266716066948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961182275986301,0.19325679384369746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996484999176238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690018444816176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19007147905962626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611678317762173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019649901858367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311667332639629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065734620656672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257620022553896,0.0,0.0,0.11400602079926235
EDAnonymous,CellieBellie,2019/07/08,"Any beautiful, smart, charming women want me to fall in love with them... I need to lose like 20 pounds. I remember my last really bad breakup, I barely ate for like 12 weeks, and lost so much weight. I need some heartache to get me back there ;_; Any lovely ladies want to volunteer to break my heart?",4.578793103448277,5.576721189655178,4.306379310344827,90.01405172413793,69.86206896551724,8.558620689655173,24.84482758620689,8.841846274778883,1.4066413793103452,231,6,50,4,4,70,45,58,0.113,0.5529999999999999,0.33399999999999996,0.9452,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,2,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,8,9,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,9,6,8,7,2,6,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,1,5,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30345954045727885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715660946087912,0.18629651765349745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657138989096125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643991788781251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818732016781995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180110694350672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496150621301545,0.24356267013922098,0.0,0.402750400315395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16401943368107266,0.3308824377719615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293687434853805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527523301049052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632048141906238,0.0,0.17897401793849438,0.2717009807011265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,remrem24,2019/07/08,"Start treatment on Monday So the hospital program called this morning and I start treatment on Monday. This is super unexpected so I’m freaking the fuck out. I don’t feel skinny enough or sick enough. I don’t wanna eat hospital food. I don’t wanna gain weight. I’m so scared. 

I don’t know if I can do it.",0.0876190476190466,2.4652050634920637,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857146,93.6031746031746,4.704761904761905,19.698412698412696,6.42735559955562,0.3204793650793656,241,8,49,3,9,81,37,63,0.207,0.6829999999999999,0.111,-0.7445,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,1,1,2,0,7,6,1,0,0,8,14,6,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,2,6,1,5,14,2,7,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,2,4,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756342692772254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762113490315217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5578309446202688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648747131789588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264070107913928,0.0,0.0,0.2495509686233087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483494607951227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27025247041718403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821233937274876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287086501908505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,2noserings,2019/07/08,"SEVERE bloating any time you take in food? Read dis ~ Bloating is a huge trigger for my ED. And being that I look like I swallowed a watermelon every time I eat literally any portion of food, bikini season will have me fasting for days at a time.  

Well thanks to this group I found out I’m not some genetic freak of nature and started taking a probiotic supplement. It hasn’t even been a week and I can have a few bites of food with very minimal bloating (haven’t worked my way up to a full meal yet). I looked in the mirror today and SMILED !!!!!! 

If anyone else has a similar issue I really recommend probiotics. I’m not cured by any means but a small victory after so many years of this shit feels amazing.",2.9843617021276607,4.825223978723403,4.6421453900709215,82.70875000000002,75.17021276595744,7.820567375886525,25.22517730496454,8.59863814320734,1.8190326241134755,555,19,109,11,12,187,100,141,0.057999999999999996,0.8009999999999999,0.141,0.8148,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,0,10,0,10,7,1,1,0,15,21,7,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,3,11,4,16,17,4,21,0,0,2,0,2,8,1,2,13,66,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041033259906156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422813425593233,0.15273239337990668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613313616978852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252839740299798,0.1245227926338948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984545344610265,0.0,0.1255917881559898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07537060058792333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.540741773627475,0.16343960138143868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558277369008466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282452571005196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250350319740148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15112622285935934,0.0,0.16237302398232015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14910307930496206,0.0,0.09549340873271484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683984680933741,0.15301076135265054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550737516726176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22415326000475302,0.0,0.0,0.13723694452731347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607590486919178,0.0,0.1412940488393865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299237228162233,0.0,0.11831906535576325,0.11956913935212048,0.0,0.13402530570398133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851945063858848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599151786791617
EDAnonymous,gurglegg,2019/07/08,"I’m fasting on my period and my boyfriend is eating Reeses right next to me, AMA it’s the big ones that have lots of peanut butter too.",0.7816091954022966,2.83306555172414,2.014482758620691,97.83712643678163,83.13793103448276,5.2459770114942526,16.563218390804597,6.42735559955562,-0.5159747126436782,107,2,25,1,3,34,28,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5060040438798613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204121087319723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5259137308407753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350906941711338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4223062168637917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bpdbarbie00,2019/07/08,"now that I'm not dying I don't feel valid just two months ago I was 86 pounds, so small and dainty and I felt so perfect. I was so confident and happy and was on top of the world. I was also on hard drugs and was extremely sick. now I'm healthy, clean from drugs, and up to a healthy weight if 130. and I know I should be happy and all of my friends and family are happy, but I feel so ugly. I just hate looking at myself and my self confidence is gone. I know it's selfish and I shouldn't wish to go back to being so thin, but I miss how much attention I got. now I just feel average and bland.",0.95561415683553,2.226919870229008,3.016377515614156,94.64803608605136,79.30534351145039,6.595697432338652,20.306037473976406,7.348242739294969,0.2708564885496183,457,11,113,6,11,155,77,131,0.18,0.639,0.18100000000000002,-0.6025,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,14,8,1,0,2,0,12,4,0,1,2,32,27,22,1,4,7,0,7,0,1,2,3,0,1,1,2,12,1,0,7,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,8,8,17,5,10,15,2,16,0,1,1,0,2,8,0,1,6,76,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189169680622716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702876807866826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13175779914243946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783455228595768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974238814787766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153380724905814,0.0,0.2599195712010546,0.0,0.16452315340314688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238481196991153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738232075974763,0.0,0.13704448313306294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472167221232335,0.1534962066551436,0.16917294040853487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883392805970082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143891091153413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677016976790066,0.0,0.12596218179171675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17875572658820124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16738433891260082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086584958622033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19704438152397985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nora-borealiss,2019/07/08,"Getting it all out, finally Hi! this is my first time here, and this is going to be a really looooong ramble and maybe no one will read it but i am just at a point emotionally where i need to write everything that's been happening over the past few years down somewhere because it just goes unacknowledged in my life and i feel like i need to acknowledge it because it has immense power over me.

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I'm trans (mtf). I am 27. I started my transition when I was 25 and weighed like 350 pounds. Growing up I struggled with my weight a lot, and though I went up and down, I never really successfully lost weight and due to some bingey periods I was steadily going up in weight. Before my transition, I was deeply depressed, my social life revolved around drinking, and when it was bad I would eat so much. I would eat a huge takeout meal for lunch, then a whole frozen pizza in the evening, and often more than that.

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But when I started HRT, I felt like I was invested in my body and my appearance for the first time, and felt like I really had a shot at a life where I could happy with the way I was perceived, and so I started to successfully lose weight for the first time. I lost 100 pounds in the first 9-ish months of my transition. I am finally at a place where I can accept that the way that I did this was not healthy for me physically or emotionally, even though it hurts me to say that because the time that I was losing so much weight so quickly (and, because of the HRT, finally starting to feel okay about my body) was also the happiest I've ever been and the most satisfied with life. 

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During that time, I was basically doing an extremely low-carb thing. I would not eat before 6 p.m., no matter what. At 6 (usually when I would get home from work or class) I would eat a very small meal and a spoonful of peanut butter. Then, a few hours later, I would have another spoonful and a serving of almonds. I did that for almost a year. I would drink unhealthy amounts of coffee to sustain myself during the day. I would get really bad headaches towards the early evening but I would just try to shrug them off. I didn't drink often but on the few times I did, I would get very drunk very easily.

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I remember one night last july, I had a long day at work and then a professional drinks thing after. I didn't eat anything all day but had a bunch of wine at drinks. I finally got off the subway around 7:30 having eaten nothing that day and quite drunk. I was exhausted. I remember just looking at the direction of my apartment and then looking at the direction of this park nearby, and for some reason I just went to the park and cried for like 45 minutes instead of going home to eat.

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I started to develop a kind of guilt around breaking my own rules. Like a day just felt cheap or spoiled if I ate early or if I ate more than I was supposed to. This was so powerful! Like, even just the thought of it was enough to keep me in line. Again, in retrospect, this was so unhealthy.

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The whole year I was terrified that the whole thing might collapse and I would go back to my bingey ways. Well, eventually that did happen and that's where I am now. After about a year of successful weight loss, this past January I started to slip up and started binging here and there. For awhile my weight basically stayed steady but then it started to go up a little bit. By now, 7 months later, I have gained back a little bit of the weight that I had lost but not very much. So I still have a lot of weight to lose, but my progress from that year isn't gone.

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Right now, I feel stuck in this period where I will be eating like I was, severely restricting, and then a week or so will go by and I'll slip up and binge. That's what's been going on for a little while now. And I'm just so bummed about it because it felt like I had such a good thing going and now it's derailed. But maybe I shouldn't want to go back to that because it was a deeply unhealthy place.

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I'm just so tired of not having access to a healthy, reliable, long-term relationship with food. Its like I have two modes and they're just fighting each other constantly. If I manage to get back on that train of weight loss, what does the endgame even look like? If I ever get to a place where I'm happy with my weight, do I get a chance to start over and have a normal relationship with food?

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I also acknowledge that the other half of this is, how do I stop caring about how other people are perceiving me and my body in the world? What part of my obsessiveness over all of this is just gender stuff and what part is just weight stuff? is there a meaningful difference? do I just need to learn to stop caring?

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this was so long. i am so sorry. if you read any of it, I am grateful.",5.0246575762218475,5.496403128764279,5.344455339359584,84.86364792400799,68.595015576324,8.640818480499805,28.35178659584972,8.602712287640571,1.8403096845581604,3795,121,789,56,61,1206,334,963,0.128,0.752,0.11900000000000001,-0.8924,2,0,6,0,2,0,141.0,0,1,1,22,76,40,1,3,57,1,79,46,3,3,6,141,140,82,0,23,36,0,19,11,0,16,6,1,2,0,58,45,37,4,18,10,2,14,11,17,1,8,49,24,96,23,112,72,28,158,0,10,3,0,9,57,0,20,93,571,154,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028309077886716626,0.0,0.0,0.045216225847957835,0.0,0.30631351724851713,0.3435206226705833,0.01922508315538717,0.029644352067876308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023264422915562917,0.0755008983113682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695386358336306,0.0472097998705268,0.10340154075676856,0.0,0.0481126613065419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06172868579230804,0.09420730837702276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057647838668333076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0305506432777353,0.0,0.022571897819066537,0.0,0.03105409737567755,0.09116149243839784,0.0,0.02434956024844876,0.0,0.0,0.02953692232763017,0.0,0.0,0.02473992861254025,0.0,0.0,0.13847288778787267,0.0,0.20249628443110948,0.0,0.06360158949600833,0.0,0.029211247635025767,0.0,0.09336283675321803,0.05114503368194735,0.0,0.0,0.02540793209474621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04288363019867507,0.02019663334631456,0.10857743473580823,0.12387692295242946,0.0,0.09618836059397777,0.06837021942930384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10339212025240672,0.0,0.1446022964275939,0.023712168379331648,0.022610705720581728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049999471367739814,0.06018948975030387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056715745557139714,0.0,0.027840999413839974,0.0,0.0302644284249964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02512834641177365,0.0,0.029439641386049657,0.0,0.02304443894386065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987388257570294,0.15192829415101267,0.08500417188165899,0.0,0.0750561868484995,0.07122094323324786,0.09488323192722177,0.09258260748537313,0.048069570633304234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05680354740609692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029990803948056314,0.0,0.0,0.04513089457199646,0.0,0.0623467744042548,0.06288722085887477,0.021804149444224957,0.0,0.0,0.026530188881676388,0.02769933789685105,0.02712655232623309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03831399109936549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122894638702628,0.05397526997024274,0.019599382212901917,0.0,0.08861076698289051,0.0,0.0267250018213463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03006942834320807,0.05655681184724645,0.0,0.0724438794359443,0.029067045096129538,0.0,0.06070442264908275,0.06405050975378708,0.024143070690382462,0.0,0.022482039443408264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031937906714326794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028818474966899408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03164679617181418,0.1800916759829042,0.030132863772068964,0.022577061825743847,0.04727123488319125,0.0,0.029554731841387974,0.0647265025555817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751273349088834,0.0,0.05555174739351516,0.02244382195779589,0.09890942912166252,0.032493074600193066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019193987213292612,0.0,0.027616420178783938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031136243072204663,0.09330533601591033,0.016674824037787462,0.06732002935614688,0.02267709476087936,0.41311396751012464,0.02541880433591253,0.05241454708002158,0.0,0.09468986657821517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04116289334964087,0.0,0.0,0.22091006902940624,0.0,0.3435206226705833,0.0910271981017138
EDAnonymous,imaboutathrowhands,2019/07/08,"Buckle up it’s time to rant about picture problems I went to a theme park recently with my friends and one of my friends took a picture of my best friend and I holding hands from behind and it is actually the cutest picture I have ever seen buuuuuuut I started over analyzing it and now all I can see is how much thicker I am then my friend. I know it’s not fair to compare myself to her consider she has 3 inches on me and is a very competitive swimmer, but the difference in size between my thighs and hers was really something :)) I’m a healthy weight but damn if I wouldn’t give pretty much anything to look like her 

so in conclusion my brain has now ruined a really cute photo and I would like brain to get its shit together and appreciate the damn photo please and thank you",5.952222222222222,5.797806203821657,6.996772823779192,75.96965322009909,66.57961783439491,10.03510261854211,33.36801132342533,9.725611199111238,3.0033034677990087,622,25,124,12,9,210,101,157,0.11699999999999999,0.645,0.239,0.9645,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,6,14,3,0,8,0,11,6,5,1,2,23,22,15,0,4,4,0,2,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,5,10,1,1,2,0,0,2,2,5,0,1,4,5,22,9,18,16,4,15,0,1,3,0,10,6,3,1,9,88,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.1553566270438622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100836577720634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670709996124585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35544059787630394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633053561120226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440058776572918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4919913415015174,0.0,0.08317563909045622,0.15271953172850145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749237727834372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15555454941402874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336882417123021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23406122604249274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787831227424302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475423399176299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619640420216736,0.0,0.1523332838632953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20397570766982392,0.0,0.1571911905169194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686210834301653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16341692448828207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256024699243245,0.0,0.0,0.11268286366425945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657034056012852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283103443840496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768775039385832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135700414859994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386320033121773,0.0,0.1475803672592392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309139762582608,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cruelgrl,2019/07/08,"Do you ever just???? >loses a pound on weigh in
>rewards self with binge meal 
>puts on a pound after weigh in 

>fuck me up",3.848399999999998,5.5868116400000005,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,72.6,5.0,28.5,3.1291,0.6742000000000004,101,4,20,0,2,30,20,25,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4035883304592865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124790417944593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.499152604600529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485263298390752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654549477221268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,entomologyqueen,2019/07/08,"psa: blueberries turn your shit black I've been in a binge-purge-laxatives-restrict cycle for a couple weeks and today I decided to eat like a normal people... with some oatmeal and fruit for breakfast (yay I kept it down and only felt sort of awful, look at me being a normal people)

(probably TMI but I'm a health care professional so nothing is off the table for me)
what I did not realize is that the blueberries would go right through me and turn my shit BLACK, sending me into a panic asking dr. Google if I had a GI bleed or blood in my GI tract from purging etc etc.

the decade I've had an eating disorder hasn't killed me yet! /s",1.823864042933813,4.053232519379846,3.555968992248065,87.24214669051882,80.3953488372093,6.449850924269531,21.55098389982111,7.61054688173877,0.9573942754919499,501,15,100,8,13,167,93,129,0.145,0.772,0.083,-0.8031,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,2,7,3,1,11,2,9,10,3,0,0,19,18,8,1,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,6,5,12,3,14,10,3,12,0,0,3,0,3,7,2,4,4,62,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840812741553533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618543588403676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565185184453508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819391780524954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32487805803805925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3540923881593998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242315661479988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022025424168524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687419016557698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756313507823567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755634653301413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330849712446374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110790398503007,0.1523231689421148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207351513083007,0.0,0.18625679574760465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011201217707488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17115739766882712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557008614014418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32590546975875445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047472136612233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34534488818840203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12733822178490772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11277015885696035,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shaacat,2019/03/24,"Has anyone here seen a dietician? And did you find them helpful? 
I might be seeing one soon and I have no idea what to expect so I was curious to hear about others experience with them ",0.8554054054054028,3.4024891351351343,2.923027027027029,87.28616216216219,90.08108108108108,6.203243243243244,18.210810810810813,7.554174236665415,0.7703881081081088,146,4,29,3,5,49,32,37,0.057999999999999996,0.7909999999999999,0.151,0.5482,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,9,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,6,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,1,1,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554116276289285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573130342220826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33385846379452994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4116960736255416,0.0,0.2448388692310709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4123556221926823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875033819322982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475225597827016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910801358911435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dreams_and_daisies,2019/03/24,"Dentists Is anyone else too scared or embarrassed to go to a dentist? I really need to go because nearly all of my teeth are messed up but I'm too ashamed. 

Its stupid but I feel the dentist is going to judge me, my teeth are literally falling out bc of my ed. And I'm too worried about what the dentist thinks to get help.
I'm gonna try and book an appointment but I'm super nervous about the state of my teeth.

Anyone else like this?",1.3268742368742394,3.3708830549450566,3.0060805860805893,91.51947496947498,81.08791208791209,5.8026862026862025,23.2979242979243,6.937597516519254,0.7173360195360194,342,12,74,4,9,113,57,91,0.20600000000000002,0.679,0.115,-0.7724,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,1,4,5,0,4,7,3,0,1,11,16,6,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,7,2,13,15,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361521655838855,0.4925860484405951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14653062505354308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4016056385088212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154103491278055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558623591085433,0.0,0.4098326722143367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111857724564374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743528846511987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823532827247426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15399064932730566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24065772942438116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402286331286716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319913164056274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24411290728635934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myrtlewils0n,2019/03/24,"now we ALL have a complex I’m 23F, 5’6” and 110 lbs, working on recovering.... My step-sister is 13F, 4’10 and maybe around 125-130lbs? My step mom (her real mom) is very vain and very blunt/rude about it. 

I’ve always had a complex with my weight since before my father married her, and since coming into my life, this woman (46F) has always felt the need to compare us, even though I’m half her age. She will pinch my stomach and publicly accuse me of not eating or point out when I eat more at a function and say it’s my “skinny genes” that keep me from gaining or say I exercise for attention which, I don’t even get how that last one works but... Saitama-OK.jpg

Long story short, she recently bought her daughter some shorts because they were on sale. She didn’t check the tag, which idk why but I guess it happens. My sister tried them on and I guess they didn’t fit. But step mom can’t return them bc they were final sale. 

From the dining room, my stepmother tells my sister to give them to me to try on. I try and say no because wtf are you trying to prove I’m not gonna fit into teen girl clothing???? Whatever. I go into the bathroom. Not only do they fit, they look great on me which makes me feel weird because I’m a grown woman in teen girl jean shorts. 

I come out and show my stepmom, who makes a point to comment that my sister couldn’t even get them over her thighs yet they fit on me. My sister gets embarrassed and runs off to her room with tears in her eyes. I get embarrassed because wtf?? Why would you do that to your kid. 

Then to top it all off my step mom later, after pouring herself several glasses of wine, tells me I can keep the shorts but she wants me to “apologize for making her daughter feel bad.” Like LADY!! WHAT!!

Anyways, my family is a trainwreck but whose isn’t I guess. 
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EDAnonymous,wad_of_dicks,2019/03/24,"You’ve lost a ton of weight! I had a relapse about a week ago, and I’ve never restricted so much in my life. I had a reunion with an old friend/ex today. He told me I “lost a ton of weight”. The last time we saw each other I was near my highest weight, so I know he’s not saying that my normal weight from a week ago was huge. But shit, that was a trigger. He must’ve noticed the shock on my face because he immediately apologized, but he said his real thoughts. On top of that I’m feeling foggy and spacey, and I’m pretty sure I lost track of what I was saying and had to restart my sentences multiple times. I got home and immediately started walking. Even though it’s pouring rain, so now I’m walking in wet shoes. I’m not even sure how I feel. Hurt? Gross? Worthless? I don’t know just bad. I feel kinda validated but also so embarrassed when people notice that I was heavy. ",1.206448087431692,3.2018590710382533,3.076639344262297,91.11255464480877,81.24043715846993,5.5967213114754095,22.188524590163933,6.691623216298621,0.4439377049180329,682,22,150,7,18,228,107,183,0.175,0.7070000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.9397,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,4,13,12,1,1,10,0,9,8,3,2,3,29,27,16,0,1,6,0,8,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,7,8,4,1,6,0,0,2,4,10,0,0,16,12,20,2,13,11,4,22,0,5,1,0,12,7,1,1,13,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203118084937224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916212720598992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566083494839682,0.06984056806616852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513442876937838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378950479239832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851619294373607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163177958539416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492265566886993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264913218488692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259289177673813,0.09338951981718972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092390053248373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3751987747475981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08422184252996985,0.0,0.08836314269047997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122538878791046,0.0,0.2608765102612011,0.12022152820411446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942813873817987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655847722672673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304052934443616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10898193092814752,0.1822206974312451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760405355208566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109295640136817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159609944617175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256405562150476,0.0909554691527634,0.13361291652716809,0.0,0.10859858966390516,0.10947616774945568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18380165346847324,0.5580596566707767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qiankgs,2019/03/24,"dating is getting exhausting so i'm a normal bmi anorexic with binge/purge subtype and my gf is overweight and non-disordered. she's mostly body positive, but still very insecure about her weight at times. she's happy, just self-conscious. 

she started trying to lose weight about six months after we got together and went from obese to overweight (about -7ish kg) and i was happy for her, but now that i've relapsed everything is exhausting. i don't talk to her about my weight and body image issues because i know that it would break her. when she needs comfort about her weight all it does is exhaust me. i know i should want to make her feel better, should bring her up because i don't want her to fall into my same habits, but even hiding an entire disease that's taken over my life just takes so much out of me.

some of my ed friends have told me to break up with her before it gets too messy, but we've been together for almost two years. i'm her first girlfriend, her first kiss, everything. i don't want to break up with her, but dating with anorexia is just so so fucking exhausting. i don't know what to do anymore. ",6.054542619542617,6.118440608108107,5.740270270270269,84.32354469854471,66.34234234234235,8.632571032571034,29.68953568953569,8.139509932561175,1.865847124047124,893,28,178,10,13,276,121,222,0.124,0.7440000000000001,0.132,0.4424,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,0,0,4,17,13,1,1,2,0,16,16,2,1,1,38,37,15,0,8,8,0,5,0,3,3,8,0,0,0,7,12,7,0,4,0,0,3,4,7,0,4,6,5,33,6,30,28,5,25,0,1,0,2,22,7,1,3,12,119,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914112062366165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799602793357555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14505800918080775,0.0,0.10124307840732928,0.0,0.0,0.1052279974477246,0.0,0.2643195546882375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636120166960716,0.0,0.10412005756042307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858506052294803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21386281210652727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060159780768630176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20240837794113914,0.0,0.0,0.09192352728658884,0.10999494252487556,0.1243241087321036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515904503925847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25331249881446843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418403838579235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616462124481235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08403897785643959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310800426445965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941996540438498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496857113419073,0.0,0.0874638705355475,0.08822204189549282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657497890854306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412191901892168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421454134668409,0.0,0.09501745189556196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945803055349677,0.09563148648173968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693781000388981,0.0,0.0,0.1136903334709044,0.0,0.08077949960005369,0.0,0.11622601276101945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817082648883284,0.21053217240218494,0.0,0.0,0.5795415547314359,0.0,0.11029550134209133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451986283993601,0.0,0.0,0.07661911442307366
EDAnonymous,burningbambi,2019/03/24,"DAE feel off their fuckin tits when restricting? Haven't eaten in two days, admittedly it's the first time in a while I've been sober, but I feel like I'm absolutely spinning. 

My head is light and my vision goes in and out as if I'm rolling. The sense of dis-reality is dizzying. Trying to read a book and I feel like I'm falling into the pages as my neurons fire randomly. 

Life hack: Why waste money on getting fucked up when I could just not eat?!

(P.s. withdrawals mean I have lost my appetite)",1.8071287128712896,3.9741374851485216,3.0697920792079247,91.04290594059408,80.08910891089107,6.02019801980198,22.971287128712873,7.1686216300943375,0.7214427722772272,390,13,84,5,10,126,75,101,0.19899999999999998,0.718,0.083,-0.9127,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,3,5,2,0,5,0,6,8,3,0,0,17,18,10,0,2,4,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,1,5,2,1,1,2,3,0,2,3,5,9,2,12,14,1,15,0,1,0,3,2,8,3,2,8,45,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879562971808581,0.0,0.0,0.1518204335457216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408839276902185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570921863294845,0.3363549179357143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20024023050766326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21763340895171152,0.12299238027299275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415993054665237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627754709338655,0.2300195646698616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25697859975839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564312772818169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23547441647072245,0.26794892706905243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13726987870050114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598284199966492,0.0,0.2299620581221301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212421550873834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annoyingdoggy,2019/03/24,"fuck my heel basically since the beginning of the year I’ve been uncontrollably bingeing but managed to (kinda) maintain due to the fact that I walk every day to and from school (abt 35 min each)      So of course because fml I guess, the ED Gods decided to punish my dumb ass. 
 I got a heel spur that is causing massive pain and doctors recommendation is that I take the bus/bike instead of walking since walking can worsen the joint pain. 
Problem is no option burns as many cals and I actually fucking like walking. My ED brain is telling me to just ignore all common sense because otherwise I will definitely gain but I know this could permanently hurt my heel. Oof. ",3.748733333333334,6.2893853600000025,4.614900000000002,80.52928333333338,75.4,7.046666666666668,29.61666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.264906666666666,530,24,95,9,12,171,88,125,0.289,0.636,0.075,-0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,11,4,1,7,0,8,10,5,1,2,18,15,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,4,1,10,0,0,2,0,12,1,10,11,2,10,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,3,7,52,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.18961171573019564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368906310225057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690642647791444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960272135712104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513514823668176,0.0,0.0,0.12530937146952625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988773708932806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637086717712519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592600159226441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554018723554321,0.0,0.2140466787861471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080053980239233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678385650311888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492663932419217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699276184668268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41350421825242795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18592174576485504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664502622068866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32145892653532826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609168723275348,0.0,0.16982940082833448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512477226572138
EDAnonymous,skinnyasanant,2019/03/24,"For fucks sake, can someone give me some cake? Im so tired od restricting, i wanna scream. I'm mentaly exhausted and i'm worthless and i just want to die, because death is the only thing i deserve.  I just wanted to get it off my chest. Thank you very much, have a good night.",-0.2669736842105266,2.0186700877193005,1.4729605263157914,97.19259868421057,93.73684210526315,4.253508771929825,19.40570175438597,5.985473137389443,-0.10826140350877188,213,7,47,2,8,69,47,57,0.363,0.5379999999999999,0.099,-0.9620000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,0,3,4,1,0,0,9,11,3,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,2,5,11,2,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,1,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060826542801694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29046446840002704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587385068360131,0.14622233313039776,0.26848012817355804,0.0,0.2347445823607825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30231136669989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057391980485652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626422859922917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128563802860539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371358770801287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576698826577229,0.0,0.0,0.18593549285476135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216733748098943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23092491779641186,0.3301532396422941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pixelatedmilkshakeee,2019/03/24,I am currently binging on snacks AMA I’m watching a movie with my friends and I can’t stop gorging on movie snacks.,-0.17875000000000085,2.0524052916666697,1.0083333333333364,98.52000000000002,100.25,4.066666666666666,26.83333333333333,5.985473137389443,0.9115333333333338,93,5,20,1,4,29,19,24,0.099,0.762,0.139,0.2263,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6786897419233332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7344251045600494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,foxlatte,2019/03/24,I'm so stereotypical I hate that my ED is so stereotypical. Hahahhaah it's the only thing in my life I can control :-) I'm having to travel with my grandma to see family I hate and that doesn't give a shit about me. Which means I have to ask my boss for time off which always goes poorly because my job HATES giving time off. And my mom is trying to plan a trip to Mexico to see family. I DONT HAVE THE FUCKING MONEY FOR THIS AND I DONT WANT TO GO ANYWHERE. I'm about to start crying in the car right now I hate this. I'm 23 years old and have no control over my fucking life.,-0.2798924731182808,1.8634221935483881,2.288838709677417,93.37659139784948,89.16129032258064,5.242150537634409,16.331182795698926,6.742157984588678,-0.2003939784946236,448,10,102,6,15,154,71,124,0.174,0.768,0.059000000000000004,-0.9433,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,5,7,7,0,5,0,10,5,1,3,0,10,29,6,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,5,0,2,1,1,2,4,4,7,0,0,0,2,15,0,18,29,0,16,0,0,2,2,4,6,3,0,6,64,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188170109245343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570218486766105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196572163521143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016172121244778,0.0,0.0,0.14769827311074674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3151728279916008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25351431795497137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486126727146036,0.0,0.2579730518360447,0.07641685987817766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5310066460326903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334310526031385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899465049710609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646663285690067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574782221098835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109341587832192,0.0,0.0,0.10226308069562202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482832057302303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142948245138916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802151648437436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095171658464655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893294167853164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15680970854301662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128968493972273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930814040454921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658799386816593
EDAnonymous,cerynitis_,2019/03/24,"“What’s your hobbies” Today in French class we were talking about hobbies and what we do in our free time, and it was really difficult for me to legit think of something I like to do. Because most of time I’m either thinking about food, eating, planning what to eat, watching food related videos, hating myself, or comparing myself to others. 

This ed has taken up my life. ",10.018666666666668,7.626543914285718,9.524285714285714,68.33738095238097,59.85714285714286,11.61904761904762,39.04761904761904,9.725611199111238,3.881190476190476,294,11,49,4,3,95,54,70,0.081,0.841,0.077,-0.0754,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,3,1,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,9,3,12,7,2,6,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,4,37,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501442088229866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4868379750190639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5753106406484861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348653184613779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16802745017962534,0.11622014402581207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523972536480244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831379359968112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912055005935885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048582686081814,0.0,0.0,0.2774290108039373,0.0,0.22549017032371846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,croutonsatan,2019/03/24,being helpful burns calories i feel like i'm so much nicer now that i care too much about my weight. want me to run upstairs to grab something? sure! carrying something heavy? let me get it! i've learned to enjoy helping people all because i wanna be skinny can anyone relate ,1.4334433962264157,4.1401201509434,2.3560141509433983,89.97100235849057,92.77358490566036,3.4047169811320765,23.60613207547169,5.148860815047168,0.4557188679245288,220,9,38,1,8,69,44,53,0.0,0.649,0.35100000000000003,0.9619,0,0,2,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,6,9,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,4,5,6,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18855027762337756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438025907810508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27493304024987936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634656100240794,0.19264284444941587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088452832386994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614904865144327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757423086585161,0.0,0.1317406728849659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964574939309002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186946045620702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151898988117804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541483066600281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590505446255003,0.0,0.0,0.3283692898147313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffee_til_wine,2019/03/24,Quick hyperbolic rant about my impending trip to Mouse Land. I've got hella anxiety about Disney world. Everyone keeps talking about all the amazing food and snacks. I'm going to be surrounded by people gorging themselves on Mickey shaped calorie bombs. I have dinner in the castle scheduled and I wish I could just be a normal fucking person without an eating disorder so I could enjoy a nice dinner. Instead I'll pick at everything so it looks like I'm eating while trying to calculate how many calories I've consumed just by looking at some kids cotton candy. At least I'll be burning a few extra by walking around. Maybe I'll take a second glance at that cotton candy 😂😭,4.552869318181821,6.829651218750005,5.449744318181821,76.71627840909092,71.96875,7.154545454545455,28.82386363636364,8.00094639256281,2.3121625000000003,548,22,86,8,11,179,91,128,0.035,0.8220000000000001,0.14300000000000002,0.9283,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,11,5,1,0,7,0,6,7,0,2,1,15,16,6,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,6,1,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,3,5,4,17,10,5,17,0,0,3,1,3,11,1,1,4,53,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876602004692127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731160417111363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310530684408294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22287497711497464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3979746997070528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582067450472806,0.1747735747792626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23514915762414354,0.0,0.0,0.17978075873365254,0.0,0.0,0.11051955557159338,0.0,0.15553229016560244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285038838660371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500630454469333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32660506180009113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19715808395142986,0.1953673168537731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19053547078128374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481829532763387,0.16980028143253634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14621429166244407,0.15630447004075704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320297042287933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22362639649589486,0.18745836299807803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3113912125,2019/03/24,"Free Monster Zero Yes, weird post but I would like to give my Monster Zeros away instead of throwing them in the trash. If anyone’s willing to take them away from me, I would be very delighted. 

I honestly do not like their taste and I made a stupid mistake of buying a whole pack of 24 cans. 

Local to 08083. 

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EDAnonymous,hannahruthkins,2019/03/24,"What are some foods with very very low calories, like Shirataki noodles Any suggestions? Shirataki noodles and broth are the only things I really know about. ",8.438846153846157,11.096358269230768,6.726153846153848,69.99384615384618,62.46153846153847,11.353846153846154,36.07692307692308,11.20814326018867,5.0047538461538466,129,6,18,4,2,38,22,26,0.094,0.809,0.09699999999999999,0.0238,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26432834032204705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4700158247205799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21361855553720108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989847565434687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29562275966137097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24901024176360695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582340423286952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414340165120552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,classicjunkie,2019/03/24,"im disappointed in myself for some context I'm 16 and a trans male

my gender dysphoria has been fucking me up a lot recently which I can usually handle except it's been playing into my eating disorder. well it was especially bad today and that coupled with the fact that my current boyfriend is losing a lot of weight due to unrelated issues has left me in a permanent state of self hatred and comparison and the whole nine yards. but today it peaked while I was eating cheez its and I purged for the first time in months. I just thought I was okay and beyond those coping mechanisms but apparently not. it seems I'll always be stuck in this headspace and I just feel hopeless.
sorry for the rant, I just needed to tell someone bc I don't see my therapist until Friday. I'm comforting myself with a walk and a white monster even though it's 8 pm because fuck my sleep I don't have to do shit tomorrow. goodnight my fellow fucked up people.",4.3735752895752915,5.924524291891896,5.509517374517376,79.09817567567569,70.94594594594594,8.312741312741313,27.808880308880312,8.841846274778883,2.234752895752896,754,27,139,14,14,250,121,185,0.196,0.758,0.046,-0.9829,2,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,2,7,12,4,0,10,1,14,8,2,0,1,26,25,13,0,1,7,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,11,11,3,0,3,2,0,1,3,8,1,2,7,4,19,4,20,17,4,23,0,3,2,3,4,9,4,4,12,98,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164747356920445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206824582767935,0.08912023019707825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617640109226767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16755423228782973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991917089238571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965616269436996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739215096220339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435494832586046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4054698387365549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791766315597955,0.15259150667026944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588432828107737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635568562965199,0.0,0.2485826324614624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669291435562425,0.0,0.0,0.10840309647959584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135447354559864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443517316260929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649994479226453,0.13309210263433802,0.15251517731339387,0.0,0.15006894438117324,0.0,0.0,0.14630241091106205,0.0,0.12387209904718136,0.0,0.0,0.16365538110112596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277824727024778,0.0,0.0,0.1697457869478066,0.0,0.0,0.1436376425146046,0.11606395212733298,0.0852485468540482,0.0,0.2771549996774311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610151529517952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802835244367782,0.13144850708248634,0.0,0.0,0.16322353893413855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xxdaintyfairy,2019/05/16,Coach? I need an ana coach;; if anyone is available and willing please tell me!,1.4740000000000002,4.165619400000004,1.495000000000001,97.7025,88.33333333333334,3.0,20.833333333333336,3.1291,-0.5076666666666667,61,2,12,0,2,18,14,15,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.3802,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031853937037484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275556629339728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6329544780616113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5039903988160862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plshelpsomeone,2019/05/16,"anyone know of a strict ED discord/snapchat group? hey all, it's been awhile since I've been on this account so idk if anyone remembers me. I know this sub has a discord but it's not what I'm really looking for. message me if you know of one.",-0.5060989010989019,1.7003638846153883,1.6032967032967065,96.79884615384618,92.84615384615385,4.509890109890111,20.89010989010989,6.1826913282559595,0.15321098901098915,190,7,43,2,7,63,38,52,0.073,0.927,0.0,-0.3145,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,8,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,4,0,4,6,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878765810215337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5751901329306844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929632649677775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23640360721542386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234953071701804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952021471872376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885891943167304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,louisagoth,2019/05/16,"ED from your mum? How do you deal with it? My mum definitely has an ED and I’m pretty sure living with her all my life has led to my disordered eating and anxiety about my weight. She has always remained underweight  and has been smaller than me since I was a teenager and hit puberty. (She would take my clothes when I grew too big for them.) She rarely eats, is very conscious of what she does eat and is very restrictive. When I’m home with her my anxiety goes crazy and I try so hard to match her eating habits and I constantly compare myself and feel so guilty about eating. It makes it impossible for me to put food out my mind when I’m around her, which also makes me more likely to binge. (Plus she doesn’t eat herself but buys the rest of us loads of snacks and feeds us while she starves!) shes never commented on me losing/gaining weight because while I’m bigger than her no one will notice it as a problem... anyone else struggle with similar situation?",3.7026876090750456,5.302637942408381,4.326785340314139,86.72113787085517,72.717277486911,7.606422338568938,25.298778359511342,8.238735603445708,1.4457934380453747,761,24,155,12,15,242,120,191,0.078,0.892,0.03,-0.7977,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,2,1,0,11,4,0,1,4,0,13,12,0,4,3,30,22,21,0,2,1,2,4,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,16,11,1,2,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,2,4,34,2,23,17,3,15,0,0,0,0,22,5,0,0,8,105,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823891968264214,0.09181178319259496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16881971372544335,0.0,0.0,0.0771523473471955,0.1130564482357543,0.0,0.0982260619519772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726228677715575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923842416665953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137557743324648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12645928761570518,0.0,0.09655934491909098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6774326709821564,0.0921749757732638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0557912582609165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342365904648876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884303595911803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106800937739841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793645950280652,0.053906588111615424,0.0,0.097432309482364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14730571635525552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141202331258493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510106960394116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256229089516279,0.0,0.0,0.07476929177385264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225552624521737,0.0,0.10558055190082244,0.0,0.11092225348169783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127445188679366,0.12402686957455425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535140584105352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039942167165758,0.0,0.0829620058842635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491366934508886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654510535426013,0.0,0.0,0.18208423848452826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687289759025733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838242486313969,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pazolunu,2019/05/16,"Suggest names for a new community forum Hello,

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I have years of experience as a webmaster , and I plan on opening a website similar to MPA that will have better features (e.g the ability to post anonymously through Tor). 

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Suggest some domain names below.",5.134202898550721,8.7166577826087,5.869565217391307,66.63594202898551,79.86956521739131,8.284057971014493,38.10144927536232,8.841846274778883,4.887736231884059,222,14,28,6,6,72,38,46,0.0,0.882,0.11800000000000001,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,8,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4784749396642692,0.5365940448275638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528027893584826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21598545621125054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21325069519345524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114660388592484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5365940448275638,0.14218841372314867
EDAnonymous,cheezypussy,2019/05/16,"Either I eat 0 calories or 6000 calories a day there's no in between :) this is so frustrating, I just want to eat like a normal person.",-0.2674999999999983,2.021882964285716,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,94.35714285714286,4.228571428571429,21.285714285714285,5.985473137389443,0.3868285714285715,105,4,21,1,4,36,24,28,0.192,0.581,0.228,0.0316,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452840073320566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7783533969154208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18581201248515586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726466306140992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33209303492783554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22433088534115808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chloeisit,2019/05/16,"DAE just wing it? Idk if this has anything to do with age, or just onset age of one's ED. As a child my restrictions had zero nutritional reasoning behind them. Whatever ""made me feel bad"" I refused to eat.

I'm 16, relapsed about a year ago, and I can't say it's much different now. I obviously know a lot more about nutrition than I did at 10 but my knowledge is still pretty basic. Probably comparable to your average 16 yo without an ED.

I don't read medical papers, I don't research micros and macros. I find a plan that looks good, do the math, try to stick to it. The only time I might read a few articles or watch a video about nutrition is if I hit plateau.

Am I doing this wrong? Lol should I 

lot of people educate themselves about nutrition, theyll say stuff like I have years of experience.

I dont know what it is.",1.4608840932822815,3.5942281479289946,3.787650539505744,85.6133449356074,81.1301775147929,7.763452836756005,24.14235990254089,8.671277953709913,1.8295315697876784,643,24,136,16,17,222,114,169,0.063,0.84,0.09699999999999999,0.8163,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,2,1,8,4,0,0,9,1,18,2,0,2,1,25,25,8,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,0,1,9,3,1,2,6,3,0,0,5,2,0,2,3,5,19,2,18,18,5,9,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,7,9,90,28,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009319076745964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393370720257163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137628319331302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690480820093069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984434011656905,0.0,0.0,0.1732580470994167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562880390976498,0.0,0.0,0.0856139793567193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547566775833618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201874361330585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610920916708024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272187553461352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218731799262987,0.0,0.0,0.2879019716022003,0.0,0.16021598768779624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057348100237218,0.0,0.179623230930177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447069970696698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473655196135712,0.12877654254802393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173861282083119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17226071980112073,0.1825570901636284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387344098113421,0.0,0.0,0.17409058332690425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693023214528659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522027609110815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383247504769616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987326607352907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495810527972085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16321977205791194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512635303481764,0.0,0.21807483992586715
EDAnonymous,neigdnfkubf,2019/05/16,"“Wow you look skinny” Yeah but do you remember the last time  I’ve eaten? 

Hahahahahahahah fuck

Being congratulated for relapsing 


I’m not ok",2.3592000000000013,4.85866652,6.184000000000001,59.63200000000002,103.8,8.4,21.0,8.238735603445708,2.7778,113,4,18,4,5,42,23,25,0.235,0.632,0.133,-0.6227,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,3,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,2,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4713104635818982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41556260581446985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42811139570627854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5775145318545496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972738904279124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unpaintedceiling,2019/05/16,"gatekeeping fun times (tw: weight mention) So I just got to my lowest weight in years (140 lbs) and as soon as I was done patting myself on the back for cutting back on the binging over the past year or so, a post on Tumblr was like: ""Join a group chat! Reblog if your starting weight is 140 lbs or below!"" 

Gee thanks, unfollowing all ED-related content on that platform immediately.",3.8804566210045657,5.770044191780817,4.672808219178084,83.2310388127854,72.83561643835617,7.0584474885844735,27.235159817351605,7.793537801064563,1.6206365296803655,298,11,57,4,6,96,57,73,0.053,0.799,0.14800000000000002,0.8118,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,6,4,1,0,5,0,4,3,0,0,1,6,7,8,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,5,3,11,3,1,17,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,3,9,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219853615042151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142583007150915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674523926893084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228765357752352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19986744806335893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051867744142465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819323209808485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192759855323164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208538712172658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7648691196088394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696549556710339
EDAnonymous,lunareffectt,2019/05/16,"Thanks, aunt. Just in the beginning of last week I was so happy, I thought I had made some real mental progress. I was doing the dreaded activity of trying on clothes at the store (can’t even count how many times I’ve cried in those damned fitting rooms). I was trying on a dress that didn’t quite look as I was expecting it to, but I was taking it fairly well. I was positively surprised at my reaction, I even told my mom that I’m happy I’m registering the fact that this dress is just not cut properly for the shape of my body and that it’s not my fault. 

Well then comes Sunday and I’m visiting my grandmother. My aunt is there also. Well, the aunt starts suddenly explaining about her youngest daughter, my cousin. She explains how this younger daughter has started to get the exact same body type as me. “Tall and well…” hinting at the fact that I’m fat since her next sentence was explaining how her oldest daughter had always been rather lean and tiny. Thanks a fucking lot. First of all it makes me furious to know that my young cousin might be experiencing these sort of comments at home straight from her own mother and secondly, how can you just say things like that to ANYONE? 

I hadn’t restricted/binged for WEEKS either and I thought to myself that I’m not gonna let this affect me, I’m better than that but guess fucking what. My mental illness, my eating disorder, is a fucking beast and here I am. Restricting and binging. I’m furious and I’m so tired of this. People told me not to care about her comments, I don’t CARE but it’s not something I can just switch off in my brain. It’s subconscious, no matter how hard I try “not to care”, I still do. 

Sorry if this is confusing or boring or too long, I just needed to vent and I don’t wanna complain to my family or friends cause no one truly gets it unless they’re in the same state of mind.",2.9312903225806437,4.809918459677419,3.8523521505376337,88.14852822580644,75.42473118279571,7.015591397849463,24.528225806451612,7.865858978985527,1.2407161290322586,1465,48,301,22,32,470,195,372,0.147,0.7140000000000001,0.14,-0.2139,0,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,0,4,25,26,7,2,12,0,28,10,4,9,4,66,65,29,0,5,21,10,1,1,1,2,3,1,2,0,25,11,2,1,6,0,1,2,13,12,3,3,17,4,42,14,37,44,7,35,0,0,1,3,28,16,4,10,17,203,67,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959383547586311,0.08281665270222632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959345449168408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802589865805897,0.0,0.22111003628942652,0.0,0.11110802025148127,0.0,0.0,0.30443137394539765,0.10224438052348764,0.0,0.08573599164458848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932866116169862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406961654879935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101843692771953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147680734049805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382770828524163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465988043267701,0.0,0.0,0.07689637067587812,0.2760407087021806,0.10400028187785586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964314477678727,0.0,0.0,0.21190235384398876,0.0891590283557435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983636705870208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05469889981377688,0.08112995932472579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177582367388187,0.0,0.04862516586391374,0.0,0.0,0.0880806196659441,0.0835798496643573,0.0,0.0,0.08461656019783435,0.0,0.0941773735788914,0.06643682285777558,0.1009074563997994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20060498118811124,0.10558524381301368,0.10049658682889924,0.11656793828922188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07379998391737529,0.0,0.0,0.10585092565192288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744387544066355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06900133631355385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058620478608854,0.0,0.11328654621610575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914998277996795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233196567632213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766227970930923,0.0,0.11141530902236133,0.1408952153784131,0.0,0.07948451737343776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483391989440474,0.0,0.0,0.1832670827645706,0.0,0.0,0.06612308548909772,0.0,0.0,0.15803086957015905,0.05803654684340642,0.11439470611851253,0.0,0.1902097163349023,0.0,0.20272232346649488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15967338411102786,0.0,0.35795647997846386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apinkphoenix,2019/05/16,"I'm scared you guys... It's been like, 5-6 days since I last pooped. Sure, I've only ate during two of those days but I ate A LOT. And I can feel it. It's like a monster lurking beneath the surface. I'm scared that my body is going to give me a countdown without warning and the apocalypse will begin whether I'm ready or not. Jfc

At least I'll be 50kgs lighter when it happens 🙃

Anyway thanks for your time. Means a lot to me",-0.06709677419355131,1.881755462365593,1.7402258064516154,99.15033870967743,85.7741935483871,4.150107526881721,21.12795698924732,4.935628992294339,-0.3556313978494625,330,11,79,1,10,108,68,93,0.08199999999999999,0.74,0.177,0.8296,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,2,6,0,5,4,2,0,1,12,17,6,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,1,8,4,7,12,3,10,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,8,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23901452068744294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775443323328824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880058557934362,0.15372338055080606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064185789559932,0.12229075488363635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21306029189431752,0.1902814105848176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17539898836621345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102504419491432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658736965052487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23439218944469856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365275091034098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43086192090363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799766707669948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20280294849623168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981072170212224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547216452873838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21019787782446595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20742414861988376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whackamoleh,2019/05/16,changed the batteries in my scale.... and it shot up five pounds from the last reading cue me eating <1k and forcing my step count to over 20k until it reads an acceptable amount.  also like i've been bloated af for like 3 weeks am not thriving in any way,1.4752941176470602,4.007161137254903,2.0700980392156865,95.36044117647059,84.68627450980392,4.968627450980391,22.225490196078432,6.42735559955562,0.3922784313725485,202,7,42,2,6,62,45,51,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,3,8,1,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,5,23,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508523878637952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213315371903235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331835293746478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209762837532628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556937217841662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30649958993205795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6275362897182591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489871692201092,0.2516177882562956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thotmija,2019/03/21,"excersize ideas? sorry if this doesnt make sense im kinda in a rush, but basically ive been around family alot lately and i cant restrict as much as id like so my intake is around 500-700 everyday but im going to the gym every night at about 6 or 7 and burning about 300-500 cals so that my net is low at least..but literally the only exercises i do are speed walking on the treadmill (no incline) and this rope pully machine idk what the real name for it is but you pull a weighted rope rly fast and it can burn hella cals fast too! idk what else to do i feel like im missing out on different ways to burn but i dont know what else to try, im not very strong- i dont like working against things, and running makes me anxious because i feel like i look stupid when i do it, and im scared of getting my legs too muscly bc i want them to be thin...does anyone know any machines that are good for burning lots of cals pretty fast? i can usually only be there an hour tops, dont exclude any suggestions, if running works better than i think ill suck it up and do it lol, but pls help im feeling stuck :(",1.264249547920432,2.864087468354434,3.3000361663652815,91.50405063291142,79.37974683544303,6.033273056057867,23.100060277275468,6.868970318607317,0.5885959011452679,858,28,195,9,21,291,141,237,0.146,0.6759999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.85,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,5,10,12,2,1,8,1,20,4,1,2,0,35,35,20,0,3,9,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,13,10,1,1,7,2,0,6,7,5,0,0,2,5,18,7,24,31,3,28,0,2,1,0,5,11,1,6,14,107,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483921914995645,0.0,0.0,0.11200165866219496,0.0,0.06932203153687527,0.0,0.0,0.1765138819104392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06043572911949555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768258692439118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358175074094653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34857924651290634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656399784885398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353097713467465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346176878688316,0.0,0.1503867412059677,0.14165339353093598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05179733405130885,0.0,0.05634439069924599,0.08315517396670989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645244765029956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09763439229298293,0.0,0.0,0.11191866913584206,0.6425389000392021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897113487522364,0.0,0.11183591349291712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19374208716176344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325387806366479,0.0,0.0,0.08428654529970339,0.0,0.0,0.1323554223021604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07288039891462053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093037567738782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15080313381126215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008625323548546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284471487810635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925792195788542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109807757374904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586519739637957,0.06352586049492492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731056056549223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091903392350962,0.08180210814448546,0.05847621657980043,0.07869389621678839,0.0,0.12072761998127035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435236384564634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Summerr-,2019/03/21,"All I see are my flaws I went clothes shopping yesterday, (Usually a big trigger) and when I was trying on clothes, I decided to take some pictures to ask my friends what they thought. But, when I looked at the photos all I could think was “My thighs look huge; have my hips gotten wider? My cheeks are super puffy; are my biceps fatter?” And on and on those thoughts went. After staring at the photos for about ten minutes, I aggressively deleted them and just sat on the floor crying, hoping no one would walk in on me because the doors didn’t have locks.",3.7065939771547254,5.669565308411219,3.713956386292837,89.61076843198339,73.48598130841121,6.250882658359295,26.84215991692627,6.937597516519254,1.147401661474559,436,16,86,4,9,133,75,107,0.068,0.8190000000000001,0.11199999999999999,0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,1,4,4,1,0,5,0,10,4,4,1,2,17,23,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,4,1,1,3,2,1,0,2,9,4,16,3,13,12,3,19,0,0,4,0,4,11,0,2,5,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222041674797612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448910769292096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897727959992635,0.0,0.26108672533674593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18363548402327906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360756615247088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3991924719672572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106207096763686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940483463538074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787101651271967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522994836674394,0.0,0.3773920013267835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137307766668274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617773636975172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406742946536199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884519535247658,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HeartlessLoner,2019/03/21,"Studying with ED I have exams coming up in two months time and I'm finally sitting down to revise for them. Problem is, I've also started another one of my restriction phases.

What can I do to help myself focus on studying while restricting?
Any good low cal foods that help fight brain fog?",3.766964285714288,6.021854625000002,4.792285714285715,80.65271428571431,74.17857142857143,7.337142857142857,27.271428571428572,8.238735603445708,2.128532857142857,233,9,40,4,5,76,50,56,0.192,0.679,0.128,-0.4871,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,6,7,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,5,1,9,7,0,12,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22044737859747926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18746010333434612,0.2890563987166232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077307640617764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374590255200911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30197503685304083,0.0,0.0,0.33333245676021384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23121281186372106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695418226796935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22003135413401964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679619413312312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637719951821886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19511549293611669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607411495876279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692824233110737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snakessssssssss,2019/03/21,"FML THERE IS NO WINNING Currently in the cycle of

Restricting and losing but having no energy so can’t work out then getting super unflatteringly skinny fat. F’n wonderful.",5.864000000000001,9.071762733333333,7.583333333333332,58.50500000000002,71.66666666666666,10.666666666666668,30.0,10.504223727775694,4.654000000000001,142,6,18,5,3,49,29,30,0.18600000000000005,0.467,0.34700000000000003,0.882,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,14,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906767792756851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6224280450508664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6033520959285086,0.4050389944965137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheeseontheritz,2019/03/21,"Unusual weight gain even when dieting? I've been following an OMEOD (one meal every other day) diet for the past year now, and for some reason I have been suddenly gaining weight like crazy ever since January? I haven't made any drastic changes to my diet, eating the same types of foods, and I've actually been eating metrically less (1/2 to 3/4 times what I used to eat) but I've gained almost 15 lbs in two months. I went from around 125 to 139 lbs. I actually exercise more now than I did (5x a week, with an extra 8 hour catering shift on my feet lifting heavy trays the whole time). It's messing with me because I've always been able to maintain my weight no problem with OMEOD, and even then I'm fairly Paleo with what I eat (no wheat, corn, sugar, only big carbs are just brown rice and potatoes). This is a pretty sudden spike for me, and all this worry is destroying my self-image. Every time I eat now I get massively bloated to the point where I look pregnant, and I'm a dude. I have to wear baggy clothes because I'm so embarrassed. I can see all this fat in my face and my stomach and I have no idea where it's suddenly coming from. Should I change my fast to even more? I do 40/8, with a protein shake to break my fast and a meal later in the day.",5.800516953863259,5.123053256809342,6.3996359088382455,81.87642996108951,67.01556420233463,9.366203446359089,29.64118954974986,8.634040054169528,2.002835686492496,985,29,207,13,14,323,152,257,0.10800000000000001,0.8390000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9404,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,3,13,6,1,2,12,0,15,21,5,3,3,30,26,13,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,16,16,0,2,1,0,4,4,5,0,2,7,7,25,1,26,18,9,36,0,0,3,0,0,9,0,2,23,123,33,1,0.10727138143497912,0.0,0.2093627883954708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741679318818734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925838268510125,0.0,0.0,0.07294821786819577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549427233069124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307832769315959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22695779576125066,0.09240479664899083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13836233337118592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5488270176885868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125552072119312,0.0970331059104272,0.18076153087142804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297129802330045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056044869336783217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056407025391724,0.0,0.0,0.12109633252266665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05240737848235997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008094341760188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015027748272716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08562299323272475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07268986426551405,0.08158471941487942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240267158950184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140612863072103,0.0,0.0,0.1091335596771328,0.0,0.10264422471676693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102928461385075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548140253110495,0.0,0.11190744585567156,0.0,0.0,0.0887359952348838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876524155050033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478855252061968,0.0,0.0,0.09264803161773356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604663167715876,0.39188293052816736,0.0,0.09944164529620776,0.0,0.11976466649027127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10893929492398956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907925261373478
EDAnonymous,namasteawayplz,2019/03/21,"DAE have a hard time focusing on literally anything other than food/calories at all times?? I'm supposed to be studying rn but in the past hour I have rechecked cronometer 2 times and then used my phone calc to rough estimate what I can do with my ramaining day's calories like 3 times which proceeded to me using my calc to figure out my overall week's deficit thus far and then to googling how many flights of stairs I can do to burn some more since I'm in a three floor building. This type of process happens everyday. 

CAN MY LIFE PLEASE START TO REVOLVE AROUND SOMETHING OTHER THAN FOOD BC MY STUDIES ARE SUFFERING AND MY HUNGRY ASS DONT EVEN CARE",7.111901012373451,6.87487170866142,6.2589426321709825,82.50346456692915,64.19685039370079,9.461867266591675,37.04049493813272,8.841846274778883,3.023997525309336,525,24,103,7,7,159,92,127,0.151,0.795,0.054000000000000006,-0.9345,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,10,3,1,4,1,14,17,7,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,11,2,18,16,3,22,0,1,0,1,1,9,1,1,14,59,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589271012474085,0.16864147311011385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931463727997404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217291756445052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22202188666904865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125123117811416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458142410724805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675208777929135,0.0,0.16970073786497855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18655991884936976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380684391038505,0.09255065558799984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206209536962726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18084160406460886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20794787402415596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15670645567601574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583991597681722,0.0,0.0,0.13408637606480556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.441855188603657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272301081820055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195707939371028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PerfectWillingness,2019/03/21,"No YoU DoNt HaVe BoDy DySmOrPhIa \- my body @ me

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Been reading all your posts about body dysmorphia and feeling sad and sympathetic but grateful I wasn't disordered *that* badly. 

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I'd been avoiding weighing myself for the longest time because I was convinced I was at my heaviest weight. This morning I finally mustered up the courage to do the deed... I'm 10 pounds lighter than I thought and actually at my high school weight. Now I'm just 7 pounds within my goal weight. And the messed up part is even though I'm walking around with the same body I thought was squishy and blobby a few days ago I just *feel* skinnier. I catch myself walking by in the mirror and I think I just look so much leaner and better. EVEN THOUGH NOTHING HAS CHANGED. That's literally crazy. And I know it's crazy but it still doesn't change how I see myself now. AND even though I'm super happy I am not, in fact, the adult-size rotund toddler I was picturing myself to be I STILL WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT. I essentially ""lost"" 10 pounds overnight and it's still not. good. enough.  


And the cherry (5.2 cal) on top is knowing I do in fact have some degree of body dysmorphia secretly pleases me... because it means I'm more disordered than I though and I'm hopeful that means I'll actually reach my goal weight. I'm dumb. 

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So yeah. Body dysmorphia. I guess I'm in the club now? Do we have jackets? I'll order mine a size down.",1.6355652620760532,4.310840881294968,2.4487214799588912,91.65357553956837,86.23021582733813,5.335416238437823,24.12990750256937,6.868970318607317,0.9617507502569378,1127,45,224,15,35,352,146,278,0.096,0.733,0.171,0.9722,0,1,0,0,0,0,53.0,1,2,0,7,21,14,1,1,11,1,20,12,6,1,3,42,43,21,0,2,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,15,6,1,10,2,0,3,6,7,0,0,10,9,34,7,22,32,8,29,0,3,2,0,4,14,1,3,10,139,42,4,0.0,0.0,0.14078040757167753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394046319362963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344642326351328,0.26294399252206435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421256939930167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602270162007509,0.08794171672575958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06379469010657783,0.0,0.4807328227116055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15261169968984625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651902526195352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533851853247927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453789891049743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453140192857216,0.0,0.14292706422238968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294398190787596,0.0,0.0,0.07901682983211389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06050070760958742,0.0,0.0,0.07946127844166477,0.0,0.0,0.07678561197565252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621117682840747,0.0,0.0716431245859106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928347034196784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057252115316954,0.08069700164136173,0.07874034933737592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15714529048865322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053025151591514455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921238009494349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811167927251775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917902426940167,0.0,0.0,0.06908229796989916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215129131512081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300120362204793,0.057479682900459114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281357752926935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04621912658122192,0.2834763968010801,0.11452913864206628,0.042060615991132914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042545187661152,0.0,0.0,0.4391853259673491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26294399252206435,0.0
EDAnonymous,luckycharmsinahoe,2019/03/21,"Anyone else’s bones make a cracking sound ?? For a while i’ve noticed that my bones will make a cracking sound when i’m in bed moving around or like just randomly when i’m stood  up and stretching.

Does this happen to anyone else or is it just me ? ",5.0788235294117685,4.940551000000003,5.153725490196081,88.39176470588238,68.41176470588235,7.584313725490197,26.803921568627448,6.42735559955562,0.925439215686274,195,5,42,1,3,61,37,51,0.0,0.935,0.065,0.466,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,2,2,2,2,0,9,8,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,5,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,4,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3525606519216999,0.5166304910280651,0.0,0.22443027093944398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22062209877172625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212090839342435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222938968082474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316761900956302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365691464725714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679517429105205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28702752540358195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unicorn_pianos,2019/03/21,"Really triggered myself tonight. TW: I’ve been in recovery for almost a year in April from AN. I’m doing amazing and I’m really healthy and happy and I have built back a great relationship with food and my diet is balanced. I feel normal most of the time. I haven’t worked out (besides yoga) since I was really sick and was doing it obsessively. I’ve recently been trying to ease back into exercise in moderation because I want to get stronger. I’ve been doing yoga 3x maximum per week, the past few weeks. Tonight my friend was teaching a class at a gym and it’s bring your friends and family week, so I went and took a cardio CrossFit class where all of the workouts were in one minute increments. I didn’t push myself and took breaks when I didn’t feel well, but from the start of the class, it sent me into an anorexic OCD rabbit hole and my ruminating thoughts consumed me the entire time. It brought everything back and I couldn’t enjoy myself. When I got home I couldn’t stop crying, now I feel numb. I just want to get stronger but I can’t because my ED gets in the way. I don’t want it to win so I’m thinking of going back tomorrow so I can get more comfortable with working out, but I also don’t want to think and feel what I did tonight. I’m angry and discouraged. I just want to be ready. I just want to be normal. Thanks for the rant. Hope you are all hanging in there",2.198396072013093,4.198374404255322,3.6201418439716337,88.42615384615387,78.00709219858156,6.749809056192036,23.61211129296236,7.748469712250963,1.128476923076923,1090,36,227,17,26,358,145,282,0.085,0.7240000000000001,0.192,0.9755,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,3,18,14,0,1,15,0,25,6,0,1,2,50,57,22,0,11,6,0,4,0,2,0,4,0,1,0,6,19,2,2,7,5,0,9,8,3,1,1,17,4,31,11,28,36,5,45,0,1,0,0,6,12,0,3,22,144,37,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262854233802885,0.0,0.0,0.08994707682923496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459486368734516,0.0,0.1371287431490391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354968731379715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108624403473246,0.0,0.1060324337354363,0.0,0.22748513292061576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360065167870925,0.0,0.17379747362897233,0.0,0.23505642838800894,0.0,0.06392274563949615,0.0,0.08995739235074794,0.12400527016028218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973287370528175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11282267432512368,0.1117141215286082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22040534584241744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762166995679251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737114086472103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161651619711758,0.0,0.1110565552035708,0.12075721194094312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304137183382516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961114505128264,0.0,0.0,0.09403503534657016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355285855456407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414025501216554,0.0,0.08929344013663243,0.1311714081025887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24993011651388625,0.0763638720462273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3980478204131889,0.08927827329072513,0.2706645696055299,0.0,0.10112949958263162,0.10426644870868146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376784489194476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243090485912045
EDAnonymous,ndjdjssjjs,2019/03/26,"Relapsing I’ve been attempting to recover for the past 4 weeks. Honestly, it’s been going pretty good. I’ve gained about 17 lbs but I know some of that’s water.

I also know that I shouldn’t weigh myself, but some days, I literally can’t NOT do it. My brother keeps the scale in the bathroom, and it’s so fucking tempting. I weighed myself today. I’ve actually lost weight.

I don’t know why losing weight seems to trigger me into relapsing much more than gaining does. When I see a higher number, I think, “oh, fuck it, you’re already fat, so why not just eat?” but when I see a lower number, I just... want to lose even more. Fuck. I don’t want to relapse. I’m getting better. It may just be my imagination, but I swear my hair’s even getting better. 

I’m trying to hold onto those things. More energy. Hair and nails.

What do you guys think about when you’re tempted to relapse? I’m so close to it, but I’m trying so hard to fight these thoughts. I can’t go back to that place again, but at the same time it’s all I want to do. I’m such a mess. ",0.05649650349650059,2.2441533909090907,2.245454545454546,94.0347202797203,87.81818181818181,5.020979020979021,18.46153846153846,6.490185161304077,-0.06195804195804123,806,22,181,9,26,271,116,220,0.151,0.7140000000000001,0.135,-0.8637,1,0,0,0,1,0,37.0,0,1,0,8,18,12,4,0,7,0,12,12,3,1,1,35,38,16,0,4,11,1,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,14,4,7,2,8,0,0,2,7,8,0,0,4,7,21,4,19,31,8,18,0,3,2,3,4,6,3,4,10,107,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.12761129493377746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443064074434686,0.10457560621557846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055298542157727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313084087430144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843349320424795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11443648751605745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380892938737504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274286065898753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626804045831215,0.13664239773023548,0.0,0.1486376236307399,0.10968250164410713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948147841338056,0.0,0.0,0.11714298455589935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162331446256684,0.0,0.0,0.2156010163281636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925932394814029,0.1427493799144542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612997114258008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483343029928208,0.0,0.0,0.1366253596016964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303868350114956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20841129511792014,0.11904682671502564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687685055664708,0.16758248382637844,0.0,0.1038156654172418,0.07625222521973496,0.0,0.1239533472187008,0.0,0.0,0.17756659790877186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139213407416406,0.0,0.1048946871329458,0.3184818633747545,0.0,0.0,0.2359966526101089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GeorgeKillsLenny,2019/03/26,"Yesterday sucked I stayed home from work since I was super sick, I honestly wish idve gone in instead. First, my mother comes by and for some random, unprovoked reason, decides to pull up pictures of me from 3 years ago when my e.d. was at its peak, I was suicidal, and just all around hated myself and my life, but hey, at least I was 80 pounds lighter so those are the pics she wants to show off. So she shows the pics to my boyfriends cousin, who looks at them and says ""wow, no way!"" And just looks back an forth from the pic and me over and over with this incredulous look on their face, like they couldnt believe I used to look so good. My mom says ""these are the pics I show people when they ask about you"" oh I'm sorry that you're so ashamed that I'm a fat piece of shit now??? So after that debacle, my boyfriend is going through his old pictures of me too and comes across some nudes and asks if he can show his cousin. I say no, absolutely not. He fucking waits until I fall asleep to show his cousin nudes from when we first met all the way until now, so they got to see the wonderful progression of my weight gain and body changes due to my pregnancy with my son (who is a year old now). When I got upset he thinks itll make it all better by saying ""well they think you used to be super hot"" THANKS??? like these are situations that my ED brain thinks up on it's own when I'm being ""dramatic"" but for it to actually happen is like a nightmare. What my mom did was shitty but what my boyfriend did crushed me. And now hes walking around upset at me because I wasnt cool with it and refuses to apologize. I slept on the couch with my son last night and hes just watching comedies like he really doesnt fucking care how much he hurt me. I got ahold of his phone and deleted every single nude he had saved, going back over 2 years. He's destroyed my trust.",5.4756277056277085,4.730237740259742,5.597402597402599,87.58562770562773,67.70129870129871,8.995670995670995,27.943722943722943,8.11559375814309,1.4211125541125535,1450,37,332,16,21,458,204,385,0.131,0.721,0.14800000000000002,0.8615,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,6,8,27,26,6,3,11,1,23,15,10,5,3,53,60,32,1,4,8,8,2,4,0,1,3,4,2,0,18,23,2,2,6,5,0,8,6,10,1,2,15,13,51,16,49,41,10,54,0,1,6,5,45,17,4,5,30,206,69,1,0.0,0.0,0.0946759421237628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600093858379397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273385150475867,0.18139817433113548,0.0,0.0,0.14920228860752635,0.0,0.059141502902335615,0.0,0.0,0.10930648923918446,0.0,0.08580487146634523,0.0,0.10776554703197123,0.0,0.10830459605521574,0.0,0.0,0.09891670258385647,0.0,0.10263258003347164,0.1671454845733643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174216806216507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650475659919196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938385475754512,0.0,0.0,0.11027556032230763,0.08137441268843658,0.2327833797039617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579303149745952,0.0,0.0,0.0957855627663103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731734380145994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386018052157248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908292716180736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852694974754324,0.1895931161437046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258840121807749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06476052085634547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272535041273977,0.0,0.0,0.07131967110730181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910451758027098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036089354963609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726032774047118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062152457418342126,0.0997510512512863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086116337365817,0.0,0.0,0.07731108647068477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995879711042372,0.08025460506652378,0.10905272208797884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860413146343506,0.0,0.10340868253154216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612235910914417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893214878822845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864963780980688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16758545769370053,0.0,0.0,0.057223953164093774,0.15401734567639927,0.0,0.11814224783152524,0.08723117350499637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156634700936936,0.0,0.10521229270861067,0.07063053486503182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874299642032918
EDAnonymous,vctrlcs,2019/03/26,"ready 2 die! ate a truly disgusting amount yesterday, promised myself i would heavy restrict today but ended up getting chipotle for lunch!!! 820 motherfucking calories!!!!!!!!! i feel so physically sick and completely out of control and horribly unattractive and i am.... panicking.

i feel SO ugly it’s actually unbearable i just want to leave my body forever. 

no point to this but thanks for reading lads",3.8256149732620313,7.08290541176471,4.694438502673798,72.41633689839574,90.47058823529413,8.355080213903744,32.652406417112296,8.575989854853784,4.225364705882353,320,18,46,10,11,103,57,68,0.423,0.46399999999999997,0.113,-0.9865,0,0,0,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,0,13,8,7,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,2,7,6,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,28,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.26743746070535623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044125424395469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28734071591755295,0.0,0.3073751969827222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844250923106975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427307631912321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27714017357489795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318205881630333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29018392981677543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25906989249429996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741284596168527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523123759828609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259771428879406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616443246555912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19468030932553373,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,imthrivingthanks,2019/03/26,"basically my professor said something about her ED that was too specific for me to handle I was doing well. I thought I was okay. I was eating regularly and I stopped counting calories and shit. then my fucking professor has to bring something up in class about her ED and mentioned specific fucking number about how many days she would go between eating and I know it was unintentional but like now I’m spiraling into this ED mindset again and I feel like I’m going into a full panic. 

no food for me today I guess. why would I ever eat again? ",2.855584415584417,5.458958904761907,4.427965367965367,80.31779220779221,79.0,6.865800865800866,27.640692640692638,8.00094639256281,2.1442380952380957,435,19,77,8,11,145,68,105,0.10400000000000001,0.794,0.102,-0.2967,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,10,8,3,1,1,1,9,7,1,1,1,17,21,8,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,7,4,1,3,0,0,3,1,4,1,0,7,2,16,4,12,12,1,16,0,0,0,2,5,5,3,1,10,57,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11283269139302768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370735922663309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825848303275636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846343784336995,0.1249892052328325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21155851179578952,0.0,0.0,0.32348956850615,0.0,0.0,0.1988640141201825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19273468989550568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615170665430932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709501543936571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773787805608166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20527416138901652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16642402458472824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17959068749222318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693806542438744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627175671094642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889619229058278,0.0,0.0,0.16583863216745978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730721538767406,0.0,0.15787134007727302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24856864627304665,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meowingkiwi,2019/03/26,"I wish I could come out So I’ve had my eating disorder for many years now, and ever since figuring out I’m ftm sometime ago, my eating disorder feeds off of that. 
If I could come out I feel like my eating disorder would get (somewhat) better, but I know it’s not as simple as that. Currently I’m relapsing from my latest “recovery attempt” and planning on getting past my lw because maybe someone will  finally realize that I’m not okay.
Sorry for the rant, but I needed to get this out somewhere.
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EDAnonymous,thatcrazygirl_,2019/03/26,"Triggered by seeing an old video of my boyfriend having sex with an ex and thinking it was me. (I know weird) So I stumbled upon a video of my boyfriend having sex with one of his exes I actually thought it was me because we looked so similar. The thing is apparently ""fat"". This makes me think since I was so convinced it was me I must be equally ""fat"". I swear to god I have like the opposite of body dysmorphia where I think I'm thinner than I actually am. Sometimes I think I look fine when I look in the mirror and sometimes I think I'm disgusting. I feel like this has just confirmed I'm definitely in the disgusting category. I don't want to eat until I lose at least 10lbs this is honestly the worst news I've ever received. I don't know if it would have been better to live in ignorance of how fat I've let myself get. I'm stupid. ",1.31711624919717,3.518564606936416,3.36873795761079,88.02885517019912,82.121387283237,6.619010918432884,24.640012845215157,7.793537801064563,1.3771800899165063,659,26,140,12,18,223,99,173,0.125,0.755,0.12,-0.2337,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,2,8,13,3,0,8,0,19,7,4,3,2,25,39,9,0,4,2,1,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,5,4,1,9,2,0,1,2,7,0,1,6,5,26,6,18,29,3,11,0,1,4,2,4,6,0,1,6,94,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.3081549343510717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624803057396088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964051447805592,0.0,0.1753797444525741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615604710866371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282017645479134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983372240445714,0.11279635697381522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249079582646808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735439825738183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614528064570645,0.0,0.15427375991227266,0.0,0.13941940352130766,0.0,0.39776247848828655,0.1766380682657221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539252953480517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567856823952526,0.0,0.10699007460875208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258175637948278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060790313191195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31231368992404795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104894830014084,0.5058463802979385,0.0,0.12534670061088454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312737288390917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216023697919944,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,archermary,2019/03/26,"Feel like a fraud for trying to accept my experience. Hello. 
Basically. I feel like a fraud or a fake for being open about my ED. My lowest weight was around 80lbs at 5”5 and that was around 5 years ago. My weight has been a pretty stable 115lbs since then and I fucking hate it but just can’t restrict like I used to. I’m hugely triggered by food, binging, seeing thin people, and any comments about my body at all. Hugely. Classic horrible binge and restrict cycle. Hate it. I feel like in order to recover I need to be HONEST with myself and people in my life about my ED but I feel like a fraud or a liar because I’m not thin anymore so they’re going to ignore me or think I’m lying. 

Any experience or advice with this. Please.",1.1264546899841008,3.5254866216216243,2.9539427662957074,89.39042130365662,84.81081081081079,4.833704292527822,18.16534181240064,6.2272716619740125,-0.05755214626391102,572,14,114,5,17,190,88,148,0.253,0.593,0.154,-0.9679,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,13,4,0,6,0,7,6,1,2,1,31,22,13,0,1,8,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,10,3,3,6,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,3,9,15,7,19,17,1,16,0,0,1,1,2,11,1,4,8,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495074199498588,0.1224182430743126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878268913796413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136959126911878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24587841678109865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418511468946445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15339912736815306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27017864132886593,0.0,0.0,0.2793121495215031,0.3946376540597355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669923307295504,0.0,0.0,0.12767218996057828,0.0,0.0,0.07848600591456899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726923798467853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754485159673322,0.33734597202509536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240017434478127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19148375090274944,0.0,0.0,0.15159347548117574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049841009404085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004865216309326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423861079485965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848957279787363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376154376848864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927496160799635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336339734206359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889325445942362
EDAnonymous,TeaCupGirl,2019/03/26,"""Oh, but you don't have to worry about that!"" I work as a Baker in a grocery store. My absolute pet peeve is these woman who are slightly overweight who come up to the counter and make some comment about how many calories are in something or how it's too tempting or how they'd blow up if they ate it.

If I make any kind of sympathetic comment about it, I get the whole ""you don't have to worry about that, you're so thin!"" 

Like NO WHY DO YOU THINK I'M THIN. KATHY. WHY.

I guess it's because despite being 25, people clock me at 17/18 and assume I'm still ""teenager skinny""
It just frustrates me so much because I go through all this fucking trouble and people think I don't work for it. But I'm suffering constantly ughh

/end rant",1.5622000000000007,3.701498820000001,2.7059999999999995,93.473,80.8,5.066666666666666,24.0,6.079149491110277,0.4692000000000003,573,21,122,4,15,183,96,150,0.14300000000000002,0.77,0.087,-0.8715,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,2,2,12,6,2,0,4,0,11,4,1,5,1,22,24,15,0,2,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,12,4,3,0,3,0,1,2,4,4,0,0,1,2,14,2,16,21,4,13,0,1,0,1,10,7,1,7,5,78,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961870514298438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323834564520674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419030430988665,0.0,0.20597751338389572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688204570390788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17621229658761225,0.09958383639292136,0.0,0.10832585668394587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20997414226012445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848695402205774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312052764737146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544621448508952,0.1932446998700508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011743759968706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26428458316726844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14673791170389525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522183023154308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24426542462512305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439847724159469,0.2128049381603664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27752706673854505,0.3871395562466113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toastysnivy,2019/03/26,"ex rebounded days after breaking up honestly id talk about it but i just want to forget. does anyone have any tips or tricks? i dont want to think about him anymore (just trying to get my grandmas earring back from him then bever want to talk to him again). Ive been trying to do better but hit lowest weight 17.5 bmi today, ive been struggling since we broke up little over 2 weeks ago. If u have any advice plz help me get this asshole out of my brainwaves 💙 ",1.317157894736841,3.5519656105263167,2.6476315789473723,93.00092105263157,82.36842105263158,4.642105263157895,18.973684210526315,5.6839178017228535,-0.23207368421052665,363,9,75,2,10,117,69,95,0.14300000000000002,0.711,0.146,-0.4019,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,6,5,1,1,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,13,15,5,0,4,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,11,2,15,12,0,14,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,2,8,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198196609787456,0.17979064356954008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758536377646949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011462421925232,0.14181878756965588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595862052516224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938075230777684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308042681008853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774920620797349,0.0,0.2377074311317992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211933636439651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594820214967854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328225933802466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777755373298436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120349812198965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260434182058341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996099962703786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225280045794385,0.0,0.0,0.2754074535439469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35889136338697025,0.0,0.1626926404729327,0.2469841738958027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slug_93,2019/03/26,Close to admission weight but can’t stop losing. I’m like a pound away from being admitted to the hospital but I can’t stop losing weight. Need some help :(,0.5100000000000016,2.9464580645161327,2.053806451612904,91.38070967741936,97.38709677419355,6.3509677419354835,15.877419354838713,7.554174236665415,0.6522851612903233,124,3,25,3,5,40,23,31,0.3720000000000001,0.435,0.192,-0.8338,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,6,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,4,5,1,4,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,13,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23596086704011165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683385353588646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12269773478401635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5619384881823813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18622231292950409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199402632882975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6116587558055743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ctown_struggles00,2019/03/26,"I don't have an ED, I have food-anxiety. But maybe someone here can relate I have OCD, and one of my obsessions is food poisoning. I will inspect food, worry whether it has gotten bad or not, and sometimes avoid cooking so I don't have to confront intrusive thoughts about dying from eating spoiled meat. 

One year it was so bad that I became underweight for the first time in my life. I saw a very expensive ERP therapist for a few weeks that helped me, and then one year later I gained back all the weight lost and then some. However I feel as if this victory was elusive, because I was living in a dorm with a great dining hall, so eating was very easy. 

I'm now a senior thats been living on my own off-campus, and to say thats its been a struggle is an understatement. I have not used my oven once, and my stove only a handful of times. My daily ritual usually involves forcing myself to get to campus to eat Lunch and then finding dinner somewhere I trust, either at a dining hall still open (which is usually a slope and fair walk away) or at a nearby store, or microwaving frozen chicken tenders. I waste a lot of time everyday doing these things and obviously my grades and psychological health have only suffered. Clearly I'm okay with eating food someone else has cooked, but if I cook myself then nope I must have contaminated the food somehow, because the dishes were dirty or something wasn't cooked thoroughly.  

I don't feel like a human being. I feel like a homeless person that thinks constantly about where and when they will eat next. 

Everybody has to eat everyday or they will die. Sometimes I wish I could just catch a break and just stop eating and stop worrying. Obviously this sounds crazy and I need to figure this out...",6.403626865671643,6.724474161194035,6.581902985074631,77.70718283582092,65.59701492537313,9.565671641791043,31.376865671641788,9.3871,2.700346268656717,1384,49,257,24,20,444,188,335,0.136,0.8,0.064,-0.9767,1,1,1,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,2,3,14,15,2,3,20,1,32,26,1,1,5,55,46,33,2,6,15,0,5,2,0,4,4,2,3,2,14,18,21,3,7,4,2,2,7,9,0,4,12,8,32,6,25,28,6,39,1,2,1,0,7,11,0,10,27,176,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983222555488123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348306744736828,0.06014046122942545,0.13060807291399446,0.09535503229991199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451975343532335,0.0,0.062446188804972325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16234412029672368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5602152424777094,0.06533637357010214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186395264365866,0.11174982177204593,0.0,0.0,0.07148466126421438,0.06652737592824946,0.4728733562130153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0408627192347267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622938028857649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313605939508058,0.0,0.0,0.05242408244611095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055243688323089415,0.07642119673378288,0.0,0.1381258571913619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537800754772548,0.06649333404756233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857480736770447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05799345863090704,0.0,0.0,0.08317971023829362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329358887310892,0.15899611596075028,0.11896801697443375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829199796263609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06219759149441189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325381227088563,0.06021167996970848,0.1547080070772337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246047526588695,0.13077803568942573,0.0,0.08176451884735515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081055424446564,0.05196080296105708,0.05011530900368685,0.0,0.062091861070619814,0.13681873219154056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755034936196755,0.17227968415859254,0.12906674210706393,0.0,0.0,0.0627372209610988,0.09524155884711548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994033039902234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588568543306939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073236454660353
EDAnonymous,NorthofBoston,2019/03/26,"Guys, I’ve had a great few days and I’m so hopeful I got my medicine switched (Paxil to Zoloft) and it’s only been a few days but the INCESSANT HUNGER HAS STOPPED.
The new psych I spoke to said I should never have been prescribed Paxil for my PTSD as a first ever med at my age (22 YO newlywed at the time) due to its negative effects on weight and libido.
(Also, the chick who prescribed the Paxil to me asked my about my belief in God and tried to show me her bible at the end of our one and only session. Irrelevant to ED stuff but still unprofessional IMO)
But guys, I feel so much better. I’m not constantly thinking about food. I’m not trying to hide how much I eat because it hasn’t been an inhuman amount lately. I have so much more energy. I don’t feel guilty and ashamed all the time. I feel like I can actually think and feel appropriately for the first time in a long time.
I’m excited.",2.24925,3.98372990810811,3.7809966216216218,88.54879222972973,76.94594594594595,7.003378378378378,22.91385135135135,7.865858978985527,0.9590067567567568,703,21,154,11,16,233,110,185,0.12300000000000001,0.757,0.12,-0.5717,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,4,9,6,0,1,13,0,11,5,0,2,3,27,26,16,0,2,5,0,5,1,0,1,1,2,0,3,5,7,4,1,8,1,0,0,6,1,0,3,7,7,18,5,19,18,8,25,1,0,0,0,9,6,0,1,20,97,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.13424533175869235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001210321987548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860636792856536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385943144302735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166663650892084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14866081627445715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774383832836215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14076515818764654,0.0,0.0,0.12184333393947352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443702717520197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27823158690706656,0.0982777341859498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340284633617472,0.16634629485251068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002471988578014,0.15166785916323972,0.0,0.2724254782498773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663485131435033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15518131835365373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672081793033663,0.0,0.0,0.12174227016989173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15280567891843405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033822329289762,0.0,0.1060999804515088,0.13286285209527054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321880949909388,0.2092514683861032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080820260455966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308575090130865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986100716707294,0.11501198682055608,0.0,0.0,0.15748104904088958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176294474167765,0.0,0.0,0.32086517975619555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679762522506815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675192757430193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dontcareifithurts__,2019/03/26,"Temporarily moving in with my in-laws We sold our place and bought a bigger home that requires some renovations, and I'm excited to move into it when it's ready. But it won't be ready for probably a month and a half, and in the meantime my husband, baby, and I have to move in with my husband's parents. 

They do family dinners EVERY NIGHT and they make so.much.fatty.food. 

Most of it is delicious, i'll admit. But they put heaping portions on my plate, they push me to have seconds, and they basically don't take no for an answer. I feel like an asshole every time I leave a plate half full and they act like I'll die if I don't overeat (lol)

They also go out to restaurants a lot, and buy snack foods galore. Chips! Ice cream sandwiches! Chocolate covered nuts! Danishes! Etc. 

Nobody else in my real life understands why this is a problem, why it gives me unbelievable amounts of anxiety, why I have a really hard time with the idea of dealing with this for over a month. Along with my ED, I am a huge introvert amd just generally like peace and quiet and my own space. They're loud, opinionated, pushy and in your face people. They stress me out so bad. 

Send prayers lol. 

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EDAnonymous,WithoutSymbols,2019/03/26,"Weird undefined eating disorder I feel so ashamed just typing this. I’ve never admitted this to anyone and I feel so fucked up.I’m a 26 year old woman who had been overweight all of my life up until four years ago when I decided to make a change. I counted calories, started exercising and lost  25 kg (about 55 lbs). Now my BMI is in the normal range - but ever since, I’ve obsessed over staying thin, yet still wanting to maintain my eating habits of when I was bigger. Not easy. I eventually figured out a “hack” to make this happen: I’d basically binge in such an amount that my stomach literally couldn’t contain anymore contents. Often this would consists of having a large dinner, followed by a large dessert; perhaps a bag of M&Ms or 4-5 candy bars. I’d also make sure to drink a LOT of diet soda throughout the binge.

What follows is going to sound so messed up, it’s difficult to even type it. But my stomach would be overflowing to such an extent that food would just start coming back up my esophagus - usually whenever I’d be burping. The carbonation in the large amounts of diet soda I drank would help push the food back up my throat. And the more I practiced this, the ‘better’ I got at it. I learned to almost effortlessly use my stomach and throat muscles to push the food back up. After about half an hour of this process, I would have managed to throw up at least  2/3 of my meal this way. Completely undigested and the process was completely painless. 

I don’t do this very much anymore, since I got into a serious relationship and am now living with my partner. But my relationship with food is forever strained. I am extremely uncomfortable eating in front of others and try to avoid it at all cost. I still count calories every day. I don’t own a scale any longer, but I measure my waist/hips almost every morning. When I’m alone, I still repeat this messed up eating/purge pattern sometimes. Sometimes I hate myself for doing it. Other times I feel like I’ve just found a neat hack to eat what I want and not gain weight. It’s weird. 

Not sure what the point of this post was. I guess I just I never considered whether this was an eating disorder until recently. And if so, what kind of eating disorder would it even be? Some fucked up version of bulimia? I don't even know. I just needed to get this off my chest.",4.065573951434882,5.8215861037527645,4.894541942604857,82.38344646799119,72.06843267108168,7.594039735099338,28.47737306843267,8.256446698504663,2.0315161147902883,1847,72,346,29,36,598,234,453,0.152,0.8009999999999999,0.046,-0.9931,1,2,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,3,33,20,3,4,24,0,28,33,6,4,7,68,58,26,0,12,15,0,5,1,1,6,4,2,0,2,28,14,22,2,9,3,1,8,9,14,0,2,11,7,40,6,54,37,12,64,0,1,0,2,7,23,2,8,31,234,68,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441349530684058,0.0,0.14552780905235116,0.07525944268363648,0.0,0.058110496459840615,0.0,0.07873293370183042,0.0,0.049414965786744175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412910783586289,0.05080933927469127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762562842776585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426664378919925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687036119813613,0.06259481037893477,0.15237658488371486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0468631734229942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498425415361917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711844308513379,0.0,0.4461290887339911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398443990982282,0.06573001711171038,0.12244747198225203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022543319845747,0.05191217836349856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514691745803481,0.07967386365296245,0.0,0.134355988165058,0.037964673870492564,0.0,0.04129742305288464,0.0,0.11623432164802887,0.0,0.08004913368359319,0.0,0.06425777581876994,0.0,0.0,0.07174204141620225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04870608785464807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156078454298688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756698350851094,0.03993500507899967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0513257230519024,0.035500645394215186,0.0,0.06416488206805157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932287113940348,0.061777527021062574,0.0,0.0,0.14551416211060386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341743213278469,0.05388047552335177,0.11208807681994494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119666653326348,0.0,0.0,0.07625011672545323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869229329093676,0.0,0.06959336942234097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07174831896150778,0.15603089693101888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021914439382668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14373588306990492,0.0,0.10286589238357054,0.07745165107055288,0.17409205390693758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697256458005458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0423717808008871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049335038698664034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275957722327741,0.08003067522283278,0.059956567543569934,0.08571987467282849,0.057678414539816786,0.0,0.08848688457999652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097165041619976,0.0,0.0,0.0935882741001083
EDAnonymous,ABlueSongbird,2019/05/12,"A family members in inpatient Idk I feel kinda like an attention whore like playing on someone else’s suffering but I’m worried and idk how to deal with it. 

Like I’ve made fun of him he was so annoying and always bugged me. Calling me annoying names tackling my other cousins. And just idk now he’s in inpatient he seemed so goofy like nothing affected him at all and like he always wore cool clothes and idk he’s in inpatient. 

Today is mother’s day so whole fam were hanging out and he wasn’t here and whenever I asked I was shut down until I was told he was getting treatment and to pray for him. 

My mental health is trash so nobody told me  and just idk I’ve treated him like shit at times and I’m so sry. Idk idk idk. I wasn’t told anything about this and I just want him to be ok.",0.6673779904306194,2.957432375757577,2.5289633173843704,92.39870813397131,85.84848484848484,5.897926634768743,22.62360446570973,7.273561745256523,0.902030303030303,622,23,134,10,19,206,92,165,0.182,0.644,0.17300000000000001,-0.1826,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,12,16,3,0,2,2,10,3,1,3,1,27,22,19,0,1,4,2,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,13,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,12,2,16,11,16,9,2,15,1,1,0,1,21,9,1,2,11,72,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276618220066416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678564325479914,0.0,0.15539410956854569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697301303271609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719873369317176,0.17136645604690345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388562385264821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566982775317888,0.0,0.08404628479454902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684356322301788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668505095602058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4872428331560114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728224094972704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751157835439914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594934429577696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513212706167018,0.0,0.0,0.17062337204377012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083843481890645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692474739559648,0.0,0.1575579838278849,0.4764935987066656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09804139739239076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855797062123813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880539928377122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yzzzzzy,2019/05/12,"I've stopped counting calories, finally managed to intuitively eat and not base my emotions on food after 3 months of stress and today my boyfriend's mom said I gained weight I'm such a fat piece of shit I hate myself I also have a beach vacation planned in two months I'm gonna look like a cow",3.046721311475409,4.715067114754099,3.8696393442622967,89.04872131147543,74.57377049180329,6.847213114754098,28.593442622950818,7.554174236665415,1.5623809836065576,238,10,50,3,5,76,49,61,0.2,0.715,0.085,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,2,1,3,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,3,6,1,6,5,1,8,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,7,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846432111963196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23625883036139603,0.0,0.2597209630282196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25292947850145125,0.0,0.0,0.2791939536942537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279567670536345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280153439507724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938900386074807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27041639995830274,0.3685895114712381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196299313088886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370059879038195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19303496570893294,0.26448451936565986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21885738842204144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22554666639819984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811626730619996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugarcych,2019/05/12,"(TW) I just discovered my new trigger. Thanks, beauty community! If you think that my new trigger is the unrealistic bodies, think again.

I've been stalking the socialblade live countdown of a certain influencer, and honestly, the way the number of subscribers decreasing too quickly each second resembles purging (vomiting) in my bulimic brain. 

Now every time I look at socialblade I just get all these intrusive thoughts about binging/purging.

I don't even know how that came to my mind. 

Now excuse me while I binge on the leftovers of Iftar.",5.738817966903074,8.763974914893616,5.932269503546102,71.13388888888889,71.12765957446808,9.284160756501183,35.97635933806147,9.725611199111238,4.426630260047282,438,24,64,12,9,139,72,94,0.0,0.843,0.157,0.9134,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,10,3,0,0,6,0,3,3,2,4,2,17,11,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,11,3,8,8,2,13,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,8,46,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791362607671619,0.0,0.2805325152553799,0.0,0.28741882403691577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659804547749792,0.0,0.21173003588154585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129322526145204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810722134846326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22190140086473767,0.0,0.21102765937093626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25374010097453725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854117987137225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313621265822863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32204418488511005,0.0,0.1995031377040514,0.1465343224176513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946925130273288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unusuallean,2019/05/12,"Having a panic attack because I tried defending my recovery in a sub That has to with the logic of fat people. Basically shot back at a person who constantly says that the only healthy weight a woman can have without  a personal trainer is a BMI below 19 (check my history), they told me that they ~know~ I still want to be as skinny as them, reported me, I reported them, and the mod proceeded to publically shame me and say that nothing they have said is wrong. Now I feel disgusting in my ""recovered"" body with my medium healthy bmi and I've lost the argument and now am framed as the ultimate fat logician and I just want to relapse and starve until I'm skinnier than this women who thinks that making the world skinny is her god given mission (and who everyone supports). I'm seriously panicking idk what to so I feel so fat and disgusting  and everyone thinks I am because my BMI is over 19",6.604508670520233,6.688104161849713,7.595150289017344,71.42232080924859,65.18497109826589,11.5442774566474,35.21907514450867,11.20814326018867,4.159236300578035,712,31,128,20,10,241,101,173,0.18100000000000002,0.764,0.055,-0.9719,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,5,1,7,9,3,2,12,0,12,7,6,1,0,22,27,15,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,4,10,11,6,0,6,0,1,0,1,8,0,0,4,6,21,1,19,22,0,13,0,1,0,0,18,6,0,0,7,90,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005801106273178,0.0,0.1355728809358341,0.0,0.2149560574753858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958426484352664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19053040557006412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369469358359412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829707391736674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689634704779458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924651426873853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768948674098342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917591454453626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409305873892852,0.0,0.2068638932578291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223239321014134,0.3078973030598801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771288419486202,0.28042041892561353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080282065203914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20007652621792385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22594694758659675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684734679179706,0.0,0.11970412979554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20798651981540955,0.0,0.0,0.21470025759306244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16995827072895708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276926092625826,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Edthrowaway1325,2019/05/12,"The worst part of having an eating disorder... ... Is that I'm not just harming myself, but the people I love most in this world.

Currently being a raging jerk face to my mom on mother's day because I couldn't control myself and binged last night. So logically I'm now taking my binge hangover out on her. Wish I could just be normal and enjoy the day with her. Instead I'll be avoiding food all day and trying not to majorly bite everyone's heads off. 

Anyone else feel these feels? :(",4.195714285714286,5.5384846315789495,5.229172932330831,81.7442105263158,71.10526315789474,7.533834586466164,25.150375939849624,7.957251820313856,1.4704586466165421,380,11,71,5,7,125,73,95,0.155,0.7040000000000001,0.141,-0.1501,1,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,2,1,5,0,7,5,2,1,1,21,14,5,0,4,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,9,2,9,9,5,13,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,1,7,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347184648029795,0.2102388059807685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250803742753091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301351896119841,0.16382549466767393,0.0,0.0,0.3969868208622316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351626116722139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20995800195707007,0.17140779805382814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19606541606813796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20749789514845735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481134973303348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058153583082306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725517010483731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518969835295196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240313079281824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925545362648288,0.20104015042481407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22219802938683272,0.0,0.14225115282496226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427543789900378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930881997908628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359554586143233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bioepic,2019/05/12,"I go from feeling miserable bc I'm fat -> restricting -> feeling miserable bc i'm starving -> binging -> repeat 
i'm so jealous of people on r/1200isplenty losing weight eating so much. like bitch if i ate 1200 i'd probably gain 5 pounds a day. My metabolism is so fucked up and i feel like i'm at a dead end. no matter what i do i'm gonna be miserable",-0.6585020242914972,1.4197545263157918,2.3715789473684232,88.47220647773281,102.42105263157896,6.022672064777327,21.63562753036437,7.321109707123232,1.3940558704453438,288,12,59,7,13,101,52,76,0.39299999999999996,0.47,0.136,-0.981,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,3,9,3,3,2,0,3,5,1,0,0,7,15,5,1,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,3,0,0,1,1,7,0,0,1,4,5,2,5,12,1,7,0,4,0,1,0,3,2,1,5,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533127995318624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940534788127473,0.0,0.0,0.2545264515476512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359120205897346,0.20529874010932025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656709462593453,0.0,0.0,0.16332023023869555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807910591409418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32149595823130306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21125161498610515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19922768345765046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30983581047606096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499418921176597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheProperThingToDo,2019/05/12,"People in recovery, what can your SO do to best help you? My girlfriend is attempting to recover from AN. Slight issue... I have Orthorexia and a fairly bad case of it. We live together, do OMAD, and she does all the cooking. She is slowly raising her calories and so far drastically slowed her weight loss as she can't really afford to lose much more. She's already joked how she is just going to copy me and stay in Ortho purgatory since I am a very slim/lean male that is fairly active on top of a full time job ""so clearly it works"" as she says. I simply worry that I might be hindering her recovery. 

Is there anything else I can do for her? Especially when being near food I consider to be unpure makes me extremely uncomfortable (she has never brought or made any food that has not fit my stringent requirements).",4.979349827387799,6.1425112848101255,5.9940966628308425,77.67109896432684,69.0632911392405,9.542922899884926,28.920598388952822,9.800150414767053,2.7474227848101265,645,23,121,15,11,214,113,158,0.098,0.7909999999999999,0.111,0.4717,3,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,2,0,7,7,5,0,0,5,0,19,4,0,3,3,16,23,12,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,6,5,4,1,0,2,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,2,24,2,15,17,5,15,0,2,0,0,18,8,0,2,4,88,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21098594509422453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001762083141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573353359800492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963795343514312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20064498706327846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673140569402458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971700261550226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623820450643199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086592413111546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281524647855922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19955554920330665,0.18972929490061569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688266939902244,0.0,0.0,0.21389577307697932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809111953176573,0.1276226399140268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282528531247915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054866428119767,0.0,0.1474596292810442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254897388430276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224829662884922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204414234488092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815661190507266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378602395712198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148602538543484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775403546518002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23282125211874505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919059326299166,0.19416551020698347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eavnna,2019/05/12,Has anyone else developed ibs/other stomach problems from their ED? I’ve had ibs for 7 years now - most likely caused by extreme restricting at the time... now I can’t eat normally/always have messed up stomach and cramps etc. Anyone else had similar experience?,5.489680851063831,7.952804297872338,5.813776595744681,74.30875,69.85106382978725,8.955319148936171,30.89893617021277,9.516144504307137,3.335770212765958,210,9,33,5,4,67,40,47,0.175,0.825,0.0,-0.7941,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,5,4,2,1,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,5,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899707683492189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35125371724218785,0.5147153530183707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580251188011598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570139384882413,0.41964767100821615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801256564359698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456965891778693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271103932093605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24033981206531416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464617108285866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174796620666915
EDAnonymous,fuckyeahkermitisdead,2019/05/12,"I need my disorder I hope this is appropriate for this sub and while I don’t want to encourage the things I talk about, I’d be interested if others feel this way too. And I need to rant for a bit lmao. 

For the last week I have been really slipping back into my disorder. Food and my body/my physical appearance in general didn’t leave my mind for even a split second, but I was doing pretty okay, not restricting too too much and consistently loosing weight. I think for the first time ever, I was actually losing weight in a somewhat healthy way. It was hard, but still. 

I thought I’d be fine with “letting lose” for the weekend, not being super meticulous about counting every last calorie I ate. This wasn’t even supposed to be “recovery”, just a little test. I didn’t work, I binged, I obviously gained weight and I felt crushed. 

Now I’ve come to the conclusion, that even if it means sacrificing my well-being to an extent, I don’t want to let go of my disordered behavior because I would go insane. I don’t know how I could ever recover. And for some twisted reason, I am fine with it.",3.6103022875816966,5.199420754629634,5.098627450980395,81.13852941176471,72.93518518518519,8.786056644880174,27.52069716775599,9.325443323948027,2.3889605664488016,857,32,170,20,17,288,125,216,0.12300000000000001,0.732,0.145,0.4248,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,7,15,9,0,0,10,1,22,5,0,2,3,42,38,12,0,9,7,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,10,5,1,8,1,0,4,8,2,0,2,10,6,26,7,21,20,5,22,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,6,12,120,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.11250665717383973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865108895338927,0.0,0.07027986880849504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586709755348324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931234540274482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204988663840066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963978584028445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22844437649670254,0.2085732706340566,0.09713701149965268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582942165530085,0.0,0.1106967238536438,0.0,0.0,0.09806583123385128,0.13940943287883142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104421652986087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327742235191847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145092359893313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336050854785699,0.18795388933899065,0.0,0.12207573248394835,0.0,0.2357841919237284,0.0,0.0,0.11555112243579793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579606084461425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558488520136404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641029107497974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475160222362628,0.17097252514211744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729163600518396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385788894644671,0.1185375827703731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920709458436592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266593912123354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659372195064575,0.07387333960516215,0.0,0.09152758370199802,0.06722667430019465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360023578608501,0.1830240747558429,0.09247888763097104,0.42117741032308464,0.10365978423081476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393267807863296,0.0,0.0,0.08189888866734303,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nyeh_its_okeh,2019/05/12,"I have an eating disorder because I absolutely hate body functions and everything about my body Being a human, trapped in this body causes me severe anxiety. I hate it. I don't like the way I look and I hate all body functions. Can't get myself to eat because it means that I'd have to chew food that will mix with saliva, then swallow that shit and then have my body process it, not even gonna go on. It's disgusting. What the fuck.",3.1604870129870117,4.696901477272732,4.196948051948056,87.3636363636364,74.0,7.301298701298702,26.20779220779221,7.957251820313856,1.4567155844155837,342,12,71,5,7,111,60,88,0.35,0.65,0.0,-0.9872,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,6,0,4,0,7,12,6,1,1,8,16,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,9,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,1,10,1,6,13,1,6,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,3,44,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089012722557414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16078929458361094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7324613611993326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548016071995464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15114933362762945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698984490768808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710747181526173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852792855241215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15947343635464425,0.0,0.0,0.1219237001542936,0.06890341958938144,0.0,0.07495214309702658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906214497268296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443136779301181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074849695896542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436592401510737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489902409622739,0.13537599517301888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046825797014469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xolovekeal,2019/05/12,"I wanna relapse bad. Give me reminders why I shouldn’t. I struggled with anorexia for two years and as of five months ago I began recovery. I’ve been doing really good at recovery for these past five months , and I’ve noticed changes in my body as of recently. I became very curious to if I have gained weight on the scale, so I weighed myself for the first time since beginning recovery and it was so hard for me to see the number of the scale jump. I have been confident in my body since recovering, but now that there’s a number in my head I suddenly hate my body and feel fat. I want to relapse so badly so I can become my previous weight again. I need reasons to continue recovery because as of now the only voice I hear in my head is my eating disorders which is encouraging me to stop eating.",5.174499999999998,5.575402450000002,6.285,78.50000000000001,68.25,10.15,31.0,10.125756701596842,3.005075,632,24,125,15,10,212,94,160,0.115,0.784,0.10099999999999999,-0.7412,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,8,6,1,1,6,0,10,11,6,1,0,14,19,13,0,5,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,5,6,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,4,4,7,24,2,24,14,0,23,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,16,86,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874389246983663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22369529335012966,0.08165832113910006,0.14794385383018116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44638468158982003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14170766328930476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352515672500505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741408162370461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773216763976689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394288685266675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850278074665242,0.0,0.11235591923984728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999824507088493,0.13225379574437393,0.2749549604159235,0.0,0.1509781233563854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21384476799570615,0.0,0.0,0.09932666068331016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15250976933903368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187955791179762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787613888174654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581562994488581,0.1377290562008813,0.1322653681665998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674557149927613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161953930173245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199319615014873,0.0,0.14003987365494264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811080828960545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085552639739625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11052771124031972,0.07901070677961841,0.0,0.0,0.3262445876444186,0.0,0.0,0.1208744350469521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626325821353675
EDAnonymous,Ardental,2019/05/12,"4 days:a new record TW weight/numbers

4 days at the same weight. I'm restricting <400 cal a day and burning 200 with light exercise. For reference I'm 5'0 so projected ~1lb loss every 3 days. 

So how the fuck have I been 96.0 bang on for 4 DAYS IN A ROW! I'm going insane. I've been having BMs. Drinking that water. Only eating nutritious foods. Do I fast? Do I binge? I'm scared to eat in case the scale shoots up. I'm freaking out. Is this water weight for real? What the fuck is going on? I know I've posted scale woes before, and I wish I could ditch it. But this is all just a numbers game for me: how my body looks is secondary. I just don't understand. I'm even scared to drink water now.",-1.0370591824283082,1.0612072617449684,1.3063971934106178,97.75933953630265,97.18791946308724,4.319829164124466,14.82641854789506,6.1124844417494595,-0.6401838926174501,538,12,124,6,22,180,92,149,0.196,0.7859999999999999,0.019,-0.9762,0,0,2,1,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,2,2,7,0,12,14,1,2,1,18,26,7,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,10,1,3,4,0,2,1,7,0,0,2,4,9,0,14,23,2,17,0,2,1,2,1,7,2,0,7,60,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145148724872455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15853924797037322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395713667492036,0.0,0.0,0.3681924395215727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796392917583409,0.0,0.2920938865290807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427086400557466,0.0,0.12025496282405372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725879343964193,0.0,0.0,0.2639004970934786,0.0,0.0,0.16223185317124988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843988076535507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985603850129445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784812713424632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855149713492432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669450119635426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624563420427714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285792364090123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858545861199254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214147834979961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413079356818605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cpolandc,2019/05/12,"Has anyone else watched Special on Netflix and found it extremely triggering? I’m only on the second episode right now, but they amount they talk about skinny girls not eating is so hard to listen to. But also it might just be my ED giving me a reason to starve 🤷🏼‍♀️",2.396181818181816,4.3874089818181865,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,77.36363636363637,5.854545454545455,21.909090909090907,6.742157984588678,0.5856545454545459,214,6,42,2,5,70,49,55,0.10800000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.087,-0.2958,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,2,0,9,8,5,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,6,5,1,4,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,1,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129028011096995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109739281665946,0.309154080322708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087411607891689,0.25205346805631623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33082713192155144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28944320103031906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702873507446837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200837464724633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294763209808023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31022471786242883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576724695780613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425160370869877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ethioqueen,2019/05/12,"um am i gonna die?? i’m lowkey bulimic (i go through phases where i wont do it for weeks at a time and then start again) and i’ve been doing it a lot lately... like i will stuff myself till i’m sick and purge and stuff again up to like 6 times. and i honestly don’t know if i’m being paranoid but in the last few days ive gotten heart palpitations a couple times (but i also got these like twice a yr pre bulimia so i didn’t care) but today i feel a dull ache/pain in my upper back/lungs area and i don’t know if the end is near or what. i literally just binged and was about to purge but i feel this weird primal feeling that’s telling me it’s a bad idea this time...

i seriously can’t tell if it’s in my head or i’m legitimately physically sick. i’m not underweight even underweight yet ffs",0.608522727272728,2.1557382613636378,3.1147727272727264,92.32340909090912,81.1590909090909,6.672727272727273,18.954545454545453,7.645422480735847,0.25266590909090914,618,14,153,10,16,215,110,176,0.174,0.762,0.064,-0.9651,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,0,8,0,14,4,2,0,0,25,30,20,1,3,11,0,3,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,11,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,6,4,1,1,5,3,17,5,12,21,2,26,0,1,0,0,2,9,0,6,19,90,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177278471041687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267039932107354,0.1375826194667187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800199688064382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823235535767661,0.0,0.10626807958150564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17101339011526065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594426378265038,0.0,0.0,0.1088342138842288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24994989138512366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364704775502276,0.0,0.13178789698580615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910960942830575,0.0,0.0,0.19526254206512303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18601413243045412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18111519079246435,0.13431593790833132,0.18587658862975254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415063983756715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008823300476014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753352469061883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663060821096907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772624241127425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880462023048898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843331507677562,0.0,0.15619013198464451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321748496139927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Funktionierende,2019/01/12,"I just ordered a pizza. I haven't had pizza in a couple of years. The last time I ordered a pizza was in 2016, and I c/s'd the whole thing that time. 

I'm gonna eat this pizza, and I'm gonna like it, and I swear to god I *will not purge it*.

And/or RIP me, and/or it's gonna sit in the fridge untouched for four days, and/or I'll have a nervous breakdown from having it in the house and throw it out right away, and/or I'll be completely convinced that I have food poisoning within minutes of my first bite. 

Either way, I'm trying. ",0.4901410658307199,2.175737637931036,2.3572100313479645,96.94515673981192,82.10344827586206,4.907836990595611,18.304075235109718,5.565023196281405,-0.5344724137931034,410,9,98,2,11,136,70,116,0.07,0.856,0.075,0.1263,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,1,8,0,8,7,0,0,0,8,14,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,9,5,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,9,2,12,7,2,19,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,7,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478259890918724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276563843055956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918628373256119,0.0,0.17011352957610718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699084319581936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243675082414612,0.3189586697714288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043617867806768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150124323869687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288675019023896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225263039255405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752408797721338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30761950845297664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17908641160621072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20937290330636746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29449619182858033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16986292723289914
EDAnonymous,unhappy_anon,2019/01/12,"I think I have an eating disorder.. I think I have an eating disorder.

I'll give a little backstory. So, I used to be very overweight. I was overweight for a period of about 3 years, and I don't want to go into an explanation, or say my weights or whatever, but I lost the weight. My BMI is healthy, it is 22.2. During my weight loss (I am only a few lbs until my goal) I realized how much I fear gaining weight, how excessive I am with calories and exercise, etc. I am not saying this makes me having an eating disorder, because many people can be this way and still be healthy

I say I may have an eating disorder because I want to get down farther than my goal weight which is healthy and that I am so close to. I want to be as thin as I can get to, not caring about my BMI. I hate the way I see myself in the mirror.

I am scared and don't know what to do.",2.572582417582417,3.3114348296703326,4.5875824175824205,87.1074175824176,74.32967032967032,8.017582417582418,25.538461538461537,8.384062270229773,1.454756043956044,657,21,149,11,13,227,94,182,0.20600000000000002,0.718,0.076,-0.9671,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,5,7,6,1,2,11,0,23,12,0,4,0,25,39,15,0,3,5,0,6,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,6,8,11,0,4,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,10,30,1,19,32,3,14,0,2,1,0,4,7,0,3,4,107,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849609343053602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909490168497484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455671157930049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3978114578012548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10839606249548307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936932352610984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015588266182865,0.0932365330380758,0.055237111240796805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595812109811076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053414817557155256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741307740247633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609781272443262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487718736769399,0.09853860666488816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144815397168565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391977599204855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738149767063657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23187569974373376,0.0973073061697234,0.0,0.07745036290990777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776185811519992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455490171348912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394368200815389,0.0,0.08019453385213555,0.1719811274950527,0.1542948089544832,0.0,0.5917754094048011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258920684568925
EDAnonymous,depressedsecret,2019/01/12,Anyone got pointers to lose some more weight ? Getting a bit more fat need some new tips pls ? ,2.171666666666667,4.757782833333334,1.6866666666666674,99.00000000000004,81.77777777777777,3.6,20.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.6540888888888885,73,2,15,0,2,21,16,18,0.158,0.775,0.067,-0.4137,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679334413841182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183412427347822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019952761349089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306469856237804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42868852786616657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841284975649215,0.0,0.3700846430079823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666188508120841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,angelicemma,2019/01/12,"Study finds that the majority of comments in a certain ~banned~ ED community provided “esteem/emotional support to the comment author” To see the abstract click [here](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S1740144517302528)

Article found in Body Image journal, titled “A content analysis of an online pro-eating disorder community on Reddit”

I thought some might find this interesting :) currently doing research for my MA thesis ",21.775692307692303,16.93965772307692,17.961923076923075,24.170576923076936,41.0,20.384615384615387,69.42307692307692,17.122413403193686,11.15946153846154,372,24,35,12,2,115,57,65,0.042,0.789,0.16899999999999998,0.8034,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,0,2,1,1,0,1,8,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,8,3,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,2,1,21,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071094613755964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31687262220668183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829103749117505,0.0,0.3110053279716928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053995518035963,0.0,0.0,0.30314852636969386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933039847560847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22032056420898827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137487911423801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949603034247028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeydewmellow,2019/01/12,"Confession: I LOVE going through the “dieting” subreddits to find ~totally not disordered~ profiles and stalking them You guys know the posts I’m talking about on r/1200isplenty or r/fasting where the poster is like “HELP omg estimate how many cals in this sugar free gum I just ate I feel soo guilty ;( “

I see you (and stalk your profiles) 👀",3.661797235023037,6.654172000000003,3.6610599078341046,84.59016129032258,79.0,8.058986175115209,29.82488479262673,8.841846274778883,2.9784949308755766,272,13,48,7,7,83,53,62,0.040999999999999995,0.75,0.20800000000000002,0.9075,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,1,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,1,1,11,8,4,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,8,4,5,7,1,5,1,0,1,1,9,3,0,1,1,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876994749813712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104510031749634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091828185179559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225295825011804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33495149687555986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267427065087096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591045873102952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526706976573846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053119214523564,0.0,0.0,0.3429639640383241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239798068975105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695662581278789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718975533120601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theprincessofpirates,2019/01/12,"There is no safe food left. I used to have foods I could eat and still feel good, but these past weeks I feel physically sick after eating anything at all. Ratatouille? Sick. Raw carrots? Sick. Soy milk? Sick. Diet Coke? Sick?!?!!? It’s like I can’t stand the feeling of having something in my stomach but I also get dizzy and weak when I’m hungry. I can’t tell what is hunger and what’s stomach pain from stress/sickness. I just want to eat one meal without getting ill after. I’m trying to pick gentle, low calorie foods, but nothing is good enough! Maybe I just have the flu and my ED is making it worse but I’m tired of never being satisfied.",0.6929548563611476,3.1813777209302323,1.8221249430004567,95.51433652530784,89.62015503875969,3.655449156406749,18.44094847241222,5.0885558068054335,-0.5095803921568631,502,14,103,2,17,158,86,129,0.316,0.556,0.129,-0.9879,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,0,2,0,11,23,2,3,2,22,22,10,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,0,10,0,0,0,5,4,11,1,3,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,0,3,10,4,11,20,2,12,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,8,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160358080441916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194043094514962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584993454930753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44541823299550504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992630011654465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009960312493868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5263637229021136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15161672599858886,0.0,0.0,0.243404712956594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576507464222236,0.0,0.0,0.07088815834252757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685486794424657,0.0,0.14577168703125382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190947727412864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922663201531504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983229987297498,0.0,0.1543958192740468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851364079922146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170448216431657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587643873785088,0.0,0.16621068665851768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268231293432868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16677022888870258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985128579007608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531915401286542,0.0,0.0,0.08558328984491151,0.0,0.1163898563104945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987048735894664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478685194908997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ebizzle0415,2019/01/12,Fasted all day for a cheat and it was terrible So today was a minor cheat day. I’ve been doing keto to control my extreme sweet tooth and my uncontrollable hunger. My garlic wings I ordered were breaded and gross (I meant to order real wings not those fake Tyson frozen shits) and the meat in my cheesesteak was GROSS. $15 literally in the trash. My boyfriend is trying to be supportive by telling me to eat something else but I wasn’t even hungry to begin with. My brain was telling me to order food. Am I being a baby bitch for wanting to cry? Lol 😿,2.238727272727271,4.546059236363637,3.4354545454545486,88.24318181818184,79.36363636363637,5.454545454545455,22.72727272727273,6.574015621080383,0.624545454545455,436,14,85,4,11,141,76,110,0.19399999999999998,0.73,0.076,-0.9192,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,11,4,1,5,1,12,7,3,1,1,12,16,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,9,0,0,8,1,12,2,13,6,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,5,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630450025704141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642830948800564,0.0,0.0,0.2588324217388398,0.3039283296076497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411119770322944,0.19684161919182844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556337564405936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28492905872644897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682025993547626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418744824249299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814022409245122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673941927630936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41190826756781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223353080728641,0.0,0.0,0.15997973256604622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898278979281975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astro-bandit,2019/01/12,"I had the dumbest trigger My friend told me her ""name"" for Spanish class was Ana and I immediately went into fight or flight mode....smh",2.1056410256410243,4.756979307692311,3.220769230769232,87.40756410256414,82.84615384615384,5.005128205128205,24.051282051282055,6.42735559955562,0.6725282051282053,106,4,21,1,3,34,25,26,0.203,0.687,0.11,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,5,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,12,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5019283848837645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6207812857097904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6022445448158706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Needanameo,2019/01/12,"Omfg, I want oreos so fucking bad right now. The whole fucking pack. And a half gallon of milk. Right now. ",-0.6378571428571433,1.2429489047619064,1.0670238095238105,96.76339285714286,107.57142857142858,2.1,14.773809523809526,3.1291,-1.2533904761904764,81,2,16,0,4,26,18,21,0.182,0.76,0.057999999999999996,-0.5819,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842650734629922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6294889262638936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5814921293668429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20080873433413385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801050057809661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DistortionPuddle,2019/01/12,"Finally considering recovery for reals, I think? After fighting this alone for over half my life, I'm finally going to see a counselor who specializes in eating disorders, OCD and overdrinking. Literally my Big Three. I've been in therapy before, for DV-related PTSD, but never for my Big Three. I've also always  bailed on therapy when it gets uncomfortable, but I'm determined to not  do that this time. Terrified because what if it, like...works? I genuinely don't know who I would be if I was ok with my body. Scary. Bonus scary because I'm literally 10 lb above my goal weight. I keep thinking I'll try to be healthier once I hit my goal weight. In reality though, what I'm doing now is clearly not working. I've been 10 lb above my goal for months now and it's time. I have a heart condition, a family I'm making sad and scared, and I'm frankly getting too old to fuck around like this anymore.

I start next Tuesday. I'm going to do the work. I'm going to learn to have a better relationship with food, a little bit at a time. I'm going to stick with it, even when it gets difficult and uncomfortable.

Wish me luck?",3.0249681378333726,4.8813061345291535,4.914722681142318,80.73107387302338,75.09865470852017,8.820297380221856,26.535048383290054,9.414487439383343,2.436323766816144,880,33,175,23,19,301,124,223,0.168,0.713,0.11900000000000001,-0.9179999999999999,0,1,1,0,2,0,34.0,0,0,0,7,9,11,2,1,7,1,13,8,2,1,2,27,39,13,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,9,4,1,4,0,1,4,4,5,0,3,3,3,16,6,24,32,1,30,0,1,1,1,4,10,1,3,17,96,29,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572127131189714,0.0,0.09707387180911364,0.10100446950459796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203841938236544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806098012684527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14799389266498206,0.0,0.1032921750650157,0.0,0.0,0.1073577463773024,0.13252416404006878,0.13483460867379127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391210672028846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421014162220348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017557305372862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144337230612103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594905508538125,0.0,0.0,0.14678274871410932,0.0,0.0,0.11222117144477588,0.1902605265363332,0.0,0.2759501980337033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384526379408746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789515633409218,0.0,0.0,0.06671162354316168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573987426684097,0.11860800750585425,0.121662580629452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102737588837827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968906756845225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362184341402942,0.0,0.12909742477137928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273761971996221,0.1292741678551075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189597679347649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381660225233696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032519260449196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153047925788862,0.0,0.09673045214838308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859189910524488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776353198423833,0.0,0.0,0.15556094906950987,0.11926301021636256,0.0,0.2123468083239531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241442620682969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29563555687199083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959011163103782,0.0,0.0,0.2651155436381289,0.0,0.0,0.08623049206198158,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iris-bae,2019/01/12,"I want to end it all. It’s almost 2am and I’ve just finished up purging in the shower for the 5th day in a row, blowing vomit out of my nostrils and spitting up blood. 
This illness is so fucking exhausting. I’m fed up of the cycle of restricting → bingeing → purging → self loathing → and repeat...

I’ve had this for 8 years and I’d give anything for it to let me go. This combined with BPD, anxiety, CPTSD and agoraphobia is just a fun(!!) game of Russian Roulette, seeing which will kill me off first.
I’m so, so, so done.",0.8257272727272706,2.7821039363636366,3.0063636363636377,91.31954545454546,82.36363636363637,5.454545454545455,26.363636363636363,6.574015621080383,1.007,403,18,88,4,11,137,73,110,0.17600000000000002,0.812,0.012,-0.9569,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,2,0,5,0,6,8,3,0,1,13,14,9,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,7,7,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,2,4,1,17,9,1,14,0,0,1,1,3,7,1,1,6,52,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707753500661918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686198982369688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22252339988810954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34057041414106143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743913039226629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27672208360800704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395019328599865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300095848790313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499885758315479,0.0,0.2594007583251516,0.1536795511015191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991672698602877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765113160367221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21548080153499127,0.0,0.28209534959302035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949411472150676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741343997863075
EDAnonymous,AuBenseiter,2019/01/12,"MY BODY IS A F*CKING PRISON I was playing a song I've listened to a few times and actually listening to it for a change (it's called Prison Décor.) The lyrics.. man. Made me realize my body is a fucking prison keeping me away from true happiness and that's really fucking sad. I keep trying to make it look nice and appealing for not just myself but everyone else and even if I do it's a goddamn cell that I can't ever escape from.

Here's those lyrics:

""Spend all day decorating my prison! Spend all night getting everything right. Am I still here if I love it from the inside? Now everybody wants to come in here. What do you think of me? What do you think of me? What do you think of me? What do you think of me, now?""

​

This song definitely isn't about having an ED but damn do I identify with that.",2.1392727272727257,4.066689836363641,3.5751515151515143,89.0227272727273,77.9090909090909,7.309090909090909,23.12121212121212,8.238735603445708,1.2285030303030302,633,20,137,12,15,208,93,165,0.14400000000000002,0.758,0.098,-0.8429,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,4,0,0,10,9,3,0,9,0,13,5,2,2,4,26,30,8,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,14,6,0,2,5,3,2,1,3,4,0,0,2,5,21,5,17,28,3,11,0,1,1,3,10,3,3,2,7,95,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.1560382753090576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17325040755840754,0.19429468348963166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023029415906658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552232957898472,0.0,0.0,0.16327466994866524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915185019238602,0.1377387568239384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031215720445753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357502567177654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561172529112342,0.14463772297056138,0.0,0.15279026556554134,0.14370683442806614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956479406148144,0.08354058348434114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702153682873951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842510050626704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427481699894553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431501362543556,0.1513002195329351,0.10673376737387766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500542998441319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024353393716438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365527997064078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769548004008044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098270730948389,0.0,0.0,0.09323834318850653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085608672201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431252288378712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429468348963166,0.0
EDAnonymous,eth_HTML,2019/01/12,"DAE get itchy when fasting/heavily restricting My arms, scalp, neck, and torso are ridiculously itchy all the time despite moisturising daily and my skin doesn’t seem dry at all. Does anyone else experience this or know what could be causing it?",11.117441860465114,10.034446906976747,9.534534883720934,64.99854651162794,56.67441860465117,13.251162790697675,40.1046511627907,12.161744961471696,4.94933488372093,199,8,32,5,2,61,38,43,0.19899999999999998,0.8009999999999999,0.0,-0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,4,4,4,1,2,10,7,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571123964366105,0.3767638359426148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777409512228176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29358767287631643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217867689595213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30717573382311164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35969235762573765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192114056551782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208459712611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347506949489067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21441550428563505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dullfiremaiden,2019/01/12,"My sister has agreed to therapy and I just want to thank you all so much I posted a few days ago freaking out about my sister, who lives very far from me, needing help with not eating and having body image issues

Thanks to all of your suggestions on how to talk about it and what to say, I was able to have a few conversations with her without sounding forceful or judgmental. 

Thank you so much, I really do feel like I didn’t say too many wrong things and she just had her first session today. I can’t wait for her to feel better and enjoy life. I know we have a long road ahead, but I feel so relieved knowing she has someone to talk to in person who will not judge her 

Wishing you all the best ❤️",4.4910727969348665,4.665627241379312,5.097471264367815,87.21187739463602,69.6896551724138,7.823754789272032,25.766283524904214,7.3871296695380915,1.0546398467432945,550,14,119,5,9,177,97,145,0.04,0.784,0.17600000000000002,0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,4,0,4,9,10,0,0,4,0,11,3,1,1,3,29,23,11,0,3,7,2,3,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,9,1,1,5,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,6,22,8,21,19,8,12,0,0,0,0,23,5,0,1,7,88,27,1,0.15549047639495067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783292556562698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631776619764461,0.13751869057179789,0.0,0.17271486645607131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027849386857704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910557559202182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358619704940705,0.111082427405019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13226011978919835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422198872896216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229165966230522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17090699879881066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982752187744678,0.07596479263923656,0.0,0.13730093937432658,0.13760417860958962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15764293786918082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286067822276101,0.11529421803418348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576828644080874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891689484877293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961118073980477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473045355200138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174657606377393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499547101033957,0.0,0.4294642195803876,0.17781691088701396,0.0,0.10330096337159367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473867905982206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829592730586914,0.0917123115970708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788063741651892,0.14988727055414275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17000442663396303,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway4345665,2019/08/28,"I need your help. What type of body do I have? https://ibb.co/Sw4x7wR

Do you think I'm fat? The right side of the picture is from now and the left side is 2 years ago. My BMI is 22.5 so I'm in the healthy category, but what do you think? There are a lot of people here are worried to become 'skinnyfat' and say that it is still unhealthy. I am a bit confused about this. if you're at the high end of a healthy BMI the risks that come with being skinny fat must be higher? I personally don't want to get a super toned body cause it takes a lit of work and I don't know which sport suits me. Getting toned means that now you have to train always to maintain. So am I too fat or isn't it that bad? Thanks for your time!",0.7552941176470611,2.6273535490196096,2.0389803921568617,98.61141176470586,82.13725490196079,5.125751633986928,18.04313725490196,6.079149491110277,-0.5530894117647063,555,12,136,4,15,177,94,153,0.09,0.7759999999999999,0.134,0.846,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,5,0,2,9,5,0,2,11,0,19,6,6,1,1,18,32,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,11,5,4,0,4,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,13,2,15,29,2,15,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,4,7,84,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16853317994674205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158198140729678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874533983713413,0.0,0.20997667855557314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075658280838687,0.4223691189672845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953094018063184,0.0,0.16377472439699908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683931578077093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19866356211710226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743590189923282,0.20087611720108145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448700796459276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065699456862724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163636251237204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710043528700825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097430722764595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180782797291185,0.16600867286165952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16236459260440195,0.0,0.1511939894455593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15183302457883102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294935383799015,0.0,0.0,0.17504035000395332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24364716763172856,0.0,0.0,0.11086265268423418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121398784092514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841231082082814,0.19307983621188607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243342303257634
EDAnonymous,bbycheedar,2019/08/28,vyvanse and adderall diet does anyone else use vyvanse/adderall to help restrict appetite? i’ve been doing it for a year now and have lost about 50 pounds (175-124) and i’m just curious if i’m the only one,2.21142857142857,4.340778000000004,3.676428571428573,87.40607142857145,78.52380952380952,5.152380952380953,27.16666666666667,5.985473137389443,1.089409523809524,164,7,31,1,4,54,35,42,0.11699999999999999,0.764,0.11900000000000001,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,7,7,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,16,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673242512347494,0.3917279436214305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334567326436014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193759778984171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562583700592086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173430994347524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590672303053941,0.29076856185688266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33019829087561003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461989828573298
EDAnonymous,Entemma,2019/08/28,"Tfw when you dont want to sleep to avoid nightmares, but you simultanioseley want to sleep to avoid the nightmare that is your life *confused screaming*",3.5761111111111106,6.81965540740741,2.338796296296298,90.31708333333334,87.51851851851852,4.181481481481482,25.26851851851852,5.985473137389443,0.7076740740740739,124,5,22,1,4,35,20,27,0.237,0.763,0.0,-0.5919,0,2,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.434673178983367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619662731672772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7423035135645671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375138774313795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Red7336,2019/08/28,"I made a sub for people looking for a Buddy to check in on them every now and then [My Buddy](https://www.reddit.com/r/MyBuddy/) is a community of Buddies asking/ offering help to others who feel isolated and alone. No pressure, No huge commitment, just a simple message every now and then between you and your Buddy :)",9.434761904761906,9.493482000000004,9.39,60.98833333333336,59.35714285714286,11.752380952380953,40.095238095238095,11.20814326018867,4.938030952380952,256,12,37,6,3,84,43,56,0.174,0.6559999999999999,0.17,0.1779,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,1,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,8,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,0,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37637528126059455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397321804200611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6123643766629874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18374716820821635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358096288935505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051664837048181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438601296250169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519374617004191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,franklarry86,2019/08/28,"Professional Hacking Service Contact Jack, He is always ready to render his services, hire him and he won't disappoint you. He can help hack into any device, social networks including- Facebook, hangouts, I messages, Twitter account, Snapchat, Instagram, tracking, surveillance footage, Grades hacking, Credit card topups , etc. He is specialized in exposing cheating spouse, this service is for serious issues alone.
Tel:- +14434570879
Contact via gmail-: jackadamsxx2@gmail.com",10.717436974789912,15.221995029411762,7.460336134453787,58.87794117647064,61.941176470588246,9.17983193277311,49.42016806722689,9.606745405546679,6.728934453781513,394,27,36,9,7,111,60,68,0.11699999999999999,0.753,0.131,0.2635,0,1,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,4,1,2,0,1,0,0,13,2,0,0,0,16,5,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42110328191245583,0.0,0.0,0.3383143771326768,0.0,0.0,0.27649426472452626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534538875434734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725278412029514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243729772613847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144659860273333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Use2haveApersonality,2019/08/28,"Motivation not to binge tomorrow In the middle of a big mf binge right now because I am absolutely disgusting :))) I’m going to make it even worse by drinking 2 cases of alcohol tonight because why not add those calories WHILE having drunk breakdowns! Pleaseeee give me some support to not binge tomorrow and to stick to 800-900 cals, I need it so bad. I’m planning on staying up tonight too just to burn some off at least",6.207777777777778,6.763313728395063,6.315654320987657,78.63644444444445,66.03703703703704,9.442962962962962,37.18765432098765,9.3871,3.4457387654320986,336,17,63,6,5,107,62,81,0.159,0.7829999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.8713,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,2,0,11,9,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,14,9,3,16,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,2,6,37,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30894318940459503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413733067326137,0.3524461994777477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831925482407263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19093744684251696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773159922020109,0.1642932637130428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19296600806467665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435233774287166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24687640376357456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081253887936257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328049426000902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608536071525928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29460158823424143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ChilledShark,2019/08/28,"Am I falling into another ED? Okay, so through the years I've had bulimia, then I moved to binge eating, orthorexia and finally slipped back again into bulimia. After finally defeating my obsessive overeating I think I am getting slowly more and more afraid of food? I just keep cutting portions more and more, to the point that fewdays ago I started going under 400 kcal but adding another 500 in my calculations because it didn't seem right (just in case I've eaaten an entire chocolate and forgot I guess xD). So I am sitting here hungry and too scared of overeating to even eat an apple and I wonder... is it normal? Or am I getting myself into some other mess?",6.31522,7.189139512000004,7.02375,72.53562500000002,65.88,9.45,34.825,9.516144504307137,3.525980000000001,529,24,86,10,8,175,85,125,0.115,0.873,0.012,-0.8862,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,1,3,4,1,7,3,0,0,0,21,17,11,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,9,3,2,3,0,0,3,1,6,0,0,3,0,13,1,15,14,6,23,0,1,0,0,0,10,0,5,9,66,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660516850308186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928517128616811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404082002892768,0.0,0.1141911515607396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833590387265509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372593016081655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41040921770248295,0.0,0.0,0.2265132810967791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957384252418079,0.0,0.10646071374788156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063588300883013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650244044200754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19909608014764396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353803640229074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708200735351032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997392442142974,0.0,0.0,0.1875442982988796,0.0,0.0,0.17053300277441893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258910016544906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002984442297933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20314520722582774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063070432228765
EDAnonymous,Trash-is-free,2019/08/28,"When you are a grown ass woman in her late 20s But you still have body image issues like a teenager.
I mean, you all are valid and your problems are real, please don't get me wrong! But I somehow think like: I am independent, with a good job position, make a good amount of money every month, have already bought my own apartment (without any external financial help), but still focus all my energy on my frigging body image issues. 

Like wtf what is wrong with me. 

Any adult woman here in a similar situation?",4.92125184094256,6.310839711340207,5.628718703976437,79.38855670103094,69.41237113402062,8.429455081001473,27.259204712812963,8.841846274778883,2.115625625920472,400,13,73,7,7,130,68,97,0.08800000000000001,0.7190000000000001,0.193,0.7935,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,0,5,8,0,0,5,0,8,3,3,2,2,16,13,5,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,13,5,7,12,4,10,0,0,0,1,9,4,1,1,8,46,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18232450973900136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22471069307419092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670446119262138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920507611529875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863206929515118,0.0,0.0,0.27715759394873857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074356305318334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34489375733479616,0.1639554741925228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18637549067701487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242154613610655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102857123659608,0.0,0.0,0.17997314549304874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187712266786467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813620759556088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580933403873035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805666667216786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857143361709304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26389000086172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586638093827584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926629879083815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612845268040212,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,herbisthewerd,2019/08/28,"I have the best job ever I clean houses with my MIL and it's so awesome because I burn a ton of cals throughout the day and stay distracted, but that isnt the best part. My MIL takes me every morning to get coffee and gives me phentermine (dont worry I take half a pill and dont have any weird symptoms) that she takes for energy almost every day so I have like zero appetite, get exercise and get paid lol 😂",2.347973421926909,3.806185093023256,4.020033222591362,88.12313953488373,75.97674418604652,6.774750830564784,22.75083056478405,7.447530270364453,0.8509156146179406,322,9,68,4,7,108,59,86,0.059000000000000004,0.6759999999999999,0.266,0.9618,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,1,5,1,6,3,0,0,1,9,14,8,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,10,3,4,13,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,43,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565553376555146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929008273813188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693302990706734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3681802044171481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22625986868537026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111765841764116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867539428182964,0.2955940337361575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749455968470261,0.1682766863809973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20240852706260234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407504568853152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570025009445696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996032478617156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18697197736175789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823262045439184,0.3956769423747229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781452362331422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Snifaflores,2019/08/28,"The fine line of relapse I swear I thought I was cured. But I'm afraid there is no cure...

About 15 yrs ago I was diagnosed with BN. Went on therapy. Got ""clean"" for about 5 yrs or more.

Last June I started dieting, just like a ""normal"" person who wants to lose some weight... But today I binged. Well I think it was a binge. Was it?

Am I relapsing? How do you define the line?",-1.2119230769230782,0.8298469102564106,0.8629487179487221,100.45288461538463,99.12820512820512,4.651282051282052,15.474358974358973,6.42735559955562,-0.4826871794871792,281,7,68,4,12,92,60,78,0.084,0.821,0.095,0.212,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,6,5,0,1,4,0,7,3,0,1,0,11,14,4,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,7,1,9,3,7,7,2,7,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,6,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405523902001361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754339889464515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703871030854796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22120208762908586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13257726603013595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035926807103249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658841633616452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23694908660386094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19207649084298364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31033428882353303,0.0,0.0,0.17388240273466266,0.0,0.2154368038004505,0.0,0.0,0.25722623688668583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006056372177016,0.0,0.0,0.3304545341886024,0.24399346835202826,0.2515619335423793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shmaccountssss,2019/08/28,"I don't know how to deal with friends that don't know how EDs work I have a childhood friend that I'm still close with and has known for years about my situation, so this is a little more than frustrating.

I started talking to her about different restaurants I possible wanted to go with her in the future, and made a joke (as dark humour is my way to cope) that it'll be hard for my disordered ass to eat anything though

She texts back ""I thought you had that eating stuff figured out""  

Kinda fucking hurt reading that, as if EDs are just something you ""figure out"". I simply texted her back that it's a life long struggle & it's a very serious and complicated thing. She texts back that she hopes it gets better one day, and that was that

I don't know what to think. I've known this girl for most of my life and have been through a lot with her, I can't believe how clueless some people can truly be.",7.043472222222222,5.536414711956525,6.684420289855073,83.55236714975848,64.92391304347827,9.69951690821256,32.40096618357488,8.167268648758528,2.0933654589371966,713,22,154,7,9,223,113,184,0.08199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.12,0.8013,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,12,11,2,1,7,0,17,6,1,4,0,33,30,13,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,18,12,2,0,9,2,0,1,4,5,0,1,5,1,21,6,23,22,4,17,0,1,0,2,14,5,2,6,10,106,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588996444665002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068381974152476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383038267253901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522893824506846,0.0,0.12970362425249704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457975519731712,0.15119392649113286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532223095687687,0.16807829183255205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300127491139695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266091711774125,0.1355793423894523,0.0766207087259553,0.0,0.08334689858423831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137325819862392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566060115726864,0.0,0.0,0.15699623574927468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417917564021904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20717224067426665,0.0,0.1469859248730262,0.0,0.12978425408023694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468006230838873,0.0,0.138767645226934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937660633569874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167148003679027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653304504845508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669377596214642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484534091935588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290148280045872,0.0,0.0,0.10380251921883248,0.0,0.11711814514206713,0.0,0.0,0.15331469613497892,0.16788384554537214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787500180735908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743046041494154,0.0939700187798434,0.14408689811688552,0.11642696546981922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100498251703633,0.08650038153543832,0.1164071898867301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676592363966374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444042525494542
EDAnonymous,OCDkiller123,2019/08/28,Body checks are consuming me I am obsessed with doing body checks. Multiple times a day I’ll take full body pics and videos with my phone. Whether in a mirror or with a timer. I need to keep making sure that I’m not a huge monster or at least not as huge as I think I am? But sometimes it doesn’t work when I’m bloated which sends me down a bigger hole. I think maybe I subconsciously do this to torture myself,3.4813178294573635,4.286963953488375,4.132558139534884,90.96341085271321,72.25581395348838,7.128682170542637,24.79844961240311,7.1686216300943375,0.7781612403100775,324,9,73,3,6,103,60,86,0.122,0.848,0.03,-0.7371,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,5,0,6,3,3,1,1,16,14,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,1,2,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,10,1,10,14,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,2,3,45,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7593278539717409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695560590921813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20253899281729576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210324226459312,0.0,0.2289234056939349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689607713020527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253666604774801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21476230428437929,0.0,0.17132790759237254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29201642610054496,0.0,0.0,0.1328712988521531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589016292325068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,repeals,2019/08/28,"weed weed has almost completely “cured” my addiction to binging and purging, i’m not going to say there’s a cure because it still affects me occasionally but i’ve struggled with this for 10 years i’ve never found something that helps 
(bonus i’ve lost 50lb and counting)",3.6063461538461534,6.117483865384616,4.350615384615383,82.39438461538461,75.73076923076924,6.467692307692308,29.63076923076923,7.554174236665415,2.021956923076923,219,10,39,3,5,70,44,52,0.111,0.823,0.067,-0.3081,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,9,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,2,1,4,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318225204573431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047957183820977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18554911974934216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31913990155335337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337403712254905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17298793692695966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040215836946825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322701228102415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347590204159053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420576675181504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23432899024918716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430807462423056,0.0,0.0,0.3182073170745336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19601274438359528
EDAnonymous,oragamimaster01,2019/08/28,"Being constipated makes my restricting habits worse Okay so when I’m restricting, I obviously get constipated, but the issue is when I’m constipated I am so fucking constipated that I cannot shit for about a week and this makes my stomach absolutely massive. I know it’s because I’m constipated but my ED brain is like “ok fatass restrict more” because my stomach is so much bigger. Pls tell me I’m not alone in this. 

Also, does anyone have any tips for dealing with constipation besides laxatives?",5.003043478260867,7.446604304347828,6.466739130434785,69.18206521739135,71.17391304347827,9.382608695652175,33.23913043478261,9.827888789773867,3.835082608695653,404,20,66,11,8,137,62,92,0.095,0.7440000000000001,0.161,0.7424,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,2,2,7,5,4,2,1,12,16,9,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,9,3,5,15,2,5,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,4,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605184860779412,0.0,0.201155602846988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105510773540336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588187839904235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066716114428435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808006507187321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259325606495092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220123425213816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23254370072472755,0.13141871648929931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26254130593907005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382392254541365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288922244306864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33580839705223364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184910066473692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25820111157213804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21985612431185556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017693684909345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25633967377514605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toasted_miso,2019/06/23,i ate ice cream i actually don't hate myself as much as i thought i would :),-1.1105882352941163,0.7790076470588225,2.301470588235297,93.70161764705885,90.1764705882353,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.3250235294117654,58,2,15,1,2,21,13,17,0.0,0.647,0.353,0.7182,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.5141553482297767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201813499264504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3873147656230635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182809964588761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742778665739318,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shrededcheese,2019/06/23,"I ate my way to the hospital for the fifth times. When I was a child I developed a bad relationship with food. I often don't chew much and I overeat frequently because of many reasons. Besides the weight, everything seems fine until the day I got hospitalized due to bleeding stomach ulcers. I have an especially hard time recovering because I still can't shake off the bad habit. This is the fifth time in 3 years I'm in the hospital and I'm so ashamed of myself. If I fail to recover again I would lose my college scholarship. Had anyone reading this overcomed this habit? Please let me know.",2.9450000000000003,5.584124640350883,4.055350877192982,82.9082894736842,78.91228070175438,7.659649122807018,28.798245614035093,8.59863814320734,2.5305929824561404,475,22,89,11,12,154,80,114,0.168,0.782,0.05,-0.9356,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,2,10,0,8,8,1,1,0,9,14,6,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,3,5,0,3,1,1,1,2,6,0,0,4,2,14,1,11,8,1,16,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,3,11,55,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975077084366444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33375908500638696,0.24367259711526645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288968662756452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17962643754270766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24167844325746046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15985088844575582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904044326289587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984098244740992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20437625801968834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22359863670486804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026324877640684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692431398658748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193925613363238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19991982411261944,0.0,0.0,0.2054952658500928,0.0,0.21458100452410125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195026108395285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961303622888692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34962995662643764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864411952695676,0.0,0.24338262426035095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197888556682467,0.0,0.0,0.12870698216236312
EDAnonymous,pancaketiddies4lyfe,2019/06/23,Watching fat people eat cringe comps kn YouTube while you purge is great motivatin Then after when my throat is raw I feel like shit for using the people eating them as some fucked up reverse thinspo :(,8.569459459459459,8.503010945945952,6.614189189189191,80.59263513513514,61.16216216216216,8.481081081081081,32.013513513513516,7.1686216300943375,2.0192810810810817,163,5,28,1,2,47,35,37,0.22,0.6459999999999999,0.133,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,0,2,6,3,1,0,3,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,4,5,1,5,0,0,1,1,2,1,2,1,5,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6174587332636792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15255597107397112,0.21554497590088526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789302928919253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326414199418228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14740251704294474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183418388909921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097057088684187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605845484930138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deadbodydisco,2019/06/23,"I want someone to break my heart so I have a reason to stop eating and lose a bunch of weight.. I do so much less binging when I'm depressed and broken hearted.


Plus when you lose weight after a break up, you get, ""Congratulations, show them what they're missing,"" as opposed to the worried looks and, ""honey, are you okay?""",5.13547619047619,5.653380603174607,5.349325396825396,84.76303571428572,68.36507936507937,6.934920634920636,28.448412698412696,5.985473137389443,1.1172888888888886,250,8,50,1,4,79,47,63,0.247,0.733,0.02,-0.9313,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,1,2,4,5,0,0,4,1,3,5,2,1,0,8,8,9,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,8,1,8,8,3,7,0,4,1,0,5,1,0,0,4,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768635222371402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21011940690387632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728439312851112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486670107925268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243825280289007,0.4594575132271917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509523513463776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21112906862680508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398832392348115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716777842522433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211179208953273,0.0,0.0,0.5001102732704374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20853802109049455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrsnailshouse,2019/06/23,"I binged I pooped my period came but somehow I lost weight After a few days of restricting but no weight dropping I said fuck it and binged ~3k calories worth of cheese, various breads, cereal, and chocolate chips at 2am standing over the sink like a rat. I no longer have a gag reflex so purging is out of the cards yay!

This morning I woke up with a TMI huge urge to poop. Had a massive bowel movement. Weighed myself. Lost half a pound. What the fuck is my body. 

Not sure if bowel movement was caused by huge binge or period shits but either way 🎉🎉🎉",1.1289423076923055,3.5493807678571443,2.3092857142857137,93.85109890109892,85.07142857142857,5.231868131868132,20.22252747252748,6.67199483983844,0.27790302197802275,434,13,91,5,13,138,82,112,0.276,0.604,0.12,-0.9676,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,8,3,0,9,1,5,12,6,1,1,16,12,8,0,1,7,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,4,1,0,0,1,3,3,5,0,1,7,3,9,3,11,5,3,16,0,2,0,2,1,6,3,3,5,53,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376546982723868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24470641584353106,0.0,0.2197897283282977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798265136375773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955941119539291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045271333292779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4671122023601652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20351928044363748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962074035883766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016491441398625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698267527217183,0.0,0.5210767454888516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mintfleur,2019/06/23,"I don’t get periods anymore but still get the PMS I love how I still get the acne, the horrible mood swings, the sudden cravings for chocolate and salty foods. 

But yet no period since January. I’m not sure if wiping a streak of blood once a month and then it’s gone counts. Don’t even need a panty liner or a tampon so I’m saving money I guess. 😒Same time every month. And yet I still think I’m ok 🙃

Does this happen to anyone else or am I just the insane one",-0.30733333333333235,1.8161860000000016,2.056000000000001,95.16466666666668,89.0,4.933333333333334,14.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.6108666666666664,360,6,82,4,12,122,71,100,0.138,0.774,0.08800000000000001,-0.605,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,0,9,1,3,4,1,1,1,16,15,11,0,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,6,4,3,14,0,13,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,12,44,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19988890097179565,0.14093229520697845,0.2065174331781751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763825803237139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837376104598722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13312550986527205,0.0,0.16981920563319333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437217162002332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31591329675200325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22203611187241887,0.0,0.1782348670600727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191171214314544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32175936162124924,0.0,0.0,0.1494508527516279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21465003432637894,0.1365792262064252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672879621247644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828874589719966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996367776296447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12914862888554698,0.0,0.0,0.1175286355918134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snakespit666,2019/06/23,birth control i’ve been off birth control now for about a year and a half because it made me gain 15 pounds. im now having to get an iud and the doctor said i will more than likely gain more weight. i decided to put the procedure off. now i have to get it this week sometime and im TERRIFIED. if i gain anymore weight im going to feel absolutely terrible about myself. 😭😭😭,-0.12075000000000102,2.1092384250000045,2.427500000000002,91.90750000000004,89.75,5.7,20.5,7.1686216300943375,0.6363499999999997,294,10,65,5,10,101,50,80,0.1,0.775,0.125,0.2672,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,5,0,4,3,0,3,0,9,10,4,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,4,6,1,10,6,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,8,38,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17921260108772588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101571959207561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4053561130949061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496108026842686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137079426506474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888237027464692,0.0,0.10269984619562203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5855831023265753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882842209588317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098915573122286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18166025858200607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718935605692713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17872365867923135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495210529002994,0.4401044309742048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163692628410076
EDAnonymous,Pois_HeittoT_ili,2019/06/23,"Can dudes have EDs I'm a dude and I don't think I have an ED but I feel like some guys who have it worse could. I think abt my body for several hours a day and look myself in the mirror etc. And I think about food a SHIT TON like getting enough protein, losing weight but not fast enough that I'd lose muscle but also fast bc ew i have fat everywhere and stuff. Also sometimes if I diet a lot I end up binging (only lightly, like eating one jar of Nutella maybe) so idk I guess im asking are there any guys with EDs? Maybe not trying to become super skinny but like ripped and stuff I guess. I don't wanna self diagnose myself so ik for sure I don't have one but like is it a thing for guys to develop muscle related eating disorders/body image issues?",1.0161084905660402,3.0401746792452826,2.905750786163523,91.92956957547176,82.0817610062893,5.484433962264153,17.484669811320757,6.6274283507984215,-0.11628018867924528,590,12,127,6,16,197,99,159,0.11599999999999999,0.733,0.151,0.7102,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,6,10,1,0,7,0,12,10,4,0,1,25,22,15,0,3,8,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,4,7,6,7,0,4,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,4,15,7,11,21,6,7,0,2,1,0,6,2,1,5,10,78,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804907462665305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674124809575747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549866170480177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246329491502576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506997886098884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010081238788734,0.0,0.0,0.07277832456120494,0.0,0.0,0.11453944662003965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23094557513217676,0.0,0.0,0.09995079462477048,0.2332065441618608,0.12585656096204953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705988850995888,0.08061940943512973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645756247653326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058958989649883366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486319814274157,0.3352150111137958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113361778373564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189637765118885,0.11778512644954095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27566181544213497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476481029324772,0.2524985226366921,0.0,0.09594025721530484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267441492438433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293892217424002,0.08582681491619658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772620794780005,0.12748734572503084,0.11583796487625575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161063138780256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583704086396469,0.0,0.0,0.1063589278409445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497191820208249,0.21692741257938766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661712164138733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741978476884387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150028593849029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,extra-black-depresso,2019/06/23,"I hate the size of my ribcage okay i don't know if anyone else hates the sizes of their bones but I DO

I JUST WANNA FIT INTO A 00 BUT MY LUNGS APPARENTLY NEED A **FUCKTON** OF AIR AND MADE THOSE SPECIFIC RIBCAGE BONES REALLY BIG SO EVERYTIME I ZIP UP INTO A 00 I CAN'T **BREATHE**

PLEASE I NEED TO FIT INTO A 00 TO FEEL ANY VALIDATION AT ALL

JUST LET ME BE A TINY PETIT THING THAT NO ONE CAN SEE WITH A SMALL WAIST AND NOT FUCKING BARREL CHESTED

/rant. 

silver lining - i can poke and see my own ribs at even a normal weight which is very weirdly validating",-2.1174137931034487,-2.1161245086206883,0.5737500000000004,97.405625,134.60344827586206,3.51896551724138,13.969827586206891,5.602791699666715,-0.6325206896551725,431,12,96,6,32,145,81,116,0.12300000000000001,0.762,0.114,-0.0075,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,9,1,8,9,7,1,1,21,18,7,0,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,1,4,13,1,13,15,2,11,0,0,2,1,1,11,1,1,0,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922796488436976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534388251891822,0.2248440804955794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18331548528063074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493925474242028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095637939384692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028704296834554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333067388285817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12059948723438632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439413205228712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764115917071696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254266630093988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21500639500918392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869945872650314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24088122493685146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405800511911609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34973344402262385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14578739666592308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810624861017172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672210229147469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aleaallee,2019/06/23,"I don't get how can people eat vegetables  They smell disgusting, trying to eat one makes you want to puke, smelling cut vegetables like tomatoes makes you want to puke. I once ordered a plain cheeseburger at a McDonalds and they accidentally put onion, mustard and cucumber and it was the most disgusting taste and texture I've ever felt.

I almost puked and I hated that feeling when you chew cucumber, any salad veggie and onion, I just couldn't stand their disgusting taste and that weird chewing feel you have when chewing vegetables, those slippy foul-tasting green, red or yellow thingies slipping and getting stuck on your teeth and not being able to wash their taste from your mouth for a couple hours 

I hate fruits too but I like their smell, they smell nice but once you bite them, the taste and texture is way different than what you expected from their smell, the only exception are bananas, they are tasty and even tastier when fried.",8.191052631578946,8.77354228654971,6.743327485380116,77.17323684210528,61.807017543859644,10.114853801169593,34.05906432748538,9.888512548439397,3.2628334502923977,765,29,131,14,10,227,108,171,0.135,0.795,0.07,-0.8137,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,8,9,0,8,10,6,0,6,0,9,17,2,3,1,30,21,18,0,4,6,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,11,14,0,3,0,0,1,3,7,0,1,3,16,24,3,11,16,1,11,0,0,3,0,17,2,0,3,7,80,29,0,0.1813276427370373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157344147741705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233090150510034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20063558778164625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18944879303876894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37108689403125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197651978860852,0.16402123405911254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336940890780407,0.0,0.17410297299917565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18947241861528552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35804701364999403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857120242385935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717505405659578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24207521911838775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3862160432417619,0.12287230351489538,0.1379078432380362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570975619441574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18228436398170614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310956675937465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21390348344706128,0.14392944269762473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turtle_yawnz,2019/06/23,PSA: I just found out strawberries are like 5 calories each What a game changer.,2.4160000000000004,5.3415896000000025,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,86.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,1.6469999999999998,64,3,12,1,2,19,15,15,0.0,0.815,0.185,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9134280338512974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070002788384217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strongbutkindahungry,2019/03/29,"Weird binge win? Feeling confused but pleased So I was hellbent on having a giant binge. 

I’d been lying in my room ruminating, I just finished a book I was really enjoying and the urge to binge slapped me across the face. 

Not sure why, nothing happened, but you know how it is. 


I went to my supermarket of choice and bought $25 of binge food from blocks of chocolate to candy and cookies and crackers. I carefully selected each one, adding to my basket as I went and looking forward to them immensely.


And when I got to my car which is my usual binge spot, (naturally so I can throw all the wrappers away before I get home and my roommate sees), something came over me.


I took one serving of each, according to their labels, logged them all, ate and enjoyed them mindfully, actually tasting each one....and stopped. 


If I factored in my workout today, I’d still be under my net calories for the day. I’m astonished. 


Now I don’t know if I trust myself to take it all home so I can do the same another day and live a new life of moderation or whether I need to throw the rest out now.


I’m just basking in the mere THOUGHT of being the kind of person that can have a snack draw and not binge on it in the middle of the night. I think, *think* this qualifies as progress, so I thought I’d share. 



Hope you’re all having lovely days! ",3.6084339622641535,4.953082928301889,4.58353773584906,85.80058962264154,72.54716981132076,7.564150943396226,29.099056603773583,8.07648339933343,1.8629660377358488,1036,42,213,15,20,337,153,265,0.054000000000000006,0.79,0.156,0.985,0,0,1,0,1,0,36.0,0,1,4,2,11,12,0,1,14,0,15,7,1,1,5,45,40,24,0,4,10,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,6,15,4,2,7,2,1,8,3,2,0,2,12,4,33,10,32,26,9,35,0,0,2,1,8,15,0,5,14,140,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.13820503315617494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850558378184375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330608323130479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051197540540465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619806410636411,0.14439556505738896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740081609203123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716095770143912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17125284651851222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399292953906017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327000991845307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12523803298598654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28412174043475164,0.14066503400008254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748007041452718,0.15566618731046644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003353702644248,0.0,0.0,0.12505698360373793,0.0,0.1189288685652461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782159507680366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430003214198998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501273479999734,0.0,0.13678177586135604,0.0,0.13290495196841665,0.0,0.13589247894412054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28790517678691435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366100660860165,0.0,0.15546111654570552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072824886190142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128563500857851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902942038279352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310146832806328,0.11840438131930275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347936761329082,0.0,0.10648396065659822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149445741176606,0.0,0.22486798662400434,0.0,0.0,0.1342434184299231,0.0,0.15734997445272575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597932259149538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625745671538696,0.12779403741515238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babyflower05,2019/03/29,"I don’t know if this makes sense, but... I think my disordered eating thoughts are getting to me. 

Sometimes I feel like I don’t need to eat to survive. Then eating is just voluntary, and I’m choosing to make myself fatter. 

Maybe in another life I lived in a universe where we didn’t need food and I just ate myself to obesity anyway. Who knows? I hope this makes sense. ",1.5894594594594622,3.9637730135135136,2.8472297297297287,91.1246283783784,82.37837837837839,5.8621621621621625,22.763513513513516,7.1686216300943375,0.8630864864864871,289,10,59,4,8,93,51,74,0.0,0.917,0.083,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,3,0,19,19,5,0,4,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,6,0,6,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,12,2,7,16,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,37,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073624367650816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21940104558538406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5876572576418897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967952661109969,0.1367611713545989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314839095850792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000168637167932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901381067481253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104152915492401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521617135865552,0.09352545011617024,0.0,0.1690405740635738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833529604475645,0.0,0.1923221446650634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838931895371063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18933406720753013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266379048232842,0.0,0.15197797216942294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thumbelinax8,2019/03/29,"Hardly eaten and i feel like I look fatter For today, I’ve only had green tea, one of those This Bar Saves Lives granola bar, and a salad. But when I look in the mirror I still just see a fat person. I know that logically the 2 have nothing to do with each other and I’m not going to suddenly think I’m skinny because I happen to not have eaten a lot, but it’s just really sucks knowing the logical way of thinking but still having to go through my ED way of thinking. ",2.2178030303030307,3.6053280909090937,4.492815656565657,84.89255681818184,76.17171717171719,6.566161616161617,22.476010101010104,7.1686216300943375,0.8087464646464642,367,10,75,4,8,128,68,99,0.042,0.938,0.02,-0.4478,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,6,0,5,8,2,0,0,22,22,7,0,0,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,5,8,0,8,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,3,6,7,2,11,19,2,10,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,6,50,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651838467605567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494171715572892,0.14827121964541995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23590685181377616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353263324141675,0.0,0.1859208457698784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281241934463976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013967079929162,0.0,0.18326731072653396,0.0,0.3485734787713302,0.0,0.0,0.17644856307034615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991464086721081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063884045365704,0.1578484215534456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812215477282404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295956528533598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538764315770574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314937133840618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989621390560024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19672975926194872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32948141036000256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,axolotlass,2019/03/29,"Currently sick and happy I have some type of intestine virus (???) which means that i am in pain, i have constant diarreha, i feel like throwing up (which im scared  of) . But guess what? Im happy because i couldnt eat more than 200 cals a day for the past 4 days, and i count that as a win 🙃
 
 I only ate a chicken nugget and 10 grams of honey cheerios. I dont know if i want to get better. 

 I want to hear about your experiences, did you gain your sickness weightloss back? Or had a binge after days of not eating, not because you’re restricting but because you simply cant?",3.5476271186440687,4.1679760932203385,4.762500000000003,87.18917372881359,71.96610169491525,7.594915254237289,26.614406779661017,7.645422480735847,1.2895898305084748,441,14,96,5,8,146,82,118,0.078,0.78,0.14300000000000002,0.7952,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,0,3,2,7,0,1,5,0,8,7,1,0,0,18,17,8,0,4,6,0,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,3,3,1,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,3,14,5,13,13,2,11,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,9,57,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885011330140458,0.0,0.3064452732287468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482010432069651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810824124677608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32420416470124785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19638946106846691,0.0,0.0,0.34292956375222994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391450331016275,0.0,0.0,0.0847278527127962,0.11971123019667475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087547815490013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18459599599809964,0.0,0.0,0.3567603441310105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18886228869314575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620062569891184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209146556020804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186568290699263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18253161780841268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274436723050857,0.17830508618632815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996344186528658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776566587159106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767291554469665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ScottSteinerPhD,2019/03/29,"My new job: or how I learned to love the step counter So I got this new job about a month ago. It's the kind that absolutely allows me to lie to myself about my questionable dietary habits and over exercise.

My work keeps me busy. So if I don't eat a meal, whoopsie-doodles, I was too swamped with paperwork and meetings to eat. If I walked 40,000 steps, *oh my*, I must have needed to inspect the officers quite a lot today. If I drank sixteen cups of coffee, I totally needed all that energy.

It is sort of the total worst. I stopped sitting at my desk so much and am constantly moving. Well, I'm pretty much a perpetual motion machine. Everyone at work thinks I'm just super dedicated to my job, checking from building to building and being constantly visible. Really, I'm just getting my exercise in at work.

I'm getting paid to indulge my eating disorder. Which is incredibly troublesome. It is allowing me to lie to myself and basically ignore everything going against my recovery. Oh boy, I need some help.",3.1722634305972166,5.658897968911916,5.001630760839923,77.29572129806384,77.08290155440416,8.622743386964823,30.365148622852463,9.276330184999452,3.2610165803108817,800,39,141,22,19,272,119,193,0.085,0.792,0.12300000000000001,0.8228,3,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,5,10,6,0,0,8,0,9,8,0,3,4,31,25,13,0,7,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,6,5,3,3,2,2,6,1,2,1,0,4,0,24,4,22,19,8,20,0,0,0,1,5,5,0,8,8,95,31,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770259191971888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869787815178826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521788489122031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076051906873969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687820192408095,0.1193352514242032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13874547545223026,0.0,0.07546266057717664,0.0,0.10619731830132796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900049213992588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952947915851799,0.11802210135564498,0.0,0.13827126873379286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288589476679632,0.11984028806854854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598474977548544,0.14112548553833998,0.1952190355692972,0.2953669068611457,0.0,0.25648197257909633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508629607296022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487454204611467,0.14122923416741912,0.0,0.0,0.0850630871335323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110110944661382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508088185725551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258611264104637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193863158566918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28999905672623305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KateBlake1998,2019/03/29,"Warning TMI and talk of fasting/restricting - has anyone else experienced this? Over the last three days all I have had to eat is half a mini pack of sushi and a chocolate bar. This is my first relapse of my ED in over a year and back then I used to abuse lax so it wasn't such an unexpected thing before but I haven't taken lax in over 12 months so not sure how not eating is causing me to have diarrhea. I don't feel sick (Just a bit weak and have hunger pains) but twixe this morning I have felt a little bubbly wave come over my belly and then I have suddenly been having it, but not for that long either - maybe just a minute ot so. This has happened twicw ow, can someome please help reassure me this isn't me dying and that it has been had by other people too....",3.570857632933105,4.34039423899371,4.3705431675243,89.47307032590055,72.01886792452831,7.291252144082332,23.25957690108633,7.348242739294969,0.6787182389937105,600,14,133,6,11,193,101,159,0.094,0.8240000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.0325,0,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,8,0,21,7,0,3,2,23,27,15,1,0,9,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,12,7,4,0,2,1,0,1,7,2,0,3,7,3,12,2,14,20,3,18,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,10,95,24,0,0.0,0.2288232577256301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503850115327035,0.19788086610981792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850231565620686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433638074182785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108440592472084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983940587241036,0.0,0.16636133227095354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455058043785915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043475976400985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952331357680212,0.16133236382616695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765053367858467,0.0,0.18543167401434715,0.0,0.0,0.16427325593975034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17078107800413392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944858553213584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742382937961336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356343459483047,0.0,0.17091082699108784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19402147252963411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415168631701645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20550015450906567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338895604681968,0.0,0.0,0.2119948424483213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18201938938835466,0.0,0.0,0.15522772144621422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830462895248704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679924128566231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436709904526555
EDAnonymous,-Camellia-Sinensis-,2019/03/29,"“It’s like you never eat. Maybe that’s why you feel like crap.” I actually eat quite a bit but my husband says this sometimes. We work together so it’s kind of obvious if I skip lunch. Honestly I eat all the fucking time. But I really want to try not to now. If he already thinks this, I may as well live up to it. 😅",-1.5291304347826118,0.44805528985507337,1.6372318840579716,95.61410869565219,97.55072463768116,5.658550724637681,18.49420289855073,7.1686216300943375,0.3885350724637684,241,8,59,5,10,85,52,69,0.027000000000000003,0.7929999999999999,0.18,0.8496,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,2,0,2,3,7,2,0,2,0,1,6,1,0,3,13,5,6,0,3,5,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,9,5,6,4,2,4,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,3,5,34,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.19251973392096733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770667853910866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21538192262666825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6056092329901192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975220437467583,0.14093900315166466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18238493968454567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054398690586452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927650016174056,0.0,0.17420448921816056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19819727401137666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215679933110005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098347374715049,0.0,0.0,0.12638453123679272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15688734719485145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951179156376994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641097017631436,0.0,0.0,0.11503729444798058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339421961057136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636261535856565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773810953034136,0.0,0.17801720760812995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362436194335598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xrosieo,2019/03/29,"I'm moving to Canada and I'm worried about the climate I know this is such a first world problem but please bare with me. 

The average temp where I live currently is more on the warmer side, since I live in the south of the USA. I've been accepted into a university in Canada (I don't feel comfortable saying where sorry) and I love every part of it. 

I know the weather shouldn't be my deciding factor on if I choose to attend the uni or not, but being cold makes me miserable. The amount of times I have cried during the winter time is unreasonable. My ED makes me freezing even in 80° weather and I'm worried it's gonna affect how I feel in Canada. Will moving to somewhere noticably more cold effect me greatly if being semi cold already effects me this much am I just over thinking :(? 

Thank you ",4.406380575945789,5.2953798695652186,5.656070016939584,80.5803331451158,70.18012422360249,8.090570299265952,27.67984189723321,8.296473431620573,1.8677279503105602,633,21,122,9,11,212,101,161,0.114,0.779,0.107,0.1883,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,7,7,0,1,11,0,12,1,0,6,0,28,25,9,0,4,7,0,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,10,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,7,18,5,16,18,5,21,0,1,0,1,3,13,0,3,5,81,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19381645423475968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929256698293045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116004581294874,0.0,0.1479791954618137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776116257318002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493941658718953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19363707289095392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930476742945046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101760280264073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851651588907215,0.0,0.2344740787086039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733422312519018,0.12911117726940488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996043989284654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019447501171954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19279335808822445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16805799020580942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396711830415502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14528623562832413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660785098782824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170016317918676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112539156723885,0.0,0.0,0.20482716161288864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567296457230289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frenchgermanrussian,2019/03/29,I am so stressed I want to scream I'm so stressed from everything all I want to do is not eat for a couple days. I just want control in my life I'm not even thinking about being skinny right now. I wish my mom would take me to the psychologist already I'm tired of getting panic attacks all the time. I need to calm down ,0.7003105590062121,2.6718263188405835,2.4484886128364387,95.06478260869568,82.91304347826087,5.102277432712215,22.900621118012424,6.1826913282559595,0.2770273291925469,252,9,58,2,7,83,48,69,0.22899999999999998,0.6409999999999999,0.13,-0.8574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,3,3,0,5,4,1,1,2,13,16,2,0,6,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,9,1,10,14,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192017087526372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259791294655487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227891395222452,0.0,0.21978890444433694,0.0,0.12810492298126813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032560195191882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311983677720701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852281138937215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037800316741263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030372504171226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326421449905489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472873828840265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23305861368834924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16963556259309495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550777682974052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935087553053988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727905663559627,0.0,0.0,0.11582727586718365,0.2283048855247268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3514850939716314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842362212790596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110656624971013,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OpalMagnus,2019/03/29,"That’s It I’m Going Back to My Diet I got off my meds and now I finally am not hungry. Ready to fucking finally reach 85 lbs. 

Screw all the haters who think I can’t do it. I absolutely will. I had a temporary fall, but I will get back up again!!!!! ",-1.9785000000000004,-0.11291496363636,1.6803409090909118,95.26051136363638,98.63636363636364,5.65909090909091,15.965909090909092,7.1686216300943375,0.0665,187,5,47,4,8,68,43,55,0.125,0.85,0.025,-0.5905,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,1,5,12,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,8,0,4,8,1,10,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,6,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.465813631459494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6636112181395877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800206538038299,0.1582496313540461,0.0,0.1721416598041828,0.0,0.2422520290077437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364469893704378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19408226675937207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oh_sugah,2018/11/29,"Triggered by the custodian at school So I’m at school today (college student) and I’m walking to the bathroom. I walk by a custodian and our conversation went as follows:

Him - Hello, how are you?

Me - I’m well thanks, and you? 

Him - Sorry, you should start eating.

Me - <pretends not to hear> <confused by what I just heard><omg is it that obvious?!><internal embarrassment followed by happiness> Huh?

Him - Sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you. 

Me - Oh.

*sigh* ",2.57883787661406,5.026515707317074,2.9838593974175085,82.26106886657105,105.34146341463415,5.3440459110473455,26.774748923959827,6.794906146795322,1.997835581061694,376,18,61,7,17,116,56,82,0.11,0.8290000000000001,0.061,-0.4682,1,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,1,4,0,0,4,5,0,2,3,1,4,1,0,2,0,9,13,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,5,2,2,2,0,2,0,14,2,10,10,0,9,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,2,42,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25169205233486475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772297408816126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679369897393618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4978761421362237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5506938530234431,0.174101139489129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264591303151435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331538896401518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22115950099649886,0.22801967637788426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CatchTheWhale,2018/11/29,"Found it! Ive been feelin the ed thoughts rising up for the past couple weeks again So I got on Reddit to read my support group that is so unique in that everyone supports each other's victories and consoles and relates to our shortcomings and nothing but love 
but then only to be confused af because it was BANNED!?  Wtf???  
It took me 2 days to find y'all. 
I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE ALL HERE 

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EDAnonymous,urfavoritehalflight,2018/11/29,*Glamorous* rotting food Bought a shit ton of groceries like 4 months ago and haven’t eaten any of them bc I am a disordered shithead and I’m too scared to throw them out for some reason and now they’re just sitting in the fridge rotting and it smells fucking disgusting and stinks up the whole kitchen which means nobody can use it! and it’s making my roommate and bf disgusted too!  and the idea of rotting food is making my skin crawl so cleaning it out makes me wanna kms but i feel so incredibly guilty about it on behalf of the people i live with and it feels like a huge weight hanging over my head constantly which makes me want to restrict more because i’m awful!!!!!  but u know ~nothing tastes as good as skinny feels uwu~ sooooooo glamorous right?  just like cassie from skins am i right guys uwu,2.5076470588235296,5.114102267515925,2.5174971899587892,93.46245035593857,80.46496815286625,4.968002997377295,23.248032971150245,6.2272716619740125,0.4576762083177219,644,22,127,5,17,193,107,157,0.122,0.748,0.129,0.491,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,0,8,12,4,1,7,1,5,12,5,6,0,32,21,15,0,2,4,0,6,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,8,12,7,1,7,0,1,2,1,6,0,0,2,9,11,6,19,19,4,16,0,0,0,1,4,9,2,1,7,72,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832921553089642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061195859688193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512684206146496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686349853215536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884721523191194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367112300499024,0.1114823978316253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3773933938174913,0.0,0.0,0.1442660296279338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088762584272567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451437600433365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015267475893494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761618452813574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576118868391439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287149488548623,0.0,0.13779531383640747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166592688381949,0.0,0.0,0.16998457371072012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455789677665635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14973451497476215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081856608300276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604457450720528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665322844090166,0.0,0.0,0.15623361880466038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018343690214853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477739475231865,0.0,0.0,0.09204253675735458,0.0,0.0,0.19002728031472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422463759985007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ActuallyRubbish,2018/11/29,"“I accidentally fasted for 24 hours” -my best friend 🙄 I’m getting so irritated with her. I’ve told her multiple times that it really triggers me when she talks about forgetting to eat (she takes adderall and sleeps all the time). I feel like a failure because I can’t fast. I can’t do my job on nothing because I get too weak. And she just does it because she doesn’t do anything physical for work, sleeps all the time, and has a prescription for a notorious appetite suppressor. I just wanna scream at her that she shouldn’t boast (not that she is, but my disordered brain reads it that way) bc she didn’t really “work” for it. I just wish I could restrict the way some people do but I just can’t. I don’t have the drive, I can’t push through feeling weak and headachey and it makes me feel like such a failure. she’s been my best friend for almost 10 years but I don’t even want to see her fucking face ever again rn and it’s so stupid and petty. Then again, doesn’t feel TOO petty because it’s the one thing I’ve asked her multiple times to just not talk about with me because it makes me feel horrible. ",2.37953744493392,4.231108660792955,3.3915660792951527,90.96232709251102,76.9295154185022,6.830748898678412,24.125330396475768,7.734863291789972,1.0364204405286346,874,29,191,13,20,280,113,227,0.16699999999999998,0.722,0.111,-0.9213,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,4,18,11,2,0,9,0,18,8,4,3,3,39,35,14,0,5,10,0,5,2,2,1,2,1,0,0,13,9,1,1,5,1,0,2,12,5,0,1,3,7,33,6,16,30,5,19,0,0,1,1,19,2,1,2,15,123,46,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345948819102122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145910642898694,0.0,0.1152617126037427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757893890397541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587754488855227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13763504809472668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843891642792024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413037251883868,0.0,0.10789397438550327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615886342935215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143344045143001,0.1115249975141122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117016066535154,0.17616017209007773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19051074175076604,0.11398179937066108,0.12883033795153045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12141813845416873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223486421795239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046883793169927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645972142891975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183023438624664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354609342296086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547539791115827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332572386000068,0.0,0.15796848476527806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824804756414432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467627989278399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270051019243146,0.1981954561813536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190996501301047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875710645537349,0.0,0.0,0.11781113279034225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272102784904058,0.19572747188666045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178012841263932,0.0,0.0,0.17951661180009112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939623702383845
EDAnonymous,coldbrewkweeen,2018/11/29,"Starting an alternative mental health podcast and need your help! I’m starting an alternative mental health podcast that will bring up topics nobody wants to talk about and show how people with mental illnesses have a voice and should be treated like everyone else. 

So far I have a domain, an Instagram account, and an email. The name of the podcast? Pickles and Vodka. (I’ll explain why I chose the name in the first episode.) It’s going to knock your socks off.

My plan as far as structure goes is to start each episode with a brief description of my week, then launch into that episode’s topic. Some ideas I’ve had so far include:

- Sex and dating with a mental illness
- Everyday life with bipolar 
- Religion and how it has affected your mental illness 
- Talking to your family about your mental illness 
- Alcoholism and the holidays
- Balancing a career with your eating disorder 

Stuff like that. My ultimate goal is to have guests on the show that have expertise in the particular topic, but the first few episodes will probably be solo. (Hope you guys like listening to me ramble.)

However, because I don’t like talking to myself in a vacuum, I’ve decided to dedicate the second half of each episode toward answering listener emails live. This is where I need you guys to help a bitch out!

I’ve created an email for the podcast: picklesandvodkapodcast@gmail.com. I want you to spam me with everything on your mind. Got a question for me? Need advice on something going on in your life? Have ideas for topics you want me to cover on the podcast? Want to appear as a guest? HIT ME UP, FAM!

Seriously, the more emails I get, the better content I’ll be able to produce. The first episode will be up in December, and will basically be an intro episode where I introduce myself and talk about what the podcast is all about. But it would be amazing to have material for future episodes so I can consistently publish them every week. If you want to be anonymous, that’s totally cool. 

I’m super excited to start this journey. Let me know if you have any ideas for what you want to hear about!",5.492814900839733,7.277956080310882,5.89481686617831,76.50686528497413,68.50777202072538,9.054707879221011,31.704127211005893,9.494082108488547,3.1095051992138654,1661,71,287,36,29,533,183,386,0.053,0.8220000000000001,0.125,0.9819,1,0,4,0,1,0,51.0,0,15,1,8,12,13,1,0,30,1,29,12,0,5,2,56,57,23,0,14,4,0,0,4,2,6,10,4,1,2,13,20,2,0,8,4,1,6,1,2,0,5,2,5,35,11,56,40,7,41,0,0,0,1,37,22,1,6,17,197,48,4,0.08644726922783763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447527098634725,0.0,0.09238584051120796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058787107478104624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052697452946746035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764555845692036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907605997527526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845713800449986,0.07221560076855335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728355527646024,0.08260407036353465,0.07769323142988244,0.0,0.08149479181806787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22059600913077215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045165130192087226,0.0,0.0982599505605625,0.0,0.06913977830983611,0.0,0.0,0.17119277551173234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837788094652739,0.09743235521592823,0.0,0.11588756466638273,0.0,0.0,0.0858616439930836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927653336813603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0475091583762177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839818976714793,0.12212052561019975,0.16893507649795053,0.0,0.07633452251557228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5227110886016599,0.0,0.0872870985737988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922986642892117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0599316517562867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320477743257656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968407259221577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06655133128304064,0.0,0.0,0.2447512884044653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896144093791738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779321617639089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059330349725564,0.0,0.13868556991134964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780052144655379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061409659766132385,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PandaApex22,2018/11/29,"Where do I go to return my ED? I'm done with it.  I'm miserable,  sick,  and loathing myself right now because of it and I just want to have a healthy non-disordered mind. I went several days of heavy restricting last week and I just followed it up with three days of binging that rivaled food eating competitions.  I'm literally so sick and nauseous right now that I can't lay down comfortably,  it's hard to not hate one's self when this vicious cycle and filling of failure is your everyday life.  

Three days until I see an ED Therapist and it couldn't come sooner.  Am I getting my hopes up to think this is the magical pill that will finally ""cure"" me? ",4.487299145299147,5.489331353846158,5.383333333333333,82.1938888888889,70.07692307692308,9.162393162393165,31.367521367521373,9.444778638647367,2.75634188034188,516,22,104,11,9,169,87,130,0.192,0.736,0.071,-0.9483,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,7,5,2,1,3,0,9,6,0,0,0,18,22,9,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,10,9,2,1,1,0,0,5,3,3,0,3,2,2,12,2,14,18,0,23,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,1,12,65,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851867321718375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747850573388176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761609410421092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22282600997285612,0.0,0.0,0.1989625954882909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19894363098492035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298128310899733,0.0,0.0,0.2350974937614279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157817895785186,0.0,0.11049527367662876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17416513829576974,0.19195281241282167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19310626144664186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584809844421191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13732696609200826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963121656448665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174629771040067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33207296734701724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15493024261854987,0.0,0.20282596241834636,0.21964305181990731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22574050144139265,0.0,0.12457863602426004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11467593267709845,0.0,0.15595468871021673,0.0,0.0,0.18023239881356795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,inthedeadofnite,2018/11/29,"I received a copy of a letter that my therapist sent to my doctor. *I wanted to share a sample as seeing it in writing has made me realize just how fucked up I am*

""u/inthedeadofnite described that in the last few months she has become concerned about food and has started to restrict her eating. She said in the last few weeks she has started to make sick after eating. She described having a poor self image and thinks she is fat and ugly. She was tearful as she described not liking her personality either.""

*I can't stop thinking about how I dragged my therapist through hell and back, and gave up after two appointments because I'm a failure*

""u/inthedeadofnite initally agreed to attend therapy and we agreed to a course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. At our second session u/inthedeadofnite found it hard to speak. She eventually said that she had felt pressured to attend for therapy and had not wanted to attend.""",5.749408284023668,7.7389285562130254,5.748639053254441,77.00213017751481,68.17159763313609,7.803550295857987,31.93491124260355,8.384062270229773,2.7113810650887578,742,32,119,11,13,233,99,169,0.158,0.795,0.047,-0.9626,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,0,0,0,6,5,2,1,8,0,11,7,1,4,0,26,28,11,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,8,4,2,5,0,1,5,3,3,0,2,10,7,22,2,25,18,3,21,1,0,1,1,24,6,2,0,11,89,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082708698372036,0.0,0.0878603210135272,0.15918028081126082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752318041104706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949619803775785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838741958139952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742825894912223,0.15803112507705278,0.0,0.13324587886842007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911218582400616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23497040237884734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041464635185568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637930765035505,0.09620790599180112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504320503455465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584877208746725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742013045182949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485296351761587,0.0,0.15035904203296274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20403193669930994,0.0,0.0,0.12049914849855345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4944757088307254,0.33469211870184384,0.0,0.1847053912333518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079408436630542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700232374196825,0.0,0.11561240639721987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Zucchininoodles4life,2018/11/29,"Feeling like a fat fuck before my period. Rationally, I know that the five pounds I’ve gained this week cannot possibly be from over eating. I’ve been working out 3x a week and haven’t gone above 1200 cals in two or three weeks, sometimes much less. It’s water weight from PMS, I’ve had it all my life. 

But I’ve stepped on the scale 3 times today I still want to cry and scream and throw my scale out the window and eat a whole vat of blue bell Dutch chocolate and also at the same time eat nothing at all. Because what’s the fucking point of dieting the “right” way if I’m gonna gain five pounds for no freaking reason. 

I told my boyfriend this. He’s lovely and supportive but obviously it’s not a big deal to him because he’s a rational person who knows it’ll be gone in 7 days time. So he cracks jokes and tries to make me feel better but what I really want is someone to read my mind and tell me know, my thighs haven’t doubled in size and I haven’t developed a double chin and it’s just five fucking pounds. ",3.842343124165557,4.271806892523365,4.542456608811751,89.7209345794393,71.19626168224299,7.79652870493992,25.098798397863817,7.7094869923839395,0.9862854472630168,801,21,182,9,14,257,133,214,0.048,0.8490000000000001,0.102,0.8269,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,4,4,10,3,0,12,0,10,14,2,2,3,33,28,17,0,3,7,0,3,1,0,2,3,1,1,1,11,12,7,0,6,2,0,4,6,5,0,5,5,5,14,5,18,19,8,27,0,0,1,4,10,12,3,2,11,98,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321394142621564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573547308280644,0.0,0.10982556179392068,0.0,0.0,0.11414828665767815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177281396085126,0.08323681832713732,0.13306125994145065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961998643820176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051917867869986,0.0922046938735119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579579922100615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21279370472740936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116305134991014,0.06305507193254893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164870000801218,0.0,0.08615248030189182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031975107718127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948782758223782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384219737001552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269535228432027,0.0,0.0,0.1220089788952841,0.14550239258090925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291008118387404,0.0,0.0826829107092215,0.13270122544385607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022156039583142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935710533720984,0.0,0.12764946025091353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10307218230438044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646243654538849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280927210453998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22577806600204736,0.0,0.12233936749112047,0.12332798390172572,0.0,0.08762726365662782,0.0,0.12607861542090654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522528056468808,0.1024464918138124,0.3105866029026643,0.1571674771069942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440974511454274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396150128516928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Blue_Wave92,2018/11/29,"My ladies: DAE get two periods a month? So I'm on birth control (but I'm a lesbian). I'm only on birth control solely to regulate my periods that would last a whole month. Well, now I still get 2 really painful, heavy, and bad periods a month. I fear it's from restricting and not giving my body enough calories for my activity level?  Does this happen to you?  I've been on birth control for about 2 years and when I'm restricting, I get a few periods a month...bad ones.  
  

  
I'm afraid to tell the doctor since I ""know"" why and she'll just be like...""well, let's try a different one"". But I don't want to try a different one because I know the current one I'm on won't cause me to breakout.      
  

  
tldr: on birth control for regulatory purposes only, but still get 2 terrible periods a month? Anyone else?",1.463504601226994,3.515709717791413,3.8751495398773024,85.42474884969327,80.65644171779141,7.755981595092024,24.9114263803681,8.660442795831766,1.9107426380368089,616,24,130,15,16,214,89,163,0.126,0.863,0.011000000000000001,-0.9222,3,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,0,4,8,6,0,2,11,0,7,4,1,5,0,20,22,9,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,6,2,0,0,0,3,5,1,5,1,0,13,1,15,16,3,26,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,20,71,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646559838546456,0.11205010946431684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18261858591211844,0.06666357128506592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121471993001318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234070496118044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490616812007065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285114955988357,0.0,0.11193246211810837,0.09569985026794063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135450729645904,0.0,0.0,0.11299596165345055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305806013016472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22853999256488966,0.1049060789535609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670484499586388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020050264315628,0.0891412983026277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182587953478933,0.0,0.053426754448881696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.436442230759817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964150195257984,0.1663432477328292,0.11636453417833699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005748201042161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046199915889756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746667478352013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558363975436512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849369463627285,0.0,0.1068267947509971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06450213291446788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983259008962491,0.0,0.0986785107125626,0.12209420912709228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768472672765098,0.0,0.0,0.07042291321914793
EDAnonymous,greenbeansandwine,2018/11/29,"I just want to be skinny Why the hell do I even want that? I've been skinny before. I absolutely love the attention. I love when people call me small, when they marvel at my waistline, when they think I'm so dedicated and disciplined. I get treated differently. I attract people. I feel powerful. I feel like I can float. You know - that high from deprivation? It's like floating. I can float everywhere I go.

Why is this desirable? I'm not that young any more. Probably not young enough to be posting here. Not young enough to still be so driven by my aesthetic. 

I just don't understand why we want what we want. Please - this is new for me. I haven't had an ED for years and years. It's off and on but it feels really new. What do you think? Why do you want this?",0.17597402597402834,2.5755052987013016,2.1581818181818204,92.05727272727276,93.41558441558443,6.176623376623378,18.038961038961038,7.520522993642371,0.6214389610389608,592,17,129,13,22,196,85,154,0.032,0.784,0.184,0.9293,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,2,3,2,2,10,8,1,0,3,0,14,4,2,0,0,26,33,9,0,6,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,5,2,1,8,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,3,3,24,6,10,27,3,19,1,1,0,2,10,5,1,0,13,82,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326705678645844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670499102542155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004601540965392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329310254537708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834262998977787,0.0,0.09058662505464596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080422716834155,0.09798035899148573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716554860938193,0.0,0.07794580123014119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490705461324646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753743390725916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400963279939765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24756739827906646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649216539790431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901658036072524,0.0,0.0,0.15055008558473024,0.0,0.0,0.13135228638801644,0.0,0.14787145757785478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786213514101568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952858254779436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757610308199627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427785283378886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.404474651128032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4950280481077861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17664087662654934
EDAnonymous,MaDamMim27,2018/11/23,Self love and the holidays - a story of confusion Does anyone else find it so hard to decide what your self love means during the holidays? I find it great to hear “you can eat wherever you want during this weekend” and I want to. I would love to. It’s all I want to do. But I know myself. If I eat whatever I want all weekend it will turn into a binge that will turn into extreme restriction and start a cycle all over again. Everyone says I should “love myself and let go” and honestly maybe I should but maybe self love in this case is letting myself stay as close to “normal” as possible and not over indulging? I don’t know I’m so disordered I literally can’t tell which way is up. Anyone else? ,1.2149734042553175,3.6105588794326233,3.078080673758865,88.69031250000003,84.31914893617022,6.645567375886525,20.160017730496453,7.865858978985527,0.9823507092198578,546,16,112,11,16,182,79,141,0.032,0.758,0.209,0.9679,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,3,8,0,1,5,0,13,7,0,0,3,32,31,13,0,9,4,0,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,3,9,9,2,1,6,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,17,7,15,24,3,14,0,0,0,5,14,7,0,2,4,75,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558153736459546,0.22832659446723785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769735353721934,0.0,0.09750468342764992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280216316125229,0.1861547805705225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646690208974796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036723298932423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332274238808608,0.0,0.0,0.12284130943638324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09981073233561404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557881200642446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246740120544973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278696769646008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5028059990886321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238733989148036,0.12136940559496175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916826863513952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256096831768525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08860592013294337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487071186072589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886388450417411,0.11875924902122854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738628126395353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24238665223903386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26287439458367823,0.08844027339383684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914980708470967,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cumhacumha,2018/11/23,"How to mentally deal with plateauing? I've hit that weight that I always hit when I'm in a restrictive/purging phase.

That frustrating, soul destroying weight where my body decides to give up.

Against all logic, numbers and common sense my body will not budge from this weight. It does not want to lose weight past here. It's always been the same bloody weight over the 10 years of my eating disorder.

The worst part of it is that this weight is still a very overweight BMI! I can't even say that I'm at a healthy weight and reassure myself with that. It's fucking with my head so much.

Does anyone have any tips with how to deal with this mentally? How do I stop obsessing over it and getting stuck in my head about it? It can get so bad that it's more difficult for me to process than weight gain at times.

Any advice/reassurance is welcome. I'm losing my mind here.

​",3.3672447013487457,5.39114194797688,3.368115606936417,91.45699036608866,74.60693641618495,6.9254720616570316,24.25009633911368,7.793537801064563,1.0804831599229288,699,22,145,10,15,212,103,173,0.19699999999999998,0.73,0.07200000000000001,-0.9712,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,12,11,3,1,6,0,9,15,4,3,1,20,20,9,0,1,2,0,8,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,18,8,10,1,2,0,0,0,3,9,0,0,2,9,11,2,24,15,6,15,1,2,0,1,6,8,1,0,7,90,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895648674319575,0.09047163477628553,0.10146098870054243,0.1135649982019412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05838476695778681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971856498716936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854981626516117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721685626651246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569762024044323,0.0,0.14614188795391486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544079773078993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515060872460403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719390933221043,0.08725004765654097,0.08010029479247663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138908011173878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868290846237488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829564163449615,0.0,0.0843106560080214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06138171389505787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042178296639672,0.07970968691756047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640212550267154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668278011913963,0.06980929108502787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04868920916825385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889580288960381,0.049250147491257584,0.0,0.0,0.81343882188164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10146098870054243,0.05377091742696647
EDAnonymous,Blackleatherjacker,2018/11/23,Does anyone else... Get super embarrassed at the grocery store checkout if they've bought even one item of junk food. I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone and anytime I go to the store I try to only buy healthy foods. This is ridiculous lol,6.3456462585034,6.867109551020409,5.710612244897959,83.21176870748302,65.73469387755102,8.982312925170069,32.65986394557823,8.841846274778883,2.5555251700680275,204,8,39,3,3,62,43,49,0.094,0.73,0.17600000000000002,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,1,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,5,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,19,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741762636833058,0.2552320236012178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21798877804754455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080907896818503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452796624942784,0.0,0.0,0.4760507715769956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6024245591671545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301442833367331,0.0,0.14156906879289413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689865040812949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199595503077142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687963662441953,0.18945150493034166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16912230766765496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babymooonbeam,2018/11/23,"Advice on loose tooth and telling family? I have been struggling with bulimia since I was 16 and I am now 23. My family is unaware. I have avoided going to the dentist since I was a senior in high school by going away to college and then moving to another city. 

I have not taken the best care of my teeth. I use a fluoride mouthwash and brush 2x a day but I understand this is only preventative. I was a 1-3x per week purger for the first 3-4 years and I have been a 1-2x per month purged for the past 2 ish years. I understand that tooth decay is cumulative, so that doesn't really matter. 

I am fairly certain that one of my front teeth feels a little bit loose. I can't see any movement in the mirror when I push it back and forth, but I'm pretty sure I can feel it. Either way, the insides of my teeth look kinda brown and concave. I know that eventually I will have to do something about my teeth, I just was hoping I had more time. 

I am kind of in panic mode, at 3:30AM while at my parents house for Thanksgiving, which was, of course, a nightmare. 

Has anyone dealt with a loose tooth? If so, what happened? Has anyone had eroded teeth replaced? 

Also, I feel like I might need to tell my family at this point. Has anyone else hit a ""holy fuck my body is deteriorating"" moment where you can't keep it a secret anymore? 

Ideally I would like to just say I have a cavity, but if my teeth are actually rotting out of my head, I don't think I can lie. 

Any help or suggestions would be very much appreciated ❤️",2.8872087378640785,4.221754262135924,4.629955501618125,84.79988470873788,74.33980582524272,7.609546925566343,23.23098705501618,8.212053250817874,1.1862113268608416,1173,32,248,19,24,398,177,309,0.095,0.79,0.11599999999999999,0.8849,1,1,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,3,11,14,1,3,17,0,38,13,11,1,2,42,59,19,0,7,10,1,3,2,0,4,1,1,0,0,11,10,0,3,8,0,0,6,5,5,0,2,10,8,37,9,28,43,5,36,0,0,3,1,8,13,1,6,18,162,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.11169994496484778,0.0,0.0,0.11185248808242874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153648558309424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567832246807173,0.12002504653111752,0.0,0.0,0.11351711657324468,0.24010679491708534,0.11728146696750325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754230368404076,0.08801542953913233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012246800817117,0.0,0.12496458629897247,0.12714323620716972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167032509724325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381954138658067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561963554559673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237182357929457,0.0,0.17362867969702755,0.0817728062199804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736266481393843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581973759398636,0.0,0.0,0.13010458351570886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012197679966727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747265840526105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672252657137503,0.1209370594143956,0.0,0.11368816458755462,0.0,0.13207560604812396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174049142370876,0.0,0.11919620705925447,0.06290619146922834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184224927638946,0.11472258034261633,0.0,0.0,0.0961205809231128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142777251899495,0.0,0.0,0.09136373951759796,0.12165667350569898,0.08414390349749858,0.08487329607245761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756348585330386,0.08705471242961076,0.0,0.13429835152534986,0.1270982625317453,0.0,0.10926844133537712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820508337664893,0.0,0.0,0.11645061381898728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733283019669722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102603504812604,0.0,0.1158432564247084,0.09121265561486937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893709165816964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811965800511189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966218915343688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788057190000472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009243261034504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334364183904321,0.0,0.0,0.06674463545653676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383212523473753,0.0,0.09885978412987352,0.0,0.09444444317140943,0.0,0.09085586395959272,0.09181578155707336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262328979678453,0.0,0.0,0.14742158860803395
EDAnonymous,Distinguishedyouth25,2018/11/23,"purging help as hard as i try, i literally can never get myself to throw up when i need to. does anyone have any tips or something because i’m driving myself crazy",5.374545454545455,5.5690769090909065,6.578333333333338,77.28750000000002,67.7878787878788,7.8121212121212125,31.65151515151515,7.1686216300943375,2.0571333333333333,130,5,24,1,2,44,27,33,0.11699999999999999,0.8,0.083,-0.0258,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,5,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820835130131091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900432427360824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528629710110787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630010813640273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167199431443972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37158629202101534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27803690943462844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30757471094963423,0.3199253300377176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31933929273542466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816272521732684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,phoenixxwitch,2018/11/23,"my Thanksgiving experience I was really nervous about thanksgiving because I've had a pretty bad binge week and I was worried that I'd feel guilty for eating. I didn't want to restrict because I honestly love thanksgiving and I don't wanna pass up the food my grandparents make. All was well during dinner (I had ate mac & cheese and stuffing because those are my faves). I kind of panicked later on in the night because I had a slice of french silk pie, and after I ate it I saw on the box that one serving is 560 calories. I do feel pretty guilty about that, but I did my best to let it go and just enjoy the night. But I didn't purge at all today, which is a huge victory for me. I've read through some other thanksgiving related posts and I'm really happy that a lot of you handled the day well. I hope you all managed the day and if you didn't have a good experience with eating, I hope something about your day went positively! :)",5.62709956709957,5.529934153439154,6.407205387205387,79.72878787878787,67.25396825396825,9.624050024050023,30.93843193843194,9.339509955726095,2.5350486772486778,741,26,149,13,11,245,106,189,0.076,0.6809999999999999,0.242,0.9899,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,4,0,1,6,13,0,1,11,0,17,7,0,1,3,25,30,10,0,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,8,6,1,2,1,0,3,4,2,2,1,14,4,24,11,19,15,6,19,0,0,1,1,5,6,0,5,9,100,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14929777685621082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505072041561044,0.3359873525913785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460439897075988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665936837172919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819916139588043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695743979255448,0.0,0.0,0.1393437397016482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661885925988773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831047519499157,0.11557354880301132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146682345110801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737174648984713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348935854552428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090184673511946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11714598974361233,0.12436282837595967,0.0,0.09197735467973277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586172660735769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337155188262604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319668257001194,0.2803683823733168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782947534793746,0.0,0.17654640650172304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607915733525658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061088149284386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127340186200109,0.0,0.11052858077464764,0.0,0.24778344826459825,0.1277347376678706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993465431297786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thenecronomorgan,2018/11/23,"I'm back after ~recovery~ I left proed in August for recovery. Literally the last day I finished was the day proed was banned. I was already so worried about not being monitored all the time that that was the icing on the cake (pun intended?) and I just purged everything tonight, but I feel fine.

I'm glad I went through recovery because I no longer weigh myself or my food, and I can eat most things in moderation without distress, but my stomach hasn't been flat the past few days and my thighs are touching every so slightly and it's all getting to me. With the holidays here I'm just so worried I'll gain more weight. I keep telling myself I just want to look a little bit thinner and stay between 1200 and 1700 calories, but we all know how it goes. So I'm back.",4.2721925133689815,5.476118738562093,4.8737611408199655,84.89374331550802,70.76470588235293,7.916577540106951,30.90255496137849,8.296473431620573,2.18543660130719,609,26,122,9,11,195,101,153,0.068,0.805,0.127,0.88,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,12,3,0,1,8,0,9,6,2,2,3,28,20,15,0,1,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,4,2,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,6,4,17,2,12,13,7,19,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,12,80,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20341984238105432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2834866837553925,0.0,0.1123697812316755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124764681748045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566452568646751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862219500419988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531139879412156,0.0,0.1656697037669049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932060413912112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229003516912184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630818028555907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384669522363546,0.0,0.0,0.10130648512806832,0.15025879945945494,0.0,0.0,0.20028207849212865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847535370984596,0.0,0.0,0.15479618101744322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596998750948822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647811542283755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611181711612177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224649380431612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748805898642852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872640671441104,0.0,0.0,0.22447212011114787,0.0,0.17088172416871378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17769374750012504,0.0,0.0,0.3744051999719933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cocochaichai,2018/11/23,I just got dumped ...on Thanksgiving. Literally the worst possible day. Guess I’ll start the rejection fueled restriction tomorrow but for now I’m just gonna feel like shit while being forced to eat because I’m with family while pretending nothings wrong 🙃,7.738840579710146,9.112388826086958,7.576956521739131,68.04992753623189,62.91304347826088,13.08985507246377,34.89855072463768,12.45797560212912,5.1746028985507255,210,9,34,8,3,67,39,46,0.3720000000000001,0.5429999999999999,0.085,-0.9468,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,7,8,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,1,1,4,5,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,7,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879193352843152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19880949862649086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154385201834499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906107648705743,0.0,0.15587124181195325,0.22022909246671127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24655273557185445,0.0,0.33959561358496004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060579547260675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957946454797232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34752959446714443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164360798055197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819602682422845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370462949680702,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tcs_hearts,2018/11/23,"Fuck all of this. I hate the hype surrounding Thanksgiving. Hey all.

I used to have to go with family for Thanksgiving. This was especially bad last year when I was at my worst point in my disorder. This year was supposed to be easy. It was just going to be my girlfriend and I, she was going to cook. It was going to be easy. It wasn't going to be a massive feast, she was just cooking dinner. 

I forgot how much my girlfriend likes to make things in excess. It's not her fault or necessarily even anything wrong. We have a lot of food, it makes sense to cook it all at once and store it instead of making half of our beef or 1/4th of our potatoes. That is fine, and good and not something I resent her for. I don't resent her for anything. The girl is an angel.

For a week before this, I still had nerves surrounding Thanksgiving. I hate how everyone talks about it. ""Calories don't count today."", ""I'm gonna fall into a food coma."" Or ""I cant wait for all my favorite foods."" I dread it. I hate it, and it terrifies me.

Come about 4 pm and I realize today we have to eat, and I'm dreading it more. Cooking sounds freak me the fuck out, she knows this and understands. I look myself in our bedroom for a few hours while she prepares dinner. I feel okay. She knocks on the door and tells me dinner is ready, cue anxiety peak.

I walk to our living room and see that in the kitchen she has two full big plates of burgers, a massive tray of homemade fries, stacks of bacon, another side in a big tray. And I can feel my stomache fighting me and my throat trying to slam itself shut. She gives me a plate of food, and I just... I can't. I manage to eat a few pieces of bacon, but I can't even touch the rest of my food. I felt so pressured to eat and enjoy food because the day is Thanksgiving, but I just can't. I don't want to look at food or think about food or eat food again. The worst part is, despite us laying in the safe space of our bedroom right now. We're about to play a game, and I know were going to have to pass by the kitchen to get to the table to play. I'm gonna see the same food, and I'm not gonna be able to focus on anything else until its put away.

I hate this fucking holiday. I wish I could just be a normal person and eat goddamn food on Thanksgiving. But no, I'm trash and this is the day in which I'm most trash. I know my girlfriend expects me to eat later, but even thinking about food right now makes me extremely nervous and actively hurts.

How the fuck do normal people just feast and not feel anxiety and loathing? I don't even feel like I'm articulating what is wrong coherently. I feel crazy and my brain is telling me ""You're freaking out because you saw a lot of food on November 22nd? Get over it."" Fuck this day. Fuck this disease.

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EDAnonymous,Ccbb8887,2018/11/23,"At least I didn't binge On Thanksgiving I usually binge until I feel sharp pains in my stomach, but because of stupid family drama I lost my appetite. I usually love Thanksgiving. Its my favorite holiday. But my family just seems to be getting worse and worse. It's like I'm spinning my wheels in the sand and getting nowhere trying to earn their acceptance into this exclusive club. I miss when thanksgiving didn't have to be a huge trigger for anxiety and could just be about family and having fun. Simpler times. 

Sorry for the vent, I guess I just really needed this tonight. I love you guys. I'm grateful for this support network. Hope you guys have an awesome thanksgiving. ",3.7887728937728937,6.579228976190483,4.485238095238098,80.16873626373629,76.69841269841271,8.32136752136752,29.53357753357753,9.057496981413335,3.081347496947497,545,25,92,14,13,174,80,126,0.14,0.5429999999999999,0.317,0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,2,5,11,1,0,4,0,9,4,1,1,0,18,23,8,0,3,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,3,17,7,14,16,1,12,0,2,0,2,7,6,0,3,7,60,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257315148942288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018959308858566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122450059322024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4648192412264617,0.0,0.08310308392547612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717379403634964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105612330029108,0.32547558865053544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632421055013293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029580001628843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17941345367104874,0.0,0.2966745283531304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186752774107472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488585001569154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529034793861193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14962308307273384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839825368832673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650868446121285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583701929194896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158660236045408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620287474496586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349846108958058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pouiupork,2018/11/23,Who else ate all their Thanksgiving leftovers already? ✋✋✋ I ate them so I wouldn't be tempted later instead of rationing like a normal human. I was doing fine at family dinner but ed still seemed to win out this year. I hope you're all holding up well.,0.11653846153846105,2.488266423076926,2.1488461538461543,91.23365384615386,96.30769230769228,4.138461538461539,19.96153846153846,5.985473137389443,0.2494923076923077,202,7,39,2,8,67,45,52,0.0,0.7190000000000001,0.281,0.9306,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,4,5,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,2,9,8,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,6,5,5,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,4,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39822322866712784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014561961754222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34019117321087955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584201241845015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17630029044864062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35357083932999994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285177182143154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28818705808275075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244607512743237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23238506966868674
EDAnonymous,wwiwsky,2018/11/23,"Lost 20kg this year safely and sanely.. but.. I'm just 2kg off my goal weight which I've been trying to lose since July. I fell off the wagon once I ate an entire Domino's pizza while I was moving out of my place with my ex in July. I think I came to the realisation that even at a healthy weight I am just disgusting and ever since it's just been an endless cycle of hellish binging and restricting. I just had my first kybella treatment a few weeks ago because I still have a double chin but realistically will need $10k worth of beauty treatments just to look normal. It's fucking embarassing and exhausting.

Has this happened to anyone else? Fat me was so hopeful things would be different by now.",6.126357142857143,5.98589935,6.8278571428571455,77.27964285714289,66.21428571428571,9.285714285714286,30.357142857142854,8.841846274778883,2.3017142857142856,559,18,108,8,8,185,100,140,0.09699999999999999,0.78,0.12300000000000001,0.7661,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,4,10,8,3,0,7,0,11,7,1,0,1,22,21,8,0,4,7,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,5,2,1,0,1,3,0,6,0,1,8,3,13,2,14,10,2,17,1,2,1,1,1,6,1,1,8,72,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16027171500668422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642226454440586,0.18525492352153305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021635640632747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20679145197725052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889015541499076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510384268561771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941924596544125,0.16354744482859573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537916730608132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16715025742707054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598842584761209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795790313725069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15182970786586908,0.20227327427691846,0.19736877398448352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216589226690992,0.0,0.13406377307064385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771493969344236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19255021274024905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889015541499076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991256468361314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439019812947934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011805229748965,0.11585181453645588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227539543459041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502995255966927,0.4403407913101858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843787638873522,0.0,0.0,0.11643175954889595
EDAnonymous,pilotg2user,2018/11/23,"The thanksgiving that finally made me snap (or, I get weighed in at PE next week) This is kind of a throwaway account, and I apologize in advance if this gets long, but I don't know where to go or who to talk to at this point. I don't feel comfortable telling a single one of my friends, even my best ones, about my ED or what it's put me through, but I need to get so much off my chest. I'm a high school freshman who developed pretty standard anorexia in January-February of this year, and it ended up with me getting admitted to an inpatient unit for two weeks at the very end of August; I ended up missing my first day at my new high school, but have attended normally since. The only seemingly uncommon thing about my ED is that it has nothing to do with body image or a desire to be thinner. I just started to restrict my food really severely. anyways other then seeing a psychiatrist once right afterwards, when I was doing ok, I haven't seen any professional help for my ED, and I bounce between yelling at my family that I don't need/want one and desperately hoping one falls into my life. 

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The thing thats making my post this is that the extreme hunger is setting in and it's been fueled in the last two days by a) thanksgiving b) the fact that next week I get weighed in in my PE class as part of the state fitness test. I lost literally all the weight I gained in the inpatient unit - and more - during September, October and the earlier part of November so I'm fucked pretty much because my current BMI would get me readmitted right away. I don't know what to do. I basically have five days to get my weight to 90 pounds, which is basically the minimum weight I can be at to *not* get in massive trouble. I just need some reassurance that it will all be ok. I wish I could just be normal so bad.",6.639579236552919,5.738066217032969,7.279930595720072,76.99138519375363,65.40109890109889,11.17964141122036,35.091960670908044,10.5429385540328,3.472760439560441,1429,58,292,32,19,475,192,364,0.1,0.7709999999999999,0.129,0.8501,1,0,0,0,1,0,40.0,0,0,0,5,12,13,1,0,19,2,26,11,2,2,3,44,54,21,0,10,12,0,4,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,25,10,7,1,5,0,1,5,6,5,0,8,5,7,39,8,48,42,10,58,0,2,2,1,9,27,1,8,23,202,64,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929132096923402,0.10419913536476393,0.05831489901635455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056765360645718,0.0,0.07160007293026027,0.052274159740775684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999235706600618,0.0,0.0,0.09525211811752704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846669693376578,0.0,0.0,0.16591054039427733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22785479672711156,0.0,0.0,0.056638968509415126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084018348750176,0.0,0.04335923273219027,0.0,0.0,0.09393808851229096,0.0,0.07294135595214217,0.10369272292662712,0.0,0.06625246239696035,0.07927715579021663,0.3584187239956361,0.0,0.04873533790062174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05747834789531349,0.1812052518366966,0.0,0.08517195884658431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929842854927326,0.09425508047297633,0.0699000425141578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060569795183708725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758886003465116,0.0,0.0,0.09360939841877801,0.0,0.0,0.08114144850840503,0.05724071330636996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12607646735928474,0.19075402192873453,0.0,0.08282066589924045,0.18239832152799795,0.0,0.16803923075070018,0.08228220116295687,0.0,0.0,0.091324018567595,0.2324334832587631,0.06521892944050317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857240250446822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106418941480598,0.0,0.08212755478949132,0.17448301542790534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862053295410465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05493549077935027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464649820107381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173572985449352,0.06833394292626098,0.07806620133226705,0.0,0.09687634585433924,0.0,0.07093566851197912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06069632985746466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892491671195089,0.07495179686306089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394080621575225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675362068296416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075510679820078,0.050579270426020416,0.0,0.20635736349380976,0.3132717177721011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098611580008263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091638560758391,0.0,0.10419913536476393,0.055222043224876144
EDAnonymous,bexyrex,2018/11/23,"[victory] New traditions Reposted on my alt. Lol. Didn't want this on my main. 


As y'all know it's Thanksgiving. And it's my first Thanksgiving since my recent ED relapse. It's also my second Thanksgiving being in an environment with people who ACTUALLY give a shit about me. It's different. And I kinda love it. Nobody talking about my body. How big or how skinny it is. Nobody forcing me to say meaningless bullshit about what I'm thankful for when realistically I hate everything and was crazy depressed and lonely (yay dysfunctional families!). No pretending to care about family members I don't even fucking know. Nobody telling me I HAD to eat This or that or WHY AREN'T YOU EATING SEVEN PLATES WITH US. 

And I had a plate. And NOBODY telling me what I DID OR DIDN'T have to eat. 

So I ate what I was comfy with. (I even had some stuffing which I realized was BREAD after the fact.... I'm mostly not freaking out. And I stopped when I felt full and I stopped BEFORE I felt overwhelmed. And my partner was there for moral support the whole time so it wasn't even weird when I needed to be hugged before grabbing a plate. 


So yeah. So far so good.... Having some uncomfortable memories but I'm trying to be present. I've done so much I've gotten so far. So I'm not letting this relapse ruin my life. One step at a time. I'm gonna get back to sanity. I have to.

All my love babes ❤",0.8892355494180322,3.4442663394160604,2.8878891300059197,87.5477105938055,89.98540145985402,5.881870191359242,21.63898204774117,7.329194593529364,1.079680134148748,1083,39,213,20,37,362,152,274,0.10400000000000001,0.8029999999999999,0.094,-0.3955,1,2,0,0,0,0,40.0,1,2,0,1,23,17,3,1,7,3,22,13,3,2,2,37,45,29,0,2,7,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,16,13,6,2,5,1,0,1,8,9,0,4,16,4,32,8,24,24,8,23,1,4,0,4,13,9,2,8,13,149,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.1232288163962536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10098422858692772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709975425796677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149060385376988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026605398533978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874852795543978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876279530223434,0.0,0.0,0.1319333164212974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922592660717952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876408275665478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502156835445868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349025153955307,0.0,0.2380867484175392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24249278401988286,0.0,0.0,0.10741174447294992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674169597104825,0.06597488470977862,0.12113707341354672,0.0,0.10591574095378838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467308233502013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879783953678115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291275006545309,0.08919367179464076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279411033228632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282863691849146,0.09363331219141753,0.0,0.12195978655079436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556903551096767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754505518463755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468399143249335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004210929893877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962224120713842,0.104458215792228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111476178963811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329843398210976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149722945294384,0.22074454600832272,0.11625953736058545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726708111981307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573426710841903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15189652120627695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448185737309954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394598021167772,0.140984538950738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oliver889,2019/10/03,"ED win!!! But also like what the actual hay is my brain doing Actually ate something with high amount of carbs today that I’ve been avoiding for a while, (some home made vegan Mac and cheese my boyfriend and I made), and I enjoyed it with very little anxiety!!!!! I’m in the middle of attempting for the millionth time to recover and get to a weight that’s at least close to not underweight. 

Later on in the day I decided I probably should eat again because I was far from at least 1,000 calories and I was feeling hungry again but once I opened up the fridge I suddenly felt full and  my brain kept telling me “nah just have tea your not hungry.”  LIKE WHAT THE HECK I WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO EAT LIKE BRAIN PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GET ON BOARD WITH RECOVERY. 

Has anyone else run into this problem??? I’m very frustrated I feel like my brain can’t ever not be disordered 🙃",3.1320784313725483,5.177132364705884,4.100588235294119,85.8493137254902,75.35294117647058,7.827450980392157,24.27450980392157,8.648137234880735,1.6759333333333335,682,22,136,14,15,220,110,170,0.107,0.758,0.135,0.6336,0,1,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,2,5,9,1,1,8,0,11,9,4,2,1,30,23,10,0,2,6,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,12,5,2,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,9,4,16,6,20,12,5,26,0,0,0,0,2,15,1,1,13,82,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.3395586884471312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275447419852292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872946222181011,0.0,0.0,0.08110055559506875,0.11884201946913407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070437926760588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5179177978319798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480178754156773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329307381878782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373665778768271,0.09689195473902104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491655634830097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729266050575375,0.08286087887639869,0.11136536364853616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119646458052645,0.0,0.0659178804929243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254625339438995,0.11634405701216435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22666085460304305,0.11624908418313208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194987266408828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235219863325402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38195550214972623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505321537656225,0.11098355025619246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929218215831708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013774357823044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06763274259337022,0.0,0.1099417728711652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19140225040394734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412404806824374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,here4thesadmemes,2019/10/03,"I was doing so well and then I couldn’t control myself (tw numbers) I was at like 150 calories total today and then I got so hungry and miserable and impulsively went to my fav pizza place I’ve been avoiding and ate two slices and now I’m up to like 800 I wanna die

Why can’t I just have some fucking self control and stick to my goals. I wanna purge but I promised myself I wouldn’t throw up bc I don’t wanna mess up my singing voice and I don’t trust my laxative tea",-0.048529411764704385,2.104856401960788,2.185784313725492,94.53102941176472,87.92156862745098,4.576470588235295,19.284313725490197,5.985473137389443,-0.14683921568627456,371,11,83,3,12,125,63,102,0.098,0.75,0.153,0.6639,0,1,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,3,5,9,1,2,0,0,10,4,0,2,1,20,15,13,1,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,8,3,3,0,1,0,2,5,4,1,1,6,1,17,5,10,7,2,11,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,1,6,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5777876742328446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673236393060329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23812523320668386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060073788081139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516776387547365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691125178474701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26870836271183635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24415231156860656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516147175325057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23159211916641306,0.2387759052903175,0.23242263944494165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tw04679,2019/10/03,"found boyfriend googling mean shit about me and I feel like I’m going to have a breakdown

not entirely ED-related but I lost a bunnnch of weight rapidly and gained an ED and anyways blah blah just made the huge mistake of looking at my boyfriends history (bad of me I know, I shouldn’t have) and found him googling “small tits weight loss” “saggy skin weight loss” amongst other things like “women and Adam’s apple” (??? he accused me of being transgender (not that there’s ANYTHING wrong with that because there’s not ofc and I should’ve stopped dating him then, idk what’s wrong with me) and made me prove I wasn’t when we first started dating and he googled this just tonight so he’s back on that shit??? And also was googling “girlfriend is lazy” “girlfriend is negative” and the big bomb “have a girlfriend but fancy/like someone else” 

WOOOOW COOL LOL DID THAT TO MY DUMBASS STUPID ASS WEAK SELF WALKED RIGHT INTO THAT SHIT LIKE A BLIND BITCH IGNORING ALL BRIGHT RED FLAGS 😎😎😎

(I’m so upset and I hate myself pls help I am in shock lmao) 

P.S. sorry this post is an absolute wreck",1.6299192557486393,4.322682246445498,1.6625171142706705,97.06220466912413,86.7251184834123,4.642513603651045,22.5067579427769,6.238725200709706,0.3432484114446206,858,31,176,8,27,254,131,211,0.392,0.4920000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.9981,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,5,11,22,6,1,8,2,12,11,6,2,2,35,26,18,0,2,7,0,5,5,3,1,2,0,0,2,10,15,3,2,6,0,0,2,6,17,0,1,8,10,19,5,13,16,1,20,0,3,4,2,12,8,6,0,12,92,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080355034649446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117175727826688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387979374969236,0.11279876641278748,0.08235271966507285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285462186469335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683081422215842,0.0965119671510367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491182390123525,0.0,0.2962496105568037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677765916879656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337844341699462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055139852094048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742447344700707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800192730129493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344586027333048,0.0,0.1474722613280851,0.0,0.0,0.255660502067076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471581694800798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938376302739835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153704781109244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093365349465375,0.0,0.4160195394376799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446564068111108,0.0,0.0,0.15122790517593993,0.095621007821797,0.0,0.0,0.11294555359811992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897511822210975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4935283145748531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29541057072878724,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jankakr989,2019/10/03,"Dinner date misery So I’m supposed to go on date with this guy to E A T in a restaurant. Which is already freaking me out but he doesn’t want to tell me where. So guess who is having a mental breakdown in middle of the night. 🤪 Like I really want to cancel but he is so nice. 
W H Y do people like dinner dates so much like I just don’t get it.",-1.1551282051282037,0.6863132307692332,1.85923076923077,97.16910256410259,89.76923076923076,3.97948717948718,15.076923076923075,5.033348758259628,-1.029523076923077,264,5,64,1,9,93,55,78,0.09,0.69,0.22,0.8867,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,4,0,7,2,0,0,0,8,13,6,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,10,13,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,7,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32346263022688343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531418810618113,0.0,0.16658552292318454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229021524455101,0.2902325705091422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296074529540986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953936625440807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21547520903806347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275071070623426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321088074062751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18777868078356133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561977573629589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345776784401213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mlkjih,2019/10/03,"I was screamed at by a group of chubby girls today. They must have been highschoolers, because it looked like they were about to get on a school bus. I was coming out of the store and they just start screaming “STICK BITCH” and “ANOREXIC  WHORE” from across the street. Everyone in my life always tells me how *good* and *healthy* I look. (I’m one of those fitness bitches) 

I’ve never felt so secretly validated 😂",1.9138461538461515,4.67918602564103,2.1263589743589755,93.71030769230772,86.17948717948721,5.171282051282052,21.902564102564106,6.742157984588678,0.5674933333333332,322,11,64,4,10,97,65,78,0.172,0.748,0.08,-0.8654,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,4,7,2,0,4,0,6,2,0,1,2,11,13,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,5,0,1,5,5,8,2,12,7,0,11,0,0,2,1,7,7,2,0,4,40,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361291939518425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172990753558618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24445289611607726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711656746225973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724750344667319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826427976315895,0.0,0.0,0.2380227129941042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004434803673698,0.1386414549076787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4766104856428306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188700215947773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229789450744408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28720233571617504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20086222126483966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24803780460959665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689919681575799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NarutoUchiha2,2019/10/03,"I Quit Life So my older sister went out with my grandma yesterday and they decided they were going to get me a belt for the dress I'm going to wear for a dance. And my grandma apparently had my sister try on the belts and none of them fit her because she is so flipping skinny. My grandma decided that on a belt that would fit me because I'm ""chubbier than my sister"" so the belt that doesnt quite fit her and is a bit too big will fit me.....I want to cry.",5.383673469387755,3.9291026734693872,6.623387755102041,82.48589795918369,68.18367346938776,9.47265306122449,30.82448979591837,8.238735603445708,1.9783444897959184,354,11,80,4,5,121,56,98,0.12,0.866,0.013999999999999999,-0.8496,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,0,7,0,7,3,2,0,0,10,14,7,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,2,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,0,15,0,11,9,2,14,0,0,0,0,9,8,0,0,2,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3428303482252871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069944609739438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088818678873104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691390613357716,0.0,0.31962164377583274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19861786471306608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981755695934855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091440819949512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585736604014364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606725774490684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19975438910961216,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daytimecrying,2019/10/03,it is officially against the law to be skinnier than me sorry fam I don’t make the rules,-0.6628070175438552,1.4995949999999991,1.7852631578947395,93.54350877192984,99.0,4.63859649122807,22.12280701754386,6.42735559955562,0.4965649122807019,71,3,16,1,3,24,18,19,0.075,0.925,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5121564383104221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8588921833950888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweetbruiser,2019/10/03,"i feel like my scale is lying to me so basically i just got paid recently, and i bought a scale from cvs but it’s not an electric one. i feel like it’s lying to me. i know i’m restricting but i just feel like it’s not trustworthy, but i don’t have the money to get a different electric one for a bit 🤦🏾‍♂️ it also has this padding on the top, like memory foam, only a thin layer though. i feel like that’s also changing the results.

am i just overthinking?",0.7826952695269541,2.2877250693069304,3.7411221122112224,88.22860286028605,80.48514851485149,7.261166116611661,22.113311331133108,8.167268648758528,1.1001674367436745,356,11,82,7,9,128,61,101,0.141,0.69,0.16899999999999998,0.2177,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,0,0,8,0,5,0,0,1,0,16,15,8,0,0,8,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,5,0,3,0,3,0,0,2,3,5,12,5,6,12,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932129987502169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20014555317966684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19393560970086085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153764842422885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707824664573525,0.5238752520428661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578076724773917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662331284533514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075169984488852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4478214491249273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484541779782679,0.1394284100171868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101325095828005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011780211199102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MzMorphine,2019/10/03,"TW TW


So I was having a convo with my boyfriend, and he just casually said the having an ED was kinda my choice, I’d never really thought about it like this, is he right? How do you all feel about it being a ‘choice’ and how do you deal with comments like this",2.6579090909090897,3.5355765636363685,4.147045454545456,89.82056818181817,74.27272727272727,6.954545454545455,21.022727272727273,7.1686216300943375,0.33599999999999985,201,4,46,2,4,67,38,55,0.0,0.878,0.122,0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,2,2,12,11,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,5,3,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43789658664723374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147653752134612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150208825951081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275918793421573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721044757095916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36273251202870216,0.4040326597724712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372025051278711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bumalagirl,2019/10/03,ahaha I have fooled myself. I ate junk food. Now I will watch my stomach gain 10 pounds and constantly guilt myself for eating it 🤷,1.7433333333333323,4.30468307692308,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,83.61538461538461,5.005128205128205,16.358974358974358,6.42735559955562,-0.1993948717948717,104,2,20,1,3,33,23,26,0.17300000000000001,0.701,0.125,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,12,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5635542226241161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5336227883246873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6305976196776469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marsacat27,2019/10/03,"am i developing an ED? hi, so ive never been on this sub but had a question.

Lately ive been having no desire to eat whatsoever. I've always loved food and joked about how i could never have an ED because im in LOVE with food. But now all of a sudden when i see food i just don't want it :/ everything looks gross to me and i have no appetite even if it didn't. I recently just started medication for some of my other issues including depression, and i know EDs can come with depression but i might just be looking for something to blame. Ive never really had any issues with my body, im naturally very skinny and as a young child was a competitive swimmer so i was very fit. I just don't know why all of a sudden i hate eating and the thought if food makes me want to cry.  is this the beginning stages of an ED or is it something else?",1.8730508474576268,3.4173505423728834,4.212,85.88172881355933,77.47457627118644,7.431864406779661,23.099435028248593,8.238735603445708,1.2334967231638418,654,20,143,12,15,228,102,177,0.177,0.685,0.138,-0.7742,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,1,0,10,0,22,11,2,2,5,36,37,16,0,6,10,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,9,7,0,4,1,0,1,8,4,0,0,8,3,18,3,17,26,3,17,0,2,3,2,5,3,0,6,12,99,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095419142696725,0.0,0.0,0.07798322354544532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990507663525168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737854897516074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878272731445817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155899817140566,0.0,0.1259655731044727,0.0,0.0,0.1975395564992372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346831835454553,0.09579660540876636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574203877836487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030628805273527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5546639317513189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321824399334293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24773828165763706,0.23938270680147794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604523260439218,0.0,0.12935887788890474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259695584097766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20699810230704965,0.0,0.0765467387745884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552342941709665,0.0,0.121652507283618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653342791681229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846272425809627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346401571960796,0.0,0.11322815077383107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138146917592717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765654942837706,0.0,0.0,0.08116785829184561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091039480599517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18923847604978253,0.1352770773483354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347673730404423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BF064Spinns,2019/10/03,"I feel bad for duding my roommates eating habits Well, first of all I don't think I have an eating disorder, but just some disordered eating/thoughts about food. However, I cannot help but judge my roommates eating habits. He eats so much! (and unhealthy).  We have an open kitchen/dining/living room space, which means that I will often see what he's eating.   
For example, he just had a bowl full of lentil soup (looked quite alright, healthy) which he ate with a whole garlic bread (like a whole baguette of 6 oz). Then he followed up by eating 6 (!!) prince biscuits (70 cal each). This is just not a one time thing. Sometimes he will eat two croissants with nutella and banana after dinner or 6 people Danish pastry. 

I feel like a horrible person by judging his eating habits, but he's not any taller than me (5'5'') and I know how many calories my body burns.",4.199353468617272,6.008186981595093,3.995705521472392,88.74772534214253,71.82208588957056,6.24237848041529,24.808400188768285,6.67199483983844,0.8385473336479472,670,20,128,5,13,203,113,163,0.081,0.8690000000000001,0.05,-0.7072,2,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,1,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,7,1,8,13,1,1,1,26,17,10,0,0,9,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,8,12,0,5,0,0,1,4,1,1,3,2,4,13,4,13,13,7,11,0,0,2,0,11,6,0,3,6,74,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692040473377033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496996342322559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303855793993832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23326421859132235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8330523107436317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029114152691392,0.0727013120756742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656170439003306,0.12305527793123915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821128692214125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055927671666219834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943499121229113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854574114992136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317427058706498,0.0,0.11085249135077146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480937086811551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895895409934405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055140222222299,0.0888577319842291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824016341889997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109394855874866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064870730685246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760849354158689,0.06520723991986334,0.0,0.08079046028838943,0.05934029656080391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941013174837318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149942938152576,0.0,0.0,0.227235150943708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aprilfades,2019/10/03,"Y’all I don’t understand IF My classmate just told me “I’m doing intermittent fasting, so I can only eat between 11:30 and 7:30.” 
That’s..! Normal eating!! Is IF just the “I skip breakfast” diet??

IF is a good method of restriction, I just don’t understand the ones with 8-hour windows. Maybe it’s just because I’ve never liked breakfast foods, so I don’t eat it by default. I guess it helps when you don’t binge eat every meal inside those 8 hours??? It’s a mystery",1.6041935483870944,3.9681542043010793,3.135924731182797,89.1438870967742,82.2258064516129,5.440430107526883,23.27849462365592,6.742157984588678,0.7936159139784951,363,13,72,4,10,119,62,93,0.054000000000000006,0.858,0.08900000000000001,0.5999,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,0,8,9,0,0,1,15,13,7,0,4,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,9,1,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,10,2,4,12,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,5,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358800506892972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6955249597549252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317370550342348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054805349602964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252957162706895,0.0,0.0,0.1871975126359512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390077664871692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33469446207061193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301941831170752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707179442464194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106081359842178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649572918151212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11514924850727246,0.12923973961466045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237579581273526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538071143813011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dairyfreemilk_,2019/10/03,"Obesity with bed and atypical anorexia. Cw: obesity, weight loss, rapid weight loss, atypical anorexia, binge eating disorder, not wanting to stop

So I'm obese. And I'm not just saying I think I am. I'm like 264 pounds. I checked this morning. 

My psychiatrist recommended I see a dietitian for binge eating disorder which I got diagnosed with 6 months ago.  So I saw the dietitian and she basically said what I already knew in the back of my mind. I flip between binge eating and restricted eating. And the problem is the restricted eating works. I've lost like 10 pounds in the past 6 days. By eating less than 500-800 calories a day. 

And I recognize that's wrong. I recognize how not okay. But I have zero desire to stop. I know how bad it is. But I don't care. 10 pounds in 6 days. 

My partner is really on the dietitians side in getting me to eat better. At this point they're not as worried about calorie count as much as nutrition. 

And I recognize I need to change. But I don't want to. 

I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I'm an obese person who binges and then barely eats for weeks at a time. 

And everyone else is saying my weight loss looks so good and that I look healthier and this is the least healthy I've been in 6 months.",1.95217741935484,4.214411604838713,3.5521870967741935,87.2637806451613,80.12903225806451,7.516387096774192,24.436129032258066,8.488131031819089,1.745801419354839,970,36,200,22,25,321,134,248,0.158,0.746,0.096,-0.9221,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,6,8,14,0,0,11,1,11,16,0,2,0,37,31,23,0,5,8,0,4,3,1,0,5,3,1,2,9,13,15,4,4,0,1,0,7,7,0,1,6,11,25,7,26,25,3,25,0,4,4,0,7,12,0,0,16,112,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834134236909343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752679505388756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795686050952664,0.07379154076134442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07816273779304678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010677546958726,0.0,0.09349170163755297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098857449720328,0.0,0.0,0.08970132622746578,0.0,0.0,0.20257659766909772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7234581617787084,0.07382808069867827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08444851123490142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044686331432294085,0.06313692059291792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04617360848765148,0.0,0.0,0.07412687383983985,0.07068357914665535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04856997575589026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953038188210092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842972292676124,0.0,0.09647450702728046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08923610534118935,0.0,0.14108419249980833,0.0,0.06496764877076748,0.06553081399909982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436634650087307,0.0,0.07716784481847372,0.0,0.0,0.0835453260405814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456535453959796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056616904720716336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406726329194762,0.14056270812722696,0.0,0.0,0.07042544411565085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777513420046487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05662874866162559,0.0,0.0,0.05153364478511626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10425470652679633,0.0,0.07089111866542751,0.32286004448448763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06433988982785754,0.08975166526866603,0.0,0.0,0.0966269484344028,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FerRiteNDaTussy,2019/10/03,"Getting Fat for money vs GRWM for money Hey, what's up? Hello..
So I love amsr mukbangs or bongs/eat with mes whatever ya call them as well as talented Picasso's that put on make up flawlessly 
I love youtube in General I can scroll for hours. I do have a confession not to put myself in a bubble of hate or come off as shady but one thing I love is Mukbang Drama. I love it! I live for it! No real drama in my life so I guess it adds a little spice. I love seeing response videos, Rants, the apologizes after the rants, the rants after the apologizes, the part 1s and part 8 with receipts... All of it!! I even put my 2 to 3 cents in at times. Its great entertainment the comments are so funny... I never end up cancelling anyone because all the drama stems from that one same  argument that mukbangers throw on each other that the fitness and beauty community Relish in.. is the Money!? ""Doing it for the money"" or Flexing the money so to speak. Beauty Gurus travel the world buying crazy expensive makeup pallets just doing the MOST which is cool go off sis.. But as soon as a Mukbanger Gets a little bit of money start buying things all of a sudden here comes another mukbanger and a flock of haters saying ""They only do it for the money"" I understand that risking your health not being worth the coins they bring home but I also I think its a dumb excuse to hate on someone because it all stems from Jealousy... Imo So stupid like if Burger King told McDonald's they only selling Big Macs for the money... Then everyone cancelled them because they are making America obese Duh.. Now sometimes the money does go to their head I know a couple mukbang channels and blog channels I don't like any more not because they got money but they have changed their personality as well. What does it mean to be ""Doing it for the money""? and shouldn't someone want to do it for the money? I come to work everyday for the money. Some more successful mukbangers although folks like to remind them ""They are just eating"" and ""They are Greedy Gluttonous pigs"" do put alot of effort and time into their content and it shows not only in views from me but in the big checks they cash... And the weight they gain",3.4174419938806717,5.4833804599056615,4.352774094849568,84.26591279959207,74.58962264150944,6.470576236613972,23.959459459459467,7.329194593529364,1.1379319989801124,1721,53,316,20,37,556,218,424,0.10300000000000001,0.7090000000000001,0.188,0.9933,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,2,16,5,14,22,5,1,32,2,21,13,2,2,5,54,48,32,0,3,16,1,1,3,0,1,4,2,1,1,24,17,5,0,5,10,22,12,8,6,2,2,2,7,39,16,55,43,14,48,1,0,2,5,36,23,1,8,16,225,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264919491815386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061778124435678386,0.09525953443541507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352135702679179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22151454257550726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917986833413256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276351655984386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610260098142002,0.2347663257305057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051893045348884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899919662267198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591546049110555,0.0,0.0,0.08046223876980924,0.0,0.0,0.06000266318735802,0.0,0.0,0.08680686559910514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492615482738632,0.0,0.10325929805331784,0.0,0.07265752664342495,0.1001575966704964,0.10007667237927896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938244786030655,0.0932337963782794,0.09656462655536467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112554567831438,0.0,0.08946461829580668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0499263669180098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0641669351575708,0.13314771671656486,0.1821023179496764,0.08021833073623376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40995851225686775,0.0,0.1212802892254404,0.0,0.0,0.09895749263413238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006572854286985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311866173129216,0.207276521429309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967538677669253,0.0,0.0,0.07932287539204562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652996860313077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340218345369373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224406880724023,0.0,0.0,0.0723921827952605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394636715830598,0.0,0.08984862307186643,0.0,0.06430098451635524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207075622770802,0.05821019343303259,0.0,0.0,0.10594560191239433,0.0,0.0,0.08680686559910514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457347529038558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053583089655495936,0.0,0.0,0.11062546901479324,0.16336221222846947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661366800583667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,okay687,2019/10/03,"Does vomiting make you loose weight? So I was watching a Netflix movie called “to the bone” because I’ve always been so interested in mental illness (I want to be a psychologist when I’m older and I have some mental illnesses myself) and lately I’ve just been interested in ED’s, anyways they just kept vomiting and so I searched up “does vomiting make you loose weight” and every website gave me a different answer but most of them said no they don’t make you loose weight, but if they don’t make you loose weight then why do people with certain ED’s vomit? 

Also I’m very sorry if this came off as insensitive I’ll delete my post if this offends anyone ❤️",2.5203699354081053,4.872226427480919,4.013282442748096,84.23745742806814,78.61832061068702,6.778860833822668,23.817381092190253,7.882392219407189,1.4002432178508517,526,18,101,9,13,174,82,131,0.188,0.75,0.062,-0.9433,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,4,0,8,4,1,0,4,0,8,11,1,4,1,23,19,16,0,4,7,0,4,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,6,4,1,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,7,6,15,3,9,11,2,10,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,5,4,59,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198429954982067,0.11651863223417568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09791429459215986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08536278660198361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298929860730636,0.1601603896355529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630462829159424,0.0,0.0,0.2450875564806136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798379997540635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579632670445305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.373892326085965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822405550662024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708121576096396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411285745009344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320340270539754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675542289678376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554184921511182,0.0825950620587887,0.0,0.0,0.6820896321809824,0.0,0.0,0.12635795667378347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coconuthead00,2019/10/03,"accidentally saw weight in recovery? so i was doing pretty well in recovery- mostly behavior-free for like 3 months but I (admittedly a bad decision) checked my weight on the hospital portal where my health records are kept. I just got out of an appointment today, and they blind-weighed me there, but when I got home I was curious to know, thinking I could handle it, so I checked. Completely didn’t expect the number I saw- it was way way higher than before and I feel so utterly disgusted. All I want to do is relapse now and I’m so discouraged.",2.121318681318684,4.895391666666669,3.967619047619049,81.0026373626374,84.71428571428572,8.183150183150184,26.172161172161175,8.841846274778883,2.7266996336996345,435,19,80,13,13,146,78,105,0.155,0.735,0.11,-0.871,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,10,5,1,0,4,0,9,3,0,0,1,19,20,10,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,4,2,2,5,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,9,5,14,2,9,10,2,11,0,1,2,0,2,5,0,1,5,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117800741531226,0.0,0.0,0.184642937078178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22751041537187155,0.0,0.0,0.1732492610286879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971691882390464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34709425754346346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306507591683153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21765916816630126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192523063872924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10601059980142157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731997503452583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22075735239707225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13903875348148953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568162607020196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798662148336587,0.3444739245195452,0.0,0.5284719533810585,0.1951005229037393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,acidrat0100,2019/10/03,"I Think I’m Developing an Eating Disorder For a few weeks, I’ve been slowly eating less and less. Most days, nothing at all. I wouldn’t say I’m hungry; it’s more like eating is something I just stopped doing. I don’t really feel much different. I’m visibly losing weight- my pants are much too large, my thighs are shrinking, and my abdominal muscles are more apparent because the pudge that used to be there is thinning. It’s only been a few weeks, but I’m losing weight fast and, honestly, I feel much healthier than I used to. 

I always used to feel bloated and (ask anyone) I was a very gassy person. I’m not anymore. I use the bathroom twice a week at most. I feel slight stomach twinges but I wouldn’t say it’s painful, nor that I’m hungry. My diet consists almost entirely of energy drinks. I work two jobs at a sub shop and a bakery, and though I think about how good some of our sandwiches and pastries look and would probably taste, but I never really want to find out enough to eat one. I know getting high is supposed to give me ‘the munchies,’ but I’m high most of the day and I still don’t feel the urge to eat. 

I don’t get it. I don’t want to change it. I can see myself eating nothing and feel completely satisfied. Should I be worried?",2.002147058823532,4.034643494117649,3.5466911764705884,88.55886029411766,78.76470588235293,6.759803921568627,23.958333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.2289509803921574,981,34,204,16,24,324,137,255,0.079,0.85,0.071,0.2713,3,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,0,3,7,6,0,0,12,0,21,15,2,5,2,46,49,17,0,6,6,0,9,1,0,4,1,2,0,1,7,11,12,1,10,2,1,0,9,3,0,3,3,14,27,3,18,40,15,16,0,2,2,0,6,7,0,5,10,126,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913463356620628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07406675434268724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08827794011900789,0.06224063795753944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321604655651865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05426209031144042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416497811814048,0.0,0.09332945466659193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481329425650907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300065367308112,0.10201772217554654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719980326606096,0.0,0.5465010860326337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919752266173768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700488287922073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135715655156055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301225149866872,0.0853903116899536,0.0,0.07466069534337097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18809629439916908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833263079076878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04891975035370346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04348772979106535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474931660600992,0.1991677285346151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963065315230841,0.0,0.06865306170377722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17082261112064392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06031817021322496,0.06769913580371842,0.0947171407249244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772356574411614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597211568489032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404925786486388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415749644427301,0.0,0.0,0.07093260993173385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852730343677696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108667194644064,0.07441966524653931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407311633394762,0.08745577421663114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695371509085184,0.0,0.0,0.3075179626488841,0.0,0.0734458480847618,0.1050054923255955,0.0,0.21420491405044031,0.21679007150079133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480323078567457,0.090398008037709,0.0,0.06323297081534683,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rieslingbaby,2019/10/03,I hate being like this!! I’ve been binging and purging every day a couple times a day I literally skip classes and end up b/p-ing when I could’ve just fucking gone to class and I have a midterm tomorrow I haven’t studied for cos I’ve been binging and purging all day I literally HATE myself I hate this disorder I’m so sick of having no impulse control and not being able to eat like a normal human being,1.7805,3.757944623529415,4.240808823529413,83.58238970588236,79.23529411764707,6.132352941176473,27.095588235294123,7.1686216300943375,1.524676470588235,323,14,63,4,8,113,53,85,0.25,0.691,0.059000000000000004,-0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,4,0,4,0,8,3,0,2,1,11,14,7,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,0,8,2,5,8,1,9,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,9,38,10,3,0.2058466903407116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308745667164621,0.16435183233941938,0.22776544759537304,0.0,0.3982622579938583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23591814085135795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106325539011285,0.0,0.0,0.1823190691071992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173434714707005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19030194825061028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6096929704185632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011325903650404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016860511432377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003086051290235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,11oser,2019/10/03,"family commenting on ur weight i reached my goal weight n i felt amazing but my family kept tryna have talks w me cuz they 'care' or whatever, so i started eating more around them just to show i /do/ eat n anyway now im fat again n rllllly sad so yea happy they care ! n they still talk abt how skinny i am n how i dont eat. so it helped nothing :p anyway i love em its just vvvv annoying n sucks had to vent",-2.3647486694263757,-1.2404152808988729,1.08628030751035,95.61760496747488,117.53932584269664,4.570313424009462,13.672974571259608,6.339386263674448,-0.3403393258426965,316,8,74,6,19,112,64,89,0.192,0.669,0.14,-0.7167,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,4,1,13,8,2,0,0,1,5,8,2,3,0,10,12,8,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,7,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,3,14,5,4,9,1,6,0,1,0,1,10,2,1,1,4,41,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186145829924755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478561862351238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999304611262312,0.0,0.0,0.5236691325628057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216345445375143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16379335821977067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815964556489087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434302501883928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842667052922536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539643290437469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368591183791248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074463198010038,0.0,0.13623356581123575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742279054495442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154658484403046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Knotkaeli,2019/10/03,"too much soup I’ve ate like a “normal” person all summer and most of September, but for the past week, I’ve just been eating 1 meal a day of soup. Accidentally lost like 5lbs, wasn’t intentional but now I’m just like, “hm maybe you should keep doing this” but I’m already heckin bored of soup daily.  


I just wanted to let someone know of my situation this week. I know it’s not okay to eat so little, but with time I have available currently this is all I can do :( 

I also still don’t know what to post here (I am a lurker of this sub) or what flairs to make, so lmn if I should or not.",1.7383200000000016,2.9526383920000008,3.6338000000000013,91.2739,77.08,6.6000000000000005,18.9,7.1686216300943375,0.0199600000000002,449,8,107,5,10,152,81,125,0.11800000000000001,0.816,0.067,-0.743,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,10,6,0,0,4,2,12,4,0,2,2,27,22,11,0,5,12,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,2,4,1,3,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,4,0,9,4,11,15,4,11,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,4,12,67,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21321789724771936,0.15451421219411948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460788951225918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954149931716837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173864367237954,0.0,0.0,0.31855824117838144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757574341478165,0.0,0.28318571977409346,0.1936524983409433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091733318008904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897271859279186,0.0,0.19411074703132905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203548319595116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893099785825649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844458744845384,0.0,0.16870815449479307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850468556512628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21718210186774164,0.0,0.0,0.1637107036658183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430199474821024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266540003208475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396339483697365,0.0,0.3099713314075215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,averyquietvoice,2019/10/03,"I tried eating at maintenance for a week... now I can't stop eating It's my nightmare, exactly what I feared would happen if I stopped restricting.

My bf and I are starting gym together soon and he encouraged me to try eating at maintenance for at least a week so I'd have energy to have good work outs. I was scared but felt that this way of looking at food as fuel would be a much healthier approach than food fear, 

BUT I CAN'T STOP EATING

I'm suddenly hungry all the fucking time and eating every hour, eating late at night until I go to bed feeling sick and bloated and ashamed. Each new day feels like catch up to make up for the day before, but the cycle repeats :( Now I'm steadily gaining and I feel like I have no choice but to go back to restriction and fasting. I HATE THIS",3.06958130477118,4.763204088607598,4.236075949367091,86.3393524829601,74.56962025316456,7.393184031158714,26.077896786757545,8.139509932561175,1.6214268743914313,618,22,124,10,13,202,101,158,0.201,0.6759999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.9496,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,5,10,2,4,6,0,10,10,0,1,2,28,24,15,0,3,5,0,4,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,5,9,8,5,4,1,0,4,3,6,0,0,2,5,14,4,21,19,4,34,0,0,1,1,3,8,1,1,23,78,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360049901585295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251440542032917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140233377928258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6674984271821202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160296540236852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24468492968721284,0.1649193140582416,0.15534202222753585,0.10439015992742508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26293412283553874,0.0,0.0,0.1005117274880834,0.0,0.0,0.123578424409405,0.09119084661992358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961424963679626,0.0,0.0,0.10734045597439856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070692594063143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226431398966762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623214474462646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129908895454697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725727723166296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992317208887874,0.0,0.0,0.10500437507211066,0.0,0.10202822223611184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10884967832185034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695398384755342,0.0,0.0,0.2726893547317777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339666647103967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763018851686105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629845477447044,0.17442044414017527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915090332167198,0.0,0.0,0.15446596409060573,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,disastrophe_,2019/10/03,What’s the worst portrayal of eating disorders that you’ve seen in a movie/tv show? For every 1 good ed movie there’s about 10 shitty ones. I feel like a lot movies make it too much about the numbers and weight loss and never delve deeper into the underlying issues that cause the disorder in the first place.,3.8960655737704935,5.7753681147541025,4.2565245901639335,86.27495081967214,72.77049180327869,7.50295081967213,20.39672131147541,8.238735603445708,0.870085901639345,249,5,49,4,5,78,50,61,0.195,0.722,0.083,-0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,7,0,0,2,0,2,1,8,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,1,2,8,2,3,7,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,1,3,30,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497051942350516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.557170489190699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487266190574987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20480134441385645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290612751300582,0.17365297540544422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067596456560423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038799497807004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537073616611808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187542672232331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066538472972444,0.0,0.0,0.16225458720686944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868824466242825,0.0,0.18747458362240127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16471405010866855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253961853867513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296000115504283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,analogairbag,2019/07/31,"I had several dreams last night about bingeing This has never ever happened before but I woke up last night like 2-3 times feeling guilty as F for shoving food into my mouth and it was hard to convince myself that it wasn't real but boy was I relieved when I figured it out.

Then I shoved rice in my face for dinner and spent almost 2 hours walking it off 🙃🙃 guess I'm going down this road after all",4.800714285714285,4.697484309523811,5.5715238095238115,85.04014285714288,69.0,7.196190476190478,27.514285714285712,5.6839178017228535,1.023602857142857,318,9,65,1,5,104,65,84,0.063,0.785,0.152,0.7543,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,3,14,12,7,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,4,2,0,2,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,6,2,8,3,12,6,1,20,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,12,41,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342110735397781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990265825780996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115705303579976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118263843448693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828255755056084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13292736076529593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257660630748851,0.0,0.20683170805352485,0.0,0.2095230990488624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303384937944399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813096848835202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426880296319265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039348612446032,0.0,0.0,0.4389873837682384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662225988941209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26423366554393063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363854830742069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flower-crowns,2019/07/31,"Medication weight gain So I’ve been on fluoxetine for 4 months, and since I’ve been hospitalised they’ve started me on aripiprazole, olanzapine, promethazine and lorazepam. Recently I’ve gained quite a bit of weight so I’ve decided to stop the olanzapine and aripiprazole. The doctors want me to continue on another anti psychotic and they’re prescribing me quetiapine, I just wanted to know if anyone’s had any experience with this medication or any other medications, and whether you lost or gained weight on them",9.863999999999999,10.386752955555558,9.785555555555554,56.965,58.33333333333333,14.755555555555556,42.444444444444436,13.662883650711644,6.598377777777778,426,22,65,17,5,140,59,90,0.076,0.8140000000000001,0.11,0.4767,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,5,3,1,0,0,3,0,3,7,0,0,0,16,8,11,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,6,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,6,0,10,4,1,9,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,3,5,36,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22473002750537,0.17326260702612156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553568874264085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803930982229392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691243431887339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163088536261833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080846912412684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18037279525694866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4993686261627057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188846956514588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574705409652136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631489715410169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366835491847296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695371258824945,0.0,0.0,0.13814330254971574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19491898341199734,0.0,0.0,0.60363271598768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daveminer,2019/07/31,How do you deal with your tummy rumbling? I have been restricting myself harshly lately and my tummy keeps rumbling in class. Is there a way I can prevent it from happening? (Other than obviously eating),4.395833333333337,7.534379138888893,5.292222222222224,73.15000000000003,77.05555555555556,6.933333333333335,28.44444444444445,8.07648339933343,2.675077777777778,163,7,23,3,4,53,33,36,0.084,0.884,0.031,-0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,1,7,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362640092856163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330029175778951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742029620021113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3761280429683825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773479777655173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358882763894309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,atomizedshucks,2019/07/31,"I have a wonderful friend whom I desperately want to help. She has EDNOS and is pre-diabetic... possibly has diabetes at this point. She stubborn as a bull and refuses to consistently test here Blood Glucose levels.

I was a bit confused about the rules for this sub, so if this post is not allowed here, please forgive me. Flairing TW just in case

Q 

* is in her mid 20's
*  has been ***aware*** of her eating disorder since Jan 2016
   * she would barely eat/skip meals but always wanting to go to the gym
   * she was a very ""healthy"" weight (sorry can't think of another way to phrase), but she could not see that
   * around 2013, her ""routine"" was no longer working to *her liking*. every binge impacted her more that the previous >!and her weight began to climb.!< We later learned that this was cause by her body entering a  prolonged ""starvation mode""???
* Sep 2016 entered a iop at a facility renowned for its pioneering of eating disorder treatment in the US.
   * The original reason for entering >!was because she was hoping they would help her lose the weight she was gaining!<
   * give the diagnosis of EDNOS for she restricts, but purges through excessive exercise, but also goes on binges
   * core of treatment was:
      * stop exercise. This was *the* strongest pillar of her ED
      * eat full meals regularly (journal, and use 'exchanges') Not counting calories!
      * practice mindful eating and try to reestablish hunger fullness queues
      * Do NOT try or go on a diet not specifically outline for her by an ED conscious Nutritionist
* ""Graduated"" from the program the following January (2017) and got another therapist out in town
* Found out she was pre-diabetic end of May 2018
   * was told by the endocrinologist "">!Just lose weight. You STOPPED exercising?! That was a poor decision. Just cut the carbs and hit the gym!<""
* Lost insurance July 1^(st) of 2018

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# How do you navigate properly managing diabetes, where the culture is to count your calories and carb, while not awakening your ED?",3.782637681159418,7.029396191304354,4.12521739130435,79.14202898550727,82.73913043478261,7.7043478260869565,31.14492753623189,8.515128840125781,3.2785188405797108,1566,81,255,40,45,489,211,345,0.12300000000000001,0.815,0.062,-0.9706,1,0,0,0,0,0,102.0,2,4,1,4,10,10,2,1,24,0,27,19,2,6,0,52,44,18,0,7,14,0,4,1,1,3,5,0,0,0,11,11,12,5,8,4,2,6,8,6,0,0,17,5,30,4,40,22,4,33,0,3,1,0,35,18,0,6,8,164,41,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606600277965117,0.0791459752754256,0.10306054703821664,0.11557904335842857,0.0,0.19947948547305647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467537826104042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798318147318941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384445621026958,0.1056548948448442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771260910603816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759441554463424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802743183813444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4866484050659021,0.0,0.0,0.0842465065829913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08014119919453869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042922140284949,0.07348809754682832,0.0,0.0,0.0912460598246967,0.10811574803543746,0.0,0.07607472635929091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12751147003873858,0.0,0.0,0.09447385038264483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046469955614679516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128259062808477,0.1038327686763034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960422827643564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441123744262754,0.08991745881951019,0.10723149649717957,0.09109695759669648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779736771985778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579690296544904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07868277100289284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647705510259846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904617497768306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043957973558614,0.0,0.06094791195510758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088953136223044,0.0,0.12915804955754356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441550196474623,0.08215159852944487,0.0,0.0784824895891114,0.11220637616890544,0.07550041228340956,0.0,0.463313447206653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315164752251796,0.06924719392725877,0.0,0.0,0.13513850280486245,0.0,0.11557904335842857,0.0
EDAnonymous,onlymadetolikememes,2019/07/31,"Sometimes I think I’m faking my ED... But then I have thoughts like, your therapist’s scale is rigged to give you a lighter weight than you actually are so that you gain more weight. Oof",3.4493693693693714,5.160716459459461,3.2524324324324314,93.71126126126127,73.5945945945946,7.095495495495496,25.84684684684685,7.793537801064563,1.0692954954954947,147,5,33,2,3,44,32,37,0.134,0.71,0.156,0.2177,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,7,1,2,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,18,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2888995208872398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839956066633129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463378760423093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927984118624892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34373380622578964,0.0,0.1896951963055408,0.0,0.23502853736571935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7210118648822521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spill_zhe_tea,2019/07/31,"My experience going to the doctor I have no one else to share this with, so I'm just writing it here. I recently went to the GP for a checkup after more than a year of severe bulimia. Fortunately my bloodwork looked fine, my potassium was at 3.6 so fine atm (reference range is 3.5-5.0) and he listened to my heart and lungs too. 

However I'm not sure how to feel about it. I have mixed feelings. I asked him if there's medication, and he said there's no such thing despite me reading that Fluoextine is often prescribed for bulimia. I've heard it help many. He still urged me to go to an eating disorder clinic, but I don't know if I'm ready for recovery yet which I shared with him. 

It's made me feel kinda crappy going there, because he asked me how I'm going to be able to handle my studies and that I should go and get some help before the semester starts. I don't even know.. I'm so mentally and physically exhausted and the therapist I talked to said it can be hard work and involve a lot of homework..

I don't know what the point of all this is, I'm just really ambivalent about things. I know that I can't keep this up, throwing up every day. This is like a shitty addiction that's ruining my life. I'm worried that he's right and that there's no point in me trying to finish my studies, because I'll fail anyway. Even if I do get therapy, isn't it gonna take a long time to break these habits? I struggle to go more than a day without binging and purging. Is it even possible?

Basically I just feel hopeless and sorry if that sounds stupid. I know others probably have worse ED's than me.. I'm just so tired and don't know what to do. Thanks for listening",3.9845980788675455,4.612269750000003,5.4046713852376165,82.95296764408495,70.97674418604652,9.005864509605662,28.328614762386252,9.20300075937882,2.1894804347826087,1310,46,277,26,23,442,174,344,0.165,0.763,0.07200000000000001,-0.9868,1,0,0,0,0,2,39.0,0,0,0,2,26,13,1,1,12,0,21,11,2,3,2,48,62,23,0,5,11,0,5,1,0,2,8,7,1,0,25,14,1,1,11,1,1,8,11,6,0,1,6,13,31,7,34,52,5,27,0,3,1,0,21,7,0,8,12,174,56,5,0.10489000910710113,0.0,0.0,0.11434559227357725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19611599880941724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278799519956447,0.0,0.08925367223593153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529075708025798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021303768096207,0.10735936889136212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732866513604476,0.08762214341698543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078365853220129,0.0,0.0883743565417305,0.0,0.0,0.102602555721492,0.0,0.0,0.2121421607867704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10960140116597034,0.0,0.357668456200644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396084566254094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429516581761832,0.1406111242359796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09323105949919412,0.0,0.0,0.34586883536727075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408691539843934,0.051243960250721296,0.0,0.0,0.0928243573636882,0.08808119042613094,0.0,0.0,0.08917373484063601,0.0,0.0992494627514594,0.0,0.10634200609668662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566564918677726,0.10570445878652747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107618474574366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830992410663298,0.1182477252547883,0.0,0.0,0.1130891703237302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491839383320536,0.0,0.0671952256961926,0.0,0.10356622996827793,0.0,0.0,0.0895754946681914,0.19954883646250296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184958545369298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174157777238722,0.07424168831192025,0.0,0.08376529676487926,0.0,0.0,0.10965381158133604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988575922611736,0.0,0.07886423312584429,0.08430661615735899,0.0,0.0965686279686596,0.1199508666689065,0.12178538497009005,0.1393685226263882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611622078134598,0.12055563552494535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121343102269606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723408929031642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011102257705418,0.0,0.07636117586394882,0.10652089573046583,0.10689188028431007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06754572691094
EDAnonymous,llanowho,2019/07/31,"Tried on a dress at H&M and now I don’t ever want to eat again Best part is that after I couldn’t even fit it over my thighs, a friend of a friend tried the same dress on and it fit her like a glove 🙃",18.07375,2.9373038750000013,15.6675,68.22750000000002,62.33333333333334,19.200000000000006,50.08333333333334,3.1291,4.355183333333332,158,1,45,0,1,51,36,48,0.0,0.623,0.377,0.9545,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,5,0,3,2,1,0,1,6,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,7,3,3,10,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,5,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333057356653993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32282781829913776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31477167417078844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031798613875279,0.2782595627858407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4753323190961414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502874105330115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3331220770611272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4177070660116116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144202524685485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,im_raina,2019/07/31,"Psychiatrist Appointment & Diet pills Random thing I thought was funny, today I had a psychiatrist appointment but I got there early so I stopped by Well’s to stock up on diet pills and there was a sale so I legit got 55 euros worth of diet pills, stuffed them in my handbag (which was kinda small) and walked into the appointment feeling guilty AF.

So yeah, I know i probably sound like a dumb bitch but I tried recovering but relapsed but if I let my psychiatrist know she’ll def try to get me hospitalized so I sat there for an hour lying through my teeth about how I’ve changed my perspective on food while hiding pills....

She even noticed my weightloss (I lost around 8kg in 2 weeks since relapsing) but I told her I didn’t notice the weight loss. Now that I think about it she’s kind of oblivious as hell.

Anyways.... that’s pretty much it",2.005409004438807,4.6154704096385535,3.171585288522511,87.88517755231457,82.855421686747,6.386303107165505,22.592263792010144,7.669130373188453,1.1617036144578314,672,23,133,12,19,216,111,166,0.201,0.705,0.09300000000000001,-0.9734,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,2,15,8,3,0,6,1,7,10,1,1,0,19,18,15,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,6,4,5,1,5,0,3,1,1,5,1,0,11,3,25,3,17,5,1,16,1,2,0,0,6,8,3,3,8,82,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401572661697866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15940488879601378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18942592739713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827005725641475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054011880491626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165248520648311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355352887846212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864276143675521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634193161108982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864675599746276,0.19681773975798705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18310503178032506,0.0,0.0874816063328049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954694656716258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13163261448511754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077310121921858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217242269781014,0.1930612355165277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812355869509214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14970548910682485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896213887386553,0.11473695573702875,0.0,0.14215678316510694,0.0,0.0,0.1697316973535632,0.17110328807570574,0.0,0.24314535050979644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436343083098266,0.2180516640327048,0.16100000539531367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,l_plmr,2019/07/31,"ED thoughts always come back I'm about three years into recovery with only a handful of major slip-ups, but recently it feels like my ED thoughts have been getting louder. I made everything worse by stepping on a scale 4 days ago for the first time in 6 months. I feel like I've lost my ability to fast and I just feel so horrible about my body all the time. blahhhhhhhhhh",3.640315315315316,5.399088797297299,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,73.18918918918921,8.176576576576577,27.1981981981982,8.841846274778883,2.032673873873874,297,11,60,6,6,100,60,74,0.165,0.718,0.11699999999999999,-0.7084,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,2,1,1,13,12,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,5,4,6,2,10,7,2,15,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,12,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926393194274672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808260081159465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671041491388479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24139133804615984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18720023829864726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015214966075978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19531143064159548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32964757359927976,0.3105040849686552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485060343187207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353970005600295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21234122245346293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23722829879881685,0.0,0.0,0.20563157243684807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17346117645706202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652801528692125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457533501278386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450524788318988,0.25343977927388994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146563632930896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399456848534153
EDAnonymous,_garlic_,2019/07/31,"Relapsing is a witch Hello, lurker but this is my first post



I relapsed this morning. I've been so stressed lately and feeling out of control. This morning, I stepped on the scale and saw a number I hated, so I ate. Not a lot, but I still ate. And I scrolled through IG. And I purged in the shower. My partner doesn't suspect a thing. No one does. 


I've been mentioning to my therapist and partner that I feel like I'm slipping. We've been trying to monitor it so I continue with my recovery. But the fact that no one knows about this makes me feel so powerful. Like I have control over my life right now. 


I'm at work for another 7 hours and part of me wants to grab a snack but honestly I dont see any problem purging that too. Even though I'm at work. I feel almost fine with everything. Not sure where I am going to go from here.",0.3039031103770995,2.597639450867053,2.219388934764659,93.8236223506744,88.01734104046244,5.607376823561795,23.266996972199287,7.07126945348624,0.8861089457748412,647,26,142,10,21,214,104,173,0.096,0.743,0.161,0.855,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,6,12,9,1,1,8,0,9,4,0,3,2,30,26,15,0,2,6,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,1,2,9,9,3,2,6,0,0,3,6,4,0,3,6,7,20,5,18,20,2,18,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,2,8,94,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614549898929609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964629858187083,0.16907045092232298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616807235098114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109908277742006,0.0,0.18896789022038787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649513858903932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490890293121012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32610392600362664,0.11518733481358395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714762142436554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18326875296281653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591875896047674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878540081592238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08861132292709474,0.0,0.1818817112754636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388605587558565,0.1575439465663831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370774433525581,0.0,0.0,0.10762656624800676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185159499175944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746033367747491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544199260590686,0.0,0.0,0.15428148404302658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376950266589148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284845560183174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287636179276133,0.0,0.18469578100170528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519634231690397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872079176591762,0.10711831684290243,0.0,0.15841396971401975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946894928647244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951014214331278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347640766091415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,breadedcake,2019/07/31,"I just want to be able to accept that good things can happen to me I'm sorry I just don't know where else to express any of this. Finally had a moment of clarity and I just feel fucked up.

I was catching up with my siblings for the first time in YEARS and we were all reminiscing our unique upbringing.
While I've always had some form of body insecurity, it didn't get bad until I was 19.
I lost ~20 lb in two months when I was already regular underweight. I eventually moved in with my boyfriend at the time and he would regularly about was how skinny his ex was so that was motivating. 

Now here we are three years later. Just endlessly fucked up and unable to feel anything good in life. I'm in a new and seemingly glorious and healthy relationship but I can't shake that it's going to end horribly. I'm not as skinny anymore and I feel like he would like me more if I was. I can't even accept that he IS my boyfriend because I feel like he's so much better than me. 

HOW CAN I ACCEPT GOOD THINGS PLEASE 
I'm sorry this is such a rudderless and teeny bopper rant",1.5964545454545451,3.744261372727277,3.4890909090909084,87.85863636363636,80.72727272727272,6.90909090909091,21.81818181818182,8.00094639256281,1.0616363636363633,842,26,180,16,22,283,126,220,0.08199999999999999,0.706,0.213,0.983,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,3,0,0,4,15,16,2,2,5,0,22,6,3,3,1,36,39,18,0,4,7,1,4,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,12,2,0,10,0,0,4,5,6,0,3,12,4,24,10,25,24,5,29,0,1,0,2,11,10,2,3,18,120,34,1,0.1374842066078728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171724075315787,0.0,0.11439787352791098,0.0,0.0,0.0934939750276844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13634738984665445,0.0,0.0,0.11313778762468632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479356979842732,0.08380909626588923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159360820912088,0.0,0.15271395994558012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485041303280735,0.0,0.1217701995800889,0.0,0.0,0.09080702182006617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780645831965549,0.19643748934261546,0.0,0.15060722816399674,0.0,0.1169439959068171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542038672359757,0.07182982350124742,0.0,0.07813544294003871,0.3459456888260468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157682985477693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07555772442906407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710916101817216,0.20150351625926652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500802523154039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973858203856286,0.14612395373191045,0.1010667109923472,0.0,0.0,0.13278310346020097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091637312305714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14760658586886213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516045815012414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30780462659946584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826767956501506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16033629298350546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430209261933712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109174715028883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532967151927946,0.0,0.0,0.17707064291738972
EDAnonymous,-bluehoney-,2019/07/31,"I’m just really upset. ED related and also not. I’m on day four of a five day fast and I feel so fucking shitty and tired and achey and frustrated because I’m hungry.

My dog has been having diarrhea for over a week now and I finally got him in at the vet today and they treated me like I was fucking stupid. The fuckinng cunt old lady vet tech tried to get a sample but was like “We couldn’t really get much of a sample, mAyBe He WeNt BeFoRe CoMiNg iN” and gave me a dirty look like it was my fault. Like no lady, he was shitting his guts out hourly last night and he actually didn’t go before coming in.

And then the actual vet was like “Oh well maybe put some pumpkin in his food.” I’ve been doing that. “Oh well maybe he’ll benefit from a probiotic.” I’ve been giving him one.

What did I leave with? A probiotic and a dewormer he might not even need. I kept telling them it might be a food allergy or lactose intolerance because of the Kong puppy cheese or maybe he has irritable bowels or giardiasis but noooooo take this probiotic and if he isn’t better in ANOTHER WEEK (of diarrhea. in a puppy. That’s not fucking good to have for an extended period of time), THEN I can take him back and we’ll “re-evaluate”.

But then. The dewormer. No way am I getting it shoved down his throat, so I crush it up and roll it inside some ham. He decides suddenly he doesn’t like ham. I pick apart the ham (THAT SMELLS SO GOOD) into little bits. He doesn’t want it. I mix it in with his food. Doesn’t want it. I top his food with treats. He picks out the treats. So I shove it all into a blender and make it soft food. He doesn’t want it. I mix it with water to make puppy stew. Still won’t fucking touch it. So congrats to me, I’m a failure dog mom because I ruined his medicine. I don’t know why they isn’t just give us a liquid version. I guess I’ll have to actually go outside to the S T O R E where there’s F O O D and give it to him. Maybe I’ll order it on amazon. Idk.

And then I take him out. I come back. One of the cats knocked off the box of ham and it’s all in the floor. It made me what to fucking cry. Perfectly good ham. A mostly full box of it. Thrown away.

Does anyone else get just angry and irritable like this? Like I want to throw shit at the walls. And I’m so worried for my dog. I just want him to not hurt. And I feel like I’m not good enough. And I’m hungry. But I really really don’t want to eat just to prove to myself I can abide by my own fucking rules. I’ve given up so many times before and I look like shit because of it.

I dunno. Thanks for reading.",-0.4476370408356054,1.656478764918628,2.160239129848048,94.2755458692073,89.56057866184449,5.326808993009634,17.476154489757366,6.8221615863531175,-0.056892936762840574,1979,51,463,28,67,681,237,553,0.146,0.72,0.134,-0.8949,1,0,0,0,0,0,61.0,3,0,3,3,22,39,12,1,27,0,33,20,6,5,4,83,84,43,0,9,18,1,4,10,0,5,1,0,1,0,26,36,7,1,5,1,0,8,18,16,2,4,16,9,52,23,55,61,11,63,0,2,2,6,36,30,10,11,33,269,78,1,0.0,0.0,0.1800530819532364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049183630142912035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449086895643892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043004068162094726,0.06301671139331112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057783744431733626,0.09458345064804896,0.0,0.14996572701988245,0.0,0.15700262203544968,0.0,0.0,0.054394077339172,0.06714494176107863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15893720705023645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755774994945897,0.07932821536131869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053821365044167326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062932543553616,0.051377554634272,0.0,0.0,0.06354865638389011,0.0,0.04062190636966434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06219515427844456,0.04393749040343679,0.0,0.06737312377885551,0.0,0.0,0.3718461152096014,0.0,0.0,0.3411491364884033,0.12853034077470035,0.17699677757813506,0.0699067227103163,0.20634194872912853,0.04918927073527713,0.0,0.06775207964494423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06056770074458484,0.0,0.06583983630773926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03380023643264226,0.05013285123251614,0.0,0.06512240376872731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300470778822278,0.061641791518090065,0.0,0.0,0.10329343695313016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05819527457424393,0.08210696478618378,0.062354012525690984,0.30893828642633403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304891402506481,0.0,0.07203113569112386,0.0,0.0,0.04521150885397535,0.04560342006191883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057716050957707314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453666321660692,0.0,0.0833515461403829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182712922464927,0.0,0.0,0.06151927242469901,0.0,0.15760063585475556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893946943706961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911607891755057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13872696859847355,0.0,0.05375600853153322,0.056623357589021525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172535505173651,0.07068822456415272,0.0582973009213343,0.0,0.0,0.041756247911567054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398008999567295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176550641613672,0.04881792414071712,0.09866739830832057,0.0,0.11059649917146144,0.05701355319571552,0.05549655649623091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245890509707284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,superschuch,2019/07/31,App recommendations Does anyone have recommendations for apps to track measurements that allows you to input past measurements (from 6-9 months)? For iOS.,7.493749999999999,11.614997541666668,6.705000000000003,61.24000000000001,73.58333333333334,9.866666666666667,24.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.5330166666666685,127,4,17,4,3,39,20,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4176332571214144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5226852469257494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767445602366642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5701729732958908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fsamsa,2019/07/31,"Flavored green tea So. Just so an add yesterday for flavored green tea (tangerine,strawberry etc)
I usually go for herbal mixes or strawberry tea cause plain green tea really digustes me despite all the supposed benefits (i.e apetite suppression)
But would that make the trick?
Idk i d like to try it but dont want to waste my money over nothing",2.5038095238095224,5.448811523809526,3.1622380952380977,83.61192857142859,92.49206349206352,7.5993650793650795,28.522222222222233,8.238735603445708,3.0782012698412697,278,14,47,8,10,87,50,63,0.057999999999999996,0.836,0.105,0.6014,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,2,4,0,2,1,11,5,5,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,5,4,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515784604870121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011069593709676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816920906393136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450492928425905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16720293934817476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284502657299519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283919719852795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21925001876507505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232360944193334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769329821101581,0.0,0.20186414706969769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431200394879094,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Zelda_Dragneel,2019/07/31,"I got a concussion and was seriously triggered. They took off my sweater in front of all my friends and I hate my arms so even in 50 degree heat I keep it on. 

And then they stripped me in the hospital. 
And asked me how much I weighed.

I cried. so much.",-0.8771226415094341,1.2556649433962264,0.7975235849056617,101.14458726415094,97.67924528301887,4.914150943396227,21.71933962264151,6.6274283507984215,0.32420943396226504,194,8,48,3,8,62,38,53,0.14800000000000002,0.795,0.057,-0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,2,1,8,6,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,12,1,6,3,3,8,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131183606371031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679096047062103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22122094838943904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587694117726539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678775590593437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3306782826969335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977049979406993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924305016991054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721243346300742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lurker100594,2019/07/31,"SO jealous of skinny people who seem to just not care much about food i wish my eating habits were the same as theirs

* being picky to the point they will skip a meal entirely if there’s a single ingredient in it they don’t like
* constantly forgetting they need to eat
* not splitting up food into “good” and “bad” categories
* only eating until they don’t feel hunger anymore
* not orgasming literally every time they eat something really delicious lmao and not thinking of eating as something you get pleasure out of but rather as a chore

me? i pretty much think about food for the entire day whether i’m restricting or not. probably the only time i’m not going crazy over food is when i’m sleeping. it makes me feel like a pathetic loser and i’m afraid i’m wasting my youth because of my ed :(",5.706470588235291,6.591829222222224,6.1874575163398715,77.9525588235294,67.23529411764707,9.257254901960783,29.679084967320264,9.3871,2.607931241830065,633,22,115,12,10,205,100,153,0.16399999999999998,0.703,0.133,-0.8145,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,6,1,7,9,1,1,8,0,6,14,3,1,0,28,22,13,0,4,12,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,5,12,1,5,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,1,2,14,5,19,19,4,14,0,1,0,1,8,6,0,3,9,72,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322300371096948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09532469080559874,0.0695951541734527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640088311623192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233739872801441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362828144918575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.584106803357911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619063617901392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154525487087101,0.08156094007309746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5522048426626047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059647554544217586,0.0,0.06488374699294121,0.09575787761393288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115524758479325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620737066478019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678517880923378,0.08465339682913517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736583226568378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914903492704761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792473352505537,0.0,0.0,0.1161489005234253,0.12309135437110433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313831478769628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393336486701994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424946749786336,0.0,0.0,0.17578269544724684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630722983101654,0.0,0.0,0.1331434119559713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312864357456048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohnoimreal,2019/07/31,"Saw pictures of me at my thinnest and I looked so good. I want that back but I was always so faint headed Hi everyone. This is my first time posting here. This is just...my story i guess lol 


I lost 20 pounds. I am 5’5 and went from 130 lbs to 108 in the span of several months. The only thing that makes me feel less bad about how proud I was of that was hearing that others on here feel the same way. 

None of my clothing fit me. Except for old stuff that belonged to my *skinny* mom during her modeling days and even then I had some pudge around my stomach that never left. I was always light headed, I couldn’t stand for more than maybe 15 minutes without getting a hot flash and feeling faint, i was *always* so fucking tired and fatigued, and I stopped getting periods (which I was always so proud of, I would talk ab it to my friends in an almost cry for help but I’m not gonna lie, to me it was a brag). 

Everyone commented on how thin I was and how beautiful I looked. That’s all I got. Comments of envy and praise and remarks of how good I looked. I want that back. I’m now almost back at 130 and I don’t hate my body but I really do. I don’t know how I had the self control to not eat/eat as healthy as I did before hand but now I don’t. Everyone says I’m at a “healthy” weight but I’m so lumpy lol. I don’t carry weight well at all, it all goes to my stomach and upper arms and upper thighs. My boobs and butt are always last :( 


There’s no point to this, really. I just don’t have anyone to talk to about this irl...",-0.6161641834647966,1.5259432760736225,1.3727256792287472,99.04562372188141,91.69938650306749,4.331755769792579,16.964358749634822,5.916634753146586,-0.568589891907683,1172,30,277,10,42,385,164,326,0.11800000000000001,0.723,0.159,0.9348,0,0,0,0,0,1,40.0,0,0,0,6,24,12,2,0,8,2,24,18,11,7,4,49,49,31,0,4,10,1,8,0,1,2,4,2,0,1,19,14,3,2,4,0,0,1,12,5,1,1,15,15,41,7,36,31,8,35,1,2,4,3,13,16,3,4,15,181,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972698675528469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4098053201845073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887447625601475,0.0,0.0,0.08768713855443318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22722451285247225,0.08224456307728388,0.0,0.0,0.08381744507483603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941286113482414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047770723980113,0.0,0.0,0.1081991737913092,0.06352526073511172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015830669961904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06505925242202062,0.0,0.0,0.2823669557803807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941581783996202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837852491629685,0.0,0.0,0.07610194514661338,0.09106296646271353,0.102925842626064,0.0,0.0,0.16523661894958644,0.07878057598033772,0.0,0.10851040843885663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724974972346306,0.20218172896418168,0.0,0.11101824811520553,0.0,0.06602341890990297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05413379898973513,0.08029179608881133,0.0,0.0,0.1070220703505122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24814912896198835,0.0,0.10752592501377216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575045615805288,0.0,0.0989579059955056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536366108788232,0.07862288583176306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597035993501969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336066024266348,0.0,0.0,0.0749147610705219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311567107101636,0.0,0.0943371226290014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620505124302242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833227491666307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275845315662158,0.1112785561695518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08235158949527531,0.0,0.0,0.11276054837775172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834340463965718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065439960047356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05743696439188725,0.1132128808365842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619736759228227,0.07818583452207914,0.0,0.23989636228194075,0.08856459727800016,0.09131179406209156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495184436360808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699725756344264,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dogmomofone,2019/07/31,"TW: Lunch at the Workplace A couple months ago I started a new career at a company that seems to LOVE meetings...especially ones over lunch. I typically go to the gym during lunch but every once in a blue moon I’ll accept a lunch meeting no problem because I know I’m at an acceptable weight and can gain a pound without feeling bad. 

Lately though, it’s almost every day that someone wants to catch up over lunch or discuss an important project item at noon in the company cafe. After my family visited for a week and a half and threw me off my eating/exercise schedule, I gained a couple pounds and haven’t been able to lose an ounce even with water restriction... 

That being said, I’m pretty sure someone is bound to catch on if I keep saying I’m too busy with work to meet over lunch but am fine to meet later in the day or that I’ve eaten a big breakfast. It’s been every day this week, and tomorrow I’ve got a conference where I’m expected to eat the catered food and sit with my team. I know the easy answer is to “suck it up and eat it.” But I’ve been working so incredibly hard to lose that weight I gained while I was with family (even if I haven’t lost anything yet) and honestly would feel absolutely ashamed if I gave myself the additional calories.

Those in similar situations, what do you do to get out of eating with coworkers? It’s hard to sit there and watch them eat because I AM hungry, and since a good portion of the meetings are off site at restaurants, it’s kind of hard to be the only one not eating, but I’m mentally not ready to eat lunch everyday without feeling symptoms of guilt.",9.570600142891166,6.200110965944273,9.516718266253873,71.08612288640155,61.631578947368425,12.78675875208383,39.39723743748512,10.727762888450028,3.9830849726125273,1274,47,253,23,13,422,175,323,0.11800000000000001,0.742,0.139,0.8808,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,9,8,16,1,2,24,0,17,21,0,0,1,48,41,22,0,7,13,0,8,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,14,17,19,3,9,2,0,5,7,8,0,3,10,12,18,8,45,28,2,46,0,3,2,1,13,21,1,7,18,153,32,5,0.09058618090091247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029918371126264,0.0,0.09070897502554323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454470843861986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07563567726495789,0.1104409901733264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046377238032434,0.0,0.17526177801996135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561536675589243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196626362928668,0.0,0.22896829307689406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079317877947406,0.0,0.13740928462108287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953716951716183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04732754071398927,0.0,0.051482214165346624,0.07597939070744275,0.07245004407157099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434422754439464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051715976832698,0.0,0.09433156763121446,0.09956759197969656,0.0,0.10218515771254202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202685530760852,0.09888551726289163,0.0,0.08175756498370577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128956425098804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723050253525312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748869799232317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647132624635064,0.12276708113449328,0.06889487254479014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921587122961171,0.0,0.08667874119121781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616820206346569,0.07203776691547775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246625691317032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493382493299908,0.10182266274482292,0.0,0.0,0.15350675422815033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06411736508618017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537640345569432,0.09415372678523512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900046280398463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05343007650237604,0.0,0.14532554048902385,0.22061912855618168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17464369162615162,0.0,0.1318956371441435,0.0,0.0,0.06434982386750754,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IDKijustdrinkhere,2019/07/31,"I have no idea how to cross post my own post. My deepest apologies that I cannot figure out how to technically cross post. So this is an official announcement that this is a cross post. 

This just in from my visiting mother: “I’m surprised you’ve gained weight.” Thanks, Mom. Just as encouraging as you were when I was developing an eating disorder and you told me every day how much you weighed when you were my age. Planning your going away party now. Cheers.",1.718939393939397,4.4857687727272735,2.6904545454545463,88.8348484848485,88.54545454545455,6.115151515151515,20.96969696969697,7.492282038375204,1.0206787878787873,364,12,71,7,12,115,61,88,0.052000000000000005,0.772,0.17600000000000002,0.8934,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,5,0,2,9,4,0,0,3,0,7,3,0,3,0,9,11,9,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,3,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,1,13,4,8,7,2,17,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,5,49,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18497820430486528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269733466786873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22564515179271244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014606186111493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658825488576779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189323366772763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222257116316025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230587170582646,0.0,0.0,0.1447317719536537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7542385525146771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126355623948312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881302910160855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23975064110319114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ISetMyGnomesOnFire,2019/02/05,"Why I'm Crying This Time lol My boyfriend (the same one who asked me ""do you like pretending you have an eating disorder"") told me to call him when i get hungry to get his credit card info for grubhub.

Now im sitting here crying because what the actual *heck* am i supposed to do? Why am i like this.",-0.3610394265232984,1.9062913548387108,1.9418279569892505,93.41051971326168,95.12903225806451,4.691039426523298,18.179211469534053,6.42735559955562,0.0931125448028678,232,7,49,3,9,78,46,62,0.091,0.735,0.174,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,0,0,2,10,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,10,3,4,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,8,0,1,0,5,31,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2262103955926243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670844701806666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14130752192559187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23670107610577254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.509258664465977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26567114223538485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371966436533021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422193964987321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503915620449485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22649858476423498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570785627865837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516864663684622,0.0,0.0,0.22150172031718784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41833989830736695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greentea-dietcoke,2019/02/05,"i think i broke the toilet from purging im freaking out. i havent been purging often (maybe the last two months?) and not on a daily basis and not all in the same toilet but usually i purge into my toilet by my room. today i went to flush after going to the bathroom and it wouldnt go down. i plunged it, dug my fking hands down to try to unclog it, put hot water and soap down it, everything. my dad already suspects i purge so im freaking out bc what if its my vomit thats clogging the toilet??? is that possible?????? i just told him the toilets clogged and idk what to do. ",1.373045454545455,3.14447985,3.4145454545454537,90.01227272727274,79.66666666666666,5.363636363636363,22.57575757575757,6.1124844417494595,0.4116666666666662,442,14,93,3,11,150,77,120,0.115,0.885,0.0,-0.9034,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,7,0,5,3,1,0,1,19,10,8,0,2,5,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,9,8,1,0,2,0,0,4,4,3,0,1,3,2,14,0,16,6,2,18,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,2,5,66,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580574834375827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016782992020974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26580282731601873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5051927209654198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906176270662117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23493211186158905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665553220121306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636288927764321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23508219403796266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984058854557805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216609048316419,0.223452132075988,0.0,0.1587676881806566,0.0,0.2284358710302073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575509338560668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21677977520918815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hibyelxsa,2019/02/05,"My mom goes to an ED specialist, and now she wants me to go, too. I'm just scared and want to go but also I don't want to. I'm scared they'll tell me I'm actually ok, cause how can I be sick when I'm so fat. I want this to end but I don't at the same time. ",-2.874527472527472,-1.6189511999999997,0.9206593406593412,105.00076923076924,91.76923076923076,4.945054945054945,12.362637362637365,6.1826913282559595,-1.447043956043956,192,2,62,2,7,71,42,65,0.16,0.733,0.107,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,7,3,0,2,2,1,5,2,1,2,0,12,15,8,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,6,13,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.2382624268502458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19525260471018252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508169319248846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162510089522286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27752058268738394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859542254823044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4888883524382468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21340435128734106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237015808838616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5760415011035711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hmmmam,2019/02/05,"entertaining youtubers/videos to watch? I have already gone through supersize vs superskinny, secret eaters, and legit countless what i eat in a days. As for particular channels, I especially like oat fiber, blair walnuts, and sometimes even recovery youtubers like rebecca leung. If anyone has any recommendations or favorites, food/ED-related or not, I would love to hear them! ",9.976639344262297,11.947474491803279,9.121434426229511,56.82838114754103,58.18032786885247,12.001639344262294,44.75819672131146,11.698219412168324,6.212668852459017,308,18,40,9,4,97,53,61,0.054000000000000006,0.763,0.184,0.8025,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,9,6,6,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,5,4,6,4,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,3,3,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480458706522399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214479196811862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220531292588702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20340347576472614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227274946049591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20831521067617384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813764973219054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355472725001541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081718175547756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846560112927563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31193340178479684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22404733058239665,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Deinonychus_A,2019/02/05,"Binged on 3600 kcal of junk I suffer from BED that turns into exercise bulimia when I'm brave enough to log my binge food. I binged this morning on 2500 kcal, I exercised like I usually do cause between my bmr and exercise I usually manage to burn around 3000 kcal so no problem. I managed not to eat at dinner with my parents cause I pretended to have a stomach ache but then binged on another 1100 kcal after dinner cause I'm a fucking idiot. Now it's 10.30 PM where I live, I binged like an hour ago and I managed to get to a total of 3450 kcal burned in total for today by running on the treadmill. I know rationally I didn't do any damage cause I overate by just 150 kcal but 3600 is such a big number that I'm freaking out anyway and I'm scared I'll lose my progress. Plus the stupid android health app tells me I overate by 700 kcal cause it accounts for a 550 kcal deficit and it makes me wanna crawl out of my skin. ",5.254147727272726,4.921023354166668,5.967272727272725,83.36863636363638,68.0625,8.85681818181818,30.99621212121212,8.296473431620573,2.0839729166666667,732,26,154,9,11,240,117,192,0.162,0.758,0.08,-0.9540000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,8,12,3,1,8,0,5,11,2,6,2,25,14,10,0,2,4,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,1,0,6,10,4,0,1,4,1,1,3,9,0,0,1,1,21,3,32,13,3,24,0,3,0,1,2,14,1,0,11,91,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423747605954955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530907459173577,0.14696299306612803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476618333698145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7198804157966194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341185212050786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481586151080905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16947397030152486,0.0,0.0,0.12956950079792404,0.07322433348207125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489764423792238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802280429141311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702460817885967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369436811727862,0.0,0.12375796347984865,0.0,0.0,0.15679573322976742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355344013664416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562369367902876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410781449955644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14031793935537404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122500193235397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284897489694358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152446583602905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087181979385729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BED_bitch,2019/02/05,"I have an opened bag of chips that has been in my pantry for to days and I haven't binged on it This might seem small to someone, but this is a HUGE accomplishment for me. I can never keep any opened bags/boxes of snacks in the apartment; I just binge on them earlier or later in the day (or at night). 

But this bag of chips has been sitting in my pantry in plain view for two days. I have had a little bit on each of those days, but those were small, reasonable amounts. 

Definitely one of my proudest Normal Person^TM moments.",4.448221024258757,5.099079509433967,4.564770889487871,89.30650943396229,69.9433962264151,7.943935309973044,25.52021563342318,7.957251820313856,1.1083008086253372,412,11,91,5,7,128,68,106,0.0,0.883,0.11699999999999999,0.9259999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,12,1,0,1,1,16,14,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,1,10,0,19,9,3,25,0,0,1,0,1,16,0,4,8,64,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583441044219303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542088736346198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6006688142258483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20696532108686186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333741005598277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24701411971359724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958614215201815,0.0,0.0,0.2185113564742394,0.22814085207887805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15778331251999886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331322420128287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394057381566526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21197537754653686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972907065353832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22745791449666175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hairyfishstick,2019/02/05,"Anyone else can’t see their weight loss? I know I have lost weight because in December I weighed 127 naked and a week ago at the doctor I was weighing in 122 with my doc marten boots and two coats on. My size 25 pants that used to squeeze me uncomfortably now fit perfectly around me and even have some room! 

My teacher even said she noticed the weight loss on my face. 

Despite all of this I still feel gross and I can see absolutely no progress made. There’s just so much to do. ",5.056323024054984,5.342905783505156,4.583041237113402,90.999029209622,68.48453608247422,8.116151202749142,28.537800687285234,7.793537801064563,1.3313656357388317,379,12,86,4,6,114,75,97,0.149,0.758,0.094,-0.5728,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,5,8,5,0,0,3,0,6,7,1,2,2,14,14,5,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,8,14,1,10,10,3,12,0,3,2,0,3,8,0,1,4,51,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586158809901771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511614333600826,0.18334097754497952,0.0,0.15929088963696886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10907766520242132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314847813946755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947798579533395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23637095173282616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047536861135852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833849231094337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19532967476010585,0.0,0.0,0.1693134772195188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153847679920636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371971071661135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020901897062748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851774944039093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289844269588325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747943761168918,0.0,0.0,0.15454316808024593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14353158755589615,0.6536871700661335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kayteesays,2019/02/05,"Antidepressants that don't cause weight gain? Hi all. So I'm really feeling low and am at the point where I'm considering asking for antidepressants. I'm absolutely terrified of antidepressant weight gain and am concerned that if the antidepressants start making me gain weight that my ED brain will kick in and I won't allow myself to take them. Can anyone recommend an antidepressant that's worked well for you that hasn't caused weight gain as a side effect, so I could go into an appointment with a list of options to discuss? ",9.228571428571428,8.728981040816329,8.670326530612247,67.81038775510206,60.02040816326532,12.329795918367347,33.885714285714286,11.602472056035307,3.890997551020409,434,14,76,11,5,138,67,98,0.191,0.7440000000000001,0.064,-0.9208,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,6,4,2,0,0,6,0,8,5,1,5,1,15,17,7,0,2,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,5,7,1,11,14,1,9,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,2,1,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665619912627508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15596992601877233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18624509200835548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427747882616133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320564275679764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435772023762665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481722210583904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136488759212022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771474219070528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687995313258053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808797552281006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12544054213668254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8126493101451979,0.15000635732164272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145920804534233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainbowcatvomit,2019/02/05,"so uhm. fuck me. i haven’t purged in about 3ish weeks. which is so incredible for me. but holy shit, i’m a bit stressed out right now and all i want to do it b/p. please help me fam. i already ate two packets of ramen and two vegan burgers.  sigh. i can’t handle this. life is a bitch. ",-2.567316017316017,-0.9940098095238064,0.31665223665223863,102.99324675324678,107.4126984126984,3.560750360750361,13.663780663780663,5.565023196281405,-1.180415873015873,214,5,56,2,11,73,51,63,0.22399999999999998,0.6459999999999999,0.131,-0.8587,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,2,0,5,4,1,0,1,6,9,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,2,1,0,7,0,6,8,2,5,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,2,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30235372600843163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991250762632645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532984585107218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364908244378014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935265663786201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007576957168284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339851486807432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812458189284461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138535270808349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352949725766861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616058384512448,0.0,0.21977748635700176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hce692,2019/02/05,"Has anyone gotten a Vyvanse prescription for binging? Did it work, what are your thoughts? And how did you get one - psychologist or pcp? Ask for it or their idea? ",2.2590000000000003,5.1455945666666665,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,86.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,24.16666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.2146666666666674,127,5,24,2,4,39,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,18,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328536366950855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4392547779851301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24548195674133705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5304136670072225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.318388646923818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37301559560366704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420629785884829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiredandtwisted,2019/02/05,"My mom calls me out - all the time My mom lost all this weight after her divorce. I’ve always struggled with my weight and making the number go down has become a source of control for me now. But sometimes I lose it. Sometimes after a week of accomplishments, I’ll feel sad or angry and ill think “fuck it. What’s anything worth anymore.” And I’ll binge. 

Tonight my mom was sick and she had to take care of the dog because the drying machine was on and he couldn’t sleep yet. I went up to get a drink and then I said “you know you can go sleep if you want? I can look after the dog.” And she said “so what? So you can eat without me watching you?” 

I felt my lungs break. I couldn’t breathe. It was so quiet. I felt so ugly and fat. 

I just sadly and defeatedly said “no, because you’re sick....” 

It went quiet again. 

“No, it’s okay. I’m feeling better.”

And now I’m downstairs, in my bedroom in the basement. Feeling gross. Disgusting. A huge lard of fat. My mother is even disgusted by me. She always says it. She knows I’m too fat, she knows I’m too big. 

No more failures. No more steps backwards. I don’t care if it’s my birthday. I don’t care if my grandpa passed away. No more excuses. ",-0.796737060947585,1.3582870809716638,1.1544042017726248,98.6761932377722,97.21862348178136,3.4799868694605536,18.011708064339643,5.229147296764682,-0.610810832695043,907,28,205,5,37,296,130,247,0.20600000000000002,0.703,0.091,-0.9861,0,0,1,0,1,0,40.0,0,5,0,6,12,15,3,1,10,1,13,15,7,2,2,35,43,20,0,6,7,5,7,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,10,12,7,1,9,1,1,6,10,10,0,0,12,15,34,5,20,29,5,28,0,5,2,1,24,10,1,4,11,125,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564318931118576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063127104024738,0.0,0.0,0.0917991702054408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10480835054936456,0.0,0.0,0.13600417074441387,0.12320227060896635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866016094385084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139087754543862,0.0,0.34120922146428745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511693302657811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928013336943117,0.0,0.11414725976304554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736801507871322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921467091289338,0.0,0.21421804546707424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312957573772116,0.05828219140444822,0.0,0.12679704944071302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839209485395488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367699217227372,0.124800028910275,0.12177401481882175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446294483409005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919509506122354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183392737004587,0.08871196044369757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22326847708837966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065887559957856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662012286016285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387448118560356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147909112136894,0.0,0.0,0.06504784545782763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06579724825096049,0.0,0.0894816299237012,0.2716846488115382,0.0,0.20682275017538587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753376268213916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,reynita1,2019/02/05,"not to start any beef, but... i followed the vegetarian sub for tasty recipes, but all i ever see are people being whiny and judgmental and really weird about food. which sounds hypocritical coming from someone who has their own issues with foods, but like... dude... just let other people live their own lives. lmao",6.682818181818181,8.560176509090908,6.077954545454547,75.97693181818181,65.72727272727272,8.40909090909091,24.65909090909091,8.841846274778883,1.7490909090909097,248,6,42,4,4,76,48,55,0.105,0.809,0.087,-0.036000000000000004,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,11,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,5,6,3,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232375977660068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561837494862173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159172497214455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772724614408719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491401305748219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440862824522067,0.0,0.11661645704165842,0.0,0.4215518411105458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309681819717259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291693133132284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021249669041676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224920511388475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895264560676448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,faceless_dream,2019/02/05,"Do you find it very hard not to tell your friends? I've been dropping hints about what's been going on to a couple close friends for months now. ""I just think I would look ideal at a lower weight"" ""That ben and Jerry's would be more than my whole day's worth of calories"" ect. One of them straight up asked if I had an eating disorder and I just laughed it off and started pondering the semantics of such a thing. I told him that people who abuse food are all around us. Never gave a conclusive answer and I doubt I ever will, unless it's to someone who I think has one too.
I don't want people to interfere with it. But I want to say the things that come to my mind. I want to be understood, but I don't want to live with the knowledge that other people know. I don't really trust them. Maybe it all comes down to wanting attention from them and validation. 
It seems like I should be able to keep it all inside if I actually try.",2.769550949913647,4.078586300518136,3.857015544041453,90.32662867012093,74.5958549222798,7.219205526770295,22.71122625215889,7.793537801064563,0.8109698791018998,728,19,162,10,15,236,119,193,0.09699999999999999,0.8240000000000001,0.079,-0.062,1,0,0,0,1,0,18.0,1,2,3,2,8,7,0,1,8,0,16,3,0,0,5,48,35,10,0,11,8,0,2,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,17,11,3,2,11,0,1,3,5,1,0,2,6,4,24,6,26,22,5,18,0,0,1,0,16,8,0,4,7,115,41,0,0.13475638200378692,0.15966427714783332,0.13150278999389473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996174999543853,0.12597902639912567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321613819014968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14910537357984074,0.0,0.0869067182751084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444248852176565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788942075752195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189486247089262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231648918337611,0.0,0.16294795201946233,0.0,0.2082248929169342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658515735479403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071524942448515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11977766400671075,0.0,0.0,0.07405858336543487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583516143927542,0.0,0.11899235416071033,0.0,0.11316142162112205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538089821160873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606553109748545,0.0,0.10756125846454627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393242926875687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262882393668764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802693236116967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632838894599525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716368369454132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12267714908049154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417864517082035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538126076957214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778301749927632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905230473541367,0.17269289672761073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876549786250094,0.0,0.09149073773933987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209533543486582,0.0,0.0,0.11118812798313098,0.3974140276165025,0.0,0.0,0.16409696969993315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045068807938838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19145413485201696,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goodbyeroad,2019/02/05,someone told me i looked like i was “shrinking” it made me feel so great. it’s so euphoric when other people notice my weight loss. it’s the most amazing high and i hope i continue to “shrink”,0.5853846153846156,3.020766512820515,1.9750769230769265,94.79492307692308,89.0,4.1456410256410265,20.620512820512825,5.6839178017228535,-0.011096410256410394,150,5,31,1,5,48,31,39,0.047,0.556,0.396,0.9579,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,6,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,7,4,1,3,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,19,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751908228949654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34346326028303803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291488706874969,0.0,0.3094198847377761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521979706746993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616069946951492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29477750641088785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35467931624799925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597588767422787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26395861587450026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976805560910867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793599838778237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,brokendreamsandmemes,2018/12/16,"“it’s going to boost my metabolism” so the past week and probably this coming week is just going to be me binging the entire time because it’s finals!!1!1

i’ve eaten so much, especially because i’m so incredibly tired and there’s holiday food. 

i am so sleep deprived and gaining weight so much; went from 146-150/151. i just can’t do this anymore. 

but i’ve also been trying to convince myself that it’s going to “boost my metabolism!!1!1!1!” but i know it’s not going to because i have been eating so terribly. 

all i can do is wait for finals to be over and cry and starve myself until christmas. :’)",2.9332973805855147,5.159780711864407,4.493636363636366,81.95190292758092,76.62711864406779,6.6637904468412925,25.981510015408322,7.686295010490155,1.6340237288135593,476,18,87,7,11,159,71,118,0.159,0.748,0.09300000000000001,-0.9075,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,10,3,0,0,2,0,12,6,1,0,1,14,22,15,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,6,4,1,1,1,0,6,2,2,0,0,4,1,10,1,10,16,3,13,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501406384985577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861938685350829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433451832790912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172680272116174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623048122850746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921113233005204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056668812856524,0.0,0.0,0.22702355640913774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268021678176632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318044976862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27603024775092977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17922507561144174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20242225256702173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878818758933829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947637021415953,0.2157867391966147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746740540562207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011974947346914,0.22862439935907744,0.0,0.1740426897120732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dishsoapmeal,2018/12/16,"Giving food as a Christmas gift when you run out of ideas what to give sounds good, but not for people with an ED Guess who just found out what is their mom getting them for Christmas. 

Yikes.",6.786052631578947,6.006641815789473,5.172631578947371,91.81842105263159,65.05263157894737,7.6,26.894736842105264,3.1291,0.4860105263157895,151,3,33,0,2,43,34,38,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,6,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,8,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35408908794750943,0.3210710668759639,0.0,0.0,0.15299067704674882,0.5618150894397346,0.0,0.2456104469103591,0.0,0.0,0.32258333631511155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305674563926883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429569127852323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301024130183173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,areddittoshowoff,2018/12/16,"[Rant] I don’t fucking understand breakfast How do people get up and just immediately start cramming food in their faces. I don’t get it. Is it normal to do it? Is it like, actually normal and okay to eat breakfast? 


I just.... I don’t understand how people are okay with eating first thing. I don’t fucking understand. How can you be okay with shoving food in your mouth before you’ve done anything? 


I hate hate hate food. ",0.7361632270168847,3.2430501585365903,2.4114634146341487,89.00830206378988,96.1951219512195,4.962101313320827,20.941838649155727,6.67199483983844,0.7053778611632269,331,12,64,5,13,108,44,82,0.139,0.763,0.098,-0.7536,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,1,5,9,5,0,0,3,12,11,2,3,0,14,23,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,9,4,7,21,0,5,0,0,0,2,3,3,2,0,3,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.13604482512460336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472320525463064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862831797827507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14266564510614785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853040933102766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858275053265313,0.5057282580376252,0.0,0.0,0.2577660660483909,0.14567277225313954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129178916108312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06810907225217107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27318595767376874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19329978281735502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867567784807513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261833717374918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43539466079341216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IridiumFinch,2018/12/16,"Subscribing to /r/Instagramreality and /r/prettygirlsuglyfaces a few months ago noticeably improved my self image Basically what it says in the title. I have some issues with the Instagramreality crowd because there's some gatekeeping/woman-bashing but other than that...

These two subs have made me feel a lot better about how my body looks in unflattering positions. I hate how my belly creases when I sit, or how my chin looks when I'm laying on my back. Instagramreality is a nice reminder that most of the celebs who are famous for looking perfect on Instagram have...the same body type as me. And everyone looks shitty from certain angles, and I'm not the only person who can force a double chin by pulling my head back while tucking my chin (thanks prettygirlsuglyfaces). 

I still look at thinspo because I can't really give it up, but getting a regular reminder that other people are human and look human has been really helpful. I've been feeling a bit less bad about my bad angles. I'm still unsatisfied with the idea that my good angles don't look good enough, but that's a different challenge for a different day. ",8.773011086474504,8.683705653658539,8.94647450110865,64.11421286031043,60.7560975609756,11.161862527716188,35.22172949002217,10.637119530657019,3.792853658536584,909,34,150,19,11,300,125,205,0.10099999999999999,0.7509999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.8029999999999999,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,3,12,11,1,0,13,0,11,3,3,4,2,25,28,15,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,13,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,3,10,16,8,18,25,10,18,0,0,7,0,10,6,0,5,10,101,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997876532932347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734522999973496,0.1883446699779351,0.1375076722944124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975083120852196,0.1231340631141101,0.2505615988550601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273820797840409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356765715261792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653899848233508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077726987034094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405687236373566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892649050670571,0.10819545404155093,0.0,0.1892005702254468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135369519740013,0.11575187949367576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755986692622801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732266081153049,0.0,0.117720201393813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6629880208417231,0.0,0.0,0.09588737340277248,0.0,0.1067216744020124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090025412809241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840861219914734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577950579568744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819222247889675,0.09848115458281388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445083287972429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969265514813543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766131536889768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18014349860846854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383900714232147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101763947063944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starsinorbit,2018/12/16,"My boyfriend made me feel so good Last night I went to my boyfriend's house for the first time.I had only had 77 calories so far and I went over in the late afternoon. I was there for seven hours and I didn't eat a single thing. We made out and my shirt lifted up and he had his hands on my stomach. He kissed in between my ribs. Now he doesn't know I have an ED, but he knows I'm very insecure about my body. He gave me a whole speech about why I shouldn't be insecure and how my body is perfect and stuff. I was sitting and laying on him and stuff and he said I didn't feel heavy or anything. I felt so skinny in that moment and honestly it's such good inspo for me to restrict lol. ",1.0754307692307703,2.5280356200000007,2.519333333333332,97.55146153846157,79.46666666666667,5.682051282051282,20.2051282051282,6.297961479604792,-0.1615025641025638,533,13,131,4,13,173,91,150,0.075,0.784,0.141,0.8848,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,2,9,7,0,2,5,1,12,9,7,3,1,25,24,16,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,12,2,1,5,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,14,6,22,5,16,8,2,20,0,0,0,1,11,9,0,1,8,83,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765936517561306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3716266195570455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17117191016379513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16916626533143814,0.0,0.16061757465869922,0.0,0.0,0.14229053418505508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806174954679341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473971089134545,0.19302171497992965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18386833607747427,0.13635768432140688,0.18870211227214065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165737708628657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698343228610925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722599118057765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591241047531589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382997217862581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111351576227388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09754385678788216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802570313118695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31014537962926586,0.15094656987572205,0.18676510150327394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dingdongdillycakes,2018/12/16,"can't vomit? i've been trying to make myself throw up every few nights for the past months but for some reason i can't? i just get queasy but nothing comes up. i just wanted to know if there's a reason for that, is this happening to anyone else?",2.551346153846154,3.746544519230774,3.77615384615385,91.14384615384618,74.96153846153847,5.9692307692307685,16.846153846153847,5.985473137389443,-0.4715923076923079,193,2,42,1,4,63,39,52,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,0,12,10,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,8,9,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18769389344832485,0.27504030244621025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312303965647912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424048880241595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261655345979029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402446391543227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23737352817264784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475232052838306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17918044220671087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142598587763203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519052448219896,0.0,0.257567740485852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562487145648968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5519855997896426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224770542112687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832814648762614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GlassAbalone,2018/12/16,I exercised and ate a reasonably sized breakfast afterward and didn't feel guilty or like I ruined anything! Small breakthrough from a lurker here :),7.8048,10.525886480000004,6.277000000000001,72.32350000000002,64.2,9.8,36.5,10.125756701596842,4.4262,122,6,17,3,2,36,22,25,0.11,0.602,0.28800000000000003,0.6154,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5512304484520997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386968848165774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272554524421755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.688718579509592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deto_noto,2018/12/16,"My Mindset ""oof, I ate more than 900 calories today, might as well binge."" And then I'll exercise like crazy after binging 😤 

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EDAnonymous,milkywaysprincess,2018/12/16,"DOE feel ashamed how ED makes them a total idiot? First of all, I need to excuse my grammar. I'm not a native English speaker so this text might be a mess haha.

I've always been the smart kid and when someone doesn't know an answer to something, they'll ask me rather than anyone else. My wide knowledge and ability to think rational has pretty much always been one of the few things I like about myself. And that's why I hate my eating disorder so badly.

For example, I have a terrifying fear for eating certain foods and it makes me so ashamed. Of course I know eating a banana won't kill me but sometimes it feels like that. I'm ashamed of how I have such irrational fears and behavioral models although I'm kinda smart and I feel like I'm just getting dumber every day. Feels like I'm taking away the thing I like about myself so much by letting my ED win but I'm too weak to fight back rn.

Does anyone else feel the same or is it just me and my odd thoughts?",3.320151515151516,4.6159490959596,4.27820202020202,87.9006363636364,73.1919191919192,6.694141414141416,24.31111111111111,7.0316486544052195,0.8643632323232326,763,22,157,7,15,247,118,198,0.196,0.643,0.161,-0.8288,0,0,1,0,1,1,14.0,0,0,2,2,15,22,4,5,10,1,12,5,0,4,3,36,34,18,1,2,7,0,5,5,0,3,1,1,0,1,8,7,4,0,11,0,0,0,3,12,0,2,3,6,21,10,15,26,6,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,9,98,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19584759907937585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457693626960282,0.24116549289721295,0.0,0.0,0.11002009651703364,0.0,0.11056944181321401,0.0904929184303528,0.09826251284857812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589743948578757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487782831137549,0.0,0.2059748238568854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612650727833942,0.19662234053906652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09915514588690504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26485790927064656,0.29752673349936554,0.2522237267431285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001032629313277,0.14230582598436906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614858390334606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619010940265045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302016169935795,0.0,0.12935379360633756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203414413676238,0.0,0.2874760594202307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711202786643613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12484576364937625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730248306571107,0.0872623390991384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974676980217622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972850615699004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971457885441297,0.09060008075540643,0.11639401144227222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884848823443423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637009121007342,0.07540814415243692,0.0,0.0934291757028162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619289792812146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astraydoge,2018/12/16,"My roommate has bulimia. She's really casual about it and idk if she even realises that she's suffering from an ED. My roommate makes 4-5 person meals every evening, goes to her room and in about an hour or two goes to the toilet and vomits all of it out. Every evening. 

She does look ashamed, she runs away from the kitchen if i enter while she's cooking her huge meals.

One time she told me haha i eat a lot and then i feel bad about it and think about how to burn the extra calories. She said that hyper casually.

My other roommate also noticed and talked about it with me, her opinion is that since our roommate is chinese, it might be in their culture to just ignore mental problems and maybe she doesn't even realise that what she's doing is harmful.

Any advice how to approach her? I have no idea how EDs work apart from like 8-9 youtube videos ive watched....

Do i even approach her? On one hand it's her thing and doesn't affect me in any way and she should recover on her own terms but on the other hand, she might not even know that she has a problem. ",3.4532776497695856,4.615782423963137,4.109513248847929,89.75569844470046,72.68663594470046,6.715322580645162,26.004896313364053,6.9077264865688965,0.9633873271889396,834,27,177,7,16,265,125,217,0.077,0.855,0.068,-0.2414,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,1,1,16,11,0,1,8,1,15,8,2,5,1,35,22,19,0,5,6,0,3,1,0,3,1,1,2,1,15,11,5,1,4,4,0,4,4,7,0,3,2,6,34,4,23,16,5,21,0,1,2,0,27,11,0,7,6,129,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13650703505090292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171297536733876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18999296829368653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124679897718225,0.0,0.11663837728887642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224686973989235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294149633487846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5535980990987468,0.0,0.2353958794827984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07063331557356592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375701232640967,0.0,0.0,0.15769714694765424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677198631004564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682472697026321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730749788520572,0.0,0.0,0.11876256054925464,0.0,0.0,0.09324660774320412,0.0,0.1403410650303394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407783604600185,0.2963858110547913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904216624319434,0.0,0.0,0.18932008869117786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197512215684245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26733594736171273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949134041123884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328806672461578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555604524589995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228047837162572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280626541355784,0.08951006150086656,0.0,0.0,0.0814565008604086,0.0,0.0,0.13348328566219916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364604147874011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088233099448178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169865362667167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anOUTKASTofSOCIETY,2019/10/15,I'm about to eat a whole pizza... I'm about to eat this whole pizza just to throw it up later..,-0.7295454545454518,0.4853260454545492,2.1090909090909093,99.53363636363638,84.0,4.4,11.0,3.1291,-1.8598909090909088,71,0,19,0,2,25,14,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6756614945458168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7372120080330441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xemilya22,2019/10/15,"i have a question kinda okay so i’m just gonna use this account so like everyone can see my name but like oh well anyway, i don’t think i have an ED well technically if u check off symptoms and whatever it would be classed as one but like some of my friends have been questioning my behaviour so let me explain. i feel like im sick okay but i’m not. i am in this mindset where i have to starve for a couple days then i mess up and eat loads and loads and loads literally crazy and then i freak out and have multiple breakdowns, but i’m not skinny, or underweight the minimum average for my size and height is 149lbs and im 141 i used to be 134 and i do have a ugw so like i’m not skinny at all but i know something is wrong, my parents havnt caught onto my habits but i keep getting told you can’t be ill ur not skinny enough and all that stuff but like i feel like my ED isn’t valid enough to go to a doctor. so like i don’t know where i was trying to go with this but like yh  i guess im tryna ask what do i do?",-0.9092857142857156,1.1129937920354005,1.498565107458912,98.69471238938057,91.16814159292036,4.998482932996208,17.36346396965866,6.5431188927421005,-0.3144836915297096,791,21,197,10,28,267,121,226,0.113,0.687,0.201,0.971,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,11,17,0,0,6,2,24,8,3,2,2,45,46,28,0,2,15,1,2,9,1,2,4,0,0,0,7,12,4,1,8,0,2,3,8,3,2,1,4,3,26,14,16,36,5,15,0,0,1,0,10,9,0,7,12,122,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124287571828366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306764086073616,0.0,0.07755905570784091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309327632284875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305807282010407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485256353335233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491551654673415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161618444253515,0.1718304263037555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929141405292787,0.0,0.06283194330597285,0.0,0.13669535804749208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324821766270717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389710865226713,0.0,0.0,0.10689441161319636,0.0,0.0,0.13218572526696595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297606636309773,0.0,0.5287855472457009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149265908720887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353674432148935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694419776926176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958332618330216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258358065899297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767124372372488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499828924487758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705904827314959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11491551654673415,0.0,0.08165001930707266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207735549708734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162600028567936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543069054499716,0.1314876429353196,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thunder_fucked,2019/10/15,"Being in a relationship makes everything worse when it comes to ED thoughts. During the week, I'm so disciplined and at peace with my restrictions, measuring, etc. I keep my binging at bay and try to keep myself focused on all my goals. 

During the weekend, I see my boyfriend and try to act like a normal person. But literally ANYTHING, any slight deviation from my weekly norm (ie one drink, one BITE of something, one anything) just causes me to completely spiral out of control and hate myself. 

Such an enjoyable cycle!",6.078434650455929,7.954804563829793,6.342887537993921,73.50500000000002,67.19148936170212,9.201215805471127,32.577507598784194,9.606745405546679,3.3757890577507608,415,18,67,9,7,133,71,94,0.067,0.8170000000000001,0.11599999999999999,0.6114,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,5,0,1,1,0,3,1,19,9,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,5,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,1,10,2,13,7,2,11,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,5,44,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525157642408632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031358170177143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920791603860895,0.0,0.1586583851896845,0.19311363635430914,0.0,0.20657824918723774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804304027945556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054140772396729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553288861335028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184377222966547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32742277113357937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998309983431642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294438810999757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804614164444773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744239553223376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608225448749167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19774490885832802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467709662394743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179400065613168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622168645381062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500979722061692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29548292140651894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876994418081785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,serotoninwhomst,2019/10/15,if i only have breakfast and coffee with milk then i will.... still have eaten too much! I keep yoyoing between “your body deserves food!” and “you have enough fat on you to not eat for a month”. i’m trying not to count calories while still restricting myself to under 1000. how does my brain think that’s gonna work?? it makes picking any food item up terrifying and i’m so tired of living like this. maybe once a week or every two weeks i’ll binge and hate myself back into restricting. awesome. love my very healthy relationship with food,2.196217948717948,4.870053365384617,2.6534615384615385,91.47487179487185,82.65384615384616,5.005128205128205,20.2051282051282,6.42735559955562,0.2051243589743592,426,12,83,4,12,131,81,104,0.149,0.732,0.11900000000000001,-0.5411,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,1,6,3,1,0,2,0,4,12,3,3,0,18,13,10,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,7,8,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,10,2,12,10,3,12,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,2,9,51,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908663903811723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334803252892601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781831676290595,0.0,0.17907444935234124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037888109881713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16414299491492707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657499632568398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515524056925576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5819176999828538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583750600901216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425828347524106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836990328905198,0.0,0.1416480051668591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477939126731085,0.0,0.10707721587557124,0.0,0.16115686007415575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804047623230053,0.0,0.117922334755018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17083507674770426,0.0,0.12200164853810905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222399996959697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562127585113768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278645422425536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437164986496488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891019497369364,0.0,0.15670062049764444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132357886673766,0.0,0.0,0.25734796886119465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167828937930636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gibsononion,2019/10/15,FML I've been taking primatene to suppress my appetite but I've reached the limit on how much I can purchase. So now I'm sitting at work eating beef jerky feeling so fat and desperate. I also have a date tomorrow and I'm freaking out knowing I'm gonna feel like shit but also don't care because I'm so tired.,1.768181818181816,3.603428848484853,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,78.69696969696969,5.612121212121212,29.181818181818183,6.42735559955562,1.431472727272728,248,12,50,2,6,84,50,66,0.27699999999999997,0.634,0.08900000000000001,-0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,0,2,0,4,4,2,1,0,11,14,10,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,3,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,2,4,12,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,4,25,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800521171349511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296576661887454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3060180994986479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071235356338844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035249268928248,0.2144238360251056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649519871957862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14663581469251225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22064130363244694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.308094799504757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22567188441189245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449728269337869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21850932634603956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NoStrawberry2,2019/10/15,"Travelling flipped the switch I went travelling for 6 months to some areas that are not really touristic (West Africa) and over there, they had music videos like the west but the women were bigger. They were made up and dressed up and dancing. I don't know if it was that or what but halfway through the trip I wasn't binging and purging anymore. The switch flipped and I've been back for a while and have not b/ped... I'm happy about it. I still want to get skinnier but I'm not as extreme about it and it's working better. I wish I knew how the switch flipped so I can help people",2.687142857142856,4.392295235294121,3.0325126050420184,94.51616386554623,75.63865546218487,5.7684033613445385,25.345378151260505,6.2581,0.5984615126050423,459,16,100,3,10,141,76,119,0.035,0.8390000000000001,0.126,0.8615,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,2,7,3,0,0,7,0,10,0,0,2,0,22,19,16,0,3,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,2,4,0,5,5,0,0,0,9,0,9,3,11,10,1,16,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,5,66,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30074544525185176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331828040108818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682025954567884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584371528896902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32281840998369266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20326406370326708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665989353512484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481540761075152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869452787443909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420536157942759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21023741616283495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19427160846170646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24217820190620096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788664501050777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28111852781244984,0.0,0.0,0.3487259327144596,0.0,0.0,0.22077176325277445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spaceindividual,2019/10/15,"ED brain is... Willing to spend $10 at Starbucks for a green tea crème instead of actual food that will nurture you (??) for the same price.

Save me from myself hahaha",2.7433333333333323,4.944792500000002,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,77.125,6.766666666666668,23.166666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.184404166666667,128,4,25,2,3,41,31,32,0.0,0.745,0.255,0.8611,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,6,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.5100417796096592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5834625742587971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6320038033840536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,letsmoseyyy,2019/10/15,"what is the best tasting energy drink in your opinion?? i tried the cotton candy flavored Bang that was being raved about on insta and it was grossly, sickeningly sweet. pls give me your recommendations!! for some reason, coffee makes me feel nauseated lately, and im fiending for some caffeine. TIA!! :)",5.508461538461539,8.492039076923081,6.166000000000004,69.37899999999999,71.69230769230771,8.006153846153849,27.707692307692305,8.841846274778883,2.7683030769230768,240,9,35,5,5,78,44,52,0.07400000000000001,0.64,0.285,0.9344,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,2,0,8,7,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,5,2,5,4,3,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796790741372191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544190693094225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829332387303011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470644848229135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907981549829344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40811787723230347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414994088350868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719831092974243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456334663466121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,filthytrashyangel,2019/10/15,Does anyone else run as punishment? I’ve started running on top of restrictions and it’s been my biggest punishment for when I binge.,5.355599999999999,7.468363960000001,5.805,75.70750000000002,69.4,9.8,36.5,10.125756701596842,4.2954,109,6,18,3,2,35,23,25,0.235,0.6990000000000001,0.066,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3735690738227935,0.5474155240807532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4675371040628706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463081359572952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37815406275935176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinyTRONgirl,2019/10/15,"I’m freaking out WHY can’t my body just digest carbs and grains like a normal person’s would? 

I ate so very little yesterday (first time in a while restricting), but I deviated from my typically low-carb diet. Had some cereal (gluten-free, made of rice)—this is ALL I ate during the second half of the day—and woke up this morning two pounds heavier. This happens every time I try to add fruit or any grain or sugar into my diet, and yet I still give into cravings and attempt it.

I feel like I’m the only person who goes up an entire clothing size every time she drinks apple juice or takes a bite of a granola bar. It always takes about 3 days for the bloating to go away again.",5.559945255474453,5.475852175182482,6.247874087591241,80.76991332116789,67.39416058394161,8.30985401459854,27.34397810218978,7.645422480735847,1.5137014598540142,536,14,105,5,8,176,101,137,0.015,0.9440000000000001,0.040999999999999995,0.4767,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,9,0,4,10,1,1,1,19,16,9,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,7,9,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,4,5,3,10,2,15,10,2,19,0,0,0,0,5,8,0,4,12,62,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15433890015458582,0.0,0.0,0.12613658656279594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426985186825306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060327162506367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23924576844137066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170529881074607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125592804362133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937871059553149,0.1325109686014855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777397910754795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779347145293927,0.10541575603251677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640243268987811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18123781569039454,0.1859053265307577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755109846068785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173653159878486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410701772217383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239177890133617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812906088879715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27892421424678804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324474481266036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259325647668922,0.0,0.18119250493122627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304506745194124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737192743232782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317636671912735,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amcoffey2,2019/10/15,"Research about eating disorders and substance use Hello! My name is Ashley and I have been in eating disorder recovery for a few years. Now that I am in college, I have the opportunity to study eating disorders. Right now, I am studying the comorbidity between eating disorders and substance use. If you would like, the link to my survey is below! Thank you!

[**https://kwiksurveys.com/s/rnHaRI6F**](https://kwiksurveys.com/s/rnHaRI6F)",7.761230769230771,12.031716892307696,7.095769230769236,55.7667307692308,80.07692307692307,7.523076923076923,28.038461538461537,8.238735603445708,3.223646153846155,358,14,43,8,10,111,43,65,0.04,0.831,0.129,0.7163,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,0,8,4,0,2,0,9,11,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,3,8,9,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,4,36,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6951761617104754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6206675324917833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408426799030601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295008215581681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13961091373271914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619387499205984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772161200904556,0.0,0.0,0.09765201029714847
EDAnonymous,sadbeech210,2019/10/15,"I just need to vent TW for numbers. Also on mobile so forgive my formatting.


So my boyfriend of 3 years and I recently discussed the idea of getting married. I've pretty much known he was the one since the beginning, so there's that. The problem comes in when he said he won't ask me to get married until 'I'm happy with my weight'. He knows I've lost 80 lbs in the past (I was obese) and have gotten down to a fairly normal size, but did so by working 12 hours on my feet, running 6+ miles a day, and maybe consuming 600 calories. I'm never going to be happy with my weight or my size. I feel hopeless and I might as well end the relationship now if that's what he's waiting on. 


I've recently started up my not-so-healthy behaviors again due to stress and a loss in the family. And he said he's proud of me for being healthy. I just don't know what to do. Sorry if this is rambling, I just can't talk to anyone else about this. 


Thanks for reading. Love you all.",3.1488025210084025,3.7569728578431416,4.553641456582636,88.36852941176474,72.87254901960785,7.397198879551821,26.826330532212893,7.447530270364453,1.2327154061624652,749,25,167,8,14,250,125,204,0.07400000000000001,0.775,0.152,0.9611,0,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,0,1,0,4,14,12,0,1,10,0,12,5,1,0,2,29,32,18,0,5,7,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,6,9,3,1,6,1,0,3,4,5,1,1,7,5,17,7,27,21,2,27,0,3,0,1,16,9,0,4,15,99,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143071834631574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994532519830884,0.1464565094026134,0.0,0.0,0.1336274033772398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231281250328191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921829564101207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119406061455886,0.0,0.12660032777071667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474889105125673,0.0,0.0722735683597166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935804047836332,0.0,0.08123475793609937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30431956309562497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14076478821989946,0.0,0.0,0.16135920333773687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571095836471489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15603332507101175,0.0,0.12900680572062054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14360007702854602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516342536250353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050756160576386,0.10598645298076716,0.1102423240347332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004854405274705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685824784508748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645015635997934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145418972483063,0.0,0.13677202259132815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429763264553062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822673616073491,0.15346153834480508,0.0,0.0,0.2719328665209675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823949743318585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600069916581103,0.10117200117982313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373458998257553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488786506986975,0.0,0.1315977796966459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34811908918241724,0.12851810942422925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406030830200944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204715730620593
EDAnonymous,yyyyy622,2019/10/15,"Restriction starts my period? As the title says, if I restrict for a day or two I start to spot/ a full blown period. Is this normal?",1.0377777777777766,3.3422631481481524,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,84.18518518518519,8.044444444444443,16.407407407407412,8.841846274778883,1.197207407407408,103,2,21,3,3,36,24,27,0.19399999999999998,0.8059999999999999,0.0,-0.6199,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,3,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,5,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893866532545161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396493780941764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568393835401696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6352112790619195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383332916477441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swiftbunnyhop,2019/10/15,"My ED behaviors are triggering my baby sister into an ED My sister has been overweight her whole life. She used to always cry about being the ugly fat sister (which breaks my fuckin heart). I’d never really struggled with weight until I moved out and gained a lot. I then went through a bad breakup, didn’t eat out of sadness, and lost that weight plus more. I just kind of stumbled into my ED. I’m in therapy and my immediate family knows I have this problem. 

My sister has watched me lose all this weight by not eating. She’s now starting to restrict her intake and I feel like it’s my fault. My family is trying to help her before it gets too far out of hand.

Is there anything I can be doing to support her or help her? She’s only 17. I love her so much. She’s so fucking cool. I don’t want her to end up like me. I’d do anything.",0.33475369458128057,2.627070258620691,2.4253366174055837,92.43189655172415,87.79310344827586,4.923481116584567,18.630541871921178,6.42735559955562,0.03709556650246304,651,18,138,7,21,218,111,174,0.149,0.696,0.155,0.0162,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,7,15,2,1,4,1,14,13,3,2,2,24,26,10,0,2,3,4,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,11,7,1,2,0,0,2,4,9,0,0,4,7,30,6,21,20,5,17,0,3,1,3,18,8,2,2,8,94,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556984177992327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285936934295448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159695918274215,0.0,0.0,0.11818744643596768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256709442120073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842437861442645,0.0,0.0,0.12301769486604147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26187132774098865,0.0,0.07022831564431482,0.09922496311713568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840405074985314,0.0725656962067009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458850245946038,0.186193680300482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463535979601885,0.0763317882424404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810401214768273,0.13571190194370092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538538902295487,0.15161777469710042,0.1180815953668963,0.12535607246234032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762094514749416,0.1021021059080528,0.0,0.10712260243108933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056341469652336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329015432868661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897821163849434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09830895850970367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520079295461816,0.0,0.0,0.1576137748930468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588358918376478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429901710114803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199586866037853,0.0,0.0,0.08192250519001025,0.0,0.0,0.5074016234102415,0.0,0.1287549120597753,0.0,0.15506872453578818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flasktrask,2019/10/15,"Trusted the candy, was betrayed A friend had bought candy and offered me some, and I naively decided to be all healthy and spontaneous and have a bite. Except the next minute I look at the packet and it has GELATIN. I'm vegetarian and Jewish, gelatin is OFF LIMITS, the last time I ate it on accident was like 1,5 years ago. So now I feel like shit for eating boiled pork bits. Fuck :(

Food is out to get me, guys!!",2.1329268292682926,4.330097597560975,3.229451219512196,90.16539634146343,79.12195121951221,6.051219512195122,23.664634146341466,7.1686216300943375,0.8507512195121949,321,11,67,4,8,103,61,82,0.18100000000000002,0.6759999999999999,0.14300000000000002,-0.6892,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,2,0,6,0,8,6,1,0,1,13,15,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,4,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,6,4,8,9,3,10,1,0,1,1,3,4,2,1,8,40,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24378465839265956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002457113157533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814095270407682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13905610643890018,0.19647113711931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325498494238708,0.0,0.21247630279378266,0.2542474098152881,0.14368425446280467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723085953057983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241743485630488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687173757275861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309437661186474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2924821175841964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822994715576217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036375698643274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771009733470444
EDAnonymous,apocalyptic_thoughts,2019/10/15,"I got my period back after 270 days I am so so relieved. I've been trying to get it back for the past 3 months due to panicking about fertility and bone density. The doctor wasn't too helpful in that upping my calorie intake was her only advice,

But it's back now after 3 months of weight maintenance via normal-ish eating. 

Of course, I'm not recovered from the eating disorder and I don't believe I will be anytime soon and my body might get annoyed at me for not going over a certain weight max which I've set myself and relapse whenever I go over it but, 

It's nice to know that my body still works and is doing much better than it was for 2/3 of this year. :)",6.336225234619397,5.1338756569343085,7.288112617309697,77.6692700729927,66.15328467153284,10.164337851929094,30.52033368091763,9.23628265651192,2.4172698644421278,523,15,106,8,7,177,92,137,0.064,0.833,0.10300000000000001,0.8494,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,10,5,1,0,4,0,11,8,3,0,1,12,18,9,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,5,4,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,2,12,4,19,10,1,23,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,15,74,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719866766213847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710934417587432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18124351700365646,0.0,0.14227496271129098,0.0,0.3573768930252241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103746762833285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436904011642105,0.16465554961298418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292169193931476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809412288551545,0.0,0.1828503552852104,0.0,0.1286610969797118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782664886099944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08840902563897042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065587350278955,0.0,0.0,0.25680712822790186,0.0,0.11825673034604806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761680521880098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223476119508442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356702108210132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846965402034535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921903459337286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917885690546399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711405824018263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10359392853532501
EDAnonymous,noonausea,2019/10/15,"what to eat with supplements? my hairs been falling out quite severely and im feeling really weak lately so i decided to start taking all of my vitamin/ mineral supplements again but some of them have to be taken with food or else ill feel really nauseous and tired. i was thinking that maybe i could eat them with a cucumber or something else low-cal but im not sure if thatll work. what do you eat with your supplements, if you take any?",1.922413793103452,4.5205167011494245,3.536333333333335,85.20450000000002,83.13793103448276,8.077701149425286,23.64252873563219,8.841846274778883,2.148375632183908,351,13,69,10,10,116,61,87,0.182,0.804,0.013999999999999999,-0.9329999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,2,2,2,2,0,0,1,0,7,9,1,0,2,22,14,9,0,3,7,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,10,1,10,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,5,3,44,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784028648856107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383546112175847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5319439039396937,0.2895161013553664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752370146659273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095378776704359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743568008278989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954739306382218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740888776864752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431077888565514,0.0,0.0,0.22202264193282065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19576363059873664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340387511852958,0.0,0.0,0.12265258141323215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331981611445778,0.0,0.2605787124188192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103454391602706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19916653617739985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261541265079142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,almostoverwhelmed,2019/10/15,Currently pulled over on the side of the road and spitting into a bag Because I ate sausages at a friend's house tonight help,10.2868,7.005496880000003,8.32,79.94000000000003,60.2,11.6,45.0,8.841846274778883,3.9262,102,5,21,1,1,30,23,25,0.0,0.8809999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.4019,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676513341718787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659626536935944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042531031488527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6959100016805221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,muppetcrayz,2019/10/15,major yikes just found out i gained 10 lb since the 5th bc i was on vacation and not tracking so time to die,-0.7487499999999976,1.3252582916666709,1.2966666666666669,100.015,91.08333333333334,4.866666666666667,16.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.5115666666666665,85,2,21,1,3,28,23,24,0.156,0.747,0.09699999999999999,-0.3744,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,11,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.571001286825347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6032453552639933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551156247754703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32081511791287143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ahnungslosigkeit,2019/10/15,"To anyone who purges, or may consider to do so. This is not meant to be condescending. It's addictive, EDs are addictive. I got out of the cycle two years ago with therapy, though I still do not consider myself recovered.

I was bulimic for 2 years. That's not a lot, fortunately, but it was enough to do its damage. My teeth are damaged from ""acid attacks"" as my dentist put it, I had pieces of my teeth break off. I still suffer from sensitivity that makes it torture to chew almost everyday. My esophagus is so weakened from purging, it doesn't close properly anymore, and there's most likely no way to fix it. I get constant reflux and nausea from it. My stomach is permanently prone to inflammation now.

My point being - it DOES matter ""that one time"". Every single time does its damage. It's not worth it, it's not worth chasing a non-existent ideal. Please seek help. *You* are worth it.",2.6032222222222217,5.173814276470587,4.266274509803922,81.29712418300655,79.76470588235293,7.5424836601307215,24.73856209150327,8.515128840125781,2.0275816993464058,697,26,129,16,18,233,107,170,0.207,0.728,0.064,-0.9824,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,1,7,8,2,0,3,0,16,7,3,1,0,20,20,8,0,1,7,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,19,5,1,0,1,0,3,1,7,6,0,2,5,1,14,2,18,12,5,17,0,4,0,0,3,4,0,5,11,94,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910760022118021,0.0,0.0,0.15899923919572612,0.0,0.1796115147215699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788522717713232,0.12541853613485718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20405741746263067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938334882114668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139329419335771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533547633127728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511255893960973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371257114626927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434572725981635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022683874239032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763032624994085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15249257549138506,0.0,0.0,0.11972978104239235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154465087000993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689260900363767,0.16956108839988274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803147556074948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864876269521407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051233653435573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622851466068234,0.0,0.2091822801608985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752168360745576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237426468103268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310147013242118
EDAnonymous,eclaireg,2019/10/15,"Addicted to almond butter So I made the terrible decision of buying a 3-pack of Justin’s honey almond butter on Amazon because it was half price. The package arrived on Friday, and I just opened the third jar last night. I’ve been restricting lately and I was a fool to think I could control myself around it. I’m too afraid to even calculate how many calories and fat is in the two jars I ate. Does anyone else have trouble resisting almond butter if it’s in the house?",4.442189440993785,6.042596728260873,5.440062111801243,79.46891304347827,70.84782608695652,7.86583850931677,26.186335403726712,8.418075326091056,1.9303118012422351,377,12,66,6,7,124,66,92,0.13,0.851,0.019,-0.8709,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,7,0,6,3,1,3,0,14,10,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,5,4,6,0,10,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,44,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803222653932895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797993636673844,0.2634719247077077,0.0,0.2289105133126005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675111357172894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884061344773295,0.2053066187991607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22502631960715228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148087849551584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983958095991328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967068457804863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960469871041576,0.2900668897807885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433135697175887,0.0,0.2607011906866361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413099429680707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16476593429514172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511899484789321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lizsisi,2019/10/15,"What do your teeth look like after bulimia? (I added the TW just in case, but idk if it's actually necessary? just tryna be safe)

I have some discoloration on my front tooth that's really freaking me out. I try to be as safe as possible when purging and know when to stop PLUS I don't do it that often, but I'm still feeling hella paranoid. Google has not been helpful because it only shows super extreme examples. 

Can anyone tell me what I should be looking out for and what is okay/not related to purging? I'm already insecure about my smile and don't want to exacerbate that any more. Also if anyone has tips to prevent your teeth looking like trash, please leave them below!",3.7033492822966534,5.580997571428572,4.829213943950787,81.97475734791523,73.28571428571428,7.843882433356117,27.88038277511961,8.575989854853784,2.166148872180452,539,21,101,10,11,177,90,133,0.138,0.7020000000000001,0.16,0.6511,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,1,1,8,7,0,1,1,0,14,3,3,0,0,23,22,13,0,4,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,4,2,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,4,12,5,16,17,2,11,0,0,3,0,5,5,0,4,7,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.21093500448684727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385311795273687,0.1728581782493856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699204936332674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022796348383557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317653978426262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929389548181563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488338818491114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879251851008503,0.0,0.0,0.2288757467875801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21120373300415315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5445444536613466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643947645875742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23727204839958854,0.0,0.2436810198789157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847370926891533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726207662950307,0.1807143208498525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18892801685681135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467542945396718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749315767720962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,floralbees,2019/10/15,Fainting during exams I fainted in class today (kinda embarrassing but I was able to quickly get out of the room when my vision started saying *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧) & I have nothing but exams for the whole of next week. Really fucking stressed I’ll faint during a quiet exam & everyone will witness it instead of me being able to hide it.,1.4558803418803414,4.16465516923077,3.746666666666666,81.06444444444446,89.61538461538461,4.735042735042735,24.145299145299145,6.42735559955562,1.2573247863247865,266,11,43,3,9,91,51,65,0.12300000000000001,0.8370000000000001,0.039,-0.6494,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,0,8,4,1,9,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,6,28,7,4,0.4658387626717004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047361047294081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225644504072069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533021483208512,0.12169076335503845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477124044634461,0.0,0.0,0.2234924282622013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921411992536873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522684073769405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648615369389913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668083643677727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22078033895797386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683387822711775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600461712308315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,insomniasfiction,2019/10/15,"does it ever actually go away? i keep getting better and then something happens and i just break down and eat very minimally. i swear i try, i try to love myself but no matter what size i am, i seem to hate myself and it spirals, hate living like this. sometimes i think, if this is how im going to feel for the rest of my life, i don't want to live it anymore, how do i stop feeling like this? im so sick of being hungry and tired but scared to eat.",3.453951890034368,3.342544103092788,5.191288659793816,86.63820446735397,71.88659793814433,7.291408934707904,25.445017182130584,6.42735559955562,0.767241924398625,346,9,79,2,6,119,64,97,0.28,0.599,0.121,-0.9692,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,2,1,1,0,5,6,0,2,1,20,18,12,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,5,2,2,4,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,2,13,4,10,17,1,8,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,5,52,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.16108171717559272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370224776918815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15508601147382814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459884710707391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444513663637357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33780978604333284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493126781766812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692581114120747,0.11792399761993368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624076762483608,0.0,0.187622918988197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596832653901715,0.0,0.0,0.3259392530968048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566016731884833,0.0,0.0,0.14671925818743398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659180242125385,0.16128693323789106,0.0,0.2915146171402659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897953827649635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652610030858878,0.0,0.0,0.15027092454091054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707674863095428,0.16325562196935914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800352004889913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576835803332507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972039478632705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241395051983139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619767752375314,0.09736087576713276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,resourcealternatives,2019/10/15,"no caffeine -> regaining appetite, holy shit HELP lol (tw: health issues? discussion of stimulants? idk it's my first post)

tl;dr: going cold turkey on caffeine -> drastically increased appetite, help!

details if you like, i don't mind if you don't read:

i've been lurking this, r/EDanonymemes and r/Amberlynn (only god can judge) forever, but i'm having an issue and maybe one of y'all have experience with cutting stimulants and dealing with increased appetite?

this semester i've been trying to recover. but i've also been on 300mg+ caffeine daily and restricting unintentionally (more than I did before I decided to ""recover""... but anyways) due to stress from school and the excuse of ""not obsessing over food"". i used to do 600+mg caffeine daily a year ago before i went 0mg until this semester

1 day my chest clenched like a mf after I suddenly upped 100mg. ekg hr and etc. were fine when i checked a couple days later but the pressure scares me so i went off caffeine suddenly. i can't bring myself to have even more than a sip of coke because my brain is like BITCH you will have a HEART ATTACK and DIE. 

anyways now i'm eating like my nutritionist suggested (which is SO weird) but uhhh I WANNA BINGE. AAA. help! starbucks and coke was the only thing standing between me and the continuous horror show that is obsessing over my food

anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk",3.4428986128986168,6.177956401544403,4.461535821535822,80.16106678106678,77.64864864864866,7.234720434720436,27.73931073931073,8.285830014693849,2.339923952523953,1104,47,189,22,27,358,160,259,0.159,0.703,0.138,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,4,0,1,9,16,4,5,10,1,19,10,4,3,0,27,28,21,1,3,8,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,12,5,1,1,2,1,7,5,10,1,2,8,1,23,6,26,19,5,29,0,0,0,0,12,6,2,2,18,117,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798997742198775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10644440474182668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142669990745528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113986553007173,0.0,0.2265259206082663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485897369689923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146585855675462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472786825712368,0.0,0.1716840468837148,0.13722590585100658,0.0,0.0,0.13814247421198872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620013646794873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14844779570777386,0.08791491458505682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020270096077433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132194537968118,0.32190335096483985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07564691203892276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148490157919266,0.0,0.1577306353825188,0.2676533936983688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778550797024897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26011445760401763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372234584986267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439859129330992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901957184478235,0.2024654319097484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274782566564128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314150082801604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326180651404046,0.13470985252420753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663086305321742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247187830465414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698514335595713,0.0,0.12254564324621307,0.0,0.0,0.08842936682846919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036988405052562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496039866045897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24678022807590555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571556546832731
EDAnonymous,HisHollowHusband,2019/10/15,"Does anyone else pretend to order food online? For the past week atleast once a day I go to a restaurant website, spend forever going over the different options even asking my fiancé what he would want, add the food to the cart and then just close out of the tab. As I typed this I also remember when I was younger I would pretend to shop for clothes by doing the same thing. 

How common is this behavior?",7.52348101265823,6.518223848101268,7.198575949367092,78.62925632911396,63.68354430379746,9.925316455696203,34.939873417721515,8.841846274778883,2.8521367088607588,320,12,61,4,4,101,61,79,0.043,0.9390000000000001,0.018000000000000002,-0.2168,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,8,0,5,2,0,1,0,12,9,6,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,11,6,1,12,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,6,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17714245207213905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488580369476224,0.2269644340057349,0.0,0.0,0.20708309995151414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14285641936940113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314320910097379,0.0,0.0,0.19384597172048074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504421050134334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630607950772007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5357045216087658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517798755653079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359022325643873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21145753530900505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25092904464003896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471622196880622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065306369697927,0.0,0.17768294883000973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147104472619266,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dancedancereputation,2019/10/15,"Meal Prep Service suggestions? TW: Fear Foods and calorie counts Hi all! I'm really overwhelmed with life in general and trying to take small steps towards recovery again with some home services like cleaning and meal delivery. I haven't been able to find any meal prep services that are healthy AND have a low calorie count. Most of the advertised ""healthy"" meals still have a 600-800 count per meal and feature the heavy use of rice/ quinoa or feature the liberal use of oils and fats.  I'm also afraid of lean cuisine type foods because of the sodium content, and we have very limited freezer space. I live at home with my partner and I'm so ashamed that I can't even put food on the table for him/ us.

Anyone have any luck with safe, low cal meal prep services?",5.581027397260275,6.779443678082195,4.894410958904111,85.97627397260277,67.69863013698631,8.031780821917808,32.40821917808219,8.238735603445708,2.3156405479452054,611,26,117,8,10,183,96,146,0.094,0.823,0.083,-0.3906,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,1,5,9,0,4,7,0,8,11,1,2,1,24,14,11,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,2,13,10,2,1,0,0,2,2,6,0,0,1,1,7,3,16,13,3,12,0,3,0,0,6,8,0,4,3,57,9,5,0.17204154210804665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758155906690772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23398829637866134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029544640704425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487492723720353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136318159999377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935945652673666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724285269142618,0.0,0.6240999468504984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345143388288598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151802906377072,0.0840508073200337,0.0,0.15191583362857095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294926801136656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021421724987317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739259776260573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935382883115976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680491398794428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20694479223961154,0.2971773089815444,0.0,0.1419522898869988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lululights,2019/10/15,"Panic attacks and food? This is my first post ever on the sub (I haven’t really interacted with the ED/recovery community since ProED was shut down) so please bear with me. I read the rules and I’m pretty sure this post follows them, but please let me know if I’m screwing up anywhere. 

So for transparency’s sake, I’ve never been formally diagnosed with an eating disorder. My old counselor, however, is my old counselor because all she wanted to talk to me about were my issues with food/eating, my weight, and my relationship with food... I guess what I’m saying is take everything I say with a grain of (zero calorie) salt.

Onto the issue:

I’ve been diagnosed with panic disorder. I have been struggling with disgustingly frequent panic attacks for the past 2 years and they are most often caused by worry due to my health/feeling like I’m going to die HOWEVER recently my panic has increased and it’s been revolving around food.

Basically anytime I eat recently I panic about feeling full OR about something being... wrong(?) with the food or having some unknown allergy towards the food I’ve consumed. Because of this panic, I’ve been eating ~2000cal a week and I feel like absolute shit. I’m not even *trying* to go foodless, I’m just trying not to fucking freak the hell out.

Some other factors: 
-there are certain foods that I can eat relatively safely (like, I feel pretty confident that I won’t panic if I eat them), but these foods are few and far between. 
-I am currently trying to lose weight because I’m a POS
-I am not underweight atm (I’m not sure if that matters)

I guess my question is... does anyone else deal with this? Is this a panic problem or an ED problem? I feel like I’m going down a very very bad rabbit hole and I can’t figure out how to make it stop. Any support/thoughts/help would be greatly appreciated.

(Disclaimer: I feel like a lot of people are going to tell me to get into therapy, but I am currently in therapy)",3.9733470967741913,5.915581895999999,5.270141935483874,78.82397419354841,72.70666666666666,7.93204301075269,28.89677419354839,8.654491914285503,2.4336606451612908,1541,63,274,29,31,513,193,375,0.22399999999999998,0.654,0.122,-0.9947,4,0,1,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,3,2,12,32,7,9,16,0,30,19,1,3,6,67,57,20,1,7,14,0,7,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,13,22,14,2,8,1,1,6,8,22,0,2,7,10,36,10,41,45,8,37,1,1,0,2,12,14,4,14,20,175,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035858228514865836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03687006293324138,0.05402814696878473,0.0,0.04694090601749541,0.0,0.11997604270794687,0.0,0.0,0.04402737242319985,0.09643121039521847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05416826585209572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054362345448586535,0.0,0.10703974075956472,0.05472544602757675,0.0,0.12086636513862092,0.0,0.04614440449800336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237359078622229,0.0440491738033136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03482768743348603,0.04769733088654733,0.0,0.0,0.04739035081303687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997132483457646,0.15068137555705094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04485213648715309,0.5100908915903464,0.0,0.0,0.0487480629527791,0.027549264265719003,0.0,0.11987076460165615,0.0,0.0,0.058135044106911435,0.1161761455195962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05604955600554282,0.0,0.0,0.035343827533836185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007290302628013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028979045418042963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05392002813119296,0.0,0.12880614553743902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05899141562745236,0.0,0.044829185768632235,0.0,0.0,0.03519770440686338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040668649754277635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066259244724433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4949386300488621,0.0,0.0,0.05033678005710459,0.03655636339567658,0.0,0.0,0.11576347657651564,0.0,0.0,0.10100158541585837,0.10729079437181224,0.0,0.10091103451698627,0.0,0.0,0.0590697013108797,0.0,0.05274429938480007,0.0,0.033780207377016765,0.0,0.10412908623603201,0.056612318438889225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386607239366457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412661793103436,0.04361882562197278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04059415316537959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04408466608235154,0.0,0.055124876157797265,0.0,0.0,0.05983741303987005,0.09939485827381422,0.0,0.039646420143974084,0.04238240064742435,0.046088370293870994,0.0,0.12060276929341845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740068701541056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701559398918178,0.031101537816995695,0.0,0.042296849351261136,0.1284219417061397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053549904929698015,0.0,0.03745790033527832,0.05765200998577539,0.0,0.03395641042712028
EDAnonymous,prettysadreputation,2019/10/15,"So I finally came across an item that I couldn’t nail down what the calories would be... Built in calorie/carb counter in my head (thanks Type one diabetes).
I am very accurate at it. Went on a date and we ordered PIG BRAINS and fuck guys I was baffled. MFP wasn’t even very helpful. WHO KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE BEATEN BY PIG BRAINS. also, I eat vegetarian/vegan at home. 10/10 date though.",1.0791025641025629,3.4754733205128265,2.6156410256410254,91.7460256410257,85.02564102564101,6.030769230769232,21.48717948717949,7.3871296695380915,0.7522717948717954,301,10,65,5,9,98,62,78,0.095,0.863,0.042,-0.6046,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,3,0,8,6,3,0,0,7,14,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,4,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,6,0,8,1,9,4,1,14,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,0,3,40,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601649589977258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4914160568869013,0.0,0.25173949097257553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252205817704097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537612606432204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411123605744012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20348191532237425,0.0,0.0,0.12508975380175544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21793683000280964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258894424972751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753057425841068,0.0,0.220781513894568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14914766393644002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026415081591061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21625033345761832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632164778523444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20403792528419826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563550394106995,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CepheidVox,2018/12/08,"""When I reach X weight, I'll be able to recover."" I dabbled in recovery about a week ago but I gave up because I ""gained"" 4 lbs (the scale went up but it was just water/waste weight and *knew* that would happen) and I didn't want to see a certain number on the scale. So, I've decided to lose 10 more pounds so that when I start eating more I'll still be under that weight if I gain a bunch. As if it will magically get easier to deal with weight gain when I'm lighter.

Anyone else tell themselves this? ",2.435377358490566,3.48866720754717,3.715235849056608,92.02587264150948,75.0377358490566,7.186792452830187,21.740566037735853,7.645422480735847,0.5470981132075465,388,9,91,5,8,127,72,106,0.047,0.777,0.175,0.9212,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,0,1,13,15,12,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,5,7,1,12,6,3,13,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,2,7,52,13,0,0.16345344774722426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448916192112192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429045114681735,0.16747737325183082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963970462665613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851332741058256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672536832433751,0.13654438170449545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539768015565773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445413440295695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18286259825643905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130251235465318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569319160576386,0.0,0.13053413451235926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286551783341395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640907841411543,0.0,0.13111249642284295,0.796169058963667,0.0,0.15152298363169547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611263957110678,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7702,2018/12/08,"just made a peach! What’s yours? I’m looking for a new place since proed got deleted. Not really sure where to start finding people so I figured Reddit was good as ever. 
My peach is @ oxi, feel free to add! ",-0.5992857142857133,1.5274185952380959,1.0785714285714327,98.01642857142859,101.14285714285714,3.352380952380953,15.523809523809526,5.288315135182226,-0.8229904761904767,159,4,34,1,7,51,38,42,0.051,0.7909999999999999,0.158,0.6813,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,9,8,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,4,4,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28833479613686697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117358657390274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913389724409993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673590275894539,0.2549398350188513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676763792360456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30161645979017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30785839426326983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22098661269472614,0.0,0.333034191777404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20420449166601715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26367985293257296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256185028785696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004255758629469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,randolphhenryash,2018/12/08,"Freaking out about LW Does anyone else freak out when they get to/close to their low weight? I’m very close (500g) away from the least I’ve ever weighed, and the last time I was that weight was 5(?) years ago. It takes me to a BMI of 16 (exactly, lol) which I know isn’t really that low in the grand scheme of things but idk part of me is freaking out - none of my clothes fit, my psych keeps telling me I need to do inpatient (which realistically I probably actually don’t qualify for), and I just want to shout that actually I’m fine and drop all medical support and run away somewhere with no obligations to eat ever.

But of course on the other hand I’m so fucking hungry I feel like if I stop fasting then I’ll start eating and never be able to stop and ruin this chance to beat my LW and be, idk, skinny I guess.",3.8905080213903744,4.2476977941176495,5.01374331550802,86.64275401069521,71.05882352941177,8.53475935828877,26.0427807486631,8.575989854853784,1.4314117647058824,635,18,145,10,11,210,111,170,0.16399999999999998,0.711,0.125,-0.6357,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,6,11,1,0,5,1,8,9,2,0,5,29,22,13,0,3,4,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,12,6,3,2,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,2,5,16,4,23,18,4,26,0,3,0,1,3,11,1,2,14,83,25,2,0.15132962752555426,0.0,0.29535177380746297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13414458409416208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581319415496476,0.15505508670794116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843583330539521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324295768399765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096959768831406,0.12641648560392207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737726237630878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765168066234699,0.10810991614134527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990180215424394,0.07906348448206141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16670664577246155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450872612109127,0.0,0.0,0.08316680567638364,0.12335384412965734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073932012054244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244867904772005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220900131945064,0.11671473792332154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387523964562742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315893351472166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694563440944497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711188925190562,0.0,0.0,0.2530366894070587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17172706797877865,0.0,0.0,0.11378104669469917,0.0,0.13226876458066705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053668026810317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882415227707784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486279122927195,0.0892581351300239,0.0,0.0,0.3685574357742136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745131858972583
EDAnonymous,1sbutteracarb,2018/12/08,"New Year's Resolution (spoiler: I hate this.) I was restricting for a while (-50 pounds) then on Thanksgiving I binged. Since then I've been telling myself to ""eat at maintenance"" then January 1st restrict with ""healthy"" foods... The problem is that I binge everyday now with this mentality. (Ex: sweet potato with extra extra brown sugar, 3 full large quesadillas, 2 candy bars, 2 pieces of cheesecake, ice cream, pizza, bread, cereal soda in one day.) 

I guess I just needed to vent and see if anyone else is going through this? I wish I could just ""eat normally"" instead of being stuck in this all or nothing mentality. I want to be healthy and take care of myself, why is my brain trying to do the opposite. 
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EDAnonymous,hamaesa,2018/12/08,"Finally ordered a food scale because I'm so tired of bingeing. (TW) Tonight I binged on over 2000 cals in one sitting. I've done this every night for a week. I eat so much i literally cant keep track of the amount of food or the amount of calories I consume. I'm a numbers person-- I feel like if I could see how many grams of crap I'm stuffing into my mouth, and calculate just how many calories I'm force-feeding my bloated body, I'd be too ashamed to keep eating the way I am. FUCK being healthy or recovering. I want to be skinny. I want smooth skin. I want to look young and dainty and cold. Fuck being fat, fuck stretching out my stomach like this. Fuck ED, but honestly fuck calories even harder. 

Mods: please delete this post if it's too triggering, which it is. I just needed at least one person to know how I feel. I'm sorry.",0.8035964912280704,3.1577764210526347,2.373739766081872,93.27253947368423,85.95906432748535,5.0574269005847965,22.585087719298247,6.508806274219699,0.5089459649122805,652,24,139,7,20,212,107,171,0.131,0.775,0.095,-0.7928,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,10,10,6,1,6,0,9,17,7,4,0,26,30,13,0,7,7,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,5,6,2,3,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,1,7,15,3,16,24,4,16,0,0,2,5,2,7,6,4,7,74,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596209217722756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841542766828582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949224567824387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275209602676408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550176107229284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230480543485898,0.0,0.1049906715316055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260147671380868,0.08902257235399977,0.0,0.13650594813783462,0.0,0.0,0.3013617518146753,0.0,0.0,0.5760072132720908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22152108207546306,0.0,0.0,0.068483292190303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175789469248627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046423837640722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25267326561720704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916038850018548,0.09239794364164372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693957199630454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888012899616095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176121351577409,0.0,0.1367861480078078,0.0,0.0,0.11934349434111198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992993344539414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949251608767274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322273593818738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22049750133207616,0.09891091057055744,0.09995593198691577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ebroms,2018/12/08,Thank goodness for holiday parties... Where they have veggie platters 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻,1.1156250000000014,3.6526993125000047,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,87.125,5.7,33.0,7.1686216300943375,2.66635,63,4,11,1,2,22,12,16,0.0,0.494,0.506,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6734565889238621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7392267736189191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,insomniaed,2018/12/08,"Low cal ice cream in EU/Ger ? We don't have Halo Top here, I get so jealous everytime I see someone posting them here. :( 

Anyone know some alternatives to Halo Top etc. you can actually buy in Europe/Germany? ",0.8610833333333296,3.4275042750000004,3.5300000000000047,81.62833333333334,93.75,5.666666666666668,24.16666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.5899166666666664,161,7,29,3,6,56,35,40,0.28600000000000003,0.7140000000000001,0.0,-0.8863,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,1,1,2,3,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,3,6,2,6,0,1,2,0,3,5,0,1,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.4149698639081376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973355210441032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742515391333584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22216872424820455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23369907407904245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4072593947056843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.338858746072917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.360301837321859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strangerrrdangerrr,2018/12/08,"weed n' purging any other stoners find it almost impossible to purge if they've smoked within the last few hours? 

of coursethe only time i can't get anything up is when i fall victim to the munchies ",4.393076923076921,6.045717025641029,4.608205128205127,85.17846153846155,71.05128205128204,6.225641025641028,28.384615384615394,6.42735559955562,1.274753846153846,160,6,30,1,3,50,36,39,0.057999999999999996,0.9420000000000001,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156688422828906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28228641321241343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34159698801878485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37939949626983577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168758279006083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40879593608309256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33836691167351546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157069286898683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24205173135855165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HorseWithPropane,2018/12/08,"Am I the only one who doesn't give much thought to calories when restricting? Since I don't trust them to be perfect, I don't feel like I can believe them at all. Like - how can a fruit or vegetable consistently have the same number of calories when there's natural variation? How can people be trusted to calculate these things accurately? I know there's a certain percentage they're allowed to be off by. 

If generic drugs are allowed to differ by 20% or so in terms of active ingredient (maybe more, just pulled that figure out of my ass), how can I trust that calories are going to be accurate?

My safe foods can be high cal sometimes - it's much more about how full they make me feel/if they make me bloat or not.


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EDAnonymous,hipboned,2018/12/08,"My mom just showed up at my house with a bag of snacks. Bonus: I was in the middle of watching To The Bone. I've gained weight over these last few months, but I finally began restricting to ~800 calories the past few days and haven't had any binging urges.

Just 10 minutes ago, I was sitting on the couch drinking Coke Zero and watching To The Bone while knitting. Cliche. Then I heard a knock at my door (which by itself gets my heart racing and my legs shaking), and I open it to find my sweet, adorable, caring mom outside, handing me a bag. I asked what was in the bag, but she was in a hurry and said ""just some things"" and then left.

I opened it. Hot cheetos, goldfish, ice cream, velveeta shells and cheese, and a few other things. I felt like crying. I don't want to eat it, but I can't throw it away knowing that my mom was out and decided to buy some things for me and drop them off at my house simply because she cares. And she doesn't know about my ED, either, so it wasn't with the intention of getting me to eat or gain weight. She did it just because she thought it would make me happy.

I know I'm thinking about this too much and it sounds like I'm overreacting. But idk. My mind is basically like ""Fuck fuck fuck. Food in the house. What do?""

Plus I have an event tomorrow night that I want to look good for and not be bloated. Lol.",2.334891304347824,3.9108534311594236,2.9421739130434794,95.34195652173914,76.28260869565217,5.814492753623187,22.507246376811594,6.280692351149826,0.1770159420289854,1041,29,237,7,23,324,155,276,0.10400000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.145,0.9347,1,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,1,3,8,14,3,1,14,1,17,16,5,2,0,47,40,23,0,3,11,3,5,3,0,1,0,3,2,0,20,19,8,1,8,2,2,2,6,4,0,1,13,13,33,10,32,25,7,34,0,0,4,3,12,17,3,3,16,152,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801737805731676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519426418541683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10337197317328148,0.0,0.10388812348597308,0.0,0.0,0.13481004147897738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254755818484068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146059308211772,0.07131122701052074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832064363707232,0.0,0.2262900724167655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061685955544414,0.12112865774980199,0.10106283766785826,0.0,0.13370679077508668,0.0,0.0,0.3066722654198287,0.11554093668913573,0.0,0.0,0.09274441307292454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11770831774533988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103098803227714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827634261283293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18230610550954604,0.0901327508413822,0.0,0.0,0.12013921809348832,0.0,0.0,0.1620629418248941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285449947047858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738091532545357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116484452408435,0.38850958482043707,0.08825929079063466,0.0,0.08128477759619702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376641887755764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055556087018624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518140842556734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203818036712323,0.07085149805486488,0.0,0.08778358272807045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043908458636558,0.0,0.0,0.2692992323324703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854875631890844,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ellie0107,2019/08/27,"Just found out my boyfriend cheated on me when I was out of town. Is it bad that I was excited at first because it gave me a reason to starve myself so I can be skinnier than the girl he cheated on me with. 

But for real I’m devastated. He is literally my world. I don’t know what I’m going to do with my self.",1.7843478260869574,2.4216306231884097,4.328231884057973,88.61060869565218,76.10144927536231,7.259130434782609,25.394202898550724,7.554174236665415,1.0287368115942035,239,8,58,3,5,85,49,69,0.228,0.7390000000000001,0.032,-0.9393,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,2,0,8,0,0,1,0,10,14,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,4,0,11,1,12,9,0,10,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,2,42,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31423021793236866,0.2294148586074029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320116687582832,0.0,0.4126400609159964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213884081716456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068279630602091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283600890653,0.0,0.386942708516288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926072426143973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pileofposey,2019/08/27,"when family tries to be helpful (TW: bd) sister sent me something to help ""visualize"" my body.  she said, ""you'll realize that you look good""  


it did the EXACT opposite and made me question if my gw is even good enough lol. (It probably is but LOL that's not how i see it now!!!) 

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ha ha ha ha ha i love this disease <3",1.6576616915422877,3.4015724029850745,3.735149253731347,88.17247512437812,78.70149253731344,7.451741293532338,24.59950248756219,8.344100000000001,1.4940069651741292,249,9,55,5,6,85,52,67,0.0,0.583,0.41700000000000004,0.9878,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,0,4,8,0,0,1,7,5,2,1,2,1,9,11,5,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,9,8,2,5,1,3,0,0,2,1,10,0,0,2,2,31,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435574808108512,0.2731417738784992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496885642786601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322658806975405,0.0,0.14847021786844514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190992651851184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3770826731323884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013410398996548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18876513265099204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287976032578764,0.2126996457607013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423592612029059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518137743081398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138246679169575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912676839065947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305262590745815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526161566220555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731417738784992,0.0
EDAnonymous,UnforgivingSpiral,2019/08/27,"So it turns out it’s true! TW: just in case! 

I’ve seen time and again people who suffer with ED saying that they can only get help if they are underweight and well now I’ve had that experience myself! I’ve been struggling with an undiagnosed eating disorder since my teens and have now felt brave enough to seek help (even though it terrifies me because it means I will probably have to gain some weight), only to be told that because I’m a healthy weight (not far away from underweight though), they can only focus on my other issues (social and general anxiety), and to be honest the amount of hoops I’m having to jump through just to get help with that is a joke and extremely off-putting. 

This is garbage. I feel like I need help, and there is no help anywhere. I hate it.",5.060000000000001,5.784790849673206,5.261967320261436,84.58785294117645,68.60784313725489,8.73437908496732,27.064705882352943,8.841846274778883,1.8021796078431376,612,18,125,10,10,193,100,153,0.105,0.6859999999999999,0.209,0.9458,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,3,1,11,9,1,1,4,0,14,3,0,0,1,22,26,11,0,2,4,0,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,12,11,3,0,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,0,5,6,11,6,16,18,3,10,0,1,1,0,12,5,0,2,5,80,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080013975797561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13264213238205042,0.0,0.0,0.17212257540390144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618031389586238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446116040540993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458754425776573,0.0,0.09324726764050273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809995904914768,0.0,0.0,0.07138424455228735,0.10085816479949568,0.13555379030645393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752019485591827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139384839247958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731458773686245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14735399052924258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897283174261516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537851040357183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468229327148522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32211852345552866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787560566661872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221462741144792,0.0,0.0,0.14192369047849926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227105034442787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678456442749227,0.0,0.0,0.14391401020368913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475907377012193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27741491353743386,0.0,0.08232249513668778,0.0,0.0,0.13490239598662246,0.0,0.0,0.15356199673518314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343835495596867,0.12693669844659627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1Throwaway2999,2019/08/27,"How do you know you have a problem? I feel really stupid posting this because I am not underweight at all, 4 months ago I weighed 220 lbs.
I started eating only a very low number of calories a day, then I started fasting only drinking water for 24-72 hours and then I'd eat a low amount of calories.

I've basically been doing that for the past 4 months with day every once in awhile where I eat as much a 2k calories.
I also walk on the treadmill all day long and don't stop till I burn 1000 calories.

I don't know how much weight I've lost but it's quite a bit and I've become obssessed with this.

Only now I'm having some issues which I don't understand, my hair is falling out by the handfuls and my heart rate is in the 40s and 50s plus it's very irregular.
I thought I would be ok doing all this because I still have fat for my body to burn.
I feel like I need to stop but I can't just yet.",2.5176951399116376,3.310297190721652,4.108100147275405,90.29061855670105,74.51546391752578,6.573784977908691,25.19734904270987,6.5431188927421005,0.7145431516936673,701,22,160,5,14,235,114,194,0.066,0.8690000000000001,0.066,0.2443,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,2,8,7,1,0,10,1,16,12,5,2,3,30,27,15,0,3,4,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,9,8,2,6,1,0,2,5,5,0,0,3,5,21,2,18,22,8,31,0,3,0,0,2,8,0,1,21,96,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168399364798976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540689777569093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069800065500006,0.1455717016224692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390031788624888,0.14640909596200205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550159797992323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912176771976408,0.0,0.4046178067282935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105401733269256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13329228139773866,0.09416373996832544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619324472887855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980443741835396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13757342179559534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487658011811666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06439478455712642,0.0,0.0,0.1166460294021533,0.0,0.0,0.1438841221266059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21041595141850014,0.0,0.1937882534578431,0.09773404327255224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403713351717937,0.0,0.30073802098170843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582575519017256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623573404911695,0.0,0.0,0.12612255999208746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019414933938565,0.0,0.0,0.08443965026908515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865889170396873,0.0,0.10526212673936014,0.220394963516764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046409160621284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13721689075090476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175109892724437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050676840902414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363269943325248,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,petiteVSangel,2019/08/27,"DAE like to hide their eating disorder behind food allergies? Let me offer some background information. I’ve been allergic to peanuts all my life and recently I’ve discovered that I also have a soy allergy. Which sucks but it’s also awesome because it’s in nearly everything so I have the right to be as picky as I want.

*Also sometimes I eat things with soy to cause a lax effect at the risk of allergic reactions*

But anyway, my boyfriend suggested we go to Mission BBQ with his family for a pre-Labor Day celebration. Now, the food served at Mission is like nightmare-fuel for me. But his mom also has an eating disorder so if I don’t want to eat or if I just want vegetables for dinner she stands by my decision and either her or my boyfriend will answer on my behalf if anyone questions my food choices.

Back to the main topic, I looked at the nutrition for Mission, not great options but I could make some things work for me. Then when I look at the allergen information, literally everything except lettuce, a few sauces and maybe the baked sweet potato don’t contain soy. I’ll probably not mention this to my boyfriend and skip a potentially triggering meal over the holiday weekend, woo!",4.834016715830876,6.793028163716817,5.8579941002949845,75.42650934119966,70.46017699115046,9.44700098328417,31.582104228121928,9.861636050157227,3.4451295968534907,959,43,165,25,18,317,140,226,0.086,0.7979999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.8402,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,1,0,1,2,11,6,1,1,14,0,11,14,0,4,1,39,19,23,0,7,14,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,7,7,11,1,6,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,3,25,4,29,14,6,18,0,0,2,0,13,9,1,9,9,119,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3736497318031051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167584666137544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981921643686562,0.0,0.07120592450910218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999542782606905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932627990087127,0.0,0.0,0.07533239796464912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677473787732411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781007004194181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20996150905642652,0.0,0.11011750415995501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4237391612302038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638547245304346,0.0,0.0,0.12878277307868327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944552298688466,0.08250593189389344,0.1141343426617666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19618094934438327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07797117984779793,0.0,0.11735074000383247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680575454809227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594028695198112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085325824738192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533518800608675,0.0,0.0,0.09975458719950024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115527480901554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520594661182982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20669162715616127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503863254781015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway154289,2019/08/27,"My fiancé is struggling and won't get help Hello reddit! So, I recently discovered that my fiancé is struggling with an eating disorder. I'm not exactly sure what to call it, but she basically binges on sweets (eats entire cakes, multiple 1/2 gallon containers of ice cream, multiple trays of cookies, etc. in one sitting) multiple times a week in secret.

I was totally oblivious until I discovered trash bags filled with packaging stashed away in a closet. The other day, I came home early from work and she wouldn't let me inside until she hid her stuff. I tried to talk to her, but she was totally in denial and refuses to talk to a professional. If I bring it up, she just says, ""I can't talk about this right now!"" and pretends she's busy with something else.

The other thing is that she's a total health freak. She works out almost every day (sometimes multiple times a day) and constantly talks about eating healthy. For example, if I suggest something for dinner that she thinks is unhealthy, she usually won't go for it. Also, I do most of the cooking and she constantly watches me to make sure I don't use any butter or oil (even the slightest amount). I now realize that we spend a lot of time talking about food. She'll want us to decide what's for dinner at like 10am, which is kind of annoying to deal with when I'm at work (I'm the type of person that would just decide what to make when I'm at the grocery store on the way home). Basically, I feel like she has created this persona that doesn't match how she acts when she's alone.

I'm worried about her mental and physical health. She constantly complains that she's ""fat,"" but I thought everyone does that. When I tell her she's beautiful, she just rolls her eyes. I think she might have some untreated depression, but I don't know how much of this is related.

I have a pretty good relationship with her parents, so I would be comfortable talking to them, but I think she would freak out if I did that. Is there any hope if she's unwilling to change?

tl;dr My fiancé binges and won't get help.",5.048273136660232,5.955178672456579,5.691160738902678,80.84449039610331,68.727047146402,9.44431577979965,29.317985479275798,9.633347757342033,2.595602407866924,1627,58,317,35,27,528,201,403,0.115,0.787,0.09699999999999999,-0.3438,1,1,2,0,0,0,56.0,2,0,1,3,20,16,1,2,15,0,29,11,2,5,6,65,50,29,0,10,14,1,1,2,0,9,3,1,3,1,23,17,8,2,10,2,2,5,9,7,0,1,5,8,56,9,47,34,9,42,0,1,3,0,51,14,0,11,23,213,79,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716718020460587,0.09015669850623316,0.0,0.06961319832516508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118392855787118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178557071547554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888869461374651,0.0995610725106626,0.0,0.0,0.09208649083063784,0.0,0.0,0.2822077185219665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841856038328787,0.08974388294552475,0.0749753317495151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997659026256517,0.0,0.07617732461113727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672191310061101,0.07271842053596375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09708284684951786,0.057495162846682525,0.0,0.0733426891078654,0.08317922253294552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044014681277786384,0.06218795205797286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526021478818627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095920814661236,0.0,0.049472055419204165,0.0730127227186377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185058416880387,0.0,0.0,0.11669446175913226,0.0,0.1746348515201024,0.08645947786004046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064832617034407,0.04783995315892891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901368498902762,0.0,0.08505566529471152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400610049042541,0.0,0.0,0.11621200807931137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772509992120445,0.09234542441412012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399116379345396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058986777666875975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665781354883432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600798691038199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856031147830687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595056421203294,0.09345824278423487,0.0,0.07433952465645609,0.0,0.06922500236046779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13402942422313205,0.08609386551621516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820054080621179,0.09965048552365,0.0,0.0,0.16408564517784496,0.0,0.0,0.41980100430913386,0.07608482074628188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05783160764278385,0.1673328002284857,0.0,0.06910732595756018,0.1522772318244276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059100679611010384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470944625311514,0.07518254295188836,0.09587237428326068,0.0,0.05134386212077693,0.06909558780342186,0.06982560200118758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011852081738392,0.08840266842974766,0.0,0.1855117211372134,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nuttytashiea,2019/08/27,"Me Ranting About My Current Relapse I'm back again and look at that still a failure. I got my calories counting app and after writing this I'm gonna go on MPA. I'm so smart. Obviously. 

I'm just angry. And sad. And unhappy. I feel so alone and I'm sick of fighting myself to recover. So many people have made comments about my weight lately and I feel disgusting physically and mentally. I hate myself.

I'm so lonely. I feel like if I never existed, it really wouldn't change anyone's life. I'm not significant. I'm just some background character who sits and is there to help everyone else out and do nothing themselves. 

I'm going to go back to 88. Now that I'm older it's probably an even more ridiculous number but I need it. I'm 106. I've gained 3 pounds in two weeks. Fucking disgusting. I'm going to be 88 and I'm going to feel safe and better about being alone.

I'm tired of fighting and I know it sucks to just give up after two years of recovery. But I feel so alone. I want to be held and loved and cared for. I want to feel like I belong. Everywhere I go people sit and talk and I realize no one ever really wants to talk to me. I am very thankful for the few friends who do invite me to do things like once a month, but it feels like a pity invite. 

I wanted to put this out because I'm going crazy and I'll probably delete it by the end of the night but I needed to just burst even if it is all nonsense. 

I feel like I'm drowning for no reason at all and I just want someone to hold me and tell me I'm worthwhile and it's okay. But no one touches me much less talks to me. 

I'm angry at myself not the other people. I'm the issue and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. If I lose weight, maybe it'll fix things. I fuck up everything anyways but I wanna try and fix things. It kinda feels like nothing I want aligns with anything other people wants so I'll never get it.

I feel trapped inside myself. I don't know what to do and no one understands.

I just want to curl up in my bed, sleep forever, and die of malnutrition.

But I have to go to the gym now. I'm not going to eat anything before it.

I don't know how low I'm going to restrict. But I need to feel in control and safe. So I'm going to. 

I think I'm done now I'm gonna go on MPA.",-0.4397358843714265,1.6597478997955015,2.3139475234827245,93.2348123115317,89.42944785276077,5.114845239333126,18.513084468475963,6.6175320697248425,0.05940612803715695,1749,50,396,22,59,608,202,489,0.179,0.6709999999999999,0.15,-0.9376,1,6,0,0,4,0,48.0,0,0,0,4,29,30,9,0,10,1,19,10,1,4,6,97,99,44,2,16,20,0,14,6,1,4,3,0,1,0,25,28,3,6,19,1,0,13,13,15,0,5,4,15,46,15,53,88,7,49,0,5,1,3,14,14,3,5,26,235,71,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20212809381379165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045487071253428026,0.0,0.10706733172823402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004458514962344,0.0,0.039656141860889324,0.0,0.055355921433470116,0.0,0.0,0.05753472583954885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066326599723963,0.0,0.06881820639691075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296327484876285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675154872216859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657253829728525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06656619280745171,0.054344032747486594,0.0,0.05761828398264467,0.0,0.0,0.08593473261749192,0.05884481110225145,0.0,0.06216161407143465,0.05846608583393725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618242516010057,0.23237194085274515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050260340108302035,0.12028222555597995,0.03398788195461622,0.062405452766135176,0.44365831600378103,0.0,0.05202939997225429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422707707578244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04360413499460064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789917869266711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300728546881944,0.0,0.07338342591761034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04594936393432925,0.19069175977972724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05462873778578862,0.07277846883107042,0.0,0.0,0.058713519140065874,0.06155539962390619,0.0,0.06595425809489494,0.06535520218514185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555884558214141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05192525597851245,0.0,0.04782196691169032,0.14470951980200766,0.1003468734242762,0.0,0.0,0.06104850621304185,0.0,0.12484159126135888,0.0,0.0,0.0692800851048036,0.13224624600910004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804002243832528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027781872926753,0.0,0.0,0.06539695318675487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335015335862632,0.06688605539372643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06510069766257635,0.0,0.055119803007221184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051951982147141855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568631397482056,0.0568598157075991,0.0598927220455484,0.0,0.0,0.12965639612695926,0.04168379487307549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747696774967467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0441672033648069,0.0,0.12709605697763388,0.06772321327146172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05367612920965125,0.3069629404939009,0.0,0.05218216751405975,0.15843580260407236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112602684933261,0.0,0.04189246065041303
EDAnonymous,Harsaw,2019/08/27,"A friend with bulimia nervosa. So I have this friend with that specific disorder, and I wanted to help her but I don't know how. She open up to me about that disorder she have and I feel like I'm responsible to help. It all started when her mom keeps commenting her appearance everytime they meet whether she's skinny or thick I would say? It's just her body type and her facial structure and she is in her ideal weight according to the IBW. How do I convince her to stop? Any help is appreciated.",1.4874242424242432,4.0728705959596,3.1224494949494965,87.3703409090909,85.46464646464648,7.34040404040404,23.40151515151515,8.344100000000001,1.748642424242425,395,15,81,10,12,130,65,99,0.07200000000000001,0.655,0.273,0.9721,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,7,4,3,2,1,22,14,11,0,3,4,1,3,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,5,7,2,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,19,5,10,13,1,8,0,0,0,0,21,4,0,2,4,56,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833335222346405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422891272227979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4999832354976543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029120258271162,0.15582946006907425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370476501260508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4386163485177543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388066251595756,0.0,0.0,0.11987650057258857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656548382824199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554668662193795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17346277508955354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543909057082285,0.0,0.0,0.1823633395312952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12865653309636368,0.0,0.0,0.2656190489781262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549506530050914,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NoFapRelapsed,2019/08/27,"Feeling Crushed 17M, overweight but I’m tryin my darnedest. I have a slew of symptoms that all point to a few disorders (rumination, binging, bulimia, avoidant diet). I told my parents a few months ago about the issues and they thought that most of them were resolved... but they weren’t, really :(

My parents found out today that I hadn’t eaten. They were so worried that I ended up caving and eating something they made for me, despite not feeling hungry, and they looked so happy, which made it all the more painful when I just ended up throwing it all back up later. I feel like trash for putting them through this but I just can’t stop. Hopefully when I’m lighter I’ll come to my senses...",3.9158304853041694,5.8462540075188025,4.030717703349281,87.69956937799044,72.8345864661654,6.340123034859878,30.13602187286397,6.980632752743323,1.6575022556390984,545,24,104,5,11,168,85,133,0.134,0.752,0.114,-0.4129,3,1,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,7,1,8,6,0,1,5,0,6,6,0,2,3,26,20,10,0,1,6,2,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,5,4,2,6,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,10,4,19,4,12,10,7,18,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,2,11,71,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151996724656575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314353439346366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724187180405918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959016690008347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490502725323526,0.0,0.0,0.3027881603329722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592834614611442,0.12211309955881025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18741695592821173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195916686317545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16977299425913953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17840749483848786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350822450698753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14353894173986148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32347798168195263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643544762013576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18188257447143116,0.0,0.3795971669246338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615849905358092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183280877267562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950273877703208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13159099055643386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290592180830922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17766269766749787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570007526589356,0.0,0.0,0.16202254716987613,0.16333184075464002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358866941241025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,huh200765,2019/08/27,"gerber baby food snacks ‘dupe’ for brits? i see people talking about these baby food pouches all the time but they’re only in america and i’m jealous 😔✊🏻 do any fellow brits have suggestions for things that are in the same vein as super low calorie for quite a high volume of food? doesn’t have to be baby food, but that’s just what’s got my brain going lol",1.1555,3.38665326666667,2.6982500000000016,92.415375,83.0,4.816666666666666,17.375,5.985473137389443,-0.3262999999999998,285,6,59,2,8,93,60,75,0.085,0.794,0.121,0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,3,1,6,7,2,0,1,6,10,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,1,9,8,2,6,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,1,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212894248202403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19910629893324827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8626838721464951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136485190051844,0.0,0.14264903144830354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18844481547945288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564914923392024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365084594023168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897054821008232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212808001092275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433572490870806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11849300163914585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400187150038516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway13738191,2019/08/27,"Do you think I'm fat? https://ibb.co/hRTDZ85

Left Is before and right is after. What was I before? Is it bad now?",-0.1759090909090908,1.261484136363638,1.6805454545454561,90.8508181818182,116.72727272727272,3.578181818181818,8.945454545454545,5.6839178017228535,-1.3456836363636362,89,1,18,1,5,29,18,22,0.175,0.825,0.0,-0.6174,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433448033086541,0.0,0.0,0.6998221673573972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467829886779559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3511727599011234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634880146184225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThePopeSaidSo,2019/08/27,"IVE GONE TWO WEEKS!!! .. of purging every nutrient consumed every. fucking. day.
the calluses on my knuckles are so deeply imbedded in my hands i don’t think they’re ever coming out
my face doesn’t stay too too swollen but my skin and hair have gotten visibly worse
someone help i’m so sick of this bs 
i have no clue how to break the cycle
and i’ve figured out how to make time for school so my schedule is now surrounded around my ed
god",-0.1525468164794006,2.071322359550564,1.4408539325842715,95.30030711610488,100.68539325842696,4.171086142322098,20.54007490636704,6.079149491110277,0.2725589513108617,346,13,71,4,15,111,69,89,0.131,0.805,0.064,-0.8184,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,10,1,1,0,2,0,7,7,4,3,1,13,14,8,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,2,3,9,0,10,12,0,16,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,6,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411913472189351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23338821113880426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747319330032021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24507800277621264,0.4565521689642186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504768649653259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18160334134970507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085253279391625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27420268048636953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956401730910125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887827630385548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17360547182104571,0.0,0.0,0.1579855272988026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646660531434561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21732929642100968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27610792145016144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anxioushypochondriac,2019/08/27,"Is there treatment for orthorexia? How do I know if I need treatment or just therapy? Anorexic diagnosis at 9 - GAD as well which fucking ruins me. 

I’m struggling so much with food rn. I had never been comfortable eating what I pleased until last year when I had one good year of just being mindful of my body, and now I lost it. I was doing so good and now I’m doing shit. I’m dealing with a lot besides food so it makes sense to me that this is my way to control things, but how do I try and improve my relationship with food when I hate myself and my living situation and, fuck, what is there to *not* hate. I’m swimming in distress. What sucks the most is I know not eating is what will bring me ultimate satisfaction but I get triggered with anxiety whenever I get hungry now so it’s a catch 22.",1.4528293035005395,3.6949197177914113,3.4242583904727546,87.5900577408878,81.88343558282209,6.289281847708409,24.31216167448575,7.510576382923642,1.2370486466979431,626,24,129,10,17,211,97,163,0.198,0.716,0.086,-0.9675,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,16,14,6,2,3,0,15,9,2,5,1,29,32,19,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,9,5,1,2,1,0,3,3,10,1,1,5,0,20,4,14,25,3,16,0,2,0,2,2,2,4,4,10,95,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10612465996718164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540928037935395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15559249149224924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430199424454636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28390172479327713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032424283427192,0.0,0.0,0.25649905648122023,0.1449567400812153,0.0,0.0,0.2327128057818648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27392550469258875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247985985934834,0.1130798322301269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224971952084849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143531659819134,0.1179394949868463,0.0,0.0,0.09260037654635317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400732512736375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019792353793446,0.1028632316523236,0.10699369019485043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400401754491558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227898668314835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893931558732465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423997753846989,0.0,0.15593332164749216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502605710523958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586447473961658,0.0,0.09216308594113523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418553687481153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101138781445344,0.0,0.0,0.12473092257953095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866940158180952
EDAnonymous,footjerky,2019/08/27,"Picture dysmorphia...???? Does anyone else at least sort of accept/ acknowledge your body in your mirror at home, but freak out when you see yourself in other peoples’ mirrors or in pictures??? Even posed pictures I look so much bigger than in my mirror. Maybe I’m posing without really realizing it every time I do a body check

And then I have the audacity to wonder why I don’t have any pictures of myself! MaYbE if I didn’t delete every single one out of sheer denial immediately upon seeing them",5.268341013824884,7.008981333333335,6.4666973886328725,72.36290322580649,69.0,8.325038402457759,28.3394777265745,8.841846274778883,2.5049735791090635,396,14,64,7,7,133,71,93,0.057999999999999996,0.9420000000000001,0.0,-0.7271,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,5,2,2,0,0,12,10,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,3,11,1,15,9,3,13,0,0,3,0,4,10,0,4,3,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569635570226435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952538599278078,0.20445579585648024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432954706084666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462177541298032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669290716152574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179653479820774,0.0,0.33624784411778263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015830154898906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675662010287405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4009363346659051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466873599118504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352157731275152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833826979111505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783261264642734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31802051215966604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11635536214087468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005688292606434,0.0,0.0,0.1923527183903908,0.2163963070508165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinn3y,2019/08/27,"being ""healthy.""// becoming pretty //this makes no sense. just me venting/ranting. it all sounds so stupid in retrospect.

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my mom doesn't understand why i'm vegetarian. i'm not exactly a paragon of moral virtue, so it's not so much about how the animals are treated (which is messed up) but more about what i'm eating. my mom asks me, ""why are you vegetarian if you don't like vegetables?""

i'm vegetarian because it has lower calories. i would be vegan, because being a vegetarian feels like a cop out to me (but it is not the same for other people.)

my mom says, ""don't you want to be healthy? i thought you were vegetarian because you wanted to be healthy?""

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i can't tell her that i don't give a damn about my health. i don't care about my health at all. i just care about being pretty and getting smaller.

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i have lost weight in one of the most unhealthy ways possible and i do not care. i don't care if my hair falls out, if i become anemic or if i pass out. i could not give a shit about my health, because beauty is pain and i'm willing to make a few sacrifices in order to become beautiful. (this sounds so cult-ey wtf)

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will i ever be pretty? i want to keep losing weight until i become pretty. deep down i know that i can never be beautiful- i'm just a sad, broad shouldered brown girl who has no chance of ever being as pretty as those blonde-haired blue-eyed white girls that i see scattered around my high school, on tik tok, instagram, tv etc...

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i can't change my race, but i can at least become small, right? (although, my bone structure is fairly wide)

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why couldn't i be born the standard of beauty? why couldn't i be born small and delicate, the center of everyone's attention? all i want is to turn heads- to be the envy of everyone and to be admired.

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i had to be born in a stupid fucking body that i hate, and into a family that will never amount to anything.

so, in short, i have an ED because i'm vain and bitter. i will feel inferior for the rest of my life, and it'll never end. i stare at myself in every reflective surface, i judge others and i desperately want to be better than everyone else. this is who i am.

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god, i sound like such a loser teenager. i need to get some rest.

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tl;dr- making some realizations about the reality of my ED as i write it, i guess.",3.6661911487758942,5.0882237076271215,4.9233333333333364,83.11705273069681,72.51694915254237,7.617325800376648,26.45856873822975,8.167268648758528,1.6328769303201502,1858,63,370,28,36,616,220,472,0.18,0.69,0.131,-0.9655,1,0,0,0,0,0,117.0,0,5,0,4,20,25,7,0,19,0,50,16,6,4,9,68,87,28,0,14,16,3,5,3,0,6,5,4,0,2,21,14,4,1,7,1,0,2,20,15,0,1,4,14,57,10,52,59,15,41,2,5,4,1,19,27,3,9,13,253,78,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42354138837530014,0.4749878580885604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035742050860238954,0.03866500302819936,0.040604437976246736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238322244832654,0.2398443151690717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03841338088833268,0.0,0.04824480165327568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771332982678935,0.0,0.04594685967129923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03467809722980495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04444329022666782,0.03628309683370859,0.0,0.03846916894902516,0.0,0.04843980805923968,0.0,0.07857613325477862,0.036594577705784816,0.12450764593640498,0.0,0.0,0.040945216705383536,0.0,0.04392254207768262,0.031028884700452775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04015354967766395,0.045384398241554186,0.08333069782237802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04784687173108157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042881566550551184,0.044575278036892034,0.13850326526777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045889853192590944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03860567007155377,0.0,0.0,0.02386990311659821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030678349338248045,0.06365820896681743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048590950993214616,0.04741277095827013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869765496411472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260629023279804,0.0,0.0,0.0319286031696924,0.03220537290716339,0.10049572532638287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029431648132913275,0.0,0.04621628189510955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03011130421869108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04896471940166629,0.0,0.22093730400825026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03709195210514917,0.0,0.03454004426177504,0.0,0.043956997602082826,0.03461085787715512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04458384006115307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037962773371121576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03448132923069665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724315082016176,0.0,0.045215781398409184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809095050568414,0.034475472439802264,0.0,0.10578054805981926,0.0,0.0,0.15676782965820169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030853895946399593,0.0,0.4749878580885604,0.0
EDAnonymous,tsumanne,2019/08/27,"no one in my life knows i struggle with disordered eating and i feel so alone (i'm mostly just venting in this post)

i'm just so sad i started crying in the middle of doing my hw but im pushing through by writing this post and trying to finish my hw so i can go cry in the shower haheeh

i've struggled with disordered eating for 2 years but i don't feel like i deserve to be labeled as a disordered eater? or having an ed i guess? i just feel invalid so i don't tell anyone and also bc everyone in my life knows me as this happy bubbly person 

now i just eat maintenance / below maintenance mostly largely bc i force myself to so my friends i eat lunch w dont get suspicious and my mom too, except i have to count everything and if i don't know the exact number in a food i kinda freak out but i still force myself to eat it bc i don't want to seem suspicious. 

to be honest i've never told anyone irl, whether it be parents or friends or a teacher, about my problems or issues in my family or how sad i am and it just hit me so hard that i feel so alone in my real life and i hate this in all aspects of my life i feel so alone and school stresses me out so much and i just wanted to vent

however i also want to say that ❤️ i love u all and i'm so happy this community exists. coming onto here and seeing this and the ed meme subreddit make me feel a lot less alone in my struggle and while it sucks that SO many people are struggling, at least we aren't all alone 🖤",0.4063893653516288,2.373939896226417,2.9738421955403105,90.90503430531734,84.0,5.4897655803316185,20.013722126929675,6.714681859716394,0.2921433962264155,1149,33,251,13,33,399,155,318,0.201,0.6890000000000001,0.109,-0.978,3,5,0,0,1,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,26,18,2,5,9,0,15,12,0,2,5,64,43,40,0,5,17,2,7,1,2,0,4,1,1,1,13,19,7,0,10,0,0,3,8,11,0,1,1,9,42,7,35,38,9,28,0,2,1,1,11,16,1,12,8,174,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135085952009064,0.0,0.12771388626166671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116675742332172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878470311151595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754254976314052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27454903913211604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358496383513386,0.0,0.0,0.40853835342215905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630120452364146,0.07176507302055429,0.0,0.07527656628488573,0.0,0.2422508719810953,0.05704568405892945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655633861659058,0.0,0.12338561497532315,0.0,0.041718934926052234,0.0,0.04538125392132047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796505431403964,0.0,0.0,0.17000608750421048,0.07153095424129431,0.07883648803397066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625295442052226,0.08334386418059916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165232635836707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256049407761831,0.03901124292773765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788660001336934,0.07206878873931256,0.0,0.0533012687937215,0.08095654225323863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352071252390687,0.0,0.0,0.058699789774739414,0.0,0.061586136612016625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054109212011066984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866526249961622,0.0,0.0,0.05535873956296908,0.06972295217573428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529506751523525,0.0,0.0,0.07640677518153109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088810076760463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350084675489177,0.0,0.08081363611986178,0.06363103548610273,0.07269349629947555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056519061445118014,0.0,0.06376923885313382,0.0,0.09146923302889017,0.3339110763978598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979343268816042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630120452364146,0.0,0.054213695501900264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14129484763431288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051421528475957635
EDAnonymous,WhollyLonely,2019/08/27,"Why do I binge if I don't even enjoy it?! At the grocery store I was ashamed, guilty and just fucking sad when I piled junk food into the cart. When I got home and unpacked it I felt shit. I baked the pizza and took it out before it was even done, some of the dough was raw and it got cold quickly. I felt terrible while eating and it didn't even taste that good. The candy I ate didn't even taste that good. But I still shoved it down my throat faster than I could swallow and it was actually painful. My stomach felt so uncomfortably bloated. I knew I'd start feeling physically ill and my heart would feel weak in an hour or two. And I was right, cause it always ends up like that. And I still did it. And I'll do it again.",2.2765686274509807,3.5149394836601364,3.187728758169936,94.91727941176471,75.73202614379085,6.1457516339869285,21.90032679738562,6.42735559955562,0.08555816993464037,563,14,134,4,12,179,91,153,0.193,0.746,0.061,-0.9691,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,12,11,2,1,6,0,14,16,4,1,0,26,26,17,0,3,4,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,2,0,14,12,8,0,6,0,1,1,3,7,0,1,17,8,17,4,8,7,1,19,0,1,0,1,0,7,2,3,12,87,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.1470770414985389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540775707927188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824818606817626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548268134129198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033443475378484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542347603922057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542200592086685,0.0,0.0,0.13348961075494484,0.0,0.0,0.3981858956748722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15241304154729127,0.0,0.4341328875184201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224634399301373,0.0,0.0,0.13933448169892246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528268027425836,0.2410826518957627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859914504151236,0.0,0.0,0.1511804022409874,0.0,0.14842486681004466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736322078909266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603724137865816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871061122267607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470777295995772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667753626398813,0.0,0.2407239298157068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16745098346907472,0.0,0.0,0.147227598617333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599771668904967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070642977917209,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alex___B,2019/08/27,"Done with my mom making me eat I struggle with an eating disorder and every day my mom constantly talks about food and all I hear is ""Are you hungry? Let's go get food, you need to eat"" and I'm DONE! In 6th grade I was caught starving myself at lunch so I guess since then shes been so hard on me about eating and buying fast food so often to make me gain weight but I try my best to keep it under 500 calories daily, and I currently weigh 106 at the age of 13, and I was 104 before but you know, thanks to her I gained 2 pounds and I'm so done, I cant take this anymore, it makes me so angry and upset. Today she brought me mcdonalds and i said i wasnt hungry but she got me it anyways 'for later' and we argued because I'm not eating it. I WANT TO SKINNY OH MY GOD!!!!!",0.6743984220907286,2.135188550295858,2.9081420118343217,94.27980670611444,80.65680473372781,5.453412228796845,17.775542406311637,6.079149491110277,-0.3978997238658773,591,11,140,4,15,202,104,169,0.132,0.7809999999999999,0.087,-0.7008,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,3,0,3,9,5,1,2,2,0,12,12,1,3,1,27,32,19,0,2,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,13,12,1,1,0,1,3,3,3,0,0,11,4,31,2,16,20,2,16,0,0,0,0,14,5,0,2,8,89,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075038511896623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807530161273195,0.0,0.09502616419048847,0.0,0.11719474555858513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067968661049228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202035150878915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279878303081146,0.0,0.0,0.34284315702802537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5713507971192385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940899786483234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051091451271697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05834494246451994,0.0,0.06346678441576804,0.0,0.08931572587836327,0.0,0.12302126221434374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003777462291633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586446967116105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099260789451944,0.0,0.0,0.061372990628150964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419400927212545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236293519885796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26158196996735217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280469509878469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622734069463262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923777073223233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674568499430407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396478686012493,0.08975915666681669,0.0,0.10281421556239087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585368863385354,0.0,0.0,0.07581916821352302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06586809059538946,0.0,0.0,0.13598858263068575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turncver,2019/08/27,"Not sure if I should start worrying or not. Last fall I found out I gained 20 pounds (not sure how long it took, maybe a year or less?) Before this I was one of those people who could eat whatever and not gain a single pound. I didn’t eat great, but I guess what kept me so skinny all my life was being “naturally thin” and also generally not eating a ton. 

I started working out in November and got pretty consistent later in the winter. First I was only doing body pump, then when I wasn’t losing weight I started running more and taking cycle. A few months in, I weighed myself for the first time since putting on the weight and found out I gained another 5 pounds. I was devastated. So I started dieting and working out more.

Recently I found out I lost 6 pounds and I was so happy! But now I’m obsessed with keeping the weight down. I’d love to lose another 5 pounds. I downloaded a calorie tracker, I sometimes skip breakfast, I feel guilty whenever I eat something heavy. I’m always looking at my stomach in the mirror every morning. I’d love to get some abs! I miss eating the food I love. Chocolate, ice cream, pastries...but I feel guilty every time I do.

I do cheat a couple days a week, usually when I have dinner with my dad or my boyfriend. When I do, I try to be as good as I can but it’s hard.

I’m not sure what’s going on with me. Is my behavior normal considering the sudden weight gain? Am I heading towards something dangerous?",2.260646232439335,4.315111062068971,3.898199233716476,86.2448722860792,78.0344827586207,6.6411238825031935,24.8786717752235,7.662118739084242,1.3517828863346106,1128,41,225,17,27,376,162,290,0.166,0.703,0.132,-0.5218,0,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,11,9,16,2,1,14,0,19,22,4,1,4,46,45,25,0,4,13,1,8,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,15,15,2,5,0,0,5,8,7,0,3,14,10,39,9,24,27,8,44,0,4,2,3,5,15,0,6,24,144,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771633633135107,0.07045822424176675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17758288112796633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205407115988469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405729409881593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760786402175281,0.0936937251668736,0.0,0.05460979696256775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332296409477416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426884074446713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563068592256742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14405278757774193,0.10239202160505204,0.27853257896380795,0.0,0.0,0.044240348665769785,0.0,0.048124011313513015,0.07102322845430364,0.06772410233497042,0.09335692583957808,0.09328149628350893,0.0,0.0,0.09014046738993954,0.07585415019916808,0.0,0.08690324951450548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752649972508581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902322999433755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059810019469276686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493666852355198,0.07110753209162403,0.1894642826373658,0.09243518035603787,0.0,0.2292734711994671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506964145789778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06758854323773875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08296568968343558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05737947072816566,0.06440083589140236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058704517368536976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614716723202671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851239866763192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360853191753716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004586530133695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303773104432983,0.08374792846221821,0.0,0.23973986766691385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394218123144251,0.0,0.06366672567374408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875192725823856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407949888865794,0.057490269004115774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325998658365847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792295230518365,0.4124561311413668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232920385619361,0.08599381973538288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05452934866950703
EDAnonymous,Evie1407,2019/08/27,Lost in the food again. Need help getting back on track I had been doing so well. I was on top of things. My food was under control. I was following a healthy daily plan. I felt good. I felt in control. Then... something happened. At this point I cant even remember what it was. It was to do with my family. It doesnt really matter now what teh trigger was. All I know is I slipped. I went back to my old coping mechnism- disordered eating. The other behaviours kicked in straight away. Fast forward 3 weeks and I felt exhausted. Powerless. Every day I tell myself I will get back on track tomorrow. That Ill get back exercising and taking care of my body. But another day slips by and I do not do what I need to do. I dont feel like I have the power within me to stop doing what Im doing. I am lazing around teg place and feel helpless. My ED affects every area of my life. It comes to around 10pm at night & the urge builds up inside me to binge. then the secrecy & shame kicks in. Its such an isolating hidden disorder. I need help & support to once again believe in myself- that I do have the strength inside me to stop the bingeing & purgeing. I dont believe I have teh strength. Ive tried & keep failing. It just feels easier to give in to the cravings. The cravings feel bigger than my ability to stop at present.,0.8554941203075543,3.3074991604477617,2.5914518317503408,90.94793984622343,87.24626865671641,5.78579828132067,22.300316598824054,7.229369725052465,0.9504039800995026,1037,38,213,17,33,341,150,268,0.11800000000000001,0.758,0.125,0.4479,2,0,1,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,9,14,12,0,1,11,0,27,8,1,4,1,33,51,8,0,3,3,0,7,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,15,8,3,6,9,1,0,4,5,5,1,0,13,7,34,7,35,37,1,48,0,3,0,0,4,25,0,0,22,142,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4774264399830997,0.0,0.0,0.09240857276232617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690296843621493,0.0,0.0,0.08279797494132521,0.2710560990339847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985773197501677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788894346516087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985108667539737,0.0,0.0,0.07591338484555223,0.0,0.0,0.19768326915116952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136689159247248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020017622505716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065677702746148,0.0,0.0,0.09017565779770674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058206881861695536,0.0,0.1485011618004978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307804915537285,0.0,0.17823811440611442,0.0629577620001136,0.2538464769399524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21312641215577244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381277559890083,0.08453920099693601,0.0,0.0739165299351734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779301867921485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813899488624345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519200384387144,0.0,0.0,0.07833109735279414,0.0,0.0,0.048432152618061435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062246523999800074,0.04305427462375519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620074903024507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196034587338988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827009773752927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924741910783965,0.09385210394528393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207368843273643,0.0,0.08330825614695585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05645624745578413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983041925650243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784427137418801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22103370677151696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000518232434864,0.0,0.0,0.06626034237750307,0.0,0.07702665673730924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058547491428310276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983227293811365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706899566045739,0.0,0.07923652453689063,0.0816943726170557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MethMasquerade,2018/12/14,"On weighing myself post binge I was dumb about that. I thought I went from 118 lbs on 12/11 to 128 lbs last night post binge. I weighed 123.8 lbs this morning. Still bad that I binged back all that weight but not as much damage done as I had anticipated. 

Don't weigh after a binge just wait a day, it'll fuck your mood up for the whole time you think you've done that. ",2.6644588744588766,3.962225337662338,2.5942207792207803,99.320854978355,74.84415584415585,5.652813852813853,19.326839826839823,5.46131890053228,-0.6509549783549784,289,5,71,1,6,86,59,77,0.12300000000000001,0.831,0.046,-0.6916,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,4,5,2,0,3,0,6,5,0,0,1,7,11,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,6,1,9,0,10,4,3,13,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,0,7,41,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806906409757115,0.19620448470958274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154729482679996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4809469537337314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172418667256269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915459197370737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274261952447334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051955539116466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501055350495324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18766107011362054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057030028465138,0.0,0.18655357719032087,0.13702291774841366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861510863703041,0.0,0.2178354754590287,0.0,0.26235480105330844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitandfood,2018/12/14,"Is peach more like /r/proed? I appreciate people stepping up to be mods and taking on this community, but a lot of the new rules and limitations kinda just make this place really bland to me

I never tried peach, but for any one that does have it, is it more similar to the old sub?

If not, does any one have any recommendations?

Thanks! (:",3.9386363636363626,5.3880507424242445,5.291333333333334,80.63700000000003,71.87878787878788,8.916363636363636,22.29090909090909,9.3871,1.545221818181819,263,6,55,6,5,88,50,66,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.9163,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,1,12,8,5,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,7,7,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,4,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49546508191404903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250617334131066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865049314651735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064732616837378,0.0,0.0,0.16211280013366358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18731075791509835,0.23455839877464224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548436472489809,0.0,0.32914022764026146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683704813323366,0.0,0.25373992788942096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558412400088775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18260259562728906,0.0,0.0,0.22359543007417645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648878944593173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bleedingheartartist,2018/12/14,"I would be skinny if I wasn't an alcoholic. I've counted my calories every day for months, but I never include alcohol, because alcohol is a ""given"". I never even try to avoid the calories. For weeks I've restricted to 800 calories a day in food, but then I'm drinking 1000-2000 calories in rum, whisky, wine, and beer. I just don't know how to fucking stop which is absolutely infuriating because I'd probably lose 15lbs in a month if I quit.",6.0494318181818185,5.837055079545461,7.364909090909091,73.60736363636364,66.38636363636364,10.221818181818184,36.91818181818182,9.888512548439397,3.6599927272727264,349,17,66,7,5,120,60,88,0.212,0.7879999999999999,0.0,-0.9585,0,1,7,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,1,5,0,6,9,1,1,2,14,10,7,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,8,3,1,4,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,7,0,8,6,0,12,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,2,9,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5960253958475333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22665104002187886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23978575467898344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821154141548892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12278801976047693,0.0,0.15663236894341134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247961862090737,0.0,0.0,0.1718655058152302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10216812724720883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20797933028414992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29677403596690183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867616736940681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043625031981407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197732078950826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554242974183025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621679905987224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912119513726574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206106249052668,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,x-ko,2018/12/14,"A reminder about this holiday season As the next big holiday looms, I want to take a moment to remind everyone that it's okay to NOT defend youself.


In this day it seems like everyone's solution to criticism and abuse by family members is to ""just stick up for yourself"" and there's a lot of ""oh my aunt would never say that because she knows I'd call her out on blah blah blah""

And I just want to remind anyone who needs it that it's okay to say nothing. It's okay to not start conflict. Your situation is different than anyone else's and you need to preserve your safety first and foremost.

Dignity, trust, relationships, familial bonds, honor, can all be rebuilt.

Your safety comes first.",5.436332497911447,6.512222541353387,6.143258145363407,77.33931495405183,67.94736842105263,9.520133667502087,30.567251461988306,9.725611199111238,2.9309572263993324,550,21,100,12,9,180,88,133,0.087,0.6709999999999999,0.242,0.9648,1,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,0,4,0,3,4,6,0,0,4,3,5,0,0,0,2,22,14,6,0,5,4,1,0,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,11,7,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,9,6,19,12,2,14,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,2,9,63,20,0,0.0,0.2040443457713408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24083078700679866,0.17645265724892958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497949846893563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758488148261913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834632433027034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106319328499437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992602061304674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386193499668445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32911396636265705,0.0,0.0,0.3246943407886038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929687250248424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464380800447272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413461473407514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640940685512066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25538764152071736,0.13282134810239504,0.0,0.18315057009561755,0.0,0.0,0.1652431001061005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489240482994987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27390151536093066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15677632512653644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357472349618166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189330826051405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12948280807878818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031514793763953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233523487200397,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marychoo,2018/12/14,I gained 10lb in 2 days??? OMFG I binged so much food in two days that I actually gained 10lb. 10 POUNDS. I was doing so well for two months and then BOOM I messed everything up. I just want to die UGGGGH,-0.6020000000000003,1.2952039111111129,1.5555555555555571,99.94000000000004,87.66666666666669,5.377777777777778,13.444444444444445,6.742157984588678,-0.9130888888888892,156,2,41,2,5,52,32,45,0.13699999999999998,0.6509999999999999,0.212,0.3572,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,6,1,5,2,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.28037922080946925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705904331644101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981889132150945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25822132539039755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34742395824329464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293330950542992,0.0,0.2112105078110857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5613324684993368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946657239293714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583318201962504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,liteandlil,2018/12/14,Ugh finals I ate breakfast today which I NEVER do. It makes me feel gross all day when I do but whatever I have to study/focus and I won’t have time to eat again today until 5 or 6 today. Then as I was throwing out my disgusting wrapper I see this girl in the library with the tiniest thinnest legs and I almost cried. She is thinner than my thinspo I’ve never seen a girl that thin before and now I just keep thinking that I want my legs to look like that. Like there isn’t anything there. Thank god there are other people in the bathroom rn that’s all I’m saying ,0.4726050420168058,2.7554281512605066,2.2023109243697507,94.41254201680674,86.81512605042015,4.072268907563025,19.42436974789916,5.288315135182226,-0.2947243697478994,446,13,94,2,14,146,83,119,0.099,0.782,0.11900000000000001,0.3269,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,1,0,4,0,9,5,2,1,4,18,20,9,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,2,8,5,3,1,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,6,15,3,10,16,2,19,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,2,15,63,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20619311738722296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944966926759306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521763973185536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22618684971515296,0.13279748910765474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21070141888389007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411630067840907,0.0,0.0,0.22556871172306456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302581603552856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011983493947428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291589135338264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374491876842668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31762712751524896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427548341035227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375107011994988,0.0,0.0,0.1640867907464108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189577937141732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13194137074396176,0.0,0.0,0.12007010384441492,0.0,0.5855471586379479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12145340671262587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spicy_buns,2018/12/14,"Wanting to eat and not eat at the same time So I had lunch twice this week the first time in months (I usually OMAD). I enjoyed it very much but I was still hungry afterwards. I figure that if I'm going to eat and still be hungry I may as well go all day without eating and have a massive dinner but even then I B/P in the evenings a few days a week. 

If my BMI gets much lower (not sure if we're allowed to mention weight etc.) then I'm going to be in danger health wise but I'm struggling to make any allowances with food because I just feel so guilty about eating outside of my evening meal. I was in ED therapy for 6 months last year but it did bugger all obviously. I work full time as well now so it's not like I can make an appointment with a therapist during the day like I used to. 

If I keep going down this road the only destination is ultimately death but restricting my food intake is the only thing that makes me feel like I have my shit together.  Thanks for letting me vent.",2.7042961165048527,3.9934105339805854,4.095327669902915,88.63289441747574,74.72815533980581,7.0917475728155335,24.040048543689323,7.645422480735847,0.982457281553398,774,23,169,10,16,256,122,206,0.174,0.7440000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.9734,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,2,13,12,2,1,11,0,13,13,1,6,4,37,30,19,1,5,14,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,5,11,2,3,0,0,4,4,3,2,2,4,3,20,9,21,22,8,32,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,5,23,112,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712775329123348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638940168676761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027902680606513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5362575942178301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168960029815008,0.2076871953898945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599483803463423,0.07487958238853731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915525855735508,0.25348449867329664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05476131063184904,0.0,0.2382742461909164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141303512109033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931640463617894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543790120393051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718004594571097,0.0,0.1536213804993118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098937096063254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732405250050567,0.0,0.1541016053059109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943247671230584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759069677447244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674101749616975,0.0,0.0,0.10957499400721507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878653485338178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964992158353018,0.11986464772048867,0.1216978473964453,0.0696341732738281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335473590875007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09052617481112113,0.11543849108000542,0.08648303501494753,0.06182237598424847,0.0,0.16815192476520266,0.1276359646828409,0.1884818544607972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103754920235754,0.0,0.07630628855495496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749717601917818
EDAnonymous,pinksultana,2018/12/14,"Newly diagnosed EDNOS Soooo literally yesterday talked it through for first time ever and it was a shock but also kind of a relief? I’m not actively bingeing or purging or restricting or anything; in fact it’s all a bit too hard because I feel ashamed about anything I eat and so I put it off and then eat whatever is handy because I then don’t have to feel bad about whatever food I planned (I don’t know if that makes sense?) but my mind works out of a place of self hate to the point where I didn’t go to a wedding because I was ashamed of my body and couldn’t face figuring out what to wear ect. I’m very avoidant and I in every minute of every day think about my weight and hate myself and in talking it through yesterday was told (& am still kind of going through the process of believing) that apparently that isn’t the way everyone thinks all the time? I just assumed it was all just exactly the same in everyone’s brain?

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EDAnonymous,2015hereicome,2018/12/14,"Fleas This is... humiliating. Please don't feel contempt for me.

For the past few months I have been eating extremely little. My weight has plummeted. I do a 24hr fast on average once per week even though for the rest of the days I eat an average of about 650kCal. I have developed a persistent cough like I'm coming down with a cold, and I feel crappy constantly.

**My cat sometimes catches fleas.** It's normally no big deal - we get rid of them easily and it's extremely rare that one of us get a bite from them. However this time is different. My arms and ankles are totally covered in weeping sores that won't heal up. We have cleaned my cat, given her the spot and bought her a flea collar. I am taking bubblebaths as often as I can and have thoroughly cleaned my bed and my carpet so many times over the past week or two. Every day I get on average 2 more bites, always on my ankles or forearms, or on my chest/neck area.

The thing is, I've haven't actually seen a flea on me or anywhere in the house. The welts just seem to appear on my skin spontaneously. None of my other family members have been bitten, and nobody can find any critters in the cat's fur. I don't know where they could possibly be living.

I'm feeling totally paranoid, and I'm starting to suspect that I don't really have fleas. Is this really a flea infection, or could it be symptoms of malnutrition? Maybe the extreme calorie restriction is just preventing my body from fighting the fleas properly and making the bites worse? It's definitely not bedbugs btw; my mum has slept in my bed a few times and says she hasn't had any bites.",3.3249445028624827,5.25419303785489,4.660182264283211,82.56294310082956,74.45741324921136,8.481785255286832,26.567239163453674,9.150863307647796,2.273730085290337,1271,47,249,30,27,421,177,317,0.081,0.872,0.047,-0.8535,2,0,0,0,2,0,39.0,3,0,3,1,8,4,2,0,21,0,31,13,5,1,2,39,51,19,0,3,8,1,5,1,0,1,5,1,5,0,12,14,3,2,7,0,1,3,9,3,0,2,7,8,34,1,30,39,7,33,0,1,1,0,13,17,0,8,14,161,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.12762747244581518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882374909129007,0.0,0.0,0.17787681826931356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14527285470739476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126598544905066,0.0,0.1413323203442578,0.0,0.2088426527939643,0.0,0.0,0.16869124666522395,0.1348337807324062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366426798428299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676517851692285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863823797901555,0.0,0.11019215724705944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232926307823282,0.0,0.19838675427109104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953528772686076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20498958019698452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090854142297072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187611615150498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389503411256152,0.13108111168897954,0.1154857125283335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730012509794055,0.13259564783637845,0.1313912948690593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439148516589207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814171084294745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928195133987736,0.0886234246279998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496985113129061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356285668635355,0.0,0.14744064279811692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16756867412483262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040056267137154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906191849411332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934988998041227,0.0,0.09257042554976093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593588170521606,0.09833418106606813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688786409033472,0.0,0.12849577809095453,0.0,0.22878567555201298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775811978774318,0.0,0.1573184717812373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098159696399871,0.1592611189450225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328127458739294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nocontactnotpossible,2018/12/14,"Having trouble mentally to eat enough to get to 1200cal at end of day Hello all,

I’ve been eating 1200cal/day for a few months and steadily losing weight. Recently I’ve fallen into an old disordered habit where I feel bad about eating the calories I know I have room for at night. It’s like I want the scale to move so bad I don’t even want to eat low calorie foods, just want an empty stomach. How do I get out of this unhealthy mindset? Tonight I have roughly 300cal to eat to get to 1200 and despite hunger and despite knowing the scale going up from it would not be fat gain, I am unable to bring myself to eat. I tell myself oh I’m home now there’s no point, why waste the calories when the scale might dip faster too?

This has happened a few times the last few weeks even leading to fasting twice for 48hours and lightheadedness. I want a healthier relationship with food, and I know I have the willpower to eat at a deficit but I don’t want to push myself into a binge purge fast cycle like I have in the past. Thanks for reading. ",3.160327731092437,4.791452719047624,3.7809803921568665,89.95676470588238,74.19047619047619,6.084033613445379,25.68627450980393,6.522977012572876,0.8410308123249304,821,28,169,6,17,259,124,210,0.114,0.805,0.081,-0.6886,1,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,3,12,8,0,0,15,0,14,13,2,2,1,26,31,9,0,6,3,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,4,9,12,0,4,1,0,6,4,5,0,1,1,3,17,3,30,27,5,34,0,2,0,0,3,12,0,1,18,104,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654715729416886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278093581151647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135654165492129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7097547287122052,0.0,0.0,0.08776409034635976,0.10238618056024727,0.0,0.1308956656814626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050102745347260884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396393922948664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531088413418412,0.0,0.05631497769642884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762472194505097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939507955592368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337137434343255,0.08077135616031103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682047477993484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085606290676303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998591427750121,0.1051185456553664,0.0,0.0,0.07909247797675993,0.10531670245526684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09298900009596893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397800408139646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945923605524987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367182450202408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911654616834717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783915516712473,0.1063852878831183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660879252048216,0.09122851125309847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057780019051170674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29222845358651395,0.0,0.07948380527181764,0.12066459752628328,0.0,0.0,0.08941306987783139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039050193585264,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mishielynn,2018/12/14,"Ana relapse, 10 years later. I struggled with bulimia/anorexia when I was 16-18.

I am 5’6 and got down to about 102 at my worst.

I was getting treatment for BPD and doing so much better, but insurance changed.

I now no longer have my therapist, my psychiatrist.

I have been dealing with bullying and a lot of stress at work (I am also a nurse) and fell back on my old habits. 

Now at 28, I’m pretty surprised that this is happening again, but it feels so comforting. The control that I feel from my ED is astonishing. 
Today’s weight is 129 - have lost 5 lbs in less than 2 weeks. 

I just needed to get myself out there, I have no friends and no real family support. I’m happy I found this group. Reading other people’s stories makes me feel less alone. 

Thanks for listening. ",2.1713725490196083,4.395151888888893,3.6585882352941184,86.99964705882353,79.13071895424837,6.694379084967321,24.579084967320266,7.793537801064563,1.395407320261438,601,22,120,10,15,198,109,153,0.155,0.6729999999999999,0.172,0.7139,0,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,11,11,0,2,3,0,13,1,0,2,0,20,29,11,0,1,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,6,8,1,1,4,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,6,5,18,7,17,23,5,18,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,10,82,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17514436038040632,0.0,0.1352351993440894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300332220890784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956183329141332,0.0,0.0,0.2129849648501277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788933024770549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966843050158536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743423975919136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159419492201775,0.0,0.2565174854715549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18541763519553536,0.13065202794936176,0.0,0.17670336864038164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352507087042301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954119568165528,0.18001806856175273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18460080268796536,0.14376914138828514,0.0,0.0,0.11288056329040486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431346353956653,0.1253910617196402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744986471597318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723784154366787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204311344525594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915325374892978,0.19248134694029612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19371205942584704,0.17678786661986398,0.0,0.0,0.19190117661378095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15569145727618725,0.0,0.1963468308474713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602941281156159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356478287614902,0.2059273660445007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311226740675857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889967970712584
EDAnonymous,Rex_3002,2018/12/14,dumb rant I want to die but I don't want to die fat. I need to accomplish atleast that one thing. I have to keep losing fast but christmas is coming up and there's so much food everywhere I cant take it I feel so miserable.,-1.886349206349205,-0.23573451020408245,0.5006802721088448,101.17011337868485,108.3877551020408,4.626757369614512,15.648526077097506,6.42735559955562,-0.3261174603174606,175,5,43,3,9,58,37,49,0.35700000000000004,0.534,0.109,-0.9471,0,0,0,0,0,2,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,9,11,5,2,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,1,6,0,5,11,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,26,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411715503453375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5811345833255446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156252704779376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385439033164028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488524550349011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132176549385134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20581202890369346,0.20759608882342453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189716636960941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21050450497112247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18600131327727565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302701125716853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sydney142,2019/10/18,"I just learned my scale is inaccurate. I went to the gym and weighed 5 pounds more than I thought, went home and confirmed, figured out the problem... idk how long it’s been like that but I feel 1000% worse about my weight than I did, and I already wasn’t feeling great about it...",3.8212499999999987,4.870241482142858,3.3557142857142854,95.93928571428572,71.67857142857143,6.314285714285715,30.07142857142857,5.985473137389443,0.9761571428571432,217,9,50,1,4,64,43,56,0.095,0.743,0.162,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,0,13,9,5,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,3,8,2,6,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061970976164978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805962193289958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059137055430192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27832689955403495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555873529779214,0.0,0.0,0.24555386483570524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26550309691431684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22028166317103906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378859744916254,0.0,0.5144383887403534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827675307304165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yes_creamcheese,2019/10/18,"How I know I'm disordered/PBJ Saga I've been craving a PB&J since yesterday. 

No, since Wednesday at 4:30PM walking back from the gym thinking of binging on an entire loaf of bread with peanut butter and jam. So this morning I walked to 5 different stores and only at the 6th one did I find a packaged PB&J. I could have stopped and got something else but mama didn't raise a quitter!

My sister asked me why I didn't just buy ingredients to make the sandwich myself and I feel like literally everyone of us knows the answer to this but since she's non disordered here's the breakdown:

* I may binge 

Or

* I may not binge
   * But I will over-analyze every gram and put a pathetic amount of PB and J on my sandwich and end up making a piss-poor sandwich and feel sad AND THEN I may binge.
   * Or
   * I will put however much I want on the sandwich and then feel guilty looking at the calorie count because I'm a sad human who has no control AND THEN I may binge.

But you know, I got my sandwich. I microwaved it for 15 seconds and it was melty and delicious and was more than what I usually have for lunch but I actually feel very contented right now. Maybe I will not binge today. 

(Or maybe I will)

(Sometimes it's the little thing that makes you realize that you *probably* have a problem with food)",1.3887321830457608,3.935638023255817,2.748829707426861,90.17827831957993,85.43410852713177,5.809652413103278,24.60165041260315,7.233258080335977,1.2296750187546892,1022,42,205,16,31,330,148,258,0.10800000000000001,0.838,0.054000000000000006,-0.9253,2,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,1,3,0,1,6,4,0,0,16,0,19,8,0,5,0,51,37,27,0,3,11,1,4,1,0,8,0,0,0,1,10,16,8,2,11,1,2,4,6,3,0,2,8,6,29,1,20,20,3,24,0,2,1,0,9,9,0,7,12,133,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.12580318919130262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793603525336512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051883684719628,0.0,0.0,0.09912826490245638,0.0,0.07858585308773051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458999108331294,0.10292874745994428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468953489752966,0.14774863410564376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769257858391733,0.0,0.11418110254172133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086170911316526,0.12318453691865056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607347347435763,0.09209744745025032,0.0,0.0,0.1178266726493661,0.0,0.15588545335951765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621142605377246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125461971140128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06298173042845431,0.1292074627601518,0.0,0.0,0.10825677336594694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581568202437762,0.0,0.259026424479575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476791966479327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735665794831761,0.09804624757177192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899299751342845,0.12335497554652708,0.0,0.2591918988764811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009335794081346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199213560967488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924565326311201,0.1275009868113513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777935104113713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564590518883211,0.0826040160821924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219707040150045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506979092752954,0.0,0.14198250079456226,0.10636900632403318,0.07603785760870563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632642530675093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pearanon,2019/10/18,"Reason not to relapse #53253466 You might just throw out your lumbar trying to get crispbread sludge through your esophagus, because you forget that crispbread is basically made of just nuts and seeds, which congeal into *actual cement* in your stomach. You might then look in the mirror and realize you burst all the capillaries around your eyes and now you look like if chicken pox wanted to be an e-girl. You might be left bedridden for the next few days with an electrical heating pad as your only source of company, questioning yourself, your values, and the past few years of solid recovery. And you might hate yourself even more for being 23 and knowing what an e-girl even is.",9.880975609756101,9.047930715447158,8.426138211382117,71.16408536585367,58.918699186991866,11.126829268292685,38.386178861788615,10.125756701596842,3.8956081300813015,550,22,90,9,6,167,83,123,0.071,0.8759999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,13,0,0,6,2,1,0,7,0,9,2,2,2,1,26,16,9,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,13,1,16,8,4,13,0,0,3,0,14,6,0,6,7,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.1646565162585295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15020581570507074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285647669037704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881713970711332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228896561186202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815466215254937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658632297892725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272980699923196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332605716703976,0.0,0.0,0.0824331432847337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28338205539002864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596567701616842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.715985097622135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794466788145644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832706119111156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16107224486945582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18901664713392294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348293794311653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455685576543187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952155281670047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865683599547002
EDAnonymous,stressedsunflowers,2019/10/18,"Ughhhh!!!! My life is literally falling apart!!!!
im having an anxiety attack !!!
i was finally losing weight but of course my stupid brain had to fuck it up!!! 
ahhhh!!!!!!",0.3810000000000002,2.389129099999998,4.059999999999999,74.86000000000003,108.0,8.666666666666668,18.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,2.6263333333333345,123,4,21,5,6,45,28,30,0.425,0.575,0.0,-0.9434,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,3,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.247153437729643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675473485850355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3606613885350355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35391565879475273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29867998447932753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489791891358307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228199224670201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36144113297565506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934214123825837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lady_ditto,2019/10/18,Is anyone else almost entirely sustained by Lara bars? Gotta have that protein lmao.,3.9860000000000007,7.301539933333332,3.855,80.7825,83.0,5.666666666666668,27.5,7.1686216300943375,2.083,69,3,10,1,2,21,15,15,0.0,0.769,0.231,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5563675119413569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884984713193212,0.5692925597548795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.464144493500108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ditchthatdutch,2019/10/18,"My brother is body building and it's stressing me out He has to eat 6000+ calories a day. He eats a minimum of 1000 for breakfast. I'm on concerta, and even the idea of food makes me somewhat nauseated. I'm eating under 600 a day. His breakfasts make me feel nauseous and absolutely uncomfortable. 

I'm glad that's the only meal I see him eat. But he's working on being pro in basketball and has a whole team of nutrition and health people. He has an eating chart  that he fills out every day. It's so incredibly triggering.",2.4805714285714267,4.6767694857142885,4.575476190476191,80.96035714285716,77.95238095238095,7.628571428571428,27.642857142857146,8.548686976883017,2.2711714285714284,416,18,80,9,10,143,71,105,0.055,0.9109999999999999,0.033,-0.2799,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,7,0,5,11,1,3,0,14,12,7,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,7,9,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,11,11,2,10,0,0,1,0,9,6,0,1,3,44,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16941859797426756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950940272852517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7803452042023576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073996069813516,0.0,0.12850715177421618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712017920340564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18443133953921828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16212474859061116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17217982949989538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362048817532316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600056571507973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057401993394022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215410327184157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471450777696024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028641104838513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103851389030923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Odd_Toes,2019/10/18,"I tried - tl;dr it didn't work and I still suck This will be long and messy so feel free to skip. I had the worst day yesterday and I need to tell someone. 

I've been in therapy for a few months (have not disclosed my ED or behaviors), and we've been working on my self isolation. I picked out a few meetup groups and she pushed me kinda hard to pick one and go to it. I picked a writing group that meets at a coffee shop in the evenings. I justified because I could tell my husband that I ate dinner there. But eVerYthIng WeNt wrOnG. 

First of all I was late because of traffic. By 5 minutes. Pissed me off so bad; I'm the sort where 15 mins early is on time, on time is late, and late is unacceptable. Also I wanted to get there ahead of time so none of them would see me struggling to order something. 

So I walk in and gather all of my courage to say hi to them. The first one to look up says ""we don't take attendance"" and I die inside. The other person took out her earbuds and smiled, introduced herself, and then went back to it. After I take 5 minutes to order a black iced cold brew, I'm convinced that they hate me for talking to them/interrupting their flow/whatever, so I end up on the other side of the room from them, because there is a charger there and I can pretend that I have to charge my laptop to work.  

There are these teenagers talking next to me and even with earbuds in, I can hear them and I can't focus on what I wanted to write. I convince myself that it's a shit idea, there's no reason for me to even try anymore. I feel embarrassed and stupid, and I'm just sitting there not working on anything, too far gone to even allow myself to ask the barista for the wifi password. I opened up a new document and for an hour and a half I just pour it out. I berate myself up down and sideways. I typed out the worst vitriol, the meanest meanspo, the nastiest thoughts that live in my head.  I had to keep blinking and tilting my eyes up so I wouldn't cry in front of everyone. 

Then the woman that introduced themself earlier came up to me. She said she was done for the night, and thanked me for coming and said she hoped I'd come again. The shock of her being nice to me, unsolicited,  was the only thing that stopped me from bawling right there. Soon after, the other group members left and I was free to go. I drove home, told my husband it was all good and I was tired, ate a sugar free jello snack pack with a dollop of whipped cream, went to bed early and cried myself to sleep, my own meanspo ringing in my ears. 

3 and a half years now, I've been so alone. I've managed to convince myself that everyone I spend time with hates me, or it's only a matter of time until they do hate me.  I only talk to my husband, my mom, and my therapist. My husband is my lifeline but it's not fair to him that he is my only outlet, so I keep everything inside as much as I can, only doling out small dribbles of self recrimination to my therapist. I know it's poisoning me. But all I can do is not eat.",2.9090399835543224,4.096924628019327,4.1182122177681855,89.0704193647857,74.05636070853463,6.895412341110768,25.612121835063554,7.295548434001253,1.0569119882139306,2338,77,506,25,47,766,283,621,0.10099999999999999,0.8490000000000001,0.05,-0.9773,0,2,1,0,0,0,70.0,1,0,7,7,31,26,8,2,31,0,37,14,6,5,4,81,78,46,1,7,11,5,3,0,0,3,2,7,3,4,26,40,6,3,7,2,5,15,10,15,0,6,26,17,88,14,86,46,11,88,0,0,5,0,46,35,3,5,35,354,114,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882364890868013,0.0,0.060862547044286064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547745364878651,0.0,0.0,0.06262937729114178,0.0,0.07114954526960575,0.0,0.0,0.058521399274016214,0.0635459641243153,0.1391819202231077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704585632103133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311184664907794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06076505356776924,0.0,0.16719940039227107,0.04908256289072743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898679931494308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788363735135803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0778762137223114,0.0,0.0,0.06740799809183264,0.0,0.0,0.20107118407229446,0.0,0.0,0.14544653790712128,0.13679969377491585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696372740685099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294727393093143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03976263997435773,0.0,0.08650644914386503,0.06383473792624314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06817670646578965,0.2254190019060132,0.0781074907242016,0.0,0.08577784777388799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634128385085184,0.07559118335723505,0.07494982629830907,0.0,0.0,0.08591526627315485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352943671835241,0.0,0.0,0.041826283948789504,0.0,0.25755521471533604,0.0,0.08269021548102792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720366184027897,0.06735208607623967,0.06391050891992639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913531538676323,0.060747688302757924,0.0,0.055947224240518616,0.056432196867820326,0.0,0.07350438133088515,0.08094040076916549,0.07142103696731915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031438180435755,0.2894130956046082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645348569485704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825042300302773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499475567146618,0.14478991066081498,0.12104629766110644,0.0,0.0,0.06064723271852964,0.0,0.15879189416143613,0.0,0.07812249361952839,0.0,0.0,0.07616172160104129,0.0,0.06448500925595274,0.05859070071019901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06077895541797635,0.06362865769898536,0.0,0.07956330823037833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444562114267567,0.1835151881304012,0.13304132243418715,0.07006887769474457,0.08703471078340186,0.17673162442042856,0.050561948387497516,0.0,0.0,0.06042026481171368,0.22189231373426488,0.08747352280650661,0.0,0.07272326895356064,0.0845574087026152,0.10334298609216697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977947570127573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211655182026222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22162650561730565,0.0,0.0,0.054064057423138336,0.08321079266407169,0.0,0.049010257029449264
EDAnonymous,Ohlivvy,2019/10/18,"Well I'm broken I went to the doctor for something that most women don't enjoy but is routine and get done without any major issues. Me? Nope. I had a full on mental breakdown in the doctor's office and didn't get done what I needed to. 
Then!!! I look at my papers and see that I'm at my highest weight ever. Love that for me. 

Why the fuck can't I just lose weight, have a normal body, and be happy... 

*Rationally I did eat some food very high in sodium and it could be water retention... But still I'm disgusting",0.11678648454349627,2.3654236261682264,2.5078504672897206,91.74245147375989,88.43925233644859,4.413803019410496,15.707404744787922,5.8734145424116955,-0.5231144500359455,396,8,83,3,13,135,73,107,0.13,0.777,0.094,-0.6104,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,2,0,5,0,12,10,1,0,1,15,23,8,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,6,4,10,4,10,14,4,11,0,1,2,2,2,7,1,2,3,58,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254195557647198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18382711496664308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213391594190446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387813285003346,0.0,0.3387167257100111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693422201361427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14969927729488056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20011664281437008,0.0,0.0,0.15299702641462878,0.1729281229758282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761720047424367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485405742286894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273329268652066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897372449465129,0.1851460474179751,0.0,0.0,0.14936527483169554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667795616996678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122712097160146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16214950176751622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187771391005293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740577466922706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216414558540596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365503193936497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4030555065637135,0.1487994577322644,0.1534150875021766,0.14933307246633012,0.0,0.0,0.15953082141426844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ed_alt_acc,2019/10/18,"Movie recommendations? Hey guys,  this is a brand new alt account so I can comment and post freely! Anyways,  I'm looking for the most triggering,  skinny,  anorexic films.  I've only watched To The Bone but I absolutely adored Lily Collins in it and I'm looking for more!  

Tia,  love you all",1.6572222222222237,4.4241605555555585,2.5573148148148164,88.7504166666667,91.59259259259258,4.922222222222223,27.12037037037037,6.6274283507984215,1.3667481481481474,226,11,43,3,8,71,45,54,0.0,0.7120000000000001,0.28800000000000003,0.9627,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,3,2,1,1,6,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,4,7,3,3,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,1,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.373069844764216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6327979098742214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340057208889596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638949185262991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865569451469722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608495480493377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Asfodel111,2019/10/18,"I think I'm the reason my boyfriend is developing an ed (tw suicidal thoughts) Oop sorry about the long text

I've had an ed for a few years now but this is not about me here.

A year ago I fall in love with this amazing guy and we get together. He's pretty overweight and that makes him super insecure but I've always done my best to tell him I find him very attractive and I love him regardless but he has had issues with emotional eating/binging since childhood and his weight kept increasing. 
6 months ago he decided to work out daily, to cook for himself so he can check his calories and everything. Of course I encouraged it because he was going towards a healthier lifestyle but don't think I encouraged the weight loss in itself. I just want him around and healthy for a long time.
Recently I found out that he sometimes purges after binging and that he started doing that at the beginning of our relationship. 
I'm underweight and he knows about my ed, he knows I don't have a fascination for skinny bodies but that my disorder comes from somewhere else yet I can't help but tell myself it's my fault. 
Also my little sister started to copy my diet after she gained weight during puberty to lose weight.

Basically my boyfriend falls more and more into bulimia to manage his weight because for me.

So yeah I'm a walking trigger apparently and I've never felt more guilty of existing in my life and that kinda threw me back into suicidal thoughts.

If anyone knows how I could help them or at least not make it worse even though I'm struggling big time with recovery, I'd appreciate 💕",4.778509316770187,6.349138974025976,5.4553359683794485,79.80191699604747,69.97402597402598,8.863015245623941,29.625070581592322,9.318704503766252,2.66022738565782,1276,50,236,27,23,413,176,308,0.12300000000000001,0.6890000000000001,0.188,0.9802,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,1,6,15,13,0,2,12,1,14,13,2,5,1,54,40,24,2,4,11,1,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,12,21,9,1,12,1,1,7,6,5,0,0,10,6,37,8,34,29,7,40,0,2,0,2,33,13,0,3,20,148,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727623950219837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779286118265687,0.08108400283291615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813745396648273,0.0,0.0,0.08674880291642888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493099827475261,0.0,0.11880600206068533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226498342631428,0.0,0.0,0.10824203963749486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394226478083441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07780378084830591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168310731718163,0.0,0.0,0.09972247363191868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08140475804772418,0.10961515443711126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06436305664991655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757939613028183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356473927194814,0.0,0.08906511390769549,0.0,0.0,0.1068459911992929,0.0,0.0,0.050912219192973056,0.0,0.05538157556010431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648819868379044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063381128188115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10170971739986286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066354782792802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882994625925867,0.0,0.09766784658939576,0.0,0.17247567926218366,0.0,0.10901866031558234,0.0,0.0,0.1759000787422622,0.0,0.13009372769940528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077781546304041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515740495286126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913898948007607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019210722532916,0.0962175035180471,0.1046219869098161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060945619405596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637792240378333,0.10908433192635564,0.13794747396957355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187312992687,0.0,0.2131831724977665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034656083852615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248806562413465,0.09574152812916298,0.15472462430941153,0.11364466867753358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040427053975173,0.05747697271711875,0.0,0.0,0.5933231085835271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709428325196559,0.0,0.0993071763880611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550579892061475
EDAnonymous,Supersassycatlassie,2019/10/18,"Advice for being okay with weight gain in recovery? I've been in and out of outpatient ED treatment for a while and right now a big issue for me is accepting weight gain. Does anyone have advice for making it more bearable? I've heard ""you're making your body healthier!"" but it just feels like I'm undoing years of work and am losing control of my body. I've been in control of my body with restriction for years, and I am so terrified of gaining weight. I've only gained a couple of pounds and am still underweight and it still seems unbearable. Any advice is welcome. 💙",4.74642857142857,6.025212214285716,5.357500000000002,81.5875,69.71428571428571,8.814285714285715,27.392857142857146,9.188382445141503,2.2468714285714286,456,15,86,9,8,147,67,112,0.105,0.713,0.183,0.7797,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,8,5,5,0,0,3,1,9,6,3,4,0,20,15,9,0,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,9,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,5,4,17,11,1,12,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,7,51,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4025985309378921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933906567465486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602592024852773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576355966080398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30805964941832525,0.0,0.1519555508728011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018039986164795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943932492706617,0.09811020514379536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433392157027743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06709361294714229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363968818404966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833407207589801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444738403897802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728101300936915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250221458856342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934746542022815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5017011425270725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0999795322714608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17687496576856354
EDAnonymous,s6cum,2019/10/18,"im gonna say it it doesn't matter if you have an ED or not, diet coke is still better then regular coke",0.08039999999999736,0.8829308400000002,3.4450000000000003,92.6275,80.6,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,-0.2389999999999999,81,1,21,1,2,30,23,25,0.045,0.8340000000000001,0.121,0.4265,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4929332696663098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6020366794858099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432293268293688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4451026758492537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cyborgbunny01,2019/10/18,"Finally lost my period.. I was officially diagnosed with secondary amerrohea yesterday after 4 months of no period. I never thought there would come a day where I actually wish my period would come. I've always wanted to be a mom and now I'm terrified of infertility and also my bone health. At the same time, I'm terrified of gaining weight. I've been restricting for two years now. I forgot what it's like to eat without worrying about calories and using my food scale. I don't know what to do. I feel worthless and I hate myself for destroying my body.",3.464299065420562,5.832663700934582,5.566177570093463,74.21375233644861,75.54205607476634,9.88747663551402,27.522429906542047,10.125756701596842,3.3942269158878497,444,18,79,15,10,154,74,107,0.221,0.691,0.08800000000000001,-0.9457,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,2,0,3,0,7,7,2,1,1,20,20,5,0,4,1,1,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,7,3,2,3,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,5,2,13,1,13,12,1,17,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,14,52,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.1826181772738868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14965294885778793,0.15571251488663185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078664054504553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32240295736848196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068752674367075,0.0,0.0,0.1899395542629735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19148730369340294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094621810299373,0.0,0.0,0.20499883026059035,0.0,0.0,0.2262861342309811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18475849819028836,0.0,0.1989172920036071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284529709453168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09142541525644236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428153777832328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191719446984664,0.1493705264123508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433116433186494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485654353778854,0.10912076701307794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280511648839406,0.0,0.0,0.16162580553794306,0.0,0.0,0.11037792483303092,0.0,0.0,0.2278817772927959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151976783006133,0.18039285669015606,0.0,0.0,0.19004614549690188,0.0,0.2658727251326569,0.0,0.0,0.12050973619947765
EDAnonymous,TeenyWeenyBean,2019/10/18,"low cal trader joe's food recommendations? just saw someone post here about TJ's egg white salad—sounds heavenly. i have a TJ's that is walking distance from my uni/apartment, so i go there more often than other places... does anyone have any recommendations for low cal options? :)

so far i've really been liking the gyoza. i get the pork vegetable ones, and one serving of them is 7 gyoza for \~260 cal, IIRC... the cauliflower broccoli patties are really good too! the patties aren't as large as you'd expect, but it's 100 cal for one serving, which is two patties. i'm also a fan of their chicken sausage!

i've gotten some frozen cauliflower bowls before, but i can't exactly remember the nutrition facts for one. i remember it being pretty good, though. 

i'd love any more suggestions... i'm such a tj's fan",3.494697802197805,5.704084275641026,4.867252747252749,80.01346153846156,74.83333333333333,7.534065934065935,26.52747252747253,8.418075326091056,2.019431868131868,641,24,117,12,14,213,101,156,0.02,0.7879999999999999,0.192,0.9813,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,2,0,11,7,0,0,8,0,11,4,0,0,2,12,18,9,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,5,3,2,9,5,11,13,3,7,1,2,2,1,5,4,0,3,1,64,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552933915683694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475052788568901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724464628780807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485157537388747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925192314267042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22005093669276027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507703833671174,0.0,0.103423426952135,0.305272377736554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890623516582354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424405373707365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4932574270042417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190130366100026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428653476967196,0.18513908159715456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23316209397310186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122957271343405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15419106229177038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17879442469104104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17776801593348726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ugly_barnacle_,2019/10/18,bitches be breathing near a scented candle and calling it dinner I am bitches,3.6014285714285705,6.851760571428574,4.84,72.83000000000003,86.14285714285714,2.8000000000000003,42.714285714285715,3.1291,3.292542857142858,64,5,7,0,2,21,13,14,0.43799999999999994,0.562,0.0,-0.8316,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tomorrowcomestoday18,2019/10/18,"Just had someone tell me that ""Eating at night makes you gain weight"" Maybe this is my ED getting to me but wow I felt so annoyed when I heard that. I told a friend of mine that I don't have breakfast and lunch, only dinner and she told me that I will ""gain weight"" doing that. This is how I've been losing weight all this whole but okay. Even when I told them that I lost weight doing that, they still told me that I'll gain weight soon. Stuff like this just makes me want to lose even more weight to prove them wrong.",2.18888888888889,3.72858751851852,1.982592592592596,102.22166666666668,76.5925925925926,4.800000000000002,15.703703703703706,3.1291,-1.355451851851852,404,4,98,0,9,118,65,108,0.138,0.647,0.215,0.8768,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,3,6,10,9,1,0,1,1,9,10,0,3,2,13,20,8,0,1,4,0,7,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,13,2,10,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,9,8,19,4,5,10,3,6,0,3,0,0,12,1,0,0,6,64,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10817098022366492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964512420563216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150123624462548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816737449836729,0.0,0.055230776340050566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051646122718817584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23653202866524914,0.1153984298533948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14112874456670707,0.0,0.10620310378170232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920466350474516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803996412890489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957043913076211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442268659819736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101630588654462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239798373656442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040539164282519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06235237581787676,0.0,0.0,0.7723810847848461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802499651870155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155807733508494,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,warholsnotdead,2019/10/18,Scale issue. Help! I stood on the scale this morning and I was 5lbs heavier than yesterday. How is that possible? Can it all be water weight? 😭😭 I feel soooo upset.,-0.9464935064935068,0.5516237878787891,1.2667532467532467,94.37727272727274,114.15151515151516,4.30995670995671,16.835497835497836,6.1826913282559595,0.08171341991342017,127,4,26,2,7,42,29,33,0.079,0.8190000000000001,0.102,0.1906,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,1,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370921540122785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142967357318961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4894143691790816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5286192576475013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5709992365137968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheJandra,2019/10/18,"I wrote a poem and I can’t share it with anyone I know Hey guys! I’ve been lurking on this subreddit forever but have never actually participated and am not even sure that I can post this here. I wrote a poem and really just wanted to share it with somebody so here goes

The Fog

Walking through the aisles
Face empty of emotion
Mindlessly grabbing box after box 
Knowing it’ll be flushed in a matter of minutes but unable to help myself
No longer hopeful that “this time will be different”
As everything stays
Exactly the same",4.655173267326732,6.539380000000001,5.690185643564359,76.75329826732674,70.78217821782178,8.614356435643566,30.446782178217827,9.188382445141503,2.87580099009901,424,18,74,9,8,140,75,101,0.084,0.782,0.134,0.731,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,6,0,9,1,1,0,3,20,15,7,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,1,6,4,11,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,3,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2675723521173248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19172178910662546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28647283021829834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084296858555905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811015771056418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464265618617779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27149370870874595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837854700962228,0.0,0.0,0.2723350456096171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301378082495229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21147417908015392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626006455914617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17565475292084393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29225274968110104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25842321032593696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598838666029711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172585560915315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckedincali,2019/10/18,"Went over calories bc I’m drunk Oh hey friends.  I’m drunk at a bar RIGHT NOW and I ate 600 cals today but now 600 in alcohol and I hate myself and my restriction has been going so well and I’m gonna go home and just try to sleep soon but idk.  I feel bad I wanted to be below 1000 today. 

This is my first post idk I’d saying calorie counts is allowed.",-2.3322423146473774,-0.7251406708860735,0.5018535262206179,101.51509493670885,107.60759493670885,3.26980108499096,13.237793851717903,5.288315135182226,-1.2298687160940327,273,6,67,2,14,93,57,79,0.225,0.708,0.067,-0.9079,1,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,1,0,5,6,1,1,0,12,16,8,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,5,5,1,1,3,0,3,0,2,1,1,3,2,7,2,6,11,0,15,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,6,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668475171744481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20848450402132893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625305758725852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21239004090313696,0.0,0.0,0.19291337561172253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838143128826018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24652165539796736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25046397390178593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23913833919483654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132377655588695,0.0,0.1985671134214288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24987485786414945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733624396171869,0.0,0.0,0.16952619648164532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727630401718372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224505370890012,0.2314693322456348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,to0thoutofline,2019/10/18,"Boba tea? I just broke a 23 (🙃) hour fast by sucking down a mocha boba tea because I have no self control and now I’m freaking out because I have no idea how many calories were in it. The place I got it from only has a Facebook, no website so no calorie counts, so I googled mocha boba tea calories, mocha bubble tea, mocha boba nutrition, ect but can’t find anything concrete. They all vary from like 150 calories to 600+ so I just want to curl into a ball and die. 🙂🙃",0.012575757575756795,2.2317051313131344,2.0497222222222256,95.06125000000002,88.59595959595958,3.704040404040404,23.40151515151515,4.7782277997778095,0.08864242424242441,364,15,78,1,12,121,66,99,0.161,0.7859999999999999,0.053,-0.8143,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,7,4,1,0,5,0,5,4,0,2,1,13,9,7,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,2,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,7,1,9,7,1,8,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,4,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23191603702592145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34359295653166816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31608807800140504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29248742789391075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575808063614793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253993268652615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775385520772776,0.0,0.0,0.3181434805182881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376843166748786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857239442779401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21433883298570866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944446976840344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940024984965681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622630713789496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,green131313,2019/10/18,"the ultimate ana food at trader joes! the egg WHITE salad at TJ is the ultimate ana food. the whole thing is one serving only 70cal and is vegetarian, keto friendly, no sugar, no preservatives AND TASTES GOOD FTW",5.48,7.402605717948718,6.726153846153848,69.99384615384618,68.74358974358975,9.302564102564103,28.384615384615394,9.725611199111238,3.0147538461538472,169,6,27,4,3,57,28,39,0.08900000000000001,0.69,0.22,0.8155,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,3,6,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,2,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,16,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7696093360352628,0.0,0.24586350978604984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669160098461249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21564070948560865,0.242028059284126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141770064490675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552921430549704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DoubleArmDMT,2019/10/18,"Time to stop being embarrassed and just admit there's a problem It's not easy to admit and I'm sure there's a better place to scream for help, but here we are. I'm 32, just lost an awesome job where I was a store manager due to a monumental drug relapse. I survived but I lost a lot in just a few days.

Now my wife is working full time and I'm taking care of our children, (she is super supportive but there's only so much my family can do) but I have hit a dangerous wall recently where, since I'm no longer earning money, I no longer feel worthy of food or spending money on myself.

I really don't care about myself, but it's leading to bad stomach aches, no sleep, and terrible migraines, and I don't want this to effect the people I love. I have thought of talking to counselors or doctors but I see them as earning a paycheck, not taking genuine interest in me or my problems. 

So I'm just going to throw this out there to some hopefully-understanding strangers that may be able to point me in a positive direction or just say some kind words. 

I appreciate it.",5.148411910669978,5.1873996866359455,6.363317972350233,79.17157036511877,68.2626728110599,9.441900035448423,31.899680964197092,9.265573868473778,2.69429485997873,840,33,168,15,13,284,128,217,0.183,0.591,0.226,0.9524,1,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,2,0,1,10,16,18,1,1,11,0,13,7,2,2,1,40,34,18,0,3,17,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,6,7,1,1,5,0,4,3,7,9,0,0,4,4,22,9,21,26,6,21,0,2,1,1,12,11,0,8,7,114,28,7,0.15336157108873144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805050594198686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356358468321016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127246854757621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890552606600736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697206649550474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785073338654486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457564039215876,0.0,0.07754421834208512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18544542051220772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715891506851871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027950283776013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521876952269416,0.0,0.0,0.15970247637452006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348245424309785,0.13038252347795845,0.13841480554308114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273840075874984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663838555004692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632160337029037,0.0,0.16023020044122066,0.0,0.14497625551937027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934926231986628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09824734948690483,0.0,0.15142604977232926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12195927681249913,0.0,0.0,0.12220931636817485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686227639934575,0.0,0.15347232698125604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821714050675534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403289345465145,0.14454146579148686,0.0,0.2306176307514237,0.12326622160805854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175195679072755,0.17885273080584854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965480408966454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045662808942816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164905028009266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nxhshchskbxn,2019/10/18,can someone just reassure me real quick [TW numbers] that eating 300 calories over my tdee isn't the end of the world and that it isn't some massive binge that needs a 2 day fast to fix,6.073076923076923,4.8444148974359,6.23551282051282,85.08865384615387,66.69230769230771,8.825641025641023,32.32051282051282,7.1686216300943375,1.8612974358974361,147,5,32,1,2,47,34,39,0.0,0.934,0.066,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940360026350114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665284213914628,0.0,0.0,0.4038171019854255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380650196255466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5189461628167286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863065258779326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychologicalbully,2019/10/18,"it’s taking a turn *warning, long rant* 

I guess I just need to tell someone. Anyone. 

I’ve never been diagnosed with an ED but I’ve been suffering with many different disordered eating habits since I was 14. One thing I was always proud of was that I always said to myself I couldn’t purge because I didn’t have a gag reflex so I could *never* be bulimic. My parents knew I tried to throw up a few times and made me promise to never do it again and I never tried to. 

Until tonight. Guess who just binged and threw up all 1000 calories. Turns out sticking two toothbrushes super far down your throat works. 

I just feel like a fake still. I’m a normal weight!! and sure I’ve lost 10 lbs in the last 5 weeks or so but that’s considered healthy? And I’m still not UW or even really close? And I usually eat over 1500 calories a day because I’m super active and eating less than 1200/fasting consistently makes me black out and shake. 

I have a huge problem and no one even knows except my parents, who have picked up huge chunks of my hair in the hallway before and made me promise not to throw up. But they’re hours away now. 

Everyone here (uni) just thinks I’m a health nut knowing how many calories are in everything and how many calories you burn doing xyz. 

Ugh I just don’t know what to do. It’s consumed all my waking thoughts and I just really wanna get back into recovery but at the same time I’m no where even close to where I wanna be. 
I’m lost.",1.305271464646463,3.6002634444444475,2.650562920875424,92.59028882575758,82.9057239057239,5.598021885521885,20.39236111111111,6.9077264865688965,0.3766229797979799,1141,33,241,14,32,368,167,297,0.105,0.762,0.133,0.8932,3,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,6,21,14,0,1,12,0,18,9,3,6,7,64,45,23,0,7,15,2,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,19,4,0,7,0,0,4,11,7,0,3,14,5,26,7,31,27,5,44,0,3,1,0,8,21,0,4,20,151,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675810953002435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704118492411041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461105600934692,0.07743215877427158,0.0,0.1227716889766713,0.0,0.08568836566460979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040083344137916,0.0,0.0,0.06494323187672732,0.0,0.0,0.1022084787706483,0.0,0.10521016847899926,0.11541103544995543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309124017222322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19953439310015236,0.0,0.0,0.09622325812527874,0.0905027540357722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05091699476052237,0.0719401694429961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052611644457819975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186501982786905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703949419991254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916931109013204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16602641938698998,0.08208401934684967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04919698085317338,0.0,0.0,0.08911641702917003,0.0,0.0,0.21985210293105675,0.0,0.0,0.19056973328296045,0.0672180967202686,0.306282278666378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746678459855311,0.3106644911913869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866471443974058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364739837805079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223631081409801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635639301781404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12902212146859665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578885237095427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330016087386016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532286543401768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083845514434628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490864971926756,0.0,0.07571394068899566,0.0,0.08801632334547606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06690066990957212,0.06452455608864699,0.0,0.07994462873619995,0.11743807278026445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673751151826902,0.21906557762766526,0.09836936250730263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090693008206033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077554370566589,0.12262558942515495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331086997421547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittencatmeows1,2019/03/02,"Welcome back to work I took medical leave for an episode of bipolar disorder. They changed my antipsychotic and I gained a ton of weight. I know I look bigger, I feel terrible about it.

The first thing out of my coworker's mouth was ""you got fat"" while gesturing at my stomach. If that wasn't bad enough she now calls me thiccums and it makes me want to die. 

I'm having a hard time with restriction and I just want this weight to go away so I feel like myself again 😭",1.1332344497607636,3.5499864000000048,2.310813397129188,93.87751196172249,85.0,6.401913875598087,22.320574162679424,7.686295010490155,0.9815263157894742,368,13,81,7,11,117,73,95,0.147,0.713,0.141,-0.146,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,1,1,3,6,4,0,0,4,0,3,7,3,1,0,14,14,6,1,3,2,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,5,3,1,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,6,16,2,12,10,2,12,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,7,53,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860219217681412,0.15224519828235308,0.1653167564030759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20217405583823556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945144532638432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20548655829443327,0.0,0.2269183276585645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045807744473963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022347525800815,0.14144698449185208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841363255866315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11252457789793187,0.0,0.1583539239718168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736377330147865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881234851171473,0.0,0.0,0.2096471043604892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096729888762616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662651307649181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321625617228693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945816915511916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153844496699396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545191919839362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199786678697462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335640338301908,0.0,0.0,0.4822068110214267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414202202489526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sobeautifulsotragic,2019/03/02,"This video really fucked with my calorie counting brain it's a vid by Casey Neistat for the New York Times but basically it summarizes that there's literally no standards to published calorie counts??? I mean I know no one can ensure exactly the same amount of ham or sauce or milk is put into something that different people will make for you each time but still ? 

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[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hE2lna5Wxuo](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hE2lna5Wxuo)",12.013285714285715,15.096982328571432,7.738571428571433,64.5164285714286,54.28571428571429,10.171428571428573,34.0,10.355215969177356,3.842085714285714,393,14,52,8,5,106,60,70,0.127,0.826,0.046,-0.7190000000000001,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,3,3,1,1,1,13,7,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,7,6,3,6,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,2,4,33,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784838446662519,0.31231055221710746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869221879644002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26853387872966056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376132221862637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125288145978962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17156455971955015,0.0,0.0,0.27997292491885384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823399744569416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17416514363620547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17818708624941365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583786705981268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646552382757919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19786852956377135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20525855453514927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997438522353039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31231055221710746,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwawayy88888881,2019/03/02,"I just ate a 2500kcal lunch. I was stressed out lonely and depressed, now I’m stressed out, lonely, depressed, sick and bloated.",5.003043478260867,7.446604304347828,3.77326086956522,88.49293478260874,71.17391304347827,4.6000000000000005,37.58695652173913,3.1291,2.0143217391304344,101,6,17,0,2,29,16,23,0.621,0.379,0.0,-0.9565,0,4,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6009713029947985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.799270600595777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsalonstora,2019/03/02,"The guy I’ve been talking to found someone else I’m crying and shaking right now. I’m so fucking lonely.

We started hanging out about five months ago. Since we started hanging out, we spent literally every Saturday together. He lives an hour away and would literally drive to/from.  Sometimes he would pick me up, drive me to his place, and then drop me off again, so like four hours of driving.  When he would visit my place, he would help me clean my apartment (he lived with his family). It was amazing that he would put his time into helping me. We would watch movies and sometimes we would watch scary movies and I would kinda cling to his arm and have my legs around him (idk how to describe it) and we were sorta half cuddling. 

He vowed to never drink. I half jokingly would Ask if he wanted to drink. But he drank for the first time tonight. He drunk texted me that he got a girls number. It’s over.

I’m seeing red, I already went off on him over text. Pretty sad to be sober and yelling st a drunk person but I’m so shaken I’m not sober.

I want to starve. I’m throwing away most of my food tomorrow. I want to be destroyed. This is like the third time I’ve had dudes choose someone else over me. I am worthless, and I’m going to starve myself and isolate myself. Life isn’t worth trying anymore.",1.4768965517241384,3.890448490421459,2.2970114942528745,94.62413793103451,83.2528735632184,4.6727969348659,20.877394636015325,5.935793293072707,0.020642911877394976,1020,31,213,7,29,318,148,261,0.13699999999999998,0.7909999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.9391,1,2,2,0,1,0,34.0,6,0,0,1,9,10,2,1,6,0,19,11,2,2,1,45,40,19,0,13,4,0,0,2,0,9,1,1,1,3,6,21,6,0,2,5,2,11,3,6,0,6,9,5,31,4,28,20,1,47,0,3,4,2,31,17,1,4,20,120,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762912223580506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090891116567718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803774153321786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800203833254573,0.09241621692492984,0.0,0.18575532731506644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858773585845537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368081681155586,0.0,0.0,0.16516157911870671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328972398318661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09319183364381488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408613657708049,0.11953603478085145,0.10838956500941292,0.0,0.0913899894264698,0.0,0.0,0.056181657515807344,0.0,0.07906349074189523,0.0,0.0,0.09788213639546513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252104099960416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470481165898035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698243130221594,0.09659126181184838,0.0,0.17458180982736352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890523430054816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624318272158853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631650035319559,0.20656517437834168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057122241652547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993767255741259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442175443787366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877475243972694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177399820478126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751928859761944,0.0,0.1955405339704717,0.0,0.13994036210324698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945602168415396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729296915869442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711615502371734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749219788484013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163971060907024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6320147340019215,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Awassya,2019/03/02,"Chronic illness and ED are double teaming me. The brain fog from medication, my illnesses and restriction combined is kicking my ass and not taking any names. 

I couldn't perform a simple calculation today for about three straight minutes. Two numbers. I'm not joking. A ton of people laughed at me and I haven't felt so ashamed in years, I was standing there with a dry mouth and burning eyes and a brain that wouldn't fucking think. 

I'm leaving a binge-purge cycle and switching to just restriction, and I can't make myself eat - been staring down an orange for quite a while now. 

The time it took to type this post alone has my stomach in knots. I don't know what to do - I feel so upset over all this.",3.887509881422925,5.615839318840584,4.266495388669302,86.8187549407115,72.47826086956522,6.4674571805006575,29.21212121212121,6.980632752743323,1.5262231884057975,558,23,108,5,11,175,100,138,0.18,0.784,0.036000000000000004,-0.9567,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,1,2,9,0,11,12,6,1,1,23,21,11,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,9,1,2,4,2,0,1,7,3,0,2,4,4,12,2,14,15,3,14,0,0,2,2,2,6,2,0,5,72,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325817045105416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15271195960516942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013778097289646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978614640571204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354685524967426,0.0,0.21561769971800346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20760680403910106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234150987531879,0.0,0.0,0.2377820021519351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149898939133238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262256993815267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568515572034086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150712775129173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23885261194367255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884499771108666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389224000171374,0.0,0.0,0.13094570794582958,0.0,0.21286144446322589,0.0,0.2495000741190383,0.0,0.0,0.21936745909991395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461255316428026
EDAnonymous,garlish13,2019/04/16,"My Crush Motivates Me Does anyone else feel like their crush motivates them to lose weight and encourages their behaviors? i feel like they’ll only like me if i’m not so fat so i have to turn to my behaviors.  so even if i try to be a little more normal with my eating, i can’t so i restrict then eat a lot then purge when i’m reminded of my crush. i wish it wasn’t this way but i also wish i wasn’t so ugly",0.08467643467643171,1.8201531208791228,2.746739926739932,93.37881562881563,83.72527472527473,6.681807081807082,17.803418803418804,7.793537801064563,0.3221711843711841,318,7,77,6,9,111,55,91,0.145,0.7120000000000001,0.142,-0.0574,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,4,3,8,5,0,0,2,0,6,4,1,2,0,15,13,13,0,5,4,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,18,4,6,9,2,5,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,3,6,50,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378150112901334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445998470233667,0.19703312761011701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828221677121236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935399233208807,0.1606412022259984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701172569201802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19446438093525187,0.2747569957910421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28184284453037256,0.1927341923397996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215133477184415,0.0,0.16348579723290918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841226494138744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625211217692435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055844936003375,0.2091661739756528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263805527465055,0.0,0.2341684681758944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422688929436974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nf686,2019/04/16,What do you tell people who comment that you've lost weight when you were a normal weight to begin with? If they seem concerned or ask you why/how?,4.4390000000000045,5.158129566666666,4.026666666666667,92.91,70.0,6.0,21.66666666666667,3.1291,-0.2273333333333327,117,2,25,0,2,35,26,30,0.09300000000000001,0.907,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,0,0,3,2,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814837196441005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286813903390292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29500973688322363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20874176167074532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741061050043982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631708056828781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7333065944980665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Junglejibe,2019/04/16,God I’m so fucking ugly Current mood is sitting in the dining hall trying not to cry and cringing at all the times I thought I looked pretty. Why do other people get to be beautiful and i can’t be? It’s so unfair.,-0.942546583850934,1.1710222608695666,2.107639751552796,91.65630434782612,98.13043478260867,3.4981366459627328,19.614906832298136,5.288315135182226,-0.08082236024844702,168,6,34,1,7,59,38,46,0.147,0.634,0.21899999999999997,0.4388,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,1,5,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,7,1,6,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212217193855108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545100943169149,0.20034626365897226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220166387067838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26584850864409376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901249334658896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30443085046965723,0.22360334233327014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603496794010496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460203302331079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tergernaut,2019/04/16,"goodbye ""real food"" this is my first post on this subreddit but I just wanted to share something! I love protein bars and would rather eat them than actual meals lol. but it would cost way too much money to go through them so quickly right???

Wrong!!!

on eBay you can a box of 100 protein bars for $40 + shipping when typically a box of 12 will cost you $25 OR MORE. The catch is users will sell giant boxes of bars that are past/ almost at their best before date. I honestly don't give a hoot about BBD unless it's like..... idk 1.5 yrs and I figured y'all probably won't either lol. 

I have a gluten allergy and I'm vegan so it's harder for me to find cheap boxes that I can eat but!! I've seen a lot of listings that have multiple brands and flavors, so I thought I would share. lmk if any of you found this helpful - or if you already knew about this.",0.7447161442933208,2.8757307808988766,2.449077468953284,94.19009757539921,83.8876404494382,5.545121230041397,20.042578356002366,6.8360192770164,0.2266247191011237,661,19,148,8,19,217,118,178,0.033,0.782,0.185,0.985,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,5,3,2,10,7,0,0,6,2,14,8,0,0,0,27,23,16,0,7,11,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,4,7,0,5,3,5,2,2,1,0,1,4,2,18,6,18,13,5,14,0,0,1,1,13,5,0,6,6,91,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.17573804248995764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18033020203937092,0.0,0.19872947434655994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224647140930514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323999546681832,0.0,0.1889892371340197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685460496332599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459542033562516,0.15318113300227745,0.2177608103750296,0.1974550984221512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275498359250815,0.1023470729247778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070790758921462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798096526230167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310275062539228,0.16253472390804768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238399439469636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191254653035912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247269027484305,0.0,0.19416325976981014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049773920611385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379253371902898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863906743710894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296823670417408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621943956415922,0.1429439529806171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837839663371085,0.19689586497198835,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catherineslongfinger,2019/04/16,"Feeling guilty despite staying within my calorie limit I've eaten 884 calories so far this week. Just typing that makes me feel ashamed. My limit is 500 on weekdays, so I haven't actually exceeded, but I could be doing so much better.  


I'm desperate not to eat more than I did last week (3,200), so I'm going to decrease my limit to 200 on Wednesday and Thursday, and 100 on Friday, allowing myself 1000 on Saturday and 750 on Sunday as per usual, making my total 3,134 at the most. If I stick to fruit and vegetables, it should be a walk in the park.",6.32048929663609,5.87416803669725,7.300504587155968,75.07840214067282,65.88073394495413,9.468501529051991,32.84556574923548,8.841846274778883,2.7614574923547406,432,16,79,6,6,146,81,109,0.064,0.884,0.051,-0.0983,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,3,0,8,4,0,3,1,20,16,11,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,3,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,10,1,14,10,4,20,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,2,8,54,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.27410683448509143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24842321262876366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426675607450544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874192451322285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28405151427517505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963551079060626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289617651525572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749907521032883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20648550038387908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993899610731252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093591990413949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45062391474417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashworthxx,2019/04/16,"good diets for weight loss? i've been suffering from bulimia and i DON'T want to tell anyone i know in real life, but my mother is starting to notice more and more that i eat massive amounts of food and then nothing at all to make up for the binges. she doesn't know that i throw up regularly though. i used to be skinny a year ago, used to not eat much at all and now i've gained a lot of weight due to my eating.. i'm 172cm and weigh 66kg. i struggle with other stuff as well, but i really want to break out of this horrendous cycle of binging, purging, restricting and crying. i know weight loss pills are not the way, but maybe they could help me anyway? motivation-wise? please suggest something, or just helpful tips or diets? i NEED to lose 15kg in the next two months. i like to excercise but due to mental health i can barely do it nowadays..",3.8208620689655177,4.630538270114948,4.7132758620689685,87.09681034482759,71.47126436781609,7.639080459770115,24.84482758620689,7.793537801064563,1.1121586206896557,665,18,142,8,12,216,116,174,0.162,0.7240000000000001,0.114,-0.8361,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,4,5,8,0,1,5,0,9,14,1,3,2,32,20,15,0,4,9,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,8,11,1,3,0,0,1,4,5,1,1,1,3,16,3,26,17,7,19,0,4,0,0,7,7,0,3,10,89,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11513522488988505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09081861923547556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10370261194993444,0.0,0.14267258497356364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3987143743451899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705747011710908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10894138435520476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806169233835222,0.0,0.0,0.1741183692000601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21414421475716927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174162398836898,0.06345525532698358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453081033176387,0.0,0.11042359109420394,0.0,0.0,0.08669925300311171,0.0,0.13048695065991098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089354118381788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367297611102473,0.0,0.09548042739104697,0.09630808943069803,0.0,0.0,0.1381341820537638,0.0,0.0,0.12462817047890028,0.14787494519109304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257473766201126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783757726140778,0.08320766354599167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999182659895374,0.0,0.0,0.09193327886232057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578401390967212,0.14868726217004286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11352522398677375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761136323734976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687878211231451,0.0,0.0,0.22435789280414287,0.0,0.0,0.1532190886548701,0.10309667559103224,0.0,0.4744948542564771,0.1167822228954012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364168823817775
EDAnonymous,mtngoat92,2019/04/16,"Recovery & Peach If there is anyone that’s active in recovery that’s interested in connecting on Peach, my username is mtngoat. 

Recovery is hard and we could all use support! ❤️",3.0452941176470567,5.967111470588236,5.0779411764705875,73.79573529411766,81.3529411764706,9.282352941176473,32.029411764705884,9.516144504307137,4.135317647058823,146,8,24,5,4,50,26,34,0.038,0.7340000000000001,0.228,0.7901,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,6,6,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4780736814227841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085190241951594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522871071440544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952563732813328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007037909007562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810819782392053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carmsabitch,2019/04/16,"Recent issues with fat people? Little background: I recently lost 50 much needed pounds. I was obese for my body type and prediabetic. I took my health seriously and turned it around after years of not losing weight because of excuses. 
Now a year later, I find myself really getting frustrated and angry with people who are overweight. I feel like it’s because I am mad at MY overweight self, not the person in front of me. It’s starting to effect friendships I have and even my job with coworkers. I knew I was starting to struggle with ED, but this seems like a new and weird aspect of it. Anyone else ever experience this?",5.117692307692308,6.950309487179487,5.919316239316242,75.77846153846156,69.51282051282051,7.935042735042735,27.52991452991453,8.515128840125781,2.186463247863248,498,17,83,8,9,163,82,117,0.146,0.782,0.07200000000000001,-0.6834,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,4,9,2,1,3,0,5,7,2,1,1,20,15,6,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,7,10,5,0,5,0,0,2,2,7,0,0,5,2,15,2,15,10,1,17,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,1,13,57,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490109425071833,0.1683721890654836,0.0,0.1462856593517668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20034414034667086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825299901049384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727392546101772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085362778896057,0.14864296601896432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16074310712983214,0.0,0.0,0.08308854939896726,0.11739507311159958,0.0,0.0,0.1501916853628417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585395190848512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17467166597910694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151444829336102,0.16306895733986573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16056351295376434,0.16469858782444546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383961587660105,0.17938207469598247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079907929796115,0.12184621340797355,0.0,0.1587078127587704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22784697512426375,0.14348379203887648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052719329137903,0.0,0.3245057100529241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495969143607615,0.1714286532984837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232622658839342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179001300959815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18257308128791336,0.0,0.1787403317294961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20010572879350624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21164209683976345
EDAnonymous,eanerahtnamas,2019/04/16,"I rescheduled my doctors appointment because I’m too fat. Like the title says, I had an appointment this morning that I rescheduled. I’ve done nothing but binge for days and couldn’t stand stepping on the scale to see I gained.",5.8910852713178326,7.295259813953493,5.093023255813954,84.0773643410853,67.13953488372093,7.593798449612403,35.26356589147287,7.793537801064563,2.6266496124031007,184,9,33,2,3,55,35,43,0.0,0.868,0.132,0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,19,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26456027431804874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279891877086946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442138684174467,0.0,0.4441291605159599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120287968443363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164314035675348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34513148327461113,0.0,0.0,0.34583906801095193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anoniempjuh,2019/04/16,"What excuses do you use when people ask why you've lost weight? I found out that I really do lose my appetite when I'm stressed out, so that works.

It doesn't change the fact that I'm actually anorexic though. But I'll never tell anyone I know that.

It's kind of convenient too, because I don't want to lie. I just partially tell the truth now.

Do you guys recognize this behaviour? What are the things you have done to hide your ED? What is your excuse?",1.8676344086021537,3.9701759784946304,3.031397849462365,91.73376344086022,79.53763440860214,7.1440860215053785,21.086021505376344,8.167268648758528,0.9260666666666668,358,10,79,7,9,115,65,93,0.13,0.83,0.04,-0.7882,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,5,0,3,7,5,0,1,3,0,9,1,0,1,3,11,17,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,11,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,1,11,2,5,14,0,6,0,2,0,0,11,2,0,0,4,48,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.20783215350625486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891655280823035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991021814393991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982713067403187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22529852515622065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794660860207596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335152807236386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210877998783661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217799159229521,0.11704508221593947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382637175429815,0.2324865604937195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16425887690341096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764953425617988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643676293259435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439612925096244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722977767160072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149063333617065,0.0,0.20924612675725351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394137828215615,0.0,0.0,0.12561773510199534,0.0,0.0,0.2593452701510829,0.0,0.0,0.1921761414523661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504779603998056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uwuchris,2019/04/16,"DAE get really upset over comments on what you're eating? I can't believe I threw away so much food because of one little comment (plus started crying about it.)

 I was about to finish a fast early because I just desperately wanted some food... one of the things I was preparing to eat was a tuna and cracker snack kit. I took it out of the package and I spooned and arranged it onto a plate in a way I thought looked nice. My brother passed by and asked, ""What is that? It looks like slop,"" in reference to the tuna. 

Its like something snapped. He left the kitchen after I wouldn't answer him, and I started wildly throwing away all the food I had prepared. I threw away like four plates of food into the trash and almost cracked a glass because of how forcefully I was putting the plates in the sink. 

I started crying really hard too, all while thinking how stupid I was for thinking that would be good food to eat. How could I have considered eating something that looked like slop! Theres no way I could choose healthy food for myself to eat, clearly my judgment is so wrong in regards to food! 

Anyways... now I feel so awful for wasting my family's money like that, and wasting food so many people need... all because of a little comment on how the food I wanted to eat looked. 

Why did I have such a strong reaction to that? This disorder sucks so much...",4.903901515151514,5.901734920454548,5.1034848484848485,84.59606060606063,69.11363636363636,7.381818181818183,30.196969696969692,7.3871296695380915,1.7976833333333344,1065,41,204,10,18,335,138,264,0.142,0.754,0.10400000000000001,-0.9061,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,1,17,12,2,1,16,1,17,17,0,4,4,35,37,18,0,7,1,1,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,14,10,17,0,7,0,1,6,3,4,0,3,11,6,25,8,35,21,6,33,0,0,4,0,7,16,1,2,14,140,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557426227785433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061220096435019675,0.0,0.18457733009323207,0.0,0.0,0.1596773958434058,0.0,0.0,0.0737797261396994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456967574990607,0.0,0.14386547907095318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750520488308245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020480493030584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06173389511567035,0.0,0.033111433080787234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7126678669847782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034213467486222164,0.0,0.0,0.05492612492378431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05866213942256441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115018018454775,0.0,0.0,0.15996452137034062,0.13126733608174088,0.0,0.0,0.2199652860443789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639201195063328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962787450094746,0.048556663590706296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874933020831664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04539939572937485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06583100807931164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839033678448938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082786429855238,0.0,0.0,0.13905290783658947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043505651996730434,0.0839209199618056,0.0,0.05198816695716365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275679268860852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725008135316311,0.10395867312052126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909047217448379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651901563911865,0.07159810694538714,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yogabba420,2019/04/16,"Restricting but not losing I'm literally on edge, trying not to lose it. 
I've been restricting for a month now. Lost 10lbs and been stuck. Now the scale won't fucking move. I've been lower than 700 and most days 500. And dying of exhaustion. Nothing. I'm losing hope and hating myself. Thinking I should fast for a few days. But I really just wanna binge and say fuck it",0.5190417690417668,3.0026610270270275,2.341744471744473,90.25546683046684,94.13513513513512,5.393611793611793,16.186732186732186,6.980632752743323,0.2211513513513519,292,7,58,5,11,96,52,74,0.321,0.586,0.09300000000000001,-0.9664,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,3,9,3,0,3,0,5,3,0,0,0,17,14,7,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,8,0,0,5,1,3,1,7,7,2,8,0,4,0,2,1,1,2,2,6,34,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570513349731297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683172407238465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684810864997496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19675777559148155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19794009776378976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6688641437594617,0.21754875343418906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590715057964659,0.2118139028341004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19122428511656409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767038075469184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848353557155245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12769708868676585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530493810114178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,br3adst6,2019/07/29,"fucked up mind my mom keeps telling me... *correction
my mom keeps yelling at me that i need to eat and not lose any more weight and that i need to see an ed therapist  

she says “you’re losing weight i can see it in your legs”
like i understand her concern and that she doesn’t understand but that just makes me want to continue.. she sees weight loss? in my legs? so it’s working. i hate the strain anorexia puts on my physical and mental health and how much it can affect people around me but i can’t stop. i don’t want to and i’m not ready. she’s not taking it as seriously because i’m not underweight yet just at a very low end of normal weight. i can’t just eat. it’s not how that works.",-0.07666666666666799,2.1357174217687067,1.5623469387755122,98.40705782312928,89.06802721088438,5.443537414965987,17.69047619047619,6.937597516519254,-0.0908258503401358,539,14,129,8,18,174,84,147,0.172,0.785,0.043,-0.9632,0,0,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,1,0,5,8,9,2,1,3,0,6,10,2,4,1,33,23,12,0,5,10,2,4,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,7,6,3,2,0,0,1,9,8,0,0,0,9,22,1,13,23,2,13,0,4,3,1,10,8,1,0,5,76,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953811803568812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412090831463824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129890230131704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393624924077623,0.0,0.0,0.1035935471196137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812941257100483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547568368070882,0.0,0.12432505413837106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20792226143180625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057141687315822365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26170094695689944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807299143452495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787010805401142,0.0,0.118098199540458,0.2739687798459953,0.0,0.0,0.08598047078443045,0.17345156689939384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459785059669768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108667012134776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757903712425526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301281521020244,0.0,0.0,0.27961052715474743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977854043450114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794080956332181,0.0,0.1022298754938962,0.0,0.0,0.13580180676024126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435229722302048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965058352337145,0.13797434443556345,0.0,0.0,0.5697124470920569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029934505207828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cupidstriken,2019/07/29,"does anyone else have an irrational fear of chewing thoroughly? im not diagnosed with an ED but i dont know where else i can talk about this stuff :•( sorry if this is against the rules or sounds stupid

i never chew all the way and sometimes straight up just swallow my food because im scared my body will digest it faster and ill gain more weight. 

this becomes really convenient though cause i can eat food really quickly and leave the dinner table right after to purge.  

however i fucking hate throwing up chunks. sometimes its really uncomfy if a piece of my food gets stuck in my throat or comes out my nose. if i purge in the shower i have to squash and mash the bits into smaller pieces so it doesnt clog the drain :•| its even worse if i didnt drink enough water with my meal.... its really gross, i know

so im just curious if you guys eat your food really fast or savor the flavor so to speak",2.468617647058821,4.630253227777782,3.3549673202614407,89.86794117647058,77.83333333333333,6.901960784313728,21.1437908496732,7.928766900206844,0.9020751633986932,711,19,146,12,17,226,115,180,0.182,0.7659999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.9764,2,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,10,6,3,2,10,0,9,21,3,1,2,26,16,17,0,5,12,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,9,9,15,0,2,1,0,2,5,6,0,0,2,6,17,0,16,13,6,17,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,8,5,90,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612610364935705,0.11155262532574198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06636759594426862,0.12024099658764564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886044773176488,0.12093267724260848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184193062618256,0.0,0.09378392025641223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110503179970387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527495860295347,0.0,0.12759762546745668,0.1066534900584449,0.0,0.22280726164893552,0.18189781648548956,0.0,0.0,0.1124942780860328,0.0,0.07190918410498852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251170249311087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5265956848800241,0.0,0.0,0.10065076644344087,0.05688132810494445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780077896005884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10748894118343097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528025781897981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966683209343908,0.0,0.0,0.11528013676536633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839690957967498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487321913086682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297642271321756,0.0,0.0,0.10900025125441347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153551470833988,0.12187372253197915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463283439652195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750749979560067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696656639817688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641783235657627,0.0,0.13257723566779134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109502624879596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-nonameplease-,2019/07/29,"DAE only eat single serving pre-packaged food? I know it’s not as healthy as making your own food (and it’s not as good for the environment which kills me), but I just don’t trust myself to measure anything correctly. Whenever I make something I have to check it over and over again before I trust myself, so it takes me forever to finish. 

Now I just buy pre-packaged food that only has one serving, and weigh it to make sure that the label is right. 

I really wish I didn’t feel like I have to do this because a lot of my lifestyle is all about sustainable & living eco-friendly, and I know that doing this is wasteful, but I have a breakdown every time I try to make my own food. 

This part of my life is just a huge source of embarrassment, and I was wondering if I was alone in this?",10.036790890269152,5.629906478260871,9.753260869565215,72.92960144927541,61.85714285714285,12.720910973084884,39.25569358178053,9.725611199111238,3.5641420289855064,617,20,129,8,6,203,93,161,0.07400000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.14,0.9255,0,1,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,7,7,1,1,5,0,14,7,0,4,3,26,24,12,1,2,8,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,13,5,6,0,4,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,3,1,22,5,17,21,6,9,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,3,5,94,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14163763235647314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481747129710156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125382653339808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336498804678592,0.0,0.11636900394416147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13993519306995972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522255149102145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914777657568551,0.09769827906886107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.661462003420712,0.0,0.10565709258994542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147041689537084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129988851378645,0.0,0.15031468121044386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659457515005143,0.06681191331565166,0.0,0.12075776344444245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626478150898995,0.0,0.0,0.3651418906961638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266918229593753,0.2080177012961412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480930655282605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760918501369097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678859626961755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528119722437088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889060198376448,0.0,0.10282324554014316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974333183136895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284812409344448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726227316574234,0.0,0.14830569217208525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wannabeskinny-1,2019/07/29,"dear person, who made ice cream so damn tasty I hate you but i love you at the same time( i still hope you die/you will die in pain tho).",-3.197311827956991,-1.9910951935483856,-1.3943548387096758,114.26180107526882,113.83870967741936,2.066666666666667,5.166666666666667,3.1291,-3.1756494623655915,103,0,30,0,6,32,25,31,0.316,0.435,0.249,-0.4727,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,3,6,2,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,5,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,6,3,2,3,1,4,0,0,1,1,6,2,1,1,2,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6300937111878722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997021795943631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015030971487433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27397431829523633,0.28723535731385264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32300873151132103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265056463776227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24242302456601664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770079971052026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SlamminSami,2019/07/29,"Years ago, before I was completely terrified of my body... I used to mow the lawn in short shorts and a baggy t-shirt (sometimes a tank), ya know, a tan and a workout all in one. But now, sweet jesus now, I'm over here in a 3/4 sleeve and capris spandex with my jiggly skin... jiggling. Yardwork is hard enough without being depressing as well. No tan and judgey eyes from the neighborhood is all I get.",3.575991561181436,4.950465354430381,4.182974683544305,88.52399789029535,72.67088607594937,7.2919831223628675,25.824894514767927,7.793537801064563,1.2988717299578054,309,10,64,4,6,98,61,79,0.10099999999999999,0.8059999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.1553,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,0,4,3,3,1,2,11,8,6,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,1,4,6,2,10,6,3,10,1,1,1,0,1,6,0,0,4,41,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26293840585984635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524043387077217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294813011324552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31100358805895023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25548096843679985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064908671407733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497328283373202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26571595901601874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16301625184997395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009994318350867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933677467681564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561870475886753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666997137518398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859340017376675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19101549668927453
EDAnonymous,hanran21,2019/07/29,"Tips for Recovery Hey everyone,

I've struggled with binging my entire life and lately I developed the purging part. I make myself throw up at least once a day and I've only told one person about it, so it really doesn't feel very real. I have anxiety and depression and throwing up has always made me feel better, but it's turned into a way to regulate the fact that I've gained weight since coming to college. I do still want to lose weight, but I want to be able to do that by eating healthy and working out, not by throwing up everything in my stomach. If anyone has any tips in terms of recovery, please share.",6.085679156908661,5.972773680327872,6.682552693208432,78.19418032786886,66.29508196721311,9.92224824355972,31.362997658079625,9.606745405546679,2.7811063231850106,487,17,93,9,7,160,86,122,0.07200000000000001,0.7879999999999999,0.14,0.816,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,3,5,0,1,4,0,7,5,1,2,1,21,16,9,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,9,3,0,2,0,0,4,2,3,0,1,2,4,9,2,19,13,3,17,0,2,0,0,4,8,0,1,4,58,14,2,0.16961820915511305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113593784848766,0.0,0.0,0.11534619868170802,0.0,0.12975746573820696,0.0,0.0,0.11860099566105545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500135221201364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611106816448047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938971274071138,0.0,0.14609191500130225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356177319801802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207746767637446,0.15244190934335242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152812601153622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913367279761275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980635733264408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897593893869688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604968506992906,0.11322147171801755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806378570107024,0.1149376882772605,0.1290022913516973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18367999134117008,0.0,0.0,0.14810407775492687,0.0,0.18618985826006834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930626561703128,0.1086617681072372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030993539931907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545732093604618,0.0,0.0,0.17732178027048362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207746767637446,0.0,0.0,0.18449590446587974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13995278640887074,0.20009042883189748,0.13463503934956325,0.0,0.41309856667866496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348407640804338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Virulentic,2019/07/29,"???? does anyone else ever get to a point where they want someone to know about their ED just to feel validated; they want someone to worry, but it’s frustrating when you tell your closest friends about your disorder and they change the subject? i understand some may be uncomfortable approaching the topic, but i have often brought the matter up to a close friend and she says nothing about it in return, and just sends a stupid meme. additionally, i’ve ranted about my eating disorder although not explicitly, on my spam account and the post gets likes from my closest friends but nobody asks how i’m doing. it almost feels to me as if they think that i need to lose weight and the only reason i’m doing this is to shed a few pounds when the reality is, this is about control. if they think that, that means i’m current correct in my suspicions about how utterly disgusting i am and perhaps i should go ghost and lose half my body weight to teach everyone a lesson and prove that i’m not making this up",7.8440625,7.218819447916669,7.569875,74.98762500000002,62.85416666666666,10.596666666666668,34.30416666666667,9.888512548439397,3.167531666666667,802,29,149,14,10,255,115,192,0.196,0.708,0.096,-0.9782,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,6,4,15,9,3,0,11,0,10,4,1,5,4,45,30,19,1,6,9,0,4,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,10,10,3,1,10,0,1,4,2,5,0,1,1,5,21,4,22,26,2,20,0,2,0,0,17,10,0,6,6,102,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916235338782426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717382916144723,0.14239525256467184,0.0,0.0,0.12992189921142425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436874810430318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14701602999130542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587112139428128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3185524130677936,0.0,0.12161705521264456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422050633192127,0.1160949168331074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12570990972862162,0.0,0.13279558124380628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053882701847706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221128269219337,0.0,0.1452163238304075,0.0,0.0789821082075744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763764578816563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06789566052036697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31095264223190344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927662022465382,0.0,0.0,0.15138339187902616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030474357349442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334926966264354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569596445100808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137531934579716,0.0,0.1330986446104921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428883843477446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11051767671212744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355043828165868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146937284526114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809781329862104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467680101979136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639408930741054,0.0,0.0,0.3384657044532107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14113480963328387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadbeanhourz,2019/07/29,This disorder is ruining my relationship (& my life) just had an argument with my bf because I hate myself too much to have sex for the 50th time and I’m bout to yeet myself thru a window haha if this disease doesn’t kill me I sure will do it myself,1.5547169811320742,3.4851195660377385,3.9062641509433966,85.9363773584906,79.75471698113208,7.258867924528303,21.92075471698113,8.238735603445708,1.2346784905660382,199,6,42,4,5,69,45,53,0.252,0.662,0.086,-0.8834,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,3,1,6,2,0,0,1,5,8,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,9,2,5,6,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721166364425864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20935757746407446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39361150760114255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33907547817821565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799650053575713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24258152880963474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25246760457231443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687255752908695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32368773536035456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20026237827515506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WhatAreSnailsDoing,2019/07/29,"""Skinny Legend? Isn't that a coffee from McDonalds?"" - my boyfriend, who also thought the words 'calorific' and 'catastrophic' were interchangeable",10.061428571428577,14.14052966666667,7.609761904761907,59.20607142857146,61.85714285714286,9.914285714285716,39.07142857142857,10.125756701596842,5.326314285714286,117,6,13,3,2,34,21,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7096806698618146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.704523489192863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,awinterfacade,2019/07/29,"Had the shittiest weekend 'bonding' with my dysfunctional family and all I could think about was how much happier I am alone by myself and restricting. Had to deal with my selfish, melodramatic sister and my well-meaning but overbearing parents. Now I just want to lock myself in my room with Tumblr and a can of monster.",9.188045977011498,8.824018724137932,9.039655172413793,64.6875287356322,60.03448275862068,12.560919540229886,40.022988505747115,11.855464076750405,5.064774712643677,258,12,41,7,3,84,45,58,0.13699999999999998,0.8009999999999999,0.062,-0.5267,1,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,1,1,15,8,6,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,9,0,9,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619353806891953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790155378512046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602781266016457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294399801055916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806646110069472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568934600763707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.388034201817671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223919988774873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061206831065599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142066927721218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,audriesager,2019/07/29,"I feel like bad things happen because I’m not skinny enough Hey, so I don’t have an eating disorder, but I didn’t know where else to post this, so here I am. 

Anyways, I know, it’s silly to blame everything that goes wrong in my life, on my appearance, but I can’t help. My brain keeps telling me that maybe my mom would’ve cared more about my if I was skinnier. Maybe my boyfriend wouldn’t ignore me if I was skinnier. Maybe my friend wouldn’t have completely cut me off if I was skinnier. Maybe more people would’ve reached out to me after my suicide attempt, IF I WAS JUST FUCKING SKINNY. I mean I can’t really blame them, lmao who would wanna even y’all to someone as ugly and fat as me. That’s right, no one. No wonder I’m alone. If only I could just be strong, and quit eating so much, maybe people would actually finally like me. I’m determined now. No more messing around, this is serious. I will go to the gym everyday I possibly can, and will eat the bare minimum. That all I technically need right? Food is meant to survive, and nothing more. Food is NOT PLEASURABLE. FOOD IS NOT SOMETHING I SHOULD ENJOY. FOOD IS NOT GOOD, AND SHOULD BE AVOIDED AT ALL COSTS. Why can’t I get that through my fucking head. Ugh I just hate myself so much. No matter how much makeup I wear, or how cool I think my outfit is; at the end of the day, IT DOESN’T MATTER. No one will actually like me until I’m skinny. That’s my only solution to be happy.",1.5701729982466404,3.6539814305084772,3.1772413793103453,90.40152542372884,80.45762711864407,6.238457042665107,22.036820572764462,7.372421405659032,0.7648784336645238,1122,35,239,16,29,370,152,295,0.218,0.634,0.14800000000000002,-0.9787,0,2,1,0,0,1,42.0,0,1,1,4,16,23,4,1,5,1,33,17,7,2,2,48,54,22,1,14,15,1,1,3,1,9,2,0,0,0,12,7,11,3,7,1,1,2,17,11,0,2,6,2,42,12,22,35,10,20,0,0,0,2,8,10,2,8,10,162,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.17274281589195714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916679852911316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07879121992203021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07390079735343291,0.053953884789848944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880461961583784,0.0,0.0,0.09024018858320862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279934878437714,0.0,0.0,0.07066673661756477,0.0,0.0,0.057080580706569885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014382674384691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716984958015464,0.07393739139221234,0.0,0.07839215087270958,0.09145281267183213,0.0,0.05845894791474119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954562171638672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044752494521380665,0.06323040183355569,0.0,0.09695660016544096,0.0,0.0,0.4280987205971261,0.0,0.06838135210466334,0.16364913567939385,0.04624197365601277,0.0,0.05030135002310582,0.0742366269298872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826766500725857,0.09421881255676882,0.0,0.08738369781638161,0.09083512892340677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059325299070002474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867031171901577,0.0,0.0,0.0972837780256101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06251608380301582,0.12972216603446235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44459280248239336,0.09641156909333587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036599408035576,0.0,0.0,0.19519152182492053,0.06562783966546287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492617430516873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995113301902018,0.1346292172882273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272112799803568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997798958397458,0.08476655868134036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413955308513343,0.0,0.0,0.05670073235191311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117133980425412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499286016080657,0.06813807233311385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681379836520222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736022219764792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588010324978203,0.05671259382909559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798650431650695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959835587649915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514952448539787,0.09677001539005828,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,madelinelong,2019/07/29,"TW: Restricting , Body Image, Purging I honestly don’t know where to start..

I’m overweight and have not been diagnosed with an ED, but I think I have one. Forcing myself to fast 18 hours and only eat one meal a day. Does that count as an ED? I’ve tried purging after a binge and I couldn’t bring myself to do it. My boyfriend says I’m beautiful but it feels like a lie. I look in the mirror and just see fat.",-0.2143974630021148,2.0198103720930263,1.7288583509513735,96.59256871035942,90.6279069767442,4.9877378435517965,18.28329809725159,6.574015621080383,-0.04814883720930263,316,9,72,4,11,104,61,86,0.043,0.828,0.129,0.8422,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,6,6,2,0,0,14,15,7,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,5,4,1,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,4,8,2,7,13,0,8,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,6,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138034505685944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18219472382121016,0.0,0.0,0.2867403580584277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472252450213092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28907690258485963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284487436363266,0.20182425365274634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782141375394204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15525937937435766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13801946839349352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23723613511915376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828703787157899,0.2148605774368992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246622371884301,0.0,0.0,0.2251228372135521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999610940160005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810201515466933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918048457640602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Oct_Skye,2019/07/29,"Spinning out of control-need some help So a little background: I was very heavy in high school, the kind where I didn't even realize I was fat until I was being teased. I discovered hard drugs, and dropped the weight and suddenly-instead of being teased I was being asked out on dates, made a serious life decision based on not wanting to gain weight, got clean and got into a terrible relationship- in this relationship I didnt look at myself in a full length mirror for a year. Afterwards, I lost everything-and all the weight came back. I'm a good 50 pounds overweight now, bigger then I have ever been.

Now a days: A lot of external factors in my life are out of my control-that is not something i deal well with. For the past three years i have been dealing with PTSD, anxiety and depression. because of my weight gain, i dont really go out, i definitely am not in a relationship, and i can barely look at my body in a mirror. I wish I was the fat i thought I was when I weighed 105. I started not eating for over 8 hours and okayed it in my head as ""intermittent fasting"". I told myself this was better then going back to drugs, but to be honest im starting to lose that battle of staying clean(still clean though)-all to drop the weight and numb out. I tell myself I cant have a disorder because I cant control giving into cravings but its ok because I balance it out with not eating. I cry myself to sleep saying if I could just drop the weight, i could find someone that could see me for who I am trapped in a body I don't belong in. I had a roommate say to me, ""I know better then to leave food out, or else you'll eat it."" that line plays in my head several times a day. I tell myself this all isnt healthy-but im still overweight so I cant have a problem. I can have a problem when Im back to a size 0. My social anxiety of people who knew me when I was thin seeing me now is so high I dont leave my house. I am embarrassed by every aspect of myself i'd rather stay home. Whenever I eat in front of people, i feel like theyre staring, and judging. With food i feel in control and out of control at the same time.

I'd say im looking for advice, but im not even quite sure because I dont know how my life became like this-or if i even want to get help. My best friend says she can get me into a center, I told her let me drop the weight and then we can talk about it. Can anyone relate to this? I just feel alone, stupid, and overwhelmed. p.s - i did post this in a different sub as well, because lets face it im desperate. Besides my best friend, who kinda gets it, no one else in my life knows what im going through.",3.1253547785547795,3.952853316363637,4.477636363636368,88.078351981352,73.10909090909091,7.3864801864801874,25.920745920745922,7.61054688173877,1.184675990675991,2044,65,450,24,39,679,245,550,0.134,0.728,0.139,0.9175,1,2,3,0,0,0,67.0,1,1,0,12,25,31,4,2,28,2,48,31,8,5,4,75,82,31,0,11,15,0,12,2,2,1,11,4,3,0,19,28,18,3,11,1,0,5,17,14,2,2,23,22,74,17,67,49,8,80,0,4,6,0,30,39,0,6,31,297,93,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049537959735673695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052504087268374695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756212124756577,0.0,0.0,0.03544668799290592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04739240044911425,0.0,0.0,0.11694254314882348,0.0,0.15451411234125384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640124481009802,0.08967011589862138,0.0,0.1126200520680856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798086361016652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842902793296266,0.12142600804052428,0.0,0.055685394110504126,0.06538736029223476,0.10452735603775166,0.04366299372508328,0.0,0.0,0.052964835549001325,0.058100149458148585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17824030135892033,0.0,0.11757876879824825,0.2074920193630657,0.08469729617649308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044947622176716,0.04585596745769377,0.0427122001273195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689780255447645,0.036216073968897235,0.0,0.0,0.046333743337279486,0.0,0.12259968687173485,0.0,0.0783327018048916,0.0,0.07945716094620213,0.04863066696320911,0.08643235027831624,0.04252003931860883,0.08108985065226051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04541220554376037,0.0,0.10405411487733464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795874633224169,0.1071227879241472,0.050850594776810684,0.0,0.0499237509960364,0.0584945061718702,0.0,0.0,0.3833103941521435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279039391233682,0.08358091358229038,0.0,0.0,0.10735605380575587,0.0,0.10367687287085836,0.1432277543461236,0.04953342510644899,0.05080908492260797,0.0,0.0,0.12771153013680914,0.05671404216999275,0.055338902337989535,0.04309854756130807,0.0,0.047968246462621066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03435182269998219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04839352025198329,0.07029019775681276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04855120116701713,0.0,0.0,0.09701534716774372,0.05925901536672532,0.0,0.0,0.05391971138985879,0.0,0.0,0.0324761168267283,0.0,0.0,0.1632803712777869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612568173106365,0.0,0.05130541725801832,0.08079371212383596,0.0,0.0,0.05727021786969585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0507309891487449,0.05167653455780012,0.04295318220295754,0.03902700909935612,0.0,0.0,0.0717634837311987,0.10806692427904976,0.04048459597503705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04777885158089228,0.0,0.0,0.0407462209885496,0.08861824211509345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04980696926579997,0.040245673733370985,0.05912059929112205,0.0,0.0,0.09688130180329067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04182817122168584,0.05980171550532747,0.0,0.0,0.4321246691577512,0.09116066843866508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058296033172427965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652910350572799
EDAnonymous,honeybabythrowaway,2019/07/29,"my ed makes me a terrible person my best friend and i are having a weight loss competition. first to lose a set amount of weight wins a nice day doing whatever they want getting pampered, and money to have spent on them. he thinks my ed is a thing of the past, but i'm taking this super seriously. i've relapsed super hard because of this and i've lost quite a bit so far. he's losing weight healthily because he doesn't have an ed. when we started he was 6'3'' and 280 lbs and i'm much smaller than him... i find myself wondering constantly how i can slow down his weight loss. i know i'm going to be fast and hard about this, and i'm worried that somehow he might catch up to me (although i doubt it). i really want to make him maintain steadily or even gain a couple lbs. we weighed week or so ago and he went up to 285 on his own but he seems to be getting more serious about it. i keep trying to make him calorie laden food and encourage him to make unhealthy food choices. i also encourage him to sit and be sedentary while i walk around and try to burn all the calories i can. i hope i'm not a bad friend for this, this is just my dumb ed brain doing what it does. he looks good at his weight anyway. i really care about him but it would make me feel SO much better and more powerful to leave him in the dust with this weight loss competition, especially because the stakes are high. i just want to win this competition and feel great but i also want so badly for my best friend to be healthy and happy. ed brain takes over sometimes. don't know how to make it stop.",3.50857085346216,4.438668657407408,4.4353945249597455,88.35340579710146,72.30246913580247,7.486634460547505,25.198067632850236,7.7425588080867325,1.102376167471819,1231,36,269,15,23,399,166,324,0.126,0.622,0.252,0.9958,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,2,0,2,17,18,31,1,1,13,0,20,11,2,8,1,55,55,31,0,6,9,0,10,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,15,18,9,2,8,0,2,4,3,13,0,1,4,11,37,18,34,45,10,29,0,6,1,0,28,11,1,8,12,165,52,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115696380418239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838820416555852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145978068195924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13404881346739164,0.14680059952762398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848263126186894,0.07099473835630665,0.08763707016396627,0.0,0.0,0.17922190962645654,0.0,0.0,0.08184343498217246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674634277792508,0.0,0.0,0.08882028892477954,0.0,0.05176929336196088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024723860033569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053019404966941686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117664497727305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336785399089682,0.06827997387384631,0.1941322949078012,0.0,0.18605561999055148,0.0,0.08387841434691838,0.0,0.04562086288566996,0.06732898772512719,0.0,0.08850100806038036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545185222520975,0.14381726257194025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848125847107317,0.0,0.07972896923721495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07135012285868134,0.0,0.0,0.08823162591595746,0.0,0.0,0.08499726887296681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740890634732809,0.1796093846712238,0.08762720674639335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32149616837205097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515671947764289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180194388358636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766294383362786,0.0,0.07009108313111026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537996776313847,0.0,0.0,0.10284957898567282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307731146230599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939181828471001,0.0,0.056817477037652074,0.0,0.0,0.06711162687205277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071026014100625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053329658943282,0.05143554727217861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10899987793663364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18938782906711,0.0,0.06438997102127646,0.5865036213181563,0.0,0.07441365843296073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705239067509929,0.0,0.08152089055097801,0.0,0.057023469929788476,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raz4898,2019/07/29,"My fitbit broke My fitbit broke today and I'm trying not to let my disordered brain acknowledge it. 

Here's why its a good thing:
- I've been irrationally attached to my fitbit for 2 years, and wouldn't even let myself take it off during weddings and parties (where it definitely ruined my outfit)
- Now I can finally wear my cute watches without feeling bad that my fitbit isn't tracking my steps 
- If I decide to delete the app, I delete my only record of weightloss over the last two years (been unintentionally maintaining for a few months so the all time weightloss is most satisfying to look at) 
- No more comparing step counts or feeling bad that I haven't hit 10k in so long 
- idk what else but I'm trying to keep listing and elaborating so my irrational thoughts don't take over",5.871543624161074,6.995663302013424,6.218315436241614,77.0188825503356,66.98657718120805,8.913020134228189,30.33624161073825,9.120678840339163,2.5450048322147647,628,23,114,11,10,202,99,149,0.111,0.797,0.092,-0.2096,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,5,0,10,2,2,0,1,18,20,10,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,1,5,0,0,2,7,5,0,1,3,4,15,2,14,13,4,17,0,3,2,0,1,6,0,3,9,73,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126876628335332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20903012343071453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21460184397959264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642124942082994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367520006412044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18935591250709255,0.0,0.0,0.20512047087275967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157054309308295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16643417112374267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526316945724734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829464864311727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657081348308936,0.1572407307061909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14945915873405602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424101525645047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281573615962671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243989109887998,0.0,0.0,0.14865358998093164,0.10918551624546616,0.0,0.17748872465592824,0.0,0.0,0.25425750664654184,0.0,0.1829135879672268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896173372765896,0.0,0.0,0.18049989680102346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24116248665972
EDAnonymous,ancaib96,2019/07/29,"Anyone in Dallas, Texas? It feels lonely having no one to relate to. I would love to meet some people that struggle with food as much as I do.",1.2688505747126442,3.441326,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,82.10344827586206,3.8666666666666663,13.114942528735632,3.1291,-1.2921816091954024,110,1,22,0,3,36,25,29,0.205,0.6729999999999999,0.12300000000000001,-0.2023,0,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,7,4,2,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831292630515655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047395624276757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4896304980777602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654558305737928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976625638073551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27438406227037343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807203298460227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233099789014611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28764333102954043,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,e-spats,2019/07/29,"when you p*rge and... then you start having random chest pains and you’re like here I go, today is the day I die. So you get up to binge more string cheese so you don’t die mad you didn’t eat any. 

It’s a, como se dice, vicious cycle",-2.147884615384616,-0.33858501923076645,0.10653846153846304,105.87596153846157,101.1153846153846,2.6,8.423076923076923,3.1291,-2.431469230769231,177,1,46,0,8,58,42,52,0.27699999999999997,0.68,0.043,-0.93,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,0,3,7,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,2,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,6,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21947759602868933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081437572888788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6699164924307901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33024860098851705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862088685982884,0.0,0.18342336151648864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767685324755298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34342332354125543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22844049787593154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059244229382656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RyanIsAScarf,2019/07/29,Y’all ever be like? I can have 3 cups of 35 calorie skinny pop only if I burn off 500 plus calories today at the gym and fast for the next day 😎,2.662727272727274,2.183708151515156,4.790454545454548,90.10568181818184,73.54545454545455,6.6000000000000005,22.560606060606066,3.1291,-0.005593939393939261,111,2,27,0,2,39,31,33,0.0,0.9179999999999999,0.08199999999999999,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,1,4,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31925071191757043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477792096548737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24184461887242564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5264655928008037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764894551889594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4692266109161447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Shreddedlikechedda,2019/07/29,"I didn’t overeat the last two days for the first time in weeks....but because I didn’t fast like I wanted to I still feel like a fat failure. Coming off Wellbutrin is a bitch. My brain was nonstop fucking hungry. But at least I’m finally able to actually get a full night’s sleep again regularly for the first time in like 6 months, so at least now that the insomnia is gone maybe I’ll be able to make better food decisions 🤷‍♀️",0.666043956043957,2.8519068681318664,2.4820769230769244,93.47542307692308,84.71428571428571,5.837802197802197,21.18791208791209,7.1686216300943375,0.5105859340659338,339,11,77,5,10,112,66,91,0.083,0.795,0.122,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,4,6,2,0,7,0,6,7,3,1,0,6,14,2,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,3,4,1,5,4,10,9,3,21,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,16,40,6,0,0.3918800458298855,0.0,0.19120919767687547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944321931940816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17329302737119925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187338668292815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878498002590225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636510506647972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907316292474977,0.13997959152110287,0.0,0.21464271763066411,0.0,0.3333329667908864,0.2369314534708953,0.0,0.0,0.18114339384939912,0.10237057484684768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971727044216694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28717919365016953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307914867949374,0.0,0.1968480891471448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15639745691384774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18387643816450389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19608152845616256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15647795540591913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285084061392549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19140493118902566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557050214617502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ED2134,2019/01/13,"I get up in the middle of the night to make sure i did not gain weight I dont know why, but I feel the need to weigh myself multiple times a day. That wouldnt be to bad. 

But lately i wake up in the middle of the night needing to check my weight to make sure i did not gain. 

Any tips how to get back to ""healthy"" weigh ins beside throwing out the scale ( if i dont weigh in daily i either end up binging or restricting) 

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EDAnonymous,OtherEgg2018,2019/01/13,"my partner is constantly pressuring me and offering me food. I am average weight. my partner is constantly pressuring me and offering me food. I am average weight. I am not under weight, Its becoming frustrating because i'm sick of when he constantly asks me if I want food, or some of what hes having etc. We've talked about this before how much it makes me feel stressed out about food. He said he'd stop. It feels like it's all the time when hes like ""you want some"" ""want this etc"" How do I calmly bring this up with him?
I appreciate the he wants to know I'm eating but its becoming annoying. He will legit ask me like 5 times if I want something.",2.8390909090909098,4.5402841212121245,4.376363636363639,85.05954545454547,75.21212121212122,9.042424242424243,26.393939393939394,9.573946990214177,2.3751121212121213,512,19,108,14,11,171,75,132,0.11,0.774,0.11599999999999999,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,2,3,2,0,11,9,0,3,1,24,26,10,0,7,5,0,5,3,2,1,1,1,0,2,9,4,8,1,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,1,6,21,4,9,23,6,12,0,0,0,0,17,3,0,5,11,66,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20657186250967027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06734891600317278,0.24403779175968385,0.09401220411151222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581759853106181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130508596566618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464336872797422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172622717317236,0.07892849678057309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5343819983836664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060718120856710085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16192804833301602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374771802262545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121712000981103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050938604191976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505458556052649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236805576243502,0.12655697242905026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880139727120133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884610393778045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258262832263808,0.0,0.0,0.4036126206720317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pizzadeliverysivir,2019/01/13,"Sims 4 giving me weird motivation I bought sims 4 out of boredom and it got me out of binge mode. I made a sim that looks like me, a sim that would look like me if I was thinner, and a sim that I desperately want to look like but will never look like. For the two sims that look like me, I also selected the traits glutton, gloomy, and clumsy. So I started playing and my sims’ lives started mirroring my own life. The fat sim would constantly be crying because of loneliness (I kept her in the house for days and didn’t let her talk to people much. Literally, she started talking to plants for social interaction). But the 2 skinny sims never had that problem and I realized I was more social when playing them. I also had them form romantic relationships with other sims, but I kept the fat sim alone because I felt like she would look weird with normal sized sims. I even rejected a date because I just felt she didn’t belong in a relationship. Overall, I treated her more poorly than I would my other sims... not intentionally, but I was thinking about it today and realized how unconsciously biased I was because of their weights. But she’s also my most successful sim career-wise (she’s a style influencer/beauty guru) and I put a ton of effort into leveling her skills in comparison to my other sims. In my mind whenever something good happened to her, like a promotion or having a not negative interaction with another sim, I would think “really? But she’s so fat” even though I know it’s just a frickin game. Idk where I’m going with this... I guess I think sims 4 has become a mirror to my reality and is showing me how badly I treat myself and how small my world when I limit myself because of my weight. 

Btw, the 2 sims that look like me are struggling with weight issues. They don’t know how to portion control and get really upset when they are hungry, so they got fatter since I created them. It’s been a bitch to get them down to their original weight ",5.315953002610968,6.09435723237598,6.282450130548303,77.30713211488252,68.06005221932115,9.261159268929504,29.41921671018277,9.3871,2.5377833733681467,1552,54,292,30,25,516,179,383,0.113,0.736,0.151,0.9202,0,2,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,9,7,20,22,1,2,19,0,23,10,4,9,2,65,54,33,0,9,12,0,6,8,0,6,4,0,0,0,14,19,9,4,10,4,2,2,8,8,0,1,17,13,64,14,33,29,8,27,0,1,7,0,30,12,1,4,21,204,78,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105590306992988,0.0,0.1877584499872389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206460536027299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534556037253605,0.23853916074859186,0.08643430880840344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457349576571241,0.08777756751499788,0.0,0.0,0.08596721021661499,0.05047256140988458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338271972921302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502877228050549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817774040199537,0.07507610993116384,0.044478138565067035,0.06564251213285502,0.12518665529462092,0.0,0.08621449467762217,0.0,0.06920689102296486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030392240046453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168526912014762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602157511018514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002827013312898,0.05527881531327925,0.305879158216952,0.0,0.0691068426225843,0.0,0.4600430025150848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07405346398718719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07902238181801632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753162721919775,0.0,0.1207210678958128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668021308211312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054257065997738135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488623253394627,0.0,0.07867499760015037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002733735428859,0.0,0.0,0.16804835123107745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473919396465741,0.0,0.0,0.1595566514544456,0.0,0.06024996588355332,0.0,0.0,0.1661828902446302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181650924731958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580817649612508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044152526062549,0.07689208751272578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418329247369708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645067155612628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046160997244257006,0.0,0.0,0.3812084747757904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779756493596208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TacosGetMeThrough,2019/01/13,"Unsupportive partners My problem is binging as always for winter I have put on my typical 30 lbs. I have been trying to get off weight the right way by eating 1200 cal & logging. It has been EXTREMELY slow & frustrating to say the least and I've only binged 2x this month so doing well by regular standards I guess.  I also gave up drinking and only drink 1x a week now which is very hard for me. 

The worst part is my fiance doesn't really support me. He says he does but then I feel like he undermines me. Yesterday he wanted to go out to eat & he complained because I'm vegetarian & on a diet we can't eat anywhere. We went to his favorite restaurant & ate probably an insane amount of calories.

This morning he kept saying we could go to my favorite breakfast place and get breakfast bagels I said we could just make the same thing at home plus we ate out yesterday. He runs to the store which is 5 min away to get eggs & he is gone for over an hr. By then I'm sooooo hangry & started saying wtf is taking so long to get eggs.

When he comes home he has the stuff and a bagel from the bagel shop that he says I can't eat because it has sausage so he knows I can't steal it. I got so angry and frustrated I wanted to cry & punch him as he sat there eating it all smug.

How do you deal with it?!?

Am I just a crazy person??? Its not like making healthy meals is hurting him as he has also gained 30lbs but he just doesn't give a fuck at all.",2.094147267206477,3.737487812500003,3.4094736842105284,91.4436234817814,77.125,6.2558704453441285,22.547570850202426,7.010146845296331,0.5517959514170041,1141,33,251,12,26,372,171,304,0.152,0.7609999999999999,0.087,-0.9722,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,5,1,0,1,14,13,3,0,14,0,25,17,0,3,2,37,55,21,0,5,6,0,3,2,1,0,0,6,2,2,13,15,16,1,2,3,2,7,6,9,1,0,11,9,27,4,33,42,7,33,0,1,0,1,36,12,1,1,15,142,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092789845716448,0.0629121822604848,0.6553726980122743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103650908657498,0.0,0.0,0.09218026483822216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512987613761348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073418850250413,0.0,0.08305219340402861,0.0,0.07794886189035287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616535367535292,0.0,0.0,0.1481347458745364,0.0,0.3868309544450885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03822984029064856,0.054014601631993904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989867701941113,0.15800891427396635,0.07253039369678231,0.08593990562329976,0.0,0.0604708834969433,0.0,0.08329109282660647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773020713904654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516826270002791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094027439946935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0415523574335409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387681577221263,0.0,0.0,0.06691098731030155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093828649328056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060349842713927786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500707458720595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187644670108937,0.0,0.0,0.06601827199562421,0.07899460596254375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815185610261357,0.07234695475213085,0.0,0.07600724858099811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04843662828986753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456909541074787,0.0719208300684187,0.30063386891956057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351596074154478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655344162124813,0.0,0.08579942985226925,0.0,0.0,0.05684804992772605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050230810714762236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05133308880139524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238478548156631,0.08919149664605275,0.06001436815689129,0.06064843673083719,0.09207056939081262,0.0679809632933924,0.07008967365259859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,softsoul97,2019/01/13,"Not believing the number on the scale???? My scale at home says i am always around 105-108 lbs
Then, i went to see my therapist and he sais he had to weigh me. And the medical scale said i was 101-102lbs ???????? I dont believe it and can’t believe i would be 101lbs because i look so much bigger than this. Like am i the only one ?? ",0.18957142857142628,1.9879422428571445,2.3014285714285734,96.37357142857144,83.71428571428572,5.7142857142857135,18.57142857142857,6.868970318607317,-0.0648571428571425,247,6,60,3,7,83,52,70,0.019,0.9209999999999999,0.06,0.5593,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,8,2,0,0,0,6,12,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,4,4,10,1,6,6,1,6,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,2,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16956029368027525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814063438534487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12422167071536945,0.0,0.0,0.6887668074184237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882724678157116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204406760791362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955603293678716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17112287676969468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20528571170643906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980087189278746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808579498827522,0.15498296706331496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384031247935085,0.16205308820214254,0.0,0.0,0.16238532764492178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23660290379549515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889049977519837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475861939514115,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kittyscatsspeed,2019/01/13,"Medication! What meds did everyone find made them out on weight. Mine was Venlaflaxine, diazapam and pregabs.
I am still on the diazapam and pregabs and now on a low dose of quitapine. 
I've heard people put weight on with that too. 
I'm restricting. Trying to go to the gym (I'm so low ATM I find it hard to leave bed).
On gym days if I don't go I hard fast. Yesterday I ate a sandwich because I felt like I was going to faint and I was out with my mother. 
Today is under 1000 calories. Which I can do easy. 
Meds are fucking my progress up though.

And </rant>",0.06174999999999997,2.426138669565219,1.9887771739130429,93.60577445652176,92.7391304347826,5.309782608695652,21.100543478260867,6.9077264865688965,0.6362282608695651,437,16,94,7,16,144,75,115,0.1,0.823,0.077,0.243,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,5,4,1,0,4,0,10,8,0,1,0,15,20,8,0,1,1,1,5,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,9,4,1,3,2,1,4,1,3,0,0,8,6,13,1,16,12,0,21,0,2,0,1,3,11,1,1,7,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856873148414738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486042689657712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17018316129736172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17100491352636632,0.0,0.32556221971042776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646515273032915,0.0,0.0,0.3036567497532355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190870707585893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885832692274231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701116435880994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852349572004952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956601765185879,0.1794180450434959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12347282540401218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904072149329656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223170825816114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498335233985196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688189464554057,0.0,0.0,0.12091890480270524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.433758134382747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OriginalJokeGoesHere,2019/01/13,"My friend went on adhd drugs and I’m so triggered Holy shit literally every time we meet it’s to get food and every fucking time he’s like “oh I have no appetite it’s so terrible” because he’s on these drugs. And it’s fucking constant, like all the time he’s complaining about how he doesn’t want to eat.

This guy *knows* my eating is fucked up (I got drunk and told him about purging) and he still goes on and on and I’m so frustrated. Like wow, guess I’ll just restrict harder?

And he thinks eating once a day is “starving yourself”? Honey, you have no idea what starving yourself is.

I wouldn’t even mind if he didn’t still try and force me to eat? Like if you’re not hungry then let’s do something else, don’t drag me somewhere where I *know* I’ll binge. 

Anyway, I’m bitter sorry
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EDAnonymous,EndlessRoses,2019/01/13,"Advice Needed on ED Recovery I've just taken a hard look at my life and I realised I've wasted 1.5 years on this ED. From anorexia to bulimia to just binging it's been going on long enough.

Currently I'm in a bulimic phase for the past six months or so and I'm sitting here on a Sunday Morning exhausted after purging last night. I don't want to move. This disease is ruining my life. I can't put full effort into my workouts because I'm so tired from not eating enough. How am I ever supposed to compete in a triathlon in Summer if this continues?

I'm going to try to stop and just have some questions for people who have recovered before or just can offer advice.

How long does it take your bowels to start working again after eating normally?
How do I get a more relaxed attitude over food?
Was it worthwhile to recover?
Did you find it easier to exercise and get better results in whatever sports you were doing?",3.2010164835164825,5.246747934065934,4.92537087912088,80.01025412087913,75.15384615384616,7.626923076923077,27.85851648351648,8.472884824447931,2.3175593406593404,732,30,130,14,16,248,118,182,0.095,0.841,0.064,-0.5618,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,4,12,4,0,0,6,0,13,9,1,4,1,25,27,12,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,8,5,3,1,2,4,0,4,3,2,0,1,5,2,11,2,26,22,5,34,0,1,1,0,6,12,0,5,17,90,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307570521603215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095934484143952,0.0,0.1339147359736119,0.0,0.0,0.1391856087045237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377201309670167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220683136958355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32522137901129816,0.0,0.0,0.14235491232217903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383811608428101,0.0,0.19029876200359375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644441324574442,0.0,0.17887994849701475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097730125316835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282818232467018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223175689277067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785442659528857,0.13215556362742242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561541321431866,0.16726497178625555,0.0,0.11669174459468608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768599960761986,0.15419431893268845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023247167968806,0.10910417436957663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820558113206248,0.1762962831402215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139100318746928,0.0,0.0,0.13157274544005348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832659309402803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087968480197456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684745595644156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282399259519332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457104731135688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134449327209598
EDAnonymous,AleksDoesThings,2019/01/13,"Drunk and Realizing Some Things So, I’m really drunk and high rn, and earlier a friend of mine made a joke about me finally eating cuz I said I wanted taquitos lmao

But like ???

Damn guys, I realized I never eat around ppl but it’s become so normal for me to not eat that other ppl don’t even say anything anymore, but they still worry. 

Granted, I’ve known this kid for the past 3 years and have talked to him before about my struggles with food and eating behaviors, but still

My dumbass brain was still like OoO

Anyway, thanks for reading I guess???

Sorry",3.551977573904182,5.383500752293578,4.289296636085627,85.88167176350662,73.58715596330275,7.413251783893987,23.120285423037714,8.167268648758528,1.2405282364933736,438,12,86,7,9,140,81,109,0.16399999999999998,0.6920000000000001,0.14400000000000002,-0.5328,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,10,7,1,1,3,0,3,8,1,2,1,22,9,12,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,5,7,7,0,3,4,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,2,12,5,10,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,8,2,1,2,9,53,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243272845452062,0.0,0.0,0.11818725536891952,0.1278525008148705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861731849978786,0.1222102823902566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032773350187493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5878376159211899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485984216645106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573289995246428,0.0,0.0,0.17366621584915162,0.0,0.11096067409966487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821393321825372,0.1422066597590871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15174271390644856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033123111128593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358969840240828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076881587906544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071738351073187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710181075052685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365914832495028,0.0,0.09200683066464103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661577750137655,0.1142126132488218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077114804615592,0.0,0.0,0.3440860297068549,0.0,0.0,0.15014310271850304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115436542943832,0.0,0.13222626025843712,0.0,0.0,0.0954149340850704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471096377238893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585336851207534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248675324215896
EDAnonymous,imtoofat_throwaway,2019/01/13,"Feeling invalidated by my treatment team - help? Hi,

I've been in recovery for almost a year now with the help of a treatment team offered through my university's health center. This includes a medical doctor, a dietician, and a therapist. I was never ""that sick"" even at my lowest weight but when I first started seeing them I was diagnosed with AN-R and they helped me a lot with issues I was having. 

Lately, things have been really, really bad. Being home with family over these last holidays was immensely triggering and I've been dealing with a restrictive episode for weeks now (since \~early Nov.) And through all of this, I've gotten so little support. Here's just a few instances of what I've experienced, just so you know what I'm talking about:

* Medical doctor only asking me about how I am and how my health has been if my weight is low enough, otherwise dismisses me with ""you're doing great!"" even if I explicitly state that I'm not doing great
* Dietician giving me the OK for exercise with no hesitation, saying that I ""appear to be healthy"", then checking my weight chart later that day and taking it back, saying she didn't know my weight was that low and I actually can't exercise
* Dietician making sure that I'm exercising regularly when I tell her I'm eating more, even though she knows as part of my ED I am active at best and compulsive at worst
* Therapist repeatedly ""reassuring"" me by saying I do not look ill/emaciated, and I was never that all severe so I will probably eventually completely recover whether I try to or not and I don't necessarily need external support to do so

It just feels so clear that they don't give a shit at all. I have been through hell with this disorder and it breaks me to constantly feel like I'm being told I'm not sick enough to be cared about, not sick enough to eat more, and not sick enough to get better. I feel like I have so many reasons to recover but now I'm even deeper into restriction because I feel like I need to prove to them that I am sick enough just to have their support. I feel so terrible for admitting that, but I almost want my weight to be so low and I want to look so gaunt that they take me seriously and stop dismissing my emotional and physical pain. 

I just don't know where to go from here, so I'm asking for help. How would you deal with a situation like this? Am I in the wrong and just attention seeking? Thanks in advance for any responses, I really do appreciate it. ",5.2531851464435135,6.205297443514645,6.405081066945609,75.74665925732221,68.2887029288703,10.410146443514646,30.20946652719665,10.481140341803084,3.20397259414226,1950,73,372,53,32,655,217,478,0.115,0.693,0.191,0.9888,1,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,2,6,6,36,27,2,0,13,1,39,24,1,6,9,84,83,41,0,7,19,0,11,4,0,2,16,3,1,0,23,26,7,3,14,6,1,3,14,11,0,1,14,18,55,16,52,62,15,41,1,3,3,0,33,15,2,7,25,264,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.06629285416350256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605026681407473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046196801310163765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270164568390528,0.0,0.0,0.05223631969032713,0.056721256466976275,0.0414113547641249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129154142315602,0.06008125932563399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926226865695259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712265070320317,0.07341148987455735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04381119518991074,0.14007197652843864,0.0,0.0689506124669688,0.0,0.0,0.07785715701314905,0.13906470382673178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13902493264808505,0.0,0.07641553405022254,0.0,0.3509649846791783,0.0,0.1794765467335035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06404123058503343,0.0,0.2060939375642284,0.14559414650528704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778381485784645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03549221309125725,0.13033513712855718,0.03860791598296863,0.0,0.0,0.14979284772259158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441930399531594,0.0,0.0,0.18213635706453526,0.0,0.06814238480749557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090445124234007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933690355400994,0.05537450000029878,0.0766314356838164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275462083586692,0.06808675949041129,0.0,0.0,0.11409329978188225,0.0,0.0,0.05775424703402065,0.0,0.0,0.045345836211168083,0.06887344688632048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687079535357435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007429867700987,0.10478830717876214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05166614323004383,0.07228555137280455,0.0,0.0,0.07356486959796349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732433142048104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130558947810142,0.06984648628701468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620692562138591,0.0,0.0,0.05413384293470549,0.0,0.0,0.07674500644908068,0.06973229625982534,0.05619491826835708,0.07635959082467729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048083360135718914,0.0,0.0,0.056795068919453275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312688492102512,0.06402609260275753,0.0,0.10215439356080512,0.054602009715709034,0.05937647712553705,0.0625436223502986,0.0,0.1577510064205744,0.045131697684949804,0.0,0.06674387351223257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491293737179178,0.0,0.046122079497681434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013734210972749,0.0,0.05449179244078034,0.4136207483314772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04825768731345383,0.07427412230752826,0.0,0.043746654831476633
EDAnonymous,plaidandsad,2019/01/13,"Surprise fried food! Had a nice low calorie dinner planned out tonight and my wife ""surprised"" me by ordering delivery from some local fish place, getting me a huge order of fish & chips with a side of hush puppies. I told her I appreciate the thought but made it clear to not order for me in the future. 

Was doing pretty good with not purging but ya boi reset his streak tonight. 

Extra annoying because I just dropped more than usual on a really solid meal plan for the week earlier today and she thought to spend too much on one of those Uber Eats-esque services. Fuuuuuck that. ",5.312636363636365,6.849674400000005,5.648863636363636,79.05329545454545,68.63636363636364,8.045454545454545,31.931818181818183,8.472884824447931,2.5759090909090907,464,20,82,7,8,148,88,110,0.043,0.778,0.179,0.9329,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,2,6,1,0,7,0,3,3,0,1,1,15,8,4,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,5,3,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,6,1,11,4,16,2,4,19,0,1,0,0,6,9,0,1,6,53,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835150305534386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950918115019286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164075980805939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670969905816927,0.0,0.0,0.21947304849430496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475947212370087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19235463726738525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773116716287088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27338530507547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662084197387106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762995701417086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154671935641613,0.0,0.0,0.2480287974597172,0.2500331019162459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288188160458274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20989270312800928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,t_h_r_0_w_away_____,2019/01/13,"I ignored my boyfriend for over a week and even though that was a shitty thing for me to do, I honestly find it triggering to meet up with him because 1) he is underweight (though not due to an eating disorder), and 2) he eats. A lot. And every time we meet up, he always suggests that we go for fast food or pick up some snacks, and I hate myself for declining his offers because I've seen how much it upsets him to see me slowly wearing away. 

Deep down, I know that he only wants to help me and doesn't want me to become underweight because he knows what it's like, but I feel like I cannot bring myself to consider recovery, even for him, which I know is horrible for me to say, but the truth is that I don't want to recover, I like having control over my weight and how much I can eat, because the rest of my life is falling apart and I hate it. I've even been having second thoughts about our relationship, he's the first partner I've ever had and after almost a year I'm starting to consider that maybe we weren't supposed to last this long. Or maybe I'm just too fucked up in the head to truly be loved. 

It's disgusting of me to put my ED over my boyfriend, but we met up yesterday to try to settle things between us, and it ended up with me having a panic attack in a fast food place before I walked away, and now I'm back to square one: ignoring him again.

I guess if I wasn't such a fuck up I'd still want to be with him 'forever,' but things such as the incident in the takeaway shop are just too much for me to handle. 

In summary/TLDR: I'm a piece of shit.",9.711164658634537,4.736457626506027,9.736746987951813,74.53224899598395,63.09638554216868,13.235341365461847,38.20883534136545,10.125756701596842,3.468547389558232,1220,35,274,18,12,409,168,332,0.14800000000000002,0.772,0.081,-0.9728,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,6,0,0,2,19,17,7,2,15,0,20,14,3,5,2,50,45,22,0,5,10,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,1,17,17,7,3,6,1,1,5,6,11,0,3,8,6,41,6,52,35,7,43,0,0,3,3,28,20,3,7,21,191,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169128915842372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845007538769278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553191272998907,0.19082595309592626,0.07808847148326771,0.0,0.2476245964304151,0.11215800358133186,0.08641465774130025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390102920277614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163892560048675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31174414333491546,0.0,0.0,0.08994637178942823,0.0,0.0,0.20122564076967966,0.09186107067812124,0.0855633116525917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051348565716236506,0.07254993221133653,0.0,0.0,0.09281817629111297,0.08638146418950186,0.2455981004267393,0.0,0.0,0.18776938554395053,0.0,0.0,0.05771526715774185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118727706176248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005263660870806,0.10422332066066184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806925626181666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16743365445311356,0.08277976108975872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717303308298773,0.1488419190642165,0.0,0.0,0.08987176516878405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863372630248461,0.0916561142853334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040485383385831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396080470756136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881536663416099,0.07723611035746067,0.0,0.11915130163256744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610192678435257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208944554828256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903059120303647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075952113521423,0.0,0.0,0.08092509340908298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424333988744768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718801806681083,0.0,0.0811008585887787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024031540825761,0.0,0.1995518479992732,0.08062223706697763,0.05921673722209786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689482473297335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221565106448324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395958440862025,0.0,0.08146019484737882,0.12366496032817327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539720693471246
EDAnonymous,emurash,2019/01/13,"I’ve relapsed after four years of being ED free Throwaway account.

I started restricting calories and binging/purging when I was in middle school. I continued until I was twenty. I was dating a guy then who made me feel great about myself, and made me feel comfortable about my body. It was a long, hard battle and I had a few times where I almost slipped up. When we got together I weighed 100 pounds, at the end of our relationship I was 140. 
Me and that guy broke up a few months ago, and I’ve managed not to go back to my old habits until about a week ago. A new guy came around, much older than me, and I fell for him so hard so quickly. He plays hot and cold with me. I’ve started to blame myself for it and tell myself if I was better he wouldn’t break away ever. I keep telling myself if I was prettier and skinnier this wouldn’t be a problem. 
I was emotionally eating about it last week and afterwords I purged for the first time in years. It felt so good after. For the past week I’ve been fasting for a day, then I’ll binge out the next day and purge everything after. I’ve gone back to all my old foods I used to binge on, because they were the easiest going back up. I’ve been obsessively drinking huge 7/11 cups of Diet Coke like I used to. I know I should stop but... I’m already down 6 pounds. 
I hate myself and am disgusted but so proud at the same time. Ugh ",2.045176056338029,3.809752771126764,3.341104225352116,91.34192394366195,77.6267605633803,6.234140845070423,22.275492957746486,7.087006719466742,0.5634412957746475,1073,31,234,12,25,349,158,284,0.084,0.8240000000000001,0.092,0.6419,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,2,0,1,3,17,15,3,1,14,0,18,7,1,4,2,41,36,26,0,6,5,0,6,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,7,17,6,3,4,2,2,5,3,7,0,2,18,7,37,9,37,13,5,64,0,1,0,0,13,15,0,3,44,151,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619763378909605,0.0,0.1108161094603358,0.0,0.12212278882366745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851628801553848,0.0,0.0,0.10397444009784863,0.25528619044249623,0.0,0.0674610249565099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09787516872779103,0.0,0.12292508477136872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265725320405287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274095348561347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841064305799936,0.0,0.11323904402995405,0.0,0.12448446275157815,0.09801731361915443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010381958627257,0.0,0.0,0.0994595512944395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119122065642601,0.0,0.10625680692209677,0.0,0.0,0.09413252472446376,0.13381788256091548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578818531685498,0.09282147080809408,0.08850978651209032,0.1220097615265012,0.0,0.3287305018188064,0.0,0.0,0.1982701699603807,0.10925985852815072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983651109254592,0.0,0.0,0.060819192193589826,0.09020763864771268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05406586454555516,0.0,0.0,0.0979360125017412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094298716603971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833262201168242,0.0,0.0813523139647802,0.0,0.0,0.10688200512164793,0.11769464857631777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322509034234565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564331076252036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589250809002387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881397147456615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119999973336818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566600646892472,0.0,0.0,0.09252181155640836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934540914206259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935908715936763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911599501029317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26630900080745923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253067498804556
EDAnonymous,yooolivia,2019/01/13,"i didn’t binge!!! guys... my family got chinese food and i actually ate like a normal person. i had two egg rolls and then a BIG plate of food but i couldn’t even finish half of it because i got full. the food just started to be unappealing and i knew i didn’t want to eat anymore nor did i have the urge to eat anymore. i’m shocked and i’m so proud of myself rn. i’ve probably eaten a total of 1000 cals today (200 for some chic-til-a fries and 800 for the chinese) and that’s an overestimate. 

i hope that i can spread some of my happiness and good fortune to y’all. it’s actually possible to control binge urges. i’m doing it. you can do it too !! :)",-0.1999285714285719,1.8592593642857158,2.6567857142857183,91.5994642857143,87.5,5.785714285714287,20.17857142857143,7.1686216300943375,0.4665714285714286,501,16,116,8,16,176,85,140,0.021,0.7879999999999999,0.191,0.9764,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,0,2,4,6,0,0,7,0,11,8,0,1,1,18,22,11,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,7,8,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,9,0,15,5,12,11,4,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,5,71,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.3029502722744637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078787673932976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462242468927368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740956546826568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31766350785560354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252324587973856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633031332967525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630883546252619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301935841732116,0.24829182817495216,0.0,0.0,0.15369505168092634,0.0,0.16523763821994494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417134013370662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583405676863486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520854618744721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355346283932941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499047040587254,0.0,0.0,0.16735651421724104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986755080012008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471331370343182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163019541659598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155447415047263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whaaaaaaatisthis,2018/12/06,"My mind is blown (halo top) My dudes, I've finally made it to the United States and today I bought the halo top pancakes and waffles as per all yall good suggestions here. Oh my God it is so damn good! Finally I've tasted what I've been missing out all this time and so sad that I have to part this wonderful creation in a month's time. 

Please tell me what other things I have to get from your magical supermarkets. Lol I've only been eating boiled veggies the past few days. ",2.766020408163264,4.34333616326531,4.1181122448979615,87.35635204081633,75.12244897959185,7.348979591836735,23.47448979591837,8.07648339933343,1.1776897959183668,376,11,79,6,8,124,67,98,0.08800000000000001,0.691,0.221,0.9133,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,2,3,5,1,0,4,1,6,3,0,1,2,9,11,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,4,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,9,2,7,7,4,13,0,2,0,0,4,4,1,1,8,45,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275483228532238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22650010867799905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849643442390385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156481786291043,0.0,0.0,0.37132198361059504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209450234668846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22350414855324507,0.0,0.1766824213048489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834947276975618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397044996381959,0.21130716506653816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429799048119445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19347290109312795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14705757069258368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581462594205431,0.0,0.20981743703186986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400486586512189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grrl_scout,2018/12/06,"Normal diet to restricting Does anyone else notice their eating disorder waxes and wanes depending on how their life is going? I tend to restrict when I’m unhappy or a bad event occurred then when things are going good in my life I slowly restrict less and less and gain weight. 

Does anyone else experience this? Does anyone have advice for how to make the transition back into restricting less painful?",6.092083333333331,8.601241819444446,5.970555555555558,73.63000000000002,68.30555555555556,8.688888888888886,27.277777777777786,9.2995712137729,2.768761111111111,329,11,49,7,6,103,52,72,0.26,0.67,0.07,-0.9385,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,4,0,14,8,9,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,4,3,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,1,7,8,3,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,5,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16859778971466916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619184124778832,0.3535620252031084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326676512564413,0.14405830878589695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19773839764502305,0.0,0.4529558208482956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654489625081474,0.2882592865422788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687709199770522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610958672936296,0.14471295721401764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24373109972030665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516748538295195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904624814563696,0.0,0.19643059194741613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18358786333453408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462362518213165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21009938493898156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MissMagus,2018/12/06,"Primal cravings. So. I'm a low BMI.  Hella low. I look fucking sick.  I'm on the road to recovery though, trying real fuckin hard.

I've started craving weird shit....stuff I wouldn't normally want.  I usually hate seafood....but I want fish.  Constantly.  Real bad.  All the time. 

I had shrimp like 2 weeks ago and it felt like heaven in my mouth.

I know it's my body telling me what I need...I dont normally get the vitamins one would get from seafood, but with the restriction and purging it's even less now.  Anyone else dealing with primal cravings due to malnourishment?  If so, what?

I had tuna this morning and could eat an entire catch net of tilapia if I could.

Lowkey about to order shrimp Chinese food just cause the craving is relentless.",1.045321345321348,3.661439699300701,2.1664135864135865,91.65899766899769,92.56643356643356,5.2412920412920405,22.89343989343989,6.868970318607317,0.9834824508824512,579,23,113,9,21,183,99,143,0.136,0.812,0.052000000000000005,-0.7968,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,7,0,8,8,2,1,1,24,20,9,0,10,4,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,7,0,1,3,3,12,3,10,13,2,15,1,2,1,2,2,5,2,2,10,58,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386164665207041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934061322024526,0.16022404766210446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305660884806516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369670131783352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160639579489449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898516851505985,0.0,0.2497044610147027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121513538508905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18326962691169768,0.0,0.0,0.16001004550837794,0.13063074191709953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328381342650478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014394246106685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890885397508557,0.0,0.0,0.144565608857435,0.16339833506844992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008074330759265,0.1543873412663552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593927822372703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279326173215824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313151083231361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11594963285138085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064274123266148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596333739278847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35597659358475425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051606982155278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068260199035722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790112706025521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667811414854464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363704962377278,0.0,0.09118316754633612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10616794986041928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722243042363986,0.0,0.18446733997500084,0.0,0.12543410771294408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110838839634738,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,muesally,2018/12/06,Has anyone tried hair skin and nails vitamins? I’m really worried about my hair getting bad. My hair is alright but i’m worried about it getting worse so if I took vitamins would it help? has anyone tried that? ,1.286178861788617,3.962398146341464,2.616463414634147,88.47477642276422,91.92682926829269,5.660162601626017,23.90650406504065,7.1686216300943375,1.4253382113821136,168,7,31,3,6,54,27,41,0.244,0.653,0.10300000000000001,-0.7829999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,4,6,4,0,0,4,9,4,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,3,1,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38272596558927857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22851084704599064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28597235612162186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834415165631937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17532601598190728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30406785628192423,0.3716206625173704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5558693813065038,0.27890266483806103,0.19441397619423612,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,here4thedietcoke,2018/12/06,"It's finals season and I just ate eight pieces of toast with butter And immediately afterwards because I hate myself (apparently) I measured my waist for the first time in months, and unsurprisingly wasn't happy

Ugh. I was so good with restricting to my personal acceptable limit for a couple months now and then since last Friday I just cannot stop freaking eating. I'm almost out of food and I don't have time to shop again until after my Big Scary Final on Saturday. I'm afraid my roommate can hear me using the kitchen at 3AM and thinks I'm messed up. I feel so awful and out of control. ",3.656637931034485,5.7255444913793125,4.904689655172414,80.55927586206899,73.91379310344827,7.398620689655173,23.66896551724138,8.238735603445708,1.4836579310344828,475,14,88,8,10,157,82,116,0.157,0.743,0.099,-0.8395,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,6,8,1,1,3,1,6,5,1,2,0,22,15,11,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,11,5,4,3,1,1,0,3,5,0,2,3,3,13,3,17,12,1,24,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,17,57,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20396843120139885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416894524295498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284582527272494,0.0,0.22538167338797024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842809113239075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299295524974772,0.0,0.0,0.4462699515995102,0.0,0.1732605799515819,0.24630555706715615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17084745056232026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21683425804806486,0.0,0.2011039915207483,0.0,0.0,0.2295760440627855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603642400875238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251705266205512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778562735710463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16849638871126196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029589693208566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13051781137131035,0.0,0.0,0.2375492550446492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759247609436627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thhhhhrowawayaccount,2018/12/06,"unpopular opinion i hate seeing my bones

~lol dont @ me~

no but seriously i feel like i look so fuckin gross because i can see them *goodnight*",-0.6717857142857149,-0.5249138928571391,1.7892857142857146,88.4682142857143,134.35714285714286,4.257142857142857,21.357142857142858,5.985473137389443,0.8391285714285721,113,5,22,2,8,38,25,28,0.28300000000000003,0.569,0.14800000000000002,-0.6455,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,1,12,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309020585145581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439298118730438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915236159341847,0.27060201505300313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37396891410148825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850538059121687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180815736699541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6036806011357937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,its_scorpio_season,2018/12/06,"I don't know where to post stats. And it's a real bummer, yo",-3.2360000000000007,-1.714231599999998,0.7083333333333357,103.34250000000002,98.33333333333331,3.0,7.5,3.1291,-2.455,46,0,13,0,2,17,15,15,0.20600000000000002,0.794,0.0,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3465561619658833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6039315872771259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7177502800364536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,isenlard,2018/12/06,"Exam Szn Amirite? I had an extremely hard final tonight and went to Taco Bell after so I could binge. I knew my food wasn’t going to be good so then I went to Wendy’s. After eating the food my roommate was in the bathroom taking a shower so I had to binge in the sink. I am so grossed out at myself and stressed out about exams.

Sorry for the rant I just had to get that off my chest. I hope you guys are dealing with this stressful time better than I am. 

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EDAnonymous,WhatStrangeImpulse,2018/12/06,Just broke an eleven day fast with a massive binge Not sure why I did it. Pray that I don’t die. Very bad decision,-0.4957333333333303,1.5809919599999986,0.8760000000000012,103.62466666666668,89.4,4.933333333333334,16.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.6784666666666661,89,2,23,1,3,28,24,25,0.405,0.52,0.075,-0.8794,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3904276320324471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30156421525089033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852964219415346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407087797453615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38582012099808094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.421937527087572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PeachyPutz,2019/10/07,"Fucking SSRI’s Id finally got back down to 110 after months of intermittent fasting, and closest to my gw than I’d been in two years! 

Then I switched up my meds, and whaddya know not being crazily depressed or too anxious to leave the house 24/7 actually makes you WANT to EAT all the TIME like a normal person!!!!",5.2359677419354815,5.904579532258066,6.061451612903228,79.21217741935486,68.19354838709678,8.135483870967743,33.24193548387097,8.07648339933343,2.4751483870967745,249,11,47,3,4,82,54,62,0.049,0.7879999999999999,0.162,0.8081,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,1,1,9,7,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,4,1,10,4,1,12,0,1,0,1,2,4,1,1,9,28,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.24102865556446154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27903076370924684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992167505025925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127339293987349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527345747059122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705677670623796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22834021173859398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754214143248192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28499571569761306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574039594451262,0.0,0.0,0.2615289656343519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066786150555853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486914125717975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743525370292079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19714673369085767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419998115947828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21566397031964776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402307678210474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412753873423031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14568233690450302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15905481114853645
EDAnonymous,emzclaire,2019/10/07,"People who have recovered from bulimia - when did things get back to normal? I'm currently 5 months purge free (after 10 years of bulimia with anorexic tendencies). My weight sky rocketed within the first few months of recovery, pushing from underweight to the verge of overweight. My weight has finally stopped increasing and is sitting at the same point for the last couple months.

I am trying to be patient with my body, but I am getting really frustrated. I'm eating healthy and moderately exercising, but the weight will not budge! The even worse part I gain weight so easy. Even if I calculate and eat at a deficit.  Which in theory doesn't make sense, but I understand what I have done to my metabolism and it needs time to normalize. 

It's really defeating finally being confident in my choices and having a lifestyle but still being overweight. It sucks knowing that I'll put on weight if I choose to treat myself once in a blue moon. 

 Does anyone have any experience with recovery and when things finally started to settle down? Or am I stuck in this overweight body forever.",6.033996598639455,8.064201209183679,6.302938775510206,73.14682312925174,67.5204081632653,10.736870748299319,32.96462585034013,10.793553405168565,4.153624217687074,871,39,144,27,15,279,125,196,0.15,0.747,0.10300000000000001,-0.8497,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,8,5,2,0,9,0,16,13,2,1,0,26,27,16,0,5,8,0,5,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,10,9,10,1,3,1,1,3,2,3,0,1,3,6,14,3,26,20,4,34,0,1,1,0,1,12,1,3,18,100,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132513085284868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333775739021743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806497902781012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23300631239499384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605282506185813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178522825193118,0.10733337029539623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21464627921655527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855059027612973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259727350476176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34468788773825515,0.0,0.08921479494308454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959575863249907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05764183820669401,0.08549495520079285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001129103459873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511536830428556,0.0,0.0,0.07777060867960146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552929566669376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116986856569007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357981075397737,0.0,0.07271378176476198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914985732667728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543800149604464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343835326613094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423786617819927,0.0,0.08376098433378168,0.0876882296520673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936134761269864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06115905904162758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120976479066002,0.0,0.0,0.1091885770555982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6386059891922682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688637724323677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675422495007894
EDAnonymous,nakedrottweiler,2019/10/07,"Trying not to relapse.. I’ve been mostly recovered for awhile. I’ve maintained around the same weight since then +/- 5 lbs.


However, I recently graduated college and got a full time job. People at work made comments about my intense healthy eating and o realized I was headed towards a relapse. I’m struggling with not purging via exercise and orthorexic tendencies so I’m just doing the exact opposite. Today I had the highest weight I have ever had on the scale, still a normal BMI range but I feel disappointed in myself. I don’t want to go into full blown relapse but I do want to lose a few pounds safely. I’m just struggling and don’t know what to do.",2.8880012113870355,5.430749417322836,4.386929133858267,81.01056935190795,78.44881889763779,7.057298606904907,27.87946698970321,8.139509932561175,2.2621161720169605,524,23,92,10,13,174,87,127,0.109,0.807,0.084,-0.7269,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,0,2,8,0,10,5,1,1,2,25,20,8,0,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,3,1,3,1,0,1,4,4,0,0,6,4,9,1,13,14,5,15,0,2,0,0,1,8,0,1,6,60,10,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450207638609302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20058052033067336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17731407388419074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991151453825206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114044183189674,0.0,0.1567775424548424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20117620493271465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945226331550052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077291434309049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21929965544569407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854817522978944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206097221201035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589770328021664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935491163464301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215229500939418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654426326327384,0.0,0.0,0.4098517121282913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430261852456908,0.0,0.185806933780022,0.0,0.0,0.13308678563139806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23123895077114756,0.0,0.0,0.4774065390408686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427071171381695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wildfreethoughts,2019/10/07,"Is it all about control? I think I have started to develop an eating disorder, it started maybe earlier in February and it is October now. In this span I have lost 40lbs and fluctuate between 112-120 lbs (I am F5'6'). I am not sure what is in the future, but for now just talking about it and asking questions I hope will guide me in the right direction. I have friends who have been hospitalized for their ed, and have talked to them about it. They keep telling me that it is all about control, that it is about me needing or feeling like I have to control something, since it is what they have been told. I honestly just like looking skinny, I like being skinny and I like the way clothes fit and the way I look while I do yoga, etc. I eat maybe once a day or don't at all, and then every 3 days or so I will have a healthy meal. I control a lot of things I suppose but this whole not eating or eating little is purely because I completely love my body this size, and would maybe even wanna be a little skinnier for some wiggle room. Anyway, just wanted to ask.. what is the root of your ed?",4.030739064856712,4.779215452488688,4.839257918552036,86.609173453997,70.94570135746606,7.703288084464555,28.307993966817488,7.793537801064563,1.5908567722473603,849,30,178,10,15,275,119,221,0.022000000000000002,0.799,0.179,0.9905,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,4,5,13,10,0,0,10,0,27,9,3,5,5,40,42,17,0,5,11,0,1,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,18,8,7,5,3,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,3,27,9,21,33,7,22,0,1,2,1,15,11,0,8,13,136,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953291138544068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368342678489805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604167948992045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095339206252667,0.0,0.4686841587482034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474792395116744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973070155682372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275921022144227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165107221656886,0.06900089111194123,0.0,0.08801976817569414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05282274333710449,0.07463278467215262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071260942880205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10376144221600674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285698436761396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415340730851567,0.2094110751858276,0.0,0.0,0.1754555566871096,0.0,0.11404042265131854,0.08881593909345488,0.09428749046128823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31485992116705264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746255415463353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111256239774918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170293616523058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921608692216391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641796395240131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042545884492727,0.0,0.0,0.1478876101598918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846094154164474,0.0,0.0,0.16793669793440424,0.09131064548134736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694046640485076,0.06693961576565433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982475381583984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06161861388077921,0.1658455040140679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663607991471445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07421188981475195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notlubglubs,2019/10/07,"I feel like I ruined my life with my fat fetish (tw: self harm, binging, and also fat fetish stuff if that skeeves you out)

So I've struggled off and on with disordered eating for years. I also have a weight gain fetish that turns itself off and on. As you can imagine, these two aspects don't always interact well.

After Zoloft made me gain 30lbs in college I found myself alternately horrified, helpless, and turned on. It's confusing as heck to be disgusted by your body and then suddenly think it's the sexiest thing.

I started to come around to the idea that I should gain a little more weight on purpose, which at the time sounded hot as hell. At my most depraved I'd always daydreamed about doing this, but the irl fear of getting fat stopped me from seriously considering it. But hey, now I was fat anyway, so now would be the perfect time to try it out before losing all the weight, right?

My boyfriend agreed to it because he's open minded and didn't care about my weight. He joined in, but most of it came from me.

Hopefully I'm not being too gross when I say that it was the hottest time of my life. I basically binged multiple times a day. I tend to fall into fast/binge cycles, and part of me thinks I liked this idea because it enabled me to indulge the binging side.

But I went too hard. Way too hard. After 2-3 weeks, I noticed that I had some small stretch marks on my stomach for the first time ever. This was what snapped me out of it. My mind went into panic mode. The whole point of this experiment was that it was temporary, that I could just lose the weight after. But stretch marks - those are permanent.

I've never hated myself more. I instantly stopped everything, but now my appetite was much bigger, so I felt hungry if I didn't eat a lot. My sex drive was instantly killed and I basically became a nun for 6 weeks and restricted heavily, dropping weight rapidly. Which I think possibly have me even more stretch marks.😩

That was around a year ago. Since then I've binged back up and can't seem to control my eating at all. I've developed an intense phobia of stretch marks and get triggered by seeing them on myself and others. I self harm now, which I've never done before.

I even freak out at marks I used to not give much thought to, like the really old, pale ones on my hips. Even if others can't see them easily, I can, and they mean I'm ruined.

I've also potentially fucked up my health by putting on weight so quickly. I have hip pain that makes running, one of my former favourite activities, agony. My thighs exploded in spider veins and I think I have a varicose vein in one leg(like I can't see one on the surface, but I can feel the pain of what I've read they're supposed to feel like.

Thinking about my scarred, broken body makes me feel like I need to be punished. All this was my fault, and some of these things can't be reversed. I'll never forgive myself. My life is miserable now and I often just want to die.

Indulging this fetish is the worst mistake I've ever made. It's destroyed my physical and mental health, but I'll never be rid of it.

My boyfriend is so upset seeing me like this and he wants to help, but there is no help for me. He says he wishes he could make me go to therapy and regrets our experiment just as much as I do.

I just wish I could go back in time and stop all of it from happening.",3.7655357142857113,5.062177005952382,4.401599999999998,87.4434,72.09523809523809,7.399809523809522,26.38642857142857,7.839951260653429,1.3685965714285715,2636,87,547,34,50,840,300,672,0.19399999999999998,0.725,0.08,-0.998,0,0,0,0,0,1,78.0,1,3,3,9,38,40,7,6,23,0,43,32,12,8,11,114,92,48,2,16,18,0,15,6,0,2,12,3,0,2,43,33,14,5,18,1,0,10,14,29,1,6,21,22,76,11,80,60,18,94,2,7,4,2,23,42,3,12,46,363,119,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04980953045513427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348066827948716,0.09351007452788336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10004300160952216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641412594737362,0.0,0.06850647303357235,0.0,0.09562803543101724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483006314339633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06426701757507694,0.057290008586028375,0.0,0.0,0.048403181647740816,0.0,0.0,0.06302247755722303,0.13459074092583,0.0,0.0,0.036238254929615306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058316917476817776,0.0,0.06439923612463605,0.0,0.0,0.05750243954187274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17249087575796518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133998101779984,0.10165513526462967,0.0,0.0,0.05050044135170095,0.1099302761225526,0.0,0.06322998839817195,0.11364651761612815,0.12042761614806108,0.05395173793115994,0.0,0.0,0.04779565142077098,0.0,0.06161003558642469,0.0,0.051947256180231036,0.05871448429753876,0.05390309377634496,0.06386876667606553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049689116021069415,0.0,0.10067138811268464,0.05547653298134773,0.0,0.11945584986334933,0.0,0.0,0.07532667975212018,0.0,0.0,0.05580989279286959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268645783018207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06216651603569581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906713740532054,0.16471118074093674,0.056317690879000085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572570044484407,0.0,0.047771194513515455,0.0,0.10633771028958414,0.11252288134303036,0.0,0.0,0.06120797959167217,0.0,0.0,0.056626856222422035,0.0,0.11347287070340192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391955443398113,0.04166457935147165,0.17335045860886755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397331132232971,0.05896252785463526,0.0,0.1523046781806527,0.0,0.11958140959271245,0.06592750114385593,0.0,0.060848887751156974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05311823024676896,0.06334640008094716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05648702066986382,0.0,0.0,0.056205753956687435,0.0,0.03599710388769777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047986420968975284,0.0,0.08936995818036148,0.0,0.0,0.17910636695338314,0.05115376452651732,0.11723799252678616,0.0,0.0,0.04648140195971149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03977195908300519,0.0,0.0,0.14093344251349185,0.0,0.05874256104178911,0.06432473398503714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425878868868314,0.0,0.07466100657715803,0.1800231714059934,0.0,0.044609018564011976,0.19659096245465754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038149693645104316,0.12223836139604845,0.054890000586509335,0.0,0.0,0.048530592202193516,0.0,0.0,0.06628528211033306,0.04460144154480876,0.09014533648218902,0.4789746474648232,0.05052205086227953,0.10417840188332088,0.0,0.06273474015780986,0.12923271421548033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03991615311105063,0.0,0.0,0.07236974126038066
EDAnonymous,Primo_Luca,2019/10/07,"Hello!, i need some guidance! Hi! I'm the boyfriend of a very smart and cute woman who has been struggling with a ED, especifically bulimia, she told me this not much time ago, it was really hard for her to share this secret with me, i don't blame her, indeed, it really makes me proud that she gave me this confidence to tell me her struggle, i was really decided to support her by listening, loving and caring her. At first it was really shocking because it's something you don't expect, but at the end i understood that you need to keep calm and be really comprehensive, sometimes is hard, we try to talk this whenever we can, but sometimes i worry  that im to intrussive (i try not to be)(i really want you to give me your opinion about this, fr it will help me a lot <3), other times she struggles more than ussual to the point where she ends up with cuts in her legs and arms, this is something that worries me too much, but i always try to keep calm and listen to her whenever she needs it. I don't want to push her, because i know this isn't a race, and less a straight line, but i really aprecciate any advice how to make some things better, or what i could improve in order to help my girlfriend, and i think this could help any friend, girl/boyfriend, or even family who care for a loved person struggling with a ED.

Sorry if my english is a little bit poor, my mother tongue is spanish.

Thank you!!!",11.124035714285718,6.304920475000002,10.41714285714286,70.24785714285717,60.32142857142857,13.771428571428574,39.785714285714285,10.793553405168565,3.9748142857142863,1103,33,223,18,10,358,151,280,0.099,0.682,0.21899999999999997,0.9893,0,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,2,5,0,3,6,20,1,4,11,0,18,4,2,3,0,44,42,15,0,9,9,1,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,2,23,13,0,2,5,0,1,1,6,6,0,1,7,4,43,14,29,31,8,17,0,0,0,2,43,9,0,7,6,152,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09286782778998036,0.0842434517077322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790773510179132,0.0,0.0,0.12925512779781512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586581322763552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405139135336556,0.10375441690404573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937905468111137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175661471327012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834691972428448,0.0,0.0,0.0627702116998241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959124018156503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08083735412708115,0.0,0.0,0.07342437900507558,0.0,0.0,0.09116694407579587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17026671693804574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191101365040496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026549102494085,0.0,0.0,0.1689442693459269,0.0,0.0,0.052229158746854576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525078089482353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079598986874595,0.17154693632285475,0.0,0.1268741923325285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972441156291082,0.211403396886883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298154475994195,0.0,0.0,0.0898394950465272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261763117801545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463263153967563,0.18798555902588698,0.10638473317690236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974079706509157,0.0,0.0,0.10784543450539706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638613003135318,0.08306542792343527,0.08749614335362596,0.0,0.0,0.06313752453156439,0.060895066498465024,0.0,0.0,0.11083221156269307,0.0,0.0,0.0908107247446649,0.0,0.19356909279546394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841444061306385,0.11210908658183608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19302681955912745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,floodedsenses,2019/10/07,"I work in an office with NFL cheerleaders. FML I just started a new job about a month ago. I now work in an office with about 70 women. 3 of them are NFL cheerleaders, and the rest are equally as pretty and in shape. 

I have a history of anorexia in my teenage years, but lately I’ve been struggling a lot with binge eating (I’m mid-20s now). In the past 2 months I gained 15 pounds. I’m at my highest weight ever. I feel like I am constantly eating and have no control over myself. 

Anyways, here I am eating lunch in the office today. I was good today- I made roasted sweet potatoes and chicken for lunch. Meanwhile 2 of my gorgeous coworkers are sitting at the other end of the room. One ate cucumbers and hummus for lunch. The other a banana and tea. And they’re talking loudly about juice cleanses, keto, fasting. Literally nonstop diet talk. They’re talking calorie counts and all the foods they avoid. 

I was already feeling like shit about myself because I obviously don’t fit in at the office. But dammit having to listen to diet talk is just the cherry on top. 

I need to stop eating so I can fit in. Fuck.",1.8132110091743097,4.379506889908259,3.237405504587155,87.38328256880736,83.3119266055046,4.955889908256882,23.398899082568807,6.360717304075467,0.7819289541284409,874,32,161,8,25,285,129,218,0.094,0.738,0.168,0.9354,1,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,2,5,12,9,2,2,16,0,14,15,1,2,3,26,24,12,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,11,13,3,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,6,21,5,30,19,4,36,0,0,0,1,8,18,2,1,19,107,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275830246913852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037231840783934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07754212433674115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746188474205145,0.1426696361483035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5206440926508377,0.0,0.0,0.11266461967794915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506292455451946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863590853829016,0.1817485321005894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381507907280342,0.0,0.0,0.11759766396690735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669233138927968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622992959644827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349118370416694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429049198904245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814393854041617,0.0,0.1203631071317658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20306537481266865,0.0,0.0,0.09431984597795784,0.0,0.12285401438602454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619644078570418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143021461315405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12941177576123192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057265133354568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900353516906007,0.0,0.0,0.10634789228584404,0.0,0.13298080518402342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089656907413596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24114824880963326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15489969684913826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852114487357249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08191493776478825
EDAnonymous,darthmalaks,2019/10/07,this morning i told myself i’d try to eat like a normal person 12 hours later and i’ve purged twice because apparently eating like a normal person is the worst feeling in the world! why am i like this!,3.898699186991866,5.123444073170732,5.281463414634152,81.5389430894309,71.6829268292683,6.442276422764228,23.422764227642283,6.42735559955562,0.7547008130081299,161,4,30,1,3,54,31,41,0.094,0.687,0.21899999999999997,0.5399,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,3,2,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779881221280922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961856483660245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259294320665415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387701351875868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3553549875462088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751104337834951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4234061250494281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23167691797194545,0.0,0.16461158069736787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21877865816518266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roberto-109,2019/10/07,"family in town well it’s 7:30 pm i haven’t eaten at all all day, i’ve not even drunken any water but i forgot my grandparents are in town and staying with us, so now i’m too self conscious to eat and they are all chilling in the kitchen i feel like i might faint of hunger 

to make it all worse they are ordering pizza and probably expecting me to eat some so this is great fun",-0.42003367003366776,1.81321474074074,1.7040404040404056,95.96090909090911,92.95061728395059,5.414590347923681,18.47474747474748,6.980632752743323,0.2465703703703701,298,9,68,5,11,99,60,81,0.08800000000000001,0.741,0.172,0.8589,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,1,0,6,8,0,1,4,17,11,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,4,7,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,9,4,9,8,5,10,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,3,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655994861903833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570479168920211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983560930897255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16084026966902532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295655668598887,0.0,0.12312919653768475,0.17396814764819662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26847766419271546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189698008105487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254907189408804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583323923279346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625518402835585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25404068908250765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259556055896755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29292021690859704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21895046713602795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481639912971088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,3hunnaz,2019/10/07,"I think I might have an ED, not sure where to go from here. I’ve been in kind of a binge/long period of fasting cycle pretty much since high school (I’m currently 23F).  I’ve never been diagnosed with an ED, and never considered that I might have one because I didn’t throw up EVERY meal I ate and when I was slightly underweight nobody thought anything of it because I was an intense ballet dancer at the time and I figured it was normal.  

Now I’m starting to lose weight rapidly again (just went from 178 to 168 pounds in less than a month) and I’m just realizing that there’s nothing that brings me satisfaction like this other than losing weight.  I feel IMMENSE guilt when I binge, and it often causes me to drop into a depression after a binge and hide in my room doing nothing because I feel so ashamed.  I was a dance major in college, and I’d frequently miss class after a binge because I couldn’t deal with looking at my body in a mirror with a bloated stomach.  

I’m just beginning to notice some red flags that I’ve accumulated over the years.  I’ve been telling people I “intermittent fast” so that I have an excuse for why I don’t eat for the first 8-10 hours of the day.  In college, there were many nights that I would drink excessive amounts after I felt I ate too much because I knew I would be throwing up later that night or the next morning.  Every thanksgiving I always throw up the entire meal.  But again, I doubt whether this is an ED because I’ve never been formally diagnosed.  

I have been diagnosed with bipolar 2, so cycles of depression/mania are somewhat normal for me.  And I’m now noticing myself to go to substances that will suppress my appetite more (Adderall, coke, Molly) in hopes that it will help keep the weight loss going.  

I guess I just don’t know where to go from here.  Does it sound like I have an ED?  Or am I just a general mess?",6.102546082949308,5.8428716586021485,6.480937019969279,80.14854838709681,66.28494623655914,9.128725038402461,31.961597542242714,8.563005593585519,2.3738178187404,1475,53,290,19,21,478,192,372,0.087,0.857,0.055999999999999994,-0.8724,1,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,4,22,14,0,3,22,0,30,16,2,1,4,53,57,17,0,6,10,0,6,2,0,6,4,1,1,0,17,13,10,2,9,3,0,10,8,9,0,2,17,9,35,5,42,32,8,58,0,5,2,0,4,18,0,10,31,192,52,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860637173744513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774052713845593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455271731662991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493455808906056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704642147747668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06092515170147245,0.0973941293101892,0.08136662818477637,0.28765432028845345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267108531714512,0.0,0.0,0.0925443569357758,0.0,0.09666610412196824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591896207848371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553345407435948,0.0,0.09070574243705444,0.0,0.0,0.08035589238877518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2147572672184713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406904306765064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332105947126622,0.09981244197341296,0.0,0.09382974404955954,0.09303364103845826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839690244309567,0.0,0.0983756720906063,0.051918085458619694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09230626302748356,0.0,0.0,0.08360272609930773,0.07933076885030434,0.21137489614920926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957774646768528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004348800475345,0.0,0.0,0.07540482622309208,0.0,0.1388922225482988,0.0,0.21858260715323288,0.0,0.10046961497544367,0.1773068583072069,0.18512052822482888,0.1812924812228675,0.21510879620051493,0.0,0.0,0.06401512463157336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549340640638904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961096639099564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560839635006094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814632551133731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686615140003843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903658956955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257069593037332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06053237965786758,0.0,0.07499840233877073,0.05508605125509757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451159923357911,0.0,0.08757437342231407,0.08524422509801938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421715192154687,0.0,0.0,0.060835399958535034
EDAnonymous,Fancystank,2019/10/07,I’m going to end up a toothless hag I managed to b/p thrice this past weekend despite promising myself I would stop after I broke a tooth and got some work done on my molars. Dental work is so expensive but that still doesn’t deter me. I might as well start saving up for dentures.,3.9291379310344814,4.765707258620693,4.916724137931039,85.63818965517244,71.24137931034483,6.4896551724137925,26.568965517241374,5.985473137389443,0.9676758620689658,223,7,44,1,4,73,50,58,0.128,0.823,0.05,-0.2912,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,0,7,9,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,7,3,8,5,1,11,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,7,30,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219759035365872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786689454846309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788115775794086,0.0,0.2516384908101993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3337728922279429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003501006167514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22269685535421224,0.0,0.2512640620317877,0.2630449122583745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828903104721057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458109025339096,0.0,0.0,0.223504247228964,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinybeano,2019/10/07,"I thought I was getting better Last month I started eating better because I had a food plan made by my nutritionist. I wasn’t so afraid to eat because I trust 100% in him and that he gave me a plan that if I follow I won’t gain weight. 

This past week I had a relapse and started freaking out about eating (I was feeling fatter) and ended up losing 1,5kg. 

I suffer with severe anxiety and panic attacks and this episode made me get really anxious and sad. I know that all can go well for a while and it is normal to have a relapse but I honestly thought I was getting better... it is so draining living like this...",4.468900000000001,4.88423792,5.70215,82.01082500000003,69.8,7.53,30.825,7.1686216300943375,1.8691000000000004,480,19,94,4,8,161,78,125,0.139,0.7090000000000001,0.152,0.5672,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,7,4,14,1,2,5,0,11,5,0,2,1,19,25,12,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,9,5,0,4,0,0,2,2,7,1,0,11,2,18,7,9,13,1,13,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,1,9,65,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250401836890447,0.16614114053528767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673072162641155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929843334336046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39020006946432906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514514091868532,0.0,0.0,0.13025558671669216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436028181422577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783110108366815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23050555479523,0.0,0.08358020269835821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082285945514009,0.11987727947778593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184833625505807,0.0,0.12986073834428755,0.0,0.0,0.1645276725143186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783121654927263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738556262683615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409208566542567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254862417954447,0.0,0.0,0.14038980378030724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421335015742874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614114053528767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20818616515506247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23350573419806805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796635331485937,0.17908506639437255,0.13222873938439458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,horahj,2019/10/07,"(TW) Mukbangs & ASMR Food related ASMR videos and mukbangs had been just popular around the time I had embarked on recovery. I used to sit down by myself at the dinner table and eat along with creators to remind myself that I was not the only one eating. Nowadays, however, mukbang and ASMR culture has evolved into a form of binge eating on camera. 

I would like to acknowledge two things before going on: 1) Not all ASMRtists/mukbangers exhibit such behavior, nor do those that do on camera have the intention of promoting such behavior 2) viewing or not viewing this content is solely up to the viewer; it would not be difficult for me to click away from a video, but I wanted to share my thoughts since such content has grown rather popular these days.

Some creators binge on camera, seem to do off camera purging, and then continue the cycle. Some viewers may misunderstand this lifestyle and find it okay to eat far beyond moderation; on the other end, such videos may encourage viewers to see a binge-purge as normal. Reading through comments of viewers ranting and raving over how slim a creator looks despite eating so much demonstrates the thoughts which may arise from viewing such videos.

When mukbang/ASMR was just rising to popularity, I would occasionally watch a very skinny girl binge on all sorts of foods to make up for the feelings of longing I had to eat as much as her. Viewers would ask her if she was bingeing and purging, but she always insisted she was not; I recently discovered that she had taken down her channel and all of her videos. I am no detective, but I suspect that she may have been dealing with an eating disorder.

I, personally, find mukbangs/food related ASMR videos triggering and I have been trying to steer away from viewing as much as I have in the past.

I do not intend to generalize those I have described in this post (creators and viewers) but I wanted to share my thoughts and perhaps hear about yours?",11.128913857677901,8.784245898876403,9.940719101123598,66.06420599250937,57.70786516853932,12.527041198501873,44.238951310861424,10.793553405168565,4.868887490636704,1564,73,256,27,15,491,183,356,0.038,0.8859999999999999,0.076,0.9128,1,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,0,1,14,9,0,0,16,1,33,11,1,6,3,64,48,27,0,9,15,0,1,1,0,8,0,1,0,2,15,16,11,0,9,8,0,3,8,1,0,2,15,16,31,8,58,24,9,36,0,0,14,0,20,22,0,10,10,201,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741406965762583,0.1008053326730154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282247591459413,0.0869768478709451,0.0,0.17482227018905225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916746332900447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060001038509610576,0.09591685437213973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662823180113908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6663991031308741,0.0,0.0,0.08240298898751869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04704220093663896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006789727247476,0.0,0.3375013993704875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052874956814768184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485923400150893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045453080443100716,0.0,0.0,0.08233463927627374,0.07812747910924096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06210278566843026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051782562965158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115630928062968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304414270541282,0.07075867791670787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888141518262116,0.0,0.08123614415066006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910353554235771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09306197591928857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918626148116752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413828316070396,0.08469720744634376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696100141638205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06180951510362784,0.0,0.0,0.22158247790357624,0.05425050558585002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316587931664097,0.0,0.09088343369128828,0.0,0.0,0.08035392259571293,0.0,0.0767651026449834,0.1097510289126032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26436269015971464,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,youmakemeuwu,2019/10/07,really tmi does anyone else weigh themselves after using the restroom? and what are your high scores?,5.815882352941178,9.42584735294118,4.383823529411767,78.77220588235295,75.47058823529412,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,1.0944352941176478,83,2,11,1,2,24,17,17,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.2389,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30444019931934485,0.4461164023997951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810194663426788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36371891409067103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600215810543166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789269192604461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760438232773789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pillsandashes,2019/10/07,"Fasting is so addictive Once I start fasting, I never want to stop. Feeling pure and empty makes me feel so alive. Getting dizzy every time I stand feels like I'm doing something right. I usually fast for 2-3 days then break my fast with something small like one boiled egg or a single fruit/veg and it makes me have a nervous breakdown every time. I can't walk for long anymore, I can't exercise as much as I used to, I could study for 14 hours and not remember a single word, foggy brain, constant nausea and a racing heart. I feel like I'm throwing my life away, and it feels so damn good. Like it's the only thing that matters.",3.93236111111111,4.903263000000003,4.6144791666666665,87.31038194444444,71.34375,6.938888888888887,26.722222222222207,6.937597516519254,1.1486586805555552,496,16,101,4,9,159,86,128,0.085,0.746,0.16899999999999998,0.8597,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,1,5,0,6,7,2,3,2,24,19,12,0,2,2,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,6,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,5,13,5,9,18,3,22,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,19,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019687753093873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483184881302306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14668249342175546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428465819232905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16871326426547015,0.0,0.12465133801279685,0.0,0.0,0.10068627900743957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.263080355580686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947018490248133,0.22306829404884249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815677101345271,0.0,0.0,0.13094838277939086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18500624898365484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374949223884826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027413839043927,0.3050948218843646,0.0,0.0,0.1381637496294328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842633928575224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11476820886704026,0.0,0.120411514540784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16626566808339965,0.10579283792238532,0.11873841126563266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685667827335194,0.1333280032284928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403818909001169,0.0,0.0,0.11050450902455862,0.0,0.0,0.1305256368990303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037210394623687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820728999827775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483995728704368,0.17194718808108148,0.0,0.0920852621299042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lightinsouciant,2019/10/07,"Do you gain weight in The Good Place? If anyone watches The Good Place: 

Do you think you'd still be able to gain/lose weight in the Good Place? I'm watching the S4 premiere rn and that thought just occurred to me!",0.22030303030303244,2.614907090909089,0.4109090909090938,105.17803030303033,91.72727272727272,2.9333333333333336,18.696969696969692,3.1291,-1.0734121212121217,168,5,39,0,6,49,30,44,0.0,0.7440000000000001,0.256,0.9145,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,3,4,4,0,6,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,1,1,20,5,0,0.198988704478422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913752888914374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5007068530840864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6237025307794161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15891263644065615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275039270180446,0.0,0.15797480410188516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4846292683712291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_beacheddolphin,2019/06/03,Body Dysmorphia: What do you see in the mirror? I'm just curious as to what other people with body dysmorphia see when you look in the mirror. I personally just see everything as being huge. Is this the same for everyone?,3.5571428571428565,6.0207354285714345,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,75.66666666666667,9.914285714285716,24.785714285714285,10.125756701596842,3.0841714285714286,176,6,31,6,4,60,29,42,0.0,0.885,0.115,0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,2,0,0,4,8,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,7,7,1,4,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5870767691058137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525161399102165,0.23750397300622236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219156982954506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18320779222305247,0.2307456462382043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6317539897209148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachypetrina,2019/06/03,"Got an email from myfitnesspal “Happy 1 year anniversary! Now's a good time to reflect on what motivated you to join MyFitnessPal 1 year ago and all that you've accomplished since then.”

Hahahaha well I haven’t accomplished anything and my motivation to join was my eating disorder!!! 🤪🤪",4.874423076923076,7.70052067307693,6.392923076923079,67.7520769230769,73.03846153846155,11.083076923076923,31.55384615384615,10.793553405168565,4.504072307692307,233,11,39,9,5,79,41,52,0.043,0.547,0.41,0.9673,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,6,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,4,3,5,1,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,21,6,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28328746193610915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629862506482984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.366265170253012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270090546535413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26804766571922856,0.2555964849654618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401977408878186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643590145917842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18634905905380555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287339861062812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115967393246709
EDAnonymous,afitnessgirl,2019/06/03,Does anyone here follow a keto or low carb diet? I see a lot of people having success with it to regulate their eating habits etc. Im wondering if anyone here has tried it and if it did anything for you?,3.512857142857144,4.485251238095241,5.603333333333335,79.82500000000002,72.33333333333333,7.504761904761906,23.523809523809533,7.793537801064563,1.2867523809523809,160,4,30,2,3,56,35,42,0.05,0.8540000000000001,0.096,0.4515,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,4,5,2,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,5,0,23,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43507106531049694,0.0,0.2560172417752913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722546915557956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183434723357725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469701864603121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33605247560532786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644948239534554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568468699432772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479146035529598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21122344976501148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373858139433045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinyplantboy,2019/06/03,"when does disordered eating turn into an ED? I don't know where else the fuck to post this, so I figured this sub is my best bet. I need to get this out somewhere just so I can maybe get some advice.

I started CICO to lose weight back at the end of May. College made me gain some weight and I was just barely in an overweight BMI. I've been steadily losing weight since then and have had a fairly good relationship with food. I've struggled with small bouts of disordered eating (nothing that I would entirely call an ED though) a bit through my life so I was fairly proud of myself. 

I hit a plateau in my weight loss about two or three weeks ago and decided to recalculate my calorie goal. My deficit had me eating at 1520, and the new calculation dropped me down to 1440. Even just that 100 cal or so difference made it a bit more difficult for me to not eat too much at all my meals. I started IF the other day so that I could skip breakfast and save more calories for later in the day.

It's like the new calculation hit some sort of switch in my brain that's launched me back into disordered habits, like looking at thinspo and ED subs. I know that 1400 is still a deficit that will make me lose weight, but something inside me says I should drop it lower (1200) so I can lose even faster. I ate around 1200 yesterday and MFP told me that would get me below my goal weight in about a month and I don't want to pass that up. I'm just so fucking sick of being the fat friend and I just want to have a body that I'm happy with. 

I guess what I'm asking is if I simply have disordered eating or some sort of ED. I just don't know what I'm doing and I'm kind of scared. Any help or kind words would be greatly appreciated.",3.5774157303370804,4.451658224719104,4.216408988764044,90.19600674157304,72.08988764044943,7.2690337078651694,24.63325842696629,7.404127859558343,0.84089991011236,1352,37,302,14,25,430,179,356,0.11,0.797,0.09300000000000001,-0.2514,1,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,10,25,21,2,2,17,0,26,23,3,4,1,60,55,27,0,10,14,0,6,2,1,6,4,1,0,0,18,17,17,0,5,0,1,1,4,10,0,2,9,8,38,11,39,35,11,40,0,5,1,2,7,18,2,15,20,190,56,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976339856168233,0.06328466636464655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048548981984873375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355398174932808,0.06674184683761777,0.0,0.0,0.10979202332971168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492145910684883,0.0,0.15588306330112822,0.07930037511017432,0.0,0.07969703982281555,0.07289917483665848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05700067207642698,0.0,0.0,0.0920838181730469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745894048094609,0.3272854921575029,0.0,0.06247558664944986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652589984133356,0.059638823053934385,0.0,0.06323208767150641,0.0,0.0,0.09430743457291173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632744328195509,0.0,0.055157252393791455,0.13200143610612494,0.11189805993721258,0.0,0.0,0.059880190174775486,0.0,0.07870988963847374,0.07864629444207788,0.0,0.0,0.0759980705921523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047852526945253784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868748371493573,0.11770546501114505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042625374994899,0.06975701252665745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059951267172330125,0.31947737444665314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510560039746586,0.04765468869855859,0.0,0.07172282110318817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056984382585703076,0.0,0.05248130619951665,0.05293623488091799,0.0,0.13790160266211834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06850251255370934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683737645986233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07664824900293406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05677375328363096,0.0714758079343402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05905616833370812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05496101989255165,0.0,0.0,0.101063195667082,0.0,0.057013712710119964,0.0,0.0,0.07463437906291917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014223974059296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821807869098027,0.0,0.0,0.07765395344248446,0.06973957277114698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421765724166763,0.0,0.057266325254187275,0.521617056328012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15214440343710994,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,61lipslikethegalaxy,2019/06/03,"Sad that I am out of depression and back to eating my feelings away I always had an ass. Hourglass shape, but hated the ass. A year ago I had a severe depression and I stopped eating. I lost my ass and looked freaking good. Fast forward to now, feeling good, but with almost 9 kilos more of weight. I feel disgusted and I want to go back in time, to the periods when I felt like shit because I looked unreal.",2.635313588850174,4.404096085365853,4.088327526132404,86.61573170731708,75.95121951219512,7.124738675958188,25.12891986062717,7.957251820313856,1.4511895470383274,317,11,64,5,7,105,55,82,0.425,0.452,0.12300000000000001,-0.9897,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,4,11,3,0,5,0,3,7,4,0,0,15,13,7,0,1,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,4,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,4,7,11,3,10,9,1,16,0,4,2,3,0,5,4,1,12,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062553625671133,0.0,0.18144864098700575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507754211814505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170246193852277,0.2786678612229545,0.0,0.11045967375646316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3121397760387936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708318356593677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748650609983325,0.0,0.17398330717010088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298184708485167,0.3039689773366758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890045897579004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852663835026495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30432978451173304,0.0,0.19780449195458571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20470782525924566,0.18600228703027588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15149383108937806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566093302146164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687823080855964,0.0,0.0,0.22065645125514935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668879823288787
EDAnonymous,MimisAcolyte,2019/06/03,"[Rant] UMMM... Can someone tell me why alcohol doesn't have to list calories?? I don't like surprises, and it's REALLY awkward to pull out my phone and start googling BOOZE calories in the convenience store while Shalisa (well, it looked like Shalisa) is looming over me while her kids unquietly argue with each other about whether I'm a boy or a girl (I'm gender non conforming, so from day to day I might look like either sex, just because I forget to care what sex the clothes in wearing were made for, the pink hair and lack of bra probably add to the confusion)

😖😓😭😫",6.784985250737464,6.095559902654866,6.8965929203539815,79.16164454277286,65.01769911504425,10.36519174041298,35.64749262536873,9.725611199111238,3.2202165191740413,451,19,90,8,6,145,87,113,0.17,0.802,0.027999999999999997,-0.8975,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,4,9,1,2,6,0,7,6,2,1,0,16,14,8,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,7,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,1,0,2,4,7,6,14,11,3,10,0,0,3,2,7,4,0,3,8,51,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640179724680463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15059747905353818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25188074895589263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31864958717259106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620838658466735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149143012084249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337617219045699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620776887642575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663583101687433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15826455103181114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093220114032794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748610462542949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159298535659708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221248054251839,0.0,0.22292137465186496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jackblossby,2019/06/03,"How it feels to recover from anorexia How do you guys (and girls) feel about anorexia recovery as said here? [https://www.facebook.com/underdogcollective/videos/300798157534335/](https://www.facebook.com/underdogcollective/videos/300798157534335/)

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I personally can relate a lot. When I was at my worst, I used to count all my calories, weigh everything out and made sure I always lost weight.. 

Although now I still weigh my food and count my calories but I'm a lot heavier and more athletic. Do you guys think it's just part of recovering to still be ""damaged"" and some way or should recovery be 100% no trace of it?

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I'm kind of torn.",8.458932038834952,12.210133776699033,5.382339805825243,74.81933495145633,65.60194174757282,7.226796116504855,26.804854368932038,8.238735603445708,1.8239561165048561,541,17,84,8,10,148,69,103,0.10300000000000001,0.88,0.017,-0.8248,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,0,1,9,5,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,4,2,22,16,12,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,3,6,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,4,11,2,11,9,7,7,0,2,0,0,7,2,0,4,4,58,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315214294311339,0.3425233037372027,0.3841287176482213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420572118461597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15984323103375078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113091748708974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130152772619593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459873072148964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254489707880166,0.26875973823234683,0.0,0.1495634318583456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17116728302767892,0.0,0.0,0.13801488343683765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035451063050145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524593062263986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14897290477894035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128065859676827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651604684944765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254633872612996,0.0,0.19247866565302588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841287176482213,0.0
EDAnonymous,itmaybequitesimple,2019/06/03,"My therapist just called me fat Well, she said I'm not visibly underweight, but it means the same thing right?  


Starvation activation!",4.519855072463766,7.949720695652175,4.843478260869572,73.99246376811597,81.17391304347825,11.762318840579713,29.40579710144928,10.504223727775694,4.873823188405798,108,5,18,5,3,34,23,23,0.0,0.919,0.081,0.2124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.401711972775416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285349570735693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33596696030874906,0.3742196248415561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4567752123501401,0.2613617657538645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35371964639201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EdwardSpaghettiHands,2019/06/03,"PSA: Coca Cola have come out with a zero sugar energy drink God help us all 
https://www.coca-cola.co.uk/stories/coca-cola-energy-coming-to-the-uk-this-april",7.1014285714285705,8.965137714285717,8.834285714285716,56.66071428571431,64.71428571428571,11.314285714285715,24.714285714285715,11.20814326018867,3.751157142857142,128,3,16,4,2,45,25,28,0.0,0.653,0.34700000000000003,0.7096,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45413805201868296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.516457491686316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533725515878323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6341593875155199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pyffel,2019/06/03,"Food is the worst ""drug"" Hey guys I'm fat. I'm a fatty fat and I was just thinking it sucks that you cant quit food. When I eat its like all the dopamine and I cant stop. You can quit smoking or drinking or weed or heroin or meth but not food and that sucks because my relationship with food sucks and I hate it and it sucks. 

Thanks for coming to my rant I just wanted that off my chest",-0.5564705882352925,1.4707548235294112,1.0520588235294142,102.65926470588236,89.0,3.8705882352941177,15.558823529411766,4.935628992294339,-1.2343882352941176,300,6,76,1,10,96,52,85,0.255,0.6709999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.9535,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,2,3,8,5,0,3,0,5,10,3,0,1,19,16,11,0,1,8,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,7,8,1,1,1,0,1,3,6,0,0,1,0,10,2,4,15,2,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,4,4,3,45,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884091895724033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967190960691772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15883849365623964,0.1880345002437828,0.16591285384376567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7842562424012854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054714511078666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008272671549986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921492060557063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.344918256522249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17408099169967034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13555887838525266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927956699869974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389474108027834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956361918371496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dancar22,2019/06/03,Meds Has anyone been able to get Topiramate as an off-brand ED medication? I just can't keep going the way my body is. I'm gross and I don't even want my boyfriend seeing my naked body. I just can't,-0.3309090909090884,1.6837495454545497,2.055636363636367,95.99845454545458,87.63636363636364,5.3381818181818215,15.618181818181819,6.742157984588678,-0.5381854545454545,156,3,39,2,5,53,34,44,0.113,0.887,0.0,-0.5142,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,2,0,0,5,12,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,2,11,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,20,6,0,0.2873842180677352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20094572728885474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6384381602777467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18981456564862706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014639259421195,0.0,0.16332707389979814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554402975258058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192190801388733,0.2895093653500861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290080140398417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695066576846926,0.22811221566789336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollyyykryan,2019/04/29,"Anyone else have a total loss of sex drive? I don't mean like 'I hate my body and don't want someone to see me naked' I mean a total loss of desire to have sex. I barely ever initiate with my bf and it makes me feel bad lmao but I literally just don't have the energy for a sex drive anymore

In turn it obviously makes me insecure but I'm just wondering if anyone else is the same?!?? I barely see a loss of sex drive being talked about as a side effect",0.3875510204081678,2.2995506122449045,3.1626122448979617,89.84310204081629,83.6938775510204,6.3689795918367365,16.942857142857143,7.554174236665415,0.20529469387755128,352,7,80,6,10,124,57,98,0.21100000000000002,0.745,0.044000000000000004,-0.9244,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,1,1,7,0,8,5,1,3,4,22,20,6,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,3,3,6,0,0,0,3,11,1,10,19,3,6,0,3,2,4,2,2,0,2,2,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18984981148918176,0.2677084074974013,0.3922908732550228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15983831895067555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263858838839547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198349346952043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316184836237314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679413144808942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890001713495103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352435378301867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255565644446739,0.0,0.0,0.4170526890955085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30509417428229585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220031624394365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386636312206212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082238201250267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291197379814367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076006109450584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thejontorrweno,2019/04/29,"What do these numbers mean on my Degree Audit It says that my GPA is a 3.23 (not great, whatever), but then it says + 85.2.

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GPA: 3.23 + 85.2

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What do the extra numbers mean? My GPA is still a 3.23, no?",1.8836666666666664,3.651322644444445,2.9575,93.89625000000002,78.1111111111111,5.388888888888888,22.36111111111111,5.985473137389443,0.1884444444444444,169,5,37,1,4,54,28,45,0.071,0.872,0.057,-0.1556,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,1,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,23,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279820007432647,0.4799678600792798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774427719143324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302704622033527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141196088311196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15772363194874667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799678600792798,0.0
EDAnonymous,SmallFry001,2019/04/29,"Bullying on Peach Hello! As most of you, I’m currently on the Peach app. However I’ve received backlash and negativity and bullying. I admit what I said was wrong and didn’t understand the original so my comment wasn’t very good. However no matter what attempt I do, there seems to be more and more bullies. Like I said I know I was in the wrong. But do I deserve this? Of course I’m starting to get more and more frustrated with the comments, especially once they start cursing at me. I was trying to be apologetic and admit my wrong, especially since I read the post wrong yet now I’m only seen as a Piece of shit. 
http://imgur.com/a/PYaRy8O
Here is a link of screen shots. 
Give me your advise, criticism, opinions. But please do not put me down.",2.466041666666669,5.125273520833336,3.7352777777777786,84.31250000000003,81.15277777777777,7.488888888888887,25.66666666666667,8.472884824447931,2.106675,593,24,113,14,16,193,89,144,0.228,0.677,0.095,-0.9762,3,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,1,1,5,8,2,0,7,0,11,1,1,1,0,20,26,11,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,7,0,0,6,1,0,2,5,6,0,0,8,4,17,2,15,16,6,14,0,0,2,0,13,5,1,3,7,75,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494960516775113,0.1559767266426528,0.0,0.13637765969056018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935841054254112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07943610472531623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731592419762986,0.0,0.12366144812237255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17848138398850544,0.0,0.0,0.1557218501306886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345370858374986,0.0,0.0,0.16263982095390764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093317181867743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480211280525176,0.0,0.0,0.16690227288678133,0.13450094270134105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301723168496514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039188885656707,0.0,0.0,0.16926798309421273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341585800898594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.711092018745938,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,krystallze,2019/04/29,"I got a big tattoo and my artist told me not to go to the gym until its fully healed :( And we even have to touch it up in a month and thats another two weeks w/o gym...
But its sooooO expensive i dont want to pay for it if i only go like 1 week...
But i just CANT exercise at home, the gym vibe gives me so much more energy (which is prob just anxiety about ppl watching me) and i always spend like 2-3 hours there and here at home i cant even do like 20mins
And im here binging on half a lemon with hot pepper and parmesan flakes",1.3311487758945404,2.1732128305084792,3.2233333333333327,95.30518832391716,77.47457627118644,6.9393596986817325,19.043314500941623,7.3871296695380915,0.024465913370997683,406,7,104,5,9,137,83,118,0.054000000000000006,0.845,0.10099999999999999,0.6545,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,5,0,6,2,0,0,0,16,12,12,0,2,6,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,6,9,0,0,0,5,3,2,4,0,0,2,2,3,11,3,13,10,2,13,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,8,64,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17274452637792834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176926187354426,0.1588177490768487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433122680786345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742431391833579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19915425052780214,0.2359741430108576,0.0,0.1660411982862579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41649077522750144,0.0,0.20444973992797869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242497203451565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042768926224972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657088440110898,0.0,0.15261403542338028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789344699107946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19837608915984054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028005474719921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245118744464803,0.0,0.3330574493586003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blabby99,2019/04/29,Today I have officially been purge-free for so long I no longer meet the criteria for bulimia... But I did get diagnosed with BED,4.0368,5.82200568,5.805,75.70750000000002,72.2,11.4,28.5,11.20814326018867,3.7702000000000013,102,4,20,4,2,35,22,25,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.3566,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5874888584254218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024089127846901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5122363891640849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5486525059730579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chrysanthemym,2019/04/29,"Does anyone else want to be friends on MPA? Hey everyone -

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I recently joined MPA again after losing the r/proed subreddit. I miss the reddit community in general but I also like having the simple haven of MPA and wondered if there are any users here who also use/or are active on MPA. 

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If so, whanna be friends/follow each other?

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My username there is the same as here: "" chrysanthemym """,4.107099999999999,7.071359893333334,4.58625,78.87937500000002,76.73333333333333,6.95,26.70833333333333,8.07648339933343,2.2214333333333336,332,13,52,6,8,105,57,75,0.040999999999999995,0.8240000000000001,0.135,0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,9,8,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,7,7,2,6,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,3,4,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275343750602041,0.0,0.4624237433305075,0.5185931514660472,0.09674330838559007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947317578914787,0.1457646375792438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244947823557159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884197803072558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359378169109753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099115750706572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950222125179227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15915523299716733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046695443231152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286903444724255,0.0,0.0,0.08391004767701543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542775011029323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5185931514660472,0.0
EDAnonymous,Not-Madi,2019/04/29,I gained so much in ip Ugh so around this time last year I ended up in ip for almost 4 months and they made me gain 50 or so lbs. I feel so disgusting and even though TECHNICALLY I’m not overweight I’m still at the highest BMI I’ve ever been. Plus I’m tall so my lowest was still higher than other people.,0.2273560767590617,2.1701404776119406,2.4085287846481904,94.8423880597015,84.5223880597015,5.0226012793177,15.541577825159914,6.1826913282559595,-0.6558511727078895,240,4,56,2,7,81,51,67,0.141,0.745,0.114,-0.4469,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,2,11,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,10,7,10,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,6,0,8,4,1,14,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,2,8,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29427754000821177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616147690903179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602897184401005,0.0,0.0,0.1941044214712276,0.2658305359819377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859413944869204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395507487176327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780755782556888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345715513264542,0.0,0.21603500559726893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20373881503218505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693845727706102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887347943924372,0.0,0.1713633085119381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18924855156643447
EDAnonymous,impressionistmime,2019/04/29,"bi ED problems Women: do I want to be them or do I want to be with them

either way I'm a giant hulking beast and they'd never want to be with me 🙃",-3.7766666666666673,-2.4391475555555555,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,107.88888888888887,2.4000000000000004,11.555555555555555,3.1291,-1.876244444444444,112,2,30,0,6,42,25,36,0.083,0.7979999999999999,0.12,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,10,10,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,5,6,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359180591901483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41675638447094776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7706846638213227,0.34571422079984265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PossibleRain,2019/04/29,"DAE hate their weight distribution? First, I’m not trying to become stick skinny. I just want to reach a place where I look slim and healthy. 

The issue is my frame and weight distribution. I have boyish hips, no butt, i have a smaller frame and to top it all off I carry all my extra weight in my trunk. So lots of extra fat in my face, shoulders, back and stomach with sticks for legs and arms.  Despite being a healthy BMI technically, I look pretty fat as a result. I see women my height who weigh even more than I do and they look awesome.... but based on my body type I will absolutely have to reach a very low BMI to look healthy. That means more restriction even though I’ve spent years losing 80 lbs. not an easy task with my predilection for fixating on food and overeating 

So so so so so frustrating. It amazes me some people are thin and have always been thin, presumably with relatively minimal effort, and they’ve had a lifetime of being able to focus their thoughts and energies elsewhere",3.621277573529415,5.8032500677083325,3.9334558823529417,86.9777205882353,74.36458333333334,6.809313725490195,23.794117647058826,7.724431198458867,1.120407720588236,791,24,154,11,17,246,120,192,0.113,0.7809999999999999,0.105,-0.7664,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,4,12,5,2,0,8,0,12,16,11,1,2,27,23,19,0,1,4,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,13,8,1,3,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,4,10,20,1,21,16,8,16,0,2,5,1,5,13,1,2,3,100,24,1,0.1486363136540312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367731996698365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429215042785255,0.0,0.0,0.16415713066879445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510143681129258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634576669205453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642997246322293,0.17973162046578398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467475874622933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513769452817128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992682738288563,0.16628601528227316,0.0,0.12636527858378124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190851979771584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030457048304662,0.0,0.155293312141737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512165667054775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184438979738612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603442349730125,0.11800063020395292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091430022721358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12264052521861853,0.08766954882724337,0.0,0.0,0.5429969615237197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571691276022892
EDAnonymous,knowthealias,2019/04/29,"My friend finding out abt my ED Ive been skipping lunch more and more frequently at school and my best friend has been noticing. Today i told my friends they could go eat without me and i guess it was the last straw for my best friend bc she confronted me about not eating and wouldnt let go of my bag until i told her why. 

I managed to get out of the confrontation but the worst part of it all is that it happened in front of our friend group, and i think everyone now knows or at the very least suspects i have an ed which makes me sick to my fucking stomach. I dont know what to do with myself guys.",5.22048368953881,4.513671700787405,5.236895388076492,89.83102362204727,68.21259842519686,8.516985376827899,29.16647919010123,7.447530270364453,1.3654148481439812,474,14,110,4,7,148,85,127,0.11900000000000001,0.753,0.128,-0.2065,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,2,2,11,3,0,5,0,12,6,1,1,1,22,24,8,0,2,4,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,1,6,8,3,0,5,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,5,0,23,7,17,16,8,13,0,0,0,1,13,5,1,2,5,79,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064344683502397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656854292196732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17111006574841514,0.0,0.0,0.2987874190472081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950856620219249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344069452924498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639933977008729,0.13497397934068958,0.0762785965352982,0.0,0.16594950778422898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083466414278286,0.14456223858406025,0.12910667882083932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047476927880056,0.11900889733210596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492941528790353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974556513569292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622114497861873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581029898813815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477590632422374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935504417553624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839024371281006,0.27901713240438497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204646941232368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317416391043331,0.0,0.0,0.14073809340201582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wosnme,2019/04/29,"I have a question but rules I have a question but I'm really not sure if it's one that counts as asking for a tip, which goes against rule #1.

I've scoured google for a question like it, which would have answers to no avail.

What would be the best way to go about getting this answered? e.g. another subreddit, PMing someone (probably not the best option?)  
Or is this question also one that's asking for a tip?

Sorry, I feel like I'm stepping around broken glass.",2.955217391304348,4.8901473478260895,3.645,89.41250000000002,75.52173913043478,6.339130434782609,26.71739130434783,7.1686216300943375,1.268126086956522,364,14,73,4,8,115,60,92,0.11199999999999999,0.7040000000000001,0.185,0.8855,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,7,0,7,0,0,0,1,18,14,6,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,7,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,5,9,11,2,4,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,7,2,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377202307290586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229313080946775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778090722332792,0.2893839836288338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248497205714805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825794932182288,0.1105699611878582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086257692706761,0.0,0.08796114145205518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122867531763312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097565686402795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668716209398275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6935253472091595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991516358219167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311387781335656,0.0,0.0,0.17325585727267154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458718515274934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228517133761623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21989279409954676,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,altoristics,2019/04/29,"oof (at the hospital for non-ED thing)


the nurse: when was your last period? :)
me: uhhh..uhh..(forgetting it’s basically May and trying to come up with a believable date)..March?
her: so..have you had it this month?
me: uhh..no..
her:...
me:
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EDAnonymous,neurotic-neuron,2019/04/24,"Numbers How much do you consider high or low restricting? For me, anything under 400 is low, 400-600 is normal, and 600-800 is high. I have 2 or 3 800-1200 calorie days a month but that's not really restricting IMO. Just looking for some perspective.",2.3100000000000023,4.699489795918371,3.885061224489796,84.66351020408162,79.61224489795919,8.001632653061224,26.126530612244892,8.841846274778883,2.3196824489795915,196,8,38,5,5,65,39,49,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,11,6,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,6,2,7,0,2,1,0,1,5,0,3,2,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27722494523183616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21726083505455213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7118680507595234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828957926996877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688957689041985,0.0,0.24764682081782002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33007255152139475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21581505139739096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myoblongvagooglia,2019/04/24,gained 2 pounds i ate three french fries and gained two pounds. what the fuck. i even went running today. guess it was too much. time to never consume anything ever again.,1.6403125000000005,4.381804906250004,0.9185000000000016,99.8765,93.6875,2.5600000000000005,15.775,3.1291,-1.2458575,135,3,26,0,5,38,29,32,0.10099999999999999,0.7490000000000001,0.15,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,2,1,7,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875986890087957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308334021421655,0.31613173233708064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230958484028216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850002238774463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569137526380942,0.0,0.26954654400286154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378915228374472,0.0,0.3312735789629656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413988074134069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239787008668911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MsOlivine,2019/04/24,"Top 5 ""this artist gets it"" songs? Ok there are a zillion song posts, but I have not seen my favorites making the rounds. Not all are explicitly about ED but they all capture and comfort my soul, so.. yeah. What are your top 5, ""this artists get it"" songs? 

**My Mother & I** \- Lucy Dacus

**Trail of Lies** \- Jedi Mind Tricks

**Destroyed By Hippie Powers** \- Car Seat Headrest 

**Me & My Dog** \- Boygenius 

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EDAnonymous,chillingismybusiness,2019/04/24,"I'm seeing a guy who keeps calling his ex fat... The lady is like 4 sizes smaller than me. WTFFFF
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EDAnonymous,Megan4600,2019/04/24,"What is your experiences with others comments about your progress? I have a few friends and one of them has commented that I'm not trying hard enough. I value my friends opinions always and hope that they would always tell me the truth but I was really hurt by this. Everyday is a struggle to eat and sit with that uncomfortable feeling and the guilt that soon follows. I am frustrated with myself too but felt like I had made a lot of progress, maybe not physically but mentally. I am a bit more relaxed, haven't had any bulimic tendencies and am improving my relationship with food and learning things that trigger me. I find it so frustrating when people don't understand that there are so many factors to recovery. I told them I need some time to get better and although I will still go out with them, I need a bit of time to get myself into the right head space again, this is also due to depression. Just curious to see what others experiences are? Sometimes I'm not sure whether I am wrong or question the progress I have made.",5.402059463379262,6.809829035532999,5.591258158085568,80.03879441624369,68.28934010152284,9.283393763596813,31.837926033357505,9.606745405546679,2.97723524292966,828,35,155,18,14,262,119,197,0.156,0.6659999999999999,0.17800000000000002,-0.3953,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,4,4,11,15,2,2,9,0,19,3,1,3,2,41,35,17,0,4,9,0,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,14,14,2,0,6,1,0,2,5,7,0,1,7,4,25,8,18,26,7,15,0,2,1,0,14,4,0,6,9,117,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025554070212966,0.2294397491522677,0.0,0.0,0.09375713689453584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193586342849776,0.3010392619564543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118748253783019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107664678476772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245779439501952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26972895813784264,0.0,0.0,0.06971181614794357,0.0,0.13237796333445426,0.0,0.12601176976492434,0.0,0.16671439001673338,0.0,0.2130378785294589,0.0,0.14406401253391227,0.0,0.07835537442787284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350550543352128,0.0,0.1414956166132374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369372002670438,0.0,0.0,0.1475939602415793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735689921215486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721315528004288,0.0,0.260914106821651,0.0,0.13977974675702498,0.1385101413399175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894173170699253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20445948061106295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093425086368811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558252343207456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444728592288107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832381460394123,0.0,0.0,0.14802206103381602,0.0,0.11774124280645065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986548805793264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136358132107188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101041103002728,0.0,0.0,0.14413290266356232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12994196478400485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050549683727706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09159549228789764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607875990508011,0.0,0.0,0.1317418302304519,0.0,0.0936054877975588,0.0,0.0,0.1435287709102384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979397375433818,0.15074050270611128,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Caeheart,2019/04/24,i messed up and weighed myself and found i'd gained 20 pounds since last time 🙃 haha oh man oh god i wanna surgically remove my stomach,0.4053571428571416,2.8618616785714286,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857143,92.92857142857142,4.228571428571429,17.714285714285715,5.985473137389443,-0.193171428571429,109,3,22,1,4,36,24,28,0.08,0.664,0.256,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6448654911074122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4794128493733798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486515740768619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429493435171662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eggsaremysafefood,2019/04/24,"considering ADHD meds potential effects on my ED i have moderate ADHD and when i got dx-ed, my GP suggested stimulants if i think i need them and to make an appointment if i decide that’s what i want. i’ve truly been considering this since september when i finally got diagnosed. i have an awful time w/ my academics in college (i maintain a 4.0 but its extremely stressful) and i really do think meds would be helpful. HOWEVER... i’m also concerned that part of my desire to be on stimulants is linked with my desire to lose weight and that fact that ADHD meds tend to cause weight loss. thoughts?",3.8153043478260886,5.9638592695652175,5.415000000000003,76.72250000000005,73.69565217391305,9.469565217391304,29.76086956521739,9.888512548439397,3.354930434782609,476,21,85,14,10,161,74,115,0.07400000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.12,0.6597,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,3,3,3,0,1,3,1,8,3,0,5,1,24,18,10,0,7,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,2,16,0,9,11,1,7,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,2,4,54,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300972106250411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757822921695164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103824482715686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923031332793765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610619746390137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351834271981077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098549761418619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448671073517485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814232395907596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899448501302061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901939042598198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592169836822275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418989424644082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162307136346508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842006397541842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884191964946863,0.0,0.11672379961705105,0.08573320241344225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867209169318964,0.0,0.0,0.3580809606412821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444446453203417,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Zombiegirlxxx,2019/04/24,"Same old control circle This is such a circlejerk!

It’s like I have therapist in my head that is commenting while I act according to the cliche.
Overwhelmed with your job? Why don’t just bust out the scale, make a bunch of rules and log everything you eat while hyping yourself up with coffee?

That’s gonna fix it!",2.804569892473122,5.139823758064517,3.2851612903225837,89.91440860215056,77.54838709677419,7.359139784946238,23.23655913978495,8.344100000000001,1.39692688172043,251,8,51,5,6,78,53,62,0.0,0.9179999999999999,0.08199999999999999,0.5638,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,1,4,0,4,2,1,2,0,8,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,7,5,2,7,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718343782742677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392336619751317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29795401482805906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402411190731565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289882042056225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196676133002813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22129604784168852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478805616044009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849270096305354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991504716663318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,random__8,2019/04/24,"Should I be worried? *I have EDNOS. I either binge or starve, theres no in between (usually it’s binging and I hate myself for it). Barely ever purge since I hate the feeling


Anyways, I used to eat/binge a lot every day, had almost no self control. Even when I wasn’t hungry and was craving something, I had to snack on some food.
But lately, I’ve been noticing that I have had almost no appetite at all and I barely feel hungry. I just eat when I feel like it or when I have nothing else to do, but the thing is, I’ve been also starting to feel sick/nauseous about half an hour after I consume some food. I don’t know what to do about it.",1.0875774971297325,3.0052538656716443,2.871791044776121,92.83239380022964,81.23880597014927,4.4215843857634916,21.501722158438568,4.713530739802397,-0.11759862227324902,494,15,105,1,13,164,81,134,0.111,0.8640000000000001,0.025,-0.7935,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,2,0,4,0,16,4,0,2,2,24,25,11,0,1,6,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,3,4,1,5,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,7,4,16,1,13,16,5,13,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,7,11,81,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31847772655850204,0.0,0.0,0.12717087491544912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17835815207663147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255687231368288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3254410705803224,0.13284356105622366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503338933610908,0.14384567838067613,0.13398398819333238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216278327609772,0.11360627672171618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38458320923211226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140051705262561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15660591690619588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739504642089961,0.0,0.17938520806319444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07769075141124407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351959222515112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525871444629905,0.1810490801367432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589598275682965,0.0,0.0,0.13154571639837254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242390489841908,0.0,0.0,0.11255750966107804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105648013862928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734507242290686,0.17514169742458466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149587951064312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EmpireStateBitch,2019/04/24,"""No noodles for me, too many carbs."" - Me, turning down a small handful of noodles at dinner. Then going home and eating every carb ever in the world.",2.4130952380952384,4.968523642857143,3.6428571428571423,85.56880952380955,80.42857142857143,3.733333333333334,23.619047619047624,3.1291,0.3194619047619049,114,4,19,0,3,37,26,28,0.078,0.922,0.0,-0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137829657904176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657859858336493,0.34070863830557674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22981917954038397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056273582674638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099791105667265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398506717200851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gixyx,2019/04/24,"Recovering is scary I'm not sure if I need to add a content warning but here goes. Also not sure if this needs a flair srry

So I've struggled with maintaining healthy eating habifor a while now, I went to the doctor recently with my close friend (for moral support, my primary care givers are anti medicine and refuse to acknowledge my health issues) and got told that while yes I have unfortunately an ED, they cannot exactly point to what it is and will need extra testing. They only ruled out a few possibilities so far. I got a referral to a center that focuses more on these issues. Needless to say I am absolutely terrified.

Is there anything I should be prepared for when I'm being tested or when I get treatment for whatever it is I have. How do I hide all this from my caregivers (who I know will just say I'm looking for attention and am vaccine injured or something even though its visibly affecting my physical health). What is the average cost of medicines, if any are even prescribed? I have so many questions and not enough answers 

BTW for context: I'm a 17 year old girl so while I can go to appointments by myself its for the most part recommended to have a trusted individual like a friend or parent come with, I guess for moral support or something. I also have aspergers and scoliosis and did ballet for 8 years (had to quit cos my scoliosis had deteriorated rip) in case that's going to have any impact on anything idk",6.312647058823528,6.876170239130435,7.07364876385337,73.26487212276217,65.81159420289856,10.262233589087806,34.713554987212284,10.194018383442646,3.5709542199488484,1150,51,210,26,17,382,165,276,0.11199999999999999,0.743,0.145,0.9298,1,0,2,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,16,11,0,1,13,1,26,5,0,3,4,45,47,28,0,7,12,1,0,1,2,3,4,2,0,1,13,14,1,1,5,1,1,4,4,1,0,0,7,3,23,10,28,35,7,22,2,0,1,0,13,8,0,10,11,147,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963763041563409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699097310103192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20207707763361085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12518370660075268,0.0,0.0,0.1057652082707391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567185149961638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563591054897022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686589255925468,0.0,0.16219176619294773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972103789299424,0.0,0.06414815564637652,0.0,0.13955887153555738,0.0,0.19639882544398665,0.0,0.13525743180119448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610215363920189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563035312912028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674773851682575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998473565355535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310535910790704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448095528465193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27312230906788826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883830827690687,0.0,0.0,0.09338070266419192,0.0,0.0,0.1363340907272397,0.13296017052929254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116068004080984,0.13841745459052174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375431429720756,0.13059301379970914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123170997883655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952812174390265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18904606892358733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12835766144788982,0.0,0.0,0.2786615024005923,0.23143982276623476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063199258654897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732278286740347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381948456085085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813424854192235
EDAnonymous,throwawayacc19392,2018/12/31,"I am back with an ED... yay, I guess. I gained 10 kilos during recovery, my boyfriend doesn't get turned on by me anymore and is obvious that he isn't attracted to me anymore.

Fuck my life. I'm back bitches. I need control of my life and ED gives me hope.",0.9783333333333316,2.692428314814819,3.0442222222222237,92.47300000000004,80.66666666666666,6.542222222222222,25.61481481481481,7.554174236665415,1.202241481481482,195,8,45,3,5,66,39,54,0.163,0.688,0.149,-0.21,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,0,1,1,4,3,0,1,1,8,12,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,10,3,5,12,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,2,2,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032549866339909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390198457760518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845746951378229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345651133329868,0.1325610886526596,0.24339659551563894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795072161820133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25200664656169475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584276133573337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881342249076937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27598045789966474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,arbitrarypoop,2018/12/31,"I feel like a steaming pile of crap I've been restricting consistently for a while now, and I'm officially underweight (not by much, mind). My anxiety has been shit this year and, in turn, my sex life with my boyfriend has turned to shit.

So, I have generalised anxiety, problems with food, and an unhealthy relationship with my boyfriend who keeps telling me to 'step my game up', 'be more willing', all while complimenting me while I am at my most thin (and miserable).

I'd really appreciate it if someone could talk some sense into me, and maybe possibly give me some pros of gaining a little bit of weight. I just feel crappy because I only feel good about myself when I'm tiny.",11.093125,7.6653189375,10.158062500000003,67.83068750000001,58.84375,14.302500000000002,42.7875,12.340626583579946,4.968444999999999,536,22,103,13,5,171,90,128,0.18,0.718,0.102,-0.8752,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,5,8,3,1,4,0,9,7,3,0,1,24,18,11,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,9,2,2,3,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,2,5,16,3,15,13,7,13,0,1,0,1,6,6,3,4,7,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669813971940098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10637252549447214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905069157130348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393226691968866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646947045402984,0.12466159864601754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110040002135136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739464062455126,0.0,0.14636086949959087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551020797035087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325328832303115,0.08525104026303068,0.17489310844773606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530696594294154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619350839902867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827630616095193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327137971998928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19672058009150167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16697127747082496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178805976903232,0.0,0.0,0.1873458373620244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35823993220875266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785181753695764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402550992020512,0.15251917892528774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37960801770167024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249188222670048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237116445150563
EDAnonymous,PizzaIsASuperfood,2018/12/31,"How did your weight change over time in recovery? Some information on ED recovery and weight trajectory:
- Pts who were overweight prior to the onset of their eating disorder tend to gain more weight after ED recovery (https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3323765/)
- 5 years out from bulimia recovery, more women lost weight than gained weight, although again this correlated more with whether these women were overweight pre-ED or not (https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15185267) 
- There is a period of hypermetabolism especially in the first 3-6 months of anorexia recovery in the weight restoration phase (https://www.scienceofeds.org/2014/05/07/hypermetabolism-in-anorexia-nervosa/)
- Low estrogen, low progesterone, low leptin, low thyroid hormone and high TSH, high insulin, high cortisol all make it very difficult if not impossible to lose weight (especially without a period). My sense is that thyroid hormone will increase, insulin sensitivity will increase, and estrogen, progesterone, and leptin will increase gradually in the course of recovery. ",21.603557046979862,18.32759190604029,16.22663087248322,31.802765100671174,39.335570469798654,19.705234899328858,60.001342281879204,16.887214914478655,9.705882147651003,890,45,95,29,5,255,96,149,0.133,0.773,0.094,-0.6501,0,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,0,1,1,5,3,7,0,0,6,0,8,16,0,2,1,17,11,9,0,1,6,0,7,0,0,3,8,0,0,2,5,6,10,0,1,0,0,3,3,7,0,1,4,7,3,0,19,4,8,26,0,6,0,0,6,14,0,3,9,60,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981324286700793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897094998468485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621970377049686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829753886615857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290309912246609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613263541251008,0.11331677876324192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692914745266318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285715429450526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060530256177699075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565102349608646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8848562848973013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006551573059833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684781828180411
EDAnonymous,suspicious_context,2018/12/31,"PMS weight gain maked me feel like I'm going to actually crawl out of my skin I was diagnosed with anorexia b/p subtype when I was 15, I'm 27 now. I'm 5'5"" and my weight has been as high as 146 & as low as 82, it goes up and down over the years. I relapsed a couple months ago after an actually semi successful recovery attempt, and lately have been 110-111, but goddamn PMS is always such a dramatic fucking hell week (or sometimes more) that the scale goes up *literally* a pound per day sometimes until I finally get my period. PMS has been a massive trigger for me for the last 6 years. It was never an issue for me at all until around when I turned 21, and I started experiencing terrible acne outbreaks, extreme bloating, digestive distress, even more severe depression, insomnia, & sometimes crying jags or angry outbursts directed mostly at myself. It makes me feel like an absolute fucking monster. The various times during my ED that I have not had a period for months or at times a year or two for a stretch due to being underweight were honestly so freeing. I know it's bad not to get your period cause (obviously) but not having to ride this rollercoaster & especially the temporary extreme weight gain makes it hard to care about the long term consequences. It makes me flip out inside that I have no control over my body and I feel trapped in it, at the mercy of its every whim. I don't want to try the pill because all the ones I've tried in the past have made my breasts huge / hurt all the time and I also gained weight from them, I take some supplements for hormonal support as recommended by my naturopath but they don't seem to help much. 

TL;DR ... anyone else feel extremely triggered by their menstrual cycle and pretty much not give a flying fuck about the health consequences of not getting your period because you just desperately want relief from the symptoms? ",6.533095479939058,7.132199622905034,7.006084306754701,73.8159471813103,65.34078212290504,10.307973590655156,33.59116302691721,10.230975488527342,3.5000458100558665,1507,62,266,34,22,493,212,358,0.16,0.7070000000000001,0.134,-0.9176,0,1,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,3,3,6,11,18,4,1,24,0,19,19,3,9,5,48,48,25,0,2,13,0,10,2,0,0,9,0,0,0,12,11,5,1,6,0,1,2,9,10,0,2,9,11,32,9,45,38,11,50,1,3,0,4,8,18,4,7,32,173,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.17311617443858374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862690960229282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07093309764245972,0.07380523475753502,0.2883181807511561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062020874772791876,0.09088329855645312,0.0,0.07896151571815424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07406052321034892,0.10814099657563384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852534244691537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904352296648465,0.09111899914993653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948422722570603,0.0,0.09814450272719047,0.09743242741020916,0.057203952104350836,0.0,0.07639689966437918,0.09002830249274868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409719634183656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058585298453361676,0.0,0.07473330134248571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939688219441174,0.1267341303557994,0.0,0.09716615779674803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246004259332412,0.13902575692917293,0.08508881017166303,0.05041006909683986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945748595043703,0.0,0.0,0.09428360619792267,0.0,0.0,0.05945352210101304,0.0937160760475779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949548360706651,0.0,0.0,0.0925794152674967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04874702140220846,0.07230207329630077,0.10005709630935104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086668361123312,0.0,0.0,0.07849642070669445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392977666979895,0.2368308859423912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159846786556,0.0,0.13040893332938067,0.0,0.0684106571273173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06010519499929402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467387587702148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090239457063798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074885232789551,0.0,0.10020538481388667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631787383429637,0.0,0.06278208613795913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065533947129993,0.0,0.092192924292745,0.06669111640495749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516448049508555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204425131568206,0.09647977509120242,0.08664669340885953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104634732285745,0.0,0.07114952859310425,0.4320492307841608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135904671336055
EDAnonymous,crushedcantharis,2018/12/31,"What are some non-ED related resolutions you're hoping to achieve in the new year? Because it's good for us to remember that weight doesn't need to be our ultimate goal, I thought it would be a cute idea to talk about our hopes of future activities and accomplishments to undergo in the new year. It doesn't need to be a ""big"" goal; I just want to practice my French more! And maybe clean my kitchen more regularly, ha ha.",7.797857142857143,6.1696854523809534,7.771428571428572,76.74857142857145,63.523809523809526,12.20952380952381,36.476190476190474,11.20814326018867,3.6834619047619053,334,13,72,8,4,108,59,84,0.0,0.758,0.242,0.9607,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,3,0,0,4,2,6,0,0,4,2,7,2,0,0,0,13,13,2,0,6,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,7,6,12,8,3,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,5,41,12,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322832809003011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820121871021369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310667531645879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449704663612409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180091194771414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218105974448648,0.0,0.4191665429278363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24582259156558264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17441914252951246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227648927417644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610284155026885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279942493705642,0.0,0.0,0.26425172491640303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541530153467658,0.0,0.0,0.2794861970820638
EDAnonymous,kiko-mouzie,2018/12/31,Nutrisystem? I saw a box in my local grocery store. 5 days worth of meals for 45$. I've been binging nonstop for a month or so and Im so disgusted with myself. I'm thinking of buying it with my last 60$ so I have no excuses or way to binge until I next get paid. Has anyone ever tried it or heard any reviews?,-0.9594281045751636,1.1221161617647049,2.106666666666669,93.41611111111116,93.26470588235294,4.786928104575163,19.3202614379085,6.42735559955562,0.1710830065359481,241,8,54,3,9,85,53,68,0.11199999999999999,0.858,0.03,-0.7434,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,8,9,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,6,0,9,5,0,9,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,3,6,31,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473356998862616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25431492848742265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23456326667288416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289970867534621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19002379204785091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39286989237309017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964727064428249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903103540628881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868103801444853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330510850691818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469356424956425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886965679608428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uncom4table,2018/12/31,"Does anyone else here have a chronic illness? I feel like because of my chronic illness, I have to be on a restricted diet or I'm in pain. I have a bladder condition called interstitial cystitis and many of the foods i normally love cause me intense pain, so I have to avoid what feels like everything. I have a friend with Crohn's and she has the same problem. I know a few other people with different chronic illnesses and they all have a restricted diet as well. 


I am naturally extremely skinny to the point where people have always told me ""eat a cheeseburger"" or ""you're too skinny"" or ""omg I hate you for being skinny lololol"". When I became a teen, I decided to be a vegetarian - but that led to a very unhealthy pattern of disordered eating. I would eat only fries one day, or only pizza the next, or whatever I wanted as long as it didn't have meat. But then I quickly realized I could use that as an excuse to mask my anorexia, so I did that for a while. I was partying, drinking, smoking, and barely eating. 

Then I got pregnant and I started eating ""normal"" again aka the standard American diet. After about 4 years of that I started to develop some serious health problems, including chronic pain, ibs, cystic acne, and some other stuff. My body did not like what I was doing and I was told to find a diet that worked for me. I've experimented with Paleo, vegan, and pretty much everything in between. 


Paleo diet caused me stomach pain from I believe to much meat and animal products. Vegan diet wasn't good for me either because of all the soy and gluten I was consuming. So after a few years if experimenting I finally found a diet that seemed ok. The whole foods, plant based diet, but with a restriction on grains and anything acidic like tomatoes or citrus, because the acidic foods cause me pain.


So right now, I have a very short list of ""safe foods"" which is basically celery, apples (not green), white and sweet potatoes, carrots, squash, blueberries, bananas, lentils, and split peas, honey, and nuts and seeds in moderation. These are foods I know I can consume. Now, I don't like consuming animal products for spiritual and ethical reasons, but I know dairy and meat cause me pain and inflammation. I am on the fence about eggs.


My problem is that this diet feels so much like an eating disorder. But I'm not doing it to be skinny. Honestly I want to gain weight. I am 5'10 and 118 lbs. Everytime I weigh myself, part of me is like ""Yas girl goals"" because when I was deep in my ED, my gw was 115. I have hard time consuming more than 1000 calories in a day, and I basically have to force myself to eat anything. I just have no appetite most of the time. I want to look healthy though. I see all these fit girls and in so jealous. Like I don't wanna be sickly skinny anymore I wanna be healthy and strong.
 

Tldr; I feel like because of my chronic illness, I can never fully recover from my eating disorder.


Can anyone else relate to this or am I alone?",3.663117176571859,5.7286794973638,5.052308023385102,79.52273663068041,73.88576449912127,7.878641368674008,27.60521502098204,8.664204335059999,2.29147068613034,2330,91,420,46,49,777,265,569,0.136,0.725,0.14,0.5264,1,2,1,0,0,0,85.0,0,1,1,4,20,31,2,1,29,1,46,53,8,7,4,90,70,51,0,13,18,0,6,9,2,1,17,0,0,2,19,26,32,6,13,1,0,1,9,13,1,1,14,15,66,18,56,48,16,39,0,0,4,1,12,15,0,12,32,294,85,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05916450216781902,0.0,0.0,0.04753276110403674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665287045006787,0.07988656722584359,0.11706308184839685,0.0940183810268359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411502628061465,0.0,0.0,0.06436056343698604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345324394140643,0.0,0.0,0.05833123888268023,0.0,0.0,0.23473335640007176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045609841631450064,0.0,0.0,0.07368208497718434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059683698749765375,0.19641136132868825,0.0,0.04999066693621977,0.0,0.0,0.055960969989147465,0.0,0.4676269093741838,0.09544158605459473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268093257494076,0.11175885762931308,0.0,0.0,0.11553691512762815,0.12243081053234604,0.0,0.06257788869750101,0.05221141821034655,0.0,0.3453802273821162,0.06263485764344015,0.04413480499201234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04791392612126932,0.04568825870813298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0511729785836619,0.056399330283846916,0.0,0.060721439937908975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418358455697406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511764826897304,0.0,0.0,0.05055402405033802,0.04797079932090037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051557743382909534,0.0,0.0,0.05791600918614195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12598083376080976,0.0,0.04405849304436985,0.0,0.060753321916363165,0.0,0.11194117791054628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03870952899748496,0.08689261133866874,0.36471158450159097,0.0,0.0,0.06186104886612286,0.0,0.07920687272025617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400179951382696,0.0,0.0,0.05811688789911446,0.0,0.16398336824174367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058734242647901176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04878462766011167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04552140609228431,0.05200465684766542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086705263691339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539471236716363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05612524080337447,0.0,0.06662035294591702,0.0,0.0,0.10917119578258992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04933785064402745,0.0,0.09426858195902676,0.10108180840957327,0.0,0.0,0.06956313105538123,0.051362435250902234,0.0,0.0,0.06377827056390206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04158784214377217,0.0,0.0,0.040580118871661616,0.0,0.0,0.0735735403882046
EDAnonymous,wouldbeafinething,2018/12/31,"Chat and hang out: New years eve Inspired by the awesome U/Ronskyroo post (which I wanted to reply to but missed the boat a bit).


How are you today? Anyone else having a chill new year's eve? 


I'm feeling actually good. OMAD (except some liquids and stuff) + forcing myself to eat TDEE has led to far healthier feelings and choices about food over the last few days. 


I'm determined to be way more on the ball about harm reduction in 2019. Also have more focus, and be in my own head less (my partner complains when it's excessive). Other goals are to maintain weight (or lose a lb or two), be capable of eating a hundred calories above my TDEE occasionally, and get some more core gains.",3.6679357484620674,5.536788165413537,4.651770334928231,83.24693779904307,73.36090225563909,7.242378673957622,27.1285030758715,8.00094639256281,1.753066165413534,538,20,102,8,11,175,100,133,0.09699999999999999,0.762,0.142,0.6729,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,3,5,6,0,0,8,0,8,5,1,2,0,18,15,11,0,1,4,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,4,0,3,2,0,2,0,4,0,1,0,3,6,2,16,12,9,20,0,2,0,0,4,6,0,4,10,62,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.1844650998276965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511664751157739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13217351750599032,0.19368261567995884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063707810583178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219081090451362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868478496372652,0.1579095282630383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19115755006768498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285746959238228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875988466022524,0.0,0.0,0.15854861143467902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19399835574288635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15408391748031813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21147517215405945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651308980963449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18103759196542968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163930548029436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17917745118518194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846539296658898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149424020677974,0.15004247334689566,0.0,0.23018647664073136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434570408060329
EDAnonymous,jeffmagnumdong,2018/12/31,"I can’t lose weight anymore and I hate it Hello pals, this is my first post on the new ED sub and on this account but I missed your support so I’m back. I just want to know if anyone else has gone through something similar. 

I started taking birth control pills this summer and since then I quit purging completely because I didn’t want to get pregnant. The thing is that the only way I know how to not be fat is by purging whenever I eat a lot of food. Which is EVERY DAY. I’ve tired to restrict again, I’ve tried getting into fasting again, but nothing will stop me. I feel like a disgusting monster. I can’t control myself. Ive honesty never hated myself more that I do right now. I don’t even want to weigh myself, but I must have gained at least 30 pounds from last spring. All I want to do is to start purging again, but I’m too afraid of it messing up my digestive system. I’ve never wanted to die more than I do now. I wish I could just fucking STOP. I used to be able to just.... not eat. I want to be able to not eat again.

I really thought that my body dysmorphia was gone for good and that I could live a carefree life without hating myself. I guess not! :) ",1.9358377425044109,3.5888749176954735,3.2965196942974733,92.03814814814815,77.60082304526749,5.780834803057027,23.917107583774253,6.42735559955562,0.5673971781305114,907,30,197,7,21,296,140,243,0.102,0.713,0.185,0.9598,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,6,14,12,5,1,6,0,23,13,2,4,4,44,51,12,1,11,13,0,2,1,1,2,5,0,0,0,11,5,8,5,4,0,1,2,11,9,0,1,5,2,33,3,25,39,5,33,0,2,0,1,3,6,1,3,23,133,44,0,0.2137720525451448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600221693036006,0.07473719479367985,0.10951736512245333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218875652295164,0.0,0.0651567295355321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872627945904833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206796495504212,0.0,0.2397635343359607,0.17067958916706732,0.0,0.0,0.06893264448547781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093082014369236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281132670076605,0.08928955963540817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059721228691185,0.0,0.0900560870911545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05404478644916026,0.0763593985259636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091719934469823,0.12924700724099786,0.0,0.0,0.0988144089505118,0.111687074338747,0.0,0.0,0.08965092766426545,0.0,0.0,0.11774700837639215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31658346678539057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748352945665927,0.08712637730003603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549676135165216,0.05221911341504915,0.0,0.09438231944146072,0.0,0.0,0.11957812301233953,0.0,0.09087067725647037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487418555182695,0.10323119022303777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256002494060312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129163944910044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236726714249576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368644580191455,0.0,0.0,0.06847392540333408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128008242145136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841722546239059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08228608500340115,0.0,0.0,0.1513089590701696,0.0,0.0,0.17872300800661445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129299595739773,0.0,0.0,0.08036498962687749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101032642586176,0.0,0.0,0.08485556557542989,0.0,0.12284976363066788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256859565604322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231520848454446,0.0,0.0,0.37826488570207456,0.08484115252016525,0.0,0.13015838473686295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229136552272114,0.10303431509001744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LainaLainaLain,2018/12/31,"Depression ed? I felt like this was the only place I could maybe talk about this? 
I have serverever depression and I've noticed that when I get really low I stop eating. I've stopped eating for weeks before, with mostly just drinking water, coffee, and protein shakes. I've gone months with hardly any food too and lost 40lbs. I just didn't any food, my body rejected it too. 
I explained it to one of friends who struggles with ed and they said ""so your depression will give you anorexia"" 
I felt very confused and also a little upset due to some other people I know who have struggled. 
I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else had had this before, and if maybe it sort of started an ed? Sorry if this comes off as negative or attention seeking? I am really curious and a little concerned about my health and I feel like here is a safe place. ",2.549444045911049,5.0460061036585415,3.569913916786227,86.6505523672884,79.42682926829268,6.541750358680058,23.061692969870876,7.724431198458867,1.2833540889526542,667,22,125,11,17,214,105,164,0.221,0.703,0.076,-0.9740000000000001,0,1,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,1,1,11,15,0,5,5,0,10,8,1,0,0,35,25,16,0,4,7,0,4,2,1,1,1,1,0,0,11,12,6,3,7,1,0,3,2,11,0,1,9,5,17,4,12,14,2,16,0,6,0,0,10,6,0,10,9,80,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542301571086766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228823857594046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343381446101257,0.12226109833411153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030711387183658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254158654708098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278668980802333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527016109019916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083196476353478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168916715105108,0.0,0.24419560226816595,0.09967953135640238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603335821960179,0.08524478215375197,0.22913867901048346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885730686455594,0.0,0.0921890940830233,0.0,0.062341640355896476,0.11446604109629975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314483648648527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689048106163714,0.0,0.0,0.1268353749451404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557711341703135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659093793973173,0.2391871288632164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130255772022141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397531282151365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524293505322784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585067516294813,0.0,0.0,0.08085673905899245,0.09075095180855433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272393910601042,0.0,0.24933546756401184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288346862069044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135040397644612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357296729965973,0.08445783690570795,0.0,0.0,0.199519694726339,0.0,0.2494858062956723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590776556124066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845444171404803,0.0,0.0,0.09571417025916852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12940132151621722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsqueerinhere,2018/12/31,"Does anyone here not wanna die? Long post, sorry.

Most posts I see are people trying to harm/kill themselves or not caring if they die. Am I the only person here who actually doesn't wanna die? I mean, most days I don't wanna be alive or participate in life, but I spend most my nights awake worried that I'm dying (it's currently 3:30 am lol). I think I'd actually like to recover and actually have a life, I just want to get waaay thinner first. I certainly don't wanna die at the weight I am currently.
Am I insane or does this just mean I'm not seriously sick?",2.316724137931036,4.052828258620689,4.701241379310347,82.01789655172416,76.75862068965517,7.743448275862068,21.944827586206884,8.548686976883017,1.3422786206896546,442,12,91,9,10,155,73,116,0.092,0.703,0.204,0.9217,2,0,0,0,0,3,16.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,0,3,1,10,4,0,0,1,23,19,6,5,6,10,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,6,1,0,1,0,2,12,3,9,18,3,10,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,7,7,55,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.3740429893055409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893368224145525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026575458964584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239837521283823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6630036762040581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361743604981632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086775295046615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675236041268526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18048953483913102,0.06241991922073219,0.0,0.0,0.11306871795249734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27834883761428897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198995540478374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971716529808295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885767228202096,0.11156017383762692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24472864926275126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10181280566556948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430233597267765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186716967098505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674459565808641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535958280861453,0.0,0.0,0.15558433167183094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975237811995852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,borrellia,2019/10/30,"body dysmorphia check!!! so I work at Planned Parenthood & I had a patient today who was incredibly beautiful & angelic & had my “ideal” body — we were about the same height, but she just looked so skinny & delicate & lovely & I was so jealous. I got her height/weight before we did vitals and found out she’s actually 1” shorter than me and weighs 3lbs more than I do. the shock was...Intense. I felt like crying after. I would give anything to know what I fucking look like lmao",2.560957446808509,5.133981478723406,3.641957446808512,85.69400000000002,79.95744680851064,6.7387234042553175,24.293617021276606,7.908726449838941,1.5298714893617018,385,14,73,7,10,124,69,94,0.11599999999999999,0.635,0.249,0.9276,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,2,0,0,3,5,8,2,0,3,0,8,6,3,0,0,13,17,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,9,3,15,5,7,7,2,5,1,0,2,2,8,3,1,0,4,44,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.1223600521736141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8151434203931931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318317780646104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669547455256168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785543541803415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377322129486469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039160389639135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748085390367973,0.0,0.1159186660035788,0.0,0.12028305599704782,0.0,0.0,0.1002837885626487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689096567830939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251593732637985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21058773664412264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316705828534047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11885263009551825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526881199626867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128354825176238,0.0,0.0,0.08907163844369598,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notyaadieah,2019/10/30,"Honest to god thinking about giving myself food poisoning So last week I made a salad with some spinach and I saw that it was expired by two things so I thought it was fine. I was wrong, I wrong up that night at midnight soaked in sweat and nauseous and after about 10 minutes I vomited everything in my body. I felt a lot better after throwing up and woke up the next day two pounds lighter. Kept the spinach in my fridge and have been debating about eating it again because I know it’ll make me throw up. What is wrong with me!?",3.8128301886792464,5.208246273584905,3.9378773584905673,90.42964622641512,72.11320754716981,6.809433962264151,27.400943396226417,7.1686216300943375,1.2220981132075477,419,15,87,4,8,129,71,106,0.12,0.769,0.11199999999999999,-0.4389,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,0,4,0,7,7,2,2,0,16,17,7,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,7,3,1,4,0,0,2,0,4,0,2,10,2,13,3,17,6,2,18,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,2,8,60,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184550897460298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622699635736645,0.0,0.20380091587495552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832709779024765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18774215961723992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489675548338606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.176166114580671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22186038819567253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17600727907176208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008338297661728,0.14955775226443374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15598507201123915,0.0,0.173609803626935,0.12247192007615187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195129230279135,0.17218017006013792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189356583991945,0.11756426709200606,0.0,0.14565976513502196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35845956046844274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717369898164673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6018079143107908,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wowsickusername,2019/10/30,"I look...massive on camera So my stepdad got an oculus from work (which is...undeniably badass) and I was playing with it and he filmed me because well someone playing around with virtual reality is straight comedy and now they’re playing it on the tv and I can’t even laugh at myself because I’m just watching my thighs rub together. I feel absolutely nauseous I can’t even watch it I look massive and jiggly, every time I jump I just shake like jello salad. It honestly just ruined my night I feel like I want to go upstairs and cry or purge or cry-purge (cruge?) 

I feel like I’ve let myself go I look absolutely disgusting",2.2939399624765464,4.782703772357729,4.025203252032522,83.05592870544092,80.3821138211382,6.711444652908067,26.53470919324578,7.882392219407189,1.8647741088180112,496,21,93,9,13,166,76,123,0.092,0.691,0.217,0.8935,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,9,12,1,1,2,0,5,2,1,0,0,18,15,9,0,1,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,3,5,0,4,2,3,1,0,2,8,18,9,8,12,0,12,0,1,4,0,1,5,0,2,6,54,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670568160271327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24200559393138185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180411981601503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262212674134864,0.0,0.16724348351267432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011003023806905,0.2836146277483353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256224576841287,0.0,0.15875732296838782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297808737242395,0.0,0.2909289104900733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.500066049539609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862773244121576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16818707063002447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574602740353745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707951348012825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847392201267828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445092168855601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lil-spooked,2019/10/30,"DAE put themselves in tempting situations without thinking? Y’all why the fuck did I put myself in this position??? I’m already having pasta for dinner with people tonight (400) and now I’m baking brownies too??? Completely illogical decision by yours truely! I feel like now I’m at my LW I just keep making fucking dumb decisions that put me around a lot of ‘bad’ food? DAE do this?? 

I think it’s just a round how all my previous relapses were so lonely, no people = no food. I’m clinging onto my social life but it all revolves around food!",1.5771703296703308,4.301067211538463,3.5321428571428584,82.97000000000003,88.42307692307693,6.048351648351648,24.736263736263727,7.447530270364453,1.7421532967032969,426,18,75,8,14,143,77,104,0.11800000000000001,0.865,0.018000000000000002,-0.8376,0,2,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,0,9,6,3,0,3,0,4,9,0,2,2,19,15,4,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,4,6,1,5,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,2,2,11,1,11,13,3,12,0,1,1,2,3,6,3,1,4,48,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684221774493226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717318839771861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743299895684074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002126824529714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717027138942235,0.10903319070239806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536534019488246,0.0,0.0,0.2821931681817144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565745039634508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078014355373584,0.07456340229496795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975377064019075,0.0,0.0,0.10187637331269613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21161776240875071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4602818078207099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155352797184992,0.0,0.15557891371987526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19558803609923847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771762046989025,0.0,0.0,0.14712216626851796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lhgr0,2019/10/30,"SHE'S BACK my painful, long winded, expensive period is back to ruin my next ten days. Finally decided to stop if ignoring it and invested in a heating pad, I've BP three times today and feel so sick. I haven't had a period in years, recovery sucks as fuuuuck.",2.338269230769228,4.534447057692312,5.485230769230771,74.25976923076921,78.42307692307693,11.083076923076923,27.707692307692305,10.793553405168565,4.005226153846152,205,9,39,9,5,75,44,52,0.314,0.6859999999999999,0.0,-0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,5,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,2,1,1,4,0,5,4,0,14,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,12,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954377026076287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077646168610452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289226147870098,0.0,0.0,0.35290725210165624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850988117628566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426176296421974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3427977671108756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26933768144184944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18785234035168827,0.0,0.3053671719396848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20745854890777404
EDAnonymous,-ToYeetOrNotToYeet-_,2019/10/30,I think most of my friends have eating disorders I’ve noticed it slowly progressing over the past few months. Only one of us is diagnosed as of yet but it struck me yesterday that we were all sitting around at school and only one of the seven of us were having lunch or had even eaten that day. God I want to confront them but it’s not safe for my family to know yet and I know id be outed. What do I do?,1.1692241379310353,2.902811252873562,3.2995258620689683,90.7761853448276,80.14942528735631,6.648850574712642,20.070402298850574,7.645422480735847,0.5793919540229884,317,8,71,5,8,108,63,87,0.087,0.841,0.071,-0.335,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,3,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,9,4,0,0,1,16,14,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,3,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,11,2,13,9,3,11,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,6,56,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885361205266986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658566594700985,0.0,0.0,0.21496024658610371,0.0,0.0,0.24272726624519955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167118806810116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988390154162306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199654770649516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163626795662529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23278616725669826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690470703423898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411219123759431,0.0,0.0,0.2870259058632091,0.3221484622548828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021755018583375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21434064784254175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13570512597882062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5095095011455828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491798262788716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NenPractitioner,2019/10/30,"PSA: pomelo and some other citruses potentially contraindicated for drugs/medicines. It’s similar to grapefruit. I, a sertraline wielder, bought some green tea with pomelo from the chinese store like a fool.",8.333636363636366,11.799584787878793,6.578787878787877,67.48818181818183,64.75757575757575,9.248484848484848,38.27272727272727,9.725611199111238,4.666927272727274,170,9,22,4,3,50,30,33,0.09,0.833,0.077,-0.1027,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeevodkaaddict,2019/10/30,you know you fucked up when BURPING makes you throw up ok body i know i trained you to do this on demand but this is NOT what i intended,0.3689999999999998,2.211936566666669,1.6833333333333336,100.80500000000002,83.33333333333334,5.333333333333334,20.0,6.42735559955562,-0.20399999999999974,107,3,27,1,3,34,22,30,0.134,0.812,0.054000000000000006,-0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,0,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,4,6,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,1,19,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5742003118228265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4778997934618424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.568189953862138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450593653878105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DancingChromosome,2019/10/30,"I’m starving myself for the first time and it’s scaring me... I’m not diagnosed with an ED but I have been trying to lose weight since I was 9/10. I’ve tried purging, laxatives, restriction (but always failing and binging). This is the first time I’ve successfully starved for a day and today I plan on eating 200 calories. Nothing more. I have never done this and I’m honestly scared if this is becoming something more serious. It’s honestly scaring me that I’m willingly starving and restricting to lose weight. I’m hungry but at the same I can’t seem to bring myself to eat when I think I shouldn’t. Watching mukbangs helps me with hunger, I drink lots of black coffee, and every time I think “I shouldn’t be doing this, please eat” I convince myself that binging and overeating everyday is way worse and I look at Thinspo to stop my doubts. Is this my new life now? :( This is making me super depressed.",3.3114204545454515,5.529970937500004,4.120454545454546,85.11318181818183,75.42045454545455,6.9,27.47727272727273,7.865858978985527,1.8210181818181816,719,29,134,11,16,230,101,176,0.281,0.593,0.126,-0.9851,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,8,2,14,0,4,5,0,16,9,0,1,1,28,27,13,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,10,10,7,3,3,1,0,1,5,9,0,2,3,5,21,5,14,20,4,19,0,4,3,0,1,4,0,4,13,88,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974468482081892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456643188188921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505940960449664,0.0,0.1135983606379499,0.1338675734109951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349712773904226,0.0,0.12920391896200475,0.0,0.40487523702871786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112467331611664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437448488672346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884044074366573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093159199034878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107560370951788,0.29510675590536123,0.0,0.1121298365308544,0.0,0.0,0.08803891424154547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172321827153402,0.12738208665403725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655390251723175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477777682336138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961406126193132,0.0,0.0,0.12006949612016532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091024006526112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153688228991802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026759278751452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690220978318555,0.0,0.0,0.2307218053470221,0.0,0.12501816599096988,0.0,0.0,0.1790919802483678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468970684927996,0.0,0.32121777550910235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440918544205122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatiguedlotus,2019/10/30,"“Just wait until you’re my age!” If I had a nickel for every time a middle-aged white woman has told me this, I would be rich. What’s with that?

The conversation would have nothing to do with or physical appearances, but out of no where, she’ll go, “Oh, I used to be skinny like you... Just what until you’re my age!”

First of all, it’s super awkward when someone directs the conversation to my physical appearance, as if there’s nothing else worth mentioning... Secondly, it makes me really uncomfortable when people use me to be self-deprecating. 

There are plenty of older women who are skinny legends, and telling me that I’m going to meet my doom in my 40s is kind of shitty.

Can anyone relate?",4.334444444444443,5.74472188888889,5.757962962962968,77.82583333333336,70.85185185185185,8.65925925925926,26.092592592592588,9.120678840339163,2.145681481481481,545,17,101,11,10,184,93,135,0.142,0.782,0.076,-0.8581,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,2,7,6,0,1,4,0,14,2,2,3,1,19,24,10,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,8,4,2,1,0,0,3,4,1,2,0,2,2,1,14,4,17,16,1,16,1,1,1,0,11,3,0,5,10,72,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007579114626094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19124476024550904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288654636355448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19473091884277705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602166358335315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383992567128218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184545949237584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281504644194974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4393361880297823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871382705770426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466608134288133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388278151817627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19397481154696308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20009817587758147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349310246505205,0.0,0.0,0.21875599543383545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954504868369806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32525591516913266,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,barbieprivilege,2019/10/30,Me: I’m doing great! My shopping cart: 10 cans of progresso light soups and a case of Coke Zero 🙃,0.6414285714285732,2.380827666666669,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,81.85714285714286,6.104761904761905,20.02380952380953,7.1686216300943375,0.3901238095238093,75,2,17,1,2,26,20,21,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.6588,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snakes_and-ladders,2019/10/30,"Anyone older here? Hi,

I’m new here. I’m in my late twenties and I’ve been dealing with this for over a decade now. Been all over the spectrum with this eating disorder and I’m fucking exhausted.
I feel too old for this. I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better though, I don’t even know how to be functional around food anymore. I feel really alone.

Anyone else older here? Please say hello :)",0.5335365853658516,2.8914016219512213,2.573853658536585,91.21443902439024,87.65853658536585,5.231219512195122,17.956097560975607,6.742157984588678,0.15311317073170685,311,8,64,4,10,104,55,82,0.096,0.799,0.105,0.196,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,0,2,0,5,4,0,1,2,13,16,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,3,5,1,10,13,1,12,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,1,7,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21285675939095264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038206352179205,0.28740875348410594,0.21057954798545495,0.0,0.18295639080316675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18176575650986013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118821165309717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355437486338452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21029828885202784,0.17168560517157355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574403507415286,0.1859046245655044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078341948550281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24851562428342375,0.0,0.0,0.18999994702194076,0.10737572805816786,0.0,0.11680176372267415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258968566405645,0.0,0.23183553467166945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849251624033998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156586890709302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255992657382064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13166138761740184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343776907781826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019223764201842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,muddy-palms,2019/10/30,Secret Gallery Folders 🤡🤡🤡 For the longest time I thought i couldn't save thinspo or any ~ED content~ or body checks to my phone because I was scared people would see the image headers in my phone when I opened my gallery but then I realized I can just set my phone's time and date like a year in the future and save an innocent image to put in the folder and that way it will always be the cover image :0) thank you cute puppy pictures for hiding my ugly bonie pix so I can have my thinspo with me at all times :0),5.326636085626909,4.633465532110094,5.893165137614679,85.16831039755353,67.99082568807339,8.000611620795109,30.093272171253822,6.42735559955562,1.4543932721712536,409,13,87,2,6,133,75,109,0.125,0.758,0.11699999999999999,0.0372,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,1,7,0,8,1,1,0,1,17,11,9,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,15,5,9,5,1,16,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,2,9,52,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380789689392822,0.0,0.0,0.1945748508270596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174419179407629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178204367374703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978625041761625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19836308844829625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28763471117805584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28646109759625843,0.0,0.22800462618606465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634255109415097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271513352702205,0.5005254661627895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271127527125947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325503160341807,0.0,0.0,0.18425515612797852
EDAnonymous,cutesatan666,2019/10/30,My mother: jeez I wonder what made you like this... ... while she pokes at my stomach and comments on the weight I gained,0.08021739130434824,2.3173403913043487,0.5046739130434794,101.68570652173914,101.6086956521739,2.3000000000000003,14.445652173913045,3.1291,-1.487078260869565,91,2,19,0,4,27,21,23,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,2,13,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25085385868333404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858545393766863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6252640252950434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5568326560310459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,katnixx369,2019/10/30,Lunch Don’t you love being asked to grab lunch from an old friend but then you freak out all morning about it and already start planning your calories for the next day to make up for anything you might eat and break down in your car and start debating purging so that you can still spend time with that friend. Yeah same I love it.,5.731363636363637,6.014520166666667,4.254090909090909,93.95113636363637,67.03030303030303,7.206060606060608,27.10606060606061,5.985473137389443,0.6789515151515153,265,7,58,1,4,75,52,66,0.048,0.73,0.222,0.9294,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,6,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,1,4,5,0,1,1,10,10,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,7,4,11,8,2,14,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,1,8,37,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703397922897237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159637661970828,0.0,0.22902176494290566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579908225493266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250674095613282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785394588603898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422052002668099,0.0,0.16352500613448984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598834035034521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260537342425704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25706365533977155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3467939911635726,0.0,0.19564009282793626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284889418793015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ashermono,2019/10/30,Food games Does anyone else play food mobile games like ‘Sandwich!’ or ‘Perfect Slice’ or is it just me,3.1515789473684217,5.842012842105267,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,78.47368421052632,3.8,20.026315789473685,3.1291,-0.502915789473684,80,2,15,0,2,23,16,19,0.0,0.7659999999999999,0.23399999999999999,0.636,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319203821690119,0.339848307706225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902579240376028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770784861743007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8021445117463281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16204350154134115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,athrowawayaccb,2019/10/30,"Body Dysmorphia or just a weird body? [Rant] I don't if this happens to anyone else but I feel like my body is a liar. I'll explain, everytime I weigh myself or check my BMI or anything it says a number that's small and should translate into me looking like what I want yet everytime I look in the mirror I still look huge.
I compare my numbers with other people's and everyone with even higher numbers than mine have tinnier bodies and I just don't know how to deal with this.
I'm about 1,67cm and weight about 42/43kg, with a BMI of 15.4ish (about 5""6/93lbs). Everything points to me being underweight but I look huge in every mirror and photo (not to mention my Jean size is 36 (USA size 16), despite my heavier friends wearing a 34/32(USA size 14ish))
Everyone I see that size or even bigger has a flat stomach, thigh gap and small frame and curves, yet my lower belly sticks out like noones business, my legs have never even come close to not touching and I have absolutely no curves (I literally look like the letter H).
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, or what's wrong with my body. I'm scared that the answer is losing more weight but my BMI is already at underweight and I'm terrified of what might happen to me if I keep down this road, but I think the only way to get that body (flat stomach, curve, tiny legs) is to lose maybe another 10kgs.
I just want to know how do I recover from this.

Thanks for listening/reading to my vent and if anyone is going through it has gone through a similar situation please comment below.",2.9931493664717337,5.032757523026318,3.745190058479533,88.2654044834308,75.74342105263158,6.608966861598443,25.07504873294347,7.526774132740827,1.2147849902534111,1213,42,242,16,27,385,160,304,0.126,0.7759999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.9187,1,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,2,14,13,1,1,11,0,19,15,12,2,1,51,45,24,0,6,17,0,4,4,1,2,0,1,0,0,15,19,3,1,7,0,1,3,7,7,0,0,1,11,32,6,32,41,1,24,0,2,6,0,7,15,0,9,9,147,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986027483407707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488884964256382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654835091795286,0.0927198431208566,0.074467282098165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6030978919255799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795092538648532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329337436997304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559453199470799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17930752189006766,0.0,0.07624349122930209,0.1729381455955011,0.08132845820838215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045755521194866415,0.0646475693075158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991396656255082,0.0,0.047278383659693064,0.0,0.051428741832771616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600437179385119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043353010291866,0.0,0.0,0.14919626319067664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768394627953268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799528354444129,0.20247501013184066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909114703644038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959978103070274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979308076829464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882331444269306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627358232566161,0.0,0.0,0.09933314382872424,0.0855442774973305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905165814275225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07196294442594586,0.09059837154823994,0.0,0.07211048205587986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171690398183582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722671023488269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331296122170401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05798367927229853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674916202013486,0.07182841134889215,0.0,0.22038998108057636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19787779597814287,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alissajay2,2019/10/30,"""Skinny"" But Only In Picures/On Camera? Does anyone else lookin the mirror and think they look like a sumo wrestler, but then see themselves in pictures or on video and have a moment of clarity like ""Oh I AM kinda skinny aren't I? I look a little sick don't I?"" and you spiral a little? Like you either get really excited and proud of yourself for finally ""looking sick"" and celebrate by eating some fear food and then freak out and restrict harder, OR more rarely, you get a little concerned about yourself and tell yourself you could afford to eat a fear food bc you don't look great and then freak out and restrict more to make up for it? Either way it ends in that good good restriction! Anyway I really only get these moments of ""clarity"" on camera",3.938908045977012,5.878257965517245,4.7473275862069,82.54834770114945,72.79310344827586,7.040229885057474,24.49712643678161,7.793537801064563,1.4325057471264369,595,18,106,8,12,192,83,145,0.214,0.612,0.174,-0.8507,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,5,1,1,2,12,0,2,7,0,6,8,2,1,0,26,16,17,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,12,6,3,1,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,11,8,17,15,5,19,0,0,5,0,7,11,0,4,10,68,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930030133114664,0.13628347965746213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619689531512053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163971071475524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722029071193944,0.11111198548823624,0.0,0.11780653017571252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299344297200831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457049017786405,0.0,0.0,0.32167011802049106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847520080437149,0.0,0.0,0.2231233441919358,0.0,0.14664293605159967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19494449504532985,0.3999300021214774,0.0,0.0,0.4467763773291882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878456696457802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023187369198652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1704179937005923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599098406090462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625576348230683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522682209751886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557638481047643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lynn825,2019/10/30,"Intake Appointment So I have an intake appointment on Saturday at a center that doesnt do IP or anything, but seems more involved than just your regular once a week therapist. It's with an eating disorder specialist that is a therapist and medical doctor and is an hour and a half long. I know every place does things differently, but can anyone give me an idea of what to expect, will I possibly get diagnosed and get a meal plan and stuff, is it a physical too, or just a super in depth first appointment? TIA",7.978979591836738,7.169020571428572,8.670326530612247,67.81038775510206,62.673469387755105,13.554285714285715,35.926530612244896,12.688352899677879,4.848140408163264,408,16,73,14,5,138,70,98,0.036000000000000004,0.852,0.11199999999999999,0.8537,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,11,0,8,5,0,0,0,16,13,10,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,6,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,7,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,3,5,54,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366590063046807,0.0,0.15731119776673852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19402683659348466,0.0,0.19972507577629708,0.21908982880551414,0.1956638498188588,0.167288387802597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956078918244021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106341723857392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626034983886841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19974998287643925,0.18338136130514132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18825745133288468,0.0,0.0,0.21580022073426985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10505841045694728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691736017665996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257702357038772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035827921234028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19972507577629708,0.0,0.0,0.2155080212802564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740279883317576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883636833000825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439109044881284,0.12700047495733674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333975622998802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,14inchgap,2019/10/30,"I don't understand how water weight works I don't think I understand how anything works frankly. I keep my calories at 600-700 a day, my weight goes down a tiny bit every day. I wake up this morning, +3lbs. And this is after bathroom funtime. I really don't get it. Did I eat 2000cal at some point yesterday and not notice? Why does this happen and how does it work? 

Similarly on my last binge cycle I ate roughly 3000-4000 (guessing here) a day for a month+ and didn't gain a pound. I'm 5'3"".

So 3000 calories is fine but not 700? Who the hell is behind all this? I feel like I'm taking crazy pills.",0.4038172043010775,2.7169489516129057,2.193677419354838,94.05884946236559,87.70967741935482,4.91956989247312,19.55698924731183,6.42735559955562,0.08831569892473158,466,14,101,5,15,153,79,124,0.10800000000000001,0.851,0.040999999999999995,-0.8657,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,4,5,3,1,0,6,0,8,7,1,3,1,18,20,9,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,4,5,1,4,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,4,12,2,8,17,3,13,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,2,8,55,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865466377090094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839497632203564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3259904480444425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948971909544449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240950966544502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419618837059587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519468185468887,0.1203708089429586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803018191700505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856130734720293,0.0,0.14899703114017707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976354390946206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734357156190574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231674221368218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344888079810068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19182940294594236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15927952114972233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794037081757007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266851101346813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796295134153183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508124920671141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103560364257679,0.0,0.0,0.15203793702512872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36799282479174783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,al_tf4,2019/10/30,"feeling invalid I feel invalid because there are days I'll be like, f\*ck it, I'm gonna eat everything I want, I won't care about the calories, I won't weigh myself, I just want to be free to eat whatever I want. It'll be like that for a few days and then.. I start restricting again, because the feeling of guilt, shame after each meal never left me. So, because of this, I tell myself that I can't really have an ed, because there are days I can eat ""normally"" (even though I always feel like I overeat). 

I don't really know how to explain. Does anybody already feels like this too?",3.937163865546221,4.593097369747902,4.886880252100841,86.52006827731094,71.10084033613445,7.966806722689077,29.160714285714285,8.07648339933343,1.8026042016806727,453,17,96,6,8,148,72,119,0.092,0.73,0.17800000000000002,0.6977,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,10,8,0,2,4,0,12,6,0,1,1,17,26,5,0,4,1,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,6,1,7,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,5,16,7,8,19,2,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,12,59,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206624633883618,0.0,0.12220123342460372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581036821770732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14973594551100985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841421828768028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852022515489447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4508305202094152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700119178631053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199040323349434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712900641246064,0.20983697291054368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071170237036966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956636427510348,0.0,0.0,0.2869980879527365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326929191147032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389391331308582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881675537956535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394992155004364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283641601106099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429150533489185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598696431163202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pulotpukyutan,2019/10/30,"Eating now seems easier now that i’m broke I hate that I have to worry about paying rent,electricity, water, internet and tuition fee but now I can freely restrict myself since there’s no food around to indulge to.",5.277235772357724,6.844376073170736,5.857073170731707,77.41211382113823,68.7560975609756,8.393495934959349,25.861788617886177,8.841846274778883,2.0149447154471547,173,5,30,3,3,56,33,41,0.26899999999999996,0.607,0.125,-0.6858,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,5,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,20,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34085944445613264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917991472913161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4630004847606046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780314446417944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34857498231418377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31673629528567543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.388850416270459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ez-el,2019/10/30,"What’s the food that you absolutely know you’ll eat all of if you make/buy it? TW just in case

For me, it’s dump cake. It’s so easy to make and tastes good warm out of the oven or cold from being stored in the fridge. It’s not something you can cut easy pieces with, so I’ll just dig into the dish it’s in with a fork. I will go back to the fridge over and over for more, and can easily take it down in a day or two. 

I literally cannot allow myself to make it bc I know I will have no control.",-0.07131578947368311,1.1517462543859658,2.105122807017544,100.27452631578949,82.0701754385965,5.612631578947369,14.908771929824562,6.2581,-1.0164638596491224,379,4,105,3,10,128,68,114,0.075,0.7929999999999999,0.132,0.8116,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,0,1,5,4,2,0,7,0,8,4,0,4,1,20,14,8,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,9,7,4,1,2,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,3,10,2,19,10,3,12,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,3,2,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21219618470371399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095125742835709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779713525325227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28237594514221903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3336918938937135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568344117563191,0.2314621319303369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033207675951124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526162731172185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244746885848312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074875555248822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695727943816784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Vedofox,2019/10/30,"mad envious of other countries food options maybe envious is the wrong word, but DAE feel like ""damn if only I had these options, I could be the sKiNnY LeGeNd I dream of being""? might just be from browsing r/EDfood but holy hecc sometimes I get so mad jelly of the wonderful lowcal options out there. I'm currently in Buttfuck Nowhere, Europe and tbh even fresh fruit and veg can be a lil questionable qualitywise. obviously it's all about the Self Control and Willpower and whatnot but one day I dream of trying all these lowcal skinny syrups and stuff without getting boned by fifty dollars shipping.",4.879636363636365,7.487694054545457,5.112727272727274,77.99909090909094,72.0909090909091,7.309090909090909,31.0,8.238735603445708,2.676472727272728,486,22,77,8,10,153,82,110,0.145,0.723,0.132,0.09,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,5,0,5,0,9,5,3,1,3,25,14,10,0,2,6,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,6,4,1,3,2,1,0,1,6,0,1,1,2,5,1,10,7,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,7,3,50,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653043684684777,0.18886124922974346,0.0,0.0,0.15255140247020338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623517457137384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960382530745575,0.16898718196385154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860301148586361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24716910188697536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556351923934377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23764038384788494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509359533893405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028843210275273,0.17990247871130144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649835741695256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467671279631112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339482043788381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27078644934750284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605979449251325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280201113254889,0.2565220311782027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258623885427946,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wildstylemeth0d,2019/10/30,"The most triggering thing to me is friends losing weight and becoming smaller than me. Ok so I have two friends in particular. The first friend was very overweight. She made a few lifestyle changes, and dropped like 60 pounds. She’s now smaller than me. I spent an entire day with her and I’m pretty sure that she’s adapted ED behaviors. She only ate like one small meal all day meanwhile I was absolutely starving and I wound up eating more than her.

I have a second friend who is also obsessed with losing weight. She constantly is talking about insulin fiber, different workouts, etc, and it’s really hard to Hang out with her. I find it super triggering and I’m constantly comparing myself to her when I’m with her.",3.749004524886878,6.27389847058824,4.194411764705883,83.62389140271495,75.32352941176471,7.419909502262444,28.84389140271493,8.384062270229773,2.3228457013574646,576,25,104,11,13,181,86,136,0.09699999999999999,0.708,0.195,0.9405,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,5,12,0,1,5,1,7,8,0,3,2,18,13,9,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,5,11,6,0,1,1,1,1,0,3,0,4,5,3,20,9,14,8,5,13,0,2,0,0,16,4,0,1,9,70,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126529696186936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747286941371764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16041348372750944,0.0,0.0,0.3277348128884605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955886453540226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15843001445736593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15516409749382476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911707170987175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385948913217665,0.12898367668860733,0.0,0.0,0.4686222830976962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583835966379182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481658759891219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392895088899047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434840663960268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275420872325673,0.1153279535199524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427092460669614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714354071046832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291754271027532,0.0,0.0,0.12188132585301042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007419173850732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812883345305772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511768804126527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693098145612838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deudeo,2019/10/30,"Fought the ED thoughts and won! Last night once it got to dinnertime I ended up freaking out. I had the conflict of ""no I won't eat I'll gain weight"" and ""I gotta eat to think and study"". I called a hotline and talked myself through all of that, and I convinced myself of the truth that eating dinner wouldn't make me gain weight, and eating dinner would still be at a deficit. There was nothing to worry about, and my thoughts weren't aligned with reality. Doing well in school is more important than this nonsense something in my mind tells me. I ate dinner and then studied. I won.",2.201666666666668,4.631231652173913,2.512717391304349,94.1166123188406,80.30434782608695,4.876811594202898,23.49637681159421,5.985473137389443,0.3637681159420292,460,16,94,3,12,140,76,115,0.166,0.6829999999999999,0.151,-0.2132,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,1,0,5,0,9,10,0,1,2,20,19,9,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,10,10,1,3,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,10,2,14,5,15,4,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,62,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631814355523422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6540923168806706,0.0,0.0,0.14154210747004586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781274299479392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302645299350304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667281941194627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613601282720201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996861464834468,0.0,0.15333971012022254,0.0,0.0,0.17018988719608055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16173383123765714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12302770429957464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762256235481753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284473020810377,0.13967889338801145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239826259770858,0.0,0.2537387804841038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3892052287784787,0.14368623191020666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229238339130705,0.0,0.11352273977380968,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wallflowerbitca,2019/10/30,"I’m deeply jealous of the people who eat whatever and effortlessly stay thin. And I’m ashamed. I know a few girls who are always drinking regular coke, down a few thousand calories of booze every weekend, eat McDonald’s some days and salads others because they just eat what they crave when they crave it. They don’t think about it. They don’t know nor care the calorie count of their food. They don’t do a lot of formal exercise. They’re never dieting or even watching what they eat. They just eat. No thoughts, no second guessing, no obsessing. And they’re thin. One is literally underweight (from looking, I don’t think she’s stepped on a scale in years so she doesn’t know her weight), the others are all slim end of healthy. 

What is the secret?! What is the magic?! Why did I have to be so god damn fucked in the head?! 

I hate that I’m jealous of the body of girls who don’t give a shit about their weight. I feel like I should be striving after fitness models. Instead I strive after normal, happy, regular, unregimented, unapologetically beautiful girls because I think at the end of the day, I’m striving not for their bodies, but their beautiful freedom in life.",3.8962526315789496,5.925700697777778,4.447087719298249,84.27126315789475,73.13333333333333,7.225730994152047,27.39766081871345,8.032893268588372,1.754155555555556,927,35,177,14,19,294,125,225,0.113,0.7859999999999999,0.10099999999999999,0.7398,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,12,0,9,11,6,2,14,0,17,20,4,0,2,25,35,10,0,2,5,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,12,4,13,0,9,3,0,1,12,8,0,3,2,7,23,3,21,30,5,21,0,0,2,1,23,9,3,4,11,114,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898089234211796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450289044535471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642665210874573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128353443760315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343351303970645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653155880704548,0.0,0.6086082485264119,0.0,0.0,0.2107193541875463,0.0,0.0,0.07856929306021918,0.0,0.10022553114088477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060147710190650926,0.08498216524904853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384202520354836,0.0,0.0,0.10997287292099557,0.0,0.11411340112647557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104340679191315,0.0,0.0,0.1266308368456275,0.0,0.11744438802480828,0.12208313900815665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19612526238533426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402211610889743,0.05811587585891757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989305087400327,0.0,0.0,0.10113210763802136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174617370187592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655158907308542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060764056874366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246908826019897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210658875079622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679123122133193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22866653764939465,0.0,0.09443774879369582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28971263718103624,0.0,0.0,0.10733925610250493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07660374141167754
EDAnonymous,Spectrachic311311,2019/10/30,Work ethic? DAE have a work ethic that’s in the toilet now that they suffer with ED? I swear I used to not mind working but now all I ever can focus on is eating and working out. Does it come back with recovery?,0.2353333333333332,2.340510755555556,2.6044444444444466,92.42000000000004,85.8888888888889,4.488888888888889,15.666666666666668,5.6839178017228535,-0.618866666666666,164,3,35,1,5,56,37,45,0.09300000000000001,0.907,0.0,-0.4386,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,11,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,6,5,1,8,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,26,7,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398423584899328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285155560582167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321486464209615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714480539430954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399612894274928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678575587759972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22911707217156504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7725090984333558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,y2kcherub,2019/10/30,"help with recovery i’m recovering from bulimia and i’m trying to find some sort of...middle ground?
like i’m counting calories to lose weight (healthily) but i’ve been doing that for one day then binging the next and it’s an entir cycle that’s hurting.
can anyone help with how to not overeat during recovery? i still want to reach my goals (as in, skinny and healthy, not sickly)",1.9030030030030043,4.596891702702706,3.084234234234234,87.59484984984988,84.67567567567569,5.451051051051049,23.087087087087088,6.937597516519254,0.9990798798798792,302,11,56,4,9,97,57,74,0.07,0.753,0.177,0.7399,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,13,7,7,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,2,1,10,6,1,6,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,31,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21382589194965268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19721885778889375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795001326624045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099491482301528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273704634467709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940082422972067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34211745411858857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252269736649348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072213102219892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24421618308362425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076214492198111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803716493993059,0.0,0.0,0.3723879761331278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffee_gang,2019/10/30,oh frick my mom made food for 6 and i ate half of it by myself 🤡🤡,-5.6083333333333325,-4.725756277777778,-0.7944444444444443,111.445,111.77777777777777,2.4000000000000004,6.0,3.1291,-2.9601333333333333,49,0,17,0,3,19,17,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6261696077465989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.489989148230303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6064835174602955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sjlksheets,2019/10/30,bathroom trouble :/ do y’all ever get constipation that is so painful you just wanna curl up and cry ?? or is it just me ??,0.625,3.0402148333333368,2.7716666666666683,89.44000000000004,88.16666666666666,4.866666666666667,24.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.8417666666666674,92,4,19,1,3,31,22,24,0.37,0.63,0.0,-0.917,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5931061211676695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4884127234019751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820998772393683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5745413822467803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Plz_Can_You_Not,2019/10/30,"What is going to happen if I continue to eat 300 calories a day? I used to binge eat but recently someone made me feel extremely body conscious so I have stopped eating and have lost 7lbs in the past two weeks. I weigh 137lbs now, I don’t feel hungry anymore and I get full after about three bites of food when I force myself to eat.

If I don’t stop this somehow then what will eventually happen?",2.7710357142857163,4.688724175000001,3.7646428571428596,88.42750000000004,76.0,6.571428571428572,23.92857142857143,7.447530270364453,1.008607142857143,314,10,64,4,7,101,60,80,0.11900000000000001,0.8809999999999999,0.0,-0.835,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,2,0,6,7,1,2,0,13,15,8,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,6,2,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,2,2,10,0,8,12,1,14,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,11,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662414236674167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866250071378656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835474107121801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6876785951274783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699052425932021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20316246545246816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778006495548217,0.0,0.09548588486344893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971473825645302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340646899337745,0.0,0.0,0.1589783377664483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160387797671995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16589295934352494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235720527592646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28093344453230285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16412467467051292,0.0,0.0,0.1451096296528364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477021192489722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maxthebigseal,2019/10/30,DAE feel like they have “delayed dysmorphia” Sometimes I’ll look in the mirror and feel really good about myself and the weight I’ve lost. Then  about five seconds later I start to see all the fat I haven’t lost and feel like trash.,5.179057971014494,5.916817630434785,4.7552173913043525,88.2803623188406,68.34782608695652,7.872463768115942,24.02898550724637,7.793537801064563,0.9565594202898556,185,4,38,2,3,56,33,46,0.131,0.7040000000000001,0.165,0.4005,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,2,2,5,0,0,3,0,2,2,1,0,1,8,10,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,6,4,3,4,8,1,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,6,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855419939781661,0.3631525715481341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21318243432656026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483453993445329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134354790700572,0.0,0.5549045627626842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282528787704378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20253744475373409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513767347378372,0.0,0.17990004716289126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095057912856098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,k2s6,2019/10/30,avoiding someone I know who was recently diagnosed with Graves' disease (disease related to hyperthyroidism) because I'm an asshole and don't want to be triggered by her entirely unintentional weight loss :),19.47636363636364,13.770930575757575,16.94666666666667,32.34,46.27272727272727,20.472727272727283,72.39393939393939,17.122413403193686,11.288357575757574,171,13,20,6,1,55,30,33,0.22399999999999998,0.695,0.08,-0.5245,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,6,6,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26662151966500963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439293807818718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403714657153073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43185792908428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705888911980936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25797682854027515,0.0,0.0,0.5326084747203386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sataninchen99,2019/10/30,"Welp guess I’m back again... Well I was at a friends party three days ago and we were sitting around and discussing what animal we would be if we were one...
I got compared to a pug... cause I’m fat and have roles and get out of breath when I walk stairs (which actually isn’t true? At least I thought so but I guess body dismorphia works the other way round now??) and everyone was like yeah that seems about right...
One friend that was discussing with us was my best friend and she knows about my ed and has one herself and even she said it! 
Technically they all know about my struggles but they never really registered it cause my two best friends also have an ED and they were worse then me and also were hospitalised... I “recovered” by my self so it never really went public I guess but they know since it was obvious and i had talks with them about it?? 
So I’ve been realapsing on and of for month now goes I’ll just go into a full blown relapse now since I’m just a fat disgusting out of shape pug...


Yaaay",0.7327828054298635,3.1982793823529434,1.7572549019607848,96.43880090497738,88.50980392156862,5.687481146304675,17.650075414781302,7.1686216300943375,0.120357315233786,790,20,176,13,26,247,121,204,0.054000000000000006,0.7709999999999999,0.175,0.9799,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,4,0,5,3,20,11,1,1,6,1,17,4,4,2,5,43,33,23,0,2,6,0,1,1,4,1,2,1,0,1,10,21,2,0,5,0,0,3,3,2,1,5,15,2,26,9,19,16,5,28,0,0,1,0,23,11,0,5,13,122,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.11994631496448492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895582800885573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658853250012107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094195024250946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945132644117018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25798127987536024,0.0,0.0,0.13652972398964391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525330335361431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07926934936695923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118352526405054,0.0,0.0,0.11744957627052105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37985214747794005,0.0,0.06421748201896445,0.0,0.06985484799302925,0.0,0.0983055390635176,0.0,0.40621082276346704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026509285450087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0600495625233477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810876701828013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959767920776646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498690838253745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748368732516846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049678682389042,0.11691934301123505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11189627203526914,0.12822608879397027,0.0,0.0,0.2033514305899579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284963804955754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879360208117297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975799713406722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006909940049905,0.0,0.14785038522184146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975633969944862,0.0,0.0,0.11051443035311287,0.11394249186971145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08948284211374939,0.0,0.12525984754038452,0.08731456557415686,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,atruelegendtbh,2019/10/30,Crying in my bed because I can’t stop thinking about numbers and failures Earlier this year I lost 20 pounds and was working out a lot. I have since gained it all back. For the last month I have been eating 500-1000 calories every day and not working out because I’m busy in college. I have literally lost 2 pounds in a month. 2 POUNDS. How could I possibly be maintaining even though I’m restricting? I started to think I’d never lose weight so I started to have a panic attack. I started thinking I needed to exercise more but I have no time. I’m not losing yet I am so damn hungry. Starving. Yet I’m maintaining. I just want to eat something so bad but I can’t let myself. If I start I won’t stop. I feel sick to my stomach I’m so hungry. But I’m not even losing. All this pain and heartache for nothing. All I think about all day is my next meal but no matter how little I eat I feel guilty. This is so awful. I realize that this kind of thinking is bad but that only upsets me further. I’m so deep in this cycle of guilt and regret I don’t know how to stop.,-0.17602298850574627,2.075841377777781,2.120306513409961,93.68,90.77777777777777,4.525670498084291,20.203065134099614,6.129581340695534,0.12281915708812274,830,28,179,8,29,280,115,225,0.31,0.642,0.048,-0.9966,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,8,18,15,2,3,4,1,18,9,1,3,5,44,41,21,0,5,10,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,8,7,5,4,9,1,0,0,10,14,0,0,4,3,27,1,18,33,6,28,0,6,0,0,0,9,1,2,19,114,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123361917279908,0.0,0.08338080216976114,0.18107952062208604,0.13220349364730175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657754211661027,0.0,0.1191121564073794,0.13986485344323313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328721416779167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324227401561435,0.0,0.0913622385786238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096572776585569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11291969387906893,0.05959374093398932,0.0883900369923905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108834380584208,0.0,0.0,0.1086816348683415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639373646907137,0.2367420073427089,0.09218864336070212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310560046336898,0.0,0.0,0.08040412398563312,0.08363274023107015,0.0,0.11532320873727815,0.0,0.0,0.10404753048806786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247067352902653,0.11538384201795165,0.127226604913421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222456073103758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969960730115199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347954227871482,0.0,0.0,0.3070070144988539,0.0,0.0,0.271972744282048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474079330529257,0.10653808971150687,0.0,0.063230064024399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06395852453306528,0.0,0.0,0.13204617015284018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788579946564055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982940593281553
EDAnonymous,thriwawayendos209,2019/10/30,Eat at BMR today Half of me feels proud. The other half is disgusted that I ate so much. Thank god I'm walking for like 2 hours tonight lmao! The more I think about the calories the grosser I feel :(,1.3862195121951224,3.397926097560976,2.222134146341464,97.38734756097564,80.70731707317074,5.0756097560975615,22.445121951219512,5.985473137389443,0.10099512195121996,154,5,35,1,4,48,34,41,0.147,0.563,0.29,0.8092,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,2,4,3,4,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4186034748791254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4136986403452664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028734350379744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19986179647654767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007298552088316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766371563528802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621297785572732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877715942142688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mashedupcrayons,2019/10/30,"Joker is just...great Legit didn't know Joaquin didn't normally look like that. When I saw him on Jimmy Kimmel I didn't believe it was him.

I also hated myself during the movie that I couldn't get into a fridge like a grown man can. 

Why am I jealous of this guy.",0.4786309523809536,2.553584839285712,2.5892857142857157,93.12238095238096,84.53571428571429,4.447619047619049,16.476190476190478,5.46131890053228,-0.611788095238095,205,4,44,1,6,69,43,56,0.22,0.7509999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.8726,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,13,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,2,8,2,3,7,0,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,3,28,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26526328423368145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37371641780719506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330146340613645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657044384827639,0.0,0.3284387578931317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32748867559309786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18229564792076916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241072908813579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785475192290243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32499914372880084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299310945472612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Somethingwitty814,2019/10/23,"Every day I wake up a failure I binge at night.  Before I even fall asleep, I get out of bed to eat.  I wake up during the night and go get more to eat.  I fall asleep with a plate of food on my bed.  The other day I changed my sheets and goldfish crackers fell out.  

I.can’t.stop.  Every day starts the same way, surveying the damage, feeling like a failure.

I hit a new low on Sunday.  In the afternoon I had the strength to squirt some dish soap in a bag of peanut butter M&Ms.  In the middle of the night I woke up, dug them out of the garbage, rinsed them off, and ate about half.  They were gross.  The shame the next morning was so bad I couldn’t even go to work.

Anyone else constantly fail?  Anyone else disgusted by their actions?

Sigh.",1.5863982102908238,3.75346258389262,2.30144966442953,96.25468008948549,80.87919463087249,5.047158836689039,20.671588366890386,6.079149491110277,-0.04522049217002255,571,16,125,4,15,177,91,149,0.19,0.757,0.053,-0.9737,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,4,3,4,10,1,1,16,0,4,9,4,0,0,11,13,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,5,0,1,0,0,6,1,7,1,1,5,2,17,2,25,6,3,34,0,3,0,0,4,15,0,1,13,73,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641951493904576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119226773444725,0.310544345376275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653082064520416,0.0,0.0,0.1289506529414901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603108108282387,0.0,0.0,0.1637625228563631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931951878069252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31012956894472304,0.2531869518127113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018345995190653,0.0,0.2553604954027304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07662393452439868,0.10826127620061696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183244580485572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15834835575498454,0.0,0.17224905077941166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07403552109509808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635972274525832,0.16116610195163314,0.4266342895259546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726185201651156,0.0,0.0,0.12669547761452193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028658715850422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032401513976077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SkyeTheFae,2019/10/23,"My brain constantly works to invalidate me No matter what it is I do, my brain pings back at me like it's not enough or I'm not disordered enough to claim I still have an ED. I've flipped between so many variations of disordered eating and I'm tired of being stupid. Why can't I stick with what I used to do? Why do I struggle with binging so much now, when years ago I didn't have a problem fasting. I'm so frustrated with myself.",1.9070604395604391,3.631404252747252,3.498997252747256,90.23662774725277,77.90109890109889,7.187362637362638,24.561813186813183,8.07648339933343,1.2820648351648347,341,12,76,6,8,113,60,91,0.168,0.7659999999999999,0.065,-0.8836,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,2,1,2,0,9,4,2,1,0,10,13,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,11,1,10,11,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,9,51,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165112276824202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432259344202821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4158656577399708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012857968708613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269506018273264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905951261907716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38492212451011215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099944602982912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884300895465986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369258693311387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823000993135096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487511028584282,0.0,0.0,0.19472414036970115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140836889824416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087275870525844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3361495528792958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356028040730496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994825732640645
EDAnonymous,brixghtside,2019/10/23,"Drunk, traumatised and ready to ruin my good streak Title says all, feeling shit, feeling bingey someone please chat",6.870000000000001,10.484000473684217,4.262368421052631,81.4240789473684,70.57894736842105,5.905263157894738,30.552631578947373,7.1686216300943375,2.2249789473684216,95,4,13,1,2,26,18,19,0.389,0.295,0.316,-0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378164141791045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363130750037489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4752397055539239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34429242045081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44440818000438015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3668298882082787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Starkambience,2019/10/23,"Dirt cookies ??? Umm so I just started watching a video about dirt cookies , then I look it up and I see people talking about how Haitians would  eat it to stay full and it’s 0 calories . I saw a comment that jokingly said “ 0 calories and makes you full ? America should take notes “ and it had me thinking 🤡. Does anyone have experience with eating DIRT? The video talked about how pregnant women would also eat it .",1.9742307692307683,4.754568730769236,2.580205128205129,90.45646153846157,86.05128205128204,4.6584615384615375,25.748717948717946,6.2581,0.9859548717948724,323,14,60,3,10,100,55,78,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.8357,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,8,1,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,3,0,13,13,9,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,6,5,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,6,1,6,7,2,6,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,0,2,38,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799052773101567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14688375144614998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383107327990295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.644853043927908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054858637187654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640339818844594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14022137350114547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456340284666186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982185008079165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739622517602154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868652480864794,0.2239035033192754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15794426314653334,0.3376878425002535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13460247047687646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29845118151839195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misssnowvisit,2019/10/23,"Loosening and gaining Anyone else that hasn’t really managed to loose weight? Like I loose 2kg but then immediately gain them back on, then loose and gain over and over again. I feel really pathetic. I want to fear food and not eat but I do anyway... 
I’ll be trying high restriction, let’s see how this goes.",1.6899297423887596,4.226947360655739,3.283981264637003,87.03918032786886,83.59016393442623,7.420140515222482,18.550351288056206,8.418075326091056,1.0807170960187356,243,6,50,6,7,80,46,61,0.254,0.552,0.193,-0.684,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,11,7,9,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,1,5,5,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,5,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18803425509273267,0.2755390569229764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067819330449111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751710350655981,0.22464712356345906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30260837760122433,0.13597340908590047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251776414222764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28412744280657537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749876598416948,0.0,0.1313801263173987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34455249737524474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21429344087693905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825781910196036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861525667168447,0.0,0.0,0.3274706119975885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BlackSkyx,2019/10/23,"Hate it when... Hate it when I already weighted myself this morning,  ate breakfast then boom all sudden a bowel movement happens. Now I'm stuck wondering what I really weight on the scale all day.",4.98,7.212943666666671,5.151111111111113,79.50500000000002,70.66666666666666,7.022222222222222,31.44444444444445,7.793537801064563,2.4575111111111103,156,7,25,2,3,49,30,36,0.245,0.755,0.0,-0.8555,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,2,3,7,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,5,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29670891399462784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734013516200759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23776420513612376,0.0,0.0,0.5309144063832841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17224743522166466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6548316840742323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915821566131833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,accidental-,2019/10/23,"Shaved my head and now my swollen face is even more visible, found out my ex might've been cheating, and I've been binging for weeks.... but at least I've got my 100 cal mocha!!! I'm living the lyfe.",2.6157142857142865,3.365279619047623,3.074761904761907,97.95357142857144,74.23809523809524,6.552380952380951,23.523809523809533,6.42735559955562,0.203180952380952,152,4,38,1,3,47,33,42,0.079,0.9209999999999999,0.0,-0.4898,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,4,0,3,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723836594902144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521709129356642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298307432596351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42323725809276735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641532112650512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4374869709677913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307991847924321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Iminalotofpain48383,2019/10/23,"Restricting destroys my body now In my early 20s. That's it. And I restricted 800 calories a day plus exercise for 2 weeks. Come out of it with a ton of bruises,  anemia, mouth ulcers, hair falling out, tired, digestive issues, etc etc sjejdkofel why am i so weak now? I used to be able to restrict so well and now I can barely maintain a BMI below 21. I wanna fucking cry because I feel like a failure having to eat at maintenance and look this way. I just want to be skinny and my body wont let me. I'm afraid I'm going to trigger lupus or something too because my mom had it and I have a bunch of the symptoms and my ED makes them worse. I only feel healthy when I'm maintaining. Overeat or undereat a severe amount and I'm down. BMI too low (but not underweight!!!) and I'm down. And people all strive to be a BMI of 19 and lower, even without a disorder, and my body won't let me! I'm not allowed to be beautiful, fuck",1.4186458333333327,3.2910844062500004,3.565833333333334,88.49583333333338,79.9375,6.558333333333334,25.25,7.594959193182576,1.3367999999999998,714,28,151,11,18,244,119,192,0.204,0.72,0.076,-0.9766,2,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,0,11,8,3,1,9,0,13,16,6,4,1,35,29,18,0,2,7,1,3,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,5,16,4,3,2,1,0,3,5,6,1,0,1,4,18,2,23,20,6,19,0,1,1,2,2,8,2,2,8,100,23,0,0.1438555868535947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538606105333582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4793733812211514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239188502301984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15801860722071392,0.09277495264479876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16487096559778378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720017893785636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208740116975855,0.09501525838244723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454754141798641,0.10277045999191343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659843439762085,0.0,0.0,0.08175644516219785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014785782033224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942041681440071,0.0,0.07028057331030131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080246200165942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602472128171337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848192467855871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940865618317024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099731350816685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16251586627971973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074705890798542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952103606132472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653408350764933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424503889956877,0.0,0.0,0.08484975229598561,0.11418586891797992,0.1153922745387193,0.0,0.12934344894283395,0.0,0.12980729183018475,0.0,0.0,0.13867165222827713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660113293042495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CaringDoormat,2019/10/23,"Going to the doctor in 2 weeks and I don't know how to talk to her I have an evaluation for my anxiety medication in two weeks at the doctor and I'm scared. 

The medication is great and my social anxiety is as good as gone but I feel like I should tell her about my eating habits. She already knows about my ARFID type behavior although I stopped going to the nutritionist because my insurance didn't cover it. 

But now everything seems to be about what I eat or don't eat and how fast I can lose weight (spoiler: not very fast because I can't control myself sometimes).   
But I am so scared of telling her. I know I need help with this but at the same time I don't want to stop until I am least a normal BMI again because I'm borderline obese. And at the same time I know this is not healthy or good for me. I just want to lose this weight without obsessing but I also kind of like the control it gives me. And I don't want her to think I'm faking because I am so heavy.

This constant back and forth between wanting to tell her and not wanting to is exhausting and I don't know what to do. So does anyone have any tips/support on how to talk to her/what to say?",2.9330646630236816,3.969578053278688,4.2532240437158455,88.71299635701277,73.79508196721312,7.38943533697632,26.260473588342442,7.793537801064563,1.2704233151183972,911,31,203,12,18,301,116,244,0.13,0.775,0.095,-0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,14,13,0,3,9,0,20,11,0,5,0,47,41,27,0,8,12,0,3,2,0,1,6,1,0,0,8,10,6,4,8,0,0,3,11,7,0,1,2,4,33,6,33,37,3,22,0,2,0,0,15,6,0,3,15,138,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859414388975584,0.07869573243434635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691987098223227,0.0,0.15056157836884607,0.0,0.0,0.06880819150272317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566861070734462,0.0,0.23995103032425635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634258848432407,0.2207427671255552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20144667540477046,0.08611628971794108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020835953660447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844151798788376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049757340049804366,0.07030170360704491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440058958341414,0.11185349128943683,0.16507759532984814,0.0,0.10849363764771723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659598780124355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247534366401828,0.27040850327557514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615300028009542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22018365582180088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19826861831409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296725623659676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641758651281107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825688798379814,0.19704437249815734,0.0,0.0,0.0895856840935821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003131487703966,0.0,0.0,0.09732665597772762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454466875309856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167065765333524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819101504510152,0.25803515022237283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305498378224679,0.0,0.0,0.1147633741858598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961289613375469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08119576125720017,0.2902138482941949,0.0,0.1578716974469535,0.2396654861714597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486046276740068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemmeaskaquestionn,2019/10/23,"Am I possibly gaining muscle???? Hi, I’ve never posted on reddit before so please excuse anything I do wrong. 

So, I’ve been losing since May kind of consistently but I seem to be stuck at this current weight/ fluctuating midly around it, which as you would expect is causing a lot of emotional turmoil 😁😁😁!! Since getting back to uni I’ve been restricting hard, also have purged if I’ve binged, as well I run cross country with the university so have been running and exercising a lot more than I was in the summer. So I’m majorly confused at how I’m exercising more and eating less but remaining the same weight. Also my bmi is just above underweight (so I’m normal) but my body fat is quite below average and I don’t have a period anymore. Do I just have a lot of muscle? Am I gaining muscle from running and core workouts? How can I be gaining any muscle weight if I’m in a cal deficit? Or am I probably just eating more cals than I realise causing me to maintain?

This is all so confusing and is causing me to get so upset. Thanks for reading I’m sorry if this is wrong in any way.",2.454863013698628,4.479592602739729,4.5215958904109605,82.14814726027399,77.31050228310501,7.1197260273972605,26.931735159817357,8.07648339933343,1.9052463926940644,856,35,164,15,20,294,120,219,0.161,0.745,0.09300000000000001,-0.9485,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,5,17,10,0,4,8,0,25,9,2,5,2,36,35,25,0,6,10,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,7,6,1,1,4,0,4,2,7,1,0,5,4,16,3,22,26,10,20,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,11,5,114,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19243913259692555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364295149120958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932474416678852,0.0,0.0,0.09901280529898902,0.10710998178827866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251837017645252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238314493445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336479871136357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37080421712087225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24623404287943554,0.0,0.1353433915023489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12572408349689038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778275715314063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529438152016434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13460689171969106,0.0,0.3068743455530191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279791772470312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788769315473308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207482470872,0.0,0.13564230680534606,0.11523294810764585,0.0,0.12972491356058696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797473914585275,0.12035219227417215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953447414987724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990592859990514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468797739231655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077415176040203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955041235216345,0.0,0.4395506927017959,0.10818179904050754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547161448574207,0.263101259159017,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ughleesha,2019/10/23,"Starting Treatment at higher BMI So I am starting at a PHP program on thursday. I have gone to treatment before, but this time I am at a higher weight and am feeling like I don't really need treatment, especially since my ed has only gotten worse within the last few weeks. I know that I need to get better so that I can go on my study abroad next semester, but I feel like shit for going to PHP for AN with only a 17.9 bmi. Ugh. Struggling to feel like im valid and that recovery is necessary. I am also reallyyy not ready to gain",4.374705111402356,4.793571293577983,5.7470773263433825,81.5933027522936,70.00917431192661,8.43040629095675,28.415465268676282,8.418075326091056,1.9395520314547845,417,14,84,6,7,141,70,109,0.187,0.688,0.126,-0.8566,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,3,7,1,1,5,0,9,2,1,0,0,12,22,7,0,2,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,4,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,2,4,11,4,14,20,1,16,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,10,52,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14778777320556144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572546789154085,0.0,0.0,0.1634442098350442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803275193884495,0.3960722611220533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096552515528291,0.0,0.2100568593948158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996201421682964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156350114229153,0.15064000820132584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27085784753863684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740597992431868,0.0,0.0,0.19654125850724985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811036935724091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839023960348866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896987544884504,0.15287186247771936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616105884532743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931973721651738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776075774270613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14823870301564449,0.2250416091181178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883311676895513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,misscrybaby,2019/10/23,I’m dumb This is a stupid question but how do I put my info next to my name? Like [5’2] [F22] ect?,-4.015434782608693,-2.7955735217391275,-0.5214130434782618,109.04222826086956,110.30434782608695,2.3000000000000003,10.097826086956523,3.1291,-2.335339130434784,71,1,21,0,4,25,21,23,0.18899999999999997,0.6809999999999999,0.13,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25623745968188183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5577970133805397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5272534851489841,0.5875445672608811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ainotna_,2019/10/23,"languo...? hi. im trying desperately to recover so i've stopped counting cals but im like 99% sure i've upped my calorie intake (is it normal compared to an 'average' person? probs no but it's def way more than i had been eating). HOWEVER, my languo just wont go away. i have fine blonde hair all over my face. it's not SUPER noticeable but like if im standing in harsh fluorescent lighting and/or if someone got close to my face they'd notice. when does it go away? ive been in and out of recovery for a few years and tbh i just accepted it bc u cant rly notice it since it's so light but my bf keeps pointing it out lol. for those who are in recovery/have recovered, when did ur languo go away? xx",-0.5937580437580436,1.6134261621621633,2.1477606177606177,92.2168018018018,94.81081081081079,5.521750321750322,19.20978120978121,7.07126945348624,0.5368754182754185,544,18,120,10,21,188,97,148,0.098,0.778,0.124,0.5978,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,6,6,0,0,2,1,11,4,3,0,2,20,16,12,0,3,9,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,10,5,1,2,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,4,10,6,17,9,3,21,0,0,1,0,6,12,0,2,6,67,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233515257664841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13144040903061718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536913688316207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560851500001955,0.0,0.1201280915126708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4867230158301621,0.0,0.0,0.13350402834034036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467595704335572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471634118294873,0.0,0.5130086544203555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311482247518282,0.0,0.0,0.1419868757810884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424640308090534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726336923629458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557333017686226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156105132547175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197545715490948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922120354650645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672341694094948
EDAnonymous,xandeory,2019/10/23,is eating 500 calories a day and burning 2000 calories a day healthy for a teenager? im 13 years old and over weight and im losing around 1 kg every 5 days (i started a 3 weeks ago) ive started noticing that ive felt light headed and just generally pretty bad. thank you,1.003157894736841,3.159975543859652,3.0202631578947354,90.32934210526315,83.03508771929825,4.5017543859649125,25.28947368421053,5.46131890053228,0.5765578947368417,214,9,44,1,6,72,42,57,0.11,0.7390000000000001,0.151,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,3,3,1,0,0,8,7,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,1,3,6,0,11,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,9,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791086408732886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987085888418294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870661357118152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390924258596024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20675163994890916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023917255723098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940034841787159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073656515596144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365058905119246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260466935118144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23003976826136,0.2120216378271152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20556151309511755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286029660233058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18602413600158785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207549590267092,0.24604728491657604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13011612315010526
EDAnonymous,hunnybunny11,2019/10/23,"Why dont normal people understand calories, or is it just me? TW: numbers, calories. 

So for reference this was a convo between my bf and i. He is like ten years older than me, and generally very smart and pretty successful and supportive i really admire him as a broke a** college student. 

I was talking to him today about kpop idols, i called one of the girls from hello venus body goals. Its not that he doesnt like their body, or that he thinks theirs anything wrong with mine, its just that he has this weird idea about how idols or slim women in general eat calorie wise. 

He tells me i should eat MORE (lol) and work out(i hate working out). I know from the surface its like hes trying to give me healthy tips but he tells me ""most idols eat like 1600 to 2000 calories a day, you cant get a body like hers just eating little amounts of food"" .... i watch those kpop diet vids religiously.  I  KNOW no idols are eating like 2000 calories every day. I cant tell if he just says these things to hint that im not healthy or if he really thinks that girls that slim eat that much. 

Am i going crazy?",3.378025785656728,4.831200538812787,3.928181573999464,89.84434327155523,73.29223744292237,6.796776792908945,23.384636046199304,7.285733465282438,0.7486097770615099,854,23,180,9,17,269,132,219,0.06,0.794,0.146,0.9485,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,2,4,8,15,1,0,7,1,13,11,3,1,0,33,23,15,0,4,13,0,0,6,1,1,0,1,0,3,16,7,8,0,7,0,0,1,7,4,0,2,2,2,24,11,17,20,4,10,0,1,1,0,27,4,0,7,11,102,40,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408709945656334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34050358084466464,0.0,0.0,0.10433927135912853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317979046219695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975657136844685,0.0,0.0,0.6273463232560139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609276247604476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355890928145605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05338589024502792,0.09802230855434857,0.05807239914728605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088359410289673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535106770045594,0.1103741206760268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123131364359827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995258537094299,0.1024132324447833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511554501271611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10011668843310792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924118409992967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070840149674248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103955853727877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092084246531024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125924694223212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595495016786915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821300404780572,0.26793477905787405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788519647916838,0.13094823037585746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685661112571572,0.0,0.0,0.06937488703803033,0.0,0.0,0.1063750908508679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843108713449907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220338345723746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14877946122169744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11172000267664976,0.0,0.06580187342545908
EDAnonymous,some_say_im_phunny,2019/10/23,"I hate my shoulders more than my ED Let me give context here before I rant I fucking hate my shoulders so fucking much I've 'recovered' but I'm getting really tempted to throw away my progress my current bmi is around 18/19 I haven't checked my weight in over 5.5 months cause it triggers me so much last time when I recovered I was 120? my lowest all time weight was 90 I'm 5'6 so I wasn't supper skinny but my anorexia is very mild cause I cut that bish out real quick I've brought a measuring tape so I can get an idea if I gain weight but if I seem too 'fat' I can excuse it as me not measuring myself properly now onto my fucking damned shoulders I swear if I could yeet my shoulders off I would I have extremely broad shoulders they're currently 20 inches across like I fucking swear my other body measurements whole are: bust 36,waist 26,hips 38 so my fucking shoulders are massive compared to me not to mention my head is a tad smaller than the average woman's head and hopefully it will get bigger or something to even out my shoulders gonna be 16 in nov so hopefully I got a chance to grow. I've almost completely given up on recovery again because of my fucking shoulders no matter what I'll always be some disgusting manly dork with no fucking life there's no use of me staying a stable healthy weight anymore why not just lose it and feel great about myself again there's no incentive for me to stay 'healthy' I just fucking hate my body is was feeling so proud of myself after recover but now that it's over I can't stand looking in the mirror I fucking hate it I'm just done I don't even wanna live anymore I really wish I could get killed in a freak accident so I don't have to continue this fucking cycle of self hate",2.8733284457478017,4.8456360909090925,3.9571370967741935,86.91608870967742,75.875,6.814662756598243,28.40029325513197,7.717688229018142,1.7976483504398832,1392,60,273,20,31,451,188,352,0.179,0.684,0.138,-0.9527,3,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,4,25,27,19,0,8,0,26,30,14,4,1,40,61,20,1,10,14,0,6,1,0,3,2,0,0,3,11,6,7,0,4,0,1,3,12,22,0,0,8,7,50,5,34,45,6,38,0,1,1,10,6,18,11,9,15,175,61,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07062472249772611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05868587509112452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398918641191239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278586693294641,0.0,0.0,0.0662644268466701,0.0,0.0,0.04299389493249632,0.0,0.060015083624394776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566838980770164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490566204710895,0.0,0.0,0.07394843702135502,0.0,0.0,0.1126235214087714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217577360358175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316763285165824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132328116552453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6520303192808696,0.14739421004301265,0.06765795545250017,0.0,0.0,0.05640857760835541,0.0777586001871607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481645054256933,0.1447664428362895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401026537013298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07961878795732108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07803001790643134,0.0,0.0,0.05749064353274541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212080035276748,0.04981680094189788,0.034456963872172314,0.0,0.0622785022280558,0.0,0.059226694843289414,0.07890404097421767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056295668088803714,0.0,0.10369403196503592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802775756302037,0.09036551636008976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642070589848335,0.07357725058073375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429675980150924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034930847837524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225219029362646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060914511863146475,0.0,0.058193907710897226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435418541017118,0.0,0.0,0.06364155774867039,0.07874324009179502,0.08110500352424796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05010186094750282,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maniicmandii,2019/10/23,"I have control over no parts of myself I am not allowed to transition. Not allowed to talk about my past. Not allowed to express myself. Not allowed to cry or speak my mind in front of my mother. I don't have control over my anger.  
So, it's back to the only things I can control. What I eat, and how much I work out. They don't let me each much anyway. they want my child molester brother to have more, even though he's twice my weight.",1.1198412698412668,3.112428065934065,2.35772893772894,96.16782661782663,81.52747252747254,4.484004884004884,22.1990231990232,5.033348758259628,-0.09903760683760687,338,11,75,1,9,108,58,91,0.10300000000000001,0.853,0.043,-0.7466,4,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,4,7,2,2,0,1,0,8,2,0,8,0,18,9,5,0,1,5,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,3,2,3,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,1,0,2,17,0,13,8,5,7,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,1,2,61,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107649902861206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6610874204932398,0.0,0.0,0.21581763563677275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104211233367755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976932763921226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090813695958196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838288998070167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28886222385250176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942744978550318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276236565369527,0.18755681427337145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791848500580918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052869960749774,0.0,0.1930348615984868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588554820830617,0.0,0.0,0.2392525926557016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303552621764626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saltywench77,2019/10/23,Anyone else Use substances to help cut back on caloric intake or suppress appetite? Like idk... the white kind? Or am I the only one here who does things like that?,1.8927419354838728,4.659576903225808,1.5163709677419348,97.99455645161294,86.41935483870968,3.1,20.65322580645161,3.1291,-0.5427483870967738,128,4,25,0,4,37,28,31,0.054000000000000006,0.645,0.3,0.8604,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,3,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,3,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426017630130488,0.3555004430203443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26679001382594625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036261127265374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898396795064164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325592686636617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3613043519284329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390132319641352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351083619263732,0.26387791384218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23050410750100794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996611311555615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,user100020,2019/10/23,Something similar to ACV Anyone have any suggestions of natural remedies that help with bloating and appetite that are similar to the effects of drinking apple cider vinegar. After a binge I just want at least try and fight the bloating and ACV is so hard to drink.,7.7650000000000015,8.809320499999998,7.120833333333334,72.50750000000002,62.75,9.733333333333334,41.0,9.725611199111238,4.407075000000002,216,12,33,4,3,67,38,48,0.086,0.789,0.125,0.2579,0,0,3,0,1,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,8,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,23,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492586125291041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25629210117812984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7181359810811883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283463205440457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24568289559813794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821790900964789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24885544489028946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619378549534046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hawkgrl,2019/10/23,"My brain is so foggy and I’m so exhausted The worst part of an ED is the cognitive decline after you restrict intensely
I feel so fucking dumb",0.8725862068965498,3.434842379310344,3.5133620689655167,82.78659482758623,90.72413793103449,7.037931034482759,27.9396551724138,8.07648339933343,2.654441379310345,115,6,21,3,4,40,24,29,0.38,0.62,0.0,-0.9334,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,3,0,2,3,1,0,0,3,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.594229857485973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691500513334203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4921085823242267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764358329790554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeeunthrowaway,2019/10/23,"I think I might be ""wannarexic"" Hi! This is my first time using Reddit (first account but I don't plan on using it in the future) and I spent 2 days building up the courage to actually make this post. I'm not sure if this was the place to make the post but I'm not very familiar with Reddit. I'm also pretty sure I've broken some rules because I don't understand them exactly, I've read the rules 5-6 times but I'm still not 100% clear about them.

It's basically all in the title, I'm 15F and I guess I'm at a healthy weight. I also don't want to offend anyone with ana I don't want to have an ED or ana but when I just recently searched up what a wannarexic is, I felt like I could identify with some of the things which lead me to feel really guilty. When I was 13, my friend called me fat and that's when it began. My last 2 years have just been me trying to lose weight but failing, I successfully fast/crash diet for a few days then I binge which caused me to gain more weight. I've gained 10 lbs from all my diet attempts (I started at around 94 and my highest weight was 105 - I'm 153 cm/5""0). What makes me think I am wannarexic is my relationship with food. I've read what people have said about wannarexics is that they say they want to lose weight but then they proceed to eat junk anyways. That's the case for me sometimes. Sometimes I can eat everything without feeling anything, sometimes I feel so guilty that I have to purge right after, other times I feel nothing for a bit until a few hours later and realize its too late. Another thing people have said is that like people with wannarexia would say how little they ate and stuff while people with actual ana would maybe like hide it?? (don't exactly remember what they said) But when I'm with my close friends I'm always ranting about my hunger. 

I feel so ashamed and guilty almost like I'm mocking people who are actually sick but I don't know. Does this make me a wannarexic or just a bad person?",2.4659021623537747,4.273573052109182,3.4236483516483527,91.02492307692309,76.54342431761788,6.3923147819922015,22.43239985820631,7.225922671290522,0.6285260404112014,1552,44,333,18,35,496,193,403,0.149,0.737,0.114,-0.9008,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,7,11,19,17,2,1,16,0,28,14,1,9,7,73,65,31,0,7,18,0,11,4,2,3,2,5,0,1,25,16,13,0,12,2,2,1,10,7,0,2,11,16,44,10,36,49,8,42,0,3,0,0,19,12,0,8,31,197,69,5,0.0,0.0,0.2215280648089669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577225002695827,0.0,0.0,0.12102602507708345,0.06296323218259299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934625302042378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052909996849351416,0.0,0.06226969585321895,0.06736205452072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318101871468468,0.04612753213384695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261168789049528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726719954748397,0.0,0.0,0.07773360139793095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060416078968499126,0.0,0.0,0.0976013620155976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621904337470882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15485793895557348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800702555749619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19130430896175096,0.0,0.07265475552585736,0.0,0.0,0.12872917545700102,0.09150007255139296,0.0,0.11692440790314372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335867916121335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745193883399413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041586074982895835,0.061680885416776986,0.08535869043894015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147873525833743,0.0758408944641496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931002372514178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20204038519202186,0.0,0.07602036021266109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027356822978376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260709492050138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622991281017256,0.06607184234594429,0.07905870592437085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14494126510737568,0.07698326420618795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138030652803547,0.0,0.04847593206240468,0.0,0.07471467616762674,0.08124091341150241,0.08571899195797114,0.06462148983060234,0.21593757010112186,0.12035112698751682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245177332237693,0.0,0.05355938612482095,0.0,0.06042990098017536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662367518006298,0.0,0.0,0.14263554818529586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054314074366316,0.0969721459144162,0.0,0.0,0.1323707897413886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05137474289907119,0.0,0.0,0.07877480132447418,0.0,0.13070860910817902,0.0,0.06243540744896817,0.1338958062713475,0.0,0.0,0.46072639904103396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294286736125817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750713348720936,0.0,0.0,0.04872879040014888
EDAnonymous,winter_soldier183,2019/10/23,"I guiltlessly ate 1500 calories today and didn’t purge with over excessive exercise! I’ve been struggling with underrating and over exercising consistently for the past few months. I’m talking like four hour workouts on 600 calories. Sometimes nothing at all. I’ve been trying to recover, as I’m relatively underweight as it is now, but any little bit of body fat or tightness in clothing can throw me off completely.

But today, I ate breakfast, lunch, dinner, and a snack! I didn’t hate my body afterwards. I spent about an hour or so at the gym today, but I felt good after. And I ate enough to sustain myself too :)

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. I might not eat again; I might eat too much. I might try to run seven miles on an empty stomach, or crash in my bed at 7 pm. No matter what happens tomorrow or what happened before though, I’m proud of today :)",3.7973396065012817,5.766359550898205,4.889687767322499,81.25205089820362,73.25149700598803,7.885201026518392,28.096236099230108,8.634040054169528,2.235924208725407,683,27,127,13,14,224,110,167,0.08900000000000001,0.79,0.12,0.6524,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,7,5,1,1,5,0,11,15,4,0,1,22,24,15,0,0,8,0,2,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,4,6,10,1,2,4,1,3,5,2,0,2,9,2,14,3,22,11,5,29,0,0,0,0,1,12,0,7,15,81,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939981902832292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186591961685637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352430348635886,0.29205305214995425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783718045609053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26904035488771216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583713688286714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622576112526204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102655080733605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325058183446767,0.0,0.0,0.12979317939852633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25893051167037345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224900736277445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422651970109994,0.13176115670433933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183866083386235,0.0,0.0,0.10493306517096183,0.0,0.09664094044379017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614295861435676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254969699829992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002095346763098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137434395299888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566553632996137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291624104703996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984488356333194,0.0,0.0,0.17851043550045412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lvl505,2019/10/23,"Restricting without feeling sick? When I don't eat I can't even leave my house for 1 hour without feeling immediately light headed, stomach cramps and dying. Makes me so angry but I'm also so tired of being fat
(if anyone has any tips on how to fix this please help)",4.035,5.485597735849058,5.1624056603773605,81.65040094339625,71.64150943396227,6.809433962264151,26.45754716981132,7.1686216300943375,1.3156830188679245,212,7,40,2,4,70,47,53,0.20800000000000002,0.6809999999999999,0.111,-0.6747,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,2,0,10,8,8,1,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,6,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951804412510121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659740565686926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065745198305302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533032068486705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497416637233205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120407514960533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24681540627376816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25048334722939025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16359309071899894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24035701558704414,0.28162076469023506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25843191049488906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16291674252371305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679124793062998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805193277029852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4705441173868721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,7inchheelz,2019/10/23,My mom just bought me 3 milkshakes I asked for one small milkshake because I was really craving one and she just came home with 3 large milkshakes for me. Please don’t do this to me lmaoo,3.4954385964912262,5.073296263157896,3.3236842105263165,93.79412280701756,73.21052631578948,6.119298245614036,25.824561403508767,6.42735559955562,0.7049719298245609,150,5,32,1,3,45,29,38,0.0,0.9329999999999999,0.067,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,7,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3228742827236879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21053431655750648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950112164065826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34643422065662666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044931125251357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680632341641746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3791124936128479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125283435134727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frmhellandback,2019/10/23,"I didn’t binge! Lately I’ve ended up in a pattern where I go to the gym for an hour or two (around 9-11pm ish), burn some cals to get me down to what I think is an acceptable net, and then I binge as soon as I get home. But today I didn’t! It’s a small thing but I’m glad I don’t have to cut out the gym because I’ll just binge after and eat triple what I burned.",0.7620689655172441,0.8120143448275883,2.950057471264369,99.73818965517245,77.9655172413793,6.259770114942532,17.948275862068964,5.46131890053228,-0.7878413793103447,276,3,80,1,6,95,60,87,0.035,0.8809999999999999,0.083,0.555,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,6,0,5,1,0,0,0,11,10,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,2,0,9,2,13,8,2,15,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,2,7,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765275940835047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18935787473730856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31785323049301545,0.0,0.0,0.2751270115796289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245839253009126,0.0,0.17653884931349448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31158838536375266,0.0,0.3059091252016357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504054837570071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063695429812968,0.19903990750890668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944420228475709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034415112947767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iamspecies8472,2019/02/06,"Worried about ending my fast.... I'm just about to hit 40 hrs, which is pretty good for me. I should probably end this fast but I'm so worried about what will happen after that first mouthful. So many things are possible: binge? barf? Eat like a normal human? Eat like an ED freak? 

I'm finally at the point where it would be easier to just starve but I can't break this fast in front of my family. I just don't know what will happen   *sigh",0.11333333333333327,2.46699577777778,1.7572222222222216,95.8225,91.22222222222223,5.222222222222221,14.166666666666668,6.816661863887847,-0.40633333333333294,340,6,75,5,12,110,65,90,0.131,0.718,0.152,0.2757,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,0,0,3,0,9,3,1,0,0,9,16,4,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,6,3,10,10,0,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,10,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964439401241287,0.0,0.0,0.3431534621687654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262017682680906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21220870110394108,0.0,0.16477651023672948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248154481745555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426085382797659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646239728946952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892817495084784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639974020098103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18980260007869867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312621231918114,0.21838804224063815,0.0,0.19708094264559192,0.2088608677452544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869769266497794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934602517920925,0.0,0.13761177463219101,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kcvis,2019/02/06,"Peaching slack Hi... I heard peach might get turned off
So here's a slack (18+), if you are interested. 

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EDAnonymous,bannaberry,2019/02/06,"Envy towards Co-Worker She’s literally 98lbs and always saying she wants to gain weight. Girl. Feel free to take some of my fat, please. By all means 😭😭",0.6772580645161312,3.142196000000002,2.277661290322584,92.53649193548388,89.0,4.390322580645162,14.201612903225806,5.985473137389443,-0.7553290322580644,120,2,25,1,4,39,28,31,0.06,0.684,0.256,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,5,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168131549433999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925178221495276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41474660821421183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179473868460129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027863954897964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28627539854542666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22457526055575974,0.0,0.0,0.4636489550682738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771893567894925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HungrHrts,2019/02/06,"I Hate Food Every time you've been rejected, every time you've felt pain, every time you've felt isolated, you can trace back to food. You ate too much so you were romantically rejected because of your fat. You ate too much so your needs were ignored because of your fat. You ate too much so you stayed home and lost out on so many missed opportunities because someone might see your fat.

Food is the root of all the pain. It takes everything from you. When are you gonna get it through your dumb, basal, animal brain? If you don't like feeling like this STOP.FUCKING.EATING.

He's never going to tell you he found someone else if you just stop fucking eating. You're going to get to wear whatever you want and go anywhere you want if you just stop fucking eating. Everyone will give you a chance including yourself(!) if you just stop fucking eating.",3.6531481481481483,6.031602956790124,3.918296296296294,86.20633333333332,74.98765432098764,7.03604938271605,24.997530864197532,8.021203637495839,1.4619945679012356,677,23,130,11,15,210,89,162,0.228,0.715,0.057,-0.9827,0,2,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,21,0,2,12,15,5,0,3,0,9,19,5,1,2,25,34,11,0,7,7,0,3,2,0,3,5,0,1,0,3,3,12,4,4,0,0,3,2,12,0,0,10,4,22,3,11,21,4,15,0,4,1,3,25,2,4,5,11,71,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962217903769384,0.0,0.18936607648297893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559404374013732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178669978177735,0.08650123939400353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617314895549124,0.09894474863313336,0.09306245104501687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523570844085868,0.07397485930994763,0.19884503325605246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756327064428226,0.11353526359726115,0.0,0.2871859446649889,0.10819932805179476,0.09933287495054924,0.17654649582275644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223241612422156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386729377878694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117684640627446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130350992306734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049816287103622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984828335533096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283595382408325,0.07677968295770059,0.07986276028543854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22036518450627526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251451403349287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17547211843598307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036861044721476,0.0,0.3462837483782579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785536444570418,0.0,0.09050569642624526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18113937551471615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215082989943475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Letsnotbeangry,2019/02/06,"Peach Down, Lets not lose touch! It looks like peach is down again!

Just in case this is the final days, why not let each other know our current usernames in here so we can catch up with each other outside of peach, should we wish to :D

I'm letsnotbeangry :)
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EDAnonymous,metalhair,2019/02/06,"DAE need help badly but does not want to talk to anyone? Spiralling and you know, I'm at the point where I'm willing to admit I need help. Not just for my disordered eating which is the least of my concerns right now but also the dread and fear and panic and anxiety and social withdrawal and the constant invasive thoughts and memories shame guilt hatred insomnia lack of control etc etc ect. But at the same time, no I do not want to discuss this with my GP, or anyone else, much less anyone I know. Even anyone online, anonymously, no way. Actually I'd rather never bring it up except here, but at the same time, fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Feel me? Has anyone actually opened up to someone about this and had a positive result? I'd like to hear your experiences.",4.685625000000002,6.8454529791666685,4.9052777777777825,81.26750000000001,71.29166666666666,7.855555555555558,25.88888888888889,8.59863814320734,1.9357055555555558,615,20,109,11,12,193,94,144,0.235,0.6679999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.9759,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,1,8,7,0,5,7,0,5,2,0,2,1,36,18,14,0,6,11,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,10,1,1,5,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,2,2,9,1,17,15,8,16,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,1,6,76,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.27489664049483714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126369058526196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774911042286676,0.0,0.0,0.4924245285249199,0.14431645992224498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760304367768687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15220774693501546,0.15797414617820002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614251729802345,0.0,0.12325792158334604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412370462931498,0.11766127810133373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141677654118185,0.09302944556997488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777736279747124,0.0,0.15849429945036966,0.07121749367212868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874707571665495,0.0,0.1888162506381196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481386948451858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881171383106126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354023180970892,0.20887551883203426,0.10863144289856892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525597067183687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314784494327825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028428863080658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435778325496544,0.11934091274857282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320910243278193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181838437085688,0.1642603858384054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615279581881268,0.11179939157359473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DoNotEatAllTheDonuts,2019/02/06,"Wellbutrin So I'm just going to throw this out there because I noticed quite a few people on it in a thread on here. If you're taking Wellbutrin (bupropion) you need to let your doctor know that you have an eating disorder. It's pretty well known that this medication can cause seizures in people suffering from one. I had one when I was younger from it. Unfortunately, a lot of us aren't ready to recover so we keep our ED on the down low from doctors and we get prescribed stuff that can be dangerous. At least that's what happened to me. Anywho, I just wanted to make sure you guys knew. Be safe!",2.739931245225364,4.884820319327732,3.7013598166539374,87.79404125286482,76.89915966386555,6.680213903743317,24.26355996944233,7.686295010490155,1.1779176470588242,474,16,96,7,11,152,86,119,0.128,0.787,0.085,-0.6488,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,4,4,0,1,8,6,1,0,5,0,9,4,0,2,1,18,20,5,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,11,4,1,2,3,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,3,0,13,3,17,14,3,12,0,2,0,0,9,9,0,2,1,70,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562356683106526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19484754203136875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21738294360234767,0.3882789435008285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940839497135429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909688527974704,0.0,0.10779615830709607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18780717296127472,0.1677281743645789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685910491912481,0.0,0.0,0.10423992131368208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193954611290528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125413137898462,0.0,0.0,0.12660893017232652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19107669435020327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14064093688700866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21594521246063966,0.0,0.0,0.2570561489521523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629922683034352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19296674203141229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017417457516132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713145778690512,0.0,0.0,0.17876558830671585,0.0,0.14261131298700086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281545803768575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187469455980036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705397888884031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Smaylin,2019/02/06,"ADHD, an ED saviour or curse? Theres no doubt in my mind that I have an eating disorder and have recognized this behaviour for maybe 7 or so years. I also have ADHD and fluctuate between thinking my ADHD has saved me from full blown hospitalization and plagued me from reaching my goals. I get frustrated at my lack of motivation to stick to restricting due ADHD and losing the drive to complete anything and blame my ADHD or not being able to control my binging, considering the dopamine rush I get from unhealthy, fatty foods. I basically feel like a fraud. Anyway, I know they're comorbid disorders so perhaps one of you can understand my rambling and relate somehow?",8.170433255269323,8.575330680327871,8.230093676814992,67.09909836065576,61.8688524590164,11.233723653395783,39.55971896955504,10.914260884657429,4.66627025761124,541,27,86,13,7,176,87,122,0.23,0.7020000000000001,0.069,-0.9693,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,4,6,5,1,1,5,0,6,2,0,2,0,22,12,12,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,2,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,1,16,2,13,11,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,5,3,62,18,2,0.13292882580092347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7987730831346063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630313396713653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938909736416667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937334477552252,0.0,0.1490909813032177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30469590156248005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601937451208646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721280838926669,0.094964379712615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607380638046786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889965009205113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305420627106485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06494230979198587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487133541944344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354487236558313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422022031030406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007601258775726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08517542414249564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838359564559108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560180557304597
EDAnonymous,Brie_Bean1011,2019/02/06,"Need help. I keep on binging and purging, then I try to eat at least 1000 calories a day. I need to be healthier, and stop my harmful actions.. Any suggestions? ",1.1330645161290356,3.7112138387096802,2.6583064516129045,89.80745967741936,88.03225806451613,5.680645161290323,30.330645161290327,7.1686216300943375,2.0662838709677422,123,7,24,2,4,40,26,31,0.07400000000000001,0.836,0.09,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662431362430669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249432166535546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40061685045782336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26242376935998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34799588138052456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5806057560583472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273234692318304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658124966936424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatbitch2001,2019/02/06,"EDanonymous/proed/what ever you want the chat to be on discord. For minors that are under 18. Please excuse the title lol. Someone else posted a link to a discord chat but that one was for adults so here's one for minors. https://discord.gg/2nKCFpH
Just drop your age and reddit username, ok? Thanks. ",2.290555555555553,4.9616273148148125,2.0308148148148177,90.1206666666667,99.92592592592592,2.9007407407407415,16.511111111111113,4.935628992294339,-0.5948977777777777,241,6,40,1,10,71,44,54,0.10800000000000001,0.68,0.212,0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,1,6,5,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,7,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307329968021261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327830674308671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4985918109998719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038394194764014,0.0,0.0,0.35234274942992644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31171715529946503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387092827007024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21699464024885504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sakurahmilktea,2019/02/06,"DAE get really hungry the day after a binge but not as hungry after restricting for a while? I feel like I always get a hungry the day after a binge (even though I ate so much and feel like shit), but when restricting for a while the hungry feeling just kind of fades away. Is there any reasoning for this? My thought is it might be an after effect of just eating uncontrollably or maybe my body just wanting to be fed some normal food (not the random stuff I binge on). Anyone else?",6.86042105263158,6.099481568421052,6.973684210526319,78.90578947368424,64.89473684210526,9.705263157894738,26.36842105263158,8.841846274778883,1.7287473684210537,379,7,74,5,5,122,61,95,0.107,0.809,0.083,-0.5171,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,8,5,1,1,10,0,5,6,2,2,0,22,14,10,0,2,8,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,2,6,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,3,6,3,13,8,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,12,55,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16013191473236196,0.0,0.0,0.13087104484918596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456391627735134,0.1971854254355847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081096231628996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376602604838246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482257094858121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692205607035884,0.16076537071520774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12710990009480205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919220398510514,0.2749693707022998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327085396968446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010919751814447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004046795031959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880404643245832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19333959546731705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415661231870375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147121312493813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188557899224262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328693350870913,0.1978683021375088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754481289700296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203065898445496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18907890191752366,0.1527819883162788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351064787930795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Koala-ty,2019/02/06,I bought girl scout cookies today and told myself I wasn't going to binge Yet here I am 1.5 boxes gone and 1000 calories over my tdee. Fuck 2019 has been so stressful 😭,0.97757142857143,3.329222114285717,1.9825000000000017,96.43375000000002,85.0,3.5,17.32142857142857,3.1291,-0.9162857142857148,134,3,28,0,4,42,32,35,0.217,0.7829999999999999,0.0,-0.8290000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,5,0,5,0,2,4,0,5,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44575479117546496,0.0,0.0,0.27402610691841023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523196400252819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570370858757715,0.4607303726126412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Happy_Go_Lurky,2019/07/19,Hello me find something I have been having MAD cravings lately. Horrible stuff that I never eat. My new job has an endless supply of fucking chocolate and it's killing me. The other day you guys were talking about a YouTube girl that is like absolutely gorging herself on a single food to intentionally develop an aversion. Can you guys refresh my memory? For science.,5.336363636363637,8.057861424242425,6.042424242424243,71.3336363636364,71.12121212121212,7.430303030303031,36.75757575757576,8.344100000000001,3.6404121212121208,298,17,43,5,6,97,58,66,0.201,0.765,0.034,-0.9222,1,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,5,0,7,3,0,1,1,4,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,9,1,5,6,1,5,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,5,34,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957461886710364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531870055607597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261504180834972,0.0,0.2991984722788493,0.0,0.0,0.22874897321221976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899976099525847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455403093037963,0.0,0.27374933263093404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791166068279289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208838741496422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083654425879196,0.23897353652969375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19048697102067685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832530134060486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887827419437054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lordd_Humungous,2019/07/19,"Tips on surviving? 
I am currently in the hospital for my ED (Heart rate is in the low 30s, need it to come up before moving into residential treatment) being made to drink 8 ounces of Ensure Enlive three times a day. I plan on doing this through residential treatment. I feel right now that this is the best possible trade off between my comfort and safety. 

I’m just wondering if anyone knows how safe this is as a long term diet and if anyone else has done a similar program while in inpatient.",6.020771929824562,6.716434042105267,6.856578947368423,74.10521929824564,66.47368421052633,10.12280701754386,31.62280701754386,10.125756701596842,3.2439122807017533,394,15,70,9,6,131,74,95,0.021,0.8059999999999999,0.17300000000000001,0.9337,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,6,0,8,3,1,2,0,14,15,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,1,3,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,5,3,15,12,2,19,0,1,0,0,0,10,0,3,7,49,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340089559079195,0.24472273062508895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20323767844166016,0.0,0.2506508414371205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20574197144043896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403388283522573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24441916566721675,0.0,0.2339750699867701,0.0,0.0,0.19952255814278047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076612417674668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830299337770469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126178711458156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113684111905955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22599888487353634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538521567719557,0.0,0.1770989510027071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692594328025368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20397049360057096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927118977822533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590148884594828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,33nipples,2019/07/19,"When most of the guys you’re interested in encourage your disorder Most of the guys I converse with/am ever interested with have always encouraged my disorder. Men place such importance on looks and most men I am intimate with are attracted to thin women- suddenly when your body shape
Changes, they’re the first to tell you about it.

I wonder if they know they’re doing this or if maybe they just don’t give a shit. Disordered eating patterns are not alarming to them in my experience, that’s just the price of being attractive to certain men. I often find they encourage your disordered ways as long as you’re physically attractive to them and it’s fucking disgusting. 

Sorry I’m just mad right now. I am obviously not talking about all men, but there are a small percentage that fetishise tiny women.",4.146868008948545,6.949891651006715,4.914872483221477,77.51776733780761,75.44295302013423,9.342460850111856,28.725279642058158,9.725611199111238,3.3405513199105137,652,28,113,20,15,210,92,149,0.079,0.785,0.136,0.6485,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,5,1,12,14,4,1,6,0,9,4,2,0,4,24,15,10,0,2,9,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,4,1,0,3,0,1,0,3,5,0,1,0,2,16,9,17,14,4,16,0,0,1,1,24,8,2,8,7,76,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12504009058487958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692064980134522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589700736627188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6889085574385169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537679217184941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359315280848937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469969065235429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734780624877954,0.12782307389637387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892598527392194,0.0,0.14415661120213624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975899729236173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258671613063212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329878509024297,0.12619239768937085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15097053308381872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570044517670054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833326152500613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425420560603814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682195534126423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078463043590255,0.13134618823619046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192805870198751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16296585272100378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bustakrimes91,2019/07/19,"Please tell me if I am wrong? I am really looking for honest opinions on whether I am being unreasonable or not. 

Recently my office reached a huge milestone and to celebrate people agreed that we would all contribute and have a pot luck type thing where people bought snacks and donuts etc to work for us to enjoy. 

Obviously I didn’t have any and as it’s a small office everyone is aware of my ED because of sickness and of course my weight. 

I agreed to contribute financially and requested that we get soda because Obvs I wouldn’t be eating the confectionary that was brought in. 

There was no soda and I didn’t eat any of the food but now I am a bit annoyed that I am still expected to pay towards everyone else’s snacks. Would it be out of order for me to refuse to pay based on the fact I didn’t even have any? I don’t know if I am overthinking this because of my obsession with food and other people eating. 

Not related but do want to add this was a horrible day for me. Basically sat across from a table of cakes, chocolate, donuts, basically silly wonkas candy factory and sat though a 12 hour shift of people standing right in front of my desk picking what they want and talking about how tasty it was!! I am just irritated sorry if I am irrational.",4.469816308243728,5.784517818548392,5.5325268817204325,79.93684587813621,70.41129032258064,9.059498207885305,28.697132616487465,9.444778638647367,2.535418637992832,1001,37,193,22,18,331,138,248,0.12300000000000001,0.795,0.08199999999999999,-0.9434,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,3,0,1,1,9,7,1,1,10,0,27,11,0,2,3,40,36,20,0,9,10,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,12,15,10,1,1,0,3,2,8,3,0,0,11,2,26,4,32,19,3,20,0,0,1,0,8,11,0,6,5,137,38,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27153413781328084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24340638729639985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453088251035251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08583736517882012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4085782364854104,0.11118651539177844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484397401092222,0.08791014383547968,0.0,0.0,0.2543621777885454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32188588270837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953834614446537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107497308932278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731473215320533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176901469341056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690942926203153,0.0,0.0,0.14610191813872672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526615196536565,0.0,0.1314184722420771,0.0,0.0,0.11366518471540125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899260241792084,0.0,0.0,0.10629244041340936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697933775027764,0.11633374364619722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842456816186757,0.0,0.13076836227097138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010081588239058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15700960152570384,0.0,0.0,0.16207782082257408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09689711669259857,0.0,0.0,0.18909836678293507,0.14552205052182332,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Camereconmedations,2019/07/19,"Destroying or getting rid of scale? Plus weird ramble I weigh myself alot like everyday to every other day, and have been trying to lose weight for years (because im level 3 obese no exagerating) but if the number on the scale doesn't go down I binge excessively and if it dies I 'celebrate' with cake and pizza making it go up despite my treats being monitored or not. 

Once i thought i was doing good only to stall for 3 days and binge in an angry rage; sometimes i eat garbage and loose weight too which messes me up a littlr.

Has anyone actually destroyed their scale? I thought abut donating it and deleting my weight tracking apps but i want to know if itd be better to smash it as way of theraputic release from all the struggle its given me.",4.4012266500622665,5.932423842465756,5.26581569115816,80.94948318804484,70.84931506849315,7.774844333748442,27.65628891656289,8.296473431620573,1.938857534246575,595,21,110,9,11,194,106,146,0.184,0.738,0.078,-0.9506,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,1,11,3,1,6,0,9,7,0,1,1,23,18,15,1,4,8,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,8,7,0,3,0,1,2,3,7,0,0,5,3,14,4,18,10,2,13,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,6,5,71,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.16669762663813464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194427113488835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041315031937479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510781736793503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203321112204869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772862624386115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17479354757304547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14392489904569314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924744244463108,0.0,0.19416415373917095,0.14327738557385652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18451706878350504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387930157051108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345499864888926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19110611884796044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140250087238652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191985061635535,0.0,0.12991782542281766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894732186123124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178580239555883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712271674994531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159769221719786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075523903249316,0.13559054924322167,0.0,0.6240455139109689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000376474633214
EDAnonymous,Venge22,2019/07/19,My binge-restrict cycle has transformed into a binge-binge cycle I'm a human food vacuum fuck,7.718333333333334,7.70815416666667,8.474444444444442,66.36500000000001,62.88888888888889,9.422222222222222,29.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,2.6523777777777773,77,2,11,1,1,26,14,18,0.226,0.774,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7944217075690566,0.0,0.0,0.6073665701560008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rui-yang,2019/07/19,"a pie + this sub + old bad feelings = more bad feelings but now extra potent oh man. I discovered this sub today.

And boy did it hurt. I was about to make a pie but now I feel like I shouldn't because I have 0 self control?? Reading some of these posts threw me flashback-style into two years ago where I finally wrested my weight down to 90 pounds. 

I am not that thin anymore and I feel like a fat. fuck.

ghhheugeh I don't want to start the calorie obsession again because I don't have time for that and I can't function in school while doing that. and junior year is muy important.

this comes at a bad time because I've been starting the obsessive weighing again recently and now, right before making a sugary ass pie that I'm going to feel massive guilt for even thinking about, feelings of a deep, horrible hatred for my body have resurfaced from whatever godforbidden sinkhole I'd tried to shove them down.

man I am not feeling great",1.8892165898617528,4.441324849462369,2.9632104454685115,89.5933870967742,82.76344086021504,5.6933947772657465,24.98617511520737,7.07126945348624,1.1889788018433185,746,30,145,10,21,238,120,186,0.252,0.7040000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.9918,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,9,11,1,3,8,0,14,6,3,3,0,25,32,8,0,2,4,0,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,4,9,7,3,1,8,1,0,3,6,8,0,1,4,9,16,3,18,27,3,30,0,1,0,2,5,9,2,1,19,86,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036111771230515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346576554444449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401128467484283,0.2483113850754659,0.0,0.1155391059094268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082139689682714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696277782022944,0.0,0.0,0.15228924606343355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968166291950982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805824925260301,0.1940030666228319,0.0,0.14874077355172774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255267768800172,0.0,0.0,0.07716712116933118,0.0,0.0,0.14969835247786406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14535570912634072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326708739776202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126892106662693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14247867207098522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300400745082494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581712789248745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406674832733315,0.0,0.0,0.11595570586720348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374169973665231,0.0,0.0,0.14164855289673126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922121090119667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700258736249855,0.0,0.0,0.15834926741241329,0.0,0.1287039274515351,0.0,0.0,0.09218596773649117,0.0,0.13263770530365146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0800867883091315,0.0,0.0,0.1653439280106427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487623085497053
EDAnonymous,T-Rev34,2019/07/19,"Slight bingeing disorder I was once getting to a unhealthy weight fast forward a few years I feel very healthy and am quite active. 

However, every few weeks I’ll just binge. I usually do not even try to. But one of my family members will offer a treat or they will bake something for me, or I’ll be at a cookout or something... and it all goes down hill that day. I’ll eat and eat and eat sometimes until I’m sick. 

It’s like I’ve developed an insatiable hunger. It’s worrisome because I’d like to quit the bingeing all together. It’s like I can’t just have ‘one’ treat or something. I just eat and eat and eat.",1.7254761904761935,3.734126706349208,3.301825396825397,90.09178571428572,79.55555555555556,6.73968253968254,26.37301587301588,7.793537801064563,1.5207587301587302,479,20,102,8,12,158,79,126,0.11,0.742,0.14800000000000002,0.584,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,4,5,0,0,6,0,8,10,0,0,2,18,11,12,0,0,9,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,6,9,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,8,5,8,7,4,9,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,4,10,57,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667353126730063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111685945521173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415329313984027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7722180967787451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307564855158887,0.0,0.1059739839401992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857296926474348,0.0,0.06359749258723188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657141821536279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18434736613028155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339502160880479,0.17046181167314847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675622708198652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29049177681323496,0.12439835561724193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539548451435773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13852747391987105,0.10378060441938232,0.0,0.0,0.1008920904741552,0.15316457797933128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099736234581778
EDAnonymous,momonomino,2019/07/19,"Actual dieting is triggering. A little backstory: when I was 15, I got up to a size 22 in jeans (American sizes). This was when the pro-ana movement was in full swing and through serious restricting I found up eventually getting to a size 0. Then I got pregnant and told myself I'd never do that again because my daughter didn't need to be exposed to that. 

I got back up top 230 lbs so I started dieting.  CICO sucked, so I started intermittent fasting. I didn't realize how easy it would be to go from that to restricting like I used to. I'm so afraid of going over my calorie limit. Hunger feels so good. The pounds aren't dropping fast enough. I'm a fat fucking mess. 

Why is it so hard to just be normal? I just want to be pretty and thin and I don't understand why I'm struggling so hard with this.",1.4293830703012915,3.6477488536585407,3.4979626972740334,87.16640602582498,81.8048780487805,7.029555236728839,25.50071736011477,8.124751697461798,1.7359760401721671,628,26,130,13,17,213,99,164,0.153,0.772,0.075,-0.8604,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,13,8,2,2,6,0,15,5,1,3,1,22,35,14,0,4,2,1,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,5,4,3,4,0,0,3,5,6,0,0,10,4,14,2,19,20,2,24,0,0,0,1,2,10,2,0,11,82,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.17565882508664252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841266392034185,0.0,0.109729321733098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599318926062267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101589049282306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736609162574725,0.0,0.1664116377370302,0.09404513548260242,0.0,0.20460187590914736,0.1509795773278991,0.4318991082765532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224980836517694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794130609966115,0.18041220772520364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347135913102254,0.1388308827105342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17636659208166033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312970530557607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25481680202896945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18818021406011665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720024044149452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18739145840085966,0.0,0.15546644659527525,0.0,0.0,0.1061715590479964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32485286465735524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787032270435586,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Driftin327,2019/07/19,I just moved into my own place And I’ve purged everything I’ve eaten at home so far. Happy housewarming to me 🙃,0.036249999999999005,2.3052334583333334,2.7716666666666683,89.44000000000004,89.41666666666666,6.533333333333335,16.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,0.5671833333333334,89,2,19,2,3,31,21,24,0.0,0.8270000000000001,0.17300000000000001,0.6096,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953280208971113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4682512487254872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412268452465756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.467513649405196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4595719558613047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,csinaromons,2019/07/19,Is anyone else constantly needing to take naps because of their lack of energy?? I need a nap every. single. day. because I seriously CANNOT function without a nap. My naps are also 3-4 hours long & it’s starting to worry some people in my life buuuuttttt I cant really explain the reasoning behind it :/,2.364926108374384,5.1614887931034525,5.341428571428576,71.52500000000002,83.48275862068967,7.452216748768473,27.25123152709359,8.418075326091056,2.88588866995074,242,11,37,6,7,87,48,58,0.16699999999999998,0.7959999999999999,0.036000000000000004,-0.7622,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,7,9,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,7,9,3,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19251030663305427,0.0,0.2608289746678389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832280017351847,0.2466545555519815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934914321000663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26014173429733545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524981604129556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010975759202998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282394587728425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23706885011372894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003349282540364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130369393426502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35699391663960583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689066850963571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15421669082683426,0.2475087497655641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038870506406134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809976963579548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320534571546289,0.0,0.0,0.24447123844385715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yay_throwaway_yay,2019/07/19,"anyone else? i developed in eating disorder a couple years ago while trying to lose weight and gain muscle.
it started out harmless but within a few months...it became ..bad. 

i’m trans. a reason why i wanted to transform my body (i was already thin but with some baby fat in my stomach and face). i safely lost 10 pounds. once i had lost about 20, i was underweight. 

i had started using starving myself and losing weight as a way to cope with my dysphoria. my chest size went down and thus became flatter, my face was thinner and thus looked less feminine. 

i was planning on coming out a week from now, but due to some stuff with my siblings, i have to wait until about december or january to keep it from affecting them as much and to not interrupt my fall semester of college. 

now, i’m spiraling hard. i “recovered” about 3 times. none professionally, none diagnosed (my parents don’t do mental health). 

now that everything is going wrong, i’m eating less and less. i need the control in my life. the fat and weight and everything needs to disappear so i feel less feminine ...and so i can just try to hide...and disappear. i don’t want anyone to see me or look at me when i’m this disgusting. 

idk... anyone else trans ftm here? 

anyone else trying hard to disappear?",2.782623456790123,5.183550189300412,4.14064300411523,83.40997685185188,77.97119341563786,7.50679012345679,24.52829218106996,8.472884824447931,1.882179835390946,988,35,184,21,24,325,139,243,0.15,0.795,0.055,-0.9737,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,7,11,10,1,0,7,0,12,15,7,6,0,39,34,22,0,4,7,1,7,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,16,7,4,2,0,0,7,5,7,0,0,9,10,27,3,32,25,10,31,0,4,3,0,3,10,0,4,13,118,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097926945873032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325969530686103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870576451019745,0.3154834451902966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856954995623076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400376441515644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841051231663957,0.0,0.0,0.1151132908751272,0.0,0.1135630944249877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417183166462662,0.0,0.0,0.11762800015947007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21004138125589947,0.2572138022295033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844824964033612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05189507437014141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832953734278357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838806602310435,0.0,0.0,0.10909564749790808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122623713031357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249376493946129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172374219658074,0.22964344923833804,0.22407530699131392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343141089236006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07544814838337065,0.1522043254399505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930236622538396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396343849259133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10552533402574446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08178638842773121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529041929329592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749191876757807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05984698772464805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904621421992492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864323322485773,0.0,0.0,0.12107294501994904,0.0814664689964909,0.08232718501179533,0.3749434219064399,0.0,0.09514318655603356,0.09261164989687304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11221468655937332,0.0,0.06609323688282315
EDAnonymous,sepidumb,2019/07/19,"ive been fasting for 104 hours (and counting) and ive only lost 0.5kg. im fuckin fumin bro how does the human body even work this is the longest ive fasted so far, my previous record was 97.5 hours back in september 

i was supposed to eat on the yesterday to celebrate my 18th bday but my meal plan got all fucked up and now ive got no motivation to eat. just motivation to lose weight but its not fucking working 

its nice tht ive no will to eat tho bc ive been in a bad bp phase right before this. purgin multiple times a day.... however itd b so much nicer if id actually fucking lose the weight... like bruh im even doing some cardio i dont fucking get it. when will the woosh come..

the amount of breakdowns ive had over this the past 4 days is staggering... i think this is the lowest ive been mentally ed-wise",0.9035091277890466,2.800353908045981,3.0500405679513207,91.42548681541584,81.75862068965517,6.622853279242732,21.72954699121028,7.724431198458867,0.806628532792427,636,20,146,11,17,216,111,174,0.153,0.7390000000000001,0.10800000000000001,-0.8569,2,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,8,10,11,5,0,10,0,22,13,1,3,1,15,32,11,0,1,5,1,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,4,6,0,3,0,0,1,4,9,0,0,9,2,14,2,12,20,4,20,0,3,0,5,2,7,5,2,13,79,22,4,0.0,0.0,0.1220024354045298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613341134885284,0.10438729053826,0.0,0.0,0.10638364001009792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887011732521168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769449834554363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612563700446331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940669619679257,0.0,0.14652364954706368,0.0,0.0,0.3837830014797093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16515034746789847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623195008519477,0.06531829847528077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19998138639032745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462409501974964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700882096439266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06107893247903634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797329798914477,0.1364751608475379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259917357941615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09190480043986787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508408382113276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193466653897484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676722805665144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010839153606411,0.0,0.0,0.07290073489693874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044837291562355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203351504427484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,michealscott_goldfac,2019/07/19,"I just want to be normal it’s been 2 fucking years since my life’s been fucked up by food.

2 years.

And yeah I was chubby before, but I’m chubby now and even more obsessed with food, so what was the point of starving myself and then gaining back the weight.
Now I’m fat and i think about food all the time and I know the calories to fucking everything. I can’t eat a fucking pancake without feel guilty and mentally tracking the calories. And the fucking cherry on top is that I’m litteraly the ugliest person alive either. I just want a normal relationship with fucking food and to get on with my life.


Hell I don’t even know if I have an eating disorder- I’m sorry if this was the wrong place to post.

thanks for reading ig.",2.186525096525095,4.2841436756756766,3.2828571428571434,90.35500000000003,78.45945945945945,5.5799227799227795,24.08494208494209,6.5431188927421005,0.7138942084942084,576,20,117,5,14,185,88,148,0.183,0.69,0.128,-0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,9,10,7,1,11,1,10,16,1,0,1,27,28,13,0,6,7,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,11,8,0,4,1,0,0,3,9,0,0,5,2,11,1,15,22,3,14,1,0,0,6,2,6,7,2,7,74,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08190766530757883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064107325317576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208168562100108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21799406467099688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071152990445074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573372878038934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05385994955236019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5152198942513788,0.0,0.0,0.5908587411435926,0.055652548421061265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708172768378493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047711444254372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073475785593478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087348857612716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09300956457534787,0.11129121805648533,0.0,0.1006962733716222,0.0,0.10201716402921354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065492946430571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436311920203633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811483245370484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924094374084025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806973609475936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825401522945869,0.0,0.0,0.06211294190889278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565706456877296,0.0,0.0,0.12971323408482172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268193062675243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164634106507648,0.0,0.13719137885306576
EDAnonymous,moonshadow1830,2019/07/19,"why can't I just be normal I tried to eat like a normal person but I can't. I had a normal breakfast, felt guilty and skipped lunch, then felt unbearably hungry and ate a crap-ton of food for dinner and had a midnight snack of horribly unhealthy food

I hate myself so much i just wanna die so bad why am I like this why can't I just eat normally? I'm so tired of being like this and yet it's the only thing that makes me feel anything anymore, even if it's terrible",1.411255555555556,3.115393970000003,3.2573333333333347,91.49922222222223,79.3,6.044444444444442,21.11111111111111,6.937597516519254,0.4050777777777781,367,10,81,4,9,123,63,100,0.331,0.598,0.07,-0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,1,0,5,0,8,10,0,1,0,18,15,10,1,6,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,4,9,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,3,10,3,6,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282880933720468,0.0,0.0,0.11851591376742428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025040532361153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946967543454528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947361455357271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512363104716856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282067038737766,0.0,0.2765629291330699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34829830336013684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14218960359576896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110822021377866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613424532134217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058710255539118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5644347772584352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953344569399198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575241716909713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09568026658079466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552941980687802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977798994490378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898660429544559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mellywheats,2019/07/19,It kills me that i don't know what mischa barton weighed while she was on the oc I watch the oc half for the show but half for her fucking body because she is goddamn goals. I wish i looked like that 😩😩,0.8369999999999997,2.344689088888892,1.90861111111111,101.41625000000002,80.33333333333333,4.5,20.13888888888889,3.1291,-0.7477777777777779,159,4,40,0,4,50,34,45,0.133,0.726,0.141,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,3,7,2,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,2,8,1,3,6,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,0,2,25,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24378984920104085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442252085371745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697231280431012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4424564540716968,0.0,0.21978767300026905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538257791046013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358352860840291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598926570777258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kellylovescat,2019/05/09,"Am I in Starvation mode? I have been stuck eating 500 calories a day since Febuary with mineral daily activity. I honestly wish I could eat more than that but when I do I feel horribly sick. And no it's not I've eaten too much food sick, it's I've eaten too many calories sick. I'm doubting starvation mode because it was the last week of October, when I weighed 143 lb, that I started to restrict. By February 1st I was down to 130 lb. For reference I am 5 ft 8 and at 130 lb my arms looked stick like and my collarbones were predominant. I know it's not a thyroid problem because I had labs done in January and they came back normal.",2.0054325699745554,3.9310901984732856,4.070553435114508,85.32252226463108,78.31297709923662,8.030788804071248,28.47391857506361,8.841846274778883,2.3789689567430017,500,23,105,12,12,171,88,131,0.205,0.6829999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.9321,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,1,3,0,11,11,1,0,0,18,21,7,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,6,6,1,3,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,10,2,15,2,11,10,2,12,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,8,61,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723813467967223,0.0,0.2733173067795048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25640333505073404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17899028222378616,0.0,0.0,0.14457819533196134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294149912101585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587862481559605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335264663416415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710805482429605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12320401166135085,0.18273743144301569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10952351002540377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18825557383711494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272843416837219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479882545120425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964977634186453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21451093529894075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18544483515795832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867646166201693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17982447128733278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577970798458037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thelittlestbishop,2019/05/09,"Graduation photos, fasting, and mother's day cake [rant] I have my graduation photos in a week so lazy night after binging on two family sized bags of chips I decided I'm going to fast. Alright, cool, easy enough if I sleep until 11 and don't bring lunch to work. I get out at 7 I'll just chug water or something until bedtime.

Cue today, I get to the office and they've ordered chocolate cake to celebrate mother's day early (it's on the tenth in Mexico and we won't come to work).

It's not even like, good quality chocolate cake and the frosting smells of pure sugar and coloring and I'm not even *hungry* ugh. All this probably won't even help much, I doubt I can have the self restraint to fast so long I can lose enough weight in a week to make a difference in my photos. 

Send help.",2.0160455486542475,4.012479962732918,3.840720496894408,86.64377225672882,78.56521739130434,6.777805383022777,21.913457556935807,7.793537801064563,1.012408364389234,618,18,126,10,15,208,99,161,0.113,0.8029999999999999,0.084,-0.5431,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,0,3,6,7,0,1,7,2,7,5,1,1,2,20,15,13,0,1,5,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,10,4,0,1,0,0,4,5,3,0,2,0,5,11,4,20,13,4,27,0,1,1,0,7,8,0,3,15,71,14,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510726093868892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262085898272685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18323267228445694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624246903965257,0.0,0.3475065251672524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533076076385467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325552266766584,0.0,0.09967135332441482,0.14709873728921227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351043398225557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568082724678444,0.0,0.0,0.1552040023577218,0.0,0.1962031108969826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706617018095912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289230019260932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645803632172459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908713570499894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295749212519866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550464592226211,0.0,0.0,0.135014544922526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16623782814331714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17131881284582634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28135528993803377,0.2135631447573699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553545309749252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kouyne,2019/05/09,"Doctor invalidated my struggles with food and weight, now I just feel like i'm faking it I went in for a physical today because the doctor I saw for a ear infection was worried about my weight and I mentioned I was diagnosed with a ED when I went to a psychiatrist who specialized in that 9 months ago. || Well I got a different doctor today, One I hadn't seen since those 9 months ago when she referred me to said psychiatrist. She asked what was up, how was I feeling. All that. Didn't give me time to really respond and was only really around for 5 minutes checking my breathing and ears. She then broke it to me that she isn't worried about my weight since I've ""been at the same 90-92 lbs since the last time i saw you"" and my mom had to butt in and mention last time ""she was as small as me at her age."" so yeah, this is normal ig.


Little does she know I've gone up to 98, dropped back down to the 90, dropped down to 85, then went back up to 91. Over and over these past few months. But of course, She didn't see that so it must not be a problem. She didn't ask if I restricted, counted cals, abused laxatives or purged. No, she just said It wasn't a big deal and I could wait those 4 months. I walked out of the clinic wanting to cry because I genuinely felt like I wasn't really sick. Maybe I really am just exaggerating it. Restricting, fasting, eating less that 500 cals a day. It's all normal. I'm just fucking faking it.",2.1923232323232327,3.782872313131314,3.6640754208754234,89.95255757575758,76.7104377104377,7.0415622895622905,22.991111111111113,7.839951260653429,0.9185077171717176,1115,33,249,17,25,368,154,297,0.1,0.8340000000000001,0.066,-0.8637,1,0,0,0,1,0,37.0,0,1,0,0,16,10,1,1,13,1,20,17,4,1,3,38,43,20,0,7,8,1,6,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,18,12,5,3,5,0,1,5,9,6,1,1,25,14,36,4,35,15,5,48,0,1,4,2,22,17,2,2,26,156,54,3,0.0,0.11246443132171152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828133575533827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449873844418307,0.17747438331897172,0.0,0.0,0.14597492096068454,0.0,0.11572444755688613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578572967978636,0.0,0.10426493368115863,0.06121541288660695,0.09785813694265663,0.0,0.0963415901495867,0.0,0.09917097928751828,0.0,0.29146328555312484,0.08306494904223014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971266432779848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598859702969406,0.06781071788888918,0.09113788508361348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477738844449495,0.0,0.0,0.08775181756338911,0.0,0.09105571302463043,0.0,0.0,0.07591602821105056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052165434945560224,0.1547445974123224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927460309156782,0.09513456723217788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535968847366996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116891239616712,0.3030562873938889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860024842383084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643201071457432,0.07219077855273981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906116812185594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082542110078463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432321955334173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18058091592831574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07563878437970271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23555589677581806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923077518975902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16604548094012014,0.0,0.17994572699359554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05598615221083902,0.0,0.0,0.3467602028817919,0.08534429181039567,0.26397479255861866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927913112149536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gaymeowth,2019/05/09,"I buy foods I don't like and shitty vodka on purpose Not even ""so I'll eat less of it"". I think I just do it as a form of self-harm. what is wrong with me.",-2.426052631578948,-1.1209686052631582,0.8465789473684211,105.91355263157897,90.31578947368419,3.8,12.13157894736842,3.1291,-1.9571263157894736,115,1,35,0,4,41,31,38,0.14800000000000002,0.768,0.083,-0.3151,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,5,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220378102833117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724183617206075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987343951598445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20150151636607289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43027376460286143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642803617058023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.450947716244995,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meltsplitopenandmelt,2019/05/09,"Let's Talk Bone Density Has anyone had a bone density scan or been diagnosed with osteopenia? I recently got a pretty scary diagnosis (27/F) and I'm not totally sure how to proceed. 

Has anyone else been through it? Treatment/supplement recommendations?",4.180984848484847,7.559327249999999,6.042727272727273,64.80075757575759,83.31818181818181,11.115151515151515,34.60606060606061,10.125756701596842,5.616815151515152,205,12,30,9,6,70,37,44,0.13699999999999998,0.789,0.07400000000000001,-0.4056,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,2,1,2,7,8,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,3,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44304601043135067,0.3246123421169648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215585106743539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26465659621589843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533842853325831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239627416574505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223127018287874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128146018510216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985924888122473,0.0,0.0,0.25464227649059873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Hihello2222,2019/05/09,"Hi hello I just need to rant abt my sad life - maybe tw? I ate over 2500 calories today and its only 3pm, I've been b/p free for almost 2 weeks which is the longest I've been able to since I've gotten this wonderful gift of a fucking disorder close to a year ago, and I've been trying so hard to stop purging because I know how bad it is and I guess I'm still somewhat in the early stages since I've been a lurker for a while and people struggle with this for years and years. Its been such a hard couple of weeks. I was so proud of myself, but then this morning I ended up binging at breakfast, ate cookies and croissants galore and then I freaked tf out and purged but stopped myself halfway. Now all that progress just feels like it's gone, back to square 1 I go. I've been trying to eat normal after the purge, eating lunch and snacks but I've logged everything into mfp (because it reduces my anxiety in some way) and I can't stop thinking about all those calories. I can't stop thinking about how I didn't even purge out my binge this morning, I can't stop thinking about all the food I want to eat. My life is revolving around food, I watch mukbangs and cooking shows because I have so many cravings. I'm trying to study for the MCAT but I just cannot focus on anything else but food, how fat I am and how I just want to eat everything. Its a constant battle with myself because part of my brain knows I'm at a completely normal weight but the other part thinks I'm a friggin water hippo. I don't know what to do, I'm so tired of fighting with myself, its honestly mentally exhausting.  

if ya made it to the end thanks for listening/reading, back to trying to study but actually thinking about food I go. Hope you all have a good day.",3.7634540389972138,4.626364309192201,4.604271866295266,87.62895933147634,71.64623955431755,7.081047353760448,27.173370473537602,7.087006719466742,1.2205045348189407,1373,46,287,12,25,444,181,359,0.13,0.773,0.09699999999999999,-0.8297,0,0,0,0,3,0,30.0,0,2,0,2,23,15,3,1,16,0,20,23,2,5,4,66,49,31,0,7,12,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,17,20,17,5,10,2,1,3,6,8,0,0,13,6,31,8,42,36,8,42,0,1,2,1,5,12,1,7,26,175,48,1,0.08121153016018708,0.0,0.07925073853227829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719891214636682,0.0,0.08132161647420061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06212659828681006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683016965101295,0.07229547968681439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124893307609186,0.06780823547587522,0.19802318002991728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065892592434643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851487442589361,0.08776081317851278,0.0,0.0,0.08985901345425636,0.0,0.052374718491058236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307544940058757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323986793384087,0.06784181261289449,0.0,0.14385862172541505,0.0,0.0,0.05363944974662112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459753735165642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04106298978244556,0.058017533373268634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928052185193693,0.0,0.0,0.0750787510079302,0.0,0.0,0.09230876822096257,0.0681163784434141,0.0,0.0,0.08946365634031384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549915890670895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066137372563914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389519933312827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472421092483726,0.0396758514834292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684431345022,0.0,0.08233574492874353,0.08158789761746729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184212124572271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060217320586216525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591401134329402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0617650282185272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588834631528327,0.0,0.056301849527806674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08123350715360833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435803393060658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06485563289113554,0.3394823781275935,0.0,0.08489992423705736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476866585831714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601853467439173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334070722043436,0.07697903477688013,0.0,0.0,0.22054919245568247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580132921334156,0.06446193255557922,0.1302859817810353,0.09889376522150116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807044020678233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568926883956632
EDAnonymous,bonesnbeer,2019/05/09,"Heart palpitations? Anyone else ever experience really intense heart palpitations and/or rapid heartbeat? This is a pretty new thing for me, just started happening a few weeks ago despite having struggled with an eating disorder for going on 10 years now. Even right now, for example, I'm just sitting on the couch but feel like I can't breathe because my heart is racing and I can feel it pounding in my chest...

Also, when I go to stand up I almost always black out for a few seconds and my heart rate skyrockets-  I usually have to find something to lean against until I get my bearings again. 

It's frustrating because I'm not even that underweight right now (5'6, ~115 lbs)...I know it sounds ridiculous but I feel like these occurrences would be more justified if I was *actually* really skinny. I've also been eating much more regularly (900-1200cals a day), which is a huge improvement for me.

Haven't ever been professionally diagnosed or talked to anyone about it outside of my family, and I'm terrified of bringing it up to a doctor, but kind of considering it at this point because heart issues scare the hell out of me too...

Sorry for the long rant, just wondering if anyone else has experienced this or if anyone knows what the scientific cause of it is (electrolyte imbalances maybe)? 

Thanks for reading.",5.570539473684215,7.679215308333338,6.249649122807018,72.75394736842108,68.83333333333334,9.385964912280702,30.964912280701753,9.811843763644266,3.353958333333333,1054,44,173,26,19,344,148,240,0.11800000000000001,0.78,0.102,-0.7927,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,0,16,9,3,2,11,0,15,12,8,1,2,30,31,15,0,4,12,0,3,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,15,6,3,0,7,1,0,3,3,5,0,1,3,6,16,4,29,26,5,33,1,0,1,0,1,12,1,7,18,119,31,3,0.0,0.0,0.0938527303674632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08525315639006169,0.0,0.09630516870061516,0.0,0.0,0.15382190390369335,0.08002513710656976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268990622330097,0.1970848938173713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588179428402956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879801106171046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06202478896283122,0.0,0.0,0.09761539644338592,0.0,0.0,0.11022465175975543,0.09843898197301428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19682165872651392,0.1606834072392816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270450952852212,0.17399122347428256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940774078438698,0.0906650410868374,0.0,0.1458866041947648,0.1374145911346662,0.0,0.0,0.08790202386237139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050247362968906764,0.0,0.10931670915427616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504705706559207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5698379989376869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038150307856183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015125330166512,0.10571030859976656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397229755422816,0.0,0.0,0.08511167060256368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662051228988364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069954322270994,0.0,0.0,0.09288622010308503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091627142460466,0.0,0.0,0.09784434596918057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962008251896075,0.0,0.12322407777328738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16426550558039618,0.0,0.0,0.09628775155139983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404005888659576,0.0,0.10765981344770792,0.06807301768678027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054278162206966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730166033779487,0.0,0.08854483335669501,0.0,0.0,0.06389426292318899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592295354060413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771456225217098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429746688990647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06831981776522196,0.0,0.0,0.06193341729186656
EDAnonymous,crazylulu2,2019/05/09,I started jogging and have gained weight I've been a lurker here for a long time and decided to make a throwaway to finally talk to you guys. I started jogging and I've gained 3lbs and I'm really struggling,1.4978571428571428,4.056308309523811,3.1383809523809525,87.52328571428568,84.95238095238095,6.217142857142857,27.447619047619053,7.554174236665415,1.8906704761904767,167,8,32,3,5,55,27,42,0.079,0.789,0.132,0.2748,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,6,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575759415148008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232060230896327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888704480674399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178871454343674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209112300975058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620819443741635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412438995908886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26236314127128924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19033748121351932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974902733150014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway030816,2019/05/09,"Just a rant (relapse) It's been almost 10 years of being disordered now, and for the last few I've been pretty good at keeping it at bay. However, like clockwork, as soon as a man enters my life, this disorder rears it's head with such an intensity. The thought that a man could want to look at me naked, I have to hold onto by making myself thinner, and thinner, and thinner. Just a few months ago I was about 165, and now I'm back down to 145, which I know is still a lot, but little on me. I'm not meant to be thin, and I've reconciled with that.

But you know what? It feels good. I feel proud. I like the way I look in the mirror again. I like the high of starving myself for hours on end, only to ruin it with a binge. The binges suck, but at the same time at this point, they're almost comforting? The routine of it all. Still getting the results I want. 

And you know what else is funny? The real catalyst for it being so much worse this time? My brother. When I first was labeled ""anorexic"", i was put into treatment and brainwashed into thinking fasting will kill me. That I was going to literally DIE if I didn't eat for one day. Years of this was implanted into my thought process, and I really believed it. I believed that the feeling of hunger would kill me. I couldn't even skip breakfast without feeling guilty. As soon as my stomach grumbled I was convinced I was hurting myself.

And now, 7 years later, my older brother has introduced intermittent fasting and keto into the house aka, the ""acceptable"" anorexia. He legitimately has the same freaking routine I had years ago, except now it's ok. In fact- it's admirable! The discipline he has, the research he's done on this new GREAT diet. WOW brother, look at you not eating for 2 days and then eating an avocado salad. Thank you for doing ALL this research and teaching us your ways. Oh OMNIPOTENT one, standing there in my kitchen lecturing my whole family as they look at him with such respect.

It's so annoying. I see how he gets angry when someone eats the last avocado. How he wavers when junk food gets bought into the house, and his complaints that he can't contain his late night binges due to starving himself all day. How irritable he gets when things aren't JUST right so he can successfully keep up with his great, healthy, life changing new diet.

And when this was me just 7 years ago, what did I get? A label. My parents feared for my life. My parents were disappointed. My parents made me go to treatment once a week for years. To therapy. The speeches. The look in their eyes when they saw me getting frustrated that I couldn't live the way I wanted to.

But no, now it's a good thing. Now it's right. How soon they all forgot...

Well, hopefully they continue to forget, cause I'm back. It's back. And now I can only hope it's ok for me too.",2.5628248860654597,4.703061429084387,3.734717235188509,87.36494286010223,77.43806104129264,6.295387377434058,25.433261980389446,7.321109707123232,1.2325760530313494,2204,82,437,28,52,715,258,557,0.139,0.705,0.157,0.7569,4,0,0,0,0,3,86.0,1,5,5,3,40,32,5,1,32,2,34,17,3,8,5,86,76,39,3,10,13,6,5,3,0,2,3,1,1,2,34,25,11,6,13,0,1,4,9,10,1,3,22,14,61,22,61,46,11,90,0,3,8,0,32,28,1,6,57,299,95,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820406907193996,0.0,0.13709333607071778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791041424835972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542481522402313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703209864867567,0.07241512347528385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054654849335717716,0.0,0.0,0.1324412596861344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104431515483099,0.0,0.1569081434658394,0.0,0.0,0.07005208117538766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28018161610486586,0.0571844290572904,0.0,0.0606298153859541,0.0,0.0,0.04521313907412828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06453222145440178,0.07702964109482903,0.13844934477167495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058226831415043964,0.08277469781034777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21458594728944197,0.0,0.07780782977921501,0.17224758864992104,0.0,0.1509412785047081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025342506711013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07232527770075031,0.0,0.13598028784392185,0.06741327825052848,0.15797316275392093,0.07328128937401845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168989937843055,0.1514681416099715,0.0,0.11286137902986602,0.11159808967759503,0.0772189530516687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450529897738475,0.10032931729232047,0.06860876659316803,0.06044602607965429,0.0,0.28742007378401896,0.0,0.0,0.058197036900828336,0.0,0.0647727120149953,0.04569349335860521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463923022757673,0.0,0.0503214747964784,0.0,0.0,0.13222635877953207,0.0,0.06423932483653788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290114316998149,0.0927722350938965,0.10412451372835496,0.0,0.0,0.2280297828656433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471103846698474,0.0,0.0,0.06964220085773433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881505182818595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779154966249129,0.04385330541991369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691847107067982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054548875912085085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800074645479895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093347065825273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06302313136707871,0.07828297229326751,0.0,0.09095542615319256,0.04386247928698804,0.0,0.10868946133407016,0.0798320104326061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234158355967196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112760780554085,0.16300649999524325,0.054909569742989,0.0,0.06154825493228468,0.0,0.0,0.07642630721521944,0.0,0.06598709306877493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976034717422351,0.048627669021039495,0.0,0.0,0.26449230831618803
EDAnonymous,averagedancer,2019/05/09,"Fuck fuck fuck trying to work towards recovery I know this doesn’t sound like much, but I just upped my daily intake from 500 to 600 calories. I’m terrified but want to try to recover. Wish me luck!",2.056750000000001,4.318883175,3.3550000000000004,88.82000000000002,79.75,7.0,22.5,8.07648339933343,1.2534999999999994,157,5,32,3,4,51,32,40,0.245,0.546,0.21,-0.4199,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,8,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,2,7,8,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,1,1,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7746820782150489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350727645584647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646191796170598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053327527002332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3792806541275845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475050489078344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212048623398357,0.0,0.0,0.20334869641654812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,0kye,2019/05/09,"Is it possible to naturally have a BMI of 16.7 without underlying health conditions? So there’s this girl on campus who is so shockingly skinny and she has the thinnest, longest legs ever. I remember seeing her at first with my EDA group on campus (she wasn’t in the meeting, she just walked past us as we were walking home and we were all awe struck and jealous). I recently found out she is 5’11” and 120 lbs. That means her BMI is 16.7. I feel so bad. At my skinniest I had a BMI of 18.1, which is still underweight but not as much. She says she doesn’t have an eating disorder and I actually kind of believe it because her face looks healthy and I see her eat normal/big portions. She says she has a high metabolism. Is that possible?",1.8434589041095888,4.315066547945206,3.4057363013698634,86.8977825342466,82.15068493150685,7.211643835616439,24.87842465753425,8.278499904357787,1.773987671232876,580,23,118,13,16,191,97,146,0.069,0.9059999999999999,0.025,-0.64,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,3,0,0,1,7,4,1,0,6,0,15,6,3,0,2,20,21,12,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,7,10,3,0,4,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,5,6,23,1,15,16,3,15,0,0,3,0,21,8,0,0,5,84,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.16296612562080182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394364976950419,0.1018005353333154,0.0,0.0,0.1881497522700732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19139437259692985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34176164119397306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510594069592296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443929325057542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14204855937787286,0.0,0.18310487540437284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751124713172206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17644273703929866,0.16751278222612911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17390289725974925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023640450664562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190996596918074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12276287111791652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16362275101359627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941865094610566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765306928890379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489054755952712,0.0,0.1891763739762392,0.0,0.0,0.2656072976058271,0.0,0.0,0.2661518427393612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13336495549058644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008782383875716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098027799485096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eagleonapole,2019/05/09,"Note to self: Chew your binges carefully I had a fabulous near death experience when I began choking mid purge.

Yikes, what a way to go that would be.",2.568160919540229,5.0633538620689675,3.642068965517243,86.16816091954023,79.34482758620689,8.004597701149425,23.459770114942533,8.841846274778883,1.8257494252873565,118,4,24,3,3,38,26,29,0.21,0.64,0.149,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,3,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783829359765149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458969805923897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666584355090018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4894802467060053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3724308842256655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333077964105829,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xykcd3368,2019/05/09,"feeling triggered from weight loss while sick A while back I had binge eating disorder and I become on the brink of overweight. I slowly lost the weight and then some, and at one point I deliberately started starving myself. I am currently a few kilos into the healthy weight range and have been maintaining. I felt I was finally getting over the obsession with being thin (even deleted my tumblr where I just followed ed tumblrs) by running and exercising. Feeling my body become stronger and faster, and fuelling it with appropriate amounts of healthy food was making me feel awesome. However this week I came down with flu and I now can't breathe too well, and I have hardly eaten since Monday. I noticed I have lost a couple of kilos and now I feel apprehensive about trying to eat normally again. I know I will have to eat to improve my health but seeing myself becoming skinny and frail is really triggering me! I have that shrunk-stomach feeling one gets when you don't eat enough food and I don't know how to convince myself to start eating normally again. Any advice?",6.2655194805194805,7.853786388888889,6.195411255411256,75.83454545454549,66.42424242424242,8.687445887445888,32.82972582972583,9.04235418022936,3.017615007215007,867,37,143,15,14,273,125,198,0.094,0.8170000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.1368,3,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,3,13,7,0,2,7,0,16,19,3,4,0,34,35,18,0,2,2,0,11,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,3,17,13,0,8,1,0,3,3,5,1,2,9,13,27,2,19,24,4,28,0,3,1,0,1,9,0,1,16,105,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995209386621683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925752411496025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831187588811825,0.0,0.0,0.33743663396724616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312590742334215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648259237393588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268863070035134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672223566210585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5210600275552574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523224639181697,0.0,0.06726711001055098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574773477455269,0.0,0.09778636903383944,0.11156530389649927,0.0,0.0,0.2463007354817745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641874477661073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123236698785073,0.0,0.0,0.10825558421206967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119417784978744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22234987208182327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798177050879624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957131491751512,0.0,0.1159502560837624,0.0,0.0,0.13802448296620848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962756542145616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524397952487221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115661314544256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424654514451625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441716473731356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914550233892505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169324546295895,0.37205626545030107,0.09157013470574324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,punished4eating,2019/05/09,"(major TW) Anyone else just feel life punishes them for eating? Like, I have no reason to eat until I'm thin. With enough water and some nutrients, I could basically fast until I'm underweight- afterall that's what the people over at /fasting do and don't have any problems! Until then my body can feast on this fat. It has a storing mechanism or a REASON. RIGHT?!!?

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Eating just makes me fat, over-warm, sluggish, tired, weird, agitated, ugly, and sweaty.

It leeches my bank account, and my job opportunities since I feel too gross to apply or jobs and be seen.

My family ALWAYS only walks into the kitchen when I decide to eat even after a 3 day fast and comment ""wow, pig""

Men are kinder to me when I have fasted and am smaller. Possibility for love opens, with the men I dream of.

My taste buds and outlook on life are different.

My senses, heightened.

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So many instances where I have been humiliated, denied, someone's made a comment, etc etc etc because of FOOD.

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I just need water, water, water, coffee, tea, water, water, water, coffee, water, water, WATER. (oh and some sodium/potassium/magnesium but like a pinch of all those or whatever) 

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My life has slipped away because I am a little (big) piggy.... And I have NOTHING to show for it. Oh! Ha ha wait yes I do. A large body, big clothes, and lots of debt. :)))) Oink, oink, oinkers :=)))))",2.7357645089285683,5.4241861367187525,4.062433035714285,82.22140625000002,80.2109375,6.0008928571428575,23.986607142857146,7.310402129719878,1.3368497767857142,1065,38,186,15,28,349,154,256,0.085,0.813,0.102,0.8013,4,0,0,0,0,0,97.0,0,0,1,1,9,11,1,0,10,3,18,27,4,4,1,37,28,22,0,3,7,0,3,2,1,0,6,0,1,2,7,15,20,1,5,2,4,1,2,4,0,0,3,5,21,7,24,23,9,26,0,0,1,1,7,13,0,6,14,114,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07073199778949656,0.3684168833562837,0.413167522967088,0.05780715524730419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943833647766952,0.08709893402162651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986615665120714,0.0,0.0,0.10363802453674564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884552910261235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787056216645992,0.0,0.0,0.05482198962021898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881342362581303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479304037037612,0.07101180214488242,0.0,0.0,0.08783416505182735,0.2844132694850143,0.05614581695070232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013631363353604,0.0,0.08596341381816575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027898776015054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1687111444609951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012725457177425,0.08305950584037046,0.0851985800861526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07226926171947452,0.07672144656207829,0.08043495556085985,0.05674232239757052,0.08618298071859236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303104664321144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08156577576140515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465107275882971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05893262053407523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958317583024076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133948719847019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480113608575062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259486080061495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07031803658089615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07202550763210915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977021629864451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413167522967088,0.0
EDAnonymous,lileruneal,2019/05/09,"When you've been trying to convince yourself you haven't gained weight and then you get conclusive humiliating proof I bought this dress that barely fit but looked really good and I was like goddamn it I'm gonna make it fit and so I starved myself down to a new LW (obv more reasons than that) and it looked amazing.

Since then my weight has gone up between 2-3 pounds but I've been trying to convince myself it's not too much and it's just water weight and it's okay to eat but I'm struggling with restricting.

But I was trying on dresses in front of my bf for graduation and I couldn't even get the top 2 buttons buttoned even without a bra and he was like oh it must have shrunk in the wash and I was like I've worn it a couple times since I washed it I've just gained weight. He tried to make me feel better by telling me he loves my body. 

But I'm back home now and I can't stop thinking about how humiliating it was and how fat I must really be to not be able to fit into this stupid fucking dress. And I'm about to be around family for the next two weeks and my mom will be watching me like a hawk and I'm gonna get even more fat and I just can't handle this anxiety and I'm berating myself for letting myself go and gaining weight. 

Anyway sorry just needed to rant to a group that would understand this ""superficial"" problem.",1.0205931198102045,3.22063251245552,2.5505444839857674,93.45950593119812,83.30604982206405,5.45485172004745,19.686951364175567,6.742157984588678,0.12128460260972672,1060,29,235,12,30,345,140,281,0.139,0.69,0.171,0.8758,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,6,18,15,2,1,8,1,22,14,3,5,3,50,47,28,0,6,12,1,6,4,1,6,4,0,1,0,17,20,9,2,5,0,1,3,7,4,0,1,10,9,23,11,28,25,3,24,0,0,3,2,10,11,1,0,14,143,40,1,0.10428448923291572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977734882398131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928353050129342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018833512275361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922311561373866,0.0,0.11583655828253375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153888038135352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670906713655078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20663676482369636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831013536692823,0.0,0.05272937115446795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640932987795857,0.16345302432190334,0.0,0.05926727846806345,0.08746888182449025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046058455381367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066379557309698,0.0,0.20379253530473826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751454124717849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412082307100318,0.0,0.13922141269060262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12213673340308664,0.0,0.0,0.07666109871331285,0.07732562738224195,0.0,0.10071860953893397,0.11090773738094176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978617226799533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361462831913382,0.10722182348859256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725304142792892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167379477993639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718650254903679,0.0,0.10902079073637752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114924011449366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668212898773338,0.0,0.0,0.060809124305360465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832092911019705,0.0,0.10187079285161543,0.1085638310815091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365072691922376,0.6349520674036007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052652621985417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408070908289628,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throw_away2653,2019/05/09,"I’m not looking forward to warmer weather Summer is approaching and I’ve been noticing that I feel pretty out of place, especially with the clothes that I’m wearing. When I’m going out I notice that everyone around me is wearing summer clothing (t-shirts, shorts, tank tops). I feel self conscious because I don’t really like my body and the way it looks. I don’t like the way my stomach sticks out. It makes me feel gross. Since I don’t like how I look, it makes me feel even worse when strangers glance my way. 

I can’t hide my body in hoodies and sweatpants because the weather is too warm. I can’t wear shorts at all. It immediately puts me in a bad mood. I have to wear long pants to hide my legs. I can wear a t-shirt but I have to wear a jacket with it so that I can kinda hide my stomach, or at least make it less noticeable. Even with that attire, I still have trouble because the weather can get really hot and I’ll feel terrible. There has been a few times where the heat was really bad and I would get really sick and nauseous because I wouldn’t remove my jacket. 

Sometimes I won’t even go out because it’s too hot outside for me. I end up missing out. I really wish I could be comfortable to wear clothing and not feel sick because of the heat. I want to enjoy summer too but I don’t like my body so I’d rather endure the heat",2.4369314982796366,4.001698920863312,3.725351892399125,89.88184704410385,75.97841726618705,6.561401313731624,24.676884579293088,7.255503002510835,0.9439966843916164,1052,35,227,12,23,344,127,278,0.131,0.7659999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.8559,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,16,14,0,0,12,0,24,15,13,4,1,40,46,15,0,6,6,0,9,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,12,16,0,0,7,0,0,6,10,6,0,0,3,13,35,7,23,38,4,34,0,1,4,0,1,17,0,2,14,137,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896754851879934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821899356315778,0.3684426362044934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335681545885358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042868100155408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922128850647543,0.0,0.0,0.1996035036526303,0.0,0.0,0.0962565859262004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056077819495007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525973395911102,0.0,0.11450001595093635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19685608270040694,0.0,0.0,0.08914728331101772,0.2537760258288097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20172413495891825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34406231158300826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10524660897808773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248368489001368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126647349437612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226670236356296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508854885562753,0.0,0.0,0.08332901264247032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962946648723436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044708150332261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058739374262630525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059416098462017425,0.2398762040082949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584025032223184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265754599320784,0.07155923631805543,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cuttoarose,2019/05/09,"Thinspiration on my fucking TL every day since MET GALA Why, WHY is everyone sharing that fucking absurdly skinny picture of Emily Ratajkowski from the MET GALA saying “oh shit I wish I looked like this” “better put down my tacos” “this picture just called me fat”. One image that’s been circling around is an iPhone lock screen with the picture, and the words GO TO THE FUCKING GYM written over Emily’s stomach. This is fucking toxic and I’m tired of seeing it constantly on twitter. Use something other than a cropped picture of Emily Ratajkowskis stomach to inspire you to go to the gym.

Now I’ve finished stalking Emily’s twitter and feeling like shit, god dammit. God dammit! Now I’m back in the headspace I really wish I was thin guys.",4.593478260869564,6.935312913043482,4.6283333333333365,82.36250000000003,72.04347826086956,6.339130434782609,31.78985507246377,7.1686216300943375,2.1748289855072462,594,28,99,6,12,184,88,138,0.067,0.758,0.175,0.9212,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,5,11,6,0,8,0,5,11,6,1,0,12,22,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,7,5,2,0,2,2,0,3,0,6,0,1,5,6,8,5,16,17,0,16,0,0,3,4,7,7,6,0,8,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13414218257903873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158679695105962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326921890689553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386690419131285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628376639269202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717978331133012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695916564217108,0.14398660343658887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07619119613701993,0.10764986397845154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5572258497566233,0.0,0.0,0.17127626366107246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920249190104218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472348018638204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653800132610046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210850144167538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148070565930716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653309085761333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983128309267015,0.0,0.0,0.1200769598592404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093533244622313,0.12464873320266005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160051811424827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731909967851522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014402717072998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719407368621312,0.0,0.3465621396115265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loseitjen,2019/05/09,"Goddammit Panera Panera is one of my safe places because I can get filling food for a low amount of calories and can usually make a meal my OMAD. today I’d saved enough calories to order my favorite pick 2 soup and salad and picked it up during my walk. well I got home and realized they gave me two bags of chips, a full size soup, and left the wonton strips on my salad which I asked to be taken off. like I used a coupon so I got all this for less than $9 but o my god my binge eating ass wants to eat it all!!!!!! ugh thots & prayers plz",3.8685591133004915,3.65218400862069,4.707339901477834,90.82879310344828,70.98275862068967,7.318226600985223,24.33004926108375,6.1826913282559595,0.4730704433497537,419,9,98,2,7,136,85,116,0.085,0.792,0.12300000000000001,-0.4438,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,5,0,4,7,1,4,2,16,13,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,6,1,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,2,4,0,14,4,12,8,6,12,0,1,0,1,3,7,1,0,3,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344447338991204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20228358375277247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13190160485045224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44281603040899603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22357561103314585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616443120876541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304821812993855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461134156630997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704409251136644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350945893667832,0.0,0.0,0.10571102804594616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444335401149539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466228707206602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22606824398422026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20510039734490185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113691990552416,0.0,0.0,0.18688053003911495,0.2383090464714609,0.0,0.12762494843419006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945491949587044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsthrowawaymydude,2019/06/12,"Okay, ED's and anxiety... Does anyone else convince themselves that a certain food is going to give you an allergic reaction even though you have no allergies??? Or does anyone look at something and tell themselves its contaminated? I'm currently afraid of so many foods/spices/preparation styles... it's wild. And it's not even about the calories because I could binge on 2 chocolate bars and be fine (like not fine-fine..  definitely sad about the binge)... does anyone else do this??? I feel like I'm all alone here",5.677583586626143,7.454391712765961,5.338632218844985,80.70500000000001,68.04255319148936,8.77568389057751,30.44984802431611,9.23628265651192,2.6504699088145887,407,16,74,8,7,125,69,94,0.092,0.762,0.146,0.6317,1,1,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,0,7,8,0,1,4,1,5,3,0,0,2,11,11,7,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,4,6,6,9,1,4,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,3,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549004028910368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370083906190022,0.0,0.0,0.3756854709412192,0.3670112140356444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917561056500008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14299404291107173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4701858623491765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29922441656497306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23658319902036756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055661019978677,0.12794662985504865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21656429090014312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180575539163884,0.10178471156259687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499508127221164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039601742096986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157581799386555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378772942609212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653830163979798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596147683832267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,47rats,2019/06/12,"Terrible periods when restricting??? I’ve been restricting pretty well for the past month or so but I’m still at the higher end of the healthy range. I’ve never lost my period before but my periods (even when I didn’t have an ED) have always been mildly inconvenient at the most. But it’s like the second day of my period and even though I took a naproxen only a few hours ago I’m having the WORST cramps I’ve ever had in my entire life. Like, can’t stand up, hyperventilating (mostly bc I have emetophobia and I’m anxious that the pain is going to make me throw up) and I looked in the mirror and a ghost stated back at me. I literally took an anti-emetic and I’m writing this as I’m sitting in the shower LMAO so uhhhhhh is this normal bc I have no idea wtf is going on",1.7527536231884042,3.683792639751552,4.500347826086959,81.91457971014495,79.12422360248448,7.2746997929606625,20.05010351966874,8.238735603445708,1.0314145755693578,609,15,125,12,15,217,97,161,0.18899999999999997,0.684,0.128,-0.899,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,11,7,0,0,14,0,13,3,0,1,2,19,25,15,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,0,5,4,4,1,1,7,2,12,3,14,18,4,33,0,1,1,0,1,9,0,3,18,84,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664444402056319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623748975509702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121236770629852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438151381616754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597761982480135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210944170859388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630615345073255,0.0,0.0,0.2480371479604816,0.16984633190218126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21342504173166849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18491303207805232,0.0,0.0,0.21196650043097845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262564313313946,0.18346730049133916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767729652899304,0.0,0.2049702600271619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533617445183062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987411966889144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481776769875368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839721513199364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280554251945135,0.1997977153848855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17924519660863056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19102691421317186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14995126056921002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184480483173002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41723290366628707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16882541146191002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nom_de_plume85,2019/06/12,"Partners keeping you sick How many other people here have partners or have had partners that have told them they like skinny/tiny women or men?
I’ve had this said to me and I’m wondering if anybody else has dealt with the same?
How can you ever get better knowing the person you’re with only likes a very skinny frame?",4.009047619047621,5.74372704761905,4.308126984126982,86.61742857142859,72.17460317460319,5.674920634920635,23.711111111111112,5.6839178017228535,0.5404501587301587,256,7,47,1,5,80,50,63,0.05,0.818,0.132,0.6641,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,2,1,4,3,0,0,3,0,7,2,1,2,1,13,14,6,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,6,3,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,5,3,3,10,1,1,0,0,0,0,12,0,0,4,3,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26495614813487084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502625219948773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709892896831936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565193568675639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662824620425783,0.0,0.0,0.16464256568594174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927215023335016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037293725297347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278457950593647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769260597743666,0.2615836586623645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849713161922526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28626367095491245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471867247936527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248841625903016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,airanoona,2019/06/12,"everything feels wrong no matter what I do, everything feels wrong. restricting, trying to eat normally, binging, purging, c/s, everything feels so wrong. I hate having a body, I just want to disappear.",6.2628431372549045,9.085503911764707,6.530000000000005,68.4316666666667,68.70588235294117,11.5921568627451,34.86274509803922,11.20814326018867,5.274345098039217,159,8,23,6,3,51,25,34,0.47100000000000003,0.47200000000000003,0.057,-0.9557,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,8,7,1,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22060068048615294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321816508869067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5354686898254108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30125554481455497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19607714069069165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19458658444863014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348368841050849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713987777895032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6514162846077144,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sspotatoes,2019/06/12,"I decided to try getting better! I have been struggling with anorexia for eight years and I’ve had a lot of ups and downs. I’ve tried to recover in the past but I always relapse and end up worse than I was before. I’ve recently become close with someone studying nutritional science and seeing how afraid he is for my health and safety made me realize what I’m doing to myself. I know it won’t be easy, and this is the first step in a seemingly impossible process, but I really think I can do it this time. I think I can be normal again.",3.6427272727272735,4.764999954545459,5.219772727272726,82.12965909090909,72.18181818181819,8.40909090909091,27.38636363636364,8.841846274778883,2.0433636363636363,425,15,86,8,8,144,77,110,0.057999999999999996,0.8490000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.5778,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,4,0,13,1,0,2,0,21,21,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,9,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,4,1,12,1,14,14,1,14,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,2,7,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18578098863683248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465874425123034,0.1899888440199553,0.0,0.0,0.19746678892154976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977535715204866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18991586560749696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665090628118265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23732871562890845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12270497965293085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18981868616599035,0.0,0.21126627314456048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21876009533587445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21313930405918102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303437532444951,0.0,0.22045511202234533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17791964176987596,0.20325931712092352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18917845435082545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334133754144081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861285946371104,0.0,0.0,0.13019225841454513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30317536746124096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275342208514741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378046586559187
EDAnonymous,Decimsasshole,2019/06/12,"so confused with bdd and my interactions with people?? I see myself as average at best on a good day, I wouldn’t say I’m attractive. that’s fine, I hate it but it is what it is but I’ve been so confused lately. I don’t want to sound like I’m bragging or anything because I’m really not but I have had people hitting on my a few times since I started my new job, first of all my boss likes me (I think, he offers me food, talks to me about his muscle gains and made a comment about his dick I think, ‘that orders big, like me.’ 
There’s this guy who keeps coming in and making comments about my hair and how cute I am n shit, he was at the supermarket once after my shift which is when I sometimes go and one time he was sat right outside my work just before I went in for my shift but if he comes in I get someone else to serve him. 
And on Monday a man asked me if I have a boyfriend. I do. 

It’s really confusing me because I don’t think I’m attractive, I think I’m a fat sludgey waste tbh but I must be somewhat attractive if I’m getting this attention and have a SO. I’m sorry I’m just quite lost because my perspective is being contradicted and I don’t know what to do",1.5291151106111731,2.864909511811028,3.575174353205848,90.97329396325459,77.8976377952756,6.727859017622798,23.11886014248219,7.447530270364453,0.7619694788151485,912,28,212,12,21,311,138,254,0.126,0.7390000000000001,0.134,-0.1623,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,6,11,16,2,3,8,0,21,5,4,4,2,43,51,23,0,6,12,0,1,3,0,2,1,2,0,2,12,12,2,1,6,0,0,4,5,6,0,2,8,4,36,10,21,38,4,25,0,1,1,1,17,10,2,8,13,130,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165984350878609,0.0,0.13246061184808094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25911792185155863,0.0,0.1205673795695638,0.0,0.1486944515933086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441060196539325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09137804446875412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836344611265708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052106729264753,0.17133157828595122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805389408295713,0.0,0.08052544214429631,0.11884248045200355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402949407296404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13988910634874527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060502517082518,0.12594019110607196,0.0,0.0,0.07786887663433867,0.0,0.15983199516165753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20766708589416746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546708922364428,0.0,0.0,0.13407008751414876,0.0945788814894324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368446599020359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089475707637795,0.09601251276187424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19645940094946254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070428789614349,0.0,0.0,0.18153992051688056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100210999994553,0.0,0.11267722505729473,0.0,0.0,0.11290823465348485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454422971324476,0.11720706815198845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005310432702915,0.0,0.14013459776149995,0.1586098620443153,0.10028859978923102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388470116502132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631557953128543,0.0,0.0,0.16524064366259822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357217349547226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134764158025214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315168714212897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wombatdiplomat,2019/06/12,Hair Loss I’ve noticed my hair has started coming out at a pretty rapid rate. I am slowly starting to recover and was wondering if anyone has recommendations about how to reverse/prevent more hair loss. I am currently taking a multi vitamin that has biotin in it. TIA!,3.0838666666666685,6.0496787199999975,5.124000000000001,73.16866666666667,81.8,7.333333333333335,28.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,2.8891333333333336,216,10,33,5,6,74,40,50,0.091,0.728,0.18100000000000002,0.7047,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,6,4,3,1,0,6,11,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,6,10,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586616920223497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31865951802483433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42116455692490096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37634894278434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5236727372398008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781392083772001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4011702568022157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohkay-,2019/06/12,Caffeine pills? Are these helpful for getting through a fast? I hate the taste of black coffee :(,2.459803921568625,5.264304000000003,1.1964705882352966,96.57745098039216,97.23529411764706,2.266666666666667,29.196078431372552,3.1291,0.6236431372549025,76,4,13,0,3,21,17,17,0.306,0.5710000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40106343363866825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7578916538248748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5145370377927693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tst212,2019/06/12,"I guess I was in wrong sub all along Was in xxketo and posted a rant type of post before quickly realized it's not allowed to post something like that there. Ugh. Seems I belong here more. I just want to vent that these days, when I eat normally, I don't have weight gains, but when I eat very little (due to the state of mood), I gained weight. WHY? I just want to lose another 10lbs. I have never weighted 2 digits lol..thank you for reading and existing !",0.8750790513834019,3.2862305000000016,2.0370355731225342,95.35460474308302,86.3913043478261,5.084584980237153,18.14624505928854,6.574015621080383,-0.06779565217391248,354,9,76,4,11,112,68,92,0.126,0.779,0.095,-0.4026,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,3,7,5,0,0,2,0,5,5,0,1,2,16,9,5,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,3,11,1,10,7,2,13,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,7,46,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16447868685403794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347411565335673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116006268978406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210086107251881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727961379952533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663261472268322,0.1572123478608137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548333609634514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097811618023475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536869725999963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506781615072821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689987293340776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279710864586814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075650919202165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444132425599612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942380313484728,0.18503714670353466,0.0,0.0,0.5730302583570244,0.0,0.0,0.14153942852881388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714989704409741,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xxjage,2019/06/12,"I’m at a loss Trigger warning!! 
I can’t do this anymore. Recovery is too hard, the constant over eating and binging. I feel so heavily bloated and as if I gained 15 pounds in a week. I can’t look at myself, shower or change clothes. I’m tired and miserable. I’m going back to restricting tomorrow where at least I’m happier, I feel light. I wish I could go back to some sort of normal but I don’t know what that is anymore. Honestly I’m sorry that this post is so negative. I’ve been feeling so lonely, so isolated and I guess I just need some reassurance. I’ve lost so many of my friends to this disorder and so many moments. I’m supposed to be graduating high school in two weeks and here I am debating whether I should not eat so I can be skinny for grad instead of studying for finals like everyone else. I’m so screwed up. I can’t study and haven’t handed in my assignments, I’m currently not passing and may not even graduate with my friends. I don’t know who I am anymore, I used to be a straight A student with so many aspirations. I hate my eating disorder but I don’t know how to keep fighting against it anymore.",1.8300548589341723,3.848453870689661,3.8322100313479663,86.37015673981192,79.25862068965517,7.494043887147336,29.079937304075237,8.438071523408619,2.269277586206897,886,43,185,19,22,301,127,232,0.212,0.672,0.11599999999999999,-0.9765,2,2,0,0,2,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,18,12,3,1,5,0,21,7,2,3,0,40,45,24,0,6,9,0,5,1,2,2,1,0,1,0,8,10,4,2,6,0,0,3,11,7,0,1,2,7,24,5,23,37,3,24,0,4,1,1,5,11,1,7,10,120,32,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563771034778655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692585931968954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170294159752455,0.0,0.0,0.12432337315295085,0.0,0.09185451349809058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26370434384354546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531609685767045,0.09610579801362297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759865033725653,0.0,0.0,0.10993095698122228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451146644851434,0.0,0.0,0.1260267809849852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1777678192190428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076607908680798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12673564804145862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10305821910175818,0.11358366658455292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12155194420186904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225777438684208,0.0,0.0,0.18967808327187316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620544649127211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966092903663465,0.0,0.12558581230994478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34991440381646083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530482052716475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11272021640047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018183916881973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643224260025994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878407874413467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222794039660984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238278944973336,0.0,0.0,0.0993624206058116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845652078976862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229670938704113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stillweighting,2019/02/28,"Fleabag.. So my GF just put on the first episode of Fleabag and I fucking detest it because of the flippant “she’s probably anorexic” comments. 

It put me right off my god damn rice crackers. ",2.6950000000000003,5.411099611111113,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,80.66666666666667,4.711111111111111,36.77777777777778,5.985473137389443,2.2267444444444457,150,10,28,1,4,45,30,36,0.073,0.87,0.057,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,0,4,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21710443645753372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029391970519929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292529677596247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839876416816248,0.0,0.0,0.7160539579193309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30414833579238193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SurfingWhiskeyWaves,2019/02/28,"""Someone who's controlling calories in their diet isn't going to have their entire plan thrown off by 11 calories they weren't counting"" Just saw this comment on a post about Monster Zero actually having 11 calories and all I did was laugh and laugh and laugh 


then cried and added 11 calories to myfitnesspal.

Welcome to ED world",14.590327868852462,9.158300245901644,12.360737704918034,60.76602459016394,54.73770491803278,14.1672131147541,50.17213114754098,10.125756701596842,5.369026229508197,269,12,44,3,2,83,47,61,0.039,0.757,0.205,0.9042,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,2,2,4,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,1,1,7,8,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,4,4,8,4,1,7,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,1,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.42091755933943903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4837752249599322,0.0,0.0,0.4737976642450788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24513576873086426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4130965772384905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654659848374076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HannyLannyPanny,2019/02/28,"icecream at night had an interesting discussion with my brain tonight...
id love to have icecream, exactly now...whoa go slow crazy. how many calories that would be...no, not a half, you will pig it down complete anyway...why did you buy that danger stuff anyway???....oh fuck off...what about making your own...hell yeah, monster zero icecream...oh gosh, we're fully retarded now...no its bloody brilliant...sheesh, find the cube container...


i mean its actually sad. i fight real hard to get anything eaten nowadays, but somehow its still a little funny.",2.813312401883831,5.833705040816327,3.2438775510204114,85.2324411302983,85.3265306122449,5.464364207221347,25.905808477237052,7.010146845296331,1.549920565149136,426,18,72,6,13,132,85,98,0.16699999999999998,0.735,0.098,-0.5756,0,0,0,0,1,0,47.0,0,3,0,0,4,6,3,0,4,1,5,4,1,2,1,12,12,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,4,0,2,3,1,6,2,6,7,0,8,0,1,0,2,6,3,1,1,4,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.23677838660375644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996693032706211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708627655608942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543999293931521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217655182523357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243136891985228,0.12676764424741438,0.0,0.13789600963679047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735479527488846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431856836553772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21898906547928404,0.0,0.16196185958138712,0.2459954973934533,0.0,0.2643024621543122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276980756784067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761736474062265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19376995599699084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777609338371238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21894185259191412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236212692134986,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sternums,2019/02/28,"I accidentally sent my husband my weight and I want to rip every hair follicle out of my body It’s red fucking alert, my dudes. I’ve been waiting a month for background check results to come in the mail to start my dream job, and when it finally came I got super excited and sent him a close pic of it, in which you can read EVERYTHING. My height. My weight. I’m overweight and it’s been a long joke that I’ll never tell him how much I weigh. Oh my god!!! I’m so mortified. He’s at work and I’m 83% sure he’ll read that part. Fuck!!! It’s not like he’ll leave me over it but it’s fucking embarrassing and disgusting. He knows I’m trying to lose weight and even tells me for every 10 lbs I lose he’ll get me a random thing off my Amazon wishlist.  I haven’t lost any in fucking ages and I’m just maintaining at this monstrosity of a weight because I’m not trying hard enough. Thanks for listening to my rant. I feel like crying forever. ",0.10772727272727067,2.3504900000000006,2.2285101010101016,93.77943181818182,88.3939393939394,5.724242424242425,19.36111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.3602080808080812,732,22,167,12,24,245,114,198,0.182,0.711,0.107,-0.97,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,5,5,16,5,1,6,0,4,12,2,2,2,25,31,12,0,1,4,1,7,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,12,12,6,1,2,4,1,4,4,9,0,0,7,9,23,7,19,21,3,21,0,3,1,4,15,10,4,1,9,84,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734441728576337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933244320836955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12633511667350533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008374680190296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797354013690897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249337153157694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751974793867685,0.0,0.07512159137579635,0.0,0.19165506274867575,0.0,0.10221863210790444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057508366578642826,0.08125306011314666,0.0,0.12459228841130217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4205885989408884,0.059422394232335723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096511282908164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188516486040544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128654844034938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625063611390338,0.0,0.0,0.12043005960393033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113138246958627,0.0,0.0,0.10065282923300592,0.0,0.2544831050243336,0.12415633903679955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078303365564797,0.0,0.08360908674999734,0.0,0.08772025689276236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316506360594785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275336663311167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050296482368076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719488542500244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19882064963427407,0.10471287813081584,0.0,0.0,0.07556118085153424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15443863044998246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708447178726072,0.0,0.0,0.5539994951981421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280120231968595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fruitcakee,2019/02/28,"Chewing less should technically increase your metabolism If digesting your food burns calories, then wouldn't chewing less mean your body has to work harder to break it down? Working harder = burning more calories? I'm not trying to encourage anyone to swallow their food whole and risk choking, but I really want to understand how the science here plays out. Does anyone know?",6.377282051282054,9.419969523076926,5.699615384615388,73.49455128205129,69.15384615384616,8.025641025641027,33.91025641025641,8.841846274778883,3.5020256410256403,309,15,44,6,6,94,52,65,0.081,0.823,0.096,0.2609,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,1,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,3,7,1,1,0,12,8,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,3,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,7,6,5,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,28,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395520838343632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26970343018299864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124817190163572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872054839519755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334401744451007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644876023411394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555481452254547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484976419014954,0.0,0.0,0.25277026588682405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321364185539406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710849323654373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535322383341594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sammy_leigh,2019/02/28,"Starting a PHP program on Monday and kind of freaking out... Inpatient was hell for me, it physically started to heal me but mentally fucked me up even more.

I'm exhausted, stressed af about paying for it, and I'm so scared of losing all control. Any advice of starting recovery (again) ?",5.279150943396228,7.038765924528303,6.052971698113207,75.26549528301891,69.0,9.073584905660377,35.89150943396226,9.516144504307137,3.7579471698113216,226,12,38,5,4,74,43,53,0.386,0.614,0.0,-0.9818,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,8,2,2,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,6,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,3,1,10,6,2,8,1,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,5,25,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598574445681692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083715322184052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982559067686767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564001652119113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24584206455723245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769184870148816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975004652606385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679884226186262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662358941965946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5646662356060718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046145622826824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basicassbrowngirl,2019/02/28,waste of a day i restricted all day but at night i literally binged 2200 cal.... WHY AM I LIKE THIS ,0.6414285714285732,2.380827666666669,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,81.85714285714286,8.009523809523811,20.02380952380953,8.841846274778883,1.0001238095238096,75,2,19,2,2,26,18,21,0.168,0.635,0.19699999999999998,0.3918,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.680063766064944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575871504327113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4947873187102312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757600690064906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,llllllllambtalk,2019/02/28,"Pill heartburn HOLY SHIT Ugh guys I feel like I'm fucking dying. I always take iron, vitamin C, hair/skin/nails vitamin, birth control, and zoloft before bed and never feel anything unusual. But tonight..TONIGHT it feels like an angry black hole opened up in my stomach. I've been in so much pain for an hour and a half, nothing has seemed to help besides waiting.  
   
I had eaten a little earlier in the evening but maybe it wasn't enough..any tips to make this never happen again?",3.0330676328502406,5.463306413043476,3.4031884057971027,88.87031400966184,77.26086956521739,5.828019323671497,26.52657004830918,6.937597516519254,1.266546859903381,378,15,71,4,9,117,74,92,0.102,0.802,0.09699999999999999,-0.3518,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,0,5,0,4,10,2,2,2,15,15,6,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,1,1,3,4,1,2,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,4,4,2,7,11,1,11,0,0,1,1,2,6,2,1,7,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644279807000568,0.0,0.0,0.1343820916188005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261681608496206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681522001091658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2216372679792664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205088767809841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041847374215141,0.0,0.1305200417699769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997538099433546,0.2823463296152496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826879612651139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956657184729042,0.1747465404421001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13245432545118654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460679070931536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930852690450198,0.198057893455378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319067152582194,0.0,0.19852656683204004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452666443175917,0.0,0.30481919735809304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961285163463987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210271778820292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17989741209741775,0.0,0.0,0.20284460306812455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857869685158134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachgoo,2019/02/28,"I think I may be getting an eating disorder.... I want to be skinny! I want to be skinny so bad!! I'm well overweight. 257lbs last time I checked and I had been talking to my therapist about how sometimes if I eat to the point of my being stuffed, ill force myself to throw it up. 

She didn't say much and kinda glossed over it. I'm worried of what I may be digging myself into but no one is concerned in the slightest (and ive told all the people closest to me) 

Ive been restricting and overexercising for a week now. Ive tried it before and failed, but I'm determined this time! I will not fail! Im tired of hating my body! I'm tired of it!! 

Honestly.....I don't think I care if I develop an eating disorder tbh.....I just want to be thin....",0.24708144796380085,2.3082466794871803,2.6631825037707406,92.31319004524887,85.41025641025641,5.721870286576168,21.99698340874811,7.048011613610866,0.6523187028657618,566,20,127,8,17,194,92,156,0.191,0.696,0.113,-0.9406,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,6,6,1,0,6,0,18,10,3,1,1,23,31,11,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,6,6,6,1,2,0,1,1,4,4,1,1,5,2,21,2,17,17,2,13,0,2,0,0,4,7,0,5,5,84,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777030690847865,0.0,0.0,0.1302138436972778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699773738696225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560201919826776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35076207637901663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697513618034455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07994976208207412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15108148069634034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529432491553026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473660318263564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249170754422892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369436886155604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608895133751436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465901970386658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169240655502665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15134661360843968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299649150504408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767496491560578,0.0,0.1961057465852316,0.0,0.0,0.17846136677379384,0.35176172112168985,0.0,0.14622288797769334,0.0,0.10389460000955712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27077607498392564,0.0,0.12274821606261885,0.0,0.13758873963258214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15540531744706138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gayperidot,2019/02/28,"DAE feel the weight right after eating ANYTHING? After I eat pretty much anything I can FEEL the fat on my body, especially my face. It just feels different! Like I'm suddenly hyper aware of any amount of pudge on my cheeks whatsoever. Even if it's like a cucumber or something. I can never tell if I'm imagining it or not so it makes me feel like I'm crazy which makes the whole thing even worse :(",2.8299107142857167,4.762222312500004,4.059642857142858,86.31250000000004,75.875,7.571428571428572,22.67857142857143,8.418075326091056,1.289357142857143,315,9,65,6,7,103,53,80,0.098,0.773,0.129,0.3802,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,2,7,4,2,1,14,11,5,0,2,6,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,7,3,6,11,3,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,7,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12754655630264125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086901630817466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833577441359813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595924221592548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38383937624635134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24776191017268584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37934187744127895,0.13399219194054166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748955702667729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503941869293718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787745082066655,0.0,0.14465706869724254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081493860504295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16017436701003962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443920867457136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639348389490899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460587002894435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283963416029608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094029329841701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19113865155279075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thepeelofanorange,2019/02/28,"The meal plan my parents are using for me is literally 4,500 calories Ughghfhfjejdkkkkjjfjd why did I even tell them and go into recovery. I feel fat and bloated and gross!!! Family based treatment is HARD you guys, being a kid is HARD. I gotta do everything my parents tell me to do and there’s no negotiations allowed :/",3.666,6.327832266666667,5.223333333333333,75.42500000000003,76.33333333333334,8.0,28.33333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.6573333333333333,256,11,45,6,6,86,47,60,0.204,0.7959999999999999,0.0,-0.8966,3,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,8,2,1,2,0,8,12,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,3,9,0,3,9,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285160119936656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215936537859952,0.0,0.23243631846864998,0.0,0.12466894548122635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012663049803098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441347330342842,0.0,0.0,0.4417415002026792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5475549220316975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310113850286702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129500447647072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22248347983026948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,doggolemon,2019/02/28,"Does it upset anyone else when you’re told to gain weight? [rant] I can’t be the only one. I absolutely hate when people tell me I need to gain weight, and I’m not sure if it’s the fact that I have an eating disorder or I just dislike people telling me what to do. 

Either way, it’s really annoying. Especially when all my friends at school tell me I need to gain a few pounds, but as soon as I eat literally anything at home my moms boyfriend looks at me in disgust and asks, “are you really gonna eat that?” ",2.6448831775700943,3.693054925233647,4.403820093457946,87.31171144859816,74.51401869158876,7.966822429906544,23.655373831775687,8.472884824447931,1.2100850467289723,395,11,90,7,8,134,73,107,0.159,0.7609999999999999,0.08,-0.8168,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,3,5,6,3,1,4,0,5,5,0,0,3,13,13,10,0,3,6,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,3,14,2,10,10,3,9,0,0,1,0,8,4,0,2,4,54,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106619681316435,0.15623688579972053,0.12548054286310026,0.0,0.1425510511367579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475876507573287,0.0,0.13343892878680427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4680846272144199,0.1273800069629734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780801220080643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15054542534852602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295291370916772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12804734296893042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785862840534207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261284721070662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332644871204287,0.11597021691382205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21142506984010576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19536906958156805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543209689703987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14371345300975644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998306725451289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457040715038805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103393322683326,0.0,0.37136650738943205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NeverPerfectEnough,2019/02/28,"Halo Top dairy free candy bar Holy fuck. You guys. I have a monster sore throat so I just wanted cold stuff for dinner. Grabbed a box of sugar free popsicles. Just past that was the Halo Top section. In previous experience, the birthday cake flavor was atrocious & cinnamon bun was okay at best. So I don't know why I even stopped. But I did, and the candy bar flavor caught my eye. Holy cats. This is, like, actually good. The weird texture of HT is masked by the peanuts & swirls. The play doh flavor is almost unnoticeable under the coconut chocolate. I may or may not have just eaten the entire container in one go, for the first time in forever. (On an unrelated note, my hands are freezing.) ",2.409949874686717,5.089039218045116,3.5717593984962406,85.24736340852131,81.6315789473684,6.2534335839599,23.904260651629077,7.554174236665415,1.359461553884712,548,20,102,9,15,177,96,133,0.066,0.767,0.16699999999999998,0.9259999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,1,0,12,1,13,10,3,0,0,14,19,5,0,1,6,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,5,2,1,3,2,2,2,2,0,2,6,9,9,9,11,11,2,15,0,0,1,1,2,9,1,4,5,62,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2290389276843432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350238771241501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5086071028336945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463091747453113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502091562895032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22958723233216236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19964056698946808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169816577259067,0.0,0.0,0.1333886704448863,0.196860023835187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323955648767136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898812656848002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146653601849613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904267126444102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22405316888088267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962244927784636,0.0,0.0,0.2686818985092592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685879378417298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843551568179752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117854077061272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,desperate_housecat,2019/02/28,"""You better gain a pound for every one of those you eat!"" I work in an office building, and there are 5 other peoole in my cubicle pod. They are all really fun to talk to and we along really well, except for one thing: they comment on my weight. A lot. Most of it is really benign and I don't mind it, but today I think it went a little bit too far.

We all ordered girl scout cookies a few weeks ago, and they got delivered on monday. I've left mine at my desk so I won't binge them at home, and was eating a couple today. I made a joke about how I have to leave them at work or I'll inhale the whole box. I got the (pretty much inevitable) ""oh, but you can get away with it!"" but then I heard ""you better gain a pound for every one of those you eat!"" And nobody even acted like that was strange. (Though, to her credit, my coworker that I've talked to that also has an ED looked appropriately uncomfortable..)

I'm just not really sure what to make of that. ",0.330504545454545,2.4354506050000038,2.4694545454545462,93.5497272727273,85.45,5.4363636363636365,14.590909090909092,6.782984794422108,-0.4849999999999999,731,11,166,9,22,246,124,200,0.031,0.825,0.14400000000000002,0.97,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,2,5,5,6,10,9,0,0,11,0,10,4,0,3,3,27,20,15,0,0,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,13,10,4,0,1,1,1,2,3,0,1,3,7,4,26,9,25,12,8,20,0,0,1,0,18,11,0,3,7,116,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439907008831733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320487540241027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212509960536374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22827652038316745,0.1408941415714689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427964026954902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3961650632945623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523931180573416,0.0,0.21746804551914006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742567479534613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064334227717146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945223409980314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13665013231695194,0.14021814400091134,0.0,0.0,0.06304953335146879,0.12934656093339705,0.0,0.0,0.10837331709411056,0.0,0.0,0.1097175616677787,0.0,0.12211453371766708,0.08614491290909082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030830415490266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948699419801149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623521050303003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312948712545112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307025922948205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163238418383235,0.0,0.0,0.20745831435180945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573810720799734,0.08269294335848358,0.1267954381555894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446572430868113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351977394817916,0.15715367195558544,0.1160355374722006,0.11963485892999864,0.0,0.14408479402852706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790649593963207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throooowaawayyy,2019/01/26,"I feel like absolute shit I’ve been in recovery for 3/4 years. I’m at my highest weight. I was having sex with my boyfriend he tried to pick me up but he couldn’t. I know if I was at my lowest he would’ve been able to. I’ve never felt so fat and disgusting in my life. I feel so awful, I can’t eat bc I just don’t want to. It was probably one of the worst feelings in my life ",-0.9508045977011506,0.6703617356321843,1.8788505747126472,98.80954022988509,86.816091954023,5.705747126436782,17.712643678160926,6.937597516519254,-0.2196528735632186,289,7,77,4,9,101,57,87,0.23800000000000002,0.727,0.035,-0.97,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,1,9,7,2,1,1,14,16,5,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,5,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,6,5,13,1,12,9,1,8,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,1,3,45,14,0,0.2599572918683951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660012079904293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39432665283397994,0.1857135412527044,0.2495997669408709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428657291403624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672310461942236,0.12700200185688934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049508934760732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17615378871761744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802779283485666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668424244162442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649393713384204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533295460051671,0.0,0.0,0.3165579485935288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466620160423355,0.0,0.0,0.16740397292864173
EDAnonymous,atleast14dogs,2019/01/26,"I'm slipping back into disordered thinking, and it's been months since I've weighed myself. Now, I'm terrified to check, and it's making everything worse. I guess the title is misleading, since I never really stopped having disordered thoughts, but they were less intrusive for a while, and I've been better about not letting the compulsive thoughts affect my behavior too much.

But lately, I'm stressed the fuck out. I'm in medical school (first year) and on top of that, I'm getting married this summer. I want to lose weight for the wedding--which, for the record, I don't think is disordered inherently... like, doesn't pretty much everyone feel this way? Anyway, it's occurring to me that I'm at that time where I need to get serious about a diet/exercise plan if I want to accomplish this in any sort of ""healthy"" or ~sustainable~ way. Which is (was?) my hope.

So I decided, hey, I'm gonna get a FitBit and make sure I exercise every day and track my food with the goal of ensuring I'm getting all my necessary macro and micronutrients while eating at a healthy deficit. Sounds pretty great, right? Recovery queen right here.

EXCEPT FOR ONE MAJOR FUCKING PROBLEM.

Every. *Single*. Fitness tracker. They all require you to input a starting weight. And the thing is, I haven't weighed myself in months. It's enabled me to be slightly less neurotic about how I eat. Because I know... *I know*... that I've put on more than I'd be happy to see on the scale. And I have been able to force myself to be okay with it, because my clothes fit, I'm healthy by all metrics (I've been to several doctor's appointments for various things recently, so I'm actually confident in this), and I actually do think I look good right now. I could look better IMO if I lost weight, but I'd say I'm still a decently attractive individual.

But I want to lose weight/get in shape for my *own damn wedding*. And I want to do it without fucking up my recovery. Fuck me, right? I've been procrastinating getting a FitBit because I'm absolutely fucking terrified to know that number right now. I know it's going to freak me out, because there's no way it isn't drastically higher than what I would feel comfortable seeing. It's been taking up more and more of my mental energy over the past couple weeks, since I started putting this plan of mine together. My eating habits have already gotten less stable and more emotionally-driven. I know where this leads.

I feel lost and I don't know what to do.",3.591204481792719,5.750294310924372,4.720336134453781,81.40603641456585,74.37815126050421,8.230812324929971,28.35014005602241,8.976282227363876,2.501340896358543,1956,81,366,44,42,641,222,476,0.133,0.7040000000000001,0.16399999999999998,0.9159999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,0,85.0,0,1,2,16,17,25,6,1,16,1,29,17,0,5,5,67,86,26,0,11,10,0,6,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,25,19,9,2,15,1,1,4,9,14,0,2,13,12,45,11,53,66,16,56,0,4,4,5,6,27,6,6,23,225,70,7,0.06790460969831996,0.0,0.13253020741569949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493442535718342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046177463143143575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05221445335659745,0.0,0.16557607921718176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011221813717733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421630539572858,0.07513515906487267,0.0,0.04379285564721711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334736970812939,0.06950324539091253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845010437733075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442512474527194,0.06488576455486363,0.06102828468234055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300383290610723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05775962632030501,0.08211052358701061,0.0,0.0,0.3138835873289684,0.21286413544777774,0.0,0.03859175455389981,0.05695516490256505,0.0,0.07486507191672886,0.07480458321608904,0.0,0.0,0.0722857197049482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744459918149669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239115857874111,0.0,0.0765993574563153,0.0,0.0,0.0694370640945965,0.0,0.03317476230427626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404553986724543,0.15193577785189352,0.14825180591061873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065370852312876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840675034379366,0.0684318752412555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084016232268669,0.0,0.0998354026655924,0.05035040767511898,0.05237222118574579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04601392091669345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482263352379017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816680042208415,0.0,0.0649755407634372,0.0,0.13652577625171955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04350143176964954,0.0,0.06704761000393743,0.0,0.0,0.2899508282894068,0.0,0.054000471123568365,0.0,0.068723090268792,0.10822236458021227,0.0,0.0,0.07671288068039997,0.0,0.16851418454797504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961264644951578,0.0,0.05422870902103855,0.05677129427494241,0.07778450098369788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399929102262021,0.0,0.051055815660189685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902256107491906,0.13053159608015233,0.0,0.10781735016391658,0.03959572398949625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602075925913629,0.16169855543733855,0.05446898195707661,0.3307580840167661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654576205675325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06920059853569234,0.04823748645125537,0.0,0.0,0.04372834230563688
EDAnonymous,plumtree18,2019/01/26,"So do all thin people have disordered eating or what I just found out last night that a friend of a friend was just diagnosed with an ED. Here I was thinking her effortless skinniness came from a natural disinterest food. Another close friend who I was always envious of body-wise once revealed she was a childhood anorexic and was dealing with intense binge-purging episodes up until our sophomore year of college. And then I have another stick skinny acquaintance who casually dropped on days she’s feeling anxious she straight up doesn’t eat and ends up routinely fainting!! 

At this point I swear that almost all young women who seem “naturally skinny” aren’t really naturally skinny at all. And on one hand it reassures me like “duh CICO” but also makes me incredibly sad that so many people are being silently tortured by FOOD, out of all things. And that it’s such a common thing but for some reason it’s so taboo to actually bring up. 

I wonder who else is silently struggling around me. 

This is just something that’s been on my mind since last night, didn’t know where else to share + was curious to hear others’ feelings/experiences ",7.326065934065932,8.182948295238099,7.1176190476190495,72.80456043956045,63.66666666666667,10.271062271062274,35.201465201465204,10.214889679676881,3.7256849816849815,922,40,155,20,13,292,137,210,0.08199999999999999,0.799,0.11900000000000001,0.213,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,0,11,11,2,1,6,1,17,11,5,2,4,35,27,14,0,0,6,0,3,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,18,12,8,1,8,1,0,2,3,4,0,1,10,4,15,7,25,16,5,32,0,1,0,0,17,17,0,5,13,106,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.1263931135761583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296958551753314,0.0,0.0,0.10357732425300102,0.1077712518714836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716266215344217,0.0,0.14632105434166082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530051257978716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813670020223124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352986817988378,0.13352972550051187,0.0,0.13146036179388446,0.0,0.0,0.14844146647856155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650631704401905,0.2163951550634847,0.0,0.11471652789231905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669569066349798,0.0,0.0,0.06548934719687673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31323288285449274,0.14201230608613732,0.3002011501929579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597877322051164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118096079202102,0.21115263646663165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327706839896992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645579525522155,0.13131323887811738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077856467230248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430920250204709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793487528544487,0.0877662963925771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958611348504913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122438532955826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08297401043281685,0.13316842343817106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791040203519446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714051728075608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971104234686416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540272261729214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17209504292301886,0.08299136813333788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14045922294117566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340681635240191
EDAnonymous,MacaroonRiot,2019/01/26,"Has anyone else lost weight because of their ED and then had their SO become more attracted to them? I knew my boyfriend found me more attractive. During my study abroad I’ve been depressed and eating about once a day. Don’t even like eating anymore. Over the months I’ve lost about two or three pants sizes. All my teachers and acquaintances bug me about becoming thinner and keep saying how they’re concerned for me. It feels like no one else’s business and it’s annoying.

I brought this up to my boyfriend today about these comments over the phone and I finally got my boyfriend to admit that he finds me more attractive than I used to be. It makes me feel like shit because he told me before it was the same amount of attraction. I knew he was lying to me but it still hurts to know that it is true that I’m more attractive when I’m thinner. Now I have even less of a desire to eat.

He says he does find me more attractive but it’s not healthy to eat like that. I feel conflicted and it’s upsetting me.",3.211275480489228,5.053932346534655,3.4728305183459547,91.32787711124055,74.54455445544555,7.129178800232964,25.24868957483984,7.928766900206844,1.2590561444379729,802,27,169,12,17,247,115,202,0.11199999999999999,0.732,0.156,0.8565,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,2,11,18,2,1,5,0,9,6,1,3,2,30,27,14,0,1,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,14,7,5,2,10,0,0,1,3,7,0,3,12,6,24,11,20,14,9,12,0,4,0,0,14,3,1,1,12,103,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182910858872348,0.08589599428960618,0.12586909363055832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977019363822214,0.2713450304468905,0.10453194238103204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922478296700489,0.0,0.10580611256057157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750237970666024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.502803909745127,0.2052422632596066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227576537222396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18634218267231345,0.17552080936006953,0.0,0.134570558152041,0.22455598412531785,0.0,0.0,0.13469306696484898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825027023632757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315079815751716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919017106580138,0.0,0.0,0.06751233173248132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24006320708663625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681993894700875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08199990930889876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805360881924254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082578479037965,0.0832428679109813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538235365807124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609850092032618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981040774637324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644257952907285,0.1173835443826307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200015947779839,0.0,0.0,0.10609853156413616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959196559311302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-igaveup-,2019/01/26,b/p so i have been binging and purging so much lately and i really dont know what to do. i only eat when i b/p bc i cant bring kyself to and im purging around 1-4 times a day. i feel like i have no one to reach out to. i dont see my therapist anymore bc i was doing well and now she's on medical leave and i never told her about my eating issues anyways bc it kinda went away for a couple months. what should i do? i feel like i cant do this anymor and i need to do something. oh and its nepot just b/p thats just my main problem rn sometimes i restrist and fast mainly and chew and spit soooo. idfk how to deal with myself anymore,-1.7951070780399263,0.07043128965517552,1.5463157894736843,97.56894736842106,94.72413793103449,3.88021778584392,15.90744101633394,5.399115186594226,-0.8089310344827583,487,12,119,3,19,174,90,145,0.049,0.885,0.066,0.2732,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,11,4,0,0,2,0,14,5,1,1,1,24,22,14,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,13,3,0,3,0,0,2,6,1,1,1,4,3,21,3,13,17,3,14,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,10,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482291730701185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341152915649217,0.0,0.0,0.14154575481795506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166697390229113,0.0,0.09716030202010112,0.15531915398635052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35313413142413635,0.0,0.0,0.30831627363416103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235184470888885,0.21525656757355036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273373891405954,0.1572451485838894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279629549683988,0.0,0.16994591001224693,0.15952236892322133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720528621811285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517695164060169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025174308153265,0.0,0.11074909059856856,0.11170910743886718,0.11619477087454914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208803210756326,0.11458025873717527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415691946081444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965137392065584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005288845112234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598192598960105,0.14900209258284602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17492258954998333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784840460086532,0.0,0.0,0.14395773894585795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545734279942875,0.13965911176758727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,devilsplaythang,2018/12/27,For those of you who purge and take medication... I just get really worried about purging especially if I've taken my meds too soon before because I don't want them to not work because I'm pretty mentally fucked up and take a lot. Does anyone else deal with this?,10.591153846153851,6.806775807692307,10.434615384615388,66.56038461538463,60.153846153846146,13.476923076923079,39.46153846153846,11.20814326018867,4.191238461538462,210,7,40,4,2,70,46,52,0.152,0.7879999999999999,0.06,-0.6014,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,1,4,1,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,8,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,6,7,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,2,1,24,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955486700299133,0.24845998473876246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956396916219624,0.0,0.20634139850832275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499968678978175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122049094887009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202569543191064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22417838953998392,0.12669118159798035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206156594975592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693520753489836,0.2442834819149543,0.24437320401699664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24669982803252324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534550563459018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646450784110589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430270709788996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653583796369532,0.2462606864766627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prizepersonality8,2018/12/27,"Please rationally analyse my situation for me I am just about to burst 

For Boxing Day (Day 1) and day after (Day 2), I (22F, 168cm, 55kg TDEE 1600) managed to consume 3500kcal worth of food. 2200 of them being fats and protein, 600 from vegetables, 400 fruits, 300 cake. I anticipate major water retention/ bloating but really all I want to do is purge right the fk now

This happened because I am utterly stressed out. Micromanaged by my family since I came over to stay for Christmas for a week. I don't go back to uni until Day 4 

I really really want my body to revert back to usual on Day 6 since it's New Years eve and I'm seeing my boyfriend that I haven't seen for a while now and I don't want to be with him while im all stressed out about my body. I want to start my fast right now and get at least 3.5days of fast, but of course I fuking can't because my family will force me to eat especially when there's a lunch planned for tomorrow. fasting means I shouldn't be eating a damn thing in between or it ruins it entirely, not to mention adding to my calories. I'm sad and furious with myself. Doesn't help that it's cold as fuck and I haven't gotten a good night's sleep for a week now. And I have 4 essays to submit in mid January.

please please please where is the silver lining in this can somebody sane please just calm me down

​",3.524032258064516,4.522836555555556,4.8225430107526845,85.33381451612907,72.33333333333333,8.160645161290322,25.777956989247308,8.548686976883017,1.5793754838709675,1065,33,227,18,20,354,161,279,0.13,0.7709999999999999,0.1,-0.9474,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,1,13,9,3,2,8,0,18,12,4,0,2,27,34,16,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,13,8,0,1,0,1,2,8,7,0,0,3,4,29,2,43,26,4,45,0,2,2,1,4,13,2,1,29,135,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055286595265054,0.11834695104469015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978321471132106,0.0,0.11874354623168824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163702744806084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139521908913733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768746551131061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993210993854826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18363279511193314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777177959230913,0.0,0.0,0.09004114710187643,0.05088545484773272,0.0,0.05535246169251533,0.08169124777825228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612707068670852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528256881099452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520452704338387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609293155159463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406578335179314,0.0,0.09139966446197892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5345584825364038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18718335277314585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16635151525113154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761210080942384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611341602657565,0.10947732397272217,0.0974664621905044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06893747777357108,0.10381130908373674,0.0,0.0,0.22313386166250207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0647056569519679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072680704271827,0.0,0.2297870292312841,0.0,0.15625059145722192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834695104469015,0.06271991051791573
EDAnonymous,pyrostride,2018/12/27,"my workplace fuels my ed my lunch breaks aren't scheduled and i more often than not don't get one at all because of my heavy task load

even now i'm sitting here doing nothing, waiting for appointments to end while my blood sugar levels scream 

i love not wasting calories but getting faint easily is hereditary for me, it sucks knowing the amount of times i've probably fucked up transactions in a restrictive haze 

i'm constantly over-analyzing sales lately too, bc i can tell my slow grinding gears pisses customers off with the way they shuffle around the register and give me eyes as i rack my brain to remember pricing and try to figure out the change i owe them :\^/

tl;dr my boss forgets to give me time to eat and there's nothing my sad ed brain is gonna do about it",6.35023391812866,6.585653263157897,6.367719298245612,79.49014619883043,65.71052631578948,9.387134502923976,33.33625730994152,9.150863307647796,2.838032748538012,624,25,117,10,9,198,113,152,0.092,0.8390000000000001,0.069,-0.6848,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,8,6,3,0,5,0,7,11,5,1,1,19,20,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,7,3,2,3,0,3,1,4,5,0,1,0,3,19,1,19,19,3,20,0,1,1,2,7,7,3,1,9,69,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668558704516084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141413341291393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4180492709654033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807781397576696,0.0,0.0,0.2023427014744478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915958965850256,0.0,0.0,0.1658413424856352,0.0,0.0,0.1236719530533198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310274087104194,0.1956530317110679,0.3592402740865077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029036208997442,0.0,0.2112177772256704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16899373190596065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35932859609395795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688041284164173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018791620557952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210933361658288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636582612087924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183652993035134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712541564170746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862443843846568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kibblecum,2018/12/27,"New Years I stopped trying to lose weight after I got back into school and they started addressing things like suicide, depression, anxiety, and among the list was eating disorders. I had (well, still have) a bitch of a teacher who likes to out me specifically and I didn't want her getting into my life so I tried to act cool, but I'm so unhappy with myself. I've been binging on food constantly and I'm tired of not doing anything about it. Somewhere around New Year's Eve or day I'm gonna try to hop back into a routine and get to my goal weight.   


Wish me luck. I already feel numb. :(",2.8709322033898275,4.663081686440679,4.0120000000000005,87.31562711864406,75.35593220338983,7.092881355932204,26.206779661016952,7.908726449838941,1.5094854237288136,461,17,94,7,10,150,88,118,0.225,0.675,0.1,-0.9341,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,1,2,8,9,1,0,4,1,6,7,0,0,0,19,17,9,1,2,3,0,3,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,11,4,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,5,4,13,5,17,11,0,21,0,2,0,0,3,7,1,2,15,57,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17394450881057225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058366527434805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297129897604026,0.1403207992035527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424097442165869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17033800034677138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016559041943362,0.0,0.13576327556633558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18065336176892816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129102587404864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970057836148478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060231162701896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470644080856736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260681277267921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113360962172728,0.1540164672356866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634347713501444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044728680151312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15952620072509435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156868535793908,0.0,0.12588054300988571,0.13178261993902995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17241755583909146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471988988434508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116820985399712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32105367185277744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297205813014707,0.0,0.0,0.383892664721069,0.14172494707961342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126243165653394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301230007965654
EDAnonymous,Itry7890,2018/12/27,"Does anybody else wish they could meet someone just like them? Someone to encourage you on your journey and who is so similar to you that you can talk to each other freely.
I have no one and I always complain about it because ranting makes me feel a little better. The other thing is I don’t want or need online friends because it’s not the same at all. I’ve just been having a rough time recently which is another reason why I like watching Eugenia so much. I can relate to having no support from having anyone in your real life although she has many friends and I have 0.
I can’t believe I’m starting the new year off alone again. I’ve never been this depressed. ",3.384627477785376,5.183112917293233,4.2968831168831185,85.7912987012987,73.96240601503759,6.340123034859878,27.88038277511961,6.980632752743323,1.4632917293233092,530,21,100,5,11,171,95,133,0.09,0.723,0.187,0.9175,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,5,2,1,6,9,0,0,5,0,16,1,0,2,2,19,24,7,0,4,4,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,2,0,1,2,3,16,7,10,21,4,13,0,1,1,0,15,5,0,1,9,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394911900338992,0.0,0.0,0.1477847224013661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862382785910049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418817976120824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165373121790052,0.0,0.0,0.20010426030821774,0.0,0.1570805215236901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14180614859551433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15297417109119935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542662921807365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836933488623405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980432933337769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744401861994526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545032491533764,0.17354134475241104,0.1780106444115218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11855523138042932,0.18006741332436654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305628799505525,0.13169465053930382,0.13698283063618946,0.1715356542853041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035229732730833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20215766078537306,0.0,0.18261139356445671,0.17536723090580628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009746644766581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571239969844686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154832446302398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427551995190251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799537308594228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356510055079936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475825268485696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16026428728333278,0.0,0.20424131722635835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143742230601571
EDAnonymous,soup_slut,2018/12/27,"Hey, everyone who feels like shit after the holidays: It's temporary. It doesn't define you. You can change one day's gain in one day of fasting, or two/three days of restricting.

It doesn't make you a bad person. Most people indulge over the holidays. Now is the time to make a difference! It's not what you eat on Christmas/whatever you celebrate, it's what you eat every other day! And there are SO many other days to do well on!

Love you all, and feel free to message me if ya need support. We're all in this together. I ate a lot in December. I ate over my TDEE. But I'll be lower in January than I was this month, and you can too.",0.7788721804511312,2.879982639097747,3.020263157894739,90.32934210526315,83.5112781954887,7.1082706766917285,21.530075187969928,8.192908349453996,1.194151879699248,493,16,109,11,14,168,87,133,0.059000000000000004,0.726,0.215,0.9699,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,9,0,1,5,7,1,0,6,0,9,6,1,2,2,17,18,7,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,12,3,4,1,2,2,1,0,3,2,1,2,3,2,14,6,15,14,4,18,0,0,0,1,14,8,1,4,11,74,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330626341866498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815648011153724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5534449578199365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17931980153563756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512465142839017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460808139195255,0.16400254651794022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735654552643449,0.12261454471041165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838511426251023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459161142493856,0.15490535112127266,0.0,0.2291325246929498,0.17400877443166107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699570605238304,0.0,0.0,0.12726358598970985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326057266145656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898860990506785,0.14986318733704912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761786575094117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19476692801373066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008049700960372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16766035847112706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543185474176905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,premium_chaos,2018/12/27,"Triggered and close to slipping back to extreme restriction. I don’t use that word lightly, because I know how it’s often paired with a heavy eye roll.

Beware: long. 

I’ve struggled with anorexia, which turned into bulimia later on. I recently relapsed but have been grinding tooth and nail to recovery in a healthy way for the first time in years. My eating habits were intuitive and in control, but I still needed single-serve portioning.

So that led to me eating out a lot. I work in a dive shop and was shivering for close to 8h of diving today. I was extremely hungry and kept eating low to mid cal portions to avoid binging (veg soup, some nuts, vegetables).

My dad comments about how I “eat so much” and proceeds to make fun of how I’ll never stop. We’re about to part ways and I purchase 2 eggs to make at home (still ravenous), and he gets very annoyed about me not purchasing 10 eggs for convenience (in an effort to avoid binging). 

This leads to a fight and I feel so fucking guilty for eating. I don’t have money in this currency, so I’m asking him to buy me food now and then. We have a sort of discussion, but I don’t want to talk about my ED and we part ways with him annoyed.

I don’t want to eat the eggs I bought. I don’t want to ask him for food later. It’s so much easier not to eat because the way I’ve been recovering is too much of an inconvenience and it’s causing conflict.

Rant over.",3.300672215108833,4.7227017816901435,4.402291933418695,86.49283610755445,73.43661971830986,7.558002560819463,26.64148527528809,8.150884317080207,1.6090690140845068,1102,39,227,17,22,360,156,284,0.13699999999999998,0.7929999999999999,0.07,-0.9645,0,2,0,0,1,0,34.0,2,0,0,5,18,9,4,3,11,0,14,16,2,11,1,55,31,24,0,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,21,13,7,2,1,7,2,8,8,0,1,7,3,25,1,44,24,9,37,0,1,1,1,13,15,1,4,16,143,33,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18125293604399104,0.0,0.0,0.07454141414133103,0.0,0.11818830131701738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995848019553414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872723755064446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6943617581932544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04901613042121703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245770949254551,0.23444215731840184,0.0,0.0,0.08962011462789338,0.05064751442122911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972394256836217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053276073239826624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578946853242267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241551610269486,0.0,0.0,0.12941733937766536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21378770486894785,0.07188030036556288,0.0747666436771151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20995466156358025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571724576636707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483393572581425,0.08104676551886482,0.0,0.10134346722444636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779172622285894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056526901468632186,0.0,0.09188844816984096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054436438589873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372563934907692,0.0,0.07998622955827746,0.17153440867771,0.3077880602545633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07057398381129756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062426632167480275
EDAnonymous,mks_993,2018/12/27,"I wish I would let myself go on dates before reaching my goal weight... But I just feel like, how can anybody be into me at this weight. Granted, my first goal weight is 10 lbs away, but that can make a huge difference. 

Idk. I’m conflicted. ",1.4250000000000007,3.656616500000002,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,81.91666666666666,5.506666666666668,20.016666666666666,6.742157984588678,0.16241166666666684,184,5,40,2,5,58,39,48,0.033,0.77,0.19699999999999998,0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,2,0,10,11,3,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,1,4,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,25,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030330841450348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838852021112043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257785283318221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926666414762486,0.15438189881830403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838145682263892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281462246804965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22097691360876115,0.0,0.10557555506258393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14424844265692482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7894548269379529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24850436031424716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351125533938498,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ssakii,2018/12/27,"binged for the past few days and have a second date in two days basically i feel disgusting and look like a whale because i have absolutely no self control. 
i even jokingly warned my date that my cheeks will be chubbier because of all the holiday eating i’ve done and he adorably replied that he’s good with chubbiness and thinks my cheeks are cute, but i can’t help thinking that when he sees me friday he’ll think i look like a bloated cow. i’m gonna try to just heavily restrict from tomorrow onwards and hope that at least my face will be less bloated by friday.... :/ idk this is kinda more a rant/vent post than anything else but if anyone has any tips on feeling more comfortable and confident for a date and also tips to look less bloated i’d really appreciate it :(",5.288881578947368,6.120217493421055,5.70905263157895,81.20436842105265,68.14473684210526,9.237894736842106,31.647368421052622,9.3871,2.7242031578947365,617,25,121,12,10,198,105,152,0.105,0.687,0.209,0.9567,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,1,0,7,0,11,4,3,1,1,22,24,12,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,8,1,2,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,6,10,8,12,17,7,12,0,0,4,0,6,3,0,3,10,70,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738587098406544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533136379518486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886791852312798,0.0,0.15166445982827434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246970102690688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20670984302341425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237718486428648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886044584707316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885864812731604,0.15396028346831675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172942570382735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863767875140853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545833834632818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12353343402675533,0.0,0.0,0.1830530094265622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800808411794873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4643006157141709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593666934772684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765099249171978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806828265625255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14686446182559126,0.0,0.1922666957165244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3542789456487669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512864442072466,0.0,0.18003581967227908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,basementbats,2019/04/06,’ED’ Erectile Dysfunction Ads lol Does anybody else get ads on reddit for treatment for ‘ED’ but then it’s erectile dysfunction and not eating disorder? I think reddit is misinterpreting my frequent activity in ‘ED’ subs as that I need help with the other kind of ‘ED’ hahaha,4.520816326530613,7.459419857142858,5.8115918367346975,70.85126530612247,74.91836734693878,8.817959183673471,30.20816326530613,9.3871,3.5109069387755114,219,10,34,6,5,73,40,49,0.095,0.68,0.225,0.8242,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,7,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4464104066087296,0.0,0.3408614522501128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985643651340968,0.32538431292714537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20350207849017612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610792903781477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40561309103717136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28881556566098554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24958127450707146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohwhoaohno,2019/04/06,"Tell me why my psycho ass is happy that my ED is back in full swing? I ate all winter and gained. I started get back on track this week and look decent already in my super tiny black dress.

I have a pounding headache everyday and watch food videos at night for 2+ hours but At least I’m looking good!

Right???

Yeah, I need therapy. ",1.2281722689075636,3.3758246323529413,2.2544537815126056,96.20147058823532,82.08823529411767,5.0621848739495805,20.00840336134453,6.1826913282559595,-0.0875361344537815,257,7,57,2,7,81,56,68,0.031,0.767,0.20199999999999999,0.9053,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,0,1,6,10,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,8,3,6,9,3,15,0,0,4,1,1,7,1,0,8,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665848604300017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715136986544728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921143702102095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621336492631366,0.0,0.0,0.20262228760605974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571618906366717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23790346375021096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057255951887983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912536646120486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267024877620087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20630438072395266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098856766381135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111478637924198,0.0,0.2762629372809672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377750457920292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179845504180382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carlsolomonsblues,2019/04/06,"Been so depressed for so long that the idea of food was a completely foreign concept and made me want to hurl... Now it's 2am and I'm sitting in my kitchen, halfway through a pack of frozen burritos and a million packs of TB hot sauce, binge eating and crying because in two hours it'll be exactly 2 weeks since the most important person in my life passed and I have no idea what to do or have any control what so ever as to how to handle my emotions BECAUSE THEY ALL DECIDED TO COME BACK IN ONE QUICK FLASH. 

FUUUUUUUUCK MY LIFE. 

Off to the bathroom to purge I gooooooo 🙃",5.123040293040294,5.14433866666667,6.056776556776558,81.40846153846154,68.31623931623932,8.736996336996338,33.808302808302805,8.418075326091056,2.4739020757020764,452,20,95,6,7,150,84,117,0.079,0.892,0.03,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,8,1,0,0,6,0,7,5,0,3,3,18,11,11,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,5,6,3,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,3,1,8,0,18,6,2,15,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,2,7,63,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395057043839673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146253900012646,0.0,0.24014972621322744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967755462841588,0.2065257978191672,0.0,0.2209255572568944,0.0,0.0,0.21636910614641008,0.0,0.0,0.1696553122211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20155582751649886,0.0,0.22157171245815308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781762497830375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23818440262473775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19398187892955465,0.0,0.0,0.4447243070068482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782602303373355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17431773830793826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863836428980255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347617074138754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17199201990408716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294074793722607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241712540410916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618166609571365,0.0,0.1580024260261357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Comfortable_List,2019/04/06,"I'm triggering my roommate? I live in a dorm and my roommate apparently reported me for ""triggering"" her ED.

She's fatter than I.

I told the superintendent that that's her problem not mine and I want to move to a different room if she's going to give me trouble over something so trivial as eating and that I have no reason to change my eating habit for her and I might mention that she has been stealing my food and it's annoying because I'm on my own unlike her. 

They say they'll arrange for me to move to a new room but it's not going to happen very soon.

The thing is, I'm triggered. I want to make sure that my eating habit is triggering to everyone. ",2.7606417112299435,4.287890411764707,4.589171122994654,84.1814973262032,75.02941176470588,7.592513368983957,27.06951871657754,8.296473431620573,1.8073470588235288,520,20,107,9,11,177,75,136,0.105,0.871,0.024,-0.6416,2,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,2,5,1,0,5,0,7,4,0,6,1,20,18,9,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,8,5,4,0,1,0,0,4,3,4,0,0,2,1,26,1,17,14,1,11,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,2,2,75,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661823153188836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502242323455734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827346710939915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5369031951094132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712572253531574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149139069832568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778129943180792,0.19880092060170146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15466467450318205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444108472692278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674800043870462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18554267890550924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717848831567632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16892080095134515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16735695836689254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798277039969997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13908856304132647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346475939674191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484244005261736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619667650597452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16712572253531574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431192000183682,0.2063226799526713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zewtherm,2019/04/06,"CHSP is weird. I just chewed and spat a hamburguer and some mozarella sticks and I fell gross, bloated and paranoid. It honestly feels like I swallowed EVERYTHING (even though I obviously didn’t) lol. How many do you consume any calories by chewing and spitting food? ",4.03241134751773,7.319287170212767,3.5330851063829805,83.6841666666667,81.55319148936171,6.5375886524822695,33.36524822695036,7.793537801064563,2.9579248226950354,215,12,35,4,6,64,40,47,0.136,0.6990000000000001,0.166,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,1,3,6,2,1,1,10,4,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,5,2,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738496645581697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659794115886936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619206026327786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20361711225599227,0.2876888085419156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869461813286563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967387749444177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40827437813609335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956504964471749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AzraelUaDuibhne,2019/04/06,Haha I was doing so good until I got drunk Now I'm chowing down on a pizza and mozzarella sticks and I want to kill myself 😊,2.055,2.6652973571428578,5.041428571428573,83.85357142857143,75.42857142857143,7.028571428571429,21.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,0.6307999999999998,98,2,21,1,2,36,24,28,0.221,0.529,0.25,-0.0152,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912567597601935,0.4684372112449266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6479894642134385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34546060467059425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sillywatercress,2019/04/06,"Triggered by roommate I'm in college right now and sometimes I get extremely triggered by my roommate. She definitely doesn't have an ED but I think she wants to lose weight, so there are days where she'll eat pretty little (e.g. saving half of a normal sized salad that she got for lunch to eat for dinner), and it's super triggering when I see her sometimes skips meals or doesn't eat. She also sleeps a LOT (like more than me at night and then like every time I come back to the room in the afternoon she's just napping like wtf) and that just reminds me of how more sleeping time means less eating time lmao. Or she'll comment about how she's cold or dizzy or hungry (but then doesn't eat), or how she's so full after eating, or how she eats too much. Idk these things all remind me of coping mechanisms that I use or have heard of while restricting. I don't think she's aware that these are restricting methods and I'm probably just projecting my disordered ass but I'm really tired of living around another person because I definitely subconsciously (or consciously) compare myself to others and it just makes me feel shitty af. 

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Also I hate that I have to compare what I'm eating to what she's eating. It's like I compulsively have to keep track of what she's eating and estimate how many calories she's had that day. I've even gone through the trash to read the nutrition information on a wrapper before. Wtf is wrong with me. I just want to escape this :'(

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Gah I have so much frustration pent up right now I could just explode. I need my personal space. I need somewhere to just be alone and away from other people. I can't wait to get a single.",5.152636363636361,6.0490160818181815,5.528484848484851,82.1427272727273,68.48484848484848,8.545454545454545,27.72727272727273,8.710501217029153,1.948636363636364,1337,42,259,21,22,427,177,330,0.155,0.7509999999999999,0.094,-0.9766,0,1,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,2,27,10,2,0,9,0,18,19,3,10,1,58,42,33,0,6,18,0,2,4,0,2,1,1,1,2,18,11,15,4,6,2,0,2,5,4,0,1,4,5,40,6,34,34,9,31,0,1,1,1,20,14,1,9,19,174,58,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761691362183749,0.0,0.1176258064831346,0.0,0.15936922565893308,0.1787273905658841,0.0,0.07711702501175059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546952181825318,0.0,0.0,0.06909676573941866,0.0565505973741033,0.0,0.04483158200779278,0.0,0.06258030698163071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335142100850398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058718693014103485,0.0,0.0,0.09485925786313287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428749890965685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7525360743015289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04857494743403711,0.0,0.0619637738497344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03718592527680325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07684713870878745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588196481608022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726092185958101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536905628106399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437190283876571,0.07371014928455312,0.06494047083529675,0.0,0.0,0.08227663460674726,0.0,0.06252425879210992,0.0,0.0,0.04909101830626577,0.07456181039791407,0.0,0.08011069421865015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812622361984447,0.10906350441368144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901581909667537,0.07205725153005245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05098597010541763,0.12843111614742805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482042422024245,0.07929259175408869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356364314899716,0.0,0.04711400378745218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561190624289248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058604839970767576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719370715701108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547328104783389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048859193751047414,0.09424771954890256,0.0,0.0,0.1286518406947873,0.08452771175144384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351817946117765,0.0,0.0,0.08675600798723868,0.0,0.0,0.0895564639436113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040853587749439,0.1787273905658841,0.0
EDAnonymous,HufflePuff_Badg3r,2019/04/06,"Unintentionally getting back into the swing of my ED. I noticed that I gained some weight, so I had the automatic response to engage in my old ED behaviors. 

And I feel like I want to be taken by it. I've experienced recovery and weight restoration, but I want to lose it all. I miss my ED, I miss my thinner body. I miss being sick. 

I hate how I feel in my body right now. I can't tolerate it. 

I've worked hard on recovery--inpatient treatment, therapy four times a week, etc. But I don't know if recovery's worth it.

There's so much promise in my ED.",1.3936602870813388,3.3679354473684207,3.978133971291868,85.00011961722487,80.49122807017544,7.654226475279107,25.27591706539075,8.575989854853784,1.821659649122808,427,17,93,10,11,150,70,114,0.18,0.7,0.12,-0.8684,0,2,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,6,8,1,0,3,0,5,5,2,1,1,14,16,8,0,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,2,0,3,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,2,6,19,3,10,12,4,11,0,4,0,0,0,6,0,2,6,58,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509256746393161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43604124415166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218901865577308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19848811931591806,0.14022104999684662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254715946675497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758265445748589,0.1937838999137537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786926151694916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589152159799848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195848879000942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442869218345313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223463815999566,0.20596075461828492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762034861474956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244610109289549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445128641171128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315397120894785,0.0,0.15744238080297376,0.4780274786342325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289272938274394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,akendzi,2019/10/02,"In my 40’s Im 41 yrs old and still I struggle with an ED mindset.  Is there anyone in this group who’s my age or close that can relate?  In my 20’s I remember thinking that by the time I got to this age,  I would have figured it all out and not still have this with me.  Had I gotten the proper treatment in my teens maybe that would have helped, I really don’t know.  I didn’t see myself still here though, that’s for sure.  🤷‍♀️",0.656211340206184,1.762624762886599,2.641842783505158,97.71781572164952,79.7216494845361,5.674742268041237,18.31056701030928,5.985473137389443,-0.5119268041237115,330,6,85,2,8,111,66,97,0.027999999999999997,0.9440000000000001,0.027999999999999997,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,0,10,0,0,0,2,16,15,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,1,13,1,10,9,1,13,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,1,7,56,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066184497890945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18376956709557396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540112516348041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24819306566365354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627661935431048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308367426764859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24110694230323576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471977536569004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602867552026468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309844427648925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5504883743054009,0.0,0.0,0.2402074638109928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21655728308088795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722854660654836,0.2257497111338794,0.0,0.13398183435743605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264467103188021,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aenigmae,2019/10/02,"Today my ed brain turned a trigger on its head to somehow make it an even worse trigger 🙃 Idk if the title makes sense and I usually just lurk without posting but A Thing happened at work today and my ed brain is having a field day with it and I just need to raNT

TW: Clothing sizes I guess (dw I won't mention actual numbers, but just to be safe)


So for context I just started a new job recently and our work uniform is basically a button up shirt and a waist coat. They are supplied by the company but because I'm new the ones they ordered in my size haven't come in yet, so for now I'm wearing some spare uniforms they keep around for this purpose.


Thing is, they don't have any spare shirts my size, so for the past week, my options were either wearing one size down or two sizes up. I always chose the latter bc I was scared the smaller one would make me look huge if I tried to squeeze into it 🙃


Anyway, this morning I arrived to find the last shirt in the larger size gone (I guess another new hire was wearing it idek) and I figured I'd have to go another size up but my boss handed me the smaller one and was like ""just try this I think it'll fit you fine"". On the inside I was like ""sure jan"" but I didn't really have any other options so I went to get changed and??? it fit??? pretty okay???? I didn't hate it??

At first I was super happy bc it's been years since I fit into anything that size and ofc I had that brief moment of euphoria which was already triggering bc it made me want to eat even less so I wouldn't lose that progress

BUT THEN my brain had to flip flop and turn that into ""no way is that shirt actually <insert size>... must be vanity sizing... or they must've misprinted the label and it's probably <my normal size>... WAIT NO AKSHUALLY it's probably <way bigger size> and you must have gained and thats why it fits! yep that's it that's the only explanation"" and ofc that thought stuck and has been on my mind the entire day and I just 🙃🙃🙃




TL;DR: had no option but to wear a smaller clothing size than usual, got triggered, also my brain sucks, in conclusion: fml",1.2747600718501388,3.462307535796768,2.742343341031564,92.53957608416731,82.18706697459584,5.5117064408519365,22.324300744162176,6.742157984588678,0.5273921375416988,1645,55,352,18,45,535,222,433,0.078,0.7909999999999999,0.13,0.9823,1,0,0,0,0,0,61.0,1,2,5,8,19,12,2,1,21,2,35,16,15,9,3,74,63,34,0,9,19,0,2,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,30,22,2,3,5,0,0,5,10,4,0,6,20,3,41,8,36,35,3,51,0,1,1,0,9,23,1,11,22,220,71,5,0.0,0.0,0.1764459737732571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976501138201206,0.07229745878376935,0.07522483995842419,0.0,0.0,0.1229580426915633,0.1895966575366556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439624273471082,0.08048029929430349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055110516124440866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036909374527447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563731354896347,0.07787656274071535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660848058205875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250766892368176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942431223337355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262923271549906,0.07689909877601529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04723328162043911,0.0,0.05137968048690119,0.0,0.07230575017041256,0.0,0.19918428840702065,0.0,0.07994552072025016,0.0962386194962629,0.0,0.08925697762599329,0.09278239846300952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971377338337776,0.0803567991330499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369276597038674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883353818516843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591807456112523,0.10114092778103848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554412215438867,0.1810396533940569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128405234818912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703473031058152,0.0,0.2619433578336437,0.0,0.0,0.08857845617938652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450451483201964,0.06875765924068945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630253372181197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658373381670352,0.09197516596024727,0.19494541395629655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057916248972967814,0.0,0.08926478775670355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051194365046482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07478458425182538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398966682375891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520636499016447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012314821173305,0.05792836472945265,0.0,0.0717720801554821,0.0,0.0,0.17138819149047954,0.0,0.0,0.12275916208622635,0.19667102650112506,0.0883132973700441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19913835867358734,0.0,0.05332366339695259,0.14351977876449226,0.07251805267088006,0.0,0.0,0.08380705125478634,0.08157714252219744,0.0,0.0,0.08714793274027938,0.0,0.13163294943603798,0.0,0.09213119961416473,0.0642216626324981,0.0,0.0,0.058218349537529024
EDAnonymous,airportmorning,2019/10/02,"Lmao why do I do this Does anyone else have the attitude I’ve logged it, so I MUST!!! eat it! Even if I get full before I finish the meal I made/logged I must!! eat!! the whole!! thing!!! because god forbid the calories are off even a little bit, like it could be a high restriction meal, or a full out binge it doesn’t matter..must!! eat!! whole!! thing!! 

someone plz tell me I’m not alone in this",-1.3316416510318945,0.6616521585365902,0.5407317073170717,102.42049718574111,100.58536585365854,3.498686679174484,12.405253283302065,5.369823440869387,-1.3888904315196997,295,5,71,2,13,95,54,82,0.057,0.784,0.16,0.7923,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,0,9,5,0,0,2,9,11,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,3,7,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,2,2,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867902794477644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610631095916147,0.18479193579162853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994090450642167,0.0,0.15346626743294686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689767193981028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399639567221406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782724952726201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536353591183151,0.1506609527407841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382415885445061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422647562276487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905517887521451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811087668608593,0.18076008297540155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065342200071326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281166332537874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763559629402887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23963570830540595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273962696499158,0.4027131318551428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,obscenekid,2019/10/02,binging on gummy vitamins when i crave candy who said EDs couldn’t be healthy 😤,5.704374999999999,6.236885687499999,6.1374999999999975,79.5575,67.125,8.9,34.75,8.841846274778883,2.98895,65,3,12,1,1,21,16,16,0.0,0.816,0.184,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ind0silverclub,2019/10/02,"I actually ate three meals yesterday aaand... I FEEL LIKE SHIT. (long time lurker, first time poster, etc) Do normal people really eat three square meals a day, every day? I feel like even if it weren't for my disordered brain, that's too much food. And it wasn't even bingeing, it was still less than my TDEE of 1750ish! I know I only feel this bad because I've been in a deficit for so long, and most people probably *do* eat like this all the time and feel fine. I hate this. I went from 1\*2.8 when I woke up yesterday morning to 1\*7.8 when I got home to 1\*6.0 when I woke up today. I'm trying not to freak out because I know it's just the food/water weight and it'll go away soon, but it feels so so *so* bad. I'm trying to drink a ton of water today and only eat my fiber bars because all I want is to not feel like bloated anymore.

But on the bright side, I'm probably going to be able to take a massive poop tomorrow",1.0585621269669012,3.0023660824742286,2.564270211611504,94.86409929462832,81.47422680412372,5.733695062398263,18.97341291372762,6.8360192770164,0.002354639175258022,716,17,164,8,19,233,109,194,0.081,0.826,0.094,-0.2821,0,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,0,1,13,11,2,0,7,0,9,14,3,0,2,25,30,15,0,3,6,0,7,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,10,6,11,0,8,2,0,3,4,5,0,3,9,9,15,6,19,19,7,28,0,0,2,0,0,7,1,2,22,92,25,0,0.10850366736590897,0.0,0.10588392750694034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760648222182154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194276721258773,0.0,0.18119206009864064,0.19842848559488485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112597709762454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399517783331424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435460311822524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629228624100318,0.0,0.3330790190567355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210102707621383,0.1433312979454483,0.0,0.0914190194805788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291762863437662,0.23254512493878965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092293164032318,0.2624061305442139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333026926408347,0.0,0.08678029479116718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10712490794019676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088380252162865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11926155593651612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203764457218252,0.0,0.0,0.19204466241507875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797626801059209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631055650867316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504385678856462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044556213140858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23397061024112195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069510227709793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11137745531150817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665116891831587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158125441114858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18980808301332172,0.0,0.20569757932412536,0.0,0.0,0.14733373554733722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399827424549788,0.0,0.0,0.13212823579349905,0.0,0.10058398669992416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwitthrowmeaway,2019/10/02,"Have any of you gone to a nutrition? My marriage depends on this. Okay let me say this is going to be a long post. This is my throw away account. I’m here for support, not to be told to “f him” or “divorce that a hole” I know it’s harsh and stupid, but this is the life and marriage I chose. We’ve been together 9 years, married for 7 months. We’re almost 30. I’ve had an ED since I was 13. Nonstop purging and starving/restricting in a cycle on and off.  I’m never not counting calories.

So we went to marriage therapy since we haven’t been intimate in almost 6 months. He doesn’t want a vasectomy so if/when I die he can have kids with someone else. (I’m child free af. Always have been. He said he “didn’t need kids as long as he’s with me”) I’m terrified of going under and the actual process of tubal ligation. I went under last month for my wisdom teeth removal and freaked out and panicked and cried so hard they had to give me 3-4 different medicines in my IV and said 45 minutes for me to calm down before even starting the surgery. That’s how mentally terrified I am of any kind of surgery.

So, we go to therapy and he tells me what I said above, after have telling me 3 times. Making me feel like I should just die so he can knock up whoever he wants and live his dream life. He OUT OF NO WHERE tells the therapist he thinks I’ll die because I’m so unhealthy. I’m 5’1, almost 30, and weight 129.6. (Yes I know I’m overweight, hence why I’m here).

He tells her all I do is throw up and not eat and drink Bang, Monster, or 0 calorie sports drinks. So he said he would CONSIDER the vasectomy if I got healthy. (I’m not forcing him to do it by the way, it’s his body and his choice.) which is true.

So now I’m panicking because I don’t want to go inpatient (needles are my main scare in surgeries even more then going under), and I’m worried about what a nutritionist can and will do/say but I have to get this under control. But after thirteen straight years of ED I can’t magically stop. I’ve tried. Normal eating turns into binges because in my head, I get to eat food. So I pile on the cheese and drink full sugar soda. Then I realize what I’ve done and I go purge.

I’m so distraught and worried. What are my options for help? What can nutritionists do/say? Should I go to one? My therapist thinks I have body dysmorphia but I don’t. I don’t see myself as obese, just massive thighs and jiggly arms (my waist looks great). 

Please help me figure this out y’all. If you’ve read this far, thank you. You deserve an award.",0.7683766233766249,2.8878707727272754,2.5019155844155847,93.91840909090912,83.69696969696969,5.665367965367966,22.307359307359306,6.946089160319951,0.5568359307359311,1960,68,441,25,56,645,253,528,0.149,0.758,0.09300000000000001,-0.9904,1,0,3,0,1,0,72.0,3,4,1,2,20,15,1,2,15,2,41,22,7,4,3,71,88,45,3,10,14,0,3,1,0,4,5,5,0,3,18,30,13,2,7,6,2,13,13,4,0,1,17,11,54,12,55,64,4,57,0,0,2,0,47,25,0,9,18,244,72,2,0.0,0.0,0.07308516282646686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22498478972184213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062317315146236736,0.0,0.0,0.10186017145944742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07036482227412866,0.0,0.0,0.13696297937343532,0.0,0.06372877415463102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663793858342408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399932552848104,0.0,0.0,0.08226689210232416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23318260047004555,0.07824767124176843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07664195894827976,0.0,0.2201010832341466,0.0,0.2299039610166119,0.0625638323766105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09893277946065322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03786835744337263,0.053503865729255015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905614063863939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782574292682753,0.07184458143525503,0.2979455482988535,0.0,0.05989910012098415,0.08257024685530108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708978311589936,0.0,0.07686224348551204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039894556244404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798995965454049,0.08231891694786958,0.061048123512294425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658358399195019,0.10579885804047937,0.0365891361979435,0.0,0.06613225148564437,0.13255661886587933,0.06289160043857732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04999193148060434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07547494027290212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17933761152290426,0.0,0.0,0.05553251315411646,0.05776241337852985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337963858678555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05074971160246351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221047205341654,0.0,0.0,0.07172718253406063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07491367534535139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28496312618090064,0.1786747324280305,0.07498136679429092,0.0,0.059680349793771785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390520225704765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345694166642557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05300993974547243,0.0,0.0,0.0626142426977282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498815201375741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618405590490318,0.06895178795522712,0.17129427843345518,0.1739140384852236,0.0,0.0959773437270618,0.0,0.0,0.04367094855480272,0.0,0.0,0.07156386095039402,0.0,0.05084770798477865,0.08146252185699714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252221760111352,0.059446901368804136,0.0,0.09119999469521683,0.0,0.13885387931454068,0.0675796519087967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211578272793985,0.0,0.053202128335488666,0.0,0.0,0.09645779871194456
EDAnonymous,wiindycities,2019/10/02,"Absolutely Flabbergasted TW: long post, talk of weight, b/p, and a wake up call from my mom

So the title of this post is the only description for how I’m currently feeling. I drove my mom to the dentist and then to Sonics to grab lunch. I was feeling pretty good, woke up feeling like a skinny king and fasted until I was in ketosis (not like that even means anything), so I figured I’d break my fast with some chicken, IDK 🤷‍♂️.  

I made a comment to my mom about how I had fasted for 16 hours and her response was: “you’re adding to your belly fat” talking about the food I was ordering. 

There is no way possible that I can convey to y’all how absolutely mind blown I was in that moment. I ate two boneless chicken wings and waited until she was finished eating, I drove her to work and then drove back home. Within 10 minutes of being home I inhaled the leftover boneless wings then purged it right back up. Now I’m starting a 72 hour fast (pray for me y’all). 

I’m 5’6” and 138lbs. For a man, I am short and chubby (FAT) and that comment just gave me a wake up call. I am just so shook, y’all. My mom just snatched my self-confidence so hard without even meaning to. I don’t know why I made this post but thanks to everyone who read it. It feels good just to type this out and get it off of my chest.",1.9550655370844008,3.508983569852944,3.468497442455245,91.2587276214834,77.27205882352942,6.201023017902813,23.59079283887468,6.895973343053719,0.6466599744245523,1009,32,224,10,23,333,150,272,0.024,0.899,0.077,0.8994,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,0,2,19,6,0,1,11,0,14,12,6,5,0,35,36,23,0,0,7,4,7,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,12,12,8,1,8,1,0,4,4,1,0,1,15,8,32,5,34,20,1,40,1,0,0,0,20,11,0,1,21,138,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890799005472755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647396645772167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210691527217588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076599630127668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14299520332781826,0.0,0.0,0.1034367871125587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189362717524449,0.07733327821666952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089540989825202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056555759734719435,0.0,0.0,0.1815886522229692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697005613485987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21716562633130515,0.0,0.2132073912104269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05949095098135774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577022092652363,0.0,0.0,0.0957971704146508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048560952490567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23583031199538815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10930087334820544,0.5071208032608654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232842441875614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203475261342416,0.3110185453144593,0.11012839271700664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827853312564716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244425893609466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112927564917805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661936876355474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401327635301125,0.0,0.09966135584410288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574377760955182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592320760402476,0.0,0.13181841100628436,0.0,0.0,0.09767810141597084,0.0,0.0,0.10434840384463023,0.0,0.07880673548474725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fl0werb0y,2019/10/02,"Skipping the grocery store again... I’ve been fasting by just avoiding buying groceries as long as possible, which works out really well because I’m broke anyway. And being on campus all day is great because it keeps my roommates from noticing I’m not eating anymore... does anyone else sort of enjoy not having any money, just cuz it makes not buying food feel even more justifiable?? and being busy, because it makes fasting so much easier for so many reasons? sigh, the things we do to make fasting seem like the OBVIOUS right choice, huh...",5.457448979591838,7.703251020408164,5.322193877551023,78.72369897959184,69.40816326530611,6.940816326530613,29.5969387755102,7.645422480735847,2.1413632653061225,432,17,68,5,8,134,78,98,0.048,0.7979999999999999,0.155,0.8929,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,1,8,7,0,1,3,1,6,2,0,5,2,21,14,7,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,2,3,0,4,0,3,2,2,0,1,1,2,4,9,11,3,9,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,2,7,42,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299420505529401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18950161675091,0.133608707958764,0.19578569537502344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494447365368841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323183377849165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721680881499906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19552419554968228,0.159624170134129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262076044623302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661660581874357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310566471310353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21066815492867774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16984211893177245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335282510130928,0.0,0.0,0.1691012161377953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826453850185016,0.1937267659933956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046697303327002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21754768496565466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21541581018189448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241177538520505,0.1964637246444092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631826550135775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739535256187019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694613427331616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180531971259094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910969136810994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alway7sometimesnever,2019/10/02,"Medical student with EDNOS, bit of a rant/ask me whatever-post Hi all you great people, first time poster here, been lurking for some time. I feel like I need to let off some steam regarding my whole situation, especially given the not so amazing period I'm going through at the moment. I just need someone other than me to know about all this, sorry in advance for the long post, I do hope you feel like reading it! This post won't be perfectly structured and I'm sorry about that!! My thoughts are all over the place right now so bear with me :) Also, I don't know if this deserved a TW or not, marked it just in case.

First of all, there's absolutely nothing to complain about in my life from a general point of view, absolutely fucking nothing. And yet, here I am all fucked up with no one really knowing about it. I don't get it and nevertheless, I feel like shit 70% of the time. Without the ED I actually think my life would feel quite great, although that's hard to grasp given the fact that I've been affected by my ED for about 3 years. I don't recognize life without it, honestly.

So, I'm in medical school and I've just started my third semester. I'm 23, female, and I really do love being a med student, it's incredibly fascinating and I can't see myself doing anything else. I don't think my ED is affected by stress from school or whatever, even though that may be what people think if I ever choose to tell anyone. It's kind of hard though to learn about every single function of the body and even have certain discussions about how one is affected by an ED with my fellow students when no one knows about me or even suspects it. Haha ok, someone might suspect it given my extremely weird eating habits (according to them anyway, I'm totally in love with OMAD). I've just stopped lying about a big part of my eating habits to be honest, I used to say that I had a big breakfast or some other BS, now I actually tell 'em like it is. I'm not ashamed. I just hate the stupid questions even though I know that normal for them is definitely not normal for me, so they're not actually stupid to ask. I guess I'm just in too deep right now.

It started something like 3,5 years ago, first with a want to lose some weight, which then turned into more restriction and more exercising. I have to say though, that I don't count this period as a part of the ED, that came when everything turned into more of a BED situation, which since then has been a mix of restricting/eating a tad too much. It's been like that for 3 years and that is what I now have realized has been an ED. Honestly, I didn't understand or accept the fact that I had an ED until spring this year when I started being more active on reddit and certain subreddits dealing with EDs, which sounds weird and maybe a bit unbelievable but that's how it went down. The summer sucked in this aspect, especially with the job I had that meant being around food and being able to eat practically whatever I wanted all day, even though all I wanted was to fast and restrict and actually feel good about myself (which restricting does, fml). My weight is quite normal for my height, although I'm quite athletically built so I just want to be more slender, but this just makes me feel more fucked up. 

I feel terribly alone in my struggles IRL, even though I know that there are others with the same types of problems, probably closer than I think too. I love the ED subreddits here, they make me feel so much more like it's not just me in the entire world. One of the biggest problems with my ED is the fact that I often don't feel validated in having one, because I seem so normal to everyone else. I don't even have a ""real"" reason for having it, what really triggered the eating disorder I think was being out of school and transitioning to working instead of studying. That was really hard for me, being in school had been such a steady point in my life and suddenly it was all gone and filled with something completely different. In my head, this is such a stupid reason for triggering my ED, but it's my reality even though I'm still trying to come to terms with it. 

Telling someone about all this feels completely out of the question at the moment. If it gets worse I will seek treatment and maybe then tell my friends, but telling my family is such a big NO for me. God, they would first of all, not believe me and also not react in a good way. I really would like to discuss this with other people in the same situation, but how the fuck does one do that, seriously?? 

We're getting closer to exams in school now and I just needed to get this out of me before I focus on the very interesting but very fucking complicated kidneys :)

Such a long post!! Again, I'm sorry about the rant, and I'm more than happy to answer any questions someone might have (if anyone actually reads the entire thing hahhahaah) :) hope you're all ok, thanks for reading!!",6.2657013659915215,6.135861209326428,6.721121055110693,78.12584550164861,65.92227979274611,9.961186999528973,30.6024493641074,9.61981836618189,2.5902683937823845,3877,126,763,71,55,1265,347,965,0.113,0.78,0.107,-0.3697,2,2,2,0,0,0,112.0,0,2,4,11,77,55,11,3,47,3,67,28,5,14,19,181,146,65,0,22,35,0,15,8,2,8,7,3,1,0,59,42,8,4,38,4,0,7,23,22,0,11,23,20,82,33,121,104,35,100,0,1,2,8,27,45,7,24,52,535,141,16,0.04113995846547716,0.0,0.20073332475975655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03646809093659217,0.0,0.0,0.04260858980792856,0.0,0.06579921984276896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02797658250581228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057532031021481585,0.0,0.03385468046545093,0.03662328521197316,0.07692061535810059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02507853683326577,0.0,0.03500707455300378,0.04635064518104425,0.0,0.0,0.08982835897695182,0.04569721951539373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047053152674517734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03543843143713577,0.0862689274611766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026531869786385408,0.042413490728392726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04298250040261389,0.04714995660028791,0.0,0.07200370978085369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16838579244829358,0.06873431266747441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21738043653006908,0.03721344773909594,0.03466218935902373,0.03931099332795169,0.03697394194893552,0.0,0.03878309147871141,0.0,0.20801599117588054,0.0881711836436678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399745106175094,0.04974660107694832,0.0,0.03178462985834827,0.1901661434043736,0.08597572123617744,0.0,0.02338078646664555,0.06901249057746665,0.0,0.09071389889000092,0.04532030240965177,0.0,0.0,0.04379425078091965,0.11055996622112063,0.040617191752750297,0.042221466263884205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172252285594618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040825060777256963,0.0,0.0,0.04284093595442018,0.13565667161858566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206839484841413,0.1162334772691241,0.16079124517330312,0.0,0.0,0.07281513728590584,0.0,0.04602509032904074,0.0,0.0,0.11139125617893196,0.0,0.05492248346543786,0.0,0.0826612357296452,0.0,0.04569721951539373,0.08288836002164858,0.0,0.08728598927628835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048520619283195,0.09151427375889122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16123369782366387,0.0789497993968818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672650034002055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910113191685179,0.0,0.08556380158832519,0.0,0.04298250040261389,0.0,0.0777811167192136,0.0,0.15760283230015998,0.0,0.04435583340700231,0.07873076835742006,0.0,0.0,0.13825850640940648,0.1312722295368552,0.12345327456751333,0.0468262794168402,0.1317765542091356,0.08459745830583458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026659948920681,0.0,0.06543229241754306,0.0,0.20817917162310787,0.03278322048860708,0.03745227307818893,0.0,0.0,0.04222957616772348,0.034031398771243115,0.13872911103565824,0.0,0.0,0.13943101321435006,0.06334309988648762,0.0,0.13815844597228014,0.08735722304420666,0.0,0.032854423973180856,0.03439484740253646,0.04712568342479363,0.0430084170307505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979068507948764,0.03787614642727502,0.0,0.0,0.027331560370016,0.1318041211298102,0.28293860219347244,0.03266053164363507,0.07196712186000574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02793133130026104,0.08949692234795223,0.0,0.042828147641122485,0.0,0.03553171518511745,0.0,0.06788954851803042,0.09706165361003206,0.032654984122451734,0.0,0.10019477248322382,0.0,0.03813715366110402,0.0,0.04593129443408892,0.0,0.07931490375575714,0.0,0.029950379737407894,0.0,0.041925132361300924,0.08767393839240761,0.0,0.0,0.10597113770098457
EDAnonymous,larry4lyfe,2019/10/02,"I'm literally so happy right now I'm an E/F cup (US) depending on the brand, and my boobs have always made me feel like a fat fuck tbh. I can really only wear loose shirts, and they go straight down from my boobs, so even at my lw I've always looked huge because of them. They're one of the big reasons I honestly hate my body. I found out today though that my insurance will fully cover a breast reduction since they're so big. I'm really hoping that it could make me feel more normal, and in turn make it easier to get to recovery. I know that it wouldn't be a magical fix for all of my problems and that recovering will still take a lot of hard work. But I'm feeling really hopeful that this will be a step in the right direction with feeling more comfortable with my own body. I know most people really don't care, but this is huge for me and I really wanted to tell someone.. :)",3.393215636822198,4.299427699453556,5.053005464480872,83.90757881462802,72.55191256830602,9.128036990332072,23.91298865069357,9.466822959209583,1.7837435056746531,691,18,149,16,13,235,112,183,0.062,0.7859999999999999,0.151,0.9235,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,2,1,7,10,2,0,9,0,11,9,8,5,1,32,36,11,0,7,2,0,5,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,10,8,1,0,8,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,2,6,19,7,18,27,6,18,0,0,1,4,4,13,3,5,4,88,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22194482305983015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812995664512888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962823676142743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597701512825472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648306552740287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808795027788467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697383824259088,0.09527774090098556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623053736163444,0.0,0.12329606878804422,0.06967899391728455,0.0,0.07579580163173785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197214236298547,0.1194710491605628,0.13167275674501336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649279629695513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659053758652732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06515660487224154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119950779212326,0.0,0.0,0.11338424621292954,0.0,0.12619551644016566,0.1780476318795953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067179534388132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903732432592322,0.10143196398036307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246020503912404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761464866133454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.427193053441482,0.13712396239206154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22779016624690995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032294205310292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300181704733872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650742676037543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027573300720156,0.0,0.1165690394628904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103285344639298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264167589320306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506550031183926,0.0,0.0,0.16042463467344453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866358402410421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709310012348288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hellhannah,2019/10/02,In my feelings so you know what that means... Time to fucking eat :-),-0.06461538461538296,2.262118307692308,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,96.69230769230772,2.6,21.884615384615387,3.1291,-0.5597384615384615,50,2,11,0,2,15,13,13,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.3774,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5125239376990586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532593120873254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4630542718244214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27526982533064354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5456037239258812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920663882960665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gracelandtin,2019/10/02,"What resources have you found most helpful? I love reading and have been working through some ED related books lately. I really liked “Just Eat It” by Laura Thomas. It was like a retelling of Intuitive Eating with really practical tips. Anyone have any books they would recommend? Or even podcast, blogs, Instagram accounts, etc?",5.106571428571428,8.656826981818185,4.423376623376623,77.34363636363638,79.18181818181819,8.233766233766234,31.493506493506487,8.841846274778883,3.707805194805194,264,13,38,7,7,79,49,55,0.0,0.7440000000000001,0.256,0.9451,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,0,8,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,3,4,4,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,3,25,7,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448475742243494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940830469049734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5250954819556852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861570805062153,0.1694701842534379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813292400603981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17198170208171695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28943600177967016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25070629520140963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315755365440997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566517272251132,0.0,0.32874637336949153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679496475688992,0.0,0.0,0.18226869882446106,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaweighhah,2019/10/02,"Anyone been stuck at the same weight for literally months? I'm talking plateau with diligent calorie counting. I am in a small deficit, so I am not expecting to be losing like crazy amounts. But like, *something?* I should be x pounds down from where I was literally like six months ago. But nope, same weight ???! It's like my body refuses to go below this weight. And I drink copious amounts of water too!!

Please tell me I'm not alone.",1.3223092369477918,4.007653590361446,1.8930421686747003,93.80976405622488,91.40963855421688,5.176305220883535,23.78413654618474,6.816661863887847,0.9164064257028112,340,14,69,5,12,104,62,83,0.10800000000000001,0.7140000000000001,0.177,0.7332,0,1,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,2,0,7,6,1,0,0,11,11,4,0,2,4,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,3,7,4,10,5,4,10,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,7,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450523016374066,0.0,0.0,0.19220462857496376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976165960307742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061372400132911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817974808771264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546923516759824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626595211899025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761624432302464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29625593406735806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371081097948704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286833994449286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916195439997415,0.16220486058194278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6779583336518056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EvoFume,2019/10/02,"I always feel like I'm 'Running out of time' Not just in attempting to recover from my ED, but with everything. Running out of time to get a job, finish college (I've dropped SO many classes it's embarrassing), move out and get my own place, find my true purpose in life, play out dumb dreams I've always had like being able to completely pay off my mom's debt, etc.

I'm turning 20 in about a month, and I can honestly say I don't feel like an adult, like, at all lol. I'm sure my ED is affecting these feelings to some extent, but I've always felt like this. I feel like an obligation to everyone, my family, friends, professors, and I honestly feel like I should just hit the road and go somewhere far, from everyone. Just be a distant memory.

But like ye rant over im srry if this didnt make sense but im a bit #turnt on feels rn",2.3362014863748968,3.7608250520231215,4.0986498761354255,87.68671965317921,75.9364161849711,8.179851362510322,25.65194054500413,8.841846274778883,1.7783975227085058,646,23,143,14,14,218,107,173,0.065,0.6629999999999999,0.272,0.9911,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,0,1,5,16,1,1,7,1,8,1,0,2,3,33,24,10,0,2,9,1,7,8,1,1,1,1,0,1,4,9,0,0,8,2,2,4,3,2,0,0,3,8,13,14,22,17,6,23,0,0,0,0,5,14,1,2,12,72,17,5,0.12087096927379185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30172298762178223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13195979314040315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267309116171456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480308153804604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23099478190540146,0.10863103337819363,0.0,0.11394639259054523,0.0,0.3666959629865867,0.3454009784014341,0.11605508560201892,0.0,0.11047387615400714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338461102752844,0.0,0.1263001853605489,0.0,0.06869375731087589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26112277675631906,0.0,0.11994578630771782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537474017731324,0.4724116012695065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068231056871443,0.12254419139482935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156261836210016,0.09647805449802888,0.12846671161342932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126284436816697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612144617199092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139194580913846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096166840426902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314729055973149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lavenderbruises,2019/10/02,"Anybody else “recovered” but still wanting to return to their lowest weight? I was anorexic for several months when I was 19, when I weighed just 108 pounds at my lowest at a height of 5’9. It was just terrible, as my many posts to the former /r/proed can attest. 

I was tired all the time, my grades suffered, and I was always emotional. I didn’t even FEEL skinny because whenever I looked in the mirror I still saw fat and imperfections. 

Eventually, though, I kinda just gave up on the whole thing and started eating whatever until I got to a healthy weight. 
Now, nearly 2 years later, I’m 30 pounds heavier. Nobody says I’m skinny anymore. It used to be “my thing”. I used to be at least somewhat proud of being tall and thin and wearing the smallest size clothes.

I know I’m technically healthy but I feel so fat. I’ve never weighed more than 120 pounds my entire life. Now I weigh almost 140 pounds and I don’t feel like myself anymore. 

I want to lose the weight again. I even re-installed MyFitnessPal. I keep telling myself, it’s just 20 pounds, we’ll stop after that. But that’s the same thing I said to myself last time, and look what happened. 

I’m afraid to go down that road again. Yet I feel like I have to.",2.6918370426254263,4.773709253112036,3.4689947189739736,89.70285835533763,76.80082987551867,6.041569219162581,23.402678234628443,6.980632752743323,0.7417452282157679,954,30,194,10,22,302,141,241,0.107,0.8059999999999999,0.087,-0.7776,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,1,2,17,7,0,1,9,0,13,14,5,2,2,31,36,16,0,2,7,0,8,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,10,7,11,2,5,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,10,13,31,3,25,22,6,36,0,2,3,0,6,12,0,3,24,121,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573882870011432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448314604615676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490606478429777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654546168647845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284880404914727,0.10489646449101588,0.14124778982020594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587377073102094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539650568705802,0.1794124860451823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136353713859364,0.0,0.1004286916290888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103991077636753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116111537659696,0.0,0.0,0.0690092264216,0.10235517993371164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869282566345897,0.12269296429415626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089202120727865,0.14047916000127847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12730686595213006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022766980223516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684625627475983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026002196338476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119444506958699,0.09985720190944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418567922792464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888781113776632,0.0,0.20055851489187096,0.10498098400106236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109752503408274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502666229346715,0.0,0.12337052583374288,0.0,0.14644013738776093,0.14432265005038555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690193183436185,0.0,0.0,0.14812724396619936,0.0,0.0,0.4587262308776391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14019287335979225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086207056947885
EDAnonymous,groundhog_dayz,2019/10/02,"GUILT My dudes. 

I’m trying this thing where I eat at maintenance calories on fuelling days (days when I eat) because the amount of running I’m doing (cross-country) + a looming injury that MAY be a stress fracture scared me into a better stab at nutrition. 

And BRUH. I ate very cleanly, all whole food items, and I do not like the feeling of it IN me. Not a fan. 

Also, why do I feel as though I did something wrong? My superego is mad at me for eating normal amounts, like a normal person...The shame is equivalent to times when I’ve binged.",2.286666666666669,4.32572025925926,3.372,90.12300000000002,77.8888888888889,5.431111111111113,24.68888888888889,6.2581,0.7263155555555558,420,15,84,3,10,135,78,108,0.29600000000000004,0.679,0.026000000000000002,-0.9792,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,4,7,0,8,5,0,0,1,11,13,7,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,2,2,11,3,11,9,5,13,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,1,7,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460679054688535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134385350501058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16154214163853636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23559274150242496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5607002652708115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471015436167065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208652880951444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17847050813304094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579232183660728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594859554512101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1828679769849166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406155566651512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922892058892228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134684228729473,0.0,0.17945609645065233,0.0,0.10650670101998187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400970922557583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070823299958305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648163371549458,0.20392606445767386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997028844027829,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,styrofoamandshit,2019/10/08,"I may not be recovering yet, but I finally went a day without purging! First post in this sub, so.. apologies if anything is off limits. Will absolutely fix anything if I need to. 

For the last week and a half, I've been falling really hard, and really fast, back into my eating disorder. I would restrict, eat, purge, sleep, repeat. I had days where I successfully restricted.

But the last 3-4 days have been nothing but
-Restrict all day
-Eat a meal at night
-Immediately purge

Today, I managed to eat... kind of normally. I had 1600 calories, and I may be planning to go back to restricting, but.. I'm finally working on breaking the purging streak. I had a sore throat, sinus pressure, fatigue, and a migraine today. All most likely from my frequent purging. Trying to lessen the frequency of it.

Thought I'd share this somewhere where people would get it. ❤",2.8930817610062896,5.7003836226415086,4.256257861635223,80.28048742138368,80.69811320754721,6.803773584905662,29.58805031446541,7.984000788550335,2.5108012578616354,672,33,115,13,18,221,105,159,0.162,0.777,0.06,-0.9398,0,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,5,6,6,0,1,9,0,14,11,2,0,2,28,20,11,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,5,4,0,0,0,4,5,5,5,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,7,1,12,4,15,6,3,31,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,5,20,76,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21664054183157236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20243068342398848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395618311738627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15085937903985822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5387613885466207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28838845268422275,0.0,0.11196440715831203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877123996183318,0.0,0.07480836001024295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791462144339215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707238482443695,0.0,0.21459202994727544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430776704506551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760197398545516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12352583416920875,0.12896944815973355,0.12630253102144146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125566530444096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606515005561988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16865109173721715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317250573782142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449951342776717,0.0,0.0,0.24953968979610386,0.0,0.0,0.0893681267076332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558564280733514,0.0,0.0,0.12202232482281175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688661869443352,0.0,0.0958282046258706,0.0,0.0,0.1870123446911315,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pixiefancy,2019/10/08,"I’m ashamed, and scared (Trigger Warning: Bulimia, purging, relapse. Please don’t read if any of these topics trigger you.)  

Hi everyone,

Please hear me out, I debated posting for a while and I just need an ear. First time posting here, but longtime lurker. 

I am a 29yr old woman, and I’ve been through ED recovery about 8 years ago. I dealt with bulimia and with the help of a fantastic therapist at the time, I was able to get through 3 very dark years of my life.

Fast forward to today, I have been struggling for most of 2019. I go through phases of restricting and bingeing and overexercising. But never purging in the traditional sense. I went through a month of highly restrictive eating that I knew was bad for me, but I did it anyway. If I went over my calorie limit for the day even just a smidge, well it was time to go to the gym, or go for a run etc. Today, I caved and went ham on a full container of Oreos and a full bag of Doritos. Needless to say my stomach HURT. But instead of accepting it as a mistake and moving on, I fought hard with myself about whether or not to purge. 

And you know what? I did. And at the time, I thought I was doing the right thing, that I deserved this for being the way I am. And then, I felt shame. I felt fear. I thought I was past this, and I had it under control. In retrospect, I didn’t. I am ashamed. I don’t even know how to talk about this with my therapist. She knows I went into therapy for this, but apart of my body image, this hasn’t really come up because I’ve avoided the topic (my therapist is wonderful). Because I don’t see myself as “bad enough” or “how I was before ” and “that was a long time ago, you can’t be going through this again”. I spend an embarrassingly huge amount of time watching shows like My600lb life because I see myself as them. I see myself as a 600lb woman. 

Anyway, I’m sorry for the long post. I just needed an ear and some advice. Thank you, everyone, for hearing me out.",2.206249547920436,4.040057668354436,3.6585171790235087,88.93392405063291,77.37974683544303,6.640867992766728,25.462929475587703,7.554174236665415,1.246933453887884,1509,56,318,21,35,497,193,395,0.14300000000000002,0.7879999999999999,0.069,-0.9836,0,1,0,0,0,0,60.0,0,4,1,3,16,17,1,8,24,0,26,7,4,5,1,64,56,34,0,5,15,0,3,1,0,0,2,5,0,2,16,23,1,6,10,3,1,12,8,13,1,1,23,12,52,4,55,31,7,58,0,1,4,0,15,19,0,8,26,223,68,1,0.08557935994711513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362716008202975,0.15172187806002202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058196899405335935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429103818071761,0.15650515051458086,0.0,0.07282173209729946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505937641555796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737190408800435,0.0,0.0,0.09598452914136882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055191607362084144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756905013653128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842635563027901,0.09544360822318773,0.11304872025380655,0.0,0.0,0.16354949170473834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630057241881897,0.0,0.0,0.16433921237002852,0.0,0.0,0.07279375985277982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04471168341454425,0.0,0.1945468897402777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666229701323893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929083167576576,0.0,0.05736204103706553,0.09041929241703103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161447481780917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109653439996353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208944656259976,0.04180975248971774,0.0,0.0,0.15147008105558288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830862863506834,0.0909573160572952,0.0,0.12691202205730678,0.06600407819140673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898011422666352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169518257594259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788087644492635,0.0,0.0,0.2458841115278173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856025189373083,0.0,0.054824329366873814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308430579715777,0.0,0.06805614193393986,0.0856798687471131,0.0,0.20458700964230087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957990869754004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894661282878751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878544783695173,0.0,0.07878997668968142,0.09786745641470056,0.29809269878157696,0.056855124070791324,0.0,0.0,0.135880904981481,0.2994120779768704,0.0,0.16223845339591228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07061193455198929,0.0,0.06792891253470093,0.0,0.0,0.07694612226041253,0.31733169621557666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280716529156137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102206039528226
EDAnonymous,TsWench69,2019/10/08,"Coming out I’ve never admitted to anyone that I have a problem with food, but if I’m being honest with myself, it’s always been a huge problem. I think about food constantly, whether it’s binging or prolonging eating. 
I can remember stealing food from classmates backpacks in third grade, stealing candy from my moms cupboards (which were always fully stocked) and hiding wrappers, eating leftovers out of the trash, and other gross things like that. I’ve ordered whole pizzas and felt so guilty after consuming half of it that I would chew and then spit the rest out. When I saw the sheer volume of food that I could have swallowed, I would purge and get rid of it all (but we all know it’s never ALL gone). 
I gained 70 lbs with my first pregnancy, lost 20 pounds when he was born, and then gained it all back and maintained at about 240 lbs (I’m 5’7) for about 2 years. I was depressed, in a bad marriage at 21 y.o, and didn’t see any future, so I got divorced and began my weight loss journey. Within 8 months, I had lost 100 pounds and was so proud of myself for being healthy for the first time in my life...but looking back, it was just the other extreme. I was so terrified of calories that I would do anything to avoid eating. My family told me I ate like a bird because when I felt so pressured to actually eat dinner with them, I could only stomach a few bites. I told myself that I was just avoiding carbs and sugar, but I hardly ate anything at all. I even substituted my food addiction with alcohol, telling myself it was better to be drunk than fat.
Fast forward to my second pregnancy...I was in a new healthy relationship and didn’t mean to get pregnant, but I felt so pressured to nourish the baby that I fell back into bad habits. Baby needs carbs, right? He needs me to eat 3 meals a day and snacks. I saw my weight increasing again and panicked...started using laxatives because food wouldn’t make its way out of my system fast enough. When I got closer to 200lbs again, I started purging, telling myself that I never get it all out, so he’s still getting some nutrients. After he was born, I was able to get within 10 lbs of pre-pregnancy weight by skipping dinner and exercising every chance I got. 
Then there’s my third pregnancy, almost 2 years later. I never got back to healthy habits after the last one was born, so this pregnancy sent me back into binging/purging and laxatives almost from the start. I ended up developing high blood pressure and low blood sugar so we had to induce early. He’s now 7 weeks old and I can’t, for the life of me, get back into that mindset that carbs and sugar are what’s stopping me from losing the last 30lbs of baby weight. 30 pounds may not be much to most people, and I’ve lost it before (so it can’t be that hard?) but this cycle of “I just want to binge” to “I feel so guilty, I have to get rid of it” is killing me. My stomach hurts when I do eat and my digestive system is so messed up that I can’t have a BM without taking a laxative now, but that urge to binge is so overwhelming...and then the regret after eating anything is worse now than it’s ever been. I can’t think about anything else. I just want to enjoy my kids and be able to eat like a normal person. 
I apologize if this triggers anyone...I figured maybe telling my story can be my first step towards accountability, and maybe help someone else in the process.",5.68097533632287,5.835297663677133,6.013467488789238,81.73804876681616,67.13153961136024,8.364140508221228,29.729484304932733,7.908726449838941,1.8860388340807184,2663,87,518,28,40,855,283,669,0.17,0.757,0.073,-0.9973,1,2,1,0,1,0,85.0,2,0,1,12,41,30,1,5,22,0,49,42,6,4,11,103,95,55,1,16,16,1,10,3,0,5,6,0,0,2,35,39,34,3,12,2,1,8,13,23,0,8,37,17,68,7,77,44,14,95,0,9,4,0,23,27,0,8,61,351,103,2,0.10837153683583464,0.0,0.052877493584822965,0.05907048569534527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05790810749430745,0.10851843990502576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901738001102247,0.0,0.0,0.03684818063335686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0378879491596769,0.0,0.17836108192504824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24999306735301666,0.0904857065758042,0.06606228298688623,0.0,0.04610809795322501,0.0,0.0,0.04792290880588393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046676241556205665,0.0,0.058555565812873536,0.0,0.0865258538912039,0.0,0.0,0.03494533795277964,0.0,0.04667012293916794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435645486675579,0.09053051309446168,0.0,0.047992507630126836,0.05598838354462615,0.0,0.03578918900188138,0.0490141297277932,0.045653846905124085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051081520054519214,0.0,0.02739795261227196,0.0,0.15608050543322885,0.0,0.0,0.13827116080640353,0.3931298775319909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19816879294271705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334923587182624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09707961066574887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036319578383552514,0.05725023933865438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058006985788099125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059948524464926475,0.0,0.02977908124222055,0.08833726667754849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654602139425089,0.0794172882603333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04550239843655128,0.06062001467687195,0.17745050133487986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03616942117834722,0.0,0.10887377487617203,0.059024186909447565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346171707970233,0.04325056338879643,0.0,0.03983277448159132,0.0803561213930142,0.16716562020224532,0.05233295279091933,0.0,0.0,0.05309054832158409,0.0,0.0,0.05685884892725671,0.0,0.036717679018689664,0.04121071858606554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03756558919646801,0.047312922940006025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369692485615338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817523682310422,0.06138191273323002,0.04627435016289275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04317904197399345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04591142574103661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505889733646407,0.0,0.04327282465315928,0.04530172867547715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04074095434819002,0.0,0.1420822497950399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035998616818069665,0.06944010495353506,0.0,0.0,0.03159615731489433,0.0,0.0,0.10355364760682324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04679910632694995,0.0,0.0,0.06392034023547605,0.043010140830228825,0.04346455498968713,0.26393467280808114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049647535325605,0.0,0.052233147131217086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05521992723756227,0.11547604565532828,0.0,0.0,0.06978771662187405
EDAnonymous,RatEnabler,2019/10/08,"Just lost 1lb by pooping I don't abuse lax because ik it's not true fat loss but god damn I hadn't pooped in a week and it was the cleanest most effortless swift shit of my life, truly blessed by the lax gods 😩🎉",2.7891156462585016,2.427222061224491,4.024897959183672,95.29748299319729,73.28571428571428,7.34965986394558,26.537414965986393,6.42735559955562,0.6379741496598629,167,5,44,1,3,55,43,49,0.198,0.506,0.29600000000000004,0.7159,0,0,0,0,1,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,1,6,2,0,3,0,3,5,4,0,1,6,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,3,2,4,1,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.52144004288712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26827753534152954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31085177549686044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4804151576443949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4517507017301907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35301727885075784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the-cranky-masshole,2019/10/08,"Tired of being a source of stress for my parents In a lot of ways, I feel like my parents would be better off if I didn't exist. I know my ED is taking a toll on them, and I know they'd rather that I wasn't living with them. (I'm a 32-year-old autistic woman and I was living on my own in supported housing for disabled people until I attempted suicide this past March.) My parents and I argue all the time lately about what the right course of action is for my ED. I want to go back to the treatment center I attended this past summer, but they feel like I should be more self-reliant and be able to manage my ED on my own. I just feel like they don't understand the enormity of what an ED is and how nearly-impossible it can be to overcome it on your own. My dad would rather that I saw a nutritionist who specializes in treating people with autism, but I just don't know if that's enough help for me. (I do also see a therapist and a psychiatrist, but they don't help much, either.) I'm just tired of having an ED at all and tired of being such a goddamned burden.",5.43967261904762,4.5061083839285745,6.4926785714285735,81.76065476190479,67.83928571428572,9.252380952380953,28.934523809523807,8.344100000000001,1.8139684523809525,834,23,180,10,12,281,113,224,0.10800000000000001,0.799,0.092,-0.6652,3,0,0,0,0,1,23.0,0,1,6,2,10,10,1,1,14,0,22,3,0,1,2,35,37,15,1,8,11,4,3,3,0,3,3,0,0,1,10,9,0,0,7,0,0,3,5,3,0,0,4,5,32,7,28,23,10,24,0,0,2,0,16,12,0,3,11,136,42,1,0.12162691585419227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972650006660032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352359071040577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756912316655502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567311700137784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844946694074047,0.2606708789653256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912337917331324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304791582342465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034113095342746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005289164044632,0.0,0.13720045877908876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17826230242060584,0.0,0.2147975900152952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340285443956372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894097777251331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762698833952402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4051568894430401,0.0,0.2322133071104372,0.16864157839279315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386872158130243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09692090484591108,0.0,0.1268833990806338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932322117652385,0.0,0.0,0.13304010509723033,0.13802078276717522,0.0,0.0,0.09144830406591203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412182237004377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092163273232735,0.4193767431968463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12661790880778204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07173870621553145,0.09654178453812294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17280054275224654,0.0,0.0,0.07832374611502406
EDAnonymous,uhhh206,2019/10/08,"""Wow, you look so healthy! I thought you'd be way thinner during chemo!"" I'd been able to keep my weight more or less steady around borderline UW before my diagnosis, so my doctor was concerned I don't have the spare weight to lose like most his patients.  That alone was very triggering (I'm already smol enough to be concerned for me uwu), but having to give up on my life in order to spend my days focusing around eating as much as I can keep down and browsing Reddit all day is not the wonderland of sunshine and rainbows that one might think.

I have no control over anything, I can't do any of my hobbies, all my relationships are suffering, and my ""job"" right now is to fight losing weight the one time I have an excuse to be as thin as I want.  I'm trying to focus on how taking care of myself now will mean I'm in a better position to get scary thin in a healthy way later (while hoping that having more control over my life when I'm better will negate the ""at least my weight is something I can control"" urges).

The problem is that people can't seem to leave a thought unsaid when it comes to my appearance. My gorgeous, waist-length hair is gone and I'm depressed AF about that, and people want to talk about that.  I look ""healthy"" and not sick like they expect (want???) me to look, and people want to talk about that, too.

Is it too much to ask that people not comment on a cancer patient's appearance?  We know what we look like, and don't need people reminding us that the world is this focused on our appearance.",8.761452429149799,6.027838940789473,8.124736842105264,78.46277327935223,62.55263157894736,10.932793522267207,35.55566801619433,8.617729084823388,2.7311905870445337,1194,37,246,12,13,376,160,304,0.086,0.733,0.18100000000000002,0.9852,1,1,1,0,1,0,40.0,4,2,1,7,14,16,1,0,11,0,30,11,1,5,2,46,63,20,0,8,5,0,7,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,13,13,5,5,6,0,1,5,9,6,0,2,6,12,32,10,40,50,10,35,0,4,5,0,16,18,0,8,12,162,45,2,0.09013201791703412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334958816768048,0.09946292304605373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612928629421748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417097100008209,0.16047321008727858,0.0842612698243666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669570871059676,0.0,0.0,0.1594288906937436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918955992505195,0.0,0.0,0.07764075260124255,0.0,0.0,0.303272166524993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625539024137024,0.0,0.07763057496020186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922539395586974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222755581206657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313046831539208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047090259299798716,0.08646284450448127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952143085485173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08944212018413987,0.16022695768145456,0.0,0.0,0.049534199891296864,0.0,0.0,0.09543679293812897,0.0,0.0,0.12732581955048847,0.13210185363055058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027527788861353,0.20166934634371653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09818019061812497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561582756528944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251480778383914,0.06683174922682865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215157595108052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124309627212385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624416855169695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676805627681953,0.0,0.07697225082816808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205280398981624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938803084451735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06776806040557892,0.1448894037231075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057752957709862385,0.0,0.1431095087640523,0.052556704469910384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06119372374462469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841771989153293,0.0,0.0,0.0743683541700861,0.2126487976301097,0.1430852010448741,0.0,0.4390260644637888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WidowBites,2019/10/08,"is thinspo a form of fetishizing? I don't mean the sexual fetish but the other definition ""have an excessive and irrational commitment or obsession to (something)"" as in is the act of seeing a person as thinspo a fetishization?",6.784916666666668,8.880468325000002,7.605,64.28666666666669,65.75,11.333333333333336,38.333333333333336,11.20814326018867,5.373833333333333,183,10,26,6,3,61,32,40,0.156,0.763,0.081,-0.4871,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,6,6,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,23,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6111682029151839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.489903471813513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470990430978877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319380299434677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,camisadoclouds,2019/10/08,"4 Years Since ""Recovery"" but I Don't Feel Cure(?)... Today officially marks 4 years on the dot since I was discharged from the hospital, doctors saying I was ""cured"", and I feel like every year on this year I have the same thought. What does it mean to be ""cured""?  I still restrict, though I feel my ED has shifted from Ana to something in between Ana and Bulimia (if it can even do that, I don't even know at this point). I still have the same hatred towards my weight and everything else, the only difference is the fear of having to go back to ""prison"". Since this is my first post on here I guess I should introduce myself before I finish releasing my problems onto you more haha, I am a recovered/recovering Ana and I had Ana for about.... 5 years? (I was hospitalized to be treated for it after 5 years anyway, so I guess it's more of 9 years now if you aren't my doctor) So the fact that I act like this isn't too unusual to those around me, but it still sucks being watched over all the time since that's kinda what landed me here in the first place. Anyway, back to my disappointing recovery. As I was saying, the only thing really stopping me from really getting into the mindset I had before completely is my fear of having to be treated again. Is this a normal thing? Is this a part of recovering? I feel like I'm constantly going in a circle and I am never getting to where I am going. It reminds me of a story I heard as a child where there was a man who's punishment for stealing rice was he had to get the key to unlock himself from the middle of this giant cake. He kept trying but even after he ate the cake the key still hung just an inch out of his reach. I don't know maybe I'm just extra sensitive today. Sorry for having to get this off my chest :/",4.075740482822656,4.725158545961008,5.396396239554317,83.01552286443828,70.78272980501393,8.323166202414113,25.543291550603534,8.472884824447931,1.5530528319405752,1374,38,283,21,24,461,171,359,0.129,0.8290000000000001,0.043,-0.987,0,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,2,0,2,26,13,2,2,23,1,35,5,1,0,3,37,58,15,0,5,7,0,5,3,0,1,2,3,0,2,23,8,2,3,8,0,0,4,6,7,0,2,13,9,41,6,47,40,7,53,0,1,1,0,13,22,1,5,29,213,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175377784460079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123289268970746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629185527354028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628861378398756,0.09924241536454204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959493876309038,0.0,0.18799668993644367,0.08036656541514384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671744486593646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18197103099483367,0.0,0.07737604401307711,0.0,0.08253654522353493,0.0,0.0,0.2066827400799945,0.1857407715587199,0.13121574281095744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562318205302538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19192270636807468,0.0,0.15657805777630873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023360773673846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094165802305873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459973273667505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226190745979633,0.10003665394577972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708298164507497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998007576768349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969128961914695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944976402678524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959493876309038,0.0,0.08681498805968195,0.0,0.08795378995201945,0.0,0.0,0.08787493678643231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766537136781598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460638243457724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038717470354793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070007081744895,0.0,0.10280321962742647,0.0,0.0,0.2933623527402872,0.07677925935018576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202391465995938,0.0,0.09022869893334093,0.07290776435881724,0.05355048533198141,0.0,0.17410014941746532,0.0,0.0,0.06235081972599631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183187312898188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.413976965718758
EDAnonymous,ttmagain,2019/10/08,"Muscles? I’ve been eating at a moderate deficit and exercising 4-5x a week, and my calfs/calf muscles look h u g e. I know I’m not eating enough to build muscle, so is this water retention? Will it go away ?",-0.6360606060606031,1.5458432727272748,2.5563636363636384,89.79621212121214,93.54545454545452,5.660606060606061,20.96969696969697,7.1686216300943375,0.8379515151515151,160,6,35,3,6,57,38,44,0.08900000000000001,0.9109999999999999,0.0,-0.5007,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,5,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32987089993246604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7185278483154052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627811364079847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19953876093150186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19295589996141954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29483637085081343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816320038969849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cheap_Bat,2019/10/08,"Fitting into the clothes I bought when I was in denial [TW binge/restrict] I had this whole [long] phase where I was in a binge-restrict cycle and I was convinced that I was going to be thin soon so I'd buy clothes that were too small for me. Of course I was mostly maintaining or gaining (do binge/restrict cycles work out ever?) 

Soon I started recovering. It started with not restricting because I was doing that to try to counteract the binges which were my real out of control behavior. With a lot of help I managed to get the binging under control (turns out not restricting helps a lot with this as well!) and have managed to lose weight in a *mostly* healthy way. 

So I'm in this totally weird place now. I have so many mixed feelings coming up. These clothes. I bought some of this stuff 2+ years ago. I would bring it home, or open the package. Pull a piece out. Admire it, not because it was some beautiful piece of fashion but because it was small and I was convinced if I was better with my restricting I would be wearing it soon.

I'm trying to be mindful of disordered thinking when I can and not fall into it when I can help it, but yesterday I wore an outfit I've had for 2 years that I couldn't have dreamed of fitting in when I got it. In fact I was convinced I would just never fit into the shirt and I didn't even realize I still had it. The sick sense of satisfaction I felt, wow. 

I'm too broke right now to buy new clothes, I'm sizing out of the clothes I've been wearing lately, so my only choice is really to shop my closet. The stuff that fits is the stuff I bought when I was in denial. Wearing it is some mix between satisfying and triggering. I still consider myself in a pretty good place, but fuck I feel weird right now. I keep thinking of the person who bought these clothes and feeling sad.",3.046721311475409,4.715067114754099,3.9986010928961737,88.12413114754101,74.57377049180329,6.73792349726776,26.95409836065573,7.42949916751922,1.3683645901639343,1428,54,292,17,30,460,167,366,0.073,0.7759999999999999,0.15,0.9788,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,6,24,14,1,0,17,0,36,7,4,3,4,63,61,23,0,5,11,0,6,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,27,21,1,6,7,2,7,5,7,6,1,0,26,6,37,8,44,28,11,61,0,3,0,1,5,31,1,10,24,214,64,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10026286355420826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20684761818419545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003428173907987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974319884727352,0.0,0.0,0.2537190778724425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963085107528985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07470635453972722,0.10231209633468404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715714621033271,0.0,0.10860081774062792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456594573011352,0.05909393517654636,0.0,0.06428152785324885,0.09486909992540478,0.09046230045580717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22744046806809054,0.0,0.11345591947833022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005350319954979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275900457698034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009646771847087,0.0,0.12653822103696724,0.0,0.19231969117413886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114673125488703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420620560444142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723538055742079,0.10923980772807412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602325560843793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876099721849176,0.2363462666899169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507086335400846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874095526648388,0.07245948079534395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19318616072483907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16011596457086713,0.0,0.1806553917890916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884426515029153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449492778297366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358496631560467,0.12302834455327295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897793696721589,0.0,0.13773431161775476,0.10169711390165016,0.0,0.0,0.12628034504795946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234351620515798,0.0,0.0,0.2410447022736163,0.0,0.0,0.14567488243999233
EDAnonymous,strayturk,2019/10/08,"I don't know if it is ok to say this, but... I feel like taking everyone here to a nice picnic and sit you down around a cheery table, talk to you, rub your backs, make you laugh until you all eat something and feel better. I am sorry life is hard, hope you each find some small but strong reason to be kind to yourself today ❤️",2.526,3.253282457142859,3.6928571428571435,93.52214285714285,74.42857142857143,6.171428571428572,18.285714285714285,5.6839178017228535,-0.4580571428571436,252,3,59,1,5,82,55,70,0.045,0.66,0.295,0.9604,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,6,0,2,3,8,0,0,2,1,5,2,0,2,1,16,11,6,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,9,8,8,10,3,7,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,3,4,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21916771477024974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931045853338105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177414262648548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25192121021549496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23525198581090145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24896941471969,0.1758833368436051,0.0,0.0,0.2250197907596116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205443431368009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445293817298188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563765095731844,0.13530354863897515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389637115723128,0.12027952147017787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433855020045468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531317371577533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957859039451122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953464125668468,0.0,0.27559762142851424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851096631696334,0.19788399254396766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23336616909321756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Em9683,2019/10/08,"Struggling with reality So yesterday I went with this person to this eating disorder hospital place because I was struggling and I really thought I was doing better bc I was eating 1200 calories but when they weighed me ( I asked not to look) and they told me later that I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa I was so shocked and it just didn't make sense to me and then they told me that I was ""significantly underweight"" bc my percentile was 0.91 and I just stood there in disbelief bc ... I'm not significantly underweight... I'm too fat to be underweight... And the weird twisted thing is obviously I didn't like to hear that but a small part of me was happy about that and I don't think I have a problem.

However they then told me that my height to weight was 77.31 and that I couldn't go to school until it gets to 80 bc they're worried about the strain it might have on my heart. And I now have to eat 3 whole meals and 3 snacks for god knows when and i have to gain weight and I'm terrified and I know have no control over what I'm allowed to eat anymore and I feel so confused. I'm 14, in year ten and I'm preparing for my GCSEs and I'm a target grade 9 in everything except RE in business where I'm a 8 and I had two tests today and a story I had to finish writing. And I just feel guilty for all the stress I'm putting my family and friends and boyfriend through. None of this feels real... I can't have anorexia... I'm not thin enough...I don't have a problem... I don't need to gain weigjtIt doesn't make any sense whatsoever...",1.1385460599334074,3.371813886792456,2.7519866814650378,91.99082130965591,83.0880503144654,6.131113577506475,22.874953755086946,7.39963492309942,0.8634658527561974,1208,43,266,19,34,396,153,318,0.12300000000000001,0.7929999999999999,0.083,-0.8501,2,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,4,4,14,13,0,5,9,0,30,12,2,4,2,54,60,31,0,4,9,0,6,1,1,1,2,1,0,1,14,24,10,1,7,0,0,3,13,9,0,2,19,8,38,4,32,38,4,25,0,0,1,0,12,11,0,2,12,170,52,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767257668287005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11327417718882435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677898906441416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962660914253295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101708537874443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810589183070084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159294925684218,0.0,0.0,0.13090443119237324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674966420051019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801836452905333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102652328628775,0.0,0.10767514746496064,0.0,0.17325709481329687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824502061666367,0.0,0.059674513489939934,0.0,0.06491307254411947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12158784230858505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287326831775227,0.13534961178253144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255431303025002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05580144714808749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959148720796846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248362832367415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116790344199753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469165768237161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368763232436225,0.0,0.0,0.0997312912600525,0.11933414518552853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21858358294021504,0.0,0.11482125806942005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000579245239802,0.0731713711614848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559533883963735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130837040542192,0.2388121972464507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588177427537883,0.07318667820450597,0.0,0.09067682402117946,0.0,0.0,0.10826589424065462,0.3274223515088839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157499276885477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781750110939779,0.0,0.1058818028110862,0.0,0.1275210075545884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599455046386392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355304492195089
EDAnonymous,bongwaterdelight,2019/10/08,"nobody ever talks about.... nobody every talks about how tired having an eating disorder makes you feel, physically, mentally, and emotionally. nobody talks about coming home from a 5 minute walk and feeling so worn out that you can’t even think. nobody talks about sleeping for 10 hours a night and waking up still feeling weary down to the bones. nobody talks about trying to spend quality time with someone but you can’t keep your eyes open and you can’t hear what they just said. i’m sorry, this is just an exhausted rant from someone who feels like they can’t keep up with how fast everything is moving around them because they’re just. so. tired.",4.978099173553719,7.168528834710751,4.439743801652893,84.78325206611572,70.5702479338843,7.1540495867768605,22.843801652892562,7.908726449838941,1.1206819834710742,523,13,94,7,10,157,80,121,0.151,0.804,0.046,-0.9039,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,3,0,16,2,0,0,5,0,7,8,4,3,1,25,20,9,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,10,1,2,5,0,1,3,4,1,0,0,2,7,8,1,17,18,0,15,0,0,1,0,16,6,0,0,7,56,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305229109838155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426255036562408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190712454121076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584213472732883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14144182744155526,0.0,0.1554879772298849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129833861220032,0.12503520581131744,0.11646311330146265,0.0,0.124230479090599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27956906816130755,0.09875016303072684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579308447640022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865402773177465,0.0,0.1361268080631248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457269251073505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753125433934322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09226831214237467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393013860792528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469145660740241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12971768276318124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13148655141343815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832789974559284,0.0,0.2342403955146177,0.0,0.0,0.15473501091889152,0.0,0.0,0.11038911772163436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5555124457942197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08857096782748138,0.0,0.0,0.08060190101619598,0.31774567167890394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938477880952472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tastytatsu,2019/10/08,"School Just Got a Lot Brighter The three other EDies at my school and I made a group chat/support type thing today, and it's just been the most therapeutic thing, especially since we wouldn't normally talk to each other :D",5.4529457364341125,6.7482969302325575,5.093023255813954,84.0773643410853,68.06976744186046,8.524031007751939,25.96124031007752,8.841846274778883,1.6419984496124025,180,5,36,3,3,55,36,43,0.0,0.841,0.159,0.7672,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,4,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,3,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,24,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22534441234524916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395371749982622,0.0,0.2666024471226496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760590977501695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5703001798197861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23306982018709904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31973110001930705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264631923748254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743696757040339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670698471650805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,myfastingmotivation,2019/10/08,"You will defeat your eating disorder! Hello fellow Redditors!  


This is a message of hope.

 If you suffer from any type of eating disorder you will defeat it!

  
I have not personally been through this battle but understand this disease stems from the mind.   


The mind can be a scary place if we allow it to be.   


[Fasting on mental health](https://myfastingmotivation.com/index.php/2019/08/15/eating-disorders/) \- click here please! and have a good day :)   


Without rambling too much I invite you to read my blog post I recently made on the topic.

​

Your life is valuable!",5.334649122807015,8.93271284210526,5.01118421052632,73.23537280701757,78.47368421052632,6.9561403508771935,25.811403508771928,8.07648339933343,2.3309824561403523,460,17,66,9,12,141,68,95,0.14400000000000002,0.657,0.198,0.8429,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,6,0,2,2,7,1,0,6,0,10,3,0,2,0,13,13,4,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,5,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,11,3,10,7,1,7,0,3,1,0,11,3,0,3,3,50,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388283481059402,0.19500393003355326,0.10913367417004853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349800343869664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5517809045846161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284275376397325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346051945190243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705855039645614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15939543687765062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335360951703945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185252058343726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172871931648045,0.0,0.3240833639773764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797317959377875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401272200531124,0.1676701646092155,0.17616170760158886,0.0,0.0,0.15369797351900572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052603326463566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845721107216434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706805089585006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15469950379949454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19500393003355326,0.0
EDAnonymous,feelingthrownawaytoo,2019/10/08,"he threw his wedding band across the room excuse me, but i just need to vent. 

i caught him with porn again. he admitted he never really wanted to make the promise to stay off it. we’ve had multiple fights over this..this one was the biggest yet. i put off having sex with him because i’ve been on my period. he waited til i was taking a nap to look at rape videos


i found out because he wouldn’t let me see his phone. i had an odd feeling when i was in bed alone and lo and behold. maybe that’s my superpower..i always find out when people are being shitty and deceptive towards me


he ended up taking off his wedding band and threw it across the room while we were arguing about it.


idk i just feel kind of numb. and like i want to laugh. he doesn’t even know that ive been struggling with binging and restriction again…but this has lit a fire under my ass. I’ll stop eating. I have to. i’ll be in control and beautiful i will i will i will i will i will


but i know he will do it again and trample on my feelings when I will be the most beautiful i’ve ever been. And that’s fine


He is just a man after all",0.08977496483825577,2.214280396624474,2.1725738396624483,95.12049226441636,86.80590717299576,5.1988748241912806,17.638537271448666,6.605766666666668,-0.15976061884669468,862,21,197,10,27,288,131,237,0.18100000000000002,0.703,0.11599999999999999,-0.9620000000000001,1,1,0,0,1,0,19.0,1,0,0,1,12,10,3,1,9,0,29,6,1,2,3,41,48,16,0,4,5,0,4,1,0,8,1,0,3,1,8,15,1,4,8,4,0,4,3,5,0,1,13,7,31,5,29,23,2,38,0,0,3,4,25,19,1,1,15,132,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943727416551388,0.0,0.0,0.15615906085077672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288075706309432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21049134988958854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920364431297002,0.0,0.0,0.16622267022646092,0.0,0.0,0.1239563184941351,0.16976107156079462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28467948853902275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715298216228057,0.0,0.0,0.20577387719416645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543266308671314,0.20628046523934188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19190846917434504,0.0,0.091687601312796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759814486301107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527325754981586,0.0,0.1885428629508774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13915723231144236,0.14474507132565828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717215566317688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010890351866994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886633101855579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202281992572799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955116973783888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003456347111373,0.0,0.15690312255293473,0.0,0.1961966817066305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822136434929433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22138892423814435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,medicinal-blueberry,2019/10/08,"Wtf is happening to my weight In high school I was always right around 115. But I played a ton of sports. My parents were health freaks so I ate reaaaaally healthily and always had home cooked meals 3 times a day.
During college I went to around 118-120. Never exercised though 
Graduated college, I’m exercise a lot more now (running, abs, gluts). I run 20-25 miles a week. And I just weighed myself. 125. Literally 1 week ago I was 120 lbs, granted I was restricted a ton. I’m freaking out. I’ve never weighed this much before. I definitely look bigger in the mirror. I want to throw up but I haven’t even eaten anything since lunch, and it’s 7pm here.
I’m only 22. Has my metabolism seriously already slowed down?",0.8013829787234029,3.3550184113475225,2.6417695035461013,88.67925000000002,91.83687943262413,5.373191489361703,21.943617021276594,6.961326702584282,0.8963131914893618,560,21,111,9,20,185,103,141,0.078,0.871,0.051,-0.4854,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,6,0,8,11,0,0,2,14,17,7,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,6,8,1,0,5,0,4,3,3,0,0,8,2,15,1,11,9,5,24,0,0,1,0,1,11,0,1,9,60,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349322714208736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20353200460955487,0.0,0.30693451062807336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15177682244964769,0.3283779838248974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694321924955332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894730165700156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181961055917084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16309798261278016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604905142351647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194868954987708,0.185006429662326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548815329891244,0.0,0.0,0.15680265772595642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558320850980018,0.0,0.28450003087313985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027346886106246,0.0,0.0,0.2047966580322392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15750911023510375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18666118087512315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256908344733142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120947447342306,0.0,0.10754732606722064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878635659900047,0.0,0.2958902009035751,0.22459589020620446,0.0,0.1709759454342916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,keekee77,2019/04/28,"How to go about gaining weight after losing too much? Over the course of my relationship with my SO I also formed a very unhealthy relationship with my weight. I am (F) 5’8” and weigh a little less than 110 pounds. I lost at least 30 pounds from starving myself to punish myself for my feelings. And now that I have broken free from my abusive relationship I am trying to get myself into a better and healthier mindset. This is not an issue I’m comfortable bringing up with any doctors or my therapist so if anyone has advice for that conversation as well, it would be much appreciated.

I’ve been eating way more calories and I’ve started to eat unhealthy food but I simply cannot gain any weight at all. People are constantly telling me that I’m too skinny and at this point don’t fit in any of my clothes and I can see my bones. What’s the best way to gain weight? I’m worried if i exercise too much it would also be unhealthy considering how exhausted I am all the time.",3.2533088235294123,5.343886708333333,4.548039215686277,82.57147058823529,75.14583333333334,7.01764705882353,25.356617647058826,7.928766900206844,1.5430639705882359,776,27,147,12,17,256,116,192,0.172,0.727,0.10099999999999999,-0.9296,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,7,12,9,1,0,7,0,15,13,2,2,2,22,25,17,0,4,5,0,5,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,10,9,0,1,1,1,2,3,4,1,0,2,6,21,6,25,19,10,19,0,2,1,0,5,10,0,3,5,108,29,1,0.0,0.13577454833099142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197943311889008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18328074665154606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378251030984004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801264333163355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025879891455105,0.10134863042009612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383485365312175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729129374791815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345154991136805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057941912182666415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856690414486236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059870369358959376,0.0,0.06512612172525764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960583224715587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485278274038326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820080451361862,0.12509233214881846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527182034730439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944469797122468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083278888545604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690915716490766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131617583235643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811098627167455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015976201876736,0.0,0.0,0.13305187530661253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06682038611999437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077801458253097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945516312499896,0.0,0.18191795848518907,0.0,0.5581760013321841,0.10303331050541482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11637525257861928,0.0,0.16280785627185035,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abercrombieandish,2019/04/28,"Piggybacking off of u/hammerprice earlier post thanking those for discouraging purging. Do not do it. We all know the associated risks. But what I was never told, and never read, is that it can decrease strength in your stomach and pelvic floor muscles. When I purge, I'm almost guaranteed to pee myself. Sneeze = pee myself. Cough = pee myself. Laugh hard = pee myself. Kegels laugh at me. Purging just isn't worth all the pain and embarrassment. Take it from this 28 year old with the bladder of a 60 yo woman with 6 kids. Ugh. Stay strong guys.",2.2403734129947708,5.068915815533988,3.1951456310679625,86.26686333084395,85.01941747572816,5.887677371172518,22.486183719193424,7.321109707123232,1.0820685586258405,431,15,81,7,13,137,79,103,0.151,0.727,0.121,-0.0941,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,0,2,2,10,0,2,4,0,6,8,6,0,4,16,11,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,7,6,0,1,1,1,1,0,4,5,0,0,2,1,9,5,10,9,2,11,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,1,5,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27258608407475804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26953770723738674,0.0,0.0,0.2438530349131296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14960338814795374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199011876943505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856460337550682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896581659898533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607087150137708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272290745938208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901471877839071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467336642437828,0.0,0.0,0.25062091386585506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26011508567120595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752988746163733
EDAnonymous,cyfous,2019/04/28,Just found out i reached a new peak! Im the heaviest ive been my whole life 😎,-3.3896491228070147,-1.9045292631578936,-0.07789473684210435,106.90140350877192,104.78947368421049,4.63859649122807,16.859649122807017,6.42735559955562,-0.5302771929824561,60,2,18,1,3,21,17,19,0.0,0.885,0.115,0.1759,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4880510866917354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808059649383551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144014079677259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4298996535908616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4969605652052106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,understandingtabby,2019/04/28,my hair is falling out because I dye it so often and not bc of my shitty eating habits right?,5.761499999999997,4.18128815,6.960000000000001,80.78500000000003,67.5,8.0,30.0,3.1291,1.3135,73,2,15,0,1,25,19,20,0.23399999999999999,0.7659999999999999,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159360173148661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6981838329424425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5826976616720261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peppermintreindeer,2019/04/28,"Has anyone maintained a low weight and been genuinely happy?? Kind of relapsing rn, but my eating disorder SWEARS that this time will be different and that when I get underweight I won’t be as obsessed with food as I was last time etc. 

Just wondering if this has been the case with anyone?? Can you suppress your weight without being neurotic or is this wishful thinking lol",6.016521739130432,7.704975000000005,5.8673623188405815,77.57582608695652,67.1159420289855,9.577971014492757,32.64057971014493,9.888512548439397,3.4220701449275364,301,13,51,7,5,94,55,69,0.094,0.7490000000000001,0.157,0.7016,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,1,12,4,0,0,0,13,16,8,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,4,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,2,6,2,6,8,1,5,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,3,4,39,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954853245427194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207587296263135,0.24216284356464254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21620795253773092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356502335536943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554992463003912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039312988437948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249278910433994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200316526193744,0.0,0.17223395889960305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538956583530992,0.0,0.0,0.2464161034197816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146017677289172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429792916753668,0.20368123340364666,0.22914085692644104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JOHNS555,2019/04/28,"New to the bulimia scene Hey guys, I've been on my weight loss journey for a few months. For the past 6 weeks or so I've got drunk on Saturdays and forced myself to throw up when I hit my limit. These past few days I've started to make myself throw up after every meal.

I just threw up about 10 minutes ago and it's really painful. I'm down to 186bs from 246 in January. I want to hit 135lbs and I'm starting to get scared. I don't think I'm going to tAKe any advice but I just wanted to make a public post. Please shame me or do something. I'm a male and eat about 1000-1200 kcal/day. I have been getting more into personal fitness and have ridden? my bike 100 miles so far this week. I want to go for 100 miles/week going forward. My current BMI is 29.1. My highest was 38.5. My goal BMI is 21.1 and I'm worried that I might go below that. My normal meals I'd eat like 12oz chicken breast and broccoli on the side, I feel like I need to puke it up or else I'll gain weight.",-0.03815676668708079,1.9288655680751177,1.8715043886507448,98.13944274341702,85.8075117370892,4.643314962237191,17.711573790569503,5.7926816847441245,-0.5550333129210046,758,18,181,5,23,250,129,213,0.10099999999999999,0.805,0.094,-0.0984,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,4,7,6,0,2,6,0,10,9,1,2,0,25,36,14,0,5,6,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,6,8,7,1,2,2,0,10,1,4,0,0,5,3,20,2,28,28,3,40,0,1,0,1,5,16,0,4,17,89,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349556092302448,0.12109820060880967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929007719797674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17620673895460884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795761438270991,0.11412170709164465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510141202175715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690750779169005,0.0975955637798722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274815147094502,0.0,0.31055874845245385,0.0,0.10926101070521392,0.0,0.0,0.13526725233353595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348334094313108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182378999004798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492363005917916,0.0,0.0,0.10904230977802316,0.0,0.0,0.10129598778552837,0.0,0.13194061771006416,0.0,0.0,0.13385064985920814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536468619179532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608230199850558,0.0,0.11928423575319907,0.0,0.1499588349235029,0.0,0.0,0.13083643064553047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751707691473032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367723372046543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517050961860074,0.0,0.0,0.19338920225226405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271514210699073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753538499943826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24173170225843535,0.0,0.328745461205513,0.3327129648553331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873600881732542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happyplantlover,2019/04/28,"hold tf up Soooo your girl high restricted to a T the past four days and wanted to have 3 Ritz crackers on this lovely Saturday night as a treat...and I about spit them out when I noticed “partially hydrogenated soybean oil” as a FREAKING ingredient!!! 


Do Ritz crackers actually STILL use partially hydrogenated soybean oil? I thought a ban of trans fats  was just imposed recently? AM I TRIPPIN’???? 

Ritz are not even worth the calories let alone the artery clogging evil that are trans-saturated fats.

~rant over~",2.989120879120879,6.074329395604402,3.5428021978021995,81.23969780219781,90.2087912087912,6.995604395604397,29.57692307692308,7.957251820313856,2.8518000000000003,409,21,69,10,14,128,70,91,0.217,0.736,0.047,-0.9375,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,7,0,7,4,3,1,0,10,11,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,2,3,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,2,2,6,1,10,8,0,12,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,7,39,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2784912852244457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295569282066467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404752985238884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884918623513444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015213402135456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29182203210866875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257568045674227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26781130933597874,0.0,0.0,0.32490885524761753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27242903898956805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817799118453962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22790612292579135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265611214389931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464780832972119,0.0,0.0,0.1683254679574198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,OFPalways,2019/04/28,"I’m pregnant I’m at my goal weight of 110 at 5’5. My ed literally runs my life and now I’m fucking pregnant
 I don’t know what to do. I’m craving weird ass foods and now my life is ruined",-1.4013636363636373,0.3474197727272745,1.7874545454545439,97.92118181818184,89.9090909090909,4.42909090909091,20.163636363636364,5.6839178017228535,-0.31409454545454496,146,5,38,1,5,52,28,44,0.192,0.8079999999999999,0.0,-0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,3,9,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,5,0,4,9,0,5,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,0,2,17,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4896987655410303,0.0,0.0,0.3743939230291347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22256429984121132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5720932596499231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493151846925227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zucchinibreadz,2019/04/28,"my milkshake brings my anxiety to the yard Saturday night, hanging with friends. We went to a really awesome local diner place and I got a milkshake because “I dOnT haVe aN EAtInG diSoRDer” and now I am 1000% conscious of every ounce of fat on my body rolling around as I move! I am below my TDEE! I am below the 1300 daily threshold! I know logically there is no scientific way for me to gain weight! I still hate myself for being so weak!!!  Have a great night!!!",2.41,4.759872000000001,4.043333333333333,83.885,79.0,6.666666666666668,25.555555555555557,7.793537801064563,1.633888888888888,360,14,68,6,9,120,66,90,0.14,0.6970000000000001,0.163,0.6579,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,6,0,8,6,2,0,0,8,13,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,3,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,1,15,2,13,10,0,16,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,5,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16725400058982914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946301348475343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332769296196734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24285248974689866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25057288984466297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562367900645987,0.0,0.0,0.22371661431335715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420812196421973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689156709891999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486115272083266,0.2410441645433593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21585528065574736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015523337713925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23237277055811256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103453883377504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842543482991426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006219467762293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460096578522474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17354106619356582,0.0,0.2662366574510973,0.0,0.2026754103789451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sweetcaroline12,2019/04/28,"Male with eating troubles. Putting on serious weight. Help I'm a 25 year old male who's been overweight all of his life, except for 5 years ago when I managed to change the way I eat and lose upwards of 70 lbs. 5 years later, I've put on 65 of those pounds again, and no matter how much self-hatred I have for myself, I can't manage to gain the mental energy to do it all over again. 

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It  seems like I'll go through one or two days where I'm determined to eat better, only to fall into going to the grocery store and eating full pints of ice cream or a whole container of yogurt. I have to shop for my food daily now, cuz I know whatever I have in my fridge will be compulsively eaten by me. 

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I feel stuck in this cycle of ""I'm going to start dieting tomorrow, but lemme finish this last pint of ice cream"". Of course ""tomorrow"" never happens. I always end up binge eating and feeling bad about myself again.

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Any tips to overcome this? I wan to feel and look good again, but I just feel out of control, anxious and depressed.",4.51487196765499,5.18228494811321,5.23269541778976,84.51783018867927,69.80188679245282,7.755256064690027,26.46361185983827,7.7094869923839395,1.3861781671159026,827,24,166,9,14,268,139,212,0.11199999999999999,0.815,0.07400000000000001,-0.8397,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,4,10,8,0,0,5,0,8,11,0,3,3,29,25,13,0,0,6,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,7,9,10,2,6,1,2,6,3,5,0,2,3,8,17,3,35,20,5,37,0,2,3,0,5,10,0,3,21,101,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643150939440511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113122941711222,0.3169369834604901,0.35543449366405977,0.06630613754580111,0.0,0.0,0.11015188950856164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08141185810287993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623446065071969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031464185323046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935914896753113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288208386559964,0.0,0.08398014603962843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4988552261751272,0.0,0.0,0.08635969964851972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972040283300303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11790235539880367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624149605095526,0.08178182041457582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622256140405067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0653549488336285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05358570824652359,0.07947886237616998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887003558808624,0.047635582439378966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08187889435894133,0.10908215716774128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826120846436123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716767389382682,0.0,0.07520117964810266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231416023437884,0.0,0.06607130755247874,0.07415626844966515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603712032928985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876407865790532,0.10171805033965764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901391006311569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952473464014106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739422312676683,0.0,0.11873373676471492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088598554083818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35543449366405977,0.188368347818038
EDAnonymous,Feckless_stick,2019/09/05,"I don't understand if this is a benefit or a disadvantage So I've struggled with being underweight my whole life, I don't think I've been anywhere approaching a healthy BMI for over a decade at this point, owing to a number of factors but the key one being that most (like 99%) of food tastes like the colour grey (or worse). 


Having somewhat recently (over the last 3 years or so) entered the dating and relationships pool so to speak, I've had mixed success, but more recently I've gotten a lot of people turning me down because I'm too thin. I totally get that and everyone is allowed to have their own preference, in fact in some ways it's sort of inspiration?

I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't know if it's better to be underweight and considered broadly attractive by society, (if you're a woman), and thus have less motivation to change. Or to be underweight and considered unnatractive, thereby giving you a goal to work towards that is better for that aspect of your life, but feeling shitty in the here and now.

Ill be honest, i oftentimes think my situation in this particular aspect would be better if I'd been born the opposite gender, but I feel like that's ""grass is greener on the other side"" thinking. 

Are there some of you who also think this particular aspect of your life would be easier if you were born the other gender?",7.989840848806367,6.920749003831418,8.515862068965514,69.76726790450931,62.793103448275865,12.015443560271144,35.78573533745947,11.20814326018867,3.991248511641615,1074,41,196,26,13,360,145,261,0.045,0.762,0.19399999999999998,0.9906,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,5,1,7,8,12,0,1,16,0,25,6,0,3,2,44,41,23,0,8,13,0,3,3,0,2,4,2,0,1,15,7,2,0,11,1,1,2,3,1,0,1,5,8,16,11,29,27,10,25,0,0,2,0,12,14,0,16,11,139,31,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440367081457435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720701185333019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795703224888897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513367125332785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669833626695044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466914978942946,0.10220087809556892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729866641990766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474205722995499,0.13723455696168274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759484597173534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862110037544782,0.11661160822687552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031389240534786,0.20967317766033092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162305083627058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694000644952784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917861249160953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13523633401730673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825056251117746,0.15359107611251707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376570208988901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608035230939104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955559643410074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666639287644063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971271950981664,0.15560635016157942,0.0,0.1489287355090555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355301971443285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971948302977546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414814620713048,0.0,0.14578862949989313,0.20324902353614666,0.0,0.0,0.09212485484143386
EDAnonymous,BeckaRC,2019/09/05,"I just want to be able to maintain a healthy weight but my mind won't let me My ED started 5 years ago when I was 15. I'm 5'9 and for four years until was 19 I stayed around 105lbs, a handful of times going up to 110 and twice dipping below 100. I know that's only a 10 pound difference but every half pound was a BIG difference to me.

Then last April during hard times I ""let myself go"" and reached 122. I ended up going back down to 105 by June, but it was like an invisible cap had been twisted off. I reached 120 again, and this time for longer and I got so many compliments about my body, not about weight gain but about my figure and fitness and how ""tiny"" I was. Compliments I hadn't received when I was 15 pounds lighter! 

I had a huge mental breakthrough. Now I look at pictures of myself from the past 4 years and I think I looked sickly and weak, I was so bony, my hairline looked like it was receding, and I had no butt or thighs. Now at this new weight I actually had a butt! I felt like I had the body of a woman instead of a child.

But I can't maintain that weight. I know now that I want to be between 115 and 120, but everytime I don't fit into the smallest size in the store I feel like I've failed. It makes me feel so guilty and miserable when I eat full meals consistently (but I know logically that I have to and it's healthy for me and it's what I want). When I have a day where I only eat one meal it makes me so happy even though I know I need to eat more to be a good weight. When my thigh gap shrinks I feel so gross but I know in my logical mind that it doesn't look bad.

I'm back to under 110 but for the first time ever I don't want to be here. I feel like I have a child's body. I feel too skinny and I didn't think that was possible before. I feel trapped. I feel so cold all the time again and I feel weak again and I don't want this anymore.  I feel like people look at me and know I have an eating disorder and I hate that. For the first time I WANT to weigh more, I WANT to be a healthy weight but it's like this monster which is my ED that I've spent years training is now turned against me.",1.2197851248823142,2.572179311015123,2.6749892008639304,97.0291886802902,78.78401727861771,5.9582211884587695,20.51110372708645,6.551861593081955,-0.07303805726311152,1643,40,409,14,39,535,193,463,0.109,0.7340000000000001,0.157,0.9398,0,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,4,33,18,1,1,21,0,36,25,9,3,2,70,79,45,0,8,13,0,18,7,0,1,3,0,0,3,22,21,14,0,21,0,2,4,10,7,0,6,20,24,66,11,43,51,4,62,0,2,5,2,4,19,2,1,45,260,88,1,0.065110885701356,0.0,0.06353883208634441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05771687160821176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457250279884423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057962492583602775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100132504098446,0.0543648698771196,0.0,0.0,0.05540456808852154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21697054744720196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04199113478819514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605403482463732,0.07462271595634765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664987640916894,0.0,0.0,0.05766891879664425,0.0,0.0,0.04300512593035756,0.05889652378543201,0.05485872941286587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29629818156441234,0.13954568926445654,0.06251666102368708,0.0,0.0,0.11076657223132406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101205047509127,0.05461192176124894,0.05207512328797986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931174856109343,0.05832656450710778,0.0642835196817866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21469943990818927,0.05307406208075637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316058405421807,0.0,0.22266922913066667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733837269677059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692404359993712,0.06601221854356293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561645854321255,0.0,0.1314868670625738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04827889673051844,0.0,0.06288449914197926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04412082123420534,0.0990395251695203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06215570785222869,0.04513968992025109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.073402740537932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04608582002330931,0.0693995408786392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344085299018754,0.06397111461555895,0.0,0.22780008636199986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082194658157714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26882861146076964,0.0,0.0,0.4757251068570973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771710258972514
EDAnonymous,i_m_very_lonely,2019/09/05,"it's getting worse tw // suicidal thoughts tw // years ago i struggled with unhealthy eating habits, i exchanged it for other self harming methods but i keep feeling more suicidal & i wanna starve to death i feel so gross i hate the space i take up & i'm really sad i wanna die",0.636828282828283,3.090857854545458,2.240606060606062,89.88313131313132,97.72727272727272,4.6262626262626245,24.292929292929287,6.42735559955562,1.122777777777778,222,10,41,3,9,72,42,55,0.5670000000000001,0.41200000000000003,0.021,-0.9936,0,0,1,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,8,2,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,8,0,6,7,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,21,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948687315070532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4763780274682674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281519948144299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494408766325166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222308386825659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485369337558965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703962096615373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19539771219870966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14083067855541714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293338110134029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22981723078076396,0.0,0.4809233444350297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16528709219730436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17452288310916114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402865496077606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156527425616758
EDAnonymous,i-see-monsters,2019/09/05,"I ate a toast.. (Possible TW) 
My boyfriend offered me a toast and I fucking ate it like the pig I am.. I could have told him than I would save it for later and then throw it out, but I didn't and now I feel fucking disgusting. I did 40 min. of cardio, but I still feel fat af.. how do I cope?",-2.8237622377622387,-1.2686849846153851,0.14839160839160925,104.52342657342659,106.53846153846152,3.594405594405595,15.139860139860144,5.565023196281405,-1.0122307692307686,216,6,58,2,11,74,45,65,0.087,0.845,0.069,-0.4692,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,3,0,7,6,1,1,0,12,14,7,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,2,13,2,4,7,0,7,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,0,6,39,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715669922333283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439609896769749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.62889140896016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617086596494068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834466892846358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716291214247889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250098248176179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416193617925025,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luv4bugz,2019/09/05,bro rhere r 5 minutes until lunch time oh man i  am so excited 2 walk down 2 7eleven n buy a monster zero ultra (･ω･ ),-3.140641025641024,-2.501455576923078,1.0769230769230802,95.05974358974359,124.0,3.271794871794872,19.71794871794872,5.46131890053228,0.07376410256410271,89,4,20,1,6,33,25,26,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.4795,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wips_and_Chains,2019/09/05,"Thought I looked good TW body image Until I asked a coworker to take a picture. All I see are my giant hips and pounchy stomach.. Back to black coffee, clearly attempting recovery by adding 2 tbs of creamer is over...",4.932601626016262,6.414143073170735,5.569268292682928,79.47552845528456,69.48780487804879,8.393495934959349,35.61788617886179,8.841846274778883,3.2803105691056915,170,9,30,3,3,55,37,41,0.0,0.855,0.145,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,3,0,2,4,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,6,6,1,4,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836340246397953,0.0,0.0,0.3155438287900619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45582080059874297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441930279339778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446015805276384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270061935450613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30854191741490805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257823963833797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkchopstick,2019/09/05,"DAE feel completely fine eating small amounts/low calorie but feel pressured to eat more/unhealthy because you know for a fact the people you are with are gonna notice and bring it up and/or judge you?? like this is why i shut myself in my house let me eat what i want and at my own pace !!!! but also i need to put my foot down and be like YEAH IM NOT EATING MUCH BUT IM OK WITH IT.

and yeah im in the middle of a hangout rn and my friends are talking about making fatty foods and im internally just like wait no i just wanna eat oatmeal at home pls",0.33999999999999986,2.471174111111111,1.9388034188034204,97.19230769230772,85.66666666666667,4.283760683760684,18.401709401709407,5.369823440869387,-0.5590034188034188,429,11,98,2,13,139,81,117,0.039,0.727,0.233,0.9759,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,4,7,0,1,4,3,6,7,1,1,1,23,15,10,0,3,6,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,8,6,1,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,13,6,14,12,2,11,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,0,3,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156097871914653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07741735393571057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315593599657258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6497579273854847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842892486286805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356758044847993,0.0,0.09811903923339324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739025691657424,0.0,0.0,0.14653968556609365,0.0,0.0,0.5487224435669197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06979527706806342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298649851520381,0.0,0.18613575056390488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477275547893913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335880810824652,0.0941680791143534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458909547578375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804505031119712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766897720247758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207690948145877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490724479932381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145967586557227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dueydrops,2019/09/05,"Ex Disney Intern ED Hey yall this is my first post on anything reddit related, so cut me some slack if I am too wild or not following the rules. I am pretty shitty with writing things so hop off. This might be long but I am going to describe my current life and would love some suggestions on how to turn my life around.

I did a year long internship at Walt Disney World working at a popular mountain. While working there about halfway through my internship, I snapped and developed an eating disorder. My typical day would consist of bubbly water and two tiny bags of 100 calorie pop chips. It completely destroyed the rest of my time at Disney but it made me skinny. I went down from 220 lbs starting the internship to 135. Upon returning back to my small college town I have gained and lost more weight. It has been non stop going up and down. To give some perspective I am a 5 7 male weighing in last at about 141 lbs. I dont know whether this is good or bad anymore due to my mind and perception being so warped. Recently, I have been encouraged to go out with my friends for drinks and food. I dont want to socially isolate myself and say no like I did during my internship at disney, but I do not want to get fat again. I am currently having a meltdown and one of the worst days of my life because the past two nights i have been going out to drink with friends (and drinking inhibits my judgement and causes me to binge like fucking crazy). I am wearing a hoodie that is 4 sizes too big I look ridiculous but I dont want anyone to see my body. Tonight is my sisters birthday and we are suppose to go out for margaritas and food (of fucking course am I right) and I want to participate and have fun but I dont want to feel like shit about myself. What do I do about my current situatuion? If i try and eat normally I end up binging and then extremely restriciting by fasting a couple of days and then eating low calorie healthy for a couple of days it is an endless vicious cycle that is fucking with me. I can't remember what its like just to wake up in the morning and just eat without thinking about it. This was suppose to just help me lose weight and now I can't even go an hour without a body check or thinking about how I am going to lose weight next. I have been going to the doctor recently and therapist I am on new meds but I don't think it is helping and I think I have far deeper rooted issues that prevent me from making myself vulnerable. I see everything as a joke and not serious and I have a terribly hard time having compassion or showing empathy for people. i often fake it so I seem more human. I also recently havent had much of any emotions. Besides hatred towards myself for being fat and ugly which will never get me a boyfriend, I dont get sad or happy. Does anyone have any advice for me?",3.5970386162510053,5.123066994690267,4.8101669348350775,83.44714098954145,72.85840707964601,7.614239742558326,28.770112630732108,8.224198915089428,2.0248672566371684,2232,90,434,35,44,737,277,565,0.142,0.736,0.122,-0.8390000000000001,3,0,3,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,0,7,25,31,8,0,21,0,55,30,8,6,1,89,93,50,0,10,22,2,5,4,2,4,6,1,0,2,19,34,17,2,9,6,1,10,16,18,0,4,11,9,67,13,73,75,8,76,0,5,3,4,18,29,4,13,40,312,86,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630263511198015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051578742498612766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772121909692007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396433168281655,0.09019650447437054,0.0,0.05307606534767167,0.057416577336796726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04959470693227203,0.053852838561114016,0.0393171650562402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432846847679517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662568469457711,0.0,0.0,0.06762455247621797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273083234955186,0.0,0.1663825781507757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391988768615397,0.06601607149773132,0.056442322790543474,0.0,0.3779537912975701,0.18954940944251925,0.0,0.26398876612424904,0.0,0.07255116820558892,0.057125768551811375,0.0,0.0,0.04260008548282447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05796632347617053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032611946676852716,0.04607712966629668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054861662925197056,0.15598161396201465,0.0,0.09966143931766562,0.17888109736340052,0.10109207063632024,0.06187201708685117,0.2932439788702303,0.054097563606208536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686589412259411,0.05777722027709006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646282226502232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351718714866324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731878318388869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03544621831055971,0.05257418813799891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366697798570029,0.12604116356763348,0.0,0.0,0.11415677040078495,0.05416177670214108,0.1443127312590998,0.0704067972913883,0.0,0.0582116417467072,0.061029230115369336,0.043052678114077265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164234238397585,0.0,0.0,0.06842180766544625,0.06512423409485235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047413189436750214,0.0,0.04974455910436155,0.062292226357646314,0.06859397596307544,0.06052666957958184,0.06319399684386849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04370527269687121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06157029913220838,0.044714545247115815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061770914029730235,0.06561729113493793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910509267967505,0.0,0.07306325743780924,0.055080635453844895,0.0,0.05129111514943402,0.0,0.0,0.1027925432488504,0.058716232615026176,0.0,0.0,0.0662059045741082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06574722554326395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04565176429708264,0.0,0.0,0.05392291828668142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488673568582294,0.04284936866360939,0.1653099435587317,0.0,0.0,0.07521818963109285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04378966644960699,0.07015491556334409,0.1260096523690133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021190714739014,0.0,0.0,0.2356222633931681,0.0,0.05978996203956615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12434685416927575,0.0,0.0939101057977786,0.0,0.0,0.09163455135156273,0.0,0.0,0.04153436801245595
EDAnonymous,ijustwantprivacy,2019/09/05,Binged 3 days now can’t poop I binged for about 3 days and now I’m trying to get back in track. Only( not the only hahah) problem is I can’t poop! I feel so bloated and full and idk what to do. I took some miralax but that did nothing. Trying to stay away from laxatives but I might need to.,-1.3894444444444431,0.6179632500000025,1.0114583333333336,100.47659722222224,96.1875,3.469444444444445,14.923611111111107,5.033348758259628,-1.129459722222223,224,5,54,1,9,75,44,64,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.3274,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,2,0,0,11,11,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,5,0,9,8,2,10,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,5,35,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537818210583456,0.20770166924542333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3484035026405796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657819918918382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14112387603052118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865492013958241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20028676063863085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259182512051595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108690756152323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25846346000258863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879065217661536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30010757009357075,0.3667805449361494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cookieaddicted,2019/09/05,"my mom told me to be careful about my sugar intake I thought I had a good day today even though I've been really struggling with my body image lately. I spent the morning at a chocolate factory trying all kinds of chocolate and had a lot of fun without thinking too much about calories.

Then I met up with my mom. That's when my good day ended. She told me not to take it the wrong way, but that I should watch my sugar intake 'because of my pancreas'. For the record, I'm healthy never had any problems with my pancreas, don't have a family history of diabetes and I'm at a normal BMI. I don't know how I could not take that statement the wrong way. 😐 Now I feel like I never want to eat again and the healthy dinner I planned for myself is not going to happen because I'm sitting on my bed, having a panic attak about all the chocolate I had. 

And the worst part is that I spent the end of August on holiday with my family and I tried so hard to eat in front of them without feeling like everyone's judging me. Now I feel like my paranoia about everyone judging my eating habits was justified the whole time and I don't want to eat in front of my family ever again.

Thanks for enduring my rant, I hope you've had a better day than me.",4.45328125,4.675050265625,5.584375000000001,83.52312500000002,69.78125,8.275,28.890625,8.07648339933343,1.8244578125000004,972,33,200,12,16,324,130,256,0.11199999999999999,0.72,0.168,0.9457,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,2,15,17,0,2,16,0,17,9,1,1,5,37,40,12,0,7,6,2,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,10,7,0,7,1,2,3,10,6,0,0,13,7,37,11,34,24,7,31,0,0,1,0,7,7,0,2,21,140,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795122646367115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182455347294273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837398137694212,0.0,0.11099218824906487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187839784181656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797805724959085,0.0,0.0,0.19332666082264546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089856619743168,0.0,0.0,0.17700465523565387,0.0,0.0,0.06599835446465632,0.0903862869701097,0.0,0.1909618667386947,0.0,0.0,0.2825961996770353,0.0,0.1515725702542904,0.21415553762136874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0567886773076625,0.16762173775432165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883617869039253,0.0,0.08951159183394898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992463188921171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405467288042217,0.05491519685882107,0.0,0.11271776167848276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14645233623348472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495116129575232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340577708280426,0.0,0.0,0.07345507520186008,0.0,0.1541339181481862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790355480440413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723838686748915,0.0,0.10820712629560048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09561304117832166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401338316291412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446146111282102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502596745714958,0.0,0.0,0.09199588988098273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402677440588869,0.0981740712661532,0.07932788723138247,0.05826604201843801,0.0,0.09471554327180016,0.1909618667386947,0.0,0.13568263516257226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787462610959455,0.1586288261485338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156072365922147,0.0,0.192644865967172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21850074300269207,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ClumsyYeti,2019/09/05,"Sliding back into old habits after a year from hell   

TW : I discuss my height/weight in detail. I don't want to make anyone feel bad, this is purely me and my issues with my own body

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I'm 29… I feel like I'm too old fort his and I don't know how much my body can take – and I don't know how to cope

I have a history of self harm and messed up eating habits going back to my early teens. First I stress ate myself to a BMI of roughly 37 at age 18… Then I got to a BMI of 18.something by the age of 22 – the drop until roughly BMI of 22 was relatively slow/healthy, but once I got to my »goal weight« I just kept feeling like I was still too big… I'd either overeat, not really eat at all, or binge and throw up. This lasted for a couple of years.  


I then ended up bouncing between 145-160lbs (overweight but at least not obese) past 4-5 years but at least there were no more huge 30+lb swings up and down.

In the last year I re-started my diet and I dropped to my current 142lbs doing calorie counting on MFP and sticking to 1200-1300kcal a day… My current weight is still a lot for me when I'm only between 5'2-5'3 but at least a »I fit into my normal clothes« type of situation, and I was on track getting my strength/endurance back.

The past year has been tough… I'd been trying to finish my MA degree, got so stressed out/depressed because of a long term boyfriend's infidelity/abusive outbursts (»drunk one night stand« that turned out to have been yet another lie) I missed the deadlines for my thesis and couldn't graduate. I've now spent months trying to find a job… but also my anxiety has been through the roof.

Then I thought we sorted stuff out, i finally felt like life was getting better, we were planning to move in with eachother. And then he suddenly dumps me. And then the lies come out – the same day. Another 6 month long affair all the while making plans for me to move and live with him. So many lies and not even a »sorry«. My plans fell apart. I'm stuck living with my family who treat me like a 12 year old who has no autonomy.

The past basically year of my life has been a lie and I feel like I'm stuck in hell.

I can't keep any food down atm… Or rather, I'll maybe manage a normal breakfast, then overeat and throw up in the afternoon, and finish my day with wine. The throwing up is not even about weight, I think it's just how I'm responding to the extreme stress right now. I had stuff under control for the majority of the past 5 years and now I feel like I'm right back where I started.

I'm at (and apparently maintaining past few weeks) my lowest weight in 4-5 years. But at the same time – I also feel fatter than I have in a long time. I've always been self conscious about the stretch marks and the roll of loose skin I was left with on my lower stomach (I was young and lost most of the weight at a reasonable pace/with some exercise – but I guess some of it is genetics/bad luck with how I carried the weight when at my heaviest)… 

I've always felt like I was »unfortunately shaped« but not to this degree… I'm as flatchested as a boy, yet I carry so much weight especially in my hips and thighs… it's not in proportion at all

Right now I, logically thinking, know I'm smaller than I've been in a while. But looking at myself I feel like I look worse. And I'm sitting at home thinking noone will ever want me when I look this deformed. I'm 29. I feel like I'm just done.   
I should have my life figured out at this point, I shouldn't be lying in bed worrying about chest pains.

And I don't know how much my heart/stomach/teeth can take, especially if I fall back into my old purging habits fully…",2.5268952507767435,3.929825456724366,3.6997556591211738,90.83071648912563,75.39147802929428,6.657798490901022,23.568597425654684,7.235395106297159,0.7155230181979584,2822,83,628,31,60,917,324,751,0.107,0.823,0.07,-0.9733,6,0,2,0,0,0,72.0,2,0,0,7,40,24,3,3,38,0,43,28,6,9,5,118,101,60,0,9,23,1,19,9,0,3,7,0,2,3,13,41,17,3,23,2,1,10,15,12,0,2,30,22,78,12,97,66,21,140,2,2,3,0,14,53,2,10,83,379,91,3,0.0,0.05885898123992218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945316822195543,0.08267028972017125,0.0,0.0,0.033781982847536716,0.1041810831182508,0.03800267830241974,0.0,0.0,0.03473523052266765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19099227714374625,0.08295624193515534,0.030282565819706224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0439351646528485,0.0,0.11035963277705063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04279223463781561,0.0,0.0,0.05571684660549645,0.0,0.05496652440408791,0.0,0.09611243651906433,0.0,0.0427866251609767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05083669712107601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166370304656287,0.0,0.0,0.04399897204432265,0.0,0.0,0.06562222330696732,0.04493558328500863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0468309426584209,0.0,0.20094499088891965,0.21293504400536245,0.09539519304619473,0.05441859539124997,0.04540376963062439,0.042255129944755165,0.060069482180519336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05190824039179436,0.0,0.028232516506047276,0.0,0.11919342038466355,0.0,0.054724685487584405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058867343648541876,0.0,0.0,0.049829962453495705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05184975772674864,0.04929663952487452,0.044155094706658134,0.0,0.0,0.10920445942771106,0.08098657725851903,0.0,0.0,0.05397407699798742,0.0,0.1052647513665937,0.21842653479991225,0.0,0.08773119280469517,0.1318874304066155,0.1251482068110988,0.0,0.054228184307830336,0.042233508107550125,0.0,0.0,0.06631940816888818,0.050364560648758924,0.04990710439695262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930322558308169,0.10559732639721324,0.10955467118141372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04661838799337312,0.09734559275051433,0.0,0.0,0.2085101219301402,0.052904257417189265,0.033662340487113834,0.03778150683371477,0.05285970429436558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371110217818435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04696070991381502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0318242822766194,0.05107610775617731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12727135586732005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364764285917276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05583889607778183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03824369029760092,0.0,0.0,0.07032310468644559,0.0,0.07934404331887998,0.0,0.17071409942269514,0.0,0.11373628823555886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747016649032015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549281921729036,0.0,0.039437894873238566,0.0579339780750849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745468319429301,0.05403418189190413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05860142347133425,0.0,0.03984779779895645,0.4839444681619574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050449284438920605,0.050624986165337664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879125461325002
EDAnonymous,ricecakebugs,2019/09/05,"tired of fucking binging I started out last month binging, then fasted for 2 days and somehow restricted & did OMAD for like 20 days straight. Got down to a new LW, was feeling fucking invincible

But then I started losing control again and now I’ve been fucking binging for like these past 10 days and I feel so fucking gross and most of all disappointed in myself. I just binged like 4 hours ago and I just want to cry thinking about how good I had it and how much I messed this up for myself. 

I weighed myself like a week or two ago and I was like 2lbs up and that sent me off the deep end. I keep telling myself I’m gonna fast but I never do. I don’t know what to do. I’m in so much damn physical pain right now and I look so huge :(

I tell myself I can fix it and it will be okay but no matter what it’s like the binging never stops. It’s always at least once a week and I’m just so OVER eating right now. It’s brought me nothing but pain. I want it to stop but it won’t. I know it won’t.",-0.6334630483017563,1.4631050460829509,1.3564260112647233,99.65252261478071,90.70506912442396,3.9521420037549055,18.63611537805086,5.3279370663704135,-0.6026820617852873,773,23,186,4,27,254,116,217,0.16399999999999998,0.6990000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.917,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,15,19,5,0,5,1,13,9,0,3,3,41,35,25,0,2,9,0,2,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,14,12,2,5,5,0,0,2,6,11,0,1,8,3,24,8,20,22,5,43,0,2,1,4,3,14,5,3,33,118,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056752007397228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653124198306098,0.12569890724616173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301172747891303,0.0,0.0,0.1274336875728413,0.2244543450520804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870919471674846,0.0,0.0,0.10275215997894648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731826274251812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290047404630979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730532561841776,0.09278536013269653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142484090939234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311675806002152,0.0,0.0,0.1275142754951979,0.0945652290948058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400654940271271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742082575912953,0.12978770548955307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259963748415267,0.0,0.1705642742188569,0.0,0.1789511467329377,0.11204507125957372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131660187222224,0.0,0.0,0.12354894828502767,0.0,0.0,0.24688980399919574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074654025260658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981471552811535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16422772094945426,0.0,0.0,0.19398238191927347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279912819758603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433577786901746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333867884774367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332682506817435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685371634261834,0.0,0.18611558879705264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,norashepard,2019/09/05,Oop I’m relapsing. Starting to get giddy when I eat under 1000 cals. Skipping bfast to make it easier. Almost stopped at 675 today but forced myself to eat a can of Bernie-Os for dinner. My last relapse was 9 years ago. :/ ugh,0.100952380952382,2.462817444444447,2.126031746031749,91.27000000000002,96.77777777777777,4.34920634920635,17.539682539682538,6.1826913282559595,0.03030158730158705,175,5,34,2,7,58,41,45,0.266,0.696,0.038,-0.8886,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,4,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,7,5,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,7,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28211748288570243,0.0,0.3186905087524445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6513170102847459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627724019476592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594236378988387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244041559567392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252654237734137,0.0,0.0,0.2660788520658487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30167240667306483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049484210643029
EDAnonymous,anniesfitside,2019/09/05,"Sometimes I go in r/loseit for motivation to lose weight because in my mind I'm obese and belong there My BMI is  """" healthy"""""" but I still can't accept myself lol help",2.2454901960784315,4.07033688235294,3.753529411764706,88.33754901960786,77.23529411764707,5.7098039215686285,23.098039215686285,6.42735559955562,0.5181686274509811,130,4,27,1,3,43,30,34,0.201,0.66,0.139,-0.3343,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,4,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,15,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23884806937254274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22267868915551667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626267450992655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4383431155045077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3956235796927641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875171337643713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129056447157708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4771276755088666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BiggieGiraffe90,2019/09/05,"Went on a date with a great guy who is SO into me so obviously I’m gonna restrict/fast until we see each other next Ugh this guy I used to be seeing who I broke it off with because he was so into me and I was so fucked up/unlovable CALLED me semi out of the blue last Friday. The only day we could meet up for drinks was today though (4 months after we last fucked) and the date was so fantastic. 

However, I haven’t like lost any weight since last time and I felt like I was fat then. So I’m disappointed with myself. Especially cuz he’s lost A TON OF WEIGHT and is so hot now. Of course he was hot before but like holy shit.

We almost hooked up tonight BUT I need to be up early tomorrow so I couldn’t go over to his place plus I was in my period so I wouldn’t want to only (don’t like the mess personally). So we haven’t had sex since we last hung out. And we made plans to hang out Friday. Mainly because I’ll be off my period, but like it’ll also give me a chance to fast and be skinny.

So ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ that’ll be fun. Fuck me. Literally.

How does anyone fuck with an ED? it fucks me up so much and makes me feel like a tease.",-0.05198380566801575,1.8427619595141709,2.2558906882591105,95.809504048583,85.2753036437247,5.419433198380567,15.168016194331985,6.67199483983844,-0.5879360323886642,872,14,213,10,26,296,132,247,0.142,0.741,0.11699999999999999,-0.8258,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,7,0,0,3,16,21,7,0,10,0,23,12,3,5,1,42,45,29,0,5,3,0,6,6,0,4,1,0,0,3,8,25,5,0,2,1,0,3,5,13,0,0,13,9,28,8,31,21,4,39,0,4,3,6,20,15,6,1,27,130,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745729710787524,0.0,0.0,0.08581723209926027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729757246357152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750349270266448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083259170992925,0.0,0.0913144638860451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957737714682424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567976463020545,0.0,0.0,0.06920725300167242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390930605312277,0.0,0.0,0.1051247398728516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054260085872613904,0.07666359316818636,0.10303618604521336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960402905976943,0.0,0.10294328619846656,0.06098778628883295,0.0,0.0,0.11831167199663314,0.0,0.21251116752122898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498938583847929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145628391842437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23428707920450534,0.0,0.0,0.10154104873321942,0.07163148016471864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565527930958854,0.0,0.0788865428925341,0.07957036259019898,0.0,0.0,0.11412734918833364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632309655394075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370055120320203,0.1121180227386246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102727043601534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015405192033384,0.1775389102784445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543332863780093,0.0,0.06257439135736274,0.0,0.10171906769365513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268296664344516,0.0,0.0,0.06329529799664872,0.0,0.0,0.26135379920527513,0.0,0.09947914200687248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kawaiiko-chan,2019/09/05,"I'd like to give a resounding fuck you to PMS The few days I have before my period are probably why my weight loss is so fucking slow. My hunger is literally insatiable - every two hours, regardless of the fact that I ate a pretty hefty meal previous, I get this painful, gnawing hunger like nothing else I feel for the rest of the month. I try to hold out but eventually the pain makes me given in. I hit my fucking calorie limit at 10 in the morning. Living through it now, I tell myself logically that there's no way my body needs food, it's just some fucked up hormones, etc. That doesn't stop me from eating that almond croissant 30 mins after a massive sandwich. 

Literally the rest of the month, when I eat something I'm good for at least 6 hours. What the fuck. I want a refund",4.998653846153847,5.558140019230773,5.773487179487183,81.45484615384619,68.67948717948718,8.804102564102564,29.70256410256411,8.841846274778883,2.20357641025641,617,22,124,10,10,202,109,156,0.16899999999999998,0.75,0.081,-0.9453,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,2,5,11,5,0,13,0,5,18,1,1,1,14,20,3,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,1,9,3,2,0,1,0,2,8,0,1,2,2,18,3,17,17,6,19,0,1,0,5,3,6,5,1,14,75,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197820134201382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617309538154166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08486830433150354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26931039526540024,0.10993127533878666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467639298134841,0.0,0.0,0.110875006511126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653871207370754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912597618064547,0.0,0.0,0.608290266081147,0.06875329305604208,0.12623853372370386,0.0,0.11037618343824593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25919040462656445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858196990145465,0.0,0.11620136540037382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784111483500863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2100767765445171,0.0,0.0,0.09757650325912952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262695704462551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800540887362269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388008036279653,0.14188236256136816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130875663398993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001985160849703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502039396503633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934480472955575,0.0,0.12854982348295255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761852089408866,0.10445449765725733,0.0,0.16024804342842472,0.0,0.0,0.11874460113895875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pi314pipi,2019/09/05,"I went to the dollar store to buy some sugar free snacks. Ended up buying 2 bags of caramel candies, 3 ice cream bars, 2 packages of chocolate, and a bag of brownie brittles. Probably ate more than 1000 cals in one sitting. Smh",3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,75.81818181818181,5.3090909090909095,29.181818181818183,5.985473137389443,1.3096545454545458,178,8,33,1,4,56,40,44,0.054000000000000006,0.8690000000000001,0.077,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,8,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4901366043690189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749893348609873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5966447539548894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129952683760658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,so_crat_ic,2019/09/09,"Stop Using Laxatives Tldr:  fat comes out through pee. Not poo. You dont need to eat those things. Laxatives are not good for you, and dont even help. As seen in this TED talk.

TED talk. The mathematics of weight loss.
https://youtu.be/vuIlsN32WaE",2.300909090909091,5.011754090909093,1.5731818181818191,93.57977272727274,99.0,5.836363636363638,16.863636363636363,7.1686216300943375,0.453463636363637,196,5,38,4,8,56,37,44,0.19399999999999998,0.8059999999999999,0.0,-0.8,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,0,8,7,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,2,2,1,7,6,0,4,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968314483163612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5977793967047055,0.0,0.0,0.2609562481315486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844290218696514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21390451478665776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709391958787037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909925976830394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21321395832084086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099620211842644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942858054798018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202614115970445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105541332134068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lmakemilk,2019/09/09,Anyone else just watch tiktok just for thinspo? I do. It's seriously kept me from eating more than  the 500 calories I'm limiting myself from eating now because instead of being hot this summer I became a chunk.,5.25416666666667,6.969516750000004,6.4250000000000025,72.74666666666668,69.0,7.333333333333335,28.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,2.141833333333333,170,6,26,2,3,57,35,40,0.048,0.9520000000000001,0.0,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26821163986670515,0.3930282930000726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338299333460437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7850066948957233,0.3204361533624753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EmilyPrentiss,2019/09/09,"Math class from hell Every now and then I remember that day in maths where everyone had to weight themselves(!), age 9, in front of the class and then write your weight on the board (for some maths related activity). I was the fattest one there. I can still hear people laughing at me, and giving me shit.",2.6493678160919534,5.164730603448277,3.0317241379310365,90.54402298850576,79.17241379310346,6.625287356321839,21.73563218390805,7.793537801064563,0.9348873563218384,237,7,48,4,6,73,46,58,0.13,0.784,0.086,-0.5983,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,5,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,3,6,1,8,3,1,12,1,0,0,0,4,5,2,1,6,32,7,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17189940142407806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22457556330695289,0.2546950620844819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556941434695628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004154595717464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806177136853853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478866353335746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019433971811951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736044961802576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21286309108982254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6491597295764623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maxnooble,2019/09/09,"I've been binging for nearly a week straight I have bulimia and I'm a huge emotional eater. The last week has been as shitty as it can be and I've also stopped purging a few days ago because I purged some blood. I try everyday, I make a mealplan around 1400-1600 calories and try to not leave out carbs or other macronutrients. Idk what  to do anymore. If anyone has some tipps, maybe something I've missed that would lead to those binges, please I'm desperate. I just want to eat normally.",3.5210567010309286,5.339028979381446,3.736688144329898,89.86833118556703,73.63917525773195,7.32422680412371,27.5889175257732,8.07648339933343,1.6579701030927831,389,15,80,6,8,120,71,97,0.12300000000000001,0.764,0.113,-0.4314,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,5,0,9,2,1,2,0,17,14,8,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,10,10,3,13,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,4,7,45,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467528350968173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846473674677787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289866887969509,0.1614477815781974,0.0,0.0,0.20554630339300686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407519972811696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489087536831136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362641484872412,0.0,0.2597268092806703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821097541682624,0.0,0.2444854189113195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412480590072208,0.0,0.23196596563887426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262289577397368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534543609933429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17775494404397327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19303931087663986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31352631880971155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13618838387436755,0.0,0.3704215264222762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640218223293454,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,That_Violinist,2019/09/09,"Relapsed I relapsed again. I don’t even know if I can say that because I haven’t officially been diagnosed with an eating disorder or even gone to a doctor for any of my issues. I starve myself and limit calories as a way to cope with depression but also because I want to be skinnier even though my hip bones drastically stick out. Relapsing sucks especially when you’re alone in college. I don’t have the guts to reach out to my RA and if I did I wouldn’t even know what to say. 

Thanks for listening, hope you guys are having a better day than I am",3.989464285714289,5.080236160714286,5.252142857142856,82.34285714285716,71.32142857142857,8.457142857142857,27.392857142857146,8.841846274778883,1.9865142857142857,438,15,89,8,8,146,76,112,0.111,0.7609999999999999,0.128,0.4319,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,8,5,1,0,5,0,12,6,3,0,0,16,20,10,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,6,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,3,15,3,16,15,0,8,0,1,0,0,5,3,1,4,3,64,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20079728065132327,0.0,0.15504273284993894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318424691924249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363702728268552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146775008293122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503411466365535,0.0,0.16698529316923252,0.19678026924290826,0.0,0.0,0.22219893009470146,0.1984405133044977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19838376121077286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5122136254543823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19196792629895684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19256281927436752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20235638969374511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130985863493098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30835628316851804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849516349712544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904823892078348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435321016414228,0.15388990907838787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tquilla,2019/09/09,"Haven't purged for two days but feeling bloated after a huge meal I want the bloat to go away, I knew I should have controlled myself. I had eaten bananas after a workout then waited till my date 7 hours later. (Lol coulda just avoided it. But it was that or feel heavy and bloated if I had eaten a little soemthing in between.... Then it would ruin my day) 

I have a fitting tomorrow and it's definitely affecting my thinking and the number of people going to be there more beautiful and tighter than I am",2.5027272727272702,4.908163161616162,3.8851414141414153,84.8410454545455,79.0,5.576161616161617,26.061616161616165,6.742157984588678,1.2800779797979795,399,16,72,4,10,131,72,99,0.081,0.753,0.166,0.7677,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,6,1,10,3,0,2,0,20,20,11,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,3,3,4,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,6,2,11,0,11,11,1,18,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,2,11,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860061516453484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414252045093116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926425643666698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30784084522562977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34600998833048785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997856088130649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051019234906457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21104173171793333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950556388643965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973673902100869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795507482225608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162463499914167,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CrystalizedCage,2019/09/09,"My birthday was this weekend and it was actually awesome Usually I go into my birthday thinking it’s going to be the best day ever and then it ends up being awful. 

Usually my eating disorder plays a huge part in that dysfunctional bullshit. 

This weekend I came at everything with a recovery mindset. That one weekend of “eating bad” wouldn’t ruin my gym progress or send me into a b/p spiral. 

Walking the line in recovery between fun indulgence and binge trigger is a hard one. 

But this weekend I had Brazilian Steakhouse dinner, followed by an iHOP birthday breakfast of pancakes AND chicken tenders, then yesterday I literally had a pint and a half of Ben and Jerry’s for dinner. 

Was it healthy? Fuck no. Did I feel at some points that I was a disgusting slob? Oh totally. 

But recovery has taught me enough that when I got onto my scale this morning to purposely trigger myself because I must’ve gained weight!!!!!!??? I actually didn’t. I didn’t gain any weight this weekend from enjoying myself with my loved ones in a celebration of my own existence. 

What a win. Thank goodness I exist. Thank goodness I can eat ice cream and French fries without purging sometimes???? I feel like totally justified that I actually weigh the same today that I did on Friday morning?

I totally need to not eat sugar for a long time though so maybe this isn’t actually a good thing and it’s going to trigger me back into my weight loss bubble I was literally in just last week???

But this weekend will always live on in my mind as a good time when I felt good.",3.912669992123917,6.176766122866898,5.236399317406146,77.5919526122342,73.77815699658703,7.920661590968759,31.74704646888947,8.730908602173464,2.961365555263849,1226,60,211,25,26,408,164,293,0.09300000000000001,0.696,0.21100000000000002,0.9889,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,6,7,20,2,0,16,1,19,15,0,3,4,37,35,19,0,2,7,0,7,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,20,14,12,0,4,8,0,7,7,5,0,4,15,9,32,15,31,16,9,46,0,2,1,2,2,16,1,2,24,154,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.3757107455541064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008904964101685,0.0,0.0,0.06545439505308033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401154643097409,0.0803660734813631,0.05867408776239106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101012589431492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100861995210078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062074325416056925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103126833096812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939577029448399,0.0,0.0,0.08525035700586557,0.099453642267371,0.0,0.0,0.0870650912811062,0.0,0.0,0.0865047402588395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733541157827592,0.06876216904276201,0.09241663936647504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898306198424791,0.0,0.0,0.16410602335595373,0.4036564170155541,0.07698120485107962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622253634909359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845790825541259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04702367453415531,0.0,0.0849919345799324,0.08517964552614288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687083546724522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669767881584407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718668732280338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136934882790816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566774477971574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423111341334493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098888222590183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519530292060532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723110039077275,0.0,0.0,0.06394529244250878,0.061674144883581215,0.09456671761560556,0.0,0.11225017504262942,0.0,0.09123527137945044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21201509902918045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07720723531532855,0.3516255900273704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278311678969027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,makingcorememories,2019/09/09,"Still struggling... It’s been almost 18 years since I first started ED behaviours. Now because it’s coming up to my ‘anniversary’ I’m starting to really struggle more. Not just with my behaviours but with life in general. 

I’m meant to have my shit together to go for a promotion at work and I’m in no fit mind space to do it. 

I’m on the verge of losing one of my best friends because I’ve been an utter shit to him because of this ED. 

I am such a failure. I am the worse mother, friend and all round person.",0.5825157232704434,2.815928415094344,2.771981132075471,90.92199685534591,85.60377358490567,6.174842767295598,22.98427672955975,7.492282038375204,1.0929710691823904,396,15,85,7,12,134,71,106,0.20800000000000002,0.654,0.138,-0.8358,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,5,4,8,2,2,5,0,6,3,2,0,1,13,15,3,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,2,3,1,8,3,17,12,3,16,0,1,1,0,5,8,2,1,6,54,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18950215525536815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34608712633709354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860160612000788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630183475151767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097223049776846,0.0,0.0,0.2924213982258725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755264888512288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336697803905885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117174453103664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910841316640522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823773205929134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524197871641275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123559219331867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38851582555737213,0.15654593519916946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26789805241884723,0.0,0.1511317992211854,0.0,0.0,0.39568123019404094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777306766258166,0.0,0.1928574578425732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186797673990092
EDAnonymous,xujniablet,2019/09/09,"""It's just the water weight that you've lost "" And so? 
If water retention 
1) makes me look bigger visually
2) makes me  bloated 
3) I am actually physically bigger when retaining and clothes look tighter 
4) I look like a swole bee in just a couple of hours after a binge 

Then in that case I treat water weight loss somewhat the same as the ""true"" or ""fat"" loss. 

Don't underrate the impact of ""just a loss of water weight"". A lot of times it makes a huge difference xx",2.614758064516128,4.414767182795701,4.1695564516129044,85.87433467741937,76.09677419354837,7.660752688172043,23.45295698924731,8.472884824447931,1.4221408602150536,360,11,75,7,8,120,61,93,0.10099999999999999,0.816,0.083,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,5,7,0,0,10,0,2,8,1,3,1,15,9,8,0,1,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,8,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,6,5,3,8,8,3,10,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,4,6,42,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.17689228291523573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20057057290337066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893874031808925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851333739045486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855882071876346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566606277195291,0.0,0.197876400446418,0.15410832336018132,0.0,0.0,0.36299516392718617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569934427422986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.662210001575809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kirachang,2019/09/09,"I want to make a documentary. I am fascinated with eating disorders, and I want to meet some people with eating disorders, film them, understand their thoughts in a noninvasive way. I want to film beautiful shots of them as they talk about their pasts, inspirations, dreams, motivations, darkest fears, best memories and life stories. I want to make them feel like they aren’t alone in the world. I want to see them smile, see them cry, see their strengths and weaknesses, hear their laugher.  I want it to be part art film, part documentary, part memoir. would any of you want to see something like this? btw I’m not trying to be creepy or perverted, I am a young anorexic female who is very curious about anorexia/eating disorders and want to learn more about it. I am also very interested in psychology if that helps clear up any confusion.",7.6647058823529415,8.168704490196081,7.313202614379088,72.90941176470591,62.92156862745098,11.505882352941176,33.99346405228758,11.20814326018867,3.861844444444445,669,26,121,18,9,211,90,153,0.10800000000000001,0.608,0.285,0.9744,1,1,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,11,3,4,9,0,2,4,0,8,4,0,3,1,29,27,8,0,10,3,0,1,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,6,2,0,6,5,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,6,21,6,21,23,6,8,0,0,4,0,17,5,0,4,4,73,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542707173465305,0.0,0.0891253536330628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15157765184652686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695836225639188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242098310767485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831890316474048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280793500986613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541058705768968,0.056351728239889876,0.0796188560823411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561059942443745,0.0,0.07470160416076475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871939660048796,0.10889624999669363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878552581504906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620637103375153,0.10639023786977976,0.07726438188751825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35524021424687097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579852756746692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957811129866597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847768832331243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566623998055119,0.0,0.0,0.11602185597595795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839134273663696,0.5258818705069874,0.08846266003609468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916984205687774,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wethechampyons,2019/09/09,"Skinny Cool Girl Long time lurker, recently becoming active. I love each and every one of you to pieces. This sub and the love from all of you posting and responding to each other has kept me on track to recovery better than my therapist.

Im still newly ""in recovery"" I think, but this has been my longest, healthiest bout (36 days now compared to 3-5 day binge cycles my whole life). I wanted to share what I think of as my ""secret to success"" just in case it works on a single other person.

The goal is to focus compmetely on becoming my alter ego, Skinny Cool Girl. 

SCG is basically my imaginary role model, who is me from the future and is essentially me except she is super hot and climbs mountains and is friendly and adventurous and has lots of tattoos and dogs and is buddhist.

I wasnt doing so well on the hot part. Body dysmorphia or not I'm still not sure, but damn it I want to be SCG!

So I decided to...start something *else* SCG does (besides look good). To start rock climbing. To get my first tattoo. To start hiking. To try a kickboxing class. To go out with friends. I just went ""skinny dipping,"" no pun intended. My next step is to go dancing for the first time. I'm planning a backpacking trip for next summer. I'm going to class so I can get the degree SCG has.

SCG doesnt like everything she tries, but she tries anything. And she doesnt wait for other people to suggest things, she thinks of things she wants to do and seeks them out.

Basically *I* dont want to do those things, but SCG does. And I want to be SCG. So I go, and I have had a great time and maybe I'm getting a little bit closer to being her.

What I'm saying is: who will you be when you are YOUR Skinny Cool Girl? Will you go skydiving? Will you sing karaoke? Will you dress in bright bold clothes? Will you flirt with someone? Will you eat balanced meals, or apply for a better job? Will you perform or display your art? Will you drink bathtub wine while you write a long ass fuckin text post to your favorite reddit based ED support group? (Cough)

What leap will you take someday in order to become her? When will she do *insert activity here* for the first time?

Can you make it happen now?

Take one of the things future SCG has about her that you dont have, that isn't weight related, and go do it in the body you own and operate at this moment.

The brain, your soul, who you want to be does not change after you lose weight. Go be her. You have to *become* her still. Weight is only a small part of the equation. You'll catch up to SCG. Dont waste time while you think you're fat not being cool girl, or else you'll lose the weight and find out that SCG doesn't exist yet.",1.6875525152017694,3.882141981343288,2.8990215588723065,91.95720011055836,80.67910447761193,5.761415146489774,19.81398562741846,6.937597516519254,0.26138720287451633,2066,53,438,24,54,664,247,536,0.039,0.816,0.145,0.9956,1,0,3,0,0,0,84.0,0,26,1,15,17,27,2,0,20,4,55,22,9,2,2,61,93,35,0,6,15,0,6,1,2,12,3,1,0,5,24,25,13,2,7,6,0,14,13,4,1,5,5,13,63,23,60,69,11,66,1,2,2,4,59,17,3,5,33,284,87,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05686655209975785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052789398733808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222334182308647,0.07544346875480902,0.15351752127970328,0.0,0.07714271206113561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310267392140163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913248831582972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181419643783406,0.0,0.24296747119443876,0.06769543105688038,0.0,0.07071045500556282,0.11545474122359048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05822294495108715,0.0,0.06210605349881445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315963541242951,0.17633901039455618,0.0,0.0,0.10677887281528688,0.0,0.10831167427456814,0.0,0.2749130357815569,0.0579610018024325,0.0,0.07618720050636421,0.0,0.0,0.061108275795482586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464397897480722,0.0,0.06857487395383517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048810068504457134,0.03376063366690083,0.06926017731809518,0.0,0.1223094042298128,0.058029800748650814,0.15461898686436742,0.0,0.058749592731207535,0.12473778289772115,0.0,0.04612733342178085,0.0,0.06942407081714018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698538342216744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936530675576832,0.052556565597146505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966539605854054,0.0,0.047907884660550425,0.06033878620427534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236470631014524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823168102375192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05495412768060285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058551438591832615,0.053199493250735294,0.0,0.0,0.14673610878127005,0.0,0.16555918888247026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841819087067191,0.06512952826424759,0.0,0.10391493830515247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023485592918879,0.18363801759527126,0.17711573863685115,0.0,0.0,0.20147495257453404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14075086381832747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445553246708226,0.0,0.0,0.3365993222328729,0.0621326291362575,0.0640599292561291,0.0,0.07715194212543118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05030840067986897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hotcheetoconnoisseur,2019/09/09,kimchi! i binged on kimchi today without knowing it was a safe food. now i feel much less shitty about myself,1.5828571428571436,4.33182442857143,2.873333333333335,86.93000000000004,90.42857142857142,2.8000000000000003,16.523809523809526,3.1291,-0.6493619047619048,87,2,14,0,3,28,19,21,0.16,0.711,0.129,-0.1776,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,3,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413798403580344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5772549772943086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623579206074138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35093238102315244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525044869797174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4601814191869058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stinkbuglet,2019/09/09,i don’t want to get better TW rant everyone tells me i should but i don’t wanna. i want to be so thin my hair falls out and my bones break and my organs fail and i die. it’s not glamorous and it’s painful and difficult for everyone. but it’s also so appealing to have people watch me suffer. they need to know i’m hurting. i need to know i’m hurting. i want to be stuck in the hospital with no choice but to die bc if i don’t eat i’ll die and if i do i’ll go into shock and it’s. i need to be skinny enough to die. im big and ugly (even my doctors recognize me as overweight so it’s not just body issues). i just want to suffer and have people suffer. they’re the ones hurting me by pushing me. i want them to shut up and go away until i’m dying in a hospital bed hooked up to machines and able to die any second.,-0.7655405405405382,1.023847513513516,2.2412837837837856,95.46895270270271,87.37837837837839,5.213513513513514,17.89864864864865,6.508806274219699,-0.1965621621621616,630,16,154,7,20,223,90,185,0.38,0.58,0.04,-0.998,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,2,8,12,0,0,3,0,10,8,4,0,0,35,27,22,6,12,9,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,5,14,3,0,2,0,0,4,6,10,0,2,1,3,23,2,26,22,1,16,0,7,1,0,3,10,0,2,1,96,28,2,0.1089181532835243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710180782978946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740680791954194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023321903762294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632925543943494,0.0,0.12098351445797415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6782390828974898,0.0,0.0,0.1114823451430148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145046225582178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11254156799950256,0.0,0.0719394130121993,0.0,0.0,0.20815192609464794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05690523965964655,0.0,0.12380139306170855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349797407366521,0.0,0.11765029599514867,0.11368225420338696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11971713717767253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422842916884727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738057594888787,0.0,0.1158965943944586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15102026682466935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951992667317359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212137438933361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,festivalofroses,2019/09/09,Does anyone else do keto while also eating like.... 800 cal/day max lmao I’m also vegetarian so it’s really a doozy to manage my ED/keto/vegetarianism while being active in sports!!,2.188714285714287,4.841183800000003,6.365357142857146,65.01089285714286,82.42857142857143,6.928571428571428,14.464285714285715,8.07648339933343,0.838857142857143,143,2,23,3,4,55,32,35,0.0,0.79,0.21,0.8011,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,12,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5774143394511694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25243323377491145,0.3699071487588996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23282771594736104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159306038923679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36941308480490337,0.3015854735159253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17637589557126968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312783409458043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pretttyvisitors,2019/09/09,"Do I have a eating disorder? I know what your probably thinking, if I’m asking this question it’s an obvious sign that there is a problem however, I just need help understanding everything and seeing things clearly. My whole life I’ve had anxiety and depression from prior abuse. In about my sophomore year of high school I was medically diagnosed with depression and anxiety through a school hospital program and when my finally assessed, was told I may have an eating disorder, this came as a surprise to me because I had never felt as if I had an eating disorder but now 4 years later I’m beginning to slowly see the probability of it. I’ve noticed that I’ve always stuck to eating one meal every couple of days of eating one small meal once a day. In between these periods of eating I binge on gas station food like bread and chips. Recently, during my meals I’ve began to feel sick before I eat my food. I get a gross feeling in my stomach and at a recent trip to a Chinese restaurant with my boyfriend I began to feel sick while preparing my noodles with sauce and ended up having not even one bite. As we got up to pay I began to faint and when I came back to my senses I began to throw up all over the table. I don’t know what this means or where to even begin with understanding what I need to do. This is why I hope to seek advice.",6.928073836276084,6.145185127340827,7.802164258962012,73.09323033707868,64.76779026217228,10.924451578384163,34.42723381487426,10.290406445055957,3.4503346174424827,1067,41,200,22,14,361,151,267,0.132,0.8140000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9549,1,0,0,0,1,0,16.0,1,1,0,0,10,7,0,0,13,0,14,20,1,0,4,42,44,18,0,6,6,0,4,1,0,1,6,0,0,0,13,15,13,0,11,0,1,4,3,4,0,3,15,6,29,3,38,28,2,39,0,2,2,0,6,12,0,6,24,136,42,4,0.0,0.0995480135899741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210176551456377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991000312258874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285476254060185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854582162057565,0.0,0.0,0.06460492995345933,0.0,0.051216810251461055,0.0,0.07149343308026093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921892340279709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09296471333860654,0.0,0.1083697784683572,0.0,0.1447297745651456,0.08527686320714344,0.0,0.0,0.28887694644429945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6018022768575699,0.0,0.0,0.0744153258303815,0.0,0.0,0.11098666405621492,0.0,0.07078908897693252,0.0,0.0755102812272229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744661644525415,0.0,0.0806707980135722,0.0920380026877036,0.0,0.0,0.2031906602010005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04389612350654422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067197154862522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563157332862,0.08877000649949222,0.0,0.08344918553684681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234858285163487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05934464986673045,0.041047125022129996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09152062098090186,0.0,0.0846396549270043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459709340491147,0.06480013604862668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565545566906404,0.0,0.08947680753879131,0.1707990381937831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811719972545162,0.08039422017964314,0.0,0.0,0.09411978770930636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16591598185539275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700621244726517,0.13390350436789414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05581806269856345,0.05383557028982383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08028314009944441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17493214422679584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581349846155468,0.09380349448913126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821013378586324
EDAnonymous,marigoldpollen,2019/03/09,"When doctors are blind to disordered eating... This happened yesterday and I don't know how to feel about it.

I went for my annual women's health exam, mildly dreading it because I knew I would have to tell my doctor I haven't menstruated in eight months, with the necessary context that I've been eating a very low-fat diet and running long distances (aka, a way of being honest without using the words ""anorexia"" or ""relapse""). Her response was that the Female Athlete Triad is fairly common and to be expected in lean women runners. She then spent several minutes asking me why I didn't use a treadmill to train through the winter (like she did when she was training for a full marathon as a medical resident working twelve-hour days in the frozen Midwest), encouraging me to join a local running group and train for a half marathon, etc.

I know I'm over-sensitive and projecting, but when people encourage me to exercise more and don't say anything about my weight being low already, it makes me feel like maybe my self-perception is accurate and I look a lot bigger than the scale would indicate. I had an ED dietitian once, years ago who claimed that it was essentially impossible to be ""skinny-fat"" and clinically underweight at the same time — but now I am questioning the truth of that...

It's weird to me that I've seen so many doctors over the past year, and none of them have ever seemed concerned that I tick all these boxes: bradycardia, low BP, severe osteopenia, amenorrhea, history of treatment for depression and anxiety. Of course, I always have bigger and more important things to talk about than ED (autoimmune disease, dermatological concerns, low blood counts, that sort of thing). But it still surprises me that even when the topic of food and exercise comes up, I'm never really asked about it. No one ever says, ""you're underweight,"" and in fact I receive compliments on my low HR/BP all the time. At the same time, I'm always told how important it is to exercise, which is fine, but frankly I don't need any added pressure, thanks. Is it because I don't look thin enough?

I see a lot of posts on Reddit about how being overweight has become normalized and it feel a bit like I'm living in an upside-down universe, where doctors and family members and other people seem to see me as completely fine and healthy even though physically and mentally I am a bit of a wreck.",12.601031879194627,8.185414845637585,11.54052432885906,62.0824643456376,57.143176733780756,15.112360178970912,45.83459172259508,12.602617957971056,5.593375950782997,1904,80,332,44,16,615,247,447,0.092,0.812,0.096,0.4068,0,0,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,1,1,21,20,0,2,26,0,31,18,1,6,7,59,60,35,0,5,6,0,5,3,0,2,12,2,0,2,25,20,6,0,9,6,1,6,10,8,0,3,12,13,34,12,48,41,14,53,0,5,6,0,20,21,0,7,27,221,59,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100013927434295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083671971214156,0.0,0.1520658595072541,0.0,0.0,0.06213944906880563,0.0,0.06990310496305302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519543146796145,0.0,0.17085019799658696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140506256953477,0.10091864529429803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19951989262530614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078713138207955,0.09580697755132453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05893056347925117,0.0,0.0787028199918246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047258837333434,0.3741126586965033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18700283302253567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441680017619657,0.1019094366320146,0.12070720719291415,0.16531133779315568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861420417297765,0.0,0.13860877131599586,0.06527970043307625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104933521928564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808043216097159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971294086458199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899878742327404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004367472347691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392646405364905,0.0,0.08068750747457139,0.08086571177654751,0.15346722261760656,0.0,0.0,0.15537080448416965,0.0,0.0,0.06099481348952927,0.09264186964485804,0.09180041283669448,0.0,0.0,0.09205264840500056,0.09208645812905036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293619751913456,0.0,0.0,0.06775483927349985,0.07047552527742276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952999488060473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731345327286273,0.06191937583049033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722962372079758,0.12669852223316916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875138445589332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236307949778546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058538404231754014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14533321220668735,0.0,0.0,0.14563117274527726,0.16637225901123698,0.09532607149818252,0.20645985368162714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297373811623611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07344531884369339,0.07986746856033207,0.08412760462616573,0.0,0.0,0.12141355029555526,0.0,0.08977737443167312,0.0,0.1598478764344885,0.0,0.0,0.08731457701236077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15784066589364198,0.0,0.07539554092362638,0.0,0.07253075754689399,0.0,0.1112724894183977,0.0,0.08470733396622136,0.08245347082585924,0.0,0.0,0.088084104291583,0.0,0.06652349678154552,0.0,0.0,0.12982310540764494,0.0,0.0,0.11768750011845892
EDAnonymous,junerose777,2019/03/09,"best binge foods?! i’m heading to the grocery store after a terrible fucking day. i do not care how shitty i’m gonna feel, i just need a damn good binge!! what do y’all recommend?",0.5486842105263143,2.5926215000000035,2.709736842105261,92.55565789473684,84.0,5.905263157894738,22.657894736842106,7.1686216300943375,0.7707684210526313,139,5,31,2,4,47,31,38,0.187,0.509,0.305,0.7455,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,6,2,0,3,0,2,3,1,1,0,5,9,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,8,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3848503824110969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738958373907511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23650428769166526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854248276417073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434397027993233,0.0,0.0,0.33902705426363144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075876305978795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37636087785873296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27191849278149754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,erisrain,2019/03/09,"Cant hold stuff down I know this probably isn't normal but i cant tell if it's from my ed or what. I used to purge a lot, I stopped for a while then last month did it one time, but haven't done it since. But I find now I cant hold food down. Even the slightest bit and it feels like it's coming back up when I have no intentions to purge. I have to fight not to burp or the battle is lost. The other day I v*mited in my jobs parking lot, completely involuntary. Is this bc I purged too much in the past? What did I fuck up ?",-1.169782082324453,0.7201975423728832,1.0971428571428596,102.20881355932205,90.52542372881358,4.727360774818402,15.20823244552058,6.1826913282559595,-0.8956581113801452,402,8,107,4,14,134,74,118,0.175,0.7959999999999999,0.027999999999999997,-0.9498,1,0,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,5,3,0,6,0,12,3,0,2,0,20,18,10,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,11,2,1,3,3,0,0,1,7,4,0,1,4,1,13,1,12,14,4,18,0,1,0,1,2,6,1,5,12,74,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540070157387244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186596499011844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252803233507727,0.20999530316313092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291674349790445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049613767298516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132286537036782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127025434370096,0.1430838424633374,0.0,0.0,0.18305711541514927,0.0,0.2421857528990455,0.0,0.0,0.18516051195158886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987522336691027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007155075414707,0.16325923310882093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978492699220715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863504009360765,0.3405507617947153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598657978892156,0.0,0.14723272428609135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623704763125815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571848764595432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911949603904552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21594140456999586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16567805146873282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744746040330016,0.0,0.0,0.22927872522267784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505816070874367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678795612376232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729821738090494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marshmallowwsx,2019/03/09,"Like real clothes fitting is even an option Bought a couple new pairs of work/dress pants in to be hemmed and to see if they could be narrowed through the waist and hips. As she’s pinning them she pulls them up off my hips and onto my waist and remarks “Not too long, are too big all over, just need to gain weight!” 

...yeah, or I can give you $20 and not... 
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EDAnonymous,ekaatauria,2019/03/09,"Thank You and Recovery! After months of browsing this subreddit, and the old one as well, I finally decided to post!

So, I'm Ekaa and I'm 17.

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone on this sub for helping me feel less alone. I think I'm finally in a decent place and I'm going to try recovery. It's taken so long for me to admit to myself that I have Binge Eating Disorder because I felt so guilty and disgusting and used to convince myself that it was merely a result of heavy restricting. Yesterday was a huge wake-up call for me when I binged and realised that it wasn't even a result of hunger; I binged because I felt empty and numb. I'm a bit worried about recovery and potential weight gain, but I hope it helps. I'll be seeing my counsellor on Monday!

Once again, thank you to everyone on this sub, I don't speak about this stuff with anyone irl so this sub is sort of my safe place :)",3.6677926421404687,4.6056115652173935,5.128913043478264,83.50036789297661,71.93478260869566,8.922408026755852,26.11036789297659,9.265573868473778,2.0250556856187294,704,22,146,15,13,237,104,184,0.085,0.742,0.17300000000000001,0.9541,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,1,11,9,1,0,6,0,7,4,0,3,0,26,26,16,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,13,10,3,2,6,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,6,7,20,7,24,19,2,19,0,0,1,0,9,7,0,2,10,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875709148090174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004292519457203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511070958837946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568064734616869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466620206496882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461212255385274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696907856038652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486608694640676,0.0,0.0,0.27448873840002463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07262351081866343,0.0,0.2758141441034876,0.31467871350463866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162808971131519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19254397078457428,0.0,0.0,0.14265673733081335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271077978320976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464388608266453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071524827573454,0.15296098276028072,0.097327227227031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001250110971639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755758549982325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422013205363543,0.0,0.0,0.1144543049006245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16442168620596742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967048947940832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203213620939232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751516358898957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404997748323335,0.0,0.0,0.08471654043493139,0.0,0.0,0.17490232607301193,0.12914038315793053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458629702800243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ok_mini_,2019/03/09,"Climbing and ED The less you weigh, the better you climb. Restrict your calories. The scale decreases. Lose more to be more. There was never a goal, only less and less. Lightheaded. Fatigued. Ignoring every contradicting voice in your head screaming to eat. Screaming dont eat. Fat. Fat. Fat. It was all worth it: to be smaller. My worth increasing as the scale goes down and down. Losing control of the restriction. It controls you. You grow fearful of the scale. You're no longer in control. It dictates when it is safe to eat and what is safe to eat. The list shrinks as you do. You're miserable. Everyday wondering when it will let you eat again. Chewing gum, praying that it will satisfy something, anything. Your workouts are too much stress on your body. That's ok, you focus on climbing. But then climbing becomes too much and you're left with nothing but the monster you unintentionally created, only to be better at the one thing you can no longer do. 

Recovery isnt the right word. But the monster has been tamed. I can eat and eat without it stopping me. Physically it no longer holds my body hostage but it's still there. Taunting me and damning my body. Fat. Fat. Fat. Every chance I look in the mirror. After every time I eat. When my clothes fit differently than they used to. I have the energy to climb but the excess mass makes it so much harder. Time off makes it harder. I want to be good again. Despite the accompanied misery, somehow, I want to be small again. ",1.5491251784065128,4.271881277978338,2.385863487532536,89.43080765678785,93.62093862815884,5.031617832255899,23.77038032071195,6.7210904114959815,1.0990465787927135,1162,48,215,17,43,363,141,277,0.106,0.758,0.13699999999999998,0.8843,1,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,13,1,13,13,16,1,3,16,1,22,21,10,6,2,34,29,19,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,7,3,0,0,16,8,16,10,1,1,2,7,7,10,0,1,3,4,26,6,27,18,10,35,1,4,1,0,14,14,1,2,14,147,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07076593791425087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497388934232563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210984605498645,0.0,0.2865606664679983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28934958000488165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984568494139895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007846167730023,0.0,0.0,0.7039486635355052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21736158543772646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676743544985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07212789422863898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825490653582724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343300074091747,0.08793494361977915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221350908969315,0.19241113133804344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480365496221435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896469980217666,0.0,0.06632406449295054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08251379906190298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827192716590227,0.13080499944886798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343861688449865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662025724690837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686751165608328,0.07189504087453831,0.09850611914086392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713075644645255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028787368824374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07427141878780619,0.0,0.0,0.10144326956846626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289538518289387,0.0932570923626174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crenegade,2019/03/09,"hi all, need help finding the online tool that helps you visualise your body to help with BDD hi guys,

the BDD and ED been HITTING extra hard lately and so i’ve been looking for a tool (not sure if it’s a piece of software or a website) that helps you visualise your body by plugging in your measurements? 

i’ve seen it mentioned here a few times and i hope someone can help 😣

love this community so much, you guys make me feel validated and less alone everyday 

♥️💗♥️💗♥️💗♥️
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EDAnonymous,crazycatlaady,2019/03/09,Do I have an eating disorder I used to struggle with anorexia/ bulimia about seven years ago and now I think I’m struggling again. I’m purging maybe around 4-7 times a week and I just started to use laxatives. When I brush my teeth I throw up every time and I’m not honestly sure why... I binge to the point where I can’t move about three times a week and then run to the bathroom and purge my brain out. I just don’t purge after every meal so I’m honestly not sure. ,2.2178030303030307,3.6053280909090937,3.658472222222226,90.87437500000004,76.17171717171719,7.374242424242425,23.48611111111111,8.07648339933343,1.0664232323232319,367,11,83,6,8,121,63,99,0.184,0.816,0.0,-0.9285,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,2,5,0,4,4,2,2,2,17,12,8,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,1,11,4,11,12,0,21,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,13,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254719705562715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323893588303434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20470251612270965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101588838307161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18763416101250407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089957044319685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842206683696488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19489419674817302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733447266069887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297908334264814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38339805888403705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.345649717344935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749663829281352,0.0,0.0,0.3207750567158652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167470828106592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941780747364143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16546367315317265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808481716276938
EDAnonymous,Carokoneko,2019/03/09,"I realized that feeling left out sparks my ed And now since I am in a loving relationship I just can’t restrict anymore and now I just have to deal with my anxiety and body dysmorphia. 

TLDR: Gaining weight because I love my SO. ",3.139666666666667,5.2192829111111125,4.793055555555559,80.73625000000003,75.44444444444444,8.055555555555555,31.25,8.841846274778883,2.849333333333333,181,9,34,4,4,61,35,45,0.08800000000000001,0.657,0.255,0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,10,6,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,2,4,6,0,5,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21855889396765912,0.0,0.2833365618502843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741594115916933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173470970451761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945430444334541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445795967171088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104127155915293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157088645578181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067337232753661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363331012908285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479043202611253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cheekchub,2019/03/09,"none of my jeans fit me lmaooo sooo after days of eating like shit and binging on crisps and ice cream yesterday and in combination with period bloat all of my jeans are too tight on me..when i sit down everything just spills out and i just feel fucking huge 
i’m actually supposed to go shopping later for an event that i wanted to lose weight for lol i was doing so well but then my dumb period came around and decided to fuck me over...i have exactly one (1) week now to lose weight before this family event and oh my god i don’t know if i can do it but i really fucking need to unless i want to be the fat cousin again ",2.786846153846156,4.040537069230773,4.366153846153846,86.91384615384617,74.46153846153847,8.276923076923078,21.46153846153846,8.841846274778883,1.1679076923076923,489,11,108,10,10,164,93,130,0.124,0.779,0.09699999999999999,-0.8286,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,5,0,2,1,8,8,2,0,2,25,19,12,0,4,6,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,10,4,1,3,1,1,2,2,7,1,1,2,5,14,2,20,16,2,23,0,2,1,3,1,8,5,1,13,68,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.17250299110714548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573636627300568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041909651851354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20217892537499496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400266755145072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088085829820474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158870371594922,0.0,0.16664396139671345,0.0,0.08938072619208406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490265807889535,0.0,0.0,0.1004630298621552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714871561499587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08636137886370376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955230531471675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310734525628352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197846007408721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324402555517338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18145288558434175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852822506645585,0.0,0.14179502912396105,0.43051889782979214,0.1589383533963422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CalvinPindakaas,2019/03/09,"Info on weight gaining methods? I tried searching this sub for weight gain methods but couldn't find any. So here is this post

een a sack of bones ever since I developed and ED as a small child. Been trying to gain weight but I've actually lost some more because my parents are the *best people in the world*. Looking for a way to actually gain some weight for once.

Do people here have experience? Apart from just eating a lot of potatoes, what's a way to prepare food in a way I'm willing to actually eat? My budget is also limited so I can't eat beef/avocado/etc all the time

I hope I didn't break any rules, I'm desperate to hear from people with advice",2.4309452736318384,4.366921074626866,4.1754477611940315,85.01575870646768,77.05970149253731,6.854726368159205,24.59950248756219,7.793537801064563,1.3028129353233835,520,18,106,8,12,175,87,134,0.063,0.8029999999999999,0.134,0.887,1,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,0,9,0,10,9,1,0,2,15,16,7,0,2,3,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,2,8,1,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,3,6,7,2,17,11,6,13,0,1,1,0,3,6,0,4,2,62,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.3426967021902104,0.0,0.0,0.11438823540358095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361165978873162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920762160059498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713577900663467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284569957578224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593402829150239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13055119789422562,0.0,0.10588613718041907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450569877746307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069893707426372,0.0,0.14154763253390776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193346471970682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626552753890132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982996786773242,0.0,0.12778320749159205,0.0995189715180201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466350826636725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12997963856783729,0.0,0.0,0.2434609256357945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210970855184416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683202115528937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825776702349366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15895010848908908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787468244804721,0.0,0.5701829885960067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stealthyelfy,2019/03/09,"I binged. I'm so disappointed in myself. I think I can admit I have a problem. I'm house sitting for a friend right now. I'm away from my roommates and all by myself. 

I don't know what happened. I wasn't even thinking when I went to the grocery store and bought all the food. 

In the space of 6 hours, I ate:

- 2 rectangle pizzas
- 1 litre of chocolate ice cream
- 2 cups of mousse
- 200ml fruit juice
- 300ml chocolate milk

I'm so full I can barely move. I feel so disgusting. Why did I do that? 
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EDAnonymous,guldaanthrowaway,2019/03/09,"broke, need some food hey i've got £0 for the first time in my life. i srsly need some cheap options, i can't cook either :( my only idea is buying 5 bananas a day for £1 and eating them at 3 hour intervals? i might go to a food bank any idea for there?",-0.03827586206896783,1.112902758620688,2.361586206896554,98.79203448275864,81.75862068965517,5.329655172413793,16.772413793103446,5.6839178017228535,-0.8063420689655172,192,3,51,1,5,66,46,58,0.061,0.892,0.047,-0.1911,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,10,7,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,1,3,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,6,5,3,7,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,4,4,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104596280036567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324593848966113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272793159866024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889310883427169,0.537165199084076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12623319528575494,0.0,0.17764582798197132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21873874499260584,0.0,0.0,0.5014820833739393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568865450247702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356291424529833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293912349019325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689286298410148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951716802266608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RedGeckoChainsaw,2019/03/09,"Relasping Oof So around October/September 2018 I began recovery. And it lasted a good 6 months. Not even sure whether I should live now that I can see what a blob I've become in that time. 95 lbs to 115lbs :(
This is fun aint it kids? ",-0.9693367346938756,1.0880692857142868,1.2477295918367342,97.02628826530615,101.04081632653059,5.715306122448982,16.32908163265306,7.1686216300943375,0.2493040816326535,181,5,42,4,8,60,43,49,0.10099999999999999,0.77,0.129,0.3265,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,3,4,0,7,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,5,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33417178434960765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145826793687486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479379168795902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148547022092778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30598846318809914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314713841316672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299628320438419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991328392304598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537954415724024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888971626719209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrueLifeImANerd,2019/03/09,"Rant: My dad is making it hard for me to eat around people I (24 F) live with my family, they’re amazing and I’m lucky that they support me staying at home while I save money. A few years ago I struggled really bad and my weight was extremely low. Now I’m at a healthy weight and eat relatively healthy foods (with occasional binges that I’m working through). 


However, when I eat around my dad he always makes comments. He’ll say “Don’t eat to many almonds, they’re fattening.” or “Oh my gosh can you actually eat all that?” (In reference to the big salads that I eat almost every day). 


I know he loves me and isn’t actually trying to hurt my feelings, but it really gets to me- especially since I’m making a huge effort to eat nutritious food. I notice weird food patterns with him too, like he’ll refuse a random vegetable because it’s “fattening” but has to eat Pita Chips with every meal or have a Chocolate after dinner. 


I usually just take good upstairs to eat because I don’t want to be “watched” or judged. When I’ve tried to discuss this in the past he’s been really insulted. He thought I meant “never talk to me about food or eating ever again.” 


Am I insane? Has anyone else dealt with this?",3.772989307298929,5.145842870292888,5.091262203626221,82.20993840074385,72.17991631799163,8.15629939562994,27.085309158530922,8.680891452615391,1.9673875406787549,942,33,186,17,18,314,142,239,0.121,0.772,0.107,-0.6728,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,2,10,13,1,1,7,0,12,21,0,3,3,35,30,13,0,1,7,2,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,9,11,20,1,5,0,1,0,4,6,0,0,4,6,25,7,26,23,2,23,0,2,1,1,18,9,0,7,14,100,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.14457779457725836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566518247986045,0.0,0.07417785738683617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616383657050302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05179666961496844,0.07590109307700812,0.0,0.131889256865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06185156959316236,0.09031384178281228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047773821615289036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7579971630101425,0.06188219712110955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700728702089921,0.1248268791129906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983361930051954,0.0,0.0374557802958294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582989461280408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038702405848631785,0.0,0.0,0.062132643507969584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635883746058162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743057139190616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930143343372144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04071102465958217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036190496212932466,0.0,0.06541173817266639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685778330036862,0.0,0.14834180264367755,0.07510289895800172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057133089759659826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433765834443216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071530012899717,0.051355970847108114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236771802103085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05890935488156183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612776252599583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895669652278943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744182598986568,0.0,0.0,0.08406220297080669,0.0,0.0,0.05569701709844952,0.059540641625665636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05880921417020477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058744067113873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08158583643784449,0.0,0.043692794388261375,0.0,0.0,0.180412734795429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05392925980736259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047703443723121235
EDAnonymous,alunatniff,2019/03/09,"I need to stop talking about losing weight irl Seriously it's so much effort to pass off comments about my plate (we're not supposed to make them but a lot of students will ask me if I'm on a diet or gluten free or whatever) as ""I just like this"". I had one guy ask if the amount of food I ate for breakfast was filling because he didn't think it would be and it was SO much effort to just play it off as ""hahah, no this is fine for me"". I also have mentioned to two different people (one being my dad!!!1! Bad call) about uncontrollably losing weight rn (which is true to an extent I feel I'm overeating all the time but am still losing significantly everyday?). DRAWING ATTENTION is the worst possible thing I could do right now but it's all I want to talk about and discuss. Food and nutrition and calories and what other people eat and how they stay fit and whether I'm going to gain all this back if I slip up. And I keep rationalising it to myself by saying ""oh, well, if I mention I'm losing weight and I don't know how/why and I'm concerned, my parents will be expecting it when I visit them in the holidays and be less concerned or at least think we're on the same team"" or ""people at uni will think stress is really doing a number on me and I've noticed it too."" But I'm honestly making it worse and piquing the interest of people by discussing it. Goddamn though is it all I wanna talk about. ",2.8368070652173927,4.314503329861111,4.330283816425124,86.3191847826087,74.72916666666667,7.092028985507247,25.02173913043478,7.7425588080867325,1.2362389492753625,1101,36,230,15,23,367,160,288,0.14,0.728,0.132,-0.5648,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,3,8,18,17,0,2,10,0,23,9,0,3,5,53,43,34,0,10,16,1,4,1,0,4,0,1,0,1,18,13,9,2,6,3,1,4,4,9,1,3,5,5,24,9,34,29,13,24,0,4,0,0,20,12,0,9,8,164,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357985204828354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541306618696924,0.0,0.0,0.08036485705111486,0.08726487039576555,0.06371079788241989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067205355583763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344596855607576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091949428245555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694397025900293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284544651958451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527576204004643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939774600137601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348534615686716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928968942421767,0.0,0.0,0.0574381913662866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106028807923943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4676979756783976,0.0,0.08885411212925322,0.0,0.0,0.13952788659606158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365971197794914,0.07749584751259336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898994436711655,0.0,0.0,0.14164285706781735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605048970723315,0.0,0.0,0.2898275448464633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782389352195435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06695437988809251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925443194125203,0.0,0.08311377144753904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139807662537818,0.0834650593539463,0.08737842983538674,0.11972049692170787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520133155352696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06943449413027375,0.2009051591135704,0.10268452842096984,0.0,0.060942985968255814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209504527898322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061645097522989425,0.0,0.0,0.3818098883316581,0.0939706871061548,0.0,0.09430767854398883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106508750961956,0.07424378603918504,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Salsa_Rosa,2019/05/04,DAE start a purge but quit?? I swear I try. I’ll start a purge out of guilt but ultimately either be too grossed out or lose stamina to finish. Does it make anyone else feel fake? Or weak? I just feel like such a fraud when I can’t even do the only things that’ll give me my desired results. Ughhhhh .-.,0.4895238095238099,2.6578360476190497,2.1549206349206362,95.64285714285715,85.34920634920636,4.8698412698412685,18.52380952380953,6.1826913282559595,-0.3235333333333328,233,6,54,2,7,76,50,63,0.306,0.579,0.115,-0.9388,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,1,4,0,4,1,0,2,0,13,10,5,0,1,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,6,1,4,8,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,5,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821671957241788,0.2904600970201677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24807640016178406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23681225461907585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18723672823284268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866733307161889,0.20251910077871127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719410986435528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849464632282918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31714306834188777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18922597221058612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156003064437611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015172620394981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40129905319034703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18833238254068352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924651977456145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mattchampionstan,2019/05/04,"why are coworkers so dumb all the time Talked to a coworker who I know also has bipolar 2, asked her about medicines she’s been on just out of curiosity and side effects and shit but INSTEAD she just said “lamictal is going to make you gain allll that weight you lost right back” thank you I want to die",2.261693989071034,4.519202737704919,3.2700819672131125,89.72566939890713,79.0,7.3453551912568305,23.281420765027317,8.344100000000001,1.3779814207650265,241,8,51,5,6,77,53,61,0.182,0.6890000000000001,0.128,-0.6021,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,3,0,3,7,4,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,2,1,11,12,5,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,2,8,1,7,9,1,7,0,1,0,0,10,4,2,0,2,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251954009426601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632579665490857,0.0,0.0,0.2165330012174513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29225631861846263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003975716710855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15475998362236618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073996413454481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879701722044828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24048484286988406,0.2678660651516005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28905833106999035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22633939577554624,0.0,0.25925942590914963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16420321193959478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16609496323132206,0.0,0.0,0.3429129101474874,0.0,0.0,0.25410018038098725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,birdsflyy,2019/05/04,"I'm so embarrassed Been a lurker here for quite awhile and thought today was the day to make my first post

I relapsed recently and have been restricting pretty hard for the past month or so and decided at have a binge day today cause I was going to spend the day with my sister and we were going to the movies. 

I had breakfast on my own and then breakfast with my husband.

Then I had lunch with my sister and by the time dinner rolled around I was already stuffed but we decided to go out for a quick dinner before going to the movie. 

I was so full after dinner and had overeaten to the point where I (involuntarily) puked oN THE STEET outside the cinema!! Infront of my sister and all the other people going to the movies.. I was (and am) so upset and embarrassed and I just wanna crawl into a hole and never come out

Now I'm back at home and just ate a double dose of laxatives and I'm gonna fast tomorrow

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All in all a pretty shitty day and I'm not even sure why I'm making this post. Just need to get it off my chest I guess",2.227233152975898,4.075082210280375,3.8007624200688666,87.87392277422529,77.3644859813084,6.374422036399411,20.60895228726021,7.273561745256523,0.5421719626168229,819,20,169,10,19,272,112,214,0.11599999999999999,0.8540000000000001,0.03,-0.9543,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,2,14,4,0,3,17,0,14,9,1,3,5,46,33,23,0,2,6,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,25,7,1,3,1,1,6,2,3,0,1,13,1,19,1,29,19,6,41,0,0,0,0,6,13,0,2,20,123,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534013440626676,0.0,0.0,0.15252123067340878,0.1710475874589132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531267561893744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082413078328364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197825414196962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460671732740055,0.0,0.1212585009078842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631328618240113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297542523537007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973653061438745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354506568713713,0.0,0.4000062928888378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507096979263213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260997850895376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120100524190532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792643300172307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235905687975456,0.0,0.0,0.1043771145022002,0.10856836279680084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437824546136248,0.0975902703348554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13307052865818514,0.0,0.2696321819075783,0.2864217513612106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972327234358038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389906534945112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326714446927639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11175345367604653,0.08208250156217624,0.0,0.26686174173662625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270205266188359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710475874589132,0.0
EDAnonymous,pounce-a-lot,2019/05/04,"I found a picture of me at my LW I was at my moms this weekend and found a picture of me at my aunts wedding. I was 15. I have a large frame, so although I was only barely underweight by BMI, I was very thin.  My skinniest friends pants fell off of me. I fit into a size 2 prom dress. 

I also blacked out during sex with my boyfriend. My legs would randomly go out from under me while walking up the stairs at school. I would go through an entire day on nothing more than 2 saltine crackers, nibbling on them like a tiny hamster. It was around this time that I began to be physically unable to swallow food - it was like my throat would close up. I remember my mom, in one of her rare moments of concern, fixed my favorite foods and begged me to eat, and I had to drink water to wash down a tiny bite of chicken. 

3 years later, I tried to recover and insulin resistance hit me like a Mack truck. Now I’m actually obese and considering weight loss surgery. And i would rather go back to where I was then.",2.5095588235294137,4.1289041715686325,3.666470588235297,90.14911764705884,75.91176470588233,6.564705882352942,27.196078431372552,7.285733465282438,1.263066666666666,777,31,168,9,17,252,129,204,0.012,0.903,0.085,0.9153,0,0,1,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,7,5,0,0,9,0,14,13,2,0,0,21,22,11,0,5,1,3,2,3,1,4,3,0,0,0,5,12,8,0,3,2,0,5,0,1,0,1,11,3,32,4,34,5,1,37,0,1,1,1,7,21,0,1,14,111,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.14896651284190704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207589770441055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589280936216486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11738010809990365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984480311374229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954102663294386,0.0,0.15620129556941087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691752576230001,0.3347504847333695,0.11793869995516935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26026726491024404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22373444143158105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575687897217717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647388917357562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344107165912612,0.11609886594998114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729251685647222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544921615786865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901271704290975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036408136967716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595404018299286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858892373709944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43375893149329053,0.0,0.0,0.09830300265351144
EDAnonymous,doripdx,2019/05/04,"New to this group Last night I went to a support group for people with ED and/or family members of people with ED. It was super scary to go, but turned out to be the best self-care I did all week. I met a lot of great people including one who was very inspiring with their bravery to share and help the families that were struggling. I'm so glad to have met them and grateful to them for telling me about this group.

I've struggled for a long time with my ED. It was a struggle long before I had a name for it. I was told it's BED (binge eating disorder) but the word compulsive feels like a much better word for it. 

I am in a bad place right now. I am happy a lot, but almost any stressor can knock me off my axis. I am glad to have found this group because already I've seen a bunch of posts that I relate to.",3.639926004228328,3.843649779069772,4.572135306553911,90.13269556025372,71.55813953488372,7.649894291754759,24.938689217758984,7.348242739294969,0.8642255813953486,630,16,145,6,11,205,102,172,0.09699999999999999,0.631,0.272,0.9904,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,3,3,15,0,3,12,0,14,1,0,0,1,20,25,6,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,11,7,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,1,13,2,16,11,25,11,6,16,0,0,1,0,15,5,0,3,9,92,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391800199470411,0.0,0.15338069769134105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451906090893346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605218852357725,0.08472799527811932,0.0,0.11827162274847225,0.0,0.145863119414385,0.12292678386015495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929642653209364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422231161482351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620578396200812,0.0,0.07027833416000846,0.09929563383348904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523971260845144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899213492857869,0.0,0.0,0.15323874051967382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479591532011771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316314625081253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329671297346845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790427982492707,0.0,0.0,0.2460064017750927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363313925787835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217482580372253,0.0,0.0,0.13423896288413906,0.0,0.13043421027440438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09418431195109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28907784473842024,0.0,0.14521664941487686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331155413863043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869807535649073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499856199512395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4359126267207693,0.0,0.0,0.15772603170855906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148479329350854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104712543205628,0.0,0.0,0.13281243954594524,0.0,0.0,0.15118295904817447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468263448765725,0.0,0.0,0.11149068555995262,0.0,0.0,0.12884661480859402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DeadWinterRose,2019/05/04,"I'm picking up old behaviors, thoughts, and habits and I dont know what to do... This is my first time posting in the sub so I'm really sorry if I get anything messed up. I've just been picking up on my thoughts and behaviors and I dont know what to. And I dont have a therapist right now so theres no one I can really tell this to. 

I'm 17 with ongoing mental health issues (depression, social anxiety, self-loathin, and self-harm) since the age of 12 and I'm not skinny at all and haven't been my whole life. So recently my weight has become a family effort due to me being my size. Like its been agreed upon that I can't have anything except water, need to go walking daily etc. All of this would be fine but its triggering old behaviors in my that my parents dont know about. 

I'm not at all trying to say I have an ED (for a multitude of reasons) but with these 'lifestyle adjustments' I've picked up fasting again. At first it was about giving my weightloss a 'push' but now It's morphing. When I'm fasting so many of my thoughts are around eating, but when I break my fast no matter how long I went, what I ate or how much I ate I always feel like a fucking failure. And my head just becomes clouded with thought of ""why the fuck would you eat you fat pig?!"" And I feel so gross, stupid, and guilty that I start fasting again immediately after. 

I just got weighed at my doctor's and I've lost weight. After a while of just gaining weight, losing and people saying congrats just feels so good. I didnt feel like the failure I am. I felt like I actually did something. So that just made me want to continue and push even further. 

Whenever I eat I feel like shit, not eating makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something. And truth be told I dont want to stop, I want to keep chasing after that feeling success/acomplisment. I feel like fasting is replacing selfharm in a way as a coping skill (I stopped self-harming about a couple months ago) and right now I hate to say i dont mind. 

My main conflict is going back and forward with myself about if I even need to tell this to anyone or not. I'm so used to invalidating and discrediting myself that I cant trust my judgment on something like this. 

I tried not to include certain details because I didn't want to break rules or be too triggering, but if anyone has any questions they need answer before they can give a response I'll answer.",3.94650326797386,4.886505076131686,4.965364318566934,84.92276688453161,71.28395061728395,7.77526022754781,28.285887194383925,8.027739517013583,1.7211904623577825,1881,68,387,25,34,617,226,486,0.135,0.7490000000000001,0.11599999999999999,-0.945,1,0,3,0,0,0,53.0,0,2,2,8,35,23,5,0,15,0,35,20,4,11,5,97,85,43,0,12,23,1,12,8,0,2,4,3,0,0,19,23,13,4,21,0,0,7,18,10,0,3,19,15,54,13,50,60,7,61,0,3,0,2,15,19,3,7,41,248,73,2,0.0,0.0,0.06109562793214286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055497534301396416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0520942329833026,0.0,0.0,0.04257506514261347,0.0,0.04789436166673328,0.0,0.0,0.08755286561600423,0.0,0.10304083609207708,0.055733710624316965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04814109744729805,0.0,0.038164787966360685,0.1382895394760096,0.053274143803547766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927371219530817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053923517801856814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408115558380383,0.0,0.0,0.4402512628360886,0.0,0.0,0.25625131593850986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982361395658343,0.08270297349644719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05902052710673405,0.0,0.25324878399793066,0.22363309782092464,0.0601127615356965,0.0,0.0,0.1065073603362348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575875561897135,0.03270969507759712,0.12011712491442428,0.07116226627724542,0.05251197642491202,0.050072723285177576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06181168069488473,0.0642530829570792,0.06654856073442801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534568508923431,0.0,0.05564818506949524,0.0,0.0,0.10322189334582772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04422133998548012,0.24469385194539345,0.0,0.0,0.055405430821861834,0.0,0.07004147910297757,0.06834319021152055,0.0,0.0,0.05924047737855996,0.04179081399326255,0.06347390738363283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309336520276658,0.0,0.06321545773064838,0.0,0.049972495848704564,0.0,0.046023519729209685,0.13926740930398826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139151813756406,0.0,0.042424281178516134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951792286831507,0.0,0.0,0.04340397218180325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05996042270750609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013442898393088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021559285959955,0.06437066245532587,0.06181708931747635,0.0,0.0,0.10693246932434973,0.0,0.14936335298612696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593899356899586,0.0,0.06426542469625286,0.05178934987069694,0.0,0.0,0.06382018944259847,0.0,0.1445943193798957,0.0,0.07008367129961916,0.0443137215563793,0.0,0.0,0.104684899839286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944296184430684,0.0,0.0,0.07269182263914824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19881259793346995,0.03650678087265285,0.0,0.0,0.05982389383730745,0.0,0.08501240273943211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05407254757870726,0.0,0.0,0.14770947182124086,0.049694707205769385,0.0,0.2287162288962393,0.0,0.05803753196581581,0.056493289597055824,0.06989873949792202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08894876366906125,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,awnutzzz,2019/05/04,"Cried over a donut today A new low, folks! 

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My old habits of extreme restricting are slowly creeping back into my life. Certainly does not help that my job is having us test out a weight loss program to see if it's worth pushing out to our clients (I work for a company that designs/implements employee assistance programs for other companies), so I have been carefully tracking my calorie intake this whole week. My week has been extremely stressful at work and all I could think about was saving up my calories and getting myself a treat this weekend, specifically a donut from my local shop. 

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Instead of being a normal person and just waking up and getting a donut because I wanted one, my entire week has revolved around this damn donut!! Signed up for two more orange theory classes than I would take in a typical week, including one this morning at 6 am, to """"""earn"""""" it. After sweating my ass off, I was so excited to get my carefully planned and selected confection at the shop. I had been thinking and dreaming of this glazed blueberry cake donut allllll week. I made the mistake of checking my phone and not paying attention in between the time I placed my order and the time the gal rang me up at the register. 

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Here's where tragedy strikes- I opened the box when I got home and no glazed blueberry cake donut. Instead, the employee had given me a plain cake donut (no glaze) that was piled high with frosting :(((((( Literally not even a big deal AT ALL and a simple mistake but my good ol brain decided to have a tantrum instead. Instant tears and I threw the donut back into the box with such force that it smooshed into a sad lil donut puddle. And I know I'll be in a foul mood for the rest of the day over a PASTRY. Over a simple tiny little mistake. I hate what this is doing to me, turning me into an actual child. I want a healthy relationship with food and my body.

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Oh, and I ended up scraping off the frosting and eating the donut puddle 20 mins later like the trash panda I am. i hate this",6.706664051994622,7.0406669613402055,6.74273868220529,76.7670304796056,64.95360824742268,9.531331241595698,34.653070372030484,9.318704503766252,3.1545603765127748,1623,69,290,27,23,518,215,388,0.12300000000000001,0.821,0.055999999999999994,-0.975,3,0,0,0,0,0,63.0,2,0,0,5,16,20,4,1,34,0,23,10,5,1,3,52,42,20,0,9,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,2,16,26,3,1,5,4,5,2,5,11,0,3,12,3,39,8,48,26,5,55,0,3,1,1,8,33,2,1,20,203,55,9,0.0,0.0,0.08252489747629589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665119239024076,0.4110311730481035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528228959940866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005314015749728,0.0,0.05155107363208699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393453628023864,0.0,0.09440440184883048,0.0,0.0,0.1724427675354951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751962637909578,0.0,0.09289254581751062,0.05453852360081199,0.0871845513982678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400488651659595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653284323175676,0.0,0.0,0.07490099290453776,0.0,0.0,0.05585550586663508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225838581069516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254782661818493,0.0,0.0,0.07093053328720468,0.06763571298518739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698421097655086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056683274476255575,0.0893493585193666,0.08482729233771404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391939801572298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04647564511563573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05973195909565592,0.04131501657389803,0.08475804696206397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08001905353264148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167504302704008,0.0,0.0,0.08285740794750131,0.0,0.0,0.08873852295617969,0.0,0.11460916511574665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384037801762533,0.0883541993649002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09079298448184916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0673887087010351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687086580631266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06358363176343601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837384969544966,0.0,0.0,0.0986230422920414,0.0,0.08015934072587655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198428250576007,0.08260937504442085,0.0,0.10172332418779206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975925799358733,0.0,0.3391715171430024,0.10297945466622063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441569726061423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313112534572228,0.0,0.0,0.0600737552823372,0.0,0.4110311730481035,0.0
EDAnonymous,dextroty,2019/05/04,"Friend wants me to recover Recently due to circumstances around my household I have mostly moved in with my two friends. Before I became a requent in the apartment my one friend D knew I am anorexic but we were not as close and he really never said anything about it, but now that we are around each other frequently he sees how I eat and wants to help me recover so badly. He has also shown signs of disordered eating but in his own words admitted that I seem more intensely affected at the moment than him and that it hurts him to see me suffer. I know his intentions are good and it's because he cares for me but how do I tell him that him trying to get me to recover stresses me out. 
I am not ready to recover, I appreciate his attempt to help me through this but the way he's trying to help me recover makes me anxious and disgusted with myself. He tries to get me to eat or will make food with the intention to try to get me to eat some too. I have voiced a few times in private with him that I do not want to eat and that it just makes me panicky when I have to. Sometimes he respects that and won't mention food to me and just let me be but lately he has started intensely to try to get me to eat anything. I might want to recover in the future but for now I am not ready and I don't know how to tell him without coming off as a dick.",5.6201186239620435,4.695401000000004,6.539487544483986,81.54379833926454,67.46975088967972,10.197959667852906,31.900593119810203,9.558583805096642,2.608494472123369,1055,37,229,19,15,353,133,281,0.141,0.753,0.106,-0.92,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,0,1,14,11,1,1,8,0,19,9,1,9,1,60,41,25,0,4,15,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,13,21,8,0,5,0,0,2,8,5,0,2,3,4,45,6,45,33,6,27,0,2,2,1,30,12,1,5,12,171,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484881278642609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10573701610962527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404332429216708,0.16664084619879355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814888142313399,0.05705534846388869,0.0,0.07964343576350758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542751972571004,0.0,0.0,0.08062480152260569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726930449619608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5746334083431262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22635368867089814,0.0,0.2169364757307047,0.0,0.19560051557941996,0.0,0.0,0.07850401569351527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18820659296438103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019662166797393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287600006476423,0.0,0.10558054164448473,0.0,0.0,0.0957084116729216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18742848437230716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929073149849628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947790240626384,0.0,0.0,0.07218712615271311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06342317814273575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05996009471971789,0.0,0.09241491332640753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903137843154181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491680380862473,0.0852064259349584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256899233364814,0.0,0.06624784152762721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10721408139863824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361433294090022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457667171687042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177282333080173,0.0,0.0914298451508834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208217531198165,0.07429227273410331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022335517919487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thearapy,2019/05/04,"reason #1924782 why i should get off tiktok this girl made a tiktok with the “shut up, count your calories” song and the caption was “half the girls using this sound not even skinny saying ‘omg eating disorders have affected me 😝’”

and she was, well, skinny. like the kind of weight where no one would doubt she’s anorexic 

i feel so invalidated and triggered so guess who’s not eating for the next two weeks lol",4.695,6.422630551282051,4.456923076923079,86.26307692307694,70.41025641025641,6.7384615384615385,23.256410256410252,7.1686216300943375,0.7738564102564105,325,8,62,3,6,99,62,78,0.078,0.83,0.092,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,6,1,5,5,2,5,0,16,10,5,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,0,2,3,4,5,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,1,3,3,5,6,3,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,2,3,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620214380630088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4678762258543819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510031469096451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559851392879875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944593240977673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518536954656474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23807537601580514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169351025445444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21632834057596448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431428508199837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492066832665366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350622278370756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180995902442945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22333117214498413,0.0,0.0,0.1974566209800684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833873514743531,0.27840087526496243,0.2055592770573685,0.0,0.206296440086276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624070170624223,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abouta5outoften,2019/05/04,"Photos of myself are so triggering because they tell the truth I took part in an athletic event yesterday and I was feeling so happy because I did so well.

But the photos were published today and I'm in floods of tears. 

I knew I looked chubby but I didn't realise it was so bad. I look disgusting and gross and like the fattest, tallest person there. 

I gained weight over Easter but I'm losing it again quickly. But I was fat before Easter anyway. 

I wish I could look at photos and be reminded of good times and feel happy, but I just feel overwhelming shame. I hate photos.

This has triggered me into wanting to fast...But I really didn't want to. I wanted to restrict to under 1000kcal for a few weeks before dropping it down to 500kcal since I've got a few races coming up and exams. 

I feel sub-human, like an embarrassment to my friends. Like I don't even deserve confidence. 

How did this happen? This weight doesn't suit me at all. My body isn't even the 'right kind of curvy', it's just weird and ugly and thick and three times wider at the front than from the side. And my boobs have gotten even bigger for some reason. 

I feel grossed out when guys hit on me but I guess I should just appreciate it more. They probably think I'm 'attainable and easy' compared to the actually pretty, slim, confident girls. Maybe I'm misinterpreting and they aren't even hitting on me at all...maybe they just feel sorry for me because I look so lost all the time.  

I'm desperate but I fail every time. I reached my lowest weight 3 years ago and I haven't been close to it since. I'm always either fasting, restricting or binging whilst feeling guilty and ashamed of what I'm eating. My whole life is centred around food and I can't even manage to focus these disordered thought into the success of actually losing a decent amount of weight.",3.7964518297954086,5.57421739554318,4.4891845163769135,84.92626740947078,72.81615598885794,7.068715781385072,25.192680818365197,7.753152298057669,1.3395003553933345,1451,46,279,19,29,464,193,359,0.19699999999999998,0.649,0.154,-0.9634,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,4,7,22,25,2,4,14,0,22,10,3,4,3,62,57,31,0,6,13,0,12,3,1,1,2,0,0,3,11,22,7,2,11,0,0,3,8,14,1,1,15,16,40,11,37,37,10,41,0,5,4,1,9,22,1,3,18,179,51,5,0.0,0.0,0.17100547724389853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766826089102982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290537371069171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779987873638864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315754959113656,0.1602337516036755,0.0,0.14911329491537706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09732408459459443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075475333853205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06995601500506851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004180651133942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965530771103604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28935502283316583,0.0,0.07382212496047114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101168144549148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059482931970406,0.0,0.06769361545289866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349000160482899,0.07007629049818273,0.0,0.09652134183095598,0.08675580802552024,0.07748049803531651,0.18654243794081676,0.0,0.08650484751720837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124088772042367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061887336332648174,0.12841750203788546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29430893307763895,0.1960447411094008,0.09564563172566196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604854702671038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488198835848892,0.0,0.0,0.07650484562189762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913922382740533,0.09446725486903262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056130472030639776,0.09008611766708473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482547675092534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495738550434667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808141812460734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658218171502411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05614221421254144,0.0,0.0695590755476664,0.2043635427628369,0.0,0.08305182275641196,0.0,0.09734706059944016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550384796987236,0.0,0.07028204690982617,0.4267815248500421,0.07877929768191443,0.0,0.0,0.09782260786209628,0.10075662299592307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056423257692526464
EDAnonymous,cutecounterculture,2019/05/04,"Was depressed and binging at work (I work at a buffet... l o l) when my co-worker made a big deal about my plate and I told her about my ED. I won’t lie. I went overboard. I’m a vegetarian (used to be until tonight) and had chicken wings, shrimp, like two pounds of crawfish, lamb, steak, sushi, gumbo... and seven dinner rolls. Along with hella fruit. 

She asked who else was sitting with me and I said no one with a mouth full of sushi and then she asks why do I eat so much when I get sick and throw it up later ... lmao. Feeling super depressed and self destructive/manic lately and told her that the food doesn’t make me throw up, my brain does. 

She asked for clarification and I told her I had an eating disorder. She goes, WORD FOR WORD: “Like anorexia or something? But you’re not exactly skinny.” 

... Thanks, Sharon. 

That’s exactly what I needed to hear. 

Good luck getting me to eat for the next few weeks because every time is look at food I’ll hear “you’re not skinny”",0.5129230769230766,2.9303072666666665,1.9145641025641038,95.22876923076923,89.15384615384615,4.350769230769231,17.543589743589738,5.927762680638738,-0.4115579487179493,747,19,161,6,25,239,126,195,0.075,0.8079999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.8074,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,0,0,7,0,9,12,4,3,2,29,29,17,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,14,9,0,2,0,0,3,5,2,0,3,10,6,24,6,20,17,3,21,0,2,1,0,19,7,0,2,12,90,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422860870528916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07439734416846734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362422987635728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258227737959872,0.21023392118490364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13987385197317034,0.0,0.1068021793613353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746467299052687,0.1019527245489471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282796195491052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06170949043378286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29515398176052354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752668477962306,0.0,0.0,0.10236534227555837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751065965738055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767178898555738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924979601049633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10248684858943886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548168925035697,0.08146581541282526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971693069947814,0.0904946324744173,0.0,0.0,0.12979597156378767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270067819372898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609250107650695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273192866805609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395600776640176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236240456370733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116527264502359,0.0,0.0,0.34985695373717235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11921998270267575,0.0,0.0,0.10540747496945993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978969333330163,0.0,0.0,0.11313670192940845,0.11012640010120413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665500851323066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,QueenAdreena,2019/05/04,How many here have been diagnosed... by a professional? And do you agree? It’s been years and I’m still like nopeee my habits are just a bit ~quirky~ I’m fine yay denial,-0.6153333333333322,1.4705246571428603,0.5078571428571443,101.81130952380954,102.42857142857143,4.61904761904762,14.404761904761903,6.42735559955562,-0.6719523809523809,133,3,32,2,6,41,30,35,0.0,0.711,0.289,0.8611,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,1,5,1,0,1,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5123175595725508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4762956943860272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292599443705591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4757626514948533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747568919837588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021922879946249
EDAnonymous,teahappy,2019/05/04,"vent- strict family/no friends 
(none of this makes any sense at all. i’m sorry- it’s just a personal vent)

my parents are extremely strict. i cannot go out with friends, stay up past nine, take walks on my own, or even use my own phone apps (the only reason why i’m on reddit now is because i found a bypass.) they do this thing where they delete all of my school apps unless it’s a holiday or something.

i’m turning sixteen in less than a week and i still cannot do anything. my parents claim it’s because of the state of my grades but even when my grades are fine i’m still grounded for something else. my anxiety and constant migraines make doing work difficult in the first place, which they don’t understand.

it makes me wonder if that’s why my ed is getting worse, or even manifested in the first place. 

it’s like the only thing i CAN do is restrict and lose weight. my parents have even applauded my weight loss, despite the fact that i’m now underweight and i was a healthy weight when my disordered habits started.

it’s very frustrating how they control every facet of my life and claim to want the best for me, yet they’re encouraging my bad habits and allowing my ED to get even worse 

i guess i just sound like a spoiled and whiny teen right now, though. i do think that my parents care for me but if anything it’s just led to be being socially isolated and lonely because i have little to no freedom compared to my peers. all i have is my ED. i always feel jealous when i can hear and see teenagers outside at night and having fun, while i’m stuck in my house vomiting. 

when my friends are having an outing or a party of some kind, i don’t eat that night.

there are people who have it way worse than me so i have no right to complain.

my ED almost become a friend to me, in a way. when i’m by myself and feeling very much excluded, there’s something keeping me safe- something to hold on to.

i guess i’m using starvation as a substitute for social interaction and freedom. maybe if i told my parents they would let me off of the leash but i doubt it. also, nothing is worse than potentially having my scale taken away.

tl;dr- i have very strict parents that have fucked my social life and all i have is a restrictive eating disorder to keep me company. first world problems.",2.3883009130607395,4.593715628820963,3.361248511314013,89.50383386264393,78.30131004366812,6.347042477173481,24.601230647082176,7.435244526350478,1.1420593886462878,1810,65,367,25,44,578,216,458,0.16,0.696,0.14400000000000002,-0.7924,6,2,4,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,5,8,26,24,3,1,20,0,37,10,0,10,5,64,74,35,0,6,14,6,5,2,4,1,4,2,0,1,20,15,5,7,7,1,0,3,7,11,0,4,5,8,57,13,42,65,11,50,0,3,1,1,26,22,1,13,23,243,77,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06660112806322394,0.0,0.0,0.05318879795884398,0.05534245437314377,0.0,0.0,0.04522973974573978,0.0,0.050880709312326536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946572093352742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248924487587619,0.0,0.05553388103276023,0.12163340829104885,0.07345613986856453,0.0,0.0,0.06979915866886115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781236572031332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187472914153305,0.07459770738719869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245466565552765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611465174015092,0.05556138018119791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964933905051812,0.0,0.05603836006061439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672598888151011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16972258901579398,0.0,0.07292584463405093,0.20554483895366293,0.06148831918869228,0.06949847243058886,0.0,0.03779971648493488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465386619513596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496269604474487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767447284067782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11823601065952608,0.0,0.06926093933309285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680119721599122,0.09395732887554496,0.06498779980606127,0.06666146409588207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440876157494195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318976501947802,0.0,0.06681920814195863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04889321513806833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483207784589442,0.0,0.06381906866139671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116917819792287,0.0,0.0,0.4431153608525458,0.0,0.06349224587816768,0.04611033146134564,0.058074812769711624,0.13897961314091792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364201492531163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838435362019346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360000840183684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06731265157951773,0.0530006311678293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20339867121824065,0.0,0.2048135737779278,0.0,0.07445358457326284,0.047076806258462035,0.07089184349367059,0.10623149167661493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05000797137033113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837386497253351,0.04261754340351436,0.06534668944528603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355408123920689,0.0,0.0,0.07234483527431533,0.0,0.06924026446752908,0.0,0.1148882448532612,0.0,0.16463554529694707,0.039229892814471125,0.10558662288025407,0.05335108753153255,0.2429773266101205,0.0,0.0,0.12003160898504707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0721283088200452,0.04842077764600456,0.0,0.2711214388123889,0.047247484155111666,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grywrnmgcn,2019/09/23,Stupid question is it possible for thighs to not touch each other when you sit down??? i always feel really gross when i sit and my thighs end up rubbing against each other :/,3.623636363636365,5.919733787878793,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,74.75757575757575,6.824242424242425,23.12121212121212,7.793537801064563,1.1326848484848488,137,4,26,2,3,42,27,33,0.251,0.7490000000000001,0.0,-0.8668,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,2,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,5,2,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850935124889897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40991071273139296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234009741046066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5217467280155089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5184511232267942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29648679557861063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maxthe5,2019/09/23,STOP EATING MY SAFE FOOD!! I can’t plan one fucking meal without someone eating it. :),1.9987500000000007,4.755171375000003,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,85.25,3.2,26.75,3.1291,0.64635,66,3,11,0,2,21,15,16,0.132,0.542,0.326,0.6467,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6707025817225173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962944057109198,0.0,0.0,0.3029826245624451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220794442357565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277685959056692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27399832985216915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159216103959274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,homoeroticneurotic,2019/09/23,i can’t stop crying i need to be underweight. No one thinks im skinny. I NEED BE UNDERWEIGHT I NEED BE UNDERWEIGHT I NEED BE UNDERWEIGHT I NEED BE UNDERWEIGHT,-1.1371874999999996,-1.7111703437499983,1.8830000000000036,87.26200000000004,143.0625,7.53,18.825,7.1686216300943375,2.1553525,127,5,25,5,10,44,14,32,0.263,0.737,0.0,-0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,0,7,12,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26118740914504635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256840493547147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8815449850710426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112418191049258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987926297915506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235821546239392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,budqueen12,2019/09/23,"Recovery starting at a normal weight - what to expect? Hi guys, I've got my first appointment in a few hours for an 'assessment' at an ED clinic that I've been lucky enough to be referred to by my doctor. I am bulimic which has caused weight gain over the past few months, meaning that I am at a normal BMI now and completely healthy looking. I can't help but feel like they're going to take one look at me and tell me I'm fine and turn me away. I feel embarrassed that I'm seeking help looking the way I do and I feel like a fake because I'm not dying and skin and bones but my bulimic tendencies are ruining my life which is why I went out to seek help in the first place. Has anyone been into recovery starting at a normal weight and what were your experiences?",7.874285714285714,5.463139904458599,8.038671519563241,77.37700636942678,63.968152866242036,11.773976342129213,35.167424931756145,10.290406445055957,3.217031665150137,603,20,128,11,7,198,93,157,0.111,0.795,0.09300000000000001,-0.5949,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,3,1,7,0,1,10,0,12,8,2,1,0,23,29,9,1,4,3,0,7,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,7,9,3,0,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,3,5,10,15,4,18,23,3,23,0,1,3,0,7,12,0,1,10,79,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800204197917855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824666178158745,0.0,0.0,0.07672117295332001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928966283802198,0.0,0.0,0.13195852190760474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306195491818948,0.0,0.0,0.12881982797669492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300437787824184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311215792807514,0.0,0.0,0.19091102812934055,0.1798243301247087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21410755957455532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07152735321913774,0.0,0.10065922721205603,0.0,0.0,0.1246180773828606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530775984816627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394365396819355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889642138832264,0.12297460785229393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31706419055495066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709501541773025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10045774393655367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36993899899966176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528386471283697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014461270930522,0.0,0.0,0.131493630161902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816426485738124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09462869472589287,0.0,0.11000444194242102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368961216497125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989931634780663,0.0,0.459779243889581,0.0,0.11667056899825852,0.11356623927003087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pastel-babyboy,2019/09/23,"I don't think I'm ready to recover yet. Hey guys, I've been following this subreddit for a while, but this is my first post (so please be nice). I feel like this is a good place to vent/rant, and I don't really have anywhere else I can talk about it.

I (18m) been struggling with my eating disorder since I was 10, and I've been in and out of recovery for years. I would go a while doing well and eating, then eventually return to my usual restricting, fasting, counting, and purging after a few weeks/months. As much as I hate to admit it, I don't think I'm ready to give those things up. My boyfriend (19) knows I have an eating disorder, he just gets upset when I go back to those behaviors. Though I've been previously admitted to psychiatric units, I never went because of my disorder. I reached my lowest point three years ago after leaving a highly toxic relationship (the guy was abusive and sexually assaulted me), and since then, I haven't had the motivation to recover. My disorder gives me a feeling of control, and it often feels like the only control I have in my life. I can't talk to my boyfriend about any of it because any time I try to, he forces me to eat and keep it down. He actually gets *angry* when I tell him I'm struggling. He tells me I'm making him feel bad, but that is not my intention. In doing that, I'm simply telling him that I'm not doing okay and I need support.

Am I really a terrible person for not feeling ready to recover?",4.947999249249246,5.065205969594596,6.3307657657657685,78.96348348348353,68.69594594594594,9.956156156156156,30.63363363363363,9.861636050157227,2.7640719219219214,1141,42,234,25,18,389,150,296,0.214,0.6970000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.9926,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,4,11,14,2,3,11,1,25,5,0,5,1,39,54,22,0,2,6,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,14,12,4,4,11,0,0,4,9,7,1,2,8,5,37,7,32,44,2,33,0,0,0,0,21,9,0,1,21,152,51,1,0.0,0.1106647885293888,0.09114580108751942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279425866448323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270316240332886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181952359896822,0.07798584665886174,0.11387263836269272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20951409342231456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281820739748531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822897359674836,0.0780244635236194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361314965692869,0.1334512372846765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944675427794336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759622618127048,0.17919730012128945,0.10616376304777277,0.07834024004554767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496314267648933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221404778356003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868317450794584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301900772440071,0.0,0.0,0.051330689702954506,0.0,0.0,0.0988980626577748,0.0,0.0,0.06597181491639299,0.09126191968075377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062345823235437414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455170395387015,0.0,0.06866040527883878,0.06925558077845832,0.07203652884560546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103559008321413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155405959704325,0.09758405677357396,0.10252613585719801,0.08829403639554367,0.0,0.08945223981152801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967001106886024,0.0,0.0,0.10027760781044112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452437241529893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528579165743806,0.0,0.0,0.10599022973561152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014420420796296,0.2449094992959907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06205140496423538,0.11969504536818655,0.0917659059293562,0.0,0.05446281346776835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634130772718011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028678911760404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397862234657104,0.08658356617665194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06634931659402518,0.0,0.0,0.12029422928993015
EDAnonymous,hondaceviche,2019/09/23,"oohoohoo I start OP in exactly one hour. I'm starting an outpatient program that's two days a week. My intake appointment is in an hour.

I've been IP before but this is the first time I've gotten any kind of ED related help voluntarily. :|

The goal is to not binge my feelings out directly after the appointment. Wish me luck, boyz.",1.535,4.132263030303033,3.539621212121212,84.37943181818183,85.36363636363637,7.542424242424243,24.91666666666667,8.472884824447931,2.141975757575758,264,11,52,7,8,89,53,66,0.023,0.815,0.162,0.8885,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,0,1,7,10,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,4,2,6,8,0,12,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,9,27,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18360662799716385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297468217709219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741251686093536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13651815657382885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229658571545459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097271568534584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.531783605941259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811594228565755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295636627445772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3822093031081896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15743691554214942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26374698852517064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21657461079176069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104822265354846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dtt9512,2019/09/23,"How to stop my hair falling out? Didn't know where else to ask this haha...I currently have an underweight bmi, I know I need to eat more but I'm working on that. I'm still in a calorie deficit but working on increasing slowly. I eat a decent amount of protein and I take multivitamins but it doesn't seem to be stopping it. I'm a guy with shortish hair so it's very noticeable, it seems to fall out in patches all over my head and it's so thin and brittle. I used to have nice thick hair. 

My friend told me I looked like a cancer patient a few weeks ago and it's only got worse since then and idk how to stop it, there's a patch on the top of my head that is straight up bald and I hate it.  

Any advice welcome xo",-0.2292186379928296,1.8548483612903224,1.7760752688172057,97.66633512544806,87.96774193548387,4.734767025089607,20.224014336917566,6.139981653823899,-0.11070609318996416,556,18,133,5,18,184,95,155,0.17,0.71,0.12,-0.8047,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,7,5,1,0,8,0,6,9,6,3,1,24,21,14,0,1,3,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,11,9,2,3,4,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,6,12,4,19,17,5,25,0,0,1,0,5,14,0,2,9,76,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15940591871434234,0.1446023357573057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110932025037488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15250182231927414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338395055927689,0.13627176393290175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603159640821202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046764754346427,0.0,0.0,0.16152148042304768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610542435457388,0.33483094310976624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17930078116068193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969566346992177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13698568330561886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095668113143968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18572128985778508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406551388493404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970095789188933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349404266860674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13027351650359573,0.4091446915390111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226512812877743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15587493916381212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14088944272308646,0.0,0.13459694539926875,0.0,0.0,0.1308507236852415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375169500579385,0.0,0.16624045598984774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Headphone_Actress,2019/09/23,"Might be getting electrocuted this week, RIP my poor heart Greetings fellow sufferers of hell!

I study welding, and am about to start TIG. And I was just told by teacher we're all going to get electrocuted at some point at least twice and people with pacemakers have had to drop the course due to potentially frying it.

I'm already weakening my heart lol, RIP me.

If I stop posting y'all know I dropped dead working on stainless steel and got the electrode stuck.",4.923596059113301,6.960042114942532,4.854844006568143,82.39241379310344,70.3793103448276,7.730049261083742,30.81937602627258,8.418075326091056,2.3669651888341545,372,16,68,6,7,115,70,87,0.243,0.701,0.055999999999999994,-0.9565,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,1,6,2,2,0,1,12,15,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,5,0,8,0,11,8,3,12,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,3,4,39,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767945050849622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620941476086545,0.0,0.14255111120409802,0.0,0.2006097534192716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5944638515617764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784829486001204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660884564690404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738922827747613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371131662922696,0.0,0.2402235154209954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753707350578718,0.0,0.0,0.20970311344836445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396765305320535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011987792183084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18260548757172484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greendaypascalhens,2019/09/23,"I miss my old self when I just ate whatever I wanted and felt great. I was suffering from depression and I was put on escitalopram and sulpiride. Those meds caused so big appetite that I was eating whatever I wanted everyday, including sweet stuff+soft drinks. I was overweight and didn't care. I've been off the meds since 2017 and now I ended up with abdominal pain, constant bloated I am now underweight. Everyone is commenting on how much skinny I got and that my face is so pale. I've visited 4 gastrologist and either all of them are stupid and don't know what's wrong with me or I really have IBS caused by anxiety. Fuck",2.8034329307056574,5.463083710743803,4.32595041322314,80.62570883661793,79.66115702479341,8.681754609027339,25.83661792752702,9.265573868473778,2.6834775588048307,503,20,94,15,13,167,85,121,0.20199999999999999,0.722,0.077,-0.9297,0,1,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,7,10,2,0,1,0,12,8,2,3,1,21,21,13,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,10,5,0,2,1,0,2,2,7,0,0,9,2,16,3,9,12,3,14,0,3,0,1,4,5,1,1,7,61,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922028325762528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18554884339366956,0.37390351008378064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19666432102441492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674595424948587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827890699073176,0.0,0.1862191056973527,0.0,0.0,0.16118730638690024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17389728468578874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473697105792466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824492681376862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555238814436816,0.20064235681645526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001581765852627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042951713340217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378208269688596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096573934992733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364800939062524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829481546735816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165861405284024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985312144329086,0.0,0.0,0.15054231245208838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083326619615807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21468241554068912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19897525384996792,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,softophelia,2019/09/23,"An Interesting Title No one thinks I’m sick enough to recover, including professionals. I guess I really am a fake",2.928571428571427,6.011781857142857,6.2447619047619085,62.758571428571464,87.57142857142857,12.323809523809526,26.04761904761905,10.504223727775694,5.037304761904762,93,4,15,5,3,34,19,21,0.361,0.529,0.11,-0.7334,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,9,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5475273255799521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837434979959744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590732813099027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394668729814771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33953788755926223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,idkidkidked,2019/09/23,Me looking in the mirror actually feeling semi-good about myself: this is new. Me 10 minutes later doing the same thing but i took a single sip of water: okay how did i just gain 20 lbs in 10 minutes😩,1.4264285714285734,3.3608028333333344,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,80.19047619047619,5.152380952380953,22.404761904761905,5.985473137389443,0.5496476190476192,157,5,30,1,4,56,36,42,0.0,0.8059999999999999,0.19399999999999998,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,1,3,1,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,1,4,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.4269082121934152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211982863503588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669295943598575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673651349585917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225118438894057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906360363428595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4860459474466786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sethtriso,2019/09/23,I binged on 2 boxes of cereal today Le guilty has arrived,2.625,4.27301816666667,5.8066666666666675,74.80500000000002,75.66666666666666,8.133333333333335,20.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,1.6447333333333334,46,1,8,1,1,17,12,12,0.237,0.763,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackdaisylight,2019/09/23,"Eating more than others? Hey guys I'm new here so sorry if I do something wrong BUT I wanted to ask you if you can relate to this thing. Basically when I eat around others and I'm doing the plates I have to give myself more food cause idk u feel like if I got have more it's bad. I can't really explain it, it's like I'm scared I don't get any (?). Pleased tell me if you had this thoughts as well or similar",-0.524395604395604,1.3657906813186822,1.963395604395608,97.1941043956044,87.24175824175825,4.958681318681318,15.693406593406591,6.2581,-0.6632602197802195,316,6,78,3,10,108,62,91,0.154,0.71,0.136,-0.2008,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,8,3,0,1,0,13,19,10,0,5,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,3,1,12,3,6,16,3,3,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,5,4,49,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139837024663537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830563556639724,0.19223845487079186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169439256770158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112410300692981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4208263859013039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397387630325633,0.14690376590530416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486514098095837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743439668221602,0.19726125260063934,0.0,0.0,0.16446294603531922,0.0,0.0,0.20360831990559866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009231230468261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860096982684672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257225300805908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317333255925055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20587381873578195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830580127596752,0.0,0.2301885396818085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17973170567571126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661297196542302,0.0,0.0,0.16324908762628093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128726629610602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848881453520579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248266541929453,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,algolde,2019/09/23,"Feeling good Cut 20cm of hair (it reached lower back, pretty but annoying) and digging it. My skin is hella clear except for 1.5 pimples, eyebrows 👌

Haha

Just gotta lose 25% of my entire bodyweight and I'll be a Skinny Legend(TM)",2.014666666666667,4.561787800000001,3.653333333333333,84.90000000000002,82.1111111111111,4.488888888888889,26.777777777777786,5.6839178017228535,1.112911111111112,181,8,31,1,5,60,41,45,0.129,0.596,0.276,0.7677,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,1,1,2,3,3,0,1,7,4,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,2,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39254835876716543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258127669988721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281890371067194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711267321564087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193691330194364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Organizational_Bee,2019/09/23,"My mom can't read So I asked my mom to buy me 0% fruit yogurt. Just this morning, I noticed she bought 1.5%. I'm fuming. I never eat 1.5%, it's written right on the package, can't she read anything???",-0.6997674418604625,1.2699227441860472,1.7593488372093056,97.7664651162791,89.0,3.44,20.227906976744187,3.1291,-0.5905683720930233,150,5,35,0,5,51,33,43,0.10800000000000001,0.892,0.0,-0.6416,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,8,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,18,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457856447445026,0.0,0.2437700636235015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26681673792727595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6107845502201492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201109784855154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29687048952167894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5216497112986772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22268274048963627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nahgemo,2019/09/23,I've finally reached my goal after 7 years! Why do I still feel fat lmao gotta lose more weight I guess,-0.8044927536231903,1.302932608695656,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,92.47826086956522,4.8057971014492775,16.36231884057971,6.42735559955562,-0.6096550724637679,82,2,21,1,3,26,21,23,0.11599999999999999,0.644,0.24,0.4389,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752309326193056,0.0,0.0,0.4062701257132689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4085552868980314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149088374106799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961773840541237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4516199345665512,0.0,0.0,0.33465262881952523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23882821971812396
EDAnonymous,LydiaAgain,2019/09/23,"Back on the recovery wagon and hating every second. Can they just put me in a coma and wake me up later? Maybe without ED thoughts? I've never posted here. I'm not even sure if this is the right subreddit to post because 80% of the post are kinda pro-ana... But I need to vent and this is all I found that's active.

Dealing with this since 15 years old, now I'm 27. AKA too old for this shit. I honestly thought I would be dead by 25, but here I am. 

Now I'm back on the recovery wheel for the fourth time, and it's the same as always. Cold night sweats, hair starting to fall out, bloating, irritability, all that jazz. I definitely have more energy, but it doesn't feel worth it most of the time. What exactly am I supposed to do with this newfound energy? Hang out with all of my friends? Oh wait, I don't have any because I've been isolating myself for years. 

Honestly, put me in a coma with a tube down my throat and wake me up when I'm healthy. But please erase my memory first, back to freshman year of high school will work.",2.4806213753106867,3.866507446009393,3.8110245788456254,90.05567522783764,75.47887323943661,7.265285832642918,22.858050262358464,7.928766900206844,0.9016547362607016,798,22,179,12,17,262,130,213,0.064,0.8029999999999999,0.133,0.953,0,0,0,0,0,1,32.0,0,0,1,2,11,6,2,0,10,0,15,8,6,0,6,35,27,12,1,3,8,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,11,11,0,1,4,1,1,4,5,2,0,2,4,3,17,4,28,20,6,36,0,0,0,0,3,11,1,3,18,112,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715920572169344,0.0,0.0,0.09575072959144516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3248059765830829,0.0,0.1716641550748558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451615000123721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09299891879367622,0.0,0.11863242837733395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119412429177217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976678632073395,0.0,0.1543829982006575,0.10878389088798092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13901361052492686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14876588454949788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14145533373133776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440348910408208,0.10859579646709716,0.0,0.0,0.13213388577242816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954976975762082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15455918768614352,0.0,0.0,0.40455047114716425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830913998808862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024481842275815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249994662152896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453204666999506,0.11647352784018425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966094369374366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270496886663627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22356338434637849,0.16420648526937054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357288707530881,0.0,0.102506112417478,0.0,0.0,0.10002226642567193,0.0,0.0,0.27201715260602466
EDAnonymous,ftwftwftwftwftw1994,2019/09/23,"AHHH This year, I have spent over 5000 dollars on binge food. 
Eating. disorders. Are. Not. ""Saving money"".
Please I wish people would stop saying that",1.4409890109890109,2.4665712307692327,1.7431868131868136,89.18038461538461,125.15384615384615,3.024175824175824,11.406593406593409,5.288315135182226,-0.775894505494505,116,2,18,1,7,35,25,26,0.149,0.754,0.09699999999999999,-0.1184,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,2,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803131486038924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33955137779374445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4012577709944377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300535082456186,0.0,0.0,0.3642566086905487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26388954459328645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774300053402208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38159536823383466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357269865816209,0.0,0.0,0.21369169743812652
EDAnonymous,r3sistcarnism,2019/09/23,I purged red velvet Oreos at a hotel and now the bowl is stained red They're gonna be so confused. Also red velvet Oreos are SOOOOO GOOD OMFG HOW COULD YOU NOT BINGE ON THEM.,-0.1629729729729732,2.131170000000001,1.6473513513513502,96.43210810810814,92.24324324324324,2.9600000000000004,12.805405405405404,3.1291,-1.4996118918918917,138,2,29,0,5,45,33,37,0.08,0.8240000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.1635,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,5,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,1,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5682503763703022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673401169839504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5960005884356555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,secretspam,2019/09/23,Eating as a daily reward I have been super stressed our lately where I eat a large meal either before I have to do something stressful or as a reward. I just want to stop deriving happiness from food on the daily and I need something else to look forward to on a daily basis that will incentivize me to do my work by being a reward but it is not food related as I am thinking about eating just about 24/7 and this isn’t healthy,5.73103448275862,5.545090149425288,6.6580689655172405,78.31882758620691,67.04597701149426,8.799080459770115,30.043678160919534,8.238735603445708,2.1583029885057474,341,11,64,4,5,114,58,87,0.063,0.748,0.19,0.8765,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,5,5,7,0,2,6,0,10,6,0,0,0,12,14,7,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,6,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,9,5,14,11,1,6,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,1,3,51,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545723215732804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.560817839598309,0.15261552326149885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4418232035326453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19447877601133332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608426314580988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534150665820607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546362540620155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812900852286039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15273849203183956,0.418545588415201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706150324984155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775633362324334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330017773689931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grandparadise,2018/12/21,"Liquid calories? I tend to prefer drinking my calories over eating them, because I feel it will somehow magically cause me to gain if I eat them?? I’d rather have a 200 calorie hot cocoa for example, than to eat a 200 calorie salad. 

Does it really matter how those calories are being consumed? Am I losing my mind? ",4.038,6.0369734666666695,5.6099999999999985,76.215,72.66666666666666,6.8000000000000025,30.33333333333333,7.554174236665415,2.2967333333333326,248,11,40,3,5,84,45,60,0.045,0.857,0.099,0.4859,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,2,0,5,5,0,2,0,9,7,2,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,9,0,6,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477182623084934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608197510534219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22218492514675914,0.0,0.0,0.2487201049756385,0.0,0.7793928563841198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837676716771515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28404317724056866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563612261547301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626514185014399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babybighorn,2018/12/21,"Sometimes Your Eating Fears Sneak Into Your Life in Unexpected Ways Fiance and I are at pre-marital counseling last night, looking to better our communication skills and develop skills to help with conflict resolution. So we were talking with the therapist about an argument we had, in which we tried to go XC skiing last weekend, but my fiance has enormous feet (15 wide) and none of the ski boots in the shop could fit him. I was SO upset and so disappointed and it spiraled into this big fight, I eventually have to extract myself and go work out since nothing productive was coming of the argument. So as we are recalling these events to the therapist she finally stops us, looks at me and says ""were you expecting skiing to be your exercise for the day?"" and I replied that yes, XC skiing has a lot of hills, it's basically a big hike on skis. She asked if I'd done anything differently to prepare for skiing and I told her I'd eaten breakfast. I made an egg, a piece of bacon, and heated a waffle in the bacon grease (it's amazing but so unhealthy). She said to that, ""so you had calories that had to be used, and you started to get upset and nervous that you weren't going to burn them if you weren't skiing. Your restrictive behaviors and negative self talk effected the way you handled the situation"". MIND BLOWN. As I thought about it, she was absolutely right. I was almost in a panic that I had eaten all that for nothing and it made me much more argumentative and desperate to find some other activity to burn those calories off. 

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I so often think that my eating only effects myself and is limited to eating and exercising. I forget or don't notice when it seeps into the rest of my life and causes arguments, disruptions, and disappointments. It makes me resent the way I see and talk to myself, and the rules I have set up for myself that make me way more inflexible than I normally am. It feels like my eating has too big of a say in my life, and I just want to remind everyone here to try and do your best to not let it take over your life, even though I know from personal experience how hard that can be. 

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TL/DR, EDs don't just dictate how hard you work in the gym or what and when you eat. They are insidious in ways we don't always recognize.",7.0339215686274486,6.630861242081451,7.717386877828058,72.53484351432884,64.40723981900453,10.986576168929114,33.34879336349925,10.504223727775694,3.391506485671192,1807,66,338,40,24,604,230,442,0.14300000000000002,0.8009999999999999,0.055999999999999994,-0.9901,1,0,0,0,1,0,54.0,7,14,2,9,20,13,2,5,21,1,33,16,1,10,1,75,58,44,0,6,9,0,3,1,0,0,6,3,0,2,24,36,9,4,7,12,1,4,8,9,0,0,20,10,58,4,54,33,10,46,0,2,3,0,41,25,0,8,12,250,82,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309893137840167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905136522463254,0.17983154415676136,0.2016752136159352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829076846496683,0.0,0.07758111819964644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087089147964397,0.07339476155018182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524993260810522,0.0,0.07148546915115023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06625791894221443,0.0,0.0,0.05351938791369601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670316608174053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492393946128712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245792238613591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05481176035259706,0.0,0.0,0.07929709885245102,0.0,0.08117666127535382,0.0,0.09338281557522524,0.041960437065414295,0.059285528664557614,0.0,0.09090758767368508,0.07584810189855541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04335698928350616,0.0,0.14148931726754554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486790984465932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05562406084032793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0456071766388254,0.13529004781524145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848592564687669,0.2344631045082296,0.0405429823304991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13937541632706607,0.0,0.0,0.07055210288782528,0.0,0.1570475503827715,0.110788184980414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08379264670237954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06100458127031753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787715142671364,0.08130909061498062,0.15925545291943194,0.09448061092989696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631149264371148,0.0,0.09736670584032782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246055767377617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086996554929771,0.07893910727417905,0.13198829438601584,0.0,0.0,0.06612944766110357,0.0,0.0865729546366248,0.0,0.0,0.06864723997019018,0.0932802345282316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08207571021386872,0.0,0.0587382287139729,0.0,0.0,0.06938037896271125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06239547440294607,0.20010406880080256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927073039163046,0.0,0.053174359320803125,0.08153375505689127,0.06588196295913545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929709885245102,0.0,0.11268468953301645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982246836979,0.0716736386670747,0.0,0.0,0.04894755187745666,0.32935386322864485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208302320367456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016752136159352,0.0
EDAnonymous,ActualLakeOfDietCoke,2018/12/21,"Can somebody share with me some successful recovery stories? Especially regarding bulimia Ideally, I'd like to read something like ""I am now 50 years old, haven't had issues with my eating for the last three decades and everything is just peachy. Here's what helped"".

Things have been progressively becoming less and less fun to me in regards of my eating disorder. I used to think I will inevitably snap out of it sooner or later but it's not looking like that anymore. It's now a Problem with a capital P that affects very badly my finances, the quality of my life and my mental well-being. 

I want to stop it and recover more than anything now. I want to know it is possible and has been done by others.

If any of you know of any good self-help resources on bingeing and bulimia please share those as well.
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EDAnonymous,MentalCanOWorms,2018/12/21,"I need to relapse at the worst possible time So I haven’t been on r/proED in so long I didn’t realize it was gone until recently. I’ve been trying to erase any triggering material, as I’m triggered super easily, and I’ve been doing well on keeping on track in recovery.

Except for my grades. I’m dropping out of my honors class for the first time in my life, with probably a D on my transcript. I’ve never made below a high B before, and I want to cry just typing this.

I still weigh ~120 lbs, but fuck, I need to relapse. My stomach is huge and fatty, and the holidays are coming up. I’m officially done with exams and everything, but my parents work from home during Christmas break... which means I won’t be able to skip meals, and I’ll have to eat in front of family.

I’m just devastated because I don’t want to wait through Christmas break and risk deciding not to relapse. I want to lose this weight, and I want to suffer like hell for the grades I got this semester. I want the people at my new school to think I’m actually pretty, and not just tell me so out of pity, or as a joke. 

I want to be thin again. And I’m not going to be until next year because of this stupid situation. 

I want to purge, but my gag reflex is shit and I’d wake up my parents. Just came to rant and say this whole thing fucking sucks.",3.034709090909093,4.005964643636368,4.747772727272724,85.51365909090909,73.47272727272727,7.972727272727273,25.022727272727273,8.395991825355821,1.4305818181818182,1027,31,223,17,20,349,151,275,0.18600000000000005,0.7,0.115,-0.9864,2,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,5,10,16,6,1,8,0,17,10,3,3,1,49,45,23,0,9,12,2,2,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,8,18,4,2,4,2,0,5,8,11,1,1,10,3,24,5,46,31,2,39,1,3,0,2,4,18,5,1,14,136,32,8,0.12052942965860855,0.0,0.11761933676754907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196414529810947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694724321233568,0.0,0.102561667227512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785355812301436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382543124582944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239591885398094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12334345346491965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233316967458578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083240795946684,0.0,0.11362441943759775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252227129512474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285503106805796,0.0,0.0,0.0684996524767837,0.0,0.09639839547093153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734595995920486,0.12090084531658787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713209507334198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513350064658286,0.058884591154542074,0.0,0.0,0.10666475240790838,0.0,0.1348416015538843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404786062266482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129188331130914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787420897380009,0.09295972655636382,0.11640807423069915,0.12818441581849707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26766733587910485,0.0,0.0,0.08355993045477797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358788220604948,0.0,0.12262176107493784,0.1299511108418966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900827100913787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584984016160077,0.0,0.12198221757365475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372172749011652,0.0,0.13548012892141625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625495821957618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534803407128236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007439739741719,0.07723039176017273,0.0,0.0,0.14056335941186454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183157097864263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4976396629574253,0.0,0.0,0.14677237450678288,0.10837043226567998,0.0,0.0,0.1345668038597556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087746860290046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761700098756648
EDAnonymous,UFObeamin,2018/12/21,"Compulsive water drinking Does anyone else feel they *need*  to drink when they eat? For me its water cause thats basically the only thing I drink, but I feel like I've trained my body and mind to not be able to properly enjoy a meal without taking a drink between just about every bite or downing the rest of my glass halfway through  meal so I can enjoy what's left in peace. 

​

I try not to, but then I feel as though I'm eating to fast and wasting my meal. I know ED's can bring a lot worse habits but this one just frustrates me because it's such a strong compulsion over something s stupid. ",3.162540983606561,4.859653614754102,3.676196721311477,90.43560655737707,74.327868852459,6.191475409836067,25.31475409836065,6.742157984588678,0.8467252459016397,479,16,99,4,10,150,86,122,0.121,0.721,0.158,0.7096,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,1,7,6,2,0,6,0,3,12,1,1,0,19,11,11,0,1,9,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,11,0,4,4,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,3,13,4,15,10,2,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,61,19,0,0.15093040067908814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353302607773665,0.18339695698068573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10553404546142912,0.1546460316252906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200577136864088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16764965033123122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15504709718973295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208021073629175,0.0,0.0,0.5914173314474142,0.0,0.3088789594210879,0.12608298280136968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271653721469356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22894483660341616,0.10782470840246057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294740104224987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639863219542215,0.0,0.0,0.07373696998278759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283156293351563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239667926509995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111912979671381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227434560962127,0.1147893709007788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619359623498095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348087779055073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002714516907657,0.0,0.14828835235170368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247183472939997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549152029073267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538109726368573,0.0,0.0,0.18339695698068573,0.0
EDAnonymous,spoopygayleo,2018/12/21,"Why do I keep bingeing I used to be able to fast for weeks at a time and now I’m lucky if I can make myself skip lunch, I feel so out of control and have gained a whole 20 fucking pounds I feel disgusting and like I’m not even hungry most times it’s just people constantly offer me food and I always take it. Why am I so pathetic I have no self control. I wasn’t anywhere near my goal weight but I’d give just about anything to drop this 20 pounds at least,  at least that way I didn’t look so obese. I’m almost back at my starting weight and I feel so extremely gross ugh. ",0.29601230769230824,2.242543672000004,1.9424000000000028,98.26258461538464,84.28,5.126153846153846,18.415384615384614,6.297961479604792,-0.3320276923076926,449,11,108,4,13,146,83,125,0.158,0.7959999999999999,0.045,-0.9398,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,4,10,6,2,0,2,0,8,6,0,4,0,22,22,11,0,1,5,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,5,3,3,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,6,15,2,12,19,4,16,0,0,1,1,3,6,1,4,9,63,19,1,0.16959760801075988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982750609905586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411187960460626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956438074013214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304100919246932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18327476360557046,0.3804362771227757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201762057797122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572609393445641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20507810080546884,0.0,0.0,0.15679025574650074,0.0,0.16269347950541072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074614653934365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285682456797895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241927647998187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320772029419132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757762706432605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17692729301914967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004205986411373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275162945413513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19778745819781868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464778801119196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461868712008007,0.13604097117621733,0.41304839339098187,0.0,0.0,0.3060709240185325,0.1893496726642614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheMaddOne15,2018/12/21,"So I'm taller than I thought??? So i had a doctor's appointment today to start getting a mental health care plan and referrals for an eating disorder clinic/psychologist cos trying recovery i guess?? Anyway, as part of the consult the doctor measured my height and weight, and turns out I'm 3cm taller than i thought??? Plus their scales showed me at about 1.5kg lighter than my scales at home???


So apparently my bmi is a solid chunk smaller than what i had previously believed, and I'm way closer to being underweight, which is kinda scary but also like im kinda thrilled (or the ED part of my brain space is). 


Nows its just a struggle to not want to try and get to underweight before my next appt, but at the same time it feels like its so close so why not just reach it and then recover after?? Ugh how come this eating disorder makes my brain so dumb 😒",3.882130177514792,5.407863366863909,4.631479289940831,85.01159763313613,72.13609467455622,7.803550295857987,25.42603550295858,8.384062270229773,1.5575940828402377,675,21,135,11,13,217,109,169,0.133,0.79,0.076,-0.8738,2,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,1,13,7,1,1,9,0,6,8,2,3,0,28,21,20,0,1,7,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,7,10,3,0,3,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,2,13,4,20,16,3,19,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,4,9,82,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389546878286347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119132039737053,0.16046173416335294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179819134590114,0.0,0.0,0.1452095456070715,0.0,0.0,0.12268463884851102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264577557553893,0.29155155966198143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29146817869725805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201325148207685,0.10174688310116888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488200786808469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568947808397361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138878581870033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286168972441513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384107343667852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391611807021011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506833083983073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352869312049996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146827296545792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084600459702513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080759715149823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889124311903332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261356028924505,0.08304788517539036,0.0,0.13500016972960066,0.0,0.0,0.1933914766633698,0.15491511829169122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400466270854576,0.11304859643050415,0.0,0.1734326122534297,0.0,0.0,0.1285144325379527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,t14u,2019/06/27,"I need help identifying a disordered eating habit. Since I started working I feel nauseous more and more often. I feel like I can’t keep any food down and I certainly have no appetite except for drinks/liquids. Well not an appetite but it’s the only thing I crave or actually consume. For example, I drink soda, beer, water, lemonade, basically any drink with little to no nutritional value. When I do eat which is sometimes less than once a day, I eat very little. Like a burger at work or some leftovers from my family’s lunches and dinners. There have been days where I don’t eat anything at all. Just drinking soda, etc. So I’m trying to figure out what to call this? I tried google but it shows me liquid diet results which is not what I’m looking for. I’m concerned but mostly for nutrition. I feel like I’m getting no nutrients so I’m looking into fruit and veggie smoothies bc it’s liquids but even that sounds unappetizing.",2.511833333333336,5.182438738888892,4.1122222222222256,81.61000000000003,81.05555555555556,6.044444444444442,26.222222222222207,7.365786028017652,1.684355555555555,743,31,130,11,20,247,116,180,0.043,0.855,0.10099999999999999,0.8296,0,0,5,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,0,0,5,0,8,16,0,1,2,29,22,13,0,1,10,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,7,16,1,4,5,0,0,7,0,1,0,1,7,15,5,16,21,7,12,0,0,2,0,2,8,0,5,7,85,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.12385245101792587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726154996235454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10444168050056163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959620338171762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16370162289022566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454576039460198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729903249305985,0.0,0.5194701262552387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415457377254098,0.08382732382570902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964582720481685,0.0,0.19251878373127854,0.18133871919356265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15346825148651794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630876945743011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506962977594237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128094488726928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860153562018036,0.2544078740057653,0.0,0.0,0.2131562292952045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941071703110691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13516220861716927,0.0,0.09652591601957447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498685642833272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552392213028118,0.0,0.08983233685034285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431785668927298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723362997086461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471961983046096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141134104547992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479382752391224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,numberedtables,2019/06/27,"I force my boyfriend to absolute honesty and it hurts I'm really insecure about my body, always have been, except for a couple of months I've been thin, but sadly I've gained it all back.

I have a boyfriend for over a year now and one time we kind of got to that topic. He said something like how Emma Stone is probably the prettiest woman he's ever seen. Ow, that hurt, for an insecure ball of sadness like me, I'm telling you. I've been failing at losing weight for like three years now. I often talk to my boyfriend about this topic and I force him to be super honest and then, of course, he tells me he'd like me thinner and he thinks other girls' bodies are prettier than me. Of course he's right and I agree, but it still hurts somehow? I don't know how to deal. I love him but it's hard. I hate being in my own skin. I need to lose the weight again ASAP.",2.038139963167588,3.512405779005526,3.3281546961325965,92.69341068139963,76.84530386740332,6.3736279926335175,20.90644567219153,7.0316486544052195,0.3093974953959484,670,16,151,7,15,218,108,181,0.19,0.602,0.20800000000000002,0.7153,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,0,5,12,19,1,2,6,0,11,6,3,2,2,20,21,12,0,1,4,0,5,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,8,7,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,11,0,2,6,7,22,8,22,12,2,16,0,8,1,1,18,5,0,2,15,92,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11627792643899253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745425485894952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104474244694237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546237107163819,0.0,0.0,0.14406958562272884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640614821584614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11176577715656363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251828781078288,0.13796794096601833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4487954606441039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552152592598158,0.0767994653407332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27308678991108154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126748389759261,0.0,0.0,0.12612411636085827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154206259512428,0.0,0.0,0.1036181591641738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469392605672446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506673096025025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952337208591116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11934032895754415,0.1329282292815895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075815029131324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11159947380895484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11232066697243027,0.24428425063243925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954209987638669,0.0,0.0,0.0814856566214411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.340340281012486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17998068107996704
EDAnonymous,birbword,2019/06/27,"I'm wearing waist trainer and just had a cup of coffee... and I feel so good. I haven't had anything else to eat. I thought I was going to be starving by now because I usually have around 600 calories by now. But I feel great! By the time I get to dinner, I usually have to purge my meal, but I think I'll actually keep it in. Or not, idk.",0.21341698841698786,1.82096285135135,2.884208494208494,93.21310810810814,82.64864864864866,5.850193050193052,24.08494208494209,6.868970318607317,0.6899752895752891,257,10,62,3,7,90,51,74,0.028999999999999998,0.8690000000000001,0.102,0.5799,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,7,5,2,0,0,13,15,6,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,10,2,10,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.25113809551214084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21177848736479365,0.22909753800323704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687918251927727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633349948082778,0.21498428823795165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602494624273481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344556198963101,0.0,0.1462588783361444,0.21585436138864308,0.0,0.28373111229764103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287459788871019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649005515193271,0.0,0.20430847058437546,0.15006382178148633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5668729874784849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sixtynineisfine,2019/06/27,"TW numbers & rambling : DEA wish they were taller so your BMI is lower? I’ve had a casual on/ off ED forever. Mainly just a  binge and then restrict cycle. The only control I’ve ever gotten on it is by trying to stay pregnant and or breastfeeding. I realize these two things would probably be huge triggers to restrict more for “normal” people with an ED  but for whatever reason, it helps me recover for a while. I’ve had 3 kids in roughly 4.5 years and my most recent baby is 14 months old and I can feel they are nearing that stage where they will wean from breastfeeding. My partner and I want more kids but we’re young (23) and need to wait 3-5 years so we don’t fuck ourselves financially.  I absolutely hate my body and cannot stop fixating on wanting to lose weight. 

NOW, to actually address my title. I’m 5’3” and fluctuate between 102 & 105 lbs so my BMI is around 18.7 and 18.2  

I worked really hard to get where I am and the number sounds low to my brain but i don’t look skinny enough to have an ED and I equally hate myself for wanting to look like I do. I wish I were taller so my 102-105 lbs would be more stretched out and look thinner.",2.932806270996643,4.5007557319148965,4.247301231802911,86.64105263157896,74.65957446808511,7.330347144456887,25.13437849944009,8.032893268588372,1.385510638297872,907,30,188,14,19,299,145,235,0.122,0.794,0.084,-0.9221,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,1,3,3,10,7,3,0,7,0,21,5,3,3,1,41,38,22,0,9,5,0,4,1,1,3,0,1,1,3,5,16,2,5,3,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,5,8,25,2,25,28,7,28,0,2,3,1,9,15,1,2,12,118,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.1351324983720492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000771492888242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327290536360012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15381550246232786,0.0,0.15458489582268986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15531249136274838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14308261672919814,0.0,0.0,0.12525937514461707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0700175733714803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801873378406922,0.07234793988422449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404720270264301,0.2734325556045453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281747363679163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765232772954488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34885462788367444,0.15491910601805092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053013844824644,0.0,0.0,0.10267812170320396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567697612461788,0.0,0.0,0.1453071579078105,0.0,0.0,0.1053171582973986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960017500223158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493004361093584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871120437253031,0.14237628344066286,0.13672824069893638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475968795280893,0.0,0.11577204896578168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199723169102828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401604307553413,0.0,0.13527082832078252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24503001240845074,0.0,0.0,0.1686263347862348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184808910781376,0.0,0.0,0.10081210097903318,0.0,0.0,0.19673860583044211,0.0,0.0,0.17834787285570616
EDAnonymous,pinkSoftBarbieDoll,2019/06/27,"Do you think Billie Eilish has body dysmorphia? She says she wears only things that are way too big so nobody can look at her figure:

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EDAnonymous,kissmeplz,2019/06/27,"My boyfriend is bulimic, please help. I’m not sure if this is the right place to post this but I’m very concerned :( It was suggested to me that I post this question here, I hope you guys can help.

I’ve been with my new boyfriend for a few months now, and pretty quickly realized he eats a whole WHOLE lot. This combined with his complaints about his weight, and frequent bathroom trips made me start to wonder.

One night we went out to dinner and I used the bathroom after him, only to see residue from the me he has just eaten in the bathroom sink. On other occasions he claimed he had eaten too much and wasn’t feeling well and would head for the bathroom. Finally, one night I was waiting for him to come back from the bathroom and when he kissed me he just reeked of vomit, so I flat out asked him if he throws up his food. He denied it, but several weeks later admitted to me that he was, in fact, bulimic and throws up after every single meal.

He told me that no one else in his life had ever noticed(ex gfs family etc) and that if anything they just thought he sometimes ate too much and felt sick. Anyways, that was about 8 months ago and now we’ve had open conversations about his eating disorder. He gets very emotional when the topic comes up, and apparently this is something that’s been going on for about 5 years, but to be honest I’m not certain if he’s being truthful with me.

I have tried giving him information about the permanent damage he is doing to his body. I’ve tried talking to him and being open and understanding, I’ve tried distracting him after meals to keep his mind off of purging. Nothing seems to help, and I realize that I have no concept of how he is feeling or how deeply seeded his struggle with this is. I love him very much and want to help him because I see how much he struggles with this every day. He is always asking if he looks fat, saying he hates himself and hates his body.

I just want to help him, but I feel like he is partially in denial. He’s told me the last time he visited the doctor/dentist they told him he is perfectly healthy but I know there are lifelong harmful affects caused by bulimia. His eating disorder is slowly robbing him of his life and it’s eroding our relationship as well as he is always more focused on himself/food/how he looks or feels more than anything else.

Can anyone please give me some advice here, I feel incredible guilty for not doing more as I’m the only one who knows about this? Is there any type of free help he can get as we’re not exactly in the position to afford professional counceling.

TLDR: Bulimic bf purges after every meal, it’s been going on for several years. I’m the only person in his life who knows about this and I want to help him.",4.92908774087741,5.742544776752768,5.39089175891759,83.22814985649858,68.94464944649447,8.236244362443625,28.70869208692088,8.344100000000001,1.9079530955309552,2167,74,427,30,36,694,240,542,0.1,0.7440000000000001,0.156,0.9851,2,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,2,1,2,1,31,20,2,3,15,0,36,23,4,7,7,92,88,40,0,10,20,0,7,1,1,1,6,1,0,2,23,30,13,2,18,0,1,9,7,8,2,4,21,13,56,13,67,63,14,58,0,1,4,2,85,20,0,13,28,275,79,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066510575771308,0.060333924152021275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132680772627846,0.0,0.0,0.04628531309393997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04759137518326824,0.0,0.11202043599951084,0.0,0.12725981683032742,0.0,0.0,0.05233640302299451,0.0,0.041490697765692315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15120575305100808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991965996537203,0.0,0.11726084801709985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043895136218848885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601265831211605,0.06966557396172128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20893695081648891,0.11371614747619252,0.07656194408371349,0.0,0.0,0.07590846479048924,0.0,0.061567065225038936,0.17203855617502986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416393179796474,0.0,0.17207400650386087,0.048624366944063385,0.06535135012245034,0.07455991370264121,0.0,0.0,0.16460459426933366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112043036469934,0.13058485561877275,0.0773637753479299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06739327340550233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439664668706894,0.06985248412321632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319349319184727,0.0,0.0,0.06760211967327118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06049770353664322,0.0,0.0,0.11221727167432907,0.055480595998977006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422516276642422,0.033252243747358294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431189936441187,0.0,0.0,0.057864902561690426,0.06142969948882548,0.0644030498630213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872443397652495,0.0,0.10865480105292084,0.0,0.2001371472448514,0.0,0.0,0.06573586710181664,0.0,0.12774541352094632,0.0,0.06530848045913479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448555562326746,0.15529540236151348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059430164909830836,0.07111156226040348,0.14942591924098175,0.0,0.0,0.1303714711399991,0.06924474821083393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624636611387861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307440976431688,0.0,0.05812560481125125,0.0,0.054126592130597374,0.0,0.0,0.10847512373804788,0.061962185164809586,0.0,0.15378409548501046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052398380144853006,0.0673162496907886,0.0,0.048175486513625285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423088790440689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414876481173673,0.0,0.0,0.05470662564453177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05403458169439096,0.03968820193421956,0.0,0.0,0.1951119262518945,0.0,0.13863134434964236,0.0,0.0,0.07085619633459536,0.0,0.05878475549206873,0.0,0.1684778157755923,0.12043632453559695,0.0,0.054596197196376144,0.08288264683148168,0.12239398994033812,0.06309527253191739,0.0,0.1519802744491806,0.0,0.0,0.07381164197361179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048350147697374134,0.0,0.0,0.08766094440577359
EDAnonymous,JustShitMyPantsOops,2019/06/27,"I fucking picked up vaping to decrease my apettite Long story short, my throat hurts even more and Oreos are just as delicious and easy to purge.",12.479999999999995,8.582725148148153,10.673333333333336,66.63000000000001,56.77777777777778,13.762962962962966,41.81481481481481,11.20814326018867,4.571992592592592,117,4,20,2,1,36,24,27,0.095,0.703,0.20199999999999999,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680711692913884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5151865614387036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5965683962543051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4931658644310262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spiky_pineapples,2019/06/27,"Friend physically attacked me, still trying to recover. So I was over at a friend's house watching a movie.  She knows about my disordered eating habits (or lack thereof), and usually asks if I've eaten that day.  A week ago, I hadn't had solid food, but I'd been able to drink a giant glass of chocolate milk, something I'd not voluntarily done for a long while.  So when she asked, I shared that as a victory.  She got mad at me for being happy about ""only having had liquid today"".  She kept bringing it up, I kept asking her to drop it and I'd try to eat later that night.

So I was leaving their house and she made another shitty comment, I said ""Hey, I've at least had chocolate milk today, okay?"" And she turned around and started choking me.  Hard.  Then texted a bunch of mutual friends telling them it was because I wasnt taking care of myself and she was ""so at the end of (her) rope"".  I hadnt told anyone what she'd done, but seems everyone I know knows now.

A week later, I'm drinking another chocolate milk.  Because fuck you, D, you're not gonna stop me.  I can still feel fingers around my neck, still having nightmares and flashbacks to my shit-awful childhood THAT YOU KNEW ABOUT before attacking me, but Imma keep going because you're not going to be the reason I stop trying.

(Fr though I'm only posting this because there's no way she's on this sub, don't have the courage to say that to her face. Or really the desire to talk to her ever again.)",3.5064629227427844,4.79465820819113,4.585660874961217,85.90680654669563,72.72013651877133,6.965497983245424,25.2635743096494,7.348242739294969,1.137875085324232,1137,35,229,12,22,372,165,293,0.136,0.787,0.077,-0.9495,0,0,3,0,0,0,47.0,0,2,2,0,18,12,4,0,12,1,21,13,3,2,1,34,49,22,0,3,9,0,3,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,11,9,9,5,7,2,0,3,8,4,0,0,21,6,37,8,29,24,3,41,0,0,1,1,31,10,1,4,25,144,48,0,0.09697984139882143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596677797125933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033836390696129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06781055999968234,0.0,0.0,0.17266523953063329,0.27198918117485105,0.22065714011127266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23647204472950914,0.0,0.08252270212756636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887741167371274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0625439747601358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114730018248206,0.0,0.0,0.19848809686550226,0.0,0.19000664791924587,0.0,0.19846917758988272,0.0,0.0,0.08589535433740224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772381874593599,0.0,0.09266839443637402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04903592172944008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726840917015816,0.0,0.22477915468749415,0.08965630066086544,0.0,0.0,0.11023175753654453,0.0,0.07756363844375078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032368445018686,0.08687488911120181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380343242298034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620013898982311,0.0,0.0,0.15989275377249518,0.0,0.0,0.10268764925768643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582410786032198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176467080603136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100901155816828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751507892565238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287988035586177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06212776971084837,0.0997114289277648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225003733049887,0.07712226236615663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828680530137198,0.0,0.0,0.09954841355812173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07465981991518307,0.0,0.0,0.06864283089459013,0.0,0.2323446798452007,0.16215897975851118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729167714417356,0.07794872298527113,0.08476465594210914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952822017807927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385110018173306,0.09266839443637402,0.0,0.1975288391574584,0.1054862189794189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680959409200996,0.0,0.0,0.07697808406233331,0.15558275807255684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Heckmylifeintopieces,2019/06/27,"My gf left little notes all over the apartment reminding me to eat I've struggled with bulimia since my early teens (25 now) and because I'm overweight I've been able to convince my girlfriend that I just have a sensitive stomach and everything makes me barf. 

Recently I started ""intermittent fasting"" (binge/restrict cycle let's be real here) and she's really against it, telling me I'm losing weight too fast and I'm tired and lethargic all the time so we can't do our usual weekend activities (hiking, longboarding) and she's worried. 

She herself has dealt with disordered eating in the past so I think she knows what's up. When I woke up this morning she had put little notes all over the apartment reminding me to eat, and had prepared my favorite breakfast in the fridge for me. But I'm doing a 48 hour fast so I can't eat it.

I feel like I don't deserve her, all I do is make her worried and upset and she won't understand why I can't just eat the damn fruit salad she stood there and cut up for me before work, and I don't have the heart to throw it out.

At the same time I feel way too fat to have an ED, and I feel like I don't really have one because some days I'm able to turn off the ED brain and just eat what I want without overdoing it and purging, and without getting anxiety over the calories.",5.222611940298506,5.250123462686566,5.912649253731345,82.5053917910448,68.1044776119403,8.938805970149254,32.421641791044784,8.660442795831766,2.4423164179104484,1040,42,213,15,16,340,142,268,0.096,0.847,0.057999999999999996,-0.8652,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,2,0,0,2,12,8,2,2,13,0,21,16,4,2,4,41,40,20,0,1,6,0,4,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,8,19,12,0,6,1,0,2,9,5,0,1,5,5,36,3,24,32,6,34,0,1,0,0,15,16,1,1,17,137,44,1,0.20700025893257187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917731574939663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618543653835568,0.0,0.08807098703107044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554037403231054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06674902115367705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862011519906285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6354388276779487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301924263742403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569983258672577,0.1478810263420368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0540745458358259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226481517512428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192677901086893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05688096439244589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245319350241134,0.1058358947275908,0.0,0.10112987052750284,0.2074686403696828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579017056496613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13817428022084505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013436633075948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880258485932927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404621704119567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780580639463775,0.13260966641676836,0.0,0.10219389149930218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561637663533828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07325792434848001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820080760553254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046367510640307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06631870380993671,0.0,0.0,0.12070351563556896,0.1189581733373831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257842004896833,0.0,0.10774728490251463,0.0,0.0,0.11399077021896252,0.0,0.06104705795510337,0.08215358523585876,0.0,0.1260352745927165,0.0,0.0,0.0933927684280019,0.0,0.0,0.19954086278953326,0.0,0.07534932693204874,0.2102188109777095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yoshiIsMySon01,2019/06/27,"How to deal with people telling you to eat more and making you feel bad?? I'm not anorexic, but I'm pretty sure I have some kind of an eating disorder. Ever since I was a kid I've been eating very little. When I find a new food I like I will eat that for two weeks or so. I'm VERY picky. Eating outside is hell... and the worst thing is people telling me to eat more and talking about my eating habits all the time. Especially people that don't even know me. It's so f""""king annoying. Like can't they mind their own business? They act like they care so much about me because I don't eat every 10 mins like others do. When I'm hungry, I eat.  When I'm not, I don't. It's that easy. Don't force me to put that stuff into my mouth or I'll throw up. Don't ask me why I'm not underweight if I eat that little. Be happy that I'm not. I've been eating like that my WHOLE LIFE.   Stop ruining my good moment by interrupting me and telling me to eat your junk. It's gotten worse since I'm taking ADHD meds. My mom doesn't want me to tell anyone that I'm taking them so they don't know that my appetite is completely gone because of the meds. How do I make people stop telling me to eat all the time? I'm sick of hearing them talk about my eating habits 24/7 as if I'm some kid from the streets that's been starving for months. Please give me some advice )—: it's making me so anxious and I'm scared to leave the house",1.360499369482973,2.8059088393442657,2.9128688524590167,95.07253152585122,78.63934426229507,5.6103404791929385,19.27175283732661,6.093298490706669,-0.26827112232030315,1096,23,259,7,26,360,142,305,0.159,0.722,0.12,-0.8993,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,3,7,0,15,16,2,1,9,0,20,18,1,5,4,36,47,21,0,3,9,1,1,5,0,1,2,1,0,2,17,7,15,2,4,0,0,4,12,6,0,1,6,2,38,10,22,39,11,22,1,1,0,0,24,5,1,7,18,144,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854980688298654,0.05573786142132632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06443784694046527,0.0,0.03988300272630743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332377560060224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04762519167830074,0.06954090339828106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058155073182869735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05980431783896231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588047157841896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537164825390628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8171120730546474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03767372882915205,0.05159505101008829,0.04805782685438476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028840637800829506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052132622720931776,0.0,0.06897179853204369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054717016818721806,0.0,0.047841616243700036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060719087863935775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428711088546309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06581536050966469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939735257494134,0.06269429751211905,0.0,0.0,0.0603960768842138,0.0,0.0,0.040288340325424575,0.13933189815641042,0.11433614745022802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422194830753027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267149654311079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057593141133129376,0.06680340032760701,0.04552799441004133,0.0,0.041930236090383384,0.0,0.0,0.05508863227301037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158174673432322,0.0,0.0,0.06261170560337449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802918009913046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733996035286576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057106000564166315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436651867664872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537433449648884,0.0,0.0,0.06529602115089844,0.0,0.0,0.05375859285476636,0.0,0.08577247538489281,0.09169159291261754,0.24927304862616426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037894184418574416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06651981203943924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055718825671370126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412631539538023,0.033643086527776166,0.0,0.045753254097911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05146883559241475,0.0636820188202152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05812762520559121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,refinedglow,2019/06/27,during my binges i eat some disgusting shit like why is my fat ass crying in bed unable to stop eating ketchup and crackers like only my binge self would ever i stg.. wow i’m actually disgusting wtf,1.6723076923076905,4.377655205128208,3.4878974358974415,83.94876923076926,86.69230769230771,6.196923076923077,20.620512820512825,7.554174236665415,1.1489035897435893,159,5,29,3,5,53,33,39,0.39799999999999996,0.45,0.152,-0.9349,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,5,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,4,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.2721416763778929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063309851314734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5707172923322894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522583149469416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724883814179977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21209692972226024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29092734337110665,0.0,0.28626107958822106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331519054469588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516412230367809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19810472922485534,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,insecureslut,2019/06/27,Oops. When ur at school and realise you took one too many laxatives last night😍😍💦💦,-0.07105263157894726,1.8189568947368429,1.778157894736843,99.2346052631579,85.3157894736842,5.905263157894738,20.026315789473685,7.1686216300943375,0.1712947368421056,67,2,17,1,2,22,17,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,6,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35437882472612897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407677028646763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40798290548772254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945974768454448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4399896507594275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4830226323763876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,happyfoodanddrinks,2019/06/27,Being forced to eat lunch drives me insane I’m basically forced to eat lunch everyday and it makes me feel so out of control that I end up binging every single day afterwards. Fml.,3.916190476190476,6.022526142857148,5.142857142857146,78.9704761904762,73.28571428571428,8.095238095238095,25.952380952380953,8.841846274778883,2.157952380952381,145,5,26,3,3,48,29,35,0.225,0.775,0.0,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,0,5,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,3,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951201109137355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22719613480934595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7209556188288714,0.0,0.0,0.31202194261525384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29681720548925944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17812702065176858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351544775762611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ombrebadhombre,2019/06/27,"Pregnant I’ve been recovering for about two years. 

I’m finally at a healthy BMI again but I still have obsessive thoughts about calorie intake and food. 

My husband and I got pregnant last year but lost the baby at 18 weeks in June of 2018.  I was good and ate what my body needed to grow a baby but after I lost them I got obsessive again about weight loss (obesity runs in my family) and got into some really unhealthy eating (or lack thereof ) habits.  I’m pregnant again (finally! 😁)  and so far I think I’m doing good eating health but also not depriving myself of cravings.  There’s such a pressure to look healthy during pregnancy and look perfection postpartum.  I’m so so hoping i can keep this up during postpartum.",3.4344314381270884,5.826152398550729,4.62536231884058,80.80821070234116,75.73913043478261,8.014269788182832,27.282051282051288,8.841846274778883,2.4674285395763658,573,23,102,13,13,188,88,138,0.154,0.675,0.171,0.6974,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,4,13,11,0,3,4,0,5,8,1,0,1,21,22,15,0,3,6,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,6,1,2,0,0,2,1,7,0,1,9,3,12,4,15,13,2,21,0,4,2,0,2,7,0,3,12,63,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259414015247482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749313102892429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32229474374419936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846367199984994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450361678938498,0.0,0.0,0.1904325515011994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641833689459706,0.3778675350953444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16740012631657655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641901361763946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399806863907498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837201175083818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644969511275526,0.0,0.3438288836911746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677378469688995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088948753409473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576842738737734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091059305257218,0.0,0.12502619756197075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538408213948476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632567372155676,0.19177537518140075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20283148698609926
EDAnonymous,fudgeturnip,2019/06/27,"found out that my scale at home is not one but TWO pounds lighter after joining the gym today this is my worst nightmare, honestly.",4.602,6.527587799999999,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,71.0,6.6000000000000005,28.5,7.1686216300943375,1.4481999999999997,105,4,20,1,2,31,23,25,0.17300000000000001,0.7040000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.3919,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,2,1,3,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5157102006070607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4717954687733063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187186770398695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44583308852721615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4594597770371638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oddfrey,2019/06/27,My friend saw my fridge and I'm so embarrassed... All that's in there is stacks of picked at food that's I can't bring myself to finish and half a dozen BANGs. Instead of getting upset with me he ate my leftover chinese and told me to try harder. I'm kind of horrified but ate some broccoli beef and didn't feel too guilty!,1.9684313725490201,3.724463294117648,2.885882352941177,94.55813725490198,77.82352941176471,5.7098039215686285,21.62745098039216,6.42735559955562,0.18316862745098075,256,7,57,2,6,81,52,68,0.064,0.8540000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.2945,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,3,3,0,1,1,10,12,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,5,2,7,2,8,7,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,1,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22508886447786852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5382954399201088,0.0,0.34393347368259997,0.0,0.2325804059140145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635709770503277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253743570225908,0.0,0.30223790056674665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Freepurrs,2019/06/27,"2 days, 1 hour, 18 minutes since my last binge That’s the longest I’ve gone sans binge in 2019. (I had been in recovery for 2 yrs prior & relapsed hard and long). Honestly, sometimes you just have to celebrate the hours b/c it’s really hard. 

(Background: I’m in therapy & on medication, and have been for years. I have treatment-resistant depression and lifelong anxiety that only seems to “pause” during & immediately after a binge. When in ED recovery, I compensate with other self-soothing, unhealthy behaviors like spending too much, excessive cleaning etc. am working on healthy coping skillz)",5.731453790238838,8.19735171962617,6.360685358255452,70.63506749740395,69.18691588785046,9.989200415368641,36.18795430944964,10.25414643259724,4.534691381100727,482,26,74,14,9,157,82,107,0.107,0.7829999999999999,0.11,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,0,0,6,10,4,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,5,2,12,6,2,16,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,10,39,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5866135646552727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805812778636492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638743754860552,0.0,0.15543750145750385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20127040183144174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233291702278142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3554508042700944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471061479293818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816793330361747,0.0,0.0,0.15970919712196946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180331622304866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13266532315779578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725464444642296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156129258651519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642920053896014,0.1882683032066199,0.0,0.0,0.1492856451908343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784882445251119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063817854910306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138342601972644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621598167062608
EDAnonymous,uwselfdoubt,2019/06/27,"For anyone in a bingeing phase **TW - Do not read this if you are in a restrictive phase because it will do the opposite of helping you & might make you paranoid**  
**TW TW TW TW TW**

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Something that crossed my mind today that has helped me to flip the switch back from bingeing alone every night to feeling in control again is that:  
*There is no point in saying ""no"" to food in public if you're only going to say ""yes"" to it in private.*

The only difference is how ashamed you feel about it.  
The results are the exact same.

Even in the height of my binge-y phases, I still try to avoid eating in front of other people out of embarrassment, but I feel like this is counter-productive.  
It doesn't matter if I eat in front of people or not - if I'm overeating, people will see it show on my body anyway.  
Might as well eat in front of people to maintain a show of normalcy & cut out eating alone altogether.

This is my new goal. Never eating alone.",0.6939893617021298,3.1898810159574538,2.2183319148936214,92.5522,89.90425531914894,4.49736170212766,19.22212765957447,6.152001189255117,0.046333361702127984,733,22,148,7,25,237,107,188,0.091,0.863,0.046,-0.6918,0,4,1,0,0,1,38.0,0,4,0,2,9,6,1,3,9,1,15,7,1,4,2,26,22,8,0,4,8,0,3,1,0,4,0,2,0,0,12,2,6,3,3,3,0,5,6,4,1,0,0,6,12,2,32,18,1,28,0,0,1,0,9,16,0,7,8,100,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470039817213813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420129666385014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809005934783478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587591349019677,0.0,0.06807979467769368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12405258499063615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125259910259069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668303544177618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5713885070696402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376434869539468,0.0,0.09409618871829444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940804078504998,0.0797850384820935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350452942988042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347097331215977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497150463070427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05456177044013622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454803727935673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23695211039133224,0.11276612846774728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613539061916241,0.10786235412392473,0.0,0.10480519721114873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987709979181248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097025998874185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557478873770927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117113761556822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762667187059555,0.0,0.0,0.08899542005087907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597760832682423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08918871356885215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058606751251096,0.0,0.0,0.07582417238449336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041476949818763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,deathbygummibear,2019/06/27,"Hunger is so annoying I’ve already eaten my calories today in my first two meals. I just got home from work and I’m starving. It’s so annoying how you can eat then your stomach is hungry again like two hours later.  Like, I just fed you, what more do you want from me? This is why we’re fat. Ugh.",-0.8095238095238102,1.345233444444446,1.187619047619048,99.01571428571432,95.50793650793648,4.06984126984127,16.523809523809526,5.82211442006289,-0.6060285714285718,229,6,53,2,9,75,49,63,0.196,0.7090000000000001,0.095,-0.7919,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,0,2,6,5,2,0,0,0,5,7,2,1,0,5,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,9,2,3,7,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,8,32,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064602070183552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841669536886211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362202279533013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22211028554884127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785660606193505,0.0,0.2734886918697213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713504367343125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632368799295504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5425651943418129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638007222896345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505903386267352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021763961923346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qtcarat,2019/06/27,"im never eating again :( when i fast for long i get this sort of good feeling. i love nothing more than the feeling of my stomach being empty honestly. after a 20 hour fast i decided to have a small bowl of cereal which was ~160 calories because its kind of all we had in the house but i'm so mad at myself for it. i hate eating, having food in my stomach, its so gross to me. my mental health is on the decline so fast idk whats going on at this point and i cant tell anyone but restricting and losing weight is all i've got at this point. thats all.",0.9192589763177992,2.611936739495804,3.2055614973262045,91.34866310160429,80.76470588235293,5.671810542398777,20.06187929717341,6.574015621080383,0.1726235294117644,428,11,95,4,11,147,80,119,0.204,0.7170000000000001,0.079,-0.9687,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,1,5,8,2,0,5,0,8,8,2,0,4,14,16,8,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,3,4,1,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,3,12,4,17,12,4,20,0,1,0,1,3,10,0,1,9,65,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374709615279118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660222723434575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914534281770241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343335723872168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312959691977101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993566062952863,0.0,0.10870856599916333,0.16043619613501225,0.15298371535267166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884893699591676,0.0,0.20332119774159413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18837180856251534,0.22071089809420005,0.0,0.0,0.2066147181499771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918819755318448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927636648739924,0.0,0.2139928687509975,0.0,0.0,0.17263724556245927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276477869697653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752656698574745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835378696649114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616419692477679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718674183933355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329269388093936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boobrgeoisie,2019/04/09,"i really just had a huge binge and i have two events this week f u c k I have prom and a college admit day and was planning on fasting this week/keeping my calories low but like wtf 
Ive never really posted here but i’ve lost like 20 pounds recently and have reached lower than my goal weight but everytime i binge i feel like my old self.
like i feel good about my body now most of the time, but not today bitches!!!",-0.5969755244755248,1.610523113636365,1.3977272727272734,97.09832167832168,96.27272727272728,4.525874125874126,16.996503496503493,6.297961479604792,-0.2497755244755244,326,9,73,4,13,107,61,88,0.126,0.605,0.26899999999999996,0.9221,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,3,4,8,1,0,3,0,6,2,1,0,1,15,10,8,0,0,6,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,3,11,5,4,7,1,14,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,1,14,40,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354617735069927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367094361672144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143667151721924,0.1514384134900167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779860129160546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841738862982116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.414250496577258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314009956336328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349189207493314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22243714421836897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301805447167307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715993794788421,0.0,0.20930448185056966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22114116541818776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360712772062997,0.0,0.20093206692538804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207073465484874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400748227948599,0.25813429214311623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CodingIsKillingMe,2019/04/09,"Counting calories like crazy. Eating less than 1000 a day.. Hello everyone,

I would like to share a short story about myself and the issues I am currently facing.   
When I was a kid my parents divorced (I was about 6) and there was a lot of drama revolving around that event. My mother wasn't mentally stable and would yell at me or blame me for things that were out of my control every time she had to talk with my father (at that time they had to) or I mentioned him, she would freak out on me. I do not know what happened then, but I am assuming it was a result of all the stress, but I would close myself online on browser games for all day lone and just eat junk- waffles mainly. The food seemed to help me cope I suppose. so I just kept on eating.  When I got to my early teens I was  very overweight - 91 kg (I am female) and you know, kids would bully me and all that, but it was okay, up until my own family started doing the same. ""You're fat"", ""Your ass is too big"", ""Start wearing make up so at least you look prettier"" ( I was gifted an actual make up course voucher for my birthday) and all that jazz. Obviously all that think broke my mentality.  I had to change something so started a diet (90 day diet) and doing some sort of sport. I got down to 77. But since I had to weight everything and calculate calories everyday during the diet, that kinda stuck to me. Currently I can't eat without counting and if I eat more than a 1000 I feel guilty, scared and angry at myself for being such a pig. I am afraid that I might go back to ""normal again"". Currently I got to 72, I barely want to eat, I barely eat a 1000 calories a day and I don't know how to cope with it. I am aware it is unhealthy and potentially dangerous for my body in long term, but I can't just break myself to eat more. It is just all the guilt and anxiety that comes back from back in my teen years. Lately I also noticed that if I don't feel hunger then I get sad and when my stomach actually hurts, I feel good, because I know that I haven't eaten that much or at all that day.  I just want to get this off my chest here, because no one around me seems to understand me completely.",3.462765289738723,4.299888165158375,4.707296745000728,86.70876587359508,72.32579185520363,7.603678295139396,24.43905999124216,7.831003766801068,1.1076135454678149,1667,45,357,21,31,552,215,442,0.151,0.7979999999999999,0.051,-0.9936,4,0,1,0,1,0,59.0,0,3,1,1,25,15,1,4,17,1,36,23,7,5,8,80,66,36,0,10,17,3,4,2,0,6,2,1,0,2,21,23,17,2,12,4,0,2,9,10,0,1,19,6,66,5,53,40,18,55,0,4,1,1,19,22,1,13,32,261,87,0,0.0,0.0,0.1497341838248658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135249647300438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058690150152367185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659310746641593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769775067058144,0.0,0.0935348988202411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08521798604432566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115897904170401,0.0660869914552526,0.08043885748857195,0.0,0.08604735874852233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24738841150109925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6280249985926419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463942446362662,0.07330869834829824,0.06895047231367522,0.0,0.07232424605779995,0.0,0.1163749393574238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276943326715864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016546619414461,0.0,0.04360141724046843,0.06434861378090607,0.1840785979314702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067842734178131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05142341341690773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212973123611314,0.0,0.0,0.08007514739172944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686519584255818,0.0,0.08654285308899201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07496247163688201,0.0,0.0,0.06789427692592641,0.06442499473846484,0.0,0.0,0.06522411164203415,0.0,0.0,0.10242162387802917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463027164387622,0.08138718607929958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056397604842156474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516874744634901,0.0,0.08734557388171914,0.0,0.0,0.0519870679099748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518784235631667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680952826002485,0.0,0.0,0.13968496632186742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346310117576721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05906236155476208,0.0,0.0,0.16290721171218084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788184215607568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06166416775339456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05096897699425814,0.04915870976019053,0.0,0.0,0.08947142738447947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07986762710488403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330156035222441,0.09050220922076617,0.0,0.0,0.09342359134469304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07395478798319738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724963917428433,0.0,0.0,0.04940479436971936
EDAnonymous,liquidaited,2019/04/09,DIET PILLS LEGAL IN AUSTRALIA so a lol the pills I've ordered online have either been siezed at the border or are a scam. does anyone know any diet pills that work similar to ephidra or or oxilofrine? but that are legal and/or that I can still get inside Australia? I'm hella struggling,2.9353333333333325,5.666866927272732,3.4322727272727285,86.78174242424242,79.72727272727272,4.393939393939394,21.89393939393939,5.46131890053228,0.3414848484848481,231,7,39,1,6,72,41,55,0.11900000000000001,0.782,0.099,-0.4896,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,1,5,5,0,0,0,6,8,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,23,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31870594847576433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32769907673013715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101289107544332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24485633455025416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575641502214959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742737466887569,0.0,0.0,0.4899468453439174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411912151685002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,benefitssupervisor,2019/04/09,"does anyone else feel like they gotta get a little drunk before they don’t feel guilty about eating it’s unhealthy but I’m making it a bad habit to have a beer or two with lunch so I know I can eat what I want without feeling bad 
 
It’s not exactly a perfect system because I feel guilty again as soon as I sober up, but right now I’m day drinking red stripe and eating shortbread and life is great (catch me crying in 20 minutes)
love to you all anyway",1.5167708333333323,3.413581302083333,2.705416666666668,94.66458333333335,79.72916666666666,4.683333333333334,20.041666666666664,5.033348758259628,-0.3309083333333329,359,9,78,1,9,115,73,96,0.257,0.611,0.132,-0.917,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,2,1,6,6,0,0,4,0,4,9,0,1,3,18,16,8,0,1,5,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,7,0,5,3,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,5,9,4,9,15,1,10,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,1,5,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508759401965133,0.18329914233946926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29873982571697505,0.10905277558635497,0.0,0.15222653022163501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650783657737125,0.1153725219671956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565522832596199,0.0,0.0,0.1752490647184509,0.0,0.5491629602799393,0.1494438775324745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36181889485651386,0.12780267534483686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09346529161748274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19723244868680664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831605318636527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635888007068435,0.08739909595162076,0.17929985979454954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614597872160015,0.0,0.119413849855405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15277541421691654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17475449109639715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551694861176007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17244846574256004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kckamienie,2019/04/09,"Found out that my crush is fasting (Just a disclaimer i wasn't diagnosed with any ED but had some food issues for the past 2 years, especially the past 6 months. I hope It's ok for me to write here, maybe someone can help) 
 I oveheard her convesation with a guy from her class, she said she was water fasting for a second day in a row. I don't know if its her first time fasting but I really don't want her to get into that. Im afraid she might get herself into problems with eating and i hate the idea of her waisting her life on thinking about food. I know how it feels and I don't want her to feel this way. Im really worried about her. Maybe she's doing it for the ""health reasons"", like cleansing or smth, and i shouldn't be worried, but what if she stumbled upon some proana blog? That would be terrible... What if she's doing it becouse she thinks she's fat? Or as a form of selfharm? If she's been dealing with some kind of ED already I can't realy help, but if it's just the start? And maybe she has no idea what she's getting herself into? Maybe I could talk to her and tell her that fasting and restricting can lead to binging later, feeling weak, cold and tired, having realy low self esteem and other stuff. I'm probably over reacting and making a big deal out of nothing but it Just breaks my heart to se her like that. Today she was weaker then usual and she told me she's super cold. Should I talk to her? I mean I overheard her convesation, she didn't tell me that. I just want her to be happy... And how do I start the convesation? I'm really worried.
 Also it's really triggering to me. She's so beautiful and skinny, what if it's the way to achieve that? I have been trying to get better with my eating habits for the last week. I miss the feeling of fasting... Ugh i don't know what to do",1.3010544853364008,3.321485093085112,2.9977113283496277,91.67040540540545,81.04787234042553,5.660609545715928,21.066417481311106,6.766488616294105,0.3578103220241511,1409,41,305,15,37,466,170,376,0.142,0.774,0.085,-0.9576,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,5,11,16,1,1,15,1,30,14,4,7,0,74,58,31,0,15,17,0,4,2,0,4,6,1,0,2,24,22,8,1,14,1,0,1,9,8,0,2,10,7,58,8,40,40,4,35,0,2,0,0,45,11,0,13,22,209,82,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917977257530204,0.07187334938989813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611183747764916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948751472755726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175821811391274,0.0,0.0,0.05796221753634436,0.18531524508961067,0.0,0.09122167020896482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18393000588533692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177487268932185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07644799536629959,0.2173554548948845,0.09854377072014747,0.0,0.0,0.18782481209419236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899080650167067,0.0,0.09567406711408807,0.0,0.08873338076219542,0.0,0.09553337997671964,0.0,0.10650281800940677,0.12048321329388265,0.0,0.0,0.08926658176624028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20291684297350865,0.19416177552613934,0.09380659918974492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935914305792692,0.14817955865756027,0.07326047146330221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348167457402322,0.08781719122804772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999254782815069,0.0,0.3611678005176486,0.09790069182258744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534362898357383,0.0,0.0,0.0717377112534539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862378996266784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715925362735927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690091522542392,0.0859986491543463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23030600896976194,0.09240691140171302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549211577922193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375967523215986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615116070136649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722858474798007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102885865543189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444769334114102,0.15711017555096132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151770938516058,0.0,0.0,0.0524070863493478,0.10329858627938432,0.08519139936259715,0.08587982547742401,0.0,0.06101951780783239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989850893147214,0.0,0.15903257270249574,0.14267786692686615,0.07209264923512511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738185873333311,0.0,0.06384492725520174,0.0,0.0,0.05787683063285505
EDAnonymous,meepmelo,2019/04/09,I hate being rewarded with candy why? why is that a thing? are you trying to make me fat or just tease me? now I'm the asshole who is throwing away the lifesaver you gave me because I don't want to eat 15 calories.,0.26934782608695684,2.3296028913043507,2.363217391304349,94.50569565217394,85.30434782608697,4.5495652173913035,22.243478260869566,5.6839178017228535,0.14541391304347773,167,6,37,1,5,56,37,46,0.153,0.7090000000000001,0.138,0.3222,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,2,3,2,0,3,0,5,2,1,1,0,5,10,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,7,1,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,25,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32752459150844804,0.0,0.0,0.21250554098515692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567085487915531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441739190807513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269563409276756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23159676583262545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366789860134228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056154566198012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6291211196265566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jerry-Larry-Garry,2019/04/09,"ED and Alcohol In general, do you find that your ED has affected the way you drink (whether that be more/less?)

I’ve noticed that the worse my body image got, the more I relied on alcohol especially when going out with friends that I felt were prettier/skinnier than me. I’ve also occasionally used alcohol as an excuse to purge all of the food I would drunkenly binge.

I don’t know, I’m starting to feel like my alcohol use has gotten a little beyond just early twenties partying but damn, being drunk just makes me feel so skinny and pretty.",6.743142857142857,6.7558798380952405,7.64261904761905,71.43821428571431,64.9047619047619,11.190476190476188,33.6904761904762,10.864195022040775,3.748904761904761,433,17,78,11,6,146,78,105,0.094,0.799,0.10800000000000001,0.1143,0,0,5,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,0,6,3,1,0,6,0,8,9,2,4,1,20,20,8,0,1,4,0,3,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,4,4,8,0,5,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,11,2,10,13,2,10,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,4,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6990133257955046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076702040541208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18163404524003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018751325102826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536142177824156,0.1168188417051364,0.1570050060282286,0.0,0.14945447243046048,0.0,0.1977292379354583,0.0,0.1263352772630743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293228060406616,0.0,0.1307820173353817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986640869029171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988769505486634,0.16389016804677414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915098284147964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861687966868461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663587988602295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11574041754779553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824578489382901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979469924667594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664102255590296,0.1161600367317298,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hanabira,2019/04/09,"“Anyways, it’s better to be underweight than fat.” My boyfriend is my best motivation and worst critic. I’ve relapsed fucking hard because he told me he was less attracted to me—but whether I chose to get fit was my own decision.

Of course!!! I’ve lost 5lb since we had that conversation last week—mostly water weight but I’ve upped my step count and intermittent fasting.

He knows about my ED—he’s just the insensitive, engineering type who sees food as fuel and forgets to eat and has a really hard time understanding my obsession. 

At least when I ask him to hug me to keep me from going to the kitchen to eat food while I was on my 42hr fast, he did. :) 

Shitty toxic relationship? Maybe, but my ED fucking loves it and I honestly haven’t been happier with my body.",3.3362307692307698,5.350364100000004,4.6433333333333335,82.32346153846156,74.66666666666666,8.348717948717951,26.871794871794872,9.057496981413335,2.2111641025641022,605,23,121,14,13,200,104,150,0.114,0.693,0.193,0.9467,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,4,4,11,2,1,3,0,10,13,2,1,0,17,22,11,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,7,8,1,4,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,8,4,18,6,17,13,5,12,0,1,1,4,12,4,2,0,6,69,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16094039072204125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494324565378936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806645976018375,0.15225588229393608,0.0,0.19122385668600456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523122520862019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163376684986145,0.0,0.0,0.3183064855019315,0.08994315830640652,0.0,0.0978388665200472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084316487243489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530180427330814,0.0,0.0,0.09461112443742994,0.1403281730237283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187926006701595,0.0,0.15537535859965315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729514449925009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028601382705436,0.0,0.0,0.18482855550439573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718414211847862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240724907265495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003841571588114,0.0,0.0,0.16450015633437928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17921798423412216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809124557263094,0.2096367242602654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GeniGeniGeni,2019/04/09,"“If you don’t stop, you’re going to kill yourself.” Something I needed to hear loud and clear from my doctor.",2.2677272727272744,4.227049409090913,3.1818181818181834,91.8427272727273,77.63636363636364,4.4,20.090909090909093,3.1291,-0.3835272727272723,85,2,17,0,2,27,20,22,0.271,0.627,0.102,-0.6486,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,4,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42847503723028985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237911242507626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4718148657235223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4631407131262225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31040122920616364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222739239284673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499848430278936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,conuretrash,2019/05/27,I can’t stop binging It’s been two weeks and I can’t stop. I’ve gained so much weight. I just need support.,-3.1043999999999983,-1.9619606399999991,-0.8959999999999989,110.39200000000002,115.4,2.0,13.0,3.1291,-2.0098,84,2,23,0,5,27,19,25,0.18600000000000005,0.591,0.22399999999999998,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,12,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25586651545497363,0.2580844674253032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5819928745178349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39497801745544414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400071904924553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791953203297941,0.4238472333276846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yinneo,2019/05/27,"uh oh😎 so........ i bought a few low cal snacks and sugar free gum as a treat for myself for reaching a new lowest weight for the first time in 2 months and also because i was feeling weak as fucc

they were supposed to last me a while so of course i just ate most of them

watch me destroy a perfectly good fast and turn it into a hopeless 500-600 cal binge!!! why am i like this lmao

hopefully the weigh-in tomorrow wont crush me🙃",4.715760869565216,3.7458729673913123,5.5664347826087,87.92639130434785,69.32608695652173,8.664347826086956,28.18260869565217,7.554174236665415,1.3288713043478264,331,9,78,3,5,109,72,92,0.136,0.589,0.275,0.9252,1,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,2,2,4,10,1,0,8,0,4,5,0,0,1,9,9,9,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,0,2,0,1,4,1,1,4,4,9,7,10,4,2,11,0,2,1,0,2,3,0,2,9,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532224017863756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19302500380346171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601061806550239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693396810185241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655883862915771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31450180666388017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581094758684921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546976749355802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527445248684946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058195374058996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18463934669326865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34442088650277125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855906041936091,0.0,0.0,0.28572456498260496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,allonsy456,2019/05/27,All I wanna do is starve myself I’m so close to relapsing (bulimia/BED) and I just don’t want to eat Anything so I don’t risk it. This is so counterproductive,-1.2804901960784325,0.5950105588235317,2.23764705882353,89.11274509803923,105.17647058823529,5.79607843137255,17.43137254901961,7.1686216300943375,0.6127607843137257,125,4,28,3,6,45,24,34,0.17300000000000001,0.785,0.043,-0.6096,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,6,7,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5716722123243436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7108432066811237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097472601146812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SorgeGand,2019/05/27,SHe’s NoT UndErWeiGhT I’m so sick and tired of people defending very obviously underweight people by saying they look fine solely because they find them attractive. The fat logic sub ALWAYS does this whenever someone very thin is posted and anyone who dares comment that yeah that person is obviously underweight is downvoted to hell. Because obviously underweight is determined when the person is no longer attractive🙄,7.187285714285713,10.723720871428572,7.358571428571429,60.116428571428564,68.85714285714286,11.428571428571427,34.285714285714285,10.914260884657429,5.531714285714285,351,17,43,13,7,113,52,70,0.172,0.715,0.113,-0.7848,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,3,0,2,3,1,0,2,1,5,3,1,0,3,8,7,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,2,3,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,9,1,1,0,1,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063632527362718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734135728679548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023678182286586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703423903430247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266756199640567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20826499353893474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438762553230218,0.4331035694370444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23752394759951265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972266128555446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101371161490136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850497198348071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40926659323075787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CuddlyDollop,2019/05/27,"Squishy belly, feeling ugly, slight rant Woke up this morning and lost three pounds since yesterday. Laxatives and green tea, yay! /s.

Was quite happy-ish this morning with flat abs and no muffin top while wearing jeans. Only ate 100 grams of egg whites today, and suddenly I'm a gross pile of Jabba. Why? How?

Wish I could have some way to get objective information on how I look. Or, you know, get rid of ED. Not that I'm actually doing anything to help myself, actually the opposite. Gaining terrifies me so much.",2.1326201923076944,4.9982065729166685,3.515000000000001,83.0146153846154,87.4375,6.703846153846158,24.051282051282055,7.882392219407189,1.8829368589743605,405,16,72,9,13,132,81,96,0.159,0.706,0.135,-0.565,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,2,1,4,4,1,2,0,15,15,9,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,4,5,1,8,10,2,8,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,2,4,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.4922697936934859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20755941481356335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20138087755544215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753237309207624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635539627403385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16906088153767446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861608394858782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118052007796853,0.0,0.27533302532831405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185414155881248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19182822937494107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268271986515494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20864285579226352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390794979967556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002042052093552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275935362011232,0.0,0.2900459261004465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cooljqckets,2019/05/27,"I tell myself I'm doing OMAD but feel too guilty to eat a whole meal lol Last night I did muster two eggs on plain toast but the guilt is too strong. 

I literally walked 30k steps yesterday and feel guilty about two eggs and a smoothie. 

Helppp",2.021632653061225,4.339498918367351,1.9585306122449,98.47575510204081,80.22448979591837,5.552653061224492,15.922448979591836,6.742157984588678,-0.5888889795918368,193,3,44,2,5,57,38,49,0.179,0.6759999999999999,0.145,-0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,3,1,3,4,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,2,4,1,3,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330004094392752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32909859780601397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652722906799931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053979310999943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844438161882174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6358038101126269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633356384820699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fine_Guidance,2019/05/27,"Broke a 48hr fast Broke a two day water fast with fruit and a low fat yoghurt, feeling like its all going to come back up again. How do I not feel like crap after breaking a fast? Send help...",2.545916666666667,3.588602425000005,3.180000000000004,96.01166666666668,74.75,5.333333333333334,20.833333333333336,3.1291,-0.4524166666666667,147,3,34,0,3,46,33,40,0.17300000000000001,0.631,0.196,-0.0041,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,4,0,1,4,2,1,1,8,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,2,0,0,3,1,4,0,1,0,3,1,2,4,5,1,13,0,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,9,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28087836683581685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146570415849477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355758795225005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36939386835939103,0.5219133141294954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075974810729004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448400022101149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569154690772674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35682623763954996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hairh3lpthrowaway,2019/05/27,"my mind is recovered but I have zero appetite (tw: mentions of weight loss)

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I don't think much about my weight anymore nor do I worry about the caloric content of the foods I eat nor am I afraid of eating junk food anymore. As far as my body image goes, I feel neutral to positive about the way I look. I haven't been measuring myself, taking body-check selfies, or sitting in front of the mirror scrutinising my appearance for hours at a time like I used to.

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I haven't been weighing myself either (I used to weigh myself a minimum of once per day). I weighed myself just one time the day I came home from residential treatment a couple of months ago because I was curious to see how much I'd gained and today I noticed that I'm starting to get dizzy all the time again and so I finally put together that maybe I'd lost weight. Sure enough, I found that I'd unintentionally lost half of the weight I worked so hard to gain in treatment and I am back to just below my pre-relapse weight. I felt no weight loss 'high' like I used to when I saw the number on the scale today, just dread and frustration. Being underweight again means that my brain and heart are starving and my hair is probably thinning. For the first time in a decade, I have ZERO desire to be underweight. 

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I do my best to eat enough and at least get some protein, carbs, and veggies in every day. The problem is, I find cooking tedious and I don't enjoy food. When I was restricting I used to think about food constantly but now I forget it exists because I'm never hungry. Eating feels like an unpleasant chore. I don't enjoy food and I hate cooking. If I could just take a pill to meet all of my caloric needs and make me gain back my weight, I would. It's got to the point where I just ordered $100+ worth of meal replacement drinks because drinking my calories is marginally less unpleasant than the ordeal of cooking and eating. 

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I hate feeling faint and foggy all the time. What is wrong with me??? Why don't I enjoy food at all? I don't think this is psychological, I think it's physiological because I WANT to want food and every day I force myself to eat in spite of the unpleasantness because I DO NOT want to be underweight. Has anyone else experienced this? It seems like the only times in my life that I've looked forward to eating were when I was restricting.",4.903653846153844,5.9216862350427375,5.4184508547008585,82.26370192307695,69.12820512820512,8.072222222222223,28.94123931623932,8.278499904357787,1.9308341880341875,1890,67,368,26,32,607,220,468,0.158,0.721,0.121,-0.9707,0,0,2,0,0,0,60.0,0,0,0,10,21,21,4,2,22,0,33,37,4,6,6,65,71,28,0,9,11,0,14,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,12,16,30,2,12,5,1,5,12,12,0,5,13,19,61,9,50,53,13,52,0,4,4,0,2,17,0,5,33,236,73,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04439694977996908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170664446596852,0.24343294053813336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09934087153536293,0.035020296187720144,0.05131756115378499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07702388629062068,0.0,0.15265544641170212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05256066672205726,0.0,0.0,0.05563266701941445,0.0,0.05591094459182268,0.0,0.057283405920863735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054123627794264564,0.0,0.03998845409123219,0.05541762458678714,0.0,0.12920161820622092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812762330526427,0.0,0.3587431344287996,0.04183923190501559,0.0,0.0,0.10350149946311872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439682147947171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597279108788797,0.03578042714176829,0.04808904194809287,0.0548651988210532,0.04577639003909404,0.04260191004491085,0.42393722981120535,0.054915146376182215,0.0,0.0,0.05233424179861775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04005720630695445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04486593751716374,0.09889628857104853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059350457139212213,0.0,0.05291709852142973,0.05023890781451977,0.0,0.04932321313159319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035376213290414585,0.09787516502344387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411685012476768,0.0,0.10934645013760208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033431839693033386,0.0,0.05031668284775568,0.05455678002250136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05057113865533908,0.0,0.0399770263040105,0.0,0.07363584418069274,0.03713707437449156,0.03862830835217796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057021615423460285,0.0,0.053338432953030264,0.033938601140455986,0.038091572729641664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734610784558296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0539996379751097,0.04792416985825077,0.0,0.05034882676035175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03991091818293988,0.045595111899033286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035450116753251916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047204114929068654,0.0,0.07531472776375349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836868168981191,0.0,0.0,0.1752282948171327,0.0,0.0949486331160318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730279522898696,0.0,0.0,0.08862353190583616,0.03975480078381243,0.0,0.4269265976825163,0.0,0.0,0.04519353468074037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036462163796966734,0.050863312461870334,0.0,0.03557864185604265,0.05475961538701277,0.24343294053813336,0.0
EDAnonymous,summerlillies,2019/05/27,"Just set up my flair and it dawned on me ... Am I the oldest person in this sub? Anyone else in their 30s or beyond? 

For the village elders here, how's your ED treating you these days? 

For me, as I got older I've veered way more toward orthorexia than AN/B of my younger days. Nobody really knows about my screwed up obsessions with food; people think I'm just super knowledgeable about nutrition and health.",3.3509584086799293,5.469084746835442,3.8975045207956636,87.22050632911396,74.9493670886076,7.0459312839059685,21.4122965641953,7.957251820313856,0.9837435804701626,321,8,62,5,7,101,65,79,0.07,0.882,0.048,-0.1877,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,1,7,4,1,1,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,10,5,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,10,2,15,4,1,13,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,1,4,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197113126739683,0.3219575489563773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052943610688763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624921420951578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799584624295119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513120201090417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340032683716465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17268818120449614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21784195494305325,0.27436651062270584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012986448827505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20134075543730776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24941477988887803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ageofdadz,2019/05/27,"feeling like i don’t deserve to eat (i think i’m done w recovery) so i’m pretty much a horrible person & ive come to this conclusion very scientifically:

- my best friend since kindergarten stopped being friends with me after i went into ed recovery

- i am too quiet and weird to make new friends

- my mom thinks i’m a financial burden 

- my boyfriend of 1.5yrs broke up with me, even though he took it back like 15 minutes later. he said a lot of things like im negative all the time, im promiscuous, he can’t trust me, even though he apologized for saying them i know he thinks they’re true

- some members of my bf’s family invite his ex to their family dinners/weddings and not me 

these things make me hate! myself! i am so worthless that the people who are supposed to like me just don’t, i can’t make anyone happy, i am a huge burden on the people i love. i feel like my only hope is losing weight bc people like to be friends with attractive people & my boyfriend would be more satisfied & his family wouldn’t prefer his ex & my mom would think i’m successful and not lazy or useless. anyway i don’t deserve to eat, if i were a good person who deserved to eat, other people would like me.

will prob delete this in like a day so there’s no evidence of my breakdown online",3.420884615384616,4.8320554730769265,4.683846153846158,84.63615384615387,73.11538461538461,7.661538461538463,25.30769230769231,8.238735603445708,1.5074076923076922,1013,32,205,16,20,335,144,260,0.111,0.613,0.276,0.993,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,2,4,12,29,1,0,9,0,21,5,0,3,2,35,42,10,0,7,5,4,3,8,5,5,0,3,0,2,10,8,4,1,9,0,0,3,10,8,0,0,5,6,34,21,21,29,6,15,0,4,0,1,27,5,0,5,15,121,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748380149328822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060474286230407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650378570685292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907636185248851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07450158835817204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0557774811423106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850705541459446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654958575819225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424876287351765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24459902423134586,0.0,0.08746166869148063,0.1235738144999615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672810633872587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254186988630161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206787975146152,0.0,0.085388804682178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590190804868611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684334784424145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04753143737421408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3380285942042682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967577343236672,0.0,0.07352884144941761,0.07805862334571027,0.0,0.17319385010066093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025869506516068,0.0,0.0,0.06357849022650945,0.0,0.0,0.08353046381641158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577787520330736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997987808612843,0.1510356357485945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798919356981827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226971082846761,0.06877857621422606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154360844117746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230768007809489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149173130580316,0.22167158032923168,0.16994766429246555,0.0,0.050431736307212205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609113688404768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136149925942155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105318850079855,0.0,0.08017506441423823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431537184250754,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wallflxerr,2019/05/27,"Anyone else constantly switching between wanting to starve to death and wanting to ""recover""? Lately I've been going through these periods of ""Holy fucking shit I'm disgusting and I'm gonna starve for the next 6 months until I'm super underweight"" and then a couple days later I'm like ""naahhhh, my body is okay, I can eat whatever tf I want"", and then immediately regret it because I eat. Its so fucking frustrating and I don't know how to stop it",2.784712643678162,5.333691839080462,4.72712643678161,78.38885057471266,78.88505747126436,8.004597701149425,29.206896551724128,8.841846274778883,2.909427586206897,358,17,63,9,9,122,63,87,0.265,0.649,0.086,-0.9547,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,9,5,0,2,1,4,6,2,1,0,12,16,10,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,1,0,5,3,9,14,0,12,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,12,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565595997441902,0.2134393322470388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269845090585882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313866643849633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22511028808591496,0.0,0.0,0.2304922626988192,0.0,0.1343434220915752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263085069246329,0.17401718863400967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851604983228177,0.0,0.0,0.11838799490616216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448232912295316,0.0,0.2349839867396533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10177027803196663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627192734238053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154121106107755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21382834385686555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17415740162969431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368601840112206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JamesTheKid,2019/05/27,"“She’ll want me when I’m thin, right?” WARNING: My headspace might be triggering


I can’t imagine she’d love anything other than the way I look because I objectify the shit out of myself constantly. I have nothing to offer besides how thin I’ll look the next time she sees me. And if I’m not thin than I’ll hate myself for it until I am...and I’ll only ever blame myself for her disinterest in me, me and my “deficit that wasn’t big enough”.",1.9825000000000017,3.675830293478264,3.77326086956522,88.49293478260874,77.58695652173913,6.339130434782609,24.54347826086957,7.1686216300943375,0.9506260869565208,345,12,74,4,8,116,61,92,0.131,0.7659999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.34700000000000003,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,3,0,7,2,1,2,1,11,15,6,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,6,18,1,9,10,1,14,0,0,3,1,6,7,1,2,6,46,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20442972151785746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15143543611737248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684553801367187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566858090953424,0.0,0.0,0.22471146244568155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452647930712514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41722297444630746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22421009608427345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635359459140689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641990756488746,0.0,0.0,0.23836712210392866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18893573941518108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21215059731910016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979597663544274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550010922299181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14485657008141667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652543270797422,0.19718541774852785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SleepyCatMom_,2019/05/27,"I found out a few days ago that I weigh 117 pounds and I'm really fucked up about it I didn't want to weigh myself because I was scared it would make me more disordered. I say I'm recovered though I still have bad body dysmorphia and think unhealthy food thoughts. But I eat ok now.    
   
So, this whole time I thought I was 135-140 pounds. Cuz that's what I was a couple years ago. I got a new ID a couple months ago and put 130 pounds as my weight. I felt bad about it. I was 115 in high school and have always wanted to get back to that weight but never thought I'd be able to. It's also underweight, so I knew I shouldn't get that thin.    
     
Being 130ish made me feel fat as fuck. It's a normal, healthy BMI. Like right in the middle of healthy. But I never wanted to healthy. I hated that I was ""normal"" and always wanted to get back to being thin. Literally a week ago I was hating myself for not being even close to underweight anymore.    
    
Well fuck me I'm 2 pounds away from being underweight. But I still hate myself. I still feel ugly.    
    
I just feel ripped off? Like, all this time I was the weight I wanted to be. But I still feel fat. So I'm like, cool. It's hopeless. I'll never feel skinny and pretty. Ever.",-0.17888779527558896,2.0465510078740223,1.5820029527559036,97.85796505905512,90.1023622047244,4.4348425196850405,14.630413385826767,5.985473137389443,-0.8253696850393699,932,17,214,8,32,303,125,254,0.17300000000000001,0.703,0.124,-0.9342,0,0,0,0,0,1,33.0,0,0,0,0,18,16,6,1,8,2,18,14,4,3,5,44,51,19,0,9,7,0,11,3,0,2,2,1,0,0,14,8,10,0,12,0,0,1,6,10,1,0,16,13,32,6,22,27,4,35,0,1,0,3,1,12,3,0,25,130,46,1,0.0878545473524924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31151102155170113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025724977681448,0.14620404255664918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712810375257822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254223923251787,0.13510944795299193,0.14670975470487335,0.053555316629652266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975865967186468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441877125067167,0.0,0.056658915016994625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068892262698864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989713485339068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05802709995035151,0.07946946784808782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221094943760425,0.0,0.08435414289120703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623406738749644,0.0963279765337836,0.0,0.24366034007419066,0.13770112478687022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026530718342583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602145307824056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928231528272688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876388239549053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313009693901538,0.058643592559529174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701246615154865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20327652893786444,0.08485046928937302,0.0,0.0,0.17215760623765905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937965893738642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831808567805695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05628187267826162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750273034099372,0.0,0.06986546227803164,0.08795772824954774,0.08891349225115383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806430200081828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05629364653233492,0.08631664671192296,0.20924009144913214,0.102457386137586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590944413066653,0.0,0.07047161858156498,0.3209495115674333,0.07899178897686959,0.0,0.0,0.09808646465229562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06240934976910524,0.0,0.0,0.05657544807052505
EDAnonymous,hnnh999,2019/08/23,Dating while having an ED feels hopeless I might get into a relationship for the first time in my life at age 20 and she’s really sweet and I feel so comfortable talking to this girl (I’m a girl as well) which is pretty rare for me to experience. But I’m afraid my ed and other disorders will badly influence the possible relationship. Mostly the tendency to hide these problems will probably hinder me from being open and honest which is SO important in a relationship. I felt exited and happy for the possibility of us dating but now I feel kind of sad and hopeless with the thought this isn’t the right mental state for me to start a relationship in I’m scared hurting her because of my self destructive behaviors.. I would want to be honest about it all but I can’t even admit my ED struggles to my therapist and barely even to myself so I kind of know I probably won’t be ready to tell this girl before I get myself to tell me therapist ... I feel lost..,4.3842857142857135,5.80694253439153,6.032671957671963,75.85630952380957,70.74603174603175,9.632804232804233,27.25661375661376,9.957137785484203,2.739924867724868,765,26,143,20,14,262,106,189,0.156,0.725,0.12,-0.8849,0,0,0,0,0,2,12.0,1,0,0,2,8,19,1,3,11,0,13,1,0,1,1,28,29,15,0,3,3,0,5,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,8,10,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,11,1,1,3,6,24,8,26,18,2,17,0,5,0,0,15,8,0,2,8,103,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987374171640028,0.07208673547371941,0.0,0.1006257159175158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552969503921794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621172528413546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567541554089182,0.0,0.0,0.23917174801535745,0.0,0.11354269132159273,0.0,0.0,0.10058706362170322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356600217787678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258839218692479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265936946491711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24628735225863524,0.06498948129250941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.083526522946662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12908855876653685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917254018357153,0.12544914524629247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26662795403930983,0.0,0.1203071559655994,0.25499631424155633,0.11315341301522318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575674504512296,0.0,0.0,0.5078435341171075,0.0,0.10098854258708816,0.0,0.0,0.11839320329372895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336504538201334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837010158816136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362509034126087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504834249276099,0.20671897474931072,0.0,0.0,0.27460475841288906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388072042156577,0.06895504458412202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422453858976187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974946141143176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632483486090884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400447557808663,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,incompetentbeing,2019/08/23,"My ED Dessert Last year, most mornings, I would wake up 4 hours before work, because I had to walk at least 5 miles before starting my day. There was an ice cream shop near my apartment, which I had never been inside. They rotated flavors daily, and posted them on a chalkboard against the window every day. I would walk at least 3 miles before I allowed myself to pass in front of the shop and look at the list of flavors. Then I would keep walking and fantasize about them. That was my ""treat"" for the day. I would get so excited to look at that board. Then I'd go home, chug a diet Coke, eat a sheet of dried seaweed, and get ready for work (which I walked 2 miles to get to, of course).

I'm in a better place now, but I'm still struggling with being at a normal weight. It helps to reflect back on this memory (and others), and remember how cruel I was to myself when I was in it deep. It makes me sad now, that I thought I deserved to feel so awful. I don't have anyone to talk to about these things so it feels good to share. Thanks for reading. Love you guys.",3.5747859327217104,4.307216509174317,4.205522935779818,90.79651070336394,71.9816513761468,6.730764525993884,24.16636085626911,6.42735559955562,0.5481843425076458,821,21,180,5,15,261,131,218,0.08199999999999999,0.8029999999999999,0.115,0.6709,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,3,3,12,10,1,1,10,1,14,7,1,3,1,24,30,14,0,5,1,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,13,7,5,1,5,3,2,7,2,3,0,0,8,8,24,7,34,17,3,41,0,1,3,1,9,18,0,1,15,118,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098459053306056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827576793578117,0.0,0.08583771339421126,0.0,0.3594620274973057,0.0,0.0,0.12453680754305635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724363526083406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408587199414735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11864021795199388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239759799928348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207054392984667,0.0,0.08002672807422412,0.11810645944366822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942605930485494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438334307958544,0.0,0.1412459585159738,0.0,0.13867149623515634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516021221220094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478060757604493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364933005128645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708836492440084,0.0,0.0939931309778618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086029270221731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796590322724045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711861282242455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485901150293894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408501470182345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951259310337162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996674875736271,0.0,0.1124526780605867,0.0,0.0,0.1472073191178885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317938491559065,0.0,0.1296408089162925,0.0,0.0,0.0935492633105304,0.0,0.0,0.11178903191872684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17147113129432914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050256862304058,0.0,0.0,0.4001153361220878,0.0,0.0,0.09067833788023937
EDAnonymous,championsofnothing,2019/08/23,"Birthday lunch at work with cake. No one currently on my floor right now so I purged, cute Work at a law firm, almost a lawyer. So cute so fun so professional wow. Also I'm like 5 years post my worst period of my ED so to be throwing up at work again just feels awful",-0.7627631578947351,1.3997384035087703,1.4729605263157914,97.19259868421057,94.78947368421049,4.955263157894739,14.142543859649123,6.6274283507984215,-0.566156140350877,207,4,49,3,8,69,44,57,0.131,0.62,0.249,0.8558,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,3,9,6,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,5,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,4,5,8,2,1,14,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,1,6,27,4,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261381387879081,0.0,0.0,0.2604594858242669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16468200758112553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911892702890673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22070047277214272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119273508366601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781431515040945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7113331001754196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20973795816854413
EDAnonymous,ningyizhuo,2019/08/23,"My weird fear foods I have some unconventional fear foods, food that usually people with ED consider as safe food. I wanted to know if I'm really alone or if there's people on reddit who are afraid of these too.

My fear foods are:

\- greek yoghurt

\- oat. like, ANYTHING with oat

\- non diary milk

\- pasta and semolina

\- anything deep fried, except french fries

\- not homemade pizza

\- alcohol. if it has alcohol, even cooked, i don't eat it. exception made for meals with wine in their sauce such as boeuf bourguignon.

\- food that isn't prepared by me, my parents or a professional (restaurants etc...). it is the reason of a lot of fights and a lot of people judge me because they can't understand that it's not that I don't want to, i just CAN'T even if it looks and smells good I can't eat it

\- unknown snacks and prepared meals. I'm currently studying abroad and they gave us a lot of snacks we don't have in europe. I can't eat them because I'm scared

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What is weird about my fear foods is that I've never eaten some of them. I'm afraid of greek yoghurt, oat and non diary milk, but I don't even know what it tastes like and I know it's healthy, but just thinking about it makes me anxious.",3.356519239274661,4.961306151260509,3.8221539141972585,89.97036930561701,73.62184873949579,6.6911985846970365,24.29102167182663,7.273561745256523,0.8653663865546221,936,28,196,10,19,293,120,238,0.092,0.85,0.057999999999999996,-0.4906,2,1,3,0,1,0,49.0,2,0,5,0,10,14,1,7,5,0,17,24,0,3,1,42,33,17,0,6,14,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,18,11,24,1,6,2,0,0,12,10,0,0,3,3,23,4,23,30,6,7,0,0,1,0,11,4,0,11,5,118,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519829305362222,0.0,0.08489440160673904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881258025596885,0.09960041314715848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260080745873532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490579494217433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993418638025403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25162199371207145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141628216342346,0.1624177967701535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689483440379481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6938144549265478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687510912397593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514284341415536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009110723989514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688326978801134,0.0,0.0,0.2090594615978033,0.0,0.07756035370643727,0.05471445299612748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321897870596638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910160573512652,0.0,0.0,0.17047942135101968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052510969106519895,0.08427702762165215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820645321664221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05252195410858338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533185403009061,0.09859772961425198,0.0,0.0902764628723846,0.0,0.09669401216196748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960041314715848,0.0
EDAnonymous,rosyandthemachine,2019/08/23,"Celebrity Idols? I hate my EDNOS, which is really just nonstandard eating habits and overexercising. But I can't help but fall into some habits when I see my fav thin celebs be fabulous and feminine and dainty. My current fav of all time is The Duchess of Cambridge (aka Kate Middleton):

* [https://files.brightside.me/files/news/part\_66/666760/8609910-34394310-b519bd1aba8caec137fe892df9245efb05fe9c4e-1500-1-1545041962-728-d6f1f482fe-1545388693.jpg](https://files.brightside.me/files/news/part_66/666760/8609910-34394310-b519bd1aba8caec137fe892df9245efb05fe9c4e-1500-1-1545041962-728-d6f1f482fe-1545388693.jpg)
* [https://www.realstylenetwork.com/fashion-and-style/wp-content/uploads/sites/2/2012/07/kate-002.jpg](https://www.realstylenetwork.com/fashion-and-style/wp-content/uploads/sites/2/2012/07/kate-002.jpg)
* [https://cdn.images.express.co.uk/img/dynamic/galleries/x701/376080.jpg](https://cdn.images.express.co.uk/img/dynamic/galleries/x701/376080.jpg)",48.522261904761905,62.85332604761906,14.265376984126986,6.813303571428605,-13.063492063492047,10.76904761904762,36.44642857142857,10.125756701596842,5.653128571428572,883,18,42,12,8,143,49,63,0.064,0.735,0.201,0.8915,1,0,0,0,0,0,123.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,9,6,6,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,5,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4562826685012469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402490345653756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29888762198816565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4828828091299546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285664755564966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.355336756364399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600167938097369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mandolinwaterfall,2019/08/23,"I sprained my ankle and I'm going crazy Hey all,

Usually I'm just a lurker on here but I need to vent otherwise I'm going to punch something.

I sprained my ankle real bad whilst running. Im still on crutches 2 weeks later. I know. Big deal, right? It'll heal in 6 weeks, I'm lucky it's not broken etc. Etc. 

But I am going INSANE not being able to do anything for myself. 



I was exercising 6 days a week to combat my binges and now I'm essentially a sedentary blob, feeling sorry for myself.

I cant leave my desk at work, because my usually site -based job wont let me outside because of health and safety. 

I can't drive myself anywhere, because I can't perform an emergency stop.

I've moved back home because I can't manage the 5 flights of stairs to my flat and because of that I'm being forced to eat parents portions.

I usually control binges by keeping the cupboards empty at home and now I can't control myself around the family chocolate cupboard (yes that's a thing in my house). 

Because I'm relying on lifts everywhere, socialising or doing anything fun and outdoorsy  out of the question.


And because of all this I'm now miserable which makes me want to comfort eat. 


This sucks. Its really, really sucks. What do I do? Have you guys had anything like this? How did you cope with the loss of control?! Help meeeeeeee",1.9637175324675344,4.380105685606061,3.5969913419913446,86.06727272727277,81.1590909090909,5.892640692640692,26.47402597402597,7.1686216300943375,1.4858889610389607,1047,45,198,14,28,347,150,264,0.145,0.736,0.11900000000000001,-0.8490000000000001,2,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,0,6,9,9,2,1,10,1,19,5,0,5,2,32,38,11,0,2,6,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,11,10,2,5,3,1,0,6,8,5,0,0,3,1,28,4,26,30,5,34,0,2,0,0,8,13,2,3,16,117,39,4,0.10182227171973644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25137316141658506,0.09064340940577773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829504183873555,0.08501734376684886,0.4344893823213568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426070075715567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566694171286075,0.10497429114210062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083792078545847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271174969389589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959889758272498,0.0,0.051484399998446014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17360383054049644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082005747729436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082323134139958,0.0,0.0,0.06824932241236807,0.0,0.204272081230946,0.0,0.0,0.1174892306446859,0.0,0.0,0.10998552624686793,0.0,0.10104289324756854,0.09050431355528576,0.0,0.0,0.05595885765471316,0.0,0.0,0.10781508377579394,0.0,0.10412017150340364,0.0,0.04974521872065574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679671570358218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822096071070304,0.0,0.07549992429486435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306158289131828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406424744770526,0.0,0.0,0.11589603694925615,0.13045990914388306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695566370121427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838775935596391,0.0,0.11398169687807658,0.0,0.0,0.08131539772457189,0.08512797845721691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676461929064777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364285408712856,0.0,0.06005741398439325,0.0,0.2450270536464667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412782650937139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iceicemilkshake,2019/08/23,"So I ate my daily “allowance” exactly... ...and proceeded to double that shit with alcohol.
No, it’s cool. It’s being social/making friends. But HOLY HELL do i feel like a jiggly piece of lard right now",1.0684615384615377,3.623828153846155,3.185333333333337,86.11800000000002,87.97435897435898,6.196923076923077,20.620512820512825,7.554174236665415,1.1489035897435893,154,5,29,3,5,52,36,39,0.242,0.5870000000000001,0.172,-0.6408,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,1,2,3,1,1,1,6,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,3,3,2,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529905468054388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143225546855009,0.3028144330208021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274826628696285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070825795759832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619846009544647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43509879199142426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4320843978295147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aqua_sea,2019/08/23,Help getting out of a binge phase? I have no idea what has triggered my latest binge stretch but I seriously cannot stop no matter how many times I say it’s the last time. I was doing so well for a while and lost the weight I put on from what had been my worst binge streak ever. I am so scared I’m going to end up right back where I was a few months ago. Does anyone have any advice that helps when they get stuck like this?! I just want to flip the switch back 😭,0.4547524752475241,2.2858634356435696,1.550980198019804,101.93201485148516,82.96039603960395,4.436039603960396,14.06039603960396,4.935628992294339,-1.4272700990099008,361,4,91,1,10,113,79,101,0.217,0.6409999999999999,0.142,-0.8601,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,10,6,0,1,6,0,10,1,0,2,1,11,17,7,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,4,1,0,6,2,11,2,8,11,2,21,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,14,57,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20053805298382246,0.1819146434684672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955625044535389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349419783841888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156021502052788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795889071348109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18176350363055585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18563272449497406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21443736529583568,0.0,0.11663093199716708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27510851769850136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316677583554119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728122664691367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025984801826618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402125134618045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806029270661733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380419202367713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20630221027700946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525627288861753,0.0,0.16319872854268666,0.20546045138447425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715726335459622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393302012505085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12104373753502293,0.0,0.0,0.2499019806847215,0.18451691445246274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sistersadhours,2019/05/19,"AA AAAAAA AAAA (TW: numbers) Okay so ive been in the hospital for a week now for my ED. When I first got here it took a really unexpected turn. Less than 10 hours here, and they were taking my orthostatic vitals and my blood pressure tanked when i stood and faint and was out for good minute. They got me back and ran a bunch of cardiac tests. During the 2d echo of my heart they found a fuck ton of fluid around my heart. They admitted me to the icu and i was placed on strict bedrest(im on normal bed rest now). The next day they tapped my heart and drained all of the fluid and apparently they were baffled that I didn’t die due to the amount. So after that they placed me on their refeeding program. I have been compliant, mostly because im more scared of the thought of the meal replacement drinks than the food itself. But honestly now i just feel like the dietician is out to get me. They’re giving me fear food after fear food. Ive stuck it out so far but its getting hard. They are of course upping the amount of food im eating. Due to there being more I constantly feel full, i just feel so disgusting. I find comfort in feeling hungry. But here i have to eat even when I feel full, which is always now. 
Most people have been considerate and tiptoed around triggering me but fuckkkk has the last 48 hours been mental hell. My relatives are all talking about my ed and it makes it so bad. No one was supposed to find out but i have two loud mouth aunts (one on each side) who told everyone!!! Now people who weren’t supposed to know are calling and asking questions and it just makes me wanna vomit and go back to starving. Also today was going pretty good, i struggled with the portions they’re giving me but i got it all down. But my mom called me after i had dinner and told me about how my cousins wife is anorexic too. Shes 70 pounds right now apparently and refuses to get help. It was like a fucking switch went of in my head. I feel disgusting. My last weight i saw was 105 lbs (im 5’9”) and now that doesn’t seem like its low enough now even though its lower than any ugw i ever had. Im so angry now i never got under 100 and that im not resisting their treatment. My head is just screaming at me that im a failure because I didn’t get under 100 now and that im not fighting their system harder. I know that she’s shorter than me but my ed doesn’t care. I just feel like a failure because im not as good as her and i dont get to recover. I’ll probably get out of the hospital in a few days and I’ll no longer be under the staffs watchful eye but rather my forgetful parents. I no longer am allowed to pick what i eat or even put my own food on my plate. Im terrified my parents will give me more than I actually need and im just gonna get fat again. Theres just so much anxiety and hatred going around in my head and I feel like even though im surrounded by professionals that im still being left hanging. Wow im sorry didn’t expect that to be so long but thanks if you read this all.",2.3419673846153866,3.9116283952000015,3.5973400000000018,90.67900076923078,76.24799999999998,6.663692307692307,22.739230769230772,7.395310329662975,0.7126633846153849,2357,67,518,29,52,768,282,625,0.14800000000000002,0.75,0.102,-0.9884,7,0,1,0,2,0,51.0,0,1,11,1,53,29,6,5,23,1,42,26,10,6,6,94,92,52,1,6,23,6,10,5,0,2,3,2,1,0,25,33,13,1,18,2,0,8,14,14,3,4,32,15,76,15,64,54,23,79,1,1,3,2,37,34,3,6,41,341,101,5,0.0,0.0,0.04461583931007767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036562033518188486,0.03804245911583443,0.0,0.0,0.031090968851792074,0.0,0.03497545104790559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210069827569472,0.0427417547454649,0.0,0.0,0.07031126581774398,0.03817404599528576,0.08361092789331181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336986612300456,0.0,0.046614288789384006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04940676151427291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05897085799789409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047449838107268334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053583156611931096,0.04478790761249893,0.0,0.14034802393233425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047240679429159084,0.0,0.12078974227358208,0.04135609287816519,0.0,0.043687139729751835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289476340070196,0.18493806242360927,0.09798650438170528,0.0,0.0,0.08357396862763601,0.038889159788813424,0.2764222585522369,0.05012929936704903,0.0,0.08453426561335664,0.1672066208664251,0.13157552819137994,0.0779506900401993,0.11504256432050824,0.146264906444091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04095587759658045,0.0,0.14076482989457614,0.0,0.0,0.16253422032904838,0.030644956164023806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09004940458069276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6913918140031501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0502527110659422,0.07453532737618652,0.0,0.0,0.04967459590285762,0.0,0.0,0.11168169830708928,0.0,0.0,0.04046050236523218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06103651946524321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046074711705151435,0.0,0.0,0.05354636877838487,0.0,0.0,0.03360924554213987,0.03390058375120145,0.0352618569049079,0.0,0.048623427536552126,0.0,0.04479560607387742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061961713987406776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153264908932523,0.0,0.0,0.06339257697566295,0.0,0.09553472665306216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651337899354289,0.049293577389800176,0.0,0.0,0.045960933840723577,0.05121653577448326,0.0,0.04573207983775799,0.0,0.029289215303274007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039044380341780566,0.0,0.0,0.045773403010502686,0.0,0.0,0.04162150453726316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05117946934659552,0.0,0.0,0.036511817416638365,0.0,0.0,0.0477961650244501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034375530103790235,0.03674776900501251,0.0,0.042092563970301575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983876084772227,0.036296340763002866,0.0,0.0,0.04333693678389284,0.08737427945950367,0.050796277207173286,0.0,0.04972991294546696,0.044661510831279526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036673591534612984,0.055674286695687664,0.0,0.04238262683896625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slippytoad37,2019/05/19,"Does anyone ever hold food up to thier mouth but not eat it ? I like to take high calorie food and hold it up to my lips but not take a bite, like I'm proving to myself that I have the will power to resist it. My biggest fear is loosing will power in the quest to 'recover' 

My mom caught me doing it to a slice of cold pizza and I had to lie and say I thought it smelt bad and had gone stale :))))))",2.061379310344829,2.4340422068965535,3.899482758620693,92.9312931034483,75.20689655172413,6.259770114942532,21.396551724137925,5.46131890053228,-0.07749655172413794,300,6,73,1,6,102,55,87,0.157,0.843,0.0,-0.9369,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,1,4,0,7,6,2,0,2,13,13,6,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,4,4,2,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,5,2,9,2,12,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16527405352629052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19735746911170648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068472948568232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24186354957445266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213808455718613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26597979805596417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5716344278596857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497358482237362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309550035823422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276831432107804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796937996725727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35543875131785235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876498485878845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daaani999,2019/05/19,"Feeling like a POS for eating I've been binging and binging and binging the last month and ballooned up 4 lbs. I finally got myself back on track last week and I've been doing so good this week. This morning I weighed myself and I was .6 lbs away from my lowest weight in 8+ years. I felt so good. I went to my friend's bday brunch and all I could focus on was how many calories I was consuming. And I couldn't stop. it's like a trigger goes off and an animalistic instinct takes over and I just eat and eat and eat. The thing is I didn't even eat half the plate. I just ate so much compared to how good I had been doing. Now I'm home, bloated, and feeling disgusting and fat. Just disgustingly fat. All I wanna do is go back to this morning when I felt good about myself again.",0.8837123385939734,2.966546603658536,2.4906456241033013,94.3883572453372,82.96341463414635,5.078335724533716,21.232424677187947,6.2272716619740125,0.09890286944045944,609,19,137,5,17,199,92,164,0.061,0.785,0.154,0.9178,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,15,9,2,0,6,0,15,11,2,3,2,29,25,19,0,3,3,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,5,13,11,1,4,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,13,5,19,7,14,10,3,22,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,15,90,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781579981576774,0.1928470540811016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012031254375386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6415686648664161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828243727721272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681026330228382,0.08958454708476253,0.2408040030148807,0.1373676722087503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688239011141286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126672500728344,0.4207124679119218,0.1002924495638668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578468626896516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044326487696458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252651840531226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271341608212267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009170044422863,0.0,0.09218215484117187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483856627324643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428389086573943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330903666087636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011738519501644,0.15270130685971106,0.0,0.11624544992974108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075237268022226
EDAnonymous,knuckleztheenchilada,2019/05/19,"I fucked up ( tw ) I purged for the first time yesterday because I was drinking and eating yesterday. Since it was a party with lots of alcohol it wasnt out of the ordinary for people to be puking. I was feeling nauseous so i went to the bathroom just in case.   Idk what came over me, but I made myself puke (it happened on impulse kind of). Ive always HATED throwing but yesterday was different. Maybe it was a mix of already being stressed out about my weight/eating and being tired of being nauseous but I felt so relieved. I regret it because I’m already relapsing into ed behavior and ik its gonna make it worse. I wanna get help because I’ve been dealing with disordered eating (alone) since middle school but since im not underweight, I feel like I’m not gonna be taken seriously",3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,4.714285714285714,80.85571428571431,75.81818181818181,7.257142857142857,28.532467532467532,8.192908349453996,2.263355844155845,623,27,111,11,14,209,96,154,0.21899999999999997,0.688,0.09300000000000001,-0.9699,1,1,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,2,1,5,0,13,6,0,2,0,24,29,9,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,9,4,0,3,1,0,3,3,5,0,1,12,3,14,3,20,10,1,16,0,1,0,1,2,8,1,1,6,73,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767144997286474,0.0,0.14311188952062298,0.3049681768021613,0.0,0.11497609219183312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526981161873629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804009514296474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14245659916621395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443677642622752,0.15836523598410582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13536292643580936,0.0,0.4241751903958568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973502376812302,0.09871518669041658,0.13267361887157886,0.0,0.0,0.1175350838263881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774436435530906,0.07219288396114769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219133421534414,0.0,0.0,0.13642326781901426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261854746038024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14925715483446927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389228371337012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750733543064617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747494143771957,0.0,0.1307484187500884,0.09223563161014772,0.0,0.1388194926035534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579599931275147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984464045452727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342909573149695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828370829156047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057335261249646,0.15881656463744248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682649352489822,0.0,0.1280934230863314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081632219406431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckuuuuu2,2019/05/19,"Need a job but avoided dream interviews this week because I’m the biggest I’ve been :))) Holy shit I’m at a low point. It seems childish but the jobs do kind of revolve around looks, and I know the guys interviewing me would think I’m not thin.

I want to cut my body up, slice the fat off, get out of this figurative-fat suit. I’ve avoided a lot of people, crushes, etc. I want a job where I can not be seen and just walk and lose weight but those jobs hardly hardly hardly make enough money to survive for a week here.

I’m so tired and angry. I am mentally unwell. No insurance.

Someone please come beat the shit out of me. I wish a man would take me in, even at this point even if I was just his personal toy because living here and under this toxic family house is torture. 

Thanks for listening.",2.7545681925436507,4.2045517055214745,3.923312883435585,89.26674374705051,74.88957055214723,6.978574799433696,23.581406323737607,7.61054688173877,0.9151731005191128,620,18,134,8,13,202,104,163,0.275,0.657,0.068,-0.9908,5,2,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,9,10,4,2,11,0,9,6,4,1,0,30,28,10,0,7,8,0,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,6,9,2,2,3,2,1,2,3,8,0,0,3,8,12,2,17,22,3,19,0,2,2,0,7,15,2,3,2,78,18,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101321084199942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15083038681811572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741888814814132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065690625698756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12783011978307382,0.13797433790792946,0.16342448298772774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662699320594005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463570511128203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249677691726013,0.0,0.0,0.3324715987738483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274988962095997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4910700931115597,0.0,0.0,0.12882958413036455,0.06799023799622288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924214468425147,0.0,0.103888997579745,0.13840484841323844,0.0,0.1051776194011028,0.0,0.0,0.08258037023032339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467508908444468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917327128652042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576803727292383,0.10802270442202846,0.0,0.13580133869432007,0.2339003267994137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262500825223228,0.0,0.0,0.2539822538647429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048228700371492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301788593797933,0.0,0.0,0.11389966358060336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927123781743463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421915855891983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594000097114784,0.0,0.1984725730194076,0.1506508971324004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226553646341947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757664216950843,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Low_Educator,2019/05/19,"I am going crazy.. I feel like I am going crazy, so today starts and my grandma made me a meal, so I eat it. It was low calories, but then I purged. Anyway, then at lunch, I made myself to eat.. only to purge again and I was like - okay, don't eat dinner now, it would be too much. And I know I am going to eat dinner and then probably do the same thing. It is this circle of - starve, eat, feel bad, purge and repeat. The days I am at home I am just bored and hungry, but then when I have to go out - I am super nervous and anxious all the time. Staying at home - bad, leaving home - also bad. What the fuck,",-0.1112522361359538,1.6374797829457393,2.0924031007751966,97.73516994633276,84.50387596899225,4.279308288610614,15.349433512224214,4.713530739802397,-1.0997375074537867,448,7,108,1,13,151,72,129,0.231,0.682,0.087,-0.9690000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,9,11,1,1,5,1,14,10,0,2,1,19,25,17,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,7,8,9,0,3,0,0,4,1,7,0,0,4,2,16,4,9,19,3,22,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,0,14,76,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039057792372028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181921876922599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144503330686155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095991860137036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6422700397672542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694889466120066,0.08968248259232242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605541271467305,0.0,0.0,0.2853785405123575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777665893434854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899094799573975,0.0,0.0,0.13292381491825594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266046669394083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375691761654105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228293010226453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547529420777742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353483448787904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885457029404795,0.13380398526611487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340011166270662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320067494515292,0.0,0.11899283793978348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917671430446006,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icy271,2019/05/19,Taylor Swift on Ellen?? I watched [this](https://youtu.be/on4bHNdUm-I) recent Taylor swift interview on Ellen and maybe I'm reading into it but she seems to straight up describe eating disordered behaviour at the 15:07 mark. She's alluded to being disordered in the past but there was something so heartbreaking about the way she talked about it in this video. What do you guys think?,5.692467532467536,9.034987727272727,4.535627705627707,79.33772727272729,73.24242424242424,8.61991341991342,29.12554112554113,9.23628265651192,3.1738813852813847,314,13,49,8,7,92,50,66,0.086,0.838,0.076,-0.5704,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,0,11,4,0,11,0,1,1,0,7,8,0,1,2,31,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6064539738132922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27072727189780793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619718098981876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26580212636004064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525677036749272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26464757106929043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261236854707109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408600290892905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036835100691172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126561451806626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952960042311854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000809241200766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fattieater,2019/05/19,"Sooo you wanna poop but you don't wanna buy/take laxatives? I know a lot of you have trouble going number two so here's some really helpful advice my midwife gave to me since she doesn't recommend laxatives while pregnant and I already eat enough fiber/fruits/veggies.

Drink a cup of hot water quickly (not too hot to have to sip it but as hot as you can stand) and then follow with a cup of ice cold water (not too cold to hurt your teeth, but as cold as possible) in the morning.

Then reverse the order around lunch (lol) and drink cold then hot. Then in the evening, hot then cold. Then right before bed cold then hot. It doesn't matter what you start with, just always alternate. It helps constrict and relax your bowels and it's always helped me. Of course if your not eating anything at all then this won't help but I know a lot of you get backed up and this is a natural way thats saved me soo much. 

Hope it helps somebody!",2.106105200945624,4.228983452127661,2.9195035460992886,92.73388888888887,78.84042553191489,5.667139479905437,20.550827423167853,6.691623216298621,0.24136430260047306,731,19,153,7,18,230,111,188,0.07400000000000001,0.7829999999999999,0.14300000000000002,0.9283,1,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,9,0,0,10,5,0,0,8,1,8,10,3,0,1,30,16,25,0,4,9,0,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,9,7,1,2,3,0,2,7,2,0,1,1,12,17,3,22,14,6,23,0,1,0,0,16,6,0,5,12,103,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525407159381671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722620414335918,0.0,0.25977813901377084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845834898366992,0.13896355505375949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003252556715965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283099819584174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058403573351772,0.0,0.3194618970379728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612947227003137,0.0,0.10310366097864668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155666403313444,0.0,0.08871615936561805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231581939937687,0.0,0.0,0.15504415071305042,0.0,0.0,0.16711003417191014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157875784735338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265424064130875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475266667185408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598114437758566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000270778356712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333099476199718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291288897031554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048954423016856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524886198072304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390621588465295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toodrunktoremember1,2019/05/19,"My bf purges but I cant because it's bad. He purges but I cant because I have a history of ED. I told him it triggers me, and he just hides it from me because he thinks I judge him. I told him I dont judge him for it but now he purges in front of me all the time and I want to but I'm not allowed...",-2.85732115677321,-1.3257224246575312,0.504840182648401,105.88989345509891,95.16438356164385,3.792389649923897,16.330289193302892,5.033348758259628,-1.1889592085235925,225,6,67,1,9,80,40,73,0.032,0.885,0.083,0.4897,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,1,13,9,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,16,0,6,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,0,2,42,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26187417848740313,0.573571453687002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675807673162071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20096622026763936,0.0,0.0,0.18288452515458886,0.0,0.0,0.5993880674113499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18499149999759865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,octo314159,2019/05/19,"I can't stop binging :( I used to binge every Friday when I was in college and broke the habit for a few years. But it's been starting again lately, and I so don't want it to get out of control. I just binged hard and ended at maybe 4000 calories, or just a little under. And it's the third time I've binged this week.

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I've gone from 170lbs to 121lbs, but I'm at 130 now because I travel so much for work and can't track. I cut my calories to 1800 a day, but that makes me feel like I'm starving. I think that, plus hating my current job, may be what's triggering my binges, ugh. I just don't know how to lose weight and keep sane apparently :(",2.6269285714285715,3.379279264285717,3.6085714285714303,94.12642857142859,74.21428571428571,6.171428571428572,22.57142857142857,5.6839178017228535,0.05108571428571418,507,12,120,2,10,163,93,140,0.14300000000000002,0.773,0.085,-0.8411,3,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,9,6,2,0,5,0,8,1,0,5,0,27,21,15,0,1,7,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,3,3,1,0,2,4,5,0,1,3,3,13,1,15,16,2,20,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,2,13,70,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21917875761194194,0.24580183064508115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331277140387023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268829797882278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045890259219506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916695745035352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043620452040342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228279480083416,0.14451445187767245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056870315996324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121014437812516,0.19971733259295688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007394378964423,0.17980270008478413,0.0,0.0,0.11117209008862636,0.0,0.2281894607083745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882760601038418,0.2027455285269946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263083161637707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502868396059522,0.0,0.2032252944671452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870481587823495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318035308235028,0.0,0.0,0.1691216670022796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961786061943706,0.0,0.0,0.11795564876211465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471171868359928,0.0,0.0,0.11931459143002265,0.0,0.16226307936339945,0.2463320559175867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726793491074427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24580183064508115,0.13026671736881268
EDAnonymous,witchy2628,2019/05/19,"Nothing like leaving an abusive relationship to kill your appetite! I'm so lucky that I had such a strong support system, that they had an intervention and it only lasted 5 months. He was emotionally abusive and cruel, I left once but went back. Yesterday I finally left for good. I feel like i never want to eat again, and I'm so scared but ultimately so happy I left.",5.107042253521129,6.380321957746482,6.401521126760564,74.45861971830986,68.85915492957747,9.060281690140846,31.10140845070423,9.3871,2.885578028169014,293,12,53,6,5,99,50,71,0.248,0.557,0.195,-0.3893,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,1,6,10,2,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,9,8,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,1,8,7,3,5,0,12,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,9,32,11,0,0.0,0.3981338413236521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12919097028273974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191837067365734,0.0,0.18899105157383575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495198973037987,0.12002791139711196,0.0,0.1840490946848113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409206176328974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788520546694271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18588054760028824,0.0,0.0,0.1369523240988376,0.0,0.17790060464874308,0.5476370679823811,0.0,0.0,0.16416449681923853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341056928170771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295813253974027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612121863724562,0.0,0.0,0.17892745324645992,0.0,0.12778080872133832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038216910212207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16820946911689288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906581933973016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990979173533992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557489435235153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nymo55,2019/10/29,"This disorder is ruining my relationship I don’t know how to stop it, I’m constantly tired and my partner has honestly been so amazing but I can tell it’s making us drift apart because he’s starting to realise there’s not a lot he can do and I’m terrified that I’ll lose him over this but there’s that voice constantly in my head telling me I need to restrict and it just won’t stop. I just need these thoughts to go away and let me be free..",2.008868421052629,3.5559240315789467,3.573881578947372,90.59029605263159,77.10526315789474,7.697368421052633,27.66447368421053,8.472884824447931,1.7960789473684209,353,15,81,7,8,117,62,95,0.22699999999999998,0.727,0.047,-0.9486,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,0,10,2,1,2,0,19,19,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,8,4,0,3,2,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,2,1,11,4,7,14,1,11,0,2,0,0,8,4,0,1,5,51,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18610767705739006,0.0,0.0,0.12075097143828195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4281197158400534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22702293601138265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125764512343297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329268413099671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886251052666317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025556585923725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22160680284961531,0.0,0.1684050539705128,0.0,0.0,0.13222348808359438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937555070915456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21266950042996235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020580779054145,0.0,0.0,0.3312163914458248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34627059821297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725761633862087,0.0,0.2276699337905975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382722482420179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietcoke_bestfriend,2019/10/29,"I'm about to mcfreakin loose it Howdy long time lurker here bout to have a mental breakdown! Created this account for the soul purpose of shouting my problems that I don't even feel validated in to the online void. SO anyways my best friend is friends with my ex it's a complicated situation that I don't care to get into the nitty gritty of but long story short I will be alone on Halloween after inviting her to my place because she will be at his party along with all the people who dropped me as friends. I completely lost my appetite but God tell me WHY I COULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN THIS NEWS BEFORE I ATE 3 BOWLS OF CAPTAIN CRUNCH haha I want to never eat again and restrict as much as I possibly can but I'm a clown who can't do anything so time to fast before I ultimately binge on Halloween night immediately followed by days of restricting and bouncing in the fiery hell inferno of my 7 pounds till the end of time but I'm a healthy weight so lol if I ever open up to anyone it will be ""Oh crap that sucks"" before it is brushed aside because obviously it's not that bad and I'm just a dramatic bitch.

Moral of the story: Diet coke is my best friend.",4.420576923076922,5.318624594017095,5.443664529914532,82.08293269230772,70.15384615384616,7.901282051282053,30.009615384615394,8.07648339933343,2.0006846153846154,921,36,183,12,16,304,144,234,0.15,0.6629999999999999,0.187,0.9004,3,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,10,15,4,0,12,2,17,6,1,0,4,26,30,15,0,4,7,1,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,13,8,5,2,1,0,1,1,6,7,0,0,3,4,22,8,33,20,4,26,3,1,0,0,12,10,4,1,14,120,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14660009293653584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989730138053928,0.0,0.11648119135001984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11818590455206048,0.17257157991109942,0.0,0.3613384347645057,0.0,0.29708986841333074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431668800065536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14840942683569422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128616070134292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483800645239053,0.0,0.0,0.1253687049730107,0.0,0.0,0.0934905154733697,0.12803744319238727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157045979727591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43743571070452936,0.0,0.07395251039946389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505294341216164,0.0,0.0,0.15451536533312413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264617066058966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10405339497418324,0.0,0.1091698389792508,0.0,0.0,0.13283235173701466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981309271314871,0.0,0.1478865783184253,0.0,0.0,0.15957307185107028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544144514276962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910485548030726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371839228000825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476117327658809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348813879987169,0.0,0.0,0.17236621798572696,0.0,0.0,0.1277242290554884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unluckycharmss0,2019/10/29,"Ugh i binged today, and i have been for the past few days. my hinges are technically what normal people would eat in a day, but whatever. tonight i checked my waist and it’s gone up by 2 whole f*cking inches. kill me. i went from 25’’ to 27.5’’. what the hell. i hate my self smh",-0.6703448275862058,1.508684293103446,1.0719827586206918,100.29004310344831,94.0,4.279310344827587,15.870689655172415,5.985473137389443,-0.7527999999999997,211,5,51,2,8,68,49,58,0.337,0.6629999999999999,0.0,-0.9773,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,0,4,2,1,0,0,5,7,3,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,3,0,9,0,6,3,2,10,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745560242052272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971422362043777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867007485672593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212743429594819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.284521281910028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772108319079921,0.20132038435811855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029408869985928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752564791169874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691951371089743,0.0,0.3242109050048938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628525904297654,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,schmails,2019/10/29,"Struggling to make myself eat now that I am tapering off of weed. Any suggestions? It’s not that I don’t *want* to eat. I really honestly do. I have found that working out and eating a healthy diet are ways that I can feel control and accomplishment without hurting my body. I’ve been in recovery for a few months now and have found that exercise is a great way to hold myself accountable for eating (since I cannot exercise unless I have food with my preworkout). The thing is, I don’t feel hunger naturally. I could honestly go days without eating, and accidentally do occasionally. Weed normally helps me eat (for obvious reasons) but I’m trying to get my life together and get out of my stoner rut, which means now I need to figure out how to force myself to eat without the use of controlled substances. 

I really do try my best to eat, but often my body will physically reject food when I try and I don’t have an appetite. My throat will close up, I’ll feel nauseous, and I can only manage a couple bites. I’m not sure why this happens, it’s something I’ve struggled with for years. Very few foods *do not* cause this reaction...

I try to have some healthy go-to foods to eat that I know I can tolerate. I’m really sensitive to smell, so things like shredded wheat cereal and Larabars are things I know won’t upset me and I can generally force down. But I want a balanced diet, and these alone won’t cut it. After struggling with anorexia for about 15 years, I can’t help but have very strong aversions to food. I’m truly at a loss. 

Does anybody have any advice for how to make eating less of a chore? My boss used to help me by saying “I will eat this lunch today!” (parody of a line from American Beauty lol) and somehow that actually helped back then. I work from home now so I don’t have that same support system anymore, and my cat is hardly encouraging, haha :)

Thank you <3",2.2414303904923614,4.617213185483873,3.8343463497453314,85.00836162988115,79.77956989247312,7.034069043576682,23.499151103565364,8.119692808369301,1.4904290322580644,1483,51,291,29,38,492,186,372,0.079,0.747,0.174,0.9899,0,1,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,1,0,8,13,19,1,4,11,2,35,26,3,11,2,63,60,23,0,5,11,0,4,1,0,5,3,1,2,0,19,19,20,3,10,2,1,1,14,8,0,0,3,6,40,11,45,51,6,26,0,3,0,0,8,9,0,3,14,188,59,5,0.0,0.0,0.05956184787142164,0.0,0.0,0.05964318855575276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321437527109701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08301247205304786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060530819690787024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04693253542960485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06405299633490427,0.0,0.0,0.13559337196155066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270027607951932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369130164027652,0.048731883803697855,0.06753462476641205,0.0,0.039362851032642164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053412581260211915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6870001444745926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258415489358288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690218713075792,0.1338445605404853,0.0,0.0,0.0637770638611422,0.0,0.06937576749188225,0.0,0.0,0.06729185913669702,0.0,0.0,0.05397349501734938,0.0,0.0546758233974786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364324825382676,0.0,0.06122358749993945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533976988618352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708703406505401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04311118183139034,0.029818864454652705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148334634531282,0.0,0.0,0.06648555752354961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04871795734388148,0.0,0.0,0.045257053175851915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05980183530196988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04642025150374612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730272117325435,0.06275466402939836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04853788292896108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05048920000927617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04698811325496993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19142268445775684,0.0,0.0,0.06926236715290615,0.0575252406239966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05619329212419162,0.0,0.0,0.12164783123050013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05785452152981471,0.0,0.0,0.16575640419880652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054301579969115,0.0,0.10072136666221107,0.07200064380675737,0.09689428493614508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507504930587244,0.0,0.0,0.17650814471479184,0.0,0.08886914834623605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860972748373626
EDAnonymous,lolwickedbro,2019/10/29,"my hoco “dinner” we went in a group of 18 people to dinner before homecoming and i was determined to not eat anything bc i didn’t wanna bloat. but then my friend asked what i was getting and i was like nothing, i’m not hungry and she gave me a serious ass look and was like “yOU HaVE tO eaT” i was like 😳😳 and blamed it on my meds. and then i felt bad for not getting something when everyone else did and my date was paying for dinner, so i got a plate of house chips/fries.. kinda pressed about it but was proud that i didn’t completely give in to a whole meal",0.29838461538461303,2.3573659666666664,2.2683333333333344,95.24076923076923,85.16666666666666,5.35897435897436,18.39743589743589,6.67199483983844,-0.061448717948717764,436,11,100,5,13,145,73,120,0.11800000000000001,0.727,0.155,0.5859,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,0,1,3,7,0,0,4,0,11,7,1,0,0,16,21,13,0,1,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,8,6,0,1,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,14,3,16,5,13,7,1,8,0,0,1,1,8,3,1,1,7,65,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16953916395533256,0.0,0.19260345452160785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202038558182772,0.0,0.0,0.17531018076791666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160109272337848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42162540129086973,0.17210556626845452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968635607084237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978141428258828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917266087663515,0.0,0.21527676082651964,0.19763578894596714,0.0,0.0,0.16477520883370372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377225853190197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30195691817825154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730072167231444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288448239713719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976843792374319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14283022993850206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15860637361580826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909851476500564,0.0,0.23001703606945956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MagiPan,2019/10/29,"The girl's body who I envy There is a girl in my class. Very beautiful and elegant in a sexy way. Thin and curvy. 

I was always scared to ask her how she stays so skinny. 

Today I asked her and I though she was going to kiss my cheek. Not that I mind. People often do that to me. 

She whispers in my ear, ""I'm bulimic.""

And so we started talking. She said she knew I was anorexic or bulimic because I kept trying to hide it as fasting. 


I guess it takes one to know one.",-1.1380714285714255,0.9304478500000036,1.5917142857142856,96.37300000000002,95.5,4.457142857142856,17.142857142857142,6.1826913282559595,-0.29111428571428544,355,10,82,4,14,122,67,100,0.066,0.7979999999999999,0.136,0.8425,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,0,5,5,4,1,0,14,16,10,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,5,5,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,4,20,1,9,10,0,10,0,0,0,1,15,4,0,3,3,56,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18910778286770327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249356463092416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854236875409548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524469860115875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916341818339466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503647676987487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12490226701480656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22947904921148626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080095931538793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756118243612768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161868850762498,0.0,0.22753804456408244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086367250727435,0.24224078057871484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708796022632506,0.1826719219362956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22329272705222092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21542645301992674,0.0,0.0,0.15430217586141598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18752248043549868,0.0,0.18039724095668885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NickTheAlien,2019/10/29,"It's cool how much this sub hates men Really makes me feel welcome as a guy struggling with ed and other mental health issues

Guess since I'm a dude I cant possibly have problems too",6.4142105263157925,5.54244305263158,6.725263157894743,80.68684210526318,65.84210526315789,9.705263157894738,29.52631578947368,8.841846274778883,2.1039052631578947,148,4,30,2,2,48,36,38,0.142,0.6709999999999999,0.188,0.2163,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,2,1,2,1,0,2,0,7,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584577900960122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31775320601663304,0.2856045680441569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28477839318389314,0.0,0.3066021176191621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30106023638268165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19253837988315944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290683362125362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203927558365485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251768821801005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27600162319741384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478439176901867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386035725677341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015439366157208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ambxvalence,2019/10/29,"Wanted to yeet myself into oblivion after this storytime!! 

my dad came home today from dinner with business partners, and he proceeded to tell me and my mom the following: 

'so they asked me how my youngest doughter was (me) and if shes still vegan (i am). so i said yes, and they said wow she must be so thin then, so i said well yeah no, but shes perfect, very fit' 

i just 


WHY",0.036623376623378334,2.3488620779220817,1.9714415584415583,94.64287662337664,90.55844155844156,5.157922077922079,19.388311688311685,6.742157984588678,0.2581542857142858,288,9,63,4,10,95,57,77,0.019,0.7759999999999999,0.205,0.9386,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,8,3,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,1,2,14,13,12,0,3,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,4,16,3,6,6,0,10,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,1,5,44,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222492225829862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722016879903516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387273467781566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787356496137672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6791602682468575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900622839305244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801721109787405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255904462303203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19636994179051745,0.14037500385225954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21398515201645288,0.0,0.2147525313586056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollowedhollow,2019/10/29,"My dad estimated I weigh 10kg (22lbs) more than I actually do Do NOT repeat my mistake and ask people how much they think you weigh. The only effect is heartbreak. 


Whelp, guess I gotta restrict myself down a further 10kg :))))))) hello darkness my old friend",2.5983673469387725,5.059480673469391,4.125877551020409,82.93697959183675,79.0,5.552653061224492,24.08571428571429,6.742157984588678,1.0037640816326523,199,7,36,2,5,66,41,49,0.161,0.737,0.102,-0.4703,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,2,0,8,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,1,2,6,2,4,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,1,2,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.3756669812051063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3598871213661333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2974203700829954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240785931761157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829910634572545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40395243199330705,0.0,0.0,0.2927806368069599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668838958486262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24666784329153266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gutterella_sugarbox,2019/10/29,"Obsessed with cooking? Is it normal to be obsessed with cooking and actually enjoying the number play of knowing exactly how many calories are in a serving of what you've made, but then never eating it?
Or is it just me?
I'm only obsessed with numbers and math when it comes to calories, inches, and calculating to the exact minute detail how many lbs or inches I've lost, and how many calories my deficit is.",6.115769230769232,6.952720064102567,6.832461538461541,73.86253846153849,66.30769230769229,8.291282051282051,36.112820512820505,8.238735603445708,3.12229435897436,327,16,54,4,5,108,51,78,0.142,0.797,0.061,-0.7744,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,3,3,0,5,3,0,4,3,21,10,12,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,1,3,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,2,2,9,7,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,3,38,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.2401334250965241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119715779936566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25179586602395865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352362279322286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686196198154052,0.0,0.0,0.2328418451327931,0.0,0.7484434140469287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897879902020902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24110097405172215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18715090927837205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sunflowersandrainx,2019/10/29,A kid offered me a cookie So I’m a teacher and I got a new group today and one of the kids gave me a tiny cookie and I had to refuse I felt so sorry for him he’s like 7 that’s so sweet of him to give it to me and I’m just like “nah thanks” like poor kid,-3.3000000000000007,-1.8596609999999991,0.4362500000000011,106.18375,96.5,3.2,11.125,3.1291,-2.0955250000000003,192,2,58,0,8,70,39,64,0.13,0.6559999999999999,0.214,0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,8,7,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,8,5,6,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,0,0,0,5,32,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31967784450349823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193896154462844,0.0,0.0,0.2662852252881485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4879779340201574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32155877823950363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256110419033875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37270284052163777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30652951968548925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31559138156515365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,borzoibaby,2019/10/29,How to function while restricting? I'm really scared of feeling sick from not eating. How do I eat less but still be able to function?,2.2867948717948714,4.98312742307693,3.220769230769232,87.40756410256414,82.46153846153845,6.5435897435897425,24.051282051282055,7.793537801064563,1.5425282051282052,107,4,20,2,3,34,22,26,0.231,0.72,0.05,-0.6155,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,6,4,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,14,1,0,0.3652863151146605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7475581883816782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469973654767965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340117671531253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657153261426764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917181231101372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dietcoketrashh,2019/10/29,people think I’m healthy when they find out in vegan but secretly I’m also anorexic lmao I care more about animals than my own health,2.0844444444444434,4.648896703703707,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,81.96296296296295,8.044444444444443,23.814814814814817,8.841846274778883,2.157948148148148,109,4,21,3,3,36,24,27,0.0,0.6459999999999999,0.354,0.91,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,4,4,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755050234751657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4787452425869077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42916711724775136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4991177452467807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255321000342568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30087353447192605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carsandbands,2019/10/29,"I hate my reflection. Sorry for formatting. I’m on mobile. 

I guess I’ll start this with the fact that I don’t think I have an ED. Like it’s on spectrum or something. I take adhd medication and when i first started taking them I was about sixty pounds heavier than i am now. I was having an identity crisis since I had been thin my entire life up until I started anti antidepressants. 

I didn’t know this pill suppressed appetite and I had been tirelessly trying to lose all the weight that I gained and nothing helped. Suddenly I’ve shed a bunch of weight in a month and more the next. Fast forward four months later and I’m switched to a new, more powerful medication. 

I was taking this medication not only to balance my concentration to keep on task in my daily routine but I was now using it to control how thin I am at all times. I knew how much I could eat a day without gaining over a pound. I knew that even if I did, I could just cut back for the next 24 hours and could lose two more. I never let myself get underweight but just over that point so no one can use this against me. I never plan to let myself become underweight as this has been going on for two years now. 

Back to the story. Every time I use the restroom in my house, when I’m done peeing or whatever I always get on the scale. I never see my true reflection in the mirror. Ever. Sometimes I’ll look down at my arms or I’ll catch a glance of myself in a window or the right angle of my shadow and see how small I am. Almost skeletal-like. Yet I can’t see my true self actually looking at me and it kills me. The whole pill thing, this makes that hard to control.

I see it on the scale. I know how bad it might look to others but looking in the mirror makes me want to keep pushing until I don’t see that anymore. I try and avoid mirrors. When I’m in the bathroom after I get on the scale, I wash my hands, and doing so I look at my face and focus on my eyes and the shape of my lips and that’s it. I don’t do anything else because I can’t stand to look at my body. 

I’m trying to control this. It’s an awful combination of being in control but at the very same time being out of control.",2.055754695107812,3.5843762819383262,3.832469278924184,88.8652492464642,76.9295154185022,6.276744725249247,22.520055645722238,6.950104931194217,0.5966748898678413,1688,48,364,17,38,568,209,454,0.11,0.8740000000000001,0.017,-0.9902,1,1,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,1,12,21,10,3,1,26,1,34,17,7,14,9,70,75,34,1,5,13,0,6,1,0,1,7,0,1,1,23,15,3,9,7,0,0,4,12,7,0,5,14,19,60,3,57,53,9,72,0,2,13,0,3,34,0,8,36,260,83,0,0.0,0.0,0.07044836560742332,0.0,0.08676000056191252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228923130890158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06006900486106965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715944428940331,0.0,0.0,0.059407348276800186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102141834033176,0.060276780411996765,0.04400719048129221,0.0797296988870348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018834021496136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4048438128035757,0.1729168094827664,0.0,0.0,0.046557462872616015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387683814398309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386979643072765,0.06030662813920527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768172053301295,0.06530122925463946,0.060824344728030874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061405944376104214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315103727029036,0.0,0.04102802051335232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795269354855578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466928972565716,0.07127403429323945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04838835510551447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109395984397071,0.08329915100341721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12833401733818156,0.07986905737799338,0.0,0.07934898046707935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764113852772098,0.05099090118866391,0.035269057965333965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3637354250837127,0.16152735947035873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637660313432256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181756379412909,0.0,0.0765836376732797,0.0,0.0,0.11524492920426575,0.0,0.0530689650661244,0.0,0.1670353102607096,0.06972287719380288,0.15355268681037013,0.0,0.0,0.06926956870764835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048918742179321205,0.0549047916811449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824418111126931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06165103747385405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28763588526397743,0.0,0.07531134563360478,0.0,0.0,0.059717449148961585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557644532679819,0.0713991131062226,0.0808123308644891,0.15329227458452627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283678286561756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047960739948703084,0.04625731639243755,0.0,0.0,0.12628610915939226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703960902091442,0.0,0.1410409617873621,0.0,0.0,0.1870505008335686,0.0,0.059565442617029264,0.04258034178034674,0.0,0.0,0.17581928591823595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059908903983891,0.0,0.0695899067156709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046488876856449216
EDAnonymous,Weeb_Trash_420,2019/10/29,Mom won't get me diganosed I'm 99% sure I have arfid and she thinks it's coming from fucking autism for some reason. What makes it worse is that she doesn't think it's a real disorder and mocks me by showing me videos of toddlers crying over eating vegetables. Bad enough that I already have issues feeling like I only deserve to eat once a day but oh nooo let's add unsupportive family on top of this disaster.,3.281824440619623,5.152445650602413,4.246333907056801,85.73734939759039,74.42168674698793,7.152495697074013,25.110154905335627,7.957251820313856,1.4312492254733225,331,11,65,5,7,107,67,83,0.187,0.732,0.081,-0.875,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,2,0,6,4,0,2,1,13,14,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,4,2,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,8,2,8,12,2,5,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,2,36,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187171960091684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548763727547675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17073063192726132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177119672829537,0.127821766120682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22715288344490894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056135046957001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20479224085875505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684409686695624,0.0,0.10021521885762136,0.14159319220021965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832315061246006,0.10355064136439814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686795108709646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20267160100965764,0.0,0.09682987431845824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322991725198467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321279241637257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107514895932286,0.0,0.1507390439288715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255935139178324,0.0,0.203781275444095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679993090385888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539954504592322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20198140976911988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugarysweet24,2019/10/29,"just wondering (was going to tag as discussion but TW due to mentioning food amounts/really unhealthy ED behaviors)

DAE wonder how they like.. did it when their ED was at its worst? Like I LIVED off stale hospital coffee w cheap powdered creamer (0/10 do not recommend but god that shit hit different on an empty stomach and I still love it lol), a thermos of green tea with stevia or a teaspoon of sugar, maybe like a few bites off a candy bar on certain days, and some chips. No extra vitamins, barely any supplemental nutrition except for the times I couldn’t refuse to eat/could stomach an easy meal. And this went on for close to a year? It felt like hell but so amazing at the same time. no idea how I didn’t pass out or get scurvy. But earlier I ate a raw unpeeled barely washed turnip LIKE AN APPLE out of desperation. It was so crunchy. Oh how the mighty have fallen",4.225520361990952,5.801916882352946,4.850000000000001,83.58192307692309,71.3529411764706,8.289592760180996,27.19457013574661,8.841846274778883,2.044696832579186,690,24,134,13,13,221,121,170,0.212,0.632,0.156,-0.9136,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,0,8,11,2,0,12,1,8,12,3,3,1,28,17,16,0,1,9,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,7,6,1,4,1,1,4,5,3,0,0,8,3,7,8,21,7,5,21,1,0,1,1,6,10,2,5,12,80,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464260871098302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580819797424519,0.0,0.0,0.1276896547774152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686143427012485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202597139593392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19010514729398206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394149514907109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344361566179697,0.0,0.11252446873843797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235109587686458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4836489746273295,0.0,0.17483219853999346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786971814303253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19891143629856667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032378436072444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581181457930647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23090361439820295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354228421844812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294317728130208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12750154906489264
EDAnonymous,minute__rice,2019/10/29,"Edibles having no effect I had an edible today and I never got the effects of it :( Same thing  happened when I tried shrooms for the first time. All my friends were trippin HARD and I just sat there

I've been a bulimic for about 10 years and I'm wondering if anyone else has had this happen?",0.20879472693032144,2.6073351525423725,2.1666666666666683,91.20483992467042,95.77966101694916,5.334086629001884,20.11487758945385,6.937597516519254,0.7421058380414309,230,8,46,4,9,76,49,59,0.122,0.826,0.052000000000000005,-0.4824,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,2,2,11,12,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,1,5,1,4,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,6,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981392087411468,0.290346515261678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23671965135760376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24103476172540256,0.0,0.0,0.21893130829717655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22663723686106066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5011671097458662,0.0,0.2538442653776791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21855276182939226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882587368888057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523558937565222,0.0,0.26860205487440697,0.0,0.0,0.19238993599423349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30730316743774155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824812804334356
EDAnonymous,peppermintprotein,2019/10/29,"Haven't been talking to my boyfriend lately because I gained so much weight. Won't talk to him until I'm back in the 120s Like the title says, I'm so ashamed of my body. I was 129lbs when I met him and I'm 135lbs right now. I'm not speaking to him until I'm back there.",-0.05469945355191541,1.6274727377049203,1.5290983606557411,102.20763661202187,83.91803278688525,4.066666666666666,18.36338797814207,3.1291,-1.0067726775956285,211,5,54,0,6,68,40,61,0.07,0.841,0.08900000000000001,0.0281,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,1,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,2,10,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,3,8,1,7,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,8,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.454469098932969,0.0,0.18014459285050274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282530818576728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33335636709885635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14437481734006175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21723920569068364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523701450393615,0.0,0.23500720467068756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750511962277965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35986043792628764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,confused123456,2019/10/29,"I wish there was low calorie volume foods so that when i binged i wasn't seriously killing myself. non alcoholic fatty liver, morbid obeisity and im always wanting to fill the void with food. thanks bed",2.69736842105263,5.682331894736844,3.521368421052632,83.35257894736844,85.31578947368422,5.145263157894737,23.389473684210525,6.742157984588678,1.138614736842106,164,6,27,2,5,52,34,38,0.052000000000000005,0.687,0.261,0.8193,0,0,1,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,5,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,4,1,2,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011682958751444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23448780219982104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6815295266761096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30440225904824325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117800897759632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25945201871145895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621834811619562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32406663433542104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sondergal,2019/10/29,"""Have you had any weight changes greater than 10 lbs unintentionally?"" I fucking hate that question at the doctor. Hate it. I dread it for days before it even has to happen.",2.5874999999999986,5.490152750000004,3.017500000000002,87.67750000000002,84.0,4.45,23.625,5.985473137389443,0.4369750000000003,136,5,26,1,4,42,28,32,0.273,0.6629999999999999,0.064,-0.8479,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,3,1,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,6,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,1,17,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925058108051714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408823618589941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994637550331609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825647969813409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289746939239451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869733248275996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617052144674634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503289243973849,0.0,0.0,0.5589707341393731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171171922270499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447182283846764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,maalvdtx,2019/10/29,Does anyone know any Ana WhatsApp groups? I want to join one but I can't find any,-1.6833333333333336,0.17411955555555814,-0.13888888888888928,106.745,103.44444444444444,2.4000000000000004,11.555555555555555,3.1291,-2.0579111111111112,64,1,16,0,3,20,16,18,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.1901,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6052838718730987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111817757420058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894568272976828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067577916265277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445819208072087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30157009845022376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624956671140951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pipergnome,2019/10/29,"Long time ED So just wondering how many of you out there have had your ED for a long time, like double digits? 

So I’ve had my eating disorder on and off since 1998. I hate how when I’m trying to recover, I’m still going back to the same clinic saying “I relapsed again and need help”. I’m in adulthood now. I’m at the age where if I want to have kids, I need to in the next few years or it’ll no longer be an option for me. 

What do I do about my fear of gaining weight though? What do I do when I inevitably gain weight during pregnancy and after? Sometimes I lose hope bc I know this will be a lifelong battle for me.",1.4622523744911788,2.744783298507464,3.1624016282225256,94.08687245590231,77.95522388059702,6.066757123473543,19.64450474898236,6.574015621080383,-0.0502149253731341,478,10,113,4,11,159,89,134,0.128,0.76,0.113,-0.466,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,3,15,6,2,1,6,0,12,4,0,2,0,17,24,12,0,5,3,0,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,4,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,3,15,2,17,18,3,22,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,5,15,76,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080251663372415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20986324669094888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18737021011177016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20605292006553888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040672804786436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18078607802258206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273671650882985,0.0,0.0,0.1818724258827782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063406060834157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945971318068963,0.0,0.0,0.3240983072076477,0.0,0.204856495788115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564773912716528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715517891482421,0.0,0.0,0.1947426457162804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561872709224608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147288249092125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811033395367811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462341978726355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17990749379201634,0.0,0.21354920820792075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432163874011945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10800473226559244,0.0,0.0,0.44596436075323775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985781281565292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791870352074957
EDAnonymous,allzeewaydown,2019/09/25,"Dear Mia, TRIGGER WARNING: 

Dear Mia, 

I freaking hate you. I hate what you do to me. The obsession and the secrecy it all hurts inside. The disgusting things you make me do. The shame I feel every time I let you tell me what to do. I hate you. I was 13 when I first met you. You told me you would help me stop the paintings on my skin. You told me I didn’t need the razor blade anymore. When I was 14, you told me I was fat. You told me if I wanted to eat I had to do a sport.i would run miles everyday. I had to burn every calorie off. 3 years later I would suffer from joint and nerve pain from overexercising. Pain that I still feel every time I walk. When I was 15, you told me I was trying hard enough. You told me I needed to diet. I quickly lost weight. Calories became an obsession. Macronutrients became my life. When I was 16, you allowed me to eat only if I used certain pills to get it out of me. My digestive system would be ruined. When I met my ex-boyfriend, I felt everything would be okay. I felt like I didn’t need to you anymore Mia. I stopped listening to you. When he left me and everything around me fell apart, you were there Mia. When I was suicidal, you reminded me no one who care if I died because who would want to see a fat girl casket. My parents? The shame they would have to special order one for me. When I was 17 years old, you told me to stop eating. I wasn’t worthy to eat. I tried to diet. I tried to not do it. Yet, food was my only comfort. You looked back at me in the mirror shaking your head at me. I couldn’t stop eating. When I was 18, and I moved to college, you told me we could eat again under one condition. We could eat anything we wanted if we purged it after. I would skip classes being leaned over the toilet with [NOT PUTTING IN HERE] my throat. My teeth rotting and my gums bleeding. Every time I burped I felt the acid run up and down my throat. And I listened to you. I let you control me. I let you let me hate my body. I let you kill my self-confidence. I let you let me push people away.  I am now 19. And Bulimia, I write this letter to you. Please don’t take my life away. Please let me recover. You don’t control me anymore. 

TLDR: I’m struggling with trying to recover so I wrote this letter to my eating disorder about how it’s been there through every age of my life and how it has progressed worse and worse.",0.23689608636977155,2.4240829595141733,2.0503238866396782,95.79906207827264,86.81376518218624,5.005128205128205,18.99055330634278,6.42735559955562,-0.06328151147098504,1818,51,411,19,57,597,214,494,0.19399999999999998,0.745,0.061,-0.9967,2,0,0,0,0,0,71.0,4,29,1,5,24,27,6,6,13,1,49,29,8,8,2,62,86,26,4,21,6,1,8,1,0,8,11,2,0,1,14,18,15,6,5,0,0,8,9,19,0,4,32,13,121,8,45,32,2,57,0,4,2,0,57,17,0,4,31,286,135,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282900367163385,0.0,0.0,0.04227127823945403,0.04572818463958228,0.0,0.0,0.09652337680123914,0.03949862602296718,0.0,0.0313133012553233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05705798590761822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05237284064807207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522659031879046,0.0820259308872868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05331161054922578,0.0,0.05887188734399431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204962260043572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05307661320392097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163977078855024,0.0,0.09233203599885502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519461517306295,0.0,0.14796327543460766,0.0,0.0,0.043693378606707085,0.06211408250439077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026837527221096055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04601541086809741,0.2028600583766161,0.052718127112135436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03443071743724832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05499023463226574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683080031475736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05581120645715455,0.4202160054150946,0.1088476746235247,0.02509568606815396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313596944163495,0.0,0.05607396288247414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03428836941082046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05459578479774802,0.0,0.11426559860434743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053901808565820636,0.0,0.1044243425317341,0.07813497128399165,0.10931780712978127,0.0,0.05703780310108341,0.0,0.0,0.03561192735577197,0.0,0.0,0.11277271958572467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05163877271522365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040933443051500436,0.0,0.053587762090182775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041022348404221406,0.17178294340009104,0.0,0.05370072137590067,0.0,0.056187976930478056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03862215228582061,0.0,0.04489767423215199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03412644801945239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985883754955347,0.0,0.0,0.3926726618568387,0.0,0.13950131098671756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04436523985059943,0.0,0.0,0.09089408265833984,0.0,0.0,0.06255207622029366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469624352704014,0.29192138423647257,0.0,0.0,0.06615828868450302
EDAnonymous,britisheartc,2019/09/25,"Buddy Hi guys, 

I want to lose weight, being overweight, and I would love someone to be my buddy and have a thing where we would help each other in this journey! Nothing like meanspo, just a friend. I currently struggle with a mix of anorexia and BED and would like the healthy approach.

Must be near my stats: 5'5 and 170lbs",5.691774193548388,6.473597370967744,4.919516129032257,87.39927419354844,67.2258064516129,6.845161290322581,31.62903225806452,5.985473137389443,1.5362774193548383,255,10,49,1,4,76,47,62,0.163,0.638,0.2,0.5679,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,1,2,6,0,1,4,0,8,3,0,0,1,14,10,5,0,5,1,0,1,2,1,4,1,0,1,1,3,8,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,4,6,3,1,6,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224817951410326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592002823020315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754635345272659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25578193582113595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928613852829173,0.0,0.0,0.2362638679594472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251181990669448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218027134190654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736660482446362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17391293693683435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440279492590572,0.0,0.0,0.3187737346930181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5578763858418436,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sare888,2019/09/25,"Confused [TW] I weigh 5’4 and 103lbs currently. I started off with a healthy weight loss plan two years ago, coming down from 130lbs to 110 lbs. But now, I’ve noticed I need to lean out more and have been trying to make sure I’m eating enough protein so that I don’t lose muscle mass while eating at a deficit. However, I’ve been okay with dropping down to 103lbs, and am still trying to lose another 10 lbs to get rid off the extra visible fat on my thighs and stomach. I used to weigh 95lbs during my college years, which I then thought was normal for me, and did not look underweight. Later on, work stress and lack of knowledge about nutrition resulted in me gaining weight over a period of 3-4 years, which I have now reverted.

I’m not sure if this means I have an ED? Im currently at 103lbs, and feel fine with slowly and healthily dropping to 95 lbs. Once I get there, I will reassess how I should maintain and slowly build muscle. But this will also mean I have a BMI of 16.5 or so at that point. 

While most of my habits seem healthy (I eat 1200 calories and do reformer Pilates 5 days a week), focus on veggies and protein, a couple of things which could be disordered thinking have always been in my mind. My sister has always naturally been underweight while eating whatever she wants. Same with my boyfriend. It makes it hard to see what normal is, when I feel fat next to them. I have noticed that triggering me in a way nothing else does, but that seems to be it. I really do wish I could be skinny enough to be able to wear whatever I want comfortably, after having neglected my body for so long. 

Sorry for the long rant. I have been able to relate to a few posts on this sub and am glad to be able to find a place I can express my thoughts/possible concerns",6.459066985645933,5.854293363636367,6.452308612440195,81.80010765550243,65.64772727272727,9.683253588516749,31.87858851674641,8.99025400887824,2.4248159090909103,1392,47,283,20,19,442,196,352,0.069,0.858,0.073,0.3477,3,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,1,6,11,12,0,2,12,1,33,15,7,6,2,58,56,27,0,11,7,1,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,15,18,11,1,10,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,8,7,33,6,48,38,8,47,0,4,2,0,4,19,0,6,23,183,48,2,0.2833977741796959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837383425223567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755443658742357,0.15720643375990428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905575871151336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493034655290208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137402956731897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084670826381574,0.10452474893934008,0.0,0.06092270647766796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826613388055004,0.0,0.08266776732285025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866488977569525,0.0789141585063403,0.0,0.0,0.1952171051519069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552961985040592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634014380555773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870909346474348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462291355641703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203940913876118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671987414274391,0.07932758491921835,0.2113664126425901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611347658981906,0.0,0.0,0.20580217132404394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538365476578302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004528621136225,0.0,0.0,0.10046558263925236,0.0,0.1851130984341813,0.09064260253521826,0.21510016283425595,0.0,0.10060312679953023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869678529209454,0.0,0.08930083295187645,0.0,0.09047224309459284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06051729031808575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527711146256819,0.1719964599581143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057468686922205,0.06686346773490914,0.0,0.07544060951324462,0.0,0.10821039760723704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17806603219297987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627589628399874,0.0605299501979229,0.0,0.0749953922867056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282723239663637,0.0,0.09227948202213362,0.0,0.0,0.08158822850780756,0.0,0.0,0.11143689986288492,0.07498265402108574,0.07577486671891066,0.23006809409732784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863115140000526,0.0,0.0,0.06877231828467296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824988750107186
EDAnonymous,girlonthetra1n,2019/09/25,"Need advice on eating disorder To start, I am 19 years old and a freshman in college. Growing up as an overweight--even obese at one point-- child, I came to have pretty bad body image issues by 6th grade. In eighth grade, I had shed most of my baby fat and was still bigger than other girls in my grade at around 130 lbs and 5'5 but healthy nonetheless. I can't pinpoint the exact time this took place, and I'm sorry if this is TMI, but I could not regularly go to the bathroom and when I did it would be small or once every few days. I get bloated very easily as well. I researched different ways to mend this and nothing ever worked. Keep this in mind.

By the summer before freshman year, I absolutely hated myself. I began to binge and purge regularly. This continued into my sophomore year but I began to gain even more weight as I'd stress eat all the time and got up to 150lbs and I lost my ability to be able to make myself throw up as my gag reflex did not work anymore. Towards the middle of 10th grade, I began to take laxatives until I started taking Hydroxycut hardcore elite (a diet pill with caffeine among other things) in excessive doses. At one point I was taking 6 at once (3x the recommended maximum dose) and almost called 911 on myself thinking I was having a heart attack. Then, I picked up coffee and cigarettes. I'd drink my coffee and have a couple cigarettes every morning which would help me to go to the bathroom and make me feel less bloated. As the middle of junior year rolled around, I picked up vaping instead thinking it would be healthier. I began to repeat my same ritual every morning and smoking my Juul throughout the day constantly as well. This seemed to temporarily solve all my problems: I could use the bathroom and I lost a ton of weight. I went from 130lbs (which I already saw as an improvement from 150) to my lowest weight of 113lbs. I still am unsure how it dropped so quickly. I've been in denial about my eating disorder for a while. Ever since I picked up smoking and drinking coffee, I thought I was cured since I wasn't taking diet pills or purging. I know I use it as a tool though because recently there have been many reports of people hospitalized because of vape use and I use mine the same amount as the people being put into comas. I'm terrified.

In the last 5 months or so I've gained weight back and waver between 127-130lbs. I feel horrible. Everyday I see a picture of me from last year in my Snapchat memories and it breaks my heart because I want to be skinny again. Today for a school project I had to have my roommate take photos of me around campus and when I look at the pictures, I want to go to the bathroom and purge. As a fashion major, I love clothes and can't even find the confidence to wear what I want because I feel fat.

I also really do want to quit smoking for my own health but I'm dependent on it to use the bathroom regularly and I'm terrified of weight gain. If anyone can give advice on dealing with my constipation (lol this is so cringy for me to write and I've never addressed this with anyone except a therapist who royally screwed me over) or can help give me some advice on any of the issues mentioned, I'd deeply appreciate it with all of my heart. I can't stand the thought of gaining weight. It will destroy me, but I know my vaping habit will do the same :(

I just feel like I'll carry my eating disorder with me forever, and that's a scary thought.",5.766791192212367,6.027289073637704,6.387779015050827,78.76228133194442,66.95287187039764,9.039706886023207,30.699414490463013,8.841846274778883,2.4111527066345766,2727,96,516,41,41,893,314,679,0.113,0.782,0.105,-0.8909999999999999,2,0,4,0,0,0,63.0,0,0,0,10,26,13,4,1,34,1,39,31,8,12,7,103,96,57,0,13,15,0,10,1,0,5,9,0,1,2,24,36,18,1,13,2,0,9,7,9,2,2,25,13,76,4,97,59,15,91,1,2,3,2,12,39,1,11,40,348,100,13,0.05756777685949525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16876369584806178,0.0,0.0,0.05764581287664596,0.0,0.06352747327790867,0.04603693035587344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039148062347640976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570917657215279,0.08050545619528245,0.0,0.0,0.1537425794472107,0.0,0.06549165693178016,0.0,0.044266066958153716,0.0480666890700327,0.1403711297950463,0.0,0.048985938040315966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394482236459026,0.0,0.0,0.05878313663685629,0.0658422004965187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06221031545770884,0.0,0.0919263709793408,0.06369765013841595,0.0,0.0742529072220396,0.05934985014954036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06014607414145191,0.19793297915781774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278901008151945,0.0,0.23562483015404806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406892104318705,0.10414669997367564,0.14551000464594455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643199079326963,0.04112643129100912,0.0,0.0,0.05261590512136617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03007678738671901,0.11044851439258672,0.09815128271756847,0.0,0.04604221007103727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683626135509615,0.0,0.06119185481103497,0.0,0.20465427826962188,0.0771729347045278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201716049266684,0.0,0.05116888515229022,0.0,0.0,0.06327548926910004,0.0938508432186279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02812470791282114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04834243374688515,0.0,0.1256840576743769,0.0,0.051957166211764286,0.0,0.07685387614965287,0.05836469011566407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05812704389962496,0.0,0.045950050260621315,0.0,0.0,0.04268577710266378,0.044399818454913184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055237834508213464,0.0,0.060407697871637474,0.12261560709274895,0.07801883093153858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982049603056479,0.0,0.06014607414145191,0.0,0.10884031336423253,0.0,0.0,0.05856712505547136,0.0,0.05508458775644998,0.0,0.05787151607045332,0.0,0.0612304168477926,0.0,0.0,0.03687939196336625,0.0,0.0568412346204035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826166357873419,0.04587406483182204,0.05240754195839354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524131981433208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644424130508952,0.08149353752174428,0.0,0.09194740192664363,0.0,0.06594369389133675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164190190005644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684062596988781,0.03824547294872081,0.07377421385323017,0.05656004847688623,0.1371071533300922,0.06713646726913973,0.0,0.05456752123933325,0.0,0.0639599182841114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24860037874472565,0.0,0.04749944489440217,0.13581986528559176,0.04569462171161817,0.0,0.4206122601928999,0.10352069001750444,0.053365905895628486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838200543652517,0.0,0.0,0.12268349094233134,0.0,0.0,0.1853588043190544
EDAnonymous,babi--,2019/09/25,"holy shit i just put on my only belt i have. i haven’t worn it in a couple of months but it is too big for me. i even added an extra hole when i first got it because it was a little big but i need to go way past that for it to even fit me right now.

i have lost a few lbs i won’t say numbers and i’m not even underweight but i thought it wasn’t much but this just proves that i was wrong. i’m shocked honestly. idk how to feel rn esp since my mom always comments on how skinny i’ve gotten but i’ve brushed her off because idk i just don’t see it ?",-1.9385156250000009,-0.1600165703124965,0.7128125000000018,104.2009375,93.609375,3.825,15.03125,5.148860815047168,-1.26099375,421,9,115,2,16,143,78,128,0.141,0.799,0.06,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,11,5,1,0,4,0,9,2,2,2,1,16,20,9,0,1,9,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,10,1,1,0,3,0,0,2,5,4,0,1,8,4,16,1,10,11,3,17,0,1,1,0,4,9,1,0,5,71,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253962572780834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528087219868527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294392237003552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4108767691683138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484713927218907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17637979328307749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784712132486955,0.0,0.16584424877828266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078285864956637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22635727190608124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428568142762419,0.16551228872461884,0.0,0.15243301252366032,0.15375436205573545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770616192557546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979480032919026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845346245448854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17708378815450962,0.0,0.1649005116678789,0.0,0.0,0.16523858886664355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21285143650899305,0.17152983222232435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462019533145386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459223393661898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267149438144952,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadasianbear,2019/09/25,"What’s the name for the eating disorder where people binge, then starve, then binge, then starve, and so on, but don’t purge? I am quite surprised, because, from my experience, this is the most common eating disorder, yet there doesn’t seem to be a proper name for it.

Most people don’t go to the extremes of purging by vomiting or crapping a shitload.

And most people don’t simply restrict their intake, so many have binge cycles.",8.581666666666667,7.564133308641978,7.895154320987658,74.52569444444445,61.5925925925926,10.075308641975312,33.830246913580254,8.841846274778883,2.8054913580246907,342,11,60,4,4,107,56,81,0.154,0.812,0.034,-0.8364,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,5,2,1,0,6,0,8,4,1,0,0,11,10,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,8,9,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,5,5,43,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14208353643329089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5342602418143312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.476998499458713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279971760467953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324648582115876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23630675585712466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484765423165341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479095003572721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121874749628868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,o-no9,2019/09/25,"Overweight and experiencing negative restriction symptoms I’m overweight (close to the obese end), so I feel like the excess fat on my body should prevent me from having any sort of symptoms, even though I know logically it doesn’t work that way. I’ve been on a liquid only fast for two days, and I’m already feeling dizzy and cognitively slower. It’s frustrating because I know some people go for so much longer, and because I feel like my weight should enable me to have more endurance with this sort of thing.",8.432812499999997,7.9538008229166675,7.754250000000002,73.66575000000002,61.60416666666666,10.18,35.86666666666667,9.3871,3.219719166666668,413,16,73,6,5,129,69,96,0.156,0.762,0.08199999999999999,-0.8148,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,3,1,0,3,0,6,8,2,0,0,19,14,7,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,5,6,5,2,6,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,5,8,2,10,11,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,5,45,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262486442308475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942308065160372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499609709514882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277350037562708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322232628054746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159005809721326,0.0,0.0,0.13541615620901887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109982819579131,0.2929378060084001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651963839971527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253512208418925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20032835264289134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071593858006213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592968885780575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213755149481952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261960514660906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620857175858536,0.0,0.2014346490619276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027826911199792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273819305969725,0.0,0.24966351486811106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14925962485972832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frickinskinny,2019/09/25,"sad about coffee (possible TW? idk) Almost every morning I drink a single serving of my absolute favorite coffee. It only has 110 calories in it, and it just tastes so divine, it's the only coffee I truly enjoy. But lately my ED brain has been getting worse and worse, to the point where I don't even feel like I deserve those 110 calories... even though I barely eat anything else. I feel like it's less about the calories and more just that I feel like I don't deserve to enjoy any food?


idk where this is going, I'm guess I'm just sad that I can't even bring myself to drink a cup of coffee.",3.299826958105648,4.427435303278688,4.495027322404372,86.9793897996357,73.01639344262296,6.077959927140255,23.39162112932605,5.82211442006289,0.4917347905282328,465,12,93,2,9,153,69,122,0.16,0.7090000000000001,0.132,-0.1465,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,0,5,0,7,6,1,0,0,12,16,6,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,3,5,0,3,2,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,4,12,6,8,15,3,7,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,58,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650855998594492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211189561720436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566747838868115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18404065017057603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230042297556802,0.0,0.16869510761778458,0.13772114741847458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32666962813120004,0.0,0.1389034473554908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500777257326683,0.35333259646887083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993519310691664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861336537695558,0.0,0.09369494259179544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816142129595501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18597165333372034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416299143839927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507701439266454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584799245587627,0.1858572703958428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16197619679449582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360171716506927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notmyknowledge,2019/09/25,ED yes or no I don’t know if I have a ED. Tbh I am too sacred to go to a specialist.,-6.063260869565218,-5.3520304782608665,-0.008369565217391184,105.36396739130436,114.65217391304348,4.039130434782609,10.097826086956523,5.985473137389443,-1.4940347826086957,61,1,21,1,4,26,18,23,0.111,0.754,0.136,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7188651695148941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6951495292800843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mowzaaaa,2019/09/25,"School called my mum about me So I was sick today at home after vomiting my guts out the night before (not purging, I had a panic attack in the middle of the night and felt super nauseous) and when my mum came home from work she said that we need to have a chat. I was kind of worried, but at this point didn't know what was going on. She and my dad sat me down and asked me if I've been making myself throw up, to which I replied 'no'. They then told me that they recieved a call from the school saying that a different student had said that I was throwing up my meals.

I was just really confused, because while I have tried to purge in the past, I'm absolutely awful at it and don't do it. Instead, I am on a constant binge and restrict cycle. So while I'm upset that someone ratted me out, I'm almost more upset that they didn't even get it right.

Anyway that is my little rant. I am just really confused by the situation. My mum is now suspicious anytime I go near the bathroom and it is not fun.",3.567204374572796,4.1049479521531165,4.8551093643198895,86.84326555023925,71.87081339712918,7.311141490088858,24.97641831852357,7.1686216300943375,0.9438322624743679,778,21,168,7,14,259,120,209,0.185,0.8029999999999999,0.011000000000000001,-0.9886,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,3,2,10,9,1,5,12,1,19,4,1,1,0,25,35,15,0,2,6,4,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,14,11,1,1,2,1,0,5,6,6,0,0,16,4,29,3,23,19,1,33,0,0,0,0,18,17,0,4,11,122,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14832389807122962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384751124620022,0.16851142108190692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902944728718482,0.0,0.12604185661087244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025005124132629,0.1694133771021484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006845993608135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547571232871891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978339170045732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222141416116496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738821128611552,0.0,0.16836355353352436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971591125897555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15424742500167796,0.08140458736214153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148458269302142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988733259499078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983140901516783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780070087229986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737905543794486,0.0,0.0,0.14140026873128794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002421632965972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18978291402390327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264963263917218,0.2817979944375645,0.11779344209590613,0.0,0.2998169899556889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649658146893892,0.0,0.0,0.1255042302096893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040338845809752,0.14153797903822565,0.0,0.10056586846089936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783538803243506,0.15042620801338893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,janesavage,2019/09/25,"Misophonia? i.e. DAE get inordinately grossed out by the sound of other people eating? Just kind of in general. It’s usually worse if I’m in a bad mood or I dislike the person. I’ve never dared to try watching one of those ASMR videos, because I’d know I’d freak and shut it off right away. The worst time was probably when some friends of mine were eating chicken nuggets and I had to plug my ears discreetly so I wouldn’t look like a complete spaz.
Sometimes it extends to people just talking, too. I can’t study or read with people talking (or eating) within earshot because my brain just seems to hit a wall, and I absolutely *cannot* think anything except “can this person shut up for one second” and similar things.
I had the idea that maybe it stems from my ED, in that “food = bad and gross, ergo people eating food = bad and gross”, although I don’t have that thought consciously when I’m hearing people eat. It also wouldn’t account for the whole talking part, either.
Just curious if anyone else was experiencing this. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯",4.248750000000001,6.086598975000001,4.743000000000002,83.32150000000003,71.75,7.2,28.5,7.865858978985527,1.83655,825,32,154,11,16,262,126,200,0.153,0.8,0.047,-0.9702,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,0,9,12,0,0,8,0,12,9,2,0,1,30,22,16,0,4,11,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,0,2,13,8,7,0,6,2,1,0,6,8,0,3,6,6,11,3,22,13,5,17,0,0,2,0,7,12,0,7,6,96,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511033903885838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07441684988869253,0.1090479425006722,0.0875810789049468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999249882998597,0.0,0.2665885087212776,0.12975489846707133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11880871448150765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158760973586704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5445114668094374,0.08890683914962155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573860355066323,0.0,0.08222591787358198,0.0,0.05560417586262302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995195831595724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12014412469135236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082826187105384,0.058489980792731926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519952874208886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937261660053361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692111266869753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208374391493957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423657486866856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525102522963555,0.0,0.3689184653981003,0.18585744345164396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474725775296435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106456683215047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088882998802436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688794691114773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052598969670106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566281011735061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07070595594025804,0.06819468962022777,0.0,0.08449185045116077,0.06205895405033996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225754598466239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721527635599112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882292984993632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845910447102272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ael-GN,2019/09/25,"Told my friend I'd buy her a drink for her birthday It's tomorrow, and it sounded like a good idea. I could have a light snack before heading out to the bar and have one or two beers, before going back home without having dinner.

But she unexpectidly have to take care of four very cute and very tiny kittens. So she wants us to have a drink at her place.
Which means she'll probably cook something and I can't escape it. It's her birthday, I want to enjoy it, but I also know she's not eating very healthy and the amount of calories will probably send me into full panic mode. Also, I've hit a plateau so I'm super scared of eating too much/more than usual.

Bruuuuh. At least I'll have a nice and fun dinner I guess. (Also : bonus kittens).",2.388522267206479,4.104978500000001,3.7976315789473714,88.66072874493929,76.5,5.992712550607287,22.21862348178138,6.67199483983844,0.4786380566801616,580,16,121,5,13,191,97,152,0.08199999999999999,0.72,0.198,0.9501,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,2,7,12,0,2,8,0,10,11,1,0,0,20,21,14,0,3,5,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,6,8,10,0,3,5,2,2,3,2,0,3,1,2,16,10,14,16,3,11,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,2,4,75,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389514240183945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086377560737718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404425219389633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404723556478688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280282339790253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768067236834399,0.0,0.2891351613347291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915474457122236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029427386805542,0.11850131360313294,0.0,0.0,0.15563893792259395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499691788124722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417181727749595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949108968999534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764533468902257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902364198670569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389839297102986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038591177833427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573688500396704,0.0,0.0,0.16576493042772514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147610460571322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046535188462083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414487346540279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087664056380848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062270863961524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350017745896941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13801277115822358,0.0,0.16994581855914534,0.0,0.15560304927400728,0.3497193310367362,0.1666645176407614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13619158220080435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lucifurXx,2019/09/25,Mourning my tits Went from a tight fitting B cup to a loose fitting A cup. Ugh. Why can't I have lost weight on my waist instead :|,-0.03045977011494116,1.8192981379310358,1.6075862068965527,100.75436781609196,84.86206896551724,3.8666666666666663,23.459770114942533,3.1291,-0.2887333333333335,102,4,25,0,3,33,24,29,0.373,0.562,0.065,-0.8094,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,3,0,3,2,0,4,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5235069159676324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5839866281270638,0.0,0.4445658634863591,0.4327370103486281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bubblepuppies12,2019/09/25,"i’m (mildly) freaking out heyyo first post here! 

so i’ve been in semi-recovery(?) from anorexia + bulimia for a while? (it’s kinda fucked tbh, i calculate how many calories i need for my TDEE and then estimate to eat at or below it... so recovery but still with a disordered way of managing food lmao + my orthorexic tendencies are still RAGING) 

but today my dad bought bubble tea/boba (which is like, 300-400 cals) and he was so excited to surprise me with it and i,, i accepted it but i’m flipping the heck out because i didn’T ACCOUNT FOR THESE CALORIES I DIDN’T PLAN THIS AAAA,,

(end screaming)",1.9121419098143235,4.453472508620691,3.860689655172415,83.2763527851459,82.5344827586207,7.362334217506633,26.16445623342176,8.384062270229773,2.263748806366048,465,20,86,11,13,157,85,116,0.038,0.7979999999999999,0.16399999999999998,0.9491,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,2,0,3,0,6,3,0,1,0,15,11,13,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,7,2,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,1,5,1,10,4,14,6,0,14,0,0,0,1,2,5,2,2,8,57,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667131667765428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31343609200453265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798421702776139,0.0,0.0,0.2422254444386696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326251536143048,0.3306976582025517,0.0,0.0,0.2528313369428486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336103549970051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27726961609045403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20278474890080572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26192185214390123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368089812897498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25923063473915403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21707868566201052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chronicallyoddsgirl,2019/09/25,"ED has me rejoicing about my stomach bug. TW:weight, illness, grossness I've been in recovery/maintenance at a high-end-of-healthy BMI (with occasional ~problems~) for a little more than a year, but still my first though when I start barfing is to pull out a scale.

4lbs down in 2 hours! I know it's all water weight... And peeing out my butt is gross... And vomiting is gross.... But damn it feels good to be empty again.",2.305243902439024,4.545214097560977,3.229451219512196,90.16539634146343,78.75609756097559,7.0268292682926825,23.664634146341466,8.07648339933343,1.2828243902439032,324,11,68,6,8,103,65,82,0.125,0.794,0.08,-0.3699,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,4,0,6,7,3,0,1,11,9,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,1,1,2,6,1,12,7,2,15,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,7,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22698656248518304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958204081604718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179902449507864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149541321384543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707721615441833,0.0,0.0,0.2523825645606295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084388624226535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568582468245364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452237825827521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18139514464090345,0.0,0.2046642320243925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25179219080098875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6241560095491879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16503486358509534
EDAnonymous,smallbean101,2019/09/25,"Kpop is triggering I've recently fallen down the rabbit hole of Kpop, but can't help but think about how it's basically a skinny utopia of thinspo. I don't think I've come across a single kpop star on the upper end of the bmi scale as most of them are quite underweight. The Jimin diet, IU diet etc... only inspire me to diet too. Seeing Jimin from BTS weight loss was so triggering as well as seeing how thin Lisa and Rosie from Blackpink are. Does anyone else find themselves extremely triggered by their love for kpop? I can't help but be worried about how so many young and impressionable girls may see these stars as their ideal beauty standard.",8.617946666666667,7.286225527999999,7.8278,76.04756666666667,61.72,10.573333333333332,32.03333333333333,9.2995712137729,2.607053333333333,521,14,97,7,6,162,88,125,0.09300000000000001,0.731,0.17600000000000002,0.9405,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,3,9,5,0,0,6,0,9,6,1,6,0,20,16,14,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,5,0,4,0,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,5,6,4,18,13,3,10,0,1,3,1,7,5,0,2,3,56,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438955788453043,0.21085972910025014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17727285181752855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009125202022844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17191403696711802,0.0,0.18227193128269276,0.0,0.2295141175942742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880915029049239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758780493973434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18573664098164866,0.0,0.0,0.2086422775606216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651520700106986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888668648445456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031962240706862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.491972253181185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26372829142206383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25060100482744563,0.1850330439268664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20899325777995045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NotPrincessErin,2019/09/25,"Ran out of meth, not going to try to ignore/fight my ED anymore because I need to self-destruct. [TW] Just anything to dissociate from being this person that I hate so much, ya know? This will probably kill me faster and that's a plus, because I don't want to attempt suicide again but I'm so sick of being sick of trying without success in finding work, finding a career, finding friends/relationships/hookups, and loving myself. That last one is the hardest, I can't even imagine what that would feel like. Been working on it for a long time but my life is a mess and I just want to give up.",3.7260640301318304,5.162967576271188,4.523333333333333,85.9848493408663,72.38983050847456,6.261393596986817,30.060263653484,6.42735559955562,1.4856523540489637,466,20,91,3,9,150,85,118,0.22899999999999998,0.703,0.067,-0.9626,0,0,1,0,1,2,18.0,0,1,0,4,6,6,2,0,5,0,9,4,0,0,0,21,20,8,2,4,6,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,8,5,0,0,6,0,0,2,4,3,0,1,2,1,10,3,17,14,1,11,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,6,63,18,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17670161944505886,0.0,0.0,0.14662275762078875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172275252363085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768283815799205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900905807885404,0.1272881810410885,0.0,0.0,0.4885458800939054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092159536337306,0.10126089923019237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17591082177479606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19712412321065734,0.0,0.09792026296370426,0.14523632062725467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585019804310568,0.08704725404456727,0.0,0.0,0.1576791757980284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608097997209595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309790493563429,0.1321144274658045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073592048331705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557544634044604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19210267299199452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18587527464584291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948944168664998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389521448803156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24193811685468386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21018433959316252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17175424120402594,0.0,0.25942689214686404,0.0,0.0,0.12657033377003427,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,conorwhite_3,2019/09/25,"Males with eating disorders? Just sending a message out there wondering how many males are here with eating disorders? I feel like such an anomaly and an outcast, no other male that i know of has an eating disorder like i do. I constantly am worrying about not only planning out my meals for the day, but also my activity and making sure i get a certain number of steps in a day, which is fucking not only stressful but just downright exhausting. I am at a very low weight for myself now, and am feeling like no one else understands what I am going through. Its different for females in some ways as if is much more widely acknowledged and accepted that you can develop eating disorders and body image disorders, but for males it really goes unnoticed and there is much less room for support and help when you need it most. Anyway, hope i didnt piss anyone off and keep fighting the good fight because where all fighting it together.",9.69258620689655,8.11546213793104,9.303994252873569,67.0966810344828,59.804597701149426,12.83793103448276,40.71551724137932,11.698219412168324,4.874013793103449,748,33,125,18,8,242,116,174,0.12,0.682,0.19899999999999998,0.9435,1,0,0,0,5,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,13,17,5,1,9,0,12,10,2,2,3,37,25,16,0,3,8,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,4,9,12,6,1,7,0,0,3,5,8,0,1,1,3,13,9,18,24,7,19,0,1,0,1,12,10,2,5,8,97,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736854199867285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639132622818859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659881998048445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213540054728174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806227124185507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091661179413673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414476951572665,0.6260595449781101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4471670398114999,0.0912657733235738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11048188051392366,0.15609886722369815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100143270058257,0.057079502079496525,0.0,0.06209025667034902,0.09163513938095767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322910905193705,0.0,0.0,0.1085115855087435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971079274159898,0.0,0.0,0.060041875065945126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012458077593525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292635558275327,0.11076407223922037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606251347716418,0.08100874842677837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07403177681741158,0.16618167609645587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998943415057217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514744890148471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397753018366547,0.10296843075027527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137348687370488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014409114791833,0.0,0.08671891121462755,0.0,0.13303913342233986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847880418943632,0.0,0.1109504007188689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rkimbal,2019/09/25,"Relatively thin? A physician called me “relatively thin” during an appointment. I sobbed the entire way home. 

What does “relatively thin” even mean?",5.609347826086958,9.219774173913043,5.635108695652175,64.90309782608696,89.86956521739133,9.256521739130434,27.48913043478261,8.841846274778883,3.9964,118,5,16,4,4,37,19,23,0.14,0.86,0.0,-0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536032717680938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887441877541079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934063449290001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455937764570431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838911254065232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526050343084221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,equibreon,2018/12/05,"this sucks today, i actually ate a whole cup of stew my mom made! and it was hard but it was a little bit easier thinking about how i'm going to exercise it off later. i wasn't happy with it in my stomach, but i told myself i would be happy after i burned it off. now that i've done it, i still don't feel happy. i just feel even more tired and hungry. do any of u guys feel like this too? like that rush of relief when u finish exercising and then immediately followed just by....blank. and vague hunger.",1.7881341719077568,3.3204825094339654,4.031635220125788,87.13527253668764,77.67924528301887,6.5979035639412995,18.381551362683442,7.3871296695380915,0.21047085953878408,390,7,86,5,9,135,71,106,0.204,0.675,0.121,-0.8267,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,9,7,1,0,2,0,8,6,1,2,0,16,19,9,0,1,4,1,4,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,10,5,2,0,4,2,0,3,2,1,0,0,7,4,10,6,10,10,3,15,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,10,57,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.18008396271668006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254932096338913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146937321277647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188848011607318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188662020328628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27992619594347984,0.13183507826428698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487806853658477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182723149570704,0.0,0.5893372887343219,0.16531117307627458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18031338739851102,0.18495709096081206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746157668009869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21613046908482494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737350833364127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11824548048438505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210104473899627,0.1749218983376353,0.17633543073376573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20603179677058805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310915885672295,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,percale-sheets,2018/12/05,"Small office lunchtime woes Actually I DO mind if you sit here but there’s only a two person table in a tiny ass kitchen for all ten of us plus security guards downstairs. 

I just wanted to eat my lentils and bok choi alone. 

Thank you for reading this. ",2.41,4.759871999999998,3.1780000000000013,90.089,79.0,5.6000000000000005,24.0,6.742157984588678,0.7054,200,7,41,2,5,63,46,50,0.166,0.72,0.114,-0.431,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,9,3,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,6,2,6,3,1,3,0,1,0,1,4,2,1,1,0,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.3081371554638875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270331340711913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231022998276961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188285641012545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401504447135476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757102975773426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158464171595479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29071027528693744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30845258363573114,0.0,0.3798215655894688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186243999867807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mullberryjam,2018/12/05,I hate everything GUYS. I just want to vent for a sec. I HAVE BEEN DOING SO GOOD FOR TWO WEEKS and lost 2 POUNDS. 2. that's all. 2. I would like to die now. I figured it would be such a confidence boost to be perfect and restrict for 2 weeks and not weigh and then bam. 2 pounds. I do not feel confident. I feel sad. ,-2.0475494071146234,-0.2363915652173887,0.3665085638998704,103.60731225296443,102.33333333333334,4.248221343873517,14.968379446640315,6.1124844417494595,-0.7953304347826085,238,6,62,3,11,79,45,69,0.22699999999999998,0.547,0.226,-0.0178,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,2,0,8,1,0,0,2,16,13,6,1,3,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,2,7,3,6,7,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890619480447765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25031768800274096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816582665200192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233611107905682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27578065025872445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27498289326992265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360718205217698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040397537874395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27207560317334384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642795401619708,0.0,0.4468272278117557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.395708191583362,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AhhhhhhItsJai,2018/12/05,"lost 5 pounds in 3 days, relapsing a year and a half ago (roughly) , I did everything I could to lose weight. id starve and exercise as much as I could without it being suspicious 

I've been sick and haven't eaten much and I just feel good because of it. idk I just want to keep not eating and keep doing my sports (currently on school swim team). I definitely don't look like im hungry, just sick

I try to eat and want to,vomit immediately 

im scared but I also want to fall back into it. get to the perfect weight and maybe less.

just wanted to get this off my chest",0.6016289592760202,2.7570081932773114,2.754789915966388,91.6161150614092,84.71428571428571,6.01447963800905,18.397543632837753,7.321109707123232,0.2722457659987065,441,11,99,7,13,149,78,119,0.127,0.748,0.125,0.1779,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,4,6,6,0,1,3,0,8,9,1,0,1,25,20,11,0,6,7,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,8,5,2,1,4,0,2,4,3,0,1,4,5,10,3,14,13,3,11,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,0,6,58,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659316862774376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322723373680933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184871566695526,0.0,0.09393298970761704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460596811229977,0.0,0.0,0.09937652535863012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315348957838199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848786042144548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791349267324567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16101331173496414,0.0,0.0,0.1292449717104573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33289138044367106,0.0,0.0,0.2739279149140216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528151701171233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293983837906695,0.1723894166917769,0.16820950737058785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15480602111348424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22655054752787646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427286966679238,0.15594922555031018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461828267697232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635495711002436,0.0,0.0,0.3752848339995479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14853908917580144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923012906565568
EDAnonymous,beautifulgoats,2018/12/05,"Binged again but can't purge Exactly as the title says. I binged and ate a heap or spaghetti bolognese and then some jelly lollies and then ate dried onion rings.

I cant purge because my boyfriend is home. I cant until tomorrow. Its pointless. ",2.8114893617021286,5.446739510638301,2.8887659574468114,91.09400000000002,79.42553191489361,5.4621276595744686,26.421276595744683,6.742157984588678,1.1534885106382975,195,8,37,2,5,59,36,47,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,1,7,6,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,2,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299528589372028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7074874350201872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5608939903228435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,I_like_your_unit,2018/12/05,"My chosen place of therapy just rejected me. First of all, I don't have a diagnosis for my disordered eating. I don't have anything yet. But I wanted to get help before I slip further into this. 

I went to the doctor a few times and finally got a referral for a clinic/place of therapy/thing. It was highly recommended by my friend who suffers from BED. I applied and send in all the required information and dossiers. And I just got an e-mail that they're unfortunately have to reject me because I have Asperger's. It makes me angry and sad at the same time. They say that their method usually doesn't work for people with an Autism Spectrum Disorder and that they advise me to find another place. Unfortunately they're not suggesting this apparently magical other place and I have no idea where to find it.

Idk what I want with this post I'm just so unhappy and I feel so defeated I don't know what else to do. ",3.5931666666666686,5.481654205555557,5.347777777777779,78.095,73.6111111111111,9.244444444444444,27.555555555555557,9.725611199111238,2.7556222222222218,727,28,140,20,15,248,108,180,0.19,0.759,0.051,-0.9748,1,1,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,3,4,7,6,0,0,9,0,11,2,0,1,2,29,21,11,0,2,5,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,13,11,1,1,6,0,0,2,6,5,0,1,4,2,22,1,19,17,4,18,0,5,0,0,11,9,0,0,6,97,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618545298848712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702089846388112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409329040845002,0.0,0.13134461767708733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35380808606440345,0.1579887404947868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579435572221843,0.12894367972590515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07804645541103081,0.0,0.0,0.16908820508322756,0.282155092598699,0.13129416565327262,0.0,0.0,0.11925418247764648,0.0,0.08064404395017218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24690336536217625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346080946171514,0.16308438499210212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742478495842116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482939470854503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303306809773267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070102253150849,0.0,0.4838039300003855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782928891950525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274918057356138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651823536197578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001112111802622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17000007196290834,0.0,0.18208499206657727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430885022776127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237217694204277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plntgirl,2018/12/05,"What the fuck even is recovery? I've been thinking about recovery a lot lately and.. what the fuck even is ""recovered""?! How could I ever possibly be 100% recovered in a world where everything is about food? Restaurants with the calories posted next to everything.. holidays where the entire point is to binge.. all these new fad diets constantly being shoved in our faces.

If true, 100% recovery is what everyone says it is: absolutely no restriction, not being controlled by calories, and not only weight restoration but going back to your ""set point,"" then I literally don't ever want to recover. I want to not be controlled by this bullshit disorder but not as much as I don't want to ever go back to that weight. Even before my ED I was uncomfortable at my ""set weight"" of bmi \~23. I would ruin entire vacations because I saw a picture of myself and saw how ugly I looked and would literally just want to go home and hide myself from the world. I don't think I can ever recover bc I don't even have the slightest clue what normal people eat like. I've counted calories since I was 13. Even before the ED I would count calories and stop eating at around 1500 even though I was never satisfied. If I let myself eat unrestricted like they advise you to do in recovery I would literally be obese.. and that wouldn't be any better, right?

Sorry for the rant.. it just seems impossible to ever do anything different. I feel like I'm going to either be ruled by my disorder and be unhappy and unsatisfied my entire life, or be ""healthy"" and hate my body my entire life.. or exist in some quasi-recovered state forever. ",5.915229508196719,6.87730789180328,6.722745901639347,74.02575819672134,66.80327868852459,10.165573770491806,30.659836065573767,10.241411754978122,3.2171606557377053,1277,47,226,31,20,423,154,305,0.2,0.755,0.045,-0.9938,1,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,1,2,1,3,23,9,3,0,11,0,34,15,2,4,8,56,53,22,0,13,13,0,4,3,0,5,3,1,1,0,10,12,9,4,4,1,0,4,11,4,0,0,6,8,30,5,30,31,5,36,0,1,3,2,6,14,2,7,17,163,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05776740603736125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06990478813152108,0.07562153764930395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063920461456893,0.0,0.05178338061016581,0.0,0.14456861480228395,0.0,0.0,0.07512941165336262,0.0,0.0943578378086653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179837614553997,0.19055232580675932,0.06782389318209357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875235396399779,0.194715039766342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26076837050940377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366432606359921,0.3842006694613007,0.0,0.08117124787618339,0.15269118141375848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04295215193644452,0.06068671379334625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027191974857427,0.0,0.0,0.1570657147750944,0.0,0.0,0.1931111328570529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386834980973894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520955347318955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582480030709432,0.0,0.0,0.08686486442879478,0.12000226394958922,0.12450358900943367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713347438320617,0.0,0.0,0.07221956811244233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062446395385657424,0.0,0.06551696781040434,0.08204309903622199,0.0903429318919509,0.0,0.08323079210219615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460661755163033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588920974345372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060622667635374,0.0957658627110458,0.08135649524231582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254494330596575,0.0,0.06755388731368958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07733327204923585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026968467036065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09509208930139386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102015105249594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108862219767142,0.08346076638079146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004176154676344,0.0,0.0,0.310330547181215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413778736535143,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ital21978566556432f,2018/12/05,"I keep fucking binging and I just wanna die. If anyone can help me stop, please share some advice I can't fucking take it anymore.",1.5621794871794847,4.078534961538466,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,84.0,3.466666666666667,24.051282051282055,3.1291,0.1798358974358969,103,4,19,0,3,33,23,26,0.201,0.561,0.23800000000000002,0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,2,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,6,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,6,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996933501491984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041534931260698,0.2144443722141693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182951962618845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5670588507263222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20556745240339766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272599646582086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366528842753747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564060864072425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305922746513272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway74829478382,2018/12/05,"Feeling worse after losing weight I’ve lost over 70 pounds since January and felt pretty great about myself, up until today. Everyone at work has hourglass bodies so I decided to make a change so I can look good myself, of course in my own way. I’ve always had a rounded shape body almost like an oval and growing up was not easy cause I was a chubby kid and adult. I would gorge myself in sweet junk. Hostess and little Debbie were my best friends growing up and getting my hands on a big Mac with extra dressing was heaven in my mouth. My body image issues gave me crippling anxiety though. Constantly overthinking and paranoia about people badmouthing me to their friends and laughing at the way I looked. I was always physically uncomfortable when it came down to doing even the smallest task. I decided to change this in the beginning of this year. Started eating plant based and running. Now I have so much confidence to talk to everybody and anybody. I can make conversations and get compliments on being super friendly and outgoing, the life of the party even, and it’s shattered. Today this changed with some comments from a coworker. She told me I should gain weight because I’ve developed ‘a box body’ and said I have no shape. Even compared me to spongebob at some point which is kind of funny I guess but hurt my feelings a ton. It got a few laughs from coworkers around us and I just wanted to cry cause I couldn’t even stand up for myself. She obliterated my self confidence with those words. I went home and got naked in front of the mirror and bawled my eyes out. How can someone be so cruel? I still have 20 more pounds to go but I’m extremely uncomfortable in my body again and just as miserable, if not worse than before losing the weight. All my clothes fit me loosely and all favorite jeans no longer fit me. I don’t know what to do and my body image issues are at their all time high. I’m really sad and I’m sorry for rambling, I just feel so ugly and lonely right now. I’m just not happy with my body even after these changes in lifestyle. I keep replaying those words she said in my head. I feel  like I let myself down by letting myself feel this way again. I’m supposed to be happy with my progress..",3.594672121138114,5.7511669535962895,4.137829405299794,85.59793717181587,74.35962877030163,6.857027720112346,25.263218952253023,7.7627490962704995,1.422884918793503,1771,60,333,25,38,559,232,431,0.159,0.708,0.133,-0.9717,0,2,0,0,0,0,34.0,1,0,2,8,25,25,1,1,15,0,26,16,11,5,3,67,59,34,0,5,10,0,11,2,3,2,1,2,1,3,12,29,4,1,9,0,0,7,7,8,0,0,16,17,53,17,56,35,12,59,1,7,4,0,19,32,0,5,18,225,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977876371222677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596584500167573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05330830116338224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06203380371968808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247890440432607,0.0,0.059296209475810775,0.0,0.0731293769595488,0.0,0.0,0.5418248610637115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07970027867541725,0.0,0.14316994948722886,0.29486701162874995,0.0,0.0,0.07530397588590873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07654493487019089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130443881169499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23012912505931166,0.0,0.0,0.0665863378999892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617238721858655,0.04978248008269612,0.06690785896689994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151375922641995,0.0,0.0728143445482058,0.0,0.03960319534659479,0.05844788731964681,0.11146580599741032,0.07682719021272041,0.076765116180187,0.0,0.0,0.14836047292153864,0.0,0.0,0.07151619893768976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07362529219507112,0.06989903775444797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745984877502613,0.0,0.0,0.1454646158436643,0.0,0.06193861042605307,0.0,0.07256547840485351,0.03829667060062255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425138424215252,0.04922008411340164,0.06808846124257574,0.06984197846381761,0.0,0.0,0.11703452838513068,0.15591782130562185,0.07606864857314945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930296268991982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051225980782361985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04831032172126762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587419041916534,0.0,0.0,0.07089398824673063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04464154895636642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059510014128092786,0.1325714596510617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726959257508392,0.0,0.0,0.05764357565037756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059043283911546014,0.0,0.0,0.07800587222087534,0.049322908421567765,0.0,0.05564997449790248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056009603264828164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846447402287664,0.0,0.04063347754390727,0.0,0.13210514279915533,0.0665863378999892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838216366685699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041101607446623986,0.16593646887194932,0.0,0.25457012447088323,0.0,0.0645980471426159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073100261778465,0.0,0.1420285163807543,0.04950172960624663,0.0,0.0,0.044874406528839735
EDAnonymous,happiness_is,2018/12/05,"Send help :( In dire need of love and support, dunno where else to turn.

Boyfriend & I just got in a huge fight because he said he never wants to have sex with me again because I’m obese. I met him 3 years ago at 165 and am 205 now.

I said I want to go back to 160s and he’s like, “you always glorify that like it’s healthy. It’s still super overweight”

I suffer from endless BED / binge/restrict cycles and at my lowest weight (when we met) I had spent months high restricting with intense exercise and lax tea abuse to get there. I had and still have horrific body dysmorphia.

Before I met him, a man absolutely ruined me by telling me I was too fat to be fuckable and he wanted someone better and sent me on the spiral down to my LW. My boyfriend made me feel loved and safe and beautiful when we met and always told me how healthy and fit I looked despite seeing someone 3x the size in the mirror.

Now he’s become the same thing. I’m too fat to be fuckable.

I’m in tears and can’t stop crying. Why do I do this to myself??? Why do I deserve this?? I feel worthless and just want to be loved and desired

Worst of all I still love him and want to apologize for being disgusting. I am so sad. I am trying so hard to regulate my binging so I can safely restrict and it is taking so much effort and just

I just want to be small so someone will love me again

I want to be worth the wait",1.4580456234781494,3.326750034602078,2.9159323337178016,93.22125977188264,79.79584775086505,5.6655645264641805,22.12238882481097,6.605766666666668,0.3722717160066642,1076,33,238,10,27,351,157,289,0.166,0.614,0.22,0.9263,1,0,0,0,2,0,29.0,2,1,0,3,24,19,2,0,7,0,21,14,3,2,2,49,58,26,0,9,4,0,4,2,0,1,5,2,1,1,7,22,6,6,2,1,2,3,2,7,0,0,14,8,37,12,29,37,4,31,0,4,2,6,30,13,0,1,17,148,44,0,0.0,0.1256529234747792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400768560956144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648561645169644,0.11490605878942413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154656257604193,0.0,0.1292952356770537,0.11712483909239765,0.09024146792908007,0.0,0.0,0.0937933645075012,0.0,0.11779859419851732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164918861810164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885918825181728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724499911017744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0554071954717815,0.0,0.06027114573346781,0.0,0.08481855793166469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500073697843783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710836537048655,0.11204855256559068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362218337192113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905600993070369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4785751927957331,0.10034788469194883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464878193249617,0.0,0.07795958194921335,0.07863536638346362,0.08179295841713725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175730000571068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450880223811076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26956963987916843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25407705315237217,0.08866326473816337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203452552796977,0.0,0.0,0.07973704595106057,0.0,0.0926931230256472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704554767879306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133613816525668,0.0,0.07200157025211179,0.11535287868150512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43786080022853097,0.0,0.0,0.12914137303898893,0.0,0.0,0.1913888058034428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829327461919389
EDAnonymous,possumking420,2018/12/05,"Anybody else get scared and have to check the calories 467589103 times when a safe food tastes too good? I've been buying this same brand of instant ramen for probably YEARS and I know for a FACT that it's 250 calories a package. But I just made some and added a bit of spice and it tasted so good that I had to check the packaging 3 times and google the calories Twice because I was convinced that, because it felt like real food, it had to be double that.

Am I crazy or does anyone else do that too?",4.141596638655462,4.996353215686277,4.0908963585434215,91.68617647058826,70.76470588235293,6.612885154061624,26.336134453781508,6.1826913282559595,0.7416369747899161,396,12,85,2,7,121,67,102,0.052000000000000005,0.809,0.139,0.8385,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,7,0,8,4,0,1,1,16,12,9,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,5,4,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,6,4,5,5,7,5,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,53,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14183586367273673,0.2078414919396896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473082120161305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22145720656104326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751343352705892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389065335622529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947656513623066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.490568610442243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597957746239188,0.0,0.0,0.34027813833329584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147981880914674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09910116471316133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19193944628209525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21870418368707148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308851492202156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030859854383945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23656430928001765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062730076910978
EDAnonymous,AriaWinter88,2018/12/05,"Can anyone relate to this weird mental thing I'm not sure how to explain this but here goes. Sometimes I wanna watch a favorite movie or TV show while eating, but I don't want to taint the memory of that favorite movie with eating. 

Kinda like, if I eat cupcakes while watching Harry Potter, then Harry Potter becomes ""*that movie I watched when I ate 12 cupcakes*""

Does anyone else get this?",5.701081081081077,6.831863702702704,5.49010810810811,82.06164864864867,67.37837837837836,6.460540540540541,26.962162162162162,5.6839178017228535,1.0964518918918915,310,9,53,1,5,96,54,74,0.057,0.799,0.14400000000000002,0.8611,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,1,1,12,7,9,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,5,2,6,6,0,4,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,5,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183619100764207,0.2332584039524953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514259334712355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19922153078397006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6988405618804879,0.19017568717882152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893980773391813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122023468506036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294216656162791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251556059077194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21456118063265756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124318766911518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427621487466634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,allmyawkquestions,2018/12/05,"Best ways to stop freezing, especially in cold seasons? Hello all!
Was wondering what your best tops and tricks are to stay warm? I can only wear so many sweatshirts in public before I start looking like Joey in that one episode where he puts all of Chandler's clothing on (Friends sitcom).

I've tried heating packs in my boots, sleeping with a heated blanket - anything else? 

Thanks!
",5.207826086956524,7.702250000000002,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304352,70.73913043478261,5.759420289855073,31.78985507246377,6.42735559955562,1.823307246376812,306,14,51,2,6,90,61,69,0.064,0.6859999999999999,0.251,0.9518,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,3,2,7,1,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,2,6,7,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,4,4,6,9,6,4,13,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,1,4,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963032010138136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298525044112614,0.0,0.5006790494017347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199274744446031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18430020601140812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654162618196745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003187325507371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418484102579896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616450819287005,0.18142513797765947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398048226268661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23871847991568546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168844231476902,0.2542585146272126,0.0,0.19943530852077787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962129559396426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619572144068539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893468738786146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586931832968196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honeyeyedbutts,2018/12/05,"Heart problems or just anxiety..? So for the past several months I’ve been randomly experiencing a profound sudden shortness of breath that lasts for a few minutes and causes me to also feel light headed/ makes it hard for me to speak. I’m debating on seeing a doctor about it but I’m hesitant to make an appointment because $$$ and it might just be my anxiety. But I’m not anxious at all when I experience the feeling so idk.. 

My weight has been pretty steady at a BMI around 14 for the last year or so but it has dipped down to the low 11 range before. I’ve been ‘significantly ‘ underweight for many years now so I’m worried it might be catching up with me :( I’m only in my mid 20s so I’d rather that not be the case. If anyone has any advice or similar experiences that would be great!",1.8561568322981363,4.04783291925466,3.9455551242236018,84.69733889751555,80.05590062111801,7.2548136645962735,24.348214285714285,8.278499904357787,1.6229779503105592,624,23,128,13,16,213,101,161,0.105,0.812,0.08199999999999999,-0.2022,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,0,10,0,13,5,3,3,1,27,23,16,0,4,12,0,4,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,8,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,9,7,1,19,13,2,20,0,1,1,0,1,10,0,7,9,81,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428479363615827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626172229588026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073681876343658,0.0,0.24156537601700706,0.17836672710525153,0.0,0.11039786400675032,0.0,0.0,0.14055239797816976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624610324545624,0.0,0.1343497243938306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621928570571993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616034529483868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088864522424819,0.0,0.0,0.1596642475318811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17407034821074047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143523064467986,0.0,0.16203702904302056,0.0,0.0,0.1870961816219798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573970291264823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21078083818269688,0.16007206037204674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3349851066519916,0.0,0.0,0.1260234433668777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007974585562706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072046417018126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062726211889106,0.0,0.15107599199868454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581504434818935,0.0,0.0,0.17836672710525153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19226313881844564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16034133526453095,0.0,0.11215799101509473,0.0,0.0,0.2033473708617324
EDAnonymous,boucherfragonard,2019/03/12,"I’m falling back into my eating disorder I haven’t been weighing myself for about a month, but my therapist told me I had lost weight, which isn’t good because it’s been through starving myself. Curiosity finally got the best of me and I weighed myself, and I’ve lost about 17 pounds in about a month or two. I haven’t weighed this little in years. 

But I love the way I look, and I have for a while now. That’s why this is so different from the last time my anorexia was a big part of my life. Last time, I truly hated the way I looked, and I thought that if I lost weight I could be skinny, and if I was skinny I would be beautiful, and if I was beautiful I would be happy. 

Since then, I realized I’m kind of thicc and I love it. I love the way I look. That’s why this time is so confusing for me, because the entire reason I wanted to lose weight before is gone. I don’t even consciously want to lose weight now. Eating is just super hard for me, and honestly, I think it might be related to depression instead of anorexia, at least partly. Not wanting to eat is related to the fact that eating makes me exhausted, and I kind of have this weird apathy for everything. I wonder too if I just don’t think I’m worth taking care of. 

Either way, even though I know seeing the number on the scale get smaller is bad, there’s this weird joy and sense of accomplishment I get from it. 

I just wanted to share, because I know this is concerning and a big deal, and I don’t know what’s going to happen. ",3.6666298003072213,4.310723051612906,4.9361751152073765,85.96521505376347,71.70967741935483,8.356374807987711,25.407066052227343,8.563005593585519,1.4910937019969281,1166,33,253,19,21,388,140,310,0.153,0.638,0.209,0.9811,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,8,17,25,1,1,14,0,29,18,2,2,1,46,64,24,0,11,12,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,16,13,13,0,10,0,1,3,7,12,0,1,13,9,43,13,30,43,5,29,0,6,4,3,6,8,0,8,14,174,59,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332819777841972,0.0687654675726763,0.15061396823063872,0.0,0.07008056928823507,0.0,0.0864296118474451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396944260416114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575614011445133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490745409893154,0.07093480168379061,0.0,0.0,0.08604655304990373,0.0943893725098554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33709106931971444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087933291961205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740180358883837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09021913407438843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860572836509831,0.0,0.04680593414077749,0.06907796051830947,0.06586919475567095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282888375758123,0.08767159396971765,0.07377656728149679,0.08131144796496301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17152631111638958,0.13578536476081954,0.1342654807493795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058171872124290425,0.0,0.08254432541691684,0.0,0.0,0.20747986544458424,0.184275011436216,0.269710369893089,0.0,0.2229938589964628,0.0,0.05497458666752976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736879470044429,0.0,0.0,0.13147469702170825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17837131861746264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467771320671398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562864176110318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06812736653994474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192294631115771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562395468872223,0.0,0.10554332758456697,0.08091629056828803,0.06538303128919881,0.1440707895299475,0.0,0.0,0.0786965728180928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045177278809675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19430746578807934,0.2614877028852824,0.0,0.4011592962272833,0.0,0.0,0.14863052179782368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931370883858926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700948246862995,0.0,0.0,0.053035834563686185
EDAnonymous,caffeine_is_life,2019/03/12,"DAE think I can do no more so fuck it all 

You're drinking too much
You're exercising too much
Maybe you should exercise more to reduce stress
Look after yourself 
Maybe you should go to the g p
Are you looking after yourself 
You should eat more
Are you losing weight
You seem in a good place as you've not lost weight 
You're eating bread
They should help you resolve this (kids dad)
You need to sort your divorce 
You need to get a house 
Are there no other properties available 
You need to attend this meeting 
No I can't help 
You don't care about me you're not interested
He should do more 
He only has the kids once a month 
You need to think about your kids 
You need to smile more 
Think about your face 
What's the matter with you
Are you ok 

Fuck the fuck off I'm doing my fucking best you fucking cunt 
Never fucking good enough 
Always someone with a fucking problem 

The end ",0.2975040128410917,2.7010595449438246,1.0758025682183003,98.67238764044949,96.80898876404495,3.4417335473515247,16.469502407704653,5.288315135182226,-0.7845576243980745,701,18,148,4,28,214,95,178,0.177,0.693,0.13,-0.8882,0,0,1,0,1,0,2.0,0,19,1,4,7,19,8,1,9,1,16,16,1,0,2,24,39,2,0,11,2,1,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,5,2,6,0,5,3,0,2,8,12,0,0,1,4,24,7,17,33,10,10,0,2,2,7,30,3,8,2,5,91,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283798397179384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447714422043554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150326233732657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752629191602644,0.0,0.2037398497571623,0.0,0.0,0.08817644533048469,0.10286723666978947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6442608879511578,0.052013534730970035,0.0,0.05657957067109948,0.16700452285412665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334596367601852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487344848885908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672027550245301,0.11137691431511997,0.1086763691700348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003335796243965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946408984411703,0.0,0.14636919948032642,0.3690949637174741,0.0767831839737361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10602314429522244,0.0,0.07571629101858192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040140981835486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526097590051913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063140516866992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435288176852497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404025863547075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19137304718585466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24246306764216502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dr0pDex,2019/03/12,"Former skinny legend learns to bake, gains 20 pounds in 3 months Me: *laying in bed eating an entire loaf of pumpkin bread* This is recovery, I have such a healthier relationship with food!

Lol I gotta stop. At this rate I'm gonna bust out of my fucking graduation gown. At the same time, I don't wanna go full slow starvation again. Maybe start rowing and sharing more of my baked goods with my family rather than hogging them.

Has anyone successfully avoided extremes and survived in a recovery-ish type of world?",3.915693012600229,6.3675799278350524,4.67106529209622,80.7697823596793,74.4639175257732,7.61008018327606,25.21076746849943,8.515128840125781,1.933951660939289,411,14,73,8,9,132,81,97,0.047,0.8029999999999999,0.15,0.8805,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,3,3,5,1,1,4,1,4,7,1,0,0,11,10,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,2,5,6,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,15,8,3,16,0,0,0,1,3,8,1,0,7,41,10,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199397868505771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218618797406527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965285501584072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803535749787594,0.0,0.0,0.2907952339171712,0.0,0.0,0.17876529302269198,0.2638285525148247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160064792497097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510697966999801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33770762130542564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22263921129462846,0.0,0.0,0.2629768242893221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834158950078792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TinyJarOfRocks,2019/03/12,"Having trouble controlling my appetite, considering Bronkaid Who uses it? Are there different MG i need to ask for? I don’t wanna seem suspicious to the pharmacy and I’m really nervous for some reason? ",3.626666666666665,6.8758394444444475,5.573555555555558,67.92700000000002,85.1111111111111,9.546666666666667,32.2,9.3871,4.707173333333333,164,9,23,6,5,56,32,36,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.7983,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,8,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35809547720006824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4296176698168746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40020062037387777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840231007837935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453885104460833,0.39383417645462737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34870988844082235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33082799573863764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,joey6766,2019/03/12,Food related nightmares I have woken up in a panic several times that all the diet soda i've ever drank has been regular. Please share your food related nightmares so I feel less alone lol  ,4.587499999999999,6.7229560833333375,5.8066666666666675,74.80500000000002,71.5,9.244444444444444,28.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.1722333333333332,153,6,25,4,3,51,31,36,0.134,0.687,0.179,0.1903,0,1,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,1,3,5,0,0,2,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,3,1,2,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29660388549322275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590476061698003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14480261258496135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6925850039166802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360058753080026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143598491954408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235285103875499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699080371402766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shewaslike,2019/03/12,"Frustrated with eating out and myself I’m at a two-day training where they don’t provide lunch, but we get reimbursed for whatever we purchase. Great! I’m in a small city where I have way more choices than I normally do and was super excited to go to Chopt for a salad. 

Stood in line, fought back and forth for what I wanted vs how many calories I would allow myself, and ended with the lowest calorie “warm” bowl with dressing on the side. I fasted for 19 hours, so I’m hungry and ready to eat. I sit down and stir everything up and start to eat and the thoughts start creeping in .. “This can’t be only XXX calories it has to be more” “I’ll just over-estimate and undereat and guess how much more it is”... Y’all I have no clue if it’s actually more calories than what’s listed!!  I’ve never eaten here!!! I can usually guesstimate calorie as a health educator and it wasn’t like there was a massive amount of rice or quinoa and it was filled with veggies.  There is no reason to think that what is listed is wrong. Also it’s a salad - even if it’s wrong, I’m getting more veggies!

So... even knowing all of these things, I logged a whole salad and ate half of it and now I’m sitting here anxious thinking I should just start fasting again until tomorrow instead of finishing the other half for dinner. I can’t concentrate on the training just on trying to figure this out. I hate this. ",2.806753910950661,4.6880893790613705,4.03399368231047,86.69782566185322,75.7870036101083,6.638327316486161,25.260078219013238,7.492282038375204,1.2739363417569196,1086,38,215,14,24,355,154,277,0.11,0.8,0.09,-0.7067,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,2,1,1,1,20,10,3,0,12,0,20,11,0,4,2,46,42,25,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,18,22,10,0,6,0,2,2,7,5,0,2,9,1,18,5,35,29,9,35,0,0,0,0,5,15,0,4,16,154,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.1435467349596386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11763446830048414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661792245820524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310952337880405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486624318030172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451554894070393,0.0,0.0,0.13028544482311846,0.0,0.0,0.19431409772977729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220247937678178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370559527203614,0.0,0.08359936154328917,0.0,0.0,0.16217641012900005,0.16204537652318124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522913089580256,0.0,0.1563586288089288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448622082707096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084138624235987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186480583862474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491346020728494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813418589978707,0.0,0.11345128782930218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441251154719578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187489605347202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124156564711702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123508305894105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772558336199616,0.1885093196663088,0.0,0.11677963001661235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998700991982038,0.0,0.14369367823921253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200801061943787,0.0,0.08676239659121622,0.11675979453204748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423001403415008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044944215776917,0.3216578282462422,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AllieBirdL,2019/03/12,"Thank god for makeup So I got drunk and binged last night, then ended up drunkenly purging two bags of popcorn and wayyyy too many roasted peanuts really quickly in our bathroom while my SO was upstairs... it wasn’t pretty, and I haven’t done that in a long time. I guess it was seeing 140 on the scale again that night (fully clothed, after eating, but still). I used to be 125 when I was “being good” (read: disordered to the max). 

Anyways, woke up this morning with the tell tale little red specs of burst capillaries all over my face. Sign it was a difficult purge.. luckily I have a lot of foundation and concealer to slap on quickly so no one will know. 

I don’t even consider myself someone who purges... I didn’t know lax technically counts until recently tho, so there’s another self diagnosis I can add to my growing list of failure. ",3.244741200828159,5.546354136645967,4.207180124223601,84.01644306418221,75.95652173913044,7.523146997929608,26.8824016563147,8.447377352677275,2.037749979296066,660,26,125,13,15,213,118,161,0.081,0.8109999999999999,0.10800000000000001,0.3207,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,0,14,3,0,0,6,0,14,3,1,1,1,14,22,14,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,2,2,0,1,5,1,0,2,9,2,14,2,19,10,2,25,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,2,16,86,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19877176602998672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172539074214833,0.0,0.0,0.1939872338324271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939687435652448,0.0,0.0,0.1678952284807244,0.0,0.0,0.12520358617057792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15899519660163774,0.1516096522188662,0.0,0.20882336896912407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083560912316288,0.15451792690740138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899904274755424,0.0,0.16775596665870726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115841265829314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921856130851536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557812621470273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284517815913198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285219904559672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18961280290698246,0.0,0.12143795402050825,0.0,0.18716911719038612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15105597677191554,0.0,0.1977539914091558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061484792739472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138406265705892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568511051934054,0.17452276529441188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053483790388627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851740458956268,0.0,0.0,0.16372027713185386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadpaleobotanist,2019/03/12,"Therapist- nemesis or ally I started seeing a therapist for depression and other Shit<tm> that my brain is doing to me and she fucking called me out so hard and so fast. Girl wants me to see a nutritionist and work with the ED team at my hospital and I’m just like LOL FUCK THAT FUCK YOU

she keeps telling me not eating won’t work, you’ll gain it back, it’s not healthy, like girl you think I don’t know that this isn’t healthy?????Catch me next month when you see me lookin thinner, then tell me this doesn’t work!!! 

Should I be worried about being too open with my hostility towards this? Would it be easier to just hide it, fake some healthy-sounding things to tell her so she gets off my back about it? I already told her I wasn’t tracking calories (I definitely am) to make it sound a little better... and she’s still a new therapist for me, so I could always switch.",2.109625396825397,4.473742022857142,2.833666666666669,92.06294444444448,80.2,5.946031746031745,22.865079365079364,7.1686216300943375,0.7408984126984124,694,23,145,9,18,217,105,175,0.154,0.752,0.094,-0.9041,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,4,0,6,13,9,4,0,5,1,15,5,1,1,0,24,30,13,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,4,0,1,0,2,14,10,1,1,2,1,0,0,7,6,0,0,2,5,29,3,15,20,1,16,0,1,3,3,18,6,3,2,12,99,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14237821193696826,0.0,0.10735605657893156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984188300835728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114108854299201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14403043976408425,0.13174517188475232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030130088177483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112585590667348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320209992396757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35783433614581484,0.06740830365149361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155777416783285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468005886084247,0.0,0.0,0.07090673181790258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260665793005643,0.12931323686621307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612271905372566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298357005166976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246095747078855,0.13721561536759164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30843981295128875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243850949818892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913219396119051,0.0,0.10303657616993324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33831090692003835,0.0,0.0,0.4494110179091447,0.0857160181595974,0.08267163884771628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328538043027755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610010506905786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28178712726641786,0.13102739213625564,0.0,0.09165302911881323,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wanttoescape92,2019/03/12,"Dealing with perfection and my mind.. can’t deal with it anymore and health issues Well I’ve been battling calorie restriction and weight loss for a while now. 
Basically I starred a diet in 2017 and lost weight. I wasn’t really counting calories just eating less. I noticed I had issues with overeating and couldn’t control this. To this day I cant stop and put my fork down. I know it’s wrong to keep eating but in my mind I find excuses like “there is just a bit left” “I can’t waste it”etc. I was obese for most of my life and ate all what was in front of me. I want to overcome this. 

This has slowly driven me to self hatred and anger at myself on how to control this. I’ve tried meditation which doesn’t work for me (yet) and also have tried smaller portions and weighing and also got a food timer. 

I’m currently labelled anorexic and are several kgs underweight. I am terrified of eating and hate cooking. 
I stopped as it was overwhelming for measurements, weighing, planning... figuring out cooking times... finding equipment... I can chop.. not enough equipment.. I get overwhelmed very easily. I tried overweighing on scales as I was afraid. 

Well I lost weight so it worked. 

I have a set diet I’m trying to achieve in my mind of a wfpb vegan , oil free, additive free.. soy free..etc on and it goes and fruit but picking this diet in my mind gives me a sudden panic moment where I freeze, have gut pain and can’t make a clear decision. I had to cut dried fruit as I read it’s bad and I found I couldn’t control myself with it. I panic at making sudden choices when asked what food I want.. like today my mum asked me how I wanted my apple and is aid normal and she said without skin or skin and I said skin as in my mind I wanted the pleasure of the skin which is more calories. I measure my soup, my water for cups of tea even. I want to make salads but something about it repulses me and I don’t fight thst sudden pain in my head and panic over making a decision. I fight it when eating a meal and it wins. I fight it with every food and overeat. So I compensate for my self hatred by eating less the best I can and weighing. I hate weighing. I hate it. I can’t stand doing this all my life. I can never figure out calories (maths are so hard for me) and I just can’t figure out portions.. it seems so minimal for a human being and makes me feel sad and unhappy but I want to achieve this perfection. It angers me I am against little portion sizes. I don’t know what to do or what is wrong with me. I want to beat this demon! I want to eat small portion sizes and do what is for my body energy levels. I’m frustrated my bad side inside me doesn’t like this. The greedy side of me that overate and ate rubbish. 

I’ve been on fasts, tried vomiting and restrict the best I can using my kitchen scales

I mostly eat weetbix, almond milk, banana (under half), apple, dried fruit (used to), bought soup (I microwave it) and rice cakes. That is my diet. Doesn’t involve cooking or weighing (much). I sometimes eat a carrot or celery. That has been my diet for months now. 

I lost over half my weight since October 2017. I noticed around last year around.. July I found myself finding “new numbers” to reach... new goals for my weight. I feel proud when I see how much I weigh and see my ribs. I love it. I’m trying to battle my hatred of healthy eating in my mind. I’ve tried perfecting myself.. I even want to throw out a parfait ornament I have and keychain but can’t somehow bring myself to do it as they are beautiful and cost a lot. But I deeply want to I just can’t when I see them. I also removed myself from several food fb groups. I’m trying to grt courage to throw them out. 

I have palpitations, space out... low blood pressure... weakness and other symptoms.. I have stomach pain after all I eat.. I haven’t had a period since last year. ... I’m exhausted and can barely sleep. 

I don’t know what to do. I’m supposed to go to hospital if I get too bad but I’m scared when forced a meal. My mum presented me with celery and carrot recently and I panicked and tried making my own portions and ended up throwing it away. At hospital I went for another reason recently and ate up the whole meal I was given (first meal since last year). I felt guilty and tried restriction the next day. 
I am on waiting list for some public therapy but because I’m in NZ it’s limited for support.. someone told me 3 month wait. Can’t afford private. Dr keeps telling me to take ensure but I’m vegan so can’t. I bought some of my own vegan powder but refuse to take it because it’s soy based but because it’s sweet I’m craving it badly. 

Help me.. please ",1.5205044199497983,3.7936653251336914,3.048137618683839,90.20219442322384,81.84491978609627,5.784240969114919,22.268089053803333,7.043009809895983,0.7454009603841536,3609,119,737,46,98,1182,364,935,0.184,0.706,0.11,-0.998,2,0,1,0,3,0,132.0,0,0,3,24,34,56,12,8,23,0,62,73,11,16,8,158,136,81,0,14,22,2,14,3,0,0,12,2,1,3,45,59,50,14,18,4,5,10,23,37,2,3,30,24,127,21,100,103,25,95,1,8,3,1,28,43,0,12,43,472,172,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391162706394437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045417219134084426,0.0,0.0,0.04295463245281742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711510184865797,0.08098319215860683,0.0,0.04069377612227,0.0,0.14465742554174102,0.07920919345107062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909081664224098,0.0,0.0472863303449685,0.04811072677851951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14573687406588484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05586631098139568,0.08930713447322929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431977995474844,0.0,0.0,0.0383622610784968,0.04475367287442333,0.048305191251289466,0.05721535631599217,0.0,0.036492879424218264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043800478992619886,0.0,0.04158705455192485,0.0,0.11876126988353268,0.03684182269562068,0.20949590876239926,0.09498044026488653,0.0,0.0,0.045258272580309865,0.04154955868622162,0.024615647111412627,0.0,0.03464118136691405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038799737226279614,0.12828718917585558,0.04445140096381441,0.04603945243758755,0.0,0.0,0.02903163883306108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904145642660302,0.0,0.07699676571426355,0.0,0.0,0.07141070215143573,0.10591707293236788,0.0,0.0,0.04705945473412157,0.0,0.06118618514118041,0.06348129941175762,0.04341077734718792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418430250234627,0.036822970833285784,0.03909146879082638,0.0,0.1734696743494418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624013226484269,0.0,0.06914368456427744,0.0,0.0636797437600221,0.0,0.033405480783430495,0.08366349237036479,0.046063625593431,0.0,0.04243732149212925,0.0,0.09862375856079483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826353315458295,0.1524546210192498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047544418311959616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04354130006100488,0.0,0.0,0.04332449417869146,0.0,0.027747271552199432,0.04453274450689667,0.08553227634237028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08240073153834555,0.0,0.043363641874649625,0.0,0.10354401737611377,0.03943032194097213,0.09036933707289736,0.0978622102859434,0.0,0.10748632053789944,0.0,0.043344053093915307,0.0,0.036698772115380085,0.03334428882392603,0.042837440127500966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242283550380453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0491508216651162,0.0,0.045018555443750746,0.06513163010099851,0.0,0.03785727280088999,0.0,0.04953193081651342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02525602632254099,0.0,0.0410554444949148,0.041387210851114985,0.0,0.29406529828242445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481665884146428,0.0,0.035737573910462284,0.2554699578565442,0.0,0.0,0.26371644569930963,0.07788676939251173,0.040151374620981284,0.0,0.048357164408171234,0.0,0.04175196767466744,0.0,0.06306442937841937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471143612302456,0.0,0.08367601748652598
EDAnonymous,gracias_sta,2019/03/12,"I'm so fucking dead and bitter I've been seeing this girl since the holiday season and we are going great, expect that my mental health is bad and I have no sexual desire. Right now I'm basically a self replicating molecule, no mating for me. But the big but is that I'm a selfish bitch e when I'm with this girl, that happens to be overweight, people always comment on how skinny I look. It makes me fucking nuts. My thoughts go crazy and I have no ideia what to do. When we are together someone always gets to say something about our size difference and it triggers the fuck out of me.",2.4942295839753466,4.611659008474579,3.9936363636363663,85.53664869029278,77.5593220338983,6.6637904468412925,24.28659476117103,7.686295010490155,1.331057627118644,465,16,90,7,11,154,81,118,0.27399999999999997,0.68,0.046,-0.9846,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,3,0,0,0,6,8,5,0,5,0,9,6,1,3,0,17,24,11,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,8,9,2,0,1,1,0,2,3,7,0,0,2,4,11,1,9,21,0,10,0,0,2,3,9,4,4,0,4,57,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33085554196464595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599997700328162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771655209643705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.551396339395336,0.10387122789451056,0.0,0.2259792382789954,0.0,0.0,0.21919127700990976,0.0,0.0,0.17580907184490524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21132819189231167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669522708038717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13270876276570168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20035605040221552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378314250661084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978462905512712,0.0,0.15810353108158587,0.0,0.0,0.15842767318619327,0.0,0.20740460186848994,0.0,0.0,0.1644595998270883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845302767935452,0.15305543167890345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15783476901310958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_cymru,2019/01/06,I just got dumped It was out of the blue and completely devastated. No legitimate reasons were given. The only thing I am trying to think about is getting a revenge body. ,3.9208333333333294,6.4147552500000025,5.532500000000002,74.39583333333336,74.625,8.016666666666666,29.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.804091666666668,136,6,23,3,3,46,30,32,0.34,0.66,0.0,-0.9165,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,4,1,1,1,0,5,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,2,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4463062408098757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212768426854455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099225147216572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213540195361041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055849654946362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131145614431583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669362839483236,0.2574554970675146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727940037847468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sabriat7,2019/01/06,I’ve had an epiphany Okay so this might be tmi for some of you but I normally weigh myself every morning after using the toilet but today I weighed myself before (245.2) and after (242.1) how the hell is it possible I pissed out three whole pounds???? Clearly I knew after a bowel movement you might weigh less but not after peeing ,3.407619047619048,5.834073492063496,4.051031746031747,84.72035714285717,75.98412698412699,5.469841269841268,21.61111111111111,6.42735559955562,0.6002825396825395,262,7,45,2,6,83,49,63,0.201,0.7290000000000001,0.07,-0.9064,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,2,0,4,1,5,6,3,2,1,14,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,8,1,7,2,3,7,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,3,5,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558981426468941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533770670730903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.638051674414546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946504694550798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339026647384698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28505583219612995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597332121301127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3357530752035506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aleksndrars,2019/01/06,"I feel like I can't ever be skinny because I used to be fat I ran into someone last night who I hadn't seen since June or July and the first thing they mentioned was my weight loss, and it's true (175 to 138). however, I felt so triggered the rest of the night by other people's bodies who haven't had a decade of massive weight fluctuations. For people that met me a year ago their first impression was that I'm a fat POS and it feel like I need to be even thinner for even longer to balance out, BUT without letting anyone realize I'm disordered. I don't really know what I'm trying to say here but I hate my body and I feel so big rn ",3.4052716950527184,3.7577349124087616,4.902871046228711,87.02386050283863,72.13868613138686,7.840713706407138,25.441200324411998,7.793537801064563,1.169717599351176,501,14,112,6,9,169,87,137,0.055,0.889,0.055999999999999994,-0.431,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,3,6,6,1,0,6,0,11,7,5,2,2,21,25,9,0,1,4,0,6,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,6,5,0,6,0,0,1,5,2,0,2,8,8,15,4,13,13,1,13,0,1,1,0,7,3,0,1,11,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029547653312002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066501564492448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647900905736878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516012504903473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18138941359049554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20906970414896625,0.14316291996404398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24007592823494736,0.2261340971076261,0.15196258052783704,0.0,0.0,0.2692462117597324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15625737805406806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698022892907399,0.12900995192034476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184026502795695,0.0,0.15464399002380502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735408788749545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970485330886807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194469011039704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139085427207073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586146422272093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092133931555738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341003870782203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514655930775886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745392298675556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366931689021662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854567922434549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256518689092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191972544139027
EDAnonymous,silversandpiper,2019/01/06,"Am I weird for watching videos of food hauls (dumpster diving, extreme couponing, etc)? Do you watch any kind of haul videos? Is it weird I get satisfaction out of those videos even though I would never in my life need that much food?

But yeah, for whatever reason I got addicted to these kinds of videos, hell even farm videos showing someone who got like 600 lbs of meat from their cow in their freezer, and I honestly eat meat like once a month maybe. And then that resulted in beehive videos, and now I want bees so I can fuck around and make candles or something. I am about to click on a bath and body works dumpster dive video, send halp. I will sometimes watch clothing haul videos but most of them are a HUGE range of styles and I am not adventurous with clothing.

Also I know the extreme coupon show is mostly fake, but I am so envious of those walls they have with like 200 boxes of pop tarts. I honestly would LOVE to have a similar shelf, even if it were all like toilet paper or something I'd actually use. I live in a dorm room (thankfully without a roommate) but that means I'd have to move all the stuff into and back out of the dorm for summer, especially for the long lasting items.

Do I need a shelf of 200 full size candy bars? NO. Do I want it? YES


Surely I can't be the only one? Do y'all watch any kind of haul videos or similar?",4.148929824561403,5.179210403703704,4.4617348927875256,88.384649122807,70.8888888888889,7.610136452241718,26.06237816764133,7.85451343220497,1.244851851851852,1059,32,225,13,19,332,156,270,0.08199999999999999,0.765,0.153,0.9652,0,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,4,1,11,19,3,0,12,2,21,9,1,4,4,41,35,20,0,7,10,0,0,4,0,3,2,1,4,0,11,13,4,0,3,13,2,2,5,6,0,1,3,7,24,13,34,28,8,23,1,0,5,2,9,13,2,6,12,139,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.12095982600643145,0.13512659521886233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912482385605254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685839935251283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11034406500081824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095311873665517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768335995468697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683442186840166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823987871454782,0.2456085064414664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29976787451115805,0.0,0.0,0.11459215178165925,0.06476010083248526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19827238384292786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872325757470523,0.06812108973947775,0.10103788665833162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755136449953357,0.24222785457767995,0.0,0.10945238847056724,0.10969412213042984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187203206183592,0.0,0.08273930165521222,0.0,0.12452701492516526,0.1350206845051196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09893775721038588,0.13174196338594085,0.0911193996537996,0.1838185171666401,0.0955998618839816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200543955816804,0.08399346800233874,0.09427151348946047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274438841869818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502460863494764,0.1908494852597997,0.12259225922243627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418960349812156,0.0,0.0,0.1168238284325521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411887107236847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178276872984115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070552209416585,0.0,0.0,0.14622087222708835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11948585230548435,0.0,0.09023894578040972,0.0,0.0,0.1761046958850607,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trashwitch420,2019/01/06,"im so sick of this god i cant even go a month without thinking about my body. im so tired of this. rant below bc i was out with friends and we got sushi and i ""stuffed"" my face and ~ruined~ my day (god fucking overdramatic im at 1300 im below TDEE stfu) 

i remember the first time someone called me fat and its been downhill since. binged all my feelings. yoyo-d my way up from a healthy weight to pretty obese from middle to high school.

i was 180+ before i went to college at 5'1. a whole month of hardcore dieting only brought me to 176.3 which is my first official SW, but i didnt weigh myself for two whole months binging for half and starving for the other. so who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. 

ive lost 50 pounds now, 33 in the past 3 months... and god. im sick of it. im still so huge. baaaarely a healthy bmi and i still look Fucking Huge. 

no matter what im doing. in my room by myself? better put on a baggy sweatshirt and suck in your gut. having sex? ""hey babe can you turn off the light?"" doing my makeup? ugh your face looks round as fuck today wtf have you been eating... every time i eat? ""why am i doing this? its just making me fatter"" 

gained 5 lbs (132->137) from the holidays (thenk u binge drinking egg nog and drunk munchies) and its like any semblance of confidence i had is gone. not even a healthy bmi anymore... give me a break. but even borderline shouldnt be as big as i am right???? why does my 26.5"" waist look massive on my frame??? if i were 3"" taller id look tiny. i hate it. i feel so disgusting and it makes me desperate for attention. i cant believe anyone actually thinks im not fat... 

its driving me insane. i wish i knew what i looked like. i mention wanting to drop 30 more pounds and Now people are like woah woah what the FUCK youd be nothing and im like ???? no ???? thats still technically a healthy bmi first of all but also What. guy calls me tiny in bed?? nah fam my bmis barely healthy you're fucking lying. i thought getting to a healthy bmi would help but i look in the mirror and see worse than what i saw at 170 :( 

and now its at the point i dont even get the gratification of quick weight loss. its a ducking snails pace. fuck being short, really. my tdee is 1600 or 1700 MAX. wanna lose even a pound a week? 1100 baby. two pounds? lmao 600. my goals seem fucking impossible and i cant even lose 5 lbs/month without eating <1k or under a day. like i gained 5 lbs in 10 days because im a black fucking hole and i have to spend all of fucking January just backtracking it. im tired of being so fucking HUGE. i hate it. i hate my body. i hate my height. i hate food. i hate it. i wish i could be locked in a closet for 3 months with only electrolyte water and re-emerge 25 pounds lighter.... and thats what gets me. if i wanted to lose 25 fucking pounds in 3 months i couldnt eat. period. GOD. makes me so fucking mad.

what do i do if i hit 120 and still look huge? 110? 100???? theres only so low you can go. its infuriating. i hate this i hate this i hate this why do i take up so much SPACE",-0.8232117295885466,1.328908973186124,1.1207601506054736,99.16948085207424,96.49211356466877,3.925619890777111,17.227298938299242,5.711242833559606,-0.5902580780841897,2315,66,540,19,93,755,299,634,0.226,0.639,0.135,-0.9976,0,0,1,0,0,0,127.0,1,6,0,12,28,39,24,0,24,0,39,39,8,3,3,65,99,42,0,12,15,0,5,5,1,2,7,0,3,2,31,24,17,0,10,3,1,7,13,32,0,6,15,16,76,7,57,73,7,72,0,7,11,13,17,36,13,6,31,298,107,3,0.0,0.0,0.04049215124322972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03318273092856774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02821733788970645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04115089093755335,0.029013564442278626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02529435278439356,0.0,0.035308331565766835,0.046749520467973454,0.0,0.03669806452286773,0.0,0.09218094335990193,0.0,0.0,0.08474001159850036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03312957673184649,0.0,0.0,0.0802805776351625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03631167258861232,0.0,0.04863065035134047,0.040648315866232416,0.0,0.1698348538586638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443834482570813,0.0,0.03496047842646112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196121887476832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588430684537664,0.05017470061473934,0.0,0.032058155788897175,0.4603263309241237,0.06503669567025601,0.03980481872073454,0.047163984501634386,0.0,0.033186536468300866,0.0,0.0,0.041085576396919885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687005449011575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02781254861556557,0.04384068141000663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4930269571020322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0228040131972238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135934432438087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439115230616678,0.13926349205972424,0.04529559459742906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08309268689433941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23184076338627616,0.0,0.03050285895564838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03981460504412089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467415359725567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039610711124848534,0.028766709920627038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03922523509525814,0.0,0.0,0.04221430788179257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041712923328067586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02658211420417689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04700460489878569,0.035435643001351214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04199413581746815,0.0330653398944488,0.03777457250059962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03432425950481998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03515772531684359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254862451199154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031198318479564363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05317535006862222,0.0,0.03294159523788991,0.04839096159681805,0.09538248107001454,0.03933145326429631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04513354870017327,0.08106720300666084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04894846387114859,0.03293599997693738,0.03328397802249913,0.1010570089950771,0.0,0.0384653468944413,0.11232562315910356,0.09265312190929803,0.09543208750650853,0.07999745639056445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04228592343842271,0.029476141855733582,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sad_fat_cat,2019/01/06,just pissed myself while purging stay strong bitches ,9.06375,13.574947875000005,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,70.25,3.2,33.0,3.1291,1.6613499999999997,45,2,5,0,1,11,8,8,0.494,0.305,0.201,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Twinkleno,2019/01/06,"Anyone have experience with chocolate mono while breastfeeding? I’m doing a chocolate mono today, any tips on avoiding binging? I’ve never tried a mono. 
I have a 10 month old that is still mostly breastfed, should I increase the amount of chocolate or should it not matter since chocolate is high calorie anyway?
TIA!",4.185535714285717,7.485102196428574,3.7550000000000026,82.39,80.60714285714286,4.628571428571429,27.642857142857146,6.1826913282559595,1.4824214285714283,257,11,38,2,7,77,43,56,0.062,0.809,0.129,0.6899,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,7,3,0,0,1,9,8,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,6,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,6,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398437391705644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466115623558077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450020127808056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.372640147637642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815166628610135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720190435520319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370092598799908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29175178665241736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816615607851899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343122889477958,0.0,0.0,0.2394557997809291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,turtlecauliflower,2019/01/06,Hahahaha can’t stop eating Home for Christmas vacation. Mom keeps making desserts. I keep shoving them down my throat. And I wonder why I don’t loose weight?? Anyone have tips to avoid it? I’m only here a few more days so maybe if I night restrict (like 200 a day) it’ll make up for it???,-0.35001883239171505,1.9097257118644075,1.3666666666666671,96.94043314500942,96.96610169491528,3.9781544256120527,16.725047080979284,5.82211442006289,-0.5197585687382298,223,6,49,2,9,72,50,59,0.18600000000000005,0.8140000000000001,0.0,-0.8504,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,4,4,1,2,0,10,10,3,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,5,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,5,9,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,25,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676302722806713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3092221482496564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24531166147919134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404766010798193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4261800159020496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171237992566478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200537402965796,0.0,0.2408488837677808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807780613470435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22497772305024424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823314307235308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043156943256646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29193610401467435,0.0,0.0,0.21632611224216092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599854615226581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caprinine,2019/09/22,"I need someone who can maybe give me advice. So I found out a really close friend has an ed. I think I'm the only person in her life that knows. I dont REALLY know how to go about helping her. She's got doctors appointments now which is REALLY good but also I can tell she wants to lose weight in between the appointments.
I've been very lucky that I have learned to love my body and I weigh significantly more than she does. I wonder if my discussing loving my body helps her or if it makes her feel worse for not loving herself. I want to know how to go about talking about food 
 Up till now I have been very positive but I've been eating lots of junk over summer and now I'm back into a schedule I want to be healthier again (not for losing weight but for skin, just physical feeling, fitness), but bc of this I keep finding myself saying things like ""Oh I really shouldn't [buy those cookies/eat that chocolate/etc]"" and then my friend agrees that she shouldnt either but I'm like NO U CAN!! I don't want to be eating unhealthily just to try show her that she is allowed to but I don't want her to witness me being strict w/ myself in case it triggers her.

tl dr; I have a friend with an ed and I know not everyone is the same but I just would appreciate any advice in how I might be able to help or be careful around her.",2.3178260869565217,3.889549623188408,3.626231884057973,90.4376086956522,76.31884057971016,6.684057971014493,21.78260869565217,7.423996415210882,0.6103130434782615,1040,27,228,13,23,340,150,276,0.068,0.715,0.218,0.9939,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,17,13,0,0,8,0,25,15,3,6,0,58,53,22,0,11,18,0,5,2,3,4,3,1,0,1,12,9,6,1,11,1,1,2,9,2,0,0,5,6,41,11,32,39,4,22,0,2,0,3,30,11,0,8,11,155,53,2,0.09957326118756216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194603676829736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962870099686506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771323212016077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864131321422059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656569156262881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22120689198896532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152157599070233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191745210581464,0.08713723187760165,0.0,0.11669912052886974,0.0,0.0,0.3056649140603496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110505072270197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514651818307923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069446539634637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910081568037074,0.0,0.12040438267299512,0.10917694138908657,0.2307901637740697,0.0,0.0,0.09551974534498016,0.11317955799919226,0.08351732726274834,0.07963783316221316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002255741792771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885052896584973,0.0,0.0,0.2188914411317473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033153910795294,0.09729293155309073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22279401883015787,0.0,0.08465362588814883,0.2696062674643441,0.0,0.0664659250417425,0.0,0.10003472441885876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563149468801736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738323114823661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07572995207613496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694353094925247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551567233432989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918465387441162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843681010767756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003321557446533,0.08703141914707288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615205024261224,0.06380252517692206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06760370818582849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16431673727051033,0.2936544465133162,0.0,0.0,0.24250681386740916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798295424696518,0.0,0.0,0.10147365993181763,0.07073398785121326,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,churdling,2019/09/22,"My body will never look the way i want and i don't know how to accept it (put tw just in case because i wasnt sure) I know that logically my body won't ever look the way i want, even if i do lose weight, but my brain wont stop trying to convince me i can change my actual skeleton just by disordered eating behaviours. i structurally wont ever be able to attain that goal and i just need to accept it but im reminded every time i see a picture of someone with that particular trait. 

i just feel trapped and sad and guilty for not eating and even guiltier when i do. i wish i could accept my body but i cant not think its an awful blob (im also like 80% sure i have bdd so its not even like i can actually tell what i look like when i feel good about myself lol). its so frustrating knowing that this is all disordered behaviour and like i probably look fine to other people, but just not to myself.

i dont know if this is relatable or whatever but i just had to get it out.",1.5800373931623923,3.1510977836538463,3.836858974358975,88.13591880341879,78.375,7.314529914529915,21.651709401709404,8.167268648758528,0.9963677350427358,761,21,170,14,18,263,111,208,0.12300000000000001,0.6920000000000001,0.185,0.8347,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,18,15,1,0,4,2,18,7,4,1,6,50,35,20,0,7,18,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,14,8,3,1,11,0,0,1,12,3,0,0,2,8,30,12,14,27,1,12,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,3,11,117,44,1,0.10872130742795083,0.0,0.21219262562507368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869443902702058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627549989338699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36229458926446095,0.0,0.12136893538475335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501272732786365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08680511724791658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492080749695519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127420562591512,0.0,0.0,0.2224980796058968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154281945432715,0.19668929396179965,0.091602390619588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994551949069653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05680239582462249,0.0,0.0,0.09119027442307223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23487533738442185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390015490183077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21246295633574053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651940643140221,0.1216313331784694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08061547185514129,0.0838525747444357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753736652812847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721995791785828,0.0,0.0,0.10929494299169848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663680582495227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921192109697248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908958812276538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20493709117404255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950272147776324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966422382584561,0.0,0.0,0.06339626867483221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381463108952617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282532879858995,0.17259582655199707,0.0,0.13239326275649194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502413798200973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Toottootmcgoot,2019/09/22,"There aren’t any outpatient ED clinics near me Hi, I’m AJ, and I’m really struggling. 
I have anorexia nervosa and a binge eating disorder. So yeah, my brain is wired to the two extremes and it sucks major ass. 

My therapist recommended an ED clinic but they closed their outpatient facility and I know that I don’t need inpatient but I really need to talk to people who understand. So many people in my life nod and just let me talk but I know they have no idea how I really feel. 

I’m constantly being screamed at, either to starve myself or to eat everything in the house. 

I would really like to make some friends on this subreddit who can maybe help me through my rough days. I just want to talk to someone who understands. 

I’ve gone through anorexia recovery so I’m no longer underweight (this was three years ago) but that mindset still creeps up. The binge eating was developed during my anorexia recovery. I have no portion control for myself because I have no idea how big or small I am. Also, I don’t feel fullness. It’s either “empty grumbly stomach” or “ow too much food”. 

Recently my brother was diagnosed with a medical condition that requires an intensive surgery so my mother is trying to get him to gain weight. She’s doing the same thing she did to me during my pre-recovery phase and I didn’t realize how much trauma it brings back. 

I’m sorry if any of this was triggering but please, I need some help. I don’t see my therapist for another week and I really just need someone to talk to who understands ❤️",3.2747474747474747,5.484189269360272,4.592255892255891,81.73060606060608,75.4983164983165,8.70976430976431,27.83501683501684,9.348350401419415,2.7222471380471385,1211,50,228,32,27,400,161,297,0.11,0.8,0.09,-0.4872,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,3,3,15,6,1,1,8,1,22,13,3,6,0,49,45,24,0,7,14,2,4,1,1,1,5,1,0,0,14,9,5,2,10,0,0,2,9,4,0,2,7,6,37,2,25,35,10,20,0,0,1,1,20,10,2,6,9,151,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750772110181987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894490266476804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342635118222861,0.10351463195658583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07590819631869107,0.0,0.060177693717581075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020215060107516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667929552620063,0.11072084677029323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366506723956784,0.0,0.0,0.10019688711733356,0.0,0.0,0.1131396008448822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030400670416437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872154579541792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982976828804954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937042990196843,0.0,0.07626943044002484,0.0,0.05157618099988125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323374467304415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390753968147853,0.0,0.22288164602827293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850587349765327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10094603992287472,0.06972757861966458,0.048228722277731714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06589515987647103,0.10008475249376847,0.09917569272735732,0.0,0.0,0.09944819299662884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451384599076305,0.29279315475557993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13687752943290016,0.0,0.0,0.1083629305577402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31620700884896563,0.0,0.097472305381032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866561812419824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728720785686507,0.0,0.0,0.1105069340301192,0.0,0.0,0.07883647583869703,0.0,0.0,0.10320168854194944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173837741606916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292388597786581,0.06558398042539297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06702317249552679,0.0,0.0964333294996535,0.3083073588033395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058226547480619485,0.0,0.07918577922169494,0.12021216330691716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012657140074104,0.0,0.0,0.06357127919654454
EDAnonymous,somethingfunidk,2019/09/22,Do you ever feel the urge to binge again just to be able to purge again right after you've ended a b/p-session? And do it just because purging feels good...? It's not even a urge to eat stuff or loose weight,2.8166666666666664,3.1328475555555566,3.633333333333337,95.73000000000003,73.44444444444444,6.0,21.66666666666667,3.1291,-0.33633333333333315,160,3,39,0,3,51,35,45,0.065,0.935,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,8,5,2,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,5,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,5,24,4,0,0.3209749947393601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566337761092265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32843755111364786,0.0,0.0,0.2842885749132419,0.0,0.0,0.2120009568380755,0.2903402589069978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245892031194429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26921859703189643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27411089172983805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674395763818864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908610724255036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yikesbecca,2019/09/22,i really be out here having a full blown panic attack over eating two cookies and a spoonful of chicken peas because i was not planning to eat them uh i guess it really do be like that sometime ✌🏻😔,6.7885714285714265,4.909717380952383,8.333333333333332,72.72000000000003,65.66666666666666,10.304761904761904,35.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,3.0747714285714287,158,6,30,2,2,56,37,42,0.155,0.777,0.067,-0.5627,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,1,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,4,1,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249504842891586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17412014271768395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5845508134636491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146586093136742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954659089297752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351305475195872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659695552143003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28249982850544586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790234064805242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cryingfroyo,2019/09/22,the greatest mystery of all time is my eating disorder causing my depression or is my depression causing my eating disorder??¡¡¡ :D,4.716212121212124,8.227492136363637,6.579090909090907,60.95530303030304,82.18181818181819,10.206060606060607,43.6969696969697,9.725611199111238,6.802042424242424,105,8,12,4,3,36,14,22,0.293,0.47600000000000003,0.231,-0.302,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,1,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5691689731441875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772083247075977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174985568185664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5669384443373742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153749283124613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caffeinesardine,2019/09/22,"Got drunk the other day and ate over 5,000 calories. Love that for me I was planning to purge as soon as I got home but the angel that is my girlfriend wouldn’t let me be myself cuz she knows I self-harm when I drink. I’m just so frustrated with my dumb drunk brain. I’ve been super anxious over this and it’s been complicated to find a way to self-soothe without being self-destructive. Just needed to vent.",1.4038095238095245,3.708555571428573,2.3785714285714303,94.63309523809528,82.57142857142857,5.161904761904762,18.857142857142858,6.42735559955562,-0.11315714285714228,324,8,70,3,9,102,63,84,0.196,0.716,0.08800000000000001,-0.8705,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,2,0,3,0,8,6,1,1,0,12,15,8,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,4,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,10,2,11,5,0,6,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,3,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388864405804087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360561618514474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637239685992195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20714754774893526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19326804465442324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33824327041307833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210880697656295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621134386439473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21622930776147944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908483736309394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567928301557682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.661787912041154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678448782560579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383718936832995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lauraarianna,2019/09/22,"No one asked, i know I was lowkey hiding food with my girlfriend yesterday... not proud",6.587499999999999,7.339357750000001,5.400000000000002,84.845,65.25,8.9,28.5,8.841846274778883,1.97395,68,2,13,1,1,20,15,16,0.387,0.613,0.0,-0.7144,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5311943021682398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6870748737848862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31227021381904896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850299270431907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tete1093,2019/09/22,"I think I might need help and I don't know who to turn to... so I'm here. Hello, everyone. This is my first time posting on here. Some background info: I am a 26y/o female and English is not my native language.

I was overweight pretty much my whole life, reaching my highest weight of 200lbs (90 kg) in 2014. I have, since then, lost 55 lbs (25 kg). In the past year, however, my eating habits have taken a problematic turn. That includes frequent bingeing, followed by days of starving myself and exercising excessively to ""make up"" for the calories.  


I thought I was okay. I was so sure there wasn't anything seriously wrong with that... just managing CICO. Until I made myself throw up for the first time. And then did it twice more, the last time being last night. Last night I reached my lowest point when I left the table during family dinner to throw up, and then did once more when I got home because I thought the first time wasn't enough.  


I don't consider myself a person with an eating disorder... I never have. But then I do recognize that none of what I did last night is normal. So now I'm here asking myself, and I suppose asking you, how does one know they have a disorder? And.. what do you do?  


I am not sure what I'm hoping to get out of this... I just know I needed to tell someone, so thank you for listening.",2.4189058524173,4.447260324427481,3.7552862595419865,87.58282760814255,77.43511450381679,6.351399491094147,23.13040712468193,7.333567415737692,0.923434605597964,1023,32,206,13,24,335,142,262,0.062,0.8320000000000001,0.105,0.8342,3,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,3,1,4,14,8,0,0,11,1,24,7,0,3,3,34,49,20,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,1,10,10,5,0,7,1,0,3,8,3,0,5,14,2,36,5,24,33,7,40,0,1,0,0,12,9,0,3,27,146,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726071704420818,0.0,0.1982635180526784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464013472889261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838611235590393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24305880102712216,0.0,0.0927950767654169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21700788173278066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956620001449124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10132440827547648,0.0,0.0,0.09996373692190452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705890883432086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05540078196217197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848087399895774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107542560935849,0.0,0.10636534254417647,0.10532023704003037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482809281494718,0.3457423850006726,0.0,0.0,0.11521122846027634,0.0,0.07489818565409362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157536372786584,0.0,0.0,0.10033626919476857,0.07078157618314622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249017724351068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795055794928467,0.15725252831988187,0.08178349069511427,0.0,0.0,0.29853007489620925,0.10389529520253514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292762798037916,0.07185448674764919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122582402650876,0.0,0.09258879878150134,0.0,0.0,0.1002407336903427,0.0,0.10155564877317824,0.10787935837795534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771620992927616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984614552558731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199880215249184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268239358463867,0.09762607860051528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794524101863038,0.0,0.16836557729009338,0.24732779715233044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306790526438989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912642462967278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838828876785447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593654204687145,0.0,0.06828536951644854
EDAnonymous,Fruitcerea1,2019/09/22,"I'm losing my hair - again I keep yoyoing with my weight and having relapses (although this time I ate a much more sensible diet than the last time). I've now gained a little weight back but my hair is falling off, and it's bad. It wasn't a too long ago when I noticed it happening and already it's noticeable thinner. I'm really worried that this time it's not recovering, like what if I've caused this kind of stress to my body too many times?

Has anyone had several rounds (like 2-3+) of hair loss due to ED and did your hair still eventually grow back?",4.723242236024845,4.7927940695652165,5.695403726708076,83.49043478260869,69.17391304347825,9.354037267080745,28.60248447204969,9.23628265651192,2.095596273291925,438,14,95,8,7,145,80,115,0.19,0.794,0.016,-0.9638,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,3,8,7,0,1,4,0,6,9,5,1,0,10,11,8,0,1,3,0,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,10,5,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,4,7,8,3,7,7,2,18,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,16,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389160566657905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913003162115276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11350164086371023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496363089798989,0.13553486529163158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030684145218895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667528224209092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354374801554914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428220645974074,0.0,0.16903684575808633,0.0,0.13231680441531726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586079079745571,0.16269261914268995,0.0,0.1436528037499797,0.0,0.18160051645998976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457240067209336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932779060594825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696169147496594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10398975919704892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18338141216842546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12963321351181506,0.0,0.1859431103185164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3786128074775963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3953370281179816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648492460840525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DependantThrowaway,2019/09/22,"Joana Ceddia To those of you who don't know, Joana Ceddia is an eighteen year old youtuber who posts a mix of youtube videos, some vlogs and some other stuff. 

Maybe it's just me being hyper-sensitive to any possible bit of disordered behavior, but does anyone else wonder if  Joana has something going on? At least to me, her diet seems potentially too strict and healthy. She weighs out her foods, and sort of exaggerates the unhealthiness of whatever junk food she eats, although junk food seems rare for her. She's also mentioned that she's 100 pounds on several occasions, when she's like 5'4'' or 5'5''. With this and the constant working out, I have to wonder.

Maybe I'm just bitter because I'm not tiny like she is. Sorry if I'm overstepping a boundary, I'm a long time lurker and have never posted before.

What do you guys think?",6.219056603773584,6.9301904339622675,6.1959056603773615,78.96065094339626,66.04402515723271,9.127295597484276,29.736477987421388,9.120678840339163,2.4076938364779874,665,22,122,11,10,210,108,159,0.048,0.8859999999999999,0.066,0.6021,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,1,5,3,1,0,6,0,8,6,0,0,1,25,19,12,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,8,6,0,6,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,14,2,16,18,4,15,0,0,0,0,15,5,0,10,9,73,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171434097087704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499764540438248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767825432640267,0.14313442019224848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851570040355133,0.0,0.11887047513184022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525111687887034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096107275670362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010300246699574,0.0,0.12224836411203052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14294324368260164,0.11669756054983005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5067606061104207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07939210093200375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13832038419233975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677292478738725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649620794399353,0.0,0.0,0.12362601097758838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28068556117965743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774168519870476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658679684182865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574855457727295,0.2675791078925824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25434684574005595,0.0,0.15781601111856214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754432462543942,0.0,0.15637753535918208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599177826265474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951115569119042,0.0,0.0,0.08145749660226782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029873505097868,0.10169989681297813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0899592414506458
EDAnonymous,Quinn4894,2019/09/22,"Kidney disease? Im new to this sub....but 10 yrs deep. Im 25, i started taking laxatives excessively when i was maybe 16. When i was 19-21 (i really can’t remember), my doctor told me i had protein in my urine which i googled and found out that is usually kidney related. Ever since, i have been too scared to go to a dr because if it is kidney disease, i know it’s something i did to myself and the guilt of that is horrifying to me. Recently ive gotten super bad with lax again after maybe 8 months of successfully tapering off almost completely. Im at the lowest weight range ive ever been, which makes me even more scared to see a doctor, because my weight is finally at a really critical point. Im in no way ready to face recovery in any sense, treatment programs have only ever made me worse and introduced me to new behaviors, but ive felt so much physically worse the last 4 or so days that i keep worrying myself about my kidneys. I dont know what to do. The doctor who told me about the protein in my urine also totally betrayed my trust by talking to my therapist about things that i in no way gave her permission to...even my therapist told me she wouldve been mad if she were me and that she found it unethical of the doctor to do. Does anyone on this sub have any experience with kidney problems related to laxative abuse? Id really appreciate any support or advice i can get (beyond “go to a doctor”)",3.441062200956935,4.877631098245615,5.6096411483253625,77.91771531100478,73.10526315789474,9.251993620414671,27.691387559808607,9.688023934748609,2.693,1113,42,216,29,22,390,152,285,0.17300000000000001,0.764,0.064,-0.9844,1,0,1,0,1,0,31.0,0,0,0,2,15,10,1,3,10,0,23,16,8,2,4,27,43,14,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,15,7,2,1,6,0,0,2,4,6,0,0,17,5,38,4,34,26,3,33,0,0,1,0,10,13,0,5,16,142,53,7,0.0,0.10121910132822473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347998742670783,0.0,0.0,0.08554455465014088,0.0,0.0,0.06831734185412502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428344185783715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05973376949223237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07132943929165357,0.10415314820652956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957042078670792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055094477489456686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371997363543876,0.074759276289571,0.0,0.10012186072909077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112849769574097,0.23182559034932002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356571163549716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202499863027793,0.0935830217413032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18733643357461385,0.0,0.0,0.0446329968112257,0.0,0.0971022565724637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691108458481692,0.0,0.0,0.07593299970742913,0.0,0.0,0.09389881553717924,0.06963583464298992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808347504206386,0.0570243551116844,0.0,0.1716493269349055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06818841455333029,0.0,0.06279996204312215,0.0,0.0,0.16501524142603194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649724152198025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08075778335061944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08174377795305865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641835375636935,0.0,0.08435058608283609,0.0,0.09677412231383896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105816719628045,0.0,0.06807565459138053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706675461862506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576722671462994,0.0,0.0,0.060466910138641236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694353503021988,0.0,0.0,0.06423178952421023,0.06866439461697221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983787302424237,0.056755066630481875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448924995975655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408770069264896,0.0,0.0,0.1356187334053765,0.0,0.2080584098136513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675704414156603,0.17411839268919233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Henrycranium,2019/08/07,"I need to vent. This might be long idk. Tldr I am an indestructable mess.

**Trigger warning: self injury, suicide**

  


""Something is wrong with me,"" I say as I take my 6th vodka shot, no chaser. Can't trust the bartender enough to give me a diet Pepsi. Diet.

  


I catch myself staring at my reflection.

  


Am I vain?

  


Stumble to the bathroom. Gotta puke. Am I drunk or am I just gonna stick my fingers down my throat out of habit.

Everyone's worried.

  


Someone drive her home.

  


""I'm okay""

  


Then I fucking jumped in front of a car going 40 mph.

  


Wake up in the hospital.

  


**I'm okay**

  


Use my Walker to get to the bathroom.

  


Look at my reflection. I dont feel as good about it this time.

  


Throw up the hospital food.

  


Opioids got me stuffed up.

  


Take the laxatives with pleasure. I thoroughly enjoyed the suppository.

  


**GET THIS SHIT OUT OF ME**

  


They weighed me in the bed. While I was wearing clothes and my makeup bag was on it AND I DIDNT GET A CHANCE TO BRUSH MY HAIR CUS I KNOW THAT ONE STRAND OF HAIR IS MAKING ME WEIGH MORE.

  


Why wont they listen?

  


They put my scary skeleton back together, but they didnt help me.",-1.29394773293933,-0.03873038461538058,0.9056311755471428,96.60284421460894,117.55203619909504,3.6140363837842835,18.537353402899626,5.709855703277628,-0.0745590359220607,839,31,179,10,49,276,142,221,0.145,0.8270000000000001,0.028999999999999998,-0.9494,0,0,3,0,0,1,47.0,0,0,4,0,3,11,2,0,12,2,15,14,7,3,0,18,35,8,1,1,3,0,4,0,0,4,0,2,2,1,6,6,6,0,4,2,0,8,6,5,0,1,5,9,36,6,27,25,2,25,0,0,2,1,10,12,2,2,5,108,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023158640213926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137367595003276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18843738174868896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426273978782414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221195770755047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22052302078657848,0.0,0.0,0.16859850316205235,0.2858430327528273,0.17494631275547534,0.10364530537504052,0.1529636454016993,0.1458582748231447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223904002082613,0.0,0.1829323884115369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022600662676458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613920718768271,0.15314521123538208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173366321213447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346618272249602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522534643914338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123578907982864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333263069719646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502826794727106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902521086499868,0.0,0.1872006026831564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452185455746525,0.14039764959366266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994836260154002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742397004977528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634165126401188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15750947796876316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456092696979518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852060014028227,0.0,0.0,0.1993934117402975,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IWouldveDoneThat,2019/08/07,"(TW) I feel more productive when I don’t eat. I think this might be triggering for others as I can feel my head is in such a dark place and I’m saying such negative things and I’m sorry about that. 


I really feel like I do more during the day when I don’t eat. Like I’ll clean, tick things off my to-do list etc when I know my stomach is empty. 


I went out with my friends today and I ate and later I got a drink but I wanted to cry on the way home because I felt so bad for eating and I felt so disgusting. I wanna cry now tbh because I hate that I’ve eaten. The scale says I’ve lost weight but I just see myself getting fatter,  I can’t comprehend that I’ve lost weight it doesn’t make sense to me. I can fit into a UK size 10 but I think I looked like an over-stuffed sausage and just in general quite disgusting. I can’t even motivate myself to get up and shower or get changed now that I’m home. 


I don’t wanna do anything and my throat hurts from purging the other day plus I think it’s been too long to purge as I ate hours ago.  I’ve eaten 3 days in a row and I’m so mad at myself but I know what I’m thinking is bad but I don’t know how to stop thinking like this.",-0.15353146853146882,1.5084211060606094,2.2260606060606065,97.18793706293707,84.15151515151516,5.4251748251748255,17.72960372960373,6.490185161304077,-0.3467466200466198,908,20,227,9,26,310,134,264,0.226,0.695,0.079,-0.9931,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,16,14,4,0,9,0,17,13,3,4,0,44,51,25,0,3,8,0,7,4,1,1,0,2,4,0,13,13,10,1,14,1,0,1,8,9,0,0,11,11,36,5,24,38,3,27,0,3,2,0,3,11,0,2,18,133,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414213177922688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739563020350219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17734934695955146,0.1294801487411298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234819100188112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23331697677596094,0.2054755308789349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10403804416935956,0.0,0.3260150940581044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844389033040602,0.07014576708176866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610975651633292,0.07587110609605763,0.2039421602903316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08205180846678536,0.0,0.16645931012340462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493986216499963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10485300766464707,0.10899443153846107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213059586451718,0.0,0.10458809565571406,0.0,0.11369200106751699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750983932563596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075407596516431,0.0,0.0,0.0939858938847543,0.08918337440461062,0.0,0.2318652062689512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089101106273632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126640974875281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095903605536192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11295945957704122,0.0,0.0,0.06803605789696515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16891302333592548,0.0,0.0,0.08462966347078824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888503340038938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879006752302915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111247899210072,0.3402514533053671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006675771124693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06264100169620224,0.08429862215298316,0.0,0.25865213210929744,0.0,0.09845080599066264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amiechankawaii,2019/08/07,I ate two pieces of roasted chicken I didn't calculate into my calories and now I'm freaking out I had a 300 calorie breakfast and planned to spend the rest of my 700 on whiskey and soda but I got too drunk and ended up eating.,4.330625000000001,4.521929145833333,5.399999999999999,84.845,70.04166666666666,7.2333333333333325,34.75,6.42735559955562,2.1145750000000003,181,9,37,1,3,60,39,48,0.114,0.8859999999999999,0.0,-0.6124,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,7,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,6,0,7,1,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5528720172239047,0.0,0.0,0.4785542863568804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321352642296443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5278043586305471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nervednosthrowaway,2019/08/07,"Anxiety causing terrible nausea and stomach problems... .... but I can't be fucked over it, because I'm so distracted by how slim my stomach looks. I know I should be more concerned by the fact that my anxiety is so bad that I'm literally \*shitting shit water,\* but after I'm done, I can't help but get excited at the same time.

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Of course, let me follow this with: I'm back on my anxiety medication, just waiting for it to kick in. I'm just amused (and a little sad) because the symptoms of my anxiety disorder that used to scare me more (the nausea, gagging, stomach problems) now... make me feel good? In a twisted way? Am I the only one?

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Also, I'm 100% drinking water, don't worry.",2.6792307692307697,4.91104788321168,4.540437956204381,81.28006737787761,77.46715328467154,7.135092644581696,30.9764177428411,8.139509932561175,2.5633811341942727,548,28,100,10,13,186,86,137,0.22,0.664,0.11599999999999999,-0.9388,0,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,0,8,13,3,2,7,0,10,11,5,4,1,20,25,9,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,3,3,1,2,2,0,1,3,10,0,1,1,2,12,3,14,20,3,12,0,1,1,1,1,6,3,0,4,66,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083648331464702,0.0,0.2936433774792209,0.3293114740114964,0.0,0.0,0.4146496846400365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419645538679606,0.11314261617168878,0.1652075186294543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13920293160080055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553026674803352,0.0,0.0,0.13867062382845946,0.0,0.13274519134701668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851636912849854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527396190632692,0.07079677166894002,0.0,0.0,0.11365677350460833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908274305870684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447105816898246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856500424721094,0.0,0.0,0.13581353050390838,0.0,0.0,0.1137916825987324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045191980913744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13650896355601091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182299439628268,0.10305911710456804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593236393055141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566606401451112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781918075136214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408435721872139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901517344254907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703446930355345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755908396135792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761385261089593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293114740114964,0.0
EDAnonymous,merlinaaa,2019/08/07,"People are trying to get me to relapse? I’ve been trying to recover (alone, at home) for the past 3 months now? I have naturally gained weight and for some reason everyone feels the need to comment on how much I weigh, and how they liked me better before. 

Especially my close family (mother, brother), keeps on commenting on how fat I have gotten (I’m not even overweight, I’m 58kg/160cms) and how I should lose some weight again? Even tho I’ve told them constantly that I like my body this way and I do not want to lose extra weight right now. 

The thing is I’m not 100% recovered right now and feel like if I keep being made fun of I will surely relapse. How do i handle situations like this?",2.1309593326381666,4.480489233576645,3.299421272158497,88.83680656934307,80.02189781021897,6.542022940563086,20.00469238790407,7.7094869923839395,0.7083247132429613,543,14,111,9,14,175,85,137,0.047,0.7759999999999999,0.177,0.9549,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,2,4,12,9,0,0,3,0,10,7,2,7,1,27,23,12,0,4,4,2,5,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,6,6,2,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,5,15,7,12,16,4,15,0,2,0,0,7,7,0,3,11,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450444880815663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916806518738225,0.0,0.0,0.12385851019797067,0.0,0.1555585350568887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15133900103516404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18499693534555944,0.0,0.0,0.13381909443456,0.0,0.0,0.13202205647048915,0.0,0.14162202076573266,0.10004824733534406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316778453803903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14047665375735982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489570389108533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27367584739708595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133492892290633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13251405965363908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117826626146178,0.0,0.10294926220621853,0.10384166705469287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368889426712846,0.09708963893302408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14398968715327168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391955002051717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574165599228035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13199084926955598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093039741521831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381909443456,0.0,0.1901628600310604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260222835160429,0.11116128172050746,0.0,0.5116116098463547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sensitivemarinara,2019/08/07,"What does recovery mean to you? I eat enough and I weigh enough. When I’m maintaining a low enough weight and exercising regularly I can sometimes convince myself that I have a healthy relationship with my body...but I’ve never stopped weighing myself at least once daily, never stopped bodychecking, never not let a change in my weight make or break my day. 

I feel like I’ve sacrificed a personality and other interests in life just trying to navigate this deep self-hatred and preoccupation with my weight and body.

It takes up so much emotional energy centering my life and my hobbies around it...only interested in physical activities, avoiding those 3 hour brunches with friends, turning down invitations because I hate how I look or based on what I’d have to wear, etc. It’s a part of me that refuses to evolve and mature and it makes being an adult so damn hard.


Is this recovery?",8.257089297886843,8.321454245398776,8.340817995910019,67.52093387866397,61.76073619631903,12.152419904567143,37.12951601908657,11.645159339076185,4.526552010906612,714,31,123,20,9,233,109,163,0.081,0.763,0.156,0.8543,0,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,6,9,2,1,6,0,6,12,2,3,3,28,15,14,0,0,4,0,5,1,1,0,3,0,0,2,11,12,7,4,2,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,6,17,5,16,13,7,20,0,1,1,0,6,11,1,2,9,82,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544555102396065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905368092550412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440488109322535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13718764042783424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363494179882754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348665068286135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269829891888188,0.0,0.14587615597139586,0.0,0.40199226622097467,0.14463105896604514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557172734259202,0.09264571088459927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019292608108303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617068346647536,0.12803532112976967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771183881018422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326098681715467,0.1831981723253232,0.06335666568216584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890123455352993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312909889358968,0.0,0.0,0.14126303324252454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533208063276788,0.0,0.3000590579909019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810838587322152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043427851246776,0.0,0.0,0.11323437655022207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923123457577888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352878705201662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826001033314688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168419401912487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750563438086686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804638672167077,0.14105809262613805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4737576374742275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,litttlelady,2019/08/07,"Wishing I could fast like a Skinny Legend I’ve been anorexic for basically my whole life but I feel like a total poser because I can no longer fast for longer than 12-16 hours due to hypoglycemic fainting spells. I was hospitalized a few years back after fainting and subsequently concussing myself, (ironically this happened in a grocery store because god hates me). So no more fasting for me unless i want more dain bramage.

I still maintain an underweight BMI and restrict calories, but I can’t go longer than a few hours without eating and it makes me feel weak 😔

Anyway, just wanted to get this off my chest.

Godspeed my Skinny Legends.",6.541271186440678,7.905169525423733,6.462500000000002,75.00103813559323,65.61016949152543,8.272881355932205,34.24152542372882,8.472884824447931,2.939335593220339,516,23,84,7,8,163,83,118,0.14,0.7709999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.8462,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,6,0,5,8,3,1,1,17,15,7,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,3,1,2,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,2,2,14,2,12,12,6,13,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,12,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747202379982134,0.0,0.2770257094339733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814188442696512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23250555804811995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297812584212287,0.16232794908061535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871448745145965,0.0,0.129135902168246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009322916118889,0.0,0.0,0.22433538358577604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475371966910459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160494119506132,0.22201907681582295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167292301625154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814603493362924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268043682421765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536860405856307,0.2612949021625796,0.21903458351366534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463239751401679
EDAnonymous,glitteringcherub,2019/08/07,"Can I take antibiotics without food? I’ve got a ear infection, and need to take these meds I’ve been prescribed but my doctor says I need to take them with food? It’s only penicillin, is it really bad if I don’t eat with them? I’m scared, man",0.979615384615382,2.838336192307697,2.7621538461538457,93.78284615384615,81.30769230769229,6.467692307692308,20.015384615384615,7.554174236665415,0.4604184615384614,190,5,44,3,5,63,38,52,0.18899999999999997,0.8109999999999999,0.0,-0.8905,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,6,1,0,0,8,11,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,6,0,5,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,22,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068669618066624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22149669678442604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214333508421771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.523348503899949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17307651064692448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24037392452979975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209187979370597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458353192632247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386327125902855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720916183323585,0.21665623193138248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881222937186118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086038810638393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Avalolo,2019/08/07,"They want me gaining This is going to be a bit all over the place so I apologize in advance. I'm a couple pounds underweight, no big deal in my opinion. I'm happy to maintain (or at least ""maintain"")  but my team wants me gaining. Dancing is my everything and I hope to go to school to become a choreographer. But I'm in government care and they won't pay for my dance lessons unless I'm gaining. This is so unfair.

I'm medically stable. My (very) underweight friends can dance and they don't get shit for it. I almost feel like I'm being emotionally manipulated. I feel physically sick and so triggered like I never want to eat again.",1.4604761904761894,4.009642825396828,3.700285714285717,83.4947142857143,85.03174603174601,6.5346031746031725,25.06666666666667,7.793537801064563,1.7094800000000006,500,21,97,10,15,171,76,126,0.10099999999999999,0.616,0.28300000000000003,0.9714,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,6,4,7,1,0,4,0,8,4,1,2,2,21,24,11,0,4,4,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,4,1,6,4,1,0,0,0,2,15,6,14,21,3,15,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,4,4,59,18,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993899832184678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21991246877654644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217387540376256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301617789630216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203225656533332,0.0,0.0,0.20528404466527425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037495378493633,0.0,0.22398327336948484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895627594300978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20136217646926505,0.14225141490323093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383966901697266,0.0,0.10403201608304316,0.0,0.2263290444101577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119670128300524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977711542248564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945600125636739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20059251795472585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535736702260074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20803808837570134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152013725788115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043938862690037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429490795190665,0.3523385217671213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beetlejules666,2019/08/07,"weird safe foods does anyone else have weird safe foods?

my safe foods aren’t considered healthy, but when i eat them in moderation or small portions i don’t feel as guilty for eating.

mr. noodles, iced mochas, ham and swiss sandwiches, caesar salad, breton crackers, 

(these aren’t the only foods i eat.  when i don’t feel like eating i’ll usually eat something from that list so i’m not completely starving myself.)",5.294718614718615,7.245778493506499,4.89292207792208,82.84033549783553,69.25974025974024,7.730735930735931,27.119047619047624,8.344100000000001,1.8744995670995683,332,11,59,5,6,101,56,77,0.081,0.737,0.18100000000000002,0.7829,2,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,5,11,0,0,0,9,8,7,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,11,3,2,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,7,4,4,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09194871816285137,0.13473855109737295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378765386255422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507761328376208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6727929423643793,0.10985240450174803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329819469704142,0.09394450559097542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.636047241269992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424485900720966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000126117301577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101236072073473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14483002742199422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,quartz222,2019/08/07,I just puked up a $25 filet mignon I am a waste of space,-0.4279999999999973,-0.9177164666666666,2.0600000000000023,107.01000000000002,80.33333333333333,6.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.6369999999999998,43,0,15,0,1,15,13,15,0.41200000000000003,0.588,0.0,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lbrc27,2019/08/07,"I cried today at work I'm so fucking sick. And I'm doing it to myself.   
I can't stand for people to look at me. I feel like I take up so much space. I feel like I'm some kind of ugly, disgusting, inhuman monster and I'm lurking around work trying to do my job. But I just feel so uncomfortable in my body. I barely eat, and I'm so light headed. And weak. And the fatigue makes it so hard to move. I'm so sick, uncomfortable, and miserable.   
I hate myself so fucking much.   
I can hardly take this. I don't know how much longer I can last. 

I want to just quietly exist in my room, wasting away, hiding. 

Work is basically the only time i leave my room. And those 8 hours are so hard. I don't know if I can keep doing it. I feel so fucking gross. ",-0.8272499999999994,1.2272607750000049,2.1325000000000003,94.0225,91.25,4.95,16.75,6.508806274219699,-0.25371250000000023,564,14,132,7,20,198,83,160,0.299,0.664,0.037000000000000005,-0.9915,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,3,13,12,5,1,2,0,11,10,2,2,0,23,33,19,0,2,4,0,7,2,0,0,4,1,2,0,5,8,1,1,6,0,0,1,3,9,0,0,0,10,23,3,14,33,4,16,0,2,1,3,0,10,3,2,6,80,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219399401239423,0.0,0.0,0.12869584568546014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215227632599207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046449218299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14016324129596866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770418586098521,0.1957149901023622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799033539364067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36811759466900573,0.13523794770639058,0.1405794984902094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489626788996167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593006301650695,0.12175281852523293,0.0,0.14264206869753368,0.15055964457985158,0.11165579090524956,0.0,0.14504049380163908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384158941096772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502747315160462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914342378963342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14558650822745295,0.30208495956256914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041783507813763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496367117320764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20598162705606884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07987328716970253,0.0,0.1298396377222413,0.0,0.0,0.09299943592232214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079349081488685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991660216223475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,favisnugget,2019/08/07,"Cheap accurate Fitbit? I want a Fitbit/Apple Watch but can’t afford one. Basically, I want a pedometer or other thing that measures movement that I can wear on my wrist or ankle. Any suggestions pls? 

My phone has a built in pedometer but I learned today it’s completely off.",2.12063186813187,4.979511557692309,4.099450549450552,78.90269230769233,87.26923076923076,7.586813186813187,24.736263736263727,8.418075326091056,2.5178263736263737,219,9,37,6,7,74,40,52,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.3421,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,2,2,0,0,7,5,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,3,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,25,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119434883500046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4809563527436211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31083870846087913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30475138563118753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348103559980233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5411266870398281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sayyourprayersbitch,2019/08/07,"Potential menopause in my 20s? So over the past 6 months I’ve been experiencing symptoms that I have attributed to my ED and poor nutrition but in the last week or so, after spending extensive time shadowing an OBGYN, I have come to the realization that it might actually be premature menopause.  I know it sounds crazy but all my symptoms match. 
I’ve been experiencing intense mood swings, insomnia, night sweats, daytime hot flashes, migraines, GI issues (nausea, vomiting, diarrhea), hair loss and have not had a period since last september. I’m only 22yo and while I know weight restoration usually restarts your period and should get hormonal issues back under control, but I have been at a healthy weight now since May. I am quite terrified that I may have caused permanent damage and potentially infertility which would be devastating because I believe I’ve met the love of my life and we talk about having kids (in a couple years) regularly.  

I guess I’m just wondering if any of y’all could share your experiences with this? There is a very small amount of literature regarding the topic and google searches turn up results only about women in their late 30s and 40s. 

Thanks y’all. Much love",8.813722741433017,9.16428132242991,8.40331775700935,66.57809190031155,60.54205607476636,12.366978193146418,37.92679127725857,11.855464076750405,4.799770716510904,969,43,160,28,12,309,146,214,0.10800000000000001,0.7909999999999999,0.102,-0.3398,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,4,1,3,8,7,0,0,10,0,20,12,2,4,1,33,33,16,0,4,7,0,4,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,7,11,2,1,3,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,5,7,19,4,17,20,3,26,0,2,0,2,13,9,0,7,16,96,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.13475841265177682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390767214205396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618465011142493,0.0,0.08417993921350002,0.0,0.0,0.15558301984632628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185909234287372,0.0,0.11895450775432655,0.0,0.0,0.15488254160307796,0.11025566770684564,0.15279678448192915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508101573386744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07214765992545914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15212451696629228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882654976899013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517841125352341,0.22512772501909786,0.15577441584440327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975388547998321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24926784302715704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649437725014464,0.0,0.0,0.11022415915421033,0.0,0.10151391635166553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295905073195538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21005122007111346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182496832852655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468784293690667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284631754204753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870620766824609,0.0,0.110993564083666,0.0,0.1271370704394654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052287877111268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150205044519435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520894387050057,0.11394081930447998,0.0,0.0,0.11076951723572727,0.3363190569379763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497554842214544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809698832045637,0.0,0.0,0.08892707725896322
EDAnonymous,b3t_eet,2019/04/26,"Oh no.... Oh NO. (tw, and photo tagging) My friends know I am iffy about taking photos a lot, and don’t mean harm, but long story short I saw a photo of me up... it wasn’t tagged as I have that option off, but it’s right there on the front page photo select search of my buddy’s page. 

WHEN DID I GET SO FAT? Like I was aware I was bigger than I’ve been, but holy SHIT my facial structure does not hold weight well when I get the slightest bit of being not-super-thin basically. 

Doesn’t help my outfit makes me look pregnant, literally. No exaggeration. I’m about 26 hours into a fast sooo it’s the smidgen of hope I hold onto.

I have nothing going for me, least I can have is a nice body......",0.43783105022831137,2.3832526917808217,2.592301369863016,93.813200913242,83.72602739726028,4.715251141552511,16.582648401826482,5.6839178017228535,-0.6716962557077624,527,10,121,3,15,178,97,146,0.105,0.772,0.12300000000000001,0.5611,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,0,7,0,14,5,4,1,0,15,25,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,2,2,2,0,0,2,7,2,1,0,6,3,17,5,14,18,5,15,0,0,2,0,2,8,1,3,6,73,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605808522740478,0.2651238549494344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088737707698992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18440648436711746,0.0,0.24940483127769705,0.0,0.13564948383125328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599846961022714,0.0,0.0,0.2370668338854077,0.23505542884322045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311743548460076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660883094896345,0.0,0.0,0.21122762063683645,0.2004342481324828,0.0,0.0,0.20292040116031135,0.0,0.0,0.15932326620931828,0.0,0.0,0.25999659207684866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2290235093683849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038346307316457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450054542748725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946048633822706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29065252337273345,0.21460536904755287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,makkkz,2019/04/26,"Has anyone here experienced weight gain while on antidepressants? I really don't want to change meds again because I don't the whole roller coaster of collateral effects... last time I my brain went into a mush, I couldn't concentrate on work and couldn't even walk straight for a couple of days. And I guess the only thing I fear more than being obese is disappointing my mom by killing myself bc I'm not taking meds (((:

What the fuck do I do?",5.069573643410851,6.269704406976743,5.367441860465117,82.10992248062018,68.88372093023256,8.524031007751939,25.96124031007752,8.841846274778883,1.7180449612403101,353,10,70,6,6,112,64,86,0.204,0.757,0.039,-0.925,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,3,3,4,2,1,5,0,9,4,1,1,0,9,15,3,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,5,4,0,0,1,2,10,0,9,11,2,11,0,1,0,1,1,4,1,1,5,44,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382840113063727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253912226417875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296263207838112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176005691727169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276002548936289,0.0,0.13265780271018854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358611892717891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314667564038037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901639269075551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265988708760631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2275736907160903,0.0,0.0,0.16767083080871178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569668688776687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409103026957365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644213780741328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177501827688218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546588415155703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366562090240511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119943805069023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213256528751273,0.0,0.0,0.25048401163743483,0.0,0.19068354575217164,0.0,0.2296537953909148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975015324170907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fieryanxiety,2019/04/26,"Anybody here accidentally raise red flags with their ridiculous knowledge of calorie content? Just yesterday, a coworker was eating veggie staws and said something like ""they're supposed to be better for you, but they're not that good."" and my ass piped in with ""Yeah but you can have 38 of them for 130 calories."" Everyone in the office turned and looked at me like I had 3 heads. Apparently that's not a normal thing to know? My obsessive, disordered mindset has become so normal to me that I sometimes forget it's definitely not normal. Whoops",4.955757575757578,7.582721949494952,5.1484848484848476,77.7427272727273,71.92929292929294,7.632323232323233,29.181818181818183,8.515128840125781,2.5078363636363634,439,18,72,8,9,138,75,99,0.121,0.7509999999999999,0.128,0.1926,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,2,1,3,6,1,1,3,1,6,3,2,0,0,17,10,6,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,3,10,4,12,6,0,4,0,0,2,1,5,3,1,0,3,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368984244214052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18970784032822469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24583561125121506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948707484225827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20496396540925832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799124434928604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22013890818387624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117883603691577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095877541103696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012599719515945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6304934434213044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040386431146524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16513259822434673,0.21214600877792045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250428493440734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333144311990419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Numbnun,2019/04/26,"Told my boyfriend about my binge/purge ED (regret) I told my boyfriend a few weeks ago that I have a binge eating disorder and he told me “well then don’t...” and didn’t take me seriously. I brought the subject up again tonight because he thinks I’m on a diet. I went to grab a snack (cheese balls) and he stared at me and said “so you’re just giving up on your diet?” I ignored him and continued snacking. He seemed annoyed and kept giving me a glare so I started feeling like shit and put the snack away. I then gave him an attitude and said I was going to take a shower. I purged in the shower and felt bad about giving him an attitude so I asked him if we could talk. I started off with an apology and continued to say “I have a binge eating disorder..” he then said “well people that know they have an eating disorder can fix it” I told him that isn’t entirely true...I thought it was an ignorant thing to say. I went on about how I am constantly battling with my urges and my body and began crying. He stayed quiet for a few minutes so I began to feel embarrassed (I’ve never told anyone before). 

I turned away and apologized for bringing it up. He then got extremely angry and said “so you’re just gonna go back to having an attitude? What about your apology?” I then replied “I’m not having an attitude I’m just embarrassed and I’m genuinely sorry for burdening you with my problem” I really wasn’t trying to have an attitude and I feel like he’s making this about himself by constantly back tracking to me having an “attitude”. 

I apologized again for having and attitude but that it wasn’t intentional. He then asked me “so what’re you gonna do about your ED?” I said “idk that’s why I was crying out to you for some help or advice but I’m sorry for bringing it up” he then yells at me again saying I’m still having an attitude. 

I don’t know what to do. Now I’m sleeping on the couch typing this. I feel like he’s making this about himself and taking offense to my words even though I’m not having any sort of attitude. His words exactly are “your tone doesn’t define your attitude, it’s what you’re saying” and what I’m saying is that I’m embarrassed and regretful for even telling him. I wish I could open up to him about my ED but it feels like he doesn’t care.",1.8665489660554044,3.8776816459227486,3.581656262192745,88.24745903238394,79.10729613733906,7.154818571985955,23.037261022239555,8.150884317080207,1.29747381974249,1781,58,374,34,44,594,178,466,0.10400000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.085,-0.6723,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,1,8,1,0,30,22,4,3,22,0,29,11,3,4,2,66,89,40,0,7,10,0,7,4,0,2,0,12,3,0,21,26,8,3,11,1,0,8,11,15,2,0,26,20,62,7,48,59,3,52,0,2,1,0,60,17,1,5,30,242,83,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07272966202955064,0.06597546121959776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061323164347621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052041417360482616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391592744563939,0.0,0.13985411562871242,0.11446026017855615,0.06214382838753985,0.045370294736958174,0.0,0.06333229489854655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267214039866704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588376572115088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16085930787143962,0.0,0.11884855672306018,0.0,0.16351016130859294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559009852144485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22847364711768814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983172836297158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18816382495511785,0.21268399698732826,0.07146204272721142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21419283261027086,0.08459769245919384,0.0,0.059526446622291826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04988716409667336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180678183486742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454460089345906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09936182796786132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05740305296418397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05159863621878075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121703688281265,0.0,0.0748201640843027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04768014293368697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539878371642324,0.2959385561482311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677559731424411,0.0,0.0,0.0763987281269526,0.0,0.0,0.07448122035910165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663091779335926,0.10536029230276607,0.0793297798428339,0.0594378734687166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16788058387348773,0.05982198090698766,0.06505288906804013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04944630373984665,0.04769011735384005,0.07312461112138259,0.0590870973370302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35559318423352915,0.0,0.050531366399633945,0.08095571468091277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05970122682209712,0.0,0.13383846733513174,0.1379900201943026,0.06715921497947126,0.0,0.0855879170825221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Babunator,2019/04/26,"Tip: Porridge - Don't binge on it I found this amazing pre-packaged porrigde. Dry 55g (200g with water) for 200 calories with 15g protein. And I bought right away 10 packages. And I binged on 8 of them yesterday.

R.I.P.  My stomache was so damn uncomfortably full and I just wanted to throw up. Even now in the next morrining my stomaches feels so miserable.

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Don't be as stupid as me and learn from my mistake. Stay safe my friends. :)",2.461614987080104,4.964108546511632,3.0924806201550403,89.91052971576227,79.81395348837209,6.14780361757106,28.16020671834625,7.3871296695380915,1.6371074935400518,349,16,69,5,9,109,68,86,0.135,0.696,0.16899999999999998,0.509,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,0,5,7,2,1,1,0,4,3,2,0,0,13,8,8,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,1,3,0,1,1,2,4,0,0,3,1,10,3,13,4,1,12,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,0,3,40,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290133730593017,0.3689777708653417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852967361724799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056327983488567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15353863526745948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33294538120987915,0.2346054581354701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229437838010079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593223177091233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236590810173538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910538689651434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689777708653417,0.0
EDAnonymous,Laroo98,2019/04/26,"Struggling with my recovery I mostly just wanted to write this here because it’s hard to talk about with my friends. 
I lost my brother 4 years ago and I was already diagnosed with GAD and depression. I was self harming quite frequently but stopped around 4 months after I lost my brother because it was getting really bad. After that I started binging and I’ve been struggling since. 

Last year I went through a huge traumatic experience and instead of binging I took to controlling my weight loss. I lost a lot of weight in a short period of time and managed to keep most of it off after going into recovery in early February of last year. 

Recovery has been difficult to say the least. I started going to a new shrink and was prescribed seroquel which is commonly known to cause weight gain. And did I ever gain that weight. I’ve gained around 30lbs since starting it in September and I’m at a point where I’m really struggling not to go back to my old habits. 

I stopped taking my meds which I know is a horrible thing to do- I’m only staying off them until my next visit with my dr, in about 3 weeks.
I’m not really sure what to do, I’ve been experiencing some real emotional turmoil since gaining and I just can’t handle anymore weight. 

Any tips on calming yourself down in a really bad episode? I’ve tried using positive affirmations/ meditating but I’m honestly not sure they make a difference.",4.992955390334572,6.5898531561338345,5.842117100371747,77.13343587360599,69.48327137546468,9.246171003717473,32.40910780669145,9.642632912329526,3.2597136059479546,1125,51,201,26,20,369,149,269,0.21,0.672,0.11800000000000001,-0.9769,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,10,11,18,0,4,9,0,14,7,0,4,3,42,37,12,0,1,7,2,6,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,11,16,5,4,2,0,0,6,4,13,0,0,13,8,25,5,40,24,5,51,0,5,0,0,10,17,0,4,27,125,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708923735428433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596805498801134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05913919137972341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624592525753008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483459944795644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687072739945334,0.1452243075868922,0.10602613017496476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933702454394128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753865749527524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490283875009418,0.08826765816654232,0.0,0.0908599296129582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978239350867269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866483360805446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506847054166461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718895375216069,0.0,0.04543563023771496,0.0,0.14827266395087366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790357048230384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07729849985514615,0.0,0.0,0.04779369712223362,0.1417761862379711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28479775604908325,0.07393454463232102,0.0,0.0,0.058049821847207764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09659852520873996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941464413077253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399135201173326,0.0924882785200347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125515264370557,0.0,0.0,0.06614081160769722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08221004739286011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249799665857668,0.0,0.09898522449829553,0.22284805821770395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915806930476892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072347551015343,0.0,0.0,0.2158150736710716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846628526175136,0.09269313339412874,0.0,0.14541329074717366,0.0,0.2727441429122468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392699218754408,0.0,0.06538686726934581,0.06989918372518128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057775690761837376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0507099987622688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662132992550182,0.059043535675360574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751098496017491,0.0,0.0,0.05129421818482978,0.0,0.06975808823089377,0.5294997900388815,0.0,0.08061743883740548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800785242238406
EDAnonymous,ky9992,2019/04/26,"eueeueuuugghhhh hey y’all, i’m not really sure if i should be posting here since i haven’t been diagnosed with anything/don’t think i have an actual disorder. however i’ve been slipping into some bad habits and i’m feeling ashamed but also grossly proud. 

i’ve been restricting myself to ~700 calories per day and i cannot for the life of me stop chewing & spitting. the only questionable habit i’ve had before was the c/s, but id only do it a few times a week and i had it under control. now i keep getting food to chew and then spit into a ziploc bag, and i feel especially disgusting when my parents see me taking junk foods into my room. 

the restricting has only been going on since friday when i tripped on robocough (lol), threw up a few times, had my hunger surprised for a day bc of the dxm afterglow, and as a result lost a few pounds. now i’ve lost about 10 lbs since then (likely just water weight tho) 

i’ve always had the worst body image & cared about my weight a little too much, but now it feels like it abruptly got so much worse. i can’t stop weighing myself and looking in the mirror. i don’t even notice any difference in my body, i look exactly the same and it’s frustrating. 
sorry for the rant, i just can’t talk about this type of stuff anywhere else.",3.476627906976745,4.946419879844965,4.716968992248066,84.22056976744187,73.06976744186046,7.485581395348837,25.3031007751938,8.07648339933343,1.4553296124031,1011,32,202,15,20,334,156,258,0.213,0.732,0.055,-0.991,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,4,16,13,2,1,18,1,19,15,4,2,2,36,37,20,0,2,7,1,5,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,7,12,9,6,5,0,0,3,6,7,0,0,13,8,22,6,22,22,8,30,0,2,3,0,5,11,0,3,17,124,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.10966998905729866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987296614515572,0.09351199348622162,0.2435347386847228,0.0,0.0764245672945722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09383544658836357,0.0,0.0,0.09562999785289412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496652496639633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11458236851527255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604754173432453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495599435843715,0.0,0.0,0.1140667875921634,0.0,0.11741673572267387,0.12880111537519756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388191182411627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422817724727575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047327470392884,0.0802867249948253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27178891209400696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05871568920139311,0.0,0.06387007735304857,0.0,0.08988327316733351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09989153159058167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937972055370589,0.1098097072307901,0.11263769319456032,0.0,0.0,0.18874750674830532,0.0,0.24535951839182454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522946325019505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794924828943208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564179247146338,0.0,0.0,0.12478846847637008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763223367647208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589513062621227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199568519786595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895550212340564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27889413494099435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258040178105911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18791511288811505,0.0,0.0,0.12865210803822222,0.0,0.0,0.10592002658096174,0.0,0.08449833217572057,0.09032952168961103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720107462939363,0.0,0.0,0.1310633311852635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014718639136693,0.2737054152564073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452828803569623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xenaaaaa13,2019/10/31,"Struggles I'm so frustrated. I go through cycles of eating too much/ not eating enough. Daily I eat between one and two meals. I'm at university and when I'm there, I struggle to eat. I'm trying to lose weight and get my eating back on track, but I panic when I can't record everything I eat to make sure I'm eating enough. When places don't have the nutritional info, I can't handle it. My doctor advised me to lose weight but I'm struggling bc calorie counting fuels my ed and I become obsessed with it and won't eat if I can't count the calories effectively. I even panic when I try to record my juice intake like how to am I supposed to know how much I drunk today? My head is swirling and i just can't.",1.5618312559923309,3.478489885906044,3.4493048897411316,89.28887583892616,79.67114093959731,5.599424736337488,22.05225311601151,6.5431188927421005,0.4439488015340367,559,17,118,5,14,188,84,149,0.19399999999999998,0.7390000000000001,0.067,-0.9505,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,12,11,1,6,2,0,9,14,1,4,1,19,19,16,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,7,12,0,3,1,0,1,7,9,0,2,0,2,20,2,13,18,4,10,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,7,74,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246506531871147,0.0,0.0,0.1040811390101163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645906244996676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7714518086264401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947510903534556,0.0,0.06224490813729959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469721219892733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0492367294482242,0.0,0.05355900205280381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671785855132513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05179206984091645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04604110859677042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21086184683566264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06290621166372813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385551032369068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385974707091142,0.0,0.0,0.22114165360410715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846118010539792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955616440863408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882047988958618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932889824222566,0.0,0.0,0.12796611718620704,0.0,0.09205919597608107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22951888435252898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,YaLikeHummus,2019/10/31,"Fuck my face fat I guess So basically I have big, puffy cheeks and low jawline which results in having a babyface. The only complements I have ever received is that I am adorable and cute and it feels like people treats me like a fucking child and that makes me invalidated. Also my body and face proportions feel so fucked

Recently I've noticed that during fast my cheekbones become more prominent and my face don't look like a fucking shapeless blob. It really boosted my confidence but I'm scared that during the next binge it will go back to my natural shape.

Why am I obsessed with cheekbones, god help me",5.150454106280198,7.090335330434788,5.400289855072465,79.1038164251208,69.6086956521739,8.241545893719808,31.038647342995173,8.841846274778883,2.6988357487922707,493,21,86,9,9,156,79,115,0.10300000000000001,0.7,0.19699999999999998,0.8302,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,13,4,2,5,0,8,10,6,2,1,14,19,10,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,7,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,7,0,0,0,3,14,6,3,18,1,11,0,1,1,4,3,4,4,1,8,51,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420732508208674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366082400625723,0.0,0.0,0.19620959646342245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733828290185268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607020723704474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965871425042446,0.12691910044843502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6569688152312211,0.0,0.0,0.10096728648158658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19571060893761075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908059056178985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26038456413191896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491881987335007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185882718326426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889415809636047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20226511290621008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13511711658323514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316587211108078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381243414861918,0.0,0.1754161044354266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17786691660901915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603089517360425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ClaireEBear2002,2019/10/31,"Not losing weight even though I’m fasting TW Numbers 

I have been fasting Monday through Friday every week for the past month and I lost weight quickly at first but the past two weeks I’ve only lost one pound and it’s honestly so discouraging. I’ve been 105 for too long now :(",3.0812727272727263,5.242660036363642,3.503636363636364,89.53545454545456,75.9090909090909,5.854545454545455,23.72727272727273,6.742157984588678,0.7025636363636365,222,7,44,2,5,69,42,55,0.215,0.6970000000000001,0.08900000000000001,-0.8389,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,4,6,5,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,4,2,2,1,4,2,0,13,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,12,25,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366993468926122,0.0,0.17051369154525028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214413579315518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909973502238838,0.0,0.22641120485556585,0.4418428690437426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615376079952596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713777521227136,0.15391894076189666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863887957275948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883710436073385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769563618802566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246737011259944,0.4928880963834233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uwuyoungi,2019/10/31,I wish being this fat was just a Halloween costume Like one of those blow up fat suits,5.625,5.0948870555555565,5.196666666666669,89.86500000000002,67.33333333333333,7.2,29.11111111111111,3.1291,0.8507111111111119,69,2,15,0,1,21,17,18,0.0,0.7290000000000001,0.271,0.6369,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34372146745684884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767471210755463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8090536047478492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yodream,2019/10/31,"Binging this entire week (Tw, bcs of numbers)
I have been binging now for an entire week and I am feeling so bad now. I have been eating around 5000 calories a day and have already gained weight and each day it fuels me to binge even more since I will gain no matter what I do. I don't know what to do, how long will it take for me to get back to my pre-binge weight?",5.31753164556962,3.76436958227848,5.555537974683546,90.40900316455699,68.36708860759494,7.9,27.34493670886076,3.1291,0.5975797468354425,283,6,68,0,4,90,52,79,0.084,0.804,0.111,0.0445,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,0,2,0,11,3,0,1,0,9,15,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,9,0,8,11,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614559935883537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091619521505064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18218304493494375,0.19782502436907215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055979819885782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424365432122291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564887417995739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979794043260948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237851267236669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020945949061355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20967386761611312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19598933042550026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814040673922468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800987791512669,0.5770290696283674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wholesomecheezit,2019/10/31,"restricting ruined me Before I started counting my calories to lose weight a few years ago, I ate basically whatever I wanted and maintained around 136-140 (5’10”), only working out occasionally. . Then I started doing bbg, more running and 1200 calories a day and got down to 126 at the lowest. I looked amazzzzing. Then slowly since then I’ve gained up to 148-150 due to binging from the intense restriction. And I feel like my weight doesn’t budge much even with fasting/restriction etc. and I’m exercising more than ever now just to offset when I do binge eat.  I wish I’d never started counting calories in the first place, I’d probably be smaller than I am now and without all the food/eating mental turmoil",8.255714285714284,7.841332165413537,7.96736842105263,71.78157894736844,61.93233082706767,10.006015037593986,38.548872180451134,9.23628265651192,3.6408977443609016,570,26,96,8,7,182,94,133,0.122,0.807,0.071,-0.7579,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,1,6,0,5,5,0,0,3,19,15,10,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,4,2,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,4,12,1,16,12,6,24,0,2,1,0,0,7,0,0,17,62,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017142608398254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15081049835388982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415512777439973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925520421191397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466967139602717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188936532301648,0.11189347083330499,0.1532407201188144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08565860521042733,0.1210262821298063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409975498434474,0.20485081161899746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13549236661230468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0827649938938324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226143241295647,0.18952605614518173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072507361283934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124535579429622,0.0,0.1306591597217249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288436666694811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699701893742886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265224712351066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401374065342789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597270497678249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992219613326787,0.0,0.0,0.4125906095859904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19481272773614355,0.16330484953853885,0.0,0.12333223707113125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909425516658287
EDAnonymous,sa76,2019/10/31,How do people do it? I genuinely don’t understand what moderation is especially when it comes to food. I’ve tried it all from water fasts to whole foods to keto to “intuitive eating” which just translated to binge eating for me because moderation is a foreign concept. I’ve been dieting for the last 10 years of my life and I’m just exhausted. I’m much fatter now than I was when I started and I just don’t know how to have a healthy relationship with food. I don’t want to diet anymore but also I’ve shut myself in my home because nothing fits me anymore and the thought of seeing my body terrifies me. I hate this so much and I hate that the concept of being thin and hating yourself is so well ingrained into my life. I just want to cry and eat until I feel nothing but the pain of breathing. I’m sorry but I just needed to reach out to someone that gets it.,3.1604870129870117,4.696901477272732,4.867402597402599,82.55681818181822,74.0,7.528571428571428,27.912337662337666,8.192908349453996,1.91779512987013,684,27,135,11,14,232,98,176,0.14800000000000002,0.782,0.07,-0.9586,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,14,6,3,0,6,0,12,15,2,2,1,28,29,17,0,3,8,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,9,10,9,0,4,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,3,3,18,1,23,25,4,15,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,8,95,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043603835916824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491074329967121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311968095649076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950462340199912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081865611085987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795713625991454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855365295338143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06350319082501132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4555997666180565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561674178408079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719888933639901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12597921851106858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902218955847123,0.10237440698892963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741897258838368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846494382110238,0.09312502621989176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410182096268506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363895756383798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706981915607719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348390231032473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000807243124982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641386497527842,0.0,0.0,0.14059018746699134,0.08889480681365615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997061793993732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526886089528446,0.0,0.0,0.13074591126200452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815506914027335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292247238459888,0.0,0.0,0.14021920809066768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087726022081733
EDAnonymous,TFWyourestillfat,2019/10/31,"What are the consequences/ramifications of seeking ED treatment? I'm an adult with my own health insurance. Could anyone tell me the long-term consequences of having it officially on my record if I decide to seek professional treatment?

Is it true you'll no longer be eligible for organ transplants, getting a gun permit, higher insurance rates, etc.?

I'm in the USA.",5.507743589743591,8.334458569230772,6.244230769230772,69.58993589743592,71.0,9.256410256410255,30.833333333333336,9.725611199111238,3.59771794871795,297,13,46,8,6,97,54,65,0.08199999999999999,0.8740000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.327,0,0,0,1,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,1,6,9,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,7,6,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,29,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031473080708673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461533319619156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.483521366474806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22651128414419136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608419587569675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38367692680258425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789406438838435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edallanhoe,2019/10/31,"Halloween treats? Just kidding, only water and laxative tea for me :,) I’ve been binging too much and I hate myself",2.255714285714284,5.171803142857144,3.4352380952380983,82.90142857142861,89.0,4.704761904761905,26.04761904761905,6.42735559955562,1.5073047619047624,90,4,14,1,3,29,19,21,0.16,0.779,0.061,-0.5106,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6823422522473123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5080559492208792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5256312426590879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,danger-pony,2019/10/31,"My bias is what?! I did the Harvard Implicit Association Test today thinking I was FOR SURE bias against overweight/obese people because you know, #skinnylegends. 

Turns out I actually prefer overweight people. But like - it actually kinda makes sense considering ED brain. I’ll go with this as an inclusion win here.",6.5313207547169805,9.697792320754722,6.800603773584907,65.18543396226417,69.18867924528301,9.52301886792453,35.12830188679245,9.888512548439397,4.413169056603773,255,13,36,7,5,82,46,53,0.09300000000000001,0.738,0.16899999999999998,0.745,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,1,2,10,8,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,5,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,20,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.5624921969388031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756868384489397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32173162900259883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16379330588880295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838970131862976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080220121382248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19237879673681127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996095382721913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716294082067137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466985924889776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731842452940675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31348382568646155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LaRealiteInconnue,2019/10/31,My coworkers went out to lunch and didn't invite me Which I think is super shitty and catty behavior but oh well I'm now excited not to eat anything at all today.,2.2454901960784315,4.07033688235294,4.794705882352943,80.87284313725492,77.23529411764707,8.062745098039215,23.098039215686285,8.841846274778883,1.8487568627450983,130,4,25,3,3,46,31,34,0.09300000000000001,0.6890000000000001,0.217,0.6886,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,2,0,3,3,4,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3795399637342103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719372379278662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29552741698258594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371771045933409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146869282265968,0.4275501560923868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pokeupokeu,2019/10/31,Ultimate Spooky Halloween Activity Trying to feel and count every bone in your body! Fun for all ages!,4.788333333333334,8.024366722222227,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,76.22222222222223,8.044444444444443,25.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.5798,83,3,13,2,2,26,18,18,0.0,0.8140000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.5972,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6810195598413998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165659790847825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31000345371746224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162569003017862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bakeahri,2019/10/31,"Anyone ever ponder why thinness is valued in women from an evolutionary standpoint? I once took a course on evolution and human life and it gave me a whole new perspective on the day to day aspects of human life. One of the best things a gene could do is to ensure getting passed on is be advantageous for your survival. However, sometimes it’s more beneficial for a “gene’s survival” to compromise ones self a little if it benefits your offspring. (For further reading see “The Selfish Gene” by Richard Dawkins.)


I often see people saying how extra body fat is good and helped us survive during times of famine. And there is probably some truth to this. 

But thinking about this led me to thinking famine is also probably another reason that thinness is valued specifically in women. Why? Because in times of famine, thinness would be an indicator that the woman was likely choosing to feed her children before herself, making her a more attractive mate. 

Just a shower thought.",6.538514588859417,8.549358333333338,6.584022988505748,71.69789124668436,66.24137931034483,8.572236958443856,34.64898320070734,9.057496981413335,3.4789996463306814,786,37,117,14,13,250,113,174,0.017,0.8240000000000001,0.159,0.9758,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,2,0,5,7,8,0,0,13,0,13,5,2,4,2,22,22,8,0,3,3,0,3,1,1,1,3,1,1,7,8,4,2,0,6,1,0,3,0,1,0,2,4,6,10,7,22,14,6,20,0,0,2,0,17,11,0,3,7,86,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342245186903628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183476385619106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791532706078208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940817995303254,0.0,0.13132857758551966,0.0,0.16196612128690374,0.0,0.0,0.17143251514728367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322474598097695,0.0,0.0,0.19906791779784652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960575743708345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806341955233982,0.0,0.0,0.12944972321880432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344817460170504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21802417700543203,0.07540077893699118,0.15468522808617946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302048547443213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490586807084041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436281424296484,0.20916414997894808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699715699265884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33280064577473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437777605664935,0.0,0.0,0.1586831234617156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273419017554525,0.0,0.0,0.245971636899994,0.0,0.1610061184267584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264226078595636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253398755592304,0.1977845674785442,0.0,0.12252555286935304,0.1799891377667706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17147298646859274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18564721778824972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785284881636746,0.17231064411159172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963587377138136,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlelivethings,2019/10/31,When you do a tbt of Halloweens past and are reminded that you used to be skinny That’s all,0.7614999999999981,2.70192415,2.4700000000000024,95.165,82.5,6.0,20.0,7.1686216300943375,0.28200000000000003,73,2,17,1,2,24,18,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,1,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7415430009142859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6709053419037855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BirdsEatMyBrain,2019/10/31,"Triggered by a mannequin Went shopping today and came across an extremely skinny mannequin. Definitely below xxs. I've been trying to eat ""normal"" since yesterday. When I saw the mannequin I felt like an absolute failure and at the same time I'm very angry they make mannequins like that.
No wonder there's so much pressure to be skinny when even dolls are made way smaller than we're supposed to be.

I really just want to fast for a week now to become small like that but I can't because my S/O birthday is saturday and we have several dinners/outings planned..

I just feel so bad, I already felt really bad for eating ""normal"" but now I just feel like I'm a waste of space..",4.331136363636362,5.8780383257575775,5.201939393939393,81.27790909090913,71.04545454545455,7.704242424242422,29.86666666666667,8.238735603445708,2.238706666666668,537,22,98,8,10,175,91,132,0.175,0.7390000000000001,0.086,-0.945,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,1,1,11,7,0,1,7,0,7,4,2,3,0,22,20,9,0,3,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,5,1,1,2,2,3,0,0,7,5,10,4,13,11,2,18,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,14,58,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840994676479262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785897632251217,0.10169714351519972,0.18424904070132195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19080743235529105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34141453734692984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101886924174096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870706810940575,0.1191823586908924,0.3203631652495543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260160360449483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785721998996988,0.11135936120058862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263818929379425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269131412265937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374929860451214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884687902480414,0.0,0.13800231121423912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727907664406586,0.0,0.15813397090549086,0.0,0.0,0.11326564331477935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765103611750826,0.09839980879495183,0.13242074802316475,0.13381981023840622,0.0,0.0,0.1546517492196718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18091846006720647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlebunny12,2019/10/31,"Telegram Does anyone use telegram?
Is it good?
Are there any good groups?
How does it work?
Is it better than kik?
Should I go there for Ed stuff?

Thanks",-0.7611428571428576,0.4229112666666701,-0.5452380952380942,106.60500000000003,119.66666666666666,1.7142857142857144,10.952380952380953,3.1291,-2.127761904761905,118,2,26,0,7,34,23,30,0.0,0.6659999999999999,0.33399999999999996,0.9111,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016932652511515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20738457227294305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26231221708248953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5191006919047205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16856051541027048,0.4975359147169515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395277810557633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730627890830025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25616093939177104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21592308079425784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mistressofcitrus,2019/10/31,"Starbucks put cream in my drink And it tasted so good, I drank the whole thing. I usually would panic and just throw it out, but I’m so tired of not enjoying myself or having a complete breakdown over this shit every waking moment. I drank the mystery calorie drink and even ate a whole apple when I got home (!!!). I know my relationship with food is still fucked, but if I can even just relax for one day, it’s one step closer to recovery, right? 
I ordered a second drink with no cream just for the caffeine and to let them know they gave me cream the first time, but I wasn’t complaining. Today I’m not counting or restricting or purging if I eat over whatever number of calories I randomly decide is too many. Today I’m normal, even if I’m fucked up tomorrow. Today is for me, and I deserve it. 
Happy Halloween, guys 🧡🖤",4.519911308203987,5.303854317073172,5.550155210643016,81.82544345898006,69.85365853658537,8.158758314855879,27.713968957871394,8.296473431620573,1.8481048780487803,644,21,125,9,11,213,102,164,0.192,0.722,0.085,-0.9732,1,0,3,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,1,11,9,3,1,7,0,8,14,2,0,0,29,21,17,0,5,14,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,8,9,1,3,4,0,3,4,5,0,4,6,4,18,4,14,13,2,22,0,0,3,2,6,7,3,7,11,87,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159117032396135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709227306964884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968754207522561,0.0,0.1381838288728643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675860647596223,0.0,0.1137804792935116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486844311803965,0.16329586267997126,0.0,0.0,0.2496921901595394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326858459243427,0.108007103890114,0.0,0.0,0.13371489135438966,0.0,0.14375695639248645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13546024388392372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484334121372796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809174254352607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13691352215957653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231454616603588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830187552857861,0.0,0.0,0.15844515536336948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575662069340444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449868253709726,0.0,0.11532692417949952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13862082879293242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078463933094745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08971729992382557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874530114828883,0.1552133280323806,0.3840180516810208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873199809886026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015438315884402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593145457444463,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jrms_,2019/10/31,"Tw? I feel like im gonna relapse soon in my ED behavior, even though it never got better.
Is it still relapsing if it's still as bad but didn't purge in a while?
I feel like if I keep going, I will fail, but if I purge again I will fail as well.

Help",-0.20068965517241466,0.9101492758620716,2.361586206896554,98.79203448275864,82.10344827586206,6.019310344827588,16.772413793103446,6.742157984588678,-0.5291006896551727,190,3,52,2,5,66,39,58,0.21600000000000005,0.609,0.175,-0.5593,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,9,10,9,0,3,5,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,2,7,4,4,5,0,9,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,3,8,33,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213972201315645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345121498576723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513543863729902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681453579885222,0.3788601935321531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506963316068079,0.0,0.2120723835084454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773091452256307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286417908239317,0.0,0.0,0.23568606760999514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590872086004729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045074576686925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235136552721315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260517995842076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384103569374608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrnight9021,2019/10/31,eating disorder is making me suicidal which is fucking stupid when i think about it because its FOOD but omg i just cant take this self destruction anymore :'c,6.3229999999999995,7.51006996666667,6.38666666666667,75.99000000000002,66.0,10.0,35.0,10.125756701596842,3.764,129,6,22,3,2,41,28,30,0.34299999999999997,0.657,0.0,-0.9,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,4,7,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31779123445356183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533777794153973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672529946054636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327891004491785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874783676225292,0.0,0.0,0.29624241748465063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21389676659562348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342897092262561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35051029820000884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409316521856477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532556836316784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_BlazedAndConfused__,2019/10/31,"Trader Joe's is a liar (sometimes) Guys I hate to say it but Trader Joe's is kind of a trifling bitch. They just betrayed my trust with like 3 (formerly) safe foods... Thought you should know too. Weighing their shit shows like a 15-25% under-accounting of the total calorie / macro count. Stay safe out there, lovies 💕

(it was the Butter Chicken, Reduced Guilt (!!!) Mac & cheese, and the vanilla + the chocolate meringues, if you're wondering) 



P.s. Ty if you understood my Always Sunny reference, bless up",4.2860483870967725,6.501165924731188,4.042674731182796,86.78401209677419,72.54838709677419,6.800537634408602,28.829301075268816,7.645422480735847,1.80880752688172,393,16,72,5,8,119,76,93,0.188,0.562,0.25,0.8213,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,2,2,0,3,12,4,1,7,0,4,3,1,0,1,16,9,4,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,2,5,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,2,7,7,6,5,1,4,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,3,3,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287501922900089,0.2978688413461943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324266951541196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722077503760533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714203287963856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28628027741248924,0.1510853607600229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26861786074589383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21862238076403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28219492667410706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27189664437024064,0.0,0.0,0.2930213886364933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21825074198488706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981321428372571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,536855,2019/10/31,"TIFU by asking my boyfriend questions I know this isn’t the TIFU sub, but I thought it was more fitting here. Today I asked my LDR boyfriend(18) over FaceTime if he thought we were in the same league. To preface, this is my boyfriend’s first relationship and he is a bit (very) ignorant at times about what he should vs shouldn’t say. I told him to be honest, which I immediately regretted as he was. He agreed with my statement that he is out of my league. This isn’t any new information to me, yet it crushed me. He at least noticed that it hurt me, but his over up wasn’t much better. He then said people in his league are a pretty face, but they are bitchy. (Thanks-I’m ugly as well as fat). Anyway, guess I will be going back to low restriction until I’m UW again, screw what the doctors said about pulling meds if my weight drops.",2.9512318220701492,4.710098892215568,3.335196749358428,92.39696107784435,75.04790419161677,6.208554319931565,23.90461933276305,6.868970318607317,0.5874810949529512,653,20,142,6,14,202,107,167,0.162,0.742,0.096,-0.9052,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,1,2,8,8,1,0,5,0,16,5,2,0,0,23,27,11,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,11,4,2,2,6,0,0,2,4,5,1,1,9,4,20,3,21,13,5,22,0,3,0,1,22,10,1,4,9,91,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193673133151435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33526069193143365,0.0,0.0,0.1378780759529589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858484069625514,0.19575972998574392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18353105569330916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252072238345651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190582345468964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975298282998144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919547212323261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854391088836743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19917263223584053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13181324658818366,0.0,0.0,0.17317840649300512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041452593719266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431075506108273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824224077639069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008678787796633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925114917675067,0.0,0.0,0.34112913476041584,0.1425942546639754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28470371399701605,0.10455691649879834,0.0,0.16996461070539373,0.17133808358506736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14794926499941582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218350884182706,0.16122093673274826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,directly_observable,2019/10/31,"PSA: I would recommend being in somewhat stable recovery before deciding to go into a stressful academic program So, I was doing pretty well in the realm of recovery over the summer. I wasn't perfect; I was still obsessed with exercise and had several b/ps. But, I was doing so much better than I ever have. I agreed to gain some weight and I fulfilled that promise. 

I forced myself to regularly eat foods that I consider to be scary, I was complimenting myself, and I even got rid of some clothes that would only fit me properly if I was underweight. 

Don't get me wrong, I was feeling extremely self-conscious about my body with the weight gain (8-9lbs) but I was doing my best to cope and not overly criticize myself. 

Well, I started a master's nursing program back in August and let me just say that the stress is overwhelming and I have just continued going downhill. I'm not far from the weight I was when I went to tx in the past, I'm so obsessed with exercise, I've had a few bad b/p, and I can hardly sleep. 

There is a significant relationship between the stress of this program and my descent back down into ed purgatory. 

I'm slightly inebriated, but I just want to emphasize the importance of being in a stable place in recovery (or at least managing ed bxs in a way that you're not consumed by them) and actually just mental health in general. 

I apologize for the following:
1) any grammatical errors
2) if this seems like a pity party 
3) if it doesn't make sense. 

That is all.",5.725417624521072,6.206553710344827,7.091264367816094,72.91739463601533,67.06896551724138,10.582375478927203,33.35249042145594,10.504223727775694,3.6323984674329504,1176,50,215,30,18,403,165,290,0.099,0.708,0.193,0.9635,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,6,17,17,0,6,16,0,28,10,2,1,3,42,42,20,0,6,14,0,5,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,9,14,5,0,3,2,0,4,6,9,2,0,13,6,32,8,34,23,8,32,0,2,0,0,4,17,0,8,11,162,41,5,0.0,0.0,0.12204341305704228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504710462918086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19233140044997807,0.10442235169178712,0.0,0.0,0.10641937168888688,0.0,0.13124586574475186,0.11060802919694676,0.0,0.13891676042207488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279706349537363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260290872763365,0.11312661161605148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323559270472885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512266334123681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534023730403245,0.0,0.1421523299014971,0.0,0.10002427763851232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120318515560036,0.0,0.0,0.13293608333290435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788535474307713,0.0,0.061099447407797075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834805001077084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603405335570605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193566902838553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511602025365863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193867510336673,0.0,0.0,0.13066417987992118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272339961092133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427082064516008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945508923768334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385262608181837,0.13046794746470594,0.14128555242213553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251532837383259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852021015328111,0.0,0.09987544520843727,0.0,0.4297776107697302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376537688563932,0.09926916022532103,0.0,0.4568789967595596,0.2248932495565576,0.1159346212855418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17768228386871626,0.13673671925287978,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayacc666999,2019/10/31,"Have been eating above BMR but below TDEE I can't fucking stand this I cant fucking stand the guilt I cant i cant do it i cant do this. I eat over BMR today again and i was going to walk for 2 hours to even it out but now it's raining. I'm on my period too. I've been consistently loosing weight and I'm so close to my next Gw of 105 wich I HOPE will be the last goal... I'm 107.8 now and being on my period fucks with the scale and its driving me fucking crazy. It's only Wednesday so I still have time to ""save"" the week but I think I'm just going to have to deal with the scale not moving downward for this week. :( I'm scared that the lack of weight loss will propel me into Crazy Restriction mode... wich I cannot afford to be in beacause I'm a college student with shit to do!! Fuck this fuck everything I say I'm trying to recover and I am but AfTEr I HiT My uGw.. god wtf",-1.5478924609889049,0.4101719847715728,1.2717992103778926,98.93991915773644,95.6497461928934,4.1367926301936455,14.91050949426584,5.82211442006289,-0.8501861628125589,679,15,167,6,27,234,105,197,0.244,0.72,0.036000000000000004,-0.993,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,9,12,7,2,7,0,21,11,1,0,0,22,39,11,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,10,11,4,1,1,0,0,5,7,10,0,0,3,3,20,2,24,30,1,31,0,1,0,6,2,9,7,1,15,102,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13542208894083818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688196063291872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08675928432267242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805414666683528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7286180677905031,0.0,0.0,0.14930508618915586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046597401683627,0.12935902913690345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707253013699576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396104551617219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396984113048884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990202490372573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445942518755796,0.13151009718059573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483486790421187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490093243887798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08416750947811724,0.0,0.0,0.07659463856089893,0.0,0.12450996415213855,0.0,0.0,0.0891819835297793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107314409449436,0.31991201755876714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cat-and-Fiddle,2019/10/31,"I’ve decided to video journal my path to recovery... [Here is the link to my first video](https://youtu.be/BW-MAkf9rwM) (sorry for the length/quality, I’m a noob)  
 
Feel free to AMA, make suggestions for future posts, or even critique my method! I want this to be helpful- mostly for me, but for others as well! I’ve never video journaled or even edited video so any suggestions help!",4.206217303822939,6.9547290985915495,4.486841046277668,80.95971830985918,74.91549295774648,8.564185110663983,27.044265593561374,9.23628265651192,2.7522941649899386,310,12,53,8,7,97,52,71,0.0,0.821,0.179,0.8927,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,10,6,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,5,3,10,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,3,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339820025433389,0.0,0.20961633782844435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40718421390027704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585731484888554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621919984229246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4132186111431276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575511405077013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23773660269874144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952123309850887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450536709735926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18181016542210796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771481732383937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilianisme1,2019/10/31,"When you have only ate 600 calories today but lay down and touch your stomach.. Love my life. 
I was watching tv and felt hungry and then I touched my stomach and could literally grab the fat 🤘🏻 love that for me.",2.1277906976744205,4.145850558139537,3.1466860465116286,91.64933139534887,78.30232558139534,5.230232558139536,24.703488372093023,5.985473137389443,0.5205395348837212,166,6,35,1,4,53,36,43,0.0,0.7659999999999999,0.23399999999999999,0.9274,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,0,7,7,7,0,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,7,2,2,3,0,4,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30632616844104915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683796310393019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709947187876426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6925472844906002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917953641704568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363670609956464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cammi-t,2019/10/31,"Do i even deserve to be on this sub? F 18 5’3 ish cw-117 

I don’t remember exactly when i started restricting, but i remember when i started getting comments. And i remember around Christmas time my freshman year i weighed 108 after weighing 127 at Halloween. 108 is the lowest i can remember being, and i have struggled with disordered eating ever since. I was placed into a hospital after a suicide attempt in May of my freshman year, diagnosed loosely with an ED among a few other things (generalized anxiety and major depression), and put on an snri. I have struggled on and off ever since then, my weight constantly fluctuating. But up until this summer i was strictly restricting and exercising. I caught some sort of stomach bug mid summer and learned how to make myself throw up to relieve my stomach pain, at least for a little bit, and from mid summer to beginning of this school year (senior) i would binge and purge about 2-3 times a week. For the last month or 2 i have been HEAVILY restricting and binging not quite as often, but purging most days, my only meal (dinner) about 4/7 days a week. I feel empty and i love it. But i hate how i feel when i lose control. And even though i love the empty, i hate how irritable it makes me. I wanna be thin, but i don’t want to feel this was about food anymore. I’m a “healthy weight” according to my bmi, so i feel as though I’m not even thin enough to have an Ed, or get help. But i keep thinking, do i want to help? Or do i want to be thin. I have had this ideology about food for so long, i fear that i will never be able to think about food as anything other than the enemy ever again.",4.930710622710624,5.5354287846153865,5.949098901098902,79.97528205128206,68.84615384615384,9.021245421245423,30.86080586080586,9.107695989026183,2.551942124542125,1285,50,251,23,21,427,168,325,0.182,0.732,0.086,-0.9883,2,0,0,0,0,1,41.0,0,0,0,4,24,11,2,3,14,0,25,17,2,6,5,64,49,36,1,5,11,0,9,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,11,16,10,5,11,1,0,3,5,8,0,0,6,9,39,3,44,35,7,54,0,2,0,2,5,19,0,8,32,181,50,3,0.09058464524959377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929700567486198,0.0,0.08983562726731402,0.0,0.0,0.07454344472843052,0.0806395393321845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889497139512927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788982073002156,0.1015983822161466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683920461052227,0.0,0.07802042221849416,0.09194150813653493,0.0,0.0,0.10381785134165628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269070657181257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359815334483887,0.0,0.17949091158966138,0.24581699309121105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10193290993625376,0.1832092736089856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32860593780447483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465347679911383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788671667738854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143395653686193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051579481087598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738385760499662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078961198026828,0.0,0.08016456051334209,0.0,0.10134104737940476,0.0,0.0,0.1635123579968696,0.0,0.12093190821080388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230379961029956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698644627827294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889370461276316,0.09638844923793023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464167432688583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106258812274276,0.0,0.09634792050732446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104589785861619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916764970759909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986510925271848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823255628854568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939747849995472,0.0,0.09908489942019597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060180413218291234,0.1160859660565519,0.17799790806872182,0.0,0.105641270214917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602875122063227,0.0,0.14532307687530624,0.22061538853698304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643487329848707,0.0,0.0,0.17500062481944825
EDAnonymous,purple_116,2019/10/31,"How does your ED impact your friendships? I feel i’m losing my friends because i always feel like shit since i’m fasting or I binged. I’m never in the mood to go out anymore and I feel like my moodiness is driving them away. Anyone in the same boat?
They are the only things keeping me going ;(

also I have a swim meet tomorrow wish me luck as I know i’ll find so many girls that look like what I aspire to be :((",3.144137931034482,3.7857320919540287,4.442011494252878,89.0416379310345,72.9080459770115,6.719540229885059,24.84482758620689,6.42735559955562,0.7049172413793099,320,9,70,2,6,106,64,87,0.091,0.706,0.203,0.8645,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,2,1,3,9,1,0,4,0,4,1,1,1,1,14,16,6,0,1,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,5,1,0,4,1,3,0,0,0,4,15,5,7,15,1,11,0,1,1,0,7,4,1,2,6,40,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751194065480335,0.17429463135862736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20773653667815387,0.14646529532188407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680261786158168,0.0,0.0,0.12769009674466475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18330735818080604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31774081017102096,0.29928877814002386,0.0,0.0,0.1914504791708942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183489844679805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23809163235808614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18618529052099014,0.0,0.0,0.11511844861738105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070072895656331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17590084374258996,0.23434175111051886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21236825373487955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615550753842687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931028736068484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150164781220454,0.17327456662831245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916161102352148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408785192118041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leochris000,2019/10/31,How to stay motivated losing weight when you’re dumb depressed and hate yourself :) I eat because I’m depressed and I’m depressed because I eat someone save me from this everlasting nightmare 😜,2.883523809523812,5.838413971428572,3.5421428571428564,80.05702380952383,95.0,4.61904761904762,34.404761904761905,6.42735559955562,2.669476190476192,159,10,24,2,6,50,26,35,0.392,0.423,0.185,-0.8834,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,2,7,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,5,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,10,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880506220467346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6104856206510526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835173656764636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332633563903108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643207613582079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018706810939715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518276833227693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28770783889333984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zdento,2019/10/31,finished my breakfast for the first time in months today well i just have a glass of milk for breakfast everyday and i barely drink any of it but today i finished it all!,1.66,4.237743529411766,2.6485294117647062,91.21338235294121,84.29411764705883,4.576470588235295,23.20588235294117,5.985473137389443,0.5220823529411764,136,5,26,1,4,43,26,34,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.2124,0,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,5,1,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478991190753747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35710958044743546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100768103813095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29097166750996617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21256570690599405,0.0,0.6910809697416684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277644706080925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BigMatBoy,2019/10/31,"I have to eat before bed And i'm not talking about a snack. Sometime is a whole new meal. If i don't, i wont fall asleep or it will be really hard.

for years i though it was medication (Quetiapine / Seroquel XR) but i went from 600mg to 100mg and don't see any difference. I fear that because i was on that diet for so long that i will be stuck with that habit.  


what you guys think? Any advice on what should i do ?",0.08467643467643171,1.8201531208791228,2.35772893772894,96.16782661782663,83.72527472527473,5.8026862026862025,17.803418803418804,6.937597516519254,-0.2109057387057387,318,7,80,4,9,108,64,91,0.107,0.893,0.0,-0.8179,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,13,6,1,0,0,9,18,7,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,8,3,4,0,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,2,10,0,9,8,1,7,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,3,51,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279016760327692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31719768796110503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216986473073784,0.0,0.1984546023122711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24366717678372385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386441590882334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624394016924174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23092628178802155,0.0,0.0,0.20892095296194885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063939831720092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23494646060050686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252470996414705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14940787822792514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858476055955887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23066235633746035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18745487510671224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494391335233151,0.2291392668239865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619897577208316,0.0,0.2603838477506488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15018721399574428
EDAnonymous,j_a_n_e,2019/10/31,"My Senior Thesis - Design Research & ED Recovery I started treatment for Anorexia when I was 14 and every day throughout my recovery has brought different challenges and successes. I am now a Senior in the [Strategic Design and Management](https://www.newschool.edu/parsons/bba-design-management/) program at Parsons The New School For Design in New York City and I am working on a year-long design research project about ED recovery processes. I know how frustrating, rewarding, and downright exhausting recovery can be, so I wanted to use my Thesis to explore the ways in which that process can be improved upon. 

When I started to think about my own experience, I felt like I had a lot of support when I was in the throws of recovery, but after that I was left to my own devices. I questioned why there was really no physical infrastructure (like AA or NA) to form communities for people like us. Other than expensive doctors and psychologists, we're pretty much left to handle recovery on our own. 

As I embark on this project, I *really* need help from communities like this one! I'm trying to get a better understanding people's unique experiences, struggles, and triumphs that are inevitable in the ED recovery process. I really want to design something (whether it's a system, platform, community, or something tangible) that helps people in this incredibly difficult ongoing journey. 

I want this project to be something I am extremely proud of -- and eventually share with organizations capable of creating real change. If this seems interesting to you at all, or if you just wanna pay it forward and help out an overwhelmed design student looking to create impactful change, I would be **forever grateful** if you'd fill out a quick (2-5 mins) and anonymous survey. 

You can find the survey [here](https://forms.gle/Np32G7DL3SPtbdVz9). 

Thank you all in advance :)",7.911809079687287,10.07915631861199,7.838845151556715,63.41032094362913,63.10094637223976,10.812728020847624,39.33465916883829,10.848893137575418,5.14102946097929,1511,81,210,42,23,485,180,317,0.05,0.736,0.214,0.9948,1,0,3,0,0,0,70.0,2,5,0,9,11,19,1,2,13,0,19,2,0,2,2,42,37,24,0,9,9,0,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,13,13,0,0,8,0,2,7,1,5,1,1,7,2,30,14,41,24,8,41,0,1,1,0,12,19,0,9,19,152,43,15,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938296825575413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056103048918716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526443518635348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07701093042351853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476023644715438,0.0,0.12222335163814405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006098505136024,0.0,0.0,0.23361590844689015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465434922609752,0.0,0.1091405026433571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062387897456332185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24011825506052736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562577121788962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25948320772460043,0.0,0.0,0.23335489534752316,0.0,0.0,0.10567595718755776,0.10027609533596557,0.0,0.0,0.10151990331968676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778163852135623,0.08854256441965518,0.0,0.2306579144654227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091673424484583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483559592272505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148504244460535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376888880277885,0.0,0.0,0.13591712062498415,0.22949536077230934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085142758931823,0.0,0.10870829758508173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27578782219891496,0.0,0.0,0.16904100816649628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12483546158817573,0.0,0.0,0.13550744414720858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10993862478243603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07651445664089145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810729823687143,0.0,0.0,0.12431221488397033,0.14363806213042482,0.10313372061525344,0.0,0.0,0.2112970640535896,0.0947837725151838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775085337820607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693343622917378,0.0,0.0,0.0848269348504819,0.0,0.0,0.07689748195375334
EDAnonymous,iamghostgal,2019/10/31,"my scale was off by 10 pounds :) i am actually 10 pounds bigger than i thought :)

please end my fatass life

atleast i lost around 11 pounds this month 😔",0.6890000000000036,3.185644233333335,1.1016666666666666,100.5225,90.0,4.333333333333334,17.5,5.985473137389443,-0.6219999999999999,117,3,27,1,4,35,24,30,0.066,0.6940000000000001,0.24,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,4,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.37722885380374505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441222308148112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423792887504891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730402479031088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219782033735287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085501854839197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243291106432957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068871332474298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,40gsoflamb,2019/10/31,Oh yikes I told my mum but Im not ready to recover. Like I don’t even want to. I really wasn’t ready to tell her and now she’s gonna be watching me 24/7 so uh oh for my impulsive brain,-3.2483809523809515,-1.7184099333333305,0.5526984126984118,102.55,103.88888888888887,5.238095238095238,13.095238095238097,6.868970318607317,-0.6248095238095237,143,3,41,3,7,52,36,45,0.124,0.767,0.109,-0.1606,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,6,3,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,1,8,1,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,2,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750040595938717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281041895480742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596181815486861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20788014340914734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725892590227338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3719099343516572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065880538091615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509737448731762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BustedAnOwO,2019/10/31,"I regret opening up to a person I trust. Opened up about my ED to a coach/mentor I feel very close to. I've been discharged since February this year and have been going great, almost perfect... Until today. After opening up she asked a little about my relationship with food and I talked about how I struggle with listening to my body, and that sometimes it still gets hard to distinguish my ED from my real feelings (e.g. if I'm actually full or if I just don't think I need anymore)

She was super attentive but then she went on about how it was really important to eat vegetables, and that eating things like fries, crisps and those kinds of things weren't good for you. It really stung since that's an area I've fought really hard to be ok with! I used to struggle a lot with eating ""junk"" food but I've been going great lately.

The things she said, although she had good intentions, was quite triggering. I look up to her a lot so hearing someone who I see as strong and powerful telling me that it isn't good to eat really processed things like cookies has made me begin to restrict and try refuse processed foods. 

I don't think I need much advice, I just needed to vent and get my ideas together. I don't really know what to do. I think I'm relapsing, because of this along with other factors like exam stress, it's just pushing me a little over the edge and I know I'm at risk.",4.519570938215104,5.4900602210144935,5.210045766590387,83.58209382151033,69.97826086956522,8.419221967963386,26.482837528604122,8.6894789155246,1.7836913043478262,1095,33,218,18,19,354,150,276,0.11900000000000001,0.754,0.127,0.7434,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,5,12,20,1,4,9,1,16,9,1,6,1,54,44,21,0,6,8,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,19,19,8,2,10,0,0,4,5,6,0,0,12,9,32,14,37,31,4,27,0,1,2,0,18,15,0,6,11,140,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.08927858895809235,0.0,0.0,0.08940051233323082,0.0,0.0,0.09161150173573113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073100253934736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552844936408102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0557699222161339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016219723985879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744581515890816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251764347114942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33188109310647945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559687069656753,0.0,0.10398889307347653,0.23020608760206854,0.0,0.20173055225083406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16390963469052727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311304565741017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10327823562611196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527013803593012,0.1005582592340169,0.0,0.1032018689497086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408849312017496,0.18338899088703095,0.0,0.0,0.07682644639930898,0.0,0.0,0.15555877768717952,0.0,0.08656767118321226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725382878251808,0.20351043456528195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988334380468988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730820261541724,0.0,0.10413278805341117,0.2930461305224649,0.0,0.0,0.09822332156379553,0.0,0.0,0.08702554946386623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290368129526546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513587873963149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751704986997468,0.0,0.0904834628315508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306202437654642,0.0,0.10479860593368767,0.19128516854000666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353417563937623,0.0799640951043692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431208815754289,0.1758644604837941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08671943923193375,0.0,0.0,0.06211399749375945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901581361203266,0.0,0.07548675716832003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480981595398554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05891494135036339
EDAnonymous,carlems,2019/04/11,"please promise me I can do it 4000+ calories. I’m physically hurting. I was supposed to be weight 54,9 kg on Sunday but because of the binging I’ll weight at least 55,7 kg. Please promise me I’ll get to the 54’s by next week. I’m so so so tired. I’m so tired but I can’t give up. I’m tired and scared and hurting and deep in self-hate right now. I hope you all are doing okay today, I’m not but I hope I will be soon.",-2.76349226804124,-1.1624994432989677,0.27746778350515555,103.87125322164951,105.28865979381443,2.8373711340206187,15.340850515463915,4.557286568694721,-1.323927319587629,322,9,85,1,16,111,61,97,0.243,0.588,0.16899999999999998,-0.9244,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,6,8,0,1,2,1,9,5,0,0,1,10,18,10,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,9,5,8,14,2,12,0,2,0,0,2,6,0,2,6,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859315907856507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08450072284010685,0.15515252980294494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212819691119411,0.0,0.0,0.3462848523481634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200875938753366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550765405147943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381222131779176,0.0,0.0,0.16192659924813824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16872659670540188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5576774513427997,0.1533074303791041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297353827516958,0.3939033288886145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theonewhosaysno,2019/04/11,"Working out. I work out every morning at 5AM for about an hour before work. I find it so hard to restrict below 800-900 per day without feeling weak the next morning. I used to be able to restrict under 500, and I don't know what happened. I usually do cardio, but I want to figure out how to fit in some strength as well. What do you all do? I just love food so much.",1.2302747252747253,2.8772328333333337,2.976227106227107,93.57115384615385,79.64102564102564,4.96996336996337,23.96336996336997,5.288315135182226,0.25782930402930404,283,10,63,1,7,94,58,78,0.077,0.6970000000000001,0.226,0.94,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,4,6,4,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,2,1,18,11,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,2,4,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,8,3,16,10,3,12,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,1,4,44,11,3,0.226108472094492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240165607653464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458212590137587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905061397180463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432723729040392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665904719401335,0.0,0.27341126196911275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999469751384628,0.0,0.202548778766625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22267129892980145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426330301573743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407172392942374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621574336369366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404689252171809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19528512256873967,0.2490265376477585,0.0,0.13336463510983906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20329867094880447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179604983994474,0.0,0.4938289818710871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NarrowInterest,2019/04/11,"My hair loss is most likely caused by me being underweight right? :/ im 90 pounds 5""5' and my diet is fucked",-0.9104545454545452,1.002764772727275,1.036818181818184,97.42522727272728,105.8181818181818,4.0181818181818185,10.045454545454547,5.985473137389443,-1.1617636363636359,83,1,18,1,4,27,20,22,0.324,0.6759999999999999,0.0,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5107901418975598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4596792901007714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370915838285926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24292049347118155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246300102735709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icanreadyourmind-,2019/04/11,"I feel like I’m not “sick” enough for help... This is kind of a rant and kind of me just wanting to tell someone my story because I have nobody in my personal life that I feel like I could tell... I was chubby in high school and lost like 15 pounds naturally in college and looked good! I started getting into nutrition and being more active. Then I realized I was treating myself a little too much on the weekends and figured I’d better rein myself in so I started eating 1,200 during the week because that’s what everyone said I should do (I’m only 5’2) and I was 110 at that time. Then it progressed to me eating less and less during the week so I could eat more on the weekends. I stopped eating sweets and stuff because they were bad. But now every time I get near sweets I binge and overdo it hard because I don’t allow myself to have those things... I’ve gained a little weight and some muscle so I look healthy so nobody knows I binge and then restrict again. 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t think I have BED because my binges aren’t too massive because I’m able to stop myself halfway through but I do not have a normal relationship with food or my body at all... what sucks is that my family sees me as being so healthy and body conscious. I ate some jelly beans at my parents house the other day and my mom made a comment about how surprised she was to see me eating them because she sees me as so healthy so then I felt like shit...I get so anxious for situations where I don’t know the calories in the food because o know that I’m just going to binge if I eat something unhealthy.",4.515895760743323,4.945900064024394,5.143501742160279,86.00544715447157,69.70121951219512,7.223228803716609,28.42392566782811,6.655083550727371,1.2771754936120792,1263,42,260,8,21,407,162,328,0.079,0.8059999999999999,0.115,0.8459,2,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,4,17,16,1,0,12,0,23,14,2,3,1,50,52,32,0,6,8,2,5,4,0,1,2,1,1,1,15,16,10,4,11,2,0,1,7,4,0,0,10,13,47,12,28,37,9,34,0,1,5,0,13,16,1,4,21,173,62,2,0.08138120150333628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193759346072024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794990396022807,0.3968738006674448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197505935650897,0.0,0.1807923375831884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299525347035569,0.0,0.0,0.052484142470829484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4996397158628464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408853571936531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685671722090007,0.07776322555121079,0.0,0.0,0.0767189540358893,0.0,0.08229756142319047,0.11627749322943272,0.07813871571982765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19681294378293976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755495670080896,0.0,0.046250812244870605,0.0682586907160453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07290157164996798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05454810392558257,0.08598370752628587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390298008558204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949199617806449,0.17889992017579434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05748194934986265,0.15903497732504526,0.1631306870301854,0.0,0.0,0.1366794257669181,0.0,0.08883719488004113,0.0,0.0,0.07700486057758922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09531267962425397,0.0,0.0,0.05982454694601025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973629860811914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06189407092067571,0.0,0.0,0.09036419345357292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07105892613343961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737295435012904,0.0,0.0,0.07741215873729877,0.0,0.0,0.0823621206563669,0.1945508434154437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353663386388475,0.0,0.09147588022842916,0.0,0.0,0.06895402794179603,0.06265122484304404,0.0,0.0,0.1152040665816136,0.0,0.0,0.13607665693154253,0.0,0.0,0.0931620054394472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422615142711419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054066054143914265,0.052145787894444906,0.0,0.0,0.09490806609376344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800074116089309,0.0,0.13055818201514854,0.09910037920773088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897756840885833,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,broomppl,2019/04/11,"Tfw you go to the store to buy a snack and end up eating and yeeting it along with your lunch 🤧 😪
(djsjsbsjsjs i fully did not intend on purging but something in me just took over and was like THROW THIS UP NOW!!!!)",7.09,4.443659444444447,7.082777777777783,84.35750000000002,65.66666666666667,9.888888888888893,31.38888888888889,7.1686216300943375,1.7085555555555554,165,4,38,1,2,53,41,45,0.0,0.9009999999999999,0.099,0.6617,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,0,9,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,9,1,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4980952830766953,0.0,0.0,0.4311407076223245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766470801207457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23781507814990946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747453845145968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408281221034029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anon-uwu,2019/04/11,"hello I'm suffering i hate feeling the fucking fat on my body, thighs touch, clothes squeezing me in, folds. fuck this I'm never letting myself go like before, i dont care how much i wont care by just letting myself get fucking obese and being ok with it cuz ~self love~ Stop preaching this shit.",1.0975,3.706765423728815,2.08625,93.24090042372885,89.67796610169492,3.6279661016949154,22.62923728813559,5.148860815047168,0.17047288135593194,236,9,45,1,8,74,48,59,0.307,0.604,0.08900000000000001,-0.9447,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,11,5,0,1,1,5,9,4,2,1,8,17,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,3,7,5,4,13,1,5,1,1,0,4,3,2,4,0,3,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166178970461142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169252069465868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982260893105502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288805800180272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874542130255136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5416324728247215,0.10203192513308844,0.0,0.11098885220232073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19281025891709855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39939827215653,0.0,0.09540972761665636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17625850875905225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356197170997606,0.0,0.15062110504909898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20373197890368014,0.0,0.2004642655854405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327272139999935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,breadndread,2019/04/11,"Has anyone else been very open about their ED? All my life, I've hidden the fact that I hate my body, my weight, and inability to control my eating habits. 

Now I'm in uni, and I've managed to find a welcoming friend group that accepts the fact that I struggle with eating. In fact, many of my friends have admitted to me, they struggle with food still. 

I've been lucky that, while I don't give the ""stereotypical"" eating disorder look, my friends are still sensitive about my problems. Was just wondering if anyone was the same",6.432904290429042,6.717752306930696,6.046287128712872,81.69570132013202,65.53465346534654,9.505610561056104,31.684818481848183,9.2995712137729,2.5520085808580864,417,15,82,7,6,129,65,101,0.14400000000000002,0.6920000000000001,0.165,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,1,6,10,1,2,5,0,8,7,1,1,4,19,14,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,5,1,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,2,13,6,10,10,2,7,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,3,4,50,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22137247250270012,0.16219587827765694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17583433595181353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754562021782666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142419597708032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4859377273855536,0.13223837635152405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468228068207456,0.0,0.1914155972504712,0.0,0.36690389550293184,0.0,0.0,0.15185468085559245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628734123892332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181115890487542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13293116505528288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049018747769772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147062031246358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528353315000953,0.0,0.0,0.3309766558726051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061312929241856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19276535281863205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17166834978249534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,somesad,2019/04/11,"potlucks My roommate and I are having friends over on Thursday, but they want to make it a potluck, which I recently discovered is my worst nightmare. Everyone is going to leave their food behind, and my roommate will leave it in the fridge and make sure everyone knows they can have some! And I guarantee 2 hours later, I will be in the dark, shoveling whatever people brought into my mouth. I really hope people want to take leftovers.

On top of that, I like this girl who's coming, and I finally managed to convince myself that when they asked me out it wasn't a sick joke or something. But, now I think she doesn't like me at all because I dragged my feet. I feel bad about it, because if someone was so indecisive about me, I'd feel terrible. I'm just terrified that once someone sees me in the same light I do, they'd be disgusted and I'll just be left behind feeling even worse about myself.

In conclusion, I'm going to be near a lot of dangerous food, and a girl that makes me uncomfortable because I don't understand why anyone would have any interest in me (but I somehow manage to believe that it existed, and subsequently left).",7.881698889345947,6.778043167420815,7.943192102015632,73.89793089263678,63.027149321266975,11.65627313862608,38.190456602221296,10.832165505486646,4.052661538461537,904,40,171,20,11,294,128,221,0.18600000000000005,0.6729999999999999,0.141,-0.9442,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,5,2,10,14,2,1,7,0,20,5,2,3,2,39,41,15,0,5,7,0,3,2,1,3,1,0,0,2,13,11,2,0,7,1,0,4,3,6,0,0,3,5,32,8,25,30,5,26,0,0,1,0,11,15,0,7,9,121,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09120287489076334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377640436199797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537952513620804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198051619358318,0.24526598165868405,0.0,0.0,0.15110180425628095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552829327937054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08858176634169182,0.0,0.0,0.2563054730202269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20343789039869872,0.0,0.0,0.14691654926232786,0.0,0.0,0.3243450506021626,0.0,0.10361700253481307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244141721184928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320656706801015,0.1320763694935044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07370615792187883,0.0,0.0,0.2840170769808399,0.2914329223366363,0.0,0.0,0.13104373822306714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140198718800722,0.0,0.0,0.2685686352406169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282821680967367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18595706343133864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591757470430708,0.0,0.13242249293683306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687238000272437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272705976764463,0.10324836518077644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640190549532712,0.0,0.10083787309120604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593554818206754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396185609984684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820913524815355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101802794732418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667475649436558,0.0952715273297112,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SwimmingPackage,2019/04/11,"Freelee on Meredith foster I never really watch freelee but her video criticizing Meredith's what I eat in a day video *really* pissed me off. It's basically freelee criticizing how meredith promoted collagen powder, which I kind of agree with, but then freelee basically bullies her for the rest of the video. Shaming her for eating eggs and turkey, adding that the latter can make you gain weight? Like really? You're going to criticizing the eating habits of someone struggling with an eating disorder saying what she's eating will make her gain weight? Not to mention the unnecessary comments about her eating disorder, pointing out how unhealthy her coffee habit is (not even related to veganism, mind your own business?) And she needed needed to eat more carbs. No shit. But thanks for finding the cure freelee. She also kept saying how Meredith has a privileged eating disorder but didn't say why. I don't even know what that means. 

She obviously has a lot of compassion for animals, but not for humans. I don't know, she just made me angry so I had to rant.  That this is cyberbullying and so many people don't bat an eye. There are other ways to get your point across, yet she had to stoop so low to pick at someone battling mental illness.",5.975092879256966,7.833524692982454,6.201991744066049,74.48521671826623,67.42105263157895,9.048916408668733,30.955624355005163,9.478462496947786,3.029990918472652,1002,40,167,21,17,320,131,228,0.221,0.669,0.11,-0.9862,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,3,13,10,3,2,11,0,13,15,3,7,2,33,25,16,0,2,9,0,2,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,10,6,11,1,4,3,0,1,9,6,0,0,5,7,23,4,26,19,4,15,0,1,2,0,21,9,2,1,5,113,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218835976903526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05821625745902422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103694577190369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7389445768079181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11924409739568576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250454274673466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04716200519421146,0.0,0.051302147021510126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400162813206203,0.09921933866159184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04410104056711376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674376606504724,0.0,0.08541503353080028,0.12051097278314095,0.09151894392846467,0.0,0.09832977623719462,0.0,0.0,0.09097026463726204,0.0,0.09114630199928808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386714581915254,0.06962128107862015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06258139541293424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066741065869848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17348655489419024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535741047556214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266018182507416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296984020373214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436911529137876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831078815673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165160157572108,0.0,0.21984747844363567,0.0,0.0,0.08145404018881372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Minyaksol,2019/04/11,"Desperate coffee addict in dire need of a good substitute I hope this does not count as a ""tip"", if it does feel free to call me out/ report my post !

I have a really long day tomorrow (4am to 8pm :) ). I usually drink coffee in the morning and carry a thermos flask filled with burning hot black coffee with me throughout the day, or Diet Coke (it hurts my back so I try not to lol). I just noticed that I ran out of instant coffee and whilst panicking, I noticed a 0 calorie Monster on my desk. I’ve never tried energy drinks. If you have, do they really help with concentration/staying focused and energy ? Thank you ☺️",2.476605571847508,4.382649637096776,4.507976539589446,82.82060117302055,76.8225806451613,7.734897360703813,24.982404692082113,8.575989854853784,1.8695580645161287,481,17,94,10,11,165,88,124,0.114,0.728,0.157,0.762,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,7,1,3,5,0,0,1,18,8,8,0,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,4,0,1,2,1,2,3,1,0,0,1,3,15,5,14,7,0,16,0,1,1,0,5,5,0,4,8,55,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20023520182309865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412363882079701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875549032619876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369131289639152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214742179600397,0.0,0.0,0.3598673545703812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287268432414914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405967626799316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311491978021025,0.0,0.0,0.18243285106278373,0.0,0.0,0.19663018459563647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254849497257376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361942770187812,0.1416631389815949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.418235298167452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759119336218336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23533656717846066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19577539951170547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691052390093091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24940945164249945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20229442753478788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Blahblahblahhhgh,2019/04/11,"Do you look down on people who are recovered/are recovering Knowing that they let go of their control that you still have, watching them expand and get soft and lazy? I always feel bad thinking about my friends who also have EDs and how I must look to them inflating before their very eyes, them watching me eating junk and no longer strict and ortho. I must look like such a failure to them, and even people who didn't know I had an ED before and thought I was just clean and disciplined. 

I think this, more than just my weight. Is what has driven me to relapse. I feel like I've let everyone down and proved that I really am the gluttonous monster I am within. Now everyone can see. Is this how you see me?",5.15413492063492,5.774561635714289,5.226666666666667,85.29611111111113,68.35714285714286,8.222222222222221,27.698412698412696,8.167268648758528,1.6289603174603178,559,17,113,7,9,175,89,140,0.08,0.825,0.094,0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,7,2,10,4,0,0,3,0,17,4,1,3,3,25,32,12,0,2,2,0,4,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,9,9,3,2,8,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,12,24,3,10,23,1,8,0,0,8,0,14,4,0,0,4,83,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320355157929586,0.13738173805056475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785693430821544,0.0,0.0,0.2809867445877547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518084916042446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689450498899784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10905120960830204,0.0,0.0,0.31553245116234085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696549748596606,0.11795203386185972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275607828683545,0.0,0.0862612712294782,0.0,0.09383376301863036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814763017020215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3376649282872992,0.0,0.16132527894844215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159433388661569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289279559426758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057713775087203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313682362258056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185417169824393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21158700858274174,0.0,0.1310760264922354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623005830386484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20105509603598185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DiabloDeSade69,2019/04/11,Esophagitis Think i might a gave myself esophagitis. Anyone have this? How did you know you had it?,2.2416666666666667,5.073995388888889,1.1722222222222245,97.345,95.11111111111113,2.4000000000000004,17.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.9740222222222216,79,2,14,0,3,22,16,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.458381105438226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602773040371183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6954430000706037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42005482978508185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zeleaa,2019/05/15,"residential :( hey folks! i’m under 18 and struggle with bulimia. i’ve been getting treatment since February and my therapist and dietician are recommending that i go to residential. my mom is 100% on board. i REALLY DON’T WANT TO GO!!!! I am medically stable. Healthy, physically. can they force me to go??? or?? maybe i should ask a different sub or smthn but i was thinking maybe one of u have experience? they keep trying to tell me how beneficial it will be. they keep telling me i’m malnourished?? like if i was malnourished i don’t think i would shit every day! thanks! i don’t eat that many calories a day, but i’m maintaining my weight. if i ate what they want me to @ residential i would gain 50lbs a week. anyway advice pls? i’m freaking out. i’m sorry about the grammar and structure of this.",0.8935930735930739,3.451222980519482,3.080032467532469,84.40909632034635,95.16883116883116,6.982251082251081,23.299783549783548,7.937092434478242,1.933126406926407,625,26,122,17,24,211,99,154,0.087,0.748,0.165,0.9078,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,4,1,3,5,1,1,4,0,16,5,1,1,0,22,34,11,0,7,6,1,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,6,3,2,2,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,4,1,22,2,12,25,0,9,0,0,0,0,9,3,1,4,4,72,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561296662470559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14936746899244094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608250306786224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693021152303858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16348906931644416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461679863560416,0.0,0.0,0.15628999320109768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347551443824403,0.0,0.2724103712366712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840296043855368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805768718785372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198613468222642,0.3210296617426727,0.0,0.0,0.1609558697330941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18712581235359424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082672488278512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235555336176036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400609588030518,0.1321670108089621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885432748846866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670308633738217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27929968530509913,0.14709877451424633,0.0,0.18551035941672409,0.0,0.20475393114607549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847631008895654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18847812733241126,0.0,0.1281613630280113,0.1945621404927638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269982581099049,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EGG_PLANT_MAN,2019/05/15,"A couple weeks ago, I decided to buy a full length mirror to look at full outfits on me. I found out today that it’s slightly bent outwards in the middle, right where my tummy is. Guess that’s why I’ve felt a need to restrict more lately :’)",4.518733333333337,4.414601940000004,5.541999999999998,85.01433333333334,69.6,7.466666666666668,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.045066666666666,187,5,39,1,3,62,41,50,0.057999999999999996,0.9420000000000001,0.0,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,7,4,3,15,0,0,1,0,0,11,0,1,4,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26775117896096323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342151745078433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900176192400137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311848056658747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327447115932189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407282015247633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25364789589160913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239679864542716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579510521612603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863103049144559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24228817156467386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27255526003817826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smolbooooooooooooooy,2019/05/15,"So i'm 5'9"" and 125 pounds as a dude? I've asked about my weight before in this sub but the last time i did i got told i was bragging lol. I feel completely underweight but it is so difficult to get into a consistent eating pattern. Are meal replacement shakes a possible solution to get my body used to eating more? Is that even a thing? I struggle to eat full portions. I just want to put on weight and eat/look like a normal person.",1.0661797752808972,3.4032003932584303,2.8630224719101136,90.38801685393257,84.3932584269663,6.706067415730338,21.259550561797766,7.908726449838941,1.092630561797753,341,11,72,7,10,113,65,89,0.083,0.782,0.135,0.5541,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,6,1,5,7,1,1,0,10,14,7,0,2,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,4,3,8,1,10,10,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15060438952597374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370820830696894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17894297428876502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689076341220763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6593717265121158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640336074434764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145572215416409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833355987272666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884436469248656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131594086927648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870408734937498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352813028348558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578413180829488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066409851283132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161319405805987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194745452888293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16841405548408803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702600194123564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393723128889923,0.0,0.0,0.153935537937485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391364915465888,0.0,0.0,0.09501946272964247,0.0,0.0,0.3923466413595361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlealoeghost,2019/05/15,"Okay hoes let's gather the ingredients for ""How To Destroy A Bih"" Preheat life to ""chaos"" for 6 months and mix the ingredients below


- 1 partner of 5 years suddenly without warning breaks up with you

- 1 partner proceeds to kick you out the house you just moved in to with him one (1) month prior

- 1kg of friends deciding to stick with him instead of you 

- 5 emotionless one night stands 

- 1 23rd birthday alone 

- 1 alcohol addiction *revisited*

- 2 difficult relationships with your parents(half and half baby, one is mental the other is absent) 

- !this part is essential! A business trip to Asia! Just to be ""let go"" from your promising job a week after you return

= 25lbs of weight gained and a life spiralling out of control!!


CONGRATS! MARY BERRY AND PAUL HOLLYWOOD WOULD BE PROUD YOU FUCKIN DUMB BITCH!!",4.140518590998043,6.774292308219178,4.479882583170255,81.51849315068493,74.54794520547945,7.4590998043052865,29.606653620352247,8.418075326091056,2.4827667318982383,631,28,110,12,14,198,99,146,0.105,0.758,0.13699999999999998,0.5999,2,1,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,8,0,3,4,9,4,0,8,1,8,6,0,2,0,17,9,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,1,4,0,0,2,2,10,2,1,1,0,0,3,1,5,0,4,0,1,10,4,26,4,1,20,0,0,0,1,15,5,3,0,10,67,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987597321015416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948485744884063,0.0,0.1888323550053832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20449151958989345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086282921312462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361875364279538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103770569108514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809281275104024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728766479403261,0.25756122582481245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837393946946528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29105805686901,0.1937812264618175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710984304100168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3706417490513488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974387869834362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19574740836801827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462490650613304,0.22202113391364933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575352916793774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295175169597262,0.0,0.0,0.1174104774699272
EDAnonymous,page04z,2019/05/15,"Girlfriend is struggling with ED. I'm struggling to navigate how to be supportive but not enabling. I don't know if this violates rule #1.

> No asking for / giving tips Including those for weight loss, physical harm, medical advice or how to ""trick"" health care professionals. Harm reduction tips (eg. binge eating prevention, exercise-related) may be approved at mod's discretion.

First time poster here. I'm a little out of my depth on researching this, and I'm having trouble figuring out how to be supportive and not enabling to the girl right now.

Some background information: I've been working with a girl for over a year now, we're each around 30 years old. We work at a long term treatment center for addiction/alcoholism. She's a counselor with her bachelors, I'm a supervisor for the non-clinical side of things. She is much more educated on the psychology of addiction compared to me (which is probably a curse for her). She's an alcoholic with 8 years sober, I'm a heroin addict with 4 years clean.

We've been into each other for a while but the timing was mostly off. But over the past 2 months, things fell into place where we are able to actually commit to a relationship. When we first started talking seriously, we were discussing unappealing things about one another.

It took her some time to actually tell me, but she shared with me that she was bulimic and she's struggled with it her entire life. And she was currently having a very strong episode of it, so bad she feels she needs inpatient treatment for it but won't do it because of where her career currently is. And I thought ""bulimia huh, how bad can it be?""

Well, it's bad. Not bad like I don't want to ""deal"" with her. I have very strong feelings for this woman, and it's bad because I don't know how to handle this situation.

She's a spoiled, little brat (but a cute brat) when it comes to food. Her entire personality will change when she wants to eat, and similar to my experience with drugs I can tell that's all she can think about. She completely ignores any suggestion I have towards what food to get, and if I mention not getting food it really upsets her. So I've been getting food for us but trying to subtly limit how much I get.

She doesn't purge around me either, which I think causes her even more pain. She's shared with me before about how as soon as she eats, she feels like there is a clock ticking on how much longer she has to get rid of it. But to my knowledge she hasn't once done it around me after we eat. But after she eats, it pretty much ruins her night. She doesn't want me to touch her after she eats (and I don't). But she's slowly coming around more and more, and instead I've let her be the one to get close to me afterwards.

She's struggling pretty hard with depression right now too. Body image problems, ignoring adult responsibilities, sleeping a lot. So I know her eating disorder plays some part in this cyclical bout she's fighting right now.

So far I've been trying to avoid telling her what to do. I've avoided judging her/making comments for what or how much she wants to eat. I've avoided talking about food. I've mostly avoided the entire subject since she told me. There has been a time or two I spoke with her about it but never after she's eaten.

I've bought a few books and tried finding some research on it, I'm just completely out of my depth. I don't know how to be supportive to her and it's killing me. I don't know if what I'm doing is helping or hurting her, and it's a terrible place to be in. I need some real direction to go. I will read anything someone else has read that they say helped them. Find any literature. Literally, do anything. I want her in my life and I don't want my actions to hurt her.",3.4783266693322688,5.296940749322495,4.525921631347462,84.162481007597,73.75609756097559,7.820374072593187,26.597005642187572,8.553620602826744,1.8694583677640049,2955,107,587,55,61,963,306,738,0.191,0.733,0.075,-0.9984,2,4,3,0,2,0,97.0,6,0,2,11,41,45,4,9,26,1,53,26,2,11,3,127,100,53,1,12,24,0,6,2,1,4,9,2,1,5,36,46,16,8,16,4,1,6,17,32,1,5,16,8,90,13,92,72,24,78,0,5,0,0,83,37,0,16,37,397,126,9,0.052374685846110866,0.0,0.10222027649308334,0.1141922767324966,0.0,0.0511799368469848,0.0,0.1119452220208542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123316475972162,0.05491942474263126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619980767780261,0.18649829792504288,0.04896326120322595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186533749470664,0.06385424473506117,0.0,0.044567000077152114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05817646894728711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05339948280994215,0.05380322963515998,0.055405472989673035,0.09023230856960944,0.109827723279099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05399600134260225,0.04511024017387633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002592750962805,0.0,0.0,0.053597487723100384,0.0,0.0,0.06073800771923064,0.4287390318018162,0.043752329451526316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03459298604392976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05123249267176792,0.0,0.0,0.07944664454107213,0.03741648603341866,0.0,0.0,0.09573902803181797,0.08909976205016247,0.31665839010306224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641816700149178,0.050242571096674654,0.029765740941453775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04691743108140625,0.0,0.0,0.05567184190369106,0.0,0.0,0.07021129582330564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213636887455926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057944829933429524,0.0,0.14391878812328393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053556664771180235,0.07398757903316755,0.051175251913681455,0.10498638908293742,0.0,0.04634994883856065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044527084969873565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052761985893546366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04180497455871613,0.0,0.19250710202741028,0.07767033183531312,0.040394586521485185,0.0,0.0,0.04915009470805408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054958422425026285,0.055777331101276056,0.0709808851936965,0.0,0.055730358430178234,0.0,0.0,0.05671668089546125,0.04999756395934463,0.0,0.04573155549501594,0.10944079865108956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656776908987954,0.05646876970193439,0.05011550099890185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047777183598442,0.059613858770840834,0.033552564883497026,0.0,0.0,0.0562308119197158,0.0,0.1341830866264713,0.0,0.041650452350790096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04332488135697267,0.05887134130434325,0.052412510217857984,0.0,0.044376901355130095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03707107221290591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190135736392952,0.0,0.0,0.17830251849017725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419357713052955,0.13733335181167644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043862420958571,0.06711916778612613,0.0,0.041579650252632064,0.12216040201173503,0.0,0.0,0.05004625679381201,0.058190203089642616,0.106676921174513,0.0,0.051162457732147074,0.0,0.06300029834789185,0.0,0.0,0.08642920188774443,0.18535168016013093,0.0,0.0,0.06377825753804559,0.04709113252256098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0762587901509331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349103220534729
EDAnonymous,twelvefeeetdeep,2019/05/15,"I’m back I really flew off the handle. I got into a happy relationship, got on an SSRI, stopped eating vegans and stepped away from counting calories, and consequently gained 40 pounds in the past 10 months. 
I look at pictures of me a year ago and I’m so disgusted with myself. I was so close to my goal weight. I hate my relationship with food. I hate how much I love eating.",1.7835,4.1706334,3.7995833333333344,84.51937500000003,81.66666666666666,6.95,21.375,8.07648339933343,1.2245,295,9,59,6,8,100,55,75,0.168,0.7020000000000001,0.129,-0.4882,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,3,0,5,0,1,5,0,1,0,9,10,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,4,2,11,2,11,6,1,15,0,0,1,1,3,7,0,0,6,36,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714640704503046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18173390145094914,0.14873577048360498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958544667087882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23389638702371135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094073659698523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059098874759913,0.0,0.3819442613706451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624325273169805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457817420185395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439402230459515,0.0,0.1421933447775108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18465087197392005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391624455417698,0.0,0.0,0.4153429739584905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617161849357582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355456933252499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456261181901132
EDAnonymous,Voxenna,2019/05/15,Guess who has to eat 400cal a day for the next 5 days to balance out a binge I'm 6000 calories over my goal. Woop woop.,-0.8811111111111103,0.9467682962962982,1.0311111111111124,103.70000000000002,88.25925925925927,3.6,16.407407407407412,3.1291,-1.316125925925926,92,2,24,0,3,30,24,27,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,11,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5736667488220801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551004644573251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899532288583642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4730072537265097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,milkymilquetoast,2019/05/15,"Letter to myself and my eating disorder I wrote this in my journal a couple of weeks ago, attempting to pull myself out of my annual relapse. Revisiting it now in the hopes of getting it to stick. The beginning is me trying to validate myself (TW for numbers), since what I struggle with the most is the feeling that I have to go back, to prove to myself that I really was at that weight and that I was capable of restricting. The feeling that I can’t get well unless I first get sicker. Here’s what I wrote:

I was 90 pounds. This is a fact. I had an eating disorder. Just because no one noticed my behaviors, my weight loss, my lowest weight, that doesn’t mean I never had an eating disorder. I was obsessed with food and my body. When I looked down at myself or in the mirror I didn’t see myself right. I was always hungry. I wasn’t happy. And yes, I convinced myself that restricting and losing weight made me happy, but it didn’t really. Overeating, whether it was genuinely overeating or just what I perceived as overeating, made me cry. Even as I’m writing this my head is screaming at me, saying the opposite. It wants to say: “90 pounds isn’t that low! No one noticed because it wasn’t a problem! Or they were glad that you were finally eating less and losing weight! You did see yourself right, you really are fat! The BMI scale must be wrong for you because you’re short - in reality you’re on the high end, on the verge of being overweight! You were happy! Your grades were good and everything felt better and you wrote a lot and had hobbies and interests!”

But that’s...not true. I had food thoughts and weight thoughts and numbers echoing through my head. How many hours were wasted looking up calories and dieting tips and reading about other people with eating disorders? (Not to mention exercising and overexercising?) I need to just let it go. There’s no point in going back to this stuff. I don’t need it anymore. I have better things to do. It’s boring. I write a lot more now, more than I ever have, now that I’m not depressed anymore. I have the same hobbies and interests, and I don’t have to be distracted from them by an eating disorder. I’m going to accomplish a whole lot, and I’ll be able to do it because I won’t be wasting my time with a stupid eating disorder.",3.5376478040540533,5.366880350446428,4.619662162162161,83.5077702702703,73.62053571428572,7.521814671814673,26.84025096525097,8.27314431278463,1.8596988899613904,1799,66,342,30,37,588,198,448,0.16,0.726,0.114,-0.9664,1,0,0,0,0,1,61.0,0,7,2,8,16,26,1,3,21,1,45,23,4,3,6,68,75,29,0,6,12,0,9,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,30,23,18,2,8,2,0,5,16,13,1,3,28,16,57,13,50,39,9,45,0,5,4,0,18,23,0,8,17,260,87,3,0.060896238809697564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398084143599845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050670548985648566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078541118344485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09365089748832887,0.0,0.14848712783975204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077155490936428,0.0,0.06764199324323047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738052997795672,0.06689165886537092,0.0,0.0,0.052449841254659665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4187541928717461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4361843854550405,0.0,0.0,0.05393599262410844,0.0,0.0,0.04022139140769868,0.055084134378838696,0.0,0.0,0.05472961283001036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06158193613886258,0.0,0.05846993906280214,0.06670885303138642,0.0,0.051798309622670735,0.14727194737907798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954473141354967,0.0,0.1384349434797008,0.05107687591109323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19447553572164755,0.0,0.0,0.12499421916814328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06434021973796046,0.0,0.06048370554558051,0.05997052861437235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227053002932498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022750069809839,0.13625462914684833,0.0,0.15531541369769164,0.0,0.11524298714238318,0.0,0.06173922811040852,0.0,0.06633385640790172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030757892790113,0.04696693350407968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386615430047878,0.0,0.0,0.08252973484899741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04221778443910895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756662907903661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05826947632418843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091271819676317,0.0,0.11703506975641527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401011042417156,0.0,0.09685426659505136,0.0,0.0,0.09705283613742374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050373998027750125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366197079487668,0.06971162413961587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04045675516981482,0.0,0.0,0.09668962287803402,0.035509086564514784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04134454881768555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035918179417102764,0.0,0.04884728956863897,0.4449312799677576,0.05475303203419464,0.0,0.0,0.06798847590096539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06658047748668232,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ParanoidDroid,2019/05/15,"Just got diagnosed with GERD lol fuck me. I had a really bad couple of days in regards to purging. A lot of straining and some blood. Then suddenly, the tightness in my throat and chest wouldn't go away. I would keep feeling dizzy and nauseated. 

Went to Urgent Care after the symptoms wouldn't go away. Got slammed with GERD. My esophagus is all fucked up. What's worse is whenever this acts up I wanna purge again even if that's what got me here in the first place. 

The doc said it will go away eventually and gave me some Nexium. Google is turning up all kinds of things and I don't know what to think. My bullshit finally caught up to me. 

Has anyone else experienced this? idk what to do.",1.5881113138686125,4.134395379562047,2.6501049270072983,91.31340556569346,84.25547445255475,6.344708029197081,20.971259124087588,7.645422480735847,0.8574529197080296,545,17,114,10,16,173,88,137,0.165,0.772,0.063,-0.9432,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,1,6,1,11,7,3,0,2,23,29,7,0,5,2,0,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,9,7,0,2,3,0,0,6,3,4,0,1,8,4,11,2,22,17,5,24,0,0,0,2,2,11,2,4,7,76,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040495697242282,0.1617837011070166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4450470913805945,0.0,0.13183704532301652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16098608212986193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17470955771537774,0.0,0.10183022883617887,0.0,0.0,0.1602617005875029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319023281091554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104289199058467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983725290968376,0.0,0.0,0.1729679807004552,0.0,0.13430674658601766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29194567975300073,0.0,0.0,0.2692087880089861,0.0,0.3788529470209498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034573134675288,0.0,0.1644249857593252,0.08677582862481016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342380221822821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496831498077455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115258953400386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501958013947361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411499961892845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489946880248636,0.10117375009195326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174613316363807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463717075252469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091010006875156,0.11216519706737957,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zomb1e-dust,2019/05/15,"The current U.S. political climate has made my ED worse I feel like ownership of my own body is in dispute. It's been driving me to control everything I can heavily. 


Ugh.",2.1059090909090905,4.8449722424242445,4.4335606060606105,77.97034090909092,84.15151515151516,8.148484848484847,35.52272727272727,8.841846274778883,4.0089454545454535,136,9,24,4,4,47,31,33,0.23199999999999998,0.701,0.067,-0.7269,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,2,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,5,1,3,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447339861023245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44906230041510337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35983739840728823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024450982132764,0.28603288031561097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956063524067103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788509961398888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080233202509819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frantrum,2019/01/31,granola binge this is the first day i haven’t taken bronkaid in three months and i had 800 calories of granola for lunch because i ate my actual lunch for breakfast— today isn’t going to end well,2.5265384615384607,4.985538000000002,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,79.25641025641026,4.925641025641027,25.134615384615394,5.985473137389443,0.7313538461538459,158,6,30,1,4,49,32,39,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,3,0,4,1,5,4,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.4012504528341171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506503161049217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651758191885758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641816983693118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497478298491872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23368195511600864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281983877932205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897487031035803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36969843748030856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwcatchexception,2019/01/31,"I miss eating anything I want anytime I want I’ve been restricting for a few months now and I get so fucking jealous of other people eating the things I used to eat. I miss eating a shit of food, but I know that if I did eat outside of my diet, I’d lose all my control and hate myself afterwards. I want to buy food but I am too afraid that I’ll just chew and spit it out. I hate beating myself up for eating but I do it anyway. I don’t want to smoke anymore to suppress my appetite. I’m trying my best to get myself out of my disordered eating habits, but I only find myself reaching for a bouillon cube whenever I crave or think of food.",2.6861764705882365,3.6407599705882383,4.5507647058823535,86.65894117647059,74.29411764705883,6.616470588235294,25.364705882352943,6.742157984588678,0.9692876470588242,500,16,105,4,10,171,77,136,0.193,0.711,0.096,-0.9375,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,5,10,5,1,4,0,5,15,2,2,1,24,20,10,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,12,3,3,0,1,0,1,9,0,0,2,0,24,1,16,18,3,6,0,3,0,1,0,3,2,2,3,72,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547497609534297,0.0,0.0,0.0875206005675259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161237022348468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11928549130833023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189134446568507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7617896429422103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972059852200068,0.0,0.3858124497932392,0.0,0.0,0.0983229193100544,0.11113155778409167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000588200469475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05844959105514986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898335743806646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489105900943111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088730571812562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07373274240463383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917125245600837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065713056936185,0.06814759838202047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220764917701962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185604499706622,0.0,0.0,0.2509222978694573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rgb519,2019/01/31,Trans ED support sub? Does anyone know of any trans-related ED support subs? I was a member of one that got shut down with proed and I don't know of any others. Fat redistribution has got me on the struggle bus. :(,2.1277906976744205,4.145850558139537,3.6955232558139532,87.71444767441862,78.30232558139534,6.16046511627907,22.377906976744185,7.1686216300943375,0.6689116279069771,166,5,35,2,4,55,34,43,0.113,0.762,0.125,0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,3,2,6,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691486202148269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897825606945046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375207024520313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341573324481231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983297021150511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392062123916847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28374619739968204,0.0,0.0,0.6160064056632151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananafishu,2019/01/31,"Surprise! Binging makes you gain weight. I don’t know where to post this or if I should post it.  Im not even looking for any help really I just want to write this out.  I used to b/p regularly but lately I’ve been mostly just a good old fashioned binge eater. 

I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. I was 150 last March and now I am 210 again. I haven’t been this big since high school.  I answered every pound gained with “I need to fix this!  When it gets bad enough.”  We’ll, now it’s worse than I could have imagined.  

Every day there’s a new excuse. I need to eat this because work is dragging today. I need to eat this because I have to focus on homework and can’t do that if I’m obsessing about restricting. I need to eat this because everyone else is and it’s just one meal, right?  I need to eat this because it’s here.  And on my days off where no one is around to see, all I do is eat. 4 peanut butter sandwiches. A giant bowl of stir fry. Any candy I can get my hands on. 

My stomach has never been even close to flat, but now it is HANGING. I can hear it slapping when I do jumping jacks and when I have sex. I am so ashamed of my body and I feel so sorry for my boyfriend while he is nothing but supportive.  I bait and switched him (I started gaining when we started dating).  He has put on some weight, too, but nothing close to what I have and he’s already losing it (I’m 20lbs heavier than him now).  I don’t know why he is sticking around.

I am going to really try this time. Starting today, I’m going to eat 1200 calories for 200 days. No excuses. Today might be rough but I’m just making tomorrow harder by indulging myself.  I’ve proven that I can’t trust myself with moderation.  I either need to do something now or get used to being a doughy monster. ",0.17608599508599454,2.404374370270272,2.040896805896807,95.40788083538084,87.72972972972973,4.660933660933661,19.76044226044226,6.1124844417494595,-0.06470270270270273,1367,42,305,12,44,450,188,370,0.11,0.825,0.066,-0.9624,0,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,2,1,0,5,27,8,0,2,4,0,37,15,4,4,2,57,68,25,0,11,15,0,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,20,16,10,1,6,0,0,5,9,4,0,2,4,11,43,4,36,58,6,53,0,1,2,1,14,17,0,7,29,193,63,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118829976231976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238744625821796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471229553396989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068995655349393,0.2014908511429397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178736897848967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597625436994475,0.0,0.0,0.15987562575564396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5073291884962643,0.06902982047044567,0.0,0.0,0.08538266121353587,0.0,0.10915750754687184,0.0,0.1392448467560369,0.07896000430153433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356412376054953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295180319281532,0.0,0.09392522771318036,0.06930919434413968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09313414161191848,0.0,0.0553876011453267,0.08730699978058834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892585339193994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082659808987904,0.06735746270694783,0.09321436891032306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939146344553256,0.09244592982023538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031722079631016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766125586324025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676308756368101,0.06373217358964488,0.07980810474532639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857845280013627,0.0,0.08671012677260165,0.0,0.1119894145792334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828041042537347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306965290507662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587447842277026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705686950166295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362967656257363,0.06584832922443583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835541831638063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361542937600184,0.0,0.09250161820517017,0.17546559176962065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09377169928320908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04818435226866166,0.0,0.2349811456670709,0.0,0.0,0.056102831623133335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273790338759432,0.0,0.0,0.04873947423959371,0.0,0.0,0.2012510749923304,0.0,0.0,0.07456402623544305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601582893917053,0.0,0.08421076018033062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatandignored,2019/01/31,"I've gained everything I lost and then some, and now I feel like just giving up and becoming a lardball. :( I lost a ton of weight after my boyfriend fucked up and broke my heart but now that everything is getting better, I'm gaining it back. I moved to be near him (he's a good guy, he changed a lot after what happened and I'm proud of him) but it's killing me. 

I was always insecure about our relationship because his type is the typical big tit ass but no tummy and just... whatever those ""cosplayers"" are. I'm.. far from that. I'm fat, no ass AT ALL(!?!? it's literally concave), and definitely not as beautiful as them. But I was at least going towards it... I finally hit 118 in July. I moved here in late July. I gained 50 pounds since then. It's more than I gained in my 4 years of high school where I was 130-155 in 4 years. 

I want to cry and give up. I feel like it doesn't even matter. I can't stop eating or thinking about food, even to the point where I feel disgustingly nauseous after eating. 

I'm on Lexapro and it's really saving my life but I feel like it's fucking up my already binge prone self. 

I used to just restrict and fast because if I let myself go, I would binge for days. That one binge has turned into half a year of self hatred. I feel like my boyfriend is losing interest in me appearance and sex wise because everything is just dying down. I want to honestly just disappear and it's purely because I got so heavy. None of my pants fit. My jackets don't fit. I can't even wear some of my underwear. I feel like a failure and I haven't been able to lose any weight. I keep saying I'll do it tomorrow but I can't stop thinking about food. 

Thank you to anyone who reads this, I've been so frustrated and I have no one to talk to about this. It sucks and I hate it. I wish I could be as beautiful and sexy as those cosplayers on Instagram y'know? So he'd like me more and be more proud of me. ",0.7978244864030444,2.8894524239401527,2.729082650516567,92.50177265170409,83.3640897755611,6.3128132050825325,21.26831730198314,7.536579438409214,0.7161000593753712,1486,47,335,25,42,496,194,401,0.20199999999999999,0.608,0.19,-0.897,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,1,1,1,11,21,28,7,1,8,0,26,16,6,1,2,58,61,34,2,6,14,0,8,6,0,1,2,1,0,3,21,18,7,4,8,1,0,6,11,13,0,3,8,9,52,15,47,45,10,49,0,5,0,6,18,25,6,6,24,214,73,3,0.08512914395256209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394212722191693,0.0,0.07083426732206825,0.0,0.0,0.05789073709047559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952427680281772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545905699106164,0.0,0.2075757440533382,0.0940184512384423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07528980987953669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900553465801438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06796869442463252,0.0,0.09351036727524484,0.054901255291037385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835061126424723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17421673355511455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868099012576754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295257562770196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25826311816196484,0.3040813872465881,0.0,0.09325481612034896,0.0,0.0,0.2058769975562296,0.0,0.0,0.15740104366278654,0.04447646413937021,0.16332726386188925,0.09676170862026656,0.07140228702253082,0.06808555311416277,0.0,0.0,0.08429123649798285,0.07527942085393534,0.0,0.0,0.08404740531204602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087844546463344,0.0,0.08994361450021242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566669459293106,0.09418278485150933,0.0,0.04678475119688028,0.0,0.096029382343004,0.0,0.0,0.087050317367459,0.060129231941577224,0.2495387981764045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19047547378242785,0.1858570336043711,0.07237375394147211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809576154101908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537142220363633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08047455720619394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515218110791321,0.0,0.054535909472323736,0.0,0.0,0.09139684191229157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06769811210472444,0.0,0.08615523850808111,0.0,0.0,0.1776165262379026,0.0,0.0,0.0704197075778598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14234355235015536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842358127440877,0.0,0.0783754782903235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090946361612512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259606317132596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352424770709398,0.0,0.0,0.10042274944657388,0.0,0.0,0.2073287268186268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09789431429408348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060473301389438364,0.0,0.0,0.16446113291049105
EDAnonymous,roseology,2019/01/31,"Extreme Hunger! (And other issues) I am so sick and tired of extreme hunger. I can never give into my ravenous craving to just eat everything in sight, so it just drags on and on endlessly, leaving me starving every day, even when I eat. I don’t restrict as much as I used to, as I’m in a weird sort of nebulous “quasi-recovery” (I sometimes still struggle to eat my maintenance and feel guilty whenever I do), but this is getting ridiculous. On top of the mental toll I deal with every day, eating at maintenance has done nothing to restore my hunger cues, energy levels, or period. WHAT THE HELL!!!
Has anyone been through this? Did eating regularly/in higher quantity do anything to help abate all of this and advance them on the road to “recovery”??? Or am I just screwed?? 
I don’t know how much more I can take :/",4.181730769230768,5.781877557692307,5.288974358974362,80.29769230769233,71.5,8.533333333333335,30.30769230769231,9.075114841892004,2.7034076923076933,633,27,117,13,12,209,98,156,0.249,0.7020000000000001,0.048,-0.9847,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,2,9,5,3,1,4,0,14,11,0,2,2,21,21,15,0,0,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,7,8,1,2,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,3,2,16,0,23,18,4,18,1,0,1,1,4,11,2,3,6,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923910811344663,0.0,0.11679435734165584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306317697700386,0.14632116812604887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14524125522750528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7261370563862575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374186978772248,0.0,0.2391603213844149,0.0,0.12755541416852348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176288085474013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415133572898537,0.13614992795255754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513110753632843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813558555032294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799972097885484,0.0,0.0,0.15028088142388102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302968261621318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20866629632433176,0.0,0.10946334800405076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361834014682472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403700682136325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334359920170757,0.0,0.0,0.1483735884766244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671192457964916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312494746840814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12257991460080593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luluaelita,2019/01/31,"Just googled “how many calories does a panic attack burns” I was going through shit but at least I am being somewhat positive, right? 
What are the craziest things your eds have made you google? 
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EDAnonymous,doReMiyea,2019/01/31,"[TW] Feeling fat when smiling ? My post might be triggering, please don’t read if in a precarious state of mind.

I would like to know if someone has any insight on this. My eating disorder might be linked to my sensory processing, if that makes sens. 

For instance, I feel the fat moving throught my face when smiling, up to my ears. Or the fat rolling up around my stomach when i move. Never knowing if I experience hunger or fulness even when I fast for long periods. The list goes on...

I do not always experience these sensations, it really depends on my state of mind.  I don’t even know if these thought are real. I can’t trust the mirror, people could be lying out of pity when giving compliments. The number on the scale is my only comfort. Its getting worse, again.

End of my “little” rant. Thanks for reading and sorry in advance for the typos.",2.9667592592592587,5.4134209074074136,4.019243827160493,84.28034722222225,77.58024691358024,6.76604938271605,26.79166666666667,7.865858978985527,1.8106777777777785,665,27,123,11,16,215,103,162,0.096,0.75,0.154,0.8524,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,0,8,0,14,8,6,3,1,30,24,13,0,7,8,0,2,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,3,5,0,8,2,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,3,17,5,21,16,0,28,0,1,0,0,1,11,0,10,12,84,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230826066114317,0.0,0.0,0.0999588988438888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085312550501685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173603272648746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16846438414423073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040845670294226,0.0,0.0,0.13019036850686916,0.0,0.0,0.1941722962520103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875707443167396,0.0,0.0,0.14864610011277288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767967140043998,0.14100713056481134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423471757675132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181236221365664,0.14732356595028678,0.0,0.13008238123354748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811761261112367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118683767305961,0.2968379507348475,0.0,0.0,0.3124562733680334,0.0,0.0,0.1133684963053895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179325490766348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10190502939245784,0.0,0.0,0.16135194241583284,0.0,0.0,0.14077671538445702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940614918894434,0.16730790211746416,0.09416617808447912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454497026842515,0.0,0.0,0.1645443544614845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532953456819574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669440962188594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979635428484767,0.10441816636218627,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coldfaceemoji,2019/01/31,"Confused about ICD codes I sought counseling yesterday at my college's health center for my issues with restricting/excessive exercise. Among many other processes/procedures, I had some blood work done, and was confused about the ICD code ""F50.00 - anorexia nervosa, unspecified"" that was underneath my results. Is this a diagnosis? I'm not underweight so I'm confused why the PA included this code. I didn't feel comfortable around the PA so I'd prefer to ask others before reaching out to them. Thanks in advance!",6.3065449438202235,9.221210932584269,6.249873595505619,70.06896769662923,68.8876404494382,10.292696629213484,35.84410112359551,10.411451182825502,4.776335955056181,419,22,61,13,8,132,69,89,0.114,0.831,0.054000000000000006,-0.6362,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,5,5,0,3,4,0,6,3,1,1,0,12,11,3,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,1,7,2,12,6,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,4,1,39,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2945781396301901,0.3093541668947657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815782045775577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386336153838489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731694969267208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35173956653195243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34538181884570696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33548861797785057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30465548588360003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985928617469336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24090485310637744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sammy55554,2018/12/24,I want a flat tummy I want toned abs or a flat stomach at least. i’ve never had one. Maybe not since i was a young kid. I have no muscle tone and it causes back pain. Why can’t I just get myself there? Anyone struggling with feeling like you’ll never reach the goal you have? Tell me I’m not alone. ,-0.04852747252747136,1.9089594000000003,1.6468131868131868,99.79461538461538,85.76923076923076,3.7142857142857135,13.9010989010989,3.1291,-1.490736263736264,231,3,55,0,7,75,51,65,0.157,0.7090000000000001,0.134,-0.5258,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,3,3,0,1,4,0,6,2,1,1,2,12,11,2,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,2,1,9,1,2,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,5,33,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747216393401168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547074601664995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039628330789547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724874296039934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411965606560258,0.18949647025273145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858350621273371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958899445121053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664818325588228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091582280764283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797419884326708,0.0,0.2822474082415435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194196452315693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772995512259969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23184241471389244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129056455166793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23934916333761425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kapurzel,2018/12/24,"Are you good at guessing people's weight? So I have this coworker, an older woman who frankly seems to be a bit obsessed with eating healthy. Once the topic was the weightloss of another coworker and in that context she asked me ""How much do you weigh? 45kg?""

To which I replied ""No, I'm 48kg"" (though I actually was at 47kg at that time) She was only off about 2 kg. Though maybe she guessed it lower as to not offend me... like how people intentionally guess somebody's age lower.

Still this kind of shocked me to be honest because I wear baggy clothes that aren't form revealing at all. So I'm wondering if this is a common skill, especially for those struggling with an ED. ",4.71384742951907,5.555876686567167,5.539054726368164,81.8690464344942,69.44776119402985,8.343615257048093,30.560530679933663,8.515128840125781,2.215541625207297,532,21,106,8,9,174,94,134,0.107,0.812,0.08,-0.3856,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,8,8,1,2,6,0,10,4,1,3,1,15,18,9,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,3,1,12,4,17,13,4,11,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,6,6,69,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.1696455418834279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822893830857567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625195952148131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059729861948618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18979136440576733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788463275560798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14581113244090588,0.0,0.0,0.5745224867227114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181030573859102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493083407483114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746485062319958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779449541816934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18513695881320805,0.0,0.13221531906998668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24104148299624434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825999914861333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883112245733994,0.0,0.0,0.18173828938125755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415994297501651,0.0,0.1013691622981496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169375453909425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18852515231396053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hey_ill_beyourfriend,2018/12/24,"I’m really hungry, how do I forget about food I’m just starting this and I don’t know how to fight the hunger. Is there any kind of food that doesn’t make you fat but it helps you not being hungry? Does drinking water work? Thanks ",-0.8732142857142833,1.2080662448979638,0.7660969387755117,100.47934948979595,100.83673469387756,3.266326530612245,10.206632653061224,5.148860815047168,-1.6627367346938784,182,2,41,1,8,58,38,49,0.094,0.755,0.151,0.7059,0,0,1,0,1,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,5,3,1,0,1,0,5,6,1,3,0,9,11,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,23,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19152553283869614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24646593055595306,0.0,0.0,0.2759009508872129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6811228123518763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18877802059213866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932857536932584,0.1547825239762327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18799754952837924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804264316794846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19934694414962376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592971863112021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503799692963204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunglowfox,2018/12/24,"My ED ruins everything First can I just say I'm so glad this subreddit exists. I've been suffering alone for too long and need to let some steam off... I'm so fragile right now, Christmas hurts, life hurts, everything hurts.
I'm sure many of you can relate but the holidays are so stressful. Today I had calories a tickle over maintenance, because that's the holidays right? Now after ingesting enough caffeine to power a steam train through every black coffee to repress my hunger and wash away my guilt from eating truffles (and flushing the rest down the toilet), I'm just sat here shaking, on the verge of tears, wishing I wasn't me. Wishing this wasn't my life. I can't enjoy holidays. I can't enjoy life. I can't enjoy anything. Everything scares me. Calories scares me. Alcohol scares me. Getting fat scares me. I'm dreading tomorrow. I'm absolutely dreading it so much, in case I lose control, in case I have too many calories - which I know I will. I know it's 'one day' but I am suffering so much living my life in fear of food, of celebrations, of everything. I don't want tomorrow to come, I can't calm myself down. I'm so scared. My body dysmorphia is through the roof, I literally do not want my body, I need my body to change. I'm at my limit. I can't do this. I've already self harmed and picked and scratched at my skin and I cannot relax I cannot relax. I don't know how to calm the fuck down. I don't want to wake up tomorrow",1.7420618556701015,4.021783395189008,3.318085910652922,88.55032474226806,81.02749140893471,6.62914089347079,24.476632302405505,7.793537801064563,1.3862558075601368,1132,43,232,20,30,373,140,291,0.322,0.627,0.051,-0.9978,1,1,1,0,0,2,43.0,0,1,0,5,14,30,1,12,9,0,24,17,6,3,1,29,46,15,0,7,5,0,3,0,0,1,8,1,0,1,7,7,6,3,3,5,0,2,13,21,0,2,5,5,38,9,30,39,5,28,0,7,1,1,3,16,1,1,10,138,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995034456967529,0.0,0.09643113905966044,0.1027462804260664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0766194191007182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747742401184368,0.0,0.0,0.056757378821569525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102638423092411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849523496239654,0.08020374120278398,0.0,0.0,0.10442781461647363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004654076600423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527206744255497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620478587094787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07844696145213254,0.0,0.3347155447982613,0.0,0.0,0.10477165866179614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919706776855877,0.11258578206462992,0.0,0.0,0.0860762484829018,0.04864474961300935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990200445230834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350810041110924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520857770536348,0.2630579106338111,0.0,0.0,0.0822154994086387,0.08239707839332047,0.0,0.10416331321360217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887924864057147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688923655360866,0.138075846498998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309195272365176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159026343212427,0.0,0.07404270497511696,0.466083520434287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713127620600487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066541594571195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877525792869673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825488485721872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16475138919443785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21413772427820355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dancing_Student,2018/12/24,"Hope this is the right place for this sort of thing! I don't know why I'm writing this here because the very thought of saying anything about my struggle with an ED makes me so scared to accept that it's happening...but its secrets are eating me up from the inside.

I've only recently sought help for restrictive eating and things are somewhat improved compared to a few months ago, in that I'm eating much more and more regularly than I used to. I know I need to gain weight (and not just maintain) and how I should go about doing it but it's so hard to commit to whilst still feeling compelled to count every single calorie. 
At the same time, I'm absolutely TERRIFIED of suddenly collapsing from refeeding syndrome or from the effects of malnutrition...but the soonest I can see a dietician to reassure me and do a meal plan is in a few weeks' time - I've been waiting since October :(. I know I'm so lucky to have access to treatment but I want to recover NOW, dammit! I hate being caught in this constant fight between a need for obsessive control and doing what I know is best for my body.

Has anyone else struggled with this cognitive dissonance where you can't believe how self-destructive your brain has been but feeling powerless to stop it? 

Maybe this doesn't make any sense or there has been something similar posted before - so sorry if this is a common question - I'm just really in need of someone who understands and could give me some positive advice and encouragement that everything's going to be ok 😭

Many thanks xxxx
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EDAnonymous,amayhahn,2018/12/24,"Food and S.O.’s This isn’t as much a rant I guess but a vent. I’ve never been diagnosed with an ED or considered myself having one so I’m sorry if I’m not supposed to post here but I feel like no one IRL will really understand me.

I’ve always had a bad relationship with food and my weight would constantly fluctuate. When I was younger my family would always comment on how chubby I was. My mom would flat out tell me I can’t wear certain things. Once I started dating, my boyfriends would always try to get me to lose weight. My ex got me down to 145 when I was in high school. Once I went to college I gained hella weight and shot up to 175 and I was extremely self conscious about how I looked. I started dating my current boyfriend and he made me feel okay with my weight and he eventually encouraged me to lose weight as I had a high BMI and  I currently weigh around 155 which I’m pretty sure is a normal BMI for me.

My boyfriend is the sweetest and I know he loves me so much but I don’t think he really understands my relationship with food and bushes it off as I’m not trying hard enough. He gives me ultimatums that stress me out and I don’t know it really hurts. This is the only thing he’s ever asked me to do for him and I keep letting him down. 

I feel like I try so hard for him though and he doesn’t see it that way. For a month I was only eating 2 protein bars a day and going to the gym for hours. Then I gained all the weight back beacuse I had a cheat meal and I just took a downward spiral into food again.

I guess I made this post today beacuse what he said hit me extra hard today. I’m on Christmas break with my family right now, but I’m supposed to be on vacation with him. Last minute my mom threw a fit about it so I couldn’t spend time with him. I just moved in to a different state, and he messaged me if I don’t lose 10 lbs by the time I get back we’re breaking up and I need to move out beacuse he doesn’t want to be with a failure. I basically can’t eat, which I can’t even do because I’ll be with my parents 24/7 so I’m basically fucked. I get that’s he’s frustrated beacuse he’s been wanting me to lose weight the past year and a half and I haven’t, but it’s also not beacuse I’m not trying. He literally doesn’t understand what I go though and I feel like whenever I try to tell him, I don’t even get to explain myself fully beacuse he chocks it up to me making excuses. 

Every day he mentions that fact that I need to lose weight and I just got a bad haircut too recently (lmao rip me) so he comments on that as well. And a lot of the time he tells me he’s joking but I feel like even the jokes get to me. It just sucks. 


Thanks for listening and if any of you guys have some advice feel free to share
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EDAnonymous,supergirlshivoo,2018/12/24,"I feel like garbo So I made these muffins for my grandmother two days ago. Giving a gigantic middle finger to my calorie limit I decided to eat one. And another one. And another plate. I don't know whyyyy the fuuuck I keep doing this, I just purged (again) and I feel disgusting. It's Christmas eve and I'm just laying on the bathroom carpet. I don't have what cookies to give to my grammy tomorrow. It's everything all and over again and I can't get out of the cycle. It used to make me bummed out when I first started doing it but now it's just routine, my self destructing habits don't shock me anymore. Ok now this is epic",0.7476562499999986,3.193335953125004,2.9253125000000004,88.33843750000004,87.90625,6.325,21.28125,7.645422480735847,1.1422093750000002,494,17,100,10,16,167,82,128,0.057999999999999996,0.866,0.076,0.0196,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,9,5,2,0,4,1,8,2,1,3,1,22,20,9,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,9,8,1,2,4,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,1,3,16,2,11,19,1,16,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,12,69,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710072574595846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4426503746307755,0.0,0.0,0.2093246186125196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13612262021231702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597719515372105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18969601080470552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21344656062991094,0.15078837440192042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17953594395719333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027530799315954,0.4049549503218424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18760861980648366,0.0,0.0,0.1159984937528437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031180886251672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971943709914894,0.14089079318713152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860528453261841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201919320090669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493963572989633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20618461672074195,0.0,0.0,0.18229661952124665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sewingmajor,2018/12/24,"Spiraling at 9AM Hey everyone. I’ve been in a rough patch the past couple of weeks with the holidays and family and everything and the littlest things just keep throwing me off. Anyways, this morning I saw a picture of an ex FWB with a girl who was not only gorgeous, but also super slim and fit. She’s a cheerleader for gods sake!! Truthfully I’ve been doing better than I expected this holiday season but now I’m about to hop on the treadmill for the next 48 hours ",3.364782608695652,5.4014387391304375,4.799347826086958,81.1364130434783,74.65217391304348,8.513043478260869,27.80434782608696,9.188382445141503,2.602908695652174,372,15,69,9,8,124,71,92,0.02,0.7090000000000001,0.27,0.9793,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,10,0,4,0,0,0,1,13,7,7,0,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,4,4,13,3,0,12,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,0,6,46,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442363175895377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27011038244631114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379304264783285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918324039144647,0.2744828722880289,0.0,0.2879134272452809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007673925600697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27146249735051925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32480706753363336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23227811573914214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915484636590612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029008755635707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449815310393191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kaelidoscope,2018/12/24,Baby I finished all 6 episodes of Baby on Netflix in one go and holy jeez it was triggering as fuck. The two main leads can't possibly have a BMI more than 16.5 and everybody is so  t h i n  and the plotline is pure garbage but so addictive to watch. I've been pretty good with pretending that I'm recovered but the jealousy running through my veins as I watched the main girls was intense y'all. ,4.9866666666666655,5.238907913580249,5.587259259259259,83.85866666666669,68.62962962962963,9.442962962962962,35.953086419753085,9.3871,3.164504197530864,315,16,66,6,5,102,64,81,0.065,0.7929999999999999,0.141,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,1,0,5,0,7,3,1,2,2,10,10,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,2,3,2,5,1,9,7,4,6,0,0,2,1,2,2,2,0,1,41,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183926380669876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3548118163418987,0.0,0.0,0.21811924996796767,0.3219086044144117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26006907523255723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43267061485328095,0.0,0.3904569671281434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749114436292185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CinnamonKitten27,2018/12/24,"Small victory        Hi, everyone! I've been a lurker on here ever since r/ProED got shut down (I was a lurker there too =P), but I had a small victory that I kinda wanted to share with y'all, so here I am. Posting stuff. Yep (I’m not good at this sort of thing, which is why I’ve been a lurker for so long).
       So, because of some problems with my heart rate, I’ve been trying to maintain for about a week now (and hopefully ultimately recover, if I can get myself to actually gain weight, though that’s probably not gonna happen for a while, tbh). It...hasn’t been the best, but today was pretty okay.
        I had some calories left in my budget, so I decided to have a serving of Breyer's Chocolate Mint ice cream. It was awesome, especially since I hadn’t had anything like it for so long. 
        Anyways, I’m just really happy that I was able to enjoy something like this w/o my eating disorder screaming at me in the back of my head. Thank you for reading my random ramblings about ice cream and stuff, and I hope that you all have a nice Christmas. The holidays can be really difficult, especially with an e.d.. Good night, and please be safe!",1.962823813354788,4.109945185840708,3.819018503620274,85.97897827835882,79.44247787610621,6.940949316170556,23.104585679806924,8.00094639256281,1.315785840707965,876,29,177,16,22,295,137,226,0.066,0.655,0.27899999999999997,0.9958,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,3,0,2,17,17,0,0,12,2,20,4,2,0,2,26,30,14,0,5,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,12,7,2,1,1,2,1,0,3,3,0,0,13,5,20,14,25,14,4,20,0,0,2,0,5,10,0,8,11,118,32,1,0.14095613800552206,0.0,0.13755285752603325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599489133722456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838656942309967,0.0,0.08592555342059406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14792477053416042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615479460214247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442333189180796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275028967171917,0.0,0.1346896304068655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07364376435783528,0.0,0.0,0.2364546418807221,0.11273550015127805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464704732348865,0.15005042997561407,0.0,0.0,0.14466166344046474,0.0,0.0,0.16703370221388733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800024997475061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15314925637509327,0.0,0.0,0.13772809811990278,0.0,0.0,0.24948349300780304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227778688752548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15472751119624506,0.0,0.0,0.1349970163339155,0.1434030669979579,0.15197455729844642,0.13487598752903332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409942827383146,0.0,0.1806002227890644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23320074791741335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851492153048482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227221091115391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12977347382109022,0.0,0.0,0.09364499477205657,0.0,0.13848868991702268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13360993726062315,0.0,0.0,0.09569996510184588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08313958224326308,0.0,0.11306651156485388,0.1716466022860553,0.0,0.0,0.1271909902252183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,loosesleeves,2018/12/24,"Best ED recovery workbooks? Hey guys, I’ve been trying to get better for months now, only to repeatedly relapse. Weekly therapy just isn’t cutting it and inpatient definitely isn’t an option for me financially. I was in Barnes & Noble the other day looking through ED workbooks and they seem like a good way for me to have a daily check-in with my eating habits. I was wondering if anyone has any suggestions for anorexia recovery workbooks or just general ED workbooks that helped you overcome your damaged relationship with food?",8.053508771929824,9.254053947368424,8.098684210526319,65.19995614035089,62.157894736842096,10.964912280701757,38.99122807017544,10.864195022040775,4.813491228070177,435,22,64,11,6,141,73,95,0.043,0.775,0.182,0.9344,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,1,2,3,6,1,0,4,0,7,2,0,0,0,12,11,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,1,8,4,11,8,1,7,0,1,1,0,8,1,0,5,6,41,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575441101382797,0.0,0.1616418034066561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662029528808233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494478621129973,0.2102232802469333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15329460913000784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24322290931841256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874236090043822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418663561673796,0.0,0.0,0.19936858678519795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353569528336949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932298550372165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11612652669609855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996052346734903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18972711662703504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18077893555226485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551971367938665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639000977976114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718267177691611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613803530858348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867245571085045,0.19066583294049494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577717665386852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seeyasis,2018/12/24,just told my aunty that i have an eating disorder and she goes “wow i need a bit of anorexia i’ve gained so much weight” ✨💫😌🎄 merry christmas to me 🎄😌💫✨,-2.7563157894736814,-1.1259166315789455,1.3476842105263138,98.93678947368423,96.89473684210527,4.092631578947368,15.494736842105262,5.6839178017228535,-0.8248063157894743,120,3,32,1,5,45,32,38,0.07400000000000001,0.6559999999999999,0.27,0.802,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115068634490396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4319912101994677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856906108991549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770848512535669,0.2794867321354538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601700787521267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589957673516066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fasting4Fun,2019/09/20,"What to do next... I am in a fasting state, I had a cup of coffee with almond milk munkfruit sweetener and  Starbucks sugar free vanilla syrup (about 15 calories) yesterday at 9 am. Then I did an hour at the gym this morning followed by 8 hours of on my feet retail work. When I get off I plan to continue my fast but I think I can only do that by sleeping. I want to go for a hike tomorrow morning still fasting, but what after that..",3.6623970037453226,4.270505595505622,5.177022471910113,84.36568352059928,71.69662921348315,7.731086142322098,30.563670411985026,7.793537801064563,1.9798524344569288,334,14,69,4,6,113,67,89,0.0,0.9540000000000001,0.046,0.3818,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,0,7,4,2,0,0,6,12,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,10,2,16,10,0,21,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,13,49,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730752171378974,0.0,0.18826871755821786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6524696282436445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35231004398565546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519462208576744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315098422085902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645531311091161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21226482598775925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953919843041793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411689440638567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kishkash22,2019/09/20,"Fasting! When fasting, do you guys consume ONLY water, or just 0 calories? Like is Diet Coke and Gatorade 0 ok? Also does anyone else just stop being hungry at 36 hours or just me?",0.91,3.4918457142857164,2.648571428571429,88.54142857142858,91.85714285714286,2.8000000000000003,21.285714285714285,3.1291,-0.0940285714285709,140,5,24,0,5,46,30,35,0.057999999999999996,0.795,0.147,0.5158,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,7,3,5,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,6,14,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999476584594357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622614376362616,0.3843090672916034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3282310063974609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313327364514237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37138361104880574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693737116154723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18324289256679333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852617400022166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135798256001411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LovelyLittleLife,2019/09/20,"No, I'm not okay I hate it when you have been dropping blatant statements that you have been starving yourself, and are in fact not okay, and everyone just plays it off as a joke. It makes it all even worse when you tell them ""No"" and then they proceed to ignore you. 

Honestly, I am going to deal with this in my own way and I will be fine, but there is no need to make me feel so much worse by saying you will support me, but then destroying me when I find out that's not true.",4.194488448844886,3.923367673267325,4.6443069306930695,91.74718646864687,70.2871287128713,7.921452145214522,26.73432343234323,7.1686216300943375,0.949335313531352,369,10,88,3,6,117,68,101,0.21600000000000005,0.679,0.105,-0.9147,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,5,2,0,7,11,2,0,1,2,10,0,0,2,4,23,18,13,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,7,6,0,1,3,2,0,1,6,3,0,0,2,2,15,8,10,13,3,13,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,0,6,67,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649432731777137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973810511110005,0.0,0.0,0.24556298161996326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12994081984049113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348823137537567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605216381766575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253722378079497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34308287977440416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18891569913662104,0.1905532949993747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043671179488661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29162685933526394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224618779420272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398505830072933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237853147878775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,autumnflame4,2019/09/20,"Sh*t people without ED experience say “I like food too much to get anorexia”

Friend of mine said that earlier. Yeah okayyyyyy. To be fair I probably used to think that too.",1.787499999999998,4.565550250000001,2.3934999999999995,89.3015,93.375,6.3100000000000005,25.15,7.554174236665415,1.7841425000000009,136,6,26,3,5,42,27,32,0.0,0.718,0.282,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,5,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32017631764872856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957899060087815,0.0,0.25288231541087003,0.0,0.171008279412239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599092964053428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406137661239717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22691861189346546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3529003138916673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113509756183853,0.2602935708694969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972986931447168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826945742824833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31551942869452826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ellesknits,2019/09/20,FUN FACT Whales eat half a million calories in one mouthful. Sounds about right...,3.937857142857141,7.2717499285714275,1.4685714285714295,97.00142857142859,85.42857142857143,2.8000000000000003,28.42857142857143,3.1291,0.5053999999999998,65,3,11,0,2,17,14,14,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.6166,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6843716330029095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532109344731354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711701294841304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theluckyone95,2019/09/20,"Will it get better with recovery? I'm 24 years old and I haven't grown my boobs or in height since I was 12. I started restricting at 15. I never restricted so much that I lost my period, but my calorie and fat intake was definitely too low. At 19, I started to recover which went great until I developed acne. My acne has made everything so much worse since I keep obsessing over what I eat and what I shouldn't eat to not worsen my skin.

This made me thinking, what if my recovery is what caused my acne in the first place? What if I had some type of delayed puberty which stimulated my hormones once I gave my body more fat?

I can't find so much information about recovery, or at least not an answer to the questions I want answered. WILL my boobs grow if I fully recover, and could the acne be a result of my ED/recovery? I'm so tired of having small boobs and acne.",4.119745762711865,4.882195282485878,5.762500000000002,80.01968220338985,70.75141242937853,9.515819209039547,27.744350282485875,9.725611199111238,2.457753672316384,683,23,139,16,12,234,104,177,0.122,0.769,0.11,-0.4984,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,1,5,0,13,10,7,5,1,34,26,16,0,6,8,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,10,6,4,4,6,0,0,3,6,3,0,1,8,1,27,2,15,13,6,22,0,2,0,3,3,10,3,7,9,96,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641345858644722,0.0,0.18388613825498235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006305646050993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13217634155589209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33879318521656543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878356874127352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513075687096808,0.14081476118538333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649182340558936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825168875681371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471463730999082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18071483469125854,0.0,0.0,0.3132904110377062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650897507432421,0.0,0.12768056666644864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371442865466954,0.1763028627206063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296207724230048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18545127467374767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738854821287841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343509818851161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060762606463974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19027269044822448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764430333107643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15346434608378942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870721605176836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660727000992196
EDAnonymous,rebekahb4,2019/09/20,"Crazy hormonal symptoms Hi all, I’m posting this really just for some support and reassurance that my situation will get better. I first got diagnosed with anorexia when I was 12, I’m now almost 21. I’ve been in and out of treatment throughout the years, it’s a constant battle but for the past while I have maintained a borderline healthy weight and had been doing okay! Back in July I got the nexplanon implant as I needed to come off the combined pill due to my migraines. I was fine for the first week, but from the second week I started experiencing a lot of symptoms including: total loss of appetite yet weight gain in spite of this, bloating, constipation, hair loss, depression and indescribable fatigue. I tried to let things settle for a while but they only got worse, and I got the implant out after only a month. However my symptoms did not improve, fast forward now to September and if anything they have gotten worse. I’ve gained over a stone despite eating a very low amount calories a day due to my lack of appetite. Since a lot of my symptoms are similar to hypothyroidism, Ive had a few blood tests - the first came back as subclinical hypothyroidism but when they tested again my thyroid hormones were normal. I keep telling myself that maybe this is all just due to a huge hormonal upset from the implant and that it’ll pass but it’s been 3 months now and it’s so so difficult. I feel like I can’t describe the mental distress that this weight gain is causing me. I’m truly miserable. The only good thing that has come from this is that I feel it has given me true perspective on my eating disorder and (probably for the first time since I was 12) I am fully willing and committed to maintaining a BMI in the healthy range once this is all over and I’m back to my normal self. Thank you to anyone who is still reading, this has turned into a very long post hahaha
I just want this all to be over, if anyone has any advice/similar experience I would be so grateful.",5.174545278262557,6.489320146596861,5.681704479348457,79.52698565057206,68.73821989528795,8.59119643203413,30.90207484971883,8.94667605116694,2.5994185379096373,1584,64,290,28,27,510,198,382,0.133,0.706,0.162,0.8842,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,3,10,17,20,2,3,26,1,33,16,2,1,7,50,56,27,0,8,11,0,6,1,0,4,9,1,0,1,22,18,5,1,2,1,0,5,2,11,0,5,17,8,33,9,41,32,11,54,0,6,0,0,9,15,0,6,35,206,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712419961453031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059167239185202725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216735975364862,0.0,0.0715987371303051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007073260671179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769499649380676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09951198071217814,0.0,0.08937939420487258,0.0,0.1498963748523466,0.0,0.09402285563425786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056111838726391305,0.0,0.07493836274361011,0.08830952066159192,0.0,0.0,0.09971670982907156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780582466623334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510881576550873,0.0,0.0,0.08798595683867642,0.062157288282125474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960299152985276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04545717888741758,0.0,0.0,0.07297672144042605,0.27834741159827225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773351600332311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889697939202028,0.0,0.04250686292758821,0.0,0.0,0.07699780062849883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479392187905172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0874094808532144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768184423081501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388951305022174,0.0,0.0,0.06451403804387136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049531982445476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926588254646106,0.0,0.1985165401655019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08305731846783597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665588931442318,0.0,0.09380746214824046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870298033842535,0.0,0.05573843696079692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076650271993007,0.0,0.0,0.14394495185298856,0.0977986796980658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061583477411722924,0.0,0.06948331023309919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873367079709472,0.0,0.36173126571340175,0.0,0.0,0.07604730467103668,0.08010367294185264,0.0,0.0,0.11560618380615835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073404887435113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059071538114433525,0.09463782450556073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357855018593546,0.05131854537328632,0.0,0.13958234447131432,0.3178505487968508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773336206291114,0.06180674953293045,0.0,0.0,0.056029177704063564
EDAnonymous,sleesprint,2019/09/20,just mixed an airborne tablet w vodka because i don't have coke zero wow this is the worst thing ever,0.46142857142857,2.9318599047619074,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,92.8095238095238,2.8000000000000003,16.523809523809526,3.1291,-0.9607904761904762,82,2,16,0,3,26,21,21,0.172,0.669,0.159,-0.0772,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772936689145842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.708244788060918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201731190657592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qqqqqq,2019/09/20,why is everybody lying to me i constantly feel so squishy and disgusting i feel my rolls i feel like im trapped in a disgusing meat cage everyone tells me im skinny why why why why are you lying to me why are you LYING to me im not dumb imNOT DUMb ifeel it I FEEL IT on me i FEEL DISGUSING i hate eating i hate feeling this way why is everybody lying to me,-1.8552802893309208,-0.1297127215189846,1.6967902350813766,92.94800632911397,106.59493670886076,5.8014466546112144,18.301084990958408,7.1686216300943375,0.7757009041591312,281,10,64,7,14,101,39,79,0.306,0.594,0.1,-0.9698,0,1,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,0,1,6,5,0,1,0,4,2,1,0,0,8,12,2,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,6,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,16,1,6,12,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,33,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031005808931914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12338904359652793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11522458751512335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658298315664454,0.08614628636919577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381063804055841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907590118837263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0589119713491296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053970188670622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09571513607993733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7616674378011865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,people_soup,2019/09/20,"how do you cope with not being able to weigh yourself? long story short, 3 wks ago i moved into residence for college and i don’t have a scale. my roommate didn’t bring one either.

i know that not being able to weigh myself 6+ times a day like i used to is supposed to be a good thing, but i’ve been so anxious since i moved away because i have no fucking clue where i’m at?? and this is sooo stupid but this past weekend my sister + parents came up to visit and my sister said “holy shit, you’ve lost so much weight” and that especially killed me because....where am i at...like how much have i lost...????? or did she just remember me being fatter than i actually was??

idk!! i suggested getting a scale when i was packing things away but my mom refused to let me bring one because she said i should b focused on school and not my weight, but i’m being consumed by the uncertainty of not knowing literally 24/7 now and i have no idea how to cope at this rate?? not to mention i’m flying to miami to see my boyfriend and meet his family for the first time in 30 day on my reading week and i just feel like everything is piling up on me and i’m gonna have a fucking breakdown idk lmao

i’m rambling at this point but i just....does anyone have advice? :( i’m really starting to lose it",1.8913141182217887,3.5182394569288427,3.61005048037779,89.85666829506596,77.65168539325842,6.291418335775932,23.593714378765675,7.079830092131019,0.7599814036801833,993,32,217,11,23,332,145,267,0.17,0.772,0.059000000000000004,-0.9855,1,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,0,4,11,11,5,0,7,0,24,7,1,4,0,37,47,21,1,1,14,4,3,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,9,12,4,1,5,2,0,6,9,8,0,3,10,6,31,3,29,29,3,34,0,3,1,2,15,15,3,1,15,139,40,3,0.23883942451561674,0.0,0.1165364126630277,0.0,0.0,0.1166955607065197,0.1058583695434199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491028338165392,0.0,0.08350103945727147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439750144550302,0.0,0.0,0.14559429635732918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658433704858775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15403167011996818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732673714982027,0.0,0.11257827663444284,0.0,0.06038219467842223,0.08531346629816508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157834624090352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208031993574744,0.06239187078784749,0.0,0.0,0.10016358881197757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481031932173096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212021811089542,0.0,0.13125990152321854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221147467166558,0.0,0.11668487857300434,0.0,0.0,0.10568268742897033,0.0,0.13360011163710678,0.2607214456014253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398629236849306,0.0,0.2538485101551846,0.17557445823538032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184377526467206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260145809216412,0.0,0.11399962797217746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11289022794583127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945202892793493,0.0,0.07650332558884823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352792545064728,0.0,0.2271909863922326,0.0,0.0,0.12085912431906047,0.09516204934720604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258261852526273,0.098785220028915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452588698596254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867430093217874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926918913082953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314028894788074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579128988721332,0.2908420753444333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bellxxaaa,2019/09/20,"for the 1st time in 5 years I (21F) ate dinner and kept it down and only bped once today i dont want to say im so proud of myself because well....i really want to throw up and get this food OUT of me but yeah i guess you could say i feel pretty happy with myself.

...ive been binging and purging 4-6 times a day everyday for the past 5 years (gradually got worse) and over the last week ive been thinking about actually TRYING to get this somewhat under control so i can be a normal fucking human being

anyways i had a great workout. came home, ate like 6 stalks of celery with hummus, some onion flavored rice crackers, some guacamole, some pico de gallo, and a small carton of blueberries around 8pm

its been 3.5 hours and this is the first time in probably years where i can say that i've only binged/purged once. this is so weird to me i feel gross and weird but at the same time i feel good like... i dont know how to explain it anyways just thought i would share with all of you people

it was kind of jokes though i ended up going to the grocery store to buy binge food and eat it in the car and with 10 minutes to the store closing i just dropped my basket and walked out of the grocery store without buying anything bcuz the cashier working was a guy i knew and i wasnt about to go thru checkout with a bunch of fucking turkey sausages and hot rod sticks like im some type of savage fukin animal lol",2.725497319833238,4.099360602739729,3.747605717689101,90.8064472900536,74.82191780821918,6.037164979154259,23.654556283502078,6.280692351149826,0.4788774270399046,1104,32,237,7,23,356,169,292,0.055,0.812,0.133,0.9779,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,0,4,13,15,2,0,16,2,19,8,0,2,1,52,41,20,0,5,5,0,4,3,0,1,0,3,1,2,10,23,6,2,8,2,5,6,4,5,0,1,14,8,24,10,41,23,8,38,0,0,0,2,9,15,2,6,19,142,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.10840965410487442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914191553266792,0.09889533007949636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0677205816922671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270595206872939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459899483575665,0.0886978301687758,0.0,0.0,0.07164507511993991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26039772260138405,0.0,0.0,0.11367473199419162,0.0,0.0,0.09839443587585124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685141842689756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449470023042172,0.2686654954826088,0.0,0.0,0.20540531427554176,0.1160818490376008,0.0,0.1262721561844591,0.09317860202551426,0.08885032849591662,0.12247919488380267,0.12238023542027375,0.10999843152650966,0.0,0.11825937682803375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114342180628106,0.0,0.10940312850662587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399965975123129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115685102458854,0.06105319443425152,0.09055471312876094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282164994145992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10884645979954352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23661846275641976,0.0,0.16898076835513998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604977409321806,0.07701712496077531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130203848210457,0.11977584098060515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116830590058895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650341764414754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118319391352178,0.10914721250701884,0.08819454723338578,0.2591142849882763,0.0,0.10530211690191003,0.0,0.0,0.0754240973334642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104974357526647,0.0,0.08911120881127997,0.0,0.09988494579200388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708861236436418,0.0,0.08087621503624337,0.0,0.1132121211819065,0.07891648738866587,0.0,0.0,0.2146185940416211
EDAnonymous,Spring-345,2019/09/20,"I’m in such a low point in life... Rant:
Sorry for such a long post, I feel like I need to express this. 

By that I mean mentally. I’ve noticed that my eating will probably always be disordered. My unhealthy eating habits just morph themselves into something else. I used to be bulimic at the age of 11 and then after that I’ve had anorexia, orthorexia and even BED. I was officially diagnosed with anorexia many months back (when I used to be underweight...). 

I am so frustrated. Each passing day is me having a mental battle. I don’t even want food, yet I binge. Can’t even make it past a week. And it’s because I’ve developed this horrible habit. I just want to break it. Lose some weight. That’s all I want in life. I know I’ll disappoint my parents, yet it’s what I need. I won’t even be as low as I used to be, I just need help. Because going from anorexia to binge eating is a literal punishment. I can’t even remember how I became anorexic in the first place. I never wanted recovery, and I probably never recovered mentally. I just went to binge eating “la-la land” for a couple of months until I ballooned again. Now, I’ve lost some weight. But I have to stop binging. My brain is either me being disappointed with myself for eating, or me feeling guilty about NOT eating and disappointing my parents... or just binging for the heck of it.

I’ll probably delete this later maybe, but I wanted to know if anyone had any advice?",2.4343803167124705,4.62568613780919,4.1338201806046335,84.0938227980631,78.08127208480566,7.302133228634995,24.615757099856037,8.285830014693849,1.719129145399816,1119,40,216,22,27,375,150,283,0.111,0.8490000000000001,0.04,-0.9335,2,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,3,21,11,3,0,9,0,20,13,1,5,3,46,41,17,0,9,12,2,4,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,13,9,9,1,6,0,0,3,7,10,0,1,5,4,33,1,31,28,5,37,0,7,0,0,4,11,1,5,22,146,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252088264167208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070266883141931,0.0,0.0,0.05742703089793073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059047485917998216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493472837459466,0.0,0.10295652868248943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427106771887507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343928417557608,0.0,0.05446149491940568,0.0,0.0,0.0857121887289782,0.0,0.0,0.09678387322534092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5184637600227834,0.07054484757891769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788830855820317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539814146377021,0.06032913760833233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183079406218076,0.10211395893402743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799332250674377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05660321660885425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282000843541766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929519070317406,0.04125666440301309,0.0,0.0,0.0747331654587554,0.0,0.09447488033453554,0.09218415715380457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05636920010343512,0.08561626455114614,0.08483862060924093,0.09198781994424056,0.0,0.0,0.2553089199617339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480999047388,0.0,0.0,0.1878497141551046,0.1302618619348582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614376233970612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18753737151762495,0.0,0.08061446265933875,0.0,0.0,0.08822941037127796,0.0,0.07982995407287233,0.0,0.08087712927608616,0.0,0.27314527945343475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566228070197567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065011624518404,0.0,0.09453179093636482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070601688540933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21880595015866866,0.0,0.0,0.2490459020374245,0.0,0.06773849616059546,0.20566801874424204,0.0,0.07828345371348866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FalseAlarmFunk,2019/09/20,"EDs Say the Darnedest Things ED: “you should dig that cake out of the trash that Roomie threw away and binge on it.”

Me: “Ew no wtf that’s gross, I’m not gonna dig old cake out of the trash.”

ED: *slams fists on table* TRASH CAKE!! TRASH CAKE!! TRASH CAKE!!",-1.8950943396226407,-0.3045985283018844,-1.5003584905660359,115.25927358490569,109.75471698113206,2.12,7.186792452830187,3.1291,-2.952424905660377,190,1,52,0,10,54,36,53,0.179,0.821,0.0,-0.8825,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,7,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5373064545184832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6000989731694364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547873207577741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799361646536568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toomanycats712,2019/09/20,"Product suggestion for Aussies Coles is currently selling AK toddler meals for half price currently, the frozen ones are $2 for a small healthy meal under 200 kcal. 

I’m not totally sure if this is allowed but it’s cheap, healthy, and one of the foods I can eat without stressing",7.398616352201259,7.486075905660383,6.439622641509434,80.35993710691825,63.52830188679246,10.085534591194973,42.19496855345911,9.725611199111238,4.1292440251572335,225,13,42,4,3,68,46,53,0.03,0.82,0.15,0.7562,3,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,4,4,0,1,2,8,5,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,6,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742473383651668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4422590000039001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4956750916174805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4189584247919061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34470931632325097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35256408740537176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunathewisp,2019/09/20,"what are your hobbies/interests? Whenever people ask me about what I do in my free time, about my hobbies and everything I'm just... lost. Like, how do I tell them that I constantly read and watch videos on fasting, calories, weight loss, etc. This takes up 80% of my brain. I feel like those are my only interests and I can't talk about it with other people so.. I'm at a loss concernig what to actually talk about with others. What about you guys?",1.1959090909090904,3.7529240454545487,2.4140909090909126,92.0036363636364,86.95454545454545,5.927272727272728,20.5,7.348242739294969,0.7277136363636365,348,11,72,6,11,111,60,88,0.078,0.802,0.12,0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,1,3,8,7,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,0,8,11,5,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,5,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,13,5,13,10,1,7,0,3,1,0,8,4,0,0,5,49,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.2214290613785349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212795234409226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533038965288373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452064781708021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25306192642189546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20392989731564987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473128772446654,0.16210281691076353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246741735977084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217111591910693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24769642235217945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725734356264305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146182843391439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269689794017985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060625739595864,0.3647594273407371,0.19832722189701946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13231163171874852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27631229708057936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,starshipminestrone,2019/09/20,"woman on the train made me feel mixed emotions i was on the train the other day and a woman passed by me and i was struck by a wave of conflicting emotions for some reason. she was very overweight and something about her just overwhelmed me. 

i have struggled with my weight since adolescence and sometimes it seems like my life revolves around obsessing over calories, many of my immediate family members struggle with their weight and i'm habitually reminded of the health problems that come with it through them. i'm not overweight anymore but i still have a good amount to lose before i feel normal. 

idk it's not like it was the first time i saw an overweight person in the street but i saw this lady and i wanted her to be happy so bad. i felt so angry at myself for projecting my own unhappiness onto her because for a split second i assumed that she must have a very difficult life. something in me just broke and i saw myself, my mom, my sister, my aunt, my cousin in her and i wanted her to be getting on that train to a warm home and family who adores her and a life so rich and full of love that it would make those who throw stones turn away from shame. 

i had to put on my sunglasses even though it was nighttime to keep people from seeing me cry all because a lady passed by me at the train station. it had me thinking if other people see me and project all kinds of emotions onto me or if i'm just fucking crazy. i feel like i'm so emotionally unstable these days and have been for a while, that little, inconsequential, utterly meaningless happenings will shatter something in me for some reason. 

i wish i could go back and tell that lady that i liked her purse (which i really did) to sort of make up for that split second when i thought those awful things about her. i want her to be happy. i hope she's happy.",5.040833333333335,5.909443861111113,5.403333333333336,83.04000000000002,68.72222222222223,8.111111111111112,27.777777777777786,8.212053250817874,1.7318611111111113,1450,46,284,19,24,462,177,360,0.168,0.69,0.142,-0.7597,0,0,3,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,2,15,25,1,5,17,1,20,11,0,5,3,59,52,26,0,12,10,4,7,4,0,3,7,0,1,3,25,19,5,2,10,0,1,6,2,11,0,3,15,12,56,14,47,30,7,33,0,3,5,2,25,19,1,9,12,208,81,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914432331257264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208258147251872,0.0,0.0,0.08663024787378384,0.0709004569968507,0.07698787029379646,0.11241542264237483,0.0,0.07846022093539698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942700713113454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736187124853292,0.0,0.10128358211245728,0.1189300386764459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148758042632504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06090096535829637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384657043365026,0.0,0.13986584855335835,0.06587173818578948,0.0885318883494377,0.0,0.0,0.07843008283758109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852426420456735,0.048173648965275866,0.0,0.05240259848159586,0.07733772854700627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153715599250196,0.29446390215514034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980102992815848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248978971620267,0.0915810201301923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195662254670888,0.0,0.0960180004465578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953827424114707,0.18018810171746344,0.09241428936653692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031545423860128,0.0,0.0,0.08321920337214131,0.087247219975606,0.12309598108503435,0.09348206167925503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799014845644547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034196455292083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278475824751338,0.08051042120059168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822835896189876,0.0,0.09269215040890244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0590693035014943,0.18960553985163775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695193787846736,0.08394056509344577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07627347044636787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21295325339033333,0.09119375025245938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363555500011887,0.0,0.0,0.19278674070323476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059180639104603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061257339909786636,0.05908166047055988,0.09059158765033687,0.07320099040972994,0.05376585879016449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002932748611506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215864347259395,0.16315585243493247,0.0,0.0,0.22456329430506594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10603195248889097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06550025163370336,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aoty2015vulnicura,2019/04/19,"Anyone else super affected by other people's casual estimates of your weight? Today my dad was talking about how small I am and said I'm probably barely pushing 120, when in actuality I'm about 108 right now (huge difference for me since I'm short) and it really fucked with me. But someone recently also said I'm probably barely 100 pounds and that also fucked with me. ????? love ed logic",5.701081081081077,6.831863702702704,7.244162162162166,69.485972972973,67.37837837837836,10.784864864864865,28.313513513513517,10.793553405168565,3.407803243243244,310,10,52,9,5,107,56,74,0.141,0.743,0.11699999999999999,-0.4671,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,8,5,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,0,9,11,8,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,6,3,8,8,0,10,0,0,0,3,6,5,2,0,4,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.1900488755547921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114845967521145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361744221730746,0.1995454064691343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20347333657295805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268946436919535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36008830886298504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577037435760784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501581679338773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41994901810077984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476247270803036,0.0,0.19229311020266446,0.0,0.0,0.16631628353146202,0.370505582876298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110003353384725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501188399190195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15653347077060087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18460116929611567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371542426960597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CannonEyes,2019/04/19,"Triggered by my old (thin) photos I was scrolling through photos from a few summers ago where I was at the peak of my ED. I'm in recovery now but I still suffer from body dysmorphia and ED thoughts, but I mostly have it under control. Anyways, in these old photos I looked fucking amazing. My stomach is completely flat and my body is just perfect. I remember that summer I was miserable and I remember looking at my body and thinking I was a whale. 

I showed my boyfriend the photos and he told me not to get hung up on it,I look great now (I'm still relatively fit but probably 10-15 lbs heavier than the photos). He also pointed out that in the photo my bra is literally falling off me. I completely lost my tits and ass which I have back now and love. I just hate the pinch of fat on my stomach and inner thighs.

Stupidly, today I took a photo of myself in the same underwear as the photo and looked at them side by side. Again, I don't completely hate how I look now, but seeing my current photo beside the super slim version of me makes me want it back. I've been debating getting back into calorie counting, which is what sent me spiraling towards bulimia (probably not an uncommon story here). I obviously don't want to get back deep into my ED, but I've also come to terms with the fact that it's the only way I could ever get that body back, and at one point today I even told myself it was worth it to look that good again.

I guess this is a rant, I'm worried about slipping into my old ways. Especially because I'm going on vacation in June with my cousin who has a perfect bikini body and I'm freaking out about looking like a fat whale in comparison.",4.950339729921822,5.3197693701492526,6.129936034115138,79.52691542288558,68.73134328358209,8.888415067519547,31.474769012082447,8.841846274778883,2.5196112295664537,1309,52,256,21,21,440,167,335,0.124,0.745,0.131,0.5579999999999999,2,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,5,25,16,4,1,17,0,17,14,12,4,5,47,51,20,0,3,9,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,16,19,2,1,4,1,1,5,4,8,0,1,12,9,41,8,41,38,5,63,0,3,8,4,9,31,3,2,26,177,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122249679119791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12850644505255984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089082426476971,0.0,0.04897859918800895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462353233626568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921156288945983,0.25272594142507776,0.0,0.09011564984809008,0.06415029765136565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053068233919043015,0.07267818506857232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742792243331953,0.16791132665846056,0.0,0.045662878048421285,0.06739099528478784,0.0,0.08858251428411472,0.08851094230734009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865145309128464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03925333644185011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4722969125640211,0.0,0.08770790823075854,0.0,0.07251602868898674,0.0,0.053632042450249884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529310201815889,0.0,0.054444999550722656,0.061107281692865764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190719321124008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732546520186089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203428432838176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402591295811715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832994795779634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05148291754869575,0.0,0.06378630058349276,0.0,0.0,0.15231854329970845,0.15354941946519546,0.08926813387651028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478112419990124,0.1275509324533495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08159596833924161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbbichenergi,2019/04/19,[Triggering] I'm excited and can't talk about it to anyone I'm gonna rent my own apartment when fall arrives and my plan is to not buy any food there so I'll never have to eat anymore. I'm super excited for this upcoming period in my life. Thanks for listening!,1.882363636363636,3.745970690909093,4.361818181818183,83.38272727272731,78.45454545454545,8.763636363636364,25.54545454545455,9.3871,2.4051090909090886,208,8,43,6,5,73,43,55,0.0,0.7909999999999999,0.209,0.8977,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,5,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,7,8,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564522570966543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739983872228991,0.263688733385295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858844850635543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4560109558206327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266368645899358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29085561263111426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031120821459616,0.0,0.3471983484537486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bellalinda,2019/04/19,"The urge to binge is a type of intrusive thought I’ve dealt with intrusive thoughts since I was a child. Random passing thoughts about distressing or absurd situations, sometimes violent and always scary. I learned as I got older that these were not intentional thoughts and that I would never act on them, so it became easier to dismiss them. When I first had a baby, they came back with a vengeance and were terribly disturbing. My amazing sister who happens to be a therapist helped me reframe these intrusive thoughts as “threat assessments” - my brain was presenting me with worst case scenarios, and I was calmed by the idea that I could look at the absurdity of the thought and dismiss it. 

It never occurred to me until last night that the urge to binge is another form of an intrusive thought. It’s distressing, it’s absurd, and it’s not an intentional thought. I recently read Brain over Binge and her main point seems to be “stop acting on the urge to binge” which sounds great but didn’t really click with me. Ok cool, but... how? Then yesterday I read a review of the same book where someone said to “dismiss” the urge, and that is the word I use for intrusive thoughts, so this connection became clear to me. I already know how to dismiss an intrusive thought. I’ve been doing it since I was 6. I still need to work on not restricting so that I can re-learn the difference between “hunger” and “urge to binge”, but I suppose this is a step in the right direction. 


 I don’t know how well I’ll be able to apply this today, but I woke up feeling encouraged and wanted to share with the people who have similar struggles. 💜",7.386355996944232,7.230961363636367,7.068739495798322,76.65273109243702,63.61038961038962,11.143162719633308,36.299465240641716,10.718039707386858,3.8172900687547737,1292,56,243,30,17,407,162,308,0.081,0.818,0.102,0.8104,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,3,2,12,16,2,4,22,2,22,3,2,6,3,58,45,26,0,4,8,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,21,16,1,2,16,3,0,5,7,8,1,1,23,6,28,8,37,17,4,31,0,0,2,0,12,10,0,3,16,167,49,7,0.0953849764849254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525969344881132,0.0,0.07936794156660908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001946461375294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334515915368707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21296235892577006,0.0,0.1090950022510778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761571421770362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965699876938536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822951010864538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113441227063972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628807927842553,0.10516227331317844,0.0,0.0,0.08434861969189714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393453910883408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767802815223916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484217708695057,0.07775148669843675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009935692714074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707267514449237,0.1471335483249017,0.0,0.0,0.08951233887558907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612793260605737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09016963392730756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082157802842464,0.0,0.06110605840815647,0.0,0.09418115694955903,0.0,0.0,0.08145824874346924,0.09073295557699336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683490018269811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15780687645895966,0.10721671004290667,0.0,0.0,0.08081938103972904,0.0,0.09433818073112454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617456543465853,0.07974611139791499,0.0,0.09971708772079872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074930949541867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7572501672376591,0.0,0.0,0.09041380463515272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238199414434401,0.0,0.0,0.05626053047033322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576254913510906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944139891061273,0.0,0.0,0.06775875056621875,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,banditoindisguise,2019/04/19,All hail the halo top gods For the past month I haven't binged so I was going to treat my self to some Halo top as I found $5. It is normally $10 a pint but the toasted coconut has been on sale recently. When I went to scan it it scanned at full price so I ended up getting it for free as they forgot to remove the sale tag from the shelf. So not only I got free Halo top but also $5,0.5918619582664526,1.4275660674157322,3.289919743178172,94.12101123595508,79.3370786516854,5.984590690208668,19.455858747993574,6.1826913282559595,-0.19557592295345166,296,6,75,2,7,105,60,89,0.0,0.8079999999999999,0.192,0.9313,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,3,5,3,0,0,6,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,11,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,6,2,8,5,12,5,3,15,0,0,2,0,2,7,0,1,5,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545319120939484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819054981753376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34898240584669565,0.0,0.0,0.16629045733515208,0.0,0.18088835399070796,0.0,0.2545611029193482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25405156389096256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31185112452017216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420696214230668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30383846536659675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31426743750881314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320400345430887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29505281875308736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plunkmonkey,2019/04/19,"Confusion and fear I don't know how to really start
I've been doing a lot of research on eating disorders, have heard a lot of stories and experiences.
I fear that I've been developing an eating disorders. I talked to my girlfriend who's been struggling with ED for her whole life.
Part of me is worried that I've been making it up just because of how much I hear about her experiences. 

When I was in elementary school I was always teased by classmates and my family about being overweight (I had a lot of baby fat) I started losing weight when I was going through puberty and felt more confident but late high school I started gaining weight again.
At one point a family member commented to me that I was getting fat and it just threw me for a loop. Not too long after that I went from eating 4-5 meals a day to 1-2 meals a day. I've only been able to comfortably eat the same meals over and over with little variation, changing that pattern just throws me off and it's almost impossible to keep it down or to finish it in under an hour, and the time that I'm able to eat it just feels like I binge. It makes me violently anxious to take a break from doing something like studying to eat physically pains me and it only makes it harder to eat. I don't know if it's ED or if I just have something else wrong with me but I feel like I'm at a point where I don't know who to ask or who to go to because I feel so guilty asking my girlfriend so I just resort to not worrying about it and just trying to make it through the day.

I'd like some input because I just feel lost right now",4.32921893147503,4.712857189024394,5.539233449477353,83.16825203252036,70.09756097560975,8.564692218350755,27.509291521486645,8.563005593585519,1.7676023228803714,1250,39,264,19,21,418,157,328,0.11599999999999999,0.807,0.077,-0.8649,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,21,15,2,4,14,0,19,17,2,6,0,52,48,23,0,2,17,0,7,4,2,0,5,2,0,0,21,13,15,1,8,0,0,5,5,10,0,1,15,9,32,5,46,32,9,39,0,2,0,0,14,17,0,11,20,179,53,3,0.1556576655072618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779343336511626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475982358882057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792442791511706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551890500900014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423312021965146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08233258531839535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057947552221132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839717021902934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5574682812745331,0.06501600298796746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226306523034666,0.14674019386277906,0.17515814910265254,0.15741038534002416,0.11120186734026002,0.07472788463429927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04066235284716176,0.0,0.08846383844008616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08771875094061335,0.0,0.0,0.08223043490364386,0.0,0.0,0.07664572283783715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06917784257028299,0.0,0.0,0.12831807324473773,0.0,0.08779431333143574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05497280624592079,0.15209294558892705,0.07800493678713206,0.0,0.06887606785642521,0.0,0.08707055600689509,0.08495936475375078,0.1985018712652193,0.0,0.0,0.2078054008553576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057213147174189766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05273883129988356,0.11838466882131635,0.08281536539057492,0.0,0.0,0.08428104150779714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714680690818502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04985914318313658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646539792208336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15753386765949776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11983287565297256,0.0,0.0,0.1652629452174712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136359444537587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058517596312985275,0.06255586766358125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538261826153577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284066862095843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18954910216860574,0.0,0.07214810769632507,0.0,0.08689311234157616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580779151255144,0.0,0.0,0.08509361084124434,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananamo7,2019/04/19,"How to dedicate a long weekend to beginning recovery? Hi guys,

I called in sick for my Friday shift. I don't have a cold or something like that. i have an eating disorder. My mental health is killing me. Every day has been intense binging, restricting, a combination of the two, or some other combination of ED behaviors. I'm just about ready to kill myself. But I'm going to commit this sick day to healing myself.

How can I make the most of this Friday through Sunday and start the recovery process?

my current situation: no therapy, no official diagnosis (though a suspected bulimia diagnosis from the doctor I briefly saw), I'm engaging in intense ED behavior every single day, it's having major impacts on my physical health (on top of my mental health of course), and, as you can see, it is affecting my ability to do my job.

thank you so much for any help.",5.119444444444444,6.724697055555558,6.7194444444444485,70.93250000000003,69.18518518518519,10.585185185185184,33.87037037037037,10.686352973137794,4.191088888888889,681,33,116,21,12,234,104,162,0.155,0.7240000000000001,0.121,-0.8796,2,0,1,0,0,1,26.0,0,2,0,1,6,5,2,0,9,0,11,8,0,4,1,15,21,10,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,6,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,3,17,3,21,19,5,15,0,0,2,0,6,5,0,4,10,81,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439155126649788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15675010342374482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29700229230207925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593489521565125,0.15712321791957798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707828217817507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25867632093589943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08724284206538767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519982881275728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895194499185615,0.0,0.0,0.1028940116889242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233423968783544,0.0,0.3396704725967449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499686349389566,0.0,0.0,0.13585085196484442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024686136552684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30940242820899994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284695873471885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232699407107107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255082417382292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817891727492788,0.0,0.0,0.10865463435385167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133068900459184,0.17555120114698464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082205468507093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14995622747581358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rustghoul,2019/04/19,"i’m certainly a far cry from even considering recovery just yet, but today has brought me the most effective encourager to date on why i should just get some help i was b/ping and, shoveling pretzels into my throat as fast as my grubby little hand-stubs could process them (as you do), sOMEHOW?? used the pure force of my ravenous rage to propel a bigass piece of salt from a pretzel iNTO MY EYELID
it’s STILL THERE
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
this has been a PSA to my own bitch self that purging leads to getting various seasonings implanted into ur eyeballs",4.778435814455231,7.1883972427184455,6.974304207119744,65.44413160733552,71.71844660194175,8.849622437971954,29.891046386192016,9.444778638647367,3.0529771305285878,448,19,77,11,9,158,82,103,0.10800000000000001,0.768,0.124,0.182,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,2,7,4,2,0,6,0,7,1,1,3,2,17,12,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,10,2,15,7,5,14,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,3,6,55,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659815794058039,0.0,0.3659336903442499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200328477160733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480990852720575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22329369517593975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338892764563753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475329677673529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26604243076456435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31577348978041186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287722100524401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30060296169213324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mladyisthename,2018/12/12,"Oh the ambivalence and the irony of it all That feeling of happiness and relief you get after finally getting back on track after spending too much time with your boyfriend (or normal people in general - and you gain like 7 lbs of food and water weight) all the while what's keeping you ""sane"" is telling yourself you have your whole life to lose the weight....but then you start to get depressed because you realize that you're going to try to lose weight for the rest of your life and you'll never be happy unless you lose weight but it also makes you miserable?",8.995000000000003,7.3287936851851905,7.9117777777777825,76.811,61.22222222222222,10.862222222222226,35.48888888888889,9.3871,3.0695755555555566,450,15,84,6,5,138,71,108,0.131,0.787,0.083,-0.6756,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,12,0,4,3,9,0,1,5,0,4,7,0,1,3,18,12,11,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,6,5,1,2,0,1,1,1,5,0,0,0,4,12,4,15,10,5,12,0,5,0,0,13,2,0,1,10,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599454831086012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191734627956546,0.0,0.08079695140128314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415904762953435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701769740981624,0.0,0.0,0.14519432181970798,0.0,0.0,0.16027145986689534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20774466080080412,0.0,0.07532721228630536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282188867359116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781026292069728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18723800907033647,0.06475378980636191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448449697777983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847344757187918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974343179937112,0.0,0.1022252931686246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986394834274825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188859202065712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938145813925818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158483793639973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772868593580266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998796192315378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6456064176958967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14797946901218165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shoqer,2018/12/12,"Anyone here binge just to purge? I went to the store to buy more food to give me enough ""motivation"" to purge. I was looking at food and thinking of how they would be like when coming up, not how they taste when I eat them. 
Also I enjoy purging things that would come up in chunks. Hard to purge, but damn how satisfying they are when I finally get rid of them. 
From anorexia to BED, to purging so that I can get rid of the guilt, to not caring about food anymore and eating just to purge. I honestly don't wanna see how my ED can surprise me more.",3.442767857142858,4.3977534553571465,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,72.48214285714286,7.028571428571429,23.82142857142857,7.1686216300943375,0.6862464285714287,425,11,94,4,8,136,69,112,0.09,0.789,0.12,0.5659,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,5,1,13,7,1,1,2,0,8,6,0,5,0,18,18,12,0,3,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,6,0,2,0,2,3,3,2,0,0,2,4,15,5,20,13,3,11,0,0,2,0,6,4,1,0,5,68,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743425670735365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043630679532287,0.12016665150735314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752200169206653,0.0,0.0,0.29607977085901643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517059363395044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757457775063404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826132112848792,0.0,0.0,0.6234317512333521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17957673922590156,0.16486122513639753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539504248986388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396081791793189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443168864229023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694805352073305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417438361978124,0.11011924738151536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931348058145595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441650541219101,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scarlettkat,2018/12/12,"I forgot how good it feels to be in control I have fallen back into restricting after a stint of me trying to ""eat intuitively~"", which didn't really work out. 
Damn. I forgot the high of actively restricting. It's so much easier to pull myself together when I am taking responsibility for what I am eating, which ultimately leads to what I can look like after some time passes. It's addicting to have that vision and purposefully take actions to get there. 

Restriction helps me a lot because if I can effect change in my appearance (which for me is primary aspect that I long for complete control over), then I can go out and be more effective and productive in everything else. Because for me nothing involves as much control as taking responsibility for and then ""fixing"" my appearance. 

Besides, the more I restrict, the more I lose, and so the more people want to have anything to do with me - which is what I long for forever :( 
The more I restrict, the more I lose, and so the more concerned but doting attention I receive from other people. I can restrict and make myself into a me that would get this kind of attention. that's addictive. 

I don't know quite where I going with this post, forgive me for that. but here it is. Feel free to comment or discuss whatever. 
Or ask me questions. Doesn't matter. 
Tbh I wanted to talk about this vague topic of control and restriction for a while, let's have a discussion, if anyone would so participate.",6.067482574825751,7.163689575645763,6.958419434194345,71.98977347273474,66.52767527675276,10.007462074620747,32.029725297252966,10.125756701596842,3.4066800328003275,1149,46,196,27,18,383,139,271,0.105,0.815,0.08,-0.585,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,11,11,8,1,0,12,0,22,4,0,9,0,54,41,25,0,6,6,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,20,14,2,13,9,0,1,10,3,3,0,0,3,3,31,6,38,33,11,31,0,2,1,0,10,10,1,9,11,161,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25266456657841874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102982513422327,0.0,0.09536387954272674,0.0,0.10833728448342947,0.0,0.0,0.0891087842865786,0.0,0.14128543130785315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225914765829712,0.0,0.12150372553484233,0.0,0.5199016985970462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371595626804533,0.0968074520798145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415040100101836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719036572034212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109076515923735,0.0,0.13172078268438048,0.097199246129193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767559740341122,0.12243937677789984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067689901915547,0.0636876315354393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11850075923694277,0.0,0.056615794054976035,0.0,0.0,0.2051100139050668,0.09731462035494737,0.2592924292734598,0.0,0.09852169469629206,0.0,0.0,0.07735446067391577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037832991443022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119524768945996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606808070199505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098626030751424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12981826411899186,0.12325847724003015,0.0,0.0,0.07423920869659416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613943863302547,0.09314436266212986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757375785501953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867863695551225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367045223264032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843660128014458,0.0,0.0,0.16464344634065042,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,penny_del,2018/12/12,"Waking up to binge in the middle of the night. So this really weird thing has been happening. Every night at 12pm I wake up and go to the kitchen on autopilot and it a bunch of sweet chunk food. 
I’m not heavily restricting too much atm. I’m doing Keto and IF. Does this happen to anyone else. Why?
What can I do about it? At this point I think it is just a habit almost",0.010281293952179029,2.115042405063292,2.3219409282700454,94.04960618846698,86.9746835443038,6.042756680731365,15.106891701828413,7.3871296695380915,-0.09368466947960608,286,5,66,5,9,97,59,79,0.03,0.897,0.073,0.5085,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,6,4,2,0,0,9,12,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,3,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,1,12,11,2,11,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,2,2,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453204302799563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17130154098071562,0.2510195018881069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21439094401487416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046563187347297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20641323956559388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29624086866852706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13923251725919347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4332847533497292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009461587580178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598099152438504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315931650010271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694580149777868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275936467610655,0.1569786336847035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210638679832432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girlyboyKal,2018/12/12,"I’ve Spent almost $3,000 in food deliveries this year... https://streamable.com/yvkh1

It’s utterly ridiculous. There’s like 3 normal shops right next to my place but I’m a known face now & worry what the cashiers will think.

I break up these weekly binges with fasting while running 10+ miles a day thinking “I’ll be healthy/financially responsible from now on!” :D

Also have crippling alcoholism which doesn’t help I guess. The two go together for me, anybody else here with co-morbid addictions? I used to use synthetic ‘weed’/spice which was great (0 cal!) but fucked me up on a different level.

Anyway, just venting. I need to be locked in a cage I don’t think I’m fit to be among human beings :( x",3.1869924812030064,5.8862222481203,3.55259398496241,86.51280075187971,78.3984962406015,6.807518796992482,24.53759398496241,7.957251820313856,1.5124977443609025,561,20,106,10,14,174,104,133,0.11199999999999999,0.721,0.16699999999999998,0.828,1,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,2,0,6,0,9,5,1,2,0,15,21,4,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,2,2,0,4,1,2,2,2,2,0,1,2,0,8,2,15,14,0,23,0,0,0,1,2,12,1,2,9,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086687114156979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20456256672206505,0.1916727343043325,0.0,0.0,0.15307311806272167,0.0,0.20739619156917086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344572005385113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999861206404061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990122045595334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314576786188953,0.0,0.0,0.1769584781730152,0.0,0.0,0.10878456904991504,0.0,0.0,0.21103379930491534,0.21086329041493204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830027603877553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935148521315253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193050986514036,0.0,0.0,0.2035701777969817,0.0,0.18754435783301446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999861206404061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346588158916234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679496719213564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18698294549002686,0.0,0.0,0.33063920493277404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354017450832375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19438946100993287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326386628371552
EDAnonymous,ayvyns,2018/12/12,"I'm pretty sure a classmate thinks that I have an eating disorder She's one of those types who prides herself on observing (read, judging) others and deducing what kind of person they are.

I've been recovered for about 5 years. I skip lunch sometimes because I forget/am too lazy to pack lunch, and then feel too stingy to buy the overpriced cafeteria food. She's taken to offering me her food often. It's very sweet, though I can't help but think she feels a need to ""save"" me from not eating lunch.

I know I'm the only one in the group that doesn't always have lunch, but is it really that weird to skip it?",5.774494773519166,5.508930723577241,5.940905923344951,83.7658536585366,66.96747967479675,9.304994192799072,27.32752613240418,8.841846274778883,1.7709916376306625,481,12,100,7,7,153,86,123,0.084,0.8640000000000001,0.052000000000000005,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,0,0,6,0,7,9,0,1,1,15,16,6,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,2,9,0,6,1,1,0,3,1,0,2,2,3,13,5,12,14,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,1,2,60,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160087854263366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172820610663242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205010653545929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3937357455086118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945611447913536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652890193824722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289581533453368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20034953793955035,0.10573512954259948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426582780697912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607433396595442,0.14632488600969107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799168501571707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19573463994381105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19244682658225776,0.0,0.1232530109760238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028333896855254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813297861237798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465575896379213,0.18902687665379245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874582771701454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389591870675593
EDAnonymous,itchycroty,2019/08/30,"i feel like an obsesive PE-teacher so to keep this short and sweet: I time myself on how long I take 1. to eat 2. between eating.

it's becoming a bit too much of an obsession and I feel like it's gonna fuck up my chances at recovery(if I man up and actually take the first steps towards recovery).

I think what my unconscious is trying to do is make me eat less often (I haven't been very conscious in the decision making in my life recently) I don't really know, but I'd like to know if any one else has this behaviour, and if you do.. any tips on how to manage it?",0.7000137741046863,2.597602851239671,3.2631611570247934,89.62686294765842,82.4710743801653,7.339118457300277,22.480027548209367,8.344100000000001,1.3154787878787877,439,15,100,10,12,153,82,121,0.035,0.875,0.09,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,5,6,1,1,5,0,8,5,0,4,0,20,20,10,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,4,3,1,7,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,1,3,14,4,15,18,3,14,0,0,0,1,2,9,1,3,7,64,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.1680354191642827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23419413661257615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19017351583403114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879900356803872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5285889360154123,0.14384506227193544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17413179556482136,0.2460292665988028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646718221849034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15918954989687564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305295027444427,0.0,0.0,0.1892654155718153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162492885283913,0.2523742412319268,0.0,0.0,0.15238528692216155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298801791307865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12658158514554996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11668235701731515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031117304044284,0.0,0.17001970298946906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589352435954321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103342495230158,0.0,0.0,0.10040705749171076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690766763498467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420771657590287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,714seven714,2019/08/30,"Meal planning My mum's getting really angry that my meals consist mostly of fruits and vegetables. She doesn't know that I have an ed (undiagnosed but I fit the criteria). My family has decided to plan out meals for every week of the day and they do not incorporate any safe foods (not one!). They're suggesting heavy things like pizza, pasta basically bready carby and calorie dense madness. It's extremely anxiety inducing and I feel like I'm gonna relapse into self harm. I've only purged once and it barely even worked so I've resorted to exercising if I ever do eat too much. I don't know what to do and I'm extremely overwhelmed. Does anybody have any advice?",3.5528645833333314,5.955391890625003,5.255937500000002,76.37864583333338,75.40625,8.954166666666666,27.072916666666664,9.516144504307137,2.9025291666666666,534,21,94,15,12,181,91,128,0.127,0.7859999999999999,0.087,-0.7428,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,3,4,6,1,1,3,0,8,10,0,1,1,20,15,9,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,8,9,1,5,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,2,10,3,8,14,2,6,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,2,5,52,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244104575164188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31233854668215233,0.0,0.17568094455226227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810468090800716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20096748829135047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349883768161105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168107471853431,0.2077307723601815,0.1934892842428093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164927475645936,0.0,0.11611749282998347,0.16406137378637378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776926216689043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998218427536032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25241829574361746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22438991532565408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16881852343933154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24456881275381176,0.1556161838266928,0.17465850049658566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711910370007594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395741117666909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256866779122796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842106679939578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16718729097481952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Trowawaysadness,2019/08/30,"Being hungry and touch starved fucks me up mentally. Anyone else? I'm kind of fine with either of them, but together just really makes me feel miserable and lonely. Like I'm cold inside and out.",2.92608108108108,5.63237937837838,4.282364864864864,80.83543918918923,79.54054054054055,8.024324324324324,20.06081081081081,8.841846274778883,1.7794378378378384,155,4,27,4,4,51,31,37,0.262,0.639,0.099,-0.8124,0,2,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,10,6,4,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,3,5,5,1,2,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27338503950884474,0.4006092183893204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3266168854215234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976932117861641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361458322988372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071495742648801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910149882331053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260984794827011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39401981916514944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504743033692135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TrashAtCoping,2019/08/30,"My Mom Hates me and my Ed So my mom is the most supportive person when it comes to my ed and depression. She always says she loves me and that she wouldn’t have a reason to live if I had killed myself. Then I stumbled upon her unlocked phone which showed her notes and this is what I read. I feel so lost, guilty, upset. I am so shocked and feel so worthless. My ed keeps whispering to starve until I disappear because it’s what my mom truly wants. I don’t know what to do


[read](https://share.icloud.com/photos/0GJzKuGTW54mroQmA9IjdBZuQ#Cambridge_-_Fiddlesticks)",5.446061606160615,8.109359722772282,4.792607260726077,80.6899889988999,70.5841584158416,6.865126512651265,22.113311331133108,7.793537801064563,0.8762070407040703,456,11,83,6,9,137,65,101,0.268,0.654,0.078,-0.9685,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,5,9,2,1,2,0,8,1,0,1,0,15,18,13,1,3,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,8,6,0,1,4,2,0,2,2,7,0,0,2,4,21,2,6,15,1,6,0,3,0,1,12,1,0,2,3,58,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170885929277442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114352042351776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15705669171999387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703610373523316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843778185097898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000801686044274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620586808776373,0.2017154040695183,0.0,0.10020095505616544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16099615992451605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19902908313751647,0.0,0.16455527208299556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6406098907989181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919900370753862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36474832734377904,0.0,0.0,0.18746028521329436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499201801558534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069000496114388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753990505974627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chspqueen,2019/08/30,Scared to eat high carb veggies Anyone else feel guilty over eating tomatoes and carrots? I try to reason with myself but I just can’t get over the carbs,3.0380000000000003,5.543852133333335,2.8633333333333333,92.345,77.66666666666666,4.0,20.0,3.1291,-0.4129999999999998,124,3,23,0,3,37,27,30,0.133,0.867,0.0,-0.431,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,6,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148648472707375,0.31485570197664764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6288703342222627,0.2567020028902099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537544348882146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605467413926789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246695639257461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31594608491378845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3076516623801929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20863025787002387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slim_eggo,2019/08/30,"i told someone about my ed for the first time and they were a random university counselor I had never met before in a dimly lit, windowless room

i cried my eyes out and was so scared about being invalidated or brushed off due to not appearing sick enough BUT they actually listened to me and were so kind and then proceeded to try and schedule me for three different appointments next week

like i feel validated and more assured that I’m not over exaggerating my issues in my own head or anything but it all just seems like a lot and now I’m stressed",7.074984423676014,6.993682121495329,7.465934579439256,73.29865264797509,64.23364485981308,10.871651090342679,34.65576323987539,10.504223727775694,3.4993501557632403,445,18,85,10,6,146,77,107,0.066,0.804,0.129,0.5952,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,1,6,6,0,2,4,0,5,3,2,0,3,23,13,14,0,0,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,2,6,5,12,4,12,6,5,17,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,6,12,61,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.2207182002572055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18612614899793592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19246177735700706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484471493713781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23630904691022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337034986625567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11436296203435332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923878490427269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23212503596844575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360722443754747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355307543605621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22099939244169767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19228940469389472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744432854818088,0.0,0.2405440664607268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264447624062487,0.0,0.0,0.2059049816280559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164083949153896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25908742466802864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188686726234444,0.0,0.0,0.2161238475986232,0.0,0.15356077977485208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814272519728056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,word-flux,2019/08/30,"I'm pet-sitting my childhood dog who's newly diabetic She's 12 and only developed diabetes in December.
Since then she's lost so much weight. I'm pet-sitting for another 2 weeks (been here 3 already) and this is fucking with me like nothing else - anyone else here have comorbid OCD? I now have to track my own intake and loss parallel to the dog's. I'm so worried about her and that she'll die because she looks so underweight and if she has any issues it will be catastrophic without that protective padding of fat, particularly with her diabetes. I'm putting olive oil in her food (with my mum's permission) to try get some weight on her but I'm so anxious I can hardly function and I can't tell my mum because she's on holiday and doesn't know how bad I am lately. But I can barely eat here. I feel like I'm spiralling so much. 

Anyone have any experience with diabetic dogs? She hates the injections but comes and waits while I prepare them and knows she gets a treat afterwards. It feels so weird trying so hard to put weight on her while I'm simultaneously trying to lose even more.",4.234660138248849,5.5912415760368654,5.4689602534562205,80.00915466589863,71.02764976958525,8.927304147465438,29.69153225806452,9.354420925462401,2.586935714285715,870,35,172,19,16,290,128,217,0.12,0.805,0.076,-0.7555,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,3,14,10,2,0,3,0,14,11,1,1,0,26,33,24,1,1,5,2,7,2,0,2,5,0,0,0,6,14,6,2,4,1,0,3,3,7,0,0,2,9,26,3,18,28,5,16,0,3,1,1,18,5,1,2,10,100,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382301905664744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17036547620742326,0.13134856468719788,0.0,0.14151087520601593,0.0,0.17517278710004433,0.12834614770673508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458888489054073,0.15271761192765734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790247962876516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13000261110621453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817472305211855,0.2092813499817464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273464418842244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12253067852257495,0.0,0.0,0.12667288217949949,0.0894874948009636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15146781027336467,0.0,0.0,0.11580308485814685,0.13088888436994575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244210408332832,0.123670702340572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074141778804976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768189554134494,0.0,0.1413014609504966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239377811891088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518888103806986,0.14013660227741667,0.13673872379195004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416457682787327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019266620517295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526771167650948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518466509692386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361836468880774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948487248169862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551348734475164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100477954157912,0.4576076292749266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120748498730038,0.0,0.0,0.12721006352040054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b-elli-mia,2019/08/30,"TW: Weight loss hindering recovery Hi I'm going to not post my height and weight or the amount of weight I've lost because I don't want to be triggering to people. Please if anyone finds something I say triggering let me know and I'll modify the post. 

I have a history of anorexia from when I was younger and it progressed to bulimia as I suddenly thought ""holy shit I can eat but stay skinny."" I now know years later that's not how it works and I'm also aware of the potential health problems associated with engaging in bulimic behaviours. 

I'm going on a holiday overseas to Europe in a month and of course I want to look good and I've been doing really well at eating healthy and exercising regularly without engaging in binge purge behaviours like I used to. Now though I have found I am becoming addicted to the number on the scale and have purposely skipped some meals and started down a scary road again. 

If anyone has any advice on how to not get focused on the scales I would love that. I can't throw them out because they belong to my housemate but it's hard not to weigh when they're right there. I so want to get better and it's hard because eating disorders are fucking addictive. Honestly quitting smoking was easier than quitting bulimia. If anyone has any tips for keeping myself away from these behaviours please let me know.",4.721525096525099,6.478165814671817,5.5886853281853295,78.05986196911199,70.3899613899614,9.504324324324324,30.71061776061776,9.888512548439397,3.21108942084942,1082,46,196,28,20,354,153,259,0.085,0.743,0.172,0.9836,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,7,12,13,2,0,10,0,18,16,2,5,0,41,40,24,0,8,11,0,5,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,7,12,9,1,6,2,0,3,7,5,1,0,6,7,21,8,34,30,2,30,0,2,1,2,5,14,2,5,11,123,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22653427185882544,0.0,0.10153059435509944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830893791077727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413121234883928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179494262001964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761815940393492,0.0,0.0,0.1900107684607866,0.11475019717601807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189175545033038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907924222317008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189491679049874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09496338817407776,0.0,0.0,0.11392179150658295,0.0,0.09605455396307716,0.10856768990463933,0.0,0.11809836257677073,0.0871470057922409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861492982123612,0.0,0.0,0.11044162118105247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235174595862908,0.0,0.0,0.17130337781434954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249107915673787,0.0,0.050760650199728856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725044814102956,0.0,0.11341992434316532,0.0,0.09377446861384976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829325742748805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203168634383023,0.0,0.0,0.2281036093381515,0.0,0.0,0.19901636391340607,0.0,0.0,0.09941896993805792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22102243911855915,0.0,0.0,0.06656147046340459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873065877565034,0.0,0.08262603361503759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066526099289654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998786084252152,0.0,0.0,0.07354147400396589,0.11074435756664933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208194321215053,0.08248557664008926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973687409730205,0.0,0.0,0.18385003392675228,0.0,0.0,0.3795693074493425,0.09341923746730936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10015659946738484,0.0,0.07564097149995982,0.0,0.0,0.07380810007946044,0.0,0.0,0.06690866590788865
EDAnonymous,insanityloui,2019/08/30,"weird/unusual safe-foods?? ok so I saw another post discussing fear-food and it got me wondering if everyone have some ‘unusual’ safe-foods? like I always see people hating on bread but it is literally my no.1 safe-food and it makes up for roughly 50% of my daily intake. 


(ps sorry for my broken english, it’s not my default language)",1.8515625,4.5714260312500015,3.939375000000002,81.06812500000002,85.5625,6.95,25.1875,8.07648339933343,2.15556875,262,11,46,6,8,89,50,64,0.132,0.8140000000000001,0.053,-0.7131,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,8,8,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,7,2,5,6,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,3,1,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243549136027447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949717866747675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356984690671947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262511577856906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8279662489729374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690830129233952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16900483234684033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362991217725478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426399400839815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867467377213113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16394314267475274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364083148877809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162202006300408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18563743195231827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,baewantsblood,2019/08/30,"Rant/what's wrong with me My family says I've drastically slimmed down
My scale says I drop a kilogram every other day
My thighs are looking more and more unrecognisable  (not much to go on anyways imo)
My body knows it's rarely being fed and reacts appropriately 

But I still hate my body/self like I did in the beginning. I know it's naive to think my insecurities would go but the cognitive dissonance just caught me by surprise. I know I still have a ways to go until I'm not completely humiliated by my body, so this is what I may have to live with. 

I can't stand this body and I can't stand being in it any longer.",2.1082808398950164,4.18218286614173,3.868208661417324,86.17953083989502,78.60629921259844,7.382939632545932,21.606955380577435,8.344100000000001,1.092879790026247,492,14,107,10,12,165,78,127,0.081,0.856,0.063,-0.0312,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,1,4,0,11,5,4,1,0,17,24,7,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,7,5,1,0,4,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,3,3,18,2,13,17,3,17,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,1,6,68,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937005312974923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.584940585966969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840454682473759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320577505756575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789609790690042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547909986460618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299282343241062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733048107823648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894089028770984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08575770233528407,0.0,0.1550009245090295,0.0,0.14740547906414567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903867502941374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791855016837992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831216463922704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803655045723418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247596048385562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393317853900971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469527186200301,0.19192034241696526,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onlineloli,2019/08/30,"gaining weight after starting exercise?? i'm still eating the same amount i used to (800-850 calories a day w/ 16/8 intermittent fasting) and i was losing at a decent rate before.  i started adding exercise into my weekly routine to lose weight faster and now i do about 1.5 hours of pure cardio each time i'm at the gym, which is an about 4 times a week on average.  

according to the machines i burn around 500 calories from my exercise routine (which i know is probably an overestimate but still). but instead of losing weight like i was before, i'm gaining weight instead??  i know how to calorie count and i am literally eating around the same amount that i used to eat to lose weight, not eating more to make up for the calories i burn from the exercise.  does anyone know if this will stop eventually or am i doing something wrong?",5.40746140651801,6.63316632704403,5.9290337335620364,78.29948542024017,68.1194968553459,8.54911377930246,30.806746712407087,8.841846274778883,2.5540012578616356,662,26,119,11,11,214,92,159,0.11800000000000001,0.826,0.055999999999999994,-0.8645,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,6,10,6,0,0,11,0,9,14,0,4,1,23,20,8,0,1,5,0,5,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,4,7,9,1,3,5,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,5,14,1,22,17,6,22,0,4,0,0,0,7,0,2,16,78,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695474330604251,0.0,0.0,0.17708781918590905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692728124412837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414595157426567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704148101805079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071053783674593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979518518406304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398818399216486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048593010544931405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4450984026708604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639288887434933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723884764509813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657212723031502,0.0,0.0,0.1408020428305547,0.0,0.1588639101693079,0.08315622810042207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599633575115435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17180965382128507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956779375451474,0.6056008373561225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874810039094718,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fatherisssues,2019/08/30,"Can anyone help me with this girls name who used to make YouTube vids... So I used to watch this girls YouTube videos a few years ago. She was bulimic & she had white bleached hair. She was really tiny and one video she dyed her hair and a load of her hair fell out. I think her name began with an A, but I’m not sure. 

Can anyone help? I just randomly thought of her and wanted to know how she was doing",0.6361045751633974,2.7181118000000017,1.4203921568627464,101.70065359477124,83.94117647058823,5.189542483660131,16.50326797385621,6.42735559955562,-0.6596535947712416,313,6,77,3,9,96,55,85,0.028999999999999998,0.9059999999999999,0.064,0.451,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,7,3,3,4,1,21,16,6,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,6,5,13,1,8,10,1,5,0,0,2,0,16,1,0,1,3,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458055423677496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004493294237869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38778262655267387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.371730373726563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239423875604968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850967584220254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18790246406288866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764246247520518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613475279187837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767962428825218,0.0,0.22014148502156194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4789881947766336,0.0,0.0,0.16355594573217092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785690744218603
EDAnonymous,Cattynest,2019/08/30,"""1200 calories OMAD is easy"" Why does it seem like people on dieting subreddits frequently give this advice? Is the experience different for someone who's overweight or obese, barring emotional/stress eating problems? I would think that with a significantly higher metabolic rate and other caloric deficit, it'd actually be more taxing on the body and/or mind - I could barely do it at a low-normal weight (and I'm only 5'1"", so TDEE is nowhere near 2000), and the only reason I couldn't stop doing that back then was due to guilt. And even 1500 calories hardly felt like enough after a 23-hr fast. But it was never as easy as some people make it out to be - by hour 21 I'd be completely exhausted and struggling to walk, and now that I'm underweight (barely) with some sort of AN-induced hypoglycemia, there's no way I can be water fasting past 2 PM even if my last bite the night before was 10 pm or so. Somebody pls enlighten me",7.111525423728813,7.1100261694915305,7.179666666666666,75.11356779661018,64.14124293785311,10.243841807909604,32.954237288135594,9.888512548439397,3.1178298305084744,740,27,134,14,10,238,128,177,0.102,0.8,0.098,-0.1498,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,7,0,17,9,1,2,1,29,24,15,0,5,4,0,3,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,9,7,1,5,1,1,1,3,4,0,0,4,3,6,2,16,12,4,21,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,7,16,80,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.1611839629114024,0.0,0.0,0.1614040839169615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700700734392695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14054913435876334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18346876245732666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731796105722712,0.0,0.0,0.13187633413547628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725694963461098,0.0,0.0,0.14454305607565052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901210447540346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066674164973294,0.0,0.218188984447786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156982708266687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15859094101845075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844795169905204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796159295920833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16266106513488546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346371560993903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138930923346986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025353598474896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667765491436005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273907635368422,0.0,0.0,0.15500265337378452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512413689001016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767528266133712,0.22901881784829506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580472159031956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982423818125633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036630818543514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13994962775574654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380911170257574,0.18920387081735,0.17267354844690969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058354939180308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13110577817522714,0.0,0.2011348951548141,0.0,0.0,0.14904196263059152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173333895526279,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,p34chesncr34m,2019/02/18,"Scale :( So I’m babysitting my friends kid earlier and went to use the bathroom. I try in earnest not to weigh myself or know my weight (I communicate with doctors not to tell me anything about numbers). It’s been a few years since I’ve known a number. I’ve been in recovery a few years now... but my usual resolve failed me when I saw a scale in her bathroom and well. I did it. 

Sometimes I see my body differently than it actually is and I’ve been struggling with that a lot recently so I wanted to know if the mirror struggle was true. 

It wasn’t. It was a 10 pound difference between where I thought I was and where I actually am, which is frustrating. I can’t unsee that number but it’s showing me how much my mind lies. 

I’ve been very stressed and anxious due to unemployment, which is probably why the difference between what I thought and what I do weigh. I realized getting dressed this morning that my clothes don’t fit right because they’re too big. I thought it was because I don’t wash my jeans often and they’d stretched out or something. 

I don’t go to irl EDA meetings in my area as they’re all pretty unhealthy. Anyway. I’m frustrated with things right now. I’m mad at myself for stepping on it. ",2.6079955290611068,4.617134926229512,3.72725782414307,88.09412071535023,76.78688524590164,6.731445603576751,29.533532041728762,7.686295010490155,1.841531147540984,958,45,197,14,22,310,133,244,0.174,0.731,0.095,-0.9758,3,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,13,11,3,3,9,0,20,6,1,2,2,34,35,17,0,2,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,17,11,3,0,8,1,0,3,7,7,1,0,15,3,31,4,22,19,5,26,0,1,2,0,6,15,0,5,8,129,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.26400591087029146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15281537948543086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11131479743337457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491735908535735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025327853310014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239816999938572,0.0,0.1384534738583349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450843385709978,0.0,0.07067242890802082,0.0,0.07687644584398437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14868052426920209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500080051794573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365830507364496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994382221675667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376171240834603,0.1458427769161107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356174185439867,0.0,0.0,0.23103784117694626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077918177850492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118958503968518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041366250652111,0.13378442301969468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495009352380748,0.2828248953401735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182310003513674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986666139800634,0.0,0.0,0.3221652439775109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09183871898912098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682891771281192,0.14897960731706855,0.11161102744478604,0.0797851150978599,0.0,0.0,0.16472110576017746,0.12162300633547535,0.12539564621806354,0.1220591626842354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742175020527434
EDAnonymous,ShrinkingSkye,2019/02/18,"I suck I've been such a fuck up lately that being sick and unable to really eat or drink for 3 days didn't even bring me back to my recent low weight. I feel like trash, mentally AND physically",2.979674796747968,3.976156073170735,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,73.6341463414634,8.393495934959349,18.54471544715447,8.841846274778883,0.7468959349593498,153,2,34,3,3,52,37,41,0.266,0.677,0.055999999999999994,-0.8519,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,4,1,4,4,0,7,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,5,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23768730024548995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19935104094146924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028111276407361,0.0,0.31629775129480864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416491869721728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629582350303226,0.22082898016515606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857681644355098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34869070351055115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101603447875514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31151121253240177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19802443977582945,0.0,0.3052098487158592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3764139571059141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,suicuned,2019/02/18,"Body dysmorphia is a trip Trying on old clothes that are literally hanging off my body like a potato sack, yet my body still looks exactly the same to me as when I was overweight when I look in the mirror. Y tho.",7.61232558139535,5.658743837209308,7.888023255813953,76.80319767441863,64.11627906976744,11.390697674418604,35.45348837209303,10.125756701596842,3.2179395348837208,167,6,35,3,2,55,36,43,0.061,0.878,0.061,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,4,0,3,4,3,0,1,2,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,5,4,1,10,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,6,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8237738167958895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077286388941387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151832750827614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594021845680494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974198468530489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678373406333515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,queerjihad,2019/02/18,"No, you don't know what it's like to be bulimic I'm a fat (formerly?) bulimic dude. I haven't binged for 4 months and I've lost 24kg.

I meet up with a social worker on a weekly basis. He knows that I've been bulimic since I was 13 and that I've been in inpatient treatment for it several times. Today he asked me if I still had urges to binge, and then he fucking told me that he knows exactly what it's like to have urges like that because he's fat too.

It made me so mad but I didn't say anything. I really wish I did though. He's not even the first person to say something like that to me.",0.9836363636363644,2.2239791818181835,3.3036363636363646,92.75045454545456,79.15151515151516,7.2242424242424255,21.090909090909093,8.00094639256281,0.6839,460,12,113,8,11,159,78,132,0.049,0.847,0.105,0.7705,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,5,7,2,0,4,0,10,3,2,1,1,13,20,8,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,1,11,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,9,2,12,4,11,10,0,11,0,1,0,1,14,3,1,1,12,62,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16072784816606822,0.0,0.18259343783696605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11906239270158775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129003912149364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16613509255101375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18056584556818855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220205392409069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3816847550373636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132097198762271,0.0,0.0,0.18481205732605094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589880730534264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054178439643633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512398111917308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106451284210801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22065069225028566,0.0,0.16156683269142846,0.0,0.0,0.19909934949466893,0.0,0.15036325850591464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559790491401617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19189628844074508,0.0,0.11388992084436007,0.0,0.1851360647174617,0.18663213712267365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566701506761174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460295339208505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BohemianBougie,2019/02/18,Bento box recommendations? Does anyone have any amazon bento box style lunch box recommendations? I want to get some containers that are cute and fun to eat out of.,5.00436781609195,8.104656103448278,5.6765517241379335,71.58195402298853,74.17241379310346,8.004597701149425,20.011494252873558,8.841846274778883,1.6040252873563223,133,3,22,3,3,43,24,29,0.0,0.713,0.287,0.8253,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696128312103847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3800424313211891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4756387779712391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5561575423793079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839672227197188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32058269255467803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugahoodie,2019/02/18,"DAE pick apart food to make it look like you're eating? In the middle of a 24hr fast and my coworkers are giving me brownies and dried fruits so im just picking off pieces and pretending im eating it, i feel bad about it but im just going to finish them at home when my fast is done and i can try them",0.016460554371001024,1.90686356716418,2.0562899786780378,97.36776119402988,84.97014925373135,5.0226012793177,15.541577825159914,6.1826913282559595,-0.7046571428571431,237,4,57,2,7,79,50,67,0.036000000000000004,0.89,0.07400000000000001,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,3,0,11,9,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,7,1,7,8,1,10,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,5,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17700639383186825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694378197022005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338462071107878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071906928463209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256344361125536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20336425927147467,0.12048125177706115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126475778776285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6869706995803488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356971161399976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802182825875112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150784807989095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393022080997886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SoFluffyle,2019/02/18,"I'm so not doing ok Last week I set new rules and it worked out ok. Until I broke one of them and ended up in a 3 day binge where I found out: I can totally finish one whole damn cake on my own. Then I saw the movie Burlesque and some pictures on instagram  and kind of feel like dying. I'm ready to bite the dust now. Sorry for the useless rambling but as y'all know, peach is still down 😑",2.221666666666668,2.7144456627907014,3.720930232558139,93.91457364341088,74.93023255813954,6.663565891472868,21.310077519379846,6.42735559955562,0.062696124031008,301,6,74,2,6,100,69,86,0.124,0.833,0.044000000000000004,-0.5349,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,1,4,7,1,0,4,2,3,0,0,0,1,13,9,9,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,2,8,4,13,7,4,19,0,2,1,0,2,8,1,1,11,46,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174777785583334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812635906017245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24003271107348456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137029823364725,0.1936082197695873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971463612257342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822132016595835,0.14893894811532393,0.22090774848492026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324008541371137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617412833206409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672841647328104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033713472524861,0.0,0.0,0.21642739523752386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173863272613826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302570832542136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972971030699928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,halconpequena,2019/02/18,"Purged for the first time in over a year last night I’m not okay, I’ve never been this upset over someone. I’m sorta in a breakup Idk, i just wanna write this here. I am not even numb this time I just wanna bawl my eyes out. And the worst loneliness is the person you care for sitting as far from u as they can. This is killing me.",-0.6833333333333336,1.4069228888888932,0.9688888888888912,102.365,90.94444444444444,3.7555555555555564,14.944444444444445,5.033348758259628,-1.2292055555555557,256,5,63,1,9,82,51,72,0.221,0.711,0.068,-0.8972,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,4,6,1,1,5,1,5,2,1,0,1,11,8,3,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,1,1,7,2,12,7,1,14,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,1,7,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433387176424233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22241997193152133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864390855003955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37256360092775853,0.0,0.0,0.27449591514765515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597220947877878,0.0,0.0,0.31601674025811083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29403681071848753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285326890869773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927228651508867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685573779537465
EDAnonymous,olivegreenblack,2019/02/18,"I just stopped a binge/purge right in its tracks and... I think I'm ok. About 6 months ago I was going through one of the worst phases of my eating disorder where I was binging massive amounts of food and purging multiple times day. That period of time was one of the most painful months of my life. 


I've been ""recovering"" since then (not by active choice actually, I had a big medical procedure that broke me out of the habit, but all the same) and I've only had a few small binges/purges. There's still the issue of restricting but what can you do :/


Anyway, today I was feeling particularly on edge and anxious, so I got drunk and then ordered a bunch of food from McDonald's knowing full well I planned to purge it back up.


So I got the food, I took a few bites ravenously as if my body hadn't eaten for days (that jerk) and then just. Stopped. Mid chew. I just spit out what was in my mouth, threw everything away, brushed my teeth and watched a movie. Heck, I'm even a little proud of myself, I'm not even anxious about what I did eat. 


It's gonna be okay. Maybe eventually I'm gonna be okay too. ",2.409985964912281,4.070281048888892,3.39819883040936,91.79126315789476,76.28888888888889,6.870175438596492,24.28654970760234,7.669130373188453,0.9461111111111112,856,28,193,12,19,274,137,225,0.125,0.8,0.075,-0.8736,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,2,16,9,1,0,13,3,14,15,4,0,1,26,29,16,0,1,8,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,9,9,8,3,3,1,0,3,3,4,1,2,15,3,20,5,25,10,9,34,0,1,1,0,1,14,1,2,16,120,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.13024171048457608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183078730792052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015528909473638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539391658311982,0.10262565568692804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824852926630838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214660831571385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296142292876933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731341900505814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17630356041681572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994892847388873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06748345978754673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4841559633516226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585072447574592,0.0,0.2134868680464564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139301846741979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334837971138576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426964178231834,0.0,0.13376609182510096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13408262859546036,0.0,0.0,0.13445104096942118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21305954474344596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18087745829883148,0.1015054631955596,0.14201521374980947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1139776133131094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040288381249394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658460373666873,0.2231639297024395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551840709761557,0.0,0.0,0.15564798156820076,0.0,0.12650836252723452,0.0,0.14828352737536826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12000025550330405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annaeatk,2019/02/18,"I’ve found my new thinspo So not like I was really even looking, because I’ve been “recovered” for like two years (personally don’t know if I’ll ever fully recover), but I just found the Australian show Love Island on Hulu and man does it make me want to lose a solid 50 lbs. all the girls on that show are so pretty and thin and always wearing bikinis! I’ve never been confident enough to just flaunt around in a bikini like I just want to be that thin and pretty so I can be that confident. 

I know that’s not really how it works, but I feel like it makes it easier to be confident when you’re not carrying unnecessary fat.",3.110859375000004,4.534303367187501,4.889500000000002,82.80550000000002,73.921875,8.557500000000001,23.7375,9.120678840339163,1.7664100000000005,493,14,101,11,10,168,80,128,0.159,0.665,0.17600000000000002,0.6717,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,11,6,0,0,4,0,9,3,2,3,3,27,20,12,0,3,9,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,8,5,1,0,5,2,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,4,8,5,9,12,2,11,0,1,1,1,4,6,0,1,9,62,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14834455793573276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587084057333634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867879754358613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15601541369193006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421253171789215,0.0,0.1177533033957274,0.16126589759301252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014452454357166,0.1273643976932219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909531048763161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595778983295065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483975021579231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14971162738699748,0.19945148742330832,0.0,0.0,0.16090608819381474,0.0,0.2380086805229297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375017466306316,0.17218546268984902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566860062686325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36275292424628375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284234929828815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741552001366403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103101921787179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12979111490737671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480749351764563
EDAnonymous,mimooly,2019/02/18,"Just want to be normal Hey guys I just feel like I need to get this off my chest. I’ve been overweight my entire life and near the end of high school that turned into being obese and being diagnosed with diabetes.  I never had a healthy relationship with food, it’s always been something that comforts me emotionally and recently I’ve realized that I will never know what it’s like to have a normal relationship with food. 

After my diabetes diagnosis, I went all out in losing weight, I was/still am on “Keto” (not really because I was too scared of the fat so it was more like protein and veggies) and lost about 60 pounds since August. Everyone always says how amazing it is including my parents but the truth is I was starving myself. I would eat one meal a day consisting of a salad and chicken and as time went on I started thinking even eating that was too much. When I binged on snacks I would fast for the next two days to make sure my weight went back down. 

When I was on holiday and back home I started binging really bad because I knew I would never allow myself to eat those things in college. I gained about 10 pounds during the break but lost it again by restricting near the end of break. After I got back to college I broke down and bough $40 worth of junk food and binged and ended up giving it away to my dorm mates to prevent myself from eating it again but I was seriously considering asking for the food back. Along with the stress of school, managing my diabetes, and trying to get to my goal weight I just feel so hopeless. This I’ve been binging for the past few days and I feel pregnant and I just really hate myself right now. I guess all this post is really for is to get my feelings out and to try and find some reassurance. Please tell me things get better? ",5.911378517316017,6.103786872159091,6.2670292207792215,79.98587121212124,66.64204545454545,9.31839826839827,28.693722943722943,9.107695989026183,2.16622683982684,1417,42,277,23,21,457,178,352,0.124,0.768,0.10800000000000001,-0.8722,1,0,1,0,0,1,23.0,0,0,0,6,21,19,1,2,13,0,23,23,2,3,7,62,50,25,0,7,8,1,7,3,1,4,8,1,2,1,18,24,17,2,9,1,1,3,4,10,0,2,17,8,39,9,50,26,6,52,0,5,0,0,11,18,0,2,31,193,57,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723141331752244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147400549709627,0.0,0.07183088492151052,0.23515308763023826,0.06383575006599282,0.09321108371976658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761719490812486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479191760075264,0.0,0.0,0.07759902263274368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31292539715271034,0.0,0.0860002622760908,0.2031461877053792,0.0,0.0,0.050497030097780934,0.0,0.0,0.07305490576584266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15462940360081853,0.05461862757332829,0.0,0.0,0.06987741061028398,0.0,0.3697930727447013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15977587136149254,0.07334147510818538,0.0,0.0,0.06114710772565126,0.0,0.0842225072817593,0.07570130641118876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548232351230047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077766330042345,0.07668941974169004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0420170225621381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400159732604831,0.11205443060906962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553227360097503,0.16691676186166518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05103352159687948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620235797378082,0.05668954220100751,0.1768977082902727,0.0,0.08130950981613444,0.0,0.1498170308559824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051807090192235485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08489292452265514,0.0,0.07298382651513782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839233407626076,0.0,0.0,0.07322163018157199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19591311101367115,0.0,0.07548892833837262,0.1641655911592408,0.0,0.06529114847525637,0.0,0.0607991499569637,0.0765436159061908,0.1547507043483785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324339376449231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05885788937611704,0.0,0.0,0.10822882112084152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757759777342716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205682489546626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668240125426647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158504775534234,0.04898852373613991,0.0,0.0,0.04458083995199128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381425669059396,0.08315980690080495,0.0746842774629462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04509444660175943,0.0,0.0,0.2793004847623889,0.0,0.21262038409813336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16293181029397732,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Smldcknick,2019/02/18,"When your ED makes you want to puke but general stomach issues that make you feel nauseous are the worst. Ughhh. Like I’m fine purging up pretty much anything, but when I get stomach issues that make me feel the need to puke, it’s the last thing I want to do and just start to cry a little.",1.4680000000000002,3.583901800000003,2.4700000000000024,95.165,81.0,4.666666666666667,20.0,5.46131890053228,-0.254,228,6,49,1,6,72,43,60,0.221,0.614,0.165,-0.8047,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,2,3,0,13,13,5,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,5,13,2,6,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944285598646837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595294735040088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23892855603481486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344035915755047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493205137967543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259008027004174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542868596041775,0.2368027607565681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731324834955027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368427897572428,0.17518984287526185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24036965313871594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16723181587448127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15696606343751798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787141581315757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,princessvana,2019/02/18,"My boyfriend’s little sister called me fat. It was so subtle, you almost wouldn’t catch it.

I’ve been playing Lovers in a Dangerous Space Time with my boyfriend’s family. I like playing as [Lover Upsilon](https://imgur.com/a/WrzBApH). I think she’s cute.

The first time we played, my boyfriend’s sister said “of course Princess picks that one.” I asked her what she meant. “Nothing.”

The second time, she said “Princess always picks the fattest one.”

The third time, tonight, she told everyone “Princess always pick that one because it looks the most like her.”

She never outright said it. She didn’t have to. I know she thinks it’s funny that I pick the fattest character because I’m the fattest person out of the family.

Their mom made brownies and I’m downstairs crying while they all eat. I was going to have a bite but my fatass doesn’t need it, if I’m being honest. 

The worst part is she’s SO nice, so if she’s saying it, it must be true.

I wanted to talk to my friends about it, but they’ve all struggled with EDs and I’m the thinnest of them, so all I do is end up triggering them, which means they usually just ignore me. I ended up deleting my social media over it. I’m feeling so ugly and fat and alone right now.

I hope Peach is back up soon. I’d love to give it a try. Maybe I won’t have to be alone for much longer.

But for now, I’ll just cry.",2.0432088714205534,4.117053405109491,2.6455474452554744,94.86546883773157,78.81751824817519,5.38326782706345,21.487366647950587,6.297961479604792,0.13911106120157246,1059,30,229,8,26,328,146,274,0.10800000000000001,0.743,0.15,0.8392,0,2,0,0,0,0,45.0,1,1,5,1,12,18,1,1,13,0,18,6,2,6,6,40,42,16,0,7,7,3,1,2,3,3,2,4,0,1,16,8,3,1,6,3,0,2,5,4,0,6,10,6,37,14,21,26,7,26,0,0,1,3,36,9,0,5,17,140,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093507225884845,0.2501654136999239,0.0,0.0,0.2009828936304112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290491923022562,0.0,0.0,0.09286572153392482,0.0,0.1472422009309328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332106222514595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26532333727642005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357925250197567,0.0,0.0,0.21393515731380974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540221060087792,0.0,0.0,0.2277049808047968,0.0,0.061065628695168225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272805763439552,0.0,0.0,0.09330765361698333,0.0,0.0,0.11585489389777776,0.06863714740882575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995321149454607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06637278134447773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800557278892965,0.12104463110089085,0.0,0.0,0.10141752586364616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900086817459596,0.11427678153363105,0.0,0.0,0.12133106450172695,0.13155541703623835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14144595789289371,0.0,0.0,0.08878084617540773,0.08955043360013241,0.09314631861666438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588337772194815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455133985996488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078361445186235,0.0,0.0,0.10545289371160534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313808207302684,0.3446436608954904,0.0960422333604382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12311119304055912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262564483778631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970714449163357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15477082268354395,0.0,0.0,0.28169100634493915,0.0,0.0,0.11540221060087792,0.0,0.08199582621036683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301259125691958,0.0,0.0712340775627891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bpd-ed,2019/02/18,My dreams came true! Sometimes when I am mid binge and I have a slight moment of clarity but still no control as I shove the fourth spoonful of PB into my mouth I think back to when I was at my most restrictive phase and I was so terrified of eating anything to the point where I would have nightmares of eating and now I am currently the worst nightmare of my anorexic self 🙃,6.662105263157892,5.851908894736841,6.57,81.80000000000003,65.31578947368422,9.705263157894738,33.473684210526315,8.841846274778883,2.5728526315789484,300,11,61,4,4,95,52,76,0.195,0.736,0.069,-0.9362,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,4,0,7,3,1,1,1,12,9,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,12,1,10,5,2,13,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,7,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324231426410478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21717807392190366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230348496994673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167792334785534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5780109946226651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699604511787817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946453618352174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27933928598547625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255560638742648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097543751620684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20063648520403168,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beana0912,2019/02/18,"Husband left after 10 years & 3 kids So the short of is that my husband left me and our 3 kids after 10 years of marriage on Christmas day. So I find out that he has someone else.. which is typical to our marriage unfortunately. I'm an emotional wreck. Wicked wicked poor coping skills at the moment. Like the worst. They've all picked up right where I left them 10 + years ago. Some have gotten worse... the restricting is significant.  I've lost 57 pounds since our marriage started down hill around September.. and since Christmas I'm down another 10. Horrible cycles of restricting and then I'll binge on terrible disgusting food. That was me today. Applebees appetizer sampler and steak with shrimp and mashed potatoes all in my gut now. 

Let the self loathing begin. I dont know what his new girlfriend looks like but I bet she's prettier and thinner than I am. ",3.093605998636676,5.894201226993867,3.5784764826175888,85.53563565098844,79.67484662576686,7.057805044308113,26.233469665984998,8.167268648758528,1.961174778459441,692,28,128,14,18,216,112,163,0.16,0.778,0.062,-0.9081,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,3,0,1,2,5,6,1,0,6,0,9,2,1,1,2,19,17,10,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,9,1,2,2,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,3,1,15,2,17,13,4,29,0,1,1,0,16,15,0,2,16,68,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455308686892417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788310014070965,0.0,0.0,0.17215137271327915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615019251814906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587902900308307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241139727673606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714680388189038,0.18467431693926534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005260138057047,0.0,0.1985205664221144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022606136448713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351285186153727,0.16787964188464408,0.0,0.1604148242115406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786530753497084,0.0,0.17921595915345748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856084247501126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020420319346275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126990296740816,0.0,0.0,0.27161383547607265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910459770561326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620362010913315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561831529771628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673079334769729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31716916068679485
EDAnonymous,binjandpurj,2019/06/04,"In the drive thru right now, with my son in the back seat He’s too young to know what’s going on (not even one). 

Why do I love this so much?",-0.9436363636363652,0.21806009090909484,0.8575757575757592,108.50636363636366,84.45454545454545,4.4,11.0,3.1291,-2.206709090909091,105,0,32,0,3,34,30,33,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,6,4,1,9,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,3,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435288711416571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29507905544109553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25390253129217144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24552618849217725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4032160045598793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284181004774447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027343827839942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3815283865890087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031290733162242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goatberri,2019/06/04,"gain muscle mass with negative calorie intake? is it possible to build muscle while also eating under bmr? 

i want to try to become more toned instead of just skinny fat but increasing my caloric intake (even with protein) has been so difficult for me. 

will my muscles be able to grow under these conditions or is it imperative that intake more calories? 

if so, is there any safe foods that are high in protein that anyone has as favorites? thank you",5.105191637630661,7.487432585365855,5.383449477351917,77.33036585365856,70.70731707317074,7.612543554006969,28.787456445993037,8.418075326091056,2.4408236933797918,360,14,57,6,7,114,64,82,0.07,0.772,0.158,0.8125,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,7,3,0,0,0,0,9,4,2,0,0,8,11,8,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,2,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,12,8,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,1,46,11,0,0.3042933343468577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433432695390284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20692990201891895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127689745477534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360680806729999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113680479510353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20098287747731372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679527077507955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32150261460081675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430450135624467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801524191677781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065951996824556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794800925662153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scrapthat1986,2019/06/04,"Nobody called me out and it’s killing me So we are having a family gathering and it’s been almost 5 months we haven’t seen each other. All the members of the family would always rave about “oh you’re so skinny” “you gotta eat” etc. and you know how it is, you just want them to stop... but this time it’s my bad time: I have gained some in the last two weeks. And nobody is saying those things and it makes me crazy!!! I miss it. I hate to know they don’t see me as skinny :( and it makes me spiral into binging. Sad times. I’ve exercised three sessions today. But I keep eating. Ugh.
This disorder makes zero sense.",-1.0142559523809531,1.0269834375000038,1.0762053571428574,98.20302083333334,101.34375,4.000595238095238,11.563988095238097,5.916634753146586,-1.0986886904761906,472,7,106,5,21,155,87,128,0.237,0.731,0.032,-0.985,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,3,2,1,5,6,2,0,4,0,9,5,2,4,1,27,21,12,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,12,11,4,2,2,1,0,0,2,6,0,3,2,3,17,0,8,17,4,11,0,2,2,0,10,3,0,2,8,69,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17684965301049388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695387506572805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14746218084544382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803388103719173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202410646073566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614327509143494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969671123731148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329848495719825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743660570902392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697930400392426,0.19539307346091603,0.0,0.19412074811496105,0.1439609247376989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.353666137694901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096861573961464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14044755856921096,0.0,0.0,0.14073550259493992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765407619286347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733200179997255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089485692474606,0.0,0.1674058654957131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17252255073633546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416930063545006,0.0,0.14166608872941805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545885364761844,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rnulched,2019/06/04,"The biggest Oof I told my gf about me restricting again, gave my reasons for why I just *needed* to and she was surprisingly okay with it (shes struggled in very similar fashions and its my only coping mechanism at the moment). But now I feel like if I ""mess up"" and eat over or binge shes gonna think I'm a fraud and now I'm paranoid about ""screwing up"". What the fuck why am I like this??",0.41470189701897203,2.5351671097561024,2.4974796747967503,93.384783197832,85.21951219512195,5.595663956639567,21.30623306233063,6.937597516519254,0.4622802168021685,301,10,68,4,9,101,60,82,0.21600000000000005,0.6809999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,6,8,2,1,4,1,4,3,0,1,0,14,13,7,0,2,4,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,1,12,4,10,9,0,10,0,0,0,2,6,6,2,2,6,43,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934121975602544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498712322735072,0.20485101803602904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26509156254364824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801787009983966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126181295251679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180828479588381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948220961949508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997686199316457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837349161869267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27399758074417496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365950396695797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174863648952358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Amelindinum,2019/06/04,"Completed first 24 hours of a fast. Gained 9 pounds. Why. I was so excited about my first real fast, no sneaking even a bite of anything, and thought ""I'll feel so good when this is done!"". Checked in last night just to see what was going on (hoping for at least water/food weight to have left? Idk. I weight myself most days just to check) and... What the fuck. 

That's not how it was supposed to work 😭

I guess I'll just extend the fast until I start to see the scale move in the other direction. Despite what the people over on r/fasting might seem to claim, it's actually quite easy to not be hungry when appropriately motivated!",2.6513203463203467,4.528932198412701,3.580447330447331,89.79435064935066,76.22222222222223,6.486580086580088,21.772005772005773,7.348242739294969,0.5748031746031748,491,13,105,6,11,157,89,126,0.055,0.804,0.14,0.8964,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,6,10,4,1,0,7,0,8,3,0,2,0,17,18,8,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,2,0,4,0,2,2,3,1,0,2,5,5,6,3,18,11,2,22,0,0,2,1,0,7,1,5,13,65,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.16746888088098116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122232710781404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993226528301676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067575715501414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17561899840149808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334832692416585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677235154966359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29194672425508605,0.20751431332988526,0.0,0.0,0.1586528358233389,0.0,0.0,0.09753124321466224,0.14394028218346258,0.0,0.0,0.18905033169792895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17044976789274385,0.16900357857574794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398869555611839,0.0,0.0,0.18645730109995895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820535648251754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18239675024113905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104654846064725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897438316124828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825308395072544,0.0,0.19533240479984615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27350562012920737,0.15622942195472073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146809203697405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362410225079378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179551760519141,0.0,0.0,0.15485343724778514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493582175722735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PrincessTally,2019/06/04,"How to get out of a binge cycle? :( I feel like I’ve been non stop binging for weeks. I can’t restrict anymore and I don’t know what happened. Of course if I actually calorie count my binges, they’re hardly a “binge” and usually just “regular eating” (2000 cal tops) but it definitely feels like binging and it’s definitely not helping me lose weight. Any help on how to get out of a binge cycle?",1.3219268635724362,3.7524692658227856,3.2181434599156127,87.6242897327708,84.18987341772151,6.042756680731365,23.967651195499297,7.3871296695380915,1.1797330520393807,308,12,63,5,9,103,57,79,0.091,0.6859999999999999,0.223,0.9219,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,2,0,16,9,7,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,2,3,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,6,2,9,8,0,7,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,5,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.23307829070713065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242280742587067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368700853453461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443980884226994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24153444238046115,0.3412618673371148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495733353196876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21120986691498636,0.0,0.2139582285626808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201855714005252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126297946840895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23337522948991005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26720648891690074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19968513577181066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630540513976753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19158707224069504,0.2908488953706301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mustpat23,2019/06/04,Thoughts on Weight Training? I've been watching a lot of YouTube videos/ seen insta and Facebook posts where people who have had disordered eating habits have said doing weights to change how their body looks took their aim off being skinny and now they eat normal. What's everyone's thoughts?,6.989615384615385,9.28717334615385,4.6838461538461535,84.63615384615386,65.53846153846153,7.507692307692308,32.230769230769226,8.07648339933343,2.3937923076923084,242,10,40,3,4,67,47,52,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,1,0,7,12,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,6,3,0,4,4,1,6,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,1,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23088491965145666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21988766955008085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23822486480955304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253840887056008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986185512421733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17454953378033305,0.0,0.0,0.17671461712291228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20365806586210156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410352653322642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19907183444830048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19772187570596514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330034269230508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309394263345127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5062334697736323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ariattacat,2019/06/04,"Cannot function efficiently without restriction When I restrict I feel a sense of euphoria and self control, which helps me stay productive and on task. I am 100% more motivated and my mind seems to even be more sharp when I restrict. When I eat at a normal intake or higher I just feel myself slowly melting into a puddle of sadness, procrastination, self hate, and uselessness. Being able to have full control over my eating allows me to have full control over my life, and conversely if I don't have control it seems like I have 0 control over my life which leads me to spiral even further into some shitty self pity ditch. Why can't I be fucking normal?? I just hate how food is the reason I wake up and what I look forward to when I fall asleep.",8.28686699507389,6.939059696551727,8.276157635467985,72.62103448275863,62.3793103448276,10.492610837438423,35.886699507389174,9.23628265651192,3.1882906403940883,596,22,108,8,7,194,88,145,0.141,0.7340000000000001,0.125,-0.5335,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,7,9,7,3,0,4,0,12,8,2,10,0,34,20,13,0,3,5,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,8,3,8,6,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,0,4,21,1,16,17,5,19,0,3,1,1,5,12,1,5,6,79,25,3,0.11874920240468133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6659366397324096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430201596617382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15686545647578207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200863295002286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14359200690950327,0.0,0.0,0.10978172412397308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344805053026276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959508724610125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775214697911892,0.0580148620410252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971942226907274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990284283635408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269801102721435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209395772374446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216209627922174,0.3716439490404325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657084967925494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715268491333513,0.0,0.0,0.11446999354294295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,decodrum,2019/06/04,Does it seem like you eat all the time and you're hungry all the time? I am. I cannot seem to eat enough. I wish I could just drink a shake that was 2000 calories and get it over with Always hungry. Every hour or two. Is this normal? I feel like i eat 5 or 6 meals a day. I guess a bowl of cereal or a banana to me is a meal. I find it hard to get in enough calories. I even eat junk food. It never seems like enough. I am disappointed when a food has less than 200 calories. If all my meals are 200 calories I would have to eat 10 meals a day.,-1.166955503512881,0.6604803606557397,1.1561124121779862,102.29491803278692,89.65573770491804,4.141451990632318,12.812646370023419,5.288315135182226,-1.4907583138173304,412,5,109,2,14,138,71,122,0.055999999999999994,0.847,0.096,0.6553,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,9,0,11,12,0,0,4,22,19,7,0,5,5,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,12,0,5,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,2,14,3,9,16,7,10,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,8,10,67,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10054971813473963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648201816374063,0.0,0.0,0.15586540112450215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057491160423598,0.0,0.0,0.11837855887731165,0.0,0.6182545579836994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745843810963126,0.0,0.07981459940717431,0.0,0.10181408418998797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061101038422811886,0.0863291142368868,0.0,0.0,0.11044684260977032,0.0,0.2922437805502092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626927903439353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13312041652241327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825015112082967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900442898841225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711099986561232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320033076463867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839890661874765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300283930244399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14092717433534369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180444805600806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13896163652697324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584225741671217,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,paprikashi,2019/06/04,"Saw a teenaged ballet dancer in my son’s show and I can’t get her out of my head. It breaks my heart. My son is little, but the older dancers go on first and it’s very professional.  She is a beautiful dancer with a beautiful face, but I’ve never seen someone so thin in my life, and it was all I could think about.

I aspire to a look that is actually underweight, I know this, and the bodies of underweight women usually make me envious.  But this was the first time that all I could think about was how worried I was for her and how she clearly needed help... I hope she’s getting help.  She was one of the best dancers in the show, and so beautiful.  

I’m sorry if this is hard for anyone to read - I guess it’s my mom coming out.  She would never look at me and realize how much I’ve struggled with disordered eating habits my whole life, she’d never guess because I’m overweight, but I just wanted to wrap her in a hug and tell her she’s amazing.  

You’re all amazing.  Stay safe.",3.0165681444991783,4.084108620689655,4.278147783251232,88.49472577996717,73.63054187192118,7.580821018062397,24.863382594417075,8.021203637495839,1.1995959934318554,762,23,168,11,15,251,105,203,0.067,0.7070000000000001,0.226,0.9923,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,8,8,1,1,10,0,14,9,4,4,7,43,33,18,0,7,6,3,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,9,13,2,1,4,4,0,2,4,2,0,3,7,6,29,6,20,22,6,22,0,0,4,1,18,10,0,4,8,112,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.13427086635588764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620818638003294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387538221595085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439530702848918,0.0,0.0,0.15283474385059384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185241388556901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21971354117831146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769343553045126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407919329109562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340729775542773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437732697070861,0.0,0.07819724150725313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031482826948492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325625276349805,0.0,0.1412100571953504,0.0,0.0,0.16304830237819906,0.1844513014754496,0.0,0.0,0.13666084041836934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561748423762214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943719324028696,0.0,0.13790427791198698,0.0,0.0,0.23108684036038105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184435925309437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611471942983621,0.0,0.0,0.1011466462649634,0.1020234253267984,0.3183604846947177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09323654050486073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376301796632434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11658205584185173,0.0,0.0,0.1540240370923555,0.0,0.14665577210819392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438420208061019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026229863543385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763280068673878,0.0,0.0,0.08023155275660525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515391899967777,0.11352858957195837,0.08115588390562338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536176094301632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13973231462712088,0.0,0.09774208043491224,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mountaingains,2019/06/04,"Eating disorder survey for research (win Amazon voucher for participating)   

Hello,

I am currently recruiting participants who have an eating disorder / disordered eating for my MSc dissertation (Clinical Psychology). The survey is about eating behaviours, thoughts, feelings and adverse childhood experiences. I would be extremely grateful if you could take part in this survey which takes only 15 minutes. There is a chance to win 2 of £50 Amazon vouchers (or equivalent in own currency e.g. $62 US dollars) by participating. If you have any questions, my email has been provided on the survey.

Here is the link: https://hull.onlinesurveys.ac.uk/schema-mode",10.574618585298195,12.957727349514565,9.853425797503473,50.62621359223303,57.05825242718447,12.876005547850205,42.86962552011096,12.28987398476788,6.618432454923718,539,29,63,18,7,172,81,103,0.07400000000000001,0.81,0.11599999999999999,0.5563,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,2,0,2,3,3,0,0,5,0,11,5,0,0,0,10,15,4,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,7,2,10,10,2,5,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,4,2,44,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926336706878564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828457161459395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5524366331260364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6576356724637075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716933738733765,0.0,0.0,0.08124125809614359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219929979287822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399354765459055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799908897980964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416126806352661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275566683993226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932702203263899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141377163197772,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sikkerhet,2019/06/04,"fair warning for anyone looking into Walden Behavioral Clinic in Massachusetts psychologist working there is in multiple white supremacy hate groups

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[https://northshoreantifa.wordpress.com/2019/02/10/dr-jason-arnold-eating-disorder-psychologist-supporter-of-proud-boys-and-the-american-guard/](https://northshoreantifa.wordpress.com/2019/02/10/dr-jason-arnold-eating-disorder-psychologist-supporter-of-proud-boys-and-the-american-guard/)",76.89782608695651,91.30656747826087,35.96260869565218,-121.80565217391302,-82.30434782608697,17.895652173913046,66.47826086956522,15.903189008614273,11.394513043478264,424,10,10,5,1,83,22,23,0.213,0.664,0.122,-0.5574,0,0,2,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4147173624100977,0.4650920006636056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676327958208658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778935801213727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214197226354455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786518648029701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650920006636056,0.0
EDAnonymous,am2407,2019/06/04,"Can’t lose the weight; need answers why I’ve been trying for the past two weeks to drop weight and I’ve been doing intermittent fasting (18:6) and have stayed at the same weight no matter how much I workout or restrict my intake. I’m 5’5 F at 118-120 
I tried losing weight last summer and it came off much easier but now that I’m exercising and eating around 600-900 cals a day, I’m not losing anything. Any ideas why?",3.919457364341088,4.8339268372093045,4.68139534883721,87.02852713178301,71.32558139534885,7.128682170542637,22.472868217054266,7.1686216300943375,0.5906031007751937,332,7,70,3,6,107,64,86,0.14800000000000002,0.815,0.036000000000000004,-0.7935,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,4,0,5,6,0,1,0,16,10,7,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,6,5,1,2,2,0,1,3,3,0,1,3,4,3,0,6,7,3,14,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,1,7,34,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333129080134296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294092217486182,0.12217712729955715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697169139486708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851165627617479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14043587488340697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549328737004917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11187297423057296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606260706180266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20178169964789572,0.10176541154124548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101586029452647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462848846300131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863606609929376,0.0,0.1340684002126623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008964219039913,0.6685096326875075,0.0,0.0,0.2476844895971728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-prettylittleflower-,2019/04/22,It’s official... I was officially diagnosed today with binge eating disorder. I’m at my highest weight ever thanks to bingeing and Abilify. No matter how much restricting I do I always end up ruining it with binge after binge. Anyone else have BED and can relate? I feel so lost and alone.,2.4882539682539684,5.407617666666668,4.681534391534392,75.23833333333333,85.2962962962963,8.27089947089947,24.38095238095239,8.841846274778883,2.8442730158730165,230,9,37,7,7,79,44,54,0.251,0.6809999999999999,0.068,-0.8675,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,10,8,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,5,1,6,6,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27473245102361665,0.0,0.0,0.22072005144218101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547804522689498,0.2717932731806325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692363437733393,0.0,0.0,0.3040143595656821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714302543536978,0.22159318430488206,0.0,0.2349442685128613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399455545111392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412493435120096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895658808153404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19499881388861925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442185153322856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514382912829626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230188507546846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Teeheeheehohoho,2019/04/22,"I’m not even surprised I was a perfect restricting angel yesterday (the whole month of April actually) and was feeling so smug and satisfied. Annnnd post holiday binge right on cue. I just ate four packages of poptarts back to back, five cookies, pasta, and a bowl of vegan meatballs and sauce. Every fuckin holiday ❤️",6.527758620689652,8.009762982758629,6.951206896551727,71.0519827586207,65.72413793103448,10.627586206896552,36.91379310344829,10.686352973137794,4.4802620689655175,255,13,41,7,4,83,47,58,0.066,0.684,0.249,0.8948,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,9,5,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,2,3,1,2,2,5,2,1,8,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,5,25,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.3397640074735575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5354429685553227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996321223133676,0.0,0.2933485104808635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604537479038138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779062271341166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334509227327656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2973355503198772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887197276299645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mich8881,2019/04/22,Is anyone else jealous of friends who are smaller than them? I went to a workout class with a friend and I was comparing us in the mirror the whole time...she is shorter and looks fragile she’s so small. I feel so ashamed of myself.,0.7253900709219891,3.1908811489361746,1.7756382978723408,96.28416666666668,88.57446808510639,3.984397163120569,24.854609929078013,5.46131890053228,0.4102652482269501,182,8,38,1,6,57,38,47,0.142,0.73,0.128,-0.1757,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,1,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,7,2,6,5,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,0,0,27,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22712308299717446,0.33281850726410034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713470865455726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423975441068084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.501913316611863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727686572086676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940631043339695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.390720851266719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011132324882717,0.0,0.3626521439518122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SilentTears0,2019/04/22,"I need help. I'm in a constant love hate relationship with food. I've always struggled with my food intake. All I can think about is how badly I want junk food and nothing but that. It doesn't matter if I'm hungry or not. It's the same cycle again and again. All I think about is junk and how I want to eat it, how I NEED to eat it because it just tastes so good. Then after I've finished binging I feel complete regret and I feel so so depressed and I ask myself how I could let myself do that again and then I tell myself that I don't deserve food and that I deserve to starve. It's like there's no middle ground for me. It's either binge or starve. There are times I eat nothing or a few fruits and vegetables here and there and there's times that I eat over 1,000 in a single sitting. I don't know what to do now. It's like no matter how depressed I become after binging I completely forget about that and I'm back to craving the same junk and I don't think appetite repressants can help me because I crave it even if I'm not hungry. I don't know what to do at this point. I'm really so lost.",0.6383860759493665,2.588802928270045,2.4013343881856564,95.43465981012659,83.00843881856541,4.793881856540085,18.735759493670887,5.7366,-0.37073544303797457,862,21,196,5,24,284,102,237,0.18899999999999997,0.7190000000000001,0.092,-0.9755,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,24,12,1,2,5,0,15,12,0,5,2,50,35,29,0,8,10,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,18,14,11,1,7,0,0,0,9,8,0,0,1,4,27,4,18,32,7,21,0,4,0,1,6,7,0,5,15,135,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207363633960496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344727639629617,0.0,0.0,0.08508669089672041,0.0923921142394898,0.1349082463434728,0.12220950418222605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23203885049389514,0.11957849986856653,0.0,0.0883488329804697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19061358940947476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529098351986484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07308643461893922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190075707970616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5352167678249246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281197445350578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924868039932108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483391250233364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162593983938665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315200350835775,0.0,0.10812066637864998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079275730657014,0.0,0.09987025378850832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409822564331772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21235248006323384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046045282166051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07088828170373371,0.0,0.0,0.11880181588606553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568039551515827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967171497851962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21270933341149584,0.0,0.0,0.12904737716651524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053410534658624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TopHeight,2019/04/22,"Losing empathy for my partner with ED. Need advice. I love my partner so much.

But their ED is something I can’t take anymore.

They say they can’t control it. And the longer this goes on, the angrier I get. 

They’re seeking help now, but I’ve pushed them to get help for YEARS. Last time things got really bad, they pretended they were fine and acted like talking to some friends on the internet was therapy.

They say they can’t talk to me about their ED anymore because how I’ve reacted in the past. 

They always bring it up and have breakdowns during high points of my life, like a vacation or my birthday.

They lie straight to my face about their symptoms.

They project their issues with food onto me and guilt me for eating. And they do the same things they guilt me for.

It’s gotten to the point I panic whenever they go to the bathroom. I am starting to feel weird about food. We are now starting to lose money as they blow through our food budget for binges and laxatives.

At one point, I called them narcissistic because their ED always seems to cause them to gaslight me and conveniently occur during what should be the happiest times of my life.

I had a big fight with them yesterday and told them how much this has affected me. They NEVER consider my feelings. They cling to their ED like it’s all that matters and use it whenever we talk about anything even remotely serious. 

I’m glad they’re getting help from a doctor and with medication now, but I feel empty and hollow. Whenever their ED comes up at all, I feel resentment and caretaker burnout. 

I just want to scream at them to get better faster. Stop it. Just STOP IT. STOP IT. 

I need advice. I love my partner, but now I just anticipate what happy event in my life they’ll ruin next. I wonder what they’ll lie to me about or hide from me next. I wonder how much money they’ll spend or how much food I can eat before they guilt me for it. 

I just want a normal, happy life with y partner. Other aspects of our life are really good and I wish my partner would just stop binging and purging and then getting mad at me for trying to get them to CHOOSE to want to get better.",3.6047212155004194,5.320857414691943,4.210303875104543,86.98350432115976,73.19431279620852,7.334374128798437,25.681906885977146,8.027739517013583,1.4486119877334809,1687,56,338,25,34,535,191,422,0.141,0.701,0.159,0.8933,0,0,1,0,1,0,41.0,4,0,33,6,21,27,3,4,12,0,20,17,1,9,3,71,53,29,0,9,12,0,4,3,6,5,8,3,0,5,18,23,6,5,8,1,4,5,4,14,0,1,6,7,75,13,53,41,8,44,0,3,0,2,56,17,0,7,25,223,93,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729091282582046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541883979042426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948294855190514,0.0,0.0,0.062018679293376774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292632850385617,0.09188317311673852,0.0,0.06412975989886233,0.0,0.0,0.1333078036961814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695572626415904,0.0,0.0,0.07742024799320188,0.0,0.06491996627181194,0.0,0.0,0.08452785494880596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713890507156887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542336881612143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04977763559004333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242651080752415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645248994478396,0.0,0.05822653584502922,0.0,0.2756244060155363,0.0,0.04283146311132966,0.06321228647732982,0.06027598929795967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16045412668108572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515459937467809,0.07962688260671377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786611064206384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06143224242192706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661613789732969,0.1104580725303522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16862751485594066,0.0,0.0,0.13603906457577492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759219485557195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22160673521613444,0.11176385494291237,0.05812585837844441,0.0,0.16030230458287692,0.0,0.07384134822078464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05106903220993449,0.0,0.0,0.08842416975380246,0.0,0.0,0.07194407895281589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21373184150175806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656103961427602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986597726170566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06860914003351916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058019383779407366,0.0,0.0,0.10668696372165418,0.0,0.0,0.2520328629395179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833272016319964,0.05666483191413435,0.18172573463751845,0.0,0.0,0.08618603679189152,0.0,0.10013783936938486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878914582157094,0.0,0.0,0.07201414558906652,0.0,0.05116764519209509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509085356922018,0.0,0.0,0.13335605633027262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666561951589477,0.0,0.16345947990057694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05353687971441103,0.0,0.0,0.048532358842809216
EDAnonymous,Gutterslutcunt,2019/04/22,im recovered but my entire life revolves around food I've just spent my holidays obsessing about food. I binge watched a tv show about what they used to eat for food back in 1900s to early 2000s it's called what I ate for dinner... from the bbc. I'm recovered but I constantly struggle with having hobbies and interests other than food and diet. Is it always going to be this way?,2.285899999999998,4.797817506666668,3.484916666666667,86.77537500000004,80.6,6.95,22.708333333333336,8.07648339933343,1.4410333333333338,303,10,58,6,8,98,57,75,0.081,0.841,0.079,-0.0387,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,2,0,3,9,0,1,0,8,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,8,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,6,1,12,5,0,7,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,3,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14444020574372032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453128241695355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13347945870025532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17725408644070753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187588367421867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762519321534573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8396194951721265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09865480105609097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875062349226755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226112580986276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18147322939538515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992542264436348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778710851690548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TessTobias,2019/04/22,"It's 7:54 am and I'm done with this day. I was on vacation last week because my sister was in from out of state.  I get to work this morning for the first time in 7 days and the first thing the cleaning lady on my unit says to me is ""You got thicc. Where you been?""

No one has ever called me thicc before.  I am trying not to cry.  I've never weighed this much in my life. I don't even have recovery as an empowering excuse.  I'm just fucking lazy and fat.",0.07636363636363441,1.879149010101009,2.216454545454546,96.80468181818183,84.15151515151516,5.172121212121212,17.980808080808078,6.2581,-0.3928513131313132,348,8,85,3,10,117,73,99,0.053,0.9059999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.2821,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,4,0,10,4,1,0,2,9,15,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,5,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,5,1,11,0,14,10,1,17,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,0,9,58,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144577702078966,0.0,0.20181569718480455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421788818928629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605220389862333,0.3059123258328009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24270905229129155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664970906890846,0.21453543308066908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034763516957543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21926146815833325,0.12391245443813252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896879205981146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19332663732968505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752142638886705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17434853116176238,0.0,0.18292148062944924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071372099716855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886085010138812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15756637712962102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382967591362149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102405504141887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024487795982575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17266386422843705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Cashmeresweateryay,2019/04/22,"Best cereal for making you ... um, regular? I need some serious fiber. I was thinking either raisin bran (dried fruit plus bran flakes sounds pretty promising), or those Kashi shredded wheat squares. What do you guys like?",4.419729729729728,7.85210610810811,2.923027027027029,87.28616216216219,82.51351351351352,6.203243243243244,23.616216216216216,7.554174236665415,1.5598475675675685,174,6,28,3,5,49,34,37,0.03,0.735,0.23600000000000002,0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,7,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,4,3,2,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4809397488544498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4537722345189345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22389393162753102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30590747013797337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33981104762816283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4662385804480853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29364925039452816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pussypalooza,2019/04/22,"subs that are focused on recovery and avoid triggering content? i like /r/EDanonymemes and this sub for the relatable content and i like wholesoms stories and recovery advice but DAMN all the self hatred, self-deprecating memes, and details about how one goes about their eating disorder (like things they do/did) is not great for me to look at. are there any subs that help you feel not alone without as much negativity? almost like /r/wholesomememes or /r/casualconversations but for EDs?",6.69531092436975,9.294134094117648,5.804537815126048,75.07470588235296,66.88235294117648,8.621848739495798,32.14285714285714,9.23628265651192,3.0698739495798324,398,17,65,8,7,120,63,85,0.19699999999999998,0.633,0.17,-0.7794,0,2,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,2,0,4,7,1,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,1,17,5,10,0,0,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,2,6,5,10,5,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,2,4,41,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224057545834648,0.0,0.0,0.22959877648827245,0.2374731822305688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592367889995395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26278387260354913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23461883011950566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11593488449643626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527907910008095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536868898360816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480740718977599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925441430499263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16855303657352144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15537145918349732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4783947069314548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523287357233037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210254162141517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SadKDotStan,2019/04/22,Saw this girl on Instagram that graduated from my school a while ago.... her freaking THIGH was as big as her ANKLE (and she did not have cankles :O ) literally how is this possible for ppl dhdhdhshs,4.595045045045048,6.590950486486491,5.484864864864863,77.70585585585587,71.16216216216216,9.257657657657658,31.25225225225225,9.725611199111238,3.1698360360360365,156,7,29,4,3,51,34,37,0.07200000000000001,0.88,0.048,-0.24100000000000002,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,1,0,3,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,4,0,5,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,21,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5050184240722061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6422686350826627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5765825107794015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Viscotti,2019/04/22,"Easter binge... Holy fuck.

I didn’t think I could eat that much. I’m not sure what the fuck happened- I think I blacked out while binging. 

I ate *so much* I think I’m going to vomit. I know tomorrow for my daily weigh in I’m going to cry, it’s just inevitable at this point. I also know I’m going to do a 4 day fast. It was so bad, I don’t dare count my calories. I *know* it’s over 3000.",-3.80136363636364,-3.687209318181816,-0.4868181818181796,105.67727272727276,130.8181818181818,2.0545454545454547,10.818181818181818,4.347061598140703,-1.926086363636364,292,6,76,1,22,101,55,88,0.20800000000000002,0.792,0.0,-0.9481,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,0,5,6,0,0,1,11,22,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,3,0,6,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,3,1,12,1,8,18,2,12,0,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,4,41,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007872556670695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757746131306373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980628270911535,0.0,0.2336170791007405,0.13715988155948186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762295245733893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932352437422509,0.0,0.0,0.3626098644783303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18807068059658305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506472246729209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126859804568602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20104969688653435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20044674061147275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40882691922059067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icebrotha,2019/04/22,Can I ask my bank account to never accept a purchase from postmates again? Delivery has ruined me.,3.741666666666666,6.717733166666669,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,78.44444444444446,5.822222222222222,31.222222222222207,7.1686216300943375,2.5886888888888886,79,4,11,1,2,26,18,18,0.27399999999999997,0.726,0.0,-0.6467,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7713740826037848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6363819801716335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,theyhaveED,2019/04/22,"oman help i’m making food i absolutely cannot eat cw vent i ended up making a dish i used to make that’s like, way too many cals per serving and i don’t know how to handle this and i’m an anxious failure aaaaaa

sorry for the venting",-0.9589835164835137,1.1349935961538478,1.8302197802197813,95.17192307692308,93.80769230769228,3.740659340659341,17.043956043956047,5.288315135182226,-0.6548659340659344,185,5,42,1,7,64,43,52,0.135,0.758,0.107,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,5,0,8,9,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,4,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31062654933068345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813527361422396,0.0,0.0,0.2435329581974068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33248273796196354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842999001510136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511108317825507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13433157310798094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5506138293754054,0.27876629551138843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077952221525027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23747716815786185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182504592091266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kurva-Lazanja,2019/07/28,"anyone else with pcos? so about two months ago i was diagnosed with pcos, which for most people causes weight gain. a few months before i was doing the ""healthy skinny girl diet"" (stuck within the limit basically every single day) and later restricted at 1000-1300 because if i restrict at lower than those i binge at 3000+. i haven't binged once. i exercised. and i still couldn't lose weight. my weight stayed THE. SAME. according to myfitnesspal i should've lost over 10kg per month. that didn't happen. i had every possible symptom for pcos but i always ignored them thinking they're ed related (hair loss, missing periods etc). now i spent 2 months binging because i can't cope with the fact that i don't have control over my weight. when put on right medication for pcos & insulin resistance in most cases people can lose weight normally (usually metformin). the problem is that i have to wait SEVEN MONTHS to just get a blood test done from an endo because fucking healthcare. i'm starting keto in a few days but i live with mom who doesn't give a fuck about it and is probably gonna do everything she can to make it all harder for me, she only cares about making fun of me all the fucking time. i feel the pressure to lose weight until the time my classes start in the fall or else i'm dropping tf out. it's just how i feel. i don't feel like myself, i feel ugly and helpless because i can't do anything about it. 

if there's someone who went thru similar feel free to share your experiences or how you cope w having an ed and something that makes it almost impossible to control your weight",4.016102236421723,5.787464450479232,4.711969329073487,83.57959616613421,72.22683706070288,7.308319488817892,26.89699680511182,7.9765259561132025,1.6884717955271564,1275,45,240,18,25,409,188,313,0.106,0.794,0.099,-0.0225,1,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,3,1,9,13,18,3,1,15,0,22,19,3,8,3,47,49,16,0,5,8,1,13,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,13,10,9,7,6,1,2,3,8,13,0,2,9,13,32,6,35,38,9,36,0,7,0,3,12,12,3,7,20,148,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06649273298106086,0.0,0.07511268952679521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062415167938816976,0.08127439618845543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052449441118550655,0.07685764242698978,0.061727668505115414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18290405780872127,0.0,0.06382884326871452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647872221611772,0.07705696829017378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682624483196821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675178973650203,0.0,0.0,0.0761345944876606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676230478946869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532414451805707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365710255475181,0.0,0.0,0.12640001943594514,0.0,0.06741505755106447,0.07337515963270562,0.0,0.0,0.18963909820639832,0.05358787934029008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208039405474951,0.039190155888274486,0.07195739426919533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633198694032971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036646589718632994,0.0,0.06623609462253664,0.0,0.0,0.2517543937519936,0.08188337653217405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021129159490978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755656993361735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785198637239597,0.2993653560192021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349486182028647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07988427577910348,0.0,0.05704925196197761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400637682130028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08456364128322554,0.0,0.0,0.08087455392201097,0.0717754045157715,0.0,0.07540678155318291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06405899126234299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355658393978234,0.057747138920270426,0.0,0.0,0.10618635555386358,0.07995175434967665,0.059903888149606024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07796515885907197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048064025327380286,0.0,0.0,0.08747904436187995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07327485561456093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261402820226547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6394024004555413,0.0,0.06953595622689986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheVixenJush,2019/07/28,"Why is it so hard to talk about my eating problems? I have a few close mates who I share almost everything to.


Obviously it was hard and I was embarrassed but I was able to open up to my friends about self harm, depression, anxiety and suicide attempts but for some reason I can’t mention my problem with food.  




I’m scared they’ll laugh and I’m scared they won’t see it as a real problem. Cuz I’m not thin enough and I’m not tiny. I’m 161cm and my weight 47kg makes me feel huge. I’m worried they’ll automatically assume I have anorexia like I’m so embarrassed of this shit but I just wish I could tell them .




It’s ruining my friendships, it’s literally fuckin up everything for me but I can’t stop it. I feel selfish. I would rather be skinny than have my mates but at the same time I want my mates and I wanna be happy. But my heads telling me to let them dislike me and it’s encouraging me to lose weight.  My mates have realised though cuz I’m dumb with words, like they all kinda assume I’ve got a problem. 




I feel like a horrible friend and I feel like an embarrassment. The truth is I don’t want to get help yet but I don’t wanna lose the people who are allways their for me.  I’m so so so embarrassed to tell them, cuz they won’t believe it, I don’t have a body of a thin person. I’m large.




I let them down daily, I can’t meet them cuz they’ll want food, they’ll want to get coffee and I can’t do that. I don’t want to purge in a public toilet. It’s embarrassing enough doing it at home and like purging really hurts me and I can’t walk properly for a while after so they’ll know I’m up to something. 




This was such a messy rant. I’m sorry",-0.7158891992551197,1.4357831536312882,1.7226606145251395,95.9960765828678,93.16201117318435,4.882774674115456,17.234869646182496,6.528864054313183,-0.21785493482309093,1291,35,304,17,48,437,156,358,0.259,0.584,0.158,-0.9925,0,0,1,0,0,1,28.0,0,0,14,3,13,33,3,7,13,0,36,10,4,6,3,63,64,31,1,15,11,0,10,5,6,8,0,0,1,2,15,15,6,1,8,0,0,1,13,21,0,0,5,11,53,12,33,46,6,18,0,5,1,1,34,12,3,5,10,187,68,0,0.09477431953002502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490279088722788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725020950317491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10677820349520743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105272903656914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07566958228815691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162898253703975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969777893140245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958544136941094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17035409462037085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916829744162369,0.13541358561810865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292029667436712,0.0,0.1464448083420657,0.0,0.09903134057730667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579968112701724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088902546102234,0.16979834945080852,0.0,0.09726579422965204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06352522862406053,0.0,0.09506636991429628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145786922599173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05208548745112107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938263257521068,0.0,0.23150972643289466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120564424440617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326259422094377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570457996241068,0.08275328019769976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627448969552074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787392436426403,0.06071485592608231,0.0974437851174936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18977125472654893,0.0,0.07552286219291578,0.0,0.0988702847808763,0.0,0.09728447705400313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296190142853418,0.0,0.10609209142603923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923557484020988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036677230713354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617600805081612,0.24851079784940905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311528774274642,0.0,0.05526366787284604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795017458837842,0.0,0.0,0.23081917767446816,0.0,0.0,0.08551908217344098,0.0,0.1089857902042363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624792193768797,0.0,0.06732495738606149,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1725seuk,2019/07/28,"Last night I was so sure I was going to start recovering literally planned out the whole day to eat a healthy breakfast, lunch, and dinner after hard restricting for a week. then today i wake up and it’s already noon and i feel like everything already went to shit. I already managed to skip breakfast so why not lunch and dinner? my mind is stupid but these are my current thoughts 🤡",2.221246246246245,4.994178932432433,2.9247747747747748,88.73809309309307,84.0,5.451051051051049,27.141141141141144,6.937597516519254,1.4365123123123125,307,14,58,4,9,96,55,74,0.105,0.816,0.079,-0.2274,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,3,0,4,9,2,0,1,12,9,8,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,2,7,2,8,5,1,14,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,11,34,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560991137186825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781154385047486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279053331501035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17811396787256328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020720436152164,0.14158186858989805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126318815371879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753290771373734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16154547494783206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682213055799044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001081842643392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18598118069990627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20343184892749613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027484221384307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867849919820592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733504671775286,0.0,0.0,0.18785417014951952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589703291326702,0.0,0.0,0.1837174886931539,0.17882919795589006,0.2212640759937713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,M3gaC00l,2019/07/28,"How My Orthorexia Nervosa Started Hi guys,

I'm a (mostly) recovered individual who had orthorexia nervosa, with an intense fixation on sugar-free foods aside from fruits, and a refusal to eat anything that had trans fats in them. I dunno, I had a lot of weird requirements for food, and most days my meals would consist of one organic and crunchy peanut butter sandwich with a banana as well as a single package of Uncle Ben's instant rice. Unless my mom cut up some vegetables for me, that was pretty much all I would eat. 

I would run 5km every day as well as 10km every 4 days, and I did a half marathon ( 21.1km) once every month. I still drank a ton of water, and usually I would eat a protein bar and a banana before each run, but I would fairly often go on a fully empty stomach, which resulted in me throwing up some real nasty-lookin bile sometimes. This, combined with my restrictive eating, resulted in me, before its onset being a 6'0"", 160lbs, 15yo male, dropping to 113lbs over the course of half a year, and developing stress fractures down my tibia that caused severe pain in my shins and prevented me from further exercise.

But while that's all fine and dandy, what I really wanted to share with you guys was how the disorder started.

So, I was taking full advantage of that summer because it was the first bit of time off I'd had from sports for a long, long time, and I wanted a bit of a break before heading into the new soccer season. I played in one of the highest youth leagues in my area, so being fit was a must if you wanted to play.

But summer-me didn't really care about that. I binged on the anime *Steins;Gate*, found a new obsession with Dr. Pepper, and drank like 5 cans of that every single day. This continued for a few months, until one time I was watching another anime, *Charlotte,* which honestly kind of sucked and I wouldn't recommend watching it lol. There was this one scene where this character named Takajou or whatever takes his shirt off while swimming, and the dude is like anime-ripped. The main character made a comment about his muscles, and I was like oh frogs what about me. 

That was that. I looked down at my stomach, which honestly was still skinny thinking back on it now. I then looked over to my Dr. Pepper empty can mountain, lined up in three long rows across my nightstand. The next day, my orthorexia started in full-force seemingly out of nowhere for my family, and my long struggle with the disorder began. My trigger was literally some lame anime I was watching while drinking soda.

But yeah, being a weeb can have its consequences. I still struggle with eating foods that are ""unhealthy,"" and I still can't eat sweets or anything with trans fats in it. But aside from that, I meet my nutritional needs and now at the age of 18 I am back to 150lbs, and am gaining muscle thanks the the boxing gym that I joined last month! 😄 I don't know why I'm sharing this, but I just found myself thinking about the long journey my stupid disorder has taken me on. I wish you guys all the best with your disorders and in your lives in general, and I would love to hear any stories you guys have. Don't give up... even being on this subreddit means you're striving towards beating this damn thing, and that's something you should be very proud of.

TL;DR: anime was a mistake.",6.557872629301201,6.673858654631085,6.536569222283507,78.86258135686707,65.27943485086342,9.398260426831856,31.65891637320209,9.068930737419137,2.5918559039416182,2621,92,487,40,37,832,311,637,0.10800000000000001,0.7709999999999999,0.12,0.7878,0,0,2,0,0,0,91.0,0,7,1,7,23,32,4,4,37,2,46,31,7,7,4,91,79,44,0,16,11,1,0,3,0,9,6,1,0,5,33,33,22,4,7,10,0,6,5,12,2,8,26,9,61,20,82,39,20,91,0,1,5,1,27,38,2,12,48,338,94,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04208286732210177,0.06489019188312521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184961125710996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951691047249754,0.0,0.037723576064642834,0.0,0.15797477123336118,0.0,0.06494286170931779,0.0,0.13512139703996473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309430046354805,0.06357134859512198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19954852523459066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836951750544289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06062222064150001,0.0,0.3799333046337764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040873434358069456,0.0,0.20855789881931636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833820813176412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052638030016434134,0.22448913612788227,0.13570401516077865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593642430605069,0.03516979011134832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24509737482987526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635102719411313,0.0,0.06974714445610268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06444208914187315,0.034009525120380184,0.05044327032286549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069938182823792,0.0,0.05464421913112962,0.2738245245650342,0.1039330226529208,0.0,0.0,0.05261109527697653,0.05585222871838565,0.05855561562311391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740921760073705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247714741932908,0.14818433551499835,0.0,0.04549145533830118,0.04588579323289177,0.0,0.11953484112485163,0.06581374995165548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659038534152898,0.16773530610846554,0.0,0.06584835273124066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0629577150271107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07043691285299596,0.07928824395609706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05633636769369904,0.0,0.06991068282729675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04764090231070741,0.06120431331228979,0.0,0.1314042709195393,0.0,0.1976808089008306,0.0,0.07088728162622951,0.12938803424347312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305730415675588,0.0,0.0,0.05697396543842926,0.0,0.0,0.04111261368390652,0.07930483061481405,0.0,0.0,0.10825421011157982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815587612941648,0.051060326296968384,0.10950138450844137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128130491908188,0.0,0.055840187272489406,0.0,0.07116291218727339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637613594303226,0.0,0.0,0.039850912159448096
EDAnonymous,uptempovibes,2019/07/28,"Anyone wanting to iMessage for support? Are there any iMessage groups (I don’t have kik, discord, or Skype) for support?",5.127142857142856,7.980685761904766,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,72.33333333333333,4.2,39.07142857142857,3.1291,2.4063142857142856,95,6,14,0,2,28,18,21,0.106,0.6679999999999999,0.226,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677584466504456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753139568736953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8936287948800623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322395667389543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bluetintedroses,2019/07/28,"Quitting ED forums & other mental health forums is helping me! So I've been on many ED forums for years: proed/edanonymous, edanonymemes, binge eating disorder (I'm mostly a binge eater, with a side of restriction). I've also been on other forums like anxiety, depression, dpdr. And honestly? After quitting all them (all on a different account), my thoughts have been better. They're more positive, I find myself caring less about diets while being able to go on one more easily (which is very ironic but a nice surprise!). 

I think it's about surrounding yourself with positive thoughts. Human brains are very sensitive to patterns and so the more you are around something, the more you think like it. I guess I just needed a break from the negativity, to spend some time in my own head. I don't think I will come back here or other ""support"" subreddits because in the end it just harms me. You guys are all so nice and supportive, but the thoughts are just too negative and I end up ""getting"" them since I am susceptible to them.

I'm not really sure why I'm posting this, but good luck to all of you -- you can do it!! <3",5.298694968553463,6.6513607877358485,5.67388679245283,79.55664779874212,68.48113207547169,8.860880503144655,29.227672955974842,9.21078282632365,2.5141310691823904,885,32,161,17,15,283,128,212,0.1,0.7190000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.9594,1,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,5,3,3,13,15,0,0,10,0,16,5,2,0,5,34,33,13,0,1,8,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,9,8,2,1,7,0,2,2,4,2,0,1,6,0,21,13,22,25,12,21,0,1,0,0,11,10,0,5,9,113,30,0,0.13596593891962838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873191223088607,0.0,0.1473190380134481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040135711183754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103851209149533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045494143526542,0.0,0.08288357437518662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025082381958364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178295447007506,0.0,0.0,0.1386263363833709,0.0,0.0,0.11712261713225708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710726395863395,0.0,0.0,0.14205546729608054,0.15582874553841675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912709944864285,0.0,0.0,0.2408509301080585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427040494186907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103659129832762,0.0,0.0772725764243168,0.1140417787055054,0.0,0.0,0.14978181065546514,0.1346276560648976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395402795058667,0.14452543501762208,0.0,0.0,0.09113510281884016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328521797025516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784812136653696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13702168690085814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081702089074804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092134039038097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021778502806425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892330248385189,0.0,0.0,0.08710326207875824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247242970756097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467322247509472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085850724334421,0.12814628834095768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613644507871267,0.0,0.3238253038782865,0.07928283239315209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437227822749606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122688111726015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755760684582695
EDAnonymous,bass_whole,2019/07/28,"Thrifting I feel like thrift shopping is the trendy, environmentally sustainable thing to do at the moment, but personally, I find thrift shopping really difficult. That size x skirt? Tailored down to a size y, but I don't know that and now I feel fat. That size z dress? It's vintage, so it's really a size who-even-knows-but-its-way-tight and now I feel fat. Unlike a traditional store, I can't grab a larger size, I have to accept that the clothing doesn't fit, which in my disordered brain, feels like a monumental failure. All the vloggers who thrift seemingly just stroll in and have every piece flatter them, but my experience is so, so different from that.

Anyone else find thrift store upsetting or triggering?",4.766282225237447,6.869454895522388,5.3638941655359575,78.30329036635005,70.94029850746269,9.051831750339213,27.853459972862957,9.573946990214177,2.653740298507463,572,21,105,14,11,184,82,134,0.122,0.7979999999999999,0.079,-0.8174,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,0,6,6,0,1,9,0,8,3,3,1,1,19,14,10,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,10,3,2,0,9,2,9,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,10,4,8,14,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,2,5,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457179131822773,0.21353011638878044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326429829804568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177333270117532,0.2388441068546153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17409120498775346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376460339371068,0.0,0.17558573233195768,0.0,0.0,0.20385489174092827,0.0,0.0,0.42149259262374267,0.2977615693437353,0.0,0.0,0.3809470938657427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453102295967292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362712986688392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18196657645194028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670123636488573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897192565598368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384514980758139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16541797870988936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,juiceinmotion,2019/07/28,"therapist: why do you think being thin is so important to you? my depressed, anxious ass: how else am I gonna dunk 🏀🗑 on the haters ☠️💀👻 with literally nothing else going for me?

Brian, hun, being skinny is all I have.

no but really, it’s satisfying to know that at the very least, no one can legitimately call me fat. yeah, I put myself through hell to be skinny, but at least they can’t say I’m chubby.  no one can say that. they’d be objectively wrong. *hair falls out*

this is winning, right? guys??",-0.2343681318681305,2.0395860576923117,2.6244505494505503,89.47769230769232,92.26923076923076,5.663736263736265,18.005494505494504,7.1686216300943375,0.3686917582417588,386,11,85,7,14,135,80,104,0.22399999999999998,0.6629999999999999,0.113,-0.9044,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,2,1,2,5,2,0,2,1,14,5,5,1,1,8,19,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,2,3,0,2,0,0,3,4,4,0,2,0,4,11,1,10,13,3,9,1,1,0,1,8,6,2,0,0,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568597293559529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321668902564536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583066327097112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798715175586346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292177733669535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22512884590248614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249548289998174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181645450717886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081392112625453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22856639997804096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565697301214126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941699767246,0.0,0.3616223579370191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639903408028401,0.0,0.14568744363906594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18760139456605388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051631425976728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24858986710387054,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,llaannaa,2019/07/28,"Slowly saving money and not having my ED make me broke So I've had to get really honest with myself and the money issues I have stemming directly from my ED.

Ive lived paycheck to paycheck for about 5 years because of the b/p cycle I'm stuck in. I don't treat myself to clothes I want, new technology, or going out because I'm constantly broke because I've essentially eaten my paycheck. I'm in debt because of it. It's made me feel like financial independence is never going to be attainable. I just feel so stagnant in my life. 

I recently went on a trip overseas with my significant other and it was an absolute game changer for me. It's made me realise how much I want to get back to traveling and how in order to do that I need to get a handle on my money. And if I can save for a trip I can learn to appreciate the value of my money more and try to get myself to a place where I'm not blowing it all on food.

It's lit a fire under my ass. I need to get a handle on my ED. I want to be able to fund therapy. I want to know that if my health ever gets serious I can safely pay for treatment. I want to be able to have my family rely on my financially in hard times. I don't want to get to the end of my life and feel like I lived in the dark and lonely comfort of my eating disorder. 

Thanks capitalism because you may be the reason I decide to fix my life.",3.8113165905631625,3.760260116438357,6.214063926940643,79.40437595129379,71.12328767123287,9.091628614916287,27.86605783866057,8.998388855275968,2.0645473363774736,1062,34,227,19,18,383,138,292,0.095,0.784,0.121,0.6741,1,2,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,1,9,13,0,0,13,0,18,8,1,7,3,45,50,15,0,10,6,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,11,3,1,7,2,7,6,5,4,0,0,7,6,41,9,46,38,3,31,0,3,1,1,2,15,1,4,11,151,50,2,0.2224377779398598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552046048556661,0.0,0.3389900120983184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018810774232662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12746648231220115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380468924230848,0.0,0.0,0.09850692411217353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060385247486166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484727029321296,0.0,0.16870683605070466,0.1589095930054054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344863220134595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067509536750094,0.0,0.12641651528382652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09963027890094228,0.0,0.0,0.11822047814531918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608362451009716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061122992752648486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356715712383069,0.1086718625352589,0.0,0.19641663316990374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104760038071624,0.0742394720162547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817586804022782,0.1649347938435559,0.08577886360062803,0.10741589601592208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162000672397333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124966819655155,0.11435154134088844,0.10981523531106566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239541023452632,0.1271884923594005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06485262855697893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551032501097177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935986937790925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031010243294928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162131804212467
EDAnonymous,g-corr,2019/07/28,"Grace and Frankie??? Does anyone else watch Grace and Frankie on netflix? the two main characters have some weird attitudes around food that the series draws attention too repeatedly and integrates into their personalities. 

Grace (played my Jane Fonda who’s been open about her own disordered habits) is very uptight about food, never eats carbs, mentions she hasn’t eaten ice cream in 9 years, etc. She’s always depicted as very vain and uptight and was in charge of a cosmetics company. 
Frankie on the other hand (who is pretty much as thin as Grace) is seen eating “junk food” to cope with stress, constantly comments about Grace’s restrictive habits- “eating cake wont kill you you know”, wears flowy hippy clothes, smokes weed, and is portrayed as clumsy, forgetful, impulsive etc. 
I don’t know how popular this show is but I wanted to see what people thought!!",9.574868421052633,9.488132539473686,7.889736842105265,72.33815789473687,59.131578947368425,11.547368421052632,36.76315789473684,10.9516,4.041207894736843,694,27,115,15,8,207,113,152,0.069,0.83,0.10099999999999999,0.7161,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,1,0,6,13,1,3,4,0,11,9,2,1,1,23,18,12,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,10,7,3,4,3,0,0,4,6,0,1,5,6,9,7,17,12,6,12,0,0,4,0,11,8,0,1,4,64,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087138270591034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015720485822602,0.14884025499656098,0.0,0.12931586244203874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15697890509832088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16648526385823995,0.0,0.12712160822608648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459243725830143,0.12134953036721745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32401577991026576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5269618428214485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071322345065805,0.0,0.15966672009204594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678584073683099,0.0,0.11203664273901093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007078486830776,0.1268390243868245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14778583098834086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575669431549974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16639955591027514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532348321202435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190193518969474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23971622061200504,0.08568054022177299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935453290608043
EDAnonymous,modeledebarbant,2019/07/28,"I'm terrified of who I'm becoming. I just ate so much food - way more than I've ever eaten before in one sitting, and boy is that saying something. I feel like I'm incapable of finding peace with myself and this binge-eating, and I feel so hopeless. I haven't felt this horrible about my eating habits in a long time, and I think it's because it's really hitting me - the impact this is having on my life. 

My roommates are out of the country for the next 2 weeks. I'm alone, with my family 3+ hours away and a shift at work tomorrow that I can't afford to miss. I feel like I take 1 step forward and 10 steps back, and I don't know what to do anymore. I can't put into words how scared I am of myself. It's so frustrating, but I can't help it. I've never been healthy, and that's all I want, but I don't have any motivation because I'm so freaking exhausted all the time. 

Sorry for the super-depressing content. I just need some support right now. I just recently heard about this group, and I just know that I need to throw myself into something other than food for once in my life. 

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**### This is my first post here, so if I added the wrong flair, please let me know.**",2.5370445344129533,3.728690720647776,4.098623481781377,88.83190283400812,74.99190283400809,7.143319838056681,23.931174089068822,7.669130373188453,0.9954421052631583,916,27,201,12,19,306,136,247,0.159,0.778,0.063,-0.9709,1,1,2,0,0,1,41.0,0,0,0,3,16,10,1,1,8,0,16,8,0,2,4,41,39,18,0,4,7,0,4,2,0,0,3,2,0,1,16,14,5,0,10,0,0,5,7,7,0,2,5,6,30,3,25,32,5,31,0,2,0,0,6,11,0,2,16,129,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351988930419553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13968230719769414,0.15664915337603466,0.08766847755638851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785174748537625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12112245157086995,0.09912977718204588,0.0,0.1571741039533655,0.14237950484896947,0.10969949346483716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110366524240956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191502270694616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661346796854045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12153216298532513,0.0,0.19555403434265656,0.1841977049383876,0.12378123833497075,0.0,0.1178284701878615,0.10965735575447924,0.31177566302924903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641083732350065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695799609978342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125494396732973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13182711393842575,0.18211681128587048,0.12596538252850312,0.0,0.0,0.11408813473891173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947693654238892,0.19118172739537306,0.09942930133186624,0.0,0.13710546898757064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729317562407234,0.08735799064279128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151295488412585,0.0,0.0,0.12346754972180148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959792652630325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258799932223097,0.0,0.12729070617454302,0.0,0.0,0.1100950375015151,0.0,0.10252055371807238,0.12906913816789856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849433466710634,0.0,0.14431284470896324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629431289232284,0.0,0.0,0.09693008936964616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260527627137912,0.0,0.0,0.15034593083390393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603901762598426,0.10232889389004607,0.1034100272555212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385364324855454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14095130052013796,0.15664915337603466,0.0
EDAnonymous,dootdootoops,2019/07/28,"Feels like a nice little spiral... TW numbers

I’m hungry, but I’m overweight.  Told myself if I got under 147 I could eat.

Saw I was actually below that.  “You can wait until tomorrow...”

Hoe you could have just said that to begin with.",-0.3293478260869556,1.8060490000000016,2.300326086956524,88.81179347826088,102.47826086956522,4.039130434782609,14.445652173913045,5.985473137389443,-0.3614260869565218,178,4,34,2,8,61,38,46,0.07400000000000001,0.843,0.083,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,8,14,3,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,6,2,5,7,0,6,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,4,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.3249959691253642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5318057236329128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34077988712868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839346114226267,0.23792162488465515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663600290496548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270500493164808,0.3337904614970448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31679435256254584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31823102589440416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,solostat27,2019/07/28,"I’m not going to purge tonight. I’m not going to purge tonight. I’m not. I had a piece of pizza and 2 pieces of cheesy bread, but I’m not going to purge. I’m not. 

I hate the feeling of food in my stomach. I’ve been clenching my jaw so hard since I ate that I have a headache. But I need to break the cycle. 

It’s okay to eat. It’s okay to eat. It’s okay to eat. I’m okay. 

I hope I can do this.",-3.4609323308270667,-1.9644432210526297,-0.14988721804511052,108.22328947368423,102.26315789473685,2.7142857142857144,13.101503759398494,3.1291,-1.9159022556390968,294,6,87,0,14,103,47,95,0.044000000000000004,0.76,0.196,0.9245,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,4,4,5,9,2,0,0,11,19,4,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,7,0,1,0,0,3,5,1,0,0,3,2,9,5,11,16,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7226259373868512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190264716354332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846493852983721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013536413409626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108742154716695,0.23241102738019914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23380759079394225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745478163838225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19472720811808214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jeanne1C13,2019/09/15,"Panicking bc of PMS Bloating and Wedding Dress Appointments this Week When I got engaged, I promised myself this wouldn't be an excuse for a full-on relapse (after being semi-recovered for a while now).  But of course my body decided to really test that theory.  Started having PMS symptoms a week ago and started panicking because I have 4 wedding dress appointments this Friday (I have the implant so periods are super unpredictable but I thought I'd be good since I had one a couple months ago).   I'm bloated af (a few pounds up on the scale and you can really tell around my midsection), crampy, pissed, and all I want to do is eat my feelings.  And I could handle it if my stupid body would just start my period already so it'd be over for the dress shopping, but nope we can't have that can we.

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And then yesterday there was a beer festival in my town, which was super fun, but today I feel disgusting because the bloating got so much worse.  I started crying when I saw myself in the mirror and stepped on the scale this morning.  Ended up running until my legs gave out and have been restricting all day.

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So I'm desperately trying to figure out how to make the bloating stop over the next 4 days, not to mention being pissed that I'm probably going to have to wear a pad while trying on dresses so that'll be fun and not inconvenient at all...  And of course my ED brain just wants me to starve myself and run off the water weight and abuse laxatives by Thursday and my body image is just at an all-time low right now.

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Anyone else go through something similar and have advice?  I'm just so sad and angry about all of this.",6.3122282341367475,6.5351640529595025,6.511719954090836,78.46815051647813,65.79127725856698,9.49932775864896,32.159534349893434,9.276330184999452,2.770204984423676,1315,49,244,22,19,422,175,321,0.184,0.725,0.091,-0.99,0,0,2,0,1,0,43.0,2,1,0,2,18,14,4,0,18,0,29,15,8,2,4,49,49,33,0,6,11,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,12,20,4,2,5,2,1,5,5,6,0,1,9,4,27,8,35,29,6,51,0,2,1,0,9,18,2,1,28,168,39,1,0.0,0.1174227678171746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968438867007958,0.17570053023998494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936441146772168,0.0,0.0,0.32213943986887106,0.3612688789072472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692962539075138,0.10154439381566402,0.0,0.08822412231643936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082651178283875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33024867054219675,0.0,0.11063353067820264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912697406159154,0.10965737593229888,0.10886177038581836,0.12782856107909468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140876674037486,0.08278919235417409,0.0,0.0877772766316688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022054626206213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126468776981,0.0831242524370536,0.15852603439977286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615310274777432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910436137891548,0.0,0.0728532980944442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539888663232692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715585468747523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685154128848136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697791331057173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463480313433687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198036496223753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629557752591952,0.0,0.0,0.2805870376899605,0.0,0.0,0.08285589910171676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300764563012743,0.0,0.0,0.08662180522583737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786779973989328,0.0,0.0,0.09393959082058023,0.0,0.0,0.1345710618166827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690894400603635,0.0,0.15899149493939727,0.12068272701185535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099607351355472,0.0704010778928062,0.0,0.3612688789072472,0.0
EDAnonymous,romatosaucey,2019/09/15,"oh my god uni is incredible you can buy healthy food for urself, no one keeps track of your eating, you're so busy you forget to eat even when you planned to...i am in actual heaven :))))) i gained sooooo much during last year and im already losing 3 days in between the food situation and the clubbing until 6am lol",1.9338020833333327,3.934193109375002,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,78.84375,6.1416666666666675,21.604166666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.6283104166666669,245,7,51,3,6,82,53,64,0.09699999999999999,0.7140000000000001,0.18899999999999997,0.7605,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,3,3,2,0,0,2,1,3,4,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,6,1,7,4,1,7,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.22036900206888585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491994068155631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563604909262068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4621431081363761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14915283101586047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5461279958754447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24392574227085576,0.0,0.0,0.20072033672081485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407448976374907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526362585305623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660046300807026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15302234911445828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25383258936054115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454215056918159
EDAnonymous,Waterweightless,2019/09/15,"The neverending cycle of my life Is anyone else stuck in a cycle that goes something like this:

Restrict --> Lose weight --> Fucked up hunger cues and food obsession--> Binge --> Gain weight --> Normalised hunger --> Restrict

It makes me wanna yeet myself of a cliff🤠",4.274285714285714,7.691739285714287,2.0706122448979585,92.68510204081636,84.71428571428571,4.4326530612244905,19.244897959183675,6.1826913282559595,0.13744081632653016,231,6,38,2,7,62,39,49,0.308,0.597,0.095,-0.9042,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,3,0,1,7,0,1,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,1,5,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021767544143775,0.2787385674773269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22725568603323154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289535463970119,0.0,0.0,0.2514978950250279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19215088935720495,0.1329056889925367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30434474635889097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815897500709745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20943076407581668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6625462850781785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Palestinianqueen,2019/09/15,HOW DO I TELL MY GRANDMA ABOUT MY ANOREXIA??? I really need help and I'm ready to recover bit I don't know how to tell my grandma. I think she is catching onto me but I just want to come clean and tell her and get help because I can't recover on my own. How do I tell her I'm anorexic?,-0.9180659340659324,0.8234484461538436,2.191428571428574,95.89,87.61538461538461,5.560439560439562,21.59340659340659,6.868970318607317,0.40003296703296704,219,8,55,3,7,78,37,65,0.0,0.782,0.218,0.9129999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,13,13,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,15,0,6,13,2,4,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,0,35,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14127127848098384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530085228036449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963016781122608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12107863526998475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31067126597203953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12736250365167318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718380214806942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846354403140044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8102309990097974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849460177733975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13669082837778565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,earthlingsideas,2019/09/15,"People getting suspicious TL;DR at the end. Also apologies for format, I’m on mobile.

Right boys here’s the (green) tea! The guy I’m dating unknowingly sent thinspo to our group chat and the people who have recovered/are recovering went ‘yeah no that’s thinspo’. He obviously didn’t know what thinspo or proana or any of it so people briefly explained but he got kinda upset because he kind of catastrophised the damage he’d done. I messaged him to explain that everything was okay and we got into the conversation about thinspo, what it is, how someone he saw as healthy is distorted by dysmorphia, etc etc.

So yeah that eventually led to the question ‘do you struggle’ and I was like oh fuck. Oh no. He’s connected the dots he knows. Oh god. I spent so long trying to work out what to say that he changed subject and I didn’t have to answer.

But TODAY DAMN I ask how he is and he says he’s worried about something but mostly good so I was like ‘what are you worried about’ and he said he’ll bring it up when we meet tomorrow and I’m like OH GOD OH NO because idk how to lie irl pleaseeee I need advice that isn’t ‘tell him’.

I told my ex about my ED and she forced me to eat, gaslighted me for struggling, used to tell me i wasn’t trying hard enough because I couldn’t eat breakfast and I had to do so much to show her ‘how committed I am to our relationship’. She tried to give me an ultimatum between her and the ED and it made my life hell for four long months. I can’t do that again. Plus he’s a neurotypical, he wouldn’t get it.

TL;DR potential partner might ask directly about my ED and I don’t want to tell him because of bad past experience. Need to lie convincingly. Help???",1.2702684766214176,3.702192482352944,2.907058823529411,89.7480467571644,84.47058823529412,5.840120663650076,23.423831070889893,7.2200825789825185,0.9833763197586728,1324,50,275,20,39,435,177,340,0.157,0.736,0.107,-0.9664,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,4,2,0,1,18,15,3,3,11,3,25,6,0,7,2,46,53,30,0,5,5,1,1,3,1,3,1,3,0,3,16,17,4,0,6,2,1,4,11,8,0,1,17,6,36,7,35,31,5,20,1,1,2,1,55,6,3,7,13,161,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542970546126043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628028646866184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336948853751209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017267908130682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008436640983414,0.2630770817477221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413423028846872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104098147093142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079858156993049,0.0,0.0,0.0955592834688694,0.1114801055060138,0.24065367024924045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696535341460924,0.10553796946994266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974336698080537,0.1127370487877055,0.10349874967950287,0.0,0.0904937394572166,0.1725803629334545,0.0,0.0,0.10682891980432142,0.0,0.0,0.09664902390756004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07231697316114058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235173412589264,0.1185879966014322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620650928683335,0.15813008188040886,0.0,0.0,0.19096004236206204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020889459927716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445515885225704,0.0,0.0,0.08611745981082798,0.0,0.07931220050790816,0.15999941994765968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299403959355964,0.22439382503407426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208624617762734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583441293152813,0.0,0.09213820996045972,0.10262892021670576,0.17159829394868678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141558054561004,0.08305965962938118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225581917283758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28290411679876304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226792551154094,0.1030943459149863,0.0,0.2197524473812554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318306728318274,0.0,0.0,0.06363682805515752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001591358810133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854583533858549,0.21913682290777486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,UglyPuke,2019/09/15,"i cant get in between hey my dudes - i’ve never been officially diagnosed as someone with an eating disorder so im really sorry but this is the only place i feel will listen to me

when my depression acts up i seek comfort in food to make me feel better. i eat so much until i feel like im about to explode. it makes me feel so good while im consuming it. and then when im done with it i feel like vomiting and i suddenly have this aversion to food

after the unhealthy binging i always stop eating for awhile to make up for everything i consumed. but sometimes it goes too far and i can’t go back to eating normally anymore. this is happening to me right now. i’ve lost my appetite and every 3 days i’ll have one small meal to calm down my stomach and so that i’ll be able to drink medicine

i know when i start eating regularly it won’t last that long and i’ll fall back into binge eating

it’s an endless cycle

again sorry if this doesnt belong here",1.2633582089552249,3.3119425373134352,3.4757686567164185,88.04320522388059,81.33830845771145,6.408059701492538,22.487810945273644,7.554174236665415,1.0033201990049747,754,25,158,12,20,258,117,201,0.12300000000000001,0.772,0.105,-0.4337,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,14,8,0,0,4,0,12,13,1,3,1,24,27,20,0,2,3,0,5,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,12,9,10,1,6,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,3,6,20,6,24,21,1,31,0,2,0,0,2,10,0,1,20,99,32,0,0.0967855795069865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053335548093267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598528780990748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488442728471741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559897987723726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06241869191078761,0.0,0.08336127780806855,0.09823532587914788,0.0,0.0,0.11092465922437823,0.0,0.0,0.09904525107111577,0.0,0.09481302126189936,0.0,0.5942148622923588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154602506245147,0.0,0.08698463809068642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446884854000579,0.13828727467692872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23406701383890074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050566470614921456,0.0,0.05500547525837544,0.08117915212974297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558716831874326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4181801374254997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319082333546663,0.07889316509741172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456909063731353,0.0,0.0,0.08565219219911331,0.0,0.0,0.10565289316707112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938153776197657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07114853722914315,0.0,0.07464700555750182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482931839255967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06558441350441939,0.07360979454030964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112033082428187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062003320568578914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265435607154452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200610743519282,0.0,0.09572341293326952,0.216687064611936,0.0685053313276889,0.0,0.0,0.08091707823920989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bitchmittz,2019/09/15,"Bruh my breath smells like ass This is weird. Whenever I eat, my breath smells fine. However, as soon as I go 18-24 hours without eating, my breath starts to smell really bad, regardless of how much I brush my teeth. It tastes like something's burning and it smells like... fart. It reminds me of keto breath but it happens too soon after eating for it to be that. Anybody else know what I'm talking about?",2.407120253164557,4.796848240506332,2.899224683544308,91.86503955696205,79.25316455696202,5.975316455696203,22.53322784810127,7.1686216300943375,0.7485050632911392,317,10,64,4,8,98,57,79,0.077,0.86,0.063,-0.2724,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,2,10,6,1,0,6,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,6,8,4,10,6,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,8,35,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19173919831422548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7049349077929736,0.19183414332036786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050928911398993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20306924796287054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261484235271735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620373714237776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365704432129141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688112859976035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711279653710346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678752911616674,0.0,0.0,0.1625398571705583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845753465516224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22136406147148527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HippoGloria,2019/09/15,If I binge and then fast for 48h am I having a eating disorder? I mostly binge on healthy food,-0.669666666666668,1.516552700000002,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,97.0,4.666666666666667,16.666666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.11183333333333324,74,2,16,1,3,25,17,20,0.139,0.722,0.139,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,12,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5861796158226776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233531812346099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6184617253198386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dangdangmian,2019/09/15,"DAE feel like they're bingeing whenever they eat any snack foods, regardless of the actual calorie content? This is my first post here so I'm sorry if I accidentally broke any rules!

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Lately I've been finding that whenever I eat any type of snack food, I feel immensely guilty and gluttonous afterwards regardless of the actual calorie content and quantity/volume of the snack food I ate. It doesn't matter how carefully measured and portioned my servings are or whether I planned to eat these foods in advance (I typically plan out my full day of eating the night before), I will still feel as if I've binged after consuming snack foods. 

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I find this feeling particularly odd because I am never in a binge state of mind when I eat snacks like this and have probably never experienced a ""real"" binge before as I pre-log all of my calories and am terrified of eating unplanned foods. In theory, I should feel guilt-free about eating foods like this because the snack foods I typically eat are usually prepackaged into single-serving sizes with included nutritional information or I meticulously pre-portion servings myself from larger packages. 

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I'm totally baffled by why I feel such immense guilt from eating foods that have never been fear foods for me in the past solely because they can be categorized as ""snack foods."" I'm really annoyed about the whole situation because it's not like I need another restrictive food rule to add to my list! I was just wondering if anyone else here has had similar experiences.",10.687558528428092,9.648390275362324,10.005217391304344,61.14446488294315,57.47826086956522,13.274916387959864,42.96989966555184,12.230961643895464,5.5213063545150485,1260,60,193,33,13,405,157,276,0.09,0.856,0.053,-0.8376,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,2,4,10,9,1,2,9,0,17,30,0,1,5,42,30,17,0,7,8,0,6,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,9,30,1,11,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,5,7,26,5,28,22,5,23,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,6,17,117,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.09816289850378253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16348644721185004,0.18334472030123264,0.10260861390183547,0.05273953565623369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03516799545265633,0.05153399467622303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263942067086125,0.0,0.08559604914564226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05127992401372068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03243663258297545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.463186472837381,0.04201569025832992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049198947124495684,0.0,0.05659676234081496,0.15258641772660525,0.0359313322843066,0.0,0.0,0.09193890697579994,0.04278158501866841,0.7298146271829665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05673585741742763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982879567900235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050784424116042816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0372937012218943,0.1163736735855665,0.0,0.0,0.04719920473512388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048013035815938264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04816947699611257,0.0,0.054227383245823324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057247635877181735,0.03222077981195009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056534590782786776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056302034576008936,0.0,0.0,0.04016629388442933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553937221480765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045384139917670215,0.05615346877601193,0.0,0.0,0.05454365374576711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18334472030123264,0.0
EDAnonymous,haley_n_s,2019/09/15,had a bag of frozen peas for dinner for 350cal and still purged it living my best life rn.,5.670526315789478,4.614045526315788,5.483157894736844,89.59210526315792,67.42105263157895,7.6,19.0,3.1291,-0.4518842105263166,71,0,16,0,1,22,18,19,0.0,0.802,0.198,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6041132117819138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4066013459183514,0.0,0.0,0.5083129054641745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45971791675602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silverice123,2019/09/15,i just dont want to do this anymore i give up. i dont care anymore. i dont want to do another day like this. another day thats good or bad. another day that ends in me either restricting and feeling like shit or binging and feeling even worse. i cant take it another day of the same. i am so sad. i thought it would get better when school started but it hasnt. its the same or even worse. i hate this. i hate being alive like this. i dont want to wake up to this again. i want things to be normal like they used to be.,-1.2959710144927534,0.6893829391304394,1.252173913043478,99.74028985507248,93.52173913043478,4.8057971014492775,18.10144927536232,6.42735559955562,-0.24191594202898514,398,12,100,5,15,135,59,115,0.251,0.5920000000000001,0.156,-0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,6,12,3,0,2,0,13,2,2,1,0,21,28,8,0,6,6,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,2,13,7,10,23,3,11,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,3,12,65,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4617791373585466,0.0,0.0,0.21837040551795253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09192518615841712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737056779333823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122497514446206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28401008895140123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5161246619879558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975119798487235,0.0,0.0,0.1454341458316664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11133523689214586,0.07865228343373375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057520381225820864,0.1056136842675634,0.0,0.09234292449736116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739312637087813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21514849976625874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787026420853656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114225750513206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301150070027802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792619745952888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277815258239654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314259185619157,0.0,0.0,0.08740356948069962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508720711703623,0.0,0.0,0.25974883317214226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243935438229536,0.07820872043704938,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ExtremeCarob,2019/09/15,"The most triggering character on Friends isn't Monica or Rachel It's Chandler. 

Matthew Perry's real life weight flux from his addiction struggles is TOO REAL. They didn't write his weight gain/loss into the show at all. 

The most striking difference is between The One With the Proposal and The One With Monicas Thunder. They keep the character in the exact same outfit, but Perry's gotta be at LEAST 40 lbs lighter.",4.551428571428573,7.023281615384616,4.791611721611726,80.55576923076926,72.58974358974359,8.559706959706961,30.37362637362637,9.23628265651192,3.0353934065934056,338,15,58,8,7,106,56,78,0.024,0.948,0.027999999999999997,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,8,0,5,4,0,1,2,16,7,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,3,4,1,9,4,5,5,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,0,38,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25547066380125555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448406694248606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810543821100307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20829662240209715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552481892387194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175965026096017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334718777038624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449882979835244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5707382059646832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,petitefelid,2019/09/15,"It hurts to move and breathe TW: Purging


Yesterday, I purged for the first time in a long time, and now my back and ribcage is so. fucking. sore. I CAN move and breathe fine, it just hurts, probably because I strained myself whilst purging. Idfk. Fuck this. Does anybody else experience this, or am I fucking dying?",1.6879118773946369,4.445367982758626,1.978505747126437,92.35595785440613,93.3103448275862,4.6467432950191565,28.858237547892717,6.42735559955562,1.516993869731801,245,13,46,3,9,74,44,58,0.24100000000000002,0.731,0.027999999999999997,-0.9283,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,3,1,2,0,3,6,2,0,0,6,6,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,1,0,0,6,1,3,6,0,11,0,2,0,3,0,1,3,1,8,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15292054533469535,0.0,0.12123072588421968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063980795969491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740345152734508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661323121287084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19453529835726246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691607014423189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5515627906872436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257938827117321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599575300621614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227396253931836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144180067952621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319281086423853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Tahylika,2018/12/19,"Can’t work it when restricting I’m like incapable of working out in any way when restricting (300-500 kcal) or fasting. I need to work out because I can’t just sit down all the damn time. But I just feel so weak, and just trying some physical activity makes me nauseous and I feel like I’m going to pass out. It makes me irritated because I read about others being able to work out while restricting/fasting without any problems.

Eating before doesn’t help because if I want to save some kcals to after the workout I have a budget of like 250, and that doesn’t make me feel good enough to exercise.

Any ideas how to fix this? Should I up my intake on exercise days (but that feels stupid because then 50% of the reason why I’m exercising is gone)

Such issues 🙂🙂🙂",5.629126984126984,5.5694838896103915,6.331385281385285,80.14644300144303,67.24675324675324,9.441847041847042,30.74747474747475,9.150863307647796,2.420588167388168,605,21,122,10,9,199,95,154,0.129,0.746,0.125,-0.4182,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,9,9,2,0,4,0,8,5,0,5,1,35,22,13,0,5,8,0,4,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,7,1,2,6,5,1,3,5,4,0,0,1,4,12,5,21,19,4,21,0,0,0,0,1,8,1,4,11,72,18,5,0.1499291467312271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058708832002386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655816650213118,0.0,0.1275786610648304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669189631279934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15341494695856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491688716055524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30323472581647404,0.10710941238204866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520818920589865,0.12575345493796694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049434668316637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925175722109312,0.0,0.15648707637218534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21974342363745933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30023660898599497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11117056255588477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434619450482347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499697196876148,0.0,0.0,0.1541521335038279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742489115723802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017920490228376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843209527232354,0.11900677804790227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13528773493794044,0.0,0.0,0.1445263472148251,0.0,0.4366008178714109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pmmeured,2018/12/19,"Please help me Please tell me something so I can stop binging. I can’t stop thinking about food. I need to stop or I am going to kill myself with obesity, please. I just want to stop. ",-0.02947368421052232,2.2782076315789475,1.3476842105263138,98.93678947368423,91.10526315789473,4.092631578947368,18.12631578947369,5.6839178017228535,-0.4834905263157898,142,4,32,1,5,45,26,38,0.308,0.46299999999999997,0.22899999999999998,-0.6921,0,0,1,0,0,1,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,10,7,2,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,5,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279028287210202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711379788999936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632977229098344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085179339048772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975066575061346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6206617105146549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509606014850004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6302889320491243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473409165753974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076616851112285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111166516602058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway-637,2018/12/19,"Anyone else not see anorexia as a disorder they have but as part of their identity? I don't even mind having anorexia, it doesn't causes me any suffering. As long as I'm satisfied with how I look at 14 bmi. I will probably always want to be underweight and take measures to stay underweight. It's just who I am. ",2.286190476190473,4.434108968253972,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,78.36507936507937,8.644444444444442,26.37301587301588,9.2995712137729,2.5459968253968253,247,10,49,7,6,84,51,63,0.098,0.818,0.084,-0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,2,0,9,12,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,9,10,1,3,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460985218302384,0.0,0.0,0.1835669428404889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18874676790532668,0.27658314917271504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773004516192918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.309372075248234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254983724689971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17829135384417258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23888643549131286,0.2266797445447344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725602010708973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923163039339338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910385760653163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151054568694739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877177506573041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20295961183307573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921629291689268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scattyduck,2018/12/19,"Feeling dead sick Almost been throwing up from how nauseous I feel. 

Anyone else like this right now?",4.2650000000000015,7.371049944444448,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,77.33333333333334,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.4298000000000002,81,3,13,0,2,23,18,18,0.309,0.528,0.163,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4378643622238083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057504827619935,0.4480364475740701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652843278303042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4421953377623149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136288253811305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37342757303052293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Johnjo01,2018/12/19,"Maybe figured out somwthing this morning? I've been struggling with AN and over-exercising for almost 20 years.  This morning I was reading the news, and getting totally down in the dumps over American politics, the Ebola crisis in the Congo, just all the crappy, horrible things going on in the world right now....and I realized something.  When I am heavily restricting and really in my disorder, I stop worrying about climate change and human trafficking and politics.  My world becomes so small....it's just me and my food and exercise, and nothing else matters.  I suddenly, for the first time, am really recognizing how much I use my disorder to escape from the realities of the world.  Can't be depressed about starving orphans when you have to run 6 miles on 50 call day!  Mind blown.  Anyone else starving to forget the realities of a harsh world you are essentially powerless to change?",6.378143459915607,8.448604556962025,6.871582278481017,69.24804852320676,66.72151898734178,10.836286919831224,35.951476793248936,10.864195022040775,4.678681856540084,712,36,111,22,12,232,105,158,0.257,0.718,0.025,-0.9897,1,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,8,3,1,1,12,0,8,2,0,2,2,25,11,12,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,10,1,2,2,2,0,2,1,3,0,1,2,0,13,0,21,8,3,25,0,1,0,0,4,15,0,1,8,75,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304842526878195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120835683677058,0.17706853629728062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19085967010215785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17646258626164224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656289486333066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114508411382692,0.0,0.14884458878678447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39612001453674256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887281229527868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699564214509447,0.2089675766704097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902882696016988,0.0,0.09821427359480916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361505852718126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449304486145215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703829697807273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581985403447205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17286093294089852,0.0,0.2214183610451336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758235435439462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330407886721395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444803816956068,0.0,0.18066288929859955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481005362173001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007693304966864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492559543051433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755011751603933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128665759560008
EDAnonymous,Yourtiming,2018/12/19,"Reasons my ED wants me to graduate and get a good career I know it’s messed up 😭

-I’ll be able to afford my own place to hide my b/p
-I’ll be able to afford the best binge foods (healthy and safe foods too since healthy food is more expensive than junk)
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EDAnonymous,monkeymo64,2018/12/19,"Am I the only sane person?! Saw a “The Office”  meme on another sub that I’m subscribed to and wanted to yell at people. The meme insinuated that one could absorb calories through their skin.  I’m already terrified of this. They think it’s a joke. Blaaaaahhhhhh I’m fkkd up. Sorry y’all, just needed to vent. ",1.7742142857142833,4.364748183333333,4.076190476190476,81.10500000000003,83.83333333333334,6.095238095238094,21.904761904761905,7.447530270364453,1.1249761904761908,241,8,45,4,7,83,48,60,0.098,0.863,0.039,-0.5255,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,9,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,8,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39520666824329015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3755317736005182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28593860989490577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26554973588074104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426789595251549,0.2723749042704947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482830708201336,0.3127063370571468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40089854107669337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294760027024555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21123505182535368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImMissBrightside,2018/12/19,"Does anyone else have an obsession with being ""perfect?"" I have these thoughts and worries about being perfect. I constantly stress about my body image. I just want so badly to be one of those perfect girls you see in the movies.

I need to have a perfect body, I can't look even a little chubby anywhere. I have to get rid of any bruises or marks on my face. I need to be clean. I have to always smell good. I have to be quiet and polite, I can't get upset. My hair needs to be straight. My outfit has to be tucked and neat. I can't show skin because that would be messy.

Idk this may be more along the lines of OCD maybe? I don't want to throw around the term since I dunno if I have it, but it definitely fuels my eating disorder. I am skinny. I'm just not skinny enough. I can do better, I need to look perfect...",0.663810457516341,2.752699158823532,2.3921568627450998,94.73359477124184,83.88235294117645,4.718954248366012,18.26797385620916,5.82211442006289,-0.3698888888888887,627,15,139,4,18,206,100,170,0.087,0.758,0.155,0.8575,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,6,7,12,0,3,6,0,26,8,7,0,5,27,39,7,0,8,6,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,6,6,3,0,1,1,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,7,23,8,20,27,3,8,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,4,2,95,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350788598857888,0.0,0.0,0.10911201907585903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219090224806126,0.1644007650921015,0.0,0.14283519417853285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13396968279424512,0.09780929421159404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14190565856770504,0.0,0.3564492472546614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17339027067697946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18389047207348205,0.0,0.14041154157247232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164181184334298,0.13403602161524586,0.0,0.0,0.16578852655258575,0.0,0.10597621391238438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765779976224013,0.0,0.0,0.13457848518125234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16081381371953793,0.0,0.0,0.2694764561435023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16119435474102875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4758888227094464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872558765850683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278584823066877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327265269492655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18379580378485127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737998113199275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892760310883574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294553552129118,0.0,0.11397961653989995,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TinaButtons,2018/12/19,"I hate eating Most food make me feel like crap. So I follow a modified Fodmap diet and that seems to help a little. But I hate cooking. I know I don't eat enough, but can't fathom eating more than I already do. I hate eating. Always have. People call me anorexic since I'm so skinny. But I don't hate food because I think I'm fat. Because I don't think I'm fat, I'm insecure about my weight. I hate food because it hates me... But I need it... I wish I didn't have to eat ",-0.7928205128205157,1.138609461538465,1.85923076923077,97.16910256410259,89.0,4.235897435897436,16.358974358974358,5.46131890053228,-0.7601641025641026,360,8,86,2,12,124,54,104,0.28,0.652,0.069,-0.9752,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,3,9,7,1,2,0,8,15,4,1,0,14,27,7,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,14,0,5,1,0,1,5,8,0,0,1,2,18,1,4,26,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,1,45,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505764863942505,0.0,0.08675579830038398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19067465575591255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646495338322666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334392649301261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773233254059918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05271888836376603,0.0744860489031897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782284468363309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6176332460476347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698857985966411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057300634167859424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05093800515193984,0.10449967568328704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06959686748378534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0773102547663735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228336113993547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491780858851866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624805730281736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361601112390714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269651673248013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11989817508856986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spoonjah,2018/12/19,"Weighing less as the day goes Does anyone else have that? It only started to be like this since November or so, my weight has been sometimes less during the day and at the night than in the morning after peeing. 

It's kind of weird, I mean it's kind of nice but also annoying in the morning and just very contradictive.",3.7847619047619037,5.463734142857145,4.495428571428572,85.27457142857145,72.65079365079364,6.944761904761903,25.29841269841269,7.554174236665415,1.256799365079365,253,8,49,3,5,81,49,63,0.078,0.868,0.054000000000000006,-0.3701,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,5,0,4,3,1,0,0,6,6,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,4,9,4,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,6,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19479022995423526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031626787046406,0.2495757158956217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31417691754737703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21315783407896832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20347919933149497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5073005902475454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190005128357822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653291996919354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22858261591173645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852529878631864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014912641260813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409060963298699,0.0,0.17240663952760074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097838240204666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966138932780109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,symiam,2018/12/19,"I’ve been following he ABC Diet I’m only in my second week, tomorrow is my first fast and I can’t fucking wait for it. I was losing so much weight but these last two days I’ve gained FIVE. I feel fucking HUGE. However, I do feel that a lot of it may just be bloat/water weight. 

I nearly ate 500 cal today and I just want to die.",-2.0646347031963472,-0.2863527260273955,1.007157534246577,98.67685502283106,103.65753424657534,4.077168949771689,12.932648401826484,5.985473137389443,-0.9067707762557076,253,5,61,3,12,88,57,73,0.099,0.773,0.129,0.2935,1,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,3,3,3,2,0,1,0,7,6,0,0,0,11,16,4,1,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,4,3,4,8,0,5,11,2,11,0,1,0,2,1,3,2,2,7,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721592121447516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369092757201759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23084136937844804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19416720997247627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220657527792404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607134532618871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553768779328933,0.0,0.19406785512940586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678054622839744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17361039428939207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163742325567687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229876139869585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346401597950462,0.0,0.18310524029357791,0.5559452029107089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,caffeineandmath,2018/12/19,"Made the mistake of checking a calorie count I’ve been doing really well with just eating as I see fit and not worrying about it too much, but today I made the mistake of checking the calorie count on my dish from a restaurant. 1990 CALORIES. What the FUCK. Granted, I’ve only eaten about 2/3 of it over the course of 2 meals, and I probably left a solid 150 calories of cheese behind at the restaurant, but that’s still more than I usually eat in a day.

Dear god maintenance is hard. Next time I should just tell the voice in my head “shut up and no we aren’t checking the calories.”",5.445091575091574,5.54637976068376,5.754212454212452,83.5776923076923,67.63247863247864,8.395115995115995,31.244200244200243,7.957251820313856,2.059799511599512,460,17,92,5,7,147,79,117,0.124,0.7490000000000001,0.127,-0.3889,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,7,5,1,0,12,0,5,7,1,2,0,15,10,6,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,4,3,8,2,18,5,2,15,0,0,1,1,2,9,1,0,6,61,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679283867988634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43408117723734496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960914687621386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000811408449475,0.0,0.21768515637851765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304571856177099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4014055665065656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559246129253473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255804614309069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16131854804332915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22868951237162696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358825372418457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16902351126441753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939062171902047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853927248869948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12368253689007055,0.0,0.2010546498262307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23360823532765085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19071157722147475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540711309717248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throneofweigh,2018/12/19,"Thank you, judgemental middle aged lady Without your passive agressive commentary about processed foods and how home cooked meals are sOoOoOoOoOoO much better I might have been able to convince myself that people don't judge me for having bad days, or that strangers don't care about my binge food hauls. I really needed the reminder that I eat like an alcoholic raccoon, and I'm sure there's no possible way that commenting on what a complete stranger eats could negatively affect them.",15.012196078431373,10.963175552941179,11.563529411764707,62.62254901960787,52.29411764705882,14.627450980392153,48.33333333333333,11.855464076750405,5.664686274509804,402,17,62,7,3,116,75,85,0.11,0.755,0.135,0.3138,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,1,4,7,0,0,3,0,8,7,0,2,1,10,12,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,9,6,6,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,3,39,14,0,0.19699662045746252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105294767711351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448394952764755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422750203406948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20085118369289667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065472085321011,0.0,0.0,0.1572857716743856,0.0,0.0,0.12704652307127126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4031534459763925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4764181908267137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976036724414814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624259807186164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089822831875784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481518275789634,0.1460704979340943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657265243747194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220840902796604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620107945181044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856669834219183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813680207865672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563667478812191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898977122801993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,themassivelegend,2018/12/19,"I'm afraid I might develop an ED. Hey all.

Lately I have been obsessively checking nutrition facts, have started exercising every day, have tried eating less and etc.

It all started with me trying to just cut off unhealthy foods, which I did and I am proud of that but it has gotten worse. My BMI is completely normal, it's even kind of close to being underweight but it is not quite there. I know that being underweight is just as bad as being overweight.

But I haven't been able to stop feeling guilty after every single time I eat whether it's fruits and veggies, oatmeal, rice, meat, anything really. 

It makes me feel extremely depressed and I cannot stand seeing myself from the side in the mirror. I look so wide.

I need help. I cannot let this turn into a disorder.",3.6149303045947327,5.729090771812087,4.481342281879197,83.3478471863707,74.16778523489933,7.2691791430046475,24.88435725348477,8.139509932561175,1.6010336602994315,611,20,113,10,13,197,104,149,0.203,0.748,0.049,-0.9758,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,2,4,0,19,6,0,1,3,25,31,11,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,7,5,1,3,1,1,0,4,5,0,0,4,5,15,2,13,22,5,14,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,1,7,80,25,0,0.17059201022389395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038268903298182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243720290392406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17886247707093686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001773386952267,0.0,0.1469306484349186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19551322311523825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491164296021685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19025518536101452,0.11267441386131564,0.0,0.28746225237340145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17251289217118404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20628053590875964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143442285278318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764532724238058,0.0937529074525638,0.0,0.19243521799750132,0.0,0.0,0.17444188841623895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325432389241746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387149149311802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18097116441571712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264918140175046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714394990609818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144560145871,0.0,0.0,0.10928561000749974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593974552642427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414918057374602,0.0,0.0,0.14262255915174313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09947357302615857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316415539767529,0.1855551203946972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384783250131075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,little-paws,2018/12/19,"I have reached a new low If anyone has any words of advice/comfort, I would really appreciate them.

After a very tough summer with a lot of life changes, I moved back home with my parents. I was at my lowest adult weight after months of stress induced restricting.

I got a job waitressing, and over the past 3 months I have gained 10 pounds. Today I quit my job, partly because of anxiety but partly so that I don't have to eat to stay focussed and have enough energy to work.

I honestly hate the fact that this has taken over my life to this extent, that I can't even cope with a basic job, when I am not even skinny.

I honestly don't even know where to go with my life from here.",5.318147482014388,5.042809978417266,5.957473021582736,83.2972167266187,67.92086330935251,9.252158273381296,26.72751798561152,8.841846274778883,1.6984453237410078,533,13,113,8,8,174,87,139,0.11,0.774,0.11599999999999999,0.4464,5,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,3,8,6,1,1,7,0,12,6,1,1,1,16,17,6,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,5,6,3,1,2,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,3,1,18,2,19,13,5,18,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,2,10,78,23,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971092429298907,0.0,0.11216873196120564,0.0,0.0,0.1025245308002335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274658786474577,0.0,0.08938204253651025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511120252274269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003532864797356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15150418221330986,0.0,0.29053590058475914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333111554286139,0.0,0.11727046109988992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476313291699947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707815216611222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365119875065551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058198978133163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106995140458454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465645218472825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340714563142073,0.1558405713698707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161261164249114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281117412056448,0.3175640275982626,0.13997141167601196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595513781811254,0.0,0.0,0.0939325739132596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628414577056288,0.0,0.0,0.16795995190794796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898460492972775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12098206832732655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855135400387834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674570583889284,0.0,0.0,0.10415912941591228,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-sam-_-,2019/06/10,feel like a failure for gaining weight I gained about 3kg in 3 months when I thought I was maintaining. I was a 17bmi at my lowest weight and now I’m a 19 bmi. My bf says I looks better and healthier and not extremely underweight now and I know he means well but all I can hear is “you’re fat”. I should be happy I’m a healthy weight but I feel like I’ve failed. I know that mentally I was at a very bad place when I was at my lowest weight and where I am right now is so much better but part of me wouldn’t hesitate to throw my mental health away just to look like that again.,0.5506430446194237,2.2376652125984258,2.2886811023622045,97.5039402887139,81.91338582677164,6.1230971128608935,18.457349081364832,7.1686216300943375,-0.053813123359579766,450,10,112,6,12,148,77,127,0.147,0.644,0.209,0.74,2,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,5,11,9,0,0,5,0,11,6,1,0,1,19,22,11,0,2,5,0,6,3,1,2,2,2,0,0,2,5,5,0,6,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,5,10,18,7,10,14,3,16,0,1,2,0,4,8,0,0,10,68,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859356746992054,0.0,0.11428046364838812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421002142754021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13841084281853844,0.19555944988398605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457003167623866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14548606685018695,0.15426207390895258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043999058715365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20060283259180414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298721151538537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909120350029914,0.0,0.0,0.2758648856231152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924807075435558,0.0,0.1006149613772297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14821652286181533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429996817442699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688595672760815,0.0,0.1088442610813964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10865923543048342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293181807601566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.666681577075922,0.12306227744503795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WesternSydResearch,2019/06/10,"Western Sydney University Research: Eating Disorder Treatment Experiences Good morning, or evening to some of you.

We are from Western Sydney University and we are recruiting participants for our research that aims to gather information and personal insight on the experiences of eating disorders and the treatment experiences.

We do not expect everyone to participate, and we understand discussing this can be very triggering too, so if you feel overwhelmed (should you choose to participate), please know there is no obligation to continue and that you can take as long as you need to complete this.

The questionnaire takes roughly 30-40 minutes.

We would like this research to aid you, and inform us on how to further improve our treatment experiences.

Below is a survey link, should you wish to participate. All answers are confidential.


https://surveyswesternsydney.au1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_7Wo7l7JiEFGLRsx


Thank you,

Western Sydney Research Lab.",11.452397260273967,14.109120952054793,9.582082191780824,52.368054794520596,55.232876712328775,12.141369863013699,45.42191780821918,11.792908689023552,6.551462465753424,793,45,92,23,10,241,92,146,0.032,0.858,0.11,0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,8,8,0,0,5,4,0,1,4,0,12,2,0,2,1,33,20,12,0,7,3,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,11,2,0,9,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,16,3,18,16,2,6,0,1,0,0,21,4,0,3,3,72,21,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547320598231005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3617550239783639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32298230357425345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423984280624206,0.0,0.0,0.15080554001909338,0.0,0.6175202078126656,0.0,0.0,0.07979946886658885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323734791280042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673476080836033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710378352822292,0.0,0.0,0.1396673699944078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702290127455492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378039510677599,0.0,0.17324099718199734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23732477854183076,0.0,0.0,0.14530115451817013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429811068764133,0.18984025224624906,0.0,0.0,0.13021955385994158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814873375956303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211211339421592,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,binklyy,2019/06/10,Do you consider it a fast if you drink coffee/tea? I’m just curious how other people define it (especially people with EDs) because I know IF people say a cup of coffee or tea means you’re no longer fasting.,7.461428571428571,5.7496960952380975,8.895238095238096,68.6914285714286,64.23809523809524,11.257142857142858,32.904761904761905,10.125756701596842,3.2266761904761907,164,5,30,3,2,58,32,42,0.057,0.883,0.06,0.0258,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,8,4,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21857817511951136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35125764155564565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970581984262436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39058290084043895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.74575242295061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285145643974365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thots_meander,2019/06/10,"eating only spinach salad and low cal fruit at work to subtly flex on fat coworkers thats it, thats the post",7.886086956521738,5.153968043478264,8.25826086956522,76.8204347826087,64.21739130434781,10.93913043478261,31.69565217391305,8.841846274778883,2.3805999999999994,87,2,18,1,1,29,21,23,0.095,0.905,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837423633138205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4338749313227098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5463611178484519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153154537768848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,irishrimp,2019/06/10,"Recent relapse after 8 years healthy [30F/AN] First post here. I guess I'm more embarrassed that after all that time I'm going back to my roots. I suppose it was inevitable after my roommate got a scale some months ago. The first time I stepped on it I was my pre-anorexic weight. I couldn't believe I was back to that number some 14 years later. Before he brought the scale home, I had been completely happy with my life being ignorant what my weight was. I ate when I was hungry and I felt good and that was all that mattered. 

At first I only checked once a week ""for curiosity,"" but recently my life got more stressful (mainly w/ work), and so I've turned back to my old coping mechanism thinking if I can at least control my weight, everything else will fall into place. Now I'm weighing myself several times a day and it is a contest to see how low I can get that number. On the one hand I'm happy I'm down 6 lbs, but on the other, I already know what's going to happen: I'm going to have to lie to all my friends, I'm going to lose my hair, I'm going to be constantly tired, and I'm going to get injured, and then I'll be unhappy that I can't run. I guess I should enjoy this ""happy"" time while I can, but I don't want to completely spiral. 

I know the scale needs to go, and sooner rather than later. I'm not sure how to approach my roommate about it because he doesn't know I used to suffer from AN and I'd rather not tell him, but I think it also isn't a coincidence that in 6 or so months of having a scale around again, I'm back to cutting calories as a coping mechanism when life gets tough :/",4.46532640949555,4.252810688427304,5.617701780415434,84.79812537091992,69.71216617210682,8.283026706231455,27.82922848664689,7.734863291789972,1.4831805341246298,1250,37,271,13,20,418,171,337,0.124,0.794,0.083,-0.9123,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,6,18,15,1,2,13,0,24,12,2,5,4,46,63,24,0,7,10,0,6,0,1,2,5,0,1,0,17,11,5,2,6,0,1,12,7,8,0,4,13,7,35,7,35,44,9,57,0,3,1,0,5,11,0,6,33,171,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996135471011978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954354134377977,0.07213696443069773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030163971501064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27744853298976074,0.0,0.05498817535643006,0.0,0.07675787335737952,0.1016302275545088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18915660600876372,0.09747963816668083,0.10117265986281196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0581748097206572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535476377850933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107050331619263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08661101629590286,0.0,0.0,0.2301851674931959,0.0,0.0,0.06969221577439526,0.0,0.14138528297610106,0.0,0.35885935304871264,0.07565973563146544,0.14429047482230262,0.0,0.19874211583211,0.0,0.07976804830497003,0.2880749332652858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048304327019964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14872304745741113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114353260087846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009164033226916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440016576090556,0.0,0.0,0.06688591877756893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465505017431504,0.09606545896005388,0.061125292111434026,0.06860502294856806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424510230045087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863915251197561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813325468542512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188176443311614,0.0,0.0,0.10190605683850493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332960655490962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501721393760009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884320990760241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559953714320975,0.0,0.0,0.21039721432159986,0.10367746191642828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811721657943998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790822081463261,0.0,0.0,0.0532052892935709,0.0,0.0723570686177028,0.32953643322984466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06567036761122681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617821927499015
EDAnonymous,RedditAntiPropaganda,2019/06/10,I haven't purged for a while but I feel a urge that's getting harder to resist Sorry if this isn't the right place to post. Is this normal? I know it's not a healthy thing to do but I just want to binge and purge again. I know it's bad but I can't stop thinking about it,-1.1552380952380972,0.6045547460317451,0.8438095238095258,105.04285714285713,88.84126984126983,3.6,13.761904761904766,3.1291,-1.711152380952381,211,3,57,0,7,69,42,63,0.163,0.77,0.068,-0.7434,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,14,11,6,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,6,11,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,37,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740306752880782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16594619724966042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714693172660614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36073683020546005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215632470259844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34289587304203456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31432187674785844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802783313192422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673895229147319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743872766304465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21803941527114548,0.21029530046882008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19357901553984236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Keto8596,2019/06/10,"in just over a year i've gone from underweight to morbidly obese i fucking hate life been wanting to make a post for a while but I've been to scared that I don't fit in here cuz a) im male, and b) im actually obese, but i just wanted to get this off my chest, although I know nobodys probably gonna read this

I was 64kg last year in Feb, which for my height is underweight (bmi 17), and after restricting so long, my hunger got all fucked up. No matter what I eat now, I never feel satisfied. I have binge ate pretty much every day since last year, waking up each morning telling myself ill fast today, and then crumpling by 8pm and eating who-knows how many calories. 

I think my fucked up hunger has caused me to binge on stuff that used to fill me up, which also happens to be super calorie dense. For example, some of the foods I binge on regularly are oats with a bunch of PB and sugar mixed in, mcdonalds burgers and thickshakes, cakes and icecream. Like for fucks sake, I literally drink milk by the cup. No wonder I've fucking ballooned to 135kg (bmi 38) in fucking 16ish months

this has been a huge physical and mental toll on me. the biggest clothes I could find in my area are tight. My 3xl work shirt, the biggest they make, is bulging. I sit inside all day because I dont want to be seen outside, i dont talk to anyone anymore, and I die inside when I imagine what my family say about me. 

idk where this is going. I'm sitting typing this after bingeing on a fucking burger meal with a thickshake and two mars bars, which I hardly even tasted. my stupid head just told me I needed to eat them and *snap* theyre gone. i've set my fasting timer, and i'm here telling myself im going to fast this binge off, for the umpteenth time in a row. all i can ever think of is food and suicide. *why am i like this*

sorry for the rant :/",1.9546481510376024,3.802537400530504,3.1948892182867863,91.90617061944144,78.17771883289123,5.8146044624746445,22.759322827274147,6.661559191721324,0.4884224371976909,1428,44,308,13,34,462,215,377,0.185,0.764,0.051,-0.9949,0,0,1,0,0,1,49.0,0,0,2,2,14,13,9,1,15,0,21,29,4,6,5,48,54,23,2,5,5,0,3,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,15,16,16,2,7,3,0,5,6,10,0,1,10,7,39,3,47,40,7,56,0,0,1,7,8,25,7,2,24,180,54,3,0.0,0.0,0.08469366011834145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940522666185553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08607148456245109,0.060684969562015974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0529058410546424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915633180267613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929404898092838,0.0,0.0,0.1119436030206539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007340270789392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20343240088430614,0.08502029511048233,0.0,0.26642080527937234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05732339420313269,0.07850572640140224,0.07312357547119393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818170568331823,0.0,0.04388318600540105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07932368193834627,0.0,0.2098914930391496,0.0,0.0,0.5616459904874906,0.045343732297071934,0.0,0.0986485121329785,0.0,0.06941318635475474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07674733081261062,0.0,0.07774600300368396,0.08568628645457971,0.08907067418255434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812414230138978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539405952815452,0.14148943023878446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06130172101459756,0.08480155876590909,0.0,0.0,0.07680563872669999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586482097689,0.08799054400919275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746301837081524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927424632374947,0.0,0.06379998813867258,0.06435303162366142,0.0669371185217464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831199847390371,0.08829573470659575,0.09357334870367204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681260480981386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06901819044505676,0.08689104804435951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717928556290531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09715331256580344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935277650118628,0.09493320913138878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06975780589013499,0.15171502980673648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122192541298284,0.0,0.0,0.050607432903010736,0.0,0.08226593629756106,0.08293072193709344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08478035776549038,0.0,0.0,0.07495793269283214,0.0,0.0,0.15357141205647068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831368020988708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411909677419514,0.06318351187903579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16766804035047714
EDAnonymous,Space-Punk,2019/06/10,"Back back back again! I don't know whether to be happy about it or disappointed with myself.  On one hand, I had gained and felt really bad about myself but on the other, I kept telling myself this wasn't the way to go.  I've been out of the loop for quite some time.  I was super active on the old sub, ""recovered"" and completely missed the deletion and switch to this one.  I was able to maintain for several months and then gained quite a bit.  Not even half of what I originally lost thank god but enough that I felt it in my body and had trouble fitting into all my new clothes.  There were many days where I tried to force myself to relapse.  I wanted to get back to my old ways, to lose the weight again.  I hated myself but no matter how hard I tried I couldn't force myself to restrict.  I don't know what happened but a week ago something in my brain just flipped and overnight I was back at it.  I don't know what changed, nothing happened outright, but here I am again eating at my old limits weighing myself every morning.  Part of me is proud. I feel in control again and like I'll finally make it to my GW this time but I can't help wondering if it's the best thing to do.  Obviously I know it's not but I'm scared to question it until I'm at least back to where I was before.  I know I'm sick and that I'm struggling but I'm happy about it? It's weird.  Anyway, just wanted to say hi.  I have no one to confide in IRL and the old sub was such a safe space so I wanted to come back. Thanks for reading!",2.3384858044164045,3.62311783911672,3.5003104100946385,92.55155078864357,75.65615141955837,6.207646687697161,22.77463722397477,6.55674776486733,0.3598278611987382,1173,32,266,9,25,380,158,317,0.136,0.7040000000000001,0.159,0.8756,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,11,25,19,1,2,11,0,20,7,3,4,2,54,49,24,0,5,15,0,6,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,19,13,3,5,10,1,0,2,10,10,0,4,14,7,37,9,40,33,7,46,0,4,0,0,5,16,0,5,27,184,56,1,0.08903966536542497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07892829100046088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792620460283033,0.07434440139082289,0.0,0.0,0.07576619714474445,0.0,0.09344163549020426,0.0,0.09720825350789876,0.09890299566528336,0.0,0.09939771373314144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419215971831753,0.07669978760153635,0.09335639508512317,0.0,0.09986555590374524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057423218092969124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110980644565696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200177612533686,0.0,0.05880985922077929,0.0,0.07501975831964833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04502113015135923,0.0,0.1709840840698893,0.09753860118336367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04651955017677186,0.0,0.05060329374706457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747496404926936,0.18956875893468936,0.07976205099479383,0.0879082356094994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05968141081885087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446693574820984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043500282930325936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09961261007956912,0.09719731286834872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05943466803575385,0.09027224535245013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107061140672391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599506365120106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543596033117984,0.0,0.3737286028685079,0.0,0.18100674484879103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964212807387074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974480289398313,0.189409288450356,0.08906376076340734,0.0,0.057041089624027284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080791568906965,0.08914423812600218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058947772980988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854708448277147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308359082394743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782459211149527,0.16395152202433266,0.0,0.0,0.05915399723369433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10383948982520116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12090417613197353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575537047121289,0.14135108382359154,0.07142224876632293,0.10842632498957806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655971891097173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,step2cs,2019/06/10,"Friend has BMI of 16.5? My ex gf who has been looking extremely thin told me her weight is 96 lbs and height is 5'4.  I told her her BMI is in the underweight zone and she meets criteria for anorexia (I'm in healthcare), but she assures me she is ""completely healthy.""  I am concerned for her, as she's been looking tired with large bags under her eyes, has mentioned she has ""thin hair"" (she appears to have a mild bald spot in the back), and has been very moody.  She eats very little, no more than 800 calories/day.  Is there something I can do to help her?  I don't have much experience with anorexia, but can a person just ""normally"" have a very low BMI of 16.5 or does it involve some level of restrictive food intake?",4.178309859154929,5.22091471830986,4.4071549295774695,88.75721126760563,70.83098591549296,7.651830985915493,28.284507042253523,7.908726449838941,1.5625498591549292,558,20,118,7,10,174,90,142,0.095,0.846,0.059000000000000004,-0.7466,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,0,21,7,3,0,1,14,27,7,0,1,4,1,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,7,20,2,15,22,3,12,0,1,3,0,24,10,0,3,1,76,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14895481834790228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031064110069088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493009958980855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952123439060535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19821872703887625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18949036550739115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342408536162319,0.0,0.1496636688480305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984302943781248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415324341216067,0.0,0.0,0.32534349365485704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424027574049476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897994948011504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16914439868250666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14913121164959905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22264680717707114,0.0,0.370205820469947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795052964086718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358925889032239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,heroleonato,2019/06/10,"Can anyone relate? Feeling a little lost.
Part of me really wants to let go of Ed and move on, just enjoy life, enjoy people, enjoy food.
And the other part is holding on to Ed with an iron grip, so afraid that if I let go, I’ll be unattractive, unsuccessful, and unloveable.
I can’t keep one foot on each road forever, and it doesn’t make it easy when I can’t always remember WHY I want recovery.",4.579629629629629,4.73077264197531,6.0242962962962965,80.72533333333331,69.49382716049382,8.949135802469135,26.076543209876537,8.841846274778883,1.7657387654320988,308,8,63,5,5,105,60,81,0.086,0.735,0.179,0.7841,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,3,0,8,3,1,1,0,15,16,7,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,1,2,2,0,0,3,3,3,0,1,1,2,5,3,8,12,3,9,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,1,1,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736369096835224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459125909807754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551392571756704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523344066512893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23719316505566646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854826980188184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4267750247469942,0.14739552494427305,0.0,0.2091502943209732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277968148613533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929426309578005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22179181285705035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414056922911884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4519561290111013,0.0,0.14467113087265382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368454486158632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363916264909235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461675194089749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18829954222827644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aetolica,2019/06/10,Pretty sure I'd be at a new lw.... ...if only I COULD FUCKING POO!!!!,-5.4250000000000025,-6.051192333333333,0.03250000000000064,101.50875,139.0,1.5,10.416666666666668,3.1291,-1.9993333333333327,45,1,12,0,4,18,14,15,0.0,0.6,0.4,0.7696,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597116257807228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165078187451855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351247790977561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34264844356982344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4583510813396754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4246192885060379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaydd0751,2019/06/10,"Recovered but wish I wasn’t I’m a lot better now to the point where I don’t even really have fear foods, I’ll eat whatever even if it makes me uncomfortable initially. I still emotionally eat though and even though the old behaviors are gone, the thoughts are still there. I’m on the lower end of normal i’m terms of weight but I hate the way I look and I hate going shopping. Constantly compare myself to my friends since I’m no longer the “small friend” and I sincerely don’t know how I look. Sigh",1.198235294117648,3.6612875490196077,2.6485294117647062,91.21338235294121,85.27450980392156,6.9294117647058835,20.264705882352946,8.07648339933343,1.0223764705882354,398,12,86,9,12,129,66,102,0.20199999999999999,0.619,0.179,-0.5672,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,11,8,2,1,7,0,6,4,0,2,0,13,20,9,0,3,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,1,1,2,4,3,1,0,3,3,11,4,5,17,2,14,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,2,7,49,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393684634655858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029014803242065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224914301738583,0.0,0.17725852761774288,0.1395708694011903,0.0,0.0,0.3122442525395647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773235479743455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905487665477449,0.0,0.24349490753414996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955747580109483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111591795848813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660294000425031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26465836536710424,0.0,0.0,0.13397057182370214,0.0,0.0,0.10518720127119983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439689135097215,0.0,0.0,0.1653557892637914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896591456195146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095105724157016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035344967034707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25169035987173066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30964700812030144,0.1251024971507466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250812479941008,0.0,0.19189240971135527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18121151038916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Extrasad,2019/06/10,"Does it ever stop? triggers for b/p, orthorexia 
I started doing this to lose weight fast because i couldn’t stand feeling so fat anymore. i was fat as a kid, grew into a “normal weight” but i’ll always feel fat. and now i can’t stop purging anything over 100 calories. i can’t stop going to the gym everyday. i’m starting to plan to go twice a day. I’m still a healthy weight. but i’m scared i won’t want to stop after my UGW because it’s also still “healthy”...but idk. has anyone stopped after reaching a GW??",0.11678648454349627,2.3654236261682264,2.1770093457943918,94.11441409058231,88.43925233644859,4.039971243709561,23.18404025880661,5.369823440869387,0.23520330697340075,396,16,84,2,13,132,70,107,0.19899999999999998,0.718,0.083,-0.8943,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,1,6,0,7,6,3,1,1,16,17,6,0,3,2,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,2,6,5,2,1,0,3,4,2,0,1,1,5,7,0,11,14,0,22,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,16,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516381958033248,0.11982689354049908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281807575464936,0.10069433127748736,0.0,0.1185070072985512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557290789199753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928737900695323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602310881696774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026424299948142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563039583051104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368708812810975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611090590887803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109808999866771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14417797421625908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203860400325754,0.0,0.2300112958119795,0.6019892044653289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849401466402255,0.0,0.0,0.526091923067923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nicolenicole8888,2019/06/10,"I BINGEDDD *TW(?)* SO a bit of background first: was overweight as a child, pretty much had BED all my life, always had a very emotional connection to food. I was never obese but was very overweight. At 12 I wanted to change and lose weight and I did healthily but then WHOOPS I got addicted to losing weight and obsessed about every aspect of food. Developed bulimia at 13 and got very thin but not deathly thin. ""Recovered"" at age 15 and felt great then gained like 20 pounds, got depressed, lost a little bit of weight healthily and felt okay for a while. But every now and then my ED will creep back up and I will have periods of times or ""episodes"" as i like to call them, of restriction, binge, and most recently, purging. I'm 17 now.

ANY WHO that was long, sorry. I've been full force restricting and controlling my food like crazy and I love doing it bc yea, control, and I've lost a couple pounds but I was bloated AF this morning and it messed with my head big time and every time I feel fat I get very very discouraged and my emotional eating instincts (from when I was a kid with BED) kick in and I binge HARD. So thats what I did today I ate like 1500+ calories in 2 sitting in like 5 mins each. FUCK. I cried and went nuts and promised myself I wouldn't purge bc I hate purging so bad I hate bulimia but I just couldn't stop myself it's like someone takes over my body. But nothing would come up, even though I had JUST eaten. Idk, but I'm kind of okay with that I didn't wanna purge in the first place but my Ed was forcing me to do it, so take that ED go suck a dick. I just wish I were normal. This is the worst episode I've had in years. But since I'm losing weight it just fuels my obsession even more so I want to keep going. I just want to stop binging so I don't purge I HATE purging I don't want to get addicted to binging and purging again like when I was younger. So hopefully I just stick to my restrictions and stop getting discouraged from fricking BLOATING. At least all this food in my body will kick start my digestive system lmao and I'll take a shit and maybe get rid of the bloating. FML",1.2700410739330792,3.5123255552995403,2.3909477058705657,94.72505509917852,82.61751152073731,5.617231015828493,21.41634942897215,6.895973343053719,0.4206984171508714,1657,52,362,20,46,526,209,434,0.185,0.633,0.182,-0.5392,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,1,10,23,33,6,2,12,3,29,26,6,2,3,74,67,49,1,11,18,0,10,7,0,5,8,0,2,2,14,27,16,11,3,0,0,4,7,19,0,2,27,10,46,14,40,34,11,52,0,8,0,3,6,19,4,3,34,213,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141736578352175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778638483607384,0.0,0.0,0.04722709132775877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05340130421753517,0.0579862649235361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516386825426528,0.15428237233977907,0.0,0.0,0.07091427764235751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346688418989138,0.05982339113958676,0.0,0.0,0.15578390498912806,0.0,0.07684300473767562,0.07628547980825116,0.0,0.0,0.05981554911100698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106274682227938,0.0,0.15623953620595493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173963373422016,0.0,0.17553906544574427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03511504741816335,0.0,0.13336213905958824,0.0,0.0,0.118145041395211,0.3359076859110327,0.0,0.0,0.06420365189450981,0.1451350692296786,0.0,0.078937914417938,0.0,0.16663197585469472,0.07656677842415335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062211859041205964,0.20569687065806255,0.07127378917071382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897763602203358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06172866464673006,0.0,0.07231951202280425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049053248776824786,0.2375018452150207,0.06960524359848587,0.0,0.061459385504471976,0.0,0.2330839884270751,0.1516216158419595,0.0,0.06267962414140778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976995364352141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051052346301656636,0.0,0.053562658158800285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06804439543901103,0.0666373275872802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07255848606912384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07065368751170613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857162315626386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128747944790179,0.057448188228386037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05884315206859163,0.0,0.0,0.07774146519717022,0.049155724553931496,0.0,0.0,0.17418517066690808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664899097136814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823240831691713,0.0,0.1214872415518342,0.0,0.06582868102678137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865097896960094,0.16384916129451954,0.0,0.0,0.33827631874952163,0.0,0.0643790869939007,0.0,0.0,0.07986189076171978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049333939610175785,0.0,0.0,0.0447223012073682
EDAnonymous,Tertiaritus,2019/05/20,"Things are going downhill, but there's nothing or nobody stopping me now Nobody cares when an obese person spirals into an ED. If anything, when I showed my photos taken when I had anorexia people were positively amazed. 

My friend and unrequited love interest keeps talking about the girl he's dating - that very girl about whom he would complain just a few months ago, unhappy with her fleeting whims and what not. 

On one hand, I want to clutch my ears and scream SHUT UP. On the other hand, it makes me feel that I'm doing the right thing by not eating. I don't deserve happiness, and food is the primary source of happiness in my life. That's how I got to almost 83 kg while being just 159 cm tall.

Coffee, diet sodas and flavoured fruit water here I go. Nobody would suspect a thing until I'm 40 kg down anyway. Nobody would care. If anything, they will compliment me, encourage me, and torment me with their happiness.

I'm so sick of being jealous. I just have to bring myself down to that state where I don't care anymore because I'm slowly dying. 

I know there are healthier ways to go about it, but who cares about my health? I exist to earn money and listen to people.",4.906842105263159,6.106498412280704,5.390307017543861,81.79756578947371,69.26315789473685,7.62982456140351,26.530701754385966,7.865858978985527,1.5814596491228063,930,28,171,11,16,298,145,228,0.14800000000000002,0.665,0.187,0.9115,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,1,18,16,1,0,8,0,15,14,3,2,0,32,36,19,1,6,10,0,3,0,1,4,4,3,0,3,13,10,7,2,3,1,1,4,4,3,0,1,4,8,24,13,24,26,1,27,0,0,0,1,16,11,0,4,10,115,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294395033405237,0.0,0.12758572997424875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126359474203042,0.0,0.0,0.209700110472655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07766979147529124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5196242426100487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223459388097508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037532326758886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442384882967166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406832375985638,0.0,0.0984389794998956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21723525835652088,0.0,0.1019038276745485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40690057182187983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543407708120078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325054220491886,0.0,0.0,0.07002286102852846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999558070275639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499522077529632,0.0,0.085049177039851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169985316019188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225622445480927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633835659008071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666428392220768,0.11125213034391378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881001882783688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10652298590386262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024097553172761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25394263733332445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512908132967093,0.07515149753611472,0.10113452089658816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27153165106997473,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,depressi0n_cherry,2019/05/20,"DAE find disordered eating behaviour attractive in other people? So have this co-worker who I find really fucking hot. I highly suspect he might have an ED - he's pretty skinny, I've never seen him eat ever, he never takes lunch breaks but drinks insane amounts of diet coke and green tea every day - and somehow that fact makes him even more attractive to me. Is this weird or can anyone else relate? Do you find disordered eating habits hot or off-putting when it comes to people you're attracted to?",6.495992907801419,7.393840372340428,6.58808510638298,75.73333333333333,65.48936170212768,9.245390070921985,27.368794326241137,9.2995712137729,2.3724453900709217,401,11,67,7,6,128,74,94,0.078,0.8009999999999999,0.122,0.6596,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,6,10,1,1,4,17,11,7,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,9,0,4,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,6,3,5,9,2,9,0,0,2,1,7,2,1,4,5,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068234747288104,0.1621901797928175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363556513676482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020860754839494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36283564387398426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506715935728782,0.0,0.4859206547644623,0.1322337303741365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455122382540244,0.1431853414590767,0.13336892227475078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43403159252585816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633959405327854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724554967811256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566199890849272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679241636886596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441710843567649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948126983299804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610411813617477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912847534097152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140673362502044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901685273433273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11523939892901587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,extracreepshow,2019/05/20,Anybody know of a free macro calculating app? I’ve run across a few free calorie counter apps but in order to get it to calculate macros you have to buy a subscription. I’m trying to focus more on nutrition and less on calories. Suggested apps appreciated!,3.6818750000000016,6.474045104166668,5.116500000000002,75.47850000000003,77.125,8.840000000000002,30.43333333333333,9.3871,3.3984533333333338,207,10,36,6,5,69,39,48,0.0,0.816,0.184,0.8419,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,9,4,3,6,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,20,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133142788425906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5399548117449943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6670511617632779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ver-em,2019/05/20,How can I check in with my friends with EDs without triggering them?? I have some friends that I know suffer from EDs. One of them in particular is going through a really hard time. I'm worried they're falling back into old habits. I want to tell them how much I love and care about them and let them know I'm concerned without accidentally reinforcing disordered behaviors. Does anyone have insight on this? How would you want to be approached if it were you?,4.761182266009853,6.7572886321839105,4.990476190476193,81.42000000000002,70.72413793103449,8.189819376026273,30.81937602627258,8.841846274778883,2.5517927750410507,369,16,69,7,7,116,63,87,0.094,0.7040000000000001,0.20199999999999999,0.8808,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,5,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,4,0,19,17,6,0,4,3,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,1,1,13,4,14,13,2,10,0,1,0,1,11,4,0,2,3,49,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15243812065983592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676367385518605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222763948759647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24985910094698485,0.0,0.19078259544550533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368689862289755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390048066245338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952947273802972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396259116802185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22293066787347454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19676313001493667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160262917822513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22876551160961425,0.0,0.14772966361972048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966320961739834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905509237831577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271237675297834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571766684010288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42030898802543337,0.0,0.0,0.22140040508681624,0.0,0.1548685159912006,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pettynsweaty,2019/05/20,"Having a handful of friends means more misplaced worry than support. I've struggled with an ED ever since middle school (I'm 26 now). My lowest BMI was 14 and my current highest is 24.7. I've been working an office job for the past three years and really... let go. Some friends have made offhand comments that I look ""rough"" and ""let myself go"" which made me go home and scream/cry into my pillow since they themselves are content with being chubby so why should they make those comments??? It's come to a head recently because I plan to cosplay for a convention; there's a girl I like who is also gay and happens to be in the same area I live in. She also cosplays lowkey and I've talked to her a few times. I want to reclaim the confidence and body that made girls doubletake at me. I started to do a 1200cal restriction with a friend. I found out i only lost ONE pound in a month and a half! My friend lost 7lb and she was already skinnyfat to begin with. She knows about my ED and worries that I will fall back into it when I decided to restrict more but I was so depressed that I barely made any progress. I had already cut out dairy/non-chicken meats and 90% of my sugar intake before this diet to begin with and I just worked on my portion control. I can't talk about my ED around her because her solutions are just empty words when she never struggled with an ED before.   


I tried to talk to another old ED friend who still is plagued with the ED mindset, but she married a really loving and supportive guy and he helps her cope with it. Her advice was just... not what I wanted. I obviously don't have a person who can be there for me. She's also borderline obese so she just told me that my weight wasn't as bad and that I should just jog more and eat normally. I just hate cardio with a passion and I did crossfit before but I have a bum knee that really makes it hard to go hardcore or lift a lot. I'm also an anxious hermit who hates crowded gyms or even running outside in public. So in the end I decide to steadily lower my CICO and take up longer walks with my dog. My mental and physical health is already shit so I might as well be skinny. Here's to learning to hate food again.",3.559705141300648,4.78455079550562,4.545045965270685,86.49484508001362,72.50561797752809,6.922029281579842,26.743275451140622,7.229369725052465,1.2886329588014982,1724,59,347,17,33,561,238,445,0.12,0.775,0.105,-0.7826,4,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,2,7,30,22,5,2,23,0,32,17,6,7,3,75,65,37,0,5,12,0,4,1,5,4,3,0,2,4,19,35,7,3,6,2,0,9,5,11,1,3,16,6,55,11,48,39,8,43,1,3,1,3,38,15,1,5,20,240,74,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07739861976018259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622154516982057,0.2533621831141839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05386240168716566,0.08305378894490184,0.0,0.08947957970274129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050961634721148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060904078941079964,0.06613321730898404,0.09656577777926284,0.0,0.20219393606149452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08797936606493527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822845602508898,0.0,0.0,0.08883561353256295,0.0,0.0,0.08700343469840333,0.0,0.0,0.06821951220742982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08104691834123615,0.0,0.0,0.07015249272872343,0.0,0.0,0.05231443292296991,0.07164583700925968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577550829237648,0.08684465484736871,0.3059695551721798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18005706196125618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07842581848399352,0.07004109134894675,0.0,0.07095249881318036,0.2345968629803252,0.08128761171075767,0.0841916576750649,0.0,0.0,0.05308972346473188,0.0,0.07944949430113972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859915777885756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04352922744552617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198581661565126,0.0,0.038695767404331394,0.0,0.06993983699339355,0.0,0.06651260442694236,0.0,0.17292414475114162,0.06733761569335779,0.07148598395939554,0.2997843341416039,0.10574046581484838,0.0,0.0,0.08627792227269558,0.0,0.0,0.07982043407245495,0.08402443391869488,0.0,0.0,0.06322101060085229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06108810278319876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776044947223364,0.0,0.0,0.08311276453137521,0.0,0.05367164246190107,0.06023929106258266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561053569476425,0.0,0.06915911767110662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222306071776456,0.0,0.07820579686246182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016011364172639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130322544406997,0.131039083863227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05606200396235959,0.0,0.06325355074645965,0.0,0.0,0.16560540470289015,0.0,0.0,0.17976274403729467,0.0,0.0,0.05955261862329781,0.1909869491063871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046185317370191104,0.0,0.0,0.07568417310841041,0.0,0.053775281017236685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934348177458405,0.0,0.0,0.0964508635271012,0.07121518479178805,0.0,0.07147057195833598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11532497822164382,0.16087389751767378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05100569364494875
EDAnonymous,Dbakskf,2019/05/20,"I just had the most embarassing freakout I've been dealing with EDNOS for five years now, and right now it's in the full force binge eating swing

My mom knows all this. She knows how extremely sensitive and touchy I am about the subject, and what a normal person would fine no big deal, is an absolute huge deal to me

Yesterday, she asked her naturopath if she had any weight loss supplements for me, and when she told me about it at home I when into a complete freakout and yelled at the top of my lungs for what felt like am eternity.

In my eyes, she's basically implying to the doctor that I have no knowledge of nutrition and need some special magic pill to make me lose weight.

You guys. If I had some sort of normally functioning brain, then I'd just brush it off. But this was a HUGE deal to me. Mainly because I've worked my absolute ass off at the gym and have gained so much knowledge of fitness and nutrition over five years, eating disorder aside.

It felt so insulting to me, because I wouldn't want anyone on this planet assuming I need some stupid pills to lose weight, when I'm a firm opposer in that bullshit. I screamed for so long my throat is still sore.

I don't know what I'm getting at here, I guess I'm in need of consolidation. I've been feeling extremely alone for a while and it feels like I don't have anyone I trust that I can talk to. And if anyone of you have some stupid thing happen but try to rationalize it in your mind

I just... :( Haven't been able to live my life for so long. Eating disorders kill, mentally and physically.",6.375322489124264,5.874413594855305,6.493902023832046,81.08833554000381,65.78456591639872,10.404463779080764,31.155853981463967,9.916854025145753,2.642972612067336,1232,40,257,24,17,394,159,311,0.14300000000000002,0.804,0.053,-0.9778,0,1,0,0,0,1,30.0,0,3,0,6,17,13,4,0,12,0,21,16,5,2,1,51,41,26,1,11,8,1,7,2,0,2,5,2,1,2,16,13,6,1,10,1,0,0,6,8,0,2,10,11,35,5,38,29,9,35,0,3,1,1,20,21,1,11,16,168,51,2,0.09885907574455052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023881881340552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722756152845047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073736930457731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241989082688423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052714999422233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11035942319023426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365186004553582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076774648207303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266021311038321,0.1011864530422638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30347254404597285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997223815862992,0.07062494346488421,0.18984043177616788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051649786818647465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890441740337167,0.0978860275888527,0.08742075419379462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916371344812958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093729201207108,0.0,0.16299108792306155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06982708880858099,0.09659510168798004,0.0,0.08729437506466645,0.17497434224047212,0.0,0.2211960371718205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598920071279135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962669644774183,0.0,0.09981948494736816,0.11578255469727755,0.0,0.0,0.07267279554328758,0.21990825607735154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19372180892087199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631993176783141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442511052903323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07894898559107212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945918036823632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06567757716876507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446408338653682,0.0,0.0671188231503873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058309644224468174,0.0,0.0,0.3611511644003848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197058454794229,0.0,0.0,0.07022665100347918,0.0,0.0,0.12732400711474948
EDAnonymous,dnwkj489xnewo,2019/05/20,"Rant: Recovery is not an excuse to get fat I see a lot of people on sister subreddits (not so much here ilu) who promote HAES, have high BMIs after recovery, tell people that overshoot 8s normal. And just generally promote fat acceptance to people recovering from an eating disorder. It pisses me off to the brim. Yeah, being underweight is bad but being fat will destroy you. Everyone should aim for a healthy weight and body fat percentage and should generally be aware of what they put in their bodies (and how much). Bingeing, overeating, and being overweight are not okay, even if you have feels to back it up. Nobody will recover if they know their fate is to become a lardass (and it's absolutely not!!) but we need to start recognizing and calling our fat people who say they recovered because if they're fat, they're not /endrant",6.753137254901965,7.89846277777778,6.958699346405227,72.42314705882353,65.01307189542484,10.041568627450982,32.94705882352942,10.125756701596842,3.4966894117647067,667,27,111,15,10,215,102,153,0.11800000000000001,0.816,0.066,-0.8148,0,0,0,1,0,0,23.0,2,2,5,2,6,5,2,0,6,2,14,12,9,1,0,30,20,14,0,7,11,1,2,0,0,4,7,1,0,0,7,8,9,0,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,4,11,2,16,12,3,10,0,0,1,0,16,6,1,4,3,80,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367348695744394,0.14847473273555498,0.10839921775005887,0.19639147367238446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950424127017417,0.0,0.0,0.18157711026857945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038005026529639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819572679117288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745037913639955,0.0,0.0,0.16991744590439228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991262477904402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290515022328287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18787970623254688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772684097559703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117871018446002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26144065263237265,0.13185346171219375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422873227447544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4931201646816267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876117635318722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141194442106408,0.0,0.0,0.14170186561996265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258639968480741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542509318575526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165404431693123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pinkeulady,2019/05/20,"My feelings about meanspo. A few years ago I was bullied into losing around 10 kg (I was 13 and weighed around 92kg) Now I’m not getting bullied anymore and have guys interested in me without caring what my body looks like, but I’ve noticed I miss the bullying. I read meanspo a lot but it just isn’t the same. The bullying made me feel like I was disappointing someone if I gained and I felt terrible but it still worked anyways. I’ve asked friends to bully me about my body and even random people from the internet but nobody wants to do it.

How can I find someone to bully me or are there any people that have been able to find other motivation?",3.1379370629370666,4.988912807692311,4.3590909090909085,84.85954545454545,74.76923076923076,6.881118881118883,27.97202797202797,7.686295010490155,1.6975384615384614,515,21,101,7,11,169,84,130,0.248,0.639,0.113,-0.9715,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,11,9,0,0,6,0,10,3,2,3,0,28,21,11,0,2,9,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,0,6,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,4,15,5,12,15,3,8,0,3,1,0,3,4,0,4,6,70,21,3,0.16710025494027791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812429375210628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363390347129095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571855172281835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975093084163737,0.15621618149283886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712214263654128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17036984655981305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036814242801564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898181939737691,0.1193764555175442,0.16044244956193995,0.0,0.30545321147810084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910124245675422,0.0,0.0873029863976121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16545552385553244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16327348800783514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032212887522005,0.18694244268831267,0.0,0.14206266118855945,0.0,0.1581143015396277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024474778253897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316925537826608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714547464240972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831670075001487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334464794475048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985600597820948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610786827759247,0.0,0.12165097575095345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076070855844776
EDAnonymous,help-me-please105,2019/05/20,"Trying to be healthy ... my relatives are the worst. I normally get small amounts of food at gatherings but i’m trying to be better and eat more varied dishes. When I go to get a new food, my relatives always say “what??? oh my god!!! is that ... food!! who are you?? what is wrong with you???” and i always want to put the food back and not eat anything and i feel really guilty eating anything after that ... damn.",-0.022041666666666515,2.3250322125000022,1.9075000000000024,93.26083333333335,95.625,5.166666666666668,16.666666666666668,6.816661863887847,0.13004166666666706,307,8,64,5,12,101,52,80,0.17300000000000001,0.7240000000000001,0.10300000000000001,-0.8663,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,2,4,1,0,3,0,6,8,0,0,0,10,12,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,5,8,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,0,2,9,1,8,10,3,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,4,41,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385330760844755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235905648166827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021607769776684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676851633634462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4400037044006819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247468673864715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6932869552929484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977366471918874,0.0,0.08146081295454828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384342258454535,0.0,0.0,0.1404382624074751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14409166998591375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918243297721318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398606589681375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463066033881996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454293465561466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671476251983835,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ryden2008,2019/05/20,"??? ok does anyone know why i lost ~15 lbs in about 3 weeks while i was eating 1600-1700 calories a day, but when i went to 1200, i started maintaining??? i’m gonna up my intake to 1400, then 1600 slowly so i try to lose some more goddamn weight",-0.2493589743589765,1.8170538076923108,1.6323076923076951,98.7960256410257,87.84615384615385,4.235897435897436,16.358974358974358,5.46131890053228,-0.8230487179487183,186,4,44,1,6,61,44,52,0.215,0.754,0.031,-0.8896,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,7,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,6,1,6,3,2,9,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867023796957968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20168696209596773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27367482205856525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200040103887191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718699197549109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498683177398996,0.34138509486825164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213540806431321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21232523009503032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.250855609597155,0.3808246354806025,0.0,0.2899066943575211,0.2821929583448023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blueanddistended,2019/05/20,"(TW: Numbers mention) Question about macros How much fat, fibre, protein, etc should I be aiming for when restricting to <500 calories a day?",3.1462499999999984,5.7194777916666695,2.507000000000001,85.63800000000003,104.41666666666666,3.586666666666667,29.8,5.6839178017228535,1.7963099999999996,113,6,16,1,5,33,24,24,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34695846535887537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6000000619692129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3954838932676509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6026709210826553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kn1fecity,2019/05/20,"I forgot how mundane and painful restricting is. I relapsed recently and I forgot how bad my body feels. I'm exhausted all the time, my stomach is constantly fucked up, I'm tired but I can't sleep, fuck.

Lost 6 pounds already tho :-)",1.3693333333333335,4.034956044444449,2.806111111111111,88.30250000000002,88.55555555555556,6.555555555555558,27.5,7.793537801064563,2.1496666666666675,182,9,35,4,6,59,34,45,0.245,0.573,0.18100000000000002,-0.0598,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,0,1,0,3,8,3,2,1,10,11,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,3,1,6,0,1,8,1,4,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,3,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954347852783264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22353434241470707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29737566898497875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893093372208209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353668673750772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4950041574771883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29224712298490385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848720955540174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26434040390007946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679125352784817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610921360932678,0.3077038277521141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,totoro3333,2019/05/20,"prom is not fun when you have disordered eating so i went to prom a few days ago. it took a lot for me to go. i was terrified of looking fat. 
and i did. 
i cant stop crying looking at the photos people took of me. my arms are massive. i genuinely hate myself. 
at prom, i felt nauseous the entire time. i couldnt bring myself to eat. but once everybody started eating the buffet dinner, the smell and sight of the food got to me. i ran to the bathroom and threw up. 
it was awful. i sobbed and called my parents and went home early. 
i told myself i would starve myself until i felt happy with my weight. 
but ive been bingeing all fucking day. i cant stop. i just want to restrict and i cant and i keep crying over this awful self hatred and the way my arms look and i KNOW people are looking at me thinking im so fat
i hate myself and i wish i could disappear
any comfort is much appreciated",-0.5878926520103,1.6229426844919814,1.9399881164587045,93.48967716379481,95.41711229946523,4.0537928302634185,17.086353733412558,5.82211442006289,-0.34885684293919583,690,19,147,6,27,235,104,187,0.19699999999999998,0.68,0.12300000000000001,-0.9446,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,0,4,7,3,0,9,2,16,11,4,0,1,30,41,16,0,5,4,1,3,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,11,8,4,4,0,0,9,5,4,0,0,14,9,35,3,17,24,4,25,0,1,5,1,5,5,2,1,10,100,38,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105225567840944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807240440839542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121193818300514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477695674331882,0.0,0.26078558987550104,0.1531108973600293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360471806864696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643971381212388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279524503819898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14353957698472167,0.0,0.0,0.1097416393890209,0.0,0.0,0.06746326636067503,0.0,0.0949399069229044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636457758656675,0.0,0.23439488914947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190716395763926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822268085750466,0.0,0.0,0.10551120778546448,0.0,0.0,0.06523762708654718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39873204637872417,0.0,0.0,0.10091946306646432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726245334151943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641784904243564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180879116565256,0.0,0.0,0.16459137065726773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383608341053742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402060690826342,0.0,0.0,0.19848680069528865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07606191129541409,0.0,0.0,0.0692183318723252,0.0,0.0,0.1134285203609241,0.26377311946239096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001578197810539,0.09422317315969407,0.0,0.1445517376762721,0.0,0.2200830121217203,0.0,0.0,0.13650586155594482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432522528835479,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luvlillone,2019/08/03,"A meltdown at the grocery store lmao I don’t know if this is the right place to put this or if I should even post it or if I want advice or just commiseration idk but here’s a long ass story if you’re up for reading
So I’m at Aldi with mom and she’s finishing ringing up and I’m already packing the bags away over on the side and she sees some fancy looking Gatorade on the conveyor belt with the next customer’s items and she’s yelling over to me “oh I didn’t see this Gatorade, did you see this kind luvlillone, do you wanna go get some? this is the kind my daughter drinks” I say “no it’s not, I’m fine” bc my mom was mistaken and it’s not the zero cal Gatorade I buy which Aldi had none of, and mom thought this lady had found some that I missed and she’s trying to be helpful and mom yells over to me “but it’s that no calorie kind!” And I’m like ok fuck me lol i don’t need the LONG ASS LINE BEHIND US knowing I drink zero cal Gatorade and I’m fucking embarrassed (for no reason and no one except me actually cares lmao) so I try to get her to stop talking and again say “no I’m fine” and she says “but it’s the no calorie kind! Luvlillone drinks zero calorie everything haha” just chatting with the lady behind her and the cashier and they all laugh and now I wanna fucking die in this Aldi lmaooo and I’m mad and almost in tears crying because I’m so embarrassed and she finishes and can see I’m obviously upset and she’s like “why are you mad what did I do I just can’t do anything right” and now I’m feelin Extra Shitty bc she doesn’t know what she did wrong and she asks me about it in the car and I start crying and explain it and she’s like “well I’m sorry, I didn’t know, but your reaction and you being so mad at me is irrational bc no one cares” like biiiiitch I know I’m irrational 
And now she’s turned this into a fight about her never being able to say anything or talk to me bc she can’t do anything right with me and I get mad at her for everything and now I’m crying in my room and I don’t know how to fix this and I feel absolutely fucking crazy lmao",-0.6677359882005902,1.4885769314159312,1.7325132743362843,96.05902064896758,92.73893805309734,4.6062536873156334,18.3740412979351,6.2581,-0.17345764011799458,1631,49,378,18,60,551,179,452,0.225,0.638,0.13699999999999998,-0.9921,0,1,3,0,2,0,11.0,1,5,1,0,18,30,9,3,16,3,27,9,2,2,3,80,71,49,1,9,18,5,1,4,0,1,0,7,1,0,21,37,3,1,11,5,2,3,19,14,1,5,10,13,54,16,41,57,7,40,0,1,5,6,40,23,6,12,17,241,75,1,0.07731822504050577,0.0,0.0754514343514847,0.0,0.0,0.07555447466207353,0.0,0.0,0.07742303378359912,0.0,0.08532258397165983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19087893380583096,0.0,0.07228210321970273,0.0,0.07264301758588508,0.0,0.0,0.04713247234287324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15766216683674145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25479131886854106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024411061859056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272272755519933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0510679584337067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897727031695173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039094417733204816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847754429540561,0.0,0.2859178126426709,0.12118674417483015,0.0,0.043941729089714714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05182477644641543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220601333226296,0.254952446615946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510951170415626,0.0,0.0,0.1368483921963943,0.06492783594145167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36221668278513103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733048417186287,0.05963258166861715,0.0,0.08222880948671656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478566059767698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08078108882199585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404948685734852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07772617160276055,0.0,0.0,0.07733914845026922,0.0,0.0,0.07949601267383605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19808802517496296,0.0,0.2459462235141124,0.0,0.0,0.2464504597317651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655142279652775,0.05472623763839029,0.0,0.0,0.06464149821480197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429092105049536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061382034152616324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498799900183406,0.08410002635683729,0.0,0.0,0.09300430478177296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04560429237502536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06951836985695288,0.0,0.06976767201846105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845353414634837,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,the_grimmest,2019/08/03,"Thanks grunge self... Guess who’s had “Ugly” by the Smashing Pumpkins on a loop because it’s a total mood?
That would be me.
And the more I here the lyrics the more I relate.
10/10 recommend, unless you don’t want weird random grunge stuck in your head too 🤷‍♀️",0.6231515151515161,2.78039461818182,1.9304545454545448,97.54901515151516,84.63636363636363,4.393939393939394,16.439393939393938,5.46131890053228,-0.7821515151515155,204,4,46,1,6,65,47,55,0.132,0.736,0.131,-0.0094,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,0,4,1,1,0,1,7,8,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,4,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,0,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26167582709523524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728835536178878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44054950969548784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4478167872749413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3952093381456962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531914905612229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30493738525045616,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jokkitch,2019/08/03,"Does anyone hate that food is constantly on their mind? It takes all my willpower to not stuff my fucking face Everytime I have the chance to eat.

How can anyone possibly eat 3 different times a day and not consume at least 3000 calories?",4.186333333333334,6.5259164666666685,4.268611111111113,84.49625000000003,73.22222222222223,8.055555555555555,29.027777777777786,8.841846274778883,2.4884444444444447,191,8,35,4,4,59,40,45,0.08800000000000001,0.868,0.043,-0.4696,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,2,0,3,5,1,1,1,6,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,6,2,5,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,3,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33541811411077044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25919319851371225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468373998927784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25059273884189925,0.0,0.0,0.20989480220727333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4908539116667514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29002819508354505,0.0,0.0,0.22173793643612866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23680272739017585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421806466924744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703954177266455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274571456212408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18033773769268094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985876426096136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway28374748494,2019/08/03,"Broke down in the grocery store for no reason I walked past the soda isle and just started crying for no reason. I feel so over sensitive and stupid and lonely and fat. There’s literally nothing good in my life. 

On the plus side, I got mango Diet Coke. It was delicious.",2.7988679245283024,5.0382877547169835,4.12890566037736,84.34015094339625,77.11320754716981,6.504150943396226,21.92075471698113,7.554174236665415,0.99298037735849,213,6,40,3,5,70,42,53,0.294,0.648,0.057999999999999996,-0.917,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,0,1,5,1,2,0,9,4,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,3,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,2,1,4,1,8,2,0,9,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349715755131132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097801777187282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670346128646281,0.2546304898017832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248749562923648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054857018096083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039212840047699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6546771269665229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253447363063805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hardyzafon,2019/08/03,"HARM REDUCTION BULIMIA please help HARM REDUCTION TIPS FOR BULIMIA.

I get these symptoms: Very, very dizzy. Can't really move, have to lie down. Pressure in head and face. Very tired. Can't think straight. Face changes. Very swollen eyes, hard to keep them open (also very swollen submandibular salivary glands. Anyone else get two big balls under chin instead of swollen cheeks? What part of the whole thing causes it?)

This happens randomly, sometimes when I haven't been purging. Other times I purge and I feel fine. (Although lately I never really go more than a few days without purging). So maybe I'll have a b/p session, feel fine, and then the next day get these symptoms. 

I want to recover but feeling so ill so often makes it harder regardless of whether or not I've purged makes it harder, sometimes I start eating to feel better outside of my ""recovery meal times"" and it turns into b/p. When I was anorexic I didn't feel this way. I have a bmi of 19 now and my period is back. 

I feel very, very dizzy and weak right now so I'm posting to see if any of you have any information regarding what causes these symptoms specifically and harm reduction.
Thank you!",2.9353333333333325,5.666866927272732,3.325000000000003,87.55083333333334,79.72727272727272,6.575757575757575,25.984848484848484,7.793537801064563,1.6897121212121209,924,37,172,16,24,286,133,220,0.138,0.79,0.07200000000000001,-0.9502,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,1,1,12,9,0,1,5,0,11,17,5,4,1,33,32,20,0,3,6,0,7,0,0,0,10,0,0,0,13,9,2,1,8,1,0,2,7,5,0,1,3,9,16,4,18,29,4,27,0,0,2,0,5,8,0,4,15,95,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981110421213909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573668181515808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978342500661264,0.1022582779169392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0767410784287445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826618455013405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20504695772677708,0.10557659600532078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872722986832302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212169734723137,0.08337122239993268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30277537008860017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564262600002953,0.0,0.05671940760727087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825400495169312,0.0,0.08940240737250567,0.0,0.1024249786556245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689474174806563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870802622458927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11258027079208682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332363533161637,0.0,0.10026387113536454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060730416447053,0.0,0.0,0.07697295432845985,0.0,0.10613986884347204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080751373926344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955191344274497,0.0,0.0,0.0955821064664087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787060181969878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522980831484775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952875529764479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974121757958818,0.0,0.07063990980160997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31119545034273377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918836751221358,0.0,0.0,0.06630358287481852,0.06394867581845183,0.0,0.0,0.11638994051584432,0.1147069714225582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108555211038161,0.0974914180704311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5764259654209466,0.05886542249120704,0.07921766692889314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142464410481526,0.0,0.09620494079341547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,reddituseridkneedhel,2019/08/03,"Rehab weight gain I was skinny, I hated my body, but I was skinny, but when I was put in to rehab I gained weight, in currently 5,8 and 152.8 lbs, I want to die ffs, but I ve replaced anorexia with binge eating, and I fear i will gain more, my room smells like rotting food and vomit, I cant even make my self vomit any more, I'm falling apart, a mixture of Ed's self harm, and substance abuse are killing me, I hate absolutely everything, I dint have any friends, my family hates me, probably cause I cost them a lifes time in rehab cost and hospitalization, I think I should kill myself, I won't cost nearly as much once in dead",4.563671875000002,4.8128592734375,5.400000000000002,84.845,69.546875,8.275,26.15625,8.07648339933343,1.3420750000000004,489,13,105,6,8,160,84,128,0.35100000000000003,0.534,0.11599999999999999,-0.9931,1,0,0,0,1,2,20.0,0,0,1,3,2,9,5,1,2,0,9,13,3,2,0,14,16,10,4,2,3,0,2,1,1,3,6,0,1,2,0,6,6,0,1,0,3,2,2,7,0,0,3,3,24,2,10,10,3,12,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,4,58,24,0,0.0,0.1802513051769184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20690968044151675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898413315907318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628126432517075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788878896919126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566881024125115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048161852714133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672625153068746,0.0,0.1434163208234447,0.17119056916360434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395837536168966,0.0,0.11753665061800204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4505959670510531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366225910418413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745518878764182,0.07432391257422583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154915723290456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11183437685962944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620154010140431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402381016432754,0.0,0.0,0.15293447719673856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174132903816753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097479914060905,0.0,0.0,0.08870927547623005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973127671778969,0.0,0.0,0.3705110935566788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fupk1,2019/08/03,How to stop being a bitch How???? I know I’m lacking in nutrients but howwwwww,-2.167499999999997,-2.9973877499999984,0.4079999999999995,97.83700000000002,145.25,3.78,21.95,5.6839178017228535,0.644415,60,3,13,1,5,20,14,16,0.311,0.6890000000000001,0.0,-0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,6,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,9,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.54929864024736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8356261148518525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,timetogiveup666,2019/08/03,Fasting Any tips I'm fasting tomorrow,3.6014285714285705,6.851760571428574,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,86.14285714285714,8.514285714285714,49.85714285714285,8.841846274778883,6.7496857142857145,32,3,4,1,1,11,6,7,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eckocandy,2019/08/03,"Why do I binge? I hate myself. I don't understand why I just spiral out of control. I'm just stuffing my face until I'm past the point of feeling full and sick. 

And afterwards I'm just like what happened? How? Why?

I feel like such this stupid fuck up. Why can't I have any self control? 

I only feel good and strong and in control when I'm fasting.",-0.4812162162162146,1.7338827702702737,1.4878918918918913,97.57535135135136,92.91891891891892,4.0410810810810815,19.56216216216216,5.6839178017228535,-0.2328551351351353,271,9,61,2,10,89,46,74,0.187,0.654,0.16,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,6,7,3,0,1,0,4,3,1,4,0,16,15,7,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,3,9,4,6,15,1,10,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,7,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264035554274116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.557335438806646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512565128327484,0.11833269809591307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153130797879336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13893032635277938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647422292769524,0.0,0.0,0.1635344459684087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184592078677004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259760974332639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15812138628539374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565826104733032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279784013145302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724362786816724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5978545615538935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AugustTheHikikomori,2019/08/03,"Losing weight accidentally is triggering me So I'm trans (FtM) and just started t on Tuesday.  I read online that majority of guys gained weight on it because of muscle growth. I forced myself to stop restricting and purging for two weeks in order to pass all of my tests during bloodwork so I could start hrt. After gaining 2 lbs in that ""normal eating"" window, I've lost over 5 in just the past few days and I haven't changed anything from the ""normal"" eating. Instead, I've been thinking about restricting more than ever so I can shed pounds faster and become more masculine/attractive. I don't want this weight loss to wear off but I also know how to deal with it in a positive sense or keep myself from giving in to restriction.",6.967428571428571,7.035872742857144,6.996428571428571,76.07107142857146,64.42857142857143,9.571428571428571,31.07142857142857,9.188382445141503,2.6026428571428557,584,19,105,9,8,187,101,140,0.128,0.775,0.09699999999999999,0.1549,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,5,10,3,0,0,3,0,6,6,1,2,2,24,15,11,0,4,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,5,5,5,2,1,0,2,2,3,0,1,2,3,11,0,24,12,5,22,0,3,0,0,3,9,0,1,10,69,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125286351019455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892339424635585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550260250060273,0.17302612725386698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16573265834542816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508565941987232,0.0,0.0,0.1010370991997364,0.1615165498939203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206184138623098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171405336493176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15028903140152047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551247230790633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925261430133815,0.0,0.0,0.08609995386546032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752700301445904,0.17102027487082944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070003217358849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955614921511848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567091558119377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22177907755450024,0.0,0.0,0.13098042606680954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038573360072993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304065952139395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09240611388534277,0.0,0.1256686245272412,0.5723337206266497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moralform,2019/08/03,"went to a buffet today... today was a family member’s birthday and we all usually go to this seafood buffet every year... ok, cool. I heavily restricted/borderline fasted for two days prior so i wouldn’t feel too guilty about eating what I want. Ok, cool. To make a long ass story short, despite only eating a moderate amount, ig my body has become so accustomed to me throwing up mass quantities of food that I was so in pain and so nauseous I threw up anyway and had to just write it off as food poisoning. I’m so pissed, I was fully intending on just having a relaxed, nonchalant day. At this point I’m just sitting here wondering if I’ll ever be able to enjoy food again... I hate how much i’ve screwed up my body.",4.197692307692306,5.1972632097902105,5.747839160839161,79.32329720279722,70.74825174825175,9.076643356643356,27.58671328671329,9.3871,2.4162397202797203,561,19,107,12,10,191,101,143,0.165,0.725,0.11,-0.9076,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,0,0,0,15,11,4,0,5,4,8,12,4,3,2,18,18,11,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,2,1,0,4,1,5,0,1,6,3,11,6,17,10,3,26,0,0,0,2,2,10,3,2,11,67,16,0,0.1523759659426034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682872828119639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385106949192708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19653978456766827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31183730772176743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1378327848837697,0.1283833232281658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364649957700093,0.0,0.07704586676608166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5527608685717789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08659877295069464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15043971987465365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484793486719054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171214048545456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201386757116416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588878842334767,0.16213877106733032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404454008054246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28886919771908776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884917763210642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782059897145998,0.0,0.08987529263809306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412540470182708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524523514122444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812512622475296
EDAnonymous,popcornpause,2019/06/06,"Eating a pint of Halo Top for lunch at work Every time someone walks into my office I hunch over and try to hide the fact I'm eating an entire pint of ice cream at my desk for lunch, but it's the only thing stopping me from gorging myself on a 2k+ cal binge",9.64375,4.456967303571432,9.658571428571431,75.68642857142859,63.464285714285715,11.2,33.357142857142854,3.1291,1.9321357142857127,203,3,44,0,2,68,46,56,0.062,0.912,0.027000000000000003,-0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,11,1,0,9,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,25,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6952005699907783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862138598411874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583589255437514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28782867738313805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28400635435239185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22568313005157034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19808315737419885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306355798575513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473073382515917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,efffervescence,2019/06/06,Digestive system in recovery? My bowels are so fucked and the aftermath of eating is genuinely painful. Does anyone know how to stop this or at least help it?,4.029885057471262,6.88813520689655,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,76.24137931034483,9.383908045977012,26.90804597701149,9.725611199111238,3.278508045977012,127,5,21,4,3,41,29,29,0.28600000000000003,0.645,0.07,-0.8547,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,2,5,1,1,0,5,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,5,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,2,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29187665484835673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652956722431779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42713494510081307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859071673068989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797944274950668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294085272550789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441747883505291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489900434811211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icommentretardedshit,2019/06/06,"my face can’t get skinny trigger warning nswf i’m probably a loser compared to most of you, i’ve only really lost 20lbs from starving myself and i’ve already made some back. I just wanna be skinny and fucking beautiful like everyone else. I WANT PROMINENT CHEEKBONES. i starved myself and lost all this nothing, i lost nothing really, but i really turned into that scrawny bitchboy body and i don’t even have anything to show for it. My cheeks are still fat, i need the high fucking cheekbones and the hollow cheeks so i can finally be good enough but my facial structure SUCKS. i’ve been doing pullups and diamond pushups and stuff now, then i’ll look like less of a bitch, because i look like a bitch now. But my face will forever suck ass...I suck. Will not eating make me good enough to love? Idk but it’s better than being a fatass and letting myself binge desires like food.",2.741751633986929,5.346751070588237,3.5721568627450964,86.27359477124183,79.47058823529412,6.130718954248366,25.91503267973856,7.3871296695380915,1.5356993464052286,702,28,127,10,18,223,109,170,0.184,0.618,0.198,0.6973,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,5,7,19,7,0,6,0,13,14,9,3,1,25,31,14,0,4,6,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,11,0,0,5,2,18,8,10,20,6,8,0,4,2,3,2,2,7,2,10,79,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715695666455972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097371164144612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10253925366392233,0.0,0.08128998053267503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793877376816593,0.0,0.14812371668654462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364521172138729,0.11139826409757476,0.0,0.0,0.2755759808847092,0.0,0.08807756395039147,0.0,0.0,0.12742329840034672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460803085943113,0.0,0.0,0.16124944848248848,0.0,0.0,0.24656306224069885,0.06967077816418847,0.0,0.0,0.22369821863419834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089343059046333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636118490502647,0.0,0.26059568939094874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239637454752527,0.0,0.4367075174162312,0.0,0.12035514812922253,0.12618063690263767,0.0890133192656881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887862254194377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559091743948197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142000427880507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14377572575856912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562856102222294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064948686180722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526558335838034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504839584080262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865430891050597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisnameiskindagood,2019/06/06,"A way to fill a day, to have a....... direction in life? Hey everyone.   


I just wanted to share a little bit of my experience and thoughts. (sucks that I have to type everything and this is not a live conversation, loads that could be discussed)So I've never been diagnosed but I am pretty positive I have an eating disorder which is like a child of OCD, anorexia and binge eating, i try to do IF as well, but I feel like it makes everything worse (esp. w/ OCD). And the thing is, I feel like I use this as a way to distract myself from the fact that I have to do something of value in this world.  Some days just feel like I just wake up and I have nothing to do and no one to meet up with and nobody to talk to. And also I feel like I fail to commit to things, which just adds to the ""I don't have anything to do"". Damn it is so so so complex at this point, I have no clue how to fit everything in here. It limits me so so so much. I  lost some weight and now I am afraid to wear tight clothes just because I don't want people to see by body in case I gain weight in the near future. With IF its like okay, I eat 12-20, so if there's a thing happening from lets say 17-20 I may just not go at all (because while Im home aka 16 its to early to eat and after 20 it will be too late) or I just shove a bunch of food that I don't even want before leaving as I am afraid that if I don't eat anything I'll feel hungry (I get migraines if I starve myself and lose sleep). I just find it hard to believe that if all this crazy mindset was not here I'd be able' to feel fulfilled and happy, though I understand that that's probably how it works. But if I ate ""only when I am hungry"" then... I don't know.. I would never eat? And if I never eat, then what to do during the day?  It's so complicated to explain what's going on inside of my brain, but maybe someone is going through smth similar OR ESPECIALLY has overcame it? I feel like my migraines traumatized me kinda, now I am afraid to get hungry. And then you combine it with binge eating... Also there's an entire thing with drinking water too. I try to drink as much as possible, and then I go to pee like every 10seconds. Yes, I do that outside of my house too, which greatly limits me too. ""what if there won't be a toilet"" ""what if I wont be able to find tap water there"". Going to nature? means ill probably carry around 2l of water in my backpack. Jesus christ why can't i be a normal person. Are there any normal people though? So yeah. And I am just afraid I won't have any ideas. any  activities if I lost all of these thoughts.  I am so so sorry this is so long. I hope somebody reads, and I hope we can talk about our experiences a little bit.   


I hope its sunny where you are.",2.1348304286387183,3.1547893816925736,3.889541136756165,90.61427402260956,75.73575129533678,6.783498194379022,21.967381064531327,7.1686216300943375,0.480692227979274,2088,51,482,22,44,704,245,579,0.094,0.759,0.146,0.9877,0,0,3,0,0,0,83.0,2,2,0,8,46,27,2,5,19,3,53,28,6,4,8,99,87,63,0,21,29,0,11,8,0,6,5,1,1,2,39,24,17,3,17,3,0,6,17,11,1,1,7,13,62,16,65,66,10,46,3,4,1,0,14,19,2,20,27,338,101,4,0.121504100147679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716678498987663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394043198032892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998752160125964,0.05408220474829528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740677716897408,0.0,0.051695520012918696,0.06844675643891436,0.0,0.0,0.13265100807522925,0.06748183206271588,0.0,0.06781937979167015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04850556854465462,0.0,0.0,0.11754013921776432,0.0,0.0,0.061662052004339475,0.0,0.0,0.0696271126954048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190277610506868,0.0,0.497316111931725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040126156107540785,0.0,0.05118622240164414,0.058051187317463726,0.16380007587469347,0.11885432475329988,0.0,0.0,0.2150264333853628,0.21700638355792265,0.0,0.0,0.11105254630260714,0.0,0.07346162009779826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06348087743036734,0.0,0.17263395044253171,0.0,0.0,0.0669793496799855,0.0,0.0,0.0537228372435698,0.06467168698338296,0.05442190394742311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060939259643449865,0.18102148078994246,0.0,0.07009970905883177,0.0,0.06858166976841447,0.06562263918388056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033387737917214784,0.0,0.06853095865633306,0.06432764912465251,0.0,0.062123087277824375,0.04291096961872208,0.23744306369197546,0.12177902862040416,0.053645173244354166,0.053763652559822066,0.0,0.06796600426004924,0.13263607840811842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040552465171687965,0.0,0.0610335999297005,0.06617679260417593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931949404948954,0.0,0.14056717878609698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904822038157015,0.058293230537700275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04116716140544747,0.046204671673377946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423564424943987,0.053046346808666975,0.0,0.0,0.057430324117732585,0.06848880829499487,0.0,0.061806675681344216,0.13100197047939988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06076849044138544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04831246862745926,0.0,0.0,0.04841151831441156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06079592447784346,0.0,0.05147501487971011,0.046769896223465716,0.0,0.06800694621406575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766039320519217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16144385032267392,0.0,0.11937716148508255,0.0964606833775676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249330826167026,0.0,0.0,0.06324502666298662,0.0,0.052470265422049016,0.0,0.0,0.10749939949467703,0.0964442991468933,0.0,0.14795926058471218,0.054623389044287214,0.0,0.054819275814728806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044228216007179404,0.0,0.061911529218082816,0.043156513310985516,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corgicornbread,2019/06/06,"I Can't Even Relapse Right I've been disordered for 30 years - heavy restriction, binge/purge, orthorexia. I've permanently damaged my body because of all of this. The past few years have been less bad than others, thanks mostly to a loving partner. Unfortunately I've gained weight, however I've managed to mostly deal with it and not beat myself up like I would in the past.

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But lately... I'm dealing with a highly stressful work situation that is spiraling out of control and I feel helpless and angry. I've been spending too much time on this sub hoping it would help with the old compulsions, but instead I feel like I'm not trying hard enough to be my best self. And then I've read posts on here that imply that it's true - everyone, including people who understand the struggle, still hate fat people. I'm fat people. I'm gross. I have no self-control. I look like literal trash. 

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I want to relapse so badly but I can't even do it correctly anymore. I've damaged my body to the point where I can't use ephedrine because I now have tachycardia. I can't exercise binge because I have permanent Achilles tendon damage. I have numerous gastro problems that affect what I can eat. Heavy fasting triggers a hypoglycemic response. 

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And so I feel even more out of control and alone. Do we ever actually get better?",4.3294411764705885,6.939981635294116,4.749828431372549,79.93297794117647,73.82352941176471,7.387254901960786,30.625,8.344100000000001,2.640794117647059,1107,51,185,20,24,350,145,255,0.177,0.696,0.126,-0.9427,1,1,0,0,0,0,56.0,1,0,0,7,12,20,1,2,8,0,19,9,5,5,4,38,35,12,0,5,5,0,5,3,1,2,3,0,0,2,13,12,4,3,4,2,1,0,7,11,0,0,3,6,20,9,20,29,9,23,0,4,1,1,8,10,0,3,15,114,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.06382263039282253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06773644291812175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251763244026678,0.4768213855384517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486091802993411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092153847526258,0.11960481815995865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863505510205785,0.057842493823208524,0.0,0.14529310240844273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006072227737533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485257346618248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749560207987223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692227242095998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06757744490154667,0.0,0.1295916292663435,0.05915958706750555,0.0,0.06249413246523301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992072024152251,0.046722991575368494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034169691839783765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05858708204711085,0.0645706441601741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04383738468008515,0.0691004928089161,0.0,0.0649586507029463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377597265697755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095855909420304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054920960895099895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05902759279098922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807777886032279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862808831557797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248666567766395,0.13602392353915949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06182575152696556,0.0,0.06263675529955948,0.0,0.0,0.06258059960188946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06541940426795924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585269926564805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13645648512399794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351425736069188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0522298866050016,0.0,0.0749174328385546,0.06837206296510932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060213103554817314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03813626050385967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04440346504721035,0.0,0.0,0.06808548208375496,0.0,0.056486074950356964,0.0,0.0,0.03857562048481036,0.0,0.0,0.0796416581444946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04761322063471569,0.0,0.0,0.09291899043666813,0.0,0.4768213855384517,0.08423310830291157
EDAnonymous,Maroth,2019/06/06,"grocery shopping & calories spent 20 minutes wandering the aisles of Aldi while my bf waited for me to make a decision about what I wanted buy to eat. genuinely felt so anxious trying to pick something even though I was really hungry. everything had so many calories and making a decision just kept getting harder the longer we were there. every decision seemed like it was forgoing the chance of choosing something ~healthier~ and none of it seemed worth the calorie ""cost."" 

catch me never buying anything over 300 cal without feeling guilty even if it's a whole meal packaged together. guilty if it's food I didn't make myself because then how can I know what's REALLY in it? guilty if I don't know if the calorie label is accurate (how can that much chicken and rice only be 250 calories?? it must be wrong, can't buy that). 

aaaaaaaaaaaaa i just want to be able to buy food without thinking about it for half an hour and doing the math to calculate the price:calorie:amount:flavor ratio of every single food first.

/rant",5.305567190226878,7.303634356020943,5.191706806282723,80.52009075043631,69.31413612565446,7.606422338568938,30.53438045375217,8.238735603445708,2.4158981500872594,826,34,138,12,15,256,122,191,0.038,0.88,0.08199999999999999,0.7311,0,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,0,1,12,2,0,0,11,0,15,5,0,6,2,36,31,15,0,7,8,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,11,5,5,2,11,1,8,1,7,1,0,2,8,2,11,1,18,19,4,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,6,6,93,22,1,0.13846923519949025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003135848681226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643082207462486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11394838222571213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440956055263436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416885964915429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829152478296071,0.0,0.2333326055694284,0.0,0.12444722004947385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001420585185808,0.0,0.1329521806673173,0.0,0.0,0.1177818607236448,0.5023126465243948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07234446028481169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636430416813988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219814076458768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764907396723709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772878691806776,0.1403860708864294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179082034602838,0.0,0.10679601054342236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053120930319224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774138755524048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25211438236969197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21320076450264652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887254947731708,0.1360453205367916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940115213411378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334548506967111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15459595607875942,0.0,0.2669588028922548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139437142593476,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,merpsicle,2019/06/06,"How to help my partner understand what’s triggering to me My partner doesn’t get it. He’s one of those “logical minded” people and works in a field where he has to make quick analytical decisions without taking the time to think about it much. So when I cry about feeling guilty about going out for dinner, his response is “if you decided to eat dinner then why are you feeling guilty about it”. When I tell him my lowest weight was still in the normal range even though all I ate was half a bagel for breakfast and purged the rest, he talked about what the carbs probably did for my metabolism or something that stopped me from being so skinny. 

I truly do believe he’s trying and id prefer helpful answers rather than just telling me to break up but as an almost 30 year old, I don’t know where to draw the line between happy relationship with things to work on together vs settling and can find someone better for me. Thank you this sub is the only place I feel validated",7.356210526315793,6.7184132526315805,7.222105263157897,77.12473684210528,63.842105263157904,9.915789473684214,33.21052631578947,9.120678840339163,2.7180105263157897,778,27,148,11,10,248,133,190,0.048,0.835,0.11800000000000001,0.9274,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,3,18,3,0,0,9,0,12,7,1,3,1,33,24,15,0,4,7,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,9,6,7,1,12,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,5,19,3,29,19,3,19,0,0,0,0,17,8,0,3,9,104,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049892610115346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805825395836451,0.0,0.1417560998060693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17606187314831578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400814870724287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10586452230349748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24312966398089306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649453006916813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374055001134002,0.0,0.09109175894139412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17062280350772302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21486683118955816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808660654978785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069892501570361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183878165250054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782545959046276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704199211107556,0.0,0.0,0.1681886359619474,0.0,0.10861099839961147,0.12190142214925152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11111911910394097,0.0,0.1674602165739302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281073457983534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208251508149602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580612721042196,0.12339264963759808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280011377287397,0.1340026415658631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051185820480607,0.12882832393577393,0.28018646453202,0.1475658145590722,0.0,0.0,0.1064840103761853,0.10270201343797247,0.15747591347518522,0.0,0.09346152271267194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882072343226136,0.0,0.0,0.1668588567966716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195179877187833,0.0,0.0,0.14462926455243785,0.0,0.0,0.15450579696466193,0.0,0.2333739093965213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032161315870858
EDAnonymous,gaoxings,2019/06/06,"short survey hey! so i'm writing a research paper about eating disorders and academia (for people who've done IB, it's my EE). i have a quick survey that shouldn't in any way be triggering, and if anyone could take it that would be really helpful. thank you guys so much!

link: [https://forms.gle/CQJRMBDLHUQmQhku5](https://forms.gle/CQJRMBDLHUQmQhku5)",6.9610714285714295,10.950014392857144,5.440714285714289,70.30428571428573,74.71428571428572,6.057142857142857,20.5,7.447530270364453,0.9550999999999998,290,7,43,4,7,85,48,56,0.0,0.879,0.121,0.7547,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,9,10,5,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,3,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,26,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210815470524743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21676418460900224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475154578475529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552950144588187,0.0,0.0,0.3172449134164708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172146746059295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069557856149359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779123621798692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278909012685669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21491990176642675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19859849768252907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23308677152884205,0.0,0.0,0.2854129030617356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460692202602821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202201617622262,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ughania,2019/06/06,"not feeling valid in your own ED ever since i developed an ED, i’ve had these crippling thoughts that i’m not “skinny enough” to have anorexia or all these bullshits.. when i’d finally mildly try to recover by eating like one bowl of ramen, i used to think that i lied to myself by saying i was anorexic.. has anyone ever had that?",8.124545454545455,6.01736903030303,8.365757575757577,74.26863636363636,63.24242424242425,10.618181818181819,35.63636363636364,8.841846274778883,3.0238545454545456,260,9,49,3,3,86,49,66,0.064,0.8959999999999999,0.04,-0.1205,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,3,10,10,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,6,1,8,6,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20534831869514805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005085928436669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034505873858208,0.0,0.0,0.5313018706549615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484937461488972,0.0,0.0,0.32171276543140376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347751709351544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900558937881374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23354661738423246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429356445945591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881786837039855,0.0,0.23314960871817406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938986403188727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25364576372749204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MothsUponOldScarves,2019/06/06,"[Trigger Warning] I think I relapsed. Shit. I *know* I have. I was going to make a throwaway and thought, “no. Shame yourself so you can recover quickly and then remove this. Use it as motivation.” How healthy. 

—-This may be extremely triggering. Please don’t read if you’re vulnerable. I don’t want to set anyone back. I’m sorry. —-

Quick backstory - my whole family is overweight on every side. I am literally the only thin person. I became obsessed with keeping it that way. Anxiety, depression, childhood abuse in every capacity. At 15 I took exercising too far. Would run on the elliptical for 1.5 hours minimum a day, plus yoga, plus toning workouts. But when I saw results it was like a high. I needed more. So then the calorie counting started... then the starving. By 17 I was consumed with my obsession for a perfect body. If I couldn’t have a gorgeous face, I could at least be perfectly petite. Then, one day, I shoved my finger down my throat. Beginning of a spiral. 

I was bulimic for about a year. I justified it that I didn’t do it often, maybe once every few weeks? Around 18 I finally stopped. Ok, I *mostly* stopped. Maybe once a year I’d slip up if I felt overly full in a painful way.
My boyfriend made it perfectly clear he would leave me if I relapsed, that he couldn’t watch me go through that and be unable to help or stop it.
That he couldn’t condone it. 

Well, I’m a piece of shit. We’re living apart for awhile and my brain decided now is the perfect time to relapse. I know why. I’m in such a blurry state of life right now. I’m feeling out of control and unable to grasp anything around me. I stopped eating because I felt so broken, and dropped a bit of weight. That’s all it took. Seeing my stomach go perfectly flat was like taking a hit of the good stuff. It started off involuntary... 

Then I saw a tiny bit of a gap forming between my thighs. Ecstasy. More. 

Then, my boss commented I was looking thinner. *yes, more.* 

My clothes got loose. My underwear was sagging. Those were tight a month or so ago. *I’m gone.* 

The finger found its way back into my mouth. And now I’ve purged three days in a row. I’m so ashamed. I am so disappointed. I’m scared. 

I’m 23. I went years being ok. Why now? Why can’t I find healthier ways to cope? I’m scared of getting better *already* and it’s only been a month. 

A guest at work commented I looked extremely thin and asked if I was ok. She said I shouldn’t lose my weight, I’m fine as is. What made me feel gross is how *good* hearing that felt. So good. 

And I came home and binged and then purged. 
Then sunk to the bathroom floor and cried my eyes out. I want to stop. I want to be this thin the healthy way. But I feel like this is the one thing in my power. I can decide. No one can influence it or stop me or judge me because it’s my secret I’m in control of.

I need to get better. I can’t do this to my boyfriend. What if I’m still neck deep when we move back in together? I can’t hide this, I don’t want to hide anything from him. 

I need some words of encouragement... I’m feeling so low.",-0.4623803249890202,1.7424954863124036,1.6016132337871485,94.75223978919632,98.96779388083736,4.699107012150492,20.44341970428927,6.4769562113868036,0.390917552334944,2351,88,509,34,99,776,293,621,0.142,0.726,0.132,-0.628,1,0,0,0,1,0,118.0,1,1,0,13,29,34,2,6,29,4,44,20,13,14,7,101,105,49,0,20,12,0,15,3,1,4,4,2,1,1,31,24,4,10,18,4,0,11,13,14,1,4,27,24,70,20,58,64,14,95,0,4,7,0,17,33,2,14,46,309,101,4,0.0,0.08041908337614886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060165825815835815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07490017385640081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519230963659013,0.0,0.0,0.047458779283075715,0.0,0.1117083321677952,0.12084373721116755,0.06345262702850518,0.0,0.0,0.15657176053267108,0.0,0.08275019832816563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005731648531412,0.14820072180160845,0.07539223685746671,0.0,0.07576935285378954,0.0,0.07762928399030447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522519635315876,0.05419152386417162,0.0,0.07455593111859718,0.13131851559586505,0.0,0.058459407616637225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694516082286883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17155923387900446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0639851625511447,0.0,0.13727566835080401,0.048488892991453036,0.19550781771080888,0.07435217986772663,0.062035214653699385,0.0,0.0,0.07441986775882531,0.0,0.0,0.07092227938776344,0.0,0.11572234437240066,0.1707873944273793,0.05428469544141056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649844790265327,0.0,0.045494224216122384,0.07171215473357191,0.06808272621715082,0.0,0.06684179576885446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060329148889312026,0.0,0.0,0.07460307962149815,0.0,0.0,0.07186831197443676,0.0,0.0,0.04794111076106505,0.0994787957227004,0.0,0.05993360707426255,0.0,0.11399341121103172,0.07593316504310389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844722880294585,0.04530613597651964,0.0,0.1363762506592105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835207432774484,0.07213886493567116,0.0,0.15098217957758234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14456627683866485,0.13797866574863768,0.10324181914573224,0.07222226544423928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059264584567080426,0.0,0.07450479937929637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0678919389824765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579636591464222,0.0645633093215002,0.0,0.13590657128362554,0.0,0.05408644880888274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934249140716054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597890632487217,0.09608252640317684,0.0,0.05420392181995412,0.34047206935751484,0.0,0.0,0.07769900067778679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05103247874525765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04509218492836877,0.0434906439577203,0.0,0.05388403416400959,0.0395776253257012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082007050285254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058620973345785865,0.0,0.0,0.16013436389231211,0.2693744087326102,0.05444408493051988,0.16530344951054546,0.0610264920039089,0.06291948071192806,0.1837360234709296,0.0757784185967455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049412768371455966,0.0,0.0,0.0964308755121041,0.0,0.0,0.1311250640356222
EDAnonymous,DANIELYCCM,2019/06/06,"I think it's time to accept I have a serious problem I'm  a 21 yo guy whom has beed fat for almost his whole life. I'm not morbidly obese  (sorry if it's not a nice term to say) I'm just a little bit above of just being ""chubby"" and I've been trying to actively lose weight for about 3 years now, excercising and dieting the thing is that I can't deal with my urges of eating. About a year ago I was doing pretty well with my workout I was getting in shape but then I stopped because of my asthma and I've been trying to get back but I can't and I started to gain weigh again, now I weight even more than before and the main problem is that I eat a lot, but not always. Here's the big problem, to my mom (the only person I live with) and to my friends I eat healthy, healthy food and healthy portions, but when I'm alone I order food, and I eat a lot more than I can bare, I eat til I feel like I can't move because if I do I'd throw up, I mostly order pizzas, tacos but enough to feed a family of 5 and I eat it all. I of course feel super guilty afterwards and I swaer that I'm never going to do that again but a few days go by and I do it again, I feel anxious before I order the food, I feel bad just after I click in the ""order"" button, until the food arrives. I don't know if this is a specific ED neither if this is the right place to share this. I need help to stop this. Sorry for the bad enligsh, I'm a mexican living in México.",0.615080862533695,2.025584411949686,3.051235399820307,93.4150471698113,80.66666666666666,5.800718778077267,19.53324348607368,6.5431188927421005,-0.021871877807726925,1105,26,264,10,28,383,156,318,0.12300000000000001,0.7440000000000001,0.133,0.7115,0,1,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,0,3,15,14,0,0,20,0,20,20,1,0,2,49,38,25,0,8,16,1,6,1,1,0,4,1,0,2,14,14,18,2,7,1,0,4,9,7,1,0,4,8,36,7,34,33,14,39,0,1,1,0,10,9,0,8,23,174,50,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635862163677701,0.0,0.08625756804628415,0.08921588994820802,0.0,0.0,0.0716760460785016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731458483709864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06623695793751595,0.14384793955772782,0.1050212641284076,0.0,0.14659895222105376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404344317474453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05555368965864919,0.08880738222506279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5288612599816676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08900647314186799,0.0,0.056895185893805635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08120587977244333,0.0,0.17422150660110755,0.0615390046311973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166471884645734,0.0,0.06655216828976733,0.0,0.09001002519211886,0.0,0.09791160335105256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529293489792372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05773836237552735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734073082611099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06084379442669386,0.042084043671363834,0.08633571145907608,0.1521278088966691,0.0,0.0,0.096369521079244,0.0,0.14646765523236938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088706369400982,0.0,0.09155403783188233,0.0,0.06387231160952568,0.06643709526332157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551395994606786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521482383156086,0.08999880171825933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763616163341867,0.0,0.2472753356885243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356377241446953,0.0,0.06850262148662138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285514598255635,0.06097090150464425,0.0,0.0,0.14403513162405132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057228119801102026,0.05519554633675916,0.0,0.0,0.050229393123893885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696789734765327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097925755239542,0.07745092416764897,0.0,0.0,0.09617312677754714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109437017445974
EDAnonymous,nglthisisdefmewhen,2019/06/06,Bruh moment I feel so fucking ugly right now I almost want to die just to not be aware that I live in this body,1.210799999999999,2.2940950800000017,2.9730000000000025,96.01150000000004,78.2,5.0,16.5,3.1291,-1.013,87,1,21,0,2,29,22,25,0.273,0.691,0.037000000000000005,-0.8177,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,4,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995556035805486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4432154014448063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141142820831582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20175383100693853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688826781322556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35233730721737777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34075638989675505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353492194157212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vanishedintofatair,2019/06/06,"A reminder of how serious EDs can get ..... A 17-year-old Dutch rape victim died Sunday after seeking assisted death a year earlier

https://nationalpost.com/news/world/a-17-year-old-dutch-rape-victim-died-sunday-after-seeking-assisted-death-a-year-earlier

On the off chance that anyone reading this does not realize how serious EDs can get please read this article. The headline kinda makes it sound like she died as a result of her sexual assault trauma and the article simply mentions her depression,  PTSD and anorexia.  But I know that everyone at this sub understands how her anorexia made it impossible to cope and heal from her traumas. 

Guys, this shit is serious.  Please be kind to yourselves and be safe",11.544339622641509,14.860077160377363,8.168066037735851,60.10134433962267,55.698113207547166,10.58301886792453,35.89150943396226,10.686352973137794,4.549833962264152,593,24,74,14,8,167,76,106,0.285,0.602,0.113,-0.9735,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,0,3,13,4,0,7,0,5,3,1,6,0,17,11,9,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,8,4,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,10,0,0,1,1,6,3,10,8,0,6,0,1,0,1,7,3,1,1,4,45,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171544360096803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431005247599124,0.0,0.3477796485646145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662360880030306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010063161499993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507529202626215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590024781304522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447691662381645,0.09208076829694917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08185617346161027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15853929320071886,0.11184052536302523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35162982035046525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678378535289694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19585628212054976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351894819566961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719870510745641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17442483406718473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43158528041631095
EDAnonymous,zly-wplyw,2018/11/27,Do you take drugs and if so do you feel its affecting your ED? i noticed that taking all sorts of drugs makes me feel a bit better about how i look and how i feel about eating. i think its kinda weird,2.8241085271317843,3.46651962790698,3.720930232558139,93.91457364341088,73.65116279069767,6.663565891472868,18.984496124031008,6.42735559955562,-0.23893178294573625,156,2,37,1,3,50,31,43,0.035,0.893,0.07200000000000001,0.3597,0,0,2,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,4,1,14,10,6,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,1,3,10,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,24,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22235670128301452,0.2744807612920315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5831246432301906,0.2572609642898432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813699032408374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21112581579302406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782189105236114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862383709389376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780665423578446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610969895082684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThatOtherGhost,2018/11/27,"Any other discord users? If not, I made an interim server. I really, really love discord. Check it out if you do to :) https://discord.gg/mSuUbzH ",3.3424999999999976,5.964471583333339,5.4570000000000025,64.48800000000003,104.0,8.586666666666668,21.466666666666672,8.238735603445708,3.1342266666666667,114,4,16,4,5,39,20,24,0.168,0.591,0.242,0.5222,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,3,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34821083257464513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4621441527337272,0.4845130801564179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6560633150306747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ughjustletmerot,2018/11/27,"SO getting suspicious My SO doesn’t trust me anymore with my eating, they haven’t said anything but I know they think something is up...

How do I stop them from forcing me to eat so much food? If I resist it just turns into an argument... ",0.7231249999999996,3.16271172916667,2.2800000000000007,92.965,87.95833333333334,4.866666666666667,22.583333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.571558333333333,185,7,38,2,6,60,40,48,0.106,0.8390000000000001,0.055,-0.34,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,9,9,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,10,1,5,8,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,29,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837387698942082,0.0,0.0,0.23543961292756896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5855126270795266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34595867812048764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494777845390644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723554231305473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103197155917223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721508818723407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22025720984320535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391961598166608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18332420117052547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31119952198801404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Marca19,2018/11/27,"Hating the diagnostic criteria... So...I finally decided to get some help and ended up getting a tentative diagnosis of bulimia nervosa non purging type. It will be confirmed later this week.

Asside from how terrified I am and how much I feel like I'm not ready to recover, I'm disgusted with myself for not meeting the AN criteria. And guys, I feel awful about it. Why on earth would I want to be diagnosed with AN??? That's so fucked, but I feel like I'm not 'good enough' or thin enough to get that diagnosis.

I hate this. I should want to get better but all I want now is to be thin enough to make them reconsider...",3.917531876138433,5.198563303278688,5.752404371584699,77.96463570127506,71.70491803278688,10.012386156648454,29.12932604735884,10.25414643259724,3.0587839708561018,481,19,96,14,9,166,76,122,0.172,0.7140000000000001,0.113,-0.8645,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,5,8,4,0,5,1,8,2,0,3,1,25,25,9,0,5,6,0,5,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,10,4,15,19,6,9,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,2,7,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732878725037046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690778493818063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475427540279568,0.5163731200760668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526875287052827,0.2380133092652499,0.0,0.1824831140661642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400294483333374,0.3481301670609732,0.0,0.0,0.1397215954026668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16494298058331602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289316925086193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116568165419162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16276770418231118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119519016131793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245739049274533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947642299532379,0.0,0.13362252698278235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503149012746142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11833551139240732,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pudseybear20,2018/11/27,"Nearly bought bird food over actual food I’m low on money and love to feed the birds, I was so tempted to just have a shopping basket consisting of bird food. I have managed to resist however😂",2.043461538461539,4.382476358974362,3.945833333333337,84.13875,80.28205128205127,6.976923076923077,22.57051282051281,8.07648339933343,1.4749435897435892,154,5,29,3,4,52,31,39,0.055,0.836,0.11,0.4767,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,7,4,0,4,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,17,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.2525849760230547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9389505246790416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336080950917273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gothcherrie,2018/11/27,"Holy Fuck I Almost Lost My Shit I haven’t weighed my self in a while, mainly because I wanted to stop being a bitch to myself. Today I hated my body so much, I just HAD to. Stupid me decides to weigh myself at night and after a shower. 

I put the scale on a rug mat so the sound of the scale hitting the floor would be less loud. I step on the scale and IT SAYS 160 POUNDS! I swear to god I never felt more panicked in my life. I start pacing. How can I be 160 my waist is 27 inches now!? How can I be 160 my legs are thinner!? How can I be 160 it’s been 8 months!? 

I then put the scale on solid ground. 139. It says I’m 139. I put it back on the rug again, 160. Then back on the ground, 139. It’s either been a quick as whoosh  and gain, or my rug is fucking with me. I am so relieved that I only gained 8 pounds instead of 29. I am never doing that shit again. Can’t wait for the next weigh in next month!",-1.4879207920792084,0.3891780891089134,0.8800118811881212,103.14469108910893,92.36633663366337,3.2319999999999998,12.535445544554456,3.1291,-1.7952616237623764,682,9,176,0,25,228,108,202,0.126,0.7809999999999999,0.09300000000000001,-0.8255,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,14,9,7,0,14,0,20,11,5,3,2,19,30,14,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,4,1,7,4,4,2,2,0,0,4,4,8,0,0,5,5,29,1,20,18,5,37,0,1,0,2,3,13,5,2,20,118,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15215888487400053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336848090085395,0.0,0.09262908055361503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878542220026402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589861826294467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809560243978586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500220348476047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10732883063085018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16587454585032352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24257471822009705,0.0,0.11170286915036608,0.0,0.2343908959758861,0.0,0.32320727681600786,0.142597507834286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11556703156440372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582639178021939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416780981062931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585200196831897,0.0,0.3119549468608845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755304830448256,0.0,0.0,0.1270394326375844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440335866176857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962576037315761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794298401851722,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mrkaganovich,2018/11/27,"I just wanted someone to care My father and my sister don’t give a fuck about how I feel. I thought, maybe if I’m physically rotting someone will finally understand that there really is something wrong with me.",8.587500000000002,7.709198750000002,8.730000000000004,68.09500000000004,61.5,12.0,40.0,11.20814326018867,4.62725,170,8,29,4,2,56,35,40,0.16699999999999998,0.755,0.078,-0.5667,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,0,9,11,3,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,6,1,3,9,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894043122697661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435232472655382,0.0,0.0,0.31094414397218273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26241504095022056,0.0,0.27229508545335124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851657920104273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818417792463575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4810108990401509,0.21852183902263786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253454425506153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29549818689778323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16742226922467848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31034575827011995,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FluidPersimmon,2018/11/27,"DAE have annoying af family members? my mom recently found out that i have like 0 self control when it comes to sweets. so of course every fucking day she's been bringing cake from work, and at like 8pm when i'm done calorie counting for the day she calls me downstairs and asks me if i want some. sometimes she cuts me a slice without even asking. and of course i eat it. boom instant extra 500 (or more :S) calories. 

i know she wants me to gain weight, whether it's out of concern or jealousy or whatever, and it's pissing me off so much. it's gotten to the point where i'm considering not eating anything else just so i can eat whatever she brings with minimum guilt... let's see how long i can live off sweets -__-",3.383736677115987,4.703584489655171,4.199184952978058,88.43476489028215,73.06896551724137,7.2037617554858935,28.35423197492163,7.686295010490155,1.5698965517241383,561,22,118,7,11,180,98,145,0.068,0.8220000000000001,0.11,0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,9,9,4,1,3,0,7,6,1,2,0,23,21,15,0,3,8,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,8,4,1,2,0,0,3,2,5,0,0,4,5,17,4,15,16,4,16,0,0,1,1,10,7,2,5,8,71,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207591756606765,0.0,0.3000873354434826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638860787444629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825454220247185,0.0,0.0,0.18001179853320867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20701545538770488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164244852998377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4926875930506934,0.13407521927572197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10600720572787864,0.0,0.13522621987567673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130293131335046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17597742493600538,0.0,0.14837752142286248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820532903009724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411975460250214,0.0,0.1568221214237038,0.0,0.14172239427023614,0.14203539861422676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18797294618659235,0.0,0.0,0.11798426387813007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517221875788676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15847209907290394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278958733999032,0.0,0.1674340862909387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15873631209677214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893313832057469,0.0,0.0,0.19544293919048966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471403874120776,0.0,0.11684422451740956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,extiles,2018/11/27,"Trying to remind myself that I have worth. I've been lurking around these subs for about a year, but I always felt like my experiences weren't worth sharing. I'm taking a deep breath and treating myself like a person who has value, so--

I went through a really rough breakup this year with the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, and it was the most awful, gut-wrenching pain that I have ever felt. I've been restricting off and on since I was 12 (I'm now 23) but I had developed a healthy relationship with food and myself during the years I spent with him. He stood beside me while I learned to love myself, and my whole life was filled with love. His leaving triggered the most severe relapse I've ever experienced, and I lost 45 lbs between February and June. My hair started falling out, my mom cried whenever she saw me, and I could barely stomach 200 calories a day.

I started lashing out at myself, blaming myself for his leaving, and I started punishing my body. I drank too much, I self harmed for the first time in a decade, and I started sleeping around because I just wanted to feel something. I'd lost so much weight that my body apparently looked attractive, and finding one night stands was easy. 

I'm not sure when it changed. Maybe it was the third time I snuck out of bed and cried on my couch while some guy I barely knew slept soundly in my bed. But I finally got through that horrible aching sadness.

He told me he was missing out on life by being with me. So I told myself the same thing, although I'm still not sure if that's true. I started throwing myself into everything I couldn't do when I was with him. I've been going full-force for the past few months--going to concerts, volunteering, applying to grad school. I flew to the city of my childhood dreams, and it took fainting in the airport for me to realize that I can't fill a void in my life with accomplishments or events or other people. I still need to fix this. I still need to get better.

I''m not depressed anymore. I'm learning to love my life again. I have my family and friends and my network of people who believe in me, even when I don't. I met a boy who makes me sing sappy love songs in the car while I'm grinning like an idiot. Things are innocent, and new, and not the end of the world. I gained 4 lbs over the holiday weekend and he posts Instagram stories with girls who are so much smaller and prettier than I am, but it's not the end of the world. I matter in my own way, and nobody else can take that away from me again. It's so difficult to be kind to myself, but I'm trying. I want to get better. I want to go back to my dream city and eat wonderful food and walk confidently down the street and just love my life and be thankful to the person who set me free so that I could fall in love with myself again. I owe it to myself to get better.

(Sorry this was so long, and thank you to anyone who read this! It's a hard day for recovery but we'll get there ❤)
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EDAnonymous,Bigbang19,2019/09/21,Craving an entire pizza please help... I haven't eaten anything all day and feeling anxious. Trying to lose weight and fighting with myself to not drive to the store and buy a giant pizza and eat it all at once. I don't know what to do to stop this madness.,3.3665384615384615,4.764211038461539,4.23,87.89000000000001,73.23076923076924,5.2,24.538461538461537,3.1291,0.3426384615384612,202,6,39,0,4,65,40,52,0.226,0.7070000000000001,0.067,-0.8391,0,0,0,0,3,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,3,0,3,5,0,0,2,11,6,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,5,1,2,0,2,1,3,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,7,5,2,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,26,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3460625538791996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520811924431466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19755570814864706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134492097345856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488824109969515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20532467125996934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834942305530118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34270179168544074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262284804128765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362552874222386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25610326335761996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079760672347732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730240158360984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tipsypuppy,2019/09/21,"how to cope when boyfriend's preferred ""type"" is something completely unattainable for you? so me and my bf have been in an on/off relationship for around two years now. at the beginning of this year we cut contact and about a month ago started talking again. I recently found out that he used to (or still does? idk) have a folder on his computer of saved pictures of this one particular female twitch streamer, during the period of time we weren't talking. she's blonde, has a cute face and gym body with big boobs and a HUGE ass - something I know I'll never be given my body frame/genetics/ED motives. 

I don't know if I'm overreacting by being so upset by this revelation, but I feel like if he ever got the opportunity to leave me for someone like that he'd be gone in seconds. doesn't help that he's cheated once before lol",5.696158536585367,6.022055810975613,6.275512195121952,79.28046341463417,67.10975609756098,9.242926829268294,31.64390243902439,9.120678840339163,2.550006829268293,659,25,130,11,10,215,117,164,0.08800000000000001,0.79,0.122,0.7619,0,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,2,1,0,2,10,8,2,1,8,1,12,6,5,3,2,24,23,12,0,3,4,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,6,1,0,1,4,3,0,3,6,2,14,5,20,13,0,24,0,0,1,2,15,8,2,3,17,79,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737841447720888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804815693885474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15107338352908067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944136240009979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18614721354753253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536636811467233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16059500928064407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976951092418316,0.12683454428280108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946633430967523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199488136500835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900125657578026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19514257847779945,0.0,0.0,0.1879891256593257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1734740603174777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14171065909751848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692972045447413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18907420555801652,0.12030563503867532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752992385489754,0.19061141653224925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504289861702568,0.27335778682629464,0.0,0.0,0.12566365922228026,0.0,0.14178359822704714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853997026164323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352494689589188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17343069055306595,0.0,0.0,0.15333747547170334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22865975711101194
EDAnonymous,lifesabreech,2019/09/21,"I’m back. I think. I haven’t been active on this sub or peach in almost a year. I decided in December of last year to try and “commit” to recovery. And I’m up xx lbs since then. I accidentally opened my front facing camera on my phone today and almost didn’t recognize myself. 

I suck at recovery anyway. I’ve been stacking every now and then and in the spring I spent over $100 on a macro template from a fitness company (yeah, Jesus Christ, right?)

No real point to this post. Just feel like relapse is right around the corner for approximately the billionth time in 12 years. What a dumb fucking cycle.",2.328753501400559,4.685598226890762,4.0438865546218485,83.73260854341737,79.33613445378153,6.655742296918768,21.68137254901961,7.793537801064563,1.1092011204481795,475,14,91,8,12,159,85,119,0.094,0.8240000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,7,1,5,2,1,0,1,16,12,8,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,4,1,9,1,17,8,0,30,2,0,0,1,1,17,3,3,12,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4351819918284828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343990081828225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16708754919012214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18308162233250447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098716089197916,0.15523661991129098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20088705699788506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771256004927096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061600643509559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054153718954324,0.0,0.20810992291085054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473309205784031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37113994436486025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17974986036655458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392347844887271,0.0,0.0,0.12670730141767364,0.0,0.2059716169922952,0.0,0.0,0.14753001881651726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41979534839307536
EDAnonymous,grownbean,2019/09/21,TG B/P Fasting I binged and probably ate like 2500 calories. I hate myself so much...I purged for the first time but only a couple pringle pieces came out...I’m planning to fast for the next five days to make up for it. I shot from 103 to 109 and I’m so freaking sad.,-1.3238596491228058,0.6743527543859642,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,100.40350877192984,3.235087719298245,16.859649122807017,5.033348758259628,-0.9223824561403512,205,6,49,1,9,66,46,57,0.20199999999999999,0.768,0.03,-0.902,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,4,1,8,3,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794944160373791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671338800942648,0.0,0.21398558563360515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28223159420557403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32758692221777264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16210226154519605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214811825066786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24391349674089066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35287641964761074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523512510577819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.357739920491186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934770880148659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,raven0014,2019/09/21,"Does anyone else have rib pain? I've noticed that sometimes (a lot times...) when I wake up I have pain in my ribs. I don't think it is muscle pain because the bones themselves are tender to touch. I sleep on my side and I don't think it is my bed because I have a very soft, comfortable mattress and it happens no matter where I am sleeping. I tried googling this and nothing came up and I wasn't sure if it was an ED thing. Anyone else?",0.5253260869565253,2.649160010869565,1.8501739130434809,98.18395652173916,84.76086956521739,4.114782608695652,21.156521739130433,4.935628992294339,-0.3125208695652177,339,11,77,1,10,108,60,92,0.16,0.7879999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.8672,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,4,0,11,10,6,0,1,11,15,6,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,7,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,2,12,3,5,12,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,2,2,48,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335410877449817,0.3422232350072761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036037548859213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19100393749934716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14614315195665334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790147655272586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767787846695932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197774527920806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024136208151074,0.19013103172497595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5331005143637148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342419576843933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16516763925353697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573958753444156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094762735210653,0.21401419189552887,0.0,0.0,0.09737926057680696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11338229118997704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779279755912427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,grimPontif,2019/09/21,Just so tired all the time I literally can't bring myself to eat today I'm just so tired all I've had is a cup of tea but I literally can't bring myself to eat any thing even though I have safe foods in the house,0.8435714285714297,1.9433969795918389,3.15484693877551,94.26247448979592,79.20408163265307,6.53265306122449,16.331632653061224,7.1686216300943375,-0.4439428571428574,168,2,44,2,4,58,33,49,0.091,0.825,0.084,0.1672,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,0,5,6,0,0,2,6,8,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,7,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17102900230285473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5146957116442673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661137451839085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30411547044321746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901978743455215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16708579400264234,0.0,0.247098019189342,0.0,0.14665199663286962,0.5781257834576409,0.23839311976229585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovebroccoliii,2019/09/21,BED is ruining my relationship Every Saturday morning I binge without fail. I’m talking 2500 calories before 8AM. This results in me avoiding plans w my bf until past dinner so I can avoid eating and so I can fast for the rest of the day. Just got into a fight with my bf because he thinks I’m neglecting him. I just want to stop and I feel so alone rn,0.5622678843226794,2.943210493150687,2.9294977168949785,88.50633181126335,87.9041095890411,5.436225266362253,23.179604261796044,6.937597516519254,0.9873421613394212,278,11,56,4,9,95,57,73,0.223,0.722,0.055,-0.8967,0,3,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,1,2,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,15,9,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,4,2,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,10,0,8,8,1,8,0,3,0,0,7,2,0,0,6,33,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3221933089093535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18963633392559395,0.0,0.2647129425384063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006259995123552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183206478247729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621050246903108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15729542048947273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248805461249816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29696865960281216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339920492477274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26008346542352395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500407196633653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933260455759408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348773971281815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998776937008498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MayoneggParmesan,2019/09/21,"Almost passed out at work today (trigger warning) Hey gals and guys of EDAnonymous. 

For the last month or so I've gone back to my ED bullshit. I'm still in the overweight range. 

Anyway, for the last couple of weeks I've been eating maybe a third of my tdee. Decided to fast three days ago. So today is day four, and at work I was in a position that required standing in the same spot. After about five minutes, my pulse started to feel really weak, and I felt like I was going to throw up. Then my vision faded to black and I got a bit scared. My hearing started to go but someone asked ""are you okay?"" And I told them I thought I was going to pass out. I kinda fell to a squat and my vision slowly came back. It was a bit scary, I've never had that happen before. Was it because of electrolytes? I left work early and ate a little bit, but I'm really not interested in food at all and don't want to eat anymore today. Any advice? 

Stay strong ladies!",1.2222307692307697,3.357271569230772,2.856602564102566,91.94798076923078,82.02564102564101,4.925641025641027,19.493589743589748,5.985473137389443,-0.06736410256410252,736,19,154,5,20,242,121,195,0.094,0.853,0.053,-0.7761,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,5,7,6,0,1,10,1,10,6,0,1,2,27,29,14,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,11,5,1,4,0,0,9,3,2,0,4,14,5,17,4,27,15,5,44,0,0,1,0,7,12,0,3,22,94,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196437522522276,0.10853277076520433,0.0,0.12260269579070572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326117265574882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121424333106186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446181167386492,0.0,0.0,0.18829257045034145,0.0,0.07463629214877446,0.0,0.1041846364874898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010075840004077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003499777059644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547390925363947,0.0,0.1579231195021861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25056667544900685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061907687805876466,0.0,0.11755845822600773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480509758632578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20875083993073112,0.0,0.09792383510924636,0.0,0.0,0.12123160885750348,0.1082703930224357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799508936395796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19960454726272453,0.0,0.0,0.13302786174944128,0.0,0.0,0.05981640012287899,0.12271376538475498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300414853375448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772782709692578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944307515766791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15687220452615352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258052263556155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103740241167717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17332269060143068,0.13050125988325625,0.09777812806006132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09720108464442673,0.0,0.0,0.3481671021384392,0.11699353922401265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221635360393286,0.0,0.09821135684852801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26740618564509944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,danielaco1937,2019/09/21,"Afraid of stairs Is anyone else super afraid of stairs? I know stairs means less calories, but I fear that I might pass out infant of the whole school and that makes me super anxious, I always avoid stairs.",8.126153846153844,7.407426871794872,5.932948717948723,87.25788461538464,62.33333333333334,7.800000000000002,24.628205128205128,3.1291,0.36745128205128186,164,2,32,0,2,46,28,39,0.196,0.638,0.166,-0.1039,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,8,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,4,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,0,18,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531733561199568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34373352592084805,0.0,0.2127495843256593,0.31175606698331343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541748690126201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34238339453825845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721641831765185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20309965283585935,0.0,0.0,0.33143444046608506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227777223621833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079330344624132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33970168008646245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,piperwestly,2019/09/21,"I have to admit to myself that I have one now I have been thin for the majority of my life, possibly underweight without trying. I've been in an emotionally abusive relationship since 2017 and after I met him, my self-esteem went down the drain. He insisted we have an open relationship where he can see other people, but I have to be monogamous. He helps pay my bills, so I keep my mouth shut, which makes me feel eve worse. 

I lost 20 pounds since I met him in 2017 due to going low carb. Low carb kills my appetite. However, I think I've lost too much weight. I also don't eat when I have anxiety or am depressed. Going low carb really jump started my anxiety over eating. I think I do have orthorexia. I have had a binge eating disorder for years, but never gained weight from it, so it wasn't a big deal to me. 

I am still at a healthy weight now, but I had the biggest panic attack over eating cheesecake, a burger, and fries for lunch. I seriously loathe myself and didn't even enjoy the meal because I had such guilt. I imagine all the water weight coming on and how uncomfortable I feel due to the water weight. 

I feel like a failure that I let ONE person make me have a snowball effect and hate myself.",4.648096473029046,5.388333423236513,5.707611514522821,80.96979901452285,69.53941908713692,8.680601659751039,26.26581950207469,8.841846274778883,1.816728008298755,949,27,189,16,16,315,137,241,0.28300000000000003,0.6729999999999999,0.043,-0.9963,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,4,12,14,3,2,14,0,23,15,1,4,2,27,43,14,1,0,5,0,9,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,8,13,1,8,0,2,5,5,12,0,2,12,10,37,2,20,29,3,32,0,6,1,0,14,16,0,1,12,126,43,1,0.0,0.11610609455636994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836524577938582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499292875080652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148158124976702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597358359999531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441259322658227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10102683993015348,0.08440152788983077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230886768257003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010866403127215,0.0,0.1102293280640848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06472368280739246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864514485271854,0.07000646809497313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138375697172476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674814449711186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06568287621358802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710099110039399,0.10841512172950153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020483858981544,0.06921560039581966,0.047874600478884415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21394263244891767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082264275679814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07203638676331517,0.0,0.0755785118356719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280565872025707,0.0,0.0,0.11497408118751415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793624967297221,0.08556401255414235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104727772094897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062777048622982,0.0,0.0,0.2104163676458608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808801189948518,0.0,0.10222843454678766,0.0,0.0,0.16212222183165192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06936019678067358,0.0,0.0782576150826933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255803624633232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665310515085371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5966474975098324,0.0,0.09084081626256722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944620915208511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986359442186273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06310450390827407
EDAnonymous,wiIdfire1999,2019/09/21,Stopped therapy temporarily and now I’ve relapsed I was finally getting healthy again. My hair wasn’t falling out and I could work out again without fainting. But then paying my tuition took all my therapy money and I can’t go anymore. Three weeks later and I’ve eaten about 40 calories in the past 24 hrs with no will to stop restricting because I’m so depressed.  Fuck this shit man,5.76472972972973,6.911321148648652,5.968486486486487,78.63191891891893,67.24324324324324,8.622702702702702,37.77297297297297,8.841846274778883,3.4561816216216212,311,17,55,5,5,99,58,74,0.27,0.6970000000000001,0.033,-0.9547,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,2,0,1,0,5,5,2,0,1,14,11,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,1,3,0,0,3,3,4,3,0,1,4,1,6,0,7,5,1,16,0,1,0,1,1,3,2,0,10,33,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292498281763939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091374202456286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18456343472266085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19909883118662464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25322583158761064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137048349483024,0.12077220337053428,0.0,0.13137425577883055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22066955325697252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372836837120333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865222828651029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5287060314811721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568286352944196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542359761454205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22283117952313086,0.0,0.1682881306797993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,octohussy,2019/09/21,"For the first time in my life, I feel like I don’t need to binge after a shitty day. 🙂 Now I just can’t stomach food at all. 🙃

What even is balance?",-2.8580000000000005,-1.212035085714284,0.28857142857143003,105.46142857142858,99.85714285714286,2.8000000000000003,12.714285714285715,3.1291,-1.8597428571428567,112,2,31,0,5,39,32,35,0.11599999999999999,0.804,0.08,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,5,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,6,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767276299301291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283409977691296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169608575992877,0.30654206776343484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649838372274227,0.5188574768359352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030790417542249,0.2096317586574453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31816488730934983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502058998675312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,markvuitton562,2019/09/21,"Prednisone usage Hi everyone, I’m new to this. I want to share a story about what happened to me recently. 
Last week, I was diagnosed with a sinus infection and was prescribed prednisone and amoxicillin. I was unaware of the side effects and did not know that it was going to give me a lot of anxiety. When I started taking prednisone, It was only for 6 days and needed to start at 60mg and taper down to 10mg. However, I stopped at 20 mg due to the major side effects and it freaked me out. I started having so much energy one night that I could not stand at all. My mind was racing and was having harmful thoughts. My moods will change. I will be super happy, then sad or ill start crying. While this went on, I went back to my doctor and mentioned my anxiety levels that went to through the roof. He gave me propranolol and I felt great when I took them the first time, but now after three days of taking them. I feel really depressed. How long is it going to take for prednisone to completely leave my system? Has anyone experience anything like this?",3.2922707659115424,5.333104451456311,4.339352750809063,84.33539374325781,74.87378640776699,7.102049622437971,26.00755124056095,7.984000788550335,1.6721518878101405,831,30,156,13,18,270,126,206,0.098,0.828,0.073,-0.47,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,4,7,10,0,0,7,0,16,5,0,3,1,29,39,17,0,3,4,0,2,1,0,2,5,0,0,0,11,11,0,1,6,0,0,6,2,4,0,3,15,2,23,5,26,20,4,40,0,2,0,0,8,9,0,2,24,110,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032435762226555,0.0,0.0,0.09288440693791576,0.0,0.10931551906908747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214530967711262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14052648613261526,0.0,0.13927959820173072,0.0,0.0,0.106061462836245,0.0,0.1459178586189332,0.17134086499690898,0.0,0.11441439262534098,0.13482920896070127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596676911531966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269337527835159,0.0,0.12994243677552247,0.0,0.0,0.06716759909539803,0.0,0.1275466694404319,0.0,0.0,0.11299313768601188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274316703658458,0.15099140052160054,0.0,0.0,0.14645592289758871,0.0,0.0,0.117469455089903,0.1414100263401867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07300506788273084,0.10828185224911983,0.0,0.1406577589271286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489862770164836,0.0,0.0,0.1175587011760272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11293531939906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341299398782176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09765225398771372,0.09849874227772716,0.0,0.12829713381445895,0.0,0.1246607912488258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900154248363868,0.1010303603190509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851003301549875,0.0,0.13116289545712773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760976837951793,0.0,0.0,0.11105969825789193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996361217732853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545965640821384,0.07745973056874941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475894767481703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07835212812680803,0.0,0.10655576515960316,0.0,0.0,0.3694304029130295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,foreveramess,2019/09/21,Any good books about drug/weight loss/bulimia/adderall abuse like Cat Marnell’s book? Any not-super-depressing books that don’t make me feel dirty in my skin but kind of just straight-forward non-apologetic women who are all honest about their adderall abuse and partying and weight? You know??,6.5233018867924555,8.59193411320755,4.7171226415094365,84.84285377358493,66.35849056603774,8.318867924528304,30.23113207547169,8.841846274778883,2.4119094339622653,240,9,42,4,4,68,46,53,0.17300000000000001,0.618,0.209,0.2869,0,0,1,0,2,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,8,5,3,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,17,6,3,0.0,0.5507420045616171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31609716239701496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001766868299094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695249039468877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117514826069692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949367157063933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242022024791825,0.12772792194433186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135450879476714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513725784426202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5660320245044528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SilaMitty,2019/09/21,"relapse Hey, just had this really painful moment that caused me to relapse. Or, I don’t know if I was recovered in the first place ‘cause I’m struggling a lot with overexercising and fasting (but I feel invalid af anyway so). 

Anyway, what happened was that my mom suddenly freakig exploded bc my two other siblings had been complaining that nothing was good enough, the dinner was too bland and normal, whatever, ALL DAY. I’d been up in my room for the past three hours exercising but my mom just let it all out on me. I haven’t seen her that pissed off in years. Of course, I went in defense mode because I had been gone for the past three hours doing other things, so I wouldn’t even have had a chance to complain and shit. I know it wasn’t my fault. This was when I was supposed to eat dinner. After she was done yelling, she stormed out and slammed the door. I tried to force myself to eat dinner but I felt so terrible I started crying. Like, sobbing. Then I just sat there sorting my dinner, unable to eat it. I haven’t struggled this much with eating any of my dinner for years. I guess my eating disorder is getting worse.

To clarify, my ed getting worse is NOT my mom’s fault. Her getting so angry and me feeling terrible was one of many, many factors.",3.2767780337941623,5.165807330645158,3.956036866359448,87.73381720430109,74.48387096774194,6.659293394777269,26.72887864823349,7.447530270364453,1.3865281874039943,990,37,196,12,21,314,137,248,0.244,0.723,0.033,-0.9963,0,0,0,0,1,0,31.0,0,0,0,1,13,15,3,2,7,0,26,14,2,2,2,33,42,16,0,3,9,3,3,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,14,9,10,1,5,1,0,2,6,13,0,5,22,5,33,2,25,18,5,28,0,1,1,0,10,11,3,5,16,140,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07101124282698412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365531131054047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454243777520265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470379772579135,0.06734421717389942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11967784187826393,0.0,0.0,0.10686101701249907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5342541567432215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789690646975028,0.0,0.06897042804042247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055988454502432,0.0,0.10026248678923108,0.0,0.0,0.08882217798567059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636701735279558,0.0,0.0,0.08758508523107318,0.0,0.0,0.11503374290750225,0.0,0.09234094265856267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20567130492417351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477633537985438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067796254707504,0.0,0.05101581900274283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887767279142801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21173712995145716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36689698033703694,0.0,0.0,0.07676294385683201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10231240060924257,0.10019671585957496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075974922026701,0.0,0.1111134688082252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993672002107781,0.0,0.0,0.10909984351258194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689606843798072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10718874212401826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07391115977078799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183312521992507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937402271604691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089638446839276,0.0,0.1020061293611688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680119717252914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128319821796154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13449001839972768
EDAnonymous,efflorescent048,2019/09/21,"I couldn’t even eat in my dream and I’m pissed So I woke up from a long nap feeling shit. 
I had a dream where I was sitting infront of a large table FULL of delicious food, foods that I love but never eat because i’m constantly restricting. Cadbury breakaways, marshmallows, donuts, honey soy chips, honey ice cream, etc. But my mf ed is so strong that I didn’t eat any of those even though I knew it was a dream. I regret it so so much like I could have enjoyed all those calories without gaining at all but I just could not bring myself to it. 
Anyone else had a similar experience?",2.2148228043143265,4.262854288135596,3.3936363636363645,89.83834360554701,78.15254237288136,6.3248073959938385,24.28659476117103,7.348242739294969,1.0285152542372882,458,16,95,6,11,148,78,118,0.11900000000000001,0.674,0.207,0.8772,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,9,7,2,0,5,0,10,8,2,0,3,17,17,9,0,4,6,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,5,1,2,4,0,1,5,3,0,0,7,4,13,4,9,7,5,10,0,1,1,1,3,5,2,0,4,64,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987459826395823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232571759716698,0.18061690945340866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10745699648307806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19049312088919607,0.0,0.2814861357161422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.541127009139801,0.14725705179056434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965957690104745,0.2328589677998745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17243300919748053,0.0,0.0,0.08913109158170843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4263103842549499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08612017709591087,0.0,0.0,0.15599984965764666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15909713158368516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958408682997735,0.0,0.13595590895435772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809460993640437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319153701014015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16992501178602845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CecilOrDamien,2019/09/21,"How the hell are you even supposed to recover when you're struggling with binge eating, b/p AND restricting? TW: Talking about abusive parents that fueled my eating disorder; a lot of ED thought patterns

I was a chubby kid until I wasn't. My parents are honestly fucking terrible and love to talk about weight and food and how fat of a child (y'all, I was 9, calm down) I was and how I should stop eating so much, etc etc. I never learned healthy portion sizes, because in our house it was either excess or legit one meal a day. So no wonder that when I was like 14, I started restricting. I started getting really into their weird diet and I lost weight pretty fast. My parents were happy about that.

So, a few years later, the heavy impact the malnutrition had on my body started becoming obvious. I was anaemic af, I constantly fainted, I looked like I was dead... My doctor started to get worried. But since my family is a mess, nobody ever considered sending me to therapy. Instead I was encouraged to eat highly caloric food which made me miserable and eventually depression led me to overeating and I gained a LOT of weight. After trying to get back to restricting and failing miserably, that then evolved into B/P.

So, essentially I'm just a mess that can't eat food without making it a disaster. I have gone through the same cycle over and over again. My boyfriend discovered I was purging and got upset, so I started to just restrict after binges, which then just lead me back to restricting and losing weight. The weight loss eventually makes people worried so I start eating again to make them stop being so damn concerned, which then spirals out of control into binge eating. Once I gained a bunch of weight back, I panic and start purging again and the cycle begins anew.

Thing is, I am so goddamn sick of this who thing. I just want to be okay. Food takes up so many of my thoughts and it's tiring. I am either counting calories or planning my next binge or obsessing over my next purging opportunity or *whatever* really and it legitimately prevents me from just living my life. And I mean, it obviously makes me miserable. The only issue is that I can't just do the ""regular"" kind of treatment for binge eating, because that only triggers my brain into restricting. Which on paper will look good at first (people always make a point to congratulate on me ""getting healthy"" when I start restricting again when I'm still at a high weight due to bingeing; haha, very funny y'all), but then later it'll just completely spiral out of control. I can't do ""intuitive eating"" because I have no intuition and I'm never hungry. I only want food because my binge eating brain and I also really don't want food because of restricting brain.

I know y'all can't treat me, but maybe someone's been in a similar situation as I have been. It doesn't help that part of my brain doesn't want to get into recovery until I'm underweight again because anorexia is obviously the ""better"" diagnosis, but like... I assume anorexia recovery would just trigger me back into bingeing or purging... Can I just get a brain transplant or something?",5.071608934317624,6.8727929165247055,5.860536059057356,76.27904561802009,69.57921635434411,8.488646602309293,31.613439333711906,9.029198982220553,2.9514484876017413,2490,109,421,48,45,814,267,587,0.141,0.789,0.069,-0.9866,3,0,1,0,0,0,80.0,1,4,2,13,42,34,3,7,23,2,41,39,7,15,6,98,83,53,1,6,22,3,7,3,0,4,6,0,0,2,23,28,26,13,7,0,0,4,13,19,0,2,20,9,66,15,60,57,12,74,1,8,2,2,19,24,3,10,49,301,89,5,0.0,0.0554021625620787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037393421098828886,0.038907510235876505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438201608456301,0.0,0.1710243295752732,0.051642008765174316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04135482950965233,0.0,0.05193907698200546,0.0,0.2609943950986484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04902627022035447,0.05053022659457799,0.10488913426827763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03015590099190619,0.0,0.04027374434138765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05359024578586486,0.04786015791043094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4784647036184429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429803143823664,0.030884097946905283,0.042296493033578124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04408053696208777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03977346411652198,0.3392494209051405,0.0,0.0,0.043228249186249214,0.1465789270515134,0.0,0.0,0.03921950940161139,0.03739770953880255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049776178655972655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03134179475620343,0.09880760355457197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05395399137710246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04880459440289018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04869264900828888,0.025697706137047197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033027499199013384,0.06853274348241889,0.0,0.041289347038800515,0.0,0.07853212488607578,0.05231173220284288,0.051043334749922925,0.07950622428219432,0.0422021229530234,0.0442448107590586,0.15606108681258796,0.0474066237241911,0.046976034116730785,0.05093462077757602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03437348939429126,0.0,0.0721273592901185,0.0,0.09945816062108193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049797162776326925,0.03168533366700844,0.10668773767470598,0.0,0.054862001522958184,0.1557621145766432,0.05063580015250426,0.0,0.06483406685275467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044202682918866636,0.0,0.0,0.04757105117169496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08986567672266488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038679802826723314,0.05255944857723768,0.0,0.0,0.039619030467376734,0.03599761841281029,0.0,0.0,0.2647719682287649,0.0,0.03734206312853788,0.07818579099425893,0.0,0.048883006596973665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03515719857395352,0.07516676008534044,0.0,0.0,0.053473371532913413,0.0,0.062129645223529935,0.0,0.0,0.07424337346129105,0.0,0.053742973834493814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03174651722793461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03858134613161481,0.11031946259124097,0.0,0.0,0.398581887418046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045074327668917585,0.050708501194956214,0.0,0.09497274328390404,0.0,0.033216488032675504,0.0,0.0,0.03011147689777945
EDAnonymous,tsg99,2019/09/21,"thank you for that .. Ugh this isn’t even that big of a deal I just can’t stop thinking about it and need to vent
Me and my friends were walking back from drinking last night and I wanted food so badly so I asked if it was worth stopping, I had already ate a bagel with spread that morning and felt bad for wanting more so I asked to get some idk validation?
Most of my them said yes but one kept telling me no and joking “sleep for dinner! Sleep for dinner!” and I was so mortified like I KNOW I shouldn’t be eating but you dont have to be that direct about it lol!!! and no none of them know about my eating but why would you say that in the first place?
I ended up not even getting to eat the food anyway because when I got back to my dorm I was too crossed to sit up straight lmao empty stomachs right 🤪",0.3675438596491247,2.505559204678363,1.5141520467836251,100.2368421052632,85.60818713450294,4.067836257309942,18.35672514619883,4.9825596385082,-0.7604923976608187,628,16,148,2,19,197,108,171,0.10300000000000001,0.753,0.14400000000000002,0.8885,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,2,1,15,7,0,0,4,2,13,12,3,0,0,28,29,16,0,6,6,0,1,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,9,8,9,3,4,2,1,2,8,3,0,2,10,3,22,4,21,15,4,19,0,0,0,0,12,7,0,3,10,101,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975025890074686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25372564137617554,0.0,0.0,0.20869254341354268,0.2266105910194341,0.08272252910579841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13990254872461347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15904144389117314,0.13293605576738682,0.0,0.4165703139725296,0.0,0.0,0.12019147476576013,0.0,0.0,0.17925945607836447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302949637804776,0.0,0.0,0.11542784179964224,0.3281821968212901,0.0,0.1048428377642258,0.0,0.14179713014432554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10853308848501056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14915626911001706,0.11061504058693766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629702196761916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062113039723758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273469025249401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195501983859257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177944926511088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1158885556214178,0.12908344251536635,0.107915480674884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715995104158872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269054837020415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186093134405768,0.12493594207974885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695220394167688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008081969045293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244972504744095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639863187533322,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FormerScarcity,2019/09/21,Active Chat Groups? I've been looking for some to join. Joined the Discord/ Adult one invite expired. Not much activity,2.9507142857142874,5.722835380952383,2.7527380952380973,84.67767857142861,99.95238095238096,4.0047619047619065,24.29761904761905,5.985473137389443,1.0589904761904765,97,4,15,1,4,29,21,21,0.0,0.723,0.27699999999999997,0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6431599108057985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5630218310019586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5189910856146561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sabine_strohem_moss,2019/09/21,"What is your exercise routine? What do you like about it,  how did you get into it etc.",-1.16,0.8274363333333383,1.1722222222222245,97.345,102.33333333333334,4.622222222222223,17.11111111111111,6.42735559955562,-0.08068888888888859,66,2,15,1,3,22,15,18,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8417489061056576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39432719806994415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687341046502692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kimathique,2019/09/21,"Irregular heartbeat Hi all :)

So I'm kinda worried about this: For about 2 weeks now I've been having irregular heart beats whenever I try to relax or lie on my side which in turn made sleeping for me very difficult. My bf and I even checked my pulse and he feels a longerpause between my beats every now and then too. I'm going to get it checked out next week don't worry but I'm wondering if it might have something to do with my ED.

I've been starving and binging for 7 years and purging for about 5 years. The last one very irregularly though, I sometimes have almost half a year where I don't purge and then I purge every day of the week. You get it. I'm kinda torn between telling my doctor and not saying anything. Right now I'm barely in the underweight spectrum and my weight has been kinda low ever since I got her as my doctor so it's not like it's visible.

I don't know if it would aid a diagnosis if I told her and tbh I'm very scared of the consequences. I'm equally afraid of her trying to force me into recovery and her dismissing me because I don't look sick.

So that fear together with me not sleeping well for over a week now has made me a nervous wreck. Encouraging words would be nice lol",2.072342608695653,4.032274676,3.658730434782608,88.19119130434784,78.24000000000002,6.587826086956523,24.469565217391306,7.586124646067393,1.147751304347826,959,34,202,14,23,318,138,250,0.127,0.79,0.083,-0.8759999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,16,11,0,4,9,1,17,7,3,2,2,37,36,22,0,5,8,0,2,1,1,3,3,1,0,0,9,14,1,0,3,1,2,1,7,6,1,2,7,4,27,5,26,25,2,28,0,1,1,0,12,10,0,10,18,125,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143255252092527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979336906938616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392394928897025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820793572090176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24824621585379394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009648087377286,0.10969400016525753,0.20434732260952868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136460402905226,0.06131682914843406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671522463613713,0.0,0.06891949417096324,0.0,0.0969892315439236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437033622764998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666458133776281,0.09884974189423076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059245501109811874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183471846462996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294937443093912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864636178333375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12897007180883796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217444868882627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356235237891437,0.0,0.0964373140804491,0.12141059099055895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031428124072483,0.0,0.24271149168099904,0.0,0.0,0.0933581599067539,0.1199373183976744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059937234361731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11914535877831453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587693080322825,0.0,0.16466625085360234,0.13190494312238124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30017681505490923,0.0,0.0,0.3890960364858242,0.14767195808339395,0.10903464623226636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151015461361354,0.0,0.2463074210244568,0.0,0.17229085356334292,0.0,0.0,0.234278171656853
EDAnonymous,Wilde_Flowers,2019/09/21,"My husband can't relate, apparently I was laughing pretty hard at some r/EDanonymemes posts, and he asked to see. He didn't know what sub I was on, but he's known of my ED, and he's incredibly supportive, so after some hesitancy I decided to show him. He just uncomfortably chuckled, saw a few more, and got really sad.

Whoopsies",4.104374999999997,5.7745844375,5.811375000000003,76.19612500000002,71.8125,9.495,29.9875,9.888512548439397,3.0560975000000012,260,11,50,7,5,89,50,64,0.174,0.6779999999999999,0.14800000000000002,-0.4302,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,10,5,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,3,6,3,6,5,4,4,0,1,2,0,8,2,0,2,1,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3558058433424757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043973551078293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409392210231777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20916558465537144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645057205968891,0.3872029152303749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438195159249165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032857019962145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4318957820107038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silvergun7,2019/09/21,"Rebounding Hi, 
younger male. Recently lost 18 pounds between March and July and felt very satisfied after making numbers. I planned on continuing to lose: I'm right at healthy BMI but id prefer to lose a bit of excess flab that remained. Lots of stuff went on, and a busy August passed and I ended up running most of the month close to maintenance because of moving into an apartment of my own, stress etc..(I can pin my faults on everything but at the end of the day is it really anything other than a lack of discipline..)

Back to the beginning of this month, I'm back on track, eating at a deficit, lifting three days a week, life is good. it was at that point that my parents sent me some food as a housewarming gift: included in it was some peanut butter, a food that is not only my favorite food but my binge nightmare, something I can easily eat an entire container of in one sitting. pb is one of my favorite things ever and it brings joy to my life in a way I can't possibly express. alas, a deadline popped up and I ended up eating the container out of stress despite eating the rest of the week at a deficit. this cycle has repeated every week this month and I feel helpless: I eat well all week but my resistance crumbles on a friday/Saturday night, stressed and alone, and I binge on anything I can get my hands on: pistachios, granola in tonight's case, more pb, grilled chicken, protein chips... All fair game. i dont know what to do. I know I have the capacity to lose this weight but in the midst of testing season I fucked up again and I just want to meet my goal. at this point it feels so distant. I don't know if this is my body telling me I need to eat more as a sign of my increased lifting or if it's just my stress registering and trying to alleviate itself in anyway possible... I'm only eating at 600-400 calories deficit according to calculated tdee and even with further adjustment the same results have occured. it's repeatedly been single day in a week of otherwise W's. a dropped stone in a river of tears and protein shakes.

just needed to vent for a minute. i hope you all have a great day. I hope I can one day enjoy peanut butter in moderation and meet my goal weight, and that you too can find your own personal success. thanks for listening",4.620465550686113,5.636539347438756,5.380313240893745,82.28576406351034,69.77951002227172,8.555241037430848,30.742222860837703,8.841846274778883,2.420533960773044,1793,73,353,31,31,583,231,449,0.132,0.748,0.12,-0.6779999999999999,1,2,1,0,0,0,52.0,0,3,0,8,12,21,1,5,29,0,21,17,2,2,4,61,45,26,0,9,12,1,6,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,23,19,12,3,9,1,0,8,4,12,1,4,7,9,38,9,65,38,17,77,0,5,0,1,14,35,1,9,31,231,61,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246368262495417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151521245681394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759908130296028,0.0,0.042650628475994205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638475862459836,0.07771646108762262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22561143191008495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08199963914319729,0.0,0.0,0.5011488454716372,0.0,0.0,0.1859073456153656,0.0,0.07803059250161114,0.046211887768982704,0.06328825897552663,0.05894937852017284,0.0,0.06288093567186276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075383078122617,0.0,0.06717833887050176,0.0,0.06394766287159268,0.0,0.2538095202183437,0.0,0.0,0.06468244606913444,0.03655435092544768,0.0,0.0,0.05868416717035566,0.0,0.07713776973691377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898406368853594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535446306061076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883811979218972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348221957184691,0.07637616163739748,0.059482597156969824,0.0,0.0,0.0467028529781712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675385978567381,0.07436279282013511,0.0,0.10375781533271164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0656583579572781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223233126573667,0.10642460224948253,0.0,0.0,0.07768897087264652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061091618611730736,0.0,0.0,0.13228098328442714,0.1577523206497662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044822015676491585,0.0,0.06908299116638451,0.0,0.0,0.059750587703951384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05386325043079803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3205832985857578,0.0,0.08009433881287392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0611533740086314,0.06441529903089233,0.0,0.0,0.04648230615529727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04750232607458741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577292832212739,0.04126776369480917,0.05553575971979111,0.2806125527190084,0.1703994951870667,0.06290784288709142,0.06485918946332063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MonsterGrandma,2019/09/21,"TW: “Look At You, Look At Me” So this is also going to be a bit of a rant/rave but I figured the content might be triggering and not helpful to those who are struggling. 

To preface this whole thing in my spare time I like to enjoy a little internet drama, the one recently on my radar was about Caroline Calloway: an Instagram influencer with a trail of scandals left behind her mostly from scamming fans out of money, promoting weird “workshops” (aka a scam) and just being a super privileged white woman. Anyways the one part of the whole drama that caught my attention was about this girls friend; Natalie Beach. She was essentially ghost writing everything for Caroline and was the tour de force behind Caroline’s internet fame. Natalie recently wrote an article explaining their friendship.

I will skip the nitty gritty but it really sucker punched me reading about how Natalie was treated differently from Caroline, she never mentions how she looks really but she compares herself a lot to Caroline. Caroline is beautiful and feminine and good, she has a dreamy life where everyone is so charmed by her and men treat her with love and adoration. Natalie is the opposite where she struggles with respect from men, her story explains multiple times she is dehumanized by men for her looks. This was super triggering for me, I had recently gained 20 pounds from stress, anxiety, hormones, and whatever else and it’s horrible I feel horrible and the way the world treats you is so different, I may not have the same experiences as Natalie but I was also friends with women who were adored and loved and respected because they were beautiful and small. I was always big, flabby, had a round face and stomach and when you are in the company of women who are so much more beautiful the way people treat you is so apparent and heart breaking. I am ugly and fat, I am unlovable. I have friends who are deserving of love and happiness and they just happen to be beautiful and thin where I am just fat and miserable. I feel, much like Natalie seemed to have felt, like the sidekick, the cast off, the unimportant one. I feel like a fat foil to every beautiful woman in my life and if I were just a smaller person I would be worthy of something. But I’m not, and no matter how I try I will never be a part of the beautiful women of the world. I will always be set in this place as the fat, ugly, unimportant girl.",7.094931904999168,7.707217320627805,7.467468858993522,70.94583374854676,64.13452914798206,11.719515030725795,36.025244975917616,11.429527900616536,4.507053246968941,1919,87,325,57,27,628,215,446,0.11900000000000001,0.617,0.264,0.9984,3,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,4,3,4,22,32,1,4,32,0,44,12,7,6,2,67,63,42,1,2,13,0,6,4,3,6,6,0,0,11,14,28,4,0,9,4,1,2,6,7,0,3,16,11,46,25,46,34,11,34,0,1,6,3,47,20,0,6,12,249,60,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775913970121344,0.16414693179598558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545664911163386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06012789217311654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768550650629828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610828827231506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239813526882288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08310550165346797,0.0942513984669886,0.0886481220775096,0.0964854195021619,0.0,0.0,0.14962072752725125,0.07046593212554307,0.09470650399086424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286189353379807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056057393496909816,0.08273161268594972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722392725803248,0.10500038364537448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168847221365227,0.06611396379543233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107168841015664,0.0,0.13933974766170962,0.1927552376049549,0.09885968127280324,0.0,0.0,0.3313192560849582,0.0,0.0,0.08385722123753159,0.2670698647646197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463773437664756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501834697178875,0.0,0.15214909222207787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051592634070448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136274252368908,0.0,0.06838212651758324,0.0861255833225252,0.10305414413615753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866318798109028,0.0,0.1263781295553349,0.0,0.2921749192643218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979496101608131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593519321337742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129877723883712,0.2062325628448269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552970477414179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503146753144565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06696770580514723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658611802464742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202482495263601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006853641554951,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,giacintam,2019/09/21,Does anyone else get an extreme sense of calmness & peace when weighing their food I swear to god I for those few seconds my anxiety is completely gone. and then I eat said weighed food and it all just comes back lmao,5.014806201550389,6.201334046511634,4.269767441860466,89.97968992248066,69.0,7.593798449612403,30.6124031007752,7.793537801064563,1.7952542635658908,176,7,36,2,3,52,39,43,0.059000000000000004,0.6920000000000001,0.248,0.8834,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,5,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,5,1,3,3,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277294482322002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19578181982901452,0.0,0.0,0.17894861487894648,0.26222526612026603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19679042247982412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220456608486152,0.26833234986099586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239615724085661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26187502673654023,0.21379238361858585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6189307208244746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371017809789962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24344315108002654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,icarusandthesun,2019/09/21,counting calories for b/p how do you guys track calories while b/p’ing? i hate when mfp yells at me for calories i’m not actually digesting but i also don’t want to not log the food when there’s no way i’m getting rid of all of it. have any of you found a solution? or should i just say screw it all and stop logging?,0.2568571428571431,2.071940114285717,2.47,95.165,83.57142857142857,5.7142857142857135,22.857142857142854,6.868970318607317,0.4910000000000006,248,9,60,3,7,84,53,70,0.147,0.7879999999999999,0.064,-0.6898,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,6,2,2,0,2,0,4,3,0,1,2,13,10,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,2,6,0,7,8,2,6,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,1,4,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.3207541231454301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628533539408598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235205390285212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974533732004683,0.3603917288347563,0.0,0.0,0.17172701088565548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32545487524133543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245134244868325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26138755989947177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747996410791585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938699368427744,0.2608989018405589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DingleDong420,2019/09/21,"Some things I’m dealing with right now. 1.) I’m “bad” at having an ED. I lost like 30lbs in 8 weeks (went from 163lbs to 135lbs) and then suddenly stopped restricting (went from 600 cals per day to 1,100 ish) and gained 15lbs back in 3 weeks. I question whether I even have an ED (even though I’m diagnosed with EDNOS) because I just up and decided to eat normally without any issue.

2.) Because I’ve gained, all my new clothes are too tight and my fat rolls are so visible. It’s horrible and sometimes I don’t go to school in the morning because I think I’m too ugly for people to see me. I feel like my presence is offensive to others because I’m so ugly. 

3.) It was my 21st birthday recently so my parents were taking videos of me opening cards and stuff. When I watched the videos, I looked like a normal person. I didn’t even look fat at all. But when I look in the mirror I see something completely different. I don’t know how to feel about that disconnection. 

4.) My sister has Anorexia and gets very thin and sick sometimes. She’s 5ft 6in and weighed 85 ish lbs last time she was forced to recover. I worry about her dying everyday because her doctors told me she could have a heart attack anytime. She moved hundreds of miles away for school last year and when she’s away from doctors and family she stops taking her meds and restricts like crazy. She’s going to die and my parents aren’t doing anything to stop it.",2.973088578088575,4.742337258741262,3.86938811188811,88.54587703962706,75.01398601398601,6.864568764568765,26.95163170163169,7.645422480735847,1.4640750582750583,1120,43,229,15,24,359,164,286,0.166,0.782,0.052000000000000005,-0.9854,4,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,3,18,8,2,0,7,0,16,9,3,1,2,39,39,24,2,3,4,3,4,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,7,16,4,6,6,2,0,5,5,4,0,0,8,10,34,4,31,30,3,38,0,1,6,0,17,13,0,2,24,130,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661875052341396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009401577342866,0.0,0.0,0.110726537305259,0.18288883577708667,0.07484049944719992,0.08126619923507553,0.2966562816547538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020482949748056,0.0,0.0,0.07770981238254332,0.0,0.0,0.06276957773498819,0.10034260399748274,0.0,0.09878755442209752,0.2020256379307316,0.10168877738313356,0.0,0.19924205900357075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995925388377113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285596414846695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917537397468053,0.0,0.09842559935172887,0.06953232735155222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050850729338958636,0.0,0.11062937557279544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533611373382913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015868762475049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053489834822484775,0.1586733238953182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902014189778329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24519719966516934,0.0,0.10624681946323716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811130899324016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344602365660624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400159050543072,0.0,0.0,0.19072480022187024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21614613475283906,0.0,0.0,0.06747613013256812,0.08498450346553273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090314922576855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610129565402664,0.0,0.0,0.083118996405491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970056208056244,0.15511827273619558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492912607200161,0.192523041583792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24411585746863734,0.0,0.0,0.11141917286023924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635958046317332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06466150019116185,0.062364915052423364,0.0956258951302268,0.0,0.05675370647106363,0.0,0.0,0.09300265949611508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030716130083039,0.0,0.0,0.156143962140439,0.0,0.0,0.18045113673445226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382231740400764,0.0,0.0,0.09884299251851444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267710888020772
EDAnonymous,sweatysensualwoman,2019/06/30,"how do y'all deal with having someone else sleep in the same bed as you?? I've been hooking up with this guy I met from tinder, and I'd love to be able to sleep the night with him, but I'm so fucking anxious about my body looking disgusting when I'm asleep, because I can't control the position that I'm in.  It doesn't help that he literally has the body of a GOD and I'm this gross pudgey person with some loose skin lol.

On top of that I'm on luvox which makes me sweat like crazy and I'm scared that I'm going to drench his sheets.",3.802893462469733,3.422130838983051,4.684285714285718,91.50296610169495,71.11864406779661,7.759806295399518,25.331719128329297,6.868970318607317,0.6802939467312349,421,10,103,3,7,137,82,118,0.196,0.687,0.11699999999999999,-0.9108,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,2,4,6,2,1,5,1,7,9,7,3,0,13,20,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,8,7,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,2,8,2,17,17,2,9,0,0,1,2,11,6,1,1,3,54,16,0,0.2095084637196218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366849297898975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12771441489622615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4654333457804778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349815569278203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159940266091593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750174378988606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19368719873438264,0.0,0.0,0.11906848805630214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20744631795616927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042910698238542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235525269213797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759343434695614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908956826350545,0.0,0.13984852639273024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19660950070830766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18293470940181067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097545212303451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4193195364530402,0.0,0.1775158414289733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway658_,2019/06/30,"i ruined the one day i needed to not ruin i’m extremely lonely and depressed, and i only have one friend and zero social media on top of that. so it’s not an exaggeration to say that i’m quite isolated.

but yesterday, for the first time in maybe a month and a half? two months? i ended up making plans with my friend today. we were going to hang out for a few hours and an art function (i barely go out so this is good for me). 

however, i ruined it. this morning i binged for the first time in a month or so, after having really focused this past week on eating healthily and intuitively. basically, i’ve been doing everything right, in terms of HOW NOT TO BINGE. or predispose myself to doing so.

yet... i still fucked it up. out of anxiety for this morning. probably over leaving the house. 

it’s so sad. i used to be a socially gregarious teenager with a sick friend group of nerds, artists, and people that made me belly laugh. but i left all my friends (except one). and constantly pay the price. i don’t think i’ve genuinely laughed or at someone smiled in weeks. my only social contact is boring, insufficient small talk with coworkers that didn’t even like me at first because they coded me as “unfriendly” (aka i’m reserved). 

anyway, this isn’t even rly about ED i guess. but i fancied myself completely recovered at this point, and even made a comment to a family member about how how “binge eating is no longer a compulsion, and no longer serves me at this point of my life”. which is a load of bullshit.

time to go back to the binge/restrict roller coaster reality after a month of cozy maintenance i guess! i know progress isn’t linear, but the concept of “progress” certainly implies a profession of /something/. and despite eating in a more normative way (except today lmao) my life has been completely stagnant. like, no matter what progress i make or don’t make on the ED front, it still seems like it doesn’t trickle into other parts of my life as much as i envision it should. 

my entire late teens has been a giant downward spiral, and “recovery” is simply part of the illusion that i can somehow break free from my continued descent into being completely consumed by agoraphobia and OCD, unable to interact with the world in any meaningful capacity.",4.691895701198028,6.405133325581398,5.627632135306556,77.92366102889359,70.3953488372093,8.747004933051446,29.07681465821001,9.259372276320047,2.6690155038759693,1790,69,319,38,33,588,227,430,0.11,0.735,0.155,0.9723,1,2,1,0,0,0,58.0,1,0,1,9,19,21,1,0,26,0,25,8,0,9,2,57,44,32,0,2,13,0,0,3,4,1,4,1,0,0,22,23,3,0,4,3,3,5,12,9,0,9,7,1,35,13,62,34,7,66,0,6,0,1,15,30,1,8,32,229,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05853483050360899,0.0,0.06584812807332062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06618735567159102,0.0,0.05247130890660963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27074806468690393,0.0930178929050486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05551208767429841,0.0,0.07413738450233819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26423260823929323,0.0,0.0,0.07623804625592759,0.0,0.0,0.17055773794625265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735982136422782,0.0,0.08114506786669518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964935099165467,0.0,0.0,0.2660093199005755,0.07957614529499746,0.0,0.0,0.14675742177392545,0.07219671019047212,0.0,0.0,0.1896454807780852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476780925046569,0.09932048458800596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04730527920525406,0.0,0.09709780702962928,0.09114236520019847,0.0935221435320901,0.0,0.18239469266965766,0.12615758573346345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289493818465733,0.172369780680973,0.0,0.08647520514073535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748211014637725,0.0,0.06327597896808346,0.06382448013470637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17498257017601265,0.13092979821009515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642447315890254,0.08216956081694171,0.05967446312377516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16273983724047447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280480165101618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155273229166193,0.0,0.0,0.05514267701123874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350868338388353,0.0,0.0684513225539207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07836062378781301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632318207300858,0.07293216320964896,0.06626573518510377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748127657581544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06918486330702425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515421255192788,0.0,0.0,0.15057533489062944,0.0,0.16318052108849412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408403028564224,0.0,0.0,0.07434227984891513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06832335437356014,0.13809041941859118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nadiagodin,2019/06/30,"Help me! Do you think I'm fat? https://m.imgur.com/a/JyvmtJ3

The reason why I ask such a weird question is because I posted a picture in a different subreddit and a lot of people said I should loose weight. I’m at a healthy BMI. I guess I just need to tone up.

The left picture (watch link) on the before/after picture was my body a year ago. What should I improve about myself?

My BMI level is 22.5 so I'm still healthy, but what do you think? I'm only a male of 5'7"" so I'm pretty short. Am I what some people call ""skinnyfat""? Is being skinnyfat bad for you?

The only excercise I get is cycling, almost a hour a day. And walking of course, but that's nothing.

People never called me fat. So are they just being nice or is it the truth? I'm posting here because I don't know of another sub that would be approriate to ask a question like this.",1.114804161566706,3.4246822674418635,2.8963402692778466,90.4209975520196,83.88372093023256,5.4815177478580175,21.84332925336597,6.8360192770164,0.611972093023256,658,22,136,8,19,218,104,172,0.047,0.81,0.142,0.9395,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,1,0,9,5,0,0,15,0,17,4,3,1,2,24,32,8,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,3,2,1,0,1,7,2,3,0,7,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,3,18,3,12,24,2,16,0,0,1,0,13,7,0,7,7,85,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969319334422258,0.0,0.1465063042028656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534166700636697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273556415583704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216104899045875,0.1783759688414818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16251517898779164,0.0,0.0,0.298793604196252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943565410092994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15286069525347218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643987902040231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16117473089154413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806715252886962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408388523844368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08040703753524121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896404443007234,0.0,0.0,0.07147868695875101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438580949696935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848551062538922,0.11284173098620365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038644928617974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22254761785638927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042945867924925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802451962270415,0.14884781064715202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277968354017748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042896727943833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917238972846052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684173893213895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874964872164618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781636996345803,0.0,0.0,0.13202019193450482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393298864063998,0.0,0.0,0.09421753989438014
EDAnonymous,VivaciousNymph,2019/06/30,"Why are boyfriends such a**holes? I’ve been fasting for 2 days and my boyfriend just asked me to eat something very nicely so I made frozen burritos and put sour cream on. And he said, “Damn you really go to town” referring to the amount of sour cream I used being too much and now I don’t want to eat it and I’m anxious and can’t stop crying.",1.3753571428571445,3.3720961388888924,2.351984126984128,96.52000000000002,80.66666666666667,5.7809523809523835,21.3968253968254,6.868970318607317,0.2762992063492065,270,8,62,3,7,85,56,72,0.138,0.8,0.062,-0.6712,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,2,0,12,12,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,5,6,1,7,8,2,8,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,4,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830847027072421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23425899343084375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752509737744321,0.16160372823492547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5128129314014664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241070427736965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23710538032445785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842055404032552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519026690127156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052832028503106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238359490575928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929091538219904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949656458714586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21642114523880945,0.0,0.20675520114171056,0.14779890390609582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22610997595602544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BeautifulRebellion,2019/06/30,"GF Unintentionally Triggered My ED Thoughts She knows I’m recovering from bulimia and binge eating and that I’m terrified of gaining weight. She was trying to compliment me and mentioned that my thigh was jiggling, which killed me and sent me into panic mode. She was complimenting me, I know that. But it still upset me and now she’s making me feel like an as*hole about it. I just wanted to vent I guess.",3.3235389610389627,6.019107506493512,4.4079058441558425,80.60328733766237,77.83116883116884,6.966883116883117,25.209415584415584,8.07648339933343,1.757806493506494,326,12,59,6,8,106,53,77,0.162,0.7070000000000001,0.131,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,2,1,0,3,3,1,2,0,16,13,6,1,1,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,2,15,3,6,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,3,40,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30741471126009395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190634538707154,0.21462712554051186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309573207314719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33238108670702143,0.0,0.33021674754369895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677483619433146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005392396914894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35248966600429765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399236446847735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23850772108133364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20397212904803566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772012934411774,0.0,0.0,0.3658425880812868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dhebev,2019/06/30,"Do I have an eating disorder? Can’t eat and won’t eat First time posting on here so please let me know if I’m breaking any sort of rules or anything...

I’ve always had a fairly good self image but about two years ago I got deeply into a fandom that’s not really known for promoting acceptance of less-than-perfect bodies. It’s done a bit on my self esteem but overall I’d say my vision of myself is still okay. I’m constantly very nervous about how big my stomach looks and there are a few things that I would change if I could but I know that I’m not fat, or necessarily have an ugly body. However, a couple months after diving into the fandom I began to not physically be able to eat. For the past year and a half I’ve been eating like a bird because I simply just don’t have an appetite at ALL, and as a result I’ve lost twenty pounds (130 to 110). I know this isn’t healthy, I’ve had the blood work done to prove it, but my problem is that I like better how I look now that I’m skinnier and I’ve started to actively choose not to force myself to eat anymore. When I was at school it helped that I had to buy all my food myself so I had an excuse not to eat very much but I just graduated and am now living at home where it’s much harder to avoid eating. I also don’t get as much exercise since my job keeps me sitting for eight hours a day compared to the constant movement of my job at school. 

I’m pretty scared of gaining all that weight back; the smaller I get the more scared I am. At this point I even avoid weighing myself because I know I already probably weigh more than I did three weeks ago. My doctor at school diagnosed me with anorexia but not anorexia nervosa. In your experience, does this sound like AN? I’m not hoping for a particular answer either way, I just never thought I’d have this problem ever in my life so this is all brand new to me.

There are a lot more bits and pieces to this but I don’t want to run too long so I’ll leave it here but I’m happy to answer any questions anyone has.

TLDR; Overall I think my body looks alright but I choose not to eat due to specific social media pressures. Could this be an eating disorder?",2.5519591937069808,3.9441623030973454,4.082772861356933,88.1539429695182,75.30530973451326,6.526647000983285,23.17502458210423,7.054809383877858,0.7177402163225173,1699,48,361,17,36,566,221,452,0.096,0.779,0.125,0.9085,3,2,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,6,25,19,0,6,23,2,34,24,6,3,7,70,59,30,0,9,25,0,1,3,0,2,5,2,1,2,20,10,15,3,14,1,1,2,15,9,0,5,13,6,44,10,45,39,16,47,0,1,3,0,8,15,0,8,29,237,64,9,0.06417319775254966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137713356368966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081671948758994,0.05131928305757622,0.05339724133780913,0.0,0.0,0.08727995012890394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364256831789647,0.04487139196975047,0.0,0.05280907383953443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049345227896613775,0.0,0.0782387714317348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05675597843253024,0.14012102246657165,0.21384586767367955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788673415983568,0.0,0.0,0.13869685764867487,0.0,0.10247415316956887,0.07100642271946732,0.0,0.04138640363420359,0.0,0.0,0.0651344448836374,0.0,0.0,0.147096088659083,0.06568398715095433,0.05615839780880447,0.1313429235184531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6566520215724042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04238579188371665,0.058048331352088485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06277370127319913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05458568922542549,0.07759848545076012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670556943492931,0.0,0.0,0.0538254335980936,0.051325168575895135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06831356230335253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04301394174058163,0.0,0.06437094970852766,0.06373846517702199,0.06319767307997011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273639933651004,0.05704008674279407,0.0,0.0,0.14107164484277054,0.0,0.0,0.06795015054167801,0.0,0.06562144256915232,0.045327427399551916,0.09405534872541164,0.0,0.056666109322986276,0.05679126059824147,0.16166797103786534,0.0,0.07005262603041021,0.05455775787394933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512224341980661,0.0,0.14152405263268147,0.0,0.049494326258918,0.06197887427791865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06126057860349006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704429002826928,0.06066441448676786,0.0,0.061460184336642014,0.06528721279538434,0.06918956107102851,0.12281016693905154,0.0,0.0,0.0718886682091038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041110993728925516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051033102576382786,0.1284971321103305,0.19484010650728875,0.0,0.0,0.13389328182058854,0.0,0.0,0.05308473232843673,0.0,0.0,0.06541649358736916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04542211966689081,0.0,0.051248798621085084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04263382108133693,0.04111959391967858,0.0,0.050946350799775636,0.0374199076766976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268788947390581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589921781362087,0.03785101470467552,0.050937697359490025,0.05147586836947859,0.07814566650247429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0467188522629526,0.0,0.0,0.045586798464419036,0.0,0.0,0.08265087070341405
EDAnonymous,daffodilllll9,2019/06/30,"Getting away with blaming my disordered eating on depression Anyone else here have depression? I'm in treatment rn for depression and PTSD and have been able to mask my disordered eating for ""low appetite due to depression"" even though I openly admit to distorted body image and issues with my weight. I'm wondering how long it will take them to realize it's not just due to depression like it's not just that I have no energy to eat I'm actively restricting...They've asked me point blank and I denied it so it seems like they dropped it and moved on. I can't decide if I think I need help or not or if it's just all in my head..",3.6726190476190514,5.323737690476193,4.776380952380954,83.26028571428574,72.8888888888889,9.166984126984126,26.885714285714286,9.642632912329526,2.485767619047619,503,18,100,13,10,165,76,126,0.223,0.6779999999999999,0.098,-0.9623,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,0,8,8,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,1,1,27,17,12,0,3,10,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,8,4,0,6,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,1,1,13,2,15,15,1,13,0,6,0,0,5,8,0,6,5,64,21,0,0.1362622688750413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09527774665298773,0.13961679719242365,0.0,0.0,0.12738682734396348,0.0,0.12802288708770232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15135666259054753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5868124625750729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123367306802867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182909569156542,0.11382964085265185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999994347190017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119141146946299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984439953131458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09133372654158607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222240665666813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314172339857272,0.0,0.0,0.12058782003087358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14482522730259184,0.0,0.1010367457979035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881188794451945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928330043546896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404805193092605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245226814543396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08731135986585835,0.13387698732840062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16593073422083587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777061803575034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wooboowee,2019/06/30,"I’m developing an eating disorder! I think I realized in March of this year that I don’t have to be drunk to throw up, I can throw up after eating a lot of food too so I can be skinny! Que me ordering postmates and binging every weekend. It got a little better during the summer and I started working out but I just can’t control myself with food anymore. I eat until I feel uncomfortably full and then feel really guilty and want to throw it back up immediately. I threw up yesterday after going out with friends for dinner and eating an ice cream sandwich after. I wanted to do it again today because I had way too many fries and a burger but my roommate walked in right as I was about to pull the trigger. I always tell myself that it’s going to be the last time and I don’t have a disorder but I think I’ve actually developed an eating disorder",3.669396243291594,5.037944750000001,5.692093023255818,77.81855992844366,72.43023255813954,8.083005366726299,26.602862254025048,8.617729084823388,2.026079964221825,675,23,126,12,13,235,101,172,0.11599999999999999,0.8370000000000001,0.048,-0.9027,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,0,10,0,13,11,1,2,0,25,25,14,0,2,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,11,11,1,5,2,0,8,3,0,0,0,4,3,20,2,25,18,2,37,0,0,1,0,2,11,0,1,16,94,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.1206600887339324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288289010259097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262302692143966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507569176949016,0.0,0.07537309719850002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935432141144036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867884642909495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4251250723317144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6326006370224381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10417659471285398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503767365681875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29902505263338824,0.0,0.0955281407228596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405410772282572,0.0,0.0988905334019907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078751575779456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392518839899178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511891002157146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253570436448401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921041881289984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559250861244077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751686096200115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807154238684064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845397838206127,0.0,0.0,0.07209863567286559,0.0,0.11720139570747047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585853832772042,0.09814397501102197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900153345503475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962359322710744
EDAnonymous,gettingintoodeep23,2019/06/30,"I’m doing down a deep and dangerous hole I think I realized in March of this year that I don’t have to be drunk to throw up, I can throw up after eating a lot of food too so I can be skinny! Que me ordering postmates and binging every weekend. It got a little better during the summer and I started working out but I just can’t control myself with food anymore. I eat until I feel uncomfortably full and then feel really guilty and want to throw it back up immediately. I threw up yesterday after going out with friends for dinner and eating an ice cream sandwich after. I wanted to do it again today because I had way too many fries and a burger but my roommate walked in right as I was about to pull the trigger. I always tell myself that it’s going to be the last time and I don’t have a disorder but I think I’ve actually developed an eating disorder",3.5755692307692333,4.815105651428574,5.505714285714286,79.56582417582419,72.4857142857143,7.898901098901099,26.032967032967033,8.384062270229773,1.7934263736263731,679,22,130,11,13,235,105,175,0.114,0.8390000000000001,0.047,-0.9008,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,7,3,1,0,10,0,14,10,1,2,0,26,26,15,0,2,4,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,12,10,1,5,2,0,8,3,1,0,0,4,3,20,2,26,19,2,39,0,0,1,0,2,13,0,1,16,97,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.1388156613784469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836354990265205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107396042001882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093816122006842,0.0,0.08671439286625783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580872938684787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954567900828268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260620735130781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5822298109548861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985191662760955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14385193602971766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440189783181826,0.0,0.1099021405821978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616881173467382,0.0,0.11377046828247712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595288720083904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257205650650964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093602094229393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442193612204066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112911146471114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148088132081054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068541357527837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433293220676392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18229635033383004,0.0,0.0,0.08294722721016798,0.0,0.13483654313801488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16780569016739008,0.11291157618412576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355982935966976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09160445571627517
EDAnonymous,uandtehbae,2019/01/11,What if we lived in a world where starving yourself was healthy Just think how great it would be if all we had to do was not eat to lose weight and our bodies efficiently used our fat storages as energy.  And also we didn't feel sick from not eating. I wish we could rewire our bodies to use the fat like that,2.9268750000000026,4.304621687500003,3.598875,92.05862500000002,74.3125,6.370000000000001,20.6125,6.742157984588678,0.12406624999999982,244,5,54,2,5,77,51,64,0.066,0.6829999999999999,0.25,0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,7,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,8,8,4,3,1,20,13,7,0,5,5,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,2,8,2,6,6,1,3,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,2,1,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515293962182027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865712602545047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487236856728572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4482312496765796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107448156068255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414740796791734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070037734674291,0.0,0.193401681268952,0.0,0.0,0.2450311686598884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403413555681771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783318026779021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26671150474293537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518661091667604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15558794439961895,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ricerollers,2019/01/11,"Just ate 1000 fucking calories at Olive Garden I decided to ""let loose"" and do the unlimited SS&B for my best friend's birthday at Olive Garden today. I had two bowls of soup, an entire bowl of that salad, and three bread sticks. I couldn't help but look up the calories when I got home and holy shit I wanna purge so bad but I'm not gonna.  

Holy shit.  

I mean yeah it's Olive Garden but damn.  

​",-0.07865616311399393,2.2343487710843406,1.2590361445783138,97.40762743280816,97.43373493975905,3.517701575532901,16.023169601482856,5.369823440869387,-0.7701429101019461,320,8,68,2,13,101,62,83,0.248,0.6940000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.961,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,4,0,3,1,4,6,2,0,0,12,11,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,2,3,3,0,2,3,0,0,2,5,0,2,3,1,7,2,8,5,1,5,0,0,1,1,2,3,4,0,2,37,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4620180273850672,0.2590690771305183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801841398765586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237469323740115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472271320409698,0.1971058542492377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052061150686934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290773615441385,0.0,0.21386337370416786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180179593235678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790396540811287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322442413980217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377065515506978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20209470995829548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082716441809374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590690771305183,0.0
EDAnonymous,WWEisVegan,2019/01/11,"My weight isn't acting the way I expect it to and it's killing me I've always had a good feel for how my weight fluctuates. Based on how/how much I've recently eaten I can generally guess how much water weight/food weight I'll gain from a meal or binge, and also how much of it will come off overnight or how much will come off with a fast or how much will come off if I purge with laxatives etc. I'm used to seeing pretty big fluctuations on the scale, and it's taken me a few years but I had predicting them down to a science.

And then. Right before new years. I went to a weight lifting class with my mom. I thought I wanted to get into weights and all, and while I was super sore for a couple days after I don't really mind soreness and I know it would have been better if I had kept going. But the weight. The water weight. The water weight for the recovery of muscles. That water weight.

I ate my normal, restricted amount the day I did that class. And I had weighed myself that morning, and it was where I expected it to be. And I weighed myself the next morning, and I was *more than seven and a half pounds heavier.* And I stayed right at that weight, did not budge for four days. I fasted, I used laxatives, I use diuretics, I sweat my ass off doing cardio, I shaved my body and cut my nails and exfoliated like fuck in the vain hope that I could remove enough dead skin to make that number drop, and it didn't. For four. Days.

And finally it went down... a little. And then as soon as I broke my fast it went back up, which I expected. But then it should have gone back down, leveled out, and it didn't. It's been *two weeks* since I did that class, and those have been two weeks of my weight patterns being completely different and unpredictable.

I was 148 before the class, and 155.8 after. I haven't been below 150.2 in two weeks, and have mostly hovered around 152.4. I'm losing my shit, let me back into the 140s!

It doesn't drop at all if I restrict. If I eat a single bite, it goes up. Purging does next to nothing. It only drops when I fast, but it doesn't drop as much as I expect it to. I eat restricted for one day, I have to fast for two to get back to where I was. And you know what? It's stressing me out so much, along everything feel so futile that it's triggering binges. And my weight goes up when I binge, but it goes up about the same amount as when I fast too.

It's not going up like I expect it to. It's not going down like I expect it to. A fucking decade of building intuition around my body and it's out the window because of one bodypump class? Is this the end? Is this just the way my body is forever now? Because I liked the way my weight moved before, and I hate this.",1.7561209964412825,3.495999729537367,3.0291871886121022,93.36447829181496,78.39501779359429,6.133010676156584,19.602989323843413,7.003673034542,0.12875860498220604,2096,47,473,23,50,678,223,562,0.129,0.8109999999999999,0.061,-0.992,1,0,0,0,0,0,76.0,0,1,1,4,24,18,6,1,27,0,42,36,7,10,2,95,76,59,2,16,16,1,16,4,0,5,3,0,1,0,40,41,24,4,5,0,0,13,10,10,0,10,27,17,64,8,67,40,18,92,0,2,1,3,3,34,4,10,41,333,104,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03674346479517195,0.03823123668843698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818043979296548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413203408936787,0.0,0.05601721950195978,0.0,0.11729147073420305,0.0,0.0,0.040636017715047684,0.0,0.15310888310044032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873673526993453,0.04817411675490153,0.0,0.0,0.03668460678977911,0.05083901874655434,0.0,0.14815872069238112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800439865778952,0.0,0.0,0.04020816328486185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402964733647884,0.0,0.0,0.04069503372900329,0.04747510120414418,0.051242584039423535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04129382499019834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04646394450796045,0.0,0.0,0.05033223441450047,0.0,0.0,0.055558788986194575,0.0,0.0,0.08495374883907658,0.048010385138755836,0.0,0.07833750367923555,0.03853781281935596,0.0,0.0,0.050615339819369824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04536273709056564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04563532286105189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050833085112075314,0.0,0.050502079404167684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046983492776836236,0.0,0.08978871589229627,0.04605054547570185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051402472255468984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030669700073921217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639294963116058,0.053812081189059634,0.0,0.0488339449737401,0.23643216967921105,0.0,0.0,0.0443754949288773,0.09772942180697483,0.0,0.04501789469491893,0.04408698433897936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226918575008175,0.03494444582436517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04674419169556111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029434556774274867,0.0,0.04536670640383925,0.0,0.0,0.07847625946865541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036613476900604035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471635058574118,0.03800748719117362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048972942717939526,0.0,0.0,0.05263165411398458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03647645359647485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795325361333585,0.0,0.0,0.11904928318020915,0.0,0.0,0.027100484328715924,0.10941077377731832,0.11056672918322946,0.7833078182192232,0.0,0.12777882469883126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03263913337648817,0.0,0.0,0.059176184409553474
EDAnonymous,SowoneulMalhaebwaa,2019/01/11,"A different kind of sickness So I recently went through some serious health issues. I got hideously sick and it destroyed my appetite (GOOD) and I got a few fever blisters in my mouth which made me *unable* to eat anyway. While it was painful, I was excited. I couldn't eat more than a few bites of things for over a week. I dropped 11 pounds during that time (most of which was water weight because when I went to the hospital for fever, they couldn't get a vein because I was so dehydrated). 

The power I felt by not eating and not being hungry transported me back to when my eating disorder was at its worst. I felt exactly how I had felt then and its messed up and sad but I had been chasing that feeling since I ""recovered"". Now I'm mentally trying to make deals with myself. Maybe I can engage with just a few of my behaviors and it'll be okay. ",4.1729684418145965,5.269807869822486,4.984156804733729,84.41260601577912,70.89349112426034,8.473570019723866,28.284516765286003,8.841846274778883,2.0834611439842208,666,24,135,12,12,216,107,169,0.098,0.845,0.057,-0.5574,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,9,11,1,0,8,1,14,14,2,3,1,24,26,14,0,2,4,0,5,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,10,8,6,0,4,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,16,5,22,5,19,5,7,17,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,2,9,99,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804097566548967,0.0,0.17130315454341916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14485623314623014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679959118198513,0.16103284565431386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.575093706990598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710444068583727,0.0,0.40472538541774056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07340894905383187,0.0,0.0,0.117850349657725,0.22475207940081154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14935204663235696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466524850269479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463161013215517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295083232939914,0.09378931011346313,0.0,0.1411578607345476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159770125698593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14950903017545208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387334106783167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622859024427044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933464049578674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819305839092171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539482295444948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127059956743747,0.17109930205706228,0.0,0.26050222829540903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GoalsandGossip,2019/01/11,"Recovery was going well I had been doing really well as far as not starving myself or purging, but I gained weight. That's okay, I'll just try and lose it a healthy way.

Meal planning and the gym. My goals being mainly health with bonus weight loss.

I forgot I'm poor. I can't afford my cheap ass gym membership. I can't afford decent shoes that support me while working out. I can't afford most food.  

I want to fully relapse and just forget ever trying to be healthy. I can't afford it. I'm so sad.


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EDAnonymous,throwawaykfkdjqnski,2019/01/11,"My S/O is my thinspo Does anyone go through this? I love her so much, but her body is so thin and she doesn't even try. She expresses how she needs to gain weight and can't when she tries because of her metabolism. My goal weight is above her current weight, and I can't help but feel... jealous. It makes me feel horrible and unfair to her but it's ridiculously hard to internalize that she can be beautiful and thin without even trying, while I struggle to even get my weight below the high 120s.",3.2832000000000012,4.8812295200000015,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,73.8,7.4,25.5,8.07648339933343,1.3153,392,13,84,6,8,124,63,100,0.198,0.693,0.109,-0.8586,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,2,1,1,0,8,6,1,2,0,14,15,13,0,1,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,9,18,1,8,14,1,8,0,0,0,1,13,4,0,0,3,56,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660583103447596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294016612209507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16935227127943542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342159458766584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302101564234787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15417997393128632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796557417532233,0.0,0.08664836360759473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365771017046755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219288513301583,0.16108576676711162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760401205020695,0.0,0.10177038578951053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207801214371987,0.1130495486006211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938766484112185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105375630544096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7426365310757806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696910709001113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alyssawww,2019/01/11,"I'm so fuckin hungry I'm not eating I'm just walking around on my phone Not Eating. Like that is an activity itself. I'm alternating between living room bathroom and hallway mirrors. 
I'm going to go to sleep soon but rn I'm just waiting for my stomach to get flatter.",1.5651515151515127,3.9563648181818216,4.0759090909090885,82.16719696969697,82.63636363636363,5.121212121212121,27.34848484848485,6.42735559955562,1.4007575757575754,215,10,39,2,6,75,39,55,0.031,0.937,0.032,0.0116,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,8,11,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,7,11,0,7,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,2,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30417207726757944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6992580809571979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851630166179644,0.0,0.3883749011890527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669300240534362,0.0,0.30171410091465845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419317449037879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lonelysweetpotato,2019/01/11,"Favorite low calorie meals/snacks On the old subreddit I would look up threads about your recipe ideas all the time, but alas all that information is gone. Could we start a new one?

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For me:

Instant miso soup (35 calories)

Wellness wraps (50 calories) popped in the toaster and slathered with a laughing cow cheese wedge (30 calories)

Bowl of frozen fruit (65 calories) with low fat cottage cheese (70 calories)

Plain greek yogurt (100 calories) with sugar free pudding mix (25 calories)

and a new favorite, candy canes (40 calories)",6.990276497695852,9.158604279569893,4.690353302611367,85.09838709677422,65.34408602150539,6.174500768049157,36.94162826420891,6.1826913282559595,2.369382181259601,430,22,70,2,7,119,74,93,0.065,0.759,0.17600000000000002,0.9294,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,0,3,3,1,0,2,13,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,3,4,4,9,3,2,11,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,5,30,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287638141023495,0.3225767971187318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21195730395342227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996848869291109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292910759719825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5127878469911348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785675675543127,0.0,0.17989028486247086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879020167849102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15479850284225893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23869066216526005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858325928094946,0.0,0.3225767971187318,0.0
EDAnonymous,fallacyfallacy,2019/05/23,"Was on my third day b/p free until I HAD to go to the fridge at midnight for ""a bite"" of pie LMAOOO what a joke My mom is SO NICE about respecting what I want to eat but she wanted to make me something nice to celebrate my coming home from uni. I promised her that a pie would be totally fine and wouldn't trip me up at all. 


......yeah, no. If anyone has any encouraging words please offer them, I wanna kick my purging habit so bad.",0.7057753357753356,2.5955180879120867,2.487399267399269,95.23815628815628,82.4065934065934,5.8026862026862025,18.902319902319906,6.937597516519254,0.0034898656898660896,330,8,78,4,9,109,72,91,0.081,0.628,0.29100000000000004,0.9657,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,0,4,1,7,1,0,1,2,13,12,6,0,6,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,2,1,0,1,2,0,13,9,15,7,2,9,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,2,51,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079534671429828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138214222592977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553289753509177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634183315967989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19721473524218794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31290820948168435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379233540260114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067408300624566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412287416392105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581475087978826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356749248311545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23541862624290766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607357580334193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21723048151662344,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,srina114,2019/05/23,"my friend has an ed and i need to tell the guidance counselor at school - but without them finding out about my ed she’s been starving again and doesn’t eat and lies about what she eats. her nail beds are blue, and she’s always cold and obsessively trying to lose weight. ngl (this is gonna sound bad) but it’s pissing me off because she’s being retarded. i need to tell someone because she needs to recover. now.",2.3137650602409643,4.512606084337354,2.9574548192771104,92.33810993975906,78.51807228915663,5.595783132530121,24.832831325301214,6.6274283507984215,0.7552421686746986,327,12,68,3,8,102,61,83,0.23199999999999998,0.745,0.023,-0.9640000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,1,1,2,0,6,4,1,0,0,13,10,7,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,3,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,4,12,1,10,7,0,5,0,1,1,0,10,3,1,0,2,42,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759379178575773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654647792772288,0.2577879717484128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327189440425795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932555146168322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633607119592599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23655117450318686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4703479946852518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139920951919315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791553786327533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3696218511792917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14355624676189702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25748120145493003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038239741073705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bhulimicbhabie,2019/05/23,"i feel really desperate rn i'm at this point where i don't know anything anymore. i'll just begin by saying that i have struggled with bulimia (non-purging, then purging) for some time, but i have always been a high-healthy weight kinda gal and hated physical activity for personal reasons. after moving to a nature city where everyone and their dog does advanced hiking or is living an ed lifestyle like the disordered korean expats they are, i started feeling fat with most people my age being twigs or fit twigs. and it doesn't help that i've been crushing hard on a guy who just doesn't eat so much and is ""naturally"" underweight and hot hot hot. i've been struggling with weight loss for years, but have finally gone down from a stable bmi of \~24 to \~20.5 in august and started to actually like my body! then my birthday came when i let myself have everything all day, then all weekend, and then it all just went downhill very fast. the last couple months i'd been throwing up every day and slowly gaining. but because i've been terrified of the truth, i have been avoiding the scale. i was already feeling shite when my family decided to visit, and they've been here for a week and we go out to eat like every night. i've gained so much i can see it. my new jeans which are a size bigger than i usually wear barely fit me anymore. i don't take pictures because from any angle i look tiny above waist and have disproportionately huge legs, and it looks very unflattering with the clothes i'm used to wearing. i hate myself so much now, my disgusting face and hair, my lardy thunder thighs which jiggle as i fucking breathe. i now have a huge belly and i feel heavy all the time and i always fucking fart and it stinks and i want to poop every single day, and i'm not used to it at all. i just want to rip myself out of this disgusting body and become a ghost, but i have to work and interact with people every day and it makes me so sad when everyone around me is so perfect and has much more willpower than the wretched nothing that i am. my parents are here for another week, and i can't imagine what the fuck i am gonna become unless i start fasting NOW, but i can't. i've gotten used to binging and eating breakfast and feeling hungry in two hours again and then eating all day, every day. i just ran to the bathroom at work this morning to try and throw up my heavy breakfast, but it was too late. all that came out was liquid and tiny bits of blood because i think i scratched my throat and it hurts now. what the fuck do i do i feel so horrible i want to hide and starve and i hate myself and the whole world so 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EDAnonymous,bridgealien,2019/05/23,"ex boyfriend mad at me? let's never eat again ;-) so my ex boyfriend (who i'm slowly starting to realize treated me really badly - my family/friends keep saying he was emotionally abusive but i'm still struggling to see it) called me toxic and blocked me on everything bc i wanted to get his side of a situation that another friend texted me about to warn me that my ex was being a dick and i wanted to hear my ex's side for clarity. i feel AWFUL and tried to apologize to him for asking, but on the bright side i have no appetite at all and feel like i deserve to purge constantly even if it's damaging bc clearly i'm a terrible person :-) 

Sorry that this is probably super rambly and vague, I just needed to get it out somewhere.",4.419657534246575,5.329617404109591,6.02591780821918,77.8639452054795,70.16438356164383,9.401643835616436,30.35342465753425,9.642632912329526,2.8685857534246564,575,23,110,13,10,197,93,146,0.225,0.616,0.159,-0.8323,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,6,10,1,1,4,1,6,2,1,0,3,21,21,9,0,4,4,4,2,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,8,6,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,6,18,5,18,17,1,13,0,1,2,1,15,8,1,1,6,70,26,0,0.0,0.2179742669705756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290849711053668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17198703694747444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153607195074798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878538528695034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988061222243553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882471517707678,0.0,0.20694139334574468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12151039417425137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534029766821598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860414339821793,0.13142814444415024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842694008289082,0.0,0.19223337561709986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20734746537677004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16352091386814616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881217030163344,0.0,0.08987840806950538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641136132291046,0.1418889402753038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606354342277467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835068462443725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11785583873486635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630026087523765,0.0,0.0,0.14660020404627436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20678989314115306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593925864494397,0.1302148531304013,0.0,0.14691861222008232,0.0,0.0,0.19232529990781205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249034965715273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170204454020083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MyDietIsPureTea,2019/05/23,"I can’t even have an ED properly I’m really upset because I found out I didn’t measure my height correctly (it’s 165 cm not 169) so it turns out I’ve never had a BMI 20 or below even at my worst, when I was abusing laxatives, restricting, and feeling the worst fucking pain in my entire life as a result of that plus extreme dehydration. I’ve been overweight for the majority of my life, yet I look at my friends who are able to be thin and not be restrictive with their eating. I’m over here with a huge gut and upper arms and thighs and I want to Die^tm. I can only restrict super ‘well’ (in my distorted perception it’s good anyway) for a short period of time but when I’m at home on the weekends or during school holidays, I end up binging. :( I’ve come to associate mum saying I look healthy with me being fat because she always goddamn overfeeds me.",4.037413793103447,4.90087624712644,5.5948850574712665,80.77612068965519,71.01149425287356,8.788505747126436,29.44252873563219,9.075114841892004,2.4148597701149424,673,26,134,13,12,229,117,174,0.15,0.7509999999999999,0.099,-0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,1,1,9,9,1,1,8,0,11,10,4,1,2,27,22,13,0,1,5,1,2,0,1,0,5,1,1,0,5,12,3,3,3,2,0,1,5,5,1,0,5,5,19,4,24,14,3,25,0,0,2,1,6,16,1,2,8,89,24,1,0.19438300929896074,0.23031208027436476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617422354349455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369881565415669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16744375066314127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173887453299316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19890234628430786,0.0,0.0,0.17216565030500966,0.0,0.0,0.2567762887442822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828589005748466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131309365602841,0.1501798307964742,0.17970395985080692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303924576055778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19498200734867585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745969361127871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264655423984896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992016010376868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783703780572738,0.20683722691526493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245267332183356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15458117095724286,0.0,0.19672598302413075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334629590897652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114328956310067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465213517463707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747736698207094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SomethingsGottaHave,2019/05/23,"I'm so tired I just want to go back to normal. Sorry I'm on mobile. I actually remember a time of not having food rule my life. It was more than ten years ago. I know that a lot of you have longer stories with eating disorders than I and you're valid. 


I first had symptoms in middle School, I guess. Maybe earlier, since I've always hated my body but didn't do anything about it. But in high school I realized puking was a thing I was good at. Not because it was on purpose, but because I didn't want the guilt. It was a negative for me. I put things in and could get things out. I was good at puking because I had anxiety and could puke without trying. 

I'm sorry. This is long. I don't mean to be. I'm tired of it all. As I'm sure your are all. 

I don't know what I'm asking, honestly. I just hate this and want to vent. I really should see a therapist LOL.

I just love this community. I've been a lurker since proED and everyone has honestly been helpful. I don't look too trigger myself here. Only improve myself. And it helps. 

I guess I just want to say that I love everyone who contributes and you're all valid and loving.

Weird turn. I'm not I'm a good place, but this place makes me feel less insane I guess 

Love you!!!!!!!",-0.06306699751861089,2.1103231846153854,2.2948138957816404,93.54825062034745,88.30769230769229,5.662531017369728,18.002481389578165,7.1029339738359605,0.18674565756823824,948,25,215,15,31,322,133,260,0.134,0.62,0.24600000000000002,0.9879,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,0,1,9,14,2,1,8,1,25,11,1,2,4,46,57,14,0,8,12,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,17,10,2,0,6,0,0,2,10,4,0,2,12,4,31,10,23,41,6,20,0,0,2,4,12,12,0,4,6,136,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.09382132707189078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522463052770142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999836054904245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735488401203573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07911718327449865,0.0,0.08988037014681953,0.0,0.0,0.07392773921923253,0.0,0.17582294391334688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679277552845294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352411560655585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018777038928253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837790091940753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373678446051886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048612596756551385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817788623170235,0.11625603611012753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05023055010917568,0.0,0.05464006579153145,0.2419196012270344,0.0,0.0,0.3177358010032864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18984186291625046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888474137565775,0.10157995520948072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567493773678782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790837483400744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508319208160718,0.08073558553646151,0.0,0.0,0.08173701629146059,0.3470898679934439,0.0,0.06417594451467512,0.0,0.09658818288940783,0.10472749689431474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419935327522842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312079384263137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008971471711405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664988652193872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06159142338552401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089108450574438,0.0,0.0,0.07645646923993776,0.0,0.19460292578507252,0.07661321944457106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906033533057162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21524758055366894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061328028512664,0.09992899313810016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116289904549999,0.19161865135717304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05606153409862951,0.2210035939963679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652745271023505,0.10457556105325654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268296298181743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092678053530107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061912694256943526
EDAnonymous,aitaiwltkiaita,2019/05/23,"How to ask professors for extensions and mercy in a tough time? TW: rape

Hey, guys. This is probably not the right place to ask this but it's also the sub where I feel safest so I'm really sorry for that.If you can point me anywhere else that would be amazing. I've been binging out of control all day and feel so lost and out of it. I just need help. 

So, I created this alt to post on r/confession. Basically, last year I was raped by an acquaintance, which threw my ED into a tailspin I never recovered from. I swung between binging and feeling gross to wanting to starve myself and just disappear. Everyone told me that I should report it to make sure it never happened to anyone else. And then I didn't. And it happened to other girls. I feel like I should have prevented it.

So I'm going to report it tomorrow but I just know that the next few days are going to be basically nil in terms of productivity. I was so upset today after hearing what had happened that I did no reading. I go to a really high-pressure school, and I have two essays to write per week. There's just no way I can do it this week. I'm not even sure I'll be able to eat and sleep for the next few days.

Can anyone help me out? Where do I even start asking for this kind of help?",1.7216282051282086,3.607962957692312,3.61192307692308,88.46224358974361,79.03846153846155,6.7948717948717965,21.98717948717949,7.793537801064563,0.9326025641025644,979,29,210,16,24,330,144,260,0.135,0.736,0.129,-0.5678,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,2,16,11,2,1,8,0,21,4,1,3,5,41,46,19,0,5,8,0,4,1,0,3,0,1,0,2,20,13,1,2,5,1,0,5,7,6,0,1,9,5,23,5,32,31,4,37,0,1,0,2,13,12,0,0,19,142,43,5,0.11202005418652676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958239686123459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566540529664231,0.11477778343164895,0.0,0.0,0.3141708872059068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564001602873462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167310032873384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462448127000265,0.18715676234688813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479763786078165,0.0,0.0,0.10703996228918568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265628208909369,0.08002714909351988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909907348920948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11091746541249227,0.29717689189570634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12625474243777007,0.0,0.22525404311948685,0.11835533757581775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665164832489605,0.06156329220340963,0.0913112952794865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05472734012404045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228312190541048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07477425601948297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08306145077835693,0.17279354321187293,0.0,0.2382691969343563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703711437175293,0.0,0.10589515928761174,0.0,0.10728424670766888,0.0,0.12077656485507884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205036840408984,0.0,0.14352583029862265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566451420811643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337027530203325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210095372996524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539727944490076,0.07928837091727835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21115515073582955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531979443757656,0.0,0.10618191320768948,0.10703996228918568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094273157897438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607233029873924,0.08891630490893321,0.17971146104585098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957583248174045,0.0,0.0,0.07213724217437963
EDAnonymous,lumpydukeofspacenuts,2019/05/23,"I think I might have an eating disorder. What do I do now? Looking back I think I've had one most of my life just not very pronounced. 

Now here I am. 30, making myself vomit up the pizza I bought and no longer want but will probably eat again tomorrow.  

I starved myself all day and I'm fooling myself into saying its intermittent fasting when really I think it's anorexia.  

Can someone have anorexia and bulimia?  Does it matter which I have?  

I puked so hard just now it made my nose bleed and it scared me.  That's all I know.",1.2934591194968554,3.7034530943396287,2.9946226415094337,89.3257704402516,84.09433962264151,5.79748427672956,21.097484276729556,7.1686216300943375,0.7274050314465406,412,13,83,6,12,136,74,106,0.209,0.769,0.022000000000000002,-0.9682,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,1,2,0,10,7,1,2,2,21,20,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,8,5,3,0,4,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,3,4,17,0,3,15,3,11,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,9,61,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716807630598765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020576610261673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24916056953666774,0.0,0.1902492242977048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449113315625382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947487416594353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11947799460515705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535568719665876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256222449254414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20571023860981932,0.14511696560642387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306282801596331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731665560887422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23439522559167675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927275300239536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728861320388285,0.21765649183671487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842033013841097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179056642582308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793787289958652,0.12822883962897794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Fastingcametome,2019/07/25,"When not eating is your solution to everything That’s p much it. Fasted 65 something hours which took it too far. Ate yesterday and ate a lot but food didn’t even taste right. Back to fasting now. Cuz I’m stressed. 

It’s like my body is hungry but my mind is not. At least I’m losing weight.

Yesterday was bbqing with some friends and since my friend knew I had been fasting she’s like u needa eat. Don’t even know if I was hungry but felt pressured to eat. Then felt like I shouldn’t have eaten what I ate, since it’s outside my normal foods. It’s probably fine. 

I don’t even know anymore. If what I’m doing is terribly wrong and demented or if I’m fine and this is just how I eat. 

The end.",0.8361224489795944,2.8595364217687127,2.359891156462588,95.59820408163269,82.74149659863944,5.824761904761906,20.00408163265305,7.0316486544052195,0.2278457142857145,542,15,125,7,15,176,89,147,0.11599999999999999,0.727,0.157,0.6542,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,9,12,0,2,2,0,15,13,1,2,0,27,29,15,0,5,10,0,3,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,10,5,12,0,5,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,13,4,12,7,5,15,4,15,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,6,14,72,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220695985349454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10250658852896498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148076530062661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.54563459488373,0.0,0.0,0.11807243178870322,0.0,0.0,0.2641485172913737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980976270760442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25599558127336697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223961609920053,0.0,0.2059887996977493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128276322827756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652656059568542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538450508211547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14913895733741708,0.0,0.1133347615531349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13460434551496595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979976413022463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306147658221151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437299242404414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384537551742598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205495868967189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262797752327103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527053013810653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481114875666173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623347590627007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457527432802213,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elishahsile,2019/07/25,"I made it through a grocery trip without a panic attack this evening. I'm 32, but due to ""things"" and ""situations"" in my life, typically one of my parents take me on my trip to make sure I am doing things right. Because of this, I have a lot of panic attacks in the stores. When I am alone, I do a lot better, still anxious, but you know...on those days I tend to be shopping with a disordered brain freely. Anyway, another thing that causes these panic attacks is because after over 20 years my parents really don't understand (though they try, I am sure) anything pertaining to my mental health. They rush me through the trips. As I sit and read everything on the labels and need to look at everything I can even if I have a list, or I am in binge mode, and need to plan the most perfect binge, my parents rush me. They do their shopping so fast and I WISH I could do this, but it takes at least 3 hours to make it through the stores we go to combined. It really causes me to go into huge fits of panic the moment my mind is disrupted from how I need to do my thing.

This is just a post to look back on, and say, even if there were only 20 items I had on my list and it took 2.5 hours to make it through, I did not panic and I am home and safe and feeling better. Yay for me.

Does anyone else have weird shopping issues? Does anyone have any tips? I used to be better. Maybe I should really just start going alone...but parents don't really trust me with anything these days. It's my own fault but man, it'd be nice if it were easier.

Happy Thursday to all ✌️",3.8479710144927566,4.255120608695656,4.901801242236028,87.22943064182196,71.17391304347827,7.872463768115942,25.89233954451345,7.793537801064563,1.2185469979296069,1204,34,264,14,21,396,162,322,0.062,0.733,0.205,0.9947,4,2,0,0,0,0,45.0,1,1,4,5,13,21,3,5,13,1,30,3,1,8,4,51,52,23,0,9,12,4,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,21,14,0,1,2,4,5,9,4,10,0,1,6,4,41,11,40,40,7,39,0,0,2,0,12,14,0,7,14,184,62,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974863949421566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05236254949045615,0.08074107350904816,0.0,0.08698793172615693,0.0,0.10768019364133986,0.07889546240015123,0.1267286582260333,0.0,0.0,0.262795391775677,0.0,0.059208144231022,0.0,0.09387680756270264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043003731209818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595731612385359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820014646382535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061478127667458124,0.0,0.0,0.09931708738730434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08824851768233342,0.0,0.134766203703154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432350784795432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525730563726544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384050296176214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038933445964997385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128239536381886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196778943378566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184725715163539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723714403783133,0.0,0.15165871563603106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036785517558823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04231711277257802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054387282691585576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932098948253087,0.0,0.0,0.13092506549528524,0.0,0.07285913522815289,0.15419402591436626,0.0,0.07735671513732191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759775462193197,0.0,0.07774791472179818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712832754961242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052177102145725913,0.0585618680328189,0.0,0.4517137625037713,0.3419969566197977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374458714210974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770207035110798,0.0,0.19731234406558687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06575746506056003,0.0,0.061233384193294264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655107583711559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054500901650523424,0.0,0.06149219265500714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451429253762996,0.0,0.11578863334242025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046211587464657,0.0,0.0756519776446105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08554968460039575,0.05227785478231274,0.0,0.0,0.08015957631626126,0.0,0.06650316186671369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854604613250923,0.07422512332195623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04958538932761829
EDAnonymous,jessietl,2019/07/25,"Nightmares of bingeing while restricting??? Been fasting and restricting a ton so I can drop weight fast. This is the third time lately I’ve had a dream that I overate (basically binged) and instantly regretted it. Nothing but shame, shame, more shame and regret. At first when I wake up I’m horrified at what I’ve done but then so amazingly relieved that it was only a dream. The fear of gaining weight and going over my calories is...fucking with my sleep. When you fuck with my sleep, you fuck with me",2.6206028708134,5.406781452631581,3.0560765550239246,88.53435406698564,81.84210526315789,6.401913875598087,25.47846889952153,7.686295010490155,1.5976315789473683,398,16,75,7,11,123,63,95,0.25,0.569,0.18100000000000002,-0.8528,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,2,4,10,2,4,5,0,6,7,3,0,0,13,10,12,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,8,0,2,4,2,9,2,10,6,2,16,0,2,0,2,2,5,2,0,9,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20845213096688647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292150720494665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17326404703847678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5649420964531444,0.0,0.0,0.11576535379997135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22977840264805274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195452181915591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492028508206773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076869983414296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11877700430043905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960946588334403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,QueenOfSelfDestruct,2019/07/25,"Food as punishment I’m sure you’re first thought is “Oh, like punish yourself by not eating.” 

Well, it started like that at the beginning. But it’s morphed into my brain using the discomfort and disgust in myself to punish myself when I eat what is more or less a normal size meal, three times a day. 

Like last week my girlfriend told me she never really loved me 🤡 and I can’t stop *literally* thinking: “What can I eat today to make myself fucking hate myself more than I do currently?” 

Am I alone in this? I feel like I can’t even have an eating disorder correctly. I want to SH, but my bf knows that I used to do that and keeps a lovingly careful eye on me. I just feel so violently hopeless and worthless.",2.440341278439874,4.4716091338028185,4.209436619718307,84.33821776814736,77.38028169014085,7.186132177681474,25.007583965330447,8.139509932561175,1.63070465872156,555,20,109,10,13,187,98,142,0.239,0.648,0.11199999999999999,-0.9629,1,1,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,0,1,5,19,7,1,6,0,9,11,2,3,3,25,28,10,0,2,5,0,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,8,5,6,2,5,0,0,0,4,10,1,2,2,3,21,9,12,26,3,17,0,2,1,3,6,5,1,1,16,75,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775580610107805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925904961784818,0.0,0.0,0.14545440007739802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200580975169333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350411681097302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5839193132492924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422754242422697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14426936257058542,0.10191845019109368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12134904454198528,0.17250862269901998,0.0,0.0,0.13188961164172566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085014162738005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680539762436366,0.0,0.0,0.07840383421256993,0.1162893568650212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787916726612324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25751779040364875,0.0,0.09522863645676033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11003047294988473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977941478457528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913935480153823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097758040364753,0.0,0.0,0.1192726261674984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13445815549241605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09141266703623872,0.0,0.11325845803507655,0.0831879217401447,0.0,0.1352278090002487,0.13632057606198406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464299918395341,0.0,0.0,0.08414631260564076,0.0,0.1144356246526177,0.0,0.12827113802606085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aayeisisvalar,2019/07/25,"Trying to lose with big boobs sucks. I’m at my wits end with these things. I swear if I could cut them off I would.
I can lose weight everywhere pretty reliably, and expectantly, if I make the effort to, except on my chest. 

I lose weight and my boobs literally just stay the same. It makes me look so disproportionate it’s not even funny. Like even if I DO get to my GW, my tits will never fit my body, and if I try to get back to a healthy weight they just get even bigger. 
It just doesn’t make sense to me, if I’m losing fat, why am I not losing in literally the fattiest part of me?! 
I’m so sick of being a size small/extra small and having to size up every shirt, every dress, to accommodate them. It’s giving me the worst dysmorphia because I’m still buying size large or medium. Just messes with my head and I’m so tired of dealing with it. 

Like what’s even the point? I won’t ever be able to wear what I actually want to wear. I still won’t look even remotely close to what I thought I’d look like at this weight. 

Today’s just one of those days guys.",1.4540178571428584,3.134427794642857,3.264607142857141,91.60539285714287,79.08928571428572,6.444285714285713,17.896428571428572,7.365786028017652,0.028131071428571186,822,15,191,11,20,275,118,224,0.18600000000000005,0.7609999999999999,0.053,-0.9806,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,3,6,17,12,2,0,7,0,12,16,10,3,2,35,30,14,0,9,14,0,4,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,12,10,5,0,1,0,1,0,6,9,0,1,1,7,27,3,26,22,3,21,0,5,3,3,6,12,4,6,11,119,39,0,0.09569977785267417,0.0,0.09338917832529024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358722197395713,0.0,0.058337696325766214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063008792237327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640848545356317,0.0,0.0,0.061718439669885834,0.09866226880296296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476159797850552,0.0,0.0,0.31604400352795275,0.08656592798342476,0.16126238067690396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499975521960616,0.09180394717452972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475782597178814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821558146342264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026223242895935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410911323738979,0.5353178618100211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916410345128412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380956838414743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484864620268968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363353353917433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046722297262444,0.0,0.0,0.09736107876734737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200322993033767,0.15285193242717646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06357868003129853,0.0,0.0,0.07597493384610443,0.0,0.10999281663561372,0.09071219952302076,0.0,0.0,0.12994773452712688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056446208473253635,0.0,0.0,0.4661461910171881,0.0,0.0,0.08635416436379796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067982376425775,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,walkotaco22,2019/07/25,"I wrote this in May 2018, and it’s a reminder of ED brain. Who can relate? “i hate losing weight. the constant thinking about food. weighing it out.  restriction.  hungry. restriction. longing for sugar.  restriction.  madness.  the fear of gaining the weight back.  sheer terror of undoing all progress.  food obsession. food porn.  my psyche is out of control.  drinking and losing all control. binging and feeling physical pain. the mental pain. the shame. the blame. the endless cycle. the disappoint. fraudulent fit girl. i’m losing control of myself. i’m daydreaming about food. why must we live like this? this is hell. failure. failure. failure.”

I have gained weight since then, because i realized how sick i had become, and couldn’t maintain it any longer.  but now i’m miserable in my “fat” body. i’ll never be truly happy with how i look/feel, unless i can somehow figure out a way maintain a thinner weight. either im skinny and miserable because i’m starving, or i’m eating normally but my mind is consumed with how fat i look. it doesn’t help that i am trying to date, but refuse to actually meet up with anybody because of how fat i feel. i know i was so much more beautiful when i was skinny. 

it’s easy to become suicidal because you know that you’ll never win. misery forever.",1.4602541504406652,4.054536462184874,2.836927649108425,85.06237651158024,98.24369747899158,5.1790940766550495,25.13260914121746,6.807656815369643,1.6762898954703829,1010,46,168,17,41,326,138,238,0.284,0.614,0.102,-0.9911,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,1,2,0,10,11,18,3,6,11,0,16,23,7,7,5,48,29,17,1,4,6,0,6,1,0,3,6,0,0,1,11,12,17,7,7,1,0,0,4,15,0,0,4,8,20,3,22,20,5,17,1,6,1,1,9,7,1,3,10,105,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0906240325199831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315221266421765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140838924607146,0.0,0.2264415378215377,0.2051268829999866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315343285406732,0.0,0.1036694118358082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035539018012307,0.3124720797198386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097353896602142,0.0,0.09502532494916237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450031343974901,0.14086785020544973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44917679704170504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885781575401956,0.0,0.09168616398590101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062246268296798635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031145121356502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207368935069198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045369743193343866,0.0,0.08200257175980988,0.0821836804780995,0.15596846809829962,0.31168063058583545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358730523698447,0.0,0.09376840685737367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06826735545228227,0.0,0.14324830447125805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098917613939096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19763240671995347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681989506816428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158056954355428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05950492263221056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305006602941368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371288117193311,0.0,0.4523441402028914,0.0,0.0,0.08379731720395207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Aggravating_Usual,2019/07/25,"so frustrated with my body I'm five foot seven and 120 pounds, 21 years old. I have a really weird body with long legs, a thick stomach, narrow hips, a small chest and a biggish butt. I'm not really an apple or pear or...anything at all. I'm also trying to work out if I have a long or short torso, though I suspect it's short.

I hate my waist so much, it's disgusting and so wide, everyone is surprised when they see me in a bathing suit or naked because I look thin (very thin and long legs and arms) but I have a pudgy boxy waist. It's frustrating. I have tried to lose a lot of weight - I mean an unhealthy amount, my lowest was 85 pounds - amount of weight and my lower waist only changes by about an inch. I have also tried a lot of pilates and ab exercises and it still doesn't change. Any suggestions on what I should do? Would waist training or corsetry help? Lipo? The problem is I don't seem to have much fat around my waist, it's more like my organs are widely distributed. Could this be because I have such a short torso? My leg-to-hip measurements are twice the size of my hip to head measurements! This seems really weird to me.

All sizes in inches:

35 shoulders

32 chest

27 waist (just below ribcage)

33 lower waist (belly button)

34 upper hips

36 lower hips (around butt)

41 - length legs (vertical, from ground to hip bone)

26 - head to hip bone

I am on the verge of tears because I have a nearly underweight BMI and if I lose any more pounds I stop menstruating but when I check a waist to hip/height calculator I come in with an OBESE or dangerous ratio (if I use the lower waist). I don't know what to do or why my stomach is so stubbornly fat.",3.6062339268051424,4.5820838902077154,4.34737759643917,88.90377658259153,72.11572700296736,7.753165182987143,23.833951533135508,8.07648339933343,1.0400366963402567,1289,33,282,18,24,413,173,337,0.182,0.7929999999999999,0.026000000000000002,-0.9942,5,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,1,3,15,13,6,0,20,0,24,39,35,1,2,45,36,29,0,7,13,0,5,1,0,2,4,0,1,0,9,16,14,2,5,2,1,1,4,11,0,3,1,7,32,2,31,31,10,36,0,2,2,2,3,26,2,13,10,160,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849396100099352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726564145894795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515418902006224,0.2058716228116275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21146214952001435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25687921455330354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24464383351346686,0.09960558354656494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232168102395498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104900604072057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11416134751144626,0.23734085369246186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750480069614743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06354759221648576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056491304620366424,0.0,0.0,0.306988512735882,0.09710064045288196,0.258722285050322,0.0,0.19661012124632748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595569789820418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17000369413805688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133493696928603,0.0,0.0,0.08794233503559773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106429349055872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222279042407417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214267321892873,0.21053163832692576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234280241042807,0.09667241770003096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360654616412585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355169041550384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986777297697493,0.0,0.09540741255502068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816140098979907,0.0,0.0,0.10433869445468713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418050489840867,0.0,0.0,0.08214071034617207,0.0,0.0,0.07446236036521559
EDAnonymous,armalavi,2019/07/25,"Is it actually possible to recover I swear at this point I think it's impossible

Every month or two I'll relapse. At first I'll be fine, eat healthy and exercise.
Then I'll restrict a lil bit. Then I'll go a bit too far. Then I binge binge binge.
Eventually I'll purge. Then I'll be purging every meal. Then it'll start swearing it will never happen again.

THEN THE WHOLE CYCLE BEGINS AGAIN.

Honestly fuck my life. It sucks so much.",0.2058653846153824,2.6127704431818195,2.470454545454544,89.40741258741258,94.5681818181818,5.8895104895104895,20.405594405594407,7.321109707123232,0.9263608391608384,341,12,71,7,13,115,57,88,0.13699999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.087,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,2,0,3,0,5,5,0,0,1,5,12,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,6,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,2,0,2,0,0,4,2,3,8,4,18,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,13,37,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.21909875238703985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49023452892987296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297396128002096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37833491039191797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19097626589274236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20756476193486675,0.0,0.0,0.1275996686350117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19854194997102104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858484064461906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920941096273424,0.0,0.16504774718626058,0.0,0.17316336471945654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21224360295987826,0.2531121260113135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589161358225661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438631006265345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21932303536523065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506681269309653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cartoonsandscience,2019/07/25,I keep telling people I have an ED while I'm drunk and then I feel so god damn ashamed when I sober up Why do I do this? I don't want anyone to know. Why do go straight to ED talk when I get drunk? Please stop drunk me,-1.7570588235294125,-0.028030725490193475,-0.01225490196078205,110.28985294117649,91.54901960784315,3.4000000000000004,14.382352941176471,3.1291,-1.8326235294117643,167,3,49,0,6,53,35,51,0.308,0.569,0.12300000000000001,-0.8549,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,1,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,6,12,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,2,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,8,0,3,12,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,5,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22299563037406514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125506524472044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662205221616178,0.0,0.181249058105537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28346992463205845,0.0,0.0,0.17526958151213112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22109832886270145,0.0,0.0,0.35007737144651474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666306244354409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563350696268448,0.2787493258474774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881067315686856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5755497155673805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wickedwitchofthebees,2019/07/25,I feel like a fake Reading the symptoms of eating disorders I feel like a fake who doesn’t have a mental illness and just has no self control. Sometimes I fast for two days and think “ok now its time to start healthy eating I just reseted the days I overate” and then a few hours later I’ve eaten 2500 calories. But it’s not a binge? It was eaten in a span of hours and thinking “oh one more cookie” and every 20 minutes I’d walk by the kitchen and just grab another one. I’m fully aware of what I’m doing I just feel like I don’t even have the excuse of a mental illness I just have no self control I don’t know what to do. I’ve purged before but I could only go a few spits and gagging before I snap out of it. I’m so confused I feel like a fraud,0.19444404591104814,2.1060806036585404,2.418694404591104,94.90421090387377,84.42682926829268,4.590530846484937,20.622668579626968,5.5289334501034215,-0.13640200860832108,585,18,133,3,17,198,89,164,0.133,0.78,0.087,-0.8437,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,0,1,13,1,11,9,1,2,0,27,25,11,0,1,8,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,1,2,7,8,5,2,7,1,0,2,6,3,0,3,3,5,12,5,12,21,3,16,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,14,82,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026924822171666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2276564121206708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30006830233342313,0.10680426176184894,0.0,0.0,0.17254084665875216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15331172467746032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737597032196539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835365936307295,0.0,0.11270678522101105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705520230953585,0.3822605492757053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07602443259714399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634725190538027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351635713461173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614125747721785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696168933966889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18129169143505414,0.10173792403815816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338059516609746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791020501736793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230170488174894,0.0,0.09468291873860124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13903799150449428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714285109639715,0.0,0.0,0.07800221794451635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067360987291698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,drunkenconstellation,2019/07/25,Triggered By My Instagram Count I really just looked at my following count on Instagram and went “89 haha goals—gotta get there someday” like a whole ass fool. Someone help; this is getting silly.,5.531047619047619,8.038475057142861,5.8171428571428585,74.13619047619048,69.85714285714286,9.23809523809524,31.666666666666664,9.725611199111238,3.638809523809525,157,7,24,4,3,50,32,35,0.153,0.624,0.223,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,3,3,5,1,4,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4369349016985952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802788426616041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428821617791046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35114283093933696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678792334937473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3542993020389591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876316068394189,0.0,0.4668523934406522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CeladonDust,2019/07/25,"My life is in utter ruins, I'm sleepwalking towards total disaster and I'm still a fat bitch.... But when I wake up for my sleeping pill induced slumber I'll be 48 hours into a fast 🎉

So truly all clouds have a silver lining and I'm, obviously, totes fine ✌",-0.041190476190475785,2.2499199074074103,3.1519047619047638,86.205,90.66666666666666,5.307936507936508,20.67724867724868,6.868970318607317,0.7489026455026453,201,7,40,3,7,72,44,54,0.135,0.769,0.096,-0.4601,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,3,0,3,5,3,1,3,8,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,5,5,2,8,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,4,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5586131975759772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006555609336467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5676456495991761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4529954011665203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway2019170,2019/07/25,"I gained 10 lbs on vacation hey guys. this is my first post here since r/proed was shut down. Honestly I didn’t even know that it was shut down because I had been making progress and wasn’t checking it that often anymore! I’m really sad that it was :( it was such a helpful supportive community. I’m glad a similar entity exists 

Anyways, like i said i was doing really good with accepting myself and my body and then I went on vacation and i guess i made an absolute pig of myself. I don’t know how this happened ugh I literally gained around 10lbs over the past two weeks on vacation. I feel like a giant monster. A few pairs of shorts don’t even fit anymore. I feel just awful. I don’t feel my beautiful self like I did a month ago. Every time I eat something I feel a wave of guilt hit me.

I came here to rant, I hope y’all don’t mind. I’m sorry if this is triggering for anyone",1.1002030892448502,3.225384701086956,3.321624713958812,88.49683066361557,82.42391304347827,7.134553775743708,21.640732265446225,8.20500826718156,1.2244173913043483,691,22,149,15,19,236,110,184,0.095,0.6809999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.9728,0,0,1,0,1,0,17.0,0,1,0,4,10,12,0,1,8,1,17,2,1,4,0,24,36,7,0,2,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,10,7,1,0,7,0,1,2,6,3,0,2,14,5,25,9,13,21,1,22,0,1,0,0,6,12,0,4,10,91,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13795440762181338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086813655716237,0.10881838142621936,0.0,0.0,0.13854148892430618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486909251351956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17286709247191573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17799642474398245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924580676243566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558102014593155,0.0,0.13112289887105574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147598034504033,0.11118033232600906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237669013142614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305329811844828,0.0,0.0,0.1714412603345667,0.15409571382967166,0.1376209031344443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431384705264404,0.0,0.0,0.15457324390183275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105763141105124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22809523759988756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725852358790364,0.10388257894781573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713943211264342,0.0,0.12422040274351615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856407871989946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904814600311705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19939795045453354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480374111179767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16235344583675188,0.0,0.0,0.12873669384535275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980966918399286,0.0,0.17421226870357684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17660426692302286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074765920437386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202547476518813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1248350102945766,0.0,0.0,0.14426827142795634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,byouguessedit,2019/01/20,"anyone know any ed books that aren’t super depressing? like the main character has an ED but it’s not super sad? 

having an ED fucking sucks but a lot of us don’t spend all day drowning in sadness over it, as is evident by the ED memes out there. i’d love to read something more lighthearted. ",0.8405854800936794,3.1666463606557405,2.703653395784542,91.19983606557379,85.39344262295081,6.108665105386418,21.82903981264637,7.447530270364453,0.925143325526932,232,8,49,4,7,77,52,61,0.11900000000000001,0.586,0.295,0.9417,1,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,2,1,9,2,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,1,7,9,3,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,7,9,4,4,0,3,0,2,2,3,2,1,2,29,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392060254862577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24595585389926675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268534092397327,0.0,0.3029667795084397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3251925951739058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19331580404096094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185012984922987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990502263393741,0.3174733685329881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518510184535394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27079882188394183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231189509291305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spiced_tomato,2019/01/20,"Need some help I think.. I’ve not eaten a proper meal in about two weeks, just some snacks everyday. Pretty much it has ranged from, a handful of crackers and dip one day, a tub of yoghurt the next.,

Anyway today I’ve had the worst diarrhoea. Like really bad, and burning. 

Because I’ve been restricting so long the thought of Food makes me feel more sick than I do now. And the guilt... I’ve done so well. 

How can a relieve this without braking this cycle?  ",2.096,4.3678819333333365,2.9944444444444467,91.40500000000002,79.66666666666666,5.777777777777778,23.333333333333336,6.937597516519254,0.7703333333333338,354,12,72,4,9,112,69,90,0.14300000000000002,0.7190000000000001,0.138,-0.3495,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,1,8,0,6,6,1,2,0,16,12,6,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,4,2,3,0,0,0,2,3,1,2,5,3,3,3,8,7,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,8,46,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21162323616948256,0.1545030109558468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345665600584372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259371112045778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815379612181782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064771961102884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16988465923951387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238246656881419,0.0,0.0,0.22429853122277987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918229960941938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631761767460386,0.18793269234153975,0.0,0.0,0.2695508642235151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174677311179204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578535109693837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623689175653276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240288423790766,0.0,0.20121391099925706,0.0,0.0,0.2402444532343326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475874172599089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033052541370902,0.0,0.2278852970305828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24432030316223774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evelynssecretacct,2019/01/20,"Buying bigger bras makes me feel like a whale- a rant I went on birth control 6ish months ago and guess what— my boobs got bigger. I didn't gain any actual weight, so i'm certain it's because of the hormonal change. I figured they'd go back to normal after a few months, but alas they have not so I finally bought some bigger bras and it made me feel so f a t. I can't even really complain about this anywhere else because what woman would be upset about going from a 34b to a 34c (possibly even a 36c). 

I know it would be dumb to go off the pill because of this but i'm god damn tempted. Has anyone experienced something similar??",0.9100256410256408,3.264401746153851,2.7669230769230784,90.66141025641028,85.38461538461539,5.620512820512822,20.2051282051282,7.0316486544052195,0.5216820512820517,497,15,103,7,15,165,89,130,0.142,0.787,0.071,-0.8726,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,2,8,6,2,1,9,0,9,3,1,3,1,18,23,7,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,6,2,1,1,4,0,2,4,3,4,0,0,5,4,11,2,11,13,2,16,0,0,0,1,4,5,3,2,8,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.17537387720572822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930465231659036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222109420765666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565944588215486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381881355184449,0.0,0.3286539674735335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19011243072256184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015633109496348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501270768567278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373973655631076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817364951084616,0.12838693950389804,0.0,0.1968667096677868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30640496636636955,0.0,0.14373283198798512,0.0,0.19797403244401826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876551596937946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779865064921298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700487016343512,0.11995976356478374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28689026194700057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17608049608475865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20259930475539584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512869257820467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835177884163355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21884191061896308,0.0,0.16659566893397368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25532579147275425,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,especiallygirlgiants,2019/01/20,"Will my ED haunt me forever? I’ve was in recovery for two years until I fell back  into my disorder for about a year, and then since that have been in recovery for almost 3 years with some small slip ups along the way. But recently the thoughts are back. And they’re strong. The little monster that is my eating disorder is trying to get me again and I’m trying to fight it but it’s feisty. I hate myself. I hate my body. I’m ugly, I’m gross, and I can’t stand myself. I was trying to convince myself I’m fine and I don’t have an eating disorder anymore, but when my friend asked me if I wanted a donut and I screamed NO and broke down crying, I know it’s still there and it’s still nagging me. I haven’t engaged in any behaviors, I’m making myself eat normally and I haven’t purged. But I’m so exhausted by the monster in my head I don’t know if I can stand it much longer without giving in. I just feel so ugly and worthless. ",0.5780735930735936,2.650301035353536,2.6881529581529584,92.58318181818184,84.10101010101009,5.791630591630592,19.529581529581527,7.07126945348624,0.32989148629148657,727,20,161,10,21,245,105,198,0.28800000000000003,0.645,0.067,-0.9942,0,0,0,0,1,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,11,14,4,0,7,0,15,6,2,1,0,30,32,21,0,4,8,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,7,13,3,0,4,0,0,1,7,9,0,1,4,2,28,5,20,27,2,26,0,2,0,0,4,10,0,4,12,108,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367755931347464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078226440631064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13239275357052774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480129837667713,0.0,0.0,0.2053012871562833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828462567998865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1466397443419174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4589960005955842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409801041526372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749989105261978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313914043138812,0.0,0.06974646256529342,0.12806210110519325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636005051992278,0.13700602327656508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467324780025098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379866197072607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911001575647669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981353598161446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307983219894183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13181178533607696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042976534842087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213221111151134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059813870656704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719062812043351,0.0,0.13040677839271728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873975225448854,0.10596338570561296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868595659638393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579022966853529
EDAnonymous,toastandbuttr,2019/01/20,"Dysmorphic and overwhelmed with my body Ok so, I’ve never been diagnosed with an eating disorder and don’t think I have one, but certainly have disordered eating. 

Lately I’ve been especially stressed about my body because I honestly don’t know what I look like as I’ve gained and lost weight over the years. I’ve never had a positive relationship with food or my body for as long as I can remember. In high school I was really thin, I gained weight and had a really rough time with that in college, and now I’ve been losing weight since my second year of college (~3 yrs ago). Now I weigh less than I did in high school, when I barely ate... I look smaller than I feel in photos, but my weight is like 126 (5’7”) which seems like a lot more than how I look (how people say I look). So then I wonder if I’m actually quite fat. Or something. It’s like my perception of how I should look, how I do look, how much I weigh, how much I think I should weigh, and how much I eat, those don’t line up at all.  I see photos of myself and think, hm, is that what I look like? I feel so disconnected from my body, which is only made worse by the harm I’ve done to my body over the years which complicates the relationship even more. 

There’s a whole other level to this mess, being a struggle with intimacy because “good” things happening to my body feel wrong. 

Well thanks for listening to this rant I just need need need to get this out and don’t know where else I can share. If anyone has any thoughts on this or can relate.. lmk.",5.170226537216827,4.967522349514564,5.692702265372169,84.82442556634308,68.22330097087378,9.455663430420714,26.228155339805827,9.150863307647796,1.6503475728155332,1182,28,262,20,18,382,154,309,0.12,0.738,0.142,0.6042,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,5,19,20,0,3,10,2,25,20,7,8,4,53,55,30,0,7,8,0,9,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,15,14,13,0,13,0,0,0,6,8,2,2,12,19,35,12,34,40,9,28,0,3,8,0,5,15,0,8,18,166,50,4,0.0,0.0,0.06980310256440614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340715710811007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048642951049408835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05001554010697323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720822418663211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4767231905154061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260159084476736,0.0,0.0,0.1639594850738518,0.0,0.0,0.07320017243317133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219579585652838,0.05975425707918584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724498574403462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10850337071184923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649453451141631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037371548139056514,0.0,0.0,0.05999609137856761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06325387044049711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15115104962311993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862219334923734,0.0,0.08068911849084448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473007707681842,0.0,0.0,0.06330192685111638,0.4204711416452792,0.08002393485533937,0.07808360233586625,0.06081237080700756,0.0,0.06768355213588792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774865944259306,0.15911608710074285,0.11033691407386476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04847067704442366,0.054401898070328934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049589995625776664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760811133642621,0.0,0.0,0.09164808424364257,0.0,0.0,0.15359321130293915,0.08102970961064754,0.0,0.0,0.05688364181822252,0.0,0.1447846498429963,0.057000264029317724,0.06511835695632054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059170474600626265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0550673997879494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08193753870852276,0.07477883776207199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585534656419921,0.0,0.0,0.04752144951608877,0.1375008847680889,0.0,0.056786944640538115,0.04170980241631029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348417782071528,0.06431419021976106,0.0,0.0,0.07986085170800251,0.0,0.0,0.07757139030499449,0.0,0.0,0.07289532811118224,0.0,0.07820698388587402,0.0,0.1381892033123121
EDAnonymous,TheCalorieKoala,2019/01/20,"Behold! The whale woman's boating adventure ft. self hatred and a surprise fast Morning Guys, Gals and Non Binary pals!
It's me, the long time lurker you've never heard of. I'm usually content just browsing this sub but I've always wanted to be more active in the community. You're all so supportive and non judgmental. Also I really need to vent today.

Background: my aunt hired a 40ft catamaran for the day for her birthday and invited my dad (her bro), me (25f) and my bro (and her 15 year old son and his best mate). I've been really looking forward to this: a few drinks, some treat food, snorkelling and lazing about in the sun.

Got on the boat this morning and...shit. She's also invited her friend and her 2 daughters. Fuck. These girls my dudes. Tiny. Flawless. Model looks and mermaid hair. Prancing around on deck in itsy bitsy teenie weenie (not yellow polka dot) bikinis. 

I was feeling good about myself this morning. Not skinny because that's a looong way off. But not fat!!! I never feel not fat. Now my day is ruined because there is no way I'm wearing togs in front of these people! And I sure as shit ain't gonna eat today. I just want to cry. I feel so fat and ugly and even if I did get skinny, I'm never going to be pretty. Fuck everything ",1.6628296296296303,4.052785680000003,3.3611111111111143,87.45685185185188,82.19999999999997,5.623703703703704,21.259259259259263,6.937597516519254,0.6993081481481482,980,30,188,12,27,325,158,250,0.11800000000000001,0.723,0.159,0.8628,0,0,1,0,0,0,46.0,0,0,0,1,12,13,3,0,10,0,8,13,8,0,5,35,27,21,0,4,9,6,4,0,3,1,3,1,0,4,8,14,8,0,3,1,0,3,9,4,0,0,5,8,22,9,20,19,5,27,0,1,3,2,21,9,3,2,15,106,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731314700509294,0.11305616393248374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095464630274945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16565229115308555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258899816061668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492487155120638,0.17525205110292458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331025686276945,0.0,0.1390307003461624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08974199631958404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211274998862773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20610248773997605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429663541104467,0.0,0.10497416166050147,0.2512224502100551,0.07098737109844158,0.0,0.07721903540288262,0.11396276084948707,0.10866903471041453,0.0,0.0,0.1345343745599634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202422055384524,0.22819606629312386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007471662731564,0.3143779635275249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257452469508095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419634983165501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382303963194359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17408581904225442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174384705758464,0.0,0.2789407569156089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15418562920816795,0.12805749767953212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922789849519048,0.0,0.25758102621353146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964351493396288,0.0,0.1602813335014968,0.2156973101507431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749693947944956
EDAnonymous,frodo-shaggins,2019/02/20,"Recovering from miscarriage with ED Trigger warning for miscarriage talk, obviously. 
Long, kind of complicated story I just want to get off my chest.

Early last year, I started recovering from my ED in hopes of solving some gastrointestinal issues I have. I went from BMI 19 (lowest ever, 19% BF, never underweighy) to BMI 20/21 and was able to eat pretty normally.  Turns out, those issues we're actually related to my recent diagnosis of scleroderma I got later last year. 

with that diagnosis, I am at risk of developing a heart condition that makes child birth too dangerous, so my husband and I decided to go ahead and start trying. I had stopped my birth control, and waited for my cycles to start. 

Previously, I had only one or two cycles a year, which began after I lost 30 lbs some years back. That weight loss was intentional and healthy (overweight to normal, 1.5 lbs/week) and is what actually triggered my ED. For some unknown reason, maybe unrelated to weight loss, but I have barely been able to cycle since then and my hormones are unbalanced. 

I began religiously tracking my ovulation, putting in the same energy I would for calories. I intentionally began to gain weight in hopes of jump starting my cycle. 5 lbs and months later, I detected ovulation, and eventually a positive pregnancy test.

I've been able to eat without guilt for the past 8 weeks, gaining an additional 5lbs in the process. Knowing the baby needs nutrition, and that I can blame the gain on pregnancy and not my lack of control, helped. Plus, the knowledge that I can lose it later while breastfeeding kept me sane.

Yesterday, I went in for my 8 week ultrasound. I was worrying that I might have twins because it was the first ovulation after so long without, and my hormones were out of balance (it can cause two eggs to drop). The technician spent one minute with the belly ultrasound and said she can't get a clear image. She brought out the transvaginal, poked around saying the OB will take a look and discuss with me after. 

I immediately clammed up and worried while waiting for the OB to call me back. Maybe my dates were off and I wasn't as far along as I thought? When the time came, the OB told me they saw the fetus but could not detected a heartbeat. I had miscarried and I can expect to pass the tissue in the next few weeks. My stomach sank, and I've been a wreck all night and day. Now, I lost my baby and I'm left with my fat body and a corpse. 

I woke up at 4:30 am this morning and went into 'solver' mode. I can heal. But the way that seems will get me there is to live my old life before I was sick and trying to conceive. Lose those 10 lbs, track calories, track ovulation. Exercise like you did before schleroderma. Fast all day and live on vegetables alone.

I know fixing grief with disordered eating isn't healthy, but suddenly sitting here 10 lbs heavier and no longer pregnant there's just nothing else I want to do more than get rid of this weight that constantly reminds me of my loss. I want to start trying to conceive again asap. I'm a little worried that I really do need the extra fat to ovulate. I can't stand the thought of starting the pregnancy at such a high weight knowing there will be more to gain.",5.424866126070995,6.805917075657895,5.916523867809057,77.82810893512854,68.21052631578948,9.208445532435741,30.91585067319461,9.530980864609335,2.87194273255814,2554,102,467,54,43,824,302,608,0.1,0.8170000000000001,0.083,-0.856,1,1,0,0,0,0,77.0,0,1,1,15,17,15,1,2,32,0,40,21,6,9,6,96,89,39,1,13,11,1,5,1,1,5,7,2,0,1,18,40,13,6,9,1,1,9,10,11,0,5,34,9,63,4,78,48,11,93,0,8,2,0,14,24,0,8,57,300,81,2,0.1983377860156722,0.0,0.12903271238780126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847271025521415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05885422653548787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167300985677014,0.0,0.040301624483460134,0.0,0.11251389842075796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343618940339182,0.0,0.0,0.06750835167195793,0.07561519647094933,0.0,0.06791584696523663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07144422863119693,0.1483017946805573,0.052785527746993764,0.0,0.0,0.08527430926963875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757707619846335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029490701765934,0.05522859002242202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059802627501239713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056235339821341934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816440947060854,0.0,0.03757331149625963,0.0,0.05287628199276668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834374379592618,0.04431387906173604,0.06985158680854775,0.0,0.1313294491571994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800874588387704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884609436483508,0.10900126021300174,0.10778117826295963,0.0,0.0,0.07183152827818584,0.0,0.046697281269349744,0.032299274606237945,0.06626218893121998,0.11675726584568402,0.1170151328651508,0.05551792920177153,0.1479261664737867,0.14433941518732546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04413067076120331,0.0,0.13283797630872865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07013501596740104,0.0,0.0,0.052770442848285234,0.0,0.0,0.09804330346777312,0.05099010923731588,0.0,0.07031149517359718,0.06204219213520382,0.1295526127973632,0.06343681829390238,0.0,0.06937404747223064,0.0,0.08959921121764437,0.050281607902616834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311195304674548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726027736637202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646141873661104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04235342148363546,0.06797475904524171,0.06527821201389511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628882177989642,0.05257538937849543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06018642378079352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054689022052764005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807690115617501,0.0,0.0,0.05527309002908958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04970844388058702,0.05313879983253062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10497203170050648,0.03855078600532096,0.0,0.0,0.06317341803902222,0.0,0.13465833747043787,0.07191151901868885,0.12916479821988874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698476494688505,0.052477100891735885,0.21212614452125986,0.4025366514274004,0.0,0.18386111469777652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274603653458059,0.0,0.0,0.20142164924415606,0.0,0.04696449086548382,0.0,0.0,0.17029737524579386
EDAnonymous,BumblebeePoltergeist,2019/02/20,Im at a birthday party with my favorite cake. But I know if I have any I'll spend the next three days in a depression spiral hating myself. Brains are stupid. ,1.9109090909090904,3.781606151515156,3.3606060606060595,90.5609090909091,78.3939393939394,5.612121212121212,20.090909090909093,6.42735559955562,0.15329090909090934,125,3,26,1,3,41,29,33,0.273,0.5770000000000001,0.15,-0.6908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679502427313139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398617703692375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541132730525827,0.0,0.33937281447567313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389017721766148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256141878087287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21654561799301514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41904963698474856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PlumeriaParfum,2019/02/20,"Please help! I'm scared I'll put on weight today So far I've eaten 500 calories and 100g carbs. Please someone tell me if I'll gain weight like this??? I usually eat less than 50g carbs a day and im freaking out, because I've heard that if you eat more than a certain amount of carbs the body will store half of it as fat?? I'm not going to eat anything else today, so is it possible to just burn that all off? TIA ",0.8049999999999997,2.205867543478264,2.4906521739130447,97.68858695652176,80.08695652173913,5.469565217391305,20.195652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.2472000000000003,322,8,80,2,8,106,65,92,0.057999999999999996,0.728,0.214,0.9345,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,0,2,8,2,0,2,9,7,7,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,3,7,0,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,2,3,3,2,10,4,4,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,5,35,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846382860654527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256987152272602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18689917860049945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851392540722103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165166496505125,0.1405598274408511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562616351696593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278128215157365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174991677264515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220344686102436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693983992572412,0.0,0.1896881223047584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691480000720561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684578386189916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256634275318925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470668531596666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189820386003364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531486638843034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097912493531524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Annaniks,2019/02/20,"Dae do their best to balance ed w/ recovery Hey guys so my first official post on this sub, but I've commented a few times and lurked it for forever,
I was diagnosed anorexic and went through recovery last year after like 7 years.
Lately my life has spiraled out of control (not necessarily in a negative way just, things are crazy) and it seems the only thing that makes me feel normal is counting calories.
Im trying to keep myself to a reasonable amount of calories and not restrict too much but it ofcourse still feels like a crazy amount (TRIGGER WARNING NUMBERS), I'm 5'8 and have a bmi of like 21.5 and would love to lose like 15 pounds but staying at 1200 cals feels so high.
Does anyone else try their best to not completley give in to their ED tendencies without indulging them too much? I really don't want to fall back into it completely because it makes me so miserable, but I need to do it a little bit otherwise I feel like a disgusting cow",5.085492723492719,6.338719362162162,5.523243243243249,80.81022869022874,68.8918918918919,9.151767151767153,31.52806652806653,9.466822959209583,2.876060291060292,762,32,144,16,13,244,125,185,0.13,0.7140000000000001,0.155,0.6487,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,4,5,8,11,1,1,8,0,9,3,0,5,0,33,23,13,0,4,9,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,8,0,3,6,0,0,2,6,3,0,1,2,4,13,8,21,20,8,22,0,2,0,1,9,8,0,1,14,89,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933115595360038,0.13673561289076186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261505089471283,0.0,0.08135007025631963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28009573395938714,0.0,0.1456931750518184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13992011090126594,0.0,0.14967587003041113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544925541203098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678326547381195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148060992740827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699059456156035,0.19067385607283824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351276540308353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280176973521822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213678780004226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14099757930906362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414923484874395,0.0,0.0,0.11861676708463048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877981392039276,0.15053776222075355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09425990045636418,0.3259854028370455,0.13375226914499475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492967614783032,0.0,0.0,0.1204441149064674,0.0,0.17815823619495824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620266548916146,0.09895171382655192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13075296948985946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10149497415810894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780850778350014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854916856937934,0.1372091446650304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148815006336974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422402741936778,0.1065735898477108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17731691215464776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781594886469824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18120800098790155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871245034017442,0.10592664437491103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370977423178725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864133653015528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479927125586113,0.0,0.0,0.17187524843319588
EDAnonymous,sorrywhatshappening,2019/02/20,"I’m saving myself I’m a relatively serial dater.. the last three were shitty, physically and/or emotionally abusive men. My last bf talked about my weight all the time, often comparing me to other women/telling me his “type” was tall thin blondes (I’m literally the exact opposite) and I think it ruined my ability to be with anyone until I feel good about myself... which will probably be never. I’ve lost about 15 lbs so far through restrict/binge cycles but I still haven’t been interested in pursuing a relationship (or even just casual/hook up sex) with someone because I don’t want to burden anyone with myself.. Fuck that sounds terrible actually typing it out.  And because I’m so disgusted with myself I have absolutely no sex drive. 

What really scares me is when I finally get to my goal weight and if I feel ready to pursue a relationship I will feel ultimately stuck in the act of maintaining this kind of unhealthy, restrictive behavior.. is anyone in this same boat?",6.007743589743591,7.672354577777781,7.116666666666671,68.70115384615386,67.1111111111111,10.871794871794872,30.512820512820515,10.891193690592663,3.820076923076924,784,30,130,24,13,264,121,180,0.205,0.727,0.068,-0.9845,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,10,11,2,1,7,0,12,5,0,0,3,24,25,10,0,2,4,0,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,8,8,2,1,4,0,0,2,4,7,0,1,5,8,20,4,21,16,2,18,0,2,1,3,6,8,1,3,8,86,28,3,0.0,0.1947263744394395,0.16038065609674554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447493668345815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20037092476196186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18487020421131872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855078832517973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24929897302800255,0.0,0.0,0.1800360040115249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519377556421351,0.08586542989780048,0.0,0.0,0.13784792000694696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114391505226662,0.0,0.26793230592164113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940605665011453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267558748877169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17719573150215584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528600693245026,0.0,0.0,0.3528980675041292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454175288700604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925214838091152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124911069962444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209728639542426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530803217828152,0.0,0.0,0.09583306803621268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693714102057296,0.0,0.0,0.4002649626701443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,acw50616,2019/02/20,Drop your peach usernames!! I just made an account and I want to add all you lovely folks 💕 drop your username below!! Mine is: @doublezero,1.5657692307692308,4.297451346153848,1.9219230769230795,92.86057692307695,93.23076923076924,4.138461538461539,21.884615384615387,5.985473137389443,0.43603076923076944,109,4,20,1,4,33,23,26,0.14300000000000002,0.645,0.213,0.47100000000000003,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,1,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,13,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6291630375946993,0.6596160948101701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4111696481891525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tryingwithmarkers,2019/01/14,"MEDS TALK! Share your experiences with meds! Comment under each one your experience! If you don't see one you'd like to comment on, please comment it yourself then reply to your own comment.

**Reminder that our brain chemistries are all different and just because something didn't work for someone else does not mean it won't work for you.**",3.260161290322582,6.36663041935484,2.848629032258067,88.44294354838709,83.51612903225806,5.035483870967743,28.717741935483872,6.6274283507984215,1.544993548387097,274,13,48,3,8,81,47,62,0.0,0.875,0.125,0.7829999999999999,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,6,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,8,7,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,7,2,7,4,3,3,0,0,1,0,13,2,0,1,2,31,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962897984092828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23738683681924155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22217315608350666,0.0,0.0,0.1860907497456835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17764112177655764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41602344760661103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388965880338018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23163732129968265,0.4724106503286823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881932054491197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334249665116255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945388226163735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801769788378192,0.16370774485048267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709193736120791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096223034877125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwmeawaypllzzz,2019/01/14,"An unexpected ED perk So there's this guy who I've had en enormous crush on for months now. I've of course never even made the slightest of hints that I'm interested because any kind of rejection would send me spiraling down a hole of self hatred. Anyway, today I found out he just started dating someone else. He posted a picture with her today. I thought I would be heartbroken but instead I just literally don't give a single shit. Wanna guess why? I'm much skinnier than her. That's literally it. She's a very pretty girl who is by no means overweight but I'm still much thinner than her and that's all that matters to me. Like I'm just sitting here still in shock over how little of a shit I give.  I was seriously obsessed with this guy but now I really don't care. It doesn't make any logical sense. But I'm very inexplicably happy about all of this. Perks of my ED I guess? You guys got any similarly irrational ED perks?",1.3570357833655713,3.8496732819149,3.2459187620889765,87.01136363636364,84.79787234042553,6.1841392649903275,22.375241779497102,7.520522993642371,1.076512765957446,739,26,150,13,22,247,118,188,0.152,0.725,0.12300000000000001,-0.4151,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,15,11,2,1,7,0,9,3,2,3,3,27,26,7,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,5,11,4,1,0,4,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,6,0,16,5,21,17,5,20,0,1,0,0,17,7,2,2,11,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713980701666077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08109480488710492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13563454262162214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11113079905491932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878660914504399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586224027385652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25523199073242786,0.0,0.0,0.10639749206930244,0.0,0.29309852530632696,0.3951664820186475,0.0,0.14161457049378984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13853189942868965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06499250106562966,0.1333325728588204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587767967341285,0.08879960003561603,0.0,0.0,0.1449103695672105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618452286815612,0.0,0.19558700841979204,0.0,0.10260214104940918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740746220572324,0.13534092333962916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522342450305745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878093132391134,0.0,0.27310997149116484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127172100091438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416042365029163,0.0,0.21247835306318152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561219973712464,0.0,0.0,0.2521967298852843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195299401853655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004029214945534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900360827498056,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Brdbrnz,2019/01/14,Got a new scale And I swear it’s fucking with me. My old one died and so now I have to trust that this one is accurate but it seems to fluctuate based on what kind of flooring I put it on. So now I’ve literally been weighing myself in 3 different areas of my house and I feel like I can’t trust any of the readings. It also has additional readings like body fat and bmi which I don’t trust either but I can fixate on them still. I want to throw it off my balcony!! ,1.0624972497249736,2.637023148514853,3.2737953795379537,91.57909790979099,79.89108910891089,6.469086908690867,22.113311331133108,7.3871296695380915,0.619870407040704,362,11,85,5,9,124,69,101,0.033,0.775,0.192,0.953,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,6,7,1,0,2,0,7,4,2,0,0,12,12,9,1,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,6,2,0,2,2,0,2,2,1,0,2,2,1,14,6,12,10,1,14,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,1,7,59,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520627112493953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148988778632191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433597070360957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273809304430736,0.22890252003484185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107785357801308,0.15651800881321015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202545263969432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522636454123175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528005559187876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22814862115424275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407270909646134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115985805680978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298982014985988,0.0,0.2969222391539842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202460602101708,0.0,0.0,0.4382987710558064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945139552907828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496563418392658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922501542473158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Amoosedcow,2019/01/14,"I hate ordering take away Yesterday I was reminded why I try not to eat out, since I tend to be anal about my food. I ordered a small falafel kebab which comes with hummus 99 percent of the time. The guy at the counter asked what sauce I wanted so I said that just the hummus that’s on it is fine.
He DOUBLED the amount and I just freaked out internally. Like my mind was going haywire over the amount of hummus on a damn kid-sized kebab. 
Then I only ate half bc I estimated it to be at least 1/2 cup of the stuff which it most likely wasn’t that much (maybe!).
Fuck ordering out, guys.",1.3617493112947656,3.423697619834712,2.775557851239672,93.12273071625349,81.06611570247934,6.0168044077135,20.82713498622589,7.1686216300943375,0.4073796143250696,456,13,102,6,12,148,82,121,0.106,0.857,0.037000000000000005,-0.8439,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,9,0,6,5,1,0,0,13,16,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,10,6,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,5,1,12,3,17,9,7,18,0,0,0,1,5,10,2,1,5,65,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205913671113338,0.0,0.2069418260616281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18973476698663644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253813007406295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663396595432048,0.0,0.0,0.20362712142934672,0.0,0.0,0.12517901871821213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4361847024744353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21746147050921696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521613823798452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212811016736589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240013930178876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191668250742364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675179026328317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095180083819659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18220161712137514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521453755447094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656083528224718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843556691675312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954230255033815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299152465572943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19875068420029995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goldmetalflowers,2019/01/14,"My long-awaited tattoo is coming up and I’m not sure if I want to get it because of my weight and I don’t know what to do Well not that long awaited, I booked it in August and this was the first slot she had available- she’s an incredible watercolour artist. 


But now it’s coming up in 2 weeks and I’m shoved into these feelings of panic because I’m still well in the overweight category and I’m fasting but obviously I’m just fucking fat and still have 60lbs to my GW and will losing 60lbs fuck it up?? It’s going to be on my arm, it’s long and narrow. Will I even lose 60lbs or will I be stuck in this binge cycle forever? 


Do I just cancel and try to pretend I never wanted it??? I haven’t done anything to deserve getting it and if i were paying I would have only booked it when I got to my GW, but also my boyfriend is paying so how could I even explain waiting to be at an unhealthy weight or why I don‘t want it? Do I suck it up and get it? The only solution I can come up with is to kill myself which is really fucking unhelpful of my brain so I thought I’d ask you guys for advice because hopefully you won’t just tell me to kill myself ha ha haaa 😐",1.0275575957041383,2.7116962629482124,3.286804087995844,90.93515329984407,80.39442231075697,5.7994803395115175,22.06842196431665,6.7026698264267655,0.44567680582019703,906,28,203,9,23,311,128,251,0.185,0.7509999999999999,0.064,-0.987,0,0,0,0,0,2,15.0,0,2,0,3,15,15,6,1,5,2,26,9,3,1,3,43,54,23,2,8,12,0,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,18,16,4,1,4,4,2,4,7,9,2,1,7,3,30,6,27,38,0,28,0,2,0,3,8,13,4,5,11,143,48,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405678271773295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09334040955085364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605006708011132,0.0,0.1091168217128614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134530687032555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302973785928783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30163011465057216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931908909804265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944440317944957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541840391310492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05901680249668559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928140621529312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237154315899617,0.18294310443477255,0.0,0.06633428753813972,0.0,0.09335111423450423,0.0,0.0,0.1155704916444897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592863518945355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582653002129494,0.0,0.06414589371242613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098788140045859,0.0,0.2611581590902287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002114620868534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775406267730337,0.0,0.13694499033395074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747733943865762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642442245011487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000659135625042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201784287928556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266211383813344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924476639986952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20653226256995924,0.0,0.09362520965467074,0.2842654098570283,0.209889398109882,0.0,0.10532104476567987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291406631708438,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Kaetzchen156,2019/03/27,"Does anyone else feel like they're eating way more calories than they actually are? Today I had a bag of baked lay's (130), an egg and cheese subway sandwich (around 360, but i had whole wheat bread and cheese that added \~20 calories, but egg white that subtracted \~40), and a mini hershey's piece (38). But I feel like I ate WAY more than 528 calories. i feel like i need to double the caloric value of everything i eat just in case. Am I alone in this feeling??",6.251630434782609,5.663215684782614,5.951217391304351,85.16769565217396,66.06521739130434,8.664347826086956,29.269565217391303,7.554174236665415,1.5409365217391304,361,10,76,3,5,112,63,92,0.027999999999999997,0.8190000000000001,0.153,0.879,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,4,8,0,0,0,13,10,6,0,1,4,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,9,3,8,7,5,6,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,4,40,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.18828279365448453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998289106284744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13490898357691006,0.19769107542073486,0.0,0.17175858718944778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884415738208072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948540613751274,0.161177627387501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17340312304636285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39022750198828415,0.41351172746530906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28278399531423465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14306346611196188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288571171754409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30629551145414435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21541197612721252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ceru1eus,2019/03/27,"(re)^?lapse feels Rant disclaimer.

How many times? I don't know. Every time, I swear I'm too old.

I've had a great year on paper. I feel guilty that I'm struggling despite that.

With my partner, I hinted at and then discussed frankly my recent temptations to fall into old habits. They know I don't have a normal relationship with food, even in ""recovery"" mode, which I have maintained throughout our relationship. Mostly. They don't know details. I discussed that for health reasons I should gain a bit more despite my reluctance. They asked if I could compromise and gain muscle weight, and I said probably not.

Later that night, they felt my arm and commented on its size, which was extremely weird considering that they hardly ever make remarks about my body. They clarified that they meant that it felt strong, and I tried to laugh it off.

But fuck.

I don't blame them. They are a wonderful person and didn't mean harm, but I do wish they had been more careful. My disordered thoughts were looking for provocation. I would have found something else to latch onto sooner or later. 

So here I am.",3.877118226600985,6.541484039408871,3.7143128078817753,86.51107512315274,75.60098522167488,6.818620689655173,25.913546798029557,7.908726449838941,1.6398632512315268,872,32,159,14,20,264,129,203,0.053,0.818,0.129,0.9293,0,0,1,0,0,0,35.0,1,0,10,3,7,8,1,1,4,0,19,6,2,4,1,37,40,13,0,6,5,0,6,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,12,9,2,0,13,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,12,8,32,4,15,25,4,19,0,0,1,1,20,7,1,4,11,103,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306923165935303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262327629385947,0.15528413163483468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14253344123385175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161737701357104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16022069055710172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678334228289886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233530146621392,0.12645535064463154,0.1177858966531879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141372201190599,0.0,0.2684561255154197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904437145056994,0.15328135923538275,0.0,0.1292410556180386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412785685569752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125231604389993,0.0,0.0,0.1485988026251566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304880764755048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173951630156771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331629191668996,0.14173329266711446,0.0,0.15228107269475982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119101098118413,0.13697241879446798,0.0,0.0,0.29338909895075704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220662754521638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072595546487266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437356910425414,0.13803372083443302,0.30018160118952897,0.0,0.0,0.13297997037035073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762337802213956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461472877875901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109840456114721,0.16303474832532935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491370749384076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023637766588942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076087202416214,0.0,0.1516050348236033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930853222324118,0.0,0.0,0.09002536845108035
EDAnonymous,takayl,2019/03/27,"dealing w comorbid mental illnesses? Hi, so I've been in therapy for a while but I have so many issues that I honestly don't feel like I've made progress beyond realizing how fucked up I am in all of these different ways. My therapist \~gently\~ pointed out to me that I most likely have severe social anxiety disorder and body dysmorphic disorder (alongside the standard BED/former but sometimes still non-purging exercise bulimic) and I feel like these would actually be pretty common in the ED community idk?? She hasn't given me many solutions and instead leaves me with 'homework' to think about how to solve these problems. I guess I'm just turning here to ask if anyone has had success with treating any of these or has learned anything really useful in therapy in general?? All of this is destroying my life and i dont know how to fix it",8.775506329113924,8.081222215189875,9.140348101265824,64.70773734177217,61.0253164556962,13.216455696202528,41.901898734177216,12.38480682065935,5.554162025316456,682,35,112,21,8,228,111,158,0.201,0.6609999999999999,0.138,-0.8978,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,11,9,2,0,3,0,13,5,1,5,2,31,25,14,0,3,5,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,8,7,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,2,13,6,20,19,3,13,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,4,6,78,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.14142855599761178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098555824506981,0.0,0.11086931487923707,0.0,0.0,0.1013368368296115,0.0,0.11926317111819175,0.0,0.13548786143959796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609820336733573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14941412333288034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141862897911734,0.33219946340796463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985421730500908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655962726481386,0.20707279501711284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13398334877133106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596542311756982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126689414027494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964848886543381,0.0,0.0,0.15345753754712088,0.0,0.0,0.10236673997969573,0.21241310127318186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371341199989703,0.0,0.2938679368272917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460530619894436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700354730144784,0.0,0.0,0.14744360136110968,0.0,0.1386762623333571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284441334513996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372708007639988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773556704230362,0.0,0.0,0.14333722832399085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157394704198074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314749740247321,0.1682722619711465,0.0,0.09286383587893686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15763975051290116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517102421244405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503688428641985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295249946084756,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FrankyP_,2019/03/27,"Lost Love for any Food Hey!  
I'm recovering from my ED and for now I've been binge free for about two weeks (as well as gym free for that matter) and I honestly feel really good. I haven't been counting calories for a while (just roughly going through some numbers at times because I still don't fully trust my judgement when it comes to portion sizes). My biggest problem now is that I don't long for any food. For example, today I went to the store and didn't find anything at all that I wanted to eat and ended up buying some natural yoghurt and rice cakes (probably the most bland things you can get). Nothing in that store made me go:' Oh i really want to cook that' or 'I want to try that'. Not even when I passed by stuff I binged on. Has anyone else had anything similar going on. Is it just me not being used to do normal grocery shopping and cooking?

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I also don't know if thats the right place to ask for that. It was the only place that I could find to get some answers from people who go/went through the same! :)",3.2547857142857133,4.568353752380951,4.082083333333333,89.17312500000001,73.38095238095238,6.773809523809526,25.505952380952376,7.1686216300943375,1.0153095238095236,808,26,170,8,16,259,128,210,0.037000000000000005,0.83,0.133,0.9609,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,1,11,9,0,0,6,0,16,6,0,2,1,33,34,14,0,7,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,15,7,5,0,5,4,6,6,7,2,1,1,8,2,18,9,30,24,7,27,0,1,0,1,5,10,0,6,11,113,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122394262424587,0.0,0.1371466163463319,0.15380545875888407,0.17215401575628478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08850589750289838,0.12969355779372965,0.20832491577777176,0.0,0.11833283090947973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771604398829208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903526695476838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010617957120242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952033348004338,0.10573921907273212,0.0,0.11211005228384592,0.0,0.0,0.08360321325820168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06400136295241184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313789959476931,0.0,0.3061159147599012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322629887449248,0.0,0.28774753177497603,0.10616716130164716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06956365732668048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11201706184993802,0.0,0.0,0.13817424125010566,0.0,0.11424109233353885,0.11977064558652616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401902801125025,0.12145447899598355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09626785603589554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775286762148245,0.0,0.26449299338183285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647190184229602,0.12111752689496495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621775138898065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809645239096227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010849166649924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449008991370786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08409243469258701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380833016355688,0.0,0.11998062417236922,0.0,0.0,0.08593778113821014,0.0,0.12364777816990427,0.0,0.0,0.10932227791860764,0.0,0.0,0.2239759820750223,0.0,0.10153279695118617,0.0,0.11380833067877776,0.2346771322376329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380545875888407,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlepooh109,2019/03/27,"#Ana.mia.support on kik This group is to help with the shower thoughts of Ana, Mia, EDNOS, and others. This is a support group for you to lean on. In the case that reddit may not work for you this may be of help. Stay safe everyone 💗


#ana.mia.support on the public group chats of kik",2.078969696969697,4.597803109090911,2.7886363636363645,91.39628787878787,81.54545454545455,5.848484848484849,18.25757575757576,7.1686216300943375,0.15730303030303006,221,5,46,3,6,69,37,55,0.036000000000000004,0.784,0.18,0.8316,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,12,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,2,0,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23455570901849435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32906477582912763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616368027050964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8356643697959404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19487460142979188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870402042692154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_ME_UR_PRAXIS,2019/03/27,"got my makeup done and felt pretty for once so i’m getting married in june and decided to get color matched at mac and the girl went above and beyond and i felt great about my face for the rest of the day :) 

i’ve been feeling insecure bc i’m getting a big bollywood wedding instead of a more casual thing and every time i look at indian bridal makeup i’m blown away by how gorgeous these women are and feel kind of homely in comparison. i’ve been using nuface for about a week now and i think it’s helping, but whenever i look in the mirror all i see is a face that’s somehow chubby and saggy at the same time (schrodinger’s cheekbones?)  

but yesterday i actually thought i looked nice! no contouring or any magic like that, just some color correction, but it was the first time in my life i actually liked how i looked with makeup. i felt like a princess all day long 💕 ",3.80457167832168,5.065460488636365,5.177500000000002,82.05596153846156,71.95454545454545,8.369930069930069,27.174825174825173,8.841846274778883,2.041130769230769,690,24,137,13,13,231,107,176,0.027000000000000003,0.812,0.161,0.9640000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,10,9,0,1,11,0,6,3,2,3,3,32,27,16,0,0,5,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,10,0,0,8,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,10,12,13,8,20,17,6,22,0,0,7,0,4,10,0,3,14,84,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.2766274612255446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638522902976132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13316548388553304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281577783256933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450449701915234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941855512010315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14333179506234994,0.0,0.4082658900571117,0.0,0.0,0.12056042997205317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221533736463233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133590961239676,0.1562642599195031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500254342528082,0.0,0.14217260026744705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475960626341068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001122128228364,0.20773491082393936,0.0,0.0,0.12543175498074965,0.4760896217209957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15094403992858146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419630049522592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129451109502416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416299168983336,0.09081860087466967,0.0,0.11252242199530696,0.2479419179111061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12241425503727225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369193852586695,0.0,0.0,0.13139054026363056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jello_pacccc,2019/03/27,"Munchies Remember when having the munchies used to almost be ""cute""? Like just an innocent thing that happened when smoking? Now I'm in my 20's and its just a masking my binge eating disorder behind being a stoner lol :(",5.506991869918702,7.1311980731707285,5.857073170731707,77.41211382113823,68.26829268292684,8.393495934959349,33.178861788617894,8.841846274778883,3.043725203252032,175,8,29,3,3,56,36,41,0.121,0.711,0.168,0.2951,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,1,0,6,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824730837867239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43775389251358143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39083565183904345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377618317037921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186604078062633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326809245019157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25375414535103485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32988676451664256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smmcg1123,2019/03/27,"Need Advice: how do I keep my daughter from developing an ED? What food decisions and rules have you made? The tl;dr is in the title. I’m looking for books, tips, resources, etc on how to teach the best eating habits to my tween daughter. 

She has always been a fantastic eater. Loves her fruits and veggies, eats a balanced diet without nagging, etc. it’s just the two of us, so I’ve always had a “eat when you’re hungry” policy, rather than serving meals at set times. This means we don’t always eat at the same time, but we do always have healthy dinner and meal options available. I always kept a variety of snacks easily accessible, too. Sometimes she chooses an apple or carrots, sometimes she chooses Pringle’s or Chex mix. 

Lately, though, I’ve noticed she spends a lot of time snacking on the weekends. Constantly getting snacks while she plays, reads, etc. I don’t know if I should cut her off or let her go. What do I do?! I’m terrified of accidentally teaching her the wrong habits. I also don’t want to put ideas into her head about diets and watching what she eats at this age. I keep my own food issues hidden and I muscle through recovery. I mention healthy choices if it comes up, we participate in activities together like walking and jumping on the trampoline. She’s a somewhat active kid at a healthy weight right now. 

How do i keep it this way?? I don’t want to eff up her relationship with food!!",3.5442034313725483,5.691619327205885,4.404264705882351,83.67210784313727,74.47794117647058,6.886274509803924,28.245098039215684,7.793537801064563,1.8510362745098043,1115,46,208,16,24,359,162,272,0.055999999999999994,0.813,0.131,0.9503,0,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,4,1,0,1,12,7,2,0,17,0,17,20,1,4,0,43,34,20,0,7,9,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,12,18,4,6,4,1,5,5,3,0,1,4,4,32,4,28,28,8,31,0,0,2,1,24,14,0,8,11,136,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214718157895983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541029531599913,0.3923185884949152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896022038512524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812296129527403,0.0,0.10190293366874684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4824533773305753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31550250500673416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3420775401724283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049266955929863215,0.0,0.05359188198228521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09677723374964613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645127285088808,0.0,0.09842289816094872,0.0,0.2514499149159077,0.0,0.0,0.05182386504879554,0.0,0.10637255994630322,0.0,0.0,0.09642637364301812,0.0,0.046069373283300886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918680018338001,0.0,0.0,0.08016902006283813,0.08510787355985651,0.08922730650193436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271846441901857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06992097501335931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10735920947999383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479581030972664,0.0,0.0,0.09432379203592636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124105568535208,0.0,0.08053021040361827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865268075501343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264757501767397,0.0,0.16495824496016234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211571121639164,0.0,0.1134292124812156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123912988758797,0.07484958034753869,0.0,0.11482989312235126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090017069311801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10310035897298403,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jl962019,2019/03/27,"DAE feel like they project their disorder :( My two bffs/roomies were all about healthy eating and stuff the last few days when they normally eat large portions/fast food and stuff. They keep asking for my advice because I “eat healthy” (lmao) 

And I feel so guilty like my one friend was like so I’ve eaten a granola bar and a sandwich today and then I went to the gym and I’ll probably eat a salad later, will that make me loose weight? And I was like uhhhh.... like part of me wanted to explain CICO and every detail of weight loss to her and another part just wanted to say yes or eat more because I don’t want anyone to start restricting :(",3.611653543307085,5.203700755905516,4.043314960629922,88.69410629921259,72.93700787401575,6.969763779527558,24.511023622047247,7.554174236665415,1.0682037795275592,504,15,102,6,10,158,84,127,0.134,0.6890000000000001,0.177,0.6184,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,4,1,5,7,0,0,5,1,5,12,0,1,1,22,17,14,0,4,2,0,4,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,9,12,2,3,2,0,1,1,1,0,2,5,5,15,6,9,11,5,8,0,1,0,0,9,0,0,1,12,59,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11646372926585832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12497321037705245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333515340165035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11141951999266612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530505368800875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07686283273592312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659343487105566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6097670982229663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041637036567484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052447464033182,0.08514397961263931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441159145037057,0.0,0.09208007984529926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10593485448275518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09714961924477486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29113267088459804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955522347338817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1167735147107305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076112540901527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581259991943983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849885935194624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477868292189437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435796493276279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728708255227866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11297104489904433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11642395424807442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089072424689026,0.0,0.0,0.2902642784091959,0.0,0.11048334273002584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dk64expansionpak,2019/06/09,went 2 a real restaurant for the first time in my life and couldn't even finish the meal salad i eat the proportions of a child... the bowl was still full looking i felt so bad shouldn't have gone lol,1.5385714285714265,3.50079928571429,2.2716666666666683,97.47750000000002,79.95238095238095,5.152380952380953,17.642857142857142,5.985473137389443,-0.5351142857142852,158,3,36,1,4,49,36,42,0.171,0.8290000000000001,0.0,-0.7797,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,1,4,4,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,4,2,3,0,3,2,1,8,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922470961028637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35815173519608184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311809666627101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360683596505582,0.0,0.0,0.2977217562834317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24722526150532725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939236330692135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398392595528931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795216575882015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409599643345785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244665137258124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,its_freaking_bats,2019/06/09,ED Food Sub? So I went through some personal stuff this new year and haven't been frequenting this account as much. I've started back on my shit again. I am wondering if there is a ED food sub that people post pics of their food and food advice? I know we had one before Reddit shut it all down but I don't know what's out there now.,1.8672300469483567,3.3963408169014087,2.819366197183101,95.92557511737093,77.45070422535211,6.423474178403758,20.284037558685448,7.1686216300943375,0.1617023474178403,262,6,62,3,6,83,57,71,0.042,0.958,0.0,-0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,0,6,1,1,0,1,0,6,5,1,0,1,11,11,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,4,4,0,3,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,7,0,6,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,3,7,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16223279532958385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765911077225822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412707683400771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8030080372248393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248046977855545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204378202371345,0.0,0.0,0.16034312362609718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11249942975086016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150973448160107,0.14496223598141306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15900124114845166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041711562779555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11750979077886267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900531481668357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15390217745417006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800415778449964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691141887779973
EDAnonymous,jessi_nadine,2019/06/09,Brushing teeth is a trigger I'm several years recovered from bulimic behaviour but had an issue yesterday. I was brushing my teeth (my tongue tbf) and I threw up in the sink a bit and had a big cry. Is this an issue for anyone else?,1.5087234042553206,3.820397744680857,3.8930212765957455,83.89400000000002,82.19148936170214,8.01531914893617,26.421276595744683,8.841846274778883,2.4581693617021267,182,8,36,5,5,63,35,47,0.094,0.9059999999999999,0.0,-0.631,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,5,2,2,1,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,4,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139225502043368,0.313474891629675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340106596592268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360641625992439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25557622756057746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6386502829249822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456286539350372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19701734514278724
EDAnonymous,ethereal1903,2019/06/09,the literal love of my life broke up with me because of my body the other night lmao my greatest fear finally came true i’ve always sheltered myself to avoid this happening but .... it really happened to me. i can’t believe it.,2.1311363636363647,4.757308022727276,3.9329090909090887,82.53936363636366,82.4090909090909,7.156363636363636,26.981818181818184,8.238735603445708,2.335450909090909,179,8,32,4,5,60,36,44,0.11199999999999999,0.698,0.19,0.6059,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,1,3,1,0,1,5,5,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,6,4,1,4,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,22,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23012361271721454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685910010081237,0.0,0.0,0.3115932049942892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072005369615077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163158266658734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31121167287522755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029626196501701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48912970925218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953455101242524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496100351682409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595368154726631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771741416273558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,extrapillow,2019/06/09,"Okay so can you guys recommend any ED movies or tv shows? I mean, as long as they can be found on Youtube, Netflix or HBO. I'd say some of my own but the only ones this bitch knows are THIN and To the Bone 🤷‍♀️",-1.2638000000000034,0.17358821999999918,1.054000000000002,105.317,86.8,4.800000000000002,16.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.1115999999999997,161,3,47,1,5,54,45,50,0.121,0.816,0.062,-0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,4,1,1,0,0,8,7,7,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,4,1,5,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,3,1,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26496748981407603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4272184209743506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858032989507347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21413508808567167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448177443243013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4244304705116294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640290802464744,0.2963375794814461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30985611396701224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,oldlesshotradio,2019/06/09,"You ever not hate yourself for a minute... And then realize how shit you are and hate yourself even more for having confidence for that short amount of time when you clearly are the fucking worst?

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EDAnonymous,cigs4breakfast,2019/01/08,"I feel like I’m completely losing control After a relapse a few months ago, I’ve been doing really well with not restricting. One of the ways I counteract restricting is by exclusively eating things I really like, but now I’m spiraling in the other direction. Im about to have Taco Bell for the third time this week (it is TUESDAY) and I’m disgusted with myself but I’m doing it anyway and I just feel like I have absolutely no control over myself and I don’t deserve to get better. ",3.5571875000000013,5.436738677083337,5.68375,75.68625,73.6875,9.383333333333336,26.583333333333336,9.827888789773867,2.855670833333333,387,14,70,11,8,135,63,96,0.102,0.738,0.161,0.4008,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,4,5,7,1,0,5,0,8,1,0,2,0,15,15,5,0,0,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,4,2,0,0,0,3,2,1,2,1,2,8,5,11,14,1,10,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,10,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18792118554884527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874927580716008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22227320800421613,0.0,0.4755418728328151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21692428184329635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143825501743827,0.3028992001139165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075887884569703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289914770278643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107108225590232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23716869508372074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692127548175959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14365361120059192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.271619442186644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084036470578135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361625842516415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16827212976515882,0.17004997184917614,0.0,0.19060937952327134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,number1wifey,2019/01/08,"Does anyone else eat really weird foods or food combos?? Does anyone else eat really weird foods that would gross anyone else out? My most shameful thing that I love is to make a Little tiny bowl with like a tbs of kewpie mayo and next to it some Korean chili sauce or ssam sauce, and I’ll sit and dip my finger in it, a little bit of each, as a meal. Or I’ll pour malt vinegar on chicken or chicken nuggets before dipping in some super fattening sauce when I binge cuz I love the tang. When I was younger I would spray I can’t believe it’s not butter right into my mouth. I feel like I’m always searching for weird but delicious good combos. :/ please tell me someone else eats horrifying foods like this!",5.988670212765957,5.747981581560289,6.0128280141844,83.34562500000001,66.51773049645391,8.752127659574468,26.84485815602837,8.07648339933343,1.4704815602836887,557,13,113,6,8,176,92,141,0.11,0.7140000000000001,0.17600000000000002,0.9031,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,2,12,0,1,5,0,5,12,2,2,0,21,10,12,0,2,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,7,8,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,4,11,7,12,7,5,12,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,7,6,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037852321584908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22784380087407424,0.333874622938399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242555589784172,0.12237481142833873,0.0,0.0,0.11858225972674515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19010394293662086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3334286855811421,0.3629441842064626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054920309296229416,0.07759641697659307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253632092682936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09110326822453108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15919518134985305,0.21772668916237392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960632035277812,0.0,0.0725030744556681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551602279615256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922947963386883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916639916472387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927588152075919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203131845695636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493654768875624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216069017504903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431761717006232,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,VanillaPeppermintTea,2019/01/08,Feeling like shit because someone eats less than I do I'm mostly recovered. I'm staying in a dorm abroad and the food here is super tasty and healthy. I was super worried about what the food choices would be like but they're great. It was going wonderfully until a new batch of students showed up yesterday.  One of the new students is a girl and she sits next to me now. She's so much thinner than me and her meals were TINY. It completely ruined my mood/meal. Ughhh.,2.009354838709676,4.473947838709684,3.009043010752688,90.05356451612906,81.36559139784947,5.440430107526883,24.35376344086021,6.742157984588678,0.8979169892473116,371,14,73,4,10,118,70,93,0.08199999999999999,0.6990000000000001,0.218,0.9187,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,1,0,6,0,8,5,1,0,0,9,13,7,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,4,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,1,8,5,9,8,3,11,0,1,0,0,4,2,1,2,8,46,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268129031874085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181150602794383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21286619847330845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518600796290806,0.14861637595608773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5031003960251514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822800629689235,0.0,0.0,0.2293533501211047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032654929503086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529256799987561,0.0,0.0,0.4018325359481421,0.22124182200324533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14096622956817076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2135393779073769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17626279094380393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221731856700788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255992092628309,0.0,0.2112641399515643,0.0,0.14777824739582804,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovemymom4118,2019/01/08,"Plasma donation gone wrong I tried to donate plasma today. They forced me to eat crackers and then told me my blood pressure of 86/60 was too low to donate.

So I ate the crackers for no reason and I can’t even get the money I needed.

I need to purge I’m not ok I’m not",-0.9780932203389838,1.1156446440677958,1.6862500000000011,96.10869703389831,94.08474576271186,3.6279661016949154,14.154661016949152,5.148860815047168,-1.039527118644068,210,4,47,1,8,72,42,59,0.244,0.7559999999999999,0.0,-0.9098,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,1,2,1,2,3,1,1,0,7,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,1,4,3,0,0,4,0,9,1,6,6,0,4,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35137529692187397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268068888716201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17940791879285575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092409859855083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3530637187240879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32549505016472025,0.32812535433223994,0.0,0.23314033057904615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375444767817031,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PunkRockSuperstar,2019/01/08,"Work Comments Are the fucking worst. A bunch of course workers were talking about food and someone said ""I never see Punk eat"". I just laughed and said i had food in my bag. This fucker. He says "" yeah, I bet you binge though"". 
Fuck you.",0.8337681159420285,3.3480981739130438,0.9956521739130472,101.5794202898551,89.0,3.066666666666667,20.71014492753623,3.1291,-0.6737855072463765,180,6,39,0,6,53,39,46,0.22399999999999998,0.68,0.096,-0.8399,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,2,3,5,3,0,2,1,3,6,0,0,1,5,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,4,7,1,3,4,2,2,0,0,1,3,8,1,3,1,1,23,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369086554264192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5599237418700032,0.0,0.0,0.4280836732031719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856694108941956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44046803785656535,0.18411857904066894,0.0,0.0,0.18449605690785692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961710271696364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186091637793821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22747288605792124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16855351250085546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,not-creative-enough-,2019/01/08,"Why does recovery seem like it has to come with weight gain? Like if your underweight I understand. But for those with a normal bmi, do you have to gain weight? Are you not allowed to maintain or is it just hard when trying to recover? What about those who are overweight already and want to lose weight while still recovering? ",3.805956284153005,6.447022737704923,3.4635245901639347,88.33878415300549,75.72131147540983,7.3453551912568305,24.92076502732241,8.344100000000001,1.644210928961748,261,9,50,5,6,78,48,61,0.092,0.7120000000000001,0.196,0.8156,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,1,0,14,10,6,0,3,5,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,4,2,9,10,0,4,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,3,5,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426065525677452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17505785593011086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778410406737369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204709645711045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985681186419224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22735356236869456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19911452270935512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18500577928814407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229344204374074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379744749530168,0.0,0.0,0.21156138676207445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986566761669723,0.0,0.0,0.7424093562422095,0.0,0.0,0.18337634790569315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,genrewhy,2019/01/08,"(24F) Relapsing when I thought I had recovered for good... Have felt like I’m not coping recently and have relapsed significantly over the past 5 months after nearly 4 years of recovery. Just need to vent because I feel like I have no one I can talk to about this..


I have been restricting to 400-500 calories a day and doing intense workouts daily - sometimes twice a day. I feel like a shell of a person, constantly thinking about food, calories and exercise all the time. It’s exhausting. Today I binged and it just came out of nowhere. No one was home and I felt out of control, my heart racing and like I couldn’t eat fast enough. I feel like a complete failure and full of anxiety. I was eating, whilst preparing my next snack... I just don’t know what to do anymore - I don’t enjoy feeling like this, I just hate myself immensely. I feel so safe and in control when I restrict, but this binge has me riddled with anxiety and worthlessness. 

Does anyone have any strategies to stop binging in its tracks? Stopping obsessive thoughts?  I feel like when I’m asleep is the only time I’m not having constant self loathing thoughts. 
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EDAnonymous,leorio403,2019/01/08,"just spent the whole day binging i feel disgusting. today was the worst day ive ever had in terms of my ed. this morning i went to the store to buy binge foods and ate everything, including an ice cream pie that was almost a year expired. purged that, then again. binge. purge. i was hoping i was done but nope, bought food from home and from a fast food place and ate it + purged in a park at night in freezing temps. then thought i was done but nope! purged some more because i was paranoid and then blood came out so how did i cope with that? i binged again. im too scared to purge but i feel so huge and disgusting. 

i dont know what to do. according to lose it, if my calories were correct (didnt count exactly how many calories so im hoping i didnt underestimate) i literally pushed my goal date back three weeks. i binged enough to gain at least a pound and a half of pure fat, probably more like two. i miss the days where i was losing 20 lbs a month and i could heavily restrict like it was nothing. i feel like im faking my ed especially since i only restricted, never used to binge and purge. im literally so paranoid now im scared im going to break my new loft bed because im convinced i gained 50lbs today. ughhggh fuck eds honestly ",0.7751432291666658,3.12590039453125,2.3036250000000003,93.74554166666668,86.0703125,5.757083333333334,20.252083333333328,7.1686216300943375,0.4464217708333327,975,30,216,15,30,316,142,256,0.177,0.693,0.129,-0.9085,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,5,15,17,3,2,11,0,19,8,2,3,5,36,36,21,0,4,5,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,8,11,6,2,5,0,4,4,6,10,0,3,22,5,25,7,19,13,8,36,0,3,1,1,0,9,1,5,25,123,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943427694000251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867634427936194,0.0,0.10888900572306097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021505170921174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07130932942040702,0.0,0.0,0.1727988921495434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18279684214063946,0.10467441506727304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922844191961384,0.0,0.0,0.0807889102697219,0.0,0.0,0.0802689527552769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547832517641173,0.06380537392203567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32399365832531685,0.0,0.0,0.08256862198604897,0.0,0.0,0.05075875455379788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0895884301727119,0.1774163364897812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6753151390204404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04908420359095568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090176671015186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998372695170786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09054957504877907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128895084208843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688838522978181,0.08625925321240079,0.0,0.08381439583476365,0.0,0.08569843224424363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792671959066751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933132934239492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629474458213956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883620483441498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738808089204442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090471108235853,0.0,0.0,0.16931695687563514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872460268838272,0.0,0.0,0.07713793599414302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164166848369187,0.0,0.0,0.08279423897164492,0.0,0.0997150076129424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05751477795694007
EDAnonymous,mightywidget,2019/01/08,Just a small question I'm on holidays with my brother and I'm trying to loose wieght. All we seem to do is eat though. Anyone have any ideas how to get out of eating? I'm thinking my best bet is to pretend iv got food poisoning. ,-0.14074829931972846,2.0557194489795947,2.0439795918367345,94.95399659863949,89.20408163265307,4.899319727891157,20.41156462585034,6.42735559955562,0.1990380952380945,179,6,40,2,6,60,40,49,0.138,0.737,0.125,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,5,0,1,1,12,11,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,8,10,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18298945426760144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815298397044092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823918515771623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5506895679650887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253829655872954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405876710102369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21521471022897434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037682406740725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.301440780939497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24496812683376004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17242108960773894,0.2643781526714097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18269347482096773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rizzie_,2019/01/08,"I HAVE GAINED SIX POUNDS IN THE TWO WEEKS I’VE BEEN HOME FOR WINTER BREAK!!! HA HA HA HA EVERYTHING IS FINE spoiler: everything is most certainly NOT fine

I need to get back in the gym. Thinking of starting stronglifts 5x5, anyone here ever done it?",2.1283687943262417,4.9423261276595785,2.2777659574468103,92.6841666666667,85.59574468085106,5.686524822695036,22.72695035460993,7.1686216300943375,0.9577120567375887,196,7,38,3,6,59,38,47,0.031,0.608,0.361,0.9643,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,0,2,6,9,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,7,5,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156339045731458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713336485241465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155906936810545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789569878252254,0.0,0.0,0.5543232406958036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16112138003373275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093409546128821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22866775052013805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21828048089890376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19760426860258565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012528424752429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473723680176193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mavienoire,2019/01/08,Battling Hair Loss? I’m starting to look like Gollum.... What do you all do to combat hair loss?,-0.16701754385965015,2.1185266842105257,1.1642105263157916,97.99614035087721,97.94736842105264,2.533333333333333,16.859649122807017,3.1291,-1.032382456140351,73,2,15,0,3,23,15,19,0.379,0.521,0.1,-0.7149,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,5,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064412999184419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6986156682661263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888477033781152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,petite-bby,2019/01/08,"I think my friend basically confirmed she had an ED today So I posted [this](https://www.reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/a8j4do/my_friend_might_have_an_ed/?st=JQN32G1G&sh=5a2014ef) around a month ago and tl;dr basically I have a friend who eats a lot and I have an ED myself. I’m in an ED discord and I mentioned how she sometimes makes me get plates for her and she doesn’t care that I don’t eat sometimes. There’s a lot more other shit too she does that might indicate she has an ED (read the post). The discord suggested that she could possibly be bulimic, so I started paying more attention. But then we got out for Christmas break.
Well, today, we returned from break and she flat out said “I didn’t eat for a few days” in English class and I YELLED “WHAT”
And she repeated it. I was kinda shocked in the moment honestly. I didn’t question her until we were on the way to lunch, but I asked “what do you mean by you didn’t eat for a few days?” She said “exactly what that means. 2 days specifically” and I ALMOST said “that’s the longest I went too” but I didn’t... she said “I’m trying to be skinny” and I kinda just went “uh huh” because honestly I’ve never really been confronted with shit like this that hits so close to home. God. I don’t know what to say.
She also proceeded to try and put her hands around her waist and make her fingers touch (like I see in thinspo gifs) which worries me more
I swear this shit sounds really cliche but it happened???? I’m kinda shocked
I think at lunch she found out I had an ED bc she saw this girl I follow on Instagram who has an ED and looks extremely skinny... today’s been a stressful day back lmao. 

What do I say to her? I know that it’s damn near impossible to “warn” people or just recommend her to not starve herself because we *never* fucking listen. I think the best bet would be to tell her about mine and be there for her.",2.0221091644204847,4.4968994555256065,2.84881334231806,91.15780222371971,81.3989218328841,5.974150943396228,21.673921832884087,7.268377926160553,0.7173702964959574,1482,46,302,21,40,466,183,371,0.098,0.792,0.11,0.6796,0,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,4,2,0,1,16,18,6,1,19,1,26,15,8,3,3,58,58,25,0,2,8,0,3,2,2,2,0,9,1,1,22,24,9,0,10,1,2,4,10,9,2,0,19,15,59,9,32,31,8,42,0,0,3,1,46,14,5,10,21,201,81,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07953094377286593,0.0,0.08984114232582081,0.0,0.0,0.07174867012798335,0.0,0.09721106568561072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973879422618611,0.08387564275925619,0.0,0.0,0.06898877513102028,0.0,0.10938437694806236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09415510413335412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147503319081728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163373857112383,0.0,0.0,0.2314466800950893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851415918611776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672218821281173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837282606953664,0.13863416182113275,0.08294425329196735,0.04687474773052233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717568985771595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793386778852427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999599685133032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861500694466263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766485405886494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534180288036163,0.0,0.0,0.15255266010745608,0.0,0.0,0.11977695657145022,0.0,0.0,0.1954617254519503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09517823564388876,0.0,0.0,0.0716132672840764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383944543408285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220022050643024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114528157596743,0.1718530045334988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019290131309764,0.10050639903695176,0.0,0.08974380237668106,0.0,0.11495324766641744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.341375247746497,0.14269713153445446,0.0,0.0,0.07149484380485419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762874031645997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746980473767032,0.0,0.06350394016294454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277341046537866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841881764967414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724659428676938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551308515253655,0.0,0.0,0.12182733354508488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121518125701012,0.0,0.0,0.08066862605816139,0.16634179336407262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111453069534586,0.0,0.06373417496002208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,porcelaindollx,2019/04/12,DAE not know if they want to be thin or fat? I don't know if that makes any sense...it's not that i think fat sometimes looks good on me. But when I'm thin then people notice me and look at me and I feel like if I'm thin and not PERFECT in all other ways then everyone will notice all my other flaws. Like sure she's thin but look at her bad skin and frizzy hair and thin lips and flat ass. And especially compare me to other thin people who look better. Vs being fat where people just wouldn't look at me or notice me at all? As if there would be less pressure to be perfect or less judging and comparison. That's totally not even true and I bet there'd just be even more judgment and pressure and shame but part of me still imagines it'd be better... But of course I freak out and stop eating the second i see the scale go up so that's not gonna happen.,1.8538768115942013,3.1975164891304364,3.1744347826086963,94.15172463768116,77.04347826086956,5.776231884057971,19.331884057971013,6.079149491110277,-0.2593937681159417,670,13,156,4,15,218,98,184,0.157,0.757,0.087,-0.9509,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,4,9,14,0,3,2,0,11,8,7,1,8,51,28,28,0,7,19,0,9,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,13,4,1,5,0,1,1,7,5,0,1,0,15,17,9,14,17,8,22,0,0,6,1,4,15,1,8,7,100,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927979795684594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11393901416204245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24137686234656444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963339986209214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026205759324967,0.0,0.0,0.1303940806531755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06899864804803019,0.09748757669730976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755378071555101,0.11445679058987528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067177772172945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999050293307936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333564492088512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.572963246468746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108860057185124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4660843554192709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777367852969206,0.0,0.2838140759309508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874153855132318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349631566875799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897771963260096,0.11408728517351074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861262824904274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743852925640071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048807736535872,0.10831618010434546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693779123944968,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hellirl,2019/04/12,"Honestly? Fuck the college dining hall. The dining hall at my college is the worst. There are two dining halls for students on campus, but only the main one is open on the weekends. OFC it's the shitty one. OK let me get out my list of grievances:
* The main dining hall is open until 8 or 9 pm, depending on the day of the week. But they stop making food at 7:30pm. I legit don't get hungry until later in the evening, and I get anxious sometimes eating around so many people, so I bring tupperware to take food back to my dorm. Sounds like a good solution, right? Tupperware is banned at the dining hall though, so I have to be kinda sneaky. If some of the higher up dining hall staff see you putting your food in tupperware, they will SCREAM at you. I've seen it happen before. I would probably have a panic attack if that happened (or get all confrontational and tell them they're yelling at the kid with an eating disorder... which would be a nightmare for me actually)
* Along with the fact the dining hall stops making food at 7:30, they actually put the vegetarian and vegan food away way before everything else. I'm a vegetarian, so often I have nothing to eat for dinner if I can't make it to the dining hall in time. It definitely fuels my ED though :(. 
* I'm forced to be on a dining plan, and there is no kitchen in my dorm. So I'm wasting so much money when I don't go for days at a time. Which makes me feel really fucking guilty.
* The online calorie counts are absolutely messed up, if present at all. The dining hall posts calorie counts online only. The dining hall listed garlic button mushrooms as having 1700 calories, yet they also said that the mushrooms had 1800 calories from fat. Fuck me I guess! Sometimes food is listed with 0 calories and no nutrition info. I tried contacting the dietitian to see if he could fix the counts and he just said ""we're working on it!"", but jack shit changed.
Legit my eating disorder has never been worse than at college. I would keep food in my dorm but it causes me to overeat when I'm stressed. I'm honestly either terrified to go to the dining hall, or just too lazy as it is, in fact, shit. I only really go if my friends invite me because I have to hide my disorder haha launch me out of a cannon pls.
Thanks for letting me rant. What's your dining hall like? I know a lot of people have it a lot worse. Dining hall more like ~diNinG hELl~ amrite^uptop",3.078941686844232,5.14812011652543,4.267857142857146,84.48045197740115,75.58898305084746,6.7833736884584335,23.526230831315576,7.7094869923839395,1.2036705407586763,1893,58,361,27,42,619,223,472,0.191,0.7140000000000001,0.095,-0.9951,0,0,0,0,1,0,67.0,0,4,5,2,21,23,8,2,34,2,31,35,3,7,5,60,64,34,0,10,16,0,1,3,1,4,1,5,4,1,13,15,30,4,3,1,1,6,6,13,0,3,5,9,40,10,57,49,11,67,1,0,3,3,17,42,6,16,20,231,53,10,0.0,0.0,0.1324528595404243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054271599111249284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666810916421077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0604142194363595,0.0,0.07720621081069923,0.0637613816595819,0.052183979722664905,0.0,0.041369861240422384,0.0,0.1154961971122536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971602760406582,0.07179214910623427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05418466343191215,0.0,0.0,0.0875345941279769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23333743611291524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777712637207842,0.0566924816310931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04482417851677911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060992667080558165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034314572448740706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5744382131194695,0.0,0.052432314355511066,0.18822023830743698,0.14182660181625606,0.0,0.11570769438199878,0.056921924473254136,0.0,0.0,0.07476092542904232,0.0,0.12002555343600918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06032151145803656,0.0,0.0,0.03729681758356671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13879307784636485,0.0,0.09946620210121417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539275638054583,0.0,0.0,0.18120160159668094,0.06880443677986224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04988856813960196,0.0,0.05234165547464376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065118277587785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919741321307404,0.1548431237105799,0.0,0.07962493041825434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409806274972887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649958901779571,0.0,0.07316992556028719,0.0,0.0,0.1364460964646032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695208653706807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057956321176778076,0.12911027172457248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815920335741812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932485119970744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424039887978406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347632231406712,0.07773910404365114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05102601823559673,0.0,0.05931698283284818,0.06248095462809498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13335399440935014,0.0,0.0791452299102172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04607586590216524,0.0,0.06629422322289948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053868061399900406,0.05443719252502986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049406512910712436,0.0,0.13832042274274098,0.14462800161786474,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,5mokahontas,2019/04/12,Peach??? Not sure if this is allowed but I just downloaded this Peach app everyone is talking about. I don't really know how to find ED related groups or pages you guys mentioned. There isn't really a search bar either idk what do!! I just wanted another community to talk about this stuff that I obvi can't mention on FB or twitter. Is it still popular or did i miss the cool train?,1.5082748538011683,4.060110236842108,3.384912280701758,85.83494152046785,84.78947368421052,7.588304093567253,22.91812865497076,8.515128840125781,1.869411111111112,302,11,60,8,9,101,57,76,0.066,0.825,0.109,0.7362,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,2,1,8,1,0,2,1,15,11,6,0,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,6,3,5,10,2,2,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,4,1,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30866762427641736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28127860517231895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26904449993423885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914678713748649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177543966250493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771558256301276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23508046392573376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369777778547369,0.0,0.0,0.2774357585882925,0.0,0.0,0.4731992651780414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362424751892644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IBleedToo,2019/04/12,"No longer in denial This is more of a rant to get the feeling I have off my chest. I think I hit that moment of clarity that iv always been dealing with an ED and denying it.

Im an adult male but I weigh around 120LBS. Being average hight im 40Lbs under healthy. It shows.

Iv blamed it largely on just having a high metabolism and brushed off the insults a number of times. Im reminded of times past partners have felt hurt or jealous of my weight. I dated one woman who ended up going to in-care for her ED. Every day I was a symbol of her being unable to achieve her goal weight. I remember feeling so bad about myself like it was my fault I could not be a larger man who could simply pick her up and throw her around. That I reminded and fed ED for her.

I don't wear short sleeves or shorts because I hate knowing people are looking and thinking about how small I am. Some comment out of the blue and you have to act all friendly and kind about it when in reality you want to slap the person or lash out sometimes...

Today at worker I overheard some coworkers talking about the weight type they like in men. All of them said they hate scroungy/skinny guys, going on to explain how bad that body type was. Normally this would not be such an issue but I keep hearing this from society that im a problem because of my weight. Specifically recently. People joke about my weight and I have to smile and laugh, crack a funny joke about being ""low drag when I run"" or ""at least I'll look better than you in 20 years.""

I just went back to my chair and decided I did not need to eat for another four hours until I got home. I got home, I did not eat. I had a normal coke.

Inside it grinds on you. I'm just not a man who will ever fit that role. It hurts and I'm just now coming around to noticing the internalized hate and habits I have picked up over time. Not eating everything I order or flat out skipping meals. Refusing to take a launch brake to ""get this work done."" 

I don't feel like there are any good resources around me for male ED. I happen to work within a University system in admin and student health so im well aware of the options open to me. Maybe that's why im here, feels sometimes like men are forgotten in the ED world and we have few options when we do reach out...  we are so conditioned not to talk about it or assume its a woman's issue. If I bring this topic up, its not a safe space. I don't feel exactly comfortable explaining how im feeling to anyone. 

This overwhelming dread and desire to be the stereotypical man makes you want to stay inside all day and watch Netflix feeling sad about yourself. I can only imagine the pain women feel knowing an entire society has been built on this demand... Makes me want to minimize my struggle.

Im trying now to eat more and eat over my needed cals. Im just so tired of feeling the suffering of other peoples opinions... Hell truly is other people. Thanks for reading.",3.0561992385786816,4.678837049069376,4.166528130287649,87.1205536167513,74.44839255499156,6.8200930626057525,24.495241116751266,7.492282038375204,1.0965941624365485,2300,72,467,28,48,749,291,591,0.16399999999999998,0.706,0.131,-0.9882,0,0,0,0,0,0,60.0,3,5,3,6,35,34,6,3,28,0,39,22,3,8,5,107,86,37,0,13,22,0,15,4,2,2,5,2,2,14,29,31,14,4,20,5,0,8,12,19,1,2,15,22,58,15,79,60,9,71,1,6,4,0,46,39,1,13,25,302,87,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04731589351317647,0.0,0.0,0.038669870602570086,0.05962747985516955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039761042912255934,0.0,0.0,0.20248616140213613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04372535902686015,0.09495911343587304,0.06932825151483014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050292108065295126,0.0,0.06316373935917266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04898380843147603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080349467025846,0.0,0.0,0.07334591144365894,0.05862489451417122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058192217680241964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29093335488412264,0.0,0.0,0.050365147696595884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05143727645960248,0.047910868921776206,0.0,0.051106226092312426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587720038474657,0.040624073862103816,0.05459892315753352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393344053075675,0.0,0.059418801679492164,0.0,0.06463491293575027,0.04769531947008335,0.09095961326988378,0.0,0.0,0.056304883512079185,0.05028516840109525,0.0,0.0,0.16842602726680264,0.0,0.06044439917513743,0.06409052478227265,0.0,0.0,0.060080560536219074,0.11407963877692336,0.0,0.05600016582907416,0.0,0.1217494376067146,0.0,0.5528116288036593,0.11870371440995385,0.0,0.05054385962057882,0.0,0.059215719057402486,0.06250258213604422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11112466370018532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550386637299377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759151096578375,0.0,0.0571281229372786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432874467564162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143044777394877,0.0,0.06474071166118138,0.0,0.0,0.0385329172858563,0.04324808247708882,0.06050793212401041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054283684721103634,0.15769098483214705,0.04965196589009253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05441173210112138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05687997753117857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056146921606039145,0.0,0.06441649443564447,0.0,0.05409124615653313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248106541744077,0.0,0.0,0.06061008597636479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05944721522205115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04275509416721508,0.09141120555817364,0.0,0.05235327370533662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07287306529189315,0.0,0.0,0.09947459770640824,0.06535748012705116,0.05390098152725471,0.0,0.0,0.03860732335388761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006206240020106,0.0,0.0,0.34622875097193023,0.05112809482264058,0.05271404385860338,0.051311447001054826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279619633332866,0.0,0.0,0.04039497261859085,0.0,0.0,0.036618931043961966
EDAnonymous,Daisyroads,2019/04/12,"Do you guys guess calories? It is that time of the year where the weather is getting better and suddenly everyone wants to eat out and buy icecream and sweets.

People are getting suspicious of me and also I really want to spend time with my friends and family so I don't want to not go or not eat anything.

But they ALWAYS want to go to restaurants/cafes/shops that don't have any nutrional info online or in store... 

Though I dont particularly want to eat a lot in one go, as long as I know how bad the damage is I can adjust the rest of the week, but these places I can't know anything and it freaks me out.

How do you guys overcome this? How do you guess at calories? Does anyone have a good method? 

Currently my friends want to go to doughnut time (with huge doughnuts) I know I can get away with eating only half of one because the girl who went before said that was all they could finish, but they are filled with all different fillings and topped with extra sweets and I dont even know where to begin!",5.473899835796387,5.47719691133005,5.7139039408866985,84.22714490968805,67.57142857142857,8.540065681444991,28.24671592775041,8.07648339933343,1.6229740558292285,795,23,165,9,12,253,111,203,0.037000000000000005,0.8190000000000001,0.14400000000000002,0.9637,2,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,3,2,9,9,0,0,8,0,19,4,0,3,2,43,41,21,0,7,7,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,8,15,4,0,6,0,3,7,7,3,0,3,3,3,19,6,26,37,5,28,0,1,0,0,13,11,0,5,10,112,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672472403443042,0.09023627656734634,0.0,0.0,0.07374742141444036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582839926371254,0.0,0.1784846584902306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188917074557056,0.0,0.09054839913572843,0.0661080539024442,0.0,0.09228008742707383,0.0,0.0,0.0959122238972631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658580288740833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11330363778275515,0.0,0.0,0.0949023692852492,0.0,0.2541972654640043,0.0,0.0,0.4438718701009635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07162797071759675,0.0,0.0,0.10362539422298657,0.0,0.0,0.10223382324989516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757118151787329,0.0,0.16997665129660386,0.0,0.2465308566117433,0.09095988090073476,0.0,0.0,0.2389323599292441,0.2147584104809652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383977082132349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597184741307123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921974395130803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697247470070154,0.08247854244416235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518323264638467,0.0,0.11330363778275515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947368266860303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10315757107480343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10654825501210162,0.0,0.18970829130725989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3837877627015925,0.0,0.08698933836950101,0.0,0.0,0.10053110461252336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983606868510987
EDAnonymous,cheesy-endeavor,2019/04/12,"I thought I was in this for the hip bones and collarbones But I am seriously thinking I’m doing this to punish myself. I feel like everyone has watched me closely as to not self harm so I found another way. I’ve been fasting for 52 hours now. My mother-in-law is accusing me of having an eating disorder but I’m healthy weight (finally. Took me four months) and I don’t see it. 

I think this is just a different form of self harm for myself. I feel better about myself every time I compare old pictures so maybe I’m doing this to make me feel better? I don’t know. 

When I reach my goal weight, will I be able to stop myself?",1.2506153846153865,3.3125240615384652,3.2869230769230766,89.30807692307694,81.46153846153845,6.461538461538463,22.30769230769231,7.61054688173877,0.9680769230769228,488,16,104,8,13,165,83,130,0.075,0.765,0.159,0.9129,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,6,7,1,0,3,0,13,5,2,1,0,17,27,8,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,3,1,8,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,5,7,22,3,12,20,1,13,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,10,67,27,1,0.1659394908262797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740020246620942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935199894123148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733714494932071,0.1901810328101948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16979752595458394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981117793269449,0.15856229466516364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517119774567752,0.11854720540257226,0.0,0.18177860114195726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194408667553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634169724989163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119600446552877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106965329027818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11076589866780533,0.0,0.16670852231850095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324513184224484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741255815952861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223228993024272,0.0,0.3462221579800469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873284460930949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126546507570211,0.0,0.1317374200950725,0.09676065155083982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436488001369314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171504397037906,0.0,0.4041391909346028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bootybumpin_,2019/04/12,So Embarassed My friend caught me purging in the bathroom after lunch. She confronted me and now I’m so embarrassed 😞,1.8727272727272712,4.477222181818182,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,99.9090909090909,5.836363636363638,28.22727272727273,7.1686216300943375,2.3732363636363645,96,5,16,2,4,30,20,22,0.198,0.667,0.136,-0.1475,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,petewentzpetegoez,2019/04/12,"Why is raw pasta so good??? I just ate a whole box of mac and cheese, raw.

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I don't know what it is about raw pasta but damn it's good.

On another note though, it was so much and oh my god I wanna die",-3.2595833333333366,-1.9939094583333308,-0.23499999999999946,106.24666666666668,112.33333333333334,2.966666666666667,9.5,5.033348758259628,-1.9691,158,2,43,1,9,54,37,48,0.157,0.654,0.18899999999999997,0.1956,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,6,6,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,4,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006698719324465,0.33719145845176884,0.0,0.29098172420962176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879999794556281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655057141386253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15250610256944205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039935732504164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726411965829216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503995365278397,0.3098175393750135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33719145845176884,0.0
EDAnonymous,thothothothothothot,2019/04/12,i have a 23 inch waist why am i so fucking sad,-1.6925000000000026,-1.1168452499999972,1.8733333333333315,103.005,84.83333333333333,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.7852666666666668,35,1,11,0,1,13,11,12,0.315,0.685,0.0,-0.5678,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7156236940749818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6984860259722284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aliensbruv,2019/04/12,just finished up a tattoo session and I sat in the chair the entire time wondering if my heart rate was jacked up enough from the adrenaline to burn calories lmao sob,6.440312500000001,7.15561240625,5.7687500000000025,82.20125,65.5625,8.9,31.625,8.841846274778883,2.4814500000000006,135,5,25,2,2,41,29,32,0.059000000000000004,0.826,0.115,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,5,1,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,2,2,16,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174142183363374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5933975941968342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919945175142878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5430479017604288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,longleaf1,2018/12/10,"Just started ECT for Schizoaffective disorder, also have bulimia TLDR at the end


I've gone through years of therapy, been in and out of psych wards (including a 2 month stay at a residential center) and tried at least 40 meds for all of my problems. I've been around the block and haven't found any success treating my mental issues and the eating disorder I've developed as a bad coping mechanism.


I've been suicidal for years with several attemps and the only reason I'm not trying everyday is because I have a wonderful family who fully supports me no matter what. We're kinda in last ditch effort mode so we started looking into non mainstream treatments for treatment resistant depression/bipolar/schizo and ECT kept coming up and the results seemed to good to be true. Like we were seeking 80% success rates for people with treatment resistant problems. So we figure we've got to check it out and set up a meeting with a psych ward that offered it out patient. It sounds perfect for me, and I was upset that my psych who'd seen me get nothing from so many meds wouldn't even mention it.


So I go in for the consultation and screening to learn more about it and I'm all in. They say great, we'll get you in this Friday. So I have my first session on Friday and my Second one today. Couldn't have been any easier, literally they knock you out for 5 minutes, do the procedure, then wheel your bed back to the recovery room where you chill until you're good to leave. 

I know it hasn't been very long yet and I don't want to get my hopes up but I have not binged or purged once since my first treatment. That's 4 days clean and I never had the terrible urges I usually get where I either binge/purge or selfharm. I honestly couldn't tell you how long it's been since I've had that long of a good stretch, I'm guessing 4 years. It feels amazing, I finally have hope. Not just for the ED but my mental illness in general. Sorry this got a bit rambly I'm just so excited and don't know who I could share this with lol. 

TLDR: I have pretty severe bulimia brought on by other mental illnesses, years of no success with traditional med/therapy didn't help but after just 2 rounds of ECT I've seen an enormous improvement. Maybe worth looking into if you have an ED that's cause'd or triggered by another mental illness.",4.777364606126916,5.9298992603938725,5.549490563457333,80.71196013402628,69.52516411378555,8.688429978118165,30.25499179431072,9.017664075816787,2.5270044310722106,1850,73,349,34,32,603,235,457,0.107,0.753,0.141,0.9649,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,4,6,2,7,19,23,0,1,20,1,32,4,0,4,5,78,64,33,1,10,15,0,2,1,0,2,3,2,3,0,21,31,1,2,9,0,2,4,14,5,0,4,19,9,37,18,56,38,6,58,0,0,6,0,23,27,0,10,26,219,58,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947122469606595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815139779064734,0.09109249632650332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07733418366201801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06679893425319695,0.07253419658885127,0.05295614967945055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09484133893196144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483223172336577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935994129531421,0.0,0.0,0.05602502558362184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19912486726836653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889138238077518,0.0,0.0,0.07694249434454674,0.0,0.0,0.057377903517684875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189485738474858,0.0,0.04392491490898,0.0,0.0,0.09516364300310297,0.0,0.1477859570686006,0.0,0.09525027699709758,0.0,0.0,0.18154740018733526,0.0,0.049371158930954215,0.21859144764324445,0.1389583839158129,0.09577629746830538,0.09569891313355988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058228233788279474,0.0,0.0,0.17256629369227208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067142947425404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548477056977224,0.0708119868848373,0.0,0.09198453086564556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04244109865317175,0.0,0.0,0.2306360216314921,0.14590060854290085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807421498345536,0.08727424572435476,0.0,0.2894844479182603,0.0,0.3501847508654246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693401198076162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06700076961044135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335568820901236,0.0,0.0,0.09251546883922653,0.05886647624278234,0.06606980210703932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602258618485772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837969588934923,0.0,0.16624886775624365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931852153755546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06908382044315947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908468473062656,0.0,0.19628046808981506,0.0,0.1437222481608659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724569649644912,0.12297639770259106,0.09259361702962184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950234819463525,0.0985809155059902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759296484746352,0.0,0.19869059849865348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234416369251753,0.0,0.0,0.11796029177594808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095676846003641,0.071678206685134,0.05123914814968193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942085954426315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22376996979947905
EDAnonymous,champu-petal,2018/12/10,"I've become afraid of sex because my body dysmorphia is awful Is anyone else like this?  I can't imagine anyone ever being truly attracted to me, even though I've had sex at higher weights.  When anyone hits on me at bars, I freak the fuck out because I feel lied to and essentially run away.  I can't imagine my body in a sexual context.  When someone tell me I'm hot, I immediately become distrustful of that person.  rip",3.395318416523238,5.294128807228919,5.3836833046471595,77.5831325301205,74.18072289156626,7.634423407917385,26.314974182444054,8.418075326091056,2.017634767641997,333,12,60,6,7,115,58,83,0.17300000000000001,0.733,0.094,-0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,2,1,6,7,2,0,1,6,10,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,3,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,3,10,2,10,7,0,10,0,0,0,3,2,6,1,0,4,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143681211203357,0.2024003574173858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855928414433123,0.0,0.0,0.2408338683348377,0.4363289633838167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388389251417649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501710722898333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047155566211208,0.17868384094072595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988081873249588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826200956095764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650677047797288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248199333546535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737275434723292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726563493960626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19407944194483734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405472735958801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,subirban,2018/12/10,"They listened to me! Guys I am so happy and relieved. 

I went to my school's mental health clinic to get an assessment and therapy options for my ED and they actually listened to me!! I told them that I was scared of being forced into recovery and that I wanted to hit my next goal and maintain after that in order to feel secure and the psychologist told me that they would start me off slow and wouldn't push or force me into anything!!!

Honestly I am so relieved because I know I want to get better eventually but I was so scared of trying to get help. But I am so happy I did because now I can finally pull myself out of this calorie obsession shit hole.",5.338863636363634,5.524532583333336,6.667727272727273,76.64659090909092,67.86363636363636,9.327272727272726,30.893939393939394,9.188382445141503,2.6175121212121213,519,19,99,9,8,177,78,132,0.109,0.7190000000000001,0.172,0.7943,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,4,2,6,11,1,3,2,0,10,3,1,0,0,20,24,14,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,5,10,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,6,3,25,7,18,14,0,15,0,0,0,0,10,5,1,2,6,75,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.17219587938829192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520848695987645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151322262481469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606124392860124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922159927911258,0.0,0.0,0.1932992343766055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765733768052378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471946391154927,0.0,0.3756819917369157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756477878282213,0.0,0.0,0.11827492785253513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697575914134028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782643165111325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876632602457458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35332704733889625,0.1785831803008825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18112984012741906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489666626953687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20179313945750754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372230831046853,0.0,0.1198022341703978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081569766537842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357674342065204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253494816151744,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smalldicksarein,2018/12/10,"Eating and serious fitness hi all, looking for advice on people who do serious fitness and struggle with eating.

I typically eat around 1200 cal per day but i would say \~ 600 of those are junk food unfortunately. I do a good amount of exercise usually 1 hour 5 days a week i run 6 miles. But now im training for a full marathon  and upping my milage per week (have done a bunch of half marathons in the past). Im wondering if i should increase my calories a bit. I am obviously terrified of this but i am having trouble making my long runs and am worried its related to my eating habits. Ideally I would just cut the junk food and eat 1200 good calories per day but I just cant get myself to eat rice or pasta which are marathon ""staples"". Also Im 5'2"" and 120lbs so not really underweight so losing a few more pounds would definitely help my running.

Any tips or advice? Anyone else struggle with this? thx xoxo",2.436166666666665,4.792537838888887,4.108888888888888,83.415,78.94444444444444,7.1111111111111125,26.11111111111111,8.167268648758528,1.8846111111111103,721,29,138,14,18,241,115,180,0.147,0.685,0.16899999999999998,0.7588,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,7,10,1,2,8,0,15,10,0,1,2,28,19,16,0,6,10,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,6,9,9,0,1,4,0,4,2,7,0,1,1,2,15,3,14,14,8,22,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,4,10,84,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026488257146836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292064678880018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070512578169333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07250227639133379,0.10624239105680476,0.0,0.092305851180734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132023395436039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20061391078439164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611060327034527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6366029348017386,0.08661947172914619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507640878844432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05417360897342676,0.0,0.0,0.17394006703617165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069501046342818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021135061738676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360081339944938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09176215605884767,0.08707326580311447,0.1160022950945799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921370592362394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898358858128296,0.0718854092431128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642630190893815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245824222690742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21679805724591428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419959829473986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634730825929436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244709880017112,0.0,0.10530196313937484,0.0,0.22097464667185712,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alluvialplains,2018/12/10,"maybe a tmi question? idk where else to ask this or how to google it so you guys are getting it. sorry 

my eating disorder has become really serious in the past month and a bit and i've lost about 6kg. tonight my bdd is in full swing and i've been crying about the damage i've done. 
I was looking at a picture of me from about 6 months ago, pre-ED, and my boobs were... really perky and aesthetically pleasing. now when I look in the mirror they look not even half as round.
I assume my sudden weight loss is to blame. I'm underweight right now as well.

I want to know: if I recover and assume a healthy weight once more, will they go back to how they were? or remain slightly sagged but gain size?

I know this seems kind of stupid but they were the only part of me that I liked and now I really, really can't stand to think about my body anymore. I want this to be done and I want to be back to normal... :(",1.486077399380804,3.1835754157894773,2.9909287925696617,93.52561919504645,79.05263157894737,6.3653250773993815,18.544891640866872,7.285733465282438,0.07786377708978343,699,14,162,9,17,229,114,190,0.132,0.777,0.092,-0.688,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,4,3,16,8,1,0,8,0,15,5,2,2,0,27,30,19,0,5,6,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,8,3,0,7,0,0,1,2,5,1,1,8,6,22,3,23,19,4,21,0,3,4,1,8,7,1,7,13,104,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480008484322562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843608105038135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121071503093716,0.0,0.0,0.1991656797356761,0.0,0.0,0.14303023606921794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138803220892493,0.14385301074816645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422572881186629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484261687149689,0.0,0.0,0.265061118937691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132517927063063,0.10818642713689884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553810987905712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06766202890584465,0.0,0.07360177626899031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823222778151047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348615448744468,0.14234725035320167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327054732600985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262596274831839,0.0,0.14137211920317425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13010712421865955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20674240163908236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12688930044300034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13792066028768607,0.0,0.09849586070319914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024339142768785,0.12362902451406232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215972562483326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14507740747653106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33186183789790324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059821580777948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178982506768291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497241206477482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298281538618403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291596389463355,0.0,0.0,0.3154091175740784,0.11644228870351868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bananaemoji,2018/12/10,"what’s it like having roommates and an ed? i’m 24, and have lived alone since i was a junior in college. even before that, my roommates and i had our own individual bathrooms and busy schedules that kinda kept them in the dark about what i do to myself. my lease is up in three months and a coworker has asked me if i’d be interested in rooming together...now that i’m approaching my mid 20s id like to start saving more and i think reducing housing costs is a great place to start. 

but...the idea of someone seeing how little i eat, how often i purge when i do eat, and how few groceries i keep in my home freaks me out. i’m so used to having my own space and domain to do whatever fucked up shit i want. the same coworker has expressed concern about how little she sees me eat at work, so i think this is already in her head and will only get worse. so how do you guys deal with roommates and shared spaces? i know this is a ridiculous problem to have and that i am fortunate but i am seriously thinking the “benefits” of letting my ED thrive far outweigh any money id save/the awkwardness of having a roommate  ",3.7982874449339192,4.752470422907493,5.018014867841412,84.35539234581498,71.6431718061674,7.789537444933922,27.843887665198242,8.07648339933343,1.6983394273127748,874,31,180,12,16,290,133,227,0.08199999999999999,0.843,0.075,-0.1803,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,1,1,13,14,3,1,9,0,22,6,2,6,0,34,40,22,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,9,13,3,2,5,0,2,1,0,7,0,1,3,2,28,7,22,34,5,24,0,0,2,1,10,18,2,3,7,120,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990843735529102,0.15972573271389895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09842911452580602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353136691535679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316426960566658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922202651009495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4443197568708136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560032876800904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381109078774153,0.0756214068519301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957790307431696,0.0,0.14331674094622576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14854643298451195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451874244116307,0.0,0.0,0.16701214077434878,0.0,0.1633954211748511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12865280565070122,0.0,0.0,0.07954608742365968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800788672423154,0.0,0.14142667249137705,0.2901378129008363,0.1278093068579095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553120354733927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008235602619157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122395502936892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384979708251933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23068031010059695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485749657995412,0.11973158074014753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263891743454712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20489741399229675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782333317008397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12501009594462273,0.0,0.0,0.08537222708725352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053734621322044,0.0,0.14750385090254434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,psychedelicpeach,2018/12/10,"Time to vent! I have nobody to talk to right now so time to tune in for my emotional rant!
I’m PMSing really badly right now, which means I’m bloated and starving. My boyfriend is out of town (coming back today) but I’ve been a bitch to him because I’m super hormonal (I was super mad at him earlier but now I’m just sad and lonely). I feel fat and disgusting because I ate extra food for dinner and I just want to crawl out of my body and never look back. To top it all off, I haven’t been able to juul or smoke weed like I’m used to due to an upcoming drug test where I work. I am laying in bed right now bloated, frustrated, and sad because I miss my man and hate myself! Also I miss r/proed lol it had soo many valuable posts and I miss the years of input that were just erased. *useless rant over* ",1.0184868421052613,2.7839386374269046,3.0693530701754383,92.09245065789473,80.75438596491226,6.146345029239766,19.459429824561404,7.1686216300943375,0.2777394736842105,621,15,140,8,16,210,105,171,0.233,0.636,0.131,-0.9673,0,3,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,12,17,5,0,3,1,9,6,2,1,2,23,25,13,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,11,4,0,2,0,0,1,2,13,0,0,6,2,18,4,22,19,2,27,0,7,1,0,4,13,1,1,13,82,22,2,0.1770191357775266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415621389260358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722335773475342,0.1478035842799936,0.3237276664132932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662835374126814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248631112686134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052859976458519,0.0,0.0,0.19912270162542256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08950619387902413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140522416399729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17476974819543115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648260815897371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865149064453514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946961942640824,0.0,0.19282573379962786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652807039519088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695353994661671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340299121311236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535201242136469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422812759722889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064425632441127,0.0,0.1677934424128341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288769725037102,0.0,0.0,0.1044104726892451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288720391337711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399451964038328
EDAnonymous,Marissla,2018/12/10,"Anyone else ""recover"" through powerlifting/weight training? Long story short, I had an ED (still do, vomited an hour ago fml) since I was 10, I'm 20 now. I ""recovered"" through switching from eating nothing or b/ping to eating LOTS of food and weight training. I never fully recovered, all I did was switch my focus from starving and throwing up, to being at the gym 3-4 hours a day and getting bigger and uncomfortable. I gained so much weight from weight training, but my relationship with food is just the same, if not worse. I think about food 24/7, revolve my whole life around food, but now I'm just big and bulky. I was so deluded for the longest time that being weight restored and working out would save me, but no it's the mentality that has to change. I'm sick of this tbh. I missed so many opportunities in life (dropped out college for a year) to base my daily life on food and working out. I can't hang out with someone at 2 pm because I need to eat at 3 pm. I can't have morning classes because I need to work out in the morning. I can't eat until I've showered, gotten ready for bed, and it's 8 pm. It's so exhausting...

P.S. Sorry about any typos, had a rough day lol",5.27672268907563,5.18760356302521,6.013109243697483,82.23042016806724,67.99159663865547,8.648739495798319,31.70588235294117,8.192908349453996,2.144836974789915,920,35,191,11,14,302,139,238,0.068,0.8320000000000001,0.10099999999999999,0.8659,2,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,0,0,5,12,4,0,0,10,1,16,19,0,0,2,33,25,18,0,4,8,0,5,0,0,1,6,0,2,0,6,16,13,0,1,1,0,2,6,2,0,0,7,5,19,2,34,15,5,32,0,1,0,0,1,16,0,3,13,115,25,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818534427776191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998007240728204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06167256822182525,0.09037290188151692,0.0,0.07851807126014489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753368141483777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09330553522056613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376539436561682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36100878373217776,0.07368106969111342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5332682671287019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04608166476322528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372150198115371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18689807041220527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805558820215892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498579600069569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942251874637314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888640805609171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06483828119931602,0.1308006500369312,0.06802646583493924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463175735244924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469544647753457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07296122612532033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473287942406777,0.0,0.0,0.09873440392958777,0.0,0.0,0.07043786453908463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565159860201063,0.0,0.0,0.05143102782729137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370285762321372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984738706146287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926353168656788,0.0,0.08988490549884984,0.06265584406667819,0.0,0.0,0.05679890057217125
EDAnonymous,luckyfuckingpenny,2018/12/18,"@god thanks my man I haven't eaten today and barely any yesterday, but I spent all day baking stuff for my family for Christmas. Ran out today to get some last minute stuff.

Was starving all day.

Just when I cracked and was like ""fuck it, I'm fat, might as well just go eat Chick Fil A"" my car broke down :)

Leaving me stranded in an empty parking lot, miles from any possibility of food. :)

The only ride I have is at least an hour away from picking me up, by which point the stress will have cured me of hunger pains. :)

The Lord's really looking out for me. In a roundabout way.",1.5124712643678144,3.7454562241379317,2.523103448275865,94.1905747126437,81.58620689655173,5.2459770114942526,19.149425287356323,6.42735559955562,-0.0959747126436783,446,11,97,4,12,141,87,116,0.171,0.69,0.14,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,1,7,0,8,8,1,1,2,13,17,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,4,4,6,0,0,0,1,4,1,4,1,0,5,1,11,3,18,10,5,23,1,1,1,1,2,10,1,3,9,60,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422832813086918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736885266353646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297717553516373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822821922212135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679349981507783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215408185406018,0.0,0.0,0.164688010797097,0.09307105259217599,0.0,0.10124134467710363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754324971803398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520827395411914,0.0,0.188625055517823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703044429704003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14959314423577286,0.0,0.0,0.1514486726793866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889789066421965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548386857236605,0.18955403925290745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840034141652452,0.2008266343133324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412135827065018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20405932732673,0.0,0.4078564784362812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640078275790504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377127067323184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139962775344578,0.0,0.0,0.16016969267887846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rattles-snakes,2018/12/18,"Gone from 300max a day to 7-900 a day for Christmas/December. Gained a bit of weight back, unfortunately, but its killed my cravings for junk and put me back on track! Last year I almost broke 50kg, and around September I started a several month long binge. Gained almost 10kg, 5 of which I've shifted again this year.
Mid last month/this month I became terrified of ""rebinging"" and somehow my brain decided it was a good time to let myself ""break"". Now December is most over, I've FINALLY even-ed out my relationship with food so that I can eat without inhaling 10,000 calories, and can skip breakfast when I dont feel like it without starving for days.
I've found myself craving fruit and veg more than ever, turning down desert, and opting for sprouts instead of sweets. 
This may sound simple and basic, but it is the healthiest my relationship with food has been in 7+ years. After Christmas I will cut back again, but I don't think I'll go under 500 calories a day again, unless I'm having an IF period. 
I hope everyone else manages this holiday season, dont forget almost every person on the planet will be eating more and so even if you do gain, it will likely be less noticeable.
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EDAnonymous,tamantha10,2018/12/18,"I dont know if what i have is just disordered eating or an official eating disorder and dont know what to do. My issues with eating stemmed from a dodgy relationship.  I started eating badly while I was with him to try and make him happier about my figure, and never really got back on track. I lost a bunch of weight, was down to one meal a day if that. Recently it's got bad again, I barely touch anything on my plate, so will have about 4 mouthfuls and leave the rest. I'll snack on stuff during the day, like a bag of crisps, chocolate, or toast, but nothing major. I'm still losing weight - I'm happier than I've ever been with my body at the moment, but seeing my hips poking through and my collar bones standing out makes me feel more ashamed than anything. I've never had good self esteem, so this is just a different internal battle. I don't really know how to get things back on track, I've been eating like this so long that eating more makes me scared I'm just going to put all the weight back on and go back to being totally disgusted with how I look. I don't know if this really counts as an official eating disorder or just disordered eating, and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm running out of time, as I'm so bad mentally at the moment that if I don't do something to sort my shit out I'm scared of what's going to happen.  ",6.473543467208947,5.030865914590748,7.229316217590243,78.98136120996443,66.01067615658363,10.590849008642603,30.035841382816468,9.606745405546679,2.4061385866802234,1066,28,224,18,14,357,133,281,0.177,0.7709999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.9887,1,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,2,19,15,3,3,12,0,20,18,5,5,5,46,47,25,0,4,13,0,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,13,14,13,0,8,0,0,5,8,11,0,1,8,8,23,4,36,37,7,35,0,2,2,0,4,11,1,8,21,147,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07343407818348884,0.0,0.0,0.12186766686596795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277482772374564,0.1854768174664768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08224879762616946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550753467480376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736267139602304,0.339454109429427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356353161021348,0.0,0.0,0.6061431795226171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697915900624711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488011455694206,0.052898724232189005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03868615952846005,0.0,0.12624673414460208,0.062106561749034624,0.11844325399178365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06547893904604493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07728514716696461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034696758526375,0.0,0.0,0.07840438875019845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10852591299234154,0.0,0.0,0.06552868592729973,0.06218028142034294,0.08283892062457412,0.08083033342055226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482795323954137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462130067648809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11421821338138667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104946583274475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05017572024620921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07443702926343766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230795554688036,0.0,0.07311183345634023,0.07949806431412113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826661926355122,0.0,0.0590053507871135,0.0,0.07724648757372765,0.0,0.07600750988554036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05700449457130465,0.0,0.0,0.052410384669222786,0.0,0.05913350740266018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476535050398852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049193101933119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0431770196988865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05027260826604077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705055029353605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Poopburb,2018/12/18,"Took laxatives for the first time and holy hell these little things don’t fuck around. I took them last night around 8pm, only 2, and it’s 7:30am now and I’ve been in the bathroom since 6:30am. My poor roommates. WHEN IS IT GOING TO END ",0.6282312925170039,3.0156951224489816,1.0807142857142864,101.86011904761908,87.57142857142858,4.082993197278912,14.289115646258502,5.46131890053228,-1.1901455782312929,187,3,43,1,6,56,42,49,0.21100000000000002,0.789,0.0,-0.8987,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,2,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,0,1,3,0,3,0,5,4,0,14,1,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,7,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.453887302338417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257942059999236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168451459658748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23568065324105136,0.0,0.0,0.1448838086817357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078037174404659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25550897489830243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392365415118439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19388737828705885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21088249857542266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16936558439861732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865297951396894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5664779699704905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,galacticshock,2018/12/18,"DAE get a fear of other people judging you when you eat? Does anyone else find they get heightened anxiety when they are around a lot of people and think they are watching and judging your food intake?

I’m currently in a road trip to a friend who is graduating from uni. Four days at her place, with 8 other people. We’re all very loud people, but I’m actually an introvert and need to recharge on my own.  

This friend group....aren’t healthy, and not like me unhealthy. They are very overweight have poor health habits and lifestyles in general. I’m worried for the health of a few of the older men. They actually had a conversation about weight loss (for them) on my first night and I had to leave the conversation. It was so triggering. I haven’t been able to eat in front of any of them since. I actually had to sit at dinner with one tablespoon of coleslaw and it took me 30 minutes to eat it. I managed a biscuit at afternoon tea when no one was watching. And that’s it since Sunday night. 

I don’t generally eat in the public, but this isn’t the public. This is friends and family. Its just all so overwhelming. 

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EDAnonymous,Hangingwithmydemons,2018/12/18,Can someone tell me where I can ask about you know what? Weight loss. I'm obese on the bmi chart and struggle with binge eating and I am tempted right now to binge and I have so much food and sweets to eat I need somebody to stop me lol. ,-0.09470588235294032,2.047210803921569,0.6818627450980408,105.3133823529412,88.01960784313727,3.4000000000000004,16.34313725490196,3.1291,-1.3859568627450982,185,4,46,0,6,56,39,51,0.126,0.762,0.11199999999999999,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,1,1,4,5,0,0,0,8,8,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,1,6,8,1,5,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553623879148311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5590100631715638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302992515729587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501184541137102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007998325938496,0.2025404448171858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332722710639269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314427433922702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22836921737529944,0.0,0.2855601719325749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23874888911380154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326283368741245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Njswet,2018/12/18,"New here and looking for tips I guess/a rant (Sorry about any formatting I’m on mobile) I’m not even sure if what I have is even an eating disorder because I can easily stop it I guess. What usually happens is try to eat as little as possible every day, which is hard for me to do, and then force myself to throw up. I’d been doing that for a month or two and wouldn’t always lose weight but at least stay in a range I was okay with. Now that my sister is home though, I’ve had to stop just to be safe that no one finds out and that has made everything hard. I haven’t gained much but I definitely a not losing any, and I for sure think I look fatter. I’ve tried to fast but I’m always too tempted and even if I wasn’t I couldn’t really follow through without my parents noticing something. I want to keep my eating to a little bit of one meal a day. Any tips on how to keep eating down, and not seeming suspicious (definitely a better way to word this but I can’t think of it) while doing so?",1.6239906103286397,3.0926865399061043,3.539553990610333,90.76219483568079,77.96713615023474,6.6112676056338024,20.284037558685448,7.3871296695380915,0.4060685446009389,775,18,176,10,18,262,124,213,0.09300000000000001,0.784,0.12300000000000001,0.8825,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,11,7,0,0,7,1,19,6,0,2,2,39,34,21,0,5,12,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,10,9,6,5,4,0,0,2,10,2,0,3,5,6,18,5,29,26,3,24,0,2,2,0,2,9,0,5,11,118,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760401878187905,0.0,0.0,0.2158086039918817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06448445496659773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09355664124943523,0.11548785337207228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644282150865886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123670823711173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4329704768000564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096064115986724,0.0,0.08912690575316072,0.0,0.09507111640504946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966839255131578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330642349063402,0.0,0.09354373163600052,0.0,0.1895219329127029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061091714932784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804993164116074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204510700937348,0.0,0.0,0.17766248638040158,0.23668867800292115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009461860719923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0844351385094716,0.0,0.07776282126861102,0.0,0.0,0.10216607071193752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043487076052695,0.0,0.0,0.14336286377682045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745972152457758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925466025127555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06776742464720467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963010494896044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143707304839208,0.0,0.11841562829584035,0.0,0.11275081295908512,0.0,0.17687897847930706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993988223107572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556320242946868,0.10393145383218436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363969376392496,0.0,0.10333481244035693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650524641261845,0.0,0.06239367026087149,0.08396577787129975,0.0,0.12881543562606612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197122689856952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cookiedoughbabe,2019/04/14,"Getting stood up I got stood up on Wednesday. My crush/FWB was going to get a hotel room for us so I started preparing a week in advance. I shaved and moisturized the hell out of my body. And not to be a ""pro ana Tumblr"" cliche but I dIDn'T eAt FoR ThReE dAyS sO i CoUlD bE lOvElY. It was evening I was sad and so fucking hungry and still hasn't texted me anything about where i ate popsicles on the kitchen floor. There was no excuse or apology, just radio silence until the next day he texted me ""hey wyd tonight"" like an absolute male thot. I just made a dumb excuse about getting called in to work or something... Then I cried again. I know I shit talk about him now but I just know a week from now he's gonna say some lovey dovey shit and I'll be head over heels in love again and forget this even happened:/",0.4007142857142867,2.7602219285714327,1.5073809523809558,98.50428571428571,88.64285714285714,4.390476190476192,19.30952380952381,5.916634753146586,-0.25859047619047537,636,19,142,5,21,199,113,168,0.165,0.731,0.10400000000000001,-0.917,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,2,18,9,5,0,9,0,10,11,5,1,0,21,27,15,0,1,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,2,7,3,0,2,2,0,2,4,6,0,1,10,1,18,3,20,12,1,29,1,1,0,3,14,12,5,3,16,89,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140058720269238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19086323025855034,0.0,0.0,0.17545657221894168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719143679081253,0.0,0.18874603594972286,0.2216309187268118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582391564053906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22698280525123804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885309785092178,0.2693206072431443,0.0,0.09765435355440176,0.0,0.13742731025658764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519477752979876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17634607800727836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888653972519024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394694681788331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310164676718194,0.16258870958715524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18274204043219866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664527980556188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35275990116230377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228232250380575,0.0,0.0,0.12162141703915072,0.0,0.13722282349570267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13810960332360142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20668907322007168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27566164240372304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12509352395557125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swingsurfer,2019/04/14,"Does this qualify as binge eating? Warning calorie/weight discussion. Hi guys, I've been tracking my calorie intake and have been eating ~1200 cal a day. Yesterday I logged 3200. I was just wondering if anyone could give me their opinion on whether or not this is drastic enough to consider a binge? I used to be much better at restricting and have never purged. (Very rare laxative use on occasion.) 

This isn't an isolated event. I do restrict in the following days. I am hoping to hit 600 cal today and tomorrow if I can stand it. If I slip up, I may go back to 1200 a day. I know that 1200 isn't restricting, but I'll likely restrict enough to compensate in the coming week regardless. Would you guys consider this a true binge/restrict pattern?  It's not near as extreme as some examples I see on this sub. 

*Note: I am what I consider a *mostly* recovered anorexic from my highschool and early college days. 111 at my lowest. BMI of 17.4 at that time. (Healthy range BMI now.) I'd like to get a little lower and keep around the low healthy range for my height. 

Sorry if I rambled, I just thought my background might be relevant. I'm worried I'll fall into old habits and scared I could develop new bad habits.",2.8592642140468243,5.2627447777777805,3.9094500185804533,85.15463210702342,77.71794871794873,7.488368636194725,27.695280564845785,8.456263369488248,2.237061166852472,954,41,180,20,23,308,148,234,0.138,0.7909999999999999,0.071,-0.9299,2,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,1,1,5,8,0,1,10,0,19,2,0,2,2,42,34,16,0,9,11,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,0,2,10,9,2,5,3,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,4,3,23,5,24,22,5,36,0,1,1,0,7,15,0,12,18,111,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932769156247932,0.0,0.0,0.1264584723658136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092310124878517,0.1186094332487635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12563551235213533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236722829866972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226837649387274,0.0,0.0,0.36645316800777705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431270284541973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907140902006877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935601960594397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07421752516976253,0.1362714589742773,0.08073275027540835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28131224401185195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14109200387714815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12626441690297358,0.0,0.0,0.07806934558995063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388011419287241,0.1423757592465239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069719713743168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442627868589124,0.0,0.1095610578796552,0.13719695862827094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490621248735946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222116748152486,0.0,0.1131989104261336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590181940348112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127752716449132,0.08283302310998354,0.0,0.1346508963527156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24537866534038602,0.0,0.11720970067955798,0.0,0.0,0.11394741620142315,0.1729839061942812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540518629571482,0.0,0.14426306919215026,0.0,0.10091132141047104,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,muser666,2019/04/14,"What is your ED? I am wondering what kind of ED you have?

So I am close to underweight, suffering from (kind of?) AN and BED with b/p. My goal is unfortunately still to lose some fat, and then eat more and gain muscles. Been in this cycle for a year now.

Hope you are all ok!",-0.4773152709359607,1.61330284482759,1.8828078817733989,96.32155172413796,89.51724137931032,6.072906403940888,16.9064039408867,7.447530270364453,0.031233497536946164,207,5,52,4,7,70,47,58,0.125,0.7290000000000001,0.146,0.3422,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,3,3,6,0,0,2,1,7,2,1,0,1,9,9,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,4,8,8,3,6,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,3,4,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260139603189482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316448115201928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6635592227205144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564391449905833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544395395302373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3455151272681791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20517212158508735
EDAnonymous,crimsonfantasies,2019/04/14,"Comorbidities Anyone else with a laundry list of mental illnesses? 

On top of anorexia, I was also professionally diagnosed with NPD, dysthymia and GAD - pretty sure I have ADHD as well although it hasn't been formally diagnosed. Life is wack 😎",7.662142857142857,9.665119976190477,8.412857142857145,59.682142857142885,63.52380952380952,11.314285714285715,37.80952380952381,11.20814326018867,5.216038095238097,197,10,27,6,3,66,38,42,0.07200000000000001,0.7170000000000001,0.21100000000000002,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,0,1,4,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,2,2,6,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,19,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374022246353613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22451253455781853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19630418314619816,0.2876575306316577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699027124535451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345273209156466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982992552534608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28292601118037763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28561968807051497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26459985297152705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524244374607721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mglwmnc,2019/01/21,"Canker sore infestation Haven’t eaten more than 800 calories since 5+ canker sores popped up and though the pain is making me break out in tears, I sure do like the ease of not being able to eat. Was ready to go to the doctors for treatment, but stepped on the scale with positive results. Questioning a cure.

So. Glam.",3.989838709677418,5.8067105645161305,3.7105161290322606,90.54577419354843,72.38709677419354,6.895483870967742,25.30322580645161,7.554174236665415,1.065538064516129,253,8,52,3,5,76,56,62,0.10300000000000001,0.723,0.174,0.705,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,5,6,0,2,1,9,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,11,5,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,29,2,1,0.3328356901287007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34067143230249874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405740035227933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18915819290162955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260670601678726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222170407672398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35416064095791794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37285214597023264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753251223035804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31369369899770405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270093756523473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hyuminfytre,2019/01/21,"(Vent) Fluctuating hell Tw: weight talk, death talk, numbers, negativity and Boohoo 

The past 5 years I've dealt with EDNOS cycling, the depths of my restriction made me lose 60lbs in about 4-5 months. Nobody saw it as bad since I went from 240lbs to 170lbs. 170lbs is my lowest weight, which is downright pathetic to me. I've fluctuated 170-190 the past year or so, bingeing and purging and restricting 300-700cal a day for weeks. I've lost so much weight initially that if I was average weight when I started, I'd be so small. nobody notices its an issue that I'm dealing with, even when I bring it up. Its like my ED doesn't want to even try hard. It makes me feel like im not hurting as much as the rest of you. I must not be struggling if im stikl this fat, right? Im not as pure and frail as the others.

Fuck, it is trying to destroy me. But my body is frail and cold and malnourished under the blubber of a weight-loss underachiever. Which sounds illogical, if I was so properly fucked, couldn't I be 100lbs by now? 

I wish I was like 130 when I got an ED so I'd be like 80lbs and skeletal and might actually have people force me into recovery instead of thinking me talking about my ED being no big deal because I'm not on deaths door. I am screaming for help every hour of the day in my own mind and I honestly want to plunge into restriction so that maybe I just go ahead and die or look sickly enough to get forced into treatment to help me out of this pit inside my soul, I hate everything about me",3.0773484848484856,4.477666821428572,4.164999999999999,88.05916666666668,73.96753246753245,7.341125541125543,24.52164502164502,7.937092434478242,1.1474216450216457,1183,36,255,17,24,385,176,308,0.19399999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.077,-0.9899,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,0,3,17,16,5,1,11,0,18,10,3,2,2,42,39,30,3,8,11,0,6,4,0,2,2,2,1,0,14,16,5,3,2,0,0,3,8,11,0,0,8,11,30,5,37,23,5,31,2,3,2,2,8,13,3,6,19,151,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.09263055453737162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925622613311978,0.05786380454345556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543737044143142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243417051790563,0.19572162074925886,0.0,0.0,0.09851444878213862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808019752430816,0.0,0.12539067943411766,0.0,0.07997620289626801,0.0,0.08531011854313487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799560969341808,0.06781257044144094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755084297922414,0.049593028115717176,0.0,0.05394657858921316,0.0,0.07591810219634611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503181184084638,0.09371620283555204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724894688267285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09347942805802592,0.0,0.1016163758210978,0.0,0.3075973920155929,0.09907430779110954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185497129375296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971089615276228,0.10619386803148258,0.10361899570256493,0.0,0.0,0.08981785532557929,0.06336142872716825,0.0,0.09536229364936663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069764947701687,0.09584454899829284,0.0,0.0757661416824012,0.0,0.13955774900990792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806976387585568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812283133624736,0.06580722955807207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810631977018587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852077734565242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718655230029194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09923348612147474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288850511555884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060822431179164735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889213639074498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197536344515899,0.0,0.07614101120273972,0.5779494603085146,0.0,0.08799400140293133,0.0,0.0,0.10915605759356753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222538069095732
EDAnonymous,WanderingWombats,2019/01/21,"Today I said goodbye to my scale I’m not ready to throw it out, but I’m putting it in a drawer where I can’t access it as easily. I’m done with weighing myself 5-10 times a day and letting the number on it dictate my mood. Hopefully I can be able to celebrate me instead of just a number",5.7952604166666655,3.483643421875001,7.664375000000002,78.1097916666667,67.90625,10.408333333333333,33.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,2.665527083333333,225,8,50,3,3,81,48,64,0.025,0.7440000000000001,0.231,0.9193,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,7,1,9,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,35,11,0,0.3615693407657925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23318231290868546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37001096979721704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591199385815805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697291480053451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3634770535916476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3439352416141771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21083399026414906,0.0,0.3427254578526396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silverblades,2019/01/21,"Anyone else triggers themselves with their own photos? I just looked through the folder in my pc where all of my ""progress"" photos are stored. My bmi was 16 and i used to hate how i looked. But since my ED relapse i don't hate those pictures now?? I look at them and see ""goals"" instead of the sick person i was. Anyone else relate?",2.410454545454545,4.4052267121212125,2.645454545454548,95.68818181818185,77.33333333333334,4.4,21.60606060606061,3.1291,-0.3356484848484844,257,7,54,0,6,78,49,66,0.172,0.828,0.0,-0.9129,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,2,5,2,2,0,2,0,4,1,0,3,1,9,11,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,12,0,7,9,2,4,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,36,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980169405843692,0.4367039756409865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560449580978945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4207955466325754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368653835350916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607568973000665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16981766329211526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628324892312053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840549145436928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thisismythr0waway9,2019/01/21,"My doctor offered me a pill to lose weight and then asked me if I've heard of fat acceptance I dont know where else to post this or where to even start but I have to rant. I've gained 40 pounds in the past year from nonstop binging after losing 90 the year before doing a keto diet and counting calories. January 1st I decided enough is enough, even if I'm never skinny I can't be making myself miserable and binging until I'm sick and in pain. For over two weeks I've been eating keto without counting anything or weighing myself and I'm almost 3 weeks no binges.


So Thursday I had a doctor's appointment to get checked out for migraines and much to my delight I weighed in 7 POUNDS lighter than my last appointment which was a month ago. I explained what I was doing, how I had gained so much weight binging, the doctor basically said she supported whatever helped me eat healthy and then suggested that she could prescribe me Topamax for my migraines which might have the added benefit of suppressing my appetite and urge to binge. I ultimately said no because I only get migraines 1 or 2 times a month and didn't want to take a pill daily. 


But then...THEN she asks me if I've read about fat acceptance, suggests I read the book Land Whale and tells me I don't have to lose weight, I can be perfectly healthy at the weight I'm at. I wanted to scream. It's almost impossible for me to be healthy at this weight, I'm only here because I've spent so much time gorging myself on absolute crap. I didn't gain nearly a pound a week eating salmon and quinoa! Why even offer me a pill to help me lose weight if you're going to turn around and tell me Tess Holiday is beautiful no matter how big she is? I don't have anything against these women, I just can't accept the idea that loving myself includes what basically amounts to harming myself with food. Maybe I'm just being oversensitive, it was just so surreal and nobody really knows about my struggles with food and I don't know where else to talk about it :(",6.176302173913044,6.105529165,6.4146086956521735,80.04882608695655,66.1,9.256521739130434,31.89130434782609,8.841846274778883,2.475501086956521,1606,58,312,23,23,516,197,400,0.145,0.716,0.139,0.3119,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,8,20,17,1,2,16,0,30,30,4,3,2,53,57,32,0,7,13,0,6,0,0,1,13,4,0,1,12,18,17,1,9,4,2,1,13,10,0,1,12,10,44,7,43,39,6,37,0,5,0,1,21,16,1,10,19,196,56,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06627026350095673,0.0,0.1497227592863143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304228368230448,0.06655228444746639,0.1397810885494467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911460513273732,0.0,0.06361528655445399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596898075826261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22956020223826215,0.0,0.0,0.08761820851454309,0.0,0.0,0.2294945502103776,0.1249048385875373,0.0,0.0,0.1544942090877529,0.0,0.14813490134959809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808002709754354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811806917604865,0.0,0.0424878528107837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022015606675186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439498381311085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325848629501247,0.06093940958950798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3345494414900005,0.0,0.0,0.06747385370876242,0.0,0.049902906320349695,0.0,0.07510650725648027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930858677712088,0.0,0.0,0.1193454991967378,0.0,0.164871691224999,0.0,0.0576595506173718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371675641997082,0.07954995209865531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136691616649632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07159945144365082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956053955717125,0.0,0.047893195099636784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222783326622096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052915540144553616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815542454203417,0.0,0.0,0.08483680591392315,0.0,0.0,0.0562102450634869,0.06008928720725123,0.13068713792506048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871863594826957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131745416610624,0.07302969470294794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08819081552362296,0.0,0.1799039806479833,0.5462255196270056,0.0,0.0,0.06745930670182128,0.0,0.0,0.07206600944077586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628602757340646
EDAnonymous,emma_ballerina,2019/01/21,"Recovery sux/terrified of going from AN back to BED I was officially diagnosed with anorexia nervosa back in November and shortly after started PHP, now doing IOP. My BMI when I started treatment was 17.6 and now I’ve gained about 5/6lbs and it’s around 18.6. I am just so frustrated. I had a couple of good recovery weeks but lately it’s just been me skipping meals and trying to avoid food as much as possible. Things don’t feel like they will ever change. Before I was diagnosed AN I was definitely dealing with BED for 3 or so years. I gained 40 lbs from binging. Before that, I was diagnosed with EDNOS, and was basically using all the symptoms/behaviors in the book (restricting, over exercising, purging, binging/emotional eating). My ED is basically all I know, and has taken up almost half of my life. I’m in my late 20s now. I am just so terrified that I am going to go back to BED. I know that I am eating only a fraction of the calories I was ingesting when dealing with BED but I’m still scared. There were a few weeks during the initial refeeding process that I was dealing with INSANE hunger and was eating like crazy. I know that that is normal, and now my hunger has kind of evened out, but I’m just so scared to get out of control again or to gain more weight than I already have. Feeling utterly depressed today after eating around 2700 cal, most of it being junk food. So worried that I am just starting a trend and that tomorrow I’m gonna keep overeating and that my weight is going to sky rocket. Idk what the point of this post is exactly, but I guess I’m just looking for reassurance that today doesn’t have to be a trend and that I am not destined to end up back with BED. :(  ",5.442429282160624,5.934082161194032,6.200383795309168,79.02184079601993,67.68656716417911,9.1272210376688,31.176261549395882,9.107695989026183,2.5866560056858563,1344,51,257,23,21,442,170,335,0.134,0.789,0.077,-0.9715,0,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,1,4,29,10,1,3,12,0,32,17,0,2,4,52,56,26,0,1,13,0,4,2,0,2,6,0,5,0,17,21,12,4,5,2,0,4,3,5,0,1,13,5,28,5,44,39,6,46,0,1,1,0,5,14,0,5,29,184,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254545607958203,0.0,0.10198796225960324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454710150113666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28426164198658155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728552521683026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776829160568992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10365708589929437,0.0,0.10226116675415238,0.0,0.0,0.2858434295356738,0.07960136206299133,0.281413599273971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782756506000229,0.0,0.1039602584522248,0.08185684407037283,0.0,0.0,0.061042654534956726,0.0835993402406506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093460835683542,0.06602499211688596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235096870574858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04828572739652005,0.0,0.21009806311126664,0.07751765868470012,0.0,0.0,0.10181124327733948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214729877494578,0.0,0.09624139118179173,0.15237513500585778,0.0,0.2085079678699542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527910341512674,0.0903036592255789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760967112521999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793946327537062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905521497035186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028970837127035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736693904977676,0.10418986192092734,0.08851298119919483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850574377768545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962464285210155,0.0,0.07380687184377666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06139985820986869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520704065818704,0.0,0.0,0.06274723280454593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982135834121692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826778078774722,0.22508575216909196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385717479077947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05951556315384195
EDAnonymous,hiptotheboness,2019/01/30,"Boyfriend interrupting my eating habits--help!!! Hi friends! Looking for some advice

I recently moved in with my boyfriend after living alone for a few years. I never really noticed **h o w** disordered my eating habits were until someone is always around to ask questions and point things out.  For example, I typically would only eat one calorie-dense meal around my boyfriend and friends and then spend my time alone in a fasted state. Now that my alone time is gone and I feel like I'm constantly eating to not raise any red flags. Im starting to panic because I feel like have to continue to eat 3-square meals a day and gain weight OR start lying and feel my best. 

Just to give another example: Last friday, we went out with friends and got ice cream after dinner. We ended up eating this calorie-loaded-amazing- donut-ice cream-sandwich. I justified eating it by either purging when I got home or fasting the following day. It wasn't until the car ride home that I realized I wouldn't be able to do either because my boyfriend would be home all weekend with me. 

Can anyone relate to this? Any advice? 

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EDAnonymous,vexinglexa,2019/01/30,"What logging app do you use? I really want an app that lets me log future days without having to pay for premium like my current app would make me. If I don’t plan out what I’m gonna eat I either eat everything (aka yesterday, a whole pack of oreos and 4 boca burgers) or nothing. If I plan out what I eat beforehand I’m able to keep it more balanced because I feel like if I wanna eat more I could just “schedule” it for the next day. ",1.5005645161290315,3.0238346881720446,3.788911290322584,88.60336693548389,78.46236559139786,6.800537634408602,24.528225806451612,7.645422480735847,1.1806354838709678,338,12,74,5,8,117,65,93,0.0,0.905,0.095,0.7086,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,6,4,0,2,0,18,14,5,0,7,7,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,4,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,12,2,9,10,4,9,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,9,46,18,1,0.1782549537640257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086625653118864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423220758429748,0.0,0.0,0.2299193970268111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7295972763943641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16020405849733588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013106058517384,0.12734537458604386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584411932258557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18227776736633275,0.0,0.17417273280719894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898656580988773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957616558640095,0.0,0.0,0.1710404356992712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419468786019175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395504720294276,0.0,0.0,0.1051393901566222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19901529002614196,0.0,0.17183141438566174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662720476948827,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,flamespond,2019/01/30,"My therapist told me I have an ED but I’m doubtful So for the past year or so my appetite every day has been terrible. I’ve always been someone who constantly has to be distracted while eating (I used to read books at the dinner table and now I watch YouTube videos or scroll through Reddit) because the act of it kind of grosses me out. I’ve also never been one for eating in the first place, and I don’t ever really finish meals at all when I do have them. 

Right now I’m in college and I usually eat one, maybe two meals a day. It’s definitely only one on the weekends since I don’t have access to the dining halls. When I do eat it’s only because my stomach gives me nausea and I feel like passing out from exhaustion, not because I’m actually hungry. That’s the problem - I just never have an appetite. 

The thing is, though, I don’t have any problems with my weight or body image (outside of gender dysphoria, which I think is different). Whatever I have doesn’t fit into either anorexia or bulimia, since I know I’m skinny and I don’t purge. Does what I have even count as an eating disorder, then? Is there even a name for just not having an appetite ever and not enjoying food? Maybe it just all falls under depression, I don’t know. ",3.527374711679599,4.869857187250997,5.029037534074232,82.53627594883626,72.74501992031874,7.834011323128539,26.756343048857204,8.371475516178862,1.8358318725099605,978,34,191,16,19,329,138,251,0.14300000000000002,0.8170000000000001,0.04,-0.9797,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,1,16,11,0,2,14,0,25,15,3,1,6,37,36,20,0,2,12,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,10,12,0,4,4,0,3,11,8,0,5,4,3,25,3,22,31,3,35,0,1,1,0,5,13,0,5,20,137,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.10560537303447516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08654207223924479,0.09004622905679617,0.0,0.0,0.07359210124407797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19790646923764946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020604748457175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169454516786733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395835997558829,0.0,0.0932081951775844,0.0,0.0,0.1130650078756266,0.12402745685829883,0.0,0.09470249447088322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536712839811941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429542286864304,0.19577915301754892,0.09117851861000968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471838413366696,0.07731111870873829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205036350324354,0.13085790239901374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381277853879578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269262410781407,0.11894780822634456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052869956469382584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21743949703337875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16692912696096934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21999440178695215,0.16460966714766426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033065370958743,0.0,0.0,0.1130650078756266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071004446229121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082475063921514,0.0,0.06932736346149272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241776944364932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903846142255594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169294747583126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564969550504307,0.07189537741040994,0.06934186635952791,0.10632385268314024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034071477599118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057134771990086,0.0,0.0,0.09346579700131913,0.11918708148150847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178063902517173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968898625324213
EDAnonymous,katkicksthesky,2019/01/30,"Why are coworkers like this I had a meal replacement shake and a snack size portion of pistachios for lunch (actually my only meal of the day oops) and my coworker said ""that's a lot of food for you"" in a joking way and I'm just fighting back the urge to cry and purge. Like I've lost 78 pounds in less than a year and I am still so fat and don't fucking point it out god I don't need any more motivation to starve but thanks anyway",1.6018548387096772,3.150283096774196,3.2813844086021504,92.24207661290323,78.24731182795698,7.230645161290322,21.302419354838708,8.07648339933343,0.7241838709677421,340,9,81,6,8,113,69,93,0.099,0.7659999999999999,0.135,0.513,0,0,0,0,2,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,5,8,2,1,7,0,5,7,1,1,0,12,11,8,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,7,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,1,6,4,11,8,4,10,0,1,0,1,3,4,1,1,6,47,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.25124933524155263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750854713667602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979751930018048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28281392766648233,0.16604404511615015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113284868386676,0.0,0.0,0.23802284534958046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515694237043366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28105417179774395,0.21888808918809466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909075176776074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19581422922336744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433882601884491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24490879288079695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561240125139227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23703977958702194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20436424950637594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23232270355963194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579943772433645
EDAnonymous,Private-Wierzbowski,2019/01/30,"Google predicting my searches and adding 'calories' to them It would be offensive if it wasn't so darn convenient. It also means that no one else can use my phone, laptop or any other devices I own because that search history is.......something else.",10.334666666666667,8.494223466666671,9.180555555555557,69.31750000000001,58.77777777777778,12.555555555555555,42.5,11.20814326018867,4.803000000000001,196,9,33,4,2,61,40,45,0.115,0.885,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,6,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,23,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.287187917683914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24421373058694115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21891605368316328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5999969049960203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911866646400535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24334882258829094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764679125301772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31016414237541123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551083519655677,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thisisodd101,2019/01/30,"I ate slightly over maintenance tonight.. ..and even though I know that I purposefully did this because of my health, I still want to die. I feel like a fat fuck even though I have a BMI of ~21.",3.064615384615383,4.387297512820513,3.3979487179487187,93.85538461538464,73.87179487179488,7.2512820512820495,25.82051282051281,7.793537801064563,1.0191128205128217,149,5,35,2,3,46,30,39,0.19399999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.099,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,7,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,7,1,4,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,3,23,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810874088391625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083054493898389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924158359524006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502044441013147,0.2122225243371523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27463080790547223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31576505641785085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632585619493379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513042639828647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372356308409012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837275877141624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521599711680813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Strawberry2point0,2019/01/30,"DAE get mad at their stomach? I was on the bus home from work and my stomach grumbled and cramped, apparently unsatisfied with my daily offering of shredded carrots and a protein bar. I'm 90% sure the guy in the aisle across from me heard me mutter, ""fuck you, you've had enough."" Oops.

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But that got me thinking of how often I target anger towards my stomach/hunger cues for having the absolute AUDACITY to ask for food when it has all this excess fat to gorge on. I can't be the only one, can I?",4.458657142857142,5.5298933800000025,5.321428571428573,82.355,70.2,7.7142857142857135,30.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,2.0056714285714285,398,16,78,5,7,130,78,100,0.131,0.847,0.022000000000000002,-0.9034,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,1,3,4,3,0,6,0,7,7,3,1,2,10,14,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,3,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,1,12,1,15,9,2,7,0,0,0,1,6,6,1,1,1,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28802740891632395,0.3230133483690045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485157824858179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746741326698765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214434891112894,0.0,0.0,0.24575616152020935,0.1388855480310525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21260906279839287,0.0,0.0,0.2632141471172976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666498263660865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18013373488575232,0.2021761956265011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505422509595865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17033355307904874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19352788641999505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230133483690045,0.0
EDAnonymous,morotatari,2019/01/30,"Old coworker told me I look “healthier” She worked with me when I was at a lw and tried to get me to eat more back then when she noticed. Today she came in and we were talking and she asked me about and and told me I don’t look at skinny, and that I look healthier than I was. Lol.ol.olololololololihatemyself. And food. But this is great motivation to get back on track. ",3.258423423423423,4.922344121621625,3.5713513513513497,91.4247747747748,74.0,7.636036036036036,21.792792792792795,8.344100000000001,0.8491603603603601,291,7,65,5,6,90,46,74,0.0,0.909,0.091,0.7579,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,1,0,12,14,11,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,15,1,10,8,1,12,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,0,7,47,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896650618807481,0.0,0.0,0.3120038159792938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320402423238509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20759650449923955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453228468776846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21199246018231807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22367550189656726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5111033633396732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23097979681648184,0.2128880375603768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306695697968882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230616163954364,0.3877203502561133,0.0,0.13774194745616505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769878269438858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,h8myselflol,2019/04/18,My mom asked “do any of your work clothes still fit you?” because I’ve gained weight so I used her CC to buy more clothes. Just tried them all on and they look terrible. Guess I should just quit my job and never leave the house 🤷🏻‍♀️ I wonder what it’s like to actually look good in clothes,-0.884285714285717,1.2519024761904802,0.4384126984126979,104.38714285714286,95.66666666666666,4.06984126984127,16.523809523809526,5.82211442006289,-0.8655523809523813,228,6,58,2,9,71,53,63,0.049,0.769,0.183,0.7613,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,2,3,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,10,8,3,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,10,2,5,7,2,5,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,2,3,29,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.22267578441939648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551737227067705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21332230688884668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909954583081144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19139087259758386,0.0,0.0,0.2513716619119309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632950194262727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264385458524464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161512013847586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147973527062713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38323610208828696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672476827717975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759904502034394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24270298848473865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822289507392789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492273429455478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970787003125162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27786803192901843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474570549171516,0.1661215024876418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,N-em,2019/04/18,"survey for class on interactions with ed-websites trigger warning!!!  


hi, everyone. i hope this is allowed. i'm a university junior doing a study/research paper for my research methods class on how people with eating disorders interact with ed-specific websites/networks. it is, of course, not for any kind of profit at all. i feel like it would be interesting and beneficial (on a personal level) to cover this subject. i am not pro-ed and do not encourage it in any way. i am aiming to make observations and come up with efficient hypothetical solutions.

**\*\*\*it is potentially triggering, so please proceed with caution\*\*\***  


i have suffered from an ed for around 8 years now and constantly lurk this and other subreddits/websites, so i don't want anyone to think i'm just a random outsider. i really really *really* don't want to fuck anyone up, so **please don't take this unless you're comfortable doing so**.

[here is the survey.](https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSekGyoAbVlDLTj137k97ZSOmN8j_D_LlyvDBkqd42N_37XmaQ/viewform?usp=sf_link)

it's 35 questions; most of them are multiple choice but 5 are optional answers that you can type.  
i **do not** ask any questions about weight or caloric intake.  
i **do** ask questions about pro-ed websites (and pro-recovery websites), though.  
if you are uncomfortable with a question, it is optional OR there is a ""prefer not to say""/""n/a"" option.

i'm leaving it open until sunday at 7 pm central time.

thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you endlessly if you do participate in the survey.   
also, if anyone could direct me towards other places to post this, i would greatly appreciate it.",3.9987412587412585,7.342801164335668,4.7747237762237775,73.5651625874126,84.55944055944056,7.475384615384615,28.129020979020986,8.317959484511023,2.9874380419580424,1327,60,200,33,40,426,163,286,0.049,0.8390000000000001,0.11199999999999999,0.9436,1,0,1,0,0,0,96.0,0,5,1,0,14,12,1,0,10,0,26,3,0,5,1,54,43,22,0,10,13,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,17,16,2,0,8,1,1,1,8,2,0,0,0,2,18,10,37,39,2,25,0,1,0,1,17,14,1,15,9,139,35,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307283446455136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23743684244306276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441367486940004,0.0,0.0,0.10360709352564228,0.21760804207841047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025514803104056,0.0,0.12577055741606696,0.0,0.09292374451281764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13338699504813786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909064441927902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112106065510324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058847621473189726,0.08314528145288229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075958166563732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831458663488932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559630737221994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119679685929853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323463494436505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0568597051041197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768771763822853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068652445441904,0.10162266572855376,0.12159728198615208,0.2555109894991436,0.0,0.0,0.11146440912877516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215101784330329,0.0,0.1164162352824785,0.0,0.22367713378103896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255381652497456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750136803189381,0.0,0.0,0.21430286346887653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457464193024856,0.11434741605278682,0.0,0.13572975557607336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729347005768358,0.09238078928394802,0.0,0.14172525898981914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16535275999423235,0.0,0.0,0.07494795668422974
EDAnonymous,smastorakis,2019/04/18,"Anyone else terrified of Brandy Melville? every time i’m in a store and i see a brandy melville section, i avoid it at all costs. something about it only being one size freaks me out so much.",2.0360526315789467,4.449416552631583,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,80.84210526315789,4.852631578947369,22.657894736842106,5.985473137389443,0.2615578947368422,151,5,31,1,4,46,32,38,0.20199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.0,-0.765,0,1,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,2,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832892096509507,0.4151224553482709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33844953438545783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34135503488910385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29783072062142696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745390684933708,0.30813364556082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322850852199627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119030631298959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362453136753483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hungry_duckling,2019/04/18,"Confession: Body Positive Instagramers Make Me Terrified of Recovery I know this is going to make me sound terrible, but when I look at body positive Instagramers (several of whom are open about having a history of disordered eating) I became completely focused on their weight.  So many of them have gone from being thin to overweight. They do seem happy and healthy. But, as someone who has been overweight/obese for most of their life- I can’t go back to that. I was miserable before I lost weight. Don’t get me wrong, I’m miserable now too but in a different way. If recovery means gaining weight like some of these Instagramers I just don’t think I can do it. I wish I could be happy and not care about weight, but I don’t think that’s possible for me.",3.3356748768472926,5.794563124137932,4.236871921182267,83.13353448275866,76.3793103448276,9.108374384236452,26.90886699507389,9.606745405546679,2.8346453201970454,603,24,114,18,14,194,95,145,0.158,0.635,0.207,0.882,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,4,2,8,9,0,2,2,0,17,9,2,2,0,22,33,10,0,3,7,0,5,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,3,6,0,6,0,0,3,5,5,0,0,4,7,19,4,18,26,2,12,1,3,1,0,7,5,0,4,4,79,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086246266253196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161692660093853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914029956312943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373765662950726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375303801778206,0.0,0.0,0.10472943269808564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704585869634486,0.1503334200955162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13422076020580656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06853147463201659,0.0,0.14909509350565647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27926810436878235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208819432604313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09265001193741908,0.06408356325022503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015066966352637,0.0,0.14318872723028667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511542692381388,0.13298688548875198,0.0,0.14288375861080352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14787568219717748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194132234293719,0.0,0.1481859823470595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114082915066968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16809826129941394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10411749660577573,0.0,0.6389241436970137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084026679011628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434149827638534,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smashwords,2019/04/18,"Is this normal behavior?? I’m wondering if it is normal for people without eating disorders to dictate what they eating during the day depending on what they have already eaten, despite what they might want to eat. For example, say I eat two slices of toast for breakfast I don’t believe I can eat two more in a sandwich for dinner because that’s too much bread for one day. Even if I want to eat a sandwich for lunch, I won’t because I already ate two slices in the morning. It extends to almost all food, like if I eat some chips in the morning for snack I won’t finish it later in the day because that’s just too many chips for one day even if I do want them. I’m struggling knowing if most people do this?  I’m trying to decide if this is a healthy behavior or another eating disorder ritual. 
If it helps for context I am at restored weight now.",5.5718604651162815,5.451446418604653,6.4854418604651185,79.2002558139535,67.37209302325581,8.973023255813953,33.47906976744186,8.548686976883017,2.672235348837209,672,28,129,9,10,224,88,172,0.034,0.868,0.098,0.7489,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,4,0,6,2,0,1,7,0,12,19,0,1,1,24,22,8,0,12,10,0,1,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,12,0,19,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,0,5,2,2,14,1,22,17,5,13,1,0,0,0,6,6,0,14,8,91,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047695619687453,0.0,0.19941682249716536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09474454640532456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523775008103167,0.0,0.0,0.10179855355251748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330846491347093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20710811524738945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7396414890483958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935655870021115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925699122433136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060562700779214676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049656457123666696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044142633070738034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916052571301054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585182060594696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642093629663415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705640512944945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245306287603673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528083415918004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185350600529845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09445811654212713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061344758288835365,0.0,0.2647895825673731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15988023312819416,0.0,0.0,0.11002741032488443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709849071092596,0.09798557513126256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blondierespondy,2019/04/18,"Im poor and its feeding my ED Im trying to recover, but i literally cant afford food. Im gonna go on random acts of pizza tonight but tbh if it doesnt happen the universe just wants me to get skinny lol",-1.4792907801418416,0.43861046808510906,2.528829787234045,90.88416666666667,93.25531914893615,4.835460992907802,18.471631205673766,6.42735559955562,0.06366950354609903,160,5,37,2,6,60,39,47,0.047,0.8690000000000001,0.085,0.3919,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,1,0,0,7,7,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32145708747584445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889142345356853,0.0,0.1510840812789773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350831191616255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8614646302291683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804892035782799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568004436464316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mouserat_18,2019/10/04,"do i have an eating disorder? do i have an eating disorder? honestly unsure

to start- i’m 19, 5’ 9 170 lbs around 20% body fat, Male 


i used to be pretty insecure about my weight. actually very insecure. i would skip breakfast and lunch and not eat til i got home from school every day when i was in high school for my last two years. 


i truly thought i was fat and needed to lose weight. i am not skinny but i’m not obese by any means. i’m very active (love sports), play basketball and lift weights very often. 


to describe my body, i have a defined upper body but a decent amount of lower body fat, like i have some love handles but you can also see my ribs and you can see my collarbone and shoulder muscle (like by my neck) really easily. 


 i still fast pretty much every day (it’s not unhealthy, i’ve done a lot of research- i’m hydrated) , not for weight loss really just because it’s how i’m used to living at this point. however, the thing that concerns me is that i may have a disorder since i will have certain days where i literally eat everything in sight. it’s kinda bad. i’ve never made myself puke or anything, but i have definitely fasted after having a cheat day. 


i’m fine with how i look although i really want abs (but who doesn’t). i’m only about 5-8% body fat percentage away from abs so that’s pretty much my goal. 


sorry if i rambled but i’m wondering if i should maybe get a therapist or something ? like i said this is something that has been in my mind since i was like 14-15. i started “dieting” (really just eating healthier, nothing crazy) when i was 16. i will go long times of eating really clean then binge eating. 



any advice or input is appreciated thanks",1.6693173198482896,3.9353889616519173,3.6771040876527614,85.9509026548673,81.21238938053095,6.942132321955332,21.190139064475343,8.052868069273773,1.1740974462705434,1314,39,264,26,35,445,187,339,0.075,0.7190000000000001,0.20600000000000002,0.9942,2,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,2,0,3,14,17,1,2,9,0,30,30,13,5,2,46,58,26,0,6,18,0,4,4,0,5,5,1,2,1,11,8,20,0,3,2,0,1,7,6,0,1,10,9,37,11,25,42,5,30,0,2,4,2,7,10,0,11,23,153,48,4,0.0,0.0,0.0666688620117209,0.0,0.0,0.06675990839549524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463416591921957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291765185834536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05622018723356865,0.06081782262948001,0.0,0.0,0.0641873459023657,0.0,0.05704297496682826,0.0416462367071811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794314703148245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623875535549324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23489627002930696,0.0,0.0,0.06991339948934823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4893471489122251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512232571082212,0.0,0.06140013465061561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03569352212888046,0.0,0.03882689704203039,0.0,0.05464043160270536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218209578114826,0.06852888304787512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055688579803529537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350759459075193,0.0,0.06032636144342283,0.06045959665502201,0.057370213996668924,0.07643076703622095,0.0,0.05808182457502036,0.12331997018753632,0.06464448186450061,0.0,0.0,0.06863497285731815,0.07441871967905525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06898206583838204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004437073477109,0.05065719652874782,0.05269132910247296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655533067085804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195918952570875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645829304112441,0.0,0.0,0.2085129918279233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883244646755914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498640285885472,0.0,0.0,0.13828365054249173,0.1088817716575252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130273028387918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051896188831904,0.0,0.07647680806781477,0.09671217033563773,0.0,0.05455912865898235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289836485092641,0.0,0.07932287885300869,0.04538768112007397,0.0,0.0,0.05423714472883298,0.03983698373956068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673710836530197,0.0,0.0,0.11801025163865952,0.0,0.1691093997821584,0.04029593740165807,0.0,0.0,0.33277341811452993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408834459083358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048531401115577535,0.0,0.0,0.043994782412608735
EDAnonymous,LacedWithIce,2019/10/04,"Ana buddy? I live in SLC, UT 29. For monitoring purposes ""support"" 

I want to push harder, family is coming in in December. 

29, 5'4'' 

divorced, have kids... they don't live with me and I work an office job. I'm semi pretty with tattoos and a few piercings. 

Tell me when I am strong and how to cut my losses. 

DM me? We can Snap from there! I don't mind younger girls so long as you are over 18 and love on your own.",-0.692695924764891,1.4094687586206902,2.007189132706376,94.75899686520378,91.29885057471265,5.0027168234064785,17.104493207941484,6.574015621080383,-0.17650804597701164,310,8,72,4,11,107,69,87,0.054000000000000006,0.805,0.141,0.8339,1,0,0,0,1,0,18.0,1,2,1,3,5,5,1,0,2,0,7,1,0,1,0,11,12,8,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,13,3,12,12,2,9,0,1,0,1,9,5,0,0,2,44,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454546947196219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686205763953437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827637235515725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032229171840226,0.25216716102663805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571737863016129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877129962257619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898912777869179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233519562820721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490542946174147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680678121864248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20744319139019915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDThrowaway1995,2019/10/04,"My boss called me a heffalump. I've never wanted to end my life more I saw a private email by accident from the boss of my company so someone else in which he referred to me as a heffalump. 

In the context of ""(boyfriends name) and his heffalump were here last night""

I had anorexia throughout my teenage years and recovered, but not without developing a binge eating disorder. this past years has been the worst of my life and my weight shows it.

I've never ever been fat. Guess I am now. To the point that it's what people use to define me. 

I dont see how I can ever forget being called a heffalump. It will never leave my mind and I will always feel sick to my gut thinking about it. 

I haven't eaten today. I cant see myself ever eating again. I'm so so broken by his comment. 

I will never get over this. My worst fear has become my reality. I'm fat.",1.356025396825398,3.5329658628571434,3.1708095238095275,89.64580158730162,81.8,5.260317460317459,21.722222222222207,6.42735559955562,0.429126984126984,666,21,136,6,18,222,104,175,0.19,0.8029999999999999,0.006999999999999999,-0.9889,0,0,0,0,0,1,20.0,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,1,9,0,15,10,3,4,7,26,27,10,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,9,4,6,0,3,1,0,0,9,3,0,0,6,5,25,0,17,17,3,20,0,0,3,0,8,4,0,1,16,98,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535666680057613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311311265924907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831267164609421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888943007153908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16248093543544956,0.0,0.0,0.28371948272472497,0.115812999136751,0.0,0.12279078190883295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762139307393883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560045960882482,0.07009877562326358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243184475763832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272372531718087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300724407465812,0.0,0.1467960268864134,0.0,0.0,0.19584610771849104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998333551465605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277000354118494,0.0,0.0,0.13010095570572006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323442181079397,0.09611308718956647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105629566760033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22095066867198665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746624928913528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883266580681334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141118352825767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973741615688124,0.0,0.0,0.08177139458811808,0.0,0.0,0.16882189766331354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336406304757264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855471019923708
EDAnonymous,alt_tentacle,2019/10/04,"Why can't I just eat like a normal person and be sociable UGHHH So I started working in an office a few months ago. It's my first time being in such an environment, so I don't know if it's usually like this, but food is a very central part of the average work day. People there try their best to make the atmosphere ""family like"", a part of that is often having lunch together. They all share their pastas and shit while I have the same plain sandwich + fruit every day.  I'm glad to be around nice, friendly people, and I'm glad they keep inviting me to join them, but it makes me ANXIOUS AS FUCK. Just hearing them share  recepies makes me panic. The joy and casuality that comes with their food discussion... I haven't experienced that in so so long. I've been dealing with an ED since I was a preteen, and while I've made major progress, calorie counting is not something I can get rid off.  The only way I can eat without it completely occupying my brain for hours is knowing how many calories are in it. Don't really care if it's much, I just have to know. Sometimes I can eat without worrying about that, but I can't do it every single time. Now that I've been there for a while, people are starting to feel free to  comment on  my weight and eating habits (like any other family would!) and I always take it to heart. I know my ""habits"" are making me reclusive, I know it seems weird and impolite to rarely join them, I know. But I just can't eat like a normal person right now, nor do I have the energy to pretend to be one.

Sorry for the rant, I don't know anyone IRL who might understand what I'm talking about.",4.558975029036006,4.999679189024395,5.539233449477353,83.16825203252036,69.60975609756098,8.442740998838557,27.509291521486645,8.418075326091056,1.7385169570267132,1266,39,261,18,21,418,171,328,0.113,0.727,0.16,0.9628,0,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,8,5,18,20,2,1,17,0,32,16,3,6,1,49,59,24,0,5,13,0,2,5,1,2,0,1,0,2,18,12,12,1,10,2,1,1,11,4,0,2,4,5,34,17,29,49,9,27,0,0,0,1,19,8,2,5,22,174,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655399703318749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185944037786883,0.0,0.0,0.05872858049719493,0.0,0.0,0.09756357932104197,0.0,0.060385762169311415,0.0,0.0,0.07687978162437273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906307560371669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640766556301213,0.0,0.0,0.08805100363828115,0.0,0.0,0.07439253071449171,0.09054807980491897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139166480874567,0.08903460970945787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44184536139863867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552607900250286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282731526371233,0.0,0.04366681984812997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345879641167764,0.20885662251294893,0.0,0.06672245235177464,0.0798395419343633,0.04512016491269291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733535398830646,0.10233844311988087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504839027132573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676180659804946,0.0,0.0,0.3322330160849664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21095861117603212,0.0,0.0,0.07642694833475804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171705980402051,0.23058709838027625,0.08755670641405737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09161559040359564,0.0,0.0,0.06893268948070085,0.0,0.06348542213916182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692312883378484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058520587200096875,0.06568158759073346,0.0,0.10132626589440126,0.0,0.18704153722431527,0.0,0.17961595588674895,0.15081454528717625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055325198993882566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375199675494146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07861999705712389,0.0,0.0,0.08864853535321274,0.07143888077658768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648507443417342,0.0854134394794093,0.0966742979176092,0.1222538100569704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493287798324199,0.06941386485544683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007158256595184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05863358894248094,0.0,0.0,0.08990505955346255,0.0,0.0,0.0951146657138802,0.07125703817167517,0.0,0.06854950433176034,0.0,0.10516468121073487,0.0,0.0,0.0779275544156778,0.0,0.0,0.16649823862080074,0.0,0.12574397083449962,0.08770399522043071,0.0,0.061348521837443826,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,localuglybitch,2019/10/04,I love being broke bc then I can’t buy food life hackz,-3.684102564102563,-3.179899923076924,-1.1923076923076916,111.32897435897436,125.15384615384615,1.7333333333333334,4.333333333333333,3.1291,-3.1689282051282053,43,0,12,0,3,14,12,13,0.187,0.5329999999999999,0.28,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7258000988123176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239599664142758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5417307111859508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,honestly-being,2019/10/04,"Maybe if I type it out it will help me come to terms. I have an ED. I’ve tried to just say I over eat. But I binge. I eat in secret. I don’t know where to start in order to stop this behavior. Every day I think I’m not going to binge today. But I do. I don’t know why, I don’t have any triggers that I can think of. It just happens. I never feel full. Even when I way overeat I never feel satiated. And maybe I would if I stopped at a certain point but I don’t know. 

I’m not sure what I’m looking for here. I just need to say it out loud because I feel ashamed that I do it and I can’t tell my family yet. I feel too embarrassed. Thanks for listening.",-1.8932426704344751,-0.07940753020134039,1.0898975626986953,101.2162027552102,94.1006711409396,4.4791239844577895,15.89579653832568,6.05967700443912,-0.7668201342281877,494,12,132,5,19,172,81,149,0.1,0.8440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.6851,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,2,2,0,12,3,0,1,4,34,32,8,0,4,10,0,4,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,9,5,3,2,10,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,0,9,24,3,15,30,2,23,0,0,1,0,6,9,0,2,10,83,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971114931519088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098346361588279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13897305155438505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10404565772608533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33016539482643115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10655812555642302,0.0,0.13592899102559133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520892531902933,0.0,0.3262968014496144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916885739927607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426651688466063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813729792389228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659911973246989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354780709187216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241589344884849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962547785273722,0.24885804404916506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251068833212675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565950291449964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11419147113688448,0.0,0.0,0.2697612003373835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205330253166113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14101109520534288,0.148532636368416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20674979312610312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15292367262741652,0.0,0.0,0.10953369512585616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12805766530630336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455768466713484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146054745848237,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,look_down___,2019/10/04,"do you want to recover? i'm just wondering

i had an eating disorder for many years but after being in recovery for two years i can say i no longer have it, or at least i dont do ed behaviours anymore but the idea is sometimes there.

anyways i now eat normal, i guess, and i think i am happy on how far i've come, but also i'm not feeling better. when i had my ed i had a goal in life, my life made sense and my mind was always too busy thinking about food in order to think about anything else, now i dont have anything that pushes me like that and honestly sometimes i really miss it.

that probably means that i'm not fully recovered i guess. i don't know if i feel better or worse. 

for those who haven't recovered: do you want to? and for those who recovered: do you miss it?",2.715,3.606847484848487,4.576136363636369,86.74420454545456,74.15151515151516,8.166666666666668,24.65909090909091,8.59863814320734,1.4732727272727268,605,18,134,11,12,207,94,165,0.132,0.777,0.09,-0.7088,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,3,12,7,0,0,3,0,18,5,0,2,0,31,37,13,0,4,9,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,11,5,3,0,9,0,0,2,7,2,0,1,5,3,22,5,15,31,1,15,0,2,0,0,6,6,0,6,7,93,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883215082848667,0.11323885052294445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496598513495886,0.0,0.0,0.22398306238101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407233631170373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723059101635212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15597240212090618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189959431197984,0.0,0.0,0.2785107179826368,0.11368680512009162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376236847822049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456212108739693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998397852877819,0.0,0.0,0.14487170266756302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15363049480505464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07479221071700333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19225059749493315,0.06648732723737681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877286368586702,0.0,0.1379752018352251,0.0,0.14824330505107314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137413401805817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13334056362757934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672942211197382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718356149277638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822525152207063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691955198926987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616053994237507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294140985347278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054033088220898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475851924794549,0.0,0.0,0.1386886452317353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752766502292704
EDAnonymous,cozalex8,2019/10/04,"My mother weighs less than me My mum likes to randomly check my weight an recently she was excited because she weighs less than I do and she keeps mentioning it when we eat and stuff. It's really getting me down but she's watching me loads at meal times to make sure I'm eating properly.

Eurgh",1.6242857142857154,4.208244745762713,3.09714285714286,87.86983050847458,84.59322033898306,7.439225181598062,21.987893462469735,8.418075326091056,1.6557825665859562,236,8,47,6,7,77,44,59,0.0,0.888,0.11199999999999999,0.6757,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,1,1,8,6,4,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,12,3,6,5,2,5,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,1,4,30,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17810909310650058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5979423956106357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265102825138355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597013714444497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274348942127196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19503118914437992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187176809547803,0.0,0.2884906822101012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33447408769029235,0.0,0.0,0.2753744559574047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17037143345843075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3557942829688455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dised,2019/10/04,"did / will i have a heart attack? i’ve been low restricting for about a week now, eating around 200-250 cals per day, with 400 cals burned with exercise. yesterday, i had about 2700 mg of sodium (bouillon broth), which i think might have exacerbated my chest pain.

anyway, i woke up today and was having trouble breathing and felt super nauseous. i made myself throw up to try and make it go away but it didn’t really work, i just threw up water and still felt awful. i ended up lying on the tile floor in the bathroom because i was worried i would pass out and hurt myself (has happened to me before).

i was freaking out because i was so faint and felt like i couldn’t breathe, so i made myself some bagel bites (450 cals) and ate them as a last ditch effort kind of thing. i feel a bit better now, but my heart rate is still around 110-120ish. i don’t think i can make myself eat anything else today or even this weekend.

i’m sorry for being over dramatic, i’m just scared that it’s only going to get worse. am i going to have a heart attack if i just keep not eating for a while? i’m on the high end of a normal bmi, so it’s not like there isn’t fat to burn.

is it worth it to go to a doctor if i don’t feel better? is there even anything they can do for me?",2.542018867924529,3.621795909433967,3.8710849056603776,90.90851415094342,74.81132075471697,6.205660377358491,20.419811320754718,6.2581,0.030739622641509087,976,19,217,6,20,321,150,265,0.163,0.7659999999999999,0.071,-0.9740000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,2,33.0,0,0,2,5,19,14,2,1,11,1,28,16,7,4,0,41,52,17,0,5,10,0,5,2,0,3,5,0,0,0,10,13,6,2,7,2,1,7,7,8,0,0,16,5,29,6,32,31,2,37,0,2,0,0,2,16,0,5,16,141,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17053920184328664,0.1844857415004332,0.0,0.23576312303189964,0.09735345324581518,0.0,0.0,0.12633035066767814,0.0,0.08817212968868847,0.0,0.0,0.18328515457645506,0.11312510140551366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668256771969493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10605842829819262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31808428979842257,0.08656037112446176,0.0,0.1835513410742608,0.0,0.0,0.13687873298647535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478575079737447,0.0,0.29847144379921503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05413664623301338,0.0,0.2355562426033927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162993179100626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683670107548612,0.0,0.10947915337555617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092627327517957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921013204638479,0.0,0.10790323410882716,0.0,0.0844633077441039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124601029400858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19609358992248527,0.13833296260180966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992337498555696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152461106947216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880691212682005,0.1102579124149289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06638097913645524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374068676073717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599297733768395,0.0,0.0,0.1655005205890244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883985355275819,0.13278973133462305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196437375785066,0.0,0.0,0.07035049335686412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311690461184536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543585975554201,0.10523011544079436,0.10559660454286277,0.07360795843850503,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LuvMuffinMandie,2019/10/04,"I might be addicted... It started as a goal of losing weight. Tracking food, limiting intake to 1200. The lbs flew off (20 so far) in a few months. The thing is, I still have a ways to go ( would be happy another 20 lbs down). I find myself eating even less. And almost enjoying the feelings of hunger. I'll occasionally wear a tight corset which makes a lot of the hunger feelings go away.

 It all seems like a means to an end, but maybe it's developed into more than that. I just find being thin so damn feminine, so the more I get to that point, the happier I get.",1.6415550239234449,3.6774012894736856,3.35708133971292,89.45275119617224,79.96491228070175,6.952472089314195,20.889952153110045,8.00094639256281,0.8846421052631586,433,12,94,8,11,144,79,114,0.085,0.82,0.095,0.2697,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,1,0,13,0,7,7,1,1,1,18,18,6,0,1,2,0,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,2,5,2,6,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,5,7,3,14,12,6,16,0,1,0,0,0,8,1,4,5,62,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048460217587192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18816140108154594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970365421850614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654451524020492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19227544880952055,0.0,0.0,0.16642954847129596,0.0,0.0,0.12411059267088452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900225309100538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434866101375022,0.0,0.22721750831218304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963469737802784,0.0,0.2135833977928651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003015935596188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180171432762653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21021951486156315,0.0,0.15975154323191396,0.0,0.0,0.12542917076918214,0.0,0.18877752057315186,0.2046854657383689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19933929720388852,0.0,0.0,0.14998532252996866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776325533008953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106318794103173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300131817028446,0.0,0.15006252066691245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124836851385144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14915157951797392,0.0,0.22881971890229855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348351709245224,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunarian7,2019/10/04,"Binging in the middle of the night I love doing this as a substitute for love and companionship hahaha

(i’m so lonely and i will feel even worse tomorrow after this binge)",3.766363636363636,6.097911090909093,5.5060606060606085,75.17909090909096,74.45454545454545,9.248484848484848,23.12121212121212,9.725611199111238,2.5035939393939395,138,4,24,4,3,47,27,33,0.141,0.573,0.28600000000000003,0.7968,0,2,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,5,5,0,5,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726274118884472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20870640324745465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7450731166997674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3873520226705081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4206428328580897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ChemCat6,2019/10/04,"I've been listening to a song named ""x ana x"" for ages thinking it's about anorexia. Today I actually realised it's about xanax lmao Not sure if I'm posting this in the right sub, please remove if it's not suitable! I've been listening to this during my runs, really feeling the lyrics and all. I was really into it, honestly it made so much sense to me. I found it on spotify some time ago but today I opened it on YouTube for the first time and realised it's about xanax. I felt like a dumbass lmao I've been spending too much time on ED community sites maybe... (the song is Badflower- x ana x)",2.0818847006651886,3.9252950894308967,3.928632668144864,86.81228381374723,77.78048780487805,7.724759793052478,25.00295639320029,8.575989854853784,1.7018357723577244,468,17,100,10,11,158,72,123,0.052000000000000005,0.812,0.136,0.8458,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,6,0,5,2,0,1,2,18,13,6,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,10,4,0,0,4,2,1,2,2,0,0,1,7,6,7,3,13,6,4,19,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,3,9,55,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.21000840275394572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907656722730371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881378591823046,0.0,0.20662992529124613,0.0,0.0,0.1830527108305892,0.0,0.2359604627872689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051379753962048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036315601252268,0.0,0.0,0.2162016957825338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163999190966997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362297524954497,0.0,0.0,0.2061062800637806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757308354554539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837833397038165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282755376497308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13789425840471292,0.0,0.0,0.3764621626903976,0.0,0.4079771226976929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,a120800,2019/10/04,Please Help ASAP  My girlfriend and I are in college and she has officially relapsed with ED and could not even drink three small sips of a smoothie she hasn’t really eaten anything today. She said never to tell her mom if she does and to never get her help. But she doesn’t want to fix it she said. I know this is the ED talking and not her. Please someone give me advice what to do. She has been suicidal in the past so telling her mom could trigger something. She back to her room and is trying to fall asleep (her roommate is there so I doubt she would do anything).,1.3415986622073568,3.7604012869565215,2.2252173913043483,94.86484949832777,83.95652173913044,4.5819397993311055,21.02006688963211,5.8734145424116955,0.01494648829431444,448,14,94,3,13,140,71,115,0.083,0.846,0.071,-0.5266,0,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,14,3,1,1,2,20,21,10,1,5,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,3,7,2,0,1,1,0,1,6,1,0,1,4,2,20,0,10,14,0,10,0,0,0,0,26,4,0,2,5,68,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578851761754962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659181050221548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12423801953075105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25800237197307024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413917499459906,0.0,0.0,0.15827793386984865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067160303911962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441410668596018,0.1549934931108792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165950857601648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887951201883801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37845968111761297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249226818256879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423766968817246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547125748191956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350643131133108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073817778058662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368984668645621,0.1243851430323897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17673229876966048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12986453849915233,0.2824401094304379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531502849775592,0.0,0.0,0.1096960093552087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529868043148557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147753045103589,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,humanblooperreel,2019/10/04,"Do you ever think that you don’t ACTUALLY have an eating disorder? Does anyone else experience this? I feel like I exhibit stereotypical symptoms of an eating disorder, which is why people might think that I have one, but I don’t actually have one.
I’ve normalized my own behavior in my mind for such a long time that I’ve become attached, almost addicted, to these habits.
I understand what I must do for recovery; I’m not asking for advice.
I think that my eating disorder comes from a part of me that likes to feel pain and is addicted to self-destruction.
Things are going to go up from here. If any of you feel this way, just know that we will be able to understand one day. It’s not a question of if I’ll recover, because I’m going to recover. It’s just a matter of when. I think soon.",4.281801029159522,5.227918918238999,6.077461406518013,77.23533447684395,70.50943396226415,10.310120068610637,28.29102344196684,10.436869588844218,2.9767685534591206,624,22,124,18,11,216,91,159,0.081,0.8740000000000001,0.044000000000000004,-0.755,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,3,0,0,7,3,0,0,6,0,14,7,0,0,2,28,31,5,0,4,7,0,3,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,14,3,3,0,11,0,0,4,4,1,0,3,0,3,16,2,18,27,2,13,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,5,8,86,30,0,0.11473560955711955,0.0,0.2239308082341865,0.25015750005861226,0.0,0.112118309759174,0.0,0.0,0.11489113944699265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07802414895054001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08022580593813733,0.11756019081830815,0.0,0.0,0.10726230676711064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0699417626485941,0.12671646643680762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988345682482886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399497632418782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3944908463385115,0.0,0.10040590511306392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35220951705978165,0.09584687923311998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378492758202797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223344218421588,0.0,0.0,0.1740413148342461,0.08196714239286501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19562067298341265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305569041717919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11210804662022414,0.0,0.0,0.10153740393897663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171635022207344,0.11585025820702488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241653668944664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332434552504557,0.0,0.12208677803072812,0.0,0.0,0.12424748424683099,0.0,0.07954322510638978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12853014118177306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196942636747291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192542298101192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622524076762277,0.29407178313336285,0.0,0.0,0.06690325661208703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388876318351192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107178636341158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353104164284316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IceInIridian,2019/10/04,"im going to see joker tonight! but like. what the fuck do i eat while im there? lol
i think im just going to fast all day then eat while im there, but i know popcorn and everything is such high calorie but it doesnt say HOW high in calorie and i dont trust my estimations. and i dont think i can sneak food in without looking like a madwoman to my family ):",-1.121624999999998,0.8597700875000029,1.837500000000002,96.13750000000002,91.875,5.2,19.25,6.742157984588678,0.10972499999999964,277,9,68,4,10,97,48,80,0.147,0.716,0.13699999999999998,-0.4301,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,2,1,6,4,0,1,1,13,14,10,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,3,0,3,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,3,8,3,6,14,1,12,0,0,2,1,1,4,1,0,8,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685363650573972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3520195397874271,0.0,0.0,0.30734313988844203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497204541325286,0.0,0.14157628071035794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815981782247091,0.0,0.0,0.13883893353371385,0.0,0.0,0.17070144033503598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173467017697893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6488804200193394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253496686757619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467406645169014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611332488093813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942911518429697,0.0,0.0,0.11967396743068523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1924584816772429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476810190342765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,egmjcad11192116,2019/10/04,"I feel guilty for eating more food Hi! I posted this in another sub, but honestly I feel like I may be able to get some help or some perspective from this sub as well. I honestly don’t know where to go, but if this is the wrong place I’m sorry! I won’t be upset if it gets taken down. 

Over the past year I’ve dealt with a major death in my family, infidelity and a career change. I’ve lost a good amount of weight and I didn’t even realize. I never stressed about losing weight or trying to be skinny, and I work out for an hour a couple times a week just to stay healthy. I was generally happy with the way I looked and as long as I was healthy, I didn’t care. 

But recently I found myself losing a lot of hair, more than normal. I spoke to my dermatologist, and they told me that I needed to increase my intake of food and pay attention to my nutrients and all that to prevent future hair loss, and that stress plays a big role in female hair loss. I had lost 15 lbs in the past few weeks without realizing. 

I didn’t even realize that I was eating less before, I just ate until I was full - which in retrospect I ate very small portions. But as I tried to increase my food intake... I felt guilty. I felt like a glutton. I cried into my plate of food, and I have no idea why. I’ve never felt like this before, and I have no desire to restrict my diet or anything. The thing is... I’m still happy with the way I look. I mean, I won’t be that happy if my hair continues to fall out, but I don’t know where these feelings of guilt are stemming from. 

I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to stop this feeling of guilt and I’m honestly worried I’m going to go bald.",3.0819491525423715,3.5866348926553684,4.729166666666668,87.42815677966105,72.954802259887,7.8209039548022625,23.507062146892657,7.937092434478242,0.9497028248587572,1288,31,293,17,24,437,169,354,0.153,0.639,0.20800000000000002,0.977,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,1,7,10,25,0,5,15,0,25,18,6,1,3,64,58,28,1,6,14,0,13,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,15,17,13,3,18,1,1,6,14,12,1,0,19,16,45,13,45,32,14,42,0,6,2,0,6,16,0,10,19,189,60,3,0.08609786884340644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028112249378792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085121004426423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652588995611726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877825154080143,0.0,0.09108012906632047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526565426759144,0.09457446608002083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761992283666503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373366072545965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116540823146404,0.0,0.17413467775492494,0.06150833470489719,0.2480023681155213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164395390454783,0.09440186922004724,0.0,0.0,0.08996516582438198,0.0,0.14679420896962198,0.07221480750012993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749583471015157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05770958662055115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847890577157901,0.0,0.0,0.0971940140555916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892685482501751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618920923664906,0.0,0.0,0.07619390458448584,0.14460105105218668,0.1926429845076764,0.18797198890911815,0.07319732920173805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937858196256184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384047880525102,0.13280796843457224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435763115808866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643803159759144,0.0,0.0,0.0899539479440987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245795870282224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501125855857311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637951523384994,0.0,0.0917688725011041,0.0687578692754955,0.07198167356045278,0.19724963573157636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057199598341791585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05020435970331062,0.0,0.0,0.08227020332298612,0.0,0.11690960266426295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103975869407415,0.0,0.1366809615239489,0.13812503408558086,0.20968801870071355,0.07741232402859352,0.0,0.07768993496434205,0.0,0.0,0.08299527315542927,0.0,0.06268027393866875,0.08743656510048795,0.0,0.0,0.09413450371038144,0.0,0.055444204705640966
EDAnonymous,LioxTheGreat,2019/10/04,"I feel like Im nothing without my ED Before it started I think I was a semi interesting person, but once all my concentration went to calories, food and weight loss I stopped being interested in anything else. I have no personality. I have no hobbies. The only thing interesting about me is my ED so even when I tried to stop listening to it for WEEKS I felt scared of letting it go because without it Id be nothing, an absolute nobody. What the fuck",4.016850649350648,5.765965295454548,5.940129870129873,74.86590909090911,72.18181818181819,8.21038961038961,33.02597402597402,8.841846274778883,3.0037610389610387,358,18,65,7,7,124,65,88,0.225,0.667,0.10800000000000001,-0.9118,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,1,4,0,7,3,0,0,1,10,15,4,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,2,2,3,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,3,4,12,4,9,9,1,8,0,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,6,46,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14913975548273534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11047827950982883,0.0,0.15421638802141122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15139736136281498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197030392293534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163711969495457,0.12947327211924226,0.17401261280167546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21914830737465155,0.0,0.0,0.16754748081209106,0.0,0.0,0.10299919327810793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957633153673932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18532356634251515,0.0,0.08854154971785662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34779692543481605,0.0,0.0,0.19300779772078347,0.0,0.13783626846974162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164922608581711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18144638288297985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827802739377414,0.0,0.0,0.30303869721736915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204035062361801,0.116127129995967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304567236070407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453746082579128,0.2206936184798114,0.0,0.16800530070366448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34940531677272624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sryimtheworrst,2019/10/04,"Recovery/teeth brushing... am I alone on this? Almost 10 ish years ago, I had extreme disordered eating. I’ve been recovered for years now, but I brush my teeth more than the usual two times a day. Maybe I’m just weird. I really think it’s because I use to brush my teeth all the time when I purged and maybe it’s comforting? I have no idea. If anyone else who is recovered or in recovery does this, please tell me. Thank you",0.9980232558139548,3.3894039186046534,2.445395348837213,92.84786046511627,85.3953488372093,6.695813953488373,19.06511627906977,7.908726449838941,0.7575711627906978,331,9,72,7,10,107,66,86,0.076,0.7979999999999999,0.126,0.7389,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,5,3,2,1,1,10,9,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,11,2,5,7,2,11,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,9,40,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181349649178888,0.0,0.20485937761720385,0.21188531165807867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430485305693048,0.20961849311895497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471132268865523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193850169417606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344687607346697,0.0,0.17903113616558972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20933851761188907,0.170902056683904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309482398050919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110603466007848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245696630332395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310605039204315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17881373456860114,0.18835167102049533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13108792104737668,0.0,0.0,0.23858688452541035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19984694211800905,0.0,0.0,0.1766932109155083,0.2253182319337504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26348827360576155
EDAnonymous,dietcokemonster,2019/10/04,"I can’t have an eating disorder, I eat way too much. I had a THOUSAND calories today. Clearly, I am eating like a normal person and everything is fine. Obviously. 😭😭😭😂😂😂",-0.7994594594594595,1.336595540540543,3.879783783783784,80.42670270270273,93.5945945945946,6.203243243243244,23.616216216216216,7.554174236665415,1.736604324324325,133,6,26,3,5,52,28,37,0.08800000000000001,0.684,0.228,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,3,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904083274082753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.777847529512795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277317184002555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12379416636723838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862717256806311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24826962675579425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125146735893556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24018527849209714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20113018132634064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,craycrayeyeliner,2019/06/17,"SO texted me at work today according to his mother, I’m too fat for him

and apparently my skin isn’t good enough either

brb bawling my eyes out in the office bathroom rn",2.705047619047616,4.510564457142864,4.46857142857143,83.80476190476192,75.85714285714286,6.9523809523809526,23.095238095238088,7.793537801064563,1.1410952380952386,136,4,27,2,3,46,34,35,0.0,0.917,0.083,0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,2,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,17,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5776473085741073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4689039789027448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5299133119497462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069945052266867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hogshitsnarfer,2019/06/17,"Your experience with refusing weigh-ins at your PCP’s? I really, really, really need a refill/higher dose of my Prozac but my mind is telling me I have to lose 10 lbs before going to see my family doctor. I remembered some people on here talking about refusing weigh ins at appointments and that seems like a way around this barrier, but I’m a very meek person. ED is on my chart but I’m normal weight, maintained exactly a 20 BMI for the last year and a half after residential. What happened when you refused to get weighed? I’m scared that the nurse will give me attitude about it and I’ll cave, or that the doc will bring it up during the appointment.",4.7227131782945735,5.836692124031007,5.824806201550387,78.83085271317833,69.62015503875969,10.074418604651164,26.73643410852713,10.25414643259724,2.6699829457364346,520,16,101,14,9,173,90,129,0.14,0.835,0.025,-0.9279999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,1,5,3,0,1,9,0,5,6,0,0,1,20,16,8,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,7,5,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,2,12,1,16,14,1,14,0,1,1,0,10,7,0,3,5,60,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521732683308625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748486619705424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146027702074987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19253409844095856,0.1855505200008991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283372969108076,0.18881392696289065,0.11186104360188592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740530360313016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795801824467133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16043987874659082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615949250034406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201985225527877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873866990046501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594436592544247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928481931956774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136454721827099,0.17186131980627914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782763141126085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22296607098114365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970576768720332,0.0,0.15684524820060278,0.1791834657814268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15820169605253795,0.1720350484495479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240248713877614,0.0,0.15623172505131466,0.0,0.2396816683094865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267498216091017
EDAnonymous,YouCanJustThrowMeAwy,2019/06/17,"Prejudice from Professionals Today I finally sought help from a health care professional. In the UK, within the South East you can call Time to Talk for them to allocate you a counsellor. I self referred and was called within a few hours for an assessment. They rejected me, saying I’d to be referred to my GP to see an Eating Disorder specialist (which I didn’t want to do*). She also asked me about the eating disorder, she asked for my BMI, and was audibly surprised that I wasn’t underweight and told me that I wasn’t doing drastic harm to myself and could wait a few weeks before seeing someone. I really felt like because I was bigger (UK size 12), it wasn’t taken seriously. Which after working up the courage to talk to someone felt like a huge set back. 

* I didn’t want to see my GP because I am undergoing some medical investigations regarding my lower bowel and I was concerned if they knew they wouldn’t take it seriously. My sister was diagnosed with bowel cancer at my age and I am currently undergoing the same screening process.",7.464342408860174,7.439478507614214,8.22601753576373,67.98417628057223,63.41624365482234,11.833687125057684,35.67558837101984,11.389717465364855,4.292597969543148,834,35,144,23,11,281,114,197,0.126,0.769,0.106,-0.7222,4,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,4,1,3,10,1,0,12,0,18,8,2,0,0,20,33,8,0,5,1,1,2,2,0,1,4,2,0,1,6,7,2,1,5,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,15,8,29,5,23,15,4,19,0,1,4,0,19,9,0,2,11,101,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170996678309264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611824093696385,0.0,0.0,0.10741291461633304,0.0,0.1703073394065817,0.0,0.11886582074480513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852780231152588,0.0,0.14242316827616036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153102269428644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14178231340884132,0.0,0.0,0.32019346723128383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2858752934471271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682484307406729,0.15302346324458446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848383711718158,0.0,0.0,0.0936311989717262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756641831125455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649086341937638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407228834452656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894889302862194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11108701942016434,0.0,0.0,0.3339443063832216,0.0,0.14572703644238744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367176068641444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502942414664326,0.22455490900748454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814543071246816,0.0,0.13240969669264488,0.13347969077352087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16478545074847564,0.0,0.11205081604966773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169591474189887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pandaDesu,2019/06/17,this place must be a cult I just tried Monster White for the first time and there's no way you all actually like this stuff /s,2.93888888888889,4.002543814814814,3.223148148148152,95.9991666666667,73.81481481481481,6.881481481481483,20.907407407407405,7.1686216300943375,0.03182962962962943,101,2,25,1,2,31,26,27,0.08199999999999999,0.8240000000000001,0.094,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.4070462352431421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547996928577321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037824034891251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4357987143181227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4774994206089713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432244043970577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831952109772343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310882327305871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,abblestrudel,2019/06/17,"i'm done with this (TW) i'm 14 and i've had ana for a month or two because of my dysphoria, i don't even know if that's the right thing to say, but i've lost a lot of weight and i'm eating around 300-700 calories everyday. 

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i hate this, this is hell. I'm done with ana/rex, whatever you call it.  when i eat normally, i feel awful, and the hunger from not eating feels so damn good. i can't get help; because i'm trans and my mother is not having that. 

in summary, I think i'm spiraling into an ED. and i hate it.",-0.4524358974358975,1.2666578803418815,2.2313034188034173,96.43105769230768,85.58119658119658,5.951282051282053,18.29700854700855,7.1686216300943375,0.033234188034187984,400,10,101,6,12,139,76,117,0.271,0.6940000000000001,0.034,-0.9853,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,4,0,5,1,8,5,0,0,0,20,22,10,0,2,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,8,9,5,0,4,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,4,4,10,1,10,18,1,7,1,1,0,0,5,4,2,3,3,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17981383936164466,0.20165535826545192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477365034640387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023311301701312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946018013883804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33966231408074743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5094449077686647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961272803818373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782522388725485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670544139278362,0.0,0.0,0.13919647014526426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276954459627747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123716906825014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09120537303203227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116116519653494,0.14109031376874445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246492514779118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260217112675926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172597650318938,0.0,0.13197529985982825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025414950929524,0.10633824838577156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16211542299462714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020903540789815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20165535826545192,0.0
EDAnonymous,angelic_dollx,2019/06/17,Fuck Gained 1 pound and i know it's gonna be a crazy week.,-3.5500000000000007,-2.1062216666666664,-0.8649999999999984,114.6225,99.0,3.0,7.5,3.1291,-2.891,45,0,15,0,2,15,15,15,0.381,0.452,0.168,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6890447347593186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096133764944871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5978580394184275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Horribleawful,2019/06/17,"Recovery limbo Anyone else ""recovered"", but still have an unhealthy relationship with food/body? I've basically been eating maintenance for the past 6 years after a period of quite severe anorexia at 14-ish, but I still feel like I've barely changed. Still feel proud if I skip a meal, feel bad about my body, etc.

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Anyone else in a similar boat? Just feels like it should be better after such a long time I guess.",6.780000000000001,7.781929820512822,6.529897435897437,76.03176923076926,64.8974358974359,9.82974358974359,28.42051282051282,9.888512548439397,2.6592174358974363,338,10,59,7,5,106,60,78,0.15,0.6809999999999999,0.16899999999999998,0.1706,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,6,0,4,3,1,0,0,11,9,3,0,2,4,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,4,4,8,6,1,12,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,12,32,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16258850420390555,0.18233770649399825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098490195613973,0.3075056771844195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529271991753485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327146975554424,0.0,0.33336270393119777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874217379160518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354747966463053,0.250709524197232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673550811607489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034966854206961,0.21440388496259874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814515371204554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530654068757644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14662217096540192,0.0,0.0,0.1327971992069122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324797820371465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596058646221036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16110685166186262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16952358246317006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35951113857524936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750041611509053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18233770649399825,0.09663286239648887
EDAnonymous,stalinsugardaddy,2019/06/17,"stuck in a rut people around me are constantly saying how skinny i am but all i see is a fat fuck. it's so frustrating and i cant stop eating- when are they going to realise i'm a fat piece of shit who doesn't deserve anything? my girlfriend genuinely likes cooking and wants to cook for me and i eat it all because fuck me amirite 

part of me wants to live alone so i can just starve myself into oblivion",1.725088235294116,3.6887699058823533,3.130220588235293,91.54474264705885,79.35294117647058,5.661764705882352,24.742647058823533,6.6274283507984215,0.7994999999999997,322,12,68,3,8,105,63,85,0.278,0.66,0.062,-0.9716,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,6,5,4,0,3,0,7,10,4,1,2,13,15,8,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,5,7,1,0,2,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,2,12,1,9,14,4,7,0,0,1,2,4,3,3,0,4,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23701431249545485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883198634698549,0.20372048934193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13950173410391492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473000508914684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4683309517052859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231268665973331,0.0,0.0,0.13005783704589674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111802064448244,0.0,0.20207424965449328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24781673858530046,0.0,0.1586522475035519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198665893725197,0.0,0.0,0.1823597659655065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349060132589734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913245931688012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26995731616272584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KerasModel,2019/06/17,"Atelectasis may be my new excuse Befriended a resident physician recently, and I was telling him that I’ve been depressed and just laying in bed when I get home right after the gym. I just moved to another city where I’m so socially anxious that I’d rather just lay in bed and watch tv. I haven’t watched tv in over 12 years so I don’t even know what’s going on on tv anymore so I just watch the news LOL. Also I hate eating alone, I miss my friends back home so I’d rather just be a hermit. 

He told me, just stand up for like 10 minutes and take some deep breaths ever so often. 

And I was like wtf why lmao. 

And he was explaining to me about how it’s good to stand up because what happens when you lay down for a prolong time your lungs collapse and you’re not using them to their fullest capacity and you end up absorbing bacteria and you’re more likely to die Bc of pneumonia. 

Not gonna lie after I did some digging, I was pacing all around my bed and getting more steps in from my Fitbit and now I don’t think I’ll ever lay down again and I guess that’s great because if anyone questions why I work out so much I can be like ATeLECtasIS WiLl KiLL yOUUu!!!!",3.0295810564663017,4.090066803278688,4.2532240437158455,88.71299635701277,73.59016393442623,7.38943533697632,25.850637522768675,7.793537801064563,1.2306692167577409,916,30,202,12,18,301,145,244,0.12,0.775,0.105,-0.6785,0,2,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,2,1,28,11,2,0,5,1,15,4,2,2,3,40,30,23,2,3,11,0,0,4,1,3,1,0,5,0,6,14,1,0,4,4,0,3,5,4,0,0,7,3,27,7,26,17,6,36,0,2,3,0,15,17,0,7,18,126,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517152583960022,0.0,0.11714475515032735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15360328286834715,0.0,0.16548741925716398,0.14527469283570454,0.10242637683876957,0.0,0.0,0.13040354548910893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263864760738407,0.0,0.17859294161125153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261681274732708,0.0,0.1520292809816893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498916892501495,0.0,0.0,0.12974306556535758,0.0,0.0,0.09675258336130828,0.2650098426159362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131746756632458,0.0,0.15306571775701122,0.0,0.0832513367909871,0.12286545844053877,0.0,0.1615012685498965,0.16137078043793512,0.0,0.12953703501735794,0.0,0.0,0.14462454096384614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29387468776363895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16206499148039707,0.0,0.08050484296136623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28626252850949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556913742039109,0.10768402249460758,0.0,0.0,0.14147703590547026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640977802825199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463719584639856,0.0,0.0,0.12509819435668945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932397078672768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013919822506443,0.0,0.12803517021796884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938622769962979,0.0,0.0,0.08541713097621803,0.0,0.0,0.13997359540502607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651682148748686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643615570281028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066435106489654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433214412456062
EDAnonymous,cinnamondrop,2019/06/17,"I feel like my mum is purposely trying to make me feel fat Last night me and my mum shared a pizza, it was pretty big and I felt guilty but I ate it because it was nice to spend time with my mum. I tracked 18 hours since I ate the pizza and was feeling pretty hungry so I felt like I might eat a 200cal portion of oats that is usually safe for me. 

On my way to the kitchen I cross paths with my mum and tell her I’m feeling hungry. She’s visibly shocked and is telling me: ‘No way?! How can you be hungry after all that food you ate yesterday?!’ I make a joke like wow way to make me feel like a fatty, she then tells me that I just have a bigger appetite than her. 

I genuinely want to rip my hair out. Why. Why. Why. WHY would you say that to anybody. Now I can eat my oats and I’m hungry and I just wish my mum would just get how she makes me feel. She does this all the time and she can visibly see that it upsets me. This is the same woman who sent me to school aged 9 wish salads in my packed lunch because I needed to lose weight. I was never even a fat child.",0.4089341692790001,2.0743608965517275,2.2046238244514136,98.0391222570533,82.27586206896551,5.252664576802507,17.873040752351095,6.1124844417494595,-0.4940413793103446,816,17,201,6,22,269,115,232,0.047,0.758,0.195,0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,3,0,1,8,12,0,1,10,0,16,15,3,6,3,41,40,13,0,6,4,5,10,4,0,3,2,1,1,2,12,11,14,1,8,1,1,2,2,3,0,0,10,12,43,9,17,26,4,21,0,1,1,0,24,5,0,1,15,121,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319352348465324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470076367411233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214644660012255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07147580801692054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283043045543992,0.15461941151863698,0.2078091280757612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13085551082066954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565385206073341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657120104238013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821068163142856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114759608410096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121066295489379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889407305754577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11480033275608932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024097312416767,0.08346303806979975,0.0,0.0,0.10155361346676199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22018964753684084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605790006859962,0.0,0.1095206155002569,0.08623433502015006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08951759464460082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837572991226083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620352331499254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07347172562691244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918490320081045,0.0,0.06382874402109187,0.25769105038400386,0.0,0.1317782305827567,0.0,0.0,0.3905933100852215,0.0,0.2488866780737419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374742857644352,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nofefefefe,2019/06/17,"Relapsing on the other side of the globe and I don’t know what to do. Not out here tryna bore you all with the details of my recovery but here’s he quick run down. I lost over 100 lbs from being a morbidly obese teenager, and the first 50lbs were done relatively healthy, but around that time I really spiraled into some nasty restriction and then b/p cycles. Eventually the purging got to be a lot so I started to work on self recovery over the last two years. 

I’ve gained 20lbs in that time but I tried really hard to just ignore how shitty it felt to gain weight and just try to control the binge/purge behavior. 

Currently, I’m 5 weeks into a 3 month solo backpacking trip in SE Asia. I was super thrilled that I was obviously losing weight while traveling so much. Walking like 15 miles a day and not having money for food will do that.

But it’s like the weight lose flipped a switch in my head and now it’s like my mindset is right back into my ED and I’m fasting every day and then eventually caving and binge on a fuck ton of cheap 7/11 junk before finding myself back in the toilet throwing up. 

I can’t deal with this shit anymore, I just graduated college, I should be a fucking adult now, no?

I’m 9,000 mi from home, seeing the **fucking world**, this is the most insane experience ever. Like, I know this is dumb but somehow I thought this shit couldn’t possibly follow me here. This was supposed to be a major reset. I was going to finally learn how to maintain a healthy relationship with food. But I fucking failed at like just like literally everything else in my life lmfao.",3.0621428571428595,5.136420742038219,4.26637397634213,84.44867834394906,75.65605095541402,7.288262056414922,25.22702456778889,8.192908349453996,1.6113661510464057,1259,44,246,22,28,412,186,314,0.172,0.688,0.14,-0.9124,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,0,10,19,21,7,0,20,0,21,14,3,3,3,49,38,22,0,2,12,0,5,6,0,2,2,0,1,2,14,17,6,3,6,1,2,7,6,13,0,2,10,6,22,8,36,21,7,51,0,4,1,4,6,22,7,4,28,160,36,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039992772114487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335331716732743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127155678093374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892335713448894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11761656970336715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526028814044913,0.10811264006558044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073147224710336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760240996385596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09485765052398527,0.08835445368208046,0.0,0.09424714658194823,0.1025794485177038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10068817651982008,0.11487600084967617,0.09584597766933108,0.08919929499351555,0.25360970221287604,0.0,0.0,0.3877891390019187,0.0,0.0,0.059597984233504625,0.0,0.08387122920600071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393968466519964,0.0,0.10762316675275783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518953618688062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152636473232391,0.08548010152663645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407023022485752,0.3073945173442325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346373259675329,0.1144740488400104,0.08915365195235875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370334941545521,0.0,0.0770888603380213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11822109458983325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343601852111417,0.0,0.0,0.11258725421349143,0.0,0.08955532129926144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356493313818902,0.0,0.10939851188323528,0.0,0.21528767804470286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422496828180658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325219738574974,0.12229686684725925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142394785977666,0.0,0.10243922216703014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08411749000318144,0.3830970236557322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634397850234523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753051488365883
EDAnonymous,filled_with_sl,2019/06/17,"I want to kill myself because I am forced to recover (TW) Ok. I posted this on r/suicidewatch but deleted it bc i didn’t like the responses I got. Some of those fucking cabbages thought i was speaking about erectile dysfunction. I guess it’s my fault for not spelling it out but I cannot spell it out because even after all these years, I am still in denial and consider myself too fat to be considered a sufferer.

Anyway, (forced) recovery is killing me. I’m having breakdown after breakdown. Every time i eat, I get suicidal thoughts. I actually have two plans to kill myself. The first one is not drinking or eating anything to die but i don’t know how successful that’d be, because there’s a chance i’d be taken to the hospital again lol. 

So yeah. Just wanted to vent. Today sucked. My mother kinda smacked me and called me all sort of names (whore, etc) and then she was nice again and cuddled with me and said “But you love food”

..... No i don’t. I *enjoy* food, but i don’t love it. Food makes me cry. Food made me purge. Food makes me suicidal. Doesn’t sound like love to me lads",0.3706944444444424,2.8180901435185213,2.0110185185185223,92.66708333333335,94.32407407407408,5.1074074074074085,21.10185185185185,6.770275591412753,0.6757296296296289,845,31,172,13,32,274,133,216,0.218,0.612,0.17,-0.9482,0,0,1,0,0,3,37.0,0,1,0,3,11,17,5,0,5,3,18,15,1,4,2,33,37,14,6,2,9,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,9,8,9,0,3,1,0,0,9,8,0,3,9,3,31,9,19,24,4,15,0,1,0,6,10,4,2,5,12,113,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.10140797466419027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551481382111267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900404651928007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611084723068052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114147914397107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784941077002057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101799071151946,0.0,0.21266601092323367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11589489321454738,0.06863618007409487,0.0,0.08755453098114438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839172346769808,0.6282840763583228,0.0,0.0,0.0960695663035402,0.05429232895988041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311189566477709,0.0,0.11447626058184017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34490619947839624,0.0,0.057110050257766526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10153716713625432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813673738011563,0.09832875170334372,0.13873077174463594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041682975540793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952373406375843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988488373098225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298822823430951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273366023604241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16499693657745534,0.06059482216823955,0.0,0.09850113895340212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151178211321583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12258584519947953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06691912304532872
EDAnonymous,kathyow,2019/06/17,I think I don’t want to get better Im 18 and I’ve struggled with eds before but it was mostly binging. recently ive been restricting to about a bowl of cereal every three or four days. i know i need to get better and i know i need help but i still get nauseous even thinking about eating more. im 5’ 10” and im at 140 pounds so im not underweight but i really want to get to 110. im super into nutrition so i know this isnt good but i cant stop. what do i do. anyone that i can to talk to one on one would be great too.,-2.498640955004589,-0.7646935867768594,1.2696831955922896,97.93260560146926,100.5702479338843,4.672359963269055,13.333792470156107,6.42735559955562,-0.690548576675849,400,8,102,6,18,146,74,121,0.068,0.722,0.21,0.9522,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,3,7,6,0,1,1,0,11,1,0,0,0,24,24,10,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,2,5,0,0,0,4,1,0,4,2,0,13,5,14,20,2,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,4,62,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921231430685168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211012996403516,0.0,0.0,0.233045550477168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849682930642172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348138434625026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870200855905768,0.0,0.11100563538933904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27533718268704793,0.0,0.0,0.11050622462135536,0.0,0.14525559653241168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0883097076992792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7115667475295085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21722019448699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953829286542169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855534925509126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440286317687334,0.0,0.13008790799035086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521626809889403,0.11014947297447494,0.0,0.1377344232396345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589621084996133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16884103957084926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554199363941304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09359190728481137,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spacepoptart1212,2019/06/17,"BIRTH CONTROL AND BOYFRIEND so last June i weighed 171 lbs (sounds heavy but for my height i just looked a lil chubby) and i did weigh more before then (i unhealthily didn’t eat and purged and exercised constantly) then i got a boyfriend (and i love him so much) but i got comfy and
ended up gaining weight like a lot of weight. And then in december i started depo-provera which notoriously makes people gain more. Now i’m at 203 lbs and it’s not healthy at all. I’m not huge huge like stomach wise but I constantly feel disgusting and I feel like i can’t control how much i eat anymore. I started exercising again and i’m hoping i can control this. ngl i’m probably gonna fast for a day or two because tuesday we’re going out for my moms birthday and i wanna eat healthily but i don’t want to have that gross  full feeling. (I hope this isn’t breaking any rules, i’m not sure.)",1.229666666666667,3.5818126333333367,2.6044444444444466,92.42000000000004,83.77777777777777,5.6000000000000005,24.555555555555557,6.961326702584282,0.9261888888888892,694,28,148,9,20,224,109,180,0.08800000000000001,0.705,0.207,0.9727,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,6,10,1,0,4,0,7,11,1,5,2,36,27,22,0,4,9,1,5,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,12,7,3,3,2,0,1,7,2,0,1,4,7,20,8,11,22,7,27,0,0,1,1,3,9,0,4,19,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808618440665543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12846091228704498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789614892986019,0.0,0.1102221697011343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799560944162111,0.4358433707221209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08353740755045302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976306423947513,0.0,0.0,0.11472688215760216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964857747129592,0.09253766836574408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736160060953012,0.0,0.20719710573628164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573089553368585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10558584750714137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898483392811933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877423500249556,0.0,0.0,0.1101234524951191,0.11690766412740485,0.0,0.08646359871873098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15170628284385926,0.0,0.0,0.1904418105917501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980116142584417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965737667166336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336679630131494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208235288799706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653391721941046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640131453629062,0.0,0.0,0.3154700973110829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Temp_SU_AITA_,2019/03/22,"I'm not sure how to fight back against these new urges? (possibly triggering) This year's January I (17, ftm, started transitioning april 2018) started a diet. I was pretty mentally okay - maybe obsessed over calories and health (lots of r/fatlogic for a while, then none, then a while again, now none again) but I obsess over everything I get into because that's ADHD for you, the one time I had diarrhea for a few days and liked how I had a flatter stomach because of it, plus the fact I would be extremely proud whenever I ate 1200 or 1300 a day instead of 1600. Other than that, no disordered anything, lost 12 pounds, almost got to a healthy BMI. It might be relevant that I go to an online school and my parents do not generally keep any sort of track/don't notice my eating habits outside of dinner. 

Long story short, as of March 15th when I had over-eaten two days in a row (but still below/at TDEE), a part of me has been thinking it is a great idea to try to starve myself, and the part of me that wants to lose fat, period, is getting loud and ever more convincing. I told myself two days ago I'd wait 4 weeks before reconsidering trying a diet I found on a pro ana sight, because of course I've been looking up caffeine and bronkaid and high protein/low calorie stuff and so on. That's roughly when I'll get my next therapy appointment (if I can even talk to her about this?). It is unadvised to talk to my parents about this. All friends are online and emotionally at arms length. 

Where do I go to tell the part of me that wants to lose fat to fuck off? On social media? Key-words to google? What do I do on a day to day basis but try to avoid ED stuff as much as I physically can and.... eat my TDEE I guess? ",4.633838675775092,5.038619777456648,5.515312664214402,83.53251182343669,69.4335260115607,8.718654755648974,28.733053074093537,8.710501217029153,1.9696289017341035,1337,45,280,21,22,439,208,346,0.084,0.8190000000000001,0.09699999999999999,0.7631,2,1,0,0,1,0,52.0,0,1,0,4,16,16,2,3,18,1,21,12,4,3,4,41,42,28,0,4,7,2,1,1,1,2,3,1,0,0,18,12,8,3,3,0,0,2,5,8,0,3,11,4,29,8,47,27,10,46,0,3,2,1,12,14,1,7,31,182,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530247397778147,0.0,0.08504593440756496,0.0,0.09607108296317317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652431904064863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895129304300409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737727300383521,0.0,0.1754542843167755,0.0,0.08163875019978513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712441643550169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995673240257453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19634325093439656,0.0,0.10792074552042899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336814552058806,0.0867841544269837,0.0,0.0,0.08622561151461597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519438744861166,0.07412380184095314,0.08869593632761326,0.15037568517656358,0.0,0.10905099670267704,0.0,0.07673280612778885,0.1057753243550295,0.1056898611107397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198082856080344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136696579823687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830574496800834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527679575128883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04687194112414541,0.0,0.0,0.08490479252481631,0.08056630189389269,0.21466694376909576,0.10473096769249557,0.08156563288278665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638566005737564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09668599274061827,0.10177827147022467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052769621869764,0.0,0.0,0.09266044468911301,0.1020343739079204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922949862886673,0.0,0.0,0.06501212494958343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130623200771686,0.3116843585457704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815909600055833,0.0,0.0976065190052725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709744447914057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09779979801872082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581510978025935,0.0,0.07661863054689891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21965905148225054,0.0,0.0,0.0904232854266036,0.0,0.0,0.15422753157912047,0.0838566890542591,0.0,0.10971692923003667,0.0,0.0,0.061475138140587665,0.0,0.0,0.05594398617181196,0.0,0.0,0.09167576569549978,0.0,0.1954129850510851,0.0,0.18744089120520066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317701056467686,0.0,0.07695810724935143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815375507991386,0.0,0.0,0.06178287781558841
EDAnonymous,stunninglyhonest,2019/03/22,"My ED has inspired my career path - perhaps My obsession with food over the past few years has led me to take up cooking as a big hobby, but for other people. Rarely for myself. I love cooking, tasting and trying new things, recipes, ingredients, and mostly how to make \~unhealthy\~ dishes more healthy, or just proving I can cook their take-out favourites at home for cheaper that taste similar or better. 

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The last year I've fallen in love with cooking and while having issues with calories and binging and purging I appreciate good food when I taste it.  I'm currently in school for a teaching profession, but have applied for commis chef roles for over the summer to dip my feet in the world of cooking as a career. I feel like if I enjoy it as much as I think I will, I can back up that decision better to my friends and family.  And in a weird way, I feel like it will give me power over my ED. I know this might not make much sense, but cooking and controlling food satisfies my ED behaviours and tendencies, but I can cook and control food for OTHERS.  I thought this might inspire other people to take up a creative outlet for their ED's and also, wondering if there are any pro chefs amongst us?

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Sorry for the super specific post. Best wishes to you all x ",8.368088435374148,7.20540338367347,7.881071428571433,74.92351190476192,62.10204081632654,10.452380952380953,36.74319727891157,9.2995712137729,3.3060952380952378,1019,40,184,14,12,322,142,245,0.063,0.716,0.221,0.9937,2,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,1,2,7,6,15,0,1,10,0,12,18,1,6,2,45,27,27,0,3,10,0,2,2,1,4,0,0,1,0,11,14,15,2,10,7,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,5,27,13,34,22,7,27,0,0,0,2,9,13,0,8,12,128,38,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293479148793123,0.0,0.2247339065260614,0.2520317490344086,0.07052460628587315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07974460948604288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088345458514446,0.18344158205462388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326333944385118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776613196114572,0.0,0.10487518177602158,0.14817721239867232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5016137270209173,0.0,0.08012410044137865,0.0,0.0,0.09948561340311332,0.0,0.08698486896625429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402700454656333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824360921027144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056994889410129077,0.0845353942273695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133242022776204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872000028136847,0.0,0.13845102495409034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22003438149403276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247378238507542,0.0,0.0,0.10016127873666864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900047331546696,0.14379534307750735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932304718775158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495745227344107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609197329276913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339252344944132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889860596352301,0.06645153136630769,0.0,0.08233211239350365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07041053504594241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474726489731723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08231812795679716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192584223349201,0.0,0.11246628015538583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520317490344086,0.13356836494370447
EDAnonymous,Loose_Egg,2019/03/22,"My 600lbs Life is the opposite of thinspo for me and I find that funny I started watching this show to trigger myself while in a bad restricting episode, but it actually is part of what got me out of that headspace.

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The biggest reason why is that it (unintentionally?) humanizes absurdly fat people. The message I took from the show was ""hey even if you gain an unimaginable amount of weight you can still be a good person with value who is loved."" 

Yes the show has a lot of monsters in it, but it also has deeply loving and good people who are trying (and sometimes succeeding) to get better, and those people do get better if they honestly try. Even my worst nightmare isn't the end of the world. It's helping me accept that it's okay to eat and to gain weight. 

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Plus if they can get over their ED then what's my excuse. ",6.022331288343557,6.480592736196321,6.114239263803682,80.25859815950923,66.4233128834356,8.728588957055214,30.410429447852763,8.548686976883017,2.201096196319018,668,23,127,9,10,212,101,163,0.049,0.6829999999999999,0.268,0.9924,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,2,3,5,4,12,0,0,11,2,13,7,1,2,0,19,21,14,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,16,8,4,1,3,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,3,15,10,18,17,4,12,0,0,1,2,15,6,0,4,5,92,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.12989978803870567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10645099313875192,0.0,0.2884573182429957,0.3234954776622748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11114439535484304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23545653449312925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620856660161804,0.0,0.0,0.11789924495189767,0.0,0.0,0.1758407121912427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166352777578684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20863927262240994,0.0,0.0,0.2232989442277537,0.10646320140108252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922332005223435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402215649999507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316852385855924,0.2402806573402163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414918603899174,0.0,0.2768528769055095,0.11622976515593435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368630733797357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316528719819241,0.0,0.0942185755709606,0.0,0.10630478809031256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789423990230113,0.1807509550237957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3241932978426521,0.0,0.0,0.1201144270489762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234954776622748,0.0
EDAnonymous,flamingoballoon,2019/03/22,"Can I have some support? I texted my boyfriend 

“I’m going to look into therapy to try to have a healthier outlook on food and my body. My insurance covers it with a $15 copay for each visit.”

He responded 

“okay”

Ugh wtf. I feel like I’m making a huge stride and I get an okay? Maybe he felt like saying anything else would make it seem like he thinks something is wrong with me. And I do try to downplay it, but he knows I’m subbed to eating disorder subs and that I’ve tried to purge but can’t. And that I’ve  restricted and dehydrated myself and weigh myself at least once a day. 

So hey ED friends, be proud of me for seeking therapy? ",1.768181818181816,3.603428848484853,3.450000000000003,89.92000000000004,78.69696969696969,6.824242424242425,23.12121212121212,7.793537801064563,1.0335939393939395,496,16,108,8,12,165,87,132,0.098,0.7490000000000001,0.153,0.6794,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,1,10,0,0,5,2,8,4,1,2,0,23,22,10,0,1,2,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,5,11,3,1,5,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,4,12,8,14,19,3,7,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,2,4,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14629451924313816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19746908456498505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465082764499505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20374672388986828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190925312924705,0.14850905530562325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988889868571083,0.12700322619017046,0.17069286086505892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496747239895705,0.0,0.13734931420172306,0.0,0.09288063446400267,0.0,0.10103421059179747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770105287124743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26055715473898017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492870850936489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23733375130848144,0.0,0.17859990959674069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18932566227123468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137462871595582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184061433182978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686066768109953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201738123901316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40660475074927,0.0,0.0,0.11391169711158634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620947498142112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628698593447646,0.19437017315438948,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,collarbonekween,2019/03/22,"My new dog is forcing me to eat I’ve been wanting a dog for years and finally felt stable enough to get one a few weeks ago. I adopted a 6 year old papillon mix and he’s the new light of my life. But being a rescue he’s come with a few quirks! Such as, he refuses to eat unless he sees me eat first! I normally don’t eat breakfast and will eat a light dinner late at night. Now I don’t want my baby to go hungry so I’m forcing myself to eat a piece of toast in the morning and dinner at a normal hour. Still not interested in recovery, but the little man is making me feel more normal ",1.7125781250000005,2.788722601562501,4.152000000000001,88.09300000000002,76.890625,6.995000000000001,22.175,7.554174236665415,0.7568006249999999,455,12,103,6,10,160,81,128,0.013999999999999999,0.937,0.048,0.4320000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,11,0,7,10,0,1,0,19,17,9,0,5,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,9,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,5,10,1,15,13,5,21,0,0,1,0,6,5,0,0,14,61,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753163244685668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044955270737108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7447661233887428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534290365808062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133663301730161,0.0,0.11647406430197775,0.13288625509158386,0.0,0.10318395644716732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633780753110761,0.0,0.06894175351874647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194632886234318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368399566822492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568295758513521,0.0,0.1215818173855541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809735875034252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343187584469808,0.0,0.11383871550352255,0.3565662944058527,0.0,0.0,0.12729164108690447,0.0,0.08220098906980647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666623959380144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687619374098824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431004172774695,0.0,0.09730542629921324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562358919342757
EDAnonymous,hikeinx,2019/03/22,"Questioning Recovery I don’t know if any of you could answer this, but if it’s too unrealistic of a question, I totally understand. I just thought I’d give it a shot & see if any of you have been through something similar.

I’ve been struggling with an ED for 8 months. Before my ED began, I weighed 125. I dropped down to 108. As of now, I’m 120. All of these weights are healthy according to my BMI. I’m pretty short, so I guess that’s why. 

How long will it take for my body to get back into the swing of things? Meaning when will I start seeing my hair getting back to where it was, my nails growing back, and getting my period back? I’ve read in a lot of places that it takes years for everything to go back to where it was, but I don’t understand it that applies to me, seeing as I only really restricted for about 8 months. I don’t know.

Again, I totally understand that I just need to be patient, but if anyone happened to know a general time frame that’d be great. I just really miss being/looking healthier. :(",3.4526953748006406,4.441647411483256,4.8621818181818215,85.01993939393941,72.49282296650719,8.826921850079746,28.7658692185008,9.21078282632365,2.2769021371610845,795,31,171,17,15,266,119,209,0.07400000000000001,0.846,0.079,0.4554,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,0,0,17,3,0,1,6,0,15,4,2,1,3,34,41,13,0,6,10,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,15,3,2,1,11,1,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,5,22,1,28,29,4,26,0,1,3,0,5,7,0,8,16,113,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748866922960392,0.0,0.1600308265417007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08227325902902616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4523809646156392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012322045339604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306979472597607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394496334305412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574862904294564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442342442673976,0.11287383071217105,0.06687104442929992,0.0,0.0,0.12972474582243135,0.1296199321741608,0.0,0.1040497024766492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939948283578608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10412875305793708,0.09880795070841628,0.0,0.0,0.10003354807072383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817036356633574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18783623203468788,0.0,0.0,0.08724621068922098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894886157789752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293361894416935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970637713264765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636207508252259,0.0,0.11769563326884902,0.0,0.1507568759302462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281288424188372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058333544172288,0.0,0.0,0.08328303743108313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230077427121638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769370559515896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817059492129448,0.0,0.0,0.09341190749685772,0.06861070321158362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36747647062511496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14328279957279233,0.0,0.0,0.10617327064554133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577162414462922
EDAnonymous,rebelizbec,2019/03/22,"Psychologist or counselor? Also has anyone else done therapy remotely? I am with a new partner who has been super supportive about my ED and it's given me the boost to try and recover. The first step I guess is to seek out a therapist, but I am a 'digital nomad' so I don't stay anywhere for more than 2-3 months. That means I don't have a regular doctor that could recommend or refer me to anyone. I am going to try and find somebody remotely and I'm not really too sure if I should be looking for a psychologist or counselor. I get the pyschologists have more training but I've also seen profiles for licensed mental health counselors who seem to just specialise in ED's. It's not cheap either way and I don't want to waste my money churning through too many trying to find the right one. Any advice would be appreciated, especially if anyone else has had to seek remote treatment.   


Not sure if additional info is relevant, but I've had this about 17 years and I did receive treatment about 10 years ago and since then there have been several relapses that I felt I kept moderately in control of, but have in the last 6 months or so felt myself spiralling and now feel very much out of control. I just want these relapse cycles to end and find somebody that can help long term. On the other hand I'm absolutely terrified about somebody trying to change me and take this away from me.",5.381,6.3340997666666645,6.211851851851853,77.24333333333334,68.0,9.25925925925926,30.92592592592593,9.444778638647367,2.792481481481482,1107,43,205,22,18,365,153,270,0.053,0.8540000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.8933,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,4,14,4,0,0,11,0,27,3,1,2,2,52,45,26,0,8,17,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,12,14,0,3,10,0,2,3,6,0,0,2,11,6,20,4,30,29,5,26,0,0,2,0,5,8,0,9,13,141,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109953297396176,0.1006875031237905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816700294232862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772426569667369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23826678629539824,0.23276540954208924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067181755453804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201593656173208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547936448277769,0.09068950944109876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11626050840348785,0.0,0.11623833848851485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897737486026089,0.0,0.10060384909456188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574327041076449,0.0,0.21812154147370189,0.0,0.3114477754372664,0.09661654622637432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059344213517985536,0.0,0.06455377701262911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12512824151878565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073704717117285,0.0,0.0,0.07613457940220933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925880880693488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100520402557971,0.09538398078782227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515879630363884,0.0,0.12372890448924398,0.0,0.0,0.11446839009898445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18132718489958008,0.0,0.08349908414554616,0.0,0.0,0.10970246701477816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769690941671066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276636573405759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700217743600892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340480583724213,0.0,0.1283203174015455,0.0,0.09395985592018763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106800480179575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288965172191782,0.2141077030260648,0.0,0.08540284776953028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989596424023014,0.13188258201354186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084708779997864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372068777012713,0.1339924204978636,0.09015960889078382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08068852997276818,0.0,0.0,0.14629185384082227
EDAnonymous,SoEmaciated,2019/03/22,"Do you ever wonder how the hell do some people get to extremely low weights? I was on MPA reading a post about this anorexic woman who went on Oprah and said she got down to 32 pounds before. I know they must have hell of willpower and control, but still... can't fathom. I guess they may must not have the extreme hunger mechanism in their body?",5.91,5.978171764705883,5.4429411764705895,86.31823529411768,66.64705882352942,7.976470588235292,28.764705882352942,7.1686216300943375,1.4175470588235302,272,8,55,2,4,83,57,68,0.147,0.853,0.0,-0.8464,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,3,1,4,3,2,0,3,0,9,3,1,2,3,14,16,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,2,2,2,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,2,8,0,8,9,1,9,2,1,0,0,8,5,2,4,2,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22805948390773664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977022339561651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005995813153621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424332736788922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002582952219034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435463087652706,0.0,0.2952467439813785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472930396356191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18580659938580948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566825495683127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680857173784357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549419173349534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21403567910437346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32636786127586376,0.0,0.2484509115005481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906488710135804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ImpulseFry,2019/03/22,"My boyfriend and his sister like to tease me EVERY SINGLE TIME I go to eat an Oreo because they’re not vegan. Guess I just won’t eat anything 🤷‍♀️
Also they are vegan where I’m from.",-1.6692857142857136,0.27192730952381083,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,97.33333333333331,4.704761904761905,14.142857142857142,6.42735559955562,-0.5038857142857139,145,3,34,2,6,52,36,42,0.062,0.87,0.068,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,5,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,3,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710988797955147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789688379877489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665178884050436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6937650600614086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.285622860846853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266201134274732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3734476866020402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656187054784618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976741382342184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tashi56,2019/03/22,"I am really struggling with body image, disordered eating and food, and have for 9 years. I honestly don’t even no how to start because this issue stems back so many years. Basically started when I was 14 years old in high school, like many girls, I want to lose weight and feel good. Started eating ‘healthy’ which was probably like 300 calories a day plus a 4km run daily. Obviously weight started to shred, food was becoming less- I didn’t realise what I was doing or even trying for that fact. 

Friends said I was being weird with food, I just shrugged it off because I honestly didn’t realise. Fast toward a bit- mental health declined, exercise addiction, depression, restriction of food became a whole lot more obsessive. Found help at a psych hospital, eventual tried to eat more but ended up bulimic. I couldn’t eat a meal without trying purge or purge. Everything was revolves around purging. At least 8 times a day. It was painful and I felt helpless. 

I ended up in hospital, despite not being underweight. Bulimia actually made me gain like 14 kgs. Lots of water and food weight. Being in the hospital was actually really good as it made me eat what they had and took away the control. I was discharged and my family said no more help as I should be better now. I slipped right back into bulimia. 

I was bulimic for another 2 years. I stopped cold turkey on the 27th March 2017. I’ve had a few slips but nothing more than a handful of times. However my obsession with weight is still there. I want to lose weight all the time but I can’t stop eating and I just feel like it’s a full circle everyday. Going to bed saying it will be different tomorrow, waking up dreading food, eating, feeling utterly shit, go to bed etc. 

I love working out but sometimes food really gets me down during the day and I feel unworthy to workout because I’d look gross in my gym gear. 

How do I get out of this head cycle??!? It’s literally killing me.  I wish I never dieted ever. I wish it was easier. It’s just not fair. I just want to eat and enjoy food and life. Food shouldn’t be this hard.  I haven’t spoken to anyone for a long time and it’s all just in my head. Thanks for listening guys. ",3.112501209482339,5.329950245283023,4.429716981132078,82.66758103531689,76.02830188679245,8.122302854378328,26.43783260764393,8.914623046629139,2.272952781809385,1720,66,326,40,39,567,223,424,0.139,0.7120000000000001,0.149,0.5321,2,0,0,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,1,6,18,26,2,4,16,0,33,37,6,5,6,64,61,25,1,8,14,0,12,4,1,3,5,4,2,2,16,20,25,4,6,3,0,4,13,13,0,0,22,18,37,13,46,29,15,58,0,4,1,1,11,22,1,4,36,202,53,3,0.0,0.0,0.10223822982582212,0.05710616637639813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05492907044835673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03662803010511756,0.0,0.0,0.046632763331146326,0.0,0.0,0.04921638396289026,0.08055994760133613,0.0,0.09579818954538652,0.05785388495866909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0463292890060901,0.05718963468667696,0.05818668669997192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05875298088194776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013498158879103,0.0,0.04511816305551542,0.0,0.0,0.054730010075685516,0.06003647008969639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288143328551896,0.0,0.0,0.09279314680707096,0.0,0.058421878394402785,0.06919812348110913,0.047384222663506566,0.0,0.0,0.04707925775486045,0.0,0.049382864363726665,0.0,0.10594746407323773,0.037423057631996964,0.05029674411544936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5700852108190119,0.05743622566502018,0.040471659305644926,0.0,0.05473683528697376,0.0,0.059541937621625386,0.08787423414816528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518682815462539,0.0,0.0,0.04692567136680121,0.0,0.10752195672134852,0.05568161975928068,0.0,0.0,0.07022362729803044,0.055346450165034485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05467516577208386,0.0,0.0,0.057955007002480574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0370002868753784,0.10236848003241963,0.0,0.0,0.046358089454908734,0.04398926985372008,0.11720833519911053,0.0,0.08906981085952896,0.04727850106369856,0.0991337964141651,0.0,0.10621807403695817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279063486547205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0404016811750857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05026375008423106,0.0,0.054968074980061815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0557401465632461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056478687524959235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10067537354108674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04473555123603954,0.0996581401054809,0.04165776757684337,0.0,0.05301528786718827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053771304775254124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051809001331499065,0.0,0.148310332580608,0.0,0.04183383791636474,0.08759054625765839,0.0,0.054763009954840014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04822804295179717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218185750393347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05820042325450665,0.10669565724456782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269211708743512,0.0,0.0,0.3189472957699536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05848473643041231,0.12047776415534014,0.05049619544051272,0.0,0.03813609188494901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493401686222142
EDAnonymous,ItsAFetish,2019/01/22,haven't binged in 6+ months... ... but only because i moved in with boyfriend and his family and don't want them to notice it 🤦🏻‍♀️ does anyone else's living/financial situation affect their eating?,1.1744999999999983,3.726197450000005,3.4600000000000013,84.50500000000002,87.0,6.2,18.0,7.554174236665415,0.7583500000000005,158,4,30,3,5,54,37,40,0.040999999999999995,0.9590000000000001,0.0,-0.0857,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151457232843792,0.3152672882159366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756646863005053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26926374655843605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.314846203618074,0.25703756934596794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900650687710323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24559718720913876,0.3270283919635884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3503099067855923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340139821213719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34585921853076057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148498582738248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ttammyt,2019/01/22,"Fought through a binge!! Like most of y’all, after the demise of ProED I have been out of control. That plus a breakup has caused me to binge uncontrollable for the past couple of months. Today was the first day that I decided not to order a crazy amount of food but instead I ate a boiled egg. Might not be a crazy feat but I’m so happy I didn’t wake up to my stomach in pain. ",0.879249999999999,2.848920425000003,2.0275,98.3375,82.25,5.0,18.75,5.985473137389443,-0.44562500000000016,294,7,70,2,8,93,59,80,0.096,0.745,0.159,0.7325,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,2,5,1,1,8,0,7,7,2,2,0,11,10,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,7,2,15,3,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,47,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939208691012711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209044304792304,0.0,0.3165829059603755,0.0,0.18452172955578386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24337088754785804,0.3459736891574228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045767585834346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397822641962394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035248144386918,0.0,0.0,0.22837577852435614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044485525534127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731309542480269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27120536483627705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lecollecteur,2019/01/22,"How the FUCK is the sub fasting okay and ""healthy” but subs for supporting people with eating disorders are being banned Yes I know intermittent fasting has many benefits, such as fasting for 16 hours a day can promote longevity, lower your risk of neurodegenerative diseases, lowers cholesterol etc. but there are people on the fasting sub who are literally not eating for WEEKS on end, trying to beat their own personal record for longest fast and this is seen as absolutely FINE and HEALTHY. Wtf???? people praising other people for not eating for a month straight?? How is that kind of behaviour encouraged and seen as being perfectly fine ????  ",7.710454545454542,9.843053090909097,7.043409090909094,69.05511363636364,63.54545454545455,9.5,35.56818181818181,9.827888789773867,3.929545454545454,520,24,76,11,8,161,75,110,0.092,0.602,0.305,0.987,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,4,4,11,1,1,5,2,10,4,0,2,1,14,15,11,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,5,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,3,9,15,11,2,13,1,0,2,1,6,3,1,0,10,51,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996184182469513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131849613790659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5710077153016988,0.0,0.0,0.16475072059326878,0.0,0.20745166847077415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196436586760186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18318357228417484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19370205055141734,0.10222689614537993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885861708516232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847237279795852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5158270067758459,0.1624178133764916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21108331624431045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12628940117573054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920697226334506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Automatic_Breath,2019/01/22,"I’m relapsing and I need help. So, I used to be 54 kg. (119 lbs) However, I’ve since gained a lot of weight and unfortunately reached 68 kg. (149 lbs) This is also the highest weight I’ve ever been and I’m considering starving myself like I used to. 

I don’t know how to lose weight. The only time I lost weight is when I would water fast for up to seven days at a time. I believe this also made me really unhealthy and I suffered a lot of health scares because of it. When I lost weight, I lost 15 kg. 

My family is commenting on my body and telling me that I need to lose weight. I’m scared to lose weight because I don’t know how to control my weight loss and I don’t want to be miserable again. 

Please notice that I can’t afford to go to the gym right now or “eat healthy”. Thanks for your advice in advance! ",0.7984165526675788,2.7089798197674457,2.7628590971272224,93.27489056087549,82.19767441860466,5.907523939808482,20.582763337893297,7.048011613610866,0.31731012311901496,627,18,145,8,17,210,94,172,0.213,0.6859999999999999,0.102,-0.9640000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,10,10,13,0,3,6,0,11,12,1,6,1,22,27,14,0,4,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,6,10,1,2,1,0,2,4,11,0,1,5,8,21,2,19,19,2,16,0,9,0,0,4,5,0,3,10,82,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877519508883861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893418167400927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09828325113596216,0.0,0.0,0.09082451920798963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954412555458824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904156018356342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05198944497158672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248838058691745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07292009605849657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599582752720778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04581486797526193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568905077061685,0.0,0.0,0.05403395223461386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886068354891207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03938399206385715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705597743663538,0.2639995379869087,0.13707050150241562,0.0,0.07627903921205119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954871224703527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177972159813803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061310678668064764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849010704712089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05164347608186057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06884402676661726,0.0,0.0,0.16141761526086493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668484158743891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046030305139174,0.07421866028556467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401349526257104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924945103647904,0.0,0.0,0.04754830266240205,0.0,0.0,0.7853303445850929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572659651982427,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dollysteak,2019/01/22,"My housemate’s eating habits are triggering me and I’m scared I’m going to relapse I knew my housemate for about 4 years prior to us moving in together about 8 months ago. She has always been a thicker girl until now. She began dropping a lot of weight really quickly recently and it’s really hard to ignore the fact she’s always fasting and restricting. Keeping up my healthy eating habits is becoming increasingly difficult when she’s constantly practicing unhealthy eating habits around me.

To add to this, she gave me a top the other day because she bought two of them for herself. She handed me the top and said “it should fit you, it’s stretchy” and my heart dropped into the pit of my stomach. I’m a size 8 (XS/S) but that comment made me feel absolutely horrible and I can’t stop thinking about it. 

I’ve battled an eating disorder on and off for about 8 years and have been pretty stable over the past year. I have recently put on some more weight due to the medication I’m taking. I’m struggling with being at a healthy weight, and my housemate’s behaviors aren’t helping.

This is mostly just a rant, but I wouldn’t mind some advice/ideas on how to nip this in the bud? I’m on the verge of relapse and I’m really not okay.",3.055079777365492,5.157780587755101,4.358079777365493,83.65240723562152,75.77551020408163,7.393320964749536,26.646567717996287,8.296473431620573,1.924428571428572,984,38,187,18,22,324,137,245,0.141,0.779,0.081,-0.9278,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,1,2,10,6,1,2,15,1,13,11,3,3,1,36,31,15,0,2,4,0,6,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,9,14,7,4,3,0,1,4,4,5,0,1,8,7,26,1,32,20,6,41,0,0,0,0,17,16,0,4,19,119,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519252360942473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748350632121853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564018283856966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723392563243854,0.13106010770915086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282385619460873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653140779316417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600445747168075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48571027417932705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06000239250514351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744208071313318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630372615513743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062282194583411,0.0795410382896684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339623665016741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054780738537644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088777109111276,0.0,0.11228706633045787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954609556727384,0.0,0.0,0.11982142294282976,0.0,0.09472011712877963,0.12612590536246548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132825737695704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072859362907515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192946851967006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280663659731756,0.0,0.23434178506669004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288098098899425,0.0,0.11880793635401166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921223471019387,0.0,0.12405815077563187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922399306360132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760380253952644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592194565693895,0.0,0.14274367348983846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43351903126659935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22925599719307865
EDAnonymous,oceannakali,2019/05/08,"muslim peeps support groupchat hey y’all 

it’s the month of Ramadan and was wondering if there’s any muslims peeps out there wanna start a groupchat 

ex / cultural / non or practicing muslims you all know the deal about fasting in this month so let’s support each other!!! 

I’d probably do a telegram chat since it hides personal info let me know if you’re down!! 

i’m 21 F if that matters lol",1.4435064935064936,4.10518120779221,2.5844285714285697,90.24807142857144,87.57142857142857,5.6774025974025975,27.180519480519482,7.1686216300943375,1.6475049350649351,311,15,60,5,10,99,59,77,0.023,0.836,0.141,0.8302,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,1,4,0,0,0,1,14,11,6,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,6,8,2,7,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,5,4,32,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641611504123107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713237468136736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528172689855271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704059108608002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671869265912108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083769321358486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479919461034226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19026838550101247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16280374781928575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5220300092590333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24943831013726525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Karma_collection_bin,2019/05/08,"SO of someone with Bulimia here. Could really use some insight/advice. Hi everyone, longish post, but I really would appreciate any helpful advice or insight.

I'm from Canada, just for context. So, my SO went through bulimia in her teens and recovered before I met her. Been with her for over 8 years now and in the past year she has relapsed. Didn't realize at first, but then I and her family did. It felt like she lost so much weight out of nowhere. Where did it all go so fast? Am I really that damn ignorant? 

Anyways, I brought it up with her in the most supportive way I knew how and expressed how I wanted her to get better. Some tears were had, she admitted what was going on, and agreed help was needed. 

She got connected with the ED program at our local hospital and saw a psychiatrist and nutritionist/dietitian there. The psychiatrist told her that her attitude is good (for wanting to recover) and said she wouldn't need meds, so she doesn't need to see her if she doesn't want to. So right now she isn't seeing her, but has been seeing the nutritionist for like 5 months. She hasn't lost anymore weight....but she also hasn't gained any weight. Everytime she comes back from the meeting, seems like the same conversation with the nutritionist. SO has told me that she hasn't relapsed since her and I had that initial talk.

Here's, the thing she does hot yoga like 3 times a week and often supplements with other exercises like jumping jacks and running flights of stairs at our house. If I comment, she will say things like ""oh I'm doing the lighter yoga's or soothing ones more often now"" or ""I have energy to burn so I need to do something!"" My 'suspicion' is that she has replaced the act of purging with exercise, essentially. Is this common? How do I talk to her about this? It's like she can't sit still. Her full time job also has her constantly on her feet and moving her arms.

She will also say she is trying very hard to gain weight and eat as much as she can and take advice of her dietitian, but there is no progress and she will tell me she can't eat anymore (suggesting she would throw up otherwise). She is often quite sad or down when she comes back from her meeting with the dietitian, as well. 

The thing her family and I noticed originally was that she would go to the washroom after every family meal and this is part of what made us aware. I've noticed now that she will go to the washroom BEFORE every meal and often after meals, but not always. Is there anything she could be doing before meals to lose weight or 'make room'? 

I apologize if anything I'm saying comes across as ignorant, triggering, insensitive, or selfish. I really just want my SO to recover. It tears my heart to see her body so lacking in nutrition that it needs and for her to struggle with this. 

Again, I really appreciate any helpful advice or insight.",5.091255720823799,6.20373778804348,5.680335621662853,80.21035469107555,68.76449275362319,9.288787185354687,29.01906941266209,9.549672527348893,2.545140579710146,2257,80,434,48,38,730,243,552,0.081,0.79,0.128,0.985,1,0,1,0,0,0,69.0,3,0,0,9,41,20,1,1,17,0,50,16,4,8,1,92,93,57,0,19,18,0,7,7,0,8,2,4,1,0,24,32,10,2,7,4,0,14,12,9,1,2,24,16,73,11,60,58,11,62,0,4,5,0,73,21,1,18,31,314,97,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25397379153404176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558829984861889,0.05406494138073987,0.0,0.0,0.1325569992721285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288767598932286,0.0,0.0,0.10693883841088846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992451994933467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586846356511906,0.0,0.0,0.057465677441065774,0.0,0.07217329341759153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16791229340616673,0.0,0.07021558877011543,0.0,0.10375553016127058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05686062443490751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297261118513426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948956587007276,0.062087012866056085,0.0,0.0,0.18375976507660924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062386808338334175,0.0,0.0,0.05526825008673749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03394709252210301,0.0,0.14770862471602375,0.05449848792494258,0.051966958608544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058205415026239174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699645167257052,0.130655414802063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749731700480339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447830133899968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222206725265703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269112615856255,0.14185718306834216,0.0,0.0,0.06148152594674869,0.0433717473011521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217329341759153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0518629395997721,0.06905882731211943,0.09552914991924694,0.2408930857625195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795040401950438,0.0,0.0,0.04402917835015774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07036229124956057,0.06202660489883256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06222870658033794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910959602077693,0.0,0.0,0.20812530857137326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055488845450241776,0.06180671726826292,0.15501372150376105,0.0,0.0,0.2071087052200883,0.059151386510886785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053748524636178414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055053652798511314,0.05002142562029673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05188963369387409,0.0,0.0,0.06792665143971947,0.0,0.0,0.07373359147290995,0.0,0.0,0.0488535984052542,0.10444992375910936,0.056791577280190915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12950079329101946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07577564174952416,0.0,0.0,0.12417402573211217,0.0,0.04411419755634401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815770018936906,0.056118094993108006,0.0,0.053611711578305736,0.15329727453622555,0.05157464230012017,0.05211954281143634,0.3956141527880349,0.05842090773843658,0.06023307348858334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384705010014778,0.0,0.0,0.08368436959838142
EDAnonymous,throwawaygarbagefood,2019/05/08,"Advice for someone trying to recover, but has a significant other dieting? Forgive me if this isn't the place to ask for recovery advice. Please let me know where a better place to post would be, otherwise! 

My girlfriend and I have been together for around five years now.  I've been into fitness for about three. In 2018, on New Year's Eve, my girlfriend decided to lose weight with me.

Once she did that, my eating disorder began—as I am a competitive person. I lost over 100 pounds in a few months.

Recently, I have decided to recover and have let my body binge back weight. However, watching her continue to hit her calorie goals and hit the gym everyday is causing me immense depression and jealousy. None of this is her fault and I'm very proud of her for being healthy and feel better about herself. But it's hard watching her eat very little compared to me. I'm 6' and she is 4'9""...so obviously our calorie requirements are different.

I really don't know how to handle this situation. It's definitely not something I can ignore as it is a huge part of her life. 

I know it's my mindset holding me back. I'm too competitive and want to be healthy again, but her doing better at something I prided myself in for years is very difficult. I don't want my eating disorder to become prevalent again. I also don't want to give up on fitness and being healthy. I just want to be happily healthy with my girlfriend and have a good relationship food and my body.",3.802765957446809,5.846900216312058,5.144273049645392,79.10875,73.43262411347519,8.529787234042553,29.835106382978722,9.188382445141503,2.8296,1159,51,212,27,24,386,148,282,0.095,0.6809999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.9892,2,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,1,0,0,9,13,13,0,0,8,0,29,10,2,2,1,39,45,18,0,6,6,0,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,9,15,7,3,7,1,0,0,6,6,0,2,4,6,37,7,36,31,3,32,0,3,2,0,19,17,0,1,14,150,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009557617828646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08222787220307975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153466631559204,0.0961260413810703,0.0,0.0,0.1581297653267037,0.0,0.0,0.11356041710733095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728169450111915,0.0,0.2284273360885947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562800253190376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856168292520432,0.0,0.0,0.10742861567418324,0.2356891534564479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.315642163888989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051990623534686205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433451842339527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863761828046116,0.0,0.08624342764519577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210961056915118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695272297149292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21028787901437385,0.07262724039467054,0.0,0.10305610506159138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503313427590645,0.11224393712313027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820726931910527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930752438021574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950361364438012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11134777138567853,0.0,0.0,0.08978146650993467,0.21485723134836648,0.11286926583835885,0.0,0.0,0.09847643774643584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587133212073673,0.0,0.10152574770084573,0.11039389984770163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557786085555025,0.0,0.0,0.08712197168243073,0.15831702366256606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981036997423146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254520333195662,0.24259172883620164,0.0,0.0,0.2504225115998116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07304282552182717,0.0,0.0,0.19864478307448652
EDAnonymous,AmanitaSlushie,2019/05/08,"Kinda Sick of People Pushing Diets to Treat Acne Sure, if someone's obese, then maybe losing weight will help their skin. But I keep seeing people advise cutting out all sugar/dairy/carbs/anything that tastes remotely good in order to treat acne, as if everyone with clear skin is avoiding those foods. It just seems so dangerous to tell insecure teenagers that they must restrict their diets in order have clear skin. Having acne is depressing enough, the last thing you need is an eating disorder on top of it. I know my own experience doesn't count for much, but a couple years ago I, being slightly underweight, tried cutting out all dairy and added sugars for ~4 months. It did nothing to help my acne, and I later learned my Mirena IUD was causing the acne all along.",9.277645875251508,8.413256985915496,8.276358148893362,71.85626760563382,60.12676056338029,10.367806841046278,34.370221327967805,9.23628265651192,3.1078277665995966,620,20,101,8,7,192,104,142,0.122,0.76,0.11800000000000001,0.0902,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,3,2,3,11,3,2,4,0,11,12,3,1,7,27,16,9,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,6,8,3,3,0,0,1,1,7,0,0,2,7,11,4,16,11,6,15,0,2,1,0,8,6,0,4,6,64,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647014680273997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15289847724558053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908689149947755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558538749329186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16003021854871793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21294416214432305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901209146059469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19198220811448555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754091712632947,0.0,0.1817491320697194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246714323761213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558411506938894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490771268759304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651485582085703,0.0,0.0,0.10211142759542824,0.15145269823727295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20786390920399112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18666218225274248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830466850250107,0.0,0.1365851899297461,0.13776916427896427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17828117029410714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576221818338888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14805942407370978,0.16914634680674615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15742867240349964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17511534157825012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239835434067634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343799746052155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12614675325646585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262556894649495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964981919558675
EDAnonymous,MyStomachIsAlien,2019/05/08,"DAE sometimes have an uncomfortable and weird feeling in their stomach, like it shouldn't belong to your body. Often it feels like my belly isn't a part of me and just some parasite clinging onto me. I just want to slice and cut it off, idk...",5.3118750000000015,5.746898104166667,5.645833333333336,83.08250000000002,67.95833333333334,8.066666666666668,28.5,7.793537801064563,1.6389499999999997,191,6,38,2,3,61,39,48,0.125,0.723,0.152,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,3,2,2,0,0,11,6,3,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,2,6,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.445369238077735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40546853607484107,0.2864414457905487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3917715077187629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43419384871222094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965535203534665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364929156154839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,luvpuppups,2019/05/08,"Guilt about not telling BF about past EDNOS Hi, thanks for reading.

I've dealt with disordered eating and weight obsession for about 18 ish years. It comes and goes with different phases of my life.  I got to a point a couple years ago where shit was good.  I was at a healthy weight, confident in myself and didn't obsess over what I was eating.  I'm still doing good about that.  

Over the past few months, I dropped a bit of weight unintentionally.  Active job, loosing my sweet tooth with age, whatever.  Still healthy BMI, but very close to underweight.  This has been a bit triggering, but not terrible; not restricting or binging, but a more aware of mine and others weight/health, weighing myself more often.

Now the relationship part: bf and I (mid 30s) know the major things in our past that have shaped who we are now (ex: my alcoholism/bipolar, his emotionally abusive ex wife).  My past disordered eating has never come up because it just hasn't been present the past 1.5ys we've been together.  I've recently noticed saying things about health or food or weight a bit more often than I'd like. Don't know if he's taken note.

For whatever reason, I have guilt over not telling him this part of my life.  I never saw a reason to, there's never been a situation where it could have come up.  He is very patient when I get mood swings from the bipolar shit, and I know he'd be accepting of any other ""flaws"" I may have.  I think I'm afraid to add to that list, but I also feel like I'm hiding part of myself from him, almost like a lie of omission.

I think I'm asking if y'all think my guilt is unnecessary.  Has anyone else felt this?  Any random advice is good too.",3.775938461538463,5.4963523938461565,4.316384615384617,86.38011538461541,72.75384615384615,7.461538461538463,23.884615384615394,8.139509932561175,1.2361692307692311,1308,37,263,20,26,414,169,325,0.08199999999999999,0.8029999999999999,0.115,0.7606,2,0,1,0,0,0,48.0,2,1,0,0,18,19,2,6,15,0,26,16,3,3,3,51,47,17,0,3,14,3,6,3,2,1,4,1,0,0,15,15,9,1,11,1,0,3,10,9,0,0,12,9,30,9,34,31,11,38,0,0,1,0,21,14,2,10,23,161,45,2,0.0,0.08892385843597471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07333954250490393,0.0665287037966623,0.0,0.07515332351164085,0.0,0.0,0.060018727256416486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207530599878432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0524778148834764,0.0768992203853524,0.0,0.0,0.07016310291528348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045750751020528585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458106854554887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1939508908375982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059922585463795065,0.08304315385451147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841293482286778,0.17203124244370785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303895314023315,0.06269597078816669,0.08442293405626848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03794833759181826,0.053616868970281235,0.07206129347817025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075267728418923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03921135672944386,0.0,0.0,0.18884913191156216,0.060025610464787674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15955265548017514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447711975527581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12373916885101052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060223113123597,0.10999924367268113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05990546095693387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17365323275120548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544672959100799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438206659988176,0.35822616175756705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094800882480383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750718973354044,0.0,0.0,0.15433106315779332,0.07410438817766937,0.0805773174984723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059684034579054114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1540787517068532,0.0,0.0843611286746821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987258914770943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119679068311507,0.06909741809628878,0.0,0.0,0.09972187945450513,0.14427008009392586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385083913765305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4569630716412042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666152312938876
EDAnonymous,0x4544,2019/05/08,"It's so hard to stop restricting because I have loose skin. This is sort of just a rant but any advice would be welcome.

So I used to be obese.  During the process of losing all that weight (I'm at the low end of a normal BMI now)  I developed disordered eating habits which eventually turned into a full fledged eating disorder.  I'm so tired of going back and forth between a b/p cycle and restriction cycle.  I want this to be done but I just feel like I can't stop because I look in the mirror and see my loose skin and think it could be improved by losing even more weight.  In the back of my mind I realize that there's no way it's going to go away, but the ED brain always wins that battle you know?  I always feel fat and I'm never going to be happy with the way I look.

Anyways, sorry team, rant over, thanks for coming to my TED talk, etc.",3.4544915254237267,4.051707853107349,4.762500000000003,87.18917372881359,72.16384180790959,7.481920903954803,23.224576271186447,7.492282038375204,0.8137423728813551,658,15,143,7,12,219,107,177,0.22399999999999998,0.644,0.132,-0.9161,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,4,11,9,1,0,10,0,11,10,4,1,2,31,30,11,0,4,5,0,7,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,9,8,6,4,5,1,0,5,3,4,0,0,1,10,14,5,21,22,4,22,0,3,3,0,4,8,0,1,8,90,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289804900673106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209296424649883,0.0,0.0,0.08552586729169215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11816222897713308,0.19341410742472398,0.0,0.15333278198837155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14039755670985168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10833712743465072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041470935610332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28827973753888536,0.0,0.0,0.12870329817961315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573820611532381,0.0,0.0,0.11139222528816133,0.0,0.14026344107927122,0.08306791207708394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12718314005766826,0.08984796421189144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859051194128202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388130160822406,0.1126625216742973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911824971041056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06144339955345175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112251961018276,0.2814021881873448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698880977738244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699925751699312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322494929599245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022000951404217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078585084503906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21029367356475315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108674419797964,0.0,0.11578934890231225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058641022293778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445506562283163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679837239154602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10862230070228253,0.0,0.0,0.07418063039006963,0.1996559685507616,0.0,0.306300628854192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934126268318891,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SupSquark,2019/05/08,"Rape, purge what the fuckery HUGE TW. Help. Having such a meltdown.  (will delete later)

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Used to have a secret account on here but have been recovering really well from anorexia for quite a while now (and fully committed, love getting better). At the weekend I was raped. The morning after pill has made me nauseous, but I'm having difficulty coming to terms with things (I will be seeing someone for support at some point) and being nauseous made me feel justified to purge (no binge). 

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This evening it's been awful. I can't focus I have a practise for a final university exam tomorrow and I can't prepare. I just ate a meal and felt so terrible about myself that I purged for the first time in a long time. I've already told people about the rape but don't know how to tell anybody how much it's actually having an impact since I'm meant to be the strong one who has everyone's backs. 

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I'm so impulsive and self destructive and I don't know where to turn right now. I can't lose the progress I've made, but being raped makes my body feel fucking awful and I just want to starve again so nobody looks at my body as desirable ever again. What do I do please help before I purge again.",4.004563624250498,5.793194928270045,4.659546968687542,83.87294470353099,72.29113924050634,7.183566511214746,26.39773484343771,7.85451343220497,1.5668025316455698,966,33,182,13,19,309,139,237,0.191,0.6579999999999999,0.151,-0.9504,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,6,21,13,6,0,15,2,24,11,2,7,2,34,49,18,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,8,9,2,0,7,1,1,1,6,8,1,2,10,5,17,5,22,33,3,28,0,1,2,6,8,9,1,1,18,122,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.10514311276420027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188987611033884,0.0,0.0,0.35022343913269144,0.3927641684421216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284888802706962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168265388112494,0.0,0.0,0.09529127541725577,0.0,0.2393597530588365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281236678664737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116424171897875,0.09746109014682328,0.0,0.10295450965355098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10895773705307216,0.0,0.10345163931754904,0.11802885916603935,0.0,0.09164743678948607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960807595763843,0.056292066624574484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444377661132615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11842714488887054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953505129225012,0.09047826372823904,0.12053856200111647,0.0,0.0,0.0972436392361578,0.3058514203407673,0.07192030619738662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920462213872795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301047768667082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469648640970249,0.0,0.0,0.11827113191270396,0.10185340097267782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459956345498536,0.0,0.0,0.06902390081702392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201323450519236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08585843563176765,0.0,0.11240103639172826,0.0,0.0,0.08912738337818929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129158525850692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226720862647457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417346271671602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158067394752456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12565339641699164,0.0,0.0,0.10295450965355098,0.0,0.0,0.117195102130423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305667459265923,0.0,0.0,0.06355051162290455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09687526637337072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927641684421216,0.0
EDAnonymous,Slice_n_diced,2019/05/08,"Any tips for telling your therapist? I'm really scared you guys. 

I've been seeing my therapist for over a year now, for non-ed issues. We've touched upon my fasting in the past, but I really downplayed it and blamed it mostly on my anxiety.

I didn't mention the purging. I don't know how to talk about it without sounding like a basket case.

I feel like I'm lying. I don't want to do this anymore.

I tell myself every week that I'm going to just say it and bring it all out into the open. But every week I lose my nerve. And I don't know what to do.",0.8796791443850296,2.5625262268907605,3.2055614973262045,91.34866310160429,80.84873949579833,6.007944996180291,20.902215431627198,6.980632752743323,0.4167411764705884,427,12,96,5,11,147,74,119,0.203,0.797,0.0,-0.9687,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,4,4,0,1,5,0,7,0,0,1,1,17,17,6,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,2,5,15,2,15,15,2,15,0,1,1,0,8,7,0,1,8,60,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493708507584884,0.0,0.14054663024393005,0.0,0.18220260118469905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095869840402292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928952332947696,0.1312508496446819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441330020622322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819134098955806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175776689914756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019373300223092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17951432661132835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553763580195505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538319188945847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353937055865711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610290379069735,0.18393751489042648,0.0,0.14640244234242986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766857747060064,0.32116180184558835,0.0,0.0,0.4266302070925398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836384386977738,0.0,0.2947410000272651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771012037702795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831077870020205
EDAnonymous,rexytothebone,2019/05/08,"Shower thought **""I'm hungry""** has two completely different meanings when it comes to a hungry person with normal eating habits and someone with an ED.",3.089615384615385,5.873256423076924,3.684153846153848,77.91084615384621,100.15384615384615,5.1569230769230785,24.43076923076923,6.742157984588678,1.964824615384616,121,5,16,2,5,38,24,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,5,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841328291720494,0.34583689846239324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34461851016029343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375144557793247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592986208190427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32317871349480043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880085071792973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27947715694750164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618606095653794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32221128093194845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WhiteBitchWonder,2019/05/08,"Mio Sweet Tea If you're from the South like me and love the sweetest of sweet teas but hate all the sugar in it, I have an answer. Mio sweet tea water flavoring has one that tastes JUST LIKE actual sweet tea (if you use enough) and the best part is it has NO calories!! I love it when I'm craving something sweet because it really does taste like the real thing and it gives me an excuse to drink something other than water and black coffee",4.4032958801498125,5.1954259775280915,4.646685393258426,88.16793071161051,70.12359550561797,7.281647940074906,22.698501872659172,7.1686216300943375,0.6320996254681646,348,7,72,3,6,109,59,89,0.07400000000000001,0.575,0.35100000000000003,0.9859,0,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,2,12,1,0,7,0,4,12,0,1,1,12,10,8,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,10,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,10,5,11,5,10,4,3,0,0,1,2,5,2,0,2,4,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.2214680693959907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834511888812967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381674502097869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986033287397613,0.0,0.0,0.22232219733196054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23449748412034385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770876784948331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22406371868085007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332625325356366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096580456196064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378553206056048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457620787460147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25831599491157137,0.1453884106551913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494306204066388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077386667041706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19600981485745286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,letstryforkarma,2019/05/08,"How long until restricting makes you too weak to get out of bed? I'm in a really bad way. Just came out of a 2 month binging bender and now I'm horrified about how grotesque my body is. 

I'm a 300lb male and restricting like this is not characteristic for me, but I've eaten maybe 1000 calories in the past 4 days. Not enough water either but definitely more access to it than food. I mostly have just soup in the house and my home is in a ""hoarder"".

I feel nauseous .  I think it might be from restricting but I've never done this before.

It's not intentional, I just have so little will that I can't get up and dust myself off to take care of myself in the most basic ways.

I think today is the morning of the 4 th day since restricting began.

I'm just wondering how close I am to not having enough energy to get up. 

I am not intentionally restricting. 

I am very anxious about why I can't get up and take care of myself. I don't know what to do. Well, obviously I do, but I'm afraid I've lost the will to do so.",2.1562270861833106,3.410074269767441,4.325608755129959,86.57590971272232,76.06976744186046,7.663474692202463,21.484268125854992,8.313332769828598,0.9385184678522576,788,19,178,14,17,273,116,215,0.134,0.7879999999999999,0.078,-0.8384,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,1,14,8,0,1,10,0,21,5,1,6,2,44,44,15,0,0,14,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,2,1,7,9,3,5,5,0,0,1,9,4,1,0,5,1,19,4,29,35,6,26,0,1,0,0,2,13,0,4,11,119,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685172001738201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454891558968045,0.0,0.0,0.12693084504271387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16569184267051587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060827010430374,0.3041731086308718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240183280383147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526504902076044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082605074320963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542374185644904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803743441383343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3117361587339041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496275058435905,0.0,0.0,0.17211965961194195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197874374486752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728758718270502,0.14950536339905185,0.0,0.1320088442924203,0.0,0.0,0.1628343182473734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957069145491236,0.0,0.14985914472162812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824350535851736,0.0,0.0,0.11906434668119745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504743405315553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239758189805182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556073791460164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339317864105318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243113029085896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911614573767177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139367050794016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230790900552774,0.0,0.2368049762766337,0.0,0.0,0.1341198024268958,0.0,0.13460077395593018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617661593209147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beesarecool,2019/05/08,"Boyfriend tagged me in an Instagram video of a really thin girl he knows working out My boyfriend knows I have an ED (well he knows part of it and has caught me throwing up before). I am on the verge of underweight bmi, sometimes higher, sometimes lower, so I know logically I am not fat but I feel it all the time. I usually have a kinda toned stomach that he likes, I do some sit ups but mostly it’s just the way my body fat is.

I’d been really stressing lately and eating more than usual maybe, and feeling poorly and bloated, kinda upset and I asked my boyfriend if my tummy looked bigger (yeah I know it’s my fault for asking but I can’t help it I feel like all I do is talk about my weight) and he said that yeah it was bigger. Then he said I should just lose some more body fat :( which made me sad as I am only 2 pounds more than underweight atm but I guess I should drop more.

Then when I went to uni he tagged me in this girl’s video she had a perfect body and really toned, she was doing a workout routine for abs. The caption was like He said it was his mates girlfriend. It was just humiliating having him tag me in that, basically publicly saying he didn’t think my body was good enough. This was earlier today and it’s still upsetting me thought all I had to do was get skinny to be pretty but now I have to get al this muscle in the right places as well for him to think I’m good enough :(",0.9583075563411398,3.1276583835616485,2.5102607158638968,93.84216305788776,83.31506849315069,5.411577551922228,18.665930181175433,6.6834051587181325,-0.0268646928855496,1096,27,243,12,31,357,149,292,0.11900000000000001,0.76,0.12,0.105,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,10,14,0,3,11,2,30,11,9,1,4,44,54,20,0,3,10,0,5,3,2,2,3,4,0,2,16,9,6,0,12,3,2,3,3,6,2,0,19,10,37,8,24,32,13,30,0,2,1,0,26,14,0,7,13,157,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19581206940540227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911535197866798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4653143804284374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716233328435212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21642291605078184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588600462123404,0.07481731588172201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943154715743557,0.0,0.0,0.1756808435798798,0.0,0.0,0.11536910046284482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07019660656248602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877773562893432,0.0,0.11813713259037699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534936358400774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794468721439062,0.11716323562862585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909565158742392,0.0,0.0,0.10521280642696412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964994990287151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340962982276193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094179019872858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065454735071422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20127327108872345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943667566885362,0.298859380563346,0.08328347689738826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071562647954846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363548207929808,0.0,0.11996494763586052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417596256581736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421025089014962,0.0,0.08314190232680331,0.061067422107643675,0.0,0.09926938334516494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23068499520275765,0.0,0.0,0.0831277803440563,0.0,0.12752982833149798,0.1883251213928369,0.09708340143727358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624283566319462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tickerrtape,2019/05/08,Does anyone else get dizzy right before/right when they start eating? I keep getting dizzy at the beginning of every meal and I don’t know if it’s anxiety related or what. Does anyone else experience this? please tell me i’m not dying LMAO,1.2682066869300923,3.9374998936170233,2.8455927051671743,86.62000000000002,92.61702127659576,6.089969604863223,17.352583586626142,7.447530270364453,0.7695434650455923,193,5,36,4,7,63,40,47,0.198,0.747,0.054000000000000006,-0.7117,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,8,4,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629510364887894,0.0,0.0,0.2857138863532347,0.41867549482802396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120395060792827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575827132829133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905814688302726,0.3413463291554895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17213834894131588,0.0,0.0,0.19985248244174825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21348505354555086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159838758953412,0.0,0.0,0.1122823644780263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426889296558475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34895592706246314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461029362737232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857424621421986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MysticAmberMeadow,2019/05/24,"I'm fucking relapsing. On mobile blah blah bad writing stuff..

I developed an eating disorder when I was around 14 ish. I thought I was fat and ugly and the only pretty quality I could have is being skinny. I threw up on my birthday. I was bulimic and after throwing up after meals 10 times and burning off any calories I ate, I started to have Anorexia. I would ask my parents for grilled cheese sandwiches, only eat half of it and dash the other slice in the fridge. I wasn't badly underweight when I was at my lowest. I am 5""4 for context and at my lowest I was 99lbs. I remember being so proud of that then looked at the mirror to do a self-check and I noticed my ribcage starting to define more. I had a realization I was gonna soon be sticks and bones and began self recovey.

I was sober for a year until the thoughts boomaranged back into my mind. I had a filed trip and we went to McDonalds and I even cried in the stalls because I was so horrified of what my thoughts were going to become and the food. I ate the food then felt so damn guilty the whole bus ride back that I gave my friends the cookie box and went to the bathroom to puke it out.

This was the moment I fucked up. I didn't tell anyone because I wasn't emotionally attached to my friends because of BPD phases and I didn't want to tell my parents because they wouldn't understand.

I told my therapist a few times and she did the best she could do without any eating disorder training.

I am also scared I'm gonna cut out my parents wallets for eating disorder therapy money.

I don't what to do. I keep saying to myself I'll be find but looking around to my thinner friends I can't help but feel so fat.",3.1098245614035065,4.591904953216378,4.427777777777783,85.87833333333336,74.02923976608187,7.171929824561403,27.87134502923977,7.793537801064563,1.6804397660818715,1322,52,267,18,27,437,174,342,0.11599999999999999,0.83,0.054000000000000006,-0.8991,5,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,1,2,13,12,4,1,19,0,35,16,4,0,0,40,63,27,0,5,3,3,2,2,3,4,2,1,0,1,9,21,13,1,8,0,1,7,8,7,0,1,29,5,51,5,40,24,4,40,0,0,2,2,19,16,3,0,17,189,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122470629171093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113358649441668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227584493649505,0.0,0.0,0.1585722589959862,0.0832631184647771,0.0,0.0,0.13696993233092333,0.14872997764896775,0.21717113661146312,0.0983645464503567,0.0,0.0,0.09346751132531544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121733959766129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422212281065147,0.0,0.09783297580714466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062262882642502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645401462049313,0.0,0.10018537475400002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058826144832777885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04503359739183725,0.0,0.08551571647055795,0.0,0.08140317696190008,0.0,0.2153938638897668,0.0,0.2064326232129685,0.16467706143591762,0.0,0.0,0.050617306798936064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059697937780707325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916446183691288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495831984640177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992957604585336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140032114819887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354748608625528,0.0,0.0,0.29668616928031466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061043488738288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008925150097172,0.0,0.0,0.07082752379996501,0.08916892392687413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582702453979108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608037134079325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195734047580167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556922865574586,0.0,0.10185281447753317,0.10341054271556116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121213697555426,0.10386824503162118,0.0,0.0,0.08510477663745325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271910044058704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05253244481531681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651270379682164,0.0,0.09943713507495627,0.0,0.08585482834079443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326873911634523,0.0,0.0,0.057354503413466734
EDAnonymous,ayybih,2019/05/24,"Here we go again. This is my first post in this community since the old one got taken down. 

Im overweight at this point in my life. I’ve struggled with eating disorders ever since I can remember. 

I have a two year old child so obv I gained a lot of weight during my pregnancy. I’ve been thru some shit w my body. I’m soo not happy with my size but motherhood makes being healthy so challenging. I’m either stuffing my face with goldfish or eating absolutely nothing. 

I went out with a guy the other night and he was throwing out all sorts of red flags so I just went home. He proceeded to insult my body sooo much. With things that I know are true and I’m self conscious about. I know he was just doing it to be a dick, but still. Someone pointing out your flaws fucking hurts and now I’m just spiraling down the fuckin rabbit hole again. I have been stuffing my face. And now all I can think about is starving myself and over exercising. Ughh",0.9964912280701732,3.517060605263161,2.2785526315789504,92.82695175438595,87.68421052631578,5.271929824561403,20.021929824561404,6.816661863887847,0.3695087719298247,745,23,155,10,24,238,119,190,0.129,0.81,0.061,-0.9197,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,1,0,3,16,9,4,1,7,0,14,14,6,1,4,35,28,11,0,0,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,7,14,4,0,5,1,0,4,1,6,0,3,8,2,20,3,21,18,6,28,0,1,1,3,9,11,4,4,12,101,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31558803386538425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281036634308288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29072086733701885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849927117969784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083415869035652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133000200270914,0.0,0.0,0.08073463231990996,0.0,0.11361647443704452,0.0,0.0,0.14065940098601934,0.0,0.15122300268074546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249539874832573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207564509454422,0.0,0.15344663181233215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614233109015108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033951449809468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077232817388606,0.0,0.0,0.09482457989606344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10442871307469816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331147484446573,0.0,0.13630813991502955,0.0,0.2981311996294008,0.0,0.09626193547686876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685807797233885,0.0,0.13605195377496815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609236172026388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14819710342271966,0.0,0.14582012926684645,0.23502310078816904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036498004367698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344741732025003,0.0,0.0,0.14850949263800206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437678584296337,0.09102480169214593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387696755713983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729879388007316,0.0,0.2633777168231317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148046464365794
EDAnonymous,throwmeawayiloveu,2019/05/24,"I'm fucking relapsing On mobile blah blah bad writing stuff..

I developed an eating disorder when I was around 14 ish. I thought I was fat and ugly and the only pretty quality I could have is being skinny. I threw up on my birthday. I was bulimic and after throwing up after meals 10 times and burning off any calories I ate, I started to have Anorexia. I would ask my parents for grilled cheese sandwiches, only eat half of it and dash the other slice in the fridge. I wasn't badly underweight when I was at my lowest. I am 5""4 for context and at my lowest I was 99lbs. I remember being so proud of that then looked at the mirror to do a self-check and I noticed my ribcage starting to define more. I had a realization I was gonna soon be sticks and bones and began self recovey.

I was sober for a year until the thoughts boomaranged back into my mind. I had a filed trip and we went to McDonalds and I even cried in the stalls because I was so horrified of what my thoughts were going to become and the food. I ate the food then felt so damn guilty the whole bus ride back that I gave my friends the cookie box and went to the bathroom to puke it out.

This was the moment I fucked up. I didn't tell anyone because I wasn't emotionally attached to my friends because of BPD phases and I didn't want to tell my parents because they wouldn't understand.

I told my therapist a few times and she did the best she could do without any eating disorder training.

I am also scared I'm gonna cut out my parents wallets for eating disorder therapy money.

I don't what to do. I keep saying to myself I'll be find but looking around to my thinner friends I can't help but feel so fat.",2.8836340852130316,4.505392438596496,4.251349206349207,86.3375,74.90643274853802,6.9909774436090215,27.418964076858806,7.7094869923839395,1.6048016708437758,1322,52,267,18,28,437,174,342,0.11599999999999999,0.83,0.054000000000000006,-0.8991,5,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,1,2,13,12,4,1,19,0,35,16,4,0,0,40,63,27,0,5,3,3,2,2,3,4,2,1,0,1,9,21,13,1,8,0,1,7,8,7,0,1,29,5,51,5,40,24,4,40,0,0,2,2,19,16,3,0,17,189,60,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122470629171093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113358649441668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227584493649505,0.0,0.0,0.1585722589959862,0.0832631184647771,0.0,0.0,0.13696993233092333,0.14872997764896775,0.21717113661146312,0.0983645464503567,0.0,0.0,0.09346751132531544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121733959766129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422212281065147,0.0,0.09783297580714466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062262882642502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645401462049313,0.0,0.10018537475400002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058826144832777885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04503359739183725,0.0,0.08551571647055795,0.0,0.08140317696190008,0.0,0.2153938638897668,0.0,0.2064326232129685,0.16467706143591762,0.0,0.0,0.050617306798936064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059697937780707325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916446183691288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495831984640177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08992957604585336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140032114819887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354748608625528,0.0,0.0,0.29668616928031466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061043488738288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008925150097172,0.0,0.0,0.07082752379996501,0.08916892392687413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18582702453979108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608037134079325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195734047580167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556922865574586,0.0,0.10185281447753317,0.10341054271556116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121213697555426,0.10386824503162118,0.0,0.0,0.08510477663745325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271910044058704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05253244481531681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651270379682164,0.0,0.09943713507495627,0.0,0.08585482834079443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326873911634523,0.0,0.0,0.057354503413466734
EDAnonymous,dragonpersonn,2019/05/24,"tw all triggers I guess, this is a rant I’ve been in recovery for a hot minute I’m so tired rn but I’m so upset I feel like I never even had an ED in the first place I am so... chunky and I have gained all the weight back that I absolutely sweated for, gave my life for, spent every minute obsessing about for years, and I just.... am .... weighing more than I even used to before I started! I am so annoyed because I don’t even feel like I had a fucking issue in the first place, even though logically I had ... an ED! But sometimes, like right now, I just want to look at some fucking thinspo, watch some fucking triggering videos, and never eat again! And then I am mad at myself for even HAVING those thoughts! I’m “over this”!!! Or so I thought!!! I was supposed to be recovered so long ago! But I am just itching to trigger myself again and get right back into the awful, awful, awful swing of things. I just want to be pretty and I am so sad because I know I am already pretty, and even when I was underweight I still didn’t even think I was pretty, I still thought I was chunky and ugly (even though chunky people are also pretty!!) and I hate that when my confidence gets low my first thought is ALWAYS “just stop eating again and learn to hate yourself again, that’ll solve it”",2.97573359073359,4.298761583011586,3.8574111969111975,90.47221718146723,74.0965250965251,6.415521235521236,24.1469111969112,6.742157984588678,0.6635604633204633,986,29,212,8,20,316,127,259,0.20199999999999999,0.672,0.126,-0.9786,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,0,4,35,14,7,2,9,3,25,11,2,4,4,44,51,27,0,2,9,0,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,8,11,4,1,10,1,1,0,4,11,0,3,15,6,33,3,21,33,5,34,0,2,2,3,1,12,3,4,25,154,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048096548323629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001904025264587,0.07260573017377447,0.07554559350034679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13962573475570142,0.0,0.11069100714690387,0.0,0.07725666703168131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18580423051841932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4797341171361622,0.0,0.07649554428904448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181356838720033,0.12972257490857336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316809737270285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25180514411930555,0.09486936216699772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001679825420152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17927512647496732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947624771504987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04989649684473056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412854520104927,0.13306805676330172,0.0,0.0,0.08034739960412797,0.07624178400769745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004761888259645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294322136958723,0.0,0.1897150655514525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694693669591066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155070463599203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979486821003957,0.0,0.06426251436044375,0.0,0.14501201976021322,0.07590555072975226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06031767252546503,0.05817536729104035,0.17840388516713876,0.2883124454686544,0.0,0.10435118644668984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841448976163058,0.0,0.0,0.10710206365774733,0.0,0.0,0.11055928372894124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846658857438668
EDAnonymous,sadposterior,2019/05/24,"I've been the exact same weight for the past five years I'm right bang in the middle of the 'normal' BMI. I've been this exact weight for the past five years. That's the same five years I've spent being tortured by an eating disorder. I fast for days, and I have periodic binges. I take laxatives. I count calories obsessively. I'm depressed. I can't go out to eat with my friends and family, and then I go home and binge on shitty junk food at 2 AM in my bedroom. 

In the end, it all evens out. I look exactly like a normal person with a normal relationship to food. I'm not glamorous and skinny. I'm not overweight. I'm just some average skinny-fat schlub. Before I had my eating disorder, I was a little bit heavier, but still totally within the normal BMI range -- and I never obsessed about food. I ate what I wanted and lived my life and that's it. 

So, like ... WHAT IS THE POINT OF ALL OF THIS? Why do I spend all of my day anguished about food and calories? Why couldn't I have just been a normal person eating normal maintenance calories and looking THE EXACT SAME? You'd barely even notice a difference between me now and me pre-ED. What in the actual fuck, brain? Like, I know this is just more disordered thinking on my part, but I often think, ""At least other people with eating disorders are lucky enough to actually have the benefit of being skinny.""",3.0353429951690813,4.893320911111111,4.459371980676328,83.99978260869568,75.07407407407408,7.214170692431562,22.850241545893716,8.04050195162591,1.2402270531400972,1066,30,207,17,23,354,141,270,0.087,0.831,0.081,0.3272,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,0,0,11,13,2,3,18,0,18,18,3,0,9,49,35,15,0,8,7,0,2,3,1,0,2,1,2,2,11,16,15,0,3,0,2,2,5,6,0,3,7,5,25,7,29,24,13,31,0,1,2,1,5,15,1,3,17,141,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.1540399591746185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715985426711553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616629031386132,0.0,0.0,0.08810704800254447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180093772701926,0.0,0.0679784852197238,0.0,0.0,0.08246043121098474,0.3618222035870688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038028536331169,0.0,0.0,0.06990463630971151,0.08155122085762499,0.0,0.10425920063512352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440401133190304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817484918431162,0.0,0.060977706263024914,0.0729654256498349,0.0,0.0,0.08971045034756991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791687905601346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04337543393060826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05574747029014916,0.1156771530949788,0.07910416427664706,0.06969273191032126,0.0,0.13255521626171365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060872271843895924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639818573981472,0.0,0.08985729438082572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546871041038392,0.15068679082762898,0.0547170585620884,0.13782954190934352,0.0,0.0,0.07461018280300236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473653437099407,0.0,0.06740201290450278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303006904298789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059342212717240675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114464781660827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04655235116479955,0.0,0.0,0.1922201841833916,0.0,0.0,0.14243611724288496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247645487505926
EDAnonymous,tisbo2001,2019/05/24,"not sure I can keep recovering i started recovery 2.5 weeks ago. I experienced extreme hunger, and then I think over last weekend, I ate so much when I was high, that it was enough to end my extreme hunger as a whole. like I gained enough, plus more because I ate when I wasn’t hungry 
and now I can’t stand my body. I stayed home yesterday when I was tired and sad and my mom tried to cheer me up by taking me to the mall. 

I sobbed in the middle of forever 21, because when I asked her if she thought I could be a small instead of an extra small now, she said “probably”. I can’t take having such a bigger body. I gained 6 lbs in two weeks. I’m barely underweight at all. like, less than a lb . I’m soft. I hate my body. this is so much worse. So many new clothes I just bought don’t fit me. I’m chubby. I can’t do this",0.4604586241276181,2.186104570621474,2.3372549019607867,96.85010967098705,82.38983050847456,5.7466267863077425,19.451312728481227,6.794906146795322,-0.06002864739116021,627,16,155,7,17,208,107,177,0.131,0.774,0.095,-0.7132,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,0,7,0,14,8,3,0,2,14,29,15,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,5,4,1,2,2,1,0,6,3,0,1,9,3,30,4,14,18,9,29,0,2,0,0,6,11,1,1,18,98,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008746660510814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719401982187152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891823997449408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890276977748415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717013695679815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299793862535646,0.3032696597787861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144887967536228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505234753427924,0.14720498311231053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304405953884097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962308569658366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14339197089617686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878426422011864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17187505808592113,0.0,0.0,0.2157603274159319,0.0,0.0,0.14173472945036206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582242955110486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959548018146406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10387235839716404,0.1564189153865252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383127389357148,0.0,0.2206796228433808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403324257199,0.0,0.11650529847816278,0.0,0.1686707086648299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996354904915804,0.0,0.14335612187076682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23543242311420395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384421496625465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495535992122083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDthrowawayBDD,2019/05/24,i had 600 calories today and 500 of them were from rosé help me I really don’t want to become a drunkorexic I hate my life enough already,1.2688505747126442,3.441326,3.642068965517243,86.16816091954023,82.10344827586206,6.625287356321839,20.011494252873558,7.793537801064563,0.8240252873563212,110,3,23,2,3,38,27,29,0.128,0.725,0.14800000000000002,-0.1082,0,0,0,0,0,1,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145878884699625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4149247236448361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881925347520647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37092023919563577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518199008656822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26536392184403473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24067932271225784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561141698598304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22159417121273065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evb399,2019/05/24,"is an amazing job worth staying in if I’m miserable off the clock and making my ED worse I started a summer internship may 12 (only ELEVEN days ago oh god) and it’s an AMAZING opportunity and literally the dream job for me to have right before graduating college. 

but here’s the tea,, I’m fucking miserable to say the least. I came here knowing absolutely no one, and the closest friends I have are a five hour drive from me, and so is my boyfriend. I have no friends here besides my coworkers, and was supposed to have a roommate but don’t have one because she just never showed up. after being in a house all throughout college I’m now in the smallest dorm room ever and hate it. I hate everything about this town. 

there’s literally no point of me being awake if I’m not at work because I have NOTHING to do. I know that sounds kinda harsh would like to mention I am not suicidal or anything, but seriously I don’t have a n y t h i n g to do here. I’m always alone and cry all the time. 

I also don’t have a kitchen or anything like I’m used to, which has been terrible for my ED. I’m anorexic and have a tiny ass fridge and a toaster and that’s it. I don’t have anything to cook with, and I was doing Hello Fresh meals to help with recovery through the eating disorder team at uni. not having those meals has been so fucking terrible. the food at work is terrible and I refuse to eat it, so I’ve just started bringing a sandwich and yogurt or something to work. but I get off really late and this dumb ass town doesn’t have anything open past 9:00 so there’s nothing for me to eat for dinner except for the same food I had for lunch. 

this sucks ASS. but I can’t imagine giving up this job....... but I also haven’t cried this much in years. and it’s only been 11 days. how am I supposed to last another three months. 

I am lonely, hungry, and sad. is it worth it to stay in my dream job. my recovery progress has absolutely tanked. shits just gone at this point. months of hard work, gone in 10 days.",1.9989019043256315,3.8293109031477006,3.5918146718146744,89.19208821412214,77.98305084745763,6.498763169949611,25.205745697271123,7.432916251226849,1.1363256200510436,1565,58,336,21,37,519,193,413,0.218,0.68,0.102,-0.9959,5,3,1,0,0,1,46.0,0,0,0,7,19,22,7,2,21,0,43,19,4,3,4,54,67,35,1,3,18,0,1,2,2,2,0,2,4,0,17,21,13,1,3,5,2,5,14,15,0,5,9,3,31,7,43,54,5,49,0,4,0,5,10,22,8,7,22,218,48,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065686711435642,0.0,0.0,0.0942378742019601,0.0,0.14552883890506374,0.07571070823326358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09541061987432124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995070367953888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11093293675834133,0.0,0.07742552153863436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040679614729168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19989579623577766,0.17604246128842216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104282063751826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27931549479232404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230538073347776,0.0,0.0,0.08177566321347715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22005018027572495,0.0,0.14059681222256853,0.16823699803628395,0.04753835575643738,0.08728559839943642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150888694420155,0.1796669556109235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06098846890762224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896065127654984,0.10498988175823064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611728958087809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001110427323627,0.0741687387619535,0.10264032964913007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890592955389644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06073632231208065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452541994082888,0.0,0.06688788901456516,0.0,0.07017685559605062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746141164814822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331393286247562,0.13840351353226185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685995150025934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172029328492568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582903231217359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777046951461324,0.0,0.0723586507953719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09339960567658807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004830605253039,0.0,0.0,0.12880593690900405,0.19396579857766744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995279488512606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05305681794126843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0785858748409435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649663019328164,0.0,0.09272626405086087,0.06463646269651703,0.0,0.0,0.05859437491783464
EDAnonymous,all_my_jokes_argon,2019/05/24,"Just signed up for a weight loss challenge at my gym... Overall I think it will be good for me. You get a personal trainer and shit and I need some outside discipline because my eat-and-yeet bulimic lifestyle is making me gain more and more weight which is making me more and more depressed which is triggering more binges.

But it’s one of those “how many pounds can you lose in six weeks” challenges and the initial weigh in isn’t until Saturday so you can bet your ASS I am sitting on my couch eating elote corn chips and pancake bread with cookie butter. After all, the more carb/sodium bloated I am Saturday, the easier winning is gonna be 🙃

This isn’t uncontrolled disordered binging, I’m just preparing for my ~healthy lifestyle~",4.782922077922077,6.653853214285713,4.713636363636365,83.9368181818182,70.42857142857143,7.948051948051948,30.584415584415584,8.575989854853784,2.428642857142858,590,25,108,10,11,182,97,140,0.127,0.77,0.10300000000000001,-0.6798,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,6,4,9,1,1,5,0,13,7,2,4,1,21,20,10,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,7,5,1,1,1,1,0,2,5,0,2,0,3,15,4,12,16,8,11,0,3,0,1,5,5,2,2,5,72,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157838609838707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18590878721427206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24737947174994698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44173093030801147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127711987257503,0.0,0.0,0.1810423030495181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414776885027328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881592248759833,0.2188350764652056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004788644857634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626357819080604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846935832596398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22156394189622214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830610337978289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313952044808645,0.5256872259529225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lovingbones,2019/05/01,"he likes someone else (tw: feelings) He likes someone else. 

At least, he's hooking up with some other girl who, apparently, already has a boyfriend. Probably some skinny blonde girl with big boobs who doesn't count calories. Someone who can eat normally without overthinking everything. Someone who can eat cookies past 8 pm and drink regular coke. Someone who isn't depressed and can actually talk like a normal human being. Who am I kidding? She's probably drop dead gorgeous. I'm just a short girl with chubby cheeks and a round stomach that no one will ever love. 

I don't even know why I'm writing this. To feel something? To feel anything? It's not even like I liked him. I probably didn't even want to date him. I just thought that he was cool and I liked the way he talked and the way he looked at 3 AM when we were smoking on the back porch. but I'm nothing to him. I'm nothing to everyone. No one will ever love me because I push everyone away. I stress ate m and ms after I found out. so typical of me to turn to food when things go south. Maybe I don't even like him. I just want to be with him for long periods of time and hang out until 5 in the morning and smoke and eat cheezits with him because when I'm with him I don't care about calories or carbs or sugar. I can just eat and talk and ramble and everything makes sense for once. But I'm not sexy enough to be with him. I'm not pretty enough to be with him. Who cares about the girl with rashes on her face and an empty stomach. I just wanted to lose weight so I could be good enough for him. He likes small girls with big boobs and nothing in their brains. I'm short and fat and a know-it-all. I don't even like him so why am I so upset?",1.3894309927360773,3.4479143192090405,2.654571428571433,94.04527118644071,80.9491525423729,5.627635189669088,22.54366424535916,6.742157984588678,0.4684532041969334,1335,44,295,14,35,429,169,354,0.10099999999999999,0.775,0.124,0.8596,1,0,3,0,0,0,38.0,1,0,1,1,23,20,0,2,11,1,25,22,10,1,2,60,51,28,1,6,13,0,5,9,0,2,1,0,1,7,13,29,12,0,6,1,0,3,13,4,0,2,6,9,34,16,41,37,6,35,0,2,3,4,42,16,2,4,22,177,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0758898827513393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581839363698128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399604386023232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306514627164032,0.05979842362622082,0.0,0.09481271842278788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681427310559119,0.0,0.0,0.15857834192819376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062091037808264186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669810521968579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618256453202299,0.0,0.31830235615302954,0.12992957037829855,0.0,0.0,0.24106391441319594,0.0,0.25682357208945555,0.1406903506965312,0.0,0.14862039863422993,0.13978486744628887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796478636246413,0.05555713280105248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403679552275644,0.08526807318209151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04419707454433496,0.06522770726497537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547799189042411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34193954474248484,0.0,0.0,0.06882180920586635,0.06530513169492852,0.08700196424462736,0.0,0.0,0.14037644855533088,0.0,0.051910424385100316,0.0,0.07812792787534759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15239131865681904,0.22386010245092244,0.0,0.0,0.08281987219521736,0.1053945702308953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423789872029922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07911752715568117,0.25153962357451565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294608424324161,0.059869237323264525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908243297331464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751976367283849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05166528563142455,0.0,0.0,0.06173872524650147,0.04534686709712795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458873173799827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13760789696228096,0.12345647735699446,0.0,0.09469989032898976,0.0,0.0,0.14034618413349534,0.0,0.0,0.07496511545432381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beneaththeblue,2019/05/01,"Just has my worst binge in months but I’m not going to purge Aaaaand it feels horrible. But instead of giving in and purging I’m going to write down how horrible and uncomfortable I feel right now so that I can read it next time when I inevitably get the urge to do it again. I really need this to stop. This disease has taken up way too much of my life already and I refuse to let it control me anymore. Kind of posting this here to hold myself accountable so that I think twice before heading down the rabbit hole once again. 

To all you guys and gals out there in a similar boat- I wish you all the luck in the world❤️",1.872209302325583,3.826788875968994,3.0552131782945766,92.30514534883724,78.84496124031008,6.16046511627907,22.377906976744185,7.1686216300943375,0.6182139534883726,491,15,107,6,12,158,87,129,0.151,0.773,0.076,-0.8859999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,12,3,0,0,5,0,5,2,1,2,2,23,17,10,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,5,0,4,3,1,1,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,13,2,18,15,4,21,0,0,0,0,6,9,0,1,8,74,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2310786702879128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076690387103337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781844112647658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348604780881724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21175837966814975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10940312399095777,0.20087605034646935,0.2380142713815525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073394271865457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149053357079176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21805840815152885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141262091914844,0.14790577319662312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714148959517194,0.0,0.15393346906751113,0.15526782514927842,0.0,0.0,0.2226998183957945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230047094710324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20054780530535654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20945717714109266,0.0,0.13414732896176593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882689172733365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506820301945372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417539183530516,0.0,0.0,0.1221031215621764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621237835539368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24080025271714545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ToostsieWooGirl92,2019/05/01,DAE just hate food baby jokes? That's it. That's the whole question,-0.9295238095238112,0.5384898571428565,-0.2842857142857138,105.41261904761903,114.71428571428572,1.866666666666667,11.809523809523812,3.1291,-1.971161904761904,54,1,12,0,3,16,12,14,0.23600000000000002,0.637,0.127,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5441387423587544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442793509510201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5041001674442389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5024061191560704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,girlathendoftheworld,2019/05/01,"Am I crazy? Are people just being nice? This is going to make me sound like a judge mental bitch. For the record, intellectually I know everyone of every size is beautiful and I would never be anything less than complementary to another person regardless of size. That SAID...



I never thought I had an eating disorder or bad body image but now I’m wondering if something is wrong? I obsessively check my stomach any time I’m in a bathroom, even public ones. I have abs but I still feel chubby and whenever they lose definition I panic.



Lately whenever I see other women’s stomachs I feel crazy. The other day I saw a gif of 1999 Brittany Spears in a crop top and thought she looked fat? And then later a photo of Margot Robbie in suicide squad and I felt like I would NEVER let someone see my stomach if it was that fat? Am I crazy? Are people just being nice when they say those stomachs are “goals” or do I have a fucked perception?



Sorry, couldn’t think of where else to ask this without getting yelled at for sounding like a judgey bitch.",2.9270895522388045,5.388904830845772,4.23895273631841,82.57156343283583,77.80597014925372,6.6070646766169165,23.98034825870647,7.734863291789972,1.4233201990049749,825,28,150,13,20,271,129,201,0.218,0.69,0.092,-0.9847,0,0,1,0,0,1,19.0,0,0,2,3,7,13,3,2,10,0,20,9,7,1,3,31,40,13,1,6,9,0,3,3,0,2,2,5,0,2,8,5,3,0,9,0,1,1,5,8,0,1,7,12,22,5,16,26,1,18,0,1,4,1,9,6,3,5,14,100,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704948229305872,0.14964663600398465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11744033466869462,0.0,0.133417044355154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915908502350685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852155978235904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203784009360688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356103813778775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14603064884013486,0.11921808996437935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942603462266137,0.0,0.1202415460050685,0.1363680338765819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443195876272776,0.0,0.13702650522562007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13193552688737298,0.07456145898100551,0.0,0.08110687650005459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843112924561121,0.0,0.1609860628781669,0.0,0.0,0.14593333335443542,0.0,0.20916654712137447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984266619020563,0.15965892860561814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09526178877392273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382076477263406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3302063348645996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670577158810208,0.0,0.0,0.1674425222692066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978779370317484,0.12461116392113887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357523920891798,0.11349081152158785,0.0,0.0,0.2274469782474339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12091994836429736,0.10986715495975916,0.0,0.15975510534256865,0.0,0.0,0.1139704907478042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610445413295512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091444490885062,0.0,0.2265957742888951,0.08321688227626309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375698827049519,0.15476575963094247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027579155962302,0.15603385761106905,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JimtheRunner,2019/05/01,"Smooth move tea That feeling when you’re finally not bloated. 

Where has this stuff been all my life.",1.8161403508771947,4.594253421052635,1.1642105263157916,97.99614035087721,93.73684210526315,4.63859649122807,22.12280701754386,6.42735559955562,0.4965649122807019,81,3,16,1,3,23,19,19,0.0,0.919,0.081,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411953566329242,0.0,0.0,0.522551469028098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33693293054219203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.506996162227074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460731214393929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iloveitosusumu,2019/05/01,"Fed UP with the fatlogic sub lol It used to be a method of triggering myself to browse the sub for a bit and think about what I could become if I give up and ""let myself go"". As far as shitty and narcissistic things my ED has influenced me to do, that was a pretty big one for me. I think everybody here is already pretty disillusioned with them already and same for me but today I saw that smaller bodies post and it burned dowm that last of my crops. It truly highlights the kind of patronizing and dismissive way some people treat the fat experience and fat people as a whole. The comments are fucking brimming with contrarian status quo enforcers, it's exactly the same as when people speak out about sexism or racism and some useful idiot chimes in like ""AcTUaLly, I'm a woman and AGREE that I am naturally stupider than men :) checkmate"" or ""sweatie, some of us THRIVE on being called racial slurs! White approval is my lifeblood"" like shut the fuck uppppp you utter bootlicker

idk maybe it's just cuz I've been there, been overweight for most of my life until a few years now, but it's so sad to me to see people acquiesce to that mindset as if just because being fat is unhealhy excuses it. I believed that my self-worth was connected to my appearance and weight long before I was ever below a healthy bmi and to see a majority of a big subreddit congregate to jerk each other off about ""actually I want to lose weight because I feel disgusting in my own body and that's a completely intrinsic phenomenon with no influence from society“ or just completely ignoring the fact that eating disorders/disordered eating are things that a lot of fat people deal with and maybe they should take that into account before thinsplaining shit to them. YEAH I just made up thinsplaining NO I'm not serious YES I'm pissed at 4 am writing this while drinking caffeine because my life is a downward spiral THANK YOU for coming to my ted talk",5.8624590163934425,7.111345595628418,6.336539890710387,75.70818688524592,67.08743169398906,9.790426229508196,31.30666666666667,9.98439552973466,3.180786142076503,1552,61,275,36,25,503,210,366,0.168,0.711,0.121,-0.9774,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,1,2,3,2,13,17,8,0,20,3,21,19,8,7,3,60,43,30,0,5,12,0,3,2,0,1,7,1,0,2,22,22,11,1,3,1,1,3,3,12,0,1,8,8,31,5,51,29,13,30,0,2,4,2,16,16,4,11,11,192,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.19557339508494234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22115984365550015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325412327952945,0.11066976335072326,0.17053601913176775,0.1128979586882689,0.0,0.0,0.10939910675679636,0.22261277187690898,0.0,0.0,0.10232163060629616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631868127702008,0.2101283762189426,0.0,0.0,0.0800064160614047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330808784594096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484487069426914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816382798102627,0.0,0.20507171114085648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064215328796972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802079268646917,0.0,0.0,0.05066721441857778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852778473146656,0.0,0.0961268208645291,0.05694943520851153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434923178862077,0.0,0.08168134486621556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246752521193367,0.14155706208260135,0.09791127655346436,0.0,0.0,0.08867924415156568,0.0,0.1121049928495261,0.0,0.08519164181074311,0.0,0.0948174335833472,0.0,0.0,0.2013409897548376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06790224591304571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34735145897820063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596974314315664,0.2038912544806721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970257406060073,0.0,0.10453681520489108,0.0,0.10286012043596196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534251550798844,0.08054186649004898,0.0,0.09225631267730676,0.0,0.0,0.13314495888837918,0.12841604395480954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09498366488751693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205355988260822,0.17309179181537132,0.0,0.0,0.05910415333313376,0.07953893703146023,0.0,0.24404806535934956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118765307637873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645294422525505
EDAnonymous,Openworldgamer47,2019/05/01,Just lost another 5 pounds without even realizing it So I just put what I ate today into cronometer and it turns out I ate 1000 calories less than I should have. And all my other vitamins are deficient. I feel like I ate a lot though. I have been eating like this for a while. No wonder I just lost another 5 fucking pounds. I'm already severely underweight. I weight 110 pounds now with a BMI of 16. I thought I was eating well over the last few months. How the fuck do people do this....,1.3358719851576986,3.7375954999999976,2.9355658627087213,89.88410946196663,83.79591836734693,6.420779220779222,22.17439703153989,7.686295010490155,1.0812326530612246,381,13,79,7,11,125,68,98,0.142,0.782,0.076,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,9,7,2,0,5,0,8,9,0,1,1,17,20,6,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,5,6,0,4,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,8,2,12,3,8,11,4,9,0,2,0,2,0,3,2,2,7,56,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206474205087895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650060539165367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561862284868857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495613244545858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800318635510755,0.12433891999491307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218065392347133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187120204819714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006074669148669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37998482973714254,0.147968188427179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13892232911457755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066199228023447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496489680205998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662310839951547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099989281135122,0.1381735527371787,0.0,0.0,0.16497581834146294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893127131975191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21194186045036933,0.15648878822995066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677747036777969,0.18874610453248472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Marceline523,2019/05/01,"does anyone ever accidentally relapse? I’ve been recovered from my ED for about 2-3 years now, and I actually really really like my body these days. It seems that when I’m not trying to fast is when I’m best at it. I’ve been trying to gain a few pounds and maintain it, but I’ve been down to about one meal a day lately. It’s not on purpose, I just miss breakfast cus I’m running late, then I don’t pack a lunch for school, then when I work I’m too busy to eat. It gets to the point where it’s triggering because I remember how satisfied I felt when I had an ED. I’ve been struggling with this lately because it’s that feeling of starving that I was addicted to vs me not wanting to be a skeleton again. In the past I could barely eat when I was under a lot of emotional distress not related to my ED, but I think I’m decently happy now. I don’t understand it. 

I’ve never posted here before but I thought it might be a good place to put this. If you guys have any thoughts about anything with this, please share.",3.664617940199335,4.014357046511634,5.217890365448504,85.00563953488374,71.55813953488372,8.561461794019934,27.915282392026572,8.634040054169528,1.814667774086379,795,27,176,13,14,270,124,215,0.07400000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.14,0.914,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,3,17,8,0,2,9,0,15,7,1,2,2,30,30,14,0,3,10,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,16,4,5,0,8,0,0,2,7,3,0,1,10,2,18,5,24,16,3,31,0,1,0,0,3,8,0,4,21,113,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.13091227101940645,0.14624466683906084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122745203321476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380167501329426,0.0,0.11039505048981914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355471691688214,0.0,0.11415283528443253,0.0,0.14078346316423465,0.0,0.0,0.14901179944068466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710885924103293,0.0,0.0,0.17303291978468896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739666520886995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745404446819075,0.0,0.15090210294766512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213474883111121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06783090412560844,0.0,0.12880624025382756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008849261221349,0.0,0.0,0.1125197059458662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283083133700893,0.0,0.14280650296071346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4539853685634079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553952579519368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405059769476658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14231327929742604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346571619331024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090436064613193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280625501692654,0.0,0.0,0.14015950636331104,0.14725779052643434,0.12681629525546506,0.0,0.12847981719152607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485906172122036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17188145515226788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519672180099054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357682296586142,0.0,0.122126262028806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402440166121845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595870589734615,0.0,0.21300221950125586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215978923723164,0.0,0.0,0.13965618508944833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912588454231409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976637096508588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638900837435466
EDAnonymous,abdie39,2019/10/10,"Does anyone feel like they are doing it for attention? I  am super quiet, and I don't have any friends, so I always think maybe if I get thin enough maybe someone will worry about me or care about me. Is anyone else the same?",2.2384782608695666,3.9953874130434817,3.2602173913043515,92.17119565217396,77.04347826086956,5.469565217391305,18.02173913043478,5.985473137389443,-0.3158956521739133,175,3,37,1,4,56,39,46,0.106,0.7,0.19399999999999998,0.6711,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,11,4,0,1,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,7,4,3,10,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931472557525896,0.0,0.0,0.17106669138465447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517875778229692,0.25774882715587016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564780850819026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201383317113967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101427408115408,0.0,0.0,0.2599245706118787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719426097939046,0.1797116410752625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943515247305103,0.0,0.13142761600909147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12289754435562868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5054435830073101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21314256398215828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611869134327221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554673066598508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mushroomtoppings,2019/10/10,Video Games are the Best I am having too much fun to stop and eat.,2.084,2.2182040666666687,2.846666666666668,101.37000000000002,75.0,6.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.419,51,0,14,0,1,16,15,15,0.106,0.531,0.36200000000000004,0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5701679449356358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5559394463943176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.399393696546159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4542295913630551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilovetodrinkmilk,2019/10/10,Headaches I hate that I get headaches when I starve myself,1.8727272727272712,4.477222181818182,-0.5722727272727255,108.96159090909092,99.9090909090909,2.2,23.681818181818183,3.1291,-0.5699454545454543,48,2,10,0,2,12,8,11,0.524,0.47600000000000003,0.0,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4677298291804783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8838714877711582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JustMo15,2019/10/10,"Came clean to friends about ED, now they make fun of me and I don’t know how to handle it. [added a tw Just to be safe, sorry if I used it wrong! ]
I went out with 3 friends to an amusement park and they noticed that I wasn’t eating. They then proceeded to go on and on about “(Me), you need to eat!” And started talking to each other saying things like “This could be serious, she might have bulimia” while laughing. Of course I brushed off the laughing but the next time I went with them, they did the same thing so I ate (This led to them saying stuff like “Wow, good job! She finally ate” while laughing and acting weird about it).  While I did feel like they were being kind of patronizing about it, I tried to brush it off because I figured maybe I was looking into things too hard and should be thankful I have friends who even care about my recovery. 
About two weeks later we’re in the hallway after class when one of the girls asked if we want to go with the library with her to study and one of the other girls decides to say “No, I’m not (Me) I need to go to lunch and actually eat” and they all started laughing. That’s when another one said “Nooo, lets all be like (Me) and NOT eat” and they all just kept going and going while laughing. I genuinely went numb and didn’t know how to react and still a week later the whole scene keeps playing over in my head and I can’t help but still get upset by it? I know that sounds weird but I just never really open up to people so not only did I feel betrayed, I felt humiliated for even telling them. I’m really conflicted onto how to bring it up because they usually just gas light me/mock me for when I try to talk out any issues We’ve had before. I just want to ask does anyone have some advice for how to get over it or what to do? 
And ik this is pretty long so thank you for anyone who read this far :)",2.4137827620967727,3.844768679687501,3.4685719086021507,92.25740927419358,75.74479166666666,6.4131720430107535,22.022513440860216,6.968188349444268,0.4007579973118278,1439,37,323,14,31,463,194,384,0.066,0.735,0.19899999999999998,0.9955,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,1,2,11,0,27,28,0,1,11,0,24,9,1,8,4,74,63,37,0,8,14,0,4,4,3,2,1,5,1,2,24,27,7,4,8,3,0,12,9,6,0,4,17,13,45,22,56,37,7,53,0,0,1,0,34,16,0,5,29,224,69,3,0.0,0.0,0.08627571255214707,0.0,0.0,0.08639353504676303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060122044841126224,0.09270592225301087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363709356408943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530341705624538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778821292602073,0.0,0.07523066498901644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111784577069008,0.09014020676525217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058844124931474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736846105618063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618632891305301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678835638635615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894058217907734,0.06316034556899451,0.0848877654671093,0.09684917688431073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20491676649982565,0.0,0.09238147951658736,0.0,0.2512280926514915,0.07415437629371348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791982752646628,0.0,0.09073448793997514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05925956947274703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922773974848672,0.08773359412937637,0.07858314877190363,0.0,0.09206573647629604,0.14576398837056134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040553544898113,0.0,0.17277125342885358,0.0,0.0,0.07824034526208629,0.074242396562305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05901457072194308,0.0,0.0888200429793049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378937116749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13111025430863074,0.06818748402869572,0.0,0.09402537131014292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065572780275284,0.0,0.0,0.1797273493409896,0.06724002727351887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06129257942545061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994507282460884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843423850155024,0.0,0.11327582129839872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840984538158589,0.2109222892736048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896810760928416,0.125154549761249,0.0,0.1412091809951825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120865687817576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212172199988318,0.07727451076713927,0.16279267658489688,0.0,0.0,0.17620765128864405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051552764729277216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004959880698547,0.0,0.08636402968561274,0.0,0.0,0.07635812462790771,0.09737146971178316,0.0,0.10429338696897383,0.0,0.1418348411874633,0.0,0.0,0.2458717388425972,0.0,0.09870695761369537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666279883594556,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n_e_u_r_o_i_c,2019/10/10,15 and I dint know if I have an Eating disorder or not? So about June July last year I was starving myself for a few weeks but I didn’t work and I ended up binging and I felt like shit but I kept doing but around October time I said to myself that I really needed to stop and start dieting and one day after I binged the day before I went to school and didn’t eat for about 6 hrs and when I came home I didn’t eat for a few more hours and ended up binging again and I’ve just found my self doing this for the past year and Everytime I do It I say ‘this is the last time I promise’ and end up doing it again and I can’t stop it I get such a good feeling when I’m eating but after I’m done I feel reaaallly bad so I starve myself which kind of feels good I’m not going to lie it feels good but it’s getting really old now and a few weeks ago I got really really scared because I ate something from school cause I felt sick from not eating and  I don’t know why  but I had such a strong urge to go to the toilet and just throw it up and I’ve told my parents but just not every detail and I’m really scared. and if anyone knows what this is IF it is an Ed could someone try and tell me which one,-0.4649073597529601,1.4015479029850797,2.059660319094185,96.75574626865674,86.76119402985073,5.189089037570767,14.838394235717962,6.48374012150746,-0.6516324240864644,930,15,227,10,29,319,129,268,0.14400000000000002,0.778,0.078,-0.9626,1,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,15,11,1,2,11,0,17,9,1,1,0,55,44,34,0,5,18,1,6,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,14,21,7,3,10,0,0,5,9,4,0,2,16,8,31,7,22,27,4,38,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,4,29,147,45,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300046769239365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654707356409057,0.0,0.0,0.08335368600212642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818007976016242,0.05707812591070861,0.0,0.07967523075155865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709180486516373,0.0,0.0961874195916128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07475874825449316,0.0,0.0,0.1207717511099012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731212819185924,0.0,0.0,0.0958196018275668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790523429874362,0.0,0.0,0.24879452565938084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889028063036096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893756882981856,0.0,0.1798057295535957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266432390532924,0.0,0.0,0.09783930128397923,0.0,0.10642817662826157,0.2356060674182049,0.07488728109488235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392205693467563,0.0,0.09221015809200704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750490440476668,0.15437560482002358,0.15264763499105385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04574460921683226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942807010585927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982526304412504,0.0,0.12689699546676442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396894535418512,0.0,0.08938379156282558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999201589484792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08906692124290179,0.07446113483544249,0.1874869799600016,0.18952424615345329,0.0,0.0,0.09768018411462027,0.0,0.09611346474009168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933537930280822,0.07208365972331557,0.0,0.0,0.06627428877101378,0.0,0.0,0.1565636339770413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183982525589158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919691926917464,0.0,0.0,0.08947084280736571,0.0,0.0635710151437255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021432685556751,0.0,0.0,0.08679921292924453,0.08448968980446196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681663191553384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205938364907825
EDAnonymous,honeycalssss,2019/10/10,"just moved to college and everyone is so skinny It's so easy to restrict here because I'm busy all day but literally everyone is so skinny in this city?? so I guess i'm relapsing. but only eating one and a half meals a day is apparently totally normal here so am i even sick?? i guess not haha, I'm just a fat fuck who needs to lose weight asap
at home eating a lot was easy and restricting was hard, here it's the other way around. not eating is so easy but eatimg enough is such a struggle. why is recovery so hard ugh",0.7417584097859341,2.950864330275234,3.2167201834862382,88.17871941896027,84.59633027522933,6.569113149847095,20.09250764525994,7.793537801064563,0.8818067278287463,408,12,87,8,12,141,65,109,0.256,0.6459999999999999,0.098,-0.9603,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,15,5,1,1,6,1,9,10,3,0,2,20,16,13,0,2,7,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,4,8,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,2,3,3,1,6,14,4,7,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,3,2,57,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463428780753804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002112518540446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203724148654424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5046392210159528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698598882937524,0.0,0.10857873117801506,0.0,0.0,0.3141653661225209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197686705174845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362190527228112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294524163394387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489761624014482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839115235961731,0.0,0.13975938309994226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17472165888629354,0.0,0.12189387279467795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106831518310366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139562283574993,0.12502679328033992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185720760213394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13048595537854996,0.0,0.20018399890173194,0.0,0.0,0.14833734375424812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HeyaBitches,2019/10/10,hoppin over to the dollar store on a Wednesday night to get 2.5 liters of diet cola hahaha i'm fine lol jk jk it's all good i'm good it's fine seriously guys calm down no really i'm ok,-2.6408720930232548,-1.2045282558139512,1.599273255813955,93.17007267441862,110.6279069767442,4.9406976744186055,10.026162790697676,6.6274283507984215,-0.6846720930232557,147,2,35,3,8,55,33,43,0.073,0.469,0.45799999999999996,0.9551,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257003485290993,0.0,0.0,0.7246763598950153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4277444671844559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4053994640755489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276748028725585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HolyDique,2019/10/10,why is it so validating to get unprompted comments? my bf said 'god i love your collarbones' during sex. this was almost a week ago and im still thinking about it a lot,2.5225490196078444,4.416210470588236,4.447647058823531,83.36107843137258,76.64705882352942,8.062745098039215,26.03921568627451,8.841846274778883,2.0378745098039217,132,5,27,3,3,45,31,34,0.0,0.741,0.259,0.8561,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,2,4,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,3,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31000448716639184,0.0,0.3501927165946829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827135633239188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777561598186388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29731829473533616,0.3156347403963931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33266252602002544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792857699258797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240855933386132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805232106310919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31556669121130826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ar1el-,2019/10/10,"Why do people feel the need to make comments about someone else's body? As I  started university and moved to a different city, my ED story began. It's been up and down since then.  
Not only my physique, but also my studies and my exams have been affected, in such a way that it's now impossible for me to keep up with my colleagues and friends.  

However, this summer I was so stressed out that somehow food lost its priority in my life, all I cared were exams. I was so absorbed and out of touch with reality that I completely ghosted my friends for three months. Due to that severe state of stress and anxiety, I  lost weight, along with my social life and what was left of my mental health. 

When I recognized that I had been able to lose weight without restricting, I felt relieved: I could eat pizza and ice cream without feeling guilty (also because my metabolism was skyrocketing) and binging. I was happy with my look and I thought I was magically recovered. 

At the end of my exams I started seeing people again, after many days of prison, and *everyone* complimented me on my weight loss?!?!? My grandparents, uncle, friends... ""you look so good"", ""you're so thin now"", ""you look better now"".   
This means that they all thought that I looked fat and ugly when I was heavier and they all judged me back then. I bet they made comments between them when I was gaining weight.   
I feel betrayed, humiliated and stupid that I dared to think I could be accepted by my loved ones even though I wasn't fit. 

My mom, who used to hide biscuits and food from me (because when I weighted more I obviously didn't need to have breakfast), is now buying me ice creams. She's also making me compliments now, after three years of only judging looks at my body. 

Last week my roommate told me that her friend thought I became prettier. This was the last straw, I saw him twice last year and he's saying those things about me!  

Of course, I relapsed hard. Food and calories have become my obsession again, I'm so exhausted trying not to binge and not to screw myself again that I can't study. I'm in constant fear of gaining weight, even if I restrict. I feel alone, I despise myself again and I've lost every bit of self confidence. 

PS: I acknowledge that those comment weren't malicious and I'm the one responsible for my behavior. Anyway, **I don't think that complimenting on someone else's body, without knowing their struggles, is a sensitive and smart move. Also, the validation that I started receiving after my weight loss is frightening.** 

**IMPORTANT**: I don't want to hurt anyone in this sub with what I wrote, I may have been lacking judgment and filter. I was undecided to post or not, but I'm really scared and lost and I think this is the only place where I can be understood. I'm freaking out.",4.54679607174144,6.28130330245747,5.100930425561344,81.47210567568816,70.79584120982986,8.109935912213563,29.34856378809535,8.700769036622559,2.307505196182396,2193,87,410,39,41,702,261,529,0.175,0.6970000000000001,0.128,-0.9738,3,1,0,0,0,0,87.0,0,2,5,10,32,34,3,6,9,0,37,23,4,5,4,82,83,45,1,7,11,1,15,0,4,1,5,1,0,1,27,33,14,3,16,0,2,3,13,19,0,5,33,25,81,15,56,45,6,60,0,8,9,2,27,19,1,5,35,284,108,3,0.06061899216173425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06278299414805726,0.0,0.1939079445228009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04637336308224877,0.0,0.0,0.042386208781256166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04661226318529491,0.0,0.07390554995329986,0.06694891425030004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05361257241690772,0.0661802392592928,0.2020021041543781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0618051025529333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355785995698904,0.06550759523533442,0.0,0.09679866525771884,0.0,0.0,0.03909423506021998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06333394471421888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062028362529437775,0.10127877898389843,0.0,0.053690434385177815,0.0,0.0,0.08007654522298865,0.0,0.051074115371954776,0.0579240447803756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06821321926495309,0.12260313533556537,0.0,0.05820373880267705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219902177826966,0.0,0.1873363318889769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050844334576659725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645300443617451,0.05430271019341423,0.0,0.0,0.06443515399605503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489388486095339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05388094550779492,0.0,0.0,0.03331461276848676,0.14823770796276073,0.0,0.0,0.06586271235250153,0.0,0.08563397376082436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25452343066277666,0.06781714649129926,0.2646911631002597,0.0,0.05471100714943395,0.0573591560893452,0.08092729596429217,0.061458143524955815,0.0,0.06603185353062975,0.0,0.0,0.06108968635990963,0.0,0.0,0.07099623097626145,0.0483855012045765,0.1288567905283903,0.0,0.08989642917493057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215399584127825,0.13831042540620825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08405115304403943,0.0,0.06333394471421888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05805623785381055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038834078616813636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04820665563519963,0.060690186222580565,0.0,0.04830548838552963,0.0,0.06323882933563693,0.06848220663264153,0.0,0.05014465673556707,0.0,0.0,0.0617934285791971,0.10272455068514516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871930396894765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887770142214226,0.06337213240172443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04027256481623066,0.11652660746884735,0.059557852019469774,0.14437412570785574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579240447803756,0.0,0.0411563165426664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05235534610729041,0.0,0.0,0.03575465216092104,0.04811653439615352,0.04862489903090282,0.5167232112099548,0.0,0.0,0.05469921174488813,0.0,0.0,0.17530363575039587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807328696085909
EDAnonymous,rotting_in_bed,2019/10/10,I ate a proper meal for once and regtetted it half way through eating it So I was in kinda a good mood for once so I thought why the hell dont I just eat a normal meal? So I was a few bites in way over my calorie limit and it set in what I had just done. Instant regret.. now I have to restrict heavily so it doesent fuck up my progress 😎,0.11172932330826768,1.5893315263157888,2.462706766917293,96.74394736842106,82.42105263157895,4.869172932330828,22.69924812030075,5.288315135182226,-0.022843609022556777,260,9,64,1,7,89,51,76,0.147,0.78,0.073,-0.762,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,0,5,0,6,6,0,0,0,10,9,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,0,9,1,9,3,1,9,1,1,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,45,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437341776717167,0.27913756256315264,0.0,0.0,0.4874218913573497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201875584455988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19976862771768225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333594562851317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5072939985145328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908315095961054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.378102068868957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21491453391016335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,winter_nightblade,2019/10/10,"Not underweight so I'm fine So I had a doctor's appointment today, to discuss some medication I'm on. I expressed concern that it might make me gain weight, which would seriously trigger me.
I've never discussed my eating disorder with a doctor before, and I've been restricting on and off for 8 years. His reaction was to weigh me and measure my height, and concluded that as I was on the low side of a normal BMI, there wasn't a problem.
I know I'm probably nowhere near as bad as some people, but I have not been able to eat properly for 8 years and only manage one meal a day (which he knows) I would have thought that wasn't normal??
I feel so invalidated rn. Excuse me while I go be a better anorexic",3.4159440559440557,4.825887797202803,5.1583216783216805,81.23440559440563,73.12587412587413,8.276923076923078,27.685314685314694,8.841846274778883,2.1534951048951045,557,21,111,11,11,190,90,143,0.051,0.846,0.10400000000000001,0.7782,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,0,7,0,13,8,0,3,1,26,22,13,0,5,3,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,6,6,5,1,5,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,8,2,15,2,15,10,2,15,0,1,0,0,6,8,0,3,6,73,21,3,0.17567098296634925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667793299504106,0.0,0.0,0.14948306772509326,0.0,0.0,0.15536670868272834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329325111547478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013341658996547,0.3596133897659401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35951054376710234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882452731023323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09983786795916737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308835609041003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172617452375766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697003381384868,0.0,0.18635915187205507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548829183622638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442405296513689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190392044587716,0.13360569858357632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178814054930864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940303163987046,0.16809340581432586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394631378360673,0.0,0.0,0.16651555118320854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21391993121465952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495832521051259,0.0,0.0,0.2262527068618224
EDAnonymous,CoffeeNerd24,2019/10/10,"Why is it that the exact moment you decide to start restricting again your entire life changes all of a sudden I just get a sudden boost of confidence the very next day, and all of a sudden it feels like everything is going just right, my face is clearing up, my hair is looking great. Idk man it's so weird, and it doesn't even compare to when you get on the scale literally the next day after deciding to start restricting again and you're already down 2kg in water weight. This stuff is just euphoric.",10.0042,6.652705820000005,9.264,73.17200000000003,60.8,12.4,37.0,10.125756701596842,3.4391,402,12,79,6,4,128,68,100,0.081,0.764,0.155,0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,8,3,0,0,7,0,6,5,2,0,4,15,13,5,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,3,2,2,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,6,2,11,13,2,20,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,15,50,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372787922800212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274615713610326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773389092912784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201800903475995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932451955869829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872005737316427,0.15360960296387796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467708594559735,0.0,0.12220024199649834,0.0,0.0,0.2370591855970703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15187426512196442,0.10504741307101842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18056179009604492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4573502511858466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836250348999492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043830828466194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461452903638924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17741317790510108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618351923640546,0.0,0.0,0.1940211862574118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,biccentric,2019/10/10,"Kung Fu Tea nutrition!! I hope this is allowed (and that the link works) but I found this extremely useful after numerous bubble tea related breakdowns ☺️


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EDAnonymous,ketoverit13,2019/10/10,"Fashion company sending me clothes from their brand I’m required wear for work event. I am not fashion company size. This has been basically mortifying...

I am in the event industry and usually am behind the scenes. My go to is an oversized slinky blazer and fitted pants or wide leg pants and a fitted top. I do not show my arms and I do not wear form fitting clothing from head to toe. I have pretty bad dysmorphia, and also am a few sizes above the average sample size. So I knew this would be a nightmare when they said they were sending over a courier with pieces for me to try on.

How do you send someone a small when they said they were a size 12? (Hi, team currently-overweight-but-still-have-lifetime-of-ED’ers) None of this shit fits, so now it’s double embarrassment of having to send back and spell out all my measurements in detail. 

Now my mind is racing with how fast I can lose 50 pounds by Saturday. 

This is a wildly first world complaint but I thought this sub would understand if anyone.",3.1648205128205116,5.4096096102564095,3.823717948717949,86.94378205128206,75.97435897435899,7.0,25.705128205128197,7.984000788550335,1.5559743589743595,794,29,155,13,18,251,126,195,0.057999999999999996,0.9229999999999999,0.02,-0.698,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,5,6,10,4,1,1,11,0,20,7,7,2,1,25,27,16,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,6,9,0,1,3,2,0,5,4,4,0,1,7,3,20,0,19,17,6,29,0,1,0,0,14,13,1,2,11,105,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797739422390535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571866664447677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285873108761526,0.1877001380783017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19121632176507716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776006055397934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307115329181462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514957456982517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269857645103594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22870427883527314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276760388781458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307558480145212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904738610566058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17952703183307034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846754241858634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262568619602915,0.0,0.0,0.2340266331010895,0.0,0.0,0.2475874559909319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16365840962298875,0.0,0.0,0.3193855403167396,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mayaaaa16,2019/10/10,Is it okay to fast at 16(17 in 5 1/2 months)? So I'm overweight and definitely have an eating disorder but I'm not gonna get into that too much rn but my point is can I fast for like 20 days or like 2 weeks and just stop being so fat for once? Probably won't listen to u even if u say I shouldn't (jus being honest),1.7316666666666656,2.070685500000004,4.120444444444445,91.169,75.94444444444444,7.426666666666668,19.95555555555556,7.554174236665415,0.2436522222222224,244,4,62,3,5,86,57,72,0.092,0.764,0.14400000000000002,0.5604,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,1,8,3,1,0,0,11,13,8,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,7,8,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,8,34,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639712606864626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490185970726304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311610960459016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011396734464264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15910473610051518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975566620755115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430735213345897,0.0,0.22386512450090013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243152860286988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878799705609557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283356309092494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421750575129643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546013242117635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442761806270697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BrainDoWantNotWork,2019/10/10,Only times I don’t b/p is when I’m on drugs Lately I can’t go without b/p if I’m not using drugs. My comfort is either drugs or food... I’ve been sober since monday because my brain needed the break but I’ve been purging everyday at least two times. Tomorrow though my sober streak ends 😎😎😎 can’t fucking wait,0.22248447204969324,2.075319695652176,2.619503105590063,93.83869565217393,83.92753623188406,5.102277432712215,20.002070393374744,6.1826913282559595,-0.00413209109730861,245,7,56,2,7,84,47,69,0.0,0.9690000000000001,0.031,0.1901,0,0,3,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,7,6,1,1,0,9,14,5,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,0,5,1,3,12,2,12,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,8,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146800532037196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22244181504112812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6932404893738251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648660956241674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24094788481718205,0.0,0.0,0.18421411322654951,0.0,0.0,0.11324494382614066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22477573337961407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477499314219683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154740521039028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483123216031562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19577348360284727,0.0,0.23238205107690546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19464960281957336,0.0,0.0,0.17209802142136196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19208104554587987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yiwun,2019/10/10,"how do people control what they eat? During breakfast, lunch and dinner I’m able to control what I eat by portioning and such (reasonable amount)

but like,,,during the day I just get up and eat 

I don’t even know I do
I just do it 

Or when I do know 
I’m still moving to get it and by the end of the day I’ve just eaten a whole lot of crap

what,,,,,,,

I’m also never actually hungry, if I didn’t eat snacks I’d still be quite full because I always eat enough meals to satisfy me",1.8354611650485424,2.9087778252427183,3.980764563106799,89.45425364077671,76.5728155339806,7.0917475728155335,21.612864077669908,7.645422480735847,0.6517776699029127,368,9,85,5,8,127,61,103,0.037000000000000005,0.92,0.043,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,10,1,1,0,4,0,7,12,1,4,1,18,15,10,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,11,2,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,0,10,0,8,12,6,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,3,7,56,15,0,0.1410436873557884,0.0,0.13763829306274758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279258582074328,0.1173596466542343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597892269191272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163849771153646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18192302018271025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7216145188006066,0.0,0.0,0.12492284301288265,0.14573583239271776,0.0,0.09315802528380196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737901055976652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502784391930988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06890682125020302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991029921990105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990711845279747,0.0,0.0,0.10878158675630063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977819337560714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15001732291352513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14501640139470767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22527534183178194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747023997227952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TinyAttitude,2019/10/10,"My boyfriend say's he loves my body But it's really hard to believe. When I look in the mirror all I see is imperfections. My stretchmarks, how much I weight on the scale and the dimples on my ass. It's just hard to believe he loves my body and maybe it's the ED speaking to me but all I can think of is a prettier skinnier girl coming out of no where and being better than me so he leaves me for her :/

I just wanna get over this ughhhhasas",1.0789243498817953,2.946675521276596,2.9195035460992886,92.73388888888887,81.02127659574468,5.879905437352246,21.08274231678487,6.937597516519254,0.326311111111111,345,10,79,4,9,115,60,94,0.109,0.763,0.128,0.5936,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,5,0,4,6,3,1,2,14,11,8,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,14,3,13,10,3,8,0,0,2,3,9,6,1,0,1,55,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4486455147006802,0.0,0.1760918816018658,0.0,0.44232075928596376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151102482172986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040239611420281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567173139792669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108230744050744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671977590205528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593994378168895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000273809828628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14636482598120165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755153624661533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833600802669912,0.0,0.0,0.15866062675295908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12757821931708066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24245582286650255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,spikeknocked67,2019/10/10,"[opinion] fat people shouldn’t be able to post in here Some people are taking this weight thing really seriously, and I find it hard to believe that anyone who is over 190lbs or remotely close to that weight has an ED...

If you really were sick of being fat, you’d stop eating for a few days.  Stop posting in here as if you’re actually trying @legitimately-fat-girls.",9.707699530516427,7.04813685915493,9.761126760563384,67.2330516431925,60.69014084507042,12.846948356807516,33.52582159624413,11.20814326018867,3.4629117370892013,291,7,55,6,3,97,57,71,0.162,0.838,0.0,-0.8545,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,8,6,2,0,0,11,9,5,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,2,5,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,9,4,2,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,5,3,35,9,0,0.2031136298952348,0.0,0.19820960328439294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202177264987234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288395064523013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099148811106956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078359507561175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856421780105833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18194991680339714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816268331566129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3890534232930485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602395846652517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396241788374319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527161718780878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493967044505392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13790082197003514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4946753641638305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FreeLola,2019/10/10,"Just needed to get this out I’m getting too old for this shit.  I’ve run the gamut from bulimia with restrictive tendencies, to EDNOS to BED since I was 15.  I was “recovered” for 10 years, with a minor relapse here and there, but nothing major.  Mostly just obsessive thoughts that I’ve been able to get a grasp on before it got out of control.  But here I am, pushing 40, and I think it’s out of control again.  I never saw this coming.  I thought I’d grown out of it, Ive got kids now for fuck’s sake, what am I thinking?  I hate myself for letting it back in.  But I don’t want to let it go.  It’s all I can control right now.  It’s a numbers game and it’s soothing and familiar and so uncomfortably comfortable.  It’s the only way I know how to function at the moment, the only thing that makes me feel strong.

I don’t remember what it’s like to feel normally about food.  To eat a meal without thinking about it.  To enjoy it.  It’s getting harder and harder to hide from my family and I turn into such an asshole when confronted about my eating habits.  I’m so fucking embarrassed.

I’m just so exhausted.  After a while, it’s like I forget what’s normal and it’s hard to see what I’m doing as abnormal.  I get to this point where I can’t see things as they really are.  I’m not really looking for advice, just needing to vent in a safe place.  I’m not ready to get help.  I’m not even sure that I need it and I know for damn sure I don’t want it right now.   I know I need to stop, I just don’t know where to start.",0.93472222222222,2.63798525,3.189901234567902,91.42855555555558,80.75925925925927,6.418765432098766,21.60246913580247,7.42949916751922,0.6624883950617289,1167,35,266,17,30,400,159,324,0.14,0.7559999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.8739,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,4,27,17,6,2,11,0,16,8,1,5,4,64,60,20,0,8,12,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,30,17,4,6,13,1,0,5,10,9,0,0,8,7,28,8,45,50,3,35,0,0,4,2,4,15,4,1,16,171,58,0,0.1001193945833071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09783551364847956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07698563443315401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0851942306485453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624399325647009,0.0,0.0,0.33687724305029443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204894270985964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612791587377549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943836548152083,0.0,0.10124674830506863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210647693429457,0.0,0.0,0.18511753397967287,0.3138495083649361,0.0,0.05690015919404701,0.0,0.16014925185805112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968731209340962,0.098847174368733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710791976292896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200920036584642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20475772851589766,0.0,0.09782655793488594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407507573611403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06683047332419756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29694904990111937,0.07721824926754049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619149866278165,0.09606725933768724,0.0,0.1050584627202278,0.0,0.0,0.15229062226662465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460345801266828,0.0,0.0946451893294454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282780957473675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134157569533382,0.17100283186213244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15956438996236313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277111978540474,0.08281979780458787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086502279776065,0.0,0.0,0.08370429692137131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18872268906080314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302975400713604,0.19245739621504626,0.0,0.15896723170849514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890115129874743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11810602585860396,0.07947011524600611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651152360938066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447360756835774
EDAnonymous,EmCeeBob23,2019/10/10,"""Reward"" binges, just me? TRIGGER WARNING

I've been restricting a LOT for a while now and have finally got to my UGW. I feel good and do not feel hungry.

 I wanted to get to a weight that felt ""low enough"" to be seen as ""healthy skinny""....when I was younger I got extremely underweight, but now i wanna be as skinny as i can be while still being ""healthy.""

Lol I know it's unrealistic, I've done this dance too many times, but anyways. Tonight I got RAVENOUSLY hungry and decided I would ""reward"" myself so I ate my ultimate fear food: ice cream. Just ate a big bowl of ice cream with crushed oreos and now my stomach hurts a little, but it will be fine.

I can't gain weight because I definitely haven't eaten 3,500cal today. I heard to gain one pound, you need a surplus of 3,500cal; my TDEE is 1,800. I ate 2500 today max. So I figured its ok to reward myself and I'll go back to restricting tomorrow.

Does anybody else do reward binges?",1.4334101382488456,3.872307010752692,2.9632104454685115,89.5933870967742,83.73118279569891,5.6933947772657465,23.37327188940092,7.07126945348624,0.94462396313364,728,27,147,10,21,238,114,186,0.146,0.7190000000000001,0.135,-0.2753,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,6,11,10,0,1,6,2,17,9,2,1,0,26,34,15,0,4,6,0,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,6,8,2,6,1,0,2,3,3,0,1,13,9,23,7,15,14,2,18,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,1,13,91,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179671809416785,0.0,0.1044844024636676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14999408940079187,0.17540263772713585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431834647204327,0.0,0.0,0.17710295603099718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19287367347987744,0.1733308979339616,0.0,0.16457175066803126,0.1877613164029444,0.0,0.0,0.20725865797835416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954989997491669,0.0,0.09741108579578736,0.14376294933904046,0.4112548910366118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18348821671788448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419745636486916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178873817492227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14571892239363235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17377361799726695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709160126533434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11614569096505754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13688098631704645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994524766424147,0.0,0.3249360382830761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010966962208043,0.0,0.0,0.4174402598721905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175828711580396,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tiramissyousobad,2019/10/10,"Just binged fucking 2kg of ravioli and can't purge I cant and I'm losing it so bad bc I'm too weak to fast and function with work uni and all the shit I have to deal with. idk why i did this I fuxking hate pasta that ravioli tasted like paper
I want to kms so hard now
What do you think is best? Should I eat tomorrow? I'm sorry if I shpuldn't post this here but im losing it",-2.221432360742707,-0.4196349999999995,1.1257471264367815,98.91127320954908,100.14942528735632,4.5160035366931925,14.738284703801945,6.297961479604792,-0.6042070733863838,293,7,74,4,13,104,63,87,0.124,0.7240000000000001,0.151,0.5021,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,3,0,1,0,7,6,1,0,1,13,14,8,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,2,8,2,6,12,2,4,0,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,4,42,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195295050437074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454615085277255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24113855567417344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239336034889549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21623492134761216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20952665541154752,0.2309258395523324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526499646311677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11427074251691625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233440405926632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22400961756714455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400929239479089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26182964856856883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498723866171657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137959093680551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21105655407866586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17028052130915136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,minaghostwolf67,2019/10/10,"? First post! Hello all. I've been dealing with disordered eating bs for years. After being diagnosed with multiple sclerosis last year, gained weight. Ugh. Started restricting again, and to mom--im not doing enough. She keeps shaming me into working out more (fatigue 99% of time). Just want her to STOP it. -_-**",2.0256313497822944,3.678619603773584,2.475471698113207,84.57616835994197,117.11320754716982,5.404354136429608,22.944847605224968,6.67199483983844,1.7964728592162555,241,10,37,5,13,74,51,53,0.145,0.79,0.066,-0.6932,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,12,6,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,1,3,0,9,4,3,12,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,9,24,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25217035817701783,0.0,0.2482623730063544,0.0,0.0,0.28033112200232274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25028537420749264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25273568086239234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805539624236286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642084004207878,0.0,0.0,0.21741042418574066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938045917576616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864708580495272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342577914969808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312810810971904,0.0,0.0,0.20449533485663585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262737778900453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442705583515582,0.0,0.0,0.297855130886993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780706529034625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150268852145481
EDAnonymous,AnnieBanane,2019/07/10,"People not understanding I am not my illness Last year I was a much lower weight and It was recommended I go to residential, my blood pressure and potassium was low, and i was pretty underweight. Around November and December I los so much of my self control and gained a lot of the weight back. Well Last night my mom told me to suck in my stomach after I shower her my dress I’m wearing to my brothers wedding tomorrow. Now I feel much more selfconcious about going. She’s also told me “I know your depressed but it can’t be that bad, told me I’m already skinny and don’t have to “poke my fingers down my throat”. about 6 or 7 years ago my moms friend asked (in front of me) if I was anorexic and my mom said “no she’s not skinny enough”....",2.9218653421633576,4.393807715231787,4.321473509933778,86.49205573951436,74.49668874172184,7.417439293598234,25.828366445916124,8.07648339933343,1.4581386313465785,579,20,122,9,12,192,95,151,0.111,0.8029999999999999,0.086,-0.5605,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,2,8,7,1,1,3,0,10,10,7,1,0,19,23,12,0,1,6,4,4,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,3,8,4,1,3,0,0,3,6,5,1,0,9,5,28,2,14,13,6,18,0,2,0,0,16,5,1,3,10,83,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086375468503854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046276048061927,0.10903697672810653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137810469202913,0.12746642538854605,0.0,0.0,0.1048427441936346,0.11384439442447815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529252172730408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743582682364215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408833253482661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894134867591775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534167287872684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497875360469784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493297226336666,0.22228267890231174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591769450413758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4790653257942178,0.0,0.0,0.30069311015245953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279528104539609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452612827171508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871433656285911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969761278393682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422400877808643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3908573878141205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194246523931026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33206883308455537,0.12259269874273968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756065269917185
EDAnonymous,hiphopflipflop23,2019/07/10,"Im in a competition with myself and I'm not sure what to do Hi.. 

Not sure if this is the right subreddit for this but hoping maybe someone can give me some feedback & advice as I'm feeling lost and overwhelmed.

I have have always struggled with my weight and been down about my body. I have lately started to try a low calorie diet to try and lose 30lbs.

I was trying to hit 1200 calories every day. At first this was hard as I was wanting to eat over the amount. Anyways flash forward 2 weeks. I had lost around 7 pounds and was feeling good. Then I had one day where I accidentally only ate around 400 calories. I know this bad but I just had alot happen in the day and not much time for food. When I woke up, I was 2lbs lighter. I felt so ecstatic and happy with this. I was so excited to have dropped that much in one day. 


Since then, I have made it a competition for myself. I try to eat the least amount of calories, without fully fasting as then my boyfriend would notice and get mad. 

My weight is coming off quicker but I haven't been able to hike or do much of anything as I feel low powered..

I posted on another subreddit about my weight loss and what I am eating. Someone commented I have an eating disorder and need help.  I brushed it off and figured she was crazy... 

But now I'm rethinking what she said...

Is 500cal enough for a day? Do I need help? How can I fix my thinking? 

Thanks for reading...",1.9816809116809144,4.020802783216787,3.1467055167055165,91.36883320383322,78.86013986013988,5.7754985754985775,23.87930587930588,6.775458762138228,0.6995779849779851,1100,38,233,11,27,354,153,286,0.138,0.736,0.126,-0.192,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,6,12,17,1,2,10,0,29,11,1,2,2,47,55,28,0,6,11,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,11,17,10,0,8,1,0,2,5,10,0,3,19,10,34,7,37,34,9,36,0,7,0,0,8,17,0,5,17,161,45,2,0.0941027363126086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091956104820539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07830101502512292,0.10196027547900346,0.0,0.0,0.0986749239924986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07743853391250623,0.16754277251377367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07857185414710649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452692609996324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106117490759522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30344239998246864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784988849298713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3851623680866939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723328185795348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928561396110992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274351285154685,0.0,0.0903533841397928,0.0,0.0,0.08004373943509975,0.11378940227956068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916479577612835,0.09027191940529693,0.0,0.07892891054493202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832147389421806,0.10017411263804338,0.08429756807498644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261501610995859,0.0,0.0,0.09346525016022568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016471033282432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05171640287824746,0.0,0.10615198538730763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527689138607592,0.20544850580033813,0.0,0.0,0.0890422844079661,0.0,0.0,0.0945388468934489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075290163681432,0.13955197320871407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713658900064167,0.0,0.0,0.12753289904676265,0.07156937139744082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901244089885727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412820184949464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08036322264235198,0.08951325154307516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784275590863506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594658862055033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06660640110619008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837661188850397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17738143062898815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663715649529823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06029723372716485,0.0,0.0,0.05487206229804136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25555832356167546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05550423199500346,0.0,0.07548353888042203,0.34377534421197914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071167974137838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06684788393707271,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hemera-ilios,2019/07/10,"My boyfriend semi-gave me permission to restrict and I don’t know how to feel. Tw weight/calories/numbers mention For context: I relapsed last year and lost 35lbs in two months because my intake dropped to 150-350 calories per day. He saw that happen and basically forced me to start eating again because he was worried about me etc. I’ve gained about a stone since then and I just feel fucking horrible. 

We’ve been together for about 2 and a half years and our sex life has been non-existent for a couple of months now, but lacking for maybe 4-6 months. It’s partially due to stress I think, but largely due to my body image issues. Like, I just cringe at the thought of the areas I’m self-conscious about being touched. He says he feels rejected and unloved by me because there’s very little physical intimacy at all right now.

Anyway, he’s asked what would solve the issue and after several discussions I’ve just been like, you know fucking what? Starving myself would solve the issue. That’s about it. 

So he’s basically said that he doesn’t approve, but if I genuinely think that it would make things better between us physically, then he’ll turn a blind eye. He specified that he’d prefer me to eat at least 800 calories per day, but I think the implication is he wouldn’t stop me from going lower. 

I’m kind of conflicted now because it’s like, that IS what I want to do, and not having to actively hide it is perfect, but it just feels fucking shit that he saw what my relapse put me through and he’s just willing for that to happen again if it means we get to have sex? He says it’s about the physical intimacy between us specifically rather than sex in general (at one point I offered to let him sleep w other people because I’ve never needed to be monogamous and he turned that down) but it still makes me feel really weird. I just feel like if I thought there was something vital that was missing from the relationship that he had to starve himself in order for us to get back, then I’d sooner break up with him than threaten his health or wellbeing. 

Dunno if I’m just venting or if wanting people’s thoughts but like. Yeah. This whole thing’s not made me feel great.",5.312252747252746,6.0890262983683,5.596079753579755,82.23060314685316,68.06759906759908,8.552813852813854,30.93914418914419,8.634040054169528,2.3011018315018315,1738,67,339,26,28,553,219,429,0.128,0.775,0.098,-0.9079999999999999,1,1,1,0,0,0,41.0,5,1,0,5,26,20,4,1,11,1,25,15,4,4,3,74,68,30,0,15,24,0,8,5,0,6,3,3,0,0,28,13,2,3,17,0,0,2,6,10,0,3,15,15,36,10,49,43,5,42,0,3,4,6,34,13,4,8,29,207,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07799615060193975,0.0,0.0,0.06415281860082797,0.0,0.2542919510741666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378739837868857,0.0,0.09267235314797047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923141375648261,0.0,0.1076113966055027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17074023089755452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09304693656214824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952943771935126,0.05960268593109199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139014826608145,0.08717786864326083,0.0,0.04741541221308585,0.0,0.0,0.0919822974189004,0.0,0.0,0.14755443333310922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868260117284801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26123894785317764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08687991059544023,0.09170231881672736,0.06800690160965797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531322441723631,0.058929350446980125,0.20379936697765985,0.0836191668287725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09107412412110764,0.0,0.0,0.07894385048562105,0.1113808638129079,0.0,0.08381703865598213,0.09088015110073724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19978001943488133,0.0,0.0,0.0618625756358993,0.06434665862545252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05653459017413031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568025249041715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07886868384211326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08387058367151448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05344764297608039,0.0,0.0,0.08957301387168516,0.0,0.07124909558422035,0.07936140445276034,0.1326943865404581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703609028316196,0.0942525910407685,0.08564009446102222,0.06901447918479284,0.0,0.08349064053168953,0.0,0.0,0.06422878880180344,0.0,0.0,0.05905245811328215,0.0,0.0666276157106258,0.06975154021974307,0.0955692276903361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108548853324418,0.1603764717752903,0.0,0.1987032266674224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149660923444166,0.08149936626727403,0.0,0.30106945312614697,0.0,0.0,0.06883880772220527,0.09841880902015067,0.0,0.0,0.10159573643225707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314704884627427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472760892619215,0.0,0.17779966192117236,0.0,0.0,0.10745286913145392
EDAnonymous,3ghostly,2019/07/10,"how do you keep your s/o around? (need help/venting) i’ve been a shitty girlfriend these past few months. i was doing so well; eating normally, not weighing myself, living in the moment versus what’s going on my plate next. then i had to go mess everything up, weigh myself, overthink food and calories and carbs, and i’ve been punishing my boyfriend for me feeling like shit. 

he’s a typical guy, he makes crude jokes because that’s his humor and it’s one of the reasons why i fell in love with him. but i’ve been getting so upset, SO UPSET every time he so much as even mentions another girl in casual conversation. 

and sex? forget about it. i’ve been avoiding that like a plague. i feel disgusting and i don’t want him to look at me. i have virtually no sex drive thanks to this piece of garbage disorder. i can’t so much as look at porn without making myself disgusted at my own shape. i don’t think we’ve had sex in three weeks now. 

i’m afraid he’s going to leave me. i’m worries he’s gonna find another girl who isn’t disordered, who isn’t caught up in her own mind to not give him attention, who doesn’t keep caffeine pills in her car to keep hunger away, who doesn’t eat an entire pack of oreos then starves for a week, who is actually NORMAL. 

so i suppose my question is this: how do you guys do it? do you fake it til you make it? initiate things you don’t want to do just to make your s/o happy? to keep them around?  

i’m working on recovery again. i promise. but right now i can’t focus on recovery when i’m afraid he’s going to leave me. 

i’ve tried telling him what’s going on, but it results in me crying and shutting him out (i’m not good at emotions). i don’t know what i would do without my boyfriend, i rely on him for everything. i would be lost without him. but i can’t get out of this mindset of me not being good enough for anything.",1.8592514743686688,3.5454589331619566,3.493138515046123,90.39649894147892,77.92030848329048,6.53019809466203,23.78050809012551,7.39963492309942,0.9103297444427644,1451,48,318,19,34,482,192,389,0.174,0.741,0.085,-0.9904,0,1,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,7,1,2,18,25,5,5,7,0,32,13,1,8,0,54,67,25,0,7,13,0,2,2,1,3,1,0,0,4,21,12,6,5,8,2,0,9,19,13,1,2,9,4,48,12,50,53,7,49,0,1,2,5,40,26,1,1,16,200,69,1,0.0,0.0,0.0903090463192202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940797283303303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615536458472885,0.16476656103457188,0.0,0.0,0.08694760671309269,0.0,0.0,0.05641362108668975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165462156864218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121255959697176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893900819397008,0.0,0.10409891218484964,0.0,0.09562211027947,0.0,0.061124068260034074,0.0,0.07797183821112165,0.0,0.16634415038294645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358548614050208,0.06611305087837642,0.0,0.0,0.08458302612464176,0.0,0.1119038930446335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670025394063184,0.08877609875518823,0.2629728435130527,0.15524209085921242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18326510733369228,0.0,0.09851421100664516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06202991602227197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290274406282098,0.0,0.0,0.050859453520304784,0.0,0.0,0.1959802780792082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904240988975047,0.0,0.08171755157462099,0.0,0.15542636117766287,0.0,0.10102209502242217,0.0,0.08352406628594561,0.0,0.2470938549532372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344249160723206,0.0,0.07386728960867907,0.0,0.1360601508053921,0.06861978695409922,0.0,0.0,0.0984209966124268,0.0,0.1813458415836443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270982889750383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834318345359103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366983055999704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951500677549877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903159073810492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499450962455633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088704417186515,0.08520156446838538,0.0,0.0,0.06148174834413905,0.059298098581399575,0.0,0.0,0.05396282314105669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06283091995740374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091690353629542,0.0,0.14846552828799672,0.0,0.08320766513466155,0.0,0.08350605893783622,0.0,0.0,0.2676257165690802,0.0,0.06737272533648749,0.09398235385258744,0.0,0.13148040686558632,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DF-Juice,2019/07/10,"I purposefully asked my boyfriend questions to trigger myself. It was really stupid of me. He's very honest. I knew I wouldn't like the answers. I knew it would lower my self-esteem and make me feel terrible. Now I look even more sick and pathetic in front of him. He might even be tempted to leave me again. For what? I wanted to be slapped the fuck out of my binging phase. Well, I successfully lost my appetite, and I feel sick. >!I'm more motivated than ever to starve myself. I want to purge the meal I just had with him. I want to go outside and run until I collapse. I want to waste away to nothing and die trying. I hate myself more than ever. Awesome.!< None of it would even matter if he leaves me again. I'm dumb as fuck.",1.2849579831932765,3.7369559591836734,2.552420968387356,92.16435774309723,84.64625850340136,5.091476590636256,20.891956782713088,6.522977012572876,0.3016045618247296,574,18,119,6,17,184,88,147,0.284,0.599,0.11699999999999999,-0.9847,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,3,10,11,5,0,3,0,8,5,0,3,2,29,25,8,1,8,2,0,2,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,4,7,1,0,7,0,0,3,2,7,1,0,5,3,27,4,21,14,4,12,0,1,1,2,7,3,3,3,7,83,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333395803499833,0.0,0.15409957532909152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022397719596036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32499547660945444,0.2967259274980944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658640670674877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032625500115471,0.0,0.0,0.0932147647080501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193304608189976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34734110306840243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013052783385582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773315423998467,0.0,0.17904416844019025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948276655954317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739963487606738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15737894413916892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373682114620885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507362968448944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17110572909064542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135692457782276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533138203609546,0.3869664186164333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747117656368805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330262514175917,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinappIes,2019/07/10,"i told my friend about my ed and she didn't get it she saw it more as a diet, saying things like ""you're not even fat"" and even telling me that i shouldn't worry about the calories because as long as i eat healthy and exercise, i won't gain weight?? and i tried explaining to her how i felt and all but i don't think she understood so i just gave up

​

like i love her and she's one of my closest friends but idk that just made me feel worse and even more alone",1.2296078431372557,2.8021337254902012,2.133921568627453,99.94931372549021,79.3921568627451,5.7098039215686285,21.13725490196079,6.42735559955562,-0.08879215686274522,368,10,92,3,9,115,67,102,0.099,0.7040000000000001,0.19699999999999998,0.8856,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,9,5,0,0,2,0,4,6,1,2,1,21,15,14,0,1,5,0,3,2,2,2,2,1,0,0,5,7,4,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,7,5,20,5,8,6,3,3,0,0,1,1,14,2,0,0,3,60,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524099106365007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21471359295390854,0.24079429406154265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080061267664735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20277405963747155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926618121404445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019906403492587,0.0,0.19027115857679933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3062062819786069,0.0,0.10353394886728726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936285304353484,0.0,0.0,0.1753713395393125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885323058915845,0.18751017217480206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428291972297318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759015498846868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17320647576494194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165318455609265,0.1269772530323071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18935682374599536,0.0,0.1345422165726311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413137174517245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124795585697108,0.20194885010503089,0.0,0.0,0.24079429406154265,0.0
EDAnonymous,abceskw19918,2019/07/10,"Could my eating disorder at a young Age have affected my libido? Hello I am a 17 year old boy. When I was 11 I had an eating disorder and at the worst point I weighed 30 kg while being 157 cm tall. The eating disorder lasted for about 3 months until I got help and I quickly recovered. I am now 17 years old and I keep getting negative thoughts about how this eating disorder could have affected my libido. I mostly masturbate to thoughts, but while doing this I Will lose my boner pretty quickly if I stop for a few seconds. I know this eating disorder probably did not affect my libido especially not now, but I would like to think what someone who knows more about eating disorders thinks about this.  



Also: could this eating disorder have affected my height or penis length? I am 190 cm tall and my penis is 19 cm long but I keep thinking I could have been taller and my penis could be longer.


If this post is inappropriate please tell me then I Will delete it",4.516753246753247,6.038041427807485,5.457788388082509,79.72348930481284,70.55080213903744,8.765317035905273,26.72612681436211,9.23628265651192,2.2647848739495804,765,25,142,16,14,251,104,187,0.159,0.7759999999999999,0.064,-0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,11,3,0,0,6,0,24,9,0,5,0,35,35,18,0,8,8,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,9,5,8,3,7,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,7,0,26,1,11,18,4,27,0,1,0,1,5,7,0,4,20,105,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288338336909613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139132639458301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6308476491581346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5632337173614013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04108289013037005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289059510867476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05270654669228947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978658423693974,0.0,0.0,0.08643010771608284,0.0640970032972341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03841647946886072,0.0,0.0,0.06958839639686364,0.0,0.0879710551788984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627647109403601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502579100485473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631624684113022,0.07433431267450256,0.0,0.07530939840372176,0.07999879551524294,0.08478048473685097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662612321582892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06574133797645472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872936550349275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511560003010002,0.0,0.1248528318294888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05585916157853619,0.0,0.0,0.10127511684840458
EDAnonymous,nodamncatnodamncradl,2019/02/03,"mods can you change the Rule in the sidebar about ""No Memes"" ​

could you change it from ""sister site"" to sibling site or partner site or side site or something

also rule number one is so weird, the way it says something specifically about weight loss is a weird reflection of current ED perspectives, you know what I mean?

​",5.903606557377048,8.281534114754102,4.4499672131147525,84.88806557377049,68.50819672131148,6.847213114754098,30.2327868852459,7.554174236665415,1.9358236065573773,275,11,47,3,5,79,44,61,0.14,0.84,0.02,-0.7706,1,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,6,5,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,2,4,0,6,5,0,8,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,3,1,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767557377058024,0.0,0.40016629928791203,0.4487734577891273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906996287230701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743901769820564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10148639484861302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011530137409928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513296970130125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685206525206168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843264294773314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657752867816726,0.0,0.22487075911582974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4487734577891273,0.0
EDAnonymous,Chasee89,2019/02/03,"Why am I gaining so much weight So back in November I weighed 118 lbs and my goal is 115 lbs. Between September and November, my husband was deployed and I was taking care of our son while living in an almost empty house because I had to sell it because we were about to move. This was a really hard time for me and I was really depressed and anxious a lot. I was so happy though with how quickly I lost weight during this time though and broke a long plateau and felt so close to my goal once I saw 118 lbs because it took so long to achieve after having a baby. I started doing cardio kickboxing and ballet beautiful in December once we were settled in our new home and I am now up to 125 lbs. My clothes are getting tighter and I’m so upset. I don’t eat very much and barely eat carbs. I really don’t know what to do, do I stop working out? I enjoy it but if it’s just going to keep making me heavier I feel like I will have to stop. I hate my body type so much because I have such a big hips and thighs. I’m 5’5” and have short legs even for my height. I just want thin legs and I have no idea what to do to achieve it because I thought the kickboxing and ballet would help but clearly they are not.  I did eat more during the holidays but I don’t understand how that could make me gain 7 lbs!I’m sorry if I’m rambling but I just need some advice.",1.5190850202429154,3.307031884210528,3.1762280701754366,91.81430161943324,79.28070175438596,6.0688259109311735,23.59311740890689,7.010146845296331,0.7489271255060728,1057,36,232,12,26,350,153,285,0.092,0.795,0.113,0.8734,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,4,0,1,8,20,9,1,1,8,0,29,12,5,4,1,51,51,33,0,6,10,2,6,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,10,20,6,3,6,3,1,3,5,5,0,0,14,7,38,4,23,34,6,27,0,3,1,0,8,11,0,5,14,157,48,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10750498072411327,0.0,0.0,0.11016371686436087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12428516840417445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459442626842559,0.0,0.3353193542383193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220140465342401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121672030843597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783769539868029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475540219699198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377171616633549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266359684969567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055626680532507765,0.07859444261943642,0.10563125568730336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05747808079227276,0.0,0.06252382482840947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711257310458224,0.09855146048951494,0.1086166278364385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07374045836229055,0.0,0.11035360035940288,0.0,0.0,0.12694206204751984,0.0,0.12419307720318908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778601939822064,0.0,0.0,0.06046113964262498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05374756994113099,0.0,0.09714489549192784,0.19471889429448,0.0,0.0,0.12009391708667724,0.09353046733329884,0.0,0.0,0.14687118161029614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692809489004545,0.24262013868347584,0.08157442194345678,0.0,0.10625277324260173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23432388839449814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114344837018344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231523226255192,0.07786889060816518,0.0,0.0,0.18395424098020915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271727760785841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21617754543857004,0.08733929297898158,0.12830078027240868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223025362824012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452906448030972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09077355557043697,0.06488945353192899,0.0,0.0,0.2679362566524567,0.0,0.0,0.09927105269485666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08009192928208203,0.0,0.0,0.07815120581855718,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Peanutbuterjely,2019/02/03,"Do I have an eating disorder? Hello, I was told by a doctor's examination that I look anorexic. So I took a BMI test, I know this just calculatoe your weight and has nothing to do with mental illness. And I have an BMI of 16.3 and I think it's decreasing from my last test of 16.7 (last year). I find most food nauseating. I almost never eat not because I'm avoiding food but because I find allot of it sickening. Idk if I'm just full of shit when it comes to food.",0.9975257731958748,3.092322412371136,3.5208350515463955,87.09671649484541,82.6082474226804,6.35422680412371,22.07113402061856,7.554174236665415,0.918798762886598,362,12,78,6,10,126,64,97,0.162,0.821,0.017,-0.9229,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,1,2,4,0,6,9,1,0,1,20,14,7,0,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,6,1,5,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,2,12,0,9,11,3,8,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,4,5,50,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246942184578475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19781155962222693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976356435289514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18595196588286586,0.16606922249377776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33204345656081924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29658617888704525,0.0,0.5885781620969348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916807349527991,0.2645099700493119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624870341027912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350931889854434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513680481639974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568275627870276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665467642602337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10396291832600298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503633549677973,0.1802651472217011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975761618657373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044833484651693
EDAnonymous,dietpeps,2019/02/03,"I started working at a grocery store Sooo I recently started a job as a grocery store cashier. And I really enjoy it so far, it's a fairly easy part time job to have while I'm in school.

However... as you can probably guess, since I'm posting here... it's a trip. I don't have an ed per se, just disordered thinking issues, but still. It's a trip. And low key completely up my alley, since I'm thinking about weight loss and food constantly anyways. 

But being in that environment makes me such a weirdo. Like whenever I'm waiting to scan things I will see something interesting on the conveyor belt thingy and be like ""hOw MaNY cALoRieS????"" Like I need to Know this information even though this food is not for me??? And as I scan it I'm trying to take a peek at the calories without looking like I'm judging their food choices or something

But more often, it's a lot of seeing something really delicious when all I've had is coffee and being like ""will I ever get to eat that ever again in my life??""

Anyways, I'm probably the last person that should be a grocery cashier, and this is probably the last job I should have taken, since it feeds into my obsessing over food. idk. I worked in food service before and it wasn't like this at all. ",4.8236487854251,5.421134024291497,5.813620951417004,80.87767839068829,69.08097165991903,8.928036437246963,31.22697368421053,9.017664075816787,2.5439637651821863,972,39,192,17,16,322,134,247,0.057,0.8059999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.9670000000000001,4,0,3,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,1,3,17,11,0,1,15,0,18,9,0,2,4,33,40,20,0,3,7,0,1,6,0,4,1,0,0,1,16,9,8,1,4,0,2,2,4,3,0,0,3,6,17,8,23,29,5,29,0,2,5,0,4,13,0,4,19,124,33,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930344551904434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771486587011564,0.1007124199308515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681138204835797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536339217224417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06155547780480423,0.1686033273580111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5634685158124554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04869137890035935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026665660853413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09727304105511722,0.2774497461870665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512184161076298,0.15193534164803393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582751736470176,0.2731869182377785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826167496780242,0.0,0.0,0.07923241974818311,0.0,0.0,0.06220945667249761,0.09448672839569078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910410077506669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092283989561386,0.0,0.0,0.08137567961545188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925658445151614,0.0,0.30144510470745883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940826156825933,0.0,0.09202040286019417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431993850280944,0.14853125393387046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312795810149105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152418961737161,0.0,0.0,0.1319300715991384,0.0,0.07442692812482297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007224754365682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061915682370781065,0.119433241111049,0.09156518997859577,0.0,0.054343689101528384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0632743763461539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348835603051832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08983820026605484,0.0,0.13569647496159687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilyhearts,2019/02/03,"PSA: don’t binge on 10 fiber one bars... ...after eating a pound of sugar free gummies :(
RIP my stomach",1.4680000000000002,3.583901800000003,3.0599999999999987,90.935,81.0,4.0,20.0,3.1291,-0.3584999999999998,76,2,15,0,2,25,20,20,0.125,0.733,0.142,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8337539001546567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5521362458459859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unimaginablemonster,2019/03/23,"Fluid Retention After Surgery? I was curious to see if anyone would have any information about this.

I got some teeth removed and a bone graft procedure yesterday morning. This morning, the scale says I'm about 2-3 pounds heavier than I was before surgery? Of course, I have been eating even less than usual since I'm on a mostly liquid diet now. 

Am I right in thinking it's probably just water weight? Definitely need some reassurance rn lol. 

Thanks 💖",3.1239285714285714,6.08625686904762,4.262190476190476,79.46614285714288,81.5,7.1695238095238105,26.25714285714286,8.238735603445708,2.3137657142857138,363,15,61,8,10,118,68,84,0.0,0.83,0.17,0.9143,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,1,7,6,2,0,0,10,14,2,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,2,9,9,4,8,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,4,4,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19119656079560832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19659167563815624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392440984047721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876940419390772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570170177219836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22486712468265274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20847452689849505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031350522130387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24010674210024854,0.0,0.2235875177500269,0.0,0.0,0.22404591439728488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23257616982967005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588518069203532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015420327677226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30965497227685346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.342373767498423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19972603263880653,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Thechickentendy,2019/03/23,"cold. Is anyone else struggling with feeling cold constantly? It doesn’t matter how hot or cold it actually is outside or in, I will always need a blanket. Sometimes it genuinely feels like I’ll never get warm. I do my best to hide my shivering, and I try not to make it obvious to family/friends that I’m freezing even on sunny days. The only things that somewhat work for me are layers and layers of bulky clothes, hot tea/broth, and heating pads. Anyone have any other remedies? ",4.6981677018633565,6.3621538478260895,5.440062111801243,79.46891304347827,70.30434782608695,7.86583850931677,30.534161490683232,8.418075326091056,2.458681366459627,382,16,67,6,7,124,72,92,0.08,0.787,0.133,0.7090000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,2,0,7,0,0,2,2,16,13,6,0,1,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,6,3,8,12,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,42,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2349903470207051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003685419212022,0.0,0.0,0.16375524192015553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367520552634801,0.24673255327443666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527093495982204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602239969692951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529890952767253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011611675003456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590490277238784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435158686818903,0.17203070347561344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18604487344782286,0.0,0.12581035431476584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764486086947455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607387994025003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17855340307584225,0.18572318976429286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18314258874576694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381616978781105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517410314147661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599797358922398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634903731817854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530846301476646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,22cals,2019/03/23,"relapsing - purging?? sorry about the account literally being made 2 seconds ago but i have another reddit account and i wanted to make a separate one to join this sub <3

anyway, last year during the summer i purged a lot (almost after every time i ate whether it was a proper meal or me trying to throw up an apple) and i don’t remember how but i slowly started doing it less until the point that i wasn’t purging anymore. since then, i’ve still been restricting and having disordered eating habits (don’t want to call it having an ed because i feel invalid and fake) 

but the last few days i’ve felt even more shit about myself than usual and whenever i’ve eaten anything i get an urge to purge and literally 20 minutes ago i gave into that urge and it all just happened so easily and felt GOOD at the time. now i’m sat here mad at myself for doing it cause now i know it’s an option that i have now i’m terrified i’m gonna fall back into those habits of purging all the time and i literally don’t know what to do. idk this is kinda just a rant but does anyone have any advice on how to stop ??? ",3.3067933368037496,4.556394707964606,5.049573138990108,82.53793076522645,73.15929203539824,7.441540864133265,24.356064549713693,7.928766900206844,1.3357410723581469,868,25,171,12,17,296,135,226,0.12300000000000001,0.818,0.059000000000000004,-0.9367,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,15,4,2,0,14,0,16,5,1,5,2,40,36,20,0,2,8,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,11,4,2,6,0,2,2,4,3,0,2,10,3,16,1,20,24,6,30,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,5,21,116,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042919968094626,0.2729185191542053,0.0,0.15414950684296175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046850448212032,0.16142038501672545,0.0,0.0,0.15266794050765908,0.1076390092479558,0.0,0.12668018837529366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837099783948675,0.0,0.09384090254394703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15719080139686736,0.0,0.0,0.158139639727674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09927910162726436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642953062596076,0.0,0.13471465973614855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751990281551753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167646788468188,0.0,0.12970179062780698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783711021619585,0.0,0.29561468031165056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042773120407606,0.0,0.0,0.1291182664613167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361293696069555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920371106485824,0.2509646490700914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308749906466167,0.0,0.14566253765744305,0.10275670093151394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431429198766144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552384459936205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438495402599155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1580180521684556,0.1273414472606038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232415844014232,0.10896011343223333,0.0,0.12293734752958853,0.12870142881836713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692924118234417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10451572019120736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695440781833113,0.0,0.18159658272191265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913284885382903
EDAnonymous,ironicalyalive,2019/03/23,"I want an A$$ Do any of you guys know how to build a butt???? I struggle with ed and am terrified of eating calories that are above my BMI. I know a big butt isn’t that popular here, I also want to be skinny but also want a nice bum.  I am really trying to get into fitness and meal prep and overall just improve my health in general but am stuck because I don’t know what to eat or how much to eat. Also don’t get how much protein should I get daily if I want to build muscle - - I’m 5’3  105lbs and skinny fat :(

Please help if you have any fitness history but don’t be mean I’m very insecure about posting
",1.946564885496187,2.9465049160305377,4.111366412213741,88.91865267175574,76.17557251908397,7.07206106870229,23.787022900763358,7.554174236665415,0.9417322137404572,468,14,106,6,10,162,77,131,0.105,0.7,0.196,0.868,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,9,4,0,2,5,0,13,10,5,3,0,26,27,16,0,7,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,6,7,0,4,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,12,2,12,23,2,6,0,0,0,2,4,5,2,3,0,65,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850697353230104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21829914795338606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784295886536797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927130799206993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25157325800921365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892616014449026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061035675679093,0.0,0.0,0.10758377861373183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26462967575093505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1748380719143255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359807344756443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761873727971422,0.0,0.0,0.15372036594809954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282424416245642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677957054026556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897302811706833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324342474044777,0.3786823547446277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nihilistatari,2019/03/23,"aaannddd I'm back hey compadres

i was very very active on r/proed back when that sub was around last year, and  I had slowly fallen out of my eating disorder for a while. i always had the ED thoughts in the back of my head, but, as of recently, I can tell that my disordered thoughts are coming back as of a result of a massive massive month-spanning depression episode causing me to gain lots of weight.

so hey i'm unfortunately back lmao ",3.6242857142857146,5.338014252873566,4.5835796387520515,84.33724137931036,73.13793103448276,7.730049261083742,28.52052545155993,8.418075326091056,2.031218062397373,348,14,69,6,7,113,59,87,0.13,0.74,0.13,0.2359,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,8,1,0,0,5,0,6,3,1,2,0,10,11,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,1,8,0,14,5,1,16,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,10,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667312792820402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462215705241748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6315089015829846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16873489622276094,0.0,0.14149094139586332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414723938681309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765003966376469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16807363732690025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685727828949726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388956143237304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964353278495034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13110659139968106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218177085253702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356590997109847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26079988201197896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710547770094145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000180609960636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577468743714537
EDAnonymous,Lillysland,2019/03/23,Cold dead body I often wonder what people are gonna think when they find my cold dead body over the bathtub slouched over in my own pile of vomit and probably piss. It maybe from heart attack or it maybe from chocking on my own fucking vomit or bile idk but what a sad fucking way to go. At least I won’t have to be there. I sometimes wonder what my last meal would be..? Would it be worth it? Sometimes I think maybe it will be for the better b/c the amount of shit I put my body through...it really doesn’t deserve it. People that know me in person will prob be hella surprised lmfao cuz I look so fucking put together from the outside 😂😂😂 what a fucking joke. I just wasted my whole evening b/p three fucking times and spending $70 on take out. Fml. Sorry I’m just venting. I’m just so tired. It’s so unfair. Why did god have to make me like this...fuck I don’t even really believe in god but idk if there really is anyone up there why ru like dis? If wanna take me just take me already. I don’t wanna live this life anymore but I’m too scared to take it myself. I’m so sorry if I broke any rules please delete if I did thx ,0.4788842975206613,2.4510444586776887,2.2769355371900843,95.97922148760333,83.75206611570249,4.698446280991735,18.770909090909093,5.6839178017228535,-0.380099041322314,877,22,200,5,25,289,133,242,0.177,0.6920000000000001,0.132,-0.9021,0,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,1,1,16,16,8,1,6,0,19,16,6,2,0,29,41,17,2,8,13,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,1,14,3,1,0,6,1,2,3,4,11,0,1,2,3,23,5,22,28,5,17,0,2,1,5,2,10,7,9,5,117,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10331534022264456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366686996679773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284888718346564,0.06546339849067444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065097109726309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548109294641823,0.0,0.08280196066486127,0.0,0.31198223715777385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236742549148946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556975208120991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193178883102673,0.0,0.0,0.053208124737327216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094373975255857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051452768103911715,0.07631526406612513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661287139122928,0.09147896545370918,0.0,0.08267084956997828,0.0,0.07861976452142176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06249409863268976,0.0,0.28217074827138544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298128396837371,0.08174801742704299,0.0,0.10276997101301216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009414597800092,0.0,0.0,0.18823400533697274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17993192856409854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373298436917403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09610269353180843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519113858072006,0.209606631134082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815714641239433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997971288046055,0.0,0.0,0.054592340914569694,0.10760589895353764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743136023658375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16896044249019385,0.10452676804017433,0.0,0.0,0.20306036180557013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301422678405594,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,boscodash443,2019/03/23,"Oops I think I have an eating disorder Hey.



Okay so I’m 23 now and have been in recovery for years now. When I was 14 I was diagnosed with anorexia and went inpatient treatment and everything. I have ALWAYS had a bad relationship with food. Either I restrict WAYYYY more than I should or eat until I gained LITERALLY 100 pounds during my pregnancy. No in between.


ANYWAY I think I accidentally dipped my lil toes right back into the Ana/mia pool.


It all started with my having my kid and telling my husband “I gotta lose this weight” and I started dieting. HEALTHY dieting. 

Shortly after that I found r/1200isplenty and r/fasting and was like “oH cOol LoOk I cAn Be hEAlTHy” And starting really cutting my calories. (I’m a giant so my TDEE is high af literally I could still eat 1700 calories a day and still lose 2 pounds a week)


ANYWAY I started dropping crazy weight. Literally I’ve lost 80 pounds since October.....


And then I realized....I’m in denial. 


I never get close to 1700 calories. I eat 1200 MAX a day.....usually less.


I was pretending I was doing Intermittent fasting...when no I’m just skipping meals. 

I would over estimate food by A LOT and under estimate working out by A LOT.

I weigh myself 5 times a day every day because I have to know or I’m anxious. I feel defeated every time it goes up even though I know it’s water weight.

When I’m not hungry I feel like a failure and I’m not losing weight.


Today I realized I think I have a problem again.....because I googled calories in allergy meds...

Will I really always be an inch from relapsing without knowing?  Anyone have some advice? I still have a ton of weight to lose but gosh, how do I find a balance?",1.1189093387866436,3.742684374233132,3.161713701431495,85.29783980913429,90.22699386503069,6.2106612133605985,24.729107021131558,7.554174236665415,1.7390931970006818,1310,57,246,27,45,440,184,326,0.10300000000000001,0.843,0.054000000000000006,-0.8769,0,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,0,0,8,16,13,1,0,15,2,25,18,1,1,2,48,49,23,0,4,8,1,7,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,5,18,16,1,11,2,0,1,6,9,0,0,10,9,42,4,25,32,8,41,0,6,1,0,5,15,0,5,26,157,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049454460649069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708289534389853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930587398337264,0.0,0.057597547880895175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06334022640494211,0.06877852896011642,0.1004283840073352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576862990697245,0.0,0.0,0.2124966719593701,0.0,0.0,0.08360748671246747,0.0,0.0,0.09440730092957098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371550967627669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05440699675949018,0.0,0.1388066491528921,0.0,0.07403209495434253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330115102156603,0.058847728027483726,0.0,0.0,0.07528799308144568,0.0,0.1992130078892205,0.09031841866310714,0.0,0.0,0.04303681473235517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703224837015626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581115598016907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048717625873575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0691730914650325,0.3686200256632181,0.08992053299102129,0.14006220593903082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149851803698364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353161115332634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882042611137753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554129594772793,0.0,0.0,0.08843843656671904,0.0,0.07034661833850638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814030672578311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332178786991209,0.0,0.1973510294313732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199817151275711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583450618978975,0.08093165989621721,0.0,0.09606543632790504,0.0,0.07808055666936115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607514638994133,0.5015443660734912,0.0,0.07636116768470476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940522671683649,0.0,0.059968973816767565,0.0,0.0,0.0585158536882736,0.0,0.0,0.0530459082475845
EDAnonymous,skinboneandblood,2019/03/23,"i am officially losing it. i'm gonna brain dump this shit because this week has been the worst™.

to start this off, i have had at LEAST five cups of black coffee per day. i need to learn that coffee is not a meal replacement but also i can't deal with calories.

and, for the most fun part, i found out that a guy i had fallen for hard doesn't like me. any rational person would say ""oh, i'm just not their type"", yada yada yada, but my fucked up brain is telling me it's because i'm not skinny enough. it doesn't help that his exes are all thin and tall and pretty. and it hurts even more that we're still friends (he's literally coming over tomorrow) and i can't even fucking eat in front of him because i feel so disgusting. half of me wants to be normal and have a normal self esteem and half of me wants to be able to see my rib cage even more. so that's cool and great and fun. 

does anybody know how to deal with this or has anything to say? cause im kind of crying writing this lmao ok lov you all bye x",1.9420858067997813,3.064789004587155,3.3221856449001628,94.08425526173772,76.38532110091742,6.230329195898544,20.162978953049112,6.522977012572876,-0.05141046950890482,785,16,187,6,17,257,134,218,0.152,0.7020000000000001,0.145,0.313,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,1,1,9,15,5,0,5,2,18,9,5,2,2,36,33,16,0,6,7,0,3,1,1,2,0,2,0,3,14,13,3,0,4,0,0,3,7,7,0,3,4,8,18,8,22,25,8,16,0,2,2,2,17,8,3,2,7,112,32,2,0.13267947126531385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061037252350988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022659023334892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918389982774332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426405225910192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29622833933549986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362983652319009,0.0,0.11429161625179865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574216903694573,0.08556728266733173,0.2735734178770114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161086994154549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357642225707297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13709336127536118,0.0,0.2629006183225326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708672724379698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14547619195259998,0.10250783037392264,0.24532006643253185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627958546968922,0.0,0.13137353638941762,0.0,0.0,0.11885474534965686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08893225282591807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203611813161368,0.0,0.1433165968781187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381652520556991,0.07291716753947827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482048776127107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14843439025150726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838014676775424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599954226417932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367893786024705,0.0,0.0,0.11585059662309423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13498272140776196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21102408182842888,0.0,0.0,0.10572836052940196,0.0,0.13841362484720135,0.0,0.13619357059861004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391121265907998,0.0,0.1059579971415396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596770597030448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565155795176947,0.0,0.10642746874670052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942516896268774,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iamthecarley,2019/09/30,"I'm Pregnant And although I'm doing my damnedest to not harm the baby, I want my baby, I CANNOT WAIT until I can ""go back to normal"". I'm in a bad place most days, just counting the days until I can eat how I need to stay sane.",3.047058823529412,2.4041446862745097,5.153725490196081,88.39176470588238,72.72549019607844,6.8000000000000025,24.84313725490196,3.1291,0.3558313725490194,173,4,41,0,3,61,34,51,0.106,0.8059999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,0,9,11,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,7,0,6,11,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651911799515532,0.287960120850503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4448377150755386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35289800420662065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960030656005384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557239071568183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3379088540994122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603258537991084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675958431162015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034189663269407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,im-fine-bitch,2019/09/30,Threw away food I was gonna binge ayyy My kryptonite is chicken McNuggets and this is the first time I literally bought a ten piece nugget and as I sat down to shove it down my throat I just didn’t- and I threw it away instead. Did I waste my money and those nuggets? Yes. Do I feel 100% bad about it? No.,-1.07919034090909,0.8877054843750011,0.13846590909091105,104.43267045454547,103.53125,2.952272727272728,16.75568181818182,4.851557810540192,-1.0936062499999997,237,7,57,1,11,73,47,64,0.142,0.815,0.043,-0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,2,1,6,2,1,0,0,6,12,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,1,0,2,7,1,10,0,7,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.70974303098407,0.0,0.31537255030678063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19098181393495375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212804192513569,0.4567291224616061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202460717692397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadcrybby,2019/09/30,"I feel hopeless asf I use to be so skinny, friends use to tell me how thin I was and since I’ve piled on some pounds I feel like shit again and I don’t wanna eat. Now friends tell me I look a lil bigger but in a healthy way and it honestly makes me feel like shit. I’ve been eating so much junk food lately and other things high in calories and it’s starting to make me feel depressed. I wanna be skinny again. :( what do I do??? I hate feeling this way.",-0.5732993197278908,1.5157331326530643,1.2011224489795929,100.99685374149662,90.12244897959185,3.6748299319727895,17.35034013605442,4.7782277997778095,-0.9238190476190472,349,9,84,1,12,113,59,98,0.205,0.63,0.166,-0.8132,0,0,0,0,0,1,11.0,0,0,0,0,6,10,3,0,2,0,7,7,4,5,0,19,19,9,0,2,1,0,6,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,7,13,5,8,15,2,13,0,2,1,0,4,6,2,1,7,50,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379889463103506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278703849304333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050358531255808,0.2289086230747828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937270004426082,0.0,0.24755624984757674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581745597551739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16927103904683105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807242617338589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654137644838104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453635044067871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138833156090416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777304693405212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289072597454967,0.1325276634401898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11339771576335275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28006182833753823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643664277101346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27674061963536023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543350494944668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stounes,2019/09/30,people around me are trying to control me for the first time in months i stepped on a scale (regret it so badly lol) and jus found out i weighed 99 pounds (45 kg) and today i hopped on again and i gained 1 pound and so ofc it made me insecure and sad and now i can't stop thinking about it. i'm really bloated and my stomach looks bigger than usual because of this bloat. my mom found out (who is the reason why i've been obsessed with my weight btw) told me to not go lower and i need to be at least 110 pounds (50 kg) and it's triggering me and i jus feel like actual shit because of it. sorry for venting :/,0.6346923076923083,2.5436204692307705,2.4700000000000024,95.16500000000002,82.76923076923076,5.230769230769232,19.23076923076923,6.297961479604792,-0.12700000000000067,471,12,108,4,13,156,90,130,0.14,0.794,0.066,-0.8754,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,6,7,1,2,3,1,5,4,2,4,0,26,15,12,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,14,2,2,5,0,0,2,2,6,0,1,5,3,15,1,17,9,1,18,0,2,1,0,3,8,1,0,9,64,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.1854405610893583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691657966302331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866599436173284,0.2316794158233014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21313330168142167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960842006811313,0.13575651332734925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163828189829288,0.0,0.4167132366169445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799766721032424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09283840500474952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15957621522755958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798097136587739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225592709699066,0.15167906416334584,0.0,0.0,0.14090384422421026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174194663880245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173722614424345,0.19538111264962074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19506168964423054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127215280189641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158872469445291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176269289344176,0.0,0.0,0.11080724034967053,0.0,0.18012495107951268,0.1815805290038435,0.0,0.1290169869525217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092897229511107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314037149754147,0.0,0.0,0.1714713094085422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dead4CEREALZ,2019/09/30,"A few things I see people post about but idk First one: Is diet coke really okay to drink? I have a massive soda addiction so I've just been cutting it out completely but now I just drink juice all the time instead. Is diet coke better than juice?

Second, do laxatives actually help with weight loss or do they just help with bloating?

Any other tips to help me not feel sick would be nice, drinking apple juice sort of hurts my stomach but it's hard for me to drink just plain water unless it's mixed with something like that.",2.2731381118881124,4.758787240384618,3.0741958041958064,89.86171328671331,80.44230769230771,5.7048951048951055,20.031468531468533,6.980632752743323,0.429646153846154,419,11,82,5,11,132,77,104,0.10099999999999999,0.67,0.22899999999999998,0.9574,0,0,5,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,3,8,7,1,0,3,1,8,14,1,0,1,18,10,6,0,1,10,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,4,11,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,0,3,1,4,7,4,12,7,2,5,0,2,1,0,4,1,0,2,4,53,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.1690749272233185,0.18887691894785968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782145931146568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323272283484654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816578369534433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6789079696508155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876045086470851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737326390684874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15520523946402304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34839378660016224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18547639526132745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08464516326686071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11740418251737955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201153615442337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16593338097467086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099358484354684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806428566086507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333825613687339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11510499280552527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010282000220523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109817077711537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307759370812975,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HannahAching,2019/09/30,"Throwing food away Does anyone else waste insane amounts of food?    
For example, I open a bag of gummies, then I have to eat the whole thing until I hate myself. The only way to stop is to throw the rest in the trash. I'm unable to keep half for later. 

This is such a waste. I feel stupid for throwing away good food. But if I don't, I make myself eat the whole thing until it hurts.",1.5935357142857145,3.2187614250000043,2.7321428571428577,95.83,78.5,5.071428571428573,17.67857142857143,5.288315135182226,-0.6502678571428571,294,5,67,1,7,94,52,80,0.242,0.7240000000000001,0.034,-0.9501,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,7,0,4,5,0,1,0,7,9,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,5,2,1,0,0,3,1,3,0,1,0,1,8,1,14,9,4,13,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,5,45,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517678290048634,0.1687761739166693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095216835070141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414849436416513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371014983479723,0.1376032945014563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328790842286833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5975440154515747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816019534743765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262792720761735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763372828830217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464116310862071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995257497675223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12527777546777052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771416728528635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188666827279898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307478964365474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678103229415342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Daemon_Dejurium,2019/09/30,"The Fucking Irony Of having an ED and working in the food industry. I'm a line cook and I plan to go to culinary soon. I love the beauty and art of cooking but I'm also obsessed over calories. I have to act like I still have a normal relationship with food around everyone because I'm known as ""the girl that knows how to cook""! I'm so tired. The strenuous work of the kitchen plus counting calories is what got me from being overweight to ""normal"" (according to BMI). But now I b/p because of work related stress. Not a lot of people know about my ED. I wish I could tell someone in the kitchen about this like my favourite coworker but I don't wanna put that burden on someone. 

Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh",3.0576086956521737,5.017970195652175,4.9703623188405786,79.91032608695654,75.30434782608695,6.918840579710146,28.89130434782609,7.793537801064563,1.8660608695652168,549,24,108,8,12,188,88,138,0.135,0.7609999999999999,0.10400000000000001,-0.6652,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,4,9,7,1,2,11,0,7,11,0,1,0,20,18,11,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,4,6,8,0,3,4,0,3,2,4,0,0,1,0,11,3,23,15,1,11,0,0,0,2,4,5,1,1,5,70,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345641440394385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979451240417646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20514965683750735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343485906843124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607876257851172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4069415296282795,0.0,0.0,0.15556138430600452,0.0,0.0,0.09563078484429176,0.0,0.13457957644004168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849517764619339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644148390169615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305573951183845,0.15186876153459491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329734525573393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665609155656928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691561744905008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806572423945696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28514646511880426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437932700187602,0.0,0.19275083405195734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707396046212695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19339972272285866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193500305879803,0.0,0.0,0.36750410317790505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kittenban1i,2019/09/30,"I'm a fuckup, ED affecting school So I'm in college and we've been having these obligatory group work sessions. Nothing I've been stressed about, it's just for learning and I felt prepared. But guess what fucking happened? 

The first time I felt a bit sick and now I missed the second chance to do it because I was staying up and binge eating. It was hard to control myself. I just... you need to finish these in able to pass the class. I can't believe what a fuckup I am and how this actually happened.",1.2452640264026409,3.73754883168317,2.5301237623762383,91.91386551155121,85.43564356435644,4.554785478547855,24.258250825082502,5.985473137389443,0.6039498349834984,396,16,79,3,12,127,68,101,0.075,0.86,0.065,-0.2415,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,3,6,3,1,1,6,0,8,3,0,3,0,16,18,8,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,5,1,1,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,2,6,3,9,0,9,12,1,9,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,1,4,53,17,6,0.207110486988632,0.0,0.20210995925398156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262526305382301,0.0,0.0,0.2333425957087199,0.0,0.0,0.2261110106457465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23229202211991504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21192573337913007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977170935412236,0.0,0.0,0.17616807443008908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914703078870648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228155551260744,0.0,0.3662942393023204,0.0,0.18553031569634096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15356980181461896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872809806631567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960686993368255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22075222220273225,0.0,0.0,0.237244363092186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076779050148817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077890120171908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilmeeble,2019/09/30,"All the feelings feel justified My ED, like most everyone else’s, is not linear. It goes in spurts of restricting and fasting to full blown daily binging. Recently I had felt that I began making progress towards recovery. My boyfriend moved in with me a few months ago, I’ve been at work a lot, things that help me eat more “normally.” I was actually proud of my progress, until last Thursday happened. 

Due to uncomfortable circumstances, I found out that not only does my boyfriend watch COPIUS amounts of porn, but I also found out he has “favorites.” And saw what they look like. 

Cue the mental breakdown. 

They’re so thin, thinner than I ever was at my lowest weight. They have tiny little breasts, teeny butts, and a waist that I could probably wrap my hands around and overlap my fingers. 

Needless to say, I have been downright awful to myself. I vomited when I first found out, half out of disgust and the other half out of self loathing. I’ve started dosing myself with laxatives and relying on cigs/coffee to curb the hunger. I’ve been getting up after he leaves for work and going to our apartment’s gym, and I’ve also fully reinstated my “food rules.” Basically I’m doing everything that I’ve tried before, but this time to a new extreme. 

All I can think to myself is how fat and disgusting I am and that every time we have sex he’s just imagining/pretending I’m them. 

I’m hoping that by writing this out, it helps me realize how unfair I am being to myself and maybe in a way will shame me from going any farther or letting my behaviors continue.

But I’m also curious for other people’s experiences. Has anyone else ever been gobsmacked with information like this? Did anything help? Am I just crazy?",4.5711396011396035,6.5057641481481525,5.294691358024688,79.29764957264959,71.09876543209877,8.194491927825261,29.43684710351377,8.841846274778883,2.540822317188983,1360,55,240,26,26,440,193,324,0.11900000000000001,0.778,0.10300000000000001,-0.8844,1,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,2,0,3,6,12,8,2,1,9,1,24,14,6,3,4,54,45,23,0,3,8,0,7,3,0,1,3,1,0,1,16,22,6,2,9,1,0,3,2,3,0,3,14,11,36,5,39,27,8,44,0,0,3,4,15,21,1,4,22,162,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.11517896720364945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046253046172718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28316248161708063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026355072740671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252839833786109,0.1209343320777558,0.09712754809613837,0.10507054997889012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043371464757636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423629801605417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10328769447369683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077280696400575,0.19719563639887436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352739919023955,0.09944425461412168,0.11278146308496685,0.10607656830829963,0.11545469833672478,0.0,0.0,0.11935769536102828,0.0,0.11332604351216045,0.0,0.0,0.10039513610318823,0.14272075004965934,0.388237071207697,0.0,0.0,0.0616651145769113,0.0,0.13415683922240254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10437237316561516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373364116121944,0.0,0.0,0.11722911219512165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620912841861448,0.0,0.12497533160552884,0.0,0.12069232341851495,0.0,0.17298855561802112,0.11829574600917304,0.0,0.0,0.09911436609232914,0.0,0.0,0.1003437641800196,0.0,0.0,0.07878506134170403,0.0,0.11857567459853452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189451502082703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420936743354576,0.125445809415821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399283597862335,0.0,0.0,0.11564304790934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976613078017852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182622648528176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725488125576775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1165390837954998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386114477304157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312965579831192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354130818465011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841301137342988,0.07562801325133921,0.0,0.0,0.1376469465707845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013372706393802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368567351178576,0.0,0.14372713683233904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17185257154687175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pestaname,2019/09/30,"venting I’m floating somewhere around 104-5 and 5’3”. I felt like I was “managing” my anorexia until now. 


I am incredibly depressed. I struggle with depression, awful anxiety, and depersonalization and paranoia. I had to withdraw from college after one semester and I’ve been fucking useless since then. I feel like no one has noticed. I lost 30 pounds and dropped out of college and retreated from the world and everyone thinks I am fucking fine. But I am absolutely paralyzed. 


I want to eat more but I don’t even feel like food is food. I just don’t feel hungry. I feel really hungry when I wake up, but it’s so hard to even want to eat. I feel sick and bloated all the time. I think I eat a lot one day and then the next day I wake up weaker than before. My anorexia is clearly some manifestation of my lack of control of absolutely anything about my life. 


I’m terrified I’m gonna just crumble one day and no one will be here to help me. I’m 19 and only my dad has really noticed my weight loss. I don’t even live with him. My mom is way more neglectful than my dad, but it’s not much of a choice bc my dad can be violent, which is why I don’t live with him. But he’s the only one who asked if I was sick. Of course, I said no. I’m just glad my parents bought this house, the guilt of not paying rent would make me sick. I had a bad bad childhood, verbal and physical abuse. I’m going to resent them forever. My older siblings have gone to therapy and have a good relationship with my parents. But I’m still here with nothing. Nothing. I’m going to hate them for the rest of my life for taking my childhood from me. They were always controlling and angry, I never had mommy comforting me after nightmares or saw my dad as a protector in any way. My mom insisted on selecting all my courses for school until sophomore year, where she just completely stopped caring. They didn’t divorce until I was in HS despite fighting since 1991, and I was the sponge that soaked up all their hateful words that they couldn’t say to one another. I did art through high school and I don’t think my parents came to one art show I ever did. My friends entire families would show up and I would be alone. 


My friends are busy with school. My life partner was also ripped away from me when his family had to move to NYC. It’s corny but we only had eyes for each other through all of HS and completely inseparable now. I feel like a piece of my heart was ripped away. But I also refuse to show vulnerability and so none of my friends know. 


I want to go to the doctor. I want to get better. I’m a lost teenager on the brink of adulthood but I’ve felt like a child paralyzed by fear as long as I can remember. I need therapy and meds more than anything but my family is really poor so that’s a fucking dream. I couldn’t go to the doctor if I wanted, which I do. Good fucking luck paying $120/hr therapy like we did in middle school. It’s so sad being alone in your moms house wishing you were dead while your friends get to go to college and have a normal 18-24 life. 


I feel like it was fucking ripped away from me. I just want to go to school and be with my friends and get a degree. I used to be so good at academia, I was of course, incredibly depressed in school as well, but I enjoyed it and it’s good for me. I just want to feel fucking normal. I have slipped through the cracks of any system I have ever been a part of, and it’s gone unnoticed. 


I’m about to be 20 and should be in art school getting my useless degree but I’ve been such a scared and lost child for so long I don’t know how to be anything else. I don’t know how to ask for help. My family’s poverty status makes me feel like everything is so out of reach. People like me are supposed to go to school and be a 1st gen college student and then lift their family out of poverty, not just get sick and be useless. But I don’t even know how to get better haha. If I was in college I could terrorize the student health services but there’s nothing for me.",2.2543547865183844,3.955563419588877,3.79185380724492,88.62303523681385,76.8355501813785,6.835696646627044,25.069894579082717,7.677116360667737,1.2012329274315785,3136,111,674,45,71,1040,306,827,0.187,0.677,0.136,-0.9951,4,2,0,0,4,0,76.0,2,3,7,8,39,58,11,5,26,2,71,27,4,8,8,134,146,73,1,22,28,10,13,9,6,6,11,2,1,3,16,45,6,5,19,7,5,11,19,30,1,8,34,17,105,28,105,92,16,70,0,12,2,6,46,26,6,7,38,442,121,21,0.0,0.05244516809975934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09168755096346327,0.0,0.07079522403681375,0.03683088927038248,0.0,0.0,0.06020157780034971,0.04641427953603233,0.03386155876003597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927559752107303,0.03940401858473859,0.08276104504489437,0.0,0.12476142328791,0.0,0.07391657078601653,0.0,0.0,0.037665092257559686,0.0,0.0,0.07829517423405173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050625805187217016,0.045129724752857266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281915593564308,0.0,0.09929085840961896,0.035340909885097256,0.0,0.0,0.08563914603232846,0.0,0.11437260899107173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061140976513536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358782436495342,0.03697658631772529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694285085857177,0.08007798196291475,0.0,0.042295799044612434,0.03978129999191316,0.0,0.20863907327750425,0.04980889413292512,0.20142920934858544,0.15810974442555112,0.08500005997085264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704752356420498,0.0,0.17098986865846955,0.24552609758048355,0.13875553071570482,0.0,0.17609230231192255,0.1485049440842929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03965152168891032,0.0874023490477049,0.0,0.04705017294906054,0.0,0.05245261926382197,0.05933796149908167,0.04676695943184024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214858108668516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730454233626873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12505885455038335,0.19462478102253464,0.0,0.07817119931926159,0.0783438461693792,0.0,0.0,0.1449569555159015,0.03763135863861485,0.0,0.0,0.059092638649592966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04916691871396535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552309906960396,0.0,0.047045237762548174,0.032538863937647385,0.03282092365638181,0.03413884321143072,0.0,0.04707487678681145,0.0,0.08673792627774314,0.12741645150169634,0.10078888108980592,0.0,0.0,0.2399534709283193,0.1009934644746663,0.0,0.0,0.14744858151326873,0.04793320202777779,0.0,0.030686830418160633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506925188773634,0.0,0.0,0.04752257757998329,0.05014206850145892,0.0,0.04210485208597995,0.03520021827015127,0.04431561936296343,0.35837728483890824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07323067069954238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03534899519082085,0.03700637991442972,0.0,0.0462739607921857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03328074399734101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185796885250538,0.0,0.0,0.08508704790109177,0.0,0.0,0.02581048087164969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038229567811799633,0.0,0.0,0.18275486663777998,0.07026882453596829,0.0,0.053901181368238786,0.03979832270300231,0.0,0.039941044805011816,0.0,0.05090099448014073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09433084655885042,0.0,0.0,0.02850432897572458
EDAnonymous,ThatEDSheep,2019/09/30,"Coworker suspects I have an ED She thinks I keep magnesium supplements with me all the time as a laxative.


Little does she know it's because it helps with the nausea when I'm 5 days fasted 🙃.",1.9226923076923088,4.23171094871795,3.945833333333337,84.13875,80.53846153846153,8.002564102564103,25.134615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.2198153846153854,153,6,30,4,4,52,33,39,0.067,0.861,0.07200000000000001,0.0516,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,17,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2768065447010469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29284783433958705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.397373623561188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043642012597623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.403612404228437,0.0,0.0,0.24955373052024635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551133557880892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29095990399971,0.0,0.0,0.26478113491484234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hairnorhide,2019/09/30,"Too old for this shit. I’m nearly twenty seven and thought I kicked this a long time ago - suddenly in the last two weeks I’ve dived straight back into every single old habit. Yay! /s 

Anybody else feel ashamed that this is still going on in your twenties? I feel like all my friends grew out of this kind of thing a long time ago and I’m here making the same stupid decisions.",2.4047556390977443,4.451890565789476,2.61796992481203,95.63078947368422,77.55263157894737,5.395488721804512,21.383458646616546,6.1826913282559595,0.061103759398496216,297,8,64,2,7,90,58,76,0.128,0.7390000000000001,0.133,-0.2828,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,7,2,1,4,1,1,1,1,1,1,11,8,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,0,2,1,2,4,4,9,7,3,22,0,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,14,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673940448890571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15934719207981154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311419726823485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460033725736035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095635785613041,0.14804525897186094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16010549810879807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777366859707268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579830946585704,0.0,0.16892022907014026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124218260026392,0.0,0.0,0.3667843192441158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383277328034789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4349063604386019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127187687064086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16549426369746334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767450200407955,0.0,0.0,0.1645175894955063,0.24167513132822036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20243374265096772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16622752460951312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherienmz,2019/09/30,"I'm Stuck / Rant (TW - numbers mention) I just don't know where to go from where I am now ... My husband thinks I am on the right track in recovery but I'm not. I've lost (TW) 20 pounds since being out of the hospital the second time, and I can't stop. I don't eat enough and my meal plan makes me sick. I can not eat that full thing right now. I'm eating only one meal a day currently, and lying to my husband again. I told myself I wouldn't ever lie to him about how much I'm eating again but I can't stop ... I think I'm relapsing and I can not afford to do that right now. We are buying a house, I'm starting a new job in a week. I am considering buying a scale again. This is not the time to relapse but I think it's happening because of all this change and I need something immediate to control. I haven't even seen my dietitian or therapist in 2 weeks because I've been too afraid to email them to reschedule the last appointment that I cancelled .... Ugh.",1.0468034055727564,2.8012120343137283,3.0003095975232235,92.67534055727556,80.61764705882355,6.2555211558307535,21.521155830753354,7.273561745256523,0.5264254901960781,741,22,171,10,19,249,114,204,0.099,0.863,0.038,-0.907,3,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,1,0,1,3,14,3,0,1,10,0,16,7,0,3,2,29,35,10,0,2,9,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,6,3,4,0,2,1,10,3,0,2,5,1,25,0,17,28,4,30,0,1,1,0,8,11,0,1,18,107,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605027926746718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407960349470264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152757827619824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878365515661478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.557458914900177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072911656965786,0.0,0.08995760606242224,0.1231990412890746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740455809067907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204395909830114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715440062846514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515566694032013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485095175383047,0.1110196858050109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867639027177826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909133353565667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10012132532536376,0.10098921650050456,0.0,0.1315410402566368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229140410295733,0.10358484479544207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489374762749663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266453277153934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048520044824386,0.0,0.0,0.09640176497644036,0.0,0.0,0.22773553555075424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813657160012218,0.0904840115360469,0.2618108616270258,0.0,0.0,0.15883649515892462,0.0,0.0,0.1301431870564572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21849991153670587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,strdymrnng,2019/09/30,"I'm so sad. So, I've actually been improving a lot these past few months. I haven't been counting calories regularly, gained back some weight and actually felt kind of OK (!!!) with that. 

But now it's like someone hit a switch in my head and I can't walk without feeling my entire body jiggle and I can't look in the mirror without hating myself and so I've been restricting again this past week.

I just feel so sad and betrayed by my own head.",1.8343333333333327,4.041223544444449,3.3877777777777784,88.58500000000002,80.22222222222223,6.222222222222222,23.333333333333336,7.3871296695380915,0.9490000000000004,349,12,73,5,9,115,62,90,0.14300000000000002,0.6990000000000001,0.158,-0.5063,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,8,6,1,0,3,1,6,4,3,0,0,16,13,10,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,1,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,4,5,8,3,7,8,4,10,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,2,8,46,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.38013193045411137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976495803550902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21634390168600545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969616165767452,0.0,0.18700830862129494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19229357568152533,0.39977735377776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282142621691365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515405342666768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355649053440555,0.0,0.0,0.16558521799965567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546236252515966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718571531579566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650267222749951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15623154649013954,0.2371755682012581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37549977706171306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wetblanketdreams,2019/09/30,"Metabolism and body temperature changes? Ok so I'm constantly hot. Like even if it's freezing out, I still don't turn the heat on at night. It only happens when I'm eating enough. If I restrict or overexercise at all I'm freezing. I'm sweating all of the time now after increasing food. Is this a good thing or a bad thing?",1.5533766233766249,3.867845939393941,3.462900432900433,87.02863636363638,82.03030303030303,6.8017316017316025,26.095238095238088,7.957251820313856,1.7031238095238108,256,11,53,5,7,86,49,66,0.14,0.7390000000000001,0.122,0.1368,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,4,1,2,4,2,0,2,9,8,7,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,6,8,4,12,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,8,32,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21317874127998868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28359924527347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700911658651573,0.0,0.0,0.27590659977813137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612526766372766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26381035374566403,0.0,0.16863424183931405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087299111402265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141474957313206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22577567369638304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473482046968187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23959738390024285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19417982016997265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20389620947396955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392420797274861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488771939915377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777112032344504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SubnormalKay,2019/09/30,"Where are y’all bitches in real life Goddamn I love y’all. But like where are you besides on the internet. No one seems to struggle with this irl. I see all of these skinny and hot and fit and perfect girls walking around and I wonder where y’all are at, or if y’all are any of them. I just feel so incredibly lonely irl and project ED on other people cuz it makes me feel better. Fuck this shit.",0.8294243641231596,3.022667578313253,2.365702811244983,94.52745649263723,84.06024096385542,4.6527443105756365,20.065595716198125,5.82211442006289,-0.13942998661311945,311,9,68,2,9,101,59,83,0.21600000000000005,0.627,0.157,-0.7070000000000001,0,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,5,1,2,6,9,3,1,1,0,4,5,2,2,2,20,12,10,0,1,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,7,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,0,4,11,4,9,12,1,10,0,1,1,2,8,9,3,4,1,47,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18908897526479834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475305720462365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24591970518104395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811889593874938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25706014077252765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19640058881134576,0.13584509372729087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25095820144051983,0.0,0.1856058744008474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18841929724640832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277040668727888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164908790612255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157622600197116,0.2531335604061309,0.0,0.0,0.28542254157607083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906865948482507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30154204023802506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feisty_devil,2019/09/30,"My Cat was weighted at the Vet Ive had my very own kitty Cat for almost two months, I adopted her when she was 12 weeks young, so she is just above 4 months old. Around the time I adopted her, her weight was around 1kg, (I dont know what that is in pounds and inches)

We went to the vet because she needed her second vaccination, and the vet did a basic health check on her, including checking her weight, and I felt weird about it. ""Did I feed her too much? Did I not give her enough exercise chasing things? What if I made her obese?"", all those thoughts went through my head. I noticed she's heavier now than she was two months ago.

Then he said ""Alright, 2.4kg"" and moved her off the scale. ""She gained more than double her weight after I adopted her???"" I was ready to be scolded by the vet, but he didn't comment on her weight at all. She's a healthy Kitten, they grow fast during their first months, I'm actually just an idiot.

The vet appointment happened one week ago. Now I'm trying not to worry about her weight and body, and just leave those issues to myself. I'm giving her two spoons of her favourite wet food each time she wants it as a snack, instead of just one spoon. Now her bowl of dry food is never empty either. I actually started to eat snacks with her during the day when she wants to. ""Meowr meowr its snack time!"" (I dont eat the wet food with her though - it doesnt taste that good!). If I had my Cat's careless mindset about weight and food, things would be a lot easier to deal with, :D

I just wanted to share this ""experience"", hope your day or night is going neat for you!",3.267817948717948,4.393906667692313,3.706019230769233,92.61143910256412,73.09230769230768,6.401282051282053,22.15705128205128,6.42735559955562,0.20590512820512785,1237,28,276,8,24,386,173,325,0.032,0.856,0.113,0.981,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,1,2,2,2,19,8,1,0,14,1,22,23,2,1,3,41,42,17,0,8,12,0,10,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,13,14,19,0,3,1,2,5,7,3,0,7,17,12,53,5,33,22,10,41,0,0,0,0,41,9,0,6,27,180,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.14387721810854462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13069398118040404,0.0,0.07381841587275878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125016487922214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04493810529618567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08188462014265993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508465075871113,0.07600052287751853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279503490272216,0.0,0.0,0.1508648315835119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617090301257322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211082551590567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707813078882205,0.0,0.0,0.06270490717552536,0.3565627472106607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143497959525572,0.04189591486661417,0.06183156914099685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518901437926689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565643519557366,0.07835930418974907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321909092198453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694294750909421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0405137524161016,0.0,0.0,0.07805723336537537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267282124189599,0.0,0.06975421460694388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353655712529225,0.07835108492599473,0.05419156992344016,0.054661323846001,0.0568562415867605,0.0,0.0,0.06917980599323477,0.0,0.0,0.08392898577451717,0.07735515106615933,0.0,0.09990710895056187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012316226853682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217832435284767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795057390968943,0.0,0.07242803894854384,0.05852424404936664,0.12895752736732596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05005001349874705,0.0,0.2160367495365385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06082547199816984,0.13044322040641726,0.0,0.11826504689013778,0.6283847989497126,0.0,0.1366755515534061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486470168119423,0.0,0.0523674979047312,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tylerjosephsbitch,2019/09/30,"dumbest thing someone has said to you regarding your ED... here’s mine. you won’t believe it. my heaviest period of restriction was in school, and the people i hung out with never really called it out/expressed concern. one girl always said something like ‘she just has a small stomach’ when another girl asked how i wasn’t hungry. 

when shit went down and my ED was revealed to everyone, that said girl literally told me ‘I didn’t know... I genuinely thought you weren’t hungry and had a small appetite.’

bitch.. that’s honestly the dumbest thing i’ve heard; it goes against all logic. what human can survive on like 500 cals a day?",4.270336134453782,6.3687157394958005,4.718226890756302,82.43044957983196,72.27731092436973,8.121344537815126,29.54705882352941,8.841846274778883,2.528965714285715,499,21,91,10,10,158,84,119,0.10400000000000001,0.828,0.068,-0.6486,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,0,1,5,5,2,0,5,0,10,2,2,1,2,14,19,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,4,8,5,0,1,4,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,13,4,12,3,9,5,1,12,0,0,0,0,16,6,2,0,7,55,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657252197138148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20884688983474808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861968668896548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439614844073508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033746232172956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844803708214236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19031526874580296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945850736488924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946085970267948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361201980369876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496260366792934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13807925396631165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759326694945292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5683682366511241,0.0,0.0,0.2015704597653056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20444492639332693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16875591599793394,0.15333063422639884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2646391157642499,0.0,0.0,0.15811856508646216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19031526874580296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184632389918578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goattman,2019/09/30,"Do I Really Have an ED? My therapist recently told me I definitely have an ED and some of my friends agree but I’m not sure. Like I know I have a habit of hiding foods and binging til it hurts and I also feel shitty about it and will work out enough to make sure I burn off all, if not more, of my daily calories and fast a lot. But I feel like I binge more than I purge and for a lot longer and I’m also super overweight so I just feel like it isn’t that serious if I just purge until I’m normal weight again? I just feel more like I’m fixing a problem and it’s not that big a deal since I’m fat.",-0.4550158730158742,1.2965966888888936,2.0684920634920623,97.4075,85.81481481481481,5.3386243386243395,16.30952380952381,6.5431188927421005,-0.5153809523809523,463,9,117,5,14,159,74,135,0.195,0.6609999999999999,0.14400000000000002,-0.8053,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,8,11,0,0,7,0,6,4,1,1,3,33,18,17,0,4,10,0,5,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,6,9,4,0,5,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,5,16,8,11,16,8,8,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,5,9,76,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672820213002294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17228720278708842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726734411413477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.337991451674454,0.3581588389805676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20207492004366265,0.0,0.1291118669054032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889900033075173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184148758328503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326573849355633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28414870460675523,0.0,0.0,0.11154989702422667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637362447419474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599055350152753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705751178558297,0.0,0.16500492067021288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382384331149727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31500594689407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940322418990838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968459475845054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034998391852187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166098707633162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nerdy_Gurl,2019/05/21,"Just purged for the first time And I'm feeling like shit. I think I've just been in denial for so long that I have a problem. Yeah, I'd have mini binges, and periods of eating as little as possible, but I always told myself I don't really have an eating disorder, I must just be faking it.

I don't even know what I really want to say, I just feel like I need to tell someone, and I can't bring myself to tell anyone in my real life.",3.188971631205672,3.265434351063832,5.332765957446809,84.73333333333333,72.51063829787235,8.394326241134753,22.04964539007092,8.344100000000001,0.9925517730496444,335,6,75,5,6,118,62,94,0.128,0.763,0.109,-0.5662,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,1,0,3,1,9,4,1,0,1,17,18,7,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,3,2,0,4,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,3,13,2,10,14,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,6,49,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15839811571524012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310695008687226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21817366111929395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895798370543298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573364090112935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250753823991212,0.27199219013552106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619235395256813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461908782224956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344597381892192,0.18600449059148946,0.19079476006634935,0.0,0.16846616870982528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115250992283848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146068316344628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821526594487736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166759325692504,0.2439041335729812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15138511062888674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540593256817665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129481774730653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327730910250578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197757847915384,0.0,0.0,0.11100279186202508,0.0,0.0,0.1819009805099797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228163210156658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kathrynannemarie,2019/05/21,"Dad told me I’m too fat to join the Air Force So I’m young, 27, and not really interested in joint the military at all. But the Air Force will take you at 39. So I jokingly said “if shit goes side ways for me, I think I’ll join the military - the Air Force at 39 and try to do something good/ study to be a medic”

And my dad told me they wouldn’t take me because of my weight. I use to not eat above 900, throw up, and work out 2.5 hours a day. I stopped this and started binging. By no means am I healthy or recovered in the brain sense.

I’m in therapy but Jesus this shit eats at me. Makes me want to binge or purge or starve. He wonders why I don’t believe in myself either. 

Ugh. Thank you for listening.",0.6885994397759134,2.282708882352946,2.4773716153127943,96.76602941176472,81.09150326797385,6.462931839402429,20.73249299719888,7.447530270364453,0.3289238095238089,541,15,136,8,14,179,95,153,0.125,0.813,0.062,-0.8954,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,1,1,3,7,2,0,8,0,6,8,4,2,1,24,23,13,0,3,9,2,1,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,6,4,1,3,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,3,18,4,19,17,2,21,1,0,0,0,10,14,2,5,5,72,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048503560877409,0.0,0.0,0.1937864909918733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920102619150696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092656693934497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35200040607833394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14426647494743336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938656896301366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148121596339622,0.0,0.0,0.1873597682500149,0.0,0.1732731483016702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018839515801293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361256188695156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531135909609276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324149535308973,0.0,0.0,0.121743359057955,0.0,0.0,0.14380073373961014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586470450383969,0.0,0.0,0.15835562762431096,0.19669840169624586,0.0,0.0,0.1102114459561372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287091010135137,0.0,0.11677754776157186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14855384165100086,0.0,0.0,0.10145078450088713,0.1365265739401881,0.0,0.20945116620721446,0.0,0.0,0.15520436104715524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18652800172363895,0.12521894723398588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilikequirks,2019/05/21,"A hectic day. Okay so let me preface this by saying I have never done drugs nor have any real interest to do some. More power to people who smoke weed or something chill, it’s just not my thing and I’ve never really been in a crowd that does it.

Just recently, I got offered a summer job and they said I had to take a drug test, which is no problem except that I have paruresis, also known as the inability to pee on command or if someone’s expecting me to. I went last week but I didn’t know I’d have to pee (never took a drug test; didn’t think about it) and I had gone to the bathroom an hour beforehand so I ‘failed’ they gave me a “shot bladder” and I had to ask my employer for another form.

It’s pretty bad. Like once, I wanted to pee but physically couldn’t for about 40 hours just because I was always near people. Anyway, I’ve been restricting to about 600-1000 calories for a couple weeks which has been no problem, except today.

To make sure I could pee for my drug test, I didn’t go to the bathroom for a good 20 hours, and drank lots of water (omg so bloated) but ya know what? Whatever. bUT THEN I STILL DIDNT HAVE TO GO. Like, my lower stomach was completely flat. So, I looked online and asked friends and they told me to try dairy products, cereal, coffee, and eat lots of food and fruit juices to help. Guys. I was freaking out. I was crying and having a panic attack. I ate so so so much food in fear of failing the drug test because I knew I wouldn’t be able to pee unless I was going to burst. Afterward, I couldn’t even suck in my stomach and I felt like such a marshmallow. But I did it! I couldn’t for the first hour after getting there, but the nice ladies allowed me to stay after hours and walk around/do jumping jacks, and I finally went!

But. I just got home and tallied my calories 😓😭 I consumed sO much and my stomach hurts so much. My beautiful, amazing mom (who doesn’t know anything about my ed) decided to take off work this afternoon because she knew this was a big deal to me and is buying my family pizza. I’m dead. It’s so nice of her but I am so devastated by how much I ate and can’t comprehend subjecting myself to more food and I’m scared to purge. 

Sorry for the long rant, and I apologize if there’s formatting errors! I’m on my mobile whilst laying in the fetal position in my bed.",2.0296831996831983,3.753758164241166,3.742956637956638,88.62538634788635,77.54469854469855,6.743114543114544,22.678992178992186,7.62386473244151,0.92451584991585,1811,54,385,26,42,606,239,481,0.159,0.74,0.10099999999999999,-0.9853,5,0,7,0,0,0,55.0,0,1,3,5,27,23,2,3,20,1,38,24,9,3,4,70,72,48,1,11,20,1,1,3,1,1,5,2,2,1,17,20,10,1,9,0,1,9,17,12,0,1,33,5,56,11,55,32,10,46,0,3,1,0,22,11,1,7,28,259,73,9,0.07655478317959805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612208324502432,0.06369971228124183,0.0,0.0,0.052059877737500634,0.08027436509831755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299806366654555,0.06814998758639769,0.14313677627365956,0.08709211767412706,0.0,0.0,0.06392004625953471,0.14000125581142514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802662336481074,0.0,0.0,0.061122765049506825,0.08470641149297774,0.08409183458710792,0.049371501931644086,0.07892461994891656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669936066540463,0.07834212244573874,0.0,0.0,0.443896219766226,0.07833465511530142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050563712284768816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216903638049972,0.08614541457367356,0.0,0.0,0.07350459724557426,0.08386202300501035,0.0,0.06511745946453698,0.2777110430894233,0.0,0.059146035582207004,0.0,0.039996714529186565,0.0,0.13052354245990874,0.06421052001396006,0.12245570704252025,0.0,0.0,0.07580127127366806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051313057459712735,0.0,0.07679068942462595,0.0,0.3769552032257899,0.0,0.08195347873744589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596880970892272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621752026489688,0.062402365922173485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828245254638737,0.0,0.11220240039026716,0.0,0.0,0.06774857407540814,0.06428673705603515,0.0,0.0,0.13016827806868192,0.0,0.0,0.0511009122300154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966003681577647,0.0,0.0,0.22510629657301115,0.0,0.17713130472236185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152834560843315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982054341177143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614689502118514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07788373643500335,0.0,0.1465051771071482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713610323334824,0.0490429544021073,0.0,0.0755886127519951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282112967274859,0.060879436268421724,0.07664469305268243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486461935841209,0.0589356122199653,0.0,0.0856968121371473,0.0,0.08159721293143506,0.061136748737071825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215197715812664,0.0,0.11511933918147685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050859596269220514,0.049053213914823854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256498313841428,0.07315137601126556,0.08505518092831017,0.0519756725910006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04515399458536542,0.0,0.1228152587066738,0.0,0.0,0.1419341019540803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055732793917814535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,feelsbarelyhuman,2019/05/21,"I just got caught cheating on a test for the first time I have never, ever cheated in my life. I'm just so tired, dizzy from restricting so much for the past few months and I've been battling a cold for a literal month with no end in sight. I didn't even intend to cheat at first, I was just reviewing a note sheet I made a month ago. In my state of haziness, I put the note sheet on the empty desk next to me instead of putting it back in my bag. I could barely think, until I thought 'hey, the note sheet is next to me, I can just take a quick glance...""  Yeah, my teacher caught me real quick. She stood in front of me and said ""you're done"" and grabbed my paper. Since it was the end of class I just left. Everyone saw me cheat, all my friends, everyone. 

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I'm so embarrassed, even with my health severely deteriorating I have never let my ED affect my academics, I have always been a perfect straight-A student. One part of me wants to restrict even harder as a punishment, less food more exercise no excuse. Another part of is realizing how sick I really am, I used to be such a moral person - I have even broken friendships over others cheating on assignments. I need help, but every day is so much worse. I can't do this anymore. I want to die. If I don't have this perfect person persona anymore what do i have?",3.3542910447761187,4.567185100746272,4.386000000000003,87.48400000000002,72.99253731343283,7.44955223880597,26.459701492537324,7.908726449838941,1.398017313432836,1029,35,219,14,20,335,152,268,0.161,0.7659999999999999,0.073,-0.9605,0,0,0,0,0,1,42.0,0,0,0,4,20,11,7,1,15,1,24,6,0,5,6,33,40,12,1,5,7,0,1,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,6,5,1,2,3,1,0,5,7,8,0,3,14,6,36,3,30,23,8,37,1,0,3,0,8,11,0,1,20,151,42,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909771644007824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09302070070909074,0.12112762863298444,0.13584068631504514,0.0,0.11722466904488354,0.0,0.0,0.22173715913166706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859618879288927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08925758422705711,0.0,0.0,0.07209721269171529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11602344569344232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440301476975424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980307665013036,0.0,0.0,0.2953527906949197,0.10112313524222036,0.09419039286331822,0.21364593373229088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19018207432534284,0.13518049453020772,0.0,0.08637096584880291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08941104494028262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883069192480747,0.0,0.0,0.07493246656051084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146338133018958,0.11431587880555395,0.07896267583136822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057812045694378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26769622934184883,0.0,0.1643613816401501,0.08289306549248313,0.17244324966536942,0.0,0.2377861686888255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575380490907606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421217694268285,0.10671903275845868,0.0,0.19522660635771705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22476561034555995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12724486641382526,0.07161743467829478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634070808168143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12629422751426433,0.0,0.09247629417606744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840543953208865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07163241664646464,0.0,0.08875112517490061,0.06518737570233271,0.12848956548407425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655322627572203,0.0,0.0,0.13187677198919046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392657997033033,0.0,0.0,0.13584068631504514,0.0
EDAnonymous,blooivey,2019/05/21,"""aNorExiA iS a priViLEgED diSeAsE"" Thanks, I hate it",4.526666666666664,7.697708333333335,4.964444444444447,75.50000000000003,76.77777777777777,8.044444444444443,42.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,4.923133333333333,41,3,6,1,1,13,9,9,0.27399999999999997,0.29600000000000004,0.43,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7313536804122537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6819983828041318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,esberanza,2019/05/21,"Roommate told me I'm not 'skinny enough' to have a problem. No, I don't have a problem!
I just count every calorie and make damned sure it stays under 500.
But I don't have a problem.
I'm only 2kg underweight, and it's totally normal.
I don't have a problem.
I only purge whenever I eat something I hadn't planned for, and if other stuff comes up, that's just a bonus.
I absolutely don't have a problem.
Sitting on the bathroom floor, post-purge, wondering if my roommates will judge me for eating breakfast tomorrow.
I probably won't.
But I don't have a problem, because if I did, I'd be skinny.",2.0052993348115287,3.829687756097563,4.216437546193646,84.74886917960093,77.9430894308943,6.749150036954916,29.067997043606802,7.686295010490155,1.9432178861788625,466,22,93,7,11,161,70,123,0.19699999999999998,0.7490000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.9259,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,2,9,1,0,8,0,16,5,2,1,2,23,22,8,0,10,8,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,5,0,1,0,1,1,9,7,0,0,3,0,14,2,6,16,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,4,1,63,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465220998101941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1196218726538728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841918082167693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348703030012974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700167962469732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09269499321085137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606045814124612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112296605861365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299647565343214,0.0,0.1497224239363137,0.7972634423534781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690682291574044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801405236482382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589698213074284,0.0,0.0,0.13088077572309192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269364492373667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505956503956557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cerrcrow,2019/05/21,"Jesus Christ I am... FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT F A T F A T FATFAT FAT
FUCK ME
I thughg i didnt look that bad
Bought a white tshit
I look like white ass dough fuck ME",-4.2781666666666665,-3.159885177777776,-1.0718055555555548,112.765625,111.88888888888887,2.25,5.625,3.1291,-3.059166666666667,137,0,43,0,8,47,23,45,0.252,0.628,0.12,-0.7835,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,3,0,2,15,13,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,12,0,0,0,1,0,12,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,1,12,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.311707300554937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6902581859409788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823857010335909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6269909501585401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollowbatbaby,2019/05/21,Maybe relatable ed thing? So I just got back into running recently which like I was a runner for years but stopped a while back but for some reason after I run recently I feel worse mentally and about my body(like I feel 2x bigger after I run) which I used to feel calm and better after I ran even when I had an ed but I ran 3.5 miles Sunday and felt worse after and got in 4 today and I feel worse than I did Sunday idk is this an ed thing maybe?,1.8601315789473682,3.3702445263157905,3.573881578947372,90.59029605263159,77.42105263157895,6.434210526315789,19.24342105263158,7.1686216300943375,0.2304999999999997,350,7,77,4,8,117,56,95,0.172,0.74,0.08800000000000001,-0.8485,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,4,0,0,2,0,19,14,11,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,6,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,5,13,3,11,6,1,25,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,16,53,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25893968291941794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489138431976845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120997894318356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405414671941221,0.0,0.1616662294467226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693294456897212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225943086418379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383102704788172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696822138071175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17311735512201615,0.33249963867965504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407688867111459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372149411437112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15959963938934152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454217816700546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147649709254887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842786205079258
EDAnonymous,kitty2k,2019/05/21,feeling invalid does anyone else put their ed on “pause” while on vacation? I find myself doing this just to avoid purging and restricting around family members but it makes me feel like i don’t actually have an ed. I still worry about what i’m eating but not to the point where I’ll avoid or purge.,7.482824858757062,6.513137508474583,7.48,76.46316384180791,63.745762711864394,10.578531073446328,31.53107344632768,9.725611199111238,2.7144531073446334,239,7,46,4,3,77,50,59,0.163,0.764,0.073,-0.6757,0,2,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,14,7,5,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,3,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,6,1,6,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,3,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2674945805360099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19166606396688904,0.280860987183056,0.0,0.2440185337275758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23987798448411216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804858571259146,0.2289860958241735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584091804239239,0.0,0.2771993657304777,0.1958262603079152,0.0,0.0,0.25053416037305776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391768261751008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297244234566448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591252251629086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27555910431994635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21890685988428746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783748843136029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Caketryahaim,2019/05/21,"Thoroughly bamboozled by my therapist Someone please help me understand what happened today. I don't know what to make of this interaction and I'm low-key freaking out.

I was talking to my therapist, probably lamenting the fact that I'm no longer able to restrict as effortlessly as I used to when I was at my LW. 

She then says: ""you *are* thin""
Me, thinking I must have misheard her because there's no plausible way she'd lie to me so boldly: ""...what?""
Her: ""you're slim"" 

Cue me breaking down like the pathetic human I am. She asked me why I was crying. Gee, I dunno, maybe it's because I'm *not* slim?? 

I've been binging since fucking *January* and it definitely shows. I'm almost at my HW. I'm not slim, by any objective standpoint, I promise - my BMI is like 25. 

*Why* did she say this? 

She's actually really small herself so I don't know why she'd do this. Did she think it would help me somehow? I'm genuinely going to lose sleep over this comment. 

Someone halp.",0.7839062500000011,3.2842293281250012,3.0156166666666664,87.12105000000004,89.05208333333334,6.405333333333335,25.388333333333332,7.699297019823105,1.763679333333334,749,34,150,16,25,254,115,192,0.133,0.76,0.107,-0.7279,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,0,1,5,7,1,0,2,0,17,2,1,2,2,19,34,8,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,11,3,0,1,5,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,6,3,32,4,16,24,0,13,0,1,0,1,20,7,1,3,5,88,43,0,0.15016495240640185,0.0,0.14653933199384447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15036850855257752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211731701198618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038395972146184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830783224124906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649491490154904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13882507877391234,0.0,0.0,0.08534220300524438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13279037148561004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20130480451333133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650534613795664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467260212420775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679961710355263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023627178123856,0.0,0.15086087823366212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16483602405334707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16190321674967534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619951370490508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388343946668629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421800039237672,0.0,0.15027339973914378,0.0,0.2544685537405101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206969005969656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487061674130562,0.0,0.19243927621399468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233881655425182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632701130654672,0.0,0.12969430497039522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919394961700525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40650153864767735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10667287374654376,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,peachiiz,2019/05/21,"Being called fat phobic, larger body-positive influencers and some discussion Title says it all. Couple of months ago I got into an argument with someone on twitter or something. I think it was about larger (and by larger I mean people that would objectively be unhealthy) body positive influencers. I was talking about how anyone in any position of influence, regardless of their weight, has a responsibility to be mindful of what they’re promoting and what they’re positive about. That includes people that are underweight. 

I’m not out here screaming or ranting at or about these people losing weight, that’s totally their choice to make. I’ve never done it and never will. (To reiterate, this was a discussion). It’s just the viewpoint I hold, based in medical fact. Carrying excess(ive) weight puts a strain on your heart and lungs and is undeniably not good for you. So does being underweight. I still won’t rain on anyone’s parade, and I’m certainly NOT going to body shame anyone for it. Everyone, over or under weight and everywhere in between deserves to feel love for their body. 

I know I’m preaching to the converted when I say that gaining weight isn’t always bad and losing isn’t always good. But in the sense of someone who’s unhealthy (whatever that ‘looks’ like) being encouraged (key word: encouraged, not shamed) to do something (not by the public, but from family or friends or, ya know, A DOCTOR) that betters their health, I don’t think that’s a bad thing either. It’s not for me or anyone else as a stranger on the internet to tell an influencer to do. But a lot of them (being larger bo-po peeps) have such a chip on their shoulder about people saying this at all. I’ve literally seen someone go off on a rant about their doctor for saying this, and I don’t think that’s an isolated incident.

I think the REAL proof of self love and body positivity and celebration comes in the form of eating nutritious food (and treating yourself. everything in moderation INCLUDING moderation is the motto I try to live by) and moving your body in what ever way sets your soul on fire. Walking, dancing or going to a hardout HIIT class. That’s really taking care or and celebrating your body and what you can do with it. Sometimes weight loss or gain is a side effect of this, but it shouldn’t necessarily be the goal. Nor IS IT for a lot of people.

I said bits and pieces of this I guess, or at least tried to communicate my viewpoint from the perspective of someone with an eating disorder, in recovery and trying to find my way on my self love journey and this person just turned around and was like ‘having an eating disorder is inherently fatphobic and you all project that on larger body positive people because you’re jealous they can love their body and you can’t.’

I was stumped lol. I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t scared they were right at the time, but I KNOW IN MY HEART that I’m not, because as I said earlier, EVERYONE should be free to love their body as it is. I’m never going to tell someone to change their body. But I also hold the beliefs above, I don’t project them onto anyone.

I’m curious what you guys think about the body-positivity movement and specifically about the comment of eating disorder sufferers (particularly Anorexia) being inherently fatphobic. Because I know in my heart that weightloss is a very small part of why I resort to those behaviours, and much bigger part of it is insecurity and sense of worthiness and control. And that also that everyone else is completely different to me. Have at it, I’m curious to see what y’all think!",6.245743434343432,7.244666365925922,6.860510101010102,73.1999772727273,66.08148148148149,10.225252525252527,32.081649831649834,10.283004575951383,3.407362962962964,2867,113,502,69,44,942,280,675,0.09300000000000001,0.785,0.121,0.98,3,0,2,0,0,0,79.0,0,11,13,10,20,30,1,5,32,1,47,36,16,8,11,108,88,54,0,5,28,0,8,2,1,5,5,8,0,4,44,34,12,3,15,1,1,11,19,13,0,0,13,19,54,18,92,60,15,58,3,4,3,5,52,35,0,16,11,350,98,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042312502065547035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634426574040766,0.0794355053231119,0.0,0.0,0.03246013637298305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668804233311915,0.04890818903279792,0.0,0.042492567923917215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971026858779152,0.08729294138841602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042216036951925606,0.05211216884598666,0.5302069961646144,0.0,0.0,0.04874081927017857,0.0,0.048667064003243665,0.0,0.05049527744894888,0.04111782835001554,0.05004723413874797,0.0,0.05353671651688937,0.0,0.05281575347894935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987091702250559,0.16411876120762173,0.0977136754680691,0.041771546584748666,0.048847521140177465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19537146057810584,0.07974973934811189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043177310462025636,0.0,0.13683303213867898,0.04289942124488802,0.0,0.044998506808446144,0.0,0.02413528328532448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04362717726514505,0.0,0.05771903893960775,0.0,0.03687846503597878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851125466196404,0.0800724983159888,0.03817651061622627,0.0,0.05258337741489689,0.0472632612622589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05073803996844985,0.0,0.16969181572652356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10493142636296944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0466399509734868,0.0,0.04214919081951588,0.0,0.040083771658761265,0.10680223064051113,0.0,0.08116192817145572,0.2154048757012421,0.0,0.03186220659475895,0.0,0.0,0.051995325778736216,0.0,0.04808606393358891,0.0,0.0,0.048196811254284114,0.0,0.03810009508414591,0.050732717954208,0.035089311590495845,0.0,0.11044409931586448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338056452775406,0.0,0.19855267651585948,0.04167869089978254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04798493695745819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05433070373746532,0.030579038161660133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04076379596063195,0.1362152910883259,0.15183706835022415,0.047789147744451484,0.0,0.03803709075562305,0.0,0.0995920410335628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20222045091733035,0.07349452565107638,0.04720924412126027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0381197053787285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03588934138339978,0.03836604767743772,0.0834416448836773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03171174237285132,0.1835126107560547,0.0,0.0,0.02783354721115474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722289949786553,0.05191989235592407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03938479624410319,0.0,0.07577660621358327,0.0,0.34875624762135604,0.0,0.0,0.04307168710925642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03390821586807245,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tessthegoddess,2019/05/21,My husband cheated on me and my fucking ED is telling me it wouldn't have happened if I wasn't so fucking FAT. And yet I can't stop binging. FML.,0.6827083333333306,2.3723576875000028,2.5825,95.54583333333336,81.5,4.266666666666667,32.541666666666664,3.1291,1.0887791666666664,114,7,26,0,3,38,25,32,0.109,0.828,0.063,-0.3425,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,5,3,1,0,0,5,8,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,1,6,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,1,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7769330149667844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3715799212507329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513045489247763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3672717880299016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mooseca_,2019/05/21,"I feel bad for thinking my roommate fakes mental illness for attention I absolutely believe that everyone's feeling are valid and many people go through tough situations that we can't understand, but I can't stand people exaggerating mental illness.

I have suffered with anorexia on and off for many years because of bullying and life situations. My weight dropped to a point that I was told told I wouldn't be able to go to college but would instead be hospitalized. My parents were so angry and sad. I showed my dad the numerous deep cuts hidden beneath my clothes and cried as I told him I was sick and didn't know how to get better. 

I was lucky enough t rex have an incredible family who helped me to feel worthy enough of eating again and my dad helped me to throw away my blades after 2 years of scars. I had a long way to go but was recovering when I went to college. 

My dad passed away unexpectedly while I was at school and I really lost track of my recovery.

 During this time, my college roommate was oblivious to what I was going through. She would always tell me about how she hadn't eaten at all that day or how she just no longer had an appetite cause she hated school so much, almost like she was bragging. Skipping a meal every now and then and instead eating a snack does not equal a life changing disease that is anorexia.  One day she was showing me her hw and I saw 2 small cuts clearly on her wrist. I told the school counselors to check on her, but I was honestly frustrated that she would cut herself in a place so obvious. At one point, her friend reported her to campus security. After that, it was my responsibility to keep an eye on my roommate and make sure she wasn't self harming. This threw me back deeper into my relapse as I was reminded of the sweet release. 

Alrhough I have been there and supported her through all of it, I feel bad for thinking she's exaggerating what she's going through for attention. However, I am absolutely shattered and I feel like she's taking away from the problems I face every day and night. She doesn't seem to notice when I'm crying alone at night, that my bones protrude through my skin, when I hide in the bathroom of our shared room and wreak havoc to my body. All I want to do is slip away from life and have my daddy cradle my broken body and heart, yet here I am listening to my roommate saying how people dont care about her and how sad she is. 

Am I valid or am I just a piece of shit? 

Tldr: I feel awful for invalidating someone's feelings, but I can't help feeling like it's for attention. At the same time, she undermines my struggles as well as many other sufferers.",5.278306698401907,6.074878624277459,5.914680380822853,79.84536977218634,68.15221579961465,8.72630624504137,30.871642298537914,8.841846274778883,2.4047732743964643,2102,81,407,34,34,684,242,519,0.21,0.6829999999999999,0.107,-0.9969,3,1,0,0,0,0,37.0,2,0,0,2,24,32,6,1,16,1,43,21,9,7,6,71,80,43,0,6,10,4,10,3,1,4,6,2,1,1,17,22,6,2,16,2,1,9,11,18,1,2,28,15,81,14,65,46,9,57,0,5,2,0,43,24,1,5,24,285,98,8,0.0737511352965318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385110867005516,0.07638393398855653,0.0,0.0,0.06136685264698154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771664774000303,0.05671007065713452,0.1231582347712494,0.044958007543476695,0.0,0.0,0.08309227406481985,0.0,0.06522688584734382,0.0,0.16384177062226535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07519419769032004,0.07576273163474648,0.07801892209217212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16202431807344406,0.14269014296120625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454011549812534,0.0,0.0864357812977408,0.0,0.0,0.15093164679892665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1524092753649482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427702469542168,0.07047237031130525,0.0,0.0,0.0695260066746166,0.0,0.2983263198367762,0.10537565158403188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05697994418249928,0.0,0.03853192422658345,0.0,0.2095723489229944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281397736062394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08739545042426179,0.1483014941461632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06555339771153255,0.0,0.0,0.04053169520015888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15627782382039346,0.10809323817644276,0.0,0.0,0.06526743392454823,0.0,0.0,0.08050807628704866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04922945549738608,0.2243162264768184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486475958535135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421557035733912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842088887375031,0.0,0.0,0.08396615635433491,0.0,0.0,0.0999513559426271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189190788837414,0.0,0.0,0.15338925324199354,0.0,0.07705423925589377,0.0,0.1394373226576742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07056987617039692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04724686577670804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058649862941621216,0.0,0.22392025891586173,0.0,0.06714026367503602,0.07693851863922857,0.0,0.07570448054959761,0.0,0.16579873224947755,0.0,0.0,0.062489097605271327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710069970017781,0.0,0.0,0.08369191434400994,0.0695095722081465,0.0,0.055451675300956745,0.0,0.06446174296204235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451349911538956,0.0,0.0,0.08600976016465396,0.0,0.0,0.281889481245221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677753281717196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04350033042392106,0.05854021836560702,0.0,0.08980901411964702,0.06631112778686378,0.06836804130089155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571720714736325,0.0,0.0,0.09498662621002804
EDAnonymous,InSkyLimitEra,2018/12/07,"Unusual behaviors part two (electric boogaloo?) - help me decide which are the most common! First of all, **thank you so much** for all your candid and detailed responses on [my other thread.](https://reddit.com/r/EDAnonymous/comments/a3u7sk/what_are_your_more_unusual_eating_behaviors/) I was touched that so many people chimed in. You’re all super-important to my getting a school research project (on future EDO patients near where I live) off the ground, and it’s greatly appreciated. <3 I’m hoping I can help shorten the time it takes for an eating disorder diagnosis to be made so we can treat people sooner.

I would like help with one more thing, if I may be so bold as to ask another favor. Based on the responses on the other thread, I would like to find the **most common** behaviors that would be worth asking about in a future survey. I’ll give you a template to copy/paste so all you have to do is type Y for yes, N for no, or X for preferring not to answer. (You can write in stuff if you feel like it, but that’s not necessary.)

Which of the following have been a problem for you **in the past month**?
1) Chewing and spitting out food to avoid calories
2) Eating ice, sand, dirt, or anything else not regarded as food
3) Chewing on the inside of your mouth
4) Avoiding “impure,” “unnatural,” etc. foods (orthorexic tendencies)
5) Wearing restrictive clothing e.g. tight belts, corsets, or too small clothing
6) Appetite suppression via caffeine, Adderall, drinking water, etc.
7) Avoiding foods because of a tactile sensory experience (e.g. lumpy, greasy, grainy, cold,...)
8) Collecting recipes, looking at “food porn,” or other food-related fixations outside of the basics of an eating disorder
9) Bringing food back up and chewing on it a second time
10) Making sure to eat at or below “one serving” of a food
11) Eating in secret
12) Eating only in front of people
13) Taking in extra electrolytes via table salt, Powerade Zero, etc.
14) “Ruining” food, e.g. by pouring water or dish soap on it, or making it extremely spicy
15) Eating food out of the trash
16) Tongue burning (temperature-wise) to make eating uncomfortable
17) Tendency to eat the same thing(s) over and over again
18) Unusual food combinations (peanut butter in soup, jelly on spaghetti, etc.)
19) Doing micro-movements frequently to burn calories
20) Eating foods in a specific pattern, e.g. nibbling around the edges, eating only the middle, etc.

Copy and paste the following and please comment below (**or PM me if not comfortable posting!**). Y = yes, N = no, X = prefer not to answer
1) C/s: 
2) Non-foods: 
3) Chewing mouth: 
4) Orthorexia: 
5) Restrictive clothes: 
6) Appetite suppression: 
7) Tactile: 
8) Food fixations beyond norm: 
9) Rumination: 
10) <=1 serving: 
11) In secret: 
12) With others: 
13) Electrolytes: 
14) Ruining food: 
15) Trash: 
16) Burns: 
17) Repeated foods: 
18) Food combos: 
19) Micro-movements: 
20) Bite/consumption patterns: 

Once again, I am **so grateful** for your help. I know it sounds like a cheesy ad, but... together, we really can make a difference. I just need direction from the experts (those of us who have lived it!), and I can do the rest. Every response matters and helps! Thank you very much again. :)",2.5181750024858296,5.4723301097345125,3.4684975638858546,81.50225713433431,92.15044247787613,6.149945311723179,25.81734115541414,7.4535912281125585,2.1315886447250683,2492,110,402,51,89,794,306,565,0.064,0.8290000000000001,0.107,0.9617,1,3,1,0,0,0,210.0,3,10,0,1,16,19,0,3,29,2,23,39,4,5,5,75,45,30,0,11,19,0,4,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,21,16,34,8,10,1,1,4,7,6,0,6,3,9,27,13,68,35,18,56,0,2,1,1,26,35,0,15,20,234,48,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04031812088516458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031641029403698305,0.03422860379481763,0.07189101828268607,0.0,0.0,0.029565635094325207,0.0,0.023438730197228697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040172009907802425,0.08813393850786931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037666309024842456,0.0,0.4327828316829444,0.03211999608701052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21440926782644867,0.0,0.0,0.032395737830834666,0.0,0.0,0.03761142514636038,0.0,0.0,0.019441447985168028,0.027468649099349048,0.0,0.0,0.035142554057186394,0.0327055044186333,0.7903950643773916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020088509817824275,0.03688469179257015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04239120119641635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12886094154181327,0.0,0.0,0.038189472077106455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02113108476424636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513880571960646,0.0,0.06790401349320836,0.0,0.03228827076693177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036382268578433366,0.1026625500735416,0.038982210278233086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030690380056934162,0.0,0.056530268823219834,0.028510147755573218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040947937610996785,0.052109356993208934,0.058485833095683414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04163754458945471,0.11011447245432446,0.07996905375347615,0.0,0.0,0.04220649439714015,0.0,0.0,0.03682441971357913,0.0,0.0,0.036791405535714715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024632019969613176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03891339808855333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04401598909186094,0.0,0.0,0.036238619061042615,0.0,0.05781914846233178,0.0,0.0,0.07079908871254671,0.0,0.0,0.05108887122412322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0448409454284231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037560010238519466,0.0,0.04625055081139659,0.0,0.0,0.03172523224750205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194121534962337,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vhenah,2018/12/07,"Skinnytaste? (I’m sorry if this isn’t allowed, please remove if I’m breaking a rule - I read them and assumed this was ok but I’m p dumb so) 

How accurate are the calorie counts for recipes on Skinnytaste? I mean most of them make some sense, but I’m just a little anxious l m a o. I am speaking in general technically about people’s experiences making the recipes on there, but I’m also talking about this(https://www.skinnytaste.com/chicken-and-mushrooms-in-garlic-white/) recipe in particular.

Also curious if anyone has some holy grail recipes from Skinnytaste - I’m trying to cook more at least as much as my ED allows lmaooo...",2.920256410256407,5.935564444444445,3.790461538461543,81.7795384615385,84.04273504273505,6.538803418803417,26.603418803418805,7.793537801064563,2.0902711111111114,508,22,87,10,15,162,83,117,0.078,0.861,0.061,-0.4254,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,2,0,8,2,1,0,5,1,5,1,0,5,0,19,14,13,0,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,6,1,13,13,6,8,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,7,0,50,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4151825908863797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29325894871742325,0.0,0.18150897347667636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539254874711939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601739505094959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34655211775433803,0.0,0.0,0.2827658876725717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908260058207712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799646506165122,0.0,0.0,0.28494811410466137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25965682932019624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2905859253279626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208645861248464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624224913090095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BooferDoofer,2018/12/07,"Kind of a safety question about medication If I’ve got a really bad headache, and I’ve been restricting <1000 or so for a while, is taking aspirin going to be okay for me before bed? I ate dinner and a digestive tonight and drank a bunch of water but my head is still super unhappy, so I was just wondering if it’s going to mess with my blood pressure or anything?

Any advice would be super appreciated xx",4.218148148148149,5.59954038271605,5.991049382716053,76.15472222222226,71.09876543209877,8.85679012345679,29.549382716049386,9.2995712137729,2.713804938271604,325,13,60,7,6,112,60,81,0.149,0.65,0.201,0.7854,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,5,1,7,9,2,0,0,14,14,11,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,4,5,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,5,0,5,4,8,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,3,40,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694835844408666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18753607129204114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269388610284707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302601326257777,0.0,0.0,0.23466373091616835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134579312367318,0.0,0.22056200671309828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830241294008402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871766348765708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277813728518678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30893047914076954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666816352318765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202338185950099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20734805322332456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990656090680787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19590224499837394,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,chanchali,2018/12/07,"I did something I regret... I chopped off my hair. Why? Um yes well ya see... ya girl ova hereee thought short hair would be great motivation to become super skinny. Can’t rock short hair and look chubby af; no thank u.

Well...I regret it, because I accidentally put on 10 lbs by eating everything. 

Sooo, guess who’s fasting from the 7th to the 25th? 🤦🏼‍♀️

If you want an accountability partner; I gotchu  😘",-0.4714814814814829,1.5135665432098762,1.812296296296296,91.68733333333334,105.79012345679013,4.135308641975309,17.74567901234568,6.079149491110277,-0.07977432098765425,314,10,66,4,15,105,68,81,0.086,0.688,0.226,0.8992,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,0,2,2,6,0,0,3,1,4,5,4,1,0,9,10,2,0,5,1,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,0,2,1,1,1,2,2,2,0,2,5,9,4,6,6,0,6,0,2,2,0,6,4,0,2,1,29,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637264706158244,0.28330697615628475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624847321412992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230544278292468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28281499413255384,0.2825864882208042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21541279439545774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578741702974611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20441379818486904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748217904797172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361698099335972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20364879424621204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130256406189466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4612858597722842,0.0,0.2314700462451061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182224956156524,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDDystopia,2018/12/07,"Frustrated as fuck. I have a mix up of bulimia and BED. I was doing really well losing weight properly without engaging in too many ED behaviors. Then my head doctor fucked up my prescription so I went two weeks without my medicine, which helps me refrain from a lot of ED behavior as a coping mechanism. The weather also turned shitty which also makes my chronic pain horrible and I haven't been able to get out for my daily walks, which some of you may know, really helps keep you above water - mentally and emotionally. So, those two whoppers have thrown me back into the deep end after two months of amazing progress. I am back on my medicine but rebreaking those habits is so hard and I am struggling so much. Also, my pain is still horrible and I tend to comfort binge when I hurt. Then I want to purge from the shame, disgust, and guilt. Somebody save me from myself. Fuck.",4.246523235800346,6.356752481927714,4.743924268502583,82.1698795180723,72.3734939759036,8.357314974182444,28.122203098106713,9.04235418022936,2.463839586919105,696,27,127,15,14,221,107,166,0.26899999999999996,0.638,0.09300000000000001,-0.9894,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,2,13,17,5,3,6,0,11,10,1,1,0,20,22,19,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,5,8,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,12,1,3,3,2,22,5,22,18,3,19,0,2,0,3,4,7,3,3,10,94,27,1,0.13216783888245764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170837190101292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032578197335876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352793835270556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867102943799185,0.11706147575691285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665611119679492,0.06905224078970394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839642322945924,0.0,0.13564233311584228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717863284887467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148840508393348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174768479441012,0.0,0.0,0.07263598776220326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786200448558626,0.0,0.1123643702512203,0.0,0.0,0.08822305875412899,0.133997444064219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319409538605256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549510804124317,0.0,0.0971585690050565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812717981928807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693402038780738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554940685968817,0.0,0.0,0.1381705219143529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376065575377314,0.3873263215501512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795601572350082,0.0,0.10601706811036288,0.16094482153573114,0.11883475987467836,0.12252091077695412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25481016052471994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PaleElvira,2018/12/07,"Guilt I feel bad about looking at reverse thinspi because I dont want to make those people feel bad and I definitely dont place myself above them, I think it's just that I imagine myself looking like that and get motivated. But I still feel guilty. Does anyone else?",3.1534615384615385,5.552113576923084,3.896769230769234,85.64823076923078,76.69230769230771,5.6984615384615385,25.784615384615392,6.742157984588678,1.0881107692307692,214,8,40,2,5,68,38,52,0.233,0.621,0.146,-0.6023,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,12,11,3,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,9,1,3,11,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,23,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536690722957963,0.2251814768417101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669993993850693,0.1339704307767254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923231821895552,0.0,0.5151402158462143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359056468137164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333368634680246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482133593886415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736906485120262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691047686698361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669892462450565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15236161814242294,0.0,0.22961403741707395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550949490680628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14082045538227622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12962669664990953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hhhhhhhlnhhh,2019/09/08,"Is it weird for a guy to want to be skinny Rather than muscular . I always wanted to be skinny , a bit below average or whatever. Is this normal",1.4312643678160877,3.6440794827586234,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,81.75862068965517,8.004597701149425,20.011494252873558,8.841846274778883,1.829542528735632,111,3,20,3,3,41,23,29,0.063,0.889,0.048,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,3,0,0,5,6,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3643231771088564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4780147326507687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335366517416028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4289963873171093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165061560675458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,datfishd00d,2019/09/08,"I lurked on the female side of Tinder, got REALLY triggered I ended up b/p. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. THEM. IS . SO. MUCH. MORE. ATTRACTIVE. THAN. ME.

Not even exagerating. At least 80% of the women I saw were a lot more attractive than I was, and I only saw a couple of other overweight/chubby women (I'm medically obese I atm).

I already felt incredibly disgusting and hideous, but this really hit me hard. I can see why no one likes me back.

This really doesn't help the voice in my head that says I'll be a lot more likable is I starve myself and lose all the weight.

How was your day?",-0.6378813559322047,1.4580756355932252,2.211000000000002,89.71938135593224,101.96610169491524,5.41084745762712,15.222033898305087,6.961326702584282,0.21919186440677985,447,11,93,9,20,155,83,118,0.153,0.7709999999999999,0.076,-0.8464,0,0,0,0,1,0,27.0,0,1,1,1,4,5,1,0,7,0,8,4,1,2,1,11,15,6,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,7,8,16,3,10,6,9,8,0,1,3,0,6,5,0,2,4,66,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22134204554515127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423156790596854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22193497475302887,0.0,0.1293557694346067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17765195918208254,0.0,0.0,0.1324794193444246,0.0,0.16899503167037816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258566909401495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16041999520366326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796778693491089,0.0,0.205850183164422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344427406509383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09799194047197382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243947004392952,0.0,0.3410473067816488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020605346343699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744739909924265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2718327479181077,0.15254808005740075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854848761223212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950712482172502,0.0,0.0,0.15983414455863976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24424912364343584,0.0,0.0,0.1809898214360065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ProfJonathanCrane,2019/09/08,"Strange request from any of you Strange request for all of you, okay? 
So I’m in early stages of forming this story idea I’ve had for a while, and I wanted some input from you guys. 

If you feel you could with some accuracy describe your ED as a seperate entity on its own or even it as its own person, I’d like you to DM me and tell me that description. 

It can be their appearance, personality, candor, mannerisms, voice, gait, backstory, likes and dislikes, anything. I just want a description as vividly as you can give. 

Don’t comment it please, just DM.",4.24722222222222,5.635835759259264,5.189814814814816,81.8991666666667,71.03703703703705,8.362962962962964,30.16666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.4035888888888888,434,18,85,8,8,142,75,108,0.057999999999999996,0.8420000000000001,0.1,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,8,1,0,4,3,0,0,3,1,6,0,0,0,1,17,12,11,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,13,3,15,9,6,6,0,0,1,0,17,2,0,5,4,60,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885432211159652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281576208774516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22136592529196414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831246172690092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018869178100132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659687021815806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745264966369205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31298766805251754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709060272633651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4841775489693978,0.0,0.30434323815341585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423334936244636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3270649089229449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,edanonycount,2019/09/08,"God I can’t do this anymore. Just starting off damn I can’t do it anymore, I’m sure everyone hates me. 
A girl at my work ordered a black coffee and plain burger (lowest calorie I think) and even gave me back the nougat piece we give with the coffee, meanwhile in my break I ate a shit ton and hot fat by the second.
Colleagues were mean to me and (reoccurring problem) I now know no one will like me. 
TRIGGER WARNING SEXUAL HARASSMENT ILL TELL YOU WHEN ITS OVER. 
Apparently I’m not the only girl (15 to 18) whose been sexually harassed by one of the managers, I don’t care that it happened to me but damn it makes me sick to my stomach he’s harassing other girls. 
ITS OVER NOW SORRY.
on top of that I’ve been just feeling so damn shit lately and the only thing that helps is drugs (seriously don’t do it it’s bad and doesn’t fix anything on the long run)  I want to shave off all my hair  but also be a “pretty girl✨™️” 


I’m sorry for the word salad I’m just throwing at you but my Instagram got deleted and I have no one irl to complain to.",-0.31413481042284275,1.9204986787330327,2.1187205492276497,93.44570135746609,91.62443438914028,4.677235138087065,19.837884225308162,6.311591054244273,0.12320645966609513,812,27,179,9,29,276,133,221,0.22,0.696,0.084,-0.987,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,1,2,0,2,10,16,9,0,12,0,15,10,5,2,2,27,33,13,0,2,7,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,0,3,14,9,3,0,4,0,0,2,8,13,0,4,6,4,22,3,22,25,3,21,0,0,1,0,13,10,5,0,8,115,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639612953348733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134951943863957,0.0,0.0,0.1300653894575382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1215341572500608,0.13196890867782635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611471003384794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832930453488937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043935090695461,0.0,0.0,0.15102785159589951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991710609496773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162028206519604,0.0,0.0,0.12641062519070406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397670756699867,0.0,0.0,0.15604610031349206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594060220772718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686262177047598,0.0,0.1782923645828644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721744688363884,0.0,0.0,0.13987326212043907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055026085565541,0.0,0.0,0.17216768983309694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213054666409537,0.24041514459859864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607982519184377,0.0,0.15123681434756486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32448135355978275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538581536373987,0.11187179124581184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896449927216834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138146602798779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500438920509532,0.1012749440323448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322464135398344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506556113925005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MercuryPrincess,2019/09/08,"Spiralling again. I'm very overweight. I've tried to lose it so so hard but the numbers aren't going down. (no nutrition info please. I'm specifically requesting no nutrition advice. I've heard and tried it all).
I have several medical conditions which mean it's easy to gain weight and very difficult to lose it. A few weeks ago I stopped eating, then when I did eat, I'd purge by making myself sick.

I managed to stop it and I was just about back to normal when someone made a few comments today without really thinking and I've spiralled again. I'm so hungry but my body deserves to be punished for being so fucking disgusting. I don't know why my boyfriend loves me. I just tried to make myself sick but I have an empty stomach and a strong gag reflex so I've even failed at that.",1.5152631578947364,4.1150210256410285,2.9672334682861,88.41285425101215,85.53846153846155,5.8483130904183565,23.59514170040486,7.273561745256523,1.2181846153846159,624,24,120,10,19,203,99,156,0.267,0.62,0.114,-0.978,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,5,14,9,3,0,5,0,8,11,2,3,1,22,21,16,0,1,6,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,7,5,4,2,4,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,4,3,13,2,13,15,3,14,0,3,0,2,4,2,1,0,11,73,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338340518293506,0.13913911625582598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206956279899828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17435162015405814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212267183389046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10367324232398484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451106896770055,0.0,0.0,0.08920625902769666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060891405976267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626331000817225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35120513465384684,0.0,0.0,0.14166613922210458,0.14852313301455422,0.2095493790789134,0.0,0.0,0.1709798127059446,0.0,0.15812471759708518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15379139440593284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17229933773674574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055515835899934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732464314828653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329950887135193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624578665038352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057619393767676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878351966674813,0.0,0.0,0.31970475995501985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590234789155783,0.0,0.0,0.1259070537114747,0.1911398669182991,0.0,0.0,0.14163559674976434,0.0,0.0,0.1513076957288514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toxicwasteofspace,2019/09/08,"I'm moving to a different city for uni and I'm terrified of gaining weight I'm not diagnosed with an eating disorder, but I've been bingeing for so many years it's not even funny. I remember coming home from middle school and eating my way through the entire fridge literally every day, to cope with bullying and having no friends. The past year has been rough: I lost every IRL friend I have because I'm a stupid cunt and I've started eating like a pig again, I've gained 10 kilos (I'm 5 feet tall so it's completely changed my appearance) and I look worse every day. Every time my parents leave the house and I stay home I make plans to go to the supermarket and buy food to shove down my throat like a pig.   

In a week I'll be packing my bags and moving to a different city for uni, and I'm terrified that I'm going to gain so much weight, now that my parents can't check on me. My mom has expressed the same fear, never to my face but I've heard her talking to my dad about it. I imagine how horrified she would be if when I come back home for Christmas I've gained another 10 kilos and I look completely different. Honestly food is just the way that I cope with bad experiences, I'm not sure if uni will be a bad experience or not (everything I have good expectations for usually is) but if it is I'M FUCKED to put it simply. Also I've been trying to lose weight for so many years with no results so I feel like all the weight I gain is bound to stay forever and I will never be able to repair the damage I've done to my poor body. BTW I'm literally stuffing myself with Mexican food right now since my parents are away, it's not even funny",4.26000797448166,4.663424043859654,5.585007974481659,82.708995215311,70.25730994152048,9.142158426368953,27.826156299840523,9.218907990703514,2.082971929824561,1301,42,277,25,22,438,168,342,0.223,0.674,0.10300000000000001,-0.9940000000000001,6,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,8,16,17,3,1,16,0,22,16,4,3,4,46,45,26,0,5,13,5,6,3,2,3,1,1,3,0,9,18,10,1,3,0,3,8,10,9,0,0,6,9,29,8,33,32,3,36,0,3,2,1,12,7,2,5,20,154,38,1,0.07684428728971501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145234878250878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08057793540010356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07219773746794042,0.05908851361101439,0.12832354019777525,0.04684356428892236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535667987435724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812910667636421,0.1323890984837699,0.1611395463990377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09911641626518414,0.0,0.0,0.07799533403952084,0.0,0.24085777423478325,0.08807021071084825,0.0,0.0,0.07863838566406854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358926702841942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150985403824557,0.0,0.25897850523407706,0.0,0.06906269046774773,0.15033691646400174,0.0,0.08647118718448875,0.03885478056616894,0.05489757419398702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27876125164674675,0.0,0.11873941147907476,0.07104130534699285,0.0,0.0,0.08734475868808113,0.0644533423260967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23124325695538675,0.0,0.0,0.08866799022082555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136700480063938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262671164462427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290596951901202,0.08596910146974962,0.0838846170770091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051294158471554725,0.15581609224791607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999910053058721,0.0,0.16334663242462868,0.0564893929749586,0.0,0.11853410331574353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559794613808351,0.0,0.07335656733038091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772497332607307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08704959760070227,0.06562460147536422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777052125789229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356638853300622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439078205903637,0.1638115715861444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242483135577146,0.0,0.0,0.06176452731360501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044808521884021534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217222687822113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463312597048657,0.0,0.0,0.1219908368868432,0.061639852087854,0.3743025597893823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831089373934713,0.05458797692030197,0.0,0.0,0.148455604726957
EDAnonymous,whatabradberry,2019/09/08,does anyone else get triggered to binge from studying? or know how to stop it? it’s so easy for me to restrict when there’s not much to my agenda. but i’m studying for a section of the mCAT and it’s triggering me to want to binge. i think the stress of it makes me want to eat for that sweet ole endorphins kick. i don’t know how to stop it because i will literally think of food while i’m studying if i’m not snacking on something.,1.6525,3.213507301075268,3.027620967741939,94.06143145161293,78.13978494623656,5.940322580645162,24.528225806451612,6.6274283507984215,0.5886999999999998,341,12,79,3,8,111,57,93,0.11,0.7909999999999999,0.099,-0.2475,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,5,0,20,13,9,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,3,3,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,7,1,16,12,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,48,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17434408049518085,0.255477936698579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519951361608526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21819880770935304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551367093392603,0.20829128274655664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015024941248033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026967584574364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27406110134310063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16643615231866618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18329333190606936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919538439604297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169182236537599,0.2856177262831159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31953355924837185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29413397110323336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elora_ee,2019/09/08,"I feel like my anxiety is going kill me 1. Went to ED program for 3 months, gained weight but faked some of it
2. Faked weight when at medical check up out patient appointments
3. Recently had a bone density test where I didn’t fake weight (because I didn’t know if I was going to be weighed there and I’m dumb)
4. Have an appointment tomorrow at the ED program for a medical checkup+results on my bone density
5. My doctor probably looked at my actual weight on the bone density test and is going to confront me when I fake my weight tomorrow
6. I’m going to be sent back to that hell hole and my parents are never going to trust me 
7. My irrational thoughts and fantasies for suicide and self harm are getting stronger
8. When I think about it tears stream down my face and my heart starts to hurt
9. I’m praying my doctor doesn’t notice I’m almost done this program I can’t recover I don’t what I will do if I get caught",3.4768195488721787,4.641033689473687,4.794436090225567,84.86105263157896,72.63157894736842,8.796992481203008,28.83458646616541,9.23628265651192,2.3700375939849616,731,29,153,16,14,243,110,190,0.21899999999999997,0.732,0.049,-0.9901,1,0,0,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,0,1,7,12,4,0,5,0,17,15,5,0,1,17,37,12,2,2,3,1,6,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,5,7,6,0,4,1,1,8,6,10,0,0,9,7,23,2,20,25,1,27,2,1,1,0,3,9,2,4,11,87,28,7,0.0,0.0,0.112375976932804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531244082124248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809428536932327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854811775183087,0.0,0.07019823639289796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357347884110826,0.0,0.11784491787076942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058226505872934126,0.08226771274058428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032887013131915,0.0,0.32723001073578223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13646081807814234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232772443423056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740342905284413,0.0,0.06328691320037115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625957125024437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670232324628937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320157962047105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919166924187418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881566904107775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13110625703473552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786748841247594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12415801207263966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370299378720465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013317792015052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150825058967061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12596234599613992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07378753325318069,0.0,0.09142127135568848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7011469978165049,0.0,0.10675108144679704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jeonkook,2019/09/08,"when you can’t have an ed in peace ive had an ed off and on for years so maybe i’m more aware of this than most other people — but i feel like the most basic knowledge is that you probably shouldnt point out your friends eating habits especially in a casual setting. but it seems like no one in my life got that memo, can anyone else relate??

it’s always a friend or family member pointing out junk food i’m eating, or how fast i ate it, or how little i’m eating etc. it’s my #1 trigger at this point (along with other ppl telling me about their eating habits, which i also can’t escape) and i’m too scared to say anything without revealing i have an ed (which would just make them focus more on my eating lol)",2.385514541387021,3.7967104093959736,3.745117449664431,90.32738534675616,75.77852348993287,6.3089485458612975,19.799217002237135,6.816661863887847,0.15240894854586085,557,11,121,5,12,183,101,149,0.044000000000000004,0.823,0.133,0.9264,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,2,0,8,6,0,1,6,1,10,8,0,4,0,25,19,12,0,2,7,0,1,2,2,2,1,1,0,0,12,6,7,0,4,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,3,2,14,5,17,14,5,17,0,0,0,0,9,13,0,6,5,79,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10597516616459388,0.11026618429482997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926601646927902,0.13578108085246354,0.10905160870747532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6779986289011368,0.11070237950465983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779339369744549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492684787613825,0.0,0.06700544256431404,0.09467139438121548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602421526532042,0.0,0.2047672564366272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598731985702002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360188537887087,0.1294838978772889,0.1328185634088309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08845726933131072,0.0,0.13313285799972147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979810890977781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187178928731728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758190502174558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14287758508105447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053841987496066,0.13267434885818918,0.0,0.0,0.12064005841367112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582719534775003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12774330949409962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413749090685036,0.0,0.0,0.0853377057763631
EDAnonymous,captainbrez,2019/09/08,"what’s your favorite gum? I literally have 3 different packs of gum in my purse, to satisfy any type of craving I have. One of my favorites is the dragonfruit flavor by trident. What’s your guys favorites?",2.276153846153844,5.1314822564102585,3.790461538461543,81.7795384615385,85.41025641025641,7.222564102564102,30.87692307692308,8.238735603445708,2.9753138461538464,164,9,29,4,5,54,29,39,0.0,0.715,0.285,0.8992,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,6,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,19,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930364601576205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6038510887974651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5722768594861543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916444811835698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,xocoholic,2019/09/08,"How much time is it normal to stay bloated? So, I've been stuck in a binge/fast/restriction cycle for a bit, and I know that bloating is normal after binging for obvious reasons, but recently it's not going away as fast as it once used to? I know maybe I should just accept I got ""fat"" or something, but I don't think it's that since I'm only 2 pounds higher than my LW.

Also, 2 weeks ago I managed to fast for three whole days, and when I woke up on the fourth day I wasn't bloated at all, then I tried to eat ""normally"" for the day and got bloated as fuck all over again... The thing is I'm not good at fasting and haven't been able to do three whole days again (can only do 1-2 whole days).

I'm not sure what's exactly my question, I'm just freaking out about it and wanted to know what you guys think/if any of you have experienced anything similar to this.",5.865972222222222,4.066451961956524,6.620289855072468,84.01214975845414,67.42391304347827,9.69951690821256,30.77053140096618,8.167268648758528,1.8818980676328496,667,19,154,7,9,222,107,184,0.094,0.8859999999999999,0.02,-0.9117,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,0,9,5,1,0,5,0,13,3,1,3,5,33,29,16,0,5,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,11,6,2,0,7,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,7,1,13,3,26,21,7,27,0,0,0,1,4,8,1,2,17,96,24,1,0.1277345851107817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322900263686085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021493015638576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686389808089558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511467985416946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001084747699675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945308397347966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41189120088941694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307043695424615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808856564723487,0.0,0.0,0.07259450836312628,0.1071377096645811,0.20432203297902252,0.0,0.0,0.12647732166253708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105987622866772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832655943893512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093899617386158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754583183645901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603316433710405,0.0,0.1942958158352012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309196875718538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13133242765899206,0.1261224927817284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566336877641974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833632416548252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614807210074698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038833479019062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848611825221925,0.1636943288849988,0.0,0.0,0.07448306379241973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867233985718428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032166941184583,0.0,0.0,0.07534116778732176,0.0,0.10246097934446964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42783330783351503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kickitlikeadidas,2019/09/08,"Started thinking back to when I was in high school when I was accidentally losing weight and people's reactions this was when i started losing noticeable weight due to depression, and it seemed like people just assumed i had an eating disorder? one time i stayed after school for a club and the club sponsor asked ""do you eat?"" and since then people started telling me i didn't eat enough or that i was too skinny. my bmi is on the lower end and currently is a bit under bc it's summer and i like to be active, plus im trying to get abs by working out. well, i started getting curious about eating disorders and looking at pics of skinny people to prove to myself i wasn't that skinny, and counting my calories to prove to myself i was eating enough. over time, i for sure have developed disordered eating habits bc of looking at models and influencers online, and also bc i began to want to eat healthier. there are also short phases where i try to count calories and limit them, but noticed i just end up eating a lot at the end of the day anyways so i stop. 

my entire life up until my last few months of high school i ate garbage and never did physical activity. once i started eating healthier and stopped eating meat, people in my family automatically thought it was because i wanted to lose more weight. i started exercising a few weeks ago and when my cousin saw me she told me i need to stop bc i was too skinny. i lost maybe 5-10 pounds the last time i saw her, but i'm not bones, i just have a good amount of muscle on me that was fat before. whenever people comment about my weight it makes me feel like i should eat more, then i feel bad about gaining the weight and try to starve myself to get it off. i always realize that this never work for me though and end up eating regularly and healthy again, and going to the gym has also helped me bc i know it would be bad for me to restrict while having an exercise routine.

all of the people who do say im too skinny are noticeably over weight and have struggled with losing weight themselves, and my cousin in particular has done sooo many diets that i can see why she would think i don't eat enough, why i need to stop working out, and why she thinks i'm too skinny. her daughter is almost the same size as me, almost the same height, but she is going through puberty, plays sports, and eats foods with high fat and sodium. i think people, especially in the south, just need to be more educated about health and they would see that i'm actually too skinny, that diets don't work and you need to change your lifestyle to lose weight. MOST IMPORTANTLY, constantly commenting about people's weight is bad!! sorry this is such a long post and no one will probably read it, but this has been on my mind for a while, and there is more i would like to add, but this is already a novel. be safe :3 uwu xx",5.927506692365347,5.920827567137812,6.401564407324128,79.71525805760791,66.6148409893993,9.12209015954599,28.812292536674164,8.754623652393294,2.0397474676089518,2257,66,443,32,33,734,248,566,0.11800000000000001,0.8009999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9719,2,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,3,2,12,32,20,0,1,21,0,46,41,10,2,6,88,87,49,0,11,11,3,11,4,0,6,6,1,0,0,20,33,36,7,13,9,0,2,8,11,1,2,21,18,66,9,65,56,16,73,0,7,6,0,22,26,0,7,47,302,86,8,0.0,0.0,0.03921677764365791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035623407699261936,0.0,0.08048307965212526,0.0,0.044347424702510914,0.0964127422584804,0.0334388567655308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037569480208658634,0.0,0.0,0.030901371800437723,0.10066356007457693,0.024497661357314463,0.0,0.03419623175033813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04387386579071966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042512585350416736,0.0,0.0,0.04342793972634789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02591733184134861,0.0,0.034613059542460065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381735717859477,0.0,0.0,0.0411253193672928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5756995919946806,0.0,0.0,0.14237524305293084,0.12457194011523555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03788478760750322,0.0,0.04063957433093387,0.028709646722172563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04859435759601278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062988247215073,0.0,0.045678469436685715,0.0337070028214137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04271697005432497,0.0,0.0,0.026936542052515142,0.12737951937464487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868178510261629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02208575952328769,0.06551564210177056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02838531194476499,0.07853347864081828,0.0,0.0,0.03556428723844718,0.06749402518017754,0.224795227153175,0.04386892785454695,0.034165604913071225,0.0,0.0,0.026825177437271364,0.040743375529306174,0.04037330753674378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040577478837247806,0.0,0.03207693126869754,0.0,0.0,0.11919279569942087,0.061989482790247616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725971698287218,0.0,0.0427979118507557,0.05446358955563105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25074585288103624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038488098810469634,0.0,0.04332845226380369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04019793942942288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03195836647358759,0.0,0.122014363484818,0.06404777432364156,0.03658479396270505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033243154820251794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04498612825227042,0.17066766546074302,0.04283406341984786,0.0,0.13439274064604528,0.0,0.04201224508982964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03787583245098782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03512526546153612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300099232754398,0.03948358657405195,0.031904040067214465,0.07030020100089783,0.0,0.0,0.03840046205926925,0.0,0.08185313601052477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047406743398312634,0.0,0.03223563888626416,0.4404331600658213,0.036132997023350086,0.0,0.10878772433342622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702664556677746,0.0,0.0,0.1141909496490383,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,1fences,2019/10/26,I need Advice So my best friend is being treated for anorexia at a residential center and she's not doing very well. Does anyone have any advice for how to support her through her recovery and maybe ways to help motivate?  I myself have struggled with disordered eating but I'm lost for how to help her. Any advice would be so appreciated.,3.2325223214285685,6.044326671875003,4.569464285714286,78.58625000000002,79.15625,6.7821428571428575,24.767857142857146,7.957251820313856,1.8416544642857144,273,10,46,5,7,90,48,64,0.08199999999999999,0.653,0.265,0.9289,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,5,7,0,1,1,0,7,1,0,3,0,10,11,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,8,5,9,7,1,3,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,35,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5827146496877265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703442742495601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898637520660634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085995077535298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22781054110799445,0.0,0.17394718118212552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033939225954132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357116419707206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664660748613202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698369803714412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996937240034593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473873129290844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207800207305254,0.0,0.0,0.2255647123578402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16400815502951613,0.0,0.15777638282626275,0.0,0.0,0.17872037678438474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120230279718074,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ruffwearho,2019/10/26,"Fall: Time to exclusively exist on coffee and soup Me during the spring/summer: wow I think I cured my ED all by myself look at me eating real food

Me during the fall/winter: damn can't wait to drink that 200 cal latte from mcdonalds AND NOTHING ELSE ALL DAY I'm doing so good happy holiday y'all",1.1494379391100686,3.5522103606557422,3.4774238875878214,85.65229508196722,84.7377049180328,5.4529274004683845,15.271662763466045,6.868970318607317,-0.0281353629976584,236,4,45,3,7,81,50,61,0.040999999999999995,0.74,0.21899999999999997,0.915,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,7,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,8,3,6,6,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,2,24,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20301571298597854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30837770742376897,0.0,0.3221122558062326,0.2629695080885129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38064945168124176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26403378450756504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33510344798757624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26434718913438754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020527754678373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583038277674883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20170691203519686,0.0,0.0,0.18355857406696469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,emmaveggies,2019/10/26,Talking about BDD without annoying people I generally don't like to talk about my disordered eating habits and my body dysmorphic disorder. There are 5 people that I know in real life that know about it and somehow (probably because I am so reserved with other people) it's all what I want to talk to them about. I feel like I am annoying them and I am scared that I will drive them away.. Did anyone ever have a similar problem?,4.89413654618474,6.288176265060244,6.01222891566265,76.5965763052209,69.48192771084337,9.388755020080325,30.700803212851405,9.725611199111238,3.0874514056224904,342,14,61,8,6,114,55,83,0.154,0.775,0.07200000000000001,-0.772,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,8,6,2,1,1,0,8,3,1,0,2,15,12,4,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,1,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,13,2,11,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,48,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12913822538333075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17352056516586364,0.0,0.0,0.1125841617046057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051468626569785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233371646475512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18898205078505936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670609751158552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933838610417826,0.13194122744643538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20299951781286588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304506786755349,0.18045856968879945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841184570745293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991250268720802,0.176721584971458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102155101368436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18490502388205454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44533593693645546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089338363119056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17803275385226236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,simplecripp,2019/10/26,"When you have an ED and Epilepsy... And you wonder how many calories you burn during a seizure...


(Swear this is a light-hearted post, I can't help but laugh whenever I find myself thinking about it)",2.407894736842106,4.913615315789475,2.709736842105261,92.55565789473684,80.05263157894737,4.852631578947369,25.28947368421053,5.985473137389443,0.6889263157894745,154,6,30,1,4,47,33,38,0.155,0.845,0.0,-0.6721,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664554990383199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4751205014315905,0.26874427261268696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064942262841992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839934650446004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25690868846012577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4348066016934394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sugarolive,2019/10/26,"ugh haven’t eaten anything in 40+ hours, my last meal consisted of 10 cigarettes and coke zero but I did my nails and put on a face mask and that’s called self care baby 💞😙✌🏼",1.371382113821138,1.9684020731707363,3.842439024390245,91.85601626016262,77.04878048780488,7.417886178861789,20.98373983739837,7.793537801064563,0.5115300813008128,139,3,35,2,3,49,38,41,0.051,0.833,0.11599999999999999,0.5267,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,3,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229593877049832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4007433650287247,0.0,0.40013695474874456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864919476585689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31990554497422946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39452855727413705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094191506367201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,my50ththrowaway,2019/10/26,"i can’t eat what i want i’ve finally been truly “on track” for the past week and now the weekend is here and i have to eat to appear normal in front of my family. it used to be that i could justify it and it would end up being a binge, but now i’m just eating normal amounts and it feels like too much. i don’t want to binge. i don’t want to eat at all. i can’t stand the idea and i wish i could just refuse all food.",0.12208762886598025,1.0958375360824741,2.5201932989690725,98.58998067010313,80.85567010309279,6.087113402061857,16.248711340206185,6.6274283507984215,-0.6472876288659792,319,4,87,3,8,110,59,97,0.031,0.826,0.14300000000000002,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,4,0,12,5,0,1,2,24,20,6,0,9,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,5,1,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,10,1,11,14,4,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,8,58,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26056789485669435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6678852359243512,0.0,0.0,0.14452682198086073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382921460009055,0.0,0.0825074415854903,0.1165740310457274,0.0,0.1787529636064422,0.0,0.0,0.1973148679210252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420752352239025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797202789170278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11995423016593695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197585875393271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577137756874634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409329589757174,0.0,0.0,0.28873893312785043,0.0,0.13089113929792884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876460597778125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591660669275508,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,4foot11,2019/10/26,Just cute girly ED things I just shat myself at brunch with my parents because my laxatives decided to kick in now rather than in the morning. Anyway it was a good excuse to skip out on the meal amirite? 🤡,4.128455284552846,5.410266073170731,4.418048780487805,87.72918699186995,71.1951219512195,7.417886178861789,28.300813008130078,7.793537801064563,1.6200666666666663,163,6,33,2,3,51,36,41,0.0,0.8290000000000001,0.171,0.7351,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,9,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3676356422561887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5058399432516296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696556586279465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006635561436041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jakesim2,2019/10/26,"So, I started a vlog I know this isn't anonymous and I don't want to self-promote...but at the same time I do, if that even makes any sense. I've found that talking about my drinking habit and binge eating/body dysmorphia has already helped me come a long way in confidence and just in general not feeling so miserable about it all. Sharing it has given me a sense of...it having no power over me so I really would like to share this here if anyone can relate or just get behind what I go through

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EDAnonymous,narniaisarealplace,2019/10/26,"Am I just a picky eater or is it more serious? (First post here and throwaway anon account so I don’t a) know if there’s any trigger warnings and b) some friends read my reddit history - crazy, I know).


When I eat food I look at it and I feel disgusting. It looks horrible on the plate/bowl and when I eat it I feel like I need to throw up afterwards cause there’s just food inside my stomach. It makes me feel disgusting. Every time I eat I always feel like I gaining weight.

I went to the doctors for a checkup and got my weight done and it read that I was 48.7kg and I was actually kinda glad that I’d decreased 1kg in 2 weeks. I look at my BMI and it says I’m in the healthy range. I don’t feel healthy, I feel disgusting.",-0.7476373626373629,1.3988330641025648,1.4520146520146504,97.88346153846157,93.35897435897436,5.022710622710624,20.249084249084245,6.655083550727371,0.21333919413919444,562,20,134,8,21,187,89,156,0.132,0.742,0.126,-0.223,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,3,0,6,0,7,10,1,3,0,26,23,13,0,2,4,0,8,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,9,8,7,0,8,2,1,2,2,4,0,1,5,13,23,4,9,18,2,15,0,0,3,0,2,6,0,4,8,75,32,3,0.0,0.0,0.12894404471295715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10994634697178042,0.0,0.0,0.08985587494908111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573835418547314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524508496799986,0.0,0.13521929485168752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40561921849172505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132887127506484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.400866522277176,0.18879358239346303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123933929340074,0.3195547107716549,0.0,0.10208665498229512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567989377823572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14523514345656469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291083177886158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33287867299180185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820069079448974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797593084891043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265481620909384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643401732928703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050785220796887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704858996453519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599018868072108,0.3218080315897681,0.0,0.12248984698449525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,becsandbobs,2019/10/26,Halloween time and I've just realised how fat I am after being in denial for god knows how long Time to get plastered so I can stand being around people again,1.41,4.020190000000003,2.2800000000000007,92.965,86.5,3.2,17.375,3.1291,-0.7739625000000001,128,3,24,0,4,40,27,32,0.0,0.93,0.07,0.2732,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,6,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,17,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455891653767986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615129257695051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750852030088506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429645792592143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34701331603227553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5837410011793348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonnnn_5,2019/10/26,"The conclusion of my ed When I had an ed, I couldn't concentrate, my grades got bad, I always felt so nauseous, sleepy and cold. I fainted a couple of times. When people looked at my face, they could tell I have no energy at all judging by my paleness and dark circles. Oh, and the feelings of insane hunger pain at night. Sometimes I cried myself to sleep. It was pointless existence, not life.

Yes, I'm not that skinny compared to how I used to be. But I'm happy. Your weight should never determine your happiness. I really wish that everyone who'll read this message will recover and be healthy. That's the most important thing ♥️",2.8030487804878064,5.166661764227643,3.853028455284555,85.69466463414636,77.69918699186992,7.3520325203252055,25.697154471544714,8.344100000000001,1.8898569105691063,499,19,95,10,12,161,91,123,0.165,0.73,0.10400000000000001,-0.7843,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,1,1,4,4,0,0,5,1,10,8,3,2,2,19,18,9,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,3,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,5,16,2,10,7,2,8,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,1,5,62,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681037885321466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686852507580647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16130321476205678,0.2235405494778936,0.2219186786323088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19304676588711267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021516144715499,0.0,0.19397891809865067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615805436478575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301259145082108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14269861287544064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16965294919662965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581673409556698,0.0,0.0,0.18958994007336646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21497243042572045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006103446121726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208304239149047,0.0,0.1294245474674039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20217427311834008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998112244201665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17658170070479834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421867242231006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780436759233742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448764638648068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460161286859202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323226558378638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsameathrowaway42,2018/11/15,"Peach masterthread? 🍑 Hey all, I wasn't super active on proEd and I regret that because it really was an amazing community. So I'm hoping to build up a network on peach in case this sub gets the ban hammer next.

I'm redditrefugee on peach, add me and drop your name below so we can all find each other ❤️",0.2325000000000017,2.5502272500000025,2.64875,90.32125,89.0,5.075,17.375,6.6274283507984215,0.030881250000000193,240,6,50,3,8,82,52,64,0.198,0.7,0.102,-0.6967,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,12,7,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,3,7,5,3,8,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,1,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044955192952682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4565413807387152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609723810707856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961242795100558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5312325622034848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199976982040431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ghost_nebula,2018/11/15,The survey/a link to this sub has been posted in 1200ip Nice knowing you guys.,4.821249999999999,5.1344136250000005,4.662500000000001,90.1325,69.0,6.4,22.25,3.1291,-0.04605000000000015,62,1,13,0,1,19,16,16,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6676128448659818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705498001995005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6457444811549385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,darktriadthrowaway,2018/11/15,"Would anyone be interested in a proED replacement site? [X-post r/edsupport] Hi everyone! Like many others, I was super disappointed to learn that reddit purged (pun intended) all of my ED subs. 

I recently discovered a site called raddle that's basically a less restricted Reddit where a lot of banned subs have gone. Raddle was started by some radical leftist subs that were banned so I'm personally a lot more comfortable with this site than Voat (which is pretty alt right). Their content policy is very anti-discrimination but doesn't have anything that I would interpret as against EDs and the admins are much more transparent.

If enough people are interested, I'm going to create some ED communities on Raddle. My account needs to have been active for 24 hours so this will happen tomorrow at the earliest. I wanted to spread the word before any of the proED replacements are banned!",7.185299194476408,8.896365550632915,7.413084004602992,67.49768124280786,64.37974683544303,11.315074798619099,31.45224395857307,11.20814326018867,4.0986253164556965,719,27,113,22,11,233,112,158,0.07200000000000001,0.799,0.129,0.8433,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,3,6,0,0,9,0,17,0,0,1,1,21,25,6,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,4,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,5,0,7,5,16,16,10,14,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,5,5,73,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478811449421223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205400117285292,0.0,0.1789521256872767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504355436897654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220523067515588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246956598596038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779359669616088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358827142723712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230031445378476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141555818705481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624060957033243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697556512330255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220471632078533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1598590811082455,0.16124480273457334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076028844067865,0.189878824263924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20826781900386607,0.2212363266478108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21471680465165072,0.0,0.0,0.1857107668796688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392023144187048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794283515930569,0.1282643123301889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089565445996539,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingkongoncocaine,2018/11/15,how does peach work? can someone do a quick 101 for all the people like me who just got peach but have no idea how it works????,2.0666666666666664,2.9136825185185167,2.3490740740740783,102.26583333333336,75.66666666666666,5.4,17.203703703703702,3.1291,-1.1652074074074077,96,1,25,0,2,29,25,27,0.127,0.813,0.059000000000000004,-0.4606,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,1,6,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,16,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504053172298681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202479536176044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452019089895811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195622237535456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775969102166364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3392697998877815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5830128666971581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,smilieface,2018/11/15,"I maybe have a replacement for our lost memes, at least temporarily I originally made it for my mother's actual forum (which some of you may know), Cerulean Butterfly. That quickly became a venture I do not feel like speaking of.

So, there are a few replacements for ProED, but none for my favorite, our meme board.

It's a fairly innocuous name, and already Private, so I feel like it would be a good place for our missing funnies.

I noticed there is a meme tag here, but I truly appreciated having a place mostly of just memes and of just discussions, that way if I wanted discussions, I could just go to one sub.

https://reddit.com/r/CeruleanButterfly/, if anyone is interested.",8.209039812646374,8.623526180327872,7.93992974238876,69.17942622950821,61.78688524590165,10.905854800936767,34.64168618266979,10.608840637214634,3.7089751756440283,542,21,92,12,7,173,81,122,0.095,0.757,0.149,0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,3,1,0,1,9,6,0,0,7,0,10,0,0,2,0,22,18,8,0,5,8,1,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,3,14,4,11,12,5,7,0,2,0,0,9,3,0,5,4,70,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.2218751652211564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25090261806845954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897869603461906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815322250213723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22992486407540486,0.3248587973139201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921660781776634,0.1907027366722111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495370190254915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221578313643217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24819544594522985,0.0,0.0,0.21513799188293506,0.0,0.0,0.2284184172813657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25885623631555565,0.0,0.0,0.15406821591762165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.475095472556051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410560041001482,0.1804715287343205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615133709502931,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Flyingpapers,2018/11/15,"I hope you're all feeling okay <3 The banning has hit me quite hard and I wasn't dealing with it well when I first saw :( Just hope all you angels are feeling okay, sending all my love <3 ",-0.9103571428571406,1.0708632500000022,0.20857142857143174,103.745,104.0,2.2857142857142865,18.214285714285715,3.1291,-1.0778214285714287,150,5,34,0,7,46,31,40,0.09300000000000001,0.525,0.382,0.9063,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,1,0,2,3,6,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,3,11,10,2,0,2,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,4,6,6,1,7,3,3,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3210505394419089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3149169994388274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648856022583004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789626302573933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6186017608282228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810601239620659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312233865747849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799954278719929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,enkrateia_,2018/11/15,"What about moving to a new site? I know there's peach and discord, but I want to suggest another site. There's a small community I've been a part of for like 12 years now, we started at a website called 43things and moved to popclogs a few years ago. It isn't ED related but you create goals, can follow other people, and comment on their entries. Just wanted to throw that out there! ",4.804155844155844,5.41553954545455,5.280935064935068,84.62997402597405,69.12987012987013,7.718441558441559,29.685714285714287,7.554174236665415,1.7161137662337662,303,11,61,3,5,97,60,77,0.026000000000000002,0.867,0.107,0.6996,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,1,1,1,6,1,0,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,8,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,10,7,2,16,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,7,39,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358632611167249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790073648263493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716967331489003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462302346080812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299929145987333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5656004120700687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25698106338821125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881379721746413,0.0,0.18446589660402504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18833231079679055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138809512903913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426927141026183
EDAnonymous,Gangreless,2018/11/15,"Guys I don't even know why I'm on reddit anymore Is it because I've been here so long? Almost 8 years, I think. Just habit? Because this is *my* username? I've come to rely on it mainly to kill boredom and for the support of a few smaller niche subs (like our recently fallen brethren). But.. Eh. This isn't the first time a sub I've loved has been banned and it's getting to the point where the only content on /r/all are frequent reposts and rehashed memes. Maybe it's because I'm older now, maybe has become the younger generation's site. God know that's what they're trying to do with that hideous new layout.

I am just so sick of the heavy handed admin bullshit. It's all about ad revenue and investors these days, it used to be about being a free speech zone and place where people could just *be*. Not anymore.

I don't know if I'm going to delete my account. But I'm really considering it.",1.1908695652173904,3.480008521739133,2.5556086956521757,93.12634782608698,83.34782608695653,4.5495652173913035,22.243478260869566,5.6839178017228535,0.16318565217391254,704,24,147,4,20,227,115,184,0.11599999999999999,0.818,0.066,-0.8773,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,1,12,5,1,0,9,0,16,3,1,1,1,23,30,10,1,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,13,7,0,1,4,0,2,3,4,1,0,1,2,2,7,5,15,24,3,21,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,2,11,83,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17253228191926367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417480690163293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31509510574881844,0.19029040199549066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14842009291978334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756650970957088,0.0,0.0,0.1111184219881822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380168111407656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14655720519899965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09001897105233579,0.0,0.0979213345283889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060282387782802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906230080837636,0.0,0.2840726153827524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417645258807102,0.0,0.0,0.1524789473415587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15550632389825936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461944502149116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16640717969208935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104094241327566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945023963449185,0.0,0.18001549292600927,0.0,0.1628779844749703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103789734885034,0.0,0.17012420203271267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955225482731105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11040206415455217,0.0,0.0,0.10046877058294842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169795224800461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881077563292508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547279755510865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095472814799676
EDAnonymous,blackberryhoney,2018/11/15,"Is there anyway to have a civil discussion about this? What I mean by that is could we maybe choose someone, previous mods, longtime member, etc who can present a well versed outline for why keeping a closed support group with very strict guidelines for ED would be helpful? Like have an actual discussion with them first hand through email or messaging? 

Let’s put together a list of arguments 

1. Social support has been empirically documented as being extremely beneficial for the treatment of a wide variety of mental health disorders. If I wasn’t on my phone I would pull more articles and resources. 

2. The hypocrisy and bias of banning us while I see other subs for depression and anxiety and a number of other issues still remain. 

More? 
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EDAnonymous,sydenyp,2018/11/15,"Discord? help? Maybe this is stupid, is there any way I can join any proED related chats on there? I just got the app so I don’t understand how it works or how to find anything or if I even can now. ",-1.1973643410852723,0.8553279069767471,0.6515116279069773,103.15618217054264,95.51162790697674,4.7271317829457375,16.468992248062015,6.42735559955562,-0.5360356589147286,152,4,39,2,6,49,34,43,0.146,0.747,0.10800000000000001,-0.4098,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,8,1,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,8,7,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,1,25,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4766857367129922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884205620093816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23149305654291355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203383512684977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803161064870595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349237422484349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35211084165842954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648688524790301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27819990451886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551583780290901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lunakisser,2018/11/15,"Have you seen Sierra Burgess is a loser? Triggered lmfao I know it doesn't seem ed related but for some reason it triggered me. Which I feel stupid for because it's a MOVIE. But like how can the fat girl get the guy? It also reminded me of when I was in high school and I was fat and the football player did like me but I was fat so It didn't go anywhere bc I wasn't thin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  The narrative is that if there's something ""wrong"" with the protagonist they fix it become ""beautiful"" or socially acceptable and then get the person of their dreams. That didn't happen so I feel uncomfortable even though I should be happy. I should be happy that she didn't have to alter herself. That people could accept her for who she is. Maybe I like being miserable. Ok this kind of went on a tangent. ",1.471194968553462,3.925334264150949,2.846194968553462,90.3899213836478,83.71698113207547,5.79748427672956,20.78301886792453,7.1686216300943375,0.6352037735849057,624,19,127,9,18,202,99,159,0.085,0.7140000000000001,0.201,0.965,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,1,8,13,1,1,9,1,21,3,3,4,0,23,31,15,0,4,5,0,3,3,0,2,3,0,0,3,13,4,3,0,7,1,0,2,5,4,0,0,10,4,20,9,10,15,1,8,0,2,1,0,12,4,0,4,5,91,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15534024563321067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11841192284984657,0.21453191740259994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15509141180476868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829912910489635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643549113263936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297337395844456,0.0,0.11039575002576586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192336295141548,0.17177307522109725,0.4135617224572979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052339282628089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022796480024717,0.10675375149517936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28469963147635563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951484636637214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466726999501968,0.16961006879174445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971954051394156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658958712839972,0.0,0.17683630029018668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19801161623642552,0.0,0.1495417836115473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19084790744100674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800700625820093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237995449591665,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Daistis,2018/11/15,"Feel like I would have freaked out much more if I wasn't already in the discord and active on pancake I remember when the same thing happened to the sanctioned suicide and self harm subs. No warning and people just felt lost. Admins are probably more concerned about PR and image, probably don't even consider what it means for the people in the community, but it really does feel like something is missing now. Like I know that there will be people who won't hear about what happened from anywhere else and just won't ever find out. And it just really makes me sad to think about everyone who might have been having a bad day and turn to the sub for support, only to be met with even more bad news. I really hope everyone can find some peace today.",8.416798029556652,7.101262482758621,7.869261083743847,75.53827586206897,62.103448275862064,11.04433497536946,35.19704433497537,9.957137785484203,3.2755320197044338,600,21,112,10,7,189,95,145,0.17800000000000002,0.688,0.134,-0.6763,0,0,1,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,1,12,12,0,0,7,0,16,0,0,1,1,32,32,10,1,3,5,0,3,3,0,5,0,1,0,1,9,10,0,0,9,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,5,4,6,5,16,20,6,10,0,3,0,0,5,5,0,4,8,79,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503275090097795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274841186469264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785375840931718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192112839123712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379838187313515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995045682404567,0.12322317550819276,0.0,0.2603373632141329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13775875414116584,0.19463811958625968,0.13079721855186024,0.0,0.2490140892771948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24092636927282116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535353060510621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530201296386507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486561476785986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996577416356463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14870551540573196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093114492986612,0.0,0.0,0.14838879692781795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14451303802064225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014093870854043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10360513666878343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833234752712681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937468564075588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618073807246488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431619918095646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211222769758994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487254458749687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14900787530505727,0.15458634502015134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050173700645844,0.08728738312316484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912522909359522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817351844476975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967702246937304,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MailingMaize,2018/11/15,"Is there any way to centralize the Peach community? I only just joined, so I don't really have a great idea of how it works. I've been trying to add everyone but I'm worried I'm missing people and posts. I don't want anyone to be left out. Is there a way to link accounts together, or have any sort of public forum setup or subscriber list or something?",2.6545662100456617,4.2396720136986294,4.672808219178084,83.2310388127854,75.43835616438356,7.606392694063928,24.495433789954337,8.344100000000001,1.5751570776255712,279,9,56,5,6,96,53,73,0.139,0.861,0.0,-0.8197,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,1,0,13,12,7,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,10,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,32,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536303019255444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18180445642609785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24844990335521674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28666102665193033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29351870329060503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28250072281270233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977486894287319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025761952453487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490169106566521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656853152812018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200167761136522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652915824943316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533601444367681,0.4127663517228151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892897716710726,0.26405193218793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,iloveyouatinybit,2018/11/15,"Insatiable appetite Ended a relationship a couple months ago, and quit my job. At first, I had zero appetite, because of the stress. Now I have a raging appetite, and I can’t stop eating. I’m 5’5 and 135 lbs, the highest weight I’ve been in yearsss, and I’m just gonna gain more weight if I continue this. My depression and anxiety have skyrocketed due to the weight gain and I’m a heartbroken jobless mess who can’t seem to leave her bed. First world problems, but my question is how do I control my appetite and get out of this funk? I can’t seem to restrict for the life of me. My weight and how I look in the mirror affects my entire outlook on life; I know how vain that is; if I could change it; I would. ",5.599452054794521,4.929463568493151,6.237089041095892,82.85097602739727,67.42465753424658,9.217808219178082,32.63356164383562,8.472884824447931,2.304413698630136,555,21,119,7,8,182,87,146,0.171,0.797,0.032,-0.9377,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,6,5,6,1,1,9,0,12,7,0,5,0,27,21,14,0,5,4,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,5,9,5,3,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,3,2,5,18,0,12,16,1,15,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,5,9,76,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235477949182572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662172378338464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496188985909703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744058796000625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563212514017518,0.11127983678263263,0.1542161196036588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004374252870485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261572801220804,0.0,0.0,0.12344514791116518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23710511967330705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281784227275143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830848028770598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765970204544364,0.0,0.0,0.14757831956163422,0.0,0.0,0.1968897938371707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704015027934887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11124803554585776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333633400181532,0.0,0.0,0.15613223466394147,0.14824278866585974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496369135312087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537640789331125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652399245471495,0.15965393640353767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6788862748073172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900821496263476,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shiraruru,2018/11/15,if this gets nuked we could always hunker down in the /r/edbunker ,4.2723076923076935,5.89495161538462,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,71.30769230769229,5.2,20.69230769230769,3.1291,-0.21909230769230748,53,1,10,0,1,16,13,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572437384370615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6306551971126872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4126798888242958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,self_d3struction,2018/11/15,"EDMemes banned Wtf is going on? There was no promotion of ED behavior there until now, it was just funny images. Will this sub be next? Reddit is going crazy.",1.7880000000000005,4.557609466666668,3.4616666666666696,83.6025,87.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,17.5,7.1686216300943375,0.677,124,3,21,2,4,41,26,30,0.297,0.63,0.073,-0.8343,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,16,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7302081886343375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6832247077289871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,unrequited_dream,2018/11/15,"Anyone else thinks it's not a coincidence..? Sorry if the format is off, I don't usually post threads, especially not on mobile. 


We had been calling out the guys that posted on the r/thinspo sub AND calling them out on r/proed. Even making thinspo private or whatever. 

I don't think it's a coincidence that we started calling them out/rejecting them and BOOM our subs get reported and deleted. 

They've been around for FOREVER, but just now they delete them!? 
Could be just me and feeling paranoid, but...? Anyone else? 

Also wanted to say, that while I have a small handful of mental things, our subs are really the only ones I lurked in really. My life is extremely isolating, not just for my eating related shit, like everything about my life is isolating. I'm so glad I was able to find you guys. Thank you to everyone that banned together to make sure we still have a place. 


I'm so sorry that people that have no idea what or who we are as a community tried to delete it. ",4.40920634920635,5.838052857142857,5.533201058201062,79.43726190476194,70.6931216931217,9.20952380952381,28.314814814814817,9.606745405546679,2.6205068783068777,766,28,146,18,14,254,115,189,0.084,0.818,0.098,0.3717,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,6,2,5,0,11,5,1,0,9,0,16,5,2,2,1,33,27,14,0,3,11,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,12,11,1,1,5,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,4,4,22,4,18,21,0,17,0,0,0,0,20,10,1,3,6,101,34,1,0.13153898676796189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519168019461217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839502359638774,0.2695544730041303,0.0,0.11709758610815255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029480372914229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050231775094492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345972222076718,0.2197678894610184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868802601865087,0.0,0.0,0.12569113883622635,0.11821875962421467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665100640142109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12022425087624627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872369151479378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26048855486064393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14849150508053086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858197528484085,0.06426330464396206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560659016917274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325603603622367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913422168970561,0.10004132681079048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119257112188467,0.0,0.13743024452632413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519559771787389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685344863436245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460508186622428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350228796512809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29449425286253994,0.09310397186181278,0.0,0.10504720474873046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397393832883873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110342619571556,0.0,0.0,0.08738865793644858,0.16856974281882872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930633756958467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487161023683653,0.0,0.07758510245337474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Deformedape,2018/11/15,"Suggestion Hi. I admittedly had no interactions with the previous sub, but I'm just here to warn you that trying to recreate a banned sub won't last.

**How do I know this?** 

Reddit has banned many subs this year and last year. These types of subs are often seen as controversial since people here look at things from a different prospective than what the rest of Reddit. It doesn't look good for revenue purposes, especially when they want to appeal to shareholders and advertisers.

**This isn't the first time people have tried to salvage what remains of a sub** 

When r/sanctionedsuicide (A pro choice subreddit where people could discuss their reasons why they believe suicide is a human right) got banned, some people created a alternative sub with stricter guidelines. In the end, that sub got banned within a few months. 

**You may ask why do certain subs like r/braincel get a free pass?**

It's because Reddit doesn't quite know how to get rid of them. As you probably already know, r/incel (The original sub) got banned because their users started threatening users outside the sub. When r/braincel popped up after the ban, the mods encouraged users to stay within the sub. Reddit has only quarantined the sub to attempt to hide its existence. They can't actually ban it out of fear that the sub will spread out of their own little area.    

**So what should you do?**

Honestly, I'd recommend creating a forum on your own web space and domain. It's means you are full control and aren't restricted by Reddit's guideline, which have been changing quite a bit over the past year. Alternatively, you could just solely rely the Discord servers, but for people who prefer the slow paced nature of posts it isn't the most ideal.


I hope you people take what I've said into account. I'm sad to see Reddit banning more subs with views that don't align to their own. ",3.360269277845777,6.22786704651163,3.7538984088127294,84.27274173806609,79.11627906976744,6.644308445532436,24.459608323133416,7.85451343220497,1.5993558139534882,1480,53,263,26,38,461,193,344,0.174,0.728,0.098,-0.987,1,1,0,0,0,2,54.0,0,8,8,6,12,10,0,1,25,0,25,0,0,5,1,45,47,14,1,7,4,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,0,1,21,10,0,10,7,0,2,1,9,2,0,1,7,6,19,9,39,34,10,36,0,1,5,0,26,16,0,5,18,158,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.10952671309977746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385585848589988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492605276015003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368367565269352,0.0,0.0,0.12645219279882094,0.0,0.0,0.12253327784098066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873142105437368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258828696814647,0.1792235549072098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172633391974778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09940829751530632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262973576730697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09546837878086653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727796274798112,0.0,0.0,0.0941387194281987,0.2692975413955043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11147624996180626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504686964934788,0.1829755876739856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05483312437075915,0.11249054014490516,0.0,0.0,0.18850092169808733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137902772854791,0.0,0.12225854039787973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958616845349301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853609777091854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714251675563502,0.4668642817283521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749161989988014,0.0,0.12101001778565268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387548395308229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539789862897658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584942724336136,0.10676269080544656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08943802403611342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284325993362236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944162997521953,0.11962926219263326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227686032891503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438794117855274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456499748606116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06544605318201284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240254270086426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06620004364409386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025521148135732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21683003575248305
EDAnonymous,wickedhollow,2018/11/15,"I made a Facebook group I know facebook is kind of taboo to talk about on reddit but there is a mighty need for a backup group besides peach or mpa. I made a closed group, so your posts can't be seen by non-members and I can make the group secret once it grows enough.

It's called ""ed support & shitposting 🍑"" and I'll post a link if the mods allow :) its only me and one other person right now but I'd love to grow it. ",3.026520146520145,3.3124679340659355,3.940384615384616,93.82544871794872,72.95604395604396,6.506227106227107,21.760073260073266,5.46131890053228,-0.07418827838827813,326,6,78,1,6,105,69,91,0.0,0.825,0.175,0.9493,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,7,0,5,1,0,4,0,17,13,8,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,1,6,3,7,9,1,8,0,0,1,1,10,3,0,2,1,42,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464522873020281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23226159426936085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23502648068766904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368640803747785,0.1250057997636733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20529109109322816,0.4304553818797791,0.1518309911783997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16865834675918173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422369578677051,0.1541324527060825,0.1729932093533809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19860887322766432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356866756710784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942491812828452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581183598332397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282334053477936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HotTeaComfySocks,2018/11/15,"I was new to the old sub I had JUST discovered the old sub about a week and a half ago. I finally felt like I had people I could confide in about the day-to-day struggles of having an eating disorder. I was devastated to learn the sub was gone, what a ridiculous decision on the part of Reddit at large. I feel like in the short time I was there I had a place I could go when I was feeling low. I'm so sorry to everyone who'd been there longer, fostered relationships, and saved posts to reference later. This whole banning is absolute shit. I hope we can all come together and build a new community here, I already miss the support and the memes so much. I look forward to the future as we occupy this new space. Sending love and support to all on this weird day. ",4.521870967741936,5.013118251612905,5.680806451612908,81.94120967741938,69.70967741935483,9.296774193548387,29.69354838709677,9.3871,2.418470967741936,599,22,125,12,10,200,93,155,0.141,0.722,0.13699999999999998,0.0854,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,2,0,0,0,9,13,2,1,15,0,15,3,1,0,2,22,28,9,0,3,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,8,1,1,6,0,0,5,0,6,0,1,11,4,16,7,16,14,5,28,0,2,1,1,6,10,1,1,16,84,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704138837192955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815326968405996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345443416067872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22885305192247116,0.0,0.0,0.2772817677481059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642530715027482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14664851041924185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369450125411288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493020963721662,0.10238530266513456,0.13760626990906608,0.15699616901774924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145004297359139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423455752445034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400343594924179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034972535596837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934869428792742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535408316355724,0.0,0.0,0.41524777013038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30077301801985995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551977525216332,0.0,0.09935758329166253,0.0,0.149735190041603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725754565527926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386823584567208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711227950028444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16043103565200267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982547402236082,0.0,0.0,0.3252676249941008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356897626954432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495981388810275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16000770165820513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,defnotDino,2018/11/15,I’m so mad especially since they kept 1200isplenty up. It’s the same as EDfood like literally indistinguishable from it yet they keep it up because why??? ,4.263452380952383,7.278465107142857,5.75,70.46166666666669,76.5,9.447619047619048,27.190476190476193,9.725611199111238,3.1966047619047617,125,5,22,4,3,42,24,28,0.132,0.7859999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.368,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3580361639925625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5220535414212646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28694397627832186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858525659756524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5299817390962324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,elangore,2018/11/15,If we want a community to work we have to go incognito We need to make a new sub with a discreet name that doesn’t contain “ED” or directly reference eating disorders because reddit will just come in and take it down again. We need to find a name that reflects the sentiment of the group without putting it at risk of being banned,8.533179487179487,6.714870215384615,8.472307692307695,72.91102564102566,62.23076923076921,12.35897435897436,40.12820512820512,11.20814326018867,4.362589743589743,264,12,51,6,3,86,50,65,0.08,0.899,0.021,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,6,0,4,1,0,1,0,22,11,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,1,2,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,11,9,0,8,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,2,2,34,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903508884437608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25299413450775515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366024391719569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005255600789482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684339226103028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16691488862120216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960451634830876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355455089447512,0.0,0.28365458863329546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952468085527368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208237454579276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732302196594221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831136229159736,0.0,0.21381506157476066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mt-Moon,2018/11/15,Another sad post about missing the old sub Thots n pears ❤️,-0.7892307692307696,1.3575258461538446,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,98.23076923076924,5.676923076923077,21.884615384615387,7.1686216300943375,0.9287230769230774,48,2,11,1,2,16,13,13,0.371,0.629,0.0,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5938486513555277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.594270336782948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5423896626071542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gracefullystupid,2018/11/15,Wtf :c I created an account purely for these subs (and all the other mental health subs I go on.) I was mostly a lurker but did post a few probably dumb things and made a few comments. I’m not good at talking to people even anonymously but like Proed was full of nice and helpful and calming anonymous strangers that I actually cared about /: I hate that I wasn’t more active now because I’m literally panicking like what :/ ,6.012073170731707,6.416436060975612,6.635268292682928,76.70119512195123,66.4390243902439,9.486829268292682,33.47317073170731,9.3871,3.0248848780487805,335,14,62,6,5,110,62,82,0.24600000000000002,0.511,0.243,-0.0822,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,5,0,4,1,0,1,2,11,10,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,6,6,6,5,6,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,3,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.2717700976396841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697674367719998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283943326217643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839427463384558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827463199092018,0.2335876631974668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27495529657833256,0.0,0.29602623724014165,0.0,0.0,0.1866687449490478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721163292931948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635178795326289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806565805431556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930727640756908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667203936725971,0.0,0.3002637750940922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22384303254106871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850191252322975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cantilever_retreiver,2018/11/15,"I chime in with a WHAT THE FUCK?! WHAT THE FUCK REDDIT? WHAT THE UNFUCKABLE FUCK, WHY THE FUCK? FUCK A CACTUS OH GOD.

Yeah, I'm not taking this well. Rip r/proed, your "" Stay Safe""s and ""Take some electrolytes"" kept me safe. 

Oh god let me tight the urge to go drown my feelings in a tub of ice cream.
Or restrict for 2 days.

hushed is out! xoxo
stay safe babes.",-1.5383590733590715,0.1345703378378431,-0.4528957528957527,107.72405405405405,109.13513513513512,2.6548262548262547,10.691119691119694,4.65589566412798,-1.98933667953668,271,4,67,1,14,82,55,74,0.249,0.5529999999999999,0.198,-0.8421,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,1,8,5,0,8,1,2,5,0,0,0,12,13,2,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,1,4,5,3,7,11,1,7,0,0,1,5,2,3,5,2,1,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430109134310945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961469734192068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8192486207204248,0.0,0.0,0.1007260110619544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812334931891607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778151412744971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665154104762356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15935440494214595,0.0,0.15992587112697845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LittleLightFawn,2018/11/15,"I feel like we need to replace all the helpful content we've lost from r/proed One of the things I'm going to miss most about the old subreddit was being able to search for a problem and find an answer right away. Not only was that super helpful in a practical way, but it was really supportive knowing that someone else has gone through almost the exact same thing. 

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Discovering what the whoosh effect was, how eating more calories/protein rich foods can trigger a whoosh, that the ACV drinks are mostly BS and can trigger acid reflux when fasting...all of this was helpful in the practical sense, but also helped ease anxiety and proved that other people are thinking the same thoughts and going through the same things. This was tremendously helpful for my mental health, and no doubt others felt the same. I no longer have that vast library of old posts to scroll through that reaffirm that I'm not alone in my messed up thoughts. 

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Proed was like group therapy. Not everyone is ready to recover, and for those still dealing with an ED in full swing, finding these posts can help prevent a negative thought spiral that could make things worse, and help us deal with things safely. Would Reddit rather someone think ""fuck, I gained 3 lbs overnight, better starve myself for 3 days"" or check Reddit to see if that's normal and find loads of useful posts about the whoosh effect, water weight, BM's etc that will make them instead think ""wow okay that's totally normal...maybe I'll have a yogurt tonight, cut down on carbs, stick to 800 cals and weigh myself in 3 days to see if the scale goes down"". Like, that's much better than the alternative, right? 

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Honestly, I'm just so mad right now. I'm hoping this sub will take off and we can fill it with posts that can hopefully help prevent the negative thoughts that some of us have without a proper support network. ",6.7784456213819455,7.9062306997167155,5.538428377879052,82.69095085601677,64.94900849858358,8.065476043847765,31.211848749846038,8.04050195162591,2.1609298928439458,1539,56,272,17,23,453,202,353,0.12,0.674,0.20600000000000002,0.9882,0,1,1,0,0,0,60.0,4,0,1,7,11,23,3,1,22,1,24,8,0,8,4,71,55,19,0,10,11,0,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,29,15,6,3,17,1,2,4,8,8,0,1,14,6,12,15,39,36,13,33,0,2,2,1,16,16,1,10,11,171,41,0,0.06208701611468225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217117818795784,0.06430342423045184,0.0,0.0496509643554903,0.0,0.3363562801028843,0.3772126017095098,0.0,0.0,0.04749639738809573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833279541933585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982184061117817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049571430301092165,0.0,0.0,0.08008197812655989,0.12801797476501672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060821639018489575,0.0,0.0635305175258852,0.051865735131918014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924343492938492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059326804578201824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03139306085368627,0.0443549767179014,0.059613272014405284,0.0,0.17023922378305456,0.0,0.07507586633338466,0.0,0.0,0.05739844594117473,0.0,0.0,0.07057096410764352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06599559481014386,0.0,0.0,0.3329249453083256,0.0,0.0,0.1233328321842478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03412140034088389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099773981194004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777531233517319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288713074026338,0.0,0.06237475274935848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256910922156253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04564110066792552,0.04603673574731226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166418694136523,0.0,0.0,0.1302997585041743,0.0,0.042071768943915205,0.047219973503312564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043043319489540016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378487960057328,0.0,0.0,0.059408889387070986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039774532351973806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906591757273816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895062682065453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521225454797524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04958277127025349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140911220245026,0.0,0.0,0.046681709293748735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100191386424723,0.0,0.2062392734981231,0.11934855888736699,0.0,0.19716062243223664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493660716265968,0.05362324745981244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049281783479113175,0.0,0.07560525928815723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05984966795421691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06327197366304113,0.044104834884353315,0.0,0.3772126017095098,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkdonutdemon,2018/11/15,"AND ANOTHER THING The fact that eating disorders are so isolating, humiliating, embarrassing, makes this proED ban sting that much more. It takes so much courage to be able to admit to people what we’re going through because there’s so much stigma, yet here we had a beautiful, supportive, kind, nurturing community of people who never judged. Most people irl or even just on other subs judge hardcore and it hurts so badly. The world says you’re too fat to have an ED, or you’re dumb for doing this to yourself, or you’re seeking attention, or you’re a bad person for having these thoughts, and most people use the label “ed” as an insult. I’m so fucking ashamed of the person my ED has made me, and I know my thoughts are messed up- I don’t want to parade this shit around, nobody does. I’ve lost so many friends, so many plans were cancelled so I could be alone and binge, so many hours and days and weeks of my life I’ve lost to this shit, it’s depressing. Despite that though I knew there was ONE fucking place I could go to and feel like I wasn’t a monster or broken or crazy, find stories just like mine, have people tell me things would be ok, and find harm reduction methods so I could at least be safe, and it did nothing for me but make me feel comforted. Now it feels like I’ve just lost my only safe place. Back to reality where my disorder somehow makes me a shitty human being and I should be ashamed for having it (imagine if people used that logic for depression or whatever lol)
I guess we’ll all have to move to the fasting/1200 is plenty subreddits now, because disordered behaviours are only OK to discuss if you pretend like they’re normal lollllll!",6.797856169052488,6.499782616564418,6.820572597137016,78.42032038173147,64.85889570552146,9.821131561008864,32.22154055896387,9.2995712137729,2.6619201090661213,1327,46,256,21,18,424,183,326,0.17800000000000002,0.71,0.11199999999999999,-0.9670000000000001,0,1,1,0,0,0,34.0,2,1,0,4,26,33,6,3,11,3,29,7,3,6,3,62,55,33,0,9,13,0,3,4,1,3,2,1,0,3,20,13,2,3,13,1,0,3,3,19,0,1,12,4,23,14,26,31,8,19,0,6,0,2,13,8,5,13,12,164,43,0,0.08701111274806059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901172716283766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123873835502072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774583377729333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06690617482779901,0.14530128937604614,0.1060823334465352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084138801119303,0.0,0.0,0.05611496947274002,0.0,0.14988508782254426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29916682049568744,0.0,0.07614401112336938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890340906893771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0574700193487455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319862989905004,0.12432151266571374,0.0,0.0,0.15905316142502124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06722456986875418,0.16088074331438096,0.0,0.0,0.09890084109320596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585255041157892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856884190028987,0.0,0.09314719580343707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060868429632876,0.04781903202915029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061458522158267276,0.17003693835052905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849487241698613,0.0,0.0,0.08233201872290641,0.17424178023508172,0.2646468341770976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247904269923306,0.19188953849031865,0.0,0.0671083342162563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852524162846091,0.08348950938445207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05896098186338319,0.13235174423161086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619352991521353,0.15194949495306606,0.1818161869008109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06919472922760128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786313137051915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873917961816278,0.0,0.0,0.06542152811995137,0.0,0.07605154771184287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561263402497232,0.0,0.08548797649542009,0.13815420857270286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15029932899415108,0.0,0.0,0.0513214086790021,0.0,0.06979506621708084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06181019802543788,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WayToGoMeggo,2018/11/15,"Fuck reddit I’ve been in a constant cycle of restrict and binge since middle school. I’m 25 now. I didn’t understand that it was related to disordered eating until I started to talk about it on proED. I had another account specifically for proED because I was scared of my friends seeing my posts (some of my friends know my Reddit account) but aside from keeping my friends out of my weird food issues, I’ve always liked being relatively open on reddit. I like the sense of community we can find in various subreddits. I especially like that I can feel safe in certain groups. I’m not ready for group therapy for some of the shit I’ve been through, but proED is about the closest thing I’ve ever had to it. I’m so angry that the subreddit was taken away because it’s so clear that admins didn’t take the time to see what the subreddit was about or try to understand how inclusive and safe the community was. It was a constant source of support and kindness when so many of us have a life full of the opposite. I’m so fucking mad. That’s all I have. I just needed to vent. Clearly that’s not allowed on Reddit though. ",4.894864864864863,5.8254027207207235,5.809027027027027,79.77516216216219,69.0900900900901,8.983063063063065,31.46666666666667,9.21078282632365,2.7094699099099104,892,37,172,17,15,294,120,222,0.08800000000000001,0.711,0.20199999999999999,0.9837,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,0,13,17,4,1,11,0,18,6,1,2,5,31,36,14,0,1,6,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,13,6,2,4,5,0,2,0,4,6,0,0,13,3,17,11,32,22,5,21,0,0,2,2,8,12,3,3,11,114,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1172469269818546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14775455470885668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238791112720374,0.0,0.0,0.17179268612723794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30454345456667514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614930278628092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418428685991322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745955215925514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07124742986226043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878756033399655,0.0,0.1703867789721489,0.0,0.32659602375701685,0.2605347576941605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470715725998391,0.0,0.12524570029867066,0.0,0.1467342276135575,0.07743947265670244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952764295386032,0.2065219162633556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14285881868434785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448165970598246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495112415306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107370988143064,0.14260664139479529,0.22457121582024586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464026294877114,0.11656073570895238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973556338338574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15990097824491278,0.0,0.0,0.10594544521345237,0.11325668974652077,0.0,0.0,0.16114082987021644,0.0,0.09361316019413032,0.0,0.13844161074315126,0.0,0.08216471624969374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566743193759092,0.0,0.0,0.2933808528798547,0.1694952391169546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawaybride2701,2018/11/15,"18+ Discord link (Mods please delete if not allowed)

Hi lovelies,
While we are all missing the subs, I wanted to share a link to a discord for adults with ED.

We are an over 18s group, dealing with ED in our adult lives, which comes with it's own unique problems.

https://discord.gg/KCNb8ez ",4.118333333333332,6.6123289814814825,3.0442222222222237,92.47300000000004,74.0,5.060740740740742,25.61481481481481,5.6839178017228535,0.4250192592592592,231,8,46,1,5,66,45,54,0.218,0.7070000000000001,0.076,-0.8140000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,1,1,14,6,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,2,4,0,1,0,1,10,2,0,1,1,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35561441403313754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256071174942592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3645343248106481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37259301731750666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4531607233856579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39502024949196624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434964082344317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ThaiChai_,2018/11/15,I’ve made a voat It’s called: v/TheProED,-4.691333333333334,-5.861464799999999,-0.12999999999999726,101.93166666666669,147.0,5.333333333333334,13.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.028666666666666618,32,1,9,1,3,12,10,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7334919382265435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6796981510616817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bloodbunnyy,2018/11/15,r/thinspo has now been set to private :( What a horrible day,-0.375,1.807411500000004,2.4833333333333343,87.94500000000002,100.66666666666666,5.7333333333333325,31.0,7.1686216300943375,2.5307,46,3,9,1,2,16,12,12,0.41600000000000004,0.584,0.0,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HopefulPeony,2018/11/15,"ProED: What it meant to me and how it saved my life. Hello friends, 

This is going to be a long personal story, but I feel it's something important that I need to get out of my heart. 

Some time ago I had BED, I was 215lbs at 5 feet tall and miserable. I was long since diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and depression. I hated myself. And one day I decided that I would either be thin or die trying and that I was 100% okay with either of those situations. 

I stopped eating. Just one day, stopped. I went from eating enough to be still gaining weight to not at all. I had only raw spinach and 100calories of protein powder while working out for 2 or more hours a day for almost 7 months. I lost more than 100lbs in that time. 

I was able to keep it from everyone. I had light classes in University, basically lived alone, and knew I wouldn't see my family until the summer. I was getting sick but I hid it. Oh its just the anxiety, or the migraines I have always had. I was getting scared though, but not ready to stop. I needed to lose weight, I needed it more than I needed to live. 

I didn't know about extended fasts, or electrolytes or any of that and asked for help from loseit. They shamed me, called me names, on my primary account I still get shitty messages sometimes telling me I'm disgusting or worthless. Asking how my bf could love a damaged headcase like me. I started thinking dying was the better option, and that it would all be worth it to be a pretty thin corpse. 

All this time people kept saying how great I was doing. How good it was, how strong, how amazing. Now I couldn't stop. I would make all those things untrue. It was all I had at that time. Fat Girls Can't Have Eating Disorders, didn't you know?

In this time thank god someone (as an insult) sent me to proED. For the first time in this I felt like I wasn't some random fucked up mess that the world vomited out. I learned about how to properly keep hydrated. I never commented, but finally I wasn't alone. I felt validated and started to think I wanted to live. I wasn't ready to try, but not ready to die anymore either. 

People started to notice. I fainted in class. I played it off. I fainted at the gym. I said I got over heated. I fainted in the shower and hit my head. I felt like this was a sign, the end was coming. I couldn't stop now even when I wanted. I couldn't say anything, I can't explain it but I was paralyzed. 

Then I was hospitalized. My therapist was called and as the doctor spoke to me he asked me when I last ate. I couldn't answer. He asked about my ED. The therapist chimed in that I couldn't have one because I was ""still chubby."" The doctor kicked him out of the room. He asked if I had heard of Atypical Anorexia, which I had, only because of ProED. For another moment I was paralyzed again, I wanted help but I just couldn't say it. I didn't want to gain any weight back, that still terrifies me honestly. But I remembered the people of ProED, their kindness, their ""stay safes"" and I realized that was what I wanted. To be safe. 

I got help that day. I ""recovered."" My family never found out why exactly I was in the hospital. Honestly they may have an idea and prefer to not acknowledge it, or just don't know how. I was very sick for a time. I probably would have died or got seriously injured, most likely falling in my shower while living alone. 

ProED saved me then. And it has helped me not relapse many others. And now even though I am losing weight, it has helped me do so in a much safer way, and with a goal weight that is actually still in the healthy BMI range. The ban didn't take away my mental illness, just as banning r/ anxiety wouldn't cure me of my anxiety. It just took away the only people who ever understood and supported me though this entire ordeal. 

TLDR: ProED saved my life, and I love you all. Though we may not know each other personally, I love each and every one of you. I want you to all live and be happy, to the highest degree you can. And I want to support you the way ProED supported me. 

HopefulPeony out. 
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EDAnonymous,7x-2x,2018/11/15,"What can we do to make sure this sub doesn’t get banned too? Did Reddit tell the mods exactly why the sub was banned? If they did, could we make rules here to keep this sub safe?

I know reddit  admin talked to the mods of /r/madeofstyrofoam just a few weeks ago, and the mods added some new rules to the sub so that they wouldn’t get taken down.

I’m heartbroken that /r/proed didn’t get the same chance to stick around.

Are there any rules we need to make/follow? What can we do differently this time so that we don’t get banned?",4.1966883116883125,4.499443318181823,4.054935064935067,93.97954545454547,70.36363636363636,7.740259740259741,19.350649350649352,7.447530270364453,-0.07475324675324703,415,4,101,4,7,126,64,110,0.125,0.813,0.063,-0.8426,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,5,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,7,0,13,0,0,2,2,24,24,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,5,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,8,2,9,17,3,6,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,4,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20434500013095047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567637517893055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052146144542829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840541004957985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408477884316003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4817556476376106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048997046167335,0.0,0.0,0.1266895792446007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616282866486316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093010906218792,0.0,0.22264084361034966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2172654860112476,0.0,0.0,0.18528589979210214,0.20148752853551344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344199924574869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18491188962170504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20801142637102216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,papsandwiles,2018/11/15,"A Love Letter to All of You I love all of you. I've been in recovery for a few months now and so I haven't been active on the sub, but I wrote a slam poem about how much r/proed meant to me before I found out it disappeared. It's not totally finished but here is the rough draft. I'm so sorry this happened. 

P.S. Here are my socials if anyone needs someone to talk to: 

Twitter: @bambisambi 

Insta: @thiccbrowz 

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EDAnonymous,PsychologicalUse1w,2018/11/15,what the fuck I’m actually really fucking sad that proED is gone. fuck.,0.07976190476190226,1.7984579285714304,3.087142857142858,81.24119047619047,112.57142857142858,7.580952380952381,18.952380952380953,7.793537801064563,1.9531238095238104,57,2,11,2,3,20,13,14,0.516,0.484,0.0,-0.8927,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.3243006948527817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9216857118864804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21289553264997066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,squishykiss,2018/11/15,"general health concerns earlier tonight when I was reading in total silence, one of my ears started ringing quietly in a high pitched frequency. It went away after a minute but I did some googling and apparently other people struggling with ED’s have experienced this too. 

I also am worried that my restricting is causing me to break out. Normally restricting clears up my skin, and I’m super careful about my nutrient intake so I always avoid junk/sugary/oily foods. I don’t consume very much dairy or meat, either. Acne just destroys my self confidence and I’m scared that it’s going to return with a vengeance.

Has anyone else dealt with random, potentially concerning health issues like this? ",5.743218475073316,8.460610814516134,5.935395894428152,72.58673020527861,69.88709677419354,8.702639296187684,33.8533724340176,9.339509955726095,3.75197741935484,567,28,84,13,11,180,99,124,0.182,0.7,0.11800000000000001,-0.871,1,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,1,3,3,0,7,5,2,1,2,21,13,8,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,7,7,1,3,0,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,3,5,11,3,13,10,4,14,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,3,6,56,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996620848862342,0.16644336654076286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986762899541674,0.2049573072121548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18793745972311332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039468355971508,0.20548885216833448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671017896072481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24188053227655454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368328595654105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4252511593991953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113457026130049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878233908637853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772595294442772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704717058105418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19598973500812975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554744504420355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386776009063519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20008699500551266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20026779215027216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20867790193900915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14158429018731947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091177804827048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16504806133544514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18543246829651489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20314308247882285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,zerocaloriewater,2018/11/15,"lurker who made an acc to say, omfg. idk how long this subreddit is gonna last but i just want to thank every past poster and/or fellow lurker that made me feel safe, made me laugh, etc. and here’s to a fresh start yeah?! ",0.6789130434782606,2.840894282608698,1.5936521739130465,100.02308695652177,84.43478260869566,4.5495652173913035,11.37391304347826,5.6839178017228535,-1.4776295652173914,171,1,40,1,5,53,40,46,0.022000000000000002,0.6679999999999999,0.31,0.9476,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,0,10,9,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,3,3,5,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883907108790415,0.0,0.0,0.21786907714380524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074838279609322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21078134782858332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288396528889456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7340383467392491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468487122089472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563722932727102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302784598469188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23807039371925195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252017608463742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,123alialiali,2018/11/15,I'm actually so upset. i want the same community of people who understood my weird struggles ):,3.8764705882352932,7.004732235294122,7.160294117647062,58.866323529411794,79.58823529411767,10.458823529411768,32.029411764705884,10.125756701596842,4.896788235294119,76,4,11,3,2,28,16,17,0.452,0.479,0.069,-0.8311,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.5756569862450249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089621575702726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6166912185787348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479381105751965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bewareofzombiesadele,2018/11/15,"Discord link Anyone who wants to join the ED support discord, I just made one! Comment and I’ll send you a link ❤️",-0.30733333333333235,1.8161860000000016,1.8200000000000005,96.85666666666668,89.0,3.333333333333334,24.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.022466666666666857,90,4,20,0,3,30,22,25,0.20600000000000002,0.616,0.17800000000000002,-0.2003,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748731577641874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5072972692809093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3632942026367896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6083916921788671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162221804147724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Yellowdoor,2018/11/15,"First they came for fatpeoplehate And I did not speak out because the only fat person I hate is myself. 

Then they came for the incles and I did not speak out because I’m not a misogynistic virgin.

But then they came for our proED... 
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EDAnonymous,_BoogieDown,2018/11/15,"is this the new chill spot? Suffering from /ProEd withdrawal (before I get a site-wide ban let me state I do not condone the use of addictive drugs), would be great to be able to talk to the community albeit in a different spot. 


pm if you don't want your username or subreddit revealed.",4.578214285714285,5.8152175357142895,5.4628571428571435,80.83214285714288,70.07142857142857,9.885714285714286,30.07142857142857,10.125756701596842,2.9958000000000014,226,9,45,6,4,74,47,56,0.136,0.774,0.08900000000000001,-0.4063,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,7,2,0,1,0,8,10,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,6,6,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,27,6,0,0.3006877450201175,0.0,0.0,0.3277940252500561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558631243132384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31415469542181906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487023221823507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570969363440058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315093004056701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074735915010813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29040609784436505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241681419597824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259697668987088,0.0,0.0,0.17735342256370573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21359994690942616,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AnnaGreen3,2018/11/15,"Can we do something? Is there something we can do to recover r/proED? Like explaining to reddit that it was not a place for eating disorder promotion, but a community of people with mental issues supporting each other, and by taking it away it is causing more problems and pain? ",7.6647058823529415,8.168704490196081,8.392941176470586,65.16823529411766,62.92156862745098,11.505882352941176,36.607843137254896,11.20814326018867,4.6070078431372545,223,10,34,6,3,75,41,51,0.188,0.7190000000000001,0.094,-0.7667,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,1,0,11,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,7,9,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,30,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24685253521044934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269905979308074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011223835116054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688482388296145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27423191622666065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12836131378880292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647797542732278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27957349533265624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821505803636536,0.0,0.2745069964803446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514063461867709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40453961344084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29815382330839363,0.0,0.0,0.1975475065832234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinsponeeded,2018/11/15,"Chat group? Hi all!

On the chance that this sub gets banned too, would someone be willing to make a chat group and adds people that want to be added? That way, if some of us want to stay in contact with support buddies or find an open-minded, recovery welcome space in the future, we have some familiar 'faces'? It can be posted in the DM chat if people go off-reddit and what not. Peach is great and all, but I've been using it for about a year and it can be super buggy.

I'd make a chat group, but I'm super, super busy this week and don't have time to do so until later this weekend. Would someone be willing to try this?",4.1582307692307685,4.179118630769231,4.9075000000000015,88.82125000000002,70.38461538461539,7.115384615384617,24.711538461538463,5.985473137389443,0.5708461538461536,482,11,106,2,8,156,83,130,0.03,0.792,0.17800000000000002,0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,2,0,0,3,3,6,0,0,7,0,17,1,1,3,2,27,26,12,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,11,8,0,1,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,14,16,4,16,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,5,7,68,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963129309631916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122182023139974,0.0,0.12206933716865935,0.0,0.0,0.2368052401762493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28674617775783184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21687530281651826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978148050584957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20570814953368907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639794450052175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22893611779828185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437396098018487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252449866035583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458273913465266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25836429457211224,0.18550842707110848,0.0,0.0,0.25337581645452883,0.1704892293835947,0.17229049574477326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30515938266361603,0.0,0.0,0.138316845720971
EDAnonymous,Aisukyubuu,2018/11/15,Another one r/th*nspo is gone too now. ,0.2325000000000017,2.5502272500000025,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,89.0,8.200000000000001,33.0,8.841846274778883,3.67135,30,2,6,1,1,11,8,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8398884685967344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5427590260126792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ikorelle,2019/05/10,Wanting to go vegan for the environment But being absolutely terrified of having to eat so many carbs.,9.55,9.994762888888893,11.752222222222226,42.86500000000001,59.0,16.088888888888892,40.22222222222222,14.554592549557764,7.318488888888887,84,4,11,4,1,31,17,18,0.20199999999999999,0.7979999999999999,0.0,-0.6478,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6175141269535254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34297349515092634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6118373965617167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35595011561363976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,asunder7pm,2019/05/10,"Why do some people have a higher BMI than me but seem skinnier Throwaway account because I cant post this on main lol
This is going to sound really dumb because I know the answer is probably body dysmorphia, but a friend one mine mentioned off handedly to me that her BMI is like ""in the middle of healthy"" so she's probably about 22ish. My BMI is 19 but to me she is so much thinner looking than me??????

Also how the hell do people just talk about their weight and BMI to others so casually? Once she brought it up a bunch of my other friends started talking about it and I absolutely cant fathom even the thought of opening my mouth and saying something in reference to my weight in front of people completely out of my free will.
Eds are fucking wild",6.850945945945945,6.357659905405406,7.012837837837839,77.73452702702704,64.81081081081078,9.832432432432434,35.39189189189189,9.188382445141503,3.0669837837837832,598,25,114,9,8,193,96,148,0.067,0.7709999999999999,0.162,0.9426,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,10,8,3,0,7,1,12,6,3,1,0,16,20,11,0,0,4,0,3,1,2,1,0,2,0,0,7,5,2,0,5,1,2,3,2,3,0,1,2,6,18,6,22,17,4,14,1,0,1,1,11,9,3,2,2,84,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358387987781492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070929306873092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18867869319136474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17809736203875895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219242966206447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26247034234650474,0.15703493476093053,0.0,0.0,0.09653664452882016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933518632538195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298612677542515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264152886447487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486831565353113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18089777761222456,0.11510307261899805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532833384475847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268110377938266,0.0,0.3662805208456005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881812200002737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350812976892222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463623424743358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13076827688877815,0.0,0.0,0.12022939148595355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730577224012745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13485167138846182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4136929760107725,0.0,0.0,0.15327428148078862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,midnightregrets,2019/05/10,"I just received a warning from my boss because of my ED on my second work day... and all my co-workers were able to hear. I want to die. Hi guys, it's my first time posting on reddit and I'm really nervous. I've been writing and deleting this for the past hour. I hope you guys don't think I'm a crybaby, but I really need to vent and I hope it's okay to do that here.

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I've been a NEET for quite some time and I finally managed to get a job. For the past days I've been really happy and for the first time in forever, I was able to have some hope that it isn't too late for me. But then, work began.

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On the first day, my boss compared my body to two other girls working there and made a comment about how ''Real guys prefer girls with a little extra bit of meat on her bones''. I just kept nodding and tried to get this conversation over with.  He also reprimanded the girl training me and she came back crying really hard. She kept telling me how she couldn't wait to quit working there. It was quite the awful first impression.

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Today was my second day and it was... really hard. I was finished with my work and got sent to his office. He left the door open and confronted me about not eating lunch like everyone else. (Which maybe was not that smart on my part, but I figured nobody would really care). He kept asking me to explain and I eventually admitted I ''have problems eating''. He dropped *lovely* intermissions like ''Was dieting necessary for you? Were you obese before?'' and he proceeded to tell me about his own diet and gym routine.

He then scolded me for not telling him about it during the job interview and compared me to another girl working there that has diabetes and she *did* tell him. I actually felt really bad about it and apologized to him and the inconveniences I maybe caused my co-workers.

Then followed an absurd pattern on complimenting me on my work and telling me that I am a good fit for the company and then immediately saying that I formed a ''potential liability'' because of my ED. I really thought I was being laid off, but I didn't.  I now kind of wish that I did, because I feel like everyone would be disappointed if I were to quit.

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He ended the conversation by saying he wants to help me, like how he helped an employee quit smoking. But in the end, that it was ''my problem''. I apologized profusely and when leaving, realized that everyone downstairs was able to hear.

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I have never felt this ashamed in my whole life. What do I do... I just want to work again and feel happy again. But this just makes me feel like I'm right for thinking I need to die and hate myself.",3.937173076923077,5.476577601923083,5.001538461538463,82.35846153846154,72.01923076923076,8.353846153846153,27.80769230769231,8.912814788092511,2.1665615384615395,2083,77,410,41,40,684,224,520,0.11900000000000001,0.784,0.09699999999999999,-0.9162,4,0,0,0,0,1,80.0,0,3,0,17,23,26,2,2,22,2,34,11,2,8,2,88,75,40,2,16,14,0,7,5,0,2,3,4,1,7,24,29,6,4,13,1,0,4,8,8,0,7,30,11,69,18,54,40,9,55,0,1,0,1,54,17,0,6,37,275,93,14,0.15116403137782464,0.0,0.049171429650359616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040295273759595365,0.0,0.2729769414036796,0.3061347397530081,0.0,0.05283622237811572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04710598789799822,0.0,0.0,0.0387452697769154,0.04207188402489157,0.09214819047410892,0.0,0.04287648564851101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05501065704123639,0.05596972045641887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057630460446259926,0.051373934848089116,0.051762366757957735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055348863450821344,0.12998439300052916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045895992316562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10311902816087952,0.042092717090442516,0.0,0.08925764262610446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14444370997376071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643307623557029,0.07199440948021305,0.09676078387226986,0.05519760251164229,0.0,0.17144006382372856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052651311553067764,0.0,0.0,0.04226307253027591,0.0402998949966382,0.0,0.0,0.14967615703920434,0.0,0.10727794819029077,0.0902755203152308,0.04974772846650753,0.0,0.0,0.11358189975331352,0.0,0.06754804255435301,0.0,0.0,0.1501399912646698,0.0496220404106144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000465076653778,0.0,0.0,0.05247135897737744,0.0,0.0,0.056839870545313566,0.05335362762201359,0.054746720797330985,0.0,0.03559054193789027,0.12308518356841305,0.05050202388550815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045477146718769734,0.047678353827689576,0.03363438825087955,0.0,0.10124305823053144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472414258278019,0.038862339988504586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05456530505162101,0.09620211501120796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048257785487409936,0.0,0.0,0.0964290419201428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679692575312162,0.0,0.05735258724202764,0.2582387980716738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04303108561680905,0.0,0.0801411366877337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202067104143428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457320504722955,0.0,0.040002451909278425,0.08814496232534832,0.0,0.04776194219997426,0.0,0.0,0.0342101515459734,0.0,0.04922176455443247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916046223164473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05625641421818736,0.05794372530402221,0.0,0.0,0.36683071732660294,0.0,0.0,0.07158839385524432,0.0,0.3061347397530081,0.0
EDAnonymous,hertha2919,2019/05/10,"Spiralling I’m so fucking sad and I hate who I am and I can feel myself spiralling back into a binge phase where I’ll gain back the 10lbs I lost and hate myself even more.

I’m just in a really bad place and wish I could just eat like a normal fucking person. 

You guys make me feel less alone and I don’t know what I’d do without this sub.

❤️",0.4632467532467537,1.9743792207792232,2.3389610389610382,97.88558441558443,81.46753246753245,4.919480519480519,17.493506493506494,5.288315135182226,-0.7451506493506491,268,5,66,1,7,89,53,77,0.239,0.654,0.106,-0.8956,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,2,7,8,4,0,4,0,5,3,0,1,0,16,17,6,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,6,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,1,2,10,1,3,15,2,6,0,2,0,2,4,4,2,0,3,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148849989596613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31907608937728554,0.17323575632186272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656545802367182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123021496262962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13703749375472918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20981457611678286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836207836196234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543618673138556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096838335593079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402467542748307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136344193606288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22648712871712764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849341007921045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20328473170129036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116209287581853,0.21677071679524695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132915944140769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385898637486656,0.20000172603541624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lacoke,2019/05/10,"DAE find r/1200isjerky toxic and triggering almost every post on that sub just seems so insensitive and invalidating, its such a negative community, i genuinely can't wrap my head around the need for it...",18.54342857142857,11.409134200000004,16.602857142857143,38.36714285714285,49.85714285714285,20.857142857142858,55.0,17.122413403193686,8.552428571428571,167,7,25,6,1,55,34,35,0.171,0.8290000000000001,0.0,-0.7344,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,1,0,9,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.387160950314947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34418876348703503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257582171065169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533790714697692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968009473171159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28668632123140025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37029122085497934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3519796622818073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rainistheworst,2019/05/10,"I lost my periods I've seen that this is a rarely discussed part of ed's : losing periods. I started restricting and excercising more in january (i also have binge/purge episodes so i'm not even sure what disorder i might be fighting. I've written about those in r/bulimia as well. )

I had a normal BMI when i started but i thought it wasn't thin enough. I've lost 11 pounds since then and i last had my period in february. 

It's not too long ago and i've had my periods for 3 years. My cycle has never been regular but this is certainly the longest i haven't bled lol

So i'm just wondering have other people lost theirs and what is there to do? What damage can it do? I know about some hormonal unbalance stuff. I really don't want to see a doctor because they'll push me through recovery.",1.5060021786492401,3.7789683148148185,3.6412854030501087,85.92931372549023,81.90123456790123,8.009295570079884,24.961510530137982,8.841846274778883,2.1465275236020336,625,25,129,17,17,213,106,162,0.16899999999999998,0.8,0.031,-0.9516,0,0,0,0,2,0,15.0,0,0,2,4,12,9,1,0,4,1,19,1,0,0,3,20,33,12,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,12,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,6,6,1,0,11,3,18,3,11,19,4,18,0,5,2,0,4,4,0,3,13,86,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423675112519938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391443537964068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10606620595692784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19941422583285154,0.17809204264676032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797841416234014,0.0,0.11492256458828412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562352439053444,0.1418297748346487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539807804477709,0.0,0.1946567593828216,0.5698108079456367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458201483773304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13419626373500118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047891105310967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884204623204392,0.0,0.12062675827890648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114661451899411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865210077422085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439310983360494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463102020354329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19918352765403688,0.0,0.0,0.16398895335113586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13813320525866754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10262721277129848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644309259648628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886909895756364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204757071366693
EDAnonymous,Tay-tertot,2019/02/27,"Watch me, this is accountability I am flying to SF to see an ex in april and I will be damned if I don't lose at least 20 before I see them. ",10.341818181818184,2.3675831818181834,11.22545454545455,73.35818181818183,65.66666666666667,14.412121212121216,36.03030303030303,8.841846274778883,2.6492666666666658,107,1,30,1,1,39,28,33,0.084,0.843,0.073,-0.08800000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,6,0,4,5,1,3,0,1,3,0,2,2,1,1,1,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004337189179638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5264649594209411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7499916554572031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coldpizzainthetrash,2019/02/27,"I heard someone purging in the bathroom I was going to the bathroom before class periods and heard retching and was instantly like nope fuck that and was hurrying up to pee, for some reason other people vomiting grosses me our but me doing it isn't gross to me??? Lmao but anyways, when I came out my stall I was washing my hands and kind of looking at the stall waiting for the person to come out so I could ask them if they were alright  and the door opens and it's a girl from my gym class. 

There was tears on her face and I asked if her if she was sick and she was like no I was making my self throw up and Y'ALL WHEN I TELL Y'ALL MY HEART FUCKING DROPPED AND I FELT FOR HER I ALMOST STARTED FUCKING CRYING RIGHT THEN AND THERE. she is the most sweetest kindest girl I've ever fucking met she doesn't deserve to go through something like that. So I was standing by the sink and asking her questions like ""are you okay?"", ""what's wrong?"" And she said she just has to stop eating and I was like no you don't you need food to nourish your body or some bs like that but not trying to let on how much I knew and she just kept repeating I have to stop eating I just have to.  Attempted to scare her off and said she could get throat cancer from it and she was like I know I've been doing this since I'm six.

When I tell y'all I almosted reached out to hug her right then and there I honestly didn't know what to say because shes beautiful she's not fat she's an amazing sweet girl and the fact that someone in my realm of being purges too shook the fuck out of me. 


I don't even know what to say you guys. I feel so fucking bad. I want to help her stop but I'm so fuckung scared and angry and baffled ",0.5993012820512861,2.7330231138888905,1.9405555555555551,97.59076923076924,84.52777777777777,4.6923076923076925,20.34188034188034,5.8734145424116955,-0.16808760683760715,1331,40,304,9,39,425,178,360,0.145,0.688,0.16699999999999998,0.8358,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,8,2,1,18,27,6,3,11,2,30,21,7,3,2,67,64,39,0,7,13,0,3,7,0,0,5,6,1,6,12,28,4,5,8,1,0,6,10,13,0,1,23,11,62,14,37,37,4,35,0,0,1,7,50,15,6,10,19,210,74,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18557688523457852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598817222380323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07736959543135713,0.056486403227512035,0.0,0.07884924635609387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292751866204168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598159584704858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982082611985912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14796746498977462,0.0,0.10178577147250806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896344239150705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061202927593259585,0.08381883793508324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04685311281695401,0.0,0.0889708516189726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11204826606563884,0.0,0.0,0.5139917784507292,0.04841250597882739,0.0,0.10532484737143362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175077358069704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980590383461482,0.062109944036715325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649408173428388,0.1527752098237495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475402533809886,0.0,0.31689265902395675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781344239696235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061853160890349465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068117844534206,0.06870831690309177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06424074140011121,0.08090961202754376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103803580389586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952728257963471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582671069912081,0.17628714844036994,0.1473784088031467,0.1855433229622244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666754433857264,0.0,0.0,0.07665165341060963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702583622022084,0.07133637631368095,0.0,0.0,0.06558723047411248,0.0,0.0,0.2324108338830171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16198280149230018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291198138860148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465494000105317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013122619612333,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PM_Me_Your_Furbabies,2019/02/27,"I want to scream but then I'd be OvErReAcTiNg My boyfriend ate my 10 cal jelly while I was out catching pokemon FOR HIM. MY LOW CALORIE SNACK. A SNACK I FEEL SAFE EATING. Out of all the flavours I had in the fridge he also took my favourite one, black forest gateau. 
This was after I had just cooked him a huge bowl of pho. I'm furious but he doesn't get why I'm so mad and I have to downplay it otherwise I'll be the weird one. 'I'll buy you a new one' that's not the point. I know they only cost like 70p but they're MY snack. I buy them because I feel safe eating it.

This is why I hide food. ",-0.9270454545454572,1.0587045530303063,1.1259848484848511,101.68397727272728,90.5909090909091,4.20909090909091,16.583333333333336,5.602791699666715,-0.87340303030303,459,11,117,3,16,151,85,132,0.15,0.732,0.11800000000000001,-0.6456,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,0,3,8,2,0,7,0,9,8,0,0,1,15,18,8,0,1,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,3,8,2,3,1,3,2,2,5,0,3,6,5,20,3,9,10,1,12,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,0,5,64,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17938236222151313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673861753863398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590547013489519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268379471133172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712391677286712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719385127891215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12327610299027095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10958759637518453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21664209266777548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4559991972338809,0.17059951404800505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120475058315314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24921907565531415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323051302682521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40481368986092253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rachaelbelle,2019/02/27,"11 pounds lost in 3 days ....because psychosis makes me so sick that I throw up consistently and my heart rate is over 160 bpm resting ripppp

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EDAnonymous,petitcherub,2019/02/27,I think purging made me a bad drinker anyone else have problems keeping alcohol down after starting to purge regularly? I've been purging for half a year now & lately Ive had multiple times where drinking makes me soooo sick & im left throwing up bile multiple times before i can rest & feel ok. I never had a problem keeping large amounts of booze down before & now im an even messier drunk - sigh,6.025443037974683,6.739129265822786,5.9568101265822815,80.4967341772152,66.46835443037975,8.345316455696205,36.05316455696203,8.238735603445708,2.8897979746835447,328,16,60,4,5,103,58,79,0.15,0.78,0.07,-0.8096,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,1,6,5,0,2,1,9,13,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,2,0,1,1,3,1,1,4,1,6,1,7,9,2,15,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,9,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15761868288917272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6392081420405293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031262961668582,0.15111779699801034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314543254738927,0.0,0.0,0.2510010423195648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448105020135427,0.0,0.0,0.12320641143930296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741373144861867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457382724916005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31862240346549464,0.0,0.0,0.26218633390228546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1663716899414107,0.0,0.1602449894839443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13955570665160952,0.0984486762506487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375101872919832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822501618981614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439201370111416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450367449443972,0.0,0.0,0.1720016390044281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497675240780347
EDAnonymous,softcoffee,2019/02/27,"Awkward moments where people question your food intake. Last night I was with my friends, laughing and talking before we were about to leave campus and go home. During this I was eating Sabra hummus with pretzels, and a mixed fruit cup. So two friends leave and it's just me and this one girl, and while I'm getting ready she asks me what I'm going to eat now for dinner. Of course I told her ""I already ate"", and she looked at me for a little bit and was like ""*That* was dinner?"" I got so awkward I just started laughing and hiding my face while thinking of what to say. She kept asking me and was like ""Are you serious?"". I just told her I ate earlier (and what when she asked that) and rambled about how I would be too tired to cook when I got home because I still have homework to do. I'm glad she didn't push me about it, but yeah I got called out. ",2.58342857142857,4.0076516571428575,3.2427142857142885,94.07778571428574,75.28571428571428,5.457142857142856,23.357142857142854,5.288315135182226,0.13488571428571428,660,19,145,2,14,207,103,175,0.051,0.8390000000000001,0.111,0.8779,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,2,0,0,16,10,0,2,2,1,12,11,1,1,0,25,32,20,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,3,1,9,16,9,1,2,1,0,3,1,3,0,2,15,3,29,7,16,15,1,17,0,0,1,0,22,4,0,1,12,97,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15310913910319665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891250152555051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457798543254975,0.0,0.11806222433410493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514741806408871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416746956845272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839426238345967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16777164190950508,0.0,0.21438889987971385,0.0,0.07248881131514806,0.0,0.1577045607026341,0.0,0.33290241761448114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783461522770759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309612257402725,0.0,0.29382295951147835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556811231018526,0.13905946775057687,0.0,0.0,0.11651129867481752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020327815242952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401755981627928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618867868840436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15542674357713054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110336011859521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820479808668284,0.0,0.11080235703833316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115183989663606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890253136363245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15946757292476732,0.0,0.2651545935981618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355342193057679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09856084153377466,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackbirdgirlXO,2019/02/27,"Peach?? I’ve heard people say Peach is a new (ish, maybe just to me lol) hub for the ED community. Is that true? Have you guys found it helpful and comfortable? Tumblr is circling the drain. If you use it can you drop your @ below?",-0.6365217391304334,1.4225804565217433,1.0177173913043518,98.00744565217391,103.13043478260867,4.039130434782609,14.445652173913045,5.985473137389443,-0.7168608695652172,175,4,39,2,8,56,39,46,0.04,0.77,0.19,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,5,0,0,1,1,6,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,3,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,1,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322984391822197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3903908534359927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26427193050344233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3960987977871573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807899507243399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27333827151323936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31354058688178504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405240568667969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,The_Fluffy_Walrus,2019/02/27,"Someone called me ""scrawny"" last week and I still don't know how to feel Been kinda thinking about it a lot.

Years ago I was literally obese. I started riding my bike every morning one summer to just try to be somewhat active along with eating less. Eating less turned to skipping meals. Skipping meals turned to ""fasting"" (aka literally starving myself). Y'all get the point.

Anyway, I don't recall the context but she told me I was ""scrawny and need to gain muscle."" Just, I don't know. I don't *feel* scrawny. And another thing, almost every other day I eat a piece of fruit in one of my classes and this kid almost *always* calls me fat for that. He sits at my table at lunch and ahhhh it makes me not even want to eat around other people as much anymore and it makes me question which one of them is being honest. I don't starve myself as much anymore, but I still look in the mirror and can't see anything but a literal whale. Like, I can wrap my pinky and my thumb around my wrist, my ribcage is there and fully visible, my shoulders are so fucking bony, I can wear my watch on the lowest notch when it used to be at around 4 notches. I *know* I've lost weight but it doesn't matter, because it doesn't feel like I have. idfk, scrawny people don't have thick (not thicc) thighs, or a stomach that jiggles and folds over twice? Do they? I actually don't know. Maybe my body expectations are unrealistic. Except I see people who look similar to me and I don't think they're fat at all?!?!?

Not sure what my point of writing this was, just wanted to somewhat vent a little bit and I don't really know if there's anyone I could really turn to. 


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EDAnonymous,KawaiiFirefly,2019/02/27,"Trying to recover And Ive literally eaten everything in my fridge. 
Its either I'm restricting or I eat everything in sight. I just want to maintain. Theres got to be a better way than this. 
Anyone have any recover advice? 
I purged the other day and my heart felt like I had ran a mile, my breathing was all weird. I'm really scared. 
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EDAnonymous,PleaseDisease,2019/02/27,"Well, my whole math class now knows I'm fucked up 🤦‍♀️ We were doing some problems today in math class and the teacher said to relate it to something that you know a lot about or that you can understand easily. Everyone else picked money. 


My dumbass picked calories. 


🤷‍♀️ shit. ",-0.17984674329502326,2.1137029310344886,1.978505747126437,92.35595785440613,97.27586206896551,5.33639846743295,18.513409961685824,6.937597516519254,0.5088904214559382,222,7,46,4,9,74,48,58,0.228,0.701,0.07200000000000001,-0.8957,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,2,0,0,3,4,2,0,2,0,3,2,1,2,0,11,9,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,5,1,5,7,3,4,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,3,2,25,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421581167634285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27699341836588026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679900234501568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186216883598961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464461932984825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27737666758967106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757429147226605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975583588350279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22316431463681646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747729957954087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30177601767589984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606375502944241,0.0,0.0,0.3236414340672917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Theblacrose,2019/02/27,"First time purging, confused and scared I’ve tried before and nothing happened. This time I just kept going, and a lot of spit came then some liquid stuff some or it cleanish orangish. Then yellowish orangish clear. My eyes started watering really badly.  So I got up and saw the sink was over flowing ( I had turned it on) so I stopped completely. Now I’m just standing here confused, as if to anything happened. Also was it normal that my eyes started watering. Also I’m scared because I feel....good. I thought I’d feel lousy and gross but I feel energized. I’m scared. ",1.7950000000000017,4.589230722222227,2.5142962962962976,89.86033333333334,89.0,5.102222222222223,27.57037037037037,6.742157984588678,1.5630992592592596,450,22,82,6,15,140,71,108,0.17800000000000002,0.765,0.057999999999999996,-0.8419,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,8,8,0,5,2,0,3,5,3,0,1,23,19,15,0,2,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,2,2,3,0,0,3,0,7,0,1,8,5,9,1,6,11,3,16,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,7,9,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705918600556137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922354977194387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126109953066854,0.1031326502867703,0.0,0.1439626403023962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350077605939486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17738561036516576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566326809410313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439073414505253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615084365271563,0.1419030365181407,0.1353114463528062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992167016479365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383370444802354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576384302884922,0.16233606660434852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838323919455417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5081463913457746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394978089335988,0.0,0.0,0.14144492529274466,0.0,0.0,0.19367455369122005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431274761273124,0.19730444032093944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148644453297087,0.1840229925617164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HausDeKittehs,2019/02/27,"My dying qdad just confronted me about eating only a pickle when I was in high school. I've had EDNOS most of my life. When I was in high school and college it was the worst. My dad randomly brought up out of the blue how when I stayed at his house I ate only a pickle. I said, ""oh, I still eat pickles."" He said, yeah but that's all you ate. Weird eating shit.. And I know you ate only a pickle because I read about it in your journal.""

I didn't really know how to respond. I am an adult now and usually recovered, although I definately relapse frequently. I never get as bad as I was. I could tell that he had been afraid reading that. He brought up the subject after talking about how as a parent, you often find yourself having the behaviors you swore you would never have that your own parents have. I felt like he was indirectly apologising.

Anyway, I didn't know what to say. Maybe he wanted reassurance that I am better now. Last summer he told me that my shoulders were bony and he acted upset from a picture.

All I said on response to him reading my journal was a sarcastic, ""Well, that was nice of you.""

Any one else go through the experience as an adult of ""reconciling"" these lingering issues with parents? I sort of feel like I owe an explanation, but honestly it's best he doesn't know the gory details. My dad is dying. I don't think the details will bring peace. Thoughts?",2.0793899895724732,4.41611130291971,3.68701251303441,86.05797445255476,80.13138686131387,6.396037539103233,24.38425443169969,7.5804360353943165,1.3131422314911374,1083,40,213,17,28,359,151,274,0.043,0.815,0.142,0.9834,4,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,8,0,2,16,15,2,2,16,1,24,9,2,3,4,34,46,17,2,3,3,5,2,2,0,2,1,4,0,2,12,6,6,0,10,3,1,5,6,7,1,1,24,7,39,8,27,19,6,29,0,0,1,0,34,10,1,5,15,147,51,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0725338082188617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905830321207453,0.06502015679348411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193517400687544,0.09433385900929127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516091682470246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213966038623629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274255202638169,0.08910240291218717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043358893448882,0.0,0.0,0.05393150506239674,0.07619934426123658,0.1024122335956742,0.0,0.09748712305208056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055726485484133184,0.0,0.06061846479016849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538848916273285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307361137513947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132740195031683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344745526786517,0.08694375474765506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07533851523053714,0.10421931751536606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071563014943401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16452859853764962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227692229049774,0.24336374066001026,0.0,0.0,0.35530653927693256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200725513779297,0.0,0.06833039960304013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30437992270730163,0.08482189253366686,0.0,0.21589524891447895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948699607170026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136874854721178,0.08518039996903767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573086423220201,0.09322727726579186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06834469394179278,0.0,0.08467770279208761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10192009872364544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747310871954833,0.0,0.06291200298404034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09590193519330552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576961472243209,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HappinessIsClose,2019/02/02,"I’m going to try again I fell into a really dark place. I naively thought 2018 would be the best year of my life, a year for myself, because I would “make” it that way. I’d had that feeling all through the beginning of last year, and things really seemed to be going for me at some points. I got to experience a lot of little victories, just stupid things, like this guy I’d idolized for years started giving me attention, I’d gotten better at art than I’d ever been, got into a good college, graduated high school, etc etc. I was genuinely happy some of those days. I mean, it’s not like it’s my nature to be happy with things no matter how great they are, so all things considered... I was really happy.

...Then I fell into a dark pit of hell, lol. Turns out I was an idiot and poured an incredibly sad amount of time and heart into someone who tossed me away for someone else without telling me so he could continue to take advantage of me. That’s a story I’ve told a little too many times, honestly. Well, it sapped me of what little self confidence I had, and lo and behold, my eating disorder is the worst it’s ever been. I’ve never been so consistently low. I fasted for a month, lost 30 pounds. Now I’ve binged for a month, gained 30 pounds. Things I’ve done before, but turned to the absolute extreme. I just keep thinking, what’s the point? I feel completely stuck. Won’t say I haven’t seriously considered offing myself entirely, but that’s nothing new and I genuinely want to be alive because it’s pretty cool not gonna lie. And I can’t fuck over my family like that, because I’m lucky to have a lot of them who really love me and I don’t want to say goodbye to all that. I just want to quit kidding myself I guess. And I want to believe something, really badly... that I can be fixed. That I won’t be stuck bingeing and fasting for the rest of my life. I’ve wasted away a great deal of my youth constantly fixated on eating and not eating, so much so that I can’t remember a time when I felt genuinely carefree.

I’m going to go see a school therapist this week. I want to reverse the damage that an aforementioned somebody did to me this past summer, and even more strongly I want to reverse the damage I did to myself. I want to work on the trauma I experienced as a little girl, stuff I should’ve gotten help for years and years ago but never did. I’m going to try again, even though statistically “trying again” is a really shit strategy for me. 

Sorry for announcing this stuff on here, it’s just to make myself feel accomplished before I inevitably fail again. Maybe one day this’ll work. Thank you so much for reading, if you did (definitely wouldn’t blame you otherwise). Hope you have a good day.",3.5099763220205205,4.9752860000000005,4.8377782162588785,83.40531767955802,72.97790055248619,8.118021573270193,24.71494343593791,8.704169506293173,1.6693274927650619,2130,64,427,40,42,708,249,543,0.11,0.713,0.177,0.9801,0,0,1,0,0,0,70.0,0,4,2,11,25,36,5,0,28,2,35,9,2,3,7,71,83,28,0,13,12,0,4,3,0,6,2,2,0,4,33,19,3,1,10,2,0,7,14,15,1,1,23,9,57,21,61,47,16,68,1,6,1,2,21,22,3,9,41,279,90,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05708746906845904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210134397314258,0.0,0.053772020919430834,0.11777448385553375,0.0,0.1096007624416982,0.07255770606903196,0.06758472035992916,0.05695731961094131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.067523067447814,0.0695944415751712,0.0,0.05141883952258988,0.0,0.0,0.12459966427024036,0.06639444999334958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380895516790795,0.0,0.0,0.06590443051183642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769444611195355,0.053798647633745734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14364794588339705,0.08507230998241341,0.11650851427513068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06299639025393082,0.060711391200042035,0.0,0.09768901653759796,0.0,0.061834916775795966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059537549406362175,0.0,0.061779164961675515,0.1830024399318888,0.1080327574050578,0.10301448803804454,0.14200433211506558,0.07094479846731383,0.06376696800401847,0.0,0.20566771163144265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631531902361338,0.0431665332024388,0.06804303538883394,0.0,0.06396457664656717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057242435792156626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05249528938331397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097645185016398,0.09438900898942684,0.2581862873779053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030113691270465,0.10950260178060144,0.058124282793489974,0.0,0.08597613682185055,0.06529235523759473,0.06469931132509249,0.07015140696477458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10280829038434733,0.0,0.09468407171728216,0.0,0.09933981362011456,0.062198743619058486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061794353848505915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363968363670545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06147789979901545,0.0,0.0,0.06728518272277141,0.0,0.12175924159394025,0.0,0.0,0.06551881842923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849823275424395,0.064418279215902,0.0,0.24754100702805115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07295361047550261,0.0,0.0,0.1024282838374954,0.0,0.1303541996908507,0.05131914058407566,0.058628116415857176,0.06718413334622446,0.0,0.06610654852870476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913326485746017,0.049578921772427786,0.0,0.07209148060151548,0.04558325411214634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744713423931294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048421425491178026,0.0,0.05628918273302644,0.05929165147029612,0.0,0.07477435220645234,0.213925320347714,0.041265465204505684,0.06327350954986588,0.05112708239121432,0.1126579631018387,0.0,0.0,0.06153777338007131,0.0,0.13117185221598035,0.1400992663735646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658970351972438,0.05111839825294917,0.051658478418384085,0.0,0.05790409966770129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06208012262963426,0.0,0.0937691737042515,0.0,0.0,0.09149703421161612,0.0,0.0,0.24883222113983056
EDAnonymous,ScrunchiesandDraino,2019/02/02,"the urge to binge right now is real i’ve been in a binge cycle for a few months now and i’ve gained like 10-15lbs. my bmi is..... i don’t even wanna type it it’s so high i’m def obese.

i just feel so fat and helpless and ugly and fat and i don’t know why but i feel like eating will help that?? i know it won’t. but god i’m alone right now and the grocery store is like 10 min away and i want to binge.",-3.691470588235294,-2.420689999999997,-0.7272303921568621,110.33448529411768,110.45833333333331,2.258823529411765,7.730392156862745,3.1291,-2.692165931372549,304,2,89,0,17,103,56,96,0.07200000000000001,0.735,0.192,0.8828,0,1,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,4,0,8,4,2,0,0,17,15,11,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,4,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,2,7,3,6,12,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,8,46,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25969243324003344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355797651747225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25657101279969874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561230598028895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25356473492699233,0.17912968038678756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16806665074237334,0.2649220174924775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27560179216350816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3674986947260449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001393643591281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853985662551575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4282635092856205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14789375284370576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262550804895209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SergeiBobgodsky,2019/02/02,"Two days without binging, but the urges are pulling at me I'm so tired of having to fight this every minute I'm awake. It's actually embarrassing how much I can't control myself. Why is this so god damn hard?",1.0527906976744212,3.4577742790697705,2.8570232558139534,89.8966976744186,85.27906976744184,5.300465116279073,22.55348837209302,6.742157984588678,0.6110595348837209,166,6,35,2,5,55,38,43,0.33399999999999996,0.598,0.068,-0.9356,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,1,1,0,4,1,0,2,0,4,6,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.3308914849105953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803051191334569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21867743688246066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856880719976749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303747533685599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24926154782997645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38972059802565934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33123020581559903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059654039895625,0.0,0.0,0.3268593581894507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dothprotestaf,2019/02/02,"Today I gave away all my binge food to a homeless girl So, today I had a couple of wine glasses and, as usual, alcohol triggered my BED. On the way home, I bought all of this binge food. Like, a loooot of shit but all of it kinda real food cause idk, I guess it just makes me feel better about myself. Of course,  I left feeling anxious. I knew I was fucking up, but, at the same time, I could not stop it. 

So I'm on my way home, beating myself up, when I come across this really young girl with her two children selling lollipops at one a.m. 

So I gave her all my food. Left feeling lighter than I've ever been. Maybe I can do this. 

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EDAnonymous,whoawy,2019/02/02,"i’m so mean to me i don’t eat, don’t get enough sleep, then i overeat and purge, then chug coffee to give me energy even though it gives me anxiety, beat myself up over ever little mistake, exercise even though i’m exhausted, i never ever feel like i’m doing enough 

i lose my shit when other people are treated badly but i treat myself worst of all. sometimes i just sit and try to force myself to give me a BREAK but i just cannot ",2.6678021978021995,3.8919254505494494,4.2624175824175845,87.65758241758243,74.71428571428571,6.958241758241758,20.69230769230769,7.447530270364453,0.5595890109890109,340,7,72,4,7,114,61,91,0.2,0.743,0.057,-0.8738,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,10,9,1,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,4,13,14,10,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,4,6,0,0,0,1,15,3,7,14,4,11,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,7,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306559390550105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452347846831498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779866792133704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594583558696874,0.0,0.2297748608204024,0.3146820352884999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795059239702012,0.12426461045888718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087781631280226,0.5005847037750897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08497955605063019,0.17433615667735636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945972488308799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894744573765388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415523719295505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12058988021216545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785495537930073,0.0,0.0,0.17406819442043386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203365454612518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417953939053575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809559065188965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Allskinny,2019/02/14,"Being skinny DOES make you happier Proof in Marina (Diamandis). Got suuuper skinny compared to her usually fit but curvy body. Days she's in the prime of her life. Is gaining a lot of popularity. Writing amazing music. 

Skinny saves lives. ",3.377142857142857,6.57176766666667,5.682857142857145,66.7871428571429,86.61904761904762,8.514285714285714,28.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.736828571428571,190,9,27,6,6,66,37,42,0.0,0.6729999999999999,0.327,0.9517,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,5,4,1,1,6,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,5,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,2,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42864446741732976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488715793821997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33770098223031986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086370074200933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725703964510604,0.0,0.0,0.3407540372268775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32807574897423664,0.0,0.0,0.25758918074161163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250109219440416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wastedspacecat,2019/02/14,"Gained weight :( +27 pounds since October I was at my lowest I’ve been in my life at 135 pounds. No where near my gw but on my way. And now I’m back to being the chubs ive been my whole life . :( I just want the control back, the soothing whispers of control and promises that tomorrow I will be thinner than today. And I want to compare myself to other women (as shallow as that is) and know I come out the winner , the more eye appealing one, the thinner one. I want to be a 10 in my guys eyes , right now compared to all the other girls he searches for on the internet I’m at best a 2. :( ",1.223137829912023,2.8178505806451635,3.175718475073314,92.37221407624635,79.48387096774194,5.799413489736072,23.369501466275658,6.574015621080383,0.5394774193548391,448,15,101,4,11,151,76,124,0.094,0.736,0.17,0.8873,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,10,0,9,5,2,2,1,15,16,7,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,4,6,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,4,14,2,19,9,4,19,0,0,2,0,4,11,0,0,6,73,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31957705669081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21807758576818376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17900483463636513,0.0,0.0,0.4661399432626465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575873303928466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142037005479046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935563671134493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816268766223246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17746356867314209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718977015192331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697399189614748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677047321807239,0.1649452246006361,0.0,0.2530494148930268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320058600616439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BlastaImploder,2019/02/14,"I'm fucked please suggest something My mom may be starting to understand that there's something wrong with me and food, and I don't know what to do. Please someone help, i really don't know what to do. I'm sure that if I start eating like they want me to I'll get overweight. What should I do?",3.944516129032259,4.292362322580647,4.3485483870967725,91.4928225806452,70.93548387096773,7.490322580645162,26.79032258064516,7.1686216300943375,1.0098258064516128,232,7,53,2,4,73,39,62,0.151,0.648,0.20199999999999999,0.1027,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,1,11,18,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,8,2,5,15,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,3,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246722551127668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655017596353376,0.0,0.0,0.20298651406889004,0.11471489900794378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717139328992476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413369908113336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726953601673027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571546735636213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4820381189202285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1406604924307854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860387370932462,0.3380674079542781,0.0,0.0,0.3108218576141876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20693966667882446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22857739653512024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295065354651964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240062472788167,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Wollywell,2019/02/14,"I miss the Weekly Selfie, Progress Pic and OOTD Thread I wish they could come back here or on /r/thinspo... :(",2.435714285714288,4.620770904761908,1.9907142857142863,99.49178571428571,78.04761904761905,4.2,20.02380952380953,3.1291,-0.6870190476190476,83,2,18,0,2,24,20,21,0.18,0.6,0.22,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875536151088845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4341611472591445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024120488337362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042875010985513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5795881753759143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NurseMaddie,2019/02/14,"Small gesture from BF that meant a lot... So I’m at work all day, and my boyfriend asks if I’m hungry. I told him no, as lunch for him usually means fast food and we already have plans to go out for pho tonight for Valentines’s dinner and I really didn’t want to eat much before that. He offers to go out of his way to grab my favourite low calorie spinach salad from the grocery store. 

He doesn’t realize how thoughtful that is. I could tell he knew I wanted something light and “safe”. And now I can spend the rest of my shift without going crazy 😅

Happy Valentine’s Day loves!",2.4892436974789938,4.14524267226891,3.1316722689075647,93.80523949579836,76.05882352941177,5.7684033613445385,24.50504201680673,6.2581,0.5169489075630245,454,15,99,3,10,142,88,119,0.062,0.828,0.111,0.7011,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,3,0,6,6,0,1,1,22,20,9,0,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,5,1,5,0,2,3,4,1,0,0,5,2,12,3,16,14,4,15,0,1,0,1,13,5,0,2,6,54,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23042773426447544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952097615599561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776824754869517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16671830541142574,0.0,0.0,0.2693311773769976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136654149273782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249465541688904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560156972216008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222828096951758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17752333946571844,0.18845975561793565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274560025077249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534998468725077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13376944324535467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607526326686821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18250970355177665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16577232423047628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19952751543936603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22997542003275284,0.0,0.2463238517999459,0.16574416714196616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20128600607563504,0.0,0.15201663325107095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,rougoku,2019/02/14,"I don’t want to die like this But I don’t know any other way to live. I’m failing myself, my family, my future",-2.7819230769230754,-1.1301034230769211,1.468076923076925,96.11442307692309,102.46153846153842,4.138461538461539,10.346153846153848,5.985473137389443,-1.1862769230769232,85,1,21,1,4,32,20,26,0.257,0.607,0.136,-0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,12,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127912351042225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4773699249392281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336130434182197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25278413864458377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247151352441568,0.0,0.40615656396480937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27129863438138563,0.3650979462501685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,angeljaes,2019/02/14,"friends on twitter!! i’m a lurker and this is my first post so i’m a little bit nervous lol but i recently made a separate twitter acc from my main one so i could rant about this hell of a disorder without feeling guilty about worrying my friends and was wondering if anyone else used twitter to vent!! i wanna follow you so i don’t feel so lonely TT

(dw im not the type of person to tweet anything super triggering or pro anything)",1.3282954545454544,3.7550606931818216,3.396545454545457,86.38481818181822,84.11363636363637,6.247272727272727,26.981818181818184,7.554174236665415,1.82136,343,16,66,6,10,116,64,88,0.23800000000000002,0.607,0.155,-0.8673,0,2,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,6,6,1,1,5,1,4,0,0,3,0,15,12,9,0,3,5,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,2,2,2,8,3,10,9,2,6,1,1,0,0,4,2,1,3,2,42,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811867199769724,0.2170481074036309,0.3486412853790357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312669482228178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691315425627698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427791556246663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17695942472775628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142184228173816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018517909138074,0.0,0.0,0.3273235504443808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22881616534382196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231247854978935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004416594724906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435436326248597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496454597393253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20287761277417107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091596913943594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829558377681789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20419960855443092,0.2297240276205457,0.0,0.21512685829019013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,polkadotfaceful,2019/02/14,"God I really hate it when this happens I binged again! This is why I should not be allowed to go to events where food is being served. I tried to stay home and ended up giving into peer pressure :(

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EDAnonymous,imperfectcontrol,2019/02/14,"Why does my mind instantly go to binging any time I eat smh I basically purged all of January and I’ve been trying to reign it in because I do NOT want to be bullimic. I’ve gone back to my typical tiny cal meals... or at least I’ve tried to!! I just had mac n cheese for dinner (270) and I’ve feeling full and relaxed except my dumbass brain keeps insistently wondering if I should get a pack of chips and a kit kat to eat and then purge. No !!!!! Stay happy with what you ate!!! Stop thinking chips and chocolate make you happy !!

No peach so I’m forced to shout my thoughts to the void :’( also I’m @angleterre ( <mary> ) on peach and I miss y’all. Shout out to ana-wrecks-ya, I tried your tuna on rice cake meal and it was great. ",1.1020750551876404,3.1050715695364235,2.7148079470198674,93.52859161147906,81.64900662251655,6.1458719646799125,21.32494481236203,7.3011,0.5215903752759377,561,17,128,8,15,184,104,151,0.125,0.772,0.10300000000000001,0.4152,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,6,7,1,1,1,26,20,13,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,10,6,2,4,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,3,15,4,19,12,3,13,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,3,4,67,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441011025032672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130451088850015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847054802568574,0.0,0.1177029042774283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21554686432882592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897010013586014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951485874552809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762964426645412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087901214218148,0.0,0.1097347301284404,0.0,0.0,0.2128770396110001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41108542670087017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162293699157166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288858248986061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949609408725832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058030598506215,0.0,0.1614278160792651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372115610934856,0.0,0.1532880269394924,0.11258949318199647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932763904329794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138866134797426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422929910210036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20939258912545006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tramb0p0line,2019/02/23,"when you fucc up your life to be skinny yehaw Feel the need to RANT yall this is just my stalking account lol 
Basically was put in CAHMS last year who took me out of school for 6 months so I gave that up and did NOTHING to help me but threaten IP like every week lol so I just discharged
summer-jan I just lost a lot of weight sneakily making my parents think I was doing better without them , returned to school repeating the UNTIL my gp saw me on NYE and was like damn this heaux needs help — I didn’t know as I didn’t feel it but basically my organs and heart where about to ... give up 
So then I was put in IP from 14th jan - 7th feb as a voluntary patient and self discharged there where I gained 2kg and I’m back to the weight I was when I was seeing cahms for the first time last year and have to see them again !!!!! Not letting me back to school meaning I will probably have to just give up as I can’t repeat the year twice
So now I feel like a fat whale after my IP treatment and not willing to gain anymore even though they are threatening to not let me back to school unless I do so
Parents have caught on so I’ve been eating maintenance 12-1400 every day where I was eating 3000 in IP which means yea folks I’m a fat pig!!!
Why am I putting my future and life on hold when I’m just a certified fatty anyways ugh my mind ",3.0069148936170222,3.8062147624113463,3.9685744680851047,91.72350000000002,73.36170212765956,6.916595744680851,23.67446808510639,6.961326702584282,0.5704987234042553,1041,27,239,9,20,336,155,282,0.10300000000000001,0.818,0.079,-0.7914,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,3,5,27,7,1,0,10,3,25,10,4,1,0,34,47,26,0,2,12,2,5,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,6,9,7,1,7,0,1,5,7,3,0,2,16,8,34,4,36,26,1,44,0,1,3,0,15,14,1,1,28,154,40,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979395686168163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23212555719533004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899552317007532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489544793827025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20593104661210024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646252655398244,0.0,0.16956349651084585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263859314516628,0.07188723729702927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559242751828841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305926417641808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192422991248522,0.1348949786271721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055301420149817884,0.1640472471157186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20579381323006152,0.14215024484767366,0.1474823480791981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1098451700630132,0.0855486301015912,0.0,0.0,0.06716863898150101,0.0,0.0,0.21922243555673532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160357869661996,0.0,0.08031871629031531,0.0,0.0,0.14922581373882185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655336464688764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234665381075604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849185152792283,0.0,0.0,0.3034707810452553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073555524784641,0.1603717940421171,0.0,0.1049748677907727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447708020350837,0.09886453793228296,0.0,0.058675832090930566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117991928512818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071611066703001,0.2450707279103421,0.0,0.0,0.0907993171521805,0.0,0.0,0.09699987691881183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19439954208850385
EDAnonymous,buenothot,2019/02/23,Overweight with ED Peach Any others in here overweight/obese and struggling with eating disorders and on peach? I want to add more people I can relate to ,6.596785714285716,8.335153678571428,5.4628571428571435,80.83214285714288,65.78571428571428,7.028571428571429,28.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.6740142857142852,125,4,20,1,2,37,22,28,0.185,0.769,0.045,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31220451282046163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261696716116255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4697750724761058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31828291851348484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799521844197764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27078974239055864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_usernamechecksout2_,2019/02/23,"About to binge I'm about to binge, send help!
Binge meal is currently in the oven 
I don't want to do it 
But I also do
Fuck 
Somebody safe me ",-2.3337499999999984,-0.5793193749999991,0.18100000000000094,105.164,102.125,3.8100000000000014,12.65,5.6839178017228535,-1.3530449999999998,108,2,29,1,5,36,23,32,0.136,0.693,0.17,0.2892,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,7,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282997284640981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.610735034024182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428014654106719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896523801420989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mynormalheart,2019/02/23,"[oh no] Bridesmaid in a wedding and need to drop 35 pounds...guess I won’t be eating for the next 6 months. I’m not the fattest I’ve ever been right now, but I’m close. All the other bridesmaids are skinny and attractive so unless I lose the weight, I’m going to be the pig in the wig in all the pictures. Talk about motivation. ",1.7265217391304333,3.356273173913049,3.4312318840579716,90.9451086956522,78.13043478260869,5.759420289855073,21.644927536231886,6.42735559955562,0.27055362318840537,255,7,56,2,6,85,50,69,0.08199999999999999,0.815,0.10300000000000001,0.3469,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,8,0,5,3,1,1,3,11,10,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,8,6,2,11,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,34,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263730935740541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885152692414868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18127086610722706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513675847370959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568317942816211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545887891974293,0.0,0.0,0.23650290362863205,0.0,0.0,0.3392148607577712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27238791488021274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25636591202509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3884042398094813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwwwwwawaayy123,2019/02/23,"Ponderal Index / Better BMI Apparently BMI is not very accurate measurement of body fat for very short and tall people (and muscular of course). 

Anyone heard of ponderal index? 

[https://www.omnicalculator.com/health/ponderal-index](https://www.omnicalculator.com/health/ponderal-index)

[https://tall.life/better-bmi-for-short-and-tall-people/](https://tall.life/better-bmi-for-short-and-tall-people/)

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I'm really short, my BMI is kind of low but according to ponderal index my weight could be a lot lower and be in the ""normal"" range. Thought this was interesting. ",19.14609375,26.16150392187501,12.789375000000005,17.61812500000002,48.84375,10.7,28.3125,10.125756701596842,4.528225,497,13,43,12,8,137,48,64,0.066,0.853,0.081,0.2508,2,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,6,4,3,0,0,12,9,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,2,3,7,3,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,0,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19789027042697072,0.2219274863484732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770607440289758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4845904853631575,0.0,0.2028717711446485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582310972065504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38827537574067017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019136496127345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580079450123332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552739235502836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789483375168429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25323903960568656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700380561990427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499569057671133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013941131675156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224062116761764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2219274863484732,0.0
EDAnonymous,life-as-a-loon,2019/02/23,Bar bulimia Just keep going to bars alone so I'm not home  alone... eating OMAD that I throw up at home alone later. It's so easy to puke it all up when you're just alone constantly. Plus alcohol makes it so easy to just puke and forget. Like for real. Idk what to do anymore just keep doing OMAD puke sesh after work 5 days a week it's too addicting and I have nobody who cares or holds me accountable and even if I wanted to quit the puking part I can barely keep my drinking in check so it comes up anyway due to liquor. Yeah pathetic I know.,0.9205263157894734,3.0568202631578965,2.7097368421052654,92.55565789473684,83.21052631578947,5.905263157894738,16.517543859649123,7.1686216300943375,-0.0256350877192979,426,8,93,6,12,141,79,114,0.20600000000000002,0.677,0.11699999999999999,-0.8628,0,4,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,12,2,0,0,2,1,4,7,0,1,1,22,14,11,0,2,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,8,5,6,4,1,4,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,14,14,2,15,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,8,55,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462636778317216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138688026288805,0.0,0.625615347651953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14976423338088402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15396773140961473,0.0,0.0,0.13008425474608218,0.0,0.16319131288303382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739083724132767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14793516556344738,0.0,0.15452391254478098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09974260617514204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582411973526924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029565333360741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4026816526484281,0.0,0.0,0.08299274880032131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0737772823522372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080229345194386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353227093299375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16062082373717504,0.0,0.1718857582982173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907132992526066,0.0,0.12113345152040945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099392007350582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BackgroundRole,2019/02/23,"starving myself literally turns me into satan incarnate okay, that was hyperbole. but i get extremely bitchy and aggressive whenever i restrict / fast heavily, to the point where the slightest annoyance will make me want to physically hurt the other person. obviously i don't do this, but it's strange for me. usually i'm mellow to the point of apathy.

also, hi! first post here. not entirely sure if i qualify as having an actual ED, since i'm a guy and i'm not auschwitz level thinness, but i guess since i've gotten to the point where it's not even about weight anymore, but about control... ",4.80720720720721,6.8558086396396405,6.229009009009008,72.3707207207207,70.7117117117117,10.33873873873874,31.25225225225225,10.504223727775694,3.8990252252252255,473,21,80,15,9,160,78,111,0.23800000000000002,0.737,0.025,-0.9781,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,0,7,1,5,1,0,2,2,18,14,9,0,2,8,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,2,2,9,2,10,11,0,12,1,1,0,0,3,8,0,2,3,52,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.18911718197095964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497878899088094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219380276827347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735897023485612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800059364017471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484298899690364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10125054059637638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21348841524054046,0.19188875348126144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074628909798305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293604999601018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921540811819605,0.0,0.0,0.5496002826921123,0.0,0.18560323473269796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3206205168897677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18265066964504745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21079466712584147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343918713082605,0.0,0.1143060477759467,0.0,0.0,0.2359916202619435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,goosegurl,2019/02/23,I'm drunk and wanna fucking die I haven't eaten in 3 days and will probably delete this in a few hours but I'm drunk w a bunch of people at a sports bar rn and watching people shove waffle fries into their faces I wanna fuckin cry I want to eat food and not hate myself ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ,0.3612142857142828,2.6007928833333342,1.9128571428571417,96.61500000000002,86.83333333333334,4.095238095238095,15.238095238095234,5.288315135182226,-0.925190476190476,223,4,49,1,7,72,46,60,0.192,0.7170000000000001,0.091,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,3,0,2,9,1,0,0,10,8,5,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,5,0,8,6,2,6,0,0,1,2,1,4,2,0,2,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3247509251459857,0.19066584772317854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068316763297892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30251750178353154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35749375909233017,0.0,0.0,0.2733180076064447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29188712895187496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29114967365674754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409924489443693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187541114178801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174378423156466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,L0L0L0L0L0L0L0L0L0L,2019/08/14,Need some energy drink help Is there a place I can buy zero cal monster ultra in bulk online? I found some on amazon but the reviews say it's counterfeit like different cans essentially and the taste is completely different from what you buy in the stores. Any tips?,5.073,7.115572900000001,5.569000000000003,77.39950000000002,70.0,9.8,26.5,10.125756701596842,2.8676000000000004,215,7,38,6,4,69,42,50,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.7476,2,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,3,1,4,5,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,1,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045581110693398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31538893004122154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6285556207280975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946749528338615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32981779489197044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162364114793765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695841326538311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22304352782798573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142778103640487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392126725465584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,themanciplestale,2019/08/14,"Anyone else feel like no one understands the anxiety part of EDs? Idk where else to put this. I’ve relapsed recently and no one around me understands that the thought of eating literally makes my heart race with anxiety.

I feel that most people think anorexics must just have some great self control or extreme willpower to be thin, which (at least for me) is so far from the truth it’s laughable. It makes it soo much harder for people around me to understand that my ED is a legit disorder and I can’t just magically start eating

Like...anytime overeating/emotional eating/literally just people fucking eating a lot  is referenced in media (like the parents in spirited away????) I almost cry from how anxious it makes me? And if a food isn’t “right” or “clean” I CANNOT touch it.

I guess I’m somewhat fortunate bc i don’t think my body dysmorphia is that bad, I just have crippling anxiety around food. Anyone else feel this way?",4.038534482758621,6.484789448275862,4.723663793103452,80.5658405172414,74.0574712643678,8.258045977011495,28.11637931034483,9.017664075816787,2.6081275862068964,740,30,131,17,16,237,105,174,0.128,0.773,0.099,-0.4871,2,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,10,6,1,0,7,0,12,8,2,5,2,36,28,8,0,2,7,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,12,7,5,1,9,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,1,5,14,4,17,25,7,15,1,0,0,1,2,11,1,9,4,86,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514856342737214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240988417731218,0.11862714226607338,0.0,0.14684558417301152,0.2151825674336875,0.0,0.2804334011402602,0.0,0.0,0.09865680236109793,0.0,0.08767580943370984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166382409186069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777340707042246,0.0,0.0,0.11534440438691873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034622796675107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3223427404632113,0.2631576736605304,0.1181178665367395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159282903102159,0.07501646612907895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539478814171757,0.0,0.0,0.09707656038674224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576973069262801,0.11567619227205707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12443287890578915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539022083100333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892725350661142,0.0,0.0,0.21027740613841864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719165549617972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230986750570773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659698311720408,0.11371150587332172,0.0,0.2183942788950004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556025623567024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368097638874668,0.0,0.0,0.08967474002430835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095443907726367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432394454530789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456749445532726,0.0,0.08336321112703192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279455416962607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334905155410509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,champollion00000,2019/08/14,"fake recovery and amenorrhea I've been having a really tough time. I've always been a super low weight (13-16 BMI) but I recently was diagnosed with osteoporosis and intentionally gained weight to get my period back. I'm an 18.5 BMI now and feel disgusting.
I'm getting regular cycles now but am feeling extremely uncomfortable in my body. All the weight has gone to my stomach and thighs - absolutely none to boobs, hips, or bum. I never liked my body and even at a very low weight always had a bit of a belly. But I used to at least like my legs which were always thin. However, now, perhaps because I'm older, my thighs are swelling up. It's disgusting.

My sex drive is low, I'm always tired, my PMS is monstrous. I feel out of control, self loathing, and I still have a horrible, disordered relationship with food. The worst thing is everyone acts like I'm ""healthy"" and ""recovered"" when I'm just fat. Sorry to be so negative, I am just really struggling.",4.076229508196725,6.000280448087437,5.417180327868851,77.95363934426231,72.3879781420765,9.688743169398908,28.593442622950818,10.047579312681364,3.079921967213115,754,30,142,22,15,252,114,183,0.273,0.6609999999999999,0.067,-0.9931,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,3,10,13,2,1,9,0,15,18,9,3,2,24,28,13,0,0,6,0,8,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,10,6,1,3,0,0,3,3,9,0,0,6,8,14,4,14,21,5,23,0,3,0,2,2,9,1,1,14,82,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102697040833164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09478416646560313,0.0,0.07514198486414042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13457486047717132,0.27384211447330004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825362319805115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511268727809438,0.0,0.0,0.14127384499179108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0814162204722192,0.0,0.0,0.11778622035576737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18698141639232616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490540843757712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880309538718648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066504524506494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507056019798192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15793508062554693,0.0,0.12171058814563004,0.13234186186684568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285936214470242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379865171178508,0.0,0.0,0.09844061658486013,0.0,0.0,0.12886468788197045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08189264426754196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187756363769877,0.14167646450494129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646249509642393,0.0,0.10170759684050636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6004205211377143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonrate488744,2019/08/14,"what foods do you guys find truly filling/ satiating? like, low-carb/ high fat or high carb/ low fat or even just specific foods like potatoes or rice ect? im struggling with extreme hunger at maintenance. obviously eating heaps of is veggies are filling but im hungry like, an hour later. right now im trying low carb high fat, i eat shit tons of protein and only ever eat whole foods but im fucking ravenous",3.062943037974684,5.615561670886077,4.392895569620254,81.1561787974684,77.86075949367087,6.481645569620253,26.330696202531644,7.645422480735847,1.7757202531645575,328,13,57,5,8,108,56,79,0.15,0.748,0.102,-0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,4,8,2,1,1,0,3,12,4,0,2,11,4,6,0,0,6,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,10,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,4,2,13,0,2,0,1,2,7,2,3,7,23,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3852183171126564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288399782802501,0.1135115697002072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469425306866317,0.0,0.4552237257147734,0.0,0.0,0.11601213407048623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242533848825171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977566001355463,0.0,0.0,0.1235809351555088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5421966329402659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392208740273694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09543969017010268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716652836678836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881218403036382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118786954944514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519848206319902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010347458610628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anunci,2019/08/14,"Some guys I didn't know called me fat I was walking on the street after work eating a sandwich, wearing the only dress I have that makes me feel somewhat pretty and some guys in a car passing by decided to yell ""stop eating fatty"".
I have lost 17kg since last summer and I am ""only"" 4kg overweight rn. I am trying to lose weight in a healthy way this time instead of losing 15kg in 3 months and gaining them back and some 5 months later.
I binge eat and generally have a terrible relationship with food and my looks.
It happened 2 weeks ago and still can't get over it. What can I do to move on and not let this come to my mind every time I see myself? I feel worse about my looks now than last year (not because of this particular incident but it sure doesn't help).",3.6004802744425386,4.377374433962267,4.66739851343625,87.34476843910811,71.95597484276729,7.291252144082332,25.14636935391653,7.348242739294969,0.9851333333333332,601,17,130,6,11,197,107,159,0.087,0.8540000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.2724,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,5,5,5,0,0,6,0,12,9,2,1,1,26,23,9,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,8,10,8,1,4,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,3,7,17,1,17,19,4,29,0,3,3,0,6,7,0,4,16,79,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023918573194944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430096454140846,0.0,0.08268661097241302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850649654032965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168442885323382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163894390855624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428493560198187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717018223794922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640198500334039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086778090556849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26861545745543125,0.11994850775586666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091853059571106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454575271884445,0.2211340230425493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13870398509256682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278116315527102,0.30349926427601565,0.14807017365364647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905426431800739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696059219363152,0.0,0.21653762767944346,0.14416686319643568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20632497101536845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13799752391550027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562963790927094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10808977481368066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220515175001128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083245402973281,0.11340348065508304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12784176323818894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581888514896431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209257862694513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107666965835976,0.10880449742358232,0.16517642613823305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09874959668851603,0.0,0.13823163339128425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734953613564013
EDAnonymous,lover_007,2019/08/14,DAE have a love/hate relationship with heartbreak Skinnylegend here I come !,6.297500000000002,10.137200416666673,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,86.5,9.066666666666668,31.0,8.841846274778883,4.1432,63,3,9,2,2,18,12,12,0.33299999999999996,0.667,0.0,-0.6114,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233398452447398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5483264016515494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.652268015183234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tattyplays,2019/08/14,"Advice for getting help? TW: Numbers This is my first post so I'm sorry if it's all over the place.

To start off, I got a new job where I run around all day and I have to do a lot of heavy lifting. Before I got this job, I could restrict very low and had no issue. However, now even on my days off of work, I burn about 800 calories. my intake has increased as a result. My intake is now about 1000-1500 a day. However, my net is usually fairly low because I feel like I have to burn off any calories I eat.

I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder but I've struggled with disordered eating for as long as I can remember and  I mentioned it to my therapist and she suggested I bring it up to my doctor to get a referral to an eating disorder clinic.

This is where my problem comes in. I feel like I'm just faking it since my calorie intake is so high",0.9545181092694932,2.924552779005527,3.3913351749539618,88.65844536525478,81.98342541436465,6.45316144874156,22.76273787599755,7.594959193182576,1.0649629220380603,667,23,142,11,18,231,105,181,0.136,0.816,0.048,-0.9251,4,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,11,7,0,1,8,0,13,7,0,1,3,22,24,11,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,8,4,1,3,0,0,4,2,5,0,1,4,2,23,2,26,19,4,30,0,2,0,0,4,14,0,2,13,97,30,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175989095262482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183814805098134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071318069913684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07336067619540021,0.0,0.10240400697637976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366582830638207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608501043028073,0.0,0.0,0.2328360607157573,0.0,0.0,0.12214677794231095,0.0,0.0,0.41377446241513394,0.12317733585089205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4925684332316973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948617537738382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169923527497753,0.17194776808691428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10236467160436326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257497015915794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250041909749788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066414628383821,0.1271502006997214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256080250943167,0.2388459968178991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758814470156065,0.0,0.0,0.1065007847959712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023122918751358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928168266383901,0.1162291289511112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573402168830589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11525642848223926,0.0,0.0,0.11515309769632255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136326461051026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954992359929472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471542200962724,0.08518020802253826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580983398060375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397288324353956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254207795613102,0.09929652632837796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761197371494084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,finer_feelings,2019/08/14,"Body check just made me restrict harder I’ve had problems with disordered eating off and on for ~10 years now but nothing as bad as recently. I just turned 20 and all of these disordered thoughts started flooding back. I went from a normal intake to extreme restriction again. I started noticing little changes and although I don’t own a scale currently, I can tell I’m losing weight. I’ve lost at least a pant size in a month. I took a photo of myself yesterday and all I could see was fat. I know I’ve lost weight but my brain is telling me that I still look the exact same and that I’m still a whale. Does anyone else think they just can’t trust their brain anymore or is this just a me thing? Ugh :/",3.499686299615873,4.971146190140847,3.9037003841229234,90.06748399487837,73.01408450704227,6.853777208706785,26.289372599231754,7.348242739294969,1.1651605633802815,557,19,116,6,11,174,98,142,0.159,0.782,0.057999999999999996,-0.9037,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,2,3,9,7,0,0,8,0,8,7,4,1,3,26,23,11,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,6,4,2,3,0,1,2,2,6,0,0,8,4,16,1,12,14,5,19,0,3,2,0,4,5,0,1,12,72,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554699954407404,0.09556783623949708,0.14004188469071244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509628633770404,0.1141197053396461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181749414050266,0.0,0.3051537867130049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445862944790105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10912557711038354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132876939034696,0.0,0.11960708883028225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139854838704963,0.11417621489126464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07511418333901401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13698640359105746,0.0,0.0,0.11477437704431727,0.15290676228104955,0.2983984939506303,0.0,0.0,0.12932721735675454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909439151184012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391458076759946,0.13114540484560916,0.15560783311740453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078156713400754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495218979137655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10891398726697844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348157048048004,0.0,0.21830108579616053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389236944219528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080222057991763,0.08757719440929382,0.0,0.1085063845025177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518533348010706,0.0,0.14866548367976992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328718781075223,0.0,0.1267010808071092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801559891166941
EDAnonymous,ilikebiting,2019/03/11,"I have spent literally thousands on binge food and I need to stop, but I can't. Every day I restrict until the evening when I buy loads of binge food. Literally 10000 calories worth of food that even I know I won't finish, but I can't stop myself. I am spending about £50 on food a day. 

I just think about all the money I could have saved by now. I need to stop but I can't stop the binge and purge. Most of the food just rots and I have to throw it away. 

Anyone else in the same boat? How can I stop spending so much? ",0.8925663716814185,2.3944844955752203,2.3922212389380526,98.03806637168141,80.15044247787611,5.227964601769912,18.37964601769912,5.6839178017228535,-0.6187373451327431,400,8,100,2,10,130,63,113,0.124,0.7929999999999999,0.083,-0.5162,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,0,6,0,10,5,0,1,1,24,15,10,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,6,2,0,6,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,16,1,14,12,4,16,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,11,67,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649132182067636,0.12674146652022386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11621673597973728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876142204442236,0.0,0.0,0.15954774739947594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10333237765977317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340046544177375,0.0,0.10421945902591706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7478702223505022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798024586630669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093100558645066,0.18343846288363724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170781845951291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925958778457355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whoevera,2019/03/11,"Recovery feels I love how recovery feels like giving up, losing control, giving into being unhealthy, being a slob that doesn’t care about appearance 
As a Type A personality who was always uber obsessed with looks its just hard ",20.4715,10.80082115,17.709999999999994,39.33500000000001,50.0,20.0,57.5,14.554592549557764,7.892249999999999,186,7,26,4,1,60,34,40,0.188,0.519,0.293,0.7436,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,1,3,0,4,1,0,2,0,8,12,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,3,5,9,0,3,0,1,1,1,5,2,0,1,1,18,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327672410058366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852149846548169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137537489176699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828912979589102,0.19984730054111613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5367068514636848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25059333315181986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366675098822259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349123077940103,0.3129590534905016,0.0,0.0,0.2524775207873963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442593862786141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dumbest-bitch,2019/03/11,"Binged. Feel like I might die Trying to stop purging and been 5 days clean. My digestion is really shit and I’ve binged earlier on high protein yoghurt (about a kilogram(!!!????)) so I was already very full. Now I’ve had 4 bowls of rice noodles, oil, vegetables and fried tofu and I feel like my stomach is going to rip open I’m so full. I’m scared to purge though because my hearts a bit fucked and it’s gonna to be really dry coming up and idk I feel so scared and I’m still shoving bits of tofu into my mouth typing this. Help",0.3134055944055945,2.5648725363636373,2.29909090909091,93.65017482517487,87.27272727272728,5.202797202797203,19.37062937062937,6.67199483983844,0.18849650349650385,409,12,89,5,13,136,74,110,0.20199999999999999,0.7070000000000001,0.091,-0.9341,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,2,2,2,0,7,7,4,0,0,15,17,11,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,10,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,3,4,8,2,10,11,4,13,0,0,0,1,1,7,2,1,6,44,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383113023562435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125969779775795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40330908556329975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15911056975198815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912211537313275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916989266004012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28018347481516465,0.2639124945496369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17076062453995372,0.0,0.0,0.1049744614841852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21888122148751846,0.12380664374616365,0.19515534875793605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18047911259869528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19594720931359935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366588110127024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698521459282633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896012789491149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475089586433649,0.15442511264806064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814757932649348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12540538214846178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240438567478126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,what_the_fuc,2019/10/20,i love crying cause my friend who's lighter than me is calling herself fat like what does she think of me if she thinks SHE'S fat? does she think i'm a fucking whale? i already know that's not how it works but i can't help but think that. god i just feel so guilty that i can't even comfort her cause i'm too busy sobbing,1.1858333333333313,2.4763970277777787,2.0372222222222227,101.83,78.72222222222223,4.800000000000002,21.722222222222207,3.1291,-0.5597111111111109,254,7,65,0,6,79,49,72,0.21600000000000005,0.6629999999999999,0.121,-0.8476,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,3,0,14,13,5,0,1,5,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,14,4,2,13,0,0,0,1,0,2,11,0,2,1,1,35,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363562179559955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21870474517848248,0.0,0.0,0.4400497904700832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352699199225347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37486589631939504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14146582243845388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829733803750316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654772205111883,0.19800869153505424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14356232063199456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177093512560681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046389735085384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330848006187093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.548959159535467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592774288353545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kanaeshiki,2019/10/20,"Pushing people out of your life so you can come back a better version of yourself I’m sure everyone has done this at some point.. I have people that care about me so much but all I want is to be alone so I can have complete control.  I don’t want to rely on anyone else right now.

My personal life is spinning out of control, struggling to keep up at work and I’ve upped my Ritalin dosage to slightly above the recommended dosage, if only to give me a bit of euphoria and suppress the appetite as nothing else seems to effect me anymore.  

I just want that space so I can return a better version of me, because right now I hate it",2.117786458333331,4.1638747890625005,3.596562500000001,88.27552083333336,78.453125,5.8291666666666675,26.291666666666664,6.816661863887847,1.1617479166666662,495,20,99,5,12,163,82,128,0.083,0.758,0.159,0.7509999999999999,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,6,10,6,1,1,5,0,11,3,0,3,2,20,21,9,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,5,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,15,4,20,19,6,17,0,0,0,0,4,11,0,3,4,70,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129751931448366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445017080885912,0.10889557629952504,0.15957190556506645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975284905481925,0.0,0.09493639187490703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754750725816703,0.17002547529016254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878519108623748,0.0,0.0,0.1341544300098559,0.163288248404077,0.0,0.349346644856054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937396547725066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26019810031325463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488142586781162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939800598151148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15375895566532552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842702098964996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22000460035546052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448529226275204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943473663992926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844570766377747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159381320609585,0.13598434658612468,0.0,0.0,0.14722267543791062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659986692674921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177795527690526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281109062689492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678114860468816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755747846578577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133790622019539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kindadeadbutnotrly,2019/10/20,"i can feel myself slipping but i don’t care (kinda long) i *was* in recovery for 3 years. but i’m not anymore and i don’t care 


i’ve gone off to a college w high calorie, scary, and just gross food. because i had been eating about 1000-1300cal/day, i decided i would just do a 36 hour fast. just “a cleanse”. 36 hours isn’t a long time. only 1.5 days. i used to go 5-7days without eating but i let myself slip and gain 

my weight terrifies me but everyone is so annoying about it. they say my waist is so small and my  “Toblerone tunnel” (google it if you don’t know bc it’s cute)  but they don’t get it... no one gets it. everyone gets mad at me for walking around w my vanilla coke zero and water. 


i know why this is happening. when you can’t control anything around you... you can only control your food intake (in my mind). i feel empty inside because of recent deaths. deaths as recent as 3 days ago. a murder suicide. my life is hell. hell. hell. hell. the only thing that makes me happy is seeing the numbers go down,  getting into smaller sizes, being smaller than my friends (we all know that feel), seeing my collarbones more and more .. etc. 

this is different though because *i don’t want to recover right now. i want to be skinny*. i don’t care if it upsets other people. 

*ana was with me before they all were*",-0.6319765066394254,1.4994568127340813,1.5376395982294857,94.8465819713994,100.72284644194755,3.9254000680966974,18.053200544773574,5.852544927426893,-0.153134082397004,1007,32,210,10,44,334,151,267,0.22399999999999998,0.68,0.096,-0.9934,1,0,0,0,0,1,54.0,1,5,3,3,12,15,7,1,7,0,26,10,2,4,2,41,50,19,4,5,12,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,12,11,9,2,7,0,0,4,11,9,0,2,6,7,37,6,22,40,5,29,4,0,2,0,11,11,4,3,14,134,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09274993581471372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037668072282718,0.0,0.0,0.08610320308945793,0.1862892882789266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134804881807405,0.0,0.08903410720066092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32003782633314165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347073218681244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20243691044948994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931814775909084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21412927083081865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669231425046413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19996067873800655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871521651799322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530428074729534,0.0,0.08083840704417522,0.0,0.21866356097839496,0.0,0.11892952926159107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252571304191043,0.11138268674514132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105494299875956,0.0,0.0,0.20608284464599536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250899707553047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069932870575171,0.07390466075518445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851920168058689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06984265813449324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564847106852197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090133653367968,0.2387320036578124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253863950248646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066229117607516,0.0,0.0,0.08935513794612608,0.0,0.08320754892940127,0.0,0.0,0.16675628024536526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144504020300763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695128372483938,0.0,0.1028003876382069,0.0,0.06101174809590005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903684349294949,0.0,0.0,0.1234293036898095,0.0,0.0,0.1274135618032061,0.0,0.0,0.09441408613998767,0.0,0.0,0.1008614934805264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432755549372205,0.0,0.0,0.06737956366476705
EDAnonymous,o_fucking_k,2019/10/20,"Does anyone still use Peach? I made an account on there after proED was taken down, but stopped using it after a while. I completely forgot about it until recently and was wondering if anyone uses it anymore.",5.602543859649124,7.703755921052637,6.428947368421053,71.53096491228072,68.73684210526315,8.224561403508767,28.456140350877188,8.841846274778883,2.7531298245614044,167,6,24,3,3,55,32,38,0.065,0.935,0.0,-0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,4,0,10,9,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,6,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,7,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487048496786725,0.3507002652365127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26293644779381703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194579234368561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23729264580005846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24761347863667516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20027200495121067,0.2096620246612716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6497762230092056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719585462492462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dcaposito,2019/10/20,"can’t take a good picture to save my life so i’ve been “in recovery” for a while but still having disordered thoughts. i don’t HATE the way i look in the mirror although i can definitely see what i’d like to change, but when my friends & i go out and we dress like in crop tops and everything, i think i look HUGE in pictures. anyone else think they’re body looks really bad in photos but not that bad irl?",2.2932059800664457,3.7378147325581423,3.4711960132890383,92.05802325581396,76.09302325581395,7.239867109634551,22.75083056478405,7.957251820313856,0.8477760797342202,321,9,74,5,7,104,63,86,0.157,0.589,0.254,0.8031,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,1,3,8,1,0,4,0,5,2,1,0,0,12,15,9,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,4,9,5,9,13,0,13,0,0,4,0,2,8,0,0,5,40,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115871775124846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654520647128154,0.20008874127692985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261034118004593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21691347109102027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065816932705088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380925702742485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631324454952333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17550621620118026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087382696435386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109828476021303,0.16379266658392488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19279982770266185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13793293814589586,0.19080913172320796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4919612589696367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251021838310694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561389128567302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595187672891142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468272141061462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25025670902132197,0.0,0.1550315174889902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500518476921893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,everlynni,2019/10/20,"do i actually have an ED sometimes im okay with the way i look. like when im able to fit into a particular skirt after a day of fasting and i get that rush of happiness and satisfaction. it lasts for a while and in that time im genuinely pretty happy with my body. 
i count calories and fantasize about what my body could look like if only id tried harder. but sometimes, for a few hours, maybe even days, im fine. i feel pretty.
do i actually have an ed?? or do i just want to be thinner? is this normal?
i have a BMI of around 18-19. havent weighed in a while bc my scale is currently out of battery. i just stare at myself in the mirror.",0.0857907542579106,2.118592664233581,2.872729927007299,90.73400973236014,85.86131386861314,5.9890997566909965,20.082238442822387,7.3011,0.5049400486617999,493,15,113,8,15,173,85,137,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.9602,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,10,1,11,3,2,0,0,18,16,10,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,13,6,19,14,1,21,0,0,3,0,0,8,0,2,13,72,18,0,0.13509423567670156,0.0,0.2636649728853624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202625113934708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001184820428557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786175446984117,0.0,0.0,0.1742492118884027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08922846856038022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830770468574694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058116233212293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28762065188990754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304060948007554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5836998272722836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011983286395792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200043935642666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226890267231497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357203176366716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236366774102612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274525381153853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748788098752394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672233068698392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877453522214968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917201182059514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796820803730724,0.10723151616109143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marenalmighty,2019/10/20,suggestions for vsco pages??? new to vsco and looking for some ed pages to follow,2.4160000000000004,5.3415896000000025,3.855,80.7825,86.33333333333334,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.2183333333333333,64,2,10,1,2,21,11,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6561416241520963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7546377734085732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Althbird,2019/10/20,"My favortite coping skills revolve around food Context: my daughter and I live with my family since I was 20 weeks pregnant with her, and I left my abusive ex. Since I moved back in they had been promising to clean the basement (she is now 1.5 years old) and they just started it this past Thursday — so I have been working on that all weekend and feeling like a shit mom for not spending as much time with my daughter (although coping by using the truth; ie “I’m missing 3 days of playing so that I can provide a safe, clean playing environment for her and I to have time together in”) 

well today has just been a blah day — I haven’t had time to really do anything - I’m behind on laundry, I’m still in my pjs at 1:45 pm and i just made some lunch and I suddenly feel like a pile of super shit, I no longer want to eat, I just go grab a Diet Coke, and sit back down, while my daughter is eating. 

My mom asks me if something is wrong and I decide to admit that i am feeling the self hatred. I said it in a way that I was trying to be funny, but apparently it just pissed my mom off. She was about to give me some coping skills and told me to use “positive self talk” and I should have just said okay, I’ll try that you’re right” then ignored the advice per usual but some fire inside of my raised up and said “yeah I know if i just think better then I’ll be better” kinda sassy- again I know I’m wrong.... 
well my daughter finished eating and her aunt and uncle wanted to take her outside to play (since my mom just yelled at them about being on their phones too much) and I tried to tell my mom “I know all the coping skills, sometimes I don’t need someone to try to fix me, I  just need you to say “I’m sorry that you’re feeling bad right now” — except she cut me off at the “fix me” part and was like “I know- and I’m gonna be blunt use your
 fucking coping skills then.” Which just pissed me off more — and my bowl was still on the table full and I said “fine I’ll use my favorite coping skill — throwing food away”  then she stormed out of the house and left for work. And I stormed down stairs and started writing this...

I know I’m not a perfect anything, I’ve only ever claimed to be the opposite, and I feel like the worst mom, daughter, sister, human on this rather right now, I’m literally crying because I just feel like everyone should hate me the way I hate me; and that I’m not worthy of love. (Despite logically knowing those are lies I’m telling myself.) — however my mom wasn’t perfect either — my most reoccurring memory of her are her being “sick” in her room (aka depressed or had a head ache) 

I’m just so sick of always trying to cope and take advice  I just want somebody to emphasize with me",2.961673518328197,4.151105420863313,4.004511819116137,89.93070743405278,73.92805755395683,6.446317231928742,24.389174374785885,6.655083550727371,0.6773124015073653,2098,62,453,16,42,680,251,556,0.159,0.727,0.115,-0.9914,2,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,2,4,12,32,36,8,0,19,2,34,17,5,5,6,97,87,40,0,10,24,15,8,6,0,3,2,6,3,3,15,31,8,2,16,4,1,3,7,15,2,0,18,14,77,21,59,60,13,67,0,2,0,2,50,30,5,8,36,286,92,2,0.0,0.07303532342622694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047109293247267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051290824443944914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145171800974608,0.054874173272840485,0.05762665952799314,0.0,0.057914397271809685,0.0947973100400439,0.051468236727218036,0.037576202343749115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090341318387918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771050245774395,0.07950758166471507,0.0,0.05309189763599116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1892245144996863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05575843804005163,0.0,0.05890127679480438,0.0,0.0,0.05811029975987705,0.0,0.1870073448174739,0.1761473438161972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907475347617846,0.0,0.0,0.0569867495141472,0.0,0.05913232630444765,0.035032393200120214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171681514622505,0.06326215800106111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112623457517771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20325996591866166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339477540092503,0.0,0.0,0.1505750814906249,0.0,0.054430741970722375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055634032258104926,0.0583268579109921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5053580197279633,0.0,0.06551536166526689,0.0906274700879059,0.09141306477773874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468258484943297,0.0,0.0,0.04688128324686256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675194378811597,0.058843968410429034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03948924531000789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15792500044767058,0.2345414535854717,0.049019946339843606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286114533265366,0.0,0.12654861880652254,0.15297192991412514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052228804259691175,0.04745478482735345,0.06096520800127365,0.0690028257478726,0.08726061149742317,0.0,0.09845426719360972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926937595885946,0.04954525581544796,0.10775510879257852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03949750624003065,0.0,0.0,0.1078312961831862,0.0,0.058429114946352,0.05890127679480438,0.0,0.20925330764845645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2129545161734336,0.06788961332737586,0.0,0.10907359827602348,0.09785660934488996,0.04944524588705786,0.0,0.11084656511753893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975176955237131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347910236035008,0.0,0.03969522762954343
EDAnonymous,allychaan,2019/10/20,"I can't stop eating Trigger warning just in case, but I'm repulsed with myself. I actually just can't stop eating no matter what I do. I tried spending my money on stupid shit so I'd be too broke to buy food, didn't work. I joined a gym, which now thinking about it is just damage prevention. I try to restrict but I just *can't* do it anymore like I used to. I have 0 self-control and will keep eating to the point of being physically uncomfortable almost daily. I've gained so much weight, my LDR boyfriend is visiting me in 63 days and he's expecting me to lose weight (because I am overweight and should lose just from a health standpoint), but not even THAT is enough to make me restrict. 

I just want it to stop, I hate it and I hate myself more and more each passing day. I don't know if this is a cry for help or a vent but I guess if you have some good advice (that is not forbidden on this sub), please share. At this point I'd be happy if I ate like a *normal* person.",2.0378995695839284,3.5154064829268283,3.5031850789096133,91.42456241033001,76.85365853658539,6.1893830703012895,22.30272596843616,6.794906146795322,0.4188938307030123,759,21,170,7,17,250,122,205,0.24100000000000002,0.5870000000000001,0.172,-0.9737,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,4,12,13,4,0,6,0,20,10,1,3,0,43,31,15,0,7,16,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,11,7,8,7,2,1,3,2,8,8,0,0,2,2,24,5,17,24,6,15,0,4,0,0,6,7,1,7,8,111,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.1238394862228532,0.0,0.0,0.1240086077144887,0.0,0.0,0.127075499730203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585414789912752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735918090256165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423330388031397,0.0,0.0,0.13939750911266094,0.16368448670942026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895618113418993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112521382073686,0.0,0.08381854883525902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15345218652846238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064406145105905,0.0,0.0,0.1397984856922174,0.0,0.0,0.1350911096280308,0.0,0.2505818186639299,0.0,0.1348924603799035,0.0,0.0,0.08506072474170294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279764005199627,0.0,0.0,0.06974283142428837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399725615581213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.283945057280868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470905544188158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328865633008923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433846201291253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080722007356107,0.0,0.13930190790443792,0.23992960670271102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13238800175989568,0.0,0.13026459413948244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182909641043439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131462308167171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17231825965541386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096038577154047,0.0,0.0,0.07485095791513988,0.0,0.0,0.30906849077970594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09238724171233234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shdysvsgu,2019/10/20,"It never fully goes away does it I was never properly diagnosed with ed but the symptoms were there and it was probably the darkest point of my life. I have since gotten better (I guess) but the thoughts still haunt me and I still go through a vicious cycle of eating, feeling guilty and restricting. It has never stopped. Most days I look at myself in the mirror and hate how I look, and I still find myself constantly comparing my body with other people's. I look at how others eat and worry if they seem like they're eating too little for one meal or skip a meal (even if they do so unintentionally). It consumes my mind and affects how I interact with people sometimes. I hate it. It seems like I can never get these thoughts away and live peacefully ever again. I guess ed really ruins your life huh...",2.8007177419354825,5.347250567741939,3.8707056451612902,84.56605846774197,78.80645161290323,6.455645161290324,22.590725806451612,7.645422480735847,1.1983629032258059,638,20,117,10,16,206,96,155,0.20199999999999999,0.6940000000000001,0.10400000000000001,-0.9672,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,2,1,12,7,3,0,6,1,7,10,1,4,5,37,22,17,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,10,11,5,2,6,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,6,4,21,3,12,16,1,20,0,1,3,0,4,7,0,8,14,87,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205937919929921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382674141499934,0.0,0.1303998874880082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686278319807967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07571035769092421,0.0,0.0,0.11915391740065293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273355527659196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603745800514172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07753859197074958,0.10619091160643396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05935867024886235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729732063037577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133428080958647,0.0,0.06671854342482866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586486616828105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23180741807948746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16583976573375495,0.11470698054502199,0.1176610885115063,0.10366233905500992,0.0,0.29574785049279145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853594558922312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36217045364503264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955019968162637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277445642552066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11097665215123646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265721579353755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520653564771113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21374482943851014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711073491757513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610710847532768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28125649011158593,0.09814785842598377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201882943407916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863977588480571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922078479503224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,_MiniMav,2019/10/20,"My flatmate gave me pants. I don't know the details of her reasoning because it's an international house and we were communicating in a shared second language that I am a novice in, but the gist of it is my flatmate had a pair of pants that turned out to be too small for her so instead of returning them she asked if I would like them for free. I suspect they may have been from her home country because the sizing of the pants was way different than I expected (will address later) and her family had recently visited so it's possible they brought them for her. Anyway I tried them on and they looked nice so I thanked her very much and took them to my room.

Today I'm wearing them out and about for the first time and as I'm walking I'm noticing that the thighs are a bit tight. The pants claim to be a size M when usually I wear XS, 0, or even 00 pants, and my thighs have always been one of the parts of my body I struggle the most with. Therefore, my new goal weight is whatever weight I have to be for these pants not to be tight on my thighs anymore. Why am I like this.",4.423837283792442,4.674585582959646,5.067882767456759,87.09889013452917,69.85201793721973,8.523894939141575,28.933055733504162,8.418075326091056,1.7447593850096088,847,29,189,12,14,273,127,223,0.026000000000000002,0.8759999999999999,0.098,0.9494,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,9,2,9,7,0,1,15,0,22,8,6,2,0,25,33,15,0,3,4,0,4,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,8,11,2,2,3,0,1,4,2,1,0,3,9,5,36,7,28,17,4,22,0,0,1,0,21,8,0,4,11,134,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599169592342436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208441825148867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15279043073636356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19925791946171212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842958739387896,0.1815403535373791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17075564775626004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794781859343974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15407274694133258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390184261384012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16393945454380107,0.0,0.0,0.1885829945099977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08982005319107796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15969297368652685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137244927560025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201441338496432,0.0,0.0,0.15784733468076728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607276583800936,0.0,0.0,0.11074834229055316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698506780392848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842493318745673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16803924453249716,0.16137315652632644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708586061831471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046974599241764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953007417379226,0.0,0.15491804857890432,0.0,0.1815832110896484,0.11096219447905203,0.17777124183760773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000146716427526,0.1348516689872625,0.0,0.12972774766636286,0.0,0.3980416010447719,0.0,0.0,0.14747540794120578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610011827532475,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notthedvla,2019/10/20,"Best ways to get electrolytes? Hi pals! Hope everything is good with you (or at least as good as can be)

Dealing with an eating disorder plus health anxiety at the same time is sort of terrifying lol and watching documentaries and stuff I’ve been really concerned about electrolytes lately. What are the best ways to get electrolytes into my diet (which is minimal, lol)? I’ve heard about electrolyte water but I’m not sure they sell it here, and I take a vitamin and mineral pill every morning. What else should I be doing to protect my health, as hypocritical as it sounds haha?",4.344672897196261,6.931701271028036,4.904495327102803,78.95767757009347,73.67289719626169,8.018317757009347,27.522429906542047,8.841846274778883,2.4594605607476634,464,18,80,10,10,148,76,107,0.099,0.7070000000000001,0.19399999999999998,0.8933,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,2,3,7,0,0,4,3,10,7,0,0,1,16,16,11,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,6,8,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,6,7,16,11,4,7,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,3,2,54,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462830608027025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013479650552309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19713980655597454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191551122926306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19566617826040605,0.15974008352433094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611114102539574,0.0,0.17185653994155936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19980950355571825,0.0,0.0,0.3207731504466849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065166260690936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992497517190285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21570490802272646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250066645899176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21890157629201346,0.0,0.0,0.18022293713660686,0.0,0.14377392169754444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115021363739048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035636606387155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,greeneyeswarmthighs,2019/10/20,"5’7” 147.5lbs Throwing up is not fun. Though I love that my mouth warns me by filling up with saliva so I don’t do it on the front porch of my parents house and have time to make it to the side where no one can hear. While I’ve always hated puking, and only ever dappled I’m bulimia, I cannot shake the fact that I threw up dinner (which I hadn’t planned to eat and wanted to stick with the fairly healthy breakfast I had) and I’m happy about it. When I weighed myself this morning (ritual) I had gained .5lbs instead of losing. I really don’t want to slip back in to restricting but I also hate myself. There aren’t enough baggy sweaters in the world to keep my mind from trailing to every inch of my body underneath.",3.3098402948402965,4.48659860810811,4.168083538083536,89.14350122850125,73.05405405405406,6.733169533169535,24.265356265356267,6.980632752743323,0.8012216216216217,566,16,119,5,11,182,99,148,0.138,0.8029999999999999,0.059000000000000004,-0.8869,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,10,7,2,1,5,0,11,7,2,1,2,16,22,10,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,7,6,4,2,0,0,0,5,7,4,0,1,4,1,17,3,23,18,1,21,1,1,0,1,3,11,0,0,5,82,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278830439065578,0.16937973133350942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652646530638475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22611127907152656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082945489447697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21033376326592126,0.0,0.0,0.1841333095575737,0.17150960287087358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21669532993615054,0.0,0.4019502839298165,0.0,0.0,0.2294289521473773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348829958129091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18093508813710069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277335941670648,0.0,0.0,0.18372247939153696,0.0,0.13587908758837672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.205539397229901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379387493878169,0.15481792790447474,0.0,0.0,0.22603129797636085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13040690676520816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19999844291596916,0.0,0.11869852730230612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24013205704089666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,krupickaj,2019/10/20,"Boyfriend’s comments got me back on my bullshit Today my SO told me how shitty I eat and cited the instant noodles I’ve been eating recently and the pizza HE ordered and the donuts HE bought. When I met him I was at the tail end of the worst of my ED and since then have been (mostly) recovered for almost a year. I’ve been happy lately that I’ve been able to eat my instant noodles without too much thought to it-no calorie counting or binging, just eating a cup when I feel hungry.

I’m currently going to bed starving since I didn’t eat anything today (he made his comments early this morning). I’m already trying to figure out how to get rid of my portions of food that I currently have in the kitchen without him realizing it. I feel so stupid that his one dumb comment sent be back into this hell hole but here the fuck I am. Can’t say I’ve missed this but at least I’ll be skinny again.",3.239091614906833,4.540678266304352,4.4139751552795055,86.8254347826087,73.40217391304348,6.344099378881987,27.81677018633541,6.5431188927421005,1.2279204968944095,707,27,142,5,14,232,112,184,0.138,0.8490000000000001,0.013000000000000001,-0.9658,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,12,7,4,0,9,0,12,10,1,3,0,22,27,14,0,0,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,7,6,9,0,5,0,1,2,4,6,0,1,13,3,19,1,18,12,5,24,1,1,0,1,14,6,3,3,15,90,26,0,0.13342451788184811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133605381526994,0.0,0.14723727329343445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979700971106514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051904368943196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6826329563026801,0.0,0.0,0.11817452034828432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349268903985255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16133745663652732,0.0,0.0,0.12334881680773062,0.06970880369937253,0.0,0.07582822828147548,0.0,0.1067117755117838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203288030405606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505086677336587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624950488968353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980823726649474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904119063704037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317406149545523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610453188766404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22074027992557751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10592416353491596,0.0,0.0,0.2529416840652124,0.1274928446182054,0.0,0.09058648942640052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572329479461554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592101502125819
EDAnonymous,MessyButTrying,2019/10/20,stupid thinspo TW thinspo talk I started going back to college again in an adult course. It's been actually really enjoyable so far but there is this girl who is super skinny and pretty and like my ideal fantasy goal size. I get like kinda angry at her being there even though she's done nothing wrong and honestly seems really nice. It's just seeming her makes me think about how skinny I could theoretically be.,4.370274725274726,6.797133500000001,5.548021978021982,75.13269230769235,72.97435897435899,8.046886446886448,25.24542124542125,8.841846274778883,2.2060344322344316,335,11,56,7,7,111,64,78,0.094,0.605,0.301,0.9715,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,10,9,1,0,1,0,7,2,2,2,0,13,14,7,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,7,4,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,3,5,37,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.24177216404897675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905075322648818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978114082497504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535383592956582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16363917969489875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944123879169112,0.0,0.1408043071067892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24208017871600065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16537771815262142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377266439723153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520548861211035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31743511168552463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510918713424468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17536155565254438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991352796159764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587507586708211,0.24341704607052125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27088010479741753,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BirdiePure,2019/10/20,"Can’t stop taking laxatives. Even though I don’t see a dramatic weight loss. I do feel like they help me from not gaining new weight. 
And I know I can do real damage to my body. But fuck I can’t stop! 
And I have a gym pass but my depression makes it hard for me to get up. 

Idk I guess I just needed to vent",-1.555362318840583,0.3655650579710184,1.081159420289854,100.96637681159422,94.07246376811594,4.8057971014492775,13.46376811594203,6.42735559955562,-0.890814492753623,235,4,61,3,9,80,48,69,0.285,0.662,0.053,-0.9154,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,3,5,1,0,2,0,7,4,1,1,0,14,16,5,0,1,4,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,2,1,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,5,13,1,6,16,0,5,0,3,1,1,2,1,1,1,4,37,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399566364945091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18606322623999014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268340323171094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092294413291848,0.1543293070288962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997129305912117,0.11286488054854753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379774403444978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19351722713625047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14479794575489646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872246271158235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055395896586022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441993029340902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16018084218467535,0.0,0.2086396482742402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24588534330041556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17214507590016664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3612154955149656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242497188192614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122448462691411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5261239273279629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,p4prik4,2019/10/20,"fear of it meaning having to start a new chapter what to do with your time i think is what scares me.  when you eat in a sense your keeping busy and feel as though your carrying out an obligation and so you are justified. but then it gets out of hand

imo",2.879716981132073,4.043370132075474,3.603915094339623,92.82398584905664,74.09433962264151,7.564150943396226,24.57075471698113,8.07648339933343,1.0658716981132073,199,6,46,3,4,63,43,53,0.068,0.82,0.11199999999999999,0.5395,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,0,4,2,1,0,0,10,10,8,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,0,9,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416430919317749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757083725890503,0.16882000639906328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744387742404789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967683180537667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636937311618391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224638552403224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3342726137765992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363223274319972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21393713480175447,0.3280358836345247,0.0,0.19468839717961486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silvieuh,2019/10/20,"Calories on the menu I hate it even though I restrict/count calories/whatever. Sometimes I just want to go to a restaurant and eat with my family, not stare at numbers and try to find the lowest one (which usually isn’t even that low, because it’s a restaurant) and order that and then hate myself for spending money on food I didn’t even want. I know I’ll hate myself even if I don’t know the calorie count because I can guess that it’ll be high, but at least I ate something I liked!!

Idk. I was just standing at dunkin with my mom and got excited about trying a Halloween donut after two weeks of pretty heavy restriction, and then I saw the calorie count next to it and just deflated. Obviously it’s a donut, it’ll be high, but I don’t want to be eating and have a constant stream of “350350350” in my head. I ended up not getting it lol. Fuck calories on menus.",5.594488636363637,5.269114926136368,5.956954545454548,83.70168181818184,67.35227272727272,8.63090909090909,31.80454545454545,7.908726449838941,2.059935909090909,681,25,141,7,10,219,97,176,0.135,0.777,0.087,-0.7982,2,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,9,7,4,0,9,1,12,6,1,0,1,27,27,14,0,4,8,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,11,10,4,1,3,0,2,1,6,5,0,2,5,2,18,2,20,17,1,22,0,1,2,1,1,11,1,2,9,94,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046321038318193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109332107471254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28613693608290985,0.0,0.0,0.12383703007349516,0.0,0.0,0.36939323186770295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180773515615155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779089428574938,0.0,0.1690681833156171,0.0,0.0,0.12925926072329305,0.073049005781151,0.0,0.07946165178786163,0.0,0.11182503059290556,0.0,0.15402501939503851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141232570079026,0.1434933531863804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295450267584903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368036226717066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830789221271852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375286382371446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14869776774199092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947441287275448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224492136589273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763853802617514,0.1382833339903007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737023356406255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18985415438603684,0.0,0.13658162949544572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398950289853447,0.0,0.2474044018616673,0.0,0.11215336870645498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AssMaster7000,2019/10/20,"Am I ever NOT focused on my weight and physical appearance omg I am very drunk and  bowling with friends, and I just noticed I am STILL sucking in my stomach constantly. My husband convinced me to dress a little “hot,” tight pants and a relatively form fitting shirt. And I CANT stop sucking in even though I’m trashed and having fun otherwise. Send help thx love y’all",4.1853333333333325,6.358517628571434,4.637142857142859,82.59619047619049,72.71428571428572,7.523809523809526,34.52380952380953,8.344100000000001,2.9465238095238107,294,16,53,5,6,93,53,70,0.063,0.6729999999999999,0.264,0.9383,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,5,6,2,0,2,0,5,5,2,0,1,13,10,7,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,2,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,3,10,4,5,10,1,11,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,1,4,35,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32509678691427785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986993070472813,0.2721233390319655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324251079230684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20164399524901036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015166533135477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715161893705295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425037218364912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24024797745792065,0.2515123238860784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29556979244143994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24822116399457106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663371401763236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sadlym3,2019/10/20,"Self help? Cry for help? Venting? Funny, I don’t even know if I’m in the right place. Maybe I am, maybe I’m not. I’ll probably regret posting this anyways. 

I’m 21/F, I’m just so fucking unhappy with my life, I’ve stopped eating basically all together. I eat once a day in front of people such as my family, partner and work colleagues. (Which is me taking home lunch and eating there) I’ve lost 10kgs in the span of 2 months by just not eating.  I was 62kgs, and am 5’7. 

I feel like eating is the only thing I can control in my life. I just want to live life, do things, adventures. But i can’t because I don’t drive yet and I live in a rural town with nothing. I just feel so trapped and alone. No one understands me, I’m so alone. 

I’m so close to just starving myself to death, really wouldn’t be hard. I don’t think anyone notices me",-0.5197606253053237,1.649289280898877,1.879946262823644,95.36854665363951,91.58426966292136,4.893404982901808,18.413287738153397,6.498293943080001,-0.02742188568636994,644,19,147,8,23,218,106,178,0.17300000000000001,0.732,0.095,-0.9305,0,3,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,14,5,1,0,5,0,13,10,0,1,1,28,28,12,1,4,9,0,3,1,1,1,3,0,1,2,4,8,6,2,5,0,0,2,8,3,0,1,2,3,19,2,15,24,1,17,0,2,0,1,4,10,1,1,5,82,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454630679469928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285881381790433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223724862128157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329092034207985,0.0,0.0,0.1301680344268641,0.07642348861454729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6062816998779289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782689433968288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117124112971927,0.0,0.1198355627497557,0.0846573008684161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955247566301622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615382415880173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588577502859605,0.0,0.11886639355374196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06512517576283723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511027652279626,0.05789371420934687,0.0,0.20927751050574075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293580885928847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381008220872015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458654951864684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370512413762272,0.1349144333515194,0.0,0.12619994022048345,0.08029949884099566,0.0901255236654243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215383070938867,0.0,0.1238085614241006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349141953512297,0.0,0.12776436627577062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591492097126075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119940112177712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236226248265197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907233263355096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909817569891408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574539005032781,0.07593080194961077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336395738354727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989509445902105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627030523260351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawhale-__-,2019/10/20,"I feel so fucking disgusted with myself As long as I can remember I’ve felt fat. I developed what I now recognize as Anorexic tendencies when I was about 12, and they peaked around 14-16, easing up a bit the next few years. 
Since I graduated high school 2.5 years ago my tendencies have shifted. I just realized (due to watching insatiable) that they have flipped are now more in line with binging and overeating. I feel horrible when I’m eating, and I know it’s bad, but I can’t stop. I feel like such a fucking disgusting human, and I just hate myself for it. I need help

But I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone. I don’t feel like I would be taken seriously. I was skinny/slim when I was younger. But never to the point of really seeming Anorexic. And even now I’m not fat. But I feel like I am. Through HS I weighed 120-125 lbs, lowest point was about 115/116 (I’m 5’6). But I’ve gained to the point I’m consistently 127-130, and this morning I was 132 lbs. I hate myself for feeling this way and doing these things, but I can’t make myself stop.",1.3814520202020188,3.5345548472222283,3.043720538720539,90.7278787878788,81.5462962962963,6.519865319865321,23.24410774410775,7.686295010490155,1.067387037037038,821,29,178,14,22,271,120,216,0.156,0.735,0.109,-0.8995,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,2,1,14,12,6,0,5,0,18,6,2,1,1,37,39,20,0,2,9,0,8,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,8,10,4,2,12,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,7,9,32,4,19,30,3,24,0,0,1,2,5,8,2,1,19,110,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211442463481393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843581320531307,0.0,0.0,0.11259154083267603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560319602895114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13808036730111847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294177714830345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835370112011367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476547797429781,0.3614214059360566,0.12143796580553325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338523043596993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24974014085679716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477501477018366,0.13363012737308794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06950857263516548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471615249926865,0.0,0.0,0.11192835999708056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442452669031948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378125629691204,0.09754702940143346,0.0,0.13450995868701282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586855628221773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102454598571421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432740353874316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12800169928312652,0.0,0.11514011124760733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10462326364683493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2114812389627075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165759883933156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402584524053977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039173047783834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984578852257151,0.0,0.0,0.16289436636400953
EDAnonymous,burn_burn_burn_,2019/10/20,"Backsliding I was at my worst (Or art best depending how you look at it) in my last year of uni and was eating 200 calories a day. It was also the fastest ive ever lost weight and was when I was at my heaviest. It's the proudest ive ever been but I stopped and gained all the weight back.

Lately I've been eating less and healthier and I'm back to my lowest (which is still ober weight) nut me and my bf are having a really hard time. I think he hates me and i really hate myself. I've never felt so alone. At my worst I felt valid and loke I belonged in this community and i moss it. I miss achieving things and him living me and actually seeing changes in my body. (When it's this slow I don't see it and nor do my family or my bf). I just want to go back to restricting really heavy and being successful and loved and belonging.

This is my first post here and i don't even have an eating disorder and I'm really sorry.",0.21366866635902326,2.325149593908627,2.7570950622981094,91.24461352099678,86.05583756345176,6.627503461006,17.583987078910933,7.84624498591911,0.5091543147208122,718,17,163,15,22,248,108,197,0.191,0.715,0.094,-0.963,1,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,6,14,9,2,0,6,0,18,8,1,2,4,33,33,26,0,1,4,0,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,11,17,6,2,3,1,0,1,4,6,0,1,10,9,30,3,11,22,5,27,0,2,3,1,6,7,0,3,18,116,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.11617080382642342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.123294777631506,0.0,0.09520028960605467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746149033978497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12493044352452153,0.0,0.0,0.13223222228021675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12593388619975074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677421384295034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13643594966585626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654384408719755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862813784800297,0.21536614023493134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222508562910233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22860384823556185,0.0,0.0,0.1012596652368751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765604966626643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066409888368202,0.2350646969423863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703761073033748,0.1342880102854734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051189669260246,0.0,0.0999678661758955,0.0,0.129951743056846,0.0,0.10744281237332366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181488736737023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140122581511014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050532490561456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897269962891525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326119569515385,0.0,0.0,0.09506953682918624,0.09952699869396307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790882466031802,0.07627926612390308,0.0,0.0,0.06941613046029349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07021585936275415,0.0,0.0,0.43489442793738137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666111409165521
EDAnonymous,hopelessly_living,2019/10/24,"Bay Area Nutritionists - In need of recommendations I am \~4 months into recovery and in need of a nutritionist. Hoping for someone who in kind and understanding, but also gets shit done. If anyone has had positive experiences with a nutritionist based in Bay Area (especially Palo Alto/Mountain View area), please let me know!",8.052999999999999,10.27067861818182,8.867045454545455,55.98056818181817,62.81818181818181,12.045454545454547,33.75,11.698219412168324,4.925090909090909,264,11,38,9,4,89,44,55,0.078,0.7290000000000001,0.19399999999999998,0.7463,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,0,11,11,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,2,9,8,0,9,0,0,1,0,1,8,1,2,1,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21589329661596446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18876788916220835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762709751202491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640804879026071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141047127389713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681391194197061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2811301080898638,0.14836734191109285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760605511393243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154858665369106,0.0,0.0,0.4003556738501181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963437729275729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771182526276325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22874299395404024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810461888238726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,melllllons,2019/10/24,"I’m so stressed I’m sorry I don’t usually do stuff like this but I need to just say everything

I just started college and it’s been a shit show. I know that I have the freedom to not eat and yet I still do. I have crippling social anxiety and haven’t made any friends, I so desperately need someone to look at me and ask if I’m okay but no one will. I keep thinking maybe if I can lose enough weight someone will notice. Someone will see that I’m all alone and need help that I’m completely incapable of asking for. My PTSD is raging, I have panic attacks every other day, I wake up in the night because I can’t breathe, I’m skipping classes and missing assignments because I just can’t get out of bed, it sounds so stupid but I just can’t. I have no excuse not to be losing weight, but Halloween has always been hard for me with all the candy and I know that if I restrict as much as I want to my mood will plummet too much for me to handle. I wish I could be skinny like I used to be. People still call me a twig but I’m never the smallest and my legs still get bigger when I sit. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to cry for help without actually crying for help because I’m too anxious to show weakness. I feel so alone and stuck in this cycle where the more I lean on anyone the more I push them away",1.809370789957136,3.1071510669014084,3.518609920391921,91.82871708511942,77.06338028169014,6.065890998162893,23.967544396815683,6.498293943080001,0.5474086344151861,1029,33,234,8,23,344,143,284,0.23,0.642,0.128,-0.9862,1,2,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,18,15,4,2,8,1,27,9,5,3,3,46,58,25,0,9,15,0,4,2,1,4,1,2,1,0,11,11,4,2,6,2,0,1,13,10,0,1,4,8,36,4,28,46,7,21,0,3,2,0,11,9,1,3,12,157,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.10022301584472376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21273803821823065,0.0,0.0,0.08545687006446888,0.0,0.0,0.06984135482030777,0.0,0.07856728100952315,0.11602481284603144,0.0,0.07181211270657281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19202631304611306,0.1168391428654694,0.09649256326398048,0.0,0.0,0.1878198299219412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487093503754742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768182231571126,0.0,0.0,0.08199974542671411,0.0,0.2256281770964757,0.06623474226747215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050904973350186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611933869581358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653145055759857,0.0,0.09230256047980767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0519295687562782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793478478405237,0.0,0.10731583908685484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920014423749614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065183559033091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128687473585848,0.0,0.0,0.2257708623342934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035069869429816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08624439795286264,0.2297960920451546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717977380566012,0.0,0.0,0.10317866189124147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099659675070815,0.22845824229566425,0.07921065025211142,0.0,0.0,0.09637952253099788,0.0,0.0,0.11692769962740167,0.0,0.0,0.06959400449207083,0.0,0.0,0.12049948473189707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120111764023966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005395514659882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167330571005844,0.0,0.0,0.08184075141492028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542284113609808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469246448899666,0.2610589820478067,0.0,0.0,0.11496725930895565,0.07269349653982528,0.0,0.2460555160714539,0.0,0.1176455907913956,0.0,0.11757001503515475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06580774037496133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870215392113544,0.11311250945449562,0.0,0.06057671078852912,0.0,0.0,0.2501284298997931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181030313851138,0.09900173358546464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,birthdaycake____,2019/10/24,Exercise makes me ravenous How do you exercise fanatics do this,4.013636363636362,7.149881727272727,6.936818181818182,55.12522727272727,95.36363636363636,16.745454545454546,41.86363636363637,11.20814326018867,9.716418181818185,53,4,7,4,2,19,9,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Nervous_Llama,2019/10/24,"140 days I made it 140 days purge-free. And now I screwed up. I am 0 days purge-free. All because of a single slice of pizza, which is hilarious to me because I don’t even have a restriction eating disorder. I’m a binger. And I’ve kept down all of my binges for the past 140 days. 

But I did make it 140 days. That’s a lot of days. Before my boyfriend helped me quit I was purging 3x a day every day. 

But now it’s depression season, and holiday food season, boyfriend and I are living apart, and I don’t think I can bring myself to try again.",0.8149686520376171,2.58124460344828,2.6623824451410663,94.75722570532915,81.41379310344827,5.942319749216303,20.028213166144198,6.980632752743323,0.16138965517241433,418,11,99,5,11,139,70,116,0.11199999999999999,0.836,0.052000000000000005,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,6,0,9,4,0,2,2,15,15,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,2,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,14,0,9,11,4,18,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,1,14,58,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909949921252038,0.0,0.13330474526943709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8082535746975187,0.0,0.1349296354928895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795440788561146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16030063534247854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347138431377956,0.0,0.13199144407195768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894319382370067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500481172796199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383322220665617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318535484156538,0.0,0.1482339495818023,0.10457068694557413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954815258273765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662547349647108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038036606611436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10636075854839083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lightandempty,2019/10/24,"ECA stacking on Vyvanse? Sorry if this is against the rules, but I consider this to be a harm reduction sort of post. I'm considering starting ECA stacking at VERY low doses, as I'm pretty sensitive to medication and I am on multiple other meds. I'm probably not even gonna take the aspirin part of it. I read that you should be careful taking EC if you also take Adderall. I have ADHD so I take Vyvanse, which is similar to Adderall but ""smoother"" (aka more gentle on the come-down and such).

I know ideally I shouldn't be EC stacking in the first place, but would it be really bad if I stacked while taking Vyvanse? Any comments appreciated, thanks.",4.783809523809524,6.0718776984127,6.071587301587304,76.46785714285714,69.63492063492063,9.092063492063492,33.84126984126984,9.444778638647367,3.2889746031746028,514,25,94,11,9,173,83,126,0.11,0.726,0.16399999999999998,0.8211,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,4,6,0,0,5,0,11,3,0,0,0,15,24,12,0,7,7,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,10,3,12,16,2,11,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,4,3,62,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078097265486355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382797296716804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758784603481365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443764542821837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17629794167293975,0.0,0.0,0.1489506024790368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420845137342922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708105609281066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502933279149628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19206912107577254,0.17419325098551428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18724964314690135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18065893639739009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16560437265087335,0.17591629497697048,0.18643116643445787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296137629059866,0.0,0.11077350969599574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356371910951425,0.1223898319391102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6500512352120861,0.0,0.0,0.15919651635639118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14267264017777484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283355870706432,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,humphreymacc,2019/10/24,"I’m so HECKIN frustrated Long time lurker, first time poster.

I’ve been in therapy for two years now, just going through all my bs. When I’m there I’m like, “yes, Cheryl. That makes sense. I will definitely follow a diabetic meal plan and it will be wonderful.”

Then I walk out of the office, get Wendy’s, and purge. 

I do all of this great work in the hour I’m there, but I can’t follow through with any of it once I leave. 

W H Y am I like this",-1.7487499999999976,0.09245495833333807,0.6395833333333343,101.16375,103.58333333333334,4.483333333333333,13.291666666666668,6.322622252153567,-0.8476333333333335,340,7,86,5,16,113,69,96,0.040999999999999995,0.8009999999999999,0.158,0.8537,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,6,4,1,0,3,1,7,2,0,1,2,10,17,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,1,0,7,3,10,13,2,16,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,11,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18078800470783535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613298532118645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889633492918918,0.0,0.15108942391110974,0.0,0.0,0.29310200372372863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618099850293615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28149814746419755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25976303917151583,0.0,0.0,0.2352700402150819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745781131867555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831229647522232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304024137915198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100400692360719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596980965409512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883044012154586,0.1935429172538508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17119952497414606
EDAnonymous,straight-gae,2019/10/24,"Unsubbed from that sub [Mods - I hope this flies due to being vague. I know rule 4 is a thing]

After a few years of religiously keeping up with it, I’ve unsubscribed from a very toxic (for me) subreddit. It was very triggering and giving me fuel to the fire. It was also giving me such a toxic mindset that it extended into my personal life to the point where I found my thoughts towards IRL people sounding like the shittiest comments in that sub. 

I’m not quite ready for recovery road, but I want to make sure that the only target of my shitty thoughts is me. Hell, a huge reason I have an ED is so people like me. That can’t happen if I’m a bitch all the time.",4.107555555555557,4.744362274074074,5.468888888888892,82.57000000000002,70.7037037037037,8.37037037037037,26.85185185185185,8.515128840125781,1.7735185185185192,517,16,105,8,9,174,89,135,0.163,0.7140000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,12,0,8,1,0,3,2,18,21,5,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,11,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,2,13,4,16,15,2,12,1,0,0,0,4,8,2,2,6,70,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221282660649072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22240599232771774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38916942497282303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17937267932674394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146806393075184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802954591171376,0.0,0.0,0.111476763219291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327343803756318,0.19819689682844396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353987373781302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542706264356562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28125046961560024,0.17711397691872927,0.0,0.0,0.1917514345881652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21574763813302225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20855555534405396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911763641825517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13475933829551212,0.0,0.0,0.3220680834237581,0.11827891260251995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347321013368653,0.1196415795263693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062372035913625
EDAnonymous,Very_Lazy_Person2000,2019/10/24,"TW: Food talk and weight loss!!! I'm on the fence about recovering. I know that i should try to recover because eating disorders are hell so you don't need to tell me. I want to be healthy but i also want to be skinny. So in my attempt to try to get better i drank some regular coke and had a chocolate muffin. One of my rules is that i can't drink soda unless it's zero or very low calorie and i haven't had regular coke in many months so it's a step in the right direction. I'm also a vegetarian again  because i was a vegetarian a couple of months ago for 2 years and i lost quite a lot of weight. That's not the only reason i'm going back to being vegetarian it's also to help the planet a bit but the weight loss is a bigger piece of it that it was back then. I feel like my rationality and ed are at war and i can't really see who is stronger right now. i'm thinking about telling my close friend about it and maybe that could help a little bit, I'm just scared he's going to try and force me to recover and I'm just not ready to tell my parents or teachers yet.Idk",0.3325641025641026,2.246633047008551,3.0381410256410284,90.64644230769231,83.91452991452992,5.951282051282053,19.151709401709407,7.1686216300943375,0.24190940170940234,839,22,195,12,24,294,121,234,0.109,0.774,0.11699999999999999,0.2315,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,6,15,10,2,1,14,0,18,11,1,1,0,31,36,21,1,5,9,1,4,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,12,10,11,1,4,1,0,3,6,7,0,2,6,5,19,3,25,25,5,23,1,4,1,0,11,11,1,4,10,121,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357663051433327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803243043474241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969420535960062,0.0,0.1424560637372371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334049388937992,0.25513040327890746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329175438344314,0.12928750407978326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391525325650155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144642664947749,0.0,0.11956228418019504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05908067821964898,0.08347456525898607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412902399538796,0.0,0.0902746696721006,0.0,0.061047036484349476,0.0,0.13281216640601973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663837031317845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421532081051813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05708488902055438,0.11711005115474553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755084437204176,0.09933800455741314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846316300596665,0.117387173980593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18653018745988106,0.0,0.0,0.08663957884344338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917764548960843,0.08886639226075896,0.0,0.0,0.1297432814213192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12427974581187085,0.0,0.0,0.07485432395955903,0.12013680256296347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957111616965595,0.0,0.0,0.1169828929249812,0.0,0.09311086564751453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391611818240712,0.3063847799015681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486998306692551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23799160643402584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640990934874033,0.1378371992457243,0.0,0.0,0.4268596187420417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524477627525693
EDAnonymous,5FootArmrest,2019/10/24,"""You drink too much coke zero"" And????

Bf literally said this last night when we went to the store. I don't even know how to respond to that. I mean it's not like I care tho (\*currently sipping on a diet coke right now\*)",-0.3949275362318865,1.8142240000000032,1.5086956521739123,97.90115942028986,91.6086956521739,4.8057971014492775,16.36231884057971,6.42735559955562,-0.4674811594202897,168,4,40,2,6,55,41,46,0.13,0.87,0.0,-0.6906,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,1,0,6,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,4,0,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,5,2,4,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,6,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448405758485669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313294754303735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22339289820779254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858783462323008,0.27569663595638944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16523852302014932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684236649611367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24863259501723586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173990846027696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888403309453989,0.3217272323033345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31353582398649704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hyperviolence123,2019/10/24,Scale stays the same but I look thinner? Haven't been eating a lot and the scale has stayed the same number????? And like I feel like I look like I've lost weight...??,1.5528431372549036,3.205652911764709,1.671176470588236,103.26696078431374,78.70588235294117,4.533333333333334,14.274509803921573,3.1291,-1.5800666666666667,125,1,31,0,3,37,23,34,0.078,0.637,0.284,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,7,3,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,3,3,0,5,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666714557361156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177341479162355,0.1861814868056905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819660328512052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.437697408127328,0.0,0.2844891228223741,0.2215632669355969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5555560951767102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173555850141556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,critical-strawberry,2019/10/24,"Fatigue? Had my ED for a really long time now. Had anorexia for 6 years then rapidly transitioned into bulimia and gained  A LOT of weight very quickly.

About a year after that I started to struggle with extreme fatigue. I'm still struggling with it now and I'm practically housebound. I went to a chronic fatigue specialist yesterday who said I likely don't have chronic fatigue syndrome but I do have fatigue related to my ED (which is good news for me, I don't want CFS) so they are still going to treat me.

Anyone else have an experience like this? If so, what helped you recover and how long did it take?",3.3722843822843838,5.740972102564108,4.493224553224554,81.7929370629371,75.83760683760684,7.331468531468532,31.14918414918415,8.296473431620573,2.620835897435898,484,24,87,9,11,158,80,117,0.11900000000000001,0.775,0.106,0.6815,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,1,1,9,11,0,2,5,0,11,8,0,1,0,12,19,9,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,0,7,1,0,0,7,6,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,7,0,0,5,2,11,4,13,14,1,17,0,5,0,0,5,1,0,2,16,62,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227469688376546,0.2084845433297339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997754688388275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903793773407447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563973141167147,0.1706654711083748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638523910831174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988155577199523,0.0,0.0,0.36013856635910685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17298746759197478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13035152052595853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935516547684351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440209011519316,0.0,0.32499135727224304,0.0,0.0,0.4254332334775984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298814159128507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186481138296242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678884747415219,0.12001503424455955,0.0,0.0,0.2477781616829388,0.0,0.18862368947542252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620629104716609
EDAnonymous,Swimming_Elephant,2019/10/24,Why Am I Like This I am waiting to get off of a plane and noticed that the weight capacity for the overhead bins is a little under 85lbs and then I got upset that I am over that. Why do I want to be able to fit there? WTF girl?!,1.0144117647058837,1.9392931372549072,3.2648529411764717,94.36433823529413,78.41176470588233,5.8843137254901965,20.59313725490196,5.985473137389443,-0.16770980392156876,174,4,44,1,4,60,37,51,0.147,0.735,0.11900000000000001,-0.54,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,0,6,1,0,0,0,4,10,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,1,8,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,31,9,0,0.32376700544758713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691548973560129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25894605093525885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581762047585521,0.3244995961027033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686108816153413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19096616832684607,0.0,0.0,0.39426098929606,0.0,0.0,0.5842987273604074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lusciousbanana22,2019/10/24,"If anyone needs help *going* Possible TMI warning. I have had issues going to the bathroom during times of restriction and would go 3-4 days without going. I have tried Metamucil, Miralax, eating a shit ton of veggies and drinking tons of water.... I finally found something that works. It’s called Calm and it’s a magnesium supplement in powder form that you just add hot water to and drink. The label says to take between a half teaspoon and two teaspoons and I’ve found one and a half teaspoons to be perfect for me, but everyone is different. Just wanted to share this with anyone that may be having similar struggles. I know how uncomfortable it is to feel constipated and this has given me so much relief.",5.401590909090913,7.214368098484851,6.095878787878789,74.8688181818182,68.77272727272728,8.613333333333333,31.381818181818186,9.120678840339163,3.0236309090909086,567,24,92,11,10,185,92,132,0.1,0.7759999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.2734,1,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,4,6,1,1,6,0,11,6,1,1,1,26,23,12,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,8,10,5,1,4,2,0,4,1,2,0,4,4,3,7,4,14,15,4,8,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,2,3,68,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.238426978787066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740936122137549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10995463644204932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781301221207115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33403876190563664,0.0,0.17445810208369858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629144879102629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620697624414399,0.0,0.0,0.1867680319625963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738761194348141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3875830684181022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142786497669105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17795162000670356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369913823672613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253328338824416,0.12641926836708786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11553126351078108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19220656194238794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355838088733694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17500981770257867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125474335595302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823752704345192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819039923753373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941652289125054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157543513966205,0.0,0.16654803247330593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10056188011890173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643502979080565,0.0,0.12412178794190652,0.0,0.0,0.12111416821851195,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tenebris_petala,2019/10/24,"After 5 years of binge eating and 80 lb weight gain, I’ve been working on being healthy and finally am getting attention again, it feels so good. I’ve been anorexic or bulimic throughout my life. I’ve always been what others called a pretty girl. I always felt so ugly, though. I knew I got a lot of attention, lots of eyebrow raises and body language from men that indicate they find me attractive. I always enjoyed that perk of being “pretty” especially since I never believed it. I had whatever boyfriends I wanted and married a handsome man. But I always had this ugly self image.

A bad event occurred and since I didn’t care about myself and didn’t believe I was pretty anyway, I started just binging, no purging. I continued this for years and gained an enormous amount of weight. I’m 5’10 and I went from a healthy, muscular, weight of 145 to 258. I got used to not being that pretty girl anymore. I became that basic fat girl nobody notices. 

Eventually, something clicked and I stopped caring what others think and decided to lose the weight for my own damn self. For my baby son. For my health... But I vowed to do this as healthily as possible. No extremes. No purging. No long-term restricting.

Over the last 10 months, I’ve begun OMAD and IF as well as allowing myself ONE binge day each week, usually a Saturday or Sunday and I eat whatever I’m really craving. 

So far I’m down to 180 and not only am I pulling out clothes I haven’t seen in half a decade and now I’m comfortably able to wear them... I’ve more recently started putting extra effort into my hair and makeup and I noticed the little perk of being “pretty” come back. As I walk around during my day or interact with classmates on college campus... I’m started to get those “you’re attractive to me” looks I used to take for granted and didn’t believe. Coworkers and friends mention how great I look and it makes me feel wonderful I achieved it, FINALLY, through healthy means.

Now I believe the looks from others and know I’m pretty. I’m going to accept this and believe it for while it lasts since I’m rapidly approaching the age where I stop being pretty or beautiful and become middle aged and don’t get this kind of attention. 

I’m mostly happy I’m losing weight in a healthy way for the first time in my life and I did it FOR MYSELF and I finally can accept feeling pretty and worthy of the notorious eyebrow raises.

Thank you for listening, as there’s nowhere or nobody else I could tell this to...

I’m a long time lurker and hope anyone struggling as I have my entire life can one day have something click to help them change for themselves. I have no answer for how this change happened, except it happened after I had my son. Maybe somewhere deep inside I know I want to be healthy and happy for him and thus have to be happy and healthy for myself first.",3.8164426877470383,5.778559400000006,4.670498023715414,82.87331225296442,73.18181818181819,7.109881422924903,28.13833992094861,7.893859768569023,1.922984980237155,2250,89,408,32,46,727,264,550,0.07400000000000001,0.7190000000000001,0.207,0.9974,1,0,2,1,0,0,57.0,0,1,3,9,17,24,1,1,17,0,30,16,5,7,1,84,79,52,0,5,12,2,10,0,1,0,5,1,0,7,25,36,8,3,18,0,0,7,13,5,1,5,17,17,56,19,62,54,8,63,0,2,6,0,21,16,1,11,39,264,81,4,0.058186217272417434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19366237588533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05770509243125047,0.040685156013812236,0.0,0.0,0.051798069566885915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04474160946164237,0.048583060982549414,0.0,0.06426210551846552,0.0,0.32777970759063185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06463177024593561,0.0,0.0,0.059414633444233214,0.0,0.11864945283465544,0.0,0.12310660531427547,0.05012227402040801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04645695983643435,0.0,0.0,0.11257588954516727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907805294949947,0.048607118238780576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826209925943836,0.0,0.05586789339888476,0.19122047070630685,0.0531811484547843,0.0989863333749508,0.0,0.0,0.04495452712751708,0.0,0.09119969093185236,0.0,0.033068568177818065,0.048803838421723617,0.09307366672971604,0.06415050995823215,0.0,0.0,0.10290775954213044,0.18582093076440628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061849228050393765,0.0,0.0,0.03900099492488122,0.0,0.0,0.05779204267958212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06059199135286975,0.063955246623756,0.09485906617597577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232959380911605,0.0,0.05831787577471419,0.0,0.10298594254522617,0.14658530380662507,0.13019098733974094,0.0,0.09893568233237783,0.0,0.0,0.0388397518527205,0.0,0.05845587600930341,0.06338184848376645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0464436834979501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487679782700088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249078804059733,0.0,0.0,0.07885697338985809,0.044253240207042285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559621733485413,0.0,0.47357041031004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058493219499828324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03727558072795602,0.0,0.05745186991895681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140182911518152,0.0,0.0,0.14439672062256648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958918555536417,0.0,0.0,0.1235535122047014,0.0,0.0,0.09729256609216252,0.0,0.06082886787535219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04374879402477133,0.0,0.05085731855743385,0.05357005129960722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03728337857168622,0.05716766304258877,0.0,0.06785770242542169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10050841940240733,0.06408389783871035,0.0,0.06863947700035605,0.04618551092536405,0.046673473757412064,0.3542756858980263,0.05231639721167705,0.05393920635429671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631004705740848,0.04236025916882296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749400324267347
EDAnonymous,maverick2598,2019/10/24,"College Blows I’m in my last year at a private university and finally seeing how absolutely toxic this environment is. I despise every day here. Everyone talks and acts like they’re in competition with each other about who can drink the most, eat the least, workout the most, and get the most fucked up. People seem to just glorify how little they’ve had to eat and when one person mentions it, it’s just a snowball effect of everyone else in the room trying to outcompete for who has been most self destructive and they think it’s funny. I get I have no room to be talking about competing to be self destructive but I don’t sit there and brag to other people about it. 
I’ve gone to peoples apartment for a “party” just to find them sitting around going through peoples instagrams talking shit about appearance, how they slept with this many people, etc. I know probably not everyone is like this, but rather the people I’m around, but it seems to be quite the majority. 
All of it makes me feel this mix of “I’m a failure” (because others say they’re eating/weighing less than me) and like everything I’m doing is just normal, since everyone seems to be doing it to some extent. 
Just needed to vent about it and a bit curious as to if others see this too. I can’t wait to be done with this year and out of this bullshit.",7.661681574239715,6.637990224806206,7.837596899224807,74.21906082289806,63.418604651162795,11.039236732259988,34.187239117471684,10.214889679676881,3.293780799045916,1050,37,198,20,13,343,141,258,0.102,0.826,0.07200000000000001,-0.8743,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,3,3,20,8,5,0,12,0,18,6,2,5,1,49,40,18,0,4,11,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,21,16,3,1,8,2,0,4,4,5,0,1,5,4,12,3,39,30,13,24,0,0,2,1,13,12,2,10,9,141,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19092478507793595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536980813227265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170734686437363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915807125660774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973921947923747,0.0,0.10505003356777268,0.0,0.2194575189479314,0.08958155854643883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959600696502914,0.0,0.0,0.09035059273626768,0.4098727303625735,0.09637641570419156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542215262477938,0.0,0.0,0.11747132527452055,0.09801136822112974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913755647106744,0.11205231865416616,0.0,0.060944445661554415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058933864805905664,0.08741130207060874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571696484359743,0.10747821291015024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158057565625647,0.1087200366665469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951381635959623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506809030829352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726655974935222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460618520198011,0.09363396343354173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561808165445545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405822855578472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527802936485253,0.0,0.0,0.17090573086828406,0.2928697062570865,0.2237401733857496,0.0,0.11007577156293752,0.08870637162524313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585756674044769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06871222325753623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280591288543839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381123824154521
EDAnonymous,a2c6283,2019/10/24,"Aren’t y’all so glad that losing weight is about calories and not about those weird diet tricks people think like avoiding carbs or sugar or drinking weird tea/shakes and stuff today I decided that I just want to eat hot chocolate and 400 calories of cornbread. that’s it that’s my day and it’s fucking delicious. if I’m eating 600 calories a day I better be eating the food that I want, I’d go crazy otherwise",4.326666666666668,5.579760481927714,4.732710843373496,85.77007028112452,70.68674698795179,6.979116465863456,27.086345381526108,7.1686216300943375,1.3348008032128509,332,11,64,3,6,105,60,83,0.106,0.674,0.22,0.8286,1,1,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,2,4,9,2,1,2,0,3,9,0,0,0,14,9,8,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,4,8,1,2,1,0,1,2,6,0,0,0,3,6,3,4,8,0,4,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,4,34,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18468085085992128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693381895013209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045602583624216,0.0,0.6410129333267099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525012291969171,0.0,0.0,0.1930470983815288,0.0,0.0,0.11867498873514602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10201698752132236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336117770941957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476677540504765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390444493717224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338009105266012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793322478577005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463302649211057,0.0,0.0,0.2542817264237446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,username12345aaaaaa,2019/10/24,"When I will learn? I work physical job that requires thinking as well. Restricting makes me feel dainty fainty and I almost pass out and make stupid mistakes that make me look like an idiot and can cost me a job. My dumbass combines menu for today around 500 calories and says it's fine, while my two last brain cells scream to eat something more calorie dense, but I already had two coffees and I am good to go. I am clown.",4.553654618473896,5.863126795180726,4.3062048192771085,88.82790160642574,70.20481927710844,6.979116465863456,28.29116465863454,7.1686216300943375,1.3728730923694776,336,12,67,3,6,102,65,83,0.141,0.759,0.1,-0.3612,2,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,8,2,0,2,0,5,2,1,3,0,18,12,9,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,7,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,4,1,2,1,4,11,4,6,10,1,8,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,5,39,14,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051059217713968,0.0,0.22603308573955455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18234058352459875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22865608647138794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959045232127327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10356732607116732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640862426504575,0.1718002321412056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065208984648145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669623754683665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006874486017504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720041567554085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101733757257534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16288765892670953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768680675024582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124568273246745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415324694134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40017490781312376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18416521069697056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14911741768913914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thowingawaynow,2019/10/24,What caused you to develop an eating disorder? And what stops you from recovering? for me I’ve felt lonely and worthless since I was a kid and anorexia has always been a security blanket that’s made me feel better. and I don’t want to recover because I have no other blankets lol.,3.33818181818182,5.563379181818188,5.219999999999999,77.23000000000002,75.36363636363637,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.7032909090909087,225,10,40,5,5,77,44,55,0.205,0.637,0.158,-0.4329,0,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,3,1,5,1,0,2,0,10,9,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,2,7,2,4,5,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,28,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763478555517285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20245537189252152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29373039761258585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411755290505861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806347260883829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398384887661813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16792827720810946,0.0,0.3188842946781978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3142570290011372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747305211648393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776645889815358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19589114497358026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,panhandlerandomer,2019/10/24,"I don’t have any of the psychological symptoms of eating disorders that I’ve looked up can I still have one? Or am I just in my head? For the past year my appetite has gone down so much to the point where I only eat not even half of dinner sometimes no lunch and generally no breakfast. I get almost sick thinking about eating but I still get hungry and just a bad feeling as soon as I get any sort of food. I’m seeveenteen and still in high school and am a tree sport athlete. You’d think I’d be eating everything in my sight but I don’t. My coaches always get on me about my weight but not because I’m unhealthily skinny but because I don’t weigh enough but my parents do on me more about it because they know how I eat. I’m posting this hoping for advice or answers or anything because I don’t have these psychological issues with my body I actually want to eat more and I’m happy with my body and want to gain weight. I’ve only gained phore pounds since I was *tirttean* but my body has gotten more muscular it seems or I just have less fat and grew. I haven’t gone to the doctor or seriously even talked about it with my parents I actually skipped a doctors appointment because I was scared or something. I feel like reddit knows a lot more than my parents or friends do so I just want to know  what you thinks wrong with me (if anything), what to do, anything at all thanks reddit",2.319728187007339,4.335474515901062,3.498816254416962,89.36450054362602,77.69257950530036,5.908616471867356,24.31217722207121,6.844919456158928,0.7925402011416147,1100,38,229,11,26,356,139,283,0.07,0.805,0.125,0.9479,3,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,2,18,9,0,1,8,0,21,24,7,1,1,51,47,26,0,5,20,3,4,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,8,11,15,0,10,2,0,3,9,4,0,2,5,6,36,5,31,40,9,21,0,0,2,0,8,11,0,13,7,153,44,3,0.0,0.0,0.16210305857299653,0.0,0.0,0.08116221737113391,0.0,0.0,0.08316946316657327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910997387560071,0.0,0.0,0.11296304681944774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20504619463519105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934902166621706,0.2531535016715218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767723941923688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519037491206628,0.1700244627743908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5099275122001037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581995478457126,0.0,0.10971656573974213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07464616406613311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399210355844203,0.059335848377218774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043270341179478,0.0,0.06416953589812961,0.0,0.17357515738958404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841558829352851,0.0,0.0,0.08524031606365794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775414899294373,0.0,0.08249421792012765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668979905794387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693765977525188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04057739395281658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974685692259437,0.0,0.0,0.07061198531824169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061056360061359526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056281488295991285,0.1263369928469847,0.0,0.0,0.2766744930204766,0.0,0.07928718564518054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851559360222105,0.0,0.07954552758678538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831544216587324,0.08405799209395677,0.0,0.07561185996086628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870550561221264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394124047030833,0.08214537352374306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19898798393642428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632789544425043,0.0,0.06675797030339581,0.0,0.07646761181991446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596584761890375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14696729111094742,0.0,0.0,0.20228179715544045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080965475690593,0.0,0.05348590462728723
EDAnonymous,Shift3y,2019/10/24,"I feel like shit. Recovering from just a single B/P episode takes DAYS. Literally every time, I'm fucked for at least the next 3 days afterwards. Puffy, bloated, feel sick and nasty, don't even wanna see anyone because I've never felt so gross in my life.

Well this week, I really fucked myself over. Binged Sunday night. Then Monday night. Then tonight, Wednesday night. Threw up so many times on Sunday and Monday but trying not to tonight because I'm sure it will make this bloated feeling any worse.

I'm fucking miserable. The eating part was for ""comfort"", but what comfort was it rlly if it proceeds to bring me DAYS of discomfort? It takes DAYS to lose that disgusting feeling. My weight was still ""ok"" this morning but I'm sure because of tonight's mega binge/purge and the previous ones, I'll have gained like 5lbs. It will take at least the next 5 days, maybe the next week til I feel normal again. 

DAYS of being miserable in this fucking brain prison, chugging peppermint tea to reduce the feeling, and trying to eat as little as possible to ""make up for it."" So sick of it. Wish I could eat normal portions to prevent binge episodes but I cannot right now. I fucking hate it.

 The sad part is that if my partner wants to hang out this weekend, I know I won't want to simply because of my lack of self esteem and how sick I feel. It really is sad.",3.0884090909090887,5.251568901515153,3.5840909090909108,88.9586363636364,75.8939393939394,6.218181818181819,25.01515151515152,7.1686216300943375,1.072760606060606,1066,37,209,12,24,333,147,264,0.233,0.6729999999999999,0.094,-0.9939,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,0,2,10,23,8,3,8,1,13,16,2,3,3,38,43,20,0,10,8,0,9,2,1,3,4,0,0,2,17,6,5,1,9,1,0,3,5,15,1,1,5,10,15,8,32,33,7,48,0,5,1,5,2,11,6,2,36,117,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058819675634531464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06047942779602015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090658969727707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655720552226886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905934801125932,0.0,0.0,0.3346933402938532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265518430223236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05712923819115106,0.0,0.07287590378334839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061418666005119,0.061792160415540226,0.08304891896657618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998169136416573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539606449737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0475354785298718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109409029340146,0.0845143334072454,0.08669087457687773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676596073311516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547238344100158,0.08769251746428196,0.08689601512545618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671040054444607,0.0,0.2759657554808837,0.243509548218383,0.16949378655119293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0586113597146524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18733166128958015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975102980715748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11082203014906893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386639502945032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892544487857229,0.0,0.09023331698400948,0.0,0.0887860399622858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907514743305004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16304133153098266,0.0,0.1951007902109941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008720480965796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174490734728351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203417412951052,0.0,0.1387624019503592,0.1053278043612817,0.07776953753446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946516666809227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881459587107964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,n0secandy,2019/10/24,tazo dessert delights tea life changing.   vanilla bean macaron.  don't question me just try it.  there's a lemon one too but i'm so hooked on this one i don't give a single fuck about it.  its 2 boxes for 6 bucks at target right now.  i don't have friends to talk about this with.  discuss current favorite teas here and any sales because i work too hard and make too little,1.4163157894736818,3.6757519473684224,1.93342105263158,98.12144736842106,82.15789473684211,3.8,23.97368421052632,3.1291,-0.12002105263157906,292,11,63,0,8,89,61,76,0.066,0.782,0.151,0.7426,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,10,2,1,0,2,0,4,5,0,1,0,7,8,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,3,0,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,1,4,1,7,8,1,6,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,1,2,36,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920792081097635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17218205599216613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988001280780067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21822417130416485,0.2611252623640585,0.0,0.27095674612240755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530243613086421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995064467314691,0.0,0.283094293864039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885410258610246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38279787974953206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164144443546692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24121518029674885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270267743643012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917685262841156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20563073496746187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pm_me_your_calories,2019/10/24,"DAE eat autumnal flavors for the aesthetic even though you don't like them? me: actually doesn't like pumpkin pie flavored oatmeal or seasonally spiced coffee

also me: *but the aestheticc*",3.9035416666666687,6.948363937500003,4.927499999999998,69.23416666666668,97.125,8.383333333333333,33.458333333333336,8.344100000000001,4.542045833333333,154,9,21,5,6,50,28,32,0.131,0.8690000000000001,0.0,-0.4973,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.43662907290196656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578111954256425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578346204756659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955246051656639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371853327966152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4395996518969687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,orangeraysofsun,2019/10/24,"How do I tell my girlfriend with an ED when I don't want to eat? hi y'all 👋 i frequently lurk on this sub because my girlfriend has an ED but i don't, so i like to try to gain some insight so i can be more empathetic and stuff like that. sorry if this post doesn't belong though! 

so, i think i should provide a little more context to just make our situation more clear. my girlfriend has struggled with restricting and purging a little and she's currently in recovery and she's been doing pretty good. i don't struggle with anything related to my eating habits but i'm just a small person, which doesn't really help her. TW on this next part maybe, involves numbers, i'm 5'5 and fluctuate between >!95-98!< pounds (which she's aware of) and i do eat quite a lot (although i don't track but i do glance at the calories on food as a habit now) and i don't mind eating too much because i'm actually trying to gain weight, however, my metabolism is really fast which actually kinda makes gaining weight hard.

my girlfriend frequently asks me (like everyday or every other day) if i can eat more food and she'll give me a set calorie amount (ranging from >!200-500!<) or just ask me to eat a specific food item she knows i have, and i'll search my house for something that fits her asking and i'll send her a picture of it then eat it. of course, i always do this when she asks because i'm trying to be as supportive as possible and it makes her feel better when she believes she has ate too much. however, the problem here is that i don't always feel like eating and sometimes she's feeling down so i just have to eat more food even when i'm feeling full, and i just don't like this cause it doesn't feel good to eat when you're full you know.

so, i was just wondering how do i tell her when i DON't want to eat more food? or do i not and just pretend i ate something? i really don't know because i want to be as supportive as possible to her, but eating food when i'm full also makes me slightly uncomfortable. thanks for any help, sorry if this post had any triggering things",3.879788732394367,4.848248105633804,4.8780469483568085,85.38115492957749,71.46478873239437,8.121314553990612,27.815023474178403,8.447377352677275,1.7978550234741792,1647,58,345,26,30,539,183,426,0.10099999999999999,0.772,0.127,0.9533,3,0,2,0,0,0,49.0,1,2,0,5,28,14,0,2,12,0,36,22,0,8,1,65,69,47,0,8,18,0,8,5,4,2,0,1,0,1,19,17,22,1,11,1,0,1,13,3,0,0,5,10,55,11,34,59,16,33,0,0,1,0,35,13,0,10,21,225,74,0,0.0,0.0,0.1064385164390624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04361241059060647,0.0907566230423572,0.0,0.0,0.07417268509146616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487847206702982,0.0,0.20393515107904486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297853050508246,0.0,0.0,0.0614433840889184,0.0,0.048232650329391016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05602348319204674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03517120116698493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6696471783794254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036020506302995726,0.0,0.045948922735175035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787517296181828,0.03896052134068976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39567080524771336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05231588989074999,0.0,0.09148440003200432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04885353406155911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0731086475314167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06292720900612991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08991465971970801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321764719683846,0.10931877591857382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04636454750609193,0.0,0.0,0.14561278418037074,0.0,0.054788730948219226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05506580228899265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801804536115385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057999642853338175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05905716144554829,0.0,0.0,0.047618721924211495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296226652076013,0.10446080438250717,0.05548270671579948,0.0,0.05218357609592651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05800573712359225,0.0,0.0,0.10481145281875033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061300736450619835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396893722851298,0.053937487467348416,0.12209714921040705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140257131850024,0.06243065962736606,0.0,0.12377358776254865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533371607492992,0.050209411404071036,0.0,0.0,0.036231287720049785,0.03494445959683532,0.05358133216377362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107906980539484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650021763082813,0.0,0.0,0.13282028470892185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0591419535726286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wavybabyyy,2019/01/25,advice or tips? Plz so i just realized that ive been binging a lot more lately which is not good at all!! i fast then i usually end up binging :/ but besides that does anyone have any tips that has really helped stop from binging or urges to eat food? ,2.9538235294117685,4.360408254901961,4.190343137254903,87.72904411764708,74.29411764705883,7.452941176470588,24.514705882352942,8.07648339933343,1.2920941176470588,195,6,41,3,4,64,42,51,0.146,0.831,0.022000000000000002,-0.7517,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,1,9,5,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,4,4,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,6,27,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889603500825549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109012920431266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206764417153037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25877419624097336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025809241761676,0.0,0.0,0.2619076273047997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575687071843263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480240509013388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19820540890377708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335690971179924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513985529040048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18943674987113876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472233449779559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256782346125789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,junglebooks,2019/01/25,"how do i increase my sex drive/can i do this without gaining more weight pls send help so basically i’ve been underweight for a hot minute (aka the last two years(?)). i dipped to my lowest weight and bmi ever over my first semester at college - got down to a bmi of 16.8, 112 lbs at 5’8.5”. 

i’ve been trying to eat more and have gained back 8-9 pounds so i’m resting at a bmi of 18.1 and 121 lbs. the thing is, i hate my body because i feel like my stomach is distended and bloated all the time which makes my already small butt and boobs look completely flat. basically i look like one thicc ruler from the side. i also psychologically hate being over 120 lbs/ a bmi of 18 and am dreading where all the weight i’ve been gaining is going to go. i haven’t had my period in a few months and my sex drive is close to zero (although it’s getting a little bit better as i gain more). 

my gyno said the loss of a sex drive is bc i’m not eating enough. but idk what to do? i love my boyfriend and i want to have more sex w him (lol) bc his libido is like 100x mine but i don’t want to gain more weight and feel like trash about my body. is there any supplement i can take? does anyone have any advice on this?

alternately, will my stomach ever stop being so gross? i don’t recall it sticking out this much when i was this weight and younger. and how long does it take to regain ones sex drive after regaining to a healthy bmi?",2.233661616161616,3.6251255690235737,3.539280303030304,91.72892045454547,76.13804713804714,6.431481481481483,21.802609427609426,6.996647511020387,0.36999225589225615,1102,28,251,11,24,360,161,297,0.076,0.795,0.129,0.9420000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,8,13,11,2,1,14,1,26,20,6,3,4,29,45,22,0,2,4,0,8,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,10,13,7,1,2,0,0,7,5,5,0,5,7,11,30,6,29,35,13,34,0,1,2,8,6,14,2,0,17,152,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010483766005847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304695658888865,0.08192258559787384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932772944998725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716296142604617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07877133925802468,0.0,0.06244750576988574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060135341550966,0.1118397975688855,0.22757925618451436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740816701570184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792948333424563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20964685490609372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058496541859948,0.0,0.0,0.1853287540541028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035951969251526,0.14636873317696894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713685249600718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0535215569359347,0.0,0.11643995082229693,0.0,0.08193198083587294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20227992830681654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866450804059977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350365323640409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019134843201694,0.10267348968292396,0.0,0.090657675446301,0.17205044454635232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09245762833236283,0.0,0.06838062614870967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176798271742494,0.0,0.07530643210630511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13883428599230188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09744550980743677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564584313288802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404680956813327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805770947699635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059734575525334316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955118570633544,0.0,0.10007064957658147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084553046585812,0.0,0.0,0.6237319260646557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875013727586326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596909218648611
EDAnonymous,pinkie-pie-promise,2019/01/25,"Good mobile games to distract me from binging I’m on day 6 of being binge free and I haven’t gone that long in literally m o n t h s. The catch? I’m off work these next two days, and I’m sick and bored all alone in bed 😬 my 3ds is at my boyfriends house, and dumb mobile games usually distract me pretty well (but only good ones ofc). I like things like Piano Tiles and Disney Emoji Blitz, ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ hit me away w your suggestions friends I’m desperate ",1.4978830409356725,3.43015848421053,2.8108771929824563,93.71058479532171,79.94736842105263,5.906432748538013,21.08187134502924,6.937597516519254,0.3162046783625727,356,10,80,4,9,115,74,95,0.166,0.62,0.214,0.7269,0,1,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,1,11,1,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,7,9,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,4,1,2,1,0,8,8,9,6,1,13,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,7,34,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24936687653422496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22621294538061515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105556662197994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860196243363564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038957706586239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27781822439711856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352577893545679,0.0,0.0,0.21307538493116665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25606344294741873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315314055772212,0.18311773351835972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24495138602171224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599580242153252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23519897321294034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26517602038504084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164826810065764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17528467099705786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemonytaurus,2019/01/25,"im a minor. if i come clean about my ed will i be sent to inpatient? backround info : im a minor(younger than 16) and i think im bulimic. ive been purging for about 4 or 5 months now but i was restricting for 6 months or so before that. im still overweight, if that matters.

so my question. if i tell my therapist about my eating disorder will i be sent to inpatient against my will? i would probably tell her if i wasn't scared of being forced into a mental hospital or anything but im just sorta suffering in silence here because im scared of being sent off.",0.7828205128205141,3.02398061538462,3.4516239316239314,86.34615384615387,84.72649572649573,7.018803418803419,25.23931623931624,8.139509932561175,1.874500854700856,440,19,90,10,13,154,68,117,0.161,0.758,0.081,-0.9012,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,2,3,0,12,2,0,0,0,20,17,12,0,5,10,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,2,3,2,1,3,0,0,4,1,3,0,0,6,0,15,0,14,3,0,11,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,9,4,61,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382028338576836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690696722384209,0.0,0.10735426684379913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086770852350903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14459217421544102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909485815380414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8176573501355804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714126366869932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014020412594677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360235905586644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132991478648574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25261962954491074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075285190928723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22054167540139816,0.0,0.0,0.14648339265183175,0.0,0.08083928732438425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962161217988933,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thebitchybulimic,2019/01/25,"Food budgets So it’s happened. My husband got a pay cut (and is actually currently looking for a new job) so there goes my healthy expensive food...and my binge foods. I’m stressing out that I will have to eat what he eats. I hate not having my *own* food, it gives me so much anxiety. For now I’m just going to fast/“IF” and eat the remaining oats I have. At least I’ll lose weight without much effort. *fuck*",-0.005389610389606503,2.3041142619047608,1.997705627705628,94.34123376623378,90.90476190476193,5.435497835497836,21.92207792207793,6.980632752743323,0.6814428571428577,314,12,70,5,11,104,62,84,0.17300000000000001,0.794,0.032,-0.8651,2,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,6,5,3,1,3,0,5,8,0,0,0,6,14,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,7,0,0,0,3,1,2,5,0,0,1,2,8,0,7,12,4,6,0,1,1,1,3,2,1,0,3,40,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.13996595755036778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972274807279866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4402908443225003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6937393841251367,0.0,0.0,0.1325977457261242,0.0,0.13759011058465162,0.08151397307849516,0.0,0.1147132274268232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683373975823226,0.0,0.0,0.14160638607178447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233109351871578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044418780541905,0.1604602984321678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108735510793576,0.0,0.0,0.13852456597756765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429736850273888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465781141397202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826038184586778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,catacomical,2019/01/25,"I am so tired of my flesh [creative writing, tw, please remove if not allowed] The first time I overeat because of you I can feel a whole pan of brownies turning in my stomach in horrifying, sludgy tides—my lips stained with the greasy residue of butter, sugar, eggs. My face is flushed, almost post-coital. I imagine dark slices of chocolate wedging its way underneath my skin, shifting my organs around, slithering into my stomach. I pinch my thighs with powdered sugar fingers, leave behind white bruises. And I say to myself: “this is almost how it felt”. This is almost how it felt. I don’t know what makes someone try and replicate trauma. I don’t know why I make myself relive you again and again – slipping through the bedroom cracks, pressing myself against strange men in corners. I am so tired of my flesh, these arms, these breasts, these thighs, this belly. I am tired of this anger.",5.733139059304705,7.452248730061353,4.6927760736196324,85.61110685071576,67.83435582822085,6.169529652351737,33.21523517382413,5.985473137389443,1.8309799591002047,705,32,123,3,12,207,104,163,0.14,0.846,0.013999999999999999,-0.9611,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,1,7,2,1,0,4,0,9,19,12,5,0,24,17,8,0,1,2,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,11,7,4,0,6,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,11,24,0,19,15,1,13,0,0,1,1,5,7,0,4,4,80,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.48101527894382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425419703298806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760850323813948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096217767115918,0.0,0.30748325834705537,0.0,0.0,0.13619915870393873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599703894199958,0.0,0.0,0.1695454150878754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376452066660487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576518481879486,0.0,0.0,0.15335201440564727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273349431982182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567032035514567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933680606889057,0.5521078929203864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871190212543383,0.1741660746175605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709689343717004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444846345125181,0.17876979551513505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dustpandirt,2019/10/17,"Unsolicited questions and comments Every single day at work I seem to have *at least* one person talk to me about my weight loss. It's so frustrating and it's almost always men who are commenting. 

One time a coworker said my boyfriend must be very happy with my new body *wink wink* 

The coffee delivery person keeps hinting that I'm abusing drugs (doesn't help that I have dermotillomania...)

Today it seems someone's gone around telling everyone how much weight I've actually lost, leading to another coworker asking me why I've lost so much weight, before I even could try to answer someone else said ""because she wants to be pretty"". 

There's so many other instances too, but I just can't remember them off the top of my head.

I'm fucking over it. Why is it okay for my body to be a public topic of conversation? I'm starving myself for goodness sake, ""being pretty"" is a miniscule aspect of why I am doing this. 

I want to disappear, but I feel like someone has covered me  fluorescent yellow highlighter and a popped a  neon sign over my head screaming ""GO AHEAD AND TRIGGER ME""",3.431048780487804,5.950641897560978,4.467012195121953,81.29271341463416,76.36585365853658,6.831707317073171,26.835365853658534,7.908726449838941,1.9027512195121945,859,34,151,14,20,279,132,205,0.098,0.805,0.098,0.4649,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,7,10,10,2,0,7,1,16,9,4,3,1,25,33,10,0,4,3,0,4,1,0,1,1,3,0,3,10,6,3,1,6,0,0,4,2,6,0,2,5,8,20,4,21,22,4,16,0,3,1,1,17,7,1,4,6,94,30,2,0.0,0.12651298570357164,0.10419870297645444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069214889033385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884680775263093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196472994831684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505394339459043,0.09982184525236956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509011430217249,0.0,0.09085914777201796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23720979109139745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08525254449637354,0.0,0.0,0.0688621688150255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382712790149708,0.0,0.08919827136949779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052503478806321,0.0,0.0899640151394191,0.10202975819762404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05398953189469066,0.0762813298569517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871338262585654,0.0,0.0,0.06068368636123765,0.08955926994126688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366583338015494,0.0,0.0,0.21916749636495167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157020319329334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09490807940750348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052165725400476086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331188668761355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825486284498133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15698639082722038,0.0,0.0,0.10312564824946542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447093752246747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18646667495558344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21726067858975326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961439437592067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095724020573198,0.0,0.2031382772907548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441108161476767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714147753434125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582310513064273,0.09332758382272666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226238023121735,0.0,0.1012118716958498,0.0,0.0,0.07249440264530331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810199937780905,0.12595938450951785,0.0,0.0,0.3900759384472395,0.0,0.0,0.289048220083331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07773474399493054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,talkdogtome,2019/10/17,"My boyfriend triggered me and now I can feel myself relapse again To cut a long story short basically I was about to have sex with my boyfriend and he went to quickly use the bathroom, came back and announced that he weighed himself and is now 2kg less than me. He’s quite tall and athletic, but when we started dating he was like 20kg more than me. I just stood there, already vulnerable because I was naked, feeling like a piece of shit.  And I just felt really insecure and ended up having a really bad time and bleeding after (even tho I consented but idk I shouldn’t have ://) but I can’t stop thinking about that.
I used to be in an abusive relationship, where amongst a lot of things he would grab the fat on my body when he’d hold me and ask me why it was “still there” and I just got thrown back to that. I really liked being with a guy who was bigger than me and felt comfortable with my body, but now I feel like shit because my current boyfriend will call himself fat around me but insist that I look fine. Idk I felt good about how I looked for ages and now it’s just gone back to square one and yeah I just wanted to vent :/",2.743797640653355,4.332424750000001,3.4643466424682394,91.97321234119785,75.20689655172414,6.6083484573502735,24.279491833030853,7.273561745256523,0.803410344827586,890,28,196,10,19,281,130,232,0.15,0.736,0.114,-0.8747,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,0,1,27,12,3,1,8,1,17,9,6,4,0,46,36,22,0,3,10,0,7,4,0,3,3,0,0,1,8,19,3,2,7,0,0,3,2,5,0,1,13,10,33,7,24,17,4,32,0,0,3,1,14,8,2,1,25,135,41,0,0.0,0.14975217918091988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947515670580776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251441963777684,0.11815813825964334,0.0,0.0,0.29155968152846,0.10553086160131392,0.15409305860070785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.280782900991836,0.0,0.0,0.12905892161361193,0.1445571617799668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194454621121812,0.0,0.0,0.08347979132409718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19172063664195346,0.1805869225735076,0.3640643553739263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060104286130869,0.1010860991849454,0.0,0.0,0.1251465531721495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469922281520929,0.0,0.0,0.11185169305743092,0.21227252319294204,0.0,0.0,0.10745275810636916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08564553341022234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443194801165792,0.0,0.0,0.2429071411735557,0.0,0.0,0.13569619110305567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594762445018081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945990868102484,0.0,0.1009356868036346,0.10566819092354676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396829052959577,0.08098598533120968,0.0,0.0,0.07369936824084135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21832177477520626,0.0,0.0,0.07454844344115097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716534128437488,0.11404784682806128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978424735778885,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Throwaway74882919927,2019/10/17,"Scared I'm going to get refeeding syndrome. Please help :(( I've lost about 70lbs over the last 6 months. I'm trying to get myself back to normal eating but I binged on some high carb food last night. (I don't have ED but have food instability and sudden availability was hard to resist). And I learned recent what refeeding syndrome is. I ordered electrolyte supps for myself that should be here tommorow, but I'm really scared. Im not in a position where I can check myself in somewhere. And I'm just scared to eat now. :( What else can I do and am I going to die?",2.7997321428571453,4.8143852232142885,3.8440714285714286,87.45092857142859,76.23214285714286,5.908571428571428,21.91428571428571,6.742157984588678,0.5090685714285708,443,12,88,4,10,143,72,112,0.19699999999999998,0.773,0.03,-0.966,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,3,2,0,11,4,0,0,0,13,20,7,1,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,4,0,1,0,1,2,2,4,0,0,2,1,10,0,12,16,1,17,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,1,8,52,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268915919046333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17126659356853555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377170352492623,0.1378545538578217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990900748848778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724341778313324,0.0,0.18757140427358251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782713539968384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061064613970724,0.17435461111434986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825188139856404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690296137865997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18014080819978745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317188407811359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486179737138794,0.16168634425616293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18114440111570806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10571720227890036,0.0,0.16293913696073686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4956468845221016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203898215089192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinforlife5113,2019/10/17,"Anabuddy I'm looking for a friend to help me stay in track.. to motivate each other.. to hold accountable.. 
I'm 5'6 and 200 lbs.. the biggest I ever have been.. I went on a 2 month long binge streak and I'm losing it... 
Gw: 150
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EDAnonymous,Careabella,2019/10/17,I’m not crazy I swear But my face gets fatter as I’m eating. I CAN FEEL IT! I always check before and after a meal and I know it’s not in my head. I think I need to start taking before and after pics. I just ate a cheeseburger for lunch and I’m 90% sure it went straight into my face and gave me a double chin.,-2.4142765685019185,-0.6748257183098578,0.7216389244558279,101.38504481434059,101.95774647887323,3.1451984635083226,9.271446862996156,4.851557810540192,-1.9212929577464788,238,2,60,1,11,83,46,71,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.6884,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,1,7,3,0,1,15,14,7,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,4,0,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,1,11,1,7,11,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,35,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25934291509541385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5304338296967647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189266808757412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15759488652861905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16284005325551393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198738302433099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129130032848494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311069372961055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22060886722032133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937549231536573,0.0,0.23434473985821794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19971210286322705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889306908459968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AskyGirlz,2019/10/17,"Need advice how to increase appetite/gain weight  

I am mostly asking for just normal weight gain, to come to a normal weight, not building muscles. But i figured you would have some experience here. I am 22f, about 5-10 kg underweight but I can't bring myself to eat more. Just no appetite. And i can't bring myself to eat bad-tasting powder either.

What I want to ask for is either good-tasting and non-filling calory-dense food, or some kind of additive that increases appretite?",3.3972039072039086,5.955432945054945,4.0434432234432265,84.08211233211235,76.69230769230771,5.8026862026862025,25.49572649572649,6.937597516519254,1.2898634920634915,382,14,66,4,9,121,63,91,0.04,0.894,0.066,0.0213,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,1,0,7,6,0,1,0,22,14,6,0,5,8,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,3,9,1,10,13,8,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17043457061077258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261056153243985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562774543124513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024153715017854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569365130699935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060958703286758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21090114631782114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14628952589667465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816245191935802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932518552265168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417758295031428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287343037866696,0.0,0.0,0.6371649091888512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12389814050180392,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kingqueenrat,2019/10/17,"My really nice coworker invited me to a dinner party. A social gathering centered specifically around food. My nightmare.

She is so cool and funny and I just want to be able to go and eat. She’s making bolognese and said “I’ll take care of the pasta, sauce & bread”. As if I will allow myself to eat ANY OF THOSE FOODS. Ugh. 

I just don’t know what to do. I’m grateful to be invited, she must like me! I hate that this is destroying me. I wish my brain was fucking normal.",0.07252180808881548,2.4197199793814437,2.6478350515463944,89.36875495638384,91.4742268041237,5.871213322759715,18.801744647105483,7.321109707123232,0.6777238699444887,366,11,76,7,13,126,69,97,0.092,0.664,0.244,0.9292,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,4,8,3,0,3,1,9,9,1,2,1,15,20,7,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,5,7,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,2,15,4,10,14,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,1,1,49,19,0,0.2022779642613758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21916808976635985,0.0,0.13755595210469038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800702736114383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258091054549516,0.0,0.0,0.2062358656840995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4139617123770511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4891906346095121,0.0,0.0,0.18700271849595024,0.0,0.0,0.11495922858725552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997076119718192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111666791322772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09882279588347384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502211185860258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19818945729778015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12958444352913429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192412665200296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20619691109976893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208785532129718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930878416269924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23260967617864245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tytoalba1,2019/10/17,"Might???? Go to the doctor???? 
So uhhhh I’ve been lurking forever and this is my first post and I hope I don’t break any rules??? But anyway,,,I’ve been struggling with disordered eating for a little over a year now and it’s starting to get to that point where I can feel that I have no control over it anymore. No matter what I can’t convince myself that recovery is good or that I even have a problem???? But I’ve been extra mean to myself the past two months and I’m starting to feel like I’m really not okay... my body feels all kinds of fucked up and literally everything is so much harder now cuz it’s not working right :( ... I think i might go to the doctor with my ~symptoms~ and H O P E they understand it’s an eating disorder so I can get help,,,, I’ve been talking to a counselor who doesn’t specialize in EDs and she’s really great but honestly we haven’t make any progress on my relationship with food so I feel like this is my only option??? The only caveat is!!!! I’m like,,, still overweight???? So I feel like I won’t even get any help,,,, it also makes stupid ED lizard brain tell me that I’m not “bad enough” or whatever,,,, really conflicted!!!!! Ah!!!!! I really really don’t wanna get better but also!!! I really really don’t wanna fucking die or something!!!!",1.1508655462184905,3.4552381019607883,3.3249229691876785,87.44536764705883,83.66666666666666,6.936974789915968,20.4796918767507,8.07648339933343,1.138733893557423,976,29,201,21,28,332,134,255,0.084,0.7709999999999999,0.145,0.9399,0,0,1,0,0,0,72.0,1,0,1,5,13,19,3,1,9,2,22,11,2,4,1,43,47,22,1,4,10,0,5,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,14,11,4,2,8,0,0,2,12,6,1,2,4,5,25,13,19,40,4,22,0,0,0,2,9,9,2,7,13,128,39,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186843662301416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937147518176569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416828117287417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928214225276935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397858660542411,0.0,0.1054718475751686,0.0,0.10599942339119747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064983382903392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854666217869326,0.0,0.2176496989733111,0.19437770454801656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943221143788378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811226892435217,0.0,0.1254316811321508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853380142347083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400565192714774,0.20350423374565366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807673333564941,0.11481805636780885,0.0,0.0,0.17556581957330875,0.1984369784759576,0.0,0.10792843733378106,0.07964242643381547,0.0,0.10468648440910504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729055621853946,0.0,0.0,0.09431017428989326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09887937854599764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18555778537715345,0.09516827531124407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12676429476338286,0.0,0.0,0.10343211452935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146115352368973,0.0,0.0,0.07579091657377604,0.0,0.06980169161029587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444327143775859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064378674869107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976167668222967,0.0,0.09093913197594967,0.0,0.0,0.0908576023632296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4258071607350834,0.0,0.0,0.10194444130320156,0.0,0.0810897046860203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07309978426494576,0.0,0.0,0.13441704347613248,0.0,0.07582992650793538,0.0,0.0,0.09926593463719448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869296383062602,0.0,0.07631996488103726,0.08299347721036272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608423196028347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275569729722584,0.09884986237312797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06912722305605877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061146891438331026
EDAnonymous,iamsplendid,2019/10/17,"My Loop Any Westworld watchers here? Remember the scene where Maeve digs under her floorboards and finds all of her drawings of the demons? The ones that she's obviously drawn many times before, but doesn't remember?

I just realized yesterday that I'm doing the same thing, with my eating. I was cleaning my home office, and consolidated pages and pages of my work notes into a stack. Digging through them, every other page was my plans for food for the day. I wrote mean messages to myself, chastising me for eating before 6pm the day before, or eating more than 20 carbs. I mean, the stack is endless. My head is so fucked. All I think about is food and ways to avoid eating it.",4.699767441860466,6.47335793023256,4.716968992248066,84.22056976744187,70.47286821705426,7.020465116279071,25.3031007751938,7.554174236665415,1.2556784496124032,539,16,100,6,10,167,88,129,0.113,0.887,0.0,-0.9502,0,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,5,2,1,1,8,0,7,8,1,0,3,22,13,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,6,6,1,7,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,17,0,14,10,7,8,1,0,0,1,6,3,1,1,4,66,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673233149181044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631232591953816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834741339647887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5822137242901464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984860519015834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13001050041109727,0.0,0.3440094732776228,0.0,0.0,0.1315043709751849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598569606776768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426845921990481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442153765248976,0.0,0.30989574605974896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09638974400897617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222745561954368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450209143134418,0.0911456567968351,0.0,0.0,0.08294493542742154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290845650416928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355696806293767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,scrlett,2019/10/17,"Anyone here have a personality disorder too? I've always wondered if I may have avoidant personality disorder or obsessive compulsive disorder.
I more thought it's likely I just have the personality type that that relates strongly to APD symptoms and my OCD symptoms are just correlated with my eating disorder.
Anyway in my Psychology lecture at Uni I felt MAJORLY called out because they were talking about how association was super high and APD could be as high prevalence as 17-26%??
Wondering if anyone else has experiences with a personality disorder too? 

[Feeling very called out here](https://imgur.com/a/9mTKBYA)",8.852202970297034,11.778851188118816,8.96147277227723,53.29983292079209,61.871287128712865,12.17871287128713,43.318069306930695,11.698219412168324,6.560850495049508,514,31,65,18,8,168,72,101,0.155,0.7879999999999999,0.057,-0.8541,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,8,5,0,2,3,0,10,3,0,1,0,20,15,8,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,4,3,6,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,2,8,3,10,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,6,1,47,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09706912721953816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16314051986597186,0.1195303083675505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07111387280816253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382425222714569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314223320829183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6685031185981317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937065852846895,0.09745311700377078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11411429209199404,0.0,0.0,0.05898598804585474,0.0,0.11201035052952148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246511991683612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05699339755117271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074464317021412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425054733939471,0.0,0.09376559632279492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261373215647747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096255390623722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25302209901195544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AndroidZeroXeno,2019/10/17,"ED therapy in UK? Hello. My gf has an ED. She's anorexic. She isn't underweight, but she has bad body dysmorphia and stresses about food to the point of breakdowns.

She lives in the UK I live in the US. She's going to be seeing her doctor today and I want to be able to support her in anyway that I can.

I'm more interested to know what kind of help she'll receive in the UK (she lives around Manchester) as I know the healthcare systems in the US vs UK are very different. I know she's worried about receiving help as well. So maybe if anyone has had experience with ED therapy in the UK they can shine some (hopefully positive) light on what she'll be going through!

Thank you!",1.3615217391304313,3.693046601449275,3.218289855072463,88.37526086956524,82.98550724637681,6.868405797101449,23.692753623188405,8.021203637495839,1.4551240579710143,533,20,111,11,15,178,82,138,0.077,0.777,0.145,0.846,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,1,1,0,6,8,0,1,8,0,13,3,1,0,0,13,24,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,1,3,21,6,22,18,2,16,0,0,2,0,21,10,0,3,1,74,24,1,0.15001161720356984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489161069256683,0.0,0.0,0.13354214362092592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525343437554418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662908901483833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673021163256576,0.0,0.15354324674434155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14674014659760748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18139464297700067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705101181517276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109924980474947,0.0,0.0,0.14899538396305956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15621401490791695,0.24732738501710616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3973890189929512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15070683241276533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418094662971061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11953983684169267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17183780067034066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17023140548451968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13811054242465287,0.34310271582871354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219347271098176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608910101052729,0.0,0.0,0.12377529468042744,0.08848073849364754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487845953698555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234407900740854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,curseme09,2019/10/17,Do you think your SO secretly likes you to be thinner? He won’t admit it but why else do I get so much more positive attention the less I weigh?  Hmm...,-0.3562499999999993,1.8152458750000025,2.2800000000000007,92.965,90.25,6.95,20.5,8.07648339933343,1.13885,116,4,27,3,4,40,28,32,0.0,0.725,0.275,0.8715,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484350181061348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3029226199517085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28326197531623104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262211904665516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37151371684008794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231811318886771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FlipperSeventeen,2019/10/17,i wish my parents would let me be i am trying so hard to stay slim but they’re always telling me i need to eat and i’m being silly... right now i’m supposed to be on day 2 no food but my mom made me eat a scoop of salad last night. i’m still so fat.,-1.5934999999999988,-0.2380013500000011,1.4866666666666684,102.215,87.5,4.0,15.0,3.1291,-1.4429999999999996,189,3,53,0,6,67,44,60,0.077,0.855,0.068,-0.1238,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,6,5,1,1,0,7,12,5,0,3,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,8,1,5,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18720113992204893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509329964413512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604208153481194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720463561161723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20153762797622435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18338848977664424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300569944158581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21288123962488012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26349351506111723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16681960287909747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21112821554702854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498133413372817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19213144148426167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397984343757385,0.17966908553962174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664218129736524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274645377190738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2587155612751055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15981912968026926,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ifiwastodie,2019/10/17,the Peach app? Does anyone here use that? I saw it around on r/proed and MPA but never joined till now. I love the cute colours lol. Drop your usernames if you use it??,-0.7048571428571435,1.4758968000000008,-0.04857142857142627,107.87857142857143,95.28571428571428,2.8000000000000003,12.714285714285715,3.1291,-1.9531714285714288,128,2,32,0,5,38,31,35,0.059000000000000004,0.621,0.321,0.9301,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,1,7,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,3,3,0,6,0,0,2,1,3,2,0,1,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755242434188413,0.0,0.0,0.3507820867917445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34482995487004525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3556394705958381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30391049168269224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6806538041459278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,babygirl-0912,2019/10/17,"(TW) I can’t binge.. So I never binge, so I decided today I wanted to (because I wanted the emotional support food use to give me). Well i’ve had MAYBE 1,000 calories today and i’m in so much pain. I realize now that it’s because for the last 3 months, I haven’t ate more than 400 calories in a day. I normally eat about 250 a day. So now i’m stuck on the toilet in pain. If this is bad, I can’t imagine ever recovering.",-0.8143774703557298,1.1771535108695694,2.5500790513834017,91.6763438735178,89.97826086956522,5.519367588932806,20.3201581027668,6.980632752743323,0.4955739130434784,321,11,74,5,11,116,60,92,0.151,0.774,0.075,-0.8186,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,0,5,0,5,5,0,1,2,11,14,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,10,2,9,11,2,14,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,10,45,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336316816803226,0.2385380907891731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523616750845015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002031942377844,0.0,0.22008475335810865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17698051593647654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365859564104522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876894329494661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15948436828151502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965610422601322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616939575593505,0.0,0.14382842290752532,0.0,0.1509006580068809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19169967283896186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163799400991623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220261812404076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709147986351124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898249604976792,0.0,0.0,0.2308039509532471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759167130022256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cantdecidewhatiwant,2019/10/17,"Having an obese partner is so triggering. She just eats many high calorie things but has a normal appetite and doesn't obsess over food. It kind of amazes me. If only she knew I was a bulimic trash bag that is only ""skinny"" because I purge and that I am afraid of being alone with carbs lol. 

Hopefully I can become normal before I get more serious with her. (Sigh wish me luck guys.)",2.767142857142858,4.957120533333335,3.849904761904764,86.54400000000004,77.0,6.419047619047619,21.38095238095238,7.447530270364453,0.8466952380952373,300,8,57,4,7,97,61,75,0.052000000000000005,0.701,0.247,0.9544,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,2,3,1,9,4,1,1,0,14,13,5,0,5,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,4,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,0,10,4,5,10,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,3,0,38,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358544414106122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13881905791457871,0.2515043920383033,0.19377721842796103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330195460492894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753659969027407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897692342343068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22548357168548966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24060398554357465,0.0,0.22618232691743034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23714056401738515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308774264099066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44624433603868696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463902772622047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129038377024706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2618725332764582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sarahper,2019/10/17,"ah. (rant, feel free to ignore.) had the psat today. i have adhd and i haven’t been on my meds in a couple of months so i was fucked from the beginning. don’t think i did well at all. then i get home and see i got a 73 and 64 on two tests i thought i did okay on. so, i binged. i’m just kind of lying here mentally crying because i was So close to my goal weight, goddammit. like closer to it than i’ve been in a year. it just sucks so bad because i know i’m smarter than this but i just can’t concentrate and i can’t get help for my ed or my adhd or my depression or my fucking anxiety because my parents come from cultures where mental health issues don’t exist and they don’t care that i’ve been diagnosed 5 times. whatever though. i’m just disappointed and sad. my ed is getting worse and it’s like for the whole week i eat 100 calories and then suddenly the sadness hits and my weight goes back up.",0.9668205128205152,2.6656791435897453,2.8555128205128177,93.88532051282051,80.64102564102564,6.17948717948718,21.602564102564106,7.1686216300943375,0.4592564102564101,703,21,165,9,18,235,113,195,0.17600000000000002,0.7240000000000001,0.099,-0.9557,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,13,16,3,0,7,2,16,7,0,0,1,25,35,20,0,0,8,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,11,3,1,4,0,1,1,6,9,2,1,10,4,24,8,18,24,2,21,0,4,1,2,4,10,3,3,12,101,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304839813955683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051831204448221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572498880723556,0.11480238731699688,0.2514466014193743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018507854174206,0.0,0.0,0.11843956718508065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213534453597458,0.15103154533505914,0.0,0.0,0.11842404137731295,0.13955429430209654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069147228673587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06952148547023305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542233931321016,0.21550602267135105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996712558679587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14615050781689085,0.0,0.0,0.09215984408069072,0.0,0.13791846197780422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14350881452637496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317964160592614,0.07556352816562699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434599609225395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527256902034684,0.0,0.2771247721211935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097470112736378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267166738774432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956552782228644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810109492298887,0.13508791051638774,0.109155486714155,0.08017430436384974,0.0,0.13032896231148974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431240862569255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029000856188813,0.3348631698942875,0.12362430802542722,0.0,0.0,0.15350799717741898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011891411893232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0885421220298627
EDAnonymous,elk-ears,2019/04/07,"Prom Shopping Yesterday I went dress shopping and ended up at this boujee boutique type formal store and one of the employees asked me what size I was looking for and I just shrugged because I honestly don’t know how dress sizes work and she said “oh but you’re so tiny, I’ll pull some zeroes and double zeroes” and this somehow triggered me beyond belief and gave me a sick sense of satisfaction  because I for some reason felt my disorder wasn’t valid enough to be that small and when I look at myself I don’t see that but also because she was thin and pretty and she was saying that I looked small which is kinda fucked. I ended up hated all the things she pulled for me and freaked out in the dressing room. ",4.019516441005802,5.660578907801424,4.3055448098001285,87.02454545454546,71.97872340425532,6.545712443584787,24.8749194068343,6.980632752743323,0.9670652482269504,570,17,110,5,11,178,91,141,0.14800000000000002,0.785,0.067,-0.9338,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,2,0,4,0,8,2,0,3,1,26,20,17,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,8,12,0,0,4,2,3,3,3,3,0,3,8,8,19,1,13,11,5,18,1,0,4,1,8,11,1,4,4,79,27,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15584463419100214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821855212094488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563892163005992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22334817209237828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452098314756836,0.2013620604802855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18711436304633192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18016245861386251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19240262743841013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071003800880208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909477355428124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205502704617272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19826196293567888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20036802829373085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853745181339813,0.15497557114594449,0.0,0.0,0.15529330034180955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294689219085789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806547486612474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14187420413833027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,saltyhoez,2019/04/07,Under 30 BMI woooo lol im so sad that im proud of going from obese to overweight as if im not still huge but healthy bmi here i come 😎,-3.1436363636363645,-1.5751083939393915,-0.143272727272727,107.84509090909091,102.63636363636364,2.64,12.66060606060606,3.1291,-1.9581466666666667,105,2,30,0,5,36,27,33,0.155,0.63,0.215,0.4718,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,13,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465837808323513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268560689562225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9276152391538952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22860402539957195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,randomboy82,2019/04/07,"Focusing on Specific Body Parts but Not Realizing How Skinny You Are? Sometimes I focus so much on one specific body part (e.g. legs/thighs/etc.) that I don't realize how skinny I am overall.

Some days I'll get a glimpse of it, but it's rare. When I do realize it, it's a bit of a shock to say the least.",2.09846153846154,3.1811742307692303,4.547692307692311,85.61230769230772,75.92307692307692,8.892307692307693,26.84615384615385,9.3871,2.1639846153846145,235,9,54,6,5,83,46,65,0.063,0.938,0.0,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,4,4,4,2,0,9,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,5,0,5,5,6,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785566991052165,0.5668261903687069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455004083245545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28455865630598953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330485708240936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18756392272619246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289561171114065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5526031528565479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202904779718782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523489522866667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,StockPersonalities,2019/04/07,"My favourite singer has a Russels Sign I didn't know where else I could talk about this. My favourite singer was previously extremely thin and over last summer gained weight. Now she has started losing weight again although so far not to an unhealthy point,  which made me happy because she has talked about having health issues and body issues in the past. However, I was looking at a picture of her with a fan the other day and noticed extremely prominent scarring on her middle finger. And being the neurotic weirdo I am, I looked at more pictures and lo and behold, that knuckle and sometimes the finger next to it are always very cut up/red. It just makes me feel so bad if it's true because I've been there. But it's not as if I can talk about how this makes me feel to anyone... but it does make me feel bad. I guess this is what it takes to be skinny even in Hollywood.",4.740968992248064,5.859482244186047,4.75,86.53666666666668,69.58139534883722,7.36124031007752,27.124031007751928,7.492282038375204,1.3633937984496125,694,22,137,7,12,215,114,172,0.09300000000000001,0.841,0.066,-0.7714,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,6,1,0,8,0,15,7,4,5,1,28,28,16,0,3,7,0,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,13,8,3,0,4,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,5,10,17,2,16,20,1,19,0,1,2,0,7,11,0,3,8,93,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957100090941908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047929660034513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399691815148002,0.1751979685772963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15961975935749195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147338022980833,0.0,0.0,0.09267545630824496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257539840492364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004400447043642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949133594339028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21797909898753806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830319309034768,0.0,0.0,0.15297271573683446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15274777188191468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999736640228809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897448141129128,0.11713574653974315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413458152229164,0.16076500760081344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597365329818026,0.2877652192093165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282797256847686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360489294701416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13717915975413553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13584418554279404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212426921173793,0.0,0.10171252626400908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10804550065458901,0.3465050070295196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856862969186086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349978962445699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,yeongwoni,2019/04/07,"am i anorexic?? okay so tea is i think i have anorexia. i’m 15(almost 16🤪🤩), about 5’6” and 105lbs, and my waist is 25.5 inches (that one probably doesn’t matter). up until like a month or two ago, when i started to get “bigger” (for lack of a better word), i was about 5’5”, 100lbs, and had a 24 inch waist. that was when i was happy with my appearance because i always looked skinny and that made me happy. ever since then, i started measuring my waist regularly because i always wanted to make sure my waist was the same size, and i continued on because when i noticed i started getting bigger i always thought i look fat even when i know in the back of my head that i look skinny to other people, maybe even too skinny. sometimes i talk about how fat i am and my mom yells at me and tells me basically that i’m a boy and i can’t have an eating disorder and to stop being a sissy gay or to stop being a girl or something along those lines (please don’t think negatively of my mom she’s so amazing i love her to death). i don’t really like to talk about it with my friends because although they always try to hype me up and tell me i’m skinny and i look good, etc. i feel like they’re empty compliments and they’re just trying to make me happy. i only started thinking this when my friend made a comment on how she thinks i may be anorexic. i did a little bit of research and i think it may be true. i’ve been really depressed lately over my appearance bc of how big i look in my stomach and not anywhere else, which only triggers more sadness, which causes me to stress eat, this restarting the cycle. i’ve cried probably 4 times today. i just don’t know what to do or where to go with this like i’m so stuck and confused and i feel so anxious and depressed and just overall unhappy. almost every time i pass a mirror, i stop and lift up my shirt and contemplate whether or not i look skinny- which to others i probably do but i don’t think so- which also causes me to be sad sometimes. i just feel like a weight that hangs over my head and i just feel like depressed, anxious, a feeling of apprehension, etc. even writing this, my chest feels heavy like i’m going to cry. i literally just have no idea what to do. i want to start eating good and going to the gym because i know doing this will help me get a flat stomach and like bigger arms and legs and such, which will make me happy, and just all around more healthy and happy, but my mom is reluctant to because we had one a few months ago and i only went a couple times because of school and stuff. it’s also really hard to eat good foods and meal plan and stuff because we’re kind of struggling with money and my mom is saving up to move soon so we’re constantly buying fast food and the cheapest and easiest foods to make, which isn’t helping anything. i literally have no idea where or who to turn to and i feel so sad all the time for the past few days...... sorry if this post was a mess, but there are so many thoughts that are going through my head and i have no idea how to organize them for anyone to read. thank you so much if you preserved long enough to read all of this, i really appreciate it.",3.5694481605351167,4.4939903769230805,4.661792642140469,86.80768561872914,72.15384615384616,7.252173913043477,25.668896321070232,7.423996415210882,1.1371163879598662,2475,75,521,26,46,812,272,650,0.11,0.755,0.135,0.9541,0,0,1,0,0,0,64.0,1,2,2,2,43,39,0,4,23,1,42,32,20,13,6,121,98,71,1,5,21,4,9,8,2,4,2,1,0,2,32,43,21,3,21,3,2,10,13,11,0,3,15,16,80,28,62,74,14,66,0,6,6,2,26,21,0,14,42,349,112,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928315920719161,0.0,0.10085761130334904,0.0,0.0,0.08054661033868639,0.16761601234264953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378614994547938,0.0,0.035213260094524905,0.0,0.041442432936248365,0.0448315571269734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03872414623371734,0.0,0.24559453914503404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044539804600027585,0.05498066576753885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346829284088388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05442185219001625,0.0,0.0,0.05572297898152969,0.1106373755805757,0.03247838169430218,0.0,0.1301263763927402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05771754119341161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20612561734490126,0.04206976855161692,0.0,0.0,0.05203589942860215,0.11233062729329696,0.09978798395110387,0.04555399108929457,0.04243092648299638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17824661322501084,0.1079327382454936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826884924560109,0.0,0.07781685564288962,0.0,0.07893390985727937,0.0,0.11448422041726633,0.12672009334597803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680486532480599,0.04511315149100803,0.0,0.15505332734391716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06751121602035139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055275725511984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052442752104218435,0.08303050624927852,0.0,0.056808882002254014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19682892596285875,0.05047449067463422,0.0,0.04456749262180159,0.2537410168576114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045452353021919266,0.09530472010838358,0.13446420444177132,0.051057682559897344,0.05059393075130607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23592662037786244,0.08039460417484434,0.053525283462347056,0.03702079102237665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05733580790274286,0.0,0.0,0.06825120968692858,0.11490437865645925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807483327818365,0.03491365704183138,0.0,0.0,0.055280749283181586,0.0,0.0,0.0482314758134225,0.0,0.16289153753883584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10074833536917824,0.0,0.12904900439878972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05096755450117919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165875860926345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03877000362916996,0.09961572237917153,0.05637450078850565,0.17822724498418938,0.0,0.0,0.1263109978208262,0.05768782774068541,0.052647770234015664,0.11530153793598613,0.0,0.0,0.047464212398980056,0.0,0.0,0.08095578790469454,0.08803466234540422,0.04636521853448722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936140010968693,0.0,0.07996128592528631,0.11746254206876028,0.0,0.047735902854911146,0.0,0.0,0.06838300101000729,0.054777805482327344,0.04919492932845941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05940790187814795,0.0,0.0,0.06132556978991646,0.0,0.046684724571322285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,CheckOutMyNewLog,2019/04/07,"How can I be supportive but not enabling? I'm not going to include too many details about the situation because I'm sure my girlfriend visits this sub. 

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She's obsessed with counting calories. I've convinced her to see a therapist and I hope it sticks. 

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I've dated an alcoholic before and done all anon but this is different. 

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Her weight is not in a dangerous place but she's surpassed her 20lbs goal and wants to keep going. I'm worried she won't stop. She counts calories and is obsessed with it.

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She constantly needs validation and wants me to tell her she's skinny. She IS skinny and she IS beautiful. I loved her 20lbs ago and I love her now but I also suffer from my own issues which makes it frustrating because I cannot focus on my problems when I am stressed about hers. How can I support her without triggering her?   


I don't want her to feel attacked or feel like I do not support her happiness but at the same time I think her fixation is unhealthy. She doesn't have hobbies, she doesn't seem to have many other passions anymore and I'm concerned with this singular focus. 

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Please help me. Please give me tips to be a better boyfriend and best support the woman I love. I just want her to be happy with herself.

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EDAnonymous,Pabloiscool12,2019/04/07,Breakup = relapse?? (Ex) bf didn’t even try to work it out so might as well get revenge (??) by replasing and losing a bunch of weight ??? #edlogic ,-0.6310714285714276,1.385183750000003,1.3440000000000012,95.401,104.35714285714286,5.097142857142859,23.457142857142852,6.742157984588678,1.0734628571428582,107,5,23,2,5,35,28,28,0.209,0.72,0.071,-0.6804,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,5,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,14,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617282876755958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070313102688655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4433174677250477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4203729254760846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690368877865744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4825421579729448,0.35628845293039396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28848452893124343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,alibunn,2019/04/07,"Eating as self harm Guys this post is probably going to be triggering af but I need help or at least like some opinions or something so don’t say I didn’t warn you.

I just realized today that I’ve been eating as a form of self harm, not necessarily binging or anything extreme but just like... eating a normal meal when I don’t want to just because I feel like shit about myself, and then I won’t purge it because I “don’t deserve it”.

Like I know it’s really the “healthy” thing to do to eat when you’re hungry, but it’s the way I feel about it, it’s like I’m punishing myself mentally.

I don’t know if this even makes any sense but like, if I’m in a decent mood and feeling okay about myself then I might eat, might not, but I feel okay about it, but if I feel bad instead of cutting myself like I did when I was a teenager I just eat. And it’s not even a gross amount of food, like today I had 2 frozen burritos (they’re not that big) and some popcorn, but I’d almost rather go back to the blade because like yeah I know cuts and scars aren’t a cute look but at least it doesn’t make me fat, you know?

For me it’s like ‘I don’t deserve to be happy and have the things I want so eat a meal and keep it down fat bitch’.

Can anyone relate to this at all? Or am I just crazy? What should I do?? This whole mentality I’ve somehow curated is just making me hate food which has never been a problem for me before (I would eat whatever I want then purge ie. bulimia style), so yeah, just, yeah. I don’t know what to do. I’d like to hear your words. Thanks.",0.3399929762949938,2.223357128358209,2.3069754170324863,96.07187664618088,83.68656716417911,5.374012291483759,18.50965759438104,6.522977012572876,-0.2033792800702368,1198,29,286,12,34,399,151,335,0.1,0.679,0.221,0.9902,1,0,1,0,0,1,36.0,0,3,0,0,23,28,6,0,12,5,30,15,3,4,2,68,56,33,0,12,27,0,5,11,0,5,2,2,0,3,22,7,14,1,11,0,0,2,15,11,0,0,6,8,35,16,25,43,8,20,0,0,1,0,9,6,2,14,21,180,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07646672200209667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051929599932323565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05339493044975872,0.0,0.06284041347946162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05871859320395936,0.06376008884712014,0.13965090815173392,0.0,0.06497946544975006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6251090056700457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10087435715008347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19305766168982605,0.1091077818677782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18467738805353545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679794160446448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561158156096917,0.0,0.08129005470616453,0.0,0.07539285821120541,0.0,0.0,0.08606688513653539,0.0,0.05118464854303253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06787512779930885,0.0,0.0,0.2098361097726463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103792670177179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412586201426332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529191025953923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539123053547267,0.16201859186600226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0566223510133763,0.058896013523141215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748197302319942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313484436356787,0.0,0.08233245368736096,0.07306927681956622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048920226329422965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072708786342816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593269599329532,0.0,0.07838573547165263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058788128158525535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07030498205196671,0.0,0.0,0.10146464424282052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476678422005726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512299544694845,0.06061355996297954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08525679445802434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0542462318769996,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeepaysthebills,2019/08/12,"An ode to kimchi Thank you for being so tasty and low calorie. Thanks for the probiotics and helping me poop. You help curb my hunger cravings. I don’t know what I’d do without ya.

Bonus shout out to my other two best food friends, baby carrots and pickles 🤪",2.2476923076923083,4.421373000000003,2.9890769230769263,92.15592307692309,78.61538461538461,4.929230769230768,25.784615384615392,5.6839178017228535,0.65311076923077,204,8,41,1,5,64,44,52,0.113,0.611,0.276,0.8856,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,2,1,6,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,7,6,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,2,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,7,5,6,5,1,2,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32334825641519194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3725745413766221,0.0,0.2380493066045317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41304671151003663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693322462198459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5673427964426249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009841176014867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970123913131566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunnykitty300,2019/08/12,"When family members take pictures of you without asking first I’m on vacation at a beach and have felt super uncomfortable wearing a swimsuit. It was really hard for me to wear it out, and I finally decided to just stop worrying about it and enjoy swimming and the beach. Then my sister decided to take a bunch of pictures of me walking out of the water without asking me first and holy shit I’m so triggered. I look like a whale. I hate when people take pics of me without me knowing about it, it never fails to make me feel disgusting. I know she didn’t mean to make me feel this way but fuck i hate myself.",3.994744990892531,5.294954303278691,5.365519125683061,80.73840619307833,71.54098360655738,8.373041894353369,29.12932604735884,8.841846274778883,2.372964298724955,483,19,92,9,9,162,74,122,0.18,0.757,0.063,-0.9325,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,4,6,9,5,0,6,0,3,5,3,3,1,25,22,10,0,0,5,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,7,1,1,8,3,0,2,5,6,0,2,3,5,16,3,20,19,1,15,0,1,1,1,5,4,2,0,9,66,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976802936614241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008930969589382,0.0,0.16100303163523053,0.0,0.1528668638707761,0.1744071110519103,0.0,0.2708484145098968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718736492040532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262116451132614,0.3143744368755306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749956439139834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778211481171912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13369656117438303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21254823470265552,0.0,0.0,0.17342670028506027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12279280508030445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103763816111928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199420057170663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634270939758095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310694704613646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35911901454452433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263737324230451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604191684860514,0.0,0.0,0.16168579674592248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Katnip_Everdeen,2019/08/12,"Feeling paralyzed I don’t know about anyone else but lately more and more I just feel so paralyzed by the decision of what to eat. Like I’ve fasted for 24 hours and am fantasizing all day about binging and ruining it but I can’t figure out what I want to eat, what would be the perfect thing to eat. Do I really wanna go to this store or order food and then I’m just sitting here scrolling through door dash and I almost wanna cry cause I can’t just make a stupid decision.",1.5890816326530626,3.7995126020408208,3.2830204081632672,88.97983673469388,81.14285714285714,6.777142857142858,22.044897959183675,7.908726449838941,1.0978457142857143,377,12,79,7,10,125,66,98,0.109,0.7809999999999999,0.11,-0.2101,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,7,4,1,0,3,0,7,4,0,2,2,27,14,10,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,6,6,4,0,6,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,0,2,7,2,13,12,3,9,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,53,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084295654825664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554150957732845,0.21327162049439435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21382472814257752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22864015735047624,0.1342378606163868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6389602971381829,0.1738804531626754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104911704622956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516926758374594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182949705422422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049832719259966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439237366881125,0.0,0.2347993460933179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169031117901517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13894001326515024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133344561531889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828389106828975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277073603747099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786194887338772,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MariZiggy,2019/08/12,I love to watch Naked and Afraid too see how much weight they lost the end Sometimes they will spend all the 21 days without eating a thing and I love to watch that,2.38401960784314,4.24327367647059,1.671176470588236,103.26696078431374,76.94117647058823,4.533333333333334,17.215686274509807,3.1291,-1.1985960784313725,131,2,31,0,3,37,27,34,0.059000000000000004,0.7240000000000001,0.217,0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,2,1,2,4,0,1,3,0,1,4,0,1,1,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,4,2,3,3,2,2,0,1,3,2,4,0,0,0,2,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885078700042171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990935743406233,0.0,0.0,0.25888905128750456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31907752695576097,0.0,0.5276202697220521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21487248124569486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23292346585226675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890899525317699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19418963950619114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35593991864195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817646039831592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jgdyhvcf,2019/08/12,"think ur obese so u look up clothing styles that are plus size friendly but now all ur ads are about weight loss and how doctors hate this one trick, edging you towards relapse i played myself",2.00108108108108,4.832723162162164,1.3284324324324324,98.71859459459463,87.64864864864866,2.9600000000000004,20.913513513513514,3.1291,-0.5363686486486485,155,5,30,0,5,44,35,37,0.209,0.674,0.11699999999999999,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,4,5,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,6,5,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,3,2,4,5,1,3,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,1,18,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4295789785591813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242578536750093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.414365165765612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524408554582925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843984196093465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268925714180358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110794434237022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tetris6901,2019/08/12,"can’t decide My doctor wants to put me on dexamphetamine for CFS, but when I was prescribed it for my ADHD I had a major ED relapse and got to a very unhealthy weight. Going off it I gained all of it back. 

However, I was extremely productive and my CFS wasn’t affecting me as much... so I’m leaning towards going on it to get my life back. I’m just worried that it’ll trigger my ED again. 

Anyone else have experience taking meds that kill your appetite and not relapsing?

Thanks.",3.1156249999999983,4.885502645833334,4.7004166666666665,82.73625000000001,74.625,7.716666666666668,27.625,8.472884824447931,2.0823375,378,15,73,7,8,127,66,96,0.17300000000000001,0.7929999999999999,0.034,-0.9442,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,1,6,2,1,0,2,0,7,3,0,2,1,11,16,7,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,5,1,12,1,11,10,3,11,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,51,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706423168713276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574625626598563,0.2307403297052163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3463242702554674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23049806320870986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812270005283094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22028529618126724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765582712804855,0.0,0.2559686135652845,0.0,0.18011013739796214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491464568362219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159062880909146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25014243938779657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655452693227005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263845869865061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16931967074379708,0.0,0.0,0.2073305939048733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858106188442785,0.1328266744809712,0.0,0.0,0.27422855338513624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286978808712499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eckokittenbliss,2019/08/12,"If only... If I always refuse to eat when I'm upset instead of binging, I wonder if I can force my brain to make it a habit?....

Though I may literally never eat again then.....",1.4475000000000016,2.8030554166666697,4.167777777777779,86.555,78.16666666666666,5.911111111111111,20.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,0.2064000000000004,129,3,28,1,3,46,28,36,0.146,0.8540000000000001,0.0,-0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,1,1,8,5,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,4,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264627626143823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3550282544068446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6508510976135661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2122884486119566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452854442915073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418772330273589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31246426455302395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34489151876284724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,wetsofa,2019/08/12,"DAE purge after a binge just because of how sick their binge made them feel? i just finished a 36ish hour fast and apparently decided: hey, why not finish off an entire 4500cal tub of trail mix? i managed to gobble down half of it and half of a small papa johns pizza and all was well and good until i tried to get to bed. then i felt sooo sick i could barely move. so i crawled my way over to the bathroom and made myself throw up just to make myself feel a little less sick. i never purge after binging just to get rid of the food or calories, only when i eat so much that i feel nauseous, but i don’t feel like i’ve seen a lot of people that purge for this specific reason alone. 

bonus tmi: i’m still sick an hour later, feel like i gotta shit out a storm at the same time and also have a shattering headache but everytime i take advil i feel like i need to vomit again. and i have work early in the morning 🙄",3.4208653846153823,4.000338041666666,4.428333333333335,89.61923076923081,72.22916666666666,6.949358974358977,23.102564102564106,6.67199483983844,0.4882174679487181,712,16,158,5,13,232,123,192,0.106,0.8,0.095,-0.2755,1,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,2,13,7,1,0,13,0,5,10,1,5,2,35,22,17,0,2,8,0,7,3,0,1,6,0,1,0,4,8,3,0,9,0,1,2,3,1,1,2,5,8,20,6,24,15,5,28,0,0,1,0,3,9,1,2,19,99,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561167344402668,0.0,0.12015331600037367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915898203095652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11996084682087355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374127062873205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4558195889971464,0.3220117234149498,0.1442616956818691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816805455574097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15699681587008538,0.0,0.0,0.12602094079749832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959281397421997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22021083233471564,0.15058802356762582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773552418388195,0.0,0.2843366866304937,0.1002917439920569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968990552969425,0.1104496088312476,0.11140702964535372,0.1158805631898911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11427041692988603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416308394944314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15448002521820828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422747023344655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998829150536415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296783941698295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761084964376363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200856739793722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925991328249212,0.0,0.0,0.1350910462980406,0.0,0.13557550083734876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938237412294896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,slingincider,2019/08/12,"So done with being ""the easy one to let go"" I'm fucking beautiful, I know it and everybody lets me know that I have a pretty/gorgeous face. I'm also a little chubby with large round hips and a voluptuous body (plus I've lost ~80 lbs since my heaviest but I moved across continents and nobody here fucking knows that). Every single guy I've dated has been super good looking, some of them even being models who I meet during photoshoots (working as a plus normal size model on the side). Every single one of them have found it easy to let me go and I know it's because they are aware of my insecurities about my body. They see my stretch marks from previous weight loss, my cellulite, they know that I won't be the woman on their arm in a body on dress or at the beach in a tiny bikini, they've seen my round stomach and not as toned body, my slightly loose skin. And they all know they can do better in terms of finding a woman who is more physically fit. 

I've seen their exes, all such gorgeous women with super tight bodies and slim figures, something that I currently don't have. Everyone I've broken up with someone or them with me, they always have such an easy time letting me go and moving on. They always want to remain friends because I'm an ""amazing woman"" who they still want to keep in their lives but they always shortly go for a woman just like the one I've mentioned. 

I just moved to a new city this past week, currently weigh 170 lbs and am 5'10"" and I'm on the first day of my -40 mission. I'm going to lose these last 40 lbs as quickly as possible weather it's the last thing I do. I'm done being the one everyone only wants to call for a booty call after a breakup. I just got off of all of my social media and have basically disappeared to everyone who knows me. It's easy being in a new city. My apartment building has a gym with 24 hr access and that's where you'll find me for the next two months. This is going to happen whether anyone likes it or not. I'm also going to be fasting during the entire thing. Let's see how many people I curve once this journey is over.",4.631626860505364,4.9728826542056135,5.480072689511943,84.00705261336104,69.42056074766353,7.836067843544479,26.833160263066805,7.526774132740827,1.3559670128072,1648,47,336,16,27,540,210,428,0.047,0.81,0.142,0.9928,2,0,1,1,0,0,40.0,0,1,15,8,15,15,2,1,25,0,32,14,10,1,3,53,68,28,0,4,11,0,5,2,1,2,0,0,0,6,21,20,2,2,11,2,0,12,4,6,0,6,8,10,43,9,50,47,8,53,0,3,7,2,32,22,2,4,21,217,64,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174041093055833,0.18323684154767028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0513265725244045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949416988932278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492087085630475,0.0,0.4076827481972125,0.0,0.0,0.14990968654273076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734023515667283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15023786411800685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0484833950012181,0.0,0.1236939732112908,0.21042523765240784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341819150045256,0.062438364709348375,0.0,0.08048493445220345,0.05671262010467619,0.1357237167238047,0.0,0.0,0.2920247826004512,0.06156873901064836,0.05870878685942885,0.0,0.0,0.072682617843761,0.064911912610953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524585087478453,0.0,0.0,0.282390771971623,0.11966995377934883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3753085856409606,0.0,0.07172407579001823,0.07357122286575224,0.06481807321250041,0.0,0.061641820293445386,0.08212156236353718,0.08013036887508954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07442127879679218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05859127315497445,0.23405410372213345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417902608303787,0.07806718680559199,0.0,0.07192144043753845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817406605092507,0.19896485894636914,0.05582790790222215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007350101148423,0.050889873457878765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275325293630392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698876706534199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06072148075172047,0.0,0.0,0.07482728426762056,0.062195927076044,0.05651085408457876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058621430353375165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975342111605946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04280312067250586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07170614425452541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298887397568268,0.0,0.058881166265220164,0.08938767092206787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053439807718644095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,onlymildlyanxious,2019/08/12,"What I wouldn't give just to live one day through the eyes and body of a skinny white woman without an ED Like seriously, I can't think of any time in my life where I haven't felt shameful about one or more of the following: my mental health, this stupid disordered relationship with food and body, my actual fat/overweight body, and my brown skin.

And I can't ever recall a single interaction with a guy where I wasn't telling myself one of the aforementioned things was a serious issue they were ""putting up"" with.

I just want to be skinny and feel white privilege on that level. What do they even think about?? What could possibly hold them down?",8.467226666666669,7.098070296,7.7334,76.72436666666668,62.04,11.533333333333333,32.83333333333333,10.504223727775694,3.0444133333333325,517,15,102,10,6,161,83,125,0.08199999999999999,0.8640000000000001,0.054000000000000006,-0.4976,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,3,0,8,6,1,1,8,0,10,10,7,0,1,21,17,6,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,6,8,3,1,4,0,0,2,6,4,0,3,4,7,14,2,17,10,2,12,0,0,4,0,9,7,0,1,4,72,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.15943194246612422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110165434174243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5444235391427692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044287866335408,0.0,0.0,0.10536435697371917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18724367707689213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10790866841492903,0.14778344019376116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260809105034976,0.0,0.15686710592914374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975555690685028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672567085997266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16176846749767335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17366162956863096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052266844900024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11539768672433552,0.07981752836819557,0.0,0.1442644841477494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464513274458836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33212452928050107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18418250890095506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642385545827542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754052694509037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279830314096714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854011822992024,0.20937018885046488,0.0,0.0,0.09526617836184093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09636372032734294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574891611473624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SickSad_throwaway,2019/08/12,"How do y'all eat your hummus? I heard enough hype and bought some plain hummus for the first time yesterday! One problem, thought: when I look up recipes online, most of them are like 'put it in a 10000000 cal wrap!' or something with an ungodly amount of calories that I can't make myself eat. I need the ed-sufferers guide to hummus, how do you eat yours?",4.342714285714283,5.521224985714286,4.030000000000001,91.105,70.57142857142857,7.314285714285713,26.857142857142854,7.554174236665415,1.206514285714286,279,9,59,3,5,84,59,70,0.055,0.907,0.038,-0.2833,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,4,1,1,3,2,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,3,0,11,10,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,3,2,10,1,7,7,4,7,0,0,1,0,6,2,0,3,5,37,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.742299139288657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498554286491615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568433405811995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181366523088588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20306035906301265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614107366629877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17929981081908444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638574084373181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313804933203943,0.0,0.2430868684501085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861579406115019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19197094303725065,0.14100195307990787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,i-am-a-reddit-user10,2019/08/12,"I ate alot today,like alot,well i didnt want to but.. My friend was forcing me to eat and wouldn’t let me not eat i ate so much i feel so fat ahhhhhh help. Like i ate two whole taco bell tacos and alot of shetz(idk how to spell)  anyone wanna dm me on excuses on not to eat helpppp.",-1.3439285714285705,0.6015702222222217,1.34156746031746,99.47044642857144,92.8095238095238,4.419841269841268,15.811507936507935,5.985473137389443,-0.8213158730158727,216,5,56,2,8,74,43,63,0.02,0.835,0.145,0.8147,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,7,1,1,0,12,9,6,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,1,9,2,8,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,34,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17221020897337586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7560419471765427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453054993600605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028140160752485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508157136974527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518460391330478,0.0,0.12032381545006145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18104992668129646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334521082146322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24058746725929225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526697002269845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27497161746153875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,carbamazepinevalium,2019/08/12,"Lol I was put on a mood stabiliser for my bipolar which increases your appetite Got binge eating disorder tho avent I 

MY LIFE= A JOKE 🙃",0.9594444444444434,3.553071518518521,2.7758333333333347,87.18375000000002,93.07407407407408,7.1444444444444475,25.26851851851852,8.07648339933343,2.26211851851852,109,5,21,3,4,36,24,27,0.098,0.693,0.209,0.4648,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5396889296941927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.481845343318795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766194675549374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326085826218174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733816976948628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lexorexic,2019/10/16,"Just purged for the first time So I guess I got that going for me now too, huh? 

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EDAnonymous,parislucy,2019/10/16,"Guy i’m dating is skinnier than me... Me and my crush have been”seeing eachother” for around a week now after meeting 2 months ago. In this time we’ve got to know eachother a fair bit and he’s opened up to me about his anxiety.

This is where it gets difficult.

He’s super skinny. tall, thin, super lanky and gorgeous. ribs showing, hipbones out, etc. NATURALLY. he eats absolute shit, McDonalds, pizza etc. A few times he’s noticed my e.d behaviours but i’ve managed to play them off as jokes or find excuses. It makes it so difficult when i’m 5’1, restricting like crazy and BARELY underweight (still curvy in too many areas of my body)... yet he eats like shit and is so incredibly thin. it makes me feel like shit because i hate being the bigger one in the relationship. i’m the fat one and that’s all there is to it, and i’ve spent the entirety of this evening crying over it. 

I’m wanting to go over his house tomorrow, but he’s just snapchatted me saying that his dad’s girlfriend has bought food just in case i stay. I don’t want to eat, let alone in front of 4 people (eating in front of him and his dad  the other day was hard enough) and i wouldn’t want to seem ungrateful or draw attention to myself.

I want this to work out, desperately, but i don’t want him to know about my e.d, nor do i want to eat whatever gets put in front of me, but if i don’t eat it then i’m ungrateful and...well. i’m stuck.

TLDR: i’m bigger than the guy i’m seeing, he doesn’t know about my e.d, his family have bought food specifically for me for when i visit, i’m a huge mess.",1.8853122664673885,3.6968664241486096,3.5129262303832616,89.71452012383902,78.25696594427244,7.0557916088395425,21.973844347176257,7.990435384864732,0.9375407067364144,1217,35,268,21,29,404,165,323,0.166,0.733,0.10099999999999999,-0.9801,0,1,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,1,3,17,15,4,0,10,0,16,16,7,2,1,40,48,23,0,8,9,2,4,3,1,1,1,1,0,2,14,13,11,1,7,3,3,6,6,7,0,2,6,6,30,8,40,39,6,45,0,0,1,0,25,23,3,4,18,148,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346350172768234,0.0,0.0,0.09751709008380778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0720289862970913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08381869053353208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057396547188346476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10279382882563763,0.10458595067685092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034258069485048,0.06072274974867532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5780697940849746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728818783802197,0.2100173781577064,0.062189067119793676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08876177884568959,0.0,0.04760803922826913,0.06726497557522677,0.0,0.0,0.08605676354006604,0.0,0.2277073144383353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838511659975843,0.0,0.05351095331659822,0.0,0.0753050541619652,0.0,0.0,0.186458237894207,0.0,0.0,0.08434516947755259,0.09295943294436868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864323759430423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15523681875335782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628076095939296,0.0,0.13799941289069834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256995547580627,0.095459278421371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515432074790401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719708720977206,0.0,0.0,0.12760491470518062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06527582806670854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465265992654696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010881723894815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0748765305638474,0.0,0.0,0.07503004159574296,0.08571597192192253,0.0,0.0,0.2899489564366634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10035763440790076,0.07519300302325704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10980609523620274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3332134457432188,0.0,0.07552616315065208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06854659804661223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dominiquechat,2019/10/16,Wasting away I have been doing so good lately. I have been working out hard 4 to 5 times a week (mostly Lagree) and this shit works! I have also been restricting pretty steadily. I finally got the courage to wear this cute new crop top to a party with friends and my friend told me I was wasting away (he meant it as a compliment). It is the best comment I have ever gotten. Am I completely crazy? It felt so good to hear someone say that out loud.,2.407,4.304639422222223,3.613055555555558,89.19625000000002,77.0,6.277777777777778,24.583333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.0156666666666667,348,12,71,4,8,113,64,90,0.147,0.5579999999999999,0.294,0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,4,9,1,0,5,0,11,2,2,0,1,10,17,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,6,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,5,9,8,10,8,2,11,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,1,6,49,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422809090383008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362391981359896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023920712876728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20220744286104844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17445067021963934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18517346550381333,0.21126598887572692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29800248664660395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235194792799944,0.1542457784512825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727624589006861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21736444408709807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2175516854340037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18626299680624092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620543370739355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336804246513924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19796547520134836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634075527963811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245677217080004,0.0,0.0,0.18428362728283845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15469867140066185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808051463092114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SocialFailure21,2019/10/16,"I just realized I have been yo-yo dieting since I was eight years old. 

I have not had a single day of happy, healthy, comfortable eating or any self esteem since I was a child. I have been bingeing and fasting regularly since primary school. The summer after I turned 10 I lived off low calorie soups and diet soft drinks and thought it was normal. Now as an adult, I can't eat a proper meal without crippling guilt and swing between not eating and stuffing my face. I have diagnosed Major Depression and probably have an ED too. I have no real friendships. I can't eat in front of other people.

This all stemmed from one stupid comment my father made when I was EIGHT.

I'm in my early 20s. I still feel like the fat kid. Puberty did nothing for me.",3.6311224489795935,5.423308795918372,4.599744897959186,83.90329081632655,73.28571428571428,7.348979591836735,27.215986394557824,8.07648339933343,1.8075537414965983,591,22,112,9,12,192,102,147,0.079,0.805,0.115,0.6386,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,1,1,7,0,16,11,2,1,1,18,21,9,0,1,5,1,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,6,9,0,3,1,0,1,6,4,0,3,10,2,18,3,11,11,3,15,0,2,0,0,6,4,0,1,11,75,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416392401362436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09878489153542112,0.0,0.13192898688575305,0.15546891027111112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150052712333172,0.0,0.6269430830557666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744963808199802,0.10942790541985434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630571214203733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483333177313731,0.0,0.1352559046367411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14493743141721854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15007850445145154,0.1469750800255743,0.0,0.16073088867240945,0.0,0.1037950167829226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061919234906728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651480362052114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743461343072599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155020788616076,0.0,0.0,0.15979442716106565,0.0,0.0,0.3801226295186688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232536699372842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160345659321985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660988912724725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765476816630832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863936680641214
EDAnonymous,gucciskinny,2019/10/16,my card just got rejected while buying binge food so ofc my disordered ass is taking it as a sign from god that I should not buy food ever and should starve for a month,2.4359047619047622,4.1745729714285735,3.120000000000001,93.47333333333334,76.42857142857143,6.9523809523809526,17.38095238095238,7.793537801064563,0.1196666666666668,134,2,30,2,3,42,31,35,0.244,0.7040000000000001,0.053,-0.8225,0,1,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,3,3,1,0,1,7,5,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,2,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656839048425276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28861869369786103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7716457297587785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551908515396867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546800519828996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399022708203088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dudexyz,2019/10/16,"Saw my weight for the first time since discharging from treatment I have been regular outpatient treatment for a year and for the past four months have been in php/IOP. I discharged on Thursday and was feeling pretty good about it. I’m not anywhere near recovered by I felt pretty confident of being able to get by with less support. 

On Tuesday I had to do a health screening for my job and subsequent health I insurance. I told the tech I had an eating disorder and needed to be weighed blind. The scale was shitty and looked to be 30 years old at least. Anyways, I stepped on the scale backwards. He saw the weight, I stepped off, he messed with it a second and then said I could sit to get my blood drawn. The chair was in front of the scale which never zeroed out. 

I held it together for the rest of the appointment but spent the rest of yesterday in a tailspin. I am at a weight that I had previously thought I would off myself if I ever got to it. I’m disgusted and sad and I don’t want to keep fighting for recovery. I want to retreat into my eating disorder. I don’t even think I can convey how upset I am after seeing the number. 

Has anyone been here? Does anyone have advice?",2.8494289749798227,4.861601953389838,3.8928571428571455,87.16901129943506,76.07627118644069,7.037610976594027,25.221146085552864,7.957251820313856,1.4702807102502016,935,33,186,15,21,302,134,236,0.11699999999999999,0.807,0.077,-0.9355,1,0,0,0,2,0,20.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,2,1,18,0,24,10,1,1,2,29,46,12,0,6,3,0,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,12,6,2,4,0,1,3,4,5,0,4,18,12,25,2,38,23,4,32,0,1,6,0,5,14,0,1,14,137,31,1,0.1313213051148353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832565950254704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18364581981744413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484937642234493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010111856118441,0.0,0.11492015906465095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268748959064478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673648350762317,0.11878763876297255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639999762978825,0.0,0.12608904684092428,0.0,0.0,0.1117018350451591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372199236710281,0.0,0.0,0.11014608023320327,0.1050296441298609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791768129519909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031613211668014,0.11672440983556134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027682218062428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481941286433023,0.0,0.0,0.09737308377643523,0.10128308620622443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779961909676647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536104504751192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26720195632636085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12491663344048955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10464607794983484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10863034062791473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902186081644264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414538979569075,0.0,0.10425444752905362,0.07657450907042161,0.0,0.0,0.1254831346881216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491341634884706,0.0,0.0,0.4797419143928758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328688736126801,0.0,0.0,0.16913322991168234
EDAnonymous,DapperChubby,2019/10/16,"Seriously considering not going home for Christmas to avoid getting triggered I haven’t been back in a year (my work/life is in another country), but I struggle a lot with my ED and I don’t know how I’ll deal if I’m there for 2-3 weeks. I always relapse and overeat sooo much, and it takes months usually to pull it together afterwards, which for me means a lot of fasting and zero carb.

I hate how I look right now and I don’t want anyone to see me (not talking about my immediate family, just everyone else). There will be a bunch on food-focused events and a lot of going to bars, etc, and obviously and I don’t want to be the freak with the really weird diet who also doesn’t drink, and having to answer questions or inconvenience people.

Anyway, I’m just venting because I don’t know how to tell my family and close friends (well, friend, singular, who am I try to fool). They really miss me and they keep telling me to go see them or they want to come visit. I feel so guilty.",2.5387529411764693,4.26290504,4.279235294117648,85.33682352941179,76.1,7.7058823529411775,24.764705882352942,8.4952907291091,1.597058823529411,768,26,161,15,17,259,123,200,0.14,0.7959999999999999,0.064,-0.9433,0,1,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,4,0,15,11,1,2,7,0,13,4,0,4,1,42,34,20,0,4,8,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,15,4,2,6,2,0,6,8,8,1,1,1,4,23,3,21,30,6,20,0,1,3,0,14,5,0,7,9,107,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10973954255055576,0.11418298325209605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14389337341313255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595157482700156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551828501485444,0.0,0.08365166536916907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182080050162752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147392876779094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344291884297716,0.0,0.0,0.1146346726857802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15304320817163788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112527581104608,0.0,0.0,0.25872882552347565,0.0,0.06938556344403292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659341633130087,0.0,0.2120408569663121,0.0,0.0716948950265485,0.0,0.2339660090912653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548221554255593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764881646209592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12197272941587108,0.0,0.0,0.15083158658443735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152352366709632,0.0,0.0,0.34999378605625153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947928859850382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953244399215893,0.0,0.10087686259105193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513519529691113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372446951343532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175820914744639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719021141822973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21870263072118232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434583577755525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317683633888053,0.1102970204968886,0.2398830573690124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931674122289921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113499667027033,0.0,0.2428182619448482,0.0,0.11007437966195936,0.0,0.12338260912729886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990212587481842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836901260118815
EDAnonymous,EasyAffect,2019/10/16,"i hate how judgemental my ED makes me the first thing i notice about ANYONE is their weight. i hate my body so much that it genuinely baffles me that there are people BIGGER than me who are ok with being their size. i know it's not very PC of me to think that big people cant be happy with their size, but i cant help it",4.208714285714287,3.591960014285714,5.057857142857143,89.96964285714287,70.28571428571429,8.142857142857144,21.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.3568571428571428,251,3,60,2,4,82,49,70,0.141,0.836,0.023,-0.7897,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,1,4,4,2,0,1,1,7,2,1,2,0,8,12,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,14,2,6,10,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,43,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788987171379927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28259292685966336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640160528709027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27082491317961205,0.0,0.5023557765637501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052612460284802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13981746332079892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698211129417972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870211320404813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896482599181953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3527526821179869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901915964498826,0.16301609926044422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20991546556162544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30980368512940065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,queenme2468,2019/10/16,Personal head canon: Bebe Rexha’s ‘Self Control’ is about food addiction and binging “One little kiss can turn into thousand (..)” She means Hershey kisses right?,5.909871794871794,9.506089730769233,5.036153846153848,74.39217948717952,74.76923076923076,6.5435897435897425,31.743589743589745,7.793537801064563,3.0432974358974363,127,6,16,2,3,38,26,26,0.0,0.805,0.195,0.701,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,0,8,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32322527271111123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3325463688630128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585251031892129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042912524947032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29716768255510523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32297193235811056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20091390267796988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588895662533599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532066441449469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3093108222552213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225033733489084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lilsmallilsad,2019/10/16,resisting the urge to say fuck it to everything and just inhale a family size box of cheez its even though i’ve already hit my caloric limit for today. haha uwu i’m not like other anorexics uwu uwu i don’t actually know how to stay away from food!!,0.4987394957983184,2.965853607843137,2.984761904761907,86.64000000000001,91.35294117647058,6.835854341736696,19.050420168067227,7.957251820313856,1.2014067226890757,198,6,40,5,7,68,45,51,0.11900000000000001,0.8240000000000001,0.057,-0.4929,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,1,0,6,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,7,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.2855959568084136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32295986439750035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749656423527358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330053267356825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630257915700601,0.0,0.2758957470591205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3538881286787177,0.0,0.0,0.2705613616629858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608394162367886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429799012154736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327366193620503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119388195924879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875389913038355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774094159682427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,likethesalt95,2019/10/16,"I feel overwhelmingly hopeless. I don't know what else to do about my eating and the urge to take drastic measures is very strong. I can't even remember a time before binge eating. It's always been there; through everything. I've had problems with alcohol, drugs and self harm as well, but I've been able to get past all that. No matter what I do, I can't stop overeating.

AA helped me with drinking and therapy helped with other shit, but I feel as though I am out of options in regards to eating. 

I live in the middle of nowhere with my disabled mother and grandmother, and  I am working two jobs to pay off my massive debts and get outta here. 

I've tried Overeaters Anonymous, but can't drive and couldnt get rides to continue attending meetings.  I tried therapy and medication, but without good insurance and reliable transportation, I couldnt afford it anymore. Uber isn't cheap. 

I've been seriously considering the possibility that this will never end. I might end up dead before I ever get through this damn eating disorder; either from my body giving up on me or me giving up on everything. 

I dont want to live like this anymore. I can't stop. I see food and I eat it and I can't stop, even if it's not mine and my family already is tired of me stealing their shit. 

My body is falling apart at 24, but I'm so scared to go shopping that I binge on unhealthy free food from work and never eat vegetables.

I don't know. This is a massive rant. I just dont know what to do and to be 100% honest, I have been considering suicide. I was going to tiptoe around the word, but I added a TW so I dont have to, right?

I know that's a very dramatic thing to say, but I feel so hopeless and disgusting that it doesn't feel very far from logical.

This has been my rant. I hope someone read all the way through. I'm sorry",3.4630537173997658,4.836425534059945,4.63350233553912,85.18792574931881,72.95095367847412,7.8586609575710415,27.548559750875825,8.418075326091056,1.8264870377578823,1429,53,295,24,28,470,178,367,0.21600000000000005,0.6970000000000001,0.087,-0.9948,3,0,3,0,0,3,41.0,0,0,1,3,13,19,4,2,9,0,36,19,4,0,5,61,58,30,2,6,13,1,4,1,0,2,4,1,0,1,20,21,12,3,10,3,5,7,19,12,2,1,7,6,41,8,43,46,3,36,0,3,1,0,9,17,3,5,12,192,61,5,0.07831870770449527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369888029616827,0.0,0.0,0.08642664146994967,0.0,0.06516743879100383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553422263566309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972025438727243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328690362227266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398885714177725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976002424398061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27536682642710913,0.07672251730697928,0.0908248363931529,0.48083754161107,0.06542523065003389,0.0,0.13873425760431918,0.0,0.0,0.10345753559499003,0.07084375494935155,0.0,0.0,0.14077560893075006,0.0,0.07383190743731029,0.0,0.15840116731703366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940658446736505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367316916058164,0.15026088181624772,0.08902065288758393,0.0656900162166116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10499075777363627,0.0,0.0,0.07778814830111845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771923262186398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721676541729502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038262564553684535,0.0,0.1383137075366206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889785846633778,0.0,0.08308377227171862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12080843115377128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476406845043608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829257533474894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07494042610069014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833990185907637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871982850956593,0.06688374845349028,0.0,0.0622821798493663,0.07841068922122588,0.0,0.06240987008321371,0.0,0.08170349281126209,0.0,0.16078605597718576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635918688420606,0.0,0.0,0.08767138122814185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643383956163607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566795458808114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058885921310345424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912853560629474,0.0,0.05203146934441665,0.0,0.07694773267386815,0.0,0.04566826828485477,0.09001583335899098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10634652311271804,0.0,0.0765059972739705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19386340816443398,0.046194402971858346,0.0621657447400529,0.0,0.0,0.07041792392501707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754964394175315,0.0,0.1140339039603588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,125nowgo,2019/10/16,"which of your stupid food rules stands out to you? for me it’s that I rely on lean pockets (280cal) to be an entire meal for me, usually breakfast for the whole day... aaand I bite off the top corners and throw them away. they’re nothing but awful bread carbs!! I can’t eat them without spitting out the top corners.",1.4614285714285735,3.871138634920637,2.1549206349206362,95.64285714285715,83.28571428571428,4.234920634920635,21.698412698412696,5.288315135182226,-0.06321587301587295,246,8,51,1,7,76,51,63,0.035,0.847,0.11800000000000001,0.6374,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,0,4,1,2,6,1,0,0,5,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,9,0,12,1,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,2,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297671164547764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22635982740882335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591508930917155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4244190901212662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367848385606387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865664338890725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3918683441639437,0.0,0.3383423043617041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sunnyEJ,2019/10/16,"My grandma caused my ED I don't have a dad and my mom works late so I've basically spent every night of my childhood at my grandparents place (I'm 16 now). Now that I'm older, I'm still with them every day to help out with their daily task. The thing is, that my grandma is basically the root of all of my problem. Shes the reason why I suffer from an eating disorder and anxiety: 

The are only two thing on her mind. Number one, what I'm supposed to do next; e.g clean, organize, cook. Number two, what and when I'm gonna eat. 
She is obsessed with food and for as long I can remember, she has given me inhumane portions of food multiple times a day. I have always been repulsed by eating and I've always had I hard time swallowing food, but if I had been more ""normal"" I would be morbidly obese by now. I always only eat like a tenth of what she places in front of me. I constantly tell her that I don't want food but she just ignores it and suggests more. And if I've just finished dinner or something she will ask if I for instance want some pasta after I've already finished. A little while ago she saw me eat some humus and asked me if liked it. Now theres humus everywhere. It's neverending. Every day she cries and screams at me because I don't want her god damn food. When I'm about to leave the apartment and I'm putting on my jacket she runs over and gives me something to eat on the way.

She also has an obsession with making me late for whatever I have to do. When I'm already half way out the door she makes me go back and help with one more thing. I always have to ""leave"" like 15 minutes before so she can call me back in, or else I'm gonna be late. When I finally get to leave for whatever after school activity, work or party, she wants to know what and when I'm gonna eat.

Sometimes she beats me because I don't talk enough with her. I wish I could but she refuses to wear her hearing aid so it's almost impossible to have a conversation with her. 

I've only recently noticed, that whenever I'm sick she spoils me. She just gives me money and suddenly shes nice to me. I know getting money isn't a bad thing but it just feels so wrong. As soon as I start coughing I'm suddenly her little beautiful girl that she loves more than anything. As soon as I'm fine again we're back to the scolding and beating.

I'm scared of food and seeing those portion multiple times a day makes me sweat. I'm also underweight, I'm terrified of gaining weight, I feel disgusting and I cover myself in baggy clothes. I don't want to be bombarded by food anymore. It's like it's the only thing that matters and the only thing the world revolves around. I can't stand being told that I'm worthless. I know all of this seems like a very first world problem but I just can't stand it anymore. I wish I didn't have to see her",1.9299471072221481,3.678944222410866,3.632593378607812,89.19318156588743,77.91341256366724,6.703944103434764,23.551031735666708,7.61054688173877,1.0129532192764792,2213,72,476,32,52,739,246,589,0.122,0.775,0.10300000000000001,-0.7687,1,0,2,0,0,0,56.0,0,0,2,6,30,21,2,3,21,0,38,25,2,6,2,79,90,47,0,16,17,2,4,5,0,5,3,2,2,1,27,28,20,2,8,1,3,4,9,13,0,7,9,9,80,8,59,71,11,71,0,2,3,1,47,19,1,11,49,298,107,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048979224149292254,0.0,0.05532877191011203,0.0,0.12194804457144312,0.0883730037618662,0.183902592884054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04226906123112527,0.0,0.10959398873640312,0.0,0.0,0.04546922913796316,0.04918766103220418,0.1033098241384928,0.0,0.0,0.12746045201893608,0.04613467558729743,0.06736449566436171,0.0,0.04701697586319507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05642038158263556,0.0,0.0,0.056760947444051225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05970980688191761,0.0,0.04411572114807361,0.0,0.06069378442663757,0.14253670691198958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332572486369659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3957695400312273,0.046157520457285016,0.0,0.0,0.05709202059055817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13966131200062346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055876036264994204,0.0,0.0,0.06052791654313783,0.0,0.04699891572774454,0.467692413714452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05773573573052666,0.1060090985916845,0.03140204907154879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04949661679939928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227513004418586,0.0,0.07407101207919031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109824994823999,0.0,0.1869863246305226,0.17551761886566086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349712556293424,0.11075779192970757,0.0,0.04889793843046094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049868777192508346,0.0,0.11064716685472004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05579066012328462,0.06471266767933502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05876312025239139,0.051852016347562944,0.0541370635486194,0.0,0.06290690006907829,0.0,0.0,0.07488290798399877,0.21011529938098894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154570731644336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574098758086596,0.0,0.05554540309122268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05681018345635775,0.05455653322351855,0.0,0.06259186645137164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05531876549519932,0.05591986884024703,0.08806036528970021,0.05030105033977785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507426103125769,0.054647492746987235,0.0,0.039108975350362785,0.0,0.044125813958186835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044410969741393407,0.04829431998386879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22024930628376155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665693219558592,0.0,0.0,0.05279744303283791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795000947471498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04559023147167778,0.16295082791462154,0.08771590427950181,0.0,0.06728433123323982,0.0,0.0,0.04985802574719892,0.0,0.12707845304189136,0.0,0.0,0.08045095451064506,0.0,0.0,0.03925076571771004,0.06041143568785502,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plant-hoe,2019/10/16,"BC and Weight Gain? Hey guys, I recently got prescribed the pill Apri to regulate my period and hormones, does anyone have any experience w the pill and weight gain?",4.2940000000000005,7.1118124000000025,4.830000000000002,78.245,75.0,9.333333333333334,26.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.0316666666666667,132,5,23,4,3,42,24,30,0.0,0.784,0.21600000000000005,0.7998,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20319459519470845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20892826619746466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614823425698657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922842371069864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389780662495012,0.0,0.0,0.2958594852903841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950294590954722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7277170551880268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,eterealwinterss,2019/10/16,"How to starve myself in a way that doesn't cause suspicion? My mom tries to make sure I eat all the time, and my classmates have noticed my poor eating habits. How do I get them off my back so I can get thinner?",1.3603333333333332,2.9980058666666665,2.433055555555556,97.65625000000004,79.22222222222223,5.388888888888888,20.13888888888889,5.985473137389443,-0.24511111111111106,164,4,39,1,4,52,37,45,0.136,0.769,0.096,-0.4359,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,4,2,7,7,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,4,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21872292675890267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922064143172832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5821225603472077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972246425663841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18987122506398768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333142018147659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238458928670949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680888402175249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586389555730235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193121496226077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257815542400491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sceadu7heofoncandel,2019/10/16,"Asked if pregnant I was asked by one of my young students today if I was pregnant after she gave me a hug around the waist. I’m mostly recovered and am a nice normal weight, but gosh if I’m not crying about it at home right now.",8.02591836734694,4.4710076122449,8.173163265306123,80.10219387755103,64.71428571428572,10.616326530612248,32.66326530612245,7.1686216300943375,2.005685714285714,179,4,40,1,2,59,39,49,0.0,0.846,0.154,0.7416,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,0,0,9,8,5,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,5,2,6,5,1,7,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,4,4,27,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680321285270112,0.562953217951591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307309981171967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30201578410334523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950022845290045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20402500135249974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571274820983269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28539619119458065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666440350793314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DaintySaluki,2019/10/16,"ffs why am I like this made a low cal soup 

tasted like shit so I threw it

had a 800 cal binge

:)))))

how can I burn 800kcal within the next few hours without access to a gym and it’s fucking raining outside

hAtE",-0.07866666666666687,1.9485206888888909,1.8177777777777813,98.06000000000004,86.55555555555556,3.6,20.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.6177555555555556,161,5,37,0,5,53,38,45,0.262,0.6409999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.8578,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,4,0,3,3,1,2,0,4,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,3,1,3,2,3,4,1,5,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,4,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31565976001724405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33710556389588825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362538638431842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33362488292902537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.323082859221036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36312989427517545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3504876746221836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30810037895515824,0.0,0.0,0.3291401276421597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sb22312,2019/10/16,"Lol guess who ""recovered"" but feels so shit about my body I was in a really bad b/p cycle 2 years ago and I managed to get out of that with the support of my friends but now I am overweight and feel like a walking peice of shit and hate going outside and people seeing me looking like this ..

These feelings have lead me to binging more and more and putting on more weight bc I can't deal with emotions without either drinking a shit ton or eating to cope lmao 
I now have a full on drinking problem and worse self esteem than when I was b/p-ing . 
I'm 🛫🛫🛫 back on my bullshit",2.0429508196721287,3.4619841147541024,3.482754098360658,91.8224918032787,76.70491803278688,5.5357377049180325,26.1344262295082,5.6839178017228535,0.6626268852459019,450,17,98,2,10,148,83,122,0.29100000000000004,0.573,0.13699999999999998,-0.9837,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,6,10,4,0,5,1,6,9,4,1,0,21,17,12,0,1,5,0,4,2,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,10,5,0,3,2,0,4,2,6,0,0,2,6,11,4,16,15,6,16,0,0,2,0,4,6,3,2,8,63,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465689422990205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254820007628695,0.13625570846979132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18126580471493825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16824033517097978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197255058253051,0.0,0.16698273163217595,0.0,0.18356526950654808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24753925797194054,0.11658200597561627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260791481393988,0.0,0.08525933558481097,0.0,0.09274387191800518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797706988155492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611150093244311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594514652999703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13703736801464916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313446429822273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614950136436306,0.0,0.16404966880310168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454282949637284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13004022796207124,0.0,0.1702413547137265,0.0,0.5025324202209649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18518454902048093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19871981550522608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573080376403654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630317852690105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508814188057823
EDAnonymous,sunset-and-vine,2019/10/16,last night me and my bf got drunk and i made him hide the scale iS tHiS rEcOvErY??????!!?!? i feel kinda anxious already knowing i BINGED like a monster last night and i dont know exactly how much i weigh. i’m getting it back on sunday but i guess these are the small steps u gotta take,-1.3170000000000002,0.6314413000000023,0.7133333333333347,100.63500000000002,102.66666666666666,3.733333333333334,17.666666666666664,5.6839178017228535,-0.4931333333333332,218,7,51,2,10,71,48,60,0.11800000000000001,0.8490000000000001,0.033,-0.5407,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,2,1,12,13,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,9,1,1,10,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,7,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719250493359823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783787793699731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894779033450345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2887965122333249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459481389352035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128741652579554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708056371664698,0.0,0.2714538729647125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708464488425011,0.40172218184732217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12038590852335165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331638047748429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18114335744830268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4624875176320134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527339238419874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PomegranateDummy,2019/10/16,"feeling like no one takes me seriously aha I try to keep people I see often kind of, involved in my mental health? IDK its easier than coming up with weird excuses. No, I wasn't busy, I wasn't having a family emergency. I ignored you for a week straight because i have severe depression, sorry. That usually goes over fine. But honestly, if I ever let people know about my ED, diet/calorie/food related anything they say/do gets AMPLIFIED. I think its because i'm not thin. (or maybe i am, idk, you know how it be). I'm definitely on the lower side of healthy weight, but unfortunately (?) instead of my weightloss being a constant, i tend to lose a lot, gain a little, maintain, lose another chunk, gain a small amount of it back, maintain, repeat. 

My friends constantly ask me about calorie amounts or like, body calorie burning...sciencey stuff. Always want to go out to eat, bake, etc. Talk about dieting and exercise or how fat they feel and I don't know an appropriate way to tell them 

1) this only started once i told you i had an eating disorder so like whats up with that 

2) sTOP immediately also you're being a bad friend and i need time to fucking heAL from the sense of distrust you've given me",2.9076004682013266,5.1773053648068705,4.594531798673434,80.98565645727666,76.89699570815449,7.498166211470934,27.75829106515802,8.438071523408619,2.2442978540772534,942,40,175,19,22,317,159,233,0.17,0.667,0.162,0.1988,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,3,3,4,11,17,2,0,11,0,11,11,2,2,1,30,33,13,0,3,7,0,4,3,2,0,4,0,1,0,9,7,6,3,6,1,0,2,6,9,0,1,5,5,27,8,25,24,4,24,0,3,1,1,14,11,1,6,13,106,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808357574926177,0.10205505715429952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286097632900359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10093092665338124,0.0,0.11466167868227715,0.0,0.0,0.09431067836298593,0.10240806026753864,0.14953323598936838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623707705286214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565256191806706,0.0,0.2650832773346793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563871231184603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056812074154013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25100420138973273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678774990972353,0.0,0.11094441632988247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562399371702525,0.0,0.12403157530628048,0.08762155529585311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830949444867575,0.0,0.1895189734968358,0.11338842847145185,0.0640798339753625,0.0,0.06970511644236657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037176632325678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10901741675744954,0.0,0.12772164159075286,0.2022165529984854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541846552661629,0.0,0.17976254483099655,0.1229280415072432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744291159951305,0.0,0.10427308524820472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321893170755036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360287546395553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909438057555259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13061879987822644,0.08311116590950245,0.09328124656008116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17006085349821135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753661555744454,0.0,0.0,0.09773658404408612,0.0,0.0,0.13856017541229654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372972144989308,0.08681266864233418,0.0,0.0,0.10254132582885707,0.0,0.0,0.140405500400293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09221792625891098,0.09858184127057552,0.1072019596654446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07858950017822333,0.0,0.0,0.07151850397091454,0.0,0.0,0.11719782699778032,0.0,0.08327165142423648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508221876762158,0.0,0.07234245388438608,0.0973542730877051,0.09838284819396777,0.14935528992625785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,apologetic_stoner,2019/10/16,"Don’t usually compliment myself I usually low-key hate when people tell me I have pretty eyes because it feels like the only thing you could compliment a gross whale on but rn I’m looking in the mirror and like fuck yeah I have pretty eyes and I’m gonna fucking appreciate them and there’s nothing the bitchy demon in my head can do to stop me. 

Thank you for your time",1.1984064327485378,3.673277934210528,2.919122807017544,89.17441520467838,85.44736842105263,6.0093567251462,20.28654970760234,7.3871296695380915,0.7642795321637429,297,9,60,5,9,98,57,76,0.128,0.5589999999999999,0.313,0.9446,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,1,0,2,9,3,0,4,1,6,5,3,0,0,7,15,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,4,11,5,5,13,0,8,1,0,3,2,5,3,2,0,7,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12725951788749784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667965370171187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555645620767794,0.1491397789892783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859946357965244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061094821745208,0.21425027612129094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039813614060473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530769528233905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20031299025457325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587730832766135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14472944482561378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4247724790417184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17453457222651125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246739078915444,0.1922002135059811,0.0,0.0,0.13869234951488754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173093526874228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4598442057861506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mildpoof,2019/10/16,"An entire binge day for the books I didn’t eat dinner last night and I ran 3 miles and walked another 3, so this morning I was feeling ~skinnyish~ and made plans to catch up with an old friend for lunch. Wellp. We went to the local Mexican restaurant and I inhaled literally 80% of the tortilla chips basket and salsa, he barely had any. Then I ate my entire chicken burrito with tons of rice and hot sauce and sour cream, kept eating the tortilla chips, and made an absolute fool of myself in front of him.

THEN when I got back to the office, I heard there was Mission BBQ left over from a catered meeting but I wasn’t going to get any. So tell me how I ended up stuffing my face with huge portions of macaroni and cheese and peach cobbler?! My stomach was in so much pain but even then I was craving the taste of sausage pizza...wtf brain!!

I didn’t eat any pizza, but I did have some cotton candy and some chocolate cashew milk at home in the evening and that did it. I have been in agony on the toilet all night and I want to cry because what did I just do to my weight loss??",4.54320939334638,4.9680193972602735,4.897015655577302,87.81503424657538,69.63926940639271,7.535681669928246,27.515003261578606,7.1686216300943375,1.2260564905414224,844,26,179,7,14,267,136,219,0.08800000000000001,0.8759999999999999,0.036000000000000004,-0.9358,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,2,10,4,0,0,12,0,15,14,3,3,1,30,27,24,0,1,4,0,3,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,4,17,10,1,1,2,0,6,3,3,0,0,20,8,23,1,27,7,6,30,0,1,1,0,7,13,0,2,11,115,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32535817858790345,0.1672300073861249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263124537182392,0.0,0.09721829633796793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17803383068312348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751826763362291,0.1028522196666488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895674330457941,0.0,0.0,0.14125306053119713,0.0,0.0,0.21067173732225525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08063851734104299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232148264911009,0.0,0.08332237642670291,0.0,0.09063687576517586,0.0,0.1275517331598491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997270789918672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999851324013095,0.0,0.0,0.1732768565054684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018100501471601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723707684408972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993247194257782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16734875558397153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969930576631834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13939365136867718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09406617964247174,0.0,0.0,0.1942052111642445,0.0,0.1478407265448514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poopyplasma,2019/10/16,"I hate how much headspace ed takes up and how I eat more 'normally' one day and think I'm all recovered and shit, when all I can do is think about food and how much smaller I wish I was. I've been trying to prepare for a midterm for the past 5 days and I've only succeeded in studying for \~6 hours total without being distracted by thoughts of ed/food. I need to pass this class to graduate. I've been struggling with ed for over half my life. I'm so tired.",2.9304270986745213,3.825541865979382,3.9256259204712833,91.59886597938149,73.63917525773195,7.604712812960236,27.259204712812963,7.957251820313856,1.3795431516936678,359,13,83,5,7,116,66,97,0.142,0.78,0.077,-0.8077,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,2,2,0,7,5,1,3,3,19,16,10,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,2,4,0,7,1,15,11,6,9,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,5,50,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547212589372244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202075095841817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4775960743132561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497423854884505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944816344893663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13948855611674224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903464398204919,0.1464316386938311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19349206644409872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382004543111878,0.15019522967748705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18852050836579126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20271414891663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064528097562026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848314238508445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25307912286323314,0.0,0.1567799745137972,0.0,0.2269784271712992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407844848247447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22709647391118964,0.19036721026271525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,welcometotheyeet,2019/10/16,gained ten pounds literally id rather die,1.1762499999999996,2.5267241250000008,2.1950000000000003,86.45000000000002,120.25,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,0.97255,35,1,7,1,2,11,8,8,0.33899999999999997,0.435,0.226,-0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lipscratch,2019/10/16,"does anyone else find even looking at people exhausting going outside, going online, just *looking* at other people, seeing their bodies, it *exhausts* me . it puts me in such a bad fucking mood , and lmao because how much more unavoidable can something get lol

like how do u explain to anyone that ur constantly pissed off bc you dont like looking at people? its, like, *funny* with how ridiculous it is",1.878511904761904,4.333791097222225,2.8046031746031765,84.11500000000002,103.30555555555556,3.723809523809524,23.1984126984127,5.773587663045528,0.9983579365079368,317,13,47,3,14,100,56,72,0.146,0.688,0.166,0.1935,0,1,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,0,6,10,3,0,1,1,4,5,2,3,0,8,13,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,6,0,0,0,4,4,3,7,13,2,9,0,0,4,1,4,5,2,0,4,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614794934254233,0.19158161630604748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611927566974,0.11398038606641007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769101312230726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20205738269787854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16362618548282187,0.0,0.21913746317029087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619658247876878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349756608465735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708950034874924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285865268853665,0.0976885729417716,0.0,0.21252843303598115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740448185254829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710446602436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745074521294626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888821426539745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18796508238096424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14899769283330586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14394521952588832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ekwater,2019/10/16,"finally weight restored i've cried a lot today.

i'm proud of how far i've come but I feel so invalid. and my body image is SHIIIIIT. like i actually despise my body.

i'm so afraid that I will keep on gaining and gaining and that they won't adjust my mealplan. I've reached this ""goal"", now what?

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but... i really have come so far. I can eat carbs, i can eat fats, i can eat spontaneously (ok still working on this but so much better). I can eat entire granola bars instead of cutting them into chunks. I can drink calories (well, milk/kombucha, but it's a start bc I literally NEVER did). I can eat without feeling like I have to compensate for it. my heart rate is not dangerously low anymore, my bloodwork is normal again. i don't feel quite as cold. i don't feel quite as weak. still no period but hey

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i want to vent and i also want to tell ppl and have them be proud (like, congratulations to me, I gained 30 lbs). so i feel like you guys get it",-0.1258848240854178,2.19908066497462,2.093828111325049,92.15015228426395,95.14213197969542,4.7476982321022225,20.49868720462104,6.48374012150746,0.3482180640644148,749,27,161,10,29,251,113,197,0.07400000000000001,0.7120000000000001,0.213,0.9808,0,0,1,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,3,10,13,15,3,1,2,1,18,13,4,1,1,28,32,19,0,3,7,0,6,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,8,8,9,1,6,2,0,2,7,6,1,0,1,7,28,9,13,28,2,17,0,1,0,0,7,6,0,1,13,97,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.10251132556579526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400654519310921,0.0,0.2276381086428953,0.2552887170209915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041790136780492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290608486915733,0.0,0.23336845303592035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809784492406145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153898798804276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290667730728036,0.0,0.5374497112954605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265576169525457,0.15009208399311447,0.0,0.11507453498417727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054883046704776575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401366113605062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448193760618335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933711528939608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052838473857956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930773150767975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722208895020909,0.0,0.08101920190520799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10292436563261348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22346215268285194,0.0,0.0,0.06729619641700668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743532473803755,0.0,0.16778233291469025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181625160614948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957286256126677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12391961804399935,0.0,0.0,0.12791970334660785,0.09445042770176618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126215877280424,0.0,0.07647591977453634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552887170209915,0.0
EDAnonymous,Bubbline,2019/10/16,Anyone else always get caught in parking lots? A lot of the time I sneak off to puke I do it in a parking lot and inevitably I get a sideye 😂 just me?,-2.0991176470588258,-0.2641432647058828,0.9443529411764722,100.40358823529414,99.29411764705885,2.72,15.623529411764707,3.1291,-1.2865694117647062,115,3,28,0,5,40,26,34,0.126,0.8740000000000001,0.0,-0.5803,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,5,3,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524256603893364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212127193793634,0.3108353591969538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534242155184915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169934907667327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7737353681008472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17689574723985066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,snailfoosh,2019/01/07,"How long does it take for hair to grow back once you start recovery? I struggled with anorexia for a little over a year, I lost nearly 100lb and along with it my hair. I was practically balding. I've been in recovery for 3-4 months and my hair seems to be getting better, lots of baby hairs, I've even been able to go out in public without a beanie,  but I don't know if it'll ever look normal again or if it will, how long it would take. There doesn't seem to be much info on this online, nobody tends to go too in depth. ",4.935029761904765,3.87612434821429,5.807857142857145,86.67047619047621,68.91071428571429,8.538095238095236,25.809523809523807,7.1686216300943375,0.946334523809524,405,8,94,3,6,134,77,112,0.032,0.948,0.019,-0.0691,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,8,3,0,1,3,0,10,5,5,2,1,21,22,8,0,4,5,0,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,4,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,4,5,7,1,20,13,2,20,0,1,1,0,2,9,0,6,8,61,13,0,0.19877973777986133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528493484117623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17580452440223898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395348808417088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129214206724205,0.17980765317664418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10385420865885883,0.0,0.2259422117222999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924414534456292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992295185662718,0.0,0.35182762540324525,0.16692491577883736,0.0,0.21699156533869893,0.1689954246297463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15866409022656566,0.0,0.14612597915796813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19476193808970568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169393326672264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36192321525990173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069732151428133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20780774163575347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2989152487337112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19161657374830168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412074224495158,0.0,0.0,0.1280076338805254
EDAnonymous,cerulean-,2019/01/07,"How many calories do I burn being nervous? (Rhetorical question) My current thought as I sit in the airport: ""how many calories am I burning by being nervous?"" I have to fly out of state for the job interview of my life and I have been insanely nervous for the past few days. I know that I'm burning more calories because my heart rate is ~ up there ~ but I just wonder how many more. I should probably get a Fitbit for answers to questions like these. 

I just had to chuckle at the absurdity of the thought. Like, would a mentally healthy person wonder that? Probably not. 🤷‍♀️",1.3987969924812025,3.98191910526316,3.1120300751879704,87.2542105263158,86.01754385964912,5.713283208020051,30.07268170426065,7.1686216300943375,2.0520997493734345,454,25,86,7,14,150,73,114,0.028999999999999998,0.841,0.131,0.9192,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,3,7,0,11,2,1,3,0,19,18,6,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,0,12,3,15,10,3,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,4,5,60,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371658445767697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972709180822594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888918302150852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016183125192763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688390312499254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350523339751654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017586335022555,0.1662449335755393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5174898559753026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146245765965407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16241916529067235,0.0,0.1485608594247581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36688229240277626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38119448919849214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701464452388938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690220608941442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086352959198501,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RockinWeasel,2019/01/07,"Broken Scale Woes Just a rant. This morning I woke up and tried to weigh myself. My scales were not working so I changed the batteries. Still dead. Changed them again. Cried. The thought of getting new scales that won't be the same and might weigh me slightly differently to throw off my comparisons for a few weeks fills me with dread. 

I finally made them work only for them to tell me I had gained 4kg in my month of ""just eat anything and don't care"" (I ate EVERYTHING and I am also very constipated). I just want to die. Back to restriction. Possibly get new scales.",1.279729729729727,3.9322054414414436,1.966270270270272,94.14562162162164,89.18018018018017,5.842882882882883,21.814414414414415,7.3011,0.8572349549549556,448,16,94,8,15,138,79,111,0.22399999999999998,0.741,0.035,-0.9711,1,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,3,3,8,3,0,1,5,0,7,4,0,1,0,15,15,6,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,1,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,6,0,17,1,13,6,2,13,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,1,8,59,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731378278187576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159027891681995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164718894315825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878157901101112,0.0,0.3897424521138781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20234756304829415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911823405689943,0.19246169613752334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884942413569357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165557320158827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20179457459434927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248569744392216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430527215358982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19541917510381185,0.0,0.0,0.147035774770023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35582501852954435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010106369391628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076706650160252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711145476113724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16100887512826598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14624326779521174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506744249574697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199368970396418,0.10865265112964156,0.0,0.14776326635315906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682161731044336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LikeaPandaButUgly,2019/01/07,"Freaking about residential My outpatient therapist suggested I go back to a higher level of care. Mostly for depression and anxiety. But because I have less than “ideal” eating habits, I’m stuck in the ED residential program, which I’m headed to the day after tomorrow.

The thing is my disordered eating stuff isn’t a high concern right now. My BMI is on the higher end of “healthy” and I cant stand the idea of gaining lbs. 

Last time I was there, there were a couple people larger than me and I think that helped because when I saw them I was like “regardless of your weight, I know you deserve to be here” and that made me feel a little less horrible about being there at my weight. But this time, i just know I’ll be the biggest and look like an fat moron for taking up space there.

Today was gross. I purged twice. I ate half a tortilla with cheese but couldn’t get it out.

I’m so conflicted. I want to fast in my last day of freedom. I want to waterload to prove to them I don’t deserve to be there. I want to put all my body image shit in a little box and focus on recovering so I can feel like a person. I’m so scared and ashamed and disgusted with what I am. 

I’m sorry. I just don’t know how I’m going to actually do this or if I even can. ",1.4443243243243238,3.4324509150579168,3.4395891891891885,88.85473513513516,80.3899613899614,6.6150424710424724,21.5569111969112,7.699297019823105,0.8660723088803088,973,29,209,16,25,329,143,259,0.131,0.768,0.10099999999999999,-0.8676,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,2,2,18,13,3,2,14,0,20,9,4,2,2,37,45,18,0,7,7,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,9,11,6,1,8,0,0,3,5,8,0,2,8,6,31,5,32,32,4,33,0,1,2,0,7,15,1,3,17,141,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.1280658921279006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039399482985872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091119121407456,0.0,0.15999860494805526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577188894787538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380226780518378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520842249394664,0.0,0.16927072662605258,0.0,0.11303203924247332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15040604899646035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2685712095558026,0.0,0.0,0.11623477000187032,0.0,0.0,0.08667911633722973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13271216186296855,0.09375391710049084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856458347554215,0.0,0.14916712414774924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134684406550427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796368534256503,0.13865640139843913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481477198196096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636906446311704,0.21394718429785026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19234356967247476,0.2630627902890289,0.0,0.0,0.11020388552245408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12417720943950858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098144347629837,0.11458885954514315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192686916491933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120735030064032,0.0,0.0,0.13138857820267136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471027674590874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14690622213676086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502320473602116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867197385922573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237331101703802,0.08718633705247647,0.08408973636452753,0.0,0.0,0.15304772598022084,0.0,0.12439491349131825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322164358332432,0.0,0.0,0.3196164099800876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,godisamango,2019/01/07,"Old Facebook Photos: Can't move past the past. I went through FB trying to get the privacy under control, and I'm just horrified by the way I used to look. I had always tried to avoid photos at my biggest, but tagged photos *do not lie*. You'd think it'd give me reassurance and a sense of accomplishment in my progress, but instead I just feel like I've paid insufficient penance for being that fuck-ugly for so many years.

It's not enough to have a normal weight now, down from obesity. I want to be unrecognizable, scarily so. I'm too chickenshit to kill myself for real, but at least I can kill that horrible lard-ass in those photos. ",3.1372727272727268,5.1355834920634935,4.516955266955268,83.08006493506495,75.19047619047619,7.756421356421356,24.946608946608947,8.575989854853784,1.7305968253968262,504,17,100,10,11,167,90,126,0.163,0.75,0.087,-0.9194,0,1,0,0,0,1,18.0,0,1,0,3,7,5,2,1,5,0,9,2,0,2,0,17,20,7,2,2,7,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,2,2,2,0,1,2,3,3,0,0,3,3,11,2,19,13,2,15,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,6,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848076089366098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21362083705096704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19679954963664376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630399010829724,0.1360670518559184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17608029353727214,0.09950923677403553,0.18270979590868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42143894390790015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305076978179244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994124053542022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930999376125984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024323936980629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866136390832283,0.0,0.0,0.1998592413875128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3636376287099543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678898455238685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204122102118305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586242180753847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644991776053008,0.0,0.0,0.1123402157247146,0.1511809380681804,0.0,0.2319330433103332,0.0,0.17656142915629025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226521497125162
EDAnonymous,hello_imdaisy,2019/01/07,Red splotchy skin after binging? So I've unfortunately started occasionally binging towards the last third of 2018 and have noticed that sometimes when I do my chest and jaw line will get a sudden rash that is red and splotchy. Does this happen to anyone else? I assume its because of the sugar? I've tried to look it up but haven't been able to find a clear answer. It was so embarrassing when it happened while my family was over and my mom freaked out when she saw my face. I know it can't be good and I wanted to know exactly what causes it so it'll help give me another reason not to binge (I've already been doing a little better but I will take all the scary info I can get 😅).,3.168064935064937,4.6379043000000015,4.545064935064937,85.14538961038964,73.85714285714286,6.805194805194804,24.87012987012988,7.348242739294969,1.0645714285714285,542,17,111,6,11,180,93,140,0.13,0.7959999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.8025,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,1,6,0,15,6,5,2,3,21,27,14,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,6,1,0,7,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,6,12,2,12,18,1,13,0,0,4,0,4,5,0,1,8,72,23,0,0.19350552182514186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21353815515366512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029074116909209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530356008762345,0.1982692745344671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795917005128773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113990899490295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987834744636022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933798615988174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16164903339867567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824197844263239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686054130007242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219729701550734,0.1856281289488775,0.0,0.16230325089962971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422325877763465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297026723580531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269114837702488,0.15773282712544714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19394336859339575,0.0,0.0,0.16249590272210446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22663132844613654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203073191438871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895590473539546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19138190900844645,0.0,0.13696420431529036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549207035318085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137754728321993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141345703276622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crenelates,2019/07/30,"losing hope, everyday is harder i posted in a diff subreddit and a bunch of people called me fat and ugly. 

tired of attempting to lose weight, tired of having horrible genetics and looking in the mirror and seeing a monster. other people clearly see it to. i can’t live up to my own expectations or other people’s.

what keeps people going day to day? 

the thought that i might be skinny at some point or feel comfortable with how much space i take up is not enough.",4.309571428571431,6.005352211111107,5.550952380952385,78.165,71.33333333333333,8.253968253968255,25.079365079365076,8.841846274778883,2.0032698412698404,369,11,65,7,7,123,66,90,0.18100000000000002,0.7290000000000001,0.09,-0.8402,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,5,0,6,5,2,1,1,17,15,7,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,3,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,5,6,2,13,12,5,12,0,2,3,0,1,7,0,5,3,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743780331958806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22026854402895515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17645386263789953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634781468466841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705406808348307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16961583624507004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517906335758175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079543401113862,0.0,0.14340606845737086,0.3821019670758791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18116286118177075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255375931912534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735691867726052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16143541211595,0.0,0.163553052824275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2721674840011141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839982702059025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13557445838300275,0.0,0.39255622312486893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795515762629205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Samstars97,2019/07/30,Struggles with sex? Does anyone else get really nervous when they are about to have sex with their SO and just end up not doing the darn thing?  I honestly think its because of my body image and not being comfortable in my own skin or maybe I'm not sexually confident. Not sure but I feel but it's like it related to my ED. Was wondering if anyone had advice or a show/movie that could help me see a new light and just want to have sex with my SO!,2.158951612903227,3.8457493440860233,3.788911290322584,88.60336693548389,77.06451612903227,7.660752688172043,21.302419354838708,8.472884824447931,1.0728935483870967,351,9,77,7,8,117,69,93,0.08900000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.113,0.6496,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,6,6,0,2,3,0,8,5,2,0,1,23,15,11,0,3,11,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,4,9,4,10,11,1,5,0,0,1,3,3,2,1,4,4,53,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334400230120289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340741405143231,0.24477049028719275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562480220456334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653523448146533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19073380132788864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905378301263036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19956149661790554,0.0,0.21158516221201612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078969268331545,0.1706626834414528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480988706252415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601225746106254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670932713431025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2399965792092588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307209364977953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1530387101088731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903639766156289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497391400811968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251504961456832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587075473855449,0.15307072495405585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090319744910065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590654373542303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GlitterVega,2019/07/30,"Keeping up the appearance of healthful eating I've recently found myself back on my bullshit, and I am so thrilled that people haven't even noticed. I log everything meticulously, and I've been keeping sub-900 for about a month now, without a single comment from anyone. 

Is anyone else ridiculously satisfied when they feel like they're ""getting away with"" their disordered behavior?",12.22871794871795,11.328291769230768,10.469230769230773,58.59410256410257,54.384615384615394,13.589743589743593,49.35897435897437,12.45797560212912,6.60797435897436,315,18,42,8,3,97,56,65,0.092,0.773,0.134,0.4294,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,6,3,1,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,0,9,10,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,6,2,9,8,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,6,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3137244611574667,0.2298606233166562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107727810445292,0.17250194782227568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25711059500924144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22955361154679746,0.1874054750177403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14817302445638258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162038100942636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11343195014169152,0.16026699438612066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24597485717856735,0.0,0.0,0.11720725975836466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384606284479739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39880355148825897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096001346015352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906431985434398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554101124268357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15552760825158873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150654807240505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162536677458884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DaintyMcdouble,2019/07/30,"Illness triggered old eating habits I have been sick since the beginning of this year. I would wake up every morning vomiting and would have severe abdominal pain throughout the day, especially after eating. It's got so bad that I would get sick anytime I ate, I was hospitalized a few times, but they still can't find out what's wrong with me. I was out of work for 2 months on medical leave, but it drove me crazy being stuck at home and I was determined to take control of this and get back into life. 

I slowly started cutting out certain food groups that would really trigger my nausea or pain. I'm already vegetarian, I then cut out gluten, most sugar, and dairy. I started eating as little as I could as slowly as I could out of fear of being sick and in pain. I have slowly felt better as far as the nausea and abdominal pain goes.

I have a long history of disordered eating, and this whole situation has spiralled out of control and triggered old habits. I have a very hard time eating anything, out of fear of sickness and now of gaining weight. Ive lost a lot of weight since this began, I'm the smallest I've ever been. But I can't stop, I don't want to be sick and in pain like I was, and I finally feel like I have control that I lost to illness. It's all consuming. I wake up excited to weigh myself and see the number drop. I feel like I don't have a choice, either restrict and deal with freezing, dizziness, and having the best version of my body Ive had, or give in, eat what I want and be sick, in pain, fat and miserable. 

Has anyone else experienced something like illness triggering bad eating habits? Any advice?",5.8516718266253855,5.905356272445822,6.529783281733749,78.52613003095978,66.77089783281734,9.15294117647059,30.93188854489164,8.841846274778883,2.3917653250774,1288,45,249,19,19,424,162,323,0.278,0.613,0.109,-0.9966,0,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,1,9,5,24,2,3,11,0,33,35,4,7,3,58,55,29,0,8,6,0,7,4,0,4,19,0,1,0,12,26,14,5,4,0,0,1,4,16,0,0,15,10,33,8,42,30,8,40,0,3,1,0,4,18,0,4,24,163,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709430265847699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011494183575077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04936989582827071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05076299754856203,0.07438638488617991,0.05974289559961304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055824247316368016,0.12123447700294113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618830468081993,0.06420802804555371,0.0,0.08064126369430212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442782821725641,0.11592899078425276,0.0,0.0,0.046820430880396384,0.07484651202622927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320488913111845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5200092185387699,0.060647254815987664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06567006666765927,0.0611678955955135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338840306272456,0.07341659984977875,0.10372966153958336,0.06970654689607456,0.07952879491153746,0.06635428675076059,0.0,0.08778715243254727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758600947829972,0.06964369783524993,0.0,0.0,0.05806415384559745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06503455778870126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728228436607328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687199291024809,0.0,0.0,0.05127891034709242,0.14187306513679251,0.0727633976378052,0.0,0.06424794275318559,0.0,0.0,0.15850104609410542,0.061721181528698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313598254530937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057947930462703426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152361142406738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635035379013543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046508859704804034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05785210470583777,0.0,0.0,0.08201634888728715,0.0,0.12010949599562827,0.08160446042991043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558903547669902,0.0,0.0,0.10277207138371247,0.0,0.0579777565296546,0.06069612086964909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545855083627568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466626945471963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059901882895581675,0.08564169205891091,0.0,0.0,0.17681235651303592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105433252962507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05285302904119119,0.0,0.0,0.20628934714181665,0.07937574847313403,0.0,0.04675145747353173
EDAnonymous,radicalweenie,2019/07/30,"Started a new job, one of my coworkers is much thinner than me she’s 16, small framed, and of some sort of asian descent. while i’m nearly 21, and have been eating like complete shit the past month while i was unemployed and depressed. going✈️restricting",3.0789795918367338,5.659465469387758,3.4034285714285737,88.11657142857145,77.9795918367347,6.3689795918367365,26.126530612244892,7.554174236665415,1.5298865306122456,204,8,38,3,5,63,43,49,0.14,0.81,0.051,-0.6597,3,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,5,6,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,4,1,5,4,2,8,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,2,7,23,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466734662628913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28478280088330604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33833089187149124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32811269935896914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16153573467701002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26391652316187403,0.0,0.2430610499699467,0.0,0.0,0.3193375962115592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240526232704856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156366768787453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394008475523433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340312030227761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,irasirfsama,2019/07/30,"So, I might have a problem here.. I'm quite overweight, I think. Around 160 cm/ weight 91 kg.  
And I really really fear the thought that's creeping in my head.  


""*Stop eating, stop eating""* Even when I'm eating healthy food in reasonable portions.  
The thing is, i really, *really* want to stop eating altogether. Just a week or two. And it scares me to no end, that's exactly how Anorexia begins. And, with my extremely frail mental health, it's a serious concern and i *don't* want to seek help because seeing myself with less fat on *every part of this cursed cage* is something i long for.. And it's extremely dangerous.  


I sincerely fear one day i really might start refusing to eat, making excuses.. I'm stupid smart, so i can fake eating, do chems, and lie well enough to cover the fact I'm not eating anymore.  


I see myself every day, at the mirror, I feel like a monster,  and I've been thinking of checking my weight constantly on the last 2 weeks, thinking on what i might do to not have anyone concerned about me eating less and less on daily basis..  
Any clues?",2.406218215441516,4.816592834951456,3.873578363384192,84.7627993527508,79.38834951456312,7.030605640314379,22.916319926028663,8.11559375814309,1.4917057790106334,828,27,156,16,21,273,123,206,0.172,0.738,0.09,-0.9552,0,0,1,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,0,1,10,12,2,3,9,0,12,15,2,3,2,35,28,13,0,3,4,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,8,11,13,4,6,0,1,0,4,8,1,2,2,5,19,4,20,23,6,22,0,0,2,0,3,8,0,4,15,95,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05674459222701815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275375002266927,0.05834579044148596,0.0,0.0,0.07428260349295521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508665183089561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09017301933398428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762859486043368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6830700731453982,0.0,0.0,0.07390637010062635,0.08621967052597668,0.0,0.05511379126840848,0.0,0.1406098690191954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18779477150747595,0.04219165294232079,0.059612211522428474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090047961380244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08563733207489388,0.0886967742626045,0.0,0.0,0.0559305678003066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0680177703472438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04076638756332203,0.0,0.0,0.07384506796683718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05569933224856785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840916453954615,0.2655618069640483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056543625428061614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09036141917149984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798443724360091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875266941858498,0.0,0.0,0.2672809243990198,0.0857940435364011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354172239068798,0.0,0.13298768554936646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06423905372836851,0.0,0.0,0.05906189576822363,0.0,0.0,0.2092880633467614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055436300977879466,0.16040210284721693,0.0,0.06624499435020915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151239134567641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09843453813268822,0.0,0.13386704075076702,0.20322394655094847,0.07502592708086885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,must_stay_awake,2019/07/30,"awesomeawesomeawesome Lost two pounds last week, yay life!

Got a UTI that spread to my kidneys so I had to be put on antibiotics - gained 5 over the past two days! 

whywhywhy.",2.7346875,5.6738980937500045,2.2800000000000007,92.965,83.6875,6.95,20.5,8.07648339933343,1.0366625000000005,137,4,28,3,4,40,30,32,0.066,0.745,0.18899999999999997,0.6467,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,4,0,0,7,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608663125526674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555774399704844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26048009220105445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22571124804188575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488321874206276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30505154264498313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212411806834882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6243178835429319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563278606416057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mainechick,2019/07/30,"When you cut out coffee for 5 months to help w anxiety but you just gain and become less productive so you have your first latte... TW: numbers ...after a 24ish hour fast because 10lbs keeps creeping higher and you miss the caffeine high plus you also take Adderall. 😅 Shaking and feel like my heart is gonna pound out of my chest and I'm gonna shit my brains out but also like I could never eat again and like I'm about to go write The Next Great American Novel (tm) as reality melts down around me and I make plans to become ~perfect~ again. 🙄 Eh just another day in the life I guess, fam 🤷🏼‍♀️  *dabs away*

(@mods, sorry if this isn't serious enough. I'd be more than happy to take it down if that's the case, just wanted to mini-rant)

Edit: apparently my phone won't let me keep the shrug emoji without the fem symbol after it, so apologies to all my NB/trans sibs - not tryna exclude 💙💟",0.28606345475910544,2.6099473783783798,2.2810105757931862,93.03519388954172,88.72972972972973,4.947121034077557,17.232667450058756,6.498293943080001,-0.13521151586368996,695,17,149,8,23,231,135,185,0.068,0.759,0.17300000000000001,0.9732,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,6,0,4,12,11,2,1,7,0,7,6,4,1,3,31,21,17,0,4,9,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,11,1,2,1,1,0,2,5,5,0,1,0,1,16,6,23,15,4,23,0,1,0,0,10,9,1,3,15,84,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516199516208136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16496534801978138,0.12035054472848385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004952148752034,0.0,0.0,0.14780876214438596,0.0,0.0,0.0959017483761336,0.3474985536293109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17562286396438373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256084454355224,0.0,0.0,0.10145937608398073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097920708906469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255520178583754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954649578080478,0.11239053702958487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381761848349386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940945460526536,0.0,0.0,0.17344754926107092,0.17330740891771249,0.0,0.0,0.1674717008666141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642677809289465,0.10544930964490386,0.16621884074514762,0.0,0.0,0.1549300233314786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796692200584049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087192981645235,0.11112085370108694,0.2305780681836027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501334716043084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12557254940952425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133606742714595,0.0,0.16731323872206166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16148829633057987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17610857988195566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365724329133013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279231822182607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15165234704546662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Deathtothelads420,2019/07/30,"I hate the munchies I have no appetite at all and the thought of food makes me gag even when I can feel how hungry I am. But I also love getting high, sometimes daily, and sometimes get really strong munchies. I tell myself it kinda balances out if I don't eat all day, then give in and get high at night and eat 2 meals worth of food... But it's also frustrating because sometimes I'll have the munchies and desperately be searching for food and STILL nothing is appetising. Anyone else hate food but love getting stoned to the bone?",6.438974358974358,6.463937769230771,5.920000000000003,83.49166666666667,65.53846153846155,8.471794871794872,33.67948717948718,7.793537801064563,2.2777487179487186,424,17,83,4,6,130,68,104,0.11,0.7759999999999999,0.114,0.5262,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,6,6,3,0,4,0,7,10,1,2,2,18,19,15,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,7,0,2,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,9,3,8,17,2,11,0,0,0,2,4,6,0,2,5,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995199380648863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08722586144320822,0.1278178361145043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604449000592578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045136445651935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552942341913073,0.10420994229959796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239408335052564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0630757291273244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6033772916778495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607002122079292,0.1196684953830558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463232725932977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636036816402105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251777106871255,0.0,0.0832694561240923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11706641903994462,0.0,0.1196979168107275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07991599291613864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701333180094444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962295376678296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903419960729216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099035023002943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,amehlea,2019/07/30,"Crying because of oatmeal I feel silly, but I need to vent.

I never eat breakfast anymore and today I decided I would have some oatmeal. I always crave it when I'm high and I always told myself not to. So I made it and was so excited, but I didn't have my glasses on so I put it in a bowl with water in it. And my breakfast got spoiled and it ruined my whole morning. Now I'm crying because I so badly wanted oatmeal, but I couldn't even make it right.",1.002290950744559,2.730558690721651,3.5762199312714777,88.61926689576175,80.64948453608247,5.135853379152349,24.179839633447884,5.82211442006289,0.6033331042382586,351,13,73,2,9,123,57,97,0.159,0.7859999999999999,0.055,-0.8937,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,2,1,20,15,13,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,2,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,1,16,2,7,8,2,10,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,4,55,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35166638174957643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20957029955925394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764413886997693,0.25763452355026834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4642449729343678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162306841228165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957329719562594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684853971693203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16901000757310522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22326867114297194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19995384459843407,0.14105615445082711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668934006978172,0.1629811783954688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124325777203954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046409566532426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030439815283008,0.20192304486640464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464060926419193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23592857981006485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011397658270062,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,stellaisheretostay,2019/07/30,When did you guys realize you had a weird relationshipwith food? Or at least when and how did you develop problematic food habits/dysmorphia?,7.335000000000001,10.152869166666667,7.281666666666666,64.23000000000002,65.66666666666666,13.133333333333333,32.83333333333333,12.161744961471696,5.2759833333333335,116,5,19,5,2,37,19,24,0.19899999999999998,0.8009999999999999,0.0,-0.6072,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,4,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,2,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.925438494565895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3788978658894897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ukrainiangirl00,2019/07/30,"Please fucking help me stop chew/spit Does anyone else compulsively chew/spit their food? I feel like I’m out of control, I can’t eat an actual meal without doing it. I feel so disgusting and I cannot stop. I started doing it 6 years ago, but lately I feel like I’m spiraling. I’m starting therapy again tomorrow to try and stop, but right now I’m freaking out because Im so fat and I don’t have a scale. I just want to stop and I can’t! If anyone knows any tips to help curb the compulsion please, please help. I can’t do this anymore, it makes me want to die.",-0.4492499999999993,1.7646802416666674,1.8883333333333359,94.8825,92.41666666666666,5.333333333333333,19.166666666666664,6.9077264865688965,0.2959166666666668,439,14,100,7,16,148,70,120,0.171,0.625,0.204,0.28,0,0,0,0,0,1,15.0,0,0,1,1,5,5,2,0,3,0,9,5,1,2,0,24,23,9,1,3,5,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,4,6,4,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,3,13,2,8,23,0,15,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,1,14,49,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.13097052917438204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896991129054707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126804977853836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310120101336373,0.18768683666198707,0.1375149808347324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181375075371998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052899506946588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928977919606178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174489086927092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733130989084044,0.11211602898111976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20358327004480967,0.19176066212164092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622884161230466,0.0,0.0,0.12407586265275407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26987631662157463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14497085907972426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375882940374429,0.0,0.1513957998873975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113738396551264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958685275163836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4419699681347303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11461541985367925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899904054794664,0.0,0.0,0.44882546239631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15348192042919825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112042669841657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832219377451173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12937456858171473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642745293114733
EDAnonymous,iamnotfromthefuture,2019/07/30,"Tried on my ""fat pants"" today, and they fit perfectly so now they're just pants, and I'm the fat :/",5.667142857142861,3.5097528571428604,6.085714285714285,88.83428571428574,68.04761904761904,10.304761904761904,25.761904761904763,8.841846274778883,1.2166761904761905,74,1,19,1,1,24,17,21,0.092,0.6509999999999999,0.257,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8129721623816373,0.0,0.0,0.5823025529675486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,gin_and_gems,2019/07/30,"Asked a guy out, got rejected, now I’m back to restricting!!! Actually got rejected since he already has a girlfriend (he told me conveniently after we started making out) and because we work together (same office, completely different department and we never fucking see each other).

But still. I can’t help but think if I were skinnier and prettier he’d want me. Welp, here I go.",4.866521739130434,7.276173840579716,6.338478260869567,70.10163043478265,71.46376811594203,10.397101449275363,34.68840579710145,10.504223727775694,4.584901449275362,301,16,48,10,6,102,54,69,0.08800000000000001,0.792,0.12,0.4983,1,2,0,0,0,0,15.0,3,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,1,18,16,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,9,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,4,1,9,0,4,11,2,10,0,2,1,1,11,2,1,1,6,32,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.2362370526821685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26714344051824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263139352228212,0.0,0.0,0.1861460690193101,0.0,0.14757090368932255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25381830826883656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529241027661027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380085265638133,0.0,0.0,0.13758074527191866,0.0,0.3872300840183949,0.0,0.0,0.23969918064995996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16226242150123596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615915747346473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18670851599185825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19290796371073887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20025268235834584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17134684310773315,0.0,0.19332694997912608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511633229975924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23131966784584235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278620032781236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623853548843998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawy215802,2019/07/30,"I got asked to model for one of my favorite brands 
today, an acquaintance messaged me on Instagram saying she’d love to have me model for her brand. it’s this gorgeous evening wear/couture line with very artistic photos that i’ve admired for a long time. I was not expecting this. When she asked for my measurements, it felt SO good to be able to say i was a size 0 - like it’s no big deal. i’m so excited for this. i’ve never had this type of opportunity come to me so effortlessly. everything is just falling into my lap because i’m “attractive” now, whereas before I was average.

this is why i can’t quit. all this new attention is just so addicting. but now I feel so much extra pressure to stay skinny and restrict for the next few weeks until the shoot....",4.731118421052628,5.423919348684212,5.9419473684210535,79.53463157894737,69.32894736842105,9.237894736842106,30.989473684210523,9.3871,2.7034136842105267,599,24,118,12,10,201,103,152,0.063,0.805,0.131,0.8048,0,0,0,1,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,2,11,9,0,1,5,0,11,3,1,0,2,15,20,9,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,10,4,1,1,3,1,0,2,4,1,0,1,6,4,15,8,18,12,4,17,0,0,0,1,10,3,0,0,12,79,25,1,0.1960474555870823,0.0,0.0,0.21372066428121891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3665558130254997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11950870927919045,0.0,0.16682194512721388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688775237602116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211631829539475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294874954476786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17619481186875874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912748411177416,0.0,0.18823630171012595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16443530433791492,0.15679705950889025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577888406036338,0.0,0.0,0.1734958289409196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17694048287104244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411743736585714,0.0,0.1512038836910269,0.18934385425502429,0.208498693126754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284682965383668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085206009751652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118096109030788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896050271184646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143168479247027,0.0,0.18583006466925692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617596826098457,0.0,0.0,0.15725744347173187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17690233543628042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,moreagainforever,2019/07/30,"Does anyone do/follow ballet? Yes, it's triggering as fuck, but it's still a truly beautiful art form. My favorites right now are [Maria Khoreva](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qxbXrbvrZc) (Russian prodigy, at the middle-right center barre of this iconique exam video), [Mathilde Froustey](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BK6vvAhaPCk) (French, will charm your pants off), and [Sarah Lamb](https://www.instagram.com/p/BxstuwdnXAn/) (London by way of Boston, intelligent, mysterious, and graceful beyond words).",13.60490196078431,18.251154000000007,8.091764705882357,57.23460784313729,53.11764705882353,10.415686274509804,36.333333333333336,10.504223727775694,4.992139215686277,424,17,44,10,6,111,63,68,0.028999999999999998,0.627,0.344,0.9790000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,56.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,1,0,2,1,2,1,0,1,0,5,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,7,2,1,8,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,2,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787004274071785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488050801358547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684861076806732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6807801136997529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183110987381357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316378819600642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,annieedisonirl,2019/03/31,"""Helpful"" Comments Nothing pisses me off more than hearing from people who have never had anorexia about how to best deal with it. Like, I've been hospitalized. I'm in therapy multiple times per week. I go to a group therapy session twice a week. I've been dealing with it for five years. Sometimes I'm good and my BMI is normal. Lately it's not and I might have to go back to in-patient. It sucks. I hate it. But one thing that's getting to me today is condescending people who don't have any idea what it's like. 

Not once in years have I ever gotten good advice from a random person who stopped to comment on how thin I am. That's happened to me more than once. ""Eat more"" is a big one. Great advice! Ugh. Not once have I ever gotten good advice from someone who wasn't someone I knew in my real life, a medical professional, or someone who's dealt with the same problem. 

In another subreddit, a girl posts pictures of things she cooks and someone responded by calling out her post history, saying her behavior is unhealthy, that she has an eating disorder, and that people shouldn't be encouraging her to continue her unhealthy behavior. It was honestly terrible and stupid advice. It was shaming for no good reason. Should she not be allowed to participate as she chooses, within the guidelines, because someone wanted to stalk her history and call her out publicly?

But please, person with no history of anorexia, please tell me how I didn't approach the issue the right way. You're right. Being rude, telling the poster she's toxic, and saying you don't care what she does -- that's how to help someone get healthy. Literally all I said was that the original commenter who linked OP's other posts, including a picture of her (and the poster called her emaciated), was wrong and inappropriate. That the OP had the right to post and it might be helpful for her to do so. That cooking is something that helps me. That they don't know her medical history or what's good for her. 

I've been cooking since I left the hospital because it's one way for me to keep dealing with food. It helps. I eat more than I would otherwise. I take a lot of pictures of food to send to my friends and boyfriend because it makes me feel good to share it. Who cares if you get validation that way? Are you not allowed to because you have an eating disorder? I don't get it. If she'd been a normal weight, would anyone have had a problem with her behavior, called her out on it, linked her threads, made comments about how she looks?

I hate seeing people bully people with eating disorders -- any EDs -- thinking it's going to help. It only makes things worse.

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EDAnonymous,whatarethissssssss,2019/03/31,"Does anyone else keep clothing as inspiration? maybe im just weird but i have a bra and some shirts that are too small from my lowest weight that ive kept to inspire myself to lose weight, and i wondered if anyone else has done this? ",5.042907801418437,5.57984378723404,4.830638297872341,88.33333333333334,68.57446808510639,7.117730496453903,24.177304964539005,6.42735559955562,0.5465943262411348,186,4,39,1,3,57,38,47,0.16399999999999998,0.6990000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.1053,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,11,8,5,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,5,2,4,6,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975776943544671,0.4360603190270122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621537916464512,0.2177597052078577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35552018455578155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298514630049601,0.0,0.0,0.18913896754241766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380593909062264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21377778173461626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5182457294232393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23076343297962695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,voregeois,2019/03/31,"my dad said I was too skinny today.  I've been very sick for the last year and it's led to some dramatic weight loss. I was ~200lbs when it started. ive been so sick that I've been in the hospital for rehydration more than a few times. one time when I was getting back from a doctors appointment or something feeling like shit he said ""well at least you look better like this"" 🙄🙄 never mind that I'm fucking dying or something. he's always said triggering stuff like this to me.

well today when he saw me he was acting all worried because I'm ""so thin"" now (135lbs). and like HA! I've been waiting so fucking long for this. Hahaha. it almost makes being so sick worth it. (well and helping me lose weight is dope) ",2.2723023872679042,4.173831986206896,3.4082758620689653,90.49315649867377,77.41379310344827,6.116710875331565,23.56763925729443,7.010146845296331,0.7621299734748006,558,18,117,6,13,180,89,145,0.131,0.682,0.187,0.7248,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,3,13,14,3,0,4,1,11,10,2,3,2,15,25,12,1,0,2,1,4,4,0,0,4,3,0,0,10,3,3,1,1,0,1,2,1,5,3,1,12,9,9,9,9,12,5,19,0,2,2,2,10,3,3,4,18,67,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641687054133966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133561045166432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10475415341139477,0.0,0.08304588523180598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204863109395646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138751628562615,0.0,0.0,0.13943943031531372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888309411519594,0.09732431157243353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518889491062584,0.07117570221471689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09131357263892367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104742643622204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662246881012007,0.0,0.0,0.1205612108550609,0.1144007378335338,0.15240898600507738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093605198821644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755568751496236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507067181416573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923144650744113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3887640598638128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984039655617686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975640797442235,0.0,0.0,0.09642585300903496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559532768084553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15887618383758664,0.0,0.258264394557048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240583316625044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3317882391540293,0.3674673284255817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835041292356315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877290708575786
EDAnonymous,Aggravating_Raisin,2019/07/04,"i have now binged for almost a month straight i dont know how to stop the worst part is that after every binge i get this rush of motivation to finally start fasting to lose weight and become healthy, but then the next day i just do it again... and i always do the same thing: eat one small thing (fruit, yoghurt, whatever) and then decide ""fuck it, i already failed might as well eat more"" and the binge happens.. 

i just feel like i completely lost control of myself and i'm so tired of being so oppsessed with food and eating... i just want my body to reflect more how i feel as a person and wear clothes i like and not be embarassed to be in public....i'm so tired of this",5.148088235294118,5.027019397058826,5.18264705882353,88.1844117647059,68.26470588235293,7.976470588235292,28.02941176470589,7.1686216300943375,1.2260029411764704,522,15,114,4,8,163,88,136,0.193,0.703,0.10400000000000001,-0.9542,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,5,11,8,1,0,6,0,9,11,2,4,0,28,19,18,0,1,5,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,7,9,6,2,6,0,0,1,2,5,1,1,1,4,13,3,15,14,5,16,0,3,0,1,1,3,1,2,14,79,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824301124642547,0.0,0.16336839512951545,0.0,0.12318307999610187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16350112506078618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16444165756200152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521956891746047,0.0,0.16604206410228095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547505717328572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735045110326167,0.0,0.0,0.4544527946185149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473205007595135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14970930289026255,0.10576147185996863,0.0,0.1621731389123275,0.0,0.0,0.17901337599792802,0.0,0.0,0.13686275079845653,0.07734600846668044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309133456402888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136019425569113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465201142516565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562150221412866,0.16160569385315526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570495197601332,0.0,0.0,0.11816597733013763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744470003062228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031731581239156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031541938915958,0.0,0.0,0.12926485440879892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10478512485545367,0.0,0.0,0.1237700187986255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967054949366154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34030576641619026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873192033049507,0.0,0.0,0.1802756780490629,0.1331078360135316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thinnernthinner,2019/07/04,"dreams I had my first binge dream in ages but I did last night and woke up with my heart racing and so worried I actually ate everything.

Honestly after I calmed down it was kinda nice because dreaming about eating an entire dominos pizza, garlic bread pizza, chicken wings, cookies, and a nutella pizza was satisfying as fuck and I ended up not eating any more after I woke up.

Does anyone else have binge dreams, what are they like?",5.4392592592592575,7.1239461975308656,5.8453703703703725,77.1991666666667,68.50617283950618,7.375308641975309,27.08024691358025,7.793537801064563,1.7980024691358016,346,11,57,4,6,111,62,81,0.08800000000000001,0.657,0.255,0.9356,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,2,5,1,0,2,0,6,9,1,0,0,8,10,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,9,4,10,3,1,12,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,8,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2412157595610403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680934794244626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17283667994022872,0.25326904275469714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15068096735197686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631223374081468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5058615313789425,0.2064903704683074,0.0,0.2189315036778294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221528862198752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102544379352384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285174660409751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929140264802565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014878111137156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12076153268790582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319652780102301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25102717605668645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sc120,2019/07/04,"Peanut Butter Sandwich :) Peanut butter has always been a bad food for me. I always binge on it and at the lowest point of my ED I ate a whole jumbo tub in less than 5 minutes. For the past year, I started replacing peanut butter with powdered peanut butter since it was 1/4th of the calories.

Today I ate an *actual* peanut butter and banana sandwich!!! The whole two tablespoon serving and it was amazing. I’m happy. ED thoughts are still there but I’m gonna ignore them because that was the best peanut butter sandwich I’ve had in a long ass time hahaha.",2.6243686868686886,5.086182194444447,3.535387205387206,87.2028787878788,78.90740740740742,5.4087542087542095,21.855218855218848,6.574015621080383,0.6222481481481479,439,13,80,4,11,140,70,108,0.102,0.743,0.155,0.8061,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,0,9,0,7,7,1,0,0,7,14,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,8,6,7,3,10,5,4,12,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,7,48,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2123334987015792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620995847298719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18167603414205327,0.13263899939127882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22834410449235504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631070318748053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23162537915556206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19255762436128232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20771138655180532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056900201507746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799901928455319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400917965855476,0.0,0.17376523799423246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273975214744716,0.1268767139545854,0.0,0.2062470089687328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21255085634939608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858561705563761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14011887697500522
EDAnonymous,Alienparty,2019/07/04,"DAE try not to think about food / look at food so you don’t start to crave it? I don’t think I’m scared of food but I just don’t want to think about it, like overeating or binging isn’t an option at all because it doesn’t fit into the person I want to be. 
I feel like I give in to binge urges when my thoughts revolve around food and now I’m just trying to distract myself all the time.",1.2526245847176083,2.438777883720931,2.373521594684388,99.92779069767444,78.30232558139534,4.914285714285715,19.2624584717608,3.1291,-0.8057122923588036,302,6,76,0,7,96,54,86,0.055999999999999994,0.794,0.15,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,8,4,0,2,3,0,6,4,0,0,2,18,18,5,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,4,0,5,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,2,8,2,15,16,2,11,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,2,6,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442756005980546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09879564170166136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194685945620239,0.11578198953665242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7838969886559622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554711694682943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835726733700567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360969814923329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151223273852134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225915094717347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471313717791667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31154144627776664,0.0,0.1286645310889995,0.09450362585414364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200681656778812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118476521939026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sksksk208,2019/07/04,"I finally weigh less than my boyfriend - but it’s driving him into an ED mindset now I always weighed more than my boyfriend - a good 10 pounds until recently he gained weight and I lost weight now he’s around 5-10 pounds heavier than me 


It drove him into a ED mindset but I feel bad to say I’m happy I weigh less than him but it’s kinda shitty he only felt good about himself when I was heavier. He’s a foot taller than me so weighing more than me is completely normal. My BMI is in the high overweight category his in in the normal range 


I can’t help but to get upset that he was only happy (with his body) when I weighed more....",1.7324999999999982,3.558884522727276,3.1818181818181834,91.8427272727273,78.77272727272728,5.612121212121212,23.12121212121212,6.42735559955562,0.4720030303030303,495,16,107,4,12,162,73,132,0.128,0.703,0.16899999999999998,0.7869,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,7,7,0,1,6,0,5,10,2,0,0,14,11,9,0,2,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,5,8,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,5,6,20,4,17,6,5,17,0,1,0,0,13,8,0,1,7,67,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953733293994825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15998451199537847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005457476553916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19962292627221312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884278291851449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908693380260389,0.0,0.17255464800843456,0.19686907218277552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09389370536947166,0.0,0.0,0.3014729444045635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382620062555069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12045922159964532,0.18987883599030786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961802257864908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521652183061955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733628144035701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744694829481186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291663501199506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4376890736982825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,silentvestige,2019/07/04,"Just got done watching Spider-Man: Far From Home, and... currently regretting all the food I ate prior to/ during the film. 🙃 I wish I was as skinny as Zendaya. Fantastic movie but I was straight up triggered throughout the whole damn movie.",2.5753030303030333,5.5548325909090925,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,86.72727272727272,5.660606060606061,25.51515151515152,7.1686216300943375,1.5761333333333334,190,8,33,3,6,58,36,44,0.12,0.735,0.145,0.0258,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,3,0,3,3,1,1,1,7,6,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,1,4,0,5,1,2,5,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,0,2,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39464345426093816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663172331382228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084314141137639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3868282091872488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43055311662059204,0.4434667915643427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,leebowery69,2019/07/04,The worst prt is I can feel my sKiNnY body UNDER ALL THE FAT I’ve exercised my whole life (not a lot lol) so I can feel and picture my ideal figure when I flex my muscles under my bodyfat. It’s so close yet so far,-0.4393749999999983,1.3291754791666683,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,85.875,4.673333333333334,17.933333333333334,5.6839178017228535,-0.4427966666666663,165,4,39,1,5,58,35,48,0.086,0.8420000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,1,3,5,3,0,1,9,5,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,8,1,2,5,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5110242988425423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652415493370744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32495484327813234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911275948502375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5136419191807455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TouchedDistortion,2019/07/04,"Panicking about mini pizzas that I haven't even eaten (or made for that matter) Sorry I've never posted here before but idk where else to put this?? I don't feel like I can text my boyfriend about a pizza related panic attack lol

I had dinner already. A good 300 calorie microwave beef bowl. I'm still hungry though. But it's late and I need to go to bed soon(ish) bc work. But the pizza doesn't take too long to make. 400 calories. Would put me 170 calories over 1200. I'm short though. And I've gained (a bunch) of weight recently and I need it gone before a concert that's like... This weekend. Part of me just wants to get high and enjoy that food and part of me hates myself for even thinking that. 

Heck.",0.479890350877195,2.916412208333334,1.706067251461988,96.32986842105268,90.11111111111113,3.864912280701754,16.60672514619883,5.399115186594226,-0.6679388888888886,554,13,116,3,19,175,96,144,0.134,0.765,0.10099999999999999,-0.4451,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,2,11,7,2,1,5,1,6,7,0,2,1,20,21,11,0,4,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,9,5,7,0,2,2,0,4,4,3,0,0,4,3,11,4,13,16,3,15,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,8,66,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985285844793846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751044793752704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619465617183501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285791308272435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20332339484577025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07782580287943704,0.1099593853195132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861188242043902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041604752981138,0.0,0.08747541323305491,0.12909950955067934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196262272899552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626233136696134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362673774055068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039357888856006,0.0,0.0,0.1362130019191796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564137737333355,0.10274177354509853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.228257189586045,0.11871141240177464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805901602963836,0.0,0.3333574063078888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741134672505182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094611486995975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519759197056371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722991250430166,0.0,0.0,0.12291948851626068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11572753362607745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09862474025925212,0.30244822946842537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078510116344396,0.0,0.0,0.18743122989607844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11205447890960324,0.0,0.0,0.1093392645507756,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MysteriousRock,2019/07/04,"what do you think of stephanie buttermore's explanation for her ""cheat days"" and ""all in"" video? i saw that she posted a response video today and I wanted to see what y'all thought of it since she brought up her orthorexic tendencies",9.5875,7.84368638636364,8.276363636363637,74.90954545454545,60.13636363636364,12.436363636363636,40.18181818181819,11.20814326018867,4.245218181818183,187,8,36,4,2,57,36,44,0.073,0.927,0.0,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,2,8,0,6,4,1,6,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,2,23,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901725495603934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309158762148712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585420382569888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721930578607509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28830186623657794,0.0,0.3572002204644706,0.0,0.0,0.4264882643277415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653848722247159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itouchedyourboob,2019/07/04,"I've been vegetarian for almost a year, it's fueling my disorder The meat restriction is definitely the reason I reached a new lw this year but I'm so sick of eating gross food 😩 everything is bland and I'm craving sushi like all hell

The only thing keeping me from going into back to meat is how much control I feel by refusing meat. I'm so sick of avocado and quinoa but the little goblin in my brain won't let me stop",2.1071590909090894,4.026599943181822,4.656818181818182,81.2677272727273,77.97727272727272,8.036363636363637,24.63636363636364,8.841846274778883,1.9279500000000005,337,12,69,8,8,119,65,88,0.281,0.635,0.083,-0.9766,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,6,0,6,5,1,3,1,15,12,7,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,2,5,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,6,1,8,9,2,9,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,6,39,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234117667761282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797783367091045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26099894738177554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622274093803706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679559025540505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392365245172146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101250287438778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821667861486035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2827127817650757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328743479703496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20781283940663006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390770962138732,0.0,0.11422323139248387,0.23432976223563504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17187044469590418,0.0,0.0,0.2258062107268441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17781599754991226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403860992523177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19546788679120908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553268222332454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011200210433863
EDAnonymous,xxxredvel,2018/12/22,"Mortified. For the past four days, my workplace has been closed for routine maintenance. Because I'd been home, I b/p with abandon. My ED brain is still in full-gear today at work so after eating my lunch, I went into the single-toilet staff restroom to purge. I felt it was safe anyway, because I'm the only one who brings their lunch and the office seemed empty.  I turned on the faucet and courtesy flushed the toilet, thinking it probably muffled the sounds of me heaving (I'm not usually very loud, but I was struggling since I ate so little for lunch with minimal liquids). After I came out of the bathroom and head back to my cubicle, my boss comes up to me and asked if I needed to go home. I looked at her confused and asked why, she said she could hear me in the restroom. I feel like shit because she looked so concerned and I can't tell if she *knows* or if she just thinks I'm sick. Either way, I hate worrying people and drawing attention to myself.

I also feel paranoid of her or anyone in the office knowing because I've been losing a lot of weight lately (starting at a high BMI so I guess the major deficit is making it come off fast) and I've been telling everyone it's from eating healthy and exercising. ",4.4497958191541045,5.542967090909091,5.0774671852212,84.01427564414197,70.2396694214876,7.3470102090422955,29.111327175498296,7.510576382923642,1.734356052503646,964,36,185,10,17,310,148,242,0.149,0.8079999999999999,0.042,-0.9807,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,2,9,8,2,2,13,0,11,12,3,2,0,44,41,20,0,5,9,0,4,1,0,0,2,4,2,0,5,17,7,2,9,1,0,6,2,6,0,2,11,10,31,2,28,29,3,32,0,2,2,0,15,14,1,9,12,117,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690676234504664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473113922549434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22657192014599165,0.0,0.0,0.09317913243788724,0.0,0.2954782521336975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527578422080264,0.0,0.13859643608877176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087698706073429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675153096519436,0.0,0.0,0.07815039771300658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479926359318739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579167950874045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254343604084947,0.08657026592367588,0.11635079516983825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886878972053646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349227499998734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11963912513590445,0.12436456258510713,0.0,0.1365774834011674,0.0,0.0,0.12803221361105108,0.2431047338806629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319356337329996,0.0,0.13669513351665166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05920191386921809,0.12145314251529114,0.0,0.0,0.20351959620578314,0.1355682484103436,0.0,0.10302200968859576,0.0,0.0,0.08088788993703919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985265579666801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211399249555308,0.09216205182767838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567901923314285,0.08401022591323601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306514033710455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526893092527425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031676470154064,0.0,0.0,0.12438845054383585,0.10024047947300364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857710843471699,0.0,0.09677366581428633,0.0,0.0,0.12668254906349374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21183148654326464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15529315603370847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486347529302003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180789993119058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13346149313132094,0.09998532444108127,0.0,0.09618620990636156,0.0,0.1475633150126905,0.0,0.11233410047062373,0.10934515398155777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821971866208526,0.12306310565093835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hairychestnuts,2018/12/22,"Does anyone else get hornier as they lose weight? Okay I know this is kind of a different post than usual, but I’ve noticed it so much recently. I’ve been restricting and losing a lot of weight, and as I feel happier with the number going down, I feel hornier. It’s like I can feel my body becoming more attractive, and I seriously want the ride now? ",4.140857142857144,5.269231371428571,5.210000000000001,82.64500000000002,71.0,9.6,28.285714285714285,9.888512548439397,2.5909428571428577,276,10,57,7,5,91,52,70,0.142,0.6409999999999999,0.21600000000000005,0.696,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,2,2,7,0,0,4,1,3,3,1,0,0,12,10,7,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,5,7,4,7,9,3,7,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209403402594191,0.19356614326846824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20864220724760255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2098424116924877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19737637520854992,0.0,0.0,0.16532113191405975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781456825080606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28656389418340256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870049470473267,0.0,0.1073649703736402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967263088470971,0.10382295843707563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922945176534153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42269600012565617,0.0,0.1606091099166015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887454941263608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21508142499953806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18092872372842944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865311578835352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806361363706627,0.0,0.11142719235646747,0.0,0.0,0.4600961047482812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soybeansaus,2018/12/22,"Mixed feelings Dumb first world story incoming: so the guy in front of me at the coffee shop today got the wrong order and offered me his untouched black coffee, which is what I was going to get! BLESSED RIGHT?? 

Except now I have nothing to order and the lady is staring at me like ""you really gonna take that large very free coffee and walk out"" and now that I've typed it I feel like I should have done that but panicked in the moment 

So now I'm sitting here listening to them play fleet wood Mac waiting for my egg white and avocado burrito which I can't even take next door to the cat cafe so I either dump it in their faces or eat it and ruin my 0 cal day


FUCKKKKKKK literally nothing is objectively wrong with my life why do good things still make me want to jump in the river  🙃🙃🙃 ",2.393453111305874,4.1312527668711665,3.718812445223488,89.13774539877303,76.54601226993866,6.374934268185803,22.07230499561788,7.1686216300943375,0.6072685363716035,623,17,132,7,14,204,111,163,0.125,0.778,0.09699999999999999,-0.8404,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,1,9,11,2,0,7,0,10,4,1,1,0,18,23,11,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,1,1,10,8,2,1,2,2,2,4,1,5,0,1,3,6,17,7,16,18,1,25,1,1,3,0,7,9,1,1,11,79,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448693989736626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19753442181761924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975155934433755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749301856153045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952012760479538,0.1378990741738229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641893186448796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084904049669363,0.0,0.10970212740603788,0.16190253148108547,0.15438193741601727,0.0,0.0,0.19112783553260726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363412192144884,0.188607231935298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884753229273854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20528721836005392,0.0,0.0,0.3704306937866856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12365852927660975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484465696974324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415222279624913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902657139649185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823907023806294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829677514593763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15926812196176476,0.11385277721258907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17417753472935926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220911189273465,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beetlejuicebroadway,2018/12/22,"can’t wait to go on vacation i live on an island where the only way of transportation is by car. no one bikes or walks because it’s just unrealistic with the type of weather/how spread out things are.


so whenever i go on vacation - we do SOOO much walking (the majority of my steps i get at home come from walking around my school campus or going to the track) and i always burn off whatever my family decides to eat or the starbucks drinks i treat myself to since we don’t have starbucks back home. sometimes my mom would rather shop than get a meal (thank god) and it’s like she reads my mind. 


our next trip is to japan which is heaven on earth because their portions are small& it’ll be winter so i have a chance to wear jeans and winter clothes which will cover up my body 🤩🤩 

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EDAnonymous,solarfizz,2018/12/22,should i eat right now i’m uhhhh so hungry? i know i shouldnt eat because i reached my calories for the day but i’m so hungry pls tell me not to eat. why shouldn’t i eat?,-2.5536666666666648,-0.8353876999999983,0.5800000000000018,102.77833333333334,101.0,3.6666666666666674,14.166666666666668,5.46131890053228,-1.1650833333333337,132,3,35,1,6,46,26,40,0.035,0.8959999999999999,0.069,0.2685,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580142930451966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367129402594184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.911816803391822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243118503403007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024843248321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947149642083304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20101957543053797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nobodysaynothing,2018/12/22,"1200 is a really low amount Long term recovery fam here...went down the rabbit hole lurking in this sub a few weeks ago. Some quality posts, if I do say so.

So anyways, I want to reflect back to this community something that I've noticed a lot of people say, which I think is a distortion but rarely gets called out as such: 1200 calories is not ""maintenance."" 1200 calories per day is a serious deficit for everyone except maybe my 4 foot 10 grandmother who sits in her chair all day watching her programs with the thermostat cranked up to 90.

It is typical for people to be hungry/feel like shit/get triggered to binge from eating 1200 calories per day. 1200 calories is not ""enough"" for almost anyone.

Thought it was important to call this out because whether you're still in the thick of it or headed towards recovery, the idea that 1200 should be ""enough"" for you is bound to add insult to injury by making you think you should ""be fine"" with an amount of food that will almost certainly leave you malnourished... And the other diet subs also perpetuate the idea and normalize it (don't even get me started on how disordered I think the other diet subs are...and how at least you guys arent deluding yourselves about what it is that you're doing...but that's another story).

So anyways, if you're eating 1200 or so, that's great if it's a step in the right direction for you....but it's not ""maintenance."" It's not like, ok you're eating ""enough"" now so you should feel fine now. If you still feel hungry and shitty and bingey at that level, that's expected. It's not a moral failing on your part.

Anyway, stay warm everybody. And merry Christmas.",6.242420720571147,6.55732795899054,6.290343682550226,79.68033704134155,65.94006309148264,9.702075377718746,31.19525153577951,9.549672527348893,2.713748264984228,1301,46,247,24,19,413,172,317,0.07200000000000001,0.82,0.10800000000000001,0.8931,1,0,1,0,0,0,55.0,0,8,0,1,19,12,1,0,16,1,19,8,2,4,2,50,30,22,0,10,14,0,4,2,0,4,0,2,0,1,25,10,6,1,9,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,2,7,16,8,36,21,12,34,1,2,1,0,17,17,0,10,15,157,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985935574778784,0.0,0.2256097605964192,0.0,0.0,0.0900879033348705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812562740179802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07876901978027914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662256867072554,0.0,0.06867172004208863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23006093108838085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179539994231648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910915182885327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34581389481431296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3491994305872417,0.0,0.07440569888141667,0.0,0.0,0.10764398044197906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17088097290459972,0.08047873604978391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362194566977374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765683350588018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241994202037596,0.0,0.11154336401277368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561363130220455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25434118612794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119282387221208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007232446584904,0.0,0.0,0.09969362957194544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09577285037285846,0.0,0.0,0.07519620131011533,0.0,0.1131742508763436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037521279561346,0.0,0.12825524744616434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199132722749165,0.0,0.1561976672848588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078896433383695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07216786767844666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620434159523522,0.0,0.17917106155289456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156358383810992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867251477014595,0.0,0.0,0.07973578900595503,0.12007222928463733,0.1799283443233126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165488943823968,0.0,0.08943324326969579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06644517130170953,0.0,0.0903627793970808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SpiNACHOcolate3,2018/12/22,"Oh BOSOM another secret account?! Hello! I have returned! Spinachocolate2 left in September sometime and managed to gain 2kg (57kg-59kg) and NOW she is back secretly trying t drop to 5kg. Hi again everyone, I've relapsed. Time to embrace this shit once more, for the 8th year!!!",2.4381512605042026,5.386968725490199,3.678879551820732,81.66352941176471,87.23529411764706,6.835854341736696,30.81512605042017,7.957251820313856,2.9837596638655466,219,12,36,5,7,71,45,51,0.139,0.7559999999999999,0.105,-0.4249,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,9,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,6,17,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669437814682518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690831245315826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343837413139793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3802120562025623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726758772588039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592095360008753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34610072057468605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040534841266812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375870531213613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22535061121540256
EDAnonymous,DalmySammy,2018/12/22,"Am I the only one? I feel like I am always questioning whether a product really has 0 calories and 0 sugar... ESPECIALLY IF IT'S A DRINK.
I always am cautious about it and end up jot touching it in fear it has any of it in it...",0.0991836734693905,1.9395597346938798,3.644244897959183,86.39004081632655,84.3061224489796,6.3689795918367365,24.08571428571429,7.554174236665415,1.2651926530612252,173,7,38,3,5,64,33,49,0.135,0.809,0.055999999999999994,-0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,4,1,5,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5275774358706119,0.0,0.0,0.2155866629916958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105620667720833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807884783113639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567392638457261,0.16029646715141585,0.2264814540257876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15488153341276725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148231406918821,0.2411104468864071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3551385642001059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20309319465013048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ManGuyDudeLad,2019/06/21,"Lmao, “total = 23,661” Fri 21 june - 
binge 1 = 5,180kcal at 2:37
Binge 2 = 5,010kcal at 4:30
Binge 3 = 1,095 kcal 6:49
Binge 4= 5,503 kcal 19:13
Binge 5= 6,873 kcal at 1:20
Total 23,661

——- 

Just typing in every calorie while stuffing my mouth felt like nothing, but as soon as i’m done i want to crawl inside a hole, dry up & die. 

Syke, if i wanna feel better i gotta binge again, and again and again till this last one today.

Ya boi wants to die, i can’t even think clearly i couldn’t even look myself in the mirror, i never felt so disgusted, even after a sexual assualt i never felt as disgsustting and filthy and dirty like this before.

Ah. Ahh, man. Oh well.",2.0581111111111103,3.869094903703704,3.132314814814816,92.6429166666667,77.74074074074075,5.6851851851851825,17.916666666666668,6.42735559955562,-0.2446666666666668,512,9,111,4,12,164,95,135,0.14300000000000002,0.726,0.131,-0.7683,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,1,10,5,1,0,3,1,3,1,1,0,5,21,13,12,2,5,3,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,1,2,1,4,5,10,4,14,7,2,18,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,1,14,54,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19517773272922287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328282332642176,0.0,0.0,0.15931602234454634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3739063222725661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18434209677962776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35693521387521865,0.0,0.15177270067459314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108238500822426,0.0,0.5188776288991734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468352224701407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760111087618716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15126922189577094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778646199384185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284575056801324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12206509823258516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542414252436548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707482606662672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249825202546516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196427253799767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,frhjfurffder,2019/06/21,Needing to be thinner than my sister I’m 5’8 and she’s 5’1 but the thought of me not being thinner and weighing less than her is terrifying lol. Like I would freak out if that happened which is uh not good but I’m not going to do anything about it lmao,-0.8983333333333334,1.1540947222222258,1.1722222222222245,97.345,101.77777777777777,3.1407407407407413,20.814814814814817,5.033348758259628,-0.2564296296296296,201,8,44,1,9,66,43,54,0.17600000000000002,0.644,0.18,0.0749,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,6,1,0,0,0,12,12,5,0,3,6,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,0,5,2,7,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919070053914338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706595921704432,0.3994496203327148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4211396767933007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326680333511668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531277850539222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780833543536649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3383090134445498,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Laycia,2019/06/21,"Do I have an eating problem? Hi,

I’m a long time lurker of this sub. I can relate to most of what is posted here. 

I have borderline personality disorder and I’m on two different types of meds. I’m not well so that might factor into this but I really do think I have an issue with food. 

I know this is a sensitive topic, I’m v. sorry if it upsets anyone:
Whenever I eat, I feel guilty. I cry a lot over my body and food. I am thin but I don’t feel it. I binge a *lot* and then go through periods of eating nothing. I think about food and my appearance so much that it is draining. I love food but I also resent it. 

I know no one here can diagnose me with anything, but I was wondering whether anyone could give me insight into this and if I should bring it up to my mental health team. I apologise if this is triggering to anyone, I just really appreciate this community and feel like I can relate to nearly every post. 

Thanks in advance :)",0.4377521290900929,2.725712685567011,3.3315239802779035,86.20049977588528,87.09278350515464,6.672882115643209,19.774988794262658,7.893859768569023,1.0567904975347375,727,22,151,16,23,257,108,194,0.114,0.762,0.12300000000000001,0.7771,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,1,1,6,0,18,11,1,1,0,38,36,18,0,6,10,0,4,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,14,10,7,0,9,1,0,4,3,3,1,2,1,4,26,4,19,32,4,18,0,0,0,1,5,8,0,9,5,113,40,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097313463087857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23862908479211886,0.0,0.09361407053847637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263607475336225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082740811111358,0.0,0.12495906185967175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154631216663482,0.0,0.11885407776087804,0.1303778178491415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34921196792903697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584697285756677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725601016167551,0.08126954472860977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5502319629948224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109128122704378,0.06465193478246749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092063486868082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873497547830955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503808485089726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05557696439855673,0.0,0.0,0.10067324967234534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934278873949679,0.102672055679723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263607475336225,0.0,0.11464244593907735,0.12068045902057682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362604935598876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10915495269968142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708613014826142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933008384303164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21789959995438876,0.0,0.0,0.1088521232696531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575402244473148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273440316958454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473412227260716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457845133738566,0.0,0.0,0.06633386314317767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111261395144014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228311919630816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233669231265736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,uwuhe312,2019/06/21,"DAE feel like theres no point in recovering idk i just see all these ppl on instagram or something who have ""recovered"" but still post only food and body stuff. whats the point if youre still obsessed with food, essentially having an ED? i get it, to be a healthy weight and not die, but really whats the point",4.761666666666667,5.186725761904763,5.349325396825396,84.76303571428572,69.15873015873018,9.474603174603176,26.86111111111111,9.516144504307137,1.9323682539682547,245,7,54,5,4,79,52,63,0.075,0.777,0.14800000000000002,0.7697,0,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,0,3,4,1,0,1,11,6,6,1,1,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,4,5,1,8,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,2,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21801627996062056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20370152969419367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924208310575593,0.14021825734380272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746708452941122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10254511712976608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958896118151971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14927529865623373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5566274019995919,0.0,0.18797633408397954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573821531976093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640504721840362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511013924356383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.313489502024036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22468688807382345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390089791013951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,humanbean95,2019/06/21,"Was doing so well for about a month, and now i'm 5 days deep into a B/P C&S relapse. I thought I had finally turned over a new leaf and beaten my ED. For the past month, I've been allowing myself to eat normally, haven't B/P'd nor C&S. Now I'm all alone doing an internship in another state, and I feel like my ED's come back in full force. My AirBNB host told me to feel free to eat any of their house food.. and of course I went crazy. Frozen bagels, biscuits, cake, and spring rolls (among others) have been chewed and spat. Nuts, dates, popcorn have been B/Pd. I just finished a 1500cal nut binge that I've been unable to purge.

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Half of me is grateful that I was unable to purge, because hopefully it puts this cycle to an end. I can't believe I've relapsed again after doing so well. I'm so tempted to wake up tomorrow and restrict, but I know it's the exact opposite of what I should do. I'm guessing I've already gained about 1-2lbs of fat from the BP, C&S episodes from the past 5 days and I'm going crazy. 

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Please, please. What can I do to escape this relapse? Please. Earlier today I thought to myself that I don't want to be doing this for the rest of my life... I felt strong in my resolve, but come midnight the ED monster appears and I can't resist her. If I gain weight, I  want to eat ice cream and drink cocktails and have burgers with my friends... I don't want it to be because I'm secretly binging then unsuccessfully purging at night. 

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How do you guys resist the evil ED monster when it rears its ugly head???",2.82113576079093,4.4039229498432615,3.7323040752351098,90.15665239932484,74.98746081504703,6.2870026525198925,26.37581384133109,6.844919456158928,1.0285783940197732,1227,45,258,11,26,393,174,319,0.094,0.7829999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.8873,0,1,1,0,0,0,67.0,0,1,1,5,14,10,2,0,13,0,27,12,4,2,2,40,51,21,0,7,4,0,4,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,14,15,9,1,8,2,1,6,6,2,2,1,12,5,30,9,35,36,3,39,0,0,1,0,7,10,0,4,23,151,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768136751920957,0.0934234984997534,0.0,0.0,0.5503690473602258,0.3086104713008969,0.05757113820667116,0.08877252057391974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509767548858507,0.0,0.10321488764748736,0.0,0.0,0.09538189302184744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14585275622361066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919632103285364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293375582595175,0.0,0.25988239611825026,0.0,0.0,0.07498289582193263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561243943713494,0.06048052745947787,0.08128607885305074,0.09273998185429236,0.0,0.0,0.10237020355571036,0.0,0.06540746419054896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04811375688121547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326161953670116,0.08382588769689317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688473186678121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08408565729856501,0.0,0.09768531480785786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046526465415543235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05979727494157375,0.04136019381732833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514828247008376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08176435324901259,0.0,0.07944689541319817,0.08294801106470333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163351295198358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787910356408857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08510584816013063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13441984779723748,0.0,0.0,0.0802469935540609,0.08089546424960405,0.0,0.0,0.09208486569964773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498025144794832,0.0,0.0,0.1030920608873377,0.15223752070597296,0.07847989809964559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086104713008969,0.0
EDAnonymous,violetblushxx,2019/06/21,"Cried in Therapy So I don't really like showing my emotions in my ED therapy, even though I really like and trust my therapist. I think it's partly a social anxiety thing- I like to use a humour filter when talking about my disorder, and I guess I just want my psychologist to like me, not think that I'm just some anorexic weirdo with no personality. Anyways I'm in 'recovery', I had another month IP admission back in May and certainly never want to do that again... But I'm also struggling big time with my weight and wanting to drop again (maintaining in the BMI 20-21 range since leaving hospital). I feel like the only reason that I haven't dropped too far since leaving is because I have zero self control anymore and therefore suck at restricting. So today my psychologist told me she wants me to have two 'non-restriction' days, which will be over the weekend and then I'll see her on Monday. She asked me what that would look like and if I'd be willing, I felt on the verge of tears for a while and then bam! Tears. What the actual hell is wrong with me. I don't even feel like I have an eating disorder, I'm certainly not underweight anymore, and I have no self control, but I cried about being asked to eat over the weekend?! I am absolutely terrified. I have been eating much less than she thinks, but I feel like I really need to do this to see what happens. What if I gain back what I just spent a month slowly losing, what if I look bloated and feel crap and ruin my night out tomorrow? Why can't I just bloody eat like I used to? Why do I feel so fat all the time? Gaaah I'm just so frustrated at myself and feel like the biggest idiot. Does anyone have any tips on how to manage trying to eat over the weekend (and what if I binge?!)... Or tips on how to deal with maintaining your weight in recovery? Thank you for reading my rant!",4.4453658536585365,5.283808734417349,5.4200585365853655,82.4926243902439,70.0569105691057,9.047631436314363,28.03913279132792,9.281916038205594,2.2216795880758804,1449,49,295,29,25,477,182,369,0.222,0.725,0.054000000000000006,-0.9957,0,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,0,4,24,24,5,1,14,0,25,9,2,8,4,65,59,33,0,10,15,0,9,10,0,4,1,1,0,3,15,18,8,3,11,5,1,0,9,9,0,2,5,14,47,15,38,47,5,43,1,2,4,0,15,20,3,8,31,197,62,2,0.0,0.0,0.07355971574653755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06028112065810293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05126078241243999,0.07904219028999929,0.05766526590052834,0.0,0.14951281901029226,0.052707240480948964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409396921901881,0.0,0.0,0.11592467624304532,0.0,0.04595076684456795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908949148672642,0.0,0.0,0.16560212673444455,0.04861367194626208,0.07771316311163058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278333874705493,0.0,0.06596528541679457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856612698425996,0.0,0.08479201920452119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957516483092653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286854541956912,0.2154050974056056,0.07237633527912148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303924041488955,0.0,0.06665802175738672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596324414331211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682671494517604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659993005943507,0.08433060544045007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033471834870145,0.0,0.0554127544559486,0.055893094088152594,0.058137473389057524,0.0,0.0,0.07073874420373917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057329660303181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162887184206563,0.0,0.0,0.06581864847700745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540010107136058,0.0,0.14487050241334276,0.07750288838817095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013572650600915,0.0,0.1572749383049834,0.0,0.0,0.12470973731271474,0.0,0.0,0.07684011365759054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880323148328618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06058734933890539,0.0,0.0693995022525318,0.1724065178658966,0.08752164420623412,0.050078924716011504,0.14490080851500164,0.07406017474030696,0.0,0.08790902114292383,0.0,0.07145114381897917,0.07202853582929086,0.0,0.0511778697764459,0.0,0.07363501600243931,0.0,0.0,0.13020772072262174,0.0,0.0,0.1778436056391733,0.0,0.0,0.18358433986922532,0.0,0.0,0.1360369134420483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05354757773149711,0.08241587111018236,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,justbesimple_,2019/06/21,"i tried so today we had work special events all day, of course with plenty of free food and drink. i normally fast for most of the day, and only eat one meal within an hour that’s low calorie. today i was sitting in the morning part of the event, and i started getting nauseous because all i had was black coffee all day and they had all of these healthy snacks like bananas and trail mix and i just was like ... you know what. you can eat a snack. you can have a healthy snack and you don’t have to starve yourself and you can just eat when you’re hungry! 
and of course it doesn’t work that way. i ate one thing and all of the sudden i couldn’t stop eating and i ate probably like 5x the amount of calories i normally do in a day. i was like a monster.
i just feel so cheated out of life. all i do i think about food and i’m always tired or guilty and there’s nothing in between. i just want to like and not be worried for everything all of the time.",1.1997721916732154,3.049601074626868,2.331809374181724,97.18692065985859,80.54228855721394,5.027598847865934,21.52422100026185,5.750287758089431,-0.08346368159203976,740,22,171,4,19,235,105,201,0.084,0.7809999999999999,0.135,0.8041,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,1,5,1,2,9,9,1,0,11,0,18,15,0,0,7,39,27,18,0,4,6,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,17,13,1,3,1,1,0,4,2,0,2,9,2,22,8,22,16,10,23,0,1,1,0,7,6,0,2,20,114,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587790779170728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775672789440545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32824960376444606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465150946054065,0.0,0.5208129892062605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11435946554147065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06433881896554948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077299531395161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648018179729676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531054480287646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06993044130404966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08987679996956884,0.31082702932990736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493458708819121,0.12209486448730765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724488056936405,0.0967754415839617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13779377161385686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13719146876675756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09006455909155173,0.0,0.0,0.10638239146280024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845358236524049,0.08153336135695592,0.0,0.0,0.07419749476387735,0.14624923552301122,0.24122647712172804,0.0,0.0,0.08639089994166997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505230877698038,0.1010010384250172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852715311915866,0.12922332083416785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sidthewanker,2019/06/21,"i wish i could be like my sister my sister has always been underweight, shes naturally skinny ig. when i was younger shed constantly make me feel bad about my fat body by calling me a buffalo, a fatass and things like that. it hurt a lot since it was coming from an adult, shes 16 years older than me. looking at her just hurts so bad, i can't believe she weighs less than me.
nowadays the teasing has stopped and she doesn't comment as much anymore. the pain is still there tho. my heart aches whenever i look at her. today she wore one of my shorts and her thigh gap was so visible, its saddening that im fatter than her.
now she judges me because i don't want to go outside, i don't want to shop for swimsuits, i only want to look at clothes but not try them. i don't want to put the whole blame on her but she played a big role in the development of my ed. 

i just want her to call me skinny :(",1.84593253968254,3.3783476772486765,3.2517956349206365,92.78816964285716,77.51851851851852,6.4181216931216944,22.92361111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.5919547619047618,697,21,160,8,16,228,117,189,0.162,0.7929999999999999,0.045,-0.9291,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,0,10,9,1,0,9,0,16,8,6,1,0,20,30,10,0,7,5,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,4,4,1,1,2,1,3,6,6,0,1,5,4,36,3,20,23,4,18,0,2,3,0,22,7,0,1,10,105,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182855760059164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14098102567422147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373894392725658,0.0866572683619623,0.0,0.0,0.16016166831854178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790379802733082,0.0,0.0,0.29031531222328144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224552167374178,0.0,0.15362064861548916,0.0,0.11350037876206027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187858562385067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079080134636367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684561085965812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30436289556058344,0.0,0.15355338832652982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138900947211107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3581269106196549,0.0,0.0,0.12085635238878795,0.0,0.0,0.0948905516380978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450136664329286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632890722176828,0.108116405865383,0.15126451331247354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290652232986065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175933060074197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135263454184089,0.1188491793379562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444244604389954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13474771739141064,0.0,0.0,0.0965149158535818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4192378636591429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871262882878598,0.16347293184145514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09154410980424044
EDAnonymous,dndhdhdhdh,2019/10/05,"Bread! I just bought a bread that was not the 40 calorie bread or even the sugar free bread! It was a 12 grain, big slices, and looks delightful! Yay!",0.375,2.7936541666666663,0.7083333333333357,103.34250000000002,90.66666666666666,4.333333333333334,14.166666666666668,5.985473137389443,-1.0543333333333331,115,2,27,1,4,34,24,30,0.0,0.6729999999999999,0.327,0.9129999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,2,5,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6182199001537723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7860051876761754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ohgodwhyjesus,2019/10/05,"NSFW Embarrassing masturbation post... Thanks to the ED, my sex drive has become unstable. I’ve never been big on masturbation, but I would always notice how my appetite would go away after I did it. Now since my ED has gotten worse, I keep friggen doing it even though I don’t really have a desire to. It’s perfect for when I’m trying to fall asleep on an empty stomach, or like if I need to tide myself over until I certain time. 

I feel like a disgusting sex-crazed animal 😭",5.078771929824561,5.5404638421052645,6.608157894736844,75.88627192982459,68.47368421052633,9.280701754385962,26.35964912280702,9.2995712137729,2.119491228070176,375,10,71,7,6,129,72,95,0.14,0.6659999999999999,0.19399999999999998,0.7662,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,1,1,4,0,9,3,2,1,3,13,16,7,0,5,3,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,3,1,11,5,11,11,0,15,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,2,8,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20680503085829446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335113316032895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744926918098797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16415819954089256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566919501028162,0.17755688891941646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14125090082551894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22091360159182544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24284799249574204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842891188352043,0.1916892223800788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282964219393851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380324338833571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592209656101763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20559469800761604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288220633760157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24418910003705505,0.0,0.1449255610947539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874221545311094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532832983061112,0.3531110981379338,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kilocalzz,2019/10/05,"laxatives question+possible addiction so i've been taking laxatives for about 2 weeks everyday. now i gotta mention before taking them this often(everyday) i would ocassionally take them but it didnt affect my digestive sistem that much. 
do you guys think its possible to get addicted by taking 2-4 laxatives a day for 2 weeks straight?",4.8973365617433435,8.294242898305086,6.0971428571428605,66.3613559322034,77.64406779661017,10.829055690072641,30.462469733656178,10.290406445055957,4.7273079903147694,277,13,41,11,7,92,48,59,0.0,0.9540000000000001,0.046,0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,4,11,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,5,7,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4571415926181273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784133741479531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352195369503386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095437044969676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20760585359674666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413127004598365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363709539284787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348779206120214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.630581737606454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434780413753367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3363685884165576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894325764301866,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Goth_Lisa,2019/10/05,"How do you get help? I don't want to be like this anymore. How do I get help? 

Thank you.",-4.2264285714285705,-3.236937571428573,-1.180595238095238,112.87767857142859,115.1904761904762,2.1,10.011904761904765,3.1291,-2.493866666666667,65,1,20,0,4,22,14,21,0.049,0.52,0.431,0.8604,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,3,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4305093611716508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535974097248658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5819345469439554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21207874522126213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996598496121099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560427178050632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,significant-apricot,2019/10/05,"It's like I've never been away Second day of a binge. Planning on fasting until Monday morning. It's so long since I've done this I'm afraid I'll fail and it'll trigger me into binging more.

It's been so long since I've been down this rabbit hole. Send help.",-0.33646616541353325,1.815658210526319,1.6629072681704289,97.64368421052635,89.70175438596495,3.2571428571428567,16.914786967418543,3.1291,-1.0147423558897244,206,5,46,0,7,68,39,57,0.066,0.835,0.099,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,4,6,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,4,0,1,1,6,1,1,12,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,8,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048493793999609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092557124813424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3320445197794637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174847832904622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585192018146378,0.0,0.0,0.5742898466962818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502505556325855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5368083481449446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,signpostsally,2019/10/05,":/ tfw a month ago, your parents were concerned you weren’t spending your time at the gym well, so they got onto you for being so chubby and out of shape, two weeks ago, your father announces that he wants to lose weight so he’s decided the whole family’s going on a diet now, then last night, your parents yell at you for wasting away (-7lbs, roughly)

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ guess i’ll die",4.810000000000001,5.719459459459461,4.692810810810808,87.77786486486491,69.27027027027027,7.0010810810810815,26.962162162162162,6.742157984588678,1.0928032432432435,296,9,59,2,5,91,58,74,0.15,0.823,0.027000000000000003,-0.8625,3,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,7,1,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,7,5,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,3,3,8,1,10,3,1,17,0,1,0,0,13,7,0,1,9,35,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3749508990120299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870428116818328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21949595223788426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1993764225510555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201961314690122,0.0,0.1691499707878511,0.0,0.2329829680629825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723947152444811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366061473575498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688113938773244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19847149973062744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696750586317098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12332304921780952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20659756153715228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474382859783377,0.0,0.16964662508806413,0.2575410383025741,0.19015726727043036,0.0,0.0,0.2361239606810252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,telsnspbwld,2019/10/05,"I swear my sister puts me down on purpose I bought American Apparel high-waisted shorts because my old ones were getting too big/old. When I was showing my sister, she was like, ""wow those look REALLY tiny. Are you sure you can even fit them??"" 

I feel like that's super rude to say to anyone, not just someone you know has an ED and body image issues. 

Not to suck my own dick, but I know I am clearly skinny to other people where no one would even question me getting a small size. (I am ""severely"" underweight) Plus the American Apparel high-waisted shorts don't even look tiny like how low-waisted Hollister/Abercrombie shorts do, ya know. It felt like she was trying to make me insecure on purpose. 

She's always trying to literally squeeze into an XS despite being ~25lbs heavier than me (we're the same height), but I never say anything because I don't want her to feel bad. I dunno, if she thinks she can fit into an XS, I really don't understand why she would question me not being able to fit a small.",3.98621212121212,5.4474431767676785,5.052949494949496,82.34609090909092,71.77777777777777,7.906262626262626,27.84646464646465,8.447377352677275,2.0248682828282827,791,29,150,13,15,260,116,198,0.087,0.764,0.149,0.8893,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,4,1,1,8,11,2,1,7,0,18,3,3,2,3,31,34,7,0,4,7,2,4,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,4,4,1,0,10,1,1,1,8,4,0,2,6,8,32,7,15,24,2,19,0,0,2,1,18,15,2,4,7,97,36,0,0.1335994201372089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116541998056294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341582090117828,0.0,0.1099409393645891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154993536306222,0.16288193298131382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839883793909267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2647234709834593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510376206959585,0.0954434524404484,0.12827639451854514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13960036581794832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823102449842357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944308440419267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22026824214219104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610797132466665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243797300829769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917865035808607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10304010895281526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28038023518510546,0.0,0.1810608493302842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926210161873649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13430431764534045,0.299323852434668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17117441909712725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124872423623788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092931719199468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11319835513575195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12591587239512672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560511391577483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814104731538098,0.0,0.0,0.1390817079994437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880039943854444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055269661333134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18981038982169812,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Alt4omc,2019/10/05,"I don't have an ED, but I'm constantly worried I'm going to develop one (sorry if this is a garbage post or not welcome here) I'm a 14 year old male, to preface this. I absolutely hate everything about how I look. I'm some fat obese goblin creature with a grossly wide face and no good qualities physically. I actively self harm, which is literally my only coping mechanism and thing that's keeping me from starting to try to starve myself other than I guess binge eating might be the right term. I constantly think about my weight, how I look, how much I'm eating, how I'm eating too much, how disgusting my body is, etc. I hate it so much and I can't stand it. The only other things keeping me from doing it are that I'd like to keep my hair, and that one of the only things that I enjoy at all is cooking, which I'm complete garbage at anyway.",5.270862068965517,4.970621948275866,6.454620689655173,79.77744827586207,68.02298850574712,9.488735632183909,30.618390804597702,9.120678840339163,2.3973259770114943,665,23,137,11,10,225,104,174,0.18899999999999997,0.7340000000000001,0.077,-0.9719,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,11,8,3,0,7,0,11,10,4,5,1,22,29,13,0,1,4,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,16,5,7,3,1,1,0,1,4,4,0,2,0,4,17,4,14,27,7,13,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,5,7,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200804755572993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13404406311156095,0.27631214254079617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39245502038124136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425820467851356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489971079834516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726578087607123,0.10723113077550456,0.0,0.0,0.14083674516918665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524428470341285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3409061065796585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062459081299857964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21471682543257556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356243667289271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819444857434824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415283544267032,0.0,0.17326347065284206,0.2916978545955265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12244109565932967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917975653290396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337122483834055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143113092174373,0.09049003284338608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548055373581361,0.08191853289952626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679901896976809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556819448373674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983378439158028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232861059033822
EDAnonymous,OneSpecialNobody,2019/10/05,"I'm going out to eat with my bf's family tonight and I am FREAKING out I'm so fucking scared and also pissed @ myself bc lol, normal people would be happy about getting a free restaurant meal but I'm just scared.

The worst part: it's a steakhouse!!! I don't eat meat y'all 😂 

He knows I have an eating disorder and obviously knows I don't eat meat and said they have salads so I could get a salad. But!! I looked at the menu online and their ""salads"" all have like meat, cheese, eggs, etc on them so I dont want to be eating a pile of plain leaves that would be so fucking embarrassing :((

Ughh ughh ugh. I dont want to do this. They have sides like sweet potatoes and veggies so maybe I'll just order those so I won't look weird. I haven't eaten all day anyways. So I wont feel as guilty.

If anybody has advice or support I would appreciate it <3",0.3851675977653599,2.540403871508381,2.271449720670393,94.71834776536316,85.70391061452514,4.697318435754191,17.888547486033517,5.985473137389443,-0.3824147486033525,659,16,148,5,20,218,107,179,0.175,0.6729999999999999,0.152,-0.7554,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,4,0,12,16,3,3,7,1,21,14,1,0,3,28,39,19,0,8,6,0,1,2,1,5,0,1,0,0,5,9,11,0,3,0,1,1,7,10,0,0,2,5,19,7,11,28,5,9,0,0,2,2,8,5,3,2,4,89,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042140601903133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854901294492197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983911509042106,0.0,0.0,0.07947478967925248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412351603699119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888552242014689,0.0,0.0,0.6304882367671211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743685049799534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617266567331945,0.0,0.06231007193133298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227852983945104,0.12876782559579508,0.0,0.07003588898682435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131183323979678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354507557926535,0.0,0.0,0.13048546016958892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041038282732283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20696858336485535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380364401629422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207417186096627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344882543688702,0.0,0.08543392267663041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722235983341375,0.0,0.2467545293163803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13984281925106515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537148283714446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26262256939252104,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MargMiller777,2019/10/05,"I have to Get a Thyroidectomy I have a Large Thyroid Nodule it’s grew greatly over the past year so I have to get it removed my dr is afraid it’s cancerous and says that even if it’s not it’s dangerous that it’s so big 

the last time we went into his office he had Four students waiting to feel it because he stated that they would probably never see another Nodule so obvious 

“You have such a skinny neck that it makes a large Nodule appear even larger” was one of there comments as There hands are around my neck

I didn’t mind living with it I would wear my hair down and Over my shoulders and I didn’t think people would notice it sometimes felt like it was hard to swallow or even breathe but I think that’s my freak mind playing tricks on me.... but my mom notices and got worried  because thyroid cancer runs In my family

My family is dealing with a lot and I know I would only place a lot of extra worry on my mom if I don’t get it removed so I decided to go through with the surgery

 And my only thought is if I gain a bunch of weight I will literally want to die... I’ve spent my whole life worrying about 5-10 pounds and every post I’ve read about people getting there thyroid removed they all say they’ve gained a ton of weight unexpectedly

My surgery is next week and All I can think about is how this is going to ruin my life",2.8055327468230686,4.2053676845878165,4.116482567611598,88.13714809384165,74.66308243727599,6.793157380254155,25.226621049201693,7.348242739294969,1.067622222222223,1060,35,225,12,22,349,148,279,0.102,0.8420000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.94,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,1,1,2,2,16,8,2,1,11,0,23,19,8,2,4,46,44,20,1,8,7,2,7,1,0,5,8,2,0,0,18,14,4,1,8,2,1,9,5,5,0,2,10,10,33,3,27,29,8,28,0,1,1,0,13,10,0,7,8,150,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909608038613017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09261856527838476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12684487955323218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726172261650482,0.0,0.0,0.10797815221982968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20615433631710825,0.0,0.08765904613032685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19616122742829556,0.0,0.05260626551157287,0.0,0.09989569447272227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21742855409011214,0.0,0.11825781794763872,0.0,0.08321110757393703,0.11470559122934125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320031767912113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05717822337634326,0.08480731701324701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697449777750307,0.05082918678335708,0.0,0.09187012628509914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769039083711507,0.0,0.0,0.06944818836776058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21010354174676069,0.2437031690477325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024284811729981,0.0,0.11064880449375973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369027804226805,0.0,0.0,0.07050088737509212,0.15825576710357694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09931892554193587,0.1442578857869041,0.0,0.1087007213123033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964253702913677,0.0,0.11217381586894144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406917441714997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16547518911840575,0.0,0.0,0.08290722225725053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028992285478488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999958527941751,0.0,0.08259694794048182,0.06066715511100825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613660888754031,0.0,0.08345543013698327,0.25338786572747224,0.0,0.09644706736297858,0.0,0.11615808268542754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31697611653686386,0.0,0.2956310205091617,0.0,0.0,0.06699900540035783
EDAnonymous,cso94,2019/10/05,"I told my coworkers I was trying to quit smoking And every single one of them goes ""You're going to eat so much more when you quit!""

So I went and bought another pack over my lunch break.",1.0773076923076914,3.1763530769230783,2.735576923076924,92.81567307692309,82.33333333333333,5.951282051282053,17.442307692307693,7.1686216300943375,0.06212307692307695,146,3,32,2,4,48,31,39,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,7,0,4,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31706218362896593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30940085012519103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547604687770907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17184431309065598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222277354210941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20489430252499116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6432172030033018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889282896873577,0.0,0.20528994813105325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803007924252033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pestilentflesh,2019/10/05,"Between a rock and a hard place...? -TW- Mentions of behaviours and weight. I could do with some advice maybe? 

So, I've convinced myself that my ED is ""not that bad"" atm. And honestly, I've worked hard to decrease ED behaviours over the last year or so. I've deleted MFP, don't use my Fitbit anymore, don't exercise obsessively, don't restrict like crazy (mostly to stay somewhat functional) etc. etc.

But maybe things ate worse than I thought. I still weigh food, still count cals in my head, still count steps (thanks Samsung Health :/). Aaand this morning I weighed myself and it was my lowest ever weight.

A weird feeling honestly, a mixture of ""fuck yeah, finally under 90"" and ""oh fuck, now I can't go above 90 again"". And, I'm starting to kinda worry about my long term health, I'm in my late 20's and I've been underweight for a long time. I feel totally fine currently, but I don't wanna fuck my health up later on in life, since I can finally see through the haze of depression to a future that I actually want. 

Basically, I just don't know what to do, well, I do, option is recovery, but I mean, that's terrifying right? I'm not ready to let go of this. 

Also, sorry for weird formatting, on mobile.",2.5940177195685687,4.736232122881361,3.893636363636365,86.25359784283516,77.34745762711864,7.3417565485362095,25.134052388289675,8.296473431620573,1.6580915254237292,935,34,188,18,22,306,141,236,0.158,0.754,0.08800000000000001,-0.9604,2,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,0,0,1,12,15,3,1,8,1,16,15,1,1,2,32,35,14,0,3,7,0,6,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,9,8,6,1,5,2,1,3,8,8,1,0,4,7,21,7,26,29,7,33,0,1,1,3,1,10,3,6,20,110,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.10954486964817337,0.0,0.0,0.1096944696854553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977043260323529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113269817793194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09372839236383902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08962663264763138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096685228198917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503884139707552,0.0,0.1015412435034716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351919102306335,0.0,0.0,0.24594014105446366,0.0,0.0,0.1357394178803167,0.0,0.0,0.3113343349789074,0.0,0.0,0.12759441955269932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011171970323352,0.0,0.11520620763312348,0.3579660439380366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06169251512817023,0.09150296002348214,0.12662874059143578,0.0,0.0,0.11478853437745955,0.07928915846085273,0.05484221421056315,0.0,0.0,0.19868461631731896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255508472197712,0.12227880753676047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11728277826793786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586531646997293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08945285042655178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09285865081950316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566049154137787,0.07945479923556226,0.11964909346874016,0.26894141237998315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334949436315014,0.0,0.0,0.07457735833344879,0.0,0.0,0.08911807956710853,0.06545690235659582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969524395859071,0.0,0.0,0.06621101780977652,0.0,0.0,0.27339315243842355,0.10093089454943614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172311319444166,0.1140005915422792,0.11439762592976975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07228866009054853
EDAnonymous,booticuss,2019/10/05,"I like fat on everyone but me I'm not talking about obese fat, just some chonk. I think chubby girls and chubby boys are really cute, and I'd love to hug one. 
Meanwhile, a smidgen of fat on my body and I want to die.

Does anyone feel similar about this, or is it just me?",1.2610344827586208,2.7349306206896564,2.971931034482761,94.41617241379312,79.0,6.708965517241379,20.220689655172414,7.554174236665415,0.3645200000000002,208,5,50,3,5,69,44,58,0.078,0.667,0.255,0.905,0,0,0,0,0,1,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,7,4,0,0,12,7,5,1,1,5,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,6,4,7,7,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,2,1,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462645859247657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39121187422254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655252590680755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082102866767921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365396744149202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780815695991354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720658418879128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317871871738158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386580488045919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256266499250699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830829002064277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256738497626881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20773513042258693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astrugglingemt,2019/10/05,"they don’t mean it like that, right? when they tell me i “look so good with all the weight i’ve lost”. i know they’re just trying to be supportive...right? but they don’t know how encouraging it is for me to relapse and lose more. they don’t know how shitty it makes me feel thinking about how i used to look. they always tried to make me feel beautiful before i lost the weight, but now that i’m not as big as i was its suddenly not beautiful? did they really think that all along? or is it just poor choice  of wording?",2.082803261977574,3.5494187889908275,3.098470948012232,94.4192864424057,76.70642201834863,7.046279306829766,19.45056065239552,7.793537801064563,0.2870419979612642,404,8,96,6,9,129,65,109,0.138,0.698,0.16399999999999998,0.6346,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,6,3,9,6,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,6,2,27,24,11,0,0,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,3,2,0,8,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,4,6,15,3,11,19,3,5,0,3,2,0,8,2,0,1,4,61,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14672080291998255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15004396275949566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17831563495039487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147897356439585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907193023741209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614600016886415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961458173099112,0.19726832440331585,0.3849703572816358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23540347683922855,0.0,0.0,0.19207521662539576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296160358897304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011699541197536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541203153992548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259704690536888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394331824039778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522926270786976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294452165206422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowcalkatie,2019/10/05,SOS just ate 200g completely uncooked red kidney beans guys what is going to happen to me???!!!!,6.671666666666668,6.4015206111111125,7.1633333333333375,75.765,65.1111111111111,9.422222222222222,29.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,2.289044444444444,73,2,13,1,1,24,17,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5875253413008931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184647115238837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5548431233406143,0.4955232681972769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Pokerpuko,2019/10/05,"Seem to be going insane or pervert My BP session used to be because i wanted food but not the fat
Well.
I didn't really crave anything today but bped anyway
Cause i wanted to p.
What the fuck?
Anybody like this? It's a bit ruffling for me :(
Felt like after a workout.",-0.09450000000000004,2.23902543636364,2.323977272727273,90.64596590909092,94.63636363636364,3.4772727272727275,19.602272727272727,5.148860815047168,-0.10113636363636358,209,7,40,1,8,71,45,55,0.23800000000000002,0.66,0.102,-0.8263,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,0,3,3,1,2,0,10,10,3,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,2,1,5,3,5,6,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,26,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291537589207907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975026509085112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30401270716853124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2860612487456929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2673709916853665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33672214516835264,0.0,0.0,0.2574372936412939,0.0,0.0,0.1582586227869989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27208880519946504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17839242503245134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25350495228431663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26395317069121016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24050518225631554,0.0,0.0,0.3284928769967985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25037434119846125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ViceroyInTheMorning,2019/10/05,Joaquin Phoenix in that Jimmy Kimmel Interview sounds like he has an ED Like I think most of us can relate: https://youtu.be/tZNBy-BdM2A?t=38,9.546818181818182,13.314091863636367,5.863636363636362,72.61545454545455,62.18181818181818,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.5546545454545457,119,4,17,2,2,32,21,22,0.0,0.792,0.20800000000000002,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,9,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5826595012834669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820950495250064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7172944156290251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Letmecomplain,2019/10/05,"Thinking of relapse Tw: Im not sure how but I feel like this could be triggering

I have been gaining so much lately. I like to think that I’m recovering right now but the truth is I can’t stop fucking eating. I eat Chick-fil-A everyday and I don’t eat anything healthy at all. 

Today I was looking at gonewild posts and just comparing myself to all the other girls. I used to be that skinny. I want to get to my lowest weight so bad. I wasn’t even underweight but I looked a million times better. I haven’t restricted for probably 6-9 months now but I am so tempted to go back to it. I desperately want to lose weight again.",0.6564102564102576,2.9477943846153885,2.676153846153845,91.3121794871795,85.92307692307692,5.9282051282051285,22.51282051282051,7.3011,0.8943743589743591,490,18,106,8,15,164,86,130,0.16899999999999998,0.6609999999999999,0.17,-0.1951,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,10,8,1,0,3,0,12,7,1,3,4,23,24,10,0,3,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,6,2,3,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,3,5,16,5,12,18,3,15,0,1,2,1,1,3,1,0,12,69,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13101589967219082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12242232172161754,0.13293332969896035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080791491833827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12711587606565866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4887333697952419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10515641069255187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805011356049362,0.11373933915406327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147186669747131,0.08318042226996125,0.0,0.0904824600869305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171973641787544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17959531469463036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555634948858136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26739185943769683,0.17811476977627425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707954925040185,0.0,0.11703734309793452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15247874578053444,0.0,0.17165482998602627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596409155860734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331063183753788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500531230695471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040301107310361,0.0,0.0,0.09283637287050132,0.0,0.15091204391453988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750593914554618,0.0,0.0,0.18781184309753488,0.0,0.0,0.3877486976353652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Sushisnac,2019/10/05,"My new body goal is a REPTILE Me: i need to stop comparing my weight to my friends’, I’ll never truly know their weights just by looking at their instagram pictures and my dysmorphia will always say i weigh more

Friend: look at this record breaking python they caught in Florida which weighs more than me lol

Me (who weighs more than the skinny legend python): the universe has spoken",7.8771126760563375,8.039266253521127,6.29024647887324,81.57931338028173,62.521126760563384,9.353521126760565,33.24295774647887,8.841846274778883,2.613222535211268,308,11,56,4,4,90,55,71,0.062,0.8490000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.4498,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,7,2,0,1,6,8,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,6,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,12,2,8,6,3,8,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,0,3,35,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20314693705842105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711883731076335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772493010525571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13417487419574844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4100380758002079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18102930025053388,0.1882985062404332,0.2357952987165446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415269810276944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041148850913585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5946019830476077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,a-n-g-e-l-a,2019/10/05,Do I have BDD How do you know you're skinny? I always feel like I could totally lose more pounds although I'm slightly thinner than average for 5'2. In pictures I look good but I have an obsession with my stomach being too fat so I constantly skip meals. I'm light to carry but how do you know if you're actually too skinny?,1.4927292110874215,3.749801940298511,3.641364605543711,86.00358208955225,81.83582089552239,6.8136460554371014,24.49680170575693,7.957251820313856,1.5672831556503204,258,10,52,5,7,88,47,67,0.08800000000000001,0.853,0.06,-0.413,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,0,7,5,4,2,1,11,13,7,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,9,2,5,11,2,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.3382556401501873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28841946178982464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3745780871140789,0.0,0.2767515639764674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526382911478494,0.24762870674216886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29073229627639513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809916660483662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934328677031812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910773916852637,0.3877843006599029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,supremesmolbean,2019/03/18,"I'm screaming but no one hears my calls for help I'm relapsing. After 5 years of being good I feel like I've relapsed. I was in Mexico for spring break and only had access to two meals a day. I lost weight and damn do I love it. I feel so good. So amazing. 

I'm thinking about getting smaller and eating smaller meals. I've told my SO and friends in hopes someone stops me. But I don't want to stop. I want to not be noticed, but I am scared to relapse. You get so ill. I'm so conflicted. My life is also spiraling out of control with my abusive dad and my BDD and anxiety have sky rocketed. At least I'm in control of one thing. It feels so good. I'm sorry everyone. 

I don't think I can be strong. I want to cope this way.",-0.5884210526315812,1.4789328598726144,1.9880455916862232,95.52687562856184,89.828025477707,5.088702648340597,21.002011397921557,6.5966054737557815,0.31392484076433114,557,20,130,7,19,191,94,157,0.185,0.574,0.24100000000000002,0.9572,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,4,8,13,1,1,1,0,12,7,0,2,0,26,33,16,0,4,4,1,4,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,8,4,5,5,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,6,18,9,18,26,1,14,0,1,0,1,8,6,1,1,7,75,22,0,0.0,0.17384490489138582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733577596732613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224407653561394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982243381044444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329128696927248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094625362935567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013610849798648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020184182133566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225654145738329,0.10482023217001524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133592227134404,0.0,0.15331531269980594,0.0,0.0,0.3691974229798437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536952227833576,0.0,0.09834654599289866,0.0,0.0,0.14573084082491253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363607107609217,0.07168232984465793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16016746034049725,0.0,0.1324248677614734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704716642186632,0.0,0.0,0.1988490543711452,0.11159082817603097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468971291826708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12431945369952728,0.0,0.0,0.16424641004695134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24533701882168424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747744280485043,0.18803066498858856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020184182133566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332881749190424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259626279845395,0.11646332313253605,0.0,0.17867128828094672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944859658062637
EDAnonymous,stressedaboutdessert,2019/03/18,"I feel so stupid I'm really worried about my eating habits. I'm dieting (1200 cals/day) but seriously consider dropping below to lose weight faster. I think about self-harm/suicide at least 5 times a week. I took the screening in the stickied post and it said I'm at risk for disordered eating...but I'm definitely overweight. So of course I'm panicking, torn between letting things happen and fighting my way out. This is mostly a ramble but I'm so scared right now. I obsess over food - what I just ate, what I will eat next, what I'll have tomorrow. And if I deviate I freak out and get anxious.

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I told my bf about it and how I'm feeling and he said he was proud of my discipline (sticking to 1200) but I'm scared that I'm spiraling. I have OCD and it feels like my old rituals are better, but they're channeling into food instead.

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I'm sorry for the rambling. I'm super stressed about this.

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TL;DR: I'm really worried I'm developing disordered eating habits and I want it to stop, but I have to lose weight because I'm super unhealthy where I'm at (5 ft 7 in, 245 lbs). What do I do?",1.4913333333333334,3.9084710222222254,3.3386666666666684,87.15600000000002,83.22222222222223,6.4444444444444455,24.555555555555557,7.699297019823105,1.4800222222222228,880,35,175,16,25,294,123,225,0.251,0.634,0.114,-0.9853,0,0,0,0,2,1,47.0,0,0,0,6,12,16,2,5,5,0,10,10,0,1,0,27,37,18,0,2,7,0,5,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,12,11,10,2,4,1,0,1,0,11,0,0,6,8,18,5,23,29,2,24,1,2,1,0,7,12,0,2,9,92,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31814579759018985,0.3567901392988247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105720145409805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05966429782214674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656336336621681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06312191940215252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22434873865283111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004547315633272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484671310587451,0.06992263005908833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367040822220137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05113616746676405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08655141873520246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008483572319278,0.0,0.047817267026960014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21899640437081244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409223057694876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102704391759931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09373814734974396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254037367264744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358556455559367,0.18620496837795372,0.0,0.19598189028854746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210600827108476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095641626667906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818287140360649,0.11211662106217636,0.0,0.0,0.10706045211486727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06502446170214876,0.06271498524462549,0.0,0.0,0.05707227951675459,0.0,0.0,0.09352470717080118,0.1087438312637436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772979746188075,0.07768940871682098,0.07851021903456018,0.23837318681732786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198795646947406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567901392988247,0.0
EDAnonymous,Lilac_Neptune,2019/03/18,"Short survey about the comorbidity between anorexia nervosa and OCD Hello everyone! 

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I have created a short survey: [https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/BHBF87Q](https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/BHBF87Q)

This aims to gather some information about the comorbidity between anorexia nervosa and OCD. You may participate even if you have never gotten a formal diagnosis of OCD. 

I am doing a research paper for a university psychology class and wanted some input for my paper. I need a quite specific subject, therefore I am only looking into anorexia nervosa and OCD, and not any other eating disorder. 

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Thank you so much for your time, feel free to ask me any questions here or via PM. 

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As a side note, I myself have an eating disorder and that's why I chose this subject. ",9.31714285714286,12.370225793650794,8.803365079365081,54.38885714285718,60.904761904761905,9.166984126984126,36.40952380952381,9.642632912329526,4.291958095238096,654,30,78,13,10,208,81,126,0.044000000000000004,0.889,0.067,0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,4,0,1,5,2,0,0,9,0,7,2,0,1,1,20,14,10,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,13,3,12,12,3,6,0,0,1,0,9,4,0,6,2,61,17,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245550130825685,0.4761246051499466,0.1776416421072013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210483912099132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299385949446052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672979148884858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862681711105151,0.0,0.0,0.1248056192387287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604148710687499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096814094909188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601504534243116,0.09684734166154838,0.10073623299095004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933651534777993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631563206331233,0.13892222428737605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025022796540792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616106376517136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703849965120071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178572563358694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761246051499466,0.0
EDAnonymous,azi6,2019/03/18,"how can i Deal with my mom and her passive aggressive comments? i’m 5’7” and 98lbs currently (my lowest was 81lbs i’m just bloated rn lmao) And she keeps making snarky comments about my weight. Maybe she’s jealous? For example , i ate a diet pepsi with my dinner today. She told me those can make me bloated and that’s why i’ve been looking curvier. is it just me or is that sort of passive aggressive? She knows about my eating disorder? I’m kinda angry and i feel like i’m gonna cry. can someone just help me?",0.7759615384615408,3.2286715961538484,2.620384615384616,90.5246153846154,87.84615384615385,5.123076923076923,22.423076923076927,6.67199483983844,0.7481769230769233,402,15,80,5,13,133,67,104,0.171,0.747,0.081,-0.8679,2,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,0,7,5,0,3,0,19,20,7,0,0,4,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,5,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,17,1,6,15,0,2,0,0,1,0,11,0,0,3,3,45,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674301885618034,0.0,0.2509973304630853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790270980973573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491211149247609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12310106426544838,0.17392839981074038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318660069092422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163990902021934,0.0,0.0,0.13379965450858602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894261886736687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044457026931636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32502386612096346,0.0,0.24458903458082554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28513827376739576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2062834931736544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307723124245567,0.23263716835650186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29646959007326185,0.0,0.0,0.21968544807103452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,astralpoppy,2019/03/18,"I simply don't remember how to eat anymore. any meal plans out there? I've never been diagnosed with anything but I've been binging, purging, restricting, all at different times for years. mostly restricting and some purging when I was younger, mostly binging and some restricting now. I've finally started to get it under control but it's been so long that I genuinely forget how to eat. does anyone have any meal plans aimed at people like us?",4.315609756097562,7.054906597560978,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,74.48780487804878,8.002439024390245,30.981707317073173,8.841846274778883,3.1025804878048784,359,17,58,8,8,114,56,82,0.152,0.81,0.038,-0.8645,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,3,2,20,8,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,4,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,4,1,9,4,5,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,9,38,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049660302045069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22237434122342048,0.15678572522732764,0.0,0.1845208846228031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514912401897495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22758712689913635,0.0,0.2342709749006241,0.0,0.0,0.1962238018823631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588833058427302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456312745269317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715009505681707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954668007152586,0.0,0.0,0.1984350961403652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293878118097475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545175382647514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540070897783604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15871003017104618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074939522682485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697191814187088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443957512243064
EDAnonymous,this_is_ausername,2019/03/18,"Is starvation mode even real? I'm pretty sure it's not, but my aunt is trying to tell me otherwise, trying to convince me my body won't burn any more fat because it's trying to ""save"" it. If it was real though, then anoxerics wouldn't actually exist...? Ugh!",3.185384615384617,4.538062923076922,5.1376923076923084,81.38230769230772,73.61538461538461,7.507692307692308,24.538461538461537,8.07648339933343,1.4589846153846158,200,6,39,3,4,69,39,52,0.0,0.813,0.187,0.836,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,8,6,4,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.2406792705177619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16771962196953566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15034583714256586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739548470792821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289947418890996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509155111412069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5614471231717199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324496879215404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155690440668424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423167171055044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5023450229289852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,faithsettles,2018/12/09,"cheat day ? or something lol I have a history of anorexia, and gained a good amount of weight upon recovery, and settled in at a cool 180, which sure isn’t great on my 5’2 body. for the past 3 months, I’ve tracked every calorie and managed to lose about 30 pounds, but I’ve fallen back into some of my disordered thoughts and habits. I’m off work due to inclement weather and I’ve been trying to give myself a break and eat whatever I want, but every single thing I put in my mouth stresses me out more and more!!!! I know there’s nothing to do about it I guess I just need to complain lmao bye ",2.6220491803278705,4.184916614754101,3.482754098360658,91.8224918032787,75.47540983606558,6.191475409836067,25.31475409836065,6.742157984588678,0.8199219672131153,465,16,100,4,10,148,89,122,0.114,0.731,0.155,0.4798,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,1,1,5,2,4,4,2,0,1,20,11,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,2,11,4,19,9,5,16,0,1,0,0,3,8,0,3,6,59,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773820957358933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22786171178991005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229682966763948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351055476831018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20990705405743385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3456746771681608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967867500722284,0.0,0.17205974898067167,0.0,0.2261650107316637,0.2259822762831539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11273830128884126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294965859821657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16373893494488034,0.0,0.0,0.15210698661791242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683513162090135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582712246465825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20622002263928374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579250042264849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2349845134631349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933398308499509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362843559815097,0.0,0.0,0.16285639973741167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927501563863448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209955155657278,0.0,0.0,0.2498024235668997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493426704752717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,swaegge,2018/12/09,"People without EDs are so fickle with their 'concern' for us Pics of Ariana Grande are a HUGE trigger for me- and I know this isn't a celebrity gossip forum but there's no way in hell I'll ever believe she has healthy/normal eating habits- and yet she deals with none of the tabloid eating disorder callout bullshit that Lindsay Lohan, Nicole Richie etc. ever did. She has a (fake) tan, (fake) thick hair and is styled to look like a cutesy teen girl which is enough to appear healthy at a low BMI, I guess. When the media- and the public(!!!) harasses other celebrities for their eating disorders, they don't do it out of concern, they do it because they're mad that a hot girl looks messy and has visible eyebags/bruises/thin hair. It's so disengenuous. ",4.096875000000002,6.110471604166667,4.495555555555558,84.20500000000001,72.54166666666666,6.7444444444444445,27.277777777777786,7.492282038375204,1.5783444444444448,597,22,109,7,12,188,99,144,0.20800000000000002,0.7040000000000001,0.08800000000000001,-0.9737,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,4,0,7,9,3,0,9,0,12,5,2,1,2,16,17,9,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,8,8,3,0,1,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,1,6,11,2,14,16,3,12,1,1,2,0,13,6,1,2,5,71,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943740577418973,0.0,0.0,0.20226436646993493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185083461048892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115047833138837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5510998633200376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854983864190861,0.20021898667227564,0.0,0.3247831568130374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19776816955425955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866281485108146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770735340322354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015133123624088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446074952803138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21594771789407965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249941181648687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730566931390086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,IdidntChooseThis,2018/12/09,"Using high-density protein powder for weight gain? So I've been trying to gain weight as my BMI is dangerously low again and I quite honestly just miss my feminine features. I was thinking that a way to boost calories would be to use one of those muscle building high protein powders, the 1340 calories kind, a few times a week to supplement bad days. I've been eating more-ish, like eating fast food and calorically dense foods at least once a day, but putting on weight is hard because of my height and my body is so adjusted to never eating that I rarely feel hungry anyway and food I buy from the grocery store doesn't interest me that much so I never feel like I want to eat until dinner. So I'm trying to appease two monsters here, I can go about my day and lunch (i usually sleep through breakfast) can be the high protein shake and then have a normal dinner at my usual time. So I still feel like I'm not force feeding myself but meeting calorie goals for a while. I stopped working out and doing cardio since it was causing too much weight loss but I think if I start using these powders I can start working out again in a week or so.

So is this safe?? My brother used protein powders for years and works out and seems okay, is it going to increase testosterone or other unwanted things like heart issues? I'm guessing I should start slow (think 1/3 cup then slowly build). Has anyone else tried this kind of thing to put on weight without greatly increasing grocery budgets?

TLDR: Protein Powder give butt and boobs pls",6.745936374549823,6.867749091836739,6.326134453781513,80.51004201680672,64.8843537414966,8.414245698279311,32.94037615046018,7.724431198458867,2.289569667867146,1219,46,223,11,17,378,174,294,0.076,0.7859999999999999,0.138,0.9684,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,8,15,17,1,1,10,1,20,23,5,5,2,45,43,28,0,6,9,1,9,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,12,13,17,2,8,0,3,7,5,6,0,2,4,9,23,11,29,35,6,45,0,3,0,2,3,12,2,5,29,136,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421908693452277,0.07945082173349527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474423266470468,0.047268811638016515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613155049735623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07965687285765967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002429731149333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173788151467706,0.06477629257536498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176225164565262,0.11079187219633778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812918550517696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438523904658607,0.0881376771530443,0.0,0.0,0.08549019881203225,0.0854211253320878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946229562430012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09188750369173004,0.0,0.2457817674936307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809335789461928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614958755759367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153218729765225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400441092014264,0.0,0.11961015963164162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07597458080188145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257957379142973,0.0525443861413061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590201753507527,0.0,0.082475336480413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059121723561633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.064143446206253,0.0,0.07759788196518154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465362986486004,0.0,0.06192504724613102,0.06482848556907228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030307619214582,0.1490571212241173,0.0,0.0,0.09043059010838908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15793754398140594,0.0,0.07574715157975864,0.0,0.0,0.26788515828134224,0.17080285629680406,0.0,0.04573621113016062,0.061549136769379315,0.12439884120538595,0.4721256127412085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474760729950601,0.0,0.16935424116330833,0.0,0.0,0.055083528290701456,0.0,0.0,0.049934429791072585
EDAnonymous,HotFryes,2018/12/09,I think about the next thing I can eat constantly I have so much stuff I can do throughout the day yet as of late I’ve been sleeping/ laying in bed on my phone or eating. I’m trying really hard not to fall back into bad habits of starving and then binging but I keep slipping a little bit more every day since Thursday. I want to try to keep myself busy so I’ll stop thinking about food and so I’ll be productive but so far no dice. I hope today I can at least do some laundry before my boyfriend wakes up to go to work. Maybe I can’t take care of myself very well but I’d feel horrible if I didn’t try to take care of him. At this point my want to take care of him is the only thing that gets me out of bed. ,1.2965384615384643,2.6145986538461585,2.9323076923076954,95.41269230769232,78.48717948717949,5.825641025641026,19.69230769230769,6.297961479604792,-0.16263846153846195,554,12,133,4,13,183,102,156,0.10099999999999999,0.76,0.138,0.794,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,0,0,4,0,11,5,2,0,0,20,28,13,0,4,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,3,3,3,0,0,2,4,1,1,0,2,2,18,5,23,25,5,23,0,0,0,0,3,10,0,4,11,82,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364467653386322,0.11254346236422684,0.0,0.0,0.11469579413269328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715504080323233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122801227292834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565938349072505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17385593705450447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758462743905965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356582592731647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815353640617125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16298779571780306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042186293219056,0.0,0.07660388380007427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207447664691831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338762204093637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396139035898985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15204823790917715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509432145024125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541400127060754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908566834201936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14334998411369473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251336109771414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12741948684015972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863494977862401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149912860054087,0.0,0.13488667560119216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268991731753335,0.0,0.0,0.15430153748395578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040344095800608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790960862369832,0.1727351232398039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776452657182932,0.0,0.0,0.2745393265995064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121531547567401,0.15900448099111147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119179733733094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09812823928936296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,keilanigrace,2018/12/09,"I look pregnant I cannot stop eating ever since trying this whole ""recovery"" thing - afraid of eating too much, afraid of eating too little.

The result? I binge every day, and all the fat is all accumulating ONLY on my stomach. I look like I'm 4 months pregnant even though I have a < 17 BMI.

So frustrating. Anyone relate?!",2.2184101382488493,4.852282177419358,3.8513824884792633,83.22564516129033,82.06451612903227,5.478341013824887,18.534562211981566,6.868970318607317,0.4239788018433179,253,6,45,3,7,84,48,62,0.055,0.8590000000000001,0.087,0.2136,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,1,2,3,0,3,5,2,1,3,6,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,6,1,3,6,4,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,5,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470510086471993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13563012270251165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6455873410448704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13890528408418054,0.19023402887447632,0.17719207254343153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274500293386496,0.21078209585634672,0.0,0.0,0.3532085390931025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786442950707292,0.0,0.15459928010482935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994736768720105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739674899750301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17582542847899754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397181169846755,0.0,0.2066248070810383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278412799398166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23479939974593755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,coffeeservedhot,2019/08/10,"Weight Loss Preoccupation I am at a higher BMI (not overweight) and have decided I want to lose weight because I like my body a lower BMI (not necessarily trying to get to a BMI too low agin but if I fucked up). But I can already feel the weight and food preoccupation coming. I am already obsessing over numbers. Last night, my dreams were about weight loss and calories.  Ffs, I am barely even in. I woke up and couldn't go to sleep for three hours because of hunger pangs. And I ate a normal amount of calories it seemed like. Maybe it's because I did quite a bit of exercise (running, walking, jump rope) but C'mon. If I ate any more, I probably wouldn't have been in a deficit. I feel like this is going to become my life again. I am trying not to be too restrictive, but I think even a moderate cut makes me think about calories all day. I honestly am starting to think it's more of an OCD thing more than anything now. Is this normal?",2.532192513368983,4.55720147058824,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727274,77.07486631016043,6.53903743315508,24.368983957219246,7.510576382923642,1.0749486631016052,733,25,152,10,17,238,107,187,0.17,0.742,0.08800000000000001,-0.9408,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,4,8,11,2,1,9,0,16,14,2,1,1,30,33,11,0,7,9,0,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,6,9,1,7,2,0,6,5,7,0,1,6,6,20,4,21,24,6,20,0,4,0,1,0,7,1,3,10,97,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682251866341117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264531696093233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000974197248688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22225269563261354,0.13422155414316542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268048730019547,0.1349936572952896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468828342818058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837750688835758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605402936044902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228995537257027,0.08682184367988953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469558911593045,0.0,0.0,0.1123535456385884,0.06349498487737416,0.0,0.1381378521075868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968365507023465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09906406881618826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08584101157085891,0.17812187325502274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13596221688652868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08112295440909657,0.0,0.12209432702939288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404870665254566,0.23814935327879136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103108323636126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926328672664858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063735103496868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12161887048776145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602033963959439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073986411126327,0.23361666919683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502328173723882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07168219282757976,0.0,0.0,0.5919685671389056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ed_phone_home,2019/08/10,I have a date next week and I feel too fat for it! I'm currently at the higher end of a healthy BMI. All I can see when I look in the mirror is fat. It makes me want to flake so I have more time to lose weight. :/,-1.5463999999999984,-0.17920283999999853,1.054000000000002,105.317,87.4,4.800000000000002,14.0,5.6839178017228535,-1.3709999999999996,158,2,47,1,5,54,39,50,0.11599999999999999,0.802,0.08199999999999999,-0.3931,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,3,2,1,1,5,10,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,0,6,10,2,9,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,7,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31269947886948424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851381240538072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964749495500286,0.3949751312144188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356651009079637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754750453429041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813369125741524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058675908912824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20823934888793244,0.0,0.2831971981817714,0.42992249581300257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,roses-areforlosers,2019/08/10,Hot Take: They make B-12 taste way too good. The pink ones that dissolve under your tongue and tastes like strawberries or something (I have nature's bounty). The package says take one a day but sometimes I take 2 because they taste amazing!!,4.729772727272729,7.30060788636364,3.45,89.92000000000002,72.4090909090909,5.3090909090909095,26.90909090909091,5.985473137389443,0.9405636363636374,193,7,34,1,4,55,38,44,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.8585,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,5,3,1,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17646611198421427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669254653901526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428045537807972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142674104892358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19323210883673012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3923222610274447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302084511131025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22285810835600864,0.28630602751912576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6529654278322718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22977808168423774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,corvidge,2019/08/10,"DAE get sharp pains in their intestines? recently ive been having these sharp pains in my intestines. im not sure if it's due to my lack of bowel movements, or something im eating, but it feels like im being stabbed every ten seconds. I've never had this problem this frequently. any ideas? is this just part of having an ED im late to?",-0.03200000000000003,2.315875514285718,1.805714285714288,94.58428571428574,93.85714285714286,3.9428571428571435,19.857142857142858,5.6839178017228535,-0.05345714285714287,266,9,55,2,10,87,51,70,0.207,0.7490000000000001,0.043,-0.8823,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,7,6,3,0,2,11,9,3,0,3,5,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,2,2,3,4,2,6,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,6,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11597829309287533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451288756576142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369380376914906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623404802065829,0.12183932016293204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910414088576704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19252760870953806,0.7368831842061718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19238524867110496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08332099781845873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315369101108187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3629495820374366,0.0,0.0,0.18468655330243935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16319112826034265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839529144571566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129596158716098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073920104594935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,b-b-kiddo,2019/08/10,"I’ve been losing and gaining the same 30 or so lbs since i was 11 and i’m honestly done i literally eat so well, like no more than 400kcal a day for ages and I drink about 3L of water a day - then my depression really kicks in and i just... don’t care? So I eat and eat until i gain courage to weigh myself and it starts again :((",0.13244047619047805,1.8204687916666693,2.6797619047619072,94.17000000000002,83.30555555555556,6.336507936507938,18.61904761904762,7.447530270364453,0.1847714285714286,251,6,62,4,7,87,54,72,0.107,0.635,0.258,0.9073,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,0,0,9,7,12,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,8,5,7,4,2,8,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,8,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353356797967496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29771873207883354,0.0,0.19880434188657134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362083028707789,0.0,0.2261150595321726,0.0,0.7085573646630087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276666050063175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25822777751621423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786876670483756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909361265266481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16337510254676674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20753428875030927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,phenethylabean,2019/08/10,"family functions i didn’t really think my weight loss was super noticeable, but at gramp’s funeral my aunt was like “what’s happening you’re wasting away” as she hugged me. ;/// some other members also commented on me being slimmer. i don’t rlly believe them tho. i wonder what my family thinks of me.",1.4029824561403537,4.078477017543861,3.855438596491228,78.70140350877193,94.61403508771929,7.445614035087719,22.12280701754386,8.167268648758528,2.3707754385964916,238,9,39,7,9,82,46,57,0.13699999999999998,0.713,0.15,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,2,2,4,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,5,9,4,1,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,11,3,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,2,1,28,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186663331316196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569017267084086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080682611205017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5155414560490392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417981788056921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335868117651296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31130821814881565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751698331408008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35041295538714484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3329708703266819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29652922062401754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JUishboy,2019/08/10,"My girlfriend has an ED and I dont know how to help My girlfriend of  a little more than 10 months has an ED that makes it so even a half hour after we eat a meal, she'll get very sick feeling and insist that she needs to eat something and that she's very hungry. I'll always say ""we just ate though"" or something like that, and she usually doesn't say much about it. This time however, she came in saying that she was needed me to drive to the store to get her something to eat. She asked me to not say anything about how we just ate or anything she was just really sick feeling and if she didnt ate she was probably gonna throw up. She's talked to me about her ED before, so I asked her if she's sure that was the issue, which I know is wrong and I messed up with that question. She started crying and got very upset with me. How do I help?? I dont want to support her ED but when I try and help she always gets upset with me. If anyone has any advice please help I really want to be better for her.",3.842414529914528,3.5968322870370386,4.765925925925926,90.48705128205131,71.03703703703705,7.572079772079773,23.559829059829067,6.67199483983844,0.4812867521367519,778,15,183,5,13,254,105,216,0.092,0.7979999999999999,0.11,0.7083,1,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,3,0,0,1,14,8,0,2,7,0,15,9,0,4,1,39,37,21,0,7,10,0,2,1,2,2,2,4,0,0,11,15,7,0,5,0,1,3,5,4,0,1,10,6,37,4,23,24,2,14,0,0,0,0,36,4,0,6,8,121,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560139866216177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17984008173154067,0.0,0.0,0.07348897139369942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556265639451681,0.0,0.17785915372268749,0.0,0.20205530466284824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919566891298578,0.0,0.0,0.09557609667030212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359936350919955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870604955270815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533064236247722,0.0,0.0,0.3317372309975813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713769483745434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928340673333056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693809630920467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08643070578477939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897389679471902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642380024881014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11279341948482215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878111819497075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279586603565352,0.1083110903477137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07213527269501112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08625770285014718,0.0,0.0794413611227098,0.16025998040766462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186246389031717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651403711349224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105928735631652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846042018353769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437554865536557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24958476904278226,0.0,0.0,0.07649007241437225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263265970701673,0.1018514605836834,0.0,0.0,0.08685981315233215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617485349934856,0.0,0.06301448432879019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733701053903341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11902005613948873,0.2674987065308739,0.12748092237661446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815382655831602,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,neon__knights,2019/08/10,"DAE has parents with disordered eating? And do yout think this affected your ed in any way? My mum has always been making comments on her own body like she's fat, she really shouldn't eat this or that (She's curvy but like so faaar from fat) She only wears big and baggy clothes and she always finds a way to insult herself and now i also to this to myself. But like she also body-shames bigger people and i just don't understand this??? She regurarly skips meals and like she tries to hide it sometimes but i always see it. And idk i started to notice this when i was little and in the past few years it really triggers me.",2.6887012987013,4.575597682539684,3.861399711399713,87.78006493506494,76.14285714285714,6.486580086580088,20.184704184704184,7.348242739294969,0.5246444444444442,492,11,99,6,11,160,81,126,0.073,0.83,0.09699999999999999,0.6105,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,6,5,1,0,2,0,7,7,4,3,0,21,12,16,0,1,5,2,0,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,9,5,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,19,4,10,9,2,13,0,0,1,0,15,6,0,1,9,67,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694371566036392,0.42052031963491054,0.0,0.0,0.11455957775586853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871227184811844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930714417393305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447562846347689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539707334789654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32920706362306856,0.1688426513692586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244934069050533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917945024369035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12812254062719788,0.0,0.0,0.187056528594435,0.0,0.1608155368450861,0.11678997341328827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21584146534246007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424198241054328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661270336518555,0.0,0.1192378969541212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794330908700103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437428139238963,0.0,0.0,0.17537433347384954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26743375048867835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848366474721888
EDAnonymous,skirmishlyfe,2019/08/10,"Opinions on ED without body dysmorphia? I've been recently falling down the rabbithole that is thinspo and restricting, but I don't really hate my body? I more get super euphoric by the thought of being tiny and skinny, maybe not to the degree of some people, but the thought of being borderline underweight again (I was naturally skinny for a time in my teens) makes me really excited. But yeah I don't get repulsed by looking in the mirror, it's more like I'm just super hyped to get skinny fast. 

The reason I believe it might be going towards an ED rather than just normal weight loss is because of how anxious I get if I eat over 1000 calories a day and I have the need to control a lot of aspects of my eating and exercise. Idk, I've talked to a doctor about this and I'm trying to get it under check before it goes further, but also the thought of being hella skinny just keeps me going towards this mess.",8.790833333333335,6.566938972222225,9.049444444444449,70.25750000000002,62.05555555555557,11.444444444444445,38.05555555555557,9.827888789773867,3.725388888888888,725,28,130,11,8,242,108,180,0.07,0.747,0.183,0.9823,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,1,0,13,1,12,11,6,4,0,31,29,12,0,4,11,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,7,5,7,3,4,1,1,3,4,3,0,0,5,2,13,4,26,19,4,17,0,1,1,0,1,9,0,5,6,93,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862190678260705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757415383750252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042246596809017,0.0,0.12622052189314958,0.16712058061228682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295292148771626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636815704554053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09566256232488594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518251880523924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035635349939789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874895482961426,0.0,0.1686022101403539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644820243702353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318452528825157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0724680480330306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245624246716475,0.0,0.0,0.1261074762391141,0.0,0.0,0.09901347963508443,0.0,0.14902051153019338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15735795208668235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10998709586572866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453349197692314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10283547758599763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900519327357598,0.15251110631979645,0.14646101689292088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11922450722585926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532796786368673,0.08649420911159215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070842133784944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806297246382267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14298779137912265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cilondon,2019/08/10,"Triggered by old pictures I saw some old pictures of myself that i didnt know i have and I was so much skinnier than i am now. it really triggered me and ive been feeling really anxious since then. knowing that was the time when i met my current bf makes me so fucking depressed because the person he fell in love with is not the person i am today. i gained so much more weight than i thought and idk what to do. i recovered from my (undiagnosed) eating disorder 100% on my own because i didnt think it helped me lose weight, looking back though, i see the person that i truly wanted to be and the body i want so bad and i didnt even realize i had it. fuck that and fuck myself for giving up on weightloss when i did. i never believed i was one of those people who saw a fatter person in the mirror than they actually were, but i really was that person. fuck. id rather die than live in the body i have one more day. i have truly never wanted anything more every day of my 19 years of life than to be skinny. i hate myself.",3.338028169014088,4.1719272159624445,4.90574647887324,85.18256338028169,72.61502347417841,7.182347417840376,24.998122065727703,7.3011,1.078066291079812,799,23,166,8,15,270,114,213,0.14800000000000002,0.784,0.068,-0.9588,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,11,9,5,0,8,0,21,12,3,3,2,25,42,15,1,4,3,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,11,7,4,0,6,0,0,1,6,8,0,2,15,7,35,1,22,25,7,22,0,2,4,5,13,6,4,1,15,127,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.10349255325208748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980984627957128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727268691176276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154830811645082,0.08854993090138663,0.12929800329902846,0.0,0.0,0.1194855567805933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356022314595449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679098625159805,0.0,0.09134340257287893,0.0,0.11006640182178942,0.0,0.1215460711401318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851882474364136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004708993410648,0.0,0.08935433322708279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05362364736852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921776266412319,0.0,0.1017358227376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470550630924688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07108517528206057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656804974369392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749084597085906,0.0,0.0,0.09364685380546152,0.0,0.0890579162141702,0.11864632136968753,0.0,0.0,0.09571708738208,0.0,0.07079128554746178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592250141741595,0.0,0.16358941846351724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22256983270271674,0.0,0.1437286865739598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352388467741941,0.4630074976063069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20382104571108628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451061118657595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772824227843405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795456131261267,0.10419665846154247,0.08419433630205192,0.061840430999770185,0.0,0.10052596358702393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876586455000854,0.0,0.0,0.2582882747349311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06829473646708469
EDAnonymous,astrogryzz,2019/08/10,"Hotels shouldn't have glass shower doors with a giant mirror across from them 
That is all

I haven't really seen my whole body in a long time and that was jarring and unpleasant",3.7816190476190457,5.8545304000000025,3.794285714285717,88.63904761904762,73.57142857142857,6.9523809523809526,17.38095238095238,7.793537801064563,0.3065238095238092,144,2,28,2,3,44,30,35,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.4767,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,0,1,5,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,4,3,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5544249365186411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417175519151129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197577816629913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910488310652541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5572648679918124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,thevoidyelledatme,2019/08/10,"OCD Bulimia? TW? Hey y’all. Idk if this is a good place to post this? and idk if tw’s are required but I put one up anyways. But I have bulimia and have had it for 14 years.  And as I’m now working on all my other mental crap I’ve been thinking about my ED too. 

I like purging for a lot of the reasons most people do; feeling empty, rectifying a binge etc. But I realized that a lot of the time I purge because I feel like something bad will happen if I don’t. Like it’s I it after I eat, I don’t feel the urge to vomit on an empty stomach. But I feel like when I eat I did something very very wrong. And if I don’t purge something bad will happen. Like my parents will get in a car wreck and die, or the house will burn down or something like that. So even if I eat something small if I end up feeling guilty about it I have to purge. No matter where I am. I purged behind my car at a gas station while pumping gas because I felt like the gas pump was gonna explode if I didn’t. I know it’s in my head but in the moment it literally feels like life or death if I don’t purge. 

On top of feeling shitty from purging I feel shitty because I’m constantly panicked thinking someone is gonna die if I don’t purge. It’s exhausting. 

I guess I was wondering if anyone else experienced anything similar to this? Or if it’s more a case of severe OCD manifesting into purging? Idk. Thoughts are appreciated. Thank you!",0.3226545454545473,2.4256508533333374,2.705454545454547,91.8577272727273,85.46666666666667,5.236363636363637,22.75757575757576,6.574015621080383,0.5428666666666668,1096,41,243,12,33,375,143,300,0.22399999999999998,0.639,0.136,-0.9885,1,0,5,0,0,0,28.0,0,2,0,3,9,15,1,0,14,0,24,9,3,1,1,49,47,29,3,11,20,1,9,8,0,6,3,0,0,0,14,6,3,1,16,0,0,3,7,5,0,1,8,10,34,10,27,33,6,28,0,0,0,0,4,15,1,20,17,154,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711706738662003,0.09835108736982408,0.07898997583811161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16029200314272085,0.17554024949694386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037289677507003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992408559457156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946591762373652,0.08018568809700767,0.0,0.08501691012857049,0.0,0.10705203467937,0.06339919323234854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38827548548134944,0.2057216186913509,0.09216356856855773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050149787634536896,0.0,0.0,0.08051021141382655,0.0,0.0,0.10574164467355054,0.0,0.16976380843790895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851141863345413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11075730723474632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05275251489655434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779918932064212,0.3751592511463961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16321119318773475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673336478865953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06504397814174785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10658335580229517,0.0,0.0,0.06654601891729654,0.0,0.10028706877706077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193000601580023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649448937832583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869168894331967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10843916003594084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133035235795891,0.3694814026269457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837288817965458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301051671755685,0.0,0.07620377950467981,0.05597139635942477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840036660727355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040949316800088,0.06988043423462294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1049478501350961,0.0,0.06181314881320705
EDAnonymous,WittyAvocado4,2019/08/10,"I know its bad, but what will happen to me if i eat only two eggs a day for two months? I'm 65kg and 168cm",-0.9728571428571442,-1.114606857142853,2.512857142857144,101.98214285714286,81.85714285714286,5.6000000000000005,14.0,3.1291,-1.5706285714285717,80,0,26,0,2,30,25,28,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.3071,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902268901501357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22416969802372588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35567595262348684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30737667018303233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19102884792566696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27744661526306136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643612819902412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6790986420234092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkpanther_69,2019/08/10,"period binge Just had a pms binge after eating like shit all day. Im trying not to be upset about it, because when I was worse I know this thinking would lead to purging and restricting. Sometimes I think I only feel sick after eating because of my mind making me feel disgusting. Anyway I feel like shit and I haven't eaten food like this in over a month. :( Recovery is such a long hard process that I feel like is really hard for people to understand, so thanks for reading this if you did.",3.5210567010309286,5.339028979381446,4.466585051546391,84.63534149484539,73.63917525773195,7.32422680412371,23.465206185567013,8.07648339933343,1.3253927835051544,389,11,74,6,8,126,69,97,0.225,0.633,0.142,-0.8546,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,6,9,3,1,3,0,8,8,2,2,1,19,19,5,0,2,3,0,6,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,2,4,1,8,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,6,10,5,11,13,1,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,11,47,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19697995075869335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419759411812723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33064753064990865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267732880212846,0.2308475374505293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19536791750847907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894652752525721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17452049575951714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08879320682720196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31573464360422354,0.0,0.0,0.14298204728235578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784748090064593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16313699635835802,0.0,0.12896154146386435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287927317657145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120104782271974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161110266642778,0.0,0.10350420095017004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33169318805890746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597942703233566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874953646173564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20705170690424168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969364562074614,0.0,0.0,0.168197340808255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16465096355075776,0.11477283132701965,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AbandonEarth,2019/08/10,I hate grocery shopping and how stressful it is. text (optional),3.15727272727273,6.0808179090909125,3.718636363636364,78.19795454545455,97.1818181818182,5.836363636363638,41.86363636363637,7.1686216300943375,4.439145454545455,51,4,7,1,2,16,11,11,0.467,0.5329999999999999,0.0,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6528621869514599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7574767091131959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,littlebitdead,2019/08/10,"Scale accuracy How much can we actually trust the scales we buy? I know electronic scales are more accurate than the mechanical ones, but sometimes I get scared about the battery or smt that interferes with the internal system and maybe it’s showing me the wrong number",6.255625000000002,8.805403312500003,6.298333333333333,71.28,67.95833333333334,10.633333333333336,32.83333333333333,10.686352973137794,4.202858333333333,221,10,36,7,4,70,41,48,0.152,0.779,0.068,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,5,1,3,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.37666680772383776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20166183479090896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21212789616177088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3877749723676581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837442357720024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615542077616173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864394765902868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3817501765463277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220152669406266,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Silver_manatea,2019/08/10,"I want to recover for real this time. I think. I'm tired of this shit. I've been dealing with anorexic tendencies for 13 fucking years. Sometimes I think I get better and recover and gain a bit but as soon as some new trauma happens or old trauma resurfaces I do the same old bullshit. 

I spent $200 on baby food and sugar free jello and diet coke and all this other shit I KNOW is not healthy and I KNOW I need to stop restricting...I can't afford to live like this anymore. I need to get better. But how?? 

How do I get my eating disorder to go away? How do I not hate myself for having body fat? How do I embrace my body and stop starving myself and fucking up my life? Ugh...",-0.00950354609928894,2.273457588652484,2.2777659574468103,92.6841666666667,90.13475177304966,4.55177304964539,19.890070921985814,6.139981653823899,0.1335985815602836,524,17,110,5,18,177,85,141,0.233,0.623,0.14400000000000002,-0.9489,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,5,12,5,0,2,0,8,14,5,4,1,31,25,17,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,9,6,2,4,0,2,1,3,8,0,0,2,1,18,5,15,23,4,12,0,0,0,2,1,3,4,2,9,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378219117819765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362144188895562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564478196646557,0.1582816986559903,0.3220824074325144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14946904151154738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661607827916492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835175417759444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17531159670503615,0.0,0.0,0.26806519052742284,0.22723976072958826,0.0,0.0823960415174274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282062165816199,0.0,0.0,0.14313871874050246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593555284199792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240436557217897,0.07083039171842231,0.0,0.12802087626798586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150031440226012,0.0,0.14002355005417416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30426633523227936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16502011463304608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29764181937531875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338991289850858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424212101340464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18579593722859025,0.0,0.0,0.08453958508661379,0.1666343281494337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08551354818636435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09336300849113467
EDAnonymous,nicolecherryb,2019/08/10,DAE spend too much time looking at the size of other people’s thighs I went to see a musical last night and instead of enjoying the show I spent 90% of the time ordering the girls from skinniest to largest based on their thighs! I can’t help but do it in any public space. It’s so frustrating!,1.8605000000000016,4.073889383333338,3.0599999999999987,90.935,80.16666666666666,7.333333333333335,23.333333333333336,8.344100000000001,1.4138333333333346,233,8,50,5,6,75,48,60,0.095,0.8370000000000001,0.068,-0.5641,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,4,1,9,4,1,10,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,0,4,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563443910184757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526670256916669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072711113746773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31654981105196456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27710752991197524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3537495810816693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613352388177748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003867498837809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396145245813554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494438760846745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,haiytch,2019/08/10,"not losing so i stayed under 200 cal for three days, and still gained .2 kilos? (.5 pounds) it just seems like so much considering i was expecting to lose. and now ive binged aswell. it sucks that it feels like only fasting works for me. i feel so full and gross.",1.1157232704402524,3.4815719245283065,1.8814150943396264,97.30690251572331,84.47169811320755,5.042767295597487,14.4937106918239,6.42735559955562,-0.771840251572327,204,3,46,2,6,63,42,53,0.142,0.696,0.162,0.0568,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,6,6,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,9,6,6,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,2,5,2,4,5,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,1,6,27,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849318366573456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28998166817473,0.2048562610771681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28018587200720924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6416060801894438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21079630576165564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21808842966086975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610489838487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056403362900143,0.2290011603628937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087594571365628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,treadingwater_21,2019/08/15,"Lying about lactose intolerances Looking for a bit of advice. 
I’ve been dealing with disordered eating since childhood however things really kicked off about one year ago when I developed bulimia. Around the same time I started a new job in a good service job and had the issue of dealing with free food, cake sampling etc to deal with. To avoid the forbidden foods I told my coworkers that I’m intolerant to dairy and therefore couldn’t partake. 
Flash forward to a year later and I’m dating someone I met through someone at work. We met on a night out with work friends and therefore I ordered my meal without dairy. Therefore he thinks I’m lactose intolerant. 
I’ve been in treatment for a couple of months now and I’m slowly starting to break my food rules and introduce fear foods into my life. Right now this looks like occasionally having full cream in my coffee and eating yoghurt and stuff at home but I want to jump further in and do it more when I’m eating out. Problem is, this guy thinks I can’t eat dairy and therefore I feel like I have to play along when I’m with him. I don’t like lying and I also don’t like that it gives me an excuse to avoid fear foods when I’m with him. He has no idea about my eating disorder and because I don’t have the stereotypical body of an eating disorder sufferer I feel like he wouldn’t ever suspect. 
Any ideas on how to approach this topic? It’s an incredibly vulnerable place to be and my ED is telling me to just break it off so I don’t have to deal with it but I really like him and I know I don’t actually want to do that. 
Thank you!",3.357783653846152,5.057390018750001,4.550000000000002,84.36269230769233,73.8125,7.4230769230769225,27.30769230769231,8.139509932561175,1.752377403846154,1266,48,253,20,26,416,158,320,0.13,0.764,0.106,-0.8997,3,2,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,1,0,2,15,17,0,4,13,0,21,14,1,5,1,53,44,23,0,5,4,0,2,6,1,1,1,0,1,1,13,27,12,2,8,1,1,3,10,6,0,1,6,6,31,12,46,35,5,43,0,1,3,0,20,19,0,0,26,157,44,5,0.0,0.0,0.07405846420128953,0.0,0.0,0.07415960220109853,0.06727260683669098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06068983778640912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051608339981934585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755889337384928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046262321528076564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285308774112538,0.08429755994998943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08397171628065993,0.0,0.0,0.3129602908256245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26093226252944746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659313493522803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463829229076104,0.0,0.06864756488467523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17079647653495586,0.07674532793312852,0.1084327918690959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4588372258819397,0.0,0.05863303652577277,0.0,0.0,0.07280136154191667,0.0,0.06365359450143726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514381418026983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612465068120057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171342930150454,0.0,0.07921026829063414,0.1506197989649449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041707593772131436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05360390972468832,0.2224584412329072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745830096051922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06057530497879229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07329579842124903,0.0,0.07121836595056967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051425563747608385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928972359618564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726172372837985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723516744563077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481032047177357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06277764617898646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860404112076282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743178432191694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868767984702833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633189596505888,0.06987004369165685,0.0,0.0,0.05041846907210733,0.09725550850071332,0.0,0.0,0.04425253026885216,0.0,0.0,0.0725169026014884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952470906113387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315601392362933,0.0,0.1104987987546418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774236187727016
EDAnonymous,pointsaresingular,2019/08/15,"Yesterday was my birthday 
And I just let myself eat whatever I wanted and did everything in my power to not freak out about it. I did really well and still didn't eat crazy amounts food but u did have chocolate cake with raspberries because I just couldn't resist it.",4.634615384615387,6.347247846153848,5.1376923076923084,81.38230769230772,70.53846153846153,9.046153846153846,28.384615384615394,9.516144504307137,2.6391769230769238,216,8,40,5,4,69,39,52,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.4437,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,0,11,9,4,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,5,0,7,1,5,2,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200510936421175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6445936760458899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830781482480496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38086757787270203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220820579505376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20178028623266547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25153848926709105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857797121535518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28319927947136964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,itsaani,2019/08/15,"if you fucked up your digestive system, raise your hand! ✋🏼 (tmi) yo who fucked their already malfunctioning digestive system with lax pills and castor oil lmao

i had pretty bad constipation as a kid. i went 2 weeks once from not going to the toilet. my friend suggested getting lax pills so i got a whole box of them ... and now i depend on them 

and that's not all! guess who spiraled into their ed right after? that's right! me! so i had 1) constipation and 2) an ed that was fueled with my lax pills, self loathing, and chocolate. i later had no more money for lax pills so i used castor oil as my lax.

except i developed a dependence on lax pills / castor oil, hence ruining my digestive system. 

hahaha i wanna die hahah",1.29326241134752,3.899799354609932,3.1983333333333337,86.08416666666668,87.36879432624113,6.253900709219859,18.471631205673766,7.594959193182576,0.8194141843971621,563,15,108,11,18,188,87,141,0.162,0.7290000000000001,0.109,-0.8469,1,0,0,0,0,1,22.0,0,3,4,0,4,5,2,0,5,0,4,11,1,3,1,18,12,11,1,2,4,0,1,0,1,0,8,0,0,2,5,8,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,4,0,0,6,4,21,1,15,6,3,15,0,1,0,2,13,6,2,4,4,66,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523259619391869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091698333050836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23730730434178735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665792423655333,0.4227748607248767,0.1194625556126654,0.0,0.12994963989271835,0.0,0.1828759172454065,0.0,0.2518887457598979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435096141246513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23262386185243475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3905394419958679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23853654459731904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19748410087332255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18341287335767956,0.0,0.0,0.21196504197425992,0.0,0.2552846192762229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,s3191998s,2019/08/15,"I’m trying to get better I went and saw a life coach and it changed my life. I was in tears even hours after the session. She really put my ED and all of my other life stressors in perspective for me. I got home and I took pictures of my body naked and stared at them for a LONG time and I thought, “this is it. I’m going to get better.” 
So anyways I ate like a healthy human for the first time in very long time yesterday and I just had breakfast but I’m struggling so much with feeling nauseous and even feeling like I’m going to pass out right after I eat. Getting better is not going to be easy. 😭",0.7140144230769252,2.692443093750001,2.5390625,94.39584134615384,82.90625,4.87596153846154,21.564903846153847,5.8734145424116955,0.08783942307692305,468,15,104,3,13,155,76,128,0.055,0.7659999999999999,0.17800000000000002,0.9333,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,4,6,6,0,1,5,0,5,7,1,0,1,17,23,11,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,4,10,3,0,3,1,0,7,1,1,0,1,8,4,15,5,17,14,2,23,0,0,2,0,3,6,0,0,12,65,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41083953260020706,0.0,0.17199624456592832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380391342171896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584435784413984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20454537016567909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565870732238247,0.110620242153793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13170981963714035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426980459635233,0.0,0.2640034236157136,0.0,0.12384250875828855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15532067646830244,0.0,0.15248967707405447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3281116738906958,0.1512974455676207,0.0,0.0,0.27406328642182376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138278042656234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566050640820356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919672437914852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322355206588724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187606800721266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292845927616165,0.2708715064812596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203684897094335,0.10512858638485313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277621211334767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354149503415622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ourimagineforever,2019/08/15,"I hate weigh-ins TW for mention of numbers / weight

I got on the scale this morning for the first time in like 3 weeks and it said 118.4, which I was super happy with (121.3 last time, I've been working on eating more but I definitely should have lost at least a good pound or two) so of course anxious lil me stepped on again to be sure. 118.4. Then I did a happy little hop jump, stepped back to do something on the counter, and checked again like 10 seconds later. Scale now said 121.6. Cue freak out. It says that a time or so more. Then it goes up to 122 for a reading or two and I full on panic. Grab a ten pound weight off the floor and stand with it and it says 132.6.

Someone please tell me I can trust the 118.4 lol. Is it time for a new scale or am I doing something wrong? My weigh-ins are generally what keep my body dysmorphia in check so ditching the scale is not an option. Granted, I also haven't been pooping 100% the best (y'all know that struggle) and maybe I look bloated a tiny bit this morning? but maybe now that's just me praying it's water retention. I would think 118.4 would be the right number but now I'm all freaked out and considering throwing my 'RecOveRY PRogResS' out the window and cutting way back again.

Any advice friends??",2.356896610749743,4.321817240157483,2.7468777815816523,95.03846799041423,77.38582677165354,5.362273194111605,23.64190345771996,6.0469075449839425,0.29465854159534377,985,32,215,6,23,302,151,254,0.096,0.708,0.196,0.9845,0,0,2,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,0,6,13,18,2,2,17,1,18,6,2,0,2,32,28,21,0,3,9,0,3,2,1,3,0,4,1,0,14,13,4,1,2,1,2,4,2,8,0,5,8,8,18,10,24,15,7,42,1,1,1,0,8,17,0,5,21,133,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120341342059908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848349117097073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374663173177077,0.0,0.0,0.13912512576773353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893904211574238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12923895801941104,0.0,0.134448560626538,0.13679255545692512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260138094610012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104751838346267,0.0,0.0,0.09514584888717996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10329288132463403,0.09849478568556376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26219220959933365,0.0,0.12158572259458802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946191264642108,0.0,0.0,0.06768034967363146,0.1003841765519744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033032619713208,0.12342925508131697,0.0,0.0,0.10341548861515693,0.0,0.13443342864764984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24744266265207635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893961789933842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449069605929288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351823785274798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12318392735708855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516994041791704,0.2342888456152563,0.19586860172499884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434510463549207,0.18961469857300675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874374708534847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606798406728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076390534049431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890993255301779,0.0,0.0,0.28724042330537114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24060048549796614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775121492918697,0.09878398383695244,0.29992851024094297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965510428496004,0.0,0.0,0.17496530725289028,0.13464584974892105,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,FatBarbara,2019/08/15,"It's my birthday and I'm sad I ate too much cake and other sweets and just food in general, and I was in my house the whole day so I didn't burn anything. Now my friends wanna take me out for drinks and all I can think about is how that's even more calories..

Also I'm depressed af and feel like the majority of people wouldn't even say happy birthday to me if it weren't for Facebook so I don't want to reply to people and not replying is making me feel even more shitty. I hate birthdays.",1.6548322851153046,3.1540716320754747,3.3637106918239006,91.92395178197066,77.9622641509434,5.843186582809224,22.155136268343817,6.42735559955562,0.3039614255765204,387,11,87,3,9,129,70,106,0.17,0.7509999999999999,0.08,-0.8741,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,11,7,1,0,2,0,8,3,0,2,1,21,18,12,0,4,3,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,8,3,0,3,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,4,12,4,11,13,6,5,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,61,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755922712504187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068968749449388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160627701800196,0.0,0.18911771196255786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21509773022663803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43507724711933343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220451879779786,0.1568628364877776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655082747474196,0.0,0.1696413836218026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233739305137892,0.0,0.21678265999875626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25335750542567065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072721682894922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656653433664732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141125620984734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044482349712907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17461308608479756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509140289910035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069337019285086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295097134087063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451451652595761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whitepetticoat,2019/08/15,"Weird weight gain in recovery So I’m wondering if anyone else has gone through the same thing. I am currently in recovery and am looking to gain muscle and fat.

What I don’t understand is I have weighed myself and am still the same weight as a week ago but my pants are now not fitting and my legs are covered in fat and cellulite. 

My legs are now a size ten yet the scale is saying 44.8 kilos. I can remember a year ago at my sickest I was around 44 and was so thin compared to now. Has anyone been able to get their head around the weight gain process?",2.958333333333332,4.402786938596496,3.6342105263157904,91.56780701754387,74.35087719298245,7.171929824561403,25.824561403508767,7.793537801064563,1.2141824561403505,437,15,96,6,9,138,71,114,0.012,0.9059999999999999,0.08199999999999999,0.8248,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,3,9,1,0,0,7,0,16,10,5,0,0,16,22,11,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,8,6,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,6,11,0,11,18,2,19,0,0,1,0,2,8,0,2,10,66,13,0,0.17485756265913727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100013579914207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24452894690421184,0.17916223665503586,0.0,0.31132060544542783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14607105636933512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135585950964722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794543056963233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468363136311892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807953204811266,0.0,0.0,0.13905375209521162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964147541230876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11616759491827147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203288941131648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026018951957225,0.638788213251546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896255677795958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11260253742209908
EDAnonymous,hairyballsackz,2019/08/15,"Going to eating disorder treatment tomorrow morning and I'm freaking out My eating disorder hit its lowest point these past couple weeks. My mom has been working hard to get me into a treatment place and we found one and it didnt hit me till now that my lifes about to change. I know I need to get help but I'm terrified of gaining weight in recovery. It's the only thing that's been holding me back. Even though my hair is falling out, I'm hiding throw up around the house, I cant get up without my vision going black for a couple seconds, etc. I still dont think I'm ready to get help. I'm going to be there for 30 to 60 days and I just feel like when I get there I'm going to be the fattest one there. Also what if I slip up and throw up? It's gotten to the point where sometimes its unforced and just comes up. How do I explain that to them? Or what if I refuse to eat a meal? I dont want to be rude and tell them I'm not going to eat it but if I eat it I'm most likely going to bawl my eyes out. It's really hard to eat in front of people especially if I don't know them ( I have a mix of ana,mia and BED). I have to eat 6 times a day at this place. I'm not used to eating until 4pm. I dont want to make this too long but that's just a couple things I'm scared of.",0.16825320512820952,1.5767807291666711,2.6195833333333347,96.01067307692308,81.9861111111111,5.402991452991453,18.021367521367523,6.093298490706669,-0.4337023504273505,982,20,245,7,26,339,138,288,0.142,0.813,0.045,-0.9669,1,0,0,0,1,0,22.0,1,0,3,2,18,5,1,1,10,0,16,13,2,3,0,44,52,22,0,7,14,1,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,19,15,10,2,6,0,0,11,9,3,0,3,5,7,28,2,41,42,2,42,0,0,2,0,10,18,0,6,15,153,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318454134301348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033595486762274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075407539532509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358246463326349,0.06806041292349235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622703193400518,0.0,0.1019102674731514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811053923892125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27779859448065003,0.0,0.0,0.6467784323248028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811741592173512,0.0521855852239481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039950002525462325,0.05644500356800705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08663076102640532,0.0,0.0,0.20639821132847536,0.0,0.2694203863202098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155549307470527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059179325316987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09116732565809256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08684403449181714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05580734063034851,0.07720092352556725,0.0,0.0,0.06992166568589074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274001630224948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253595673673387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05858516689216706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707890405421996,0.0600909248544361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542431091888982,0.05477582228524516,0.0,0.16509798020126576,0.0,0.14938062173972713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05061604777298587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910313504550448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814324777436145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309776057511933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905852076446474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10498191986439648,0.050626636368067864,0.07762725910970136,0.0,0.04607156536067389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06823956674461862,0.0,0.0,0.09320469269998938,0.0,0.06337732991144504,0.09621331011899234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616314946359523,0.0,0.0575204694304645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KingOfTheMusicScene,2019/08/15,My evening was lowkey ruined by ED brain™ Is this a rant? IDK. I went to a concert this evening and all I could focus on was other people's bodies looking better or worse than mine :((( instead of moving freely to good music and feeling alive my stupid ED brain insisted on being judgemental. Like why can't I just have a good time and let everyone else have a good time with image playing in? It's officially taken over my life AHHHH,3.5528571428571425,5.310333023255817,4.706079734219268,83.20453488372095,73.4186046511628,7.239867109634551,25.07641196013289,7.957251820313856,1.4916132890365448,344,11,65,5,7,113,65,86,0.145,0.622,0.233,0.7768,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,1,0,4,0,9,3,2,0,1,9,13,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,4,3,7,6,10,6,1,8,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,1,3,43,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17428124566466238,0.0,0.2188863342547197,0.0,0.4399624307837695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733428932120772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646161615175854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603090920812429,0.0,0.0,0.18829677859434094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996381361004089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4958471622721412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015045299035666,0.13918746056610407,0.09627228584547767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654785754423629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094408172676676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13661478074727376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22981149484733784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18267417257139648,0.1778136420249033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20081831308396644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hollaatmeshawty,2019/08/15,"i don’t even know how to feel about my body anymore so a friend of a friend told me that her bed didn’t like me solely for the fact that i was “too skinny”. i don’t even know how to feel because one, i barely talk to her and two, i don’t give a shit about her boyfriend and his opinion about me and three, i feel like the absolute opposite. but the fact that someone didn’t like me for the way that i looked, even if i don’t feel the same way has me confused. i kinda just hate my body even more than i did before which is making me want to stress eat but i’m also stressing out because i want to start fasting again to feel skinny and good, just for me. it’s just so hard to get back into it because it’s so hard to push through the pain of not eating, and i eventually give in and pig out making myself feel worse. :( i just want to be happy with my body :/",3.7690909090909095,3.3055122192513373,4.669946524064173,91.8602139037433,71.19251336898395,7.441711229946525,24.486631016042786,6.1124844417494595,0.4160096256684489,663,14,162,3,11,216,91,187,0.18,0.6970000000000001,0.122,-0.9419,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,21,13,2,3,9,0,11,9,6,4,2,39,32,15,0,4,8,0,8,3,2,0,1,0,1,0,8,10,4,0,8,0,0,1,7,6,0,3,5,9,28,7,24,26,2,11,0,0,1,0,10,4,1,4,7,112,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924697982128896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146745453069444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891284122675024,0.0,0.2114621339877288,0.0,0.09839317632260908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385318793527576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366380678497111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305491845486894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507980205549826,0.08260656766857387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17867192445722266,0.0,0.06041224814605961,0.22184693375180528,0.0,0.0969855127935623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309098929358693,0.20716472102699607,0.11416133912608438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709517509759544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694739014129272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09710063332066056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543687288553142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783543287668886,0.0,0.12303917638723715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869321235651033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979734842400764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184397734642651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649090641103749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929395456895732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11049005229150666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129543544780334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046058800919521,0.18356447384414196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783752265640968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,blackhillsfc18,2019/08/15,"My gf [23] relapsed and I [m,25] am not sure how to help. Hi everyone, I'm here because my girlfriend has an eating disorder and I just found out she relapsed, more than once. She has been very secretive about it and I sensed something was wrong, and now I realize how ignorant I have been. All of this time it was my understanding that she used to have issues with body dismorphia but not currently, and last week I found out that's not true. She opened up to me about what's going on and it breaks my heart to know she doesn't think she is pretty and she thinks she is overweight, when she is the most beautiful girl and beautiful soul I have ever met. She told me she has body dismorphia and has had troubles with eating disorder since she was 11. She has seen counselors and therapists before, but currently does not have a primary care doctor because her doctor just retired. Now she's trying to find a doctor and has relapsed several times, and I'm worried for her. It may take months to get another doctor (I'm in the same boat finding a new provider, my first appointment isn't until late September. 

I realize now how stupid I was to think her eating disorder was in the past. I'm trying to keep healthy snacks and food around the house so she doesnt feel like she's had too much to eat but I know that is just one tiny, tiny step. In fact, I'm not even sure if that's even the right thing to do or if that could make her feel like I want her to eat healthy snacks. I tell her how much I love her and her body, but I know it's not what I think that matters. I feel ignorant and powerless, and I feel I have nobody to talk to. I'm not supposed to tell anyone what is going on and it hurts me that I feel like I can't help her. She is my rock and I am hers, and right now I feel powerless, I feel weak, the one person I love and want to be with for my life is struggling and I have no idea where to even start. I'm crying as I write this knowing it might not even get read, that I'm getting all of this out and have nobody else turn to, that the love of my life hates her body and wants to lose weight when she is so gorgeous, inside and out. 

Any response or advice would be wonderful. I feel so scared to start researching eating disorders and how to be a good boyfriend that I haven't even mustered the strength to even Google it. I know that is my first step, but I'm scared of getting the wrong information or have her find out how much it is affecting me. I don't want her to know how much I am struggling because she, herself is going through what must be hell. Thanks for reading this if you got this far. I hope this sub is the right place for this kind of post.",4.5368422170312135,4.6291602166065005,4.928965810150778,88.7459290719898,69.57761732851986,8.611509874708005,27.30494797196857,8.405096225971981,1.492589466978126,2096,61,474,29,34,665,214,554,0.16699999999999998,0.7070000000000001,0.126,-0.9696,4,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,0,4,32,31,3,4,15,0,54,26,5,10,8,121,114,50,0,11,22,0,9,3,2,4,8,0,0,2,32,35,11,3,30,3,0,5,15,15,0,4,15,10,79,16,52,90,9,48,2,2,1,3,52,19,1,11,25,319,111,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572309794444897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039827557821319914,0.06141258981904939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04095139732685338,0.0,0.0,0.052137033144899536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10710567049354412,0.0,0.04983619016459044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602188672822745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05971294400341229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04676097150060378,0.0,0.06433308240188929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684913530636637,0.2397831614088544,0.05125236282971128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595718785682578,0.04892520041545076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320976455038709,0.05297719052180845,0.0,0.05596326354218722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369058169158539,0.12552079633074673,0.0,0.0,0.16058748846367132,0.09963409422812114,0.07081943015715632,0.12843135114898946,0.0,0.0,0.12239532859498273,0.0,0.09985490093882604,0.04912320792391839,0.04684136771678802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05782277205359941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06940215864566303,0.07851243036989643,0.0,0.0,0.058170230471737035,0.0,0.06757843678263371,0.06269716824023107,0.06611499672562975,0.0,0.061128715658977005,0.0,0.052057026832085865,0.0,0.0609885018475595,0.1931212982005416,0.04773990921538893,0.0660661095372522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273518639646843,0.08583861091197398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552147482382856,0.0,0.0,0.15857697041210012,0.0,0.0390939169474285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06213031531228388,0.0,0.0,0.046747608282526665,0.0,0.17221388970429066,0.0,0.0,0.056564358603744334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062371927094585514,0.07937300887293794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05590881371711556,0.0,0.051138431849276314,0.061190033476546224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609098176067735,0.05958367846820953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11716566715627068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15004765432746295,0.0,0.0,0.11727153719587577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616402207864235,0.0,0.048447214809760684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04508772600775315,0.0,0.0,0.08290802617225207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245385695267015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039737959729616,0.0,0.04403508360815569,0.0470739236795216,0.10238025183026347,0.053920610623819885,0.0,0.06800078307807586,0.03890930211928337,0.15010943539784166,0.0,0.0,0.06830175931407087,0.0,0.0,0.05596326354218722,0.0,0.07952627610298538,0.06370406122518206,0.0,0.060970296361339174,0.0,0.05058307034935139,0.0,0.04832389586010757,0.13817729955341584,0.0,0.04697890227618549,0.07131880910830585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0635133964120355,0.0,0.05947761568950756,0.0,0.041604305434387326,0.12806760714751236,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tomatoterror,2019/08/15,"for dinner I had two shots of vodka and a light string cheese stick guess I'm back ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

It's been OVER a year of not tracking. I gained a little. Still in the same size clothes, but the scale moved up a bit. I booked a vacation (for December) and somehow this has triggered me tf out. The last vacation I had was Paris and I hard restricted before that, so even though this one is way more low-key (New Orleans) I'm somehow back in my obsessive goal-oriented type 1 bullshit.

Related, any NOLA tips or recommendations? Haven't booked a hotel yet, gonna be there 4 days. I know I need to go to the market and I want to take a swamp tour and a cemetery tour. I'm vegetarian so most local staples for food are out. I plan on not counting calories during.",1.2943137254901984,3.662516470588237,2.882091503267976,90.42941176470592,83.640522875817,5.952941176470588,22.72549019607843,7.285733465282438,0.8766627450980393,592,21,125,9,17,194,110,153,0.10400000000000001,0.885,0.011000000000000001,-0.9134,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,11,1,0,1,12,0,9,2,0,1,0,21,19,10,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,7,2,1,1,4,0,2,3,1,0,2,4,2,11,0,15,13,4,20,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,5,8,76,15,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15619776499709964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532364213930101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195450134165959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507630962902995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813170125287795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517087475437559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777432841487096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13053869568256746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253030545954267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575803136195664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262321735768738,0.18722883170648466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23021073660261185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441251960749936,0.0,0.1703129754262851,0.0,0.22183701124827154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556445745765914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18343153935302225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269905606344785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256702536581507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22437474388442946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547771031057795,0.182318034552042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791348138800384
EDAnonymous,bluehydrangea98,2019/03/13,If I gain 3 more pounds I'll be overweight Eating normally for a year and then bingeing for the past couple of months has really done its damage. I hate bingeing so much but I can't stop. All I can do is cry about my BMI,0.34562500000000185,2.309150645833334,2.4123333333333328,94.86600000000004,84.20833333333334,5.506666666666668,17.933333333333334,6.742157984588678,-0.10779666666666632,173,4,40,2,5,58,42,48,0.214,0.6940000000000001,0.092,-0.7140000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,1,6,8,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,4,6,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34863390540005496,0.3461044351617857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224398203653269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224090863922145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110797293386333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514966476923101,0.0,0.2316226302152404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087149364274803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007828580518864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018505615360761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634239187621863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20290344686063347
EDAnonymous,TemporaryAccount_101,2019/03/13,"I've started purging again I don't know how to feel about it.  


it's just so...easy and liberating. But my teeth are already shit to begin with, and adding acid on top of their natural sensitivity just does not sound like a good idea.

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I know I should stop, and I will, I just need to get it off my chest.

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I'm glad I found this new subreddit. I was so devastated when the last one suddenly disappeared. How are you doing you lovely human beings? c:",1.756129032258066,4.157826817204303,3.3896881720430123,87.32453225806455,81.90322580645163,6.730752688172044,22.203225806451613,7.908726449838941,1.1377019354838709,366,12,76,7,10,121,70,93,0.17600000000000002,0.711,0.113,-0.7377,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,1,1,9,5,1,0,2,0,8,4,3,2,0,19,18,8,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,3,12,4,8,13,0,12,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,0,9,48,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379356103616847,0.0,0.0,0.40019077943193704,0.4488009114725104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16161042130097006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337727756969566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024867110654333,0.0,0.0,0.09648511564836107,0.0,0.0,0.15489670895011734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084757050253925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20298520654275695,0.15053485176485334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902229237668905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667648463402124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369342439182617,0.0,0.17836035881785645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514062470154996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956633252921484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071398369912954,0.0,0.0,0.15439664973441564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4488009114725104,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Zed_Leppelin-,2019/03/13,"Logged into old account just to post. My favorite junk foods don't sound good today. So, I just got done with another weight loss competition at work. Lost by .44%.  Cool, I lost weight but something else changed. I got done with the competition and felt like I could have a free-for-all-day on my favorite snacks and none of the sound good. What the heck happened to me? I mean, yay for not wanting them. But, I'd rather restrict than have a day of favorite foods. That's a first. Not sure how I feel about it. 

That's all.",1.1121428571428569,3.4972178571428607,1.6453571428571436,98.85089285714287,84.71428571428572,4.642857142857143,20.17857142857143,5.985473137389443,-0.24200000000000044,405,12,92,3,12,123,71,105,0.14,0.684,0.17600000000000002,0.7842,0,0,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,5,6,9,0,0,6,2,6,5,0,1,2,21,15,6,0,3,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,5,5,1,3,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,7,7,10,6,13,7,2,8,0,3,0,0,1,3,1,0,5,53,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434423819456911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16579871863132212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251355179963593,0.0,0.0,0.202154744258396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207767863656497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13092714074565526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924699585137268,0.0,0.15048461639437752,0.0,0.0,0.13331378274693273,0.3790351565646286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629140444236928,0.25070132740174256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385951194556002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656997346187236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3421768855533741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072405231654128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644609372392987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15010325560614307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065780004560556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14771542204988175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856096163299826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244294654320608,0.0,0.0,0.38170790016781775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410072876515487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TetchyRobot,2019/03/13,"What am i doing wrong? I hadnt weighed myself for 2 weeks, but since then I've been heavily restricting. Minimum 18 hours between eating, regularly more, I have had a few carb based binges, but I fasted for days after and they were at the milder end of binging. despite all this, I've gained 2 lbs since my last weigh in. I don't know if it's water retention, because my period is due, or because I'm doing something wrong, but this failure makes me want to binge so badly even though I'm 21 hours into a 48 hour fast because what's the point if I'm not loosing weight. I don't even feel skinny, I feel bloated and lethargic but I don't know what more I can do. During fasting I drink black coffee, cold green tea, and water, and when I eat I eat raw vegetables. Help?",4.415696202531648,4.729559936708863,5.3593417721519,84.78027848101266,69.8860759493671,8.092151898734178,27.8253164556962,7.908726449838941,1.5760005063291138,602,19,126,7,10,198,105,158,0.14800000000000002,0.797,0.055,-0.946,0,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,1,5,3,0,0,4,0,14,12,1,1,1,21,23,15,0,3,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,5,12,1,4,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,6,17,0,9,19,4,19,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,3,15,72,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832918645666905,0.2810737524851563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09912077740536153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056291774045202,0.0,0.4718060992083936,0.0,0.0,0.1361284493044237,0.0,0.0,0.2030286409802326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554259607340634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301874456836764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540768418485757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893387536471266,0.1252822130204476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259283084754234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452917720978299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25427674186222776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118322179223794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15100488815473212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065349181508812,0.0,0.12328512850490793,0.18715951458473293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33608344681354513,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,I-Slap-Cat-Butts,2019/03/13,"evolving EDs howdy friends

for as long as i can remember, i've had an unhealthy relationship with food. i started off as a binge eater around age 5 and binged and ate compulsively well into high school. i started purging around age 17 and lost a significant amount of weight over the span of about 6 months, around 80 pounds. this evolved into patterns of restricting and b/p-ing and overexercising that led to another 25 pounds of weight loss, which led to restriction and a loss of another 30 pounds. i'm amazed at how fast it took over my life. in 15 months i went from binge eating to extreme restriction and lost an entire person in weight. for the last 5 years it's pretty much been the same. i'm curious about how many others have similar stories, with EDs starting in early childhood and changing over the years. ",8.252209677419355,7.633026438709678,7.344314516129034,76.91647177419357,62.03225806451614,10.846774193548386,35.504032258064505,10.125756701596842,3.3385,658,25,124,12,8,202,99,155,0.121,0.7809999999999999,0.098,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,8,7,0,0,9,0,4,7,0,4,0,24,14,13,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,6,15,6,3,1,0,0,4,0,4,1,0,7,3,5,3,31,7,3,33,0,4,0,0,3,15,0,0,14,68,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818239670059988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35888729539283604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215908364816254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750705615424233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624961006106533,0.0,0.10382374472871972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419827062236083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953984060295904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09491847888981604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892446537289066,0.0,0.0,0.2933891944244513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624297092819262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452598649629925,0.0,0.09878675063411448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733779484543524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13671552269818155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14427673411955014,0.1522294087102799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600247206752952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28535031132883754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930413011844387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4909257962642969,0.12082619073767716,0.12457411409340174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17307611254735525
EDAnonymous,catsxinfinity,2019/03/13,"I feel good about this I had a friend in college who would make fun of my weight. Mind you, I wasn't even overweight, just not as thin as her. Now, five years later, I have a BMI in the low-average range, and she's morbidly obese. I just think that's wonderful how that worked out.",0.8098870056497169,2.8162127288135608,1.8450000000000024,99.34908192090398,82.72881355932203,5.967231638418079,18.30790960451977,7.1686216300943375,-0.08527344632768408,217,5,53,3,6,68,49,59,0.0,0.7390000000000001,0.261,0.935,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,2,0,12,8,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,4,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,4,9,3,7,5,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,35,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23386646254778204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903345778936136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735612851650265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2969854564761029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363511110278645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575198049787335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268801299685257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311739801514321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3839845934937761,0.2577744151390173,0.0,0.0,0.2515282320311695,0.0,0.0,0.22801587393873
EDAnonymous,ss-vs-ss,2019/03/13,I just realised I act like a nicer person when I relapse because restricting means I have so much more free time to talk to friends and family and I’m way more organised so I remember to text/call them regularly :(,1.9464285714285687,4.6162941190476205,3.700285714285717,83.49471428571428,84.0,8.121904761904762,27.447619047619053,8.841846274778883,2.734241904761905,171,8,33,5,5,57,32,42,0.11699999999999999,0.619,0.264,0.7818,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,3,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22281997598879386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445834009181444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28240285742888765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857651358870238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.398162682707526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26870212327712223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319161369447208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140673226227906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2937942639909495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131399248082433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901358570659333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,satancookie22,2019/03/13,Hey guys Long time no see I was feeling good for the last few months and ate like a normal human no purging and I talked myself out of guilt every time I ate cake but I weighed myself today and I’m up 8 pounds and all I can see is my flat flabby ass and I’m back to hating myself for letting slip and my bf never compliments my looks 🙃,0.6589575289575293,2.3771649729729742,2.724749034749036,94.35635135135138,81.70270270270271,4.769111969111969,17.328185328185327,5.288315135182226,-0.6209706563706567,264,5,60,1,7,89,53,74,0.21899999999999997,0.716,0.064,-0.9167,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,1,2,0,4,4,1,0,2,12,13,7,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,4,11,3,6,9,2,10,0,0,3,1,5,2,1,0,9,36,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19665291978456506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154770703448112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12931288297801072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145076459655322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25322878959046224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249626888434273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084671579319864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615176549338525,0.0,0.12494459772929015,0.0,0.0,0.22632719902093526,0.2147622637178013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20413405050285924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19724711358064306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505768208122369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075929673215542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20555898080790166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982551471080113,0.0,0.242417343905105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,RaniBlue,2019/03/13,"Trying not to panic as a New ED Fear™ is taking over Didn't eat until 6pm. Had about a cup and a half of a friend's homemade yellow curry (no rice base, just curry), and I tried to just ignore the ED and enjoy it, but now it feels like a rock in my stomach. 

I don't know the exact ingredients, which has never been one of My ED Things™, but fuck if this isn't making me think it's going to be a problem moving forward.

What if there's loads of butter or something in it? Or cream - is that a thing to put in curry? I found a homemade yellow curry to log on MFP, and even made the quantity higher just in case. My brain is just screaming that it's somehow over a thousand calories and I ruined my streak of no binging for two weeks. I binged for _months_ and I finally got back in control recently. 

I worry my ED is at a turning point right now, and it's about to get much more strict. I feel like I can only trust packaged food, or food I make myself. I'm trying to breathe but I feel like I'm having a panic attack.

Hahahahakillme",2.167860962566849,3.2941825454545466,4.0997860962566826,88.71879679144386,75.81818181818181,6.085561497326204,22.032085561497325,6.2272716619740125,0.3213556149732621,800,20,174,5,17,273,128,220,0.13,0.7709999999999999,0.098,-0.8425,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,12,14,2,2,14,0,13,7,3,4,2,35,30,17,0,3,13,0,3,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,12,7,3,2,6,1,0,4,7,8,0,4,6,8,18,6,26,23,2,25,0,1,3,1,1,12,1,6,14,118,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343797963069056,0.0,0.10370933029425423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056333558290413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512720025641344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13800917392928996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908261806920427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517700880358712,0.20458815216311926,0.2890607821979254,0.0,0.14774723271488366,0.0,0.0,0.3261789356736974,0.14788173715867972,0.10420286525648248,0.12468829812285015,0.07046579223376756,0.0,0.07665166945886412,0.0,0.1078705902706158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412290120944302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767701240213253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762048563533931,0.18005810259883312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076546724609916,0.14334909459816014,0.09914747818381164,0.0,0.1040226917267911,0.13026158390071632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139371602518348,0.1025773091412311,0.0,0.3164897829675165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274989713756594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905564235370187,0.0,0.13558503357557414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13317122528986697,0.0,0.0,0.11518115880594265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038321435834802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10140802228806894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960390337023715,0.08642143788080865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27471058479079496,0.1467035447928002,0.13175172781692926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818731744635747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369704990492102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Valaxian,2019/03/13,"DAE hate cooking? Hey y’all. Been struggling since like 13 or so, relapsed over the years and ‘recovered’ too. But there’s one fuckin thing that plagues me even through my ‘recovered’ periods. Cooking. 

I can’t express my hatred for it enough. I hate it. My mum tried to get me to cook so she could cook less, but I had a panic attack half way through and begged her to finish it. I hate chopping up the ingredients and mixing it, and the smell, I want to eat it right then but I also hate the smell as well? I don’t know if it’s just me being lazy, I feel like I’m not a lazy person, or if it’s being of my ED. 

I like my meals as simple as possible. Something I can spend as little time possible preparing, and then be done with it. I lived by myself for 3 months and I cooked once for a special date night with my boyfriend, but other than that I was living off packages of shredded cabbage and other ready to eat stuff. I loved it. Cooking makes my stomach turn. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even want my mum or my boyfriend to cook. It just stresses me out, and the food shopping! Hell. No. Every time someone wants to go food shopping with me I nope the hell out of there and go to the cleaning aisle until they’re finished. 

Does anyone else feel this way? I don’t remember seeing anyone else feeling this way on MPA and a lot of them actually love to cook. But it’d be nice to know if there are any more of you out there. ",0.9994381900844332,3.1214382315436278,2.3744684996752525,95.16045356137694,82.79194630872483,5.0532149815977485,21.022299198960816,6.207218560251982,0.07512976834812646,1115,34,248,9,31,359,158,298,0.146,0.725,0.129,-0.8334,0,0,1,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,1,0,14,19,8,3,12,0,16,17,1,1,0,42,38,31,0,7,14,2,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,20,16,13,0,6,10,3,2,7,11,1,2,5,6,37,8,38,27,4,28,2,0,1,3,12,11,3,7,15,168,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.10106189153933323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828187550208881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07042593326811784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448263731517735,0.21222368369069067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781709704398564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08268609070202701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062808974308807,0.10598021599793324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119402285786506,0.1730260697904694,0.0,0.0,0.10700756714523353,0.0,0.13680387975979913,0.0,0.08725572661415364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709267181090186,0.07398494668615377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504559523689487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05410704117630695,0.0,0.1177137133968382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089854270546811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138302924216548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178596465883604,0.10379665787075022,0.18289486315473533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804498649722448,0.1869380858718651,0.0,0.06912865705903576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08266246090507161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09718622783943304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029049772707396,0.07017651259529324,0.0,0.0,0.12150807630243178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042662884354506,0.0,0.0,0.09789987276767953,0.23350192502290598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731592756323495,0.08844166090651615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252576589599436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566782659698872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08774802310199797,0.07972733847450282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118630295011889,0.1082658293644603,0.1185540866797425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880220792987789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077605072166556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703120216285603,0.112646072472743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18325122998707435,0.24660886284464315,0.0,0.0,0.0931149687856978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669074278930928
EDAnonymous,pleasureheads,2019/07/20,"i have no friends and nothing to live for and realising this feels like the best thing for me TW specifically for self harm and suicide

just the title really. i moved here to be with a partner that became a horrible bitter alcoholic and i left them just a month ago and i've barely spoken to a single person since then because turns out they were it. nobody else picks up the phone or wants to spend any time with me or has wanted to know if i'm ok coming out of this. nobody can stand to be around me except one person who i guess was at least brave enough to make me know just how embarrassing i am (and the people before them). my life is completely hollow and i think i'm grateful to know this because i've never felt so motivated. if i have nothing else in the world why shouldn't i have this. i'll be my own best friend until the end and i'll spoil myself rotten. i can hit myself and cut myself multiple times a day, i can do it just because i'm bored, noone's going to walk in on me, i've got nothing to hide. what does it matter if i take too many laxatives and diuretics, i have no social life to disrupt, i have nowhere better to be than in the bathroom crying. i can exercise every day, what else do i even have to do? the people i live with barely know me and i spend every day in my room. i could die and nobody would have any reason to know until my body started to smell. every day i hope my hand slips. every day i hope i can see this through until i give myself a heart attack

i probably won't. i'll just keep existing in this dirty shell alone because i can't do anything right. but it's nice to dream for once. i'm sorry for posting this thing honestly i just don't know where else to say any of it.",3.704406740535549,4.2205370803324085,4.9853912742382285,86.11064462142198,71.54847645429362,7.678716528162512,23.905932594644504,7.645422480735847,0.957750600184673,1350,32,291,15,24,450,180,361,0.094,0.799,0.10800000000000001,0.7936,0,1,1,0,0,2,25.0,0,0,3,4,13,19,3,1,14,1,31,7,3,5,1,57,60,24,2,10,13,0,3,1,3,3,4,1,1,4,18,19,1,1,11,2,2,4,7,7,0,1,4,8,43,12,44,47,6,39,0,0,1,0,14,16,0,8,18,191,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770197955857796,0.09285543242172496,0.0,0.08998839239791732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17725775688666034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150033089488005,0.07734756243781223,0.0,0.0988461370018704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.211861244269352,0.0,0.0739341615336131,0.0,0.18236441137727,0.07684420390555298,0.0,0.0965115095285275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07484517766270334,0.09109902640663384,0.0,0.0,0.06937194053109519,0.0,0.0954409333969523,0.2801735894276678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09017465176273916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07603511544354752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903306740450197,0.0,0.0769558053582814,0.08977716229356503,0.0,0.057387829866814774,0.0,0.2928230867504867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393251389768745,0.06207185849677966,0.08342483434366857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13425686026263992,0.0,0.0,0.08334961655249368,0.04937970011720277,0.0,0.0694912118239935,0.0,0.09571546899853364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296112907394156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17259614757633246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722886958356838,0.0,0.0,0.2865038681645629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09440262739924556,0.0,0.12274125721384495,0.04244844094239565,0.0,0.15344505300094033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057997530730719886,0.08808945177939369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935211561428956,0.09234678583391387,0.0,0.0,0.06701236071067945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25011032610640804,0.0,0.0,0.09253147396990076,0.05887666011426264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204725617861994,0.1517321877307726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321341764642788,0.0,0.0936785319523351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055661829328181735,0.08933397359791656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420074632610149,0.0,0.06909577191016864,0.0,0.0,0.06923743129483398,0.0,0.09064175205820946,0.0,0.0,0.0718735560196074,0.0,0.0,0.08857002400178675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097262519954185,0.061498836279499564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09503992096206257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532796696294768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544729316372265,0.055673473472642065,0.0,0.0,0.10132863867560407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450775304883292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10249602499429593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840171048146921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06172180153260014,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ana-kitten,2019/07/20,"I'm pushing away my girlfriend cuz I'm too embarrassed for her to see me... I'm a lesbian and I've been with my girlfriend for 1 year now, we were friends before that tho...I've gained so much weight recently and I'm way too ashamed for her to see me like this and so I keep making up excuses not to see her. She thinks I'm not in love with her anymore and that I'm avoiding her. I just don't want her to see me like this.....I'm trying to lose a few lbs in a week and then maybe I can see her.... idk what to do.   She knows about my eating disorder and she hates it when I starve myself or say I'm fat even though I actually am fat.  She is way thinner than me and calls herself fat and it just makes me more insecure.  I want to see her but I don't want her to see me like I am now.....  help.",-0.9464204545454536,0.9153599261363644,1.3851818181818203,100.80527272727277,88.94318181818181,4.883636363636365,17.89090909090909,6.2581,-0.481878636363636,601,16,157,6,20,202,91,176,0.131,0.7859999999999999,0.084,-0.2348,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,0,2,13,11,1,4,3,0,9,7,3,3,0,27,33,16,0,3,6,0,1,3,3,0,3,1,0,0,6,11,5,2,2,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,2,9,33,5,19,31,3,14,0,1,7,2,23,4,0,1,10,98,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.12515823124436826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719434670034288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12049965214642748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913542973837306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096254016719924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699116796883366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13123672897071734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471111789669879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908937787457364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662511030422427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08596652151703618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399880238554742,0.0,0.0,0.0704855106337421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18797652186260916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348436925805055,0.0,0.0,0.11575500826057873,0.0,0.17122221470473992,0.0,0.1288492340369772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428207090932728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266361902073196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199340337541456,0.0,0.0,0.7154175638328177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218052827585476,0.12600973755913353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08707662332662126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269440980095916,0.2036054580857701,0.10287830332968374,0.15617985353130412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825919174947804
EDAnonymous,hellopoteto,2019/07/20,"I feel like my eating behaviour can only be one of two extremes For me it is either vomit out unhealthy food and eat very little/ healthy, or binge all food in the world and eat way too much. Its making me go crazy, i feel like there is no middle road. I lost some weight while in the ""eat too little""-phase, but regained all of it and more when I went back to unhealthy eating. EDs are rough.. :(",3.456751054852319,4.801608367088608,3.5855063291139264,92.80754219409285,72.92405063291139,5.772995780590718,23.29324894514768,5.46131890053228,0.19431476793248906,307,8,65,1,6,94,59,79,0.177,0.7609999999999999,0.062,-0.8782,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,0,5,9,0,1,2,13,11,7,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,4,8,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,4,7,2,7,8,6,13,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,2,5,44,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363986837455944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7561202215513243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494521313678389,0.21115958836115992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3574117315321867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399134005861142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440352734781256,0.14812242578363335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16132808664025536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09864965389829518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864120266238078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014499013633227,0.11239945216068778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14436742542600456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219405977668462,0.0,0.1173072548243884,0.0,0.1799659994273287,0.0,0.13700097926932006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lisbethhazarii,2019/07/20,"Eugenia Cooney’s Situation So as it’s known, the new video with Eugenia and Shane has brought it into focus about Eugenia’s disorder and path to recovery. However, the video itself just felt very underwhelming. I wish Shane asked better questions/told less insensitive jokes.I can’t help but feel as if many points of her Ed and recovery were glossed over/not talked about in detail. I get that’s it’s a private thing and the video had good intentions but it just felt incomplete. She still seemed in denial of her ED and she only stayed in treatment for like a month. Also, why were their locks not eh door that she didn’t know how to open and a metal bar that Shane needed to lift for her to open the door in her own home? Another thing I wanted to point out was the situation with her mother is weirdly unsettling. Watching her old videos and I always found her mom and their relationship sort of off. There were a few speculations that her mother had been abusing her and That she suffered from Munchausen by proxy. Like how did her mother never intervene and take her to the doctor for years until the intervention. Surely she knew something was wrong. Like your daughter is clearly sick. I also heard that she even called the cops on Eugenia’s friends for kidnapping when she found out her daughter was being taken to the hospital. The whole situation is weird. How did she live such a lonely, sheltered life even with her family?. I also heard that she was bullied in school, which also could have been a reason for her disorder. Overall though, I feel like the situation isn’t as simple as its made seem and something deeper is definitely going on. I can’t help but think that the fact that she has to go through with her recovery and problems all under the public eye will be incredibly difficult for her. I just really wanted to point out the unusual things I observed. She seems like a really sweet girl and I want her to be healthy, so I’m keeping my fingers crossed. However, it will probably take way longer and be much more difficult than it’s made seem.",5.0487414965986375,6.834232377551025,5.369775510204081,79.8371292517007,69.61224489795919,8.90013605442177,28.11768707482993,9.3871,2.5029864625850338,1660,59,304,36,30,527,201,392,0.11199999999999999,0.762,0.126,0.6195,2,2,2,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,2,1,21,18,0,0,21,0,31,6,2,7,5,69,63,34,0,8,8,6,5,5,1,2,3,2,3,1,21,24,1,1,15,5,0,4,6,8,0,0,25,10,43,10,47,31,7,32,0,2,2,0,48,18,0,8,13,209,64,2,0.0,0.1028314111148865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776222501204452,0.07221584854271719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09100639836814453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113650271003922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675829386854789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08862182239404871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929438431116915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989366602785304,0.08883277017564592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11464734320910525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181745276521069,0.0,0.08776679673296932,0.06200246359918937,0.16666313462903867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903204984525584,0.06705338210396629,0.0,0.045343951726083416,0.0,0.0986489895163875,0.07279494713734759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163463963357832,0.0,0.08705698343652728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714252949926037,0.0,0.0,0.04769726058125002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061302017668078926,0.21200492285161493,0.0,0.07663675249598076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16424471950050898,0.0,0.08799096981618112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164685847300553,0.0692745815581605,0.0,0.06380029688185758,0.06435334304315424,0.06693744244624499,0.08382187704017306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0910710210155249,0.0,0.0,0.0660073548660482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461325000364969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357380152716864,0.08304586709891112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11119920138894923,0.08923410028818664,0.0,0.0931794842009244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783564636833452,0.0,0.31603974481575353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902203101593063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362965368063834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250610025595993,0.06931023750464678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179811286279932,0.0,0.13050986362328273,0.0697581434646048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17297733865291032,0.055611231821051585,0.08527028085763375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08293112325840983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161045854447169,0.15357215522474182,0.06888949588905156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831405918824998,0.09689742022935084,0.09980368600568827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09489073582845647,0.0,0.05588961724521875
EDAnonymous,iamyourbrat,2019/07/20,"Struggling again, just seeking some love and support. 28-F 
I've been bulimic since I was 16. Grew up doing really competitive gymnastics and also I have a big problem with overeating, so the easiest way in my mind to combat that is to just throw it up I guess.

I've been doing good with it for years (used to throw up after every meal until I graduated high school), but today I'm writing this from my work bathroom after just purging all the pizza I gorged in my face.

My cousin died suddenly this week and last night my boyfriend didn't come home until 6am even after I asked him not to stay out too late because I've been so beat up about my cousin and just generally worried. Now I'm binge eating and I know it's bad because it's been years since I've purged at work. I don't even know why I'm posting here, but here I am. Thanks for listening",3.47972148541114,4.730834408045979,4.549540229885056,86.28409814323608,72.73563218390804,7.4228116710875325,25.453580901856764,7.882392219407189,1.2980801061007958,673,21,140,9,13,220,107,174,0.10400000000000001,0.815,0.08,-0.7281,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,15,7,0,1,3,0,12,5,1,1,1,26,25,12,1,1,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,7,9,3,0,2,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,6,1,16,4,24,19,2,33,0,0,0,1,7,11,0,2,15,86,23,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130021949280241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15199828163000612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357545900654421,0.19822485749522947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400555795616151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874117356382112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636860602254733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477631619773227,0.0,0.13698780737979754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637150365928827,0.0,0.0,0.17910954188677972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178365659456965,0.16308950280410295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870875388153945,0.1325313121721142,0.1834068880938765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14674245171668324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416801674882192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525782750983112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15571482091064404,0.0,0.0,0.15557521798319385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041583440572546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454822266077038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689897427685989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17329768734854778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997278177942515,0.0,0.0,0.18450348114627987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14968962858423132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411486873872068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042424456335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905516811482676,0.13041867203763727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671081481814627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23673270074913594,0.16511649439120002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094033018058808
EDAnonymous,aryn1235,2019/07/20,"Went from binging to very little calories. It's so frustrating. I went from constantly binge eating to absolutely being nauseated by the thought of food. I've only been eating 700-900 calories a day and I can't bring myself to eat a whole lot more. Food is just not what I want, especially after always consuming so much during my binges. I feel fine, but my husband has spent the day telling me that it won't be fine if I continue. He is losing weight so rapidly eating like a normal person and it's really upsetting me. He's dropped 10 pounds by just eating a 1600-1800 calorie diet, and I'm struggling to lose a couple pounds on just 800. It's just defeating.",3.5083622484385835,5.413709343511453,4.998056904927137,80.4404024982651,73.88549618320609,7.81707147814018,26.412907702984036,8.575989854853784,2.0281847328244282,528,19,98,10,11,177,88,131,0.17,0.775,0.055999999999999994,-0.9420000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,7,9,1,2,7,0,8,9,0,0,0,15,16,8,0,3,7,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,9,0,2,0,1,3,3,6,0,0,5,2,10,3,11,8,4,11,0,3,0,0,5,2,0,2,6,59,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027460240955203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321658244385807,0.0,0.0,0.1466406285743733,0.0,0.17094026176560126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6780503897403821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701055799935078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32050877222403995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06474689157048556,0.13282870325280155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965317202283582,0.0,0.11267127115884105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742393829377424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298501139069541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079414644908632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571906162688915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08490136146619247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854790718770188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583603800993705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521308662971708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10935016348504432,0.07816893706081217,0.0,0.0,0.16138441027454345,0.0,0.24571110450607356,0.0,0.14796370472587264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SalarianExperience,2019/07/20,"I Feel Like I May Have an Eating Disorder I'm not sure if these types of posts are allowed here, but I really don't have anyone to reach out to so I'm sorry if I'm breaking any rules. I've been skinny since I was a kid so I can't really look back and see if I changed at all, and I'm just barely in the BMI region so I haven't really been worried about being too skinny much in the past. But, I'm realizing how I have a very unhealthy relationship with food. I eat food, but it's always really the same foods, it's not really that I wouldn't like other foods, but food like pizza or a burger for example seem like they'd make me sick because there is just too much there, and all at the same time too, so I eat mainly single foods for meals. One thing that makes me think I might not have an eating disorder, other than that I'm not really underweight, is that I do eat out, I don't necessarily eat a whole bunch but I do eat out. Another weird thing is that I go between fluctuations of thinking I'm too thin and too fat, and sometimes I think I'm the right weight. I just can't really tell, but no matter what I don't change my very low eating habits, sometimes I do eat a decent amount of chips as a meal substitute though so I don't really know. Also, I seem to get hungry in like the mornings and throughout the day, but after I don't eat I just feel really full so I don't end up eating, and if I do it's only a little. I guess maybe I've learned how to suppress that feeling? But I don't know because at nights I feel hungry again and end up eating my only real ""meal"" which is usually just a lot of one thing. I think part of that is that I don't really like eating around anyone though, and that's the only time I can really do that. I know this kind written like a mess, but I don't really know how to  describe these things, and I've never really tried before so in a way it's kind of me just getting things out, but again I just really don't know and just want to get this out there so, I guess thanks for reading/listening?",6.128776908023482,4.165565321917811,7.280815394651011,80.01157534246578,67.013698630137,10.717286366601437,28.163078930202218,9.48565724429506,2.020853098499673,1593,32,360,26,21,547,171,438,0.11900000000000001,0.82,0.062,-0.9732,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,1,0,36,14,0,0,20,0,37,28,3,6,4,84,73,41,0,6,27,0,6,7,0,3,2,0,0,1,27,18,27,1,17,0,0,1,20,3,0,2,4,8,42,11,36,64,14,37,0,1,2,0,4,20,0,12,20,242,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038340844310662085,0.039893295361411917,0.0,0.0,0.03260360219354851,0.050273523099727366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670471975060421,0.0,0.0,0.04268037462488389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03686601970131974,0.0,0.058452503148887475,0.0,0.040796860461741816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143690831617384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030919949846862936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989608384937584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6377636017690618,0.0,0.0,0.08492840624142102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696782120955763,0.034251243230002844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.347844857388928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514637142256532,0.0,0.0272477119309495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056315660248084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985271311583677,0.13174399683003726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639613083068045,0.048052539529068836,0.0,0.0,0.04026093207257792,0.0,0.0,0.04076032196780818,0.0,0.0,0.06400605942548061,0.0,0.04816624843289168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050861066944885236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048879543797565,0.0,0.03697741169192232,0.0,0.0,0.04499224879427895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497626637837628,0.10939084523001212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05191874060043596,0.04576802649371271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04591715274572422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457083208763707,0.4299986598699177,0.0,0.0,0.05147397364794057,0.0,0.04094396191463955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038205205343142784,0.0872929359711275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03965981861426828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09483579474230278,0.05366944552315329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04518670544335585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04190521821755283,0.04414044533434032,0.0,0.0,0.1592595023798609,0.12288246091226702,0.09420958331028813,0.0,0.05591312929067925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032550866935256516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05280360426650897,0.07911773471694124,0.028278646452725542,0.03805576008949159,0.0,0.058382944078989175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053527826411702194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048689516190305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DrakenJosh98,2019/07/20,"First post here. Long-ish I don’t know if I have an eating disorder or not. I am not sure. Eating just doesn’t make me anymore. The feeling of regret and emptiness after is mind numbing. Maybe it’s because I’m becoming increasingly suicidal. My hatred of myself makes me not want to eat because I don’t deserve it. I wish I could throw up the bad food I eat after making terrible dining decisions. When I first went on my now failed health journey, I did intermittent fasting. I used to eat small portions because I though it would help. I lost weight fast but not in the best way. My family took note & yelled at me for looking too skinny. I did it all wrong and when they pointed it out to me, I felt like a failure. I felt so stupid I did all the work to have a body people would like and now I look worse. I hated asking for help because it makes me look even more pathetic. My brother is muscled and is into fitness. Asking him anything makes me sink more in my depression because I remember that I could never be him. He is everything my parents dreamed I would be. I am a loser, gay and hideous. I try so hard to not think of myself and often imagine I am somebody else in my head. Anyone but me is better. I just hate food because it reminds me of the old worthless me who was only happy eating food. The young me who ate and ate and gained no weight. Those years are done. Eating is now a chore for me. I force myself to eat due to all of my problems. I feel so disgusted at myself that I just ignore my hunger because I don’t deserve to eat. I guess its my gateway to self-harm.",1.9716205128205144,3.92004735692308,3.5574615384615385,88.85270512820513,78.50769230769231,5.933333333333334,24.371794871794872,6.88968998030894,0.9106410256410252,1241,44,254,13,30,411,171,325,0.254,0.6609999999999999,0.085,-0.9964,1,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,1,9,16,22,4,0,11,0,28,24,3,6,5,55,56,18,1,10,12,2,7,2,0,3,2,1,1,0,13,10,19,1,9,1,0,5,11,16,0,2,12,11,58,6,28,37,8,35,0,6,3,1,12,12,0,4,18,181,71,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482325569914412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06848601075969793,0.04828627622148933,0.0,0.05682804598831717,0.0,0.12911798920922332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05765972979168206,0.2946756423102118,0.07626805650163143,0.0,0.0,0.0724710852850192,0.06107532509046178,0.0,0.0767067848951984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027282748091947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059478712823281925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914533131579007,0.0,0.0,0.0706693107384032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6359631728112561,0.057688281613361564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04561151247867303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062063999557985215,0.0,0.06510081548016665,0.0,0.06983461164202642,0.0,0.13261114356574874,0.0,0.0,0.1174797371766903,0.2505120794137999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607409652465695,0.0,0.0,0.07351248522170471,0.061861528534116174,0.136359026823315,0.07087242867309794,0.07340438632491224,0.0,0.0,0.09257493387595143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037951933909750185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674755465832274,0.0,0.0,0.061113292363693984,0.17397152089609033,0.0,0.07538389833828663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304804958469219,0.0,0.06937706161913461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972790740711063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05326103346082396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246372912312213,0.0,0.0,0.0525209779116425,0.0,0.0,0.07667965182741092,0.0,0.0,0.047875444741520515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06528120805117253,0.0,0.06613753902493992,0.0,0.0,0.06607824477145631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822814533320001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204153589161108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07553717488522657,0.0,0.06508542703459992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04424895201511874,0.06784817459405425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07672489362407876,0.04688518567664511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059643095631762226,0.0,0.0,0.04073162144213687,0.05481425061306474,0.0,0.1681857001804013,0.0,0.0640165522852431,0.0,0.0,0.07941216852035142,0.0,0.0,0.050274335296766726,0.0,0.07037500626614049,0.14716838364565746,0.07550301402896135,0.0,0.044470458766044885
EDAnonymous,Edith-Anne-Newton,2019/07/20,"Do you guys ever wonder or worry if /this/ fucked up your one chance at having a decent life? I know it's cliche. I know I could feed myself properly and go to therapy. I know I'm supposed to be able to do things differently and make a good life. 

On the other hand I don't know if I want to. I read about how just eating intuitively and learning to accept yourself will make you happy and I can't stand it. I lost 7 years I'm not getting back to the isolation and for what? If I just tried another route things would be different? It's weird. Why would I want to keep it up if I already regret it? Why does it feel so good to keep my intake in check if I know it could easily kill me?

And now I have no social skills. I'm an adult with no adult traits except age. In every way I'm years behind my peers. I was always ostracized but now I'm doomed forever if I can't catch up. I haven't even grown out of my sloppy teen style. It's so embarrassing. Am I just dramatic? Does anyone else get that feeling?",0.6449447748513144,2.6436975046728968,2.870926083262532,91.8048088360238,83.29906542056074,6.1338997451146975,17.67119796091759,7.348242739294969,0.16214766355140187,782,17,177,12,22,266,125,214,0.142,0.777,0.081,-0.9294,2,1,0,0,0,1,21.0,0,3,0,2,12,11,2,1,5,0,17,6,1,3,1,44,41,17,1,13,13,0,3,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,14,8,2,2,10,1,1,3,7,7,0,1,2,3,26,4,22,32,0,20,1,3,0,1,7,8,1,8,7,113,40,2,0.1268478826976031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997979282922632,0.0,0.10554759997642328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13301106507907445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869498894234137,0.1299706460129514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753819194193836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255542525576006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26505807844680856,0.0,0.0,0.2220108739229388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297970516082797,0.1059651292290512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08378183019089293,0.11474117207831935,0.10687481207705088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827620168866258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11726882355438363,0.1325455665124232,0.0,0.07209057494765175,0.2127879714994359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12559934686633548,0.0,0.1350319298583929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254964528995621,0.14033838812751606,0.0,0.3485613948594045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791928217737612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846944831437016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16934389338120362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08595540816490292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126882209536145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293054420796636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506160876730428,0.0,0.16854419367815154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861213858379696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496363354607234,0.10068594500241937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289209684171173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13756111781714594,0.0,0.12882018222216912,0.0,0.1802181928496512,0.0,0.0,0.16337175517211755
EDAnonymous,GailaMonster,2019/03/20,"THIS is why I bake my quest bars I buy the ""quest"" style bars from Costco (they are way cheaper than the brand name bars, and come in a pretty decent variety of flavors). I always tell people to bake them, but I thought I would share the visual evidence of WHY:

[they puff up and you get a larger volume of food for the same cals!](https://imgur.com/a/nNOsRzF) The macros are the same, the texture is WAY better (they are softer, and the puffiness gives them a more authentic ""cookie"" texture), and they are WAY bigger than unbaked.

Just thought I would show people who haven't tried it so they know it's worth it. the only flavor I don't think get improved by cooking is the ""cookies n cream"" one. the chocolate chip cookie, the brownie, the cinnamon bun, the chocolate pb, they're all way better baked.",6.5361549707602355,6.817752644736848,5.9795614035087725,82.27304093567255,65.31578947368422,8.071345029239767,30.046783625730995,7.3871296695380915,1.7748748538011687,630,20,117,5,9,193,93,152,0.023,0.8740000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.8981,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,1,7,2,2,3,0,0,17,0,11,8,0,0,1,17,19,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,5,8,0,4,5,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,16,3,11,15,4,8,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,0,0,72,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744470369473986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134382306362352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15264222196306187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21427110104930647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18515950893095748,0.1699865117252807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09738455748107992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007539433076185,0.1347686841087394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456965176768015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18027623720805933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548807243767343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354268852915594,0.0,0.281354220173255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12030725681584654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5626128620801512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197911119278353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517557770243367,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonymoushelp89,2019/03/20,"Recovery + Group Chat(?) I’ve been attempting recovery, and I look like shit. Not to mention that my hair used to be *super* thick, and it’s been getting a LOT thinner, to the point where I was literally crying in front of the mirror just a few seconds ago. Seems really pathetic now that I actually write it down. 

Not sure if anyone would be interested, but I really want to form some sort of recovery chat where we all support each other/get through these shitty times. Age doesn’t really matter, but it’d be nice to relate to fellow teens out there going through similar shit (I’m 15 lol). 

ugh. I hate this, but I’m going to get through it. It’s either I start now or wait even longer for it to get worse and start then, and that’s not happening. ",3.220400000000001,4.802831506666667,4.703666666666667,83.60350000000003,73.93333333333334,8.466666666666667,24.5,9.075114841892004,1.8324,586,18,120,13,12,196,98,150,0.191,0.721,0.08800000000000001,-0.9623,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,2,7,10,3,0,4,1,9,3,3,1,2,29,26,10,0,3,10,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,11,7,0,1,1,2,0,3,4,4,0,1,3,3,8,6,17,18,7,18,0,0,1,0,7,7,2,6,9,76,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.1789423939780066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625461916652748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821637082086534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20142302553082927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12111396975075517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832124387019491,0.0,0.20842647370273185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16215323659222106,0.0,0.0,0.18103963399200407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958518215787993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398438080118487,0.0,0.0,0.15589437741171489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334365443152885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35241401160335983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693290495113555,0.0,0.0,0.3764527621496352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595800612829608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20808578366608108,0.1728237897125057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10692435755040576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837256182996026,0.0,0.0,0.1081562109905656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1868694089921246,0.13026058697689447,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Manicrose,2019/03/20,"Anyone else here into fitness/strength training and therefore has two conflicting goals? So sometimes I just want to eat as little as possible and lose weight and be a stick and weak and ill. Fuck muscle, fuck my butt, I’m fine being just bones....

BUT THEN I go to the gym and I feel proud of my strength and get pumped like “damn I love lifting and I better eat more so I can make gains or at least not lose my ability to hip thrust 225 lbs” 

I also know that I have to eat a certain amount of protein and keep my calorie deficit in check to keep as much muscle as possible (aka avoid getting skinnyfat)

I’m telling myself I’m on a cut now but I’m actually relapsing a little but, just trying to slow it down so I don’t lose too much muscle. 

Aaaaaaargh ",1.1748013750954909,3.497950422077924,2.5013827349121454,93.26367074102372,83.74025974025976,5.441711229946525,22.695187165775398,6.794906146795322,0.6123625668449201,591,21,126,7,17,190,98,154,0.166,0.728,0.106,-0.8057,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,8,10,16,4,1,5,0,6,12,3,2,1,28,22,22,0,1,8,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,4,4,2,1,1,1,2,9,0,1,0,2,14,7,17,20,5,11,0,3,0,4,2,7,4,1,4,74,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.13585041768099093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132744786424706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09733997149773356,0.14263871194196848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312132698430298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273445925649701,0.11629340937868335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703895561920024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2573977194986077,0.1454646065163559,0.0,0.07911714736467731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474752921199695,0.0,0.0,0.07650704204468901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06801174469405755,0.27905314477800564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4672264373009858,0.0,0.0,0.12564388346270888,0.0,0.09292480867074368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046730540295527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31388027238072497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768380932474866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167705433281699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09451552272319368,0.0,0.1359894825361487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211059498660564,0.0,0.0,0.1695221970192101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bees1280,2019/03/20,"i cant eat in front of people i had to eat breakfast in the bathroom today because i was that scared of someone coming out to the kitchen while i was eating. 

i feel so disgusting. ive been especially trying to not eat around my boyfriend because i feel like he thinks I'm gross. i dont even want him to know what I'm eating. 

ive actually been eating a little more now that i always do it completely alone. but im still losing weight cus ive been throwing up a few times a day for a few weeks now. its completely involuntary idk whats going on but i dont care about myself enough to go get it checked out",3.225736434108529,3.9679022713178287,4.81860465116279,86.0448062015504,72.7984496124031,7.593798449612403,25.96124031007752,7.793537801064563,1.2680449612403095,479,15,105,6,9,162,81,129,0.156,0.8290000000000001,0.015,-0.9267,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,1,1,6,0,13,9,0,0,0,12,25,4,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,4,9,0,4,0,1,5,4,4,0,0,6,3,15,2,16,19,4,21,0,1,0,0,2,8,0,0,9,67,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.11600333681817887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231170409983587,0.0,0.0,0.09891223086795403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10582257068967964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14492830020417596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119940197456658,0.0,0.0,0.10239894903425066,0.2492730955659494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666353932337126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27863758971496305,0.0,0.0,0.7298232799718256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282804788797358,0.0,0.07851479078853943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12021197335730445,0.08492321446970541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062106469869182675,0.0,0.13511703902729158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840372181939266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532973780112633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05807556179814905,0.11914242332279774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13298898082609767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241188076247981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901305834096935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007210860986975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493248853147654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616930510040919,0.0,0.0,0.06931606304826571,0.0,0.11267812848865345,0.0,0.0,0.08070726762689258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701146390947394,0.0,0.09535310905069284,0.14475583406122114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sispad,2019/03/20,"Tell Me Your Story Hi everyone.

I'm doing a film project, a series of five 2-5 min shorts, on eating disorder recovery. I’m exploring the process of recovery through the five stages of grief (Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance), and I’m looking to hear other people's thoughts.

One of the reason I’m looking for help and not just mining my own experience is because eating disorder-related media is overwhelmingly about young, white, middle class females with anorexia (hello, hi, it me). I don’t want to just add to that pile. Not that those stories aren't important or don't exist or don't deserve representation- but it's not the only thing out there and mainstream culture is currently pretending it is, which is helping no one. 

So, I’m looking to collect stories/contributions tied to disordered eating of any kind: any disorder, diagnosed or not, of any length, **at any stage of recovery**, from any people of any age, gender, race, background, socio-economic status, etcetera (including the “white female with anorexia” descriptor above).

I’m interested in gathering stories through any means that someone is willing to provide it: a simple story, a journal entry, a poem, a slam poem, a speech, a stream of consciousness, an essay, a soundbite, a monologue, or whatever else. 

Here's an anonymous form, if you'd like to go that route and not have it out there on the interwebz:

([https://goo.gl/forms/rnXsGsgvEXWUPw7P2](https://goo.gl/forms/rnXsGsgvEXWUPw7P2?fbclid=IwAR3F_INXmeyHnquwTcpdylnAZgQYmRsGNOQwesWxKL7JZgimmZx1pRUcnGQ))

I know this stuff is hard to talk about and hard to live, and I’d be forever grateful if anyone would be willing to trust me with their experiences in order to make something constructive and positive and recovery-focused. <3

(Also I am totally open to crediting or not crediting people for their contribution, depending on comfort.)  
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EDAnonymous,breadcunt,2019/03/20,"I rarely notice how thin I actually am. It’s extremely bizarre when it actually sinks in. 99% of the time I’m not good enough, I always feel too big, even when people comment on my weight.

But the 1% of the time when I’m looking at myself in pictures or overhearing a conversation about how “Ariana Grande being 100 lbs is impossibly skinny” and it ACTUALLY hits me I’m just dumbfounded. 

5’3” 94 lbs and still not good enough. 
I’m chasing a LIE but I’d have absolutely nothing without it. Fuck.",2.8960022909507472,5.094622494845368,5.036013745704466,78.15328751431845,76.62886597938143,8.434822451317299,27.27262313860252,9.150863307647796,2.5329207331042385,390,16,75,10,9,135,67,97,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.7939,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,10,4,1,0,5,0,4,3,1,2,0,12,12,10,0,0,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,6,3,8,10,2,12,0,0,1,1,3,6,1,1,6,45,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.5774082063497187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411233038072534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075855331161359,0.0,0.13026948409306302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972612544584997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182337257491548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308566929760631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562470775783514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18924885423642945,0.2245492639437172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673542376214726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15750925628743087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23001443885851516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401747190972438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012403798764507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hnr8,2019/03/20,"does anyone else feel like having add/adhd makes having an ED 1000% more obnoxious I’m mostly recovered, but like. Still have some slip ups and invasive thoughts and the like. And I feel like if I didn’t have ADD recovery would be way easier to manage. Like, my meds suppress my appetite, which makes me justify not eating. When I don’t take them/forget to take them, my appetite skyrockets, which makes me justify bingeing. does anyone else feel like this/have other ways their ADD impacts their ED ?",4.58991935483871,6.880511150537636,4.677083333333336,82.23562500000001,71.90322580645163,8.090860215053763,25.603494623655912,8.841846274778883,2.084936559139785,399,13,70,8,8,124,59,93,0.021,0.7609999999999999,0.217,0.9615,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,3,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,3,0,19,18,6,0,2,3,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,11,6,3,14,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,8,38,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591731165057515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21633731689674413,0.31701340931511895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27075507511260105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15829499626127472,0.25846118270483365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346603480023357,0.33154952047423764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534666942527726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097869786427879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718349532264996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354227383163527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326277601977053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281318178332687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24558464295200064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989324414488262,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pillbugdeleted,2019/03/20,"Gave myself hepatitis from Bronkaid/Ephedrine abuse. Be careful with the ECs please So I'd been taking ephedrine/caffeine combo (25mg/200mg) 1 time a day for about a month straight when I noticed a ton of upper right abdomen pain. Initially I thought it was my gallbladder because of my rapid weight loss, but I had an ultrasound and it was clear of stones.

Turns out I gave myself acute drug-induced hepatitis from the ephedrine misuse. My liver is SO inflamed and swollen. The pain isn't from my liver itself, it's from it banging against my ribcage or other organs when I sit up and down or get in bed or sit on the toilet to pee. My back has a constant ache behind it, and the only sick upside to it is that my liver is so big that it stops me from being hungry because it's pressing against my stomach.

I am lucky because I QUIT the second we realized what it was. I don't have jaundice/yellow skin or failure. My liver is sloooowly hurting less, it used to hurt constantly dull and achy and sometimes a sharp stinging pain. Now it's slowly subsiding in severity but still very apparent.

Please be careful with the ephedrine use. This is only from using it once a day with caffeine in the morning. It isn't worth a swollen liver. It isn't worth potentially going into a coma and having 4 days to live while you get bumped to #1 in need for a liver transplant. I was almost there, I missed it by a couple more weeks of abuse, but if I ignored the pain or brushed it off as gall, I would probably end up there.

If you notice any symptoms with use like excessive burping, nausea, vomiting, pain in your right side or back, tingling in your right back, fullness/lack of appetite all of the time (formerly my goals but it isn't worth it when it's bc your liver), or pale/clay colored shit.. please stop the EC and meet up with your doctor.

For reference, I am 20, 5'4"", female, and 125 lbs. I have absolutely no other health conditions and no risk factors. I thought I was invincible because of that. I used to be 160 lbs and have been losing weight, now I must be bronkaid-free.",5.692413793103447,6.099476635467982,5.798772413793106,82.41346896551727,67.12807881773399,8.36792118226601,32.74246305418719,8.109356740369918,2.3411161773399005,1638,67,316,19,25,518,209,406,0.2,0.738,0.062,-0.9961,1,0,1,0,2,0,55.0,1,6,0,4,15,18,1,1,22,0,32,30,12,5,3,51,50,32,0,5,13,0,5,1,0,2,16,0,1,0,27,19,2,3,4,0,3,1,7,14,0,1,12,7,38,4,47,31,4,47,0,6,1,0,10,21,1,11,24,212,65,2,0.0,0.1985733044024596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391135994890775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05698535569243439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933059328695621,0.0,0.2043293660178204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17087481832267148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18111123470762075,0.0,0.0,0.09272063627763703,0.0,0.16212788355923188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577056621976388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717880668660916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742199498283751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756175016264567,0.0,0.04762420259493266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907310867447712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.179414487280735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04093935658745352,0.0,0.07399496426630915,0.0,0.0,0.0937482675960124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06688657882819915,0.0,0.0,0.06213498307023733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908086282320561,0.0,0.08924188790719456,0.0,0.12746395705853994,0.44583366592274604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27595435533732565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034816683586216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891292409898225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146885076666383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466762559503993,0.08601720450160474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287813511652706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692100565867153,0.1401173722925838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709796639838803,0.06300549266953967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330521347580524,0.0977263046454698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911479082964598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618718311583501,0.0,0.06914193449637747,0.0,0.0,0.06721751477353892,0.20408621200580312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059527530012049135,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jiangguo,2019/08/18,"anyone else starting band camp soon? my school’s band camp starts this week and i’m really stressed because i’ve been on a good restriction phase and i don’t want to break it, but i also know if i don’t i’ll be dying the entire time (especially since i’m in color guard which is a 24/7 arm workout) :-(",1.4186458333333327,3.2910844062500004,3.135625000000001,91.58020833333336,79.9375,6.1416666666666675,20.041666666666664,7.1686216300943375,0.32346666666666657,238,6,53,3,6,79,51,64,0.115,0.831,0.054000000000000006,-0.5494,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,5,1,1,0,0,8,11,5,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,3,9,0,8,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,5,24,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22992828565854395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20103948488801351,0.294596482130373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752684908628483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2983986086373516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24018465135780054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411567140981405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15801254188088598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841915893331156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909838758301161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378381140910781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070138740741284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293512484264154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765423655570502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16958574638929144,0.0,0.23062984246487397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seawitchbitch,2019/08/18,"TFW your binging ass has a switch flip and learns how to restrict again So my wedding is a couple months away and family drama had me stress eating hard. But I decided I really need to put the breaks on so I don’t end up paying a stupid amount of money for a wedding that I can’t stand the sight of myself in. Cue me cutting down to <1000 calories a day. 

Well now I’ve lost 9 pounds in a month and just snuck out of the overweight BMI category. I’m excited but distrustful, and waiting for the other shoe to drop and shove all the food back in my face. 

Will I reach my goal weight by the wedding? Will I go on a binging rampage? Was my scale lying all along and I’ve lost nothing? Tune in next time to BED/Bulimia to find out!",2.0324585218702893,3.6290017581699376,3.4993464052287595,90.9362895927602,77.16993464052287,6.5377576671694335,23.53393665158371,7.321109707123232,0.8110506787330314,571,18,126,7,13,188,102,153,0.193,0.778,0.028999999999999998,-0.9712,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,3,8,8,3,1,13,0,8,7,3,1,2,21,14,11,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,9,4,2,3,1,2,2,2,6,1,0,4,3,14,2,24,8,3,25,0,2,1,1,4,11,1,0,9,79,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966588650249308,0.15522751417416925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233681139792556,0.0,0.13019108089248652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2065659949928452,0.0,0.0,0.1787991420071564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19030745441682287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18450783453914216,0.0,0.24410506372448074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472881054809755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18083813443547306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407354252312407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222654538013143,0.0,0.0,0.14968592254882215,0.0,0.0,0.2146937250906974,0.0,0.0,0.1937021363831541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20293764950021748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932471150282984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312443002422436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177134952431598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458263558956053,0.18150764774519945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hangyulabs,2019/08/18,"I dont know im a mess. Hi,i don't know if you are gonna see or read this but i will still give it a go cause i feel like i need to get this off my chest to someone that could understand me. I always was a healthy child and i had a faster growth than other kids(always the tallest and still oop) so i could eat sugary food and not have a problem.Around 6th grade i started having depressing thoughs but i quess you could say it wasn't that serious later on it got worse on 7th grade and around that summer i started eating my feelings and i eventually stoppes growing in height too so i gained some weight . I didnt get overweight but along with my depression and anxiety it shocked me when i saw my body change so i decided to loose weight on 8th grade and i did but in a healthy way and i would eat sweets still too. Later on i discovered excercising and i would do that too along with my volleyball practices but as time passed and saw that i could loose more weight i started eating only healthy food and excercising even more secretly . At this point now my eating disorder starts kicking in on summer of 8th grade i purged a piece of birthday cake i ate on a friends bthday and on start of 9th grade i became anemic i continued the same excercising daily routine eating only healthy and so on . Then summer came and i started eating more but still healthy food and gained muscle that made me sad cause i arleady hated my thighs with all my heart . Once 10th grade  started (2018-19) i started eating two meals a day and less portion too and lost more weight . By this point my anemia has gotten bad along with my gland tyroid depression and anorexia. I had the courage to talk to two of my dear friends about it but their responces didnt really help and some even triggered me saying "" but you have a nice slim body now why do you worry so much"" and thats the problem cause i need to suffer daily to have this body that im still not satisfied with. So this summer i restricted my meals even more , excercising became my addiction and a must do in a day and lately ive been feeli g more dizzy than ever and ive been having problem breathing with a tight chest and blurry vision And my thighs slimmed down too making me somehow satisfied . However today for the first time in my life all though i always get dizzy walking ,standing up and all , i collapsed before i could even think about it,and even worse in front of my parents who have been begging me to stop what im doing,i hated it nkt because i collapsed but because now they will send me to the doctor and i couldnt excercise today and ill most likely be forced into recovery that will nake me gain weight and i definetely dont want that and i hate having this mindset but i wanna be skinny no matter what  cause otherwise i look like a giant since im tall too (5""11).Thats what i wanted to say thank you.",3.545048647005167,5.236408758741259,4.0920826999087865,87.87208726056555,73.3006993006993,6.93195500152022,25.37184554575859,7.586124646067393,1.210948799027059,2278,74,458,28,46,719,250,572,0.19,0.685,0.125,-0.9927,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,5,2,5,33,25,3,0,20,0,41,35,10,7,5,100,80,53,0,17,14,1,8,3,2,7,6,3,0,1,28,42,21,3,8,1,0,8,10,15,0,3,18,16,74,10,52,47,17,72,0,6,4,0,20,26,0,6,39,308,102,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05786046375663266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248996935587998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406028469701487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09449744165311644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04431608174702358,0.06470903845546581,0.0,0.04516360241676612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17686576899935555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060704583487253175,0.0,0.21809389618091707,0.05614716605305707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21188356478496845,0.0,0.0,0.06845900914064823,0.0,0.13714234401760322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06082947292950711,0.05432533733186181,0.0,0.0,0.1244089006950509,0.0,0.0,0.4344784064290965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752803492934383,0.04801010594875376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05367344539214508,0.037917367023142634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04514625419812582,0.19253842898723295,0.0,0.08201247343379288,0.0,0.0831897553777224,0.05091515025642533,0.030164204168847887,0.0,0.04244957131016164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15720411285689942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06289508667468606,0.03557559454574307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293239170356764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05833815079184615,0.0,0.059871821953256237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03748901202064675,0.07779047480219307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04457031027570163,0.0,0.05793851294895861,0.0,0.0,0.05022161176669224,0.03542851321693214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03901682501994138,0.07871007652558452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565240020949449,0.0,0.08073308560324664,0.0,0.0,0.058934402415584376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034758619203787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235913735139264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053090169923349806,0.0,0.03400172095581268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662403575693507,0.0,0.0,0.04229454631654125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043904855901732764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044970958911785416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30053863418017995,0.0,0.21193203958102375,0.04437375110912284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04266032307521149,0.0,0.04886507199368036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034008833926325636,0.1042934215113228,0.0,0.061897859604407024,0.0,0.10061931781701948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369470216434401,0.05525378675620427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261097206109187,0.042129105007024194,0.0,0.3231601702263906,0.0,0.0,0.047892660274096166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0539010582234824,0.10817756315907974,0.07540706074275465,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,EDresearch2020,2019/08/18,"ED Recovery Study- Seeking Participants :) ARE YOU A WOMAN WHO IS CURRENTLY RECEIVING OUTPATIENT PSYCHOTHERAPY FOR ANOREXIA NERVOSA OR BULIMIA NERVOSA?

ARE YOU INTERESTED IN SHARING YOUR RECOVERY JOURNEY STORY?

Hello, my name is Alyssa Ruhland and I am currently a fifth-year clinical psychology doctoral student at Adler University in Chicago, IL. I am seeking participants for my dissertation, which is exploring the role of self-compassion in the recovery of an adult eating disorder (AN and BN). Interviews will be less than 1-hour in length and will be conducted through Skype. Participants will receive a $25 Amazon gift card via mail upon completion of an interview. I am whole heartedly interested in eating disorder recovery and intend to hold each person's story with empathy, warmth and respect.

Criteria for participation includes being an adult female aged 18 or older who is currently receiving outpatient psychotherapy for the diagnosis of Anorexia Nervosa or Bulimia Nervosa, has received this treatment for a minimum of twelve months, and is willing to share their lived experience of recovery.

If anyone is interested or has any questions, please do not hesitate to reach out at [selfcompassion.edrecovery@gmail.com](mailto:selfcompassion.edrecovery@gmail.com) or at (847) 780-7191.",11.649207692307687,13.96841969,11.177999999999999,42.32361538461541,54.6,14.953846153846154,47.884615384615394,13.639024540459545,8.174857692307691,1078,65,122,44,13,352,126,200,0.03,0.816,0.154,0.9758,3,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,1,0,0,6,0,0,11,0,21,5,1,1,0,21,21,12,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,4,9,2,1,2,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,9,6,27,14,3,22,0,0,0,0,23,10,0,7,6,88,13,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100209911555076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498084493923707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173978872856598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4752719780885678,0.2122269788854136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4243325679881052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20282375587294005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24570550110282025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041936217959208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830899387878164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550125734647214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18104615574409152,0.0,0.2276031733056134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322744938587717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163066519434328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314939263562818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352375025074625
EDAnonymous,itsathrowaway72099,2019/08/18,"dae feel like they've cheated when they stay below target? I stayed well below my target calories today and I just have this feeling that I'm forgetting something, that I've cheated somehow, that there's no way I can be below target. anyone else get this?",3.2712244897959195,5.899459387755108,3.885061224489796,84.66351020408162,77.57142857142857,4.736326530612245,24.08571428571429,5.6839178017228535,0.7423355102040823,206,7,34,1,5,65,35,49,0.17800000000000002,0.701,0.121,-0.604,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,5,4,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,5,2,3,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,3,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20393961035076447,0.29884622819164586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24364947133360154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949501307979005,0.2083662094221479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238341822127835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249324813604167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245386940091928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6217541800713725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764652123046738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23151085124933626,0.0,0.0,0.26224271227282697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,notprojustusingtags,2019/08/18,I didn’t eat for three days and then had a dream I got a nasogastric tube woke up panicking in a cold sweat and clawing at my face gasping for breath lmao,12.625454545454552,5.2184200303030295,11.583030303030302,70.79454545454546,60.81818181818182,15.624242424242425,45.12121212121213,11.20814326018867,4.513812121212121,123,4,29,2,1,40,28,33,0.08800000000000001,0.732,0.18,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,3,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,3,0,5,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447573812763467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7056685478295526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5515639331975367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lowcalgrl,2019/08/18,I hate myself I’m on a constant struggle of losing a kilo and gaining a kilo. What the fuck is wrong with me. Why do I restrict so hard but then binge because I feel like I should reward myself? What the fuck is wrong with me,0.6400000000000006,2.6766413333333356,2.65816666666667,93.1035,83.58333333333334,3.84,20.016666666666666,3.1291,-0.4394633333333333,176,5,37,0,5,59,33,48,0.368,0.46299999999999997,0.16899999999999998,-0.8415,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,3,1,9,3,1,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,7,9,4,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,8,2,4,8,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,0,3,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394341107310364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272901363107259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12768963138587391,0.18041154552066574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4669303473471271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262223728250637,0.24932670865928144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337618078178887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825228380469911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26400513182196345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278741784436739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5522162608593143,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,reallyshameful,2019/08/18,"There was a tragedy I suck nicotine lozenges thru the day to keep my hunger down and my moods okay 

I'm trash so I leave half-sucked lollies all over my house like droppings

I did a booze fast and woke up crying-hungry and disoriented

Scurried to my precious kitchen scales to meticulously weigh out my punishment chicken to a good, round number

Fuckin lozenge was hiding underneath to dick the tare and blow out the true weight 

I didn't realise til I cleaned up

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And I can't complain to my inner circle because there's too many factors of nonsense

I will though",5.400681818181816,6.29694810743802,5.131890495867771,85.20874483471077,67.92561983471074,8.033471074380165,33.30681818181819,8.07648339933343,2.3231561983471067,495,22,98,6,8,152,85,121,0.20199999999999999,0.6579999999999999,0.14,-0.8228,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,5,10,3,0,8,1,6,7,1,0,2,10,10,8,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,7,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,5,13,5,16,4,1,14,0,0,4,2,1,8,3,0,6,54,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20972573863922955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218796106576896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885673844913717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969800339705624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30580169154665265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3642924154409687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16808228728061875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34880613307963443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33802101505075177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41895232577843455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jago_Sevetar,2019/08/18,"I've got anorexia, can someone please tell me what to do Hi. 22. Male. American. White. Works 5pm-5am Thursday-Sunday. 

80 lbs lost in 2 months. Mental image unchanged. Loss continues. I dont need a therapist, I dont need to get it off my chest. I need proven, effective solutions. As many as you care to provide, I'll try them all. Please.",-0.26562937062936953,1.6235364696969723,1.5869696969696996,92.72737762237765,108.54545454545456,5.061072261072262,21.743589743589745,6.67199483983844,1.0250736596736605,261,11,52,5,13,85,53,66,0.069,0.74,0.19,0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,1,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,1,1,5,11,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,7,1,7,9,1,4,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,0,2,22,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20429143399340094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4696662841560879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10468549830390904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602548717163901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218728450570975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20314459086177167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201926687492904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599340995689882,0.0,0.0,0.445717335667486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4398940426835808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16977356964841822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17513295323217384,0.0,0.0,0.23264599861129706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603865339737406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587236406375265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,dozeneggstenapop,2019/08/18,"its always one thing or another 🙃 been trying very hard to control binge eating so i haven't purged in almost 2 months, but i still have rumination since childhood and now ive begun compulsively obsessing over my weight/caloric intake and trying to see how long i can go between meals 😩👌

just give me a break like damn pls can i just eat some tasty food without all this extra bullshit",7.405789473684213,6.780306421052632,7.191052631578947,77.34736842105265,63.73684210526316,9.705263157894738,32.1578947368421,8.841846274778883,2.4882473684210518,312,10,59,4,4,99,66,76,0.172,0.767,0.061,-0.8589,0,0,0,1,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,1,1,0,6,4,0,2,1,12,9,6,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,2,7,1,6,8,3,10,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,3,7,36,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21747112428117504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807084372742472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277287377068909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435821699430074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4444520266529301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26261096433695674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833570906129367,0.12342654066887485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945476924911211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610158040392163,0.0,0.0,0.19219457216184005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733483941381318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471645730288451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17306173608257927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965083554608782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17343761735573693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428256946643148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948974880366456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791935470841847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644627497529073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20935061803894844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gertrude907,2019/08/18,"Korsakoff Syndrome I have a friend who I am very concerned about.  Her short term memory is terrible...It used to be that I thought she was prone to telling ""little white lies"" but I couldn't figure out why she would do this...And then recently, I realized what she is doing is confabulation.  It is when people tell a little fib to make up for a memory loss.  I did a lot of research and see that she fits all the symptoms for Korsakoff Syndrome.  Korsakoff is generally caused by chronic alcohol abuse but she rarely drinks.  Then, in my research, I found that there may be a correlation with Anorexia Nervosa.  I believe she suffered from AN for many years in early adulthood and I think she continues to battle an eating disorder.  Does anyone here have any info about Eating Disorders and Korsakoff syndrome? And does anyone have any advice for me..Should I tell her my theory?  I think she needs to go on SSDI.  She is a self employed professional and her business has gone down the tubes in recent years and she barely has any income, so I think she needs to hurry about and get a diagnosis and apply for disability...I discussed this thought with my mother (who also knows this friend) and my mother agrees that I may be on to something bc it is so clear that something is very wrong with her and the only health trouble she has had is her longterm eating disorder.",4.258885744605589,6.444170603112839,4.990033604527767,80.09312964273084,72.54085603112841,7.9412097629996445,27.635125574814293,8.710501217029153,2.2727914396887146,1083,41,193,21,22,349,138,257,0.129,0.838,0.034,-0.9798,2,0,4,0,1,0,30.0,0,0,0,1,9,7,1,0,12,0,28,8,0,3,2,39,43,18,0,4,2,2,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,12,14,5,0,10,1,0,2,1,5,0,0,7,2,34,2,29,29,3,24,0,2,2,0,28,12,0,3,10,137,46,4,0.0,0.13024997195790114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10742306421112878,0.0,0.11748254798778394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791158727919718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22427005492865232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537322837133997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12385431921586132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292917006020887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37797051710777296,0.0,0.1924022938858944,0.0,0.0,0.10769029154710708,0.0,0.337459828355892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053340179667565,0.1698644615304651,0.0,0.05743428371496687,0.0,0.062476183001269024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685125492538286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060415069537805365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22035899828226074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345919910283973,0.0,0.0,0.07337963444398979,0.11145253407348196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16302452793151648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360729496080394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621214587089163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21708672232319692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08760058116689262,0.0,0.11468175537120165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16926013613876684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426014906805106,0.0,0.0,0.2882529830801149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21131757232652768,0.0,0.174545484583884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494487892531768,0.0,0.18140877609642392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919541026022444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809165625887105,0.12019202641216918,0.0,0.1415836075767656
EDAnonymous,ReapHappiness,2019/08/18,Skateboarding will save your life I just got into skateboarding and it’s the perfect scapegoat for everything!!!! If I need to burn some calories? I skate for 30 minutes. Need to explain random bruises? Skateboarding. Like it’s so fun even though I suck and it’s such good exercise that doesn’t even FEEL like exercise!! (And it makes for cute aesthetic uwU),2.905111111111111,5.973840092307693,3.0205128205128235,86.27059829059831,86.53846153846155,7.196581196581197,27.222222222222207,8.167268648758528,2.4950170940170944,286,13,50,7,9,87,46,65,0.073,0.627,0.3,0.9540000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,6,8,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,15,9,6,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,5,7,6,7,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,2,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4235824869877334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28818626983121026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16213405821054158,0.22907777010418534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689522834588408,0.2564590819735793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264898633878556,0.3133140985616756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2140413600155304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4755269215872964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31504434922614466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,sophiephisticated,2019/10/19,"Yelp Health Score Sometimes, to discourage myself from going to a restaurant/fast food place to spend hella money and binge, i look up their health inspection score on yelp and look at the reasons they got points off (poor sanitation, bad food temp etc.) It’s usually pretty gross deters me enough to just make my food (a proper portion) at home. 

of course this can sometimes backfire into me just not eating lol. but ya know you win some you lose some in this crazy game ig",4.878491171749602,6.778891134831464,4.350593900481542,86.51651685393259,70.23595505617978,6.8834670947030485,23.950240770465488,7.447530270364453,1.005884751203852,377,10,70,4,7,113,71,89,0.151,0.775,0.073,-0.6947,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,3,2,2,2,5,0,0,3,1,1,6,0,2,0,13,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,3,4,1,2,1,3,1,1,4,0,0,1,2,10,1,13,6,5,11,0,2,2,0,6,9,0,2,1,40,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593826090900746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665936964758147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16822465731174682,0.1815744657969878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5906058966152794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252779791825383,0.0,0.13021279573354513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461155526102025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331015675431004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894752700448707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734361986982604,0.18214101836181065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867590913822173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17010018533584914,0.0,0.15390661601393202,0.0,0.0,0.16563473125601152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739420929417512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220434535409818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17931051375280493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,armpit-meat,2019/10/19,"OK SO WHY DOES MAXWELL HOUSE BRAND COFFEE COME UP AS SIGNIFICANTLY MORE CALORIES PER CUP THAN STARBUCKS COFFEE OR TIM HORTONS IN MY TRACKING APP!?!? Like it’s just coffee grounds right?! 
Why is it listed as 75cal per 250ml!?!! 
WHY!?!? 
IVE HAD LIKE A LITRE OF COFFEE TODAY 
IVE BEEN DRINKING IT FOR A WEEK SINCE SWITCHING BRANDS 
every other brand of coffee comes up as 0cal or like 5cal per 250ml so I don’t get it...are they adding sugar to the coffee grounds?! Like for what tho cuz Maxwell house tastes like puddle water anyway...
 ugh that is all 
I wasn’t sure if I should flair this as a rant/rave but I put TW cuz I mentioned calories and numbers",0.473740157480318,2.92029170866142,1.4739015748031503,95.80549803149609,96.48031496062993,2.8549606299212598,17.373622047244094,4.406508900861427,-0.8059571653543305,505,14,100,1,20,157,87,127,0.015,0.863,0.121,0.8739,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,1,0,5,8,0,0,4,1,9,4,0,2,2,13,12,14,0,2,5,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,0,3,2,9,7,13,8,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,7,54,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190880401154453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620805556516391,0.0,0.0,0.18143756958109503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604937380342546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676579660215982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274203169984912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4524269381557919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861895448183701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817031544102744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320955098656014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456042648283387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555962987127285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14856615703996595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013759520748058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,aly_mcc,2019/10/19,"I feel extremely guilty binging even though it’s my birthday :( I was doing pretty well not binging for a while, but I feel way too guilty about binging for my birthday weekend. 2 days straight. I ate so much my stomach hurt and I told my brother what I ate and he told me it’s not even a lot. But, I’m just used to not eating like a normal person and my body is like “wtf”. I tried justifying it because it’s my birthday. Is this wrong??? I feel like I’m gonna gain 20 pounds which I know isn’t true but I feel soooo shitty :(",-0.09061126373626394,2.026919348214289,1.7825000000000024,97.62788461538463,87.66071428571428,4.160439560439561,20.22252747252748,5.369823440869387,-0.32798983516483515,405,13,94,2,13,133,66,112,0.305,0.586,0.109,-0.9815,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,7,0,0,3,0,5,5,2,1,1,19,18,9,0,1,7,1,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,3,3,0,5,1,0,0,4,2,1,0,5,4,17,5,4,12,2,5,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,6,55,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207420858755311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22001194247033576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773924258359487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026758174448454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616477140360755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4006020739890383,0.1415017776359991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2120388258697536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088544997864018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2903020787529989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839266174164053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456047856557327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940672727249289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729477319389217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20150915229522487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460349832024795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3785301641649144,0.0,0.1344770320890709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106952589417435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721933553743656,0.0,0.0,0.17808938436611285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21655926267242925,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anniew198,2019/10/19,"Back in the swing of things I’ve been lurking here a bit for awhile as I slowly started restricting again. But now I’ve just b/pd for the first time in four years (long, long time bulimic). And I can’t really tell anyone else but I needed to get it off my chest. I don’t wanna be back in this place but I am. And half of me loves it but the real half knows I’m going to lose more of my life to this.",-0.3636666666666671,1.2972930777777805,1.9455555555555544,98.925,84.8888888888889,5.333333333333334,14.444444444444445,6.42735559955562,-0.8518888888888885,307,4,79,3,9,104,61,90,0.077,0.8640000000000001,0.059000000000000004,0.1154,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,4,0,5,3,1,0,0,12,12,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,4,1,0,8,1,14,10,2,17,0,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,11,53,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658140208957882,0.22944910671814825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443862394859667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444803381053121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706996534014392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904800225209209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699742506741034,0.0,0.12726810654528953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306948244136988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15817276495723784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963529910951749,0.0,0.250527333976089,0.0,0.0,0.20211116906921092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660458593466116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339656729950727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25488842843005216,0.14345926784956026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15850319927933246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957301145296304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14877326484215828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611580052622329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420757469914786
EDAnonymous,maxidad369,2019/10/19,"Normal eating??? Does anyone else find it rly difficult when people are like “eat like a child, they eat when they’re hungry, stop when they’re full, and only eat foods they enjoy” or “nourish yourself like you did when you were a child” or something of the like? I never ate normally, like literally never. I was an extremely picky and anxious eater until I was 8, all I’d eat was fruit, cheese, mashed potato and fish, then I turned into as much of a binge eater as an 8 year old can, and swung into restrict-binge cycles when I was 12 and never got out. I feel like recovery is unattainable because I don’t have any concept of normal eating. I’m not getting back to something I once knew how to do. I don’t really have any good food role models and eating to an inpatient meal plan doesn’t work with my schedule because I have a half hour window to eat in a ten hour day that starts at 6am. I just feel like I’ll never figure out what normal, balanced eating is. I don’t KNOW what works for me and I’ve been trial-and-error-ing for what seems like forever with no actual progress idk",5.957654600301659,5.2872753800905015,6.489332579185523,81.33936840120666,66.69230769230771,8.995625942684766,27.918929110105577,8.07648339933343,1.664945399698341,853,21,173,9,12,279,130,221,0.05,0.809,0.142,0.9615,0,0,2,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,2,4,8,11,0,0,9,0,19,14,0,1,5,35,30,19,0,4,4,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,5,13,14,1,7,0,0,0,10,1,0,2,10,3,18,10,20,20,3,27,0,0,0,0,7,7,0,3,28,100,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.07656529931121586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671050339180564,0.0,0.0,0.088637070519285,0.0,0.05486081073501215,0.08039118215189174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06033062692009071,0.0,0.09565654737320926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050599982686284566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866056741558836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7225542739721341,0.06554296886969793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934311178755295,0.11210317759281244,0.0,0.0,0.07171069760818959,0.0,0.18974743758819115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04099192820763578,0.0,0.0,0.06580823094023124,0.06275134858938572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545338991966508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04311937109625133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30665137012131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05767686956808717,0.0,0.2420516722260749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074951891445453,0.0,0.0,0.08233020310660381,0.08355696535097826,0.0,0.05967209845736787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054394041503043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05026326011039047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142671755048363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208041417117374,0.0,0.0,0.055534143266789036,0.0,0.0,0.06559577960686375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534156766452093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142391175866653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050525441441628335
EDAnonymous,yoyo449,2019/10/19,"I don’t have an ED but I am skipping lunch and being very careful about how many calories I consume and it’s so stressful Self image has always been a problem in the back of my mind. For the past few days I just suddenly stopped eating lunch and seriously watching my calorie intake.. it’s been under 1000 roughly. I want it to be under 1000. I used to eat A LOT. Around 4 meals a day with snacks. I never worked out but now I am a little bit. I’m feeling guilty about any snacks I have even if it’s under 100 calories. I want to eat but I keep saying to myself, “no dont, we don’t wanna do that, I know your hungry but we will wait for dinner so stfu” (me using ‘your’ and ‘we’ is kinda me talking to my body... weird right?) 
Anyway, my friend is recovering from an ED and I think that influenced me to do this a little but I also just think not eating will make me skinny oh god. I hate this, it’s only been 3 days..... I’m so stressed. 

[I know i don’t have an eating disorder i just didn’t know where else to share this] 
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EDAnonymous,huileabsolute,2019/10/19,Finished mid terms so now I can restrict again I gained 2 kg from 2 last stressfull weeks fml,0.32877192982456194,2.7374583684210516,0.5431578947368436,102.44877192982456,96.89473684210527,2.533333333333333,22.12280701754386,3.1291,-0.5218561403508772,75,3,16,0,3,22,17,19,0.155,0.7040000000000001,0.141,-0.0679,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7127649413077906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7014029786381735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,givemelowcalfood,2019/10/19,"wait, it isn't normal to want to eat huge amounts of food?? :o I've been texting a girl for a few weeks now on instagram, we haven't met up irl yet but we're planning to. I'm very body positive on there (lol) so it's not like I've been hiding the fact that I'm a little overweight but yesterday we were texting and I fucked up lol.

we were talking about the Eat The Menu series on youtube bc I've been bingewatching it and I made the mistake of saying that it makes me hungry 🤦🏻‍♀️ she replies with 'oh it grosses me out how much food he eats hahah' hm yep totally me too super gross I'd never eat that much food hahah right guys no one gets hungry from that sort of thing :')",-1.2847559893522629,0.7293574897959232,0.9502277432712204,99.63354037267081,99.95238095238096,3.9170659568175097,16.595385980479147,5.7926816847441245,-0.5831086069210296,529,15,124,5,23,175,98,147,0.17800000000000002,0.6829999999999999,0.139,-0.5375,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,3,0,0,2,7,6,1,0,7,4,7,10,1,3,3,21,16,6,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,10,7,8,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,7,1,9,2,16,9,5,14,0,0,0,1,10,9,1,1,6,67,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671992518188873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6160982837216404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460459893711815,0.0,0.0,0.13915786227555355,0.07864305759585465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14904333550357038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735388722144989,0.1508655133550547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14243031808874498,0.100476552412155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213062704645717,0.0,0.1160940972551168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748246135100154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199958086646488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854745854389607,0.0,0.11970345737690327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209862282715662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000206781443276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241988225860544,0.08878349731122331,0.0,0.12074201066028373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fuckkididitagain,2019/10/19,does anyone else’s stomach become hella bloated after eating it’s just sticking out so much ahhhhhh,9.55,9.994762888888893,11.096666666666668,47.565,59.0,9.422222222222222,40.22222222222222,8.841846274778883,4.456822222222223,84,4,9,1,1,30,17,18,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900968232520432,0.4250981027674925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582072306682463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630681395897261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42453032339314334,0.34658268444932633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30498777565724633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KillMeFastOrSlow,2019/10/19,"Is anyone here triggered by age? One thing that people don't understand is that I'm triggered by seeing my age or birthdate written anywhere. Any time I see it mentioned, or my friend kindly ""mentions"" it to me, I fast for a few days. I also only compare myself to young people and call it teenspo or youngspo. I struggle because I never had that young, growth spurty thinness. My perfect age is 8-12 and I hate the fact that I wasn't able to become gender nonbinary growing up, because it wasn't a ""thing"" in the '80s and '90s. 

I've SH'ed before because of seeing my ID card and have put TCA acid on basically every part of my body. Does anyone here relate?",3.7650769230769257,5.261736892307695,5.001538461538463,82.35846153846154,72.38461538461539,6.123076923076923,28.384615384615394,6.2581,1.3760615384615391,516,20,94,3,10,171,85,130,0.047,0.8390000000000001,0.115,0.8299,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,1,1,4,0,8,1,1,2,3,13,15,8,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,1,4,5,14,3,11,11,2,16,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,3,9,61,24,0,0.17703859951375706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157770406886724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039231858161373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475790102649777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237632611521439,0.19552522394659094,0.15064680867721894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19664997356443487,0.0,0.0,0.18077620420560572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417525064845875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549276714765577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491626557025266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367795828210946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17478896460536894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843584579598856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365430820284731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199659368254896,0.13464583259504187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19171555098781992,0.0,0.2454725473285976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779726909006222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232305276431485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18507918341281615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352331577822955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323263108317557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843034256953716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,giraffes_are_selfish,2019/10/19,"Local restaurant causes anorexic an amount of discomfort. I just got takout from a local restaurant and got a veggie wrap with tofu, lettuce, edamame, yellow squash, carrots, tomatoes, feta, and theres cilantro lime sauce on it too and it tastes so gross I want to cry. I was so looking forward to it and I'm having a lot harder time eating anything at all lately so this was supposed to be something I was comfortable eating, it's full of veggies, and it's just so gross and the tofu is in big chunks and soggy and the lettuce feels wilted and idk where the tomato or carrots or anything else is in it. It tastes like ranch soaked lettuce inside a soggy tortilla.

I feel guilty because my bf drove me down to get food and I feel like the whole trip was for nothing and I shouldn't have asked for food anyway because I could've eaten soup or something at home. But instead I got a nasty chunky ass feta and lettuce disaster. 

I'm frustrated and damn upset I even tried to get food. Screw everything tonight.",3.358051282051285,5.650834266666667,3.823717948717949,86.94378205128206,75.56410256410257,5.35897435897436,26.730769230769234,6.139981653823899,1.0796153846153849,802,31,144,5,18,251,117,195,0.192,0.76,0.048,-0.9826,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,12,10,3,2,10,0,10,10,1,1,1,28,25,21,0,2,6,0,3,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,8,14,8,0,3,0,0,3,1,7,0,0,9,7,12,3,17,14,5,17,0,0,2,2,2,12,3,4,6,90,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393917762997773,0.0,0.1359794457625991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773342827926443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14942087528975453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11613283366140748,0.0,0.15977390797810434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976706130706181,0.12150778692921728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607070595242492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072428270285005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22063707414328526,0.10391205381705836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5276490739075324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198696563084566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34899750310724353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14590178233055648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16407795354394994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421225265837749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214435873632665,0.0,0.0,0.12365941701670485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956661572554355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239545166234154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481514175876416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875342083365306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08579227949002363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239370762258004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pinkhorrorstory,2019/10/19,"I've been doing better and feeling good, but my boyfriend made a comment that kinda triggered me So I've come SO FAR from struggling almost all 2019 up until August, I've started eating normal meals again and I feel so good about it, like I'm finally getting where I'm supposed to. 
But yesterday I ate a lot less because I had class all day and didn't want to. I told my boyfriend about this. He told me it's okay, we all have our bad days, and he could realize that I was eating all right because of when I went to his house to have lunch you could see it. 
The comment he made was SO innocent and pure hearted but now I can't stop thinking about it. I had 4 slices of pizza (yes I did that I'm gross) and a while later we had sex. I can't stop thinking I shouldn't have done that (eating) and how awful I'm sure I looked while doing the secks. YOU COULD SEE I WAS BETTER? WHAT DOES IT MEAN? I am slightly fatter and don't doubt as much as before at the moment of eating but whyyyy. 
I love him so much, he understands me so well but I wish so bad he didn't say that. 
I'm mad at myself that a simple comment made me think so bad but I CANT HELP IT. I don't want to relapse again but yikes bro, it's hard.",1.3928526645768071,2.7916112337164773,2.9617223963775707,94.95892633228844,78.42528735632185,5.51173807035876,20.67589690003483,5.852544927426893,-0.12155325670498085,936,23,219,5,22,308,130,261,0.127,0.701,0.172,0.8906,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,3,2,0,2,18,16,1,2,7,3,26,11,1,5,6,51,55,30,0,8,7,1,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,15,11,8,2,8,0,0,2,8,7,1,0,18,7,32,9,18,33,8,25,0,0,3,2,21,6,0,4,18,138,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831822037653956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27095627381990034,0.1318807924886038,0.0,0.09204605446984863,0.0,0.0,0.19133795884509908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09318024519443036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25909863387987103,0.0,0.0,0.1395234513439235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466168591843882,0.1106970912528783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4427461597848469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938961052220657,0.0,0.0,0.11849668764930882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05651519029394785,0.0,0.0,0.1814583922794072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09690049609415964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818385301777566,0.07250513551016223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481548955765058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05284717410864998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908368905012835,0.0,0.0,0.0919636161605083,0.09762908178447098,0.3070637171222057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783057129827958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903712763589736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1059851895777639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09237794540931732,0.0,0.08602238874364107,0.0,0.0,0.17239750178053442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656440698852794,0.0,0.0,0.18087258292334807,0.0,0.11308443071072745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195044185943128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079359581074857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20672517651538636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11261043834578928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760481087323533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972592488099884,0.10027614612297732,0.0,0.0,0.1243919881690489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Franticturtle,2019/10/19,"Someone told me my ED is unattractive I finally confided in someone about my issues, and it felt good to tell someone. But I guess this person thought it was just a phase and it’d go away?  It hasn’t yet and now he’s trying to tell me to stop throwing up because it’s “unattractive”. As if I do this to be more attractive to you 🙄",0.9297142857142866,2.9119188285714306,2.8071428571428565,92.74785714285716,82.14285714285714,5.7142857142857135,25.714285714285715,6.868970318607317,1.0017142857142851,258,11,57,3,7,86,50,70,0.114,0.799,0.087,-0.228,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,11,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,8,2,10,5,1,9,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,4,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117421548105864,0.0,0.0,0.13738321434171122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21639015550171484,0.2468813772030457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808273544747534,0.18902932512161186,0.0,0.0,0.2482700191550835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352273060925459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19678403892550927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5728647837889399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884190742214757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939659221610473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891828574942628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21535030764616905,0.0,0.1530111625086147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,hopefulundertone22,2019/10/19,help  my mum taking me to a place where they serve you food and u have to eat everything on your plate an im going nuts and im freakin out because i binged yesterday and i was supposed to low restrict oday but i cant and im terrifiedim already at like 200 kcal and its only 3pm and idk what to do ive never purged before but i feel like i might try to but i dont want to but i have to please help,-1.3263339920948596,0.5380392717391338,1.5239920948616614,99.03286561264822,91.06521739130434,4.649802371541502,17.059288537549406,6.1124844417494595,-0.5612739130434785,311,8,80,3,11,108,61,92,0.08900000000000001,0.743,0.16699999999999998,0.8725,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,0,1,16,12,10,0,1,4,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,7,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,13,2,10,10,0,9,0,1,0,0,6,6,0,1,4,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21114507421074685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663722437048395,0.0,0.1628136456420711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22424547189092445,0.0,0.0,0.19578545974561745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196130665959805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674570728243836,0.13669115012611388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313653906548659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874119392209323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25649823902117996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6200301952381072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18695513084331164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297825952337145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147570845791318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552036692846235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990638117348428,0.21003050572564155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386156876597098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990522443532151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285548619872635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fosforuss,2019/10/19,"Pleading with myself not to go buy a whole cheesecake when I have yogurt in the fridge And the store is walking distance, too. But I would still drive, obviously.",3.823,6.523827300000002,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,76.0,5.333333333333334,26.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,1.0966666666666671,129,5,23,1,3,39,28,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,3,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34511229534270005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4849480014593114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6779692579128208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43137063507968615,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ohealyeal,2019/01/17,"I want to kill myself so bad that it hurts And it's all because of my weight. I fucking hate this, I'm crying",-1.2493333333333323,0.6402158000000036,1.3480000000000023,100.24066666666668,91.0,3.333333333333334,16.333333333333336,3.1291,-1.1908666666666663,85,2,21,0,3,29,22,25,0.534,0.429,0.037000000000000005,-0.9606,0,0,0,0,0,1,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,13,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897211333407643,0.21152113656762767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38115087592958097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.320785531125721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3425795779413591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714586601615499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38389166880262426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20466296962642452,0.0,0.0,0.4225388485518464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tyler199696,2019/01/17,"I need mental recovery! Hello. I battled with anorexia a few years ago. I am now a 22 year old male college student. During my recovery I was able to relearn how to eat a healthy amount and to regain my weight. However, I still struggle with the mental aspects of anorexia. I have seen three different therapists over the years, but none of them have helped. I still feel anxious around food and guilty when I eat, especially if I eat while other people are around. My mind tells me that they are either judging me for how or what I am eating, or that I should not be eating in public because I appear glutinous and/or fat. I also still have food rituals that I have not been able to break, such as only eating at a certain time, or eating certain foods a certain way and in a specific order. Because of these things, I find it hard to eat with family and friends, and I often schedule my day around my meals instead of my meals around my day. I am always thinking about food, ALL DAY LONG, and it is a living hell! I don't know what to do. Please help me... I seem to have only recovered physically from anorexia but not mentally.",4.871787878787881,5.861645027272727,5.523636363636364,81.58378787878792,69.18181818181819,8.048484848484849,29.666666666666664,8.238735603445708,2.0959939393939395,886,33,167,12,15,287,126,220,0.08,0.8240000000000001,0.096,0.555,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,2,0,16,7,2,1,9,0,17,16,1,2,4,39,24,18,0,3,10,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,10,13,16,0,5,0,0,1,5,3,0,1,3,4,31,4,26,19,5,29,2,0,1,0,9,8,1,7,17,125,41,2,0.1598915805916092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07086711944426645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393261961593645,0.06652130184984201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09031598736976572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846748114203172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974684234686489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546752629717338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352633526502642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6544360156882828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536577609775444,0.0,0.040422993675786174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306900399025715,0.0,0.3866830678464693,0.0,0.061765919268431335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161572515151406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717195610068753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393611558353532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0705935975059714,0.07074950866448004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416996595028554,0.0,0.08072245821575383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0592787905149085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08388965858600285,0.0,0.0,0.12160475203048325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05542434487735564,0.0,0.0,0.08775647047453987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277964493140314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153443420125055,0.0,0.0,0.08357669810921653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987614447187826,0.0,0.0,0.09282322435467788,0.053112430719443104,0.05122603435202287,0.0,0.0,0.04661703322849885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634572471665736,0.0,0.0973524350589881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15444740347441094
EDAnonymous,EggsAndBaccon,2019/01/17,"Dr Dray on youtube So, Im watching skin care videos on YouTube trying to pretend that if I have a skin care routine that means I have my life together. You know, normal stuff. Anyways, I can across Dr Dray and couldn't help but notice how tiny she is. Have you guys seen her? Do you think she has an ED? I love her content and her videos are very informative but my goodness she is SUCH goals. Let me know what you think, shes pretty small.",1.020333333333333,3.3204859222222254,1.6866666666666674,99.0,84.22222222222223,4.488888888888889,20.11111111111111,5.6839178017228535,-0.3330888888888888,343,10,78,2,10,105,62,90,0.028999999999999998,0.777,0.193,0.9573,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,4,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,12,6,2,1,0,14,21,7,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,18,4,4,18,0,4,0,0,2,1,15,4,0,1,0,48,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4606219976456317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18946671062964152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236676720052199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514100213972394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440011166969049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482876469797677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23098892176485106,0.1595535418223024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20387550837564825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460615954441037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132528556560727,0.0,0.2571784782773083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298124256068609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585912290597696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894837507696007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15336520739030166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18638378844484896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Schweppss,2019/01/17,"I’m finally under 100lbs for the first time in about 2/3 years i’m not even sure if this is a rant or a rave. i weighed in today at 98.9lbs (height is 5’9) which i don’t think i’ve weighed since i was about 15/16. 

i’m fucking scared, to be honest. 

about a month or two ago, i referred myself to an ED specialist, and they weighed me about 3 weeks ago when i was around 103lbs. i’m fucking terrified to go back there weighing less and less, out of fear of getting body-slammed into inpatient. 

in conclusion, please euthanise me. ",3.481238317757011,4.737140616822433,3.742137850467291,92.055636682243,72.73831775700937,7.219158878504674,28.328271028037385,7.645422480735847,1.423916822429906,414,16,91,5,8,128,75,107,0.142,0.805,0.054000000000000006,-0.8475,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,9,6,2,2,5,0,6,6,0,0,1,13,15,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,3,0,0,1,2,4,0,2,2,0,9,2,18,12,2,21,0,0,0,2,1,9,2,3,11,54,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940129505775104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978448596514289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708924197085643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467904971773173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25008702216321993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434581539795139,0.0,0.18904118819223856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109232007399672,0.1161136583115768,0.0,0.12630675785254855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17739356157823974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439578900277929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22250566840985592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18384307346183185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094629551667277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240539970937405,0.0,0.0,0.129592644329053,0.0,0.21066194452973552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171007324368636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782712549365571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431182698671392
EDAnonymous,sniperwolffiie,2019/01/17,"Ah, the loneliness First time posting(from my phone) so apologies for any mistakes.

Well, I am a 24 year old woman with a 10 year old ED. I'm currently at my parent's house for vacations, but I live alone in another city. 

The fact that they don't care about my terrible eating habits hurts me so much, and honestly, it just makes everything worse.  I wish they at least tried to save me because I can't do it myself.

Last night I binged and had a breakdown. I told them everything about my ED, I told them about my suicidal thoughts, about everything. My mother just stood there without saying anything. My father said I AM DELLUSIONAL, because to have an eating disorder, *you have to be thin*. That absolutely broke me. I lost it and said *""When I'm back to my apartment, I'll do everything to be sickly thin!* 
My dad replied,*""If it makes you happy, do whatever you want""*

Then they just left the room and now they are not talking to me. I feel completely alone and it hurts so much!  I don't know what to do with myself.",1.6031700167504184,4.209378804020101,2.705056532663317,90.43704878559464,85.08040201005025,6.532747068676716,22.36201842546064,7.793537801064563,1.23006013400335,798,28,162,16,24,254,113,199,0.207,0.71,0.084,-0.9812,2,2,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,3,6,2,15,11,0,0,7,1,15,3,0,2,1,23,31,11,1,3,6,4,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,8,7,2,0,3,0,0,0,5,6,2,1,8,6,35,5,19,21,3,21,0,4,0,0,22,8,0,0,13,107,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2492538206196959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182939295679623,0.12617783313109485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902238597793747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925273224407462,0.0,0.14670565605248215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268575395418152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12616505185569676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13791006552495375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462578689825733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4325839618577633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06084310790888135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10235372057037156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809487919605012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388461347216213,0.2576342360847375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06613092149944859,0.09808604907270142,0.0,0.0,0.13074028176740782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062547199047454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135580060785526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16064412015737625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691466441970932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292274960113187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525348612586704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361364002325066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22892519516067705,0.0956922591811696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162288368503114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671772033001216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552959077434303,0.07016613380647395,0.0,0.0,0.22996337882846465,0.0,0.08169703659482627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097450334258712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819226692980273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837502708053462,0.11599505453198106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12262784884629276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549787910516066
EDAnonymous,Itsemurha,2019/01/17,"Dae want to read up on how to recover but actually reading is too hard because your brain is full of fluff. The struggle. The books are always massive novels.

 Maybe audio books? Even YouTube becomes mumbling nonsense that doesn't stick.",4.189285714285713,7.4162231666666685,3.700285714285717,83.49471428571428,79.23809523809524,5.2647619047619045,32.20952380952381,6.742157984588678,2.203289523809523,191,10,30,2,5,57,38,42,0.175,0.8,0.025,-0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,0,4,1,1,1,0,3,5,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,5,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,18,2,4,0.0,0.0,0.2796946077077254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23848639503767236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471766409137515,0.3165434238337314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199568002926075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18930630972516374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567504790863307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879429951119165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5733845346260654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29963192070731004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905277911883906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheElectricBodySings,2019/01/17,"I can't go one day without people grilling me about food and its starting to really get to me. My husband is having a mental health crisis and told THE WHOLE FAMILY about my ED. The more people ask me if I've eaten, what I've eaten, if I'm going to eat soon or how much weight I've lost the more I want to restrict. Seriously it's constant. I've started throwing away food to make it look like I've eaten and just straight up lying to everyone about anything to do with food or my weight. I'm so stressed behind my husbands health as well and that makes eating even harder. Why am I like this? I hate myself rn

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EDAnonymous,pizzaparlez,2019/01/17,"honesty at work? xpost (am i doing this right?)

I have a very hard time being honest about having a problem. Part of me feels that if I say anything about having an ED or BDD and then someone sees me eating normally then they will judge me or I will feel like a failure. Does anyone else feel his way?

One of my coworkers noticed my habits and knows, to an extent, of my disorder. I'm pretty close with her and a few of my other colleagues and we've all endured some tough situations together that we have helped one another through.

That said, I'm up for a promotion and have been trying to prove myself professionally here for some time. I don't want anyone questioning my ability to handle stuff or pity me.

One of my colleagues, who I am not very close with, has been doing some things lately that anger and trigger my ED. I want to empathize with them and yet I feel it is more for attention. Short of just leaving every time they do this, should I say something to one of my friends in this group? Do any of you have experience with this? I'm worried about how I will be perceived as a team leader, or just as a friend in social situations regarding food.",4.124726432057535,5.496488161572057,4.915931158489599,83.81038787567431,71.31441048034934,7.833650141279218,27.007706139224247,8.313332769828598,1.731430824556897,915,31,181,14,17,296,131,229,0.1,0.8059999999999999,0.094,0.5602,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,3,3,8,8,1,0,9,0,23,2,0,2,2,42,35,17,0,6,8,0,5,1,2,4,0,3,0,0,13,14,2,0,9,1,0,0,2,4,0,4,3,9,30,4,30,26,8,16,0,1,1,0,18,8,0,9,8,136,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08697318429433566,0.13410936508553445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17885472379691836,0.1310438406473284,0.10524692795253976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14657908499062774,0.0,0.11192203192339524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13086881283758126,0.1068401053225635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775729961088762,0.0,0.0,0.12510613678417973,0.0,0.0,0.25867080988823554,0.09136842217828972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546514947843735,0.0,0.19762317072308935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456906046008687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08572551832818981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028790774682259,0.0,0.1442714601324952,0.13542264763352765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624831794433257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531023144411393,0.0,0.14560963765625176,0.0,0.0,0.3466606393328282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849813795927868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301154911782207,0.0,0.12237852183271401,0.0,0.0,0.14327199728209222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922188058247287,0.12165771044420715,0.20341493912094266,0.0,0.0,0.10191598908569692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28751933368051524,0.0,0.13037314398692204,0.10836526589799003,0.0984600442004924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640951068960473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496794905594007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22373031986172034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683250801841341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21105402040049734,0.15087191377975614,0.10151732977466256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310929582073636,0.12988387723793846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bp4455,2019/01/17,What is this? Is there an eating disorder where you feel a compulsion to eat frequently? If I don't every 3 hours or so i get really weak and can barely move ,0.3931818181818159,2.70684460606061,3.360833333333337,85.66125000000002,87.78787878787878,8.148484848484847,17.340909090909093,8.841846274778883,1.4525818181818186,124,3,26,4,4,44,31,33,0.2,0.8,0.0,-0.7591,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3768301558401381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6728833808636864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770258799738011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16624977841775834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178300240311986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237990787185857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34945946226146896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21063594980446598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Anonymous2366,2019/04/25,"Black Widow dies to get the Soul Stone. Captain America returns to the past and lives out his life there. Tony Stark uses the Infinity Stones to erase Thanos and his army, dying in the process. Black Widow dies to get the Soul Stone. Captain America returns to the past and lives out his life there. Tony Stark uses the Infinity Stones to erase Thanos and his army, dying in the process.",4.718333333333334,6.88628527777778,4.167777777777779,86.555,71.22222222222223,7.022222222222222,25.88888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.3736222222222216,308,10,58,4,6,92,29,72,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,0,0,2,0,2,0,8,4,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,10,4,0,8,2,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,4,28,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7570611600511609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055557768365572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576185123978702,0.0,0.0,0.3220619308146997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481746049549664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31500830308089955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Ste_382,2019/04/25,"Saw a picture of myself and now I want to Die Had a work meeting today, and saw my manager taking pictures from the front of the room while we were in discussion. Carefully didn't pay much attention to it. The only pictures of myself I will allow are carefully arranged and filtered selfies, NOT candids. This is exactly why. She uploaded those pictures for the whole company to see on our internal message board, and I was so, so upset. I've gained in the last few months, I know I have, but even with body dysmorphia I didn't think I looked so grotesque. 

So the rest of my night was obviously ruined, and I can feel absolutely every millimetre of fat on my body. I have BED, so it's not like I think I'm fat when I'm really not- I have always been at least on the lowish end of plus-size, but seeing this picture absolutely shook me. I'm so upset. No one irl really gets it, so I've just been here wanting to climb out of my skin, but I just have to sit with it. 

Just needed to vent I guess, I'd been convincing myself that maybe my BDD was getting better, but now I literally don't know how much of what I'm feeling is the legitimate weight gain, and how much is the BDD. I hate this disorder.",3.4542531876138436,4.6202173032786895,5.123715846994536,82.47201275045539,72.68852459016392,8.700910746812388,27.080145719489984,9.150863307647796,2.13177577413479,938,33,194,20,18,319,137,244,0.135,0.777,0.087,-0.9517,0,0,0,0,0,1,28.0,2,0,0,5,17,10,1,3,11,0,21,6,5,3,2,36,46,21,1,3,10,0,4,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,10,10,3,0,7,0,1,3,7,5,0,1,12,9,27,5,25,33,7,21,0,1,5,0,6,8,0,1,10,134,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581417281182228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372800353935654,0.0,0.3359080016934609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3083259243252583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692629420572893,0.0,0.17329334114300826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392221778983934,0.0,0.0,0.09986907958572566,0.0,0.12739622766312728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529069747725823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15799611563275648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16656869258140794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14928304020193645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661959668553973,0.1232517662769865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387083178793465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697361347200273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190514218323328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12068990881509273,0.0,0.3334578934951433,0.11211614605429172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14189508572087964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10246001405418492,0.11499775907300855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937308197910359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409806592213896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368689052953718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377134719876374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332409051323014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783685443609197,0.0,0.0,0.18412622344360102,0.0,0.0,0.13643845187912587,0.16881431181334158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110078603405662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ojiua,2019/04/25,"Just venting sorry 🙃 I hate that my mom made me this way. I’ve had to hear pretty much my whole life from her “oh I can’t have cake, I’ll have to skip dinner then” ect. I really do blame her for my terrible relationship with food. I have so many never ending rules. I won’t let myself buy certain clothes/get a tattoo/have a certain hair cut until I’m “thin enough” (which I don’t even know what that means to me anymore). She didn’t care when I was underweight and lost my period in high school (“you look good!”) or when I ballooned to almost 200lbs. I’m a grown adult now and I’m still dealing with this constantly. We work together which doesn’t help, I get to hear it  all day again. I’ve managed to stay at a healthy weight for a good year now but I’m silently suffering. My mom who is almost underweight herself is talking about how she needs to lose five pounds!! Today there were donuts in the break room and I was actually going to let myself have one until I heard “oh I’m not going to have one” like? That’s nice. Why do you need to announce it? Then of course another lady chimes in “that’s why you’re so thin!” It’s never ending. Every day. And I hate her for it.  I think I just want to get so sick that maybe she’ll see that’s she’s hurting me. And maybe care.",0.5246224842968843,2.627231386617101,2.2402256121010145,95.5226022304833,84.57620817843865,5.346032559928214,17.826047942571467,6.647476241863616,-0.1832951929239841,989,23,227,11,29,324,151,269,0.129,0.774,0.09699999999999999,-0.9123,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,1,2,0,3,15,16,3,0,6,0,21,6,1,2,5,28,47,17,0,3,5,2,4,1,0,2,2,3,1,1,16,8,3,0,3,0,1,3,8,8,0,3,8,9,35,8,25,35,4,34,0,4,2,0,22,8,0,3,21,135,51,3,0.0,0.0,0.1056755709015879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21687389686724406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135516702238044,0.0,0.0,0.10739473600237584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22081806175400032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702318750821013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967638358595924,0.1116423955020019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19182587142398674,0.11189267860142366,0.0,0.07152462651830717,0.0,0.09123912667709004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13094488609481736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16973141049541698,0.0,0.12308758204189495,0.18165728958663535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21382821870898805,0.0,0.0,0.24410175148182914,0.0,0.0725846086942461,0.11441449501875255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11592685136644028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05951343752986926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221468042132028,0.07648853947763859,0.05290510011853464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093645719914044,0.12114898465761932,0.1182114970789684,0.0,0.0,0.10246676365148463,0.0,0.10978922104818853,0.21758403313489724,0.11795972588322873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536562430681271,0.0,0.0,0.07960572445030835,0.16059155659528804,0.16704008787455688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676042412097154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11017001934096336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937344665695623,0.0,0.0,0.11626310074161965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959541888433896,0.08629323370378242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12122196343889385,0.0,0.1154228974919174,0.08648065821068784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703952517793871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938795919533908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264640554973184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638723395216529,0.08595568508747697,0.0,0.13186823608127324,0.0,0.0,0.19543004409115075,0.1209020915530707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07883652306506457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973530982614053
EDAnonymous,ggjefff,2019/04/25,"Going out to eat is the worst. Why does binging for one day make me want to eat m My friend came to visit and to keep her busy so we went out to eat quite a bit and i binged all weekend. I used to be able to live on a banana and a salad for 2 days in a row but now I'm hungry all the time.

Does anyone else get this? Feeling gross and I'm going away with my boyfriend in a week and a half and there's going to be bikinis 😅😂😢😭

Help?",-2.378170276325616,-0.6967633203883477,0.6747572815534006,104.33676624346529,94.8252427184466,3.1692307692307686,12.777445855115756,3.1291,-1.8096790141896941,330,5,91,0,13,115,70,103,0.069,0.8370000000000001,0.094,0.1021,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,8,0,3,4,0,2,2,19,16,8,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,11,4,1,1,1,0,6,0,2,0,2,2,1,7,1,17,12,4,18,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,6,51,8,0,0.17512084588933674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224485672083014,0.1794320014377479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16453179933876744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1911866078097212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20029159497174231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258769164250132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064988647126277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5375770329356867,0.1462909957244006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854636147432607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135297931128061,0.0,0.09149341413081187,0.0,0.2985756371411618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737981161061943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565545414327386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463491528291062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689452446678635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186664173377285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862625756543094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10211437352260996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124818427656594,0.0,0.0,0.10329081213019564,0.0,0.14047137944583865,0.0,0.0,0.1623387786000938,0.1580193251099856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,JavaBean17,2019/04/25,"BINGE!!! Gah! So on Monday I fasted, Tuesday I tried to fast but had 167 calories, Wednesday I had 935, and today I’ll have had 1,679. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I’ve been going to personal training every day trying to make some progress. Worried this is gonna ruin it. Feel so shit now.",-0.9928174603174612,1.0735493214285723,1.586666666666666,94.76944444444445,100.42857142857143,3.203174603174604,18.72222222222221,5.033348758259628,-0.3787515873015872,206,7,43,1,9,70,47,56,0.25,0.69,0.059000000000000004,-0.9312,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,0,5,10,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,4,1,3,0,4,5,1,10,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,8,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318147862982445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30285117798273553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174815016542312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428307774341467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23993491355898666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31385689087635216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689691022006154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407155018750926,0.0,0.0,0.4880843791656188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36503777808571103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Missie-my-dear,2019/04/25,"[rant] freaking out for this damn appointment. I have a new patient doctor's appointment tomorrow morning and I pulled out a notebook to write down all the things I want to talk about, because if I don't, I won't bring it up.

I'm scared the doctor is going to look at this list or hear me reading it off and think I'm just fishing for attention, or drugs, or trying to make myself sound worse off than I really am.

My one page became two, then three, then I put it down because I can't keep writing it all down, they're going to think I went on WebMD and looked up the saddest symptoms I could. They're going to look at me and ask if that's really all true, do I really think I have those problems, do I just want to feel special--

I think I'm more afraid of them not believing me than I am of asking for help. I'm fasting for the blood test and all I can think about is how much money is in my account and all the places that are close enough to deliver and still open, that I can put on a movie and pretend I've got friends over so they don't give me that look when I come to the door.

fml. I don't want this.",5.614400278940033,4.043478246861923,6.199257322175736,86.09071304044632,67.7866108786611,9.472942817294284,29.54009762900977,8.07648339933343,1.6544390516039051,867,23,203,9,12,284,124,239,0.09,0.853,0.057,-0.8499,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,2,0,8,8,1,2,9,0,18,5,1,2,6,44,48,18,0,7,8,0,1,0,1,1,4,2,1,0,13,13,0,1,7,2,2,9,6,5,0,3,2,7,28,3,34,44,9,34,0,0,4,0,11,18,1,5,7,135,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284513241650421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896461555875987,0.0,0.0,0.13765966663445914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10525080370789218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755408061930904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501212561305547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14169479268356605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262488617315455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177996420127324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439915093542876,0.0,0.0,0.1172101450601024,0.20832015982160626,0.0,0.09772180551260007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377103875626829,0.0,0.08189744263358459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860286322993236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4104155644422946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155885139308469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898193896578915,0.0,0.0,0.11800618811647084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279512441788918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765640377664378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691370512345794,0.0,0.2456575837445999,0.0,0.0,0.12221718853114905,0.0,0.2348228351749383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12232762308850925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757639907599157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12699608806454274,0.0,0.09820697043558976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811737026408147,0.3914532646720921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295499966466577,0.0,0.11935613487768375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21620208564665336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326590684700465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245160606053992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tesdanwat,2019/10/09,"relapsing kinda not sure if I should tag this, but I did just to be safe, I just need to kinda get my thoughts down. I just moved out of state for college after spending almost all of my senior year of high school recovering, and it’s really hard. now that I’m on my own I’ve been gaining weight, even after the recovery weight I already put on, and I feel like garbage. it’s weird because I swing back and forth between not even counting calories and trying to “love my body” in the spirit of recovery, and then the next day crying because I ate a bowl of carrots. I’m not sure if I’m really fully relapsing or just going through a rough patch, and it makes it tough to figure out what to do. sorry this got so long, it’s my first post on this sub and I just wasn’t really sure where else to go. :/",4.546686746987952,4.483981379518075,5.5273734939759045,85.00045783132533,69.5421686746988,8.567710843373495,27.443373493975905,8.238735603445708,1.5800983132530124,623,18,135,8,10,206,101,166,0.115,0.7759999999999999,0.10800000000000001,0.5744,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,11,8,0,0,5,0,6,5,1,1,4,35,19,13,0,4,12,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,9,3,1,3,0,1,4,4,2,0,1,6,5,14,6,23,11,2,26,1,0,0,1,1,9,0,6,12,87,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15159282058145104,0.0,0.167059988887978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640772523397765,0.0,0.18456896027618416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16815750355660689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629217774694516,0.09763248257291908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264649200696798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19998017339232246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765461228208993,0.10815133673618624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287702212334228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909377639860647,0.0,0.17207413164806598,0.0,0.12107849889128552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13561356037416114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994931862096975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396033792874633,0.0,0.0,0.13397326836269366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663322594331134,0.0,0.1010524032601798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090106810232288,0.0,0.11225199241358012,0.0,0.0,0.1610024375689954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498748016888574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218635863835578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909483327619373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321234054877972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946603182375852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280430841811666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018484985011273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027822478538811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686986426936869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974886555124439
EDAnonymous,cindyxloowho,2019/10/09,"I can not binge, so I must cringe I restricted for two days straight (mon & tues) and I told myself I was gonna binge today. 

After one black coffee, I realized the only way I’d be able to binge was if I drank. 

Five white claws and a Taco Bell box later, I am sobbing and sprinting on my treadmill. 

I hate this. 

The only reason I relapsed was because I found out my s/o was watching petite girl porn. 

I am trying to stop, it’s just so hard.",0.2560638297872337,2.2566075851063867,2.3866382978723406,94.69400000000002,84.85106382978724,4.611063829787233,18.974468085106388,5.6839178017228535,-0.2936391489361698,339,9,76,2,10,114,69,94,0.154,0.8240000000000001,0.022000000000000002,-0.8842,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,9,2,0,1,1,13,14,6,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,7,4,15,0,6,4,0,9,0,1,3,1,2,3,1,1,5,46,17,0,0.2641966314409385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862569397860702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1610518143419198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703849708374113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896779697883836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23666828826411676,0.26083947675037683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17902647492694335,0.40186688673400095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27163813900811523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22088021382667802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504275149047351,0.25245120323972564,0.0,0.17937217042604095,0.0,0.25808171964579657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097069886968594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cantpostthisonmain,2019/10/09,"I’m back on my shit Everything’s been terrible, and I don’t got much going for myself atm. No friends, stressed about school, stressed about family, body image, etc. I’ve been eating a “normal” amount and all that.   One day I just said fuck it though, and now it’s back to restricting. I know it’s unhealthy, but it feels really fucking good. To see the scale move up and down, see how long I can go without eating/how little I can eat... its great. 
(Again, wanna say I don’t endorse this behaviour)

Funny thing is that I was kinda messy with being “normal”. I binge ate sometimes, and would always say “I won’t eat tomorrow!” as if that would offset how much I ate. I never had the willpower to do it. Now, though? It’s easy. I bought a 2ltr of Diet Coke just in case I have slip ups though lmao.

The therapy part of me knows this hasn’t really improved anything. I know it feels good now only because I’m succeeding. That I’ll be an emotional wreck as soon as I fail. I just don’t have anything else right now to succeed in. I feel like I need this. No one knows, so I have no one to turn to to talk about this.",0.9262045123726352,3.0515011746724885,2.5591975982532773,93.70916029839886,83.10480349344978,5.738064046579331,19.148653566229985,6.996647511020387,0.1970478893740899,855,22,189,11,24,280,132,229,0.131,0.665,0.205,0.9793,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,3,20,14,3,2,6,0,20,11,2,2,2,31,42,16,0,7,6,0,3,1,1,3,0,3,0,0,17,6,7,1,7,0,2,3,10,7,0,3,9,8,22,7,25,28,6,23,0,1,2,2,5,8,3,2,13,126,39,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880879953622693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756611515804364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413920803945445,0.0,0.06506226907944883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11855415696937276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688327099263994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32763758737994664,0.08916011279873053,0.120058087124753,0.0,0.0,0.1190333551269036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09592300284515047,0.0,0.10061655312257743,0.0,0.16189930633546026,0.07624869708863817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246015922633244,0.1973423070769352,0.0,0.0,0.12131545237234112,0.17904191387426138,0.08536258602543642,0.1176713804730086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346264172680469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214340916616171,0.1069725704929245,0.0,0.09445363751980272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134382354690532,0.15691923284072687,0.07913973535081985,0.08231758024915987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20914757312641244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169712039253356,0.08117378753429658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557934696509098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367493117372729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114774984002326,0.10152568787996162,0.16975366003443945,0.0,0.10801754002580377,0.17010168710411938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10955790866120133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10555975644311684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24452015808751396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578639043897532,0.0,0.0,0.12205627921710953,0.0,0.07090737976373454,0.0,0.31458820045314245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609275457930973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288494190224376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516373784448047,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mccreelover,2019/10/09,Life hack: How to eat less calories when eating bread You know how wholemeal or the seedy bread has slices which are usually thicker than slices of whitebread with lower calories? Just slice one slice into two so that way you don't have to eat as many calories but still eat two slices!!,5.468333333333334,7.160241574074076,3.878703703703703,91.2991666666667,68.44444444444444,6.140740740740743,26.462962962962962,5.985473137389443,0.7573851851851847,231,7,44,1,4,65,42,54,0.04,0.96,0.0,-0.2924,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,2,0,8,5,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,7,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,28,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8131149757189257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917832362363933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403194112656978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014100277768434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346171364389779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586501079621398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881238468236808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187958895212861,0.0,0.0,0.15768703663037772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,calllyma,2019/10/09,"it hurts to eat after fasting?? I usually only fast for like 1 day or two before I break but a few days ago I fasted for four days straight and when I ate a few slices of an apple after, my stomach started to hurt like crazy and I ended up throwing up the apple, and when I try to eat anything that isn’t a liquid it’s still really hurts and I usually end up throwing up that too. does this happen to anybody else?? should I be concerned??",2.5991459627329188,3.741785467391306,4.4139751552795055,86.8254347826087,74.76086956521739,6.561490683229812,25.099378881987576,6.868970318607317,0.9806378881987574,341,11,71,3,7,116,61,92,0.159,0.762,0.079,-0.8594,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,5,0,3,4,1,0,0,7,6,8,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,1,0,9,2,13,3,2,25,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,1,19,49,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948248010627058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877012668362673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14349378294977785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262619124555796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757138142504503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34510616299596697,0.14087076211088953,0.0,0.298716571656424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491211065281594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5415735324861399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16477058087350754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825256669646787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080302567923822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935890637973096,0.0,0.13467008148337467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144903549432436,0.0,0.1647293870416379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714496088094768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,AngstyManatee,2019/10/09,"I don’t know how people just eat normally??? I always see people around my uni who are normal weight and eating like a slice of pizza or a doughnut or whatever and I just wonder like...... how can you eat that and not trigger a 3 day binge cycle??? Honestly all I want is to be able to eat when I am hungry, and stop when I feel full without any sense of guilt. When I’m restricting I feel like eating ANYTHING is a failure even if it’s like soup broth and carrots. And then when I’m not restricting I’m literally ALWAYS binging and just eating the worst shit possible and like??? Why am I like this??? I just want to be the kind of person who eats 3 reasonable meals a day and maybe a snack, and maybe go for a run or go to the gym a few times a week. I WANT to be healthy and I KNOW how but I just??? Can’t??? Do it????",1.5941133004926122,2.8035957183908096,3.5663382594417072,91.63034482758621,77.44827586206897,6.810509031198686,21.623973727422005,7.447530270364453,0.54156288998358,621,16,146,8,14,211,92,174,0.086,0.804,0.109,-0.3168,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,0,14,11,1,1,12,0,12,12,1,5,1,44,26,24,0,6,13,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,12,11,3,6,1,0,3,5,3,0,0,0,4,14,8,11,23,4,15,0,0,1,0,4,2,1,5,16,91,20,0,0.10173882356616283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930970266855178,0.0,0.0,0.06918588879790742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08372238308538074,0.09056912285706124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13122624911459851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7287295094333252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671975334437532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288441220932544,0.07268223588404488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564103600951894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594532875218067,0.1118259934637337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29822670100769233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044206457990605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19936489179451936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410657802964607,0.08883441648861172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469523703170828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046044552031525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107267021234035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443344036448632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850582120642684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05932472618337584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18002458230404528,0.0,0.08160874747354051,0.12389047850493864,0.0,0.0,0.09180346380674873,0.0,0.0,0.09807259535939554,0.11033141426985127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,personne-inconnue,2019/10/09,"I've been baking a lot more recently... I've been making pies, pumpkin spice cookies, chocolate cakes, snickerdoodles, honey buns, etc....

And I haven't eaten any of it lol 

Oh well, at least my family is happy  🙃",1.6454999999999984,4.314182550000002,3.7550000000000026,82.39,86.0,6.2,20.5,7.554174236665415,1.1643499999999998,162,5,29,3,5,55,36,40,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.8225,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,1,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,2,2,2,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631162027380149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43151370653601184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3647500461573383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4118793624931839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289422154914757,0.0,0.0,0.2582694882651438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820329517065456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478840232288819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ladispoot,2019/10/09,"DAE struggle more during the colder months? It seems like most people struggle the most in the summer for obvious reasons (swimwear, less clothing, etc) but I always have my worst relapses in the fall/winter. I think maybe it’s just because of nostalgia (my ed developed during this season years ago and I hit my LW last year in October.) but also the chilly weather plays a big role because I struggle with seasonal depression and my ED pulls me out of it. I’m trying hard to stay afloat but I’m struggling. I just wanted to see if anyone could relate.",4.140476190476189,6.3025190476190485,4.805714285714289,81.38761904761907,72.80952380952381,7.333333333333332,27.857142857142854,8.167268648758528,2.098714285714285,440,17,76,7,9,141,75,105,0.198,0.764,0.038,-0.9584,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,4,6,0,2,0,0,1,1,18,9,7,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,2,10,2,10,7,6,15,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,4,9,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507641757057902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13601157733931746,0.14151879346746735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892272135542938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20735634010283785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357937053940027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464882145646764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968229373568285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15235677497138608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386365372551606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830916800025602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708665404129671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357548986532433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791089767715973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17486884754209112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13553040718637308,0.15483292198538526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128086785354625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7112111849590433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897932502862663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547202037998155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031660434735157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190497338052691
EDAnonymous,Alt_Tab_Hero,2019/10/09,"How to lose weight without really trying It’s all about substitutions. 

Instead of buying normal icecream, buy halo top. 300 cal a pint > 900-1200

Like Pizza? Lean cuisine pizzas 

Like chinese/pasta/ pretty much any food? There a bunch of 200-400 options in your freezer healthy meal section

Instead of 2% milk, buy unsweetened vanilla almond milk- 30 cals a cup

A normal hotdog is 200-300 cals. Buy fat free ones that are 45

Light miracle whip instead of mayo

Remember every 100 calories is a MILE ran. Save 300 cals is the same as running 3 miles.",2.8448705501618146,5.698686553398062,3.567208737864078,84.77534385113269,81.52427184466019,4.986731391585762,26.059061488673137,6.42735559955562,1.2606187702265372,437,18,73,4,12,138,83,103,0.025,0.7609999999999999,0.214,0.9621,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,0,2,6,5,0,0,6,0,4,8,1,1,1,9,5,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,0,1,1,2,1,5,9,4,5,7,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,1,2,33,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395633328243132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155269451936945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30932070830352204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24994703542197474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861806280652491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880462827250415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5012696398701495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17334024906918813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260245889951622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16387538526589027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897774675819085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17367496461302115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115018646689243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465871203020238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,plantsoverrpants,2019/10/09,"Question for those recovered from an ED I have been struggling back and forth with whether or not I have an ED and some days I think ""oh my God I gotta get help"" while other days I think ""dude you're making this up"". So my question is for those who recovered or are on their way: what finally convinced you that you had an eating disorder and how did you go about reversing toxic behaviors like calorie counting and the desire to fast? Does it ever go away or is that little voice always there?",5.528605442176867,5.8471353979591845,5.710612244897959,83.21176870748302,67.46938775510205,8.982312925170069,29.59863945578231,8.841846274778883,2.1584843537414957,391,13,78,6,6,124,72,98,0.054000000000000006,0.8190000000000001,0.127,0.7622,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,1,0,6,3,0,1,4,0,8,1,0,2,1,19,15,11,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,5,1,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,1,11,2,9,11,1,14,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,6,8,57,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813052324244308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20471855096737215,0.16754700783572612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810471605692301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497253591654736,0.0,0.19068047547429148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229599215434709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19709756429287084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386921860082528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11384060248044822,0.0,0.24766832120132434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14604973046135744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064519841236759,0.21838699382877025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14544591234663518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881822121063577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277900800883676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792353067695545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295408578323707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Rozalana,2019/10/09,"Ed and Drug abuse I don’t know if I can even write about this topic but it’s really been on my mind lately.
I live in a big city with a big electronic scene which I’m quite involved in through my friends as well. We go out a lot and it can be 16h marathons from
time to time. I’m not an addict, I’m starting my phd soon and I live in a nice apartment. But drug consumption has become something casual to do.

As someone that struggles with an ED I found the perfect lifestyle (sarcasm). A weekend of hard dancing, no food and no appetite for a day or two as bonus.
I love techno and I love my friends but I know this lifestyle is eating me up..
A lot of my friends change now realising the damage it does to your mind and body and I’m currently abroad so I was forced to abandon it for the time being as well which kept me thinking. 
Abandoning that lifestyle terrifies me because of the weight gain.. my motivation is a lot different than the ones of my friends and I’m afraid I can never let go of it just because I started to appreciate it’s effects so much. Just being here right now and not being able to dance of my calories in that way makes me feel like I gained tons of weight already. I joined the gym now but having experienced how much easier and fun it can be just makes me want to go back.
I’m not fully in my ED again but you can see how it still plays the strings in my life..
I don’t if some of you experienced the same. It’s the same issue with smoking for me. I could stop it I know but I’m too afraid of the weight gain..",0.9671464646464648,3.017345731481484,2.588473625140296,93.99176767676771,82.42592592592592,5.6556677890011215,22.47250280583614,6.850034144686104,0.4886987654320985,1203,41,273,14,33,394,158,324,0.1,0.698,0.203,0.9911,2,0,3,0,1,0,25.0,1,3,0,8,20,21,0,3,20,0,21,12,1,6,2,59,46,27,0,4,15,0,5,1,4,0,4,0,0,0,17,15,5,4,8,8,1,5,8,6,2,2,4,8,36,15,39,35,9,37,0,3,1,2,12,13,0,7,19,188,53,2,0.10186159286011937,0.12068933100831407,0.0,0.11104417155334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240680067010636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832527736854086,0.0,0.12418776312481122,0.11249812645509356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11314526661524545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10775605888079023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132819334555767,0.0,0.0,0.06569230059545092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642368440393588,0.0,0.0,0.08913976634505147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23625421760464724,0.10422983927043752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672786214045467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05150428194849168,0.07276994229217787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317144241472952,0.1116859789551352,0.3147920558604884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736708718712034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124797954681743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063170384733069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794140257539286,0.0,0.11490431352490316,0.0,0.0,0.10416038003353394,0.07194785544228753,0.04976442904365931,0.0,0.17989130537275466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597972509339258,0.1838681289967287,0.0,0.13598680840472213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20570234262535306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14975998219455566,0.0,0.07856193998173502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06902405152076033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10834234239803728,0.0,0.0,0.06525514470134616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698924374025421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117050144462963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630699707701635,0.07841803069088779,0.0,0.0,0.14419631941026734,0.0,0.08134679963807487,0.08516085269126114,0.0,0.10648785338032836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06526879571391353,0.0,0.0,0.1781889418378992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995039751560059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06008060661176672,0.0808529911454849,0.0,0.3721199352922121,0.1831716101335325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nicfrae,2019/10/09,"when do i start worrying? (poop)(maybe TW - numbers) (hi! i used to frequent proed a lot, then semi ""recovered"" and now i'm back on my bullshit go me!)

so i've been restricting again for about 2 and a half weeks now after eating normally for the best part of a year. when i say normally i mean i guess maintenance with binges semi regularly (swapped my AN for BED, i hate myself so much hahaha) and still wasn't pooping all too often during that time, but it was WAY better than it is now. i used to pretty heavily abuse lax until i stopped maybe 8 months ago? so a couple days without a bm was normal to me, but it's literally been 8 and a half days and i'm in pain. i know it's because i'm restricting low again (something like 350 cal a day on avg) but i don't know if i should be worried or not. like i said, this isn't THAT unusual for me, but 8 days is the longest i've gone so far. my bf is super worried (he's aware of my ed) and made me drink coffee, take fibre supplements, lay on my back and massage my stomach, etc. no poops.
i LIVE on diet coke and caffeine in general so tbh it really doesn't affect me at all these days.
i'm terrified my poop is gonna poison me from the inside or something lmao, and my stomach looking literally pregnant from being distended is really not helping me BDD wise.
if anyone has advice it'd help so much, i just wanna poop again :(",2.124552631578947,3.7003414245614046,4.277741228070177,85.5439802631579,76.85964912280701,7.416666666666668,24.85745614035088,8.212053250817874,1.5142192982456142,1066,37,224,19,24,368,165,285,0.17300000000000001,0.7120000000000001,0.115,-0.943,0,0,3,0,1,0,41.0,0,0,0,3,21,10,2,0,11,0,19,12,6,4,2,43,38,27,0,7,12,0,0,2,1,2,2,2,1,0,10,10,4,3,3,1,0,2,8,4,0,2,8,3,30,6,25,25,8,39,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,7,29,145,40,0,0.0,0.1360187386589474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11218082796670033,0.10176290743785177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08027054059026847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654759279504526,0.0,0.0699807628229761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047508418971875,0.10153090578469423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702355970849236,0.0,0.3701811830402024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124598907920398,0.0,0.11746863744909725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803188562309353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524325096058252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646468791546273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334082532335735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389548685106244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12618170170786575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217055910492918,0.0,0.10137013871933724,0.0,0.09640274022915483,0.0,0.0,0.0975985037613096,0.0,0.10862614514203496,0.0,0.0,0.23066323090178165,0.12505040510782842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09163193524729617,0.0,0.1687818111966054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3374376635732109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215485474845192,0.0,0.0,0.12431676579434502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679245137414747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708711033741256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092006962636244,0.091293239455697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675666164656095,0.0,0.0,0.08125573868702665,0.0,0.09167909862679442,0.09597759528046272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631500258591854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06694056248737222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982999685822932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112256883464123,0.09208530424367233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066270542339328,0.0,0.0,0.34975365990402835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07392717030142447
EDAnonymous,snowingseasson,2019/10/09,"Drug testing in treatment Hi! Not sure if this is the best place for this, but I really don't know who else to ask. I've been struggling with bullimia (and idek what else) for about four years now, and I'm really fucking over it. I decided to go to the free counseling at my University, and they reccomened I seek treatment at a local Ed recovery center. Once I started checking out the website I saw they do drug screenings during the intake, and I smoke a looot of weed. What happens if I go and fail the drug test? Will they take legal action? I live in a state where marijuana is still considered a hard drug (lol), and I don't want to fuck up my entire future for seeking help.",5.563676470588233,5.545829779411764,6.310588235294119,80.09764705882355,67.38235294117646,9.447058823529412,30.970588235294123,9.188382445141503,2.4871794117647057,534,19,107,9,8,176,90,136,0.09300000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.121,0.7107,0,0,5,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,2,4,7,2,1,9,1,7,6,0,0,1,16,19,9,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,2,0,2,3,3,4,0,1,2,3,14,4,17,16,1,20,0,1,2,2,7,11,2,2,5,68,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352710937051538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16111721453543024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7121707551857978,0.0,0.2565043757334654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28386665120555915,0.0,0.0,0.17450597246234856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576350324767755,0.0,0.13753012149772711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290597569523473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437447643737285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13556723780171953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635013457976294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16040313789961133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19670677693248534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086672681768482,0.0,0.1226069365397352,0.0,0.0,0.16049985420131435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446974703003573,0.0,0.1154332689019897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09055425849439117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09886641572040808
EDAnonymous,Aeurius,2019/10/09,"My story - A small vent 🌼 I’ve never been diagnosed with an Ed but this is really the only place that suits what I wanna talk about. I know nobody is going to read this but I I don’t really have anyone else to talk about it to, - I eat around 350-650 calories everyday. I’ve been doing this since June/July and I’ve gone from 155lb to 119lb. - Nobody really knows that I do this, everyone at my school just think that I miraculously lost a bunch of weight. I’m always too afraid to tell anyone what I really do. - I’m getting closer to my goal but I still feel like I’m never going to be happy with myself. In my reflection i still see a chubby girl with no confidence, -  Once I get to my goal, I’m not sure how I’m going to get back into a healthy relationship with food. I mean sure I eat extremely clean everyday but I fear so many things I used to enjoy; I honestly just want to be happy. If anyone just wants to chat with me that would great, I really just want a friend to vent to. :,),...",1.957010976639463,3.314517794258375,4.222887700534758,86.68374331550804,76.79904306220095,7.788460455952716,18.51421334083873,8.4952907291091,0.7319161835068959,765,13,169,15,17,266,114,209,0.068,0.7170000000000001,0.214,0.9882,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,3,13,12,0,2,7,0,12,5,0,2,4,35,35,8,0,6,10,0,2,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,12,8,4,0,6,2,0,4,5,3,0,0,4,3,24,9,28,28,1,18,0,1,1,0,7,7,0,1,8,104,36,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990848428587884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497923887519081,0.12201244783704375,0.0,0.10600724193247413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156585676468368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12086460038563525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436989654907029,0.09947680648841926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378689694827435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339991117754421,0.060210877792022416,0.0850714141917119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399308923707058,0.0,0.0920016030136618,0.0,0.1866445560928839,0.0,0.20302924818423265,0.0,0.0,0.13128710560250995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25352765110578496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088748979227927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058176909611789875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999086222744288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072933563982817,0.0,0.12971400290642124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368505251952064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681726531953974,0.0,0.09056638558443203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441418875095688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911311859552548,0.0,0.3814313484501027,0.0,0.0,0.12784831496164212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12051622176340447,0.09489205475551536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850494574594458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019631092725864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22446466593442188,0.0,0.0,0.19142542316656724,0.10408194972195207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07911205441474392,0.07630222835245278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10284765842560456,0.0,0.0,0.2107109890002611,0.0,0.0,0.14500844784298447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459165022601793,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ftphx,2019/10/09,"Feel confused & lost So I'm 20, I've had anorexia for 7-10 years, I've been hospitalized before, but never recieved proper treatment and definitely have never recovered.
Recently everything has gotten much worse, I ended up in the hospital, at risk of refeeding syndrome. I left AMA. I am now on medical leave from college & work. My whole team is recommending residential treatment. I've gone to get second opinions and they recommend residential treatment too. My doctor has even gone as far as saying she'll refuse to treat me if I don't go into residential. My boyfriend also thinks I need residential.
But I am so scared. If I'm being honest, I have ZERO desire to gain weight or eat, in fact the thought of doing either seems like a nightmare. Additionally the anxiety of them not letting me know my weight and having to eat foods I don't like (also a very picky eater) is almost unbearable to even imagine. I'm confused because in the past I really wanted to get this type of treatment & I do think it would help - but it's way too scary. I wish I could just ""get it together"" and eat more, to get my life back together, but no matter how much I eat it's always disappointing to everyone or I end up lying about food/using other behaviors to compensate. I will get a ""burst of motivation"" and eat something small like a cookie, and end up extremely guilty, in physical pain and worse than before.
Right now things are really miserable and I just sit at my apartment all day with my thoughts, not knowing what to do. I'm not sure if it's the malnutrition but I just feel confused about it all & can't make a decision. I'm an adult, even though I'm very sick/BMI is very low, noone can make me do this (in a way I almost wish they would, so I cannot be so miserable). I don't know how to make myself do this. I'm so confused and scared, so any advice would really be appreciated. 
Sorry if this post doesn't make much sense I *tried* to be coherent!",4.1139807039485445,5.556652549222799,5.527977487939968,79.13691709844562,71.43523316062176,8.847453993210648,27.55904949079865,9.314750747691287,2.3699715204573875,1548,55,299,34,29,521,198,386,0.179,0.698,0.12300000000000001,-0.9719,1,0,1,0,0,0,58.0,0,0,3,5,24,19,0,9,12,0,36,12,0,7,6,73,71,33,0,13,18,0,4,3,0,5,4,1,0,1,13,12,8,1,13,1,0,3,12,13,0,2,8,5,36,6,37,52,8,38,0,5,0,0,9,18,0,14,16,191,49,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531471583126129,0.0,0.0,0.15435469081841094,0.0,0.0,0.1232702914002696,0.06413080140166258,0.3340336865622905,0.0,0.05241219403688963,0.0,0.0589605340248154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05926427903526895,0.0,0.04698290573529957,0.0,0.13116667010738048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06153641462623554,0.0,0.0,0.049705624592160914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888734754288787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943239325702957,0.0,0.0,0.20479105716959484,0.0,0.0,0.15271770976052987,0.0,0.0,0.07364642946147637,0.06926812520198619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794071695512565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18639363887844929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20133696561025116,0.0,0.04380228774441333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051660319637424665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707169994395812,0.0,0.0,0.08160904010065141,0.08373989796122383,0.07881223066318023,0.05443884687261282,0.11296173245568973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413414129767292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20578695484198944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764280730056372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997228106835613,0.05714855596818701,0.11888669632722253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820109669320643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357477468390418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381450384051769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14812456083126702,0.0,0.07610016025226032,0.0,0.0,0.0658198092275136,0.0,0.06129143911259145,0.15432677519645274,0.0,0.0,0.07016424551815083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05933446019468128,0.0,0.08627676708582836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264026715592738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05120378963894645,0.0987703651092068,0.07572370272586629,0.12237449813597052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05232741903031897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09270917198553932,0.0,0.0,0.19077956658562212,0.045459575177681864,0.12235371234080605,0.0,0.1877079824092784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08604910609595849,0.1772599919697312,0.0,0.0,0.056109966753424,0.0,0.1570876765871075,0.16425106497716446,0.0,0.0,0.049632400869012896
EDAnonymous,carnivoreheart,2019/04/23,"How to get ym electrolytes up within 1-2 days w out dyinof refeeding syndrome Also preferably w out getting the shits since every fucking thing high in electrolytes can give u that if u have enough of it and also bc idfk what my stomach can handle at this point and i dont fucking wanna find out 

 I been zero percent motivated to get them up within the past few days even tho theres that huge fucking threat of going to the hospital again  

No one in this world got a shred of compassion in their heart and no one will ever listen to me so theres no hope at all whatsoever of them letting me go and getting my nutrition up myself at home until they leave me the fuck alone abt it  

Im a child i have no choice i have no rights i cant defend myself  If they find out my stuff is low

im going to run away and shoot myself on the bridge before they can take me away  

They gonna tell me this is whats best for me when they throwing me somewhere thatll kill me worse than actually killing myself shut the fuck up and go die you heartless fucking bastard  

Please dont tell me that i should go to the hospital anyway

 Please just tell me what i could do to fix my stuff b4 its too late",5.182643146327359,4.73230961538462,5.813791208791213,84.8044230769231,68.23076923076923,8.190746096009255,28.169172932330827,7.1686216300943375,1.3407561596298434,933,26,200,7,14,304,139,247,0.203,0.721,0.076,-0.9858,0,1,0,1,0,2,1.0,0,1,8,2,14,15,12,0,9,0,18,9,3,2,2,24,39,15,3,7,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,16,10,0,0,4,0,0,7,8,13,0,3,2,1,34,2,34,31,5,41,0,1,0,6,15,26,8,3,8,144,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.09197899285455656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761944565449404,0.0,0.150750902447235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17711079061372598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802038093082788,0.0,0.09891449481082858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752547100594584,0.0,0.0,0.12157297072724114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782149989123898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22093161779969728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739030314907808,0.0,0.062254341806005316,0.08525877424150402,0.07941365169915486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17229418032021515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5228217198007418,0.1969767665312221,0.09041769884487216,0.2678355965462303,0.0,0.07538409560780493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116922758183599,0.0,0.0995852677208428,0.09454515127441494,0.09361618648547368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20362250493252304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20855772577629605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10632340942527543,0.09980212022926137,0.0,0.09638181885832776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773885096041335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08997677830528981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2069267175206339,0.08910115930549105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049300060250217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967510972388554,0.07796846358612892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2157981673507564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708678058438751,0.0,0.2471482922633888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261863591873261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605359385397726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Gheeyt,2019/04/23,"I Reached My First Goal Weight Today I’m now 125 pounds at 5’ 10” which puts my BMI at 17.9 and honestly? I still fucking hate my body. I literally gasped when I read the scale this morning because I couldn’t believe I was that light. I set a new GW of 120 pounds five seconds later. 

I promised myself I could indulge at maintenance calories when I reached my goal weight and I kept that promise at least. I ate all my favourite foods, and came in at well under maintenance and I fucking hated every second of it. I feel like I binged and it’s eating me alive. 

Sorry guys just needed to rant ya know how it be 😐",1.1206857142857167,3.464048479999999,2.3353428571428587,94.2221,84.2,4.851428571428572,22.52857142857143,6.1826913282559595,0.3326571428571432,480,17,102,4,14,153,86,125,0.099,0.7559999999999999,0.145,0.3847,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,3,7,9,4,0,2,0,4,8,1,1,1,15,15,8,0,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,6,5,1,2,1,0,2,1,4,1,4,4,4,23,5,10,8,2,18,0,0,0,2,2,7,2,0,9,64,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088021522618997,0.0,0.0,0.2010902784302727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982554193139451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041380769433279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14250490149622033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18263362761656496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15038041610819888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09024684213158254,0.12750896130411685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181834688208098,0.2158234868673271,0.0,0.0,0.3300110501230794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17672716028787544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35243187518592034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809010482361706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719823676336072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13234357881204245,0.0,0.1723808999759423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17942565575465344,0.0,0.0,0.17853223875628524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997981564193456,0.0,0.0,0.14253750381742408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918190408825512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346907064014115,0.16047849574177786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway5849379,2019/04/23,"just had literally the most embarrassing ubereats meltdown and now I want to kill myself and yes I know exactly how dramatic I am being right now on a throwaway because I'm so mortified jesus fucking christ

oh my godddd have I just been shamed out of my binge cycle?? I fucking hope so

I ordered my favourite meal from my favourite restaurant and asked for extra sauce and they fucked it up and didn't put the sauce on so I called and asked what they could do and they basically couldn't do anything and were telling me I chose the wrong option which isn't true at all and the option he was saying was unavailable and I've just been having the worst fucking day/year and I just fucking wanted it and I told him I was having the worst day and then basically ugly cried but he kept talking to me and I was like okay sorry bye

and I was just so fucking humiliated and still crying at this point and texting my boyfriend that they forgot the sauce and how much I was overreacting

and then it got even worse because 5 minutes later he called me back and fucking said ""oh you order this the same way quite frequently don't you"" and I was like back to crying then because it felt so fucking pathetic and embarrassing and literally every binge eater's worst nightmare and told me he'd spoken to the chef and the sauce *was* on it but they'd ??? made it wrong??? without the key ingredient? and so I just apologised again and hung up?? wtf could I have said??

and as a bonus turns out poutine is literally impossible to purge because it congeals into what feels like a fucking brick in my stomach and now I feel even shitter because I couldn't even fucking purge it. it literally feels like I'll choke to death which I don't particularly mind but if I don't choke then I'd definitely pop a blood vessel in my eye and I would have to explain all of this to my therapist and honestly I have much more important things to deal with there

I'm kind of laughing like a crazy fucking cunt over how stupid and petty this is but mainly just crying over what a fucking mess I am right now. I've already had one valium today but I just took another because it CLEARLY wasn't doing much. I've deleted my ubereats account lol

on the plus side my boyfriend is not prying and just says we don't ever have to go there again if I feel uncomfortable which is really nice because he really likes it there",2.8433333333333337,5.141465010615711,3.8745902335456495,85.92598301486203,77.23779193205945,6.649511677282377,25.54097664543525,7.715138304826218,1.4250054352441603,1904,71,374,29,45,614,208,471,0.19899999999999998,0.688,0.114,-0.9938,0,0,0,0,0,1,21.0,1,2,5,2,34,38,15,3,18,3,44,16,3,4,6,89,81,55,2,10,18,0,5,6,0,1,0,4,0,0,23,39,1,2,7,0,2,3,11,24,0,1,25,10,51,14,34,48,13,43,2,0,1,12,29,19,13,6,25,261,74,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017594069013754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668231482174529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05233123562457161,0.0,0.1189008666260997,0.0,0.0,0.09779746396812193,0.0,0.27135792199731634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298701710411889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10154692489476214,0.0,0.27941364250008544,0.08202384487242237,0.06556110843323949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12600680342969556,0.05752308618079206,0.05357945116220222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861718023317725,0.09086103552235858,0.06105880362145277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7054832564235433,0.0,0.0,0.036141101580399335,0.0,0.050860757345933136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316173333511915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035571494094847,0.06622183647829279,0.034948792648045776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864085945099832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06017279163843853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0642103294010844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14024348481038276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04309194565486863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011549791954679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06392805930817225,0.0,0.06763848583030795,0.0,0.0,0.08147800910600685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861535019240973,0.12098212146719632,0.10114266815936132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118663348069243,0.0,0.0,0.050785078417877216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051113268597557056,0.055582676159649284,0.0,0.0,0.07383583136125839,0.0422480527373502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602782849137949,0.12153077956712012,0.07065364322639726,0.0,0.06917041405610405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501704631890822,0.050476792128420565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061300931804961614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480622324672612,0.04517431036681865,0.13905690223194375,0.0,0.040951505819804536
EDAnonymous,rebdom1ne,2019/04/23,"best friend told me he “could never sympathise with people with eating disorders” so, my good friend of about 12 years randomly brought up EDs and said that he doesn’t understand how anorexics can sit in a doctor’s chair, be told they’re underweight and dying, but still see themselves as obese - and said that he couldn’t sympathise with them for that reason. i tried to explain that when you’re in the grips of an eating disorder, your cognitions are literally so messed up that your *mind* views yourself as being overweight even when you know you’re not, but he just didn’t get it.

 i know he probably didn’t mean it in a mean way but it’s really affected me, and i don’t think i can open up about my own disordered eating with friends now? ugh : /",9.9960502283105,7.026232760273974,9.094520547945203,73.19968036529683,60.43835616438356,13.568949771689498,37.34703196347032,11.855464076750405,4.071615525114155,597,19,119,14,6,188,92,146,0.113,0.8,0.087,-0.7162,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,1,1,11,7,0,0,4,0,11,6,0,3,1,29,25,14,1,2,5,0,1,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,8,9,5,0,8,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,7,5,12,5,18,14,2,16,0,0,2,0,17,7,0,1,6,73,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14265582703243415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085333643178332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107949492363148,0.0,0.46738127282926,0.13913565297789507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4172875845254038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897840567621571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31507008342635473,0.0,0.0710206415890474,0.0,0.0,0.1140161731241718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494130934588021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961470262731814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725601402658394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048417689216889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424049794875926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656136413807264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08708370495077497,0.13976424226040465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586114090358014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832292274979448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10855819461888014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710192237648351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25978422070895985,0.0,0.09229122086369032,0.0,0.0,0.14151355660919152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10789920177980664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753794770468659
EDAnonymous,atworkkit,2019/04/23,"tfw pajama ads trigger you [open at your own risk](https://imgur.com/a/xjf6kRV) like wtf can't a bitch look up fancy PJs one time without being reminded that she wants to disappear into bones, I hate this",5.868018018018018,8.180099405405407,5.165945945945946,79.99234234234235,68.45945945945945,9.257657657657658,28.54954954954956,9.725611199111238,2.9076738738738745,166,6,28,4,3,50,36,37,0.22399999999999998,0.643,0.133,-0.5897,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,5,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,5,4,1,6,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,2,16,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4939603369016495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244430049842326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4201410207308781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33902835173165513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917393860889245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29510045530287177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822885936946002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tenderistloin,2019/04/23,"Epilepsy I’m not sure if this is allowed. If not, feel free to delete and my apologies ahead of time.

Anyhoo, yesterday someone posted a response to a comment I made which mentioned epilepsy. The comment was quickly deleted and I was just curious if that person would be up to DM me? I’ve never met another person with an ED and epilepsy and if you’re up for it, I’d like to connect. 

Thanks much",3.8144725738396623,5.248179329113924,4.929810126582279,83.16956751054853,72.16455696202532,6.785654008438819,33.41983122362869,7.1686216300943375,2.2873527426160334,313,16,58,3,6,103,58,79,0.06,0.8420000000000001,0.098,0.4653,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,4,0,5,0,0,2,2,18,10,8,0,5,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,1,4,5,10,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,4,6,41,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177566467820227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15322264988364634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804667494717832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867372638405825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22276420959839735,0.0,0.23371782245289505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5291936612344794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902219615147361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567589779984854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856051280178849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789921818107317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767010483754249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21526603299874705,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,GenericName72,2019/04/23,"I’m getting a little sick of the projection. I feel like I’m constantly seeing posts where people here are “accusing” YouTubers, other subreddits, skinny people, etc of having eating disorders without much basis, and then acting superior because “they’re in denial and we’re not”. 

Can I just give a friendly reminder that crash diets have always existed and aren’t indicative of a problem? People can fast and not have a problem. People can lose weight on 1200/day and be fine mentally. People can exist and be fucking skinny without having a myriad of issues behind it. The difference comes down to the mentality behind a behavior, not a behavior itself. 

Please, as a community let’s try and cut down on the judgement. Let’s not project our own issues onto others. I know it’s hard to remember this when we’re deep in the middle of our own mental illness, but MOST people do not share our deep psychological issues surrounding food and weight.",6.5756782945736445,8.149889319767443,7.4941860465116275,66.86224806201552,65.68604651162791,9.919379844961243,31.77519379844961,10.125756701596842,3.679440310077519,761,30,112,18,12,255,106,172,0.11800000000000001,0.836,0.046,-0.7695,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,3,0,0,1,4,10,2,0,13,0,15,10,2,0,0,24,24,12,0,2,9,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,7,9,7,0,3,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,0,5,6,5,19,20,5,20,0,1,1,1,6,13,1,1,5,84,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586296125306903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023022281993274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924219075323353,0.0,0.1244997977197269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430015312757945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203686882015088,0.13203928044143268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788737718211045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12848828010222607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058253037278526286,0.08230519872778437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393109534817079,0.0,0.08901004281238202,0.10650869078120198,0.060191849505269485,0.11051879096859207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10320446675573204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36074420443654587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06331575042385934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356176330001863,0.0,0.05628520640524643,0.11546949664735998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888919200535115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483101570396768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08469173334302127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4792277070086205,0.0,0.0,0.12646467965700067,0.0,0.0,0.11033819579548583,0.0,0.0,0.22047854870032654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050912603865492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918065074919301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07821922123752735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2805865925780544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221143681843328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cherryadabana,2019/04/23,"My boyfriend is fucking clueless lmaooo I used to be skinnier in 2014, when I switched to a vegan diet, was cooking all of my meals and working out every single day. I legit used to have abs back then, because I was eating a lot less that I should especially considering I’m pretty tall. It was hell, though. I’d think about food 24/7, would freak out if a meal I cooked didn’t turn out the way I intended or if someone ate the last banana, which I needed for an upcoming meal. 

Right now I’m heavier and a bit flabbier, and struggle with binge eating, but I’m still at a low BMI. I hate my current belly and when me and my bf were talking about abs, I mentioned I used to have them, and also explained that getting them took a major toll on my sanity, and that now my relationship with food is complicated and I get super duper anxious when I try to eat healthy and end up bingeing. 

Then this motherfucker has the audacity to say “well? Then why don’t you go back to your 2014 eating habits and get in shape again?” BICTH. WHAT THE FUCK. I just told you it made me wanna die back then!! Just told you I can’t control my eating habits!!! And you dumb ass suggests this!!!!!!!!! I’m 1000% triggered lmaooo

Why can’t I just eat like a normal person. I just want to be pretty ffs",3.120252918287939,4.5238148287937765,4.205935797665372,87.79536284046695,73.86381322957199,6.6964202334630345,24.912256809338523,7.1686216300943375,0.9443760311284048,989,31,208,10,20,322,150,257,0.19,0.727,0.083,-0.9874,1,0,0,0,0,1,38.0,0,5,2,3,19,11,5,1,12,0,17,18,1,7,1,41,41,24,1,8,8,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,9,16,15,1,2,2,0,2,4,8,1,0,10,1,33,3,23,27,6,33,1,1,0,3,17,12,5,4,19,134,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037215128665105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353969607522005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23184163254958545,0.0,0.061265649082998815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10972316198853203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127225741856485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481607099551161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430616680517234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6170374854374882,0.0,0.0,0.08901575901226909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08467804736126082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430570670781324,0.0,0.0,0.18582666583363688,0.15752588763251973,0.0,0.0571181272844417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922582936976007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192329626713467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910065162443532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544399119500543,0.0,0.09509829588947866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452164400543836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984715258399359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775527586622386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044952084769922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079025272327376,0.0,0.08582894718265692,0.0,0.07992395833539802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515580059226427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026176420687317,0.0,0.0,0.10506747674075144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08078044259897355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06439821498773196,0.09874361165751903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920696999467467,0.11166244553828288,0.06823488759491292,0.10931832018415284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604067703376844,0.0,0.0,0.059279227981115026,0.07977454232510345,0.0,0.0,0.09036419777631716,0.0,0.18137651172322192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07316732499563622,0.0,0.0,0.07139439299543097,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,angelicaakakika,2019/04/23,"I gained weight I gained weight and I weight myself while I was drunk , I’m still a little drunk and it fucking depresses me. It’s hard to be happy.",-0.7054838709677398,1.4290771612903264,0.9118709677419368,99.56780645161292,99.96774193548387,3.7703225806451615,12.651612903225805,5.6839178017228535,-1.1199729032258063,116,2,26,1,5,37,21,31,0.272,0.478,0.25,0.0534,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,6,1,1,2,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20013820493366288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21482045774596814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24736004083002586,0.20815607277944154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328937661663601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18556937293225084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8488848160591234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,whopocalypse,2019/04/23,"Thinking abt puking My roommate told me she could hear me puking in the bathroom whenever I’m drunk but haha jokes on her cuz it’s not even when I’m drunk :)))))
Thought I was doing well today too",-0.08091666666666697,2.2515340749999986,1.7600000000000016,94.31833333333331,95.75,3.6666666666666674,19.166666666666668,5.46131890053228,-0.1895833333333332,153,5,31,1,6,50,34,40,0.18,0.628,0.192,0.3716,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,6,9,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,6,3,2,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3258225785627576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695362211605591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4599413298316607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614843198204988,0.0,0.32397381920254115,0.0,0.0,0.3868167596863639,0.38994260056951896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669173252110587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,soberandsalty,2019/04/23,The feminist inside me cries when.... I publicly refer to my ed as minimalist Buddhism.,3.671999999999997,6.909549866666668,6.2150000000000025,63.86250000000001,83.66666666666666,8.333333333333334,34.16666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.455666666666668,68,4,9,2,2,24,15,15,0.172,0.828,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,cardiganmonster,2019/04/23,"I was doing fine, and then my mum said: “you look so skinny”! I’ve been doing really well. Normal meals, no binging, no restricting. Just really normal intuitive eating, and I’ve also cut back to exercising once a week. My weight is weird in the sense that it really doesn’t fluctuate that much. I’m at the lower end of the BMI scale, but still normal. My mum made a comment the other day about how “I’ve lost weight” and “I’m so skinny and fragile now” and it really fucked with me. I HAVEN’T lost any weight. I binged twice today, kind of justifying it to myself like: “well other people think I’m skinny”. It’s SUCH a mindfuck because I’ve been the healthiest and non-ED I’ve ever been. But a comment like that can send me down a rabbit hole. Idk I just wanted to rant.",1.5301923076923067,3.741723365384616,3.5676282051282047,86.85028846153847,81.37179487179488,6.464102564102564,18.083333333333336,7.645422480735847,0.5400717948717948,599,13,121,10,16,203,93,156,0.16899999999999998,0.752,0.079,-0.9051,1,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,2,14,11,2,0,10,0,10,10,3,2,1,20,21,13,0,4,4,2,4,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,7,8,1,1,1,0,1,4,5,2,1,8,6,11,6,10,13,1,13,0,2,1,1,7,3,1,0,11,76,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107120082603406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09414529962151136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064533437142743,0.0,0.08439295127438813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08928362962271169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14166071641127664,0.0,0.0,0.12261851013441336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252287046360569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798738763001205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441660270927278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352715253034531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116256402912565,0.0,0.30225156898766786,0.0,0.0,0.13099715699421566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101770790955436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40693126441210603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14743619959412851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597824341857894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35475793161032343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316900340486084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105599509234079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870803624808697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1312268175896011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165667178056303,0.0,0.1110498125575155,0.5057551368532527,0.2489519479196099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,kuestoba,2019/04/23,my college started carrying tons of monster zero flavors after an easter weekend binge i'm going to live like a crackhead on energy drinks exclusively lmfao,5.9222222222222225,9.439886407407407,7.58666666666667,56.700000000000045,73.81481481481481,8.044444444444443,38.62962962962963,8.841846274778883,5.048318518518519,131,8,13,3,3,45,27,27,0.0,0.731,0.26899999999999996,0.7964,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,9,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5852218638301375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395146185949536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918581158310255,0.0,0.5275127078662364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4228408413560566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Afrolatinboi23,2019/04/04,Does any one know anything that can help me? Hey guys while I don’t have an eating disorder I need help I’m on the verge of becoming a diabetic I’m scared I’m at 262 and 5’8 I’m very overweight and idk what to do? I’m going to Nova university can anyone help me please give me some information I tried Overeaters anonymous to no avail. ,0.7860915492957758,3.0597851267605627,2.9951936619718325,89.39588908450705,85.05633802816901,6.366901408450705,21.551056338028168,7.645422480735847,0.8983366197183101,268,9,59,5,8,91,51,71,0.168,0.693,0.139,-0.2997,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,4,0,0,0,6,14,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,6,0,6,14,1,5,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,1,1,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16541086156900456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17007836495220385,0.0,0.20016497235751265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2686383660727789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27877296816272995,0.0,0.2128600887642578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488942225079247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333370137512727,0.13823832960317015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24084485277942624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4891139249470553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367779359369542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18035863702765287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482504202114046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670033795842183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24352467319383975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651433149200987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069764971409795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,toloache-dreams,2019/04/04,"My coworker slapped my ass last week ... and it's really fucking with my head. ☹️

I don't really know where else to talk about this, I would like to get him fired if possible but I wonder about the consequences because we're really short staffed already. There's also the possibility of me losing my job, plus I have no evidence this happened. But I'm afraid they're going to have me work with him over the summer since that's what the setup has been for the past two years. I feel like an idiot because I've known he was a fucking pervert for a long time, I just stupidly assumed nothing like this would happen. 

I'm recovering and this has me on the verge of relapsing, I've gained weight and he told me ""I've never noticed before but you have a really nice ass"". Now I never want to eat again (though I'm forcing myself to) because he wouldn't have done that if I wasn't such a fat disgusting fuck. And he keeps saying that ""later we're gonna have sex"" and telling me he will pay me for nudes. I'm experiencing a bunch of physical stress symptoms now, everything hurts, I am shaky and nauseated, headaches, weird neurological shit, flaring up in hives, all that good stuff. 

I fucking despise myself right now and want to crawl in a hole and die. I don't know where I'm going with this, trying to get it off my chest I guess... 😕",4.391961999173893,5.126752907063199,5.372162329615865,83.16453015282944,70.11524163568774,8.505658818669971,27.58384964890541,8.680891452615391,1.835867244940108,1048,34,218,17,18,345,152,269,0.205,0.7140000000000001,0.081,-0.9881,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,3,13,20,9,3,13,0,18,16,7,0,3,35,43,16,1,7,6,0,3,3,0,5,3,1,0,0,13,12,3,1,6,0,1,2,7,15,0,1,5,5,28,5,25,33,2,27,0,2,0,8,12,11,7,6,17,127,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402854324944115,0.08988069433733553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554130966214654,0.0,0.09563822109324392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664625801389908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501712863846535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11500616555910675,0.09388998474624076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101164064558044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05682931124361009,0.08029362886444105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4156223140512943,0.11744147634768738,0.0,0.12775113910448732,0.09426997137464084,0.0,0.0,0.12381363359295736,0.0,0.19877763430072526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534771119798748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203191018068628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153277554937538,0.0999001212809678,0.0,0.0,0.12353657956944453,0.09161534975755067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647287246802682,0.0,0.0,0.09946432667688927,0.0,0.1257390919101416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17336892274660992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784417816110196,0.1279602506678163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729189911346083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534125892724413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880075044780401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598306432667277,0.0,0.08937947727382747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536986719891955,0.09297270569891787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874587745761548,0.0,0.12866317085564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681943019306698,0.0,0.09033728914108248,0.0982364936784609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042561677241176,0.0,0.06553730067209207,0.0,0.0,0.1073963911380617,0.0,0.07630751419340746,0.0,0.10979169420849884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13258468475532173,0.0,0.09015493816379397,0.13686447561662374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188548579608335,0.08182349070088317,0.0,0.0,0.1596816188566482,0.0,0.0,0.07237744960382396
EDAnonymous,lmao-kill-me-please,2019/04/04,Afraid of being annoying I’m so afraid that everyone around me is annoyed by me. Mainly because I ask everyone if I’m fat at least 10 times a day. I also feel the need to ask everyone if they think I should eat or how much I should eat. Damn it must be hard being around me. ,1.5537288135593244,3.018716576271192,3.612000000000002,90.18342372881357,78.15254237288136,7.431864406779661,21.969491525423727,8.238735603445708,1.0130447457627114,214,6,49,4,5,73,42,59,0.16399999999999998,0.836,0.0,-0.8126,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,5,5,3,2,2,0,7,3,1,1,1,12,14,6,0,6,3,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,8,0,6,8,3,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,3,2,34,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653264964521861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680772779454209,0.386540018939101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602418814990174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333274493706861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42308454696458986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.59263457662528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104531801773077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18519461585195515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151974556095712,0.1532919315464742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13246791446112124,0.0,0.0,0.12054927242089307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,noodledoodledoo,2019/03/03,"""Right seriously now, no more binging"" \*eats half a chocolate cake with icing\*

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\*gets takeaway afterwards\*

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\*is shocked when bmi is almost obese after doing the same thing for 3 years\*",5.869090909090911,9.466186666666667,3.7186363636363673,78.19795454545455,91.42424242424242,4.624242424242424,29.74242424242424,6.42735559955562,2.1815696969696967,172,8,22,2,6,48,32,33,0.18100000000000002,0.8190000000000001,0.0,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,15,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161750756348475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795948387811957,0.5378499751744531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22646305504681705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11562925949929548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900393621942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703351323398567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5378499751744531,0.14252121418094793
EDAnonymous,then_she_said,2019/03/03,"Borderline Personality Disorder? I've been seeing a new therapist and mentioned my ED for the first time yesterday since I b/p twice this week for the first time in months.  He asked if I had ever been diagnosed with borderline, and I was 8 years ago when I was in rehab but this was after going through most of my life being heavily medicated for various diagnoses like bipolar, OCD, and PTSD so I didn't take it seriously.  He went over the diagnosis criteria in the DSM with me and it was 8/9.  I don't know, I'm 29 and I really don't want this.  I know this sounds beyond immature, but why can't I just be a normal person who can get rid of stress and anxiety by going to yoga and doing face masks?

I know ED's are a common co-occuring with borderline- has anyone else here been diagnosed?  What's your experience been like? ",3.584881118881121,5.173668206060609,5.736969696969697,76.53776223776225,73.0,10.167832167832168,26.631701631701628,10.389873798559362,2.9810932400932413,654,23,128,21,13,229,109,165,0.068,0.878,0.054000000000000006,-0.2578,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,6,4,0,1,7,0,19,8,1,0,1,21,31,12,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,7,1,0,2,8,10,0,0,3,1,0,3,4,2,0,3,11,2,14,2,17,18,2,22,0,0,1,0,8,5,0,2,16,85,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545128130840306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689443029983143,0.0,0.0,0.10684391639370364,0.1565654723207732,0.0,0.0,0.1428508545649027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652776888349572,0.0,0.0,0.17512630552142064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764790370915716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13821971616030165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494713624012033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599495384420312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983363883170236,0.0,0.17368375495233704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519307909580388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792978891058744,0.14930436185819096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393367574416916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219664743324564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475787884180192,0.0,0.0,0.1497152058101945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668446350389294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861937579845946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788997809108572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176478413192947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12640081917907064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503614909596255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11488938347738305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774169004273774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820216007403794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012759517800374,0.0,0.12256993008083072,0.0,0.0,0.1416505826376749,0.13788159343604114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840058812144188
EDAnonymous,darthtaters,2019/03/03,"How do you deal with restriction insomnia? I can hardly sleep. Restriction gives me this anxious nervous manic energy... I’m exhausted. I work 50 hours per week on my feet and feel so physically wiped out. I’ve been meaning to eat more one day to hopefully calm this down but every day feels like it’s not the right day and I need to keep going. Been having a hard time trying to force myself to up my intake, it’s not happening, so aside from that, any advice?",3.0457417582417565,5.052906692307693,4.40668956043956,83.72893543956044,75.48351648351648,8.066483516483517,22.36401098901099,8.841846274778883,1.6019549450549446,363,10,71,8,8,120,72,91,0.109,0.8170000000000001,0.075,0.1591,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,2,0,5,5,2,1,0,16,15,6,0,2,3,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,4,1,3,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,4,8,3,11,13,1,12,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,7,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19578855003110646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625102825087262,0.0,0.0,0.22634870262124696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876450462520472,0.2065613883415449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20501733332825364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688111455576199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2026151170140234,0.14313654918419014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19220266281810072,0.11386866843842368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717685096060692,0.0,0.3589647181502559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19900175026854688,0.19731331027323432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17808833434818686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788531392303376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182497485589234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485637008104939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576848124634808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171105538535803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005037522755272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683097642637935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360306466769378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071594873941994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14586377856831245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,SkittyTiddy,2019/03/03,"How many laxatives over time are enough to hurt me? I've been dealing with a binge disorder for years and have been trying to fight it with a low calorie diet. But now I have chronic constipation so yay. I got desperate and have taken 9 laxatives over the past almost 3 weeks. I know this isn't healthy and want to stop this habit before it turns into an addiction. I'm not exactly sure I'm doing this to purge either, because I'm genuinely constipated, but thought someone here might have an answer.

Just super worried and scared I might be doing irreversible damage to my body. Is it too late to stop it? Are my bowels already damaged by now?",4.187519999999999,6.010160912000001,5.144200000000001,80.44510000000002,71.88,8.200000000000001,28.5,8.841846274778883,2.3791600000000006,514,20,94,10,10,168,86,125,0.255,0.687,0.057999999999999996,-0.9653,1,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,7,9,1,1,5,1,15,5,2,1,2,24,24,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,1,2,3,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,5,0,7,3,13,16,2,13,0,4,0,0,2,4,0,3,9,63,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009187272571192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18455398303389986,0.0,0.20338421197400666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235009887916614,0.0,0.1568292565730258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047203616858247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000948535501108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112285226769713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19043545402668235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1474048648507473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19730140389695602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128874058919034,0.0,0.2079031083471768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685547990162735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910351545289813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17593916513636207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18452060575722667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561603077723754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3081730431324841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370447974327374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463169077209157,0.10746923170168764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513041946085607,0.20046999037511448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10870736252441107,0.0,0.14783767166507578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18716981014229306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868582962195227
EDAnonymous,virgomartini,2019/03/03,"I am too young for this community All of you have husbands and wives, “haven’t —— in 10 years”, ect...
But I’m only 18! I’m not married, I don’t live alone, a certainly don’t have kids or anything...
But this community is the best I’ve found on the internet because the other communities with more people of my age are actually promoting ED (tumblr for example) and I don’t want to be part of that.
I feel like most people on here are adults that have been struggling their whole life. No offense of course :) 
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EDAnonymous,maplelace,2019/03/03,"no power in weighing scale thought that this might be a good chance... i’m going to keep pretending that i’ve forgotten to put in the batteries for perhaps a few weeks before i weigh again hahaha

let’s hope this go on?",4.529242424242423,5.4340195000000024,5.416363636363638,82.35287878787881,69.9090909090909,9.503030303030306,28.303030303030305,9.725611199111238,2.5038575757575763,174,6,35,4,3,57,37,44,0.087,0.682,0.23,0.7717,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,1,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,5,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28441126266308503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37990943750334294,0.28034232844768475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33197298275068404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970854048614514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417802101381261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545728790516079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360007303377236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653470237837068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681049428290582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,LoveAnonymousAnon,2019/01/24,"I hate it that my boyfriend lives with me because I always buy us food and feel obligated to eat. I also don’t like how much my boyfriend wants to eat (I feel like I have to eat, again) I love my boyfriend and I love being with him and around him, he’s literally perfect for me. 
I just hate that when he’s here I buy us food and eat. I would never eat if he wasn’t here, if I just buy him food he feels insecure about eating and I feel insecure about eating if I eat. It’s a bad cycle.
My boyfriend wants to eat 2/3 big meals a day and I can’t handle that, I don’t mind if he does but I cant.
This goes back to me feeling obligated to eat.
I don’t want him to feel insecure about eating and the only way is to eat with him. 


This is basically me saying, I have to order food for us whenever he’s hungry and I feel sad that I have to eat. 


I’ve always grown up never wanting to waste food, I felt like I had to finish it even if I wasn’t hungry because we’d throw it away to I’d get yelled at. I have restrictive/binge cycles and I can’t just throw away food I bought because I see all the money I spent and feel terrible.
If I leave it in the fridge I throw it out anyways, I can wait for my boyfriend to eat it but again, he’s always asking for me to order food.


I just don’t wanna eat ",0.845438443670151,2.068873083623693,3.0939590592334514,94.17952163182348,79.48780487804878,6.17706155632985,19.62383855981417,6.816661863887847,-0.02138548199767687,993,22,247,10,24,341,110,287,0.092,0.83,0.078,-0.6759,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,4,0,0,1,18,14,2,3,5,0,20,25,0,1,4,49,43,21,0,12,12,0,9,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,13,15,23,1,9,0,6,4,11,8,0,0,6,12,51,6,33,34,2,23,0,1,1,2,20,8,0,6,11,157,64,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04100583714164716,0.12799858756726235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04564699923746297,0.0479366508257497,0.0,0.09635201007804016,0.03942850052242283,0.04281377599913085,0.093773123717245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033069131643920884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04487245295496597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7870306515717072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03386767654476899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074157080256961,0.03663197634377258,0.049233527594778906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43402664010011227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026789880119937205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10124995123919353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429446088980601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07515339424769463,0.0,0.0452781315698079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255817360330504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05177469647190108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037694162948267586,0.0,0.07909527028005202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03899812558415328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0407771692899983,0.0,0.0,0.04086077018988441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503812223328614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097694684352216,0.040700937305580685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03642538870903208,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,matchagreentit,2019/01/24,"starting to dislike my favourite foods i’m not sure why but most of the foods which I used to find tasty, now taste absolutely horrible to me. I get nauseous and I start to feel like throwing up whenever I get a whiff of them. 

I hate having to go through this but at the same time, I feel grateful because that means I’d have more reason not to eat. AHHH why am I like this :/",1.1376923076923084,3.2517357820512838,2.433012820512822,94.98490384615386,82.2051282051282,5.438461538461539,23.852564102564106,6.6274283507984215,0.5616102564102565,293,11,66,3,8,94,55,78,0.193,0.688,0.11800000000000001,-0.7681,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,3,4,0,2,1,14,14,3,0,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,0,5,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,4,10,3,11,14,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863080307137542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21591769739635755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21338776001596008,0.15074683496944924,0.0,0.0,0.19286091491806087,0.0,0.5103124866608041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22048985833536905,0.0,0.11992283918476605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20833041530277974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061793629648036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298536538407045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169552209529691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2987104026833633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19887607531617515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304264719979925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18224640014494287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38081056367550997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NindeNehima,2019/01/24,"I can't say it outloud Hello all. I used to be a pretty regular contributor to  proED in the past, but I ""recovered"" and left the community. I have been struggling lately, and last night it really hit me as the why. I'm sobbing in bed but I can't tell my partner what is going on because I've never told anyone. This will be kinda long and wordy, so feel free to ignore. I just need to vent.


So previously I was pretty extreme anorexic/exercise bulimic. I ate less than 1000 cal a day and walked 7-10 miles a day on weekdays, more on weekends. Then obviously it caught up with me, and I started binging. It was not a lot, but I gained all the weight back and then some. I'm 5'2"" and weight between 115-120 lbs. I used to be 90 lbs. 


The binging has gotten a lot worse with my new(ish) job.



One of my huge binge triggers currently is work. I have a 45 minute drive, so I'll stop at a gas station and get donuts or cookies or something on my way to work. And if there are treats in the breakroom I will eat them all. I will eat too much, so much that I will make myself sick to my stomach and just turn around and go home.


That is what I did this morning. It's a viscous cycle, going to work makes me depressed, so I binge, which makes me more depressed. So I go home and feel even worse about letting my coworkers and clients down, which makes me either want to binge or kill myself. And repeat.



So essentially my binging will probably either make me have a mental breakdown and quit my job or get me fired. 



I have a good job, but I can't stand the sedentary nature of office jobs. All I want is to leave here and get a job in my city that I can walk/bike to, so I can leave all my money at home and just eat what I have brought to work. 



I have looked at going back to being a barista or daycare teacher, because I have done and enjoyed those things in the past. But my salary will literally be cut in half. Part of me thinks I need to be a responsible adult and stay, save money to travel with my partner and his child, and save to start a family one day as I want so desperately. But I don't think I can. 



I woke up at 3am this morning suicidal, wanting to take the pills I have hidden. 



I feel like I can't tell anyone the real reason behind my depression and suicidal thoughts. Its vain, I still want people to think of me as cute and little, not a BINGE EATER. 


So yea, my inability to confront my binging or even tell anyone about it is causing me to ruin my career, possibly ruin my relationship, and want to end my life. 

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EDAnonymous,VoiceOfAsh,2019/01/24,"Been watching food stuff on YouTube for hours now And usually I’m fine when I do that but the last couple of days I’ve felt like I’m dying. I’ve never felt so hungry in my life. But I feel like crying. All the food I have is tasteless. I know I could eat every single thing I have and not feel full or satisfied. I don’t like meat much but my mouth is watering watching this man eat.  I’m so starved for a good flavourful meal. 

Yesterday I binged so much I threw up yet still felt like I was starving. I’m so fucking hungry I want to die. ",-0.2336945812807869,1.9174330689655184,1.6793596059113334,97.78017241379312,89.0,4.693596059113301,18.630541871921178,6.1826913282559595,-0.24324926108374398,420,12,98,4,14,138,73,116,0.152,0.6579999999999999,0.19,0.2463,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,8,7,1,0,3,0,9,9,1,0,2,17,22,11,2,2,5,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,2,6,0,6,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,8,13,6,7,15,5,15,0,0,2,1,1,4,1,1,14,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121915439904924,0.16895537058196647,0.1677295357596406,0.09847637573149616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31694896391142124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124925363061446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286530806338816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441550912259586,0.10908615034286136,0.4398367106414514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692815484517584,0.0,0.0,0.14116511757424804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807427457977918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503749360438759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391780320769222,0.12446773123479962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078537968892615,0.2983984770298108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2244984593697498,0.0,0.11776867379755496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121943331761904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480054392912514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10144452803348564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817322147932073,0.0,0.09006413745975976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ogoodgrief,2019/01/24,"I wrote this in my journal and I'm kind of proud of it. I realized today I've been dealing with this shit for 7 years and I guess this is what I have to say about it.


having an eating disorder is so lonely because it just lives in your head all day, it's so shameful. you don't want people to know even though anything within the idea of consuming calories brings your stress up to a 10, but you can't show it because they literally won't be able to comprehend that. its lonely because you stop seeing your family because its just too exhausting to hide it and being a convincing actor in front of your mom is hard work. its lonely because you're grieving alone; in comparison to if somebody dies, everyone knows that everyone else is just as sad as you are which gives a sense of togetherness in your pain. but with an eating disorder, you're grieving your freedom all by yourself. you're constantly being weighed down by shame because you're living in constant and chronic agony over something that seems like it should be such a simple fix. it makes you feel stupid because you literally don't know how to feed yourself. you feel alienated because unlike everyone else, something went wrong with your natural instincts to know when you need to eat, like your instincts are defective. trying to cope with all these things from the minute you wake up until you're finally able to fall asleep is very, very lonely. ",8.120228359001594,7.5558070371747235,7.563794476898567,75.05666356877327,62.27137546468401,10.659691980881574,35.94291024960169,9.957137785484203,3.4539854487519914,1139,45,205,20,14,357,151,269,0.243,0.691,0.067,-0.9948,0,9,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,17,1,2,12,21,2,3,8,0,19,12,4,2,3,34,36,15,3,4,6,1,3,2,0,2,3,1,0,0,21,8,5,1,9,2,0,4,4,16,0,0,3,5,23,5,39,27,3,24,0,7,1,0,23,11,1,3,11,131,44,1,0.19842289224899803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10275313757833547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164256679740567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4838270136811532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144246554972727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06398317519214512,0.102282644594378,0.0,0.0,0.10296581760993513,0.0,0.22740982507055016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045542326501202,0.16575686540461645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655282244797986,0.0,0.0,0.2844023651552355,0.0,0.0,0.09352772181358754,0.0,0.1003285762619244,0.0,0.0,0.10868128981221373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951726593675442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929259310347286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887396861356972,0.0,0.10181956622663584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199764661583246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103313454070007,0.21809606474623466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693940242543493,0.0,0.17521104913177118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06622441067760783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619524662751073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07356403019764679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10556797360351544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06878072485667809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889692401407053,0.0,0.0,0.07905867761199475,0.0903183744304169,0.0,0.0,0.10183912374000816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527556365187044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294521135456699,0.11364637633512695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06591167639179296,0.0,0.09747474209329487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404085043611726,0.0,0.0,0.06735805950817311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371966663177856,0.05851748140416355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197000451435622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222711438125577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084721418634066,0.0,0.06388891852914487
EDAnonymous,clonedanmarinoplease,2019/01/24,"Trying to transition to Keto but terrified So after around 5 years of disordered, restricted eating, I’m attempting to get my life in order and try “normal people” dieting in the hopes of a more functional life. I started a new, mentally challenging job that requires all of my brain power, and eating disorder brain wasn’t going to cut it. I convinced myself that Keto would allow me to eat more normally without getting fat. Anxiety has gotten to me, and now I’m certain that I’ve blown up in past two weeks despite being in ketosis. Has anyone else made this transition and can offer words of wisdom/guidance?",8.493923303834812,8.228957168141594,9.193938053097343,62.69084808259589,61.38938053097346,12.489085545722716,38.302359882005895,11.855464076750405,5.083933333333333,492,22,73,14,6,167,82,113,0.122,0.75,0.128,-0.2899,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,4,3,5,1,0,3,0,6,9,3,2,2,18,15,6,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,5,5,5,2,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,7,4,18,10,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,7,50,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1173110426665417,0.0,0.0,0.10722470867579274,0.1571234724906818,0.0,0.13651251373823525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34237487390233634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515009131976893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4707408347969484,0.12810284151186918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602363326839298,0.0,0.0871513823859586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230947960463614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521745424519581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166289024961187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510188522190096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15453903548772951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810475999905487,0.0,0.0,0.3004975831881894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14638832016840264,0.10631241455825842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854072795429813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20822688220266586,0.0,0.14979902319213087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230067699587232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782230520740947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089342445205314,0.0,0.0,0.09875128833699368
EDAnonymous,boxxfive,2019/01/24,"Currently eating a pie found in a thrift store parking lot These are the depths to which I've sunk, friends. Title is not an exaggeration. Found a pecan pie in a snow drift between parking lot dividers, still sealed in the box, cardboard was only slightly soggy so it hadn't been out there long. I couldn't bear to leave it. If I get sick, well, at least I'll throw up.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  ",2.034700000000001,4.484225453333334,2.3835833333333305,94.671375,81.13333333333333,4.816666666666666,22.708333333333336,5.985473137389443,0.19103333333333386,299,10,63,2,8,91,59,75,0.047,0.863,0.09,0.2612,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,7,0,6,2,0,0,0,8,9,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,1,0,5,0,2,2,9,3,3,12,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,3,3,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27802230433026354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5958215698658377,0.20991880388521547,0.0,0.141954780073731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876966309788872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404505981651445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4619881783623041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066440878347311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21698416541341067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442956522511559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pailblusea,2019/02/25,"Why do I look like shit as soon as I eat? I'm not making this up and I am sick of it.  I used to enjoy the novelty of eating a full meal and looking like I suddenly became 7 months pregnant.  It bewildered my boyfriend and I thought it was amusing.  I am sick of it now that literally every time I swell the fuck up and stay like that for hours if I eat ANYTHING halfway filling.  Even salad or just meat.  For hours.  This has gone on a year now.  I get anxiety eating because I will be wearing a cute outfit I thought of all day that shows off the body I want to show to the world to just be ruin my day in 5 minutes with a fucking salad.

FML how do I stop my body doing this?  ",0.5746403940886751,2.3477539172413806,2.853423645320195,93.05215517241379,82.24137931034483,5.5221674876847295,22.77093596059113,6.5431188927421005,0.4503694581280793,518,18,119,5,14,177,89,145,0.146,0.736,0.11800000000000001,-0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,7,10,3,0,8,0,10,15,4,3,1,18,22,9,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,10,5,7,1,2,3,0,2,1,4,0,0,4,2,17,6,18,15,2,22,0,1,2,2,0,7,3,2,15,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106176955297618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11899250180300926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08814609378442005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212333657159845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186508542983622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5918427359535213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550615169791797,0.0,0.12183073575333304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26735854364372114,0.0755469112657197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848014055601408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21193102698219704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428531681716466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09652082995520027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541739232519815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148428602757194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541230942947286,0.0,0.12089108168476798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295906100462863,0.08431673021227018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488694694796565,0.0,0.0,0.08528812584703982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304779370817328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09311689418262087
EDAnonymous,VulpixVulpix,2019/02/25,"Mom argued with me about clothing size Mom called, there was a dress on sale she wanted to get for me. What size was I again? A 2, right?

I told her no, I'm a 0 now. She said, ""I don't know. I think you'd fit a 2.""

Last time she saw me was Christmas and I was at my low weight. She had even commented on how good I looked and said to ""keep doing whatever you're doing"" (LOL whoops)

And she still thinks I am a size bigger than I am. Even though I looked at the measurements for the brand and a 2 would definitely be too big.

""Well I'm getting the 2 just in case. You can always take it in if you *have* to...""

Thanks mom",-1.617442810457515,0.300666389705885,0.7184313725490199,103.36905228758171,94.66176470588236,4.1986928104575165,12.702614379084967,5.82211442006289,-1.3324464052287586,463,7,123,4,18,154,85,136,0.054000000000000006,0.84,0.107,0.7691,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,3,0,0,12,5,1,0,9,1,15,1,0,1,0,14,32,7,0,3,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,5,1,1,3,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,9,6,22,3,14,20,0,16,0,1,3,0,18,11,0,1,5,78,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13945387564335654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711349634300412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213920720361893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17512471106524996,0.0,0.0,0.14057215570279616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489676425977373,0.0,0.0,0.09210676021748704,0.13661367477988806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814780260026227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888616687504907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14312666129641058,0.3188456712883052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384293665215502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601185653303618,0.0,0.0,0.15430051888998958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21477838904459973,0.16466290132643954,0.0,0.0977269802894686,0.0,0.0,0.1601458237107216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885287264574733,0.0,0.0,0.20408762298337849,0.15068955583165106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905588312732646,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Dansii,2019/02/25,"I guess I look bigger than I am. My mom was checking out a store I want to get some clothes from and she said there was a sale and asked what my size was. I told her and she just said “Are you sure? That’s tiny.” Yes. I measure my body every other day, multiple times a day for key body points like bust, waist, and hips. I know my measurements like the back of my hand. I stare at sizing charts to be 100% sure. I’ve been reviewing this store a lot the last few weeks. I know my size in their store and I remember trying on the same clothes in person in a size up and it was too loose and that’s when I weighed 20lb more. I know how big I am, I know I look too fat to be that size and it sucks when my family reminds me of that. I got defensive, she said oh okay and I know she didn’t try to be insulting but it hurt.",-0.9087082346750854,1.0047998287292828,1.0708760852407266,102.73639042357277,89.38674033149172,4.994580373585898,15.248881873191266,6.42735559955562,-0.8066024204156799,623,12,165,7,21,204,104,181,0.061,0.852,0.087,-0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,8,9,3,0,8,2,12,7,6,1,2,27,29,13,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,10,10,3,1,6,0,5,0,1,4,0,0,11,7,32,5,16,15,5,18,0,1,3,0,15,10,1,3,10,101,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822309910405506,0.0,0.0,0.11369024413169156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284638986544893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070660055572344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12457298248671125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13938315683167546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724737108281117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825198087481463,0.0,0.1628773410673278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582802702191727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062821884174155,0.12052036707459887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446754041934054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483194678126305,0.0,0.0,0.1256997905646042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17316427653458208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291000062502722,0.0,0.0,0.13976938372960793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674892360288542,0.0,0.4219277177675769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787004192469445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621458691127154,0.0,0.0,0.14128039151408284,0.0,0.20076569364145605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08720784736110444,0.0,0.11859918965372625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,pobrecitoad,2019/02/25,"People commenting on my body Ugh. I hate it so much. So, I'm like mostly recovered now and I've been pretty good about eating normally. As a result I've gained weight (obviously :(..). I sit at 5'3"" 110 now. When I gain weight, it \*all\* goes to my boobs and maybe like a smidge to my thighs/upper arms. I've always hated that so much. I'm Asian so I'd always hear (even when I was like 12) that I had big boobs for an Asian girl or whatever. I remember my mom would have me stand still in elementary school so she could be like ""look at my daughter"" and like talk about how my legs were straight (a good thing apparently?) and how my butt was big (ambiguous) and stuff. But anyways there was an event recently so I had to wear a dress and all my girlfriends were like ""oh my god you're like busting out of that"" and my dude friends were joking around about my chest and like I could feel people (maybe it was just in my imagination) looking at me and I could feel my own boobs moving when I walk and I just hate it so much. I just want to be a waif. I used to do ballet and my body seriously stuck out like a sore thumb when I sat at my ""natural"" weight (the one I naturally maintain if I'm not restricting, I mean). My body type doesn't fit into Asian standards and I hate it so much. I know they were just trying to be nice and I don't blame them at all but it just feels gross that people have noticed my weight gain. I was hoping it wouldn't be that noticeable but if it's enough that people are commenting then that means it is and adhfowjieaj. I feel proud of my progress so I want to continue eating everyday but I really just want to fast:( to at least get ten lbs off. hopefully off from my boobs i seriously hate being """"""""""'curvy"""""""""""" (i'm really not though.,just by asian standards)",1.3264377492246382,3.4423228415300566,2.7760345591493127,92.77833628710678,81.51366120218579,6.470417958942549,19.18150937823069,7.63319966405982,0.4122303352532861,1384,34,312,23,37,450,175,366,0.077,0.754,0.16899999999999998,0.9757,1,0,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,0,2,5,31,26,5,0,9,0,29,19,12,4,4,66,57,38,0,13,15,2,8,9,2,2,1,1,0,1,18,18,6,1,9,2,0,2,5,9,0,2,14,11,48,17,33,33,11,36,0,0,2,5,12,19,5,7,22,201,66,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321160019892808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07067303424999435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645498191586401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901569503144126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16246951642967497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203005066567791,0.0,0.05243568042588425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605658387425422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061335738222306126,0.0,0.04147747161692277,0.0,0.0,0.13317543966984652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39190096782227657,0.0,0.0,0.0894771637068504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770236403876828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04363011375618028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490690622207383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333335171637911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595138259731595,0.17295577175659135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09297942783487552,0.0,0.08437793451298953,0.23344017469445774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07778435619983473,0.0,0.180769786968816,0.0,0.0,0.053796035526342746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22015332395629286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076714563756053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171724218693286,0.0,0.07838705195887014,0.0,0.08993225188310268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034589819618576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340015149600359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088140209526886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638098645014654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274251861775727,0.0,0.07799928147870376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053899914281472915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856659935624485,0.0,0.0,0.14047705299182744,0.0,0.0,0.3866976185447325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05639566207651243,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,donottellmymother,2019/02/25,"He filmed me during sex My boyfriend and I was getting down and told me to take of my shirt. It was dark in the room so I complied and didn’t think much of it, though I never take it off unless he urges me to. After a while we switched to doggy, which I enjoy because a) it feels good b) I don’t have to worry about him seeing my belly or face. It felt amazing, and he told me to give him my phone. 
I did, and he filmed with flash on. 

It got more intense and he gave me back my phone and I forgot about it until afterwards where he urged me to watch it. In my mind, I was already deleting it. However, when I saw it I was astonished. I didn’t recognise myself. My butt looked big in a good way, my waist looked small, my back looked defined and most of all, even though I consciously hid my face it was apparent that I was naked and thoroughly having a great time. My hair looked weird but you always find something, right? 

All in all, it was a great experience and made my night. My boyfriend is amazing, I love how he doesn’t specifically ask permission (knowing myself, id reject most proposals) but makes sure I still have all the control. I am very grateful for him and the video is hot af,
Will be used for future wanking. I wanted to share some positivity. Usually I feel crappy but this was a great spurt of positivity in dark times. ",2.0361397058823516,3.9831772169117663,3.3164352941176496,90.66385882352944,78.30147058823529,6.263764705882354,22.277058823529405,7.24861992348623,0.6421874705882358,1041,31,225,13,25,338,148,272,0.044000000000000004,0.763,0.193,0.993,2,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,1,1,0,1,12,13,0,0,9,0,21,8,6,5,6,42,47,23,0,1,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,15,13,1,2,7,3,0,0,5,2,0,0,19,12,44,11,27,26,9,28,0,1,7,3,21,13,1,4,14,152,59,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13904057471547618,0.0,0.1048394104888045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778997664497627,0.0,0.0,0.19376748586648834,0.0,0.07680646479824252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14131609728688624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321968181984607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324902318544638,0.0,0.0,0.1274155108006853,0.0,0.120976663276269,0.0,0.11515877005285728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582811479925217,0.12086758787363935,0.0,0.21136023458697856,0.10077113127799897,0.4167356689185409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924453263622891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232222328067392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371700900283385,0.11922119531799745,0.08410382593223406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272208254680585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926221272626618,0.0,0.0971764806106446,0.0,0.0,0.11823943841752575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076005577207586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100403117102559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699847331582782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062118755729836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11875046966400862,0.0,0.18946778915359144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08073364612238243,0.24758238413666506,0.0,0.14693946590055915,0.0,0.0,0.2407906366548645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882075974890593,0.1387676473661211,0.10396053511985648,0.07431616256983341,0.1000103756117596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279558414047251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Whimsyprincess,2019/02/25,"Eating Disorder Awareness Week Is anyone else in this weird place of ""I wanna bring attention to it/acknowledge it/do a walk or go to a group"" but also thinking ""Will doing this make people suspicious? Will they know or think I've relapsed? Do I even DESERVE to do a walk or anything?""

Ugh. Boo hiss at my stupid head.  ",2.6526344086021503,4.950151145161293,3.856129032258069,85.82086021505377,77.87096774193549,6.713978494623658,24.849462365591396,7.793537801064563,1.5049913978494618,249,9,47,4,6,81,48,62,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.9369,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,10,12,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,7,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,1,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22772564431816544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991135892584504,0.29177433961575394,0.23433648425020565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.326364180974528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29138463321405605,0.2378837572294864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880839168354297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16183792681752987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29224998812983194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564988309598991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900821615302954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19741948200980425,0.0,0.2975177402400991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649305080491661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22842048042886726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jordanlynn542,2019/02/25,"I can’t sleep :( I just want to be thin. I used to be 120lbs (I’m about 5’7.5) and now I am 150.2 and I just want to get back to the weight. I really want to be 95lbs. My girlfriend broke up with me and I was kicked out of my musical, so I feel even more worthless than usual. I’m fasting for at least the next five days, but my ana buddy is going for 6 so I at least want to get there. I need encouragement!",-1.6967948717948715,0.19861081318681428,0.8532142857142873,102.45220238095241,94.71428571428572,4.352014652014652,13.077838827838828,5.985473137389443,-1.2031106227106232,308,5,82,3,12,104,58,91,0.07,0.825,0.105,0.2372,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,2,0,7,2,1,1,0,15,19,6,0,5,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,3,14,1,16,15,3,12,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,6,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971328342744462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16533754927488464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933007796641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296284599159857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678856628043709,0.0,0.14570107443005112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900952309905949,0.0,0.0,0.2726525819422726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423729424458114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565553152981573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214215114705217,0.2823555201591377,0.0,0.6048550692301874,0.0,0.0,0.3121897978903761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,HeresLookingAtY0uKid,2019/02/25,First time I've taken an ECA stack A new low my friends. ,-2.2384615384615363,-0.4516590769230717,-0.34730769230769104,109.12980769230772,101.30769230769228,2.6,14.192307692307693,3.1291,-1.8089692307692309,44,1,12,0,2,14,13,13,0.14800000000000002,0.634,0.218,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5282082476850071,0.0,0.0,0.4797703115154046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5997497336825757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36210047253990896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,lemej,2019/02/25,"Scaring yourself into eating more Background *** 23F - I’m a chronic high restrictor and only purge when I feel uncomfortably full. I was diagnosed four years ago and have been on/off recovery throughout. 

I’ve lost quite a bit of weight again recently and most of my clothes aren’t fitting anymore. I force myself to avoid scales because it helps me focus on other things in my life. Knowing my weight would make me spiral and get me sent straight to a hospital. 

Guessing from how my clothes are fitting (I knew my weight in a previous relapse) the comments I’m receiving from others, and my questionable period, I’m likely right at the breaking point between good and not-so-good. 

For the past few days, I’ve been noticing some bad signs and side effects. 

I was born with heart issues - most have been corrected through surgery but I still have issues with arrhythmia. My ED behaviors exacerbate these problems.

Today was bad in particular. I was walking around stores with my BF and felt absolutely terrible. My heart rate was really low and irregular despite walking consistently and I felt like I was going to faint. 

I had my regular amount of food earlier in the day, but it feels like shit is catching up to me?? 

Anyway, I came home in the evening and ate at maintenance. The heart issues didn’t subside and I got kinda scared.

So then I decided to eat probably 3/4 jar of cashew/peanut butter with crackers. Some might consider it a binge, but I chose to do it believing it would be good idea since I was having cardiac issues and feeling fainty earlier. 

Maybe I can consider it damage control??

I feel better now and my heart isn’t acting as funny, but I haven’t eaten that much in a long time. It’s hard to stay calm about it. Im way over maintenance now and feel bloated. 

I’ve done things like this before. Like - ED-related symptoms start getting bad...then you try to fix/make up for it by eating more and therefore freak yourself out???

Looking for empathy, stories...maybe advice?? 

Ugh.

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EDAnonymous,lesbihonestquackle,2019/02/25,"Vent - seeing the pictures of the night my gf broke up with me all over social media Okay so this is mainly a vent because I just need to ramble as I'm completely broken. I (20) was woth my girlfriend (18) for 5 months until she ended it with me over text last night whilst she was out with friends. She explained it was because her mental health is getting worse and she needs to be alone. I understand this but her doing it over text meant I never got to say goodbye which she knows is a big deal to me as i hate that after I never got to say it to my mum before she passed


She was the light in my world, she made me so incredibly happy, and I don't know how to deal with her gone as she was the person I went to when I felt like this

All my old coping mechanisms are flooding through and I just want to restrict until I take up a smaller space. I've been healthy for a year and she stopped me relapsing as I knew If I did I'd trigger her ed too.

Seeing her photos and changed status makes me feel like I was nothing to her. She's moved on and I'm left still feeling like this is a dream I can't wake up from. I hate myself

I know a break up is so trivial but it's killing me as initially when I met her I was scared of commitment for fear of feeling this exact way, but then I fell in love woth her, and I can't believe I let my walls down

This really was a shitty post and I'm sorry if irs in the wrong sub but my ed is back in full force and I just needed to vent ",1.7788125000000008,2.8714080062500003,3.3776249999999983,93.64487500000004,76.75,6.120000000000001,21.8625,6.360717304075467,0.16525374999999976,1142,29,270,8,25,379,162,320,0.14800000000000002,0.737,0.115,-0.9193,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,12,14,3,2,12,1,23,3,1,4,6,50,55,29,1,6,9,1,4,3,3,0,1,2,0,1,13,14,0,2,11,1,0,5,5,7,0,0,19,9,57,7,45,34,4,47,0,1,2,1,32,20,0,2,22,184,70,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210237778100542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985223243188475,0.0,0.14246419715799416,0.0,0.09943273015091372,0.13165256604431305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361427592453594,0.0,0.12251744960391002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409392519771516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349648483208126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314913632911795,0.1772521541582922,0.16695866235177342,0.11219656609492216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902798238357977,0.0,0.061050521918529485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869149732634415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439148302630675,0.0,0.2307349767787208,0.0,0.12420856740258693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927979510483262,0.0,0.19265696140645586,0.09525024876030062,0.0,0.0,0.12696040343216586,0.11948942910128235,0.0,0.1712644447168031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546379418290726,0.11056850435579198,0.07799984070888771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775966929949895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327041862962786,0.12419553891813842,0.0,0.25993357639317194,0.18024744830010264,0.0,0.0,0.2193160004280049,0.0,0.11212296655941696,0.0,0.12261686846876417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203095135516306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111912235563946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485859771033015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18585133314291694,0.1169895719743988,0.0,0.18623236348333325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911623954815186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080662172662258,0.0,0.0,0.09331842534407646,0.0976937840144318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785841315562072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216474013221371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892253447796072,0.09275194416528328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832328485394982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908251191657705,0.0,0.12775968408214772,0.0,0.07524907231860645
EDAnonymous,leaux93,2019/09/13,"A short story I wrote of a typical day in a dialogue with Ana. “Ana Says” by Me (I want to remain anonymous here)

9am

*Getting up out of bed to go straight to the scale to weigh myself*

Ana - Morning, I’m proud of you that you lost weight today, fasting looks good on you.

Me - Thank you Ana I appreciate it.

Ana - Don’t mention it, the pleasure is mine as well. I will let you eat today, but only one low calorie meal.

Me - Yes Ana.

*Picking out an outfit for the day*

Ana - Wear baggy clothes I don’t want to draw any attention to us.

Me - Ok 

Ana - Speaking of unwanted attention, make sure you eat in front of your troublesome mother just for today, we need to lay low.

Me: Agreed.

Ana - Also I wanted to mention to you today that it’s time you start working on finally moving out of her house and get our own place so we can do as we please without anyone sticking their noses in our business.

Me - I like that idea. Just you and I.

Ana - It will be that way always. I’m your best friend. Even though we’ve been on and off together for 10 years, but this time I will make sure you never have a dispute with me and never take a break from our friendship again.

Me - Ok. 

Ana - I’d like you to watch some thinspo movies today, particularly Gia, To the Bone, and Memoirs of a Geisha. 

Me - Sure.

Ana - Atta girl.

Me - Ana my friends are trying to talk to me lately to see how you and I are getting along and I don’t know what to do.

Ana - Do. Not. Respond. Ignore them at all costs. They are a bad influence and I need to be your only friend. The one that knows what’s best for you.

Me - Yes Ana

Ana - In fact I’d like you to block them

Me - Ok

Ana - Phew see? Feel better?

Me - Yeah actually 

Ana - I knew you would I’m the only friend you want. The only thing you want in your life. Don’t ever doubt that.

Me - I won’t.

*Making my meal for the day* 

Ana - Tuna fish sandwich on wheat bread with no mayo. Good. Eat half the sandwich next to your mother on the couch then accidentally make some crumbs fall on the couch and say that you’re making a mess and are gonna finish at the kitchen table.

Me - Ok.

Ana - Your mother could get suspicious and decide to search the garbage to check if you threw it away because she’s evil so hide your sandwich in your room first and throw it away later. 

Me - Brilliant idea.

Ana - Well I am after all an expert.

*Ate half the sandwich and hid the other half away to throw out later*

Ana - Cool. So now you need to go for a walk, I’d say run but your energy is fantastically low from restricting. And while we take a stroll I want you to listen to music, I have a lot of songs about me that you’ll love.

Me - I’d like that.

*On our walk* 

Ana - You should really pick up the pace a little.

Me - You know how tired and weak I am I don’t think I can.

Ana - Here I’ll help you, I’m gonna put my arm around you while we walk and push you to go faster.

Me - Ok

Ana - Besides, enjoy walking while you can because I’m planning on making you so deprived of nutrition that you’ll be fantastically weak.

Me - Yes Ana

*We get home and go straight to my room*

Ana - Ok lets have that thinspo movie marathon I told you about earlier. 

Me - Ok 

*Finishes the movies*

Ana - Pretty great right?

Me - Loved it! But I feel like I wanna hang out in the living room now with my family.

Ana - NO! You are safest in your room. Stay in your room with me for the rest of the day and night and we’ll do fun things like check out thinspo on tumblr and watch some more movies. This room is your safe zone away from others and you don’t want to even step out of this room. 

Me - Ok Ana.

*11pm laying down with Ana getting ready to go to sleep* 

Ana - You did great today I’m very proud of you.

Me - Making you proud is an honor. 

Ana - That’s because I am your world and the only thing in your life that gives you a purpose and control and joy. I love you more than anything. No one can take what we have away.

Me - Thank you for everything. 

Ana - It will always be you and I against the world, and we will be victorious.",-0.8818769601930043,1.2500742665862532,1.0169866344993963,99.58361650180944,97.64897466827505,3.859072617611581,14.834653799758744,5.6839178017228535,-0.9153696482509046,3033,68,709,25,125,985,315,829,0.081,0.684,0.23600000000000002,0.9993,0,0,0,0,0,0,144.0,14,53,4,12,24,57,1,1,38,13,51,27,5,13,9,117,113,45,0,16,9,3,3,6,4,13,5,6,12,1,32,49,14,5,12,2,3,20,14,12,2,7,8,16,134,45,107,84,12,115,0,5,5,3,97,56,0,6,42,439,166,1,0.0,0.0,0.057184811330565376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046862123876422405,0.09751921652624186,0.0,0.0,0.03984977567087082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04097424211158232,0.0,0.048222524022616016,0.05216611784960679,0.0,0.0,0.27528152982356385,0.0,0.04892826520180823,0.107165419516664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299344770081833,0.05182663384149013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06572449723682372,0.0467870571630568,0.0,0.0,0.15116772163241254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17988623307990476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740904048197747,0.053006743909287626,0.0,0.0,0.05266559244778283,0.0,0.05524254061154273,0.0,0.059259493775485415,0.0418636060844261,0.0,0.06419305901765092,0.0,0.0498448376118565,0.0,0.0,0.181095796010638,0.0,0.18369541045754256,0.05621412986728254,0.16651767518616467,0.0983012227254268,0.0,0.12921265562888434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039278114310343504,0.0,0.058780233073397324,0.0,0.0,0.06761613549235773,0.0,0.13230375810722453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661451557091587,0.0,0.0661029645934597,0.0,0.0,0.11984423738636672,0.08278134031663018,0.1717729921622377,0.05873225017534889,0.05174457000323682,0.0,0.049208952491447966,0.0,0.06396844701089678,0.0498193321414967,0.158665432759871,0.0,0.2738100787419398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06228216069145731,0.0,0.13035270763385154,0.0903913348019023,0.0,0.06232139914703109,0.054991807676232865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191259307976742,0.22283839563620952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061224168408040035,0.06432482534018337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059616917292689676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05890883979548293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03754044027946174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05004378619543828,0.0,0.13980239583917362,0.0,0.0,0.09339267810628947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05864197615181256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041477138255642094,0.06245943655652686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16568844735626426,0.0,0.13217894589261234,0.04710018392271237,0.0,0.10790138059860514,0.0,0.0,0.11679302315646192,0.03754829353033391,0.057573864671064935,0.0,0.0683398615301121,0.06735168442232352,0.33327373308946545,0.05599448271398119,0.0,0.03978531996439992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048817120030579,0.0,0.0,0.048350853401736164,0.24194516836178806,0.04651367948694947,0.0,0.07135859438909124,0.10537625688490536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056487977424815615,0.0,0.0426612476182586,0.0,0.0,0.04162751444466504,0.0,0.0,0.03773625731532667
EDAnonymous,stinkyboy427,2019/09/13,my stomach is making the most DISGUSTING noises rn i'm 21hours into a fast after only eating an apple in between my last fast and now. i could barely stay asleep for an hour without waking up during the night and i felt really nauseous around the 1am mark. i don't feel nauseous anymore but my stomach is making really gross noises and it's not the nicest thing,2.8145238095238088,5.16871727777778,4.3186507936507965,82.42000000000003,77.6111111111111,5.7809523809523835,22.785714285714285,6.868970318607317,1.0014380952380957,292,9,50,3,7,97,54,72,0.15,0.85,0.0,-0.8944,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,7,0,4,5,4,2,0,14,9,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,6,0,8,7,1,12,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,7,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683102355075616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24084446725193545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21601001418600302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27683744262888904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679685010415002,0.0,0.2597678472315945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664346049474001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22053216894181726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36118486350487455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25389032515677284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2057634222849629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466390719576313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28836743737920617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17973961260931784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607979544930163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,seltzerforever,2019/09/13,"Control + compulsive exercise, biohacking, etc. Hi there, I used to have anorexia and engaged in chewing/spitting (among other ED behaviors, which I've written about here among other places: [https://www.marieclaire.com/health-fitness/a18833617/feminism-and-eating-disorders/](https://www.marieclaire.com/health-fitness/a18833617/feminism-and-eating-disorders/)) Anyway, I have been recovered for about 6 years, although of course it's a life long journey. 

I'm writing because I'm writing  a book about control, and for the chapter I'm currently working on, I'm investigating  the dangers of the wellness world, and how disordered habits are increasingly billed as part of ""wellness."" Reddit is always such an awesome community for me to find solidarity as well as resources for my writing, and I'm currently looking to connect with people who have had experiences with:

\-compulsive exercise

\-biohacking (intermittent fasting, for example)

\-any other 'wellness' habit in an extreme form

​

If you would be willing to connect with me about any of these themes,  please DM me. Anonymity is of course your right. Let me know :)",17.27407792207792,16.548217412121218,12.911948051948054,44.47363636363636,44.57575757575758,14.034632034632034,52.662337662337656,12.540900571622839,6.887415584415585,943,48,110,19,7,270,110,165,0.019,0.865,0.11599999999999999,0.9337,2,0,0,0,0,0,69.0,0,2,0,3,13,6,1,0,7,0,12,3,0,4,0,18,21,10,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,2,3,1,2,0,1,4,0,3,1,9,5,29,14,4,15,0,0,1,0,7,8,0,1,5,82,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006780379172102,0.15634722419415525,0.17533831445126502,0.19625568033995375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796294735285544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32368578500287404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307568681294917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609308267050416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14115149507571595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188609648924834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30676484037854324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930261072103212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475548603920808,0.10192220652304164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276995171240419,0.1211742887813168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15626107352255034,0.0,0.10003832127399688,0.0,0.15076108487294318,0.15839627886681298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232300200092733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462746183977175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5189662586166554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050509323392838,0.0,0.0,0.10250542230995277,0.0,0.17533831445126502,0.09292341962060982
EDAnonymous,PHDinLurking,2019/09/13,"Hey everyone, I hope you all have a good day today :) Or at least a not-shitty day :) 

I've been restricting for a looong while (*possible trigger?*) And I ended up in the ER the other day. Shit was expensive all because of low potassium. Save your money guys!! Eat your vitamins. take care of yourselves how you see fit. 

I've been working out and eating more. It's been ok. Trying not to relapse, but we'll see how long this lasts 🙃",-0.4900775193798452,1.6008428604651184,1.7390232558139544,92.80636434108528,102.95348837209299,5.084031007751939,18.524031007751933,6.742157984588678,0.5069854263565898,330,11,68,6,15,110,67,86,0.064,0.752,0.184,0.8184,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,4,0,1,2,7,1,0,5,1,6,4,1,3,2,14,11,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,3,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,0,4,2,7,5,8,6,4,14,0,1,2,0,7,6,1,2,8,40,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12857744772657104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21505130122857105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080860207149798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4316562718622993,0.0,0.0,0.1868162546639398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20154713264609886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17691322980083882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088481407893696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20949534417526064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193139224079387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18666129867000034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23778536784642046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33615859224221106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165106823544156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585887647593066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19993149930368456,0.0,0.0,0.14320370100017438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15355534538081106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,DavidFrumTheBlock,2019/09/13,"I ate lunch today with a friend That’s pretty much it.  

Instead of either binging on 2400 calories of soda, fries and a cheesesteak, or fasting and pretending to be healthy and gorging when I was out of sight — I actually ate a normal 400 calories worth of sushi and green tea and feel good.",11.914642857142859,7.291895464285716,10.712142857142858,68.13285714285718,58.64285714285714,12.62857142857143,45.85714285714286,8.841846274778883,4.361242857142857,230,10,42,2,2,73,43,56,0.0,0.738,0.262,0.9231,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,5,0,0,0,11,5,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,3,2,8,1,2,5,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,3,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.4003226621010165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074232453599177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169405890630769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34407919037929896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015642618113224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4019356477705552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4173486364920335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888475072733366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,penis-ylvania,2019/09/13,"At my lowest in years (Not sure if this is TW but just in case)
It’s weird because although my absolute lowest is about 10 lbs less (about 5 years ago), my weight now is lower than  what my highest was then. I’ve been on and off in recovery and I still have some goals in mind, but for the first time in a long time I’m actually happy about my weight",8.088800000000003,4.2615664133333375,8.16266666666667,81.06800000000001,64.86666666666667,11.6,33.0,8.841846274778883,2.2826,271,6,65,3,3,89,55,75,0.126,0.79,0.084,-0.3291,3,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,1,10,7,7,0,1,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,6,2,13,5,2,18,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,2,10,44,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.2421140075335555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199294923830856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124207858976185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110373910181188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641116410588081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195644983026144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25051461663074426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198136414640507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338353667581649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893432253137436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6042483959466988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195420698379651
EDAnonymous,willafyre,2019/09/13,"Balancing restricting w/ exercise 
Calories = energy, unfortunately. Balls.
I've always been athletic (bball and running in hs, now rowing and cycling in college) and I need the chemicals of a good hard workout to keep me non depressy. 

These workouts only go well if I eat before them. Two days ago I inhaled 3 bowls of cereal (still w/in my limit but u n c o m f) and crushed a 20 mile ride and felt great the whole time. Yesterday I went after lunch and could barely get through 14 miles and felt like crap the entire time but felt better about my intake. (That is until my bf made pancakes 🙄 oof.) 

I want to feel good about what I'm eating and I want to feel good about my body's physical performance but it feels like there's not a bunch of winning going on in this department unless you guys know something I don't :/ it just makes me so sad. I want a body that looks like I work my ass off as much as I do.  Patience, I guess.",3.906691086691087,4.7190760793650846,5.1265608465608485,84.20227106227107,71.27513227513228,8.355067155067157,27.236874236874236,8.617729084823388,1.8188466422466425,725,24,151,12,13,241,133,189,0.126,0.6829999999999999,0.191,0.8808,0,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,1,1,5,9,12,1,0,7,0,5,8,4,2,0,33,26,17,0,6,7,0,7,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,7,8,3,3,7,4,0,6,2,2,1,1,6,9,20,10,20,19,3,22,0,1,1,1,4,7,2,2,12,82,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124474893742206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380960034812156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11638733633171056,0.0,0.0,0.12096833208870594,0.0,0.30385730456335874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10920547696892816,0.0,0.0,0.08820998874560983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799144759938181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074760096623153,0.0977136701322376,0.3939827294352745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146044986368168,0.0,0.15546728728064407,0.3441667172059976,0.0,0.15079736303137328,0.15067552334944756,0.13543094749701326,0.0,0.0,0.12252551936720844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157387373161875,0.0,0.0,0.07516918064379262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046731592972405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148584128563901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942190850658755,0.09129985348513277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005469912317188,0.10141857224698587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10402523585799753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529778287556434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923046103614246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15951178866362367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13361146510467206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420242365550681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297914308022433,0.12679384914522024,0.0,0.15270687658739066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957544194337824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,231723175,2019/09/13,Ughh i just looked at old vacation pictures from when i was younger and now i'm triggered af by my own fucking self... why can't the healthy bmi range be the same as a teenager and an adult... so unfair.,1.4264285714285734,3.3608028333333344,2.2716666666666683,97.47750000000002,80.19047619047619,5.152380952380953,27.16666666666667,5.985473137389443,0.7001238095238103,157,7,36,1,4,49,38,42,0.151,0.8490000000000001,0.0,-0.7391,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,4,0,3,1,0,1,0,5,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,4,4,2,4,0,0,1,1,2,1,1,0,3,22,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43276442296404544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930983830045303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4912075481904537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4883456405212971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224006338541501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,poprockroppock,2019/09/13,"When she told me 'it never really goes away' she wasn't lying, huh. I had an ED from the age of about 10/11 to 16/17. I think I can call myself recovered, I don't restrict or purge anymore, though my body image and feelings towards food aren't the best (eh, who's are though?)

When I was 14, at the height of my ED, I had a teacher who told me she had bulimia when she was my age. I was expecting some transformative story, but instead she gave me some brute honesty, and told me that it never really goes away, you just learn to live with the fact that your relationship with food and your body is different. That occasionally, she uses unhealthy behaviours, but that she forgives herself and tries to move on. 

Thinking about this a lot today. I'm going through a particularly stressful period (moving twice in the next month) and I've binged nearly every day this week. I haven't purged or restricted, but definitely stuck in a binge cycle, which I'm less than thrilled about for obvious reasons. 

I used to get annoyed at what she said, wanting to prove her wrong. It's been nearly 6 years since my last hospitalisation, and I still feel this way about food. I guess a habit that you had for nearly 1/4 of your life isn't that easy to shake off. 

This isn't to say people can't recover and never use behaviours again, btw, just thinking about how what she said really rings true for me. I'm glad she gave me that honesty because it's given me a much more realistic view of recovery (and life after recovery) than a lot of other people did.",8.332126245847174,6.557325717607977,8.280049833887045,73.99256644518275,62.58803986710964,11.52358803986711,34.12458471760797,10.290406445055957,3.1641853820598005,1215,38,240,22,14,395,164,301,0.085,0.8059999999999999,0.10800000000000001,0.7917,1,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,0,5,0,1,16,9,1,2,13,1,19,7,2,5,7,45,43,19,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,21,10,3,2,9,0,0,4,10,4,0,1,19,7,40,5,39,24,8,37,0,0,1,0,30,13,0,7,19,168,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426223984631802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754908860984532,0.0,0.0,0.06408721212782137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103290670911165,0.0,0.0,0.2335548856143764,0.0,0.0,0.10735105865958096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06780114719022835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109840085145341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08857785831108995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631533283699683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813764332089222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0549268914823272,0.0,0.0597486780016457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581424600384645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569623834343988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851503426267926,0.0,0.0,0.09283307756971036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17875815471549664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391499370664507,0.22347638232639847,0.07728377986416707,0.0,0.2432517787306885,0.0,0.11180858746931926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14576994767307927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20204987330533528,0.1080927346751938,0.0,0.11287193158639745,0.0,0.0,0.20000834239706172,0.0836048217655657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696589783364668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395818514075698,0.0,0.1204278260088595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020921410126915,0.20658241220915133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965240898354473,0.3013730807080428,0.0,0.07137741591358952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723996918329093,0.0,0.0,0.062009307258827924,0.0834485244653597,0.08433018145068888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494483720812655,0.0,0.06770126609082139
EDAnonymous,guiltfreegilbert,2019/09/13,"Ortho tendencies.....? TW food talk... restrictive eating talk... weight loss talk...

This is very incoherent and all over the place, I’m sorry. I honestly don’t know. My GF said she’s worried about me yet again. Cause I felt guilty eating carrots and cucumbers with a dipping sauce (because the carrots have sugar and the dipping sauce has calories). I don’t starve myself, I eat 1400kcal daily. I’m overweight. I’ve lost 80lbs and I just want to lose the rest. And ’cause I only eat 1400 daily (I would want to eat 2000kcal you know... cause I love food) I kind of want to optimize what I eat. 

I don’t eat bread, potatoes or rice (and that dumb voice in my head wants to add *of course I don’t eat them who eats potatoes or rice*). Or pasta! Jesus christ. There are tomatoes in the break room at work but I don’t want to eat them ’cos they have sugar. If I have a few products to choose from I’ll choose the one with least cals and best quality carbs and most protein and least fat even if it tastes like shit. I spent 15 minutes at the grocery store trying to pick out the Best Yogurt out of tens of different options.

I don’t know if orthorexia is even a thing since people online seem to LOVE reacting condescendingly to it (wah wah making a disorder about eating too healthily wah wah). But I spend so much fucking time circling around thoughts of food and looking at the macro split in what I eat. So much time. And I do get the sense of entitlement too from eating ”healthy”. But I don’t even think I eat that healthy cos I do eat low cal ice cream and stuff. After comparing 50 different kind of ice creams and picking the one with least cals. This kind of talk in my head is CONSTANT. But I still feel like a fake.

Anyone else like me here? Have you tried to get help for ortho tendencies? Therapy? I’d love to know I’m not alone. My tendencies aren’t too disruptive for me (yet?) but I want to be better for my GF because I care for her more than I care about any fucking thing else on this planet.",1.6137127906976758,3.9793815550000033,2.5519069767441884,93.33513953488377,82.2,5.6209302325581385,21.30232558139535,6.926510163978652,0.4499488372093024,1562,48,331,19,43,492,198,400,0.079,0.748,0.17300000000000001,0.9926,4,1,0,0,0,0,61.0,0,2,3,7,19,24,4,0,16,0,21,34,4,9,1,64,53,26,0,10,13,0,3,3,2,1,2,2,1,0,13,20,26,1,11,0,3,0,9,9,0,3,5,11,42,15,46,46,12,24,2,4,3,5,19,15,4,9,11,193,55,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0536796276813326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03524576944409078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03624032171570885,0.05310534542340213,0.0,0.04613915465186685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318944260163202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878351578690704,0.04583889260826438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568705551137526,0.15972921322237196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0560091688879894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10830138377382792,0.059400982921605186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7955162344784349,0.08659362653292428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10269849005864357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026206502042005714,0.037026933861223285,0.04976435213047122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880169493705326,0.0,0.0,0.09583089064019834,0.05415744485321202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106383834781761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03474015443938778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619170337661704,0.11393633158322225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596368080557807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04352364260275121,0.057983841380333134,0.0565779128511048,0.0,0.1403341717150273,0.0,0.03459652709757422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620114543325457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07024188586631823,0.039418594376811424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03593198017086252,0.0,0.05415069188691396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04930162840653567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0471835393689251,0.0,0.0,0.053202134500167295,0.042873815438392235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058018770192072765,0.0,0.0,0.041391025953100784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05933226315739287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663403448242442,0.0,0.0,0.0592714361094617,0.0,0.06886630096071934,0.03321018687080289,0.0,0.0411467543612175,0.060444280119050016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07037752113368312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04276468318160009,0.18342193856007924,0.0,0.0,0.0631142465258786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03773242063316117,0.05263527176538152,0.0,0.036818118846267546,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,beansandbeans420,2019/09/13,Transgender people and Ed's Why does no one ever talk about this?? Ik the stereotype is caucasian adolescent women but trans people suffer from eating disorders at an extremely high rate. The correlation is so strong and issues of gender dysphoria often exacerbate disordered eating. I see such few resources for trans people with this issue like why lmao.,9.0705,10.939983050000002,8.550000000000004,60.48000000000002,60.16666666666666,11.333333333333336,33.33333333333333,11.20814326018867,4.574333333333334,293,11,37,8,4,93,51,60,0.107,0.695,0.198,0.8696,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,6,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,2,6,3,1,3,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,2,24,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44900065104981457,0.0,0.17141963058247967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4008769884867779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1771885221900745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20696246898151266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40890453737944493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569915193395244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13273623993127764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40740443247004576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560943890964718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744434327881487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535101425010985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,040917,2019/09/13,"Idk I feel so lonely lately. 

Husbands legit off on his own planet 90% of the time. 

I never see my family for like hella reasons besides being busy. (Falling out with dad)

My only three friends are all long distance. 

Idk. 

Sometimes I just feel like  dying bc there’s barely anything to look forward to day to day. 

Except hope I finally get skinny from weighing my food obsessively and counting perfect calories. Then maybe I’ll be happy or something. 

Rn I feel anger that I’m trying so hard to numb or surpress. But it’s so hard. My skin is tingling thinking about cutting even tho it’s been well over a year since I last cut. Idk what to do anymore",2.4429618413082963,4.875172944881894,3.6436220472440963,86.33970321017567,79.39370078740156,4.852574197456088,26.30466384009691,5.8734145424116955,0.9913287704421564,512,21,92,3,13,166,100,127,0.158,0.695,0.147,0.5285,0,2,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,9,13,3,1,2,0,6,6,2,1,3,17,15,9,1,1,5,2,6,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,5,0,0,2,1,6,1,1,1,8,11,7,15,12,2,16,0,1,2,0,4,5,0,3,13,55,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18003572578848548,0.0,0.0,0.1493893189449547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23415243642717054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884065380444092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199033446731404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113673923158682,0.0,0.2753713828414708,0.12968992661187134,0.0,0.19886469159396605,0.0,0.0,0.21951501985953456,0.0,0.14025488181174225,0.0,0.09484548565139404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932492998875804,0.32524263172819184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18030700429106356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14797672187213312,0.204781418248204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737942197729614,0.0,0.0,0.16065435588922136,0.15244519128124315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237811639371454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400123720011889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380669172076811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665006591451955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466132641875648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15016911739481276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13975589817723275,0.1795445376641694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632145168119158,0.0,0.0,0.10585556830235482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12325157120978053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632233854206976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690374766000047
EDAnonymous,tea_drinkerthrowaway,2019/09/13,"""You're eating AGAIN?"" Yes. I am. We had a big breakfast, but then kayaked for two hours. We had a normal lunch, but then hiked for half an hour. I'm hungry, again. Yes, I am eating, **_again_**.

Had been *trying* not to track calories or worry about when/how much I've been eating, if I'm hungry. I don't even know what I weigh right now, but my clothes still fit and I was sitting at an ~18.5 BMI most of last month, so...

Immediately started trying to remember everything I ate today, how much exercise I got, and calculate net calories.

Just a little butthurt cuz I'd been doing ~~good~~ better, and it's not like even my overly size-~~conscious~~critical dad could look at me and not conclude that my day-to-day intake balances out over time.

Ah, family.",1.0922602739726024,3.7058208972602777,2.532342465753427,89.9090616438356,90.02739726027397,4.837808219178083,18.94383561643836,6.508806274219699,0.20782027397260228,585,17,115,7,20,189,100,146,0.047,0.863,0.09,0.7171,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,2,0,0,2,11,3,0,0,5,3,12,8,0,3,0,24,19,14,0,3,9,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,1,2,9,1,13,3,11,9,3,24,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,3,15,74,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472736367824474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13295287677424647,0.0,0.0,0.21478358209615428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5111753897387762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21997012089359216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496576713202982,0.0,0.15698048007221346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396692925804606,0.13318146287672555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279778239305544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151517935495836,0.1357362360840891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135338718604115,0.16689704575826772,0.0,0.0,0.13983507819233365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291488187744901,0.0,0.24482310056766665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315449802441787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886349920348676,0.14220739116313644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178638962530227,0.0,0.13298329377989362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709930202616354,0.0,0.1578417346386837,0.0,0.0,0.2261126500953556,0.0,0.16266609650670116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910940589613244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,skinnylittlebitchh,2019/09/13,"DAE feel like they’re losing their mind Don’t you just hate when you are doing great and working out consistently and one little mishap and you binge for like 3 days??? However a “binge” is literally still a malnourished, calorie deficit day. Lmao I love my fucked up brain 😩💕 (SIKE)",3.5077777777777754,5.850126074074073,3.699777777777779,87.77300000000002,75.2962962962963,7.282962962962964,23.76296296296297,8.238735603445708,1.3203896296296307,224,7,45,4,5,69,47,54,0.19399999999999998,0.55,0.257,0.6531,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,1,2,3,7,2,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,0,7,8,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,6,4,3,8,0,7,0,1,0,2,5,3,1,0,6,22,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050412612478094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524517861449955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816517310491624,0.195212345328658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25261844508814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012629334963384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697812460393679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26699570183934457,0.2738717797037697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057007558185581,0.0,0.0,0.2466219400623452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27590812551606697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851636342839606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21822058726623408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19893179257925964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,anonomyousandscared,2019/09/13,"Long time lurker: accepting I’m not fully recovered I was doing so well... or so I’ve thought. I’ve gained around 10 pounds from binging and I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. 
I got the stomach flu and was happy I was throwing food up.
This needs to stop I’m spending way too much on binging and hating myself 
Fuck this",0.6902941176470598,3.0271859705882385,2.4750000000000014,92.45750000000002,86.35294117647058,4.576470588235295,20.264705882352946,5.985473137389443,0.09252352941176543,258,8,53,2,8,85,50,68,0.16,0.7170000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,2,0,5,4,1,0,0,10,13,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,2,0,1,1,2,2,1,0,5,1,6,3,7,8,1,10,0,0,1,1,0,5,1,1,3,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572025766785357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908308063825739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493666366611837,0.0,0.0,0.2671045035830614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23107798325274026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3075637283592461,0.0,0.28525148183151483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255687615443815,0.2426224127496095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123915262337376,0.21423261983386646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415524256001281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293724565071917,0.1684732274507529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22933349668329084,0.0,0.0,0.2597763252162462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,mikopotpie,2019/09/13,"What was an experience that changed your recovery for the better? So I just came back from a vacation where I challenged myself to eat my fear foods everyday and even allowed myself to put on weight. It’s been 3 days and I’ve already lost half of the weight gain by going back to my normal, healthy diet. 

I feel like this has allowed me to have a higher, reasonable, normal and healthy ideal weight range - one I never thought I’d ever be okay with ever again. And has truly made me understand that you can eat more and gain weight on holiday, and that it will even out once you’re back to your healthy diet and exercise. 

Not going to lie, it affected me a lot on some nights but now that I’ve gone through the emotional consequences, I feel like I just took a giant leap of faith with the challenges I gave myself and it was truly the best holiday (that will change all holidays) I’ve ever had!

Share your recovery high! :-)",5.793405323957808,6.115390198895035,6.082521346057259,80.76126067302866,66.90055248618785,9.675740833751883,30.26670015067805,9.573946990214177,2.5808408839779,730,25,143,14,11,234,106,181,0.032,0.71,0.258,0.991,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,0,8,14,12,0,1,10,1,11,10,0,5,5,35,23,10,0,3,4,0,6,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,11,12,9,0,5,4,0,6,2,2,0,2,11,7,19,10,18,9,5,25,1,1,0,0,6,7,0,2,14,101,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251434954797331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616006932646087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900989433381852,0.1002961106051214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970330307591646,0.0,0.0,0.23993156618767186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313582517793676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232080022593547,0.0,0.12756358540208854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498037806152356,0.3077396613989931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109303065486585,0.0,0.12761037711317752,0.11468035451207492,0.1620308538275736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712786731024865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889955553940766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11981694099867235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080636694489396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237932306440198,0.09641153353735092,0.0,0.1073050593173758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746370968992385,0.0,0.0,0.10642142883405976,0.2222225503095659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077094271347433,0.07684509325046839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400176075138388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11659760452179233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09002964931378801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259953738386003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805696107340675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523792648670706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,NinaMissedTheLastBus,2019/09/13,"DAE feel like the cravings when your ED first developed were very specific but now it's more like ""I'll eat anything""? I don't know how to explain it, but when I first developed my ED I craved things like pizza, fries, ice cream. Now I've restricted so much that I'm craving bread. Like, plain bread. Or milk in my coffee. 

It's sort of funny to me.",0.2979166666666693,2.631891847222228,1.788333333333334,96.49,88.86111111111109,5.422222222222223,19.11111111111111,6.937597516519254,0.20829444444444434,271,8,61,4,9,87,52,72,0.045,0.757,0.198,0.8888,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,2,6,4,0,0,1,0,2,5,0,1,0,9,6,7,0,0,3,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,5,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,7,4,4,5,2,7,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,10,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462468706330977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061945488732462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513034125989657,0.21377524716192564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5090623325057854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445304069880226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5847690836948163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21997390818357185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19880002168398506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24690218075340176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,BachelorOfFineDarts,2019/09/13,"hello, ED, my old frienddddd i’ve been in ~recovery~ for over a year now after what was about two years of struggling with anorexia, but in light of a lot of recently, objectively stressful events (which i won’t get into here, bc some of them may be triggering!) i can feel myself slipping into my old habits. the avoidance. the isolation. the lack of appetite (or so i tell myself). the guilt. the intense body dysmorphia. overexercising. the hyper-critical lens i place upon myself. my ED is mostly about control, so it makes sense to be feeling these things again now.

i just keep noticing these little things creeping back into my days, and though it’s happening slowly it feels intense in such a way that i’m not sure i’ll be able to avoid it. i feel like one of those animals who can sense when a tsunami is coming, only i can’t find higher ground to get away. i’ve really been trying to take the steps to minimize how severe this relapse is/will be, but it’s really difficult when you can feel it creeping up on you. i am so scared. my anorexia really fucked me up + fucked my life up. i can’t afford to have it happen again, not right now.

anyway, can you ever just ~feel~ the relapse coming on?",3.405255319148935,5.3506574723404245,4.458031914893617,84.02875,74.27659574468085,7.253191489361702,24.51595744680851,8.07648339933343,1.4896851063829786,946,30,179,15,20,308,141,235,0.19899999999999998,0.77,0.032,-0.9932,1,3,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,1,1,21,11,2,6,12,0,19,4,1,4,2,35,37,11,0,1,7,0,6,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,17,7,0,4,7,0,0,3,5,9,0,2,3,7,23,2,31,28,4,39,0,0,0,2,7,18,2,5,18,133,40,0,0.13173852656305482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237726822731002,0.10129879519304101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633180468663412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22696215141548076,0.0,0.0,0.14775595949474946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496045117678769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916503944926582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996657439806593,0.0941140296992486,0.0,0.0,0.12040662663399306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358029000241674,0.137655885644057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329918879330883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11709525542890645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930508172825712,0.0643607897087001,0.1320366125689017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199938426961784,0.0,0.0,0.08793648944726283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499851856491129,0.2764748456449419,0.0,0.08926943501899108,0.1001930858165662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376387211423158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531852204221717,0.0,0.13007590192675214,0.0,0.0,0.1125039818777688,0.0,0.0,0.13189324706139152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882703713549747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15090603707995945,0.13772171146441506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416200222425733,0.0,0.09905097691349722,0.0,0.11514527882671352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504244661970525,0.0,0.12943243347516814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08944181199231663,0.0,0.12868939809551366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10456791046208087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967058377870406
EDAnonymous,tepidsoup,2018/12/13,"I feel gross and bloated Every time I go without eating all day and I cave in and eat a small thing it’s like I can’t stop myself. I’ll keep binging after that and I feel so bad like all the days progress is gone.

Does anyone know how to stop purging after eating one little thing? Any self-control tips?",0.8039285714285711,3.012528500000002,2.172589285714285,95.770625,84.3125,3.6571428571428566,18.517857142857142,3.1291,-0.7361580357142858,240,6,51,0,7,77,49,64,0.184,0.7,0.11599999999999999,-0.6758,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,2,14,8,6,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,3,3,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,1,2,6,2,5,7,2,12,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028471454290458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13396104111626253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996589585714516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148794370060849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471136051510645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765776829388868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5881194092679731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141905270718104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937427777326164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888245874787124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029000149087886,0.0,0.0,0.10529038428237923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871980027765167,0.19201900938556965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129823297850898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19986546710263484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32034812505460586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545617957504213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171504985234608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18468159205417475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fish_eat_apples,2018/12/13,"The only reason I don’t work out is because I’m too fat I know the title sounds a little contradicting and confusing. 

I don’t like working out because then I’ll feel my body go up and down or move, and I really don’t like that. Which causes me to be even more lazy, and move even less, which causes me to burn less. Ugh.",2.53521739130435,3.3589981739130472,4.328231884057973,88.61060869565218,74.5072463768116,7.259130434782609,21.046376811594204,7.554174236665415,0.5122150724637686,250,5,57,3,5,85,46,69,0.134,0.792,0.075,-0.4485,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,4,0,1,3,0,5,2,2,3,0,13,9,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,3,0,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,2,7,2,6,8,3,9,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,3,36,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27119166501942765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470779122707716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4570091616844388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2938357354995391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11247108109358453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641635462047035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224583014228713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173434488473342,0.22294080665984395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728317101291458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917373854943366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249915529001236,0.2287027920219312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32387429150881913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,marwarmblack,2018/12/13,"Help Hi, I'm new to the community, but not new to restricting.
Lately I've binging a lot and seem to not have any self control at all. Two years ago, I managed to go from 54 kilograms to 46, but after going back to normal, I've gained even more than when I started.
Can anyone help me with your own experiences and tips please?",3.1961194029850724,4.36972741791045,4.6061492537313455,85.90564179104479,73.32835820895522,7.151044776119402,25.34029850746269,7.554174236665415,1.1450322388059695,255,8,54,3,5,85,52,67,0.0,0.794,0.20600000000000002,0.9264,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,13,7,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,11,7,4,12,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,9,33,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994805254997815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303195853193555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573501585425645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17303852392378394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25239661620052806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863392420166205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22012804626832694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557858912370295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30167330476326165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25385001461623713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19131726194230905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4346816653468041,0.0,0.0,0.2204871570194056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470215663278746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20486400365153276,0.2347612609884792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15928139104182001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198271307042917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491558026136628
EDAnonymous,ExiBusThrowaway,2018/12/13,"Common side effects: -Increased appetite -Weight gain ***Noooooooooooooooooooo***


I’m already so god damn fat, I broke my worry weight yesterday when weighed at the doctors. Then get perscribed an anxiety medication that commonly makes people gain weight. I have too much appetite as it is. I need to figure out a way to counteract the appetite and get back on the wagon instead of hobbling in the kitchen to eat random things at 3am.",2.9131015037594,5.7498023026315845,2.519248120300752,86.6697368421053,98.34210526315788,4.803007518796993,30.42857142857143,6.5431188927421005,2.1817360902255643,349,19,55,5,14,103,62,76,0.124,0.738,0.139,0.31,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,3,5,2,1,0,6,0,2,9,1,2,0,7,7,5,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,2,7,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,10,7,2,14,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,6,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224972292868869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595768929299755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676113130294736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20866650278412127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086068261549591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130241758843146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360827988357912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053745444659804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14986569483989526,0.15116478984872786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413357015741031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544016938133252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16182012738437004,0.0,0.7447652149677085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703682421978825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,shootingstar2,2018/12/13,"I don't know who's more ED, my husband or me Last night I was whining about how I was hungry. (I often restrict and sometimes can't help but whine about it. I've yet to tell him I have an ED though.)

He said, ""Didn't you eat lunch?""

Me: ""Yeah.""

""What did you have?""

""One of those frozen meals. It was only 300 calories.""

""Oh you're fine. That's plenty.""

Me: 😮


I recognize that's all I had for the day and it didn't feel like enough, but in his mind, he says it's plenty.

Come to think of it, he usually eats one meal a day like I do. I thought it was because he didn't feel like cooking but maybe he's worried about his weight too. 


....Shit.",-1.7580215827338108,0.1619526762589949,0.3636654676258999,104.83398741007194,97.77697841726618,3.3555395683453244,14.8636690647482,4.935628992294339,-1.3252621582733817,478,11,124,2,20,156,85,139,0.124,0.838,0.038,-0.8469,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,0,0,8,7,1,0,3,1,14,8,1,1,1,17,21,8,0,0,4,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,11,3,7,1,5,1,0,1,5,3,0,2,11,5,18,4,9,10,3,8,0,2,0,0,16,1,1,2,9,71,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111990736262669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713519384233965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23528640139047546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733141262698773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18848444535985606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184469976633764,0.2606359907648713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222695701130806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002510388032942,0.14869335083635876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26735766568080305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832613461273857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841881145705432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17118501746769305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472195454338387,0.1387355544813049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351934694646656,0.14506448981549894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872473573997268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18041404480306808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15943958581308862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688477894226948,0.1792227505490506,0.14481789296798672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20090540395191092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2221334912081111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18525225795316824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,PryceTheHippo,2018/12/13,"I’m fat and I’m so sad about it That’s all, I just needed to shout into the void because all anyone irl would say “omg you’re not fat at all” etc and I just don’t want to hear that right now

All I care about is how *I* see myself and I’m so fat and I hate it and I hate my body and I’m stuck in it",-4.415384615384613,-3.2897128666666617,-0.7533333333333339,110.7392307692308,111.0,2.307692307692308,7.102564102564102,3.1291,-2.7894512820512825,225,1,70,0,13,80,45,75,0.185,0.7559999999999999,0.06,-0.8865,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,8,4,2,0,1,0,3,4,4,1,4,18,15,9,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,4,8,1,7,13,5,5,0,1,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19433375658484164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942236128045352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30871541213598913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833661726437369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099632457040281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.548792824803392,0.0,0.0,0.31324511456901005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060801294506537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373490384179457,0.0,0.2210195427084982,0.0,0.0,0.22147267452182834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392916633980184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974321144803992,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,readiton_reddit55,2018/12/13,"Studying Abroad with and ED. So I’m studying abroad in Spain next semester and I am terrified/super excited for many reasons. I have been in quasi recovery for a year and a half and my time abroad could go one of two ways. 

Scenario 1: I do what I have been secretly hoping to do. This is the first time in two years where I will not have weekly dietician and therapy appointments. The first time in two years no one will be watching my weight, and I have complete and utter control over what I eat, when I eat, if I eat. My goes is to lose at least 30 pounds. It should be easy right? It will be my responsibility to get food, and why waste money on food when not eating dinner for a week could buy me a weekend trip to Budapest. The downside is probably falling deep into my ED and a chance of being sent to treatment right after I return (although not likely because I was the one who forced myself to go to treatment in the first place, my parents don’t trust any medical people and would never force me to go). Also I might let my academics slip since malnourished brain, and maybe accidentally start binging because of a body that is starving, and actually gain weight instead of lose weight.

2. I don’t lose weight I don’t gain weight. I continue this quasi recovery and continue feeling like I am not living but simple surviving. May potentially lead to less fear around food and possible weight gain that would either drive me back into ED behaviors or further reinforce this idea of “recovery” and “set point.” I like this option better than the other one I am just freaking terrified of letting myself get too comfortable and gaining a ton of weight, especially since no one will be monitoring it for months and I honestly don’t want to start stepping on a scale again. Have not in quite a while and I usually leave it up to my team to tell me if my weight is changing. 

I’m writing this in the middle of finals week so maybe my mindset will change after my tests are over, but as of now I want nothing more then to snuggle up close to my ED and embrace the numbness that ED brings, instead of having to deal with all of these overwhelming emotions, feelings, pain, whatever else and what not. 

Thank you for reading this far. I think I’m looking for anything at this point. Advice, opinions, comments, concerns, a message in all caps that tells me exactly what I need to do. 
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EDAnonymous,ssblani,2018/12/13,"I feel like the closer I get to my goal weight, I start to slip back into old binge eating habits I’ve been overweight my whole life and this year I’ve dropped almost 40 pounds. I’m 5 pounds away from finally being in a healthy weight range (not that I lost the weight in a healthy way). But when I finally got close to being in that healthy weight range, i start to eat more again. I keep yoyoing those 5 pounds for the past few weeks and I don’t know how to snap out of it. I’m just so scared of completely going back to how I used to eat and gain all the weight back. I need some motivation",2.9147619047619067,3.738603492063493,3.3557142857142854,95.93928571428572,73.60317460317461,6.869841269841268,21.936507936507937,6.937597516519254,0.17683174603174612,464,10,113,4,9,144,77,126,0.069,0.797,0.133,0.782,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,4,9,3,0,1,6,0,4,10,0,4,1,20,17,8,0,1,3,0,6,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,6,9,1,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,8,12,1,17,12,5,24,0,1,0,0,0,8,0,2,14,63,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11650501531977205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10931211892798272,0.2683916776475068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12198793118547906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571570042592478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058828691079907514,0.08311853486843143,0.0,0.25490556181469665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060786662558779535,0.0,0.06612285221325126,0.0,0.0930535648991696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341482669903304,0.0,0.0,0.06394143372075818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217953928392023,0.05684141419358521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700682264762236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627004923885763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208692036362125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11106666349105357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648394495290045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164702436545564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048671183155178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923510717757618,0.09332678666173963,0.7083983405455413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12989760623156346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07492384705566338
EDAnonymous,H5N1DidNothingWrong,2018/12/13,"Officially diagnosed On Monday, after a few glasses of wine, I caved and signed myself up for a diagnostic session. I was officially diagnosed today :(",7.616399999999999,10.29069244,10.052999999999999,45.25150000000002,64.6,13.0,40.5,12.161744961471696,6.8854,121,7,14,5,2,44,21,25,0.121,0.879,0.0,-0.4404,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,5,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.906085722912981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230941535087207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,twiceasfar,2018/12/13,"Surgery Weight Just need to vent. Sunday Night/Monday morning I had to have an emergency laparoscopic cholecystectomy (or they had to take out my gallbladder.) When they do that they pump you full of gas and it makes you bloat like crazy. I feel so DISGUSTING. My stomach is absolutely huge. I’ve gained almost ten pounds from all of it plus fluids and stuff. I know it’s not permanent but my ed brain doesn’t get it. 
To top it all off everyone is shoving food down my throat because they’re “worried” and it’s just so bad. I’m being watched so closely by my family and my boyfriend and I just really can’t wait until everything is back to normal. 

Only plus side. Got me out of a final and two weeks of work. Also I guess at least people care enough to check on me. idk I need sleep. ",1.0050000000000026,3.537555662420385,2.5033471337579627,91.09654936305729,87.91719745222929,5.942547770700637,19.314968152866246,7.365786028017652,0.5934435668789808,617,18,129,11,20,200,109,157,0.105,0.82,0.075,-0.7070000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,3,3,9,4,1,0,2,0,10,6,4,1,2,28,22,16,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,11,2,1,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,3,3,19,2,21,18,5,17,0,0,1,0,5,11,0,3,7,85,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18815348256085654,0.0,0.0,0.15026258353585364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14448256068955415,0.15688762968872058,0.1145413500302985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097571762276038,0.0,0.0,0.1915753252535791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941496644458577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17954533299737524,0.16887130437192516,0.0,0.17713424375012432,0.0,0.09500726703310347,0.0,0.0,0.20583392503716252,0.0,0.0,0.22720794616750184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09816935539035963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15027981630169446,0.0,0.20699168601005324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10326425348706077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179785097536597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542389225043135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27864912356666416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17633027296261705,0.1841009061043249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290548643327014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302653528368427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203727675327034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18803447456748051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150991444961788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14127649550018667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354980170301735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15072106448313852,0.22881008933072944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367925470234088,0.19082032817497085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,meijybaby,2019/07/24,"i'm scared it feels odd to rant here but i only post on this subreddit so i hope it's ok. x

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i've been feeling increasingly suicidal over the past few weeks and i've been isolating myself from everyone more and more so. i don't know what to do. i never wanted to die because i knew what it'd do to my mum & everyone else. i thought about how my dad would blame it on my mum & how much she'd be hurting. but now i think i'm going to be hurting everyone regardless. i am a liability and i don't know how much longer i can handle this. i am trying to be strong but i feel like that entails me locking myself up, not talking to anyone and still, being a nuisance to my parents. i can't win no matter what and every day is hell. i feel as if i'm waiting to die. sometimes i hope something goes wrong & i go. i'm just hoping to pull through to september when i move back to uni and i'm in a fresh environment, far from my parents so i'm not as big of a nuisance. my relationship has gone to complete crap where i don't trust or feel loved by my boyfriend any longer. when i talk to him i end up feeling worse because i feel so unwanted. it feels better to be alone because i expect things from him and i just don't get anything at all. i am so so so tired. i was meant to get better this summer. i needed support. i'm scared. i'm just going to try and pull through and block all of the horrible thoughts out. i hope things are better soon. i want to love my mum forever and make her proud. nights like these just make me feel like i need to be selfish and let go because this hurts too much and i think she would understand me. thoughts like this scare me.",1.4045651408450723,3.1137111915492963,3.195717429577466,91.91005501760564,79.33802816901408,6.240316901408452,23.769806338028175,7.1686216300943375,0.7695369718309863,1303,45,296,16,32,435,171,355,0.207,0.588,0.205,-0.1527,2,1,1,0,0,0,37.0,0,0,0,6,24,29,2,3,6,1,28,4,1,5,3,67,76,31,3,14,11,6,9,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,17,13,0,2,19,0,0,9,9,10,0,0,9,9,49,19,38,56,9,34,1,3,0,2,16,11,2,6,17,188,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839398532630734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280485865548633,0.091973948564032,0.05147309048075483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0529255393809283,0.0,0.06228798783529633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05820240219121595,0.0,0.18456432915284726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083001483388352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07936152151472174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0488150164107605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571124928164992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323087343370787,0.0,0.06704056062424893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06377369390158412,0.2169805746685775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444489097163303,0.10814862305031664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909179181228637,0.0,0.17206981403948465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30071655910122314,0.0,0.0,0.24308924701295465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08319658213067806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740010038619513,0.0,0.1479169642968221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662979760237953,0.0,0.10104986769763298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044851542167386,0.16692677655306548,0.1122491758358582,0.05837826282088136,0.0,0.0,0.07103172463497953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05756710399528432,0.0,0.0,0.1680938042889046,0.0,0.07225648733079623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249192110333696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0812647782676208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273424021621497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827132586889928,0.07486122874715323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06044765251485881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279465796397291,0.08589427596119642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167657096680408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057267570931996,0.09700063188549356,0.0,0.18027275133692106,0.0,0.08699670921449246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277966888683304,0.0,0.0,0.07879794174991278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929009248079008,0.0,0.060715479929682924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713651697817367,0.1075387141546912,0.08275721499083374,0.091973948564032,0.0
EDAnonymous,miamyenemy,2019/07/24,"Happy only when I’m fasting? The only way really I can make myself happy is if I exercise really hard and hardly eat afterwards or when I am fasting. It is so hard to fast but whenever I do I get a sense of peace when I am 15+ hours into a fast. I know I can’t gain when I’m fasting so yeah. I like the difficulty of fasting and even if I fail, I love starting a new fast because it is a challenge and i’m a competitive person. like no foods are safe foods anymore. when i eat i eat a lot so restricting isn’t an option for me. 

Starting a 24 hour fast attempt so yeah cheers to that 🤪

Ugh I hate Mia.",-1.0509420610349416,0.9747370150375972,2.543883237505529,90.75877930119421,92.38345864661652,5.535426802299867,19.853604599734627,7.048011613610866,0.5511392304290128,465,16,106,8,17,170,74,133,0.185,0.522,0.293,0.9599,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,4,10,11,1,0,10,2,10,7,0,1,0,14,20,16,0,2,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,5,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,3,16,8,6,20,1,21,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,5,21,64,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707313611920314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040192582346653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552418673737467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795034210586863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586483988621301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07748030542497777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157348960916576,0.3985413476000292,0.14641493562411673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29209003410673656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150146110102194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449031727395127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12607882997546332,0.1338459808005106,0.0,0.09899098797695917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432284656970392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255767228322273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294892987868088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19000876100689126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099341294720448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771314538926933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwawayformyanon,2019/07/24,"I’ve found a new way to be weird about food via YouTube I recently became OBSESSED with watching channels like [this one ](https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCc4bErDhizchCS57nLoAv7w) that show people making such cute lunches and putting so much care into them. It makes me envious 1) that they can just make food effortlessly without thinking about calories and 2) that they can take their time and not just scarf down things while cooking because I’m very guilty of that. 🙃 nothing else to add, just felt like sharing",8.958062015503877,11.124000000000002,5.9162790697674446,78.17503875968997,60.62790697674418,7.593798449612403,34.10077519379845,7.793537801064563,2.437812403100774,424,17,67,4,6,116,71,86,0.098,0.753,0.149,0.7142,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,0,7,8,1,1,1,0,3,4,0,3,0,17,12,5,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,6,4,0,3,3,0,1,2,3,0,1,2,2,6,5,9,9,1,8,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,6,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350146346386673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20656149963419126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924408830255228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19452522647464068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899630370147262,0.22213753597431646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979576621944255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057059108042251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14893236260936446,0.0,0.0,0.19566978205542707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943976203739293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728520689195228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14045549235914756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20366629343253725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200040440536814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1523279928401763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459667630890396,0.12981620066851854,0.0,0.0,0.11813614340269207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716403057367088,0.0,0.16081234544603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952966146601177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WonderWaffle16,2019/07/24,Tfw the “fat” baggy jeans you could only wear with a belt are now nearly skin-tight I hate myself lol why am I like this,-1.9826923076923075,-0.4588908076923062,0.05338461538461559,103.9416153846154,110.92307692307692,2.08,5.2,3.1291,-2.7724830769230766,93,0,22,0,5,30,25,26,0.132,0.679,0.18899999999999997,0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,2,1,3,2,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44332278514534973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5481954614928263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712676179964379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222934468670542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5010277121370815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,daft_tube,2019/07/24,"Just been lectured on the quality of my food choices by a man who had a share bag of doritos for dinner. But sure, MY dinner plan 'isn't real food'. 

I'm so done with people commenting on my meals, it's hard enough to keep them down as it is.",1.9173076923076915,2.95502611538462,3.77615384615385,91.14384615384618,76.30769230769229,6.7384615384615385,22.615384615384606,7.1686216300943375,0.5859076923076927,186,5,43,2,4,63,43,52,0.027999999999999997,0.882,0.09,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,5,0,0,1,6,7,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,1,4,2,10,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,29,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29273707537400273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29557481039285444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6918059405344706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562521517759997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25426186238071674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19831688648756532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255971018360506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26960667028584834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,trikewheelz,2019/07/24,"Last night was an EVENT Last night I had to hear my sister in law bitch about her daughter not getting over an abusive marriage quickly and then complain about how big she is(morbidly obese) and while she's complaining she talks about how my mother in law got skinny, father in law is dead so now she's the fat one.

BUT ON TOP OF THIS SHIT we had extended an olive branch several times since we found out I was pregnant and then again after I had the baby, because she found out through one of her moms friends the day before we were going to tell her. 

So huge fight happens on nephew's birthday and all I did was drink so I wasn't having it so I screamed it's her own fault she's jealous I made her brother happy and everyone but her likes me. And that if she doesn't like my age or the age difference then she can lose her niece and it's her own fault her kids lose the baby cousin. We got out side and I realized I left my purse so boyfriend grabs it and takes 30 mins cuz she's still screaming at everyone. I cry on my other sister in laws shoulder and get even more drunk and now I haven't eaten for 2 days because it's my fault even tho its not.

Here's to disordered eating as coping!",2.7173790322580618,4.218202431451616,3.4250322580645154,92.59254838709681,75.08870967741936,6.411612903225808,23.690322580645162,6.961326702584282,0.6222719354838708,945,28,208,9,20,298,140,248,0.18899999999999997,0.767,0.044000000000000004,-0.9881,0,0,1,0,1,0,11.0,4,0,0,3,19,17,4,0,8,0,14,9,4,4,1,36,26,29,1,1,6,9,1,2,1,0,2,3,0,1,9,18,7,0,3,2,0,1,5,13,0,2,15,4,40,4,24,11,4,39,0,2,0,0,40,17,2,2,23,139,49,0,0.0,0.1639117049799585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16866302780344974,0.0,0.11771817526488912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196131655539435,0.1784372637530742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453711372131525,0.15855100506615613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552171284136966,0.0,0.14155758857779674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18274612098662968,0.0,0.0,0.2643818977452734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30336797925627523,0.10688207101480347,0.0,0.1445551385003858,0.0,0.07862249428881123,0.0,0.221288197043996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233466978928267,0.14726678406723506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15592059120339724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255330907754688,0.0,0.0,0.1503081228911765,0.0,0.0,0.13517304874841746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3095368418593825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090179214406467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16202354608897235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596476968659513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874871602132409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628618322468876,0.14200525785572973,0.11443727350015838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104794641907609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10401536860801323,0.11119341947710217,0.12091630990265413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08066786854372042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Carpenoctem-carpe,2019/07/24,"Does anyone else Facetune their photos to their GW? TW


I take photos of myself that I look particularly fat in and facetune them to see what I would’ve looked like if I’d been my goal weight. When I’m done, I can’t tell which looks more distorted; the image i created with pinched walls and uneven skin, or the real one with my fat body in it. I click the little before and after button a bunch of times to see my body expand like a balloon animal in the unedited version and I want to ~die~.  ✨😌

Does anyone else do this?",2.537777777777777,4.164132037037041,3.9492592592592617,88.12166666666668,75.85185185185185,6.2814814814814826,20.333333333333336,6.937597516519254,0.3250111111111109,412,9,86,4,9,136,74,108,0.028999999999999998,0.863,0.10800000000000001,0.7155,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,6,0,4,6,5,0,0,10,12,7,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,8,14,2,12,10,3,8,0,0,6,0,4,5,0,2,5,51,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317946617178413,0.3396640811963564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14104235257599282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682251904182418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720239299874304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29010057970751596,0.16962137338259975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769282862135827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16195566026610475,0.1661265878237484,0.0,0.0,0.4175686446566475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123175333578022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188661540436124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641650353119201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462453023521285,0.0,0.14487415197443018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09665105605906177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776455291449353,0.0,0.0,0.20184072230105368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11774513855044752,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,agriff1,2019/07/24,"The dress I bought last week to wear to this weekend's wedding doesn't fit anymore I'm panicking. I bought this dress a little over a week ago and spent the upper limit of my budget on it. It was ""this feels a bit tight but manageable"" when I bought it, but I guess in the week since I've gained a considerable amount. I tried it on last night and it felt like I might tear a seam if I bend the wrong way.   


It's Wednesday morning and the wedding is on Saturday. I'm \*hoping\* that the majority of the weight was a combination of trying the dress on at night after eating and water weight. But that doesn't help my nerves at all. I live in MN and the wedding is in NYC. I have tomorrow and Friday to have fun in the city on my own and tbh I was planning on eating a lot of food and treating myself. Now every fiber in my body is screaming at me to fast until the reception. I can't afford to buy a new dress. I am not going to be able to return this dress before I have to fly out. I'm stuck with this dress and I don't want to be a nervous wreck in front of family I haven't seen in 5 years.   


I just needed to get this off my chest. I can never tell whether I'm doing good with ED stuff or just in binge mode because healthy eating often feels like a binge but I felt like I was doing good and then I get slammed with this. I'm honestly probably going to cave and eat less than I should in the next few days and trying to remind myself that I'm just doing the best to take care of myself and that progress isn't linear.",2.8210056014937317,3.5389369447852768,4.1991757802080585,90.20185249399842,73.72392638036808,7.019258468925048,22.456121632435327,7.079830092131019,0.4936512670045339,1188,27,272,11,23,394,158,326,0.07400000000000001,0.78,0.146,0.9814,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,5,6,14,0,1,23,0,25,11,3,0,2,45,51,23,0,5,11,0,7,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,18,17,8,2,5,1,6,3,8,3,0,0,12,9,30,11,46,35,9,53,0,0,1,0,5,25,0,7,27,177,48,1,0.11191295490718584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09920408208391364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11098757935987788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06822109857292777,0.0,0.09522968184740402,0.0,0.1174457416944608,0.0,0.1221799615574492,0.12431006393216387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410271613533435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07217459758737357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4580595678794901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429149127547054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550157388857133,0.0,0.11317310521825236,0.0799506373469593,0.21490797401166387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13532558929980698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693979980426203,0.0,0.12720542261762324,0.18773455380393114,0.0,0.0,0.12328473700836436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501289465044265,0.0,0.0,0.11115481585808758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18244799014494656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402505047784413,0.11216618140516736,0.09882118952342632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514439221694962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872195969890935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298203801977569,0.08631417003924763,0.10808622922312247,0.11902069716858428,0.21004545397783295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12066109371777956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257555277579002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281135584288521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414461435111921,0.0,0.09781685535204092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279446506680517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600916036893734,0.08883129448605352,0.26930946582350146,0.27255965910272634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235924780102173,0.0,0.07206827374987189
EDAnonymous,0815FaceInTheMirror,2019/07/24,"do you think hypnosis would work to terminate the last blockades and bad behavoir? Hey there. I hope I'm allowed to ask my question here. I don't want to trigger anyone. But I need advise from someone who have expierence with BE.

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I had a BES for about 7 years and made a therapy for almost 5 years. I'm free of BE attacks  for almost 3 or 4 years yet. So me and my therapist think I'm fine. And I know I'm fine. If i had bad feelings, I can let it go and don't swallow it and grew into an BE attack. So I'm almost happy.

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But now the point: you can guess that I have overweight at all. I need to get rid of about 15kg (\~30lbs) to get my ""normal"" weight (on the BMI scale). But: everything I try don't work. I can't get rid of that. And I tried everything.

The bad thing is: if you ever had an ED you really really should not make a (hardcore) diet... so what do I do?

Before I get diagnosed with BES I tries a hypnosis therapy. The therapist said, I you are a normal human, you eat when you're hungry and you stop when you're full. Guess, it didn't work out, sure thing, because of my BES.

But now, do you think I have a chance right now? To get away the blockades that terminates my goals? Or do you think it's dangerous? I would be really thankful for every helpful thought.

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(Yes I know, we should love ourselves, and most of the time I do. But the look of others is still disturbing sometimes, when you can exactly see what they're thinking =/ )",1.60557611241218,3.440856488524592,3.3211651053864166,90.65284836065577,79.19672131147541,6.7177985948477765,23.351873536299767,7.7094869923839395,1.0345807962529268,1139,38,249,18,28,379,149,305,0.114,0.7979999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.7872,1,0,0,0,0,0,67.0,1,10,0,4,16,15,3,1,16,1,32,7,0,4,4,59,66,24,0,12,10,0,2,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,13,14,5,1,10,0,1,2,6,7,0,0,7,5,37,9,26,50,3,25,0,0,2,1,20,8,0,12,15,160,50,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473982930406975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676930757187753,0.3002090566604352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758415471214118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699030499514424,0.18738017934914056,0.07737472805274469,0.0,0.2062876076271221,0.0502025156880588,0.0,0.07007758152417533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835880454476943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08426917450601178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449432581930412,0.06938718620819358,0.0,0.14802976051446895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041640890494544634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21513403686823585,0.0,0.0468039386505977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814454493764684,0.0,0.0,0.08766785624269596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05520045996430125,0.0,0.0,0.08179656299368568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09051971719084057,0.06712987828622555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421301714650077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915700663292917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07432811734611329,0.07792578325305037,0.05497224292095474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12212958022250435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137977463061903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785158596556292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225584521633548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582751316151878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033026062597615,0.07833795240542371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562584379728617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977866845694898,0.0,0.08145066877996644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06576837978633229,0.06885201787465564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761810587079845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07582092399809562,0.1883590092666634,0.19123975585306607,0.10942529042880966,0.2638470698176068,0.0,0.06538024379656016,0.048021549106870204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773982155885475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04857479545619913,0.0,0.0,0.10028554837334794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17986508765967013,0.0,0.0,0.1170044939713914,0.0,0.3002090566604352,0.15910072041737813
EDAnonymous,kanamia,2019/07/24,Boyfriend found out I’m just gonna mark everything with tw just to be safe. If you see on I post that isn’t please let me know so I can learn better my bf asked if my ED was back because he noticed a drastic mood change with me probably the hormone imbalance. I’ve been eating while at his house to make him feel better but as soon as I leave I know I’m going back to... my usual restricting. It’s been 6 days. Well 5 since coming here I’ve kinda put it on hold. Lost a nice bit of weight. He hasn’t asked me numbers. His focus is on getting proper nutrition in me. Anyone else have to deal with a bf?,-0.6504705882352901,1.4975537538461552,1.5523529411764727,97.55323529411768,92.23076923076924,4.597285067873304,16.877828054298643,6.2272716619740125,-0.3967194570135741,468,12,109,5,17,156,93,130,0.061,0.8270000000000001,0.11199999999999999,0.6666,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,3,8,7,0,0,4,0,10,2,0,1,0,20,25,7,0,2,5,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,2,3,5,0,0,3,2,1,1,0,5,3,15,5,16,17,1,16,0,1,1,0,11,6,0,3,6,60,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526849991884587,0.16891057294268774,0.0,0.0,0.30822913037268473,0.0,0.0,0.2535223512402166,0.0,0.10049237857953257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915967705996044,0.17997591959822629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743917821018122,0.14200558397496024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631603911834356,0.16995539235380905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16868496869086447,0.13771287009100047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481585387781268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335423184703053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807519420074459,0.0,0.0,0.0861284769577723,0.0,0.09368931133082327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902173196343356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18119692936061133,0.0,0.0,0.17455469015713115,0.0,0.16857255626382453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17995566358504886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11004013187914057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876853364568728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18095822503105646,0.0,0.0,0.15788285012411368,0.0,0.1777385671493619,0.0,0.0,0.16572200595421102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313658697993658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363674536376633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18156142181961754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074558326541492,0.1482219369074369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,TheWhiteMystery,2019/07/24,"I’m almost a week into a cycle of not eating and I’m fucking scared because I know I have to do it for 3 more days I had to quit binging and go through my purging process of excessively exercising last Wednesday because I knew some shit was going to happen that weekend that would make me feel like shit regardless, and exponentially more so if I was binging (i was right, they were literally three of the worst days of my life) and starting last Saturday I started helping out with a local theatre group’s tech week, and that lasts until next Saturday, so I feel like I can’t eat until then. 

The way this shit works in my mind is that I absolutely positively cannot eat anything solid, but anything liquid is fair game, so I’ve been trying to consume a decent amount of smoothies to keep myself, you know, alive, but I’m so fucking scared I won’t be able to make it. I’ve done a week before. I’ve done 8 days before. I’ve never done 10. I don’t know what I’m scared is going to happen, I’m just scared. 

On top of that, I generally feel really good about my body right now and I know that the goddamn second food is in my mouth when I’m done with this shit, I’m gonna feel like fucking garbage. And also my OCD has been getting worse and worse in the past month or so. And there’s other shit going on that’s not remotely relevant to this sub. I’m just fucking sick of it and I needed to vent. So I’m glad this sub exists. Thank you if you read this.",3.896881188118812,4.407262805280531,5.234011551155117,84.52111633663367,71.11221122112211,7.776171617161717,27.03118811881189,7.734863291789972,1.3960007920792084,1142,36,244,13,20,383,150,303,0.165,0.737,0.098,-0.9766,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,3,1,3,13,20,9,4,9,0,24,18,7,2,1,43,61,26,0,5,9,0,4,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,17,14,4,1,9,4,0,4,7,14,0,2,12,4,27,6,30,45,5,40,0,0,0,4,7,11,9,5,27,144,44,2,0.07953840781184937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07964622612436288,0.0,0.0,0.06360683599070069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309066650351882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969717503065857,0.0,0.1353626535346739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834924042845244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538870789710165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255816253475136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441629439304016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608680354056974,0.17046676329993166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617815844495917,0.0,0.0,0.2941279054289053,0.041555535254972485,0.0,0.18081404049120528,0.0667130427983806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067110269678545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053312918158602784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069739143225667,0.0,0.0,0.1748489152973035,0.19450325464959986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05618032966768146,0.1165753452501168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618500968053624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08031111803865094,0.0,0.0634867982747444,0.0,0.0,0.05897672156498041,0.06134492349180365,0.0,0.08458999905146486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592841021484946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08459888728404097,0.07955993203460161,0.0,0.05095434074160257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13585073136168507,0.0,0.0,0.31852728722836576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4082251631061519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125953888623306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322827959104458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400135786603469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313388591290373,0.19140273919159628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05790490818489138,0.0,0.16211286543311484,0.05650180284113221,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,nomeatthx,2019/07/24,"Back on my bullsh*t First things First, I completely forgot that Reddit existed after r/proED got deleted, but it's bittersweet to come back and see so many people have kinda revived a new supportive community:)

Anyway, I've been at a new low weight since I've been gone, was doing really well with restricting/fasting, I was at my best and lowest mentally but as the story always goes with me, I've managed to binge myself back to near my start weight from last year, I feel really disgusted, I don't even leave my house most days, I don't want to be seen at all. I'm disgusted that my work pants used to fit loosely on my and now if I gain 2lbs I won't be able to fit them at all. 

Idk where I was going with this, but thanks for listening",9.369492273730684,5.764158278145697,9.385264900662252,72.59944260485655,62.24503311258278,13.245474613686536,35.762693156732894,11.20814326018867,3.624588520971303,584,16,121,12,6,194,100,151,0.127,0.706,0.16699999999999998,0.8205,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,5,9,7,2,0,3,0,12,2,0,1,2,19,27,9,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,7,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,3,1,2,9,6,17,4,20,15,4,27,0,1,2,0,2,11,0,3,13,79,22,2,0.1599022888714951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13305151384637146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688649698888007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678075869833799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774166314651948,0.1676545076134063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10312374793580838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10561395372521937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085140177963047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720256104559432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087615571536377,0.0,0.12788846776261656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18450577246544375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303417073044673,0.0,0.1693134358470594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621158232590474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611438977627476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088692540126401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085611352768597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20487500156638805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742142161145145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227282573916047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317966307580835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814552224835192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721654404283152,0.0,0.0,0.10623197554422507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381042372806013,0.0,0.0,0.0943145129018565,0.0,0.0,0.3894358198360997,0.14377136118836595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641077072551745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297183143076907
EDAnonymous,adjustyourinsides,2019/07/24,"Water = evil Does anyone else hate drinking water when bingeing? Its like i don’t eat at all and i drink soooo much water or lemonade zero or diet coke (and sooo much water). But as soon as its eat/drink time,Alcohol=OK. NO water. Until tomorrow. Maybe A SIP before bed.",-0.6107272727272743,1.3769371090909068,2.0022727272727288,90.50340909090907,105.1818181818182,3.654545454545455,14.590909090909092,5.6839178017228535,-0.4508545454545456,211,5,40,2,10,72,42,55,0.19899999999999998,0.7559999999999999,0.045,-0.8602,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,0,1,10,0,0,1,6,2,9,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,10,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,5,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257127756744254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767870233512387,0.21640339069581405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797189930807835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482598710587825,0.0,0.0,0.6206983514048352,0.0,0.4322287059733828,0.17643378689063166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20852016047559274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318357449077356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121827408007508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105183878418826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231547131615666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,qwerty0476,2019/07/24,"Accountability Partner Hi there, I'm a 17 year old male looking for an accountability partner. Recovering from atypical anorexia which has now morphed into binge eating. First time doing this but I'd imagine we'd encourage each other and share advice. 
Any person going through any ED is welcome and I hope we can get better together.
-PM for contact info.",4.188452380952384,7.508061873015876,5.6495039682539705,68.58473214285718,81.06349206349206,6.9595238095238106,31.684523809523807,8.07648339933343,3.2964619047619053,290,15,40,6,8,97,54,63,0.0,0.737,0.263,0.9636,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,2,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,5,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,5,5,9,1,7,0,0,1,0,11,1,0,1,5,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050247820218024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4245390262695741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760671584153885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194025769086409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655106392452144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630830399354891,0.0,0.17739937174071116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100307218577221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621234426387994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32754399190790306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725532426522914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820144391088696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010113440540328
EDAnonymous,herrokutty711,2019/07/24,"Recovery for 2 years long enough to become a cow I have been in recovery for 2 years prior to the point I have reached. I had surgery on my lower spine in December, a tumor removed and a metal plate placed in place of my bones. Prior to surgery I had been in a restrict/binge recovery for 2 whole ass years!!! Welp I binged up until like 2 weeks ago now I’m a fuggin massive ass beached wale and I’m attempting to lose weight in a healthy way. However, and this is the biggest kicker!!!! I can’t I can only restrict and binge, at the best of all this I have kicked purging but I don’t feel like I’m in a better place I binge more alcohol calories than I eat and I’m just miserable I feel like I can’t work out too much but then I totally over do it and work our way more than someone with the physical problems I have should then hurt and starve/drink myself to death I make up for whole lost meals with alcohol and then spend so much time depressed about the 6lbs I lost in a week. Please help I don’t think I’m ok",3.17462015503876,3.9040899348837215,4.214883720930235,90.37317829457369,72.90697674418605,7.779844961240313,26.426356589147293,8.021203637495839,1.3119054263565897,796,26,182,11,15,259,114,215,0.188,0.6890000000000001,0.12300000000000001,-0.9452,2,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,8,5,13,0,1,13,1,16,9,4,1,2,23,27,15,1,2,3,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,11,5,1,3,1,1,1,4,7,0,0,6,3,22,6,30,20,10,36,0,6,0,2,2,18,2,0,18,111,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11369292683525345,0.2741374682777831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416508200917608,0.0,0.0,0.13459879711689415,0.11343372682178872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104683774030612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564395473398318,0.0,0.1312398941735568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13252473947104992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970213826900218,0.18325499861247505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859685948807975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730277947641475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798105553108305,0.0,0.0,0.11350424252176433,0.0,0.1434878298527831,0.280017388960313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561317214415658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1885686896595051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975459443239684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.402006752859706,0.1407887050471777,0.12124521170710102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272552876577725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086725379421911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218251032800956,0.0,0.0,0.07478823733328842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036103686971448,0.20576156915272392,0.15618362031915187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2863908235077654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867466184667452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24778172840679416
EDAnonymous,ZodiacPark,2019/07/24,"Well, I'm back I guess. (Talking death of a family member and relapse in this post, please avoid if need be because it's heavy) With a shiny new alt username and everything.

I was doing so well. I'd gone almost a full year without actually acting on the desire to duck and weave around food, and my weight was holding strong at a healthy number for the first time in my entire life. My depression and anxiety were virtually nonexistent, my ADHD was sorted, and my hypoglycemia was under control. 

It's been 18 days since my grandma died. I still don't know if it's really sunk in. I keep waiting for an out of the blue ""I love you buddy"" text from her, or for her to call and tell me about how her garden is doing, or to go to her house and hear her singing in the kitchen. 

I'm so numb right now. I welcome that pain in my gut and the hypo indicators and the headaches because at least then I'm feeling something. I can't control my insomnia, but I can control if/when/what/how much I eat. I'm drowning in my summer classes and don't know how I'm supposed to catch up when I've got five days left in the semester and eleven assignments overdue. 

I wish I could cry, at least then I'd have some sort of relief. But all I can do is sit here and stare at a blank Word document.

​

Sorry for the rant and sorry that this was all over the place. I'm really frazzled and didn't know where else to put this. I don't want to complain to my mom about it, she's grieving enough as it is. 

Thank you for listening.",3.2113586956521734,4.312517451923078,4.374793756967673,87.8586120401338,73.19871794871796,7.477369007803791,26.385730211817172,7.893859768569023,1.3756363991081393,1183,40,255,16,23,388,177,312,0.098,0.8009999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.0245,0,1,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,0,5,15,13,0,1,15,0,23,10,1,5,2,51,46,29,4,7,7,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,2,0,10,18,4,7,4,2,0,5,6,6,2,3,10,7,32,7,39,34,8,42,0,2,3,1,17,22,0,9,13,165,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.11284718838669243,0.0,0.13897585903409548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11579596536424412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529503636906694,0.1405142982185636,0.0,0.0,0.0884636795888099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294341436832667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891941496715898,0.0,0.14098517891203285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180805632591001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389097623060978,0.09232850001406513,0.0,0.12702424284258065,0.14915544848463946,0.0,0.09959988264001247,0.0,0.12001524352360422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183277818020317,0.09660172195498028,0.0,0.0,0.11948621685692498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10392906602587816,0.0,0.10901435612533364,0.0,0.05847065944771136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836265346009404,0.13983139247174672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0657204282893326,0.0,0.09248724055791804,0.0,0.1273896277532579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303337947454497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343212301214338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278544368002206,0.0,0.0,0.19065685775363694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564234067017566,0.0,0.08167939430291114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436890242065036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543524583191754,0.0,0.0,0.08500812540742175,0.08574500939908496,0.0,0.11168507018879964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304827324652667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081836252326353,0.1269371274330825,0.0,0.0,0.1107503981223477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624934641498308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14816287884022333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987552540085323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09565794998905544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890247139387865,0.0,0.2588972574850418,0.0,0.0,0.09234962296058916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294641714299476,0.10107376706692693,0.10646504850044597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06743015364542243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06820700251916442,0.0,0.0,0.14081740512329388,0.2079470760764656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297938521830074,0.11147207242133908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405142982185636,0.07446786024447771
EDAnonymous,starvingthearies,2019/07/24,"My mom is trying to get me into a doctors appt. And I'm very scared. I didnt eat today and my heart hurts so bad and I can't stand up, it hurts to breathe... And other ED symptoms etc...

If I go to the doctor he'll be like ????? because I'll pretend I don't know why my body is failing OR he'll laugh in my face if I said I have an ED. Sucks being overweight.

Also, I feel like they'll notice I lost quite a bit of weight since I last went... 

How tf do I get my mom to think I'm fine enough to stay home but she still actually cares if I'm on the verge of death?",-1.0605545617173533,0.4523935348837221,1.6350387596899232,101.01423971377464,86.51937984496124,4.279308288610614,16.124627310673823,4.713530739802397,-1.1512878950506855,422,8,114,1,13,146,86,129,0.18600000000000005,0.727,0.08800000000000001,-0.8898,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,3,4,12,1,1,5,0,10,10,4,1,0,14,26,12,1,3,5,2,2,2,0,3,4,1,1,0,2,5,3,0,3,1,0,2,3,7,0,0,4,3,18,5,11,17,3,12,0,4,0,0,7,5,1,4,5,60,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.14558509812611367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930487736523232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456500467176305,0.09094307709245712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287368417549788,0.1657132465474145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521062006772244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305398655827372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265565736262182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415016408051588,0.16638306264204955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07543348500650346,0.10657930065525123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558882142216886,0.0,0.08478647220351135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17678744276595262,0.0,0.0,0.14964683454839645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3194157720207973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08198933366233806,0.12160740577475905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577057169251592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285535299263587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.349452278538102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985051268353135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15867885448874114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191110439842508,0.0,0.14936232225816176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340911842639925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15901360848109372,0.1191410181577236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506252923182898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559307569420873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14141193557560447,0.0,0.0,0.10128825427985763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12309498926703027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816697078219543,0.0,0.13829794491391847,0.13461816152522618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,clittaryhilton,2019/07/24,"Will fasting help with chipmunk cheeks? So i've been purging for about a year but recently I've noticed that my glands have gotten noticeably large and they're  making me very self conscious. So I decided to quit purging and have been purge free for about a week after reading that eventually the swelling goes down after some time without purging.  However, I've noticed that my glands have actually gotten larger in these past few days without purging which I think might be happening because my glands have gotten used to producing alot of saliva and purging helped release that buildup?? I've been eating (not bingeing) without purging this week and I feel like maybe the sodium from food is also causing the glands to retain more water. Am I correct in assuming that if I fast (only drinking water) the glands won't need to produce saliva and will help them go down? I'm just really desperate and these swollen cheeks are making me look ridiculous. Thanks in advance ",8.55537142857143,9.01822250857143,7.417857142857143,73.04964285714287,61.05714285714285,9.514285714285714,38.64285714285714,9.120678840339163,3.711171428571428,789,37,123,11,10,240,110,175,0.037000000000000005,0.863,0.1,0.9056,1,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,4,6,4,1,0,7,0,15,13,2,6,1,31,29,11,0,2,7,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,0,1,9,7,5,1,5,2,1,2,5,1,0,0,6,2,11,4,21,18,4,18,0,0,1,0,5,5,0,5,12,79,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.1375046067693917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268303184139013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589541247665472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447499887051577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908731603534183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803491583961838,0.0,0.14418272479087724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712466579792314,0.10066376995303468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703849330295891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08008052108196223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460332366369226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833403592957313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883989294620496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183261342379134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18811262406857496,0.0,0.1415597127143733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947973444715745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448052776873044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4812696132381006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071658898652387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345113828198729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987161302862892,0.1409448247994058,0.0,0.090268435944251,0.0,0.1391283606687667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14699641187319987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129727951914701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090287319597933,0.0,0.0,0.08216382609056545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169814180627544,0.0,0.1162627790365135,0.0,0.0,0.22605370024493535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074870726475168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907392907724624
EDAnonymous,vicious__trollop,2018/11/17,"[rant] I feel very comfortable speaking about this here and I don't think anyone else in my life can relate I wasn't super active on /r/proED, but I kind of just need a space to be able to air my thoughts in front of people who I think may be able to understand to a certain extent. 

 

I've been feeling like shit lately. Everything in my life is falling apart. It seems like it's been a really long time since I've felt genuinely happy for more than just a few hours. Last night was especially bad and I don't really want to go into exactly why I've been feeling so down, but I woke up this morning and didn't really feel any better. 

 

Then I weighed myself after finally getting out of bed at noon and the number was a few pounds lower than I expected. And I don't know how to describe the feeling. It's like every other part of my life is pushing my head underwater, but seeing my weight go down felt like someone had passed me a straw to let me breathe just a little bit. And it felt so good. At this point, I feel like the only thing that makes me feel good is seeing my weight go down. And I really don't want to attach my happiness to something so superficial, but I just can't help it. 

 

I've never been ""technically"" overweight, but I've always felt fat. My brother constantly called me fat all throughout highschool and honestly, I was pretty fat. And then in college I was finally able to shed most of the excess weight. But I gained like 10 pounds over the course of a year, mostly because I was just happy and not thinking about my weight for the first time. But lately I've just been feeling fat and sad. I can't really change the sad part, so I've been trying to change the fat part. And honestly changing the fat part gives me a brief respite from the sad part, so I don't mind. I've lost like 7 pounds since like October. Which isn't a severe amount, but I just really like the high I get from seeing any decrease. 

 

Idk what the point of this was, but I guess I just needed to vent. If you made it this far. Thanks for reading :)

Tl;dr: my life is sad, but maybe being skinny will make it less sad",4.064482758620692,4.9346684942528745,5.011666666666667,84.95750000000002,70.95402298850577,8.282758620689657,25.53448275862069,8.548686976883017,1.550572413793104,1685,48,350,27,30,551,198,435,0.09699999999999999,0.69,0.213,0.9955,1,0,1,0,0,0,57.0,0,1,0,5,18,30,1,0,22,0,34,20,10,4,4,71,73,31,0,6,20,1,16,9,0,2,11,1,1,0,18,14,13,0,19,1,0,8,12,8,0,1,23,20,41,22,43,44,15,48,0,6,3,0,7,22,1,6,27,213,59,3,0.18624581088876208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05165714483342886,0.2690630110470611,0.0,0.08443569203023225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04340913380140661,0.06361028092239962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05183582419979945,0.03784457254889045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054906428208608866,0.06777739608280682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339259881581022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19702337260707994,0.0,0.0,0.06708851884475486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051861492152363735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230670946324624,0.0,0.05579524187586903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511239414555535,0.13305404451260425,0.2384335809287873,0.136015454803549,0.0,0.052806863866088134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06487049945134288,0.059554650902224615,0.10584778636447972,0.10414276653389787,0.0,0.0,0.0683902527441181,0.0,0.0,0.19826212891786832,0.0,0.0,0.06371397796320405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041612213715178856,0.06559297493618661,0.0,0.0,0.06113820245459239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06464878392103134,0.03411860897190702,0.05060506459052877,0.14006225798602448,0.0,0.0,0.0634829867245033,0.1754012322316316,0.27297088668288466,0.06222241034688295,0.0,0.05494056060755908,0.0,0.0,0.06776976784103286,0.0,0.0,0.058743429832753276,0.08288034999378116,0.0,0.06236965005872959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268505876169213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09206593924127753,0.047881417015817884,0.0,0.0,0.0582596922939553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04721611057952255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33614343945125297,0.0,0.043039798245233414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737499417068965,0.0,0.0,0.06315964875050666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06209873721674576,0.0,0.23862767110377744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14841379795191992,0.056517063776555486,0.0,0.0701349178473001,0.06372621615103177,0.10270963958552587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052601823725182524,0.0477937081230753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057156706584175425,0.0,0.0,0.04124448033688393,0.11933879534128207,0.0,0.049286123328907236,0.07240095338558232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04214956003245316,0.0,0.0,0.06462948581550028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051224099740819054,0.07323506981650722,0.0,0.0,0.3023962969985724,0.0,0.0,0.05601929188145124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039978731967864216
EDAnonymous,ReneeLouvier,2018/11/17,"Finally getting better! Okay so I'm mostly a lurker you guys, and I sometimes would reply in food (usually promoting my love of Monster Ultra Sunrise!)

But despite being a legitimate fat bitch (I weigh over 200) I'm finally below 250, y'all! I weighed myself this morning and I'm 245 lbs!!

I can fit into my size 18 pants again. I know it's a bit unconventional...but I've honestly swung between BED and restricting for so long. 

I'm just so happy and I wanted you all to know.",1.3811291866028697,3.8594522421052666,4.173971291866028,80.51961722488039,84.47368421052632,6.822966507177035,25.47846889952153,8.00094639256281,2.0078421052631583,373,16,69,8,11,132,69,95,0.064,0.705,0.231,0.9478,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,3,0,2,5,6,1,0,3,1,3,5,1,0,1,14,12,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,2,5,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,12,5,8,10,3,10,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,1,5,40,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179108246472073,0.2689926982088612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5398136591292444,0.0,0.0,0.29793425156172765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12872795127931785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439635972676366,0.0,0.2622854033572561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27081762407259075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21804628818845545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223754643314325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436847714803297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713623958967534,0.0,0.14532646702293314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17502749702776524,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,evil_erin,2018/11/17,DAE start experiencing severe panic attacks during recovery? I've been to the ER three times this year because they're so bad they feel like heart attacks. The near constant anxiety sucks.,6.192727272727272,9.126925242424246,5.863636363636368,72.61545454545455,69.30303030303031,8.036363636363637,32.21212121212121,8.841846274778883,3.1954121212121214,155,7,23,3,3,48,30,33,0.444,0.501,0.054000000000000006,-0.9508,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,6,3,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,1,1,2,1,1,2,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021835975974536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6013434076172272,0.0,0.0,0.22067380756880114,0.16111069996664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856070898103054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363459824396912,0.1888111363668239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31318875014948544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912032224312325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100911603238673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985761218965755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706810854989933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411150784084138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17019617496803072
EDAnonymous,Krystal787,2018/11/17,"Thanks so much for assuming my size Haven’t had any bulimic tendencies in over 6 months. Come to the go karting track and instead of a small, which they normally give me, give me a medium, same as my boyfriend. And now everything sucks.",5.642666666666668,6.660758155555558,5.468888888888892,82.57000000000005,67.44444444444444,10.444444444444443,32.77777777777778,10.504223727775694,3.4001111111111104,187,8,37,5,3,58,40,45,0.055999999999999994,0.878,0.065,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,8,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,6,7,2,7,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,1,2,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266622054209403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871170209774969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2995575039771363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6394825786109112,0.18942773385222966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660448335549125,0.0,0.245021174908682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265729966239853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30686703353667405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Mally_Is_Here,2018/11/17,"Anyone else struggle with over exercise? I'm anorexic, and part of my anorexia is over exercise. I will exercise until I pass out. I can't stop myself. Does anyone else struggle with this? I track how far I go and how many calories I burn. Every day I need to out do the previous. I don't know what to do, it's becoming an obsession.",0.8288235294117641,3.2001227647058816,3.3426470588235304,86.23691176470591,86.05882352941177,6.9294117647058835,24.676470588235286,8.07648339933343,1.851052941176471,260,11,52,6,8,90,46,68,0.12,0.8490000000000001,0.031,-0.6675,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,0,6,3,0,2,0,11,10,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,1,3,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,10,0,10,9,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088372807401489,0.4525597372448444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439038689715445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242553882235548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19326129755108595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689721680404411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18606984867514825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551023118284713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136960006765643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22390025519313064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375237095345227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23915157177221055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846347322469024,0.0,0.4617463464745673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,legumego,2018/11/17,"Bought a scale again... ""I weighed myself... todaaaay... to see if I'm still faaaat""

Yeah I fucking hate my brain. I haven't weighed myself in MONTHS, and I was doing so well until I got triggered by my pants getting tighter. Then I started ""just trying to restrict a little bit"" and only using a measuring tape. 

Then my SO mentioned that they want to lose weight, too, so here we gooooo! 

On the plus side, I wasn't as heavy as I thought I was, but I'm just so frustrated that I keep ending up here no matter what I do.  But part of me also doesn't want to recover because I fucking hate being this overweight.

Just... fuck my life.",1.125,3.4511492777777804,2.3422222222222224,94.30000000000004,84.0,4.552380952380953,22.492063492063494,5.773587663045528,0.21924444444444446,483,17,101,3,14,154,84,126,0.221,0.723,0.055999999999999994,-0.9789,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,1,1,14,8,6,0,4,1,8,9,1,2,0,18,25,16,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,4,2,1,0,1,0,4,7,1,0,6,2,21,1,13,18,2,13,0,1,1,3,3,5,3,1,8,73,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460912451386535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113616447423582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994421338590842,0.0,0.0,0.2039342485053628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180260031467644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.50666148455036,0.09544414202098823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14610799951728606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607225819013621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237672856268376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903415467248752,0.0,0.18309600265959314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20437515125120392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14581554427860413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389383834545873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782750215125533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14557441599702955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12930371633462184,0.0,0.14589059621145914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14502961421459462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402952429484805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777915074706667,0.0,0.0,0.21550191423226386,0.0,0.0,0.22245824651774915,0.16425363708399746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,-Merendis-,2018/11/17,"Boyfriend said I have big arms... So we got really drunk last night and I was telling him how much I hate my body. He was trying to make me feel better but then said something that I just can't stop thinking about. He said ""I don't care that your arms are a little bit on the bigger side...I still think you are beautiful"". I know he was trying to be nice but it hurt me so much. Especially because we talked about this before a few times and he always insisted that I had skinny arms. But yeah...I just can't take this anymore. I've been trying to recover for a while now...I gained 14 pounds and it's definitely showing. I always had chubby arms but when I was at my LW I actually started to like them. I want to get back there so badly...",0.5631130634071795,2.734333409090908,2.424759358288771,93.81302139037436,85.03896103896105,5.441711229946525,18.14973262032085,6.794906146795322,-0.040884186401833215,571,14,129,7,17,189,98,154,0.08,0.7929999999999999,0.128,0.7501,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,2,2,1,2,12,7,1,0,4,0,14,7,6,2,0,19,29,14,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,5,2,1,4,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,11,4,21,4,10,17,4,15,0,1,0,0,15,5,0,0,11,78,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.15475799162455528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26391410137143695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727564576163805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12194357939688567,0.13241348323305893,0.09667313580950404,0.0,0.13494581821324164,0.0,0.0,0.14025727425427748,0.17313588118515644,0.17615435612130553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16168996987629533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08018632944654051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285513854580306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12683647509757892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565717856914928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697706152875778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871552430539801,0.12926953463376725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747757567039948,0.15894579118545926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10585802390206868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331593183294997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14882311428085038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159486421608198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4525575307212753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208798580702475,0.0,0.0,0.11224866298275707,0.0,0.12664774710816873,0.13258579542336002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192376537605643,0.127466187251895,0.13861198866209695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032322345908597,0.0,0.0,0.09247332877574248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230103975462384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353869489797267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,KayaMu38grenoble,2018/11/17,Is there French people in this sub?  Always wondering if I wasn't the only one in those sub reddit,1.939,4.171886900000004,3.6500000000000017,86.70500000000001,80.0,6.0,15.0,7.1686216300943375,-0.03949999999999987,78,1,15,1,2,26,18,20,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4521480346355636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682184045562373,0.4132762596637205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37672156001738777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5892885207923936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,allndrrose,2018/11/17,"Is it just me or do people with EDs have a taste for weird food combos? I throw together really trash meals that most people think “ew wtf” or that just don’t make sense to put together. I’m only a bit pickier than the average joe too. I was wondering if this was just me or if it’s something people do when they have an ED? Because I’ve noticed with people i know who also have an ED eat really strange food combos like just cabbage and just ranch or just straight tuna. I’ll put strange things together like lettuce and pasta (that wouldn’t make sense to be added) topped with balsamic (looking back it was a pretty gross combo) or even chicken, white wine vinegar, and ranch together. Also i don’t mean things like milkshakes and fries or waffles and chicken, those combos make sense because sweet + savory is ace.",5.774716981132077,6.375487509433963,5.899050314465409,81.0889528301887,66.9874213836478,8.875723270440252,30.365408805031446,8.841846274778883,2.367568050314466,650,23,122,10,10,206,93,159,0.079,0.8220000000000001,0.099,0.4895,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,12,6,0,0,6,0,14,7,0,3,0,31,23,16,0,3,14,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,11,8,7,0,4,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,3,4,7,4,7,18,2,7,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,10,5,71,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475600539001092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901868605698945,0.0,0.18870873986088546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16898310833495694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838180131209115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223280897707933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743287921463084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850647698104816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22685768207179804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299788605748613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099568581402989,0.0,0.0,0.16860422361131933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17622163906246902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11771955829443173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292285812044596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157470106319297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111996287965939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198316095180082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191596287886852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056620906613629,0.09917879090093244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678557206070972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,bobeta,2018/11/17,"I can’t even tell people how mad I am about all this. I keep wanting to bitch to my friends about how Reddit destroyed my favorite sub, but then I would have to answer for why my favorite message board was about Eating Disorders. ",8.974,6.795599844444448,7.869444444444448,78.71750000000002,61.66666666666667,9.888888888888893,38.05555555555557,7.1686216300943375,2.7912222222222223,183,7,35,1,2,56,34,45,0.136,0.6990000000000001,0.165,0.3506,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,8,7,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,7,1,7,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4302675788959759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3841517175265289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479635212553198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29005107790857965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33369344143091856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26027121695038513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32813647500463505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22143436449193546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33876109705739343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666899111146855,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,instantanarchy,2018/11/17,"[Rant/Rave] Scale malfunction + ED Brain ^~~I hope this isn't breaking any rules! First time posting since the Reddit Rapture~~

So I hadn't weighed myself in a while, but I was feeling kind of down one morning and paranoid about having gained A Lot Of Weight so i stepped on the scale. The scale had a major graphical glitch for a little while so I stepped off and on again and it showed my weight in kilograms, which I can't read (it's normally in pounds). So:

ED: ""[Number] kilograms?? Yikes. You gotta get down to [smaller number], pronto.""

Me: ""Why would I do that? I don't know what that number of kilograms represents. For all I know I weigh the exact same as last time I checked. This number is literally meaningless to me.""

ED: ""Yeah, but I really don't trust that first digit."" 

It was a weird/funny experience. The ED Brain stops at nothing 😓",1.9647878787878768,4.455261266666668,2.788636363636368,91.3962878787879,81.78787878787878,5.606060606060606,22.5,6.937597516519254,0.6893636363636362,659,22,133,8,18,207,101,165,0.086,0.848,0.066,-0.7229,1,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,1,0,3,6,3,0,0,10,1,12,6,2,0,2,16,18,12,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,3,4,1,3,2,1,2,5,0,0,3,4,3,17,3,18,12,4,23,0,0,0,0,1,10,0,2,9,85,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382853322751765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4065488972316317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17812052693527866,0.0,0.0,0.09207098497404437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097740464798514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513534624575733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808580468111448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896203819829584,0.20014556418827045,0.14842895868930162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825036219132659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15480776796355936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841110779171473,0.17472180270573734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12338998176445208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17439341949804588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18214087810347845,0.0,0.11665254266208992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062805446835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15223673240130536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123581543880876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4434770298010788,0.0,0.0,0.1643093478440509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935264926367235,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Jellygator0,2018/11/17,"I frequently wonder how much of an influence HAES had on the ban Let's not pretend or tiptoe around this topic - there are an equal amount (if not more) people who support the HAES movement who had issues with our sub than people who were ""worried"" about us. People who 'just' worry are less likely have the time or patience for the extended pursuit of shutting down something down... But people who are jealous? People who hate? People who have thinly veiled body issues of their own just hidden behind another form of a coping mechanism? Those people have the time and the anger to go after things in the name of activism.

Knowing that, why would I want to recover and end up like one of those petty, vindictive people? Trade my insecurities for yours? No thanks - I don't shut down voices. ",6.1866896551724135,7.5839806689655225,6.015344827586207,77.7616379310345,66.44827586206897,8.006896551724138,27.603448275862068,8.238735603445708,1.9711241379310345,627,19,104,8,10,196,101,145,0.153,0.7809999999999999,0.066,-0.9429,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,2,1,1,0,6,8,3,1,10,0,12,1,1,2,0,20,19,7,0,3,8,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,12,4,0,1,2,1,1,2,4,4,0,1,3,2,8,4,22,14,7,17,1,0,0,0,12,10,0,4,7,84,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941271122380694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835627136573415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476807032006855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775680958887885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556019870347105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126346643612774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775365770685579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306743849680877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595335120214622,0.0,0.12990814543819318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773568149793936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009232795402447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7373824211386949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023536402580965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087337881656535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12240517034144352,0.0,0.0,0.08832800108672373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505181389332792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15992597230849148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841906690910506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199693155003187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14418175196525762,0.0,0.2700402534670452,0.0,0.094445927720706,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Echolaura,2018/11/17,"For anyone concerned that we can't post weightloss pics here.. Don't worry!  You can post them to r/progress pics  or loseit and get a ton of comments about how much ""healthier"" and ""happier"" you look. 


 And how people are treating you differently because you're subconsciously acting confident,  not because you conform to beauty ideals or anything. 

Unless your BMI is below 18.499999 in which case you'll get 50% ""you look great but take care of yourself"" and 50% ""bMi DoEsNt eQuaL HeAlth, tHeY lOok sExY AF tO mE""

/s 

Tagged shitpost cause I'm shit talkin",4.138811881188122,6.884954811881193,3.7707821782178255,86.01716336633665,75.13861386138613,6.02019801980198,26.931683168316827,7.1686216300943375,1.4617398019801984,440,17,77,5,10,132,78,101,0.044000000000000004,0.78,0.175,0.909,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,1,7,2,1,4,5,1,0,1,0,7,2,1,3,0,14,15,10,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,3,11,4,10,14,3,5,0,0,3,0,11,2,1,2,0,44,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459154946800621,0.0,0.17172772661223154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544215486855862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21276548132210565,0.2143741745730401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180285554838686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180557451546908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23007293842884305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218194936622427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5257216442898608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534054791001075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467400986655488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997198574385475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21420935041705566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156903095556853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119269739798149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,WorstCunt,2018/11/17,"When r/incels was banned it was ""right"" but when when r/proed was banned... it It was wrong?

I've not been active in proed for a while, and for good reason (aka I was in recovery, like everyone else who left that piece of shit sub) If you wanna be sick that's fine, but don't suck other people in.

How can you guys seriously think how you were behaving was normal? Today I've seen you spilling over into legit recovery subs trying to recruit users. If you want to remain in your sickly state of mind, that's fine, but **get the fuck out of the recovery subs** and don't prey on other mentally compromised people.

That's the lowest of the low, the sickest of the sick. You couldn't be more disgusting. 

If you wanna be ill and relish in that, go right ahead, But don't you fucking dare drag us down with you. If you want to kill yourself, please do it alone.",1.7359231553893224,3.8595272369942215,2.9753553213192814,91.85617137028223,80.09826589595377,6.151513090785447,18.26895613736824,7.285733465282438,0.1987024141448485,664,14,142,9,17,214,99,173,0.242,0.643,0.115,-0.985,1,1,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,11,0,1,5,13,6,0,7,0,17,8,1,3,0,28,26,17,1,10,9,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,12,6,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,9,0,0,9,1,13,4,24,13,2,22,0,1,1,2,14,14,4,4,7,93,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19579925167014892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579273926339761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806458066488485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495481895967001,0.098771057407258,0.0,0.10744172746071233,0.1585665481053631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18718966806764045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20915631288030667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540386718694145,0.0,0.0,0.09236050061138704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905183885595959,0.0,0.1908870623748609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18522930188603606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621275568544277,0.0,0.0,0.2075206234242491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943753490099877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32289610286122783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19405757029887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12113589490096825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17919772160512978,0.0,0.0,0.12835284601989966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22740441430137526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22301370719355676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20669698954663596,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,ilikepizza6665,2018/11/17,"Need resources to give to my boyfriend I’m trying to find some good resources to show my boyfriend in order to better explain anorexia/ED to him. Does anyone have any good ones in particular that have helped them? Thanks!

P.s I’m devastated about what happened with r/proED. My number one place to go to feel less isolated especially since insurance doesn’t cover an ED specific therapist. ",5.51582159624413,7.951154971830987,5.478521126760565,76.86078638497655,69.70422535211267,8.67699530516432,31.551643192488264,9.2995712137729,3.1277586854460093,317,14,53,7,6,99,53,71,0.077,0.754,0.16899999999999998,0.7339,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,12,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,5,4,12,12,2,5,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,0,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17163639950358867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647957284640414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232217542305132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22087146446710432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761785953370433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23068330768094605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421190756840384,0.14344117998914108,0.42339179208292665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231909524988686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16917420502433714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18714676161629806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34205706314799045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636977411102129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20878271153932096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323702474559785,0.0,0.293048587696676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17135878325105322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Musictomydick,2018/11/17,"Help with drinking too much? I managed on less than 200 kcal all day today after a long week of binging and felt on top of the fucking world. Went out with a friend for a catch up after work and managed to get to maintenance (1800) just from drinking. LIKE I’VE BEEN LIVING OFF SHIT NOODLES AND EXTRA LIGHT LAUGHING COW AND ANGST HOW IS BOOZE THIS HIGH CALORIE AND WHY DO U FALL FOR IT EVERY GODDAMN TIME. 

 Today I actually ate no calorie peanut butter. Do you guys have any fucking clue how disgusting and unpeanut that shit is?? BUT I STILL ATE IT OUT OF THE TUB L IKE A SAVAGE BECAUSE HEY ITS FREE REAL ESTATE 

WHY IS NO CALORIE ALCOHOL NOT A THING YET PEOPLE WE HAVE SPACE TRAVEL GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER

I’m just dunk and fat and sick of this shit .(",0.3882695652173922,2.829092673333335,1.8214782608695683,93.61943478260868,95.6,3.942028985507246,19.85507246376812,5.7926816847441245,0.03916811594202897,591,20,117,5,23,189,105,150,0.20600000000000002,0.706,0.08800000000000001,-0.9742,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,1,2,0,2,7,11,7,0,7,0,8,14,5,2,1,22,17,11,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,1,7,13,7,0,1,3,1,4,3,7,0,0,5,3,6,5,20,12,4,24,0,0,0,2,7,10,6,0,11,71,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.14122405515341155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154659708926768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984133161629598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08821885138271855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333124548502522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835374177728289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12193129734774732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895213516701999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118088968415787,0.2675792268831586,0.1512185384793975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329373789589545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09700153681754066,0.1529026890228539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707019864032211,0.0,0.12778879282794395,0.12807102378709773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10638450423671854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003293552868985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16472095689411625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5942044751117893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155721151128032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614431967745128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843863269751356,0.0,0.2743518017452595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608418430868815,0.0,0.0,0.13415519068584816,0.26117127250786026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535654916699946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Internal-Panic,2018/11/19,"dOWnWaRD SpIraL WOW I'VE TAKEN A TURN FOR THE WORST. I'm anxious and disassociated. I've full on relapsed. I purge every time I feel even a little bit full. I straight up purged kimchi and snap peas yesterday. Excuse me WHAT THE FUCK. I've started drinking alone by myself. I've taken an ECA stack AND an old Valium today. (It was a prescription, but I'm supposed to be off of it. It was just leftover). I want to drink or have a one night stand. Porque no los dos? tho amirite?? I'm already planning how I'm going to purge all of my Thanksgiving food, and I've roped my family into running with me over the break so that I don't look suspicious when I overexercise. I want to message my ex and tell him how much of a shitty boyfriend he was. I want to binge. I want to restrict. I want to feel everything and nothing. Guess it's time to call my mom...or my therapist. Porque no los dos, amirite? ",0.3994139194139201,2.8154675769230764,2.279587912087912,92.22582875457876,90.26373626373626,5.231135531135532,21.31959706959707,6.816661863887847,0.5965597069597073,697,25,147,10,24,230,112,182,0.132,0.7829999999999999,0.085,-0.9223,0,1,2,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,0,10,0,6,4,0,2,1,23,25,13,0,5,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,8,3,1,2,2,0,2,3,2,0,1,5,3,19,1,19,19,6,22,0,0,1,1,7,10,1,2,8,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564509897663915,0.17649296644860374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806817602399037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460830645558553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16331218017764532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133520970526497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10563598820955344,0.0,0.13475268280421004,0.0,0.14373984920168106,0.0,0.15077309658851434,0.0,0.16173653999053847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933948224122908,0.0,0.0,0.14785793093937,0.0,0.0,0.09089511541868724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618714940199864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602975375592772,0.0,0.0,0.13430566488939585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873146998898756,0.0,0.0,0.11757110492975922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008877286525862,0.0,0.15346256933442115,0.0,0.16782556024314282,0.0,0.10837653537487453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320327601164698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397908072495175,0.0,0.0,0.18569761629114548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865195269670914,0.0,0.15160029509037895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17396406014911772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4716709497881073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,tinylittlelegs,2018/11/19,"I miss having hope for the future I don't know how to cope with it anymore. It's not getting better, I'm not getting better, and I'm so incredibly sick of everything. I wasted years going through treatments, and for what? I jumped through all their fucking hoops and in the end it did fuck all. I'm still sick. And I'm so angry and sad about it all, but it's like I'm not allowed to feel it. No one wants to hear it. Even if they're paid to listen. 

I don't have any hope left. No dreams or plans or things I want to do. Just missed opportunities and lost time. And I wish I could talk to someone but I don't have any friends left either, so. The world gets smaller and smaller every year. I can't stand it, but I can't seem to change it either. I feel so lost in it. They should have just let me die years ago. 
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EDAnonymous,ChuislemoChroi,2018/11/19,"Today is international men's day Here's to all the wonderful men out there who may be suffering from EDs, depression, or anything else and may be too ashamed to seek help. 
You are not worth less than anybody else.
Your suffering is no less real than anybody else's. 
You're not ""unmanly"" for asking for help. It actually takes a lot of courage! If you're not ready to seek help yet do not feel ashamed either. Everyone is on their own journey, your travel time is never the same as anybody else's.",3.7638402061855687,5.642114082474227,4.588234536082479,83.76317654639178,73.12371134020619,8.148969072164949,28.619845360824733,8.841846274778883,2.258073195876289,394,16,78,8,8,127,65,97,0.196,0.6729999999999999,0.131,-0.7482,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,1,0,4,6,0,2,3,0,10,0,0,0,2,18,14,4,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,2,6,5,0,0,0,1,4,1,12,10,7,9,0,3,0,0,11,2,0,6,5,51,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.19275014944503507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254138984992844,0.0,0.18465369568583948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12738347936254749,0.0,0.1701229116828779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6600074528987008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873796485621105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987159190955233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39717866827294623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679236757469667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15233890683740245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22481997860477884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485097818895281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517497580639367,0.0,0.1872250118064817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21420103870241256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MeMyselfAndCarbs,2018/11/19,"What’s your favorite cold weather clothing? It’s that time of the year again... AND I AM FREEZING. I’ve been obsessively searching for the perfect Sherpa/Teddy sweater when it finally dawned on me that I should ask those who understand the bone-chilling cold I am feeling. 

What’s your favorite thing to wear when the temperature drops? ",5.671967213114755,7.992361114754104,5.030295081967214,80.72740983606558,69.0,7.50295081967213,35.15081967213115,8.238735603445708,2.9445121311475417,272,14,46,4,5,82,45,61,0.057999999999999996,0.753,0.18899999999999997,0.8413,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,3,2,0,1,4,0,4,1,1,0,1,5,7,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,4,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,31,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354346499397839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235508699138372,0.0,0.0,0.5102312848043182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094387211184125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715958382842485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.484885862882469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999423823751913
EDAnonymous,__scooter,2018/11/19,"Help with digestive issues / IBS due to bulimia? Has anyone managed to overcome the gas, bloating, and cramping that is a result of B/P? 

For the past year it seems that I can't properly digest the foods I eat and I often have bad gas following meals.

I'm on a high quality probiotic supplement right now but it's not enough. Any other tips, tricks, or suggestions from anyone who has overcome this? 

It's so uncomfortable :(",3.234250000000003,5.788845925000004,4.830000000000002,78.24500000000002,77.25,8.5,27.5,9.188382445141503,2.832,334,14,59,9,8,112,64,80,0.16399999999999998,0.813,0.023,-0.9101,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,5,0,5,6,0,1,0,9,8,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,8,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,7,8,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,4,37,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19444531538172247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3998642047933805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387434257302623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925824527674835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29544684999162457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34575322177275714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19165591765819828,0.30210557624672657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984414070406968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27295690498057834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441865638099549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603040971476012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413249087291994
EDAnonymous,makeupjunkiez,2018/11/19,"Thought I was getting better... but everything just got so much worse Hello, I am new here. I've been really needing someone to talk to and thought I would post my journey here. 

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I decided I wanted to get healthy and lose weight about 6 months ago, but I ended up developing a mild eating disorder when counting calories, restricting, and overexercising took control over me. 

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I realized that I had an extremely unhealthy relationship with food three months ago but I still wanted to lose weight. About a month ago I decided that I had enough and I would stop losing weight and start recovery because my period had been gone for too long and my hair started falling out. I stopped tracking macros and started intuitive eating. However, there are certain times I cannot stop myself from eating, and I don't know if I should just keep listening to my body or if it is just mental hunger. I have certainly overeaten a couple of times but I wouldn't say I went to the point of full-on bingeing to the point I'm so stuffed I can't physically move. That's happened very few times.

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However, recently I realized I started gaining some weight after those days I overeat, and sometimes my weight goes back to normal in a couple of days due to water retention, but overall I did gain a very small amount of weight. I know I shouldn't worry about it but to someone with an ED it is very triggering and I started purging this weekend. I have purged 3 times in the last 2 days and I never used to struggle with purging before. I have purged probably a total of 3 times since I developed my ED until this weekend. It is really scary to me and I feel like if I listen to my body too much I will end up bingeing and purging. I am so stressed and I thought I was getting better, but apparently not.",4.60961468673284,6.382274198847266,5.1668908101184785,80.909102358843,70.70028818443805,8.253132671576475,31.87202476251468,8.841846274778883,2.767950667093608,1445,66,263,27,27,463,176,347,0.139,0.773,0.087,-0.9588,3,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,0,8,17,10,0,2,11,0,26,16,3,3,4,65,53,30,0,12,15,0,8,1,0,6,0,3,0,0,10,18,13,6,10,2,0,6,7,5,0,1,15,11,47,5,34,32,7,54,0,3,0,0,6,9,0,5,39,176,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17427591689078284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21301831464082252,0.238893094705594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050391631528425636,0.0,0.03994894247408316,0.0,0.055764641167136766,0.0,0.0,0.11591906549502835,0.0,0.14558708953263022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350199824982617,0.0,0.1450243374021005,0.0,0.12679210276975528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510768735845481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20117305030671334,0.0,0.0,0.11608741568216893,0.0677141815969384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05889776942643781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03313597966429885,0.04681753121764321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07924402120892708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271649313116836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05241355837751277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057951535077304626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05824966579371218,0.0,0.0,0.07203158896053707,0.053418989251698315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03201662165575399,0.0,0.0,0.05799556309877268,0.0,0.2199474831578398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06604289847498378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692593631379936,0.06965231319523932,0.09635011957816217,0.04859266022651988,0.05054389163654528,0.06329318412923611,0.0,0.0,0.0642094449335791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390170040798094,0.0,0.06276349496753894,0.0,0.07065677909948474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396556814352436,0.0,0.06470695834170022,0.07035903345101444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05211529889312569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05421043503708809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105355872705126,0.0,0.06481484118813688,0.0,0.2319266538083096,0.0,0.05233556893888471,0.16436817539524706,0.0750690213191268,0.06851040749649231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05267377890741857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15608012243447647,0.191067128458966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281072966812288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056600369286812176,0.0,0.16221733865713914,0.07730734935387418,0.0,0.0,0.4788168339422523,0.0,0.0607507115690974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665529986431199,0.06678478541452566,0.09310700340031236,0.0,0.238893094705594,0.0
EDAnonymous,snarkylinguist,2019/09/14,"A supposedly good​ friend (20M) calls me (21F) fat and sends me ~30 steps back in my recovery A close friend of mine, let's call him Mike, invited me over last night. I'm visiting my alma mater to see my friends for my birthday weekend, and so I made some time to go see him. He knows I'm going through a lot with my romantic relationship, and he's become worried about me over time with my stress levels. He knows about my struggles with my eating disorder as well as my auto immune condition. However, when I saw him last night, after spending 20 minutes with me, Mike thought it would be appropriate to ask me **""How much have you been eating??? You look BIG. I know I'd want someone to tell me."" He goes on for a while about how worried he is about me.** I had to leave immediately after that because I was so hurt, I could barely keep from crying. As soon as I got home, I threw up just from how angry and sad I was.

I spent the night crying, and tried to text him to tell him how much that hurt, and how incredibly triggering it was for me, but he just ended up getting mad and telling me that he was purely ""concerned about my health and happiness"" and that he would ""ignore the red flags from now on."" He has always thought I was ""too thick for his preference"" and has told me multiple times, and he even specifically told me that he doesn't like ""girls with big butts"". Keep in mind, this is a platonic friend. 

After this specific event, I've been told to talk to him and explain how hurtful it was, but I already did that over text and he just kept talking about my ""health."" Funny because my senior spring semester, the last time Mike saw me, I was eating once a day (maybe) and was near the lowest I'd ever weighed. I had started to gain weight again at the end of the semester, but for a while I weighed less than I did in middle school. For reference, I don't weigh myself because I don’t want to fixate on numbers (a part of my recovery), but I can usually tell based on how I feel and how my clothes fit. Now when he last saw me, I was a size 6. I have since gained about 10-15 pounds ( I think) and wear a size 8. I assure you I am healthier now than I was then, considering I am now actually eating food and not starving myself. 

I am reeling from the impact of this, and I can barely look myself in the mirror, and I don't know if I can ever look at him the same again. *Any advice or support would be appreciated.*",4.4348989072826015,4.701254711967543,5.404144474252436,84.64292154681672,69.8316430020284,8.633095596414316,27.667931688804554,8.558390810932622,1.7093134724857686,1875,58,407,28,31,618,227,493,0.084,0.8190000000000001,0.098,0.8726,2,0,0,0,0,0,79.0,0,3,0,2,35,17,1,2,19,0,39,15,3,10,4,74,76,44,0,8,10,0,3,1,4,3,4,0,1,1,12,25,10,4,11,1,2,6,5,8,1,0,29,12,74,9,63,40,7,67,0,4,9,1,45,23,1,4,39,271,86,2,0.0,0.0,0.07364732134015109,0.0,0.0,0.07374789786238885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08328244271752808,0.0,0.06279664922588545,0.0,0.0,0.05132183119745446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07055377182314182,0.0,0.0,0.05803136809243582,0.0,0.13801647507538992,0.08335010618994691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412554465370273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060256235060898174,0.0,0.16579934979966446,0.048671568167656686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649455712128347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30889645703815083,0.0,0.0,0.13368710926835956,0.0,0.0,0.049846876699947966,0.1365329223284789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03815963434162044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125798916246583,0.0,0.2332301177850899,0.0,0.0394296859833201,0.0,0.08578208407375101,0.06330021529964967,0.06035983370619881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033865986063149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044104637328602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570203718223352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24237490278108936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416147461030176,0.0,0.0,0.16590419982309948,0.2460707807519586,0.0,0.07991127746501178,0.0,0.07717265176007912,0.0,0.03687057354618975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901260554660328,0.0,0.0,0.06416144912968184,0.0,0.07141104235295699,0.0,0.0,0.0758192317772994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620265617573639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095749602464247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21246897052413166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037252819189226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172608735875367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102597286457393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637913817849165,0.12027880157811813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06242912989061985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394504155743691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05341768309289525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08645002903015278,0.07889708181702787,0.0,0.0,0.08564186627488951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131901110888632,0.2638545916351909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0483577924812483,0.0,0.11982866681343368,0.1760274319471059,0.0,0.0,0.21634295361439299,0.0,0.05123881981705087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08311896485227023,0.0,0.08902770381773674,0.0,0.0,0.09190148938282676,0.06785612186042868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15328583118947633,0.0,0.16083404989356198,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,floatupfromdream,2019/09/14,"Is anyone here happy? I know everyone here loves to joke around about their eating disorder. But man this sucks. I don't want to die. My time on this earth is limited. Weight aside, everything else aside, talking shit about people's diets aside. Am I happy? Am I eventually just going to die and watch each day pass by as I just think about calories, living in fear of going over some arbitrary limit I made up while fantasizing about food that I love but won't allow myself to have? Am I going to keep living each day floating in limbo, coming on here to lurk and see people talking about how bad or fat they feel? What's the point of it?

I don't think anyone here is happy. I think everyone here lives a similar hell to what I've been going through while subconsciously making the choice everyday to live by these rules and restrictions I've made that make me miserable. I wake up everyday saying ""yes, i'm going to listen to these same rules and be miserable because of them"" to myself without even realizing it. I have a choice to not do that. I can actually go out and eat food that I want without compensating or restricting for it later. I can give it up. I have a choice in this matter - in the end I'm the captain of my own fucking ship whether I realize it or not. I don't have to live like this.",3.728846153846156,5.216507269230776,5.001538461538463,82.35846153846154,72.46153846153847,8.276923076923078,24.92307692307693,8.841846274778883,1.7677923076923077,1030,31,204,20,20,342,135,260,0.13699999999999998,0.76,0.10300000000000001,-0.8842,0,0,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,3,2,15,15,4,3,7,1,19,12,3,6,0,45,47,15,2,2,12,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,0,1,17,10,7,5,7,1,0,8,8,8,0,0,3,6,26,7,41,42,5,30,1,2,2,3,12,13,4,4,10,139,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.09656299004580847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837923886059805,0.0,0.0,0.08808836125245023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08262088263838595,0.06032029075123412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523848509456028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763185590363196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20539334530875594,0.0,0.1134076963878069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202505433757703,0.08266179467034686,0.0,0.08764220318285802,0.0,0.0,0.06535693859604864,0.0,0.0,0.18910597241195448,0.08893178032701886,0.0,0.0,0.11134863949296514,0.05003316242912287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393065800287695,0.0,0.0,0.09147963565383924,0.0,0.094923885145474,0.3374206032123422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31600909868474936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08795318622309975,0.0,0.0,0.05438149448125913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048343005034494665,0.0,0.43688265134456256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17861629393906447,0.18726176720102952,0.13210261003028556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720187435981762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354173265074953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869069334839654,0.0,0.0,0.07885202413449899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10157292387806156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15906792329849434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021355898758088,0.0,0.0,0.05769977390077453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672904215820408,0.0,0.0,0.12049701799039887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907726151354741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,throwaway59545954,2019/09/14,"underweight and healthy? (15.8 bmi) hi!! i’m a super tall 19 year old girl (6’2 and a half—not trans just very tall genes) and i weigh ~125-130 pounds. this weight puts me at a BMI upwards of 15.8, which is severely underweight. i have maintained this weight for about 8 months. my highest weight was 168 in 2015 (did not restrict), but it dropped to 135 in 2016 (restricting), rose to 145-158 in 2017 (tried restricting but failed), and i started losing again summer of 2018. this is the longest i’ve maintained a weight and i am extremely happy with how i look. 

i’m not sure if i’m even anorexic. I don’t strictly count calories, but usually consume ~1300-1600 a day, which is a very rough approximation due to the fact that i eat out regularly, don’t weigh my food, and graze of handfuls of random food throughout the day that i don’t count. besides walking, i don’t really exercise, because i honestly don’t have the energy and it kinda hurts my bones/joints. 

i’m very social and spend time with friends every day, and usually eat with them too. i honestly feel like i eat a normal amount of food—at least for someone a foot shorter than me. nothing is really off-limits to be honest, and i eat big meals too (for example, i had an entire chipotle burrito last night—with guac).  it’s been super easy for me to maintain this weight through slow eating (usually spending an hour eating each meal; with friends, i usually eat half the meal, say i’m full and finish the rest at home because i’m SUCH a slow eater and i’d rather have them think i don’t eat a lot than lose out on enjoying my food). due to my height, i feel like i need to eat even MORE to maintain a healthy weight, which begins around 150 pounds for someone my height. however, i used to be this weight (as i previously mentioned) and was extremely miserable and cried all the time about how i looked. mentally, i was an absolute wreck. 

right now, i don’t really have many complications at this weight. maybe it’s because i haven’t been at this weight for a very long time, but i’ve only experienced leg/knee pain off-and-on and coldness and dizziness. my periods are very regular. the main thing i’ve noticed is that i’m never super satiated, like my stomach can be very bloated and full after eating a big & balanced meal but i still want more sometimes. but for the most part i’m fine. 

i honestly feel like my body is adapting to it’s current weight. i’m physically full most of the time and have never been more social and relaxed about food. i eat large portions of mostly whole, plant-based foods and RARELY empty calories, and do not rely on diet soda/coffee/tea to fill me up. i do not overexercise in the slightest. 

is it possible to be healthy at an underweight BMI of 15.8-16ish? please let me know your questions/comments below. i am seeing the doctor on thursday and want to be open with them about my concerns as well and see if this is a possibility.",5.25920045045045,5.89969279166667,5.661559684684686,82.19954391891892,68.13194444444444,8.935360360360361,30.498123123123122,8.994212911058018,2.36308826951952,2312,86,460,39,37,741,263,576,0.06,0.7759999999999999,0.16399999999999998,0.9961,2,0,0,0,0,0,91.0,0,1,3,6,18,25,0,1,30,0,41,40,4,3,5,73,65,35,0,7,14,0,15,4,2,0,3,1,1,1,21,33,33,3,5,2,2,3,14,6,1,1,8,22,48,19,60,51,19,66,0,5,4,0,12,28,0,8,38,268,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05011386438693162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0411739559417668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458410254680929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05137538295917105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05080548969964881,0.08948585835332301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04734073233505216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5205991267094735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06109782659097005,0.0,0.03896918174470696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015898114780736,0.0991270010231344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355675520324896,0.0,0.07146813519531815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04923595853620367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639438061671074,0.0,0.04554875937420204,0.0,0.04951356621352662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025418809318087026,0.037701434088806884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04729565428125968,0.0,0.09038527819485473,0.0,0.0,0.04093143524878852,0.07767981691352355,0.1034879875169812,0.0,0.039321672211759064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046892120348527626,0.04646620392361354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046610990188460114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036917788521996536,0.0,0.0,0.03429516361865053,0.07134456214243802,0.0,0.0,0.04340423170738959,0.045316996632714185,0.04437990124539405,0.0526580422309885,0.048533540278561126,0.0,0.0,0.03517661908639977,0.04921523355768722,0.0,0.0,0.050086250573537085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05077064642138246,0.0,0.1042840316280234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0464958880266398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889036588215675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039498830522726056,0.0,0.03678133064217764,0.0,0.0,0.07371347863603686,0.0,0.0,0.052251429850733874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429588085449546,0.07837809144886168,0.0,0.045744266173163135,0.0,0.03273730025400482,0.0,0.03693679027794112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04359182494133014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030727676558269832,0.029636320417087518,0.0,0.0,0.1078793118483318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03140197275300302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03994675155709797,0.20375953067367375,0.2289757401671303,0.054561083559865255,0.0,0.0,0.5632229773956616,0.04158597128883435,0.0,0.0,0.051638543140832674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029784677491007643
EDAnonymous,2girls0guys,2019/09/14,"Apparently I can't even be slutty as a normal person Step 1: have wide ribcage with ribs visible at bmi 22
step 2: take a flattering naked selfie 
step 3: receive mesages like ""oh I like skinny girls like you ""
step 4: feel like a fake/catfish, consider deleting account, maybe cry a little bit",7.247976190476187,6.763551178571429,7.493571428571428,74.58476190476192,64.0,10.323809523809524,36.52380952380953,9.725611199111238,3.4917809523809527,230,10,42,4,3,75,46,56,0.052000000000000005,0.6940000000000001,0.254,0.8721,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,4,0,3,2,2,0,0,3,5,1,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,3,4,1,8,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3188846709513699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32084517906806626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929215054233101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476885733062618,0.20866787284713312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5707981743505487,0.2927491169035951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29344186241724435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28618442584464737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25504015525703017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21961398021123066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,MetalPeanut,2019/09/14,"I want to create a (mostly) BED support discord server The current link [https://discord.gg/QQYgAb](https://discord.gg/QQYgAb)

I've never created a discord server like this before, but if anybody would like to help me out and actually create a helpful and positive server I'd love that!",14.730666666666671,13.982084400000002,12.589444444444444,44.8775,49.444444444444464,12.555555555555555,44.72222222222222,11.20814326018867,5.527222222222222,238,10,27,4,2,74,34,45,0.08199999999999999,0.423,0.495,0.9785,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,10,4,4,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,3,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.34549518958864034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30126477190842843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746155223592742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459353460731475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195379011607983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27306001915460665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4017641414099425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088239113754519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25150220242968874,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,vpuvwv,2019/09/14,"The ultimate hilarity for the day: having no appetite from a breakup for 4 days straight, fasting, then realizing thc oil has MCT oil in it which is 100 cals/tbsp and silently freaking out 🤩 i honestly just love this shit. might as well go to the store and buy some more beer and impulse chocolate bars and a random ass sardine tin since for some reason the beers youve had the past few days didnt count but that mct oil seems like a binge so why not continue!!! yee haw bitch!!!",9.13626315789474,6.287140284210532,8.329342105263162,77.64664473684212,61.94736842105264,11.605263157894738,38.48684210526316,9.516144504307137,3.306526315789473,377,14,79,5,4,118,79,95,0.145,0.748,0.107,-0.7089,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,2,0,8,0,6,6,2,1,0,15,9,8,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,3,0,3,3,2,1,3,3,1,0,2,3,1,4,8,6,4,11,0,0,0,2,1,3,3,5,8,42,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5493735995293432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16137556988915028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387238345256496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562763442850443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3012265280916402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710628098550675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919483282727302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25849780204181205,0.0,0.0,0.2914710302823009,0.2348867254174193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25530553270959905,0.0,0.2562210924570509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,crumbly-toast,2019/09/14,"I'm losing weight again, I'm really worried had a member of the gym I work at pull me aside today. he said ""I don't mean to embarrass you, but you look like you've lost weight since the last time I saw you"", and well, he's right. I've lost a little more than what's considered healthy within the last month. I know that cuz I'm dumb and decided to weigh myself right after we talked. and now I can't stop thinking of the number. it's so gratifying and I hate it.

I've been eating less lately because of the medication I'm on, I'm just not as hungry as I usually am. but I know I have been intentionally eating less, to counteract the weight I gained when I was off my medication. I'm a ways off from being underweight, so that's good I suppose. but I know I can get there if I keep going at the pace I am.

I know I shouldn't intentionally eat less, but I'm so terrified of gaining weight. and I suck so bad at maintaining my weight. so I'm in a hard spot rn. I do want to lose a little weight, but I'm terrified of spiraling out of control again. I can feel it already. the more weight I'm losing, the more I want to keep going. but I wouldn't handle being anorexic again. I just can't do it again. I don't know what to do.",0.9935125786163505,2.6204925320754744,3.4551179245283024,89.95751965408806,80.28301886792455,6.831761006289308,20.09827044025157,7.793537801064563,0.5747138364779882,951,24,222,16,24,331,122,265,0.192,0.684,0.124,-0.9764,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,3,0,9,15,13,3,1,14,0,20,13,0,4,0,37,52,21,0,5,10,0,9,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,8,7,11,4,9,1,0,3,7,10,1,0,8,12,33,3,26,40,6,32,0,5,2,0,8,13,2,1,16,136,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09165478810672302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693486136688139,0.05063040246140348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315480016824856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25496225608537404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0419958047060878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04339353405102785,0.0,0.09440571725063006,0.06966375662247798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440220859123074,0.08200098669894966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764866550803885,0.0,0.0,0.22822809022869384,0.13540408117934513,0.093691221935776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040577155225997336,0.16648863843878414,0.0,0.0,0.06974644658462824,0.2787565553175452,0.1813317149281936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047275398507354,0.0,0.16734114335151484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629481549984864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05320804813250071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141859400944545,0.07900564352061537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870510140077317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694388583419684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675757754978702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053219178959611216,0.0,0.0,0.04843084703580327,0.0,0.07872774311078097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147487588739528,0.0,0.09797761764407756,0.06592629384571523,0.0,0.7079821247860341,0.07467766635947401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06046603875092809,0.08434779239776945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,jessieisabelend,2019/09/14,"Was lying in bed with my lovely supportive partner And they hold my side and mention how nice it is where they can feel my bones 
I don’t ever wanna eat again!",0.6786363636363646,3.063199212121216,2.288106060606061,93.3521590909091,87.18181818181819,4.512121212121213,17.340909090909093,5.985473137389443,-0.3065090909090906,126,3,26,1,4,41,29,33,0.086,0.684,0.23,0.69,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,8,7,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,3,6,0,5,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4979186584454604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401623131018184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460422384942057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.439180242249949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552193878443764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,fufu-_-,2019/09/14,"Am I the only one who... Am I the only one who gets annoyed when a family member eats my low cal/ safe food especially if I binge at the same time?

I just get super angry and it's so illogical. Maybe I'm just stupid and selfish.",3.6542176870748335,3.5071946938775547,6.192244897959185,79.75870748299323,71.44897959183675,8.982312925170069,24.49659863945579,8.841846274778883,1.4967496598639451,176,4,39,3,3,64,37,49,0.258,0.622,0.121,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,2,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,5,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,5,2,1,5,1,4,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32374999050869363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29826805018567604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825848105670152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.330605552041901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178602409835405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42879344688879,0.4812637003087343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844918519577152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,prickleprockle,2019/09/14,"Eating before drinking alcohol I'm going drinking tonight and I usually just do it on an empty stomach and that leaves me feeling awful, wanting to go home, and usually I pass out in the washroom of some club then get politely asked to leave lol so I'm hoping to not do that today. 
But I also really don't want to eat a normal human amount before drinking either so ya know. Probably gonna not eat enough then end up being messy again. I have no idea how to manage calories and alcohol.",3.4725,5.278411958762888,5.31813144329897,78.53018685567012,73.74226804123711,7.73659793814433,27.5889175257732,8.472884824447931,2.2619907216494837,388,15,68,7,8,133,72,97,0.124,0.8009999999999999,0.075,-0.4257,0,0,5,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,3,2,5,9,1,1,0,19,17,11,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,5,8,0,3,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,10,15,4,15,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,8,46,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071021915585972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490149634668985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134322167127111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2445235830134119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4222574983708184,0.0,0.4410640330249672,0.0,0.0,0.12725855592028715,0.14846069084599445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726493375066214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07506729595828407,0.0,0.1633142372933616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441235730917998,0.14270746953858754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621981519542169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07896321869080634,0.0,0.0,0.3042744757545484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14077669298905018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491222061135573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920456096483906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361926130578611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164882386814379,0.0,0.16949333539708206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,altxi,2019/09/14,"Relapsing makes me feel human again I've been in a weird place of bingeing/eating normal since March. I tried to make the best of it because my ED thoughts were greatly diminished during that time and I thought I could recover, but it was miserable. I gained 20 pounds, my clothes stopped fitting, I got out of shape. I was miserable and sweaty and uninspired to do anything except lay around, hiding my body from the world and eating. 

And then... last week, relationship struggles along with school stress, anxiety, and depression triggered me into a very bad relapse. Suddenly I feel human again. I'm on that starvation high that butterflies always talk about. I'm productive, I'm feeling a little more confident. Everything seems so much better. My room is clean, I'm doing stupid dances around my house and singing at the top of my lungs, I'm actually doing my classwork as it's assigned and I enjoy exercise. I'm less socially anxious. I feel like I'm finally functioning as a human should. 

I've had my ED for three years and this really just puts into perspective why such a horrible thing is so hard to get rid of. I know it's only going to get worse from here but right now it's so addictive and it really does feel like a drug - or at least better than any antidepressant I've had. Why does something that ruins my life make me feel so damn good??

Sorry for such a long first post. I just needed to get this off my chest.",4.342053749170535,6.222810697080295,4.9431851360318495,81.80531519575318,71.5912408759124,8.631453218314531,27.783012607830127,9.218907990703514,2.4309401459854016,1137,42,212,25,22,364,165,274,0.19899999999999998,0.67,0.131,-0.9705,0,0,2,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,6,15,18,2,4,10,0,13,8,3,4,0,42,39,20,0,4,6,0,7,2,0,1,4,0,2,3,13,17,1,1,10,3,0,3,0,10,0,2,9,7,24,8,31,28,5,37,0,4,0,0,6,19,1,2,16,124,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.10823099773232807,0.12090697137686275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228501290052034,0.0,0.0,0.0754217926039131,0.0,0.08484493448043197,0.1252953840012958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126849886709752,0.1974647061454012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260422194089098,0.06760897988362961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639195137191395,0.19617965537553025,0.0,0.12319468298708301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855165838433901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552559373665838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19411409040670533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861900595956585,0.11348739890623052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967768510833597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33647295429679924,0.15846654906313568,0.0,0.12149517788575853,0.0,0.09433897535049827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383582362230032,0.0,0.06303203142976305,0.09302504604220016,0.08870390539808737,0.12227735226331828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09935250717741766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171812448730665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797387342660668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06095258031145912,0.09040548124809368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07833817098998985,0.10836888264914353,0.11115976231515642,0.0,0.09815080490374566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220974715028992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815307351448829,0.08223747574490031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866708358224203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843511461578858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587609852954885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10621997995164742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149398516789608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210204465902715,0.0,0.0,0.11907455323272435,0.0,0.09471551595975232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224563474363214,0.0,0.1009672132777988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091744912003191,0.0,0.0,0.1130575625887729,0.0,0.08538301884326079,0.0,0.1241533302174584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272472958047688,0.12704566473921627,0.11594596691150386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914429864712325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368288379541751,0.0,0.0,0.17609840969303653,0.06467181779735749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752998003255691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151138183579798,0.0,0.0,0.08896435578927844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20015589675456666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302555046488283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714216360059693
EDAnonymous,gileswithachainsaw,2019/09/14,"ya girl is about to cry over almond milk so i've been recovered from AN for almost five years but i've been relapsing for the last few weeks so now i'm on this subreddit. anyway...

one of my safe foods/drinks is unsweetened almond milk (30 cal a cup) and my husband just went grocery shopping and bought the sweetened, 60 cal/cup almond milk because, bless his heart, he does not understand calories or why i should care, and can't tell the difference between the two. now i'm irrationally disappointed and kinda want to cry because i know i'm gonna be scared of almond milk until i finish this carton 😭

i don't want to be mad at someone for having a perfectly normal relationship with food and not understanding why 30 calories is a big deal, but also can you imagine not checking the calories when you buy something? not freaking out over a small difference? wild",6.465089820359283,6.827123802395214,6.609227544910178,77.42222455089822,65.46706586826348,9.314730538922156,32.867664670658684,9.120678840339163,2.8019705389221548,693,27,127,11,10,222,109,167,0.122,0.75,0.128,-0.1508,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,1,9,8,1,1,10,0,12,6,1,0,1,27,24,13,0,4,8,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,7,5,1,4,1,4,1,6,4,0,3,4,0,10,4,18,16,1,16,1,1,0,0,10,7,0,3,8,76,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355116943314313,0.0,0.0,0.13061475623437085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991286208571469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652558354652533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35882016092554786,0.0,0.1683858187308452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34128968859184006,0.0,0.0,0.14293098038958174,0.0,0.0,0.16000099207129415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19749900344352356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354656114756505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08976176889517165,0.1331355600235769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002849417004456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067647761308004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17535504606951322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16352159059370192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13838878216202025,0.12573923475951682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275741603613268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954945031666046,0.3400640966553717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926722574564461,0.0,0.1310132877633687,0.0,0.0,0.1514083310051666,0.29475942208982353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517901543337334
EDAnonymous,LegoBunny83,2019/09/14,"Like a switch went off in my brain, I just decided to stop eating. I’m not sure what made the switch go off in my mind, but I just suddenly said to myself “I don’t want to eat anymore.” That was 3 days ago and I haven’t eaten anything since that switch went off. No interest in eating and I feel quite empowered by having that level of control over my body and mind. I want to see how long I can go - I don’t know why I am doing this - I want to try not eating for a week and see what happens. Anyone else experience something like this? Where you just don’t want to eat anything anymore? I’ve also started repeatedly weighing myself during the last few days, and getting angry that it isn’t dropping more quickly. Part of me just wants to not eat for two full weeks and then allow myself to eat again if I reach a number I’m happy with. I don’t know what’s going on with me and my mind.",1.4995187165775403,3.26803627807487,3.276470588235295,91.16411764705884,79.26737967914437,5.683422459893047,20.62566844919786,6.522977012572876,0.1930235294117648,692,18,151,6,17,231,104,187,0.057,0.804,0.139,0.8963,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,9,5,0,0,5,0,11,11,2,4,1,36,34,12,0,6,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,10,9,9,2,4,0,0,5,10,0,0,1,6,4,22,5,23,28,4,31,0,0,2,0,2,11,0,1,16,99,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336991326727111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521198821298061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865452443207033,0.06576215416225846,0.0963656432183372,0.1547907609972397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1044686774028823,0.0,0.1049912353081186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10548540489790208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130932144243373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6736585317411153,0.07856695454029053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09199923691350193,0.0,0.0,0.04755465585706685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049137398191572285,0.0,0.1603528528461252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316836667905025,0.10011828959071846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033751667691494,0.07666354445629513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918964485112658,0.0,0.0,0.08323155290230946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899266468560946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848919665259285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018473060851944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003406731579624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946336936947258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14989181931728504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777993772379131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240451320578567,0.0,0.0,0.06656928400893634,0.0,0.0,0.07863025925256859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864129150760526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638539777689767,0.0,0.09187347373731447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773665084743553,0.0,0.15088294981496647,0.0,0.0,0.1743711343988409,0.08486576409523235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
EDAnonymous,Feebas22,2019/09/14,"freaking out about eating at maintenance 2 days ago i made the decision to attempt to start eating enough after restricting (with the occasional binge due to being hungry af) for like 2 years. i’ve been eating around 1100 calories a days which I know isn’t enough for me bc i constantly feel exhausted and sore, and starving to the point where I wake up 2-3 times a night 
i’m pretty active and do weight training plus a bit of cardio about 4 nights a week, and my job involves a lot of heavy lifting and being on my feet for hours. 
online TDEE calculators are telling me that ~1800-2000 is maintenance for me which seems like wayy too much (even though I know it’s probably not)  and for the last couple of days I ate a bit a more, not that much though. last night I went to bed without feeling extremely hungry and slept in a little bit without having to eat breakfast so early.
even though I’ve still been eating a little bit lower than maintenance i feel really guilty whenever I eat something that I wouldn’t have before, like a banana. im so scared that if I continue to eat even just a little bit more that I’ll gain weight. it’s so stupid because I can feel my body is begging me to give it more energy but it’s overridden by my shit ED brain screaming at me that I’ll get fat. i just wanna be able to eat when I’m hungry without feeling miserable about it for hours afterwards :( I’m sitting here feeling my stomach rumble but I just can’t bring myself to eat something extra",6.050142602495544,5.9062671178451165,6.440364428599724,80.0053832442068,66.37373737373737,9.412477718360073,30.265201029906912,9.007467420416297,2.3349375717963947,1182,38,231,18,17,383,159,297,0.121,0.82,0.059000000000000004,-0.9375,2,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,21,10,2,2,15,0,15,24,8,1,0,37,35,18,0,3,11,0,8,3,0,1,4,1,1,0,13,11,14,1,10,0,0,2,8,7,0,0,6,9,25,3,38,25,14,38,0,1,0,0,3,12,1,3,26,144,38,1,0.06832964459908086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0605701071622461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06082787041909269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165311713476797,0.0,0.058143494837690574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729913733970139,0.07589883133385464,0.0,0.07627848134281136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07384007126064347,0.0,0.0,0.07560545209827159,0.0,0.1322009039878436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6292645644540116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14120557707238565,0.0,0.13539325747640005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072971283123818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035699419100941945,0.06554802136411776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345818719426893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380774159289027,0.0,0.06780662882746276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07510437139414088,0.1113955603688589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014723866233778,0.20545276419001068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058091420346924334,0.0,0.0646551618613389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046030177999588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19236822803750805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459360023908874,0.0,0.0,0.06951581350792099,0.07367091376963435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043773720010717616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840989444655794,0.0,0.0,0.06220474216102718,0.0,0.0,0.07013939825757899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520699739353948,0.0,0.0,0.0483640741379801,0.0,0.054568142441826166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059723121130594824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20140058667012625,0.0,0.03984356525817006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05480991931675702,0.16641419801649876,0.0,0.06334226510876349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976020171333806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0440020508464103